"Quicker than the eye" - читать интересную книгу автора (Bradbury Ray Douglas)RAY BRADBURY QUICKER THAN THE EYE 1996www.raybradbury.ru 1994 year The incredible event occurred during my third visit to Gustav Von Seyfertitz, my foreign psychoanalyst. I should have guessed at the strange explosion before it came. After all, my alienist, In After that, «At Liberty,» he could be seen riding the Hollywood Boulevard trolley cars as calm as a mummy, as quiet as an unwired telephone pole. Where was I? Ah, yes! It was my Beddy-bye was, of course, his couch of pain and humiliation where I lay writhing in agonies of assumed Jewish guilt and Northern Baptist stress as he from time to time muttered, «A fruitcake remark!» or «Dumb!» or «If you ever do As you can see, Gustav Von Seyfertitz was a most unusual » Again, this was my third visit to his strange, metallic-looking room with a most odd series of locks on a roundish door. Suddenly, as I was maundering and treading dark waters, I heard his spine stiffen behind me. He gasped a great death rattle, sucked air, and blew it out in a yell that curled and bleached my hair: «Dive! Dive!» I dove. Thinking that the room might be struck by a titanic iceberg, I fell, to scuttle beneath the lion-claw-footed couch. «Dive!» cried the old man. «Dive?» I whispered, and looked up. To see a submarine periscope, all polished brass, slide up to vanish in the ceiling. Gustav Von Seyfertitz stood pretending not to notice me, the sweat-oiled leather couch, or the vanished brass machine. Very calmly, in the fashion of Conrad Veidt in like Jack Nicklaus hits a ball? That was the sound my Germanic friend's boots made as he knocked them together in a salute «Gustav Mannerheim Auschlitz Von Seyfertitz Baron Woldstein, at your service!» He lowered his voice. «Unterderseaboat-« I thought he might say «Doktor.» But: «Unterderseaboat I scrambled off the floor. Another crrrack and-The periscope slid calmly down out of the ceiling, the most beautiful Freudian cigar I had ever seen. «No!» I gasped. «Have I ever «But' '-he shrugged-' 'little white ones.» He stepped to the periscope, slapped two handles in place, slammed one eye shut, and crammed the other angrily against the view piece, turning the periscope in a slow roundabout of the room, the couch, and me. «Fire one,» he ordered. I almost heard the torpedo leave its tube. «Fire And a second soundless and invisible bomb motored on its way to infinity. Struck midships, I sank to the couch. «You, you!» I said mindlessly. «It!» I pointed at the brass machine. «This!» I touched couch. « «Sit down,» said Von Seyfertitz. «I am.» « «I'd rather not,» I said uneasily. Von Seyfertitz turned the periscope so its topmost eye, raked at an angle, glared at me. It had an uncanny resemblance, in its glassy coldness, his own fierce hawk's gaze. His voice, from behind the periscope, echoed. «So you want to know, eh, how Gustav Von Seyfertitz, Baron Woldstein, suffered to leave the cold ocean depths, depart his dear North Sea ship, flee his destroyed and beaten fatherland, to become the Unterderseaboat «Now that you mention-« «I never mention! I declare. And my declarations are sea-battle commands.» «So I noticed . . «Shut up. Sit back-« «Not just now . . .» I said uneasily. His heels knocked as he let his right hand spider to his top coat pocket and slip forth yet a forth eye with which to fasten me: a bright, thin monocle which he screwed into his stare as if decupping a boiled egg. I winced. For now the monocle was part of his glare and regarded me with cold fire. «Why the monocle?» I said. «Idiot! It is to cover my «Oh,» I said. And he began his monologue. And as he talked I realized his need had been pent up, capped, years, so he talked on and on, forgetting me. And it was during this monologue that a strange thing occurred. I rose slowly to my feet as Herr Doktor Von Seyfertitz circled, his long, slim cigar printing smoke cumuli on the air, which read like white Rorschach blots. With each implantation of his foot, a word ca out, and then another, in a sort of plodding grammar. Sometimes he stopped and stood poised with one leg raised and one word stopped in his mouth to be turned on his tongue and examined. Then the shoe went down, the noun slid forth and the verb and object in good time. Until at last, circling, I found myself in a chair stunned, for I saw: Herr Doktor Von Seyfertitz stretched on his couch, his long spider fingers laced on his chest. «It has been no easy thing to come forth on land,» he sibilated. «Some days I was the jellyfish, frozen. Others, the shore-strewn octopi, at He paused to take a trembling breath, then continued: «I moved in stages from the depths to a houseboat, to a wharf bungalow, to a shore-tent and then back to a canal in a city and at last to New York an island surrounded by water, eh? But where, where, in all this, I wondered, would a submarine commander find his place, his work, his mad love and activity? «It was one afternoon in a building with the world's longest elevator that it struck me like a hand grenade in the ganglion. Going down, down, down, other people crushed around me, and the numbers descending and the floors whizzing by the glass windows, rushing by flicker-flash, flicker-flash, conscious, subconscious, id, ego-id, life, death, lust, kill, lust, dark, light, plummeting, falling, ninety, eighty, fifty, lower depths, high exhilaration, id, ego, id, until this shout blazed from my raw throat in a great all-accepting, panic-manic shriek: «'Dive! Dive!' «I remember,» I said. 'Dive!' I screamed so loudly that my fellow passengers, in shock, peed merrily. Among stunned faces, I stepped out of the lift to find one-sixteenth of an inch of pee on the floor. 'Have a nice day!' I said, jubilant with self-discovery, then ran to self-employment, to hang a shingle and next my periscope, carried from the mutilated, divested, castrated unterderseaboat all these years. Too stupid to see in it my psychological future and my final downfall, my beautiful artifact, the brass genitalia of psychotic research, the Von Seyfertitz Mark Nine Periscope!» «That's quite a story,» I said. «Damn right,» snorted the alienist, eyes shut. «And more than half of it true. Did you listen? What have you learned?» «That more submarine captains should become psychiatrists.» «So? I have often wondered: did Nemo really die when his submarine was destroyed? Or did he run off to become my great-grandfather and were his psychological bacteria passed along until I came into the world, thinking to command the ghostlike mechanisms that haunt the under tides, to wind up with the fifty-minute vaudeville routine in this sad, psychotic city?» I got up and touched the fabulous brass symbol that hung like a scientific stalactite in mid-ceiling. «May I look?» «I wouldn't if I were you.» He only half heard me, lying in the midst of his depression as in a dark cloud. «It's only a periscope-« «But a good cigar is a smoke.» I remembered Sigmund Freud's quote about cigars, laughed, and touched the periscope again. «Don't!» he said. «Well, you don't «You think that?» He sighed. «Look!» I hesitated, then pasted one eye to the viewer, shut the other, and cried: «Oh, Jesus!» «I warned you!» said Von Seyfertitz. For they were there. Enough nightmares to paper a thousand cinema screens. Enough phantoms to haunt ten thousand castle walls. Enough panics to shake forty cities into ruin. My God, I thought, he could sell the film rights to this worldwide! The first psychological kaleidoscope in history. And in the instant another thought came: how much of that stuff in there is me? Or Von Seyfertitz? Or both? Are these strange shapes my maundering daymares, sneezed out in the past weeks? When I talked, eyes shut, did my mouth spray invisible founts of small beasts which, caught in the periscope chambers, grew outsize? Like the microscopic photos of those germs that hide in eyebrows and pores, magnified a million times to become elephants on «It's worth millions!» I cried. «Do you «Collected spiders, Gila monsters, trips to the Moon without gossamer wings, iguanas, toads out of bad sisters' mouths, diamonds out of good fairies ears, crippled shadow dancers from Bali, cut-string puppets from Geppetto's attic, little-boy statues that pee white wine, sexual trapeze performers' full of poisoned honey, dragonflies that sew every fourteen-year-old's orifices to keep them neat until they rip the sutures, aged eighteen. Towers with mad witches, garrets with mummies for lumber-« He ran out of steam. «You get the general drift.» «Nuts,» I said. «You're bored. I could get you a five-million-dollar deal with Amalgamated Fruit-cakes Inc. And the Sigmund F. Dreamboats, split three ways!» «You don't understand,» said Von Seyfertitz. «I am keeping myself busy, busy, so I won't remember all the people I torpedoed, sank, drowned mid-Atlantic in 1944. I am not in the Amalgamated Fruitcake Cinema business. I only wish to keep myself occupied by paring fingernails, cleaning earwax, and erasing inkblots from odd bean-bags like you. If I stop, I will fly apart. That periscope contains all and everything I have seen and known in the past forty years of observing pecans, cashews, and almonds. By staring at them I lose my own terrible life lost in the tides. If you won my periscope in some shoddy fly-by-night Hollywood strip poker, I would sink three times in my waterbed, never to be seen again. Have I And suddenly he shivered all over. His hands clutched at his heart. «My God!» he shouted. Too late, he was realizing he had let me step into his mind and life. Now he was on his feet between me and the periscope, staring at it and me, as if we were both terrors. «You saw nothing in that! Nothing at all!» «I did!» «You lie! How could you «My God,» he raved on, «If the world knew, if someone said' '-His words gummed shut in his mouth as if he were tasting the truth of what he said, as if he saw me for the first time and I was a gun fired full in his face. «I would be… laughed out of the city. Such a goddamn ridiculous . . . hey, wait a minute. You!» It was as if he had slipped a devil mask over his face. His eyes grew wide. His mouth gaped. I examined his face and saw murder. I sidled toward the door. «You wouldn't «No» «How come you suddenly know «You «Yes,» he admitted, dazed, looking around for a weapon. «Wait.» «if you don't mind,» I said, «I'd rather not.» And I was out the door and down the hall, my knees jumping to knock my jaw. «Come back!» cried Von Seyfertitz, behind me. «I must kill you!» «I was afraid of that!» I reached the elevator first and by a miracle it flung wide its doors when I banged the Down button. I jumped in. «Say good-bye!» cried Von Seyfertitz, raising his fist as if it held a bomb. «Good-bye!» I said. The doors slammed. I did not see Von Seyfertitz again for a year. Meanwhile, I dined out often, not without guilt, telling friends, and strangers on street corners, of my collision with a submarine commander become phrenologist (he who feels your skull to count the beans). So with my giving one shake of the ripe fruit tree, nuts fell. Overnight they brimmed the Baron's lap to flood his bank account. His Grand Slam will be recalled at century's end: appearances on I had hoped that all this would cause him to forgive and forget. No. One noon a year and a month later, my doorbell rang and there stood Gustav Von Seyfertitz, F Baron Woldstein, tears streaming down his cheeks. «How come I didn't kill you that day?» he mourned. «You didn't catch me,» I said. «Oh, I looked into the old man's rain-washed, tear-ravened face and said, «Who died?» «Me. Or is it I? Ah, to hell with it: «Rumpel-« »-stiltskin! Two halves with a rip from chin to fly. Yank my forelock, go ahead! Watch me fall apart at the seam. Like zipping a psychotic zipper, I fall, two Herr Doktor Admirals for the sick price of one. And which is the Doktor who heals and which the sellout best-seller Admiral? It takes two mirrors to tell. Not to mention the smoke!» He stopped and looked around, holding his head together with his hands. «Can you see the crack? Am I splitting again to become this crazy sailor who desires richness and fame, being sieved through the hands of crazed ladies with ruptured libidos? Suffering fish, I call them! But take their money, spit, spend! You should «I'm not laughing.» «Then cheer up while I finish. Can I lie down? Is that a couch? Too short. What do I do with my legs?» «Sit sidesaddle.» Von Seyfertitz laid himself out with his legs draped over one side. «Hey, not bad. Sit behind. Don't look over my shoulder. Avert your gaze. Neither smirk nor pull long faces as I get out the crazy-glue and paste Rumpel back with Stiltskin, the name of my next book, God help me. Damn you to hell, you and your damned periscope!» «Not mine. Yours. You wanted me to discover it that day. I suppose you had been whispering Dive, Dive, for years to patients, half asleep. But you couldn't resist the loudest scream ever: Dive! That was your captain speaking, wanting fame and money enough to chock a horse show.» «God,» murmured Von Seyfertitz, «How I hate it when you're honest. Feeling better already. How much do I owe you?» He arose. «Now we go kill the monsters instead of you.» «Monsters?» «At my office. If we can get in past the lunatics.» «You have lunatics outside as well as in, now?» «Have I ever lied to you?» «Often. But,» I added, «little white ones.» «Come,» he said. We got out of the elevator to be confronted by a long line of worshippers and supplicants. There must have been seventy people strung out between the elevator and the Baron's door, waiting with copies of books by Madame Blavatsky, Krishna murti, and Shirley MacLaine under their arms. There was a roar like a suddenly opened furnace door when they saw the Baron. We beat it on the double and got inside his office before anyone could surge to follow. «See what you have done to me!» Von Seyfertitz pointed. The office walls were covered with expensive teak paneling. The desk was from Napoleon's age an exquisite Empire piece worth at least fifty thousand dollars. The couch was the best soft leather I had ever seen, and the two pictures on the wall were originals-a Renoir and a Monet. My God, millions! I thought. «Okay,» I said. «The beasts, you said. You'll kill them, not me?» The old man wiped his eyes with the back of one hand, then made a fist. «Yes!» he cried, stepping up to the fine periscope, which reflected his face, madly distorted, in its elongated shape. «Like this. Thus and And before I could prevent, he gave the brass machine a terrific slap with his hand and then a blow and another blow and another, with both fists, cursing. Then he grabbed the periscope as if it were the neck of a spoiled child and throttled and shook it. I cannot say what I heard in that instant. Perhaps real sounds, perhaps imagined temblors, like a glacier cracking in the spring, or icicles in mid-night. Perhaps it was a sound like a great kite breaking its skeleton in the wind and collapsing in folds of tissue. Maybe I thought I heard a vast breath in sucked, a cloud dissolving up inside itself. Or did I sense clock machineries spun so wildly they smoked off their foundations and fell like brass snowflakes? I put my eye to the periscope. I looked in upon- Nothing. It was just a brass tube with some crystal lenses and a view of an empty couch. No more. I seized the view piece and tried to screw it into some new focus on a far place and some dream bacteria that might fibrillate across an unimaginable horizon. But the couch remained only a couch, and the wall beyond looked back at me with its great blank face. Von Seyfertitz leaned forward and a tear ran off the tip of his nose to fall on one rusted fist. «Are they dead?» he whispered. «Gone.» «Good, they deserved to die. Now I can return to some kind of normal, sane world.» And with each word his voice fell deeper within his throat, his chest, his soul, until it, like the vaporous haunts within the peri-kaleidoscope, melted into silence. He clenched his fists together in a fierce clasp of prayer, like one who beseeches God to deliver him from plagues. And whether he was once again praying for my death, eyes shut, or whether he simply wished me gone with the visions within the brass device, I could not say. I only knew that my gossip had done a terrible and irrevocable thing. Me and my wild enthusiasm for a psychological future and the fame of this incredible captain from beneath Nemo's tidal seas. «Gone,» murmured Gustav Von Seyfertitz, Baron Woldstein, whispered for the last time. «Gone.» That was almost the end. I went around a month later. The landlord reluctantly let me look over the premises, mostly because I hinted that I might be renting. We stood in the middle of the empty room where I could see the dent marks where the couch had once stood. I looked up at the ceiling. It was empty. «What's wrong?» said the landlord. «Didn't they fix it so you can't see? Damn fool Baron made a damn big hole up into the office above. Rented that, too, but never used it for anything I knew of. There was just that big damn hole he left when he went away.» I sighed with relief. «Nothing left upstairs?» «Nothing.» I looked up at the perfectly blank ceiling. «Nice job of repair,» I said. «Thank God,» said the landlord. What, I often wonder, ever happened to Gustav Von Seyfertitz? Did he move to Vienna, to take up residence, perhaps, in or near dear Sigmund's very own address? Does he live in Rio, aerating fellow Unterderseaboat Captains who can't sleep for seasickness, roiling on their waterbeds under the shadow of the Andes Cross? Or is he in South Pasadena, within striking distance of the fruit larder nut farms disguised as film studios? I cannot guess. All I know is that some nights in the year, oh, once or twice, in a deep sleep I hear this terrible shout, his cry, «Dive! Dive! Dive!» And wake to find myself, sweating, far und my bed. |
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