"chap-12" - читать интересную книгу автора (Biggle Lloyd Jr. - All The Colours Of Darkness)12 As soon as Darzek regained his sight and his ability to move
about, he found himself confronted with two singular problems. The first was of his own making. He was quickly able to
detect minor differences in stature and facial proportions among the aliens, but
he found it utterly impossible to pronounce their names. After one prolonged
session of sputtering ineffectuality, he determined to rechristen them with
appellations more to his liking. He had already named one female Alice. He proceeded to call
the other Gwendolyn. Miss X became Mr. X, and then, because the implied
formality seemed ridiculous, Xerxes. Madam Z was altered to Zachary in similar,
rapid steps. It then seemed only logical to refer to the third male as Y, which
Darzek did until he could think of a masculine name beginning with Y; whereupon
he changed the Y to Ysaye. Alice, Gwendolyn, Xerxes, Ysaye, and Zachary. The aliens
themselves could have done no better, Darzek thought; except that the
"Alice" seemed a bit too simple, too earthy, for the spectacularly
unhuman alien physiognomy. He consulted Zachary. "Do you think Alice would mind if
I changed her name to Alithia?" "I shall ask her," Zachary said. He mounted the ladder, and Darzek followed him. The supply capsule was a tall cylinder with its entire
internal circumference ingeniously fitted out for storage. There were deep
revolving bins, drawers that pivoted outwards, compartments with doors that
rippled down or sideways with the precision and speed of a zipper. The capsule
was partitioned into four segments, each roughly ten feet in height, and a
ladder ran from top to bottom and passed through circular openings in the
partitions. Alice and Xerxes had established themselves on the upper
level. Zachary presented Darzek’s question, pronouncing the names Alice and
Alithia flawlessly. Alice, who did not speak English or any other terrestrial
language, repeated them with equal precision. A discussion followed, which
Darzek watched with interest. He had been unable to understand whether his determination to
name the aliens had bewildered them or merely left them indifferent. They
responded promptly to their names when he used them, but they politely avoided
them when speaking of themselves. "She would like to know why?" Zachary said finally. "It seems more appropriate to her personality,"
Darzek said. "How can that be? Is not a name only a label?" "Certainly not," Darzek said. "Names have
meanings, and the euphony is also important." "What do these names mean?" Darzek searched his memory. "I can’t recall," he
admitted. "But why did you first call her Alice, if that name was
not appropriate?" "It was the first thing I thought of." There was further discussion, and then Zachary announced,
"She says that you may call her anything you choose." "Thank you," Darzek said. "But on second
thought I’ll continue to call her Alice. I’ve heard that it’s bad luck to
change a name." He went back down the ladder, chuckling to himself, while
above him the implications of his last remark were discussed and debated. He
had, he thought, given the aliens something to think about. He had the feeling
that they needed it badly. The second problem concerned his inability to dress himself.
His blindfolded impression that his entire body was swathed in bandages proved
correct—because alien clothing consisted entirely of bandages. Wide strips of
elasticlike cloth were wrapped in turn about the legs, the lower trunk, the
upper trunk, and the arms. When done properly, with precisely the right amount
of tension, the result was snug warmth and comfort and an exhilarating freedom
of movement. Darzek recalled the elastic stockings and bandages used for certain
medical purposes, and wondered if this odd apparel might not also have
therapeutic qualities. His burned clothing had been discarded, but all of his
possessions were scrupulously collected together in one small bin in his
quarters, which were the lowest level of the capsule. He found there everything
his pockets had contained, including his passport, penknife, cigarette case and
lighter, pen and pencil, pocket secretary, photographs of Miss X and Madam Z in
various disguises—and also his shoulder holster and automatic. "You’re giving this back to me?" he exclaimed. "Why not?" Zachary asked. "It is your
property." "I don’t suppose there’s much use I could make of it
now," Darzek conceded. "I do not suppose so," Zachary said, but whether he
was being ironic or merely polite Darzek could not decide. Having named the aliens and learned to dress himself, Darzek
was confronted with the severest trial of his life. He had absolutely nothing to
do, and yet he would not, he positively refused to, allow himself to be
intimidated by the fact of approaching death. And the aliens were intimidated. They sought politely to
ignore Darzek as he cheerfully invaded their quarters when he used the ladder to
test his most recent attempt to clothe himself. They became increasingly
withdrawn. At first he thought that they were bitterly and understandably
resentful of him, since he was wholly responsible for their plight. It took him
some time to decide that they were merely terrified. Alice and Xerxes sat opposite each other in the cramped space
at the floor of the upper level, their gazes fixed upon some object or thought
remote beyond the light years, and Alice sang. Her melodic line made slithering
ascents and droops, the harsh alien language punctuated it with hisses, and in
Darzek’s few moments of critical tolerance he found it only slightly less
musical than a traffic siren. Gwendolyn, Ysaye, and Zachary crowded themselves into the
level below and played a game—a game that Darzek, after a long session of
watching from the ladder, dismissed as a particularly tedious variety of chess,
with hallucinations. It was a four-dimensional game, played without a game
board. The grotesquely fashioned pieces moved at different levels with the aid
of various-sized blocks. The moves depended not only upon position but on the
total number of moves that had been made. Darzek’s first attempt to understand
the game was his last. He found it difficult to account for his conviction that the
aliens had been frightened into an immobilizing hysteria. Their expressionless
faces furnished no clues. He was quickly convinced that their voices did, for as
his ear became attuned to them he found their speech, even in English, filled
with amazing subtleties of nuance and inflection. He had, unfortunately, no way
of telling what the nuances and inflections meant— though he reminded himself
that he would have encountered the same problem with facial expressions. A
smile, on the face of a nonhuman, might indicate anger or deadly insult. His unaccountable awareness of the presence of a pernicious,
all-engulfing dread persisted. He began to feel apprehensive himself, not of the
approach of death, but of the aliens’ reaction to it. His wrist watch had stopped while he was blindfolded. When he
attempted to reset it, all of his inquiries about time were politely turned
aside. Finally he placed the watch in the bin with his other possessions. "Why worry about the hour," he asked himself,
"when you don’t know what day it is?" But the hours to worry about were endless. For a time he
allowed his mind to be occupied with the lengthy and involved contemplation of
trivialities. He bounced on his sleeping pad and pondered the nature of the
smooth fabric and the soft, resilient substance it contained. He touched none of
the storage compartments except the bin containing his own property, feeling
that the aliens would interpret unauthorized snooping as further evidence of his
depraved barbarism; but there were windowed compartments, with openings covered
with an invisible, unbelievably tough film, and when he was alone he peered into
them and speculated on their perplexing contents. He puzzled long over the ladder, which was of metal or a
metallic-like substance and quite ordinary except for its unusual width and the
depth and spacing of its steps. It seemed a fantastically crude object to be
placed so prominently amid the capsule’s technological sophistication. He
decided, finally, that no better method could be devised for making all parts of
the capsule conveniently accessible with a minimum sacrifice of space. Gwendolyn and Zachary were experts in the weird game they
were playing; Ysaye was evidently a novice. He was invariably eliminated in the
early stages, and occasionally he would come down and talk to Darzek while
Gwendolyn and Zachary withdrew into the complicated dimensions of their
game, and grimly and silently battled to an incomprehensible conclusion. In the background, Mice’s song went on unceasingly. "I’ve been wondering about the air," Darzek said
to Ysaye. "Is it from your home planet?" "Yes." ‘That means I’m probably the first human who has ever
breathed the air of another world. I don’t know whether that’s a distinction
or not, but I like the stuff." "It suffers from being stored for so long," Ysaye
said. "Really? It seems sweet-tasting and invigorating to
me." "It has much more oxygen than your air. Darzek’s feeling of physical well-being was such that
inaction became intolerable to him. He first occupied himself with the routine
exercises that the cramped space around the ladder permitted. Then, for the want
of anything else to do, he began to jump. He could, by loosely using the ladder
to guide himself, leap through the opening to the level above. With a feeling of
sheer elation he dropped back to the first level and leaped again. He wondered
if he could, with practice, jump through the two lower levels and disrupt the
game in the third. Then Ysaye came climbing down to him. "* * * says—" "Who?" "* * *." "Alice?" "Yes. * * * says that physical effort makes you consume
the air faster.’’ "Good idea," Darzek said. "Why don’t we all
exercise, and get it over with in a hurry?" For once he succeeded in disrupting an alien’s composure.
Twice Ysaye’s mouth opened to speak, but he could find nothing to say. But Darzek resignedly stopped his exercising. Ysaye was the lonely one among the aliens, the outsider.
Darzek felt increasingly sorry for him, and soon began to regard him with an
unaccountable liking. Their conversations became more frequent and longer. "There is one thing that puzzles me," Ysaye said. "What’s that?" Darzek asked, quickly analyzing
the tone of voice for some indication of puzzlement. "When so many of its passengers did not reach their
destinations, why did not your Universal Trans stop using its
transmitters?" "That’s an interesting question," Darzek said. He
was savoring the final inch of a stringently rationed cigarette, and he took his
time about answering. "The fact of the matter was," he went on,
"that there were no passengers who did not reach their destinations." "I do not understand," Ysaye said. "I could make it clear very easily, I think, but I’m
not sure that I should." "But why not?" "You refuse to answer my questions. Why should I answer
yours?" "What have I refused to answer?" "Why were you attempting to sabotage Universal
Trans?" Before Ysaye could comment, Gwendolyn summoned him for the
start of a new game. When next he appeared he picked up the conversation where
they had left off. Obviously he had been thinking over Darzek’s remark.
"Do you mean that if we were to tell you what you want to know—about us—you
would then tell us whatever we want to know about you?" "I hadn’t thought of it in precisely that way, but it
sounds like a fair trade." "I must first ask ** *" "Who?" "* * *," he said, starting up the ladder. "You mean Alice?" "Yes." The song at the top cut off abruptly, and then after a brief
interval started up again. Ysaye clambered slowly down. "She says no,"
he announced. "A pity. We might have had an enjoyable talk." "Since we are going to die anyway, I do not understand
why you will not tell me." "I was thinking the same thing. How much longer do we
have?" "I do not know," Ysaye said. "I think * * *
knows, but she will not tell us. She thinks it best that we do not know." "Anyway, it seems to me that I’d be taking a
substantially greater risk. Sooner or later your people will check up on you. What would prevent you from leaving a written record of
anything I say? Your successors would no doubt find a way to turn the
information to their advantage. On the other hand, there’s no possible way I
could get any information to my people—is there?" "I do not think it would be possible," Ysaye said. "Even if we’re near one of the Moon stations, I doubt
that this capsule is sticking up like a sore thumb." "Like a sore thumb," Ysaye repeated. He pronounced
the last word with an inflected droop that Darzek was hopefully interpreting to
mean puzzlement. "It is sunk into rock, and we are far from your Moon
stations." "Just what I meant. My people probably couldn’t find
it even if they were looking for it. What possible harm could our conversation
do?" "You do not understand. We must follow our Code. We have
sworn to follow it. I should not talk with you even this much. * * * thinks we
have already told you too much." "Or that I’ve found out too much?" Darzek
suggested. "As I said before, it’s a pity. Time hangs heavily here. I’ve
faced death once or twice, but it was something that happened quickly, and I
never had time to think much about it until afterwards. What does it feel like
to suffocate?" He watched Ysaye closely as he spoke. The strangely concave
facial features gave an impression only of an immense, utterly frigid
indifference. The six of them waited, tedious hour after hour, with no
expectation except for a time when their breathing would become laborious, when
they would crowd to the top of the capsule where the air was freshest, or to the
bottom—and Darzek spent some hours speculating as to which it would be—and
lie gasping in a futile struggle to shred the dead air of its final traces of
oxygen, and finally they would die. Would they be mercifully unconscious at the end? That was
another matter for wearisome speculation. "It’s a little like a clock running down," Darzek
said to Ysaye. "Every breath, or every tick, takes us closer to the
end." After that he found himself intoning, in absent-minded moments,
"Tick… tock… tick… tock." Ysaye was not amused. Alice continued to sing. She sang in all her waking moments,
with Xerxes listening to her mutely, whether in admiration or nostalgic
desperation Darzek could not say. Gwendolyn and Zachary played their game and
cultivated their appetites. In a short time their capacity for food became a
thing to regard with awe and trepidation. "We’ll run out of food before we run out of air,"
Darzek observed to Ysaye, who was dutifully acting as chef and waiter. "We have enough food to last for—for months,"
Ysaye said. "If we do run out, it won’t be my fault," Darzek
said. He ate no more than enough to sustain himself, and merely to
eat that much was a triumph of will power and self-control. The food came in a
multiplicity of colors and—Darzek sup-posed, though he found it difficult to
distinguish them—flavors. It was prepared to any desired temperature and
served in deep, triangular bowls, sometimes as a thick soup taken with a tube,
but more often compressed into small, moist, fibrous cakes that were eaten with
the fingers. Whatever the color, or the temperature, or the consistency, Darzek
found it uniformly distasteful. But it was a near-perfect food. The body absorbed virtually
all of it, and the large compartment thoughtfully provided on the lower level
for the private disposal of bodily wastes saw very little traffic. The cooking facilities intrigued Darzek most of all. The
prepared food was placed in a thin, completely enclosed container that seemed
metallic but was surprisingly light. A few seconds in the cooking slot, and the
food was heated to order—piping hot for Darzek, or warm, for Gwendolyn’s
level, or tepid, for Alice. The container remained at room temperature. "Why waste heat to heat the container?" Ysaye
asked, when Darzek commented on this. "What’s the source of heat?" Darzek asked. "The Sun. The capsule stores the heat and uses it as
needed." "Good trick. Couldn’t you use that heat to send up a
few distress signals?" "No—no—" "Heat is a source of power, isn’t it?" Darzek
persisted. "You certainly have all kinds of supplies here, including
electronic stuff—or stuff that serves the purpose of what we call electronic
stuff. Your technicians should be able to build a radio that would send out a
simple SOS signal." "Even if that were possible, we could not." Darzek looked at him searchingly. For all of his provocative
prodding and careful analysis, the mind that lay behind those strange facial
features was as much a mystery to him as ever. "Too bad I’m not a psychiatrist," he said.
"I believe all five of you are possessed of some kind of death compulsion.
I can’t understand anyone’s wanting to die." "We do not want to die." "Then put Alice and Gwendolyn to work on that radio.
Maybe one of the Moon stations could send help, and if not, we might be able to
get help directly from Earth. My government has invested millions in the rescue
of plane crash or shipwreck survivors. It ought to be ready to spend billions to
rescue someone gone astray on the Moon." "No. We could not do that." "I thought you didn’t want to die." "We do not. But * * * has considered all the
possibilities, and there is nothing we can do. We cannot permit ourselves to be
rescued by your people." Darzek stared at him in amazement. "You mean—you
wouldn’t let my people rescue you even if they were to try?" "We cannot. We have a Code. We have sworn to follow
it." "Tick… tock," Darzek said scornfully. Ysaye fled up the ladder. 12 As soon as Darzek regained his sight and his ability to move
about, he found himself confronted with two singular problems. The first was of his own making. He was quickly able to
detect minor differences in stature and facial proportions among the aliens, but
he found it utterly impossible to pronounce their names. After one prolonged
session of sputtering ineffectuality, he determined to rechristen them with
appellations more to his liking. He had already named one female Alice. He proceeded to call
the other Gwendolyn. Miss X became Mr. X, and then, because the implied
formality seemed ridiculous, Xerxes. Madam Z was altered to Zachary in similar,
rapid steps. It then seemed only logical to refer to the third male as Y, which
Darzek did until he could think of a masculine name beginning with Y; whereupon
he changed the Y to Ysaye. Alice, Gwendolyn, Xerxes, Ysaye, and Zachary. The aliens
themselves could have done no better, Darzek thought; except that the
"Alice" seemed a bit too simple, too earthy, for the spectacularly
unhuman alien physiognomy. He consulted Zachary. "Do you think Alice would mind if
I changed her name to Alithia?" "I shall ask her," Zachary said. He mounted the ladder, and Darzek followed him. The supply capsule was a tall cylinder with its entire
internal circumference ingeniously fitted out for storage. There were deep
revolving bins, drawers that pivoted outwards, compartments with doors that
rippled down or sideways with the precision and speed of a zipper. The capsule
was partitioned into four segments, each roughly ten feet in height, and a
ladder ran from top to bottom and passed through circular openings in the
partitions. Alice and Xerxes had established themselves on the upper
level. Zachary presented Darzek’s question, pronouncing the names Alice and
Alithia flawlessly. Alice, who did not speak English or any other terrestrial
language, repeated them with equal precision. A discussion followed, which
Darzek watched with interest. He had been unable to understand whether his determination to
name the aliens had bewildered them or merely left them indifferent. They
responded promptly to their names when he used them, but they politely avoided
them when speaking of themselves. "She would like to know why?" Zachary said finally. "It seems more appropriate to her personality,"
Darzek said. "How can that be? Is not a name only a label?" "Certainly not," Darzek said. "Names have
meanings, and the euphony is also important." "What do these names mean?" Darzek searched his memory. "I can’t recall," he
admitted. "But why did you first call her Alice, if that name was
not appropriate?" "It was the first thing I thought of." There was further discussion, and then Zachary announced,
"She says that you may call her anything you choose." "Thank you," Darzek said. "But on second
thought I’ll continue to call her Alice. I’ve heard that it’s bad luck to
change a name." He went back down the ladder, chuckling to himself, while
above him the implications of his last remark were discussed and debated. He
had, he thought, given the aliens something to think about. He had the feeling
that they needed it badly. The second problem concerned his inability to dress himself.
His blindfolded impression that his entire body was swathed in bandages proved
correct—because alien clothing consisted entirely of bandages. Wide strips of
elasticlike cloth were wrapped in turn about the legs, the lower trunk, the
upper trunk, and the arms. When done properly, with precisely the right amount
of tension, the result was snug warmth and comfort and an exhilarating freedom
of movement. Darzek recalled the elastic stockings and bandages used for certain
medical purposes, and wondered if this odd apparel might not also have
therapeutic qualities. His burned clothing had been discarded, but all of his
possessions were scrupulously collected together in one small bin in his
quarters, which were the lowest level of the capsule. He found there everything
his pockets had contained, including his passport, penknife, cigarette case and
lighter, pen and pencil, pocket secretary, photographs of Miss X and Madam Z in
various disguises—and also his shoulder holster and automatic. "You’re giving this back to me?" he exclaimed. "Why not?" Zachary asked. "It is your
property." "I don’t suppose there’s much use I could make of it
now," Darzek conceded. "I do not suppose so," Zachary said, but whether he
was being ironic or merely polite Darzek could not decide. Having named the aliens and learned to dress himself, Darzek
was confronted with the severest trial of his life. He had absolutely nothing to
do, and yet he would not, he positively refused to, allow himself to be
intimidated by the fact of approaching death. And the aliens were intimidated. They sought politely to
ignore Darzek as he cheerfully invaded their quarters when he used the ladder to
test his most recent attempt to clothe himself. They became increasingly
withdrawn. At first he thought that they were bitterly and understandably
resentful of him, since he was wholly responsible for their plight. It took him
some time to decide that they were merely terrified. Alice and Xerxes sat opposite each other in the cramped space
at the floor of the upper level, their gazes fixed upon some object or thought
remote beyond the light years, and Alice sang. Her melodic line made slithering
ascents and droops, the harsh alien language punctuated it with hisses, and in
Darzek’s few moments of critical tolerance he found it only slightly less
musical than a traffic siren. Gwendolyn, Ysaye, and Zachary crowded themselves into the
level below and played a game—a game that Darzek, after a long session of
watching from the ladder, dismissed as a particularly tedious variety of chess,
with hallucinations. It was a four-dimensional game, played without a game
board. The grotesquely fashioned pieces moved at different levels with the aid
of various-sized blocks. The moves depended not only upon position but on the
total number of moves that had been made. Darzek’s first attempt to understand
the game was his last. He found it difficult to account for his conviction that the
aliens had been frightened into an immobilizing hysteria. Their expressionless
faces furnished no clues. He was quickly convinced that their voices did, for as
his ear became attuned to them he found their speech, even in English, filled
with amazing subtleties of nuance and inflection. He had, unfortunately, no way
of telling what the nuances and inflections meant— though he reminded himself
that he would have encountered the same problem with facial expressions. A
smile, on the face of a nonhuman, might indicate anger or deadly insult. His unaccountable awareness of the presence of a pernicious,
all-engulfing dread persisted. He began to feel apprehensive himself, not of the
approach of death, but of the aliens’ reaction to it. His wrist watch had stopped while he was blindfolded. When he
attempted to reset it, all of his inquiries about time were politely turned
aside. Finally he placed the watch in the bin with his other possessions. "Why worry about the hour," he asked himself,
"when you don’t know what day it is?" But the hours to worry about were endless. For a time he
allowed his mind to be occupied with the lengthy and involved contemplation of
trivialities. He bounced on his sleeping pad and pondered the nature of the
smooth fabric and the soft, resilient substance it contained. He touched none of
the storage compartments except the bin containing his own property, feeling
that the aliens would interpret unauthorized snooping as further evidence of his
depraved barbarism; but there were windowed compartments, with openings covered
with an invisible, unbelievably tough film, and when he was alone he peered into
them and speculated on their perplexing contents. He puzzled long over the ladder, which was of metal or a
metallic-like substance and quite ordinary except for its unusual width and the
depth and spacing of its steps. It seemed a fantastically crude object to be
placed so prominently amid the capsule’s technological sophistication. He
decided, finally, that no better method could be devised for making all parts of
the capsule conveniently accessible with a minimum sacrifice of space. Gwendolyn and Zachary were experts in the weird game they
were playing; Ysaye was evidently a novice. He was invariably eliminated in the
early stages, and occasionally he would come down and talk to Darzek while
Gwendolyn and Zachary withdrew into the complicated dimensions of their
game, and grimly and silently battled to an incomprehensible conclusion. In the background, Mice’s song went on unceasingly. "I’ve been wondering about the air," Darzek said
to Ysaye. "Is it from your home planet?" "Yes." ‘That means I’m probably the first human who has ever
breathed the air of another world. I don’t know whether that’s a distinction
or not, but I like the stuff." "It suffers from being stored for so long," Ysaye
said. "Really? It seems sweet-tasting and invigorating to
me." "It has much more oxygen than your air. Darzek’s feeling of physical well-being was such that
inaction became intolerable to him. He first occupied himself with the routine
exercises that the cramped space around the ladder permitted. Then, for the want
of anything else to do, he began to jump. He could, by loosely using the ladder
to guide himself, leap through the opening to the level above. With a feeling of
sheer elation he dropped back to the first level and leaped again. He wondered
if he could, with practice, jump through the two lower levels and disrupt the
game in the third. Then Ysaye came climbing down to him. "* * * says—" "Who?" "* * *." "Alice?" "Yes. * * * says that physical effort makes you consume
the air faster.’’ "Good idea," Darzek said. "Why don’t we all
exercise, and get it over with in a hurry?" For once he succeeded in disrupting an alien’s composure.
Twice Ysaye’s mouth opened to speak, but he could find nothing to say. But Darzek resignedly stopped his exercising. Ysaye was the lonely one among the aliens, the outsider.
Darzek felt increasingly sorry for him, and soon began to regard him with an
unaccountable liking. Their conversations became more frequent and longer. "There is one thing that puzzles me," Ysaye said. "What’s that?" Darzek asked, quickly analyzing
the tone of voice for some indication of puzzlement. "When so many of its passengers did not reach their
destinations, why did not your Universal Trans stop using its
transmitters?" "That’s an interesting question," Darzek said. He
was savoring the final inch of a stringently rationed cigarette, and he took his
time about answering. "The fact of the matter was," he went on,
"that there were no passengers who did not reach their destinations." "I do not understand," Ysaye said. "I could make it clear very easily, I think, but I’m
not sure that I should." "But why not?" "You refuse to answer my questions. Why should I answer
yours?" "What have I refused to answer?" "Why were you attempting to sabotage Universal
Trans?" Before Ysaye could comment, Gwendolyn summoned him for the
start of a new game. When next he appeared he picked up the conversation where
they had left off. Obviously he had been thinking over Darzek’s remark.
"Do you mean that if we were to tell you what you want to know—about us—you
would then tell us whatever we want to know about you?" "I hadn’t thought of it in precisely that way, but it
sounds like a fair trade." "I must first ask ** *" "Who?" "* * *," he said, starting up the ladder. "You mean Alice?" "Yes." The song at the top cut off abruptly, and then after a brief
interval started up again. Ysaye clambered slowly down. "She says no,"
he announced. "A pity. We might have had an enjoyable talk." "Since we are going to die anyway, I do not understand
why you will not tell me." "I was thinking the same thing. How much longer do we
have?" "I do not know," Ysaye said. "I think * * *
knows, but she will not tell us. She thinks it best that we do not know." "Anyway, it seems to me that I’d be taking a
substantially greater risk. Sooner or later your people will check up on you. What would prevent you from leaving a written record of
anything I say? Your successors would no doubt find a way to turn the
information to their advantage. On the other hand, there’s no possible way I
could get any information to my people—is there?" "I do not think it would be possible," Ysaye said. "Even if we’re near one of the Moon stations, I doubt
that this capsule is sticking up like a sore thumb." "Like a sore thumb," Ysaye repeated. He pronounced
the last word with an inflected droop that Darzek was hopefully interpreting to
mean puzzlement. "It is sunk into rock, and we are far from your Moon
stations." "Just what I meant. My people probably couldn’t find
it even if they were looking for it. What possible harm could our conversation
do?" "You do not understand. We must follow our Code. We have
sworn to follow it. I should not talk with you even this much. * * * thinks we
have already told you too much." "Or that I’ve found out too much?" Darzek
suggested. "As I said before, it’s a pity. Time hangs heavily here. I’ve
faced death once or twice, but it was something that happened quickly, and I
never had time to think much about it until afterwards. What does it feel like
to suffocate?" He watched Ysaye closely as he spoke. The strangely concave
facial features gave an impression only of an immense, utterly frigid
indifference. The six of them waited, tedious hour after hour, with no
expectation except for a time when their breathing would become laborious, when
they would crowd to the top of the capsule where the air was freshest, or to the
bottom—and Darzek spent some hours speculating as to which it would be—and
lie gasping in a futile struggle to shred the dead air of its final traces of
oxygen, and finally they would die. Would they be mercifully unconscious at the end? That was
another matter for wearisome speculation. "It’s a little like a clock running down," Darzek
said to Ysaye. "Every breath, or every tick, takes us closer to the
end." After that he found himself intoning, in absent-minded moments,
"Tick… tock… tick… tock." Ysaye was not amused. Alice continued to sing. She sang in all her waking moments,
with Xerxes listening to her mutely, whether in admiration or nostalgic
desperation Darzek could not say. Gwendolyn and Zachary played their game and
cultivated their appetites. In a short time their capacity for food became a
thing to regard with awe and trepidation. "We’ll run out of food before we run out of air,"
Darzek observed to Ysaye, who was dutifully acting as chef and waiter. "We have enough food to last for—for months,"
Ysaye said. "If we do run out, it won’t be my fault," Darzek
said. He ate no more than enough to sustain himself, and merely to
eat that much was a triumph of will power and self-control. The food came in a
multiplicity of colors and—Darzek sup-posed, though he found it difficult to
distinguish them—flavors. It was prepared to any desired temperature and
served in deep, triangular bowls, sometimes as a thick soup taken with a tube,
but more often compressed into small, moist, fibrous cakes that were eaten with
the fingers. Whatever the color, or the temperature, or the consistency, Darzek
found it uniformly distasteful. But it was a near-perfect food. The body absorbed virtually
all of it, and the large compartment thoughtfully provided on the lower level
for the private disposal of bodily wastes saw very little traffic. The cooking facilities intrigued Darzek most of all. The
prepared food was placed in a thin, completely enclosed container that seemed
metallic but was surprisingly light. A few seconds in the cooking slot, and the
food was heated to order—piping hot for Darzek, or warm, for Gwendolyn’s
level, or tepid, for Alice. The container remained at room temperature. "Why waste heat to heat the container?" Ysaye
asked, when Darzek commented on this. "What’s the source of heat?" Darzek asked. "The Sun. The capsule stores the heat and uses it as
needed." "Good trick. Couldn’t you use that heat to send up a
few distress signals?" "No—no—" "Heat is a source of power, isn’t it?" Darzek
persisted. "You certainly have all kinds of supplies here, including
electronic stuff—or stuff that serves the purpose of what we call electronic
stuff. Your technicians should be able to build a radio that would send out a
simple SOS signal." "Even if that were possible, we could not." Darzek looked at him searchingly. For all of his provocative
prodding and careful analysis, the mind that lay behind those strange facial
features was as much a mystery to him as ever. "Too bad I’m not a psychiatrist," he said.
"I believe all five of you are possessed of some kind of death compulsion.
I can’t understand anyone’s wanting to die." "We do not want to die." "Then put Alice and Gwendolyn to work on that radio.
Maybe one of the Moon stations could send help, and if not, we might be able to
get help directly from Earth. My government has invested millions in the rescue
of plane crash or shipwreck survivors. It ought to be ready to spend billions to
rescue someone gone astray on the Moon." "No. We could not do that." "I thought you didn’t want to die." "We do not. But * * * has considered all the
possibilities, and there is nothing we can do. We cannot permit ourselves to be
rescued by your people." Darzek stared at him in amazement. "You mean—you
wouldn’t let my people rescue you even if they were to try?" "We cannot. We have a Code. We have sworn to follow
it." "Tick… tock," Darzek said scornfully. Ysaye fled up the ladder. |
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