"Bowes-ShadowAndGunman" - читать интересную книгу автора (Bowes Richard)and said, "What makes this an Irish joke is that the bartender has all the
money." At that moment someone knocked on the door upstairs. Dr. X rose, shook my hand, and said, "See you next Saturday?" as if he looked forward to it. I nodded eagerly. A fox-faced man with red hair, the next patient, brushed past me on the cellar steps. Stacey was not to be found on the first floor and I was shy about going upstairs. Max still lay on the library couch. "Go in peace," he said as I left. Outside was a cold drizzle. That didn't bother me. My pulses skipped. Lights were on in other houses. But Stacey's, when I looked back from the end of the driveway, was dark. Then I saw her at an upstairs window. My heart bounded with speed and passion. She saw me. Or rather she saw the one who for a moment stood beside me. Because he blew her a kiss and she returned it. Too excited to let that worry me, with a Bostonian's sixth sense, I headed for the nearest streetcar stop. In the play, Falstaff says about Pores, "If men were saved by merit what hole in hell were hot enough for him." Monday at rehearsal, remembering all Dr. X had told me, I bounced on my toes and talked like Fred who lived in a projects. "Easy does it, Grierson," said Mr. Royce, the faculty advisor. "This is Over the next couple of weeks, I saw Dr. X regularly. Like amphetamine, he was never as good as that first time. When there were pills on the table he'd give me an upper or a downer. If there weren't, he borrowed some of mine. I came to understand that there were ways in which he was a fool. Sometimes he said stuff like, "I'm a quarter Irish, a quarter French, a quarter English with a bit of German and smattering of Jew. Blood boils in me." He called speed vitamins and claimed it enabled him to read other peoples' minds. Despite that, he had his moments. "Who is the third who always walks beside you?" he once asked. "When I count there's just you and me. But when I look there is always another walking beside you." Later I realized he was paraphrasing T.S. Eliot. But right then, the words hit home. He followed it up. "Everybody's got another self, Kevin. Most people, the dull, the mundane, never show it. But some get to let that dog run." Every Saturday, I drove with Stacey out to her house. I thought about her constantly. Everything else, school, family, Dr. Petrie, even the Gallery, was backdrop to those rides. Yet, each week she seemed a little more distant. We talked, but any mention by me of Dr. X and she became silent. Max was always present and there were others: college guys in tweed jackets |
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