"Barr, Nevada - Pigeon 11 - Flashback" - читать интересную книгу автора (Barr Nevada)Flashback Nevada Barr G. P. PUTNAM'S SONS New YORK This is a work
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0-399-14975-9 1. Pigeon, Anna
(Fictitious character)—Fiction. 2. Dry Tortugas
National Park (Fla.)—Fiction. 3. Women park
rangers—Fiction. 4. Florida—Fiction. I. Title. PS3552.A73184F59
2003
2002068264 813'.54—dc21 Printed in the
United States of America 1 3 5 7 9 10 8 6 4 2 This book is
printed on acid-free paper. BOOK DESIGN BY
AMANDA DEWEY FOR JOAN, WHO
HELPED ME WITH THE PLOT TWISTS OF LIFE AND
LITERATURE DURING THE WRITING OF THIS BOOK Due to the
isolated locale and complex nature of Dry Tortugas National Park, this book
could not have been written without the cooperation of the people who work at
Everglades and Dry Tortugas National Parks. My thanks go out to Superintendent
Maureen Finnerty, Chief Ranger Bill Wright, Linda Irey and, most especially,
Supervisory Ranger Paul Taylor, who took the time to show me all the nooks and
crannies above and below sea level; Captain Cliff Green and First Mate Linda
Vanaman, who shared their stories, expertise and wonderful attitudes toward all
things fishy; Al Riemer, who let me hang around his shop and gossip; and Mike
Ryan, who made the history come alive through his knowledge and research. HISTORICAL NOTE In 1865, Dr.
Samuel Mudd was tried and convicted for aiding and abetting John Wilkes Booth
after the assassination of President Lincoln. He received a sentence of life
imprisonment to be served at Fort Jefferson in the Dry Tortugas, Florida. Two
years later, during a yellow fever outbreak at the prison, Dr. Mudd acted
courageously, using his medical skill to treat the sick. Acknowledging his
services, President Andrew Johnson pardoned him in 1869. Though there has been
a great deal of discussion over Dr. Mudd's guilt or innocence, the device of
the doppelganger was a complete fiction created for this story. A month after
Dr. Mudd was pardoned, Samuel Arnold's case was reviewed. President Johnson
found there was sufficient doubt about his participation in the conspiracy to
pardon him as well. After his release, Mr. Arnold lived a quiet life of
seclusion on his farm in Maryland. In 1906, at the age of 72, Samuel Arnold
died of consumption at his home. His wife and children were at his bedside. Throughout
their lives, both men maintained their innocence of any crime connected with
the death of Mr. Lincoln. 1 Until she ran
out of oxygen, Anna was willing to believe she was taking part in a PBS
special. The water was so clear sunlight shone through as if the sea were but
mountain air. Cloud shadows, stealthy and faintly magical at four fathoms,
moved lazily across patches of sand that showed startlingly white against the
dark, ragged coral. Fishes colored so brightly it seemed it must be a trick of
the eye or the tail end of an altered state flitted, nibbled, explored and
slept. Without moving, Anna could see a school of silver fish, tiny anchovies,
synchronized, moving like polished chain mail in a glittering curtain. Four
Blue Tangs, so blue her eyes ached with the joy of them, nosed along the edge
of a screamingly purple sea fan bigger than a coffee table. A jewfish, six feet
long and easily three hundred pounds, his blotchy hide mimicking the
sun-dappled rock, pouting lower lip thick as Anna's wrist, lay without moving
beneath an overhang of a coral-covered rock less than half his size, his wee
fish brain assuring him he was hidden. Countless other fish, big and small,
bright and dull, ever more delightful to Anna because she'd not named
them and so robbed them of a modicum of their mystery, moved around her on
their fishy business. Air, and with
it time, was running out. If she wished to live, she needed to breathe. Her
lungs ached with that peculiar sensation of being full to bursting. Familiar
desperation licked at the edges of her mind. One more kick, greetings to a
spiny lobster (a creature whose body design was only possible in a weightless
world), and, with a strong sense of being hounded from paradise, she swam for
the surface, drove a foot or more into the air and breathed. The sky was as
blue as the eye-watering fishes and every bit as merciless as the sea. The
ocean was calm. Even with her chin barely above the surface she could see for
miles. There was remarkably little to soothe the eye between the unrelenting
glare of sea and sky. To the north was Garden Key, a scrap of sand no more than
thirteen acres in total and, at its highest point, a few meters above sea
level. Covering the key, two of its sides spilling out into the water, was the
most bizarre duty station at which she had served. Fort Jefferson,
a massive brick fortress, had been built on this last lick of America, the Dry
Tortugas, seventy miles off Key West in the Gulf of Mexico. At the time
construction started in 1846, it was the cutting edge of national defense. Made
of brick and mortar with five bastions jutting out from the corners of a
pentagon, it had been built as the first line of defense for the southern
states, guarding an immense natural—and invisible—harbor; it was the only place
for sixty miles where ships could sit out the hurricanes that menaced the Gulf
and the southeastern seaboard or come under the protection of the fort's guns
in time of war. Though real, the harbor was invisible because its breakwaters,
a great broken ring of coral, were submerged. Jefferson never
fired a single shot in defense of its country. Time and substrata conspired
against it. Before the third tier of the fort could be completed, the engineers
noticed the weight of the massive structure was causing it to sink and stopped
construction. Even unfinished it might have seen honorable—if not
glamorous—duty, but the rifled cannon was invented, and the seven-to-fifteen-foot-thick
brick-and-mortar walls were designed only to withstand old-style cannons. Under
siege by these new weapons of war, the fort would not stand. Though destined
for glorious battle, Jefferson sat out the Civil War as a union prison. Till Anna had
been assigned temporary duty at the Dry Tortugas, she'd not even heard of it.
Now it was home. For a moment
she merely treaded water, head thrown back to let the sun seek out any
epithelial cell it hadn't already destroyed over the last ten years. Just
breathing—when the practice had recently been denied—was heaven. Somewhere
she'd read that a meager seventeen percent of air pulled in by the lungs was
actually used. Idly, she wondered if she could train her body to salvage the
other eighty-three percent so she could remain underwater ten minutes at a
stretch rather than two. Scuba gave one the time but, with the required gear,
not the freedom. Anna preferred free diving. Three times she breathed deep, on
the third she held it, upended and kicked again for bliss of the bottom. Flashing in the
sun, she was as colorful as any fish. Her mask and fins were iridescent lime
green, her dive skin startling blue. Though the water was a welcoming
eighty-eight degrees in late June, that was still eight point six degrees below
where she functioned best. For prolonged stays in this captivating netherworld
she wore a skin, a lightweight body-hugging suit with a close-fitting hood and
matching socks. Not only did it conserve body heat, but it also protected her
from the sometimes vicious bite of the coral. Like all divers who weren't
vandals, Anna assiduously avoided touching—and so harming—living coral, but
when they occasionally did collide, human skin was usually as damaged as the
coral. Again she
stayed with and played with the fish until her lungs felt close to bursting.
Though it would be hotly debated by a good percentage of Dry Tortugas National
Park's visitors, as far as she was concerned the "paradise" part of
this subtropical paradise was hidden beneath the waves. Anna had never
understood how people could go to the beach and lie in the sand to relax. The
shore was a far harsher environment than the mountains. Air was hot and heavy
and clung to the skin. Wind scoured. Sand itched. Salt sucked moisture from
flesh. The sun, in the sky and again oft the surface of the sea, scared and
blinded. For a couple of hours each day it was heaven. After that it began to
wear one down as the ocean wears away rock and bone. Two dive sites,
twenty dives—the deepest over forty feet—and Anna finally tired herself out.
Legs reduced to jelly from pushing through an alien universe, she couldn't kick
hard enough to rise above the surface and pull herself over the gunwale. Glad
there were no witnesses, she wriggled and flopped over the transom beside the
outboard motor to spill on deck, splattering like a bushel of sardines. Her
"Sunday" was over. She'd managed to spend yet one more weekend in
Davy Jones's locker. There wasn't really any place else to go. The Reef
Ranger, one of the park's patrol boats, a twenty-five-foot inboard/outboard
Boston Whaler, the bridge consisting of a high bench and a Plexiglas
windscreen, fired up at a touch. Anna upped anchor, then turned the bow toward
the bastinadoed fortress that was to be her home for another eight to twelve
weeks. Seen from the level of the surrounding ocean, Fort Jefferson presented a
bleak and surreal picture: an overwhelming geometric tonnage floating,
apparently unsupported, on the surface of the sea. Enjoying the
feel of a boat beneath her after so many years in landlocked parks, Anna headed
for the fort. The mariners' rhyme used to help those new to the water remember
which markers to follow when entering heavy traffic areas rattled meaninglessly
through her mind: red on right returning. Shrunken by salt and sun, her
skin felt two sizes too small for her bones, and even with dark glasses and the
sun at her back, it was hard to keep her eyes open against the glare. The opportunity
to serve as interim supervisory ranger for the hundred square miles of park,
scarcely one of which was above water, came in May. Word trickled down from the
southeastern region that the Dry Tortugas' supervisory ranger had to take a
leave of absence for personal reasons and a replacement was needed until he returned
or, failing that, a permanent replacement was found. Dry Tortugas
National Park was managed jointly with southern Florida's Everglades National
Park. The brass all worked out of Homestead, near Everglades. Marooned as it
was, seventy miles into the Gulf, day-to-day operations of the Dry Tortugas
were run by a supervisory ranger, who managed one law enforcement ranger, two
interpreters and an office administrator. Additional law enforcement had been
budgeted and two rangers hired. They were new to the service and, at present,
being trained at the Federal Law Enforcement Training Center in Georgia. "Supervisory
Ranger" was a title that bridged a gray area in the NPS hierarchy.
For reasons to which Anna was not privy, the head office chose not to upgrade
the position to Chief Ranger but left it as a subsidiary position to the Chief
Ranger at Everglades. Still, it was a step above Anna's current District Ranger
level on the Natchez Trace. To serve as "Acting Supervisory Ranger"
was a good career move. That wasn't
entirely why she'd chosen to abandon home and hound for three months to accept
the position. Anna was in no hurry to rush out of the field and into a desk
job. There'd be time enough for that when her knees gave out or her tolerance
for the elements—both natural and criminal—wore thin. She had taken
the Dry Tortugas assignment for personal reasons. When she was in a good frame
of mind, she told herself she'd needed to retreat to a less populated and
mechanized post to find the solitude and unmarred horizons wherein to renew
herself, to seek answers. When cranky or down, she felt it was the craven
running away of a yellow-bellied deserter. Paul Davidson,
his divorce finalized, had asked her to marry him. Two days later,
a car, a boat and a plane ride behind her—not to mention two thousand miles of
real estate, a goodly chunk of it submerged—she was settling into her quarters
at Fort Jefferson. "Coincidence?"
her sister Molly had asked sarcastically. "You be the judge." The fort had
only one phone, which worked sporadically, and mail was delivered once a week.
Two weeks had passed in sandy exile, and she was no more ready to think about
marriage than she had been the day she left. But, given the paucity of
entertainments—even a devotee could only commune with fish for so long—she was
rapidly getting to the point where there was nothing else to think about. Under these
pressing circumstances, she'd done the only sensible thing: she stuck her nose
in somebody else's business. Daniel Barrons, a maintenance man-of-all-trades
and the closest thing Anna'd made to a friend at the fort, had a weakness for
gossip that she shamelessly exploited. He was a block
of a man, with what her father would have referred to as a "peasant
build," one designed for carrying sick calves into the barn. Perhaps in
his late forties, Daniel covered his blunt face with a brown-black beard. On
his left arm, seldom seen as the man wasn't given to tank tops, was a tattoo so
classic Anna smiled whenever she glimpsed its bottom edge: a naked girl
reclining on elbows and fanny under a cartoon palm tree. Given this
rough and manly exterior, tradition would have had him strong and silent. Every
time he snuggled down in his favorite position to dish the dirt, elbows on
workbench, hindquarters stuck out and usually bristling with tools shoved in
his pockets, furry chin in scarred hands, Anna was charmed and tickled. With only a
small nudge, Daniel had assumed the position and filled her in on why she'd
been given the opportunity to explore this oddly harsh, boring, beautiful,
magical bit of the earth. Her predecessor, Lanny Wilcox, hadn't taken an
extended leave willingly. It had been forced upon him when he'd begun to come
unglued. "His
girlfriend, a little Cuban number as cute as a basket full of kittens, ran out
on him," Daniel had told her, his voice low and gentle as usual. He
consistently spoke as if a baby slept in the next room and he was loath to wake
it. "Lanny was
a terrific guy, but he was getting up there, fifty-one this last birthday. At
his peak he couldn't a been much to look at. Hey, I like Lanny just fine, but,
well, even he knew he was about as good-looking as the south end of a
northbound spiny lobster. Five, six months ago he hooked up with Theresa. She's
not yet thirty, smart, funny and a nice addition to a bathing suit. Next thing
you know, she's living out here. When she cut out, Lanny just sort of lost
it." From what Anna
had gathered, the old Supervisory Ranger's "losing it" consisted of
increasingly bizarre behavior that revolved around the seeing and hearing of
things that no one else saw or heard. "Ghosts," murmured
a couple of the more melodramatic inhabitants of the fort.
"Hallucinations," said the practical ones, and Lanny was bundled up
and shipped off to play with his imaginary friends out of sight of the
tax-paying public. On first
arriving, struck by the beauty of the sky and sea, the fishes and the masonry,
Anna couldn't understand what stresses could possibly chase even a heartbroken
man around the bend. Piloting the Reef Ranger into the harbor, the glow
of her swimming with the fishes burned and blown away, she realized that after
a mere couple of weeks of isolation, wet heat and scouring winds, she was
tempted to dream up companions of her own. She needed a sense of connection to
something, somebody to keep her on an even keel. She laughed.
The sound whipped away on the liquid wind over the bow. Soon she was going to
have to relinquish her self-image as a hermit. Paul—or perhaps just the passage
of years—had socialized her to some extent. Molly would be pleased. Anna made a
mental note to tell her sister when next she phoned. It could be a while. Not
only was the fort's only phone in much demand, but it also had a
one-to-two-second delay, like a phone call from Mars, that made communication
an exercise in frustration. Red on right. Anna slowed the
Ranger to a sedate and wakeless speed as she entered the small jewel of
a harbor on the east side of Garden Key. Eleven pleasure boats were anchored,
two she recognized from the weekend before, Moonshadow and Key to My
Heart, both expensive, both exquisitely kept. They were owned by two
well-to-do couples out of Miami who seemed joined at the hip as their boats
were joined at the gunwale, one rafting off the other. Anna waved as she
passed. At the end of
the harbor away from the tourists, as if there were an invisible set of tracks
running from Bush Key—Garden's near neighbor—to the harbor mouth and they had
been condemned to live on the wrong side of them, two commercial shrimpers
cuddled up to one another. Commercial
fishing and, much to the shriek and lament of the locals, sportfishing was
banned in the park, but right outside the boundaries was good shrimping. The
boats stalked the perimeters, the honest—or the cautious—keeping
outside the imaginary line established by NPS buoys. Perhaps a few sought to
poach, but there were plenty of shrimp outside. Most came for the same reasons
ships had been coming for two hundred years, the reason the fort had been built
in the middle of the ocean: the natural safe zone of flat water the coral reefs
provided. Shrimp boats,
their side nets looking like tattered wings falling from a complex skeleton of
wood and metal, were a complication Anna'd not foreseen. They sailed from many
ports, most in the south and southeast, following the shrimp: four weeks in
Texas, then through the Gulf to the Keys. Some boats were family owned, most
were not. All were manned and kept in a way unique to an idiosyncratic and
inbred culture. Daniel called them "bikers of the sea." Having spent
an unspecified and largely undiscussed number of years in the land version of
that violent fraternity before, as he put it, "breaking my back and seeing
the light," he would know. The shrimpers
were a scabrous lot, not just the boats, which reeked of dead fish, cigarette
smoke and old grease—part cooking, part engine—but the sailors themselves. The
family boats were crewed by men and women, three or four to a boat. The others
were all male, but for the occasional unfortunate who, like a biker chick out
of favor, was passed from boat to boat, usually fueled for her duties with
drugs and alcohol. Anna had yet to
see a shrimper with all his or her teeth. The violence of the culture coupled
with months at sea away from modern dentistry marked their faces. A lot of them
went to sea to kick drugs and found more onboard. A startling percentage had
felony records. This borderline
lifestyle would not have affected Anna had not a symbiotic relationship sprung
up between them and the tourists and park employees at the fort. Fresh gulf
shrimp were delicious. The shrimpers where glad to trade a few for the culinary
delight of those in the park. The problem was that the currency was
alcohol—mostly cheap beer, but enough whiskey to make things interesting.
Drunk, the shrimpers lived up to Daniel's name for them. They came ashore; they
yelled, disrupted tours, urinated in public, knocked one another's few
remaining teeth out, beat their women and occasionally knifed one another. Her third day at
Fort Jefferson Anna had been made painfully aware of a few administrational
oddities of Dry Tortugas National Park: there was no place to hold prisoners
and, though they were legally allowed to make arrests, it was highly
discouraged by headquarters in Homestead. Two law-enforcement rangers keeping
drunken violent shrimpers under guard in the open air for hours till the Coast
Guard arrived wasn't a great idea. Transporting them three hours one way to Key
West and so leaving the park without law enforcement or EMTs for a day didn't
work either. The best they
could do was separate the combatants, bind the ugliest wounds and shoo the lot
of them back onboard their boats. The two
shrimpers anchored in the harbor as Anna motored in were family owned. They'd
never caused problems, and the lady on one of the boats had a terrific little
dog she let Anna pet. Tonight should be quiet. Anna didn't know if she was
grateful or not. With only one other ranger—Bob Shaw—in house, neither ever
truly had a day off but slept with a radio ready to serve as backup for the
person on duty. Quiet promised uninterrupted sleep. Anna supposed that was a
good thing. Still, she would have welcomed something to do. As she backed
the Reef Ranger neatly into the employee dock, Bob Shaw walked down the
weathered planking. Opposite where Anna tied up, on the far side of the park
pier with its public bathrooms and commercial loading area that the ferries
from Key West used, the NPS supply boat, the Activa, was moored. Like
Christmas every Tuesday, but better, the Activa arrived with supplies,
groceries, mail and Cliff and Linda. Cliff was the captain, Linda the first
mate. New blood was as exciting to the inhabitants of Fort Jefferson as fresh
food. The crew of the Activa could be counted on to bring the latest
news and gossip along with other treats and necessities. "Teddy
took your stuff up to your quarters for you and stuck the perishables in the
refrigerator," Bob said as Anna cut the engine. She tossed him the stern
line and he tied it neatly to the cleat on the starboard side. Wind was more or
less a constant on DRTO, and the NPS boats were tied to both sides of their
slips to keep them from banging into the sides of the dock. Fenders could only
do so much when the winds flirted with hurricane force. "I'll be
sure and thank her. Is Teddy in the office?" Anna asked. Teddy, short for
Theodora, was Bob's wife. "Till
five, like always." He stood stiffly to one side as Anna heaved towel,
fins, snorkel and water bottle onto the dock. Bob was a strange
fit with the park. He'd been there for eleven years and clearly loved the
place. He said, and Anna believed him, that he never wanted to work anywhere
else and intended to serve out his remaining six years till retirement at the
Fort. Anna suspected
his desire to remain in this isolated post was due only partly to his love for
the resource. A good chunk of it, she theorized, was because nowhere else could
he live such a rich and rewarding fantasy life without coming head-to-head with
the cynicism of his fellows. Fortunately for
her, Bob's particular brand of psychosis made him a great ranger. Swearing he was
five-six, though Anna, at five-four, could look him in the eye in flat shoes,
he seemed bent on being the poster boy for a benign version of the Napoleon
complex. Now, as he readied to go on his evening rounds—showing the flag,
boarding boats he deemed suspicious, handing out brochures to newcomers and
checking the boundaries because they were there—he wore full gear: sidearm,
baton, pepper spray, cuffs and a Kevlar bulletproof vest. If the man hadn't
been such a strong swimmer, Anna's greatest worry would have been that he'd
fall overboard and his defensive equipment would sink him like a stone. The
only concession he made to the cloying heat was to wear shorts. Though Anna
would never have dreamed of telling him so, they tended to spoil the effect.
Not only was he no taller than Anna, but he couldn't have exceeded her one
hundred twenty pounds by much. Like a lot of men who take to the water, most of
that was in his chest and shoulders. Chickens would have been insulted to hear
his legs compared to theirs. "Anything
up for tonight?" she asked as they made lines fast. Mostly she asked for
the fun of hearing Bob's answer. His fantasy, as luck would have it, was that
he was the sole protector (she didn't count for reasons of gender, and Lanny
hadn't counted for reasons Bob clearly had but was too honorable to speak of)
of this jewel in the ocean. Like all other great and honorable lawmen of
history, Bob was constantly in danger from the forces of evil. Each and every
boat could be smuggling cocaine from Panama, heroin from the east, guns from
pretty much anywhere. All shrimpers were ready, willing and able to knife him
in the back. Given that he
apparently genuinely believed this despite eleven years in a sleepy port, Anna
couldn't but admire his stalwart courage in facing each day, never late, never
shirking. Having been exposed to this criminal-under-every-bush, Marshal Dillon
under-siege mentality the clay she arrived, Anna was pleasantly surprised the
first time she'd patrolled with him. Part of honor and duty—and natural
inclination probably, though his tough-guy image would never let him admit it
even to himself—-required he be gracious, polite and, when he thought no one
was looking, overtly kind. Seeing that, Anna had been quite taken with the man
and made it a point to resist the temptation to tease him about the boogeymen
that lived under his boat. She didn't even resent his sexism. Respect for a superior
overrode it, and it wasn't personal. There were no women patrolling the streets
of Dodge City, flying fighters over Nazi Germany or walking
shoulder-to-shoulder with Clint Eastwood through the saloon's swinging doors. Sans petticoat
and fan, Anna simply didn't fit into Bob's worldview. "Did you
see the boats on the south side, anchored out a ways, not in the harbor?"
Bob asked. He smoothed his sandy-red and handsome mustache with one hand and
pointed with the other. Vaguely Anna
remembered passing them, but had paid them little mind. "I saw
them." "They've
been here two and a half days. Never come into the harbor. Never visit the
Fort. Something's up with them." Anna'd not
noticed those things. And they were pertinent. Most folks, if they bothered to come
to Garden Key, made use of the harbor and at least paid a curiosity visit to
the Fort. "Good
eye," Anna said and meant it. "I'll keep close to the radio." Bob jumped
lightly into the second of DRTO's five patrol boats. Only four were working.
The fifth was beached behind the dock up on blocks. Bob took the Bay Ranger,
a twenty-foot aluminum-hulled Sylvan. He seemed to prefer it to the
sturdier Boston Whalers. Maybe because it was quieter, had a lower profile. All
the better for sneaking up on evildoers. Anna shouldered
the net bag she used to carry her dive things. "Oh,"
Bob said as she turned to go. "You got a big box from New York waiting for
you. Teddy said if there's bagels in it, she'll trade you some of her homemade
key lime pie for some." Anna waved Bob
off, then stood a moment, habit demanding she do a visual check of an
area after an absence of hours. The campground, with space for only a handful
of tents and, other than flush toilets on the public dock, no amenities, was
quiet. Because there was so little dirt to be had on Garden Key, overnighters
were by reservation only. Picnickers sat at tables nursing beers and sunburns,
talking among themselves, families for the most part with lots of little kids
scratching at mosquito bites, Kool-Aid smiles adding to the clownish colors of
beach towels and bathing suits. Even Bob would have a hard time imagining an
evil nemesis in the bunch. Savoring the
fact that she wasn't in a hurry, that, once again, her work for the National
Park Service allowed her to rest her eyes and mind on a wonder most people
would never take the time to see, she turned her attention to the fort. Bob's motor's
drone a pleasant burr in her ears, as comforting as the hum of bees in summer
blooms, she looked across the moat at Fort Jefferson. More than the skyscrapers
of Manhattan, the Golden Gate Bridge or all of Bill Gates's cyber magic, it
impressed her with man's determination to fight the world to a standstill and
then reform it in his own design. Seventy miles
out in the sea, on the unprepossessing Bush Key, the magnitude of the effort
awed her. Jefferson stood three stories high and was topped with earthworks and
ammunition bunkers. A coal-black tower, built as a lighthouse but demoted to a
harbor light when the taller lighthouse on Loggerhead Key was finished, thrust
above the battlements. The black metal of its skin gave it an unearned sinister
aspect. A wide moat, meeting the fortress walls on one side and contained by
brick and mortar on the other, ran around the two bastions fronting the
structure. Beyond was nothing but the Atlantic. At first the moat had amused Anna.
Only in the front and along the eastern wall was it bordered by land. On the
two other sides its outer wall separated it only from the sea. When she'd
first seen it, it had struck her as a conceit, the architect slavishly
following the classic castle moat theme though this fort was set in a natural
saltwater moat thousands of miles on one side and seventy on the other. Duncan,
the island's historian and chief interpreter, had disabused her of that notion.
Moats were not merely to keep land troops at bay but ships with malicious
intent at their distance. Trailing a
young couple so in love they didn't notice it was too hot to be hanging all
over each other, Anna crossed the bridge. As she stepped into the imagined cool
and welcome dark of the entryway she heard the shivery sound of children
giggling and saw a small head vanish into a stone slot. Anna laughed because
heat and boredom had yet to diminish the childlike glee the fort engendered in
her: "secret" rooms where ammunition had once been stored, dark and
twisted caves where arches met and clashed and crossed at the bastions,
designed by an architect who must have foreseen the genius of Escher. The formidable
structure was now dissolving back into the sea with infinite slowness. Lime
dripped out of solution as rain worked its way through ancient mortar.
Stalactites formed, growing like teeth in the long, long passages through the
casemates. Standing at a corner and looking down arch after arch after arch,
perspective skewed. It was easy to feel as if one were falling through time
itself. Anna stepped
from beneath the sally port to the edge of the parade ground. The sun hit her
eyes with such force she winced. Within the embrace of the casemates was a
third and different world: no ocean, no mind-bending arches, just a manageable
patch of sky, horizons close, and the comfort of the man-made on all sides.
Brick arches at ground and second floor, one after the other in an unbroken
line, surrounded an expanse of grass so dry it crackled underfoot. Twin houses,
officer quarters during the Civil War, now served as quarters for the absent
Lanny Wilcox and Bob and Teddy Shaw. Around the edges of the parade ground,
inside the heavy walls, were scattered ruins from when Jefferson was home to
troops, prisoners, slaves, cooks, washerwomen, officers, wives and daughters:
the skeletal remains of a Civil War barracks, razed by the NPS when safety had
broil a higher priority than preservation; two half-finished armories, their
under-roofs rounded like their later relative, the Quonset hut; a half
disassembled shot oven; the foundation for what started out to be a church to a
soldier's god but ended life as a below-ground cistern for the federal
government. All testified to the hubbub of disparate humanity who had once been
packed within the walls like powder in a cannon's barrel. Two boys
rampaged out from the shadows behind Anna and ran left past the office to
disappear into the first casemate. Anna turned left as well. The arch of the
casemate had been boarded up to enclose the park's offices. The same treatment
had been used to make employee quarters, some at ground level and some in the
second tier, where cannons and convicts had been stored during the Civil War. Anna pushed
past the Employees Only sign and pulled the door shut behind her. Air
conditioning; cool was wonderful. Dry was even better. Without humidity the air
felt pounds lighter, slid into the lungs effortlessly. The physical ease was a
relief, but as ever in the gullet of bureaucracy, the magic was gone. The place
looked like a hundred other park offices: vaguely dingy, crowded, metal desks
and chin-high partitions cutting up what little space there was. Teddy Shaw sat
behind the first desk, staring at the now ubiquitous computer screen. Teddy was
younger than her husband by a dozen years or so, thirty to thirty-five at a
guess, and a couple of inches taller, an advantage her posture seemed bent on
rejecting. She probably had at least twenty pounds on him as well but was
nowhere near fat. The euphemism "pleasantly plump" was apt in Teddy's
case. Except for the stooped shoulders, she was pretty in a girl-next-door way,
with brown hair brushing her shoulders and brown eyes that reminded Anna of her
inherited golden retriever, Taco, in color if not softness. Because of her
relative youth and uncompromising support of her husband's John Wayne/Napoleon
neurosis, one might have expected her to assume the role of helpless maiden in
need of rescue. More than once Anna had thought Teddy would have liked to be
that for him, but a core of inner steel got in her way. Teddy was as peculiar
in her way as Bob was in his. She steadfastly believed in her husband's heroic
potential and seemed mildly embittered that others did not see him in the same
light. Anna thought Teddy would almost welcome disaster—even at the cost of a
few lives—if her husband would finally be given a chance to shine. "Thanks
for putting up my groceries," Anna said by way of greeting. "Bagels,
if I got 'em, for key lime pie?" "Yup.
Six." "Four." "Five" "Deal."
Anna didn't much care for either bagels or key lime pie, but she enjoyed the
dickering. "Any messages?" "Two. On
your desk." Anna dumped her
bag and threaded her way to the back of the office. To facilitate climate
control and keep out the endless weeping of moisture and dust from the tiers
above, the office was completely enclosed, walls and ceiling painted white,
making it into a box that could have as easily been in a trailer house in
Nevada as a two-hundred-year-old fortress in the Gulf of Mexico. Off the back
of the box were two closet-sized rooms. One Bob had laid claim to, the other
was the Supervisory Ranger's office. Though Anna's claustrophobia wouldn't allow
her to linger there—and certainly never with the door shut—she got a kick out
of her new office. Behind a door narrower and shorter than standard issue, the
essence of Fort Jefferson again manifested itself. The outer wall was exposed
brick. The one window, overlooking the moat, was a firing slot cutting through
seven feet of defensive stonework. The only modern touch was a skinny
three-paned window cemented into the slit. Anna would
check e-mail in the morning when she came on duty. It would be something to
look forward to, this far out in the middle of watery nowhere, though even
e-mail was not instantaneous—it took a day or more, as it was routed through
headquarters in Homestead. The two
promised messages were where Teddy said they'd be. The first was from Alistair
Kirk, the Assistant Chief Ranger of Everglades and Dry Tortugas National Parks.
"Tomorrow, 10:00 A.M., you and Daniel call me re: new water treatment
plans." Fresh water had been a problem since the fort had been built. The
original designers had created an ingenious plan where the top of the fort
would collect rainwater, which would then be drawn down through sand filters
built inside the fort's frame and stored in one hundred nine vaulted cisterns
built below ground level beneath the casemates. The total capacity was a
million and a half gallons. What hadn't
been foreseen was that the fort would be too heavy for the land. When tens of
tons of brick began to settle, the cisterns cracked, letting seawater in and
rendering them useless for fresh-water storage. They'd been sealed off after
the Civil War. Since that time, in addition to what rainwater could be caught,
drinking water had been barged to the island in wooden casks and rationed as
strictly as rum. In 1935 the NPS had taken over Garden Key. Eventually the
cisterns beneath the aborted chapel had been rehabilitated for use. Much of the
fresh water was collected during the torrential rains that fell in hurricane
season. In dry years a reverse osmosis plant that desalinated seawater augmented
this. The entire
system was outmoded and needed to be rethought and rebuilt. It would be a time
of great upheaval, and Anna rather hoped she'd be home in Mississippi before
the digging and cursing and spending commenced. The second note
was from Paul Davidson. Knowing it was almost impossible to get hold of her,
Paul left her messages several times a week and wrote her every day. In her
quarters, along with groceries and the mysterious box from Molly rumored to
contain New York bagels, would be a packet of letters from him. In Teddy's
crabbed hand, Paul said: "Taco and I arrested your favorite drunk today.
All three of us missed you. Taco and I probably more than Barstow. Paul."
Clay Barstow was a scrawny, amiable old alcoholic Anna arrested every time she
found his battered '57 pickup truck crawling along the Trace at fifteen miles
an hour, two wheels off the pavement for guidance. They'd become, if not
friends, at least comfortable with their relationship as jailer and jailed. As
Sheriff of Claiborne County, Paul must have had to arrest him. Taco, left in
Paul's care, rode in the front seat of the Sheriff's car each day. The
three-legged dog would be gleefully spoiled by the time Anna returned. She
laughed even as she felt the muscles around her heart tighten with an
inexplicable pain. This subtle
form of heart attack had been with Anna since the Friday night Paul had taken
her to the Episcopal church in Port Gibson, where he occasionally fulfilled the
office of priest when Father Sam was out of town and when Paul's duties of
apprehending criminals didn't take precedence over his job of forgiving them.
It had been late spring. The foliage around the two-century-old, barn-red
church had already matured into a fecund green that whispered of summer. The
leaves were so thick that no sun dappled through. St. James
Church was stuffy and, as churches seem to be between choir practice and Sunday
services, preternaturally still; more than simply an absence of sound, a
deepening of silence until one could almost believe it had become active
through the alchemy of some unseen listening ear. Those who'd been washed in
the blood of the Lamb would probably say it was the presence of God. To Anna it had
more the feel of the yawning silence of a well inviting a dark fall that was as
seductive as it was terrifying. Leading her by
the hand, Paul took her down the side aisle. The sun was close to setting. From
its place near the horizon beyond the far bank of the Mississippi River, the
rays cut horizontally beneath the protective canopy of antebellum oaks. Light
so saturated with color it collected on the polished wooden bench in puddles of
ruby, emerald, topaz and cobalt poured through the stained-glass depiction of
St. Francis holding a lamb. Paul ushered
her into this rainbow-drenched pew, then seated himself in the pew in front of
her. He twisted around and put his forearms on the seatback, his eyes level
with hers. His blond hair, not so much going gray as fading at the temples, was
died a rich auburn by a fold of St. Francis's robe, and he looked closer to
thirty than fifty. His eyes, customarily a blue that Anna found varied in hue
as much as the sky, depending on his internal weather, showed violet in the
strange light. Maybe because
she'd been alone for so many years, maybe because she'd chosen to be blind to
the signs, Anna hadn't known he'd brought her to St. James to propose. His
divorce, not a particularly pleasant exercise in emotional law, was scarcely
two weeks old. Anna thought she had time. From his shirt
pocket he removed the clichйd black velvet box. Anna blinked in the manner of
an iguana on speed. She was a trained law-enforcement officer. How could she
have missed a clue the size of a two-carat diamond ring box in a man's breast
pocket? It was two
carats Anna asked. She couldn't help herself. It was the biggest diamond she'd
ever seen outside a jewelry-store window. Light, green from the grass under the
saint's feet, caught in the facets till it glowed like kryptonite. Anna felt
her strength being drained away. Paul held it
out to her, but she could not raise her hands from where they rested, palms up
on her thighs like fainting white spiders. "You with
me sweetheart?" Sweetheart.
She'd grown to love the endearments he was so comfortable with. Darling. Honey.
She'd not yet been able to say them back, but she planned to give it a shot
real soon. Zach had never called her sweet names. He'd called her
"Pigeon," and she had thought she loved it. Anna had not
wanted Zach there in the light with her and Paul and fear and hope, and she'd
shaken her head to rid her mind of her first husband's face. "You're
not with me?" Paul asked. "No. It's
just that ... I'm with you." She tried to smile and found it was a whole
lot easier than she thought it would be. There was happiness nearby. Anna could
feel it rising in place of the listening silence. Paul looked at
her closely, answering her smile with the slow southern warmth that had first
warmed her loins and then come to warm her heart. "Good. I brought you to
this church, my church, the house of my God, because I know you're not exactly
on a first-name basis with the Almighty. Maybe you don't always think he—" "She." "—she
exists." He reached out, stroked her cheek with such gentleness she felt
tears prick at her eyes and confuse her mind. "I brought you here to ask
you to marry me because I want you to know my belief is enough. God comes or
doesn't, is or isn't, manifests or vanishes according to forces I cannot begin
to understand. I have chosen this," and though he didn't gesture at the
church, Anna felt as if he had. "What you choose is for you. I will never
push or pry or expect. Freedom of religion. An American marriage." Again
he smiled. Again the kryptonite flashed. Anna felt a new sort of joy bubbling
up around her. From somewhere in the dark of her mind she heard Zach whisper.
"Pigeon, you're my person..." and she found an inner voice responding
to the old litany: "No, you're my..." Again she shook her head to
rattle out the vision, and she wondered when Zach had changed from an angel to
a ghost. "No. No.
Don't say no," Paul was murmuring and reaching out to take her face
between his hands. Dislodged, the diamond in its box fell into Anna's open
palm. A sign. "A good
catch," she argued aloud. "I
am," Paul promised. "I will be." "I'm sure
you would be," Anna said pulling herself out of the jewel-lit church and
back into the stony gloom of her office with its firing slit for a window. Born
of the flashback—not the first she had of Paul's offer of marriage—a
juxtaposition of joy and haunting filled her lungs as it had in St. James
Church. She blew it out on a gust of air. "I'm about
to lock up," Teddy called back. "Are you going to be awhile?" "No. I'm
done," Anna replied, glad to have the impetus to move. The message about
the water-system meeting she left on the desk. The note from Paul she carried
with her. When she got back to her quarters she would tuck it in a painted box
Molly had brought her from her trip to Russia when Anna was still in college
and her sister was already a rising star in the field of psychiatry. The box
was too full to close, but though she felt mildly absurd because of it, Anna
couldn't bring herself to throw the notes away. "Got
everything?" Teddy asked, sounding like a kindergarten teacher asking a
five-year-old if she went to the bathroom before letting her on the bus for a
field trip. Anna held up
her net bag as proof she was allowed to go, and slipped out into the stark sun
and shade of the parade ground. A brick walk, not original to the fort but added
by the National Park Service, circumnavigated the inner court next to the
casemates. Anna's
temporary quarters were directly across from the sally port, so one direction
was no shorter than the other. The most direct route was across, but the grass
was Serengeti brown, the air still and bright and seeming to hold the glare as
well as the heat of the day. She turned south, taking the shaded side. Lanny Wilcox
had left or, if Daniel was correct, been snatched away from Fort Jefferson
hurriedly. Nothing of his had gone with him but for a suitcase of clothes. As a
consequence—housing in short supply in a place so small and so removed—Anna had
arrived having no appropriate place to perch. After much discussion (including
that of making her roommates with Duncan, the historian and interpreter, his
wife and their seven-year-old son—an arrangement that had everyone concerned up
in arms) the powers that be had grudgingly allowed her to live in the
superintendent's quarters. "Superintendent's quarters" was something
of a misnomer. In reality they served as VIP guest quarters. Mostly they
sat empty, ever clean, ever ready, on the off chance some senator or
congressman should call and want a place for the weekend. The quarters were
given to Anna with the caveat that if somebody important were to want them
she'd be bumped out to share space with the seven-year-old in a bed shaped like
a racecar. Since that had
yet to happen, Anna was pleased enough with her living arrangements. In the
second tier, the superintendent's quarters took up two of the old casemates.
Like the office, inside it was square, modern and white. To either side of a
comfortable living-room-cum-kitchen were two large bedrooms, each with two sets
of bunk beds and a small bath. What elevated
it from adequate to grand was the "porch." The prefabricated box that
formed the living space took less than half the width of the fort's second
deck. The other half was original, with broad, high openings framing views of
the Gulf, the lighthouse on Loggerhead Key and every sunset. Only two picnic
tables sat between Anna's front door and an uninterrupted view to the end of
the world. "I'm
home," she called as she opened the door to her apartment and banged her
snorkel and fins past the screen. Theoretically she was supposed to confine
herself to the bunkroom on the left, but she'd opened the door to its mirror
image on the other side of the kitchen to make the place larger and more
interesting. It had yet to get her forgiven for denying access to the outdoors. "I'm home.
It's me. Come out," she called hopefully. Just as she was beginning to
believe he'd reconsidered her reprieve and decided to extend her punishment,
Piedmont came trotting out of the forbidden suite, his yellow-ringed tail held
high, the end curved just enough to be stylish. An amber-eyed
yellow tiger, found treed by a Texas flash flood, Piedmont probably hadn't a
drop of Siamese blood in his veins, but he had always been extraordinarily
vocal. As he trotted over to Anna's feet he sounded so much like a fussy old
man carping about his day that she laughed and picked him up to rub all the
right places under his chin. She'd wondered
whether it was a kindness to drag him to the middle of the ocean but, once the
trauma of cat travel was over, she'd congratulated herself every day on the
wisdom of her decision. With a cat in it, a home was never empty. Echoes, like
mice, were frightened from the corners, and loneliness, though still possible,
had blunter teeth. Mutual
admiration firmly established, Anna carried the cat over to the sofa. The
living-room-kitchen area was rectangular, with stove, refrigerator and sink
along the wall overlooking the parade ground. The "living room" was a
chair, couch and coffee table arranged before a huge picture window onto the
shaded brick of the casemate and the ragged-edged brick "window" with
a view of Loggerhead. The furniture was a cut above standard issue—this was,
after all, the Superintendent's quarters—made of light-colored wood with white
canvas cushions. On the low coffee table was Anna's promised loot: letters from
home and the much-discussed box from her sister, Molly. Unable to enjoy
anything till sweat, salt and sand had been rinsed off, Anna showered, slipped
on a short rayon dress—a trick she'd learned living through Mississippi
summers—and sat on the sofa with Piedmont at one elbow and a glass of iced tea
on the end table at the other. Unopened boxes.
Packages that came through the mail. Parcels wrapped in brown paper. She'd
always loved them. For a few seconds she just sat enjoying the anticipation.
Piedmont meowed and butted her in the ribs, then walked prickly-pawed across
her lap, slinking his fat tail beneath her chin. "You think
there's catnip treats in there for you?" she asked, and he meowed again.
"Okay. We open it." From long-standing love, she and Piedmont
pretended to understand one another's language. After so many years together,
maybe they did. Molly was a
belt-and-suspenders sort of woman and had bound the package round with fiber
strapping tape as if she shipped hazardous gas over rough terrain. Anna had to
cut into the package with a carving knife. When she got it open there was no
salt-baked smell of bagels or Styrofoam peanuts heralding fragile toys. In a
thick nest of folded newspaper were two bundles of letters tied up with string,
and a handful of black and white pictures sealed in a sandwich baggie. The letters
looked familiar. They were addressed in a flowing and faded hand to Peggy
Broderick, Warwick, Massachusetts. Anna and Molly's grandmother had been one of
eight children, six of them girls. The eldest, Anna remembered vaguely, was
named Molly. She had raised their grandmother, Peggy, one of the younger
children, after their mother had died. "Unknown causes" was written
in the family Bible. Having borne eight kids, Anna guessed she'd just worn out. The letters and
the pictures were in a cedar chest in the attic during the years Molly and Anna
were growing up. As the eldest, Molly had inherited this scrap of family
history along with the old Bible. They'd probably been moldering in a storage
unit in the basement of her West End Avenue apartment building ever since. The
old chest, originally a hope chest for one of the girls, had been filled with
letters from a time when keeping correspondence was deemed important. These
letters must be a small part of that collection. A crisp,
buff-colored piece of notepaper embossed with the initials M.P, MD rested on
top. Stationery was a weakness of Molly's. Even missives as unprepossessing as
"don't forget to take out the garbage" were often scrawled on paper
so rich and fine Anna could almost smell the sweat of Egyptians laboring in the
papyrus. She took the
note out and read it aloud to the cat, who'd taken the split-second opportunity
as she unfolded it to leap into the open box. Dear Anna, On
hearing you were bored and restless, Frederick reminded me how dearly you love
corpses, murder and mayhem of all kinds. I'm not sure this will fill the bill
but, lacking in blood and edged weapons, it's the best I could do short of
coming down there and killing somebody for your amusement. The letters are to
our great-great-grandmother, Peggy, from her sister, Raffia, who was married to
a captain in the Union Army. For three years he was stationed on that
unprepossessing sand spit upon which you've decided to maroon yourself. In hopes this
will pass the time and keep you out of trouble— Love, Molly "Hah,"
Anna said. "Trouble would have to swim too far to get to me. Out you go
Piedmont." Not willing to
submit to being lifted from the box like a common pest, the cat leapt out.
Having landed neatly on the coffee table, he licked a paw to indicate his
stunning indifference to the box and its contents. Anna took out
the bundles and, for reasons she wasn't sure of, sniffed them. Maybe there was
the faintest scent of cedar or lavender. Because they'd been written when women
wore long dresses and carried parasols, Anna's imagination might have created a
memory of perfume that had evaporated a hundred years before. Each had the return
address: Mrs. Joseph
Coleman Wife of Captain Coleman U.S. Army Fort Jefferson Anna wondered
if Mrs. Coleman's address could have been that simple or if she trusted Peggy
to know where to write her. Anna had never had much interest in family history,
in who had married whom and what year the first had sailed for America. Letters,
handwritten letters, were different. More real because of the immediacy of
connection to the hand that held the pen and, so, the mind that directed the
hand. The string binding
the bundle was new and undeserving of the care advanced to relies. Molly, in
her precise academic way, had arranged the letters, probably by date, oldest
last, unless some more abstruse and recondite pattern had seduced her by its
mere complexity. Anna untied the
string and draped it over Piedmont's head. The cat continued to wash as if she,
the box and the string did not exist. Having removed
the thin pages from the first envelope and unfolded them with care, she began
to read. Dear Peggy, Fort
Jefferson is the crudest of places... 2 Fort Jefferson
is the crudest of places. Poor Tilly. I really couldn't blame her—perhaps I
should say I could not blame her fairly because, Lord knows, the little beast
was getting to be as grating to my nerves as the awful crying she complained
of. "Oh I do
wish he'd pass out or something. It'll ruin everything." She said that for
the sixth time while bent over my dressing table, dousing herself with face
powder that comes dear here in the middle of salty nowhere. Not that I wear it,
Peggy, lest you were thinking I had become a fallen woman at the late great age
of thirty-seven. No, no such wildness. Not that it would avail me anything on
this sand and brick island. Here, thanks to summer storms and high seas keeping
the ships from the dock, I shall be glad if I still have my teeth when I turn
thirty-eight and don't lose them to scurvy. In spite of heat, dirt and the rest
of it she grows more beautiful every day. I couldn't bear it if she lost even a
single tooth. Not to mention what Molly would do to me. When she sent Tilly to
live with us I'm sure she had a far more glamorous life in mind than that which
Fort Jefferson offers. It's no place for a sixteen-year-old girl regardless of
how "hoydenish" she was becoming in Warwick. Just as I was
choosing to be kind to our little sister despite her wastrel ways with my face
powder, another awful wail came in with the wind. It was as if it were a live
thing, one of the ghosts Molly sees and tries to pray back into hell. The window
curtains bellied out, the lamps were set to dancing and the most inhuman sound
crawled up our backs like dead men's fingers. "Raffia,
can't you get Joseph to do something? Knock him on the head or something? Just
till the show's over?" (We were to perform "'Tis True I Have
Flirted," both playing very young girls for comic effect.) With that
compassionate plea, Tilly threw down the powder puff, scattering dust
everywhere. I could hear the precious particles hitting the lamp chimney and
burning, a whispery crinkle at the edges of my mind. Luanne, the woman that
does for us—you remember me mentioning her, a Negro who belonged to Mrs. Dicks,
the lighthouse keeper's wife—will be looking at me with dog's eyes when she has
to clean it up. Because she was born a slave, Luanne never learned to read the
Bible, but she is as good at making me feel guilty as Sister Mary Francis used
to be. "You're a
baby," I told her. "And all of us have spoiled you rotten. Joseph
can't just give an order like that. Who knows what the man did? If he was
caught drinking on sentry duty he could be shot." I have been an army wife
for twenty years. Four of those we were at war. Yet I've never served at a
place where corporal punishment is so swift and brutal as here. Joseph tells me
it's a necessary outgrowth of living at a prison camp. Even here I'd never
heard crying of the like gusting into our rooms. It had that anguished animal
sound of a wild thing dying in a trap. "They oughtn't
be let drink," Tilly said primly. Oh to be a girl again when right and
wrong can be settled by decree. I doubt, were the Union Army comprised utterly
of ladies for temperance armed with rifles, they could keep liquor off Garden
Key. As it is the soldiers crave drink more than do the prisoners. There's
little here for amusement but fishing and becoming drunk. There came
another shriek so sharp and so raw I could not but believe it tore the flesh
from the throat of the man making it. "If he
doesn't quit, I'm going to be sorry he wasn't shot," Tilly announced. Out of
deference to Molly and because Tilly can get a bit above herself, I put on my
big-sisterly voice and told her: "That was unchristian. You confess that
next time Father Burnett comes or you will go to hell." "I'd
probably feel right at home." The little
minx. I almost laughed, but Molly worked so hard to bring us up in the church
after Mother and Daddy died, I didn't have the heart. With my fussing
about Tilly I hope you're not getting the impression I am sorry to have her
here. I am sorry, but only for her. Tilly deserves more from her sixteenth year
than to be marooned on an ugly world full of unhappiness, heat and sickness.
Selfishly I am glad she's come. She is so much company for me. As you know,
Joseph rarely talks—at least not to me. Saving it for his beloved
"men" I suppose. Even the simple right of an army wife to complain
about rations and quarters is denied me. When I see the hardship of the
prisoners and the soldiers I cannot bring myself to enjoy whining about my lot.
The freshest meat and vegetables, the cleanest water (the cisterns beneath the
fort are a dismal failure—salt water leaks in—drinking water must be brought by
barge) come to the officers. We do try our
best to see that the prisoner's lives are bearable. This war has made us keepers—if
not literally, then very nearly so—of our brothers. Joseph's closest friend is
one of the inmates here, Colonel Battersea. As fate would have it, the colonel
was Joseph's instructor at West Point. They became friends when Joseph was a
cadet—the colonel and Mrs. Battersea took him under their wing. Now they are in
opposing armies and my husband's old mentor is his ward. The prisoners
of war are to be released, but no one yet knows when. Colonel Battersea's wife
has a wasting disease, and Joseph has been trying to affect his early release
but has yet to succeed. Where was I? Ah
yes: getting ready for our show. I'd secured the mirror and the lamplight from
Tilly and was setting about trying to blot out with the paint pots the ravages
of the years. I'm still as slim and upright as when last you saw me (being
"condemned to barrenness," as Joseph so kindly puts it, has its
compensations). My hair is no longer strictly light brown. There are marked
incursions of white. But, by parting it left of center and wearing my braids
wrapped round my head I can hide the worst of it. My skin is what gives me away
as very nearly forty. Much as I try, the sun has me looking like the selfsame
field hand Molly used to tell us we'd resemble if we didn't wear our bonnets. For a time I
painted and primped and powdered—my work cut out for me as I've said. Tilly
stood at my shoulder burbling with "compliments": "Oh, Raffia,
you don't look nearly so old with rouge. You know, from a distance, if
only there weren't all that gray in your hair, you could almost play the
part as well as me." At that, I
said, "No thank you. I am perfectly happy to be the shadowy background
against which your brilliance can show all the more brightly." That kept
her from heaping more coals of kindness on my head for a few minutes while she
worked out whether I was being cutting or genuinely humble. Into my
hard-won silence came another of those terrible screams, this one in a dying
fall, almost as if it changed after it was uttered from the cry of a human being
to the wail of the wind through the casemates. It gave me a turn, I don't mind
telling you. I had that sudden cold and shaking sensation Molly told us came
when "a goose steps on your grave." This was most definitely a whole
flock stomping on mine. Tilly slammed the window and the change in the air
upset the light. In the sudden dance of the flames my face didn't look like me. It frightened
me so badly I did the only thing I could think of and yelled at Tilly for
closing the sash with such violence. "I'm going
out there," Tilly yelled back. She stepped behind the screen in the corner
that I use for dressing. Bits of clothing flew over the top. "Don't you
pull your skirt over your head," I warned her. The amount of paint on her
face would ruin the fabric. She stuck her
head out and said: "I'm not having everything spoiled after we've worked
so hard." The fright the last cry had given us sliced years off her. She
sounded like a peevish little girl again but, even through the stage makeup, I
could see, along with fear and selfishness, was compassion. "No you
are not going out there." I snapped back. "This is army business and
no concern of ours." I had been of half a mind to go try and stop the
wailing myself, and not for the good of our theatrical evening. Hearing myself
utter those words: "this is army business and no concern..." decided
me. I cannot tell you how many times over the eighteen years I've been married
I have heard Joseph say exactly those words. Each time I tried to right some
small wrong, help some needful person, or even, God forbid, ask Joseph where
he'd been when he came in at two or three or four o'clock in the morning, he
said: "it's army business and no concern of yours." Of all the
phrases in language and literature, hearing myself parrot that one upset me
nearly as much as anything that had happened heretofore. "We'll
both go," I said. Most everybody
had already gone to the mess hall or was shut up in their quarters getting
ready to go on stage. Still I told Tilly to hush. Luanne had been set to
watching Mrs. Caulley's three children, and I don't know which of the four
shrieked the loudest at not being allowed to watch the entertainment. I was
afraid the sound of our voices would start the weeping and pleading all over
again. Tilly promised
to be "quiet as a mouse," as she has since she was three, but I took
it as a sign she'd matured when she refrained from making those tiny squeaky
mouse sounds as she walked. "We've got
to hurry," I warned. "Major Tanner is making his curtain speech at eight,
and Joel Lane is singing 'Take Me Home' right after," I said quickly.
Calling of Private Lane to mind was oddly prophetic—pathetic—as you shall see
if I ever finish this letter-become-tome. The mention of
Joel's singing stopped her planned argument, as I knew it would. In this
topsy-turvy place where our enemy prisoners are here for more sanguine reasons
than the prisoners of our beloved Union, this story I'm about to tell isn't as
peculiar as it might seem. Both Tilly and
I had taken notice of Private Lane, a prisoner, a Johnny Reb and a
secessionist, when he was set to hauling crushed shell to refurbish the walkway
across the parade ground. Given that litany of his crimes against society, I
was yet to find out the worst. Private Lane is
imminently noticeable. Six foot or taller with black hair, blue eyes and a
smile with no teeth knocked or rotted out of it. Handsome as he is, it's his
voice that docs the damage. Training or natural talent has turned his native
drawl into a weapon I expect few women could resist without effort. I know this
because Tilly, being no better than she should, spoke to him. That might well
have been the end of it, but fate chose to make Private Lane a part of our
lives. Not two days later, the prisoners, along with the engineers and laborers
brought in from New York, were put to hauling eight-inch Columbiads—fearsome
cannons—to the third tier. Raising and placing these great guns is something to
see. Tilly and I and a couple of the other ladies decided to brave the heat of
the day to watch the process. Because
manpower and life are the only things held cheap here, the men were lifting
with block and tackle, using ropes, pulleys and the strength of their backs.
The heat had melted the rules, and the officer in charge allowed the prisoners
to work with their shirts off. As they began lifting the cannon, easily as long
as two men put end-to-end and weighing lord knows how much, the confederate
soldiers started singing. I suppose it
was a song they'd grown up knowing, a working song used by field slaves. The
Negroes on the other lines picked it up, and as they hauled, they sang. A clear
tenor rose, singing counterpoint: Private Joel Lane, muscles bunched, half
naked, voice soaring. Well, Miss
Tilly's breath sucked in so audibly I thought she'd stepped on a nail or a
scorpion till I saw where she looked. When the cannon
was seated and the show at an end, Tilly and I and the rest of the ladies
started down the spiral stairway that connects the tiers in that section of the
fort. Tilly was just ahead of me, not paying attention, and I was focused on
not treading on her skirt tail where she let it drag over the steps. Of a
sudden she says in the most casual of ways how intelligent Private Lane looked. Hah! I, too,
admired his "intelligence" till he put his shirt back on. Three days
after this display of Joel Lane's intellect we were to see him again in a more
intimate setting. As I've
mentioned, this has been a difficult summer. The end of the war but prisoners
(and soldiers) not yet free, the heat, endless storms, bad food and water,
yellow jack and bone-break fever rampant, has morale at a dreadful low. I'd not
thought it could get worse when word came that the Lincoln conspirators were to
be sent here to serve out their sentences. Fort Jefferson is a violent place,
but with this unwelcome bit of news, violence, soldiers on prisoners, Negroes
on whites, unionists on confederates, officers on men, has become epidemic. In an attempt
to raise morale, the post surgeon, Captain Caulley, chose to organize a
theatrical troupe. It was an excellent effort. Much of the agony and anger the
men suffer is borne in boredom. I'm sure Captain Caulley's motives were
altruistic, but it also appealed to him on a practical level. It is he and his
corps who are called upon to attend this increase in gunshots, knife wounds,
broken noses, heads, teeth and knuckles. Joseph, not a lover of the arts in any
of their guises, was in favor of anything that would stop activities that keep
guards and prisoners off the work rosters. In accordance
with the surgeon's plan, the call went. Anyone who had a talent was to report
to the officers' mess after parade the following day. One hundred and
fifty-three men and seven of the women including Tilly and me answered. The men
were excited for the first time in a long while over something other than
gambling or brawling. Private Joel
Lane was among them, with his dark hair and angel voice and, unfortunately, his
shirt. That's the day I learned the worst of him. The boy is not a deserter, a
killer or a thief, but neither is he the son of a rich plantation owner. He is
an actor. Before the war he traveled with his father's theatrical company,
making his living singing in comic operas and playing the female leads in his
father's Shakespearean productions. Needless to
say, Joel was cast in Captain Caulley's production. Because of their matching
youth and beauty, he and Tilly were given a romantic duet in the third part of
our entertainment. I immediately volunteered to play accompaniment on the
harpsichord and have watched them ever since with a hawklike intensity that
would do Molly proud. This, then, is
why I'd invoked Private Lane's name to get Tilly through quarters and to the
parade ground quickly and quietly. There are no
rules about where the women here can go—or very few at any rate. The
laundresses often go to the cells of prisoners whose families send them money
to pay for laundry and such. The prisoners are, of course, paid for the labor
they do in building the fort, and the women will walk to the store on the quay
to buy their necessaries. I've never felt any fear moving around the fort,
night or day. This night was
markedly different. Perhaps I'd not completely shaken the chill I'd felt at the
last cry. Or perhaps it was the edges of the storm that flirted with us,
though, Lord knows, I've had plenty of experience with weather of all kinds
here. The parade ground was empty. I've seldom seen it empty. On an island not
more than ten acres—not large enough for the fort, the moat extends into the
sea itself—with eight to twelve hundred souls, there simply is no space where
one can be truly alone. This night the parade ground was uninhabited but for
the wind, which was fitful and sudden. The walkway out
from the officers' quarters is edged along both sides with whitewashed
cannonballs. It can look quite grand—or as grand as we can muster here. Either
my fancy or the moonlight twisting through the scudding clouds tricked my eyes
and, for a moment, they appeared as human skulls. Few of the closed
casemates showed lights at their small windows, and the open casemates looked
blacker than black. The unfinished barracks and armory looked ready to come to
life, great unimaginable beasts but with claws and fangs. Add to this the
skittery racket made by the wind through the dry palm fronds tossing in sudden
frantic life then falling silent as if the winds of all the world had died
forever and perhaps you'll understand my uncharacteristic drama. "Don't
they look like a bunch of skulls all laid out in a line by some demented
ogre?" Tilly said. Hearing her
echo my unpleasant thought, I nearly jumped out of my skin. To comfort myself
and bring us back to the ordinary, I pinched her arm hard enough to make her
squawk. I marched her firmly forward. She balked and said: "Maybe this
isn't proper behavior for the wife and sister-in-law of a commanding
officer." Apparently I was not the only one suffering from the megrims. I
suppose she, too, felt the whispering of demons and bones. However, I had no
intention of letting her wriggle out after she had pestered me half to death
about the whole thing not three minutes before. I said, with
what I think you would agree was laudable courage, "Let's get this over or
it will be you and not the screaming that spoils the show." Holding on to
Tilly both for comfort and control, I hurried us down the walk and into the
blinding shadow under the stand of palms between the officers' quarters and the
sally port. I had little doubt but that was where the moaning had emanated from.
It's there and behind the unfinished armory nearby most of the corporal
punishments are carried out. I'm not sure
what impelled me at this juncture. Tilly would have been willing to abandon the
project. Certainly I had no notion of righting wrongs, changing army ways or,
heavens forefend, be thanked for trying. Base curiosity of the variety that
kills cats must account for it. "Watch
your step," I whispered. "With all the construction there's bound to
be nails. You don't want to step on one and get lockjaw because—" "Because
you'd have to knock out my front teeth to feed me and, with no teeth, nobody
will marry me and I'll end up an old maid like Molly," Tilly finished for
me. I suppose I
said some such before, but I'm sure I never added the part about being an old
maid. There are worse fates to be sure. Her mimicry of me was so perfect I was
hurt despite being used to Tilly being Tilly. "When did
I get so old?" I said. One should never ask a question to which one does
not wish to hear the answer. "It was having
those miscarriages one after the other for years and years." "There'll
be the guard now," I said. We were near to the sally port and I had no
intention of pursuing the subject of my age and failures. "Hello the
gate," I called. No one
responded. The prickly feeling at the back of my neck returned. First the
abandoned parade ground, now no sentries at the gate. The moaning began to
build after what had been a comparatively long respite. The fretful wind gusted
into the stone and brick cavern that provides egress from the fort. Flames in
the lamps secured there jumped then died. In that brief flash I saw—or thought
I saw—what caused the crying. I ceased to
wonder the sounds seemed inhuman. The mouth that made them was not a human
mouth. Tilly started
toward the wavering light. I grabbed her. "Stay back," I hissed. I
was not quick enough. 3 Anna laid the
curling pages on her knees. The paper was as thin as dried leaves, and she'd
been holding them too tightly. Her thumb and forefinger had pinched a faint
crease in the upper righthand corner. For a moment she sat without moving,
without thinking, just taking in the space: Piedmont asleep at her side, throat
up, eyes covered with his paws, the sharp contrast of blinds and sunlight
striping the window over the sink, the smooth glow of terra-cotta floor tile
unifying the living spaces. A sense of having awakened from a strange dream and
not knowing where she was pervaded her. Quietly she waited till reality—or the
reality the National Park Service paid her to inhabit—reformed around her. When the room
had solidified, she rose, careful not to disturb the sleeping cat, and crossed
to the window that looked down on the parade ground. For a fleeting instant she
was surprised that the enlisted men's barracks were gone, the officers' mess,
the formal walk with its edging of cannonballs. The moment passed and she was
relieved to see the tree-spotted expanse of sunburned grass, the casemates,
arches open to the parade ground, gun ports opening on the sea, filled with
nothing but light and shadow. The park had a
permanent, live-in staff of seven people. There'd been days Anna couldn't stand
the crowd and fled to the sea. In 1865 there'd been eight to twelve hundred
people in residence. The thought, filling her mind as it did with unwashed
bodies and gabbling voices, made an involuntary shudder run through her.
Perhaps some race memory of the place had come down through her maternal
bloodline. She ate apples
and peanut butter for supper and went to bed at eight-thirty. Outside it was
still daylight. Her
great-great-aunt Raffia's letter followed her into sleep and manifested itself
in confused scenes of Jefferson by torchlight, actors in blackface, her teeth
falling out to scurvy and, once, the pounding whump of cannon fire that brought
her close to consciousness till the ill-lit and flickering past dragged her
down into sleep again. Anna woke
because somebody was in her room. Out from the darkness a voice whispered,
"Anna, Anna, Anna." Furtive fingers jabbed at her arm and shoulder.
Perhaps Anna was slow to wake from reverie, but from sleep, never. Fast as a
fish flipping on a line, she was off her stomach and half sitting. The poking
hand had been caught at the wrist and bent back. The whisper shifted to:
"You're hurting me. It's Teddy, Teddy Shaw." Anna let go of
her gentle marauder and switched on the lamp by the bedside. Opposite, on the
top bunk, she could just see Piedmont's orange eyes from behind a bulwark of
pillows. Some watchcat. "What're
you doing? Why didn't you knock?" Anna grumbled as she pulled a tee shirt
from the floor and dragged it on for decency's sake. "I didn't
want to startle you," Teddy said, rubbing her wrist. On the island,
Anna'd never thought to lock her doors to protect herself. Maybe she would start
locking them to protect others. "What is
it?" "Bob's not
back." Anna plucked up
the black plastic travel alarm that lived on the bed stand. Four forty.
"He was off duty—" "At
midnight. He was off at midnight. He's not back. Four hours and forty minutes.
He's not back. I just woke up and was still by myself." "Did he
call in?" Anna picked her radio up out of the charger behind the clock,
and clicked down the mike button. As Teddy was
saying, "He last radioed around eight," Anna was calling
"Five-eight-one, five-eight-zero." Three times she repeated first
Bob's call number and then her own. "No
answer," she said unnecessarily. "Did you try calling him after
eight?" Teddy had
seated herself, not on the bunk opposite but on the foot of the narrow bed Anna
slept in, apparently needing to be close. Her wide bottom pinned down the
covers, trapping Anna's legs, and she had to make a conscious effort not to
kick free. Teddy shook her
head. "No. Bob doesn't like me calling him unless it's an emergency
because he could be in the middle of something and me calling might compromise
it. And when he's watching something he'll turn his radio clear off. You know
how it is. A call at the wrong time could blow your cover." In her
years—and years—with the park service Anna'd only had a "cover" a
couple of times. Bob evidently found, created or imagined such situations often
enough he and his wife had developed a system for handling them. "Better
let me up," Anna said, nudging to be free of the mummy bag Teddy had
inadvertently made of her covers. Teddy stood obediently. Anna got up and began
dragging on the pieces of her uniform that were scattered on bunks, floor and
bedposts. "What did
he call in at eight for?" Anna asked. She must have heard the call but she
had no recollection of it. Chances were, absorbed in her great-great-aunt's
letter, part of her mind had registered that the call was not for her and
filtered it out as background noise. "He said
he had something going and wouldn't be home for supper." Teddy's voice was
muddled. Anna stopped fussing with the Velcro on Velcro adjustment of her duty
belt and looked up. The woman's face was muddled as well. Fear and pride and
quirks of what could be defiance or dishonesty banged into each other till
Teddy wore the face of an angry child who sees a treat and cannot choose
between wailing or snatching. Anna stepped
into her deck shoes. "Did he say what he had going, boat names or where he
was located?" "He
wouldn't have wanted that transmission intercepted," Teddy said, pride momentarily
winning out over whatever else boiled beneath her skin. "Well
nobody did, at least not us," Anna said bitterly and pushed down a number
of derogatory comments about Buffalo Bob that came to mind. No sense in beating
up the man's wife. "I guess we start our search at the dock. "I'm going
to get Danny and Mack up," she told Teddy. Mack was the island's other
maintenance man and the one in charge of keeping the six big generators running
so the fort had lights, air conditioning, water pressure and phone service.
Both he and Daniel were good boatmen and held manner's licenses. "You get
on the radio and call the coast guard. Tell them we've a boat and ranger five
hours overdue and to please stand by. Tell them we are starting a rudimentary
search now." "Rudimentary?"
Teddy's back went up as she prepared to do battle for Bob's right to a
full-scale operation, and Anna realized she'd gotten caught up in logistics and
forgotten that the object of this exercise was Teddy's husband. "Sorry to
be barking orders," she said, masking her need to be moving with
gentleness. "Rudimentary is because of the darkness. We won't be able to
see much—just maybe a boat if it's disabled or something like that. But I don't
want to wait till first light to move on this." "I'll get
on to the coast guard." Teddy left two steps ahead of Anna. Before
rejecting the mainstream for the Dry Tortugas and Bob Shaw, Teddy had been head
nurse in an emergency room in Miami. Anna had never seen her under pressure
before. Admiring her control and competence, she could see why she'd risen to
the top of her profession at a relatively early age. Because of her background
and training, Lanny Wilcox had gotten permission to let her set up the fort's
"hospital," a room with a clean bed, a sink and what emergency
medical supplies they had. It crossed Anna's mind as they clattered down the
wooden staircase into the parade ground to tell Teddy to make sure the hospital
was ready to receive Bob, should he need medical attention, but she thought
better of it. It would only alarm Teddy unnecessarily and, if she hadn't kept
the hospital stocked and functioning before now, it would be too late. "You wake
up Cliff and Linda," Anna named the captain and first mate of the Activa,
the NPS supply boat that had come in that afternoon. "Tell them we
need eyes. Tell them to get their dive gear off their boat. We may need it when
it gets light." "Then call
the coast guard," Teddy said without slowing or turning around. "Right." Off the last
step, Teddy broke into a jog as she cut across the parade ground. The moon was
just coming on full, and the dry grass shone light as beach sand. The fort
walls were silvered, and the empty arches so black the shadows looked to be
made of solid matter. Anna turned
right, following the brick path along the ground-level casemates. The southern
side of the fort was closed to visitors. The open casemates contained machinery
and supplies needed to keep the fort up and running. Three were dedicated to
Mack's generators, and two had been enclosed to make employee quarters. Danny
lived in the first of these. The two he inhabited had the arches walled up with
lumber weathered and in need of paint. A hopelessly modern door with a screen
finished off the defacement of history. Anna banged on it soundly. A moment or two
and a dim light appeared in the kitchen window, probably from Danny's bedroom.
Not more than thirty seconds passed, but Anna was about to knock again when he
opened the door. In place of a standard bathrobe, the maintenance man wore a
Japanese kimono, black koi on a field of white that gave his stalwart form the
look of a particularly deadly samurai. "Yeah.
What is it? What time is it?" "The
middle of the night," Anna said. "Bob never came home from his shift.
I need you to take out one of the boats. We'll be looking for big stuff, the Bay
Ranger or chunks of it. At first light we'll get a better idea. You
dive?" "Not on
purpose." "Okay. I'm
getting Mack. Meet us at the dock." "Got
it." William
Macintyre's quarters were next, nearer the office by the generator rooms. His
lights were on. Anna hoped he wasn't up because he was drinking. She didn't
know Mack well—he'd been on vacation the first eight days of her stay at
Jefferson—but she'd served in enough isolated posts to know that alcohol was a
fairly standard form of entertainment in National Parks. He answered at
her first knock. But for shoes and socks he was dressed in a pair of Levi's
torn out at the knee and a tee shirt. Mack looked the part of a mechanic. His
hands and forearms were scarred from years of working with engines. Black
grease was ingrained in the flesh around his nails and the cracks across the
pads of his fingers. His clothes smelled faintly of burnt oil and stale
gasoline. Like Daniel, he wore a full beard but kept his close-cropped over a
box-and-bone jaw. Hair grew in white in places as if it covered old injuries.
Though not yet forty, he was nearly bald. The fringe of hair remaining was
scraped back into a stringy ponytail. "You're up
late," Anna said. "What of
it?" His voice cracked as if his mouth and throat had gone dry. Anna looked
past the hostility in his light brown eyes. He was cranky but apparently sober.
She explained the situation. "I'm
taking the Atlantic Ranger. Nobody screws with it but me." "Okay,"
Anna said neutrally. He started to
make more demands but instead let his square jaw break in a smile, and his
fingers ran over his scalp, remembering the hair that had once flourished
there. "Hey. Sorry. Don't think I'm always such an asshole. Bad night's all." He wanted Anna
to ask him why "bad" but she had neither the time nor the
inclination. Warm and fuzzy wasn't a management style she had much truck with. "They
happen. Meet us at the dock. Five minutes." "No
problem." Before his door
closed, his sudden rudeness and equally unexpected capitulation were forgotten.
Anna's brain was churning out lists of equipment needed. Her eyes saw only the
black water and the grid search she drew over it, dividing it into sectors, one
for each of the boats. The office door
was ajar, light pouring out. Anna stepped inside. Teddy was just returning from
the gloomy recesses where the main radio was housed. The handhelds hadn't the
power to reach the mainland. Those calls had to be made from the office, where
the radio was hooked to the repeater atop the fort's walls. "The coast
guard has a cutter two hours north of here. It's heading this way," Teddy
said. "I said
stand by," Anna replied sharply. Teddy was not
intimidated. "They were
scheduled to hit Key West tomorrow. They started early is all." "You'll
ride with me. You need anything not in the first-aid kit on the Reef Ranger,
get it now and meet me at the dock." Teddy swung an
orange medical kit out of the shadows at her side. She'd anticipated and done
her packing. The men were
already at the boats. Mack had the Atlantic Ranger's engine running and
was perched on the bench in front of the wheel, putting on his shoes. He must
have sprinted barefoot to reach the water before Anna. She was
unimpressed. "Not a fucking footrace," she muttered. "What?"
Teddy was at her heels. "Nothing."
Anna made a mental note to calm down, breathe. The situation was crawling up
her spine. She didn't want it fogging her thinking. Intentionally slowing her
pace, she arrived on the dock, breathed in and out slowly, and took stock of
her resources. Danny was
there, bulky and reassuring. Cliff, the tall, lean, gray-haired,
gentleman-captain of the Activa, sat on a piling looking alert and
interested, his long-fingered hands folded serenely in his lap. Cliff had the
most boating experience of the group. Anna'd never asked his age, but it was probably
closer to seventy than sixty. For all his years on the sea, he looked more like
an English professor than an old salt. Everything about him suggested the hush
of libraries and leather-bound books. Linda, the Activa's first mate,
stood next to him, her short blond hair in spikes. She was no taller than Anna
but probably a good deal stronger. Linda was the best diver the park had, and
it showed in the sculpt of her shoulders and calves. Too many years under a
tropical sun had tanned her skin like fine saddle leather. First order of
business was to catch Mack's eye and draw her finger across her throat. He cut
his engine as if he'd been expecting the request. Despite the heat, faint
wraiths of steam rose from the Atlantic. In the back of her mind, Anna
made a note to have Danny check it. Clearly it was running too hot. She gave
the quiet a moment to settle their scattered thoughts, then spelled out what
she needed. The Bay
Ranger, the boat Bob took on patrol, was not in its slip. The first
question was answered: Bob had not returned to the fort. If they found him, it
would be at sea. The Reef and
Atlantic Rangers, both twenty-five-foot Boston Whalers, and the researcher's
boat, the Curious, a twenty-foot Maco, would be captained by Anna, Mack
and Danny, respectively. Running the spotlights and acting as a second pair of
eyes: Teddy on the Reef with Anna, Cliff with Mack and Linda on the Curious with
Daniel. One hundred
square miles: on the map it didn't appear that sizable. For three small boats
searching at night, the area was formidable. Anna divided it into rectangles,
east, central and west. She and Teddy went west; Mack and Cliff took the
middle; Danny and Linda the eastern third. The plan was simple: mentally lay a
grid over the sector and drive the boats in a zigzag pattern along imaginary
lines. Having cleared
the harbor, Anna pushed the throttle till the boat planed, and steered
southwest past Loggerhead Key. The search was
to be blessed with absolutely flat water. The air was so still and warm and wet
it felt as if it had knit together, forming a heavy blanket that crushed the
movement of the ocean. The Atlantic lay still as a pool in a deep cavern. Water
and sky were tropical ink, the stars and the moon startlingly bright by
contrast. Teddy stood
beside Anna. The moon was several days past full, but with clear sky above and
glittering sea below it gave the illusion of much light. Its cool silver touch
thinned Teddy's face and collected in shadows under her usually invisible
cheekbones. Straight, proud, grim and unspeaking, her hair slipping behind her
in a wind of their own making, she looked every inch the courageous yet tragic
heroine. Anna wondered if she played out a role in the fantasy she and her
husband so assiduously cultivated. The uncharitable thought that the Shaws,
craving heroics and acts of derring-do, had staged this whole disappearance for
the twisted fun of it—a ranger version of Munchausen's syndrome—crossed Anna's
mind. They reached
the buoy marking the southwestern boundary of the park. Anna cut her engines
and showed Teddy how to work the searchlight, moving it in slow arcs aimed low
to pick up shadows of anything floating on the water's surface. Then, engine
just above idle, they started the painstaking process of searching. Twice they
spotted floating objects. Both were lobster traps. Outside park boundaries,
lobster fishermen laid their lines; traps on the ocean floor tied one to
another with floating buoys to mark where they lay. Storms, faulty lines and
ships' propellers routinely set the traps and buoys free to drift into park
waters. Anna dutifully hauled them onboard. Disposing of them was
problematical. Already Fort Jefferson had a pile the size of a Sherman tank in
one of the casemates. The only way to get rid of the Styrofoam floats was to
get somebody to haul them to the mainland. Cliff and Linda weren't anxious to
add garbage scow to the Activa's resume. Lobster traps
were the sum total of excitement until they'd worked north past Loggerhead and
a faint green-gray light on the eastern horizon suggested sunrise. Then they
got a call from Danny. "Got
something," he said succinctly. "What?"
Anna radioed back. Never
particularly disciplined on the airwaves, Danny replied: "A whole
shit-load. Oil. Flotsam. We're about three-quarters of a mile west of East Key.
Better get on over here. We'll flash our light." "Oh,
God," Teddy murmured. Her stoicism evaporated and, with it, Anna's doubts
about the veracity of Bob's disappearance. Had the Shaws planned a bit of
theatrics, oil and flotsam obviously hadn't factored in. "Easy,"
Anna said. "We don't know what Danny found. Could be a spill from a
passing tanker." Lame, she thought and pushed the throttle forward
heading east. Within minutes, Teddy spotted Danny's light flashing. Anna
adjusted her course accordingly. Over the radio, just under the burr of engine
noise, she heard Danny calling Mack to make sure he and Linda had gotten the
message. As they neared
the Curious, she slowed to a crawl and told Teddy to work the
searchlight. Faint and iridescent, a sheen of oil spread across the water,
breaking into toxic rainbows in the wake of the Reef Ranger. Pieces of
flotsam running with petroleum-induced colors floated in the mess, as did
other, less identifiable bits of what had presumably been a boat. "Holy
smoke," Anna muttered. "It didn't just sink, it was blown to kingdom
come." Teddy had her
knuckles shoved in her mouth to stop her emotions from bleating forth. In the
backwash of the light Anna caught the liquid glitter of tears. Teddy's eyes
glowed, large and unsettling, like an animal's in the night. Anna put the
engine into reverse and stopped their forward motion. The engine stilled, she
took the searchlight from Teddy and began slow, sweeping arcs across the greasy
black water. From Danny's boat Linda let her searchlight follow Anna's,
doubling the wattage. The sheen of oil was thin and would dissipate in an hour
or more, scattering itself till it would be detectable only to sensitive
instruments. That it was still obvious to the naked eye could be accounted for
by the fact that sea and sky were preternaturally still. The disturbance from
the Reef Ranger's arrival continued to move under the mess, though at a
greater distance now, like ripples on a pond. "Not much
left," Danny said of what they were assuming had once been a boat. Though the Reef
and the Curious were fifty or sixty feet apart, in the absolute
silence he sounded so close Anna's skin twitched like a horse's when a fly
alights. "Not
much," she agreed. The lights were
picking out only hits and fragments: fiberglass, wood. A ship's line, made to
float and bright screaming yellow, caught the light so suddenly it seemed to
snake through the oil. "Line,"
Linda said unnecessarily. To Anna's knowledge the first mate neither smoked nor
drank strong liquor, but her voiced rasped, bourbon over gravel, like a
skid-row actor. "I see
it." "We got a
piece of hull," Danny said. "See if you can spot it for 'em, Linda.
It wasn't one of ours. Not white. Green. Kind of a glittery metallic bottle
green like those newer speedboats got. I don't think it was Bob went
down." Beside her Anna
heard a low mewling cry, barely audible and the first sound Teddy Shaw had made
since Danny radioed. "Look."
Linda pointed with her light south of the circle of oil. "Not the hull but
something." The sun had crept closer to the horizon, chasing faint
pink-and-gold light ahead to reflect off the water. Against this backdrop,
Linda's keen eyes had spotted a shape. The Reef was
closest. "I'll get it," Anna said. Having started
the engine, she backed slowly away from the slick, wanting to disturb things as
little as possible. She motored up close, and Teddy lifted the thing out of the
water with a boat hook and dropped it on deck. "A life jacket," Anna
called to the Curious. "Not one
of ours," Teddy said, and Anna could hear the relief Teddy'd not had the
courage to feel till tangible proof it was not her husband's boat was in her
hands. "Whoever
it belonged to wasn't wearing it. Straps are intact, buckles unbroken,"
Anna said. "Probably shoved under a seat and blown free in the
explosion." "Bob
always wears his. Always," Teddy said. Hope was added to the relief, and
Anna was glad for her. Bob religiously
wore a personal flotation device. It wasn't standard issue but one of those
sleek little jobs that rest at the small of the back. It would keep him afloat
but had to be deployed. If he were unconscious when he hit the water it would
prove nothing but an additional anchor dragging him to the bottom. The hum of an
approaching boat caught Anna's attention. She threaded back around the cabin to
the radio and called the Atlantic Ranger. "Mack,"
she said when he'd answered. "We've got oil and flotsam. Looks like a boat
blew up, burned to waterline and sank. It's not the Bay Ranger. No sign
of Bob or his boat. You and Cliff keep looking. Linda and I'll dive on this as
soon as the light gets a little stronger." Silence
followed, then a couple clicks of the mike as Mack fingered it. "We'll
need to give you a hand with that," he said finally. "Linda and
I'll take a look. If we need you or Cliff to help with the underwater work,
I'll give you a call." Another
silence, then: "Ten-four." The National Park Service had abandoned
the ten codes years before, choosing plain speaking for their radio
communications, but some of the numbers, ten-four for "okay" and
ten-twenty for "location" had become so ingrained in everyday language
that they persisted. Anna could
understand Mack's reticence to continue the search. In a post so isolated the
arrival of groceries and mail was considered a grand occasion it would be hard
to be turned away from a bonefide adventure. Quicker than thought, she sent a
prayer down to Poseidon that this would prove to be the peak of the day's
excitement and that Bob would turn up unharmed and with a good excuse for his
nocturnal wandering. She doubted her prayer would be heard. Bob was a stickler
for rules. If he were alive, he would have radioed in. The usual reasons for a
man staying out all night didn't apply at Fort Jefferson. The only single women
near enough for an assignation were the lighthouse keepers on Loggerhead Key
and Donna and Patrice not only outweighed and towered over Ranger Shaw but had
eyes only for each other. For the
duration of the dive, Anna abdicated leadership to Linda. For Anna, scuba
diving was a sport. On several occasions, the most notable being in the icy
waters of Lake Superior, she'd gone on difficult or dangerous dives, but
compared to the first mate of the Activa she was a neophyte. Linda had
participated in and led dives all over the world. She had rescued other divers,
recovered bodies and searched for sunken treasure. Treasure was one of the lures
that had brought her, finally, to the Dry Tortugas, a major shipping lane
during the days when Spanish galleons were heavy with gold plundered from the
Incas and the Aztecs. Today would
have more to do with bodies than booty, Anna suspected. Or, worse, pieces of
bodies. Whole corpses didn't bother her much, but bits here and there were a
tad unsettling. And, though she would never admit it even to herself, she
wasn't all that gung ho to go flippering around in what might amount to
fisherman soup. The Reef was
rafted off the Curious, and Anna and Teddy joined Linda and Danny on the
research boat. Danny had backed it up to be well clear of the oil slick so the
divers wouldn't foul their gear or get petroleum on the neoprene of their wet
suits when they went over the side. As Anna and Linda donned dive suits and
scuba gear, the sun sprang from the sea. In these latitudes there was little
twilight; day and night were sudden and complete. While Anna buckled and tugged
and checked equipment, Linda went through her safety spiel. Wrecks, especially
recent wrecks, were notoriously unstable. It was possible parts of it could
still be burning. The women took a moment to rehearse the rudimentary hand
signals: help, look and go to the surface. Then they rolled off the gunwale
into the water. Because the air temperature had yet to rise with the sun, the
water was a few degrees warmer and the initial plunge felt good, like the first
immersion in a warm bath. Suddenly weightless and warm, Anna felt her muscles
relax and her mind empty of the surface's fussy thoughts. The sun low,
water made murky by the recent disturbance, the bottom was a mottled dark area
seen through a fog of particulate matter. Anna guessed the depth at around
thirty or forty feet. The boat they sought had gone down in what was considered
deep water in the shallow, reef-filled park. Just to the east of the boundary
line the ocean floor dropped thousands of feet down a sheer wall. Quicker to get
oriented, Linda gestured "follow me." Her fins, long and sleek, were
of that strange neon color cities had taken to painting fire trucks in the late
seventies, a shade between yellow and lime. Not pretty but surprisingly
visible. Anna followed their flicking toward where the boat had exploded,
burned and, presumably, sunk. Visibility got
worse, but not by much. A lot of the particles had settled. The blast must have
come early on, between midnight and two or three in the morning. Any earlier
and someone at the fort would have heard and reported it. Swimming along in this
sea of thoughts and other flotsam it occurred to Anna that someone had heard
it. She'd heard it. It had almost awakened her. Tangled in dreams of the Civil
War brought on by Great-Great-Aunt Raffia's letter, her unconscious mind had
transmuted it into cannon fire. There was no way to prove that had been the
case but, looking back, Anna was pretty sure it was. The knowledge was of
little practical value. Not having fully awakened, she had no idea what time
she'd heard the explosion. Doesn't matter,
she
told herself. Boat fires were stunningly fast. Even if she'd leapt from her bed
and sprinted to the Reef Ranger, this boat would have burned to
waterline before she could have reached it. And Bob? That thought
Anna pushed away. Too little information yet for self-recrimination. The iridescent
fins ahead of her stopped. Anna kicked to where Linda hung, suspended fifteen
feet above the ocean floor. Beneath them was what remained of the boat whose
blood sheened the surface. Guessing from the mess scattered over broken coral
reefs, it had been a cigarette-type boat, long and lean and fast; basically
huge engines and fuel tank housed in a bullet-shaped fiberglass body. This one
was larger than most Anna had seen; maybe thirty feet long when it was in one
piece. At present, fragments of it were strewn over an area three times that. It looked as
though the blast had been centered around the engine compartment. The stern had
been severed from the rest of the hull and lay at an awkward angle against a
coral boulder. The living coral was gouged by the impact and scored by
propeller blades. Jagged chunks of ripped and melted fiberglass reached around
what had been a bench seat and was now a lump of charred plastic. A bright
orange personal flotation device was tethered to it. Buoyant innards trailed
out like intestines from a mutilated trunk. One of the straps had caught on the
twisted fiberglass, condemning the float to death by drowning. Thirty feet
away was the foreshortened bow section. Two cabin doors of clamshell design
like those in cowboy saloons had been ripped away. One lay on the
sand near the wreck, the other was still attached by a length of metal or
fiberglass. The rectangle opening into the boat's low-ceilinged cabin was
twisted until it resembled a door drawn by a very small child; the lines bent
and blurred, none of the corners square. A scrap of cloth—pant leg or
sleeve—reached out from the dark interior. Because the water was still, it did
not wave or sway but stood out, a flag in a still life. Surrounding the
two major pieces of the wreck, lying on white sand, scattered across coral, sea
fans, sponges and stone, were the shattered remains of the boat's midsection.
Much of it was mangled to the point that it was unrecognizable. Here and there
were the bizarre anomalies that often accompany tornadoes and explosions. A
boat hook, purposely blunt and attached to a long pole, had been thrown clean
as a javelin into the sand, its haft sticking up, a piece of paper neatly
skewered by the head. The lens of a running light, detached from the hull but
otherwise unharmed, lay fifteen feet from the main wreck gleaming ruby-bright,
dead center in a circle of green coral. The Dry
Tortugas's underwater camera rode in a zippered nylon pouch attached to Anna's
web gear. She took it out. Even from a distance of twenty feet the photos would
not be good. The water was cloudy and the light weak. Later she would take
clearer shots, but she wanted to record the lay of the wreck in case anything
should shift once they began fiddling with the pieces. After the first
couple shots Linda tugged her wrist and pointed. Anna's gaze followed the other
diver's finger to the forward section of the wreck. The small movements of
their fins had moved through the viscous world and finally reached the frozen
flag flying from the ruined cabin doorway. The fabric, mottled black and
yellow, possibly partially burned, was waving ever so faintly. The motion had
disarranged the original drape, exposing what looked very like a forefinger and
thumb. The two of them
began swimming slowly in the direction of the bow. Anna dearly hoped the hand
was connected to an arm and the arm to a body with another arm, legs, head and
whatnot attached. And she wished she had diving gloves; there was probably
going to be slimy bits coming up. They stopped
again, hovering just above and in front of the door. Linda touched
Anna's shoulder, pointed to the wreck and waggled her hand back and forth,
reminding Anna that the pieces of the boat were possibly unsteady and could
fall, crushing or tapping an unwary diver. Linda's short
blond hair stood out from her head, moving with strange life lent by the sea.
Her mouth was distorted and swollen with the froggy humanness shared by the
creature from the black lagoon and scuba divers with their mouthpieces in
place. Her light blue eyes, crinkled by lines that usually reassured Anna of a
life led in sunlight and laughter, were exaggerated by her mask. A slow leak
pooled salt water—an ocean of tears—high on her cheeks. For an instant,
no less powerful because short-lived, a cold fear swept through Anna; a child
awakening in a nightmare made more real by the light of day. Anna watched
her own hand float up, finger and thumb making the okay sign, letting Linda
know she'd gotten the message. The rift between the dimension of Dean Koontz
and Jacques Cousteau was healed as quickly as it had formed. The fear was gone. Rough night, Anna excused it
to her self. Overtired. She kicked once
and moved to the segmented hull. At a show of her palm, the universal signal
for halt, Linda stayed back. Because of Linda's superior skill in the water,
Anna had been glad to abdicate leadership during the diving. When it came to
risk taking, she couldn't. Storms, currents and reefs were Linda's nemeses. At
present, this tippy, murdered vessel with its one flailing human arm, was
Anna's responsibility. Reaching the
top left corner of the cabin, Anna steadied herself on the wreck and looked
toward the bow. Keeled over, tilting cabin and deck at a sixty- or seventy-degree
angle up from the sandy bottom, the bow was wedged between two upthrusts of
coral. From the damage both to the animals and the boat's underside, Anna
guessed she had been driven between the coral boulders with a degree of force,
enough to shove the bow into the sandy bottom. Anna shook the
boat experimentally. It didn't budge. She pushed it from several more angles
without dislodging anything. Partially reassured it wasn't a death trap just
waiting to slam shut on her claustrophobic little self, she swam back to the
cabin door, to the fingers protruding from the torn fabric. Linda still hung in
the water fifteen feet away. A first mate—and captain when Cliff was sick or on
vacation—she was good both at the giving and the taking of orders. Anna removed the
camera from its pocket and clicked pictures: north, east, south and west of the
bow section and one close-up of the finger-fringed fabric floating in front of
her nose. Record made, she returned the camera to its niche and kicked a bit
closer to examine the beckoning flesh. "Finger-fringed" was
unpleasantly apt. What they'd seen was not a thumb and forefinger but a ring
finger and the avulsed half of the middle finger. The yellow was not a sleeve
but possibly the torso of a tee shirt peeled from the body by the blast and
blown out along the arm. There was a wrist, Anna was relieved to note, and part
of a forearm leading back to an anchor of some sort. A body, it was to be
hoped. Gently, Anna turned the new-made relic. From the look of it, the arm had
belonged to a man. Much of the flesh was burned or excised by the explosion,
but the ribbons remaining were coarse-skinned and the few hairs not scorched
off were coarse and black. Bracing herself
against the cabin, she reached toward the underwater light at her waist. Head
bent toward the hook connecting the flashlight to her buoyancy compensator, she
sensed rather than saw darkness descending, an eclipse of the pale watery sun.
With a grinding noise that was felt as well as heard the tortured fiberglass
fell away beneath her hand. The hulk, steady moments before, rolled with the
impetuosity of submerged matter. Under the grinding filling her ears and
grating on her bones came Linda's close-mouth scream, a weak mermaid's siren. Pushing at the
environment with hands and flippered feet, Anna scuttled backward in the
tradition of octopi but without the grace. The heel of her right foot banged
into coral, and the cabin rolled down. Through the silt and particles, through
the luminous and shifting green of the sky, a ton of fiberglass, wood and metal
moved. White and bottle green, a wall toppling, a twisted and melting
cliff-face. Again Anna
kicked. Her right leg didn't move but jerked, a spasm as before sleep. The hull
rolled onto her swim fin, trapping it and her toes in a vicelike grip. Bubbles,
sand, a fog of minute coral deaths, destroyed her vision. Light and dark
remained. Dark was fast falling, the cabin roof closing on the boulder where
Anna wiggled, bait on a hook. Panic tickled inside her brain, urging her to rip
off the blinding mask, tear away the regulator with its claustrophobic life
support. Training shaped panic to fear. Fear escalated to instinct. The flashlight
fell into shadow. The dive knife strapped to Anna's calf found her palm. The
blade slid into the top of her fin and with a slash her foot was cut free. She
kicked back and up. The cabin rolled, keel looming into view sharp as a harrow,
a kaleidoscope of ruin. The hard edge of the still-attached cabin door clawed
at Anna's thigh, scraped down over her knee. Ignoring the pain, Anna pushed off
the underside of the wreck. The moment she
was free and safe, the movement stopped. Panting, bubbles and noise billowing
out of her regulator, mask beginning to fog from internal heat, Anna suffered a
horror that this was personal: the insensate, ruined hulk had wanted to kill
her. Fear, no less intense because unrealistic, pushed up from her stomach in
cold nauseating waves. Into the
glittering cloud of air bubbles came Linda's face, pulled out of human shape by
the dive gear. Thoughts of monsters from the black or any other lagoon were
gone; for one rare moment Anna was comforted just not to be alone. Her heart
slowed, her breathing began to return to normal. The fear was too much, too
hard. Then Anna realized she must have coupled the rolling cabin with being
trapped in the dark under nearly two hundred feet of ice-cold water nearly ten
years before, experienced that fear for this. As good an
explanation as any, she told herself. Evils sufficient unto the day. With the help
of Linda's work-lined face, Anna pulled herself rapidly back together. Linda
was signing but Anna's brain was not yet quite right-side up. She made the
"okay" with both hands, hoping that was all the answer Linda
required. Apparently it was, the agitated finger wiggling and twitching ceased.
Bubbles returned to their normal noisy bursts. The women looked down on the
offending wreck. An old hand,
Linda hung in the water not moving, weight and buoyancy perfectly balanced.
Anna, her weight belt a tad heavy, had to kick gently to maintain. Missing the
one fin, she listed slightly. Yards of
beautifully colored, incredibly varied and terribly fragile living coral had
been crushed or scraped away. Anna felt the loss with greater sorrow than the
loss of whoever belonged to the hairy, yellow-clad arm. She justified her
inhumane leanings with the myth that her job inured her to human suffering. The wreck
hadn't completely turned turtle. The coral crevice it wedged itself into during
the original descent had stopped it. The top half of the cabin door—the left
side, had the boat been upright—was above the coral boulder. Linda pointed.
Down at the bottom, just peeking out of the crush between cabin and coral, was
the finger. An image of the Wicked Witch of the East, smashed under Dorothy's
house, only her feet protruding, came into Anna's mind, and she half expected
to see the finger and the mangled palm to which it was attached shrivel and
disappear beneath the fallen boat. At her elbow,
Linda was scribbling on an underwater pad. Finished, she showed Anna: "We
go in now?" Anna shook her head and took the notebook. "I go for
ropes. Replace fin. You stay out of boat." Linda read,
then made the okay sign and pointed at Anna's NPS camera. Understanding was
established. Linda would continue to record the wreckage. Anna would refurbish
her gear and get what was necessary to work safely around the sunken boat. In the ten
minutes it took to return to the Activa, collect what she needed and
swim back, the light grew immeasurably better. The sun had jumped high and
sudden above the horizon. Some of the extra matter put into suspension by the
shifting of the hull had settled out. All in all, with Linda swimming
gracefully about snapping pictures of the kind required on any routine accident
investigation, Anna was hard pressed to remember the alarums of a quarter of an
hour before. Probably the facility to forget was one of the reasons she stayed
in the line of work she'd chosen. Looking back, no matter what had actually transpired,
it never seemed all that bad. Still, she was shaken. Not by the trapping of her
fin, but by the sense she'd suffered that it was intentional. This was
something she couldn't afford to think too long on. She purposely wiped the
weirdness from her mind and concentrated on what was in front of her. While she'd
been gone the finger had disappeared. Anna mentally tipped her hat to L. Frank
Baum. Obviously the man had done his homework. Linda, good as
her word and essentially a cautious woman, had stayed away from the bow
section. Several yards from the wedged hull, her back to it, she crouched
froglike over a shard of the shattered boat, the camera held four inches from
her mask as she framed the shot. Thirty or forty feet out, laden with coiled
line, Anna glided toward her. Movement caught
her eye and she looked past Linda. A bubble the size of a beach ball was
squeezing out of the cracked keel where the bow had upended when the wreck had
shifted. The bubble's elongated shape moved, expanded. It was not clear but
filled with roiling sulphurous gray. For an instant Anna's mind froze in
wonder. Once before she'd seen a bubble like that. With the speed of thought,
the memory came clear. She and Molly, both little girls, had been playing with
a length of fuse left over from when their dad, afraid they would collapse and
kill somebody, had dynamited unstable caves dug in a sandpit by the local
schoolkids. They'd put one end of the fuse in a puddle of water and lit the
other. When the fuse burnt to the end, a yellow bubble appeared on the puddle.
They popped it and a puff of smoke was released. The boat was
still burning. When it rolled, the flames inside must have found a new source
of air and fuel. Dropping the line, Anna kicked hard for the first mate, still
oblivious in her concentration. Muted, high-pitched noises reached Anna's ears
as she impotently called Linda's name without ungluing her lips from the
regulator's mouthpiece. Intuition or
unusually acute hearing brought the other woman's head up, stirring her yellow
hair into a mini-nova around her face. Kicking for all
she was worth, Anna pointed. Linda turned to look back. Suspended, weightless,
her body rotated with her head. A nightmare sense of slow motion, of trying to
run through viscous mud, overtook Anna. A booming—thunder through rain—and the
keel of the ship expanded as if it had taken a deep breath. Cracks appeared.
Red fire, incongruous forty feet under the ocean, opened, then burst out in
gouts of flame. The hull exploded outward, shards of razor-sharp Plexiglas shot
like torpedoes in every direction. A bubble of black veined with red blossomed. Linda, her body
half turned toward the blast, was snatched up by unseen forces. Arms and legs
flew out, then were crushed inward, a doll being wadded up, tossed away. Her
head snapped out of the circle of flesh. Her mask was ripped from her face.
Eyes wide, mouth open, she seemed to be screaming, but Anna heard nothing. A wave of force
smacked into Anna and she felt herself falling. There was no up or down. Just
an endless fall into an airless darkness. 4 I cannot say how
I knew it was the confederate boy, Joel Lane. The lamps in
the sally port were set too far apart for proper lighting. Maybe it was the
black hair. Lord knows his hair was the only thing unchanged, the only thing
left that was pretty about him. Still and all,
I could see enough of Private Lane's face to know I didn't want Tilly going any
closer. But you know Tilly, ever the rusher-in when the angels are thinking
twice about treading. She thinks she is so grown and worldly. To Tilly
everything is black or white. Having been married to the U.S. Army lo these
many years, I have grown accustomed to black and blue and shades of gray. But even I have
never seen a man beaten as badly as this poor boy. Oh, Peggy, even with you
seeing Dennis after he died and your work with the wounded in New York, you
would have wept for Tilly's soldier. He had been so lovely, and Joseph's guards
beat him till he didn't even look human anymore, then strung him up against the
stones in the sally port. Tilly
recognized the boy and tore herself away from me. (I had been clutching her
rather firmly to my side, anticipating some such end to our outing—though not
Joel and not such brutality—usually it's a drunkard who at least doesn't feel
his tortures till he's been cut down.) The horrid girl is as strong as she is
quick, and I had little choice but to run after her or stay where I was. Tilly was
wailing "Oh no! Oh no!" and, though I believe she was sincerely upset
and have pity on that account, she threw her arms forward then clasped them to
her breast too much like that picture of that new French actress, Sarah
Bernhardt. Her noise
didn't bring the boy's head up or cause him to move at all—which was
worrisome—but it brought Sargent Sinapp out of the guardroom. Though he's one
of Joseph's cronies, I have never liked the man. Sinapp is too thick. His lips
are thick. His fingers blunt and so thick it's a wonder he can make a
fist—though that seems to be the one thing he excels at. Even his ears are
thick. "Cauliflowered," they call them. It comes from fighting. His
neck is so thick it really cannot be said to exist, there being so little
differentiation between the bottom of his ears and the top of his shoulders. Tilly was brought
to a sudden stop by Sinapp. Behind him the guardroom was brightly lit, cards no
doubt being more important to keep an eye on than murderers, thieves and enemy
soldiers. He moved his thickness to one side, and the light shone full on
Tilly. She was a
pretty picture: face caked with makeup like a you-know-what, hair all up on her
head, hands clasped beseechingly. The wind blew Tilly's cotton skirt against
her body. The little minx was not wearing her petticoats. It was clear to me
and to the disgusting Sergeant Sinapp that she'd not even bothered with
pantaloons. Every line of leg and thigh was clearly delineated. Sinapp actually
licked his lips. Licked his lips! His great pale tongue poking out like a
lizard seeking an ant. In an instant more I expect he would have begun smacking
and drooling like a starving hound. I did hear a low moan and I don't think it
was from the unfortunate Private Lane. "Sargent
Sinapp," I barked. I've not been an army wife all these years without
having learned the voice of authority. Tilly broke from her pose, thank God,
and turned so the wind no longer played its trick with her dress. Freed from
what could only be lust in that paralyzing form that sometimes takes men,
Sinapp sucked his tongue back in and stood as close to attention as his
tree-trunk body would allow. "What is
the meaning of this?" I demanded. My appearance from the shadows startled
him, and his recent thoughts had evidently been so wicked it didn't occur to
him that he well might ask that question of Tilly and me. For a moment,
while guilt and confusion rattled around in his very small brain, I thought I
could get past him easily. Unfortunately, as with many men accustomed to few
emotions and comfortable with none but anger, he got mad. Had I not been his
captain's wife I expect he might have overstepped the bounds of common decency. "You got
no business—" I could see his
slow mental processes, so recently scrambled, lining themselves back up. Right
quick before he could bluster himself back into some semblance of a sergeant at
arms, I stepped up close and sniffed. "You've
been drinking," I said with all the disapproval I could muster. Whether
he'd been drinking or not, I couldn't tell. Amid the swamp of odium that
drifted from him, sorting out a single scent was past even my bloodhound
abilities. The laundresses at Fort Jefferson often take home three times as
much pay as their soldier husbands each month. They are grossly underpaid.
Woolen uniforms in the sodden heat of July wring much in the way of bodily effluvia
from men far less unpalatable than Sergeant Sinapp. "Have
not!" he countered, sounding so much like your Leonard did when he was
three and into breaking things and pestering the dogs that I nearly laughed. Tilly had taken
this moment out of my control and the sergeant's thrall to scoot her
unpantalooned self behind my back and into the sally port where her pet rebel
was. The sight of
young Joel Lane robbed me of any rebuke I might, for Molly's sake, have given
Tilly. Lips and eyelids were swelled, the skin stretched so tight I feared it
might burst and spill the blue-black blood pooled beneath. The once-clean line
of his jaw was blurred, misshapen, and his neat close ears puffed, red, angry
and probably never to resume their pretty shape. It is common practice
to punish prisoners and union soldiers alike by tying their hands behind their
backs and hoisting them up till their toes barely touch the ground. As vicious
as this practice is, it evidently wasn't sufficiently cruel for Sinapp. Private
Lane had been strung up by his thumbs; this I have never seen but only read of
in books of medieval tortures. The poor boy's
thumbs were the size and color of plums. Tilly slid to her knees and began to
cry. This time I saw nothing of theatrics in her. I often forget how young she
is—or I choose to forget how inured to brutish behavior I have become. "Cut this
man down," I commanded the sergeant, hoping he was still cowed by my
previous accusation of imbibing. He'd had time
to reinsert his spine and gather his few thoughts. "I can't
do that, ma'am. This ain't no place for you to be. This here's army business. "That man
was talking traitor talk. Going on about Mr. Lincoln like his foul murder was a
right and good thing. That's why he got himself strung up. I'm making no
apologies that he got what was coming. When he gets cut down he'll be put to
carrying shot—a hundred and twenty-eight pounder or my name ain't Cobb
Sinapp." During the
rehearsals I have gotten to know Joel somewhat, and he didn't strike me as a
political man, certainly not one to speak out if it would get him beat half to
death which surely even the dullest reb here must know could happen with
tensions so high. Joel was more likely a reckless young man who had joined the
war against the union because that's what the young dandies in his circle were
doing. Still, I cannot completely discount Cobb (what a ridiculous name,
undoubtedly he was called after the kind of pipe his mother smoked in the
birthing room) Sinapp's words. Who knows what strange twists might exist in the
mind of a southern boy, and an actor to boot? "Cut him
down at once," I insisted. "Or I'll—" "I'll
scream," Tilly said, and I've never seen that exquisite face of hers look
so hard. "I'll scream and I'll go on screaming until the whole fort comes
down around us." I must say I
was relieved at her interruptions. I had no idea what my threat was to have
been. I certainly couldn't threaten to tell my husband. Sergeant Sinapp knows
in what high regard Joseph holds me, though he'd never dare speak of it or show
any overt disrespect. Tilly's threat
sounded childish to my ears, but it put the fear of God into the wretched
Sinapp. "Now no
need for that kinda talk, missy. What with them murderin' cowards, this place
is already a..." I suppose he
was searching for a metaphor: powder keg, hornets' nest or some such, but the
limitation of his intellect stopped him. However, much as I dislike admitting
it even to you, the most forgiving of souls, Sergeant Sinapp had a point. The
"murderin' cowards" to whom the sergeant referred are the Lincoln
conspirators. Not the man who shot him, of course, or that woman who was put to
death, but Samuel Arnold, Edward Spangler and Dr. Mudd, who is said to have set
John Booth's leg after he broke it leaping to the stage. As if we weren't
enough on edge, knowing that those who were at least in part responsible for
the death of the president are to be with us soon has brought the hatred to the
surface. "Cut him
down, cut him down," Tilly began. A smallish boy-faced fellow emerged from
the guardroom behind Sinapp and proffered his knife. Sinapp cut Private Lane
down, letting the boy fall all in a heap on the stone. Had Tilly not gotten in
the way, I expect Joel Lane's skull would have been cracked open when he hit. The boy-faced
soldier had the good sense to vanish after that, but the sergeant stood around
being of no use to us but needing to vent his frustration. He threatened to
tell Joseph, which I'm sure he will, and I will have to answer for Tilly's soft
heart. Joseph won't do much but to yell. He learned a long time ago, the first
time he struck me, that he had but three options: to kill me outright, never to
strike me again, or to sleep with one eye open for the rest of his natural
life. Without help
there was sadly little Tilly and I could do. Private Lane was too heavy for us
to move. We asked the sergeant to help us but he would not so much as fetch
water to wet the boy's lips or bathe his poor ruined face. Between us, Tilly
and I made him as comfortable as we could there on the stones of the sally port
and got him to drink a little water I fetched myself. Then we had to leave him. Tilly begged
Sinapp prettily to be compassionate, and I made a number of threats I have no
authority to carry out, that if Joel Lane was further damaged when we returned,
much in the way of ill luck would befall whomsoever mistreated him. We'd stayed too
long as it was—the theatrical would have started and only by rushing would
Tilly and I be back in time for our entrance. The drama of the situation
outweighed the artificial drama of our little play, and I had to all but drag
our little sister from the rebel's side. Many evils are bound to come from this
act of kindness, not the least of which is Tilly, playing at Miss Nightingale,
will probably feel obliged to fall in love with her patient, or fancy she has. On the way
back, as we ran in a most undignified fashion across the parade ground toward
our bows and pinafores, Tilly suddenly said: "Our duet!" (They had
adapted "Somebody's Darling" for two parts.) "We can't do it,
his being gone. And I looked so pretty in that blue silk robe." I took
heart from that. If the baggage is still thinking of her own self and vain
pursuits, we can hope tonight's debacle hasn't damaged her spirit too badly. For a time the
excitement of being in a theatrical production gave us respite from the sad
state of the rebel soldier we'd left quite possibly dying, but I dared not even
think of that. I suppose it's unchristian, but I think the bright lights and
tumultuous applause took our minds completely. The stage—built by the
prisoners—is small but utterly delightful. I continue to be amazed by the
varied talents one can garner simply by imprisoning a section of the American
armies. Which side they fought for doesn't seem to be a factor. The fort boasts
several excellent carpenters; the lights (every candle and lamp on the key was
pressed into service) had been cunningly shaped and aimed by a union deserter
from New York. Before the war he worked for a clothier in the city of New York,
and one of his tasks was to provide attractive lighting for the window displays
and the live mannequins. We even had an exquisitely painted back-drop provided
by a burglar-cum-muralist from Philadelphia. War and theater seem to be good
bedfellows. Despite this
"innocent maid" being rather long in the tooth and not a maiden by
any stretch of the imagination, Tilly's and my " 'Tis True I Have
Flirted" was very well received. I do believe we would have gotten a
standing ovation had I not insisted Tilly put her underskirts and knickers back
on in spite of the heat. What the girl was thinking, I cannot say. Under the
bright lights burning all round our makeshift stage she would have looked like
a burlesque queen. Both of us had
a wonderful time. Tilly can be excused by her youth, I suppose. As for me, I
must simply be a vain and shallow creature for all the thought I gave that
battered boy during my brief moment of glory. I did happen to notice that the
fort's surgeon had not abandoned his seat in the center of the third row
despite the fact we had sent a boy with a message about Joel. Evidently he
didn't feel the health of one rebel soldier—and one reputed to have celebrated
our dear Mr. Lincoln's death—was worth missing an entertainment. I think the evening
would have been an unqualified success had not a minor riot broken out. Two
numbers after Tilly's and my triumph, as a magician was pulling two rats from
an old hat (rabbits being hard to come by in the middle of the ocean and rats,
he assured us, being really rather clever creatures), there was a great
hullabaloo from the parade ground. The men in the
audience grew restive, and a handful of the officers stood up and left. My
stage business being finished but for the curtain call, I slipped out the back
of the mess hall behind the stage and hid myself in the shadows of the new
construction to see what the noise was about. Soldiers being so outnumbered by
prisoners, we live with the fear of an uprising, though the unfortunate
wretches condemned to serve their time here have shown no such inclination. At
first I thought this long-held fear had come to pass. The parade ground, so
ghostly and quiet when Tilly and I went out earlier, was teeming with men in
various states of dress. Some carried lanterns, a few with torches or candles,
all were grumbling or shouting, creating a noise that was truly frightening. I was standing
behind a pile of bricks the engineers were to use for the barracks's foundation
and thought myself alone. When I felt someone grab my shoulder, I screamed. In
the general hubbub, all was confusion, noise, fire and darkness, and no one
heard me. When I found Tilly had followed me out, I was so angry and relieved I
nearly slapped her. I think only knowing how it feels to be on the receiving
end of that sort of hurt stopped my hand. Guns began to
fire, at what or who was unclear, but the reports were loud, echoing as they do
in the enclosed space of Fort Jefferson. Those who'd been invited to the
entertainment in the mess hall poured out across the gravel. Many had snatched
lanterns from the footlights and the walls. The lights
crossed and moved, making each man into four and casting wild shadows. Suddenly
Tilly and I were illuminated, and I heard Joseph's familiar bellow. "Christ on
the cross, you stupid woman!" That, of
course, would be me. He came at us at a run, and his face was twisted with
anger. Tilly must have
thought he was going to attack us. She shrank down and clung to my skirts like
she used to when she was a little girl. Joseph did lay
hands on me but only to give me a shake and vent his anger. "The whole God
damn fort is up in arms. You get yourself and your sister back in quarters and
bolt the door or I'll beat you till you can't sit down for a month of
Sundays." There are times
I do believe he loves me. Oddly enough that was one of them. Tilly, though, was
frightened out of her wits and began to sob. Long ago I learned that there is
nothing Joseph so hates as a weeping woman. He left the lantern he'd carried on
the ground, grabbed a handful of Tilly's pinafore in one hand and my arm with
the other and all but carried us back into the officers' mess. I was reminded
of my husband's strength of back and of purpose. I suppose it's why his men
love him. As I did once and do again from time to time. He hurled us at
his petty officer with dire threats and not a few expletives, and we were
marched up to my quarters like naughty children and a soldier stationed outside
our door at my husband's order to see that we stayed there. Though angry at
having been bundled away and locked in, I felt safer, partly for myself and a
great deal for Tilly. Once the door was slammed behind us we went to the
window. The noise, the running, had grown worse. "An
uprising? A lynching?" I said, forgetting I was not alone and very
probably infecting Tilly with my fears. "Lynching?"
she repeated "Private Lane? For what they say he said about the
president?" I said nothing,
but that had been my first thought as well. 5 From a place
above and just outside Fort Jefferson's walls, Anna watched soldiers, small and
silent as black ants, scurrying across the parade ground in the moonlight. In
clots and trails they moved toward a confused flashing of lanterns near
the sally port. Though logic told her she could not, she saw, too, Raffia and
Tilly behind a locked door in the officers' quarters, an armed guard to keep
them in. The vivid colors of their bows and pinafores came to startling life
when they neared a lamp, only to return to gray as they passed from its circle
of influence. The vision was very real; she was there and she was not. Then a force
she could not see clamped over her face, something hard and foreign was forced
into her mouth. Air rushed into her lungs, a sudden hammer blow banging out her
ribs. The fort, the soldiers, the women, receded to a pinpoint then burned out
in a tiny noiseless explosion, and Anna was alone. Darkness coiled
around her body and mind. She flailed but touched nothing. Down and up ceased
to have meaning. For a moment of blinding panic she believed she was dead and
this suffocating nothingness was eternal afterlife. Another
monstrous struggle with unseen forces determined to invade her very being for
all of time, and again air thundered into her lungs. She could hear it passing
through her trachea; marbles pouring down the narrow neck of a glass jar. Without
conscious thought, air changed from invader to the single most important thing
in life. Anna gulped and floundered. Darkness began to recede, edges first,
turning green then sifting in toward the center. Underwater. She
was underwater. A hand was on her waist, a regulator held in her mouth. This
knowledge didn't speak to the rational part of her brain, it was merely an
observation. A watery world made as little sense as the silent scream of the
black vortex had moments earlier. Rising.
Breaking the surface. Sunlight. More of the marvelous air. Anna remembered now:
Fort Jefferson, the hunt for Bob Shaw, cutting away her trapped fin. After that
there was only the darkness and Great-Great-Aunt Raffia. She spit out
the regulator and fought the arm across her chest feebly. A strong swimmer
towed her toward the NPS boats: hers, Mack's and Daniel's. She knew names. A
good sign. "Stop
wiggling," came a command and Anna obeyed, lying in the water, face to the
sky, being reeled in like the day's catch. "What
happened?" she asked. "Later. On
board. Be quiet." For reasons she
was unsure of—and uninterested in—Anna was content to be a package with no
thoughts and no responsibilities other than to shut up and lie still. The idyll was
short-lived. As her rescuer floated her inert body close to the nearest boat,
shouting and clattering dinned in her waterlogged ears. "Is she
alive?" was hollered more than once so Anna knew her lost minutes had been
of the dangerous sort. When the answer was in the affirmative, somebody said,
"Hallelujah!" so she knew she was among friends. Her birth from
the warm amniotic sea and the odd drift of mind was sufficiently violent with
hauling and pushing and dragging her corpus over the gunwale and flopping it
onto the deck that she was reborn, not only into the world of the living but
into her old life with its dues and responsibilities. "What
happened?" she demanded. "You're
welcome," she heard a voice murmur. Teddy Shaw, dressed in a dripping
blouse, underpants and fins, a snorkel and mask the sum total of her dive gear,
sat beside her on the box covering the engine of the Boston Whaler. Teddy had
saved Anna's life. Since Danny didn't dive, she must have shucked off her trousers
at the first sign of a problem and free dived unknown territory to bring Anna
out. "Oh.
Right," Anna said. "What happened?" Then, more sharply:
"Where's Linda? I was diving with Linda." She stood quickly with the
half-baked idea of going back down. Dizziness smacked into her. Teddy caught
her before she toppled over the side. Teddy gently
pushed her head down. Blackness receded. "I know what you did for
me," Anna said. It came out in a creaky little whisper. "I am
grateful. But I'm in a hurry. Where is Linda?" She pushed herself upright,
but this time had the good sense to remain seated. Fainting was embarrassing,
and as the shock of being alive wore off, her entire body had begun to hurt. "She's
okay." Danny knelt in front of her, the gesture of an adult soothing a
child. "Where?" "On the Atlantic
Ranger. There." Daniel pointed. "Right after the explosion I
radioed Mack to get another diver over here. Rather than wait, Teddy went over
the side in a snorkel. "Mack got
here a few minutes ago, just as Teddy broke surface with you. Linda'd come up a
minute or so before. She's on board with Cliff now." "She's
okay?" Anna asked. "Shook up.
Bruised. She was closer than you but didn't seem as hard hit. The hull must
have aimed the explosion up and out where you were. She got cut up
pretty bad on the coral but managed to keep her regulator in her month and
never lost consciousness. The blast stirred up the bottom and knocked you clean
out of her sight. She'd come up to see if she could see your bubbles, but Teddy'd
already gone down." Explosion.
Blast. Anna remembered none of that. For a second she just sat, watching the
water on the deck around her feet turn pink. "Guess I'm
bleeding," she said. "What blew up? The boat?" "The
boat," Daniel confirmed. "How could
the damn thing blow up?" Anna asked nobody in particular. "It'd
already blown up. There were pieces scattered all over hell and back." For
some reason the image of the damaged fingers beckoning from the misshapen cabin
door flashed behind Anna's eyes. Terror seized her: fear the finger belonged to
the grim reaper himself, that he stalked her and, having missed this time,
would try again, and soon. The horror was so intense and unexpected Anna sucked
her breath in. "What's
the matter? Are you okay?" chorused in her ears, and she was pulled out of
her paranoia. "Must have
broken a rib," she lied. Raw fear born of a mental-picture-become-real was
as frightening as the false hell of the image. It was insane. Anna rubbed her
face hard with both hands, scrubbing away the disease. "Extra
fuel tanks in the bow, is my guess," Daniel said, returning to her
question of how a boat could explode twice. "That or explosives of some
kind." "Fire,"
Anna said. "Just before nothing, I saw a bubble full of smoke leaking from
the hull." "An
explosive detonated by fire," Daniel amended his earlier supposition. While she'd
been sitting, gathering what wits were left to her, ignoring Teddy, her savior,
and making demands for information, the Atlantic motored over to raft
off the Curious, and Teddy and Daniel had divested her of tank, weight
belt, fins and snorkel. Anna reached
down to retrieve the heavy buoyancy compensator—BC—that held tank and
regulator. "I'd better go back down," she said. "Figure out what
the hell happened." "That
might not be the best idea." Cliff, with his
kindly professional face and quiet voice, leaned on the gunwales where the two
boats touched. "Might want to rethink that one. Linda's not going back
down. Not today." Anna's vision,
narrow and inward for the few minutes she'd been out of the water, opened to
include sky, ocean and this handful of people floating in between. Linda, free
of dive gear as she was, sat in the Atlantic's bow. Mack was cutting her
tattered dive skin off of her. The exposed flesh oozed with cuts and scrapes,
one or two quite deep, bleeding freely, though not life threateningly. "Are you
okay, Linda?" Anna asked. "Better
than you. And I've got sense enough to call it a day. I hurt too bad not to be
stupid down there." Anna hadn't
taken time to assess herself, but she did so now. Like Linda, her dive skin was
torn in dozens of places. Blood mixed with water was staining the deck around
her feet. When she breathed, her ribs hurt—probably not broken but badly
bruised. There might be other injuries not so readily apparent. "Good
point," she finally agreed. "Teddy might not take kindly to having to
save my life more than once a day." "I'll go
down in half an hour or so," Cliff promised. "Let the dust settle a
bit." Anna thought
for a second and was pleased to note that her ability to reason seemed to have
returned. "Okay," she said. "You stay here, Mack. Dive with
Cliff. Stay clear of the wreck if anything looks like it could turn on you.
I'll leave my gear and the camera." It occurred to her then that the
camera had been with Linda. She looked at the other diver, naked now but for
the bottom of her two-piece bathing suit. The top lay in pieces on the deck.
Ugly scrapes raked across her left breast. Linda pawed
through the refuse of her gear and held it up. "Can't promise it'll still
work." "Bob—"
Teddy began. Anna overrode
her. "Daniel, take the Curious and continue the search. Teddy, me
and Linda will go back to the fort, get patched up, then join you." With a minimum
of fuss, they divided themselves among the boats and, Teddy driving. the women
motored back to Garden Key. The more time
that passed, the more Anna's body made its complaints heard. By the time they
docked, she had stiffened up and was hard pressed to find any part of her that
did not ache. Linda looked
just as miserable. "Why don't you lay low for a while," Anna
suggested. "Teddy'll do the driving. I'll sit still and look." That
would be about all she could do, but Anna chose not to put it into words. Ever practical,
Linda accepted. Anna showered
quickly. Naked, she could see the toll coral and trauma had taken. She'd
sustained no deep cuts as Linda had, but contusions, burning and itching from
the coral's defensive toxins, marked her so that she looked as if she suffered
from some vile and highly contagious disease. Choosing
comfort, she set aside the National Park Service's uniform code and donned
another short loose dress. She wanted as little touching her skin as park rules
and regulations would allow. She made
herself a peanut butter sandwich, poured a glass of sparkling water that tasted
flat though she'd just opened it, and sat on the couch next to a sleeping
Piedmont to eat. The coffee table was strewn with Great-Great-Aunt Raffia's
correspondence to her sister Peggy. Perhaps because of the dreams she'd had the
night before or the moments without oxygen when she'd hovered above the western
ramparts watching the last letter she'd read come to life, Anna felt a
connection to Raffia and Tilly that was more than family ties. The fear that
touched her onboard the Curious when her mind took her back to the
beckoning finger again rubbed at the edges of her mind. "I feel
funny," she said to the cat. "My mind isn't working right." The admission,
spoken aloud even to a sleeping cat, disturbed her. This was not the kind of
thing she wanted to become public knowledge. "It'll
pass," she said to the imaginary jury in her head. Leaving the sandwich
half-eaten, she grabbed a daypack she'd stuffed with needful things and left
the cat to his nap. Anna'd been
raised on cowboy-and-Indian stories. At least conceptually she was no stranger
to the phrase "skinned alive." Having been rudely scraped over the
coral, she suffered a new and deeper understanding of the old torture. It hurt
to walk. The dress chafed. The sun poked red-hot rays into her. Because they
were abraded by living coral, the wounds itched. Scratching them was brutal.
The only good thing she could say about the contusions, had she been mad enough
to want to play the Pollyanna Glad Game, was they took her mind off the aches
the tumbling had engendered, the nausea from swallowing salt water and the
persistent cough left over from trying to breathe underwater. She was in no
shape to head up a search for Ranger Shaw but, until the coast guard arrived,
she was the only game in town. Letting Teddy go alone was a bad idea. Doing
nothing when Bob might be alive and in need was unthinkable. For twenty
minutes she and Teddy continued working the grid from the north-south axis to
the west of where Cliff and Mack had quit. Anna tried with very little success
to stay in the shade of the Boston Whaler's one pitiful awning. She'd been too
scraped up to make herself spread on sun block, and the sun burned her raw
flesh. In the midst of
a fantasy about parasols, the radio crackled. Cliff had resurfaced. The bow of
the boat had been destroyed by a second and more violent explosion. The
beckoning finger was gone, as was every other part of the individual whose
remains had hidden in the drowned cabin. Danny's guess that stored fuel had
exploded due to fire left burning from the first conflagration amidships was
ratified by the remnants of auxiliary fuel tanks stowed, presumably, belowdecks
in the fore cabin. "And I got
lucky," he finished. "Got something you need to see." "What?" "Come on
over. It can wait a few minutes." His reluctance
to deliver the news over the airwaves scared Teddy. Blood drained from her
face, leaving it the faded gray-gold of winter grass. Anna knew they shared the
same thought; you don't tell a woman you've found her husband's corpse over
the radio. Bob Shaw's body
wasn't waiting for them. Not quite. "Found
this about sixty feet south and a bit east of the wreck," Cliff said as
Teddy tied their boat to the Curious. He held up what first appeared to
be a clump of seaweed—Anna's mind trying to make seaworthy sense of what her
eyes saw. "A duty
belt," she said after a moment. "Bob's."
Teddy made a small sound. a muffled squeak. Given there was nothing she could
do for the woman who'd saved her life but find her husband—or his body—Anna
chose not to notice. She took the
gun belt from Cliff's hands and lifted it over the gunwale to examine it. Bob's
semiautomatic was snapped into the holster. Spare magazines were full, as was
the magazine in the SIG Sauer; cuffs and pepper spray were in place. Because
the belt Velcroed closed instead of buckling, it was impossible to tell if it
had been removed intentionally or torn off with violence. What with one thing
and another, Anna had allowed herself to believe Bob's disappearance and the
sinking of the green go-fast boat were separate, unrelated incidents. Boats
burned for many reasons, most having nothing to do with AWOL park rangers.
Factoring Bob back in changed things. Now it was not just the death of a
stranger but, perhaps, a man she liked. "Anything
else?" Cliff shook his
head then said: "I don't know. There might be. I figured you'd want to
know soon as could be, so I marked the spot, brought the belt up and
called." Technically, he
should have left it where it lay, but under the circumstances that seemed a
moot point. "You up
for another dive?" Anna asked. "Sure.
It's less than thirty feet for the most part. I shouldn't have any
trouble." "We,"
Anna said. "I'm going with you." "Do you
think that's a good idea?" Diving experience, age, years of captaining
boats, of commanding, made his soft-spoken question something to be seriously
considered. Anna did so.
After a moment she said honestly: "Not a great idea, no. Maybe not even a
good idea. But I'll be okay, if that's what you mean. All I intend to do is be
a floating pair of eyes." Satisfied,
Cliff nodded. "We stay together," he said neutrally, aware Anna was
the captain of this particular ship. "We stay
together," she agreed. For just such
emergencies Anna kept an old swimsuit in the storage bin in the compartment
under the bridge. It stank of mildew and bagged in the seat but would suffice
to keep her legal. Putting on BC vest and tank wasn't as bad as she'd feared.
Though she was bruised from being batted about the ocean floor, the heavy nylon
mesh of the vest and the metal air tank had protected those portions of her
anatomy from the cutting edges of the coral. Side by side,
she and Cliff rolled backward off the gunwale. When she hit the water Anna would
have screamed had her mouth not been full of rubber. Seawater bit into each and
every cut and scrape, rubbing salt into her wounds. The shock made her feel
faint and disoriented. Pain and the wooziness faded as skin and mind adapted to
the new realities of life. Cliff hung in
the water nearby, as comfortable and perfectly balanced as Linda had been. At
his "follow me" signal Anna kicked into motion. Once the initial
sting had passed it felt wonderful to be underwater. The freedom and
weightlessness of diving was the closest thing to flying unaided Anna would
ever experience. It was good to stretch her bruised muscles; good to have the
weight off her scraped buttocks. And it was good to be doing something other
than gridding the ocean with a potential widow and finding nothing. As they swam
past the wreck, she was fascinated by the new configuration the second
explosion left behind. The stern, still of a piece, had been shifted, and the
floating life jacket, instead of straining for the surface, was half buried
beneath. The bow section no longer existed: no structure, no cabin, just pieces
blown out in a rough cone shape pointing in the direction from which Anna tad
been swimming. It was easy to see how Linda, much closer to the bow of the
boat, had fared no worse than she had. For all their might, explosives could be
aimed and channeled by containers no more substantial than wax. What had aimed
this, Anna couldn't begin to guess and doubted it mattered. She had not been
the target. Nor had anyone else. Further on
Cliff stopped, hovering several feet above the bottom. They were about
twenty-five feet down. The ocean floor was devoid of vegetation, though not of
life. Without trying, Anna found two tiny fish. One no bigger
than her thumbnail vanished into a burrow in the sand at her approach. A
red flag, like a surveyor's flag on an eighteen-inch wire, had been stuck in
the sand. This, then, was where Bob Shaw's gun belt had been found. With a
fingertip, Anna drew a spiral out around the flag, pointed to herself then
Cliff. He made the okay sign with thumb and forefinger. Staying ten feet apart
the two of them began swimming in an ever-widening circle with the red flag at
its center. The small
desolate plain of sand and dead coral gave way to an underwater meadow of what
looked to be grasses covered with fur. Soon, on the northern edge of their
circle, they swam over the remnants of the sunken go-fast boat. Because of the
boulders of coral, they were forced to swim nearer the surface. On the fifth
circuit, more coral intruding with its cacophony of color and confusion of
life, they found Shaw's deck shoes. Twenty feet apart and tumbled into a forest
of hot pink anemone, Anna was surprised they had spotted them. After the
location of the second shoe was marked with another of Cliff's flags, Anna
stopped. Hanging in the water, clear now that they'd moved away from the area
of disturbance, she looked back across the imaginary circle till she found the
red flag marking where the gun belt had been found. A compass reading from the
line between shoes and flag read NNW Turning, Anna followed a SSE heading,
continuing the line. Approximately
three hundred feet farther she came upon what she'd known must be there: the Bay
Ranger. A jagged hole in her bow, she lay on her side in a patch of sand
beneath twenty feet of clear, still water. Had the wreck of the go-fast boat
not stopped them, Danny and Linda would have found her in the next couple of
passes. Already, curious fishes had come and swam languidly around the control panel
and its sunshade. The little
Sylvan runabout had no cabin, no belowdecks. Anna and Cliff could see at a
glance that Bob was not onboard. Had Bob been on one of the other patrol
boats—both Boston Whalers—like Molly Brown, he would have been unsinkable. A
Whaler would float even when cut in half, and run if you happened to be on the
half with the engine. She hoped Bob's love affair with stealth hadn't killed
him. Because she'd
be a fool not to, Anna swam around the boat to be sure a corpse was not pinned beneath
or thrown nearby. She knew she would find nothing. Bob Shaw had been alive and
swimming at one point. Either he'd left the site of the Bay and dropped
first shoes and then duty belt in an attempt to reach the boat that had
exploded, or he had jumped from the green boat before it sank and was swimming
toward the Bay, dropping first belt then shoes. Anna guessed it
was the former for a couple reasons. Though they couldn't be sure without
further investigation, it was a good bet that a piece of debris, blasted from
the green boat, was the missile that smashed a hole in Bob's hull. The other
reason was, knowing Bob Shaw, if he needed to offload weight, his shoes would
go before his firearm. Catching
Cliff's eye, Anna pointed up. Together they surfaced. The strain of a long
night, a severe pummeling and a near-death experience were catching up to Anna.
Removing her snorkel, she whistled high and piercing, two fingers under her
tongue the way Carl Johnson taught her in third grade. When Daniel sighted them
she waved and was comforted to see him loose the two boats so they could motor
over. Anna didn't feel up to swimming back, but, she told herself—as she would
tell them—she remained where she was because she wanted them to see Shaw's
boat. Back onboard,
scrapes again on fire from various abuses incurred boarding and stripping off
gear, Anna shared what she was fairly sure was the good news. "It looks
like when the other boat exploded, a piece of it pierced Bob's hull and the Bay
sank. Probably very quickly. It's a damn big hole. Bob was either thrown
overboard or jumped. My bet is thrown. His radio is still on his duty belt. If
he'd had time, he would have radioed for help before the water ruined it. From
where we found the deck shoes and the belt, it looks as though, once in the
water, Bob swam toward the other boat. "There
were survivors on it, is what I'm figuring," Anna finished. "Bob died
saving someone, or trying to?" Teddy asked. Her voice was vague, seeking
her hero husband through darkness and fog, looking for an image to take to bed
for a lifetime of lonely nights. "I don't
think he's dead," Anna said flatly. "He was swimming. We know he had
a personal flotation device, and he was hale and hearty enough to think about
saving someone's skin other than his own." She looked at East Key, a
skinny ribbon of sand barely above waterline, a half-mile from the boats.
"I think Bob and whoever he swam to save must be there; the closest
landfall." "Bob,"
Teddy said. It was half a question and half a call to the man she had
come perilously close to giving up as dead. "I think
he could have tried for East Key." Anna tried to lower what could be
false hopes, but it was too late. Teddy was firing up the Reef Ranger without
waiting for anyone's by your leave. It was a wonder Anna and Cliff threw off
the Reef's lines and saved the Curious from being bumped and
towed alongside. Anna stepped up
to the bench and slid in beside Teddy. "Let me take over from here."
Teddy had the boat up to ramming speed and, if the look on her face was any
indication, had no intention of slowing down to beach the thing. For a second
Teddy glared at her, feral as any half-starved cat, but reason returned. She
turned the boat over to Anna and moved to the bow to be that much closer to the
place her husband might be. Anna felt a
pang of envy at the obvious love between the Shaws. So what if it was based on
castles built in the sand of the Caribbean? And she dearly hoped she was right
about Bob. After the first glad tidings and the departure of the Reef an
unpleasant thought had darkened her mood. If Bob was on East Key and he was
alive, why hadn't he been jumping, waving, signaling two NPS boats a mere half
mile out to sea? Cutting
throttle, she let a wave catch and carry the Reef onto the sandy shoreline.
East Key was concave along its western shore, creating a nice landing place.
Teddy leapt ashore yelling, "Bob!" Anna stayed to give the Reef an
extra pull above waterline. East Key was so small—measured not in acres and
miles but yards and buckets—Teddy would either find her husband or know he
wasn't there before Anna'd done. "Bob!
Bob?" Then, music to Anna's ears: "Oh, Bob." Anna turned to
follow the joyful noise. Teddy's head popped above a low dune with a
prairie-dog quickness that nearly made Anna laugh. "Bring the
first-aid kit," Teddy ordered in a voice that had Anna hopping like one of
Teddy's emergency-room orderlies. The Reef's medical
kit slung over one complaining shoulder, she scrambled up the dune behind
which she'd seen Teddy Shaw's head. Sand ground into the abrasions on her
bare legs and scorched the bottoms of her feet. As she topped the low dune, she
forgot her petty concerns. Ranger Shaw lay
on the other side, his lower body sprawled across the legs of a dead man as if
he'd lain atop the corpse before his wife turned him face up. Teddy cradled his
head in her lap. "He's not
dead," she said fiercely as Anna took in the scene. "Bleeding
out?" Anna asked. "No." "Breathing?" "Yes." Shaw would live
another couple minutes. "Water,"
Anna said, dropped the first-aid kit where Teddy could reach it easily, and
trotted back to the Reef. Shaw had suffered some kind of trauma, swum at
least a half-mile if not more, either pursuing or towing another man, then lay
in the sun for half a day. Dehydration would be a serious factor. In the minutes
Anna was gone Teddy completed the evolution from wife to head ER nurse. The
dead man had been rolled on his side, facing away, to give him his dignity. The
medical bag was set to shade Shaw's face, and Teddy had his trouser leg nearly
cut off. Anna joined
her, unbuttoned Shaw's shirt, then ran both hands over his head, neck and torso
to check for damage. "Back okay?" she asked as they worked. "Clean,"
Teddy replied. "He was laying facedown half on the dead guy. I checked his
back before I rolled him over. "Head,
neck and chest are okay," Anna said. "Oh, hey, got some eye
movement." "Not
surprised. I hurt him. Look here." Below Bob's left knee the white of bone
showed through the flesh. "Broken," Teddy said. "Compound. And
lost a lot of blood. "Bob, open
your eyes," Teddy said commandingly. Shaw opened his
eyes; blinds going up in an empty room. "You're
okay, honey. We're here. You need to stay awake. We're going to sit you up so
Anna can give you a drink." Shaw came back
into himself, his soul back in his eyes. "Water," he repeated.
"Good..." Cliff, Mack and
Danny arrived. Bob was packaged and Danny and Mack carried him aboard the Reef.
Mack argued for the Atlantic for some reason but was ignored. After
the night's terrors and the day's adventures, Anna was going to carry her catch
home. She did give
Mack the unidentified corpse. They didn't have a body bag and the remains, made
festive by beach towels, were strapped to a backboard. Teddy stayed at
Bob's side murmuring endearments and giving him as many small sips of water as
he would take. The bleeding around the fracture had stopped on its own hours
before. Compound fractures were always bad, but where the exposed end of the
bone had been drying in sun and jammed full of sand for five hours,
complications proliferated. Other than rehydration, neither Anna nor Teddy
would attempt treatment. Anna radioed Duncan, the fort's historian, to call the
mainland for a helicopter. Before the Reef Ranger brought her cargo to the
dock, he radioed back to let her know one had been dispatched. Mack and Danny
carried Bob to his wife's "hospital." The corpse was housed in the
researcher's dorm with the air conditioning turned as cold as the thermostat
had numbers for. The body would fly back to Key West with Bob and Teddy Shaw. Everyone was
anxious to hear Bob's story, but at Teddy's request, they left the infirmary.
Mack, more tenacious or more curious, was inclined to ignore requests, and Anna
had ordered him out. After that he remembered his manners and left with good
grace. Nobody but the Shaws seemed to want to admit the adventure was over. With water to
drink, a saline IV drip to assist, and a cool dim place, Bob regained full
consciousness. Anna asked to do the intravenous drip, needing the
"sticks" to keep her IV status as an emergency medical technician
current. After she failed twice, leaving small bloody prints behind, Teddy
snatched the needle away and inserted it neatly. "I'd have
got it in another try," Anna said. "Bob's suffered
enough." Anna knew that,
but "sticks" were hard to come by. After a shot of
Demerol authorized over the phone by the medivac doctor and administered by his
wife, Bob bordered on jocular. Sometimes being alive did that to a person. When Bob was as
comfortable as possible, Anna pulled up a stool and sat by the bedside facing
him. Several times she breathed in and out, ridding her feverish brain of the
strangeness and ghostly half-images that had plagued her since being awakened
by Teddy in the middle of the night. Mind clean and open, she was ready to
listen. "So,"
she said. "Tell me what happened." She half expected to get a rebuke
from Teddy. Though alert and oriented, Bob was in pretty bad shape. Teddy said
nothing, and it occurred to Anna that heroes, regardless of personal injury,
were expected to make it back through enemy lines to report, even if they had
to do it with their last breath. Bob began his
tale with scattered thoughts and broken time lines, stopped, made adjustments
inside his skull, and began again, this time at the beginning. "Just
before midnight I was heading in from checking the northwest boundary of the
park. Three shrimpers, all outside our waters. Two family-owned. Been here
before. Never been any trouble. The third looked like trouble. Details in my
patrol log." Bob's patrol
log was providing reading for the fishes, but Anna didn't interrupt. "As I came
past Loggerhead, I caught a glint of something toward East Key. No lights,
nothing like that, just a place on the water that didn't match up. I radioed
in..." His voice
trailed off, and Anna watched his eyes grow dull as he searched his mind for
verification of his words. "You
called in," Teddy said, taking the place of memory. "You told me you
were onto something and needed radio silence." "Okay. I
radioed in, then turned off my running lights and cruised toward the place on
the water. With binoculars I could see it was a Scarab—one of those go-fast
boats, like a cigarette boat but bigger and only a few years old. It was black
or some dark color, moored in the middle of a coral bed, no lights. Two people
onboard. Maybe three but at least two. Could see the lit ends of their
cigarettes. Looked hinky. "About
fifty yards out I turned my light on them and hailed. The boat was deep metallic
green and rode low in the water like it was loaded to the gunwales. Not usual
for a go-fast boat. They'd have heard my motor so my being there was no
surprise, but as soon as they realized I was law enforcement, one guy ducks
into the cabin and the other fires up the engine. He got panicked or something
and didn't take time to turn on the fans to purge the bilge and engine
compartment of gas fumes. "Must have
been a spark, because it blew up. A piece of it hit my boat. I was thrown
overboard. My boat sank, theirs burned a second then went down." Bob stopped and
rubbed his eyes with both fists like a sleepy child. "God, it was
fast," he said, sounding less like a Joe Friday and more like a real
person. "Two boats afloat. Bang. Flash. Both boats gone like they never
happened. I didn't know they could sink that fast. I might have a funny time
sense. I was never out cold, but things were hazy after I went overboard. Just
for a couple seconds," This last was to Teddy, who nodded as if she
expected no less from him. "I could
see one of the passengers on the other boat—I think the one that started the
engine—was still alive but in a bad way. I got my PFD inflated and started to
swim over to give him a hand. Till then I didn't know my leg had been hit—it
didn't hurt, nothing. Once I knew, it hurt like a son-of-a-bitch. Anyway I swam
toward the guy but with my leg it was rough going and I had to drop my duty
belt. I lost my sidearm." Bob looked at
his wife, loath to admit this gross failing on his part. "Only a damn
fool would have kept their gun given the circumstances. Anyway, Cliff found it
for you," Anna said. "Go on." "I got to
the guy. He was alive but hurting and not able to help himself. I towed him to
East Key—and tried to get up a signal fire. I couldn't manage it. By the time
the sun came up the guy was breathing bad. I tried to shade him. Then I don't
remember anything till Teddy yelling, 'Bob.'" He smiled at his wife and
Anna looked away, not to give them a moment's privacy but because their faces
had blurred. She rubbed her eyes, wondering if she needed sleep or what. When
she looked again they were back in focus. "The man
you saved—" "He
died." "Still
counts," Anna said. "The man never said anything?" "Not much.
He was never fully there, if you know what I mean. He was burned, and I think
he'd been struck on the head. Pain and concussion or whatever had him
scrambled." "What did
he say?" Anna asked. "Let's
see." Bob closed his eyes the better to recall. "He was scared,
wanted to get to dry land. 'Feet on American soil,' he said once. Once he said,
'cold' and then I thought he was saying 'tree saw' but it made no sense.
Nothing he said made sense." For a minute,
or maybe more, Anna waited in case Bob should wish to add anything, but he
didn't. "I'll let you rest," she said. "Your ride should be here
in half an hour or so. I want to get a look at the man you saved before they
haul him off to the knackers." As she closed
the infirmary door it suddenly struck her that Bob had done it. When reality
came knocking he'd been able to act out his fantasy. He'd swum over half a mile
with a compound fracture dragging behind him a man he'd saved from the briny
deep. He'd tried to build a signal fire and, when he felt himself blacking out,
his last thought was to fall in such a way as to protect the other guy from the
burning rays of the sun. That made him a
genuine, bona-fide hero in Anna's book. Later there
would be time to fete Bob, to wonder why the riders of the green go-fast boat
were hovering off East Key, why they panicked sufficiently when they saw law
enforcement to forget to clear the gasoline fumes, and why they carried extra
fuel in their bow. Right now she had a corpse to examine. The helicopter from
Key West would be at the fort in less than thirty minutes to whisk this bit of
human jetsam away. It took her
only a minute to fetch a camera and return to the researcher's dorm. Danny and
Mack did their work well. All six generators must have been working overtime.
The dorm was as cold as a morgue. And as dim. The long narrow room, packed
floor-to-ceiling with bunk beds had but one window facing out on
the parade ground, and that was dull with a cataract of mini-blinds. Having switched
on the overhead lights, which seemed to alter the nature of the dimness rather
than shed illumination, Anna walked back to the industrial-style kitchen. On
the counter, stripped of the colorful towels and covered by a white sheet, was
her objective. As she neared,
the sheet, draped over what must have been the man's right hand, stirred; a
minute flutter and lift as if plucked up then dropped by restless fingers. A
horror movie thrill closed Anna's throat, and she stopped. For an instant the
room's walls seemed to waver, start to close in. The sudden panic receded, but
not the fear. For a minute or more she watched the shrouded form, but there
were no more zombie-like manifestations. "Damn,"
Anna said aloud and was comforted by the sound of her own voice. The fort, lack
of sleep, too much sun, too long underwater, something was playing tricks with
her mind. "Okay, buddy," she continued, finding talking brought her
out of whatever creepy place she'd glimpsed. "Let's see if you've got
anything to tell me." Pinching the
sheet delicately between thumbs and forefingers, she peeled it back. She always
took care to respect the dead—an honor she would not necessarily extend were
they still living. Dead, a person was evidence at best and the empty valise of
someone's memory if nothing else. Anna hoped this dead man would prove a
treasure trove of answers. Starting with who he was. Having taken
the sheet off, she put her pocket notebook and pen on the counter by the
corpse's right foot, pulled on latex gloves to protect herself as much as any
trace evidence, and began. Hispanic—Cuban or Puerto Rican probably—in his late
twenties to mid-thirties, black hair cut short and well, the kind of barbering
a well-to-do businessman might get. Much of the left side of his face was
covered in second-degree burns. The ear had been taken by a third-degree burn.
All that remained was a hole surrounded by blackened flesh. Around his neck
was a two-inch gold crucifix—not a cross, a crucifix with the crucified Christ
executed in exquisite detail with skill and a joy in the macabre. The chain was
fused into the flesh where the fire had hit. Shirt and pants
were burned nearly off the left side of the body, while the right remained
relatively intact. He'd been standing to the right of the blast, at the engine.
It was probably he who'd triggered the first explosion. Anna checked the rest
of him for possible identifying marks. His right pocket contained one hundred
fifty-three dollars in a gold or gold-plated money clip with a dog's head
engraved on it, a shepherd or wolf or coyote. Other than that he carried no
identification. A bird of some kind, maybe an eagle, wings folded, was tattooed
on the back of his calf. Possibly he'd been in the service at one time. Her
knowledge of the military and its insignias fuzzy at best and gleaned from the
movies, Anna couldn't remember which branch, if any, used a bird diving
downward as its emblem. Dutifully, she
photographed everything and touched nothing but his trouser pockets and the
edge of a torn trouser leg. If there was to be any forensic investigation of
the remains, she didn't want it said she'd fouled it up. Odds were good there
wouldn't be. No crime they knew of had been committed. He'd killed himself and
his buddy in an unnecessary but not terribly rare boating accident. Probably X-rays
of his teeth would be taken for identification purposes and, if no one came
forward with a missing-persons claim, the body would be held however many days
Florida law decreed, then disposed of. If the man had
grown up outside the United States, his dental work would be of little value.
The boat might be a better way to trace his identity. If it was his boat. If it
had been purchased and/or licensed in the U.S. Anna clicked a
couple shots of the tattoo just to prove she was doing her job, and suffered a
moment of compassion for Florida law-enforcement officers of every stripe.
Working where several cultures came together, many recent immigrants, many
illegal, the twists and tangles in what in Kansas might be a routine
investigation became an almost impossible task. Leaving the
makeshift morgue with its sad John Doe, Anna could hear the chop and whuff of
the medevac helicopter from Key West. Garden Key had a helipad on a slight rise
between the campground and the sea on the old coaling dock used to refuel ships
when the fort was a working part of America's first line of defense. She had no
desire to be anywhere near the helipad when the helicopter set down. The mere
thought of being sandblasted on top of flayed by live coral made the undamaged
bits of her twitch. The Shaws and
the corpse shipped out. The search and rescue had been a success: her ranger
was not dead; her administrative officer was not widowed. Further diving was a
bad idea—at least until tomorrow. Both Anna and Linda were too tired and
beat-up to be safe, and Cliff had done more than his share. Though he would go
again without complaint if Anna asked him to, she wouldn't. He was no longer a
young man—he was no longer even a middle-aged man unless he intended to live to
one hundred and forty. Besides, Anna wanted to see things firsthand. The
weather was dead calm; the wreck would still be there tomorrow. The remainder
of the day she spent alone in the office, enjoying the quiet and the protection
of walls, cushioned chairs and air-conditioning. When she'd been a Yankee,
she'd scoffed at the stale soulless world of processed air. Since becoming a
southerner, she'd seen the light. With the top layer of her epidermis scraped
away, she was more than content to hide in the safe and comfortable womb of the
modern world. Another of the
perks of modern science was instant gratification, this time in the form of a
digital camera, the one fitted with an underwater container Anna, then Linda, then
Cliff had used to photograph the wreck. Anna'd used it again to take her
pictures of the corpse. After she'd written reports on the past twenty-four
hours' adventures, she downloaded the photos to Teddy's computer. Anna had
taken advantage of Teddy's absence to work at her desk rather than stay locked
away in the claustrophobic confines of her own office. An advantage of
the digital camera was that a photographer could take up to twelve hundred
photographs before running out of space. The disadvantage was that a
photographer could take up to twelve hundred photographs. Because film was not
a factor, there was no need to be frugal. Cliff's photos,
taken after the second explosion, were the most interesting. Anna compared
before and after shots, but could come up with nothing better than Danny's
original suggestion that the go-fast carried extra fuel, and fire from the
first blast engendered the second. When she
finally emerged from beneath the virtual sea, the office had grown gray with
dusk She shut the computer down and tried to move, but she'd been turned to
stone. An absurd picture of Teddy returning to find her hunched in her chair,
back humped, hands shaped like claws, glazed eyes fixed on the screen tittered
through Anna's brain. Groaning, she
loosed the muscles and joints grown stiff. Even her skin had stiffened, or so
it seemed, and felt as if it might rip were she to move too quickly. Getting outside
helped. Though the sun had set, it was still close to ninety degrees. After so
long in the AC, the heat's first embrace felt grand. Warm, dusk and no
mosquitoes: a rare treat for a woman late of Mississippi. The Dry Tortugas were
not always so blessed. Often after rains there would be an infestation of the
bloodsuckers, particularly if there'd been an open container left out to hold
standing water. With the recent drought, the vile creatures were blessedly absent. Rather than cut
across the parade ground, Anna climbed the spiral staircase near the fort's
gift shop and took the scenic route home. The stairs were dark enough she had
to feel her way up, but the steps were wide—at least at the outer edges—and the
handrails in good shape. On the second level she came out into the relative
brightness of the open casemates. To her right,
above what had once been the guardroom and was now the Visitors Center and gift
shop, was the cell in which Dr. Mudd and one of the other Lincoln conspirators
had been imprisoned. To her left was the northeast bastion. Anna turned left.
With openings to the sea on one side and the parade ground on the other, the
long rows of casemates collected light. On moonlit nights Anna often walked in
them, enjoying the silence, the shadows and the sense of human history that
mixed with the blood and mortar holding the bricks together. The bastions, with
their cavernous rooms and complex system of arches, were her favorite haunts. Not this night.
The northeast bastion's size and depth made it too dark. Usually the dark
didn't bother her, but her nerves had been scraped along with her flesh, and
the black corners set off internal alarms. Hugging the inner wall, she hurried
through and came out into the long passage down the northern edge of the parade
ground. Two perfect rows of arches, one small, made for the passage of men, one
large for the housing of cannon, unrolled. The arches forced perspective,
creating the illusion that the dimly lit vaults continued on to infinity. Soothed by the
uniform light and the fussy mutterings of thousands of sooty terns nesting on
nearby Bush Key, Anna drifted through the measured twilight. Halfway to her
quarters she noticed she was not alone. The other's presence was not heralded
by a shout or a footstep but by an unpleasant frisson along Anna's spine. At
the end of the casemates where the last arch gaped black, leading into the one
bastion without a gun port at it's end, the one called The Chapel because it
was surmised it had been so intended by the fort's builders, stood a woman in
white. Her dress was
long, tight-waisted, the sleeves of her blouse oversized at the shoulder and
snug from elbow to wrist. For a moment she was still, then she raised one hand
and patted her upswept hair as if looking for loose pins to poke in more
securely. "Hey!"
Anna yelled. "You!" And she began to run. The woman looked up, then
stepped back into the darkness, vanishing from sight. Running quickly and
lightly, it was only seconds before Anna reached the place where the woman had
stood. She searched The Chapel, the northwestern spiral stairs down to the
lower level and the exposed part of the casemates in front of her apartment and
that of Duncan and his family, but found nothing. Shaken, more
scared than she ought to be, Anna sat on the picnic table outside her quarters.
There were three possibilities: she'd seen a ghost, somebody was messing with
her or she was going mad. 6 My Dearest
Peggy— Sorry it has
been so long since last I wrote. Things have been a bit mad. Or perhaps I
should say a bit madder than usual. The fracas at the sally port turned out not
to be the lynching of Private Lane but the arrival through the storm of the
Lincoln conspirators. The entire fort was up in arms, our boys literally
running about with weapons and anger at ready. The fort crackled with evil the
rest of that night and for two days after. Joseph kept Tilly and I under house
arrest for nearly forty-eight hours either in fear for our well-being or, more
likely, because he forgot to tell our guards to go away and leave us alone. I
do know they dearly wanted to be relieved of this most onerous duty. We did not see
Joseph. I don't know where he slept or if he slept at all. I expect he was busy
keeping the soldiers and prisoners from using the arrival of the conspirators
as a rallying point to express their rage and frustration at the long hot
summer with its dry storms and lack of fresh food and water. Tilly slept
with me both nights. The unsettled state of the garrison, along with being
under house arrest, had us both on edge. I cannot, however, say that I slept
with Tilly. The girl kicks and tosses about just as she did when she was five
years old. I don't know that I should have slept a great deal better had she
gone to her own bed. The heat is oppressive and having a soldier escort one to
the privy is not conducive to the free and easy functioning of the body. Tilly
is as out of sorts as I but for different reasons. Singing romantic duets with
Private Lane, then holding his bloody head in her lap by lamplight, has
unhinged our little sister. I do believe Tilly is in love with the boy or
fancies herself so, which amounts to the same thing. By the
afternoon we were released, she had worked herself into a frenzy of worry that
Joel had died. My attempts to assure her that the fort's surgeon would have
seen to the boy and he was probably resting comfortably in the hospital had
little ameliorating effect. Possibly this was because I wasn't sure I believed
it myself. We weren't so
much released from our gentle, if humiliating, bondage as simply forgotten.
Tilly and I were in my room, sewing a new blouse to replace the one Joel Lane
had been so inconsiderate as to bleed all over, when Tilly—who'd done more
sighing and fretting than sewing—got up to visit the privy. She returned in
moments with the report that our warden had vanished and, the call of nature so
urgent a minute before now forgotten, insisted we go in search of Joel. The storm
passed without giving us a drop of rain to fill our cisterns, and the heat of
summer, heavy with moisture we can neither drink nor wash in but are condemned
to wear like a sweated sheet, filled the parade ground. Still I was glad to be
out—or at least as "out" as life on a prison island allows. The fort was
once again in order. Sentries patrolled on the third tier. Work gangs labored
at building the enlisted men's barracks. Off-duty soldiers smoked in the open
casemates or played at cards or dice. Gambling is second only to consuming
alcohol as the favorite pastime, providing at least an illusion of excitement. Despite this
appearance of normalcy, I could feel an undercurrent of tension. Tilly was
nearly coming out of her skin, alternately tearing up or giggling as if her
poor over-burdened little self could not decide whether we were embarking on a
grand adventure or a tragic love affair. Before the boy
had been punished for his "traitorous talk" he'd been lodged along
with others from his captured regiment in one of the casemates in the northwest
corner over the bakery. Because these Virginia boys are young, for the most
part, well spoken and ready to put their backs into any work assigned them,
they've been given the best quarters the fort has to offer. The casemate they
share is not walled in, and they are afforded the relief of sea breezes. Ignoring the
impropriety of shouting up at the prisoners, Tilly and I stopped beneath their
quarters. A pleasant young man with beautiful mustaches that curl to the bottom
of his jaw told us Joel had not returned to the casemate after the Lincoln
conspirators came. Their captain asked the guards where Joel was. They said
they didn't know. He'd either been taken to the hospital outside the fort's
walls or been put in another casemate. As we crossed
the parade ground it became clear that the tension I felt was not all of my own
making. The soldiers are usually a friendly lot, calling out greetings or
wanting to show me a letter from home or some small thing they've carved from
driftwood or formed from iron scraps. This day they were quiet or formed into
small clumps, backs to the outside world, muttering and whispering to each
other. Even the work gangs were silent: no singing, no banter, just the ring of
hammers and the repetitive thump of wheelbarrows rolled over uneven ground. The two biggest
trees between the sally port and the open area in the middle of the parade
ground had borne ugly fruit. Half a dozen men, some in the battered remnants of
the uniform of the confederacy, some union men, had been bound, hands behind
their backs, then strung up till their toes barely brushed the earth. I'm ashamed to
admit neither Tilly nor I gave them much thought but to glance at their faces
to determine that Private Lane was not among them. We hated to ask
the guard at the sally port the whereabouts of Joel Lane—Tilly. I'm sure,
remembering Sergeant Sinapp. Still, we had no recourse but the guard. We
couldn't very well wander from cell to cell like Wee Willie Winkie, peeking in
the windows and crying at the locks. By great good
fortune Sinapp was nowhere to be seen. Outside the fort a ship had
docked for coal, and the bustle and shouting had drawn away everyone not
duty-bound to stay at their posts. A fresh-faced boy from New York was manning
the sally port, leaning against the stone arch and looking forlornly at the men
loading coal as if they attended a marvelous entertainment to which he was not
invited. Intimidating
him was child's play but, as with most things that come easily, of little
value. He did not know Joel by name, could not separate one bloodied soldier
from another after two days of near-riot and subsequent punishment. "Maybe
Hospital Key," he told us. Hospital Key is nearly a mile away. There is a
makeshift building there—little more than walls and roof hastily knocked
together—where contagious patients are housed. Behind the dreary structure is
where we bury our dead. "Being sent to Hospital Key" is our euphemism
for dying. Perhaps it was because of this association that I felt so hopeless. As good fortune
would have it, while we were at the docks a skiff from the hospital landed with
two of the "nurses"—unskilled prisoners willing to work with the
sick. Even after a quarter of an hour at sea the men stank of sickness and rot.
It caught in my throat, threatening to dislodge my lunch of beans and salted
pork. Both Tilly and I clutched our handkerchiefs over our noses to the
amusement of the men. One "nurse," a confederate lieutenant, told us
Joel had not been in hospital as far as he knew, and he served there twelve out
of every twenty-four hours. Tilly was
despondent over the news and became convinced that her pet Johnny Reb was dead.
I admit I was at a loss myself. From the extent of the injuries Joel sustained,
neither of us could believe he would be on any of the work crews. Having no
other options, we walked along the moat back toward the sally port. There are
always magnificent frigate birds soaring there, immense black-winged creatures
which, rather than flap, seem able to soar indefinitely. Tilly, engrossed in a
world built partly of her love of drama and partly of real fear for Joel Lane,
called them "dark angels." I pooh-poohed her as befits the role of
the older, wiser sister, but I cannot say the description was not apt. To further
dampen spirits already near to drowning, a smirking Sergeant Sinapp met
us at the drawbridge. His uniform, heavy wool like those of all the soldiers,
was dark from armpit to waist with sweat, and his dun-colored hair stuck to his
forehead beneath the brim of his cap in a parody of a little Caesar. "Mornin',
ladies," he drawled. I find it particularly offensive when men from the
north affect a southern drawl. It always sounds cruel to my ears. Coming from
Sinapp I suspected it was meant to be. I chose not to
reply. Tilly, absorbed in her own thoughts, scarcely seemed to notice him. Not wishing for
the indignity of trying to dodge around him, I hooked my arm through Tilly's to
keep her from wandering into the moat in her preoccupation, stopped in front of
the sergeant and waited. It was clear I was doomed to endure whatever he chose
to consider witty repartee. "Looking
for the boyfriend?" he asked and gave Tilly an encore performance of his
leer two nights before. Fortunately she didn't seem to notice. "Sergeant,"
I said. "Please excuse us, we wish to pass." I was terribly polite.
Molly would be pleased to know I do occasionally use the good manners she was
at such pains to instill in us. The foul man
didn't budge. The peculiar fatigue that had descended upon me so abruptly kept
me from saying more. "You been
to the hospital?" I said nothing.
My focus had slid from Joel, Tilly and even the odious and odiferous sergeant
to a single and greatly desired goal: I wanted to sit down, preferably in the
shade. "You have.
I seen you." That was a lie but I left it unchallenged. Sweat rolled
down both sides of his face and into his collar. I was pleased to note he was
nursing a particularly nasty boil below his left ear where the wool chafed his
neck. "Your
boyfriend ain't in the hospital," Sinapp had to say. "We put him
where traitor's deserve to be. Teach him to talk more respectful. Too bad there
won't be anybody to hear it where he is." Too tired to
think of a reply, I stood holding up Tilly for a while longer. Either Sinapp
grew bored with baiting us or he had exhausted his vocabulary. Finally he
stepped aside and let us walk in out of the sun. The shade
beneath the sally port is complete unto darkness—or so it seemed after the
glare of the sun—and a breeze off the harbor blows through. I led Tilly to a
wooden bench the officers of the guard keep there and collapsed and let the
unnerving assault of Sergeant Sinapp and two nights without proper sleep wash
over me. Tilly came out of her stupor, which should have been a comfort—I had begun
to worry—but it was only to embark on an emotional storm of a different kind.
Tears leaked from her eyes. "He's dead. They killed him," she said in
a tiny voice. "'There's no one to talk to where he is.'" She repeated
the sergeant's words. What with one
thing and another, Tilly was working herself into a state of hysterics. I know
I should have slapped her, but I doubt Tilly has ever been struck in her life
and I couldn't bring myself to be the first. I like to think it is because I am
too good-hearted, but it may have been that I was simply too tired to raise my
arm. Instead, I held
her and rocked her and murmured, "Shh, shh, he's not dead," over and
over until I convinced myself. Sinapp's words
might have meant the boy had been murdered, but his tone was that of a man
enjoying not the memory of an evil done but an ongoing cruelty. There was such relish
in his voice when he spoke of there being no one to hear Joel's imagined
repentance. In the unfinished confines of Fort Jefferson there was only one place
I could think of where one would be truly alone, unheard. "He's not
dead," I told Tilly. She rebounded
from despair as only the young can: in the time it takes for a tear to be wiped
away. "I must go
to him" I must go to
him. What on earth has Molly been letting that girl read? She was such the
tragic heroine I was tempted to administer the slap my inherent saintliness had
resisted just moments before. All that saved her from at the very least the
acid of my tongue was the look of genuine anguish on her face. The young man
on sentry duty at the guardhouse moved, and we realized our teapot tempest had
been observed. Eyes blinded by shade after glare and minds blinded by our own
thoughts, neither of us had noticed him against the stone in his stone-dark uniform. "Now then
don't you go thinking on that, Mrs. Coleman. It won't do, you know." He moved out
from the wall to stand before us. "You
knew," I said. I wasn't so much accusing him as amazed that this callow
youth was such a practiced dissembler. "I apologize,
ma'am. But we have orders, and not talking about the Lane boy is one of
them." "You are
talking about him now," Tilly said with the inexorable logic of a
sixteen-year-old. The guard couldn't have been much older and seemed struck by
Tilly's words. "I
am," he said, appalled at his dereliction of duty. A moment was all he
needed to justify things in his mind. "But it's different." I began to
suspect this sweet-faced liar was not one of the Lord's brighter creations. "We'll see
him now," Tilly announced and stood up, brushing her skirts straight in a
no-nonsense sort of way. "Now." The soldier
shuffled his feet but otherwise stood his ground. "I can't let you do
that, Miss. The captain would have my hide." Tilly began to
tremble the way she used to just before she threw one of her terrible tantrums.
I decided to step in before she humiliated us both and frightened the guard
half silly. "We do need to see Private Lane," I told him, trying to
make it sound as if we had orders from on high. He grew more
uncomfortable. His feet stilled, but his eyes fixed on some place of courage on
the wall between Tilly and me. "Come on,
Tilly," I said with what I hoped was the voice of age and authority. "I can't
let you do that," he said again and stepped in front of me. I admired
him for his courage and attention to duty, but my patience was at an end. "How will
you stop us?" I asked. "Will you throw us to the ground? Lock us in
the guardhouse? Both of us?" Regardless of
orders, he was unwilling to lay hands on a woman, particularly not his
captain's wife. "I'll
inform the captain," he said finally. "And
abandon your post? If you do that you will end up keeping Private Lane company.
Or worse." With that, I took Tilly's arm and we left him standing in his
personal quandary. Of course he would hail the first soldier who came within
range and send him to fetch Joseph, but I hoped Tilly and I had gained enough
time. Tilly and I
scuttled hastily down the row of casemates to the left of the sally port,
walking through the narrow arches. In the shadows to our left was a rubble of
new brick and gleaming cannon, oiled and ready but so new they'd not been
fired. On our right was the brilliant light of the parade ground. I had been to
our destination only once before and had not had the cause nor desire to see it
a second time. Tilly was not even aware of its existence, and I couldn't really
think of any words that might soften what was bound to be a blow. At last we came
to the largest room yet, windowless as were the others with no firing slits or
gun ports to let in the day. A wooden door set in the heavy planks that sealed
off one of the arches. "What's
that?" Tilly asked, again five years old. I told her:
"It's called the dungeon. It's the only truly secure place in the fort.
Joseph puts the most dangerous men here sometimes." "Oh,
look," Tilly whispered and pointed. I had
forgotten, but just above the door were the words, "Abandon hope all ye
who enter here." Tilly is not the only person on this earth with a love of
melodrama. I crossed the
brick floor to peer in the tiny barred window in the door. Light, leeched
of its living gold by passage through the single narrow slit in the outer wall,
provided just enough illumination I could see a pile of clothing on the floor
of the dungeon. All that marked it as a man was a hand flung out and up, turned
as gray and devoid of warmth as the light caught in its palm, A heavy shackle
weighed down the wrist. From it ran a chain to a ring set in the wall.
In this age of steam engines, universities and travel across the oceans, a
sight so medieval didn't seem real. It was as if I peeked through a portal into
a barbaric past. One my husband
had created. Reality came
back to me on the terrible odor wafting through the bars. A bucket for waste
stood beside the crumpled form, and next to it, much too close for decency, a
bucket with the handle of a water dipper protruding over the rim. Private
Lane—and who else could this have been?—could not even move out of his own
waste. I do apologize for talking of such a distasteful thing, but the truth of
it underscored how like an animal it made the boy seem, and how like mindless
beasts the men who had put him there. "Is it
Joel? Is he alive?" Tilly had crept
up in her slippered feet. Her voice so close and sudden nearly stopped my
heart. "I don't
know," I said truthfully. "If he is he won't be for long." She began
tugging at the door, but its lock was forged to withstand the strength of even
first love. The ringing of
boots on brick in a rhythm I've listened for over half my life stopped us
both—her tugging at the lock, me tugging at her. "Joseph,"
I said. 7 Anna put
Raffia's letter down and sat for a moment staring sightlessly across the narrow
sitting room toward the kitchen sink. A grilled cheese sandwich with a single
bite out of it lay congealed to the plate beside her on the sofa. On the coffee
table, near the box of letters, was yet another glass of flat, unsparkly
sparkling water. Her throat had been dry for days, and the water only seemed to
make it worse. The window over
the sink had gone dark. An idle part of Anna's brain pondered that for a moment
before logic told her night must have long since replaced the subtropical dusk.
Even with this scrap of knowledge to cling to she couldn't shake the creepy
sensation that, should she look out of that window, she would see soldiers from
the Civil War hanging from trees. It was the
battering she'd taken, she told herself: heat, lack of sleep, blunt trauma,
contusions, severed fingers, dead Cubans and live heroes. And that made
her see a ghost. She shook her
head as if negating an invisible accuser. She'd endured worse and never once
had emanations from the ether plagued her. Though she didn't want to admit it,
because to do so was as frightening as the ghost, the woman in white she knew
was Raffia had not been a beginning but merely a next step. For a while now,
maybe a day, maybe longer—Anna couldn't be sure, memories of sanity being
tricky things—the world had started shifting occasionally, reality slipping just
a little, just enough that Anna's entire being was suffused with the wrongness
of things. It was as if she'd been cursed with the ability to see into another
dimension or another time, and she didn't like it. "Evils
sufficient unto the day." She repeated the aphorism to the cat. Piedmont
meowed politely but, not being much of a philosopher, chose to lick his
hindquarters rather than continue the discussion. He assumed the position that
always reminded Anna of a turkey ready for roasting and commenced his bath.
Rubbing her eyes hard enough to chase red and black stars across her vision,
Anna knew she was desperately in need of something. Sleep maybe. Her mind, the
one thing she could count on to consistently work properly, was on the fritz.
Molly. She needed Molly, and not as a sister this time but as a mental health
professional. She looked at the clock on the front of the stove. The hands
indicated one o'clock. Knowing that couldn't be right, she forced her stiff and
creaking frame from the couch and went into the bedroom. The clock on the night
table suffered the same time warp: one A.M. The sofa, Aunt Raffia, the other
dimension she'd been slipping into, had swallowed three hours, and Anna
couldn't readily account for them. By the number of pages beneath Piedmont's
furry butt she knew she could not have been reading the whole time. Dreaming?
Sleeping with her eyes open? The unholy
frisson of fear that had stalked the edges of her consciousness sank its claws
in, and she winced with the sudden onslaught of psychic pain. Molly would have
to be rudely awakened. She slipped on her flip-flops. "Don't
wait up," she told the cat as she collected the office keys from under the
papers he used as a bath mat. The night was
glorious, the air at least eighty degrees and, after the air-conditioning,
soothing against Anna's tortured skin. Unimpeded by light pollution or clouds,
the moon cast enough light to throw silver pathways through the open casemates.
Anna didn't slow down to glory in it but walked across the middle of the parade
ground, dry grasses crackling beneath her feet. She looked neither right nor
left, not wanting to see what might be beckoning from the seductive black and
silver rooms. The humdrum
bureaucratic box that encapsulated the administrative offices, usually a bane
to eyes conditioned to historic grandeur, was a comfort. It exuded normalcy. No
ghost worth her ectoplasm would deign to haunt such tedious architecture. Sitting at
Teddy's desk, Anna punched in the long list of numbers required to make a credit
card call and was further reassured by her besieged brain's ability to recall
them. "Dr.
Pigeon," Molly answered on the second ring, sounding alert and geared for
whatever emergency the dead-of-night phone call presaged. "Hello,"
Anna said. "It's me." "Hello?" "Hello." "Hello?" The creepy
feeling flexed its claws again, and Anna wondered if she'd really dialed, if
she'd spoken aloud, if this was all a dream. "Anna?" The delay. The
phone on this out-of-the-way scrap of sand was subject to one- to two-second
delays in transmission. Anna sighed out breath she'd not known she was holding.
This phenomenon was merely mechanical. She could deal with that. "I'm in
trouble," Anna said and waited through another "Anna?" while the
words made their journey to her sister's apartment on the Upper West Side. "Start at
the beginning," Molly told her when communication had been established. Though Molly
already knew some of it, Anna did as she was told, listing in chronological
order the events that could possibly in some way, shape or form be responsible
for the all-too-visible heebie-jeebies she'd been suffering. She included the
not-totally-unpleasant pressure of Paul Davidson's love letters, the heat, the
dryness of her mouth, the boat explosion, feeling the wreck was sentient
and malicious, believing the corpse of the Cuban boatman to have moved a
finger, each and every wince or advent of the willies she could recall, ending
with the startling appearance of Raffia Coleman, the woman in white. "Wilkie
Collins," Molly said. "Just like
that but no veil," Anna replied. Silence came down, a palpable thing, like
an iron plug in Anna's ear. She wondered if Molly was thinking of Collins's
book, one of the first mysteries ever written. She hoped Molly was forming a
perfectly logical diagnosis that would be the psychiatric equivalent of
"take two aspirin and call me in the morning." As the silence
continued, Anna began to lose hope. "Okay,"
Molly said after what Anna felt was a cruel and unusual amount of time.
"You say this figure was our great-great-aunt Raffia, the woman whose
letters I sent you?" "Yes." "Do you
just, quote, know, unquote, it was Aunt Raffia, or do you genuinely believe
it was Aunt Raffia?" Anna let the
difference between the two percolate through her brain. "I just
know," she said. "I don't believe it. It's nuts. I don't believe in
ghosts. Either this was a figment or a fake, though I don't know who but you
knows anything about Aunt Raffia." "Do you
lock your door?" Anna said
nothing. It was a rhetorical question. Living in National Parks, Anna'd seldom
felt the need. Living in New York, the concept appalled Molly. "Okay,"
Anna agreed. "Where does that leave me? Headed for Bedlam or Bellevue or
what?" Again Molly was
quiet too long, and Anna felt a fist of panic knuckling behind her sternum. "Given you
don't literally believe the woman was real—or a real ghost—unless it's some
kind of bizarre joke by people too long on a desert island, I think there is
hope for you." Anna laughed,
wanting that to be all, something a trained psychiatrist would laugh off as
normal, but Molly wasn't through. "However,"
her sister went on. "Given the clarity and duration of the hallucination,
as well as the intense feelings of fear and disorientation you've been having
over the last few days, I would like you to see someone." "Like a
shrink?" Anna asked, appalled just as if she'd not been talking to one for
half her life. "A
neurologist would be the place to start," Molly said. "You've had
blunt trauma, possibly affecting the head or the inner ear—I don't really know
how an underwater explosion works. That could be a factor. But considering you
had these feelings earlier—" "Maybe
not," Anna cut her off, trampling her sister's words as they came two
seconds late. "I mean, time's relative, and I wasn't seeing things before
the explosion. I mean, of course I was seeing things, but I wasn't seeing things."
Abruptly she stopped. Not only was she babbling, but with her inner ear she
could hear Sister Mary Corinne saying: "Thou dost protest too much." Molly let the
silence settle. Anna hoped she was just making sure there were no words left on
the time delay and not dialing her cell phone to call the men with the
butterfly nets to catch her mad sibling. "It never
hurts to get things checked out," Molly said reasonably. "A CAT
scan, a physical, that sort of thing. Once those are ruled out we can take a
next step." Suddenly Anna
was sorry she'd called, sorry she'd told anyone. She didn't want to take a
first step, let alone a next step. "Or it could
just be one of those things and go away," she said. "Could
be," Molly returned with such studied neutrality Anna grew more alarmed. To reassure her
sister—and herself—she laughed. "Hey, maybe it's in the air out here. The
guy before me went nuts and had to be relieved of duty." The instant the
words were out of her mouth, Anna was shocked to hear the truth in them. "My God,
Molly. No kidding. The guy's name was Lanny Wilcox. Daniel, the maintenance man
here, said Lanny got stranger and stranger and finally started seeing things
nobody else saw. I've got to go. I've got to think about this." "Be
careful," her sister warned. "Things we want to be true are
incredibly convincing." "Right." "Call
me," Molly said. Anna heard the words, little and far away, as she
returned the receiver to its cradle and forgot them a second later. To escape
the air-conditioning that chilled the sweat between the thin dress and her bare
skin, she slipped out of the office and sat on the steps, elbows on her knees,
temples between her palms, fingers in hair gone mostly gray. I -army Wilcox
had gone mad. His girlfriend had left him. He'd become distraught, obsessed
with this Theresa woman, increasingly erratic. He'd started seeing things.
Developed a paranoia probably—no, undoubtedly—accompanied by feelings of
anxiety. Lanny had communicated his thoughts—his visions—to his fellow rangers
and been bundled off to the mainland, out of sight and possibly out of his
mind. Now she was
here, in his place. Her sweetheart had yet to abandon her, but there was a
degree of stress in the relationship. Certainly there'd been other stressors:
Shaw's disappearance, the sunken boats, reports explaining the loss of a United
States Government boat. Anna'd begun
feeling strange, anxious. She was even a tad paranoid—afraid she was going off
the deep end. Of course it wasn't paranoia if it was true. "Stop
that," she said sharply. Then tonight,
she'd begun seeing things. "Not
seeing things," she said aloud. "Seeing a thing. One thing." But it had been
a doozy; a flour-colored female in period costume who Anna "knew" was
her and Molly's long-dead great-great-aunt. The aunt part
could be put off onto the power of suggestion; Anna's immersion in Raffia's
letters. The ghost or hallucination or whatever could not. The odds of
both she and Lanny Wilcox, same job, same location, close to the same age going
insane within weeks of each other were slim—at least she guessed they were. A
check of medical leaves and absences of Fort Jefferson personnel over the past
five years might be a good idea. Perhaps the nut cases one heard of drifting
ashore and taking up residence on the islands of the Caribbean had been
perfectly normal when they'd arrived. Sand and surf could have an
as-yet-unresearched corrosive effect on the human mind. Maybe van Gogh would
still have both cars if he'd stayed in France. "Jesus,"
Anna whispered and squeezed the heels of her hands together to push her
unraveling thoughts back into a thread she could follow. So. Unless a
great number of people on islands in the Caribbean went nuts, she and Lanny
were moderately rare. Either a coincidence Thomas Hardy would be proud of had
occurred or there were external forces at work. Like somebody ... or something— Somebody wanted
the Supervisory Ranger to believe he or she was going mad so ... So what? So
they would go away? That was scarcely efficacious; the NPS would simply ship
another out to fill the post. A shudder took
her from the inside out as though she ridded herself of a blanket of snow.
Trying to fix on motive undermined the theory that Anna wanted—needed—to
believe. "Two rangers going crazy in a row is crazy," she said. The
echo of the word "crazy" scared her. Therefore, she pushed her
mind on doggedly, if her theory was true—and until the walls started sprouting
eyeballs and the lizards holding forth on Eastern philosophy, she had to
believe it was—then she was not losing her mind; she was being gaslighted. As Lanny had
been gaslighted? "Yes," Anna hissed. "Move on." Squeezing
her skull even more tightly, she continued to build the case for sanity. Since Anna
chose to believe that she was sane—or at least as sane as she'd ever been—the
next obvious conclusion was that what she had seen earlier that evening had
been real. Closing her fingers into fists, hair sticking out between the
knuckles, she tugged gently at her scalp to assist in this rearrangement of
theories. Starting at the
point where seeing was believing, it followed that the ghostly woman was
real—not necessarily flesh and blood but conceived and executed by someone who
was. Lanny's beloved
was an obvious choice to begin the deconstruction of his reality. If the same
thing were happening to Anna, why would the perpetrator choose an image of her
Aunt Raffia? It was possible
someone—anyone—in the fort could have read Raffia's letters. They needn't even
have bothered to; Anna'd been sufficiently fascinated by the story she'd shared
parts of it with several people: Duncan the historian, Teddy, Daniel.
Pertaining to the fort as it did, the stories would have been repeated,
discussed. Fort Jefferson's peak period as a working fort had been during its
time as a prison for the Union Army. It was possible—probable, in fact—that
anyone designing a haunt for the place would choose a specter from that
period. A female in a long white dress not only fit with the history of the
fort but was a classic in the ghost world, virtually a clichй like the rattling
of chains and the trailing of rotting grave cloth. The fact that
Anna had "known" it was Raffia was neither here nor there. Reading
the old letters would easily account for her identification. The brain seeks
the familiar, needs to make sense of things. Creating
illusions was a good deal easier than most people suspected, Anna reminded
herself. The human brain was excellent in filling in blanks, weaving whole
cloth from a few threads. Magicians were masters at suggestion, distraction: a
hint and an audience would believe. If this was
what happened to Lanny and was now happening to her, the field was narrowed down
to the people living on Garden Key and the two lighthouse keepers on
Loggerhead. It was too much of a stretch to believe a regular citizen would
boat out the seventy or so miles from the mainland over a six- to eight-week
period just to drive the ranger nuts. The woman in
white, seen from a distance and fleetingly, the light poor, the setting
perfect, could have been quite simply a real woman dressed and in whiteface, a
life-sized drawing, white on black cloth or paper, shown, then whisked from
sight. Steeped in the history of the fort and her own family, Anna's mind would
have filled in the rest. She moved. Anna distinctly
remembered the raise of the arm, the hand on the hair. She remembered, too, how
detailed and specific everything she'd seen had been, but she pushed that
memory into the mental file: "Tricks of eye and mind." Examining it
too closely would lead her back to the place where madness was the answer. Duncan's wife
was the only woman living on Garden Key who physically resembled Anna's ghost:
slender, well proportioned. A scene of such
little importance it had slipped her mind came back with stunning clarity:
passing Duncan in the sally port, him smiling as always, his face creased with
it till the old saw "wreathed with smiles" seemed sensual, his
thinning blond hair as feathery as a baby duck's head, his square, strong body
positively springy with vitality and clean living. "Anna,"
he'd said, voice rich from years of playing to crowds. "I hear your sister
sent you historical gold. Written around when Mudd was incarcerated here. Mind
if I look at it sometime? Might be my Rosetta Stone." Vaguely, she'd
been aware Duncan was bent on proving beyond a shadow of a doubt and once and
for all and finally (as if reality could ever lay hope and speculation to rest)
that Dr. Mudd was guilty of conspiring to murder President Lincoln. Had Duncan
grown impatient, slipped into her quarters and read the letters? Duncan knew
his history and was part actor/producer as were all good interpreters and
historical reenactors. Other than universal malice, she could see no reason he
or his wife would have for such trickery. Teddy Shaw and
Bob? He'd been in the hospital in Key West when Anna'd suffered her visitation,
but Teddy'd been at the fort, and Anna doubted Teddy did much without his
knowledge and enthusiastic approval. Daniel. Mack. Duncan. His wife. Linda.
Cliff. The list was short and absurd. Much as she might wish to stretch things,
she couldn't imagine why any of them would have the need or desire to carry out
a hoax of such magnitude. Consciously she
breathed out the thoughts. Her mind was running too fast. She imagined she
could hear the strain—the same sound as a car engine forced too hard in a low
gear—see the needle sliding into the red. Loosing the clamp her fists had on
her skull and the busy weaving fetters that tied thought to thought, she leaned
back against the office door and let the soft night air in through lungs, eyes,
ears and the pores in her skin. The moon was
well on its way toward setting, and the shadows, slightly blacker than she
remembered them, had crept out to swallow the two houses, joined like Siamese
twins, a screened-in porch at either end. Teddy slept alone in one. In the
other Lanny Wilcox's worldly goods awaited his return. The houses
stood where the officers' quarters had been in Raffia's day. Anna pictured what
they must have looked like in the moonlight. Three stories
high, long covered veranda on the first and second floors onto which the doors
opened, palm trees and a path bordered by whitewashed skulls. Cannonballs. To her the
fort, this fort, the National Park Service's fort, seemed small and empty.
Though it covered nearly seven acres and walking around it was close to a mile
under bricked arches, it didn't seem big enough to hide anyone intent on evil.
Without people for crowds or miles and miles of country to hide away in,
evildoers would be obvious. The Fort
Jefferson Raffia described in her letters, with its thousand men, carpenters,
bricklayers, engineers, guards and prisoners; with its store and construction
projects, hospital, bakery and coaling docks visited by great ships, seemed as
if it must have been a much larger place. St. John's bread trees with their
thick crowns and twisted limbs took the place of the grove of palms Raffia had
described. Two Portia trees grew their blood-red flowers, a source of delight
in the desiccated parade ground, where the men suffering punishment were hung. "Shit."
Anna jerked herself upright. Raffia's world had begun to manifest again, a mist
forming into three dimensions in a time where it did not belong. For a
second—just a second—Anna could have sworn she saw a body, arms tied behind,
toes barely sweeping the ground, hanging from the boughs of the Portia. "God
damn," Anna cursed herself and scrubbed at her face with her palms in an
attempt to reconnect with the corporal world. I fell asleep. I was
dreaming. "I was dreaming," she whispered aloud to see if the
words were more reassuring than the thought. The Truth she'd settled on before the
mists or the dreams had come resurfaced. Anna grabbed onto it. Whatever she
saw was real until proven otherwise. Feeling shaky
and naked and little in her short dress with no underpinnings, she pushed up
from the steps. Kicking off the flip-flops so their idiosyncratic noise
wouldn't alert the fort that she was flapping about, she walked around the
perimeter of the open area, staying close to the casemates that she might share
their shadows. The Portia
trees were spaced fifteen to twenty feet apart. There were three altogether. No
bodies hung from the limbs. Nothing even suggested that shape or mass. This was
one of the few times in her years as a law-enforcement ranger that she wished
there was a corpse left hanging in the trees. "Can't
even trust the dead anymore," she muttered, then wondered if talking to yourself
was a sign of incipient madness. "I've always talked to myself," she
said. See, her traitorous mind whispered. "Fuck." A light
flitted, butterfly-like across the upstairs window of one of the houses between
the Portia trees and her quarters on the second tier: Lanny Wilcox's house. "Fuck,"
Anna said again for lack of anything more erudite. She didn't move. The thought
that she would be pursuing yet another will-o'-the-wisp and would become hopelessly
lost in craziness paralyzed her. The light didn't come a second time, though
she waited without moving for several minutes. Standing
barefoot in the dark, helpless with indecision, she had a sudden galvanizing
thought. What if this precise reaction was what the maker of ghosts and
will-o'-the-wisps wanted? A ranger too unsure of herself to do her job? Even as
the idea cheered her, it faded. Criminals—real ones—were seldom so crafty as to
employ esoteric psychological tortures with uncertain ends. Except in fiction,
it was pretty much a smash-and-grab, drive-by-shooting sort of world. As if in
ratification, the unmistakable click of an old-fashioned door closing snicked
through the still air. Anna'd been related to a psychiatrist long enough to
know that run-of-the-mill hallucinations seldom came with sound. A human being
from the twenty-first century was skulking about the Wilcox place in the dead
of night. "Hallelujah!"
Anna breathed and, silent as a cat on her bare feet, she ran lightly over the
brick path that rounded toward the houses. She made so little noise she could
hear a muffled plod that could be the fall of soft-soled shoes on brick. The pathway was
old, the bricks broken in places. Intent on speed, Anna stumbled, her toes
catching on a ragged upthrust. Pain was immediate and intense. She didn't cry
out but went down on one knee. If the skin was scraped from it, the screaming
of the nerves in her toes drowned out its complaint. All she felt was the jar.
Her fall made a sound, a small one but on a night so still it might have
been enough. Holding her breath, she listened. The footsteps had stopped. If they'd ever
been there. The earlier expletive went unspoken if not unthought.
Hallucinations she could live with. Self-doubt was crippling. She stayed where
she was, not moving, not thinking, just listening. Mad or not, there was little
in this dimension or the next that she could not outwait. The pain in her toes
passed, allowing her to feel the burn where brick had abraded the skin from her
knee. Compared to the burn of coral it wasn't worth her notice. It was almost a
relief to have a scrape that didn't itch while it hurt. She didn't
twitch or scratch or fidget. Stillness grew around her, knit from the night
itself. The faintest of skritching noises heralded a lizard, not more than two
inches long, who came out from his crevice in the crumbling mortar and warmed
his tiny belly on the brick an inch and a half from her little finger and never
sensed he was not alone. Occasionally a
recurrence of the idea that there'd been no footsteps drifted into Anna's
brain. In stillness she accepted it without fear. Should she be mad, there was
no better place to be so than in the quiet darkness with a lizard for company. After a time
she had no interest in measuring, her patience was rewarded. Not a footfall but
a splash came to her ears. She rose in one fluid motion and ran quickly around
behind the Wilcox/Shaw homes and up the wooden stairs to where her quarters
were. The casemates beneath, where she guessed the nightwalker had stopped when
he heard her fall, were too dark to walk into alone, half-naked, at night
merely because she believed the danger to have passed. On the second
tier she ran to the broken-out gun port forming a ragged-edged window opposite
her picnic tables and leaned out to see beyond the thickness of the wall. The
casemates on the first floor had like holes punched in their sides. At one time
the ports had been enclosed with iron shutters—high-tech for their
time—designed to fly open when the canons came forward and slam shut when they
recoiled. According to the old military and engineering reports, they'd never
worked properly. In the ensuing
century those that hadn't been forcibly removed had rusted out. Water had Mown
into the exposed mortar, and bricks had fallen away leaving great toothy gaps
where the ports had been. Crawling out
onto her three-foot windowsill, she studied the gun ports in the ground-floor
casemates. Empty. She'd expected that. The moat, crystal clear and not more
than two- or three-feet deep on the west side, was empty as well. She'd not
expected that. The water was mildly agitated, but that could mean nothing. Big
fish and little waves came in through the break in the wall to the sea. On the gray
concrete capping the wall separating the moat from the ocean she saw, not what
she looked for, but proof it had been there. Against the pale concrete,
silvered by the moon, were two dark handprints and a darkened slash. Whoever
she'd heard leaving Wilcox's quarters had stepped into a lower casemate when
she'd fallen. Too clever or cowardly to trust her silence, he—or she—had gone
out through the portal into the moat and over into the ocean. The moat wall on
the west and south sides of the fort was high, six to eight feet above water
level in places. Once outside, it could be easy to keep out of sight of the
fort. Because the
moat was unoccupied, at least by bipeds, Anna guessed she'd not heard the drop
from the fort to the moat but the splash made as the person had clambered out on
the far side. By the time she reached the place the handprints were, whoever it
was would be gone, either back into the campground, out to his boat or in
through another portal and back to his bed. It occurred to
Anna to run down, follow the trail through the darkened casemate and the warm
water just to see if the handprints and the butt slide were really there, feel
the dampness with her own fingers. Instead, she turned and went into her
quarters. She did not
want to arrive on the moat wall to find the prints were gone, then have to
spend the rest of the night wondering if they'd dried or were never there in
the first place. Too late to
sleep, she picked up Raffia's letters and began to read. 8 My Dearest Peg,
The footsteps we heard were indeed Joseph's. Having had more than ample
opportunity over the years to witness his rages, I've come to classify them
into red and white. When in a red rage Joseph yells and curses, slams doors and
smashes his fists into things—not me, mind you, but walls, bolsters and other
pieces of innocent household accoutrements. The white rages are more alarming.
These are blessedly rare and marked by tight-lipped control and palpable
emanations of violence leashed. I don't fear them as I once did and, in a
strange way, have come almost to admire them. Joseph in a rage is a force of
nature. I find myself watching him in fascination and awe, much as I would a
tremendous hurricane wind. The day he
found Tilly and me outside the door of the dungeon, his rage was white hot.
Entering as he did from the direction of the light, the first thing we saw was
his silhouette framed in a confluence of dark arches. Joseph is not a big man,
but he looked so to us Tilly stopped her whimpering over her damaged rebel and
became absolutely still. What she did
from instinct, I had to learn by trial and error. When Joseph's rage is white,
I know better than to so much as utter a single word. Since he cannot
speak when this mood is upon him—due no doubt to the fact that even the
slenderest of syllables cannot force themselves through iron-clenched jaws and
lips compressed to a bloodless seam—our entire drama was enacted in near
silence. Only the ring of my husband's boots on the brick and the whisper of my
skirts entangling with Tilly's told of our exodus. Joseph grabbed
each of us by the upper arm and marched us from the door of the dungeon.
Struggling would only have drawn attention to our indignity, so we allowed
ourselves to be escorted ignobly back to quarters. Joseph never looks so
handsome as he does when in high dudgeon. His hazel eyes were sparkling, his
dark mustache framing that sensuous mouth and setting off a nose that must have
been introduced into his French ancestors when they fought the Saracens in
Spain. Perhaps I am pitifully like that old dog we used to have. He never
seemed to care if we were yelling at him or stroking him as long as we were
paying attention to him. That night and
the next day I kept myself out of his way, doing housewifely things for his
comfort, and left Tilly to bring him around. Though I know soft ways and
womanly wiles are best, I cannot bring myself to do them. Even after two
decades there is a devil in me that wants to meet the devil in him out in the
open. And, too, I believe our sister could wrap Lucifer himself around her
little finger if she set her mind to it. Even with
beauty, cunning and youthful zeal, such is my husband's inner strength, it took
Tilly thirty-six hours before he would agree to let us tend Joel. The fort
surgeon refused to treat a "traitor," and Joseph refused to order him
to do so, but in the end, I think he does have a heart if not of gold then at
least not entirely of stone and didn't want the boy to die alone and uncared
for. Having begged
what necessaries we could from the small infirmary in the parade
ground—bandages and a blanket were all they said they could spare—we set off to
get the key and then go to the dungeon. The passage of
another day and the insistence of the Lord in pouring the rational balm of pure
sunlight down from a stunningly blue sky had done much to calm the
garrison and return the soldiers to routine. Just that quickly was Joel not
forgiven but forgotten. None of the guards so much as raised an eyebrow when we
appeared, bandages and buckets of fresh water in hand, to ask for the key. "He's
dead," Tilly whispered when I opened the dungeon's door. "Hush."
Should the boy still live, I didn't want him to hear her despair. He lay,
without moving, in his own waste—the reek of it filled the vault. Diffused
light from the gun slit showed us a full water bucket and an empty slops
bucket. Food had been left for the pleasure of rats and mice, who graciously
vacated the area at the noise of our arrival. Blood and
bruising made Joel's flesh the color with his stained uniform, still confederate
gray only in the places where rebel insignias had been ripped from it
subsequent to his capture. "He's
warm," she said. "That means he's alive." The vault was
near ninety-eight degrees at a guess. Even a coldblooded creature from the
depths of the ocean would have been warm to the touch. I felt for a pulse in
his throat just under his jaw and was pleased to tell Tilly: "Yes, that
means he's alive." I could see
Tilly was shortly to become useless with the emotion of the past days, so I set
her to the task of clearing away the old food and sweeping up the crumbs. When
she'd left the cell to fetch broom, dustpan and cleaning rags, I removed Joel's
clothing and cleaned him as though he were an infant. Tilly at her tender age
did not need to see that part of a naked man, but it was the one part of
Private Lane's body that was unhurt and, though my experience is limited to my
husband and the boys we used to spy on swimming at the old quarry, Joel is a
well enough made man. The rest of him
was painful to look at. There was bruising on his chest so dark and vicious I
knew the ribs underneath had to be broken. His abdomen was black and purple as
well, but it felt neither terribly hot nor swollen. Had the beating ruptured
something inside, Tilly's and my roles as ministering angels would soon have
changed to those of undertakers. Ropes had cut both anus, and his thumbs
remained so swollen and angry I could not be sure he'd ever have full use of
his hands again. In a previous
letter I described the injuries to his face. Suffice to say, though still grim
and disfiguring, I did think they looked somewhat better. He looked more man
than monster. I felt his face, and the bones had not been broken but for his
nose. It will never be so neat and straight as it once was. As I washed his
most delicate areas, his member twitched and started to swell. Modern
scientific theory would have it that when people die the heart is the last
organ to cease functioning. I believe with men the center of life is located
somewhat further down. "Tina,"
he whispered. I was so pleased that he had not entirely left this world, I
wasn't terribly interested in what past peccadilloes I had inadvertently
awakened in memory. And I most certainly will not tell Tilly his first word was
not her name. I left the
vicinity where I had been giving such life-affirming ministrations and knelt by
his head. "It's Mrs. Coleman," I told him. "Oh my
God," he mumbled and his eyelids twitched. The flesh around them was too
battered to allow his eyes to open fully, but even so I could see alarm there.
To wake and find oneself being touched intimately by the prison warden's wife
must have been jarring to his poor beleaguered mind. To calm him
lest this new horror shake his tenuous grip on consciousness, I told him where
he was and why I was at his side doing what I suspect was once the job of
"Tina." The alarm faded and he closed his eyes but did not leave me. "Thirsty,"
he said. Holding his
head in my lap that he might not choke, I drizzled nearly a cup of water between
his parched lips. Having drunk, he seemed much revived, and I sent a belated
prayer of thanks to the Almighty for the strength and recuperative powers of
the young. By the time
Tilly returned, I had Private Lane as clean as a sponge bath allowed and decently
covered from the waist down by the blanket. I gave her a
moment to weep over Private Lane, which I think did him nearly as much good as
the water and the "bath," but when she began peppering him with questions that were bound to upset the
balance of his humors, I sent her off on more errands. We stayed,
dripping water and encouragement into Joel, for near two hours. He spoke again
several times and seemed clearheaded but fell easily into restless dozing that
was tormented by dreams. Finally he fell into what I dearly hoped was a restful
sleep and not a return of the unconsciousness that is so like and so near to
death. Tilly and I
knelt one to each side of him, my knees aching from so long against the hard
floor. Tilly cradled one of Joel's hands in her lap, looking at it as she asked
me: "Will he be crippled?" Honestly, I
could not say and didn't wish to burden her with my opinion. "He needs a
doctor," I said instead. Between us lay
the hurtful knowledge that the fort's hospital was closed to Joel, and Captain
Caulley had hardened his heart against the man who'd spoken traitorously of the
murder of our president. "We'll do
our best," I promised. Tilly said
nothing for a minute, then: "There's another medical doctor at Fort
Jefferson." There are no
other doctors at Fort Jefferson and for a moment I sorted through my memories
in the vain attempt to find one. Then it came to me. "Oh, no,
Tilly." She said
nothing, but by the way she looked at me I could tell neither of us were to
have any peace till it had been tried. 9 When her eyes
grew too tired to read, Anna returned to the broken-out gun portal. The moon
was low, yet she could feel its light upon her skin if she closed her eyes. My
mind is no place to play alone, she thought and kept her eyes open, her
brain focused on real three-dimensional things, things she could touch. Staying awake
in these wee hours wasn't difficult. Sleep seemed like a thing of the past,
something she used to do but was no longer necessary. That in itself was odd.
Thinking back, she knew that she should have been exhausted—not just mentally
but with the body fatigue that demands sleep. No wonder she was getting
squirrelly. Had she access to sleeping pills she would have happily drugged her
body into submission. As it was, there was no point in going to bed; she may as
well stare at the moon as the ceiling. Sitting still she was at least resting. Unfortunately
stillness without exacerbated restlessness within. Her mind with its specters
would not leave her alone. The corners of her eyes were plagued with
flickerings of almost unseen things flitting from shadow to shadow. Too long
staring at the silver track the moon lay across the quiescent ocean and it
began to change subtly, to move in sinister waves. The fear that had torn at her
earlier when her sister, her psychiatrist, for God's sake, didn't
immediately assure her she was sane, that normal people saw ghosts on a regular
basis, returned. Frank Herbert's
Bene Gesserit had it right: fear was a mind killer. Anna needed a litany of
facts to hold the irrational world at bay. "Idle
mind; devil's playground," she whispered, and resolutely turned her mental
processes to the events of the night, something real—or so she had chosen to
believe—to let her gray matter chew on. A boat had exploded
and sunk. This boat was carrying a lot of extra fuel. An NPS boat had been sunk
by a chunk of flying debris. Bob Shaw saved an unidentified Cuban man. Anna saw
a ghost. There was a light in the upstairs bedroom of Lanny Wilcox's quarters.
A person shut a door. A person crossed the moat and climbed over the outside
wall into the sea. How these
things interrelated—if they did—was lost to Anna. What she should do about any
of it was also a mystery. Investigation of the sunken boats would continue come
sun-up. Identification of the Cuban man would be done by Florida State law
enforcement. The ghost or ghost-hoax was within Anna's jurisdiction, but she
could not bring herself to venture into the dark where the nearly unseen
skittered about and so that, too, would have to wait till morning. Lanny Wilcox's
bedroom and her own were the only viable choices remaining. She chose Lanny's.
If one wasn't going to sleep, surely it was more interesting not to sleep in a
man's bedroom than one's own. With this
thought, the image of Paul Davidson sprang clear and strong behind her eyes:
the square shoulders, the slow smile that never came cold and always reached
his eyes, the southern drawl, the way he called her "darlin'." A wave of
emotion so strong it wrung a flood of tears from eyes dry an instant before
overcame her. Not since the months after her first husband, Zach, died had she
so longed for a man. Had Paul appeared before her on the moon-swept brick she
would have married him on the spot, abandoned the park service, given her life
over to him, and gladly crawled into the circle of his arms, there to hide safe
and warm for all the years left to her. Davidson did
not appear. After a time the disconcerting flow of tears dried up and she was
left with nothing but Lanny Wilcox's bedroom. She fetched another pair of shoes
from her quarters, running shoes this time, quiet and tightly laced, and donned
a pair of underpants. Creeping about in the middle of the night seeking
unsavory persons was not an activity she wanted to undertake without panties.
Thus sartorially fortified, she descended the stairs to return to the
administrative offices for the key to the ex-Supervisory Ranger's house. Her flip-flops
were where she'd stepped out of them at the steps. She took them in and tossed
them on her desk, then retrieved the key, along with a heavy six-cell
flashlight. Anna was the acting Supervisory Ranger, there was no rule stating
she could not enter quarters to investigate a suspicious occurrence yet, for
reasons she didn't understand, she knew she would not turn on any lights in
Wilcox's quarters. Lanny's front
door was closed but not latched. She didn't need the key. Aware that
normal people were abed at this hour and that the Shaws' house shared a wall
with Wilcox's, she moved even more softly than was her habit, leaving doors
ajar lest the click alarm Teddy, presumably sleeping next door. There'd been no
room on the medevac helicopter and she was to take the sea plane to Key West in
the morning. Unsure of
precisely what she sought, Anna first opened the refrigerator. The core of
people's lives often lay in their refrigerators and medicine cabinets. Nothing
remained in Lanny's that could go bad. Someone—probably Teddy—had had the
foresight to remove food that would spoil. A six-pack of Yoo-Hoo with one
bottle missing, an unopened plastic jug of drinking water and a door full of
condiments were all that had been left. The water jug had sprung a leak and
about a quarter of its contents glistened atop the vegetable trays. The freezer
contained nothing but ice cubes and frozen entrees. Apparently Lanny ate with
the creativity and nutritional concern of the average bachelor. Anna moved on. Built over a
century before, the house was small to modern eyes, the rooms cramped, the
windows few and high off the floor. Between the tiny kitchen and a living room
not much bigger was a sort of stile: three steps up to a landing from which
narrow stairs ascended to the rooms above and three steps down the other side
to the living area. Having gained the landing, Anna stood still in the chill
air—the air-conditioner left running so Wilcox wouldn't return to mildewed
goods and verdant walls. Her flashlight soundlessly searched that which was in
plain sight. Wilcox was a packrat. The little rooms were crammed with the usual
and the unusual garnered from half a lifetime in the parks. The walls were
covered with framed pictures. Two posters, one of the Devil's Post Pile, one of
Chaco Canyon, bumped frames over a derelict sofa. Photos of rough-clad men and
women in hiking boots and packs were scattered around. Mixed in were carved
masks, mostly foreign-looking: South American, maybe some from Mexico, one
clearly left over from a past Mardi Gras. The floor was equally well covered
with books, boots, skateboard, compact disks, unopened junk mail, magazines and
dead plants in gaily-painted ceramic pots. Forlorn and useless, a pair of snow
skis stood in one corner. Anna turned her
light back the way she'd come. The kitchen side was marginally better: counters
were clean and the sink was free of dirty dishes. A small wooden table flanked
by two very nice wooden folding chairs, probably from the nineteen forties,
took up most of the floor space. The kitchen
walls were more interesting than those in the other room. Wooden boxes of
varying sizes, from one no more than three inches square to the largest,
probably eighteen by twelve inches, had been mounted on the plaster. The boxes
were painted in such vibrant colors that Anna's flashlight seemed to ignite
rather than illuminate them. Several had been hung so their lids fell open.
Inside were scenes complementing or contrasting those on the outside. The
artwork was original and fine. Anna judged art
by several criteria. The first was if she could do it, it wasn't art. That
disqualified a whole slew of modern painters who slathered, sprayed, glued,
welded or stapled shapes together. These box worlds she could not have created.
A woman had done them, she'd have sworn to that. The themes were fierce but
intensely female with an undercurrent of medieval Catholicism running through.
An angel with a scarred face and broken wings stood between a group of armed
men and a donkey laden with palm branches. Inside the box were flies and white
feathers, the angel and ass either dead and buried or ascended to heaven. Theresa, the fiancйe
who had run off with Lanny's heart and sanity, was probably the artist. For a
moment more Anna was lost to the present as her flashlight fired up one box
after another. Each was a miniature theater, the lights just coming up on the
actors in the midst of a dynamic scene. When Anna reached the last, she felt a
sense of both satisfaction and loss, the way one feels when finishing a good
book. Her brain
switched from the divine to the prosaic. She could understand why a beautiful
young artist of such intensely personal yet universal images might abandon any
number of men, but why would she abandon her work? Had it been Anna, these
walls would have been stripped bare, the boxes carefully packed, before she gave
a thought to the clothes she would wear or her toothbrush beside the sink. The bathroom at
the top of the stairs was no bigger than a closet. Too small for a bathtub.
Toilet, shower and sink were close enough one could wash one's feet and brush
one's teeth while sitting on the commode. It was the only room in the house
free of clutter. Even a dropped tissue would have been sufficient to inhibit
passage in the confined space. The medicine
cabinet, small and old and standing out from the wall, was very like the one
Anna remembered from growing up. It even had the same halo of rusty incursions
into the reflective surface where metal edging met the glass. Anna trained
her light inside. Here would be evidence of the weaknesses of the body:
diabetes, dentures, headaches. Most Americans consumed quantities of
over-the-counter drugs, and one in three was on some sort of prescription
medicine all the time. Lanny was no exception. On the middle shelf were three
prescription bottles: one for high cholesterol, one for high blood pressure and
one Anna had a lifetime experience of, Levaquin, the three magic tablets to
banish the misery of a bladder infection; one of the more splintery crosses
women have had to bear. The prescription had been written six weeks before for
Theresa Alvarez. Anna removed the cap and shook out two tablets. Theresa had
left behind not only her artwork but the last of her medicine. Curiouser and
curiouser. Anna put the pills back and resolved to check the closet, see if
Ms. Alvarez had bothered to take her clothes in what was coming to seem a
headlong flight rather than mere abandonment. The bedroom was
jammed with more stuff. No floor space was visible. The walls were lined
halfway up with boxes, books, scuba tanks, two backpacks and a lot of other
paraphernalia related to outdoor adventure and indoor entertainment. The closet, the
old-fashioned size, built when people had one outfit for the workweek and one
for going to church on Sundays, was devoid of women's clothing. Three pairs of
high-heeled shoes, obviously purchased before Theresa had taken up living on a
desert island, were all that attested to her recent presence. Gingerly, Anna
sat on the bed. Despite what one presumed to be nightly occupancy, it was also
covered in piles. After losing Theresa, Lanny had snuggled down each night with
laundry—presumably clean since there were no unpleasant odors—magazines and two
CD players, one with the lid broken off. Anna wondered
where Theresa had painted. She couldn't imagine works of such detail and
clarity being created in the three-dimensional cacophony that was Lanny
Wilcox's home. On reflection,
two things surprised Anna regarding Lanny's Theresa: that she'd not left him
sooner than she did and, again, that she'd left her artwork behind. Anna was not an
artist. Her creations tended to be big and functional: benches, tables,
outhouses. And they were usually painted with a wide brush and any color that
was cheap and handy. Even so, when she had put time and effort into making
something, she didn't like leaving it with people or in places where it would
be abused. If she was disturbed when wicked campers sprayed graffiti on privy
walls she'd nailed together, how much more painful it must have been for
Theresa to abandon her works to a home where they would eventually be vying for
wall space with snowshoes and frying pans? No answer came.
What came was nothing, followed by a short sharp jab of fear. For a moment Anna
had absolutely no idea in hell why she'd come to Wilcox's, why she was upstairs
in his bedroom with a flashlight. Flashlight. Memory rushed
back and she laughed out loud with relief. She'd seen a light in the upstairs
window. Or thought she had. "Stop that," she said. She'd seen a
light. There was no reason anyone whose purposes were legitimate would enter in
the night without turning the lights on. The fact that she had done just that
wiggled momentarily, but she dismissed it and shone her light around the room.
With the plethora of goods crammed into it, she doubted anyone would have been
able to find anything and, at a glance, it seemed there would be little to
tempt a thief. The beam raked
across the headboard and onto the nightstand. Its surface was the only clear
spot in the house. Everything had been wiped from the top of the low table,
including reading lamp and alarm clock. In their place a digital camera had
been left lying on its side. Unless Lanny,
in a fit of pique, had done it himself at the cost of his lamp, it must have
happened after he'd gone, by someone in a hurry, someone who had little respect
and no patience for Lanny's stockpile of junk. Maybe somebody who'd been in the
house that night, the camera one of the intruder's objectives. Since he or she
hadn't taken it with them, they must have been after the pictures stored inside. Having propped
the flashlight on one of the pillows, Anna picked the camera up and turned it
on. She hit the eject button. The disk had been left in place. She turned the
knob to "retrieve" and began going through the images. They looked as
if a child had taken them—or a man testing a new camera under various light and
movement conditions. Lanny had no children that she knew of, and the camera was
several years old and had the look of a piece of equipment much used, so
neither explanation fit. Photo after photo of the corners and walls of the
rooms Lanny lived in, flash photos, taken by night, of uninteresting twists and
turns within the casemates. Close-ups of what could be anything: cannon
barrels, dock pilings, the flagpole. Anna clicked
through, wondering what it was her phantom intruder had sought, which picture
incriminated, embarrassed, compromised or exonerated. After several
dozen views of Lanny's kitchen closet, she realized what she was looking at.
Not pictures of walls, floors and shelves of canned goods. These were pictures
of what Lanny saw, visions he'd tried to validate digitally. Pictures of things
that weren't there. She set the
camera back where she'd found it. She needed to get out of that claustrophobic
house, away from unseen things that drove men mad. Such was her
need to breathe untainted air that she fled, not home to her bed, but out into
the middle of the parade ground where she could stand beneath open sky. There
she stared at the stars, sucked in lungfuls of warm, damp air and yearned for
the sweet purifying oxygen of her western mountains. Something was terribly
wrong: with Fort Jefferson, with Lanny Wilcox, with her. Tears of self-pity
stung her eyes, and she wondered if she should take Molly's advice and go to
the mainland, to a hospital, get a CAT scan, see a head shrinker. At the moment
being in a clean modern room in the solicitous care of professionals didn't
seem such a wretched alternative. Temptation was
shouted down by duty. Bob was out of the running; Lanny was gone. Without her
the fort would have no law enforcement. Anna pulled herself together, stopped
gulping air and breathed slowly, deeply. When her heart ceased to race and her
mind to gabble, she turned to go back to her quarters. A light from
the southern casemates stopped her. This was not the ephemeral will-o'-the-wisp
she'd spent the shank of the night chasing but the solid reassuring yellow glow
of electric lights shining from the archway into the maintenance shop and the
long row of generators that provided the fort with the stuff of the good life:
light, heat, air conditioning, radio to the mainland and water pressure. Instead of
being alarmed by yet another nocturnal manifestation, Anna looked forward to a
confrontation with a live, flesh-and-blood human being, evil or not. The bringer of
light was Daniel Barrons. Anna watched him for several minutes before he knew
she was there. Clad in khaki shorts, bedroom slippers and an uncharacteristic
tank top that unveiled his tattoos; not only the classic tattoo of the naked
girl under the palm tree but a number of others which, screened from view by a
prodigious nest of chest and back hair, she couldn't make any artistic sense
of. Daniel moved down the line of roaring generators, opening panels and
fiddling about inside. It wasn't until he'd visited all but the one beside
which Anna stood that he noticed her. When he did he squeaked loudly and threw
up both palms shoulder high, reminding her of an illustration in a
turn-of-the-century acting book her husband had found at The Strand in New
York. The photograph was a graphic lesson on how the Thespian should indicate
surprise. She and Zach had laughed at it then. Those were the days when The
Method was the rage. Seeing "surprise" produced so spontaneously, Anna
wished Zach had lived to share the joke. Anna hadn't
thought of her dead husband in days. Since giving up carrying the torch a few
years back, occasionally as much as a week would pass during which she wouldn't
say his name to herself. Remembering him after the night she'd just had was
oddly comforting. Perhaps being insane in the company of actors wasn't as
stigmatizing as it would be in law-enforcement circles. "Jesus H.
Christ," Daniel bellowed over the din of the six generators. "You
scared the shit out of me." "You
screamed like a girl," Anna said, uncertain whether she wished to provoke
or was merely being accurate. "Swear to
God I thought you were a ghost. We got 'em, you know. And I did not. If
anything I squealed like a stuck pig." Again Anna was
unsure if the statement that Daniel would rather be likened to a pig than a
girl was meant to provoke or was merely accurate. Either way it amused her.
Still she couldn't relax enough to smile. His mention of ghosts put her back on
her guard. Had the mention been intentional? Pushing the power of suggestion?
Mocking? Or was it just coincidence? "What are
you doing up?" she shouted over the noise. Half a dozen generators, each
eight feet high at a guess and half again that long, created noise that poured
into ears and corners and arches and nostrils like wet concrete filling spaces,
then hardening till it was an effort to move or think. Daniel made a
gentlemanly gesture indicating they step out of his office and away from the
racket. For half a breath he paused to let her go first. When she didn't, he
moved ahead. On the whole Anna approved of good manners and believed
"ladies first" was a pleasant perk. It wasn't misplaced feminism that
kept her feet rooted to the floor; it was a desire not to have anyone behind
her till she figured out what was throwing her world out of balance. Daniel walked
to the underground cistern built where once the foundation of a chapel had been
laid. He sat on the edge of the raised flat "roof" used to collect
rainwater. Though the
water was filtered and purified, Anna winced inwardly to see what was
undoubtedly a hairy butt planted so firmly on the surface from which her
drinking water was collected. She followed him, glad to be away from the
generators, but did not sit down. Mind and body were tuned to the dark side,
and she preferred to remain on her feet. Had he ushered her out first because
he was polite or because he was dangerous? I lad he left the generators for
ease of conversation or because he needed time to think of a lie in answer to
her questions? Did he sit because his legs were tired or to put her off guard? "What did
you ask me?" Daniel dug in the pocket of his shorts and fished out a pack
of Marlboros so crumpled it looked as if he slept with the things. Anna's
suspicious mind started to question every detail of his language and body
language. With an effort she shut the internal inquisition down. Over-vigilance
was as blinding as being oblivious and wasted a whole lot more time. She
repeated her original question. "What are you doing up?" Daniel lit his
disreputable-looking smoke with an old-style lighter made of silver with a top
to click open and shut. The wings of the Harley Davidson insignia were on one
side in raised brass. "Thought I heard something. I figured I'd better check
the generators." "What did
you hear?" Daniel looked
up at her, surprised maybe by her tone. "I don't really know. A door
slamming, tool dropped. I was asleep." Anna thought
about that. "I was in the office. It could have been me," she said.
She had been careful to open and close doors with stealth born of paranoia. She
just wanted to give him an easy out and see if he took it. "When?" "Fifteen
or twenty minutes ago." "Wasn't
that, then. Besides, it was closer. Or sounded like it was." "If it
woke you up and you rushed out to check, why aren't you in your bathrobe?"
The question sounded like what it was: an accusation. Daniel took a
drag on his cigarette that burned a third of it away. "I can go put it on
if you'd like," he said. "What's eating you?" "Weirdness,"
Anna admitted. "General weirdness. I was up chasing the noise as
well." It crossed her mind that the sound that had awakened the
maintenance man might have been the sound of her intruder, her moat wader,
coming back to roost either in through one of the many gun ports or through the
sally port, then shutting his own door behind him. Daniel looked
at a watch nestled in the dark curling hair that covered his wrists. "The
sun will be up in a bit. No sense in going back to bed now. I've put coffee on.
Want a cup?" Anna realized
she did want coffee. More than that she wanted the normalcy of a kitchen and
conversation. Daniel's rooms
were the antithesis of Lanny's, neat and well appointed. Either he'd come to
terms with the single life and reveled in it or, beneath all the body hair and
tattoos, he was actually or spiritually gay. Having seniority and fulfilling an
indispensable job had won him the finest quarters. Two casemates had been taken
over to create space for a comfortable kitchen opening onto a graceful living
room. Two doors opened off one side. Probably bedrooms. Created before DRTO
changed to the prefab boxes inserted into the upper casemates, his apartment
retained the natural brick and vaulted ceilings of the fort. Daniel had filled
it with tasteful furniture and good rugs. The rooms were tidy, the kitchen
counter devoid of clutter. He poured them
each a cup of coffee from a pot in a coffeemaker with numerous buttons and
digital readouts. The cups were good quality china, thin enough to be elegant
but not so thin one felt in danger of crushing them. The rims were gold and
royal blue, the side decorated with four small pink rosebuds. They were of a
piece with the rooms and the Japanese kimono and at odds with the burly biker
physique of their owner. Sitting across
from one another at a blond wood table with matching chairs, probably Swedish,
possibly expensive, they chatted about the noise, the wrecked go-fast boat, the
heroics of Bob Shaw. "The heavy
fuel load—smugglers?" Anna said. "Could be.
A lot of it goes on in this part of the world." Anna had known
that: drugs, guns, people, exotic plants and animals, even the tried-and-true
classics, Cuban rum and cigars. Neither she nor Daniel had answers, and for a
while they sipped excellent coffee from their understatedly elegant cups. Talk
soothed Anna. Silence was even better. The fogs of weird were lifting. She
could feel the slipped gears of her brain snicking back into their proper
grooves and wondered if it indicated a second wind or was engendered by the
knowledge that sunrise was near; the dark that frightens children in their beds
and is home to hobgoblins was soon to be banished. Sitting, sipping, muscles
unclenching, mind clearing, Anna felt the sleepiness that had evaded her for
the past twenty-four hours fold around her. "Two
bedrooms?" she asked, just to make conversation. "I'm one
of the lucky few," Daniel acknowledged. "It must
be nice to have a place to put guests besides on the sofa." "Second
bedroom belongs to Mrs. Meyers." Not knowing
Mrs. Meyers, Anna said nothing. Daniel tilted
his head much as a quizzical dog might. "Haven't you ever met Mrs.
Meyers?" His voice
changed subtly, triggering Anna's internal alarms. She was being set up for
something, she just couldn't figure out what. Moving her coffee away slightly,
she gathered her feet under her in case a quick exit was called for.
"Can't say as I have," she said neutrally. "That's
right," Daniel said as if remembering something of importance. "Mrs.
Meyers hasn't been out since you came onboard. You want to meet her now?" Grisly images
of mummified grandmothers in rocking chairs, corpses in freezers and
blood-splashed walls flashed through her mind. The weird was back. She sighed.
"Sure. Why not?" With the
excitement of a twelve-year-old showing off his favorite toy, Daniel abandoned
his coffee and veritably bounced to the nearer of the two doors. Anna followed,
too tired for caution and grown unnaturally accepting of the bizarre. Daniel moved
with a light-footed buoyancy that was unsettling in a man of his heft. Reaching
the door, he paused, shot Anna an elfin look at odds with his troll body and
beard, and said: "Shh. She may be sleeping." He opened the
door, then stood back that Anna might enter. "Mrs. Meyers," he said
with obvious pride and affection. In the middle
of the otherwise empty room was a vintage 1952 Harley Davidson motorcycle. No
dirt marred her perfect surfaces, no grease besmudged the gleaming exhaust
pipes or dulled the black shine of her engine. "Wow,"
Anna said, genuinely impressed. "And all this time I thought you lived
alone." "Tank full
of gas, key in the ignition," he said delightedly. For the next
fifteen minutes he extolled Mrs. Meyers's finer points, and Anna fought the
sandman to a draw in order to stay on her feet. Finally he wound down. She
mumbled her thanks for the coffee and compliments to Mrs. Meyers and all but
staggered back to her quarters. As everything
had been this longest of nights, the fatigue was sudden and unnatural. It
wasn't the simple tiredness after too long without sleep but the bottomless
exhaustion left when amphetamines wear off and the user crashes. Piedmont was
curled into an orange ball on her pillow. The bedside clock read four
twenty-seven. Anna nudged cat and pillow to one side and crawled in beside
them. Because it was a lifetime's habit to read herself to sleep, she'd brought
a piece of Aunt Raffia's correspondence with her. The last thing she remembered
was the slither of paper as the letters slid from her hands to scatter on the tile. 10 Tilly's doctor
was a recent addition to our jolly crew. Dr. Mudd is one of the Lincoln
conspirators and very possibly the most hated man at fort. Perhaps because he
protests his innocence so loudly when there are those of us who can only find
solace in the sincere confession and repentance of those responsible. He is not
even well thought of by his own. Many of our confederate soldiers view
assassination as a base and cowardly act not befitting what they view as their
noble cause. I promised Tilly
I would do my best. To this end I set out to find Joseph. He was out on
the coaling dock organizing a group of men to go to the neighboring keys to dig
for eggs and catch turtles for meat. (Did you know that Tortuga was
Spanish for tortoise? These lonely sand scraps were named for the creatures.) I
am awestruck by their ponderous beauty, yet because I am also awestruck by
their delicious taste, I am as eager for the hunting of them as any soldier.
Turtles have the added benefit of staying fresh—a distinct problem with meats
of all kinds in this heat. The hunters simply roll the turtles onto their
backs, rendering them immobile till it's time to slaughter them. As the men
moved out to the dinghies, Joseph noticed me waiting. For a moment he seemed
glad to see me, but only for a moment. Then it was as if he remembered who I
was and some old anger fell between his heart and his eyes. I have often
wondered what I have done that he works so hard at hating me. Sometimes I think
it was that day he struck me and I swore if it happened again he would never be
safe, not waking, not sleeping. I believe I frightened him. For a man like
Joseph to be afraid, even once and for so brief a span of time, is
unacceptable. That I caused it or, worse, saw it, must make me unacceptable as
well. Or perhaps it's
not hate I see in his face but the countenance of a man eternally disappointed
that the endearing kitten he brought home had the bad judgment to grow into an
ungainly cat. As the welcome
faded from his eyes he came to where I stood. "What is it now? Has Tilly's
pet rebel died?" "Not
yet," I told him and, though he'd deny it, I saw relief in his look. I took it for
kindness till he said: "Good. Sinapp doesn't need many more 'accidents' on
his record. He's a good soldier." "Private
Lane needs to be looked after by a doctor," I said. "His hands are
badly injured. I'm afraid without more care than Tilly and I can give him he
will lose the use of them." "What a
pity. He'll no longer be able to pull the trigger of a gun aimed at our
boys," Joseph said. I waited.
There's no responding to Joseph when he is in a sarcastic mood. Twice he ran
his fingers through his hair. He wears it longer now, nearly to his shoulders.
Here, where there is so much humidity, it curls. Finally he spoke to me and not
just to the place in which I stood. "Look.
I've talked with Captain Caulley. He flatly refuses to treat a traitor, a man
who approves of Mr. Lincoln's assassination. He might go so far as to refuse a
direct order. I'm not going to risk having to put the garrison's doctor behind
bars to save the hands of Johnny Reb." "He may
die," I said. "So be it.
Speaking out in favor of the murder of a United States president has
consequences. I'll not pity him." "What did
he say?" I asked. I wasn't trying to provoke Joseph, I was genuinely
curious. "Was it truly traitorous?" "Damn you,
woman, Sergeant Sinapp says it was, and that's good enough for me." Since Joseph
chooses not to confide in me, I've learned to read him. When he curses it's
because he hasn't an answer worthy of voicing but has no intention of admitting
defeat or, heaven forfend, that he is wrong. Joseph's cursing is also an
indication that the next word I utter will be treated as the straw that broke
the camel's back. Standing quite
silent and still, trying to look as inoffensive as possible, I waited for him
to either walk away or to be overcome by what I see as his better nature and
I'm sure he sees as weakness. "You have
something in mind. God knows you always have something in mind. You are the
thinkingest woman ever put on earth." "Actually
this is Tilly's idea," I said in hopes of making it more palatable.
"Dr. Mudd." Raging,
belittling, lecturing, laughing—I'd been braced for those. The actual response
nearly knocked me to the ground. "Why
not?" he said. "Let 'em patch up their own. I'll have some of the men
move him." I made my
thanks quickly and turned to go before I spoiled Private Lane's chance at
professional care with an ill-advised word or look. "Raffia,"
he called after me. You will think me a fool, Peggy, but I love to hear him say
my name. He seldom does, you know. "Yes?" "You and
Tilly can go with the men. You can stay and help Mudd with whatever he needs
within reason. But you go only with a soldier, never alone. I will send someone
by quarters." "Thank
you, Joseph." "Don't you
abuse this privilege," he snapped as if I'd already done so by thanking
him. We endured,
Tilly and I, until nearly half past three in the afternoon, when the promised
soldier tapped lightly on the frame. The door was open to the balcony. "We'll be
moving the confederate to Mudd's cell. The captain said you ladies had some
part in it and I was to fetch you along." The soldier asked no questions,
and if he had an opinion he kept it to himself. Such are the times I envy my
husband's power over men. Tilly shot me a
look that I wouldn't trade for diamonds, or even a long swim in a cool river. I
hope this orphaned child raised by five doting sisters never has to lie to save
herself. Her emotions shine in her eyes as bright—or dark—as if an actual lamp
burned there. Being a tiny baby when Mother and Father died, she suffered the
fate of being the light of our lives during those awful times. With Tilly
clutching my arm, we followed the soldier across the parade ground. The men
hung in the trees had been taken down before the heat could kill them. Men with
small work had carried it to the east side of the fort to take advantage of
what little shade there was. The fort had that sleepy summer feel. Tensions I'd
not known I harbored baked out in the bright hot light. Two more
soldiers joined us. With only a little grumbling—and that done from habit or
sense of obligation—they lifted Joel onto a canvas field stretcher. The three
boys, probably of an age with Private Lane, were gentle when they handled him
and glad to have an opportunity to laugh when Joel made the old joke about
doing anything to avoid work. This has been such a strange war. The soldiers
can hate one another in theory, but when brought together without officers to
agitate and politicians to tell them what they're fighting for, they tend to
like each other. I've seen more kindness here between soldier and prisoner than
between officers and men. Passing the
sally port, we were ordered to a halt by a vicious bark from that dog in wolf's
clothing, Sergeant Sinapp. He emerged from the shadows with his inimitable
swagger. Like the ogre he is, he came from beneath the stone arch to where the
soldiers waited dutifully in the hot sun supporting the weight of Private Lane
between them. Enjoying himself, Sinapp walked a circle around the men with the
stretcher and our Miss Tilly, standing at Joel's side. "What we
got here?" he asked in the most jovial of tones. "Meat for the
sharks?" One of the
soldiers, the man at the head of the stretcher holding most of the weight,
started to explain Joseph's orders for moving the prisoner, but of course
Sinapp had no interest in the answer but only in being horrid. He overrode the
man's words, saying to Tilly: "Still playing at Florence Nightingale? You
all hell-bent on curing what ails somebody, you can come to me. I need some relief." He was looking
at Tilly as if she'd appeared before him again sans knickers. "It's
downright unpatriotic you giving your . . . attentions ... to a Johnny
Reb when there's good union men going without." I had said
nothing up to this point, not because that man frightens me but because I was
shocked into silence by his audacity. Joseph would not put up with this thinly
veiled vulgarity aimed at a woman under his protection. In my case he's
defending his pride. In Tilly's he might do it simply out of affection. "Joseph
will not be pleased to hear of your rudeness," I said when I found my
tongue. "Who's
going to tell him? You?" The question
took me off guard. Of course me, you stupid stupid man, I wanted
to shout. "You do
that, Mrs. Coleman. You do that," he said before I'd found the presence of
mind to respond. He stepped to
the side then and let us pass without further insult. I was livid, but it was
undercut by an unsettling feeling that Sergeant Sinapp believed Tilly and I no
longer enjoyed Joseph's protection. It is to my
credit that I did not spit at him when we passed. At the stairs
Tilly was forced to abandon her post. Spiral stairs are not ideal for the
transporting of the injured, but the soldiers managed it without spilling Joel
from the stretcher. To my surprise, once on the second level, they did not turn
left toward the cells of the Virginia men Joel had been quartered with but
right toward those located over the guardroom and sally port. "Captain's
orders, ma'am," I was told when I asked. "The captain won't have Mudd
given free run of the fort. If he's to look after this man he's got to be
quartered next to the conspirators." Since Joseph
had given me my way in all else, I did not fuss, though the cells over the
guardroom are among the worst at Fort Jefferson, having no windows but only
three high gun slits that let in little light or air and one must lift oneself
up just to see outside. I expect this is why the conspirators were housed
there. Joel was
carried into the casemate adjoining that of our most famous inmates and lifted
from the stretcher to the bare floor with less gentleness than when he'd been
picked up. Being in close proximity to two of the men guilty of conspiring to
kill Mr. Lincoln reawakened the outrage and hatred in the soldiers. As it did in
me. I'd not thought I hated the conspirators, but hated only their acts.
Knowing I was close to them, even with a wooden partition between us, a wave of
fury swept over me so hot I was surprised my hair didn't catch afire. If it had
not been for the innocence of Tilly and the pathos of Private Lane, I believe I
would have turned my back on the whole thing. All but one of
the soldiers left us. He walked to the door leading to the adjoining cell and
banged it hard. "Mudd. Got a job for you. Try not to kill this one,"
he shouted, then retreated to the egress from what was now Joel Lane's cell.
Like me, I think he feared not Mudd but his own hatred of the man. Tilly had knelt
by Private Lane. Both stared at the door, as did I, preparing to meet the
monster who was to serve us. 11 Anna awoke at
quarter till eleven feeling rested if not refreshed. She'd not had a drink of
anything alcoholic in a long time and deeply resented suffering a hangover when
she'd not had the pleasure of earning it. The greatest delight—when
she had burned away enough mental fog in the shower she could take note of
it—was that her mind was clear. Or at least relatively so. The crawling sense
of urgency that had driven her the previous night had slowed to a creep at the
edges of her adrenal system. Sunshine drove the skittering shadows from the
outer limits of her vision. Due on duty at
noon, she breakfasted on a Coke and peanut-butter-and-saltine sandwiches.
Customarily she drank only coffee or sparkling water in the mornings. This
morning she couldn't face carbonated water gone flat and didn't have the time
for coffee but needed the caffeine. As she dressed,
she mentally apologized to Bob Shaw for mocking him—if only in her heart—for
wearing full battle regalia out to count the fishies. Coral-enraged patches of
skin cried out against fabric and leather gear, and Anna's vestigial fashion
sense was outraged by the combination of shorts and duty belt. On a woman
barely five feet four inches tall, knobby knees below and bristling armament
above made her look more like a walking antipersonnel mine than a woman
of sense. She wasn't unduly affected. Some days it paid a girl to look like she
might go off at any minute and blow a hole in anybody standing too close. Out of habit,
she called in service. Bob was in the hospital in Key West. By now Teddy would
be at his bedside to admire how bravely he handled the pain of his broken bone. "Ten-four.
I'll be listening," came back over the airwaves. Daniel. Anna was glad
that in Bob and Teddy's absence he would stay by the radio in the event she
needed him. "Mrs.
Meyers," Anna said aloud and laughed, startling Piedmont. "Never
mind," she told the cat. "Homo sapien humor. Guard the house." Celebrating a
return to normalcy, as proved by a sun-drenched parade ground sparsely
populated with tourists reading plaques and wandering through shaded arches, by
white sails on graceful boats and by the fact that Anna had no doubt these
things she witnessed could be ratified and corroborated, she took the scenic
route to her office. The
"Chapel" was near her quarters on the fort's second level, above the
rooms that had housed the garrison's bakery. Park historians had more or less
intuited The Chapel. No proof existed that this vaulted room in the
northwestern bastion had ever contained an altar, pews or baptismal font.
Nothing in the architecture was suggestive of narthex, nave or sanctuary. But
this one room of the ten outermost rooms on both levels of the five bastions
had no gun port in its end wall. Unbroken brick flowed from the beautifully
vaulted ceiling to the floor. To sacrifice such a prime gun placement, the
builders must have had in mind a room of equal or higher importance in turning
the tide of battle as armaments. It was speculated that this room had been
dedicated to getting God on one's side. Anna liked The
Chapel. In addition to grace of architecture and masonry, she sensed the
spiritual there as well. Not so much a deity as a place where people have
poured enough of their belief in a deity that the power of faith soaked into
stone and wood, brick and mortar. At the eastern
arch of The Chapel, just outside where the many-arched walkway and casemates
chased away in a straight line of forced perspective, was where she had nearly
met up with her great-great-aunt Raffia the night before. By the light of
day Anna hoped something more corporeal than faith had been left behind, a sign
that might lead her to whoever the prankster—or person intent on gaslighting
her—was. Either the
ghost had truly been of ectoplasm—the slime-free variety that leaves no gooey
residue—or the ghost-maker was neat as well as effective. She found smudged
tracks in the mortar dust, left by someone running with no shoes on.
Recognizing her own footprints and no others was mildly disconcerting, but any
number of reasons could account for it. On this side of the fort the flooring
on the upper tiers had never been completed. Gun casemates were floored in
slabs of granite—stone hard enough to take the shock from the guns. Near The
Chapel, where Anna looked, the floor was rubble and didn't take tracks well. Shelving the
spectral side of life, she finished her morning commute. The next two hours
were spent on the phone. Before she'd
had to deal with it, complaints about the one- to two-second delay before words
said on one end trickled into an ear on the other had struck Anna as frivolous.
Not so. She was amazed at how seemingly small a thing could cripple
conversation. It was nearly impossible for those not accustomed to it—or those
accustomed but impatient—not to talk over one another. Half of her calls
consisted of the words "what?" and "I'm sorry." The Florida
State Police hadn't been able to trace the John Doe Bob had towed to East Key.
The Dry Tortugas were in the Gulf of Mexico sixty miles from Florida's land
mass but, as they were part of the state of Florida, the waters fell under the
state's jurisdiction. Anna described the military-looking tattoo on the John
Doe's calf. Lieutenant Henriquez, the officer with whom she spoke, said they'd
made a note of that and were following up. He didn't sound hopeful or even
particularly interested. The police
couldn't begin tracing the boat till Anna got a name or registration number off
the wreck. Henriquez told her he wasn't going to hold his breath while she
looked. If the vessel belonged to a smuggler there would be no number and the
name would be meaningless. Theresa Alvarez
posed less of a problem. She'd joined Lanny Wilcox as a VIP—Volunteer in
Parks—a designation often given spouses and significant others for reasons of
record keeping and insurance should they perform work while on the premises.
Andy, the woman in Human Resources at Dry Tortugas and Everglades headquarters
in Homestead, pulled up Ms. Alvarez's personnel file. "Let's see
what we've got." She had a trace of a Maine accent that cooled Anna just
hearing it. "Ms. Alvarez . . . here we go. Twenty-three years old,
five-foot-three, one hundred and three pounds—must be a size two, I hate her
already—Cuban born, naturalized U.S. citizen at the age of six, fluent in
Spanish and English. Do you want her last known home address and number?" Andy read off a
Miami address. Anna wrote it
down. "Has anybody else called you guys asking after her?" "You mean other than
poor Lanny?" "Lanny
Wilcox called?" "Constantly.
Since he'd been acting . . . well . . . peculiar, we were advised not to
give out any information on her. Stalking, you know—you can't be too
careful." "What did
he want to know?" "The
usual: home address, phone number, parents' names, that sort of thing." "He lived
with this woman and didn't know her home address?" "Apparently
not. I guess Lanny had better things to talk about with Ms. Alvarez than her
vital statistics—if you don't count thirty-four, twenty, thirty-four in that
category. She was pretty enough to model." "You knew
her." Anna was hoping for more to go on than an outdated address and phone
number. "Only to
look at the way a cat can look at the queen," Andy said. Anna dialed the
number from Theresa Alvarez's personnel file. No one answered and no phone
machine picked up. She would try again come evening. Time had come
to return to the sea. Years before,
in Lake Superior, when Anna worked as a boat patrol ranger at Isle
Royale National Park, she'd learned firsthand the dangers of diving wrecks
alone. Daniel didn't dive but was an experienced dive tender. If they had time
to donate to law enforcement, she'd see if Daniel could stay topside and Mack
dive with her. She found Mack
in the shop between her quarters and the generator rooms. This was where her
amphibious intruder had fled into the dark, then, when she wouldn't go away,
out the shattered gun port into the moat. The shop was a favorite place of hers
when she wanted to hang out and gossip with Daniel. Woodworking shops, with the
smell of sawdust and signs of productivity laid out in a pattern of tools, were
always warm and welcoming in her mind. As a girl she'd spent hours in her
father's shop, listening to his stories and building things, things that always
turned out well because at night, after she'd gone to bed, he would go back and
make what she'd done beautiful. No wonder she'd believed "The Shoemaker and
the Elves" was a documentary till she was in her teens. Mack was at the
lathe, his back to her, safety goggles' strap pushing his brown hair into a
rooster's tail. For a peaceful minute, she watched the wood turning under his
corded fingers, a sensuous shape being drawn out. Mack was as scrawny and sere
as a mountain man. Too long in the sun had melted off the fat and tanned his
hide till it wrinkled and cracked. He wore the
green NPS shorts and gray shirt. The shirt was three shades darker at the
armpits, wet with sweat. Anna was too well bred to look, but hers would be the
same. The air was close to ninety-five degrees, and down on the lower level,
the ocean breezes weren't strong. Watching him work, her mind floating free on
the noise of the lathe and the hypnotic spin of the wood, she noticed the back
of Mack's arms and legs were striped. Thin white lines cut through the browned
skin at an angle. Scars. They were barely visible, his downy leg and arm hair
grown up around them, but in the hard light of the sun they were unmistakable.
Anna would have been surprised if his back was not similarly marked. Mack had been
viciously whipped, maybe with a material harsher even than leather—barbed wire,
maybe. From the healing and fading of the scars Anna guessed it had been done a
long time ago, probably when Mack was a little boy. She looked
away, staring vacantly at the parched grass of the parade ground, wondering why
knowledge of childhood abuse should make her both ache and feel ashamed for
him. She must ask Molly about it when next she got to a telephone that didn't
drive her half-mad with frustration. Education explained why the abused child
felt shame over the abuse, but not why that shame was echoed by the observer.
Maybe Anna was ashamed because she belonged to the same species as the
perpetrators, and maybe a kernel of that craven evil lay dormant in her own
heart. A shudder took
her, violent and sudden the way muscles sometimes spasm just before sleep. "Don't
tell me you're shivering. I've got news for you; it ain't cold." Anna turned
back and smiled at Mack even more warmly than she had intended. It didn't go
unnoticed. His blue eyes took on a glitter that makes a woman want to flirt or
flee depending on the glitterer. "To what
do I owe this honor?" he asked and moved so he stood a little too close
for comfort. Quashing an
urge to reclaim her invaded space, she cloaked herself in business. "With
Bob out of commission and Linda and Cliff back in Key West I'm going to need
help finishing up the investigation on the wrecks. I was hoping you'd dive and
Daniel would tend. Do you guys have any free time?" Mack wiped the
sawdust from the length of wood he'd turned on the lathe, a table leg by the
look of it. While his eyes were thus busy, Anna took the opportunity to step
back a pace. The maintenance
man looked up, his gaze wandering into the sky above the far rampart. He
narrowed his eyes and scratched at his grizzled beard, dislodging a minute
blizzard of sawdust. "Lemme think." It wasn't that
hard a question. Anna wondered if he had a problem with the dive per se or if
he was playing hard to get. "Daniel
and me got to work on generator five. Been sounding funny. How 'bout maybe four
o'clock?" Sunset wasn't
till nine. "Suits
me," Anna said and, belatedly, "Thanks." Impatience
urged her to dive the wrecks without them, but good sense prevailed. Ignoring
reports to be written and schedules still to be clone, she decided to return to
Lanny Wilcox's house and see if anything new presented itself. The decision to
revisit the scene of last night's adventure was made more from homage to
rationality than because she expected to find anything. After six hours of good
sleep the events of the previous night—the ghost, the light in Lanny's window,
the wet prints on the moat wall, even Mrs. Meyers—had taken on the ephemeral
quality of a dream imperfectly remembered. Wilcox's
quarters weren't improved by daylight. Theresa's art still took Anna's breath
away, as did the crowded living room, though for less exalted reasons. Ignoring
the niggle and nudge of claustrophobia, she made room for herself on the sofa
by pushing aside a stack of magazines and two ratty pillows and settled into
the cluttered confines of Lanny's life. Minutes passed as she absorbed the
room, waiting for anything added to make itself known, anything taken away to
reveal its absence by a sign. The ailing
Supervisory Ranger's housekeeping habits were a petty thief's dream. Amid the
choking plethora of goods, she doubted Lanny himself would be able to detect a
minor disarrangement. After a time one small anomaly came to her. There were no
photographs of Lanny's inamorata. No pictures of Theresa hung from the walls;
no framed photos of her joined the clutter on shelves and tabletops. Lanny was
there, grinning from mountaintops, monstrous-looking in snorkel and mask. Other
women, never alone or particularly featured but with Lanny and friends, lived
the half-life of memory in colored snapshots. Unless Theresa was phobic where
cameras were concerned, her absence was peculiar. Glad to have
even this teensy weensy thread to follow—anything to stay occupied and out of
her tomb of an office—Anna began searching through Wilcox's piles in search of
Theresa's likeness. With sunlight and an achievable goal, Anna had better
success than she'd had the night before. Iwo plastic bins, six by fourteen
inches, the lids long gone, were stuffed full of snapshots, most of them still
in the envelopes from the developers. Both bins had been shoved into the bottom
niche of one of those units fashionable in the seventies, the kind made by
stacking any number of wooden cubes. The number Lanny had chosen to live with
was fifteen, piled into a pyramid shape with five of the units forming the
base. The cubes housed everything from tattered record albums to beer bottles,
each from a different country. In his fifties, Lanny retained the decorating
instincts of a college boy. Finding the
photos was moderately satisfying. What Anna found intensely satisfying was
discovering she probably wasn't the first person to seek them out since Lanny's
unpremeditated departure—unless Lanny himself had pawed through them,
surgically removing the images of the woman who had betrayed him; an
explanation too common, too human, to dismiss out of hand. Anna refused to let
the thought rob her of the mild buzz of discovery. One of the
flimsy envelopes had torn, and half a dozen pictures had fallen out. She'd not
noticed them in the general mess because, shoved between couch and cubes, was
an end table probably from the early fifties, when blond pseudo-cowboy style
was popular. The loose pictures fanned out beneath the table, two pinned under
a leg. The end table had been moved, the photo bins gone through, then the
table put back. Before leaping
to the conclusion she preferred—that she had seen a light, someone had been in
Wilcox's quarters, had poked about, the intruder's search culminating with the
digital camera upstairs and, ergo, Anna was not nuts—she carefully inspected
the pinned photographs, then the top of the table. The table was sufficiently
dusty, had she been so inclined, she could have written her initials therein.
In a way somebody had. Two prints, clearly, the heels of ungloved hands, marked
the dust where the table had been picked up and moved. On the scattered pictures
there was no dust at all. The table had been moved recently, the mess of
pictures was newly spilled. Anna pulled
latex gloves from a pouch on her duty belt. She was a world away from snazzy
modern lab equipment. The NPS hadn't the money to spare on expensive tests
when, as far as she knew, no crime had been committed. Not even breaking and
entering. She'd found Wilcox's door closed but latched. Who was to say Lanny'd
not left it that way when he'd gone? Or Teddy had, on her mission of mercy
cleaning the spoilables from the refrigerator. Still and all Anna didn't want
to add her prints to the mix and, just for the hell of it, would return later
with a kit to lift the palm prints. The pictures
were a disappointment. They were what one would expect to find in a ranger's
quarters between the Gulf of Mexico and the Strait of Florida: boats, more
boats, blue water, pale sands, people in swim-suits and, occasionally, people
without swimsuits. Three of the envelopes were dedicated to the fort and were
all but indistinguishable from those Anna had taken her first week to send home
to Paul: arches disappearing within arches, the camera aimed down either the
casemate's larger section where the cannon were once housed or the same
perspective down the long line of man-sized arches that fronted them, the
parade ground, the lighthouse: the usual. Social pictures
captured the Shaws, Daniel, Mack, Duncan and his wife and son. There was even a
photograph of Mrs. Meyers. Again what was
interesting was what wasn't there. No photographs of Theresa. Four that Anna
had separated out were of what she thought might be Theresa's backside. And a
fine backside it was. Anna could well understand why a man, especially a man
entering his fifties on an island with no single women in residence, might well
choose to follow that backside with all the ardor with which the three wise men
were reported to have followed the star. Anna pocketed
her find, fetched her kit from the office, and lifted the prints from the
table. Besides the heels of the intruder's hands, she was lucky to get a
good-sized partial from the person's right fore- and middle fingers—given he or
she had lifted the table in a normal way. The prints would probably languish in
a file proving nothing, but it was something to do. When she
finished, she still had a couple hours to kill before Mack and Danny would be
free to lend a hand with the wreck dive. Rather than return to an office that,
without Teddy Shaw on site, Anna had looked forward to as a place of glorious
solitude but which turned out to be merely lonely in a creepy sort of way, she
fired up the Reef Ranger and motored over to Loggerhead Key. The endless
expanse of blue water had the same calming effect as the mountains on a clear
day. Being able to let her eyes stretch for a horizon without stumbling into
walls, to see in every direction for miles, to shout without being heard, gave
her a sense of reckless freedom. The cloying claustrophobia of Fort Jefferson's
substantial ramparts and Lanny Wilcox's packrat's den was blown away on the hot
wind. She steered the boat in lazy S patterns and belted out several of the
cruder verses of "What Do You Do with a Drunken Sailor." Midday, mid
season, Fort Jefferson's docks, harbor and beaches were teeming with campers,
fishermen and tourists. The two ferries from the mainland, both enormous
catamarans capable of dumping over two hundred visitors between them, filled
the fort with bodies. Loggerhead was
refreshingly deserted. There was but one small dock for NPS use only, no
camping, no toilets, no drinking water for the public. Neither of the ferries
stopped there. People lucky enough to own their own boats occasionally brought
a dinghy into shore or swam in, but there were none today. At the landward
end of the dock where a sand path started through the scrub to the lighthouse
keepers' quarters and the old lighthouse, a strange garden had grown up. In the
low dunes swelling to either side of the trail, passersby had planted bits of
flotsam or dead marine animals they'd come across; things too wonderful not to
pick up at the beach and too useless to take home. Fishing nets,
broken lobster traps, buoys in all sizes and colors, pieces of dead coral,
skeletons of horseshoe crabs, sand dollars, bottles scrubbed clean of their
labels, seashells, fishing lures and other oddments had been arranged in an
ongoing work in progress. Nothing in this ten-by-twenty-foot sculpture garden
appeared to have been tossed. Each piece had been placed with somebody's
idiosyncratic idea of beauty. The result fascinated
Anna. Each time she visited Loggerhead Key she looked for new things. The
garden made her feel good about her species, as if fed, watered and left to
peaceful pursuits, mankind would tend toward making the world a better place.
Today she stopped for a minute and rearranged a horseshoe crab and four
sand dollars to make an ersatz turtle. Satisfied with her contribution to the
ephemeral world of art, she walked to the house shared by the women charged
with maintaining the lighthouse. Lighthouse
keepers were volunteers who came to Loggerhead for a month at a time. The post
was so isolated and the duties so specialized and yet mostly undemanding that
more than thirty days drove most people crazy. All there was to do on the tiny
key was to keep the generator in good running order and the visitors from
damaging anything. Besides the light and the light keepers' cottage, there was
a house used by visiting research teams. At the moment it stood empty. The cottage
delighted Anna. As it came into view over a sand dune she stopped to admire the
scene. The building was of stone, two stories, one small room stacked atop the
other; a haven in which to weather storms. The house and the concept appealed
to Anna. This afternoon the reassuring picture was completed by Donna and
Patrice. Patrice was seated at a picnic table as gray and warped as driftwood,
staring intently at the guts of a piece of machinery. Donna stood at her
shoulder, pointing and talking, one hand on Patrice's shoulder. What kept this
scene of domestic bliss from being a clichй were the women themselves. When
Neil Simon wrote The Odd Couple, he had no inkling of how very odd
couples were to become in the near future. Donna was tall, thick of shoulder
and narrow of hip with arms that she'd probably earned at her "other
job" as a boiler-room engineer. Breasts and shoulder-length hair framing a
distinctly craggy face denied the manly frame. Patrice, who
had retired from walking a beat for the Boston police department some years
before, switching careers to teach kindergarten, was slightly less
masculine-looking, being squat rather than tall, but she too had what looked to
be signs of a vestigial X chromosome. Gossip rampant in the close and often
closed circles of the National Park Service had thoroughly chewed over the
lighthouse keepers. Anna leaned toward the theory that one or both women had
undergone sex-change operations before which they were heterosexual and after
which they discovered they were lesbians. Since this was
the seventh year Donna and Patrice had come to Loggerhead during the month of
July, fort personnel and park regulars had grown accustomed to them. Because
they did their job well and proved excellent company, they'd come to be
accepted, their odd looks and mysterious origins merely one more wonder of this
tiny world. Anna enjoyed
them immensely, particularly Donna, whose wit was so dry and subtle often Anna
would only get the joke after she'd put to sea headed home and would find
herself laughing all alone on her boat. "Ranger
Pigeon," Donna called in a voice tuned to overcome the noise of a boiler
room. "What brings you to our island paradise?" Anna joined
them at the picnic table, was given a glass of sweet tea in return for which
she was expected to tell them the news of the previous two days' happenings. She began with
the last dive she and Cliff had taken and ended with the tale of Bob Shaw's
heroics. She hesitated to tell her ghost story. People periodically claimed to
see ghosts at Fort Jefferson. Daniel, a foursquare chunk of Americana with the
tattoos to prove it, insisted he'd felt a spectral hand on his shoulder in the
generator room. It wasn't that Anna believed her story would make the two women
look at her askance; it was that Donna and Patrice were clever. Clever and
smart with senses of humor honed sharp as razors, probably from years of
fending off prying questions and rude remarks. Of the staff at Fort Jefferson,
these two struck Anna as the most capable of pulling off a complex hoax. Why on
earth they would want her to believe either in ghosts or her own incipient
insanity was beyond her. Instead she
asked: "Did either of you guys know Theresa Alvarez?" When dealing
with minorities in the oh-so-politically-correct climate of government service,
whether they were minorities because of race, infirmity or gender bending, Anna
was hyperconscious of her words. She hoped "guys" would not cause
offense. Donna and
Patrice were blessedly ignorant of this social gaffe. "Oh,
yes," Patrice said with an enthusiasm that clearly annoyed her partner. "We didn't
know her all that well," Donna said repressively. "She'd tome
over here now and again. Sometimes to visit, mostly to comb the beaches for
things she used to make her picture boxes." "She is a
terrific artist," Patrice said. Donna raised
her eyebrows. "Especially in that tiny little thong bathing suit."
Her voice was a seductive growl. Patrice laughed
and punched Donna in the arm, a slug that would have sent Anna ass over
teakettle but didn't move Donna at all. "You!" Patrice said playfully.
Then: "You've got to admit she showed off that thing to good
advantage." Donna put a
beefy arm around Patrice's shoulders and told Anna: "Neither of us knew
her in the biblical sense, but we were allowed to admire her from a safe
distance." "Safe from
Theresa?" Patrice asked. "Theresa was gentle as a kitten." "Safe from
me, sweetheart." They both
laughed and Anna was glad to see accord restored. "Tell me
about her," Anna suggested. "From the thong upward." Donna and
Patrice were silent for a bit and Anna began to suspect the thong and regions
there adjacent pretty much constituted their notice of Ms. Alvarez. "She
didn't talk much," Patrice said finally. "Kept to herself." "Unless
she got on her soapbox," Donna amended. "Then she'd run on till your
eyes rolled back in your head." Patrice nodded.
"A liberal." "Fire-breathing,
heart-on-your-sleeve liberal. Major snooze." "Except
for the thong," Patrice said dreamily, hoping to get a rise out of Donna.
Donna obliged with a boiler-room snort. "Anything
else?" Anna asked. Patrice shook
her head. "We didn't
see that much of her—" She shot Patrice a look that stopped the obvious
rejoinder. "Theresa left not long after we got here." "That did
kind of surprise me," Patrice said. "Teddy'd told us she'd figured Theresa
for using Lanny, but I got the feeling she loved the man." "Using
Lanny how?" Anna asked. Lanny Wilcox wasn't going to attract gold diggers
on a GS-II's salary, and though there was no accounting for taste, Anna
couldn't see a balding man in his fifties with the housekeeping instincts of a
frat boy as anybody's idea of a sex toy. "Was she broke enough forty
thousand a year would seem like money?" "Not
money, I don't think." Patrice looked to Donna for corroboration. "No. Teddy
didn't make it sound like a money thing. Besides, Theresa had the looks to use
a man for a whole lot more than forty thousand a year less taxes. Teddy kind of
thought Theresa might be running from something, using Lanny and Fort Jefferson
as a place to hide out." "A lot of people
who wash up on islands are running from something," Anna said. Donna and
Patrice exchanged a look that made Anna think she'd hit a nerve. "Or
running to something," Patrice said softly. "Or
running to something," Anna agreed. "Ask
Teddy," Donna suggested. "Teddy is from whence all information worth
having around here flows." Anna would do
that as soon as the Shaws returned from the mainland. "Why the
sudden interest in Lanny's love life?" Donna asked. "I've been
seeing ghosts," Anna said and watched them carefully. Donna's face was
impassive to the point of frozen, but Anna couldn't tell if she'd solidified
her facial muscles to hide a guilty secret or to hide the fact that she thought
Anna was an idiot. Patrice seemed
delighted. "Oh, man, I would kill to see a ghost. Even part of one: a
spectral hand, a rattling chain. I wouldn't even mind being slimed. Tell us everything,"
she demanded, and propped her chin in her hands expectantly. The
juxtaposition of the girlish pose and the hairy forearms shook Anna's insides,
but she didn't laugh; she liked these women too well. She obliged
them with the story of Great-Great-Aunt Raffia's fleeting visit to the casemate
near the chapel. She'd meant to keep it bare bones and focus on their
reactions, but Patrice was such a good audience and Anna so in need of women
confidants with whom there was no one-to two-second delay from mouth to ear,
she found herself relating every detail: the turn of the head, the upswept
hair, the delicate long fingers pushing in otherworldly hairpins. "Doesn't
sound like Theresa Alvarez," Donna said when she'd done, hearkening back
to the non sequitur that she believed had launched this ghost story.
"Theresa was dark and, as Patrice has so observantly pointed out, not much
given to clothes that covered her from neck to ankles." "No.
Sorry," Anna said. "I never thought it was Lanny's girlfriend.
Talking about Theresa just put me in mind of it because she disappeared.
Ghostlike. Poof?" The segue was
spotty at best but the lighthouse keepers chose to accept it without question.
Anna didn't know what gender the two had been born, but there was no doubt in
her mind that they were girls now. It was good to be one of them. "Do you
think she was 'disappeared' against her will?" A funny edge came into Patrice's
voice that bothered Anna till she remembered the woman was a retired
law-enforcement officer. "You think
old fire horses are bad," Donna said as if reading her mind. "They've
got nothing on retired cops." Patrice was not
to be deterred. "Do you suspect felonious play? We heard she'd run off,
presumably with a man younger, prettier and richer than Lanny." Hearing her
vague suppositions laid out in words, Anna backed away from the idea. It
sounded melodramatic, like a bored ranger making something out of nothing. Or a
woman of a certain age having mid-life delusions. "Just
poking around," she said. "Nothing really. What I came over here
for—besides to waste your time and drink up your tea—was to see if either of
you recognized this boat. Here's what's left of it." She took a printout
of an underwater photo of the bottle-green go-fast boat. It was taken before
the second explosion, when the bow was still recognizable as such. "Looks
like a Scarab, maybe," Donna said. Anna took note of the fact that the woman
knew her boats. "It
is." "What's
that color? Looks almost black in the picture." "Metallic
sparkly dark green." "Where's
the boat out of?" Patrice asked. "I don't
know yet. We're working on it." "We see a
lot of boats come through," Donna said. "We'll keep
an eye out," Patrice said. "What am I talking about? The boat's on
the bottom. It's history. I'll see what I got." "The Dick
Tracy File," Donna explained when Anna looked confused. "Patrice
videos anything the least bit odd. In case..." She laughed. Patrice didn't. "Not just
odd," she defended herself. "Though of course odd is particularly
interesting. Just a photographic record of comings and goings." For an
instant she looked sheepish. Donna patted
her with a big callused hand, grease from working on the generator ingrained
under her round, clipped fingernails. "It's good you keep it, Patrice.
It's come in handy. Because of Patrice the Key West cops—" "Key Stone
Cops," Patrice interjected. "Your
opinion. The Key West police and the coast guard were able to track down a
twenty-nine-year-old felon who'd run off with his boss's fishing yacht." "And his
boss's fourteen-year-old daughter." "She went
willingly." "It was
her idea, but that doesn't change anything," Patrice said. "Nope. He
should have been keelhauled." If the current
theory about the lighthouse keepers was correct, neither of them had ever been
little girls. Perhaps the undertone of anger Anna heard had nothing to do with
chromosomes and everything to do with humanity. Because she had
time to kill and because she was enjoying herself and because her position as
Supervisory Ranger in the Dry Tortugas was temporary, Anna decided to indulge
in a little gossip—real gossip, not police work disguised—good old-fashioned
dishing the dirt with the rest of the girls. "What do
you guys know about Mack?" she asked. "He strikes me as a man with a
past." Donna straddled
the bench on the far side of the picnic table and rubbed her jaw. The way she
pushed upward on her cheek made Anna wonder if it was a habit left over
from years of checking for five o'clock shadow. "He's an
odd duck, that's for sure. He loves to talk, but only about himself." "He's
quite manly in that," Patrice said, and the three of them enjoyed an
uncensored laugh. "I noticed
his back and legs are scarred. He ever mention how that came about?" "I noticed
those too, right off," Patrice said. "She asked
him about it right off, too," Donna said. "I asked
nice," Patrice said. Donna mimicked
her partner, batting her eyes like a femme fatale, which clearly tickled
Patrice: "Hello, Mack, isn't it a nice day? By the by, how the hell did
you get all cut up like that?" "I did
not," Patrice laughed. "Did he
tell you?" Anna asked. "He told
us a story," Patrice said. "Something about falling off an all-terrain
vehicle and being dragged across gravel by a pant leg. A load of hooey." "Child
abuse, you think?" "That's my
guess," Patrice said. "If we're right, it's a wonder he didn't grow
up to be another Jeffrey Dahmer. It had to've been brutal. I don't blame him
for making up a better story." Anna didn't
either. "What does he talk about, then, if the past is out of the
picture?" "Oh it's
not out," Donna said. "It's the picture that's a wee bit different
than you'd expect after seeing the scars." "Mack's
got a lot of stories about how his folks were these rich aristocratic types.
According to him he had his own horse, nannies and the trimmings," Patrice
said. "And he's
a lowly government employee now because some evil relative squandered it all
away," Anna finished. The fantasy was fairly common among dissatisfied men
who thought they deserved better. "Something
like that," Patrice said. "He gets vague about it. Maybe that part of
the story's not written yet." For a while the
three of them sat in comforting silence, Anna sipping her tea, Donna fiddling
with the chunk of machinery, Patrice seemingly content doing nothing at all. They made a bit
more desultory talk. Anna asked politely about the eviscerated motor on the
table and was treated to a list of internal combustion symptoms that meant
nothing to her. Finally Patrice took pity on her and summed it up. "Generator
went ker-put." "Terminally
ker-put?" Anna asked. "Over
Donna's dead body." "I'll have
it up and running by dark," Donna promised. "I think we got a mouse
problem. They get to building nests in the moving parts of your machinery and
it's a nightmare." It was on the
tip of Anna's tongue to offer Piedmont's services as a mouser. He could rid an
island of the size of Loggerhead Key of rodents in under a week. What stopped
her was selfishness. She liked Piedmont at home. Unless Donna
pulled off her usual miracle, Loggerhead Key would have to swelter in the dark.
Anna was keeping her cat. She looked at
her watch. Two forty-seven. Time to meet some men about a wreck. She made her
goodbyes and walked away from the snug cottage and into the glare of white sand
and a hard-looking sea. It occurred to her that she felt good for having had
tea with Patrice and Donna. It also occurred to her that she had come with questions,
and had given out a great deal of information and gotten little. Patrice must've
been one hell of a cop. 12 My Dearest Peg,
Five days have passed since I last sat down to write. To turn back the clock:
the four of us waited in the casemate next to that shared by Dr. Mudd and a
second of the conspirators. The cell was
dim, as they all are once the opening arch onto the parade ground has been
boarded up, and this one darker than most, having but a small opening on the
sea side. My eyes had adjusted, however, and I could see with that misty
clarity one experiences at twilight. Though the cell was stiflingly hot, the
sweat prickling my skin had the quality of winter perspiration brought on by
exercising in extreme cold. Joel was still
and silent, the effort to be brave and charming during transport having taken
what little strength he had. The soldier who was to remain with us as guard and
chaperone stood to one side of the door leading to Dr. Mudd's cell, looking
agitated and thunderous. Eyes big and mouth pinched, Tilly knelt beside Joel,
watching the door where the soldier had rapped, summoning the devil upon whom
we had pinned our slim hopes. The door
opened. An urbane-looking man, hairline receding, a lush mustache
covering his upper lip above a well-trimmed goatee, said: "May I help
you?" for all the world as if he answered the door of his own home and
under better circumstances. I don't know if
it was the relief that he did not look like a slavering beast or the
surprisingly kind eyes under thin, low brows, or the offer of precisely that
which we had come seeking—help—but Tilly started to cry. "Are you
Dr. Mudd?" she asked through tears that flowed prettily—when I cry, my
face goes red and blotchy and my nose runs. Perhaps that's why my tears lost their
efficacy with Joseph too many years ago to count. The most
hard-hearted of men would have responded with chivalry to the picture of
feminine distress Tilly presented. "I
am," he told her and bowed slightly. He was elegant, even—or perhaps I
should say especially—given the surroundings, and spoke with a whisper of a
southern drawl that served to enhance the image. "How can I be of
service?" All this was directed to Tilly, I suppose because it was she who
first addressed him. Whatever the
reason, I could see her becoming as grave and mature as befitted a woman
addressed on matters of importance. This "honor," if indeed
attentions from the likes of him constituted such, coupled with his offer of
medical help for Joel Lane, completely won Tilly over. Our little sister and
one of the men condemned for the most heinous and cowardly of murders were
staunch allies before they'd exchanged a baker's dozen of words. I did not like
it. I very much did not like it. Unfortunately my discomfort came only later.
Joel's needs being foremost in my mind at the time, though not so swayed as
Tilly, I was glad enough of the doctor's help. As she had
established a rapport with the notorious doctor, Tilly became mistress of the
situation. I was content to stand by the soldier against the back wall and act
as an observer. She showed the
doctor Joel and told him how he had conic to be injured. Dr. Mudd's expression
didn't appear to change, but when mouth and chin are completely obscured by
hair, the face was unreadable. I wouldn't doubt if a few of the union's famed
stoics owe the compliment not to moral fortitude but a plenitude of facial
hair. The doctor did not give in to the temptation to comment on the brutality
of the union soldiers. He merely nodded, said: "Please?" and, when Tilly
made room, knelt to determine the extent of Joel's injuries. I had been so
caught up in Dr. Mudd's examination of Joel, the quick surety of his long
fingers, the small helpful movements of Miss Tilly as though she'd spent years
in a sickroom, that I forgot there was another soul incarcerated in these rooms
until the soldier at my elbow moved suddenly. Samuel Bland
Arnold. You of course remember the name from the trial and the accounts in the
newspapers. Words cannot convey the impact that laying eyes on this man has. Mr. Arnold had
taken Dr. Mudd's place in the door leading into their cell. He'd apparently
started to enter the casemate where we were. That's what stirred the soldier
assigned to Tilly and me. Arnold held both hands up, palms outward, to assure
the soldier he would not try to cross the threshold again. This gesture is
universal for surrender, acquiescence, yet in a manner I cannot put into words,
when done by Mr. Arnold, it was mocking as well. He leaned
against the lintel; ankles crossed, and lit a cheroot. Dark haired, mustache
worn clipped above the lip and long at the corners of his mouth, brows level
and thick over deep-set eyes, the man is just the sort with whom silly girls
ruin their reputations. Mr. Arnold said
nothing, nor did he interfere in any way, yet, to me at least, his presence was
as disruptive as a soprano singing off-key. I turned my back on him yet
remained so aware of his presence I believe I could have told you the instant
it happened had he left that doorway. My peculiar
suffering wasn't to last long. Dr. Mudd was in need of many things for the care
of the patient he had taken on with such automatic grace. The guard could not
leave either Tilly or me alone with the prisoners, and Tilly would have had to
be dragged from Joel's side by a team of wild horses. It fell to me to fetch
and carry. I found it a great relief to be freed of that close room with its
absence of air and presence of prison smells and the disturbing emanations from
Mr. Arnold. Dr. Caulley is
a lean man, but his moon face, glistening summer and winter as if basted
for roasting, gives the illusion he was meant to be corpulent but was too
stingy to allow his body to attain its predestined shape. The fort's surgeon is
unfailingly polite to me but manages by intricate manipulations of eyebrows and
narrow mustache to semaphore the message that he doesn't like me and has a low
opinion of my intellectual abilities. When Dr.
Caulley found me acting as errand girl for the infamous Dr. Samuel Mudd, his
eyebrows surpassed themselves in communicating that which his pursed and
niggardly little mouth was too pious to say. With those two scanty lines of
reddish hair, he managed to disparage Dr. Mudd's medical abilities, lineage and
politics while his mouth murmured only, "Mister Mudd. I
see." Joseph must
have taken time to speak with him, because he granted my requests. It took
several trips, but I brought Dr. Mudd everything he'd requested with the
exception of morphine. Using hints and eyebrows, Dr. Caulley conveyed that the
confederate doctor and conspirator in murder could not be trusted not to sell
the morphine or use it himself. I was afraid Joel would be left to suffer. That
he was in great pain was evident even to the untrained eye. When I'd
brought what I'd been given and relayed the information about the morphine—sans
the eyebrow signals—Dr. Mudd was silent for a moment, rocking back on his heels
where he'd been kneeling by his patient. He finally
stood and pulled what had once been a crease in his trousers straight.
"Pain can kill a man," he said simply. "I saw it on the
battlefield. The pain takes the strength that could otherwise be used for
healing." Then he brushed his hands together, one against the other. Tilly read the
gesture as clearly as I did. "No," she said, but not with the girlish
tears she'd shown earlier. In the little time we had been in this (lark and
sweltering room, Tilly had grown up. "Stay with him, Raffia," she
said. "I won't be long." I was so
stunned by the change in her that she'd swept by me and was gone before I had
time to protest or even to ask what she intended. She wasn't gone
more than twenty minutes, but it seemed a good deal longer. Tilly was
the binding presence, I discovered, not Private Lane. When she left, none of us
remaining could find anything to say to one another. By the time
Tilly returned with Joseph, though I'd not spoken a single word to either Dr.
Mudd or Mr. Arnold, I felt I had spent a short lifetime in their midst. From the moment
Tilly stepped off the ship that brought her over from Key West she has had
Joseph eating out of her hand. It delights me to see it and, I must confess,
often makes me wonder if being barren is quite the blessing I believe it to be.
He responds to her with gentleness I've seen him use only with horses and dogs.
It reassures me the boy I fell in love with still dwells in the man I am
married to. Dr. Mudd
reemerged from his cell when he heard the ring of Joseph's boots on the brick.
Joseph stayed in one doorway and Mudd, having displaced Arnold—who seemed not
so much to leave but to vanish as a shadow will when exposed to light—stayed in
the other. Between them Joel's "hospital" room was neutral ground.
Across it I could feel the animosity from my husband and the rebound of it from
the doctor. "Mudd,"
Joseph said curtly. "Morphine for the boy." Dr. Mudd
started to cross the open space to retrieve it. Pointedly, Joseph handed it to
me. "My wife
will have the keeping of it. She will give you what you need for the boy and
stay to watch until you have administered it." "Thank
you—" Mudd began, but Joseph cut him off. "This is
not a privilege and will get you no special treatment. Never test me." An arrogance
I'd not seen—or not noticed—before came over Dr. Mudd, stiffening his back and
hardening the muscles of his face. It made him a different man from the kindly
doctor who tended to Joel. I could easily see how, if he wore this guise in
court, he was condemned. This Mudd could possibly lie and kill and continue to
feel righteous for having done so. "Sir,"
Dr. Mudd said icily. "Considering you are willing to imprison an innocent
man, your rudeness does not surprise me." There was an
awful moment after the doctor spoke. Joseph said nothing but let Dr. Mudd's
words hang in the air. I don't think the doctor is aware of what a slender
thread his continued well-being at Fort Jefferson depends on. "Please..."
Tilly said to no one and everyone. "Do not
test me," Joseph repeated in a tone I have come to respect. He turned to
our soldier-escort. "Private Mason, as soon as the morphine is
administered, see Mrs. Coleman and her sister back to the officers' quarters.
On his way out he stopped beside Tilly and me. In less frightening but no less
serious tones, he said: "Don't you two test me either." Tilly scarcely
heard him, nor, I noted, did she thank him for getting the morphine. I could
only hope she had the sense—and the grace—to do it before they had returned to
the casemate. She was halfway across the cell, the morphine in her outstretched
hand. "Dr. Mudd, I cannot thank you enough. Without you we would be so
alone." Joseph looked
back over his shoulder at Tilly clinging to Dr. Mudd's arm as they knelt by
Joel. The expression on his face was alien to me; I could not read it, yet it
made me afraid. For whom, I don't know. Maybe for myself. 13 Motoring into
the harbor, things seemed peaceful enough. It was too early in the day for the
shrimpers, and many other boats were out of the park fishing. Passing a
sportfishing ban in Dry Tortugas National Park had caused an outcry heard all
the way to Mississippi. Not killing animals in a national park was one thing,
but fish? Surely it's every American boy's birthright to kill fish
anywhere they are to be found. The
superintendent of Dry Tortugas and Everglades had stuck to her guns and backed
the unpopular ban. The results were much what the NPS had hoped they'd be. Not
only were there more and bigger fish within the park boundaries, but
significantly more and bigger fish were being caught outside the boundaries as
well. By banning fishing in fifty thousand acres of sea, a nursery, a veritable
cornucopia of fishes, had been created. None of this
impressed the sportfishermen. Talk still turned ugly when the subject came up,
and they still whined piteously over the inconvenience of having to go a mile
or two farther from their favorite anchorages to legally drop their lines in
the water. Anna was firmly
on the side of the fishes. As far as she was concerned, a less populated harbor
was a perk, not a consequence. She turned the Boston Whaler and backed deftly
into her slot. Water and boating skills honed as a patrol ranger at Isle Royale
National Park in Lake Superior that she'd thought lost in the intervening years
had come back with a week's practice, and she gloried in their return. Maintenance's
boat, the Atlantic Ranger, was not at the dock. Anna was just as glad.
She had a little time to grab a bite to eat, say "hi" to her cat and
gather up her gear. Twenty minutes
later, when she came down in suit and flip-flops, the many contusions left by
her encounter with the coral complaining about being exposed to the direct rays
of the sun, Daniel and Mack were sitting in the shade outside the shop waiting
for her. "Number
five up and running?" she asked as she neared them. Daniel shot her a
peculiar look, and she wondered if he took it personally when the generators
consigned to his care were on the fritz. "Right as
rain," Mack said. He changed the subject as the two men fell into step
with her. "What are we diving for?" "Identification,
mostly," Anna replied. "I'm hoping the green boat has a registration
number or, failing that, a serial number on the engine that's still readable.
So far the Florida police haven't had any luck tracing our John Doe." "Juan
Doe," Mack said. Anna didn't know if he was being racist or clever. She
let it pass. Mack wore only orange trunks and sandals, and sneaking a look at
his back, she found her guess had been correct. Striping the lean muscles and
knotty spine were the same narrow whipping scars she'd noticed on his legs and
upper arms. Dive tanks,
buoyancy compensator vests, weights and regulators were kept in a small room
behind the ladies' toilets on the visitors' dock. A few minutes were spent
loading the heavy gear, then they were motoring out toward the wreck. It
crossed Anna's mind that the NPS would want the Bay Ranger salvaged and
possibly the Scarab brought up and disposed of. Old wrecks had charm. She
wasn't so sure about the modern variety. Having no idea what went into salvage
work, she made a mental note to call the chief ranger in Homestead at
the next opportunity. The seas were
by no means rough, but neither were they at the dead calm that had facilitated
diving the day before. There was a stiffening wind out of the southeast and a
definite chop to the water. The rangers' boats in the Dry Tortugas were graced
with Global Positioning Systems, but Anna hadn't been a boat patrol ranger
since the days of loran—long range navigation—and hadn't yet bothered to learn
how to use them. Trusting in the old ways, she'd marked the wrecks with buoys.
Despite the chop, they found them easily. It was decided
she and Mack would dive the Scarab first to see if they could find any
identifying marks, numbers or papers. Often boats kept important papers in waterproof
containers so the idea was not that farfetched. That done, they'd scavenge
Bob's boat and bring up anything useful or even detachable. Once the sport
divers or snorkelers found the Bay Ranger, she would be picked clean by
souvenir hunters. Regardless of laws forbidding the vandalizing of sunken
artifacts in protected waters, it was virtually impossible to overcome the
allure of taking home a trophy pried from a genuine shipwreck. Ignoring the
uproar from her abused flesh, Anna wriggled into an old dive skin—the nicer one
shredded in the explosion—fins, vest, snorkel and mask. Mack, finished before
she was, waited till she was ready, and together they rolled off the gunwale. The pristine
clarity of the water was gone, as was the glassy surface above. Particulate
matter clouded vision and leached colors from fish and coral. Visibility
underwater was an ever-changing thing. Like the weather, it seemed to make its
own unpredictable choices. One day clear, cloudy the next and often without the
easy logic of groundswell or storm to explain the sudden fluctuations. Mack vanished
in the murk, swimming expertly with an economy of motion. He wore neither dive
suit nor skin. Underwater his body hair floated and sunlight refracted, making
his scars startlingly apparent. Or perhaps Anna had speculated on them so long
and so rudely with the lighthouse keepers she'd sensitized herself. Now they
put her in mind, not of an abused child, but a tiger shark. Kicking hard, she
caught up and swam beside Mack. The physical exertion was welcome. With the
murky water and the fleeting thought of man-as-tiger-shark, she worried her
mind might be taking that particular twist it had the night before. Moving, working,
relegated the ghoulies and ghosties to a half-remembered dream state. The hull was
scattered in fragments. Between them she and Mack turned over every piece they
could find, the largest being the stern portion, without finding any name or
numbers. Either the identifying marks had been pulverized in the explosion or
the owners of this super-loaded speedboat chose to remain anonymous. As they worked,
it began to dawn on Anna that someone had been stirring in the pile. Though
she'd not said it to herself in so many words, the idea germinated when they'd
moved the stern. After the initial explosion the orange PFD had been floating
like a child's birthday balloon above the transom, tethered by its own strap.
Following the second explosion it had been pinned beneath the upended stern.
Now it was gone. If there'd been nothing else, she would have assumed it had
gotten loose and floated away. The sea is a strange place. Things happen. But there were
other changes. Nothing dramatic, nothing even as noticeable as the removal of
the life jacket; it was that objects weren't quite the way she remembered: a
little to the right, farther left, turned on its side, shifted farther under or
over something else. It reminded her of the way drawers and dressing tables
look after being searched and restored to their presearch configuration by most
males. Everything is there. Everything is where it was. But better, the
carefully tended chaos made slightly more orderly, slightly less random. Anna
hadn't come primarily for taking photos, but she took a lot of them, and from
the same angles she remembered the last shots having been taken. When she
compared the two sets of photographs she would know for sure if someone had
been diving here, doing major rifling, in the past twelve hours. No, Anna
corrected herself as she lined up a shot of the shattered midsection, I already
know for sure. The pictures are to prove it. Whether to herself or someone
else depended on whether she continued to see ghosts or not. Finally, each
and every piece of debris examined, Anna gave up on finding either name or
registration number. Their only remaining hope was getting a serial number off
one of the Searab's engines in hopes they could trace it to the manufacturer
and from there through the various sales slips to its present owner. Both engines,
imposing chunks of black metal with white plastic tubing, were virtually
intact. One was buried in the sand, the top down, the number unreachable. The
blast had separated the other from the hull and carried it to a complex, if
small, mountain range. Anna chose not to think of the thousands of years of
careful creation destroyed on impact or the millions of tiny lives
extinguished. The grace and delicacy of the coral cities put Anna in mind of
Dr. Seuss's Whoville. She couldn't help picturing the living coral as full of
minute Who people going about their little Who lives. The fairy tale—programmed
anthropomorphism—made the destruction ridiculously poignant. To complete the
image, the plastic tubing on the engine, ends severed from wherever they'd been
designed to take a necessary fluid, floated out like tentacles from the black
squatting body of the monster. Too many horror
movies as a kid, Anna thought, and smiled around the plastic plug of her
regulator as she pictured Rodan pursuing a Japanese maiden across the sea
floor. Catching Mack's
attention, she pointed to herself, then to the engine. Mack shook his
head and pointed to the surface. He tapped his watch, then the pressure gauge
that indicated how much air remained in the tank. Anna looked at
her own gauge. She had just under half a tank. Even given the difference in
their size, unless Mack had been hyperventilating, it was hard to believe he
was out of air. She tapped her own gauge and circled thumb and index finger in
the "okay" sign, then began to swim to him to see if there was a
problem with his equipment but, after shaking the gauge hard, he gave an
exaggerated shrug and the "okay" sign. Evidently it
had fixed itself. She turned and finished the short journey to where the engine
lay on uneven peaks of coral. The explosion had flipped it so it landed top
downward on the rocky surface. Little fishes had already begun exploring the
intricate crevices and caves of metal. Tiny eyes,
working mouths and colorful flicks of tails met Anna as she inspected the
underside for identifying numbers. Mostly she was being thorough. Serial
numbers were meant to be seen and used while the vehicle the engine was housed
in was right-side up. Manufacturers usually put them on a metal part close to
the top. Mack floated
nearby; more company than help, a flicker of color and movement in her
peripheral vision much like the shy visit of a large fish. Having proved to herself
there were to be no easy answers, Anna let her body sink a couple feet deeper.
The nest of coral boulders the engine rested on was not more than three and
four feet high. Fins on the sandy bottom, she was at eye level with where the
metal met the rock in a crush of once-living coral and plant life. It hadn't
fallen on a single boulder but the meeting of several slowly growing together.
Beneath the engine was a miniature canyon eighteen inches or so deep and three
or four feet long. The top of this ravine, capped by iron and steel, was a
couple of feet across, the bottom tapered to nothing where boulder met boulder.
Living walls, now in darkness, housed the delicate and wondrous beings so
common in these waters. Ignoring the
imaginary screams as the Whos of Whoville rushed about in panic, their fairy
cities in ruins, Anna poked one arm in, flashlight in hand, and followed it
with her head. A skull-shuddering clank stopped her as her air tank rang
against the metal of the engine. Between metal and bone, the noise sounded
inside her head as if her skull were the bell and her brain the clapper. She waited till
the ringing ceased shaking her gray matter, then poked about carefully with her
little underwater light. She'd not used it before and, like some of the men
she'd dated, it was cute but dim. After scraping the back of her hand and
murdering several thousand more Whos with her elbow, she found what she was
looking for. Maybe. Cramped in at an odd angle with bubbles and wee little Who
corpses floating before her eyes, it was hard to be sure. Pulling head
and flashlight out, she stuck her right arm in up to the shoulder and tried to
read the numbers with the tips of her fingers. Her fingertips were, if
anything, too sensitive. Such a plethora of information was sent back from the
wet and rough and smooth and greasy, one proficient in Braille could possibly
have deduced all of Hamlet or prophesied the apocalypse from what her
fingers read there. Anna was merely
confused and frustrated. Again she peered into the triangular-shaped tunnel.
There was no egress at the far end. The engine capped a miniature box canyon.
Backing off, she pondered the feasibility of shifting the engine. A few
experimental shoves alone, then with the help of Mack, couldn't budge it. That
was probably just as well. From where she hung before the opening of the black
box protecting her number, the edge of the engine to her left only overlapped
the edge of the coral by an inch or so. Had they succeeded in shifting the
engine it would slide into the crack and, short of a hoist from a salvage ship,
she'd never get at the serial number. A minute, maybe
more, she stared into the hole trying to ignore the solution to her problem by
sending her thoughts chasing down various cheeseless rat holes. Other avenues
exhausted, she was forced back to the obvious. Without her vest and tank she
could fit in the crevice. It would take a bit of wriggling to keep her hand up
near her eyes so she'd have light when she reached the number, but it wouldn't
be that tight a squeeze. She'd been in
tighter. And hated it, she reminded
herself. "Hated" was the word she chose to remember from her last
crawl in Lechuguilla Cave some years back. It saved her from admitting to
herself how terrified she'd been, how desperately close to coming unglued and
running mad through the labyrinths of the underworld, a modern metaphor for
Tolkein's Gollum. Nothing for it,
she
decided. Mack was hovering and unsettled to the far right edge of her vision.
She pointed to herself then to the crevice and began to take off her vest. The
regulator hose was long enough; if she held it tight against her chest, she
could continue breathing though the tank was not on her back. Anna was much in
favor of continuing to breathe. Mack was
shaking his head pointing at his pressure gauge, then toward the surface. Again
Anna looked at her own. Just over a quarter full. They were no more than twenty-five
feet down—a free dive. It would take but a minute or two to see if she could
get in far enough to read the number. While venturing
into worlds unfriendly to human beings, Anna tended to err on the side of
caution, but they were not even within shouting distance of the danger zone.
Mack had done enough dives that this shallow junket in warm waters could hold
no horrors for him. Anna guessed he wasn't playing it safe, he simply had an
agenda of his own, probably one that involved beer. She shook her
head, pointed to the crevice, then turned her back on him. Without the vest she
was less buoyant and took a weight from her belt so she could move easily in
the water, having neither to fight to stay submerged nor struggle to move
toward the surface. In an unusual
synchronicity with the needs of the human world, Mother Nature had created,
with the help of many soon-to-be-abused creatures, a shelf near Anna's crevice.
There Anna put vest and tank, arranging them so the least amount of disturbance
would be caused when she moved into the hole. That done, she lay on her back in
the water, her hands on the edge of the engine where it hung over the edge of
the coral. Resting a moment, she made sure everything was in order, light
clipped in the neck of her dive skin, underwater pad and pencil stuffed under
the zipper between her breasts, breathing hose smooth, no kinks. Satisfied, she
began pulling herself gently into the crack beneath the Scarab's motor. The fit was not
tight, but she had to leave her left arm at her side, the hand sticking out of
the hole near her left thigh, and use her right hand to pinch and pull herself
along. Her face was about six inches below the engine, leaving plenty of room
for regulator and goggles. The air hose trailed across her chest and down her
left side, where it was held reassuringly in the fingers of her left hand
before it snaked away to the tank on the shelf. Five seconds,
maybe less, and her head bumped gently on the end of the tunnel. Her right
elbow was trapped against her ribs, but she had enough space to maneuver hand
and wrist easily enough. With a minimum of fumbling, she undipped the
flashlight and turned it on. Serial numbers.
Bright and clear and nearly new. A feeling of great personal resourcefulness
and the joy in a prize won pushed claustrophobia—still an infant at barely ten
seconds old—back into the womb. Having clipped the light to the strap on her
mask, she wedged her notebook against the engine with the heel of her hand and,
using the underwater pen cleverly tethered to the pad, began copying down the
numerals. Grinding so
loud she thought the plates of her skull were coming apart and the number
shifted to the right, the heel of her hand carried with it, then weight,
crushing weight. Air pushed from her lungs. The flashlight was shoved to the
right. The butt of it banged against her teeth, then metal and light were gone. That was it.
The whole thing. Over in a heartbeat. It had happened
so quickly it took her a moment to believe she was trapped under an internal combustion
engine on the bottom of the ocean. The next thing she noticed was that she was
still breathing. Her lungs had to work a little harder. The hose must have been
constricted but not pinched closed. Either that or she was hyperventilating.
The grinding noise had triggered a shot of adrenaline into her system so
substantial her insides felt jellied. Over the years,
tales had filtered in about people imbued with superhuman strength in time of
crises; usually a mother, a child and an overturned tractor were featured.
Unfortunately this was not the case with her. Her right arm, pressed tight
across her chest, couldn't move itself let alone the tonnage of the engine.
Fleetingly she wondered if she were to be entombed beneath the sea, laid out in
an eternal flag salute. The thought brought on a twinge of hysteria followed by
terror so great it took more willpower than she would have believed she had not
to fight herself into an early death. Breathe,
breathe, breathe. Slow. A breath. Slow. Anna forced herself into a semblance of
calm. It was not utterly dark in her crevice. The flashlight was somewhere
beside her head, still emitting its feeble beam. The water was a colloidal
suspension of Who bodies and Who buildings and Who villages under a black
corrugated sky. The fantasy,
delightful earlier, scared her now. For reasons she hadn't the time or the
inclination to pursue, going insane, even in an insane situation, was scary as
hell. A breath. A
count. A breath. Panic
momentarily at bay, it occurred to her that not only was she not dead, as she
had every right to be, and breathing, which she had no right to be, but, near
as she could tell, miraculously unhurt. The engine had slipped down only far
enough to press her tightly but not to squash anything. To Mack it must
look as if she'd been killed. Another wave of
panic swept over her. Living people were rescued as quickly as possible.
Americans, especially Americans in the National Park Service, would move
mountains, would not rest, would not stop and would spare no expense as long as
there was even a slim hope life still burned. They took their
own sweet time about body recoveries. Frantically,
she began kicking her feet, waggling the fingers of her left hand. The image of
half her body swallowed by a black and craggy mouth, neon-green flippered feet
and white fingers flipping out of the metal and coral lips, struck her as
unbelievably funny. Before she could control herself laughter borne on
absurdity and hysteria bubbled out of her mouth. The regulator's mouthpiece was
loosed from her lips and teeth and floated upward following the bubbles. The regulator
stopped against the engine an inch or so above her mouth, air gently leaking
out. Oxygen hunger welled in her lungs and with it desperate panic. Pushing with
all her strength, she managed to move her right hand up from her heart to her
collarbone. With the tips of her fingers she could tickle her chin. There it
wedged so tightly she could feel the blood being cut off and numbness creeping
into her fingers. Metal pressed
across the top of her mask, immobilizing her head and neck. Forcing her tongue
out till the root ached, she managed to lick the bottom of the mouthpiece, but
no more. Her lungs
wanted to break open, force her to breathe in the water. Not yet, Anna
thought. Seconds only had elapsed. Though she'd lost air on the ill-fated
laughter, she could last another minute, maybe more. There was one
more thing she could try but, should it fail, she'd die. Like you're not
dying now, for Chrissake? a rude voice in her head mocked. Chrissake.
Christ's sake. Whoever or whatever really is God, if you exist, I'm sorry I
never got in touch. Having covered
the eternal bases, Anna blew every bit of air from her lungs, collapsing them
down till the final bubbles were squeezed out. 14 Dear Peg, At
last I have some good news to relate. First and foremost: rain! We have so
desperately needed it and have been teased by seemingly endless storms that
brought nothing but high seas and drying winds. For four days
it rained. The lighthouse keeper (who keeps records of all things
meteorological for the army) said we got seven and three quarters inches. The
cisterns are filled and we've bathed, washed our hair and laundered our
clothing. Till coming to live on Garden Key I had not known what a blessing it
is to be clean. Out here one begins to think constant itching and irritation in
areas both public and private are simply how God ordered the world. The only ones
not put in a happier disposition by this recent deluge are Dr. Mudd, our
benefactor, Joel Lane and the unsettling Mr. Arnold. Rain was driven in their
high narrow windows and, though one would not believe it possible seeing the
thickness of the ramparts, seeped in through walls and ceiling. The brick and
mortar became so saturated, for a clay and a half after the skies cleared it
continued to "rain" in their casemate. The cells became ankle-deep in
water. We had to raise Joel's bedding on a pallet of loose brick to keep it
dry. Joel has
regained partial use of his right thumb. He was cheerful enough to make jokes
about surviving the war only to drown in bed. When last I was at the cells,
both Mr. Arnold and Dr. Mudd were busying themselves by chiseling drainage
ditches in the cement of the flooring so they'll not again be flooded. Unlike other
prisons, it is not unusual for the men incarcerated here to be given tools.
Indeed many have complete freedom of the island. Without a boat, escape is
impossible. The discomfort
of the conspirators aside, the rain brought the feel of a new beginning and,
so, hopes to the garrison. Thirty-seven of the confederate soldiers were
released and given passage to Key West. Seeing the exodus begin put the others
in high spirits. A lessening of the hostility and the burden of overseeing so
many men passed these good feelings on to the guards. Colonel
Battersea—remember me telling you of him? He's the confederate officer who
befriended Joseph at West Point and became a prisoner here. His wife was ailing
and he wished an early release. Though he tried, Joseph was unable to get it
for him. Well, not a week ago he managed to escape. How, I don't know. It is
suspected he stowed away on one of the ships that docked during the confusion
when the conspirators were brought. Joseph did all the things duty required,
but I could tell he was glad the colonel was never found. Into this
holiday mood came the Quinterra under Captain Johns. Captain Johns and
his crew come to the island twice each year, and he and Joseph have formed a
fast friendship. As captains, they have few outlets for conversation among
equals. To make him welcome, Joseph suggested a dance with the garrison band
making the music. Captain Johns kindly offered the use of the Quinterra for
the festivities. Oh, Peggy, you
cannot imagine how we looked forward to getting off this teeming pile of brick
and sand! I didn't know how much I longed to escape until the opportunity was
presented. You would have thought I'd been chained in the dungeon itself, away
from light and air for a hundred years. Tilly, at sixteen, couldn't have been
any more excited than I. We would go out to sea only a mile or more—not even
out of the sight of the battlements—but the women of the fort—including old
Mrs. Farrow, the lighthouse keeper's mother-in-law—decided we were going to make
the evening as fine as we could. Our officers needed a return to civility as
much as we did, and while we pestered the laundresses with our skirts and fancy
sleeves, they tried to bribe them away with money, rum or promises of love to
get them to attend to their dress uniforms. Molly, ever
proper, saw to it Tilly was sent to Fort Jefferson with one good gown. It had
lain in Tilly's trunk, folded in the tissue she'd used to pack it, there being
no need for anything finer than ordinary day dresses. My gown was sadly out of
fashion but, if noticed, it will be forgiven. Most of the women here are in the
same situation as I, and a couple have been here longer. My blue taffeta
is cut well and drapes beautifully off the shoulder, and even at my advanced
age I can customarily turn a head or two of the older—or more myopic—men, but
once we'd completed our lengthy toilette I knew I could have gone in a pair of
Joseph's old work trousers for all the attention I might expect. Tilly was
stunning. The dress, a rich bronze that carried light with it, exposed her
shoulders and as much of her bosom as was decent. The browning of her skin,
unavoidable in this climate, rather than making her look coarse as it would any
mortal woman, coupled with the coppery tint of the dress, turned her to gold.
Even I, who had witnessed the curling rags, the pins and the petticoats in need
of repair, had my breath snatched away when she turned from admiring herself
and curtseyed to me. Knowing myself
to have been effectively rendered invisible, I took those gold and lapis combs
you gave me on my eighteenth birthday out of my hair and put them in hers and
handed over my good fan. She was so lovely, even knowing it was Tilly with all
her pouts and pets and passions underneath, one was moved to make offerings. "Let's go
show Joel and Dr. Mudd," Tilly said. That, of
course, was an exceedingly bad idea, but she'd asked it while I was still in
thrall to her startlingly new and totally womanly elegance, and I simply
followed her like lady-in-waiting to the queen. My wits
returned as I trailed her up the spiral stairs leading from the ground floor to
the second, then the third tiers. The rustle of the taffeta as her skirts swept
over the steps put me back twenty years—twenty-two—to my first grand ball. I
doubt you'll remember, but I have forgotten nothing. My gown was of scarlet
silk, and I met Joseph. Stumbled over him nearly. He was shooting dice with two
other bored lieutenants in a dark corner of the upstairs veranda. "Tilly,"
I called up to her. "Stop at the top of the stairs. I need to speak with
you before we go any farther." The light rhythmic shush of her soft-soled
slippers on the stairs increased. For a moment I thought she meant to run away
from me—not in wickedness or disobedience but just in the playful way of girls
giddy with the sudden knowledge that they are grown, gowned and gloriously
pretty. To my relief
she did as she was bid. The climb was not long, but both of us were corseted as
tightly as whalebone and Luanne's strong hands could make us, and we were in
need of a moment to catch our breath. I had recovered
sufficiently to explain to Tilly why we must go back, meet the others at the
dock, when I heard footsteps approaching. Though the usual ring of heels
reinforced with iron was replaced with the gentle tap of leather-soled dancing
pumps, the military stride gave his identity away. "Joseph."
I turned and, Tilly behind me, watched him come. The sun was near the horizon,
the light burnished and saturated with color as though it passed through honey.
Each of the brick arches separating the casemates threw its own shadow. Joseph
passed from shadow to light, back straight, hair as shining and black as the
day we married, the brass of his sword scabbard, buckle and buttons polished
and gleaming, he looked very much a hero from one of the old books. Had he been
on horseback, I believe I might have swooned. As is his wont,
he brought me back from my dreaming posthaste. "And just
what in hell do you think you are doing up here dressed like that? Where do you
think you are, woman? I'll not have you—" I believe he
was sufficiently wound up with the excitement of the dance and his
responsibilities for seeing that all came off in a way that would bring honor
to both Captain Johns and Fort Jefferson that he might have gone on berating me
for some time. Knowing full well I was every bit the idiot he took me for, I
would have stood and taken it, too. Fortunately Tilly saved us from having to
play out the entire scene. "Uncle
Joseph, it was my fault," she insisted and stepped out from behind me into
the light of the setting sun. Joseph abruptly
fell silent. It wasn't her assumption of responsibility. Joseph knows better
than I that ultimate responsibility falls at the feet of the man—or in this
case, woman—left in charge. Seeing Tilly in her evening splendor and drenched
in the fairy light that had my heart spinning when I saw him approach had
struck him dumb. You would have
laughed to see his face. Years fell away. His lips, often a bit cruel these
last years, softened to the sensuous line that so captivated me as a girl, and
his eyes widened like a child's. The transformation was so quick as to be
comical. It made me want to cry rather than laugh, though I cannot tell you
why. "My
lady?" he said and held out his arm. Tilly took it and he escorted her
back to the stairs. My lapse in
judgment had brought us to no harm, and Tilly's new gown saved me from having
to withstand a tongue-lashing, however deserved. I told myself to be grateful;
count my blessings. Despite the
inauspicious start, the evening was everything our joint wishes and those of
the officers and crew of the Quinterra could have wished. We dined in
the crew's mess (the captain's being too small to seat us all). The ship had
been cleaned and buffed till the fine old wood of the hall looked rich rather
than tired, and the tables had white linens. The food was good enough, and by
fort standards, excellent. Captain Johns provided the wine. It was from New
York State but surprisingly good. We danced on
deck. The crew had hung lanterns from the rigging. The night was clear and full
of stars, and the band in excellent form, making our makeshift ballroom more
romantic than any well-appointed hall lit with candles. As she deserved to be,
Tilly was the belle of the ball. I watched her carefully but I needn't have.
She was having far too good a time being admired and fawned upon by thirty
adoring swains to sneak off with any one of them. And, too, Joseph never took
his eyes off of her and cut in a time or two when a partner held her too
closely. The men
outnumbering the women five to one, none of the rest of us had reason to
begrudge Tilly her conquests. We were all danced off of our feet, and, near
three in the morning when time came to go back to the tort, all but the
youngest and strongest among us were ready to do so. Night had grown
so still it was decided that rather than raise sail and bring the ship back
into harbor, the party from the fort was to be rowed back in the Quinterra's
dinghies. There were but twenty-two of us in all, and we fit snugly in
three boats along with crew to row us home. But for Tilly's
misguided enthusiasms the trip would have been a lovely and peaceful end to a
wonderful evening. I was sandwiched between Mrs. Dicks, the lighthouse keeper's
wife, and her mother, Mrs. Farrow. Mrs. Farrow is a trial at the best of times.
This night she'd stayed out late and drunk too much of the captain's good wine.
One might have hoped this combination would have sedated her and the most we'd
be called upon to do would be to keep the old harridan from falling asleep and
tumbling into the sea. Unfortunately being tipsy and overtired only served to
agitate her nerves. She fidgeted so the boat rocked, and actually pinched me
twice to make me move over as though her derriиre hadn't already claimed a good
half of the seat we three shared. Tilly and
Joseph sat on the bench in front of us. The moon was very low—near to
setting—but there was still much light from stars and sea. The moon had the
effect of turning Tilly from the shimmering golden girl of sunset into a lovely
silver statue. Well, not a statue. Miss Tilly was as vivacious and lively as
she had been when the evening began. At first her
chatter was of the ball and the sailors with whom she danced, the clever things
said and witty rejoinders made. As she was the youngest in our lifeboat by a
good twenty years, all but Mrs. Farrow seemed to enjoy the girlish babble.
Tilly was already well on her way to being a pet of the officers and their
wives. Even Joseph, usually stony faced, was looking at her now and again. In
profile I read an indulgent smile on his lips, and he kept his arm protectively
about her waist lest her excessive reenacting of the waltzes hurl her over the
gunwale. I thought it a
pretty picture of avuncular devotion, but Mrs. Farrow, not satisfied with
merely savaging my upper arm with her bony pinches, leaned close and whispered:
"I'd watch out if I were you. In some societies it's considered the man's
duty to marry the sister if his wife dies." I was so
furious, wondering if anyone would really mind if I pushed the old witch
overboard, that I didn't notice the turn Tilly's prattle had taken till it was
too late to stop it with a few well-placed pinches of my own. It was the cold
that brought me around. Joseph's voice had gone from honey to ice, and it
penetrated the fog of my self-absorption. "The man conspired to murder our
president," he said softly. Tilly, unaccustomed to reading my husband,
must have heard only quiet reasonableness in the words and not felt the
crippling chill underlying them. Either that or her youth and innocence led her
to believe there is such a thing as a friendly argument when discussing
politics. Whatever the
delusion, the little fool went on: "But he didn't," she
insisted. "Dr. Mudd had nothing to do with Mr. Lincoln's death. Oh Joseph,
if only you'd talk to him." Tilly turned sideways the better to clutch
Joseph's arm and make her plea. He turned as well, and I could see the warm and
doting look was gone; the glitter was that of rain turned suddenly to ice. Tilly did not
notice. "Dr. Mudd
was only following his Hippocratic oath to help people, like he's helping Joel.
He is really the most wonderful man. If only you would—" Joseph started
working his jaw the way he does just before he chews someone up into tiny
pieces. "Oh, Tilly, look! A flying fish!" I said. I know it was
silly. I don't even know if they fly at night, but it was what came into my
mind. She didn't even hear me. "—get to
know him. I know you would come to love him as I do." At this I
resorted to Mrs. Farrow's tactics and gave Tilly's shoulder a good hard pinch. "Ouch.
What is it, Raffie?" "A flying
fish," I repeated, my poor wine-sodden brain able to come up with nothing
new. It succeeded in distracting her. She's been wanting to see one of these
wondrous creatures since she arrived. We spent a few minutes gazing out at the
calm surface of the sea where I had pretended to see the phenomenon. Joseph's jaw
stopped clenching, but I knew the disaster had not been averted but merely
postponed. I had seen the flash in his eye when Tilly said she loved Samuel
Mudd and knew my husband well enough to know this was not over. 15 Anna had seen cavers
use the exhalation trick in tight places. They'd expel all the air to shrink
their lung cavity in hopes of squeaking through. She'd believed them insane.
Now she hoped there was at least a grain of method in their madness. The last of her
air dribbled out. Her lungs, mind, every cell in her body was screaming. With
all the power she possessed, she shoved her right arm toward her face. Three
inches were gained. It was enough. Fingers scrabbled on the smooth rubber,
grabbed and the regulator was shoved back into her mouth. Air rushed in, and
for that moment life was good. Closing her eyes, she sucked on the regulator
like a kitten at its mother's teat, at peace to feel the stuff of life flowing
in. Joy was intense
but short-lived. An odd memory of her husband playing Rosenkrantz—or was it
Guildenstern?—in Rosencrantz and Guildenstern Are Dead. "Life in a
box is better than no life at all," the character had said. Anna didn't
agree. Again she
waggled the fingers of her left hand and her neon-flippered feet to let Mack
know she was alive. This time she was not even tempted to laugh. An ugly thought
bloomed in her brain—given her situation, she'd believed it couldn't get
uglier. She was wrong. The engine had not been precariously balanced. Had that
been the case, wild sea horses could not have dragged her underneath it. The instant
before she'd become entombed in coral and cast iron she'd been shaken by a
harsh grating sound, sharp, metal on rock; a pry bar, maybe, levering the
engine from its seating, causing it to shift and fall on her. Who but Mack?
Surely there were not marauding aquamen with crowbars stalking the ocean floors
in hopes of finding idiot women in compromising positions. She stopped
kicking. Perhaps it was unwise to let Mack know she lived. Her lifeline, the
air hose, was a fragile thing, easily pinched or cut. A tapping on
her thigh broke her from this miserable reverie, and she kicked. Maybe Mack was
a murderer—if he was she was a dead woman—but he was the only game in town. The tap turned
to a pat probably meant to be reassuring. Pretending it worked, Anna lay still,
letting the bubbles she breathed out rise through the maze of internal
combustion parts to signify her continuing life. In some peculiar way it was a
relief to realize she was completely and utterly helpless. There was nothing
she could do: no trick, no act, no cleverness of mind. If she was to die, no
fault could be laid at her door. It could not be said she had not been quick
enough or strong enough or smart enough to save herself. To her
surprise, she relaxed. She enjoyed each breath wondering if it was to be her
last, if Mack even now reached for his knife to cut the air hose. Death, so
close, was seductive, welcoming. Perhaps Death was the true possessor of the
phenomena attributed to vampires: if one looked into its eyes one became entranced,
eager for union with darkness. She was still
breathing. It seemed she
lay in this otherworldy peace for an infinity. When she was jerked back to
awareness by the clamor of metal stakes pounding on her iron coffin lid, she
woke with something very like anger. It faded, quickly to be replaced by a more
corrosive and dangerous emotion: hope. Someone—presumably
Mack—was banging about. Working, maybe, with his pry bar to finish the job,
lever the engine off whatever small ledge had saved her life, so she would be
crushed. That made no
sense. Thumb and finger on the air hose for a few minutes would do the trick,
take less energy and leave no clues. Mack was trying to save her. That made no
sense either. Why try kill to her, then try to save her? So he could look the
hero? Don't worry
about it, she told herself. The rescue attempt will probably kill you
just as dead. Lifting a massive weight wasn't easy, even underwater. Should
the load shift or slip, she would be pate for the fishes. The hypnotic pull of
death had been broken, and now Anna was afraid. Her body pressed and cramping,
the engine cutting where it mashed against the back of her hand, immobility,
the small half-lighted space before her eyes, all this crawled into mind and
bone till she wanted to fight, to scream and flail. She could do none of these
and watched inwardly as panic turned to acid and tried to melt her resolve not
to fight. Clanking near
her head grew louder. Sound coming through iron and skull to join with the
shriek of soul and cells. Above her face motes in the water moved. The
cast-iron ceiling of her world began to shift, lift ever so slightly. Before
she could move or breathe, strong hands clamped around her ankles. Grind
changed to a shriek. Her claustrophobic world kaleidoscoped. Anna had an
instant to wonder if she was dying or going mad. Black sky moved. Her back and
sides scraped over the coral canyon forming her shroud. The regulator was
ripped from her mouth. Vision swam in bubbles and particles of once-living
plants and animals. Caught in this vortex, she didn't fight to keep the scrap
of rubber that fed life to her one lungful at a time but let the world change,
watching it with a timeless fascination. Then light. She
was out. The engine rolled, teetered, then crashed back down on the place from
which she'd been so abruptly delivered. A hand was on her arm, Mack's face
close, his thumb jerking upward. Newborn and
free, Anna came back into herself and kicked for the surface to erupt into sun
and air. Ripping off mask and snorkel, she let them sink away from her. Though
it was foolish, she could no longer bear to have anything covering her face.
She kicked off her fins, and they, too, fell away. Then her weight belt,
unbuckled, sank like a stone. Hands were
grasping, pushing, pulling her up. Scrabbling, she tumbled over the gunwale and
onto the boat's deck. No longer could she bear anything against her skin; she
clawed at her zipper and fought to free herself of her dive skin. The nylon
suit caught and tangled over the booties and she kicked and cried out. Daniel
and Mack moved to strip the suit and booties off. Twice she kicked the men
helping her, but she couldn't stop herself. At last she
wore nothing but her swimsuit and still it was too much. Ripping it off, she
pushed away the hands that would have steadied her, lashed out at the legs
standing between her and the sun. Like a panic-stricken cat, she hissed and
clawed till she was alone on one side of boat, Mack and Daniel cowering on the
other. Space around
her, she stopped the struggle. She breathed. She began to shake so badly she
had to sink to the deck to keep from tumbling overboard. Snot ran from her
nose. Naked and gasping and crying and swearing, she sat in a wet heap until
the fit passed. As she quieted,
so did the world. Only the lap of waves against the hull gentled the silence.
She let her head drop back against the side of the boat. "Whoo,
boy," she said to no one in particular. "Not my idea of a good
time." The men said
nothing. Anna focused her eyes on them and smiled at their horror-stricken
faces. Her brain had
broken. Never would she admit that. Too scary. Too alien. Panic would come
back. "Sorry," she said. "I guess I needed some space." Another silence
was lapped away by the sea. Mack was the first to break it. "Are you
hurt?" He asked like he genuinely cared, like her hurt was his hurt.
"I saw your hand wiggling and your feet kicking and I was afraid you were
hurting. Are you hurting? Did it hurt you?" His very real,
white-lipped anguish at the thought she'd suffered pain took away any residual
suspicion she harbored that he was the cause of her recent incarceration. "I'm not
hurt," she said. "Good.
Good. That's good." Mack's relief
was evident. And exaggerated, unless he had loved her pure and chaste from afar
all these weeks. She doubted that, but was grateful for the concern. "You
okay?" Daniel asked warily. "I
guess." Anna leaned her head back but didn't close her eyes. The harsh
glare of the sun, the impossible blue of the sky, the infinite miles and years
of space above and around her were heaven. "You maybe
want to put something on?" Daniel asked. "Sure."
Anna didn't move. He took off his
shirt and tossed it to her. Anna did not slip her arms into the sleeves or
button it but used it like a blanket to cover her nakedness. She was not being
coy. Any form of confinement, however benign, was too much to contemplate. The
freaky sense of doom licked at her brain again. What the fuck is wrong with
me? she screamed, but only in her mind. "What
happened?" she asked. "The
engine shifted," Mack said. "Why?" "I don't
know." He looked at her when he said it, voice and face way too earnest,
eye contact too firm. He knew. Or he knew something. Could there have been a
third party with them, one she'd not seen? Had Mack done something careless or
stupid that he did not wish to take responsibility for? Anna decided to
let it pass. There would be time enough later to worry at the details. "Then
what?" "You were
wiggling. I thought you were hurting. I came up and told Daniel." Mack wasn't one
for edifying detail or embroidering a story. "We didn't
know what you were suffering," Daniel took over. "Didn't know if we
had time to get equipment for a safer lift. Mack hooked the anchor to the
engine and I pulled with the boat." "When it
lifted a little I yanked you out," Mack finished. Stripped of
emotion and "what ifs," it sounded absurdly simple. "I'm glad
you did," Anna said. "Thanks." Mack just
looked away, embarrassed, maybe. "Don't mention it," Daniel said
politely. Twice now Anna'd
been rescued on this same wreck. She hated being the victim, hated being
beholden and was fast coming to hate water sports. "I'll get
your stuff," Mack said. "Fins, mask—you dropped them." Before Anna
could protest, he was over the side. It was in her mind that she would never
again venture into water deeper than that in a bathtub, but she knew she would,
and soon. A horror left untreated had a nasty habit of becoming a phobia. He was gone for
what seemed like a very long time, but Anna didn't mind. Above water,
breathing, she worked to settle her mind. Put on clothes. Stop acting
crazy—crazy like Lanny. Daniel respected her silence and busied himself
organizing equipment till Mack returned with her BC, tank, mask, fins and
weight belt. Having dumped the stuff on deck, he sat on the gunwale staring at
her. "You're
scarred," he blurted out apropos of nothing. The compassion in his face
and voice robbed the declaration of rudeness. Anna did not
need a moment to figure out what he meant. For nearly ten years she'd borne the
jagged, shiny, pink line across her chest from above her left nipple to her
right armpit, but she'd never grown so accustomed to the disfigurement that she
forgot she had it. It was the deciding factor in the purchase of all bathing
suits and some tops: was the neckline high enough to cover the scar? It took an
effort, but she did not reach up, trace the mark with her fingers, nor did she
give in to the need to tug Daniel's uniform shirt up to cover it. "I'm
scarred," she agreed. "How did
you get it?" Anna searched
Mack's face, looking for the avid curiosity, the touch of the vicarious ghoul
that usually accompanied the question. What she found was an old pain and what
looked to be a genuine concern, perhaps even fondness, for her. Maybe saving
someone's life did that. The Chinese said once you saved a life you became
responsible for it. Or perhaps the vicious scar on her chest made her a member
of the club, a victim brutally marked as Mack had been marked by the whip. Resentment and
revulsion boiled up in Anna, and she looked away for fear he would see it in
her eyes. The feelings were base, unworthy, unfair, but she couldn't help
feeling angry that she, too, might be considered a victim, a helpless child
once tortured. For a fleeting moment she tasted the shame Mack had carried all
of his life. It shook her enough she could banish the most uncharitable of her
illogical thoughts. "A fish
gaff," she said and was able to refrain from adding that she'd gotten it
in a fight, a fight she'd won. "Where'd you get yours?" Tit for tat.
I'll show you mine if you'll show me yours. His face, till
now uncharacteristically open, his emotions as easy to read as those of a
child, slammed shut. "Prison," he said. Then: "Are we about
finished here? I've been off the clock for thirty minutes." Anna wasn't
going to get any more out of him, and she didn't want to try, not really. She'd
felt enough of his shame not to want to stir it up again in either one of them.
Floggings in prison had gone the way of the passenger pigeon, and the fine cut
marks on his back and legs had faded as only scars received before one comes
into their growth can. If it took a fantasy for Mack to hold his head up, Anna
wasn't going to be the one to dismantle it. Ripping open old wounds was best
left to sociopathic relatives and psychiatrists. "I'm done
here," she said. "Salvage can do the rest." The men
politely busied their eyes elsewhere as she wriggled back into her swimsuit
lest she frighten the tourists or the fishes. Back at the
dock on Garden Key, equipment stowed in the room behind the ladies' lavatory,
Mack offered to take care of Anna's dive skin and snorkel equipment. The
concern was again in his face, but it had gone flat, like a smile held too long
for the camera. Anna declined
and was surprised at the look of disappointment, disappointment so intense it
bordered on annoyance. "C'mon,"
he said, and it was dangerously near a whine. "You've got to be
about wore out. Let me help you." If being hounded by Mack's good
intentions was the price of having her life saved, Anna figured she'd gotten
the good end of the deal, but maybe not by much. This new eagerness to be
nursemaid was already wearing on her nerves. Gratitude and
kindness urged her to hand over her suit and gear if he needed to be of service
for some unfathomable reason. She rose above them. "Nope. I'll do it. But
thanks," she added. After all, she did owe him her life. It was nearly
six by the time she let herself into her quarters. Piedmont met her at the
door, complaining of abandonment and starvation. Not for the first time she
marveled at how one small cat can so fill a place with life. Despite the
loneliness of this posting, the unexpected addition of a cat made it home; a
single furry welcome let her know she belonged. Along with her
salt-soaked dive skin and snorkel gear, Anna dropped the stiff upper lip and
macho facade. Scooping up Piedmont, she began to cry, not the crazed sobs that
had shaken her after her narrow escape but warm tears, the kind that release
tensions too long buried. Holding the old yellow tomcat in her arms as one
might cradle a baby, Anna buried her face in the soft pale fur of his belly and
wept. Piedmont, to
his credit, let her do so for most of a minute. After that he squirmed till she
ceased and desisted. A cat has his pride. Refreshed by
the tears, Anna thanked him and apologized for dampening his fur. For half a
can of Kitty Gourmet Seafood Delight, Piedmont was willing to overlook the
transgression. Dehydrated and
so tired simply remaining upright was an unpleasant chore, Anna grabbed a fizzy
water from the refrigerator and gulped it while leaning over the sink. Again
the stuff was flat. This time she didn't mind too much. Quantity not quality
was what she craved. She could get it down faster unencumbered by carbonation.
Salt water seemed not only to leach moisture from the skin but to pull it from
deeper tissues. She drank till her belly was full and still felt thirsty. The water was
amazingly rejuvenating. After she'd let it soak in for a few minutes, she felt
energy returning. Thus strengthened, she believed she might shower without
risk. In her previous depleted and deflated state it was possible she might
have drowned like the apocryphal turkey in a rain shower. As was her
habit, she dragged her dive gear into the shower with her and rinsed it there.
Mack was easier to thank from a distance, and as she rinsed mask and fins she
thanked him heartily. These accoutrements weren't terribly expensive—certainly
not by sporting goods standards—but she'd found stuff that fit, that worked,
that she genuinely liked and so would have been hard to replace. Momentarily
she entertained herself by starring in an imaginary commercial. "Not only
does this mask not leak under water, it won't leak under an eight-cylinder
engine." She laughed,
partly at her image and partly because she was alive and could create it. The dive skin
was wadded and knotted with a vengeance—Anna's as she'd fought free of life's
unnecessary restrictions. The booties were halfway up the legs, which had been
turned outside in. Both arms were partly inside out, the zipper half down and
the torso stuffed into the seat of the suit. For a short and
silly while, in the confines of the tiny shower stall, wet and naked, she
danced an odd pas de deux with a neon shadow of herself. At length she
got it back into its proper shape and began rinsing the salt water out. The
right sleeve had a lump in it. Wondering what on earth she could have shoved
there during her frenzied striptease, she reached into the springy sleeve. Her
underwater notebook and pen were lodged partway up. Like most underwater tools,
they were worn attached to the body. Anna kept hers tethered to her wrist with
a rubber loop. "Hurray,"
she muttered as she pulled it free. Her ordeal by water and iron hadn't been
for naught; she had the engine's serial number. She pulled the notebook free
and looked at the pad. A fairly neat line of figures was written there. Light
had grown dim, but there was still plenty to read by. She stared at the numbers.
At least she remembered writing numbers. The scratchings on the pad made no
sense. It was as if they were ancient hieroglyphs or musings of a Japanese
calligraphist. As she stared, she could feel confusion rising in her mind, a
cold graveyard fog that robbed meaning from her thoughts. The acid bite of fear
followed it, and the confines of the shower began to shrink, the beat of the
water on her skull to reverberate, deafening her. With a cry she
flung the sodden dive skin and note pad through the curtain, fumbled the water
off and half fell, half stumbled out into the small bath, crowded with toilet,
sink and shower stall. Drying off was out of the question. Dripping, she fled
the closing in of the walls. The bedroom gave no respite. Walls, ceiling, floor
pressed close, squeezing the breath from her lungs. Dragging a long
tee shirt over her wet body, she pushed on into the living area, stepped into
the lemon-yellow flip-flops that lived by the door and fled. Briefly she
leaned against the picnic table, but a sudden terror she'd be found there,
forced to interact with another human being, drove her through the wooden gate
bearing the sign, Employees Only, and into the converging brick archways
leading to The Chapel. No window created by brick tumbling from the edges of a
gun port perforated the end of this bastion, but there was a large break in the
southwestern wall. An alcove in the thick rampart formed a bench seat before a
picture-window-sized break in the brick with a view of Loggerhead Key and miles
of ocean and sky. On hands and knees Anna scrambled onto it, hung her head over
the opening, moat below, sky above, and breathed in the open spaces. Post-traumatic
stress syndrome, she heard Molly say in her head and was comforted. From one class
or another she remembered that flashbacks, sudden overwhelming reliving of the
seminal event, were one of the symptoms. "Post-traumatic stress," she
said aloud to see how it sounded. It sounded good, sane, reasonable. But she
didn't feel much better. The nightmare was back, the sense of parallel
universes, or this universe turned evil, she'd had the night before—surely it
wasn't just the night before? Part of her felt as if it had been years ago—when
reality and visions that sprang from dreams became difficult to separate,
burglars and ghosts intruding upon her peace without differentiation. It was
the same crawling sense of insanity that had left her naked and sobbing in
front of the maintenance men. Creepiness, not
quite yet anxiety but headed in that direction, prickled up her back and over
the top of her head. To normalize it, she scratched her scalp with all ten
fingers, shaking water from her hair. The scraping of
a foot over mortar dust and brick injected an icy needleful of terror into her
gut. Had she made the noise? Moved inadvertently? Anna's head was still in her
hands and she was afraid to take it out, afraid to look up. She knew an
apparition watched her from the shadows where the brick-on-brick vaults folded
into total darkness before opening into the casemates along the northern side
of the fort. Surely if she
didn't look, didn't see, whatever it was would not exist. Like a tree falling
in the forest, if a ghost went unseen did it really exist? "Nothing
is there, for fuck's sake," Anna shouted into the bend of her elbows.
"Okay. On three. One. Two. Three." Letting her hands slide down the
sides of her face, still holding on lest her head begin to rotate and spit
green bile or something equally alarming, she looked into the premature night
beneath the knit of ceiling arches. Nothing but
darkness. Nice quiet friendly darkness. No boogeymen, no dead relatives. "See?"
she said. Having conversations with herself didn't make her question her
sanity. She'd lived in New York City too many years for that. Many of the
finest people in Manhattan talked to themselves. At some point
during this fit of weirdness, she had folded herself up as small as possible,
knees under her chin, heels up against her butt, elbows tucked in. With a
conscious effort, she unfolded and stood up. Insanity didn't run in her family.
She needed to talk to Lanny Wilcox. Now. Determination
vanished as she stood in the growing shadows and realized she hadn't the
faintest idea how to get out of this maze of black arches and blind passages.
"Of course you do," she said to bolster her courage. "The fort
just isn't that complex." Hearing it, Anna could not remember if
"complex" was a word or if she'd simply uttered a jumble of sounds.
The fear, momentarily at bay, rushed back. In a science
fiction book she'd read once, a man had recited "rented a tent, rented a
tent" over and over in his head, creating white noise to keep the Thought
Police from getting through to his deeper knowledge. Hoping it would serve as
well to keep insane thoughts from clouding her mind with terror and confusion,
Anna mentally chanted the words and began to walk. The direction
was irrelevant. Fort Jefferson was roughly circular. No matter which way she
went, she would eventually reach an open casemate, a spiral stairway, and she would
be back in the real world. Choosing not to think about what she might meet on
her way, Anna walked straight-backed and resolute into the inky darkness of the
northwestern bastion. When she
reached the darkest center, the place where many arches knit together overhead,
a place she knew from memory, the ceiling lost now in darkness, Anna left-off
trailing her fingers along the brick for guidance. Back to the
wall, she sat down and waited for them to come. 16 My Dearest Peg— At long last I
received your letter. The mail, slow always, reaches Fort Jefferson only when
weather and the capriciousness of the Union Army permits. Had not Mrs. Teller
taken it upon herself to (yet again) interfere in family affairs, I expect
Molly would have kept her illness from all of us. This once I am grateful to
the old biddy. I only wish I could come home. It is clear now why Tilly was
sent to me; not "hoydenish ways" but Molly looking ahead as she
always has. I'm glad she is being cared for by the Sisters of Mercy. The convent
is where she is most at peace. Peace is
something I think of a great deal of late because there is so little of it to
be had here. The constant clamor of construction, drill, the testing of the
munitions, the coarse clatter and shout of a thousand men squeezed into a tiny
space, the endless high-pitched fussing of the sooty terns on Bush Key next
door: I have grown so accustomed to it it is as the roar of the sea on the
Massachusetts shore, underlying my days and informing my dreams. Tilly's
clamorous passion rises above this cacophony. Despite much effort and the
occasional cross word, I cannot ignore it and she cannot forbear speaking of
it. Dr. Samuel Mudd and his "innocence" have become an obsession with
her. An unhealthy hobby in this political climate. I finally convinced her to
refrain from bringing up the subject in Joseph's hearing, but now and again she
cannot resist slipping in a plea for her cause. Then I must live with my
husband's icy looks and stony silence for half a day. Joel is much better.
He walks now and will recover complete use of his right hand, Dr. Mudd tells
us, and possibly his left, though the thumb was more severely damaged. His nose
was twice broken—or more—and, having been left so long untreated, heals
crookedly. This and a scar beneath his right eye will commemorate this beating
for the remainder of his life. With his spirits returning, he is still an
attractive man, though no longer as handsome as he was. Tilly's
affection for him has settled from that of a lovesick girl to that of a friend,
sister and nurse. Whether this is a maturing of genuine love or a cooling of
ardor I cannot tell. I would rather she returned to making calf-eyes at her
soldier. It was less alarming than her new quest. Her fixation on
Dr. Samuel Mudd does not appear to be romantic in nature, and the doctor seems
devoted to and speaks warmly of his wife back home. Hero worship might be
nearer the mark. The doctor has a forceful personality and an inner strength
that is compelling. He spends much of our time together speaking quietly and
convincingly of his innocence. Tilly, wide-eyed and innocent, drinks in his
words as if they were the stuff of life and has become enamored with the idea
of winning his freedom. Over these last
days most of her sentences begin with: "Dr. Mudd said..." or
"Dr. Mudd told me..." or "Dr. Mudd didn't..." I have had to
deliver more than one hard kick under the table to distract her as any mention
of Samuel Mudd from her sends Joseph into an arctic mood. If these
northern tempests were confined to our quarters I think I might be able to calm
the waters, but Tilly has not been circumspect even when out of doors. So full
is she with her youthful love affair with truth and justice and the belief that
a pure heart will win over evil (oh how I rue the days we spent reading this
child fairy tales!) that she has carried her quest on her sleeve, prattling
earnestly to all and sundry. Before the
advent of the much-vaunted Dr. Mudd—whom I am coming to detest simply because
Tilly so clearly does not—Tilly was very much the pet of everyone here. Now I
see people turn away when she approaches. I suppose I could live with social
ostracism, but I'm worried that the repercussions of Tilly's wild talk could
cost more dearly. Oh yes, talk. I
forgot to tell you. We finally found out the horrific and treasonous outburst
of Private Lane's that got him in trouble. You would laugh had not the words
gotten the boy beaten very nearly to death. What Joel said was: "I wish
Lincoln had been shot in the street. I've always wanted to play at Ford's. Now
I suppose it will be shut down." Callous perhaps, but he is a boy and an
actor. For this Sergeant Sinapp almost killed him. There is
something going on with the sergeant, and it worries me. His natural
hatefulness—and it must be natural, it goes too deep to be learned; it would
surprise me not in the least were I to find his mother was a black widow spider
who devoured Sinapp Senior moments after Sinapp Junior was conceived—anyway his
natural hatefulness has changed into something more menacing. Before he was
much like a vicious dog on a strong chain. He would leap and snarl but the
chain (firmly held by Joseph, his commanding officer) kept him from harming
most people. Now it is as if
that chain is gone. He stalks and snaps as if devilishly gladdened by the
knowledge that when he chooses to strike, nothing will stop him. The day before
yesterday Tilly and I were taking food and fresh water to Joel. To regain his
health Joel needs to have all we can provide in the way of fresh vegetables,
meat and fruit. Joseph would have our heads if he knew we pilfered from his
larder to fatten a Johnny Reb. The sergeant
was standing guard over a group of prisoners—mostly union deserters from
Pennsylvania and New York—who were working on the new shot oven as Tilly and I
crossed the parade ground with our little basket of purloined tomatoes. Sinapp saw us
and left his post, swaggering in our direction. I know it was just a fancy, but
I swear I could smell his smile, feel it like whiskery horse lips on the
back of my neck. Tilly and I walked faster, and I'm sure it gave him pleasure
to think we were afraid of him. I lad he known it had more to do with revulsion
than fear, he would not have smirked so. He caught up
with us just as a soldier was unlocking the door to Joel's cell for us. He
followed us inside and told the soldier assigned to chaperone our visit to
leave. Sinapp closed the wooden door, then stood with his back to it, letting
us know that we were trapped, as imprisoned and helpless as the three
confederates who shared the cells. After the
brilliant fog of dust and sunlight, the casemate was so dim it took a minute
before I could see properly. When I could, I longed for the sun-blindness I'd
enjoyed moments before. In all his thickness, Sinapp leaned against our only
avenue of escape. "I thought I'd come by and have a piece of that nursing
you ladies been giving Jeff Davis's boys." The way he said
"nursing" would have made any woman cringe. Lest we miss his filthy
point, he began stroking himself. Truly, Peggy, the man stood before us, his
sticky eyes on Tilly, and petted the front of his trousers as though a small
dog lay there. Which, perhaps, is exactly the case. In all the years I have
spent living in a world populated by men—and many of the roughest sort
imaginable—I have never seen such a display. Had I been told of it, I would not
have believed. Oddly I was not alarmed immediately, just paralyzed by that
horrible embarrassment one gets when one has the preacher over to afternoon tea
and the dog mistakes the vicar's leg for a bitch in heat. "Good God,
man, have a care!" Mr. Arnold said. He had come to the doorway connecting
the cells while I stood transfixed. Sinapp heard
Mr. Arnold, I could tell by the change in his face—a slight shifting of the
sides of beef that pass for cheeks. If someone spoke to me as Mr. Arnold spoke
to the sergeant (and for such reprehensible behavior) I should have sunk into
the brick for shame. Sinapp did not. Apparently the man has no higher instincts
with which to compare his baseness. Indeed this very baseness seems to be a
matter of pride with him, coarseness being a skill he has honed to a fine
point. Using it to skewer others gives him a tremendous sense of
accomplishment. He laughed, a
warm rumbling sound that in another man I might find pleasing, and, to the
immense relief of those of us trapped in this theater of his making, ceased
rubbing his trouser front. It is not my custom to stare at men below the waist,
but because Sinapp had so purposefully called our attention to this part of his
anatomy, I couldn't but notice his lewd thoughts and clumsy manipulations had
caused a like erection beneath his trousers. Retelling this
story in the safety of my own bedroom, knowing Tilly is snug and sleeping and
Joseph working at the desk in the hall adjacent, I cannot but see it for the
absurd incident it was, with Sergeant Sinapp as the leading character, a clown;
a dark clown but a clown with buffoonery and exaggerated features all
the same. In Joel Lane's cell I was not amused, nor were my
"companions." I was frightened, as I believe were Dr. Mudd and even
the cynical and unflappable Mr. Arnold. Joel was terrified, his body and mind
knowing the depth of Sergeant Sinapp's power and cruelty. Tilly alone was unafraid.
Angered by his manner, even if not completely aware of his meaning, she set her
basket down with a thump. "We have every right to be here," she
declared before I could stop her. Joel stepped
between Tilly and Sinapp. A small thing this one step, but it spoke of such
courage even in that airless room with the reek of Sinapp clogging my thoughts,
I felt my heart swell. This one good
and decent moment was not allowed to stand. The sergeant
leapt forward. After his posing and posturing, the speed of his movement
startled. It was as if he'd become more than human, vanishing from his place by
the door and reappearing, his face but inches from Joel's. Fist closed, he
backhanded Joel, a blow from his knuckles and wrist striking the boy from ear
to chin. Joel fell as one dead. Tilly screamed
and hovered, undecided whether she should drop down beside her patient or fly
at his attacker. None of us had time to so much as breathe before Sinapp
decided for her. Arms struck snake-like, fingers biting into her upper arms. I
do not know what he meant to do. Kiss her perhaps, though that seems a gentle
thing compared to the violence in his face and body. Even he could not have
intended to ravage her there and then on the floor of the casemate with the
three of us in witness. "That's
quite enough," I said and moved to Tilly's side. He didn't loose her, so I
slapped him hard enough it stung my palm. Violence begets violence. He let go
of Tilly with one hand and drew back to strike me. Tilly and I had backed up
till our shoulders were nearly touching the brick of the archway separating
Joel from Dr. Mudd and Sam Arnold. I could not run, nor could I duck. The blow, which
I believe would have felled me as surely as it had Private Lane—who had neither
stirred nor made a sound since he went down—didn't come. Mr. Arnold caught the
sergeant by the wrist. In that moment
it came to me that the rules of honor were written by men. I took this
opportunity to punch Sinapp in the eye with all the force I could muster. I hit
him so hard I cried out as loudly as he when the bones of my hand met those of
his face. In shock or blind fury he let loose of Tilly's other arm. "Go
now," came a soft voice so close to my ear I felt the hair stirred by his
breath. Mr. Arnold's dark eyes were fixed on mine, and I think he was smiling.
It happened so quickly I cannot be sure of anything. His advice was
sound. I grabbed Tilly and ran for the door. "Bitch,"
Sinapp hurled that at my back. After his bestial behavior, being called names
by such as he was harder for me to take than his physical threat had been. "My
husband shall hear of this," I told Sinapp. He shook off
Mr. Arnold's grip. He said nothing but he smiled at me. I turned and ran after
Tilly, not knowing if he followed or not, not knowing if Joel Lane had died or
still lived. The only thing I did know was that Tilly's hero, Dr. Samuel Mudd,
had made no move to help his patient or to protect Tilly or me. He'd stood back
in the corner where the arch met the outer wall and watched in such a way I wondered
if he were a coward or if things were unfolding as he had hoped and he was
calculating the advantage this show of choler, lust and ill discipline might
afford him. Once Tilly and
I regained the sane light of the parade ground with its homely smells and
familiar sounds of men at work, what ragtag remnants of the fear I'd felt in
the casemate turned to anger, then settled into disgust and, I must admit, a
desire to see Sinapp hanging from one of the trees he was so fond of decorating
with the persons and misery of other men. That evening,
when Joseph returned to quarters, I told him of what his sergeant had said and
done, then settled back to watch the build of the cold fury he displays when
his authority is knowingly thwarted by a subordinate. I do believe it
began to blossom, but within moments a new emotion withered it. Often enough
I've boasted of how well I know my husband, how easily I can read his moods.
This time I could not. Or read too much. A flood of feeling poured into his
face: anger, remembrance, shock, fear, sorrow and—I can scarcely credit this
and would say it only to you—that implosion of thought and soul behind the eyes
that speaks of cowardice. Mind you, I could be wrong. I must be wrong. These
things I speak of seeing with such confidence were all a jumble and over in the
space of two heartbeats. Joseph's face went blank then, the way it looks when
he's been several days without sleep. The way it looked when he knew he would
sit out the war on this island. "Don't put
yourself in the sergeant's way again," he said as if Tilly and I had
caused Sinapp to act as he had. I started to
remonstrate—never wise, I know, but a habit I cannot break—but Joseph stood so
abruptly the small table beside his chair rocked on its feet. "Do as I
say," he snapped. "Or I will not be responsible for what happens to
you." He left me, left our quarters. I heard the door onto the veranda
slam shut. Knowing Joseph,
for reasons I do not understand, has withdrawn his protection from Tilly and
me, that we are very much alone on this too-crowded island, makes me truly and
deeply afraid. 17 The silence
that is unique to the sea out where the tides are nonexistent settled around
Anna with the darkness. Beneath, and at her back, the warmth that never left
the brick throughout the long summer soothed her aching muscles. She waited and
she breathed and she relaxed. Once before she had been in a like situation, and
it had ended badly with a screaming fear that stayed in her mind for years
afterward. She wouldn't think of that. She was older now. Her horrors were
known. She would not invite them in. The first
change was in the light. A last ray of dying sun skipped across the Gulf of
Mexico like a molten stone, piercing the tangle of arches to paint a single
golden stripe no more than an inch wide across the brick of the far wall. As
she watched it grew brighter, pulsed with the rhythm of the sea, the rhythm of
her heart. Light broke away from the stripe in tiny showers, each spark leaving
a contrail as if it were a minute jet airplane flaming out. At length the
light show shimmered into the darkness and was gone. To see if it worked, if
she had any control over what was to happen next, Anna called softly:
"Aunt Raffia?" and waited. Where the last spark had died, a pale shape
began to pool on the floor. Luminosity poured into it from an invisible
pitcher, the form of a woman being filled with light from the boots up the
skirt to shirtwaist, arms, and finally the head, face averted, the hand raised
as before, fingers poking nervously at escaping hairpins. "Be a nice
aunt," Anna whispered to the apparition. "No turning scaley with long
lickety tongues or anything." The figure dissolved and Anna wondered if
she'd taken the fun out of its spectral life by ruling out reptilian metamorphoses. Anna was
tripping. Days before it would have terrified her. Her memories of the bad old
days during the early seventies were not of Lucy in the sky with diamonds but
of the mind-crippling terror of losing her reason. Because she feared that same
thing so recently, it was a relief to know that she was not going mad. She'd
been drugged. It would turn out to be in the plastic bottles of carbonated
water she'd been drinking, introduced, no doubt, by a hypodermic needle. That
was why the water was flat, why there was water on the bottom shelf of her
refrigerator and Lanny's. Whoever was doing the poisoning must have gotten
careless, been rushed and pierced the containers below water line. Tomorrow,
when she'd regained dominance over what gray cells remained to her, she'd call
Wilcox with the good news. If he'd been a straight arrow during his formative
years he would have no way of recognizing this drug-induced insanity. Anna
might not have caught on if she hadn't guzzled nearly a quart of the doctored water
on an empty stomach. When the dark
began to fill with monsters of the id, Anna moved on to a casemate open both to
the sea and the parade ground. Briefly she considered climbing the spiral
stairs to the third level where cannons were still in evidence and the view
rolled away, unfettered by a frame of brick. High places were not a good idea
when one might take it into one's head to fly with the magnificent frigate
birds. She remained where she was. With air and
moonlight and strength of will, she passed the night seeing strange things.
Raffia never reappeared, but as the monsters stayed tucked away in her
subconscious, Anna was satisfied. By sunrise the world ceased to warp and weave,
stars and planets stayed in their orbits. Anna could wave her fingers through
the air and not see ghosts trailing behind them. Her body told
her sleep was now a possibility. Her mind suggested it was not a good
idea. The wall between waking and dreaming, the real and the fantastic, was
still weak. Allowing consciousness to slip away might breach it. She returned
to her quarters to take another shower, staying to rinse the soap from her hair
and body this time. For breakfast she had a coke and half a can of vegetable
soup. What she didn't eat she threw away. Till this thing was over she had no
intention of consuming anything that could have been tampered with. Clean, fed and
in uniform, she felt shaky but ready to face the day. Her first task was to
sort out which bits of the past seventy-two hours were real and which were drug-induced.
When she left her quarters, she locked her door behind her. The first order
of business was getting the engine's serial number tracked down. To that end
she called the Key West Police Department and the coast guard. But for a short
time on Isle Royale in Lake Superior, Anna had little experience dealing with
boats. That, and being denied easy communication with the rest of the world,
decided her to leave the police work to the police. Lieutenant George
Henriquez, her contact on Key West, a man who might have been squat, balding
and pockmarked but who was blessed with the telephone voice of an Adonis, told
her they'd had no luck as yet identifying the John Doe Ranger Shaw had towed to
East Key. They had, however, identified the tattoo on his leg with the help of
a local DEA agent who worked, if not closely then amicably, with the local
police force. He had seen it before on the leg of a Cuban, an illegal alien
arrested for smuggling drugs from Central America across the Gulf of Florida. "More than
that we don't know," Henriquez said. "Could be some kind of gang ID.
A lot of these guys—the low rungs on the totem pole—have that adolescent
mentality. The higher-ups, the brains, know better than to intentionally brand
themselves as criminals." Anna asked him
if he would find out the whereabouts of Theresa Alvarez for her. He grumbled at
having his already considerable workload increased but promised to try.
Enduring another two minutes of conversation aborted then accelerated, then
made simultaneous by the phone delay, Anna gave him what she had gathered about
Lanny Wilcox's erstwhile inamorata. She did not
tell the lieutenant of being drugged, nor would she tell anyone, not for a
while. The only way to be absolutely assured of keeping a secret was to tell no
one. No suspicion attached itself to the Key West police—because of the
repeated and hands-on nature of the poisoning it had to be someone at the fort
or one of the boating regulars who'd learned enough of the ranger's living
situation to take advantage of it. Anna leaned strongly toward the idea that it
was an NPS employee. Who else could move unseen and unremarked upon in a
society as closed as that at Fort Jefferson? She just didn't want a chance
remark or careful question to reveal to someone that she was onto the drugging.
As long as whoever was behind it believed her to be partaking of the
contaminated waters, it was less likely a new approach would be devised. These thoughts
trickling through her mind, she knew she would have to let Lanny Wilcox suffer
the fears of the newly demented a while longer. Should she tell him he had
purposely been made delusional, odds were good he'd begin asking questions,
upsetting her precarious applecart. And he might be
returned to duty and she sent home. Much as she wanted to go, she had no
intention of leaving till she found out who was messing with her mind. That done, she
settled in to find out who had chosen to drive the Dry Tortugas' Supervisory
Rangers mad, and why. The computer
had the most reliable link to the real world, and Anna logged on. For starters,
she ran everyone working on Garden and Loggerhead Keys for wants and warrants.
Mack, the man who'd said he'd earned his stripes in prison, came up clean, not
even an outstanding parking ticket. Daniel had been
arrested twice, once for assault and once for drunk and disorderly. He'd served
three months in the Dade County Jail and been given two years' probation. Both
arrests and convictions were seventeen years old; a misspent youth. Since then,
nothing. Bob, as Anna
expected, was clean. Should she take it into her head to do an illegal search
of his quarters as she had done of Lanny's—though she did have probable cause
unless the will-o'-the-wisp lights and nocturnal moat creature were drug-born
and not of this world—she had little doubt she would find under a bed or high
on a closet shelf a box of merit badges. Probably covering his
years from cub to eagle. By regulation
National Park Service law-enforcement officers were given background checks.
The execution of this had been haphazard at best until it was revealed in a
series of short-lived but unpleasant public-relations nightmares that there
were quite a few gun-toting felons stalking the woods in flat-brimmed Stetsons
and gold buffalo badges. Since then, the various offices of personnel
management in the parks had been more thorough. Most felons in the green and
gray would be those hired way back, probably genuinely gone straight or getting
too old to bother with violent crime. If by some fluke Anna had uncovered a
felony in Bob Shaw's past, unless it had a direct bearing on why she and Lanny
were drugged, what the go-fast boat was up to when it blew up, or why Theresa
Alvarez took a powder, she might not have said a word. She'd spent
much of her adult life catching criminals. Not once had she been accused of
being too soft on them. But, unlike some others in the field of law, she never
quite lost her need for fairness. When a debt to society was paid, all rights
and privileges should be restored: the right to vote, carry arms, protect and
serve. The surprise
was Bob's wife, Teddy Shaw or, as her rap sheet would have it, Theodora Placer
alias Teddy Andrews, Teddy Lee and Lily Lee. Wanting the woman's history, Anna
had run her under her maiden name as it appeared on her VIP application papers:
Theodora Lily Placer. Teddy was thirty-two years old, her last arrest had been
when she was twenty-seven, only months before she became Teddy Shaw and left
her past on the mainland. Or moved her business to the Keys. Anna printed
out what there was and leaned back, deck shoes on Teddy's desk, to read it. The
sudden tilt of the chair startled her. Whatever ball bearing in her head served
to reorient the brain had not fully recovered from the hallucinogen. Either
that or her body cried out for sleep. Throwing
caution to the winds, she put down the printouts and made a pot of coffee.
Surely the water supply for the entire fort hadn't been contaminated. As the
coffee began to percolate, it occurred to her how easy it would be to do just
that, drop acid, ketamine, PCP, Ecstacy, rat poison, kerosene or a dead cat
into the cistern. Easy as pie. Access wasn't difficult; trapdoors big enough to
climb through were set in the cistern's top. The traps weren't hidden and they
weren't locked. Anna clicked
the coffee machine off before the pot was half full. She sat back down at
Teddy's desk and rested her forehead on the pages. For poisoning her, she
wanted to catch the jerk. For denying her morning coffee, she wanted to kill
him. Or her. Reminded
of Teddy Shaw's checkered past, she sat up and once again began to read. Teddy
had been a busy woman. She'd not given up a job as head nurse in the ER; she'd
been fired for stealing prescription painkillers. The judge had sentenced her
to rehab and five years' probation. The second arrest had been for forging
doctors' signatures on hospital prescription pads, stolen from the clinic at
the rehab center. For that she'd served three months. Two and a half years
later she'd broken probation again. This time she was arrested in Philadelphia
for trying to buy Percodan from an undercover narcotics officer. She'd been
sent back into the state jails to serve out the remaining six months of the
original nine-month sentence. Shortly after being released she'd again broken
parole by leaving Pennsylvania for parts unknown. There was a warrant out for
her arrest. After her
release she must have left Pennsylvania for Florida, where she met and married
Robert Shaw and fled as far in the U.S. of A. as she could without having to
tread water. It was a good bet Bob didn't know. The man was such a boy scout he
would have wanted to make things right with the law before he endangered his
career by becoming an accomplice. Then again they seemed very much in love.
Love was a great leveler. Maybe it had enticed Bob to look the other way. Just
this once. Anna set the
papers down and stared longingly at the coffeepot. Not the entire water supply.
Not yet. Why bother when the perpetrator knew Anna was swilling down doctored
fizzy water? She walked over
and punched the "on" button again. Some things were worth the risk.
Watching the coffee drip into the pot, comforted by the gurgles and clicks of
the machine, Anna thought about Teddy. From her long association with the
medical profession by way of her psychiatrist sister, Molly, Anna knew the
terrible flaws in the myth of its superiority. Drug addiction was one of them.
Rehab centers were one of the best places to have a heart attack. A large
percentage of the clients were doctors and nurses. Psychologists were next,
then the usual scattering of strippers, rock musicians and regular citizens. Medical
professionals often worked under great pressure. They were called upon to go
without sleep or to remain alert more hours than the body or psyche could
realistically maintain without help. They had access to drugs, both to buy and
to steal. A good many of them also had the arrogance to believe they could
handle it, would never become dependent. The coffee was
done. Anna mixed in a chunk of Cremora to take the edge off and carried the mug
back to the desk. Her first sip brought that tight sensation to the back of her
neck, fear that she was condemning herself to another few hours where pigs
could fly and beggars ride. Putting the creeps firmly out of mind, she took
another sip to commit herself and returned to her cogitations. If she were
doomed to be a drug-crazed lunatic, at least she would be a wide-awake
drug-crazed lunatic. Teddy had the
knowledge to drug somebody. Chances were good she still had contacts or a
prescription pad she'd squirreled away against future emergencies before she'd
been packed off to jail. If the doctor they worked with on the mainland hadn't
bothered to check too carefully, he wouldn't know her nursing license was revoked—if
it was. There was a possibility the various institutions hadn't communicated
with one another and Teddy could still practice legally. Why would Teddy
want to poison her? Make her believe she was going nuts? Teddy had saved her
life when she'd been knocked unconscious by the second explosion. Not poison just
me, Anna reminded herself. There was Lanny Wilcox. Was it that simple?
Did Teddy think once Lanny was deemed incompetent, her very own hero, Bob Shaw,
would be elevated to the position of Supervisory Ranger? When Anna came on
scene instead had Teddy seen her as merely another obstacle to be removed from
her husband's career path? Though simple
and—given the negligible hike in money and power such a promotion would bring
with it—to Anna's mind potty, as a motive it was not bad. Women ambitious for
the man they loved had done worse for less. The phone rang.
Nearly upsetting her coffee, Anna squawked and flapped in the tradition of
Chicken Little. By the second ring she'd recovered. "Dry
Tortugas National Park." "Anna?" The sound of
her name spoken with the honeyed warmth of a Mississippi drawl brought tears to
her eyes. "Paul,"
she said, not because she was unsure who the caller was but for the sheer
pleasure of feeling his name on her tongue. A thousand years had passed since
she'd thought of him. Mountains had crumbled to dust, seas dried up,
civilizations fallen to ruin, and yet just to hear his voice and say his name
took her back to the good safe times on his living room couch before a fire. Life
ceased to be made of ghosts, iron and salt and became once again a thing of
flesh and blood. "I've been
worried about you, Anna. It's been—" "Listen to
me, Paul. Oh. What? Days since—" "You
haven't answered the phone, no—" "No—Listen—" "What?" "Wait."
Anna stopped talking, letting the line clear of the overlaid clogging of words,
delays and spaces. During the break she soothed herself by saying
goddammotherfuckingphone three times. "I'll
marry you," she said when silence was established. "The sooner the better.
Meet me at the airport with a priest." Another
silence, this one organically grown, filled the line after she'd spoken her
piece. Two seconds, three. Maybe this, too, was a hallucination. The phone
hadn't rung at all. Lost in the wherever of the mind, she'd dreamed the noise,
grabbed at the phone, pressed it to her ear. "Oh,
Jesus," she whispered and threw the coffee into the wastebasket, splashing
her leg and the first two desk drawers. Carefully, she moved the handset away
from her ear. "Anna?"
A tiny voice pushed through the terrible darkness of a thousand miles of
telephone wire and abyss of the microwave. Her hand stopped. She did not hang
up. Neither did she put the phone back to her ear. Time and reality had been
suspended and she was afraid to move, to believe. "Anna, are
you there?" The voice
sounded so lost and alone. Even if Paul had become one more symptom of
impending disaster, she could not leave him unanswered. "I'm here,"
she whispered, realized the receiver was still halfway to the phone, brought it
back to her ear and said again, "I'm here." "I hate
this phone. Did you say you'd marry me?" "I
did." "You sound
funny." "I am
funny." "Anna,
this phone makes me crazy. I'm going to be quiet now and listen. You tell me
what's going on, okay?" "Does the
offer still stand?" Anna asked. "What
offer?" "You asked
me to marry you." "It still
stands. It will stand forever. Maybe lean a little after eight hundred years
like the tower of Pisa, but it will still be standing." "I want to
do it. I want to marry you. Right away. As soon as I get back." Another silence
threatened Anna, but this one was blessedly shortlived. "I would
like that," Paul said carefully. "Right now I need to hear what is
happening to you." Anna told him
everything. Words poured out haphazardly, the plots of her various tales
interweaving, pronouns dropped, sentences with subjects and no predicates.
Chronological order was abused and misused and her emotions colored fact and
fiction alike. She was not a law-enforcement officer making a report, she was a
tired, shaken woman talking to her lover. The drugs with
which she'd been washing down her peanut butter sandwiches had eaten away a
wall she'd not known was still standing. Though only vaguely, she was aware
that she had never talked this way to anyone—or not for so many years she'd
lost count. Not even to her sister. Retaining
control, a degree of professionalism, appearing to be always master of herself,
if not the situation, had been so much a part of her she'd not been aware of it
till it was gone. Never—at least not since the death of her husband Zach and
possibly not before—had she allowed herself to be so vulnerable. This scrap of
knowledge flittered through her mind as she babbled. She tucked it away for
further investigation. Ecstacy, a designer drug that had hit the world running
in the eighties, was said to have an opening effect on the heart and mind.
Ecstacy had come long after Anna's days of seeking recreation and/or
enlightenment with various toxic substances. She had no personal experience to
draw upon. At length she
had, in her uncalculated and fragmented way, told Paul Davidson of the
adventures both physical and metaphysical which had befallen her. He left a
moment's silence and she resisted the temptation to blurt: "Are you still
there?" while the last of her words surmounted whatever delaying obstacle
lay between Fort Jefferson and the rest of the world. "Have you
told me everything?" Paul's voice returned after the expected seconds had
ticked away. From anyone
else—anyone besides her sister, Molly—Anna would have fielded that question
with care; responding to the accusation often cloaked in the words, the
suggestion she was hiding something. In Paul's kind
tones, coming from a mind she was learning was subtly complex but never devious,
she believed the question was only what it seemed. "Everything I can think
of," she told him. "Do you
want me to come out there?" Did she ever.
She'd not thought of it, but when he asked, she knew how desperately she had been
needing exactly that. Someone she could trust. Warm arms to hold her at night.
A fine mind with which to share her great-great-aunt Raffia's letters. A
hard-nosed southern sheriff to keep her from harm. A wise and loving priest to
whom she could confess her sins. The thought of Paul Davidson stepping onto the
dock in front of Fort Jefferson engendered a sensation behind her rib cage that
lent credence to the bard's allusion to hearts taking wing. "No. No
thanks," she said. Supervisory Rangers did not call in their boyfriends to
help out when things got sticky. There would be no faster way to feed her
career to the sharks and her credibility to the endless gossip mill run by the
boys. "You're
sure?" Anna didn't
trust herself to answer. As she'd hoped, he took her silence for an
affirmative. "If you change your mind—" "I
won't." A lie. She'd already done so fifty times in the brief pause
between the asking and the answering. The call went
on as calls between sweethearts do, with professions of love and mutual "I
miss you's," but Anna kept it short lest she weaken and take the White
Knight option. Being a damsel in distress had a dark fascination for her; the
idea of being without responsibility, merely enduring and hoping and—if the
scenario happened to be in a fairy tale—ultimately rescued not only from the
situation but from the specter of loneliness. In real life she'd never had the
guts to try it. Even had she found the courage to wait, to have faith, she knew
she would never have the patience. When things went wrong she couldn't rest
till she'd righted them, or tried to. And, too, self-respecting damsels were
not allowed to kick, spit, shout or swear at their respective dragons.
"Got any guesses as to who might be doctoring my water?" she asked to
get the conversation back on safer ground. "My money
is on Ms. Timothy Leary, R.N.," Paul said. "Poisoning is a woman's
crime traditionally, and the fact that this was not poisoning with intent to
kill or even harm permanently strikes me as additionally female from a
statistics point of view. A way she could safely remove you and
what's-his-name—" "Wilcox." "Wilcox
from her husband's way without feeling guilty about it. It fits in with the
nursing, too. Unless she's got that Angel of Death thing going on, she probably
views herself as a healer, a caretaker. Using a non-lethal drug might tie into
that." "Works for
me," Anna said. Hearing his rationale given in deep, strong tones with
roots deep in the Mississippi clay made her feel calmer, saner. The thoughts he
expressed dovetailed with those she had had in her skittery drug-paranoid
fashion. It was infinitely comforting to know her mind not only worked but had
done so under duress. "Do you
dive? How about that engine on the coral moving?" Asking the question, it
occurred to her that, though she'd known Paul for a year or so, there was a
great deal about him she was not yet privy to. They'd met and courted under
unusual circumstances, what with dead men and living wives underfoot. Even
realizing this, she did not change her mind about matrimony. "Do you know
anything about scuba diving?" she amended her question. "Not as
much as you do," he replied. "But I've had a whiff of high school
physics and I've lifted more than my share of engines in and out of secondhand
pickup trucks. If that motor was seated as solidly as you say it was then it
didn't shift because you put your tiny little self underneath and wriggled
about a bit." "I braced
the heel of my hand on it when I was copying down the serial number," Anna
confessed. Paul laughed.
"Even given the strength of your good right arm, I don't think you could
have shifted that thing. Either it was already unseated or somebody moved
it." Anna had known
that. Of the various neuroses, the one she most lusted after was the one she
could never quite attain: denial. Always, just when she thought she had a
handle on it, a pesky fact or puzzling anomaly would punch a hole in the dike
and reality would pour in. Of course she'd
checked the seating of the motor on its coral bed. Having no desire to be
trapped—or crushed—beneath the engine, she had pushed and shoved and peeked at
its edges to confirm it had reached its final resting place. Without that
reassurance, she could never have tricked her claustrophobic self into
slithering into the crevice beneath it. Then it had
shifted and caught her, nearly killed her. Ergo someone or
something or some event had caused it to move. It was at this
point that logic ceased to work and the practice of denial would have come in
handy. Who or what could have moved the engine? The obvious choice was Mack. As
the only other creature with opposable thumbs within a hundred-foot radius, he
was at the top of the suspect list. With a pry bar and a working knowledge of
levers and fulcrums, he could have managed it. Why he would want to was an open
question, but Anna had always considered herself a pleasant enough person and
relatively harmless. Still, Mack might have his reasons. It was possible he'd
been behind the light in Lanny Wilcox's bedroom window, had known she'd followed
and didn't want her poking her nose into whatever business he'd had there.
Could be he loved her and felt rejected, hated her and felt seduced or didn't
like the fact that she never parted her hair. Why he may have
tried to crush her could be any of a hundred things the human psyche finds
irresistible or intolerable. Given that he had means, motive and opportunity,
if he did it, why not finish the job? Mack had gone to great lengths to rescue
her. There were no witnesses but the fishes. Had he wanted her dead, it could
have been done with thumb and forefinger: no muss, no fuss and no evidence left
behind. Instead he'd worked feverishly to get her out and, once she was safe
and topside, showed a concern for her welfare that Anna did not believe was feigned. Unless he'd
suffered a brief psychotic and homicidal episode, then repented and saved her,
Mack was not her man. There'd been no seismic disturbances, not tsunamis, no
ground swells shifting the sands. According to Daniel, no torpedoes had been
fired, and the only anchor dragged was his when he and Mack had engineered her
release. The tried and
possibly true Sherlockian assertion that once everything possible has been
ruled out, whatever remains, however improbable, is the truth, suggested an
answer. There was
another diver. Anna returned
to her quarters. There was much to think about: the second diver, the
whereabouts of Theresa Alvarez, Teddy Shaw's proclivity for drugs, two sunken
vessels and one accepted proposal for marriage. The first four she would attend
to in due time. The fifth she was oddly content with, pleased, excited even.
Marrying Paul Davidson felt as warm and light and supportive as this southern
sea when first tumbled into. If like dangers to life and limb lurked in the
connubial depths, so be it. Tired as she
was, she sat down with her great-great-aunt Raffia's letters. In a way she
hoped the affects of the hallucinogen had not completely worn off. The drug had
given her a heightened connection to Raffia: reading the letters was as poignant
as speaking to the dead. 18 Dear Peg— I was in the
downstairs parlor—it's quite a gracious room and used by all the officers and
their wives on occasion—restuffing the pillows with moss some of the soldiers
gather and sell to their fellows to make mattresses. The moss is not so
comfortable as a feather bed, but it has the advantage of being cheap and
easily available. In a place where one's bedding mildews and is subject to
becoming a home for creatures that bite, being able to stuff pillows anew is
almost a necessity. I was called from this mindless task by a shrieking as of
fishwives. I ran upstairs
to see who was murdering whom and found Tilly and Luanne in a tug-of-war over a
skirt. Luanne was in one of her stubborn moods. They come upon her when she is
doing her duty as she declares, "In a right and God-fearing way," and
one of us has the temerity to interfere with her. Tilly, who has been raised
properly and ought to know better, had worked herself into a tear-streaked
state of shouting and pulling. With some difficulty and a bit of fishwifery of
my own, I managed to wrestle the garment from them before they tore it into
pieces. Because Luanne
is older and has not had the advantages that Tilly has, I let her tell her side
first. "I gathered up the laundry like I done every Tuesday since I
started doing for you," she told me. Despite the odd use of language the
slaves have adopted, her indignation gave her dignity. Tilly began to behave
less like a wild animal and have the decency to look a little ashamed of herself.
"I got this dirty old skirt out from under Miss Tilly's bed where it's got
no business being. It got foods on it and now she got it crumbled and all over
with dust. I was taking it with the rest to see to it, and out she comes screaming
I was stealing. I never stole nothing in my life." Stealing, in
the life that Luanne was given, the life of a slave, was a serious accusation.
Where she had come from she would have been beaten or worse for theft. "Matilda,
what have you got to say for yourself?" I demanded. I sounded so much like
Molly at that moment you would have laughed or cried to hear me. Tilly had the
grace (or the very sensible fear of my wrath) to apologize to Luanne. "There's
something in the pocket I need to have back," she said as if this
explained her outrageous exhibition. "Why
didn't you simply ask Luanne to take it out of the pocket and give it to
you?" I asked reasonably. I added the "reasonably" because I am
inordinately proud that, given the embarrassment I was suffering because of our
sister, reason did not come easily at that moment. "It's
mine," Tilly stated. Well, that was
no sort of an answer at all. I waited for the rest of the explanation but it
was not forthcoming. Luanne, her blood still up from the unwarranted attack on
her character, started in again with "I never took" etc. etc. Not
wishing to be drawn back into it, I cut her off. "Why
didn't you just ask?" I repeated to Tilly. Tilly lost her
prettiness in that moment. I have never seen a child so changed. Her face grew
sullen, her eyes hot and dull and she would not look at me. It struck me as a
blow. Our Tilly has always carried such a light within her. Foolish she can be,
and rash most certainly, but I had never seen her secretive and sly. The
ugliness with which it clouded her delicate features made me want to cry. At
this point I had sovereignty over the disputed skirt. It was clear that
whatever was in the pocket was not only of utmost importance to Tilly, but was
something she believed would cause others a great deal of displeasure. "We'll see
about this," I said, once again using Molly's voice and, though I disliked
myself for doing so, could no more have stopped than I could carry one of the
great cannons to the third level of this fort. I fumbled through
the wad of fabric in my arms till I found the pockets. Inside one of them I
felt the crinkle of folded papers and pulled them out. I shook them open to see
what dreadful words could change Tilly from child to cornered fox. Before I
could read a word, she snatched them from my hand, shouting, "They're no
concern of yours!" and ran down the hall, through our rooms and, by the
slamming of doors, I surmised out on the veranda and down the stairs. For a moment I
thought to give chase but chose not to humiliate her or myself in such a way. I
was angry, but mostly I was worried. This was so unlike Tilly. After
apologizing again to Luanne, I went not back to the parlor but to our rooms,
where I could be assured of being alone. There I sat and thought. Peggy, do you
think it could be a love letter? Maybe from Joel Lane? That was my first
thought, but surely the discovery of a love letter would bring on blushes,
stammers and giggles, not the desperation and wretchedness I saw. Unless it was
a profession of love (or, God forbid, some baser emotion) that was not
appropriate. Perhaps from Dr. Mudd or Samuel Arnold? I mention them because,
other than Joseph and Joel, they are the men she sees, speaks of and I know
full well Dr. Mudd has gotten too much influence over her. Lord knows Joseph
has made note of it as well. The mere mention of the doctor is enough to put
him in a pet. I assumed Tilly
would be back within the hour. On this bit of earth there simply is no place to
run to. In the heat and the dust, the ever-shifting sea of men on land and
water from horizon to horizon, I was sure discomfort would hound her home
without my having to dangle after her. Two hours
passed. Then three. Many times I cycled through anger to worry and back again.
Worry won out in the end, and I decided to search for our errant sister—not to
reprimand her but to see her safe and well for my own peace of mind. I went first to
the top tier of the fort. After that last cannon was lifted into place, the
building and arming was stopped. Since we are no longer at war, an order came
through that the arming of the fort was to cease, though the construction
continues as Jefferson will be used as a prison for some time to come. Within
six months Joseph estimates that our confederate soldiers will all have been
released, but those sent here for other crimes, the deserters, thieves,
murderers and, of course, the Lincoln conspirators, will remain to serve out
their sentences. The third tier,
blessedly devoid of humanity, was manned only by sentries and a few knots of
off-duty men up catching sea breezes and smoking and gambling. Not wanting to
air our domestic concerns before this rough gathering, I did not ask any of the
men if they had seen Tilly. A
circumnavigation of the fort revealed no truant girl. It is close to a mile
walk to complete the circumference of these walls. By the time I had done so I
was sweating, and worry had once again come round to anger. I returned to
quarters expecting to find her there. She was not, and my anxiousness for her
safety again pushed out my anxiousness to slap her. I debated
whether or not to tell Joseph. In telling him I would have marshaled the forces
of the Union Army to search for Tilly. I was not yet sufficiently concerned for
her welfare to subject her—and us—to the ensuing gossip. That is the good
reason I did not tell my husband but not the only reason. The other is not so
easily articulated even to myself. I shall try to tell it to you, but you must
burn this letter should I die unexpectedly. I would not like a distant relative
to read it and know what a small person I was. I did not tell
Joseph partly because I was afraid, not of his anger at Tilly or of his anger
at me for failing to run our home in such a way that its inner workings did not
interfere with him. On reflection I believe I did not tell him because I was
afraid to see the concern in his face, afraid it would be greater, deeper than
any concern he has ever shown me. Peggy, I was jealous of our sister, jealous
of my husband's affection for her. May God forgive me. You, my dear sister, I
know will understand. Though it is undoubtedly a sacrilege, to be understood is
far more comforting than the cold release of forgiveness. In this
unpleasant state of the heart it came to me that possibly Tilly had been so
madly protective of her letter because her brother-in-law had written it. I
cannot tell you what sudden sickness this thought engendered in me. The instant
it came into my mind I was doubled over with it as if I had received a blow to
my midsection and could not draw breath. Fortunately
this miserable and unworthy state was short-lived. The letter could not have
been written by Joseph. It simply could not. Joseph is not given to writing
letters of any sort and least of all love letters. Even when he was courting me
with such purpose, he never wrote me. And, though I only glimpsed the papers, I
am sure I would have recognized his handwriting. Once I
recovered myself, I set off to look in the only other place I could think that
Tilly might have run to. Both Joseph and myself have expressly forbid her to
visit Joel Lane's cell unaccompanied, but given her newly acquired insolence, I
thought that's where she might have gone. It took only a
moment to bully one of the sentries at the sally port into escorting me to the
cells above and unlocking the door. By now they were not only accustomed to my
going there but had become used to the Lincoln conspirators and, though they
are still much reviled, Arnold and Mudd are no longer feared as they once were.
The sentry was an older man, nearly fifty—much too old to be an infantryman,
but it is the life he's used to. As we ascended the spiral stairs adjacent to
the guardroom, he said: "First the young miss and now you. Those rebs must
be pouring some mighty fine tea to attract the prettiest ladies at the
fort." I did not thank
him for the compliment. He took my silence as a rebuff and didn't say another
word. I had not intentionally snubbed him. It was his testimony that Tilly had
visited the cells that caught up my attention. I wanted to ask when she'd come,
if she was still there, but that would have been to admit I did not know the
whereabouts of the child entrusted to my care. Soon enough I would find these
things out. He unlocked
Joel's cell door, then said: "I'll be waiting just out here. You call out
if you need me." It wasn't concern for my privacy that motivated this act.
As he turned away he was already fumbling for his tobacco pouch. Men are not
allowed to smoke on duty. They can be beaten for it or made to carry a heavy
cannonball in circles hour upon hour or even be cruelly strung up from one of
the trees. Though I believe the regulation to be just and necessary, it is hard
on those men who have come to depend on tobacco. Behind these enclosed
casemates was an ideal place to enjoy a smoke undetected. Joel was lying
on his mattress, his back propped against the wall, doing nothing. The forced
inactivity of our prisoners must be the most difficult cross they bear, worse
even than bad food and poor living conditions. Those who can work are able to
earn money for the small luxuries available at Sender's store by the docks.
Joel was healing quickly but was not yet fit enough to join the crews building
or recoaling the ships. "Good
afternoon, Private Lane," I said, attempting to sound cheerful. There was
no need to add the weight of my concerns to his. "Is
it?" His sulleness so matched Tilly's I began to wonder if poor manners
were contagious. I chose to
ignore his tone. "Has Tilly been here?" He glanced at
the door that communicated between his casemate and that of Dr. Mudd and Mr.
Arnold. "Is she
here?" I amended my question with some alarm. The thought of her behind
closed doors with two men—any two men—was not something I would have condoned. "She was.
She's gone," he said. There was some
comfort in that at least. "Do you
know where she went?" "Why don't
you ask my glorious physician? It was him, not me, she came to see." At
this moment Joel Lane was no longer a soldier, a man recuperating from a
beating or a carefree actor and balladeer. He was a peevish boy looking and
sounding as young as our little sister. Clearly I was
not the only one bitten by the green-eyed monster this clay. I was beginning to
understand why women are often banned from military postings. It is not our
behavior that is an endangerment but that of the men made foolish and rash by
the presence of a skirt in their midst. "Is Dr.
Mudd in?" I asked, then realized the stupidity of my question and crossed
to the adjoining door without awaiting a reply. I felt a bit
silly knocking on the door to a prison cell as if I'd come calling of a Saturday
afternoon, but simply flinging it open like an invading army was unthinkable. I
tapped and called out: "Dr. Mudd? It's Mrs. Coleman. May I speak with you
a moment?" Rustling came
from within and went on much longer than I would have expected. In the heat
they may have been resting in a state of undress, so I did not hurry them. At
another time it might have crossed my wicked mind to see Mr. Arnold in
shirtsleeves or singlet. My mind was so full of Tilly at this moment that I was
saved such evil thoughts. It was Samuel
Arnold and not the doctor who finally opened the door. "Raphaella,"
he said. "How can I be of assistance?" It took me aback both that he
knew my Christian name and that he had the audacity to use it. Since he seemed
genuinely pleased to see me—and a man has not looked at me in that way or said
my name with such gentleness in a good while—I'm afraid I did not reprimand him
as I should have. We all have an unlocked window through which the devil can
creep, as Molly was fond of telling us. It's a pity that mine is
dangerous-looking men. (Oh. Dear. Peggy, when you are burning up pages of this
letter would you expunge that bit as well?) This
foolishness passed in the blink of an eye, and I do not think I let any of it
show on my face. "I'm looking for my sister," I said. "We had an
upset over a letter and she ran from me. She's been gone several hours and I've
become concerned." Why I decided at this moment to tell the truth and to
this man who both frightens and attracts me I cannot say. Certainly not because
I trust him above all people—or above any people for that matter. Maybe I told
Mr. Arnold because the weight of the situation had been building within me and
I needed to shift some of the burden. By shifting it onto one even more
helpless than I, I was assured there would be no outcry, no search and no
recriminations. Rather like talking to the cat. "Miss
Tilly was here an hour ago, maybe two," Arnold said. "She didn't stay
long." "Did she
mention where she might go?" Arnold laughed
a pleasant sound, but I resented it given the state of my nerves. "I well
know there is not anywhere to go," I said tartly. "But she is indeed
gone, and in a brick box of a thousand men I believe I have cause to be
concerned." "I'm
sorry," he said at once. "I was laughing at my own prospects, not
your sister's." With the heat
and the dashing about, a strand of hair had come loose from the pins and fell
in my face. This man actually tucked it back. Of all the schoolboy tricks, that
has to be the first one learned. I'd not thought any man over twenty would
still be using this crude form of seduction. If indeed it was seduction and not
merely an attempt to improve the aesthetics of the cell. To my credit I neither
melted nor swooned, but neither did I put him in his place as he most richly
deserved. "Tilly
didn't talk to me; she came to see Mudd," Mr. Arnold said. I couldn't but
notice he had dropped the honorable title of "doctor" and wondered if
they had quarreled. Mr. Arnold did not move from the doorway as I'd expected,
and I was forced to ask: "May I speak with him?" He stepped
aside and, holding the door wide, gestured me through with mock gallantry. Dr.
Mudd had fashioned himself a desk of sorts from a wooden cask begged off one of
the guards and fitted it with a stool of piled brick. The "desk" had
been set to catch what shards of morning sun came through the three deep gun
slits high above the floor. At the time of day I was there the sun had moved
into the western sky and the cell was uniformly gloomy. Regardless of this, Dr.
Mudd was writing, paper and pen sent to him regularly by his wife, along with
other items to make his life bearable. I stood inside
the door, Mr. Arnold to my left, close enough I could sense him without turning
to look. The doctor kept right on scratching away. It was bizarre to be kept
waiting like a tradesman come looking for work by a man one's husband keeps
under lock and key. Another time I might have allowed him this fleeting and
petty exercise of power. That day I had no patience for it. "I need to
speak with you," I said. He looked up,
sighed to signify his annoyance and forbearance, and said: "Very well. One
moment," and went back to his correspondence. The world was
topsy-turvy. Tilly turning from bright to dull, Mr. Arnold from sulking to
seduction, Joel from man to boy, Sergeant Sinapp from Joseph's lapdog to cur
and now Dr. Mudd from prisoner to potentate. "My sister
came to see you," I said, ignoring his attempt to ignore me. "Mr.
Arnold and Private Lane say she met only with you. She has since disappeared. I
need to know of what you spoke." Dr. Mudd
finally rose, perhaps remembering his manners, perhaps merely stretching his
legs. "It was a personal matter," he said. All at once
Sergeant Sinapp's proclivity for stringing traitors up by their thumbs did not
seem so incomprehensible. "My sister
is not yet seventeen years old," I said. "She is under my protection
and that of my husband, the captain of this garrison. Until such a time as she
comes of age or marries, she has no personal matters. You will tell me
what transpired." I didn't add any threat about thumbs and trees, but it
was in my voice and my mind, and I could tell he made no mistake about my
intentions. "Your
sister is concerned only with justice, Mrs. Coleman. Have no fears for her
moral rectitude." The way he
stressed "your sister" it was evident he meant to suggest that I, and
the rest of the union supporters, were not concerned with justice. I was not in
a mood to be challenged on my political beliefs or to second-guess our nation's
legal system. Mudd was, of course, referring obliquely to his own innocence, a
theme of which he never tires. "I am not
concerned with her morals," I snapped. "Only with her
whereabouts." He shrugged and
gestured at the limited confines of his cell, and said, "As you can
see..." Rather than
remain and bandy words with a man who had nothing to lose but time, and of that
he had a plenitude, I simply said: "Good day, then," and left. It
would have been right and good to leave with an especially cutting remark, but
I'm afraid Molly raised us too well for that. I did not even slam the door on
my way out. He shut it firmly behind me before my skirt had cleared the lintel.
Having never been snubbed by a convicted murderer before and having no clear
idea where to go next other than to inform Joseph and begin an all-too-public
search, I stood a moment inside Joel Lane's casemate. Mr. Arnold
leaned against the wall beside the door I'd just come through. As seldom as
that man stands without support of one structure or another, one cannot but
wonder his back has not atrophied. "Mrs.
Coleman?" Joel had gotten up from his bed, his manners and his maturity
evidently relearned while I sparred with his neighbor. "I didn't know
Tilly was missing. You told us but it didn't come home to me till you were
talking to Samuel. I wouldn't for the world have anything happen to
Tilly." For an awful
moment I thought he was going to cry. There is that about a brutal beating that
breaks more than men's bodies. Joel recovered himself and said: "After she
left me—us—Dr. Mudd, I heard voices raised outside. I think some of the guards
were taunting her. The sentry was with her and there was nothing I could do
anyway." This last was
said with a self-loathing that cut to the heart. For a man to be utterly
helpless to defend the woman he loves—or thinks he does—must be a debilitating
thing. And I do believe Joel is in love with Tilly. It's Tilly who has cooled
toward him, transferring her youthful passion to the supercilious Dr. Mudd. How
far that has gone, I cannot say. It occurs to me as I write that today might
not have been the first time Tilly visited the conspirators' cell without me. "Did you
recognize the voices?" I asked. "Only
Tilly's. I'm sorry." Again tears
threatened. Maternal urges are rare with me, but I suffered one then, wanting
to rush over and hold this sad and battered boy-man. I quashed it. "Which
sentry came with her?" I demanded. "Private
Munson." Joel named the boyish-looking soldier who'd been on duty with the
vile Sinapp the night Tilly and I found Joel hanging by his thumbs in the sally
port. "Thank
you." Sam Arnold
walked me to the door. It was only two steps but I appreciated the civility of
the gesture. At the threshold he stopped, knowing he could not pass. I rapped
loudly to let my smoking escort know I wished to come out. Mr.
Arnold leaned close. He is a tall man and, since coming to Fort Jefferson, has
worn his hair long. It fell over his face and I could smell the mix of man,
salt and tobacco. "Mudd does not mean well by your sister, Mrs. Coleman.
He is using her to his own ends. He is not a man to be trusted, especially with
the affections of an innocent." The door opened
and I was allowed to escape. Joel's
assertion that Tilly had been accosted by, and had heated words with, our own
troops and Mr. Arnold's cryptic warning heightened my alarm for her safety.
Till then I'd worried only that in her girlish huff over a love letter revealed
she'd done something foolish, perhaps injuring or embarrassing herself in the
doing. Now I became concerned that either through the natural roughness of our
soldiers or the machinations of Dr. Mudd she'd involved herself in something
far more dangerous. What that could
be I had no inkling. My chaperone,
looking relaxed and reeking of tobacco, locked the door behind me. "Are you
aware of an altercation of any kind between my sister and the guards an hour or
more earlier?" I asked. "I am not,
ma'am. I have been in the guardroom since two o'clock and nothing's happened.
Just hot and more hot and dust and noise like every other day." Customarily I
can spare a word of sympathy for the plight of the soldiers garrisoned here.
This day I could not. "There is a soldier named Munson," I said.
"Where is he now?" "That'd be
Charley Munson, ma'am. I relieved him when I came on duty. He'll be in quarters
I expect." "Take me
to him." "He'll be
sleeping, ma'am. He was on most of the night." "I don't
care if he's bathing. I would see him now." I suppose I shocked this old
soldier. The prudishness of the old-timers is almost comical. Munson was
abed. While he was ousted and made ready to receive the captain's wife (a
pronouncement I am sure put the fear of God into him), I waited outside near
where the new armory is being constructed. These are buildings most fascinating
in nature. Of brick, as is the rest of the fort, but with domed ceilings within
so the explosives stored there will not be set off even by a direct hit should
the fort be attacked. Within a short
time Mr. Charley Munson, bleary-eyed and stinking of the gin he'd used to put
himself to sleep, came blinking out from the barracks set up in the casemates
behind the unfinished armory. "You were
with my sister Tilly when she called upon Joel Lane and Dr. Mudd. Shortly
thereafter she had words with some of the men. I need to know what was said and
by whom," I said without preamble. Whether he was reluctant to tell me or
simply needed time to marshal his muddled thoughts I do not know. For half a
minute he shuffled and rubbed at the stubble on his chin. "Do I need
to fetch my husband?" I threatened. That straightened his spine and
cleared his mind. After Sergeant Sinapp's insubordination I was relieved to see
this man still respected Joseph's authority enough to be afraid. "Now Mrs.
Coleman you don't have to go doing that. No, ma'am. I took Miss Tilly up to the
rebs' cell, but only like I been told to should you ask. It's captain's
orders." "To take
Miss Tilly up there without a chaperone, Mr. Munson?" This breach
concerned him, and I felt a moment's pity knowing how Tilly can wrap men around
her girlish fingers, but only a moment's. "She said
you'd be along directly," he defended himself. "She said Lane had
taken a turn and needed his pain medicine and it couldn't wait." "So you
took her to his cell." "Yes,
ma'am, I did. To tell you the truth, ma'am, I never did go inside with her. She
said I was to wait outside. As you'd been in and out so much I never saw any harm
in it. I can't tell you what they got up to but it wasn't long. She was out
quick as you please and looking like the cat that got at the cream, if you know
what I mean." "I need to
know what occurred once she left the cells." "Well,
whilst she'd been in there some of the boys kinda got together. You know how it
is. Anyway out she comes and so pleased with herself and I'm locking up the
door like I'm supposed to and she up and says: 'There won't be nobody to lock
up much longer, Mr. Munson.' "Of course
I got to ask why so I do, and she says: 'You can't keep an innocent man under
lock and key.' So I says, don't worry none 'cause her Johnny Reb'll be shipping
out with the rest of 'em quick as nevermind. And she says she's not talking
about Joel Lane but the other one." "Dr. Mudd
or Mr. Arnold?" I asked for clarification. Use of the king's English is
not one of Mr. Munson's strong suits. "She
didn't say, but I'm thinking it was the doctor." I didn't press
him on the point because that was what I was thinking as well. "And the
soldiers heard this?" "Yes,
ma'am, they did and the sergeant took up about it." Sergeant
Sinapp's involvement in any unpleasant encounter did not surprise me. What did
was that Joseph's authority over the man had been undermined to the point he
would openly condone—and no doubt participate in—the insubordination of smoking
while on duty, a serious offense. "What did
the sergeant say," I prodded. "I can't
tell word for word like. Things got kinda fast and snippety." I will not put
you through any more of the agonizing process of conversing with Mr. Munson
than I already have. Suffice to say the vile Sinapp, who you will recall
actually put his hands on Tilly when last we suffered his company, spoke to her
roughly regarding her unchaperoned visit to the cells, and she responded by
baiting him with supposed proof of Dr. Mudd's innocence, coupled with
unflattering comparisons of Sinapp to Mudd. The sergeant became angry. He
demanded her "proof" and apparently threatened to strip and beat her
as a traitor to the union. Tilly, finally showing some tiny semblance of
wisdom, fled, "skirts all a-dither" according to Mr. Munson. The recital
chilled me. Sergeant Sinapp, like any dog of war, cannot be masterless without
becoming dangerous to the very people for whom he was trained to fight. I would
give a great deal to know what gave Sinapp the upper hand or led him to believe
he has the upper hand. Joseph, never the most communicative of men, has become
like the Spartan in the old tale. He seems to have a purloined fox under his
coat and will let it devour his entrails before he will admit to stealing it. Mr. Munson,
being unable to tell me anything else of value but that Tilly had run toward
the northeastern bastion and not toward the spiral stairs closer by, I returned
to the second level of the fort above the guardroom and began making my way
around it. Many of the casemates along that side of the fort have been boarded
up on the parade ground side to fashion cells. This is not true of those first
in line. These have remained open and have been used for various things during
my time here: barracks, sick ward and prisoners' mess. Currently they are used
as a catchall for brick, board, armament and machinery. Because that
was the direction Tilly was said to have run after her altercation with
"the boys," I picked my way through the piles looking for some sign
of her. I found two of the fort's cats, essential in a place as frequented by
rodents as a port of call for ships. Neither was pursuing its avocation. One
slept in the sun, a long and leggy pattern in tiger stripes. The other I found
by following small helpless cries. Thinking to find a repentant girl I found
instead a mama cat and four kittens hidden behind a rampart of board ends and
broken brick. Several
casemates down, just before the cells began in earnest with heavy timbers and
locked doors for our less-trustworthy clientele, I again heard the mewling of a
small frightened creature. "Tilly?"
I called and was answered by a furtive scuffling noise. This part of the fort
has a peculiarity that caused me a moment's confusion. Then I found my way down
a narrow brick passage. To my right lay one even narrower and shaped like an L,
where no light could penetrate. I remembered from our first tour of Fort Jefferson
three years ago that this was one of several secure chambers built for the
storage of gunpowder. Since that time I'd not had any cause to visit. "Tilly?"
I called again, and feeling along the wall for guidance, I went in. 19 Three hours'
sleep, which served to whet her appetite for bed rather than refresh her, and
Anna went in search of Daniel. Shops, quarters and generator rooms were empty
of bipeds. She found him by the docks, head and shoulders buried in the engine
box of the Curious. "Hundred-hour
check?" she said for openers. Daniel withdrew
from the engine compartment, wiping his hands on a red oil rag. For an instant
Anna was put in mind of her father. He, too, had been a stocky man of endless
strength, scarred knuckles permanently blackened by years of working on
airplane engines. "Burned
her out," Daniel said. "Shifting that motor off you I had to gun her.
When she hit the end of the anchor chain she stood up on her tail." His tone was
mildly accusing. Accustomed to the feelings of those who husband internal
combustion engines, Anna was not offended. "My life
for hers," she said easily. "If she dies it's a hero's death." Tribute given
and accepted, Daniel said: "What's up?" Anna did not
choose to share her theory about a second diver and the engine being shifted
intentionally, so she just asked if he had noticed any other boats near the
dive site. He hadn't, but couldn't swear there hadn't been any. "My
attention was focused down pretty much," he said. "Anything short of
a Spanish galleon under full sail could have gone unnoticed." Mack, the only
other witness, was her last recourse. She'd not yet spoken with him on the
assumption that, had he seen anyone—and how could he not if a second diver had
been in evidence—and had any intention of volunteering the information, he
would have done so already. Mack may have saved her life for reasons of his
own, but the mere fact he had been there when the "accident" occurred
made him suspect of collusion or criminal negligence at least. This line of inquiry
was to be aborted. Mack, Daniel told her, was on his lieu days and had hitched
a ride to Key West on the early seaplane. He'd be out of pocket for five days.
The "good" news was the Shaws had returned on the first ferry of the
day. Anna'd slept through the hero's welcome Bob had been given on the docks.
All the fort's personnel had been there, partly out of respect for Bob, mostly
because everyone but a skeleton crew were leaving the island for a three-day
session regarding health and benefits at headquarters in Homestead. Bob and his
wife were tucked away in their house. Not anxious to
interview them with an eye to the poisoning, Anna took a leisurely route back
to the west side of the fort. Tourists off the huge catamaran, one of two that
ferried visitors from the mainland each day, wandered the parade ground and
drifted from casemate to casemate. Anna could see them through the brick
arches, small and dressed in bright colors like dolls in a dollhouse viewed
from the back. People made places mundane, robbed them of mystery and romance.
Crazy, delusional, absurd as the human animal could be, it carried homely
reality around its neck like the mariner's albatross. Religion, the fantasy of
the occult, the paranormal, close encounters of the third kind, served to
indicate how burdensome life without magic had become to some. Moving slowly,
taking the steps one at a time in deference to her hard-won aches and scrapes
and her desire to put off meeting with the Shaws a little longer, Anna climbed
the spiral stairs beside the Visitors Center, the room that had housed the
guards when Raffia Coleman was in residence. On the second
level she turned right, instead of left toward the Shaws and home. When she'd
first come to the fort, Duncan had taken her on a tour. One of the stops was in
Dr. Samuel Mudd and Mr. Sam Arnold's cell, they being the two most famous—or
infamous—of the inmates when Fort Jefferson had been a prison. Duncan adhered
to the theory that the doctor was guilty as charged. Despite the fact that a couple
of presidents had written letters amounting to an apology to the doctor's
descendants, the court's ruling had never been overturned and the doctor's name
was still Mudd. The information available from the highly public legal
proceeding gave rise to reams of paper on the subject, and Duncan preached his
gospel of Mudd's guilt in learned terms and soon, he hoped, from the New York
Times bestseller list. As Anna
understood it, Samuel Mudd's contention was that he had not known John Wilkes
Booth when, hours after Lincoln's assassination, he set the man's leg, broken
in the jump from the balcony to the stage of Ford's Theatre. This was why he
had given treatment and, upon learning of the assassination, had not turned
Booth in. Mudd's poor-country-doctor-living-up-to-the-Hippocratic-oath defense
was, according to Duncan, undone by the fact that several witnesses had seen
Mudd in the company of John Wilkes Booth on two occasions prior to the shooting
of the president, making it extremely unlikely that Booth, who remained
overnight in the doctor's house, was unrecognized by Mudd. Till reading
Raffia Coleman's letters, Anna had little interest in the guilt or innocence of
a man so long dead. Drugs and family ties having dragged history through time
and dumped it in her living room, she looked on the cell with new eyes. The
channels so painstakingly chipped in the floor to carry away standing water
were as Raffia had described them. In running her fingers over the fissures
Anna could feel the anger and desperation it had taken to carve them. Imagining
the casemate, now open to the sunlight with a pleasant view of the parade
ground, hoarded over, the three high, narrow slits on the east wall must have
crushed the life from what little light they allowed through. Regardless of
the deeds of the men condemned to serve time in the cell, Anna felt pity for
them. She sided with those opposed to the death penalty because it did not
deter crime, was not cost effective and those on death row seemed anxious to
live. She was not against it because it was deemed cruel or unusual. Had she
been sentenced to such a room as this without light, without hope of release,
the death penalty would have been a great kindness. Still, keeping
company with her aunts Raffia and Tilly, Anna took her time walking the
northern bastion and casemates. Partway down she veered from the dramatic
drench of sun and shadow in the great arched spaces and slipped into the brick
passage Raffia had described outside the black powder storage room. Built within the
walls, closer to the parade ground than the sea, these small rooms were
designed for security, a place safe from the guns of an attacking force yet
convenient to the gun ports they served. The tight doglegged passage to gain
entrance reminded Anna of the way into Injun Joe's Cave on Tom Sawyer Island in
Disneyland. Time warped briefly—a sensation she was beginning to get used
to—and she suffered the same pinch of panic going in as she had at nineteen in
southern California. Inside, the
room was lined—floor, walls and ceiling—with wood. She'd have to ask Duncan
why. Maybe, in this humid climate, it helped to keep the powder dry. The
timber-lined, many-angled internal ceiling going up to a point, it felt like
the inside of the grain silos she'd played in as a girl. Three weeks before her
eleventh birthday a kid had suffocated, drowned in grain, and her father never
let her or Molly play in one again. Looking around this confined space,
protected from the elements, graffiti from the eighteen hundreds still legible
on the boards, she felt again that unsettling mix of excitement and dread silos
had engendered in her since the neighbor boy had died. For several
minutes she let the centuries shift and listened for the weeping of Tilly, the
calls of her older sister, the clatter of men and hammers. Before she could
conjure up the past, two teenaged boys wearing shorts so large the crotches
hobbled their knees burst in with sweating exuberance and Anna was driven back
into the new millennia where boys Joel Lane's age were still children and had
the tee shirts and the manners to prove it. Hounded from
her hiding place, she gave up procrastinating and finished the journey to the
Shaws'. Their home was just below her apartment and mirrored Lanny Wilcox's
quarters. On the southernmost end of the house was a screened-in porch. Anna
always paid attention to this on her way past because the Shaws kept two fine
fat cats who often lounged on the porch. Thinking life
would be grand if she dealt exclusively with felines, she knocked on the door.
Teddy let her in with what appeared to be genuine pleasure. Wondering if this
woman regularly poisoned people to further her husband's career, Anna
experienced no reciprocal emotions but believed she'd faked them adequately
enough to pass muster. The two houses,
the Shaws' and Wilcox's, were structurally alike, but there ended the
similarity. Where Lanny's was made smaller by the encroachment of his collected
interests, mementos, incarnations and necessary junk, the Shaws' home was made
larger by white paint, mirrors, clean, polished wood-and-canvas furniture and
an absence of any trappings of the past. Though she traveled light, Anna had
not been this unencumbered since college, when a bookcase of bricks and boards
and a couple of thumbtacks were all she needed in the way of interior decor. Not that the
Shaws' tastes ran to plastic milk crates and beanbag chairs; what there was was
classy and probably expensive. It was just that there was so little. What there
was appeared planned, cautious, devoid of knickknacks, personal photos,
souvenirs, toys, dog-eared books or anything else to play with. The room could
have been designed for a magazine cover. Given what Anna
had learned of Teddy's past, it wasn't surprising she had no wish to be reminded
of it on a daily basis. Why Bob would have so little of his history on the
walls Anna had no idea. Regardless of pathologies, she much preferred the
Shaws' living space to that of Lanny Wilcox. In the Shaws' quarters she could
breathe. Having ushered
Anna over the stairway landing and down into the living room, Teddy left her to
find her own seat. Anna chose the one with the white cat named Joey, as Teddy
fluttered around her husband. Bob was ensconced on the sofa, a cream canvas
sling supported by blond wood that had to be more attractive than comfortable.
Had Anna been the one with her leg in a cast, she would have been forced to
crawl to the closet, get a gun and shoot Teddy. The amount of fussing and
plumping and cooing would have driven her around the bend. Bob thrived on
it. A warrior carried from the field of battle, he accepted the attention with
gracious humility that only just dimmed the glow of pure contentment on his
face. Probably this idyll would be shortlived. Having tasted what he'd thirsted
after for so long, odds were good he'd be craving another adventure before the
scars of this one had time to fade. Following an
offer of drinks, which Anna almost forgot to decline, the domestic Teddy,
exhibiting none of the Borgia characteristics Anna'd envisioned once she'd seen
her as a suspect, left Anna and Bob alone and went into the kitchen. The life of the
party gone, there didn't seem much to say. Anna would have busied herself
playing with Joey, but the cat was having none of it and jumped down at the
first tentative pat. "You're
looking good," Anna said to keep the silence from getting embarrassing. "I'm a
fast healer," Bob said. He probably
was. So far his other inflated opinions about his worth had been proved out.
Still, Anna had to make a point not to smile. Bob must even outdo other men in
the superior functioning of his cells. "Bring me
up to speed. What's been happening on the boat thing?" Bob plucked two
brightly colored pillows from where Teddy tucked them and tossed them to the
floor. Basking in the glow of past deeds had lasted an even shorter time than
Anna'd given it. The adrenaline junkie was back. Teddy returned
with drinks on a tray, a Coke for Bob and iced tea for her. Seeing the Coke can
was unopened and meant for Bob Anna quickly changed her mind and asked if she
could have that drink after all. Nosing around the haunts of Civil War dead was
thirsty work. Teddy gave Anna Bob's soda without so much as blinking and
fetched another. Had she been planning on drugging her guest she was
unperturbed at being foiled. "So,"
Teddy said, flopping down on the only empty chair. "Who was Bob's dead
guy? Anything on that?" She was as anxious to return to the glory days as
her husband. The delay Anna
had instigated with the coke business had given her time to think, something
she should have done before making the call. She told them
everything, leaving out only that she and Lanny had been drugged and that she
knew there was a warrant out for Teddy's arrest. Both Shaws
listened with the rapt attention of children being told a favorite bedtime
story. As carefully as she watched, Anna could detect no flickers of fear or
guilt. "Teddy,"
Anna said as the younger woman saw her to the door. "Do you think Bob
could spare you for a little while? There's something I'd like to
discuss." "Can't we
do it here? I have no secrets from—" Teddy jerked the way a small dog does
when it runs headlong into the end of its leash. For the time it takes to
breathe, she met Anna's eyes. Other than maybe Matt Damon, Anna had never seen
an actor who could match the sudden and overwhelming vulnerability of Teddy's
face. Emotion was clearly written there. Anna watched it come and go. Dismay,
that almost laughable look a toddler gets when its first balloon pops in his
hand, the sudden shock before the shrieking, robbed Teddy of her years. An
adult's realization of consequences brought them back with another ten she'd
not yet earned. The baby face hardened then sagged, lips thinning. "Let me
tell him I'm going out," Teddy said softly. As she crossed
the kitchen and climbed the three stairs over the hump into the living room,
Anna wondered if Teddy would face her monsters with the courage she'd so lauded
in her husband. Hard to tell. Fessing up to sleaze and paying the sordid price
took a different kind of courage than taking a bullet for the president or
rescuing a child from a burning building. No adrenaline helped one through the
terror; no promise of reward in status or simply goodwill pulled one through
the hard marches. It wasn't even as good as the biblical sort of bravery, the
willingness to suffer degradation and abuse for the good of another. It was pure
payback. Scraping it up for the bookie when the bet was lost. A murmured
conversation later Teddy came again into the kitchen. Anna'd seen people go
pale beneath a suntan before. Teddy's skin had the unpleasant grayish cast skim
milk lends to coffee. "Let's
walk," Anna said. The day was impossibly hot and windy, but being in
public would be safer. Besides, Anna wanted to conduct an experiment. They walked in
silence across the parade ground and out the sally port beneath the sweep and
cry of the frigate birds. Teddy had guessed what the conversation was to be
about, and silence would do more to soften her up than questions. As Anna turned
right to walk around the moat wall, Teddy couldn't take it any longer.
"You ran background checks," she said. "I
did." They reached
the southeast corner of the fort, and Anna turned right again, following the
wide walkway that topped the moat's wall. Between them and the fort lay the
water, shallow at this end, maybe three feet deep and twice that from the top
of the wall to the surface of the water. To their left was the ocean, sparkling
where the wind roughed its surface. "I've been
clean since I married Bob," Teddy said. "All that was another
lifetime. I was another person." "Does Bob
know?" Anna asked. "He
knows." That was a lie.
Anna'd read the truth in Teddy's face back in her kitchen. She let it alone.
Beneath the crystal waters of the moat a nurse shark, not yet two feet long,
hung motionless, strands of brown seaweed trailing over its tail. "I never
told him," Teddy confessed at last. "Bob is so ... good. It
was too late for me. I already loved him. I was afraid he wouldn't see me the
same way anymore." "What was
it?" Anna asked. Teddy
understood the question. Like any lover or addict, the name of the necessary
object stays close in mind. "Percodan," Teddy said.
"Prescription painkillers." "You stole
them from the hospitals where you worked." "For a
while. Then I knew I was taking too many so I started stealing prescription
pads and signing the doctors' names to them." Again a right
turn. They walked now along the western wall where Anna believed she had seen
the wet prints of whoever had run from her the night she'd seen the light in
Lanny Wilcox's quarters. She stopped midway down the wall and looked out toward
Loggerhead Key. Three miles away, it looked ghostly in the mist the wind teased
from the ocean. Out of the corner of her eye Anna studied Teddy Shaw. Black
snakes of hair whipped her cheeks, stuck to her lips. Color had returned and
she no longer looked as if she might pass out. If she had
indeed splashed across the moat that night and slithered over the wall, she
didn't seem to be thinking about it now. Her attention was directed inward. "Will you
tell him?" "Yeah,"
Anna said. "You can have a few days to tell him yourself if you like. Then
we'll go on in to Key West and you can turn yourself in. I doubt you'll get
more than a couple months' jail time. Maybe not even that, maybe just more
probation." "Can't you
just pretend you don't know?" Teddy knew she
couldn't, so Anna didn't bother to answer. "Two
months, probation or whatever and it'll be over. You can come home," Anna
said. "Over forever unless you screw up again. I'd think that'd be a
relief." "If I have
a home to come to." "You
will." Anna didn't doubt for a minute the truth of her words. Bob and
Teddy had such a rich dream life they'd be able to romanticize even jail time
into their story. "Tell you what I can do," Anna said as the story
they might write unfolded in her brain. "You don't have to tell Bob I
found out. I won't. Then you just tell him you have to come clean, square
yourself with the law." Teddy thought
about that. If it were possible to see someone mentally embroider a tale, Anna
would have sworn that was what she witnessed in Teddy's eyes. "That
would be good," she said at last. They walked on,
circumnavigating the fort. Anna felt no need to talk, and Teddy was busy with
her own thoughts, perhaps scripting her confession scene with her husband. The
sun baked sweat from their bodies, the wind sucked it away. Anna's throat grew
dry. Across the narrow isthmus on Bush Key the sooty terns wheeled in a gray
cloud crying their endless cries. Tourists dotted the old coaling docks and sat
on beaches enjoying their day in the sun. They reached the sally port and went
into the fort. The grass on the parade ground was so dry it crackled underfoot,
putting Anna in mind of crispy Chinese noodles. When they
reached Teddy's back door and the wooden stairs to Anna's second-tier
apartment, Anna spoke again. "Would you mind coming up for a minute?
There's something I'd like your opinion on." The pull to
escape into her house, to be with Bob, was so great Teddy's body actually
leaned in that direction. For a second Anna thought she'd refuse. Evidently she
decided keeping on Anna's good side was worth extending her stay away from her
wifely duties. "For a
minute," Teddy said. "Sit
down," Anna said when they'd gone inside. Teddy perched on the edge of the
couch. At the far end Piedmont opened his eyes the merest of slits. Apparently
the idea of sharing his bed with a stranger appalled him. He jumped to the
chair, curled up, and resumed his nap. "I'm
thirsty," Anna said. She opened the refrigerator and took out a bottle of
sparkling water. "Can I
pour you a glass of water?" "That'd be
great," Teddy said. No hesitation. No flicker of alarm. Anna put the
bottle back and took out two Cokes. "The water's gone flat," she
said. "I'd forgotten." Teddy pulled
the tab. Anna sat by Piedmont. "What did
you want my opinion on?" "Drugs. If
somebody wanted to induce mild psychosis, hallucinations, paranoia, what would
be the best way to do it? You know, tasteless, easy to get a hold of, easy to
administer in liquid." Teddy liked
story problems. She leaned forward, elbows on knees, can of pop in both hands.
"Legal or illegal?" "Doesn't
matter." "Lysergic
acid diethylamide." LSD. The old
classics were always best. "Any way
to control the dosage?" "In a lab,
sure, but with street stuff who knows?" That fit with
Anna's experience. One of the tainted bottles had agitated her only a little.
The other had taken the top of her head off. "Thanks." "Why? You
planning on taking a trip?" "Just
curious," Anna said. Another time
Teddy might have stayed and tried to wheedle the truth out of Anna. Today the
need to be with her crippled husband took precedence. Anna walked her
home. She stood for a
minute in the sun. Air-conditioning could be counted on to provide two
wonderful moments: the first blast of cool air when coming in from a sweltering
summer and the relief of being enveloped in heat when one stepped out again.
While standing in the Shaws' tiny courtyard feeling her skin expand and grow
supple after the dry arctic winds of General Electric's winter, Anna's radio
crackled to life. The noise startled her. With Bob gone the radio waves had
been uncharacteristically empty. It was Donna
the lighthouse keeper on Loggerhead. "Dick Tracy hit pay dirt," she
said. "I'll be
there shortly," Anna replied. Glad to have direction, she set out for the
docks. With no
discernable change in the weather, the sea had entered another season and rose
gray and choppy, the low short swells guaranteed to unsettle the stomachs of
the uninitiated. To her shame, Anna was not a particularly good sailor and had
been known to run for the rail with the best of them. When she was piloting the
boat, this was changed; she had a stomach of iron. In these warm seas where the
spray was a blessing and not a curse, she enjoyed the ride. Patrice was at
the house. Donna, Anna was told, was at the top of the seventy-five-foot-tall
lighthouse inspecting the railings. The lighthouse had been built in 1886. The
railings around the walkway at the top were rusting away. It wouldn't be good
for the park service's image to have a visitor plunge to her death while on
holiday. As Patrice
ushered Anna into the tiny and wonderful old house, pots and pans, tiny stove,
sink, and two-person dining table lining the stone walls, Donna joined them.
Come for no other reason, Anna guessed, than to bask in the cleverness of her
beloved. In a serendipitous aping of Daniel, Donna was wiping her blunt square
hands on a red grease rag. With the two broad-shouldered rough-voiced women in
it, the ground floor room with its pint-sized appliances was further reduced
until Anna felt she'd entered a dollhouse. "Upstairs,"
Patrice said and led the way. The open staircase was made to scale with the house.
For Anna it was just narrow enough to feel cozy. With a big woman in front of
her and another behind, she was suddenly aware of the structure's great age.
Treads creaked in protest, and Anna could feel challenged wood thrumming
through the soles of her deck shoes. She took comfort in the fact that, should
the stairs collapse, Donna's substantial self would break her fall. Then it
occurred to her Patrice would fall on top of them both. The bedroom was
reached without incident. Anna and Donna sat on the bed that took up most of
the space. Patrice loaded one of an impressive stack of videotapes into the VCR
set beside a television with a thirteen-inch screen. "I knew it
was here somewhere," Patrice said. "My clerical skills being on a par
with Donna's cooking, it took me a while to find it." Donna snorted
but seemed unoffended. "That boat
you found—or one like you described to us, might not be the same banana—has
been out here a bunch of times in the last couple of months. We get a lot of
regulars and I don't videotape them, but these guys were acting fishy." "No pun
intended," Donna interjected. "I never
paid much attention to them till they beached on the west shore under the
lighthouse." The tape was in. Patrice joined Anna and Donna on the bed and
the three of them stared intently at the small screen as a video of white sand
and blue water began to play. "There's
no beaching here—" "As you
know," Donna interrupted. "But that
doesn't mean boats don't laud. Donna or I just politely shoo 'em away or, if there's
a problem, call you guys. So, this guy beaches." Patrice let the tape lay
for fifteen seconds or so in silence. A sleek green missile of a boat thrust
into frame and she paused the tape. The picture held but twitched and jerked as
if the power of the boat would pull it back into play. "This
guy," Patrice continued, pointing at the captured image, "beaches
that thing. He and another guy jump out. Both Hispanic: Mexican, Puerto Rican,
Panamanian—something. So Donna here goes down to shoo them away." "It was my
turn," Donna explained, apparently needing Anna to know nobody wore the
pants in this particular family. "I'd just done my hale-fellow-well-met
wave and smile preparatory to chucking them nicely back into the sea. They saw
me and got themselves launched, back in the boat and were leaving a wake wide
as a three-lane highway before I had time to get my arm down." "Donna
told me about it and I kept an eye out. Next time they showed, I taped
them." "You can
take the woman out of the policeman..." Donna said. "But you
can't take the policeman out of the woman," Patrice finished. This was an
old joke, the best kind, and the two of them enjoyed themselves. "They
never beached again. Never even came close. That's why this shot's not all that
great. But it's the same boat." For a long
minute the three of them stared at the tape. Patrice had zoomed in on it but it
still was a good ways away and, on the thirteen-inch screen, no more than three
inches long. It was a Scarab. Anna had looked up go-fast boats on the Internet
and familiarized herself with the various silhouettes. The differences were
small, but each designer left his or her mark on the product. The boat Patrice
had caught on film was the same metallic green as the one wrecked off East Key.
There was no way to prove to a jury the two were the same boat, but Anna didn't
need to. At present she needed only to satisfy herself. "It's the
same boat," she said. Patrice leaned
forward and clicked off the television, ejected the tape and gave it to Anna
without being asked. "I'd like it back when you're done." "No
problem." The three of them continued to sit, each alone with her
thoughts, blissfully unaware they painted a picture of the "see no
evil" monkeys as middle-aged white ladies. "Why do
you figure they beached here, then took off?" Anna asked at last. She had
her own theory but respected Patrice's police skills enough to entertain
others. "My guess
is they thought the Key was unoccupied," Patrice said. "You'd think a
great phallic black-and-white tower with a light on top would have tipped them
off, but there's a few Keys out here with buildings that are abandoned." "You said
you'd seen the boat before." "Right.
It's been out here—or we've seen it—maybe five or six times. Five or six,
Donna?" "About
that but not before it beached and ran. That was the first time." Patrice thought
about that. "Right," she said. "I had my brain calendar screwed
up. Because it beached I got interested, not the other way around." "You said
it the other way," Donna pushed. "I'm old
and I'm fat and I lie, but you adore me." Patrice said and smiled at her
partner. Donna threw up
her big grease-stained hands. "What can I say? I like to walk on the wild
side." The three of
them gnawed over the question of the green boat till it was frayed and sodden,
stretching the possible from the probable to the fantastical to see if anything
shook loose. In the end they returned to earth not that much wiser. The go-fast
was not fishing or camping, yet it frequented the park. The go-fast boat was owned
or captained by males of a Hispanic cast, two of whom were now dead. The boat
had probably beached on Loggerhead mistakenly, either believing it to be
uninhabited or believing it to be a different landfall entirely. These paltry
facts, put together with the fuel containers that had obliterated the sunken
hull and the operator's strong desire to remain unnoticed by anyone in authority,
seemed to point to drug smuggling. Smugglers drove powerboats to outrun the
coast guard cutters, carried extra fuel, and used isolated and uninhabited
places for caches of illegal goods. The drawback to this theory was that if the
men killed on the Scarab were drug smugglers, they had to be among the
stupidest criminals ever to cross the law. This was a grave insult, given
criminals are not known for their cleverness, education, long-term planning or
impulse control. There were
thousands of square miles of Caribbean and Gulf waters. To choose the fifty
thousand or so acres of that vastness guaranteed to be crawling with tourists,
flown over by seaplanes and patrolled by federal law-enforcement officers in
the persons of park rangers, made no sense. A vampire in the Vatican would have
a greater chance of going unnoticed. Anna took the
videotape and went home. There were three things on her To Do list today that
couldn't in good conscience be put off. She needed to call Lanny Wilcox and let
him know he was not insane. She needed to revisit the Theresa Alvarez
abdication/vanishing. And it behooved her to dive the green Scarab one more
time. With Bob laid up and Mack on the mainland, she'd be diving alone. Teddy
Shaw was an accomplished diver and had come to her aid after the fuel tanks
blew up, but Anna couldn't help seeing her in B-movie guise: the angel of death
in starched white uniform, cap and squeaky shoes, slipping into a hospital
room, dripping syringe in hand. As she'd taught
herself to do over the years, thus earning an undeserved reputation for never
procrastinating, Anna chose to do the most revolting chore first. It was the
adult equivalent of holding the nose and gulping the brussel sprouts without
having to taste them. She docked at
Garden Key, got her gear from her quarters then, quickly—surreptitiously, if
that was possible in the light of day amid a cloud of tourists and
pelicans—took tank, vest and regulator from the storage room behind the ladies'
toilets. She had no fears of diving alone in this warm shallow place of coral
reefs and sand, particularly since she had no intention of getting within forty
yards of anything that looked as if it could roll, fall, shift, explode, scrape
or bite. The concern that prompted the desire for stealth was that, were her
intentions to become known, she might not be diving alone. The water
remained choppy but in no way dangerous to anything but digestion. Over a sandy
spot near the wrecks she dropped anchor. Having tucked a garbage bag in her
vest, she pulled on latex gloves and went over the side. The garbage bag seemed
a bit callous, but she figured she would not find any parts of the Scarab's
captain too big to fit. In a perfect world—that is to say a world
without people—she would have left the purйed remains to feed the fishes.
However, when and if the man was identified, it would behoove the National Park
Service to have retrieved the body—or what there was left of it—and stored it
with proper respect. Whatever forces
of nature conspired to make the surface waters rough had also stirred up the
bottom. Visibility was not great. Anna could only see a hundred feet or so.
Because she valued her own skin more than that of the fragmented boatman, she
first inspected the engine that had nearly marked her final resting place.
There were shiny scrapes and scars that could have indicated the thing was
levered up by someone intending to squash her. They could also have been made
by the metal prongs of the anchor when it moved the engine so Mack could pull
her to safety. No epiphanies
in the iron, she moved on to her gruesome harvest. The accidental chumming of
the man Anna'd known only as a finger and a half had attracted scavenger fish.
The only ones Anna was concerned with were two largish sharks. One swam close
as if to assure it's tiny prehistoric brain that she was not shark food but a
largish fish in her own right. Other than that they showed no interest in her.
She was careful to do nothing that might offend them. Thirty minutes
searching and she had gathered all she could of what had once been a man. That
it was a man was left in no doubt. Trapped beneath a metal sink, blown intact from
the galley, was half a penis. With a nod to John Wayne Bobbit, Anna put it in
her garbage bag. A line from an old Uncle Bonsai song robbed the moment of its
gruesomeness. If I had a penis, I'd still be a girl. Anna bagged the
evidence and wondered if the song's prophecy would come true. If she'd make
much more money and conquer the world. Had ill-timed merriment not so recently
gotten her in trouble, Anna would have laughed. Scavengers had
carried away or eaten what the explosion had not obliterated. She did not find
the head—a failure for which she was grateful—or much in the way of edible
meat. The right hand was recovered. It had been immersed in salt water for a
while, and smaller fishes had been snacking on it, but there was a good
chance prints could still be lifted. Oddly enough she found both feet together
and relatively intact. One was still wearing a bright blue flip-flop. Because
of their humanity it was these and not the coarser discoveries of a shoulder
and clavicle or a part of a ribcage that got to Anna. Before she'd had time to
do more than rip out her mouthpiece, she vomited. Immediately schools of tiny
fish rushed over to partake of the unexpected bounty. Life goes on. Topside, the
bits and pieces in the garbage bag disturbed her more than the actual handling
of them underwater. Flopped on deck they became somehow more real. Feeling a
little silly but doing it just the same, she covered the black plastic sack
with a yellow tarp so she wouldn't have to see it on the trip back. Not stopping to
put tank and vest away, she gathered up the four corners of the yellow tarp,
the black plastic shroud tucked inside, and walked toward the fort as quickly
as she could without drawing attention to herself. It was three
o'clock. Tourists crowded beach and dock, gathering to get back onto the
catamaran for the two-hour trip back to Key West. Three giggling girls, the
littlest not more than eight or ten years old, caught up in a windstorm of
their own making, tumbled into her as she stepped from the sand onto the planks
of the drawbridge. One collided with the yellow tarp. Involuntarily Anna cried,
"Oh, God!" as if she carried fine china or nitroglycerin. The child was
unharmed, her spirits undimmed by this collision with death in the least
attractive of its myriad forms. Breathing out her relief, Anna became aware she
was too tightly strung. Consciously getting a grip on herself she hurried
toward the researchers' dorm and the chest freezer. "Hey, what
did you bring me?" Daniel called as she passed the shop. "Takeout,"
was her first thought and "seafood" her second, but to hold the
thoughts more than a nanosecond would have brought on a second attack of
nausea. "Don't
ask," she hollered back. Alone in the
researchers' dorm, she tied an apron she found in one of the drawers over her
swimsuit and donned a fresh pair of latex gloves. Feeling more like Dr.
Frankenstein than Quincy, she sorted through the bits of bone and flesh,
bagging each separately. Forensic pathology was an alien science to her. It
grew and changed on a monthly basis as brains and technology raced each other
into an unknowable future. Bagging the hand, she wondered if freezing it would
further destroy the whorls and ridges making identification harder—or
impossible. Till she could ask someone, she decided to put it in the
refrigerator. The rest went into the freezer like so much venison to await its
ride to Key West on the Activa. After a shower,
longer and hotter than necessary for rudimentary hygiene, Anna chose to cleanse
her mind of the contents of the black garbage bag by being the bearer of glad
tidings. Sequestered in her tomb-like office against the east rampart, the
undersized door closed for privacy, she called the number where Lanny Wilcox
was staying in Miami. A woman with a
lilting Spanish accent answered the phone, then went to see if "Mr. Wilcox
is taking calls." Not an auspicious beginning. Anna wondered if Lanny was
under the care of a nurse. There had been those unfortunates during her college
years who had slid over the line while on LSD and were marooned in that place
where monsters manifest. "He's
coming," the woman's voice promised after a while. Anna waited so long she
thought she'd been forgotten or disconnected. She was debating whether or not
to hang up and dial again when Wilcox finally came on the line. "This is
Lanny Wilcox." At least that's
what Anna assumed "iss iss anny Wilks" translated to. The man sounded
drugged to the gills. Anna pictured him in a cheap tatty robe in a room full of
droolers of whom he was one. "Lanny,
this is Anna Pigeon. I took over as Supervisory Ranger when you got sick."
A long silence followed. Faint as a drunken memory, Anna heard clicking over
the line or the microwaves or whatever. She imagined it to be the clogged gears
of Lanny's brain beginning to move. Finally he managed a word. "Yeah?" "Yeah. I
called to tell you you are not crazy. While you were out here somebody spiked
your water with a hallucinogen. What kind I don't know yet but I will. They did
the same thing to me. I was seeing all kinds of strange shit for a while." Another
silence, longer this time, then: "Not crazy?" He didn't sound
exactly thrilled by the prospect of incipient sanity. In fact, he didn't sound
sane. "What meds have they got you on, Lanny?" "Uh,"
a pause perhaps to drool or think or both, "Lithium I think and other
stuff. Since I got it I haven't had . . . you know . . . visions." "Quit
taking it," Anna said. Then, thinking better of this over-the-phone
prescribing and ever-mindful of the litigiousness of the American spirit, she
amended it. "Talk to your shrink. Tell him what I told you—" "Her. It's
a her." "Her then.
Tell her what I told you." Lanny said
nothing. "What did I tell you?" Anna asked. "Uh. Not
crazy." "That's
right, Lanny. You are not crazy. What else?" "Somebody
was poisoning me." Hearing her
words repeated by a man on heavy antipsychotics, Anna realized the revelation
sounded exactly like what Lanny would say if he was a paranoid schizophrenic or
suffered any of a number of other mental illnesses. "What's
your psychiatrist's name?" "Dr.
Kelly. I'm not crazy?" He was
beginning to warm to the idea. "That's right, Lanny. Does she live in
Miami? Have a practice there? What's the name of the practice? Do you have her
number?" The rapid-fire
questioning was too much for him. "I got to give you to Anita," he
said, and Anna heard the receiver crash against the table or maybe the floor. "Anita
speaking," was the next sign of life. Anna'd never much liked the name
Anita, but the way this woman pronounced it made it pretty. "Anita,
could you give me Dr. Kelly's phone number please?" "I have
two. One for emergencies and one for regular. Which do you like?" "Give them
both to me." Anna copied down the numbers, then repeated them back. Anita
seemed proud of her for getting them both right. Chore accomplished, Anna asked
if she could speak with Lanny again. Anita didn't think this was such a good
idea. Apparently the news he'd been first drugged into insanity by the criminal
element and then drugged into another form of the same malady by the medical
community had agitated him. After Anna
twice promised to keep it short and "nice" Lanny was again put on the
phone. "One
question before I let you go, Lanny. I had cause to go into your quarters.
There are no pictures of Theresa. Did you get rid of them?" "Theresa
left me." "Right.
And did you get mad and get rid of any pictures you had of her?" "I want to
keep the pictures. She left me but I love her." Anna decided to
be "nice" and take that as a "no" he did not get rid of the
pictures. "I'll talk to you again when you're feeling better." "Okay,"
he said obediently but didn't hang up. Anna did. She
could picture him standing at the phone table with the receiver to his ear till
somebody thought to come and lead him away. Much as she
hated to talk to doctors who weren't related to her by blood, she felt she owed
it to Wilcox not to put off the call to his psychiatrist. Using the emergency
number, she got the doctor after less than twenty minutes of holding. Having
briefly explained who she was and the annoying delay on the phone line, Anna
told her about the drugging of the water. Anna didn't
know what she'd expected. Maybe a "Yippee" or "I'll get right on
that" or a least a "Thank you." None of these transpired. The
doctor's voice, warm and solicitous when she'd first come to the phone, had
cooled significantly. "Miss...?" "Pigeon,"
Anna filled in for her. "Yes. Miss
Pigeon. As you are not a physician or a family member I can't discuss his case
with you. Suffice to say I have spent time with Mr. Wilcox and his symptoms
indicated the course of medications I prescribed." Anna wasn't the
only one scared to death of being sued. "He would have," Anna said in
what she hoped were comforting tones. "The guy was being fed some kind of
hallucinogen. He's been off of them for what, three weeks? He should have come
down by now." "I've been
practicing a good while, Miss Pigeon. I think you had better let me judge the
medical needs of my patients. Good day." Boom. Silence.
"The bitch hung up on me," Anna announced to the empty office. Dr.
Kelly hadn't been afraid of getting sued; she'd been affronted at being told
she was wrong. Who knew how long she'd keep Lanny on antipsychotics just to
prove to herself she wasn't. Calling back would only make matters worse. Anna
couldn't bring herself to leave a fellow ranger trapped in a bad production of One
Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest. Much as she hated to make public the news that
there was a vicious prankster in the fort—or a perpetrator whose motives were
as unknown as his identity—before she'd had a chance to work it out, she culled
through Lanny's Rolodex and called half a dozen of the most pertinent names: a
sister in Philadelphia, a son who worked for Goldman Sachs in Vero Beach,
Lanny's general practitioner in Key West and the Chief Ranger of Everglades and
Dry Tortugas National Parks in Homestead, Florida. Surely one of them would be
better able to rescue Lanny than she was. The Chief
Ranger, Arnie Flescher, kept her on the phone for three-quarters of an hour.
She was given a much-deserved earful for not calling him immediately on the
accident with the motor shifting and her realization of the drugging.
Fortunately she had been Johnny-on-the-spot with her phone reports on the
sinking of the two boats and the injury of Bob Shaw. Once she had
been reprimanded and showed herself properly contrite, he got down to park
business. Because of the difficulty of communication with Garden Key, coupled
with the fact that as an acting Supervisory Ranger Anna didn't have a working
relationship with the various Florida law-enforcement agencies, Arnie himself
would take over tracing the identity of the two dead men and the green Scarab.
He also promised to follow up on Theresa Alvarez's whereabouts and to question
her about Lanny's drugging if they found her. If they didn't her, he'd file a
missing person's report. "If we
don't track down this girl, it doesn't necessarily mean she's met with foul
play," Chief Ranger Flescher warned. "The Cuban community looks after
their own. That doesn't always coincide with the needs of law
enforcement." Anna thanked
him for the help and the warning and hung up feeling a good deal better than
she had. Asking for help: what a concept. She made a mental note to do it more
often. Though she was only "acting"—a stranger to the park and the
environment—she'd gotten in over her head both literally and figuratively and
never once had it occurred to her to call for help. "It's
called teamwork, you idiot," she said to the ghostly reflection of her
face in the computer screen. Vaguely she
remembered she'd wanted to accomplish three things before she called it a day.
The third escaped her, and for a while she sat in the office chair, swinging
back and forth, staring mindlessly at the blank computer screen. Pictures. It
had finally floated into the accessible part of her brain. Lanny hadn't been
the one to weed out those of his departed girlfriend. With that information,
the few bad snapshots of Theresa that had been overlooked became more interesting.
Since the pictures had not been banished by a brokenhearted lover there had to
be another reason they were gone. Either the picture abductor had a serious
passion for Theresa and stole pictures rather than panties to sate it or they'd
been removed because they might show something that would harm the thief. The few snaps
Anna'd gotten from Lanny's box were in her desk drawer. She took them out and
turned her chair to better catch the slice of light leaking through the firing
slit. A beautiful woman without much in the way of clothing. None of the shots
caught her face. Why steal the face pictures? Identification? Surely a woman as
good-looking as Theresa Alvarez had photos scattered behind her like
breadcrumbs. She could probably follow them back to the first boyfriend she
ever had. Pawing through
the desk, Anna unearthed a Sherlock-Holmes-style magnifying glass and amused
herself looking at the pictures in extreme close-up. Even high-powered
magnification didn't reveal a single blemish on Miss Alvarez's behind.
Pity. Anna moved the glass over to one of the dark-haired men—both with their
backs to the camera—who stood with Theresa on the startling white sand of the
beach between the northwestern bastion and the old coaling docks. "Eureka,"
she said, and, "Hah!" At last she'd found a connection. 20 My eyes
adjusted quickly to the dim interior of the powder room. To my knowledge there
has never been gunpowder stored in these strange little rooms. With the war
over and the fort, though unfinished, already obsolete, there may never come a
time when gunpowder will be warehoused here. So, but for
Tilly and a pile of board ends left from the unfinished walls lining the
chamber, it was empty, airless and stiflingly hot. That Tilly was alone at
first relieved me of some of my worry. Then I saw what sorry shape the poor
thing was in. She lay crumpled on the far side of the scrap lumber. Her hair
had come down and was pasted in sweaty strands across flushed cheeks. Dress,
hands and face were streaked with dust and sawdust. So much had adhered to her
face, even in the questionable light I could see the cleaner tracks where tears
had cut through the grime. Her eyes were closed and her left hand pressed, palm
on her nose, fingers on her forehead, as if she kept her face from falling off
her skull. The back of her hand was bloody and her knuckles scraped. With the worry
and embarrassment she'd caused me I'd thought when I found her I would shake
her till her little pea brain rattled in her head. The moment I laid eyes on
her that thought was as if it had never been. Because she was
alive, I could not be angry anymore. Because she was so clearly hurt my heart
broke for her. My first thought was of the worst. The rough soldiers, Sinapp
with his hot eyes, the chase—one might think in a place so overcrowded as this
there would be nowhere away from prying eyes or helping hands to assault a
young girl. Such is not the case. There are a few such comers isolated amidst
the clamor. The powder storage rooms would serve very well. A cry might not be
heard over the sound of building and men's voices. "Tilly,"
I said and was surprised to hear my voice break with tears. She lowered her
hand and I was glad to see her face was unmarked with anything more damaging
than dirt. When she saw me she did not stand but held her arms out the way she
used to when she was a little thing and wanted one of us to lift her up. Risking a rusty
nail through the soles of my soft slippers, I went to her and held her. Safe or
repentant or just emotionally strained, she began crying in earnest. After
she'd wept the dust off of her face and onto the front of my white pin-tucked
bodice, she settled down. I got her to sit up so I could have a look at her. I was comforted
by the fact that her buttons were buttoned, her laces laced and no part of her
attire that I could see was torn. After she calmed somewhat I asked if she was
hurt. "No..."
The word trailed off as if she wasn't sure or struggled to remember. "Did
anybody ... did the men—" "No!"
She was sure this time and vehement. Pulling a little away from me she tried
pushing her hair back into the bun she wore high on her head, a sign of
womanhood I doubt she could have gotten away with at her age if she still lived
with Molly. "No,"
she repeated, looking ready to burst into a second flood of tears. She acted at
odds with herself—with me—the way she does when she's lying. "I would
never tell anyone, Tilly," I promised. "Not a word, not to Joseph,
not to our sisters—" (This last part was a lie. I would have told you the
first opportunity I had to get my hands on a pen.) I truly meant
it about not telling Joseph. Had the old Joseph found out she'd been assaulted,
the men involved would be hanged. This new Joseph who has chosen to let a
sergeant show disrespect might not mete out punishment. Besides, I didn't need
Joseph. At that moment I sincerely believed that I would find someway to kill
any man who hurt Tilly in that way myself. I still believe it but am deeply
grateful I was not called upon to test it. "I've not
been touched," Tilly said. This was spoken in a rational tone and I
believed her. "Tell me
what happened." This is a question that becomes all too common when one
lives with our sister. "I had ...
I went... I needed..." The silly
creature was trying to think of a way to get around the fact she'd been to the
conspirators' cell alone. Saving her the effort and me the time, I said:
"Went to Dr. Mudd's cell without me." "Yes,"
she admitted. "And not
for the first time." She looked at me with such surprise, had my generosity
not been taxed by the day she'd forced upon me I might have laughed. Not ready to
confess yet, she went on without addressing it. "Dr. Mudd wanted to see me
about something important, he said." "How did
he say?" I demanded. "Did he send a message?" Tilly realized
the thin ice she walked on only when she heard it cracking. Not only Mudd but
any soldier or inmate who assisted him could be whipped for carrying messages
to a child of an officer without the express permission of that officer. Rather than
lie, she said nothing. I say that to her credit. On looking back, I do not
believe Tilly to have told a single falsehood—at least not in words and at her
tender age the nuances of deceit, omission, allowing presumption, half truths
and misleading statements still seem to dwell on the side of godliness if only
just barely. Sam Arnold's warning came back to me then. He'd said Dr. Mudd was
taking advantage of Tilly's admiration of him, using her for his own ends. "Go
on," I said when it was clear my ominous silence and baleful stare were
not going to coerce any more out of her on the subject of Dr. Mudd's summons. "I went
there—to Dr. Mudd—and we talked." "What
about?" At first I thought she wasn't going to tell me but would add it to
the list of secrets that were aging us both far more efficiently than the
passage of time ever could. A light came into her eyes and she leaned in toward
me, lips parted. She wanted to tell me—tell someone. The secret was positively
dancing a jig on the tip of her tongue. Still she hesitated. My guess was she'd
been told by our illustrious prisoner not to. This time my
hopeful silence worked. "You must
promise not to tell," she insisted. Of course I
promised, but with every intention of breaking it, and so endangering my
immortal soul, should keeping Tilly's secret place her in harm's way. "Dr. Mudd
is innocent," she whispered triumphantly. I didn't
respond to that. It was not much of a secret. He'd been insisting on it since
the beginning, and Tilly had been saying much the same thing, thus earning the
ill will of union soldiers and sympathizers at the fort. She seemed to take my
silence as ignorance because she leaned ever closer, till our foreheads were
nearly touching. "He didn't
do it, he didn't have anything to do with the assassination of poor Mr.
Lincoln." "I know
what you meant," I said with some asperity. "You told the soldiers as
much after you left his cell, did you not?" Again she gave
me that look of foolish astonishment, amazed that an adult might have done
homework of her own. "Yes. But
I now have the proof of it." "Do you
have it with you?" I asked. I must take
back what I said about her never having lied outright. She did so twice. This
was the first. "No,"
she told me and had the decency to turn her head away to save me the disrespect
of lying to my face. There was
little I could do short of wrestling her down in the dust and searching her
pockets and person, so I let it pass. I changed the
subject. "How did you scrape the back of your hand? It's bleeding." This was the
second lie: "I fell." I waited in
hopes she would see the error of her ways and tell me the truth, but she
didn't. "I came
out of the cell and Sergeant Sinapp and some of his men were loitering
there," she volunteered, as if this late and little bit of honesty would
wipe away the other. "I don't know if they were waiting for me or if
they'd gathered in that particular place by chance. That sergeant—I hate him,
Raffia. I know Molly says it's wrong to hate and I don't think I've ever hated
anyone before, not truly, but I hate Sergeant Sinapp." She looked at
me, waiting for a reprimand I expect, but as that would have been the pot
calling the kettle black, I said nothing. "Anyway,
he started saying things about my being in with the prisoners, awful things
that just aren't true but are no less hurtful and hateful because they're
lies." Tears filled her eyes again. I ignored it.
"So you told him why you'd really been there," I said. "Yes." "To gather
evidence—proof—that the man condemned by the highest court in the union after
weeks of testimony and evidence was actually and against all odds
innocent." "Yes." "And that
you had this proof." "Oh,
Raffia," she burst out. "He was so awful and so smug and
superior." "Tilly, if
Dr. Mudd really did have proof of his innocence, don't you think he would have
brought it up at the trial rather than wait till he was incarcerated a million
miles from home and then entrust it to a sixteen-year-old Yankee girl?" "But he
didn't have it then. Don't you see?" she pleaded. "So here
on a key made of sand in a fort he's never been to before he found something
that exonerates him. That makes no sense, Tilly." "No.
No," she said. "He didn't find it, it came." "In the
mail?" Tilly seemed to
think she'd told me too much. Her face, open with enthusiasm moments before,
grew still and closed. I tried a
different argument. "If he'd gotten something that could win him his
freedom, don't you think he would have called Joseph immediately? Why the
secrecy? Why give it to you?" "He didn't
want it destroyed." "By
whom?" I asked, but Tilly wouldn't tell me any more. Clearly any and all
persons but for herself were cast as the destroyers. I gave up. "When you
came out of the cell, what did he do, Sergeant Sinapp?" "I hate
him," she repeated with even more vehemence than the first few times.
"He said, 'Let me see it.' I started to leave and he grabbed at me. Then
they were all grabbing at me and I got away and ran. The others stayed but he
came after me. I heard a crash and some cursing but I didn't look back. I kept
running. I think he tripped over one of the cats that likes to sun itself on
the stored lumber." She was quiet for a moment, then she added: "I've
always liked cats. Do you think we might feed them?" I laughed then,
and she knew she'd won me over for the time being. "I like cats too,"
I told her. "Let's get you home." With spit and spanking I managed to
get enough of the dust and the mud her tears had made of it off of her face and
clothes that we would not invite comments when we crossed the parade ground. Back in our
rooms I put Luanne in a foul humor by ordering a tub filled though it was
Wednesday. The bath was partly because I do love our troublesome sibling and
partly because I wished to search her dress. I did not let her out of my sight
between leaving the powder room and seeing her naked in the bath. I did search
her pockets but, by the willingness with which she turned the garments over to
me, I knew I would find nothing. Because she'd
lied to me and because she had something she didn't want me to find, she
watched me as closely as I watched her. I'd hoped to leave her alone in the tub
so I might slip back to the powder room and see if I could find this spurious
"proof" she'd been given. Tilly kept me
at her side, first washing her back then brushing her hair dry. She insisted we
have tea. I don't think she knew what was in my mind and hoped to keep me away
from the powder room where I'm convinced she hid this "proof." (Why
else would her hands be scraped raw? I believe she shoved whatever it was
beneath the scrap lumber when she heard me calling.) No, for all her practicing
at deceit, I believe she kept me beside her because she is young and afraid and
her older sisters are the only parents she has known. It was bedtime
and full dark before she would let me out of her sight. Before she
awoke the following morning I was up and dressed and wending my way back to the
middle of the northern rampart on the second tier. With me I had fish scraps to
reward the pussycats that had brought down Sergeant Sinapp. The kittens are so
adorable, one nearly all white but for a gray mark in the shape of a thumbprint
on its head. I was tempted to bring it home, but I know Joseph would fly into a
rage. I don't think I told you, but I tried it once before with a little
gray-and-white tabby I'd named Pandora. Joseph raged and I let him and kept my
cat for two days. She was gone on the third morning. Joseph had drowned her. Joseph's hatred
of cats stems, he says, from the fact that they are secretive beasts. Personally
I cannot conceive of a creature with a brain the size of a walnut being that
much cleverer than I, but to each his own. Perhaps it is a territorial thing.
If cats are secretive then Joseph is the greatest torn of them all. He has
never been forthcoming but of late he has been hiding things, I know it. Though
never open with me, he's not deemed his activities—or my feelings—worthy of
keeping things hidden before. This has changed. The other day, after a ship
from the mainland came with mail, the fort went quiet while we all ran to pore
over news from outside. I was sequestered in the bedroom, delighting in all
your news from home, when I remembered I'd not given Luanne instructions for
dinner. Lest I forget completely I decided to do it at once so I might enjoy my
afternoon with you in clear conscience. Joseph was at
his desk in a widening of the hallway between our room and Tilly's, reading the
letters he had received. When I came out of the bedroom—burst out, rather, as I
was keen to execute my duty and get back to you—he shoved the letter he was
holding inside his vest and snatched up another which he then pretended (rather
badly) to be engrossed in. Knowing it
would avail me nothing but cold stares and colder silences, I did not confront
him about it. I cannot but think he has taken a lover. Why else would he hide a
letter from me? If she is from Key West, or the mainland proper, he must have
met her some time ago, yet this is the first evidence of it I've had. Though you most
kindly pretend otherwise, I know you think little of my husband. This is my
fault. I've used your shoulder to cry on when we had the usual peccadilloes of
the professional soldier. Still, I have deep feelings for him, and the thought
that one of these dalliances has survived, grown into a true relationship, hurt
me. Probably it was something else entirely. Orders that cannot be shared or
some such. Regardless, with Joseph hiding letters and Tilly secreting
"proofs," I am beginning to feel I live in a house of secrets. That
there is another life than the one I know flowing silently below the surface
and, at any time, the barrier between the two could weaken and I could suddenly
find myself plunged into events for which I am not prepared frightens me. Other than a
lovely few minutes watching the kittens devour my offerings, the journey was a
disappointment. The previous evening the powder room had been filled with
cannon barrels, wheels, pins and other pieces of ordnance. A worker, one of the
colored boys used by the builder, said they'd no use for them now and the
powder room was the only place they wouldn't be eaten up by rust right off. The
lumber pile had not been moved. The iron parts had been dumped atop of it
higgledy-piggledy. Without enlisting the help of half a dozen strong men I
could not shift it to look beneath the pile. My curiosity
was not fated to be satisfied. It is my hope that this will be the end of the
matter. If I cannot move the pieces of machinery then Tilly surely cannot.
Should the mysterious "proof" be buried beneath it she will either
have to tell Joseph so he can have it exhumed or she will have to leave it alone.
Either would be acceptable to me. As I was
returning from this fruitless visit, picking my way through the lumber and
unused brick where the kittens make their home, I heard a disturbance from the
direction of Joel and the conspirators' cells. Curious, I hurried through the
bastion to see what was causing the noise. With the powder room, Joseph's
letter and the cats, I could not but think of the old saw about curiosity
killing, but it didn't slow my steps. The door to
Joel's casemate cell stood open, moving slightly as if it had just been passed
through in haste. From within came the sound of men fighting in close quarters.
It occurs to me as I write this that over the years I have grown able to tell
the different sorts of altercations by their sounds. This did not sound lethal,
merely the thumps and grunts expected at the tail end of a fight between
unequal adversaries. Unbecoming as
I'm sure it was, I went to the door and looked in. Joel leaned against the
windowless wooden wall covering the arch overlooking the parade ground. The
door in the small arch to his left, the one leading into the cell of Sam Arnold
and Dr. Mudd, was open. Two soldiers pushed Mr. Arnold against the brick of the
archway surrounding the communicating door. From the blood pouring out of his
nose and the split in his lower lip it appeared they had been none too gentle. "If it
were up to me I'd just as soon let you bastards kill each other," said the
soldier, whom I recognized as my overweight secret smoker of the other day. He
was no longer the amiable lifer but was taut and alive with a fierceness I
never would have expected. He had his forearm across Mr. Arnold's throat and held
the man's right wrist pinned against the wall. A young soldier, smaller in
stature—not much taller than I—struggled to hold Mr. Arnold's left arm. Dr. Mudd was in
the far corner beneath the three high, narrow slits on the harbor side, one
hand held over his left ear as though it was injured. With the other he held
the wrist of the ear-clutching hand. Very melodramatic. I thought that of his
pose and expression as well: a picture of wounded innocence. "You bunch
are a goddamn fu—" the old soldier began. "Mrs.
Coleman," Mr. Arnold said quickly and loudly, saving the soldier from
committing an offense—or imagined offense. I have heard the rough language of
army men for so many years I have to remember to look appalled in order they
not lose respect for their captain's wife. The fight, what
little of it remained, went out of soldiers and conspirator alike—and to think
I once scoffed at the much-touted civilizing powers of the gentler sex.
"Mrs. Coleman." My old fat friend acknowledged me with a nod of the
head. Not for a
moment did he loose his hold on Mr. Arnold. The younger soldier dropped Mr.
Arnold's arm to pay his respects. A difference in experience, I expect.
Fortunately for the young man, Mr. Arnold did not intend him harm. "You gonna
behave now?" the older soldier asked. Mr. Arnold nodded and, still
watching and alert, the soldier lowered his arm from his throat, let loose his
wrist, and backed away. For the oddest
moment we all simply looked at one another. What behavior we expected in that
stuffy cell in the midst of the sea I cannot say. Dr. Mudd ended our peculiar
paralysis. "I request
you take me to your surgeon. I fear my ear has been seriously injured," he
said in his formal and overblown way. My old smoking
soldier jumped. I believe until that moment he had completely forgotten about
Mudd, he had kept himself so still and deep in the shadows of a shadowy room. "It would
serve you right if you got hydrophobia and died," he growled at Dr. Mudd.
"Next time you two decide to kill each other, unless you go an' do it
quiet like, I'll personally kill you both for making me come up here." "Death
would be preferable to serving a life sentence with a whiner and a thief,"
Sam Arnold snarled. You might laugh
at me, Peggy, for using "snarled" and "growled" and
"snapped" when describing the conversations of men, but being in that
cell was so like being in a pen with dogs standing one another off over a bone
that I cannot think of another way to describe how they spoke to one another. After the brief
exchange, the old soldier blew out a prodigious sigh. The hackles he'd raised
in his role as vicious fighting man fell away, age and humanity took their
place. "And what
was it was took from you?" he asked of Mr. Arnold. I had the sense it was
not the first time the question had been put. Mr. Arnold said
nothing for a moment. The first time in my memory of him he stood straight and
strong, shoulders back, not slouching or leaning. Just when I thought he was
not going to answer, he said: "He stole
a personal item of mine." "And just
what might that 'personal item' be?" the soldier asked. Mr. Arnold
ground his teeth. Not only could I see the muscles of his jaw working, I could
hear the awful grating sound. Perhaps this is what is meant by
"gnashing." "He took it from my mail," Mr. Arnold said.
"Tampering with the mails is a serious offense." Mudd laughed.
The humor was bitter but his laughter wasn't unkind so much as sad. "What
would you have them do, Sam? Add twenty years to my life sentence? Were that
true you would have discovered the secret to eternal life." "We'll
search him," the old soldier said wearily. "Will that keep you from
cuttin' up and throwing the furniture, such as it is?" "Search
him," Mr. Arnold said. "We got to
search him for something. We ain't gonna just turn out his pockets so's you can
pick and choose. What're we looking for? A ring, a pork chop,
eyeglasses—what?" Mr. Arnold
refused to speak. "Suit
yourself. Come on, doctor, we'll get your ear looked at though I'm of half a
mind to rip it clear off just to work off the irritation you two caused
me." On impulse I
asked if I might stay a minute to look after Joel. The slight young private was
left to see to me, and the others left, closing the door behind them. "What did
he take from you, Mr. Arnold?" Why I thought he would tell me what he had
withheld from the soldiers I do not know, but I did. In this I was wrong. "Please
excuse me, Mrs. Coleman," he said and retired to his own cell, shutting
the communicating door. I turned to
where Private Lane cowered against the wall. "Cower" is too strong a
word and sounds as if I think of him unkindly. That is not the case. Since
his terrible beating he is a very different boy. Before Sinapp nearly killed
him, he was a joyous boy on his way to becoming a strong man. Now he
seems only and always a boy, and the joyousness is replaced by watchfulness and
too great a dependence on those he feels to be his friends: Dr. Mudd, Tilly and
me. "Joel?" I said. "Are you all right?" "Yes,
ma'am. It was nothing to do with me." "Come over
here; sit in the light where I can look at you," I said. Obediently he
came to where I waited in the dull light from high openings. I'd spoken before
I'd thought. The cell contained but a single stool made of scrap lumber. A gift
from one of the guards. He fetched it
for me then knelt so I needn't look up at him. "What was
this about?" "I don't
really know. Sam and the doctor been at odds since I got here. Lately the
doctor's been hectoring Sam about him being innocent. You'd think Sam would
know whether he was or not, wouldn't you?" I nodded to
keep him talking. "Today Sam
went wild over something. I heard him screaming and breaking the little bits of
furniture, calling the doctor a thief and the doctor calling him names and
saying, 'You would have me die with scum like you' and other things. Then the
guards came." "You don't
know what was stolen?" I asked. He shifted
uncomfortably. The brick was beginning to hurt his knees. I wanted to keep his
attention for a while longer so I didn't give him leave to rise. "I don't
even know that a thing was stolen," he told me. "You mean
Mr. Arnold lied? To what end?" I did not believe for a minute Mr. Arnold
lied. His face was too full of emotion for that. "No. Not
lied," Joel said. "Dr. Mudd took something but maybe not a thing. Maybe
information or an idea or a secret. I say that because Sam tore the room up and
pretty much handled Dr. Mudd till the soldiers came. I think he'd have found a thing.
Where could anybody hide anything here?" He shrugged at the unforgiving
brick and hoard around, above and below us. I said nothing
but it struck me that Sam Arnold's property might have been stolen earlier and
he'd only just this morning noticed it missing. Were that the case, I knew well
where this thing could have been hidden. In my little sister's pocket. 21 Anna indulged herself
in an early and quiet evening. She read Raffia's letters, then went to bed
before dark. The following morning she woke, feeling more clearheaded than she
had in days. For the first
time since she'd come to the Keys, the morning wasn't bright and sunny. A stiff
breeze blew out of the southeast. The sky was heavy with dark clouds and, where
they broke open, she could see paler gray clouds above, long, stretched, mare's
tails that told of winds at high altitudes. In the office
she turned the radio on and tuned it to the marine weather frequency. Rain and
winds to thirty knots. Small craft warnings were out. No hurricane. Anna was
disappointed. Had she been a shore-bound homeowner she'd have been relieved.
Out on Garden Key the fort had withstood a hundred and fifty years of storms
with little damage. The rangers liked hurricanes; they blew the tourists away. Feeling snug
behind fifteen feet of brick wall, she took out the photograph she'd studied
the day before. Just to be sure
residual drugs in her bloodstream weren't making her see things, she downloaded
the pictures she had taken of the corpse Bob Shaw kept company with on East
Key. Sure enough, on
the dead man's calf was the same tattoo as in the snapshot of Theresa and two
Hispanic men she'd pilfered from Lanny's house. Given this tattoo was the mark
of a brotherhood of smugglers, as Florida law enforcement said, it was safe to
assume more than one man had it. The height, weight, hair length and coloring
of the corpse and Ms. Alvarez's companion also matched. It was the same
guy. Anna turned
from the photos to let her mind clear. The runaway girlfriend had spoken with
the man on the Scarab hauling fuel. Theresa was Cuban. It was a good bet in
this part of the country the two Hispanic men with her were Cuban as well. The
second man might very well be the fellow whose penis and hand rested in cold
storage in the researchers' dorm. Garden Key was a small place. The three of
them might have met by chance, gathered together in birds-of-a-feather mode to
speak their native language or exchange recipes. Anna doubted
it. The men killed in the Scarab's explosion were here for reasons other than
socializing. It was their knee-jerk reaction to run from the law in the person
of Ranger Shaw, which brought about the original blast. They must have had a
pressing reason to come to the docks and beaches where rangers lurked, a
pressing need to talk with Theresa. Anna flipped
over the photograph of Ms. Alvarez and the men to check the date. The picture
had been printed in Key West a week or so after Theresa left Lanny. Anna called
up the prior month's duty roster. Lanny had his days off the week the photo was
printed. The timing was right but what mattered was when the photo was taken. Again she
dialed Lanny's number. Anita answered, and after a minute of cajoling went to
fetch her patient or master—Anna still wasn't sure what sort of place Lanny was
living in. At length his
voice came over the phone. Anna thought he sounded marginally sharper, but
sufficient time had not passed for the antipsychotics to wear off even if he
remembered not to keep taking them. No other avenue
open, she asked her questions, couching each in simple descriptive language to
help him remember. Since he was in a particularly suggestible state, she had to
concentrate on her words lest she create a false memory for him. The talk,
though mumbling, often slurred and beset by meanderings, was not completely a
waste of time. Lanny might remember the picture. He might have taken it
himself. He must have had it developed on his lieu days if that's what the date
was. If all that could be so, then it might have been the roll he finished up
the day before Theresa left. Not exactly
testimony Anna would want to put before a jury. The radio
crackling snatched her out of this morass of thoughts. "Hey Anna,
it's Patrice, are you there?" the lighthouse keeper said. Though Patrice
and Donna had been coming to Loggerhead one month a summer for many years, and Patrice
had once been a police officer, they refused to use proper radio protocol. It
was a point of pride with them. "I'm
here," Anna said and smiled. The rebel women made the male-created radio
protocol seem foolish: boys playing at being soldiers. "While
Donna was up in the lighthouse fiddling with something greasy she spotted
another one of your go-fast boats. Thought you might want to know." Go-fast boats
weren't a rarity in the Dry Tortugas but neither were they the usual fare.
Recent events made this sighting of interest. Anna jotted down the color of the
boat and the direction it had been heading, thanked Patrice and went back to
her telephoning, this time tracking down the owner of the green boat. Since
she'd turned this particular task over to Lieutenant George Henriquez in Key
West, she was relegated to the job of nag. Accepting the new role, she dialed
his number. Luck was on her
side; George was in and answering his phone. It might have been her imagination
or her inborn cynicism, but it seemed with each new invention developed to make
communication easier—call waiting, forwarding, voice mail, fax, pagers, cell
phones—the more difficult it became to get in touch with anyone. "Hey
George, Anna Pigeon out at Dry Tortugas." She heard a sigh and a scuffle
and knew her projects had not been on the top of Lieutenant Henriquez's
undoubtedly daunting To Do list. He was kind
enough to be apologetic instead of peevish. He'd faxed the registration number
she'd gotten off the engine to Manny Silva in the coast guard office. He gave
her Mr. Silva's direct number and the extension. On the Theresa Alvarez thing
he'd gotten a few numbers, which he passed on to her. The boat
registration could wait. Theresa's connection to the men on the boat would not.
Anna dialed the first of the numbers Lieutenant Henriquez had given her, a Mrs.
Alvarez, Theresa's aunt on her father's side. Mrs. Alvarez
was home. No number menu to punch, no machine; a human voice. The woman's
English was not the best and Anna's Spanish was rudimentary, but they managed. Anna introduced
herself and said why she was calling. Through a patient sifting of words in two
languages and the aggravating delays on the line, Anna pieced together a short
and unenlightening story. Theresa was happy with Lanny. She'd never mentioned
leaving him. She'd never come home. According to the aunt, Theresa was a good
girl, "never in no trouble," and had strong ties with her community.
"Everybody love our Theresa. She always doing for people." Theresa was not
an American citizen but was in Florida legally. When Anna asked after Theresa's
mother, father and Mrs. Alvarez herself regarding the immigration issues, the
aunt suddenly lost what English she had. Out of
questions and Mrs. Alvarez frightened into "Si" and "No comprendo,"
Anna was about to begin her thank-yous when Theresa's aunt had a sudden
attack of confidences. "Something
bad happened. Theresa don't just not come home. And she don't walk out on
Lanny. When Willy he introduces them, Theresa seemed not to care, like she's
pretending. But Theresa loved that Lanny even he's an old man for her and not
rich. Something bad happened." Anna tended to
agree that something bad had happened to Theresa. "I'll look into
it," she promised and put the receiver back in its cradle, not much wiser
than before she'd made the translingual call. Before she'd
had time to let go of the receiver, her mind clicked back to Mrs. Alvarez's
last remarks. "When Willy introduced them." Willy, William. "Shit,"
Anna said, picked the receiver back up, and hit redial. "This is
Ranger Pigeon again, Mrs. Alvarez," Anna said as soon as the other woman
picked up. "Hallo?" Realizing she'd
rattled her words so quickly Mrs. Alvarez probably wouldn't have understood
even if English had been her first language, Anna repeated herself at a more
genteel pace. "Yes?"
During the second Anna'd needed to reach epiphany Mrs. Alvarez had thought
better of talking openly with government authorities. "Who did
you say introduced Lanny and Theresa?" Anna asked. "Willy, he
introduce them," she said guardedly. Anna wanted
Willy's last name but had a hunch her calling back so abruptly had scared Mrs.
Alvarez more than a little. "Is Willy American?" Anna asked.
"I'm not from immigration, Mrs. Alvarez, and I don't want to cause anybody
trouble. I just want to find Theresa. I think this Willy may know something. Is
he an American?" "Oh yes.
He is an American now," Mrs. Alvarez replied. Anna felt a
pang of disappointment strong enough it was physical. She had been so sure she
was onto something, she was tempted to think Theresa's aunt was lying, but
she'd answered with such enthusiasm Anna believed her. Basically decent people
preferred to tell the truth and often grew angry when backed into a corner they
had to lie their way out of. It was exactly the opposite with those who were
not basically decent. Willy was not born in America. He was originally a
citizen of Cuba. To finish up the charade Anna would ask another couple of
questions and move on. "So Willy came here when he was little? With his
folks?" "No. No.
His parents they got killed. This lady—nice lady, she been dead a long time
now—he call Tia Blanche—Auntie Blanche—she raised him up. Such a sad
little boy. You would cry to see him. Marks of those chingalas still on
his body." Anna sat up
from the slump her disappointment had lured her into. "What marks?" "This was
a long time ago when Castro he throw out all the Americans and snatch lands.
Some of his men they tortured this little boy. Willy never said but Blanche tell
me they whip him over and over with barbed wire to try and make a baby tell
them where his mama and papa hide. Then they kill them." Without
realizing she did so, Anna put her free hand over her eyes as if it would help
to block out the image in her mind. To torture a child with a brutal beating
that would leave scars in body and mind was evil. To force that child to betray
his parents to their deaths was unspeakable. It would almost have been kinder
to kill him. Barbed wire.
Her hunch about Willy was correct. "The little boy was born in Cuba?"
Anna asked. "Yes, but
his papa was American so Willy is an American, too, without taking no
tests." "Willy—William—Macintyre." "Si.
Macintyre. His papa's name." William
Macintyre, Mack, the man who said he'd been born into land and money but had it
stripped from him. The man with old scars on his back and legs scars he'd said
he'd gotten in prison when he had no felony record, the boy who'd been whipped
with barbed wire by guards in a Cuban prison before he was six years old. "Gracias,
Senora Alvarez," Anna said politely and returned the earpiece to its
cradle. Mack had more
depth to him than she had suspected. He was born in Cuba and raised in a Cuban
neighborhood in Miami. The same neighborhood as Theresa Alvarez. Anna'd thought
he'd met Theresa here at the fort. He'd never said otherwise—apparently not to
anyone. Surely if he had, with all the talk there'd been of Theresa's
absconding with the Supervisory Ranger's heart, somebody would have mentioned
it. Theresa was
photographed talking with two men, one bearing a smuggler's tattoo Anna'd later
seen on a dead man. Odds were good that Theresa had known these men prior to
moving to Garden Key. Had Mack known them as well? Anna considered
calling Lanny Wilcox again to see if she could get the details out of him:
where and when he'd met Theresa, if he knew she was more than a chance
acquaintance of Mack's, whether or not the course of true love had run smooth,
and, possibly most important, whose idea had it been that Theresa come to live
with him on Garden Key. The state of Wilcox's brain dissuaded her. He wouldn't
be able to tell her much, and what he did divulge would be highly suspect. Anna put in a
call to the Chief Ranger in Homestead. This time she did have to push menu
buttons, speak with a secretary and sit on hold for a while. When Flescher came
on the line Anna told him what she needed. "You're bound to have more
clout than I do," she said. "Can you work it out?" "I'll call
you back." He hung up
before Anna had finished the bye in goodbye. She didn't know whether he was in
a rush to get right on it or whether he needed time to decide whether or not to
waste his credit with the local FBI on the say-so of some lady ranger out of
Mississippi who had a reputation for stirring up trouble. For forty-five
minutes Anna waited by the phone. She didn't dare make any calls to follow up
on the engine serial number lest she tie up the line. She couldn't leave the
office for fear she would miss the call. Her mind was too scrambled to focus on
anything else. To keep herself from pacing and rehearsing the four-letter words
she'd learned after hours at Mercy High School, she clipped her nails, ordered
Lanny's desk drawer and worked three crossword puzzles gleaned from a stack of
old newspapers piled beside the coffee machine. When the phone
finally rang, she pounced upon it with such alacrity she knocked the receiver
to the floor and had to drag it up by the cord. "Dry
Tortugas National Park." "What are
you doing? Playing hockey using the phone as a puck?" It was Chief
Ranger Arnie Flescher. "Can you
do it?" "Let's
slow down," he said. Those words,
spoken by a superior, usually segued into "No." Anna made a
point to say nothing, not the teensiest little peep that would give away the
fact she was not really a team player. "Cliff and
the Activa will be out in a couple days. Why don't you hold off till
then? Send the dead boatman's hand in and ID can be done in proper order at the
lab. Finding out who these guys were has got to be attempted, but there's no
rush on it that I can see." Anna ran a
quick check to make sure no snide words or sarcastic edges tainted words or
tone, then said: "I think they may have had some-thing to do with the
disappearance of Theresa Alvarez. I found a picture of her and the man Bob
tried to rescue." "Disappearance?
I thought she ran off. Is this the guy she ran off with? We don't want to get a
thick finger stirring in the domestic pot." "Maybe she
didn't run off." "I don't
want to hear this." "How was
it decided she'd run out on Lanny? Who said that? Lanny?" There was a
jumble of words as the chief and she talked over one another, forgetting the
one-second wait the phone system levied. "I don't
know," the chief said at last. "It was just sort of known the way
those things are." "If she
ran off she didn't take much with her and, according to her aunt, never showed
up anywhere." "Nope.
Didn't want to hear that. Check it out." "That's
what I need your help with." Several ticks
of the big wall clock went by, the red second hand seeming to pause to gather
its courage before each jump. "This is news," the chief said. His
voice was sufficiently neutral Anna guessed he was pissed off. Chief
rangers—the good ones—do not like being kept in the dark. "I just
saw the picture," Anna said. "And I talked to Mrs. Alvarez only a few
minutes before I called you. I mean, I'd seen the photo before, but I didn't
recognize the guy till just now." Probably
because he wanted results, he didn't question her story. "Okay," he
said after a bit of thought that came at Anna in edged silences. "Here's
what you do. No guarantees. It depends on how good the prints you lift are. The
submersion in water may be a help. It sort of puffs things up." Though the
instructions were short and simple, Anna wrote them down. She had no intention
of screwing this up. Finally free of
the phone, she collected her fingerprinting kit and returned to the
researchers' dorm. As she turned the key to let herself in. she had the sudden
and horrible thought that the hand, her only way of finding out the identity of
the man blown to smithereens on the green Scarab, would be gone. In her naivetй
she'd not secured the body parts, not even thought of them as evidence and had
made no effort to lock them up. Anyone at the fort could easily get the key to
the dorm if they didn't already have one. Her fears were
unfounded. Sitting in the refrigerator, palm up in lonely supplication, was the
most important remaining part of what had once been a human being. Having had
his penis severed, the victim might not have agreed with her assessment on the
varying levels of importance, but there were no national data banks for finding
matches to penis prints. From the rough
and disengaged life these five fingers had suffered, the skin was perilously
loose, and Anna handled the thing with extreme care. Using black ink, she would
print only the thumb. Her knowledge of how printing worked after death and
submersion was sketchy at best. Should her method somehow destroy the skin of
the thumb, she wanted to leave the other four fingers for a technician more
schooled than she. Had the hand
been newly dead, firm of flesh, she might have lifted the print on sticky tape.
As it was she feared the tape would pull away flesh as well as ink. When she
gripped the back of the hand to roll the thumb, she had a bad moment. Till then
the hand had been merely an object of study. Feeling the give of the flesh, the
familiar bone structure beneath, it reverted to a macabre chunk of a
once-living person. Revulsion would have had her throw it away with a girlish
shriek. Closing her eyes, she let the impulse pass, then carefully rolled out
three prints. The first two were smudged. She'd used too much ink. The last was
good. Because it
seemed wrong not to do so, disrespectful or at least untidy, she gently wiped
the digit free of ink before restoring it to its temperature-controlled
sarcophagus. Following the
chief ranger's instructions, she scanned the print into the computer and
e-mailed it to the man he'd recommended at the FBI office in Miami. Chief
Ranger Flescher had worked with the agent a time or two and knew the man to be
an avid diver. Anything that helped keep the park pristine he was glad to do. Anna also faxed
him a copy, though the final printout probably wouldn't be clear enough to
read. Mission
accomplished, she returned to her station at the phone. Ironically, never a big
fan of telephones, she had spent a good bit of her life on them. Molly, whom
she saw once a year if she was lucky, stayed close in mind and heart over the
phone. The last semiserious relationship she'd had with a man—an FBI agent now
married to her sister—had been conducted largely over the telephone. Still, she
hated it as a woman on life support might come to detest the tubes and pumps
that kept her among the living. Knowing herself
destined to live with this love/hate relationship for many more years, Anna
dialed Manny Silva, Lieutenant Henriquez's contact in the coast guard. Her run
of luck was at an end. Silva was out. She left a message on his voice mail and
went home. Fortified with an egg-salad sandwich and a coke, she hurried back
toward the office. It surprised
her that the day was still gray, that the wind still blew. Crossing the parade
ground, a few spatters of rain hit her face. Anna loved wild weather and threw
her arms out as if to catch it. Wind made her crazy, like a cat in autumn
leaves. An exhilarating sense of expectation. A hurricane would have been
grand. The thought engendered a stab of guilt. Not all that many years ago
Hurricane Andrew had devastated the town of Homestead. Park employees living
there lost everything. Most didn't stay to rebuild but scattered to parks
across the country. The demoralizing effect had been felt by the entire
service. Still and
all... a hurricane would have been grand. Having checked
the answering machine to satisfy herself that she hadn't missed Manny Silva's
call, she settled down with the old crossword puzzles. Puzzles were
done. Anna knew way more than she'd ever wanted to concerning what the paper in
Key West considered news. Finally, the phone deigned to ring. It wasn't
Manny. It was Agent Tad Bronson of the FBI office in Miami. Before he would
give Anna any information, she was forced to pay for it by talking dives and
fishes and wrecks for a quarter of an hour. By bringing to bear what rudiments
of southern hospitality she'd picked up in Mississippi, she managed not to
snap, "Cut to the chase" even once. Finally her
patience was rewarded. "But I guess we've frittered away enough of the
taxpayers' money on blue water. You'll be wanting to know about your
fingerprints. Where'd you find this guy anyway?" Anna paid
another installment on the coveted information by telling Tad of the explosion,
dives and body parts recovery. "Well, we
got a match on your boy," he said when she'd answered half a dozen
questions on gear, water clarity and scavenger fishes. 'Bout goddamn
time. "What did you turn up?" "Guy's
name is Ramon Diego, born in Cuba, came to the U.S. at the age of twelve with
his mother. Became a citizen at twenty-two. No wants, no warrants. His prints
were on file because he and his mom entered the U.S. illegally. Mother and son
were kept in a holding area by immigration for a couple of months. That's where
his prints got into the system." "Anything
else on him?" Anna asked. "Nope, he
lived a good clean life since coming to the promised land. No trouble. He
hasn't gotten so much as a DUI, according to the records. I do have the DOB.
According to his birth date, your guy would have been forty-three day before
yesterday." "I hope
the fishes blew out the candles before they ate him," Anna said. "What do
you want this guy for?" "I don't
know yet," she said truthfully. "But he was up to something."
Anna promised him the rest of the story next time he came to the park to dive,
and he allowed her to disconnect. Leaning back
till two chair legs left the floor, Anna put her feet on Lanny Wilcox's desk.
Thought came more easily when the body was disconnected from the earth. Two
guys on a go-fast boat. One probably knew Theresa Alvarez. No ID on him yet.
Prints probably not in the system. A tattoo supposedly favored by smugglers.
The other guy on the boat was a Cuban refugee-become-U.S.-citizen. Given his
age, he would have lived in Cuba around the time Castro threw out the landowning
Americans, including William Macintyre's parents. Anna didn't know Mack's age.
His skin was so sun-damaged it was impossible to tell. If he were younger than
he looked, it was possible he'd met Diego either in Cuba when he was a little boy
or in the refugee holding area in Florida. She put her
feet back on the floor. Too much speculation with too few facts. Nothing
suggested Mack knew the men killed on the green boat, only that he knew Theresa
and that she knew one of them. Picking up the
phone, she began punching in Manny Silva's number at the coast guard office.
The receiver hadn't even cooled off completely from her last call. Thinking
she'd probably end up with some bizarre fungus caused by holding damp plastic
against her ear for too many hours, she settled in to listen to the rings,
leave another message if need be. "Manny
Silva." "Hallelujah." "I beg
your pardon?" Manny Silva
sounded like a parody of the generic midwestern radio announcer. His voice held
none of the salsa or music implied by the name. Anna missed it, while being
glad communication would be facilitated. Explaining her
outburst would be a waste of time and she couldn't think of any way to do so
that wouldn't carry the insult of implying he should have gotten back to her
sooner. She let it
pass, introduced herself and reminded him that she was the lady who'd sent him
the boat engine registration number by way of Lieutenant Henriquez. "Yes. Yes.
We did get something on that. Hold, please." Anna would have
given up coffee for a week to see this man. He didn't say "yeah" it
was "yes" and his voice was so neutral and careful she pictured him
looking more like a Bob Johnson and suffering mild embarrassment that a
warmer-blooded ancestor had saddled him with a name he couldn't live up to. "Here. I
was going to call George with this. I didn't know there was a rush on it."
He left a short silence for Anna to apologize and tell him there was no rush. She'd taken
against his voice and said nothing. "The boat
was bought from the manufacturer by Eurico's Marine Supply in Miami. It was
purchased new in May of this year." "Anything
on who Enrico's sold it to?" "Inquiries
were made, but Enrico's was not forthcoming." Manny Silva was
not particularly forthcoming himself. "Could you
run it from the other end? If I gave you a name could you see if he had a boat
registered anywhere in Florida?" "Not
everyone registers, licenses or even names their boats for a variety of
reasons, not all of them criminal, but yes, I can do that." "Ramon
Diego," Anna said and waited. The faint clicking of fingers on a keyboard
passed the time. Manny evidently was not one to give out progress reports or
make small talk. "Nothing.
Many Diegos. No Ramon Diego." "How about
boats reported stolen?" "No. We
ran that automatically. Only one Scarab was reported. It was last year's model
and cherry-red in color. I suppose it could have been repainted and the year
written down wrong." "I'll
check into it," Anna said but she wouldn't. She'd pawed through enough
smithereens of the blasted boat, she was certain she would have noticed if
there'd been a coat of red paint beneath the green. She appreciated
he'd wasted none of her time with chitchat and thanked him with a degree of
genuine sincerity. Her
investigation had reached a dead end. On her lieu days she could rent a car and
drive up to Miami to question the people at Enrico's, but it would be a waste
of time. If they weren't telling the coast guard, they certainly weren't going
to tell her. With no crime but dying in a boat not your own, she was nowhere
near getting a subpoena. For a while she
sat like a lump, thinking of nothing at all. There were things she could do:
check out the boat Patrice had reported, start writing the reports on Bob's
injury and the loss of the Bay Ranger. None of the options struck her as
entertaining. Sitting in a dim air-conditioned room with the phone to her ear
had sapped her of motivation. A nap sounded good. Three fifteen.
The day was about shot anyway. There was
another call she could make, Anna realized. It was based on a hunch, but
an informed hunch. The pieces she'd collected came together. Mack—William
"Mack" Macintyre—and Theresa met in the Cuban neighborhood in Miami
where they had grown up. Once again she
dialed the number of Theresa's aunt. "Mrs.
Alvarez, it's Anna Pigeon with the National Park Service again." Anna
expected the woman to be irritated—as well she had a right to be. It was bad
practice to call a source over and over. An officer should have her
ducks in their assigned places in the row before making contact. Anna had
started out with only a couple ducks and no row. Fortunately
Mrs. Alvarez was not only cooperative but sounded glad to get a third call.
This welcome was fueled, Anna guessed, by the hope that finally the authorities
were going to find her wayward niece. Anna suffered a momentary stab of guilt
or sadness—the two had become so linked over the years she wasn't sure where
one stopped and the other began. Theresa would probably never be found. If she
were, it would be washed ashore on some lonely key, her body munched upon by
crabs. "One last
question," Anna promised. "Do you know if Theresa knew a man named
Ramon Diego?" "He was a
neighborhood boy." Mrs. Alvarez answered without hesitation. Anna wondered
how many long-established white residents had such a working knowledge of who
they lived and raised their children next door to. "Does he
still live there?" "No. Old
Mrs. Diego did till she died, but Ramon got a good job and I guess he travel
all the time. We didn't see him for long times." "Where did
he get the job?" Anna asked. "Some big
boat place. I think he sells boats but I don't know for sure." Again Anna
thanked her and rang off. A big boat place. The Scarab was originally sold to
Enrico's, which Anna had heard was a Cuban-owned and -operated marine supply in
Miami. Enrico's had been investigated for harboring and/or employing illegal
aliens. One more call, Anna promised
herself and reached for the phone. She didn't pick it up right away. Given
Enrico's checkered past with authority figures, particularly those
investigating the whereabouts and origins of Cuban immigrants, honesty would
probably not be the most productive policy. The employees might be laboring
under a double need for secrecy. Maybe they had something to hide and maybe,
where they came from, the police weren't nice people who were trained not to
hurt you if you didn't hurt them first. She toyed with
the idea of affecting a Spanish accent. From her years in Texas she was
actually quite good at it. The idea was quickly abandoned. If the accent wasn't
believed whoever answered would be put on guard. If it was they'd let loose in
rapid-fire Spanish and Anna'd be lost. She switched
personas, picked up the phone and dialed. "Enrico's
Marina. Buenos dias." The voice was heavily and unapologetically Hispanic. "Hey. This
is Anna Putnam. I need to talk to Ramon Diego. Can you get him for me?" "I'm sorry
we do not know no Ramon Diego." The woman said
this quickly and with the pat disinterest of someone uttering a standard
response. Anna doubted it was the truth. Or if it was, it was purely
coincidental. "Oh
pooh," Anna said. "It's his goddaughter. She's been asking for him.
This was the only place I knew to call. Shoot. She's only seven, and since the
accident..." Anna let that hang there, hoping Cuban Hispanics had the same
cultural love of family and children she'd noticed in Mexican-American women. For a moment
the woman said nothing, then she chose for the fictional child. "Give me
your number. He comes in, I have him call." Anna rattled
off a Miami area code and the first seven numbers that came to mind. Nobody
would be bothered; Ramon was through making telephone calls for this lifetime. The office had
grown dark. Living in the strange tunnels of telephone communications, Anna'd
not noticed the light going. She glanced at the wall clock expecting to find
half a day gone, but it was just after four. She walked to the window at the
parade-ground side of the walled-in case-mate and raised the blind. The sky was
low and fast and dark. The trees, usually so serene in their brick-walled
sanctuary, tossed their branches in wild celebration of the storm. Anna turned on
the office radio. It was already tuned to the weather frequency. Gale warnings.
Gusts to fifty knots, seas six to ten feet. The hurricane Anna'd hoped for was
not to be. She turned the radio off and sat down without bothering to turn on
the lights. Darkness at midday called on the ancient in her bones, filled her
with a sense of portents and omens. With the wild race of clouds and the trees
in jubilation, the foreboding swelled to a strange expectation—of what, she
didn't know. Placing both
hands palm down on Teddy's desk, she stared out the small window and let her
mind race with the wind. Theresa, Ramon Diego, Mack, all from the same
neighborhood. Diego and Mack both born in Cuba, both spending their first
months on American soil in immigration's custody. Diego employed by Enrico's, a
marine supply known for its connection with illegal aliens. Mack scarred at the
hands of the Cuban military. Theresa, always supportive "of her
people," introduced to Lanny by Mack. Theresa who seemed uninterested in
the older man but moved out to Fort Jefferson to live with him. Theresa who
fell in love with Lanny later on. Her first
mistake. Very probably her last. Then the
go-fast boat exploding twice, once from the haste of the pilot in his desire to
avoid law enforcement, the second time because the boat carried fuel. The boat
from Enrico's, piloted by a boyhood friend of Mack and Theresa. Theresa who was
photographed with a man wearing the tattoo alleged to be the mark of a
smuggler's gang. Patrice, on the
radio, telling Anna she'd seen a red go-fast boat headed east from Loggerhead.
The only Scarab reported stolen a red model. Had Anna been paying attention to
what was going on around her instead of keeping her ear and brain affixed to
the telephone, the obvious anomaly would have stuck her. The go-fast was
headed east, out to sea. A tropical storm watch had been on the radio since
morning. Small craft would have been fleeing for the coast. "Jesus
Christ," Anna muttered. "Not drugs." She headed for
the dock. 22 Following the
quarrel and the removal of Dr. Mudd, Mr. Arnold retired to his cell and closed
the door. When I'd done questioning Joel six ways from Sunday and learning
nothing more than that the row between Mrs. Mudd and Arnold had been the latter
calling the former a thief and the former accusing the latter of being
responsible for his prison woes, I determined to take the matter to Mr. Arnold,
closed door or no. My rapping and calling "Mr. Arnold" was made
somewhat easier by the fact that the cells at Fort Jefferson may very well end
up being a man's home but by no stretch of the imagination can they be considered
his castle. Mr. Arnold
opened the door and bowed ever so slightly but said nothing. I told him
about Tilly's experience with the union soldiers, how she'd boasted of having
proof of Mudd's innocence. Despite Molly's constant reminders about airing our dirty
linen in public, I told him that Tilly had been hiding papers or letters from
me—or that I believed she had—and that I believed she had carried something
away from his cell earlier and hidden it. Several times
he asked where I thought she might have hidden these supposed papers. Human
nature is a peculiar thing. The moment I came to believe the whereabouts of an
item or items regarding which he'd not yet confided in me were important to him
was the moment I decided not to tell him. This once I was determined to keep my
secrets, such as they were, till I found an honest person. After too much
cat's play, each of us batting at the crumpled bit of honesty we'd allowed
ourselves, Mr. Arnold told me the following. The mail had
come several days before. Both he and Dr. Mudd had received letters and
packages. This much I
know to be true—Tilly collected our mail then, from the guardroom where we
asked to be brought to Joel that day; she'd taken the conspirators' mail to
them. From here on I cannot say whether Mr. Arnold was telling me the truth or
not. I expect he was but only so much as he wanted me to know. Mr. Arnold went
on to say that he had received an important communiquй regarding personal
business. He'd left the document—he wouldn't trust me even to know if it
were letter, deed, last will and testament or an old bar bill—in what he
believed to be safekeeping. In his straightened circumstances this would be
beneath the moss-filled mattress and the ropes of the beds they were recently
provided with. Tilly had come,
ignored Joel, given Mr. Arnold cold looks, and spent her visit in whispered
consultation with Samuel Mudd. Shortly thereafter Mr. Arnold had discovered his
"document" was missing. He confronted Dr. Mudd. The doctor denied it.
Arnold searched. There was a fight. Nothing was found. He did give me
one bit of useful information. Tilly had been to the cell half a dozen times by
herself—the soldier escort remaining outside to smoke, undoubtedly. Each time
she spent less time with Joel and more with Dr. Mudd, speaking earnestly in
tones too low to make out the conversation. In leaving,
going most gratefully back out into the sunlight and ocean breezes, it occurred
to me that the passing back and forth of secret notes—whether they be summons,
sonnets or, as Tilly would have it, "proof"—might not be the whole of
it; might not be the least of it. Since Dr. Mudd
was seen with John Wilkes Booth by a number of credible witnesses before the
assassination, I doubt there can be any real proof that he did not know the
man, as he claimed at trial. Given this, and accepting that Dr. Mudd is
admittedly an intelligent man and has shown no other signs of being irrational,
it does not follow that he is using our sister to keep, save or transmit this
hypothetical truth. Romance was my
second thought, but you know how it is with the very young, Peggy. If Tilly
were in love she wouldn't be able to hide it for an instant. All that
remains that one might use a sixteen-year-old girl for is a means to escape. I
believe Dr. Mudd intends to try to escape from Garden Key and means for our
sister to help him. This is truly a
dangerous game and one I cannot tell Joseph of. Not yet. Not until I know how
deeply involved Tilly has become. These thoughts
stinging behind my eyes and in my throat, I hurried back to our quarters with
every intention of confronting Tilly, getting the truth out of the little beast
if I had to hold her head in the washtub till she told me or drowned. I believe I
would have—and would have been successful as well. Tilly was not the only one
of us girls to inherit grandmother's legendary stubbornness—but our quarters
were as tense and bitter and loud as the prison cells I had just quitted. Apparently
Sergeant Sinapp had run to Joseph with the tale of Tilly's misbehavior. Tilly's.
Joseph was in a rage. Neither the white silent nor the red and shouting to
which I've grown accustomed. This was unlike any I've seen. Joseph would not
listen to my side. He would not listen to Tilly. Indeed he had reduced her to a
gray-faced ghost curled in my rocking chair. He would not allow us to speak.
"Not a word. Not one damn word," he shouted every time I dared to so
much as draw breath. Joseph has
always listened to my side when it comes to the behavior of a soldier. Not (as
I once thought) out of respect for me, but out of a need to discipline, guide
and improve the men given into his care. This lack of
parity was not the only thing that showed him so changed. Joseph's rages are
much like those of the sea, full of wind and crushing with a clean sense of
righteous wrath. This was different: hulking somehow, small and sneaking. I
cannot put my finger on the difference but I felt it was so. Tilly was
confined to her room for an unspecified sentence. Both Tilly and I were
forbidden any intercourse with Joel Lane, Samuel Arnold, Dr. Mudd or any other
confederate prisoners residing at the fort. Joseph forbade me to speak with our
sister then, knowing the ban would not stick, chose to keep me under his eye
for the rest of the day. While he worked
at his desk between Tilly's room and ours, I was ordered to "work on my
infernal correspondence" and so, of course, I am writing to you. Though
Joseph's new and sulking ways alarm me, I must say that I find myself relieved
at the edict that we are to stay away from the casemates over the guardhouse
and that, to this end, the soldiers under Joseph's command have been ordered
not to take us to the conspirators' cells or give us the key to go by
ourselves. What started
out as an act of Christian charity—caring for poor Private Lane—has become perverted.
I feel the influence Dr. Mudd has over Tilly is unhealthy for her spirit as
well as making her a target for those at the fort who are still reeling from
the assassination of Mr. Lincoln. She is not the
only one changed since the arrival of the Lincoln conspirators. If I am
remembering correctly, Joseph's alteration commenced at about the same time.
Or, rather, I should say I began noticing it then. Our lives here were cheerful
and productive before they came—if one can say that of a life led on a prison
island. Now it feels the very sunlight has soured and strikes like a fist and
not its customary wet welcome, like the tongue of a large and gleeful dog. I've not yet
decided whether or not to tell Joseph of Tilly's fleeing to the powder room
with her "proof." As long as it is buried under a ton of cast iron it
is safe from Tilly and she from it. Perhaps for the time being it is best to
let sleeping secrets lie. I'm hoping this
will all be a moot point after I get your next letter. What I am asking is that
you take Tilly for a while if you can. Her life here has become entangled with
forces from which I can't protect her. Oh dear. I must
go now. Joseph just put his head into the room to inform me he requires my presence.
I expect he wishes to leave our quarters and knows the instant he's gone I will
go and talk to his pathetic prisoner down the hall and undermine her corrective
punishment. Joseph is a great believer in the restorative powers of solitary
confinement. I should know. He has discovered ways to isolate me even when in
the company of others. Forgive me the self-pity. It has been a trying day. I
will finish this tomorrow. A boat with the mail is expected and I can send this
off to you. Tilly is gone. Joseph kept me
with him for the remainder of the day yesterday but, before bed, I crept down
the hall to wish Tilly good night. She was in her room then and told me to
sleep well as she always does. This morning she was gone. Her bed was mussed as
if she had slept there, and all that was missing were her shoes and the clothes
she had worn the day before. At first I
thought she'd defied Joseph and was walking about the fort, possibly just
enjoying the breeze on the moat wall after so long cooped up in her room. I
searched the island and the fort, hoping to find her before Joseph did. There
was an unsettling sameness to my seeking her as before, and it lured me back to
the powder magazine, but this time she wasn't there. Finally I grew
afraid for her—not of Joseph's wrath, but for her very person. I told my
husband, and a search was begun in earnest. With everyone engaged, soldier,
prisoner and even the work crews, it was but a half to three-quarters of an
hour before every nook and cranny of this small key had been looked at. It was
discovered that Joel Lane was gone from his cell and Sergeant Sinapp was
missing the small sailing skiff the Merry Cay he uses to go fishing and
turtleing. Everyone thinks
Joel and Tilly have run off together and it must be so. Joseph has sent
soldiers out to all the keys within half a day's sailing from the fort to see
if the two runaways have landed. A handful of the men keep small pleasure
boats, most just big enough for two or three passengers. As far as I know Joel
has no skill as a sailor and, till she came here, Tilly had never been on
anything but the canoe in the pond behind our old house. Forced
inactivity has worn me down to tears more than once today. Joseph blames me for
Tilly's running away and the escape of Private Lane. He has condemned me to sit
out the search when it would be a relief to me to be with one of the sailing
parties. I cannot speak to Mr. Arnold, Mudd or anyone else with the exception
of Luanne. That chafes
more than restricting my movements. As Sam Arnold and the doctor live in such
close quarters with Joel, it is my hope that they might have heard or seen
something that would help us. Joseph will, of course, speak with them, but I
hold to the belief that they—or at least Mr. Arnold—would tell me things they might
not tell one of the soldiers. There is also the possibility that Dr. Mudd had a
hand in this. Should he have other "proofs" of his innocence that he
felt he could not trust to the hands of Mr. Lincoln's army, I do not now think
he would hesitate to use an innocent girl as the vessel for getting them to his
supporters. What keeps me from really believing this to be the case is, though
he might risk an innocent's life, surely he would not risk his precious documents.
He must know as well as I the near impossibility of two unskilled sailors
surviving a sixty-mile sail in a tiny skiff. Joseph's
condemnation of me as the author of this tragedy would cut me had not my own
already cut to the quick. What possessed me to allow—no, not merely to allow,
but to join in with—Tilly's fascination with these men? Pride? Did I see
myself, as Tilly did in the beginning, as ministering angel? Christian saint?
Saving the tormented boy from the evils of war and Sinapp? I am coming to
question myself; in pretending to do a kindness was I merely seeking excitement
or entertainment? And when Tilly
began to lose interest in Joel (an interest that was obviously rekindled when I
was not doing my duty and watching over her) and fall under the sway of the
persuasive Dr. Mudd, why didn't I tell Joseph? Had he truly become
unapproachable, changed? Or was it that I was changed, changed by, if not
welcoming then certainly not rebuffing, the current of interest I sensed from
Mr. Arnold? Peggy, two
hours have passed since the above sentence was written. I return to this
interminable letter because I've no other channel for the chaos that has become
my thoughts and feelings. I took time out from that fruitless and indulgent
self-castigation and did something unthinkable. Do you remember how deeply
offended we were when we were girls and Molly would search through our things
to make sure we were not involved in improper behavior? I swore then, should I
have daughters, I would never submit them to this invasion. Molly was right.
Young girls need guidance more than privacy. Today I
searched Tilly's room in hopes of finding an indication of where she'd planned
to go. To that end I was frustrated. What I did find has deepened the mystery
of her elopement (at least we must hope it is an elopement and young Mr. Lane
doesn't intend to ruin her). In a wooden cigar box beneath her underthings—why
is it as girls we believe that is a viable hiding place?-—I found several notes
I can only presume were written by Dr. Mudd. Who delivered them I don't know. I
suspect the doctor, with his gentle demeanor and air of injured innocence,
managed to turn one of the soldiers to his purpose. Two were simple
summons: "Please come alone, S." And: "Could you find time
today? S." The third was rather more interesting. "I have found
something. S." They weren't dated, so I have no way of knowing when they
were sent, but it serves to ratify Tilly's practice of sneaking to their
casemate without me attending her. Other than
that, her room was as always: untidy and girlish. She'd carried Joseph's
dictionary in and left it in a heap by the dressing table. I rescued it lest he
discover its absence and the rude indignity with which it had been treated. A
place was marked with a black feather. I doubt there's any significance to this.
With the constant circling of magnificent frigate birds, we have an abundance
of these. Before returning it to Joseph's desk I turned to the page she had
marked. She'd
underlined one of the words and put three exclamation marks next to it in the
margin. The word was doppelganger. Whether it means anything as pertains
to her elopement, I have no idea. There was nothing missing from her closet or
dressing table that I noticed, and it was not till afterward, when I'd had time
to think, this began to bother me. Till then I'd
accepted the obvious; Tilly and Joel had run away together in the stolen skiff,
the Merry Cay. I'd convinced
myself Tilly's ardor for Joel Lane had rekindled during her solitary visits to
his cell. Now it would seem those visits were instigated by Dr. Mudd. The last
two times I visited, Joel was not behaving like a man who has regained his lady
love but as a sulky and jealous boy. These things could be explained away
easily enough by the gaps in my knowledge of what transpired in my absence.
It's Tilly's wardrobe that is so wrong. I know our sister. She had run to this
presumed assignation wearing the skirt, blouse and stockings she'd worn
yesterday—the day she fled the soldiers and I found her in the powder room.
She'd worn them again though they were dirty, dust-streaked and stained with
sweat. Would a girl
eloping with the man she loved intentionally wear such disreputable garments?
Wouldn't she rather dress as if she would soon be standing before a minister?
Especially Tilly, who is so fastidious about her appearance? I had not
thought I could feel more frightened for her, but I do. If she did not elope,
what then? Is she carrying Dr. Mudd's messages to the mainland? Were that the
case, one would think she would wait till next we sailed to Key West to shop or
visit and take it then. That would be the safer way both for her and for Dr.
Mudd's supposed documents. Were Mudd foolish enough to wish this ill-conceived
flight, would he not go himself? Joel Lane will be released in the next few months,
perhaps even weeks. It is the Lincoln conspirators who must serve out their
lives on Garden Key. Escape for them must be paramount, and for Joel absurd. This logic, if
logic it is and not the imaginings of a febrile mind, applies to the elopement.
Tilly, though passionate, has ever been a practical girl. Why risk possibly
dying at sea to run away with a prisoner, when in a very short time he would be
free and all she'd need do is book passage on one of the many ships that pass
through here to meet him? If this is so,
where are these children and what has become of the missing boat, the Merry
Cay? 23 The enormity
of the skies was as dark as the small square Anna'd watched through the office
window. Wind blew hard from the south with gusts from the southwest. Swells
were six to ten feet. She had boated in rougher water when she was a ranger on
Isle Royale in Lake Superior. There the water had been deadly, the summer
temperatures of the lake ranging between thirty-nine and forty-two degrees.
Here wind, rain, water and preternatural darkness were all warm; a phenomenon
Anna found hard to get used to despite her time in Mississippi. The warmth was
comforting, offering a false promise of safety. Lake Superior had learned its
cold treachery from the Atlantic Ocean; warm water would drown one as quickly
as cold and without the anesthetic of numbing its victims first. She didn't
bother with rain gear. In twisting wind and waves, she'd be soaked to the skin
in minutes even if she pitched a tent on the deck of the Reef Ranger and
piloted the little craft through its window. As the Boston Whaler's engine
idled, she buckled on one of the standard-issue, full-sized, personal flotation
devices, easing the bottom strap so the vest would fit over her sidearm and
Kevlar vest. The days when one strove to keep one's powder dry were long gone.
Modern weaponry would fire when wet. Chances were good the SIG Sauer would work
on the bottom of the ocean, though Anna had no desire to conduct that
experiment in the near future. Her handheld
radio was another matter. Maybe it would work wet, maybe it would work over the
disturbance of the storm, but not likely. Fortunately the boats were equipped
with more powerful communications equipment. She could raise the mainland from
the Reef Ranger's radio if she had to. Given her
druthers, she would use neither. Before she'd come to the dock, she'd taken the
precaution of asking Bob to stand by on the radio. She'd forgotten this was Bob
Shaw she was talking to. Ensconced in pillows, a cat on his lap, iced tea and
magazines within easy reach, he still had his radio at his elbow and turned on,
monitoring his realm. With his leg in a cast from toe to mid-thigh there was
little he could do physically, but he could alert Daniel or, should the need arise,
the coast guard. Teddy was good with a boat as well, so there would be plenty
of people to come fish her out if she was washed overboard. For the next
little while, she wanted to stay off the airwaves. The bits and pieces of
information she'd been poring over all day suggested Ranger Shaw wasn't the
only one monitoring the National Park Service's law-enforcement frequency. Safe as she was
going to get, Anna cast off the mooring lines and opened throttle, powering up
quickly before the elements could smash her boat into the pilings. There was no
danger of colliding with much else above the water. Not a single boat remained
at the fort to weather the storm. The harbor was empty, as was what she could
see of the ragged slate-colored sea. Pushing the
throttle to full, she headed south, out of the harbor. There were no park
visitors to rock with her wake and, in water this high, power was necessary to
hold a course and keep the bow into the wind so a wave wouldn't broadside her
and roll the boat. Out past the
markers she noted not everyone had run for shore. Half a dozen shrimp
boats, nets furled and rigging sticking out the sides like whiskers on an
ungainly catfish, had fled for shelter in this harbor in the midst of the sea
as commercial ships had since Cortez began sending gold back to Spain. Before she
reached the shrimpers, Anna took advantage of a smooth high swell; riding to
its crest then letting the wind help her spin the Reef Ranger shortly
before it would have crashed into the trough. Her vulnerable side was exposed
no more than a few seconds, then, wind at the stern, she was turned, heading
north between Garden and Loggerhead. In alignment
with wind and waves, boating was not so much dangerous as battering. Sailing
around the world in a one-woman boat, never high on Anna's list, was dropped
from adventures she would like to have before she died. The bow broke through
the uppermost part of oncoming waves, then fell to the trough and again began
to climb. Anna didn't sit, bent her knees and every other trick she could
remember from years back. Still she was jarred to the marrow. She'd once met a
ranger from St. John National Park in the Virgin Islands who'd broken vertebrae
in his neck in just such water as this. The bones had cracked from the pressure
of being jammed repeatedly. What with other
matters clogging her mind, a piece of key information had gotten by her. Or she
hadn't had a context in which it would show as important. Patrice had
radioed. A red go-fast boat had passed Loggerhead heading east. East Key was
Anna's bet. In the Dry
Tortugas nothing that wasn't man-made stuck up much above sea level. Even the
few trees tended to be stunted, low to the ground, evolved to withstand the
hurricanes that blew each summer and autumn. East Key had no trees, just a
courageous collection of salt scrub bushes circled between the dunes like a
wagon train in Indian Territory. The waves were higher than the sand dunes on
the tiny key, and Anna watched from the crest of each as she breached, looking
for the small island. Possibly the key was underwater in storms. She'd not
served at this posting long enough to know. The park was mostly shallow water.
In rough weather, when the water was scraped into mountains and the valleys
were hare, some of the coral reefs were too close to the surface to pass over
in a boat. When she knew
she was almost upon it, East Key chose to reveal itself. The Reef Ranger rose
on a crest and ahead less than fifty yards was a wave of another color. Not
awash, Anna noted and wondered if her hoped-for hurricane would have drowned
it. Wind shifted
from south to southeast. It was safer to land on the windward side in the
natural sandy scoop of beach. Not only was the wind direction right but Anna
had beached in this spot before. Today was not the day to learn new terrain.
She waited for a lull, then powered the Boston Whaler in, letting the wave
she'd ridden lift her onto the sand. Having pulled anchor and chain out of its
nest in the bow, she threw it as far up on the sand as she could. Not far.
Anchors were not made for small women to use as projectile weapons. When she jumped
the few feet from the deck to the beach, she fell on hands and knees. The ride
over had altered her perception of fixed. A part of her reptilian brain
expected the beach to rush up to meet her as the deck had for the past twenty
minutes. She dragged the anchor to high ground—high ground on East Key being
about three feet above low ground—dug it deep into the sand and hoped for the
best. What she needed to do wouldn't take long. Rain pelted her
in dime-sized drops. Wind pushed and snatched at her till she felt as
beleaguered as if a pack of children attacked her. The lee side of the key
behind the largest dune, running the length of East Key—sixty or so feet—was
the most likely place. That shore was almost on the park's boundary. Beyond it
the bottom of the ocean fell away abruptly into the deeps of the Atlantic.
Using hands and feet, a low profile to the prevailing wind, she scooted
crablike over the ridge and slid down the other side where the courageous
shrubs dwelt. There she began
pawing about, a dog in a field of bones. It wasn't long before she found what
she knew must be there. She wasn't exactly searching for a needle in a
haystack. Bright blue
fuel containers had been buried up under the dune. Not buried precisely, but
shoved with a camouflage netting and sand thrown over them. East Key, then,
was where the first go-fast boat, the Scarab piloted by Ramon Diego, had been
headed when Bob had happened upon it. After it, along with its cargo, exploded,
a new fuel cache had to be put in place. Fuel caches discovered on remote keys
weren't unheard of. Smugglers using the fast boats with their powerful engines
and tremendous fuel consumption would often leave diesel or gasoline to refuel
after a run so they could get back to their homeport in Cuba, Mexico or Central
America, where the coast guard couldn't reach them. East Key,
though not often visited, could in no way be considered abandoned. In the
summer the pleasure boats frequenting the park occasionally beached there to
picnic and swim. At least once every couple of days a ranger came by on patrol.
Unless they noticed something untoward, she and Bob never landed. There was no
need. The entire key could be seen from the deck of the boats. A fuel cache
would probably be safe enough for a few days or a week. By the hasty and
slipshod nature of the sand-and-camo hiding place, Anna guessed the people who
put it there planned on using it soon. The amount of fuel suggested a much
bigger operation than Anna had envisioned from the piecemeal information she'd
waded through. Rocking back on
her heels, she turned her face into the wind, hoping the rain would clear her
vision. Bad idea. There was simply too much water in the world. Anna wished she
had swim goggles or a wide-brimmed hat. Weather permitting,
Mack was due back to the fort on the morning ferry. The fuel cache, Theresa,
Lanny's mental collapse, fort personnel in conference in Homestead, Mack's
timely departure and return: the event was probably planned for tonight or
tomorrow night. Tonight the weather would be on their side. For once crime
in the park was not Anna's problem. This fell under the coast guard's
jurisdiction first. Immigration and Naturalization was the second line of
defense. Anna's only job was to holler for help. She scrambled
back up the side of the dune. "Shit," she whispered and flung herself
backward, landing hard on the wet sand. Air flew from her lungs and she
suffered that horrific moment when it feels as if they will never remember how
to breathe again. Breath returned. She rolled onto her belly and crept back up
to peek over the low crest. Beached beside
the Reef Ranger was a sleek torpedo of a machine, the red go-fast boat
Donna had seen; the one that brought and cached the fuel. There were two
men onboard. Two more stood on the beach, their backs to her. Mack was on the Reef
Ranger. For a moment the men shouted at each other, trying to be heard over
the wind. Then the two on the beach turned. Anna slipped down but not before
she saw that both carried automatic weapons. Uzis, maybe. Something small and
evil looking. They'd killed
Theresa. God knew why. Maybe love had turned her and she'd threatened to tell
Lanny. Men who carried automatic weapons weren't famous for their mercy.
Chances are they'd chosen a less violent alternative with Lanny because a dead
ranger would cause an investigation. A crazy one wouldn't. Me they'll
kill, Anna thought and wondered what the hell she was going to do about
it. Rain pounded her face and chest making it hard to see, to think. The sand
spit had no cover, no hiding places. For an instant she considered burying
herself but knew there wasn't time. A shoot-out was
doomed from the start. She would probably kill the two walking in her
direction. As satisfying as it might be at the moment, it would only add to the
death toll. The other three, undoubtedly armed as well, would kill her sure as
hell. As if to ratify
her worst fears, the rattle of automatic weapons fire raked the dune just above
her, the force exploding sand out and down. Shouting followed. Ears ringing and
blood pounding, Anna couldn't make out the words. She chose not to hang around
and try. Belly down on
the sand, she crawled for the sea. What she would do there wasn't clear in her
mind. Only that it's warm embrace and the company of sharks was suddenly the
lesser of evils. The surf met
her in a smothering crash. She pushed on, her vest and gear keeping her belly
to the sandy bottom, waves breaking over her back. Shouting followed but not
gunfire. Taking a last breath she dove under. The water was but two or three
feet deep. Blind with sandstorm winds churned into the water, she swam till her
lungs felt close to bursting. When she could stand it no longer, she came up.
The water was still no more than three feet deep. Poking her head out, she let
the air explode from her lungs, sucked in fresh breath laced with salt water
and fought not to cough. No way could she survive in the open sea unless she
dumped her gear. Using all her strength and an aching lungful of air, she'd
traveled less than the length of a standard gym pool. The two men
with the automatic weapons had followed. One was on shore, the other,
waist-deep in the waves, was less than forty feet away. His face was turned
from her, searching the place where she'd gone under. "There."
The man on the beach had spotted her. He raised his
weapon but didn't shoot; afraid he'd hit his companion as well as his prey. The
Uzi—or whatever it was—he held at his hip like a movie gangster. Evidently he'd
never learned to aim but only to spray bullets. Anna took little comfort in
that. Close as she was, even in an undifferentiated hail of bullets, one or two
would probably hit her. Anger so hot it
surprised her the ocean didn't begin to boil and so intense it burned away fear
rose from the depths of her soul. For a year after her husband Zach was killed,
Anna had wanted to die. For a time after that she'd chosen to live only to keep
Molly happy. Then she'd chosen to stay alive out of sheer spite. Now, when
she'd finally realized she didn't want to die because life was so damn good,
some son-of-a-bitch was going to shoot her. The gunman in
the water was turning. Anna fought to unsnap the keeper on her holster. Rain
and salt water had swelled the leather. The automatic rifle was coming up. She
threw herself back, felt the water close over her, her feet rising off the
bottom. Her SIG sauer broke free. Without waiting to surface she fired two
shots, hoping she wouldn't blow off her own foot. Underwater, unable to see or
breathe, her belt pulling her down, her legs rising buoyantly, she felt thrust
back into the insane grip of the acid trip. In seconds she found the bottom,
pushed off and rose out of the waves, still firing, Venus on a shell casing,
she thought idiotically. The man in the
water was screaming, bent over. He yelled: "Don't shoot! Don't
shoot!" not at Anna but at the man on the beach who'd gone into panic
mode, spraying bullets perilously near the wounded man. Anna neither
dodged nor dove. Feet planted against the waves slamming at her back, she took
careful aim at the gunman on the shore. Before she could squeeze off a round
she heard the crack of gunfire. It was as if she'd been hit between the
shoulder blades with a baseball bat. Helplessly she
watched as her service weapon flew out of her hands, watched it disappear
beneath the sea taking its own sweet time obeying gravity's laws. She was
following it, pitching forward. The man on the shore quit firing. The gunman in
the ocean stopped screaming. Weather roared ever so discreetly and there was a
moment of utmost peace in the world. Water engulfed her. Again the baseball bat
smashed into her. Hands filled with sand; the bottom. Anna's life
retreated into the confines of her skull. The light of her mind was shrinking
to a pinpoint. She was blacking out. Pass out and you die. The tiniest
part of her welcomed that darkness. It seemed comforting somehow. That which
has kept the human race procreating for two million years overrode it. She
concentrated on that pinpoint, willed it to grow brighter. The light
dimmed. Heavy with gear, Anna was sinking. In a last effort she tried to
remember where her legs were, tried to get them beneath her, but up and down
had become meaningless. With a suddenness that increased the disorientation,
she felt herself being pulled. God or the devil seemed in an inordinate hurry
to claim her soul. 24 It has been
three days and I have begun to despair. Regardless of why Tilly was taken or
left, three days on the open sea in that small boat and they would be dead of
thirst unless they'd thought to bring water. Joseph has forbidden me to run out
on the quay and question sailors. "Unseemly," he calls it, but I feel
somehow that he is afraid for me and so I obey. What else can I do? If I
continued in the face of his orders he'd simply have me confined to quarters. Since Tilly
disappeared, Joseph's metamorphosis has become complete. What he has changed
into I cannot say. The fire that has always been such a part of him has gone
out. Where he once raged he is now querulous. The energy that permeated him,
flowed from him to ignite men's passions (and, once, mine) has failed. He sits
for long periods of time doing nothing. Sometimes it's hard to rouse him. I spend my days
on the third tier of the fort. Construction on that level has stopped. The
engineer says this patch of sand cannot bear any more weight. Should they
continue piling brick and cannon on it the fort will sink into the sea. I wish it
would. Sergeant
Sinapp, apparently on Joseph's orders, continues to forbid me seeing Sam Arnold
or Dr. Mudd. I don't even know where they've been moved, though I suspect they
are separated and one is probably condemned to wait out his time in the
dungeon. Joseph promises
me that each boat that docks is questioned. None have seen a small sailing
skiff either afloat or wrecked. My thoughts
keep turning on Dr. Samuel Mudd and the "proof" of his innocence that
Tilly—in genuine innocence—boasted of in front of the soldiers. Whether Tilly
could have proved anything is no matter—except, of course, to Dr. Mudd and
possibly the other conspirators. Mudd seems to have held himself aloof from
them. I believe he finally severed connections entirely when he fought with Mr.
Arnold the day before Tilly disappeared. What matters perhaps is only that
someone believed her. I pray to all
of the saints who owe Molly a small fortune in candles that if Tilly and Joel
left not of their own will but were taken, they were taken by southern sympathizers,
men who believe the conspirators should be released. If this is so, Tilly will
be guarded, taken care of, treated—one could hope and expect—as a heroine of
the confederacy. Because Joel
was taken (or escaped) at the same time, I allow myself hope. Why take Private
Lane as well unless one's sympathies were with the south? The hope is small.
Too many questions assail it. Why not take Mudd/Arnold? Why take Tilly and not
merely the documents—if documents exist? Perhaps because they remain buried in
the magazine and Tilly will be needed to testify to their existence? Was Tilly taken
from the fort for her own safety? I'm sorry, Peg.
It is as if I had a skull full of stinging hornets. I can neither eat nor sleep
from the pain and the buzzing of questions. More has
happened here than Tilly and Joel's disappearance, though my worry over them
was such I didn't notice for the first days. I've told you of Joseph but not of
Sinapp. It's as if he has stepped into the captaincy and allows Joseph only the
title while he wields the power. It's not just I who have noticed this. There's
been grumbling among the men who have been put to extra tasks: cleaning the
parade ground, bricking up the ruined cisterns and clearing out the powder
magazine. Once I went to the magazine in hopes of having a chance to look for
the mysterious documents, but he ordered me away as if I were his laundress and
not the captain's wife. I said nothing to Joseph. There would be no point as he
continues to ghost about as if his soul was taken along with the children. I cannot but
feel this topsy-turvy situation is in some way connected with Tilly's
disappearance. Since I have been banned from the powder magazine and forbidden
to speak with Arnold or Mudd, I turned my attention to what I might discover in
my own house. Again I searched Tilly's room, looking this time for less obvious
things. On her windowsill I found a broken bit of brick. There is certainly no
shortage of this commodity on the island, but it has none of the charm of the
pretty stones and shells she was in the habit of carrying up to her room. The
only reason I can think that she might have such a bit of masonry is that it
was thrown through her window, no doubt with the note wrapped around it that
enticed her to put on her soiled dress of the day before and sneak out of
quarters. The only message that could have induced her to do such a thing would
have been from Joel or Dr. Mudd. As the latter is the only one remaining, I am
ever more determined to speak with him. Joseph keeps
his desk locked. This is not new. I believe he locks it not because the
correspondence of a prison warden—and that is what he has become though it
shames me to say it in so many words—pertains to matters of such delicacy it
must be secured, but because, having been left out of the war, he needs to
pretend to himself, and, perhaps, to me, that his work is of national
importance. A month ago I
would not have dared it—indeed it would have been unthinkable—but I put a
letter opener under the top and pried until the lock popped free of its latch.
Joseph will see it is broken and will no doubt know that it was I who broke it.
In this strange mood that's taken him, I don't think he will say anything.
Among his letters I found one that was of interest though of no relevance to my
present worries. Joseph has put in for a transfer to a small post in the west,
in the Nevada territory. With the war over and the army letting men go, closing
forts or leaving them with a skeleton garrison to man them, this is not a good
time for a move. Should Joseph get this transfer, he will keep his captaincy
but the pay will be that of a second lieutenant. Joseph is
running from something. From Sinapp, I think, though I cannot guess why. I
believe Sinapp has found a weapon with which to threaten Joseph. Reading the
transfer papers, the in-all-but-name demotion, the remoteness of the post, the
small number of soldiers stationed there, I knew that, should Joseph flee to
this place that—surely not forsaken by God, but forsaken by water, green plant
life and human beings not well-armed—I will not go with him. This is not the
first time I've ever thought of leaving Joseph, but it is the first time I knew
I would really do it; knew it would be forever. How long I sat at my husband's
desk, more stunned by than thinking about the ramifications of this, I do not
know. I'd not gotten through all the letters when I heard Joseph downstairs. More
accurately, I heard Luanne speaking to "Master Coleman"—she's not yet
accustomed herself to "mister." Joseph customarily enters like a
stallion chased by the wind, much clatter and fuss. Now he creeps about like
the cats he so detests. Joseph mightn't
say anything about my trespass, but once he found the broken lock, anything of
interest would be removed. I put the unread letters in my pocket and returned
to my bedroom window and my sewing before he reached the top of the stairs.
I've become a sneak and a spy. I've planned to abandon my marriage and taken up
thieving. If Tilly were here we would laugh at my fall from grace. As it is no
one seems to laugh now. Least of all me. For what
remained of the afternoon Joseph sat at his desk in the hall. He must have
known I was in our room, but he neither came in nor spoke to me. So still was
he several times I went to the door and checked to see if he'd gone. He was
just sitting there. If he was working I couldn't tell at what. I pretended to
sew until it grew too dark to see, then lit the lamps and pretended to read,
waiting till it was late enough I could go to bed and pretend to sleep. Recent events
and the unease in our rooms have infected even Luanne. Just before eight she
tiptoed up to see if we wanted a cold supper since I had made no plans
with her earlier. With the burden of pretense I'd already taken on, I couldn't
bear to pretend to eat, and I sent her away. It occurred to me to ask her to
bring something up to Joseph, but at that moment I cared so little for him even
this small kindness—or, rather, duty—was beyond me. After nine I
deemed it late enough to go to bed and took the lamp to Tilly's room. Joseph
was no longer at his desk. I've taken to sleeping in Tilly's room these last
nights. Joseph says nothing and it comforts me to be among her things. I
suppose I hope she'll come climbing back through the window one night, flushed
and laughing from her adventure. I didn't
undress or lie down but sat in the dark by the window, watching the parade
ground empty and go dark. Around midnight I heard Joseph come in and go to our
room. Again he never sought me out and I didn't go to him. The longer I sat
there the more I knew I couldn't go on doing nothing. Finally I gave up trying.
Downstairs I took britches and a shirt belonging to Joseph from Luanne's
laundry bag and, back in Tilly's room, put them on. Melodramatic
and absurd as I felt disguising myself, it was necessary. In our tiny world,
populated almost exclusively by men, if I were to go outdoors in the middle of
the night except to visit the privy I would be noticed. I would not have passed
muster for a man if anyone were to study me. I cannot say what it was. As you
know I am not made as womanly as you are, and my face has been coarsened by
wind and weather over the years, but it was abundantly clear I was a sheep in
wolf's clothing. Two thoughts bolstered my courage. One was that in the hive of
men, no one would notice one more, however peculiar, and in the middle of the
night, I might well never even be seen. The other thought was, should I be
found out and returned to Joseph either in person or by report, the sheer effrontery
and outlandishness of my crime might shake him into a semblance of his former
self. My years here
were not wasted. I've seen the watches change nearly a thousand times, heard
the hours called. I know where the soldiers sleep and hide, gamble and drink.
Having sneaked successfully out of the officers' quarters, I crossed to the
unfinished casemates behind the half-built enlisted men's quarters. No one is
housed there, prisoner or soldier. There is also no hope of light at night, the
new barracks having now grown high enough to block out what the stars provide. Feeling my way
by inches, I came around the parade ground to the sally port and guardroom. I
didn't like to risk passing this one place where I could be assured men were on
duty and, in all probability, awake—though the country is no longer at war,
sleeping on guard duty is still punishable by death. I have noticed officers
stomping and whistling when they approach a sentry station at an unexpected
hour simply to avoid the possibility of finding the man asleep. My only other
alternative had been to follow the southern side of the parade ground and so
avoid the guardhouse altogether. But that is where a bulk of the men and
prisoners are housed. Feeling
patently absurd and frightened nearly half to death, I chose to cross the
parade ground beneath the hanging trees. Since Sergeant Sinapp's "coming
to power" those trees have not stood fallow but are always full of their
dreadful harvest. The men tied, their wrists bound behind their backs and ropes
thrown over the branches, would be too stupefied by a day without sufficient
water and more than sufficient suffering to pay much attention to me and,
should they call out, their cries would go unanswered by the guards. Seven men
dangled in the night branches. Joseph is a proponent of corporal
punishment—it's necessary to retain order with men—but always ends the
punishment at sunset. Twelve hours a day is not adequate for the cruelties
Sinapp feels compelled to commit. As I passed,
several men roused themselves to call out for water, but I kept my face turned
away and only walked faster. Fear kept me from feeling the guilt that assails
me now for refusing this small service. At the time I was so terrified their
pathetic croaks did little more than make me hurry on. It's odd that I
was so much more afraid than I had been the night Tilly and I went out before
our theatrical evening to see who screamed so achingly. Partly it was that I
was alone this time—I have been horribly alone since Tilly disappeared. Partly
I think it was that Fort Jefferson no longer feels safe. With Joseph's
protection removed and Sergeant Sinapp having his way in everything, I believe
I could come to harm. Mostly, though, it was fear of the humiliation I would
suffer were I discovered out adventuring at night in my husband's soiled
clothing. One might think it would be a little thing, but it was not. Safely (if
cravenly) past the sally port I slipped back into the darkness beneath the
casemates and made my way toward the southeastern bastion and the dungeon. In
the absolute darkness behind these thick walls I had to make my way by touch.
With light to see by the trip is short. Without it, I believed I might go on
forever, feeling the ends of my fingers growing raw from trailing over rough
walls. So much time
seemed to pass I thought I'd surely missed the dungeon. When I finally came
into the vaulted area where it is located, I knew it by the change in the
sounds my feet made shuffling across the brick. What had been close, furtive
noises became amplified and scared me before I realized I was still the only
one making them. And there was the smell of fresh mortar and brick dust where
the men had been sealing up the entrance to the cisterns beneath this section
of the battlements. There is a small
barred window in the dungeon's door—the kind in the ink drawings that used to
give us delicious shudders when we were children, the kind through which the
hero sees the ogre. By standing on tiptoe I could get my mouth to the opening.
At first I could make no sound. Fear and silence and a day where I spoke to no
one but those few words to Luanne robbed me of my voice. When I finally managed
to whisper Dr. Mudd's name it sounded like a shout in my sensitized ears and
frightened me into a few more moments of speechlessness. After that, not
knowing what to expect, I kept repeating his name. No response
came for the longest time and I began to fear this whole masquerade had been
for nothing, that Dr. Mudd had been moved again and the dungeon stood empty. I suppose
I would have given up and gone away, but I had no other plan so I stayed
whispering and calling far longer than a sane woman might have. My persistence
was rewarded. From inside the cell a light was struck, just a flint then a
candle, to my wide eyes it was a conflagration. For a minute lights swam and
starred. The candle was held up and I saw I had indeed found Dr. Mudd. Despite his
straightened circumstances—if being reduced from a cell with little light to
one with no light and a bed of wooden planks to a stone floor can be dignified
with the term "circumstances"—the doctor slept in nightshirt and cap.
With his one blanket thrown around his shoulders for modesty he managed, but
for the cap, to look almost dignified. I introduced
myself. The look of disapproval that screwed up his lips—or so I imagined, all
I saw of it was the twitching of his overlong mustache—made me glad he couldn't
see the rest of me. Once he'd grasped I was a woman in flesh and not a
dream or ghost, he asked me to look away. When I looked back he was dressed
even to his coat and shoes. Having nothing
to lose, as there are few at the fort more powerless and ignorant than I, and
nothing to fear from him as a bolted door stood between us, I told him I'd
found the notes he'd sent summoning Tilly. "You sent
her a note the night she disappeared, Dr. Mudd. It was wrapped around a bit of
broken brick and thrown through her open window. She has been gone for more
than three days. You must tell me why you asked her to your cell in the night
and where you have sent her." He turned from
me like a man gazing out of a window but he had only brick and more brick to
look at. I was close to a screaming fit. I could see myself shaking the bars,
shrieking like a madwoman, as guards with torches pounded down the passages to
find me. Had I been able to unlock the prison door I believe I would have, just
to feel my fists strike Dr. Mudd's face. Fortunately he
turned back before I lost my wits. "Where is she?" I demanded. "I don't
know." "You sent
her the notes," I said. "Some of
them, yes. Not the last one." He sounded
reasonable, tired and sad and reasonable. It made me even angrier because I
didn't want to believe him. For a minute—a very long time in the night—I said
nothing. Were I to speak, I should have frothed at the mouth like a rabid dog.
When I'd regained a modicum of control, I asked him who sent the last note. "I don't
know." My temper
frayed to snapping. "Tell me what you do know, Dr. Mudd, or may God damn
you to hell!" Not only was I taking the Lord's name in vain but I was
spitting. I could see flecks of my saliva where they caught in the candlelight
beyond the bars separating us. "Very
well, Mrs. Coleman. With your sister gone, I doubt it much matters now. Though
I believe your being here tonight endangers both of us. I shall tell you what I
know, then you must leave. If you return I will not speak to you. If you repeat
what I have told you I will deny it." Much as I hated
this cold dictation of what I must and must not do, I held my tongue. I
believed him when he said he would never again speak with me. I would not call
Dr. Mudd a man of honor, but he seems to be possessed of an iron will. "Your
sister believed in my cause," Mudd began, and I knew I was to be forced to
hear again of his innocence. "Do you know what a doppelganger is, Mrs.
Coleman?" "I
know." Either he didn't believe me or he was enjoying the condescension. I
didn't interrupt. A man behind bars must wield power however he can. "A
doppelganger is a look-alike, someone who looks exactly like you in every
aspect. Some theorize that each man has, somewhere in this world, his own
doppelganger. I know I have mine. It was this man and not myself who was seen
meeting in Washington with Sam Arnold and with John Booth. It was this man and
not I who conspired to assassinate or kidnap the president." Dr. Mudd had
gone as mad as I felt I was at that moment. He spoke as if
he addressed a court of law and not one angry woman dressed in her husband's
britches. "What has
this to do with my sister?" I asked and none too politely. "I was
getting to your sister, Mrs. Coleman. Your sister was kind enough or
perspicacious enough to believe me. When I came into possession of proof of
this, I felt she was the only person at this prison whom I could trust to carry
this proof outside to my lawyer. Anyone else within these walls would possibly
destroy it, preferring to punish an innocent man than to admit their blessed
union had been duped." The document,
the letter, the secret proof. I had come to be sick to death of this game of
hints and possibilities. "What did yon give my sister?" "A
photograph of this man who looks like me. He is standing with Samuel Arnold and
members of Mr. Arnold's family. A photographer who travels to events where
people gather took the picture. The place and date as well as the name of the
photographer are on the back of the picture, put there with the man's own
stamp. It was taken at a cattle sale held in Richmond, Virginia, several months
before John Booth killed Mr. Lincoln. The cattle sale was three days long, days
I can prove that I was with a very ill patient more than a hundred miles from
where that photograph was taken." This news
staggered me. If it were the truth, then Dr. Mudd was an innocent man and he
had put the rest of his life into the hands of a sixteen-year-old girl because
none of us could be trusted. Strength left me. Where I had been clinging to the
prison bars in anger I now clung to keep from falling. The weariness of the
past days caught up to me. If I'd let myself slide to the floor, the guard
bringing Mudd's breakfast would have found me still there. 25 Only when air
hit her lungs was Anna sure she'd been taken up and not down by the god of her
understanding, as AA would have it. Bits of spray entered with the first breath
and a fit of coughing alternately racked her then paralyzed her. The upward
journey continued. Her arms and legs dangled down; water poured from her. She
was flipped over and the powers that be—not gods as she would have pictured
them but two heavily armed white guys with the power of life and death—landed
her like a witless fish. Goggle-eyed and breathless she stared up at them
without even a fish's ability to flop or flounder. "She's not
dead," one of them said. He bent down to peer into her face. Along with
his disappointed utterance came a poke in her side from the barrel of his
weapon. Anna'd never
seen him before. He was maybe thirty, dark brown hair, chin-length and
plastered unbecomingly over a high forehead and sunken cheeks. His flesh had
the worn, papery look of a longtime drug user, but his eyes were normal. Either
he'd straightened up for the job or was "in recovery" at the moment. "She sure
as hell got Jose," the second white guy said and laughed. He was heftier
than the one passing judgment on Anna's lamentable survival, and a good ten
years older. Me, too, wore his hair long, but it had grown thin. What might
once have held a certain piratical charm was now sad and stringy. "His name
is Rick. For Christ's sake help me. There was to be no killing. This is a
goddamn mess." Anna rolled her
eyes. The speaker was William Macintyre, Mack, lean as a whippet, voice angry.
The white guys were hired help. Mack leaned over the gunwale, his skinny butt
and scarred legs all she could see of him. "Help me,
damn it," he shouted. The man
scrutinizing and prodding Anna straightened up. "Watch her, Butch. She's
not dead," he said. Butch. Maybe thug
number one was named Lefty or Spike. Anna felt herself smile. She'd realized a
great truth. Life did mirror art. These two had surely patterned themselves
after movie bad guys. Probably John Travolta in Pulp Fiction. It made
them no less deadly. She thought better about the smile. Behind Butch,
Mack and Thug Number One were hauling in another human catch. The Cuban man
Anna had shot at. Rick. Control was
returning to her torso. She was breathing more or less regularly, and the
paralyzing blows to her back had morphed from numb to an ache so deep she
worried for her spine. "Butch,
I'd like to sit up, if I may," she said. Unarmed in the enemy's camp, it
was good to be polite whenever possible. "I hit
you," he said. He sounded annoyed. "You
did," Anna assured him kindly. "Kevlar vest." He knelt and
reached toward her. At first she thought it was to help her to her feet and was
about to decide this Miss Manners approach wasn't half bad. Butch, however,
wasn't cut of gentlemanly cloth. He punched at her chest, a professional's
interest in her vest. "These
things are a lot lighter 'n I remember. Handy. You'll be sore as hell." He seemed to
want that, and it was true so Anna gave it to him: "I already am. Feels
like my back's busted in two places. Mind if I sit up?" He held his
firearm in his left hand. Up close Anna could see it was indeed an Uzi, an old
one manufactured in the late eighties and not kept in mint condition. Probably
a hand-me-down or a piece lifted in another job. Across the knuckles of Butch's
right hand a crude H and an A had been tattooed. Undoubtedly meant to be
"Hate" but would forever read "HA." "Get
paroled before they finished the job?" She nodded toward the aborted
chuckle in flesh and ink. "Yeah.
Well..." "Butch is
scared of needles." The younger man said from where he pulled a bleeding
Cuban gunman over the side. "Shut the
fuck up, Perry." Perry. So much
for the movies. "'Ha' is
nice," Anna said, but their moment of blossoming rapport had been nipped
in the bud. "You shut
the fuck up." This time Butch was talking to her. He backed up a foot or
two and allowed the muzzle of his gun to veer away from her chest to a more
benign position. Anna took this
as permission to sit up. It was harder than she'd expected and hurt a lot
worse. She got her back against the hull and her knees pulled up just in time
to avoid being landed on by Rick. Perry and Mack flopped him onto the deck with
the same lack of gentleness with which they'd managed her landing. Rick had lost
his weapon. Blood trickled from a neat round hole a couple of inches above his
kneecap. Salt water had washed it clean. It was seeping not spurting. He would
live. Anna wasn't sure how she felt about that. He wasn't much
more than a boy, and when he talked he sounded just enough like Ricky Ricardo
that Anna wondered if his name wasn't a cruel joke laid upon him by uncaring
parents. His hair was a perfect black with water but would have reddish hues
when dry. The face was square and boyish, innocence only marred by a bad case
of acne and the fact that he'd tried to kill her. He was dressed in khaki
shorts and a white polo shirt complete with tiny alligator and web belt. Anna
guessed he'd had Weejuns but lost them while floundering around in the water. "You
didn't have to shoot me," he said to her in a lilt millions of Americans
would find comedic. "You were
going to shoot me," she said reasonably. Butch, Perry
and Mack crowded back to the gunwale to help the last gunman onboard. Anna
looked around for something that might better her odds but saw nothing. Going
over the side wouldn't do her much good, and at the moment her back was a plank
of stiff hard-core pain. She doubted she could move very fast. "I was
not," Rick said. "Nobody's supposed to get shot." "You play
with guns, accidents happen," Anna said unsympathetically. The gunman from
shore was brought aboard, cursing—or so it sounded to Anna—in rapid-fire
Spanish. He, too, was young and Cuban and as clean-cut as a fellow could be
dragged from the surf carrying an automatic weapon. He held it by the barrel
the way a drunk might hold a bottle of Johnny Walker. Once he had both feet in
the boat he threw it down. "Hey!
Watch it, Jose." That was from
Butch. A chill shivered through the two Cuban boys and Mack. "Paulo,"
the boy said, then spoke angrily in Spanish while the boat rocked, Rick bled
and Anna watched. Mack cut him
off with a few words Anna didn't understand—her Spanish running a short gamut
from hola to cervesa. Then Mack turned to Butch. "Leave it
alone," he said. "Si,
senor" Butch said. In her mind
Anna was chanting fight! fight! but they didn't. Mack expressed
his anger mechanically. He shoved the cigarette boat's throttles ahead, and the
powerful engines all but stood the narrow boat on its stern. Anna and the
Cubans were sitting on the deck and only slid. Butch grabbed onto Perry and
both fell, landing on young Rick's wounded leg. The engines
roared. Rick screamed. Perry lost his gun. It and Paulo's discarded weapon slid
down the deck. The pain in her back anesthetized by hope and adrenaline, Anna
pounced on the first one that came her way, rolled and, still lying on her
side, hugged the butt close to her ribs, muzzle pointed at the tangle of blood,
water and men. "Shit." "Fuck." "My
leg." "Watch it,
Jose." "Jesus." Anna waited as
this intellectual exchange sorted itself out. Over the sound of engine, wind
and waves, any shouted commands would be lost. Perry was the
first to extricate and right himself and the first to notice the balance of
power had slid into Anna's court during the impromptu skirmish. "Holy
fuck, she's got a gun," he announced. The men stopped
mid-scramble. Had Anna been in a cheerier frame of mind she would have found it
funny. "Stop the
goddamn boat," Butch yelled. Mack looked
back for the first time. He cut power and the boat's bow fell into the ocean
with a jar that sent a numbing pain up Anna's arm from where her elbow
connected with the deck. She didn't drop the Uzi, nor would she. She and
Charlton Heston. They would have to pry the thing from her cold dead hands. Before the
others could recover, she snatched the second weapon and threw it over the
side, then sat up. Two automatic weapons remained to her kidnappers. Rick was
all but sitting on one. Butch's Uzi was still in his hands. "Put it
down, Butch," Anna said into the relative quiet of the engine's idle.
Without forward drive, the boat pitched and heaved sickeningly. Anna had her
elbows braced on her knees, butt and feet firmly on the deck so it bothered her
not at all. Rick looked as if he was about to be sick. Given pain, shock and
rough seas, Anna wasn't surprised. Butch, Perry and Mack were clearly used to
the water. They rode the deck without effort. "See what
you've done with your stupid fucking around," Perry yelled at Mack.
"If you'd driven the boat like a goddamn white man she wouldn't've gotten
it." "Leave it
alone," Butch said. He never looked away from Anna. Perry was dangerous
but Butch was the powerbase. Kidnap, killing: Anna guessed he'd done it before.
Unlike his young protйgй, when things went bad he became calm. Butch twitched
the gun. "Down,"
Anna said sharply, and he stopped but he didn't let go of it. "I haven't
the patience to screw around with you. Throw it over the side." The ache
in her back, near drowning, maybe shock, came over her in a palpable wave. She
was too wired up to feel afraid, but shaking started behind her breastbone and began
spreading outward. Before it reached her hands, she needed compliance. Mack watched
her, an odd mixture of admiration and stunned disappointment on his weathered
face. "The
gun," Anna said quietly, and she moved the barrel of hers till it pointed
at the middle of Butch. "Oh,
wait," Rick said, his voice light and young all of a sudden. "That
gun's got no bullets." "Shall I
test out Rick's assertion on you?" Anna asked Butch. "Throw it over
the side." Careful not to
turn the automatic in such a way Anna might mistake it for aggression, Butch
held the Uzi out over the gunwale. "No.
Really," Rick insisted. "She got my gun. I used all the ammo. See,
it's got my initials on the barrel. I used my sister's fingernail polish
because it won't come off." Anna didn't
look but the ring of truth and the childish detail of the name shook her. "Drop
it," she yelled at Butch, but he'd believed Rick. He swung the gun toward
her. Anna pulled the trigger. "See?"
Rick said. Before it could
be retrieved and reloaded Anna threw it overboard to join its fellow. Diving
around East Key was going to be exciting for somebody. "No!"
and the rattle of machine gun fire so close it hurt the eardrums. Anna
flattened into the bottom of the boat. At this range a bullet would go through
her body and the boat's hull. If they shot her, at least they'd sink their own
damn boat. Nobody shot her, though it had been a genuine attempt. Mack had hit
Butch's arm and the shots had gone high. "No
killing," Mack said. "She's a
pain in the ass. You get rid of her or she's going to be trouble." "No I
won't," said Anna. "I'll be good. I promise." "See?"
said Rick again. Rick and Paulo believed her. They really were very young. Butch ignored
her. "We don't need trouble," he said. "You shoot
a federal law-enforcement officer and all of a sudden it gets personal. They
won't give up," Mack told him. "They
don't find the body so nobody got shot so they're short one pain-in-the-ass
bitch. Nobody's going to look too hard." "No
killing." "Yeah.
Right," Perry said and smirked. Butch shut him
up with a look. "You got it, Mack. But the vest goes. I don't want any
supergirl shit." "Sure,"
Mack said. "Lose the
vest," Butch said. "I
can't," Anna said. "I don't have anything on under it." Butch
was unmoved by the argument, but Anna figured anything was worth a try. The shakes that
threatened earlier had migrated and her fingers trembled and fumbled with the
buttons of her shirt and the Velcro tabs on the Kevlar vest underneath. For the
first time in a while she wished she were in the habit of wearing a bra. The
rain had let up to a gentle, wind-born drizzle, but when Anna removed the heavy
vest she felt cold. Colder. Fear, consciously admitted or not, had shut down
much of the blood flow to her extremities. Because she
needed to know them, Anna watched the men watching her. Rick and Paulo averted
their eyes. Perry saw the vest come off with a leer in his eye, looking for a
cheap thrill. Butch looked on only for treachery and concealed weapons. Mack's
face registered something very like pain or maybe hatred. "Toss
it," Butch said. Anna did as she
was told, but as the hot, miserable, uncomfortable thing had saved her life,
she hated to see it go. She put her shirt back on. The back of it was in
shreds. Both bullets had struck her at an angle. Without the vest the lead
would have cut tunnels the width of her body. "Are we
set?" Mack asked. Butch was still
focused on Anna. "Cuff yourself." Anna took the
cuffs from her pouch on her duty belt and put one loosely around her left wrist.
It was funny how much louder the ratcheting was to the one being cuffed. In
various law-enforcement training sessions Anna and countless others in the
field had been warned of how deadly a weapon unsecured cuffs can be, or cuffs
secured only on one side. Properly used, the metal, the hook, the chain, the
teeth on the locking mechanism, could maim and kill. Fleetingly, Anna wished
she'd paid more attention in class. Probably when she was drawing cartoons or
writing her sister under the guise of note-taking, one small middle-aged woman
armed with half a pair of handcuffs facing five grown men, two armed with
automatic weapons, had been covered. "Other
side." Fantasies of
morphing into Jean Claude Van Damme evaporated. Anna closed the cuff over her
right wrist. Secure enough to come closer, Butch leaned down and squeezed the
cuffs, tightening them to where she wouldn't be able to wriggle out. "Where's
the key?" "It's on
the key chain in the Reef Ranger's ignition," she told him. Butch gave her
a few seconds to recant her lie, and Anna fought the urge to say Honest,
really, go look and settled for sullenness. One cuff key was on her key
ring. Like many law-enforcement people, she kept a spare key—they were tiny
things, like the key to a girl's jewelry box—in the watch pocket of her
trousers. As women's uniform shorts lacked this amenity, she carried it in the
breast pocket of her shirt. Had Butch cuffed her hands behind her back she'd
have been out of luck. Mack watched
the exchange with growing impatience. Anna wondered if he regretted his
decision not to let Butch shoot her. Cuffed, she sat timidly back in the stern
by the wounded Rick. "We're
set," Butch said. Before Mack
could power up, Anna said: "Hey, Mack, could you put one of these goons on
the Reef Ranger? Drive it back? I lose another boat here and I'll be
writing reports till you guys get out of the penitentiary." For a bleak
while he stared at her. Then he smiled, a mere cracking of the wrinkles on his
cheeks. "Sure." Perry started
to say something rude, but Butch cut him off. "Anybody sees an NPS boat
adrift's going to raise an alarm." They'd intended
to rescue the boat all along. The strength Anna's tiny victory afforded her
soaked into the ache in her back and was absorbed. Mack circled the little key.
Perry jumped ship to pilot the Reef Ranger back to the fort. Butch
watched Anna. When Mack got the go-fast boat up to speed and the howl of the
engine and pounding of the hull on the waves created a solid wall of noise
between the stern and where Butch leaned near the pilot's console, Anna spoke
to Rick. "I'm an
emergency medical technician," she said over the racket. "I've seen a
lot of wounds. That's a bad one. It could have nicked the femoral artery." Rick looked up,
his ashen face growing perhaps a shade paler. "Butch said it wasn't
spurting. I was okay if it wasn't spurting. It's hardly bleeding at all." Anna studied
the red-black hole for a moment. "I hate to say it but the placement's
bad. You could be bleeding to death inside. Never know it, then bang. Lights
out." The pupils of
Rick's eyes grew larger, blacker. "No," he said. "That's crap.
It's not spurting." "Easy
enough to tell," Anna said, then leaned back and pretended to lose
interest. The Cuban boy
stood it as long as he could—about forty-five seconds—before he blurted out
"How can you tell?" The boy was too
easy. Looking at the pale and sweating face, the too-wide eyes, Anna knew she
ran the risk of putting him into deeper shock. People died of shock. Guilt
prodded her insides. Handcuffed and aching, she found it fairly easy to ignore. Starting with
questions to which the answers had to be yes, she asked: "Arc yon feeling
lightheaded?" Then she went through the litany of shock: "Dizzy,
sweating, nauseous, anxious?" Rick, growing
more panicked by the moment, answered yes to them all. "Internal
bleeding," Anna said matter-of-factly. "If we don't get you to a
doctor soon . . . Maybe I should call for the medevac helicopter when we get
back to a phone." "Oh Jesus.
Oh Jesus. Mary Mother of God." Anna didn't
know if the boy prayed or swore. She just knew she needed help. To justify the
caching of fuel, the kidnapping of a ranger and probably at least one murder,
Mack and his cronies must be planning on importing a whole hell of a lot of
"product." Mack cut power
so he wouldn't cause a wake. He was too clever to call attention to himself by
rude or illegal boating practices. A shrimper had arrived and rocked at anchor. Butch left his
place by the helm and stepped back to where Anna sat terrifying Rick. The
moment the roar of the engines died, the wounded man began babbling. "Look
you guys, you got to get me to a doctor. This lady says I got bleeding inside.
Please. I don't maybe have long. Oh God. Oh Jesus." "Shut up,
you'll live," Butch snapped. "What she been telling you?" he
demanded. The boy repeated the dire forecast Anna had outlined. "It's
crap. She's lying. No calls." He leaned down and backhanded Anna hard
across the face, moving so quickly she scarcely saw it coming and had no time
to duck. The blow caught her ear and the pain made tears start. Before her head
cleared she was aware of a rough voice near her ringing ear and hot breath on
her cheek. "You're a sneaky bitch, I'll give you that, but I ain't got
time for your shit. You talk to anybody and I kill you. Got that?" "Got
it," Anna said. This time she saw it coming but could do nothing about it.
The back of Butch's hand smashed into her temple with such force it loosed the
pains in her back. If she hadn't been so pissed off, she would have screamed. "You got
that?" he asked again. Anna nodded, no
sound. "You may
stay alive, but don't count on it." He took a blue
plastic tarp from storage beneath a bench seat, shook it out and threw it over
her. "You move and I crush your skull." Anna didn't nod.
The first time had been enough to loose her neck hinges, again and her head
might topple off into her lap. Being smuggled into her own harbor beneath an
old tarpaulin as if she were a shipment of something so vile the public mustn't
be affronted by having to look upon it wasn't the indignity it could have been.
Hidden in the tent made by head and knees, she was free to fish the tiny
handcuff key out of her shirt pocket. Blinded, the leap and crash of the
cigarette boat was more disconcerting than when she could brace herself, but in
the harbor, the water was considerably flatter and she managed her task. Having
unlocked both cuffs, she didn't remove them but loosened them to the point
where, with a little effort, she could wriggle her hands free. That done, she
put the key back in her pocket and waited. On shipboard,
with men intent on keeping her in their control apparently at any price, was
not the time to flaunt her freedom or attempt escape or coup. Maybe later when
the odds were better. If there was to be a later. If the odds got better. Bumping that
caused Anna to fall into Rick, and Rick to cry out in pain, announced their
arrival at the dock. The tarp was jerked off and rough hands hauled her to her
feet. Mack had taken
the slip at the visitors' dock. Butch leaped offboard and began tying the boat
to the cleats. The wind had slacked off but rain came down steadily, and low,
thick skies brought an early dusk. Visibility was down to nearly nothing, and
the beach was deserted. Two tents, campers huddled inside, remained in the
small campground. Butch grabbed a
towel and threw it over Anna's cuffed wrists, then took her by the elbows.
"Keep those handcuffs covered as if your life depended on nobody seeing
them," he hissed in her ear. Anna nodded,
gently this time, keeping her head balanced on top of her spine. Butch half
lifted her out of the boat. She stumbled on the dock and he hauled her upright.
"None of your crap." His grip tightened above her elbow, squeezing
till she could feel her fingers growing numb from lack of blood. "No
crap," Anna said. "Just clumsy. Loosen up before I get gangrene, for
Pete's sake. You afraid I'm going to get the better of you in hand-to-hand
combat?" Butch outweighed Anna by a hundred pounds and was a good
ten inches taller. "Shut the
fuck up," he said, but he did loosen his grip somewhat. Rick was next.
Mack and Paulo helped him out of the boat and over to one of the pilings so he
could support himself. "You gotta
walk, Jose," Perry said. He'd docked the Reef behind the red boat.
"We aren't calling attention to ourselves because you got yourself shot by
a girl ranger." Rick looked to
be fighting back tears. "I can't," he said. "You got to get me a
doctor." "You'll
walk and you don't limp, neither," Perry growled. Anna'd not seen him pull
it but Perry had a knife in his hands, a wicked-looking little number with a
blade about three inches long and nearly that wide, both edges honed for
cutting. "Hey!"
Mack yelled when he saw the blade. Both Perry and Butch turned dull, flat eyes
on him. Eyes like carp Anna thought. Or shark. Eyes in which the
windows to the soul were blacked out from within. Mack looked
from one to the other. His blue eyes, once too light and cold for Anna's taste,
by comparison looked reassuringly human. There was an exchange between the
three men, thug number one, thug number two and Mack, but Anna wasn't sure
exactly what transpired. An understanding was reached, a balance of power
shifted, a new card turned up on the table. This moment of
dark epiphany was over before Anna could swear it happened. "I'll get one
of the carts," Mack said. "It'll be easier than herding her and
holding up Rick." "Give him
a hand, Perry," Butch ordered. The two men walked off over the sand to be
swallowed by the black maw of the sally port. Under hostile skies, brick dark
with rain, the fort was a forbidding place. Anna found herself thinking not of
the gunman at her elbow, the wounded Cuban boy or Mack's treachery, but of her
ancestors, Raffia and Tilly, of the pressing company of warring men, innocence
preyed upon and innocence lost. Though Anna would kill him if she had to—and if
she got half a chance—William Macintyre had started out the innocent here.
Maybe. Maybe it didn't matter, but she'd watch, ready to shove her fingers into
any small crack that might appear in this little crime family. "You got
to get me to a doctor," Rick began again. Movement had started his leg
bleeding. It was no more than a seep, but mixed with the rain, and the only
true color in a gray landscape, it made a good show. The sight of it was
renewing the boy's panic, pushing him deeper into shock. Anna wondered if she'd
killed him with her lies. "You keep
crying and I'll give you something to cry about," Butch said. The statement
was so incongruous Anna said: "You got kids?" before she remembered
the cuff her last spontaneous outburst had earned her. "Shut the
fuck up," Butch said. A man of few words. Rick turned
panicked eyes on Paulo. White showed around the dark irises. His skin was the
color of the sky. "You'll be okay," Paulo said. "We'll get you
to a doctor tomorrow." Anna's plan to
divide and conquer was probably doomed to failure. She might have literally
scared Rick to death for nothing. She took pity on the boy. "Rick,
listen to me," she said. "Shut
the—" Butch began. Anna stopped
him, both hands up, palms out, "No. Let me." For some reason
he did. "Look at
me Rick." He did. "You're
not going to die. You're not bleeding internally. You've got a little bitty
piece of lead in your leg about the size of the tip of my little finger. I said
all that stuff so these bozos would let me call the mainland. You're not going
to die. Are you hearing me?" "You lied
about me bleeding to death?" The look of shocked disbelief made her want
to laugh. Knowing it would verge on the hysterical, she didn't give in to it.
"Yes. I lied. A bald-faced lie. There's a nurse here, she'll tell you the
same." "No
nurse," Butch said. "Okay. No
problem. We'll get you some hot tea, get that leg up, and you'll be right as
rain." Anna's decent impulse earned her the reward of seeing a hint of
color return to the boy's lips. "You can
do that, okay?" she asked Butch. "Let me get him some tea, bandage
the leg?" "Maybe." Paulo got a bit
of his spine back. He stood up straight, balled his fists. He was a big guy,
almost as big as Butch. The older man took in his situation and did some rapid
mental calculations. "Sure," he said. "Why not?" He even
managed to force a semblance of affability into his voice, if not his eyes. Mack, driving
the electric cart, materialized out of the rain. The absolute silence of the
machine continued to amaze Anna. On occasion she pictured cities running in
blissful quiet, the streets and avenues of New York whispering through rush
hour. "Is
everything quiet?" Butch asked. "It'll
take a few minutes to kick in," Mack replied. An image of
poisoned corpses strewn about sprang to Anna's mind. For a panicked moment she
fought the urge to slip off her cuffs and take her chances in the sea. 26 I Stayed with
Dr. Mudd another quarter of an hour. I tried all the tricks—bluster, threat,
innuendo, pleading—I have learned over a lifetime of watching Molly and Joseph
get the truth from wayward girls and soldiers. Mudd never changed his story: he
had not summoned Tilly the night she disappeared, he had asked neither her nor
Joel to carry his proof to the mainland in any but a safe and usual channel, he
knew nothing of the children's whereabouts or destination. Dr. Mudd
theorized—and it sounded as if he believed what he was saying, but I am a woman
easily fooled by liars—the plan to remove both Tilly and Joel was hatched by
Samuel Arnold. According to Mudd, Mr. Arnold knew the doctor was innocent of
conspiracy but would do all he could to keep that information from getting out
and, thus, starting a hunt for the real conspirator, this doppelganger in the
purloined photograph. Knowing Mudd to have had a falling-out with his cellmate,
I found his theory self-serving. It too neatly fitted facts only Dr. Mudd was privy
to and told the story he was desperate for others to believe. I did not take it
on faith. Still, it was sufficiently sensical, I knew I must speak with Mr.
Arnold despite the strictures laid upon me. After much
cajoling on my part, Mudd told me the name of the soldier he had suborned into
carrying messages to Tilly: Charley Munson. At first I couldn't place the name
in the roster of near a thousand boys and men at Fort Jefferson. Once Mudd
described him it came back. Charley Munson was the boy-faced soldier Tilly and
I briefly glimpsed the night of the theatrical, when we'd been drawn into this
prolonged insanity by Joel's screams. Private Munson had been on duty at the
sally port when Sergeant Sinapp hung Joel by the thumbs. I remember how
white-faced and stricken he looked. Sympathy for a fellow recruit, even if an
enemy in name, must have made him vulnerable to Dr. Mudd's winning ways. Shortly
thereafter I left Dr. Mudd to his dungeon, feeling my way out like one of the
blind mice and sharing the same terror that a carving knife was poised above my
tail. The watch was calling three A.M. when I slipped out of the stifling
darkness of our man-made cavern and into the shadows at the edge of the parade
ground. Less than an hour had passed. I'd thought I'd been so long whispering through
the bars of the dungeon I would emerge to a full dawn and have to run a
gauntlet of curious and mocking eyes as I scurried home in my husband's
trousers. Knowing I had
at least two more hours of darkness decided me. Trying to keep to the shadows,
call no attention to myself, yet not appear furtive should a sentry catch sight
of me, I made my way through casemates housing cannon and shot till I reached
the small opening into the south side of the sally port. This is a mere slot in
the brick, narrow and shaped in an el for easy defense. There in the black of
the shadows I watched the guardroom across the entryway. It was too much
to hope that Charley Munson would be on duty. Neither of the sentries were men
I knew. They were passing the time in the forbidden but common practice of one
keeping watch while the other napped. From my many
visits to Joel I knew where the key to the casemates was kept. All the keys
were stored in a heavy wooden box bolted into the brick to the left of the
guardroom door. The box was padlocked but the key to the lock was stashed in a
niche carved out of the mortar a couple of feet above and to the right of the
box. There was a
good deal of coming and going in the cells: food, water, men going to and
returning from work, laundresses, mail when the ship brought it, so I suppose
this weakness in the system was considered less problematic than having
sentries lose the key periodically or have half a dozen keys in as many
pockets. The guard whose
turn it was to sleep was doing so most profoundly. From where I stood in my
niche in the shadows I could not see him, but I could hear the snoring. The
sentry on watch paced back and forth. Four times he walked through the sally
port, stopping for a moment to gaze out over the harbor, then back to stop
again to do the same with the parade ground. Each time, he passed within six
feet of where I stood and never sensed or saw me. I was frightened and anxious
about my ability to carry out my plan—if you will allow me the conceit of
calling anything so crude a plan—but being thus secret and watching gave me a
heady sense of power, as though I could go where I wished, do what I wished and
there would be no consequences. Perhaps I am cut out for a life of stealth and
deceit. If not for the accompanying feeling that I should vomit at any moment,
I would be tempted. Under his
breath the sentry was whistling a lively tune brought to the fort by the
confederate soldiers. We have won the battle but it is their battle hymns our
children will sing. Whether this
pacing out and in and out was what was required of the night sentry or whether
this whistler merely stretched his legs to stay awake I couldn't know. Nor
could I foresee how much longer the pattern might continue. Before the utter
stupidity of my so-called plan could dissuade me, I acted. As the sentry
reached his farthest-most point from the guardroom door in his pendulum swing,
I slipped out of my crevice, across the sally port and into the guardroom.
There I flattened myself against the wall as he turned and paced back. Hearing
sharpened by fear, I was aware of every scuff of his boots, every fragment of
gravel set in motion by his passage. He slowed as if he stopped or turned to
come back to his roost. My stomach grew tighter till I had to swallow back the
bile in my throat. Across from where I stood was the sleeping guard. I watched
with terror each time an explosive spasm of snorts and gurgles threatened such
violence that I thought he must surely wake himself. Hearing the
outside soldier's boots stop, this time for real, at the parade ground end of
his short patrol, I slipped the key from its niche and unlocked the cabinet. A
person perennially terrified would miss nothing of life. Each movement, each
second that passed, I was acutely aware of: small snicks of the key in the
lock, the faint creak of the hinges as I opened the cabinet. These were
magnified till it seemed I passed half a lifetime in the doing. The clatter the
key I took from the third peg made as it bumped the one below rang so loudly in
my ears I thought the whole garrison must wake. Lest the guards
have cause to look in the cabinet anytime soon, I took a key from another peg
and used it to replace the one I'd stolen, in hopes immediate suspicion would
take them some other place than where I intended to go. This done, I relocked
the cabinet and slipped the key to the padlock back between the bricks. The key
to the casemate I put in my trouser—or, rather, Joseph's trouser—pocket. Footsteps began
again. The eternity I'd spent fumbling with locks and keys, with snorts and
snores and the sound of my own heart beating in my ears, had passed in that
brief moment while the sentry surveyed the parade ground. Once again,
back against the wall, face to face with the man dreaming in his chair, I prayed
to each and every saint Molly ever made us light candles to but especially to
St. Dismas, the patron saint of thieves. It was he whom I thought might be most
sympathetic with my spiritual needs at that moment. Either my
prayers were heard or heaven was closed to me, leaving me free to do the
devil's work. The sentry passed. I slipped out of the guardroom and around the
corner. In moments I was in the inky darkness within the spiral stairwell.
Courage and strength deserted me and I sat till the shaking in my legs and the
staggering faintness of my heart passed and I could walk again. Sitting in the
dark hugging my knees, gasping for breath and trying to keep my insides from
vibrating so hard they rattled my teeth, I thought of the soldiers asleep
around me. How did they go into battle? How could they make their legs work as
cannon banged and their fellows bled and died or fell screaming? Once I fancied
myself a courageous woman and had fantasies of stanching wounds with my
petticoats or daring enemy lines to carry messages to turn the tide of war. No more. Hiding
in that twisting round of slate and stone I was acutely aware that life is the
only gift God gives us that we cannot earn, find, build or bake for ourselves. When I had
recovered—a matter of minutes really, though they passed a thousand times
faster than in the guardroom—I felt my way to the second tier. Whereas the
utter dark of the passage to the dungeon had unnerved me, this darkness was my
friend, indicating I was alone. I was sorry to leave it when I reached the top
of the stairs and had to walk in the open for half a dozen yards before I could
again hide myself, this time in the passageway behind the enclosed casemates. I had stolen
the key, I had reached my destination, yet I stood before the door and did
nothing. It wasn't fear of Sam Arnold that held me there. Foolish as it looks
in retrospect, I had no fear that Mr. Arnold would do me harm. My fear was for whom
I would become in the eyes of my neighbor, of my husband, when it was known I
had gone alone in the middle of the night to call on a man. As I stood feeling
terrible shame, as if every woman in the fort already gossiped about me and
every man made bawdy jokes when my name came up, I couldn't but think of the
times Tilly had come without me. Young and foolish and wrong as she was, Tilly
had not hesitated to do what she believed was just. She was taught, as are all
girls, what involving herself in scandal could do to her reputation and her
future, yet she did it anyway. Could I do
less? I unlocked the
door and stepped inside. The darkness here was different. Little air came into
the casemate. Without the cooling ocean breeze to clear away the heat and the
inevitable stink of occupation, it was a darkness that not only lay heavy on my
eyelids but thick and choking in my throat. Mr. Arnold had
shared the back casemate with Dr. Mudd, Joel using the first one inside the
door. I hoped, though Joel and the doctor were gone, Mr. Arnold would have kept
to the same bed out of habit. If Mr. Arnold was still in residence. It had not
occurred to me until that moment that Sam Arnold might have been moved as well;
that new tenants might be sleeping around my feet at that very moment. The
quaking fear that had beset me in the stairwell threatened to return. Before it
could cripple me or send me crashing blindly for the door, I began speaking. "Mr.
Arnold? Mr. Arnold. It's Mrs. Coleman. I'm sorry to call so late." Calling
indeed. It has been years since I have used calling cards, and this was not a
place with a silver salver in the entrance hall to receive them. At last a light
was struck in the far room and I fairly rushed toward it. Mr. Arnold, candle in
hand, was propped up on his bed of bricks and boards wearing nothing but the
corner of a thin blanket. Stopping in the doorway to the room he now had to
himself, I wanted to explain myself but no words came. For the longest
time he stared at me and I felt myself growing smaller by the moment. Finally
he spoke: "What do you want, boy?" The success of
my disguise reassured me for some reason, and my vocabulary returned.
"It's Mrs. Coleman. I need to speak with you." "Does
anybody know you are here?" Before I could
think better of it, I told him no. 27 The Storm
brought darkness early. As the electric cart slipped noiselessly through the
sally port, Anna could see welcoming gold light in the windows of the Shaws'
house across the parade ground and the window of Daniel's casemate apartment to
the left. Mack stopped the cart in front of the administrative offices. With
the switching off of the electric motor there came a metallic crunching sound
as if a giant spoon had fallen into a monster garbage disposal. As one, every
light in the compound went dark. "That's it
then," Mack said. Perry and Butch
leapt from the cart and, automatic rifles under their arms, ran across the
parade ground, one toward Daniel's apartment and one toward the Shaws'. "The
generators," Anna said. "You sabotaged them." "Nobody's
to radio out," Mack said. Without at
least one of the six generators up and running the fort was dead: no lights, no
water pumped, no radio or phone contact with the mainland. "It's not
going to work, Mack. You don't have enough men. You don't have enough men with
Rick wounded. The Shaws, Daniel, somebody will radio a boat in the harbor, and
they'll call the coast guard. "We've got
enough," Mack said. "All we need is a couple of hours." "The storm
will have held your boats up," Anna predicted. Mack said nothing. Paulo
was holding a pistol he'd been given by Butch in place of the Uzi Anna'd thrown
overboard. It was a .44 Magnum, a huge gun and one Anna hadn't seen since Clint
Eastwood quit making the Dirty Harry movies. Paulo stood aside as Mack opened
the office door, then returned to the cart to help Rick. Paulo followed Anna
inside. She started to
sit at Teddy's desk by phone, computer and Mrs. Shaw's radio sitting in its
charger. "There," Paulo said, indicating a lonely chair in the corner
by the coffeepot. "They won't work without the generators," she said.
"Why not let me be comfortable?" Paulo took the
portable radio and stuck it in the hip pocket of his shorts. Mack came in and
settled Rick in the chair Anna'd been denied. "Keep her away from the
radios. She could raise a shrimp boat from one," he said and left. He would be
going to the third tier to destroy the microwave dish, Anna guessed. It alone
had the power to function without the generators, to contact the mainland. Mack
was a maintenance man. He knew how the fort worked. "Let me
help Rick," Anna said. The two young men were easy with each other.
Willing to stand close together, willing to let a shoulder brush or an elbow
touch. Rick and Paulo were friends, maybe even related. "I lied about Rick
dying of internal bleeding," she said. "But I didn't lie about the
danger of shock. Let me help him." Fear still
pinched and grayed Rick's face. He wanted to be helped, comforted. He didn't
speak for himself but looked to Paulo. Older men, in their thirties and
forties, had been out in the world long enough to realize they were truly
alone. For young men not long from home there was no person more reassuring
than a woman their mothers' age; a safe middle-aged lady, the traditional
bringer of soup and kisser of skinned knees. "Maybe
you're lying now," Paulo said. "I'm not.
I swear on the Virgin Mary and all the saints, I'm not lying," Anna said.
Cuban boys, raised in Miami, Anna was banking on the fact that they were
Catholic and her oath would not only mean something to them but suggest in some
part of their minds that she was like them, one of them. "Okay,"
Paulo said. "But no funny stuff." "The red
nose and fright wig will say in my pocket," Anna promised. "Whatever.
But you don't try anything." "I'd work
better with the handcuffs off," she said. "No." Anna took that
calmly. She'd not wanted Paulo to mess with the cuffs and notice they were
loose, but it would have been out of character not to ask. Her life might
depend on whether or not these men took a liking to her and because Rick,
despite being a kidnapper, a pirate and possibly a murderer, seemed like a good
kid, Anna treated him as best she knew how. Half a pot of water for tea, not
yet grown cold without electricity, remained on the warming plate. "How many
are coming?" she asked when she'd established as homey an atmosphere as
possible given a man held a gun on her. "Three
hundred, about," Rick said proudly. "Don't
talk to her about that," Paulo said, but there was no force behind the
words, so Rick ignored them. They both wanted to talk, and Anna was just the woman
to listen. "That's a
lot of souls," she said without looking up from cleaning the blood away
from the wound. It had almost stopped bleeding, and she had no intention of
opening it up again with overzealous washing. She just wanted to get a better
picture of the damage. "Why
here?" Anna knew why here, but she wanted to keep the words flowing. "All they
gotta do is put one foot on American soil and you can't turn 'em back. One
foot. Out here is still America. By the time anybody gets word, all our boats
will be long gone. Nobody goes to jail." Rick was sipping the tea Anna
poured for him. The warm liquid and the sugar were putting color back in his
face and confidence back in his voice. "Three
hundred," Paulo said. "I don't think anybody's ever done it so
big." They were so
clearly pleased with their work, Anna decided to push. "So. You two guys
will get rich off the problems of your Cuban brothers and sisters." She
uttered this condemnation as if it were a compliment, as if she admired their
entrepreneurial spirit. "What will you rake in, two, three thousand a
head? Split five ways. Let's see . . . nine hundred grand. . . . That's close
to two hundred thousand a piece. Not bad for a couple days' work." "No!"
Rick said. The cry was so full of pain Anna wasn't sure whether it had arisen
from the poke at his intentions or the wound on his leg. "It's not
for the money," Paulo said simultaneously. "You Americans, you sit
over here rich and fat and you got everything when ninety miles away people got
nothing and they're getting hurt and killed for what they believe, and you turn
the boats back like they were garbage scows not good enough to dirty up your
pretty white beaches. Money, that's all you think of." "Pretty
much," Anna said agreeably. "We've got all this terrific stuff. You
guys want some of our great stuff. You come over here and we have to share and
there's less stuff for us. Capitalism, free enterprise, it's all about
stuff." They seemed
nonplussed that she neither argued nor acted offended. Quiet prevailed for a
bit, the only sound, now that the ubiquitous hum of six generators had been
silenced, was the tap of rain on the windows and the spastic tick of the
battery-operated wall clock. "So,"
Anna said. "You guys are carrying three hundred people to American soil
for free, out of the kindness of your hearts?" More rain. More
ticking. "We had costs," Rick said. "Ah." "We did it
for what it cost us," Paulo said. "What's
water-taxi fare to the free world these clays?" "This
isn't any of your business," Paulo snapped as dear young Rick blurted:
"A thousand dollars." "Nice
round number," Anna said. "Stand up. Let me see the back of your
leg." Rick stood
obediently and turned around. The fist-sized hole in the back of Rick's leg was
about half full of bloody hamburger. "Holy
Mary—" Paulo started to whisper. Anna shot him a filthy look and he had
sense enough to keep the rest of his horrors to himself. "What?
What?" Rick was demanding, his voice sliding higher with each word. "Nothing I
didn't expect," Anna said reassuringly. "Most bullets these days are
fired with such force they go right through a human body and out the other
side. That is if you're lucky and a bone doesn't get in the way. This is just
the exit wound. You're in good shape. Not much bleeding. I'll dress it and put
a pressure bandage on. You'll be fine." She stopped
comforting Rick and turned to Paulo. "I want you to see something. Come
here." "Show me
from here." How quickly
they learn to mistrust, Anna thought. And she was such a good teacher. "Sure."
The light had grown so dim she'd been studying the wound with her nose almost
on the back of Rick's knee. "I'm going to need a flashlight. There's one
in the right-hand drawer of my desk. My office is straight back. The right
door." Paulo was torn.
The night that poured in under the storm wouldn't let her see his face, but
Anna could see decisions fighting in the turn of his head and the twitch of his
chin. "You get
it," he said finally. Anna started to move and he yelled. "No. Stay
there. I'll get it." Then, "Shit." "Paulo,
why don't you give the gun to Rick, he can hold it on me while you get the
light," Anna suggested. "I'll just sit over here in this chair."
She sat back in the chair by the coffee machine. "Okay. Here I am." "I don't
need to see anything," Paulo said. "You need
to see this," Anna told him. "Trust me." "Shit,"
he said again, but he gave the gun to Rick and headed for the back office. Anna sat very
still, face pleasantly neutral. Rick was still standing, the gun held in front
of him at waist level. He'd been upright too long. Anna could see the growing
unsteadiness, the way he blinked his eyes too often trying to clear away a fog
that was not on his eyes but inside his brain. There came a moment when she
might have been able to take him down, gotten the gun away from him. Instead
she said gently: "Sit down, Rick. You're about to pass out." "The
light." Paulo handed it to her and took the pistol from Rick. Anna asked Rick
to stand again for a minute and trained the flashlight's beam on the exit
wound. "Look at
the size of that. Okay Rick, turn around and sit." She pointed the light
at the bullet hole above his knee. It was closer to the size of a quarter than
a dime. "Now look at the size of the entry wound." The boys looked
but without any sudden enlightenment dawning on their faces. "I fired
two shots blind, underwater with a nine millimeter. It's powerful but
small—nine millimeters to be exact. Turns out I didn't shoot you, Rick. I
tried, mind you, but today isn't my lucky day. A bigger gun with bigger bullets
shot you. An Uzi maybe. Or that forty-four Paulo's been pointing at me." "What're
you saying?" Paulo demanded. "Are you saying I shot Rick? Fuck—" "No,"
Anna cut him off before he could work himself into a righteous rage. "I'm
saying I didn't. If you didn't and I didn't..." Rick took the
flashlight from her and shined it on his leg. "Paulo, she's right. This is
one damn big hole." "She's
lying. We don't know how big bullet holes are." "Shit we
don't. How many rabbits you figure you've shot? Ducks? Squirrels? Deer?
Alligators? I bet we've seen more bullet holes than most people. None of 'em
were big like this, big hole out the back like I got." "She's
lying," Paulo said again, but he didn't sound so convinced this time. "I'm
not," Anna said. "I swear by the blood Christ shed on the cross I'm
telling the truth." It was entirely possible she was, too. She had a
feeling that these credulous, misguided heroes might not be expected to live
through their adventure; that their role, as written by the other men, was to
be fall guys or corpses. "Perry or
Butch shot you," Anna said. "By
accident. They were shooting at you," Rick said. "You were
forty feet away from me, Rick, and not in the line of fire. You were off to the
left between Paulo on the beach and me in the water." Rick started to
laugh. "You think Butch or Perry shot me on purpose?" "That's
what I think." Rick stopped
laughing. "Maybe
three hundred grand, less whatever you're paying the boat crews, bribes to
Cuban officials and Mack's cut, isn't enough for them." "Mack
isn't taking a cut—" "Shut
up," Paulo shouted suddenly. "We don't talk about this anymore. We
don't talk to you anymore. Shut up, Rick, she's playing us." "It's not
me who's playing you," Anna said. "Shut the
fuck up," Paulo screamed, echoing his criminal mentor. The office door
banged open. Anna didn't say another word. 28 Samuel Arnold,
covered only by the blanket, and that rucked up to where little was left to the
imagination, was completely collected. He surveyed my strange attire with such
cool insolence that it was I who ended up blushing and stammering. "Out alone
at night, disguised as a boy, in a prisoner's cell; do you think that's
wise?" he asked me. "Wise
doesn't enter into it," I said. "Apparently
not." His clear
intention to keep me off balance had the effect of settling my nerves. There's
nothing like spite to give one false courage. False or not, I welcomed it.
"I need to ask you some questions, Mr. Arnold. Please cover
yourself." I used Molly's no-nonsense school voice, but he was impervious
even to the tones that had us quaking in our seats as children. "You
forget, Mrs. Coleman, that it is you who've forced yourself into my bedroom. I
shall receive you as I am." His customary dark humor had returned. As I
had come begging, I could not be choosing. "Very
well," I said and seated myself on the neatly piled brick that served as
the casemate's only chair. A mouse scuttled from behind it and scurried along
the wall and into the shadows away from the candlelight "My
cellmate," Mr. Arnold said and smiled. Threat, to mockery, to charm in
under a minute; he was a man of many faces. The attraction I'd occasionally
felt for him turned to something else. Perhaps fear. I didn't wish to linger
any longer than I had to. "I've
spoken to Dr. Mudd," I began without preliminaries. "He says he took
a photograph from you proving his innocence of conspiring to kill Mr. Lincoln.
He says he gave this picture into the safekeeping of my sister and suggested
that you, in your eagerness to suppress it, might have been involved in her
disappearance." Dr. Mudd had not said precisely those words, but I was
beyond niceties and hoped to shock, startle or shame Mr. Arnold into telling me
something useful. He was proof against it. "Dr. Mudd
used Tilly and now he's using you. I cannot condemn the man. I think he has
gone mad," he said calmly, still lounging on one elbow with lower limbs
exposed. He set the candle down on the bricks that served as his nightstand and
pulled himself into a sitting position. "Dr. Mudd did steal from me. My
sister sent me a photograph of a friend and myself in better days to cheer me.
Mudd got it in his head that this photograph was somehow meaningful. He took it
from my things and gave it to your sister. I have no idea what she did with
it." "Dr. Mudd
said the picture was of you and a man who looks very like Dr. Mudd. He told me
there was a date on the picture proving it was taken when he was elsewhere.
That the man with you was the true conspirator." When I said these things
Mr. Arnold's face underwent a change. By the light of the single candle it
seemed as if the bones beneath his skin shifted and reconfigured into a harder
form. Whether this was because he recognized the truth of my words or was
confirmed in his belief of the doctor's madness I couldn't say. "Mudd
would say anything to free himself," he said. "Would you
say anything to keep him imprisoned?" I asked. "Why would
I do that?" He smiled as if he mocked his own words. There was
little else I could do. I had asked and had my questions answered. Mr. Arnold
was quite comfortable with his story. Even if it were untrue, I was not going
to shake him loose from it. "You were
here the night Tilly and Joel disappeared," I said. "I was.
I've been told they ran away together. An elopement." "Did you
hear or see anything?" I asked. He didn't
answer me right away but sat thinking so long I began to be afraid he wouldn't.
When he finally spoke he seemed to be speaking honestly, as if, during the long
silence, he had weighed the consequences and decided the truth would serve as
well as a lie. "Yes,"
he said. "But I don't know if it will help. I heard voices in the middle
of the night. When you are a prisoner, voices in the dark engender strong
emotions. Part of you knows the enemy has come to shove a knife between your
ribs. Part of you hopes friends have come to set you free. I opened the door
between the casemates a crack, but no light had been struck. Men, probably more
than one but it was too dark to see anything, had come in. I heard grunts and
Joel saying, 'What is it?' and scuffling and another man's voice saying, 'Come
on.' That was it. The door closed and the lock turned. I'm sorry I can't tell
you more." He did seem
genuinely sorry, and his story had the simplicity of truth. It was not what I
wanted to hear. If a man had come for Joel, there was hope it was Charley, Dr.
Mudd's messenger boy, either acting on Mudd's behalf or, perhaps persuaded by
sympathy or bribes, acting as a go-between for Joel and Tilly. As it had been men
plural who'd come and taken Joel away, I couldn't but believe it was a
conspiracy of another sort, one too large and well-planned to have been put
together by a prisoner or a mere girl. And Mr. Arnold said he heard Joel say,
"What is it?" Had Joel sent the note or been planning to elope or
escape with our sister, he would have been awake and waiting, he would have
known what "it" was. The removal of
Tilly would be of no use to Dr. Mudd unless she had been sent to sea carrying
his ticket to freedom. When I'd spoken to him, Dr. Mudd did not strike me as a
man full of hope. Rather the opposite; a man whose hope has been dashed. If Tilly had,
or was at least believed to have had, proof of the doctor's innocence, there
were only two people I could think of who might want her silenced. The first
was Sergeant Sinapp. He was a man full of hatred. He would not want Mudd freed.
And he lusted after Tilly and hated Joel not only for surviving but for
capturing Tilly's heart—at least for a while. The other was sitting across from
me. If he were protecting this doppelganger, the true guilty party in the
murder of President Lincoln, he would probably not flinch at a second
conspiracy aimed at much less dangerous and important individuals. "I like
Tilly very much," Mr. Arnold said, and I realized I was staring at him.
"We all do. She is a spark of all that is bright in the grim place we've
been sent to die." "I have to
go." I left immediately. Mr. Arnold did not follow. I relocked the cell's
door behind me. I believed Mr. Arnold was innocent at least of Tilly's
disappearance. His kind words about our sister, though seemingly genuine, were
not what convinced me. It was his powerlessness. A prisoner as hated as himself
could not turn enough of our soldiers to carry out the abduction of two people. That left
Sergeant Sinapp. Something had made him powerful, snapped the short leash
Joseph had kept him on, freeing him to indulge his appetites and act out his
cruelty in the guise of discipline and patriotism. It was well within his
abilities to put Tilly and Joel on a ship out of here, maybe even sell Tilly to
the sailors or pay them to maroon her and Joel on some out-of-the-way island. Halfway down
the stairs, groping in the dark like a blind woman, tapping in search of the
next step, the despicable nature of the human race overcame me, rising like a
tide of the worst sort of filth. I cannot describe how unclean I felt, how
loathsome to be a member of this species. Despite the original goodness (or so
I hope) of my intentions in starting out on this adventure, I despised myself
for the absurdity and grotesquerie of dressing in a man's britches and shirt,
of creeping about in the dark, cornering men in cell and dungeon, men who
conspired to kill one of the greatest men of our time and, one of whom might
have had a hand in harming a beautiful and precious child. I recoiled from my
own flesh, from the stone around me, from the very smell of this place where men
were incarcerated, some tortured, beaten, here to die of fevers and accidents
and, the least fortunate, of old age. Once in the
relative light and space of the night parade ground I began to run. I couldn't
bear to walk past Sinapp's godforsaken trees and the godforsaken men who
dangled there crying out for water, water I hadn't the courage to stop and give
them. Had I been thinking clearly I wouldn't have done something so rash. At
that moment it was beyond me to stay still and quiet within my insane costume
and crawling skin. "You
there!" someone shouted, and I realized my ill-chosen movement had caught
the eye of the sentry on the north wall. For an instant I faltered, thinking I
would call back. I am, after all, the captain's wife. There are few good
reasons I might be out at that hour, but surely I could have come up with
something a soldier would choose to believe rather than face the consequences
of humiliating himself should he confront Joseph and find out I had not lied.
Then I remembered the clothing I wore and ran faster. The clothing could not be
explained away. The distance
from the stairwell to the side door in the officers' quarters is not great, but
my heart was pounding so I could hear little else, and my lungs were burning
when I reached the deep shade of the building's end. In the fifteen
or so seconds it had taken me to cross the parade ground, the sentry had
continued to shout: "Halt!" And, "You on the parade
ground!" And "Halt," again. Now that I'd stopped, over the
thudding in my ears, I could hear crunching on gravel and more shouting as the
sally port guards, alerted by the cries from ramparts, had begun to run after
me or perhaps merely in the direction the guard above had pointed. There was a
chance I'd not been seen by them. "East end
of the quarters," the sentry shouted from what sounded like directly above
my head. "There or in the barracks construction. You there. In the
shadows. Identify yourself or be shot." The terrors of
the night had come home to roost. I felt I'd been stripped naked and now must
show myself to the men of the garrison to be hooted and jeered and used. I
looked at the unfinished third tier where the voice was coming from. The sentry
had moved with me and was poised three stories up, his rifle squeezed to his
shoulder. The gun wasn't
pointing at me but at the deeper shadows across from me in a pile of lumber and
brick. He could not see me but only guessed my whereabouts. As quietly as I
could, hugging my protective shadow, I crept along the end of the building. The
fort's surgeon and his family share the apartments on this end of the quarters.
The next rooms house the engineer and his serving man. Then Joseph's and mine.
There is no egress from the back of the building to our quarters, but the
downstairs windows have not been closed since late April but for the one night
we got that blowing rain. Noise would
call the guards down upon me, but time was short. The sentries would soon come
from all points to join the search, and I must be in my bed by then, in my
matronly nightgown with my matronly virtue wrapped around me. I reached the
window that let into the downstairs hall adjacent to Luanne's room and began
pulling myself over the sill. Giddy with relief, had I not needed to keep quiet
and to rid myself of Joseph's clothes before the shouting and running brought
him out of his bed, I would have laughed. Then a hand
closed in the loose fabric at the seat of Joseph's trousers and I was jerked
roughly backwards. Not daring to cry out for help, I caught at the frame and
the sill but couldn't win my way free. Kicking, I connected with some part of
someone and was rewarded by a grunt and a loosening of the grip. Before I
regained even half the inches I'd won, my legs were grabbed and I was hauled
outward so quickly my chin banged the sill. It was all I could do to throw my
arms down before my face crashed into the ground. My shoulder was clutched so
hard it hurt. I was rolled to my back and a fist struck me above the temple. The shock of
the fall and the blow disoriented me. My brain felt as if it had been jarred
loose and slipped within my skull. The thick bone of my head must have hurt the
sentry's hand because he cursed and didn't strike me again immediately. Into
the brief respite I said: "No. It's me. Mrs. Coleman. Don't hit. Don't
hit." To my own ears I sounded like a grammar school teacher talking to a
small and very bad boy, but as he didn't hit me again, and as I could not feel
more foolish, frightened or horrified than I did already, I didn't judge myself
too harshly. "Mrs.
Coleman?" the voice said stupidly, and I felt myself being hauled
unceremoniously to my feet by the collar of Joseph's shirt. The key to Mr.
Arnold's cell slipped from the pocket of the baggy trousers and fell with an
odd sound. I believe it must have hit the sentry's boot. Had it been just a key
it might have gone unnoticed, but to mark them and keep them from being
inadvertently carried away, each key was attached to a small block of wood by a
leather thong. On the wooden block the cell number for the key was printed in
white paint. It had been my intention to get rid of the thing, drop it on the
parade ground where it would be conceivable some soldier could have lost it the
day before. In my mental distress I had forgotten to do so. Quick as a cat
he bent down, dragging me with him, to retrieve it. I lost my balance and fell
against him. "None of that," he snapped and shook me till my poor
brain slipped again. While he
studied the key, I studied him. Even in the shadows there was enough light to
see his face. It was Charley Munson, the boy-faced sentry whom Dr. Mudd had
suborned into carrying his messages to Tilly. I heard his
breath hiss in as he recognized the cell number on the wooden block.
"Quick," he whispered. Before I knew what it was I was to do, he
quickly clamped his hand over my mouth and dragged me away from the wall and
into the deeper shadows of the casemate opposite. Once there he
hissed, "Shhh," into my ear. I nodded and he transferred his hand
from my mouth to my upper arm in that crushing pinch Aunt Margaret used to
propel us from one place to another when we were girls. He hustled me into the
darker recesses of the casemate. By the smell, I knew we were making our way to
the bakery. Because all
other avenues seemed closed, I followed him willingly. 29 Cloaked in Wind
and rain and darkness, Perry slammed into the office with the violence of the
hurricane that never happened. The Uzi was in one hand, in the other a fistful
of long dark hair. A shove and Teddy Shaw was sent sprawling to the floor
weeping. Having closed
the door so hard the panes in the window rattled, Perry threw himself laughing
into the single chair by the coffee-maker. The Uzi swung between his splayed
knees in a frightening parody of modern manhood. "Whooee,"
he crowed. "Fought like a wildcat but the Shaws are secured." He was
obviously high, and Anna doubted it was drugs. Perry just loved his job. She knelt by
Teddy, who remained crumpled on the floor in the position she'd landed in. None
of the three men made any move to stop her. Down the right side of Teddy's face
was a cut oozing blood and beginning to darken into a bruise at the edges.
Other than that she seemed unharmed. "Lock them
in one of the back offices," Perry said. "They'll be safe enough
there. This place is built like a fort." Anna waited for him to laugh at
his own witticism but he wasn't being funny, just trite. She helped
Teddy to her feet, not wanting to give Perry an excuse for the violence he so
clearly fed on. Paulo and Rick remained in the exact same positions as they'd
been in before Perry made his dramatic entrance. Both looked dismayed. The
rules of the game had changed and they weren't sure how. Or why. Teddy was up,
still weeping but more quietly now that Anna held her hand in both hers, cuffed
together as they were. Anna started toward the back offices without further
prompting. An Uzi-toting thug was not her idea of a dream escort. Perry levered
himself out of the chair and sauntered behind them. Teddy left a fog of terror
and grief in her wake, and Perry apparently loved swimming in it. Having reached
the dwarf-sized door to her office, Anna ushered Teddy inside, then turned to
the gunman. Daylight was about gone. Just enough gray showed at the windows
fronting the casemate to see him in silhouette. The
self-satisfied smirk on his face came more from imagination than observation,
but still she wanted to wipe it off with an axe. "I can't believe what a
patsy you are," she said, filling her voice with as much acid amusement as
she could. "A thousand bucks. Coyotes out of Tijuana get more than
that. Haven't been smuggling long, I take it." She laughed. In her ears it
sounded hollow, fake, but Perry seemed properly challenged. "We're
getting a hell of a lot more than..." he stopped and shook his head as if
awakening from a daydream. Though she couldn't see his face, Anna guessed he
was shaking off the euphoria of drinking in Teddy's tears and remembered who he
was, what he was supposed to be accomplishing. Perry and Butch had an agenda of
their own, and neither nationalism nor altruism formed a part of it. Perry raised
his automatic and she thought he was going to shoot her where she stood.
Instead he put his right palm in the middle of her chest and shoved. She fell
backward into Teddy, and they both tumbled to the floor. The office door
slammed and Perry yelled, "Come out and you die." Short and to
the point, Anna thought as she extricated herself from the other woman. From
the inner office she could hear the murmur of voices and hoped she'd caused at
least a small rift in the solidarity of the conspirators. Her office was dark,
only the feeblest of grainy light weeping in through the firing slit and the
narrow dirty window the NPS had cemented within. Working by feel, Anna fished
the key from her pocket and removed the handcuffs, then helped Teddy to her feet
and seated her in the one chair. Teddy said
nothing and was as compliant as a puppet while Anna arranged her arms and legs.
In the top left drawer of the desk was a bottle of Tylenol. Anna fumbled it out
and swallowed two dry. Swallowing pills was ever an ordeal, and she gagged and
gulped, hoping it would be worth it, that the drug would alleviate some of the
crippling ache in her back. Throughout this peculiar and unpleasantly noisy
undertaking, Teddy maintained her silence. At least she wasn't keening anymore.
That high-pitched despair unnerved Anna. It was too like the sound a dying
animal makes. Bracing her
rump on the edge of the desk to give some support to her back, her knees only
inches from Teddy's in the tiny office, Anna said: "Tell me what happened.
Where's Bob?" A thin moan
began to build in the younger woman's throat at the mention of her husband. "Stop
that," Anna said sharply. "Suck it up, Teddy. Tell me what
happened." The John Wayne
part of the Shaws' shared vision reasserted. The moan was cut off. Teddy took a
couple of shaky breaths. "We were
in the living room watching Animal Planet,' a show about baby tigers. Bob's leg
was hurting him and he was fretting because Donna had radioed to report the
generator had gone down on Loggerhead, and he couldn't raise you on the radio.
The power went off and Bob knew the generators here had been shut down and
something wasn't right. Then this man comes in. We didn't hear him. Suddenly
Joey ran under the couch, her tail puffed out, and we look up and this man with
a rifle or machine gun or something is standing on the landing. "Bob keeps
his service weapon secured with his cuffs in the bedroom like he's been told
to. The bedroom might as well have been Czechoslovakia. This guy—Perry?" Anna nodded.
Teddy was reporting chronologically and in detail as befitted the wife of Mr.
Law Enforcement. Usually Anna appreciated it. This day, incarcerated in her
tiny fortress of an office with the world as she knew it being rearranged by
armed men, she wanted Teddy to get to the crux of the issue. "Did he
kill Bob?" Anna asked bluntly. Teddy started
to cry again. Anna couldn't see the tears, but she could make out the crunching
up of Teddy's face and hear the change in her breathing. "He
smashed Bob's cast and smashed it and smashed it. Bob was screaming. I swung a
chair at his head to get him to stop, but he jerked it away from me and hit me
so hard I went unconscious for a minute or so. Not clear out, just sort of
brownout, you know. Next thing he's got both our radios in his hip pockets and
he's dragging me out. Bob wasn't screaming anymore. I don't know if he killed
him or if Bob passed out from the pain." For a second or
two Anna said nothing, just winced under the cover of darkness. Why rebreaking
a broken limb should set her sympathetic aches to echoing Bob Shaw's screams
when the original break didn't, she didn't know, but there was something
particularly brutal about it. "My guess
is he didn't kill Bob," Anna said when the involuntary shudder had passed.
"Smashing up his cast looks to me like he wanted to immobilize him. Since
he succeeded in that, why kill him?" Because he is a sadistic
son-of-a-bitch, was the obvious answer, but Teddy didn't know Perry's
idiosyncratic charms as well as Anna. Maybe it wouldn't occur to her. "What are
they doing?" Teddy asked, her voice spiraling up alarmingly. "Stop
it," Anna said again. "Don't go useless on me." "Right."
Teddy took a couple more deep breaths in through her nose, quelling the
incipient hysteria. "Okay." "Did you see
those two Cubans when Perry brought you in?" "I guess.
I saw two men. One sitting." "I think
those two guys, Mack and Theresa Alvarez, masterminded this thing. They're
bringing over three hundred plus Cuban refugees. They had to disable the fort
to make sure we didn't get hold of the mainland in time to get the coast guard
out here, stop the Cubans from landing and send them back to Castro. Besides,
they had to give themselves and the boat captains bringing the people time to
get away." "Mack and
Theresa?" "I think
so. Mack was born in Cuba." "Where did
Theresa go then? Cuba, to plan things?" Teddy asked. "I don't
know." "Who's
this Perry? He's not Cuban." "There's
two of them," Anna said. "Another guy, Butch, is a bigger meaner,
uglier Perry. I think they're hired guns. Maybe they've developed plans of
their own. They're not following Mack's game plan. They got something else
going." A ruckus from
the outer office silenced them. Neither moved. Anna listened with every ounce
of her will. Like bunnies, she thought, trapped in their burrow,
hoping to hear the danger has passed. A saying of her
father's came to mind. He'd been dead for twenty years, but occasionally Anna
heard his voice in her head as warm and clear as if he stood in the room next
to her. "There's wolves and there's rabbits," he used to say.
"And there's no percentage in being a rabbit." "God damn
but I hate this," Anna whispered. The noise moved
toward their end of the office. The foreshortened door was jerked open and a
body pushed through. Again the door slammed, and a terrific pounding began. "They're
nailing us in." "Daniel?" "Who'd you
think it was, Tinkerbell?" The maintenance man turned his back on the door
to face them. "This baboon shows up on my doorstep with an Uzi. He says
Mack sabotaged the generators. He smashes my radio and prods me in the ribs
with a gun barrel. What the hell is going on here?" Daniel made the
office almost unbearably claustrophobic for Anna. His bulk crowded the cramped
space. His energy vibrated back from the walls. Though he spoke in the hushed
tones of the confused, the hunted, as far as the impact on Anna's brain was
concerned he might as well have been bellowing. "I've got
to get out of here," she said. Then, realizing how self-centered she sounded,
amended her statement: "We've got to get out of here." From without
there came the sounds of another banging door and again the murmuring of
voices. None held the sharpness or edge of before. Anna feared the seeds of
distrust and dissention she'd sewn had fallen on rocky ground. She and Teddy
quickly told Daniel what had brought them to this sorry state of affairs. Anna
went on to share suspicions and speculations, then Daniel, his thick self
hulking into the space Anna'd been using to breathe, joined them in their
rabbit-eared listening. Nothing could be discerned. The door had been nailed
shut and probably the filing cabinets shoved against it for good measure.
Because he couldn't resist, Daniel hurled himself against it several times.
There was no give. "What are
they doing?" Teddy asked after a bit. No one had
heard anything she hadn't. Anna knew she asked from frustration and the need to
connect, to do something. She answered for the same reason.
"Waiting, I expect. The refugees should be here soon. They've shut us
down. Now all they've got to do is sit on us, make sure we don't get word out
and that none of the boaters or campers get in contact with us. They couldn't
have wished for better weather. The campground is deserted. The boaters are
tucked in. We could scream ourselves hoarse and never raise anybody. Once
they've unloaded their cargo, they'll leave. And we'll be found nailed in my
office like three chickens in a coop by the first tourist who hears us
hollering in the morning." That image was almost as terrifying as the
other entertainments the body smugglers had been kind enough to arrange for
her. "I'm
getting out of here," Anna said. "Not
through that door you're not," Daniel said, ever practical. "These
aren't hollow-core doors. They're solid oak nailed into solid oak frames. And
if we did have a wrecking ball and got out, what do you suggest we do? Charge
five armed men with paper clips and Post-it notes?" "There's
my letter opener," Anna said. "Jesus,
woman." Daniel was
right: there was no possibility of getting out the door and no wisdom in
attempting it even if it were possible. Anna turned to the only other way out
of the room. "Move," she said to her fellow prisoners. Any motion in
such close quarters was a cooperative effort. She shoved her
desk over beneath the firing slit and climbed up on all fours, the better to
inspect the thing by feel, memory and intuition. "Anna,
that window's no more than seven inches wide. I should know. I installed
them," Daniel said. "Can you
get it out? The glass and the frame?" Anna asked. "Maybe.
Then it would be almost eight inches wide. Nobody can squeeze through
that." Not so many
years ago Anna would have believed him. Since then she'd been a reluctant party
to a cave rescue in one of the world's greatest caves, Lechuguilla in Carlsbad
Caverns National Park. Claustrophobia and a clear and rational mind kept her
from intentionally putting herself in squashy little places. She'd never
forgotten for a moment what one of the Bureau of Land Management's premier
cavers told her: "You get wedged, you die." A sentiment seldom shared
with the public during cave search-and-rescue operations. But she had
seen some remarkable passages. A man who'd become her friend on that hellish
expedition, a big Minnesotan named Curt Schatz, had been able to squeeze
through alarmingly narrow crevices. "Mouse bones," he'd told her.
Mice had sliding skeletons that allowed them to collapse down even smaller than
customary mouse size. "Mouse
bones," Anna told Daniel. "Eight inches?" "Tops." Turning from
the window, she opened the shallow drawer in the center of the desk and felt
around for the ruler that everyone, even an acid-befogged, heartbroken
Supervisory Ranger, kept there. "Measure my head," she commanded
Teddy. "Width or
circumference?" Anna was
pleased to hear the controlled, efficient Teddy was back. "Width." Without light
it took several minutes. Teddy had to read the ruler by the Braille method,
clicking her long nails from groove to groove till she was sure her count was
right. "Six and a
half inches," she announced. "Anna, are
you nuts? That's an old wives' tale that wherever your head'll fit you can get
through. It's bull. Look at me. My head is nowhere near the biggest part of me.
You're gonna get yourself hurt." "Get the
frame out, Daniel." Anna slid off the desk and they shuffled in a tight
circle till Daniel could take her place. The only tools
he had access to were Anna's letter opener and Swiss army knife. They were all
he needed. Anna and Teddy sat in the dark, listening to his scraping and
muttering, and when he was ready, they pounded on the door and shouted to be
let out while he completed the noisy business of wrenching the window frame
out. "Seven
inches," he said as he handed Anna the window. Anna said
nothing. Maybe it was an old wives' tale. "Move,"
she said. "Keep your
knickers on," Daniel replied. "Let me get what I can of the grouting
out. This stuff's sharp as can be. It'd tear you up proper." Anna bowed to
his greater wisdom in the area of grout and appreciated the skin he'd thought
to save. The low-grade
grumble of voices from the outer offices quieted, but they'd not heard the door
open and close. Probably the smugglers left during the time Anna and Teddy were
pounding on the door to cover Daniel's demolition duties. Anna looked at
the slot, a rectangle a shade lighter than the surrounding brick. Eight inches.
It looked so narrow. Maybe she'd get stuck part way and be found come morning
half out half in, dangling like a breech calf. She didn't want to think about
it. She wanted to get out. Stopping the Cuban refugees from landing wasn't
important. America could absorb three hundred more souls. Stopping what she
suspected could turn into a bloodbath was. 30 Charley Munson
and I hid in the back of the bakery behind the wall housing the great ovens.
The rich smell of bread was comforting. The knowledge that the fort's bakers
must come on duty soon was not. From without, on the parade ground, we heard
the sound of men coalesce, disperse, coalesce again then go silent, giving up
the hunt. There was no way the sentry who'd seen me could know I was not just a
rank-and-file soldier caught out on an illicit tryst with a laundress or
engaged in petty theft or drunkenness. When they didn't find me, it was
practical to assume I had made it back to the anonymity of my barracks. When all was
quiet, Charley grabbed my arm again. "Bakers will be here soon," he
said. "Let me
go," I told him. Now that the terror of nearly being discovered had
passed, the sickness I'd felt earlier for myself, for the entire race of
humans, returned. It was as if a great fire had burned out my insides, leaving
a black and stinking ruin. I wanted to get home, get into a clean nightdress
and let sleep erase thought for however long it would. He hesitated a moment
but whether from indecision or something else I couldn't tell. The hiding place
he'd chosen was unnatural in its total lightlessness. The grip on my arm
tightened, and he pulled me after him. I hadn't the strength to break free or
the moral authority to scream for help. Once again I followed, stumbling after
in the darkness. The night had been so rife with terrors, it seemed I had
exhausted my ability to experience the sensation. I was numb, too low in spirit
even to feel curiosity about our destination or what was to be done with me
when we reached it. Me bumbling, Private Munson muttering, "Oh my Aunt
Fanny" and "God's teeth"—curses that triggered what might have
been hysteria, a need to laugh that I was fortunately too numb to give in to—led
me up the spiraling stairs to the second tier, past the Virginia regiment's
cells and finally to the powder magazine where I'd found Tilly. In the airless
confines of that place he let loose of me. His grip had been so hard my hand
tingled as blood began flowing back into my fingers. Again we were in a place
without light. Since I had not barked my shins or tripped over anything, I
assumed Sergeant Sinapp had finished clearing out the items cached there. The
sweet sharp smell of new-cut wood suggested the walls had been completed as
well. Massive walls and mazelike entrance kept out sound as well as light.
There was a sense of being suspended in time and space. My legs would
no longer support me, and I sank to the floor. My captor—or rescuer, his role
in my life yet to be determined—sat near me. His breathing, heavy as though he
had carried rather than led me, was the only sound I could hear. "Why did
you have that key?" he asked. The question didn't surprise me but his tone
did. He sounded afraid. As absurd as it sounds, his fear angered me. I was the
one who had been chased, dragged out of a window, struck in the face, silenced
and brought to a place where, should I cry out, no one would hear me. How dare
he be the frightened one? That I had gone past fear and was not scared anymore
was not the point. Fear was my inalienable right and it outraged me that he had
usurped it. Even at the
time I knew how ridiculous I was being but it failed to temper my emotions. "You
carried messages from the conspirators to my sister, did you not?" I
demanded. The position I was in suggested I should not demand anything,
but I had grown heartily sick of not only those things I listed previously, but
of men, all men and because Private Munson was nearest, of him particularly.
"I know you did." He didn't say
anything. The sound of his breathing was joined by the small furtive noises of
a man fidgeting on a stone floor. "Dr. Mudd
told me of your complicity, as did Mr. Arnold. Please tell me yourself."
Hostility is expensive to maintain, and I hadn't the physical reserves to
sustain it. This last came out as a plea. Private Munson,
who had withstood my browbeating, was not proof against my beseeching. "I felt
sorry for Joel," he said. "He was so bad hurt. I couldn't let that
go. I mean, prisoners can't be mouthing off, sowing seeds of contention and the
like. But I couldn't let that go." This
"sowing seeds" was clearly a quote learned from his superiors. I'd
heard Joseph use it many times. "What
couldn't you let go?" I asked. "The
sergeant had crippled the boy. His hands. You oughtn't cripple a person. Not
like that." Joel, "the
boy," was only a year or two younger than Charley Munson. The war changed
our sons, if not into men, then into half men, half children; children without
innocence, men without dreams. "So you
carried messages for Joel?" I had to prod; in this lightless silence he
would drift away between words if I did not. There was that out-of-world
quality I mentioned earlier and I, too, was having trouble focusing. "At
first," he replied. "Then I carried notes for the doctor. I liked
them. Tilly was such a grand brave girl, and the doctor always polite like I
was somebody and not just a foot soldier in an army that had thrown him in the
brig." The last of his
words scattered around me unheeded. The "was" and the sorrow with
which he uttered it hit me like a blow. I had feared for Tilly for quite sonic
time but in speaking of her, Joseph, myself, the other officers and men of the
fort who'd been involved in the search for her and Private Lane always referred
to her in the present tense, as if, though out of our sight, she still lived.
Till I heard my abductor refer to her in the past tense I'd not truly let
myself believe that our vibrant, foolish, courageous little Tilly was gone. Gone
forever. "You said
'was,' Tilly was. Why did you say that?" I was crying.
Tears flooded down my cheeks. One splashed onto my hand, startling me. I
grabbed Private Munson in that same pinching grip he'd used to propel me to
this place. As I grabbed blindly I do not know what part of him I held so
tightly. "I
didn't," he said. "You
did." I felt his
hands on me then, one on the wrist of the hand that gripped him, the other on
my left breast. I thought he'd gone mad but he had not meant to assault me,
only to catch hold of me in the dark. Both his hands found my shoulders and he
squeezed so hard I knew his fingers would leave bruises. "You quit,
Mrs. Coleman. You leave this alone. Leave. It. Be." He shook me hard with
each word. Not able to see and so anticipate the movement, my head snapped
painfully back and forth. "You're
hurting me," I managed. He stopped but
did not apologize. "Go home. Don't tell anybody where you been tonight.
Don't. Don't talk about your sister no more." Another tear—or perhaps
spittle from the vehemence of his words—struck my hand. He released me
so suddenly I fell backward. I squeaked, not from the pain of striking my
elbows on the floor but from the suddenness of it all. Quickly I reoriented
myself and sat up. No sound of breathing, no slithery rubbing of fabric on the
rough floor or walls. "Private Munson?" I'd meant to
call firmly, but it came out the barest breath of air. A terrible sense of him
in that blind place, just within reach of me but silent, listening, waiting,
panicked me. I crawled in the direction I thought was the doorway to the rest
of the tier. My head struck something and I cried out again. I don't know
whether I'd gotten turned around in my panic or when we'd first come into the
powder magazine. On my neck, my
cheek, I could feel breathing, something close in the dark. I barely had sense
enough to follow the wall but did so knowing in this small closed space I would
reach the doorway. Below, beyond
the unfinished enlisted men's quarters, walked a lone man. Private Munson. He'd
not been a presence in the hell I'd crawled free of. I had been stalked only by
fear. Knowing this
did not cure me. I could not shake the sense that something horrible was right
behind me. Every part of my body was shaking. When I reached the back window to
our downstairs hall, it took me three tries to boost myself up that I might
slip through on my stomach. There by the
open window I stripped off my clothes—Joseph's clothes—and wearing nothing but
shoes, knickers and chemise, carried them to Luanne's laundry basket. At the
basket I removed all but the shoes. I could not bear to have even these mute
companions in folly near me. Naked, I climbed the stairs hoping Joseph and
Luanne were sleeping and would not come into the hall and find me so. In Tilly's
room, I put on the clean bed gown I'd craved and lay on the sheets, the night
being too warm for covers. I had thought I would sleep immediately. Back in the
powder magazine, before that, even, outside Dr. Mudd's place of imprisonment,
it seemed I could sleep for a month I was so tired. When I finally
had the chance, my mind refused to shut out the very things it had been
exhausted by. That is why I am sitting up writing you at Tilly's desk, just as
dawn is hinting at day beyond the lighthouse. Charley Munson spoke as if he
knew Tilly was dead. Yet he seemed both saddened and frightened by the death,
as if he had no part in it. He admitted to being the carrier of messages, and I
was sure Tilly had been lured from her room that night by a message and Mr.
Arnold believed one of the men who came to fetch Joel spoke with Private
Munson's voice. Private Munson
first caught me crawling in my own window, struck me thinking me a thief or
worse, recognized me as the captain's wife which stopped the beating, but what
decided him to hide me that I mightn't face discovery was the sight of the key
to Mr. Arnold's cell. Joel worked on
Charley Munson's sympathy, and he began carrying messages from Joel to Tilly
When Dr. Mudd became aware of, or became insane and deluded himself into
believing he had discovered tangible proof of his innocence, he must have
co-opted Munson as a carrier either by threatening to expose his already
compromised position or won him over with charm. Dr. Mudd pulled
Tilly into his plot by appealing to her sense of justice and drama. I don't
know if Dr. Mudd in actuality had this photograph proving his innocence or
didn't have it but believed he did or was simply pretending he did to get Tilly
to risk some further danger in his pursuit of freedom. I don't think Dr. Mudd
is above attempting to escape, nor do I think he'd flinch at using our sister
should he devise a plan in which she might be of use. I came to believe that,
regardless of the truth, Dr. Mudd genuinely believes he once held the key to
his release. Because he'd
given that key into her keeping, Dr. Mudd would have done nothing to hurt Tilly
or to endanger her. Therefore it would have been without his complicity or
knowledge that Tilly either put out to sea with, or was taken away with, or was
silenced along with Joel Lane. Mr. Arnold—if
Dr. Mudd is to be believed—might have had reason to silence Tilly, and, if Joel
knew anything, to silence Joel as well. I do not believe, however, that Samuel
Arnold has the power to do such a thing. I spent longer
than I should have working through the possible guilt of these two men, just as
I allowed myself to believe much longer than reason would have dictated that
Tilly, who had clearly fallen out of "love" with Joel, had suddenly
decided to run away with him in a sailing skiff stolen from Sinapp. Perhaps it was
hope that made me cling to the latter, but it was cowardice that had me
lingering so long with the conspirators. There remained only one person who had
an interest in keeping any proofs of Mudd's innocence from reaching the light
of day, who would not flinch at using and destroying a lovely girl and who did
not know Tilly well enough to see that her ardor for Private Lane had cooled to
the point a staged elopement would not silence questions as to what had become
of her. This man, of
course, was Sergeant Sinapp. The sergeant craved evil for its own sake, became
rabid and vicious on the subject of the assassination and the conspirators,
lusted after, tormented and therefore must have hated Tilly for her clear
preference for a Johnny Reb. The thick evil creature would not, could not,
harbor the sensitivity to notice when a sixteen-year-old girl was over her
crush on a boy. I am sure
Sergeant Sinapp killed our sister. What I mean to find out today is if he did
it with my husband's knowledge or complicity. 31 That's as good
as it's going to get with a letter opener and my fingernails," Daniel
announced and climbed down from the desk. The movement was punctuated with
grunting so like a pig's Anna suspected he'd affected it as a tribute to Mrs.
Meyers during his days as a biker, and it had turned into habit and followed
him into the legitimate world. "Let me
get on with it," she said. "The thugs are gone. Whatever's happening
is happening now." She sprang onto the desk and put a hand to either side
of the window/firing slit. God but it was small, built small back when people
were small to keep small invading soldiers from invading. "You'll
never get through that." At first Anna
thought she'd spoken her fears aloud, but it was Daniel. "Yes I
will." "They'll
be landing on the west side behind the fort at that tiny beach," Daniel
said. "Away from the boats moored in the bay." Anna nodded.
She'd figured that. Though with the darkness and the rain they probably could
have landed the whole Cuban navy at the visitors' dock and no one would be any
the wiser. "First
priority is to get to a radio," Daniel said. "First
priority is to get to Bob," Anna said. "Put these
over your ears." Teddy shared Anna's priorities. She looked not only to
Anna's escape but to her condition should she pull it off. In the dark,
"these" meant nothing. Teddy must have realized it. "I found
some cardboard—three by five cards. There's scotch tape in the desk. Let
me—move over, Daniel—tape them on like ear muffs so you won't cut your ears
up." Anna felt soft
hands patting up her leg. She took Teddy's wrists and bowed down to guide the
other woman's hands to her head. She stayed still and quiet while Teddy held
first one card then another over her ears and wrapped a couple of yards of tape
around her head to hold them in place. Teddy's idea
and the quick execution of it would save an inexpressible amount of pain. Still
she didn't give Teddy any words of thanks or encouragement. The firing slit was
not just narrow; it was deep, many feet to crawl through. Maybe six or seven.
It wasn't as if she would get stuck with her head out over the moat and her
fanny in the office. She could get trapped tight between the immense walls of
Fort Jefferson. Maybe eight inches were enough. Maybe not. And maybe the whole
slit wasn't eight inches. In a hundred and fifty years, things go out of plumb.
She was afraid if she opened her mouth her fears about getting stuck in tight
places, how afraid she was under the engine on the bottom of the ocean, how
she'd been lost once in a cave and only wanted to die someplace she was free to
move under the sun, would come spilling out. "There,"
Teddy said. Anna felt her
ears. Teddy's nursing skills showed. In the dark with strange materials she'd
managed to bandage the ear protectors firmly in place. A good bit of hair would
undoubtedly come off when the tape was removed, but at the moment hair was the
least of the things Anna had to lose. "Okay.
Good," she said. "Thanks." Pleased she'd managed that, Anna
turned her back on them. They could not see her face, nor could she really see
theirs. With only the firing slit, the office was cave-like in its capacity for
darkness. Still, she didn't want to think about anything but her immediate
task. She took off
everything she didn't need, that could catch or bunch or drag: belt, shoes,
badge, watch, earrings, shorts. The shirt she
kept to protect her skin and because should any piece of it hang up on a bit of
mortar or brick, she could easily rip free. Not so with the pockets and
waistband of pants. Her underpants she retained because a woman requires at
least a shred of common dignity under even the most bizarre of circumstances.
Besides, should she become wedged and not die of fright or suffocation, without
her panties she would assuredly die of embarrassment during what would have to
be a prolonged rescue scenario. Before she
could come to her senses, she began. She had to go through on her side, one arm
and leg up, one down, her face toward the sky, or what would be sky after
several thousand tons of brick were cleared away and her bones found wedged in
this man-made crack. She didn't enter the slot at the bottom with her weight
crushing down on the brick sill. The opening was narrow but nearly four feet in
height. Elbows bent slightly, legs vaguely froglike, she crept in like she'd
seen a thousand lizards do in a thousand crevices in the Rocky Mountains. Like
she'd seen Dracula do in his castle in Transylvania in some old black-and-white
movie. Squashed flat,
fingers, hands and toes were her best method of propulsion. There was no room
to bend her joints to use the bigger muscles. Head went in easily. The racket
the brick made on Teddy's impromptu ear protectors sounded like a landslide,
and Anna wondered that so much noise took up so little space. Surely there
wasn't room for even something as noncorporeal as a sound wave between her ear
and the brick. The cardboard-covered sides of her head slipped along easily,
and she was grateful her face wouldn't take a beating. Should she survive, she
had a wedding to attend. A couple of feet of space were above her eyes, the top
of the slot, but in the darkness it could have been inches or miles away. The nether half
of her body was still in the office. Her hips had to be turned sideways. With
her torso twisted and already in the slot, she couldn't manage. "Daniel,"
she called. "I'm on
it." Thumping
ensued, then she felt her lower body being lifted up, turned gently and held
level and in alignment with her lizard-on-a-wall stance. Things grew
easier. Using her fingertips, she "walked" her hands ahead, found
mortar cracks to grip and pulled herself along as Daniel fed her body into the
firing slit from the office side. Skin was scraped from knees, elbows, ankles.
Her neck would hurt for a month from having her chin on her shoulder so long.
Breasts, belly and bum were squashed into a neat line, but it went far more
quickly than Anna had anticipated. When the wall had swallowed all of her up,
Daniel pushed his arm in the slot so she could use his hand to push against
with her feet. In less than
five minutes, with the loss of only a pound or two of flesh, Anna's hands felt
the rain. There was no graceful way to crawl out, no way to bend her knees to
get her feet under her, no place to grab or brace to alleviate the pressures.
She cared about none of it. When her face hit the night air and she could once
again turn her head, see, hear something besides the threatening scrape of
brick, she placed a hand on either side of the slot and shoved. Her center of
gravity moved over open air. Her legs wrenched and dragged as they twisted from
the firing slit. She fell fifteen feet to strike the shallow water of the moat
with all the class of a crumpled beer can tossed overboard. When she found
her feet and stood, the water was only thigh deep. Voices in her brain, shrill
with urgency, shouted orders. For half a dozen heartbeats she ignored them. She
was shaking like a newborn moose calf and as wet with warm salt water and
blood. The joints in her legs felt like they were made of soft rubber,
incapable of holding her should she move. The vicious scrapes left by her
passage through Fort Jefferson's cruel birth canal, anesthetized at the time of
the happening by fear and determination, were stinging. The glossy magazines
were right. Beach resorts were hell on a girl's skin. Between brick, coral and
an engine, Anna doubted she had much epidermis left to worry about. She ripped
Teddy's makeshift car protectors from her head and dropped them. Littering: how
low adversity had brought her. Pushing her body's complaints to the back of her
mind, she opened herself to the night. The black hole of her office, the lizard
crawl, the tumble to the moat, had conspired to confuse her mind. Rain and good
air would cleanse it. Letting herself stand in stasis, she listened and watched
and did not think. Muted by wind and distance, she could hear voices, many
voices, from the other side of the fort, some sharp with command. Beneath was
the guttural murmur of diesel engines. From what little she could see from down
in the moat, this side of the fort was deserted: no one on the moat walls, no
one on the bridge to the sally port. Her gray matter
realigned to the upright and free world, she pushed her shaking legs through
the water to the moat's wall. Here by the drawbridge the wall raised a mere
four feet above water level. It took her several tries to haul herself up. Her
arms were as rubbery as her legs. Wet, flayed,
barefoot and in her underpants, Anna felt staggeringly vulnerable. Like one of
her dad's metaphorical rabbits, she wanted nothing so much as to hop away and
hide. Having just sacrificed time and epithelial cells to escape one snug
burrow, she wasn't going to give in to the urge to bolt into another. Wrapping the
darkness and rain about her like a cloak, she padded quickly across the
drawbridge and into the sally port. The parade
ground appeared as deserted as the harbor side of Garden Key. Anna let herself
back into the office. On Teddy's desk there had been a flashlight in a charger.
She felt for, found it, and clicked it on. The beam was so weak the surrounding
darkness bled into the light, turning it brown. Better than
nothing. Hating the childlike slap of her little bare feet on the floor,
she moved to the offices at the back. "It's me," she said, then tuned
out the excited babble from behind the door. A quick survey let her know she
wasn't going to be freeing them anytime soon. Six-penny nails had been driven
through the solid wood of the old door and into the frame with such force the
nail heads were imbedded in craters. A hatchet, left over from some chore or
another, had been kicking around the office since she'd come on as acting
Supervisory Ranger. For a moment she thought about trying to chop the door down
but quickly gave it up. A small woman wielding a small hatchet; it would take
too long. "Sorry,"
she called through the wood. "I'll be back as soon as I can." Voices
of protest, encouragement and advice trailed after her as she left, but she had
no mental room for them. Bob was next. A radio. And, if she could squeeze it
in, pants and shoes. The feeling of her wet hind end flapping in the breeze was
unsettling. Even Superman needed at least tights. With a sense of
being absurdly young, she ran around the parade ground. Across the open space
would have been quicker but without shoes she didn't want to risk it. Coming up
lame on top of everything wouldn't help the situation. Full dark had
come. With rain and no lights from windows or security lights, the fort was in
true darkness. Like many a helpless, unarmed scampering creature, Anna was glad
of it though her ears were attuned to the possibility of predators. As she neared
the west end of the parade ground and the Shaws' house, she began to hear a
mute gabbling, the many voices kept low. Mack, Rick, Paulo and their two hired
thugs would be overseeing the unloading of their human cargo. Ideally they'd
dump the refugees and go. Then only the care and feeding of three hundred
people till the coast guard could get enough boats to take them to the INS
detention center would fall to Anna's service. Ideally. Bereft of
power, the Shaws' house was as dark as all else in the fort. Anna listened
outside the kitchen door. Nothing. Without knocking or otherwise betraying her
presence, she slipped inside. The dying flashlight expired as she clicked it
on. She left its corpse on the breakfast table. Indoors, bare feet were a boon.
She made no noise. Cats, with more senses than mere hearing, came meowing into
the kitchen. Usually they were skittish around non-Shaws. Nobody had fed them
dinner. Anna hurried
over the stair landing and into the living room, walking on hands and feet over
the dark steps lest she fall. "Bob?"
she called softly. Again nothing. She searched the tiny room by feel: no body,
living or dead. Sharpish chunks of the broken cast were scattered near the
sofa. One she picked up. It was sticky. Maybe blood. Anna returned
to the kitchen. Her feet made little sucking noises as she walked across a
spill on the linoleum. She rifled through the drawers. No flashlight came to
hand but she found candles and matches. Even the single flame seemed a nova
after so much darkness. It flared into red as the light touched her hand.
Blood. Bob's. Lifting her feet to the light, she saw the red was reprised on
her soles and there were scuffs of it between the living room and the door. Bob
had been dragged from the house for some reason. Possibly the body would be
taken away, dumped at sea, in the hope murder would never be proved. Anna
carried the candle upstairs. No Bob. No service weapon in the holster of his
leather gear. The thugs had one more gun. A defeating
sadness at the thought of the proud and military little ranger's death and the
death of soul that would happen in Teddy's eyes when she was told, slowed
Anna's steps. With a physical
twist of the shoulders, she shrugged off this mental burden. Later there would
be time for it, now she needed to be as light of foot and mind as she could
get. Forcing the
deadening effects of sorrow into that padlocked compartment of her brain
already crammed with things to grieve later, she ran upstairs to her apartment.
So quickly Piedmont had time only to open one eye and note her existence, she
grabbed shorts and shoes, dressed in the darkness and, armed with a working
flashlight, hurried to the bastion said to have housed the chapel. A breach in
the wall in its northern side overlooked the small beach where the boats would
be unloading their cargo. Because very few
nights, even those cloaked in storm, are truly dark, she could make out the
activity below. Several hundred yards out to sea half a dozen sportfishing
boats idled, their great engines occasionally grunting and whining as they
fought surge and prevailing winds to stay in one place. They were all alike,
new models, three decks, the topmost housing the wheel and navigational
equipment. Donations, no doubt, from Enrico's Marine in Miami. Even given their
impressive size, the load they carried left them low in the water, wallowing
like sows in a mudhole. The decks were black with humanity. Refugees crowded
shoulder-to-shoulder, butt to belly. It was a wonder the boats had not gone
down in the rough seas on the crossing from Cuba. Three motorized
Zodiacs, small rubber dinghies, ferried people from ship to shore. The sea,
churning and angry-looking, was dotted with the heads of those gone overboard,
those who could swim, making for the shore. Four of the six
boats trained floodlights on the beach. The beams were gray and sinuous with
pelting rain. Their stark light caught the backs of the floundering swimmers
and ignited the flame-orange of the tender boats. In the last wash of light the
beach was illuminated. Five men waited on shore, one propped with his back against
a block of concrete fallen away from the foundation structure of the old
coaling dock. Rick. Anna'd been so wired from her scrapingly narrow escape from
the office, she'd forgotten about the wounded smuggler. Had he remained behind
with the .44 Butch had lent him, Anna would have walked into it. Either the
thugs didn't trust Rick alone or, despite blood and pain, he wanted to be on
hand to welcome his countrymen to the Promised Land. Waist-deep in
the surf, Paulo and Mack helped exhausted swimmers to shore, men with bundles
and packages strapped to their bodies. Snatches of laughter and babbled Spanish
reached Anna's ears on the gusting winds. Butch and Perry waited farther back
on the beach, the only two still bearing arms. Alone, without
a weapon, there was little Anna could do. Much as it irked her to let the bad
guys get away, she much preferred it to a suicide charge that would end in her
death and the bad guys getting away anyway. She would wait and watch. When the
smugglers were gone to East Key to refuel their getaway boats, she would attend
to the needs of the three hundred or so new Americans till she could turn the
whole mess over to the INS. Resigned to her
role as observer, she set herself to the task of noticing and remembering as
much as she could, soothing herself with the fantasy of providing damning
testimony in some far-off court of law. As she studied
the sportfishing boats, her eye caught the wink of a tiny red eye, then a
green, out beyond the bigger craft. In a wink they were gone and she wondered
if the acid in her bloodstream had created them. Her eyes were wide and dry
from staring when the ocean revealed them again. Running lights
from a small craft riding low in the water, a runabout probably, or a skiff.
There was no reason the smugglers would send one of their tender boats out to
sea. The only people
with reason and courage enough to brave the water in night and storm in a
little boat were Donna and Patrice, the lighthouse keepers from Loggerhead Key.
They must have grown suspicious of the power outage and the silence from the
fort and come over to see what was wrong. Like moths,
they were headed toward the only lights showing: the floods from the refugee
boats. They were running right into the middle of Butch and Perry's game. Once under the
guns, Anna doubted Donna and Patrice would behave in a docile and ladylike
fashion. She didn't doubt for an instant that Butch and Perry would deal with
interference swiftly and brutally. The men on the beach had their backs to the
fort. Hoping it would go unnoticed by them, Anna raised her flashlight and
clicked it on and off three times quickly, three times slowly again and again.
SOS, the only bit of Morse code that most people knew. The running
lights, blinking their own meaningless message as the waves hid then revealed
them, came on straight as a die. Feeling helpless, Anna kept on: three quick,
three slow. The red and
green lights vanished. She waited, watching for the ocean to raise them into
her line of sight again. A minute passed. Two. The sea remained dark beyond the
fishing boats. The Zodiacs disgorged their cargo. The beach was rapidly
filling. More laughter. More Spanish. Butch and Perry, backs to the broken
concrete ringing the beach, moved close to one another, heads together,
conferring. Still no
running lights. Anna had to hope Patrice and Donna had seen her signal and were
coming around to the dockside to see who needed rescuing within the fort.
Leaving the refugees to their soggy celebrations, she ran for the sally port. The docks were
empty but for the red cigarette boat and the three NPS boats. Anna boarded the Reef
Ranger. Believing the fort personnel to be secured, the smugglers had not
bothered to disable the boat radios, but there was a chance Butch or Perry
still had one of the handhelds turned on. Paulo hadn't carried a radio and,
working in the surf, it was a good bet Mack had left his someplace high and
dry. Anna decided to chance it. The boat radios
were far more powerful than the handhelds. Unless the storm was causing too
much interference, she should be able to raise the coast guard. She only hoped
they'd not write her off as the little ranger who cried shark. They'd come once
before at her request, only to find the search for Bob Shaw was over. The gods
decided to throw her a bone. Though full of static, she got her message
through. The weather was too filthy for aircraft, but boats were being
dispatched, fast coast guard cutters. Because of high seas, there were none
closer than Key West. Being wise sailors, they'd headed for safe harbor when
the gale warnings were issued. It would be a couple hours before the seagoing
cavalry would arrive. Mike in hand,
Anna pondered whether to radio Patrice and Donna. In the end she decided
against it. If the running lights were indeed theirs and they'd not gotten her
cryptic warning, they would have reached the beach and now be under the
smugglers' indifferent care. If they had gotten her message, they would soon be
docking. Anna decided to
give them another five minutes before she returned to her lookout in the
bastion. To pass the time she removed the battery cables from the boats—the Curious,
the Reef and Atlantic Rangers and the go-fast boat—and cached
them in the toilet tanks in the ladies' lavatory. The smugglers
would have to catch a ride on one of the fishing yachts, some of which would
probably be picked up by the coast guard unless they headed straight for the
coast of Florida and hid out there. If they made for Cuba—and if the storm
lifted—coast guard helicopters would find them. Many ifs. Still
it pleased her to annoy Butch and Perry in some fashion. From the way
the two thugs behaved and the few hints they'd let drop—the biggest being the
probable shooting of Rick once the plan was well in motion and he became
superfluous—Anna suspected Butch and his criminal-in-training, Perry, intended
to leave the bigger slower boats for the well-intentioned suckers and use the
Scarab to get clear. There would be
hell to pay when they found the cable gone and, on the tiny key, no place much
for Anna to hide when they came for her. She'd worry about that later. Emerging from
the ladies' loo, Anna was met with the wonderfully uplifting sight of Donna and
Patrice, their runabout in an NPS slip, walking up toward the main dock. In an uncharacteristic
burst of love for her fellow men or women or whatever, Anna ran to them like an
overeager teenager and gave Donna, the first in line, a fierce hug. Donna
folded her tight muttering with some alarm: "What's this? What happened?
Where's the real Anna Pigeon?" The last saved
what was left of Anna's abandoned dignity. The warmth of the embrace and the
joy of seeing people who were actually on her side had begun to bring tears. In
front of men, unless in the grips of madness or hallucinogenic drugs and
hysteria, Anna wouldn't cry. Women were much harder on her self-control. Women,
touted as the illogical gender, actually believed tears were normal. "Come,"
Anna said and hurried them to the shelter and sheltering darkness of the sally
port. There she told them the situation and her plan to sit tight, lay low,
hide out—whatever it took to stay alive and unharmed. Donna swelled
with an angry need to bust heads, see justice done. Patrice, a cop for a lot of
years, just nodded. "We can always catch 'em later when the odds are in
our favor." "What if
there is no 'later'?" Donna grumbled. "Criminals
are good at giving law enforcement plenty of chances. There's always a
later," Patrice said. An urgency to
be back on the beach side of the fort where the refugees were landing was upon
Anna. Though she could do little but observe and had made the decision to do
that and only that, she needed to be there. The whole situation with the joyous
refugees, the exuberance of their greetings with Paulo, Mack and Rick, their
rescuers, the hanging back of the thugs, armed, conferring, was at best
unstable. At worst... Anna didn't
want to think about at worst. "I need to
get back, get close," she said. "We'll go
with," Patrice said. "We'll be there to do whatever you need done." "Even
nothing," Donna conceded. First they made
a stop in the office. The new and brighter flashlight didn't make the nailed
door look any easier to open. Donna, with her greater strength, could have
chopped through it with an axe, but it would have taken time and made noise. Over Daniel's
protests they opted to leave him and Teddy incarcerated a while longer. To
Teddy's repeated, "Is Bob okay?" Anna could only reply that she'd not
seen him. The news regarding his blood smeared on the floors could wait. Anna was glad
to have the company of the lighthouse keepers, though it made stealth and
invisibility a greater problem than had she been alone. It was quickly decided
their best hope to avoid detection was to follow the moat, not along the wall
but in the water. As Anna jumped
off the bridge connecting the sally port with the rest of the key, Donna asked,
"Are there sharks?" It was the first time Anna heard fear in the big
woman's voice, and it amused her. For no reason whatever she was put in mind of
Paul Newman in Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid. "Swim hell, the
fall'll probably kill yah." Sharks were the least of this night's
predators. "Not
usually," Anna replied truthfully. She'd heard tales of the larger fish
visiting, but the only shark she'd ever seen in the moat was the baby nurse
shark. Nurse sharks had the alarming silhouette of their more aggressive
sisters but were gentle creatures not much given to biting bipeds. "In you
go," Patrice said. Anna heard a
squawk, then there was a sizable splash. Donna had
joined her. Patrice came last. The moat was
uneven in depth. At no point was it over Anna's head, but along the northern
side she would have preferred swimming to wading chest-deep. A desire to keep
her flashlight dry kept her from it. With the rain and the sweat of her palm
the metal cylinder was already running with water, but she could hope, short of
submersion, it would continue to function. The light was six cells, long and
heavy and encased in hard metal. She'd kept it more for its value as a weapon
than a light source. One never knew what might be needed. Reaching the
corner where the moat angled south, they were just above the invaded
beachfront. Behind moat wall with cover of darkness and rain and sufficient
noise from wind and refugees to mask their splashing, Anna had little fear of
discovery. To the right
the moat ran along the edge of the sea. To the left was a not-so-gentle
slope down to the small beach. Across an open space, maybe fifty feet at a guess,
the tumbled mass of concrete and timber of the ruined coaling dock provided
cover. Being smallest,
fastest and, in this instance, boss, Anna went first. It was three feet from
the surface of the water to the top of the moat wall. The strong arms of her
companions boosted her easily, and Anna was grateful for the help. What with
one thing and another, her usual strength of ten men had dwindled. She wasn't
sure she could hoist herself up that far one more time this night. Bent over,
moving quickly but not running, she crossed the open area without being seen.
Over three hundred pair of eyes now crowded the sandy strip between stone and
water, so many there was scarcely room to move, but none were interested in the
high ground. On the southern
edge, cuddled up next to the rocks directly beneath where she had been boosted
out of the moat, Butch was shouting for quiet. The crowd ignored him till he
fired off a volley from his Uzi. Anna dove for cover. Silence fell. But for the
hush of wind and rain, the quiet was absolute, with the waiting quality of an
indrawn breath. "Listen
up," Butch shouted. Murmuring began. Another volley of gunfire. Everybody,
including Anna, listened up. "We got
you here," Butch yelled. "Now what we got is a kind of customs levy.
You're going to give us anything you got in the way of cash and jewelry, and we
are going to let you stay alive to see more of America than this godforsaken
sandbar." The swell of
human noise began again. Mack cried: "What the hell..." In heavily
accented English a man yelled: "We already give you the ten thousand
dollars. You don't get no more. That was the deal." A sharp crack
of gunfire. A scream, then the long drawn out, "Nooo" of a grieving
woman. Anna took the
risk of pecking out from behind the jagged slab of concrete. Between Butch and
the refugees—now huddled even more tightly together on her end of the beach—a
space had opened. In the middle of it, stark and stagelit by the lights
from the offshore boats, lay a man. A woman knelt beside him, her hands held
out in front of her as if in supplication. Her palms were a shocking bright and
glistening red, the color fired by the light. "Jiminy
Christmas, the guy's a psycho." Anna twitched
with such violence she rapped the back of a hand painfully against the
concrete. During the volley of gunfire, Donna had emerged from the moat and run
across the open space to join her. "Anybody
else want to discuss terms?" This was Perry, a swagger in his voice, his
Uzi muzzle pointed toward the mass of Cubans. "It wasn't
no ten thousand . . . What the fuck are you doing? My God, you killed
him..." These utterances slammed together, Mack and Paulo and Rick trying
to make sense of this betrayal of their dream. Paulo and Mack,
now standing shoulder to shoulder at the edge of the sea, were stunned into a
stupidity that would have been funny under less deadly circumstances. "This is
what's going to happen," Butch told the cowering crowd. "Two by two
like Noah's fucking animals, you're going to come up by your dead hero here and
put down what valuables you got. Perry's going to see to it you don't 'forget'
anything. You hold back, you get shot. You mouth off, you get shot. You do
anything I don't like, you get shot." No one moved. A voice raised,
shrill in protest, then three shots, rapid fire. A woman on the edge of the
crowd nearest Anna fell to the ground screaming. "Tell 'em,
Mack," Butch said. Mack began
speaking Spanish, translating. The refugees grumbled, a swelling buzz that
grew, then abruptly died. Anna guessed he'd gotten to the part about mouthing
off and getting shot. Perry handed
his weapon to Butch and pointed at the nearest crouching family group, a very
young mother, babe in arms and a man of an age to be her father or uncle. "Andale,
andale," he yelled. Anna's sketchy
Spanish education included the word for hurry. The owner of Pepe Delgado's
where she'd waited tables in college used to yell it at the waitresses. The woman
clutching her child and the man with them hurried to where Perry stood near the
corpse, the symbol and promise of what was meted out to those who would
disobey. The woman Butch had shot was still screaming. With brutal
efficiency, Perry collected their offerings in a lawn-sized garbage bag he
pulled from one pocket or another. He patted the refugees with professional
thoroughness, learned, Anna was willing to bet, by being patted down himself
prior to probably more than one arrest. "Andale."
The
next two sheep hastened to the shearing pen. "We've got
to do something," Donna said. Anna shared the
sentiment but had no idea what "something"—at least something that
didn't end like the last act of Hamlet—would entail. "Why don't
they rush him?" Donna hissed. "They're
used to being ruled by force," Anna said. "Peaceable citizens aren't
accustomed to running headlong into machine gun fire." "Good
point." The Cubans kept
coming. The sack grew fatter. Perry, bored by easy pickings, grew ever more
violent, cuffing those who were too slow or too quick or too human. He
backhanded a boy of eight or nine, knocking him to the ground. The mother
sprang at him. He shot her with the .44 that appeared from somewhere on his
person and she fell back. More red-red and surprisingly beautiful blood
spattered the sand in the wash of the floodlights. Paulo cried out. He and Mack
took a step forward. Butch, an Uzi under each arm now, turned toward them and
they stopped. "We've got
to do something," Donna said again. "You're
right," Anna said. "Give me ten minutes and then create a
diversion." "What
kind?" "Be
creative." Overcome with the movie-bred idea of saying, "synchronize
watches," Anna looked to her wrist. Her timepiece was barricaded in the
office with Daniel and Teddy. No matter; salt water had probably stopped
Donna's anyway. "What's
the plan?" Donna asked. "It's a
little sketchy at this point," Anna admitted. Donna looked as
if she had more questions. She didn't ask and Anna was grateful. "Ten
minutes," Donna said. Anna returned
to her peephole where two chunks of concrete lay one atop the other. When both
Butch and Perry were occupied with their harvest, she said, "Okay." Donna left in a
crouching walk. No one shouted in alarm or pointed. Seconds later the big
woman was gone, hidden in the fort's moat. Anna followed,
feeling the rush of fear as she entered the exposed area and a bowel-loosening
relief when she reached the shelter of the moat and lay flat along its wall. Donna was
already heading back the way they'd come, forging ahead with such force she
left a sizable wake in the rain-pocked water. Patrice was
waiting, chest-deep in water, next to the moat wall. Anna hung her
head over the brick till her face was less than a foot from Patrice's. Rain had
plastered Patrice's thin, over-permed hair to her scalp. So close, even with
what little light bled over from the beach, Anna could see the coarseness of
her skin, the bluntness of her features. Patrice was there, and strong and
brave, and she looked beautiful as far as Anna was concerned. "Go with
Donna," Anna whispered. "I stay
with you," Patrice replied. Anna hadn't the
courage or fortitude to argue with her convincingly, so she didn't try. "We've got
eight or so minutes till Donna does whatever it is she does. Here's the
plan." Quickly she outlined her thoughts. Patrice was
silent a moment. "Got a
better idea?" Anna asked hopefully. Patrice smiled.
"I was just admiring its simplicity," she said. "It's got that
classic Popeye and Brutus style." Anna was glad
Patrice had refused to leave. "Let's do it," she said. It was a matter
of less than two or three minutes before they were in place. They'd crawled on
their bellies like ungainly lizards along the top of the moat wall till they
were above and behind Butch. There was no cover and had either of the gunmen
taken time away from their gathering of ill-gotten gains to look, they would
have seen them. So close, so exposed. Anna and Patrice's lives would have been
instantly forfeit. If any of the refugees saw them, they gave no sign. Once a
little girl pointed, but her mother snatched her up and began whispering in her
ear. Lying in plain
sight atop the moat wall like a couple of sacrificial ex-virgins, time seemed
to stop. Anna's internal clock ticked away not minutes but the quarters then
halves of hours as they waited for Donna to create enough of a disturbance the
two armed men would be distracted and confused for a moment. Just as Anna
was beginning to think archaeologists of the future would discover her bones
splayed over the concrete cap of the wall and muse over cause of death, she
heard the unmistakable sound of an engine revving. It was impossible to tell if
it was one of the sportfisher boats offshore or if Donna had fired up the
runabout. The noise grew.
Too rumbling for the runabout; a deep guttural roar of a piston engine with an
attitude. "On my
God," Patrice muttered at the same moment a wild Indian cry built with the
scream of an engine suddenly glutted with gasoline. Anna looked
south where the noise gathered. Suddenly the spotlight from one of the offshore
vessels swung, and a vision acidic in its intensity and epic in execution came
shrieking out of the darkness. Donna, astride Mrs. Meyers, throttle ratcheted
down, both screaming like banshees, roared down the top of the moat wall. The
Harley looked immense and black and silver and mean; Donna, wet hair streaming
behind, wide shoulders bunched into muscle, a Valkyrie, an Amazon. The bike
seemed to be coming at the speed of sound though it couldn't have been
traveling more than thirty miles an hour tops. Anna glanced at
Patrice. Her face was radiant with love. No surprise; at that moment Anna was
in love with Donna herself. Patrice's face cleared, all business now. She
nodded. Anna nodded back. As one they rose. Below on the
beach all eyes were turned toward the southern moat wall, Donna, Mrs. Meyers.
The Cubans were rapt, the religious seeing a vision but not sure whether it was
sent by God or Lucifer. Mack and Paulo looked as men look when reality ceases
to have meaning anymore, rivers run uphill, the sun sets at midday and the
animals of the field speak. Butch had
turned toward Donna, but he was too close under the wall to get a good
shot. Perry ran past his growing garden of dead and wounded, raised his .44 and
took aim. "Now,"
Anna said. She and Patrice launched themselves at Butch. As Anna left the
ground she was aware of two things: the sound of a gunshot and the crash of
metal on concrete. Then she slammed into Butch's back. 32 My Dearest Peg— I am sorry for
the long silence. Things here have been sadder than you could possibly imagine
or than I could write about at the time. Now that the worst has passed I will
do my best. I may be telling you in person before you receive this letter. I am
coming home and I will be coming alone. I suppose I
should begin where I left off more than a month ago. If I remember,
at that time I had decided that I must find what, if anything, Joseph had to do
with Tilly's going missing. Because of the strange and sudden ascendancy of
Sergeant Sinapp I knew there was something amiss between them. Because none but
Sergeant Sinapp and the men under his thrall had the necessary power and
brutality—along with any reason—to remove Tilly from me, I needed to know if
Joseph had been a party to it. I had it in my
mind to confront Joseph and cry, whine, threaten or shame him into telling me
why he had withdrawn his protection from Tilly and me; why he had, by inaction, allowed the inhabitants of Fort
Jefferson to conic under the de facto control of Cobb Sinapp, a man with the
moral code of a shark—and this being said, I know I have insulted the entire
species of fish. I managed to
keep myself in the narrow bed in Tilly's room till the coming sunrise turned
the window from black to gray. It was my intention to wake Joseph and have it
out with him before anyone was astir to distract or interrupt us. Given the
nature of my visit to the connubial bed was not such that a thin cotton gown
felt adequate, I dressed in the clothing I had cast off the day before—not the
britches and blouse of Joseph's I'd borrowed, but my own dress and petticoat. As I was
working the skirt down over my shoulders—the waist of this dress is narrow and
the buttons down the back don't open far enough to make donning and doffing it
a simple matter—I felt the letters. They were the same letters I had stuffed
into my pocket when Joseph came home as I was searching his desk, reading his
correspondence, and wondering if he was being adulterous. Having worked
the dress into place, I took these letters and sat in the old rocker we'd given
Tilly for her use. It sits near the window where what little light available
would help me to make out the writing. I lit a candle to assist the dawn and
looked at my booty. Two of the
letters were military matters; notification of death in one case and a
discussion of new supply ships and routes in the other. The third was of great
interest. It was from Colonel Battersea of the late Confederate Army. The
letter had been sent from New Brunswick, Georgia, which, if I remember
correctly, is Colonel Battersea's home. I believe I may
have mentioned the colonel's situation. He and Joseph were thrust into that
untenable situation so common in the late and tragic events of the war. The colonel had
been one of Joseph's instructors at West Point. He was not a good deal older
than his students, being only twenty-seven or twenty-eight at the time of his
employment there. The colonel (a lieutenant then) took an interest in Joseph.
He had him to dine with he and his wife on more than one occasion and assisted
him in many small ways while Joseph was a cadet under his care. After Joseph
graduated the friendship continued though, of necessity, only by way of
letters. Joseph would write him often with problems or questions concerning
military matters, and Colonel Battersea would always respond with sound advice. Once he and his
wife and their eldest daughter paid us a visit as they were passing through the
garrison in Pennsylvania at which we were posted. As fate would
have it, this same Colonel Battersea ended up at Fort Jefferson, a prisoner of
war under Joseph's wardship. The colonel never asked for preferential treatment
and, though I knew Joseph ached to give him at least better rations and some
small services to make him more comfortable, he never did. His own brand of
military honor would not allow him nor would so doing earn him the colonel's
respect. They did talk
quite often and played chess in the evenings on occasion. In this war of
brothers and neighbors such interaction is not unusual. The colonel had been
here half a year or more when he began getting letters of his wife's declining
health. By war's end she had wasted away till, according to the daughter that
wrote in the wife's stead, she weighed no more than a child. It seemed clear
she would soon die. Joseph
attempted to secure the colonel's early release (by this time it was known the
prisoners of war were to go home in peace) but for reasons I'm not privy
to—perhaps nothing more than the organizational disarray the army was thrown
into by the long and bloody war—permission to release Colonel Battersea was not
forthcoming. Shortly
thereafter the colonel took matters into his own hands and escaped, stowed away
it was surmised on one of the ships that stopped for recoaling. In his own way,
I know Joseph celebrated his old mentor's escape, but he said little about it. Anyway, that
said, I read the letter from Colonel Battersea—the one I had stolen from my
husband's desk—with great interest. I shan't recopy
the entire letter here. After reading it I returned the letters to Joseph's
desk—an act facilitated by my breaking the latch earlier. Colonel Battersea
wrote Joseph of his wife's death and of how grateful he was to have been with
her at the end. Though the language was careful, for one acquainted with his
story, it was clear he thanked Joseph for his escape from Fort Jefferson. It
did my heart good to know my husband had been party to such a kind deceit. Yet I believe
this good and Christian act has been turned against Joseph. Should it be made
known that he, a Union Army captain, aided and abetted the escape of a prisoner
of war, his career would be over. He would be court-martialed and, if not
imprisoned, then drummed out of the service. For Joseph this
would be tantamount to excommunication. The army is his life, his religion. I
don't think I overstep when I say it embodies his very self. As Sergeant Sinapp
has long been Joseph's henchman, I don't doubt Joseph enlisted his aid in the
colonel's escape. It is my belief Joseph underestimated how tamed Sinapp was
and that, having been complicitous in this escape, the sergeant turned on the
master. Sinapp is using this knowledge to blackmail Joseph. Joseph, an
honorable man, mightn't know how those of Sinapp's ilk hate him; the more
servile they are the more hatred they possess. No wonder
Joseph has lost himself. He has sacrificed his honor to hang on to the
trappings of all he believes to be honorable. It's made of him a paper man, one
with no core, no semblance of faith upon which to draw. For an hour or
more I sat in Tilly's room thinking on the ramifications of the letter. At
length I came to believe it in no way indicated that Joseph had been party to
Tilly's disappearance. I do believe that it indicates something almost as
damning: that regardless of Joseph's suspicions of Sinapp, he allowed the
sergeant to blackmail him into silence—inaction. If he suspected—and he must
have done—Joseph looked the other way, refused to know. Joseph became
and continues to act the role of a coward. It's killing him. His spirit is
crippled and even his body is wasting. He's lost weight and his uniforms, once
fitting splendidly, now hang on him as if they belonged to a bigger and better
man. Whether or not
I would have confronted Joseph with my suppositions—become in the supposing as
real to me as proven fact—I don't know. My brown (or, given the circumstance,
perhaps I should say black) study was interrupted shortly after sunrise by
Luanne. She came to Tilly's room, announced beforehand by her wailing and
sighing, and flung open the door. "God has
passed judgment on this evil world," she announced. "You got to come.
One dead and folks fixing to die." Luanne, for all
her colorful language and even more colorful version of the Christian faith, is
not given to panic or exaggeration. Without hesitation I leapt from my place
and followed her. Yellow Fever
had come to Garden Key. This awful burning disease is always with us but it had
descended in a way that seemed to validate Luanne's belief in scourges sent by
God. The fever
lasted three weeks, Peggy. You cannot believe the devastation. Hardest hit were
the officers, though I cannot say why. Within days fully two-thirds of the
commissioned men were dead. One of the first to die of the fever was Captain
Caulley, the fort's surgeon. The lighthouse keeper and his wife died; Charley
Munson, Dr. Mudd's errand boy succumbed. I cannot begin to name them all.
Should I try my tears would blotch the ink on this page till you could no
longer read the words. Dr. Mudd was
loosed from his cell and, as our only doctor, I must say he conducted himself
well, valiantly, even. The officers'
quarters and the casemates behind the barracks construction were converted into
hospital wards. We quickly ran out of medicines. There is little that is
efficacious against Yellow Fever. It is as if the disease ignites the center of
the body and burns outward until life is consumed. The effects are hideous to
observe and suffer. The body is tortured and disfigured as if the disease would
not merely kill but would savage. Those of us who could still stand worked to
alleviate the suffering of the stricken. Dr. Mudd toiled night and day taking
his sleep in minutes rather than hours. What lives were saved must be laid on
his doorstep. The only man who worked harder was Joseph. No task was too menial
or too vile for him to undertake. He carried slops, washed the soldiers, and
spooned water into their parched mouths with the gentleness of a mother feeding
a child. He held them as they died. In the quiet moments when he might have
slept, he wrote of their courage to their wives and mothers. Joseph (as well
as Dr. Mudd) won the respect and admiration of all here. Well, not all. I saw
not a selfless hero, not even a man trying desperately to buy back his soul.
When I looked at Joseph, thin and haggard and going without sleep to minister
to the sick, I saw a man who wanted to die. I believe Joseph clung to the sick,
wallowed in the disease, not in hopes of conquering it that others might live
but of embracing it that it might see fit to take him as well. Death refused
him as it thankfully refused me. We are among the one in three who survived the
epidemic. The second week
of the disease Sergeant Sinapp was taken ill and carried into the downstairs
parlor of the officers' quarters there, with nine others on cots and couches,
to be cared for. I can only
attribute my actions thereafter to fatigue and the mental strain of losing our
dear sister Tilly. Should I not pen these excuses for my behavior I would have
to admit that I had succumbed to an evil as cowardly as my husband's and as
cold as that of Sergeant Sinapp. For three days
I stayed at Sinapp's side. When he cried for water, I asked him where Tilly
was. When he begged to be cooled from his raging fever, I asked what he had
done with our sister. I felt nothing, Peggy, nothing good. My insides were as
still and cold and dark as a well. I watched without sympathy, without
humanity. I gave him the water he called for after each interrogation, but I
did it without thought of succor but only that he might live long enough to
provide the answers I so desperately needed. Rage burned in
him as hot as the fever. Hatred for me scalded his eyes till they were suffused
with blood. Had he the strength, I believe he would have risen from his sickbed
and choked the life from me. He exhausted himself cursing me, screaming at me
to leave. I stayed. When he went to sleep I was watching him. When he awoke I
was watching. Never once did
he repent, confess or ask my forgiveness or God's. Evening of the
third day he went into the delirium that precedes death in those affected with
Yellow Fever. Even then I did not allow him what peace might have been left for
him. Into his delirium dreams I whispered our sister's name, questions, threats.
I whispered until I was hoarse with it and he was wild, trying to fight the
dream demon that was I. It was after
three in the morning, the fort by no means still or dark with the sick crying
and the caretakers making their weary rounds with lantern or candle. Sinapp
began to relive the night our sister disappeared. He mumbled snatches of
orders, guttural grunts of pleasure, names, fragments of conversations, aborted
howls that might pass for laughter in hell. I goaded and guided and finally
pieced together the remnants of his ravings. Sinapp had
lured Tilly out with a note (probably delivered by Charley Munson) purportedly
from Dr. Mudd. He'd then taken Tilly and, with two of his men, taken Joel as
well. These children had been carried to the dungeon and slain. The joy in the
killing and the hatred of the Lincoln conspirators and Tilly's supposed proof
of Dr. Samuel Mudd's innocence was not tempered by remorse even in this last
madness. Before Tilly was murdered Sinapp defiled her. As he relived this, all
that kept me from killing him was the sure knowledge he would die soon. I did
not want to cheat him of a moment's pain and suffering. Just before
dawn he died, his soul unshriven and mine blackened by our time together and my
inability to forgive him. I suppose he
was taken away and buried or burned with the other dead. I suppose I continued
to fetch and carry and nurse. Nothing remains in my memory of the interval
between Sinapp's death and Luanne tucking sheets around me and saying:
"Sleep now or you be sick too. Sleep. Sleep." I slept for
thirty-six hours. When I awoke
there were no new cases of the fever. Those who would die had died. Those
destined to live were convalescing. Yellow Fever had run its course at Fort
Jefferson. I never learned
what became of Tilly and Private Lane's bodies. I was past caring. It is enough
to know their souls are in heaven and Sinapp's is in hell. Joseph received
the transfer he requested. Within the month he will journey to his new post in
the Nevada Territory. I will not go with him. Tomorrow I board the Radcliff and
sail for Boston. More than
anything, Peggy, I want to come home. Your loving
sister, Raffia 33 The jump from
the top of the moat wall to Butch's back was seven feet vertically and that
many or more horizontally. Wanting to inflict as much damage as possible at the
onset, Anna led with elbows and knees. Patrice was at her side, shoulders
touching when they left terra firma. In midair the bigger woman turned slightly
to strike the smuggler with the edge of her shoulder and upper arm. The assault was
sudden and complete. The two women hit like a ton of brick. Butch went down.
One Uzi flew from his hand to land a dozen feet away. The second was ripped out
of his fingers and turned on him by the strong, sure hands of Patrice. With the fall
of Butch and the Uzis, Anna feared Perry would cut loose with the .44. He'd
only spent one bullet she knew of. There could be five people dead or dying
before he emptied the gun. This grim scenario never played out. Galvanized,
refugees surged forward. Paulo, Mack and Rick were carried up to where Patrice
sat astride Butch with gun to his head and Anna racked her brain in search of
something to bind him with. Butch began to struggle. Patrice quieted him with a
meaty fist slammed into the back of his neck. Anna's cuffs were in the office. The crowd's
roar changed tenor, and Anna decided to let Patrice worry about detaining
Butch. Though Mack, Rick and Paulo had been the "good guys" to the
extent of the Cuban smuggling operation, in the minds of many of the refugees
they were tarred with the same brush as Butch and Perry. Along with Butch and
Perry, they could be dispatched by a Latin version of vigilante justice. Floodlights
began winking out. Engines roared as the fishing boats powered up to flee.
Everyone yelled, shrieked or screamed. Of Perry, there was no sign in the
milling clot of Cuban refugees. Anna ran for
the Uzi lying on the sand, snatched it up, pointed it in the air and pulled the
trigger. Once before, in training, she'd fired an Uzi. It bucked like a live
thing, seeming to have a will of its own, a thirst for killing. "Please, por
favor, por favor, silencio," she shouted. The crowd fell quiet. The
lights were gone. Blinded by the recent floods, she yelled "Paulo,
Mack," trying to locate them before they were murdered. "Here,"
she heard Paulo reply like a schoolboy at roll call. She turned
toward his voice. Her eyes were adjusting. Enough of dawn pushed at night and
storm clouds that she could make him out, held captive by half a dozen men. "Let him
go," she said. No one moved. She fired another burst from the evil weapon
she carried. "Let him
go," Mack repeated in Spanish. Reluctantly the Cubans loosed their
captive. "Paulo,
there's a woman in the moat. Maybe shot. See to her now. Don't even think about
running. I disabled your boat." Behind her, Anna heard Patrice whisper,
"Dear God..." then a thump and a grunt as she hit Butch once more for
good measure. Paulo scrambled
past and up onto the moat wall. "Mack,
come to me," Anna ordered. The Cubans
parted and allowed a newly freed Mack to walk to where she stood. He limped,
and black showed at nostrils and mouth where he'd taken blows. "Perry,"
she said. "Where is he? He's armed. I want him." "Shot,"
Mack said succinctly. He turned and rattled off a few sentences in Spanish. The
Cubans moved aside, opening a pathway from Anna to the sea. Halfway down
lay a body. "See to
him," Anna said. "He's
dead," Mack replied. "A bullet tore his throat out. I saw him go down
just as all this began." Unless one of
the Cubans had brought a gun with them, it made no sense. "Ask them who
shot him," Anna said. Mack did so.
There was an exchange too rapid for Anna to understand, and a woman pointed up
toward the battlements. Two men pointed out to sea. "This
woman swears she saw a muzzle flash from the fort. Two guys swear the shot came
from the boats and the kid insists it was Butch. Sorry." No one wanted
to confess to killing an American before they'd even had a chance to become one
themselves. Anna didn't care. She was grateful to the shooter. "Paulo!"
she shouted. "How's Donna?" Two figures
appeared shadowlike on the wall above the beaches. "Donna's fine"
came the boiler engineer's gravelly voice. "But Mrs. Meyers is in critical
condition." Patrice began
to cry, great gulping sobs of relief punctuated by a single grunt as she again
bashed Butch on the side of the head to remind him of his manners. Within half an
hour Anna had things more or less organized. The refugees were in the casemates
on the fort's north side where they were at least out of the rain. A Cuban man
and Perry, bedfellows in death, lay side-by-side in the researchers' dorm. The
wounded woman, suffering a bullet to her right shoulder, awaited Teddy in the
fort's infirmary. Lack of personnel forced Anna to house the prisoners, Rick,
Paulo, Butch and Mack, with the refugees, but they'd been bound securely with
plastic handcuffs at wrist and ankle and weren't going anywhere soon—at least
not anywhere fun. Donna was put to the task of freeing Teddy and Daniel, and
Patrice, armed with two Uzis and a .44, stood watch over refugees and prisoners
alike. A semblance of
order restored, Anna set about finding Bob Shaw's body. When Teddy was
released, Anna didn't want her to suffer under the added burden of not knowing,
of picturing her beloved facedown in the moat, eyes being nibbled by crabs.
Butch and Mack denied any knowledge of what Perry had done. Anna didn't waste
time grilling them. From what Teddy told her, Perry had come to the Shaws'
house alone. The sun had yet
to thrust its face over the horizon, but the light had grown stronger with the
shadowless clarity of a subtropical dawn. The rain had let up, and the clouds,
though not gone, had lifted. It would be hot and sunny by noon. Returning to
the Shaws', Anna set about following the blood trail that began near the sofa
in the living room. She'd checked the bedroom before, and Anna took her search
outside. Why Perry would bother to first drag the corpse upstairs, then change
his mind, drag it back down and stash the body in one of the storage casemates
was a mystery. It wouldn't keep the body from being found, only delay the
inevitable a few minutes. When following the twisted trail of a sociopath there
wasn't much point in spending a lot of thought on logic. Anna stuck to the
trail of blood. Rain had
obliterated most of the sporadic and sketchy trail. Anna found traces of what
could be blood soaked into the wooden treads of the stairs leading to the
second tier and her apartment. Once under the protective arches of the higher
level, tracking became easy. An obvious trail where a heavy object had been dragged
was left in the ubiquitous brick dust. Bob had been
taken in the opposite direction from Anna's quarters. Two casemates down, she
found him. The cast had been smashed off but for a jagged-edged ring of plaster
at mid thigh The leg was rebroken, bone again breaking through the skin. Blood
dyed the lower part of Bob's leg red. He lay half in the sill of the broken-out
gunport facing Loggerhead Key. His service weapon was in his hand. "Oh my
God," Anna whispered reverently. Shattered leg, bleeding, Bob had dragged
himself up the stairs to his bedroom, retrieved his gun, then pulled himself up
to the fort's second tier. It was he who had shot Perry and very probably saved
Donna's life. He was
breathing. He had a pulse, albeit a weak and thready one. "Hallelujah,"
Anna breathed her thanks to the ambient gods. The whump of
helicopter blades announced the arrival of the cavalry, coast-guard style. The
storm had lifted sufficiently that aircraft could be dispatched, and they had
outpaced the ships headed to Garden Key. Uniformed men
and women swarmed efficiently over the fort. Bob was packaged by EMTs and
whisked away. Rick, Mack, Butch and Paulo were taken into custody. The refugees
were being cared for. Anna was relieved of responsibility and felt the lift as a
physical thing. Light and tired and surreal, she left the bustle and shouted
commands and made her way to the dock where the prisoners awaited boarding
under the stern eye of two young guardsmen looking fresh and clean and strong
in their natty uniforms. Damp and
crumpled, feeling old and small and frail, Anna sat down opposite but out of
reach of William Macintyre. Despite his crimes—and she guessed they were even
more numerous than she knew of—she felt a greater kinship with him than with
any of the bright young soldiers who'd not had the night unravel and explode
around them. "Hey,
Mack," she said wearily. "Hey,
Anna." If he was frightened or angry or resentful, he didn't show it. For
a time they sat together without speaking, like comrades who've shared so much
each knows all the other's stories and talk is redundant. "There was
no other diver," Anna said at length. "It was you. You tried to kill
me, squash me under that engine." "I'm sorry
about that." "Sorry you
tried or sorry you didn't kill me?" "As things
turned out, I'm sorry I tried," Mack said. In spite of
herself, Anna smiled. "After going to all the effort, why didn't you? It
would have been easy enough." "Your feet
started flipping and your little hand wiggling. I thought you were hurting. I can't
stand to see anybody hurt." Anna understood
the point he made. For his cause he would kill, sacrifice the few that the many
might live free. When he said he couldn't hurt anyone, he meant it literally.
He could take a life but he couldn't cause pain and suffering. Maybe because,
as a boy, forced by vicious beatings to reveal the whereabouts of his parents
and so cause their deaths, to die meant little to him. To live in pain was the
true hell. "What
happened to Theresa? Did you kill her?" Anna asked. "Or was that left
to your hired thugs?" "Trecie
grew up in my old neighborhood," Mack said. "I used to see her
running around on a little banana bike with pink ribbons on the handlebars when
I'd visit." It was on the
tip of Anna's tongue to ask again if he'd killed her, but Mack wanted to tell
it his own way. Before he could go on, Butch interrupted. "You're
going to hang yourself, asshole." Till he spoke he'd been so still both
Anna and Mack had nearly forgotten about him. At the sound of his voice, Mack
was transformed. Blood suffused his face, spittle formed in the corners of his
mouth and he appeared to grow larger, swell within his bonds. "You enjoy
hurting people, you piece of shit. You piece of shit!" Mack half rose,
bent on attacking the other man, but the two coast guard boys stepped in. The
moment past, Mack shrank to normal size. When some time had gone by, he picked
up his story. He needed to tell it. Anna needed to hear it. "Trecie—Theresa—was
to seduce Lanny, get on the island and help from the inside. She was Cuban and
wanted to work for her people. I guess she really did fall in love with old
Lanny. She was going to tell him the whole thing; trade three hundred lives so
she could be honest with her boyfriend. Rick and Paulo's brother—one of the guys
killed when the fuel boat blew—came out and talked to her, but she wouldn't
budge. I told 'em I'd take care of it. They don't know." Anna waited.
When he didn't go on she asked again: "Did you kill her?" "I didn't
hurt her." "What a
fucking saint," Butch sneered. Mack didn't
seem to hear him. In many ways Mack had withdrawn from the world Anna, the
coast guard hoys and Butch inhabited. Though he heard her questions, he
answered as if speaking to himself in another place, a place not much better
than where his corporal self would spend twenty-five to life. "Trecie
was going to go tell Lanny. We were down by the old dungeon in the southeast
corner where we wouldn't be overheard. Trecie'd got it into her head that
Lanny'd throw in with us, help our people to get to America. It was bull.
Lanny's an okay guy, but he doesn't take chances. He doesn't believe in
anything but a pension. "I tried
to quiet her. I needed to get her off Garden Key without her making noise. You
know that sleeper hold the wrestlers used to do. I used that. It doesn't
hurt." The silence
grew. From within the fort came the comforting sounds of an orderly crowd. The
two coast guard men stood as still and mute as Buckingham Palace guards till
Butch asked for a cigarette. Neither of them smoked. "She never
came to?" Anna said to be clear. "Never
did. Poor little girl." "Dump the
body at sea?" "I meant
to, but things got dicey. Daniel was stomping down the stairs there at that end
of the fort, hollering, 'Mack, Mack.' We'd been redoing the brickwork sealing
up the old cisterns. The sledgehammer was there to bust out the stuff that was
crumbling. I bashed a hole, stuffed her through and was laying brick when
Daniel got there. "He stayed
and gossiped for half an hour or more. There was nothing I could do but keep
working. After I'd got it sealed up there didn't seem much point in changing
things. I juiced Lanny with LSD to cloud his mind. He was gaga about Theresa.
If he'd've been thinking clear, he'd've never let it go; screwed things
up." "And me?" "Yeah. Why
not? It worked once. And it doesn't—" "Right. It
doesn't hurt," Anna finished for him. "Killing
Trecie wasn't part of the plan, and I'm sorry it had to happen. Real sorry. Her
aunt's going to feel pretty bad about the whole thing." "Somebody
always ends up hurting," Anna said. "I
guess." More silence.
Anna wanted to leave, but that would have entailed standing and moving. She
wasn't ready for that. Another question came to her. "You took the
pictures of Theresa from Lanny's house the other night. Why?" Mack smiled.
"You in your little dress running around at night. I thought you'd catch
me for sure." Anna didn't
answer his smile. Images of her own vulnerability didn't amuse her. "Why
take them?" "Probably
no reason. Lanny'd gone camera-happy after Theresa'd gone. Took a zillion
pictures. I got to thinking some of them might be of me or Paulo or Rick or
something. Figured better safe than sorry." "You
missed one," Anna told him out of spite. He said
nothing. She stood; her
back and legs had stiffened and hurt like a son-of-a-bitch. It would take a
degree of fortitude to walk away without wincing at every step. She looked down
at the murdering, poisoning, smuggling, felonious reprobate and couldn't find
any anger toward him. "Thanks
for not killing me," she said, wondering why she should feel gratitude,
but feeling it anyway. "I'm getting married," she added and realized
she was too tired to filter her thoughts or words. "Congratulations,"
Mack said sincerely. The dungeon,
the old cisterns, the brickwork happening so conveniently at a time of a young
woman's disappearance: Anna remembered her great-great-aunt Raffia's letters,
the mention of Sergeant Sinapp doing uncharacteristic physical labor himself,
bricking up the ruined cistern when it had first been done nearly a century and
a half before. She thought of Raffia feeling her way to Mudd's dungeon in the
dark, how she'd known where she was by the smell of new mortar. Without
stopping to think about what she intended to do, Anna borrowed a ten-pound
sledgehammer and a flashlight from Daniel's shop and went to the dungeon. "Abandon
Hope All Ye Who Enter Here." Permission to
take down a wall, even one so newly and nefariously constructed, could drag on
forever. Bureaucracies were good at making small problems last a long time,
thus providing job security for middle management. The blows hurt
her as much as they did the brick wall, but she was the more determined and it
fell down before she did. The stink of decomposing flesh and the scurrying
sound of interrupted diners gushed from the new-made hole, and Anna fell back.
She gave the critters a few seconds' head start, then, having kicked the rubble
away, stuck her head through, flashlight in hand. The earthly
remains of Theresa Alvarez stopped her from going any farther. As Mack had
said, she was shoved in a heap just inside the brick wall. Fighting her gag
reflex—to once start vomiting was to have difficulty stopping till not only the
smell but the sense memory of the smell were purged—Anna pulled and bashed away
enough of the wall that she could see the corpse more clearly, not to study it
for clues, but to avoid treading on or in any way touching the pathetic thing. She had no
interest in the murder—Mack had confessed and she believed him—but should he
think better of his admission and retract his confession before going to trial,
Anna wanted to leave what evidence there might be undisturbed. Having created
enough room to maneuver, she ducked through the hole and stood between
Theresa's feet. The body was mashed into a rectangular opening about three by
five feet and not high enough to stand upright. At the parade ground end was
solid brick. Toward the sea narrow brick steps led steeply down into darkness.
These Anna followed. There were but eight treads, each higher than a standard
step, and then an opening to the left, low and small like the one above. It let into a
room without a floor. The only place to stand was a shelf no more than eighteen
inches wide. Beyond this was a great square hole the size of the casemate above
and maybe that deep. Depth was hard to gauge without proper light. Seawater had
seeped in until the old cistern was filled to half a dozen feet down from where
Anna stood. The beam of her
flashlight sank into the dark water. Beneath she could see the brick of the
walls and sand. Hidden away from sun and storm, the water was clear, very
nearly devoid of life and utterly devoid of movement. But for water and sand,
the cistern was empty. Anna felt a crush of disappointment. It came down on her
with a weight of fatigue and she found she must sit down on the ledge or pitch
face foremost into the water. Till her strength returned sufficiently that she
could climb eight stairs and brave the odoriferous dead person, she idly played
her light across the dark water. Over the century and half it had lain sealed.
Brick dust, lime and other debris brought down by decay, rainwater seeping
through from above and seawater from below, had formed a sort of a beach on the
seaward side. Either that or the sand had fallen during a partial collapse of
some kind and remained unchanged by wind or the action of the sea from that
time to this. As she played
the light back and forth over this subterranean atoll, she noticed a darkened
triangle, like a small shark's fin, protruding above the surface. The first few
times she'd taken it for a shadow—or perhaps been simply too tired and
dispirited to notice. Once seen it would not melt into the background again. Finally
curiosity got the better of lethargy and she scooted around the ledge on her
bottom to where, with care, she could drop down onto the sand. As her fingers
loosed the brick, she suffered a terrifying thought. What if the sand were
viscous, near liquid and swallowed her like quicksand? The sand gave
way beneath her just enough to snatch her breath away and douse her tired body
with so much adrenaline she felt as if she could have leapt the six feet to
safety flatfooted. Ankle-deep in sand and gasping for air, she waited till the
panic passed. Since Mack's acid trips had scrambled her brains, the center for
fear in her cerebral cortex had been working double time. Normal anxiety was
revved up into crippling fear that came in bowel-loosening waves. Anna hoped it
wasn't going to be a permanent condition; yet one more wound that left a scar. Recovered
sufficiently that her hands quit shaking, she trained her light on the dark
triangle that had lured her into the gullet of the abandoned cistern. It was a
bit of weathered wood, nothing more. Because she was there and because, when
the adrenaline burned out in liquid terror, she'd been left temporarily too
weak to climb out of a bassinet let alone a brick tank, she knelt in the sand
and began digging. Though softened
by water and rot, she could tell the board's exposed end had not been sawed but
broken. As she dug and pulled, she saw sledge or boot-heel-sized indentations
where it had been repeatedly struck as if someone had gone to great lengths to
smash it free of a structure. Five minutes of
digging and worrying it and the sand gave up a board five or six inches wide
and a bit over two feet long. Risking her fanny to the yielding sand, Anna sat
and examined her find. At first her flashlight revealed nothing more exciting
than an old, square-headed, iron nail. As she looked, though, letters began to
separate themselves from the shades of gray where white paint had once been
emblazoned on the wood. Once looking for them, they became clear enough: rry
Cay. "I knew
it," Anna whispered. She leaned back and closed her eyes. "You were
right, Aunt Raffia. Tilly never left the fort." For the briefest of
instants, borne undoubtedly on the winds of an acid flashback, Anna felt the
presence of her great-great-aunt so strongly she smiled. Until it was gone she
didn't dare open her eyes. Seeing ghosts at night when she was high was one
thing. Seeing them mid morning, straight, was too much to contemplate. rry Cay. The Merry
Cay, the sailing skiff belonging to Sergeant Sinapp; the one he'd reported
stolen the morning after Tilly and Private Lane disappeared, the boat that held
together the thin fabric of lies about the supposed elopement. It was as
Raffia had said. Sinapp killed them, dumped the bodies and the smashed skiff in
the ruined cistern, then saw to the bricking up himself. Anna didn't doubt but
that she sat on Tilly's impromptu grave. Without realizing she did so, she
patted the sand with the tenderness of a mother gentling a frightened child. Whether bones
would be found, she couldn't say. Not being a forensic expert she had no idea
what a hundred and fifty years immersed in brackish water and wet sand would do
to a human skeleton. For her, the finding of the boat was enough. EPILOGUE The refugees
were taken to an INS holding facility by a flotilla of coast guard ships. According
to the coast guard and INS, it was the largest single landing of illegal aliens
since the British invaded in 1812. Anna had been a part of history. The six fishing
boats were stopped and taken into custody at about the same time the helicopter
reached Garden Key. They had no intention of returning to Cuba. No one doubted
that they were headed to Enrico's Marine Supply in Miami, but as they denied it
uniformly, there might be trouble proving it. The coast guard took possession
of the fishing boats as well as the captured Scarab. Not a bad haul. Paulo, Rick,
Butch and Mack disappeared into the legal system. There would be federal
charges, charges by the state of Florida, and Cuban officials might want them
as well. Good intentions or not, they had broken rules, laws, traditions,
taboos and statutes in many jurisdictions. They would be in jail a long time.
Mack and Butch faced the death penalty. Anna wished Paulo and Rick a mere slap
on the hands, but they would get little leniency for being cute, young and
good-hearted. Bob and the
wounded woman were medevacked out. Bob was recovering but would probably limp
the rest of his life. Anna remained
at Fort Jefferson for two more weeks. Her time was spent writing reports and
retrieving personal gear and NPS property off the bottom of the ocean around
East Key. Mrs. Meyers was
rescued from the moat and underwent rehabilitation in Daniel's living room.
Along with a few more scars on corpus and psyche, Anna would take away from the
Dry Tortugas the wonderful image of Daniel, the burly maintenance man, flitting
about muttering, "Oh my dear, oh my dear," and, "Don't hurt her.
Careful," as the Harley was winched up onto the moat wall. Anna
photocopied Raffia's letters and turned them over to Duncan, the fort's historian.
His feelings were mixed. Excavating the cistern that entombed Tilly, Joel Lane
and then Theresa Alvarez excited him. The prospect of finding fragments, the
DNA of which might be matched to an actual living park ranger, filled him with
glee. The prospect of dismantling the walls of the powder room to discover Dr.
Mudd's innocence and, so, the negation of his book proving the man's guilt—all
but three chapters of which were already completed—did not. Knowing the
glacial slowness with which a big bureaucracy moves, Anna didn't count on this
question being answered in her lifetime. She wasn't
concerned. She had the answers she needed and a future full of live people to
look forward to. Paul renewed his proposal via e-mail. They'd set a date,
March, scarcely half a year away. Place was yet to be determined. Anna unpacked
the black velvet box that housed the impressive diamond engagement ring Paul
had given her and put the ring on. She needed to get used to the look and
feel—and the idea—of it before she returned to Mississippi and had to make good
on her promise of matrimony. ABOUT THE AUTHOR Nevada Barr is
the award-winning author of ten previous Anna Pigeon mysteries, including the New
York Times bestsellers Hunting Season and Blood Lure. Her
next book, to be published in June 2003, is Seeking Enlightenment ... Hat by
Hat, a skeptic's down-to-earth search for the spiritual. She lives in
Mississippi, where she was most recently a ranger on the Natchez Trace Parkway. Flashback Nevada Barr G. P. PUTNAM'S SONS New YORK This is a work
of fiction. Names, characters, places and incidents either are the product of
the author's imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to
actual persons, living or dead, business establishments, events or locales is
entirely coincidental. G. E Putnam's
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Street New York, NY 10014 Copyright ©
2003 by Nevada Barr All rights reserved. This book, or parts thereof, may not be
reproduced in any form without permission. Published
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Nevada. Flashback / Nevada Barr. p. cm. ISBN
0-399-14975-9 1. Pigeon, Anna
(Fictitious character)—Fiction. 2. Dry Tortugas
National Park (Fla.)—Fiction. 3. Women park
rangers—Fiction. 4. Florida—Fiction. I. Title. PS3552.A73184F59
2003
2002068264 813'.54—dc21 Printed in the
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printed on acid-free paper. BOOK DESIGN BY
AMANDA DEWEY FOR JOAN, WHO
HELPED ME WITH THE PLOT TWISTS OF LIFE AND
LITERATURE DURING THE WRITING OF THIS BOOK Due to the
isolated locale and complex nature of Dry Tortugas National Park, this book
could not have been written without the cooperation of the people who work at
Everglades and Dry Tortugas National Parks. My thanks go out to Superintendent
Maureen Finnerty, Chief Ranger Bill Wright, Linda Irey and, most especially,
Supervisory Ranger Paul Taylor, who took the time to show me all the nooks and
crannies above and below sea level; Captain Cliff Green and First Mate Linda
Vanaman, who shared their stories, expertise and wonderful attitudes toward all
things fishy; Al Riemer, who let me hang around his shop and gossip; and Mike
Ryan, who made the history come alive through his knowledge and research. HISTORICAL NOTE In 1865, Dr.
Samuel Mudd was tried and convicted for aiding and abetting John Wilkes Booth
after the assassination of President Lincoln. He received a sentence of life
imprisonment to be served at Fort Jefferson in the Dry Tortugas, Florida. Two
years later, during a yellow fever outbreak at the prison, Dr. Mudd acted
courageously, using his medical skill to treat the sick. Acknowledging his
services, President Andrew Johnson pardoned him in 1869. Though there has been
a great deal of discussion over Dr. Mudd's guilt or innocence, the device of
the doppelganger was a complete fiction created for this story. A month after
Dr. Mudd was pardoned, Samuel Arnold's case was reviewed. President Johnson
found there was sufficient doubt about his participation in the conspiracy to
pardon him as well. After his release, Mr. Arnold lived a quiet life of
seclusion on his farm in Maryland. In 1906, at the age of 72, Samuel Arnold
died of consumption at his home. His wife and children were at his bedside. Throughout
their lives, both men maintained their innocence of any crime connected with
the death of Mr. Lincoln. 1 Until she ran
out of oxygen, Anna was willing to believe she was taking part in a PBS
special. The water was so clear sunlight shone through as if the sea were but
mountain air. Cloud shadows, stealthy and faintly magical at four fathoms,
moved lazily across patches of sand that showed startlingly white against the
dark, ragged coral. Fishes colored so brightly it seemed it must be a trick of
the eye or the tail end of an altered state flitted, nibbled, explored and
slept. Without moving, Anna could see a school of silver fish, tiny anchovies,
synchronized, moving like polished chain mail in a glittering curtain. Four
Blue Tangs, so blue her eyes ached with the joy of them, nosed along the edge
of a screamingly purple sea fan bigger than a coffee table. A jewfish, six feet
long and easily three hundred pounds, his blotchy hide mimicking the
sun-dappled rock, pouting lower lip thick as Anna's wrist, lay without moving
beneath an overhang of a coral-covered rock less than half his size, his wee
fish brain assuring him he was hidden. Countless other fish, big and small,
bright and dull, ever more delightful to Anna because she'd not named
them and so robbed them of a modicum of their mystery, moved around her on
their fishy business. Air, and with
it time, was running out. If she wished to live, she needed to breathe. Her
lungs ached with that peculiar sensation of being full to bursting. Familiar
desperation licked at the edges of her mind. One more kick, greetings to a
spiny lobster (a creature whose body design was only possible in a weightless
world), and, with a strong sense of being hounded from paradise, she swam for
the surface, drove a foot or more into the air and breathed. The sky was as
blue as the eye-watering fishes and every bit as merciless as the sea. The
ocean was calm. Even with her chin barely above the surface she could see for
miles. There was remarkably little to soothe the eye between the unrelenting
glare of sea and sky. To the north was Garden Key, a scrap of sand no more than
thirteen acres in total and, at its highest point, a few meters above sea
level. Covering the key, two of its sides spilling out into the water, was the
most bizarre duty station at which she had served. Fort Jefferson,
a massive brick fortress, had been built on this last lick of America, the Dry
Tortugas, seventy miles off Key West in the Gulf of Mexico. At the time
construction started in 1846, it was the cutting edge of national defense. Made
of brick and mortar with five bastions jutting out from the corners of a
pentagon, it had been built as the first line of defense for the southern
states, guarding an immense natural—and invisible—harbor; it was the only place
for sixty miles where ships could sit out the hurricanes that menaced the Gulf
and the southeastern seaboard or come under the protection of the fort's guns
in time of war. Though real, the harbor was invisible because its breakwaters,
a great broken ring of coral, were submerged. Jefferson never
fired a single shot in defense of its country. Time and substrata conspired
against it. Before the third tier of the fort could be completed, the engineers
noticed the weight of the massive structure was causing it to sink and stopped
construction. Even unfinished it might have seen honorable—if not
glamorous—duty, but the rifled cannon was invented, and the seven-to-fifteen-foot-thick
brick-and-mortar walls were designed only to withstand old-style cannons. Under
siege by these new weapons of war, the fort would not stand. Though destined
for glorious battle, Jefferson sat out the Civil War as a union prison. Till Anna had
been assigned temporary duty at the Dry Tortugas, she'd not even heard of it.
Now it was home. For a moment
she merely treaded water, head thrown back to let the sun seek out any
epithelial cell it hadn't already destroyed over the last ten years. Just
breathing—when the practice had recently been denied—was heaven. Somewhere
she'd read that a meager seventeen percent of air pulled in by the lungs was
actually used. Idly, she wondered if she could train her body to salvage the
other eighty-three percent so she could remain underwater ten minutes at a
stretch rather than two. Scuba gave one the time but, with the required gear,
not the freedom. Anna preferred free diving. Three times she breathed deep, on
the third she held it, upended and kicked again for bliss of the bottom. Flashing in the
sun, she was as colorful as any fish. Her mask and fins were iridescent lime
green, her dive skin startling blue. Though the water was a welcoming
eighty-eight degrees in late June, that was still eight point six degrees below
where she functioned best. For prolonged stays in this captivating netherworld
she wore a skin, a lightweight body-hugging suit with a close-fitting hood and
matching socks. Not only did it conserve body heat, but it also protected her
from the sometimes vicious bite of the coral. Like all divers who weren't
vandals, Anna assiduously avoided touching—and so harming—living coral, but
when they occasionally did collide, human skin was usually as damaged as the
coral. Again she
stayed with and played with the fish until her lungs felt close to bursting.
Though it would be hotly debated by a good percentage of Dry Tortugas National
Park's visitors, as far as she was concerned the "paradise" part of
this subtropical paradise was hidden beneath the waves. Anna had never
understood how people could go to the beach and lie in the sand to relax. The
shore was a far harsher environment than the mountains. Air was hot and heavy
and clung to the skin. Wind scoured. Sand itched. Salt sucked moisture from
flesh. The sun, in the sky and again oft the surface of the sea, scared and
blinded. For a couple of hours each day it was heaven. After that it began to
wear one down as the ocean wears away rock and bone. Two dive sites,
twenty dives—the deepest over forty feet—and Anna finally tired herself out.
Legs reduced to jelly from pushing through an alien universe, she couldn't kick
hard enough to rise above the surface and pull herself over the gunwale. Glad
there were no witnesses, she wriggled and flopped over the transom beside the
outboard motor to spill on deck, splattering like a bushel of sardines. Her
"Sunday" was over. She'd managed to spend yet one more weekend in
Davy Jones's locker. There wasn't really any place else to go. The Reef
Ranger, one of the park's patrol boats, a twenty-five-foot inboard/outboard
Boston Whaler, the bridge consisting of a high bench and a Plexiglas
windscreen, fired up at a touch. Anna upped anchor, then turned the bow toward
the bastinadoed fortress that was to be her home for another eight to twelve
weeks. Seen from the level of the surrounding ocean, Fort Jefferson presented a
bleak and surreal picture: an overwhelming geometric tonnage floating,
apparently unsupported, on the surface of the sea. Enjoying the
feel of a boat beneath her after so many years in landlocked parks, Anna headed
for the fort. The mariners' rhyme used to help those new to the water remember
which markers to follow when entering heavy traffic areas rattled meaninglessly
through her mind: red on right returning. Shrunken by salt and sun, her
skin felt two sizes too small for her bones, and even with dark glasses and the
sun at her back, it was hard to keep her eyes open against the glare. The opportunity
to serve as interim supervisory ranger for the hundred square miles of park,
scarcely one of which was above water, came in May. Word trickled down from the
southeastern region that the Dry Tortugas' supervisory ranger had to take a
leave of absence for personal reasons and a replacement was needed until he returned
or, failing that, a permanent replacement was found. Dry Tortugas
National Park was managed jointly with southern Florida's Everglades National
Park. The brass all worked out of Homestead, near Everglades. Marooned as it
was, seventy miles into the Gulf, day-to-day operations of the Dry Tortugas
were run by a supervisory ranger, who managed one law enforcement ranger, two
interpreters and an office administrator. Additional law enforcement had been
budgeted and two rangers hired. They were new to the service and, at present,
being trained at the Federal Law Enforcement Training Center in Georgia. "Supervisory
Ranger" was a title that bridged a gray area in the NPS hierarchy.
For reasons to which Anna was not privy, the head office chose not to upgrade
the position to Chief Ranger but left it as a subsidiary position to the Chief
Ranger at Everglades. Still, it was a step above Anna's current District Ranger
level on the Natchez Trace. To serve as "Acting Supervisory Ranger"
was a good career move. That wasn't
entirely why she'd chosen to abandon home and hound for three months to accept
the position. Anna was in no hurry to rush out of the field and into a desk
job. There'd be time enough for that when her knees gave out or her tolerance
for the elements—both natural and criminal—wore thin. She had taken
the Dry Tortugas assignment for personal reasons. When she was in a good frame
of mind, she told herself she'd needed to retreat to a less populated and
mechanized post to find the solitude and unmarred horizons wherein to renew
herself, to seek answers. When cranky or down, she felt it was the craven
running away of a yellow-bellied deserter. Paul Davidson,
his divorce finalized, had asked her to marry him. Two days later,
a car, a boat and a plane ride behind her—not to mention two thousand miles of
real estate, a goodly chunk of it submerged—she was settling into her quarters
at Fort Jefferson. "Coincidence?"
her sister Molly had asked sarcastically. "You be the judge." The fort had
only one phone, which worked sporadically, and mail was delivered once a week.
Two weeks had passed in sandy exile, and she was no more ready to think about
marriage than she had been the day she left. But, given the paucity of
entertainments—even a devotee could only commune with fish for so long—she was
rapidly getting to the point where there was nothing else to think about. Under these
pressing circumstances, she'd done the only sensible thing: she stuck her nose
in somebody else's business. Daniel Barrons, a maintenance man-of-all-trades
and the closest thing Anna'd made to a friend at the fort, had a weakness for
gossip that she shamelessly exploited. He was a block
of a man, with what her father would have referred to as a "peasant
build," one designed for carrying sick calves into the barn. Perhaps in
his late forties, Daniel covered his blunt face with a brown-black beard. On
his left arm, seldom seen as the man wasn't given to tank tops, was a tattoo so
classic Anna smiled whenever she glimpsed its bottom edge: a naked girl
reclining on elbows and fanny under a cartoon palm tree. Given this
rough and manly exterior, tradition would have had him strong and silent. Every
time he snuggled down in his favorite position to dish the dirt, elbows on
workbench, hindquarters stuck out and usually bristling with tools shoved in
his pockets, furry chin in scarred hands, Anna was charmed and tickled. With only a
small nudge, Daniel had assumed the position and filled her in on why she'd
been given the opportunity to explore this oddly harsh, boring, beautiful,
magical bit of the earth. Her predecessor, Lanny Wilcox, hadn't taken an
extended leave willingly. It had been forced upon him when he'd begun to come
unglued. "His
girlfriend, a little Cuban number as cute as a basket full of kittens, ran out
on him," Daniel had told her, his voice low and gentle as usual. He
consistently spoke as if a baby slept in the next room and he was loath to wake
it. "Lanny was
a terrific guy, but he was getting up there, fifty-one this last birthday. At
his peak he couldn't a been much to look at. Hey, I like Lanny just fine, but,
well, even he knew he was about as good-looking as the south end of a
northbound spiny lobster. Five, six months ago he hooked up with Theresa. She's
not yet thirty, smart, funny and a nice addition to a bathing suit. Next thing
you know, she's living out here. When she cut out, Lanny just sort of lost
it." From what Anna
had gathered, the old Supervisory Ranger's "losing it" consisted of
increasingly bizarre behavior that revolved around the seeing and hearing of
things that no one else saw or heard. "Ghosts," murmured
a couple of the more melodramatic inhabitants of the fort.
"Hallucinations," said the practical ones, and Lanny was bundled up
and shipped off to play with his imaginary friends out of sight of the
tax-paying public. On first
arriving, struck by the beauty of the sky and sea, the fishes and the masonry,
Anna couldn't understand what stresses could possibly chase even a heartbroken
man around the bend. Piloting the Reef Ranger into the harbor, the glow
of her swimming with the fishes burned and blown away, she realized that after
a mere couple of weeks of isolation, wet heat and scouring winds, she was
tempted to dream up companions of her own. She needed a sense of connection to
something, somebody to keep her on an even keel. She laughed.
The sound whipped away on the liquid wind over the bow. Soon she was going to
have to relinquish her self-image as a hermit. Paul—or perhaps just the passage
of years—had socialized her to some extent. Molly would be pleased. Anna made a
mental note to tell her sister when next she phoned. It could be a while. Not
only was the fort's only phone in much demand, but it also had a
one-to-two-second delay, like a phone call from Mars, that made communication
an exercise in frustration. Red on right. Anna slowed the
Ranger to a sedate and wakeless speed as she entered the small jewel of
a harbor on the east side of Garden Key. Eleven pleasure boats were anchored,
two she recognized from the weekend before, Moonshadow and Key to My
Heart, both expensive, both exquisitely kept. They were owned by two
well-to-do couples out of Miami who seemed joined at the hip as their boats
were joined at the gunwale, one rafting off the other. Anna waved as she
passed. At the end of
the harbor away from the tourists, as if there were an invisible set of tracks
running from Bush Key—Garden's near neighbor—to the harbor mouth and they had
been condemned to live on the wrong side of them, two commercial shrimpers
cuddled up to one another. Commercial
fishing and, much to the shriek and lament of the locals, sportfishing was
banned in the park, but right outside the boundaries was good shrimping. The
boats stalked the perimeters, the honest—or the cautious—keeping
outside the imaginary line established by NPS buoys. Perhaps a few sought to
poach, but there were plenty of shrimp outside. Most came for the same reasons
ships had been coming for two hundred years, the reason the fort had been built
in the middle of the ocean: the natural safe zone of flat water the coral reefs
provided. Shrimp boats,
their side nets looking like tattered wings falling from a complex skeleton of
wood and metal, were a complication Anna'd not foreseen. They sailed from many
ports, most in the south and southeast, following the shrimp: four weeks in
Texas, then through the Gulf to the Keys. Some boats were family owned, most
were not. All were manned and kept in a way unique to an idiosyncratic and
inbred culture. Daniel called them "bikers of the sea." Having spent
an unspecified and largely undiscussed number of years in the land version of
that violent fraternity before, as he put it, "breaking my back and seeing
the light," he would know. The shrimpers
were a scabrous lot, not just the boats, which reeked of dead fish, cigarette
smoke and old grease—part cooking, part engine—but the sailors themselves. The
family boats were crewed by men and women, three or four to a boat. The others
were all male, but for the occasional unfortunate who, like a biker chick out
of favor, was passed from boat to boat, usually fueled for her duties with
drugs and alcohol. Anna had yet to
see a shrimper with all his or her teeth. The violence of the culture coupled
with months at sea away from modern dentistry marked their faces. A lot of them
went to sea to kick drugs and found more onboard. A startling percentage had
felony records. This borderline
lifestyle would not have affected Anna had not a symbiotic relationship sprung
up between them and the tourists and park employees at the fort. Fresh gulf
shrimp were delicious. The shrimpers where glad to trade a few for the culinary
delight of those in the park. The problem was that the currency was
alcohol—mostly cheap beer, but enough whiskey to make things interesting.
Drunk, the shrimpers lived up to Daniel's name for them. They came ashore; they
yelled, disrupted tours, urinated in public, knocked one another's few
remaining teeth out, beat their women and occasionally knifed one another. Her third day at
Fort Jefferson Anna had been made painfully aware of a few administrational
oddities of Dry Tortugas National Park: there was no place to hold prisoners
and, though they were legally allowed to make arrests, it was highly
discouraged by headquarters in Homestead. Two law-enforcement rangers keeping
drunken violent shrimpers under guard in the open air for hours till the Coast
Guard arrived wasn't a great idea. Transporting them three hours one way to Key
West and so leaving the park without law enforcement or EMTs for a day didn't
work either. The best they
could do was separate the combatants, bind the ugliest wounds and shoo the lot
of them back onboard their boats. The two
shrimpers anchored in the harbor as Anna motored in were family owned. They'd
never caused problems, and the lady on one of the boats had a terrific little
dog she let Anna pet. Tonight should be quiet. Anna didn't know if she was
grateful or not. With only one other ranger—Bob Shaw—in house, neither ever
truly had a day off but slept with a radio ready to serve as backup for the
person on duty. Quiet promised uninterrupted sleep. Anna supposed that was a
good thing. Still, she would have welcomed something to do. As she backed
the Reef Ranger neatly into the employee dock, Bob Shaw walked down the
weathered planking. Opposite where Anna tied up, on the far side of the park
pier with its public bathrooms and commercial loading area that the ferries
from Key West used, the NPS supply boat, the Activa, was moored. Like
Christmas every Tuesday, but better, the Activa arrived with supplies,
groceries, mail and Cliff and Linda. Cliff was the captain, Linda the first
mate. New blood was as exciting to the inhabitants of Fort Jefferson as fresh
food. The crew of the Activa could be counted on to bring the latest
news and gossip along with other treats and necessities. "Teddy
took your stuff up to your quarters for you and stuck the perishables in the
refrigerator," Bob said as Anna cut the engine. She tossed him the stern
line and he tied it neatly to the cleat on the starboard side. Wind was more or
less a constant on DRTO, and the NPS boats were tied to both sides of their
slips to keep them from banging into the sides of the dock. Fenders could only
do so much when the winds flirted with hurricane force. "I'll be
sure and thank her. Is Teddy in the office?" Anna asked. Teddy, short for
Theodora, was Bob's wife. "Till
five, like always." He stood stiffly to one side as Anna heaved towel,
fins, snorkel and water bottle onto the dock. Bob was a strange
fit with the park. He'd been there for eleven years and clearly loved the
place. He said, and Anna believed him, that he never wanted to work anywhere
else and intended to serve out his remaining six years till retirement at the
Fort. Anna suspected
his desire to remain in this isolated post was due only partly to his love for
the resource. A good chunk of it, she theorized, was because nowhere else could
he live such a rich and rewarding fantasy life without coming head-to-head with
the cynicism of his fellows. Fortunately for
her, Bob's particular brand of psychosis made him a great ranger. Swearing he was
five-six, though Anna, at five-four, could look him in the eye in flat shoes,
he seemed bent on being the poster boy for a benign version of the Napoleon
complex. Now, as he readied to go on his evening rounds—showing the flag,
boarding boats he deemed suspicious, handing out brochures to newcomers and
checking the boundaries because they were there—he wore full gear: sidearm,
baton, pepper spray, cuffs and a Kevlar bulletproof vest. If the man hadn't
been such a strong swimmer, Anna's greatest worry would have been that he'd
fall overboard and his defensive equipment would sink him like a stone. The
only concession he made to the cloying heat was to wear shorts. Though Anna
would never have dreamed of telling him so, they tended to spoil the effect.
Not only was he no taller than Anna, but he couldn't have exceeded her one
hundred twenty pounds by much. Like a lot of men who take to the water, most of
that was in his chest and shoulders. Chickens would have been insulted to hear
his legs compared to theirs. "Anything
up for tonight?" she asked as they made lines fast. Mostly she asked for
the fun of hearing Bob's answer. His fantasy, as luck would have it, was that
he was the sole protector (she didn't count for reasons of gender, and Lanny
hadn't counted for reasons Bob clearly had but was too honorable to speak of)
of this jewel in the ocean. Like all other great and honorable lawmen of
history, Bob was constantly in danger from the forces of evil. Each and every
boat could be smuggling cocaine from Panama, heroin from the east, guns from
pretty much anywhere. All shrimpers were ready, willing and able to knife him
in the back. Given that he
apparently genuinely believed this despite eleven years in a sleepy port, Anna
couldn't but admire his stalwart courage in facing each day, never late, never
shirking. Having been exposed to this criminal-under-every-bush, Marshal Dillon
under-siege mentality the clay she arrived, Anna was pleasantly surprised the
first time she'd patrolled with him. Part of honor and duty—and natural
inclination probably, though his tough-guy image would never let him admit it
even to himself—-required he be gracious, polite and, when he thought no one
was looking, overtly kind. Seeing that, Anna had been quite taken with the man
and made it a point to resist the temptation to tease him about the boogeymen
that lived under his boat. She didn't even resent his sexism. Respect for a superior
overrode it, and it wasn't personal. There were no women patrolling the streets
of Dodge City, flying fighters over Nazi Germany or walking
shoulder-to-shoulder with Clint Eastwood through the saloon's swinging doors. Sans petticoat
and fan, Anna simply didn't fit into Bob's worldview. "Did you
see the boats on the south side, anchored out a ways, not in the harbor?"
Bob asked. He smoothed his sandy-red and handsome mustache with one hand and
pointed with the other. Vaguely Anna
remembered passing them, but had paid them little mind. "I saw
them." "They've
been here two and a half days. Never come into the harbor. Never visit the
Fort. Something's up with them." Anna'd not
noticed those things. And they were pertinent. Most folks, if they bothered to come
to Garden Key, made use of the harbor and at least paid a curiosity visit to
the Fort. "Good
eye," Anna said and meant it. "I'll keep close to the radio." Bob jumped
lightly into the second of DRTO's five patrol boats. Only four were working.
The fifth was beached behind the dock up on blocks. Bob took the Bay Ranger,
a twenty-foot aluminum-hulled Sylvan. He seemed to prefer it to the
sturdier Boston Whalers. Maybe because it was quieter, had a lower profile. All
the better for sneaking up on evildoers. Anna shouldered
the net bag she used to carry her dive things. "Oh,"
Bob said as she turned to go. "You got a big box from New York waiting for
you. Teddy said if there's bagels in it, she'll trade you some of her homemade
key lime pie for some." Anna waved Bob
off, then stood a moment, habit demanding she do a visual check of an
area after an absence of hours. The campground, with space for only a handful
of tents and, other than flush toilets on the public dock, no amenities, was
quiet. Because there was so little dirt to be had on Garden Key, overnighters
were by reservation only. Picnickers sat at tables nursing beers and sunburns,
talking among themselves, families for the most part with lots of little kids
scratching at mosquito bites, Kool-Aid smiles adding to the clownish colors of
beach towels and bathing suits. Even Bob would have a hard time imagining an
evil nemesis in the bunch. Savoring the
fact that she wasn't in a hurry, that, once again, her work for the National
Park Service allowed her to rest her eyes and mind on a wonder most people
would never take the time to see, she turned her attention to the fort. Bob's motor's
drone a pleasant burr in her ears, as comforting as the hum of bees in summer
blooms, she looked across the moat at Fort Jefferson. More than the skyscrapers
of Manhattan, the Golden Gate Bridge or all of Bill Gates's cyber magic, it
impressed her with man's determination to fight the world to a standstill and
then reform it in his own design. Seventy miles
out in the sea, on the unprepossessing Bush Key, the magnitude of the effort
awed her. Jefferson stood three stories high and was topped with earthworks and
ammunition bunkers. A coal-black tower, built as a lighthouse but demoted to a
harbor light when the taller lighthouse on Loggerhead Key was finished, thrust
above the battlements. The black metal of its skin gave it an unearned sinister
aspect. A wide moat, meeting the fortress walls on one side and contained by
brick and mortar on the other, ran around the two bastions fronting the
structure. Beyond was nothing but the Atlantic. At first the moat had amused Anna.
Only in the front and along the eastern wall was it bordered by land. On the
two other sides its outer wall separated it only from the sea. When she'd
first seen it, it had struck her as a conceit, the architect slavishly
following the classic castle moat theme though this fort was set in a natural
saltwater moat thousands of miles on one side and seventy on the other. Duncan,
the island's historian and chief interpreter, had disabused her of that notion.
Moats were not merely to keep land troops at bay but ships with malicious
intent at their distance. Trailing a
young couple so in love they didn't notice it was too hot to be hanging all
over each other, Anna crossed the bridge. As she stepped into the imagined cool
and welcome dark of the entryway she heard the shivery sound of children
giggling and saw a small head vanish into a stone slot. Anna laughed because
heat and boredom had yet to diminish the childlike glee the fort engendered in
her: "secret" rooms where ammunition had once been stored, dark and
twisted caves where arches met and clashed and crossed at the bastions,
designed by an architect who must have foreseen the genius of Escher. The formidable
structure was now dissolving back into the sea with infinite slowness. Lime
dripped out of solution as rain worked its way through ancient mortar.
Stalactites formed, growing like teeth in the long, long passages through the
casemates. Standing at a corner and looking down arch after arch after arch,
perspective skewed. It was easy to feel as if one were falling through time
itself. Anna stepped
from beneath the sally port to the edge of the parade ground. The sun hit her
eyes with such force she winced. Within the embrace of the casemates was a
third and different world: no ocean, no mind-bending arches, just a manageable
patch of sky, horizons close, and the comfort of the man-made on all sides.
Brick arches at ground and second floor, one after the other in an unbroken
line, surrounded an expanse of grass so dry it crackled underfoot. Twin houses,
officer quarters during the Civil War, now served as quarters for the absent
Lanny Wilcox and Bob and Teddy Shaw. Around the edges of the parade ground,
inside the heavy walls, were scattered ruins from when Jefferson was home to
troops, prisoners, slaves, cooks, washerwomen, officers, wives and daughters:
the skeletal remains of a Civil War barracks, razed by the NPS when safety had
broil a higher priority than preservation; two half-finished armories, their
under-roofs rounded like their later relative, the Quonset hut; a half
disassembled shot oven; the foundation for what started out to be a church to a
soldier's god but ended life as a below-ground cistern for the federal
government. All testified to the hubbub of disparate humanity who had once been
packed within the walls like powder in a cannon's barrel. Two boys
rampaged out from the shadows behind Anna and ran left past the office to
disappear into the first casemate. Anna turned left as well. The arch of the
casemate had been boarded up to enclose the park's offices. The same treatment
had been used to make employee quarters, some at ground level and some in the
second tier, where cannons and convicts had been stored during the Civil War. Anna pushed
past the Employees Only sign and pulled the door shut behind her. Air
conditioning; cool was wonderful. Dry was even better. Without humidity the air
felt pounds lighter, slid into the lungs effortlessly. The physical ease was a
relief, but as ever in the gullet of bureaucracy, the magic was gone. The place
looked like a hundred other park offices: vaguely dingy, crowded, metal desks
and chin-high partitions cutting up what little space there was. Teddy Shaw sat
behind the first desk, staring at the now ubiquitous computer screen. Teddy was
younger than her husband by a dozen years or so, thirty to thirty-five at a
guess, and a couple of inches taller, an advantage her posture seemed bent on
rejecting. She probably had at least twenty pounds on him as well but was
nowhere near fat. The euphemism "pleasantly plump" was apt in Teddy's
case. Except for the stooped shoulders, she was pretty in a girl-next-door way,
with brown hair brushing her shoulders and brown eyes that reminded Anna of her
inherited golden retriever, Taco, in color if not softness. Because of her
relative youth and uncompromising support of her husband's John Wayne/Napoleon
neurosis, one might have expected her to assume the role of helpless maiden in
need of rescue. More than once Anna had thought Teddy would have liked to be
that for him, but a core of inner steel got in her way. Teddy was as peculiar
in her way as Bob was in his. She steadfastly believed in her husband's heroic
potential and seemed mildly embittered that others did not see him in the same
light. Anna thought Teddy would almost welcome disaster—even at the cost of a
few lives—if her husband would finally be given a chance to shine. "Thanks
for putting up my groceries," Anna said by way of greeting. "Bagels,
if I got 'em, for key lime pie?" "Yup.
Six." "Four." "Five" "Deal."
Anna didn't much care for either bagels or key lime pie, but she enjoyed the
dickering. "Any messages?" "Two. On
your desk." Anna dumped her
bag and threaded her way to the back of the office. To facilitate climate
control and keep out the endless weeping of moisture and dust from the tiers
above, the office was completely enclosed, walls and ceiling painted white,
making it into a box that could have as easily been in a trailer house in
Nevada as a two-hundred-year-old fortress in the Gulf of Mexico. Off the back
of the box were two closet-sized rooms. One Bob had laid claim to, the other
was the Supervisory Ranger's office. Though Anna's claustrophobia wouldn't allow
her to linger there—and certainly never with the door shut—she got a kick out
of her new office. Behind a door narrower and shorter than standard issue, the
essence of Fort Jefferson again manifested itself. The outer wall was exposed
brick. The one window, overlooking the moat, was a firing slot cutting through
seven feet of defensive stonework. The only modern touch was a skinny
three-paned window cemented into the slit. Anna would
check e-mail in the morning when she came on duty. It would be something to
look forward to, this far out in the middle of watery nowhere, though even
e-mail was not instantaneous—it took a day or more, as it was routed through
headquarters in Homestead. The two
promised messages were where Teddy said they'd be. The first was from Alistair
Kirk, the Assistant Chief Ranger of Everglades and Dry Tortugas National Parks.
"Tomorrow, 10:00 A.M., you and Daniel call me re: new water treatment
plans." Fresh water had been a problem since the fort had been built. The
original designers had created an ingenious plan where the top of the fort
would collect rainwater, which would then be drawn down through sand filters
built inside the fort's frame and stored in one hundred nine vaulted cisterns
built below ground level beneath the casemates. The total capacity was a
million and a half gallons. What hadn't
been foreseen was that the fort would be too heavy for the land. When tens of
tons of brick began to settle, the cisterns cracked, letting seawater in and
rendering them useless for fresh-water storage. They'd been sealed off after
the Civil War. Since that time, in addition to what rainwater could be caught,
drinking water had been barged to the island in wooden casks and rationed as
strictly as rum. In 1935 the NPS had taken over Garden Key. Eventually the
cisterns beneath the aborted chapel had been rehabilitated for use. Much of the
fresh water was collected during the torrential rains that fell in hurricane
season. In dry years a reverse osmosis plant that desalinated seawater augmented
this. The entire
system was outmoded and needed to be rethought and rebuilt. It would be a time
of great upheaval, and Anna rather hoped she'd be home in Mississippi before
the digging and cursing and spending commenced. The second note
was from Paul Davidson. Knowing it was almost impossible to get hold of her,
Paul left her messages several times a week and wrote her every day. In her
quarters, along with groceries and the mysterious box from Molly rumored to
contain New York bagels, would be a packet of letters from him. In Teddy's
crabbed hand, Paul said: "Taco and I arrested your favorite drunk today.
All three of us missed you. Taco and I probably more than Barstow. Paul."
Clay Barstow was a scrawny, amiable old alcoholic Anna arrested every time she
found his battered '57 pickup truck crawling along the Trace at fifteen miles
an hour, two wheels off the pavement for guidance. They'd become, if not
friends, at least comfortable with their relationship as jailer and jailed. As
Sheriff of Claiborne County, Paul must have had to arrest him. Taco, left in
Paul's care, rode in the front seat of the Sheriff's car each day. The
three-legged dog would be gleefully spoiled by the time Anna returned. She
laughed even as she felt the muscles around her heart tighten with an
inexplicable pain. This subtle
form of heart attack had been with Anna since the Friday night Paul had taken
her to the Episcopal church in Port Gibson, where he occasionally fulfilled the
office of priest when Father Sam was out of town and when Paul's duties of
apprehending criminals didn't take precedence over his job of forgiving them.
It had been late spring. The foliage around the two-century-old, barn-red
church had already matured into a fecund green that whispered of summer. The
leaves were so thick that no sun dappled through. St. James
Church was stuffy and, as churches seem to be between choir practice and Sunday
services, preternaturally still; more than simply an absence of sound, a
deepening of silence until one could almost believe it had become active
through the alchemy of some unseen listening ear. Those who'd been washed in
the blood of the Lamb would probably say it was the presence of God. To Anna it had
more the feel of the yawning silence of a well inviting a dark fall that was as
seductive as it was terrifying. Leading her by
the hand, Paul took her down the side aisle. The sun was close to setting. From
its place near the horizon beyond the far bank of the Mississippi River, the
rays cut horizontally beneath the protective canopy of antebellum oaks. Light
so saturated with color it collected on the polished wooden bench in puddles of
ruby, emerald, topaz and cobalt poured through the stained-glass depiction of
St. Francis holding a lamb. Paul ushered
her into this rainbow-drenched pew, then seated himself in the pew in front of
her. He twisted around and put his forearms on the seatback, his eyes level
with hers. His blond hair, not so much going gray as fading at the temples, was
died a rich auburn by a fold of St. Francis's robe, and he looked closer to
thirty than fifty. His eyes, customarily a blue that Anna found varied in hue
as much as the sky, depending on his internal weather, showed violet in the
strange light. Maybe because
she'd been alone for so many years, maybe because she'd chosen to be blind to
the signs, Anna hadn't known he'd brought her to St. James to propose. His
divorce, not a particularly pleasant exercise in emotional law, was scarcely
two weeks old. Anna thought she had time. From his shirt
pocket he removed the clichйd black velvet box. Anna blinked in the manner of
an iguana on speed. She was a trained law-enforcement officer. How could she
have missed a clue the size of a two-carat diamond ring box in a man's breast
pocket? It was two
carats Anna asked. She couldn't help herself. It was the biggest diamond she'd
ever seen outside a jewelry-store window. Light, green from the grass under the
saint's feet, caught in the facets till it glowed like kryptonite. Anna felt
her strength being drained away. Paul held it
out to her, but she could not raise her hands from where they rested, palms up
on her thighs like fainting white spiders. "You with
me sweetheart?" Sweetheart.
She'd grown to love the endearments he was so comfortable with. Darling. Honey.
She'd not yet been able to say them back, but she planned to give it a shot
real soon. Zach had never called her sweet names. He'd called her
"Pigeon," and she had thought she loved it. Anna had not
wanted Zach there in the light with her and Paul and fear and hope, and she'd
shaken her head to rid her mind of her first husband's face. "You're
not with me?" Paul asked. "No. It's
just that ... I'm with you." She tried to smile and found it was a whole
lot easier than she thought it would be. There was happiness nearby. Anna could
feel it rising in place of the listening silence. Paul looked at
her closely, answering her smile with the slow southern warmth that had first
warmed her loins and then come to warm her heart. "Good. I brought you to
this church, my church, the house of my God, because I know you're not exactly
on a first-name basis with the Almighty. Maybe you don't always think he—" "She." "—she
exists." He reached out, stroked her cheek with such gentleness she felt
tears prick at her eyes and confuse her mind. "I brought you here to ask
you to marry me because I want you to know my belief is enough. God comes or
doesn't, is or isn't, manifests or vanishes according to forces I cannot begin
to understand. I have chosen this," and though he didn't gesture at the
church, Anna felt as if he had. "What you choose is for you. I will never
push or pry or expect. Freedom of religion. An American marriage." Again
he smiled. Again the kryptonite flashed. Anna felt a new sort of joy bubbling
up around her. From somewhere in the dark of her mind she heard Zach whisper.
"Pigeon, you're my person..." and she found an inner voice responding
to the old litany: "No, you're my..." Again she shook her head to
rattle out the vision, and she wondered when Zach had changed from an angel to
a ghost. "No. No.
Don't say no," Paul was murmuring and reaching out to take her face
between his hands. Dislodged, the diamond in its box fell into Anna's open
palm. A sign. "A good
catch," she argued aloud. "I
am," Paul promised. "I will be." "I'm sure
you would be," Anna said pulling herself out of the jewel-lit church and
back into the stony gloom of her office with its firing slit for a window. Born
of the flashback—not the first she had of Paul's offer of marriage—a
juxtaposition of joy and haunting filled her lungs as it had in St. James
Church. She blew it out on a gust of air. "I'm about
to lock up," Teddy called back. "Are you going to be awhile?" "No. I'm
done," Anna replied, glad to have the impetus to move. The message about
the water-system meeting she left on the desk. The note from Paul she carried
with her. When she got back to her quarters she would tuck it in a painted box
Molly had brought her from her trip to Russia when Anna was still in college
and her sister was already a rising star in the field of psychiatry. The box
was too full to close, but though she felt mildly absurd because of it, Anna
couldn't bring herself to throw the notes away. "Got
everything?" Teddy asked, sounding like a kindergarten teacher asking a
five-year-old if she went to the bathroom before letting her on the bus for a
field trip. Anna held up
her net bag as proof she was allowed to go, and slipped out into the stark sun
and shade of the parade ground. A brick walk, not original to the fort but added
by the National Park Service, circumnavigated the inner court next to the
casemates. Anna's
temporary quarters were directly across from the sally port, so one direction
was no shorter than the other. The most direct route was across, but the grass
was Serengeti brown, the air still and bright and seeming to hold the glare as
well as the heat of the day. She turned south, taking the shaded side. Lanny Wilcox
had left or, if Daniel was correct, been snatched away from Fort Jefferson
hurriedly. Nothing of his had gone with him but for a suitcase of clothes. As a
consequence—housing in short supply in a place so small and so removed—Anna had
arrived having no appropriate place to perch. After much discussion (including
that of making her roommates with Duncan, the historian and interpreter, his
wife and their seven-year-old son—an arrangement that had everyone concerned up
in arms) the powers that be had grudgingly allowed her to live in the
superintendent's quarters. "Superintendent's quarters" was something
of a misnomer. In reality they served as VIP guest quarters. Mostly they
sat empty, ever clean, ever ready, on the off chance some senator or
congressman should call and want a place for the weekend. The quarters were
given to Anna with the caveat that if somebody important were to want them
she'd be bumped out to share space with the seven-year-old in a bed shaped like
a racecar. Since that had
yet to happen, Anna was pleased enough with her living arrangements. In the
second tier, the superintendent's quarters took up two of the old casemates.
Like the office, inside it was square, modern and white. To either side of a
comfortable living-room-cum-kitchen were two large bedrooms, each with two sets
of bunk beds and a small bath. What elevated
it from adequate to grand was the "porch." The prefabricated box that
formed the living space took less than half the width of the fort's second
deck. The other half was original, with broad, high openings framing views of
the Gulf, the lighthouse on Loggerhead Key and every sunset. Only two picnic
tables sat between Anna's front door and an uninterrupted view to the end of
the world. "I'm
home," she called as she opened the door to her apartment and banged her
snorkel and fins past the screen. Theoretically she was supposed to confine
herself to the bunkroom on the left, but she'd opened the door to its mirror
image on the other side of the kitchen to make the place larger and more
interesting. It had yet to get her forgiven for denying access to the outdoors. "I'm home.
It's me. Come out," she called hopefully. Just as she was beginning to
believe he'd reconsidered her reprieve and decided to extend her punishment,
Piedmont came trotting out of the forbidden suite, his yellow-ringed tail held
high, the end curved just enough to be stylish. An amber-eyed
yellow tiger, found treed by a Texas flash flood, Piedmont probably hadn't a
drop of Siamese blood in his veins, but he had always been extraordinarily
vocal. As he trotted over to Anna's feet he sounded so much like a fussy old
man carping about his day that she laughed and picked him up to rub all the
right places under his chin. She'd wondered
whether it was a kindness to drag him to the middle of the ocean but, once the
trauma of cat travel was over, she'd congratulated herself every day on the
wisdom of her decision. With a cat in it, a home was never empty. Echoes, like
mice, were frightened from the corners, and loneliness, though still possible,
had blunter teeth. Mutual
admiration firmly established, Anna carried the cat over to the sofa. The
living-room-kitchen area was rectangular, with stove, refrigerator and sink
along the wall overlooking the parade ground. The "living room" was a
chair, couch and coffee table arranged before a huge picture window onto the
shaded brick of the casemate and the ragged-edged brick "window" with
a view of Loggerhead. The furniture was a cut above standard issue—this was,
after all, the Superintendent's quarters—made of light-colored wood with white
canvas cushions. On the low coffee table was Anna's promised loot: letters from
home and the much-discussed box from her sister, Molly. Unable to enjoy
anything till sweat, salt and sand had been rinsed off, Anna showered, slipped
on a short rayon dress—a trick she'd learned living through Mississippi
summers—and sat on the sofa with Piedmont at one elbow and a glass of iced tea
on the end table at the other. Unopened boxes.
Packages that came through the mail. Parcels wrapped in brown paper. She'd
always loved them. For a few seconds she just sat enjoying the anticipation.
Piedmont meowed and butted her in the ribs, then walked prickly-pawed across
her lap, slinking his fat tail beneath her chin. "You think
there's catnip treats in there for you?" she asked, and he meowed again.
"Okay. We open it." From long-standing love, she and Piedmont
pretended to understand one another's language. After so many years together,
maybe they did. Molly was a
belt-and-suspenders sort of woman and had bound the package round with fiber
strapping tape as if she shipped hazardous gas over rough terrain. Anna had to
cut into the package with a carving knife. When she got it open there was no
salt-baked smell of bagels or Styrofoam peanuts heralding fragile toys. In a
thick nest of folded newspaper were two bundles of letters tied up with string,
and a handful of black and white pictures sealed in a sandwich baggie. The letters
looked familiar. They were addressed in a flowing and faded hand to Peggy
Broderick, Warwick, Massachusetts. Anna and Molly's grandmother had been one of
eight children, six of them girls. The eldest, Anna remembered vaguely, was
named Molly. She had raised their grandmother, Peggy, one of the younger
children, after their mother had died. "Unknown causes" was written
in the family Bible. Having borne eight kids, Anna guessed she'd just worn out. The letters and
the pictures were in a cedar chest in the attic during the years Molly and Anna
were growing up. As the eldest, Molly had inherited this scrap of family
history along with the old Bible. They'd probably been moldering in a storage
unit in the basement of her West End Avenue apartment building ever since. The
old chest, originally a hope chest for one of the girls, had been filled with
letters from a time when keeping correspondence was deemed important. These
letters must be a small part of that collection. A crisp,
buff-colored piece of notepaper embossed with the initials M.P, MD rested on
top. Stationery was a weakness of Molly's. Even missives as unprepossessing as
"don't forget to take out the garbage" were often scrawled on paper
so rich and fine Anna could almost smell the sweat of Egyptians laboring in the
papyrus. She took the
note out and read it aloud to the cat, who'd taken the split-second opportunity
as she unfolded it to leap into the open box. Dear Anna, On
hearing you were bored and restless, Frederick reminded me how dearly you love
corpses, murder and mayhem of all kinds. I'm not sure this will fill the bill
but, lacking in blood and edged weapons, it's the best I could do short of
coming down there and killing somebody for your amusement. The letters are to
our great-great-grandmother, Peggy, from her sister, Raffia, who was married to
a captain in the Union Army. For three years he was stationed on that
unprepossessing sand spit upon which you've decided to maroon yourself. In hopes this
will pass the time and keep you out of trouble— Love, Molly "Hah,"
Anna said. "Trouble would have to swim too far to get to me. Out you go
Piedmont." Not willing to
submit to being lifted from the box like a common pest, the cat leapt out.
Having landed neatly on the coffee table, he licked a paw to indicate his
stunning indifference to the box and its contents. Anna took out
the bundles and, for reasons she wasn't sure of, sniffed them. Maybe there was
the faintest scent of cedar or lavender. Because they'd been written when women
wore long dresses and carried parasols, Anna's imagination might have created a
memory of perfume that had evaporated a hundred years before. Each had the return
address: Mrs. Joseph
Coleman Wife of Captain Coleman U.S. Army Fort Jefferson Anna wondered
if Mrs. Coleman's address could have been that simple or if she trusted Peggy
to know where to write her. Anna had never had much interest in family history,
in who had married whom and what year the first had sailed for America. Letters,
handwritten letters, were different. More real because of the immediacy of
connection to the hand that held the pen and, so, the mind that directed the
hand. The string binding
the bundle was new and undeserving of the care advanced to relies. Molly, in
her precise academic way, had arranged the letters, probably by date, oldest
last, unless some more abstruse and recondite pattern had seduced her by its
mere complexity. Anna untied the
string and draped it over Piedmont's head. The cat continued to wash as if she,
the box and the string did not exist. Having removed
the thin pages from the first envelope and unfolded them with care, she began
to read. Dear Peggy, Fort
Jefferson is the crudest of places... 2 Fort Jefferson
is the crudest of places. Poor Tilly. I really couldn't blame her—perhaps I
should say I could not blame her fairly because, Lord knows, the little beast
was getting to be as grating to my nerves as the awful crying she complained
of. "Oh I do
wish he'd pass out or something. It'll ruin everything." She said that for
the sixth time while bent over my dressing table, dousing herself with face
powder that comes dear here in the middle of salty nowhere. Not that I wear it,
Peggy, lest you were thinking I had become a fallen woman at the late great age
of thirty-seven. No, no such wildness. Not that it would avail me anything on
this sand and brick island. Here, thanks to summer storms and high seas keeping
the ships from the dock, I shall be glad if I still have my teeth when I turn
thirty-eight and don't lose them to scurvy. In spite of heat, dirt and the rest
of it she grows more beautiful every day. I couldn't bear it if she lost even a
single tooth. Not to mention what Molly would do to me. When she sent Tilly to
live with us I'm sure she had a far more glamorous life in mind than that which
Fort Jefferson offers. It's no place for a sixteen-year-old girl regardless of
how "hoydenish" she was becoming in Warwick. Just as I was
choosing to be kind to our little sister despite her wastrel ways with my face
powder, another awful wail came in with the wind. It was as if it were a live
thing, one of the ghosts Molly sees and tries to pray back into hell. The window
curtains bellied out, the lamps were set to dancing and the most inhuman sound
crawled up our backs like dead men's fingers. "Raffia,
can't you get Joseph to do something? Knock him on the head or something? Just
till the show's over?" (We were to perform "'Tis True I Have
Flirted," both playing very young girls for comic effect.) With that
compassionate plea, Tilly threw down the powder puff, scattering dust
everywhere. I could hear the precious particles hitting the lamp chimney and
burning, a whispery crinkle at the edges of my mind. Luanne, the woman that
does for us—you remember me mentioning her, a Negro who belonged to Mrs. Dicks,
the lighthouse keeper's wife—will be looking at me with dog's eyes when she has
to clean it up. Because she was born a slave, Luanne never learned to read the
Bible, but she is as good at making me feel guilty as Sister Mary Francis used
to be. "You're a
baby," I told her. "And all of us have spoiled you rotten. Joseph
can't just give an order like that. Who knows what the man did? If he was
caught drinking on sentry duty he could be shot." I have been an army wife
for twenty years. Four of those we were at war. Yet I've never served at a
place where corporal punishment is so swift and brutal as here. Joseph tells me
it's a necessary outgrowth of living at a prison camp. Even here I'd never
heard crying of the like gusting into our rooms. It had that anguished animal
sound of a wild thing dying in a trap. "They oughtn't
be let drink," Tilly said primly. Oh to be a girl again when right and
wrong can be settled by decree. I doubt, were the Union Army comprised utterly
of ladies for temperance armed with rifles, they could keep liquor off Garden
Key. As it is the soldiers crave drink more than do the prisoners. There's
little here for amusement but fishing and becoming drunk. There came
another shriek so sharp and so raw I could not but believe it tore the flesh
from the throat of the man making it. "If he
doesn't quit, I'm going to be sorry he wasn't shot," Tilly announced. Out of
deference to Molly and because Tilly can get a bit above herself, I put on my
big-sisterly voice and told her: "That was unchristian. You confess that
next time Father Burnett comes or you will go to hell." "I'd
probably feel right at home." The little
minx. I almost laughed, but Molly worked so hard to bring us up in the church
after Mother and Daddy died, I didn't have the heart. With my fussing
about Tilly I hope you're not getting the impression I am sorry to have her
here. I am sorry, but only for her. Tilly deserves more from her sixteenth year
than to be marooned on an ugly world full of unhappiness, heat and sickness.
Selfishly I am glad she's come. She is so much company for me. As you know,
Joseph rarely talks—at least not to me. Saving it for his beloved
"men" I suppose. Even the simple right of an army wife to complain
about rations and quarters is denied me. When I see the hardship of the
prisoners and the soldiers I cannot bring myself to enjoy whining about my lot.
The freshest meat and vegetables, the cleanest water (the cisterns beneath the
fort are a dismal failure—salt water leaks in—drinking water must be brought by
barge) come to the officers. We do try our
best to see that the prisoner's lives are bearable. This war has made us keepers—if
not literally, then very nearly so—of our brothers. Joseph's closest friend is
one of the inmates here, Colonel Battersea. As fate would have it, the colonel
was Joseph's instructor at West Point. They became friends when Joseph was a
cadet—the colonel and Mrs. Battersea took him under their wing. Now they are in
opposing armies and my husband's old mentor is his ward. The prisoners
of war are to be released, but no one yet knows when. Colonel Battersea's wife
has a wasting disease, and Joseph has been trying to affect his early release
but has yet to succeed. Where was I? Ah
yes: getting ready for our show. I'd secured the mirror and the lamplight from
Tilly and was setting about trying to blot out with the paint pots the ravages
of the years. I'm still as slim and upright as when last you saw me (being
"condemned to barrenness," as Joseph so kindly puts it, has its
compensations). My hair is no longer strictly light brown. There are marked
incursions of white. But, by parting it left of center and wearing my braids
wrapped round my head I can hide the worst of it. My skin is what gives me away
as very nearly forty. Much as I try, the sun has me looking like the selfsame
field hand Molly used to tell us we'd resemble if we didn't wear our bonnets. For a time I
painted and primped and powdered—my work cut out for me as I've said. Tilly
stood at my shoulder burbling with "compliments": "Oh, Raffia,
you don't look nearly so old with rouge. You know, from a distance, if
only there weren't all that gray in your hair, you could almost play the
part as well as me." At that, I
said, "No thank you. I am perfectly happy to be the shadowy background
against which your brilliance can show all the more brightly." That kept
her from heaping more coals of kindness on my head for a few minutes while she
worked out whether I was being cutting or genuinely humble. Into my
hard-won silence came another of those terrible screams, this one in a dying
fall, almost as if it changed after it was uttered from the cry of a human being
to the wail of the wind through the casemates. It gave me a turn, I don't mind
telling you. I had that sudden cold and shaking sensation Molly told us came
when "a goose steps on your grave." This was most definitely a whole
flock stomping on mine. Tilly slammed the window and the change in the air
upset the light. In the sudden dance of the flames my face didn't look like me. It frightened
me so badly I did the only thing I could think of and yelled at Tilly for
closing the sash with such violence. "I'm going
out there," Tilly yelled back. She stepped behind the screen in the corner
that I use for dressing. Bits of clothing flew over the top. "Don't you
pull your skirt over your head," I warned her. The amount of paint on her
face would ruin the fabric. She stuck her
head out and said: "I'm not having everything spoiled after we've worked
so hard." The fright the last cry had given us sliced years off her. She
sounded like a peevish little girl again but, even through the stage makeup, I
could see, along with fear and selfishness, was compassion. "No you
are not going out there." I snapped back. "This is army business and
no concern of ours." I had been of half a mind to go try and stop the
wailing myself, and not for the good of our theatrical evening. Hearing myself
utter those words: "this is army business and no concern..." decided
me. I cannot tell you how many times over the eighteen years I've been married
I have heard Joseph say exactly those words. Each time I tried to right some
small wrong, help some needful person, or even, God forbid, ask Joseph where
he'd been when he came in at two or three or four o'clock in the morning, he
said: "it's army business and no concern of yours." Of all the
phrases in language and literature, hearing myself parrot that one upset me
nearly as much as anything that had happened heretofore. "We'll
both go," I said. Most everybody
had already gone to the mess hall or was shut up in their quarters getting
ready to go on stage. Still I told Tilly to hush. Luanne had been set to
watching Mrs. Caulley's three children, and I don't know which of the four
shrieked the loudest at not being allowed to watch the entertainment. I was
afraid the sound of our voices would start the weeping and pleading all over
again. Tilly promised
to be "quiet as a mouse," as she has since she was three, but I took
it as a sign she'd matured when she refrained from making those tiny squeaky
mouse sounds as she walked. "We've got
to hurry," I warned. "Major Tanner is making his curtain speech at eight,
and Joel Lane is singing 'Take Me Home' right after," I said quickly.
Calling of Private Lane to mind was oddly prophetic—pathetic—as you shall see
if I ever finish this letter-become-tome. The mention of
Joel's singing stopped her planned argument, as I knew it would. In this
topsy-turvy place where our enemy prisoners are here for more sanguine reasons
than the prisoners of our beloved Union, this story I'm about to tell isn't as
peculiar as it might seem. Both Tilly and
I had taken notice of Private Lane, a prisoner, a Johnny Reb and a
secessionist, when he was set to hauling crushed shell to refurbish the walkway
across the parade ground. Given that litany of his crimes against society, I
was yet to find out the worst. Private Lane is
imminently noticeable. Six foot or taller with black hair, blue eyes and a
smile with no teeth knocked or rotted out of it. Handsome as he is, it's his
voice that docs the damage. Training or natural talent has turned his native
drawl into a weapon I expect few women could resist without effort. I know this
because Tilly, being no better than she should, spoke to him. That might well
have been the end of it, but fate chose to make Private Lane a part of our
lives. Not two days later, the prisoners, along with the engineers and laborers
brought in from New York, were put to hauling eight-inch Columbiads—fearsome
cannons—to the third tier. Raising and placing these great guns is something to
see. Tilly and I and a couple of the other ladies decided to brave the heat of
the day to watch the process. Because
manpower and life are the only things held cheap here, the men were lifting
with block and tackle, using ropes, pulleys and the strength of their backs.
The heat had melted the rules, and the officer in charge allowed the prisoners
to work with their shirts off. As they began lifting the cannon, easily as long
as two men put end-to-end and weighing lord knows how much, the confederate
soldiers started singing. I suppose it
was a song they'd grown up knowing, a working song used by field slaves. The
Negroes on the other lines picked it up, and as they hauled, they sang. A clear
tenor rose, singing counterpoint: Private Joel Lane, muscles bunched, half
naked, voice soaring. Well, Miss
Tilly's breath sucked in so audibly I thought she'd stepped on a nail or a
scorpion till I saw where she looked. When the cannon
was seated and the show at an end, Tilly and I and the rest of the ladies
started down the spiral stairway that connects the tiers in that section of the
fort. Tilly was just ahead of me, not paying attention, and I was focused on
not treading on her skirt tail where she let it drag over the steps. Of a
sudden she says in the most casual of ways how intelligent Private Lane looked. Hah! I, too,
admired his "intelligence" till he put his shirt back on. Three days
after this display of Joel Lane's intellect we were to see him again in a more
intimate setting. As I've
mentioned, this has been a difficult summer. The end of the war but prisoners
(and soldiers) not yet free, the heat, endless storms, bad food and water,
yellow jack and bone-break fever rampant, has morale at a dreadful low. I'd not
thought it could get worse when word came that the Lincoln conspirators were to
be sent here to serve out their sentences. Fort Jefferson is a violent place,
but with this unwelcome bit of news, violence, soldiers on prisoners, Negroes
on whites, unionists on confederates, officers on men, has become epidemic. In an attempt
to raise morale, the post surgeon, Captain Caulley, chose to organize a
theatrical troupe. It was an excellent effort. Much of the agony and anger the
men suffer is borne in boredom. I'm sure Captain Caulley's motives were
altruistic, but it also appealed to him on a practical level. It is he and his
corps who are called upon to attend this increase in gunshots, knife wounds,
broken noses, heads, teeth and knuckles. Joseph, not a lover of the arts in any
of their guises, was in favor of anything that would stop activities that keep
guards and prisoners off the work rosters. In accordance
with the surgeon's plan, the call went. Anyone who had a talent was to report
to the officers' mess after parade the following day. One hundred and
fifty-three men and seven of the women including Tilly and me answered. The men
were excited for the first time in a long while over something other than
gambling or brawling. Private Joel
Lane was among them, with his dark hair and angel voice and, unfortunately, his
shirt. That's the day I learned the worst of him. The boy is not a deserter, a
killer or a thief, but neither is he the son of a rich plantation owner. He is
an actor. Before the war he traveled with his father's theatrical company,
making his living singing in comic operas and playing the female leads in his
father's Shakespearean productions. Needless to
say, Joel was cast in Captain Caulley's production. Because of their matching
youth and beauty, he and Tilly were given a romantic duet in the third part of
our entertainment. I immediately volunteered to play accompaniment on the
harpsichord and have watched them ever since with a hawklike intensity that
would do Molly proud. This, then, is
why I'd invoked Private Lane's name to get Tilly through quarters and to the
parade ground quickly and quietly. There are no
rules about where the women here can go—or very few at any rate. The
laundresses often go to the cells of prisoners whose families send them money
to pay for laundry and such. The prisoners are, of course, paid for the labor
they do in building the fort, and the women will walk to the store on the quay
to buy their necessaries. I've never felt any fear moving around the fort,
night or day. This night was
markedly different. Perhaps I'd not completely shaken the chill I'd felt at the
last cry. Or perhaps it was the edges of the storm that flirted with us,
though, Lord knows, I've had plenty of experience with weather of all kinds
here. The parade ground was empty. I've seldom seen it empty. On an island not
more than ten acres—not large enough for the fort, the moat extends into the
sea itself—with eight to twelve hundred souls, there simply is no space where
one can be truly alone. This night the parade ground was uninhabited but for
the wind, which was fitful and sudden. The walkway out
from the officers' quarters is edged along both sides with whitewashed
cannonballs. It can look quite grand—or as grand as we can muster here. Either
my fancy or the moonlight twisting through the scudding clouds tricked my eyes
and, for a moment, they appeared as human skulls. Few of the closed
casemates showed lights at their small windows, and the open casemates looked
blacker than black. The unfinished barracks and armory looked ready to come to
life, great unimaginable beasts but with claws and fangs. Add to this the
skittery racket made by the wind through the dry palm fronds tossing in sudden
frantic life then falling silent as if the winds of all the world had died
forever and perhaps you'll understand my uncharacteristic drama. "Don't
they look like a bunch of skulls all laid out in a line by some demented
ogre?" Tilly said. Hearing her
echo my unpleasant thought, I nearly jumped out of my skin. To comfort myself
and bring us back to the ordinary, I pinched her arm hard enough to make her
squawk. I marched her firmly forward. She balked and said: "Maybe this
isn't proper behavior for the wife and sister-in-law of a commanding
officer." Apparently I was not the only one suffering from the megrims. I
suppose she, too, felt the whispering of demons and bones. However, I had no
intention of letting her wriggle out after she had pestered me half to death
about the whole thing not three minutes before. I said, with
what I think you would agree was laudable courage, "Let's get this over or
it will be you and not the screaming that spoils the show." Holding on to
Tilly both for comfort and control, I hurried us down the walk and into the
blinding shadow under the stand of palms between the officers' quarters and the
sally port. I had little doubt but that was where the moaning had emanated from.
It's there and behind the unfinished armory nearby most of the corporal
punishments are carried out. I'm not sure
what impelled me at this juncture. Tilly would have been willing to abandon the
project. Certainly I had no notion of righting wrongs, changing army ways or,
heavens forefend, be thanked for trying. Base curiosity of the variety that
kills cats must account for it. "Watch
your step," I whispered. "With all the construction there's bound to
be nails. You don't want to step on one and get lockjaw because—" "Because
you'd have to knock out my front teeth to feed me and, with no teeth, nobody
will marry me and I'll end up an old maid like Molly," Tilly finished for
me. I suppose I
said some such before, but I'm sure I never added the part about being an old
maid. There are worse fates to be sure. Her mimicry of me was so perfect I was
hurt despite being used to Tilly being Tilly. "When did
I get so old?" I said. One should never ask a question to which one does
not wish to hear the answer. "It was having
those miscarriages one after the other for years and years." "There'll
be the guard now," I said. We were near to the sally port and I had no
intention of pursuing the subject of my age and failures. "Hello the
gate," I called. No one
responded. The prickly feeling at the back of my neck returned. First the
abandoned parade ground, now no sentries at the gate. The moaning began to
build after what had been a comparatively long respite. The fretful wind gusted
into the stone and brick cavern that provides egress from the fort. Flames in
the lamps secured there jumped then died. In that brief flash I saw—or thought
I saw—what caused the crying. I ceased to
wonder the sounds seemed inhuman. The mouth that made them was not a human
mouth. Tilly started
toward the wavering light. I grabbed her. "Stay back," I hissed. I
was not quick enough. 3 Anna laid the
curling pages on her knees. The paper was as thin as dried leaves, and she'd
been holding them too tightly. Her thumb and forefinger had pinched a faint
crease in the upper righthand corner. For a moment she sat without moving,
without thinking, just taking in the space: Piedmont asleep at her side, throat
up, eyes covered with his paws, the sharp contrast of blinds and sunlight
striping the window over the sink, the smooth glow of terra-cotta floor tile
unifying the living spaces. A sense of having awakened from a strange dream and
not knowing where she was pervaded her. Quietly she waited till reality—or the
reality the National Park Service paid her to inhabit—reformed around her. When the room
had solidified, she rose, careful not to disturb the sleeping cat, and crossed
to the window that looked down on the parade ground. For a fleeting instant she
was surprised that the enlisted men's barracks were gone, the officers' mess,
the formal walk with its edging of cannonballs. The moment passed and she was
relieved to see the tree-spotted expanse of sunburned grass, the casemates,
arches open to the parade ground, gun ports opening on the sea, filled with
nothing but light and shadow. The park had a
permanent, live-in staff of seven people. There'd been days Anna couldn't stand
the crowd and fled to the sea. In 1865 there'd been eight to twelve hundred
people in residence. The thought, filling her mind as it did with unwashed
bodies and gabbling voices, made an involuntary shudder run through her.
Perhaps some race memory of the place had come down through her maternal
bloodline. She ate apples
and peanut butter for supper and went to bed at eight-thirty. Outside it was
still daylight. Her
great-great-aunt Raffia's letter followed her into sleep and manifested itself
in confused scenes of Jefferson by torchlight, actors in blackface, her teeth
falling out to scurvy and, once, the pounding whump of cannon fire that brought
her close to consciousness till the ill-lit and flickering past dragged her
down into sleep again. Anna woke
because somebody was in her room. Out from the darkness a voice whispered,
"Anna, Anna, Anna." Furtive fingers jabbed at her arm and shoulder.
Perhaps Anna was slow to wake from reverie, but from sleep, never. Fast as a
fish flipping on a line, she was off her stomach and half sitting. The poking
hand had been caught at the wrist and bent back. The whisper shifted to:
"You're hurting me. It's Teddy, Teddy Shaw." Anna let go of
her gentle marauder and switched on the lamp by the bedside. Opposite, on the
top bunk, she could just see Piedmont's orange eyes from behind a bulwark of
pillows. Some watchcat. "What're
you doing? Why didn't you knock?" Anna grumbled as she pulled a tee shirt
from the floor and dragged it on for decency's sake. "I didn't
want to startle you," Teddy said, rubbing her wrist. On the island,
Anna'd never thought to lock her doors to protect herself. Maybe she would start
locking them to protect others. "What is
it?" "Bob's not
back." Anna plucked up
the black plastic travel alarm that lived on the bed stand. Four forty.
"He was off duty—" "At
midnight. He was off at midnight. He's not back. Four hours and forty minutes.
He's not back. I just woke up and was still by myself." "Did he
call in?" Anna picked her radio up out of the charger behind the clock,
and clicked down the mike button. As Teddy was
saying, "He last radioed around eight," Anna was calling
"Five-eight-one, five-eight-zero." Three times she repeated first
Bob's call number and then her own. "No
answer," she said unnecessarily. "Did you try calling him after
eight?" Teddy had
seated herself, not on the bunk opposite but on the foot of the narrow bed Anna
slept in, apparently needing to be close. Her wide bottom pinned down the
covers, trapping Anna's legs, and she had to make a conscious effort not to
kick free. Teddy shook her
head. "No. Bob doesn't like me calling him unless it's an emergency
because he could be in the middle of something and me calling might compromise
it. And when he's watching something he'll turn his radio clear off. You know
how it is. A call at the wrong time could blow your cover." In her
years—and years—with the park service Anna'd only had a "cover" a
couple of times. Bob evidently found, created or imagined such situations often
enough he and his wife had developed a system for handling them. "Better
let me up," Anna said, nudging to be free of the mummy bag Teddy had
inadvertently made of her covers. Teddy stood obediently. Anna got up and began
dragging on the pieces of her uniform that were scattered on bunks, floor and
bedposts. "What did
he call in at eight for?" Anna asked. She must have heard the call but she
had no recollection of it. Chances were, absorbed in her great-great-aunt's
letter, part of her mind had registered that the call was not for her and
filtered it out as background noise. "He said
he had something going and wouldn't be home for supper." Teddy's voice was
muddled. Anna stopped fussing with the Velcro on Velcro adjustment of her duty
belt and looked up. The woman's face was muddled as well. Fear and pride and
quirks of what could be defiance or dishonesty banged into each other till
Teddy wore the face of an angry child who sees a treat and cannot choose
between wailing or snatching. Anna stepped
into her deck shoes. "Did he say what he had going, boat names or where he
was located?" "He
wouldn't have wanted that transmission intercepted," Teddy said, pride momentarily
winning out over whatever else boiled beneath her skin. "Well
nobody did, at least not us," Anna said bitterly and pushed down a number
of derogatory comments about Buffalo Bob that came to mind. No sense in beating
up the man's wife. "I guess we start our search at the dock. "I'm going
to get Danny and Mack up," she told Teddy. Mack was the island's other
maintenance man and the one in charge of keeping the six big generators running
so the fort had lights, air conditioning, water pressure and phone service.
Both he and Daniel were good boatmen and held manner's licenses. "You get
on the radio and call the coast guard. Tell them we've a boat and ranger five
hours overdue and to please stand by. Tell them we are starting a rudimentary
search now." "Rudimentary?"
Teddy's back went up as she prepared to do battle for Bob's right to a
full-scale operation, and Anna realized she'd gotten caught up in logistics and
forgotten that the object of this exercise was Teddy's husband. "Sorry to
be barking orders," she said, masking her need to be moving with
gentleness. "Rudimentary is because of the darkness. We won't be able to
see much—just maybe a boat if it's disabled or something like that. But I don't
want to wait till first light to move on this." "I'll get
on to the coast guard." Teddy left two steps ahead of Anna. Before
rejecting the mainstream for the Dry Tortugas and Bob Shaw, Teddy had been head
nurse in an emergency room in Miami. Anna had never seen her under pressure
before. Admiring her control and competence, she could see why she'd risen to
the top of her profession at a relatively early age. Because of her background
and training, Lanny Wilcox had gotten permission to let her set up the fort's
"hospital," a room with a clean bed, a sink and what emergency
medical supplies they had. It crossed Anna's mind as they clattered down the
wooden staircase into the parade ground to tell Teddy to make sure the hospital
was ready to receive Bob, should he need medical attention, but she thought
better of it. It would only alarm Teddy unnecessarily and, if she hadn't kept
the hospital stocked and functioning before now, it would be too late. "You wake
up Cliff and Linda," Anna named the captain and first mate of the Activa,
the NPS supply boat that had come in that afternoon. "Tell them we
need eyes. Tell them to get their dive gear off their boat. We may need it when
it gets light." "Then call
the coast guard," Teddy said without slowing or turning around. "Right." Off the last
step, Teddy broke into a jog as she cut across the parade ground. The moon was
just coming on full, and the dry grass shone light as beach sand. The fort
walls were silvered, and the empty arches so black the shadows looked to be
made of solid matter. Anna turned
right, following the brick path along the ground-level casemates. The southern
side of the fort was closed to visitors. The open casemates contained machinery
and supplies needed to keep the fort up and running. Three were dedicated to
Mack's generators, and two had been enclosed to make employee quarters. Danny
lived in the first of these. The two he inhabited had the arches walled up with
lumber weathered and in need of paint. A hopelessly modern door with a screen
finished off the defacement of history. Anna banged on it soundly. A moment or two
and a dim light appeared in the kitchen window, probably from Danny's bedroom.
Not more than thirty seconds passed, but Anna was about to knock again when he
opened the door. In place of a standard bathrobe, the maintenance man wore a
Japanese kimono, black koi on a field of white that gave his stalwart form the
look of a particularly deadly samurai. "Yeah.
What is it? What time is it?" "The
middle of the night," Anna said. "Bob never came home from his shift.
I need you to take out one of the boats. We'll be looking for big stuff, the Bay
Ranger or chunks of it. At first light we'll get a better idea. You
dive?" "Not on
purpose." "Okay. I'm
getting Mack. Meet us at the dock." "Got
it." William
Macintyre's quarters were next, nearer the office by the generator rooms. His
lights were on. Anna hoped he wasn't up because he was drinking. She didn't
know Mack well—he'd been on vacation the first eight days of her stay at
Jefferson—but she'd served in enough isolated posts to know that alcohol was a
fairly standard form of entertainment in National Parks. He answered at
her first knock. But for shoes and socks he was dressed in a pair of Levi's
torn out at the knee and a tee shirt. Mack looked the part of a mechanic. His
hands and forearms were scarred from years of working with engines. Black
grease was ingrained in the flesh around his nails and the cracks across the
pads of his fingers. His clothes smelled faintly of burnt oil and stale
gasoline. Like Daniel, he wore a full beard but kept his close-cropped over a
box-and-bone jaw. Hair grew in white in places as if it covered old injuries.
Though not yet forty, he was nearly bald. The fringe of hair remaining was
scraped back into a stringy ponytail. "You're up
late," Anna said. "What of
it?" His voice cracked as if his mouth and throat had gone dry. Anna looked
past the hostility in his light brown eyes. He was cranky but apparently sober.
She explained the situation. "I'm
taking the Atlantic Ranger. Nobody screws with it but me." "Okay,"
Anna said neutrally. He started to
make more demands but instead let his square jaw break in a smile, and his
fingers ran over his scalp, remembering the hair that had once flourished
there. "Hey. Sorry. Don't think I'm always such an asshole. Bad night's all." He wanted Anna
to ask him why "bad" but she had neither the time nor the
inclination. Warm and fuzzy wasn't a management style she had much truck with. "They
happen. Meet us at the dock. Five minutes." "No
problem." Before his door
closed, his sudden rudeness and equally unexpected capitulation were forgotten.
Anna's brain was churning out lists of equipment needed. Her eyes saw only the
black water and the grid search she drew over it, dividing it into sectors, one
for each of the boats. The office door
was ajar, light pouring out. Anna stepped inside. Teddy was just returning from
the gloomy recesses where the main radio was housed. The handhelds hadn't the
power to reach the mainland. Those calls had to be made from the office, where
the radio was hooked to the repeater atop the fort's walls. "The coast
guard has a cutter two hours north of here. It's heading this way," Teddy
said. "I said
stand by," Anna replied sharply. Teddy was not
intimidated. "They were
scheduled to hit Key West tomorrow. They started early is all." "You'll
ride with me. You need anything not in the first-aid kit on the Reef Ranger,
get it now and meet me at the dock." Teddy swung an
orange medical kit out of the shadows at her side. She'd anticipated and done
her packing. The men were
already at the boats. Mack had the Atlantic Ranger's engine running and
was perched on the bench in front of the wheel, putting on his shoes. He must
have sprinted barefoot to reach the water before Anna. She was
unimpressed. "Not a fucking footrace," she muttered. "What?"
Teddy was at her heels. "Nothing."
Anna made a mental note to calm down, breathe. The situation was crawling up
her spine. She didn't want it fogging her thinking. Intentionally slowing her
pace, she arrived on the dock, breathed in and out slowly, and took stock of
her resources. Danny was
there, bulky and reassuring. Cliff, the tall, lean, gray-haired,
gentleman-captain of the Activa, sat on a piling looking alert and
interested, his long-fingered hands folded serenely in his lap. Cliff had the
most boating experience of the group. Anna'd never asked his age, but it was probably
closer to seventy than sixty. For all his years on the sea, he looked more like
an English professor than an old salt. Everything about him suggested the hush
of libraries and leather-bound books. Linda, the Activa's first mate,
stood next to him, her short blond hair in spikes. She was no taller than Anna
but probably a good deal stronger. Linda was the best diver the park had, and
it showed in the sculpt of her shoulders and calves. Too many years under a
tropical sun had tanned her skin like fine saddle leather. First order of
business was to catch Mack's eye and draw her finger across her throat. He cut
his engine as if he'd been expecting the request. Despite the heat, faint
wraiths of steam rose from the Atlantic. In the back of her mind, Anna
made a note to have Danny check it. Clearly it was running too hot. She gave
the quiet a moment to settle their scattered thoughts, then spelled out what
she needed. The Bay
Ranger, the boat Bob took on patrol, was not in its slip. The first
question was answered: Bob had not returned to the fort. If they found him, it
would be at sea. The Reef and
Atlantic Rangers, both twenty-five-foot Boston Whalers, and the researcher's
boat, the Curious, a twenty-foot Maco, would be captained by Anna, Mack
and Danny, respectively. Running the spotlights and acting as a second pair of
eyes: Teddy on the Reef with Anna, Cliff with Mack and Linda on the Curious with
Daniel. One hundred
square miles: on the map it didn't appear that sizable. For three small boats
searching at night, the area was formidable. Anna divided it into rectangles,
east, central and west. She and Teddy went west; Mack and Cliff took the
middle; Danny and Linda the eastern third. The plan was simple: mentally lay a
grid over the sector and drive the boats in a zigzag pattern along imaginary
lines. Having cleared
the harbor, Anna pushed the throttle till the boat planed, and steered
southwest past Loggerhead Key. The search was
to be blessed with absolutely flat water. The air was so still and warm and wet
it felt as if it had knit together, forming a heavy blanket that crushed the
movement of the ocean. The Atlantic lay still as a pool in a deep cavern. Water
and sky were tropical ink, the stars and the moon startlingly bright by
contrast. Teddy stood
beside Anna. The moon was several days past full, but with clear sky above and
glittering sea below it gave the illusion of much light. Its cool silver touch
thinned Teddy's face and collected in shadows under her usually invisible
cheekbones. Straight, proud, grim and unspeaking, her hair slipping behind her
in a wind of their own making, she looked every inch the courageous yet tragic
heroine. Anna wondered if she played out a role in the fantasy she and her
husband so assiduously cultivated. The uncharitable thought that the Shaws,
craving heroics and acts of derring-do, had staged this whole disappearance for
the twisted fun of it—a ranger version of Munchausen's syndrome—crossed Anna's
mind. They reached
the buoy marking the southwestern boundary of the park. Anna cut her engines
and showed Teddy how to work the searchlight, moving it in slow arcs aimed low
to pick up shadows of anything floating on the water's surface. Then, engine
just above idle, they started the painstaking process of searching. Twice they
spotted floating objects. Both were lobster traps. Outside park boundaries,
lobster fishermen laid their lines; traps on the ocean floor tied one to
another with floating buoys to mark where they lay. Storms, faulty lines and
ships' propellers routinely set the traps and buoys free to drift into park
waters. Anna dutifully hauled them onboard. Disposing of them was
problematical. Already Fort Jefferson had a pile the size of a Sherman tank in
one of the casemates. The only way to get rid of the Styrofoam floats was to
get somebody to haul them to the mainland. Cliff and Linda weren't anxious to
add garbage scow to the Activa's resume. Lobster traps
were the sum total of excitement until they'd worked north past Loggerhead and
a faint green-gray light on the eastern horizon suggested sunrise. Then they
got a call from Danny. "Got
something," he said succinctly. "What?"
Anna radioed back. Never
particularly disciplined on the airwaves, Danny replied: "A whole
shit-load. Oil. Flotsam. We're about three-quarters of a mile west of East Key.
Better get on over here. We'll flash our light." "Oh,
God," Teddy murmured. Her stoicism evaporated and, with it, Anna's doubts
about the veracity of Bob's disappearance. Had the Shaws planned a bit of
theatrics, oil and flotsam obviously hadn't factored in. "Easy,"
Anna said. "We don't know what Danny found. Could be a spill from a
passing tanker." Lame, she thought and pushed the throttle forward
heading east. Within minutes, Teddy spotted Danny's light flashing. Anna
adjusted her course accordingly. Over the radio, just under the burr of engine
noise, she heard Danny calling Mack to make sure he and Linda had gotten the
message. As they neared
the Curious, she slowed to a crawl and told Teddy to work the
searchlight. Faint and iridescent, a sheen of oil spread across the water,
breaking into toxic rainbows in the wake of the Reef Ranger. Pieces of
flotsam running with petroleum-induced colors floated in the mess, as did
other, less identifiable bits of what had presumably been a boat. "Holy
smoke," Anna muttered. "It didn't just sink, it was blown to kingdom
come." Teddy had her
knuckles shoved in her mouth to stop her emotions from bleating forth. In the
backwash of the light Anna caught the liquid glitter of tears. Teddy's eyes
glowed, large and unsettling, like an animal's in the night. Anna put the
engine into reverse and stopped their forward motion. The engine stilled, she
took the searchlight from Teddy and began slow, sweeping arcs across the greasy
black water. From Danny's boat Linda let her searchlight follow Anna's,
doubling the wattage. The sheen of oil was thin and would dissipate in an hour
or more, scattering itself till it would be detectable only to sensitive
instruments. That it was still obvious to the naked eye could be accounted for
by the fact that sea and sky were preternaturally still. The disturbance from
the Reef Ranger's arrival continued to move under the mess, though at a
greater distance now, like ripples on a pond. "Not much
left," Danny said of what they were assuming had once been a boat. Though the Reef
and the Curious were fifty or sixty feet apart, in the absolute
silence he sounded so close Anna's skin twitched like a horse's when a fly
alights. "Not
much," she agreed. The lights were
picking out only hits and fragments: fiberglass, wood. A ship's line, made to
float and bright screaming yellow, caught the light so suddenly it seemed to
snake through the oil. "Line,"
Linda said unnecessarily. To Anna's knowledge the first mate neither smoked nor
drank strong liquor, but her voiced rasped, bourbon over gravel, like a
skid-row actor. "I see
it." "We got a
piece of hull," Danny said. "See if you can spot it for 'em, Linda.
It wasn't one of ours. Not white. Green. Kind of a glittery metallic bottle
green like those newer speedboats got. I don't think it was Bob went
down." Beside her Anna
heard a low mewling cry, barely audible and the first sound Teddy Shaw had made
since Danny radioed. "Look."
Linda pointed with her light south of the circle of oil. "Not the hull but
something." The sun had crept closer to the horizon, chasing faint
pink-and-gold light ahead to reflect off the water. Against this backdrop,
Linda's keen eyes had spotted a shape. The Reef was
closest. "I'll get it," Anna said. Having started
the engine, she backed slowly away from the slick, wanting to disturb things as
little as possible. She motored up close, and Teddy lifted the thing out of the
water with a boat hook and dropped it on deck. "A life jacket," Anna
called to the Curious. "Not one
of ours," Teddy said, and Anna could hear the relief Teddy'd not had the
courage to feel till tangible proof it was not her husband's boat was in her
hands. "Whoever
it belonged to wasn't wearing it. Straps are intact, buckles unbroken,"
Anna said. "Probably shoved under a seat and blown free in the
explosion." "Bob
always wears his. Always," Teddy said. Hope was added to the relief, and
Anna was glad for her. Bob religiously
wore a personal flotation device. It wasn't standard issue but one of those
sleek little jobs that rest at the small of the back. It would keep him afloat
but had to be deployed. If he were unconscious when he hit the water it would
prove nothing but an additional anchor dragging him to the bottom. The hum of an
approaching boat caught Anna's attention. She threaded back around the cabin to
the radio and called the Atlantic Ranger. "Mack,"
she said when he'd answered. "We've got oil and flotsam. Looks like a boat
blew up, burned to waterline and sank. It's not the Bay Ranger. No sign
of Bob or his boat. You and Cliff keep looking. Linda and I'll dive on this as
soon as the light gets a little stronger." Silence
followed, then a couple clicks of the mike as Mack fingered it. "We'll
need to give you a hand with that," he said finally. "Linda and
I'll take a look. If we need you or Cliff to help with the underwater work,
I'll give you a call." Another
silence, then: "Ten-four." The National Park Service had abandoned
the ten codes years before, choosing plain speaking for their radio
communications, but some of the numbers, ten-four for "okay" and
ten-twenty for "location" had become so ingrained in everyday language
that they persisted. Anna could
understand Mack's reticence to continue the search. In a post so isolated the
arrival of groceries and mail was considered a grand occasion it would be hard
to be turned away from a bonefide adventure. Quicker than thought, she sent a
prayer down to Poseidon that this would prove to be the peak of the day's
excitement and that Bob would turn up unharmed and with a good excuse for his
nocturnal wandering. She doubted her prayer would be heard. Bob was a stickler
for rules. If he were alive, he would have radioed in. The usual reasons for a
man staying out all night didn't apply at Fort Jefferson. The only single women
near enough for an assignation were the lighthouse keepers on Loggerhead Key
and Donna and Patrice not only outweighed and towered over Ranger Shaw but had
eyes only for each other. For the
duration of the dive, Anna abdicated leadership to Linda. For Anna, scuba
diving was a sport. On several occasions, the most notable being in the icy
waters of Lake Superior, she'd gone on difficult or dangerous dives, but
compared to the first mate of the Activa she was a neophyte. Linda had
participated in and led dives all over the world. She had rescued other divers,
recovered bodies and searched for sunken treasure. Treasure was one of the lures
that had brought her, finally, to the Dry Tortugas, a major shipping lane
during the days when Spanish galleons were heavy with gold plundered from the
Incas and the Aztecs. Today would
have more to do with bodies than booty, Anna suspected. Or, worse, pieces of
bodies. Whole corpses didn't bother her much, but bits here and there were a
tad unsettling. And, though she would never admit it even to herself, she
wasn't all that gung ho to go flippering around in what might amount to
fisherman soup. The Reef was
rafted off the Curious, and Anna and Teddy joined Linda and Danny on the
research boat. Danny had backed it up to be well clear of the oil slick so the
divers wouldn't foul their gear or get petroleum on the neoprene of their wet
suits when they went over the side. As Anna and Linda donned dive suits and
scuba gear, the sun sprang from the sea. In these latitudes there was little
twilight; day and night were sudden and complete. While Anna buckled and tugged
and checked equipment, Linda went through her safety spiel. Wrecks, especially
recent wrecks, were notoriously unstable. It was possible parts of it could
still be burning. The women took a moment to rehearse the rudimentary hand
signals: help, look and go to the surface. Then they rolled off the gunwale
into the water. Because the air temperature had yet to rise with the sun, the
water was a few degrees warmer and the initial plunge felt good, like the first
immersion in a warm bath. Suddenly weightless and warm, Anna felt her muscles
relax and her mind empty of the surface's fussy thoughts. The sun low,
water made murky by the recent disturbance, the bottom was a mottled dark area
seen through a fog of particulate matter. Anna guessed the depth at around
thirty or forty feet. The boat they sought had gone down in what was considered
deep water in the shallow, reef-filled park. Just to the east of the boundary
line the ocean floor dropped thousands of feet down a sheer wall. Quicker to get
oriented, Linda gestured "follow me." Her fins, long and sleek, were
of that strange neon color cities had taken to painting fire trucks in the late
seventies, a shade between yellow and lime. Not pretty but surprisingly
visible. Anna followed their flicking toward where the boat had exploded,
burned and, presumably, sunk. Visibility got
worse, but not by much. A lot of the particles had settled. The blast must have
come early on, between midnight and two or three in the morning. Any earlier
and someone at the fort would have heard and reported it. Swimming along in this
sea of thoughts and other flotsam it occurred to Anna that someone had heard
it. She'd heard it. It had almost awakened her. Tangled in dreams of the Civil
War brought on by Great-Great-Aunt Raffia's letter, her unconscious mind had
transmuted it into cannon fire. There was no way to prove that had been the
case but, looking back, Anna was pretty sure it was. The knowledge was of
little practical value. Not having fully awakened, she had no idea what time
she'd heard the explosion. Doesn't matter,
she
told herself. Boat fires were stunningly fast. Even if she'd leapt from her bed
and sprinted to the Reef Ranger, this boat would have burned to
waterline before she could have reached it. And Bob? That thought
Anna pushed away. Too little information yet for self-recrimination. The iridescent
fins ahead of her stopped. Anna kicked to where Linda hung, suspended fifteen
feet above the ocean floor. Beneath them was what remained of the boat whose
blood sheened the surface. Guessing from the mess scattered over broken coral
reefs, it had been a cigarette-type boat, long and lean and fast; basically
huge engines and fuel tank housed in a bullet-shaped fiberglass body. This one
was larger than most Anna had seen; maybe thirty feet long when it was in one
piece. At present, fragments of it were strewn over an area three times that. It looked as
though the blast had been centered around the engine compartment. The stern had
been severed from the rest of the hull and lay at an awkward angle against a
coral boulder. The living coral was gouged by the impact and scored by
propeller blades. Jagged chunks of ripped and melted fiberglass reached around
what had been a bench seat and was now a lump of charred plastic. A bright
orange personal flotation device was tethered to it. Buoyant innards trailed
out like intestines from a mutilated trunk. One of the straps had caught on the
twisted fiberglass, condemning the float to death by drowning. Thirty feet
away was the foreshortened bow section. Two cabin doors of clamshell design
like those in cowboy saloons had been ripped away. One lay on the
sand near the wreck, the other was still attached by a length of metal or
fiberglass. The rectangle opening into the boat's low-ceilinged cabin was
twisted until it resembled a door drawn by a very small child; the lines bent
and blurred, none of the corners square. A scrap of cloth—pant leg or
sleeve—reached out from the dark interior. Because the water was still, it did
not wave or sway but stood out, a flag in a still life. Surrounding the
two major pieces of the wreck, lying on white sand, scattered across coral, sea
fans, sponges and stone, were the shattered remains of the boat's midsection.
Much of it was mangled to the point that it was unrecognizable. Here and there
were the bizarre anomalies that often accompany tornadoes and explosions. A
boat hook, purposely blunt and attached to a long pole, had been thrown clean
as a javelin into the sand, its haft sticking up, a piece of paper neatly
skewered by the head. The lens of a running light, detached from the hull but
otherwise unharmed, lay fifteen feet from the main wreck gleaming ruby-bright,
dead center in a circle of green coral. The Dry
Tortugas's underwater camera rode in a zippered nylon pouch attached to Anna's
web gear. She took it out. Even from a distance of twenty feet the photos would
not be good. The water was cloudy and the light weak. Later she would take
clearer shots, but she wanted to record the lay of the wreck in case anything
should shift once they began fiddling with the pieces. After the first
couple shots Linda tugged her wrist and pointed. Anna's gaze followed the other
diver's finger to the forward section of the wreck. The small movements of
their fins had moved through the viscous world and finally reached the frozen
flag flying from the ruined cabin doorway. The fabric, mottled black and
yellow, possibly partially burned, was waving ever so faintly. The motion had
disarranged the original drape, exposing what looked very like a forefinger and
thumb. The two of them
began swimming slowly in the direction of the bow. Anna dearly hoped the hand
was connected to an arm and the arm to a body with another arm, legs, head and
whatnot attached. And she wished she had diving gloves; there was probably
going to be slimy bits coming up. They stopped
again, hovering just above and in front of the door. Linda touched
Anna's shoulder, pointed to the wreck and waggled her hand back and forth,
reminding Anna that the pieces of the boat were possibly unsteady and could
fall, crushing or tapping an unwary diver. Linda's short
blond hair stood out from her head, moving with strange life lent by the sea.
Her mouth was distorted and swollen with the froggy humanness shared by the
creature from the black lagoon and scuba divers with their mouthpieces in
place. Her light blue eyes, crinkled by lines that usually reassured Anna of a
life led in sunlight and laughter, were exaggerated by her mask. A slow leak
pooled salt water—an ocean of tears—high on her cheeks. For an instant,
no less powerful because short-lived, a cold fear swept through Anna; a child
awakening in a nightmare made more real by the light of day. Anna watched
her own hand float up, finger and thumb making the okay sign, letting Linda
know she'd gotten the message. The rift between the dimension of Dean Koontz
and Jacques Cousteau was healed as quickly as it had formed. The fear was gone. Rough night, Anna excused it
to her self. Overtired. She kicked once
and moved to the segmented hull. At a show of her palm, the universal signal
for halt, Linda stayed back. Because of Linda's superior skill in the water,
Anna had been glad to abdicate leadership during the diving. When it came to
risk taking, she couldn't. Storms, currents and reefs were Linda's nemeses. At
present, this tippy, murdered vessel with its one flailing human arm, was
Anna's responsibility. Reaching the
top left corner of the cabin, Anna steadied herself on the wreck and looked
toward the bow. Keeled over, tilting cabin and deck at a sixty- or seventy-degree
angle up from the sandy bottom, the bow was wedged between two upthrusts of
coral. From the damage both to the animals and the boat's underside, Anna
guessed she had been driven between the coral boulders with a degree of force,
enough to shove the bow into the sandy bottom. Anna shook the
boat experimentally. It didn't budge. She pushed it from several more angles
without dislodging anything. Partially reassured it wasn't a death trap just
waiting to slam shut on her claustrophobic little self, she swam back to the
cabin door, to the fingers protruding from the torn fabric. Linda still hung in
the water fifteen feet away. A first mate—and captain when Cliff was sick or on
vacation—she was good both at the giving and the taking of orders. Anna removed the
camera from its pocket and clicked pictures: north, east, south and west of the
bow section and one close-up of the finger-fringed fabric floating in front of
her nose. Record made, she returned the camera to its niche and kicked a bit
closer to examine the beckoning flesh. "Finger-fringed" was
unpleasantly apt. What they'd seen was not a thumb and forefinger but a ring
finger and the avulsed half of the middle finger. The yellow was not a sleeve
but possibly the torso of a tee shirt peeled from the body by the blast and
blown out along the arm. There was a wrist, Anna was relieved to note, and part
of a forearm leading back to an anchor of some sort. A body, it was to be
hoped. Gently, Anna turned the new-made relic. From the look of it, the arm had
belonged to a man. Much of the flesh was burned or excised by the explosion,
but the ribbons remaining were coarse-skinned and the few hairs not scorched
off were coarse and black. Bracing herself
against the cabin, she reached toward the underwater light at her waist. Head
bent toward the hook connecting the flashlight to her buoyancy compensator, she
sensed rather than saw darkness descending, an eclipse of the pale watery sun.
With a grinding noise that was felt as well as heard the tortured fiberglass
fell away beneath her hand. The hulk, steady moments before, rolled with the
impetuosity of submerged matter. Under the grinding filling her ears and
grating on her bones came Linda's close-mouth scream, a weak mermaid's siren. Pushing at the
environment with hands and flippered feet, Anna scuttled backward in the
tradition of octopi but without the grace. The heel of her right foot banged
into coral, and the cabin rolled down. Through the silt and particles, through
the luminous and shifting green of the sky, a ton of fiberglass, wood and metal
moved. White and bottle green, a wall toppling, a twisted and melting
cliff-face. Again Anna
kicked. Her right leg didn't move but jerked, a spasm as before sleep. The hull
rolled onto her swim fin, trapping it and her toes in a vicelike grip. Bubbles,
sand, a fog of minute coral deaths, destroyed her vision. Light and dark
remained. Dark was fast falling, the cabin roof closing on the boulder where
Anna wiggled, bait on a hook. Panic tickled inside her brain, urging her to rip
off the blinding mask, tear away the regulator with its claustrophobic life
support. Training shaped panic to fear. Fear escalated to instinct. The flashlight
fell into shadow. The dive knife strapped to Anna's calf found her palm. The
blade slid into the top of her fin and with a slash her foot was cut free. She
kicked back and up. The cabin rolled, keel looming into view sharp as a harrow,
a kaleidoscope of ruin. The hard edge of the still-attached cabin door clawed
at Anna's thigh, scraped down over her knee. Ignoring the pain, Anna pushed off
the underside of the wreck. The moment she
was free and safe, the movement stopped. Panting, bubbles and noise billowing
out of her regulator, mask beginning to fog from internal heat, Anna suffered a
horror that this was personal: the insensate, ruined hulk had wanted to kill
her. Fear, no less intense because unrealistic, pushed up from her stomach in
cold nauseating waves. Into the
glittering cloud of air bubbles came Linda's face, pulled out of human shape by
the dive gear. Thoughts of monsters from the black or any other lagoon were
gone; for one rare moment Anna was comforted just not to be alone. Her heart
slowed, her breathing began to return to normal. The fear was too much, too
hard. Then Anna realized she must have coupled the rolling cabin with being
trapped in the dark under nearly two hundred feet of ice-cold water nearly ten
years before, experienced that fear for this. As good an
explanation as any, she told herself. Evils sufficient unto the day. With the help
of Linda's work-lined face, Anna pulled herself rapidly back together. Linda
was signing but Anna's brain was not yet quite right-side up. She made the
"okay" with both hands, hoping that was all the answer Linda
required. Apparently it was, the agitated finger wiggling and twitching ceased.
Bubbles returned to their normal noisy bursts. The women looked down on the
offending wreck. An old hand,
Linda hung in the water not moving, weight and buoyancy perfectly balanced.
Anna, her weight belt a tad heavy, had to kick gently to maintain. Missing the
one fin, she listed slightly. Yards of
beautifully colored, incredibly varied and terribly fragile living coral had
been crushed or scraped away. Anna felt the loss with greater sorrow than the
loss of whoever belonged to the hairy, yellow-clad arm. She justified her
inhumane leanings with the myth that her job inured her to human suffering. The wreck
hadn't completely turned turtle. The coral crevice it wedged itself into during
the original descent had stopped it. The top half of the cabin door—the left
side, had the boat been upright—was above the coral boulder. Linda pointed.
Down at the bottom, just peeking out of the crush between cabin and coral, was
the finger. An image of the Wicked Witch of the East, smashed under Dorothy's
house, only her feet protruding, came into Anna's mind, and she half expected
to see the finger and the mangled palm to which it was attached shrivel and
disappear beneath the fallen boat. At her elbow,
Linda was scribbling on an underwater pad. Finished, she showed Anna: "We
go in now?" Anna shook her head and took the notebook. "I go for
ropes. Replace fin. You stay out of boat." Linda read,
then made the okay sign and pointed at Anna's NPS camera. Understanding was
established. Linda would continue to record the wreckage. Anna would refurbish
her gear and get what was necessary to work safely around the sunken boat. In the ten
minutes it took to return to the Activa, collect what she needed and
swim back, the light grew immeasurably better. The sun had jumped high and
sudden above the horizon. Some of the extra matter put into suspension by the
shifting of the hull had settled out. All in all, with Linda swimming
gracefully about snapping pictures of the kind required on any routine accident
investigation, Anna was hard pressed to remember the alarums of a quarter of an
hour before. Probably the facility to forget was one of the reasons she stayed
in the line of work she'd chosen. Looking back, no matter what had actually transpired,
it never seemed all that bad. Still, she was shaken. Not by the trapping of her
fin, but by the sense she'd suffered that it was intentional. This was
something she couldn't afford to think too long on. She purposely wiped the
weirdness from her mind and concentrated on what was in front of her. While she'd
been gone the finger had disappeared. Anna mentally tipped her hat to L. Frank
Baum. Obviously the man had done his homework. Linda, good as
her word and essentially a cautious woman, had stayed away from the bow
section. Several yards from the wedged hull, her back to it, she crouched
froglike over a shard of the shattered boat, the camera held four inches from
her mask as she framed the shot. Thirty or forty feet out, laden with coiled
line, Anna glided toward her. Movement caught
her eye and she looked past Linda. A bubble the size of a beach ball was
squeezing out of the cracked keel where the bow had upended when the wreck had
shifted. The bubble's elongated shape moved, expanded. It was not clear but
filled with roiling sulphurous gray. For an instant Anna's mind froze in
wonder. Once before she'd seen a bubble like that. With the speed of thought,
the memory came clear. She and Molly, both little girls, had been playing with
a length of fuse left over from when their dad, afraid they would collapse and
kill somebody, had dynamited unstable caves dug in a sandpit by the local
schoolkids. They'd put one end of the fuse in a puddle of water and lit the
other. When the fuse burnt to the end, a yellow bubble appeared on the puddle.
They popped it and a puff of smoke was released. The boat was
still burning. When it rolled, the flames inside must have found a new source
of air and fuel. Dropping the line, Anna kicked hard for the first mate, still
oblivious in her concentration. Muted, high-pitched noises reached Anna's ears
as she impotently called Linda's name without ungluing her lips from the
regulator's mouthpiece. Intuition or
unusually acute hearing brought the other woman's head up, stirring her yellow
hair into a mini-nova around her face. Kicking for all
she was worth, Anna pointed. Linda turned to look back. Suspended, weightless,
her body rotated with her head. A nightmare sense of slow motion, of trying to
run through viscous mud, overtook Anna. A booming—thunder through rain—and the
keel of the ship expanded as if it had taken a deep breath. Cracks appeared.
Red fire, incongruous forty feet under the ocean, opened, then burst out in
gouts of flame. The hull exploded outward, shards of razor-sharp Plexiglas shot
like torpedoes in every direction. A bubble of black veined with red blossomed. Linda, her body
half turned toward the blast, was snatched up by unseen forces. Arms and legs
flew out, then were crushed inward, a doll being wadded up, tossed away. Her
head snapped out of the circle of flesh. Her mask was ripped from her face.
Eyes wide, mouth open, she seemed to be screaming, but Anna heard nothing. A wave of force
smacked into Anna and she felt herself falling. There was no up or down. Just
an endless fall into an airless darkness. 4 I cannot say how
I knew it was the confederate boy, Joel Lane. The lamps in
the sally port were set too far apart for proper lighting. Maybe it was the
black hair. Lord knows his hair was the only thing unchanged, the only thing
left that was pretty about him. Still and all,
I could see enough of Private Lane's face to know I didn't want Tilly going any
closer. But you know Tilly, ever the rusher-in when the angels are thinking
twice about treading. She thinks she is so grown and worldly. To Tilly
everything is black or white. Having been married to the U.S. Army lo these
many years, I have grown accustomed to black and blue and shades of gray. But even I have
never seen a man beaten as badly as this poor boy. Oh, Peggy, even with you
seeing Dennis after he died and your work with the wounded in New York, you
would have wept for Tilly's soldier. He had been so lovely, and Joseph's guards
beat him till he didn't even look human anymore, then strung him up against the
stones in the sally port. Tilly
recognized the boy and tore herself away from me. (I had been clutching her
rather firmly to my side, anticipating some such end to our outing—though not
Joel and not such brutality—usually it's a drunkard who at least doesn't feel
his tortures till he's been cut down.) The horrid girl is as strong as she is
quick, and I had little choice but to run after her or stay where I was. Tilly was
wailing "Oh no! Oh no!" and, though I believe she was sincerely upset
and have pity on that account, she threw her arms forward then clasped them to
her breast too much like that picture of that new French actress, Sarah
Bernhardt. Her noise
didn't bring the boy's head up or cause him to move at all—which was
worrisome—but it brought Sargent Sinapp out of the guardroom. Though he's one
of Joseph's cronies, I have never liked the man. Sinapp is too thick. His lips
are thick. His fingers blunt and so thick it's a wonder he can make a
fist—though that seems to be the one thing he excels at. Even his ears are
thick. "Cauliflowered," they call them. It comes from fighting. His
neck is so thick it really cannot be said to exist, there being so little
differentiation between the bottom of his ears and the top of his shoulders. Tilly was brought
to a sudden stop by Sinapp. Behind him the guardroom was brightly lit, cards no
doubt being more important to keep an eye on than murderers, thieves and enemy
soldiers. He moved his thickness to one side, and the light shone full on
Tilly. She was a
pretty picture: face caked with makeup like a you-know-what, hair all up on her
head, hands clasped beseechingly. The wind blew Tilly's cotton skirt against
her body. The little minx was not wearing her petticoats. It was clear to me
and to the disgusting Sergeant Sinapp that she'd not even bothered with
pantaloons. Every line of leg and thigh was clearly delineated. Sinapp actually
licked his lips. Licked his lips! His great pale tongue poking out like a
lizard seeking an ant. In an instant more I expect he would have begun smacking
and drooling like a starving hound. I did hear a low moan and I don't think it
was from the unfortunate Private Lane. "Sargent
Sinapp," I barked. I've not been an army wife all these years without
having learned the voice of authority. Tilly broke from her pose, thank God,
and turned so the wind no longer played its trick with her dress. Freed from
what could only be lust in that paralyzing form that sometimes takes men,
Sinapp sucked his tongue back in and stood as close to attention as his
tree-trunk body would allow. "What is
the meaning of this?" I demanded. My appearance from the shadows startled
him, and his recent thoughts had evidently been so wicked it didn't occur to
him that he well might ask that question of Tilly and me. For a moment,
while guilt and confusion rattled around in his very small brain, I thought I
could get past him easily. Unfortunately, as with many men accustomed to few
emotions and comfortable with none but anger, he got mad. Had I not been his
captain's wife I expect he might have overstepped the bounds of common decency. "You got
no business—" I could see his
slow mental processes, so recently scrambled, lining themselves back up. Right
quick before he could bluster himself back into some semblance of a sergeant at
arms, I stepped up close and sniffed. "You've
been drinking," I said with all the disapproval I could muster. Whether
he'd been drinking or not, I couldn't tell. Amid the swamp of odium that
drifted from him, sorting out a single scent was past even my bloodhound
abilities. The laundresses at Fort Jefferson often take home three times as
much pay as their soldier husbands each month. They are grossly underpaid.
Woolen uniforms in the sodden heat of July wring much in the way of bodily effluvia
from men far less unpalatable than Sergeant Sinapp. "Have
not!" he countered, sounding so much like your Leonard did when he was
three and into breaking things and pestering the dogs that I nearly laughed. Tilly had taken
this moment out of my control and the sergeant's thrall to scoot her
unpantalooned self behind my back and into the sally port where her pet rebel
was. The sight of
young Joel Lane robbed me of any rebuke I might, for Molly's sake, have given
Tilly. Lips and eyelids were swelled, the skin stretched so tight I feared it
might burst and spill the blue-black blood pooled beneath. The once-clean line
of his jaw was blurred, misshapen, and his neat close ears puffed, red, angry
and probably never to resume their pretty shape. It is common practice
to punish prisoners and union soldiers alike by tying their hands behind their
backs and hoisting them up till their toes barely touch the ground. As vicious
as this practice is, it evidently wasn't sufficiently cruel for Sinapp. Private
Lane had been strung up by his thumbs; this I have never seen but only read of
in books of medieval tortures. The poor boy's
thumbs were the size and color of plums. Tilly slid to her knees and began to
cry. This time I saw nothing of theatrics in her. I often forget how young she
is—or I choose to forget how inured to brutish behavior I have become. "Cut this
man down," I commanded the sergeant, hoping he was still cowed by my
previous accusation of imbibing. He'd had time
to reinsert his spine and gather his few thoughts. "I can't
do that, ma'am. This ain't no place for you to be. This here's army business. "That man
was talking traitor talk. Going on about Mr. Lincoln like his foul murder was a
right and good thing. That's why he got himself strung up. I'm making no
apologies that he got what was coming. When he gets cut down he'll be put to
carrying shot—a hundred and twenty-eight pounder or my name ain't Cobb
Sinapp." During the
rehearsals I have gotten to know Joel somewhat, and he didn't strike me as a
political man, certainly not one to speak out if it would get him beat half to
death which surely even the dullest reb here must know could happen with
tensions so high. Joel was more likely a reckless young man who had joined the
war against the union because that's what the young dandies in his circle were
doing. Still, I cannot completely discount Cobb (what a ridiculous name,
undoubtedly he was called after the kind of pipe his mother smoked in the
birthing room) Sinapp's words. Who knows what strange twists might exist in the
mind of a southern boy, and an actor to boot? "Cut him
down at once," I insisted. "Or I'll—" "I'll
scream," Tilly said, and I've never seen that exquisite face of hers look
so hard. "I'll scream and I'll go on screaming until the whole fort comes
down around us." I must say I
was relieved at her interruptions. I had no idea what my threat was to have
been. I certainly couldn't threaten to tell my husband. Sergeant Sinapp knows
in what high regard Joseph holds me, though he'd never dare speak of it or show
any overt disrespect. Tilly's threat
sounded childish to my ears, but it put the fear of God into the wretched
Sinapp. "Now no
need for that kinda talk, missy. What with them murderin' cowards, this place
is already a..." I suppose he
was searching for a metaphor: powder keg, hornets' nest or some such, but the
limitation of his intellect stopped him. However, much as I dislike admitting
it even to you, the most forgiving of souls, Sergeant Sinapp had a point. The
"murderin' cowards" to whom the sergeant referred are the Lincoln
conspirators. Not the man who shot him, of course, or that woman who was put to
death, but Samuel Arnold, Edward Spangler and Dr. Mudd, who is said to have set
John Booth's leg after he broke it leaping to the stage. As if we weren't
enough on edge, knowing that those who were at least in part responsible for
the death of the president are to be with us soon has brought the hatred to the
surface. "Cut him
down, cut him down," Tilly began. A smallish boy-faced fellow emerged from
the guardroom behind Sinapp and proffered his knife. Sinapp cut Private Lane
down, letting the boy fall all in a heap on the stone. Had Tilly not gotten in
the way, I expect Joel Lane's skull would have been cracked open when he hit. The boy-faced
soldier had the good sense to vanish after that, but the sergeant stood around
being of no use to us but needing to vent his frustration. He threatened to
tell Joseph, which I'm sure he will, and I will have to answer for Tilly's soft
heart. Joseph won't do much but to yell. He learned a long time ago, the first
time he struck me, that he had but three options: to kill me outright, never to
strike me again, or to sleep with one eye open for the rest of his natural
life. Without help
there was sadly little Tilly and I could do. Private Lane was too heavy for us
to move. We asked the sergeant to help us but he would not so much as fetch
water to wet the boy's lips or bathe his poor ruined face. Between us, Tilly
and I made him as comfortable as we could there on the stones of the sally port
and got him to drink a little water I fetched myself. Then we had to leave him. Tilly begged
Sinapp prettily to be compassionate, and I made a number of threats I have no
authority to carry out, that if Joel Lane was further damaged when we returned,
much in the way of ill luck would befall whomsoever mistreated him. We'd stayed too
long as it was—the theatrical would have started and only by rushing would
Tilly and I be back in time for our entrance. The drama of the situation
outweighed the artificial drama of our little play, and I had to all but drag
our little sister from the rebel's side. Many evils are bound to come from this
act of kindness, not the least of which is Tilly, playing at Miss Nightingale,
will probably feel obliged to fall in love with her patient, or fancy she has. On the way
back, as we ran in a most undignified fashion across the parade ground toward
our bows and pinafores, Tilly suddenly said: "Our duet!" (They had
adapted "Somebody's Darling" for two parts.) "We can't do it,
his being gone. And I looked so pretty in that blue silk robe." I took
heart from that. If the baggage is still thinking of her own self and vain
pursuits, we can hope tonight's debacle hasn't damaged her spirit too badly. For a time the
excitement of being in a theatrical production gave us respite from the sad
state of the rebel soldier we'd left quite possibly dying, but I dared not even
think of that. I suppose it's unchristian, but I think the bright lights and
tumultuous applause took our minds completely. The stage—built by the
prisoners—is small but utterly delightful. I continue to be amazed by the
varied talents one can garner simply by imprisoning a section of the American
armies. Which side they fought for doesn't seem to be a factor. The fort boasts
several excellent carpenters; the lights (every candle and lamp on the key was
pressed into service) had been cunningly shaped and aimed by a union deserter
from New York. Before the war he worked for a clothier in the city of New York,
and one of his tasks was to provide attractive lighting for the window displays
and the live mannequins. We even had an exquisitely painted back-drop provided
by a burglar-cum-muralist from Philadelphia. War and theater seem to be good
bedfellows. Despite this
"innocent maid" being rather long in the tooth and not a maiden by
any stretch of the imagination, Tilly's and my " 'Tis True I Have
Flirted" was very well received. I do believe we would have gotten a
standing ovation had I not insisted Tilly put her underskirts and knickers back
on in spite of the heat. What the girl was thinking, I cannot say. Under the
bright lights burning all round our makeshift stage she would have looked like
a burlesque queen. Both of us had
a wonderful time. Tilly can be excused by her youth, I suppose. As for me, I
must simply be a vain and shallow creature for all the thought I gave that
battered boy during my brief moment of glory. I did happen to notice that the
fort's surgeon had not abandoned his seat in the center of the third row
despite the fact we had sent a boy with a message about Joel. Evidently he
didn't feel the health of one rebel soldier—and one reputed to have celebrated
our dear Mr. Lincoln's death—was worth missing an entertainment. I think the evening
would have been an unqualified success had not a minor riot broken out. Two
numbers after Tilly's and my triumph, as a magician was pulling two rats from
an old hat (rabbits being hard to come by in the middle of the ocean and rats,
he assured us, being really rather clever creatures), there was a great
hullabaloo from the parade ground. The men in the
audience grew restive, and a handful of the officers stood up and left. My
stage business being finished but for the curtain call, I slipped out the back
of the mess hall behind the stage and hid myself in the shadows of the new
construction to see what the noise was about. Soldiers being so outnumbered by
prisoners, we live with the fear of an uprising, though the unfortunate
wretches condemned to serve their time here have shown no such inclination. At
first I thought this long-held fear had come to pass. The parade ground, so
ghostly and quiet when Tilly and I went out earlier, was teeming with men in
various states of dress. Some carried lanterns, a few with torches or candles,
all were grumbling or shouting, creating a noise that was truly frightening. I was standing
behind a pile of bricks the engineers were to use for the barracks's foundation
and thought myself alone. When I felt someone grab my shoulder, I screamed. In
the general hubbub, all was confusion, noise, fire and darkness, and no one
heard me. When I found Tilly had followed me out, I was so angry and relieved I
nearly slapped her. I think only knowing how it feels to be on the receiving
end of that sort of hurt stopped my hand. Guns began to
fire, at what or who was unclear, but the reports were loud, echoing as they do
in the enclosed space of Fort Jefferson. Those who'd been invited to the
entertainment in the mess hall poured out across the gravel. Many had snatched
lanterns from the footlights and the walls. The lights
crossed and moved, making each man into four and casting wild shadows. Suddenly
Tilly and I were illuminated, and I heard Joseph's familiar bellow. "Christ on
the cross, you stupid woman!" That, of
course, would be me. He came at us at a run, and his face was twisted with
anger. Tilly must have
thought he was going to attack us. She shrank down and clung to my skirts like
she used to when she was a little girl. Joseph did lay
hands on me but only to give me a shake and vent his anger. "The whole God
damn fort is up in arms. You get yourself and your sister back in quarters and
bolt the door or I'll beat you till you can't sit down for a month of
Sundays." There are times
I do believe he loves me. Oddly enough that was one of them. Tilly, though, was
frightened out of her wits and began to sob. Long ago I learned that there is
nothing Joseph so hates as a weeping woman. He left the lantern he'd carried on
the ground, grabbed a handful of Tilly's pinafore in one hand and my arm with
the other and all but carried us back into the officers' mess. I was reminded
of my husband's strength of back and of purpose. I suppose it's why his men
love him. As I did once and do again from time to time. He hurled us at
his petty officer with dire threats and not a few expletives, and we were
marched up to my quarters like naughty children and a soldier stationed outside
our door at my husband's order to see that we stayed there. Though angry at
having been bundled away and locked in, I felt safer, partly for myself and a
great deal for Tilly. Once the door was slammed behind us we went to the
window. The noise, the running, had grown worse. "An
uprising? A lynching?" I said, forgetting I was not alone and very
probably infecting Tilly with my fears. "Lynching?"
she repeated "Private Lane? For what they say he said about the
president?" I said nothing,
but that had been my first thought as well. 5 From a place
above and just outside Fort Jefferson's walls, Anna watched soldiers, small and
silent as black ants, scurrying across the parade ground in the moonlight. In
clots and trails they moved toward a confused flashing of lanterns near
the sally port. Though logic told her she could not, she saw, too, Raffia and
Tilly behind a locked door in the officers' quarters, an armed guard to keep
them in. The vivid colors of their bows and pinafores came to startling life
when they neared a lamp, only to return to gray as they passed from its circle
of influence. The vision was very real; she was there and she was not. Then a force
she could not see clamped over her face, something hard and foreign was forced
into her mouth. Air rushed into her lungs, a sudden hammer blow banging out her
ribs. The fort, the soldiers, the women, receded to a pinpoint then burned out
in a tiny noiseless explosion, and Anna was alone. Darkness coiled
around her body and mind. She flailed but touched nothing. Down and up ceased
to have meaning. For a moment of blinding panic she believed she was dead and
this suffocating nothingness was eternal afterlife. Another
monstrous struggle with unseen forces determined to invade her very being for
all of time, and again air thundered into her lungs. She could hear it passing
through her trachea; marbles pouring down the narrow neck of a glass jar. Without
conscious thought, air changed from invader to the single most important thing
in life. Anna gulped and floundered. Darkness began to recede, edges first,
turning green then sifting in toward the center. Underwater. She
was underwater. A hand was on her waist, a regulator held in her mouth. This
knowledge didn't speak to the rational part of her brain, it was merely an
observation. A watery world made as little sense as the silent scream of the
black vortex had moments earlier. Rising.
Breaking the surface. Sunlight. More of the marvelous air. Anna remembered now:
Fort Jefferson, the hunt for Bob Shaw, cutting away her trapped fin. After that
there was only the darkness and Great-Great-Aunt Raffia. She spit out
the regulator and fought the arm across her chest feebly. A strong swimmer
towed her toward the NPS boats: hers, Mack's and Daniel's. She knew names. A
good sign. "Stop
wiggling," came a command and Anna obeyed, lying in the water, face to the
sky, being reeled in like the day's catch. "What
happened?" she asked. "Later. On
board. Be quiet." For reasons she
was unsure of—and uninterested in—Anna was content to be a package with no
thoughts and no responsibilities other than to shut up and lie still. The idyll was
short-lived. As her rescuer floated her inert body close to the nearest boat,
shouting and clattering dinned in her waterlogged ears. "Is she
alive?" was hollered more than once so Anna knew her lost minutes had been
of the dangerous sort. When the answer was in the affirmative, somebody said,
"Hallelujah!" so she knew she was among friends. Her birth from
the warm amniotic sea and the odd drift of mind was sufficiently violent with
hauling and pushing and dragging her corpus over the gunwale and flopping it
onto the deck that she was reborn, not only into the world of the living but
into her old life with its dues and responsibilities. "What
happened?" she demanded. "You're
welcome," she heard a voice murmur. Teddy Shaw, dressed in a dripping
blouse, underpants and fins, a snorkel and mask the sum total of her dive gear,
sat beside her on the box covering the engine of the Boston Whaler. Teddy had
saved Anna's life. Since Danny didn't dive, she must have shucked off her trousers
at the first sign of a problem and free dived unknown territory to bring Anna
out. "Oh.
Right," Anna said. "What happened?" Then, more sharply:
"Where's Linda? I was diving with Linda." She stood quickly with the
half-baked idea of going back down. Dizziness smacked into her. Teddy caught
her before she toppled over the side. Teddy gently
pushed her head down. Blackness receded. "I know what you did for
me," Anna said. It came out in a creaky little whisper. "I am
grateful. But I'm in a hurry. Where is Linda?" She pushed herself upright,
but this time had the good sense to remain seated. Fainting was embarrassing,
and as the shock of being alive wore off, her entire body had begun to hurt. "She's
okay." Danny knelt in front of her, the gesture of an adult soothing a
child. "Where?" "On the Atlantic
Ranger. There." Daniel pointed. "Right after the explosion I
radioed Mack to get another diver over here. Rather than wait, Teddy went over
the side in a snorkel. "Mack got
here a few minutes ago, just as Teddy broke surface with you. Linda'd come up a
minute or so before. She's on board with Cliff now." "She's
okay?" Anna asked. "Shook up.
Bruised. She was closer than you but didn't seem as hard hit. The hull must
have aimed the explosion up and out where you were. She got cut up
pretty bad on the coral but managed to keep her regulator in her month and
never lost consciousness. The blast stirred up the bottom and knocked you clean
out of her sight. She'd come up to see if she could see your bubbles, but Teddy'd
already gone down." Explosion.
Blast. Anna remembered none of that. For a second she just sat, watching the
water on the deck around her feet turn pink. "Guess I'm
bleeding," she said. "What blew up? The boat?" "The
boat," Daniel confirmed. "How could
the damn thing blow up?" Anna asked nobody in particular. "It'd
already blown up. There were pieces scattered all over hell and back." For
some reason the image of the damaged fingers beckoning from the misshapen cabin
door flashed behind Anna's eyes. Terror seized her: fear the finger belonged to
the grim reaper himself, that he stalked her and, having missed this time,
would try again, and soon. The horror was so intense and unexpected Anna sucked
her breath in. "What's
the matter? Are you okay?" chorused in her ears, and she was pulled out of
her paranoia. "Must have
broken a rib," she lied. Raw fear born of a mental-picture-become-real was
as frightening as the false hell of the image. It was insane. Anna rubbed her
face hard with both hands, scrubbing away the disease. "Extra
fuel tanks in the bow, is my guess," Daniel said, returning to her
question of how a boat could explode twice. "That or explosives of some
kind." "Fire,"
Anna said. "Just before nothing, I saw a bubble full of smoke leaking from
the hull." "An
explosive detonated by fire," Daniel amended his earlier supposition. While she'd
been sitting, gathering what wits were left to her, ignoring Teddy, her savior,
and making demands for information, the Atlantic motored over to raft
off the Curious, and Teddy and Daniel had divested her of tank, weight
belt, fins and snorkel. Anna reached
down to retrieve the heavy buoyancy compensator—BC—that held tank and
regulator. "I'd better go back down," she said. "Figure out what
the hell happened." "That
might not be the best idea." Cliff, with his
kindly professional face and quiet voice, leaned on the gunwales where the two
boats touched. "Might want to rethink that one. Linda's not going back
down. Not today." Anna's vision,
narrow and inward for the few minutes she'd been out of the water, opened to
include sky, ocean and this handful of people floating in between. Linda, free
of dive gear as she was, sat in the Atlantic's bow. Mack was cutting her
tattered dive skin off of her. The exposed flesh oozed with cuts and scrapes,
one or two quite deep, bleeding freely, though not life threateningly. "Are you
okay, Linda?" Anna asked. "Better
than you. And I've got sense enough to call it a day. I hurt too bad not to be
stupid down there." Anna hadn't
taken time to assess herself, but she did so now. Like Linda, her dive skin was
torn in dozens of places. Blood mixed with water was staining the deck around
her feet. When she breathed, her ribs hurt—probably not broken but badly
bruised. There might be other injuries not so readily apparent. "Good
point," she finally agreed. "Teddy might not take kindly to having to
save my life more than once a day." "I'll go
down in half an hour or so," Cliff promised. "Let the dust settle a
bit." Anna thought
for a second and was pleased to note that her ability to reason seemed to have
returned. "Okay," she said. "You stay here, Mack. Dive with
Cliff. Stay clear of the wreck if anything looks like it could turn on you.
I'll leave my gear and the camera." It occurred to her then that the
camera had been with Linda. She looked at the other diver, naked now but for
the bottom of her two-piece bathing suit. The top lay in pieces on the deck.
Ugly scrapes raked across her left breast. Linda pawed
through the refuse of her gear and held it up. "Can't promise it'll still
work." "Bob—"
Teddy began. Anna overrode
her. "Daniel, take the Curious and continue the search. Teddy, me
and Linda will go back to the fort, get patched up, then join you." With a minimum
of fuss, they divided themselves among the boats and, Teddy driving. the women
motored back to Garden Key. The more time
that passed, the more Anna's body made its complaints heard. By the time they
docked, she had stiffened up and was hard pressed to find any part of her that
did not ache. Linda looked
just as miserable. "Why don't you lay low for a while," Anna
suggested. "Teddy'll do the driving. I'll sit still and look." That
would be about all she could do, but Anna chose not to put it into words. Ever practical,
Linda accepted. Anna showered
quickly. Naked, she could see the toll coral and trauma had taken. She'd
sustained no deep cuts as Linda had, but contusions, burning and itching from
the coral's defensive toxins, marked her so that she looked as if she suffered
from some vile and highly contagious disease. Choosing
comfort, she set aside the National Park Service's uniform code and donned
another short loose dress. She wanted as little touching her skin as park rules
and regulations would allow. She made
herself a peanut butter sandwich, poured a glass of sparkling water that tasted
flat though she'd just opened it, and sat on the couch next to a sleeping
Piedmont to eat. The coffee table was strewn with Great-Great-Aunt Raffia's
correspondence to her sister Peggy. Perhaps because of the dreams she'd had the
night before or the moments without oxygen when she'd hovered above the western
ramparts watching the last letter she'd read come to life, Anna felt a
connection to Raffia and Tilly that was more than family ties. The fear that
touched her onboard the Curious when her mind took her back to the
beckoning finger again rubbed at the edges of her mind. "I feel
funny," she said to the cat. "My mind isn't working right." The admission,
spoken aloud even to a sleeping cat, disturbed her. This was not the kind of
thing she wanted to become public knowledge. "It'll
pass," she said to the imaginary jury in her head. Leaving the sandwich
half-eaten, she grabbed a daypack she'd stuffed with needful things and left
the cat to his nap. Anna'd been
raised on cowboy-and-Indian stories. At least conceptually she was no stranger
to the phrase "skinned alive." Having been rudely scraped over the
coral, she suffered a new and deeper understanding of the old torture. It hurt
to walk. The dress chafed. The sun poked red-hot rays into her. Because they
were abraded by living coral, the wounds itched. Scratching them was brutal.
The only good thing she could say about the contusions, had she been mad enough
to want to play the Pollyanna Glad Game, was they took her mind off the aches
the tumbling had engendered, the nausea from swallowing salt water and the
persistent cough left over from trying to breathe underwater. She was in no
shape to head up a search for Ranger Shaw but, until the coast guard arrived,
she was the only game in town. Letting Teddy go alone was a bad idea. Doing
nothing when Bob might be alive and in need was unthinkable. For twenty
minutes she and Teddy continued working the grid from the north-south axis to
the west of where Cliff and Mack had quit. Anna tried with very little success
to stay in the shade of the Boston Whaler's one pitiful awning. She'd been too
scraped up to make herself spread on sun block, and the sun burned her raw
flesh. In the midst of
a fantasy about parasols, the radio crackled. Cliff had resurfaced. The bow of
the boat had been destroyed by a second and more violent explosion. The
beckoning finger was gone, as was every other part of the individual whose
remains had hidden in the drowned cabin. Danny's guess that stored fuel had
exploded due to fire left burning from the first conflagration amidships was
ratified by the remnants of auxiliary fuel tanks stowed, presumably, belowdecks
in the fore cabin. "And I got
lucky," he finished. "Got something you need to see." "What?" "Come on
over. It can wait a few minutes." His reluctance
to deliver the news over the airwaves scared Teddy. Blood drained from her
face, leaving it the faded gray-gold of winter grass. Anna knew they shared the
same thought; you don't tell a woman you've found her husband's corpse over
the radio. Bob Shaw's body
wasn't waiting for them. Not quite. "Found
this about sixty feet south and a bit east of the wreck," Cliff said as
Teddy tied their boat to the Curious. He held up what first appeared to
be a clump of seaweed—Anna's mind trying to make seaworthy sense of what her
eyes saw. "A duty
belt," she said after a moment. "Bob's."
Teddy made a small sound. a muffled squeak. Given there was nothing she could
do for the woman who'd saved her life but find her husband—or his body—Anna
chose not to notice. She took the
gun belt from Cliff's hands and lifted it over the gunwale to examine it. Bob's
semiautomatic was snapped into the holster. Spare magazines were full, as was
the magazine in the SIG Sauer; cuffs and pepper spray were in place. Because
the belt Velcroed closed instead of buckling, it was impossible to tell if it
had been removed intentionally or torn off with violence. What with one thing
and another, Anna had allowed herself to believe Bob's disappearance and the
sinking of the green go-fast boat were separate, unrelated incidents. Boats
burned for many reasons, most having nothing to do with AWOL park rangers.
Factoring Bob back in changed things. Now it was not just the death of a
stranger but, perhaps, a man she liked. "Anything
else?" Cliff shook his
head then said: "I don't know. There might be. I figured you'd want to
know soon as could be, so I marked the spot, brought the belt up and
called." Technically, he
should have left it where it lay, but under the circumstances that seemed a
moot point. "You up
for another dive?" Anna asked. "Sure.
It's less than thirty feet for the most part. I shouldn't have any
trouble." "We,"
Anna said. "I'm going with you." "Do you
think that's a good idea?" Diving experience, age, years of captaining
boats, of commanding, made his soft-spoken question something to be seriously
considered. Anna did so.
After a moment she said honestly: "Not a great idea, no. Maybe not even a
good idea. But I'll be okay, if that's what you mean. All I intend to do is be
a floating pair of eyes." Satisfied,
Cliff nodded. "We stay together," he said neutrally, aware Anna was
the captain of this particular ship. "We stay
together," she agreed. For just such
emergencies Anna kept an old swimsuit in the storage bin in the compartment
under the bridge. It stank of mildew and bagged in the seat but would suffice
to keep her legal. Putting on BC vest and tank wasn't as bad as she'd feared.
Though she was bruised from being batted about the ocean floor, the heavy nylon
mesh of the vest and the metal air tank had protected those portions of her
anatomy from the cutting edges of the coral. Side by side,
she and Cliff rolled backward off the gunwale. When she hit the water Anna would
have screamed had her mouth not been full of rubber. Seawater bit into each and
every cut and scrape, rubbing salt into her wounds. The shock made her feel
faint and disoriented. Pain and the wooziness faded as skin and mind adapted to
the new realities of life. Cliff hung in
the water nearby, as comfortable and perfectly balanced as Linda had been. At
his "follow me" signal Anna kicked into motion. Once the initial
sting had passed it felt wonderful to be underwater. The freedom and
weightlessness of diving was the closest thing to flying unaided Anna would
ever experience. It was good to stretch her bruised muscles; good to have the
weight off her scraped buttocks. And it was good to be doing something other
than gridding the ocean with a potential widow and finding nothing. As they swam
past the wreck, she was fascinated by the new configuration the second
explosion left behind. The stern, still of a piece, had been shifted, and the
floating life jacket, instead of straining for the surface, was half buried
beneath. The bow section no longer existed: no structure, no cabin, just pieces
blown out in a rough cone shape pointing in the direction from which Anna tad
been swimming. It was easy to see how Linda, much closer to the bow of the
boat, had fared no worse than she had. For all their might, explosives could be
aimed and channeled by containers no more substantial than wax. What had aimed
this, Anna couldn't begin to guess and doubted it mattered. She had not been
the target. Nor had anyone else. Further on
Cliff stopped, hovering several feet above the bottom. They were about
twenty-five feet down. The ocean floor was devoid of vegetation, though not of
life. Without trying, Anna found two tiny fish. One no bigger
than her thumbnail vanished into a burrow in the sand at her approach. A
red flag, like a surveyor's flag on an eighteen-inch wire, had been stuck in
the sand. This, then, was where Bob Shaw's gun belt had been found. With a
fingertip, Anna drew a spiral out around the flag, pointed to herself then
Cliff. He made the okay sign with thumb and forefinger. Staying ten feet apart
the two of them began swimming in an ever-widening circle with the red flag at
its center. The small
desolate plain of sand and dead coral gave way to an underwater meadow of what
looked to be grasses covered with fur. Soon, on the northern edge of their
circle, they swam over the remnants of the sunken go-fast boat. Because of the
boulders of coral, they were forced to swim nearer the surface. On the fifth
circuit, more coral intruding with its cacophony of color and confusion of
life, they found Shaw's deck shoes. Twenty feet apart and tumbled into a forest
of hot pink anemone, Anna was surprised they had spotted them. After the
location of the second shoe was marked with another of Cliff's flags, Anna
stopped. Hanging in the water, clear now that they'd moved away from the area
of disturbance, she looked back across the imaginary circle till she found the
red flag marking where the gun belt had been found. A compass reading from the
line between shoes and flag read NNW Turning, Anna followed a SSE heading,
continuing the line. Approximately
three hundred feet farther she came upon what she'd known must be there: the Bay
Ranger. A jagged hole in her bow, she lay on her side in a patch of sand
beneath twenty feet of clear, still water. Had the wreck of the go-fast boat
not stopped them, Danny and Linda would have found her in the next couple of
passes. Already, curious fishes had come and swam languidly around the control panel
and its sunshade. The little
Sylvan runabout had no cabin, no belowdecks. Anna and Cliff could see at a
glance that Bob was not onboard. Had Bob been on one of the other patrol
boats—both Boston Whalers—like Molly Brown, he would have been unsinkable. A
Whaler would float even when cut in half, and run if you happened to be on the
half with the engine. She hoped Bob's love affair with stealth hadn't killed
him. Because she'd
be a fool not to, Anna swam around the boat to be sure a corpse was not pinned beneath
or thrown nearby. She knew she would find nothing. Bob Shaw had been alive and
swimming at one point. Either he'd left the site of the Bay and dropped
first shoes and then duty belt in an attempt to reach the boat that had
exploded, or he had jumped from the green boat before it sank and was swimming
toward the Bay, dropping first belt then shoes. Anna guessed it
was the former for a couple reasons. Though they couldn't be sure without
further investigation, it was a good bet that a piece of debris, blasted from
the green boat, was the missile that smashed a hole in Bob's hull. The other
reason was, knowing Bob Shaw, if he needed to offload weight, his shoes would
go before his firearm. Catching
Cliff's eye, Anna pointed up. Together they surfaced. The strain of a long
night, a severe pummeling and a near-death experience were catching up to Anna.
Removing her snorkel, she whistled high and piercing, two fingers under her
tongue the way Carl Johnson taught her in third grade. When Daniel sighted them
she waved and was comforted to see him loose the two boats so they could motor
over. Anna didn't feel up to swimming back, but, she told herself—as she would
tell them—she remained where she was because she wanted them to see Shaw's
boat. Back onboard,
scrapes again on fire from various abuses incurred boarding and stripping off
gear, Anna shared what she was fairly sure was the good news. "It looks
like when the other boat exploded, a piece of it pierced Bob's hull and the Bay
sank. Probably very quickly. It's a damn big hole. Bob was either thrown
overboard or jumped. My bet is thrown. His radio is still on his duty belt. If
he'd had time, he would have radioed for help before the water ruined it. From
where we found the deck shoes and the belt, it looks as though, once in the
water, Bob swam toward the other boat. "There
were survivors on it, is what I'm figuring," Anna finished. "Bob died
saving someone, or trying to?" Teddy asked. Her voice was vague, seeking
her hero husband through darkness and fog, looking for an image to take to bed
for a lifetime of lonely nights. "I don't
think he's dead," Anna said flatly. "He was swimming. We know he had
a personal flotation device, and he was hale and hearty enough to think about
saving someone's skin other than his own." She looked at East Key, a
skinny ribbon of sand barely above waterline, a half-mile from the boats.
"I think Bob and whoever he swam to save must be there; the closest
landfall." "Bob,"
Teddy said. It was half a question and half a call to the man she had
come perilously close to giving up as dead. "I think
he could have tried for East Key." Anna tried to lower what could be
false hopes, but it was too late. Teddy was firing up the Reef Ranger without
waiting for anyone's by your leave. It was a wonder Anna and Cliff threw off
the Reef's lines and saved the Curious from being bumped and
towed alongside. Anna stepped up
to the bench and slid in beside Teddy. "Let me take over from here."
Teddy had the boat up to ramming speed and, if the look on her face was any
indication, had no intention of slowing down to beach the thing. For a second
Teddy glared at her, feral as any half-starved cat, but reason returned. She
turned the boat over to Anna and moved to the bow to be that much closer to the
place her husband might be. Anna felt a
pang of envy at the obvious love between the Shaws. So what if it was based on
castles built in the sand of the Caribbean? And she dearly hoped she was right
about Bob. After the first glad tidings and the departure of the Reef an
unpleasant thought had darkened her mood. If Bob was on East Key and he was
alive, why hadn't he been jumping, waving, signaling two NPS boats a mere half
mile out to sea? Cutting
throttle, she let a wave catch and carry the Reef onto the sandy shoreline.
East Key was concave along its western shore, creating a nice landing place.
Teddy leapt ashore yelling, "Bob!" Anna stayed to give the Reef an
extra pull above waterline. East Key was so small—measured not in acres and
miles but yards and buckets—Teddy would either find her husband or know he
wasn't there before Anna'd done. "Bob!
Bob?" Then, music to Anna's ears: "Oh, Bob." Anna turned to
follow the joyful noise. Teddy's head popped above a low dune with a
prairie-dog quickness that nearly made Anna laugh. "Bring the
first-aid kit," Teddy ordered in a voice that had Anna hopping like one of
Teddy's emergency-room orderlies. The Reef's medical
kit slung over one complaining shoulder, she scrambled up the dune behind
which she'd seen Teddy Shaw's head. Sand ground into the abrasions on her
bare legs and scorched the bottoms of her feet. As she topped the low dune, she
forgot her petty concerns. Ranger Shaw lay
on the other side, his lower body sprawled across the legs of a dead man as if
he'd lain atop the corpse before his wife turned him face up. Teddy cradled his
head in her lap. "He's not
dead," she said fiercely as Anna took in the scene. "Bleeding
out?" Anna asked. "No." "Breathing?" "Yes." Shaw would live
another couple minutes. "Water,"
Anna said, dropped the first-aid kit where Teddy could reach it easily, and
trotted back to the Reef. Shaw had suffered some kind of trauma, swum at
least a half-mile if not more, either pursuing or towing another man, then lay
in the sun for half a day. Dehydration would be a serious factor. In the minutes
Anna was gone Teddy completed the evolution from wife to head ER nurse. The
dead man had been rolled on his side, facing away, to give him his dignity. The
medical bag was set to shade Shaw's face, and Teddy had his trouser leg nearly
cut off. Anna joined
her, unbuttoned Shaw's shirt, then ran both hands over his head, neck and torso
to check for damage. "Back okay?" she asked as they worked. "Clean,"
Teddy replied. "He was laying facedown half on the dead guy. I checked his
back before I rolled him over. "Head,
neck and chest are okay," Anna said. "Oh, hey, got some eye
movement." "Not
surprised. I hurt him. Look here." Below Bob's left knee the white of bone
showed through the flesh. "Broken," Teddy said. "Compound. And
lost a lot of blood. "Bob, open
your eyes," Teddy said commandingly. Shaw opened his
eyes; blinds going up in an empty room. "You're
okay, honey. We're here. You need to stay awake. We're going to sit you up so
Anna can give you a drink." Shaw came back
into himself, his soul back in his eyes. "Water," he repeated.
"Good..." Cliff, Mack and
Danny arrived. Bob was packaged and Danny and Mack carried him aboard the Reef.
Mack argued for the Atlantic for some reason but was ignored. After
the night's terrors and the day's adventures, Anna was going to carry her catch
home. She did give
Mack the unidentified corpse. They didn't have a body bag and the remains, made
festive by beach towels, were strapped to a backboard. Teddy stayed at
Bob's side murmuring endearments and giving him as many small sips of water as
he would take. The bleeding around the fracture had stopped on its own hours
before. Compound fractures were always bad, but where the exposed end of the
bone had been drying in sun and jammed full of sand for five hours,
complications proliferated. Other than rehydration, neither Anna nor Teddy
would attempt treatment. Anna radioed Duncan, the fort's historian, to call the
mainland for a helicopter. Before the Reef Ranger brought her cargo to the
dock, he radioed back to let her know one had been dispatched. Mack and Danny
carried Bob to his wife's "hospital." The corpse was housed in the
researcher's dorm with the air conditioning turned as cold as the thermostat
had numbers for. The body would fly back to Key West with Bob and Teddy Shaw. Everyone was
anxious to hear Bob's story, but at Teddy's request, they left the infirmary.
Mack, more tenacious or more curious, was inclined to ignore requests, and Anna
had ordered him out. After that he remembered his manners and left with good
grace. Nobody but the Shaws seemed to want to admit the adventure was over. With water to
drink, a saline IV drip to assist, and a cool dim place, Bob regained full
consciousness. Anna asked to do the intravenous drip, needing the
"sticks" to keep her IV status as an emergency medical technician
current. After she failed twice, leaving small bloody prints behind, Teddy
snatched the needle away and inserted it neatly. "I'd have
got it in another try," Anna said. "Bob's suffered
enough." Anna knew that,
but "sticks" were hard to come by. After a shot of
Demerol authorized over the phone by the medivac doctor and administered by his
wife, Bob bordered on jocular. Sometimes being alive did that to a person. When Bob was as
comfortable as possible, Anna pulled up a stool and sat by the bedside facing
him. Several times she breathed in and out, ridding her feverish brain of the
strangeness and ghostly half-images that had plagued her since being awakened
by Teddy in the middle of the night. Mind clean and open, she was ready to
listen. "So,"
she said. "Tell me what happened." She half expected to get a rebuke
from Teddy. Though alert and oriented, Bob was in pretty bad shape. Teddy said
nothing, and it occurred to Anna that heroes, regardless of personal injury,
were expected to make it back through enemy lines to report, even if they had
to do it with their last breath. Bob began his
tale with scattered thoughts and broken time lines, stopped, made adjustments
inside his skull, and began again, this time at the beginning. "Just
before midnight I was heading in from checking the northwest boundary of the
park. Three shrimpers, all outside our waters. Two family-owned. Been here
before. Never been any trouble. The third looked like trouble. Details in my
patrol log." Bob's patrol
log was providing reading for the fishes, but Anna didn't interrupt. "As I came
past Loggerhead, I caught a glint of something toward East Key. No lights,
nothing like that, just a place on the water that didn't match up. I radioed
in..." His voice
trailed off, and Anna watched his eyes grow dull as he searched his mind for
verification of his words. "You
called in," Teddy said, taking the place of memory. "You told me you
were onto something and needed radio silence." "Okay. I
radioed in, then turned off my running lights and cruised toward the place on
the water. With binoculars I could see it was a Scarab—one of those go-fast
boats, like a cigarette boat but bigger and only a few years old. It was black
or some dark color, moored in the middle of a coral bed, no lights. Two people
onboard. Maybe three but at least two. Could see the lit ends of their
cigarettes. Looked hinky. "About
fifty yards out I turned my light on them and hailed. The boat was deep metallic
green and rode low in the water like it was loaded to the gunwales. Not usual
for a go-fast boat. They'd have heard my motor so my being there was no
surprise, but as soon as they realized I was law enforcement, one guy ducks
into the cabin and the other fires up the engine. He got panicked or something
and didn't take time to turn on the fans to purge the bilge and engine
compartment of gas fumes. "Must have
been a spark, because it blew up. A piece of it hit my boat. I was thrown
overboard. My boat sank, theirs burned a second then went down." Bob stopped and
rubbed his eyes with both fists like a sleepy child. "God, it was
fast," he said, sounding less like a Joe Friday and more like a real
person. "Two boats afloat. Bang. Flash. Both boats gone like they never
happened. I didn't know they could sink that fast. I might have a funny time
sense. I was never out cold, but things were hazy after I went overboard. Just
for a couple seconds," This last was to Teddy, who nodded as if she
expected no less from him. "I could
see one of the passengers on the other boat—I think the one that started the
engine—was still alive but in a bad way. I got my PFD inflated and started to
swim over to give him a hand. Till then I didn't know my leg had been hit—it
didn't hurt, nothing. Once I knew, it hurt like a son-of-a-bitch. Anyway I swam
toward the guy but with my leg it was rough going and I had to drop my duty
belt. I lost my sidearm." Bob looked at
his wife, loath to admit this gross failing on his part. "Only a damn
fool would have kept their gun given the circumstances. Anyway, Cliff found it
for you," Anna said. "Go on." "I got to
the guy. He was alive but hurting and not able to help himself. I towed him to
East Key—and tried to get up a signal fire. I couldn't manage it. By the time
the sun came up the guy was breathing bad. I tried to shade him. Then I don't
remember anything till Teddy yelling, 'Bob.'" He smiled at his wife and
Anna looked away, not to give them a moment's privacy but because their faces
had blurred. She rubbed her eyes, wondering if she needed sleep or what. When
she looked again they were back in focus. "The man
you saved—" "He
died." "Still
counts," Anna said. "The man never said anything?" "Not much.
He was never fully there, if you know what I mean. He was burned, and I think
he'd been struck on the head. Pain and concussion or whatever had him
scrambled." "What did
he say?" Anna asked. "Let's
see." Bob closed his eyes the better to recall. "He was scared,
wanted to get to dry land. 'Feet on American soil,' he said once. Once he said,
'cold' and then I thought he was saying 'tree saw' but it made no sense.
Nothing he said made sense." For a minute,
or maybe more, Anna waited in case Bob should wish to add anything, but he
didn't. "I'll let you rest," she said. "Your ride should be here
in half an hour or so. I want to get a look at the man you saved before they
haul him off to the knackers." As she closed
the infirmary door it suddenly struck her that Bob had done it. When reality
came knocking he'd been able to act out his fantasy. He'd swum over half a mile
with a compound fracture dragging behind him a man he'd saved from the briny
deep. He'd tried to build a signal fire and, when he felt himself blacking out,
his last thought was to fall in such a way as to protect the other guy from the
burning rays of the sun. That made him a
genuine, bona-fide hero in Anna's book. Later there
would be time to fete Bob, to wonder why the riders of the green go-fast boat
were hovering off East Key, why they panicked sufficiently when they saw law
enforcement to forget to clear the gasoline fumes, and why they carried extra
fuel in their bow. Right now she had a corpse to examine. The helicopter from
Key West would be at the fort in less than thirty minutes to whisk this bit of
human jetsam away. It took her
only a minute to fetch a camera and return to the researcher's dorm. Danny and
Mack did their work well. All six generators must have been working overtime.
The dorm was as cold as a morgue. And as dim. The long narrow room, packed
floor-to-ceiling with bunk beds had but one window facing out on
the parade ground, and that was dull with a cataract of mini-blinds. Having switched
on the overhead lights, which seemed to alter the nature of the dimness rather
than shed illumination, Anna walked back to the industrial-style kitchen. On
the counter, stripped of the colorful towels and covered by a white sheet, was
her objective. As she neared,
the sheet, draped over what must have been the man's right hand, stirred; a
minute flutter and lift as if plucked up then dropped by restless fingers. A
horror movie thrill closed Anna's throat, and she stopped. For an instant the
room's walls seemed to waver, start to close in. The sudden panic receded, but
not the fear. For a minute or more she watched the shrouded form, but there
were no more zombie-like manifestations. "Damn,"
Anna said aloud and was comforted by the sound of her own voice. The fort, lack
of sleep, too much sun, too long underwater, something was playing tricks with
her mind. "Okay, buddy," she continued, finding talking brought her
out of whatever creepy place she'd glimpsed. "Let's see if you've got
anything to tell me." Pinching the
sheet delicately between thumbs and forefingers, she peeled it back. She always
took care to respect the dead—an honor she would not necessarily extend were
they still living. Dead, a person was evidence at best and the empty valise of
someone's memory if nothing else. Anna hoped this dead man would prove a
treasure trove of answers. Starting with who he was. Having taken
the sheet off, she put her pocket notebook and pen on the counter by the
corpse's right foot, pulled on latex gloves to protect herself as much as any
trace evidence, and began. Hispanic—Cuban or Puerto Rican probably—in his late
twenties to mid-thirties, black hair cut short and well, the kind of barbering
a well-to-do businessman might get. Much of the left side of his face was
covered in second-degree burns. The ear had been taken by a third-degree burn.
All that remained was a hole surrounded by blackened flesh. Around his neck
was a two-inch gold crucifix—not a cross, a crucifix with the crucified Christ
executed in exquisite detail with skill and a joy in the macabre. The chain was
fused into the flesh where the fire had hit. Shirt and pants
were burned nearly off the left side of the body, while the right remained
relatively intact. He'd been standing to the right of the blast, at the engine.
It was probably he who'd triggered the first explosion. Anna checked the rest
of him for possible identifying marks. His right pocket contained one hundred
fifty-three dollars in a gold or gold-plated money clip with a dog's head
engraved on it, a shepherd or wolf or coyote. Other than that he carried no
identification. A bird of some kind, maybe an eagle, wings folded, was tattooed
on the back of his calf. Possibly he'd been in the service at one time. Her
knowledge of the military and its insignias fuzzy at best and gleaned from the
movies, Anna couldn't remember which branch, if any, used a bird diving
downward as its emblem. Dutifully, she
photographed everything and touched nothing but his trouser pockets and the
edge of a torn trouser leg. If there was to be any forensic investigation of
the remains, she didn't want it said she'd fouled it up. Odds were good there
wouldn't be. No crime they knew of had been committed. He'd killed himself and
his buddy in an unnecessary but not terribly rare boating accident. Probably X-rays
of his teeth would be taken for identification purposes and, if no one came
forward with a missing-persons claim, the body would be held however many days
Florida law decreed, then disposed of. If the man had
grown up outside the United States, his dental work would be of little value.
The boat might be a better way to trace his identity. If it was his boat. If it
had been purchased and/or licensed in the U.S. Anna clicked a
couple shots of the tattoo just to prove she was doing her job, and suffered a
moment of compassion for Florida law-enforcement officers of every stripe.
Working where several cultures came together, many recent immigrants, many
illegal, the twists and tangles in what in Kansas might be a routine
investigation became an almost impossible task. Leaving the
makeshift morgue with its sad John Doe, Anna could hear the chop and whuff of
the medevac helicopter from Key West. Garden Key had a helipad on a slight rise
between the campground and the sea on the old coaling dock used to refuel ships
when the fort was a working part of America's first line of defense. She had no
desire to be anywhere near the helipad when the helicopter set down. The mere
thought of being sandblasted on top of flayed by live coral made the undamaged
bits of her twitch. The Shaws and
the corpse shipped out. The search and rescue had been a success: her ranger
was not dead; her administrative officer was not widowed. Further diving was a
bad idea—at least until tomorrow. Both Anna and Linda were too tired and
beat-up to be safe, and Cliff had done more than his share. Though he would go
again without complaint if Anna asked him to, she wouldn't. He was no longer a
young man—he was no longer even a middle-aged man unless he intended to live to
one hundred and forty. Besides, Anna wanted to see things firsthand. The
weather was dead calm; the wreck would still be there tomorrow. The remainder
of the day she spent alone in the office, enjoying the quiet and the protection
of walls, cushioned chairs and air-conditioning. When she'd been a Yankee,
she'd scoffed at the stale soulless world of processed air. Since becoming a
southerner, she'd seen the light. With the top layer of her epidermis scraped
away, she was more than content to hide in the safe and comfortable womb of the
modern world. Another of the
perks of modern science was instant gratification, this time in the form of a
digital camera, the one fitted with an underwater container Anna, then Linda, then
Cliff had used to photograph the wreck. Anna'd used it again to take her
pictures of the corpse. After she'd written reports on the past twenty-four
hours' adventures, she downloaded the photos to Teddy's computer. Anna had
taken advantage of Teddy's absence to work at her desk rather than stay locked
away in the claustrophobic confines of her own office. An advantage of
the digital camera was that a photographer could take up to twelve hundred
photographs before running out of space. The disadvantage was that a
photographer could take up to twelve hundred photographs. Because film was not
a factor, there was no need to be frugal. Cliff's photos,
taken after the second explosion, were the most interesting. Anna compared
before and after shots, but could come up with nothing better than Danny's
original suggestion that the go-fast carried extra fuel, and fire from the
first blast engendered the second. When she
finally emerged from beneath the virtual sea, the office had grown gray with
dusk She shut the computer down and tried to move, but she'd been turned to
stone. An absurd picture of Teddy returning to find her hunched in her chair,
back humped, hands shaped like claws, glazed eyes fixed on the screen tittered
through Anna's brain. Groaning, she
loosed the muscles and joints grown stiff. Even her skin had stiffened, or so
it seemed, and felt as if it might rip were she to move too quickly. Getting outside
helped. Though the sun had set, it was still close to ninety degrees. After so
long in the AC, the heat's first embrace felt grand. Warm, dusk and no
mosquitoes: a rare treat for a woman late of Mississippi. The Dry Tortugas were
not always so blessed. Often after rains there would be an infestation of the
bloodsuckers, particularly if there'd been an open container left out to hold
standing water. With the recent drought, the vile creatures were blessedly absent. Rather than cut
across the parade ground, Anna climbed the spiral staircase near the fort's
gift shop and took the scenic route home. The stairs were dark enough she had
to feel her way up, but the steps were wide—at least at the outer edges—and the
handrails in good shape. On the second level she came out into the relative
brightness of the open casemates. To her right,
above what had once been the guardroom and was now the Visitors Center and gift
shop, was the cell in which Dr. Mudd and one of the other Lincoln conspirators
had been imprisoned. To her left was the northeast bastion. Anna turned left.
With openings to the sea on one side and the parade ground on the other, the
long rows of casemates collected light. On moonlit nights Anna often walked in
them, enjoying the silence, the shadows and the sense of human history that
mixed with the blood and mortar holding the bricks together. The bastions, with
their cavernous rooms and complex system of arches, were her favorite haunts. Not this night.
The northeast bastion's size and depth made it too dark. Usually the dark
didn't bother her, but her nerves had been scraped along with her flesh, and
the black corners set off internal alarms. Hugging the inner wall, she hurried
through and came out into the long passage down the northern edge of the parade
ground. Two perfect rows of arches, one small, made for the passage of men, one
large for the housing of cannon, unrolled. The arches forced perspective,
creating the illusion that the dimly lit vaults continued on to infinity. Soothed by the
uniform light and the fussy mutterings of thousands of sooty terns nesting on
nearby Bush Key, Anna drifted through the measured twilight. Halfway to her
quarters she noticed she was not alone. The other's presence was not heralded
by a shout or a footstep but by an unpleasant frisson along Anna's spine. At
the end of the casemates where the last arch gaped black, leading into the one
bastion without a gun port at it's end, the one called The Chapel because it
was surmised it had been so intended by the fort's builders, stood a woman in
white. Her dress was
long, tight-waisted, the sleeves of her blouse oversized at the shoulder and
snug from elbow to wrist. For a moment she was still, then she raised one hand
and patted her upswept hair as if looking for loose pins to poke in more
securely. "Hey!"
Anna yelled. "You!" And she began to run. The woman looked up, then
stepped back into the darkness, vanishing from sight. Running quickly and
lightly, it was only seconds before Anna reached the place where the woman had
stood. She searched The Chapel, the northwestern spiral stairs down to the
lower level and the exposed part of the casemates in front of her apartment and
that of Duncan and his family, but found nothing. Shaken, more
scared than she ought to be, Anna sat on the picnic table outside her quarters.
There were three possibilities: she'd seen a ghost, somebody was messing with
her or she was going mad. 6 My Dearest
Peggy— Sorry it has
been so long since last I wrote. Things have been a bit mad. Or perhaps I
should say a bit madder than usual. The fracas at the sally port turned out not
to be the lynching of Private Lane but the arrival through the storm of the
Lincoln conspirators. The entire fort was up in arms, our boys literally
running about with weapons and anger at ready. The fort crackled with evil the
rest of that night and for two days after. Joseph kept Tilly and I under house
arrest for nearly forty-eight hours either in fear for our well-being or, more
likely, because he forgot to tell our guards to go away and leave us alone. I
do know they dearly wanted to be relieved of this most onerous duty. We did not see
Joseph. I don't know where he slept or if he slept at all. I expect he was busy
keeping the soldiers and prisoners from using the arrival of the conspirators
as a rallying point to express their rage and frustration at the long hot
summer with its dry storms and lack of fresh food and water. Tilly slept
with me both nights. The unsettled state of the garrison, along with being
under house arrest, had us both on edge. I cannot, however, say that I slept
with Tilly. The girl kicks and tosses about just as she did when she was five
years old. I don't know that I should have slept a great deal better had she
gone to her own bed. The heat is oppressive and having a soldier escort one to
the privy is not conducive to the free and easy functioning of the body. Tilly
is as out of sorts as I but for different reasons. Singing romantic duets with
Private Lane, then holding his bloody head in her lap by lamplight, has
unhinged our little sister. I do believe Tilly is in love with the boy or
fancies herself so, which amounts to the same thing. By the
afternoon we were released, she had worked herself into a frenzy of worry that
Joel had died. My attempts to assure her that the fort's surgeon would have
seen to the boy and he was probably resting comfortably in the hospital had
little ameliorating effect. Possibly this was because I wasn't sure I believed
it myself. We weren't so
much released from our gentle, if humiliating, bondage as simply forgotten.
Tilly and I were in my room, sewing a new blouse to replace the one Joel Lane
had been so inconsiderate as to bleed all over, when Tilly—who'd done more
sighing and fretting than sewing—got up to visit the privy. She returned in
moments with the report that our warden had vanished and, the call of nature so
urgent a minute before now forgotten, insisted we go in search of Joel. The storm
passed without giving us a drop of rain to fill our cisterns, and the heat of
summer, heavy with moisture we can neither drink nor wash in but are condemned
to wear like a sweated sheet, filled the parade ground. Still I was glad to be
out—or at least as "out" as life on a prison island allows. The fort was
once again in order. Sentries patrolled on the third tier. Work gangs labored
at building the enlisted men's barracks. Off-duty soldiers smoked in the open
casemates or played at cards or dice. Gambling is second only to consuming
alcohol as the favorite pastime, providing at least an illusion of excitement. Despite this
appearance of normalcy, I could feel an undercurrent of tension. Tilly was
nearly coming out of her skin, alternately tearing up or giggling as if her
poor over-burdened little self could not decide whether we were embarking on a
grand adventure or a tragic love affair. Before the boy
had been punished for his "traitorous talk" he'd been lodged along
with others from his captured regiment in one of the casemates in the northwest
corner over the bakery. Because these Virginia boys are young, for the most
part, well spoken and ready to put their backs into any work assigned them,
they've been given the best quarters the fort has to offer. The casemate they
share is not walled in, and they are afforded the relief of sea breezes. Ignoring the
impropriety of shouting up at the prisoners, Tilly and I stopped beneath their
quarters. A pleasant young man with beautiful mustaches that curl to the bottom
of his jaw told us Joel had not returned to the casemate after the Lincoln
conspirators came. Their captain asked the guards where Joel was. They said
they didn't know. He'd either been taken to the hospital outside the fort's
walls or been put in another casemate. As we crossed
the parade ground it became clear that the tension I felt was not all of my own
making. The soldiers are usually a friendly lot, calling out greetings or
wanting to show me a letter from home or some small thing they've carved from
driftwood or formed from iron scraps. This day they were quiet or formed into
small clumps, backs to the outside world, muttering and whispering to each
other. Even the work gangs were silent: no singing, no banter, just the ring of
hammers and the repetitive thump of wheelbarrows rolled over uneven ground. The two biggest
trees between the sally port and the open area in the middle of the parade
ground had borne ugly fruit. Half a dozen men, some in the battered remnants of
the uniform of the confederacy, some union men, had been bound, hands behind
their backs, then strung up till their toes barely brushed the earth. I'm ashamed to
admit neither Tilly nor I gave them much thought but to glance at their faces
to determine that Private Lane was not among them. We hated to ask
the guard at the sally port the whereabouts of Joel Lane—Tilly. I'm sure,
remembering Sergeant Sinapp. Still, we had no recourse but the guard. We
couldn't very well wander from cell to cell like Wee Willie Winkie, peeking in
the windows and crying at the locks. By great good
fortune Sinapp was nowhere to be seen. Outside the fort a ship had
docked for coal, and the bustle and shouting had drawn away everyone not
duty-bound to stay at their posts. A fresh-faced boy from New York was manning
the sally port, leaning against the stone arch and looking forlornly at the men
loading coal as if they attended a marvelous entertainment to which he was not
invited. Intimidating
him was child's play but, as with most things that come easily, of little
value. He did not know Joel by name, could not separate one bloodied soldier
from another after two days of near-riot and subsequent punishment. "Maybe
Hospital Key," he told us. Hospital Key is nearly a mile away. There is a
makeshift building there—little more than walls and roof hastily knocked
together—where contagious patients are housed. Behind the dreary structure is
where we bury our dead. "Being sent to Hospital Key" is our euphemism
for dying. Perhaps it was because of this association that I felt so hopeless. As good fortune
would have it, while we were at the docks a skiff from the hospital landed with
two of the "nurses"—unskilled prisoners willing to work with the
sick. Even after a quarter of an hour at sea the men stank of sickness and rot.
It caught in my throat, threatening to dislodge my lunch of beans and salted
pork. Both Tilly and I clutched our handkerchiefs over our noses to the
amusement of the men. One "nurse," a confederate lieutenant, told us
Joel had not been in hospital as far as he knew, and he served there twelve out
of every twenty-four hours. Tilly was
despondent over the news and became convinced that her pet Johnny Reb was dead.
I admit I was at a loss myself. From the extent of the injuries Joel sustained,
neither of us could believe he would be on any of the work crews. Having no
other options, we walked along the moat back toward the sally port. There are
always magnificent frigate birds soaring there, immense black-winged creatures
which, rather than flap, seem able to soar indefinitely. Tilly, engrossed in a
world built partly of her love of drama and partly of real fear for Joel Lane,
called them "dark angels." I pooh-poohed her as befits the role of
the older, wiser sister, but I cannot say the description was not apt. To further
dampen spirits already near to drowning, a smirking Sergeant Sinapp met
us at the drawbridge. His uniform, heavy wool like those of all the soldiers,
was dark from armpit to waist with sweat, and his dun-colored hair stuck to his
forehead beneath the brim of his cap in a parody of a little Caesar. "Mornin',
ladies," he drawled. I find it particularly offensive when men from the
north affect a southern drawl. It always sounds cruel to my ears. Coming from
Sinapp I suspected it was meant to be. I chose not to
reply. Tilly, absorbed in her own thoughts, scarcely seemed to notice him. Not wishing for
the indignity of trying to dodge around him, I hooked my arm through Tilly's to
keep her from wandering into the moat in her preoccupation, stopped in front of
the sergeant and waited. It was clear I was doomed to endure whatever he chose
to consider witty repartee. "Looking
for the boyfriend?" he asked and gave Tilly an encore performance of his
leer two nights before. Fortunately she didn't seem to notice. "Sergeant,"
I said. "Please excuse us, we wish to pass." I was terribly polite.
Molly would be pleased to know I do occasionally use the good manners she was
at such pains to instill in us. The foul man
didn't budge. The peculiar fatigue that had descended upon me so abruptly kept
me from saying more. "You been
to the hospital?" I said nothing.
My focus had slid from Joel, Tilly and even the odious and odiferous sergeant
to a single and greatly desired goal: I wanted to sit down, preferably in the
shade. "You have.
I seen you." That was a lie but I left it unchallenged. Sweat rolled
down both sides of his face and into his collar. I was pleased to note he was
nursing a particularly nasty boil below his left ear where the wool chafed his
neck. "Your
boyfriend ain't in the hospital," Sinapp had to say. "We put him
where traitor's deserve to be. Teach him to talk more respectful. Too bad there
won't be anybody to hear it where he is." Too tired to
think of a reply, I stood holding up Tilly for a while longer. Either Sinapp
grew bored with baiting us or he had exhausted his vocabulary. Finally he
stepped aside and let us walk in out of the sun. The shade
beneath the sally port is complete unto darkness—or so it seemed after the
glare of the sun—and a breeze off the harbor blows through. I led Tilly to a
wooden bench the officers of the guard keep there and collapsed and let the
unnerving assault of Sergeant Sinapp and two nights without proper sleep wash
over me. Tilly came out of her stupor, which should have been a comfort—I had begun
to worry—but it was only to embark on an emotional storm of a different kind.
Tears leaked from her eyes. "He's dead. They killed him," she said in
a tiny voice. "'There's no one to talk to where he is.'" She repeated
the sergeant's words. What with one
thing and another, Tilly was working herself into a state of hysterics. I know
I should have slapped her, but I doubt Tilly has ever been struck in her life
and I couldn't bring myself to be the first. I like to think it is because I am
too good-hearted, but it may have been that I was simply too tired to raise my
arm. Instead, I held
her and rocked her and murmured, "Shh, shh, he's not dead," over and
over until I convinced myself. Sinapp's words
might have meant the boy had been murdered, but his tone was that of a man
enjoying not the memory of an evil done but an ongoing cruelty. There was such relish
in his voice when he spoke of there being no one to hear Joel's imagined
repentance. In the unfinished confines of Fort Jefferson there was only one place
I could think of where one would be truly alone, unheard. "He's not
dead," I told Tilly. She rebounded
from despair as only the young can: in the time it takes for a tear to be wiped
away. "I must go
to him" I must go to
him. What on earth has Molly been letting that girl read? She was such the
tragic heroine I was tempted to administer the slap my inherent saintliness had
resisted just moments before. All that saved her from at the very least the
acid of my tongue was the look of genuine anguish on her face. The young man
on sentry duty at the guardhouse moved, and we realized our teapot tempest had
been observed. Eyes blinded by shade after glare and minds blinded by our own
thoughts, neither of us had noticed him against the stone in his stone-dark uniform. "Now then
don't you go thinking on that, Mrs. Coleman. It won't do, you know." He moved out
from the wall to stand before us. "You
knew," I said. I wasn't so much accusing him as amazed that this callow
youth was such a practiced dissembler. "I apologize,
ma'am. But we have orders, and not talking about the Lane boy is one of
them." "You are
talking about him now," Tilly said with the inexorable logic of a
sixteen-year-old. The guard couldn't have been much older and seemed struck by
Tilly's words. "I
am," he said, appalled at his dereliction of duty. A moment was all he
needed to justify things in his mind. "But it's different." I began to
suspect this sweet-faced liar was not one of the Lord's brighter creations. "We'll see
him now," Tilly announced and stood up, brushing her skirts straight in a
no-nonsense sort of way. "Now." The soldier
shuffled his feet but otherwise stood his ground. "I can't let you do
that, Miss. The captain would have my hide." Tilly began to
tremble the way she used to just before she threw one of her terrible tantrums.
I decided to step in before she humiliated us both and frightened the guard
half silly. "We do need to see Private Lane," I told him, trying to
make it sound as if we had orders from on high. He grew more
uncomfortable. His feet stilled, but his eyes fixed on some place of courage on
the wall between Tilly and me. "Come on,
Tilly," I said with what I hoped was the voice of age and authority. "I can't
let you do that," he said again and stepped in front of me. I admired
him for his courage and attention to duty, but my patience was at an end. "How will
you stop us?" I asked. "Will you throw us to the ground? Lock us in
the guardhouse? Both of us?" Regardless of
orders, he was unwilling to lay hands on a woman, particularly not his
captain's wife. "I'll
inform the captain," he said finally. "And
abandon your post? If you do that you will end up keeping Private Lane company.
Or worse." With that, I took Tilly's arm and we left him standing in his
personal quandary. Of course he would hail the first soldier who came within
range and send him to fetch Joseph, but I hoped Tilly and I had gained enough
time. Tilly and I
scuttled hastily down the row of casemates to the left of the sally port,
walking through the narrow arches. In the shadows to our left was a rubble of
new brick and gleaming cannon, oiled and ready but so new they'd not been
fired. On our right was the brilliant light of the parade ground. I had been to
our destination only once before and had not had the cause nor desire to see it
a second time. Tilly was not even aware of its existence, and I couldn't really
think of any words that might soften what was bound to be a blow. At last we came
to the largest room yet, windowless as were the others with no firing slits or
gun ports to let in the day. A wooden door set in the heavy planks that sealed
off one of the arches. "What's
that?" Tilly asked, again five years old. I told her:
"It's called the dungeon. It's the only truly secure place in the fort.
Joseph puts the most dangerous men here sometimes." "Oh,
look," Tilly whispered and pointed. I had
forgotten, but just above the door were the words, "Abandon hope all ye
who enter here." Tilly is not the only person on this earth with a love of
melodrama. I crossed the
brick floor to peer in the tiny barred window in the door. Light, leeched
of its living gold by passage through the single narrow slit in the outer wall,
provided just enough illumination I could see a pile of clothing on the floor
of the dungeon. All that marked it as a man was a hand flung out and up, turned
as gray and devoid of warmth as the light caught in its palm, A heavy shackle
weighed down the wrist. From it ran a chain to a ring set in the wall.
In this age of steam engines, universities and travel across the oceans, a
sight so medieval didn't seem real. It was as if I peeked through a portal into
a barbaric past. One my husband
had created. Reality came
back to me on the terrible odor wafting through the bars. A bucket for waste
stood beside the crumpled form, and next to it, much too close for decency, a
bucket with the handle of a water dipper protruding over the rim. Private
Lane—and who else could this have been?—could not even move out of his own
waste. I do apologize for talking of such a distasteful thing, but the truth of
it underscored how like an animal it made the boy seem, and how like mindless
beasts the men who had put him there. "Is it
Joel? Is he alive?" Tilly had crept
up in her slippered feet. Her voice so close and sudden nearly stopped my
heart. "I don't
know," I said truthfully. "If he is he won't be for long." She began
tugging at the door, but its lock was forged to withstand the strength of even
first love. The ringing of
boots on brick in a rhythm I've listened for over half my life stopped us
both—her tugging at the lock, me tugging at her. "Joseph,"
I said. 7 Anna put
Raffia's letter down and sat for a moment staring sightlessly across the narrow
sitting room toward the kitchen sink. A grilled cheese sandwich with a single
bite out of it lay congealed to the plate beside her on the sofa. On the coffee
table, near the box of letters, was yet another glass of flat, unsparkly
sparkling water. Her throat had been dry for days, and the water only seemed to
make it worse. The window over
the sink had gone dark. An idle part of Anna's brain pondered that for a moment
before logic told her night must have long since replaced the subtropical dusk.
Even with this scrap of knowledge to cling to she couldn't shake the creepy
sensation that, should she look out of that window, she would see soldiers from
the Civil War hanging from trees. It was the
battering she'd taken, she told herself: heat, lack of sleep, blunt trauma,
contusions, severed fingers, dead Cubans and live heroes. And that made
her see a ghost. She shook her
head as if negating an invisible accuser. She'd endured worse and never once
had emanations from the ether plagued her. Though she didn't want to admit it,
because to do so was as frightening as the ghost, the woman in white she knew
was Raffia had not been a beginning but merely a next step. For a while now,
maybe a day, maybe longer—Anna couldn't be sure, memories of sanity being
tricky things—the world had started shifting occasionally, reality slipping just
a little, just enough that Anna's entire being was suffused with the wrongness
of things. It was as if she'd been cursed with the ability to see into another
dimension or another time, and she didn't like it. "Evils
sufficient unto the day." She repeated the aphorism to the cat. Piedmont
meowed politely but, not being much of a philosopher, chose to lick his
hindquarters rather than continue the discussion. He assumed the position that
always reminded Anna of a turkey ready for roasting and commenced his bath.
Rubbing her eyes hard enough to chase red and black stars across her vision,
Anna knew she was desperately in need of something. Sleep maybe. Her mind, the
one thing she could count on to consistently work properly, was on the fritz.
Molly. She needed Molly, and not as a sister this time but as a mental health
professional. She looked at the clock on the front of the stove. The hands
indicated one o'clock. Knowing that couldn't be right, she forced her stiff and
creaking frame from the couch and went into the bedroom. The clock on the night
table suffered the same time warp: one A.M. The sofa, Aunt Raffia, the other
dimension she'd been slipping into, had swallowed three hours, and Anna
couldn't readily account for them. By the number of pages beneath Piedmont's
furry butt she knew she could not have been reading the whole time. Dreaming?
Sleeping with her eyes open? The unholy
frisson of fear that had stalked the edges of her consciousness sank its claws
in, and she winced with the sudden onslaught of psychic pain. Molly would have
to be rudely awakened. She slipped on her flip-flops. "Don't
wait up," she told the cat as she collected the office keys from under the
papers he used as a bath mat. The night was
glorious, the air at least eighty degrees and, after the air-conditioning,
soothing against Anna's tortured skin. Unimpeded by light pollution or clouds,
the moon cast enough light to throw silver pathways through the open casemates.
Anna didn't slow down to glory in it but walked across the middle of the parade
ground, dry grasses crackling beneath her feet. She looked neither right nor
left, not wanting to see what might be beckoning from the seductive black and
silver rooms. The humdrum
bureaucratic box that encapsulated the administrative offices, usually a bane
to eyes conditioned to historic grandeur, was a comfort. It exuded normalcy. No
ghost worth her ectoplasm would deign to haunt such tedious architecture. Sitting at
Teddy's desk, Anna punched in the long list of numbers required to make a credit
card call and was further reassured by her besieged brain's ability to recall
them. "Dr.
Pigeon," Molly answered on the second ring, sounding alert and geared for
whatever emergency the dead-of-night phone call presaged. "Hello,"
Anna said. "It's me." "Hello?" "Hello." "Hello?" The creepy
feeling flexed its claws again, and Anna wondered if she'd really dialed, if
she'd spoken aloud, if this was all a dream. "Anna?" The delay. The
phone on this out-of-the-way scrap of sand was subject to one- to two-second
delays in transmission. Anna sighed out breath she'd not known she was holding.
This phenomenon was merely mechanical. She could deal with that. "I'm in
trouble," Anna said and waited through another "Anna?" while the
words made their journey to her sister's apartment on the Upper West Side. "Start at
the beginning," Molly told her when communication had been established. Though Molly
already knew some of it, Anna did as she was told, listing in chronological
order the events that could possibly in some way, shape or form be responsible
for the all-too-visible heebie-jeebies she'd been suffering. She included the
not-totally-unpleasant pressure of Paul Davidson's love letters, the heat, the
dryness of her mouth, the boat explosion, feeling the wreck was sentient
and malicious, believing the corpse of the Cuban boatman to have moved a
finger, each and every wince or advent of the willies she could recall, ending
with the startling appearance of Raffia Coleman, the woman in white. "Wilkie
Collins," Molly said. "Just like
that but no veil," Anna replied. Silence came down, a palpable thing, like
an iron plug in Anna's ear. She wondered if Molly was thinking of Collins's
book, one of the first mysteries ever written. She hoped Molly was forming a
perfectly logical diagnosis that would be the psychiatric equivalent of
"take two aspirin and call me in the morning." As the silence
continued, Anna began to lose hope. "Okay,"
Molly said after what Anna felt was a cruel and unusual amount of time.
"You say this figure was our great-great-aunt Raffia, the woman whose
letters I sent you?" "Yes." "Do you
just, quote, know, unquote, it was Aunt Raffia, or do you genuinely believe
it was Aunt Raffia?" Anna let the
difference between the two percolate through her brain. "I just
know," she said. "I don't believe it. It's nuts. I don't believe in
ghosts. Either this was a figment or a fake, though I don't know who but you
knows anything about Aunt Raffia." "Do you
lock your door?" Anna said
nothing. It was a rhetorical question. Living in National Parks, Anna'd seldom
felt the need. Living in New York, the concept appalled Molly. "Okay,"
Anna agreed. "Where does that leave me? Headed for Bedlam or Bellevue or
what?" Again Molly was
quiet too long, and Anna felt a fist of panic knuckling behind her sternum. "Given you
don't literally believe the woman was real—or a real ghost—unless it's some
kind of bizarre joke by people too long on a desert island, I think there is
hope for you." Anna laughed,
wanting that to be all, something a trained psychiatrist would laugh off as
normal, but Molly wasn't through. "However,"
her sister went on. "Given the clarity and duration of the hallucination,
as well as the intense feelings of fear and disorientation you've been having
over the last few days, I would like you to see someone." "Like a
shrink?" Anna asked, appalled just as if she'd not been talking to one for
half her life. "A
neurologist would be the place to start," Molly said. "You've had
blunt trauma, possibly affecting the head or the inner ear—I don't really know
how an underwater explosion works. That could be a factor. But considering you
had these feelings earlier—" "Maybe
not," Anna cut her off, trampling her sister's words as they came two
seconds late. "I mean, time's relative, and I wasn't seeing things before
the explosion. I mean, of course I was seeing things, but I wasn't seeing things."
Abruptly she stopped. Not only was she babbling, but with her inner ear she
could hear Sister Mary Corinne saying: "Thou dost protest too much." Molly let the
silence settle. Anna hoped she was just making sure there were no words left on
the time delay and not dialing her cell phone to call the men with the
butterfly nets to catch her mad sibling. "It never
hurts to get things checked out," Molly said reasonably. "A CAT
scan, a physical, that sort of thing. Once those are ruled out we can take a
next step." Suddenly Anna
was sorry she'd called, sorry she'd told anyone. She didn't want to take a
first step, let alone a next step. "Or it could
just be one of those things and go away," she said. "Could
be," Molly returned with such studied neutrality Anna grew more alarmed. To reassure her
sister—and herself—she laughed. "Hey, maybe it's in the air out here. The
guy before me went nuts and had to be relieved of duty." The instant the
words were out of her mouth, Anna was shocked to hear the truth in them. "My God,
Molly. No kidding. The guy's name was Lanny Wilcox. Daniel, the maintenance man
here, said Lanny got stranger and stranger and finally started seeing things
nobody else saw. I've got to go. I've got to think about this." "Be
careful," her sister warned. "Things we want to be true are
incredibly convincing." "Right." "Call
me," Molly said. Anna heard the words, little and far away, as she
returned the receiver to its cradle and forgot them a second later. To escape
the air-conditioning that chilled the sweat between the thin dress and her bare
skin, she slipped out of the office and sat on the steps, elbows on her knees,
temples between her palms, fingers in hair gone mostly gray. I -army Wilcox
had gone mad. His girlfriend had left him. He'd become distraught, obsessed
with this Theresa woman, increasingly erratic. He'd started seeing things.
Developed a paranoia probably—no, undoubtedly—accompanied by feelings of
anxiety. Lanny had communicated his thoughts—his visions—to his fellow rangers
and been bundled off to the mainland, out of sight and possibly out of his
mind. Now she was
here, in his place. Her sweetheart had yet to abandon her, but there was a
degree of stress in the relationship. Certainly there'd been other stressors:
Shaw's disappearance, the sunken boats, reports explaining the loss of a United
States Government boat. Anna'd begun
feeling strange, anxious. She was even a tad paranoid—afraid she was going off
the deep end. Of course it wasn't paranoia if it was true. "Stop
that," she said sharply. Then tonight,
she'd begun seeing things. "Not
seeing things," she said aloud. "Seeing a thing. One thing." But it had been
a doozy; a flour-colored female in period costume who Anna "knew" was
her and Molly's long-dead great-great-aunt. The aunt part
could be put off onto the power of suggestion; Anna's immersion in Raffia's
letters. The ghost or hallucination or whatever could not. The odds of
both she and Lanny Wilcox, same job, same location, close to the same age going
insane within weeks of each other were slim—at least she guessed they were. A
check of medical leaves and absences of Fort Jefferson personnel over the past
five years might be a good idea. Perhaps the nut cases one heard of drifting
ashore and taking up residence on the islands of the Caribbean had been
perfectly normal when they'd arrived. Sand and surf could have an
as-yet-unresearched corrosive effect on the human mind. Maybe van Gogh would
still have both cars if he'd stayed in France. "Jesus,"
Anna whispered and squeezed the heels of her hands together to push her
unraveling thoughts back into a thread she could follow. So. Unless a
great number of people on islands in the Caribbean went nuts, she and Lanny
were moderately rare. Either a coincidence Thomas Hardy would be proud of had
occurred or there were external forces at work. Like somebody ... or something— Somebody wanted
the Supervisory Ranger to believe he or she was going mad so ... So what? So
they would go away? That was scarcely efficacious; the NPS would simply ship
another out to fill the post. A shudder took
her from the inside out as though she ridded herself of a blanket of snow.
Trying to fix on motive undermined the theory that Anna wanted—needed—to
believe. "Two rangers going crazy in a row is crazy," she said. The
echo of the word "crazy" scared her. Therefore, she pushed her
mind on doggedly, if her theory was true—and until the walls started sprouting
eyeballs and the lizards holding forth on Eastern philosophy, she had to
believe it was—then she was not losing her mind; she was being gaslighted. As Lanny had
been gaslighted? "Yes," Anna hissed. "Move on." Squeezing
her skull even more tightly, she continued to build the case for sanity. Since Anna
chose to believe that she was sane—or at least as sane as she'd ever been—the
next obvious conclusion was that what she had seen earlier that evening had
been real. Closing her fingers into fists, hair sticking out between the
knuckles, she tugged gently at her scalp to assist in this rearrangement of
theories. Starting at the
point where seeing was believing, it followed that the ghostly woman was
real—not necessarily flesh and blood but conceived and executed by someone who
was. Lanny's beloved
was an obvious choice to begin the deconstruction of his reality. If the same
thing were happening to Anna, why would the perpetrator choose an image of her
Aunt Raffia? It was possible
someone—anyone—in the fort could have read Raffia's letters. They needn't even
have bothered to; Anna'd been sufficiently fascinated by the story she'd shared
parts of it with several people: Duncan the historian, Teddy, Daniel.
Pertaining to the fort as it did, the stories would have been repeated,
discussed. Fort Jefferson's peak period as a working fort had been during its
time as a prison for the Union Army. It was possible—probable, in fact—that
anyone designing a haunt for the place would choose a specter from that
period. A female in a long white dress not only fit with the history of the
fort but was a classic in the ghost world, virtually a clichй like the rattling
of chains and the trailing of rotting grave cloth. The fact that
Anna had "known" it was Raffia was neither here nor there. Reading
the old letters would easily account for her identification. The brain seeks
the familiar, needs to make sense of things. Creating
illusions was a good deal easier than most people suspected, Anna reminded
herself. The human brain was excellent in filling in blanks, weaving whole
cloth from a few threads. Magicians were masters at suggestion, distraction: a
hint and an audience would believe. If this was
what happened to Lanny and was now happening to her, the field was narrowed down
to the people living on Garden Key and the two lighthouse keepers on
Loggerhead. It was too much of a stretch to believe a regular citizen would
boat out the seventy or so miles from the mainland over a six- to eight-week
period just to drive the ranger nuts. The woman in
white, seen from a distance and fleetingly, the light poor, the setting
perfect, could have been quite simply a real woman dressed and in whiteface, a
life-sized drawing, white on black cloth or paper, shown, then whisked from
sight. Steeped in the history of the fort and her own family, Anna's mind would
have filled in the rest. She moved. Anna distinctly
remembered the raise of the arm, the hand on the hair. She remembered, too, how
detailed and specific everything she'd seen had been, but she pushed that
memory into the mental file: "Tricks of eye and mind." Examining it
too closely would lead her back to the place where madness was the answer. Duncan's wife
was the only woman living on Garden Key who physically resembled Anna's ghost:
slender, well proportioned. A scene of such
little importance it had slipped her mind came back with stunning clarity:
passing Duncan in the sally port, him smiling as always, his face creased with
it till the old saw "wreathed with smiles" seemed sensual, his
thinning blond hair as feathery as a baby duck's head, his square, strong body
positively springy with vitality and clean living. "Anna,"
he'd said, voice rich from years of playing to crowds. "I hear your sister
sent you historical gold. Written around when Mudd was incarcerated here. Mind
if I look at it sometime? Might be my Rosetta Stone." Vaguely, she'd
been aware Duncan was bent on proving beyond a shadow of a doubt and once and
for all and finally (as if reality could ever lay hope and speculation to rest)
that Dr. Mudd was guilty of conspiring to murder President Lincoln. Had Duncan
grown impatient, slipped into her quarters and read the letters? Duncan knew
his history and was part actor/producer as were all good interpreters and
historical reenactors. Other than universal malice, she could see no reason he
or his wife would have for such trickery. Teddy Shaw and
Bob? He'd been in the hospital in Key West when Anna'd suffered her visitation,
but Teddy'd been at the fort, and Anna doubted Teddy did much without his
knowledge and enthusiastic approval. Daniel. Mack. Duncan. His wife. Linda.
Cliff. The list was short and absurd. Much as she might wish to stretch things,
she couldn't imagine why any of them would have the need or desire to carry out
a hoax of such magnitude. Consciously she
breathed out the thoughts. Her mind was running too fast. She imagined she
could hear the strain—the same sound as a car engine forced too hard in a low
gear—see the needle sliding into the red. Loosing the clamp her fists had on
her skull and the busy weaving fetters that tied thought to thought, she leaned
back against the office door and let the soft night air in through lungs, eyes,
ears and the pores in her skin. The moon was
well on its way toward setting, and the shadows, slightly blacker than she
remembered them, had crept out to swallow the two houses, joined like Siamese
twins, a screened-in porch at either end. Teddy slept alone in one. In the
other Lanny Wilcox's worldly goods awaited his return. The houses
stood where the officers' quarters had been in Raffia's day. Anna pictured what
they must have looked like in the moonlight. Three stories
high, long covered veranda on the first and second floors onto which the doors
opened, palm trees and a path bordered by whitewashed skulls. Cannonballs. To her the
fort, this fort, the National Park Service's fort, seemed small and empty.
Though it covered nearly seven acres and walking around it was close to a mile
under bricked arches, it didn't seem big enough to hide anyone intent on evil.
Without people for crowds or miles and miles of country to hide away in,
evildoers would be obvious. The Fort
Jefferson Raffia described in her letters, with its thousand men, carpenters,
bricklayers, engineers, guards and prisoners; with its store and construction
projects, hospital, bakery and coaling docks visited by great ships, seemed as
if it must have been a much larger place. St. John's bread trees with their
thick crowns and twisted limbs took the place of the grove of palms Raffia had
described. Two Portia trees grew their blood-red flowers, a source of delight
in the desiccated parade ground, where the men suffering punishment were hung. "Shit."
Anna jerked herself upright. Raffia's world had begun to manifest again, a mist
forming into three dimensions in a time where it did not belong. For a
second—just a second—Anna could have sworn she saw a body, arms tied behind,
toes barely sweeping the ground, hanging from the boughs of the Portia. "God
damn," Anna cursed herself and scrubbed at her face with her palms in an
attempt to reconnect with the corporal world. I fell asleep. I was
dreaming. "I was dreaming," she whispered aloud to see if the
words were more reassuring than the thought. The Truth she'd settled on before the
mists or the dreams had come resurfaced. Anna grabbed onto it. Whatever she
saw was real until proven otherwise. Feeling shaky
and naked and little in her short dress with no underpinnings, she pushed up
from the steps. Kicking off the flip-flops so their idiosyncratic noise
wouldn't alert the fort that she was flapping about, she walked around the
perimeter of the open area, staying close to the casemates that she might share
their shadows. The Portia
trees were spaced fifteen to twenty feet apart. There were three altogether. No
bodies hung from the limbs. Nothing even suggested that shape or mass. This was
one of the few times in her years as a law-enforcement ranger that she wished
there was a corpse left hanging in the trees. "Can't
even trust the dead anymore," she muttered, then wondered if talking to yourself
was a sign of incipient madness. "I've always talked to myself," she
said. See, her traitorous mind whispered. "Fuck." A light
flitted, butterfly-like across the upstairs window of one of the houses between
the Portia trees and her quarters on the second tier: Lanny Wilcox's house. "Fuck,"
Anna said again for lack of anything more erudite. She didn't move. The thought
that she would be pursuing yet another will-o'-the-wisp and would become hopelessly
lost in craziness paralyzed her. The light didn't come a second time, though
she waited without moving for several minutes. Standing
barefoot in the dark, helpless with indecision, she had a sudden galvanizing
thought. What if this precise reaction was what the maker of ghosts and
will-o'-the-wisps wanted? A ranger too unsure of herself to do her job? Even as
the idea cheered her, it faded. Criminals—real ones—were seldom so crafty as to
employ esoteric psychological tortures with uncertain ends. Except in fiction,
it was pretty much a smash-and-grab, drive-by-shooting sort of world. As if in
ratification, the unmistakable click of an old-fashioned door closing snicked
through the still air. Anna'd been related to a psychiatrist long enough to
know that run-of-the-mill hallucinations seldom came with sound. A human being
from the twenty-first century was skulking about the Wilcox place in the dead
of night. "Hallelujah!"
Anna breathed and, silent as a cat on her bare feet, she ran lightly over the
brick path that rounded toward the houses. She made so little noise she could
hear a muffled plod that could be the fall of soft-soled shoes on brick. The pathway was
old, the bricks broken in places. Intent on speed, Anna stumbled, her toes
catching on a ragged upthrust. Pain was immediate and intense. She didn't cry
out but went down on one knee. If the skin was scraped from it, the screaming
of the nerves in her toes drowned out its complaint. All she felt was the jar.
Her fall made a sound, a small one but on a night so still it might have
been enough. Holding her breath, she listened. The footsteps had stopped. If they'd ever
been there. The earlier expletive went unspoken if not unthought.
Hallucinations she could live with. Self-doubt was crippling. She stayed where
she was, not moving, not thinking, just listening. Mad or not, there was little
in this dimension or the next that she could not outwait. The pain in her toes
passed, allowing her to feel the burn where brick had abraded the skin from her
knee. Compared to the burn of coral it wasn't worth her notice. It was almost a
relief to have a scrape that didn't itch while it hurt. She didn't
twitch or scratch or fidget. Stillness grew around her, knit from the night
itself. The faintest of skritching noises heralded a lizard, not more than two
inches long, who came out from his crevice in the crumbling mortar and warmed
his tiny belly on the brick an inch and a half from her little finger and never
sensed he was not alone. Occasionally a
recurrence of the idea that there'd been no footsteps drifted into Anna's
brain. In stillness she accepted it without fear. Should she be mad, there was
no better place to be so than in the quiet darkness with a lizard for company. After a time
she had no interest in measuring, her patience was rewarded. Not a footfall but
a splash came to her ears. She rose in one fluid motion and ran quickly around
behind the Wilcox/Shaw homes and up the wooden stairs to where her quarters
were. The casemates beneath, where she guessed the nightwalker had stopped when
he heard her fall, were too dark to walk into alone, half-naked, at night
merely because she believed the danger to have passed. On the second
tier she ran to the broken-out gun port forming a ragged-edged window opposite
her picnic tables and leaned out to see beyond the thickness of the wall. The
casemates on the first floor had like holes punched in their sides. At one time
the ports had been enclosed with iron shutters—high-tech for their
time—designed to fly open when the canons came forward and slam shut when they
recoiled. According to the old military and engineering reports, they'd never
worked properly. In the ensuing
century those that hadn't been forcibly removed had rusted out. Water had Mown
into the exposed mortar, and bricks had fallen away leaving great toothy gaps
where the ports had been. Crawling out
onto her three-foot windowsill, she studied the gun ports in the ground-floor
casemates. Empty. She'd expected that. The moat, crystal clear and not more
than two- or three-feet deep on the west side, was empty as well. She'd not
expected that. The water was mildly agitated, but that could mean nothing. Big
fish and little waves came in through the break in the wall to the sea. On the gray
concrete capping the wall separating the moat from the ocean she saw, not what
she looked for, but proof it had been there. Against the pale concrete,
silvered by the moon, were two dark handprints and a darkened slash. Whoever
she'd heard leaving Wilcox's quarters had stepped into a lower casemate when
she'd fallen. Too clever or cowardly to trust her silence, he—or she—had gone
out through the portal into the moat and over into the ocean. The moat wall on
the west and south sides of the fort was high, six to eight feet above water
level in places. Once outside, it could be easy to keep out of sight of the
fort. Because the
moat was unoccupied, at least by bipeds, Anna guessed she'd not heard the drop
from the fort to the moat but the splash made as the person had clambered out on
the far side. By the time she reached the place the handprints were, whoever it
was would be gone, either back into the campground, out to his boat or in
through another portal and back to his bed. It occurred to
Anna to run down, follow the trail through the darkened casemate and the warm
water just to see if the handprints and the butt slide were really there, feel
the dampness with her own fingers. Instead, she turned and went into her
quarters. She did not
want to arrive on the moat wall to find the prints were gone, then have to
spend the rest of the night wondering if they'd dried or were never there in
the first place. Too late to
sleep, she picked up Raffia's letters and began to read. 8 My Dearest Peg,
The footsteps we heard were indeed Joseph's. Having had more than ample
opportunity over the years to witness his rages, I've come to classify them
into red and white. When in a red rage Joseph yells and curses, slams doors and
smashes his fists into things—not me, mind you, but walls, bolsters and other
pieces of innocent household accoutrements. The white rages are more alarming.
These are blessedly rare and marked by tight-lipped control and palpable
emanations of violence leashed. I don't fear them as I once did and, in a
strange way, have come almost to admire them. Joseph in a rage is a force of
nature. I find myself watching him in fascination and awe, much as I would a
tremendous hurricane wind. The day he
found Tilly and me outside the door of the dungeon, his rage was white hot.
Entering as he did from the direction of the light, the first thing we saw was
his silhouette framed in a confluence of dark arches. Joseph is not a big man,
but he looked so to us Tilly stopped her whimpering over her damaged rebel and
became absolutely still. What she did
from instinct, I had to learn by trial and error. When Joseph's rage is white,
I know better than to so much as utter a single word. Since he cannot
speak when this mood is upon him—due no doubt to the fact that even the
slenderest of syllables cannot force themselves through iron-clenched jaws and
lips compressed to a bloodless seam—our entire drama was enacted in near
silence. Only the ring of my husband's boots on the brick and the whisper of my
skirts entangling with Tilly's told of our exodus. Joseph grabbed
each of us by the upper arm and marched us from the door of the dungeon.
Struggling would only have drawn attention to our indignity, so we allowed
ourselves to be escorted ignobly back to quarters. Joseph never looks so
handsome as he does when in high dudgeon. His hazel eyes were sparkling, his
dark mustache framing that sensuous mouth and setting off a nose that must have
been introduced into his French ancestors when they fought the Saracens in
Spain. Perhaps I am pitifully like that old dog we used to have. He never
seemed to care if we were yelling at him or stroking him as long as we were
paying attention to him. That night and
the next day I kept myself out of his way, doing housewifely things for his
comfort, and left Tilly to bring him around. Though I know soft ways and
womanly wiles are best, I cannot bring myself to do them. Even after two
decades there is a devil in me that wants to meet the devil in him out in the
open. And, too, I believe our sister could wrap Lucifer himself around her
little finger if she set her mind to it. Even with
beauty, cunning and youthful zeal, such is my husband's inner strength, it took
Tilly thirty-six hours before he would agree to let us tend Joel. The fort
surgeon refused to treat a "traitor," and Joseph refused to order him
to do so, but in the end, I think he does have a heart if not of gold then at
least not entirely of stone and didn't want the boy to die alone and uncared
for. Having begged
what necessaries we could from the small infirmary in the parade
ground—bandages and a blanket were all they said they could spare—we set off to
get the key and then go to the dungeon. The passage of
another day and the insistence of the Lord in pouring the rational balm of pure
sunlight down from a stunningly blue sky had done much to calm the
garrison and return the soldiers to routine. Just that quickly was Joel not
forgiven but forgotten. None of the guards so much as raised an eyebrow when we
appeared, bandages and buckets of fresh water in hand, to ask for the key. "He's
dead," Tilly whispered when I opened the dungeon's door. "Hush."
Should the boy still live, I didn't want him to hear her despair. He lay,
without moving, in his own waste—the reek of it filled the vault. Diffused
light from the gun slit showed us a full water bucket and an empty slops
bucket. Food had been left for the pleasure of rats and mice, who graciously
vacated the area at the noise of our arrival. Blood and
bruising made Joel's flesh the color with his stained uniform, still confederate
gray only in the places where rebel insignias had been ripped from it
subsequent to his capture. "He's
warm," she said. "That means he's alive." The vault was
near ninety-eight degrees at a guess. Even a coldblooded creature from the
depths of the ocean would have been warm to the touch. I felt for a pulse in
his throat just under his jaw and was pleased to tell Tilly: "Yes, that
means he's alive." I could see
Tilly was shortly to become useless with the emotion of the past days, so I set
her to the task of clearing away the old food and sweeping up the crumbs. When
she'd left the cell to fetch broom, dustpan and cleaning rags, I removed Joel's
clothing and cleaned him as though he were an infant. Tilly at her tender age
did not need to see that part of a naked man, but it was the one part of
Private Lane's body that was unhurt and, though my experience is limited to my
husband and the boys we used to spy on swimming at the old quarry, Joel is a
well enough made man. The rest of him
was painful to look at. There was bruising on his chest so dark and vicious I
knew the ribs underneath had to be broken. His abdomen was black and purple as
well, but it felt neither terribly hot nor swollen. Had the beating ruptured
something inside, Tilly's and my roles as ministering angels would soon have
changed to those of undertakers. Ropes had cut both anus, and his thumbs
remained so swollen and angry I could not be sure he'd ever have full use of
his hands again. In a previous
letter I described the injuries to his face. Suffice to say, though still grim
and disfiguring, I did think they looked somewhat better. He looked more man
than monster. I felt his face, and the bones had not been broken but for his
nose. It will never be so neat and straight as it once was. As I washed his
most delicate areas, his member twitched and started to swell. Modern
scientific theory would have it that when people die the heart is the last
organ to cease functioning. I believe with men the center of life is located
somewhat further down. "Tina,"
he whispered. I was so pleased that he had not entirely left this world, I
wasn't terribly interested in what past peccadilloes I had inadvertently
awakened in memory. And I most certainly will not tell Tilly his first word was
not her name. I left the
vicinity where I had been giving such life-affirming ministrations and knelt by
his head. "It's Mrs. Coleman," I told him. "Oh my
God," he mumbled and his eyelids twitched. The flesh around them was too
battered to allow his eyes to open fully, but even so I could see alarm there.
To wake and find oneself being touched intimately by the prison warden's wife
must have been jarring to his poor beleaguered mind. To calm him
lest this new horror shake his tenuous grip on consciousness, I told him where
he was and why I was at his side doing what I suspect was once the job of
"Tina." The alarm faded and he closed his eyes but did not leave me. "Thirsty,"
he said. Holding his
head in my lap that he might not choke, I drizzled nearly a cup of water between
his parched lips. Having drunk, he seemed much revived, and I sent a belated
prayer of thanks to the Almighty for the strength and recuperative powers of
the young. By the time
Tilly returned, I had Private Lane as clean as a sponge bath allowed and decently
covered from the waist down by the blanket. I gave her a
moment to weep over Private Lane, which I think did him nearly as much good as
the water and the "bath," but when she began peppering him with questions that were bound to upset the
balance of his humors, I sent her off on more errands. We stayed,
dripping water and encouragement into Joel, for near two hours. He spoke again
several times and seemed clearheaded but fell easily into restless dozing that
was tormented by dreams. Finally he fell into what I dearly hoped was a restful
sleep and not a return of the unconsciousness that is so like and so near to
death. Tilly and I
knelt one to each side of him, my knees aching from so long against the hard
floor. Tilly cradled one of Joel's hands in her lap, looking at it as she asked
me: "Will he be crippled?" Honestly, I
could not say and didn't wish to burden her with my opinion. "He needs a
doctor," I said instead. Between us lay
the hurtful knowledge that the fort's hospital was closed to Joel, and Captain
Caulley had hardened his heart against the man who'd spoken traitorously of the
murder of our president. "We'll do
our best," I promised. Tilly said
nothing for a minute, then: "There's another medical doctor at Fort
Jefferson." There are no
other doctors at Fort Jefferson and for a moment I sorted through my memories
in the vain attempt to find one. Then it came to me. "Oh, no,
Tilly." She said
nothing, but by the way she looked at me I could tell neither of us were to
have any peace till it had been tried. 9 When her eyes
grew too tired to read, Anna returned to the broken-out gun portal. The moon
was low, yet she could feel its light upon her skin if she closed her eyes. My
mind is no place to play alone, she thought and kept her eyes open, her
brain focused on real three-dimensional things, things she could touch. Staying awake
in these wee hours wasn't difficult. Sleep seemed like a thing of the past,
something she used to do but was no longer necessary. That in itself was odd.
Thinking back, she knew that she should have been exhausted—not just mentally
but with the body fatigue that demands sleep. No wonder she was getting
squirrelly. Had she access to sleeping pills she would have happily drugged her
body into submission. As it was, there was no point in going to bed; she may as
well stare at the moon as the ceiling. Sitting still she was at least resting. Unfortunately
stillness without exacerbated restlessness within. Her mind with its specters
would not leave her alone. The corners of her eyes were plagued with
flickerings of almost unseen things flitting from shadow to shadow. Too long
staring at the silver track the moon lay across the quiescent ocean and it
began to change subtly, to move in sinister waves. The fear that had torn at her
earlier when her sister, her psychiatrist, for God's sake, didn't
immediately assure her she was sane, that normal people saw ghosts on a regular
basis, returned. Frank Herbert's
Bene Gesserit had it right: fear was a mind killer. Anna needed a litany of
facts to hold the irrational world at bay. "Idle
mind; devil's playground," she whispered, and resolutely turned her mental
processes to the events of the night, something real—or so she had chosen to
believe—to let her gray matter chew on. A boat had exploded
and sunk. This boat was carrying a lot of extra fuel. An NPS boat had been sunk
by a chunk of flying debris. Bob Shaw saved an unidentified Cuban man. Anna saw
a ghost. There was a light in the upstairs bedroom of Lanny Wilcox's quarters.
A person shut a door. A person crossed the moat and climbed over the outside
wall into the sea. How these
things interrelated—if they did—was lost to Anna. What she should do about any
of it was also a mystery. Investigation of the sunken boats would continue come
sun-up. Identification of the Cuban man would be done by Florida State law
enforcement. The ghost or ghost-hoax was within Anna's jurisdiction, but she
could not bring herself to venture into the dark where the nearly unseen
skittered about and so that, too, would have to wait till morning. Lanny Wilcox's
bedroom and her own were the only viable choices remaining. She chose Lanny's.
If one wasn't going to sleep, surely it was more interesting not to sleep in a
man's bedroom than one's own. With this
thought, the image of Paul Davidson sprang clear and strong behind her eyes:
the square shoulders, the slow smile that never came cold and always reached
his eyes, the southern drawl, the way he called her "darlin'." A wave of
emotion so strong it wrung a flood of tears from eyes dry an instant before
overcame her. Not since the months after her first husband, Zach, died had she
so longed for a man. Had Paul appeared before her on the moon-swept brick she
would have married him on the spot, abandoned the park service, given her life
over to him, and gladly crawled into the circle of his arms, there to hide safe
and warm for all the years left to her. Davidson did
not appear. After a time the disconcerting flow of tears dried up and she was
left with nothing but Lanny Wilcox's bedroom. She fetched another pair of shoes
from her quarters, running shoes this time, quiet and tightly laced, and donned
a pair of underpants. Creeping about in the middle of the night seeking
unsavory persons was not an activity she wanted to undertake without panties.
Thus sartorially fortified, she descended the stairs to return to the
administrative offices for the key to the ex-Supervisory Ranger's house. Her flip-flops
were where she'd stepped out of them at the steps. She took them in and tossed
them on her desk, then retrieved the key, along with a heavy six-cell
flashlight. Anna was the acting Supervisory Ranger, there was no rule stating
she could not enter quarters to investigate a suspicious occurrence yet, for
reasons she didn't understand, she knew she would not turn on any lights in
Wilcox's quarters. Lanny's front
door was closed but not latched. She didn't need the key. Aware that
normal people were abed at this hour and that the Shaws' house shared a wall
with Wilcox's, she moved even more softly than was her habit, leaving doors
ajar lest the click alarm Teddy, presumably sleeping next door. There'd been no
room on the medevac helicopter and she was to take the sea plane to Key West in
the morning. Unsure of
precisely what she sought, Anna first opened the refrigerator. The core of
people's lives often lay in their refrigerators and medicine cabinets. Nothing
remained in Lanny's that could go bad. Someone—probably Teddy—had had the
foresight to remove food that would spoil. A six-pack of Yoo-Hoo with one
bottle missing, an unopened plastic jug of drinking water and a door full of
condiments were all that had been left. The water jug had sprung a leak and
about a quarter of its contents glistened atop the vegetable trays. The freezer
contained nothing but ice cubes and frozen entrees. Apparently Lanny ate with
the creativity and nutritional concern of the average bachelor. Anna moved on. Built over a
century before, the house was small to modern eyes, the rooms cramped, the
windows few and high off the floor. Between the tiny kitchen and a living room
not much bigger was a sort of stile: three steps up to a landing from which
narrow stairs ascended to the rooms above and three steps down the other side
to the living area. Having gained the landing, Anna stood still in the chill
air—the air-conditioner left running so Wilcox wouldn't return to mildewed
goods and verdant walls. Her flashlight soundlessly searched that which was in
plain sight. Wilcox was a packrat. The little rooms were crammed with the usual
and the unusual garnered from half a lifetime in the parks. The walls were
covered with framed pictures. Two posters, one of the Devil's Post Pile, one of
Chaco Canyon, bumped frames over a derelict sofa. Photos of rough-clad men and
women in hiking boots and packs were scattered around. Mixed in were carved
masks, mostly foreign-looking: South American, maybe some from Mexico, one
clearly left over from a past Mardi Gras. The floor was equally well covered
with books, boots, skateboard, compact disks, unopened junk mail, magazines and
dead plants in gaily-painted ceramic pots. Forlorn and useless, a pair of snow
skis stood in one corner. Anna turned her
light back the way she'd come. The kitchen side was marginally better: counters
were clean and the sink was free of dirty dishes. A small wooden table flanked
by two very nice wooden folding chairs, probably from the nineteen forties,
took up most of the floor space. The kitchen
walls were more interesting than those in the other room. Wooden boxes of
varying sizes, from one no more than three inches square to the largest,
probably eighteen by twelve inches, had been mounted on the plaster. The boxes
were painted in such vibrant colors that Anna's flashlight seemed to ignite
rather than illuminate them. Several had been hung so their lids fell open.
Inside were scenes complementing or contrasting those on the outside. The
artwork was original and fine. Anna judged art
by several criteria. The first was if she could do it, it wasn't art. That
disqualified a whole slew of modern painters who slathered, sprayed, glued,
welded or stapled shapes together. These box worlds she could not have created.
A woman had done them, she'd have sworn to that. The themes were fierce but
intensely female with an undercurrent of medieval Catholicism running through.
An angel with a scarred face and broken wings stood between a group of armed
men and a donkey laden with palm branches. Inside the box were flies and white
feathers, the angel and ass either dead and buried or ascended to heaven. Theresa, the fiancйe
who had run off with Lanny's heart and sanity, was probably the artist. For a
moment more Anna was lost to the present as her flashlight fired up one box
after another. Each was a miniature theater, the lights just coming up on the
actors in the midst of a dynamic scene. When Anna reached the last, she felt a
sense of both satisfaction and loss, the way one feels when finishing a good
book. Her brain
switched from the divine to the prosaic. She could understand why a beautiful
young artist of such intensely personal yet universal images might abandon any
number of men, but why would she abandon her work? Had it been Anna, these
walls would have been stripped bare, the boxes carefully packed, before she gave
a thought to the clothes she would wear or her toothbrush beside the sink. The bathroom at
the top of the stairs was no bigger than a closet. Too small for a bathtub.
Toilet, shower and sink were close enough one could wash one's feet and brush
one's teeth while sitting on the commode. It was the only room in the house
free of clutter. Even a dropped tissue would have been sufficient to inhibit
passage in the confined space. The medicine
cabinet, small and old and standing out from the wall, was very like the one
Anna remembered from growing up. It even had the same halo of rusty incursions
into the reflective surface where metal edging met the glass. Anna trained
her light inside. Here would be evidence of the weaknesses of the body:
diabetes, dentures, headaches. Most Americans consumed quantities of
over-the-counter drugs, and one in three was on some sort of prescription
medicine all the time. Lanny was no exception. On the middle shelf were three
prescription bottles: one for high cholesterol, one for high blood pressure and
one Anna had a lifetime experience of, Levaquin, the three magic tablets to
banish the misery of a bladder infection; one of the more splintery crosses
women have had to bear. The prescription had been written six weeks before for
Theresa Alvarez. Anna removed the cap and shook out two tablets. Theresa had
left behind not only her artwork but the last of her medicine. Curiouser and
curiouser. Anna put the pills back and resolved to check the closet, see if
Ms. Alvarez had bothered to take her clothes in what was coming to seem a
headlong flight rather than mere abandonment. The bedroom was
jammed with more stuff. No floor space was visible. The walls were lined
halfway up with boxes, books, scuba tanks, two backpacks and a lot of other
paraphernalia related to outdoor adventure and indoor entertainment. The closet, the
old-fashioned size, built when people had one outfit for the workweek and one
for going to church on Sundays, was devoid of women's clothing. Three pairs of
high-heeled shoes, obviously purchased before Theresa had taken up living on a
desert island, were all that attested to her recent presence. Gingerly, Anna
sat on the bed. Despite what one presumed to be nightly occupancy, it was also
covered in piles. After losing Theresa, Lanny had snuggled down each night with
laundry—presumably clean since there were no unpleasant odors—magazines and two
CD players, one with the lid broken off. Anna wondered
where Theresa had painted. She couldn't imagine works of such detail and
clarity being created in the three-dimensional cacophony that was Lanny
Wilcox's home. On reflection,
two things surprised Anna regarding Lanny's Theresa: that she'd not left him
sooner than she did and, again, that she'd left her artwork behind. Anna was not an
artist. Her creations tended to be big and functional: benches, tables,
outhouses. And they were usually painted with a wide brush and any color that
was cheap and handy. Even so, when she had put time and effort into making
something, she didn't like leaving it with people or in places where it would
be abused. If she was disturbed when wicked campers sprayed graffiti on privy
walls she'd nailed together, how much more painful it must have been for
Theresa to abandon her works to a home where they would eventually be vying for
wall space with snowshoes and frying pans? No answer came.
What came was nothing, followed by a short sharp jab of fear. For a moment Anna
had absolutely no idea in hell why she'd come to Wilcox's, why she was upstairs
in his bedroom with a flashlight. Flashlight. Memory rushed
back and she laughed out loud with relief. She'd seen a light in the upstairs
window. Or thought she had. "Stop that," she said. She'd seen a
light. There was no reason anyone whose purposes were legitimate would enter in
the night without turning the lights on. The fact that she had done just that
wiggled momentarily, but she dismissed it and shone her light around the room.
With the plethora of goods crammed into it, she doubted anyone would have been
able to find anything and, at a glance, it seemed there would be little to
tempt a thief. The beam raked
across the headboard and onto the nightstand. Its surface was the only clear
spot in the house. Everything had been wiped from the top of the low table,
including reading lamp and alarm clock. In their place a digital camera had
been left lying on its side. Unless Lanny,
in a fit of pique, had done it himself at the cost of his lamp, it must have
happened after he'd gone, by someone in a hurry, someone who had little respect
and no patience for Lanny's stockpile of junk. Maybe somebody who'd been in the
house that night, the camera one of the intruder's objectives. Since he or she
hadn't taken it with them, they must have been after the pictures stored inside. Having propped
the flashlight on one of the pillows, Anna picked the camera up and turned it
on. She hit the eject button. The disk had been left in place. She turned the
knob to "retrieve" and began going through the images. They looked as
if a child had taken them—or a man testing a new camera under various light and
movement conditions. Lanny had no children that she knew of, and the camera was
several years old and had the look of a piece of equipment much used, so
neither explanation fit. Photo after photo of the corners and walls of the
rooms Lanny lived in, flash photos, taken by night, of uninteresting twists and
turns within the casemates. Close-ups of what could be anything: cannon
barrels, dock pilings, the flagpole. Anna clicked
through, wondering what it was her phantom intruder had sought, which picture
incriminated, embarrassed, compromised or exonerated. After several
dozen views of Lanny's kitchen closet, she realized what she was looking at.
Not pictures of walls, floors and shelves of canned goods. These were pictures
of what Lanny saw, visions he'd tried to validate digitally. Pictures of things
that weren't there. She set the
camera back where she'd found it. She needed to get out of that claustrophobic
house, away from unseen things that drove men mad. Such was her
need to breathe untainted air that she fled, not home to her bed, but out into
the middle of the parade ground where she could stand beneath open sky. There
she stared at the stars, sucked in lungfuls of warm, damp air and yearned for
the sweet purifying oxygen of her western mountains. Something was terribly
wrong: with Fort Jefferson, with Lanny Wilcox, with her. Tears of self-pity
stung her eyes, and she wondered if she should take Molly's advice and go to
the mainland, to a hospital, get a CAT scan, see a head shrinker. At the moment
being in a clean modern room in the solicitous care of professionals didn't
seem such a wretched alternative. Temptation was
shouted down by duty. Bob was out of the running; Lanny was gone. Without her
the fort would have no law enforcement. Anna pulled herself together, stopped
gulping air and breathed slowly, deeply. When her heart ceased to race and her
mind to gabble, she turned to go back to her quarters. A light from
the southern casemates stopped her. This was not the ephemeral will-o'-the-wisp
she'd spent the shank of the night chasing but the solid reassuring yellow glow
of electric lights shining from the archway into the maintenance shop and the
long row of generators that provided the fort with the stuff of the good life:
light, heat, air conditioning, radio to the mainland and water pressure. Instead of
being alarmed by yet another nocturnal manifestation, Anna looked forward to a
confrontation with a live, flesh-and-blood human being, evil or not. The bringer of
light was Daniel Barrons. Anna watched him for several minutes before he knew
she was there. Clad in khaki shorts, bedroom slippers and an uncharacteristic
tank top that unveiled his tattoos; not only the classic tattoo of the naked
girl under the palm tree but a number of others which, screened from view by a
prodigious nest of chest and back hair, she couldn't make any artistic sense
of. Daniel moved down the line of roaring generators, opening panels and
fiddling about inside. It wasn't until he'd visited all but the one beside
which Anna stood that he noticed her. When he did he squeaked loudly and threw
up both palms shoulder high, reminding her of an illustration in a
turn-of-the-century acting book her husband had found at The Strand in New
York. The photograph was a graphic lesson on how the Thespian should indicate
surprise. She and Zach had laughed at it then. Those were the days when The
Method was the rage. Seeing "surprise" produced so spontaneously, Anna
wished Zach had lived to share the joke. Anna hadn't
thought of her dead husband in days. Since giving up carrying the torch a few
years back, occasionally as much as a week would pass during which she wouldn't
say his name to herself. Remembering him after the night she'd just had was
oddly comforting. Perhaps being insane in the company of actors wasn't as
stigmatizing as it would be in law-enforcement circles. "Jesus H.
Christ," Daniel bellowed over the din of the six generators. "You
scared the shit out of me." "You
screamed like a girl," Anna said, uncertain whether she wished to provoke
or was merely being accurate. "Swear to
God I thought you were a ghost. We got 'em, you know. And I did not. If
anything I squealed like a stuck pig." Again Anna was
unsure if the statement that Daniel would rather be likened to a pig than a
girl was meant to provoke or was merely accurate. Either way it amused her.
Still she couldn't relax enough to smile. His mention of ghosts put her back on
her guard. Had the mention been intentional? Pushing the power of suggestion?
Mocking? Or was it just coincidence? "What are
you doing up?" she shouted over the noise. Half a dozen generators, each
eight feet high at a guess and half again that long, created noise that poured
into ears and corners and arches and nostrils like wet concrete filling spaces,
then hardening till it was an effort to move or think. Daniel made a
gentlemanly gesture indicating they step out of his office and away from the
racket. For half a breath he paused to let her go first. When she didn't, he
moved ahead. On the whole Anna approved of good manners and believed
"ladies first" was a pleasant perk. It wasn't misplaced feminism that
kept her feet rooted to the floor; it was a desire not to have anyone behind
her till she figured out what was throwing her world out of balance. Daniel walked
to the underground cistern built where once the foundation of a chapel had been
laid. He sat on the edge of the raised flat "roof" used to collect
rainwater. Though the
water was filtered and purified, Anna winced inwardly to see what was
undoubtedly a hairy butt planted so firmly on the surface from which her
drinking water was collected. She followed him, glad to be away from the
generators, but did not sit down. Mind and body were tuned to the dark side,
and she preferred to remain on her feet. Had he ushered her out first because
he was polite or because he was dangerous? I lad he left the generators for
ease of conversation or because he needed time to think of a lie in answer to
her questions? Did he sit because his legs were tired or to put her off guard? "What did
you ask me?" Daniel dug in the pocket of his shorts and fished out a pack
of Marlboros so crumpled it looked as if he slept with the things. Anna's
suspicious mind started to question every detail of his language and body
language. With an effort she shut the internal inquisition down. Over-vigilance
was as blinding as being oblivious and wasted a whole lot more time. She
repeated her original question. "What are you doing up?" Daniel lit his
disreputable-looking smoke with an old-style lighter made of silver with a top
to click open and shut. The wings of the Harley Davidson insignia were on one
side in raised brass. "Thought I heard something. I figured I'd better check
the generators." "What did
you hear?" Daniel looked
up at her, surprised maybe by her tone. "I don't really know. A door
slamming, tool dropped. I was asleep." Anna thought
about that. "I was in the office. It could have been me," she said.
She had been careful to open and close doors with stealth born of paranoia. She
just wanted to give him an easy out and see if he took it. "When?" "Fifteen
or twenty minutes ago." "Wasn't
that, then. Besides, it was closer. Or sounded like it was." "If it
woke you up and you rushed out to check, why aren't you in your bathrobe?"
The question sounded like what it was: an accusation. Daniel took a
drag on his cigarette that burned a third of it away. "I can go put it on
if you'd like," he said. "What's eating you?" "Weirdness,"
Anna admitted. "General weirdness. I was up chasing the noise as
well." It crossed her mind that the sound that had awakened the
maintenance man might have been the sound of her intruder, her moat wader,
coming back to roost either in through one of the many gun ports or through the
sally port, then shutting his own door behind him. Daniel looked
at a watch nestled in the dark curling hair that covered his wrists. "The
sun will be up in a bit. No sense in going back to bed now. I've put coffee on.
Want a cup?" Anna realized
she did want coffee. More than that she wanted the normalcy of a kitchen and
conversation. Daniel's rooms
were the antithesis of Lanny's, neat and well appointed. Either he'd come to
terms with the single life and reveled in it or, beneath all the body hair and
tattoos, he was actually or spiritually gay. Having seniority and fulfilling an
indispensable job had won him the finest quarters. Two casemates had been taken
over to create space for a comfortable kitchen opening onto a graceful living
room. Two doors opened off one side. Probably bedrooms. Created before DRTO
changed to the prefab boxes inserted into the upper casemates, his apartment
retained the natural brick and vaulted ceilings of the fort. Daniel had filled
it with tasteful furniture and good rugs. The rooms were tidy, the kitchen
counter devoid of clutter. He poured them
each a cup of coffee from a pot in a coffeemaker with numerous buttons and
digital readouts. The cups were good quality china, thin enough to be elegant
but not so thin one felt in danger of crushing them. The rims were gold and
royal blue, the side decorated with four small pink rosebuds. They were of a
piece with the rooms and the Japanese kimono and at odds with the burly biker
physique of their owner. Sitting across
from one another at a blond wood table with matching chairs, probably Swedish,
possibly expensive, they chatted about the noise, the wrecked go-fast boat, the
heroics of Bob Shaw. "The heavy
fuel load—smugglers?" Anna said. "Could be.
A lot of it goes on in this part of the world." Anna had known
that: drugs, guns, people, exotic plants and animals, even the tried-and-true
classics, Cuban rum and cigars. Neither she nor Daniel had answers, and for a
while they sipped excellent coffee from their understatedly elegant cups. Talk
soothed Anna. Silence was even better. The fogs of weird were lifting. She
could feel the slipped gears of her brain snicking back into their proper
grooves and wondered if it indicated a second wind or was engendered by the
knowledge that sunrise was near; the dark that frightens children in their beds
and is home to hobgoblins was soon to be banished. Sitting, sipping, muscles
unclenching, mind clearing, Anna felt the sleepiness that had evaded her for
the past twenty-four hours fold around her. "Two
bedrooms?" she asked, just to make conversation. "I'm one
of the lucky few," Daniel acknowledged. "It must
be nice to have a place to put guests besides on the sofa." "Second
bedroom belongs to Mrs. Meyers." Not knowing
Mrs. Meyers, Anna said nothing. Daniel tilted
his head much as a quizzical dog might. "Haven't you ever met Mrs.
Meyers?" His voice
changed subtly, triggering Anna's internal alarms. She was being set up for
something, she just couldn't figure out what. Moving her coffee away slightly,
she gathered her feet under her in case a quick exit was called for.
"Can't say as I have," she said neutrally. "That's
right," Daniel said as if remembering something of importance. "Mrs.
Meyers hasn't been out since you came onboard. You want to meet her now?" Grisly images
of mummified grandmothers in rocking chairs, corpses in freezers and
blood-splashed walls flashed through her mind. The weird was back. She sighed.
"Sure. Why not?" With the
excitement of a twelve-year-old showing off his favorite toy, Daniel abandoned
his coffee and veritably bounced to the nearer of the two doors. Anna followed,
too tired for caution and grown unnaturally accepting of the bizarre. Daniel moved
with a light-footed buoyancy that was unsettling in a man of his heft. Reaching
the door, he paused, shot Anna an elfin look at odds with his troll body and
beard, and said: "Shh. She may be sleeping." He opened the
door, then stood back that Anna might enter. "Mrs. Meyers," he said
with obvious pride and affection. In the middle
of the otherwise empty room was a vintage 1952 Harley Davidson motorcycle. No
dirt marred her perfect surfaces, no grease besmudged the gleaming exhaust
pipes or dulled the black shine of her engine. "Wow,"
Anna said, genuinely impressed. "And all this time I thought you lived
alone." "Tank full
of gas, key in the ignition," he said delightedly. For the next
fifteen minutes he extolled Mrs. Meyers's finer points, and Anna fought the
sandman to a draw in order to stay on her feet. Finally he wound down. She
mumbled her thanks for the coffee and compliments to Mrs. Meyers and all but
staggered back to her quarters. As everything
had been this longest of nights, the fatigue was sudden and unnatural. It
wasn't the simple tiredness after too long without sleep but the bottomless
exhaustion left when amphetamines wear off and the user crashes. Piedmont was
curled into an orange ball on her pillow. The bedside clock read four
twenty-seven. Anna nudged cat and pillow to one side and crawled in beside
them. Because it was a lifetime's habit to read herself to sleep, she'd brought
a piece of Aunt Raffia's correspondence with her. The last thing she remembered
was the slither of paper as the letters slid from her hands to scatter on the tile. 10 Tilly's doctor
was a recent addition to our jolly crew. Dr. Mudd is one of the Lincoln
conspirators and very possibly the most hated man at fort. Perhaps because he
protests his innocence so loudly when there are those of us who can only find
solace in the sincere confession and repentance of those responsible. He is not
even well thought of by his own. Many of our confederate soldiers view
assassination as a base and cowardly act not befitting what they view as their
noble cause. I promised Tilly
I would do my best. To this end I set out to find Joseph. He was out on
the coaling dock organizing a group of men to go to the neighboring keys to dig
for eggs and catch turtles for meat. (Did you know that Tortuga was
Spanish for tortoise? These lonely sand scraps were named for the creatures.) I
am awestruck by their ponderous beauty, yet because I am also awestruck by
their delicious taste, I am as eager for the hunting of them as any soldier.
Turtles have the added benefit of staying fresh—a distinct problem with meats
of all kinds in this heat. The hunters simply roll the turtles onto their
backs, rendering them immobile till it's time to slaughter them. As the men
moved out to the dinghies, Joseph noticed me waiting. For a moment he seemed
glad to see me, but only for a moment. Then it was as if he remembered who I
was and some old anger fell between his heart and his eyes. I have often
wondered what I have done that he works so hard at hating me. Sometimes I think
it was that day he struck me and I swore if it happened again he would never be
safe, not waking, not sleeping. I believe I frightened him. For a man like
Joseph to be afraid, even once and for so brief a span of time, is
unacceptable. That I caused it or, worse, saw it, must make me unacceptable as
well. Or perhaps it's
not hate I see in his face but the countenance of a man eternally disappointed
that the endearing kitten he brought home had the bad judgment to grow into an
ungainly cat. As the welcome
faded from his eyes he came to where I stood. "What is it now? Has Tilly's
pet rebel died?" "Not
yet," I told him and, though he'd deny it, I saw relief in his look. I took it for
kindness till he said: "Good. Sinapp doesn't need many more 'accidents' on
his record. He's a good soldier." "Private
Lane needs to be looked after by a doctor," I said. "His hands are
badly injured. I'm afraid without more care than Tilly and I can give him he
will lose the use of them." "What a
pity. He'll no longer be able to pull the trigger of a gun aimed at our
boys," Joseph said. I waited.
There's no responding to Joseph when he is in a sarcastic mood. Twice he ran
his fingers through his hair. He wears it longer now, nearly to his shoulders.
Here, where there is so much humidity, it curls. Finally he spoke to me and not
just to the place in which I stood. "Look.
I've talked with Captain Caulley. He flatly refuses to treat a traitor, a man
who approves of Mr. Lincoln's assassination. He might go so far as to refuse a
direct order. I'm not going to risk having to put the garrison's doctor behind
bars to save the hands of Johnny Reb." "He may
die," I said. "So be it.
Speaking out in favor of the murder of a United States president has
consequences. I'll not pity him." "What did
he say?" I asked. I wasn't trying to provoke Joseph, I was genuinely
curious. "Was it truly traitorous?" "Damn you,
woman, Sergeant Sinapp says it was, and that's good enough for me." Since Joseph
chooses not to confide in me, I've learned to read him. When he curses it's
because he hasn't an answer worthy of voicing but has no intention of admitting
defeat or, heaven forfend, that he is wrong. Joseph's cursing is also an
indication that the next word I utter will be treated as the straw that broke
the camel's back. Standing quite
silent and still, trying to look as inoffensive as possible, I waited for him
to either walk away or to be overcome by what I see as his better nature and
I'm sure he sees as weakness. "You have
something in mind. God knows you always have something in mind. You are the
thinkingest woman ever put on earth." "Actually
this is Tilly's idea," I said in hopes of making it more palatable.
"Dr. Mudd." Raging,
belittling, lecturing, laughing—I'd been braced for those. The actual response
nearly knocked me to the ground. "Why
not?" he said. "Let 'em patch up their own. I'll have some of the men
move him." I made my
thanks quickly and turned to go before I spoiled Private Lane's chance at
professional care with an ill-advised word or look. "Raffia,"
he called after me. You will think me a fool, Peggy, but I love to hear him say
my name. He seldom does, you know. "Yes?" "You and
Tilly can go with the men. You can stay and help Mudd with whatever he needs
within reason. But you go only with a soldier, never alone. I will send someone
by quarters." "Thank
you, Joseph." "Don't you
abuse this privilege," he snapped as if I'd already done so by thanking
him. We endured,
Tilly and I, until nearly half past three in the afternoon, when the promised
soldier tapped lightly on the frame. The door was open to the balcony. "We'll be
moving the confederate to Mudd's cell. The captain said you ladies had some
part in it and I was to fetch you along." The soldier asked no questions,
and if he had an opinion he kept it to himself. Such are the times I envy my
husband's power over men. Tilly shot me a
look that I wouldn't trade for diamonds, or even a long swim in a cool river. I
hope this orphaned child raised by five doting sisters never has to lie to save
herself. Her emotions shine in her eyes as bright—or dark—as if an actual lamp
burned there. Being a tiny baby when Mother and Father died, she suffered the
fate of being the light of our lives during those awful times. With Tilly
clutching my arm, we followed the soldier across the parade ground. The men
hung in the trees had been taken down before the heat could kill them. Men with
small work had carried it to the east side of the fort to take advantage of
what little shade there was. The fort had that sleepy summer feel. Tensions I'd
not known I harbored baked out in the bright hot light. Two more
soldiers joined us. With only a little grumbling—and that done from habit or
sense of obligation—they lifted Joel onto a canvas field stretcher. The three
boys, probably of an age with Private Lane, were gentle when they handled him
and glad to have an opportunity to laugh when Joel made the old joke about
doing anything to avoid work. This has been such a strange war. The soldiers
can hate one another in theory, but when brought together without officers to
agitate and politicians to tell them what they're fighting for, they tend to
like each other. I've seen more kindness here between soldier and prisoner than
between officers and men. Passing the
sally port, we were ordered to a halt by a vicious bark from that dog in wolf's
clothing, Sergeant Sinapp. He emerged from the shadows with his inimitable
swagger. Like the ogre he is, he came from beneath the stone arch to where the
soldiers waited dutifully in the hot sun supporting the weight of Private Lane
between them. Enjoying himself, Sinapp walked a circle around the men with the
stretcher and our Miss Tilly, standing at Joel's side. "What we
got here?" he asked in the most jovial of tones. "Meat for the
sharks?" One of the
soldiers, the man at the head of the stretcher holding most of the weight,
started to explain Joseph's orders for moving the prisoner, but of course
Sinapp had no interest in the answer but only in being horrid. He overrode the
man's words, saying to Tilly: "Still playing at Florence Nightingale? You
all hell-bent on curing what ails somebody, you can come to me. I need some relief." He was looking
at Tilly as if she'd appeared before him again sans knickers. "It's
downright unpatriotic you giving your . . . attentions ... to a Johnny
Reb when there's good union men going without." I had said
nothing up to this point, not because that man frightens me but because I was
shocked into silence by his audacity. Joseph would not put up with this thinly
veiled vulgarity aimed at a woman under his protection. In my case he's
defending his pride. In Tilly's he might do it simply out of affection. "Joseph
will not be pleased to hear of your rudeness," I said when I found my
tongue. "Who's
going to tell him? You?" The question
took me off guard. Of course me, you stupid stupid man, I wanted
to shout. "You do
that, Mrs. Coleman. You do that," he said before I'd found the presence of
mind to respond. He stepped to
the side then and let us pass without further insult. I was livid, but it was
undercut by an unsettling feeling that Sergeant Sinapp believed Tilly and I no
longer enjoyed Joseph's protection. It is to my
credit that I did not spit at him when we passed. At the stairs
Tilly was forced to abandon her post. Spiral stairs are not ideal for the
transporting of the injured, but the soldiers managed it without spilling Joel
from the stretcher. To my surprise, once on the second level, they did not turn
left toward the cells of the Virginia men Joel had been quartered with but
right toward those located over the guardroom and sally port. "Captain's
orders, ma'am," I was told when I asked. "The captain won't have Mudd
given free run of the fort. If he's to look after this man he's got to be
quartered next to the conspirators." Since Joseph
had given me my way in all else, I did not fuss, though the cells over the
guardroom are among the worst at Fort Jefferson, having no windows but only
three high gun slits that let in little light or air and one must lift oneself
up just to see outside. I expect this is why the conspirators were housed
there. Joel was
carried into the casemate adjoining that of our most famous inmates and lifted
from the stretcher to the bare floor with less gentleness than when he'd been
picked up. Being in close proximity to two of the men guilty of conspiring to
kill Mr. Lincoln reawakened the outrage and hatred in the soldiers. As it did in
me. I'd not thought I hated the conspirators, but hated only their acts.
Knowing I was close to them, even with a wooden partition between us, a wave of
fury swept over me so hot I was surprised my hair didn't catch afire. If it had
not been for the innocence of Tilly and the pathos of Private Lane, I believe I
would have turned my back on the whole thing. All but one of
the soldiers left us. He walked to the door leading to the adjoining cell and
banged it hard. "Mudd. Got a job for you. Try not to kill this one,"
he shouted, then retreated to the egress from what was now Joel Lane's cell.
Like me, I think he feared not Mudd but his own hatred of the man. Tilly had knelt
by Private Lane. Both stared at the door, as did I, preparing to meet the
monster who was to serve us. 11 Anna awoke at
quarter till eleven feeling rested if not refreshed. She'd not had a drink of
anything alcoholic in a long time and deeply resented suffering a hangover when
she'd not had the pleasure of earning it. The greatest delight—when
she had burned away enough mental fog in the shower she could take note of
it—was that her mind was clear. Or at least relatively so. The crawling sense
of urgency that had driven her the previous night had slowed to a creep at the
edges of her adrenal system. Sunshine drove the skittering shadows from the
outer limits of her vision. Due on duty at
noon, she breakfasted on a Coke and peanut-butter-and-saltine sandwiches.
Customarily she drank only coffee or sparkling water in the mornings. This
morning she couldn't face carbonated water gone flat and didn't have the time
for coffee but needed the caffeine. As she dressed,
she mentally apologized to Bob Shaw for mocking him—if only in her heart—for
wearing full battle regalia out to count the fishies. Coral-enraged patches of
skin cried out against fabric and leather gear, and Anna's vestigial fashion
sense was outraged by the combination of shorts and duty belt. On a woman
barely five feet four inches tall, knobby knees below and bristling armament
above made her look more like a walking antipersonnel mine than a woman
of sense. She wasn't unduly affected. Some days it paid a girl to look like she
might go off at any minute and blow a hole in anybody standing too close. Out of habit,
she called in service. Bob was in the hospital in Key West. By now Teddy would
be at his bedside to admire how bravely he handled the pain of his broken bone. "Ten-four.
I'll be listening," came back over the airwaves. Daniel. Anna was glad
that in Bob and Teddy's absence he would stay by the radio in the event she
needed him. "Mrs.
Meyers," Anna said aloud and laughed, startling Piedmont. "Never
mind," she told the cat. "Homo sapien humor. Guard the house." Celebrating a
return to normalcy, as proved by a sun-drenched parade ground sparsely
populated with tourists reading plaques and wandering through shaded arches, by
white sails on graceful boats and by the fact that Anna had no doubt these
things she witnessed could be ratified and corroborated, she took the scenic
route to her office. The
"Chapel" was near her quarters on the fort's second level, above the
rooms that had housed the garrison's bakery. Park historians had more or less
intuited The Chapel. No proof existed that this vaulted room in the
northwestern bastion had ever contained an altar, pews or baptismal font.
Nothing in the architecture was suggestive of narthex, nave or sanctuary. But
this one room of the ten outermost rooms on both levels of the five bastions
had no gun port in its end wall. Unbroken brick flowed from the beautifully
vaulted ceiling to the floor. To sacrifice such a prime gun placement, the
builders must have had in mind a room of equal or higher importance in turning
the tide of battle as armaments. It was speculated that this room had been
dedicated to getting God on one's side. Anna liked The
Chapel. In addition to grace of architecture and masonry, she sensed the
spiritual there as well. Not so much a deity as a place where people have
poured enough of their belief in a deity that the power of faith soaked into
stone and wood, brick and mortar. At the eastern
arch of The Chapel, just outside where the many-arched walkway and casemates
chased away in a straight line of forced perspective, was where she had nearly
met up with her great-great-aunt Raffia the night before. By the light of
day Anna hoped something more corporeal than faith had been left behind, a sign
that might lead her to whoever the prankster—or person intent on gaslighting
her—was. Either the
ghost had truly been of ectoplasm—the slime-free variety that leaves no gooey
residue—or the ghost-maker was neat as well as effective. She found smudged
tracks in the mortar dust, left by someone running with no shoes on.
Recognizing her own footprints and no others was mildly disconcerting, but any
number of reasons could account for it. On this side of the fort the flooring
on the upper tiers had never been completed. Gun casemates were floored in
slabs of granite—stone hard enough to take the shock from the guns. Near The
Chapel, where Anna looked, the floor was rubble and didn't take tracks well. Shelving the
spectral side of life, she finished her morning commute. The next two hours
were spent on the phone. Before she'd
had to deal with it, complaints about the one- to two-second delay before words
said on one end trickled into an ear on the other had struck Anna as frivolous.
Not so. She was amazed at how seemingly small a thing could cripple
conversation. It was nearly impossible for those not accustomed to it—or those
accustomed but impatient—not to talk over one another. Half of her calls
consisted of the words "what?" and "I'm sorry." The Florida
State Police hadn't been able to trace the John Doe Bob had towed to East Key.
The Dry Tortugas were in the Gulf of Mexico sixty miles from Florida's land
mass but, as they were part of the state of Florida, the waters fell under the
state's jurisdiction. Anna described the military-looking tattoo on the John
Doe's calf. Lieutenant Henriquez, the officer with whom she spoke, said they'd
made a note of that and were following up. He didn't sound hopeful or even
particularly interested. The police
couldn't begin tracing the boat till Anna got a name or registration number off
the wreck. Henriquez told her he wasn't going to hold his breath while she
looked. If the vessel belonged to a smuggler there would be no number and the
name would be meaningless. Theresa Alvarez
posed less of a problem. She'd joined Lanny Wilcox as a VIP—Volunteer in
Parks—a designation often given spouses and significant others for reasons of
record keeping and insurance should they perform work while on the premises.
Andy, the woman in Human Resources at Dry Tortugas and Everglades headquarters
in Homestead, pulled up Ms. Alvarez's personnel file. "Let's see
what we've got." She had a trace of a Maine accent that cooled Anna just
hearing it. "Ms. Alvarez . . . here we go. Twenty-three years old,
five-foot-three, one hundred and three pounds—must be a size two, I hate her
already—Cuban born, naturalized U.S. citizen at the age of six, fluent in
Spanish and English. Do you want her last known home address and number?" Andy read off a
Miami address. Anna wrote it
down. "Has anybody else called you guys asking after her?" "You mean other than
poor Lanny?" "Lanny
Wilcox called?" "Constantly.
Since he'd been acting . . . well . . . peculiar, we were advised not to
give out any information on her. Stalking, you know—you can't be too
careful." "What did
he want to know?" "The
usual: home address, phone number, parents' names, that sort of thing." "He lived
with this woman and didn't know her home address?" "Apparently
not. I guess Lanny had better things to talk about with Ms. Alvarez than her
vital statistics—if you don't count thirty-four, twenty, thirty-four in that
category. She was pretty enough to model." "You knew
her." Anna was hoping for more to go on than an outdated address and phone
number. "Only to
look at the way a cat can look at the queen," Andy said. Anna dialed the
number from Theresa Alvarez's personnel file. No one answered and no phone
machine picked up. She would try again come evening. Time had come
to return to the sea. Years before,
in Lake Superior, when Anna worked as a boat patrol ranger at Isle
Royale National Park, she'd learned firsthand the dangers of diving wrecks
alone. Daniel didn't dive but was an experienced dive tender. If they had time
to donate to law enforcement, she'd see if Daniel could stay topside and Mack
dive with her. She found Mack
in the shop between her quarters and the generator rooms. This was where her
amphibious intruder had fled into the dark, then, when she wouldn't go away,
out the shattered gun port into the moat. The shop was a favorite place of hers
when she wanted to hang out and gossip with Daniel. Woodworking shops, with the
smell of sawdust and signs of productivity laid out in a pattern of tools, were
always warm and welcoming in her mind. As a girl she'd spent hours in her
father's shop, listening to his stories and building things, things that always
turned out well because at night, after she'd gone to bed, he would go back and
make what she'd done beautiful. No wonder she'd believed "The Shoemaker and
the Elves" was a documentary till she was in her teens. Mack was at the
lathe, his back to her, safety goggles' strap pushing his brown hair into a
rooster's tail. For a peaceful minute, she watched the wood turning under his
corded fingers, a sensuous shape being drawn out. Mack was as scrawny and sere
as a mountain man. Too long in the sun had melted off the fat and tanned his
hide till it wrinkled and cracked. He wore the
green NPS shorts and gray shirt. The shirt was three shades darker at the
armpits, wet with sweat. Anna was too well bred to look, but hers would be the
same. The air was close to ninety-five degrees, and down on the lower level,
the ocean breezes weren't strong. Watching him work, her mind floating free on
the noise of the lathe and the hypnotic spin of the wood, she noticed the back
of Mack's arms and legs were striped. Thin white lines cut through the browned
skin at an angle. Scars. They were barely visible, his downy leg and arm hair
grown up around them, but in the hard light of the sun they were unmistakable.
Anna would have been surprised if his back was not similarly marked. Mack had been
viciously whipped, maybe with a material harsher even than leather—barbed wire,
maybe. From the healing and fading of the scars Anna guessed it had been done a
long time ago, probably when Mack was a little boy. She looked
away, staring vacantly at the parched grass of the parade ground, wondering why
knowledge of childhood abuse should make her both ache and feel ashamed for
him. She must ask Molly about it when next she got to a telephone that didn't
drive her half-mad with frustration. Education explained why the abused child
felt shame over the abuse, but not why that shame was echoed by the observer.
Maybe Anna was ashamed because she belonged to the same species as the
perpetrators, and maybe a kernel of that craven evil lay dormant in her own
heart. A shudder took
her, violent and sudden the way muscles sometimes spasm just before sleep. "Don't
tell me you're shivering. I've got news for you; it ain't cold." Anna turned
back and smiled at Mack even more warmly than she had intended. It didn't go
unnoticed. His blue eyes took on a glitter that makes a woman want to flirt or
flee depending on the glitterer. "To what
do I owe this honor?" he asked and moved so he stood a little too close
for comfort. Quashing an
urge to reclaim her invaded space, she cloaked herself in business. "With
Bob out of commission and Linda and Cliff back in Key West I'm going to need
help finishing up the investigation on the wrecks. I was hoping you'd dive and
Daniel would tend. Do you guys have any free time?" Mack wiped the
sawdust from the length of wood he'd turned on the lathe, a table leg by the
look of it. While his eyes were thus busy, Anna took the opportunity to step
back a pace. The maintenance
man looked up, his gaze wandering into the sky above the far rampart. He
narrowed his eyes and scratched at his grizzled beard, dislodging a minute
blizzard of sawdust. "Lemme think." It wasn't that
hard a question. Anna wondered if he had a problem with the dive per se or if
he was playing hard to get. "Daniel
and me got to work on generator five. Been sounding funny. How 'bout maybe four
o'clock?" Sunset wasn't
till nine. "Suits
me," Anna said and, belatedly, "Thanks." Impatience
urged her to dive the wrecks without them, but good sense prevailed. Ignoring
reports to be written and schedules still to be clone, she decided to return to
Lanny Wilcox's house and see if anything new presented itself. The decision to
revisit the scene of last night's adventure was made more from homage to
rationality than because she expected to find anything. After six hours of good
sleep the events of the previous night—the ghost, the light in Lanny's window,
the wet prints on the moat wall, even Mrs. Meyers—had taken on the ephemeral
quality of a dream imperfectly remembered. Wilcox's
quarters weren't improved by daylight. Theresa's art still took Anna's breath
away, as did the crowded living room, though for less exalted reasons. Ignoring
the niggle and nudge of claustrophobia, she made room for herself on the sofa
by pushing aside a stack of magazines and two ratty pillows and settled into
the cluttered confines of Lanny's life. Minutes passed as she absorbed the
room, waiting for anything added to make itself known, anything taken away to
reveal its absence by a sign. The ailing
Supervisory Ranger's housekeeping habits were a petty thief's dream. Amid the
choking plethora of goods, she doubted Lanny himself would be able to detect a
minor disarrangement. After a time one small anomaly came to her. There were no
photographs of Lanny's inamorata. No pictures of Theresa hung from the walls;
no framed photos of her joined the clutter on shelves and tabletops. Lanny was
there, grinning from mountaintops, monstrous-looking in snorkel and mask. Other
women, never alone or particularly featured but with Lanny and friends, lived
the half-life of memory in colored snapshots. Unless Theresa was phobic where
cameras were concerned, her absence was peculiar. Glad to have
even this teensy weensy thread to follow—anything to stay occupied and out of
her tomb of an office—Anna began searching through Wilcox's piles in search of
Theresa's likeness. With sunlight and an achievable goal, Anna had better
success than she'd had the night before. Iwo plastic bins, six by fourteen
inches, the lids long gone, were stuffed full of snapshots, most of them still
in the envelopes from the developers. Both bins had been shoved into the bottom
niche of one of those units fashionable in the seventies, the kind made by
stacking any number of wooden cubes. The number Lanny had chosen to live with
was fifteen, piled into a pyramid shape with five of the units forming the
base. The cubes housed everything from tattered record albums to beer bottles,
each from a different country. In his fifties, Lanny retained the decorating
instincts of a college boy. Finding the
photos was moderately satisfying. What Anna found intensely satisfying was
discovering she probably wasn't the first person to seek them out since Lanny's
unpremeditated departure—unless Lanny himself had pawed through them,
surgically removing the images of the woman who had betrayed him; an
explanation too common, too human, to dismiss out of hand. Anna refused to let
the thought rob her of the mild buzz of discovery. One of the
flimsy envelopes had torn, and half a dozen pictures had fallen out. She'd not
noticed them in the general mess because, shoved between couch and cubes, was
an end table probably from the early fifties, when blond pseudo-cowboy style
was popular. The loose pictures fanned out beneath the table, two pinned under
a leg. The end table had been moved, the photo bins gone through, then the
table put back. Before leaping
to the conclusion she preferred—that she had seen a light, someone had been in
Wilcox's quarters, had poked about, the intruder's search culminating with the
digital camera upstairs and, ergo, Anna was not nuts—she carefully inspected
the pinned photographs, then the top of the table. The table was sufficiently
dusty, had she been so inclined, she could have written her initials therein.
In a way somebody had. Two prints, clearly, the heels of ungloved hands, marked
the dust where the table had been picked up and moved. On the scattered pictures
there was no dust at all. The table had been moved recently, the mess of
pictures was newly spilled. Anna pulled
latex gloves from a pouch on her duty belt. She was a world away from snazzy
modern lab equipment. The NPS hadn't the money to spare on expensive tests
when, as far as she knew, no crime had been committed. Not even breaking and
entering. She'd found Wilcox's door closed but latched. Who was to say Lanny'd
not left it that way when he'd gone? Or Teddy had, on her mission of mercy
cleaning the spoilables from the refrigerator. Still and all Anna didn't want
to add her prints to the mix and, just for the hell of it, would return later
with a kit to lift the palm prints. The pictures
were a disappointment. They were what one would expect to find in a ranger's
quarters between the Gulf of Mexico and the Strait of Florida: boats, more
boats, blue water, pale sands, people in swim-suits and, occasionally, people
without swimsuits. Three of the envelopes were dedicated to the fort and were
all but indistinguishable from those Anna had taken her first week to send home
to Paul: arches disappearing within arches, the camera aimed down either the
casemate's larger section where the cannon were once housed or the same
perspective down the long line of man-sized arches that fronted them, the
parade ground, the lighthouse: the usual. Social pictures
captured the Shaws, Daniel, Mack, Duncan and his wife and son. There was even a
photograph of Mrs. Meyers. Again what was
interesting was what wasn't there. No photographs of Theresa. Four that Anna
had separated out were of what she thought might be Theresa's backside. And a
fine backside it was. Anna could well understand why a man, especially a man
entering his fifties on an island with no single women in residence, might well
choose to follow that backside with all the ardor with which the three wise men
were reported to have followed the star. Anna pocketed
her find, fetched her kit from the office, and lifted the prints from the
table. Besides the heels of the intruder's hands, she was lucky to get a
good-sized partial from the person's right fore- and middle fingers—given he or
she had lifted the table in a normal way. The prints would probably languish in
a file proving nothing, but it was something to do. When she
finished, she still had a couple hours to kill before Mack and Danny would be
free to lend a hand with the wreck dive. Rather than return to an office that,
without Teddy Shaw on site, Anna had looked forward to as a place of glorious
solitude but which turned out to be merely lonely in a creepy sort of way, she
fired up the Reef Ranger and motored over to Loggerhead Key. The endless
expanse of blue water had the same calming effect as the mountains on a clear
day. Being able to let her eyes stretch for a horizon without stumbling into
walls, to see in every direction for miles, to shout without being heard, gave
her a sense of reckless freedom. The cloying claustrophobia of Fort Jefferson's
substantial ramparts and Lanny Wilcox's packrat's den was blown away on the hot
wind. She steered the boat in lazy S patterns and belted out several of the
cruder verses of "What Do You Do with a Drunken Sailor." Midday, mid
season, Fort Jefferson's docks, harbor and beaches were teeming with campers,
fishermen and tourists. The two ferries from the mainland, both enormous
catamarans capable of dumping over two hundred visitors between them, filled
the fort with bodies. Loggerhead was
refreshingly deserted. There was but one small dock for NPS use only, no
camping, no toilets, no drinking water for the public. Neither of the ferries
stopped there. People lucky enough to own their own boats occasionally brought
a dinghy into shore or swam in, but there were none today. At the landward
end of the dock where a sand path started through the scrub to the lighthouse
keepers' quarters and the old lighthouse, a strange garden had grown up. In the
low dunes swelling to either side of the trail, passersby had planted bits of
flotsam or dead marine animals they'd come across; things too wonderful not to
pick up at the beach and too useless to take home. Fishing nets,
broken lobster traps, buoys in all sizes and colors, pieces of dead coral,
skeletons of horseshoe crabs, sand dollars, bottles scrubbed clean of their
labels, seashells, fishing lures and other oddments had been arranged in an
ongoing work in progress. Nothing in this ten-by-twenty-foot sculpture garden
appeared to have been tossed. Each piece had been placed with somebody's
idiosyncratic idea of beauty. The result fascinated
Anna. Each time she visited Loggerhead Key she looked for new things. The
garden made her feel good about her species, as if fed, watered and left to
peaceful pursuits, mankind would tend toward making the world a better place.
Today she stopped for a minute and rearranged a horseshoe crab and four
sand dollars to make an ersatz turtle. Satisfied with her contribution to the
ephemeral world of art, she walked to the house shared by the women charged
with maintaining the lighthouse. Lighthouse
keepers were volunteers who came to Loggerhead for a month at a time. The post
was so isolated and the duties so specialized and yet mostly undemanding that
more than thirty days drove most people crazy. All there was to do on the tiny
key was to keep the generator in good running order and the visitors from
damaging anything. Besides the light and the light keepers' cottage, there was
a house used by visiting research teams. At the moment it stood empty. The cottage
delighted Anna. As it came into view over a sand dune she stopped to admire the
scene. The building was of stone, two stories, one small room stacked atop the
other; a haven in which to weather storms. The house and the concept appealed
to Anna. This afternoon the reassuring picture was completed by Donna and
Patrice. Patrice was seated at a picnic table as gray and warped as driftwood,
staring intently at the guts of a piece of machinery. Donna stood at her
shoulder, pointing and talking, one hand on Patrice's shoulder. What kept this
scene of domestic bliss from being a clichй were the women themselves. When
Neil Simon wrote The Odd Couple, he had no inkling of how very odd
couples were to become in the near future. Donna was tall, thick of shoulder
and narrow of hip with arms that she'd probably earned at her "other
job" as a boiler-room engineer. Breasts and shoulder-length hair framing a
distinctly craggy face denied the manly frame. Patrice, who
had retired from walking a beat for the Boston police department some years
before, switching careers to teach kindergarten, was slightly less
masculine-looking, being squat rather than tall, but she too had what looked to
be signs of a vestigial X chromosome. Gossip rampant in the close and often
closed circles of the National Park Service had thoroughly chewed over the
lighthouse keepers. Anna leaned toward the theory that one or both women had
undergone sex-change operations before which they were heterosexual and after
which they discovered they were lesbians. Since this was
the seventh year Donna and Patrice had come to Loggerhead during the month of
July, fort personnel and park regulars had grown accustomed to them. Because
they did their job well and proved excellent company, they'd come to be
accepted, their odd looks and mysterious origins merely one more wonder of this
tiny world. Anna enjoyed
them immensely, particularly Donna, whose wit was so dry and subtle often Anna
would only get the joke after she'd put to sea headed home and would find
herself laughing all alone on her boat. "Ranger
Pigeon," Donna called in a voice tuned to overcome the noise of a boiler
room. "What brings you to our island paradise?" Anna joined
them at the picnic table, was given a glass of sweet tea in return for which
she was expected to tell them the news of the previous two days' happenings. She began with
the last dive she and Cliff had taken and ended with the tale of Bob Shaw's
heroics. She hesitated to tell her ghost story. People periodically claimed to
see ghosts at Fort Jefferson. Daniel, a foursquare chunk of Americana with the
tattoos to prove it, insisted he'd felt a spectral hand on his shoulder in the
generator room. It wasn't that Anna believed her story would make the two women
look at her askance; it was that Donna and Patrice were clever. Clever and
smart with senses of humor honed sharp as razors, probably from years of
fending off prying questions and rude remarks. Of the staff at Fort Jefferson,
these two struck Anna as the most capable of pulling off a complex hoax. Why on
earth they would want her to believe either in ghosts or her own incipient
insanity was beyond her. Instead she
asked: "Did either of you guys know Theresa Alvarez?" When dealing
with minorities in the oh-so-politically-correct climate of government service,
whether they were minorities because of race, infirmity or gender bending, Anna
was hyperconscious of her words. She hoped "guys" would not cause
offense. Donna and
Patrice were blessedly ignorant of this social gaffe. "Oh,
yes," Patrice said with an enthusiasm that clearly annoyed her partner. "We didn't
know her all that well," Donna said repressively. "She'd tome
over here now and again. Sometimes to visit, mostly to comb the beaches for
things she used to make her picture boxes." "She is a
terrific artist," Patrice said. Donna raised
her eyebrows. "Especially in that tiny little thong bathing suit."
Her voice was a seductive growl. Patrice laughed
and punched Donna in the arm, a slug that would have sent Anna ass over
teakettle but didn't move Donna at all. "You!" Patrice said playfully.
Then: "You've got to admit she showed off that thing to good
advantage." Donna put a
beefy arm around Patrice's shoulders and told Anna: "Neither of us knew
her in the biblical sense, but we were allowed to admire her from a safe
distance." "Safe from
Theresa?" Patrice asked. "Theresa was gentle as a kitten." "Safe from
me, sweetheart." They both
laughed and Anna was glad to see accord restored. "Tell me
about her," Anna suggested. "From the thong upward." Donna and
Patrice were silent for a bit and Anna began to suspect the thong and regions
there adjacent pretty much constituted their notice of Ms. Alvarez. "She
didn't talk much," Patrice said finally. "Kept to herself." "Unless
she got on her soapbox," Donna amended. "Then she'd run on till your
eyes rolled back in your head." Patrice nodded.
"A liberal." "Fire-breathing,
heart-on-your-sleeve liberal. Major snooze." "Except
for the thong," Patrice said dreamily, hoping to get a rise out of Donna.
Donna obliged with a boiler-room snort. "Anything
else?" Anna asked. Patrice shook
her head. "We didn't
see that much of her—" She shot Patrice a look that stopped the obvious
rejoinder. "Theresa left not long after we got here." "That did
kind of surprise me," Patrice said. "Teddy'd told us she'd figured Theresa
for using Lanny, but I got the feeling she loved the man." "Using
Lanny how?" Anna asked. Lanny Wilcox wasn't going to attract gold diggers
on a GS-II's salary, and though there was no accounting for taste, Anna
couldn't see a balding man in his fifties with the housekeeping instincts of a
frat boy as anybody's idea of a sex toy. "Was she broke enough forty
thousand a year would seem like money?" "Not
money, I don't think." Patrice looked to Donna for corroboration. "No. Teddy
didn't make it sound like a money thing. Besides, Theresa had the looks to use
a man for a whole lot more than forty thousand a year less taxes. Teddy kind of
thought Theresa might be running from something, using Lanny and Fort Jefferson
as a place to hide out." "A lot of people
who wash up on islands are running from something," Anna said. Donna and
Patrice exchanged a look that made Anna think she'd hit a nerve. "Or
running to something," Patrice said softly. "Or
running to something," Anna agreed. "Ask
Teddy," Donna suggested. "Teddy is from whence all information worth
having around here flows." Anna would do
that as soon as the Shaws returned from the mainland. "Why the
sudden interest in Lanny's love life?" Donna asked. "I've been
seeing ghosts," Anna said and watched them carefully. Donna's face was
impassive to the point of frozen, but Anna couldn't tell if she'd solidified
her facial muscles to hide a guilty secret or to hide the fact that she thought
Anna was an idiot. Patrice seemed
delighted. "Oh, man, I would kill to see a ghost. Even part of one: a
spectral hand, a rattling chain. I wouldn't even mind being slimed. Tell us everything,"
she demanded, and propped her chin in her hands expectantly. The
juxtaposition of the girlish pose and the hairy forearms shook Anna's insides,
but she didn't laugh; she liked these women too well. She obliged
them with the story of Great-Great-Aunt Raffia's fleeting visit to the casemate
near the chapel. She'd meant to keep it bare bones and focus on their
reactions, but Patrice was such a good audience and Anna so in need of women
confidants with whom there was no one-to two-second delay from mouth to ear,
she found herself relating every detail: the turn of the head, the upswept
hair, the delicate long fingers pushing in otherworldly hairpins. "Doesn't
sound like Theresa Alvarez," Donna said when she'd done, hearkening back
to the non sequitur that she believed had launched this ghost story.
"Theresa was dark and, as Patrice has so observantly pointed out, not much
given to clothes that covered her from neck to ankles." "No.
Sorry," Anna said. "I never thought it was Lanny's girlfriend.
Talking about Theresa just put me in mind of it because she disappeared.
Ghostlike. Poof?" The segue was
spotty at best but the lighthouse keepers chose to accept it without question.
Anna didn't know what gender the two had been born, but there was no doubt in
her mind that they were girls now. It was good to be one of them. "Do you
think she was 'disappeared' against her will?" A funny edge came into Patrice's
voice that bothered Anna till she remembered the woman was a retired
law-enforcement officer. "You think
old fire horses are bad," Donna said as if reading her mind. "They've
got nothing on retired cops." Patrice was not
to be deterred. "Do you suspect felonious play? We heard she'd run off,
presumably with a man younger, prettier and richer than Lanny." Hearing her
vague suppositions laid out in words, Anna backed away from the idea. It
sounded melodramatic, like a bored ranger making something out of nothing. Or a
woman of a certain age having mid-life delusions. "Just
poking around," she said. "Nothing really. What I came over here
for—besides to waste your time and drink up your tea—was to see if either of
you recognized this boat. Here's what's left of it." She took a printout
of an underwater photo of the bottle-green go-fast boat. It was taken before
the second explosion, when the bow was still recognizable as such. "Looks
like a Scarab, maybe," Donna said. Anna took note of the fact that the woman
knew her boats. "It
is." "What's
that color? Looks almost black in the picture." "Metallic
sparkly dark green." "Where's
the boat out of?" Patrice asked. "I don't
know yet. We're working on it." "We see a
lot of boats come through," Donna said. "We'll keep
an eye out," Patrice said. "What am I talking about? The boat's on
the bottom. It's history. I'll see what I got." "The Dick
Tracy File," Donna explained when Anna looked confused. "Patrice
videos anything the least bit odd. In case..." She laughed. Patrice didn't. "Not just
odd," she defended herself. "Though of course odd is particularly
interesting. Just a photographic record of comings and goings." For an
instant she looked sheepish. Donna patted
her with a big callused hand, grease from working on the generator ingrained
under her round, clipped fingernails. "It's good you keep it, Patrice.
It's come in handy. Because of Patrice the Key West cops—" "Key Stone
Cops," Patrice interjected. "Your
opinion. The Key West police and the coast guard were able to track down a
twenty-nine-year-old felon who'd run off with his boss's fishing yacht." "And his
boss's fourteen-year-old daughter." "She went
willingly." "It was
her idea, but that doesn't change anything," Patrice said. "Nope. He
should have been keelhauled." If the current
theory about the lighthouse keepers was correct, neither of them had ever been
little girls. Perhaps the undertone of anger Anna heard had nothing to do with
chromosomes and everything to do with humanity. Because she had
time to kill and because she was enjoying herself and because her position as
Supervisory Ranger in the Dry Tortugas was temporary, Anna decided to indulge
in a little gossip—real gossip, not police work disguised—good old-fashioned
dishing the dirt with the rest of the girls. "What do
you guys know about Mack?" she asked. "He strikes me as a man with a
past." Donna straddled
the bench on the far side of the picnic table and rubbed her jaw. The way she
pushed upward on her cheek made Anna wonder if it was a habit left over
from years of checking for five o'clock shadow. "He's an
odd duck, that's for sure. He loves to talk, but only about himself." "He's
quite manly in that," Patrice said, and the three of them enjoyed an
uncensored laugh. "I noticed
his back and legs are scarred. He ever mention how that came about?" "I noticed
those too, right off," Patrice said. "She asked
him about it right off, too," Donna said. "I asked
nice," Patrice said. Donna mimicked
her partner, batting her eyes like a femme fatale, which clearly tickled
Patrice: "Hello, Mack, isn't it a nice day? By the by, how the hell did
you get all cut up like that?" "I did
not," Patrice laughed. "Did he
tell you?" Anna asked. "He told
us a story," Patrice said. "Something about falling off an all-terrain
vehicle and being dragged across gravel by a pant leg. A load of hooey." "Child
abuse, you think?" "That's my
guess," Patrice said. "If we're right, it's a wonder he didn't grow
up to be another Jeffrey Dahmer. It had to've been brutal. I don't blame him
for making up a better story." Anna didn't
either. "What does he talk about, then, if the past is out of the
picture?" "Oh it's
not out," Donna said. "It's the picture that's a wee bit different
than you'd expect after seeing the scars." "Mack's
got a lot of stories about how his folks were these rich aristocratic types.
According to him he had his own horse, nannies and the trimmings," Patrice
said. "And he's
a lowly government employee now because some evil relative squandered it all
away," Anna finished. The fantasy was fairly common among dissatisfied men
who thought they deserved better. "Something
like that," Patrice said. "He gets vague about it. Maybe that part of
the story's not written yet." For a while the
three of them sat in comforting silence, Anna sipping her tea, Donna fiddling
with the chunk of machinery, Patrice seemingly content doing nothing at all. They made a bit
more desultory talk. Anna asked politely about the eviscerated motor on the
table and was treated to a list of internal combustion symptoms that meant
nothing to her. Finally Patrice took pity on her and summed it up. "Generator
went ker-put." "Terminally
ker-put?" Anna asked. "Over
Donna's dead body." "I'll have
it up and running by dark," Donna promised. "I think we got a mouse
problem. They get to building nests in the moving parts of your machinery and
it's a nightmare." It was on the
tip of Anna's tongue to offer Piedmont's services as a mouser. He could rid an
island of the size of Loggerhead Key of rodents in under a week. What stopped
her was selfishness. She liked Piedmont at home. Unless Donna
pulled off her usual miracle, Loggerhead Key would have to swelter in the dark.
Anna was keeping her cat. She looked at
her watch. Two forty-seven. Time to meet some men about a wreck. She made her
goodbyes and walked away from the snug cottage and into the glare of white sand
and a hard-looking sea. It occurred to her that she felt good for having had
tea with Patrice and Donna. It also occurred to her that she had come with questions,
and had given out a great deal of information and gotten little. Patrice must've
been one hell of a cop. 12 My Dearest Peg,
Five days have passed since I last sat down to write. To turn back the clock:
the four of us waited in the casemate next to that shared by Dr. Mudd and a
second of the conspirators. The cell was
dim, as they all are once the opening arch onto the parade ground has been
boarded up, and this one darker than most, having but a small opening on the
sea side. My eyes had adjusted, however, and I could see with that misty
clarity one experiences at twilight. Though the cell was stiflingly hot, the
sweat prickling my skin had the quality of winter perspiration brought on by
exercising in extreme cold. Joel was still
and silent, the effort to be brave and charming during transport having taken
what little strength he had. The soldier who was to remain with us as guard and
chaperone stood to one side of the door leading to Dr. Mudd's cell, looking
agitated and thunderous. Eyes big and mouth pinched, Tilly knelt beside Joel,
watching the door where the soldier had rapped, summoning the devil upon whom
we had pinned our slim hopes. The door
opened. An urbane-looking man, hairline receding, a lush mustache
covering his upper lip above a well-trimmed goatee, said: "May I help
you?" for all the world as if he answered the door of his own home and
under better circumstances. I don't know if
it was the relief that he did not look like a slavering beast or the
surprisingly kind eyes under thin, low brows, or the offer of precisely that
which we had come seeking—help—but Tilly started to cry. "Are you
Dr. Mudd?" she asked through tears that flowed prettily—when I cry, my
face goes red and blotchy and my nose runs. Perhaps that's why my tears lost their
efficacy with Joseph too many years ago to count. The most
hard-hearted of men would have responded with chivalry to the picture of
feminine distress Tilly presented. "I
am," he told her and bowed slightly. He was elegant, even—or perhaps I
should say especially—given the surroundings, and spoke with a whisper of a
southern drawl that served to enhance the image. "How can I be of
service?" All this was directed to Tilly, I suppose because it was she who
first addressed him. Whatever the
reason, I could see her becoming as grave and mature as befitted a woman
addressed on matters of importance. This "honor," if indeed
attentions from the likes of him constituted such, coupled with his offer of
medical help for Joel Lane, completely won Tilly over. Our little sister and
one of the men condemned for the most heinous and cowardly of murders were
staunch allies before they'd exchanged a baker's dozen of words. I did not like
it. I very much did not like it. Unfortunately my discomfort came only later.
Joel's needs being foremost in my mind at the time, though not so swayed as
Tilly, I was glad enough of the doctor's help. As she had
established a rapport with the notorious doctor, Tilly became mistress of the
situation. I was content to stand by the soldier against the back wall and act
as an observer. She showed the
doctor Joel and told him how he had conic to be injured. Dr. Mudd's expression
didn't appear to change, but when mouth and chin are completely obscured by
hair, the face was unreadable. I wouldn't doubt if a few of the union's famed
stoics owe the compliment not to moral fortitude but a plenitude of facial
hair. The doctor did not give in to the temptation to comment on the brutality
of the union soldiers. He merely nodded, said: "Please?" and, when Tilly
made room, knelt to determine the extent of Joel's injuries. I had been so
caught up in Dr. Mudd's examination of Joel, the quick surety of his long
fingers, the small helpful movements of Miss Tilly as though she'd spent years
in a sickroom, that I forgot there was another soul incarcerated in these rooms
until the soldier at my elbow moved suddenly. Samuel Bland
Arnold. You of course remember the name from the trial and the accounts in the
newspapers. Words cannot convey the impact that laying eyes on this man has. Mr. Arnold had
taken Dr. Mudd's place in the door leading into their cell. He'd apparently
started to enter the casemate where we were. That's what stirred the soldier
assigned to Tilly and me. Arnold held both hands up, palms outward, to assure
the soldier he would not try to cross the threshold again. This gesture is
universal for surrender, acquiescence, yet in a manner I cannot put into words,
when done by Mr. Arnold, it was mocking as well. He leaned
against the lintel; ankles crossed, and lit a cheroot. Dark haired, mustache
worn clipped above the lip and long at the corners of his mouth, brows level
and thick over deep-set eyes, the man is just the sort with whom silly girls
ruin their reputations. Mr. Arnold said
nothing, nor did he interfere in any way, yet, to me at least, his presence was
as disruptive as a soprano singing off-key. I turned my back on him yet
remained so aware of his presence I believe I could have told you the instant
it happened had he left that doorway. My peculiar
suffering wasn't to last long. Dr. Mudd was in need of many things for the care
of the patient he had taken on with such automatic grace. The guard could not
leave either Tilly or me alone with the prisoners, and Tilly would have had to
be dragged from Joel's side by a team of wild horses. It fell to me to fetch
and carry. I found it a great relief to be freed of that close room with its
absence of air and presence of prison smells and the disturbing emanations from
Mr. Arnold. Dr. Caulley is
a lean man, but his moon face, glistening summer and winter as if basted
for roasting, gives the illusion he was meant to be corpulent but was too
stingy to allow his body to attain its predestined shape. The fort's surgeon is
unfailingly polite to me but manages by intricate manipulations of eyebrows and
narrow mustache to semaphore the message that he doesn't like me and has a low
opinion of my intellectual abilities. When Dr.
Caulley found me acting as errand girl for the infamous Dr. Samuel Mudd, his
eyebrows surpassed themselves in communicating that which his pursed and
niggardly little mouth was too pious to say. With those two scanty lines of
reddish hair, he managed to disparage Dr. Mudd's medical abilities, lineage and
politics while his mouth murmured only, "Mister Mudd. I
see." Joseph must
have taken time to speak with him, because he granted my requests. It took
several trips, but I brought Dr. Mudd everything he'd requested with the
exception of morphine. Using hints and eyebrows, Dr. Caulley conveyed that the
confederate doctor and conspirator in murder could not be trusted not to sell
the morphine or use it himself. I was afraid Joel would be left to suffer. That
he was in great pain was evident even to the untrained eye. When I'd
brought what I'd been given and relayed the information about the morphine—sans
the eyebrow signals—Dr. Mudd was silent for a moment, rocking back on his heels
where he'd been kneeling by his patient. He finally
stood and pulled what had once been a crease in his trousers straight.
"Pain can kill a man," he said simply. "I saw it on the
battlefield. The pain takes the strength that could otherwise be used for
healing." Then he brushed his hands together, one against the other. Tilly read the
gesture as clearly as I did. "No," she said, but not with the girlish
tears she'd shown earlier. In the little time we had been in this (lark and
sweltering room, Tilly had grown up. "Stay with him, Raffia," she
said. "I won't be long." I was so
stunned by the change in her that she'd swept by me and was gone before I had
time to protest or even to ask what she intended. She wasn't gone
more than twenty minutes, but it seemed a good deal longer. Tilly was
the binding presence, I discovered, not Private Lane. When she left, none of us
remaining could find anything to say to one another. By the time
Tilly returned with Joseph, though I'd not spoken a single word to either Dr.
Mudd or Mr. Arnold, I felt I had spent a short lifetime in their midst. From the moment
Tilly stepped off the ship that brought her over from Key West she has had
Joseph eating out of her hand. It delights me to see it and, I must confess,
often makes me wonder if being barren is quite the blessing I believe it to be.
He responds to her with gentleness I've seen him use only with horses and dogs.
It reassures me the boy I fell in love with still dwells in the man I am
married to. Dr. Mudd
reemerged from his cell when he heard the ring of Joseph's boots on the brick.
Joseph stayed in one doorway and Mudd, having displaced Arnold—who seemed not
so much to leave but to vanish as a shadow will when exposed to light—stayed in
the other. Between them Joel's "hospital" room was neutral ground.
Across it I could feel the animosity from my husband and the rebound of it from
the doctor. "Mudd,"
Joseph said curtly. "Morphine for the boy." Dr. Mudd
started to cross the open space to retrieve it. Pointedly, Joseph handed it to
me. "My wife
will have the keeping of it. She will give you what you need for the boy and
stay to watch until you have administered it." "Thank
you—" Mudd began, but Joseph cut him off. "This is
not a privilege and will get you no special treatment. Never test me." An arrogance
I'd not seen—or not noticed—before came over Dr. Mudd, stiffening his back and
hardening the muscles of his face. It made him a different man from the kindly
doctor who tended to Joel. I could easily see how, if he wore this guise in
court, he was condemned. This Mudd could possibly lie and kill and continue to
feel righteous for having done so. "Sir,"
Dr. Mudd said icily. "Considering you are willing to imprison an innocent
man, your rudeness does not surprise me." There was an
awful moment after the doctor spoke. Joseph said nothing but let Dr. Mudd's
words hang in the air. I don't think the doctor is aware of what a slender
thread his continued well-being at Fort Jefferson depends on. "Please..."
Tilly said to no one and everyone. "Do not
test me," Joseph repeated in a tone I have come to respect. He turned to
our soldier-escort. "Private Mason, as soon as the morphine is
administered, see Mrs. Coleman and her sister back to the officers' quarters.
On his way out he stopped beside Tilly and me. In less frightening but no less
serious tones, he said: "Don't you two test me either." Tilly scarcely
heard him, nor, I noted, did she thank him for getting the morphine. I could
only hope she had the sense—and the grace—to do it before they had returned to
the casemate. She was halfway across the cell, the morphine in her outstretched
hand. "Dr. Mudd, I cannot thank you enough. Without you we would be so
alone." Joseph looked
back over his shoulder at Tilly clinging to Dr. Mudd's arm as they knelt by
Joel. The expression on his face was alien to me; I could not read it, yet it
made me afraid. For whom, I don't know. Maybe for myself. 13 Motoring into
the harbor, things seemed peaceful enough. It was too early in the day for the
shrimpers, and many other boats were out of the park fishing. Passing a
sportfishing ban in Dry Tortugas National Park had caused an outcry heard all
the way to Mississippi. Not killing animals in a national park was one thing,
but fish? Surely it's every American boy's birthright to kill fish
anywhere they are to be found. The
superintendent of Dry Tortugas and Everglades had stuck to her guns and backed
the unpopular ban. The results were much what the NPS had hoped they'd be. Not
only were there more and bigger fish within the park boundaries, but
significantly more and bigger fish were being caught outside the boundaries as
well. By banning fishing in fifty thousand acres of sea, a nursery, a veritable
cornucopia of fishes, had been created. None of this
impressed the sportfishermen. Talk still turned ugly when the subject came up,
and they still whined piteously over the inconvenience of having to go a mile
or two farther from their favorite anchorages to legally drop their lines in
the water. Anna was firmly
on the side of the fishes. As far as she was concerned, a less populated harbor
was a perk, not a consequence. She turned the Boston Whaler and backed deftly
into her slot. Water and boating skills honed as a patrol ranger at Isle Royale
National Park in Lake Superior that she'd thought lost in the intervening years
had come back with a week's practice, and she gloried in their return. Maintenance's
boat, the Atlantic Ranger, was not at the dock. Anna was just as glad.
She had a little time to grab a bite to eat, say "hi" to her cat and
gather up her gear. Twenty minutes
later, when she came down in suit and flip-flops, the many contusions left by
her encounter with the coral complaining about being exposed to the direct rays
of the sun, Daniel and Mack were sitting in the shade outside the shop waiting
for her. "Number
five up and running?" she asked as she neared them. Daniel shot her a
peculiar look, and she wondered if he took it personally when the generators
consigned to his care were on the fritz. "Right as
rain," Mack said. He changed the subject as the two men fell into step
with her. "What are we diving for?" "Identification,
mostly," Anna replied. "I'm hoping the green boat has a registration
number or, failing that, a serial number on the engine that's still readable.
So far the Florida police haven't had any luck tracing our John Doe." "Juan
Doe," Mack said. Anna didn't know if he was being racist or clever. She
let it pass. Mack wore only orange trunks and sandals, and sneaking a look at
his back, she found her guess had been correct. Striping the lean muscles and
knotty spine were the same narrow whipping scars she'd noticed on his legs and
upper arms. Dive tanks,
buoyancy compensator vests, weights and regulators were kept in a small room
behind the ladies' toilets on the visitors' dock. A few minutes were spent
loading the heavy gear, then they were motoring out toward the wreck. It
crossed Anna's mind that the NPS would want the Bay Ranger salvaged and
possibly the Scarab brought up and disposed of. Old wrecks had charm. She
wasn't so sure about the modern variety. Having no idea what went into salvage
work, she made a mental note to call the chief ranger in Homestead at
the next opportunity. The seas were
by no means rough, but neither were they at the dead calm that had facilitated
diving the day before. There was a stiffening wind out of the southeast and a
definite chop to the water. The rangers' boats in the Dry Tortugas were graced
with Global Positioning Systems, but Anna hadn't been a boat patrol ranger
since the days of loran—long range navigation—and hadn't yet bothered to learn
how to use them. Trusting in the old ways, she'd marked the wrecks with buoys.
Despite the chop, they found them easily. It was decided
she and Mack would dive the Scarab first to see if they could find any
identifying marks, numbers or papers. Often boats kept important papers in waterproof
containers so the idea was not that farfetched. That done, they'd scavenge
Bob's boat and bring up anything useful or even detachable. Once the sport
divers or snorkelers found the Bay Ranger, she would be picked clean by
souvenir hunters. Regardless of laws forbidding the vandalizing of sunken
artifacts in protected waters, it was virtually impossible to overcome the
allure of taking home a trophy pried from a genuine shipwreck. Ignoring the
uproar from her abused flesh, Anna wriggled into an old dive skin—the nicer one
shredded in the explosion—fins, vest, snorkel and mask. Mack, finished before
she was, waited till she was ready, and together they rolled off the gunwale. The pristine
clarity of the water was gone, as was the glassy surface above. Particulate
matter clouded vision and leached colors from fish and coral. Visibility
underwater was an ever-changing thing. Like the weather, it seemed to make its
own unpredictable choices. One day clear, cloudy the next and often without the
easy logic of groundswell or storm to explain the sudden fluctuations. Mack vanished
in the murk, swimming expertly with an economy of motion. He wore neither dive
suit nor skin. Underwater his body hair floated and sunlight refracted, making
his scars startlingly apparent. Or perhaps Anna had speculated on them so long
and so rudely with the lighthouse keepers she'd sensitized herself. Now they
put her in mind, not of an abused child, but a tiger shark. Kicking hard, she
caught up and swam beside Mack. The physical exertion was welcome. With the
murky water and the fleeting thought of man-as-tiger-shark, she worried her
mind might be taking that particular twist it had the night before. Moving, working,
relegated the ghoulies and ghosties to a half-remembered dream state. The hull was
scattered in fragments. Between them she and Mack turned over every piece they
could find, the largest being the stern portion, without finding any name or
numbers. Either the identifying marks had been pulverized in the explosion or
the owners of this super-loaded speedboat chose to remain anonymous. As they worked,
it began to dawn on Anna that someone had been stirring in the pile. Though
she'd not said it to herself in so many words, the idea germinated when they'd
moved the stern. After the initial explosion the orange PFD had been floating
like a child's birthday balloon above the transom, tethered by its own strap.
Following the second explosion it had been pinned beneath the upended stern.
Now it was gone. If there'd been nothing else, she would have assumed it had
gotten loose and floated away. The sea is a strange place. Things happen. But there were
other changes. Nothing dramatic, nothing even as noticeable as the removal of
the life jacket; it was that objects weren't quite the way she remembered: a
little to the right, farther left, turned on its side, shifted farther under or
over something else. It reminded her of the way drawers and dressing tables
look after being searched and restored to their presearch configuration by most
males. Everything is there. Everything is where it was. But better, the
carefully tended chaos made slightly more orderly, slightly less random. Anna
hadn't come primarily for taking photos, but she took a lot of them, and from
the same angles she remembered the last shots having been taken. When she
compared the two sets of photographs she would know for sure if someone had
been diving here, doing major rifling, in the past twelve hours. No, Anna
corrected herself as she lined up a shot of the shattered midsection, I already
know for sure. The pictures are to prove it. Whether to herself or someone
else depended on whether she continued to see ghosts or not. Finally, each
and every piece of debris examined, Anna gave up on finding either name or
registration number. Their only remaining hope was getting a serial number off
one of the Searab's engines in hopes they could trace it to the manufacturer
and from there through the various sales slips to its present owner. Both engines,
imposing chunks of black metal with white plastic tubing, were virtually
intact. One was buried in the sand, the top down, the number unreachable. The
blast had separated the other from the hull and carried it to a complex, if
small, mountain range. Anna chose not to think of the thousands of years of
careful creation destroyed on impact or the millions of tiny lives
extinguished. The grace and delicacy of the coral cities put Anna in mind of
Dr. Seuss's Whoville. She couldn't help picturing the living coral as full of
minute Who people going about their little Who lives. The fairy tale—programmed
anthropomorphism—made the destruction ridiculously poignant. To complete the
image, the plastic tubing on the engine, ends severed from wherever they'd been
designed to take a necessary fluid, floated out like tentacles from the black
squatting body of the monster. Too many horror
movies as a kid, Anna thought, and smiled around the plastic plug of her
regulator as she pictured Rodan pursuing a Japanese maiden across the sea
floor. Catching Mack's
attention, she pointed to herself, then to the engine. Mack shook his
head and pointed to the surface. He tapped his watch, then the pressure gauge
that indicated how much air remained in the tank. Anna looked at
her own gauge. She had just under half a tank. Even given the difference in
their size, unless Mack had been hyperventilating, it was hard to believe he
was out of air. She tapped her own gauge and circled thumb and index finger in
the "okay" sign, then began to swim to him to see if there was a
problem with his equipment but, after shaking the gauge hard, he gave an
exaggerated shrug and the "okay" sign. Evidently it
had fixed itself. She turned and finished the short journey to where the engine
lay on uneven peaks of coral. The explosion had flipped it so it landed top
downward on the rocky surface. Little fishes had already begun exploring the
intricate crevices and caves of metal. Tiny eyes,
working mouths and colorful flicks of tails met Anna as she inspected the
underside for identifying numbers. Mostly she was being thorough. Serial
numbers were meant to be seen and used while the vehicle the engine was housed
in was right-side up. Manufacturers usually put them on a metal part close to
the top. Mack floated
nearby; more company than help, a flicker of color and movement in her
peripheral vision much like the shy visit of a large fish. Having proved to herself
there were to be no easy answers, Anna let her body sink a couple feet deeper.
The nest of coral boulders the engine rested on was not more than three and
four feet high. Fins on the sandy bottom, she was at eye level with where the
metal met the rock in a crush of once-living coral and plant life. It hadn't
fallen on a single boulder but the meeting of several slowly growing together.
Beneath the engine was a miniature canyon eighteen inches or so deep and three
or four feet long. The top of this ravine, capped by iron and steel, was a
couple of feet across, the bottom tapered to nothing where boulder met boulder.
Living walls, now in darkness, housed the delicate and wondrous beings so
common in these waters. Ignoring the
imaginary screams as the Whos of Whoville rushed about in panic, their fairy
cities in ruins, Anna poked one arm in, flashlight in hand, and followed it
with her head. A skull-shuddering clank stopped her as her air tank rang
against the metal of the engine. Between metal and bone, the noise sounded
inside her head as if her skull were the bell and her brain the clapper. She waited till
the ringing ceased shaking her gray matter, then poked about carefully with her
little underwater light. She'd not used it before and, like some of the men
she'd dated, it was cute but dim. After scraping the back of her hand and
murdering several thousand more Whos with her elbow, she found what she was
looking for. Maybe. Cramped in at an odd angle with bubbles and wee little Who
corpses floating before her eyes, it was hard to be sure. Pulling head
and flashlight out, she stuck her right arm in up to the shoulder and tried to
read the numbers with the tips of her fingers. Her fingertips were, if
anything, too sensitive. Such a plethora of information was sent back from the
wet and rough and smooth and greasy, one proficient in Braille could possibly
have deduced all of Hamlet or prophesied the apocalypse from what her
fingers read there. Anna was merely
confused and frustrated. Again she peered into the triangular-shaped tunnel.
There was no egress at the far end. The engine capped a miniature box canyon.
Backing off, she pondered the feasibility of shifting the engine. A few
experimental shoves alone, then with the help of Mack, couldn't budge it. That
was probably just as well. From where she hung before the opening of the black
box protecting her number, the edge of the engine to her left only overlapped
the edge of the coral by an inch or so. Had they succeeded in shifting the
engine it would slide into the crack and, short of a hoist from a salvage ship,
she'd never get at the serial number. A minute, maybe
more, she stared into the hole trying to ignore the solution to her problem by
sending her thoughts chasing down various cheeseless rat holes. Other avenues
exhausted, she was forced back to the obvious. Without her vest and tank she
could fit in the crevice. It would take a bit of wriggling to keep her hand up
near her eyes so she'd have light when she reached the number, but it wouldn't
be that tight a squeeze. She'd been in
tighter. And hated it, she reminded
herself. "Hated" was the word she chose to remember from her last
crawl in Lechuguilla Cave some years back. It saved her from admitting to
herself how terrified she'd been, how desperately close to coming unglued and
running mad through the labyrinths of the underworld, a modern metaphor for
Tolkein's Gollum. Nothing for it,
she
decided. Mack was hovering and unsettled to the far right edge of her vision.
She pointed to herself then to the crevice and began to take off her vest. The
regulator hose was long enough; if she held it tight against her chest, she
could continue breathing though the tank was not on her back. Anna was much in
favor of continuing to breathe. Mack was
shaking his head pointing at his pressure gauge, then toward the surface. Again
Anna looked at her own. Just over a quarter full. They were no more than twenty-five
feet down—a free dive. It would take but a minute or two to see if she could
get in far enough to read the number. While venturing
into worlds unfriendly to human beings, Anna tended to err on the side of
caution, but they were not even within shouting distance of the danger zone.
Mack had done enough dives that this shallow junket in warm waters could hold
no horrors for him. Anna guessed he wasn't playing it safe, he simply had an
agenda of his own, probably one that involved beer. She shook her
head, pointed to the crevice, then turned her back on him. Without the vest she
was less buoyant and took a weight from her belt so she could move easily in
the water, having neither to fight to stay submerged nor struggle to move
toward the surface. In an unusual
synchronicity with the needs of the human world, Mother Nature had created,
with the help of many soon-to-be-abused creatures, a shelf near Anna's crevice.
There Anna put vest and tank, arranging them so the least amount of disturbance
would be caused when she moved into the hole. That done, she lay on her back in
the water, her hands on the edge of the engine where it hung over the edge of
the coral. Resting a moment, she made sure everything was in order, light
clipped in the neck of her dive skin, underwater pad and pencil stuffed under
the zipper between her breasts, breathing hose smooth, no kinks. Satisfied, she
began pulling herself gently into the crack beneath the Scarab's motor. The fit was not
tight, but she had to leave her left arm at her side, the hand sticking out of
the hole near her left thigh, and use her right hand to pinch and pull herself
along. Her face was about six inches below the engine, leaving plenty of room
for regulator and goggles. The air hose trailed across her chest and down her
left side, where it was held reassuringly in the fingers of her left hand
before it snaked away to the tank on the shelf. Five seconds,
maybe less, and her head bumped gently on the end of the tunnel. Her right
elbow was trapped against her ribs, but she had enough space to maneuver hand
and wrist easily enough. With a minimum of fumbling, she undipped the
flashlight and turned it on. Serial numbers.
Bright and clear and nearly new. A feeling of great personal resourcefulness
and the joy in a prize won pushed claustrophobia—still an infant at barely ten
seconds old—back into the womb. Having clipped the light to the strap on her
mask, she wedged her notebook against the engine with the heel of her hand and,
using the underwater pen cleverly tethered to the pad, began copying down the
numerals. Grinding so
loud she thought the plates of her skull were coming apart and the number
shifted to the right, the heel of her hand carried with it, then weight,
crushing weight. Air pushed from her lungs. The flashlight was shoved to the
right. The butt of it banged against her teeth, then metal and light were gone. That was it.
The whole thing. Over in a heartbeat. It had happened
so quickly it took her a moment to believe she was trapped under an internal combustion
engine on the bottom of the ocean. The next thing she noticed was that she was
still breathing. Her lungs had to work a little harder. The hose must have been
constricted but not pinched closed. Either that or she was hyperventilating.
The grinding noise had triggered a shot of adrenaline into her system so
substantial her insides felt jellied. Over the years,
tales had filtered in about people imbued with superhuman strength in time of
crises; usually a mother, a child and an overturned tractor were featured.
Unfortunately this was not the case with her. Her right arm, pressed tight
across her chest, couldn't move itself let alone the tonnage of the engine.
Fleetingly she wondered if she were to be entombed beneath the sea, laid out in
an eternal flag salute. The thought brought on a twinge of hysteria followed by
terror so great it took more willpower than she would have believed she had not
to fight herself into an early death. Breathe,
breathe, breathe. Slow. A breath. Slow. Anna forced herself into a semblance of
calm. It was not utterly dark in her crevice. The flashlight was somewhere
beside her head, still emitting its feeble beam. The water was a colloidal
suspension of Who bodies and Who buildings and Who villages under a black
corrugated sky. The fantasy,
delightful earlier, scared her now. For reasons she hadn't the time or the
inclination to pursue, going insane, even in an insane situation, was scary as
hell. A breath. A
count. A breath. Panic
momentarily at bay, it occurred to her that not only was she not dead, as she
had every right to be, and breathing, which she had no right to be, but, near
as she could tell, miraculously unhurt. The engine had slipped down only far
enough to press her tightly but not to squash anything. To Mack it must
look as if she'd been killed. Another wave of
panic swept over her. Living people were rescued as quickly as possible.
Americans, especially Americans in the National Park Service, would move
mountains, would not rest, would not stop and would spare no expense as long as
there was even a slim hope life still burned. They took their
own sweet time about body recoveries. Frantically,
she began kicking her feet, waggling the fingers of her left hand. The image of
half her body swallowed by a black and craggy mouth, neon-green flippered feet
and white fingers flipping out of the metal and coral lips, struck her as
unbelievably funny. Before she could control herself laughter borne on
absurdity and hysteria bubbled out of her mouth. The regulator's mouthpiece was
loosed from her lips and teeth and floated upward following the bubbles. The regulator
stopped against the engine an inch or so above her mouth, air gently leaking
out. Oxygen hunger welled in her lungs and with it desperate panic. Pushing with
all her strength, she managed to move her right hand up from her heart to her
collarbone. With the tips of her fingers she could tickle her chin. There it
wedged so tightly she could feel the blood being cut off and numbness creeping
into her fingers. Metal pressed
across the top of her mask, immobilizing her head and neck. Forcing her tongue
out till the root ached, she managed to lick the bottom of the mouthpiece, but
no more. Her lungs
wanted to break open, force her to breathe in the water. Not yet, Anna
thought. Seconds only had elapsed. Though she'd lost air on the ill-fated
laughter, she could last another minute, maybe more. There was one
more thing she could try but, should it fail, she'd die. Like you're not
dying now, for Chrissake? a rude voice in her head mocked. Chrissake.
Christ's sake. Whoever or whatever really is God, if you exist, I'm sorry I
never got in touch. Having covered
the eternal bases, Anna blew every bit of air from her lungs, collapsing them
down till the final bubbles were squeezed out. 14 Dear Peg, At
last I have some good news to relate. First and foremost: rain! We have so
desperately needed it and have been teased by seemingly endless storms that
brought nothing but high seas and drying winds. For four days
it rained. The lighthouse keeper (who keeps records of all things
meteorological for the army) said we got seven and three quarters inches. The
cisterns are filled and we've bathed, washed our hair and laundered our
clothing. Till coming to live on Garden Key I had not known what a blessing it
is to be clean. Out here one begins to think constant itching and irritation in
areas both public and private are simply how God ordered the world. The only ones
not put in a happier disposition by this recent deluge are Dr. Mudd, our
benefactor, Joel Lane and the unsettling Mr. Arnold. Rain was driven in their
high narrow windows and, though one would not believe it possible seeing the
thickness of the ramparts, seeped in through walls and ceiling. The brick and
mortar became so saturated, for a clay and a half after the skies cleared it
continued to "rain" in their casemate. The cells became ankle-deep in
water. We had to raise Joel's bedding on a pallet of loose brick to keep it
dry. Joel has
regained partial use of his right thumb. He was cheerful enough to make jokes
about surviving the war only to drown in bed. When last I was at the cells,
both Mr. Arnold and Dr. Mudd were busying themselves by chiseling drainage
ditches in the cement of the flooring so they'll not again be flooded. Unlike other
prisons, it is not unusual for the men incarcerated here to be given tools.
Indeed many have complete freedom of the island. Without a boat, escape is
impossible. The discomfort
of the conspirators aside, the rain brought the feel of a new beginning and,
so, hopes to the garrison. Thirty-seven of the confederate soldiers were
released and given passage to Key West. Seeing the exodus begin put the others
in high spirits. A lessening of the hostility and the burden of overseeing so
many men passed these good feelings on to the guards. Colonel
Battersea—remember me telling you of him? He's the confederate officer who
befriended Joseph at West Point and became a prisoner here. His wife was ailing
and he wished an early release. Though he tried, Joseph was unable to get it
for him. Well, not a week ago he managed to escape. How, I don't know. It is
suspected he stowed away on one of the ships that docked during the confusion
when the conspirators were brought. Joseph did all the things duty required,
but I could tell he was glad the colonel was never found. Into this
holiday mood came the Quinterra under Captain Johns. Captain Johns and
his crew come to the island twice each year, and he and Joseph have formed a
fast friendship. As captains, they have few outlets for conversation among
equals. To make him welcome, Joseph suggested a dance with the garrison band
making the music. Captain Johns kindly offered the use of the Quinterra for
the festivities. Oh, Peggy, you
cannot imagine how we looked forward to getting off this teeming pile of brick
and sand! I didn't know how much I longed to escape until the opportunity was
presented. You would have thought I'd been chained in the dungeon itself, away
from light and air for a hundred years. Tilly, at sixteen, couldn't have been
any more excited than I. We would go out to sea only a mile or more—not even
out of the sight of the battlements—but the women of the fort—including old
Mrs. Farrow, the lighthouse keeper's mother-in-law—decided we were going to make
the evening as fine as we could. Our officers needed a return to civility as
much as we did, and while we pestered the laundresses with our skirts and fancy
sleeves, they tried to bribe them away with money, rum or promises of love to
get them to attend to their dress uniforms. Molly, ever
proper, saw to it Tilly was sent to Fort Jefferson with one good gown. It had
lain in Tilly's trunk, folded in the tissue she'd used to pack it, there being
no need for anything finer than ordinary day dresses. My gown was sadly out of
fashion but, if noticed, it will be forgiven. Most of the women here are in the
same situation as I, and a couple have been here longer. My blue taffeta
is cut well and drapes beautifully off the shoulder, and even at my advanced
age I can customarily turn a head or two of the older—or more myopic—men, but
once we'd completed our lengthy toilette I knew I could have gone in a pair of
Joseph's old work trousers for all the attention I might expect. Tilly was
stunning. The dress, a rich bronze that carried light with it, exposed her
shoulders and as much of her bosom as was decent. The browning of her skin,
unavoidable in this climate, rather than making her look coarse as it would any
mortal woman, coupled with the coppery tint of the dress, turned her to gold.
Even I, who had witnessed the curling rags, the pins and the petticoats in need
of repair, had my breath snatched away when she turned from admiring herself
and curtseyed to me. Knowing myself
to have been effectively rendered invisible, I took those gold and lapis combs
you gave me on my eighteenth birthday out of my hair and put them in hers and
handed over my good fan. She was so lovely, even knowing it was Tilly with all
her pouts and pets and passions underneath, one was moved to make offerings. "Let's go
show Joel and Dr. Mudd," Tilly said. That, of
course, was an exceedingly bad idea, but she'd asked it while I was still in
thrall to her startlingly new and totally womanly elegance, and I simply
followed her like lady-in-waiting to the queen. My wits
returned as I trailed her up the spiral stairs leading from the ground floor to
the second, then the third tiers. The rustle of the taffeta as her skirts swept
over the steps put me back twenty years—twenty-two—to my first grand ball. I
doubt you'll remember, but I have forgotten nothing. My gown was of scarlet
silk, and I met Joseph. Stumbled over him nearly. He was shooting dice with two
other bored lieutenants in a dark corner of the upstairs veranda. "Tilly,"
I called up to her. "Stop at the top of the stairs. I need to speak with
you before we go any farther." The light rhythmic shush of her soft-soled
slippers on the stairs increased. For a moment I thought she meant to run away
from me—not in wickedness or disobedience but just in the playful way of girls
giddy with the sudden knowledge that they are grown, gowned and gloriously
pretty. To my relief
she did as she was bid. The climb was not long, but both of us were corseted as
tightly as whalebone and Luanne's strong hands could make us, and we were in
need of a moment to catch our breath. I had recovered
sufficiently to explain to Tilly why we must go back, meet the others at the
dock, when I heard footsteps approaching. Though the usual ring of heels
reinforced with iron was replaced with the gentle tap of leather-soled dancing
pumps, the military stride gave his identity away. "Joseph."
I turned and, Tilly behind me, watched him come. The sun was near the horizon,
the light burnished and saturated with color as though it passed through honey.
Each of the brick arches separating the casemates threw its own shadow. Joseph
passed from shadow to light, back straight, hair as shining and black as the
day we married, the brass of his sword scabbard, buckle and buttons polished
and gleaming, he looked very much a hero from one of the old books. Had he been
on horseback, I believe I might have swooned. As is his wont,
he brought me back from my dreaming posthaste. "And just
what in hell do you think you are doing up here dressed like that? Where do you
think you are, woman? I'll not have you—" I believe he
was sufficiently wound up with the excitement of the dance and his
responsibilities for seeing that all came off in a way that would bring honor
to both Captain Johns and Fort Jefferson that he might have gone on berating me
for some time. Knowing full well I was every bit the idiot he took me for, I
would have stood and taken it, too. Fortunately Tilly saved us from having to
play out the entire scene. "Uncle
Joseph, it was my fault," she insisted and stepped out from behind me into
the light of the setting sun. Joseph abruptly
fell silent. It wasn't her assumption of responsibility. Joseph knows better
than I that ultimate responsibility falls at the feet of the man—or in this
case, woman—left in charge. Seeing Tilly in her evening splendor and drenched
in the fairy light that had my heart spinning when I saw him approach had
struck him dumb. You would have
laughed to see his face. Years fell away. His lips, often a bit cruel these
last years, softened to the sensuous line that so captivated me as a girl, and
his eyes widened like a child's. The transformation was so quick as to be
comical. It made me want to cry rather than laugh, though I cannot tell you
why. "My
lady?" he said and held out his arm. Tilly took it and he escorted her
back to the stairs. My lapse in
judgment had brought us to no harm, and Tilly's new gown saved me from having
to withstand a tongue-lashing, however deserved. I told myself to be grateful;
count my blessings. Despite the
inauspicious start, the evening was everything our joint wishes and those of
the officers and crew of the Quinterra could have wished. We dined in
the crew's mess (the captain's being too small to seat us all). The ship had
been cleaned and buffed till the fine old wood of the hall looked rich rather
than tired, and the tables had white linens. The food was good enough, and by
fort standards, excellent. Captain Johns provided the wine. It was from New
York State but surprisingly good. We danced on
deck. The crew had hung lanterns from the rigging. The night was clear and full
of stars, and the band in excellent form, making our makeshift ballroom more
romantic than any well-appointed hall lit with candles. As she deserved to be,
Tilly was the belle of the ball. I watched her carefully but I needn't have.
She was having far too good a time being admired and fawned upon by thirty
adoring swains to sneak off with any one of them. And, too, Joseph never took
his eyes off of her and cut in a time or two when a partner held her too
closely. The men
outnumbering the women five to one, none of the rest of us had reason to
begrudge Tilly her conquests. We were all danced off of our feet, and, near
three in the morning when time came to go back to the tort, all but the
youngest and strongest among us were ready to do so. Night had grown
so still it was decided that rather than raise sail and bring the ship back
into harbor, the party from the fort was to be rowed back in the Quinterra's
dinghies. There were but twenty-two of us in all, and we fit snugly in
three boats along with crew to row us home. But for Tilly's
misguided enthusiasms the trip would have been a lovely and peaceful end to a
wonderful evening. I was sandwiched between Mrs. Dicks, the lighthouse keeper's
wife, and her mother, Mrs. Farrow. Mrs. Farrow is a trial at the best of times.
This night she'd stayed out late and drunk too much of the captain's good wine.
One might have hoped this combination would have sedated her and the most we'd
be called upon to do would be to keep the old harridan from falling asleep and
tumbling into the sea. Unfortunately being tipsy and overtired only served to
agitate her nerves. She fidgeted so the boat rocked, and actually pinched me
twice to make me move over as though her derriиre hadn't already claimed a good
half of the seat we three shared. Tilly and
Joseph sat on the bench in front of us. The moon was very low—near to
setting—but there was still much light from stars and sea. The moon had the
effect of turning Tilly from the shimmering golden girl of sunset into a lovely
silver statue. Well, not a statue. Miss Tilly was as vivacious and lively as
she had been when the evening began. At first her
chatter was of the ball and the sailors with whom she danced, the clever things
said and witty rejoinders made. As she was the youngest in our lifeboat by a
good twenty years, all but Mrs. Farrow seemed to enjoy the girlish babble.
Tilly was already well on her way to being a pet of the officers and their
wives. Even Joseph, usually stony faced, was looking at her now and again. In
profile I read an indulgent smile on his lips, and he kept his arm protectively
about her waist lest her excessive reenacting of the waltzes hurl her over the
gunwale. I thought it a
pretty picture of avuncular devotion, but Mrs. Farrow, not satisfied with
merely savaging my upper arm with her bony pinches, leaned close and whispered:
"I'd watch out if I were you. In some societies it's considered the man's
duty to marry the sister if his wife dies." I was so
furious, wondering if anyone would really mind if I pushed the old witch
overboard, that I didn't notice the turn Tilly's prattle had taken till it was
too late to stop it with a few well-placed pinches of my own. It was the cold
that brought me around. Joseph's voice had gone from honey to ice, and it
penetrated the fog of my self-absorption. "The man conspired to murder our
president," he said softly. Tilly, unaccustomed to reading my husband,
must have heard only quiet reasonableness in the words and not felt the
crippling chill underlying them. Either that or her youth and innocence led her
to believe there is such a thing as a friendly argument when discussing
politics. Whatever the
delusion, the little fool went on: "But he didn't," she
insisted. "Dr. Mudd had nothing to do with Mr. Lincoln's death. Oh Joseph,
if only you'd talk to him." Tilly turned sideways the better to clutch
Joseph's arm and make her plea. He turned as well, and I could see the warm and
doting look was gone; the glitter was that of rain turned suddenly to ice. Tilly did not
notice. "Dr. Mudd
was only following his Hippocratic oath to help people, like he's helping Joel.
He is really the most wonderful man. If only you would—" Joseph started
working his jaw the way he does just before he chews someone up into tiny
pieces. "Oh, Tilly, look! A flying fish!" I said. I know it was
silly. I don't even know if they fly at night, but it was what came into my
mind. She didn't even hear me. "—get to
know him. I know you would come to love him as I do." At this I
resorted to Mrs. Farrow's tactics and gave Tilly's shoulder a good hard pinch. "Ouch.
What is it, Raffie?" "A flying
fish," I repeated, my poor wine-sodden brain able to come up with nothing
new. It succeeded in distracting her. She's been wanting to see one of these
wondrous creatures since she arrived. We spent a few minutes gazing out at the
calm surface of the sea where I had pretended to see the phenomenon. Joseph's jaw
stopped clenching, but I knew the disaster had not been averted but merely
postponed. I had seen the flash in his eye when Tilly said she loved Samuel
Mudd and knew my husband well enough to know this was not over. 15 Anna had seen cavers
use the exhalation trick in tight places. They'd expel all the air to shrink
their lung cavity in hopes of squeaking through. She'd believed them insane.
Now she hoped there was at least a grain of method in their madness. The last of her
air dribbled out. Her lungs, mind, every cell in her body was screaming. With
all the power she possessed, she shoved her right arm toward her face. Three
inches were gained. It was enough. Fingers scrabbled on the smooth rubber,
grabbed and the regulator was shoved back into her mouth. Air rushed in, and
for that moment life was good. Closing her eyes, she sucked on the regulator
like a kitten at its mother's teat, at peace to feel the stuff of life flowing
in. Joy was intense
but short-lived. An odd memory of her husband playing Rosenkrantz—or was it
Guildenstern?—in Rosencrantz and Guildenstern Are Dead. "Life in a
box is better than no life at all," the character had said. Anna didn't
agree. Again she
waggled the fingers of her left hand and her neon-flippered feet to let Mack
know she was alive. This time she was not even tempted to laugh. An ugly thought
bloomed in her brain—given her situation, she'd believed it couldn't get
uglier. She was wrong. The engine had not been precariously balanced. Had that
been the case, wild sea horses could not have dragged her underneath it. The instant
before she'd become entombed in coral and cast iron she'd been shaken by a
harsh grating sound, sharp, metal on rock; a pry bar, maybe, levering the
engine from its seating, causing it to shift and fall on her. Who but Mack?
Surely there were not marauding aquamen with crowbars stalking the ocean floors
in hopes of finding idiot women in compromising positions. She stopped
kicking. Perhaps it was unwise to let Mack know she lived. Her lifeline, the
air hose, was a fragile thing, easily pinched or cut. A tapping on
her thigh broke her from this miserable reverie, and she kicked. Maybe Mack was
a murderer—if he was she was a dead woman—but he was the only game in town. The tap turned
to a pat probably meant to be reassuring. Pretending it worked, Anna lay still,
letting the bubbles she breathed out rise through the maze of internal
combustion parts to signify her continuing life. In some peculiar way it was a
relief to realize she was completely and utterly helpless. There was nothing
she could do: no trick, no act, no cleverness of mind. If she was to die, no
fault could be laid at her door. It could not be said she had not been quick
enough or strong enough or smart enough to save herself. To her
surprise, she relaxed. She enjoyed each breath wondering if it was to be her
last, if Mack even now reached for his knife to cut the air hose. Death, so
close, was seductive, welcoming. Perhaps Death was the true possessor of the
phenomena attributed to vampires: if one looked into its eyes one became entranced,
eager for union with darkness. She was still
breathing. It seemed she
lay in this otherworldy peace for an infinity. When she was jerked back to
awareness by the clamor of metal stakes pounding on her iron coffin lid, she
woke with something very like anger. It faded, quickly to be replaced by a more
corrosive and dangerous emotion: hope. Someone—presumably
Mack—was banging about. Working, maybe, with his pry bar to finish the job,
lever the engine off whatever small ledge had saved her life, so she would be
crushed. That made no
sense. Thumb and finger on the air hose for a few minutes would do the trick,
take less energy and leave no clues. Mack was trying to save her. That made no
sense either. Why try kill to her, then try to save her? So he could look the
hero? Don't worry
about it, she told herself. The rescue attempt will probably kill you
just as dead. Lifting a massive weight wasn't easy, even underwater. Should
the load shift or slip, she would be pate for the fishes. The hypnotic pull of
death had been broken, and now Anna was afraid. Her body pressed and cramping,
the engine cutting where it mashed against the back of her hand, immobility,
the small half-lighted space before her eyes, all this crawled into mind and
bone till she wanted to fight, to scream and flail. She could do none of these
and watched inwardly as panic turned to acid and tried to melt her resolve not
to fight. Clanking near
her head grew louder. Sound coming through iron and skull to join with the
shriek of soul and cells. Above her face motes in the water moved. The
cast-iron ceiling of her world began to shift, lift ever so slightly. Before
she could move or breathe, strong hands clamped around her ankles. Grind
changed to a shriek. Her claustrophobic world kaleidoscoped. Anna had an
instant to wonder if she was dying or going mad. Black sky moved. Her back and
sides scraped over the coral canyon forming her shroud. The regulator was
ripped from her mouth. Vision swam in bubbles and particles of once-living
plants and animals. Caught in this vortex, she didn't fight to keep the scrap
of rubber that fed life to her one lungful at a time but let the world change,
watching it with a timeless fascination. Then light. She
was out. The engine rolled, teetered, then crashed back down on the place from
which she'd been so abruptly delivered. A hand was on her arm, Mack's face
close, his thumb jerking upward. Newborn and
free, Anna came back into herself and kicked for the surface to erupt into sun
and air. Ripping off mask and snorkel, she let them sink away from her. Though
it was foolish, she could no longer bear to have anything covering her face.
She kicked off her fins, and they, too, fell away. Then her weight belt,
unbuckled, sank like a stone. Hands were
grasping, pushing, pulling her up. Scrabbling, she tumbled over the gunwale and
onto the boat's deck. No longer could she bear anything against her skin; she
clawed at her zipper and fought to free herself of her dive skin. The nylon
suit caught and tangled over the booties and she kicked and cried out. Daniel
and Mack moved to strip the suit and booties off. Twice she kicked the men
helping her, but she couldn't stop herself. At last she
wore nothing but her swimsuit and still it was too much. Ripping it off, she
pushed away the hands that would have steadied her, lashed out at the legs
standing between her and the sun. Like a panic-stricken cat, she hissed and
clawed till she was alone on one side of boat, Mack and Daniel cowering on the
other. Space around
her, she stopped the struggle. She breathed. She began to shake so badly she
had to sink to the deck to keep from tumbling overboard. Snot ran from her
nose. Naked and gasping and crying and swearing, she sat in a wet heap until
the fit passed. As she quieted,
so did the world. Only the lap of waves against the hull gentled the silence.
She let her head drop back against the side of the boat. "Whoo,
boy," she said to no one in particular. "Not my idea of a good
time." The men said
nothing. Anna focused her eyes on them and smiled at their horror-stricken
faces. Her brain had
broken. Never would she admit that. Too scary. Too alien. Panic would come
back. "Sorry," she said. "I guess I needed some space." Another silence
was lapped away by the sea. Mack was the first to break it. "Are you
hurt?" He asked like he genuinely cared, like her hurt was his hurt.
"I saw your hand wiggling and your feet kicking and I was afraid you were
hurting. Are you hurting? Did it hurt you?" His very real,
white-lipped anguish at the thought she'd suffered pain took away any residual
suspicion she harbored that he was the cause of her recent incarceration. "I'm not
hurt," she said. "Good.
Good. That's good." Mack's relief
was evident. And exaggerated, unless he had loved her pure and chaste from afar
all these weeks. She doubted that, but was grateful for the concern. "You
okay?" Daniel asked warily. "I
guess." Anna leaned her head back but didn't close her eyes. The harsh
glare of the sun, the impossible blue of the sky, the infinite miles and years
of space above and around her were heaven. "You maybe
want to put something on?" Daniel asked. "Sure."
Anna didn't move. He took off his
shirt and tossed it to her. Anna did not slip her arms into the sleeves or
button it but used it like a blanket to cover her nakedness. She was not being
coy. Any form of confinement, however benign, was too much to contemplate. The
freaky sense of doom licked at her brain again. What the fuck is wrong with
me? she screamed, but only in her mind. "What
happened?" she asked. "The
engine shifted," Mack said. "Why?" "I don't
know." He looked at her when he said it, voice and face way too earnest,
eye contact too firm. He knew. Or he knew something. Could there have been a
third party with them, one she'd not seen? Had Mack done something careless or
stupid that he did not wish to take responsibility for? Anna decided to
let it pass. There would be time enough later to worry at the details. "Then
what?" "You were
wiggling. I thought you were hurting. I came up and told Daniel." Mack wasn't one
for edifying detail or embroidering a story. "We didn't
know what you were suffering," Daniel took over. "Didn't know if we
had time to get equipment for a safer lift. Mack hooked the anchor to the
engine and I pulled with the boat." "When it
lifted a little I yanked you out," Mack finished. Stripped of
emotion and "what ifs," it sounded absurdly simple. "I'm glad
you did," Anna said. "Thanks." Mack just
looked away, embarrassed, maybe. "Don't mention it," Daniel said
politely. Twice now Anna'd
been rescued on this same wreck. She hated being the victim, hated being
beholden and was fast coming to hate water sports. "I'll get
your stuff," Mack said. "Fins, mask—you dropped them." Before Anna
could protest, he was over the side. It was in her mind that she would never
again venture into water deeper than that in a bathtub, but she knew she would,
and soon. A horror left untreated had a nasty habit of becoming a phobia. He was gone for
what seemed like a very long time, but Anna didn't mind. Above water,
breathing, she worked to settle her mind. Put on clothes. Stop acting
crazy—crazy like Lanny. Daniel respected her silence and busied himself
organizing equipment till Mack returned with her BC, tank, mask, fins and
weight belt. Having dumped the stuff on deck, he sat on the gunwale staring at
her. "You're
scarred," he blurted out apropos of nothing. The compassion in his face
and voice robbed the declaration of rudeness. Anna did not
need a moment to figure out what he meant. For nearly ten years she'd borne the
jagged, shiny, pink line across her chest from above her left nipple to her
right armpit, but she'd never grown so accustomed to the disfigurement that she
forgot she had it. It was the deciding factor in the purchase of all bathing
suits and some tops: was the neckline high enough to cover the scar? It took an
effort, but she did not reach up, trace the mark with her fingers, nor did she
give in to the need to tug Daniel's uniform shirt up to cover it. "I'm
scarred," she agreed. "How did
you get it?" Anna searched
Mack's face, looking for the avid curiosity, the touch of the vicarious ghoul
that usually accompanied the question. What she found was an old pain and what
looked to be a genuine concern, perhaps even fondness, for her. Maybe saving
someone's life did that. The Chinese said once you saved a life you became
responsible for it. Or perhaps the vicious scar on her chest made her a member
of the club, a victim brutally marked as Mack had been marked by the whip. Resentment and
revulsion boiled up in Anna, and she looked away for fear he would see it in
her eyes. The feelings were base, unworthy, unfair, but she couldn't help
feeling angry that she, too, might be considered a victim, a helpless child
once tortured. For a fleeting moment she tasted the shame Mack had carried all
of his life. It shook her enough she could banish the most uncharitable of her
illogical thoughts. "A fish
gaff," she said and was able to refrain from adding that she'd gotten it
in a fight, a fight she'd won. "Where'd you get yours?" Tit for tat.
I'll show you mine if you'll show me yours. His face, till
now uncharacteristically open, his emotions as easy to read as those of a
child, slammed shut. "Prison," he said. Then: "Are we about
finished here? I've been off the clock for thirty minutes." Anna wasn't
going to get any more out of him, and she didn't want to try, not really. She'd
felt enough of his shame not to want to stir it up again in either one of them.
Floggings in prison had gone the way of the passenger pigeon, and the fine cut
marks on his back and legs had faded as only scars received before one comes
into their growth can. If it took a fantasy for Mack to hold his head up, Anna
wasn't going to be the one to dismantle it. Ripping open old wounds was best
left to sociopathic relatives and psychiatrists. "I'm done
here," she said. "Salvage can do the rest." The men
politely busied their eyes elsewhere as she wriggled back into her swimsuit
lest she frighten the tourists or the fishes. Back at the
dock on Garden Key, equipment stowed in the room behind the ladies' lavatory,
Mack offered to take care of Anna's dive skin and snorkel equipment. The
concern was again in his face, but it had gone flat, like a smile held too long
for the camera. Anna declined
and was surprised at the look of disappointment, disappointment so intense it
bordered on annoyance. "C'mon,"
he said, and it was dangerously near a whine. "You've got to be
about wore out. Let me help you." If being hounded by Mack's good
intentions was the price of having her life saved, Anna figured she'd gotten
the good end of the deal, but maybe not by much. This new eagerness to be
nursemaid was already wearing on her nerves. Gratitude and
kindness urged her to hand over her suit and gear if he needed to be of service
for some unfathomable reason. She rose above them. "Nope. I'll do it. But
thanks," she added. After all, she did owe him her life. It was nearly
six by the time she let herself into her quarters. Piedmont met her at the
door, complaining of abandonment and starvation. Not for the first time she
marveled at how one small cat can so fill a place with life. Despite the
loneliness of this posting, the unexpected addition of a cat made it home; a
single furry welcome let her know she belonged. Along with her
salt-soaked dive skin and snorkel gear, Anna dropped the stiff upper lip and
macho facade. Scooping up Piedmont, she began to cry, not the crazed sobs that
had shaken her after her narrow escape but warm tears, the kind that release
tensions too long buried. Holding the old yellow tomcat in her arms as one
might cradle a baby, Anna buried her face in the soft pale fur of his belly and
wept. Piedmont, to
his credit, let her do so for most of a minute. After that he squirmed till she
ceased and desisted. A cat has his pride. Refreshed by
the tears, Anna thanked him and apologized for dampening his fur. For half a
can of Kitty Gourmet Seafood Delight, Piedmont was willing to overlook the
transgression. Dehydrated and
so tired simply remaining upright was an unpleasant chore, Anna grabbed a fizzy
water from the refrigerator and gulped it while leaning over the sink. Again
the stuff was flat. This time she didn't mind too much. Quantity not quality
was what she craved. She could get it down faster unencumbered by carbonation.
Salt water seemed not only to leach moisture from the skin but to pull it from
deeper tissues. She drank till her belly was full and still felt thirsty. The water was
amazingly rejuvenating. After she'd let it soak in for a few minutes, she felt
energy returning. Thus strengthened, she believed she might shower without
risk. In her previous depleted and deflated state it was possible she might
have drowned like the apocryphal turkey in a rain shower. As was her
habit, she dragged her dive gear into the shower with her and rinsed it there.
Mack was easier to thank from a distance, and as she rinsed mask and fins she
thanked him heartily. These accoutrements weren't terribly expensive—certainly
not by sporting goods standards—but she'd found stuff that fit, that worked,
that she genuinely liked and so would have been hard to replace. Momentarily
she entertained herself by starring in an imaginary commercial. "Not only
does this mask not leak under water, it won't leak under an eight-cylinder
engine." She laughed,
partly at her image and partly because she was alive and could create it. The dive skin
was wadded and knotted with a vengeance—Anna's as she'd fought free of life's
unnecessary restrictions. The booties were halfway up the legs, which had been
turned outside in. Both arms were partly inside out, the zipper half down and
the torso stuffed into the seat of the suit. For a short and
silly while, in the confines of the tiny shower stall, wet and naked, she
danced an odd pas de deux with a neon shadow of herself. At length she
got it back into its proper shape and began rinsing the salt water out. The
right sleeve had a lump in it. Wondering what on earth she could have shoved
there during her frenzied striptease, she reached into the springy sleeve. Her
underwater notebook and pen were lodged partway up. Like most underwater tools,
they were worn attached to the body. Anna kept hers tethered to her wrist with
a rubber loop. "Hurray,"
she muttered as she pulled it free. Her ordeal by water and iron hadn't been
for naught; she had the engine's serial number. She pulled the notebook free
and looked at the pad. A fairly neat line of figures was written there. Light
had grown dim, but there was still plenty to read by. She stared at the numbers.
At least she remembered writing numbers. The scratchings on the pad made no
sense. It was as if they were ancient hieroglyphs or musings of a Japanese
calligraphist. As she stared, she could feel confusion rising in her mind, a
cold graveyard fog that robbed meaning from her thoughts. The acid bite of fear
followed it, and the confines of the shower began to shrink, the beat of the
water on her skull to reverberate, deafening her. With a cry she
flung the sodden dive skin and note pad through the curtain, fumbled the water
off and half fell, half stumbled out into the small bath, crowded with toilet,
sink and shower stall. Drying off was out of the question. Dripping, she fled
the closing in of the walls. The bedroom gave no respite. Walls, ceiling, floor
pressed close, squeezing the breath from her lungs. Dragging a long
tee shirt over her wet body, she pushed on into the living area, stepped into
the lemon-yellow flip-flops that lived by the door and fled. Briefly she
leaned against the picnic table, but a sudden terror she'd be found there,
forced to interact with another human being, drove her through the wooden gate
bearing the sign, Employees Only, and into the converging brick archways
leading to The Chapel. No window created by brick tumbling from the edges of a
gun port perforated the end of this bastion, but there was a large break in the
southwestern wall. An alcove in the thick rampart formed a bench seat before a
picture-window-sized break in the brick with a view of Loggerhead Key and miles
of ocean and sky. On hands and knees Anna scrambled onto it, hung her head over
the opening, moat below, sky above, and breathed in the open spaces. Post-traumatic
stress syndrome, she heard Molly say in her head and was comforted. From one class
or another she remembered that flashbacks, sudden overwhelming reliving of the
seminal event, were one of the symptoms. "Post-traumatic stress," she
said aloud to see how it sounded. It sounded good, sane, reasonable. But she
didn't feel much better. The nightmare was back, the sense of parallel
universes, or this universe turned evil, she'd had the night before—surely it
wasn't just the night before? Part of her felt as if it had been years ago—when
reality and visions that sprang from dreams became difficult to separate,
burglars and ghosts intruding upon her peace without differentiation. It was
the same crawling sense of insanity that had left her naked and sobbing in
front of the maintenance men. Creepiness, not
quite yet anxiety but headed in that direction, prickled up her back and over
the top of her head. To normalize it, she scratched her scalp with all ten
fingers, shaking water from her hair. The scraping of
a foot over mortar dust and brick injected an icy needleful of terror into her
gut. Had she made the noise? Moved inadvertently? Anna's head was still in her
hands and she was afraid to take it out, afraid to look up. She knew an
apparition watched her from the shadows where the brick-on-brick vaults folded
into total darkness before opening into the casemates along the northern side
of the fort. Surely if she
didn't look, didn't see, whatever it was would not exist. Like a tree falling
in the forest, if a ghost went unseen did it really exist? "Nothing
is there, for fuck's sake," Anna shouted into the bend of her elbows.
"Okay. On three. One. Two. Three." Letting her hands slide down the
sides of her face, still holding on lest her head begin to rotate and spit
green bile or something equally alarming, she looked into the premature night
beneath the knit of ceiling arches. Nothing but
darkness. Nice quiet friendly darkness. No boogeymen, no dead relatives. "See?"
she said. Having conversations with herself didn't make her question her
sanity. She'd lived in New York City too many years for that. Many of the
finest people in Manhattan talked to themselves. At some point
during this fit of weirdness, she had folded herself up as small as possible,
knees under her chin, heels up against her butt, elbows tucked in. With a
conscious effort, she unfolded and stood up. Insanity didn't run in her family.
She needed to talk to Lanny Wilcox. Now. Determination
vanished as she stood in the growing shadows and realized she hadn't the
faintest idea how to get out of this maze of black arches and blind passages.
"Of course you do," she said to bolster her courage. "The fort
just isn't that complex." Hearing it, Anna could not remember if
"complex" was a word or if she'd simply uttered a jumble of sounds.
The fear, momentarily at bay, rushed back. In a science
fiction book she'd read once, a man had recited "rented a tent, rented a
tent" over and over in his head, creating white noise to keep the Thought
Police from getting through to his deeper knowledge. Hoping it would serve as
well to keep insane thoughts from clouding her mind with terror and confusion,
Anna mentally chanted the words and began to walk. The direction
was irrelevant. Fort Jefferson was roughly circular. No matter which way she
went, she would eventually reach an open casemate, a spiral stairway, and she would
be back in the real world. Choosing not to think about what she might meet on
her way, Anna walked straight-backed and resolute into the inky darkness of the
northwestern bastion. When she
reached the darkest center, the place where many arches knit together overhead,
a place she knew from memory, the ceiling lost now in darkness, Anna left-off
trailing her fingers along the brick for guidance. Back to the
wall, she sat down and waited for them to come. 16 My Dearest Peg— At long last I
received your letter. The mail, slow always, reaches Fort Jefferson only when
weather and the capriciousness of the Union Army permits. Had not Mrs. Teller
taken it upon herself to (yet again) interfere in family affairs, I expect
Molly would have kept her illness from all of us. This once I am grateful to
the old biddy. I only wish I could come home. It is clear now why Tilly was
sent to me; not "hoydenish ways" but Molly looking ahead as she
always has. I'm glad she is being cared for by the Sisters of Mercy. The convent
is where she is most at peace. Peace is
something I think of a great deal of late because there is so little of it to
be had here. The constant clamor of construction, drill, the testing of the
munitions, the coarse clatter and shout of a thousand men squeezed into a tiny
space, the endless high-pitched fussing of the sooty terns on Bush Key next
door: I have grown so accustomed to it it is as the roar of the sea on the
Massachusetts shore, underlying my days and informing my dreams. Tilly's
clamorous passion rises above this cacophony. Despite much effort and the
occasional cross word, I cannot ignore it and she cannot forbear speaking of
it. Dr. Samuel Mudd and his "innocence" have become an obsession with
her. An unhealthy hobby in this political climate. I finally convinced her to
refrain from bringing up the subject in Joseph's hearing, but now and again she
cannot resist slipping in a plea for her cause. Then I must live with my
husband's icy looks and stony silence for half a day. Joel is much better.
He walks now and will recover complete use of his right hand, Dr. Mudd tells
us, and possibly his left, though the thumb was more severely damaged. His nose
was twice broken—or more—and, having been left so long untreated, heals
crookedly. This and a scar beneath his right eye will commemorate this beating
for the remainder of his life. With his spirits returning, he is still an
attractive man, though no longer as handsome as he was. Tilly's
affection for him has settled from that of a lovesick girl to that of a friend,
sister and nurse. Whether this is a maturing of genuine love or a cooling of
ardor I cannot tell. I would rather she returned to making calf-eyes at her
soldier. It was less alarming than her new quest. Her fixation on
Dr. Samuel Mudd does not appear to be romantic in nature, and the doctor seems
devoted to and speaks warmly of his wife back home. Hero worship might be
nearer the mark. The doctor has a forceful personality and an inner strength
that is compelling. He spends much of our time together speaking quietly and
convincingly of his innocence. Tilly, wide-eyed and innocent, drinks in his
words as if they were the stuff of life and has become enamored with the idea
of winning his freedom. Over these last
days most of her sentences begin with: "Dr. Mudd said..." or
"Dr. Mudd told me..." or "Dr. Mudd didn't..." I have had to
deliver more than one hard kick under the table to distract her as any mention
of Samuel Mudd from her sends Joseph into an arctic mood. If these
northern tempests were confined to our quarters I think I might be able to calm
the waters, but Tilly has not been circumspect even when out of doors. So full
is she with her youthful love affair with truth and justice and the belief that
a pure heart will win over evil (oh how I rue the days we spent reading this
child fairy tales!) that she has carried her quest on her sleeve, prattling
earnestly to all and sundry. Before the
advent of the much-vaunted Dr. Mudd—whom I am coming to detest simply because
Tilly so clearly does not—Tilly was very much the pet of everyone here. Now I
see people turn away when she approaches. I suppose I could live with social
ostracism, but I'm worried that the repercussions of Tilly's wild talk could
cost more dearly. Oh yes, talk. I
forgot to tell you. We finally found out the horrific and treasonous outburst
of Private Lane's that got him in trouble. You would laugh had not the words
gotten the boy beaten very nearly to death. What Joel said was: "I wish
Lincoln had been shot in the street. I've always wanted to play at Ford's. Now
I suppose it will be shut down." Callous perhaps, but he is a boy and an
actor. For this Sergeant Sinapp almost killed him. There is
something going on with the sergeant, and it worries me. His natural
hatefulness—and it must be natural, it goes too deep to be learned; it would
surprise me not in the least were I to find his mother was a black widow spider
who devoured Sinapp Senior moments after Sinapp Junior was conceived—anyway his
natural hatefulness has changed into something more menacing. Before he was
much like a vicious dog on a strong chain. He would leap and snarl but the
chain (firmly held by Joseph, his commanding officer) kept him from harming
most people. Now it is as if
that chain is gone. He stalks and snaps as if devilishly gladdened by the
knowledge that when he chooses to strike, nothing will stop him. The day before
yesterday Tilly and I were taking food and fresh water to Joel. To regain his
health Joel needs to have all we can provide in the way of fresh vegetables,
meat and fruit. Joseph would have our heads if he knew we pilfered from his
larder to fatten a Johnny Reb. The sergeant
was standing guard over a group of prisoners—mostly union deserters from
Pennsylvania and New York—who were working on the new shot oven as Tilly and I
crossed the parade ground with our little basket of purloined tomatoes. Sinapp saw us
and left his post, swaggering in our direction. I know it was just a fancy, but
I swear I could smell his smile, feel it like whiskery horse lips on the
back of my neck. Tilly and I walked faster, and I'm sure it gave him pleasure
to think we were afraid of him. I lad he known it had more to do with revulsion
than fear, he would not have smirked so. He caught up
with us just as a soldier was unlocking the door to Joel's cell for us. He
followed us inside and told the soldier assigned to chaperone our visit to
leave. Sinapp closed the wooden door, then stood with his back to it, letting
us know that we were trapped, as imprisoned and helpless as the three
confederates who shared the cells. After the
brilliant fog of dust and sunlight, the casemate was so dim it took a minute
before I could see properly. When I could, I longed for the sun-blindness I'd
enjoyed moments before. In all his thickness, Sinapp leaned against our only
avenue of escape. "I thought I'd come by and have a piece of that nursing
you ladies been giving Jeff Davis's boys." The way he said
"nursing" would have made any woman cringe. Lest we miss his filthy
point, he began stroking himself. Truly, Peggy, the man stood before us, his
sticky eyes on Tilly, and petted the front of his trousers as though a small
dog lay there. Which, perhaps, is exactly the case. In all the years I have
spent living in a world populated by men—and many of the roughest sort
imaginable—I have never seen such a display. Had I been told of it, I would not
have believed. Oddly I was not alarmed immediately, just paralyzed by that
horrible embarrassment one gets when one has the preacher over to afternoon tea
and the dog mistakes the vicar's leg for a bitch in heat. "Good God,
man, have a care!" Mr. Arnold said. He had come to the doorway connecting
the cells while I stood transfixed. Sinapp heard
Mr. Arnold, I could tell by the change in his face—a slight shifting of the
sides of beef that pass for cheeks. If someone spoke to me as Mr. Arnold spoke
to the sergeant (and for such reprehensible behavior) I should have sunk into
the brick for shame. Sinapp did not. Apparently the man has no higher instincts
with which to compare his baseness. Indeed this very baseness seems to be a
matter of pride with him, coarseness being a skill he has honed to a fine
point. Using it to skewer others gives him a tremendous sense of
accomplishment. He laughed, a
warm rumbling sound that in another man I might find pleasing, and, to the
immense relief of those of us trapped in this theater of his making, ceased
rubbing his trouser front. It is not my custom to stare at men below the waist,
but because Sinapp had so purposefully called our attention to this part of his
anatomy, I couldn't but notice his lewd thoughts and clumsy manipulations had
caused a like erection beneath his trousers. Retelling this
story in the safety of my own bedroom, knowing Tilly is snug and sleeping and
Joseph working at the desk in the hall adjacent, I cannot but see it for the
absurd incident it was, with Sergeant Sinapp as the leading character, a clown;
a dark clown but a clown with buffoonery and exaggerated features all
the same. In Joel Lane's cell I was not amused, nor were my
"companions." I was frightened, as I believe were Dr. Mudd and even
the cynical and unflappable Mr. Arnold. Joel was terrified, his body and mind
knowing the depth of Sergeant Sinapp's power and cruelty. Tilly alone was unafraid.
Angered by his manner, even if not completely aware of his meaning, she set her
basket down with a thump. "We have every right to be here," she
declared before I could stop her. Joel stepped
between Tilly and Sinapp. A small thing this one step, but it spoke of such
courage even in that airless room with the reek of Sinapp clogging my thoughts,
I felt my heart swell. This one good
and decent moment was not allowed to stand. The sergeant
leapt forward. After his posing and posturing, the speed of his movement
startled. It was as if he'd become more than human, vanishing from his place by
the door and reappearing, his face but inches from Joel's. Fist closed, he
backhanded Joel, a blow from his knuckles and wrist striking the boy from ear
to chin. Joel fell as one dead. Tilly screamed
and hovered, undecided whether she should drop down beside her patient or fly
at his attacker. None of us had time to so much as breathe before Sinapp
decided for her. Arms struck snake-like, fingers biting into her upper arms. I
do not know what he meant to do. Kiss her perhaps, though that seems a gentle
thing compared to the violence in his face and body. Even he could not have
intended to ravage her there and then on the floor of the casemate with the
three of us in witness. "That's
quite enough," I said and moved to Tilly's side. He didn't loose her, so I
slapped him hard enough it stung my palm. Violence begets violence. He let go
of Tilly with one hand and drew back to strike me. Tilly and I had backed up
till our shoulders were nearly touching the brick of the archway separating
Joel from Dr. Mudd and Sam Arnold. I could not run, nor could I duck. The blow, which
I believe would have felled me as surely as it had Private Lane—who had neither
stirred nor made a sound since he went down—didn't come. Mr. Arnold caught the
sergeant by the wrist. In that moment
it came to me that the rules of honor were written by men. I took this
opportunity to punch Sinapp in the eye with all the force I could muster. I hit
him so hard I cried out as loudly as he when the bones of my hand met those of
his face. In shock or blind fury he let loose of Tilly's other arm. "Go
now," came a soft voice so close to my ear I felt the hair stirred by his
breath. Mr. Arnold's dark eyes were fixed on mine, and I think he was smiling.
It happened so quickly I cannot be sure of anything. His advice was
sound. I grabbed Tilly and ran for the door. "Bitch,"
Sinapp hurled that at my back. After his bestial behavior, being called names
by such as he was harder for me to take than his physical threat had been. "My
husband shall hear of this," I told Sinapp. He shook off
Mr. Arnold's grip. He said nothing but he smiled at me. I turned and ran after
Tilly, not knowing if he followed or not, not knowing if Joel Lane had died or
still lived. The only thing I did know was that Tilly's hero, Dr. Samuel Mudd,
had made no move to help his patient or to protect Tilly or me. He'd stood back
in the corner where the arch met the outer wall and watched in such a way I wondered
if he were a coward or if things were unfolding as he had hoped and he was
calculating the advantage this show of choler, lust and ill discipline might
afford him. Once Tilly and
I regained the sane light of the parade ground with its homely smells and
familiar sounds of men at work, what ragtag remnants of the fear I'd felt in
the casemate turned to anger, then settled into disgust and, I must admit, a
desire to see Sinapp hanging from one of the trees he was so fond of decorating
with the persons and misery of other men. That evening,
when Joseph returned to quarters, I told him of what his sergeant had said and
done, then settled back to watch the build of the cold fury he displays when
his authority is knowingly thwarted by a subordinate. I do believe it
began to blossom, but within moments a new emotion withered it. Often enough
I've boasted of how well I know my husband, how easily I can read his moods.
This time I could not. Or read too much. A flood of feeling poured into his
face: anger, remembrance, shock, fear, sorrow and—I can scarcely credit this
and would say it only to you—that implosion of thought and soul behind the eyes
that speaks of cowardice. Mind you, I could be wrong. I must be wrong. These
things I speak of seeing with such confidence were all a jumble and over in the
space of two heartbeats. Joseph's face went blank then, the way it looks when
he's been several days without sleep. The way it looked when he knew he would
sit out the war on this island. "Don't put
yourself in the sergeant's way again," he said as if Tilly and I had
caused Sinapp to act as he had. I started to
remonstrate—never wise, I know, but a habit I cannot break—but Joseph stood so
abruptly the small table beside his chair rocked on its feet. "Do as I
say," he snapped. "Or I will not be responsible for what happens to
you." He left me, left our quarters. I heard the door onto the veranda
slam shut. Knowing Joseph,
for reasons I do not understand, has withdrawn his protection from Tilly and
me, that we are very much alone on this too-crowded island, makes me truly and
deeply afraid. 17 The silence
that is unique to the sea out where the tides are nonexistent settled around
Anna with the darkness. Beneath, and at her back, the warmth that never left
the brick throughout the long summer soothed her aching muscles. She waited and
she breathed and she relaxed. Once before she had been in a like situation, and
it had ended badly with a screaming fear that stayed in her mind for years
afterward. She wouldn't think of that. She was older now. Her horrors were
known. She would not invite them in. The first
change was in the light. A last ray of dying sun skipped across the Gulf of
Mexico like a molten stone, piercing the tangle of arches to paint a single
golden stripe no more than an inch wide across the brick of the far wall. As
she watched it grew brighter, pulsed with the rhythm of the sea, the rhythm of
her heart. Light broke away from the stripe in tiny showers, each spark leaving
a contrail as if it were a minute jet airplane flaming out. At length the
light show shimmered into the darkness and was gone. To see if it worked, if
she had any control over what was to happen next, Anna called softly:
"Aunt Raffia?" and waited. Where the last spark had died, a pale shape
began to pool on the floor. Luminosity poured into it from an invisible
pitcher, the form of a woman being filled with light from the boots up the
skirt to shirtwaist, arms, and finally the head, face averted, the hand raised
as before, fingers poking nervously at escaping hairpins. "Be a nice
aunt," Anna whispered to the apparition. "No turning scaley with long
lickety tongues or anything." The figure dissolved and Anna wondered if
she'd taken the fun out of its spectral life by ruling out reptilian metamorphoses. Anna was
tripping. Days before it would have terrified her. Her memories of the bad old
days during the early seventies were not of Lucy in the sky with diamonds but
of the mind-crippling terror of losing her reason. Because she feared that same
thing so recently, it was a relief to know that she was not going mad. She'd
been drugged. It would turn out to be in the plastic bottles of carbonated
water she'd been drinking, introduced, no doubt, by a hypodermic needle. That
was why the water was flat, why there was water on the bottom shelf of her
refrigerator and Lanny's. Whoever was doing the poisoning must have gotten
careless, been rushed and pierced the containers below water line. Tomorrow,
when she'd regained dominance over what gray cells remained to her, she'd call
Wilcox with the good news. If he'd been a straight arrow during his formative
years he would have no way of recognizing this drug-induced insanity. Anna
might not have caught on if she hadn't guzzled nearly a quart of the doctored water
on an empty stomach. When the dark
began to fill with monsters of the id, Anna moved on to a casemate open both to
the sea and the parade ground. Briefly she considered climbing the spiral
stairs to the third level where cannons were still in evidence and the view
rolled away, unfettered by a frame of brick. High places were not a good idea
when one might take it into one's head to fly with the magnificent frigate
birds. She remained where she was. With air and
moonlight and strength of will, she passed the night seeing strange things.
Raffia never reappeared, but as the monsters stayed tucked away in her
subconscious, Anna was satisfied. By sunrise the world ceased to warp and weave,
stars and planets stayed in their orbits. Anna could wave her fingers through
the air and not see ghosts trailing behind them. Her body told
her sleep was now a possibility. Her mind suggested it was not a good
idea. The wall between waking and dreaming, the real and the fantastic, was
still weak. Allowing consciousness to slip away might breach it. She returned
to her quarters to take another shower, staying to rinse the soap from her hair
and body this time. For breakfast she had a coke and half a can of vegetable
soup. What she didn't eat she threw away. Till this thing was over she had no
intention of consuming anything that could have been tampered with. Clean, fed and
in uniform, she felt shaky but ready to face the day. Her first task was to
sort out which bits of the past seventy-two hours were real and which were drug-induced.
When she left her quarters, she locked her door behind her. The first order
of business was getting the engine's serial number tracked down. To that end
she called the Key West Police Department and the coast guard. But for a short
time on Isle Royale in Lake Superior, Anna had little experience dealing with
boats. That, and being denied easy communication with the rest of the world,
decided her to leave the police work to the police. Lieutenant George
Henriquez, her contact on Key West, a man who might have been squat, balding
and pockmarked but who was blessed with the telephone voice of an Adonis, told
her they'd had no luck as yet identifying the John Doe Ranger Shaw had towed to
East Key. They had, however, identified the tattoo on his leg with the help of
a local DEA agent who worked, if not closely then amicably, with the local
police force. He had seen it before on the leg of a Cuban, an illegal alien
arrested for smuggling drugs from Central America across the Gulf of Florida. "More than
that we don't know," Henriquez said. "Could be some kind of gang ID.
A lot of these guys—the low rungs on the totem pole—have that adolescent
mentality. The higher-ups, the brains, know better than to intentionally brand
themselves as criminals." Anna asked him
if he would find out the whereabouts of Theresa Alvarez for her. He grumbled at
having his already considerable workload increased but promised to try.
Enduring another two minutes of conversation aborted then accelerated, then
made simultaneous by the phone delay, Anna gave him what she had gathered about
Lanny Wilcox's erstwhile inamorata. She did not
tell the lieutenant of being drugged, nor would she tell anyone, not for a
while. The only way to be absolutely assured of keeping a secret was to tell no
one. No suspicion attached itself to the Key West police—because of the
repeated and hands-on nature of the poisoning it had to be someone at the fort
or one of the boating regulars who'd learned enough of the ranger's living
situation to take advantage of it. Anna leaned strongly toward the idea that it
was an NPS employee. Who else could move unseen and unremarked upon in a
society as closed as that at Fort Jefferson? She just didn't want a chance
remark or careful question to reveal to someone that she was onto the drugging.
As long as whoever was behind it believed her to be partaking of the
contaminated waters, it was less likely a new approach would be devised. These thoughts
trickling through her mind, she knew she would have to let Lanny Wilcox suffer
the fears of the newly demented a while longer. Should she tell him he had
purposely been made delusional, odds were good he'd begin asking questions,
upsetting her precarious applecart. And he might be
returned to duty and she sent home. Much as she wanted to go, she had no
intention of leaving till she found out who was messing with her mind. That done, she
settled in to find out who had chosen to drive the Dry Tortugas' Supervisory
Rangers mad, and why. The computer
had the most reliable link to the real world, and Anna logged on. For starters,
she ran everyone working on Garden and Loggerhead Keys for wants and warrants.
Mack, the man who'd said he'd earned his stripes in prison, came up clean, not
even an outstanding parking ticket. Daniel had been
arrested twice, once for assault and once for drunk and disorderly. He'd served
three months in the Dade County Jail and been given two years' probation. Both
arrests and convictions were seventeen years old; a misspent youth. Since then,
nothing. Bob, as Anna
expected, was clean. Should she take it into her head to do an illegal search
of his quarters as she had done of Lanny's—though she did have probable cause
unless the will-o'-the-wisp lights and nocturnal moat creature were drug-born
and not of this world—she had little doubt she would find under a bed or high
on a closet shelf a box of merit badges. Probably covering his
years from cub to eagle. By regulation
National Park Service law-enforcement officers were given background checks.
The execution of this had been haphazard at best until it was revealed in a
series of short-lived but unpleasant public-relations nightmares that there
were quite a few gun-toting felons stalking the woods in flat-brimmed Stetsons
and gold buffalo badges. Since then, the various offices of personnel
management in the parks had been more thorough. Most felons in the green and
gray would be those hired way back, probably genuinely gone straight or getting
too old to bother with violent crime. If by some fluke Anna had uncovered a
felony in Bob Shaw's past, unless it had a direct bearing on why she and Lanny
were drugged, what the go-fast boat was up to when it blew up, or why Theresa
Alvarez took a powder, she might not have said a word. She'd spent
much of her adult life catching criminals. Not once had she been accused of
being too soft on them. But, unlike some others in the field of law, she never
quite lost her need for fairness. When a debt to society was paid, all rights
and privileges should be restored: the right to vote, carry arms, protect and
serve. The surprise
was Bob's wife, Teddy Shaw or, as her rap sheet would have it, Theodora Placer
alias Teddy Andrews, Teddy Lee and Lily Lee. Wanting the woman's history, Anna
had run her under her maiden name as it appeared on her VIP application papers:
Theodora Lily Placer. Teddy was thirty-two years old, her last arrest had been
when she was twenty-seven, only months before she became Teddy Shaw and left
her past on the mainland. Or moved her business to the Keys. Anna printed
out what there was and leaned back, deck shoes on Teddy's desk, to read it. The
sudden tilt of the chair startled her. Whatever ball bearing in her head served
to reorient the brain had not fully recovered from the hallucinogen. Either
that or her body cried out for sleep. Throwing
caution to the winds, she put down the printouts and made a pot of coffee.
Surely the water supply for the entire fort hadn't been contaminated. As the
coffee began to percolate, it occurred to her how easy it would be to do just
that, drop acid, ketamine, PCP, Ecstacy, rat poison, kerosene or a dead cat
into the cistern. Easy as pie. Access wasn't difficult; trapdoors big enough to
climb through were set in the cistern's top. The traps weren't hidden and they
weren't locked. Anna clicked
the coffee machine off before the pot was half full. She sat back down at
Teddy's desk and rested her forehead on the pages. For poisoning her, she
wanted to catch the jerk. For denying her morning coffee, she wanted to kill
him. Or her. Reminded
of Teddy Shaw's checkered past, she sat up and once again began to read. Teddy
had been a busy woman. She'd not given up a job as head nurse in the ER; she'd
been fired for stealing prescription painkillers. The judge had sentenced her
to rehab and five years' probation. The second arrest had been for forging
doctors' signatures on hospital prescription pads, stolen from the clinic at
the rehab center. For that she'd served three months. Two and a half years
later she'd broken probation again. This time she was arrested in Philadelphia
for trying to buy Percodan from an undercover narcotics officer. She'd been
sent back into the state jails to serve out the remaining six months of the
original nine-month sentence. Shortly after being released she'd again broken
parole by leaving Pennsylvania for parts unknown. There was a warrant out for
her arrest. After her
release she must have left Pennsylvania for Florida, where she met and married
Robert Shaw and fled as far in the U.S. of A. as she could without having to
tread water. It was a good bet Bob didn't know. The man was such a boy scout he
would have wanted to make things right with the law before he endangered his
career by becoming an accomplice. Then again they seemed very much in love.
Love was a great leveler. Maybe it had enticed Bob to look the other way. Just
this once. Anna set the
papers down and stared longingly at the coffeepot. Not the entire water supply.
Not yet. Why bother when the perpetrator knew Anna was swilling down doctored
fizzy water? She walked over
and punched the "on" button again. Some things were worth the risk.
Watching the coffee drip into the pot, comforted by the gurgles and clicks of
the machine, Anna thought about Teddy. From her long association with the
medical profession by way of her psychiatrist sister, Molly, Anna knew the
terrible flaws in the myth of its superiority. Drug addiction was one of them.
Rehab centers were one of the best places to have a heart attack. A large
percentage of the clients were doctors and nurses. Psychologists were next,
then the usual scattering of strippers, rock musicians and regular citizens. Medical
professionals often worked under great pressure. They were called upon to go
without sleep or to remain alert more hours than the body or psyche could
realistically maintain without help. They had access to drugs, both to buy and
to steal. A good many of them also had the arrogance to believe they could
handle it, would never become dependent. The coffee was
done. Anna mixed in a chunk of Cremora to take the edge off and carried the mug
back to the desk. Her first sip brought that tight sensation to the back of her
neck, fear that she was condemning herself to another few hours where pigs
could fly and beggars ride. Putting the creeps firmly out of mind, she took
another sip to commit herself and returned to her cogitations. If she were
doomed to be a drug-crazed lunatic, at least she would be a wide-awake
drug-crazed lunatic. Teddy had the
knowledge to drug somebody. Chances were good she still had contacts or a
prescription pad she'd squirreled away against future emergencies before she'd
been packed off to jail. If the doctor they worked with on the mainland hadn't
bothered to check too carefully, he wouldn't know her nursing license was revoked—if
it was. There was a possibility the various institutions hadn't communicated
with one another and Teddy could still practice legally. Why would Teddy
want to poison her? Make her believe she was going nuts? Teddy had saved her
life when she'd been knocked unconscious by the second explosion. Not poison just
me, Anna reminded herself. There was Lanny Wilcox. Was it that simple?
Did Teddy think once Lanny was deemed incompetent, her very own hero, Bob Shaw,
would be elevated to the position of Supervisory Ranger? When Anna came on
scene instead had Teddy seen her as merely another obstacle to be removed from
her husband's career path? Though simple
and—given the negligible hike in money and power such a promotion would bring
with it—to Anna's mind potty, as a motive it was not bad. Women ambitious for
the man they loved had done worse for less. The phone rang.
Nearly upsetting her coffee, Anna squawked and flapped in the tradition of
Chicken Little. By the second ring she'd recovered. "Dry
Tortugas National Park." "Anna?" The sound of
her name spoken with the honeyed warmth of a Mississippi drawl brought tears to
her eyes. "Paul,"
she said, not because she was unsure who the caller was but for the sheer
pleasure of feeling his name on her tongue. A thousand years had passed since
she'd thought of him. Mountains had crumbled to dust, seas dried up,
civilizations fallen to ruin, and yet just to hear his voice and say his name
took her back to the good safe times on his living room couch before a fire. Life
ceased to be made of ghosts, iron and salt and became once again a thing of
flesh and blood. "I've been
worried about you, Anna. It's been—" "Listen to
me, Paul. Oh. What? Days since—" "You
haven't answered the phone, no—" "No—Listen—" "What?" "Wait."
Anna stopped talking, letting the line clear of the overlaid clogging of words,
delays and spaces. During the break she soothed herself by saying
goddammotherfuckingphone three times. "I'll
marry you," she said when silence was established. "The sooner the better.
Meet me at the airport with a priest." Another
silence, this one organically grown, filled the line after she'd spoken her
piece. Two seconds, three. Maybe this, too, was a hallucination. The phone
hadn't rung at all. Lost in the wherever of the mind, she'd dreamed the noise,
grabbed at the phone, pressed it to her ear. "Oh,
Jesus," she whispered and threw the coffee into the wastebasket, splashing
her leg and the first two desk drawers. Carefully, she moved the handset away
from her ear. "Anna?"
A tiny voice pushed through the terrible darkness of a thousand miles of
telephone wire and abyss of the microwave. Her hand stopped. She did not hang
up. Neither did she put the phone back to her ear. Time and reality had been
suspended and she was afraid to move, to believe. "Anna, are
you there?" The voice
sounded so lost and alone. Even if Paul had become one more symptom of
impending disaster, she could not leave him unanswered. "I'm here,"
she whispered, realized the receiver was still halfway to the phone, brought it
back to her ear and said again, "I'm here." "I hate
this phone. Did you say you'd marry me?" "I
did." "You sound
funny." "I am
funny." "Anna,
this phone makes me crazy. I'm going to be quiet now and listen. You tell me
what's going on, okay?" "Does the
offer still stand?" Anna asked. "What
offer?" "You asked
me to marry you." "It still
stands. It will stand forever. Maybe lean a little after eight hundred years
like the tower of Pisa, but it will still be standing." "I want to
do it. I want to marry you. Right away. As soon as I get back." Another silence
threatened Anna, but this one was blessedly shortlived. "I would
like that," Paul said carefully. "Right now I need to hear what is
happening to you." Anna told him
everything. Words poured out haphazardly, the plots of her various tales
interweaving, pronouns dropped, sentences with subjects and no predicates.
Chronological order was abused and misused and her emotions colored fact and
fiction alike. She was not a law-enforcement officer making a report, she was a
tired, shaken woman talking to her lover. The drugs with
which she'd been washing down her peanut butter sandwiches had eaten away a
wall she'd not known was still standing. Though only vaguely, she was aware
that she had never talked this way to anyone—or not for so many years she'd
lost count. Not even to her sister. Retaining
control, a degree of professionalism, appearing to be always master of herself,
if not the situation, had been so much a part of her she'd not been aware of it
till it was gone. Never—at least not since the death of her husband Zach and
possibly not before—had she allowed herself to be so vulnerable. This scrap of
knowledge flittered through her mind as she babbled. She tucked it away for
further investigation. Ecstacy, a designer drug that had hit the world running
in the eighties, was said to have an opening effect on the heart and mind.
Ecstacy had come long after Anna's days of seeking recreation and/or
enlightenment with various toxic substances. She had no personal experience to
draw upon. At length she
had, in her uncalculated and fragmented way, told Paul Davidson of the
adventures both physical and metaphysical which had befallen her. He left a
moment's silence and she resisted the temptation to blurt: "Are you still
there?" while the last of her words surmounted whatever delaying obstacle
lay between Fort Jefferson and the rest of the world. "Have you
told me everything?" Paul's voice returned after the expected seconds had
ticked away. From anyone
else—anyone besides her sister, Molly—Anna would have fielded that question
with care; responding to the accusation often cloaked in the words, the
suggestion she was hiding something. In Paul's kind
tones, coming from a mind she was learning was subtly complex but never devious,
she believed the question was only what it seemed. "Everything I can think
of," she told him. "Do you
want me to come out there?" Did she ever.
She'd not thought of it, but when he asked, she knew how desperately she had been
needing exactly that. Someone she could trust. Warm arms to hold her at night.
A fine mind with which to share her great-great-aunt Raffia's letters. A
hard-nosed southern sheriff to keep her from harm. A wise and loving priest to
whom she could confess her sins. The thought of Paul Davidson stepping onto the
dock in front of Fort Jefferson engendered a sensation behind her rib cage that
lent credence to the bard's allusion to hearts taking wing. "No. No
thanks," she said. Supervisory Rangers did not call in their boyfriends to
help out when things got sticky. There would be no faster way to feed her
career to the sharks and her credibility to the endless gossip mill run by the
boys. "You're
sure?" Anna didn't
trust herself to answer. As she'd hoped, he took her silence for an
affirmative. "If you change your mind—" "I
won't." A lie. She'd already done so fifty times in the brief pause
between the asking and the answering. The call went
on as calls between sweethearts do, with professions of love and mutual "I
miss you's," but Anna kept it short lest she weaken and take the White
Knight option. Being a damsel in distress had a dark fascination for her; the
idea of being without responsibility, merely enduring and hoping and—if the
scenario happened to be in a fairy tale—ultimately rescued not only from the
situation but from the specter of loneliness. In real life she'd never had the
guts to try it. Even had she found the courage to wait, to have faith, she knew
she would never have the patience. When things went wrong she couldn't rest
till she'd righted them, or tried to. And, too, self-respecting damsels were
not allowed to kick, spit, shout or swear at their respective dragons.
"Got any guesses as to who might be doctoring my water?" she asked to
get the conversation back on safer ground. "My money
is on Ms. Timothy Leary, R.N.," Paul said. "Poisoning is a woman's
crime traditionally, and the fact that this was not poisoning with intent to
kill or even harm permanently strikes me as additionally female from a
statistics point of view. A way she could safely remove you and
what's-his-name—" "Wilcox." "Wilcox
from her husband's way without feeling guilty about it. It fits in with the
nursing, too. Unless she's got that Angel of Death thing going on, she probably
views herself as a healer, a caretaker. Using a non-lethal drug might tie into
that." "Works for
me," Anna said. Hearing his rationale given in deep, strong tones with
roots deep in the Mississippi clay made her feel calmer, saner. The thoughts he
expressed dovetailed with those she had had in her skittery drug-paranoid
fashion. It was infinitely comforting to know her mind not only worked but had
done so under duress. "Do you
dive? How about that engine on the coral moving?" Asking the question, it
occurred to her that, though she'd known Paul for a year or so, there was a
great deal about him she was not yet privy to. They'd met and courted under
unusual circumstances, what with dead men and living wives underfoot. Even
realizing this, she did not change her mind about matrimony. "Do you know
anything about scuba diving?" she amended her question. "Not as
much as you do," he replied. "But I've had a whiff of high school
physics and I've lifted more than my share of engines in and out of secondhand
pickup trucks. If that motor was seated as solidly as you say it was then it
didn't shift because you put your tiny little self underneath and wriggled
about a bit." "I braced
the heel of my hand on it when I was copying down the serial number," Anna
confessed. Paul laughed.
"Even given the strength of your good right arm, I don't think you could
have shifted that thing. Either it was already unseated or somebody moved
it." Anna had known
that. Of the various neuroses, the one she most lusted after was the one she
could never quite attain: denial. Always, just when she thought she had a
handle on it, a pesky fact or puzzling anomaly would punch a hole in the dike
and reality would pour in. Of course she'd
checked the seating of the motor on its coral bed. Having no desire to be
trapped—or crushed—beneath the engine, she had pushed and shoved and peeked at
its edges to confirm it had reached its final resting place. Without that
reassurance, she could never have tricked her claustrophobic self into
slithering into the crevice beneath it. Then it had
shifted and caught her, nearly killed her. Ergo someone or
something or some event had caused it to move. It was at this
point that logic ceased to work and the practice of denial would have come in
handy. Who or what could have moved the engine? The obvious choice was Mack. As
the only other creature with opposable thumbs within a hundred-foot radius, he
was at the top of the suspect list. With a pry bar and a working knowledge of
levers and fulcrums, he could have managed it. Why he would want to was an open
question, but Anna had always considered herself a pleasant enough person and
relatively harmless. Still, Mack might have his reasons. It was possible he'd
been behind the light in Lanny Wilcox's bedroom window, had known she'd followed
and didn't want her poking her nose into whatever business he'd had there.
Could be he loved her and felt rejected, hated her and felt seduced or didn't
like the fact that she never parted her hair. Why he may have
tried to crush her could be any of a hundred things the human psyche finds
irresistible or intolerable. Given that he had means, motive and opportunity,
if he did it, why not finish the job? Mack had gone to great lengths to rescue
her. There were no witnesses but the fishes. Had he wanted her dead, it could
have been done with thumb and forefinger: no muss, no fuss and no evidence left
behind. Instead he'd worked feverishly to get her out and, once she was safe
and topside, showed a concern for her welfare that Anna did not believe was feigned. Unless he'd
suffered a brief psychotic and homicidal episode, then repented and saved her,
Mack was not her man. There'd been no seismic disturbances, not tsunamis, no
ground swells shifting the sands. According to Daniel, no torpedoes had been
fired, and the only anchor dragged was his when he and Mack had engineered her
release. The tried and
possibly true Sherlockian assertion that once everything possible has been
ruled out, whatever remains, however improbable, is the truth, suggested an
answer. There was
another diver. Anna returned
to her quarters. There was much to think about: the second diver, the
whereabouts of Theresa Alvarez, Teddy Shaw's proclivity for drugs, two sunken
vessels and one accepted proposal for marriage. The first four she would attend
to in due time. The fifth she was oddly content with, pleased, excited even.
Marrying Paul Davidson felt as warm and light and supportive as this southern
sea when first tumbled into. If like dangers to life and limb lurked in the
connubial depths, so be it. Tired as she
was, she sat down with her great-great-aunt Raffia's letters. In a way she
hoped the affects of the hallucinogen had not completely worn off. The drug had
given her a heightened connection to Raffia: reading the letters was as poignant
as speaking to the dead. 18 Dear Peg— I was in the
downstairs parlor—it's quite a gracious room and used by all the officers and
their wives on occasion—restuffing the pillows with moss some of the soldiers
gather and sell to their fellows to make mattresses. The moss is not so
comfortable as a feather bed, but it has the advantage of being cheap and
easily available. In a place where one's bedding mildews and is subject to
becoming a home for creatures that bite, being able to stuff pillows anew is
almost a necessity. I was called from this mindless task by a shrieking as of
fishwives. I ran upstairs
to see who was murdering whom and found Tilly and Luanne in a tug-of-war over a
skirt. Luanne was in one of her stubborn moods. They come upon her when she is
doing her duty as she declares, "In a right and God-fearing way," and
one of us has the temerity to interfere with her. Tilly, who has been raised
properly and ought to know better, had worked herself into a tear-streaked
state of shouting and pulling. With some difficulty and a bit of fishwifery of
my own, I managed to wrestle the garment from them before they tore it into
pieces. Because Luanne
is older and has not had the advantages that Tilly has, I let her tell her side
first. "I gathered up the laundry like I done every Tuesday since I
started doing for you," she told me. Despite the odd use of language the
slaves have adopted, her indignation gave her dignity. Tilly began to behave
less like a wild animal and have the decency to look a little ashamed of herself.
"I got this dirty old skirt out from under Miss Tilly's bed where it's got
no business being. It got foods on it and now she got it crumbled and all over
with dust. I was taking it with the rest to see to it, and out she comes screaming
I was stealing. I never stole nothing in my life." Stealing, in
the life that Luanne was given, the life of a slave, was a serious accusation.
Where she had come from she would have been beaten or worse for theft. "Matilda,
what have you got to say for yourself?" I demanded. I sounded so much like
Molly at that moment you would have laughed or cried to hear me. Tilly had the
grace (or the very sensible fear of my wrath) to apologize to Luanne. "There's
something in the pocket I need to have back," she said as if this
explained her outrageous exhibition. "Why
didn't you simply ask Luanne to take it out of the pocket and give it to
you?" I asked reasonably. I added the "reasonably" because I am
inordinately proud that, given the embarrassment I was suffering because of our
sister, reason did not come easily at that moment. "It's
mine," Tilly stated. Well, that was
no sort of an answer at all. I waited for the rest of the explanation but it
was not forthcoming. Luanne, her blood still up from the unwarranted attack on
her character, started in again with "I never took" etc. etc. Not
wishing to be drawn back into it, I cut her off. "Why
didn't you just ask?" I repeated to Tilly. Tilly lost her
prettiness in that moment. I have never seen a child so changed. Her face grew
sullen, her eyes hot and dull and she would not look at me. It struck me as a
blow. Our Tilly has always carried such a light within her. Foolish she can be,
and rash most certainly, but I had never seen her secretive and sly. The
ugliness with which it clouded her delicate features made me want to cry. At
this point I had sovereignty over the disputed skirt. It was clear that
whatever was in the pocket was not only of utmost importance to Tilly, but was
something she believed would cause others a great deal of displeasure. "We'll see
about this," I said, once again using Molly's voice and, though I disliked
myself for doing so, could no more have stopped than I could carry one of the
great cannons to the third level of this fort. I fumbled through
the wad of fabric in my arms till I found the pockets. Inside one of them I
felt the crinkle of folded papers and pulled them out. I shook them open to see
what dreadful words could change Tilly from child to cornered fox. Before I
could read a word, she snatched them from my hand, shouting, "They're no
concern of yours!" and ran down the hall, through our rooms and, by the
slamming of doors, I surmised out on the veranda and down the stairs. For a moment I
thought to give chase but chose not to humiliate her or myself in such a way. I
was angry, but mostly I was worried. This was so unlike Tilly. After
apologizing again to Luanne, I went not back to the parlor but to our rooms,
where I could be assured of being alone. There I sat and thought. Peggy, do you
think it could be a love letter? Maybe from Joel Lane? That was my first
thought, but surely the discovery of a love letter would bring on blushes,
stammers and giggles, not the desperation and wretchedness I saw. Unless it was
a profession of love (or, God forbid, some baser emotion) that was not
appropriate. Perhaps from Dr. Mudd or Samuel Arnold? I mention them because,
other than Joseph and Joel, they are the men she sees, speaks of and I know
full well Dr. Mudd has gotten too much influence over her. Lord knows Joseph
has made note of it as well. The mere mention of the doctor is enough to put
him in a pet. I assumed Tilly
would be back within the hour. On this bit of earth there simply is no place to
run to. In the heat and the dust, the ever-shifting sea of men on land and
water from horizon to horizon, I was sure discomfort would hound her home
without my having to dangle after her. Two hours
passed. Then three. Many times I cycled through anger to worry and back again.
Worry won out in the end, and I decided to search for our errant sister—not to
reprimand her but to see her safe and well for my own peace of mind. I went first to
the top tier of the fort. After that last cannon was lifted into place, the
building and arming was stopped. Since we are no longer at war, an order came
through that the arming of the fort was to cease, though the construction
continues as Jefferson will be used as a prison for some time to come. Within
six months Joseph estimates that our confederate soldiers will all have been
released, but those sent here for other crimes, the deserters, thieves,
murderers and, of course, the Lincoln conspirators, will remain to serve out
their sentences. The third tier,
blessedly devoid of humanity, was manned only by sentries and a few knots of
off-duty men up catching sea breezes and smoking and gambling. Not wanting to
air our domestic concerns before this rough gathering, I did not ask any of the
men if they had seen Tilly. A
circumnavigation of the fort revealed no truant girl. It is close to a mile
walk to complete the circumference of these walls. By the time I had done so I
was sweating, and worry had once again come round to anger. I returned to
quarters expecting to find her there. She was not, and my anxiousness for her
safety again pushed out my anxiousness to slap her. I debated
whether or not to tell Joseph. In telling him I would have marshaled the forces
of the Union Army to search for Tilly. I was not yet sufficiently concerned for
her welfare to subject her—and us—to the ensuing gossip. That is the good
reason I did not tell my husband but not the only reason. The other is not so
easily articulated even to myself. I shall try to tell it to you, but you must
burn this letter should I die unexpectedly. I would not like a distant relative
to read it and know what a small person I was. I did not tell
Joseph partly because I was afraid, not of his anger at Tilly or of his anger
at me for failing to run our home in such a way that its inner workings did not
interfere with him. On reflection I believe I did not tell him because I was
afraid to see the concern in his face, afraid it would be greater, deeper than
any concern he has ever shown me. Peggy, I was jealous of our sister, jealous
of my husband's affection for her. May God forgive me. You, my dear sister, I
know will understand. Though it is undoubtedly a sacrilege, to be understood is
far more comforting than the cold release of forgiveness. In this
unpleasant state of the heart it came to me that possibly Tilly had been so
madly protective of her letter because her brother-in-law had written it. I
cannot tell you what sudden sickness this thought engendered in me. The instant
it came into my mind I was doubled over with it as if I had received a blow to
my midsection and could not draw breath. Fortunately
this miserable and unworthy state was short-lived. The letter could not have
been written by Joseph. It simply could not. Joseph is not given to writing
letters of any sort and least of all love letters. Even when he was courting me
with such purpose, he never wrote me. And, though I only glimpsed the papers, I
am sure I would have recognized his handwriting. Once I
recovered myself, I set off to look in the only other place I could think that
Tilly might have run to. Both Joseph and myself have expressly forbid her to
visit Joel Lane's cell unaccompanied, but given her newly acquired insolence, I
thought that's where she might have gone. It took only a
moment to bully one of the sentries at the sally port into escorting me to the
cells above and unlocking the door. By now they were not only accustomed to my
going there but had become used to the Lincoln conspirators and, though they
are still much reviled, Arnold and Mudd are no longer feared as they once were.
The sentry was an older man, nearly fifty—much too old to be an infantryman,
but it is the life he's used to. As we ascended the spiral stairs adjacent to
the guardroom, he said: "First the young miss and now you. Those rebs must
be pouring some mighty fine tea to attract the prettiest ladies at the
fort." I did not thank
him for the compliment. He took my silence as a rebuff and didn't say another
word. I had not intentionally snubbed him. It was his testimony that Tilly had
visited the cells that caught up my attention. I wanted to ask when she'd come,
if she was still there, but that would have been to admit I did not know the
whereabouts of the child entrusted to my care. Soon enough I would find these
things out. He unlocked
Joel's cell door, then said: "I'll be waiting just out here. You call out
if you need me." It wasn't concern for my privacy that motivated this act.
As he turned away he was already fumbling for his tobacco pouch. Men are not
allowed to smoke on duty. They can be beaten for it or made to carry a heavy
cannonball in circles hour upon hour or even be cruelly strung up from one of
the trees. Though I believe the regulation to be just and necessary, it is hard
on those men who have come to depend on tobacco. Behind these enclosed
casemates was an ideal place to enjoy a smoke undetected. Joel was lying
on his mattress, his back propped against the wall, doing nothing. The forced
inactivity of our prisoners must be the most difficult cross they bear, worse
even than bad food and poor living conditions. Those who can work are able to
earn money for the small luxuries available at Sender's store by the docks.
Joel was healing quickly but was not yet fit enough to join the crews building
or recoaling the ships. "Good
afternoon, Private Lane," I said, attempting to sound cheerful. There was
no need to add the weight of my concerns to his. "Is
it?" His sulleness so matched Tilly's I began to wonder if poor manners
were contagious. I chose to
ignore his tone. "Has Tilly been here?" He glanced at
the door that communicated between his casemate and that of Dr. Mudd and Mr.
Arnold. "Is she
here?" I amended my question with some alarm. The thought of her behind
closed doors with two men—any two men—was not something I would have condoned. "She was.
She's gone," he said. There was some
comfort in that at least. "Do you
know where she went?" "Why don't
you ask my glorious physician? It was him, not me, she came to see." At
this moment Joel Lane was no longer a soldier, a man recuperating from a
beating or a carefree actor and balladeer. He was a peevish boy looking and
sounding as young as our little sister. Clearly I was
not the only one bitten by the green-eyed monster this clay. I was beginning to
understand why women are often banned from military postings. It is not our
behavior that is an endangerment but that of the men made foolish and rash by
the presence of a skirt in their midst. "Is Dr.
Mudd in?" I asked, then realized the stupidity of my question and crossed
to the adjoining door without awaiting a reply. I felt a bit
silly knocking on the door to a prison cell as if I'd come calling of a Saturday
afternoon, but simply flinging it open like an invading army was unthinkable. I
tapped and called out: "Dr. Mudd? It's Mrs. Coleman. May I speak with you
a moment?" Rustling came
from within and went on much longer than I would have expected. In the heat
they may have been resting in a state of undress, so I did not hurry them. At
another time it might have crossed my wicked mind to see Mr. Arnold in
shirtsleeves or singlet. My mind was so full of Tilly at this moment that I was
saved such evil thoughts. It was Samuel
Arnold and not the doctor who finally opened the door. "Raphaella,"
he said. "How can I be of assistance?" It took me aback both that he
knew my Christian name and that he had the audacity to use it. Since he seemed
genuinely pleased to see me—and a man has not looked at me in that way or said
my name with such gentleness in a good while—I'm afraid I did not reprimand him
as I should have. We all have an unlocked window through which the devil can
creep, as Molly was fond of telling us. It's a pity that mine is
dangerous-looking men. (Oh. Dear. Peggy, when you are burning up pages of this
letter would you expunge that bit as well?) This
foolishness passed in the blink of an eye, and I do not think I let any of it
show on my face. "I'm looking for my sister," I said. "We had an
upset over a letter and she ran from me. She's been gone several hours and I've
become concerned." Why I decided at this moment to tell the truth and to
this man who both frightens and attracts me I cannot say. Certainly not because
I trust him above all people—or above any people for that matter. Maybe I told
Mr. Arnold because the weight of the situation had been building within me and
I needed to shift some of the burden. By shifting it onto one even more
helpless than I, I was assured there would be no outcry, no search and no
recriminations. Rather like talking to the cat. "Miss
Tilly was here an hour ago, maybe two," Arnold said. "She didn't stay
long." "Did she
mention where she might go?" Arnold laughed
a pleasant sound, but I resented it given the state of my nerves. "I well
know there is not anywhere to go," I said tartly. "But she is indeed
gone, and in a brick box of a thousand men I believe I have cause to be
concerned." "I'm
sorry," he said at once. "I was laughing at my own prospects, not
your sister's." With the heat
and the dashing about, a strand of hair had come loose from the pins and fell
in my face. This man actually tucked it back. Of all the schoolboy tricks, that
has to be the first one learned. I'd not thought any man over twenty would
still be using this crude form of seduction. If indeed it was seduction and not
merely an attempt to improve the aesthetics of the cell. To my credit I neither
melted nor swooned, but neither did I put him in his place as he most richly
deserved. "Tilly
didn't talk to me; she came to see Mudd," Mr. Arnold said. I couldn't but
notice he had dropped the honorable title of "doctor" and wondered if
they had quarreled. Mr. Arnold did not move from the doorway as I'd expected,
and I was forced to ask: "May I speak with him?" He stepped
aside and, holding the door wide, gestured me through with mock gallantry. Dr.
Mudd had fashioned himself a desk of sorts from a wooden cask begged off one of
the guards and fitted it with a stool of piled brick. The "desk" had
been set to catch what shards of morning sun came through the three deep gun
slits high above the floor. At the time of day I was there the sun had moved
into the western sky and the cell was uniformly gloomy. Regardless of this, Dr.
Mudd was writing, paper and pen sent to him regularly by his wife, along with
other items to make his life bearable. I stood inside
the door, Mr. Arnold to my left, close enough I could sense him without turning
to look. The doctor kept right on scratching away. It was bizarre to be kept
waiting like a tradesman come looking for work by a man one's husband keeps
under lock and key. Another time I might have allowed him this fleeting and
petty exercise of power. That day I had no patience for it. "I need to
speak with you," I said. He looked up,
sighed to signify his annoyance and forbearance, and said: "Very well. One
moment," and went back to his correspondence. The world was
topsy-turvy. Tilly turning from bright to dull, Mr. Arnold from sulking to
seduction, Joel from man to boy, Sergeant Sinapp from Joseph's lapdog to cur
and now Dr. Mudd from prisoner to potentate. "My sister
came to see you," I said, ignoring his attempt to ignore me. "Mr.
Arnold and Private Lane say she met only with you. She has since disappeared. I
need to know of what you spoke." Dr. Mudd
finally rose, perhaps remembering his manners, perhaps merely stretching his
legs. "It was a personal matter," he said. All at once
Sergeant Sinapp's proclivity for stringing traitors up by their thumbs did not
seem so incomprehensible. "My sister
is not yet seventeen years old," I said. "She is under my protection
and that of my husband, the captain of this garrison. Until such a time as she
comes of age or marries, she has no personal matters. You will tell me
what transpired." I didn't add any threat about thumbs and trees, but it
was in my voice and my mind, and I could tell he made no mistake about my
intentions. "Your
sister is concerned only with justice, Mrs. Coleman. Have no fears for her
moral rectitude." The way he
stressed "your sister" it was evident he meant to suggest that I, and
the rest of the union supporters, were not concerned with justice. I was not in
a mood to be challenged on my political beliefs or to second-guess our nation's
legal system. Mudd was, of course, referring obliquely to his own innocence, a
theme of which he never tires. "I am not
concerned with her morals," I snapped. "Only with her
whereabouts." He shrugged and
gestured at the limited confines of his cell, and said, "As you can
see..." Rather than
remain and bandy words with a man who had nothing to lose but time, and of that
he had a plenitude, I simply said: "Good day, then," and left. It
would have been right and good to leave with an especially cutting remark, but
I'm afraid Molly raised us too well for that. I did not even slam the door on
my way out. He shut it firmly behind me before my skirt had cleared the lintel.
Having never been snubbed by a convicted murderer before and having no clear
idea where to go next other than to inform Joseph and begin an all-too-public
search, I stood a moment inside Joel Lane's casemate. Mr. Arnold
leaned against the wall beside the door I'd just come through. As seldom as
that man stands without support of one structure or another, one cannot but
wonder his back has not atrophied. "Mrs.
Coleman?" Joel had gotten up from his bed, his manners and his maturity
evidently relearned while I sparred with his neighbor. "I didn't know
Tilly was missing. You told us but it didn't come home to me till you were
talking to Samuel. I wouldn't for the world have anything happen to
Tilly." For an awful
moment I thought he was going to cry. There is that about a brutal beating that
breaks more than men's bodies. Joel recovered himself and said: "After she
left me—us—Dr. Mudd, I heard voices raised outside. I think some of the guards
were taunting her. The sentry was with her and there was nothing I could do
anyway." This last was
said with a self-loathing that cut to the heart. For a man to be utterly
helpless to defend the woman he loves—or thinks he does—must be a debilitating
thing. And I do believe Joel is in love with Tilly. It's Tilly who has cooled
toward him, transferring her youthful passion to the supercilious Dr. Mudd. How
far that has gone, I cannot say. It occurs to me as I write that today might
not have been the first time Tilly visited the conspirators' cell without me. "Did you
recognize the voices?" I asked. "Only
Tilly's. I'm sorry." Again tears
threatened. Maternal urges are rare with me, but I suffered one then, wanting
to rush over and hold this sad and battered boy-man. I quashed it. "Which
sentry came with her?" I demanded. "Private
Munson." Joel named the boyish-looking soldier who'd been on duty with the
vile Sinapp the night Tilly and I found Joel hanging by his thumbs in the sally
port. "Thank
you." Sam Arnold
walked me to the door. It was only two steps but I appreciated the civility of
the gesture. At the threshold he stopped, knowing he could not pass. I rapped
loudly to let my smoking escort know I wished to come out. Mr.
Arnold leaned close. He is a tall man and, since coming to Fort Jefferson, has
worn his hair long. It fell over his face and I could smell the mix of man,
salt and tobacco. "Mudd does not mean well by your sister, Mrs. Coleman.
He is using her to his own ends. He is not a man to be trusted, especially with
the affections of an innocent." The door opened
and I was allowed to escape. Joel's
assertion that Tilly had been accosted by, and had heated words with, our own
troops and Mr. Arnold's cryptic warning heightened my alarm for her safety.
Till then I'd worried only that in her girlish huff over a love letter revealed
she'd done something foolish, perhaps injuring or embarrassing herself in the
doing. Now I became concerned that either through the natural roughness of our
soldiers or the machinations of Dr. Mudd she'd involved herself in something
far more dangerous. What that could
be I had no inkling. My chaperone,
looking relaxed and reeking of tobacco, locked the door behind me. "Are you
aware of an altercation of any kind between my sister and the guards an hour or
more earlier?" I asked. "I am not,
ma'am. I have been in the guardroom since two o'clock and nothing's happened.
Just hot and more hot and dust and noise like every other day." Customarily I
can spare a word of sympathy for the plight of the soldiers garrisoned here.
This day I could not. "There is a soldier named Munson," I said.
"Where is he now?" "That'd be
Charley Munson, ma'am. I relieved him when I came on duty. He'll be in quarters
I expect." "Take me
to him." "He'll be
sleeping, ma'am. He was on most of the night." "I don't
care if he's bathing. I would see him now." I suppose I shocked this old
soldier. The prudishness of the old-timers is almost comical. Munson was
abed. While he was ousted and made ready to receive the captain's wife (a
pronouncement I am sure put the fear of God into him), I waited outside near
where the new armory is being constructed. These are buildings most fascinating
in nature. Of brick, as is the rest of the fort, but with domed ceilings within
so the explosives stored there will not be set off even by a direct hit should
the fort be attacked. Within a short
time Mr. Charley Munson, bleary-eyed and stinking of the gin he'd used to put
himself to sleep, came blinking out from the barracks set up in the casemates
behind the unfinished armory. "You were
with my sister Tilly when she called upon Joel Lane and Dr. Mudd. Shortly
thereafter she had words with some of the men. I need to know what was said and
by whom," I said without preamble. Whether he was reluctant to tell me or
simply needed time to marshal his muddled thoughts I do not know. For half a
minute he shuffled and rubbed at the stubble on his chin. "Do I need
to fetch my husband?" I threatened. That straightened his spine and
cleared his mind. After Sergeant Sinapp's insubordination I was relieved to see
this man still respected Joseph's authority enough to be afraid. "Now Mrs.
Coleman you don't have to go doing that. No, ma'am. I took Miss Tilly up to the
rebs' cell, but only like I been told to should you ask. It's captain's
orders." "To take
Miss Tilly up there without a chaperone, Mr. Munson?" This breach
concerned him, and I felt a moment's pity knowing how Tilly can wrap men around
her girlish fingers, but only a moment's. "She said
you'd be along directly," he defended himself. "She said Lane had
taken a turn and needed his pain medicine and it couldn't wait." "So you
took her to his cell." "Yes,
ma'am, I did. To tell you the truth, ma'am, I never did go inside with her. She
said I was to wait outside. As you'd been in and out so much I never saw any harm
in it. I can't tell you what they got up to but it wasn't long. She was out
quick as you please and looking like the cat that got at the cream, if you know
what I mean." "I need to
know what occurred once she left the cells." "Well,
whilst she'd been in there some of the boys kinda got together. You know how it
is. Anyway out she comes and so pleased with herself and I'm locking up the
door like I'm supposed to and she up and says: 'There won't be nobody to lock
up much longer, Mr. Munson.' "Of course
I got to ask why so I do, and she says: 'You can't keep an innocent man under
lock and key.' So I says, don't worry none 'cause her Johnny Reb'll be shipping
out with the rest of 'em quick as nevermind. And she says she's not talking
about Joel Lane but the other one." "Dr. Mudd
or Mr. Arnold?" I asked for clarification. Use of the king's English is
not one of Mr. Munson's strong suits. "She
didn't say, but I'm thinking it was the doctor." I didn't press
him on the point because that was what I was thinking as well. "And the
soldiers heard this?" "Yes,
ma'am, they did and the sergeant took up about it." Sergeant
Sinapp's involvement in any unpleasant encounter did not surprise me. What did
was that Joseph's authority over the man had been undermined to the point he
would openly condone—and no doubt participate in—the insubordination of smoking
while on duty, a serious offense. "What did
the sergeant say," I prodded. "I can't
tell word for word like. Things got kinda fast and snippety." I will not put
you through any more of the agonizing process of conversing with Mr. Munson
than I already have. Suffice to say the vile Sinapp, who you will recall
actually put his hands on Tilly when last we suffered his company, spoke to her
roughly regarding her unchaperoned visit to the cells, and she responded by
baiting him with supposed proof of Dr. Mudd's innocence, coupled with
unflattering comparisons of Sinapp to Mudd. The sergeant became angry. He
demanded her "proof" and apparently threatened to strip and beat her
as a traitor to the union. Tilly, finally showing some tiny semblance of
wisdom, fled, "skirts all a-dither" according to Mr. Munson. The recital
chilled me. Sergeant Sinapp, like any dog of war, cannot be masterless without
becoming dangerous to the very people for whom he was trained to fight. I would
give a great deal to know what gave Sinapp the upper hand or led him to believe
he has the upper hand. Joseph, never the most communicative of men, has become
like the Spartan in the old tale. He seems to have a purloined fox under his
coat and will let it devour his entrails before he will admit to stealing it. Mr. Munson,
being unable to tell me anything else of value but that Tilly had run toward
the northeastern bastion and not toward the spiral stairs closer by, I returned
to the second level of the fort above the guardroom and began making my way
around it. Many of the casemates along that side of the fort have been boarded
up on the parade ground side to fashion cells. This is not true of those first
in line. These have remained open and have been used for various things during
my time here: barracks, sick ward and prisoners' mess. Currently they are used
as a catchall for brick, board, armament and machinery. Because that
was the direction Tilly was said to have run after her altercation with
"the boys," I picked my way through the piles looking for some sign
of her. I found two of the fort's cats, essential in a place as frequented by
rodents as a port of call for ships. Neither was pursuing its avocation. One
slept in the sun, a long and leggy pattern in tiger stripes. The other I found
by following small helpless cries. Thinking to find a repentant girl I found
instead a mama cat and four kittens hidden behind a rampart of board ends and
broken brick. Several
casemates down, just before the cells began in earnest with heavy timbers and
locked doors for our less-trustworthy clientele, I again heard the mewling of a
small frightened creature. "Tilly?"
I called and was answered by a furtive scuffling noise. This part of the fort
has a peculiarity that caused me a moment's confusion. Then I found my way down
a narrow brick passage. To my right lay one even narrower and shaped like an L,
where no light could penetrate. I remembered from our first tour of Fort Jefferson
three years ago that this was one of several secure chambers built for the
storage of gunpowder. Since that time I'd not had any cause to visit. "Tilly?"
I called again, and feeling along the wall for guidance, I went in. 19 Three hours'
sleep, which served to whet her appetite for bed rather than refresh her, and
Anna went in search of Daniel. Shops, quarters and generator rooms were empty
of bipeds. She found him by the docks, head and shoulders buried in the engine
box of the Curious. "Hundred-hour
check?" she said for openers. Daniel withdrew
from the engine compartment, wiping his hands on a red oil rag. For an instant
Anna was put in mind of her father. He, too, had been a stocky man of endless
strength, scarred knuckles permanently blackened by years of working on
airplane engines. "Burned
her out," Daniel said. "Shifting that motor off you I had to gun her.
When she hit the end of the anchor chain she stood up on her tail." His tone was
mildly accusing. Accustomed to the feelings of those who husband internal
combustion engines, Anna was not offended. "My life
for hers," she said easily. "If she dies it's a hero's death." Tribute given
and accepted, Daniel said: "What's up?" Anna did not
choose to share her theory about a second diver and the engine being shifted
intentionally, so she just asked if he had noticed any other boats near the
dive site. He hadn't, but couldn't swear there hadn't been any. "My
attention was focused down pretty much," he said. "Anything short of
a Spanish galleon under full sail could have gone unnoticed." Mack, the only
other witness, was her last recourse. She'd not yet spoken with him on the
assumption that, had he seen anyone—and how could he not if a second diver had
been in evidence—and had any intention of volunteering the information, he
would have done so already. Mack may have saved her life for reasons of his
own, but the mere fact he had been there when the "accident" occurred
made him suspect of collusion or criminal negligence at least. This line of inquiry
was to be aborted. Mack, Daniel told her, was on his lieu days and had hitched
a ride to Key West on the early seaplane. He'd be out of pocket for five days.
The "good" news was the Shaws had returned on the first ferry of the
day. Anna'd slept through the hero's welcome Bob had been given on the docks.
All the fort's personnel had been there, partly out of respect for Bob, mostly
because everyone but a skeleton crew were leaving the island for a three-day
session regarding health and benefits at headquarters in Homestead. Bob and his
wife were tucked away in their house. Not anxious to
interview them with an eye to the poisoning, Anna took a leisurely route back
to the west side of the fort. Tourists off the huge catamaran, one of two that
ferried visitors from the mainland each day, wandered the parade ground and
drifted from casemate to casemate. Anna could see them through the brick
arches, small and dressed in bright colors like dolls in a dollhouse viewed
from the back. People made places mundane, robbed them of mystery and romance.
Crazy, delusional, absurd as the human animal could be, it carried homely
reality around its neck like the mariner's albatross. Religion, the fantasy of
the occult, the paranormal, close encounters of the third kind, served to
indicate how burdensome life without magic had become to some. Moving slowly,
taking the steps one at a time in deference to her hard-won aches and scrapes
and her desire to put off meeting with the Shaws a little longer, Anna climbed
the spiral stairs beside the Visitors Center, the room that had housed the
guards when Raffia Coleman was in residence. On the second
level she turned right, instead of left toward the Shaws and home. When she'd
first come to the fort, Duncan had taken her on a tour. One of the stops was in
Dr. Samuel Mudd and Mr. Sam Arnold's cell, they being the two most famous—or
infamous—of the inmates when Fort Jefferson had been a prison. Duncan adhered
to the theory that the doctor was guilty as charged. Despite the fact that a couple
of presidents had written letters amounting to an apology to the doctor's
descendants, the court's ruling had never been overturned and the doctor's name
was still Mudd. The information available from the highly public legal
proceeding gave rise to reams of paper on the subject, and Duncan preached his
gospel of Mudd's guilt in learned terms and soon, he hoped, from the New York
Times bestseller list. As Anna
understood it, Samuel Mudd's contention was that he had not known John Wilkes
Booth when, hours after Lincoln's assassination, he set the man's leg, broken
in the jump from the balcony to the stage of Ford's Theatre. This was why he
had given treatment and, upon learning of the assassination, had not turned
Booth in. Mudd's poor-country-doctor-living-up-to-the-Hippocratic-oath defense
was, according to Duncan, undone by the fact that several witnesses had seen
Mudd in the company of John Wilkes Booth on two occasions prior to the shooting
of the president, making it extremely unlikely that Booth, who remained
overnight in the doctor's house, was unrecognized by Mudd. Till reading
Raffia Coleman's letters, Anna had little interest in the guilt or innocence of
a man so long dead. Drugs and family ties having dragged history through time
and dumped it in her living room, she looked on the cell with new eyes. The
channels so painstakingly chipped in the floor to carry away standing water
were as Raffia had described them. In running her fingers over the fissures
Anna could feel the anger and desperation it had taken to carve them. Imagining
the casemate, now open to the sunlight with a pleasant view of the parade
ground, hoarded over, the three high, narrow slits on the east wall must have
crushed the life from what little light they allowed through. Regardless of
the deeds of the men condemned to serve time in the cell, Anna felt pity for
them. She sided with those opposed to the death penalty because it did not
deter crime, was not cost effective and those on death row seemed anxious to
live. She was not against it because it was deemed cruel or unusual. Had she
been sentenced to such a room as this without light, without hope of release,
the death penalty would have been a great kindness. Still, keeping
company with her aunts Raffia and Tilly, Anna took her time walking the
northern bastion and casemates. Partway down she veered from the dramatic
drench of sun and shadow in the great arched spaces and slipped into the brick
passage Raffia had described outside the black powder storage room. Built within the
walls, closer to the parade ground than the sea, these small rooms were
designed for security, a place safe from the guns of an attacking force yet
convenient to the gun ports they served. The tight doglegged passage to gain
entrance reminded Anna of the way into Injun Joe's Cave on Tom Sawyer Island in
Disneyland. Time warped briefly—a sensation she was beginning to get used
to—and she suffered the same pinch of panic going in as she had at nineteen in
southern California. Inside, the
room was lined—floor, walls and ceiling—with wood. She'd have to ask Duncan
why. Maybe, in this humid climate, it helped to keep the powder dry. The
timber-lined, many-angled internal ceiling going up to a point, it felt like
the inside of the grain silos she'd played in as a girl. Three weeks before her
eleventh birthday a kid had suffocated, drowned in grain, and her father never
let her or Molly play in one again. Looking around this confined space,
protected from the elements, graffiti from the eighteen hundreds still legible
on the boards, she felt again that unsettling mix of excitement and dread silos
had engendered in her since the neighbor boy had died. For several
minutes she let the centuries shift and listened for the weeping of Tilly, the
calls of her older sister, the clatter of men and hammers. Before she could
conjure up the past, two teenaged boys wearing shorts so large the crotches
hobbled their knees burst in with sweating exuberance and Anna was driven back
into the new millennia where boys Joel Lane's age were still children and had
the tee shirts and the manners to prove it. Hounded from
her hiding place, she gave up procrastinating and finished the journey to the
Shaws'. Their home was just below her apartment and mirrored Lanny Wilcox's
quarters. On the southernmost end of the house was a screened-in porch. Anna
always paid attention to this on her way past because the Shaws kept two fine
fat cats who often lounged on the porch. Thinking life
would be grand if she dealt exclusively with felines, she knocked on the door.
Teddy let her in with what appeared to be genuine pleasure. Wondering if this
woman regularly poisoned people to further her husband's career, Anna
experienced no reciprocal emotions but believed she'd faked them adequately
enough to pass muster. The two houses,
the Shaws' and Wilcox's, were structurally alike, but there ended the
similarity. Where Lanny's was made smaller by the encroachment of his collected
interests, mementos, incarnations and necessary junk, the Shaws' home was made
larger by white paint, mirrors, clean, polished wood-and-canvas furniture and
an absence of any trappings of the past. Though she traveled light, Anna had
not been this unencumbered since college, when a bookcase of bricks and boards
and a couple of thumbtacks were all she needed in the way of interior decor. Not that the
Shaws' tastes ran to plastic milk crates and beanbag chairs; what there was was
classy and probably expensive. It was just that there was so little. What there
was appeared planned, cautious, devoid of knickknacks, personal photos,
souvenirs, toys, dog-eared books or anything else to play with. The room could
have been designed for a magazine cover. Given what Anna
had learned of Teddy's past, it wasn't surprising she had no wish to be reminded
of it on a daily basis. Why Bob would have so little of his history on the
walls Anna had no idea. Regardless of pathologies, she much preferred the
Shaws' living space to that of Lanny Wilcox. In the Shaws' quarters she could
breathe. Having ushered
Anna over the stairway landing and down into the living room, Teddy left her to
find her own seat. Anna chose the one with the white cat named Joey, as Teddy
fluttered around her husband. Bob was ensconced on the sofa, a cream canvas
sling supported by blond wood that had to be more attractive than comfortable.
Had Anna been the one with her leg in a cast, she would have been forced to
crawl to the closet, get a gun and shoot Teddy. The amount of fussing and
plumping and cooing would have driven her around the bend. Bob thrived on
it. A warrior carried from the field of battle, he accepted the attention with
gracious humility that only just dimmed the glow of pure contentment on his
face. Probably this idyll would be shortlived. Having tasted what he'd thirsted
after for so long, odds were good he'd be craving another adventure before the
scars of this one had time to fade. Following an
offer of drinks, which Anna almost forgot to decline, the domestic Teddy,
exhibiting none of the Borgia characteristics Anna'd envisioned once she'd seen
her as a suspect, left Anna and Bob alone and went into the kitchen. The life of the
party gone, there didn't seem much to say. Anna would have busied herself
playing with Joey, but the cat was having none of it and jumped down at the
first tentative pat. "You're
looking good," Anna said to keep the silence from getting embarrassing. "I'm a
fast healer," Bob said. He probably
was. So far his other inflated opinions about his worth had been proved out.
Still, Anna had to make a point not to smile. Bob must even outdo other men in
the superior functioning of his cells. "Bring me
up to speed. What's been happening on the boat thing?" Bob plucked two
brightly colored pillows from where Teddy tucked them and tossed them to the
floor. Basking in the glow of past deeds had lasted an even shorter time than
Anna'd given it. The adrenaline junkie was back. Teddy returned
with drinks on a tray, a Coke for Bob and iced tea for her. Seeing the Coke can
was unopened and meant for Bob Anna quickly changed her mind and asked if she
could have that drink after all. Nosing around the haunts of Civil War dead was
thirsty work. Teddy gave Anna Bob's soda without so much as blinking and
fetched another. Had she been planning on drugging her guest she was
unperturbed at being foiled. "So,"
Teddy said, flopping down on the only empty chair. "Who was Bob's dead
guy? Anything on that?" She was as anxious to return to the glory days as
her husband. The delay Anna
had instigated with the coke business had given her time to think, something
she should have done before making the call. She told them
everything, leaving out only that she and Lanny had been drugged and that she
knew there was a warrant out for Teddy's arrest. Both Shaws
listened with the rapt attention of children being told a favorite bedtime
story. As carefully as she watched, Anna could detect no flickers of fear or
guilt. "Teddy,"
Anna said as the younger woman saw her to the door. "Do you think Bob
could spare you for a little while? There's something I'd like to
discuss." "Can't we
do it here? I have no secrets from—" Teddy jerked the way a small dog does
when it runs headlong into the end of its leash. For the time it takes to
breathe, she met Anna's eyes. Other than maybe Matt Damon, Anna had never seen
an actor who could match the sudden and overwhelming vulnerability of Teddy's
face. Emotion was clearly written there. Anna watched it come and go. Dismay,
that almost laughable look a toddler gets when its first balloon pops in his
hand, the sudden shock before the shrieking, robbed Teddy of her years. An
adult's realization of consequences brought them back with another ten she'd
not yet earned. The baby face hardened then sagged, lips thinning. "Let me
tell him I'm going out," Teddy said softly. As she crossed
the kitchen and climbed the three stairs over the hump into the living room,
Anna wondered if Teddy would face her monsters with the courage she'd so lauded
in her husband. Hard to tell. Fessing up to sleaze and paying the sordid price
took a different kind of courage than taking a bullet for the president or
rescuing a child from a burning building. No adrenaline helped one through the
terror; no promise of reward in status or simply goodwill pulled one through
the hard marches. It wasn't even as good as the biblical sort of bravery, the
willingness to suffer degradation and abuse for the good of another. It was pure
payback. Scraping it up for the bookie when the bet was lost. A murmured
conversation later Teddy came again into the kitchen. Anna'd seen people go
pale beneath a suntan before. Teddy's skin had the unpleasant grayish cast skim
milk lends to coffee. "Let's
walk," Anna said. The day was impossibly hot and windy, but being in
public would be safer. Besides, Anna wanted to conduct an experiment. They walked in
silence across the parade ground and out the sally port beneath the sweep and
cry of the frigate birds. Teddy had guessed what the conversation was to be
about, and silence would do more to soften her up than questions. As Anna turned
right to walk around the moat wall, Teddy couldn't take it any longer.
"You ran background checks," she said. "I
did." They reached
the southeast corner of the fort, and Anna turned right again, following the
wide walkway that topped the moat's wall. Between them and the fort lay the
water, shallow at this end, maybe three feet deep and twice that from the top
of the wall to the surface of the water. To their left was the ocean, sparkling
where the wind roughed its surface. "I've been
clean since I married Bob," Teddy said. "All that was another
lifetime. I was another person." "Does Bob
know?" Anna asked. "He
knows." That was a lie.
Anna'd read the truth in Teddy's face back in her kitchen. She let it alone.
Beneath the crystal waters of the moat a nurse shark, not yet two feet long,
hung motionless, strands of brown seaweed trailing over its tail. "I never
told him," Teddy confessed at last. "Bob is so ... good. It
was too late for me. I already loved him. I was afraid he wouldn't see me the
same way anymore." "What was
it?" Anna asked. Teddy
understood the question. Like any lover or addict, the name of the necessary
object stays close in mind. "Percodan," Teddy said.
"Prescription painkillers." "You stole
them from the hospitals where you worked." "For a
while. Then I knew I was taking too many so I started stealing prescription
pads and signing the doctors' names to them." Again a right
turn. They walked now along the western wall where Anna believed she had seen
the wet prints of whoever had run from her the night she'd seen the light in
Lanny Wilcox's quarters. She stopped midway down the wall and looked out toward
Loggerhead Key. Three miles away, it looked ghostly in the mist the wind teased
from the ocean. Out of the corner of her eye Anna studied Teddy Shaw. Black
snakes of hair whipped her cheeks, stuck to her lips. Color had returned and
she no longer looked as if she might pass out. If she had
indeed splashed across the moat that night and slithered over the wall, she
didn't seem to be thinking about it now. Her attention was directed inward. "Will you
tell him?" "Yeah,"
Anna said. "You can have a few days to tell him yourself if you like. Then
we'll go on in to Key West and you can turn yourself in. I doubt you'll get
more than a couple months' jail time. Maybe not even that, maybe just more
probation." "Can't you
just pretend you don't know?" Teddy knew she
couldn't, so Anna didn't bother to answer. "Two
months, probation or whatever and it'll be over. You can come home," Anna
said. "Over forever unless you screw up again. I'd think that'd be a
relief." "If I have
a home to come to." "You
will." Anna didn't doubt for a minute the truth of her words. Bob and
Teddy had such a rich dream life they'd be able to romanticize even jail time
into their story. "Tell you what I can do," Anna said as the story
they might write unfolded in her brain. "You don't have to tell Bob I
found out. I won't. Then you just tell him you have to come clean, square
yourself with the law." Teddy thought
about that. If it were possible to see someone mentally embroider a tale, Anna
would have sworn that was what she witnessed in Teddy's eyes. "That
would be good," she said at last. They walked on,
circumnavigating the fort. Anna felt no need to talk, and Teddy was busy with
her own thoughts, perhaps scripting her confession scene with her husband. The
sun baked sweat from their bodies, the wind sucked it away. Anna's throat grew
dry. Across the narrow isthmus on Bush Key the sooty terns wheeled in a gray
cloud crying their endless cries. Tourists dotted the old coaling docks and sat
on beaches enjoying their day in the sun. They reached the sally port and went
into the fort. The grass on the parade ground was so dry it crackled underfoot,
putting Anna in mind of crispy Chinese noodles. When they
reached Teddy's back door and the wooden stairs to Anna's second-tier
apartment, Anna spoke again. "Would you mind coming up for a minute?
There's something I'd like your opinion on." The pull to
escape into her house, to be with Bob, was so great Teddy's body actually
leaned in that direction. For a second Anna thought she'd refuse. Evidently she
decided keeping on Anna's good side was worth extending her stay away from her
wifely duties. "For a
minute," Teddy said. "Sit
down," Anna said when they'd gone inside. Teddy perched on the edge of the
couch. At the far end Piedmont opened his eyes the merest of slits. Apparently
the idea of sharing his bed with a stranger appalled him. He jumped to the
chair, curled up, and resumed his nap. "I'm
thirsty," Anna said. She opened the refrigerator and took out a bottle of
sparkling water. "Can I
pour you a glass of water?" "That'd be
great," Teddy said. No hesitation. No flicker of alarm. Anna put the
bottle back and took out two Cokes. "The water's gone flat," she
said. "I'd forgotten." Teddy pulled
the tab. Anna sat by Piedmont. "What did
you want my opinion on?" "Drugs. If
somebody wanted to induce mild psychosis, hallucinations, paranoia, what would
be the best way to do it? You know, tasteless, easy to get a hold of, easy to
administer in liquid." Teddy liked
story problems. She leaned forward, elbows on knees, can of pop in both hands.
"Legal or illegal?" "Doesn't
matter." "Lysergic
acid diethylamide." LSD. The old
classics were always best. "Any way
to control the dosage?" "In a lab,
sure, but with street stuff who knows?" That fit with
Anna's experience. One of the tainted bottles had agitated her only a little.
The other had taken the top of her head off. "Thanks." "Why? You
planning on taking a trip?" "Just
curious," Anna said. Another time
Teddy might have stayed and tried to wheedle the truth out of Anna. Today the
need to be with her crippled husband took precedence. Anna walked her
home. She stood for a
minute in the sun. Air-conditioning could be counted on to provide two
wonderful moments: the first blast of cool air when coming in from a sweltering
summer and the relief of being enveloped in heat when one stepped out again.
While standing in the Shaws' tiny courtyard feeling her skin expand and grow
supple after the dry arctic winds of General Electric's winter, Anna's radio
crackled to life. The noise startled her. With Bob gone the radio waves had
been uncharacteristically empty. It was Donna
the lighthouse keeper on Loggerhead. "Dick Tracy hit pay dirt," she
said. "I'll be
there shortly," Anna replied. Glad to have direction, she set out for the
docks. With no
discernable change in the weather, the sea had entered another season and rose
gray and choppy, the low short swells guaranteed to unsettle the stomachs of
the uninitiated. To her shame, Anna was not a particularly good sailor and had
been known to run for the rail with the best of them. When she was piloting the
boat, this was changed; she had a stomach of iron. In these warm seas where the
spray was a blessing and not a curse, she enjoyed the ride. Patrice was at
the house. Donna, Anna was told, was at the top of the seventy-five-foot-tall
lighthouse inspecting the railings. The lighthouse had been built in 1886. The
railings around the walkway at the top were rusting away. It wouldn't be good
for the park service's image to have a visitor plunge to her death while on
holiday. As Patrice
ushered Anna into the tiny and wonderful old house, pots and pans, tiny stove,
sink, and two-person dining table lining the stone walls, Donna joined them.
Come for no other reason, Anna guessed, than to bask in the cleverness of her
beloved. In a serendipitous aping of Daniel, Donna was wiping her blunt square
hands on a red grease rag. With the two broad-shouldered rough-voiced women in
it, the ground floor room with its pint-sized appliances was further reduced
until Anna felt she'd entered a dollhouse. "Upstairs,"
Patrice said and led the way. The open staircase was made to scale with the house.
For Anna it was just narrow enough to feel cozy. With a big woman in front of
her and another behind, she was suddenly aware of the structure's great age.
Treads creaked in protest, and Anna could feel challenged wood thrumming
through the soles of her deck shoes. She took comfort in the fact that, should
the stairs collapse, Donna's substantial self would break her fall. Then it
occurred to her Patrice would fall on top of them both. The bedroom was
reached without incident. Anna and Donna sat on the bed that took up most of
the space. Patrice loaded one of an impressive stack of videotapes into the VCR
set beside a television with a thirteen-inch screen. "I knew it
was here somewhere," Patrice said. "My clerical skills being on a par
with Donna's cooking, it took me a while to find it." Donna snorted
but seemed unoffended. "That boat
you found—or one like you described to us, might not be the same banana—has
been out here a bunch of times in the last couple of months. We get a lot of
regulars and I don't videotape them, but these guys were acting fishy." "No pun
intended," Donna interjected. "I never
paid much attention to them till they beached on the west shore under the
lighthouse." The tape was in. Patrice joined Anna and Donna on the bed and
the three of them stared intently at the small screen as a video of white sand
and blue water began to play. "There's
no beaching here—" "As you
know," Donna interrupted. "But that
doesn't mean boats don't laud. Donna or I just politely shoo 'em away or, if there's
a problem, call you guys. So, this guy beaches." Patrice let the tape lay
for fifteen seconds or so in silence. A sleek green missile of a boat thrust
into frame and she paused the tape. The picture held but twitched and jerked as
if the power of the boat would pull it back into play. "This
guy," Patrice continued, pointing at the captured image, "beaches
that thing. He and another guy jump out. Both Hispanic: Mexican, Puerto Rican,
Panamanian—something. So Donna here goes down to shoo them away." "It was my
turn," Donna explained, apparently needing Anna to know nobody wore the
pants in this particular family. "I'd just done my hale-fellow-well-met
wave and smile preparatory to chucking them nicely back into the sea. They saw
me and got themselves launched, back in the boat and were leaving a wake wide
as a three-lane highway before I had time to get my arm down." "Donna
told me about it and I kept an eye out. Next time they showed, I taped
them." "You can
take the woman out of the policeman..." Donna said. "But you
can't take the policeman out of the woman," Patrice finished. This was an
old joke, the best kind, and the two of them enjoyed themselves. "They
never beached again. Never even came close. That's why this shot's not all that
great. But it's the same boat." For a long
minute the three of them stared at the tape. Patrice had zoomed in on it but it
still was a good ways away and, on the thirteen-inch screen, no more than three
inches long. It was a Scarab. Anna had looked up go-fast boats on the Internet
and familiarized herself with the various silhouettes. The differences were
small, but each designer left his or her mark on the product. The boat Patrice
had caught on film was the same metallic green as the one wrecked off East Key.
There was no way to prove to a jury the two were the same boat, but Anna didn't
need to. At present she needed only to satisfy herself. "It's the
same boat," she said. Patrice leaned
forward and clicked off the television, ejected the tape and gave it to Anna
without being asked. "I'd like it back when you're done." "No
problem." The three of them continued to sit, each alone with her
thoughts, blissfully unaware they painted a picture of the "see no
evil" monkeys as middle-aged white ladies. "Why do
you figure they beached here, then took off?" Anna asked at last. She had
her own theory but respected Patrice's police skills enough to entertain
others. "My guess
is they thought the Key was unoccupied," Patrice said. "You'd think a
great phallic black-and-white tower with a light on top would have tipped them
off, but there's a few Keys out here with buildings that are abandoned." "You said
you'd seen the boat before." "Right.
It's been out here—or we've seen it—maybe five or six times. Five or six,
Donna?" "About
that but not before it beached and ran. That was the first time." Patrice thought
about that. "Right," she said. "I had my brain calendar screwed
up. Because it beached I got interested, not the other way around." "You said
it the other way," Donna pushed. "I'm old
and I'm fat and I lie, but you adore me." Patrice said and smiled at her
partner. Donna threw up
her big grease-stained hands. "What can I say? I like to walk on the wild
side." The three of
them gnawed over the question of the green boat till it was frayed and sodden,
stretching the possible from the probable to the fantastical to see if anything
shook loose. In the end they returned to earth not that much wiser. The go-fast
was not fishing or camping, yet it frequented the park. The go-fast boat was owned
or captained by males of a Hispanic cast, two of whom were now dead. The boat
had probably beached on Loggerhead mistakenly, either believing it to be
uninhabited or believing it to be a different landfall entirely. These paltry
facts, put together with the fuel containers that had obliterated the sunken
hull and the operator's strong desire to remain unnoticed by anyone in authority,
seemed to point to drug smuggling. Smugglers drove powerboats to outrun the
coast guard cutters, carried extra fuel, and used isolated and uninhabited
places for caches of illegal goods. The drawback to this theory was that if the
men killed on the Scarab were drug smugglers, they had to be among the
stupidest criminals ever to cross the law. This was a grave insult, given
criminals are not known for their cleverness, education, long-term planning or
impulse control. There were
thousands of square miles of Caribbean and Gulf waters. To choose the fifty
thousand or so acres of that vastness guaranteed to be crawling with tourists,
flown over by seaplanes and patrolled by federal law-enforcement officers in
the persons of park rangers, made no sense. A vampire in the Vatican would have
a greater chance of going unnoticed. Anna took the
videotape and went home. There were three things on her To Do list today that
couldn't in good conscience be put off. She needed to call Lanny Wilcox and let
him know he was not insane. She needed to revisit the Theresa Alvarez
abdication/vanishing. And it behooved her to dive the green Scarab one more
time. With Bob laid up and Mack on the mainland, she'd be diving alone. Teddy
Shaw was an accomplished diver and had come to her aid after the fuel tanks
blew up, but Anna couldn't help seeing her in B-movie guise: the angel of death
in starched white uniform, cap and squeaky shoes, slipping into a hospital
room, dripping syringe in hand. As she'd taught
herself to do over the years, thus earning an undeserved reputation for never
procrastinating, Anna chose to do the most revolting chore first. It was the
adult equivalent of holding the nose and gulping the brussel sprouts without
having to taste them. She docked at
Garden Key, got her gear from her quarters then, quickly—surreptitiously, if
that was possible in the light of day amid a cloud of tourists and
pelicans—took tank, vest and regulator from the storage room behind the ladies'
toilets. She had no fears of diving alone in this warm shallow place of coral
reefs and sand, particularly since she had no intention of getting within forty
yards of anything that looked as if it could roll, fall, shift, explode, scrape
or bite. The concern that prompted the desire for stealth was that, were her
intentions to become known, she might not be diving alone. The water
remained choppy but in no way dangerous to anything but digestion. Over a sandy
spot near the wrecks she dropped anchor. Having tucked a garbage bag in her
vest, she pulled on latex gloves and went over the side. The garbage bag seemed
a bit callous, but she figured she would not find any parts of the Scarab's
captain too big to fit. In a perfect world—that is to say a world
without people—she would have left the purйed remains to feed the fishes.
However, when and if the man was identified, it would behoove the National Park
Service to have retrieved the body—or what there was left of it—and stored it
with proper respect. Whatever forces
of nature conspired to make the surface waters rough had also stirred up the
bottom. Visibility was not great. Anna could only see a hundred feet or so.
Because she valued her own skin more than that of the fragmented boatman, she
first inspected the engine that had nearly marked her final resting place.
There were shiny scrapes and scars that could have indicated the thing was
levered up by someone intending to squash her. They could also have been made
by the metal prongs of the anchor when it moved the engine so Mack could pull
her to safety. No epiphanies
in the iron, she moved on to her gruesome harvest. The accidental chumming of
the man Anna'd known only as a finger and a half had attracted scavenger fish.
The only ones Anna was concerned with were two largish sharks. One swam close
as if to assure it's tiny prehistoric brain that she was not shark food but a
largish fish in her own right. Other than that they showed no interest in her.
She was careful to do nothing that might offend them. Thirty minutes
searching and she had gathered all she could of what had once been a man. That
it was a man was left in no doubt. Trapped beneath a metal sink, blown intact from
the galley, was half a penis. With a nod to John Wayne Bobbit, Anna put it in
her garbage bag. A line from an old Uncle Bonsai song robbed the moment of its
gruesomeness. If I had a penis, I'd still be a girl. Anna bagged the
evidence and wondered if the song's prophecy would come true. If she'd make
much more money and conquer the world. Had ill-timed merriment not so recently
gotten her in trouble, Anna would have laughed. Scavengers had
carried away or eaten what the explosion had not obliterated. She did not find
the head—a failure for which she was grateful—or much in the way of edible
meat. The right hand was recovered. It had been immersed in salt water for a
while, and smaller fishes had been snacking on it, but there was a good
chance prints could still be lifted. Oddly enough she found both feet together
and relatively intact. One was still wearing a bright blue flip-flop. Because
of their humanity it was these and not the coarser discoveries of a shoulder
and clavicle or a part of a ribcage that got to Anna. Before she'd had time to
do more than rip out her mouthpiece, she vomited. Immediately schools of tiny
fish rushed over to partake of the unexpected bounty. Life goes on. Topside, the
bits and pieces in the garbage bag disturbed her more than the actual handling
of them underwater. Flopped on deck they became somehow more real. Feeling a
little silly but doing it just the same, she covered the black plastic sack
with a yellow tarp so she wouldn't have to see it on the trip back. Not stopping to
put tank and vest away, she gathered up the four corners of the yellow tarp,
the black plastic shroud tucked inside, and walked toward the fort as quickly
as she could without drawing attention to herself. It was three
o'clock. Tourists crowded beach and dock, gathering to get back onto the
catamaran for the two-hour trip back to Key West. Three giggling girls, the
littlest not more than eight or ten years old, caught up in a windstorm of
their own making, tumbled into her as she stepped from the sand onto the planks
of the drawbridge. One collided with the yellow tarp. Involuntarily Anna cried,
"Oh, God!" as if she carried fine china or nitroglycerin. The child was
unharmed, her spirits undimmed by this collision with death in the least
attractive of its myriad forms. Breathing out her relief, Anna became aware she
was too tightly strung. Consciously getting a grip on herself she hurried
toward the researchers' dorm and the chest freezer. "Hey, what
did you bring me?" Daniel called as she passed the shop. "Takeout,"
was her first thought and "seafood" her second, but to hold the
thoughts more than a nanosecond would have brought on a second attack of
nausea. "Don't
ask," she hollered back. Alone in the
researchers' dorm, she tied an apron she found in one of the drawers over her
swimsuit and donned a fresh pair of latex gloves. Feeling more like Dr.
Frankenstein than Quincy, she sorted through the bits of bone and flesh,
bagging each separately. Forensic pathology was an alien science to her. It
grew and changed on a monthly basis as brains and technology raced each other
into an unknowable future. Bagging the hand, she wondered if freezing it would
further destroy the whorls and ridges making identification harder—or
impossible. Till she could ask someone, she decided to put it in the
refrigerator. The rest went into the freezer like so much venison to await its
ride to Key West on the Activa. After a shower,
longer and hotter than necessary for rudimentary hygiene, Anna chose to cleanse
her mind of the contents of the black garbage bag by being the bearer of glad
tidings. Sequestered in her tomb-like office against the east rampart, the
undersized door closed for privacy, she called the number where Lanny Wilcox
was staying in Miami. A woman with a
lilting Spanish accent answered the phone, then went to see if "Mr. Wilcox
is taking calls." Not an auspicious beginning. Anna wondered if Lanny was
under the care of a nurse. There had been those unfortunates during her college
years who had slid over the line while on LSD and were marooned in that place
where monsters manifest. "He's
coming," the woman's voice promised after a while. Anna waited so long she
thought she'd been forgotten or disconnected. She was debating whether or not
to hang up and dial again when Wilcox finally came on the line. "This is
Lanny Wilcox." At least that's
what Anna assumed "iss iss anny Wilks" translated to. The man sounded
drugged to the gills. Anna pictured him in a cheap tatty robe in a room full of
droolers of whom he was one. "Lanny,
this is Anna Pigeon. I took over as Supervisory Ranger when you got sick."
A long silence followed. Faint as a drunken memory, Anna heard clicking over
the line or the microwaves or whatever. She imagined it to be the clogged gears
of Lanny's brain beginning to move. Finally he managed a word. "Yeah?" "Yeah. I
called to tell you you are not crazy. While you were out here somebody spiked
your water with a hallucinogen. What kind I don't know yet but I will. They did
the same thing to me. I was seeing all kinds of strange shit for a while." Another
silence, longer this time, then: "Not crazy?" He didn't sound
exactly thrilled by the prospect of incipient sanity. In fact, he didn't sound
sane. "What meds have they got you on, Lanny?" "Uh,"
a pause perhaps to drool or think or both, "Lithium I think and other
stuff. Since I got it I haven't had . . . you know . . . visions." "Quit
taking it," Anna said. Then, thinking better of this over-the-phone
prescribing and ever-mindful of the litigiousness of the American spirit, she
amended it. "Talk to your shrink. Tell him what I told you—" "Her. It's
a her." "Her then.
Tell her what I told you." Lanny said
nothing. "What did I tell you?" Anna asked. "Uh. Not
crazy." "That's
right, Lanny. You are not crazy. What else?" "Somebody
was poisoning me." Hearing her
words repeated by a man on heavy antipsychotics, Anna realized the revelation
sounded exactly like what Lanny would say if he was a paranoid schizophrenic or
suffered any of a number of other mental illnesses. "What's
your psychiatrist's name?" "Dr.
Kelly. I'm not crazy?" He was
beginning to warm to the idea. "That's right, Lanny. Does she live in
Miami? Have a practice there? What's the name of the practice? Do you have her
number?" The rapid-fire
questioning was too much for him. "I got to give you to Anita," he
said, and Anna heard the receiver crash against the table or maybe the floor. "Anita
speaking," was the next sign of life. Anna'd never much liked the name
Anita, but the way this woman pronounced it made it pretty. "Anita,
could you give me Dr. Kelly's phone number please?" "I have
two. One for emergencies and one for regular. Which do you like?" "Give them
both to me." Anna copied down the numbers, then repeated them back. Anita
seemed proud of her for getting them both right. Chore accomplished, Anna asked
if she could speak with Lanny again. Anita didn't think this was such a good
idea. Apparently the news he'd been first drugged into insanity by the criminal
element and then drugged into another form of the same malady by the medical
community had agitated him. After Anna
twice promised to keep it short and "nice" Lanny was again put on the
phone. "One
question before I let you go, Lanny. I had cause to go into your quarters.
There are no pictures of Theresa. Did you get rid of them?" "Theresa
left me." "Right.
And did you get mad and get rid of any pictures you had of her?" "I want to
keep the pictures. She left me but I love her." Anna decided to
be "nice" and take that as a "no" he did not get rid of the
pictures. "I'll talk to you again when you're feeling better." "Okay,"
he said obediently but didn't hang up. Anna did. She
could picture him standing at the phone table with the receiver to his ear till
somebody thought to come and lead him away. Much as she
hated to talk to doctors who weren't related to her by blood, she felt she owed
it to Wilcox not to put off the call to his psychiatrist. Using the emergency
number, she got the doctor after less than twenty minutes of holding. Having
briefly explained who she was and the annoying delay on the phone line, Anna
told her about the drugging of the water. Anna didn't
know what she'd expected. Maybe a "Yippee" or "I'll get right on
that" or a least a "Thank you." None of these transpired. The
doctor's voice, warm and solicitous when she'd first come to the phone, had
cooled significantly. "Miss...?" "Pigeon,"
Anna filled in for her. "Yes. Miss
Pigeon. As you are not a physician or a family member I can't discuss his case
with you. Suffice to say I have spent time with Mr. Wilcox and his symptoms
indicated the course of medications I prescribed." Anna wasn't the
only one scared to death of being sued. "He would have," Anna said in
what she hoped were comforting tones. "The guy was being fed some kind of
hallucinogen. He's been off of them for what, three weeks? He should have come
down by now." "I've been
practicing a good while, Miss Pigeon. I think you had better let me judge the
medical needs of my patients. Good day." Boom. Silence.
"The bitch hung up on me," Anna announced to the empty office. Dr.
Kelly hadn't been afraid of getting sued; she'd been affronted at being told
she was wrong. Who knew how long she'd keep Lanny on antipsychotics just to
prove to herself she wasn't. Calling back would only make matters worse. Anna
couldn't bring herself to leave a fellow ranger trapped in a bad production of One
Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest. Much as she hated to make public the news that
there was a vicious prankster in the fort—or a perpetrator whose motives were
as unknown as his identity—before she'd had a chance to work it out, she culled
through Lanny's Rolodex and called half a dozen of the most pertinent names: a
sister in Philadelphia, a son who worked for Goldman Sachs in Vero Beach,
Lanny's general practitioner in Key West and the Chief Ranger of Everglades and
Dry Tortugas National Parks in Homestead, Florida. Surely one of them would be
better able to rescue Lanny than she was. The Chief
Ranger, Arnie Flescher, kept her on the phone for three-quarters of an hour.
She was given a much-deserved earful for not calling him immediately on the
accident with the motor shifting and her realization of the drugging.
Fortunately she had been Johnny-on-the-spot with her phone reports on the
sinking of the two boats and the injury of Bob Shaw. Once she had
been reprimanded and showed herself properly contrite, he got down to park
business. Because of the difficulty of communication with Garden Key, coupled
with the fact that as an acting Supervisory Ranger Anna didn't have a working
relationship with the various Florida law-enforcement agencies, Arnie himself
would take over tracing the identity of the two dead men and the green Scarab.
He also promised to follow up on Theresa Alvarez's whereabouts and to question
her about Lanny's drugging if they found her. If they didn't her, he'd file a
missing person's report. "If we
don't track down this girl, it doesn't necessarily mean she's met with foul
play," Chief Ranger Flescher warned. "The Cuban community looks after
their own. That doesn't always coincide with the needs of law
enforcement." Anna thanked
him for the help and the warning and hung up feeling a good deal better than
she had. Asking for help: what a concept. She made a mental note to do it more
often. Though she was only "acting"—a stranger to the park and the
environment—she'd gotten in over her head both literally and figuratively and
never once had it occurred to her to call for help. "It's
called teamwork, you idiot," she said to the ghostly reflection of her
face in the computer screen. Vaguely she
remembered she'd wanted to accomplish three things before she called it a day.
The third escaped her, and for a while she sat in the office chair, swinging
back and forth, staring mindlessly at the blank computer screen. Pictures. It
had finally floated into the accessible part of her brain. Lanny hadn't been
the one to weed out those of his departed girlfriend. With that information,
the few bad snapshots of Theresa that had been overlooked became more interesting.
Since the pictures had not been banished by a brokenhearted lover there had to
be another reason they were gone. Either the picture abductor had a serious
passion for Theresa and stole pictures rather than panties to sate it or they'd
been removed because they might show something that would harm the thief. The few snaps
Anna'd gotten from Lanny's box were in her desk drawer. She took them out and
turned her chair to better catch the slice of light leaking through the firing
slit. A beautiful woman without much in the way of clothing. None of the shots
caught her face. Why steal the face pictures? Identification? Surely a woman as
good-looking as Theresa Alvarez had photos scattered behind her like
breadcrumbs. She could probably follow them back to the first boyfriend she
ever had. Pawing through
the desk, Anna unearthed a Sherlock-Holmes-style magnifying glass and amused
herself looking at the pictures in extreme close-up. Even high-powered
magnification didn't reveal a single blemish on Miss Alvarez's behind.
Pity. Anna moved the glass over to one of the dark-haired men—both with their
backs to the camera—who stood with Theresa on the startling white sand of the
beach between the northwestern bastion and the old coaling docks. "Eureka,"
she said, and, "Hah!" At last she'd found a connection. 20 My eyes
adjusted quickly to the dim interior of the powder room. To my knowledge there
has never been gunpowder stored in these strange little rooms. With the war
over and the fort, though unfinished, already obsolete, there may never come a
time when gunpowder will be warehoused here. So, but for
Tilly and a pile of board ends left from the unfinished walls lining the
chamber, it was empty, airless and stiflingly hot. That Tilly was alone at
first relieved me of some of my worry. Then I saw what sorry shape the poor
thing was in. She lay crumpled on the far side of the scrap lumber. Her hair
had come down and was pasted in sweaty strands across flushed cheeks. Dress,
hands and face were streaked with dust and sawdust. So much had adhered to her
face, even in the questionable light I could see the cleaner tracks where tears
had cut through the grime. Her eyes were closed and her left hand pressed, palm
on her nose, fingers on her forehead, as if she kept her face from falling off
her skull. The back of her hand was bloody and her knuckles scraped. With the worry
and embarrassment she'd caused me I'd thought when I found her I would shake
her till her little pea brain rattled in her head. The moment I laid eyes on
her that thought was as if it had never been. Because she was
alive, I could not be angry anymore. Because she was so clearly hurt my heart
broke for her. My first thought was of the worst. The rough soldiers, Sinapp
with his hot eyes, the chase—one might think in a place so overcrowded as this
there would be nowhere away from prying eyes or helping hands to assault a
young girl. Such is not the case. There are a few such comers isolated amidst
the clamor. The powder storage rooms would serve very well. A cry might not be
heard over the sound of building and men's voices. "Tilly,"
I said and was surprised to hear my voice break with tears. She lowered her
hand and I was glad to see her face was unmarked with anything more damaging
than dirt. When she saw me she did not stand but held her arms out the way she
used to when she was a little thing and wanted one of us to lift her up. Risking a rusty
nail through the soles of my soft slippers, I went to her and held her. Safe or
repentant or just emotionally strained, she began crying in earnest. After
she'd wept the dust off of her face and onto the front of my white pin-tucked
bodice, she settled down. I got her to sit up so I could have a look at her. I was comforted
by the fact that her buttons were buttoned, her laces laced and no part of her
attire that I could see was torn. After she calmed somewhat I asked if she was
hurt. "No..."
The word trailed off as if she wasn't sure or struggled to remember. "Did
anybody ... did the men—" "No!"
She was sure this time and vehement. Pulling a little away from me she tried
pushing her hair back into the bun she wore high on her head, a sign of
womanhood I doubt she could have gotten away with at her age if she still lived
with Molly. "No,"
she repeated, looking ready to burst into a second flood of tears. She acted at
odds with herself—with me—the way she does when she's lying. "I would
never tell anyone, Tilly," I promised. "Not a word, not to Joseph,
not to our sisters—" (This last part was a lie. I would have told you the
first opportunity I had to get my hands on a pen.) I truly meant
it about not telling Joseph. Had the old Joseph found out she'd been assaulted,
the men involved would be hanged. This new Joseph who has chosen to let a
sergeant show disrespect might not mete out punishment. Besides, I didn't need
Joseph. At that moment I sincerely believed that I would find someway to kill
any man who hurt Tilly in that way myself. I still believe it but am deeply
grateful I was not called upon to test it. "I've not
been touched," Tilly said. This was spoken in a rational tone and I
believed her. "Tell me
what happened." This is a question that becomes all too common when one
lives with our sister. "I had ...
I went... I needed..." The silly
creature was trying to think of a way to get around the fact she'd been to the
conspirators' cell alone. Saving her the effort and me the time, I said:
"Went to Dr. Mudd's cell without me." "Yes,"
she admitted. "And not
for the first time." She looked at me with such surprise, had my generosity
not been taxed by the day she'd forced upon me I might have laughed. Not ready to
confess yet, she went on without addressing it. "Dr. Mudd wanted to see me
about something important, he said." "How did
he say?" I demanded. "Did he send a message?" Tilly realized
the thin ice she walked on only when she heard it cracking. Not only Mudd but
any soldier or inmate who assisted him could be whipped for carrying messages
to a child of an officer without the express permission of that officer. Rather than
lie, she said nothing. I say that to her credit. On looking back, I do not
believe Tilly to have told a single falsehood—at least not in words and at her
tender age the nuances of deceit, omission, allowing presumption, half truths
and misleading statements still seem to dwell on the side of godliness if only
just barely. Sam Arnold's warning came back to me then. He'd said Dr. Mudd was
taking advantage of Tilly's admiration of him, using her for his own ends. "Go
on," I said when it was clear my ominous silence and baleful stare were
not going to coerce any more out of her on the subject of Dr. Mudd's summons. "I went
there—to Dr. Mudd—and we talked." "What
about?" At first I thought she wasn't going to tell me but would add it to
the list of secrets that were aging us both far more efficiently than the
passage of time ever could. A light came into her eyes and she leaned in toward
me, lips parted. She wanted to tell me—tell someone. The secret was positively
dancing a jig on the tip of her tongue. Still she hesitated. My guess was she'd
been told by our illustrious prisoner not to. This time my
hopeful silence worked. "You must
promise not to tell," she insisted. Of course I
promised, but with every intention of breaking it, and so endangering my
immortal soul, should keeping Tilly's secret place her in harm's way. "Dr. Mudd
is innocent," she whispered triumphantly. I didn't
respond to that. It was not much of a secret. He'd been insisting on it since
the beginning, and Tilly had been saying much the same thing, thus earning the
ill will of union soldiers and sympathizers at the fort. She seemed to take my
silence as ignorance because she leaned ever closer, till our foreheads were
nearly touching. "He didn't
do it, he didn't have anything to do with the assassination of poor Mr.
Lincoln." "I know
what you meant," I said with some asperity. "You told the soldiers as
much after you left his cell, did you not?" Again she gave
me that look of foolish astonishment, amazed that an adult might have done
homework of her own. "Yes. But
I now have the proof of it." "Do you
have it with you?" I asked. I must take
back what I said about her never having lied outright. She did so twice. This
was the first. "No,"
she told me and had the decency to turn her head away to save me the disrespect
of lying to my face. There was
little I could do short of wrestling her down in the dust and searching her
pockets and person, so I let it pass. I changed the
subject. "How did you scrape the back of your hand? It's bleeding." This was the
second lie: "I fell." I waited in
hopes she would see the error of her ways and tell me the truth, but she
didn't. "I came
out of the cell and Sergeant Sinapp and some of his men were loitering
there," she volunteered, as if this late and little bit of honesty would
wipe away the other. "I don't know if they were waiting for me or if
they'd gathered in that particular place by chance. That sergeant—I hate him,
Raffia. I know Molly says it's wrong to hate and I don't think I've ever hated
anyone before, not truly, but I hate Sergeant Sinapp." She looked at
me, waiting for a reprimand I expect, but as that would have been the pot
calling the kettle black, I said nothing. "Anyway,
he started saying things about my being in with the prisoners, awful things
that just aren't true but are no less hurtful and hateful because they're
lies." Tears filled her eyes again. I ignored it.
"So you told him why you'd really been there," I said. "Yes." "To gather
evidence—proof—that the man condemned by the highest court in the union after
weeks of testimony and evidence was actually and against all odds
innocent." "Yes." "And that
you had this proof." "Oh,
Raffia," she burst out. "He was so awful and so smug and
superior." "Tilly, if
Dr. Mudd really did have proof of his innocence, don't you think he would have
brought it up at the trial rather than wait till he was incarcerated a million
miles from home and then entrust it to a sixteen-year-old Yankee girl?" "But he
didn't have it then. Don't you see?" she pleaded. "So here
on a key made of sand in a fort he's never been to before he found something
that exonerates him. That makes no sense, Tilly." "No.
No," she said. "He didn't find it, it came." "In the
mail?" Tilly seemed to
think she'd told me too much. Her face, open with enthusiasm moments before,
grew still and closed. I tried a
different argument. "If he'd gotten something that could win him his
freedom, don't you think he would have called Joseph immediately? Why the
secrecy? Why give it to you?" "He didn't
want it destroyed." "By
whom?" I asked, but Tilly wouldn't tell me any more. Clearly any and all
persons but for herself were cast as the destroyers. I gave up. "When you
came out of the cell, what did he do, Sergeant Sinapp?" "I hate
him," she repeated with even more vehemence than the first few times.
"He said, 'Let me see it.' I started to leave and he grabbed at me. Then
they were all grabbing at me and I got away and ran. The others stayed but he
came after me. I heard a crash and some cursing but I didn't look back. I kept
running. I think he tripped over one of the cats that likes to sun itself on
the stored lumber." She was quiet for a moment, then she added: "I've
always liked cats. Do you think we might feed them?" I laughed then,
and she knew she'd won me over for the time being. "I like cats too,"
I told her. "Let's get you home." With spit and spanking I managed to
get enough of the dust and the mud her tears had made of it off of her face and
clothes that we would not invite comments when we crossed the parade ground. Back in our
rooms I put Luanne in a foul humor by ordering a tub filled though it was
Wednesday. The bath was partly because I do love our troublesome sibling and
partly because I wished to search her dress. I did not let her out of my sight
between leaving the powder room and seeing her naked in the bath. I did search
her pockets but, by the willingness with which she turned the garments over to
me, I knew I would find nothing. Because she'd
lied to me and because she had something she didn't want me to find, she
watched me as closely as I watched her. I'd hoped to leave her alone in the tub
so I might slip back to the powder room and see if I could find this spurious
"proof" she'd been given. Tilly kept me
at her side, first washing her back then brushing her hair dry. She insisted we
have tea. I don't think she knew what was in my mind and hoped to keep me away
from the powder room where I'm convinced she hid this "proof." (Why
else would her hands be scraped raw? I believe she shoved whatever it was
beneath the scrap lumber when she heard me calling.) No, for all her practicing
at deceit, I believe she kept me beside her because she is young and afraid and
her older sisters are the only parents she has known. It was bedtime
and full dark before she would let me out of her sight. Before she
awoke the following morning I was up and dressed and wending my way back to the
middle of the northern rampart on the second tier. With me I had fish scraps to
reward the pussycats that had brought down Sergeant Sinapp. The kittens are so
adorable, one nearly all white but for a gray mark in the shape of a thumbprint
on its head. I was tempted to bring it home, but I know Joseph would fly into a
rage. I don't think I told you, but I tried it once before with a little
gray-and-white tabby I'd named Pandora. Joseph raged and I let him and kept my
cat for two days. She was gone on the third morning. Joseph had drowned her. Joseph's hatred
of cats stems, he says, from the fact that they are secretive beasts. Personally
I cannot conceive of a creature with a brain the size of a walnut being that
much cleverer than I, but to each his own. Perhaps it is a territorial thing.
If cats are secretive then Joseph is the greatest torn of them all. He has
never been forthcoming but of late he has been hiding things, I know it. Though
never open with me, he's not deemed his activities—or my feelings—worthy of
keeping things hidden before. This has changed. The other day, after a ship
from the mainland came with mail, the fort went quiet while we all ran to pore
over news from outside. I was sequestered in the bedroom, delighting in all
your news from home, when I remembered I'd not given Luanne instructions for
dinner. Lest I forget completely I decided to do it at once so I might enjoy my
afternoon with you in clear conscience. Joseph was at
his desk in a widening of the hallway between our room and Tilly's, reading the
letters he had received. When I came out of the bedroom—burst out, rather, as I
was keen to execute my duty and get back to you—he shoved the letter he was
holding inside his vest and snatched up another which he then pretended (rather
badly) to be engrossed in. Knowing it
would avail me nothing but cold stares and colder silences, I did not confront
him about it. I cannot but think he has taken a lover. Why else would he hide a
letter from me? If she is from Key West, or the mainland proper, he must have
met her some time ago, yet this is the first evidence of it I've had. Though you most
kindly pretend otherwise, I know you think little of my husband. This is my
fault. I've used your shoulder to cry on when we had the usual peccadilloes of
the professional soldier. Still, I have deep feelings for him, and the thought
that one of these dalliances has survived, grown into a true relationship, hurt
me. Probably it was something else entirely. Orders that cannot be shared or
some such. Regardless, with Joseph hiding letters and Tilly secreting
"proofs," I am beginning to feel I live in a house of secrets. That
there is another life than the one I know flowing silently below the surface
and, at any time, the barrier between the two could weaken and I could suddenly
find myself plunged into events for which I am not prepared frightens me. Other than a
lovely few minutes watching the kittens devour my offerings, the journey was a
disappointment. The previous evening the powder room had been filled with
cannon barrels, wheels, pins and other pieces of ordnance. A worker, one of the
colored boys used by the builder, said they'd no use for them now and the
powder room was the only place they wouldn't be eaten up by rust right off. The
lumber pile had not been moved. The iron parts had been dumped atop of it
higgledy-piggledy. Without enlisting the help of half a dozen strong men I
could not shift it to look beneath the pile. My curiosity
was not fated to be satisfied. It is my hope that this will be the end of the
matter. If I cannot move the pieces of machinery then Tilly surely cannot.
Should the mysterious "proof" be buried beneath it she will either
have to tell Joseph so he can have it exhumed or she will have to leave it alone.
Either would be acceptable to me. As I was
returning from this fruitless visit, picking my way through the lumber and
unused brick where the kittens make their home, I heard a disturbance from the
direction of Joel and the conspirators' cells. Curious, I hurried through the
bastion to see what was causing the noise. With the powder room, Joseph's
letter and the cats, I could not but think of the old saw about curiosity
killing, but it didn't slow my steps. The door to
Joel's casemate cell stood open, moving slightly as if it had just been passed
through in haste. From within came the sound of men fighting in close quarters.
It occurs to me as I write this that over the years I have grown able to tell
the different sorts of altercations by their sounds. This did not sound lethal,
merely the thumps and grunts expected at the tail end of a fight between
unequal adversaries. Unbecoming as
I'm sure it was, I went to the door and looked in. Joel leaned against the
windowless wooden wall covering the arch overlooking the parade ground. The
door in the small arch to his left, the one leading into the cell of Sam Arnold
and Dr. Mudd, was open. Two soldiers pushed Mr. Arnold against the brick of the
archway surrounding the communicating door. From the blood pouring out of his
nose and the split in his lower lip it appeared they had been none too gentle. "If it
were up to me I'd just as soon let you bastards kill each other," said the
soldier, whom I recognized as my overweight secret smoker of the other day. He
was no longer the amiable lifer but was taut and alive with a fierceness I
never would have expected. He had his forearm across Mr. Arnold's throat and held
the man's right wrist pinned against the wall. A young soldier, smaller in
stature—not much taller than I—struggled to hold Mr. Arnold's left arm. Dr. Mudd was in
the far corner beneath the three high, narrow slits on the harbor side, one
hand held over his left ear as though it was injured. With the other he held
the wrist of the ear-clutching hand. Very melodramatic. I thought that of his
pose and expression as well: a picture of wounded innocence. "You bunch
are a goddamn fu—" the old soldier began. "Mrs.
Coleman," Mr. Arnold said quickly and loudly, saving the soldier from
committing an offense—or imagined offense. I have heard the rough language of
army men for so many years I have to remember to look appalled in order they
not lose respect for their captain's wife. The fight, what
little of it remained, went out of soldiers and conspirator alike—and to think
I once scoffed at the much-touted civilizing powers of the gentler sex.
"Mrs. Coleman." My old fat friend acknowledged me with a nod of the
head. Not for a
moment did he loose his hold on Mr. Arnold. The younger soldier dropped Mr.
Arnold's arm to pay his respects. A difference in experience, I expect.
Fortunately for the young man, Mr. Arnold did not intend him harm. "You gonna
behave now?" the older soldier asked. Mr. Arnold nodded and, still
watching and alert, the soldier lowered his arm from his throat, let loose his
wrist, and backed away. For the oddest
moment we all simply looked at one another. What behavior we expected in that
stuffy cell in the midst of the sea I cannot say. Dr. Mudd ended our peculiar
paralysis. "I request
you take me to your surgeon. I fear my ear has been seriously injured," he
said in his formal and overblown way. My old smoking
soldier jumped. I believe until that moment he had completely forgotten about
Mudd, he had kept himself so still and deep in the shadows of a shadowy room. "It would
serve you right if you got hydrophobia and died," he growled at Dr. Mudd.
"Next time you two decide to kill each other, unless you go an' do it
quiet like, I'll personally kill you both for making me come up here." "Death
would be preferable to serving a life sentence with a whiner and a thief,"
Sam Arnold snarled. You might laugh
at me, Peggy, for using "snarled" and "growled" and
"snapped" when describing the conversations of men, but being in that
cell was so like being in a pen with dogs standing one another off over a bone
that I cannot think of another way to describe how they spoke to one another. After the brief
exchange, the old soldier blew out a prodigious sigh. The hackles he'd raised
in his role as vicious fighting man fell away, age and humanity took their
place. "And what
was it was took from you?" he asked of Mr. Arnold. I had the sense it was
not the first time the question had been put. Mr. Arnold said
nothing for a moment. The first time in my memory of him he stood straight and
strong, shoulders back, not slouching or leaning. Just when I thought he was
not going to answer, he said: "He stole
a personal item of mine." "And just
what might that 'personal item' be?" the soldier asked. Mr. Arnold
ground his teeth. Not only could I see the muscles of his jaw working, I could
hear the awful grating sound. Perhaps this is what is meant by
"gnashing." "He took it from my mail," Mr. Arnold said.
"Tampering with the mails is a serious offense." Mudd laughed.
The humor was bitter but his laughter wasn't unkind so much as sad. "What
would you have them do, Sam? Add twenty years to my life sentence? Were that
true you would have discovered the secret to eternal life." "We'll
search him," the old soldier said wearily. "Will that keep you from
cuttin' up and throwing the furniture, such as it is?" "Search
him," Mr. Arnold said. "We got to
search him for something. We ain't gonna just turn out his pockets so's you can
pick and choose. What're we looking for? A ring, a pork chop,
eyeglasses—what?" Mr. Arnold
refused to speak. "Suit
yourself. Come on, doctor, we'll get your ear looked at though I'm of half a
mind to rip it clear off just to work off the irritation you two caused
me." On impulse I
asked if I might stay a minute to look after Joel. The slight young private was
left to see to me, and the others left, closing the door behind them. "What did
he take from you, Mr. Arnold?" Why I thought he would tell me what he had
withheld from the soldiers I do not know, but I did. In this I was wrong. "Please
excuse me, Mrs. Coleman," he said and retired to his own cell, shutting
the communicating door. I turned to
where Private Lane cowered against the wall. "Cower" is too strong a
word and sounds as if I think of him unkindly. That is not the case. Since
his terrible beating he is a very different boy. Before Sinapp nearly killed
him, he was a joyous boy on his way to becoming a strong man. Now he
seems only and always a boy, and the joyousness is replaced by watchfulness and
too great a dependence on those he feels to be his friends: Dr. Mudd, Tilly and
me. "Joel?" I said. "Are you all right?" "Yes,
ma'am. It was nothing to do with me." "Come over
here; sit in the light where I can look at you," I said. Obediently he
came to where I waited in the dull light from high openings. I'd spoken before
I'd thought. The cell contained but a single stool made of scrap lumber. A gift
from one of the guards. He fetched it
for me then knelt so I needn't look up at him. "What was
this about?" "I don't
really know. Sam and the doctor been at odds since I got here. Lately the
doctor's been hectoring Sam about him being innocent. You'd think Sam would
know whether he was or not, wouldn't you?" I nodded to
keep him talking. "Today Sam
went wild over something. I heard him screaming and breaking the little bits of
furniture, calling the doctor a thief and the doctor calling him names and
saying, 'You would have me die with scum like you' and other things. Then the
guards came." "You don't
know what was stolen?" I asked. He shifted
uncomfortably. The brick was beginning to hurt his knees. I wanted to keep his
attention for a while longer so I didn't give him leave to rise. "I don't
even know that a thing was stolen," he told me. "You mean
Mr. Arnold lied? To what end?" I did not believe for a minute Mr. Arnold
lied. His face was too full of emotion for that. "No. Not
lied," Joel said. "Dr. Mudd took something but maybe not a thing. Maybe
information or an idea or a secret. I say that because Sam tore the room up and
pretty much handled Dr. Mudd till the soldiers came. I think he'd have found a thing.
Where could anybody hide anything here?" He shrugged at the unforgiving
brick and hoard around, above and below us. I said nothing
but it struck me that Sam Arnold's property might have been stolen earlier and
he'd only just this morning noticed it missing. Were that the case, I knew well
where this thing could have been hidden. In my little sister's pocket. 21 Anna indulged herself
in an early and quiet evening. She read Raffia's letters, then went to bed
before dark. The following morning she woke, feeling more clearheaded than she
had in days. For the first
time since she'd come to the Keys, the morning wasn't bright and sunny. A stiff
breeze blew out of the southeast. The sky was heavy with dark clouds and, where
they broke open, she could see paler gray clouds above, long, stretched, mare's
tails that told of winds at high altitudes. In the office
she turned the radio on and tuned it to the marine weather frequency. Rain and
winds to thirty knots. Small craft warnings were out. No hurricane. Anna was
disappointed. Had she been a shore-bound homeowner she'd have been relieved.
Out on Garden Key the fort had withstood a hundred and fifty years of storms
with little damage. The rangers liked hurricanes; they blew the tourists away. Feeling snug
behind fifteen feet of brick wall, she took out the photograph she'd studied
the day before. Just to be sure
residual drugs in her bloodstream weren't making her see things, she downloaded
the pictures she had taken of the corpse Bob Shaw kept company with on East
Key. Sure enough, on
the dead man's calf was the same tattoo as in the snapshot of Theresa and two
Hispanic men she'd pilfered from Lanny's house. Given this tattoo was the mark
of a brotherhood of smugglers, as Florida law enforcement said, it was safe to
assume more than one man had it. The height, weight, hair length and coloring
of the corpse and Ms. Alvarez's companion also matched. It was the same
guy. Anna turned
from the photos to let her mind clear. The runaway girlfriend had spoken with
the man on the Scarab hauling fuel. Theresa was Cuban. It was a good bet in
this part of the country the two Hispanic men with her were Cuban as well. The
second man might very well be the fellow whose penis and hand rested in cold
storage in the researchers' dorm. Garden Key was a small place. The three of
them might have met by chance, gathered together in birds-of-a-feather mode to
speak their native language or exchange recipes. Anna doubted
it. The men killed in the Scarab's explosion were here for reasons other than
socializing. It was their knee-jerk reaction to run from the law in the person
of Ranger Shaw, which brought about the original blast. They must have had a
pressing reason to come to the docks and beaches where rangers lurked, a
pressing need to talk with Theresa. Anna flipped
over the photograph of Ms. Alvarez and the men to check the date. The picture
had been printed in Key West a week or so after Theresa left Lanny. Anna called
up the prior month's duty roster. Lanny had his days off the week the photo was
printed. The timing was right but what mattered was when the photo was taken. Again she
dialed Lanny's number. Anita answered, and after a minute of cajoling went to
fetch her patient or master—Anna still wasn't sure what sort of place Lanny was
living in. At length his
voice came over the phone. Anna thought he sounded marginally sharper, but
sufficient time had not passed for the antipsychotics to wear off even if he
remembered not to keep taking them. No other avenue
open, she asked her questions, couching each in simple descriptive language to
help him remember. Since he was in a particularly suggestible state, she had to
concentrate on her words lest she create a false memory for him. The talk,
though mumbling, often slurred and beset by meanderings, was not completely a
waste of time. Lanny might remember the picture. He might have taken it
himself. He must have had it developed on his lieu days if that's what the date
was. If all that could be so, then it might have been the roll he finished up
the day before Theresa left. Not exactly
testimony Anna would want to put before a jury. The radio
crackling snatched her out of this morass of thoughts. "Hey Anna,
it's Patrice, are you there?" the lighthouse keeper said. Though Patrice
and Donna had been coming to Loggerhead one month a summer for many years, and Patrice
had once been a police officer, they refused to use proper radio protocol. It
was a point of pride with them. "I'm
here," Anna said and smiled. The rebel women made the male-created radio
protocol seem foolish: boys playing at being soldiers. "While
Donna was up in the lighthouse fiddling with something greasy she spotted
another one of your go-fast boats. Thought you might want to know." Go-fast boats
weren't a rarity in the Dry Tortugas but neither were they the usual fare.
Recent events made this sighting of interest. Anna jotted down the color of the
boat and the direction it had been heading, thanked Patrice and went back to
her telephoning, this time tracking down the owner of the green boat. Since
she'd turned this particular task over to Lieutenant George Henriquez in Key
West, she was relegated to the job of nag. Accepting the new role, she dialed
his number. Luck was on her
side; George was in and answering his phone. It might have been her imagination
or her inborn cynicism, but it seemed with each new invention developed to make
communication easier—call waiting, forwarding, voice mail, fax, pagers, cell
phones—the more difficult it became to get in touch with anyone. "Hey
George, Anna Pigeon out at Dry Tortugas." She heard a sigh and a scuffle
and knew her projects had not been on the top of Lieutenant Henriquez's
undoubtedly daunting To Do list. He was kind
enough to be apologetic instead of peevish. He'd faxed the registration number
she'd gotten off the engine to Manny Silva in the coast guard office. He gave
her Mr. Silva's direct number and the extension. On the Theresa Alvarez thing
he'd gotten a few numbers, which he passed on to her. The boat
registration could wait. Theresa's connection to the men on the boat would not.
Anna dialed the first of the numbers Lieutenant Henriquez had given her, a Mrs.
Alvarez, Theresa's aunt on her father's side. Mrs. Alvarez
was home. No number menu to punch, no machine; a human voice. The woman's
English was not the best and Anna's Spanish was rudimentary, but they managed. Anna introduced
herself and said why she was calling. Through a patient sifting of words in two
languages and the aggravating delays on the line, Anna pieced together a short
and unenlightening story. Theresa was happy with Lanny. She'd never mentioned
leaving him. She'd never come home. According to the aunt, Theresa was a good
girl, "never in no trouble," and had strong ties with her community.
"Everybody love our Theresa. She always doing for people." Theresa was not
an American citizen but was in Florida legally. When Anna asked after Theresa's
mother, father and Mrs. Alvarez herself regarding the immigration issues, the
aunt suddenly lost what English she had. Out of
questions and Mrs. Alvarez frightened into "Si" and "No comprendo,"
Anna was about to begin her thank-yous when Theresa's aunt had a sudden
attack of confidences. "Something
bad happened. Theresa don't just not come home. And she don't walk out on
Lanny. When Willy he introduces them, Theresa seemed not to care, like she's
pretending. But Theresa loved that Lanny even he's an old man for her and not
rich. Something bad happened." Anna tended to
agree that something bad had happened to Theresa. "I'll look into
it," she promised and put the receiver back in its cradle, not much wiser
than before she'd made the translingual call. Before she'd
had time to let go of the receiver, her mind clicked back to Mrs. Alvarez's
last remarks. "When Willy introduced them." Willy, William. "Shit,"
Anna said, picked the receiver back up, and hit redial. "This is
Ranger Pigeon again, Mrs. Alvarez," Anna said as soon as the other woman
picked up. "Hallo?" Realizing she'd
rattled her words so quickly Mrs. Alvarez probably wouldn't have understood
even if English had been her first language, Anna repeated herself at a more
genteel pace. "Yes?"
During the second Anna'd needed to reach epiphany Mrs. Alvarez had thought
better of talking openly with government authorities. "Who did
you say introduced Lanny and Theresa?" Anna asked. "Willy, he
introduce them," she said guardedly. Anna wanted
Willy's last name but had a hunch her calling back so abruptly had scared Mrs.
Alvarez more than a little. "Is Willy American?" Anna asked.
"I'm not from immigration, Mrs. Alvarez, and I don't want to cause anybody
trouble. I just want to find Theresa. I think this Willy may know something. Is
he an American?" "Oh yes.
He is an American now," Mrs. Alvarez replied. Anna felt a
pang of disappointment strong enough it was physical. She had been so sure she
was onto something, she was tempted to think Theresa's aunt was lying, but
she'd answered with such enthusiasm Anna believed her. Basically decent people
preferred to tell the truth and often grew angry when backed into a corner they
had to lie their way out of. It was exactly the opposite with those who were
not basically decent. Willy was not born in America. He was originally a
citizen of Cuba. To finish up the charade Anna would ask another couple of
questions and move on. "So Willy came here when he was little? With his
folks?" "No. No.
His parents they got killed. This lady—nice lady, she been dead a long time
now—he call Tia Blanche—Auntie Blanche—she raised him up. Such a sad
little boy. You would cry to see him. Marks of those chingalas still on
his body." Anna sat up
from the slump her disappointment had lured her into. "What marks?" "This was
a long time ago when Castro he throw out all the Americans and snatch lands.
Some of his men they tortured this little boy. Willy never said but Blanche tell
me they whip him over and over with barbed wire to try and make a baby tell
them where his mama and papa hide. Then they kill them." Without
realizing she did so, Anna put her free hand over her eyes as if it would help
to block out the image in her mind. To torture a child with a brutal beating
that would leave scars in body and mind was evil. To force that child to betray
his parents to their deaths was unspeakable. It would almost have been kinder
to kill him. Barbed wire.
Her hunch about Willy was correct. "The little boy was born in Cuba?"
Anna asked. "Yes, but
his papa was American so Willy is an American, too, without taking no
tests." "Willy—William—Macintyre." "Si.
Macintyre. His papa's name." William
Macintyre, Mack, the man who said he'd been born into land and money but had it
stripped from him. The man with old scars on his back and legs scars he'd said
he'd gotten in prison when he had no felony record, the boy who'd been whipped
with barbed wire by guards in a Cuban prison before he was six years old. "Gracias,
Senora Alvarez," Anna said politely and returned the earpiece to its
cradle. Mack had more
depth to him than she had suspected. He was born in Cuba and raised in a Cuban
neighborhood in Miami. The same neighborhood as Theresa Alvarez. Anna'd thought
he'd met Theresa here at the fort. He'd never said otherwise—apparently not to
anyone. Surely if he had, with all the talk there'd been of Theresa's
absconding with the Supervisory Ranger's heart, somebody would have mentioned
it. Theresa was
photographed talking with two men, one bearing a smuggler's tattoo Anna'd later
seen on a dead man. Odds were good that Theresa had known these men prior to
moving to Garden Key. Had Mack known them as well? Anna considered
calling Lanny Wilcox again to see if she could get the details out of him:
where and when he'd met Theresa, if he knew she was more than a chance
acquaintance of Mack's, whether or not the course of true love had run smooth,
and, possibly most important, whose idea had it been that Theresa come to live
with him on Garden Key. The state of Wilcox's brain dissuaded her. He wouldn't
be able to tell her much, and what he did divulge would be highly suspect. Anna put in a
call to the Chief Ranger in Homestead. This time she did have to push menu
buttons, speak with a secretary and sit on hold for a while. When Flescher came
on the line Anna told him what she needed. "You're bound to have more
clout than I do," she said. "Can you work it out?" "I'll call
you back." He hung up
before Anna had finished the bye in goodbye. She didn't know whether he was in
a rush to get right on it or whether he needed time to decide whether or not to
waste his credit with the local FBI on the say-so of some lady ranger out of
Mississippi who had a reputation for stirring up trouble. For forty-five
minutes Anna waited by the phone. She didn't dare make any calls to follow up
on the engine serial number lest she tie up the line. She couldn't leave the
office for fear she would miss the call. Her mind was too scrambled to focus on
anything else. To keep herself from pacing and rehearsing the four-letter words
she'd learned after hours at Mercy High School, she clipped her nails, ordered
Lanny's desk drawer and worked three crossword puzzles gleaned from a stack of
old newspapers piled beside the coffee machine. When the phone
finally rang, she pounced upon it with such alacrity she knocked the receiver
to the floor and had to drag it up by the cord. "Dry
Tortugas National Park." "What are
you doing? Playing hockey using the phone as a puck?" It was Chief
Ranger Arnie Flescher. "Can you
do it?" "Let's
slow down," he said. Those words,
spoken by a superior, usually segued into "No." Anna made a
point to say nothing, not the teensiest little peep that would give away the
fact she was not really a team player. "Cliff and
the Activa will be out in a couple days. Why don't you hold off till
then? Send the dead boatman's hand in and ID can be done in proper order at the
lab. Finding out who these guys were has got to be attempted, but there's no
rush on it that I can see." Anna ran a
quick check to make sure no snide words or sarcastic edges tainted words or
tone, then said: "I think they may have had some-thing to do with the
disappearance of Theresa Alvarez. I found a picture of her and the man Bob
tried to rescue." "Disappearance?
I thought she ran off. Is this the guy she ran off with? We don't want to get a
thick finger stirring in the domestic pot." "Maybe she
didn't run off." "I don't
want to hear this." "How was
it decided she'd run out on Lanny? Who said that? Lanny?" There was a
jumble of words as the chief and she talked over one another, forgetting the
one-second wait the phone system levied. "I don't
know," the chief said at last. "It was just sort of known the way
those things are." "If she
ran off she didn't take much with her and, according to her aunt, never showed
up anywhere." "Nope.
Didn't want to hear that. Check it out." "That's
what I need your help with." Several ticks
of the big wall clock went by, the red second hand seeming to pause to gather
its courage before each jump. "This is news," the chief said. His
voice was sufficiently neutral Anna guessed he was pissed off. Chief
rangers—the good ones—do not like being kept in the dark. "I just
saw the picture," Anna said. "And I talked to Mrs. Alvarez only a few
minutes before I called you. I mean, I'd seen the photo before, but I didn't
recognize the guy till just now." Probably
because he wanted results, he didn't question her story. "Okay," he
said after a bit of thought that came at Anna in edged silences. "Here's
what you do. No guarantees. It depends on how good the prints you lift are. The
submersion in water may be a help. It sort of puffs things up." Though the
instructions were short and simple, Anna wrote them down. She had no intention
of screwing this up. Finally free of
the phone, she collected her fingerprinting kit and returned to the
researchers' dorm. As she turned the key to let herself in. she had the sudden
and horrible thought that the hand, her only way of finding out the identity of
the man blown to smithereens on the green Scarab, would be gone. In her naivetй
she'd not secured the body parts, not even thought of them as evidence and had
made no effort to lock them up. Anyone at the fort could easily get the key to
the dorm if they didn't already have one. Her fears were
unfounded. Sitting in the refrigerator, palm up in lonely supplication, was the
most important remaining part of what had once been a human being. Having had
his penis severed, the victim might not have agreed with her assessment on the
varying levels of importance, but there were no national data banks for finding
matches to penis prints. From the rough
and disengaged life these five fingers had suffered, the skin was perilously
loose, and Anna handled the thing with extreme care. Using black ink, she would
print only the thumb. Her knowledge of how printing worked after death and
submersion was sketchy at best. Should her method somehow destroy the skin of
the thumb, she wanted to leave the other four fingers for a technician more
schooled than she. Had the hand
been newly dead, firm of flesh, she might have lifted the print on sticky tape.
As it was she feared the tape would pull away flesh as well as ink. When she
gripped the back of the hand to roll the thumb, she had a bad moment. Till then
the hand had been merely an object of study. Feeling the give of the flesh, the
familiar bone structure beneath, it reverted to a macabre chunk of a
once-living person. Revulsion would have had her throw it away with a girlish
shriek. Closing her eyes, she let the impulse pass, then carefully rolled out
three prints. The first two were smudged. She'd used too much ink. The last was
good. Because it
seemed wrong not to do so, disrespectful or at least untidy, she gently wiped
the digit free of ink before restoring it to its temperature-controlled
sarcophagus. Following the
chief ranger's instructions, she scanned the print into the computer and
e-mailed it to the man he'd recommended at the FBI office in Miami. Chief
Ranger Flescher had worked with the agent a time or two and knew the man to be
an avid diver. Anything that helped keep the park pristine he was glad to do. Anna also faxed
him a copy, though the final printout probably wouldn't be clear enough to
read. Mission
accomplished, she returned to her station at the phone. Ironically, never a big
fan of telephones, she had spent a good bit of her life on them. Molly, whom
she saw once a year if she was lucky, stayed close in mind and heart over the
phone. The last semiserious relationship she'd had with a man—an FBI agent now
married to her sister—had been conducted largely over the telephone. Still, she
hated it as a woman on life support might come to detest the tubes and pumps
that kept her among the living. Knowing herself
destined to live with this love/hate relationship for many more years, Anna
dialed Manny Silva, Lieutenant Henriquez's contact in the coast guard. Her run
of luck was at an end. Silva was out. She left a message on his voice mail and
went home. Fortified with an egg-salad sandwich and a coke, she hurried back
toward the office. It surprised
her that the day was still gray, that the wind still blew. Crossing the parade
ground, a few spatters of rain hit her face. Anna loved wild weather and threw
her arms out as if to catch it. Wind made her crazy, like a cat in autumn
leaves. An exhilarating sense of expectation. A hurricane would have been
grand. The thought engendered a stab of guilt. Not all that many years ago
Hurricane Andrew had devastated the town of Homestead. Park employees living
there lost everything. Most didn't stay to rebuild but scattered to parks
across the country. The demoralizing effect had been felt by the entire
service. Still and
all... a hurricane would have been grand. Having checked
the answering machine to satisfy herself that she hadn't missed Manny Silva's
call, she settled down with the old crossword puzzles. Puzzles were
done. Anna knew way more than she'd ever wanted to concerning what the paper in
Key West considered news. Finally, the phone deigned to ring. It wasn't
Manny. It was Agent Tad Bronson of the FBI office in Miami. Before he would
give Anna any information, she was forced to pay for it by talking dives and
fishes and wrecks for a quarter of an hour. By bringing to bear what rudiments
of southern hospitality she'd picked up in Mississippi, she managed not to
snap, "Cut to the chase" even once. Finally her
patience was rewarded. "But I guess we've frittered away enough of the
taxpayers' money on blue water. You'll be wanting to know about your
fingerprints. Where'd you find this guy anyway?" Anna paid
another installment on the coveted information by telling Tad of the explosion,
dives and body parts recovery. "Well, we
got a match on your boy," he said when she'd answered half a dozen
questions on gear, water clarity and scavenger fishes. 'Bout goddamn
time. "What did you turn up?" "Guy's
name is Ramon Diego, born in Cuba, came to the U.S. at the age of twelve with
his mother. Became a citizen at twenty-two. No wants, no warrants. His prints
were on file because he and his mom entered the U.S. illegally. Mother and son
were kept in a holding area by immigration for a couple of months. That's where
his prints got into the system." "Anything
else on him?" Anna asked. "Nope, he
lived a good clean life since coming to the promised land. No trouble. He
hasn't gotten so much as a DUI, according to the records. I do have the DOB.
According to his birth date, your guy would have been forty-three day before
yesterday." "I hope
the fishes blew out the candles before they ate him," Anna said. "What do
you want this guy for?" "I don't
know yet," she said truthfully. "But he was up to something."
Anna promised him the rest of the story next time he came to the park to dive,
and he allowed her to disconnect. Leaning back
till two chair legs left the floor, Anna put her feet on Lanny Wilcox's desk.
Thought came more easily when the body was disconnected from the earth. Two
guys on a go-fast boat. One probably knew Theresa Alvarez. No ID on him yet.
Prints probably not in the system. A tattoo supposedly favored by smugglers.
The other guy on the boat was a Cuban refugee-become-U.S.-citizen. Given his
age, he would have lived in Cuba around the time Castro threw out the landowning
Americans, including William Macintyre's parents. Anna didn't know Mack's age.
His skin was so sun-damaged it was impossible to tell. If he were younger than
he looked, it was possible he'd met Diego either in Cuba when he was a little boy
or in the refugee holding area in Florida. She put her
feet back on the floor. Too much speculation with too few facts. Nothing
suggested Mack knew the men killed on the green boat, only that he knew Theresa
and that she knew one of them. Picking up the
phone, she began punching in Manny Silva's number at the coast guard office.
The receiver hadn't even cooled off completely from her last call. Thinking
she'd probably end up with some bizarre fungus caused by holding damp plastic
against her ear for too many hours, she settled in to listen to the rings,
leave another message if need be. "Manny
Silva." "Hallelujah." "I beg
your pardon?" Manny Silva
sounded like a parody of the generic midwestern radio announcer. His voice held
none of the salsa or music implied by the name. Anna missed it, while being
glad communication would be facilitated. Explaining her
outburst would be a waste of time and she couldn't think of any way to do so
that wouldn't carry the insult of implying he should have gotten back to her
sooner. She let it
pass, introduced herself and reminded him that she was the lady who'd sent him
the boat engine registration number by way of Lieutenant Henriquez. "Yes. Yes.
We did get something on that. Hold, please." Anna would have
given up coffee for a week to see this man. He didn't say "yeah" it
was "yes" and his voice was so neutral and careful she pictured him
looking more like a Bob Johnson and suffering mild embarrassment that a
warmer-blooded ancestor had saddled him with a name he couldn't live up to. "Here. I
was going to call George with this. I didn't know there was a rush on it."
He left a short silence for Anna to apologize and tell him there was no rush. She'd taken
against his voice and said nothing. "The boat
was bought from the manufacturer by Eurico's Marine Supply in Miami. It was
purchased new in May of this year." "Anything
on who Enrico's sold it to?" "Inquiries
were made, but Enrico's was not forthcoming." Manny Silva was
not particularly forthcoming himself. "Could you
run it from the other end? If I gave you a name could you see if he had a boat
registered anywhere in Florida?" "Not
everyone registers, licenses or even names their boats for a variety of
reasons, not all of them criminal, but yes, I can do that." "Ramon
Diego," Anna said and waited. The faint clicking of fingers on a keyboard
passed the time. Manny evidently was not one to give out progress reports or
make small talk. "Nothing.
Many Diegos. No Ramon Diego." "How about
boats reported stolen?" "No. We
ran that automatically. Only one Scarab was reported. It was last year's model
and cherry-red in color. I suppose it could have been repainted and the year
written down wrong." "I'll
check into it," Anna said but she wouldn't. She'd pawed through enough
smithereens of the blasted boat, she was certain she would have noticed if
there'd been a coat of red paint beneath the green. She appreciated
he'd wasted none of her time with chitchat and thanked him with a degree of
genuine sincerity. Her
investigation had reached a dead end. On her lieu days she could rent a car and
drive up to Miami to question the people at Enrico's, but it would be a waste
of time. If they weren't telling the coast guard, they certainly weren't going
to tell her. With no crime but dying in a boat not your own, she was nowhere
near getting a subpoena. For a while she
sat like a lump, thinking of nothing at all. There were things she could do:
check out the boat Patrice had reported, start writing the reports on Bob's
injury and the loss of the Bay Ranger. None of the options struck her as
entertaining. Sitting in a dim air-conditioned room with the phone to her ear
had sapped her of motivation. A nap sounded good. Three fifteen.
The day was about shot anyway. There was
another call she could make, Anna realized. It was based on a hunch, but
an informed hunch. The pieces she'd collected came together. Mack—William
"Mack" Macintyre—and Theresa met in the Cuban neighborhood in Miami
where they had grown up. Once again she
dialed the number of Theresa's aunt. "Mrs.
Alvarez, it's Anna Pigeon with the National Park Service again." Anna
expected the woman to be irritated—as well she had a right to be. It was bad
practice to call a source over and over. An officer should have her
ducks in their assigned places in the row before making contact. Anna had
started out with only a couple ducks and no row. Fortunately
Mrs. Alvarez was not only cooperative but sounded glad to get a third call.
This welcome was fueled, Anna guessed, by the hope that finally the authorities
were going to find her wayward niece. Anna suffered a momentary stab of guilt
or sadness—the two had become so linked over the years she wasn't sure where
one stopped and the other began. Theresa would probably never be found. If she
were, it would be washed ashore on some lonely key, her body munched upon by
crabs. "One last
question," Anna promised. "Do you know if Theresa knew a man named
Ramon Diego?" "He was a
neighborhood boy." Mrs. Alvarez answered without hesitation. Anna wondered
how many long-established white residents had such a working knowledge of who
they lived and raised their children next door to. "Does he
still live there?" "No. Old
Mrs. Diego did till she died, but Ramon got a good job and I guess he travel
all the time. We didn't see him for long times." "Where did
he get the job?" Anna asked. "Some big
boat place. I think he sells boats but I don't know for sure." Again Anna
thanked her and rang off. A big boat place. The Scarab was originally sold to
Enrico's, which Anna had heard was a Cuban-owned and -operated marine supply in
Miami. Enrico's had been investigated for harboring and/or employing illegal
aliens. One more call, Anna promised
herself and reached for the phone. She didn't pick it up right away. Given
Enrico's checkered past with authority figures, particularly those
investigating the whereabouts and origins of Cuban immigrants, honesty would
probably not be the most productive policy. The employees might be laboring
under a double need for secrecy. Maybe they had something to hide and maybe,
where they came from, the police weren't nice people who were trained not to
hurt you if you didn't hurt them first. She toyed with
the idea of affecting a Spanish accent. From her years in Texas she was
actually quite good at it. The idea was quickly abandoned. If the accent wasn't
believed whoever answered would be put on guard. If it was they'd let loose in
rapid-fire Spanish and Anna'd be lost. She switched
personas, picked up the phone and dialed. "Enrico's
Marina. Buenos dias." The voice was heavily and unapologetically Hispanic. "Hey. This
is Anna Putnam. I need to talk to Ramon Diego. Can you get him for me?" "I'm sorry
we do not know no Ramon Diego." The woman said
this quickly and with the pat disinterest of someone uttering a standard
response. Anna doubted it was the truth. Or if it was, it was purely
coincidental. "Oh
pooh," Anna said. "It's his goddaughter. She's been asking for him.
This was the only place I knew to call. Shoot. She's only seven, and since the
accident..." Anna let that hang there, hoping Cuban Hispanics had the same
cultural love of family and children she'd noticed in Mexican-American women. For a moment
the woman said nothing, then she chose for the fictional child. "Give me
your number. He comes in, I have him call." Anna rattled
off a Miami area code and the first seven numbers that came to mind. Nobody
would be bothered; Ramon was through making telephone calls for this lifetime. The office had
grown dark. Living in the strange tunnels of telephone communications, Anna'd
not noticed the light going. She glanced at the wall clock expecting to find
half a day gone, but it was just after four. She walked to the window at the
parade-ground side of the walled-in case-mate and raised the blind. The sky was
low and fast and dark. The trees, usually so serene in their brick-walled
sanctuary, tossed their branches in wild celebration of the storm. Anna turned on
the office radio. It was already tuned to the weather frequency. Gale warnings.
Gusts to fifty knots, seas six to ten feet. The hurricane Anna'd hoped for was
not to be. She turned the radio off and sat down without bothering to turn on
the lights. Darkness at midday called on the ancient in her bones, filled her
with a sense of portents and omens. With the wild race of clouds and the trees
in jubilation, the foreboding swelled to a strange expectation—of what, she
didn't know. Placing both
hands palm down on Teddy's desk, she stared out the small window and let her
mind race with the wind. Theresa, Ramon Diego, Mack, all from the same
neighborhood. Diego and Mack both born in Cuba, both spending their first
months on American soil in immigration's custody. Diego employed by Enrico's, a
marine supply known for its connection with illegal aliens. Mack scarred at the
hands of the Cuban military. Theresa, always supportive "of her
people," introduced to Lanny by Mack. Theresa who seemed uninterested in
the older man but moved out to Fort Jefferson to live with him. Theresa who
fell in love with Lanny later on. Her first
mistake. Very probably her last. Then the
go-fast boat exploding twice, once from the haste of the pilot in his desire to
avoid law enforcement, the second time because the boat carried fuel. The boat
from Enrico's, piloted by a boyhood friend of Mack and Theresa. Theresa who was
photographed with a man wearing the tattoo alleged to be the mark of a
smuggler's gang. Patrice, on the
radio, telling Anna she'd seen a red go-fast boat headed east from Loggerhead.
The only Scarab reported stolen a red model. Had Anna been paying attention to
what was going on around her instead of keeping her ear and brain affixed to
the telephone, the obvious anomaly would have stuck her. The go-fast was
headed east, out to sea. A tropical storm watch had been on the radio since
morning. Small craft would have been fleeing for the coast. "Jesus
Christ," Anna muttered. "Not drugs." She headed for
the dock. 22 Following the
quarrel and the removal of Dr. Mudd, Mr. Arnold retired to his cell and closed
the door. When I'd done questioning Joel six ways from Sunday and learning
nothing more than that the row between Mrs. Mudd and Arnold had been the latter
calling the former a thief and the former accusing the latter of being
responsible for his prison woes, I determined to take the matter to Mr. Arnold,
closed door or no. My rapping and calling "Mr. Arnold" was made
somewhat easier by the fact that the cells at Fort Jefferson may very well end
up being a man's home but by no stretch of the imagination can they be considered
his castle. Mr. Arnold
opened the door and bowed ever so slightly but said nothing. I told him
about Tilly's experience with the union soldiers, how she'd boasted of having
proof of Mudd's innocence. Despite Molly's constant reminders about airing our dirty
linen in public, I told him that Tilly had been hiding papers or letters from
me—or that I believed she had—and that I believed she had carried something
away from his cell earlier and hidden it. Several times
he asked where I thought she might have hidden these supposed papers. Human
nature is a peculiar thing. The moment I came to believe the whereabouts of an
item or items regarding which he'd not yet confided in me were important to him
was the moment I decided not to tell him. This once I was determined to keep my
secrets, such as they were, till I found an honest person. After too much
cat's play, each of us batting at the crumpled bit of honesty we'd allowed
ourselves, Mr. Arnold told me the following. The mail had
come several days before. Both he and Dr. Mudd had received letters and
packages. This much I
know to be true—Tilly collected our mail then, from the guardroom where we
asked to be brought to Joel that day; she'd taken the conspirators' mail to
them. From here on I cannot say whether Mr. Arnold was telling me the truth or
not. I expect he was but only so much as he wanted me to know. Mr. Arnold went
on to say that he had received an important communiquй regarding personal
business. He'd left the document—he wouldn't trust me even to know if it
were letter, deed, last will and testament or an old bar bill—in what he
believed to be safekeeping. In his straightened circumstances this would be
beneath the moss-filled mattress and the ropes of the beds they were recently
provided with. Tilly had come,
ignored Joel, given Mr. Arnold cold looks, and spent her visit in whispered
consultation with Samuel Mudd. Shortly thereafter Mr. Arnold had discovered his
"document" was missing. He confronted Dr. Mudd. The doctor denied it.
Arnold searched. There was a fight. Nothing was found. He did give me
one bit of useful information. Tilly had been to the cell half a dozen times by
herself—the soldier escort remaining outside to smoke, undoubtedly. Each time
she spent less time with Joel and more with Dr. Mudd, speaking earnestly in
tones too low to make out the conversation. In leaving,
going most gratefully back out into the sunlight and ocean breezes, it occurred
to me that the passing back and forth of secret notes—whether they be summons,
sonnets or, as Tilly would have it, "proof"—might not be the whole of
it; might not be the least of it. Since Dr. Mudd
was seen with John Wilkes Booth by a number of credible witnesses before the
assassination, I doubt there can be any real proof that he did not know the
man, as he claimed at trial. Given this, and accepting that Dr. Mudd is
admittedly an intelligent man and has shown no other signs of being irrational,
it does not follow that he is using our sister to keep, save or transmit this
hypothetical truth. Romance was my
second thought, but you know how it is with the very young, Peggy. If Tilly
were in love she wouldn't be able to hide it for an instant. All that
remains that one might use a sixteen-year-old girl for is a means to escape. I
believe Dr. Mudd intends to try to escape from Garden Key and means for our
sister to help him. This is truly a
dangerous game and one I cannot tell Joseph of. Not yet. Not until I know how
deeply involved Tilly has become. These thoughts
stinging behind my eyes and in my throat, I hurried back to our quarters with
every intention of confronting Tilly, getting the truth out of the little beast
if I had to hold her head in the washtub till she told me or drowned. I believe I
would have—and would have been successful as well. Tilly was not the only one
of us girls to inherit grandmother's legendary stubbornness—but our quarters
were as tense and bitter and loud as the prison cells I had just quitted. Apparently
Sergeant Sinapp had run to Joseph with the tale of Tilly's misbehavior. Tilly's.
Joseph was in a rage. Neither the white silent nor the red and shouting to
which I've grown accustomed. This was unlike any I've seen. Joseph would not
listen to my side. He would not listen to Tilly. Indeed he had reduced her to a
gray-faced ghost curled in my rocking chair. He would not allow us to speak.
"Not a word. Not one damn word," he shouted every time I dared to so
much as draw breath. Joseph has
always listened to my side when it comes to the behavior of a soldier. Not (as
I once thought) out of respect for me, but out of a need to discipline, guide
and improve the men given into his care. This lack of
parity was not the only thing that showed him so changed. Joseph's rages are
much like those of the sea, full of wind and crushing with a clean sense of
righteous wrath. This was different: hulking somehow, small and sneaking. I
cannot put my finger on the difference but I felt it was so. Tilly was
confined to her room for an unspecified sentence. Both Tilly and I were
forbidden any intercourse with Joel Lane, Samuel Arnold, Dr. Mudd or any other
confederate prisoners residing at the fort. Joseph forbade me to speak with our
sister then, knowing the ban would not stick, chose to keep me under his eye
for the rest of the day. While he worked
at his desk between Tilly's room and ours, I was ordered to "work on my
infernal correspondence" and so, of course, I am writing to you. Though
Joseph's new and sulking ways alarm me, I must say that I find myself relieved
at the edict that we are to stay away from the casemates over the guardhouse
and that, to this end, the soldiers under Joseph's command have been ordered
not to take us to the conspirators' cells or give us the key to go by
ourselves. What started
out as an act of Christian charity—caring for poor Private Lane—has become perverted.
I feel the influence Dr. Mudd has over Tilly is unhealthy for her spirit as
well as making her a target for those at the fort who are still reeling from
the assassination of Mr. Lincoln. She is not the
only one changed since the arrival of the Lincoln conspirators. If I am
remembering correctly, Joseph's alteration commenced at about the same time.
Or, rather, I should say I began noticing it then. Our lives here were cheerful
and productive before they came—if one can say that of a life led on a prison
island. Now it feels the very sunlight has soured and strikes like a fist and
not its customary wet welcome, like the tongue of a large and gleeful dog. I've not yet
decided whether or not to tell Joseph of Tilly's fleeing to the powder room
with her "proof." As long as it is buried under a ton of cast iron it
is safe from Tilly and she from it. Perhaps for the time being it is best to
let sleeping secrets lie. I'm hoping this
will all be a moot point after I get your next letter. What I am asking is that
you take Tilly for a while if you can. Her life here has become entangled with
forces from which I can't protect her. Oh dear. I must
go now. Joseph just put his head into the room to inform me he requires my presence.
I expect he wishes to leave our quarters and knows the instant he's gone I will
go and talk to his pathetic prisoner down the hall and undermine her corrective
punishment. Joseph is a great believer in the restorative powers of solitary
confinement. I should know. He has discovered ways to isolate me even when in
the company of others. Forgive me the self-pity. It has been a trying day. I
will finish this tomorrow. A boat with the mail is expected and I can send this
off to you. Tilly is gone. Joseph kept me
with him for the remainder of the day yesterday but, before bed, I crept down
the hall to wish Tilly good night. She was in her room then and told me to
sleep well as she always does. This morning she was gone. Her bed was mussed as
if she had slept there, and all that was missing were her shoes and the clothes
she had worn the day before. At first I
thought she'd defied Joseph and was walking about the fort, possibly just
enjoying the breeze on the moat wall after so long cooped up in her room. I
searched the island and the fort, hoping to find her before Joseph did. There
was an unsettling sameness to my seeking her as before, and it lured me back to
the powder magazine, but this time she wasn't there. Finally I grew
afraid for her—not of Joseph's wrath, but for her very person. I told my
husband, and a search was begun in earnest. With everyone engaged, soldier,
prisoner and even the work crews, it was but a half to three-quarters of an
hour before every nook and cranny of this small key had been looked at. It was
discovered that Joel Lane was gone from his cell and Sergeant Sinapp was
missing the small sailing skiff the Merry Cay he uses to go fishing and
turtleing. Everyone thinks
Joel and Tilly have run off together and it must be so. Joseph has sent
soldiers out to all the keys within half a day's sailing from the fort to see
if the two runaways have landed. A handful of the men keep small pleasure
boats, most just big enough for two or three passengers. As far as I know Joel
has no skill as a sailor and, till she came here, Tilly had never been on
anything but the canoe in the pond behind our old house. Forced
inactivity has worn me down to tears more than once today. Joseph blames me for
Tilly's running away and the escape of Private Lane. He has condemned me to sit
out the search when it would be a relief to me to be with one of the sailing
parties. I cannot speak to Mr. Arnold, Mudd or anyone else with the exception
of Luanne. That chafes
more than restricting my movements. As Sam Arnold and the doctor live in such
close quarters with Joel, it is my hope that they might have heard or seen
something that would help us. Joseph will, of course, speak with them, but I
hold to the belief that they—or at least Mr. Arnold—would tell me things they might
not tell one of the soldiers. There is also the possibility that Dr. Mudd had a
hand in this. Should he have other "proofs" of his innocence that he
felt he could not trust to the hands of Mr. Lincoln's army, I do not now think
he would hesitate to use an innocent girl as the vessel for getting them to his
supporters. What keeps me from really believing this to be the case is, though
he might risk an innocent's life, surely he would not risk his precious documents.
He must know as well as I the near impossibility of two unskilled sailors
surviving a sixty-mile sail in a tiny skiff. Joseph's
condemnation of me as the author of this tragedy would cut me had not my own
already cut to the quick. What possessed me to allow—no, not merely to allow,
but to join in with—Tilly's fascination with these men? Pride? Did I see
myself, as Tilly did in the beginning, as ministering angel? Christian saint?
Saving the tormented boy from the evils of war and Sinapp? I am coming to
question myself; in pretending to do a kindness was I merely seeking excitement
or entertainment? And when Tilly
began to lose interest in Joel (an interest that was obviously rekindled when I
was not doing my duty and watching over her) and fall under the sway of the
persuasive Dr. Mudd, why didn't I tell Joseph? Had he truly become
unapproachable, changed? Or was it that I was changed, changed by, if not
welcoming then certainly not rebuffing, the current of interest I sensed from
Mr. Arnold? Peggy, two
hours have passed since the above sentence was written. I return to this
interminable letter because I've no other channel for the chaos that has become
my thoughts and feelings. I took time out from that fruitless and indulgent
self-castigation and did something unthinkable. Do you remember how deeply
offended we were when we were girls and Molly would search through our things
to make sure we were not involved in improper behavior? I swore then, should I
have daughters, I would never submit them to this invasion. Molly was right.
Young girls need guidance more than privacy. Today I
searched Tilly's room in hopes of finding an indication of where she'd planned
to go. To that end I was frustrated. What I did find has deepened the mystery
of her elopement (at least we must hope it is an elopement and young Mr. Lane
doesn't intend to ruin her). In a wooden cigar box beneath her underthings—why
is it as girls we believe that is a viable hiding place?-—I found several notes
I can only presume were written by Dr. Mudd. Who delivered them I don't know. I
suspect the doctor, with his gentle demeanor and air of injured innocence,
managed to turn one of the soldiers to his purpose. Two were simple
summons: "Please come alone, S." And: "Could you find time
today? S." The third was rather more interesting. "I have found
something. S." They weren't dated, so I have no way of knowing when they
were sent, but it serves to ratify Tilly's practice of sneaking to their
casemate without me attending her. Other than
that, her room was as always: untidy and girlish. She'd carried Joseph's
dictionary in and left it in a heap by the dressing table. I rescued it lest he
discover its absence and the rude indignity with which it had been treated. A
place was marked with a black feather. I doubt there's any significance to this.
With the constant circling of magnificent frigate birds, we have an abundance
of these. Before returning it to Joseph's desk I turned to the page she had
marked. She'd
underlined one of the words and put three exclamation marks next to it in the
margin. The word was doppelganger. Whether it means anything as pertains
to her elopement, I have no idea. There was nothing missing from her closet or
dressing table that I noticed, and it was not till afterward, when I'd had time
to think, this began to bother me. Till then I'd
accepted the obvious; Tilly and Joel had run away together in the stolen skiff,
the Merry Cay. I'd convinced
myself Tilly's ardor for Joel Lane had rekindled during her solitary visits to
his cell. Now it would seem those visits were instigated by Dr. Mudd. The last
two times I visited, Joel was not behaving like a man who has regained his lady
love but as a sulky and jealous boy. These things could be explained away
easily enough by the gaps in my knowledge of what transpired in my absence.
It's Tilly's wardrobe that is so wrong. I know our sister. She had run to this
presumed assignation wearing the skirt, blouse and stockings she'd worn
yesterday—the day she fled the soldiers and I found her in the powder room.
She'd worn them again though they were dirty, dust-streaked and stained with
sweat. Would a girl
eloping with the man she loved intentionally wear such disreputable garments?
Wouldn't she rather dress as if she would soon be standing before a minister?
Especially Tilly, who is so fastidious about her appearance? I had not
thought I could feel more frightened for her, but I do. If she did not elope,
what then? Is she carrying Dr. Mudd's messages to the mainland? Were that the
case, one would think she would wait till next we sailed to Key West to shop or
visit and take it then. That would be the safer way both for her and for Dr.
Mudd's supposed documents. Were Mudd foolish enough to wish this ill-conceived
flight, would he not go himself? Joel Lane will be released in the next few months,
perhaps even weeks. It is the Lincoln conspirators who must serve out their
lives on Garden Key. Escape for them must be paramount, and for Joel absurd. This logic, if
logic it is and not the imaginings of a febrile mind, applies to the elopement.
Tilly, though passionate, has ever been a practical girl. Why risk possibly
dying at sea to run away with a prisoner, when in a very short time he would be
free and all she'd need do is book passage on one of the many ships that pass
through here to meet him? If this is so,
where are these children and what has become of the missing boat, the Merry
Cay? 23 The enormity
of the skies was as dark as the small square Anna'd watched through the office
window. Wind blew hard from the south with gusts from the southwest. Swells
were six to ten feet. She had boated in rougher water when she was a ranger on
Isle Royale in Lake Superior. There the water had been deadly, the summer
temperatures of the lake ranging between thirty-nine and forty-two degrees.
Here wind, rain, water and preternatural darkness were all warm; a phenomenon
Anna found hard to get used to despite her time in Mississippi. The warmth was
comforting, offering a false promise of safety. Lake Superior had learned its
cold treachery from the Atlantic Ocean; warm water would drown one as quickly
as cold and without the anesthetic of numbing its victims first. She didn't
bother with rain gear. In twisting wind and waves, she'd be soaked to the skin
in minutes even if she pitched a tent on the deck of the Reef Ranger and
piloted the little craft through its window. As the Boston Whaler's engine
idled, she buckled on one of the standard-issue, full-sized, personal flotation
devices, easing the bottom strap so the vest would fit over her sidearm and
Kevlar vest. The days when one strove to keep one's powder dry were long gone.
Modern weaponry would fire when wet. Chances were good the SIG Sauer would work
on the bottom of the ocean, though Anna had no desire to conduct that
experiment in the near future. Her handheld
radio was another matter. Maybe it would work wet, maybe it would work over the
disturbance of the storm, but not likely. Fortunately the boats were equipped
with more powerful communications equipment. She could raise the mainland from
the Reef Ranger's radio if she had to. Given her
druthers, she would use neither. Before she'd come to the dock, she'd taken the
precaution of asking Bob to stand by on the radio. She'd forgotten this was Bob
Shaw she was talking to. Ensconced in pillows, a cat on his lap, iced tea and
magazines within easy reach, he still had his radio at his elbow and turned on,
monitoring his realm. With his leg in a cast from toe to mid-thigh there was
little he could do physically, but he could alert Daniel or, should the need arise,
the coast guard. Teddy was good with a boat as well, so there would be plenty
of people to come fish her out if she was washed overboard. For the next
little while, she wanted to stay off the airwaves. The bits and pieces of
information she'd been poring over all day suggested Ranger Shaw wasn't the
only one monitoring the National Park Service's law-enforcement frequency. Safe as she was
going to get, Anna cast off the mooring lines and opened throttle, powering up
quickly before the elements could smash her boat into the pilings. There was no
danger of colliding with much else above the water. Not a single boat remained
at the fort to weather the storm. The harbor was empty, as was what she could
see of the ragged slate-colored sea. Pushing the
throttle to full, she headed south, out of the harbor. There were no park
visitors to rock with her wake and, in water this high, power was necessary to
hold a course and keep the bow into the wind so a wave wouldn't broadside her
and roll the boat. Out past the
markers she noted not everyone had run for shore. Half a dozen shrimp
boats, nets furled and rigging sticking out the sides like whiskers on an
ungainly catfish, had fled for shelter in this harbor in the midst of the sea
as commercial ships had since Cortez began sending gold back to Spain. Before she
reached the shrimpers, Anna took advantage of a smooth high swell; riding to
its crest then letting the wind help her spin the Reef Ranger shortly
before it would have crashed into the trough. Her vulnerable side was exposed
no more than a few seconds, then, wind at the stern, she was turned, heading
north between Garden and Loggerhead. In alignment
with wind and waves, boating was not so much dangerous as battering. Sailing
around the world in a one-woman boat, never high on Anna's list, was dropped
from adventures she would like to have before she died. The bow broke through
the uppermost part of oncoming waves, then fell to the trough and again began
to climb. Anna didn't sit, bent her knees and every other trick she could
remember from years back. Still she was jarred to the marrow. She'd once met a
ranger from St. John National Park in the Virgin Islands who'd broken vertebrae
in his neck in just such water as this. The bones had cracked from the pressure
of being jammed repeatedly. What with other
matters clogging her mind, a piece of key information had gotten by her. Or she
hadn't had a context in which it would show as important. Patrice had
radioed. A red go-fast boat had passed Loggerhead heading east. East Key was
Anna's bet. In the Dry
Tortugas nothing that wasn't man-made stuck up much above sea level. Even the
few trees tended to be stunted, low to the ground, evolved to withstand the
hurricanes that blew each summer and autumn. East Key had no trees, just a
courageous collection of salt scrub bushes circled between the dunes like a
wagon train in Indian Territory. The waves were higher than the sand dunes on
the tiny key, and Anna watched from the crest of each as she breached, looking
for the small island. Possibly the key was underwater in storms. She'd not
served at this posting long enough to know. The park was mostly shallow water.
In rough weather, when the water was scraped into mountains and the valleys
were hare, some of the coral reefs were too close to the surface to pass over
in a boat. When she knew
she was almost upon it, East Key chose to reveal itself. The Reef Ranger rose
on a crest and ahead less than fifty yards was a wave of another color. Not
awash, Anna noted and wondered if her hoped-for hurricane would have drowned
it. Wind shifted
from south to southeast. It was safer to land on the windward side in the
natural sandy scoop of beach. Not only was the wind direction right but Anna
had beached in this spot before. Today was not the day to learn new terrain.
She waited for a lull, then powered the Boston Whaler in, letting the wave
she'd ridden lift her onto the sand. Having pulled anchor and chain out of its
nest in the bow, she threw it as far up on the sand as she could. Not far.
Anchors were not made for small women to use as projectile weapons. When she jumped
the few feet from the deck to the beach, she fell on hands and knees. The ride
over had altered her perception of fixed. A part of her reptilian brain
expected the beach to rush up to meet her as the deck had for the past twenty
minutes. She dragged the anchor to high ground—high ground on East Key being
about three feet above low ground—dug it deep into the sand and hoped for the
best. What she needed to do wouldn't take long. Rain pelted her
in dime-sized drops. Wind pushed and snatched at her till she felt as
beleaguered as if a pack of children attacked her. The lee side of the key
behind the largest dune, running the length of East Key—sixty or so feet—was
the most likely place. That shore was almost on the park's boundary. Beyond it
the bottom of the ocean fell away abruptly into the deeps of the Atlantic.
Using hands and feet, a low profile to the prevailing wind, she scooted
crablike over the ridge and slid down the other side where the courageous
shrubs dwelt. There she began
pawing about, a dog in a field of bones. It wasn't long before she found what
she knew must be there. She wasn't exactly searching for a needle in a
haystack. Bright blue
fuel containers had been buried up under the dune. Not buried precisely, but
shoved with a camouflage netting and sand thrown over them. East Key, then,
was where the first go-fast boat, the Scarab piloted by Ramon Diego, had been
headed when Bob had happened upon it. After it, along with its cargo, exploded,
a new fuel cache had to be put in place. Fuel caches discovered on remote keys
weren't unheard of. Smugglers using the fast boats with their powerful engines
and tremendous fuel consumption would often leave diesel or gasoline to refuel
after a run so they could get back to their homeport in Cuba, Mexico or Central
America, where the coast guard couldn't reach them. East Key,
though not often visited, could in no way be considered abandoned. In the
summer the pleasure boats frequenting the park occasionally beached there to
picnic and swim. At least once every couple of days a ranger came by on patrol.
Unless they noticed something untoward, she and Bob never landed. There was no
need. The entire key could be seen from the deck of the boats. A fuel cache
would probably be safe enough for a few days or a week. By the hasty and
slipshod nature of the sand-and-camo hiding place, Anna guessed the people who
put it there planned on using it soon. The amount of fuel suggested a much
bigger operation than Anna had envisioned from the piecemeal information she'd
waded through. Rocking back on
her heels, she turned her face into the wind, hoping the rain would clear her
vision. Bad idea. There was simply too much water in the world. Anna wished she
had swim goggles or a wide-brimmed hat. Weather permitting,
Mack was due back to the fort on the morning ferry. The fuel cache, Theresa,
Lanny's mental collapse, fort personnel in conference in Homestead, Mack's
timely departure and return: the event was probably planned for tonight or
tomorrow night. Tonight the weather would be on their side. For once crime
in the park was not Anna's problem. This fell under the coast guard's
jurisdiction first. Immigration and Naturalization was the second line of
defense. Anna's only job was to holler for help. She scrambled
back up the side of the dune. "Shit," she whispered and flung herself
backward, landing hard on the wet sand. Air flew from her lungs and she
suffered that horrific moment when it feels as if they will never remember how
to breathe again. Breath returned. She rolled onto her belly and crept back up
to peek over the low crest. Beached beside
the Reef Ranger was a sleek torpedo of a machine, the red go-fast boat
Donna had seen; the one that brought and cached the fuel. There were two
men onboard. Two more stood on the beach, their backs to her. Mack was on the Reef
Ranger. For a moment the men shouted at each other, trying to be heard over
the wind. Then the two on the beach turned. Anna slipped down but not before
she saw that both carried automatic weapons. Uzis, maybe. Something small and
evil looking. They'd killed
Theresa. God knew why. Maybe love had turned her and she'd threatened to tell
Lanny. Men who carried automatic weapons weren't famous for their mercy.
Chances are they'd chosen a less violent alternative with Lanny because a dead
ranger would cause an investigation. A crazy one wouldn't. Me they'll
kill, Anna thought and wondered what the hell she was going to do about
it. Rain pounded her face and chest making it hard to see, to think. The sand
spit had no cover, no hiding places. For an instant she considered burying
herself but knew there wasn't time. A shoot-out was
doomed from the start. She would probably kill the two walking in her
direction. As satisfying as it might be at the moment, it would only add to the
death toll. The other three, undoubtedly armed as well, would kill her sure as
hell. As if to ratify
her worst fears, the rattle of automatic weapons fire raked the dune just above
her, the force exploding sand out and down. Shouting followed. Ears ringing and
blood pounding, Anna couldn't make out the words. She chose not to hang around
and try. Belly down on
the sand, she crawled for the sea. What she would do there wasn't clear in her
mind. Only that it's warm embrace and the company of sharks was suddenly the
lesser of evils. The surf met
her in a smothering crash. She pushed on, her vest and gear keeping her belly
to the sandy bottom, waves breaking over her back. Shouting followed but not
gunfire. Taking a last breath she dove under. The water was but two or three
feet deep. Blind with sandstorm winds churned into the water, she swam till her
lungs felt close to bursting. When she could stand it no longer, she came up.
The water was still no more than three feet deep. Poking her head out, she let
the air explode from her lungs, sucked in fresh breath laced with salt water
and fought not to cough. No way could she survive in the open sea unless she
dumped her gear. Using all her strength and an aching lungful of air, she'd
traveled less than the length of a standard gym pool. The two men
with the automatic weapons had followed. One was on shore, the other,
waist-deep in the waves, was less than forty feet away. His face was turned
from her, searching the place where she'd gone under. "There."
The man on the beach had spotted her. He raised his
weapon but didn't shoot; afraid he'd hit his companion as well as his prey. The
Uzi—or whatever it was—he held at his hip like a movie gangster. Evidently he'd
never learned to aim but only to spray bullets. Anna took little comfort in
that. Close as she was, even in an undifferentiated hail of bullets, one or two
would probably hit her. Anger so hot it
surprised her the ocean didn't begin to boil and so intense it burned away fear
rose from the depths of her soul. For a year after her husband Zach was killed,
Anna had wanted to die. For a time after that she'd chosen to live only to keep
Molly happy. Then she'd chosen to stay alive out of sheer spite. Now, when
she'd finally realized she didn't want to die because life was so damn good,
some son-of-a-bitch was going to shoot her. The gunman in
the water was turning. Anna fought to unsnap the keeper on her holster. Rain
and salt water had swelled the leather. The automatic rifle was coming up. She
threw herself back, felt the water close over her, her feet rising off the
bottom. Her SIG sauer broke free. Without waiting to surface she fired two
shots, hoping she wouldn't blow off her own foot. Underwater, unable to see or
breathe, her belt pulling her down, her legs rising buoyantly, she felt thrust
back into the insane grip of the acid trip. In seconds she found the bottom,
pushed off and rose out of the waves, still firing, Venus on a shell casing,
she thought idiotically. The man in the
water was screaming, bent over. He yelled: "Don't shoot! Don't
shoot!" not at Anna but at the man on the beach who'd gone into panic
mode, spraying bullets perilously near the wounded man. Anna neither
dodged nor dove. Feet planted against the waves slamming at her back, she took
careful aim at the gunman on the shore. Before she could squeeze off a round
she heard the crack of gunfire. It was as if she'd been hit between the
shoulder blades with a baseball bat. Helplessly she
watched as her service weapon flew out of her hands, watched it disappear
beneath the sea taking its own sweet time obeying gravity's laws. She was
following it, pitching forward. The man on the shore quit firing. The gunman in
the ocean stopped screaming. Weather roared ever so discreetly and there was a
moment of utmost peace in the world. Water engulfed her. Again the baseball bat
smashed into her. Hands filled with sand; the bottom. Anna's life
retreated into the confines of her skull. The light of her mind was shrinking
to a pinpoint. She was blacking out. Pass out and you die. The tiniest
part of her welcomed that darkness. It seemed comforting somehow. That which
has kept the human race procreating for two million years overrode it. She
concentrated on that pinpoint, willed it to grow brighter. The light
dimmed. Heavy with gear, Anna was sinking. In a last effort she tried to
remember where her legs were, tried to get them beneath her, but up and down
had become meaningless. With a suddenness that increased the disorientation,
she felt herself being pulled. God or the devil seemed in an inordinate hurry
to claim her soul. 24 It has been
three days and I have begun to despair. Regardless of why Tilly was taken or
left, three days on the open sea in that small boat and they would be dead of
thirst unless they'd thought to bring water. Joseph has forbidden me to run out
on the quay and question sailors. "Unseemly," he calls it, but I feel
somehow that he is afraid for me and so I obey. What else can I do? If I
continued in the face of his orders he'd simply have me confined to quarters. Since Tilly
disappeared, Joseph's metamorphosis has become complete. What he has changed
into I cannot say. The fire that has always been such a part of him has gone
out. Where he once raged he is now querulous. The energy that permeated him,
flowed from him to ignite men's passions (and, once, mine) has failed. He sits
for long periods of time doing nothing. Sometimes it's hard to rouse him. I spend my days
on the third tier of the fort. Construction on that level has stopped. The
engineer says this patch of sand cannot bear any more weight. Should they
continue piling brick and cannon on it the fort will sink into the sea. I wish it
would. Sergeant
Sinapp, apparently on Joseph's orders, continues to forbid me seeing Sam Arnold
or Dr. Mudd. I don't even know where they've been moved, though I suspect they
are separated and one is probably condemned to wait out his time in the
dungeon. Joseph promises
me that each boat that docks is questioned. None have seen a small sailing
skiff either afloat or wrecked. My thoughts
keep turning on Dr. Samuel Mudd and the "proof" of his innocence that
Tilly—in genuine innocence—boasted of in front of the soldiers. Whether Tilly
could have proved anything is no matter—except, of course, to Dr. Mudd and
possibly the other conspirators. Mudd seems to have held himself aloof from
them. I believe he finally severed connections entirely when he fought with Mr.
Arnold the day before Tilly disappeared. What matters perhaps is only that
someone believed her. I pray to all
of the saints who owe Molly a small fortune in candles that if Tilly and Joel
left not of their own will but were taken, they were taken by southern sympathizers,
men who believe the conspirators should be released. If this is so, Tilly will
be guarded, taken care of, treated—one could hope and expect—as a heroine of
the confederacy. Because Joel
was taken (or escaped) at the same time, I allow myself hope. Why take Private
Lane as well unless one's sympathies were with the south? The hope is small.
Too many questions assail it. Why not take Mudd/Arnold? Why take Tilly and not
merely the documents—if documents exist? Perhaps because they remain buried in
the magazine and Tilly will be needed to testify to their existence? Was Tilly taken
from the fort for her own safety? I'm sorry, Peg.
It is as if I had a skull full of stinging hornets. I can neither eat nor sleep
from the pain and the buzzing of questions. More has
happened here than Tilly and Joel's disappearance, though my worry over them
was such I didn't notice for the first days. I've told you of Joseph but not of
Sinapp. It's as if he has stepped into the captaincy and allows Joseph only the
title while he wields the power. It's not just I who have noticed this. There's
been grumbling among the men who have been put to extra tasks: cleaning the
parade ground, bricking up the ruined cisterns and clearing out the powder
magazine. Once I went to the magazine in hopes of having a chance to look for
the mysterious documents, but he ordered me away as if I were his laundress and
not the captain's wife. I said nothing to Joseph. There would be no point as he
continues to ghost about as if his soul was taken along with the children. I cannot but
feel this topsy-turvy situation is in some way connected with Tilly's
disappearance. Since I have been banned from the powder magazine and forbidden
to speak with Arnold or Mudd, I turned my attention to what I might discover in
my own house. Again I searched Tilly's room, looking this time for less obvious
things. On her windowsill I found a broken bit of brick. There is certainly no
shortage of this commodity on the island, but it has none of the charm of the
pretty stones and shells she was in the habit of carrying up to her room. The
only reason I can think that she might have such a bit of masonry is that it
was thrown through her window, no doubt with the note wrapped around it that
enticed her to put on her soiled dress of the day before and sneak out of
quarters. The only message that could have induced her to do such a thing would
have been from Joel or Dr. Mudd. As the latter is the only one remaining, I am
ever more determined to speak with him. Joseph keeps
his desk locked. This is not new. I believe he locks it not because the
correspondence of a prison warden—and that is what he has become though it
shames me to say it in so many words—pertains to matters of such delicacy it
must be secured, but because, having been left out of the war, he needs to
pretend to himself, and, perhaps, to me, that his work is of national
importance. A month ago I
would not have dared it—indeed it would have been unthinkable—but I put a
letter opener under the top and pried until the lock popped free of its latch.
Joseph will see it is broken and will no doubt know that it was I who broke it.
In this strange mood that's taken him, I don't think he will say anything.
Among his letters I found one that was of interest though of no relevance to my
present worries. Joseph has put in for a transfer to a small post in the west,
in the Nevada territory. With the war over and the army letting men go, closing
forts or leaving them with a skeleton garrison to man them, this is not a good
time for a move. Should Joseph get this transfer, he will keep his captaincy
but the pay will be that of a second lieutenant. Joseph is
running from something. From Sinapp, I think, though I cannot guess why. I
believe Sinapp has found a weapon with which to threaten Joseph. Reading the
transfer papers, the in-all-but-name demotion, the remoteness of the post, the
small number of soldiers stationed there, I knew that, should Joseph flee to
this place that—surely not forsaken by God, but forsaken by water, green plant
life and human beings not well-armed—I will not go with him. This is not the
first time I've ever thought of leaving Joseph, but it is the first time I knew
I would really do it; knew it would be forever. How long I sat at my husband's
desk, more stunned by than thinking about the ramifications of this, I do not
know. I'd not gotten through all the letters when I heard Joseph downstairs. More
accurately, I heard Luanne speaking to "Master Coleman"—she's not yet
accustomed herself to "mister." Joseph customarily enters like a
stallion chased by the wind, much clatter and fuss. Now he creeps about like
the cats he so detests. Joseph mightn't
say anything about my trespass, but once he found the broken lock, anything of
interest would be removed. I put the unread letters in my pocket and returned
to my bedroom window and my sewing before he reached the top of the stairs.
I've become a sneak and a spy. I've planned to abandon my marriage and taken up
thieving. If Tilly were here we would laugh at my fall from grace. As it is no
one seems to laugh now. Least of all me. For what
remained of the afternoon Joseph sat at his desk in the hall. He must have
known I was in our room, but he neither came in nor spoke to me. So still was
he several times I went to the door and checked to see if he'd gone. He was
just sitting there. If he was working I couldn't tell at what. I pretended to
sew until it grew too dark to see, then lit the lamps and pretended to read,
waiting till it was late enough I could go to bed and pretend to sleep. Recent events
and the unease in our rooms have infected even Luanne. Just before eight she
tiptoed up to see if we wanted a cold supper since I had made no plans
with her earlier. With the burden of pretense I'd already taken on, I couldn't
bear to pretend to eat, and I sent her away. It occurred to me to ask her to
bring something up to Joseph, but at that moment I cared so little for him even
this small kindness—or, rather, duty—was beyond me. After nine I
deemed it late enough to go to bed and took the lamp to Tilly's room. Joseph
was no longer at his desk. I've taken to sleeping in Tilly's room these last
nights. Joseph says nothing and it comforts me to be among her things. I
suppose I hope she'll come climbing back through the window one night, flushed
and laughing from her adventure. I didn't
undress or lie down but sat in the dark by the window, watching the parade
ground empty and go dark. Around midnight I heard Joseph come in and go to our
room. Again he never sought me out and I didn't go to him. The longer I sat
there the more I knew I couldn't go on doing nothing. Finally I gave up trying.
Downstairs I took britches and a shirt belonging to Joseph from Luanne's
laundry bag and, back in Tilly's room, put them on. Melodramatic
and absurd as I felt disguising myself, it was necessary. In our tiny world,
populated almost exclusively by men, if I were to go outdoors in the middle of
the night except to visit the privy I would be noticed. I would not have passed
muster for a man if anyone were to study me. I cannot say what it was. As you
know I am not made as womanly as you are, and my face has been coarsened by
wind and weather over the years, but it was abundantly clear I was a sheep in
wolf's clothing. Two thoughts bolstered my courage. One was that in the hive of
men, no one would notice one more, however peculiar, and in the middle of the
night, I might well never even be seen. The other thought was, should I be
found out and returned to Joseph either in person or by report, the sheer effrontery
and outlandishness of my crime might shake him into a semblance of his former
self. My years here
were not wasted. I've seen the watches change nearly a thousand times, heard
the hours called. I know where the soldiers sleep and hide, gamble and drink.
Having sneaked successfully out of the officers' quarters, I crossed to the
unfinished casemates behind the half-built enlisted men's quarters. No one is
housed there, prisoner or soldier. There is also no hope of light at night, the
new barracks having now grown high enough to block out what the stars provide. Feeling my way
by inches, I came around the parade ground to the sally port and guardroom. I
didn't like to risk passing this one place where I could be assured men were on
duty and, in all probability, awake—though the country is no longer at war,
sleeping on guard duty is still punishable by death. I have noticed officers
stomping and whistling when they approach a sentry station at an unexpected
hour simply to avoid the possibility of finding the man asleep. My only other
alternative had been to follow the southern side of the parade ground and so
avoid the guardhouse altogether. But that is where a bulk of the men and
prisoners are housed. Feeling
patently absurd and frightened nearly half to death, I chose to cross the
parade ground beneath the hanging trees. Since Sergeant Sinapp's "coming
to power" those trees have not stood fallow but are always full of their
dreadful harvest. The men tied, their wrists bound behind their backs and ropes
thrown over the branches, would be too stupefied by a day without sufficient
water and more than sufficient suffering to pay much attention to me and,
should they call out, their cries would go unanswered by the guards. Seven men
dangled in the night branches. Joseph is a proponent of corporal
punishment—it's necessary to retain order with men—but always ends the
punishment at sunset. Twelve hours a day is not adequate for the cruelties
Sinapp feels compelled to commit. As I passed,
several men roused themselves to call out for water, but I kept my face turned
away and only walked faster. Fear kept me from feeling the guilt that assails
me now for refusing this small service. At the time I was so terrified their
pathetic croaks did little more than make me hurry on. It's odd that I
was so much more afraid than I had been the night Tilly and I went out before
our theatrical evening to see who screamed so achingly. Partly it was that I
was alone this time—I have been horribly alone since Tilly disappeared. Partly
I think it was that Fort Jefferson no longer feels safe. With Joseph's
protection removed and Sergeant Sinapp having his way in everything, I believe
I could come to harm. Mostly, though, it was fear of the humiliation I would
suffer were I discovered out adventuring at night in my husband's soiled
clothing. One might think it would be a little thing, but it was not. Safely (if
cravenly) past the sally port I slipped back into the darkness beneath the
casemates and made my way toward the southeastern bastion and the dungeon. In
the absolute darkness behind these thick walls I had to make my way by touch.
With light to see by the trip is short. Without it, I believed I might go on
forever, feeling the ends of my fingers growing raw from trailing over rough
walls. So much time
seemed to pass I thought I'd surely missed the dungeon. When I finally came
into the vaulted area where it is located, I knew it by the change in the
sounds my feet made shuffling across the brick. What had been close, furtive
noises became amplified and scared me before I realized I was still the only
one making them. And there was the smell of fresh mortar and brick dust where
the men had been sealing up the entrance to the cisterns beneath this section
of the battlements. There is a small
barred window in the dungeon's door—the kind in the ink drawings that used to
give us delicious shudders when we were children, the kind through which the
hero sees the ogre. By standing on tiptoe I could get my mouth to the opening.
At first I could make no sound. Fear and silence and a day where I spoke to no
one but those few words to Luanne robbed me of my voice. When I finally managed
to whisper Dr. Mudd's name it sounded like a shout in my sensitized ears and
frightened me into a few more moments of speechlessness. After that, not
knowing what to expect, I kept repeating his name. No response
came for the longest time and I began to fear this whole masquerade had been
for nothing, that Dr. Mudd had been moved again and the dungeon stood empty. I suppose
I would have given up and gone away, but I had no other plan so I stayed
whispering and calling far longer than a sane woman might have. My persistence
was rewarded. From inside the cell a light was struck, just a flint then a
candle, to my wide eyes it was a conflagration. For a minute lights swam and
starred. The candle was held up and I saw I had indeed found Dr. Mudd. Despite his
straightened circumstances—if being reduced from a cell with little light to
one with no light and a bed of wooden planks to a stone floor can be dignified
with the term "circumstances"—the doctor slept in nightshirt and cap.
With his one blanket thrown around his shoulders for modesty he managed, but
for the cap, to look almost dignified. I introduced
myself. The look of disapproval that screwed up his lips—or so I imagined, all
I saw of it was the twitching of his overlong mustache—made me glad he couldn't
see the rest of me. Once he'd grasped I was a woman in flesh and not a
dream or ghost, he asked me to look away. When I looked back he was dressed
even to his coat and shoes. Having nothing
to lose, as there are few at the fort more powerless and ignorant than I, and
nothing to fear from him as a bolted door stood between us, I told him I'd
found the notes he'd sent summoning Tilly. "You sent
her a note the night she disappeared, Dr. Mudd. It was wrapped around a bit of
broken brick and thrown through her open window. She has been gone for more
than three days. You must tell me why you asked her to your cell in the night
and where you have sent her." He turned from
me like a man gazing out of a window but he had only brick and more brick to
look at. I was close to a screaming fit. I could see myself shaking the bars,
shrieking like a madwoman, as guards with torches pounded down the passages to
find me. Had I been able to unlock the prison door I believe I would have, just
to feel my fists strike Dr. Mudd's face. Fortunately he
turned back before I lost my wits. "Where is she?" I demanded. "I don't
know." "You sent
her the notes," I said. "Some of
them, yes. Not the last one." He sounded
reasonable, tired and sad and reasonable. It made me even angrier because I
didn't want to believe him. For a minute—a very long time in the night—I said
nothing. Were I to speak, I should have frothed at the mouth like a rabid dog.
When I'd regained a modicum of control, I asked him who sent the last note. "I don't
know." My temper
frayed to snapping. "Tell me what you do know, Dr. Mudd, or may God damn
you to hell!" Not only was I taking the Lord's name in vain but I was
spitting. I could see flecks of my saliva where they caught in the candlelight
beyond the bars separating us. "Very
well, Mrs. Coleman. With your sister gone, I doubt it much matters now. Though
I believe your being here tonight endangers both of us. I shall tell you what I
know, then you must leave. If you return I will not speak to you. If you repeat
what I have told you I will deny it." Much as I hated
this cold dictation of what I must and must not do, I held my tongue. I
believed him when he said he would never again speak with me. I would not call
Dr. Mudd a man of honor, but he seems to be possessed of an iron will. "Your
sister believed in my cause," Mudd began, and I knew I was to be forced to
hear again of his innocence. "Do you know what a doppelganger is, Mrs.
Coleman?" "I
know." Either he didn't believe me or he was enjoying the condescension. I
didn't interrupt. A man behind bars must wield power however he can. "A
doppelganger is a look-alike, someone who looks exactly like you in every
aspect. Some theorize that each man has, somewhere in this world, his own
doppelganger. I know I have mine. It was this man and not myself who was seen
meeting in Washington with Sam Arnold and with John Booth. It was this man and
not I who conspired to assassinate or kidnap the president." Dr. Mudd had
gone as mad as I felt I was at that moment. He spoke as if
he addressed a court of law and not one angry woman dressed in her husband's
britches. "What has
this to do with my sister?" I asked and none too politely. "I was
getting to your sister, Mrs. Coleman. Your sister was kind enough or
perspicacious enough to believe me. When I came into possession of proof of
this, I felt she was the only person at this prison whom I could trust to carry
this proof outside to my lawyer. Anyone else within these walls would possibly
destroy it, preferring to punish an innocent man than to admit their blessed
union had been duped." The document,
the letter, the secret proof. I had come to be sick to death of this game of
hints and possibilities. "What did yon give my sister?" "A
photograph of this man who looks like me. He is standing with Samuel Arnold and
members of Mr. Arnold's family. A photographer who travels to events where
people gather took the picture. The place and date as well as the name of the
photographer are on the back of the picture, put there with the man's own
stamp. It was taken at a cattle sale held in Richmond, Virginia, several months
before John Booth killed Mr. Lincoln. The cattle sale was three days long, days
I can prove that I was with a very ill patient more than a hundred miles from
where that photograph was taken." This news
staggered me. If it were the truth, then Dr. Mudd was an innocent man and he
had put the rest of his life into the hands of a sixteen-year-old girl because
none of us could be trusted. Strength left me. Where I had been clinging to the
prison bars in anger I now clung to keep from falling. The weariness of the
past days caught up to me. If I'd let myself slide to the floor, the guard
bringing Mudd's breakfast would have found me still there. 25 Only when air
hit her lungs was Anna sure she'd been taken up and not down by the god of her
understanding, as AA would have it. Bits of spray entered with the first breath
and a fit of coughing alternately racked her then paralyzed her. The upward
journey continued. Her arms and legs dangled down; water poured from her. She
was flipped over and the powers that be—not gods as she would have pictured
them but two heavily armed white guys with the power of life and death—landed
her like a witless fish. Goggle-eyed and breathless she stared up at them
without even a fish's ability to flop or flounder. "She's not
dead," one of them said. He bent down to peer into her face. Along with
his disappointed utterance came a poke in her side from the barrel of his
weapon. Anna'd never
seen him before. He was maybe thirty, dark brown hair, chin-length and
plastered unbecomingly over a high forehead and sunken cheeks. His flesh had
the worn, papery look of a longtime drug user, but his eyes were normal. Either
he'd straightened up for the job or was "in recovery" at the moment. "She sure
as hell got Jose," the second white guy said and laughed. He was heftier
than the one passing judgment on Anna's lamentable survival, and a good ten
years older. Me, too, wore his hair long, but it had grown thin. What might
once have held a certain piratical charm was now sad and stringy. "His name
is Rick. For Christ's sake help me. There was to be no killing. This is a
goddamn mess." Anna rolled her
eyes. The speaker was William Macintyre, Mack, lean as a whippet, voice angry.
The white guys were hired help. Mack leaned over the gunwale, his skinny butt
and scarred legs all she could see of him. "Help me,
damn it," he shouted. The man
scrutinizing and prodding Anna straightened up. "Watch her, Butch. She's
not dead," he said. Butch. Maybe thug
number one was named Lefty or Spike. Anna felt herself smile. She'd realized a
great truth. Life did mirror art. These two had surely patterned themselves
after movie bad guys. Probably John Travolta in Pulp Fiction. It made
them no less deadly. She thought better about the smile. Behind Butch,
Mack and Thug Number One were hauling in another human catch. The Cuban man
Anna had shot at. Rick. Control was
returning to her torso. She was breathing more or less regularly, and the
paralyzing blows to her back had morphed from numb to an ache so deep she
worried for her spine. "Butch,
I'd like to sit up, if I may," she said. Unarmed in the enemy's camp, it
was good to be polite whenever possible. "I hit
you," he said. He sounded annoyed. "You
did," Anna assured him kindly. "Kevlar vest." He knelt and
reached toward her. At first she thought it was to help her to her feet and was
about to decide this Miss Manners approach wasn't half bad. Butch, however,
wasn't cut of gentlemanly cloth. He punched at her chest, a professional's
interest in her vest. "These
things are a lot lighter 'n I remember. Handy. You'll be sore as hell." He seemed to
want that, and it was true so Anna gave it to him: "I already am. Feels
like my back's busted in two places. Mind if I sit up?" He held his
firearm in his left hand. Up close Anna could see it was indeed an Uzi, an old
one manufactured in the late eighties and not kept in mint condition. Probably
a hand-me-down or a piece lifted in another job. Across the knuckles of Butch's
right hand a crude H and an A had been tattooed. Undoubtedly meant to be
"Hate" but would forever read "HA." "Get
paroled before they finished the job?" She nodded toward the aborted
chuckle in flesh and ink. "Yeah.
Well..." "Butch is
scared of needles." The younger man said from where he pulled a bleeding
Cuban gunman over the side. "Shut the
fuck up, Perry." Perry. So much
for the movies. "'Ha' is
nice," Anna said, but their moment of blossoming rapport had been nipped
in the bud. "You shut
the fuck up." This time Butch was talking to her. He backed up a foot or
two and allowed the muzzle of his gun to veer away from her chest to a more
benign position. Anna took this
as permission to sit up. It was harder than she'd expected and hurt a lot
worse. She got her back against the hull and her knees pulled up just in time
to avoid being landed on by Rick. Perry and Mack flopped him onto the deck with
the same lack of gentleness with which they'd managed her landing. Rick had lost
his weapon. Blood trickled from a neat round hole a couple of inches above his
kneecap. Salt water had washed it clean. It was seeping not spurting. He would
live. Anna wasn't sure how she felt about that. He wasn't much
more than a boy, and when he talked he sounded just enough like Ricky Ricardo
that Anna wondered if his name wasn't a cruel joke laid upon him by uncaring
parents. His hair was a perfect black with water but would have reddish hues
when dry. The face was square and boyish, innocence only marred by a bad case
of acne and the fact that he'd tried to kill her. He was dressed in khaki
shorts and a white polo shirt complete with tiny alligator and web belt. Anna
guessed he'd had Weejuns but lost them while floundering around in the water. "You
didn't have to shoot me," he said to her in a lilt millions of Americans
would find comedic. "You were
going to shoot me," she said reasonably. Butch, Perry
and Mack crowded back to the gunwale to help the last gunman onboard. Anna
looked around for something that might better her odds but saw nothing. Going
over the side wouldn't do her much good, and at the moment her back was a plank
of stiff hard-core pain. She doubted she could move very fast. "I was
not," Rick said. "Nobody's supposed to get shot." "You play
with guns, accidents happen," Anna said unsympathetically. The gunman from
shore was brought aboard, cursing—or so it sounded to Anna—in rapid-fire
Spanish. He, too, was young and Cuban and as clean-cut as a fellow could be
dragged from the surf carrying an automatic weapon. He held it by the barrel
the way a drunk might hold a bottle of Johnny Walker. Once he had both feet in
the boat he threw it down. "Hey!
Watch it, Jose." That was from
Butch. A chill shivered through the two Cuban boys and Mack. "Paulo,"
the boy said, then spoke angrily in Spanish while the boat rocked, Rick bled
and Anna watched. Mack cut him
off with a few words Anna didn't understand—her Spanish running a short gamut
from hola to cervesa. Then Mack turned to Butch. "Leave it
alone," he said. "Si,
senor" Butch said. In her mind
Anna was chanting fight! fight! but they didn't. Mack expressed
his anger mechanically. He shoved the cigarette boat's throttles ahead, and the
powerful engines all but stood the narrow boat on its stern. Anna and the
Cubans were sitting on the deck and only slid. Butch grabbed onto Perry and
both fell, landing on young Rick's wounded leg. The engines
roared. Rick screamed. Perry lost his gun. It and Paulo's discarded weapon slid
down the deck. The pain in her back anesthetized by hope and adrenaline, Anna
pounced on the first one that came her way, rolled and, still lying on her
side, hugged the butt close to her ribs, muzzle pointed at the tangle of blood,
water and men. "Shit." "Fuck." "My
leg." "Watch it,
Jose." "Jesus." Anna waited as
this intellectual exchange sorted itself out. Over the sound of engine, wind
and waves, any shouted commands would be lost. Perry was the
first to extricate and right himself and the first to notice the balance of
power had slid into Anna's court during the impromptu skirmish. "Holy
fuck, she's got a gun," he announced. The men stopped
mid-scramble. Had Anna been in a cheerier frame of mind she would have found it
funny. "Stop the
goddamn boat," Butch yelled. Mack looked
back for the first time. He cut power and the boat's bow fell into the ocean
with a jar that sent a numbing pain up Anna's arm from where her elbow
connected with the deck. She didn't drop the Uzi, nor would she. She and
Charlton Heston. They would have to pry the thing from her cold dead hands. Before the
others could recover, she snatched the second weapon and threw it over the
side, then sat up. Two automatic weapons remained to her kidnappers. Rick was
all but sitting on one. Butch's Uzi was still in his hands. "Put it
down, Butch," Anna said into the relative quiet of the engine's idle.
Without forward drive, the boat pitched and heaved sickeningly. Anna had her
elbows braced on her knees, butt and feet firmly on the deck so it bothered her
not at all. Rick looked as if he was about to be sick. Given pain, shock and
rough seas, Anna wasn't surprised. Butch, Perry and Mack were clearly used to
the water. They rode the deck without effort. "See what
you've done with your stupid fucking around," Perry yelled at Mack.
"If you'd driven the boat like a goddamn white man she wouldn't've gotten
it." "Leave it
alone," Butch said. He never looked away from Anna. Perry was dangerous
but Butch was the powerbase. Kidnap, killing: Anna guessed he'd done it before.
Unlike his young protйgй, when things went bad he became calm. Butch twitched
the gun. "Down,"
Anna said sharply, and he stopped but he didn't let go of it. "I haven't
the patience to screw around with you. Throw it over the side." The ache
in her back, near drowning, maybe shock, came over her in a palpable wave. She
was too wired up to feel afraid, but shaking started behind her breastbone and began
spreading outward. Before it reached her hands, she needed compliance. Mack watched
her, an odd mixture of admiration and stunned disappointment on his weathered
face. "The
gun," Anna said quietly, and she moved the barrel of hers till it pointed
at the middle of Butch. "Oh,
wait," Rick said, his voice light and young all of a sudden. "That
gun's got no bullets." "Shall I
test out Rick's assertion on you?" Anna asked Butch. "Throw it over
the side." Careful not to
turn the automatic in such a way Anna might mistake it for aggression, Butch
held the Uzi out over the gunwale. "No.
Really," Rick insisted. "She got my gun. I used all the ammo. See,
it's got my initials on the barrel. I used my sister's fingernail polish
because it won't come off." Anna didn't
look but the ring of truth and the childish detail of the name shook her. "Drop
it," she yelled at Butch, but he'd believed Rick. He swung the gun toward
her. Anna pulled the trigger. "See?"
Rick said. Before it could
be retrieved and reloaded Anna threw it overboard to join its fellow. Diving
around East Key was going to be exciting for somebody. "No!"
and the rattle of machine gun fire so close it hurt the eardrums. Anna
flattened into the bottom of the boat. At this range a bullet would go through
her body and the boat's hull. If they shot her, at least they'd sink their own
damn boat. Nobody shot her, though it had been a genuine attempt. Mack had hit
Butch's arm and the shots had gone high. "No
killing," Mack said. "She's a
pain in the ass. You get rid of her or she's going to be trouble." "No I
won't," said Anna. "I'll be good. I promise." "See?"
said Rick again. Rick and Paulo believed her. They really were very young. Butch ignored
her. "We don't need trouble," he said. "You shoot
a federal law-enforcement officer and all of a sudden it gets personal. They
won't give up," Mack told him. "They
don't find the body so nobody got shot so they're short one pain-in-the-ass
bitch. Nobody's going to look too hard." "No
killing." "Yeah.
Right," Perry said and smirked. Butch shut him
up with a look. "You got it, Mack. But the vest goes. I don't want any
supergirl shit." "Sure,"
Mack said. "Lose the
vest," Butch said. "I
can't," Anna said. "I don't have anything on under it." Butch
was unmoved by the argument, but Anna figured anything was worth a try. The shakes that
threatened earlier had migrated and her fingers trembled and fumbled with the
buttons of her shirt and the Velcro tabs on the Kevlar vest underneath. For the
first time in a while she wished she were in the habit of wearing a bra. The
rain had let up to a gentle, wind-born drizzle, but when Anna removed the heavy
vest she felt cold. Colder. Fear, consciously admitted or not, had shut down
much of the blood flow to her extremities. Because she
needed to know them, Anna watched the men watching her. Rick and Paulo averted
their eyes. Perry saw the vest come off with a leer in his eye, looking for a
cheap thrill. Butch looked on only for treachery and concealed weapons. Mack's
face registered something very like pain or maybe hatred. "Toss
it," Butch said. Anna did as she
was told, but as the hot, miserable, uncomfortable thing had saved her life,
she hated to see it go. She put her shirt back on. The back of it was in
shreds. Both bullets had struck her at an angle. Without the vest the lead
would have cut tunnels the width of her body. "Are we
set?" Mack asked. Butch was still
focused on Anna. "Cuff yourself." Anna took the
cuffs from her pouch on her duty belt and put one loosely around her left wrist.
It was funny how much louder the ratcheting was to the one being cuffed. In
various law-enforcement training sessions Anna and countless others in the
field had been warned of how deadly a weapon unsecured cuffs can be, or cuffs
secured only on one side. Properly used, the metal, the hook, the chain, the
teeth on the locking mechanism, could maim and kill. Fleetingly, Anna wished
she'd paid more attention in class. Probably when she was drawing cartoons or
writing her sister under the guise of note-taking, one small middle-aged woman
armed with half a pair of handcuffs facing five grown men, two armed with
automatic weapons, had been covered. "Other
side." Fantasies of
morphing into Jean Claude Van Damme evaporated. Anna closed the cuff over her
right wrist. Secure enough to come closer, Butch leaned down and squeezed the
cuffs, tightening them to where she wouldn't be able to wriggle out. "Where's
the key?" "It's on
the key chain in the Reef Ranger's ignition," she told him. Butch gave her
a few seconds to recant her lie, and Anna fought the urge to say Honest,
really, go look and settled for sullenness. One cuff key was on her key
ring. Like many law-enforcement people, she kept a spare key—they were tiny
things, like the key to a girl's jewelry box—in the watch pocket of her
trousers. As women's uniform shorts lacked this amenity, she carried it in the
breast pocket of her shirt. Had Butch cuffed her hands behind her back she'd
have been out of luck. Mack watched
the exchange with growing impatience. Anna wondered if he regretted his
decision not to let Butch shoot her. Cuffed, she sat timidly back in the stern
by the wounded Rick. "We're
set," Butch said. Before Mack
could power up, Anna said: "Hey, Mack, could you put one of these goons on
the Reef Ranger? Drive it back? I lose another boat here and I'll be
writing reports till you guys get out of the penitentiary." For a bleak
while he stared at her. Then he smiled, a mere cracking of the wrinkles on his
cheeks. "Sure." Perry started
to say something rude, but Butch cut him off. "Anybody sees an NPS boat
adrift's going to raise an alarm." They'd intended
to rescue the boat all along. The strength Anna's tiny victory afforded her
soaked into the ache in her back and was absorbed. Mack circled the little key.
Perry jumped ship to pilot the Reef Ranger back to the fort. Butch
watched Anna. When Mack got the go-fast boat up to speed and the howl of the
engine and pounding of the hull on the waves created a solid wall of noise
between the stern and where Butch leaned near the pilot's console, Anna spoke
to Rick. "I'm an
emergency medical technician," she said over the racket. "I've seen a
lot of wounds. That's a bad one. It could have nicked the femoral artery." Rick looked up,
his ashen face growing perhaps a shade paler. "Butch said it wasn't
spurting. I was okay if it wasn't spurting. It's hardly bleeding at all." Anna studied
the red-black hole for a moment. "I hate to say it but the placement's
bad. You could be bleeding to death inside. Never know it, then bang. Lights
out." The pupils of
Rick's eyes grew larger, blacker. "No," he said. "That's crap.
It's not spurting." "Easy
enough to tell," Anna said, then leaned back and pretended to lose
interest. The Cuban boy
stood it as long as he could—about forty-five seconds—before he blurted out
"How can you tell?" The boy was too
easy. Looking at the pale and sweating face, the too-wide eyes, Anna knew she
ran the risk of putting him into deeper shock. People died of shock. Guilt
prodded her insides. Handcuffed and aching, she found it fairly easy to ignore. Starting with
questions to which the answers had to be yes, she asked: "Arc yon feeling
lightheaded?" Then she went through the litany of shock: "Dizzy,
sweating, nauseous, anxious?" Rick, growing
more panicked by the moment, answered yes to them all. "Internal
bleeding," Anna said matter-of-factly. "If we don't get you to a
doctor soon . . . Maybe I should call for the medevac helicopter when we get
back to a phone." "Oh Jesus.
Oh Jesus. Mary Mother of God." Anna didn't
know if the boy prayed or swore. She just knew she needed help. To justify the
caching of fuel, the kidnapping of a ranger and probably at least one murder,
Mack and his cronies must be planning on importing a whole hell of a lot of
"product." Mack cut power
so he wouldn't cause a wake. He was too clever to call attention to himself by
rude or illegal boating practices. A shrimper had arrived and rocked at anchor. Butch left his
place by the helm and stepped back to where Anna sat terrifying Rick. The
moment the roar of the engines died, the wounded man began babbling. "Look
you guys, you got to get me to a doctor. This lady says I got bleeding inside.
Please. I don't maybe have long. Oh God. Oh Jesus." "Shut up,
you'll live," Butch snapped. "What she been telling you?" he
demanded. The boy repeated the dire forecast Anna had outlined. "It's
crap. She's lying. No calls." He leaned down and backhanded Anna hard
across the face, moving so quickly she scarcely saw it coming and had no time
to duck. The blow caught her ear and the pain made tears start. Before her head
cleared she was aware of a rough voice near her ringing ear and hot breath on
her cheek. "You're a sneaky bitch, I'll give you that, but I ain't got
time for your shit. You talk to anybody and I kill you. Got that?" "Got
it," Anna said. This time she saw it coming but could do nothing about it.
The back of Butch's hand smashed into her temple with such force it loosed the
pains in her back. If she hadn't been so pissed off, she would have screamed. "You got
that?" he asked again. Anna nodded, no
sound. "You may
stay alive, but don't count on it." He took a blue
plastic tarp from storage beneath a bench seat, shook it out and threw it over
her. "You move and I crush your skull." Anna didn't nod.
The first time had been enough to loose her neck hinges, again and her head
might topple off into her lap. Being smuggled into her own harbor beneath an
old tarpaulin as if she were a shipment of something so vile the public mustn't
be affronted by having to look upon it wasn't the indignity it could have been.
Hidden in the tent made by head and knees, she was free to fish the tiny
handcuff key out of her shirt pocket. Blinded, the leap and crash of the
cigarette boat was more disconcerting than when she could brace herself, but in
the harbor, the water was considerably flatter and she managed her task. Having
unlocked both cuffs, she didn't remove them but loosened them to the point
where, with a little effort, she could wriggle her hands free. That done, she
put the key back in her pocket and waited. On shipboard,
with men intent on keeping her in their control apparently at any price, was
not the time to flaunt her freedom or attempt escape or coup. Maybe later when
the odds were better. If there was to be a later. If the odds got better. Bumping that
caused Anna to fall into Rick, and Rick to cry out in pain, announced their
arrival at the dock. The tarp was jerked off and rough hands hauled her to her
feet. Mack had taken
the slip at the visitors' dock. Butch leaped offboard and began tying the boat
to the cleats. The wind had slacked off but rain came down steadily, and low,
thick skies brought an early dusk. Visibility was down to nearly nothing, and
the beach was deserted. Two tents, campers huddled inside, remained in the
small campground. Butch grabbed a
towel and threw it over Anna's cuffed wrists, then took her by the elbows.
"Keep those handcuffs covered as if your life depended on nobody seeing
them," he hissed in her ear. Anna nodded,
gently this time, keeping her head balanced on top of her spine. Butch half
lifted her out of the boat. She stumbled on the dock and he hauled her upright.
"None of your crap." His grip tightened above her elbow, squeezing
till she could feel her fingers growing numb from lack of blood. "No
crap," Anna said. "Just clumsy. Loosen up before I get gangrene, for
Pete's sake. You afraid I'm going to get the better of you in hand-to-hand
combat?" Butch outweighed Anna by a hundred pounds and was a good
ten inches taller. "Shut the
fuck up," he said, but he did loosen his grip somewhat. Rick was next.
Mack and Paulo helped him out of the boat and over to one of the pilings so he
could support himself. "You gotta
walk, Jose," Perry said. He'd docked the Reef behind the red boat.
"We aren't calling attention to ourselves because you got yourself shot by
a girl ranger." Rick looked to
be fighting back tears. "I can't," he said. "You got to get me a
doctor." "You'll
walk and you don't limp, neither," Perry growled. Anna'd not seen him pull
it but Perry had a knife in his hands, a wicked-looking little number with a
blade about three inches long and nearly that wide, both edges honed for
cutting. "Hey!"
Mack yelled when he saw the blade. Both Perry and Butch turned dull, flat eyes
on him. Eyes like carp Anna thought. Or shark. Eyes in which the
windows to the soul were blacked out from within. Mack looked
from one to the other. His blue eyes, once too light and cold for Anna's taste,
by comparison looked reassuringly human. There was an exchange between the
three men, thug number one, thug number two and Mack, but Anna wasn't sure
exactly what transpired. An understanding was reached, a balance of power
shifted, a new card turned up on the table. This moment of
dark epiphany was over before Anna could swear it happened. "I'll get one
of the carts," Mack said. "It'll be easier than herding her and
holding up Rick." "Give him
a hand, Perry," Butch ordered. The two men walked off over the sand to be
swallowed by the black maw of the sally port. Under hostile skies, brick dark
with rain, the fort was a forbidding place. Anna found herself thinking not of
the gunman at her elbow, the wounded Cuban boy or Mack's treachery, but of her
ancestors, Raffia and Tilly, of the pressing company of warring men, innocence
preyed upon and innocence lost. Though Anna would kill him if she had to—and if
she got half a chance—William Macintyre had started out the innocent here.
Maybe. Maybe it didn't matter, but she'd watch, ready to shove her fingers into
any small crack that might appear in this little crime family. "You got
to get me to a doctor," Rick began again. Movement had started his leg
bleeding. It was no more than a seep, but mixed with the rain, and the only
true color in a gray landscape, it made a good show. The sight of it was
renewing the boy's panic, pushing him deeper into shock. Anna wondered if she'd
killed him with her lies. "You keep
crying and I'll give you something to cry about," Butch said. The statement
was so incongruous Anna said: "You got kids?" before she remembered
the cuff her last spontaneous outburst had earned her. "Shut the
fuck up," Butch said. A man of few words. Rick turned
panicked eyes on Paulo. White showed around the dark irises. His skin was the
color of the sky. "You'll be okay," Paulo said. "We'll get you
to a doctor tomorrow." Anna's plan to
divide and conquer was probably doomed to failure. She might have literally
scared Rick to death for nothing. She took pity on the boy. "Rick,
listen to me," she said. "Shut
the—" Butch began. Anna stopped
him, both hands up, palms out, "No. Let me." For some reason
he did. "Look at
me Rick." He did. "You're
not going to die. You're not bleeding internally. You've got a little bitty
piece of lead in your leg about the size of the tip of my little finger. I said
all that stuff so these bozos would let me call the mainland. You're not going
to die. Are you hearing me?" "You lied
about me bleeding to death?" The look of shocked disbelief made her want
to laugh. Knowing it would verge on the hysterical, she didn't give in to it.
"Yes. I lied. A bald-faced lie. There's a nurse here, she'll tell you the
same." "No
nurse," Butch said. "Okay. No
problem. We'll get you some hot tea, get that leg up, and you'll be right as
rain." Anna's decent impulse earned her the reward of seeing a hint of
color return to the boy's lips. "You can
do that, okay?" she asked Butch. "Let me get him some tea, bandage
the leg?" "Maybe." Paulo got a bit
of his spine back. He stood up straight, balled his fists. He was a big guy,
almost as big as Butch. The older man took in his situation and did some rapid
mental calculations. "Sure," he said. "Why not?" He even
managed to force a semblance of affability into his voice, if not his eyes. Mack, driving
the electric cart, materialized out of the rain. The absolute silence of the
machine continued to amaze Anna. On occasion she pictured cities running in
blissful quiet, the streets and avenues of New York whispering through rush
hour. "Is
everything quiet?" Butch asked. "It'll
take a few minutes to kick in," Mack replied. An image of
poisoned corpses strewn about sprang to Anna's mind. For a panicked moment she
fought the urge to slip off her cuffs and take her chances in the sea. 26 I Stayed with
Dr. Mudd another quarter of an hour. I tried all the tricks—bluster, threat,
innuendo, pleading—I have learned over a lifetime of watching Molly and Joseph
get the truth from wayward girls and soldiers. Mudd never changed his story: he
had not summoned Tilly the night she disappeared, he had asked neither her nor
Joel to carry his proof to the mainland in any but a safe and usual channel, he
knew nothing of the children's whereabouts or destination. Dr. Mudd
theorized—and it sounded as if he believed what he was saying, but I am a woman
easily fooled by liars—the plan to remove both Tilly and Joel was hatched by
Samuel Arnold. According to Mudd, Mr. Arnold knew the doctor was innocent of
conspiracy but would do all he could to keep that information from getting out
and, thus, starting a hunt for the real conspirator, this doppelganger in the
purloined photograph. Knowing Mudd to have had a falling-out with his cellmate,
I found his theory self-serving. It too neatly fitted facts only Dr. Mudd was privy
to and told the story he was desperate for others to believe. I did not take it
on faith. Still, it was sufficiently sensical, I knew I must speak with Mr.
Arnold despite the strictures laid upon me. After much
cajoling on my part, Mudd told me the name of the soldier he had suborned into
carrying messages to Tilly: Charley Munson. At first I couldn't place the name
in the roster of near a thousand boys and men at Fort Jefferson. Once Mudd
described him it came back. Charley Munson was the boy-faced soldier Tilly and
I briefly glimpsed the night of the theatrical, when we'd been drawn into this
prolonged insanity by Joel's screams. Private Munson had been on duty at the
sally port when Sergeant Sinapp hung Joel by the thumbs. I remember how
white-faced and stricken he looked. Sympathy for a fellow recruit, even if an
enemy in name, must have made him vulnerable to Dr. Mudd's winning ways. Shortly
thereafter I left Dr. Mudd to his dungeon, feeling my way out like one of the
blind mice and sharing the same terror that a carving knife was poised above my
tail. The watch was calling three A.M. when I slipped out of the stifling
darkness of our man-made cavern and into the shadows at the edge of the parade
ground. Less than an hour had passed. I'd thought I'd been so long whispering through
the bars of the dungeon I would emerge to a full dawn and have to run a
gauntlet of curious and mocking eyes as I scurried home in my husband's
trousers. Knowing I had
at least two more hours of darkness decided me. Trying to keep to the shadows,
call no attention to myself, yet not appear furtive should a sentry catch sight
of me, I made my way through casemates housing cannon and shot till I reached
the small opening into the south side of the sally port. This is a mere slot in
the brick, narrow and shaped in an el for easy defense. There in the black of
the shadows I watched the guardroom across the entryway. It was too much
to hope that Charley Munson would be on duty. Neither of the sentries were men
I knew. They were passing the time in the forbidden but common practice of one
keeping watch while the other napped. From my many
visits to Joel I knew where the key to the casemates was kept. All the keys
were stored in a heavy wooden box bolted into the brick to the left of the
guardroom door. The box was padlocked but the key to the lock was stashed in a
niche carved out of the mortar a couple of feet above and to the right of the
box. There was a
good deal of coming and going in the cells: food, water, men going to and
returning from work, laundresses, mail when the ship brought it, so I suppose
this weakness in the system was considered less problematic than having
sentries lose the key periodically or have half a dozen keys in as many
pockets. The guard whose
turn it was to sleep was doing so most profoundly. From where I stood in my
niche in the shadows I could not see him, but I could hear the snoring. The
sentry on watch paced back and forth. Four times he walked through the sally
port, stopping for a moment to gaze out over the harbor, then back to stop
again to do the same with the parade ground. Each time, he passed within six
feet of where I stood and never sensed or saw me. I was frightened and anxious
about my ability to carry out my plan—if you will allow me the conceit of
calling anything so crude a plan—but being thus secret and watching gave me a
heady sense of power, as though I could go where I wished, do what I wished and
there would be no consequences. Perhaps I am cut out for a life of stealth and
deceit. If not for the accompanying feeling that I should vomit at any moment,
I would be tempted. Under his
breath the sentry was whistling a lively tune brought to the fort by the
confederate soldiers. We have won the battle but it is their battle hymns our
children will sing. Whether this
pacing out and in and out was what was required of the night sentry or whether
this whistler merely stretched his legs to stay awake I couldn't know. Nor
could I foresee how much longer the pattern might continue. Before the utter
stupidity of my so-called plan could dissuade me, I acted. As the sentry
reached his farthest-most point from the guardroom door in his pendulum swing,
I slipped out of my crevice, across the sally port and into the guardroom.
There I flattened myself against the wall as he turned and paced back. Hearing
sharpened by fear, I was aware of every scuff of his boots, every fragment of
gravel set in motion by his passage. He slowed as if he stopped or turned to
come back to his roost. My stomach grew tighter till I had to swallow back the
bile in my throat. Across from where I stood was the sleeping guard. I watched
with terror each time an explosive spasm of snorts and gurgles threatened such
violence that I thought he must surely wake himself. Hearing the
outside soldier's boots stop, this time for real, at the parade ground end of
his short patrol, I slipped the key from its niche and unlocked the cabinet. A
person perennially terrified would miss nothing of life. Each movement, each
second that passed, I was acutely aware of: small snicks of the key in the
lock, the faint creak of the hinges as I opened the cabinet. These were
magnified till it seemed I passed half a lifetime in the doing. The clatter the
key I took from the third peg made as it bumped the one below rang so loudly in
my ears I thought the whole garrison must wake. Lest the guards
have cause to look in the cabinet anytime soon, I took a key from another peg
and used it to replace the one I'd stolen, in hopes immediate suspicion would
take them some other place than where I intended to go. This done, I relocked
the cabinet and slipped the key to the padlock back between the bricks. The key
to the casemate I put in my trouser—or, rather, Joseph's trouser—pocket. Footsteps began
again. The eternity I'd spent fumbling with locks and keys, with snorts and
snores and the sound of my own heart beating in my ears, had passed in that
brief moment while the sentry surveyed the parade ground. Once again,
back against the wall, face to face with the man dreaming in his chair, I prayed
to each and every saint Molly ever made us light candles to but especially to
St. Dismas, the patron saint of thieves. It was he whom I thought might be most
sympathetic with my spiritual needs at that moment. Either my
prayers were heard or heaven was closed to me, leaving me free to do the
devil's work. The sentry passed. I slipped out of the guardroom and around the
corner. In moments I was in the inky darkness within the spiral stairwell.
Courage and strength deserted me and I sat till the shaking in my legs and the
staggering faintness of my heart passed and I could walk again. Sitting in the
dark hugging my knees, gasping for breath and trying to keep my insides from
vibrating so hard they rattled my teeth, I thought of the soldiers asleep
around me. How did they go into battle? How could they make their legs work as
cannon banged and their fellows bled and died or fell screaming? Once I fancied
myself a courageous woman and had fantasies of stanching wounds with my
petticoats or daring enemy lines to carry messages to turn the tide of war. No more. Hiding
in that twisting round of slate and stone I was acutely aware that life is the
only gift God gives us that we cannot earn, find, build or bake for ourselves. When I had
recovered—a matter of minutes really, though they passed a thousand times
faster than in the guardroom—I felt my way to the second tier. Whereas the
utter dark of the passage to the dungeon had unnerved me, this darkness was my
friend, indicating I was alone. I was sorry to leave it when I reached the top
of the stairs and had to walk in the open for half a dozen yards before I could
again hide myself, this time in the passageway behind the enclosed casemates. I had stolen
the key, I had reached my destination, yet I stood before the door and did
nothing. It wasn't fear of Sam Arnold that held me there. Foolish as it looks
in retrospect, I had no fear that Mr. Arnold would do me harm. My fear was for whom
I would become in the eyes of my neighbor, of my husband, when it was known I
had gone alone in the middle of the night to call on a man. As I stood feeling
terrible shame, as if every woman in the fort already gossiped about me and
every man made bawdy jokes when my name came up, I couldn't but think of the
times Tilly had come without me. Young and foolish and wrong as she was, Tilly
had not hesitated to do what she believed was just. She was taught, as are all
girls, what involving herself in scandal could do to her reputation and her
future, yet she did it anyway. Could I do
less? I unlocked the
door and stepped inside. The darkness here was different. Little air came into
the casemate. Without the cooling ocean breeze to clear away the heat and the
inevitable stink of occupation, it was a darkness that not only lay heavy on my
eyelids but thick and choking in my throat. Mr. Arnold had
shared the back casemate with Dr. Mudd, Joel using the first one inside the
door. I hoped, though Joel and the doctor were gone, Mr. Arnold would have kept
to the same bed out of habit. If Mr. Arnold was still in residence. It had not
occurred to me until that moment that Sam Arnold might have been moved as well;
that new tenants might be sleeping around my feet at that very moment. The
quaking fear that had beset me in the stairwell threatened to return. Before it
could cripple me or send me crashing blindly for the door, I began speaking. "Mr.
Arnold? Mr. Arnold. It's Mrs. Coleman. I'm sorry to call so late." Calling
indeed. It has been years since I have used calling cards, and this was not a
place with a silver salver in the entrance hall to receive them. At last a light
was struck in the far room and I fairly rushed toward it. Mr. Arnold, candle in
hand, was propped up on his bed of bricks and boards wearing nothing but the
corner of a thin blanket. Stopping in the doorway to the room he now had to
himself, I wanted to explain myself but no words came. For the longest
time he stared at me and I felt myself growing smaller by the moment. Finally
he spoke: "What do you want, boy?" The success of
my disguise reassured me for some reason, and my vocabulary returned.
"It's Mrs. Coleman. I need to speak with you." "Does
anybody know you are here?" Before I could
think better of it, I told him no. 27 The Storm
brought darkness early. As the electric cart slipped noiselessly through the
sally port, Anna could see welcoming gold light in the windows of the Shaws'
house across the parade ground and the window of Daniel's casemate apartment to
the left. Mack stopped the cart in front of the administrative offices. With
the switching off of the electric motor there came a metallic crunching sound
as if a giant spoon had fallen into a monster garbage disposal. As one, every
light in the compound went dark. "That's it
then," Mack said. Perry and Butch
leapt from the cart and, automatic rifles under their arms, ran across the
parade ground, one toward Daniel's apartment and one toward the Shaws'. "The
generators," Anna said. "You sabotaged them." "Nobody's
to radio out," Mack said. Without at
least one of the six generators up and running the fort was dead: no lights, no
water pumped, no radio or phone contact with the mainland. "It's not
going to work, Mack. You don't have enough men. You don't have enough men with
Rick wounded. The Shaws, Daniel, somebody will radio a boat in the harbor, and
they'll call the coast guard. "We've got
enough," Mack said. "All we need is a couple of hours." "The storm
will have held your boats up," Anna predicted. Mack said nothing. Paulo
was holding a pistol he'd been given by Butch in place of the Uzi Anna'd thrown
overboard. It was a .44 Magnum, a huge gun and one Anna hadn't seen since Clint
Eastwood quit making the Dirty Harry movies. Paulo stood aside as Mack opened
the office door, then returned to the cart to help Rick. Paulo followed Anna
inside. She started to
sit at Teddy's desk by phone, computer and Mrs. Shaw's radio sitting in its
charger. "There," Paulo said, indicating a lonely chair in the corner
by the coffeepot. "They won't work without the generators," she said.
"Why not let me be comfortable?" Paulo took the
portable radio and stuck it in the hip pocket of his shorts. Mack came in and
settled Rick in the chair Anna'd been denied. "Keep her away from the
radios. She could raise a shrimp boat from one," he said and left. He would be
going to the third tier to destroy the microwave dish, Anna guessed. It alone
had the power to function without the generators, to contact the mainland. Mack
was a maintenance man. He knew how the fort worked. "Let me
help Rick," Anna said. The two young men were easy with each other.
Willing to stand close together, willing to let a shoulder brush or an elbow
touch. Rick and Paulo were friends, maybe even related. "I lied about Rick
dying of internal bleeding," she said. "But I didn't lie about the
danger of shock. Let me help him." Fear still
pinched and grayed Rick's face. He wanted to be helped, comforted. He didn't
speak for himself but looked to Paulo. Older men, in their thirties and
forties, had been out in the world long enough to realize they were truly
alone. For young men not long from home there was no person more reassuring
than a woman their mothers' age; a safe middle-aged lady, the traditional
bringer of soup and kisser of skinned knees. "Maybe
you're lying now," Paulo said. "I'm not.
I swear on the Virgin Mary and all the saints, I'm not lying," Anna said.
Cuban boys, raised in Miami, Anna was banking on the fact that they were
Catholic and her oath would not only mean something to them but suggest in some
part of their minds that she was like them, one of them. "Okay,"
Paulo said. "But no funny stuff." "The red
nose and fright wig will say in my pocket," Anna promised. "Whatever.
But you don't try anything." "I'd work
better with the handcuffs off," she said. "No." Anna took that
calmly. She'd not wanted Paulo to mess with the cuffs and notice they were
loose, but it would have been out of character not to ask. Her life might
depend on whether or not these men took a liking to her and because Rick,
despite being a kidnapper, a pirate and possibly a murderer, seemed like a good
kid, Anna treated him as best she knew how. Half a pot of water for tea, not
yet grown cold without electricity, remained on the warming plate. "How many
are coming?" she asked when she'd established as homey an atmosphere as
possible given a man held a gun on her. "Three
hundred, about," Rick said proudly. "Don't
talk to her about that," Paulo said, but there was no force behind the
words, so Rick ignored them. They both wanted to talk, and Anna was just the woman
to listen. "That's a
lot of souls," she said without looking up from cleaning the blood away
from the wound. It had almost stopped bleeding, and she had no intention of
opening it up again with overzealous washing. She just wanted to get a better
picture of the damage. "Why
here?" Anna knew why here, but she wanted to keep the words flowing. "All they
gotta do is put one foot on American soil and you can't turn 'em back. One
foot. Out here is still America. By the time anybody gets word, all our boats
will be long gone. Nobody goes to jail." Rick was sipping the tea Anna
poured for him. The warm liquid and the sugar were putting color back in his
face and confidence back in his voice. "Three
hundred," Paulo said. "I don't think anybody's ever done it so
big." They were so
clearly pleased with their work, Anna decided to push. "So. You two guys
will get rich off the problems of your Cuban brothers and sisters." She
uttered this condemnation as if it were a compliment, as if she admired their
entrepreneurial spirit. "What will you rake in, two, three thousand a
head? Split five ways. Let's see . . . nine hundred grand. . . . That's close
to two hundred thousand a piece. Not bad for a couple days' work." "No!"
Rick said. The cry was so full of pain Anna wasn't sure whether it had arisen
from the poke at his intentions or the wound on his leg. "It's not
for the money," Paulo said simultaneously. "You Americans, you sit
over here rich and fat and you got everything when ninety miles away people got
nothing and they're getting hurt and killed for what they believe, and you turn
the boats back like they were garbage scows not good enough to dirty up your
pretty white beaches. Money, that's all you think of." "Pretty
much," Anna said agreeably. "We've got all this terrific stuff. You
guys want some of our great stuff. You come over here and we have to share and
there's less stuff for us. Capitalism, free enterprise, it's all about
stuff." They seemed
nonplussed that she neither argued nor acted offended. Quiet prevailed for a
bit, the only sound, now that the ubiquitous hum of six generators had been
silenced, was the tap of rain on the windows and the spastic tick of the
battery-operated wall clock. "So,"
Anna said. "You guys are carrying three hundred people to American soil
for free, out of the kindness of your hearts?" More rain. More
ticking. "We had costs," Rick said. "Ah." "We did it
for what it cost us," Paulo said. "What's
water-taxi fare to the free world these clays?" "This
isn't any of your business," Paulo snapped as dear young Rick blurted:
"A thousand dollars." "Nice
round number," Anna said. "Stand up. Let me see the back of your
leg." Rick stood
obediently and turned around. The fist-sized hole in the back of Rick's leg was
about half full of bloody hamburger. "Holy
Mary—" Paulo started to whisper. Anna shot him a filthy look and he had
sense enough to keep the rest of his horrors to himself. "What?
What?" Rick was demanding, his voice sliding higher with each word. "Nothing I
didn't expect," Anna said reassuringly. "Most bullets these days are
fired with such force they go right through a human body and out the other
side. That is if you're lucky and a bone doesn't get in the way. This is just
the exit wound. You're in good shape. Not much bleeding. I'll dress it and put
a pressure bandage on. You'll be fine." She stopped
comforting Rick and turned to Paulo. "I want you to see something. Come
here." "Show me
from here." How quickly
they learn to mistrust, Anna thought. And she was such a good teacher. "Sure."
The light had grown so dim she'd been studying the wound with her nose almost
on the back of Rick's knee. "I'm going to need a flashlight. There's one
in the right-hand drawer of my desk. My office is straight back. The right
door." Paulo was torn.
The night that poured in under the storm wouldn't let her see his face, but
Anna could see decisions fighting in the turn of his head and the twitch of his
chin. "You get
it," he said finally. Anna started to move and he yelled. "No. Stay
there. I'll get it." Then, "Shit." "Paulo,
why don't you give the gun to Rick, he can hold it on me while you get the
light," Anna suggested. "I'll just sit over here in this chair."
She sat back in the chair by the coffee machine. "Okay. Here I am." "I don't
need to see anything," Paulo said. "You need
to see this," Anna told him. "Trust me." "Shit,"
he said again, but he gave the gun to Rick and headed for the back office. Anna sat very
still, face pleasantly neutral. Rick was still standing, the gun held in front
of him at waist level. He'd been upright too long. Anna could see the growing
unsteadiness, the way he blinked his eyes too often trying to clear away a fog
that was not on his eyes but inside his brain. There came a moment when she
might have been able to take him down, gotten the gun away from him. Instead
she said gently: "Sit down, Rick. You're about to pass out." "The
light." Paulo handed it to her and took the pistol from Rick. Anna asked Rick
to stand again for a minute and trained the flashlight's beam on the exit
wound. "Look at
the size of that. Okay Rick, turn around and sit." She pointed the light
at the bullet hole above his knee. It was closer to the size of a quarter than
a dime. "Now look at the size of the entry wound." The boys looked
but without any sudden enlightenment dawning on their faces. "I fired
two shots blind, underwater with a nine millimeter. It's powerful but
small—nine millimeters to be exact. Turns out I didn't shoot you, Rick. I
tried, mind you, but today isn't my lucky day. A bigger gun with bigger bullets
shot you. An Uzi maybe. Or that forty-four Paulo's been pointing at me." "What're
you saying?" Paulo demanded. "Are you saying I shot Rick? Fuck—" "No,"
Anna cut him off before he could work himself into a righteous rage. "I'm
saying I didn't. If you didn't and I didn't..." Rick took the
flashlight from her and shined it on his leg. "Paulo, she's right. This is
one damn big hole." "She's
lying. We don't know how big bullet holes are." "Shit we
don't. How many rabbits you figure you've shot? Ducks? Squirrels? Deer?
Alligators? I bet we've seen more bullet holes than most people. None of 'em
were big like this, big hole out the back like I got." "She's
lying," Paulo said again, but he didn't sound so convinced this time. "I'm
not," Anna said. "I swear by the blood Christ shed on the cross I'm
telling the truth." It was entirely possible she was, too. She had a
feeling that these credulous, misguided heroes might not be expected to live
through their adventure; that their role, as written by the other men, was to
be fall guys or corpses. "Perry or
Butch shot you," Anna said. "By
accident. They were shooting at you," Rick said. "You were
forty feet away from me, Rick, and not in the line of fire. You were off to the
left between Paulo on the beach and me in the water." Rick started to
laugh. "You think Butch or Perry shot me on purpose?" "That's
what I think." Rick stopped
laughing. "Maybe
three hundred grand, less whatever you're paying the boat crews, bribes to
Cuban officials and Mack's cut, isn't enough for them." "Mack
isn't taking a cut—" "Shut
up," Paulo shouted suddenly. "We don't talk about this anymore. We
don't talk to you anymore. Shut up, Rick, she's playing us." "It's not
me who's playing you," Anna said. "Shut the
fuck up," Paulo screamed, echoing his criminal mentor. The office door
banged open. Anna didn't say another word. 28 Samuel Arnold,
covered only by the blanket, and that rucked up to where little was left to the
imagination, was completely collected. He surveyed my strange attire with such
cool insolence that it was I who ended up blushing and stammering. "Out alone
at night, disguised as a boy, in a prisoner's cell; do you think that's
wise?" he asked me. "Wise
doesn't enter into it," I said. "Apparently
not." His clear
intention to keep me off balance had the effect of settling my nerves. There's
nothing like spite to give one false courage. False or not, I welcomed it.
"I need to ask you some questions, Mr. Arnold. Please cover
yourself." I used Molly's no-nonsense school voice, but he was impervious
even to the tones that had us quaking in our seats as children. "You
forget, Mrs. Coleman, that it is you who've forced yourself into my bedroom. I
shall receive you as I am." His customary dark humor had returned. As I
had come begging, I could not be choosing. "Very
well," I said and seated myself on the neatly piled brick that served as
the casemate's only chair. A mouse scuttled from behind it and scurried along
the wall and into the shadows away from the candlelight "My
cellmate," Mr. Arnold said and smiled. Threat, to mockery, to charm in
under a minute; he was a man of many faces. The attraction I'd occasionally
felt for him turned to something else. Perhaps fear. I didn't wish to linger
any longer than I had to. "I've
spoken to Dr. Mudd," I began without preliminaries. "He says he took
a photograph from you proving his innocence of conspiring to kill Mr. Lincoln.
He says he gave this picture into the safekeeping of my sister and suggested
that you, in your eagerness to suppress it, might have been involved in her
disappearance." Dr. Mudd had not said precisely those words, but I was
beyond niceties and hoped to shock, startle or shame Mr. Arnold into telling me
something useful. He was proof against it. "Dr. Mudd
used Tilly and now he's using you. I cannot condemn the man. I think he has
gone mad," he said calmly, still lounging on one elbow with lower limbs
exposed. He set the candle down on the bricks that served as his nightstand and
pulled himself into a sitting position. "Dr. Mudd did steal from me. My
sister sent me a photograph of a friend and myself in better days to cheer me.
Mudd got it in his head that this photograph was somehow meaningful. He took it
from my things and gave it to your sister. I have no idea what she did with
it." "Dr. Mudd
said the picture was of you and a man who looks very like Dr. Mudd. He told me
there was a date on the picture proving it was taken when he was elsewhere.
That the man with you was the true conspirator." When I said these things
Mr. Arnold's face underwent a change. By the light of the single candle it
seemed as if the bones beneath his skin shifted and reconfigured into a harder
form. Whether this was because he recognized the truth of my words or was
confirmed in his belief of the doctor's madness I couldn't say. "Mudd
would say anything to free himself," he said. "Would you
say anything to keep him imprisoned?" I asked. "Why would
I do that?" He smiled as if he mocked his own words. There was
little else I could do. I had asked and had my questions answered. Mr. Arnold
was quite comfortable with his story. Even if it were untrue, I was not going
to shake him loose from it. "You were
here the night Tilly and Joel disappeared," I said. "I was.
I've been told they ran away together. An elopement." "Did you
hear or see anything?" I asked. He didn't
answer me right away but sat thinking so long I began to be afraid he wouldn't.
When he finally spoke he seemed to be speaking honestly, as if, during the long
silence, he had weighed the consequences and decided the truth would serve as
well as a lie. "Yes,"
he said. "But I don't know if it will help. I heard voices in the middle
of the night. When you are a prisoner, voices in the dark engender strong
emotions. Part of you knows the enemy has come to shove a knife between your
ribs. Part of you hopes friends have come to set you free. I opened the door
between the casemates a crack, but no light had been struck. Men, probably more
than one but it was too dark to see anything, had come in. I heard grunts and
Joel saying, 'What is it?' and scuffling and another man's voice saying, 'Come
on.' That was it. The door closed and the lock turned. I'm sorry I can't tell
you more." He did seem
genuinely sorry, and his story had the simplicity of truth. It was not what I
wanted to hear. If a man had come for Joel, there was hope it was Charley, Dr.
Mudd's messenger boy, either acting on Mudd's behalf or, perhaps persuaded by
sympathy or bribes, acting as a go-between for Joel and Tilly. As it had been men
plural who'd come and taken Joel away, I couldn't but believe it was a
conspiracy of another sort, one too large and well-planned to have been put
together by a prisoner or a mere girl. And Mr. Arnold said he heard Joel say,
"What is it?" Had Joel sent the note or been planning to elope or
escape with our sister, he would have been awake and waiting, he would have
known what "it" was. The removal of
Tilly would be of no use to Dr. Mudd unless she had been sent to sea carrying
his ticket to freedom. When I'd spoken to him, Dr. Mudd did not strike me as a
man full of hope. Rather the opposite; a man whose hope has been dashed. If Tilly had,
or was at least believed to have had, proof of the doctor's innocence, there
were only two people I could think of who might want her silenced. The first
was Sergeant Sinapp. He was a man full of hatred. He would not want Mudd freed.
And he lusted after Tilly and hated Joel not only for surviving but for
capturing Tilly's heart—at least for a while. The other was sitting across from
me. If he were protecting this doppelganger, the true guilty party in the
murder of President Lincoln, he would probably not flinch at a second
conspiracy aimed at much less dangerous and important individuals. "I like
Tilly very much," Mr. Arnold said, and I realized I was staring at him.
"We all do. She is a spark of all that is bright in the grim place we've
been sent to die." "I have to
go." I left immediately. Mr. Arnold did not follow. I relocked the cell's
door behind me. I believed Mr. Arnold was innocent at least of Tilly's
disappearance. His kind words about our sister, though seemingly genuine, were
not what convinced me. It was his powerlessness. A prisoner as hated as himself
could not turn enough of our soldiers to carry out the abduction of two people. That left
Sergeant Sinapp. Something had made him powerful, snapped the short leash
Joseph had kept him on, freeing him to indulge his appetites and act out his
cruelty in the guise of discipline and patriotism. It was well within his
abilities to put Tilly and Joel on a ship out of here, maybe even sell Tilly to
the sailors or pay them to maroon her and Joel on some out-of-the-way island. Halfway down
the stairs, groping in the dark like a blind woman, tapping in search of the
next step, the despicable nature of the human race overcame me, rising like a
tide of the worst sort of filth. I cannot describe how unclean I felt, how
loathsome to be a member of this species. Despite the original goodness (or so
I hope) of my intentions in starting out on this adventure, I despised myself
for the absurdity and grotesquerie of dressing in a man's britches and shirt,
of creeping about in the dark, cornering men in cell and dungeon, men who
conspired to kill one of the greatest men of our time and, one of whom might
have had a hand in harming a beautiful and precious child. I recoiled from my
own flesh, from the stone around me, from the very smell of this place where men
were incarcerated, some tortured, beaten, here to die of fevers and accidents
and, the least fortunate, of old age. Once in the
relative light and space of the night parade ground I began to run. I couldn't
bear to walk past Sinapp's godforsaken trees and the godforsaken men who
dangled there crying out for water, water I hadn't the courage to stop and give
them. Had I been thinking clearly I wouldn't have done something so rash. At
that moment it was beyond me to stay still and quiet within my insane costume
and crawling skin. "You
there!" someone shouted, and I realized my ill-chosen movement had caught
the eye of the sentry on the north wall. For an instant I faltered, thinking I
would call back. I am, after all, the captain's wife. There are few good
reasons I might be out at that hour, but surely I could have come up with
something a soldier would choose to believe rather than face the consequences
of humiliating himself should he confront Joseph and find out I had not lied.
Then I remembered the clothing I wore and ran faster. The clothing could not be
explained away. The distance
from the stairwell to the side door in the officers' quarters is not great, but
my heart was pounding so I could hear little else, and my lungs were burning
when I reached the deep shade of the building's end. In the fifteen
or so seconds it had taken me to cross the parade ground, the sentry had
continued to shout: "Halt!" And, "You on the parade
ground!" And "Halt," again. Now that I'd stopped, over the
thudding in my ears, I could hear crunching on gravel and more shouting as the
sally port guards, alerted by the cries from ramparts, had begun to run after
me or perhaps merely in the direction the guard above had pointed. There was a
chance I'd not been seen by them. "East end
of the quarters," the sentry shouted from what sounded like directly above
my head. "There or in the barracks construction. You there. In the
shadows. Identify yourself or be shot." The terrors of
the night had come home to roost. I felt I'd been stripped naked and now must
show myself to the men of the garrison to be hooted and jeered and used. I
looked at the unfinished third tier where the voice was coming from. The sentry
had moved with me and was poised three stories up, his rifle squeezed to his
shoulder. The gun wasn't
pointing at me but at the deeper shadows across from me in a pile of lumber and
brick. He could not see me but only guessed my whereabouts. As quietly as I
could, hugging my protective shadow, I crept along the end of the building. The
fort's surgeon and his family share the apartments on this end of the quarters.
The next rooms house the engineer and his serving man. Then Joseph's and mine.
There is no egress from the back of the building to our quarters, but the
downstairs windows have not been closed since late April but for the one night
we got that blowing rain. Noise would
call the guards down upon me, but time was short. The sentries would soon come
from all points to join the search, and I must be in my bed by then, in my
matronly nightgown with my matronly virtue wrapped around me. I reached the
window that let into the downstairs hall adjacent to Luanne's room and began
pulling myself over the sill. Giddy with relief, had I not needed to keep quiet
and to rid myself of Joseph's clothes before the shouting and running brought
him out of his bed, I would have laughed. Then a hand
closed in the loose fabric at the seat of Joseph's trousers and I was jerked
roughly backwards. Not daring to cry out for help, I caught at the frame and
the sill but couldn't win my way free. Kicking, I connected with some part of
someone and was rewarded by a grunt and a loosening of the grip. Before I
regained even half the inches I'd won, my legs were grabbed and I was hauled
outward so quickly my chin banged the sill. It was all I could do to throw my
arms down before my face crashed into the ground. My shoulder was clutched so
hard it hurt. I was rolled to my back and a fist struck me above the temple. The shock of
the fall and the blow disoriented me. My brain felt as if it had been jarred
loose and slipped within my skull. The thick bone of my head must have hurt the
sentry's hand because he cursed and didn't strike me again immediately. Into
the brief respite I said: "No. It's me. Mrs. Coleman. Don't hit. Don't
hit." To my own ears I sounded like a grammar school teacher talking to a
small and very bad boy, but as he didn't hit me again, and as I could not feel
more foolish, frightened or horrified than I did already, I didn't judge myself
too harshly. "Mrs.
Coleman?" the voice said stupidly, and I felt myself being hauled
unceremoniously to my feet by the collar of Joseph's shirt. The key to Mr.
Arnold's cell slipped from the pocket of the baggy trousers and fell with an
odd sound. I believe it must have hit the sentry's boot. Had it been just a key
it might have gone unnoticed, but to mark them and keep them from being
inadvertently carried away, each key was attached to a small block of wood by a
leather thong. On the wooden block the cell number for the key was printed in
white paint. It had been my intention to get rid of the thing, drop it on the
parade ground where it would be conceivable some soldier could have lost it the
day before. In my mental distress I had forgotten to do so. Quick as a cat
he bent down, dragging me with him, to retrieve it. I lost my balance and fell
against him. "None of that," he snapped and shook me till my poor
brain slipped again. While he
studied the key, I studied him. Even in the shadows there was enough light to
see his face. It was Charley Munson, the boy-faced sentry whom Dr. Mudd had
suborned into carrying his messages to Tilly. I heard his
breath hiss in as he recognized the cell number on the wooden block.
"Quick," he whispered. Before I knew what it was I was to do, he
quickly clamped his hand over my mouth and dragged me away from the wall and
into the deeper shadows of the casemate opposite. Once there he
hissed, "Shhh," into my ear. I nodded and he transferred his hand
from my mouth to my upper arm in that crushing pinch Aunt Margaret used to
propel us from one place to another when we were girls. He hustled me into the
darker recesses of the casemate. By the smell, I knew we were making our way to
the bakery. Because all
other avenues seemed closed, I followed him willingly. 29 Cloaked in Wind
and rain and darkness, Perry slammed into the office with the violence of the
hurricane that never happened. The Uzi was in one hand, in the other a fistful
of long dark hair. A shove and Teddy Shaw was sent sprawling to the floor
weeping. Having closed
the door so hard the panes in the window rattled, Perry threw himself laughing
into the single chair by the coffee-maker. The Uzi swung between his splayed
knees in a frightening parody of modern manhood. "Whooee,"
he crowed. "Fought like a wildcat but the Shaws are secured." He was
obviously high, and Anna doubted it was drugs. Perry just loved his job. She knelt by
Teddy, who remained crumpled on the floor in the position she'd landed in. None
of the three men made any move to stop her. Down the right side of Teddy's face
was a cut oozing blood and beginning to darken into a bruise at the edges.
Other than that she seemed unharmed. "Lock them
in one of the back offices," Perry said. "They'll be safe enough
there. This place is built like a fort." Anna waited for him to laugh at
his own witticism but he wasn't being funny, just trite. She helped
Teddy to her feet, not wanting to give Perry an excuse for the violence he so
clearly fed on. Paulo and Rick remained in the exact same positions as they'd
been in before Perry made his dramatic entrance. Both looked dismayed. The
rules of the game had changed and they weren't sure how. Or why. Teddy was up,
still weeping but more quietly now that Anna held her hand in both hers, cuffed
together as they were. Anna started toward the back offices without further
prompting. An Uzi-toting thug was not her idea of a dream escort. Perry levered
himself out of the chair and sauntered behind them. Teddy left a fog of terror
and grief in her wake, and Perry apparently loved swimming in it. Having reached
the dwarf-sized door to her office, Anna ushered Teddy inside, then turned to
the gunman. Daylight was about gone. Just enough gray showed at the windows
fronting the casemate to see him in silhouette. The
self-satisfied smirk on his face came more from imagination than observation,
but still she wanted to wipe it off with an axe. "I can't believe what a
patsy you are," she said, filling her voice with as much acid amusement as
she could. "A thousand bucks. Coyotes out of Tijuana get more than
that. Haven't been smuggling long, I take it." She laughed. In her ears it
sounded hollow, fake, but Perry seemed properly challenged. "We're
getting a hell of a lot more than..." he stopped and shook his head as if
awakening from a daydream. Though she couldn't see his face, Anna guessed he
was shaking off the euphoria of drinking in Teddy's tears and remembered who he
was, what he was supposed to be accomplishing. Perry and Butch had an agenda of
their own, and neither nationalism nor altruism formed a part of it. Perry raised
his automatic and she thought he was going to shoot her where she stood.
Instead he put his right palm in the middle of her chest and shoved. She fell
backward into Teddy, and they both tumbled to the floor. The office door
slammed and Perry yelled, "Come out and you die." Short and to
the point, Anna thought as she extricated herself from the other woman. From
the inner office she could hear the murmur of voices and hoped she'd caused at
least a small rift in the solidarity of the conspirators. Her office was dark,
only the feeblest of grainy light weeping in through the firing slit and the
narrow dirty window the NPS had cemented within. Working by feel, Anna fished
the key from her pocket and removed the handcuffs, then helped Teddy to her feet
and seated her in the one chair. Teddy said
nothing and was as compliant as a puppet while Anna arranged her arms and legs.
In the top left drawer of the desk was a bottle of Tylenol. Anna fumbled it out
and swallowed two dry. Swallowing pills was ever an ordeal, and she gagged and
gulped, hoping it would be worth it, that the drug would alleviate some of the
crippling ache in her back. Throughout this peculiar and unpleasantly noisy
undertaking, Teddy maintained her silence. At least she wasn't keening anymore.
That high-pitched despair unnerved Anna. It was too like the sound a dying
animal makes. Bracing her
rump on the edge of the desk to give some support to her back, her knees only
inches from Teddy's in the tiny office, Anna said: "Tell me what happened.
Where's Bob?" A thin moan
began to build in the younger woman's throat at the mention of her husband. "Stop
that," Anna said sharply. "Suck it up, Teddy. Tell me what
happened." The John Wayne
part of the Shaws' shared vision reasserted. The moan was cut off. Teddy took a
couple of shaky breaths. "We were
in the living room watching Animal Planet,' a show about baby tigers. Bob's leg
was hurting him and he was fretting because Donna had radioed to report the
generator had gone down on Loggerhead, and he couldn't raise you on the radio.
The power went off and Bob knew the generators here had been shut down and
something wasn't right. Then this man comes in. We didn't hear him. Suddenly
Joey ran under the couch, her tail puffed out, and we look up and this man with
a rifle or machine gun or something is standing on the landing. "Bob keeps
his service weapon secured with his cuffs in the bedroom like he's been told
to. The bedroom might as well have been Czechoslovakia. This guy—Perry?" Anna nodded.
Teddy was reporting chronologically and in detail as befitted the wife of Mr.
Law Enforcement. Usually Anna appreciated it. This day, incarcerated in her
tiny fortress of an office with the world as she knew it being rearranged by
armed men, she wanted Teddy to get to the crux of the issue. "Did he
kill Bob?" Anna asked bluntly. Teddy started
to cry again. Anna couldn't see the tears, but she could make out the crunching
up of Teddy's face and hear the change in her breathing. "He
smashed Bob's cast and smashed it and smashed it. Bob was screaming. I swung a
chair at his head to get him to stop, but he jerked it away from me and hit me
so hard I went unconscious for a minute or so. Not clear out, just sort of
brownout, you know. Next thing he's got both our radios in his hip pockets and
he's dragging me out. Bob wasn't screaming anymore. I don't know if he killed
him or if Bob passed out from the pain." For a second or
two Anna said nothing, just winced under the cover of darkness. Why rebreaking
a broken limb should set her sympathetic aches to echoing Bob Shaw's screams
when the original break didn't, she didn't know, but there was something
particularly brutal about it. "My guess
is he didn't kill Bob," Anna said when the involuntary shudder had passed.
"Smashing up his cast looks to me like he wanted to immobilize him. Since
he succeeded in that, why kill him?" Because he is a sadistic
son-of-a-bitch, was the obvious answer, but Teddy didn't know Perry's
idiosyncratic charms as well as Anna. Maybe it wouldn't occur to her. "What are
they doing?" Teddy asked, her voice spiraling up alarmingly. "Stop
it," Anna said again. "Don't go useless on me." "Right."
Teddy took a couple more deep breaths in through her nose, quelling the
incipient hysteria. "Okay." "Did you see
those two Cubans when Perry brought you in?" "I guess.
I saw two men. One sitting." "I think
those two guys, Mack and Theresa Alvarez, masterminded this thing. They're
bringing over three hundred plus Cuban refugees. They had to disable the fort
to make sure we didn't get hold of the mainland in time to get the coast guard
out here, stop the Cubans from landing and send them back to Castro. Besides,
they had to give themselves and the boat captains bringing the people time to
get away." "Mack and
Theresa?" "I think
so. Mack was born in Cuba." "Where did
Theresa go then? Cuba, to plan things?" Teddy asked. "I don't
know." "Who's
this Perry? He's not Cuban." "There's
two of them," Anna said. "Another guy, Butch, is a bigger meaner,
uglier Perry. I think they're hired guns. Maybe they've developed plans of
their own. They're not following Mack's game plan. They got something else
going." A ruckus from
the outer office silenced them. Neither moved. Anna listened with every ounce
of her will. Like bunnies, she thought, trapped in their burrow,
hoping to hear the danger has passed. A saying of her
father's came to mind. He'd been dead for twenty years, but occasionally Anna
heard his voice in her head as warm and clear as if he stood in the room next
to her. "There's wolves and there's rabbits," he used to say.
"And there's no percentage in being a rabbit." "God damn
but I hate this," Anna whispered. The noise moved
toward their end of the office. The foreshortened door was jerked open and a
body pushed through. Again the door slammed, and a terrific pounding began. "They're
nailing us in." "Daniel?" "Who'd you
think it was, Tinkerbell?" The maintenance man turned his back on the door
to face them. "This baboon shows up on my doorstep with an Uzi. He says
Mack sabotaged the generators. He smashes my radio and prods me in the ribs
with a gun barrel. What the hell is going on here?" Daniel made the
office almost unbearably claustrophobic for Anna. His bulk crowded the cramped
space. His energy vibrated back from the walls. Though he spoke in the hushed
tones of the confused, the hunted, as far as the impact on Anna's brain was
concerned he might as well have been bellowing. "I've got
to get out of here," she said. Then, realizing how self-centered she sounded,
amended her statement: "We've got to get out of here." From without
there came the sounds of another banging door and again the murmuring of
voices. None held the sharpness or edge of before. Anna feared the seeds of
distrust and dissention she'd sewn had fallen on rocky ground. She and Teddy
quickly told Daniel what had brought them to this sorry state of affairs. Anna
went on to share suspicions and speculations, then Daniel, his thick self
hulking into the space Anna'd been using to breathe, joined them in their
rabbit-eared listening. Nothing could be discerned. The door had been nailed
shut and probably the filing cabinets shoved against it for good measure.
Because he couldn't resist, Daniel hurled himself against it several times.
There was no give. "What are
they doing?" Teddy asked after a bit. No one had
heard anything she hadn't. Anna knew she asked from frustration and the need to
connect, to do something. She answered for the same reason.
"Waiting, I expect. The refugees should be here soon. They've shut us
down. Now all they've got to do is sit on us, make sure we don't get word out
and that none of the boaters or campers get in contact with us. They couldn't
have wished for better weather. The campground is deserted. The boaters are
tucked in. We could scream ourselves hoarse and never raise anybody. Once
they've unloaded their cargo, they'll leave. And we'll be found nailed in my
office like three chickens in a coop by the first tourist who hears us
hollering in the morning." That image was almost as terrifying as the
other entertainments the body smugglers had been kind enough to arrange for
her. "I'm
getting out of here," Anna said. "Not
through that door you're not," Daniel said, ever practical. "These
aren't hollow-core doors. They're solid oak nailed into solid oak frames. And
if we did have a wrecking ball and got out, what do you suggest we do? Charge
five armed men with paper clips and Post-it notes?" "There's
my letter opener," Anna said. "Jesus,
woman." Daniel was
right: there was no possibility of getting out the door and no wisdom in
attempting it even if it were possible. Anna turned to the only other way out
of the room. "Move," she said to her fellow prisoners. Any motion in
such close quarters was a cooperative effort. She shoved her
desk over beneath the firing slit and climbed up on all fours, the better to
inspect the thing by feel, memory and intuition. "Anna,
that window's no more than seven inches wide. I should know. I installed
them," Daniel said. "Can you
get it out? The glass and the frame?" Anna asked. "Maybe.
Then it would be almost eight inches wide. Nobody can squeeze through
that." Not so many
years ago Anna would have believed him. Since then she'd been a reluctant party
to a cave rescue in one of the world's greatest caves, Lechuguilla in Carlsbad
Caverns National Park. Claustrophobia and a clear and rational mind kept her
from intentionally putting herself in squashy little places. She'd never
forgotten for a moment what one of the Bureau of Land Management's premier
cavers told her: "You get wedged, you die." A sentiment seldom shared
with the public during cave search-and-rescue operations. But she had
seen some remarkable passages. A man who'd become her friend on that hellish
expedition, a big Minnesotan named Curt Schatz, had been able to squeeze
through alarmingly narrow crevices. "Mouse bones," he'd told her.
Mice had sliding skeletons that allowed them to collapse down even smaller than
customary mouse size. "Mouse
bones," Anna told Daniel. "Eight inches?" "Tops." Turning from
the window, she opened the shallow drawer in the center of the desk and felt
around for the ruler that everyone, even an acid-befogged, heartbroken
Supervisory Ranger, kept there. "Measure my head," she commanded
Teddy. "Width or
circumference?" Anna was
pleased to hear the controlled, efficient Teddy was back. "Width." Without light
it took several minutes. Teddy had to read the ruler by the Braille method,
clicking her long nails from groove to groove till she was sure her count was
right. "Six and a
half inches," she announced. "Anna, are
you nuts? That's an old wives' tale that wherever your head'll fit you can get
through. It's bull. Look at me. My head is nowhere near the biggest part of me.
You're gonna get yourself hurt." "Get the
frame out, Daniel." Anna slid off the desk and they shuffled in a tight
circle till Daniel could take her place. The only tools
he had access to were Anna's letter opener and Swiss army knife. They were all
he needed. Anna and Teddy sat in the dark, listening to his scraping and
muttering, and when he was ready, they pounded on the door and shouted to be
let out while he completed the noisy business of wrenching the window frame
out. "Seven
inches," he said as he handed Anna the window. Anna said
nothing. Maybe it was an old wives' tale. "Move,"
she said. "Keep your
knickers on," Daniel replied. "Let me get what I can of the grouting
out. This stuff's sharp as can be. It'd tear you up proper." Anna bowed to
his greater wisdom in the area of grout and appreciated the skin he'd thought
to save. The low-grade
grumble of voices from the outer offices quieted, but they'd not heard the door
open and close. Probably the smugglers left during the time Anna and Teddy were
pounding on the door to cover Daniel's demolition duties. Anna looked at
the slot, a rectangle a shade lighter than the surrounding brick. Eight inches.
It looked so narrow. Maybe she'd get stuck part way and be found come morning
half out half in, dangling like a breech calf. She didn't want to think about
it. She wanted to get out. Stopping the Cuban refugees from landing wasn't
important. America could absorb three hundred more souls. Stopping what she
suspected could turn into a bloodbath was. 30 Charley Munson
and I hid in the back of the bakery behind the wall housing the great ovens.
The rich smell of bread was comforting. The knowledge that the fort's bakers
must come on duty soon was not. From without, on the parade ground, we heard
the sound of men coalesce, disperse, coalesce again then go silent, giving up
the hunt. There was no way the sentry who'd seen me could know I was not just a
rank-and-file soldier caught out on an illicit tryst with a laundress or
engaged in petty theft or drunkenness. When they didn't find me, it was
practical to assume I had made it back to the anonymity of my barracks. When all was
quiet, Charley grabbed my arm again. "Bakers will be here soon," he
said. "Let me
go," I told him. Now that the terror of nearly being discovered had
passed, the sickness I'd felt earlier for myself, for the entire race of
humans, returned. It was as if a great fire had burned out my insides, leaving
a black and stinking ruin. I wanted to get home, get into a clean nightdress
and let sleep erase thought for however long it would. He hesitated a moment
but whether from indecision or something else I couldn't tell. The hiding place
he'd chosen was unnatural in its total lightlessness. The grip on my arm
tightened, and he pulled me after him. I hadn't the strength to break free or
the moral authority to scream for help. Once again I followed, stumbling after
in the darkness. The night had been so rife with terrors, it seemed I had
exhausted my ability to experience the sensation. I was numb, too low in spirit
even to feel curiosity about our destination or what was to be done with me
when we reached it. Me bumbling, Private Munson muttering, "Oh my Aunt
Fanny" and "God's teeth"—curses that triggered what might have
been hysteria, a need to laugh that I was fortunately too numb to give in to—led
me up the spiraling stairs to the second tier, past the Virginia regiment's
cells and finally to the powder magazine where I'd found Tilly. In the airless
confines of that place he let loose of me. His grip had been so hard my hand
tingled as blood began flowing back into my fingers. Again we were in a place
without light. Since I had not barked my shins or tripped over anything, I
assumed Sergeant Sinapp had finished clearing out the items cached there. The
sweet sharp smell of new-cut wood suggested the walls had been completed as
well. Massive walls and mazelike entrance kept out sound as well as light.
There was a sense of being suspended in time and space. My legs would
no longer support me, and I sank to the floor. My captor—or rescuer, his role
in my life yet to be determined—sat near me. His breathing, heavy as though he
had carried rather than led me, was the only sound I could hear. "Why did
you have that key?" he asked. The question didn't surprise me but his tone
did. He sounded afraid. As absurd as it sounds, his fear angered me. I was the
one who had been chased, dragged out of a window, struck in the face, silenced
and brought to a place where, should I cry out, no one would hear me. How dare
he be the frightened one? That I had gone past fear and was not scared anymore
was not the point. Fear was my inalienable right and it outraged me that he had
usurped it. Even at the
time I knew how ridiculous I was being but it failed to temper my emotions. "You
carried messages from the conspirators to my sister, did you not?" I
demanded. The position I was in suggested I should not demand anything,
but I had grown heartily sick of not only those things I listed previously, but
of men, all men and because Private Munson was nearest, of him particularly.
"I know you did." He didn't say
anything. The sound of his breathing was joined by the small furtive noises of
a man fidgeting on a stone floor. "Dr. Mudd
told me of your complicity, as did Mr. Arnold. Please tell me yourself."
Hostility is expensive to maintain, and I hadn't the physical reserves to
sustain it. This last came out as a plea. Private Munson,
who had withstood my browbeating, was not proof against my beseeching. "I felt
sorry for Joel," he said. "He was so bad hurt. I couldn't let that
go. I mean, prisoners can't be mouthing off, sowing seeds of contention and the
like. But I couldn't let that go." This
"sowing seeds" was clearly a quote learned from his superiors. I'd
heard Joseph use it many times. "What
couldn't you let go?" I asked. "The
sergeant had crippled the boy. His hands. You oughtn't cripple a person. Not
like that." Joel, "the
boy," was only a year or two younger than Charley Munson. The war changed
our sons, if not into men, then into half men, half children; children without
innocence, men without dreams. "So you
carried messages for Joel?" I had to prod; in this lightless silence he
would drift away between words if I did not. There was that out-of-world
quality I mentioned earlier and I, too, was having trouble focusing. "At
first," he replied. "Then I carried notes for the doctor. I liked
them. Tilly was such a grand brave girl, and the doctor always polite like I
was somebody and not just a foot soldier in an army that had thrown him in the
brig." The last of his
words scattered around me unheeded. The "was" and the sorrow with
which he uttered it hit me like a blow. I had feared for Tilly for quite sonic
time but in speaking of her, Joseph, myself, the other officers and men of the
fort who'd been involved in the search for her and Private Lane always referred
to her in the present tense, as if, though out of our sight, she still lived.
Till I heard my abductor refer to her in the past tense I'd not truly let
myself believe that our vibrant, foolish, courageous little Tilly was gone. Gone
forever. "You said
'was,' Tilly was. Why did you say that?" I was crying.
Tears flooded down my cheeks. One splashed onto my hand, startling me. I
grabbed Private Munson in that same pinching grip he'd used to propel me to
this place. As I grabbed blindly I do not know what part of him I held so
tightly. "I
didn't," he said. "You
did." I felt his
hands on me then, one on the wrist of the hand that gripped him, the other on
my left breast. I thought he'd gone mad but he had not meant to assault me,
only to catch hold of me in the dark. Both his hands found my shoulders and he
squeezed so hard I knew his fingers would leave bruises. "You quit,
Mrs. Coleman. You leave this alone. Leave. It. Be." He shook me hard with
each word. Not able to see and so anticipate the movement, my head snapped
painfully back and forth. "You're
hurting me," I managed. He stopped but
did not apologize. "Go home. Don't tell anybody where you been tonight.
Don't. Don't talk about your sister no more." Another tear—or perhaps
spittle from the vehemence of his words—struck my hand. He released me
so suddenly I fell backward. I squeaked, not from the pain of striking my
elbows on the floor but from the suddenness of it all. Quickly I reoriented
myself and sat up. No sound of breathing, no slithery rubbing of fabric on the
rough floor or walls. "Private Munson?" I'd meant to
call firmly, but it came out the barest breath of air. A terrible sense of him
in that blind place, just within reach of me but silent, listening, waiting,
panicked me. I crawled in the direction I thought was the doorway to the rest
of the tier. My head struck something and I cried out again. I don't know
whether I'd gotten turned around in my panic or when we'd first come into the
powder magazine. On my neck, my
cheek, I could feel breathing, something close in the dark. I barely had sense
enough to follow the wall but did so knowing in this small closed space I would
reach the doorway. Below, beyond
the unfinished enlisted men's quarters, walked a lone man. Private Munson. He'd
not been a presence in the hell I'd crawled free of. I had been stalked only by
fear. Knowing this
did not cure me. I could not shake the sense that something horrible was right
behind me. Every part of my body was shaking. When I reached the back window to
our downstairs hall, it took me three tries to boost myself up that I might
slip through on my stomach. There by the
open window I stripped off my clothes—Joseph's clothes—and wearing nothing but
shoes, knickers and chemise, carried them to Luanne's laundry basket. At the
basket I removed all but the shoes. I could not bear to have even these mute
companions in folly near me. Naked, I climbed the stairs hoping Joseph and
Luanne were sleeping and would not come into the hall and find me so. In Tilly's
room, I put on the clean bed gown I'd craved and lay on the sheets, the night
being too warm for covers. I had thought I would sleep immediately. Back in the
powder magazine, before that, even, outside Dr. Mudd's place of imprisonment,
it seemed I could sleep for a month I was so tired. When I finally
had the chance, my mind refused to shut out the very things it had been
exhausted by. That is why I am sitting up writing you at Tilly's desk, just as
dawn is hinting at day beyond the lighthouse. Charley Munson spoke as if he
knew Tilly was dead. Yet he seemed both saddened and frightened by the death,
as if he had no part in it. He admitted to being the carrier of messages, and I
was sure Tilly had been lured from her room that night by a message and Mr.
Arnold believed one of the men who came to fetch Joel spoke with Private
Munson's voice. Private Munson
first caught me crawling in my own window, struck me thinking me a thief or
worse, recognized me as the captain's wife which stopped the beating, but what
decided him to hide me that I mightn't face discovery was the sight of the key
to Mr. Arnold's cell. Joel worked on
Charley Munson's sympathy, and he began carrying messages from Joel to Tilly
When Dr. Mudd became aware of, or became insane and deluded himself into
believing he had discovered tangible proof of his innocence, he must have
co-opted Munson as a carrier either by threatening to expose his already
compromised position or won him over with charm. Dr. Mudd pulled
Tilly into his plot by appealing to her sense of justice and drama. I don't
know if Dr. Mudd in actuality had this photograph proving his innocence or
didn't have it but believed he did or was simply pretending he did to get Tilly
to risk some further danger in his pursuit of freedom. I don't think Dr. Mudd
is above attempting to escape, nor do I think he'd flinch at using our sister
should he devise a plan in which she might be of use. I came to believe that,
regardless of the truth, Dr. Mudd genuinely believes he once held the key to
his release. Because he'd
given that key into her keeping, Dr. Mudd would have done nothing to hurt Tilly
or to endanger her. Therefore it would have been without his complicity or
knowledge that Tilly either put out to sea with, or was taken away with, or was
silenced along with Joel Lane. Mr. Arnold—if
Dr. Mudd is to be believed—might have had reason to silence Tilly, and, if Joel
knew anything, to silence Joel as well. I do not believe, however, that Samuel
Arnold has the power to do such a thing. I spent longer
than I should have working through the possible guilt of these two men, just as
I allowed myself to believe much longer than reason would have dictated that
Tilly, who had clearly fallen out of "love" with Joel, had suddenly
decided to run away with him in a sailing skiff stolen from Sinapp. Perhaps it was
hope that made me cling to the latter, but it was cowardice that had me
lingering so long with the conspirators. There remained only one person who had
an interest in keeping any proofs of Mudd's innocence from reaching the light
of day, who would not flinch at using and destroying a lovely girl and who did
not know Tilly well enough to see that her ardor for Private Lane had cooled to
the point a staged elopement would not silence questions as to what had become
of her. This man, of
course, was Sergeant Sinapp. The sergeant craved evil for its own sake, became
rabid and vicious on the subject of the assassination and the conspirators,
lusted after, tormented and therefore must have hated Tilly for her clear
preference for a Johnny Reb. The thick evil creature would not, could not,
harbor the sensitivity to notice when a sixteen-year-old girl was over her
crush on a boy. I am sure
Sergeant Sinapp killed our sister. What I mean to find out today is if he did
it with my husband's knowledge or complicity. 31 That's as good
as it's going to get with a letter opener and my fingernails," Daniel
announced and climbed down from the desk. The movement was punctuated with
grunting so like a pig's Anna suspected he'd affected it as a tribute to Mrs.
Meyers during his days as a biker, and it had turned into habit and followed
him into the legitimate world. "Let me
get on with it," she said. "The thugs are gone. Whatever's happening
is happening now." She sprang onto the desk and put a hand to either side
of the window/firing slit. God but it was small, built small back when people
were small to keep small invading soldiers from invading. "You'll
never get through that." At first Anna
thought she'd spoken her fears aloud, but it was Daniel. "Yes I
will." "They'll
be landing on the west side behind the fort at that tiny beach," Daniel
said. "Away from the boats moored in the bay." Anna nodded.
She'd figured that. Though with the darkness and the rain they probably could
have landed the whole Cuban navy at the visitors' dock and no one would be any
the wiser. "First
priority is to get to a radio," Daniel said. "First
priority is to get to Bob," Anna said. "Put these
over your ears." Teddy shared Anna's priorities. She looked not only to
Anna's escape but to her condition should she pull it off. In the dark,
"these" meant nothing. Teddy must have realized it. "I found
some cardboard—three by five cards. There's scotch tape in the desk. Let
me—move over, Daniel—tape them on like ear muffs so you won't cut your ears
up." Anna felt soft
hands patting up her leg. She took Teddy's wrists and bowed down to guide the
other woman's hands to her head. She stayed still and quiet while Teddy held
first one card then another over her ears and wrapped a couple of yards of tape
around her head to hold them in place. Teddy's idea
and the quick execution of it would save an inexpressible amount of pain. Still
she didn't give Teddy any words of thanks or encouragement. The firing slit was
not just narrow; it was deep, many feet to crawl through. Maybe six or seven.
It wasn't as if she would get stuck with her head out over the moat and her
fanny in the office. She could get trapped tight between the immense walls of
Fort Jefferson. Maybe eight inches were enough. Maybe not. And maybe the whole
slit wasn't eight inches. In a hundred and fifty years, things go out of plumb.
She was afraid if she opened her mouth her fears about getting stuck in tight
places, how afraid she was under the engine on the bottom of the ocean, how
she'd been lost once in a cave and only wanted to die someplace she was free to
move under the sun, would come spilling out. "There,"
Teddy said. Anna felt her
ears. Teddy's nursing skills showed. In the dark with strange materials she'd
managed to bandage the ear protectors firmly in place. A good bit of hair would
undoubtedly come off when the tape was removed, but at the moment hair was the
least of the things Anna had to lose. "Okay.
Good," she said. "Thanks." Pleased she'd managed that, Anna
turned her back on them. They could not see her face, nor could she really see
theirs. With only the firing slit, the office was cave-like in its capacity for
darkness. Still, she didn't want to think about anything but her immediate
task. She took off
everything she didn't need, that could catch or bunch or drag: belt, shoes,
badge, watch, earrings, shorts. The shirt she
kept to protect her skin and because should any piece of it hang up on a bit of
mortar or brick, she could easily rip free. Not so with the pockets and
waistband of pants. Her underpants she retained because a woman requires at
least a shred of common dignity under even the most bizarre of circumstances.
Besides, should she become wedged and not die of fright or suffocation, without
her panties she would assuredly die of embarrassment during what would have to
be a prolonged rescue scenario. Before she
could come to her senses, she began. She had to go through on her side, one arm
and leg up, one down, her face toward the sky, or what would be sky after
several thousand tons of brick were cleared away and her bones found wedged in
this man-made crack. She didn't enter the slot at the bottom with her weight
crushing down on the brick sill. The opening was narrow but nearly four feet in
height. Elbows bent slightly, legs vaguely froglike, she crept in like she'd
seen a thousand lizards do in a thousand crevices in the Rocky Mountains. Like
she'd seen Dracula do in his castle in Transylvania in some old black-and-white
movie. Squashed flat,
fingers, hands and toes were her best method of propulsion. There was no room
to bend her joints to use the bigger muscles. Head went in easily. The racket
the brick made on Teddy's impromptu ear protectors sounded like a landslide,
and Anna wondered that so much noise took up so little space. Surely there
wasn't room for even something as noncorporeal as a sound wave between her ear
and the brick. The cardboard-covered sides of her head slipped along easily,
and she was grateful her face wouldn't take a beating. Should she survive, she
had a wedding to attend. A couple of feet of space were above her eyes, the top
of the slot, but in the darkness it could have been inches or miles away. The nether half
of her body was still in the office. Her hips had to be turned sideways. With
her torso twisted and already in the slot, she couldn't manage. "Daniel,"
she called. "I'm on
it." Thumping
ensued, then she felt her lower body being lifted up, turned gently and held
level and in alignment with her lizard-on-a-wall stance. Things grew
easier. Using her fingertips, she "walked" her hands ahead, found
mortar cracks to grip and pulled herself along as Daniel fed her body into the
firing slit from the office side. Skin was scraped from knees, elbows, ankles.
Her neck would hurt for a month from having her chin on her shoulder so long.
Breasts, belly and bum were squashed into a neat line, but it went far more
quickly than Anna had anticipated. When the wall had swallowed all of her up,
Daniel pushed his arm in the slot so she could use his hand to push against
with her feet. In less than
five minutes, with the loss of only a pound or two of flesh, Anna's hands felt
the rain. There was no graceful way to crawl out, no way to bend her knees to
get her feet under her, no place to grab or brace to alleviate the pressures.
She cared about none of it. When her face hit the night air and she could once
again turn her head, see, hear something besides the threatening scrape of
brick, she placed a hand on either side of the slot and shoved. Her center of
gravity moved over open air. Her legs wrenched and dragged as they twisted from
the firing slit. She fell fifteen feet to strike the shallow water of the moat
with all the class of a crumpled beer can tossed overboard. When she found
her feet and stood, the water was only thigh deep. Voices in her brain, shrill
with urgency, shouted orders. For half a dozen heartbeats she ignored them. She
was shaking like a newborn moose calf and as wet with warm salt water and
blood. The joints in her legs felt like they were made of soft rubber,
incapable of holding her should she move. The vicious scrapes left by her
passage through Fort Jefferson's cruel birth canal, anesthetized at the time of
the happening by fear and determination, were stinging. The glossy magazines
were right. Beach resorts were hell on a girl's skin. Between brick, coral and
an engine, Anna doubted she had much epidermis left to worry about. She ripped
Teddy's makeshift car protectors from her head and dropped them. Littering: how
low adversity had brought her. Pushing her body's complaints to the back of her
mind, she opened herself to the night. The black hole of her office, the lizard
crawl, the tumble to the moat, had conspired to confuse her mind. Rain and good
air would cleanse it. Letting herself stand in stasis, she listened and watched
and did not think. Muted by wind and distance, she could hear voices, many
voices, from the other side of the fort, some sharp with command. Beneath was
the guttural murmur of diesel engines. From what little she could see from down
in the moat, this side of the fort was deserted: no one on the moat walls, no
one on the bridge to the sally port. Her gray matter
realigned to the upright and free world, she pushed her shaking legs through
the water to the moat's wall. Here by the drawbridge the wall raised a mere
four feet above water level. It took her several tries to haul herself up. Her
arms were as rubbery as her legs. Wet, flayed,
barefoot and in her underpants, Anna felt staggeringly vulnerable. Like one of
her dad's metaphorical rabbits, she wanted nothing so much as to hop away and
hide. Having just sacrificed time and epithelial cells to escape one snug
burrow, she wasn't going to give in to the urge to bolt into another. Wrapping the
darkness and rain about her like a cloak, she padded quickly across the
drawbridge and into the sally port. The parade
ground appeared as deserted as the harbor side of Garden Key. Anna let herself
back into the office. On Teddy's desk there had been a flashlight in a charger.
She felt for, found it, and clicked it on. The beam was so weak the surrounding
darkness bled into the light, turning it brown. Better than
nothing. Hating the childlike slap of her little bare feet on the floor,
she moved to the offices at the back. "It's me," she said, then tuned
out the excited babble from behind the door. A quick survey let her know she
wasn't going to be freeing them anytime soon. Six-penny nails had been driven
through the solid wood of the old door and into the frame with such force the
nail heads were imbedded in craters. A hatchet, left over from some chore or
another, had been kicking around the office since she'd come on as acting
Supervisory Ranger. For a moment she thought about trying to chop the door down
but quickly gave it up. A small woman wielding a small hatchet; it would take
too long. "Sorry,"
she called through the wood. "I'll be back as soon as I can." Voices
of protest, encouragement and advice trailed after her as she left, but she had
no mental room for them. Bob was next. A radio. And, if she could squeeze it
in, pants and shoes. The feeling of her wet hind end flapping in the breeze was
unsettling. Even Superman needed at least tights. With a sense of
being absurdly young, she ran around the parade ground. Across the open space
would have been quicker but without shoes she didn't want to risk it. Coming up
lame on top of everything wouldn't help the situation. Full dark had
come. With rain and no lights from windows or security lights, the fort was in
true darkness. Like many a helpless, unarmed scampering creature, Anna was glad
of it though her ears were attuned to the possibility of predators. As she neared
the west end of the parade ground and the Shaws' house, she began to hear a
mute gabbling, the many voices kept low. Mack, Rick, Paulo and their two hired
thugs would be overseeing the unloading of their human cargo. Ideally they'd
dump the refugees and go. Then only the care and feeding of three hundred
people till the coast guard could get enough boats to take them to the INS
detention center would fall to Anna's service. Ideally. Bereft of
power, the Shaws' house was as dark as all else in the fort. Anna listened
outside the kitchen door. Nothing. Without knocking or otherwise betraying her
presence, she slipped inside. The dying flashlight expired as she clicked it
on. She left its corpse on the breakfast table. Indoors, bare feet were a boon.
She made no noise. Cats, with more senses than mere hearing, came meowing into
the kitchen. Usually they were skittish around non-Shaws. Nobody had fed them
dinner. Anna hurried
over the stair landing and into the living room, walking on hands and feet over
the dark steps lest she fall. "Bob?"
she called softly. Again nothing. She searched the tiny room by feel: no body,
living or dead. Sharpish chunks of the broken cast were scattered near the
sofa. One she picked up. It was sticky. Maybe blood. Anna returned
to the kitchen. Her feet made little sucking noises as she walked across a
spill on the linoleum. She rifled through the drawers. No flashlight came to
hand but she found candles and matches. Even the single flame seemed a nova
after so much darkness. It flared into red as the light touched her hand.
Blood. Bob's. Lifting her feet to the light, she saw the red was reprised on
her soles and there were scuffs of it between the living room and the door. Bob
had been dragged from the house for some reason. Possibly the body would be
taken away, dumped at sea, in the hope murder would never be proved. Anna
carried the candle upstairs. No Bob. No service weapon in the holster of his
leather gear. The thugs had one more gun. A defeating
sadness at the thought of the proud and military little ranger's death and the
death of soul that would happen in Teddy's eyes when she was told, slowed
Anna's steps. With a physical
twist of the shoulders, she shrugged off this mental burden. Later there would
be time for it, now she needed to be as light of foot and mind as she could
get. Forcing the
deadening effects of sorrow into that padlocked compartment of her brain
already crammed with things to grieve later, she ran upstairs to her apartment.
So quickly Piedmont had time only to open one eye and note her existence, she
grabbed shorts and shoes, dressed in the darkness and, armed with a working
flashlight, hurried to the bastion said to have housed the chapel. A breach in
the wall in its northern side overlooked the small beach where the boats would
be unloading their cargo. Because very few
nights, even those cloaked in storm, are truly dark, she could make out the
activity below. Several hundred yards out to sea half a dozen sportfishing
boats idled, their great engines occasionally grunting and whining as they
fought surge and prevailing winds to stay in one place. They were all alike,
new models, three decks, the topmost housing the wheel and navigational
equipment. Donations, no doubt, from Enrico's Marine in Miami. Even given their
impressive size, the load they carried left them low in the water, wallowing
like sows in a mudhole. The decks were black with humanity. Refugees crowded
shoulder-to-shoulder, butt to belly. It was a wonder the boats had not gone
down in the rough seas on the crossing from Cuba. Three motorized
Zodiacs, small rubber dinghies, ferried people from ship to shore. The sea,
churning and angry-looking, was dotted with the heads of those gone overboard,
those who could swim, making for the shore. Four of the six
boats trained floodlights on the beach. The beams were gray and sinuous with
pelting rain. Their stark light caught the backs of the floundering swimmers
and ignited the flame-orange of the tender boats. In the last wash of light the
beach was illuminated. Five men waited on shore, one propped with his back against
a block of concrete fallen away from the foundation structure of the old
coaling dock. Rick. Anna'd been so wired from her scrapingly narrow escape from
the office, she'd forgotten about the wounded smuggler. Had he remained behind
with the .44 Butch had lent him, Anna would have walked into it. Either the
thugs didn't trust Rick alone or, despite blood and pain, he wanted to be on
hand to welcome his countrymen to the Promised Land. Waist-deep in
the surf, Paulo and Mack helped exhausted swimmers to shore, men with bundles
and packages strapped to their bodies. Snatches of laughter and babbled Spanish
reached Anna's ears on the gusting winds. Butch and Perry waited farther back
on the beach, the only two still bearing arms. Alone, without
a weapon, there was little Anna could do. Much as it irked her to let the bad
guys get away, she much preferred it to a suicide charge that would end in her
death and the bad guys getting away anyway. She would wait and watch. When the
smugglers were gone to East Key to refuel their getaway boats, she would attend
to the needs of the three hundred or so new Americans till she could turn the
whole mess over to the INS. Resigned to her
role as observer, she set herself to the task of noticing and remembering as
much as she could, soothing herself with the fantasy of providing damning
testimony in some far-off court of law. As she studied
the sportfishing boats, her eye caught the wink of a tiny red eye, then a
green, out beyond the bigger craft. In a wink they were gone and she wondered
if the acid in her bloodstream had created them. Her eyes were wide and dry
from staring when the ocean revealed them again. Running lights
from a small craft riding low in the water, a runabout probably, or a skiff.
There was no reason the smugglers would send one of their tender boats out to
sea. The only people
with reason and courage enough to brave the water in night and storm in a
little boat were Donna and Patrice, the lighthouse keepers from Loggerhead Key.
They must have grown suspicious of the power outage and the silence from the
fort and come over to see what was wrong. Like moths,
they were headed toward the only lights showing: the floods from the refugee
boats. They were running right into the middle of Butch and Perry's game. Once under the
guns, Anna doubted Donna and Patrice would behave in a docile and ladylike
fashion. She didn't doubt for an instant that Butch and Perry would deal with
interference swiftly and brutally. The men on the beach had their backs to the
fort. Hoping it would go unnoticed by them, Anna raised her flashlight and
clicked it on and off three times quickly, three times slowly again and again.
SOS, the only bit of Morse code that most people knew. The running
lights, blinking their own meaningless message as the waves hid then revealed
them, came on straight as a die. Feeling helpless, Anna kept on: three quick,
three slow. The red and
green lights vanished. She waited, watching for the ocean to raise them into
her line of sight again. A minute passed. Two. The sea remained dark beyond the
fishing boats. The Zodiacs disgorged their cargo. The beach was rapidly
filling. More laughter. More Spanish. Butch and Perry, backs to the broken
concrete ringing the beach, moved close to one another, heads together,
conferring. Still no
running lights. Anna had to hope Patrice and Donna had seen her signal and were
coming around to the dockside to see who needed rescuing within the fort.
Leaving the refugees to their soggy celebrations, she ran for the sally port. The docks were
empty but for the red cigarette boat and the three NPS boats. Anna boarded the Reef
Ranger. Believing the fort personnel to be secured, the smugglers had not
bothered to disable the boat radios, but there was a chance Butch or Perry
still had one of the handhelds turned on. Paulo hadn't carried a radio and,
working in the surf, it was a good bet Mack had left his someplace high and
dry. Anna decided to chance it. The boat radios
were far more powerful than the handhelds. Unless the storm was causing too
much interference, she should be able to raise the coast guard. She only hoped
they'd not write her off as the little ranger who cried shark. They'd come once
before at her request, only to find the search for Bob Shaw was over. The gods
decided to throw her a bone. Though full of static, she got her message
through. The weather was too filthy for aircraft, but boats were being
dispatched, fast coast guard cutters. Because of high seas, there were none
closer than Key West. Being wise sailors, they'd headed for safe harbor when
the gale warnings were issued. It would be a couple hours before the seagoing
cavalry would arrive. Mike in hand,
Anna pondered whether to radio Patrice and Donna. In the end she decided
against it. If the running lights were indeed theirs and they'd not gotten her
cryptic warning, they would have reached the beach and now be under the
smugglers' indifferent care. If they had gotten her message, they would soon be
docking. Anna decided to
give them another five minutes before she returned to her lookout in the
bastion. To pass the time she removed the battery cables from the boats—the Curious,
the Reef and Atlantic Rangers and the go-fast boat—and cached
them in the toilet tanks in the ladies' lavatory. The smugglers
would have to catch a ride on one of the fishing yachts, some of which would
probably be picked up by the coast guard unless they headed straight for the
coast of Florida and hid out there. If they made for Cuba—and if the storm
lifted—coast guard helicopters would find them. Many ifs. Still
it pleased her to annoy Butch and Perry in some fashion. From the way
the two thugs behaved and the few hints they'd let drop—the biggest being the
probable shooting of Rick once the plan was well in motion and he became
superfluous—Anna suspected Butch and his criminal-in-training, Perry, intended
to leave the bigger slower boats for the well-intentioned suckers and use the
Scarab to get clear. There would be
hell to pay when they found the cable gone and, on the tiny key, no place much
for Anna to hide when they came for her. She'd worry about that later. Emerging from
the ladies' loo, Anna was met with the wonderfully uplifting sight of Donna and
Patrice, their runabout in an NPS slip, walking up toward the main dock. In an uncharacteristic
burst of love for her fellow men or women or whatever, Anna ran to them like an
overeager teenager and gave Donna, the first in line, a fierce hug. Donna
folded her tight muttering with some alarm: "What's this? What happened?
Where's the real Anna Pigeon?" The last saved
what was left of Anna's abandoned dignity. The warmth of the embrace and the
joy of seeing people who were actually on her side had begun to bring tears. In
front of men, unless in the grips of madness or hallucinogenic drugs and
hysteria, Anna wouldn't cry. Women were much harder on her self-control. Women,
touted as the illogical gender, actually believed tears were normal. "Come,"
Anna said and hurried them to the shelter and sheltering darkness of the sally
port. There she told them the situation and her plan to sit tight, lay low,
hide out—whatever it took to stay alive and unharmed. Donna swelled
with an angry need to bust heads, see justice done. Patrice, a cop for a lot of
years, just nodded. "We can always catch 'em later when the odds are in
our favor." "What if
there is no 'later'?" Donna grumbled. "Criminals
are good at giving law enforcement plenty of chances. There's always a
later," Patrice said. An urgency to
be back on the beach side of the fort where the refugees were landing was upon
Anna. Though she could do little but observe and had made the decision to do
that and only that, she needed to be there. The whole situation with the joyous
refugees, the exuberance of their greetings with Paulo, Mack and Rick, their
rescuers, the hanging back of the thugs, armed, conferring, was at best
unstable. At worst... Anna didn't
want to think about at worst. "I need to
get back, get close," she said. "We'll go
with," Patrice said. "We'll be there to do whatever you need done." "Even
nothing," Donna conceded. First they made
a stop in the office. The new and brighter flashlight didn't make the nailed
door look any easier to open. Donna, with her greater strength, could have
chopped through it with an axe, but it would have taken time and made noise. Over Daniel's
protests they opted to leave him and Teddy incarcerated a while longer. To
Teddy's repeated, "Is Bob okay?" Anna could only reply that she'd not
seen him. The news regarding his blood smeared on the floors could wait. Anna was glad
to have the company of the lighthouse keepers, though it made stealth and
invisibility a greater problem than had she been alone. It was quickly decided
their best hope to avoid detection was to follow the moat, not along the wall
but in the water. As Anna jumped
off the bridge connecting the sally port with the rest of the key, Donna asked,
"Are there sharks?" It was the first time Anna heard fear in the big
woman's voice, and it amused her. For no reason whatever she was put in mind of
Paul Newman in Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid. "Swim hell, the
fall'll probably kill yah." Sharks were the least of this night's
predators. "Not
usually," Anna replied truthfully. She'd heard tales of the larger fish
visiting, but the only shark she'd ever seen in the moat was the baby nurse
shark. Nurse sharks had the alarming silhouette of their more aggressive
sisters but were gentle creatures not much given to biting bipeds. "In you
go," Patrice said. Anna heard a
squawk, then there was a sizable splash. Donna had
joined her. Patrice came last. The moat was
uneven in depth. At no point was it over Anna's head, but along the northern
side she would have preferred swimming to wading chest-deep. A desire to keep
her flashlight dry kept her from it. With the rain and the sweat of her palm
the metal cylinder was already running with water, but she could hope, short of
submersion, it would continue to function. The light was six cells, long and
heavy and encased in hard metal. She'd kept it more for its value as a weapon
than a light source. One never knew what might be needed. Reaching the
corner where the moat angled south, they were just above the invaded
beachfront. Behind moat wall with cover of darkness and rain and sufficient
noise from wind and refugees to mask their splashing, Anna had little fear of
discovery. To the right
the moat ran along the edge of the sea. To the left was a not-so-gentle
slope down to the small beach. Across an open space, maybe fifty feet at a guess,
the tumbled mass of concrete and timber of the ruined coaling dock provided
cover. Being smallest,
fastest and, in this instance, boss, Anna went first. It was three feet from
the surface of the water to the top of the moat wall. The strong arms of her
companions boosted her easily, and Anna was grateful for the help. What with
one thing and another, her usual strength of ten men had dwindled. She wasn't
sure she could hoist herself up that far one more time this night. Bent over,
moving quickly but not running, she crossed the open area without being seen.
Over three hundred pair of eyes now crowded the sandy strip between stone and
water, so many there was scarcely room to move, but none were interested in the
high ground. On the southern
edge, cuddled up next to the rocks directly beneath where she had been boosted
out of the moat, Butch was shouting for quiet. The crowd ignored him till he
fired off a volley from his Uzi. Anna dove for cover. Silence fell. But for the
hush of wind and rain, the quiet was absolute, with the waiting quality of an
indrawn breath. "Listen
up," Butch shouted. Murmuring began. Another volley of gunfire. Everybody,
including Anna, listened up. "We got
you here," Butch yelled. "Now what we got is a kind of customs levy.
You're going to give us anything you got in the way of cash and jewelry, and we
are going to let you stay alive to see more of America than this godforsaken
sandbar." The swell of
human noise began again. Mack cried: "What the hell..." In heavily
accented English a man yelled: "We already give you the ten thousand
dollars. You don't get no more. That was the deal." A sharp crack
of gunfire. A scream, then the long drawn out, "Nooo" of a grieving
woman. Anna took the
risk of pecking out from behind the jagged slab of concrete. Between Butch and
the refugees—now huddled even more tightly together on her end of the beach—a
space had opened. In the middle of it, stark and stagelit by the lights
from the offshore boats, lay a man. A woman knelt beside him, her hands held
out in front of her as if in supplication. Her palms were a shocking bright and
glistening red, the color fired by the light. "Jiminy
Christmas, the guy's a psycho." Anna twitched
with such violence she rapped the back of a hand painfully against the
concrete. During the volley of gunfire, Donna had emerged from the moat and run
across the open space to join her. "Anybody
else want to discuss terms?" This was Perry, a swagger in his voice, his
Uzi muzzle pointed toward the mass of Cubans. "It wasn't
no ten thousand . . . What the fuck are you doing? My God, you killed
him..." These utterances slammed together, Mack and Paulo and Rick trying
to make sense of this betrayal of their dream. Paulo and Mack,
now standing shoulder to shoulder at the edge of the sea, were stunned into a
stupidity that would have been funny under less deadly circumstances. "This is
what's going to happen," Butch told the cowering crowd. "Two by two
like Noah's fucking animals, you're going to come up by your dead hero here and
put down what valuables you got. Perry's going to see to it you don't 'forget'
anything. You hold back, you get shot. You mouth off, you get shot. You do
anything I don't like, you get shot." No one moved. A voice raised,
shrill in protest, then three shots, rapid fire. A woman on the edge of the
crowd nearest Anna fell to the ground screaming. "Tell 'em,
Mack," Butch said. Mack began
speaking Spanish, translating. The refugees grumbled, a swelling buzz that
grew, then abruptly died. Anna guessed he'd gotten to the part about mouthing
off and getting shot. Perry handed
his weapon to Butch and pointed at the nearest crouching family group, a very
young mother, babe in arms and a man of an age to be her father or uncle. "Andale,
andale," he yelled. Anna's sketchy
Spanish education included the word for hurry. The owner of Pepe Delgado's
where she'd waited tables in college used to yell it at the waitresses. The woman
clutching her child and the man with them hurried to where Perry stood near the
corpse, the symbol and promise of what was meted out to those who would
disobey. The woman Butch had shot was still screaming. With brutal
efficiency, Perry collected their offerings in a lawn-sized garbage bag he
pulled from one pocket or another. He patted the refugees with professional
thoroughness, learned, Anna was willing to bet, by being patted down himself
prior to probably more than one arrest. "Andale."
The
next two sheep hastened to the shearing pen. "We've got
to do something," Donna said. Anna shared the
sentiment but had no idea what "something"—at least something that
didn't end like the last act of Hamlet—would entail. "Why don't
they rush him?" Donna hissed. "They're
used to being ruled by force," Anna said. "Peaceable citizens aren't
accustomed to running headlong into machine gun fire." "Good
point." The Cubans kept
coming. The sack grew fatter. Perry, bored by easy pickings, grew ever more
violent, cuffing those who were too slow or too quick or too human. He
backhanded a boy of eight or nine, knocking him to the ground. The mother
sprang at him. He shot her with the .44 that appeared from somewhere on his
person and she fell back. More red-red and surprisingly beautiful blood
spattered the sand in the wash of the floodlights. Paulo cried out. He and Mack
took a step forward. Butch, an Uzi under each arm now, turned toward them and
they stopped. "We've got
to do something," Donna said again. "You're
right," Anna said. "Give me ten minutes and then create a
diversion." "What
kind?" "Be
creative." Overcome with the movie-bred idea of saying, "synchronize
watches," Anna looked to her wrist. Her timepiece was barricaded in the
office with Daniel and Teddy. No matter; salt water had probably stopped
Donna's anyway. "What's
the plan?" Donna asked. "It's a
little sketchy at this point," Anna admitted. Donna looked as
if she had more questions. She didn't ask and Anna was grateful. "Ten
minutes," Donna said. Anna returned
to her peephole where two chunks of concrete lay one atop the other. When both
Butch and Perry were occupied with their harvest, she said, "Okay." Donna left in a
crouching walk. No one shouted in alarm or pointed. Seconds later the big
woman was gone, hidden in the fort's moat. Anna followed,
feeling the rush of fear as she entered the exposed area and a bowel-loosening
relief when she reached the shelter of the moat and lay flat along its wall. Donna was
already heading back the way they'd come, forging ahead with such force she
left a sizable wake in the rain-pocked water. Patrice was
waiting, chest-deep in water, next to the moat wall. Anna hung her
head over the brick till her face was less than a foot from Patrice's. Rain had
plastered Patrice's thin, over-permed hair to her scalp. So close, even with
what little light bled over from the beach, Anna could see the coarseness of
her skin, the bluntness of her features. Patrice was there, and strong and
brave, and she looked beautiful as far as Anna was concerned. "Go with
Donna," Anna whispered. "I stay
with you," Patrice replied. Anna hadn't the
courage or fortitude to argue with her convincingly, so she didn't try. "We've got
eight or so minutes till Donna does whatever it is she does. Here's the
plan." Quickly she outlined her thoughts. Patrice was
silent a moment. "Got a
better idea?" Anna asked hopefully. Patrice smiled.
"I was just admiring its simplicity," she said. "It's got that
classic Popeye and Brutus style." Anna was glad
Patrice had refused to leave. "Let's do it," she said. It was a matter
of less than two or three minutes before they were in place. They'd crawled on
their bellies like ungainly lizards along the top of the moat wall till they
were above and behind Butch. There was no cover and had either of the gunmen
taken time away from their gathering of ill-gotten gains to look, they would
have seen them. So close, so exposed. Anna and Patrice's lives would have been
instantly forfeit. If any of the refugees saw them, they gave no sign. Once a
little girl pointed, but her mother snatched her up and began whispering in her
ear. Lying in plain
sight atop the moat wall like a couple of sacrificial ex-virgins, time seemed
to stop. Anna's internal clock ticked away not minutes but the quarters then
halves of hours as they waited for Donna to create enough of a disturbance the
two armed men would be distracted and confused for a moment. Just as Anna
was beginning to think archaeologists of the future would discover her bones
splayed over the concrete cap of the wall and muse over cause of death, she
heard the unmistakable sound of an engine revving. It was impossible to tell if
it was one of the sportfisher boats offshore or if Donna had fired up the
runabout. The noise grew.
Too rumbling for the runabout; a deep guttural roar of a piston engine with an
attitude. "On my
God," Patrice muttered at the same moment a wild Indian cry built with the
scream of an engine suddenly glutted with gasoline. Anna looked
south where the noise gathered. Suddenly the spotlight from one of the offshore
vessels swung, and a vision acidic in its intensity and epic in execution came
shrieking out of the darkness. Donna, astride Mrs. Meyers, throttle ratcheted
down, both screaming like banshees, roared down the top of the moat wall. The
Harley looked immense and black and silver and mean; Donna, wet hair streaming
behind, wide shoulders bunched into muscle, a Valkyrie, an Amazon. The bike
seemed to be coming at the speed of sound though it couldn't have been
traveling more than thirty miles an hour tops. Anna glanced at
Patrice. Her face was radiant with love. No surprise; at that moment Anna was
in love with Donna herself. Patrice's face cleared, all business now. She
nodded. Anna nodded back. As one they rose. Below on the
beach all eyes were turned toward the southern moat wall, Donna, Mrs. Meyers.
The Cubans were rapt, the religious seeing a vision but not sure whether it was
sent by God or Lucifer. Mack and Paulo looked as men look when reality ceases
to have meaning anymore, rivers run uphill, the sun sets at midday and the
animals of the field speak. Butch had
turned toward Donna, but he was too close under the wall to get a good
shot. Perry ran past his growing garden of dead and wounded, raised his .44 and
took aim. "Now,"
Anna said. She and Patrice launched themselves at Butch. As Anna left the
ground she was aware of two things: the sound of a gunshot and the crash of
metal on concrete. Then she slammed into Butch's back. 32 My Dearest Peg— I am sorry for
the long silence. Things here have been sadder than you could possibly imagine
or than I could write about at the time. Now that the worst has passed I will
do my best. I may be telling you in person before you receive this letter. I am
coming home and I will be coming alone. I suppose I
should begin where I left off more than a month ago. If I remember,
at that time I had decided that I must find what, if anything, Joseph had to do
with Tilly's going missing. Because of the strange and sudden ascendancy of
Sergeant Sinapp I knew there was something amiss between them. Because none but
Sergeant Sinapp and the men under his thrall had the necessary power and
brutality—along with any reason—to remove Tilly from me, I needed to know if
Joseph had been a party to it. I had it in my
mind to confront Joseph and cry, whine, threaten or shame him into telling me
why he had withdrawn his protection from Tilly and me; why he had, by inaction, allowed the inhabitants of Fort
Jefferson to conic under the de facto control of Cobb Sinapp, a man with the
moral code of a shark—and this being said, I know I have insulted the entire
species of fish. I managed to
keep myself in the narrow bed in Tilly's room till the coming sunrise turned
the window from black to gray. It was my intention to wake Joseph and have it
out with him before anyone was astir to distract or interrupt us. Given the
nature of my visit to the connubial bed was not such that a thin cotton gown
felt adequate, I dressed in the clothing I had cast off the day before—not the
britches and blouse of Joseph's I'd borrowed, but my own dress and petticoat. As I was
working the skirt down over my shoulders—the waist of this dress is narrow and
the buttons down the back don't open far enough to make donning and doffing it
a simple matter—I felt the letters. They were the same letters I had stuffed
into my pocket when Joseph came home as I was searching his desk, reading his
correspondence, and wondering if he was being adulterous. Having worked
the dress into place, I took these letters and sat in the old rocker we'd given
Tilly for her use. It sits near the window where what little light available
would help me to make out the writing. I lit a candle to assist the dawn and
looked at my booty. Two of the
letters were military matters; notification of death in one case and a
discussion of new supply ships and routes in the other. The third was of great
interest. It was from Colonel Battersea of the late Confederate Army. The
letter had been sent from New Brunswick, Georgia, which, if I remember
correctly, is Colonel Battersea's home. I believe I may
have mentioned the colonel's situation. He and Joseph were thrust into that
untenable situation so common in the late and tragic events of the war. The colonel had
been one of Joseph's instructors at West Point. He was not a good deal older
than his students, being only twenty-seven or twenty-eight at the time of his
employment there. The colonel (a lieutenant then) took an interest in Joseph.
He had him to dine with he and his wife on more than one occasion and assisted
him in many small ways while Joseph was a cadet under his care. After Joseph
graduated the friendship continued though, of necessity, only by way of
letters. Joseph would write him often with problems or questions concerning
military matters, and Colonel Battersea would always respond with sound advice. Once he and his
wife and their eldest daughter paid us a visit as they were passing through the
garrison in Pennsylvania at which we were posted. As fate would
have it, this same Colonel Battersea ended up at Fort Jefferson, a prisoner of
war under Joseph's wardship. The colonel never asked for preferential treatment
and, though I knew Joseph ached to give him at least better rations and some
small services to make him more comfortable, he never did. His own brand of
military honor would not allow him nor would so doing earn him the colonel's
respect. They did talk
quite often and played chess in the evenings on occasion. In this war of
brothers and neighbors such interaction is not unusual. The colonel had been
here half a year or more when he began getting letters of his wife's declining
health. By war's end she had wasted away till, according to the daughter that
wrote in the wife's stead, she weighed no more than a child. It seemed clear
she would soon die. Joseph
attempted to secure the colonel's early release (by this time it was known the
prisoners of war were to go home in peace) but for reasons I'm not privy
to—perhaps nothing more than the organizational disarray the army was thrown
into by the long and bloody war—permission to release Colonel Battersea was not
forthcoming. Shortly
thereafter the colonel took matters into his own hands and escaped, stowed away
it was surmised on one of the ships that stopped for recoaling. In his own way,
I know Joseph celebrated his old mentor's escape, but he said little about it. Anyway, that
said, I read the letter from Colonel Battersea—the one I had stolen from my
husband's desk—with great interest. I shan't recopy
the entire letter here. After reading it I returned the letters to Joseph's
desk—an act facilitated by my breaking the latch earlier. Colonel Battersea
wrote Joseph of his wife's death and of how grateful he was to have been with
her at the end. Though the language was careful, for one acquainted with his
story, it was clear he thanked Joseph for his escape from Fort Jefferson. It
did my heart good to know my husband had been party to such a kind deceit. Yet I believe
this good and Christian act has been turned against Joseph. Should it be made
known that he, a Union Army captain, aided and abetted the escape of a prisoner
of war, his career would be over. He would be court-martialed and, if not
imprisoned, then drummed out of the service. For Joseph this
would be tantamount to excommunication. The army is his life, his religion. I
don't think I overstep when I say it embodies his very self. As Sergeant Sinapp
has long been Joseph's henchman, I don't doubt Joseph enlisted his aid in the
colonel's escape. It is my belief Joseph underestimated how tamed Sinapp was
and that, having been complicitous in this escape, the sergeant turned on the
master. Sinapp is using this knowledge to blackmail Joseph. Joseph, an
honorable man, mightn't know how those of Sinapp's ilk hate him; the more
servile they are the more hatred they possess. No wonder
Joseph has lost himself. He has sacrificed his honor to hang on to the
trappings of all he believes to be honorable. It's made of him a paper man, one
with no core, no semblance of faith upon which to draw. For an hour or
more I sat in Tilly's room thinking on the ramifications of the letter. At
length I came to believe it in no way indicated that Joseph had been party to
Tilly's disappearance. I do believe that it indicates something almost as
damning: that regardless of Joseph's suspicions of Sinapp, he allowed the
sergeant to blackmail him into silence—inaction. If he suspected—and he must
have done—Joseph looked the other way, refused to know. Joseph became
and continues to act the role of a coward. It's killing him. His spirit is
crippled and even his body is wasting. He's lost weight and his uniforms, once
fitting splendidly, now hang on him as if they belonged to a bigger and better
man. Whether or not
I would have confronted Joseph with my suppositions—become in the supposing as
real to me as proven fact—I don't know. My brown (or, given the circumstance,
perhaps I should say black) study was interrupted shortly after sunrise by
Luanne. She came to Tilly's room, announced beforehand by her wailing and
sighing, and flung open the door. "God has
passed judgment on this evil world," she announced. "You got to come.
One dead and folks fixing to die." Luanne, for all
her colorful language and even more colorful version of the Christian faith, is
not given to panic or exaggeration. Without hesitation I leapt from my place
and followed her. Yellow Fever
had come to Garden Key. This awful burning disease is always with us but it had
descended in a way that seemed to validate Luanne's belief in scourges sent by
God. The fever
lasted three weeks, Peggy. You cannot believe the devastation. Hardest hit were
the officers, though I cannot say why. Within days fully two-thirds of the
commissioned men were dead. One of the first to die of the fever was Captain
Caulley, the fort's surgeon. The lighthouse keeper and his wife died; Charley
Munson, Dr. Mudd's errand boy succumbed. I cannot begin to name them all.
Should I try my tears would blotch the ink on this page till you could no
longer read the words. Dr. Mudd was
loosed from his cell and, as our only doctor, I must say he conducted himself
well, valiantly, even. The officers'
quarters and the casemates behind the barracks construction were converted into
hospital wards. We quickly ran out of medicines. There is little that is
efficacious against Yellow Fever. It is as if the disease ignites the center of
the body and burns outward until life is consumed. The effects are hideous to
observe and suffer. The body is tortured and disfigured as if the disease would
not merely kill but would savage. Those of us who could still stand worked to
alleviate the suffering of the stricken. Dr. Mudd toiled night and day taking
his sleep in minutes rather than hours. What lives were saved must be laid on
his doorstep. The only man who worked harder was Joseph. No task was too menial
or too vile for him to undertake. He carried slops, washed the soldiers, and
spooned water into their parched mouths with the gentleness of a mother feeding
a child. He held them as they died. In the quiet moments when he might have
slept, he wrote of their courage to their wives and mothers. Joseph (as well
as Dr. Mudd) won the respect and admiration of all here. Well, not all. I saw
not a selfless hero, not even a man trying desperately to buy back his soul.
When I looked at Joseph, thin and haggard and going without sleep to minister
to the sick, I saw a man who wanted to die. I believe Joseph clung to the sick,
wallowed in the disease, not in hopes of conquering it that others might live
but of embracing it that it might see fit to take him as well. Death refused
him as it thankfully refused me. We are among the one in three who survived the
epidemic. The second week
of the disease Sergeant Sinapp was taken ill and carried into the downstairs
parlor of the officers' quarters there, with nine others on cots and couches,
to be cared for. I can only
attribute my actions thereafter to fatigue and the mental strain of losing our
dear sister Tilly. Should I not pen these excuses for my behavior I would have
to admit that I had succumbed to an evil as cowardly as my husband's and as
cold as that of Sergeant Sinapp. For three days
I stayed at Sinapp's side. When he cried for water, I asked him where Tilly
was. When he begged to be cooled from his raging fever, I asked what he had
done with our sister. I felt nothing, Peggy, nothing good. My insides were as
still and cold and dark as a well. I watched without sympathy, without
humanity. I gave him the water he called for after each interrogation, but I
did it without thought of succor but only that he might live long enough to
provide the answers I so desperately needed. Rage burned in
him as hot as the fever. Hatred for me scalded his eyes till they were suffused
with blood. Had he the strength, I believe he would have risen from his sickbed
and choked the life from me. He exhausted himself cursing me, screaming at me
to leave. I stayed. When he went to sleep I was watching him. When he awoke I
was watching. Never once did
he repent, confess or ask my forgiveness or God's. Evening of the
third day he went into the delirium that precedes death in those affected with
Yellow Fever. Even then I did not allow him what peace might have been left for
him. Into his delirium dreams I whispered our sister's name, questions, threats.
I whispered until I was hoarse with it and he was wild, trying to fight the
dream demon that was I. It was after
three in the morning, the fort by no means still or dark with the sick crying
and the caretakers making their weary rounds with lantern or candle. Sinapp
began to relive the night our sister disappeared. He mumbled snatches of
orders, guttural grunts of pleasure, names, fragments of conversations, aborted
howls that might pass for laughter in hell. I goaded and guided and finally
pieced together the remnants of his ravings. Sinapp had
lured Tilly out with a note (probably delivered by Charley Munson) purportedly
from Dr. Mudd. He'd then taken Tilly and, with two of his men, taken Joel as
well. These children had been carried to the dungeon and slain. The joy in the
killing and the hatred of the Lincoln conspirators and Tilly's supposed proof
of Dr. Samuel Mudd's innocence was not tempered by remorse even in this last
madness. Before Tilly was murdered Sinapp defiled her. As he relived this, all
that kept me from killing him was the sure knowledge he would die soon. I did
not want to cheat him of a moment's pain and suffering. Just before
dawn he died, his soul unshriven and mine blackened by our time together and my
inability to forgive him. I suppose he
was taken away and buried or burned with the other dead. I suppose I continued
to fetch and carry and nurse. Nothing remains in my memory of the interval
between Sinapp's death and Luanne tucking sheets around me and saying:
"Sleep now or you be sick too. Sleep. Sleep." I slept for
thirty-six hours. When I awoke
there were no new cases of the fever. Those who would die had died. Those
destined to live were convalescing. Yellow Fever had run its course at Fort
Jefferson. I never learned
what became of Tilly and Private Lane's bodies. I was past caring. It is enough
to know their souls are in heaven and Sinapp's is in hell. Joseph received
the transfer he requested. Within the month he will journey to his new post in
the Nevada Territory. I will not go with him. Tomorrow I board the Radcliff and
sail for Boston. More than
anything, Peggy, I want to come home. Your loving
sister, Raffia 33 The jump from
the top of the moat wall to Butch's back was seven feet vertically and that
many or more horizontally. Wanting to inflict as much damage as possible at the
onset, Anna led with elbows and knees. Patrice was at her side, shoulders
touching when they left terra firma. In midair the bigger woman turned slightly
to strike the smuggler with the edge of her shoulder and upper arm. The assault was
sudden and complete. The two women hit like a ton of brick. Butch went down.
One Uzi flew from his hand to land a dozen feet away. The second was ripped out
of his fingers and turned on him by the strong, sure hands of Patrice. With the fall
of Butch and the Uzis, Anna feared Perry would cut loose with the .44. He'd
only spent one bullet she knew of. There could be five people dead or dying
before he emptied the gun. This grim scenario never played out. Galvanized,
refugees surged forward. Paulo, Mack and Rick were carried up to where Patrice
sat astride Butch with gun to his head and Anna racked her brain in search of
something to bind him with. Butch began to struggle. Patrice quieted him with a
meaty fist slammed into the back of his neck. Anna's cuffs were in the office. The crowd's
roar changed tenor, and Anna decided to let Patrice worry about detaining
Butch. Though Mack, Rick and Paulo had been the "good guys" to the
extent of the Cuban smuggling operation, in the minds of many of the refugees
they were tarred with the same brush as Butch and Perry. Along with Butch and
Perry, they could be dispatched by a Latin version of vigilante justice. Floodlights
began winking out. Engines roared as the fishing boats powered up to flee.
Everyone yelled, shrieked or screamed. Of Perry, there was no sign in the
milling clot of Cuban refugees. Anna ran for
the Uzi lying on the sand, snatched it up, pointed it in the air and pulled the
trigger. Once before, in training, she'd fired an Uzi. It bucked like a live
thing, seeming to have a will of its own, a thirst for killing. "Please, por
favor, por favor, silencio," she shouted. The crowd fell quiet. The
lights were gone. Blinded by the recent floods, she yelled "Paulo,
Mack," trying to locate them before they were murdered. "Here,"
she heard Paulo reply like a schoolboy at roll call. She turned
toward his voice. Her eyes were adjusting. Enough of dawn pushed at night and
storm clouds that she could make him out, held captive by half a dozen men. "Let him
go," she said. No one moved. She fired another burst from the evil weapon
she carried. "Let him
go," Mack repeated in Spanish. Reluctantly the Cubans loosed their
captive. "Paulo,
there's a woman in the moat. Maybe shot. See to her now. Don't even think about
running. I disabled your boat." Behind her, Anna heard Patrice whisper,
"Dear God..." then a thump and a grunt as she hit Butch once more for
good measure. Paulo scrambled
past and up onto the moat wall. "Mack,
come to me," Anna ordered. The Cubans
parted and allowed a newly freed Mack to walk to where she stood. He limped,
and black showed at nostrils and mouth where he'd taken blows. "Perry,"
she said. "Where is he? He's armed. I want him." "Shot,"
Mack said succinctly. He turned and rattled off a few sentences in Spanish. The
Cubans moved aside, opening a pathway from Anna to the sea. Halfway down
lay a body. "See to
him," Anna said. "He's
dead," Mack replied. "A bullet tore his throat out. I saw him go down
just as all this began." Unless one of
the Cubans had brought a gun with them, it made no sense. "Ask them who
shot him," Anna said. Mack did so.
There was an exchange too rapid for Anna to understand, and a woman pointed up
toward the battlements. Two men pointed out to sea. "This
woman swears she saw a muzzle flash from the fort. Two guys swear the shot came
from the boats and the kid insists it was Butch. Sorry." No one wanted
to confess to killing an American before they'd even had a chance to become one
themselves. Anna didn't care. She was grateful to the shooter. "Paulo!"
she shouted. "How's Donna?" Two figures
appeared shadowlike on the wall above the beaches. "Donna's fine"
came the boiler engineer's gravelly voice. "But Mrs. Meyers is in critical
condition." Patrice began
to cry, great gulping sobs of relief punctuated by a single grunt as she again
bashed Butch on the side of the head to remind him of his manners. Within half an
hour Anna had things more or less organized. The refugees were in the casemates
on the fort's north side where they were at least out of the rain. A Cuban man
and Perry, bedfellows in death, lay side-by-side in the researchers' dorm. The
wounded woman, suffering a bullet to her right shoulder, awaited Teddy in the
fort's infirmary. Lack of personnel forced Anna to house the prisoners, Rick,
Paulo, Butch and Mack, with the refugees, but they'd been bound securely with
plastic handcuffs at wrist and ankle and weren't going anywhere soon—at least
not anywhere fun. Donna was put to the task of freeing Teddy and Daniel, and
Patrice, armed with two Uzis and a .44, stood watch over refugees and prisoners
alike. A semblance of
order restored, Anna set about finding Bob Shaw's body. When Teddy was
released, Anna didn't want her to suffer under the added burden of not knowing,
of picturing her beloved facedown in the moat, eyes being nibbled by crabs.
Butch and Mack denied any knowledge of what Perry had done. Anna didn't waste
time grilling them. From what Teddy told her, Perry had come to the Shaws'
house alone. The sun had yet
to thrust its face over the horizon, but the light had grown stronger with the
shadowless clarity of a subtropical dawn. The rain had let up, and the clouds,
though not gone, had lifted. It would be hot and sunny by noon. Returning to
the Shaws', Anna set about following the blood trail that began near the sofa
in the living room. She'd checked the bedroom before, and Anna took her search
outside. Why Perry would bother to first drag the corpse upstairs, then change
his mind, drag it back down and stash the body in one of the storage casemates
was a mystery. It wouldn't keep the body from being found, only delay the
inevitable a few minutes. When following the twisted trail of a sociopath there
wasn't much point in spending a lot of thought on logic. Anna stuck to the
trail of blood. Rain had
obliterated most of the sporadic and sketchy trail. Anna found traces of what
could be blood soaked into the wooden treads of the stairs leading to the
second tier and her apartment. Once under the protective arches of the higher
level, tracking became easy. An obvious trail where a heavy object had been dragged
was left in the ubiquitous brick dust. Bob had been
taken in the opposite direction from Anna's quarters. Two casemates down, she
found him. The cast had been smashed off but for a jagged-edged ring of plaster
at mid thigh The leg was rebroken, bone again breaking through the skin. Blood
dyed the lower part of Bob's leg red. He lay half in the sill of the broken-out
gunport facing Loggerhead Key. His service weapon was in his hand. "Oh my
God," Anna whispered reverently. Shattered leg, bleeding, Bob had dragged
himself up the stairs to his bedroom, retrieved his gun, then pulled himself up
to the fort's second tier. It was he who had shot Perry and very probably saved
Donna's life. He was
breathing. He had a pulse, albeit a weak and thready one. "Hallelujah,"
Anna breathed her thanks to the ambient gods. The whump of
helicopter blades announced the arrival of the cavalry, coast-guard style. The
storm had lifted sufficiently that aircraft could be dispatched, and they had
outpaced the ships headed to Garden Key. Uniformed men
and women swarmed efficiently over the fort. Bob was packaged by EMTs and
whisked away. Rick, Mack, Butch and Paulo were taken into custody. The refugees
were being cared for. Anna was relieved of responsibility and felt the lift as a
physical thing. Light and tired and surreal, she left the bustle and shouted
commands and made her way to the dock where the prisoners awaited boarding
under the stern eye of two young guardsmen looking fresh and clean and strong
in their natty uniforms. Damp and
crumpled, feeling old and small and frail, Anna sat down opposite but out of
reach of William Macintyre. Despite his crimes—and she guessed they were even
more numerous than she knew of—she felt a greater kinship with him than with
any of the bright young soldiers who'd not had the night unravel and explode
around them. "Hey,
Mack," she said wearily. "Hey,
Anna." If he was frightened or angry or resentful, he didn't show it. For
a time they sat together without speaking, like comrades who've shared so much
each knows all the other's stories and talk is redundant. "There was
no other diver," Anna said at length. "It was you. You tried to kill
me, squash me under that engine." "I'm sorry
about that." "Sorry you
tried or sorry you didn't kill me?" "As things
turned out, I'm sorry I tried," Mack said. In spite of
herself, Anna smiled. "After going to all the effort, why didn't you? It
would have been easy enough." "Your feet
started flipping and your little hand wiggling. I thought you were hurting. I can't
stand to see anybody hurt." Anna understood
the point he made. For his cause he would kill, sacrifice the few that the many
might live free. When he said he couldn't hurt anyone, he meant it literally.
He could take a life but he couldn't cause pain and suffering. Maybe because,
as a boy, forced by vicious beatings to reveal the whereabouts of his parents
and so cause their deaths, to die meant little to him. To live in pain was the
true hell. "What
happened to Theresa? Did you kill her?" Anna asked. "Or was that left
to your hired thugs?" "Trecie
grew up in my old neighborhood," Mack said. "I used to see her
running around on a little banana bike with pink ribbons on the handlebars when
I'd visit." It was on the
tip of Anna's tongue to ask again if he'd killed her, but Mack wanted to tell
it his own way. Before he could go on, Butch interrupted. "You're
going to hang yourself, asshole." Till he spoke he'd been so still both
Anna and Mack had nearly forgotten about him. At the sound of his voice, Mack
was transformed. Blood suffused his face, spittle formed in the corners of his
mouth and he appeared to grow larger, swell within his bonds. "You enjoy
hurting people, you piece of shit. You piece of shit!" Mack half rose,
bent on attacking the other man, but the two coast guard boys stepped in. The
moment past, Mack shrank to normal size. When some time had gone by, he picked
up his story. He needed to tell it. Anna needed to hear it. "Trecie—Theresa—was
to seduce Lanny, get on the island and help from the inside. She was Cuban and
wanted to work for her people. I guess she really did fall in love with old
Lanny. She was going to tell him the whole thing; trade three hundred lives so
she could be honest with her boyfriend. Rick and Paulo's brother—one of the guys
killed when the fuel boat blew—came out and talked to her, but she wouldn't
budge. I told 'em I'd take care of it. They don't know." Anna waited.
When he didn't go on she asked again: "Did you kill her?" "I didn't
hurt her." "What a
fucking saint," Butch sneered. Mack didn't
seem to hear him. In many ways Mack had withdrawn from the world Anna, the
coast guard hoys and Butch inhabited. Though he heard her questions, he
answered as if speaking to himself in another place, a place not much better
than where his corporal self would spend twenty-five to life. "Trecie
was going to go tell Lanny. We were down by the old dungeon in the southeast
corner where we wouldn't be overheard. Trecie'd got it into her head that
Lanny'd throw in with us, help our people to get to America. It was bull.
Lanny's an okay guy, but he doesn't take chances. He doesn't believe in
anything but a pension. "I tried
to quiet her. I needed to get her off Garden Key without her making noise. You
know that sleeper hold the wrestlers used to do. I used that. It doesn't
hurt." The silence
grew. From within the fort came the comforting sounds of an orderly crowd. The
two coast guard men stood as still and mute as Buckingham Palace guards till
Butch asked for a cigarette. Neither of them smoked. "She never
came to?" Anna said to be clear. "Never
did. Poor little girl." "Dump the
body at sea?" "I meant
to, but things got dicey. Daniel was stomping down the stairs there at that end
of the fort, hollering, 'Mack, Mack.' We'd been redoing the brickwork sealing
up the old cisterns. The sledgehammer was there to bust out the stuff that was
crumbling. I bashed a hole, stuffed her through and was laying brick when
Daniel got there. "He stayed
and gossiped for half an hour or more. There was nothing I could do but keep
working. After I'd got it sealed up there didn't seem much point in changing
things. I juiced Lanny with LSD to cloud his mind. He was gaga about Theresa.
If he'd've been thinking clear, he'd've never let it go; screwed things
up." "And me?" "Yeah. Why
not? It worked once. And it doesn't—" "Right. It
doesn't hurt," Anna finished for him. "Killing
Trecie wasn't part of the plan, and I'm sorry it had to happen. Real sorry. Her
aunt's going to feel pretty bad about the whole thing." "Somebody
always ends up hurting," Anna said. "I
guess." More silence.
Anna wanted to leave, but that would have entailed standing and moving. She
wasn't ready for that. Another question came to her. "You took the
pictures of Theresa from Lanny's house the other night. Why?" Mack smiled.
"You in your little dress running around at night. I thought you'd catch
me for sure." Anna didn't
answer his smile. Images of her own vulnerability didn't amuse her. "Why
take them?" "Probably
no reason. Lanny'd gone camera-happy after Theresa'd gone. Took a zillion
pictures. I got to thinking some of them might be of me or Paulo or Rick or
something. Figured better safe than sorry." "You
missed one," Anna told him out of spite. He said
nothing. She stood; her
back and legs had stiffened and hurt like a son-of-a-bitch. It would take a
degree of fortitude to walk away without wincing at every step. She looked down
at the murdering, poisoning, smuggling, felonious reprobate and couldn't find
any anger toward him. "Thanks
for not killing me," she said, wondering why she should feel gratitude,
but feeling it anyway. "I'm getting married," she added and realized
she was too tired to filter her thoughts or words. "Congratulations,"
Mack said sincerely. The dungeon,
the old cisterns, the brickwork happening so conveniently at a time of a young
woman's disappearance: Anna remembered her great-great-aunt Raffia's letters,
the mention of Sergeant Sinapp doing uncharacteristic physical labor himself,
bricking up the ruined cistern when it had first been done nearly a century and
a half before. She thought of Raffia feeling her way to Mudd's dungeon in the
dark, how she'd known where she was by the smell of new mortar. Without
stopping to think about what she intended to do, Anna borrowed a ten-pound
sledgehammer and a flashlight from Daniel's shop and went to the dungeon. "Abandon
Hope All Ye Who Enter Here." Permission to
take down a wall, even one so newly and nefariously constructed, could drag on
forever. Bureaucracies were good at making small problems last a long time,
thus providing job security for middle management. The blows hurt
her as much as they did the brick wall, but she was the more determined and it
fell down before she did. The stink of decomposing flesh and the scurrying
sound of interrupted diners gushed from the new-made hole, and Anna fell back.
She gave the critters a few seconds' head start, then, having kicked the rubble
away, stuck her head through, flashlight in hand. The earthly
remains of Theresa Alvarez stopped her from going any farther. As Mack had
said, she was shoved in a heap just inside the brick wall. Fighting her gag
reflex—to once start vomiting was to have difficulty stopping till not only the
smell but the sense memory of the smell were purged—Anna pulled and bashed away
enough of the wall that she could see the corpse more clearly, not to study it
for clues, but to avoid treading on or in any way touching the pathetic thing. She had no
interest in the murder—Mack had confessed and she believed him—but should he
think better of his admission and retract his confession before going to trial,
Anna wanted to leave what evidence there might be undisturbed. Having created
enough room to maneuver, she ducked through the hole and stood between
Theresa's feet. The body was mashed into a rectangular opening about three by
five feet and not high enough to stand upright. At the parade ground end was
solid brick. Toward the sea narrow brick steps led steeply down into darkness.
These Anna followed. There were but eight treads, each higher than a standard
step, and then an opening to the left, low and small like the one above. It let into a
room without a floor. The only place to stand was a shelf no more than eighteen
inches wide. Beyond this was a great square hole the size of the casemate above
and maybe that deep. Depth was hard to gauge without proper light. Seawater had
seeped in until the old cistern was filled to half a dozen feet down from where
Anna stood. The beam of her
flashlight sank into the dark water. Beneath she could see the brick of the
walls and sand. Hidden away from sun and storm, the water was clear, very
nearly devoid of life and utterly devoid of movement. But for water and sand,
the cistern was empty. Anna felt a crush of disappointment. It came down on her
with a weight of fatigue and she found she must sit down on the ledge or pitch
face foremost into the water. Till her strength returned sufficiently that she
could climb eight stairs and brave the odoriferous dead person, she idly played
her light across the dark water. Over the century and half it had lain sealed.
Brick dust, lime and other debris brought down by decay, rainwater seeping
through from above and seawater from below, had formed a sort of a beach on the
seaward side. Either that or the sand had fallen during a partial collapse of
some kind and remained unchanged by wind or the action of the sea from that
time to this. As she played
the light back and forth over this subterranean atoll, she noticed a darkened
triangle, like a small shark's fin, protruding above the surface. The first few
times she'd taken it for a shadow—or perhaps been simply too tired and
dispirited to notice. Once seen it would not melt into the background again. Finally
curiosity got the better of lethargy and she scooted around the ledge on her
bottom to where, with care, she could drop down onto the sand. As her fingers
loosed the brick, she suffered a terrifying thought. What if the sand were
viscous, near liquid and swallowed her like quicksand? The sand gave
way beneath her just enough to snatch her breath away and douse her tired body
with so much adrenaline she felt as if she could have leapt the six feet to
safety flatfooted. Ankle-deep in sand and gasping for air, she waited till the
panic passed. Since Mack's acid trips had scrambled her brains, the center for
fear in her cerebral cortex had been working double time. Normal anxiety was
revved up into crippling fear that came in bowel-loosening waves. Anna hoped it
wasn't going to be a permanent condition; yet one more wound that left a scar. Recovered
sufficiently that her hands quit shaking, she trained her light on the dark
triangle that had lured her into the gullet of the abandoned cistern. It was a
bit of weathered wood, nothing more. Because she was there and because, when
the adrenaline burned out in liquid terror, she'd been left temporarily too
weak to climb out of a bassinet let alone a brick tank, she knelt in the sand
and began digging. Though softened
by water and rot, she could tell the board's exposed end had not been sawed but
broken. As she dug and pulled, she saw sledge or boot-heel-sized indentations
where it had been repeatedly struck as if someone had gone to great lengths to
smash it free of a structure. Five minutes of
digging and worrying it and the sand gave up a board five or six inches wide
and a bit over two feet long. Risking her fanny to the yielding sand, Anna sat
and examined her find. At first her flashlight revealed nothing more exciting
than an old, square-headed, iron nail. As she looked, though, letters began to
separate themselves from the shades of gray where white paint had once been
emblazoned on the wood. Once looking for them, they became clear enough: rry
Cay. "I knew
it," Anna whispered. She leaned back and closed her eyes. "You were
right, Aunt Raffia. Tilly never left the fort." For the briefest of
instants, borne undoubtedly on the winds of an acid flashback, Anna felt the
presence of her great-great-aunt so strongly she smiled. Until it was gone she
didn't dare open her eyes. Seeing ghosts at night when she was high was one
thing. Seeing them mid morning, straight, was too much to contemplate. rry Cay. The Merry
Cay, the sailing skiff belonging to Sergeant Sinapp; the one he'd reported
stolen the morning after Tilly and Private Lane disappeared, the boat that held
together the thin fabric of lies about the supposed elopement. It was as
Raffia had said. Sinapp killed them, dumped the bodies and the smashed skiff in
the ruined cistern, then saw to the bricking up himself. Anna didn't doubt but
that she sat on Tilly's impromptu grave. Without realizing she did so, she
patted the sand with the tenderness of a mother gentling a frightened child. Whether bones
would be found, she couldn't say. Not being a forensic expert she had no idea
what a hundred and fifty years immersed in brackish water and wet sand would do
to a human skeleton. For her, the finding of the boat was enough. EPILOGUE The refugees
were taken to an INS holding facility by a flotilla of coast guard ships. According
to the coast guard and INS, it was the largest single landing of illegal aliens
since the British invaded in 1812. Anna had been a part of history. The six fishing
boats were stopped and taken into custody at about the same time the helicopter
reached Garden Key. They had no intention of returning to Cuba. No one doubted
that they were headed to Enrico's Marine Supply in Miami, but as they denied it
uniformly, there might be trouble proving it. The coast guard took possession
of the fishing boats as well as the captured Scarab. Not a bad haul. Paulo, Rick,
Butch and Mack disappeared into the legal system. There would be federal
charges, charges by the state of Florida, and Cuban officials might want them
as well. Good intentions or not, they had broken rules, laws, traditions,
taboos and statutes in many jurisdictions. They would be in jail a long time.
Mack and Butch faced the death penalty. Anna wished Paulo and Rick a mere slap
on the hands, but they would get little leniency for being cute, young and
good-hearted. Bob and the
wounded woman were medevacked out. Bob was recovering but would probably limp
the rest of his life. Anna remained
at Fort Jefferson for two more weeks. Her time was spent writing reports and
retrieving personal gear and NPS property off the bottom of the ocean around
East Key. Mrs. Meyers was
rescued from the moat and underwent rehabilitation in Daniel's living room.
Along with a few more scars on corpus and psyche, Anna would take away from the
Dry Tortugas the wonderful image of Daniel, the burly maintenance man, flitting
about muttering, "Oh my dear, oh my dear," and, "Don't hurt her.
Careful," as the Harley was winched up onto the moat wall. Anna
photocopied Raffia's letters and turned them over to Duncan, the fort's historian.
His feelings were mixed. Excavating the cistern that entombed Tilly, Joel Lane
and then Theresa Alvarez excited him. The prospect of finding fragments, the
DNA of which might be matched to an actual living park ranger, filled him with
glee. The prospect of dismantling the walls of the powder room to discover Dr.
Mudd's innocence and, so, the negation of his book proving the man's guilt—all
but three chapters of which were already completed—did not. Knowing the
glacial slowness with which a big bureaucracy moves, Anna didn't count on this
question being answered in her lifetime. She wasn't
concerned. She had the answers she needed and a future full of live people to
look forward to. Paul renewed his proposal via e-mail. They'd set a date,
March, scarcely half a year away. Place was yet to be determined. Anna unpacked
the black velvet box that housed the impressive diamond engagement ring Paul
had given her and put the ring on. She needed to get used to the look and
feel—and the idea—of it before she returned to Mississippi and had to make good
on her promise of matrimony. ABOUT THE AUTHOR Nevada Barr is
the award-winning author of ten previous Anna Pigeon mysteries, including the New
York Times bestsellers Hunting Season and Blood Lure. Her
next book, to be published in June 2003, is Seeking Enlightenment ... Hat by
Hat, a skeptic's down-to-earth search for the spiritual. She lives in
Mississippi, where she was most recently a ranger on the Natchez Trace Parkway. |
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