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The Postman - David Brin
THE POSTMAN
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By
David Brin
Copyright ©
1985
To Benjamin Franklin, devious genius, and to
Lysistrata, who tried
PRELUDE
THE THIRTEEN-YEAR THAW
Chill winds still blew. Dusty snow fell. But the
ancient sea
was in no hurry.
The Earth had spun six thousand times since flames
blossomed
and cities died. Now, after sixteen circuits of the Sun, plumes of
soot no longer roiled from burning forests, turning day into
night.
Six thousand sunsets had come and gone-gaudy,
orange, glorious with suspended dust-ever since towering,
superheated funnels had punched through to the stratosphere,
fitting it with tiny bits of suspended rock and soil. The darkened
atmosphere passed less sunlight- and it
cooled.
It hardly mattered anymore what had done it- a
giant
meteorite, a huge volcano, or a nuclear war. Temperatures and
pressures swung out of balance, and great winds
blew.
All over the north, a dingy snow fell, and in places
even
summer did not erase it.
Only the Ocean, timeless and obstinate, resistant to
change,
really mattered. Dark skies had come and gone. The winds pushed
ocher, growling sunsets. In places, the ice grew,
and the
shallower seas began to sink.
But the Ocean’s vote was all important, and it was
not in
yet.
The Earth turned. Men still struggled, here and
there.
And the Ocean breathed a sigh of winter.
I
THE CASCADES
I
In dust and blood-with the sharp tang of terror stark in his
nostrils-a man’s mind will sometimes pull forth odd relevancies.
After half a lifetime in the wilderness, most of it spent
struggling to survive, it still struck Gordon as odd- how obscure
memories would pop into his mind right in the middle of a
life-or-death fight.
Panting under a bone-dry thicket-crawling desperately to find
a
refuge-he suddenly experienced a recollection as clear as the dusty
stones under his nose. It was a memory of contrast-of a rainy
afternoon in a warm, safe university library, long ago-of a lost
world filled with books and music and carefree philosophical
ramblings. Words on a page.
Dragging his body through the tough, unyielding bracken, he
could almost see the letters, black against
white. And
although he couldn’t recall the obscure author’s name, the
words came back with utter clarity.
“Short of Death itself, there is no such thing as a ‘total’
defeat… There is never a disaster so devastating that a
determined person cannot pull something out of the ashes-by risking
all that he or she has left…
“Nothing in the world is more dangerous than a desperate
man.”
Gordon wished the long-dead writer were here right now,
sharing
his predicament. He wondered what pollyannish glow the fellow might
find around this catastrophe.
Scratched and torn from his desperate escape into this dense
thicket, he crawled as quietly as he could, stopping to lay still
and squeeze his eyes shut whenever the floating dust seemed about
to make him sneeze. It was slow, painful progress, and he wasn’t
even sure where he was headed.
Minutes ago he had been as comfortable and well-stocked as any
solitary traveler could hope to be, these days. Now, Gordon was
reduced to not much more than a ripped shirt, faded jeans, and camp
moccasins-and the thorns were cutting them all to
bits.
A tapestry of fiery pain followed each new scratch down his
arms
and back. But in this awful, bone-dry jungle, there was nothing to
do but crawl onward and pray his twisting path did not deliver him
back to his enemies-to those who had effectively killed him
already.
Finally, when he had come to think the hellish growth would
never end, an opening appeared ahead. A narrow cleft split the
brush and overlooked a slope of tumbled rock. Gordon pulled free of
the thorns at last, rolled over onto his back, and stared up at the
hazy sky, grateful simply for air that wasn’t foul with the heat of
dry decay.
Welcome to Oregon, he thought bitterly. And
I
thought Idaho was bad.
He lifted one arm and tried to wipe the dust out of his
eyes.
Or is it that I’m simply getting too old for
this
sort of thing? After all, he was over thirty now, beyond the
typical life expectancy of a postholocaust traveler.
Oh Lord, I wish 1 was home again.
He wasn’t thinking of Minneapolis. The prairie today was a
hell
he had struggled for more than a decade to escape. No,
home meant more to Gordon than any particular
place.
A hamburger, a hot bath, music, Merthiolate…
… a cool beer…
As his labored breathing settled, other sounds came to the
fore-the all too clear noise of happy looting. It rose from a
hundred feet or so down the mountainside. Laughter
as the
delighted robbers tore through Gordon’s gear.
… a few friendly neighborhood cops…
Gordon
added, still cataloging the amenities of a world long
gone.
The bandits had caught him off guard as he sipped elderberry
tea
by a late afternoon campfire. From that first instant, as they
charged up the trail straight at him, it had been clear that the
hot-faced men would as soon kill Gordon as look at
him.
He hadn’t waited for them to decide which to do. Throwing
scalding tea into the face of the first bearded robber, he dove
right into the nearby brambles. Two gunshots had followed him, and
that was all. Probably, his carcass wasn’t worth as much to the
thieves as an irreplaceable bullet. They already had all his goods,
anyway.
Or so they probably think.
Gordon’s smile was bitterly thin as he sat up carefully,
backing
along his rocky perch until he felt sure he was out of view of the
slope below. He plucked his travel belt free of twigs and drew the
half-full canteen for a long, desperately needed
drink.
Bless you, paranoia,
he thought. Not once
since the Doomwar had he ever allowed the belt more than three feet
from his side. It was the only thing he had been able to grab
before diving into the brambles.
The dark gray metal of his .38 revolver shone even under a
fine
layer of dust, as he drew it from its holster. Gordon blew on the
snub-nosed weapon and carefully checked its action. Soft clicking
testified in understated eloquence to the craftsmanship and deadly
precision of another age. Even in killing, the old world had made
well.
Especially in the art of killing, Gordon
reminded
himself. Raucous laughter carried up from the slope
below.
Normally he traveled with only four rounds loaded. Now he
pulled
two more precious cartridges from a belt pouch and filled the empty
chambers under and behind the hammer. “Firearm safety” was no
longer a major consideration, especially since he expected to die
this evening anyway.
Sixteen years chasing a dream, Gordon
thought. First
that long, futile struggle against the collapse...
then scratching to survive through the Three-Year Winter…
and finally, more than a decade of moving from place to place,
dodging pestilence and hunger, fighting goddamned Holnists and
packs of wild dogs . . . half a lifetime spent as
a
wandering, dark age minstrel, play-acting for meals in order to
make it one day more while I searched for…
… for someplace…
Gordon shook his head. He knew his own dreams quite well. They
were a fool’s fantasies, and had no place in the present
world.
… for someplace where someone was taking
responsibility…
He pushed the thought aside. Whatever he had been looking for,
his long seeking seemed to have ended here, in the dry, cold
mountains of what had once been eastern Oregon.
From the sounds below he could tell that the bandits were
packing up, getting ready to move off with their plunder. Thick
patches of desiccated creeper blocked Gordon’s view downslope
through the ponderosa pines, but soon a burly man in a faded plaid
hunting coat appeared from the direction of his campsite, moving
northeast on a trail leading down the mountainside.
The man’s clothing confirmed what Gordon remembered from those
blurred seconds of the attack. At least his assailants weren’t
wearing army surplus camouflage… the trademark of Holn
survivalists.
They must be just regular, run of the mill,
may-they-please-roast-in-Hell bandits.
If so, then there was a sliver of a chance the plan glimmering
in his mind just might accomplish something.
Perhaps.
The first bandit had Gordon’s all-weather jacket tied around
his
waist. In his right arm he cradled the pump shotgun Gordon had
carried all the way from Montana. “Come on!” the bearded robber
yelled back up the trail. “That’s enough gloating. Get that stuff
together and move it!”
The leader, Gordon decided.
Another man, smaller and more shabby, hurried into view
carrying
a cloth sack and a battered rifle. “Boy, what a haul! We oughta
celebrate. When we bring this stuff back, can we have all the
‘shine we want, Jas?” The small robber hopped like an excited bird.
“Boy, Sheba an’ the girls’ll bust when they hear
about
that lil‘ rabbit we drove off into the briar patch. I never seen
anything run so fast!” He giggled.
Gordon frowned at the insult added to injury. It was the same
nearly everywhere he had been-a postholocaust callousness to which
he’d never grown accustomed, even after all this time. With only
one eye peering through the scrub grass rimming his cleft, he took
a deep breath and shouted.
“I wouldn’t count on getting drunk yet, Brer Bear!” Adrenaline
turned his voice more shrill than he wanted, but that couldn’t be
helped.
The big man dropped awkwardly to the ground, scrambling for
cover behind a nearby tree. The skinny robber, though, gawked up at
the hillside.
“What… ? Who’s up there?”
Gordon felt a small wash of relief. Their behavior confirmed
that the sons of bitches weren’t true survivalists. Certainly not
Holnists. If they had been, he’d probably be dead
by
now.
The other bandits-Gordon counted a total of five- hurried down
the trail carrying their booty. “Get down!” their leader commanded
from his hiding place. Scrawny seemed to wake up to his exposed
position and hurried to join his comrades behind the
undergrowth.
All except one robber-a sallow-faced man with salt-and-pepper
sideburns, wearing an alpine hat. Instead of hiding he moved
forward a little, chewing a pine needle and casually eyeing the
thicket.
“Why bother?” he asked calmly. “That poor fellow had on barely
more than his skivvies, when we pounced him. We’ve got his shotgun.
Let’s find out what he wants.”
Gordon kept his head down. But he couldn’t help noticing the
man’s lazy, affected drawl. He was the only one who was clean
shaven, and even from here Gordon could tell that his clothes were
cleaner, more meticulously tended.
At a muttered growl from his leader, the casual bandit
shrugged
and sauntered over behind a forked pine. Barely hidden, he called
up the hillside. “Are you there, Mister Rabbit? If so, I am so
sorry you didn’t stay to invite us to tea. Still, aware how Jas and
Little Wally tend to treat visitors, I suppose I cannot blame you
for cutting out.”
Gordon couldn’t believe he was trading banter with this twit.
“That’s what I figured at the time,” he called. “Thanks for
understanding my lack of hospitality. By the way, with whom am I
speaking?”
The tall fellow smiled broadly. “With whom… ? Ah, a
grammarian! What joy. It’s been so long since I’ve heard an
educated voice.” He doffed the alpine hat and bowed. “I am Roger
Everett Septien, at one time a member of the Pacific Stock
Exchange, and presently your robber. As for my colleagues…”
The bushes rustled. Septien listened, and finally shrugged.
“Alas,” he called to Gordon. “Normally I’d be tempted by a chance
for some real conversation; I’m sure you’re as starved for it as I.
Unfortunately, the leader of our small brotherhood of cutthroats
insists that I find out what you want and get this over
with.
“So speak your piece, Mister Rabbit. We are all
ears.”
Gordon shook his head. The fellow obviously classed himself a
wit, but his humor was fourth-rate, even by postwar standards. “I
notice you fellows aren’t carrying all of my
gear. You
wouldn’t by some chance have decided to take only what you needed,
and left enough for me to survive, would you?”
From the scrub below came a high giggle, then more hoarse
chuckles as others joined in. Roger Septien looked left and right
and lifted his hands. His exaggerated sigh seemed to say that
he, at least, appreciated the irony in Gordon’s
question.
“Alas,” he repeated. “I recall mentioning that possibility to
my
compatriots. For instance, our women might find some use for your
aluminum tent poles and pack frame, but I suggested we leave the
nylon bag and tent, which are useless to us.
“Urn, in a sense we have done this. However, I don’t think
that
Wally’s… er, alterations will meet your
approval.”
Again, that shrieking giggle rose from the bushes. Gordon
sagged
a little.
“What about my boots? You all seem well enough shod. Do they
fit
any of you, anyway? Could you leave them? And my jacket and
gloves?”
Septien coughed. “Ah, yes. They’re the main items, aren’t
they?
Other than the shotgun, of course, which is
nonnegotiable.”
Gordon spat. Of course, idiot. Only a blowhard
states the
obvious.
Again, the voice of the bandit leader could be heard, muffled
by
the foliage. Again there were giggles. With a pained expression,
the ex-stockbroker sighed. “My leader asks what you offer in
trade. Of course I know you have nothing. Still, I
must
inquire.”
As a matter of fact, Gordon had a few things they might
want-his
belt compass for instance, and a Swiss army knife.
But what were his chances of arranging an exchange and getting
out alive? It didn’t take telepathy to tell that these bastards
were only toying with their victim.
A fuming anger filled him, especially over Septien’s false
show
of compassion. He had witnessed this combination of cruel contempt
and civilized manners in other once-educated people, over the years
since the Collapse. By his lights, people like this were far more
contemptible than those who had simply succumbed to the barbaric
times.
“Look,” he shouted. “You don’t need those damn boots! You’ve
no
real need for my jacket or my toothbrush or my notebook, either.
This area’s clean, so what do you need my Geiger counter
for?
“I’m not stupid enough to think I can have my shotgun back,
but
without some of those other things I’ll die, damn
you!”
The echo of his curse seemed to pour down the long slope of
the
mountainside, leaving a hanging silence in its wake. Then the
bushes rustled and the big bandit leader stood up. Spitting
contemptuously upslope, he snapped his fingers at the others. “Now
I know he’s got no gun,” he told them. His thick eyebrows narrowed
and he gestured in Gordon’s general direction.
“Run away, little rabbit. Run, or we’ll skin you and have you
for supper!” He hefted Gordon’s shotgun, turned his back, and
sauntered casually down the trail. The others fell in behind,
laughing.
Roger Septien gave the mountainside an ironic shrug and a
smile,
then gathered up his share of the loot and followed his
compatriots. They disappeared around a bend in the narrow forest
path, but for minutes afterward Gordon heard the softly diminishing
sound of someone happily whistling.
You imbecile! Weak as his chances had
been, he had
spoiled them completely by appealing to reason and charity. In an
era of tooth and claw, nobody ever did that except out of
impotence. The bandits’ uncertainty had evaporated just as soon as
he foolishly asked for fair play.
Of course he could have fired his .38, wasting a precious
bullet
to prove he wasn’t completely harmless. That
would have
forced them to take him seriously again…
Then why didn’t I do that? Was I too
afraid?
Probably, he admitted. I’ll
very likely
die of exposure to-night, but that’s still hours away, far enough
to remain only an abstract threat, less frightening and immediate
than five ruthless men with guns.
He punched his left palm with his fist.
Oh stuff it, Gordon. You can
psychoanalyze yourself
this evening, while you’re freezing to death. What it all comes
down to, though, is that you are one prize fool,
and this
is probably the end.
He got up stiffly and began edging cautiously down the slope.
Although he wasn’t quite ready to admit it yet, Gordon felt a
growing certainty that there could only be one solution, only one
even faintly possible way out of this disaster.
As soon as he was free of the thicket, Gordon limped to the
trickling stream to wash his face and the worst of his cuts. He
wiped sweat-soaked strands of brown hair out of his eyes. His
scrapes hurt like hell, but none of them looked bad enough to
persuade him to use the thin tube of the precious iodine in his
belt pouch.
He refilled his canteen and thought.
Besides his pistol and half-shredded clothes, a pocket knife,
and compass, his pouch held a miniature fishing kit that might
prove useful, if he ever made it over the mountains to a decent
watershed.
And of course ten spare rounds for his .38, small, blessed
relics of industrial civilization.
Back at the beginning, during the riots and the great
starvation, it had seemed that the one thing in inexhaustible
supply was ammunition. If only turn-of-the-century America had
stockpiled and distributed food half so well as its citizens had
cached mountains of bullets…
Rough stones jabbed his throbbing left foot as Gordon gingerly
hurried toward his former campsite. Clearly these half-shredded
moccasins would get him nowhere. His torn clothes would be about as
effective against freezing mountain autumn nights as his pleas had
been against the bandits’ hard hearts.
The small clearing where he had made camp only an hour or so
ago
was deserted now, but his worst fears were surpassed by the havoc
he found there.
His tent had been converted into a pile of nylon shreds, his
sleeping bag a small blizzard of scattered goose down. All Gordon
found intact was the slim longbow he had been carving from a cut
sapling, and a line of experimental venison-gut
strings.
Probably thought it was a walking stick.
Sixteen years
after the last factory had burned, Gordon’s robbers had completely
overlooked the potential value of the bow and strings, when the
ammo finally ran out.
He used the bow to poke through the wreckage, looking for
anything else to salvage.
I can’t believe it. They took my journal! That prig
Sep-tien
probably looks forward to poring over it during the snow-time,
chuckling over my adventures and my naivete while my bones are
being picked clean by cougars and buzzards.
Of course the food was all gone: the jerky; the bag of split
grains that a small Idaho village had let him have in exchange for
a few songs and stories; the tiny hoard of rock candy he had found
in the mechanical bowels of a looted vending
machine.
It’s just as well about the candy, Gordon
thought as he
plucked his trampled, ruined toothbrush out of the
dust.
Now why the hell did they have to do
that?
Late in the Three-Year Winter-while the remnants of his
militia
platoon still struggled to guard the soy silos of Wayne, Minnesota,
for a government nobody had heard from in months- five
of
his comrades had died of raging oral infections. They were awful,
unglorious deaths, and no one had even been sure if one of the war
bugs was responsible, or the cold and hunger and near total lack of
modem hygiene. All Gordon knew was that the specter of his teeth
rotting in his head was his own personal phobia.
Bastards, he thought as he flung the
little brush
aside.
He kicked the rubbish one last time. There was nothing here to
change his mind.
You’re procrastinating. Go. Do it.
Gordon started off a little stiffly. But soon he was moving
downtrail as quickly and silently as he could, making time through
the bone-dry forest.
The burly outlaw leader had promised to eat him if they met
again. Cannibalism had been common in the early days, and these
mountain men might have acquired a taste for the “long pork.”
Still, he had to persuade them that a man with nothing to lose must
be reckoned with.
Within half a mile or so, their tracks were familiar to him:
two
traces with the soft outlines of deer hide and three with prewar
Vibram soles. They were moving at a leisurely pace, and it would be
no trouble simply to catch up with his enemies.
That was not his plan, however. Gordon tried to remember this
morning’s climb up this same trail.
The path drops in altitude as it winds north,
along
the east face of the mountain, before switching back south and east
into the desert valley below.
But what if I were to cut above the
main trail, and
traverse the slope higher up? I might be able to come down on them
while it’s still light… while they’re still gloating and
expecting nothing.
If the shortcut is there…
The trail wove gradually downhill toward the northeast, in the
direction of the lengthening shadows, toward the deserts of eastern
Oregon and Idaho. Gordon must have passed below the robbers’
sentinels yesterday or this morning, and they had taken their time
following him until he was settled into camp. Their lair had to be
somewhere off this same trail.
Even limping, Gordon was able to move silently and quickly,
the
only advantage of camp moccasins over boots. Soon he heard faint
sounds below and ahead.
The raiding party. The men were laughing, joking together. It
was painful to hear.
It wasn’t so much that they were laughing over him.
Callous cruelty was a part of life today, and if Gordon couldn’t
reconcile himself to it, he at least recognized he
was the
Twentieth-Century oddball in today’s savage world.
But the sounds reminded him of other laughter, the rough jokes
of men who shared danger together.
Drew Simms- freckle-faced
pre-med with a floppy grin
and deadly skill at chess or poker- the Holnists
got him
when they overran Wayne and burned the silos. . .
.
Tiny Kielre- saved
my life twice, and all
he wanted when he was on his deathbed, the War Mumps tearing him
apart, was for me to read him stories…
Then there had been Lieutenant Van-their half-Vietnamese
platoon
leader. Gordon had never known until it was too late that the
Lieutenant was cutting his own rations and giving them to his men.
He asked, at the end, to be buried in an American
flag.
Gordon had been alone for so long. He missed the company of
such
men almost as much as the friendship of women.
Watching the brush on his left, he came to an opening that
seemed to promise a sloping track-a shortcut perhaps-to the north
across the mountain face. The rust-dry scrub crackled as he left
the path and broke his own trail. Gordon thought he remembered the
perfect site for a bushwhack, a switchback that passed under a
high, stony horseshoe. A sniper might find a place a little way
above that rocky outcrop, within point-blank range of anyone hiking
along the hairpin.
If I can just get there first…
He might pin them down by surprise and force them to
negotiate.
That was the advantage in being the one with nothing to lose. Any
sane bandit would prefer to live and rob another clay. He had to
believe they would part with boots, a jacket, and some food,
against the risk of losing one or two of their band.
Gordon hoped he would not have to kill anybody.
Oh grow up, please! His worst enemy, over
the next few
hours, could be his archaic scruples. Just this once, be
ruthless.
The voices on the trail faded as he cut across the slope of
the
mountain. Several times he had to detour around jagged gullies or
scabrous patches of ugly bramble. Gordon concentrated on finding
the quickest way toward his rocky ambuscade.
Have I gone far enough?
Grimly, he kept on. According to imperfect memory, the
switchback he had in mind came only after a long sweep northward
along the east face of the mountain.
A narrow animal track let him hurry through the pine thickets,
pausing frequently to check his compass. He faced a quandary. To
stand a chance of catching his adversaries, he had to stay above
them. Yet if he kept too high, he might go right past his target
without knowing it.
And twilight was not long away.
A flock of wild turkeys scattered as he jogged into a small
clearing. Of course the thinned human population probably had
something to do with the return of wildlife, but it was also one
more sign that he had come into better-watered country than the
arid lands of Idaho. His bow might someday prove useful, should he
live long enough to learn to use it.
He angled downslope, beginning to get worried. Surely by now
the
main trail was quite a bit below him, if it hadn’t already switched
back a few times. It was possible he had already gone too far
north.
At last Gordon realized the game path was turning inexorably
westward. It appeared to be rising again as well,
toward
what looked like another gap in the mountains, shrouded in late
afternoon mist.
He stopped a moment to catch his breath and his bearings.
Perhaps this was yet another pass through the cold, semi-arid
Cascade Range, leading eventually into the Willamette River Valley
and thence the Pacific Ocean. His map was gone but he knew that at
most a couple weeks’ walk in that direction ought to bring him to
water, shelter, fishing streams, game to hunt, and maybe…
And maybe some people trying to put something right in the
world
again. The sunlight through that high fringe of clouds was like a
luminous halo, akin to the dimly remembered skyglow of city lights,
a promise that had led him ever onward from the midwest, searching.
The dream-hopeless as he knew it was-simply would not go
away.
Gordon shook his head. For certain there would be snow in that
range, and cougars, and starvation. There could be no turning away
from his plan. Not if he wanted to live.
He tried hard to cut downslope, but the narrow game paths kept
forcing him north and westward. The switchback had
to be
behind him, by now. But the thick, dry undergrowth diverted him
farther into the new pass.
In his frustration Gordon almost missed the sound. But then he
stopped suddenly, listening.
Were those voices?
A steep ravine opened up the forest just ahead. He hurried
toward it until he could see the outlines of this mountain and
others in the chain, wrapped in a thick haze, amber high on their
westward flanks and darkening purple where the sun no longer
shone.
The sounds seemed to be coming from below, to the east And
yes,
they were voices. Gordon searched and made out
the
snakelike line of a trail on the mountain’s flank. Far off, he
caught a brief flash of color moving slowly upward through the
woods.
The bandits! But why were they moving uphill again? They
couldn’t be, unless…
Unless Gordon was already far north of the trail he had taken
the day before. He must have missed the ambush site altogether and
come out above a side path. The bandits were climbing a fork he had
failed to notice yesterday, one leading up into this
pass
rather than the one he had been caught in.
This must be the way to their base!
Gordon looked up the mountain. Yes, he could see how a small
hollow could fit over to the west, on a shoulder near the
lesser-used pass. It would be defensible and very hard to discover
by chance.
Gordon smiled grimly and turned west as well. The ambush was a
lost opportunity, but if he hurried he could beat the bandits home,
perhaps get a few minutes to steal what he needed-food, clothes,
something to carry them in.
And if the hideout wasn’t deserted?
Well, maybe he could take their women hostage and try to cut a
deal.
Yeah, that’s lots better. Like holding a ticking
bomb beats
jogging with nitroglycerin.
Frankly, he hated all of his alternatives.
He started to run, ducking under branches and dodging withered
stumps as he charged along the narrow game path. Soon Gordon felt a
strange exuberance. He was committed, and none of his typical
self-doubt would get in the way now. Battle adrenaline nearly made
him high as his stride opened and small shrubs swept by in a blur.
He stretched to leap over a toppled, decayed tree trunk, cleared it
easily…
Landing sent sharp pain lancing up his left leg as something
stabbed him through the flimsy moccasins. He sprawled, face first,
into the gravel of a dry stream bed.
Gordon rolled over clutching his injury. Through wet,
pain-diffracted eyes, he saw that he had tripped over a thick
strand of looped, rusted steel cable, no doubt left over from some
ancient, prewar logging operation. Again, while his leg throbbed
agonizingly, his surface thoughts were absurdly
rational.
Eighteen years since my last tetanus shot.
Lovely.
But no, it hadn’t cut him, only tripped him. That was bad
enough, though. He held onto his thigh and clamped his mouth shut,
trying to ride out a savage cramp.
At last the tremors subsided and he dragged himself over to
the
toppled tree, gingerly hoisting himself into sitting position. He
hissed through clenched teeth as the waves of agony slowly
faded.
Meanwhile he could hear the bandit party passing not far
below,
taking away the head start that had been his only
advantage.
So much for all those great plans to beat them to
their
hideout He listened until their voices faded up the
trail.
At last Gordon used his bow as a staff and tried standing up.
Letting weight settle slowly on his left leg, he found it would
support him, though it still quivered tenderly.
Ten years ago I could’ve taken a fall like that and
been up
and running without another thought Face it You’re obsolete,
Gordon. Worn out These days, thirty-four and alone is the same as
being ready to die.
There would be no ambush now. He couldn’t even chase the
bandits, not all the way up to that notch in the mountain. It would
be useless to try to track them on a moonless night.
He took a few steps as the throbbing slowly subsided. Soon he
was able to walk without leaning too hard on his makeshift
staff.
Fine, but where to? Perhaps he should spend the remaining
daylight looking for a cave, a pile of pine needles, anything to
give him a chance to live through the night.
In the growing chill Gordon watched shadows climb higher above
the desert valley floor, merging and darkening the flanks of the
nearby mountains. The reddening sun probed through chinks in the
range of snowy peaks to his left.
He was facing north, unable quite yet to summon the energy to
move, when his eye was caught by a sudden flash of light, a sharp
glinting against the rolling forest green on the opposite flank of
this narrow pass. Still favoring his tender foot, Gordon took a few
steps forward. His brow furrowed.
The forest fires that had seared so much of the dry Cascades
had
spared the thick forests on that part of the mountainside. And yes,
something across the way was catching the sunlight like a mirror.
From the folds in the hillsides, he guessed that the reflection
could only be seen from this very spot, and only in the late
afternoon.
So he had guessed wrong. The bandits’ roost wasn’t in that
hollow higher up in the pass to the west after all, but much
closer. Only a stroke of luck had given it away.
So you’re giving me clues,
now? Now? he
accused the world. I don’t have enough troubles as it is,
without being offered straws to grasp at?
Hope was an addiction. It had driven him westward for half his
life. Moments after all but giving up, Gordon found himself piecing
together the outlines of a new plan.
Could he try to rob a cabin filled with armed men? He pictured
himself, kicking in the door to their wide-eyed astonishment,
holding them all at bay with the pistol in one hand, while he tied
them all up with the other!
Why not? They might be drunk, and he was desperate enough to
try. Could he take hostages? Hell, even a milk goat would be more
valuable to them than his boots! A captured woman should bring more
in trade than that.
The idea was a sour taste in his mouth. It depended on the
bandit leader behaving rationally for one thing. Would the bastard
recognize the secret power of a desperate man, and let him go with
what he needed?
Gordon had seen pride make men do stupid things. More often
than
not. If it comes down to a chase, I’m
cooked. I
couldn’t outrun a badger, right now.
He eyed the reflection across the pass, and decided he had
very
little choice, after all.
It was slow going from the first. His leg still ached and he
had
to stop every hundred feet or so to scan merging and crisscrossing
trails for his enemy’s spoor. He also found he was checking shadows
as potential ambushes, and made himself quit. These men weren’t
Holnists. Indeed, they seemed lazy. Gordon guessed that their
pickets would be close to home, if they maintained any at
all.
As the light faded, the footprints were lost in the gravelly
soil. But Gordon knew where he was going. The glinting reflection
could no longer be seen, but the ravine on the opposite shoulder of
the mountain saddle was a dark, tree-lined V silhouette. He chose a
likely path and hurried ahead.
It was growing dark quickly. A stiff, cold breeze blew damply
off the misty heights. Gordon limped up a dry stream bed and leaned
on his staff as he climbed a set of switchbacks. Then, when he
guessed he was within a quarter mile of his goal, the path suddenly
failed.
He kept his forearms up to protect his face while he tried to
move quietly through the dry undergrowth. He fought down a
lingering, threatening urge to sneeze in the floating
dust.
Chilly night fog was flowing down the mountainsides. Soon the
ground would shimmer with faintly luminous ground frost. Still,
Gordon shivered less from the cold than from nerves. He knew he was
getting close. One way or another, he was about to have an
encounter with death.
In his youth he had read about heroes, historical and
fictional.
Nearly all of them, when the time came for action, seemed able to
push aside their personal burdens of worry, confusion, angst, for
at least the time when action impended. But Gordon’s mind didn’t
seem to work that way. Instead it just filled with more and more
complexities, a turmoil of regrets.
It wasn’t that he had doubts about what had to be done. By
every
standard he lived by, this was the right thing to do. Survival
demanded it. And anyway, if he was to be a dead man, at least he
could make the mountains a little safer for the next wayfarer by
taking a few of the bastards with him.
Still, the nearer he drew to the confrontation, the more he
realized that he hadn’t wanted his dharma to come to this. He did
not really wish to kill any of these men.
It had been this way even as, with Lieutenant Van’s little
platoon, he had struggled to help maintain a peace- and a fragment
of a nation-that had already died.
And afterward, he had chosen the life of a minstrel, a
traveling
actor and laborer-partly in order to keep moving, searching for a
light, somewhere.
A few of the surviving postwar communities were known to
accept
outsiders as new members. Women were always welcome, of course, but
some accepted new men. And yet there was so often a catch. A new
male frequently had to duel-kill for the right to sit at a communal
table, or bring back a scalp from a feuding clan to prove his
prowess. There were few real Holnists anymore, in the plains and
Rockies. But many survivor outposts he had encountered nevertheless
demanded rituals of which Gordon wanted no part.
And now here he was, counting bullets, a part of him coldly
noting that, if he made them count, there were probably enough for
all the bandits.
Another sparse berry thicket blocked his path. What the patch
lacked in fruit it made up for in thorns. This time Gordon moved
along its edge, carefully picking his way in the gathering gloom.
His sense of direction-honed after fourteen years of wandering-was
automatic. He moved silently, cautious without rising above the
maelstrom of his own thoughts.
All considered, it was amazing a man like him had lived this
long. Everyone he had known or admired as a boy had died, along
with all the hopes any of them had had. The soft world made for
dreamers like himself broke apart when he was only eighteen. Long
since then he’d come to realize that his persistent optimism had to
be a form of hysterical insanity.
Hell, everybody’s crazy, these days.
Yes, he answered himself. But
paranoia and
depression are adaptive, now. Idealism is only
stupid.
Gordon paused at a small blob of color. He peered into the
bramble and saw, about a yard inside, a solitary clump of
blueberries, apparently overlooked by the local black bear. The
mist heightened Gordon’s sense of smell and he could pick their
faint autumn mustiness out of the air.
Ignoring the stabbing thorns, he reached in and drew back a
sticky handful. The tart sweetness was a wild thing in his mouth,
like Life.
Twilight was almost gone, and a few wan stars winked through a
darkling overcast. The cold breeze rifled his torn shirt and
reminded Gordon that it was time to get this business over with,
before his hands were too chilled to pull a trigger.
He wiped the stickiness on his pants as he rounded the end of
the thicket. And there, suddenly, a hundred feet or so away it
seemed, a broad pane of glass glinted at him in the dim
skyglow.
Gordon ducked back behind the thorns. He drew his revolver and
held his right wrist with his left hand until his breathing
settled. Then he checked the pistol’s action. It clicked quietly,
in an almost gentle, mechanical complacency. The spare ammo was
heavy in his breast pocket.
A hazard to quick or forceful motion, the thicket yielded as
he
settled back against it, heedless of a few more little scratches.
Gordon closed his eyes and meditated for calm and, yes, for
forgiveness. In the chilly darkness, the only accompaniment to his
breathing was the rhythmic ratchet of the crickets.
A swirl of cold fog blew around him. No,
he sighed.
There’s no other way. He raised his weapon and
swung
around.
The structure looked distinctly odd. For one thing, the
distant
patch of glass was dark.
That was queer, but stranger still was the silence. He’d have
thought the bandits would have a fire going, and that they would be
loudly celebrating.
It was nearly too dark to see his own hand. The trees loomed
like hulking trolls on every side. Dimly, the glass pane seemed to
stand out against some black structure, reflecting silvery
highlights of a rolling cloud cover. Thin wisps of haze drifted
between Gordon and his objective, confusing the image, making it
shimmer.
He walked forward slowly, giving most of his attention to the
ground. Now was not the time to step on a dry twig, or to be
stabbed by a sharp stone as he shuffled in the
dimness.
He glanced up, and once more the eerie feeling struck him.
There
was something wrong about the edifice ahead, made
out
mostly in silhouette behind the faintly glimmering glass. It didn’t
look right, somehow. Boxlike, its upper section seemed to be mostly
window. Below, it struck him as more like painted metal than wood.
At the corners…
The fog grew thicker. Gordon could tell his perspective was
wrong. He had been looking for a house, or large cottage. As he
neared, he realized the thing was actually much closer than he’d
thought. The shape was familiar, as if-
His foot came down on a twig. The “snap!” filled his ears and
he
crouched, peering into the gloom with a desperate need that
transcended sight. It felt as if a frantic power drove out of his
eyes, propelled by his terror, demanding the mist be cloven so he
could see.
Obediently, it seemed, the dry fog suddenly fell open before
him. Pupils dilated, Gordon saw that he was less than two
meters from the window… his own face reflected,
wide-eyed and wild haired… and saw, superimposed on his own
image, a vacant, skeletal, death mask-a hooded skull grinning in
welcome.
Gordon crouched, hypnotized, as a superstitious thrill coursed
up his spine. He was unable to bring his weapon to bear, unable to
cause his larynx to make sound. The haze swirled as he listened for
proof that he had really gone mad-wishing with all his might that
the death’s head was an illusion.
“Alas, poor Gordon!” The sepulchral image overlay his
reflection
and seemed to shimmer a greeting. Never, in all these awful years,
had Death-owner of the world- manifested to him as a specter.
Gordon’s numbed mind could think of nothing but to attend the
Elsinorian figure’s bidding. He waited, unable to take his gaze
away, or even to move. The skull and his face… his face and the
skull… The thing had captured him without a fight, and now
seemed content to grin about it.
At last it was something as mundane as a monkey reflex that
came
to Gordon’s aid.
No matter how mesmerizing, how terrifying, no unchanging sight
can keep a man riveted forever. Not when it seemed that nothing at
all was happening, nothing changing. Where courage and education
failed him, where his nervous system had let him down,
boredom finally took command.
His breath exhaled. He heard it whistle between his teeth.
Without willing them to, Gordon felt his eyes turn slightly from
the visage of Death.
A part of him noted that the window was set in a door. The
handle lay before him. To the left, another window. To the right… to the right was the hood.
The… hood…
The hood of a jeep.
The hood of an abandoned, rusted jeep that lay in a faint rut
in
the forest gully…
He blinked at the hood of the abandoned, rusted jeep with
ancient U.S. government markings, and the skeleton of a poor, dead,
civil servant within, skull pressed against the passenger-side
window, facing Gordon.
The strangled sigh he let out felt almost ectoplasmic, the
relief and embarrassment were so palpable. Gordon straightened up
and it felt like unwinding from a fetal position-like being
born.
“Oh. Oh Lordie,” he said, just to hear his own voice. Moving
his
arms and legs, he paced a long circle around the vehicle,
obsessively glancing at its dead occupant, coming to terms with its
reality. He breathed deeply as his pulse settled and the roar in
his ears gradually ebbed.
Finally, he sat down on the forest floor with his back against
the cool door on the jeep’s left side. Trembling, he used both
hands as he put the revolver back on safety and slid it into its
holster. Then he pulled out his canteen and drank in slow, full
swallows. Gordon wished he had something stronger, but water right
now tasted as sweet as life.
Night was full, the cold, bone-chilling. Still, Gordon spent a
few moments putting off the obvious. He would never find the
bandits’ roost now, having followed a false clue so far into a
pitch dark wilderness. The jeep, at least, offered some form of
shelter, better than anything else around.
He hauled himself up and placed his hand on the door lever,
calling up motions that had once been second nature to two hundred
million of his countrymen and which, after a stubborn moment,
forced the latch to give. The door let out a loud screech as he
pulled hard and forced it open. He slid onto the cracked vinyl of
the seat and inspected the interior.
The jeep was one of those reversed, driver-on-the-right types
the post office had used back in the once-upon-a-time of before the
Doomwar. The dead mailman-what was left of him-was slumped over on
the far side. Gordon avoided looking at the skeleton for the
moment.
The storage area of the truck was nearly full with canvas
sacks.
The smell of old paper filled the small cabin at least as much as
the faded odor of the mummified remains.
With a hopeful oath, Gordon snatched up a metal flask from the
shift well. It sloshed! To have held liquid for sixteen years or
more it had to be well sealed. Gordon swore as he twisted and pried
at the cap. He pounded it against the door frame, then attacked it
again.
Frustration made his eyes tear, but at last he felt the cap
give. Soon he was rewarded with a slow, rough turning, and then the
heady, distantly familiar aroma of whiskey.
Maybe I’ve been a good boy after all.
Maybe there is indeed a God.
He took a mouthful and coughed as the warming fire streamed
down. Two more small swallows and he fell tack against the seat,
breathing almost a sigh.
He wasn’t ready yet to face removing the jacket draped over
the
skeleton’s narrow shoulders. Gordon grabbed sacks-bearing the
imprint us. postal service-and piled them about himself. Leaving a
narrow opening in the door to let in fresh mountain air, he
burrowed under the makeshift blankets with his
bottle.
At last he looked over at his host, contemplating the dead
civil
servant’s American flag shoulder patch. He unscrewed the flask and
this time raised the container toward the hooded
garment.
“Believe it or not, Mr. Postman, I always thought you folks
gave
good and honest service. Oh, people used you as whipping boys a
lot, but I know what a tough job you all had. I was proud of you,
even before the war.
“But this, Mr. Mailman”-he lifted the
flask-“this goes
beyond anything I’d come to expect! I consider my taxes very well
spent.” He drank to the postman, coughing a little but relishing
the warm glow.
He settled deeper into the mail sacks and looked at the
leather
jacket, ribs serating its sides, arms hanging loosely at odd
angles. Lying still, Gordon felt a sad poignancy-something like
homesickness. The jeep, the symbolic, faithful letter carrier, the
flag patch… they recalled comfort, innocence, cooperation, an
easy life that allowed millions of men and women to relax, to smile
or argue as they chose, to be tolerant with one another-and to hope
to be better people with the passage of time.
Gordon had been ready, today, to kill and to be killed. Now he
was glad that had been averted. They had called him “Mr. Rabbit”
and left him to die. But it was his privilege, without their ever
knowing it, to call the bandits “countrymen,” and let them have
their lives.
Gordon allowed sleep to come and welcomed back
optimism-foolish
anachronism that it might be. He lay in a blanket of his own honor,
and spent the rest of the night dreaming of parallel
worlds.
2
Snow and soot covered the ancient tree’s broken
branches and
seared bark. It wasn’t dead, not quite yet Here
and there
tiny shoots of green struggled to emerge, but they weren’t doing
well. The end was near.
A shadow loomed, and a creature settled onto the
drifts, an
oldt wounded thing of the skies, as near death
as the
tree.
Pinions drooping, it laboriously began building a
nest- a
place of dying. Stick by stick, it pecked among the ruined wood on
the ground, piling the bits higher until it was clear that it was
not a nest at all.
It was a pyre.
The bloody, dying thing settled in atop the
kindling, and
crooned soft music unlike anything ever heard before. A glow began
to build, surrounding the beast soon in a rich purple lambience.
Blue flames burst forth.
And the tree seemed to
respond. Aged, ruined
branches curled forward toward the heat, like an old man warming
his hands. Snow shivered and fell, the green patches grew and began
to fill the air with a fragrance of renewal.
It was not the creature in the pyre that was reborn,
and
even in sleep, that surprised Gordon. The great bird was consumed,
leaving only bones.
But the tree blossomed, and
from its flowering
branches things uncurled and drifted off into the
air.
He stared in wonderment when he saw that they were
balloons,
airplanes, and rocket ships. Dreams.
They floated away in all directions, and the air was
filled
with hope.
3
A camp robber bird, looking for blue jays to chase, landed on
the jeep’s hood with a hollow thump. It squawked-once for
territorially and once for pleasure-then began poking through the
thick detritus with its beak.
Gordon awakened to the tap-tapping sound. He looked up,
bleary-eyed, and saw the gray-flanked bird through the dust-smeared
window. It took him moments to remember where he was. The glass
windshield, the steering wheel, the smell of metal and paper, all
felt like a continuation of one of the night’s most vivid dreams, a
vision of the old days before the war. He sat dazedly for a few
moments, sifting through feelings while the sleep images unraveled
and drifted away, out of grasp.
Gordon rubbed his eyes, and presently began to consider his
situation.
If he hadn’t left an elephant’s trail on his way into this
hollow last night, he should be perfectly safe right now. The fact
that the whiskey had lain here untouched for sixteen years
obviously meant the bandits were lazy hunters. They had their
traditional stalks and blinds, and had never bothered fully to
explore their own mountain.
Gordon felt a bit thick-headed. The war had begun when he was
eighteen, a college sophomore, and since then there had been little
chance to build a tolerance to eighty-proof liquor. Added to
yesterday’s series of traumas and adrenaline rushes, the whiskey
had left him cotton-mouthed and scratchy behind the
eyelids.
He regretted his lost comforts as much as ever. There would be
no tea this morning. Nor a damp washcloth, or venison jerky for
breakfast. No toothbrush.
Still, Gordon tried to be philosophical. After all, he was
alive. He had a feeling there would be times when each of the items
stolen from him would be “missed most of all.”
With any luck, the Geiger counter wouldn’t fall into that
category. Radiation had been one of his main reasons for going ever
westward, since leaving the Dakotas. He had grown tired of walking
everywhere a slave to his precious counter, always afraid it would
be stolen or would break down. Rumor had it that the West Coast had
been spared the worst of the fallout, suffering more, instead, from
plagues wind-borne from Asia.
That had been the way with that strange war. Inconsistent,
chaotic, it had stopped far short of the spasm everyone had
predicted. Instead it was more like a shotgun blast of one midscale
catastrophe after another. By itself, any one of the disasters
might have been survivable.
The initial “techno-war” at sea and in space might not have
been
so terrible had it remained contained, and not spilled over onto
the continents.
The diseases weren’t as bad as in the Eastern Hemisphere,
where
the Enemy’s weapons went out of control in his own populace. They
probably wouldn’t have killed so many in America, had the fallout
zones not pushed crowds of refugees together, and ruined the
delicate network of medical services.
And the starvation might not have been so awful had terrified
communities not blocked rails and roads to keep out the
germs.
As for the long-dreaded atom, only a tiny fraction of the
world’s nuclear arsenals were used before the Slavic Resurgence
collapsed from within and unexpected victory was declared. Those
few score bombs were enough to trigger the Three-Year Winter, but
not a Century-Long Night that might have sent Man the way of the
dinosaurs. For weeks it appeared that a great miracle of restraint
had saved the planet.
So it seemed. And indeed, even the combination-a few bombs,
some
bugs, and three poor harvests-would not have been enough to ruin a
great nation, and with it a world.
But there was another illness, a cancer from
within.
Damn you forever, Nathan Holn, Gordon
thought. Across a
dark continent it was a common litany.
He pushed aside the mail sacks. Ignoring the morning chill, he
opened his left belt pouch and pulled out a small package wrapped
in aluminum foil, coated with melted wax.
If there ever had been an emergency, this was one. Gordon
would
need energy to get through the day. A dozen cubes of beef bouillon
were all he had, but they would have to do.
Washing down a bitter, salty chunk with a swig from his
canteen,
Gordon kicked open the left door of the jeep, letting several sacks
tumble out onto the frosted ground. He turned to his right and
looked at the muffled skeleton that had quietly shared the night
with him.
“Mr. Postman, I’m going to give you as close to a decent
burial
as I can manage with my bare hands. I know that’s not much payment
for what you’ve given me. But it’s all I can offer.” He reached
over the narrow, bony shoulder and unlocked the driver’s
door.
His moccasins slipped on the icy ground as he got out and
stepped carefully around to the other side of the
jeep.
At least it didn’t snow last
night. It’s so dry up
here that the ground ought to thaw enough for digging in a little
while.
The rusty right-hand door groaned as he pulled. It was tricky,
catching the skeleton in an emptied mail sack as it pitched
forward. Gordon somehow managed to get the bundle of clothes and
bones laid out on the forest floor.
He was amazed at the state of preservation. The dry climate
had
almost mummified the postman’s remains, giving insects time to
clean up without much mess. The rest of the jeep appeared to have
been free from mold for all these years.
First he checked the mailman’s apparel.
Funny- Why was he wearing a paisley shirt under his
jacket?
The garment, once colorful but now faded and stained, was a
total loss, but the leather jacket was a wonderful find. If big
enough, it would improve his chances immeasurably.
The footgear looked old and cracked, but perhaps serviceable.
Carefully, Gordon shook out the gruesome, dry remnants and laid the
shoes against his feet.
Maybe a bit large. But then, anything
would be better
than ripped camp moccasins.
Gordon slid the bones out onto the mail sack with as little
violence as he could manage, surprised at how easy it was. Any
superstition had been burned out the night before. All that
remained was a mild reverence and an ironic gratitude to the former
owner of these things. He shook the clothes, holding his breath
against the dust, and hung them on a ponderosa branch to air out.
He returned to the jeep.
Aha, he thought then. The
mystery of the shirt is
solved. Right next to where he had slept was a long-sleeved
blue uniform blouse with Postal Service patches on the shoulders.
It looked almost new, in spite of the years. One for
comfort,
and another for the boss.
Gordon had known postmen to do that, when he was a boy. One
fellow, during the muggy afternoons of summer, had worn bright
Hawaiian shirts as he delivered the mail. The postman had always
been grateful for a cool glass of lemonade. Gordon wished he could
remember his name.
Shivering in the morning chill, he slipped into the uniform
shirt. It was only a little bit large.
“Maybe I’ll grow to fill it out,” he mumbled, joking weakly
with
himself. At thirty-four he probably weighed less than he had at
seventeen.
The glove compartment contained a brittle map of Oregon to
replace the one he had lost. Then, with a shout Gordon grabbed a
small square of clear plastic. A scintilla-tor! Far better than his
Geiger counter, the little crystal would give off tiny flashes
whenever its crystalline interior was struck by gamma radiation. It
didn’t even need power! Gordon cupped it in front of his eye and
watched a few sparse flickerings, caused by cosmic rays. Otherwise,
the cube was quiescent.
Now what was a prewar mailman
doing with a gadget
like that? Gordon wondered idly, as the device went into his
pants pocket.
The glove compartment flashlight was a loss, of course; the
emergency flares were crumbled paste.
The bag, of course. On the floor below
the driver’s
seat was a large, leather letter carrier’s sack. It was dry and
cracked, but the straps held when he tugged, and the flaps would
keep out water.
It wouldn’t come close to replacing his lost Kelty, but the
bag
would be a vast improvement over nothing at all. He opened the main
compartment and bundles of aged correspondence spilled out,
breaking into scattered piles as brittle rubber bands snapped
apart. Gordon picked up a few of the nearest pieces.
“From the Mayor of Bend, Oregon, to the Chairman of the School
of Medicine, University of Oregon, Eugene.” Gordon intoned the
address as though he were playing Polo-nius. He flipped through
more letters. The addresses sounded pompous and
archaic.
“Dr. Franklin Davis, of the small town of Gilchrist sends-with
the word urgent printed clearly on the envelope-a rather bulky
letter to the Director of Regional Disbursement of Medical Supplies… no doubt pleading priority for his
requisitions.”
Gordon’s sardonic smile faded into a frown as he turned over
one
letter after another. Something was wrong, here.
He had expected to be amused by junk mail and personal
correspondence. But there didn’t seem to be a single advertisement
in the bag, And while there were many private letters, most of the
envelopes appeared to be on one or another type of official
stationery.
Well, there wasn’t time for voyeurism anyway. He’d take a
dozen
or so letters for entertainment, and use the backsides for his new
journal.
He avoided thinking about the loss of the old volume- sixteen
years’ tiny scratchings, now doubtless being perused by that
onetime stockbroker robber. It would be read and preserved, he was
sure, along with the tiny volumes of verse he had carried in his
pack, or he had misread Roger Sep-tien’s
personality.
Someday, he would come and get them back.
What was a U.S. Postal Service jeep doing out here, anyway?
And
what had killed the postman? He found part of his answer around at
the back of the vehicle-bullet holes in the tailgate window, well
grouped midway up the right side.
Gordon looked over to the ponderosa. Yes, the shirt and the
jacket each had two holes in the back of the upper chest
area.
The attempted hijacking or robbery could not have been prewar.
Mail carriers were almost never attacked, even in the late
eighties’ depression riots, before the “golden age” of the
nineties.
Besides, a missing carrier would have been searched for until
found.
So, the attack took place after the
One-Week War. But
what was a mailman doing driving alone through the countryside
after the United States had effectively ceased to exist? How long
afterward had this happened?
The fellow must have driven off from his ambush, seeking
obscure
roads and trails to get away from his assailants. Maybe he didn’t
know the severity of his wounds, or simply panicked.
But Gordon suspected that there was another reason the letter
carrier had chosen to weave in and out of blackberry thickets to
hide deep in forest depths.
“He was protecting his cargo,” Gordon whispered. “He measured
the chance he’d black out on the road against the possibility of
getting to help… and decided to cache the mail, rather than
try to live.”
So, this was a bona fide postwar
postman. A hero of the
flickering twilight of civilization. Gordon thought of the old-time
ode of the mails… “Neither sleet, nor hail…” and wondered
at the fact that some had tried this hard to keep the light
alive.
That explained the official letters and the lack of junk mail.
He hadn’t realized that even a semblance of normality had remained
for so long. Of course, a seventeen-year-old militia recruit was
unlikely to have seen anything normal. Mob rule and general looting
in the main disbursement centers had kept armed authority busy and
attrited until the militia finally vanished into the disturbances
it had been sent to quell. If men and women elsewhere were behaving
more like human beings during those months of horror, Gordon never
witnessed it.
The brave story of the postman only served to depress Gordon.
This tale of struggle against chaos, by mayors and university
professors and postmen, had a “what if” flavor that was too
poignant for him to consider for long.
The tailgate opened reluctantly, after some prying. Moving
mail
sacks aside, he found the letter carrier’s hat, with its tarnished
badge, an empty lunchbox, and a valuable pair of sunglasses lying
in thick dust atop a wheel well.
A small shovel, intended to help free the jeep from road ruts,
would now help to bury the driver.
Finally, just behind the driver’s seat, broken under several
heavy sacks, Gordon found a smashed guitar. A large-caliber bullet
had snapped its neck. Near it, a large, yellowed plastic bag held a
pound of desiccated herbs that gave off a strong, musky odor.
Gordon’s recollection hadn’t faded enough to forget the aroma of
marijuana.
He had envisioned the postman as a middle-aged, balding,
conservative type. Gordon now recreated the image, and made the
fellow look more like himself, wiry, bearded, with a perpetual,
stunned expression that seemed about to say, “Oh,
wow.”
A neohippy perhaps-a member of a subgeneration that had hardly
begun to flower before the war snuffed it out and everything else
optimistic-a neohippy dying to protect the establishment’s mail. It
didn’t surprise Gordon in the slightest. He had had friends in the
movement, sincere people, if maybe a little strange.
Gordon retrieved the guitar strings and for the first time
that
morning felt a little guilty.
The letter carrier hadn’t even been armed! Gordon remembered
reading once that the U.S. Mail operated across the lines for three
years into the 1860s Civil War. Perhaps this fellow had trusted his
countrymen to respect that tradition.
Post-Chaos America had no tradition but survival. In his
travels, Gordon had found that some isolated communities welcomed
him in the same way minstrels had been kindly received far and wide
in medieval days. In others, wild varieties of paranoia reigned.
Even in those rare cases where he had found friendliness, where
decent people seemed willing to welcome a stranger, Gordon had
always, before long, moved on. Always, he found himself beginning
to dream again of wheels turning and things flying in the
sky.
It was already midmorning. His gleanings here were enough to
make the chances of survival better without a confrontation with
the bandits. The sooner he was over the pass then, and into a
decent watershed, the better off he would be.
Right now, nothing would serve him half so well as a stream,
somewhere out of the range of the bandit gang, where he could fish
for trout to fill his belly.
One more task, here. He hefted the shovel.
Hungry or not, you owe the guy this
much.
He looked around for a shady spot with soft earth to dig in,
and
a view.
4
“… They said, ‘Fear not, Macbeth, till Birnam Wood comes
to
Dunsinane’; and now a wood comes to Dunsinane!
“Arm, arm, arm yourselves! If this is what the witch spoke
of-that thing out there-there’ll be no running, or hiding
here!”
Gordon clutched his wooden sword, contrived from planking and
a
bit of tin. He motioned to an invisible
aide-de-camp.
“I’m gettin‘ weary of the sun, and wish the world were
undone.
“Ring the alarum bell! Blow, wind! Come wrack! At least we’ll
die with harness on our back!”
Gordon squared his shoulders, flourished his sword, and
marched
Macbeth offstage to his doom.
Out of the light of the tallow lamps, he swiveled to catch a
glimpse of his audience. They had loved his earlier acts. But this
bastardized, one-man version of Macbeth might have gone over their
heads.
An instant after he exited, though, enthusiastic applause
began,
led by Mrs. Adele Thompson, the leader of this small community.
Adults whistled and stamped their feet. Younger citizens clapped
awkwardly, those below twenty years of age watching their elders
and slapping their hands awkwardly, as if they were taking part in
this strange rite for the first time.
Obviously, they had liked his abbreviated version of the
ancient
tragedy, Gordon was relieved. To be honest, some parts had been
simplified less for brevity than because of his imperfect memory of
the original. He had last seen a copy of the play almost a decade
ago, and that a half-burned fragment.
Still, the final lines of his soliloquy had been canon. That
part about “wind and wrack” he would never forget.
Grinning, Gordon returned to take his bows onstage- a
plank-covered garage lift in what had once been the only gas
station in the tiny hamlet of Pine View.
Hunger and isolation had driven him to try the hospitality of
this mountain village of fenced fields and stout log walls, and the
gamble had paid off better than he’d hoped. An exchange of a series
of shows for his meals and supplies had tentatively passed by a
fair majority of the voting adults, and now the deal seemed
settled.
“Bravo! Excellent!” Mrs. Thompson stood in the front row,
clapping eagerly. White-haired and bony, but still robust, she
turned to encourage the forty-odd others, including small children,
to show their appreciation. Gordon did a flourish with one hand,
and bowed deeper than before.
Of course his peformance had been pure crap. But he was
probably
the only person within a hundred miles who had once minored in
drama. There were “peasants” once again in America, and like his
predecessors in the minstrel trade, Gordon had learned to go for
the unsubtle in his shows.
Timing his final bow for the moment before the applause began
to
fade, Gordon hopped off the stage and began removing his slap-dash
costume. He had set firm limits; there would be no encore. His
stock was theater, and he meant to keep them hungry for it until it
was time to leave.
“Marvelous. Just wonderful!” Mrs. Thompson told him as he
joined
the villagers, now gathering at a buffet table along the back wall.
The older children formed a circle around him, staring in
wonderment.
Pine View was quite prosperous, compared with so many of the
starvling villages of the plains and mountains. In some places a
good part of a generation was nearly missing due to the devastating
effects the Three-Year Winter had had on children. But here he saw
several teenagers and young adults, and even a few oldsters who
must have been past middle age when the Doom fell.
They must have fought to save everybody.
That pattern
had been rarer, but he had seen it, too, here and
there.
Everywhere there were traces of those years. Faces pocked from
diseases or etched from weariness and war. Two women and a man were
amputees and another looked out of one good eye, the other a cloudy
mass of cataracts.
He was used to such things-at least on a superficial level. He
nodded gratefully to his host.
“Thank you, Mrs. Thompson. I appreciate kind words from a
perceptive critic. I’m glad you liked the show.”
“No, no seriously,” the clan leader insisted, as if Gordon had
been trying to be modest. “I haven’t been so delighted in years.
The Macbeth part at the end there sent shivers up my spine! I only
wish I’d watched it on TV back when I had a chance. I didn’t know
it was so good!
“And that inspiring speech you gave us earlier, that one of
Abraham Lincoln’s… well, you know, we tried to start a school
here, in the beginning. But it just didn’t work out. We needed
every hand, even the kids‘. Now though, well, that speech got me to
thinking. We’ve got some old books put away. Maybe now’s the time
to give it a try again.”
Gordon nodded politely. He had seen this syndrome before-the
best of the dozen or so types of reception he had experienced over
the years, but also among the saddest. It always made him feel like
a charlatan, when his shows brought out grand, submerged hopes in a
few of the decent, older people who remembered better days…
hopes that, to his knowledge, had always fallen through before a
few weeks or months had passed.
It was as if the seeds of civilization needed more than
goodwill
and the dreams of aging high school graduates to water them. Gordon
often wondered if the right symbol might do the trick-the right
idea. But he knew his little dramas, however well
received, weren’t the key. They might trigger a beginning, once in
a great while, but local enthusiasm always failed soon after. He
was no traveling messiah. The legends he offered weren’t the kind
of sustenance needed in order to overcome the inertia of a dark
age.
The world turns, and soon the last of the old
generation
will be gone. Scattered tribes will rule the continent. Perhaps in
a thousand years the adventure will begin again. Meanwhile…
Gordon was spared hearing more of Mrs. Thompson’s sadly
unlikely
plans. The crowd squeezed out a small, silver-haired, black woman,
wiry and leather skinned, who seized Gordon’s arm in a friendly,
viselike grip.
“Now Adele,” she said to the clan matriarch, “Mister Krantz
hasn’t had a bite since noontime. I think, if we want him able to
perform tomorrow night, we’d better feed him. Right?” She squeezed
his right arm and obviously thought him undernourished-an
impression he was loathe to alter, with the aroma of food wafting
his way,
Mrs. Thompson gave the other woman a look of patient
indulgence.
“Of course, Patricia,” she said. “I’ll speak with you more about
this, later, Mr. Krantz, after Mrs. Hewlett has fattened you up a
bit.” Her smile and her glittering eyes held a touch of intelligent
irony, and Gordon found himself reevaluating Adele Thompson. She
certainly was nobody’s fool.
Mrs. Howlett propelled him through the crowd. Gordon smiled
and
nodded as hands came out to touch his sleeve. Wide eyes followed
his every movement.
Hunger must make me a better actor. I’ve never had
an
audience react quite like this before. I wish I knew exactly what
it was I did that made them feel this way.
One of those watching him from behind the long buffet table
was
a young woman barely taller than Mrs. Howlett, with deep, almond
eyes and hair blacker than Gordon remembered ever seeing before.
Twice, she turned to gently slap the hand of a child who tried to
help himself before the honored guest. Each time the girl quickly
looked back at Gordon and smiled.
Beside her, a tall, burly young man stroked his reddish beard
and gave Gordon a strange look-as if his eyes were filled with some
desperate resignation, Gordon had only a moment to assimilate the
two as Mrs. Howlett pulled him over in front of the pretty
brunette.
“Abby,” she said, “let’s have a little bit of everything on a
plate for Mr. Krantz. Then he can make up his mind what he wants
seconds of. I baked the blueberry pie, Mr. Krantz.”
Dizzily, Gordon made a note to have two helpings of the
blueberry. It was hard to concentrate on diplomacy, though. He
hadn’t seen or smelled anything like this in years. The odors
distracted him from the disconcerting looks and touching
hands.
There was a large, spit-turned, stuffed turkey. A huge,
steaming
bowl of boiled potatoes, dollied up with beer-soaked jerky,
carrots, and onions, was the second course. Down the table Gordon
saw apple cobbler and an opened barrel of dried apple flakes.
I must cozen a supply of those, before
I
leave.
Skipping further inventory, he eagerly held out his plate.
Abby
kept watching him as she took it.
The big, frowning redhead suddenly muttered something
indecipherable and reached out to grab Gordon’s right hand in both
of his own. Gordon flinched, but the taciturn fellow would not let
go until he answered the grip and shook hands
firmly.
The man muttered something too low to follow, nodded, and let
go. He bent to kiss the brunette quickly and then stalked off, eyes
downcast.
Gordon blinked. Did I just miss something?
It felt as
if some sort of event had just occurred, and had gone completely
over his head.
“That was Michael, Abby’s husband,” Mrs. Howlett said. “He’s
got
to go and relieve Edward at the trap string. But he wanted to stay
to see your show, first. When he was little he so used to love to
watch TV shows…”
Steam from the plate rose to his face, making Gordon quite
dizzy
with hunger. Abby blushed and smiled when he thanked her. Mrs.
Howlett pulled him over to take a seat on a pile of old tires.
“You’ll get to talk to Abby, later,” the black woman went on. “Now,
you eat. Enjoy yourself.”
Gordon did not need to be encouraged. He dug in while people
looked on curiously and Mrs. Hewlett rattled on.
“Good, isn’t it? You just sit and eat and pay us no
mind.
“And when you’re all full and you’re ready to talk again, I
think we’d all like to hear, one more time, how you got to be a
mailman.”
Gordon looked up at the eager faces above him. He hurriedly
took
a swig of beer to chase down the too-hot potatoes,
“I’m just a traveler,” he said around a half-full mouth while
lifting a turkey drumstick. “It’s not much of a story how I got the
bag and clothes.”
He didn’t care whether they stared, or touched, or talked at
him, so long as they let him eat!
Mrs. Howlett watched him for a few moments. Then, unable to
hold
back, she started in again. “You know, when I was a little girl we
used to give milk and cookies to the mailman. And my father always
left a little glass of whiskey on the fence for him the day before
New Year’s. Dad used to tell us that poem, you know, ‘Through
sleet, through mud, through war, through blight, through bandits
and through darkest night…’”
Gordon choked on a sudden, wayward swallow. He coughed and
looked up to see if she was in earnest. A glimmer in his forebrain
wanted to dance over the old woman’s accidentally magnificent
misremembrance. It was rich.
The glimmer faded quickly, though, as he bit into the
delicious
roast fowl. He hadn’t the will to try to figure out what the old
woman was driving at.
“Our mailman used to sing to us!”
The speaker, incongruously, was a dark-haired giant with a
silver-streaked beard. His eyes seemed to mist as he remembered.
“We could hear him coming, on Saturdays when we were home from
school, sometimes when he was over a block away.
“He was black, a lot blacker than Mrs. Hewlett, or Jim Horton
over there. Man, did he have a nice voice! Guess that’s how he got
the job. He brought me all those mail order coins I used to
collect. Ringed the doorbell so he could hand ‘em to me, personal,
with his own hand.”
His voice was hushed with telescoped awe.
“Our mailman just whistled when I was little,” said a
middle-aged woman with a deeply lined face. She sounded a little
disappointed.
“But he was real nice. Later, when I was
grown up, I
came home from work one day and found out the mailman had saved the
life of one of my neighbors. Heard him choking and gave him
mouth-to-mouth until th‘ ambulance came.”
A collective sigh, rose from the circle of listeners, as if
they
were hearing the heroic adventures of a single ancient hero. The
children listened in wide-eyed silence as the tales grew more and
more embroidered. At least the small part of him still paying
attention figured they had to be. Some were simply too far-fetched
to be believed.
Mrs. Hewlett touched Gordon’s knee. “Tell us again how you got
to be a mailman.”
Gordon shrugged a little desperately. “I just found the
mailman’s fings!” he emphasized around the food in his mouth. The
flavors had overcome him, and he felt almost panicky over the way
they all hovered over him. If the adult villagers
wanted
to romanticize their memories of men they had once considered
lower-class civil servants at best, that was all right. Apparently
they associated his performance tonight with the little touches of
extroversion they had witnessed in their neighborhood letter
carriers, when they had been children. That, too, was okay. They
could think anything they damn well pleased, so long as they didn’t
interrupt his eating!
“Ah-” Several of the villagers looked at each other knowingly
and nodded, as if Gordon’s answer had had some profound
significance. Gordon heard his own words repeated to those on the
edges of the circle.
“He found the mailman’s things… so naturally he became…”
His answer must have appeased them, somehow, for the crowd
thinned as the villagers moved off to take polite turns at the
buffet. It wasn’t until much later, on reflection, that he
perceived the significance of what had taken place there, under
boarded windows and tallow lamps, while he crammed himself near to
bursting with good food.
5
… we have found that our clinic has an abundant supply of
disinfectants and pain killers of several varieties. We hear these
are in short supply in Bend and in the relocation centers up north.
We’re willing to trade some of these-along with a truckload of
de-ionizing resin columns that happened to be abandoned here-for
one thousand doses of tetracycline, to guard against the bubonic
plague outbreak to the east. Perhaps we’d be willing to settle for
an active culture of balomycine-producing yeast, instead, if
someone could come up and show us how to maintain
it.
Also, we are in desperate need of…
The Mayor of Gilchrist must have been a strong-willed man to
have persuaded his local emergency committee to offer such a trade.
Hoarding, however illogical and uncooperative, was a major
contributor to the collapse. It astonished Gordon that there still
had been people with this much good sense during the first two
years of the Chaos.
He rubbed his eyes. Reading wasn’t easy by the light of a pair
of homemade candles. But he found it difficult getting to sleep on
the soft mattress, and damn if he’d sleep on the floor after so
long dreaming of such a bed, in just such a room!
He had been a little sick, earlier. All that food and
home-brewed ale had almost taken him over the line from delirious
happiness to utter misery. Somehow, he had teetered along the
boundary for several hours of blurrily remembered celebration
before at last stumbling into the room they had prepared for
him.
There had been a toothbrush waiting on
his nightstand,
and an iron tub filled with hot water.
And soap! In the bath his stomach had settled, and a warm,
clean
glow spread over his skin.
Gordon smiled when he saw that his postman’s uniform had been
cleaned and pressed. It lay on a nearby chair; the rips and tears
he had crudely patched were now neatly sewn.
He could not fault the people of this tiny hamlet for
neglecting
his one remaining longing… something he had gone without too
long to even think about. Enough. This was almost
Paradise.
As he lay in a sated haze between a pair of elderly but clean
sheets, waiting leisurely for sleep to come, he read a piece of
correspondence between two long-dead men.
The Mayor of Gilchrist went on:
We are having extreme difficulty with local gangs of
“Survivalists.” Fortunately, these infestations of egotists are
mostly too paranoid to band together. They’re as much trouble to
each other as to us, I suppose. Still, they are becoming a real
problem.
Our deputy is regularly fired on by well armed men in army
surplus camouflage clothing. No doubt the idiots think he’s a
“Russian Lackey” or some such nonsense.
They have taken to hunting game on a massive scale, killing
everything in the forest and doing a typically rotten job of
butchering and preserving the meat. Our own hunters come back
disgusted over the waste, often having been shot at without
provocation.
I know it’s a lot to ask, but when you can spare a platoon
from
relocation riot duty, could you send them up here to help us root
out these self-centered, hoarding, romantic scoundrels from their
little filtered armories? Maybe a unit or two of the US Army will
convince them that we won the war, and have to cooperate with each
other from now on…
He put the letter down.
So it had been that way here, too. The cliched “last straw”
had
been this plague of “survivalists”-particularly those following the
high priest of violent anarchy, Nathan Holn.
One of Gordon’s duties in the militia had been to help weed
out
some of those small gangs of city-bred cutthroats and gun nuts. The
number of fortified caves and cabins his unit had found-in the
prairie and on little lake islands- had been staggering… all set
up in a rash of paranoia in the difficult decades before the
war.
The irony of it was that we had things turned
around! The
depression was over. People were at work again and cooperating.
Except for a few crazies, it looked like a renaissance was coming,
for America and for the world.
But we forgot just how much harm a few crazies could
do, in
America and in the world.
Of course when the collapse did come, the solitary
survivalists’
precious little fortresses did not stay theirs for long. Most of
the tiny bastions changed hands a dozen or more times in the first
months-they were such tempting targets. The battles had raged all
over the plains until every solar collector was shattered, every
windmill wrecked, and every cache of valuable medicines scattered
in the never-ending search for heavy dope.
Only the ranches and villages, those possessing the right
mixture of ruthlessness, internal cohesion, and common sense,
survived in the end. By the time the Guard units had all died at
their posts, or themselves dissolved into roving gangs of battling
survivalists, very few of the original population of armed and
armored hermits remained alive.
Gordon looked at the letter’s postmark again. Nearly
two
years after the war. He shook his head. I
never
knew anyone held on so long.
The thought hurt, like a dull wound inside him. Anything that
made the last sixteen years seem avoidable was just too hard to
imagine.
There was a faint sound. Gordon looked up, wondering if he had
imagined it. Then, only slightly louder, another faint knock rapped
at the door to his room.
“Come in,” he called. The door opened about halfway. Abby, the
petite girl with the vaguely oriental cast to her eyes, smiled
timidly from the opening. Gordon refolded the letter and slipped it
into its envelope. He smiled.
“Hello, Abby. What’s up?”
“I-I’ve come to ask if there is anything else you needed,” she
said a little quickly. “Did you enjoy your bath?”
“Did I now?” Gordon sighed. He found himself slipping back
into
Macduff’s burr. “Aye, lass. And in particular I appreciated the
gift of that toothbrush. Heaven sent, it was.”
“You mentioned you’d lost yours.” She looked at the floor. “I
pointed out that we had at least five or six unused ones in the
storage room. I’m glad you were pleased.”
“It was your idea?” He bowed. “Then I am indeed in your
debt.”
Abby looked up and smiled. “Was that a letter you were just
reading? Could I look at it? I’ve never seen a letter
before.”
Gordon laughed. “Oh surely you’re not that young! What about
before the war?”
Abby blushed at his laughter. “I was only four when it
happened.
It was so frightening and confusing that I…I really don’t
remember much from before.”
Gordon blinked. Had it really been that long? Yes. Sixteen
years
was indeed enough time to have beautiful women in the world who
knew nothing but the dark age.
Amazing, he thought.
“All right, then.” He pushed the chair by his bed. Grinning,
she
came over and sat beside him. Gordon reached into the sack and
pulled out another of the frail, yellowed envelopes. Carefully, he
spread out the letter and handed it to her.
Abby looked at it so intently that he thought she was reading
the whole thing. She concentrated, her thin eyebrows almost coming
together in a crease on her forehead. But finally she handed the
letter back. “I guess I can’t really read that well. I mean, I can
read labels on cans, and stuff. But I never had much practice with
handwriting and… sentences.”
Her voice dropped at the end. She sounded embarrassed, but in
a
totally unafraid, trusting fashion, as if he were her
confessor.
He smiled. “No matter. I’ll tell you what it’s about.” He held
the letter up to the candlelight. Abby moved over to sit by his
knees on the edge of the bed, her eyes rapt on the
pages.
“It’s from one John Briggs, of Fort Rock, Oregon, to his
former
employer in Klamath Falls… I’d guess from the lathe and hobby
horse letterhead that Briggs was a retired machinist or carpenter
or something. Hmmm.”
Gordon concentrated on the barely legible handwriting. “It
seems
Mr. Briggs was a pretty nice man. Here he’s offering to take in his
ex-boss’s children, until the emergency is over. Also he says he
has a good garage machine shop, his own power, and plenty of metal
stock. He wants to know if the man wants to order any parts made
up, especially things in short supply…”
Gordon’s voice faltered. He was still so thick-headed from his
excesses that it had just struck him that a beautiful female was
sitting on his bed. The depression she made in the mattress tilted
his body toward her. He cleared his throat quickly and went back to
scanning the letter.
“Briggs mentions something about power levels from the Fort
Rock
reservoir… Telephones were out, but he was still, oddly
enough, getting Eugene on his computer data net…”
Abby looked at him. Apparently much of what he had said about
the letter writer might as well have been in a foreign language to
her. “Machine shop” and “data net” could have been ancient, magical
words of power.
“Why didn’t you bring us any letters, here in Pine View?” she
asked quite suddenly.
Gordon blinked at the non sequitur. The girl wasn’t stupid.
One
could tell such things. Then why had everything he said, when he
arrived here, and later at the party, been completely
misunderstood? She still thought he was a mailman,
as,
apparently, did all but a few of the others in this small
settlement.
From whom did she imagine they’d get mail?
She probably didn’t realize that the letters he carried had
been
sent long ago, from dead men and women to other dead men and women,
or that he carried them for… for his own
reasons.
The myth that had spontaneously developed here in Pine View
depressed Gordon. It was one more sign of the deterioration of
civilized minds, many of whom had once been high school and even
college graduates. He considered telling her the truth, as brutally
and frankly as he could, to stop this fantasy once and for all. He
started to.
“There aren’t any letters because…”
He paused. Again Gordon was aware of her nearness, the scent
of
her and the gentle curves of her body. Of her trust, as
well.
He sighed and looked away. “There aren’t any letters for you
folks because… because I’m coming west out of Idaho, and
nobody back there knows you, here in Pine View. From here I’m going
to the coast. There might even be some large towns left. Maybe…”
“Maybe someone down there will write to us, if we send them a
letter first!” Abby’s eyes were bright. “Then, when you pass this
way again, on your way back to Idaho, you could give us the letters
they send, and maybe do another play-act for us like tonight, and
we’ll have so much beer and pie for you you’ll bust!” She hopped a
little on the edge of the bed. “By then I’ll be able to read
better, I promise!”
Gordon shook his head and smiled. It was beyond his right to
dash such dreams. “Maybe so, Abby. Maybe so. But you know, you may
get to learn to read easier than that. Mrs. Thompson’s offered to
put it up for a vote to let me stay on here for a while. I guess
officially I’d be schoolteacher, though I’d have to prove myself as
good a hunter and farmer as anybody. I could give archery lessons…”
He stopped. Abby’s expression was open-mouthed in surprise.
She
shook her head vigorously. “But you haven’t heard! They voted on it
after you went to take your bath. Mrs. Thompson should be ashamed
of trying to bribe a man like you that way, with your important
work having to be done!”
He sat forward, not believing his ears. “What did you say?” He
had formed hopes of staying in Pine View for at least the cold
season, maybe a year or more. Who could tell? Perhaps the
wanderlust would leave him, and he could finally find a
home.
His sated stupor dissipated. Gordon fought to hold back his
anger. To have the chance revoked on the basis of the crowd’s
childish fantasies!
Abby noticed his agitation and hurried on. “That wasn’t the
only
reason, of course. There was the problem of there being no woman
for you. And then…” Her voice lowered perceptibly. “And then
Mrs. Hewlett thought you’d be perfect for helping me and Michael
finally have a baby…”
Gordon blinked. “Um,” he said, expressing the sudden and
complete contents of his mind.
“We’ve been trying for five years,” she explained. “We really
want children. But Mr. Horton thinks Michael can’t ‘cause he had
the mumps really bad when he was twelve. You
remember the
real bad mumps, don’t you?”
Gordon nodded, recalling friends who had died. The resultant
sterility had made for unusual social arrangements everywhere he
had traveled.
Still…
Abby went on quickly. “Well, it would cause problems if we
asked
any of the other men here to… to be the body father. I mean,
when you live close to people, like this, you have to look on the
men who aren’t your husband as not being really ‘men’… at least
not that way. I-I don’t think I’d like it, and it might cause
trouble.”
She blushed. “Besides, I’ll tell you something if you promise
to
keep a secret. I don’t think any of the other men would be able to
give Michael the kind of son he deserves. He’s really very smart,
you know. He’s the only one of us youngers who can really
read…”
The flow of strange logic was coming on too fast for Gordon to
follow completely. Part of him dispassionately noted that this was
all really an intricate and subtle tribal adaptation to a difficult
social problem. That part of him though-the last Twentieth-Century
intellectual-was still a bit drunk, and meanwhile the rest was
starting to realize what Abby was driving at.
“You’re different.” She smiled at him. “I mean, even Michael
saw
that right from the start. He’s not too happy, but he figures
you’ll only be through once a year or so, and he could stand that.
He’d rather that than never have any kids.”
Gordon cleared his throat. “You’re sure he feels this
way?”
“Oh, yes. Why do you think Mrs. Hewlett introduced us in that
funny way? It was to make it clear without really saying it out
loud. Mrs. Thompson doesn’t like it much, but I think that’s
because she wanted you to stay.”
Gordon’s mouth felt dry. “How do you feel about all
this?”
Her expression was enough of an answer. She looked at him as
if
he were some sort of visiting prophet, or at least a hero out of a
story book. “I’d be honored if you’d say yes,” she said, quietly,
and lowered her eyes.
“And you’d be able to think of me as a man, ‘that
way’?”
Abby grinned. She answered by crawling up on top of him and
planting her mouth intensely upon his.
• • •
There was a momentary pause as she shimmied out of her clothes
and Gordon turned to snuff out the candles on the bed stand. Beside
them lay the letterman’s gray uniform cap, its brass badge casting
multiple reflections of the dancing flames. The figure of a rider,
hunched forward on horseback before bulging saddle bags, seemed to
move at a flickering gallop.
This is another one I owe
you, Mr.
Postman.
Abby’s smooth skin slid along his side. Her hand slipped into
his as he took a deep breath and blew the candles
out.
6
For ten days, Gordon’s life followed a new pattern. As if to
catch up on six months’ road weariness, he slept late each morning
and awoke to find Abby gone, like the night’s
dreams.
Yet her warmth and scent lingered on the sheets when he
stretched and opened his eyes. The sunshine streaming through his
eastward-facing window was like something new, a springtime in his
heart, and not really early autumn at all.
He rarely saw her during the day as he washed and helped with
chores until noon-chopping and stacking wood for the community
supply and digging a deep pit for a new outhouse. When most of the
village gathered for the main meal of the day, Abby returned from
tending the flocks. But she spent lunchtime with the younger
children, relieving old one-legged Mr. Lothes, their work
supervisor. The little ones laughed as she kidded them, plucking
the wool that coated their clothes from a morning spent carding
skeins for the winter spinning, helping them keep the gray strands
out of their food.
She barely glanced at Gordon, but that brief smile was enough.
He knew he had no rights beyond these few days, and yet a shared
look in the daylight made him feel that it was all real, and not
just a dream.
Afternoons he conferred with Mrs. Thompson and the other
village
leaders, helping them inventory books and other long-neglected
salvage. At intervals, he gave reading and archery
lessons.
One day he and Mrs. Thompson traded methods in the art of
field
medicine while treating a man clawed by a “tiger,” what the locals
called that new strain of mountain lion which had bred with
leopards escaped from zoos in the postwar chaos. The trapper had
surprised the beast with its kill, but fortunately, it had only
batted him into the brush and let him run away. Gordon and the
village matriarch felt sure the wound would heal.
In the evenings all of Pine View gathered in the big garage
and
Gordon recited stories by Twain and Sayles and Keillor. He led them
in singing old folk songs and lovingly remembered commercial
jingles, and in playing “Remember When.” Then it was time for
drama.
Dressed in scrap and foil, he was John Paul Jones, shouting
defiance from the deck of the Bonne Homme Richard.
He was
Anton Perceveral, exploring the dangers of a faraway world and the
depths of his own potential with a mad robot companion. And he was
Doctor Hudson, wading through the horror of the Kenyan Conflict to
treat the victims of biological war.
At first Gordon always felt uneasy, putting on a flimsy
costume
and stomping across the makeshift stage waving his arms, shouting
lines only vaguely recalled or made up on the spot. He had never
really admired play-acting as a profession, even before the great
war.
But it had got him halfway across a continent, and he was good
at it. He felt the rapt gaze of the audience, their hunger for
wonder and something of the world beyond their narrow valley, and
their eagerness warmed him to the task. Pox-scarred and
wounded-bent from year after year of back-breaking labor merely to
survive-they looked up, the need greatest in eyes clouded with age,
a yearning for help doing what they could no longer accomplish
alone- remembering.
Wrapped in his roles, he gave them bits and pieces of lost
romance. And by the time the last lines of his soliloquy faded, he
too was able to forget the present, at least for a
while.
Each night, after he retired, she came to him. For a while she
would sit on the edge of his bed and talk of her life, about the
flocks, and the village children, and Michael. She brought him
books to ask their meanings and questioned him about his
youth-about the life of a student in the wonderful days before the
Doomwar.
Then, after a time, Abby would smile, put away the dusty
volumes, and slide under the covers next to him while he leaned
over and took care of the candle.
On the tenth morning, she did not slip away with the predawn
light, but instead wakened Gordon with a kiss.
“Hmmmn, good morning,” he commented, and reached for her, but
Abby pulled away. She picked up her clothes, brushing her breasts
across the soft hairs of his flat stomach.
“I should let you sleep,” she told him. “But I wanted to ask
you
something.” She held her dress in a ball.
“Mmm? What is it?” Gordon stuffed the pillow behind his head
for
support.
“You’re going to be leaving today, aren’t you?” she
asked.
“Yes,” he nodded seriously. “It’s probably best I’d like to
stay
longer, but since I can’t, I’d better be heading west
again.”
“I know,” she nodded seriously. “We’ll all hate to see you go.
But… well, I’m going to meet Michael out at the trapline, this
evening. I miss him terribly.” She touched the side of his face.
“That doesn’t bother you, does it? I mean, it’s been wonderful here
with you, but he’s my husband and…”
He smiled and covered her hand. To his amazement, he had
little
difficulty with his feelings. He was more envious than jealous of
Michael. The desperate logic of their desire for children, and
their obvious love for one another, made the situation, in
retrospect, as obvious as the need for a clean break at the end. He
only hoped he had done them the favor they sought. For despite
their fantasies, it was unlikely he would ever come this way
again.
“I have something for you,” Abby said. She reached under the
bed
and pulled out a small silvery object on a chain, and a paper
package.
“It’s a whistle. Mrs. Hewlett says you should have one.” She
slipped it over his neck and adjusted it until satisfied with the
effect.
“Also, she helped me write this letter.”
Abby picked up
the little package. “I found some stamps in a drawer in the gas
station, but they wouldn’t stick on. So I got some money, instead.
This is fourteen dollars. Will it be enough?”
She held out a cluster of faded bills.
Gordon couldn’t help smiling. Yesterday five or six of the
others had privately approached him. He had accepted their little
envelopes and similar payments for postage with as straight a face
as possible. He might have used the opportunity to charge them
something he needed, but the community had already given him a
month’s stock of jerky, dried apples, and twenty straight arrows
for his bow. There was no need, nor had he the desire to extort
anything else.
Some of the older citizens had had relatives in Eugene, or
Portland, or towns in the Willamette Valley. It was the direction
he was heading, so he took the letters. A few were addressed to
people who had lived in Oakridge and Blue River. Those he filed
deep in the safest part of his sack. The rest, he might as well
throw into Crater Lake, for all the good they would ever do, but he
pretended anyway.
He soberly counted out a few paper bills, then handed back the
rest of the worthless currency. “And who are you writing to?”
Gordon asked Abby as he took the letter. He felt as if he were
playing Santa Claus, and found himself enjoying it.
“I’m writing to the University. You know, at Eugene? I asked a
bunch of questions like, are they taking new students again yet?
And do they take married students?” Abby blushed. “I know I’d have
to work real hard on my reading to get good enough. And maybe they
aren’t recovered enough to take many new students. But Michael’s
already so smart… and by the time we hear from them maybe
things will be better.”
“By the time you hear…” Gordon shook his
head.
Abby nodded. “I’ll for sure be reading a lot better by then.
Mrs. Thompson promises she’ll help me. And her husband has agreed
to start a school, this winter. I’m going to help with the little
kids.
“I hope maybe I can learn to be a teacher. Do you think that’s
silly?”
Gordon shook his head. He had thought himself beyond surprise,
but this touched him. In spite of Abby’s totally disproportioned
view of the state of the world, her hope wanned him, and he found
himself dreaming along with her. There was no harm in wishing, was
there?
“Actually,” Abby went on, confidentially, twisting her dress
in
her hands. “One of the big reasons I’m writing is to get a… a
pen pal. That’s the word, isn’t it? I’m hoping maybe someone in
Eugene will write to me. That way we’ll get letters, here. I’d love
to get a letter.
“Also”-her gaze fell-“that will give you another reason to
come
back, in a year or so… besides maybe wanting to see the
baby.”
She looked up and dimpled. “I got the idea from your Sherlock
Holmes play. That’s an ‘ulterior motive,’ isn’t it?”
She was so delighted with her own cleverness, and so eager for
his approval-Gordon felt a great, almost painful rush of
tenderness. Tears welled as he reached out and pulled her into an
embrace. He held her tightly and rocked slowly, his eyes shut
against reality, and he breathed in with her sweet smell a light
and optimism he had thought gone from the world.
7
“Well, this is where I turn back.” Mrs. Thompson shook hands
with Gordon. “Down this road things should be pretty tame until you
get to Davis Lake. The last of the old loner survivalists that way
wiped each other out some years back, though I’d still be careful
if I were you.”
There was a chill in the air, for autumn had arrived in full.
Gordon zipped up the old letter carrier’s jacket and adjusted the
leather bag as the straight-backed old woman handed him an old
roadmap.
“I had Jimmie Horton mark the places we know of, where
homesteaders have set up. I wouldn’t bother any of them unless you
have to. Mostly they’re a suspicious type, likely to shoot first.
We’ve only been trading with the nearest for a short
time.”
Gordon nodded. He folded the map carefully and slipped it into
a
pouch. He felt rested and ready. He would regret leaving Pine View
as much as any haven in recent memory. But now that he was resigned
to going, he actually felt a growing eagerness to be traveling, to
see what had happened in the rest of Oregon.
In the years since he had left the wreckage of Minnesota, he
had
found ever wilder signs of the dark age. But now he was in a new
watershed. This had once been a pleasant state with dispersed light
industry, productive farms, and an elevated level of culture.
Perhaps it was merely Ab-by’s innocence infecting him. But
logically, the Willamette Valley would be the place to look for
civilization, if it existed anywhere anymore.
He took the old woman’s hand once again. “Mrs. Thompson, I’m
not
sure I could ever repay what you people have done for
me.”
She shook her head. Her face was deeply tanned and so wrinkled
Gordon was certain she had to be more than the fifty years she
claimed.
“No, Gordon, you paid your keep. I would’ve liked it if you
could’ve stayed and helped me get the school going. But now I see
maybe it won’t be so hard to do it by ourselves.”
She gazed out over her little valley. “You know, we’ve been
living in a kind of a daze, these last years since the crops have
started coming in and the hunting’s returned. You can tell how bad
things have gotten when a bunch of grown men and women, who once
had jobs, who read magazines-and filled out their own taxes, for
Heaven’s sake-start treating a poor, battered, wandering play-actor
as if he was something like the Easter Bunny.” She looked back at
him. “Even Jim Horton gave you a couple of ‘letters’ to deliver,
didn’t he?”
Gordon’s face felt hot. For a moment he was too embarrassed to
face her. Then, all at once, he burst out laughing. He wiped his
eyes in relief at having the group fantasy lifted from his
shoulders.
Mrs. Thompson chuckled as well. “Oh, it was harmless I think.
And more than that. You’ve served as a… you know, that old
automobile thing… a catalyst I think. You
know, the
children are already exploring ruins for miles around-between
chores and supper-bringing me all the books they find. I won’t have
any trouble making school into a privilege.
“Imagine, punishing them by suspending
‘em from class!
I hope Bobbie and I handle it right.”
“I wish you the best of luck, Mrs. Thompson,” Gordon said
sincerely. “God, it would be nice to see a light, somewhere in all
this desolation.”
“Right, son. That’d be bliss.”
Mrs. Thompson sighed. “I’d recommend you wait a year, but come
on back. You’re kind… you treated my people well. And you’re
discreet about some things, like that business with Abby and
Michael.”
She frowned momentarily. “I think I
understand what
went on there, and I guess it’s for the best. Got to adjust, I
suppose. Anyway, like I said, you’re always welcome
back.”
Mrs. Thompson turned to go, walked two paces, then paused. She
half turned to look back at Gordon. For a moment her face betrayed
a hint of confusion and wonder. “You aren’t really
a
postman, are you?” she asked suddenly.
Gordon smiled. He set the cap, with its bright brass emblem,
on
his head. “If I bring back some letters, you’ll know for
sure.”
She nodded, gruffly, then set off up the ruined asphalt road.
Gordon watched her until she passed the first bend, then he turned
about to the west, and the long downgrade toward the
Pacific.
8
The barricades had been long abandoned. The baffle wall on
Highway 58, at the east end of Oakridge, had weathered into a
tumbled tell of concrete debris and curled, rusting steel. The town
itself was silent. This end, at least, was clearly long
abandoned.
Gordon looked down the main street, reading its story. Two,
possibly three, pitched battles had been fought here. A storefront
with a canted sign-emergency services clinic-sat at the center of a
major circle of devastation.
Three intact panes reflected morning sunlight from the top
floor
of a hotel. Elsewhere though, even where store windows had been
boarded, the prismatic sparkle of shattered glass glistened on the
buckled pavement.
Not that he had really expected anything better, but some of
the
feelings he had carried with him out of Pine View had led to hopes
for more islands of peace, especially now that he was in the
fertile watershed of the Willamette Valley. If no living town, at
least Oakridge might have shown other signs conducive to optimism.
There might have been traces of methodical reclamation, for
instance. If an industrial civilization existed here in Oregon,
towns such as this one should have been harvested of anything
usable.
But just twenty yards from his vantage point Gordon saw the
wreckage ef a gas station-a big mechanic’s tool cabinet lay on its
side, its store of wrenches, pliers, and replacement wiring
scattered on the oil-stained floor. A row of never-used tires still
hung on a rack high above the service lifts.
From this, Gordon knew Oakridge to be the worst of all
possible
Oakridges, at least from his point of view. The things needed by a
machine culture were available at every hand, untouched and
rotting… implying there was no such technological society
anywhere
near. At the same time, he would have to pick through the wreckage
of fifty waves of previous looters in his search for anything
useful to a single traveler like himself.
Well, he sighed. I’ve done it
before,
Even sifting through the downtown ruins of Boise, the gleaners
before him had missed a small treasure trove of canned food in a
loft behind a shoe store… some hoarder’s stash, long
untouched. There was a pattern to such things, worked out over the
years. He had his own methods for conducting a
search.
Gordon slipped down on the forest side of the barricade baffle
and entered the overgrowth. He zigzagged, on the off chance he had
been watched. At a place where he could verify landmarks in three
different directions, Gordon dropped his leather shoulder bag and
cap under an autumn-bright red cedar. He took off the dark brown
letter carrier’s jacket and laid it on top, then cut brush to cover
the cache.
He would go to any lengths to avoid conflict with suspicious
locals, but only a fool would leave his weapons behind. There were
two types of fighting that could come out of a situation like this.
For one, the silence of the bow might be better. For the other, it
could be worth expending precious, irreplaceable .38 cartridges.
Gordon checked the pistol’s action and reholstered it. His bow he
carried, along with arrows and a cloth sack for
salvage.
In the first few houses, on the outskirts, the early looters
had
been more exuberant than thorough. Often the wreckage in such
places discouraged those who came after, leaving useful items
within. He had found it true often before.
Still, by the fourth house Gordon had a poor collection to
show
for this theory. His sack contained a pair of boots almost useless
from mildew, a magnifying glass, and two spools of thread. He had
poked into all the usual and some unconventional hoarder’s
crannies, and found no food of any sort.
His Pine View jerky wasn’t gone, but he had dipped down
farther
than he liked. His archery was better, and he had bagged a small
turkey two days ago. Still, if he didn’t have better luck gleaning,
he might have to give up on the Willamette Valley for now and get
to work on a winter hunting camp.
What he really wanted was another haven
such as Pine
View. But fate had been kind enough, lately. Too much good luck
made Gordon suspicious.
He moved on to a fifth house.
The four-poster bed stood in what had once been a prosperous
physician’s two-story home. Like the rest of the house, the bedroom
had been stripped of nearly everything but the furniture.
Nevertheless, as he crouched down over the heavy area rug, Gordon
thought he might have found something the earlier looters had
missed.
The rug seemed out of place. The bed rested upon it, but only
with the right pair of legs. The left pair lay directly on the
hardwood floor. Either the owner had been sloppy in placing the
big, oval carpet, or…
Gordon put down his burdens and grabbed the edge of the
rug.
Whew. It’s heavy.
He started rolling it toward the bed.
Yes! There was a thin, square crack in
the floor, under
the carpet. A bed leg pinned the rug over one of two brass door
hinges. A trapdoor.
He pushed hard on the bedpost. The leg hopped and fell again
with a boom. Twice more he shoved and loud echoes
reverberated.
On his fourth heave the bedpost snapped in two. Gordon barely
escaped impalement on the jagged stub as he toppled onto the
mattress. The canopy followed and the aged bed collapsed in a
crash. Gordon cursed, fighting with the smothering shroud. He
sneezed violently in a cloud of floating dust.
Finally, regaining a bit of sense, he managed to slither out
from under the ancient, moldy fabric. He stumbled out of the room,
still sputtering and sneezing. The attack subsided slowly. He
gripped the upstairs bannister, squinting in that torturous,
semi-orgasmic state that comes before a whopping sternutation. His
ears rang with an extra murmur that seemed almost like
voices.
Next thing you’ll be hearing churchbells,
he told
himself.
The final sneeze came at last, in a loud “Ah- chblthooh!”
Wiping
his eyes, he reentered the bedroom. The trapdoor lay fully exposed,
layered under a new coating of dust. Gordon had to pry the edge of
the secret panel. Finally, it lifted with a high, rusty
skreigh.
Again, it seemed as though some of the sound came from
outside the house. But when he stopped and
listened
carefully, Gordon heard nothing. Impatiently, he bent down and
brushed aside cobwebs to peer into the cache.
There was a large metal box inside. He poked around hoping for
more. After all, the things a prewar doctor might have kept in a
locked chest-money and documents- would be of less use to him than
canned goods stashed here in a spree of wartime hoarding. But there
was nothing other than the box. Gordon hauled it out,
puffing.
Good. It’s heavy. Now lei’s hope it’s not gold or
any
similar crap. The hinges and lock were rusted. He lifted the
haft of his knife to smash the small lock. Then he stopped
abruptly.
Now they were unmistakable. The voices were close, too
close.
“I think it came from this house!” someone called from the
overgrown garden outside. Feet shuffled through the dry leaves.
There were steps on the wooden porch,
Gordon sheathed the knife and snatched up his
gear.
Leaving the box by the bed, he hurried out of the room to the
stairwell.
This was not the best of circumstances to meet other men. In
Boise and other mountain ruins there had been almost a
code-gleaners from ranches all around could try their luck in the
open city, and although the groups and individuals were wary, they
seldom preyed on one another. Only one thing could bring them all
together-a rumor that someone had sighted a Holnist, somewhere.
Otherwise they pretty much left each other alone.
In other places, though, territoriality was the rule-and
fiercely enforced. Gordon might be searching in some such clan’s
turf. A quick departure would, in any case, be
discreet.
Still… he looked back at the strongbox
anxiously.
It‘s mine, damnit!
Boots clomped noisily downstairs. It was too late to close the
trapdoor or hide the heavy treasure chest. Gordon cursed silently
and hurried as quietly as he could across the upstairs landing to
the narrow attic ladder.
The top floor was little more than a simple, A-frame garret.
He
had searched among the useless mementos here earlier. Now all he
wanted was a hiding place. Gordon kept near the sloping walls to
avoid creaks in the floorboards. He chose a trunk near a small,
gabled window, and there laid his sack and quiver. Quickly, he
strung his bow.
Would they search? In that case, the strongbox would certainly
attract attention.
If so, would they take it as an offering and leave him a share
of whatever it contained? He had known such things to happen, in
places where a primitive sort of honor system
worked.
He had the drop on anyone entering the attic, although it was
dubious how much good that would do-cornered in a wooden building.
The locals doubtless retained, even in the middle of a dark age,
the craft of Fire making.
At least three pairs of booted feet could be heard now. In
rapid, hollow steps, they took the stairs, skirmishing up one
landing at a time. When everyone was on the second floor, Gordon
heard a shout.
“Hey Karl, looka this!”
“What? You catch a couple of the kids playing doctor in an old
bed ag… sheeit!”
There was a loud thump, followed by the hammering of metal on
metal.
“Sheeit!” Gordon shook his head. Karl had a limited but
expressive vocabulary.
There were shuffling and tearing sounds, accompanied by more
scatalogical exclamations. At last, though, a third voice spoke up
loudly.
“Sure was nice of that fellow, findin‘ this for us. Wish we
could thank him. Ought to get to know him so we don’t shoot first
if we ever see him again.”
If that was bait, Gordon wasn’t taking. He
waited.
“Well, at least he deserves a warning,” the first voice said
even louder. “We got a shoot first rule, in Oakridge. He better
scat before someone puts a hole in him bigger than the gap between
a survivalist’s ears.”
Gordon nodded, taking the warning at face value.
The footsteps receded. They echoed“ down the stairwell, then
out
onto the wooden porch.
From the gable overlooking the front entrance, Gordon saw
three
men leave the house and walk toward the surrounding hemlock grove.
They carried rifles and bulging canvas day packs. He hurried to the
other windows as they disappeared into the woods, but saw no other
motion. No signs of anyone doubling back from another
side.
There had been three pairs of feet. He was sure of it. Three
voices. And it wasn’t likely only one man would stay in ambush,
anyway. Still, Gordon was careful as he moved out. He lay down
beside the open attic trapdoor, his bow, bag, and quiver next to
him, and crawled until his head and shoulders extended out over the
opening, slightly above the level of the floor. He drew his
revolver, held it out in front of him, and then let gravity swing
his head and torso suddenly downward in a fashion an ambusher would
hardly expect.
As the blood rushed to his head Gordon was primed to snap off
six quick shots at anything that moved.
Nothing did. There was nobody in the second-floor
hallway.
He reached for his canvas bag, never taking his gaze from the
hallway, and dropped it to clatter on the landing.
The sound triggered no ambush.
Gordon took up his gear and dropped to the next level in a
crouch. He quickly moved down the hall,
skirmish-style.
The strongbox lay open and empty next to the bed, beside it a
scattering of paper trash. As he had expected, there were such
curiosities as stock certificates, a stamp collection, and the deed
to this house.
But some of the other debris was different.
A torn cardboard container, the celophane wrapper newly
removed,
colorfully depicted a pair of happy canoeists with their new,
collapsible rifle. Gordon looked at the weapon pictured on the box
and stifled a strangled cry. Doubtless there had also been boxes of
ammunition.
Goddamn thieves, he thought bitterly.
But the other trash almost drove him wild. empirin WITH
CODEINE, ERYTHROMYCIN, MEGAVITAMIN COMPLEX, morphine… the labels
and
boxes were strewn about, but the bottles had been
taken.
Carefully handled… cached and traded in dribbles…
these
could have bought Gordon admission into almost any hamlet. Why he
might even have won a probationary membership in one of the wealthy
Wyoming ranch communities!
He remembered a good doctor, whose clinic in the ruins of
Butte
was a sanctuary protected by all the surrounding villages and
clans. Gordon thought of what that sainted gentleman could have
done with these.
But his eyesight nearly went dim with dark tunnels of rage
when
he saw an empty cardboard box whose label read
… TOOTH POWDER…
My tooth powder!
Gordon counted to ten. It wasn’t enough. He tried controlled
breathing. It only helped him focus on his anger. He stood there,
slope-shouldered, feeling impotent to answer this one more
unkindness by the world.
It’s all right, he told himself. I’m
alive. And if I can get back to my backpack, I’ll probably
stay
alive. Next year, if it comes, I can worry about my teeth rotting
out of my head.
Gordon picked up his gear and resumed his stalking exit out of
that house of false expectations.
A man who spends a long time alone in the wilderness can have
one great advantage over even a very good hunter-if that hunter
nevertheless goes home to friends and companions most nights. The
difference is a trait in kinship with the animals, with the wilds
themselves. It was something as undefinable as that which made him
nervous. Gordon sensed that something was odd long before he could
attribute it. The feeling would not go away.
He had been retracing his steps toward the eastern edge of
town,
where his gear was cached. Now, though, he stopped and considered.
Was he overreacting? He was no Jeremiah Johnson, to read the sounds
and smells of the woods like streetsigns in a city. Still, he
looked around for something to back up his unease.
The forest was mostly western hemlock and bigleaf maple with
alder saplings growing like weeds in nearly every former open area.
It was a far cry from the dry woodlands he had passed through on
the east side of the Cascades, where he had been robbed under the
sparse ponderosa pines. Here there was a scent of life richer than
anything he remembered since before the Three-Year
Winter.
Animal sounds had been scant until he stopped moving. But as
he
kept still, a flow of avian chatter and movement soon began to flow
back into this patch of forest. Gray-feathered camp robbers flitted
in small groups from spot to spot, playing guerrilla war with
lesser jays for the best of the tiny, bug-rich glades. Smaller
birds hopped from branch to branch, chirping and
foraging.
Birds in this size range had no great love for man, but
neither
did they go to great lengths to avoid him, if he was
quiet.
Then why am I nervous as a cat?
There was a brief snapping sound to his left, near one of the
ubiquitous blackberry thickets, about twenty yards away. Gordon
whirled, but there, too, there were birds.
Correction. A bird. A mockingbird.
The creature swooped up through the branches and landed in a
bundle of twigs Gordon guessed to be its nest. It stood there, like
a small lordling, haughty and proud, then it squawked and dove
toward the thicket again. As it passed out of sight, there was
another tiny rustle, then the mockingbird swooped into view
again.
Gordon idly picked at the loam with his bow while loosening
the
loop on his revolver, trying hard to maintain a frozen expression
of nonchalance. He whistled through fear-dry lips as he walked
slowly, moving neither toward the thicket nor away from it, but in
the direction of a large grand fir.
Something behind that thicket had set off the mockingbird’s
nest
defense response, and that something was trying hard to ignore the
nuisance attacks-to stay silently hidden.
Alerted, Gordon recognized a hunting blind. He sauntered with
exaggerated carelessness. But as soon as he passed behind the fir,
he drew his revolver and ran into the forest at a sharp angle,
crouching, trying to keep the bulk of the tree between himself and
the blackberry bramble.
He remained in the tree’s umbra only a moment. Surprise
protected him a moment longer. Then the cracking of three loud
shots, all of different caliber, diffracted down the lattice of
trees. Gordon sprinted to a fallen log at the top of a small rise.
Three more bangs pealed out as he dove over the decaying trunk, and
hit the ground on the other side to a sharp snapping sound and
stabbing pain in his right arm.
He felt a moment’s blind panic as the hand holding his
revolver
cramped. If he had broken his arm . . .
Blood soaked the cuff of his U.S. Government Issue tunic.
Dread
exaggerated the pain until he pulled back his sleeve and saw a
long, shallow gash, with slivers of wood hanging from the
laceration. It was the bow that had broken, stabbing him as he fell
on it.
Gordon threw the fragments aside and scrambled on hands and
knees up a narrow gully to the right, keeping low to take advantage
of the creekbed and underbrush. Behind him whoops of gleeful chase
carried over the tiny hillock.
The following minutes were a blur of whipping branches and
sudden zigzags. When he splashed into a narrow rivulet, Gordon
whirled, then hurried against the flow.
Hunted men often will run downstream, he remembered, racing
upslope, hoping his enemies knew that bit of trivia. He hopped from
stone to stone, trying not to dislodge mud into the water. Then he
jumped off into the forest again.
There were shouts behind him. Gordon’s own footfalls seemed
loud
enough to wake sleeping bears. Twice, he caught his breath behind
boulders or clumps of foliage, thinking as well as practicing
silence.
Finally, the shouts diminished with distance. Gordon sighed as
he settled back against a large oak and pulled out his belt-pouch
aid kit. The wound would be all right. There was no reason to
expect infection from the polished wood of the bow. It hurt like
hell but the tear was far from vessels or tendons. He bound it in
boiled cloth and simply ignored the pain as he got up and looked
around.
To his surprise, he recognized two landmarks at once… the
towering, shattered sign of the Oakridge Motel, seen over the
treetops, and a cattle grate across a worn asphalt path just to the
east.
Gordon moved quickly to the place where he had cached his
goods.
They were exactly as he had left them. Apparently, the Fates were
not so unsubtle as to deal him another blow just yet. He knew they
didn’t operate that way. They always let you hope for a while
longer, then strung it out before they really let
you have
it.
• • •
Now the stalked turned stalker. Cautiously, Gordon sought out
the blackberry blind, with its irate resident mockingbird. As
expected, it was empty now. He crept around behind to get the
ambushers’ point of view, and sat there for a few minutes as the
afternoon waned, looking and thinking.
They had had the drop on him, that was for certain. From this
point of view it was hard to see how they had missed when the three
men fired on him.
Were they so surprised by his sudden break for it? They must
have had semi-automatic weapons, yet he only remembered six shots.
Either they were being very stingy with ammo or…
He approached the grand fir across the clearing. Two fresh
scars
blemished the bark, ten feet up.
Ten feet. They couldn’t be such bad
marksmen.
So. It all fit. They had never meant to kill him at all. They
had aimed high on purpose, to give him a scare and drive him off.
No wonder his pursuers never really came close to catching him
during his escape into the forest.
Gordon’s lip curled. Ironically, this made his assailants
easier
to hate. Unthinking malice he had come to accept, as one must
accept foul weather and savage beasts. So many former Americans had
become little better than barbarians.
But calculated contempt like this was
something he had
to take personally. These men had the concept of mercy; still they
had robbed, injured, and terrorized him.
He remembered Roger Septien, taunting him from that bone-dry
hillside. These bastards were no better at all
Gordon picked up their trail a hundred yards to the west of
the
blind. The bootprints were clear and uncovered… almost
arrogant in their openness.
He took his time, but he never even considered turning
back.
It was approaching dusk before the palisade that surrounded
New
Oakridge was in sight. An open area that had once been a city park
was enclosed by a high, wooden fence.
From within could be heard the lowing of cattle. A horse
whinnied. Gordon smelled hay and the rich odors of
livestock.
Nearby a still higher pallisade surrounded three blocks of
what
had once been the southwest corner of Oakridge town. A row of
two-story buildings half a block long took up the center of the
village. Gordon could see the tops of these over the wall, and a
water tower with a crow’s nest atop it. A silhouetted figure stood
watch, looking out over the dimming forest.
It looked like a prosperous community, perhaps the best-off he
had encountered since leaving Idaho.
Trees had been cut to make a free-fire zone around the village
wall, but that was some time ago. Undergrowth half as high as a man
had encroached on the cleared field.
Well there can’t be many survivalists in the area,
anymore, Gordon thought, or they’d be a whole lot
less
careless.
Let’s see what the main entrance is
like.
He skirted around the open area toward the south side of the
village. On hearing voices he drew up cautiously behind a curtain
of undergrowth.
A large wooden gate swung open. Two armed men sauntered out,
looked around, then waved to someone within. With a shout and a
snap of reins, a wagon pulled by two draft horses sallied through
then stopped. The driver turned to speak to the two
guards.
“Tell the Mayor I appreciate the loan, Jeff. I know my stead
is
in the hole pretty deep. But we’ll pay him back out of next year’s
harvest, for sure. He already owns a piece of the farm, so it ought
to be a good investment for him.”
One of the guards nodded. “Sure thing, Sonny. Now you be
careful
on your way out, okay? Some of the boys spotted a loner down at the
east end of old town, today. There was some
shootin‘.”
The farmer’s breath caught audibly. “Was anyone hurt? Are you
sure it was just a loner?”
“Yeah, pretty sure. He ran like a rabbit according to
Bob.”
Gordon’s pulse pounded faster. The insults had reached a point
almost beyond bearing. He put his left hand inside his shirt and
felt the whistle Abby had given him, hanging from its chain around
his neck. He took some comfort from it, remembering
decency.
“The feller did the Mayor a real favor, though,” the first
guard
went on. “Found a hidey hole full of drugs before Bob’s guys drove
him off. Mayor’s going to pass some of them around to some of the
Owners at a party tonight, to find out what they’ll do. I sure wish
I moved in those circles.”
“Me too,” the younger watchman agreed. “Hey Sonny, you think
the
Mayor might pay you some of your bonus in drugs, if you make quota
this year? You could have a real party!”
“Sonny” smiled sheepishly and shrugged. Then, for some reason,
his head drooped. The older guard looked at him
quizzically.
“What’s the matter?” he asked.
Sonny shook his head. Gordon could barely hear him when he
spoke. “We don’t wish for very much anymore, do we,
Gary?”
Gary frowned. “What do you mean?”
“I mean as long as we’re wishing to be like the Mayor’s
cronies,
why don’t we wish we had a Mayor without cronies at
all!”
“I…”
“Sally and I had three girls and two boys before th‘ Doom,
Gary.”
“I remember, Sonny, but-”
“Hal an‘ Peter died in th’ war, but I counted me an‘ Sally
blessed that all three girls grew up. Blessed!”
“Sonny, it’s not your fault. It was just bad
luck.”
“Bad luck?”The farmer snorted. “One
raped to death when
those reavers came through, Peggy dead in childbirth, and my little
Susan… she’s got gray hair, Gary. She looks
like
Sally’s sister!”
There was a long stretch of silence. The older guard put his
hand on the farmer’s arm. “I’ll bring a jug around tomorrow, Sonny,
I promise. We’ll talk about the old days, like we used
to.”
The farmer nodded without looking up. He shouted “Yaah!” and
snapped the reins.
For a long moment the guard looked after the creaking wagon,
chewing on a grass stem. Finally, he turned to his younger
companion. “Jimmy, did I ever tell you about Portland? Sonny and I
used to go there, before the war. They had this mayor, back when I
was a kid, who used to pose for…”
They passed through the gate, out of Gordon’s
hearing.
Under other circumstances Gordon might have pondered hours
over
what that one small conversation had revealed about the social
structure of Oakridgc and its environs. The farmer’s crop
indebtedness, for instance-it was a classic early stage of
share-kind serfdom. He had read about things like this in sophomore
history tutorial, long ago and in another world. They were features
of feudalism.
But right now Gordon had no time for philosophy or sociology.
His emotions churned. Outrage over what had happened today was
nothing next to his anger over the proposed use of the drugs he had
found. When he thought of what that doctor in Wyoming could do with
such medicines… why most of the substances wouldn’t even make
these ignorant savages high!
Gordon was fed up. His bandaged right arm
throbbed.
I’ll bet I could scale those walls without’much
trouble,
find the storage hut, and reclaim what I found… along with
some extra to make up for the insults, the pain, my broken
bow.
The image wasn’t satisfying enough. Gordon embellished. He
envisioned dropping in on the Mayor’s “party,” and wasting
all the power-hungry bastards who were making a midget empire out
of this corner of the dark age. He imagined acquiring power, power
to do good… power to force these yokels to
use the
education of their younger days before the learned generation
disappeared forever from the world.
Why, why is nobody anywhere
taking responsibility
for putting things right again? I’d help. I’d dedicate my life to
such a leader.
But the big dreams all seem to be gone. All the good
men-like Lieutenant Van and Drew Simms-died
defending them. I must be the only one left who still believes in
them.
Leaving was out of the question, of course. A combination of
pride, obstinacy, and simple gonadal fury rooted him in his tracks.
Here he would do battle, and that was that.
Maybe there’s an idealists’ militia, in Heaven or in
Hell. I
guess I’ll find out soon.
Fortunately, the war hormones left a little space for his
forebrain to choose tactics. As the afternoon
faded, he
thought about what he was going to do.
Gordon stepped back into the shadows and a branch brushed by,
dislodging his cap. He caught it before it fell to the ground, was
about to put it back on, but then stopped abruptly and looked at
it.
The burnished image of a horseman glinted back at him, a brass
figure backed by a ribbon motto in Latin. Gordon watched shifting
highlights in the shiny emblem, and slowly, he
smiled.
It would be audacious-perhaps much more so than attempting the
fence in the darkness. But the idea had a pleasing symmetry that
appealed to Gordon. He was probably the last man alive who would
choose a path of greater danger purely for aesthetic reasons, and
he was glad. If the scheme failed, it would still be
spectacular.
It required a brief foray into the ruins of old
Oakridge-beyond
the postwar village-to a structure certain to be among the least
looted in town. He set the cap back on his head as he moved to take
advantage of the remaining light.
An hour later, Gordon left the gutted buildings of the old
town
and stepped briskly along the pitted asphalt road, retracing his
steps in the gathering dusk. Taking a long detour through the
forest, he came at last to the road “Sonny” had used, south of the
village wall. Now he approached boldly, guided by a solitary
lantern hanging over the broad gate.
The guard was criminally lax. Gordon came within thirty feet
unchallenged. He saw a shadowy sentry, standing on a parapet over
near the far end of the palisade, but the idiot was looking the
other way.
Gordon took a deep breath, put Abby’s whistle to his lips, and
blew three hard blasts. The shrill screams pealed through the
buildings and forest like the shriek of a stooping raptor. Hurried
footsteps pounded along the parapet. Three men carrying shotguns
and oil lanterns appeared above the gate and stared down at him in
the gathering twilight.
“Who are you? What do you want?”
“I must speak with someone in authority,” Gordon hailed, “This
is official business, and I demand entry to the town of
Oakridge!”
That certainly put them off their
routine. There was a
long, stunned silence as the guards blinked, first at him and then
at each other. Finally, one man hurried off while the first speaker
cleared his throat. “Uh, come again? Are you feverish? Have you got
the Sickness?”
Gordon shook his head. “I am not ill. I am tired and hungry.
And
angry over being shot at. But settling all that can wait until I
have discharged my duty here.”
This time the chief guard’s voice cracked in blank perplexity.
“Dis-discharged your… What the hell are you
talking
about, man?”
Hurried footsteps echoed on the parapet. Several more men
arrived, followed by a number of children and women who began to
string out to the left and right. Discipline, apparently, wasn’t
well practiced in Oakridge. The local tyrant and his cronies had
had things their way for a long time.
Gordon repeated himself. Slowly and firmly, giving it his best
Polonius voice.
“I demand to speak with your superiors. You are trying my
patience keeping me out here, and it will definitely go into my
report. Now get somebody here with authority to open this
gate!”
The crowd thickened until an unbroken forest of silhouettes
topped the palisade. They stared down at Gordon as a group of
figures appeared on the parapet to the right, carrying lanterns.
The onlookers on that side made way for the
newcomers.
“Look, loner,” the chief guard said, “you’re just asking for a
bullet. We got no ‘official business’ with anyone
outside
this valley, haven’t since we broke relations with that commie
place down at Blakeville, years ago. You can bet your ass I’m not
bothering the Mayor for some crazy…”
The man turned in surprise as the party of dignitaries reached
the gate. “Mr. Mayor… I’m sorry about the ruckus, but…”
“I was nearby anyway. Heard the commotion. What’s going on
here?”
The guard gestured. “We got a fellow out there babbling like
nothing I’ve heard since the crazy times. He must be sick, or one
of those loonies that always used to come through.”
“I’ll take care of this.”
In the growing darkness the new figure leaned over the
parapet.
“I’m the Mayor of Oakridge,” he announced. “We don’t believe in
charity, here. But if you’re that fellow who found the goodies this
afternoon, and graciously donated them to my boys, I’ll admit we
owe you. I’ll have a nice hot meal lowered over the gate. And a
blanket. You can sleep there by the road. Tomorrow, though, you
gotta be gone. We don’t want no diseases here. And from what my
guards tell me, you must be delirious.”
Gordon smiled. “Your generosity impresses me, Mr. Mayor. But I
have come too far on official business to turn away now. First off,
can you tell me if Oakridge has a working wireless or fiber optic
facility?”
The silence brought on by his non sequitur was long and heavy.
Gordon could imagine the Mayor’s puzzlement. At last, the bossman
answered.
“We haven’t had a radio in ten years. Nothing’s worked since
then. Why? What has that to do with anythi-”
“That’s a shame. The airwaves have been a shambles since the
war, of course…” he improvised, “… all the radioactivity,
you know. But I’d hoped I could try to use your transmitter to
report back to my superiors.”
He delivered the lines with aplomb. This time they brought not
silence but a surge of amazed whispers up and down the parapet.
Gordon guessed that most of the population of Oakridge must be up
there by now. He hoped the wall was well built. It was not in his
plan to enter the town like Joshua.
He had quite another legend in mind.
“Get a lantern over here!” the Mayor commanded. “Not that one,
you idiot! The one with the reflector! Yes. Now shine it on that
man. I want a look at him!”
A bulky lamp was brought forth and there was a rattle as light
speared out at Gordon. He was expecting it though and neither
covered his eyes nor squinted. He shifted the leather bag and
turned to bring his costume to the best angle. The letter carrier’s
cap, with its polished crest, sat at a rakish angle on his
head.
The muttering of the crowd grew louder.
“Mr. Mayor,” he called. “My patience is limited. I already
will
have to have words with you about the behavior of your boys this
afternoon. Don’t force me to exercise my authority in ways both of
us would find unpleasant. You’re on the verge of losing your
privilege of communication with the rest of the
nation.”
The Mayor shifted his weight back and forth rapidly.
“Communication? Nation? What is this blither? There’s just the
Blakcville commune, those self-righteous twits down at Gulp Creek,
and Satan knows what savages beyond them. Who the hell are
you anyway?”
Gordon touched his cap. “Gordon Krantz, of the United States
Postal Service. I’m the courier assigned to reestablish a mail
route in Idaho and lower Oregon, and general federal inspector for
the region.”
And to imagine he had been embarrassed playing Santa Claus
back
in Pine View! Gordon hadn’t thought of the last part about being a
“federal inspector” until it was out of his mouth. Was it
inspiration, or a dare?
Well, might as well be hanged for a sheep as a goat,
he
thought.
The crowd was in tumult. Several times, Gordon heard the words
“outside” and “inspector”-and especially “mailman.” When the Mayor
shouted for silence, it came slowly, trailing off into a rapt
hush.
“So you’re a mailman.” The sneer was sarcastic. “What kind of
idiots do you take us for, Krantz? A shiny suit makes you a
government official? What government? What proof can you give us?
Show us you’re not a wild lunatic, raving with radiation
fever!”
Gordon pulled out the papers he had prepared only an hour
before, using the seal stamp he had found in the ruins of the
Oakridge Post Office.
“I have credentials, here…” But he was interrupted at
once.
“Keep your papers to yourself, loonie. We’re not letting you
come close enough to infect us with your fever!”
The Mayor straightened and waved an arm in the air, addressing
his subjects. “You all remember how crazies and imposters used to
come around, during the Chaos years, claiming to be everything from
the Antichrist to Porky Pig? Well, there’s one fact we can all
depend on. Crazies come and crazies go, but there’s only one
”government“… that’s what we got right here!”
He turned back to Gordon. “You’re lucky this isn’t like the
plague years, loonie. Back then a case like yours would’ve called
for immediate cure… by cremation!”
Gordon cursed silently. The local tyrant was slick and
certainly
no easy bluff. If they wouldn’t even look at the “credentials” he
had forged, the trip into oldtown this afternoon had been wasted.
Gordon was down to his last ace. He smiled for the crowd, but he
really wanted to cross his fingers.
From a side pocket of the leather bag he pulled out a small
bundle. Gordon made a pretense of shuffling through the packet,
squinting at labels he knew by heart.
“Is there a… a Donald Smith, here?” he called up at the
townspeople.
Heads turned left and right in sudden, hushed conversation.
Their confusion was obvious even in the gathering darkness. Finally
someone called out.
“He died a year after the war! In the last battle of the
warehouses.”
There was a tremor in the speaker’s voice. Good. Surprise was
not the only emotion at work here. Still, he needed something a lot
better than that. The Mayor was still staring at him, as perplexed
as the others, but when he figured out what Gordon was trying to
do, there would be trouble.
“Oh well,” Gordon called. “I’ll have to confirm that, of
course,” Before anyone could speak, he hurried on, shuffling the
packet in his hand.
“Is there a Mr. or Mrs. Franklin Thompson, in town? Or their
son
or daughter?”
Now the tide of hushed whispering carried almost a
superstitious
tone. A woman replied. “Dead! The boy lived until last year. Worked
on the Jascowisc stead. His folks were in Portland when it
blew.”
Damn! Gordon had only one name left. It
was all very
well to strike their hearts with his knowledge, but what he needed
was somebody alive!
“Right!” he called. “We’ll confirm that. Finally, is there a
Grace Horton here? A Miss Grace Horton . ,
.”
“No there ain’t no Grace Horton!” the Mayor shouted,
confidence
and sarcasm back in his voice. “I know everyone in my territory.
Never been no Grace Horton in the ten years since I arrived, you
imposter!
“Can’t you all see what he did? He found an old telephone book
in town, and copied down some names to stir us up with.” He shook a
fist at Gordon. “Buddy, I rule that you are disturbing the peace
and endangering the public health! You’ve got five seconds to be
gone before I order my men to fire!”
Gordon exhaled heavily. Now he had no choice. At least he
could
beat a retreat and lose nothing more than a little
pride.
It was a good try, but you knew the chances of it
working
were slim. At least you had the bastard going there, for a little
while.
It was time to go, but to his surprise Gordon found his body
would not turn. His feet refused to move. All will to run away had
evaporated. The sensible part of him was horrified as he squared
his shoulders and called the Mayor’s bluff.
“Assault on a postal courier is one of the few federal crimes
that the pro tem Congress hasn’t suspended for the recovery period,
Mr. Mayor. The United States has always protected its
mailmen.”
He looked coldly into the glare of the lamp. “Always,”
he emphasized. And for a moment he felt a thrill. He was
a
courier, at least in spirit. He was an anachronism that the dark
age had somehow missed when it systematically went about rubbing
idealism from the world. Gordon looked straight toward the dark
silhouette of the Mayor, and silently dared him to kill what was
left of their shared sovereignty.
For several seconds the silence gathered. Then the Mayor held
up
his hand. “One!”
He counted slowly, perhaps to give Gordon time to run, and
maybe
for sadistic effect.
“Two!”
The game was lost. Gordon knew he should leave now, at once.
Still, his body would not turn.
“Three!”
This is the way the last idealist dies,
he thought.
These sixteen years of survival had been an accident, an oversight
of Nature, about to be corrected. In the end, all of his hard-won
pragmatism had finally given way… to a gesture.
There was movement on the parapet. Someone at the far left was
struggling forward.
The guards raised their shotguns. Gordon thought he saw a few
of
them move hesitantly-reluctantly. Not that that would do him any
good.
The Mayor stretched out the last count, perhaps a bit unnerved
by Gordon’s stubbornness. The raised fist began to chop
down.
“Mr. Mayor!” a woman’s tremulous voice cut in, her words
high-pitched with fear as she reached up to grab the bossman’s
hand. “P-please… I…”
The Mayor shrugged her hands away. “Get away, woman. Get her
out
of here.”
The frail shape backed away from the guards, but she cried out
clearly. “I… I’m Grace Horton!”
“What?” The Mayor was not alone in turning to stare at
her.
“It’s my m-maiden name. I was married the year after the
second
famine. That was before you and your men arrived…”
The crowd reacted noisily. The Mayor cried out, “Fools! He
copied her name from a telephone book, I tell you!”
Gordon smiled. He held up the bundle in his hand and touched
his
cap with the other.
“Good evening, Mizz Horton. It’s a lovely night, yes? By the
way, I happen to have a letter here for you, from a
Mr. Jim Horton, of Pine View, Oregon… He gave it to
me
twelve days ago…“
The people on the parapet all seemed to be talking at once.
There were sudden motions and excited shouts. Gordon cupped his ear
to listen to the woman’s amazed exclamation, and had to raise his
voice to be heard.
“Yes, ma’am. He seemed to be quite well. I’m afraid that’s all
I
have on this trip. But I’ll be glad to carry your reply to your
brother on my way back, after I finish my circuit down in the
valley.”
He stepped forward, closer to the light. “One thing though,
ma’am. Mr. Horton didn’t have enough postage, back in Pine View, so
I’m going to have to ask you for ten dollars…
C.O.D.”
The crowd roared.
Next to the glaring lantern the figure of the Mayor turned
left
and right, waving his arms and shouting. But nothing he said was
heard as the gate swung open and people poured out into the night.
They surrounded Gordon, a tight press of hot-faced, excited men,
women, children. Some limped. Others bore livid scars or rasped in
tuberculin heaviness. And yet at that moment the pain of living
seemed as nothing next to a glow of sudden faith.
In the middle of it all Gordon maintained his composure and
walked slowly toward the portal. He smiled and nodded, especially
to those who reached out and touched his elbow, or the wide curve
of his bulging leather bag. The youngsters looked at him in
superstitious awe. On many older faces, tears
streamed.
Gordon was in the middle of a trembling adrenaline reaction,
but
he squelched hard on the little glimmering of conscience… a
touch of shame at this lie.
The hell with it. It’s not my fault
they want to
believe in the Tooth Fairy. I’ve finally grown up. I only want what
belongs to me!
Simpletons.
Nevertheless, he smiled all around as the hands reached out,
and
the love surged forth. It flowed about him like a rushing stream
and carried him in a wave of desperate, unwonted hope, into the
town of Oakridge.
INTERLUDE
In spring orange blazes,
Dust of ancestors glowers-
Cooling Earth with hazes
II
CYCLOPS
NATIONAL RECOVERY ACT
PROVISIONALLY EXTENDED CONGRESS OF
THE RESTORED UNITED STATES
DECLARATION
to all citizens: Let it be known by all now living within the
legal boundaries of the United States of America that the people
and fundamental institutions of the nation survive. Your enemies
have failed in their aggression against humanity, and have been
destroyed. A provisional government, acting in continuous
succession from the last freely elected Congress and Executive of
the United States, is vigorously moving to restore law, public
safety, and liberty once more to this beloved land, under the
Constitution and the righteous mercy of the
Almighty.
to these ends: Let it be known that all lesser laws and
statutes
of the United States are suspended, including all debts, liens, and
judgments made before the outbreak of the Third World War. Until
new codes are adopted by due process, local districts are free to
meet emergency conditions as suitable, providing-
1. The freedoms guaranteed under the Bill of Rights shall not
be
withheld from any man or woman within the territory of the United
States. Trials for all serious crimes shall be by an impartial jury
of one’s peers. Except in cases of dire martial emergency, summary
judgments and executions violating due process are absolutely
forbidden.
2. Slavery is forbidden. Debt bondage shall not be for life,
nor may it be passed from parent to child.
3. Districts, towns, and other entities shall hold proper
secret ballot elections on every even-numbered year, in which all
men and women over 18 years of age may participate. No person may
use official coercion on any other person unless he or she has been
so elected, or is directly answerable to a person so
elected.
4. In order to assist the national recovery, citizens shall
safeguard the physical and intellectual resources of the United
States. Wherever and whenever possible, books and prewar machinery
shall be salvaged and stored for the benefit of future generations.
Local districts shall maintain schools to teach the
young.
The Provisional Government hopes to reestablish nationwide
radio
service by the year 2021. Until that time, all communications must
be carried via surface mail. Postal service should be reestablished
in the Central and Eastern States by the year 2011, and in the West
by 2018.
5. Cooperation with United States Mail Carriers is a
requirement of all citizens. Interference with a letter carrier’s
function is a capital crime.
By order of the Provisional Congress
Restored United States of America
May 2009
1
CURTIN
The black bull terrier snarled and foamed. It yanked and
strained at its chain, whipping froth at the excited, shouting men
leaning over the low wooden walls of the arena. A scarred, one-eyed
mongrel growled back at the pit bull from across the ring. Its rope
tether hummed like a bowstring, threatening to tear out the ring
bolt in the wall.
The dog pit stank. The sick-sweet smoke of locally grown
tobacco-liberally cut with marijuana-rose in thick, roiling plumes.
Farmers and townspeople yelled deafeningly from rows of benches
overlooking the crude arena. Those nearest the ring pounded on the
wooden slats, encouraging the dogs’ hysterical
frenzy.
Leather-gloved handlers pulled their canine gladiators back
far
enough to grip their collars, then turned to face the VIP bench,
overlooking the center of the pit.
A burly, bearded dignitary, better dressed than most, puffed
on
his homemade cigar. He glanced quickly at the slender man who sat
impassively to his right, whose eyes were shaded by a visored cap.
The stranger sat quite still, in no way showing his
feelings.
The heavyset official turned back to the handlers, and
nodded.
A hundred men shouted at once as the dogs were loosed. The
snarling animals shot at one another like quarrels, their argument
uncomplicated. Fur and blood flew as the crowd
cheered.
On the dignitaries’ bench, the elders yelled no less fiercely
than the villagers. Like them, most had bets riding on the outcome.
But the big man with the cigar-the Chairman of Public Safety for
the town of Curtin, Oregon- puffed furiously without enjoyment, his
thoughts cloudy and thick. Once more he glanced at the stranger
sitting to his right.
The thin fellow was unlike anyone else in the arena. His beard
was neatly trimmed, his black hair cut and combed to barely pass
over the ears. The hooded blue eyes seemed to pierce and inspect
critically, like in the images of Old Testament prophets the
Chairman had seen in Sunday School as a boy, long before the
Doomwar.
He had the weathered look of a traveler. And he wore a
uniform… one no living citizen of Curtin had
ever
expected to see again.
On the peak of the stranger’s cap, the burnished image of a
horseman gleamed in the light of the oil lanterns. Somehow it
seemed shinier than any metal had a right to be.
The Chairman looked at his shouting townspeople, and sensed a
difference about them tonight. The men of Curtin were yelling with
more than their usual gusto at the Wednesday Night Fights. They,
too, were aware of the visitor, who had ridden up to the city gates
five days ago, erect and proud like some god, demanding food and
shelter and a place to post his notices…
… and who then began distributing mail.
The Chairman had money riding on one of the dogs- old Jim
Schmidt’s Walleye. But his mind wasn’t on the bloody contest on the
sand below. He could not help glancing repeatedly at the
Postman.
They had staged a special fight just for him, since he was
leaving Curtin tomorrow for Cottage Grove. He isn’t enjoying
himself, the Chairman realized unhappily. The man who had
turned their lives upside down was apparently trying to be polite.
But just as obviously, he did not approve of
dogfights.
The Chairman leaned over to speak to his guest. “I suppose
they
don’t do this sort of thing back East, do they, Mr.
Inspector?”
The cool look on the man’s face was his answer. The Chairman
cursed himself for a fool. Of course they wouldn’t have
dogfights-not in St. Paul City, or Topeka, or Odessa, or any of the
civilized regions of the Restored United States. But here,
here in ruined Oregon, so long cut off from civilization…
“Local communities are free to handle their affairs as they
see
fit, Mr. Chairman,” the man replied. His compelling voice carried
softly over the shouting in the arena. “Customs adapt to the times.
The government in St. Paul City knows this. I’ve seen far worse in
my travels.”
Absolved, he could read in the postal
inspector’s eyes.
The Chairman slumped slightly and looked away again.
He blinked, and at first he thought it was the smoke
irritating
his eyes. He dropped the cigar and ground it out under his foot,
but the stinging would not depart. The bull pit was out of focus,
as if he were seeing it in a dream… as if for the very first
time.
My God, the Chairman thought. Are we really doing this? Only
seventeen years ago I was a member of the Willamette Valley
ASPCA!
What’s happened to us?
What’s happened to me?
Coughing behind his hand, he hid the wiping of his eyes. Then
he
looked around and saw that he was not alone. Here and there in the
crowd at least a dozen men had stopped shouting, and were instead
looking down at their hands. A few were crying openly, tears
streaming down tough faces, hardened from the long battle to
survive.
Suddenly, for a few of those present, the years since the war
seemed compressed-insufficient excuse.
The cheering was ragged at the end of the fight. Handlers
leapt
into the pit to tend the victor and clear away the offal. But half
the audience seemed to be glancing nervously at their leader and
the stern, uniformed figure next to him.
The slender man straightened his cap. “Thank you, Mr.
Chairman.
But I think I’d better retire now. I have a long journey tomorrow.
Good night, all.”
He nodded to the elders, then rose and slipped on a worn
leather
jacket with a multicolored shoulder patch-a red, white, and blue
emblem. As he moved slowly toward the exit, townsmen stood up
silently and made way for him, their eyes downcast.
The Chairman of Curtin hesitated, then got up and followed, a
murmur of voices growing behind him.
The second event was never held that evening.
2
COTTAGE GROVE
Cottage Grove, Oregon April 16,2011
To Mrs. Adele Thompson Mayor of Pine View
Village
Unreclaimed State of Oregon
Transmittal route: Cottage Grove, Curtin,
Gulp Creek,
McFarland Ft, Oakridge, Pine View.
Dear Mrs. Thompson,
This is the second letter I’ve sent back along our new postal
route through the Willamette Forest region. If you received the
first, you’ll already know that your neighbors in Oakridge have
chosen to cooperate-after a few initial misunderstandings. I
appointed Mr. Sonny Davis postmaster there, a prewar resident of
the area liked by all. By now he should have reestablished contact
with you in Pine View.
Gordon Krantz lifted his pencil from the sheaf of yellowed
paper
the citizens of Cottage Grove had donated for his use. A brace of
copper oil lamps and two candles flickered over the antique desk,
casting bright reflections off glass-framed pictures on the bedroom
wall.
The locals had insisted Gordon take the best quarters in town.
The room was snug, clean, and warm.
It was a big change from the way things had been for Gordon
only
a few months before. In the letter, for instance, he said little
about the difficulties he had faced last October in the town of
Oakridge.
The citizens of that mountain town had opened their hearts to
him from the first moment he revealed himself as a representative
of the Restored United States.
But the tyrannical
“Mayor” almost had his unwelcome guest murdered before Gordon
managed to make it clear he was only interested in setting up a
post office and moving on-that he was no threat to the Mayor’s
power.
Perhaps the bossman feared his people’s reaction if he didn’t
help Gordon. In the end, Gordon received the supplies he asked for,
and even a valuable, if somewhat elderly, horse. On leaving
Oakridge, Gordon had seen relief on the Mayor’s face. The local
chief seemed confident he could keep control in spite of the
stunning news that a United States still existed out there,
somewhere.
And yet townspeople followed Gordon for over a mile, appearing
from behind trees to shyly press letters into his hands, eagerly
talking about the reclamation of Oregon and asking what they could
do to help. They complained openly of the petty local tyranny, and
by the time he had left that last crowd on the road, it was clear
that a change was blow-ing in the wind.
Gordon figured the Mayor’s days were numbered.
Since my last letter from Culp Creek, I’ve established post
offices in Palmerville and Curtin. Today I completed negotiations
with the mayor of Cottage Grove. Included in this packet is a
report on my progress so far, to be passed on to my superiors in
the Reclaimed State of Wyoming. When the courier following my trail
arrives in Pine View, please give him my records and my best
wishes.
And be patient if it takes a while. The trail west from St.
Paul
City is dangerous, and it may be more than a year before the next
man arrives.
Gordon could well imagine Mrs. Thompson’s reaction, on reading
that paragraph. The scrappy old matriarch would shake her head, and
maybe even laugh out loud at the sheer blarney that filled every
sentence.
Better than anybody else in the wild territory that had once
been the great state of Oregon, Adele Thompson knew there would be
no couriers from the civilized East. There was no headquarters for
Gordon to report back to. The only thing the city of St. Paul was
capital of was a still slightly radioactive bend in the Mississippi
River.
There had never been a Reclaimed State of Wyoming, or a
Restored
United States for that matter, except in the imagination of an
itinerant, dark-age con artist doing his best to survive in a
deadly and suspicious world.
Mrs. Thompson was one of the rare folks Gordon had met since
the
War who still saw with her eyes, and thought with a logical mind.
The illusion Gordon had created-at first by accident, and later in
desperation-had meant nothing to her. She had liked Gordon for
himself, and shown him charity without having to be coaxed by a
myth.
He was writing the letter in this convoluted way-filled with
references to things that never were-for eyes other than hers. The
mail would change hands many times along the route he had set up,
before finally reaching Pine View. But Mrs. Thompson would read
between the lines.
And she wouldn’t tell on him. Gordon was sure of
that.
He only hoped she could contain her laughter.
This part of the Coast Fork is pretty peaceful these days. The
communities have even started trading with each other in a modest
fashion, overcoming the old fear of war plagues and survivalists.
They’re eager for news of the outside world.
That’s not to say all is placid. They tell me the Rogue River
country south of Roseburg is still totally lawless-Nathan Holn
country. So I’m headed northward, toward Eugene. It’s the direction
most of the letters I’m carrying are addressed,
anyway.
Deep in his saddlebag, under the bundled letters he had
accepted
from excited, grateful people all along his way, was the one Abby
had given him. Gordon would try to see it delivered, whatever
eventually happened to all the others.
Now I must go. Perhaps someday soon a letter from you and my
other dear friends will catch up with me. Until then, please give
my love to Abby and Michael and all.
At least as much as anywhere, the Restored United States of
America is alive and well in beautiful Pine View.
Yours sincerely, Gordon K.
That last remark might be a little dangerous, but Gordon had
to
include it, if only to show Mrs. Thompson he wasn’t completely
caught up by his own hoax-the scam that he hoped would get him
safely across the almost lawless countryside to…
To what? After all these years Gordon still wasn’t sure what
it
was he was looking for.
Perhaps only someone, somewhere, who was taking
responsibility-who was trying to do something about the dark age.
He shook his head. After all these years, the dream would not quite
die.
He folded the letter into an old envelope, dribbled wax from a
candle, and pressed it with a seal salvaged from the Oakridge Post
Office. The letter went atop the “progress report” he had labored
over earlier, a tissue of fantasy addressed to officials of a
make-believe government.
Next to the packet lay his postman’s cap. The lamplight
flickered in the brass image of a Pony Express rider, Gordon’s
silent companion and mentor for months now.
Gordon had stumbled onto his new survival plan by quirk and
coincidence. But now, in town after town, people fell over
themselves to believe, especially when he actually delivered
letters from places he had already visited. After all these years,
it seemed people still longed forlornly for a lost, shiny age-an
era of cleanliness and order and a great nation now lost. The
longing overwhelmed their hard-won skepticism like a spring thaw
cracking the icy crust over a stream.
Gordon quashed a threatening sense of shame. No one alive was
guiltless after the last seventeen years, and his scam actually
seemed to do a little good in the towns he passed through. In
exchange for supplies and a place to rest, he sold
hope.
One did what one had to do.
There were two sharp raps on the door. Gordon called,
“Come!”
Johnny Stevens, the newly appointed Assistant Postmaster of
Cottage Grove, poked his head in. Johnny’s boyish face bore a
barely sprouted fuzz of almost blond beard. But his lanky legs
promised a great cross-country stride, and he was reputed to be a
dead shot.
Who could tell? The lad might even deliver the
mail.
“Uh, sir?” Johnny was obviously reluctant to interrupt
important
business. “It’s eight o’clock. You’ll remember that the Mayor
wanted to have a beer with you in the pub, since it’s your last
night here in town.”
Gordon stood up. “Right, Johnny. Thanks.” He grabbed his cap
and
jacket, then scooped up the phony report and the letter to Mrs.
Thompson.
“Here you are then. These are official packets for your first
run over to Culp Creek. Ruth Marshall is postmistress there. She’ll
be expecting somebody. Her folk will treat you
well.”
Johnny took the envelopes as if they were made of butterfly’s
wings. “I’ll protect them with my life, sir.” The youth’s eyes
shone with pride, and a fierce determination not to let Gordon
down.
“You’ll do no such thing!” Gordon snapped. The last thing he
wanted was for a sixteen-year-old to get hurt protecting a chimera,
“You’ll use common sense, like I told you.”
Johnny swallowed and nodded, but Gordon wasn’t at all sure he
understood. Of course the boy would probably just have an exciting
adventure, following the forest paths farther than anyone from his
village had traveled in over a decade, coming back a hero with
tales to tell. There were still a few loner survivalists in those
hills. But this far north of the Rogue River country the odds were
Johnny’d make it to Culp Creek and back just fine.
Gordon almost had himself convinced.
He exhaled and gripped the young man’s shoulder. “Your country
doesn’t need you to die for her, Johnny, but to live and serve her
another day. Can you remember that?”
“Yessir.” The lad nodded seriously. “I
understand.”
Gordon turned to blow out the candles.
Johnny must have been rummaging in the ruins of Cottage
Grove’s
old post office, for out in the hall Gordon noticed the boy’s
homespun shirt now bore a proud us. mail patch on the shoulder, the
colors still bright after almost twenty years.
“I’ve already got ten letters from people here in Cottage
Grove
and nearby farms,” Johnny said. “I don’t think most of them even
know anybody back east. But they’re writing anyway for the
excitement of it, and in hopes somebody will write
back.”
So at least Gordon’s visit had gotten people to practice their
literacy skills a little. That was worth a few nights’ food and
lodging. “You warned them that east of Pine View the route is slow
yet, and not guaranteed at all?”
“Sure. They don’t care.”
Gordon smiled. “That’s okay then. The Postal Service has
always
carried mostly fantasies, anyway.”
The boy looked at him, puzzled. But Gordon set his cap on his
head and said nothing more.
• •
•
Since departing the shards of Minnesota, so long ago, Gordon
had
seen few villages as prosperous and apparently happy as Cottage
Grove. The farms now brought in a surplus most years. The militia
was well drilled and-unlike at Oakridge-unoppressive. As hope of
finding true civilization faded, Gordon had slowly reduced the
scope of his dreams until a place like this seemed almost like
Paradise.
It was ironic, then, that the very hoax that had taken him
safely this far through the suspicious mountain hamlets now kept
him from remaining here. For in order to maintain his illusion, he
had to keep moving.
They all believed in him. If his illusion failed now, even the
good people of this town would certainly turn on
him.
The walled village covered one comer of prewar Cottage Grove.
Its pub was a large, snug basement with two big fireplaces and a
bar where the bitter local homebrew was served in tall clay
steins.
Mayor Peter Von Kleek sat in a corner booth talking earnestly
with Eric Stevens, Johnny’s grandfather and newly appointed
Postmaster of Cottage Grove. The two men were poring over a copy of
Gordon’s “Federal Regulations” as he and Johnny stepped into the
pub.
Back in Oakridge, Gordon had run off a few score copies on a
hand-cranked mimeograph machine he had managed to get working in
the old, deserted post office. A lot of thought and care had gone
into those circulars. They had to have the flavor of authenticity,
and at the same time present no obvious threat to local
strongmen-giving them no reason to fear Gordon’s mythical Restored
United States… or Gordon himself.
So far those sheets had been his most inspired
prop.
Tall, gaunt-faced Peter Von Kleek stood and shook Gordon’s
hand,
motioning him to a seat. The bartender hurried over with two tall
steins of thick brown beer. It was warm, of course, but
delicious-like pumpernickel bread. The Mayor waited, puffing
nervously on his clay pipe, until Gordon put his stein down with a
lip-smacking sigh.
Von Kleek nodded at the implied compliment. But his frown
remained fixed. He tapped the paper in front of him. “These
regulations here aren’t very detailed, Mr.
Inspector.”
“Call me Gordon, please. These are informal
times.”
“Ah, yes. Gordon. Please call me Peter.” The Mayor was clearly
uncomfortable,
“Well, Peter,” Gordon nodded. “The Restored U.S. Government
has
learned some hard lessons. One has been not to impose rigid
standards on far-flung localities who have problems St. Paul City
can’t even imagine, let alone regulate.”
Gordon launched into one of his prepared pitches.
“There’s the question of money, for instance. Most communities
dropped prewar currency soon after the food center riots. Barter
systems are the rule, and they usually work just fine, except when
debt service turns into a form of slavery.”
That much was all true. In his travels Gordon had seen
versions
of feudal serfdom rising all over. Money was a joke.
“The federal authorities in St. Paul have declared the old
currency moot. There are just too many bills and coins out there
for sparse rural economies.
“Still, we’re trying to encourage national commerce. One way
is
by accepting old-time two-dollar bills to pay postage for letters
carried by U.S. Mail. They never were very common, and are
impossible to forge with present-day technology. Pre-1965 silver
coins are also acceptable.”
“We’ve already taken in over forty dollars’ worth!” Johnny
Stevens interjected. “Folks are hunting ail over for those old
bills and coins. And they’ve started usin‘ them to pay off barter
debts too.”
Gordon shrugged. It had started already. Sometimes the little
things he added to his tale, simply in order to lend
verisimilitude, took off by themselves in ways he had never
expected. He couldn’t see how a little money put back into
circulation, given value by a local myth in the “Restored U.S.,”
could hurt these people much.
Von Kleek nodded. He moved on to the next item.
“This part here about no ‘coercion’ without elections-” He
tapped the paper. “Well, we do have sort of regular town meetings,
and people from the surrounding hamlets take part when something
big is up. But I can’t rightly say I or my militia chief were ever
really voted for… not in a real secret ballot,
like it
says here.”
He shook his head. “And we’ve had to do some pretty drastic
things, especially during the early days. I hope we’re not going to
have that held too hard against us Mr. Inspe- Gordon. We really
have been doin‘ our best.
“We have a school, for instance. Most of the younger kids
attend
after harvest. And we can make a start salvaging machines and
voting like it says here-” Von Kleek wanted reassurance; he was
trying to catch Gordon’s eye. But Gordon lifted his beer mug in
order not to meet his gaze.
One of the major ironies he had found in his travels had been
this phenomenon-that those who had fallen the least far into
savagery were those who seemed the most ashamed of having fallen at
all.
He coughed, clearing his throat.
“It seems… it seems to me you’ve been doing a pretty good
job here, Peter. The past doesn’t matter as much as the future,
anyway. I don’t think you have to worry about the federal
government interfering at all.”
Von Kleek looked relieved. Gordon was sure there would be a
secret ballot election here within weeks. And the people of this
area would deserve what they got if they elected anyone as their
leader but this gruff, sensible man.
“One thing bothers me.”
It was Eric Stevens who spoke. The spry oldster had been
Gordon’s obvious choice as postmaster. For one thing, he ran the
local trading post, and was the best-educated man in town, with a
prewar college degree.
Another reason was that Stevens had appeared the most
suspicious
when Gordon rode into town several days before, proclaiming a new
era for Oregon under the “Restored U.S.” Appointing him postmaster
seemed to persuade him to believe, if only for his own prestige and
profit.
Only incidentally, he would also probably do a good job-as
long
as the myth lasted, at least.
Old Stevens turned his beer stein on the table, leaving a
broad
oval ring. “What I can’t figure out is why nobody’s been out here
from St. Paul City before.
“Sure, I know you had to cross a helluva lot of wild country
to
get here, almost all of it on foot, you say. But what I want to
know is why didn’t they just send somebody out in an
airplane?”
There was a brief silence at the table. Gordon could tell that
townsmen nearby were listening in, as well.
“Aw gramps!” Johnny Stevens shook his head in embarrassment
for
his grandfather. “Don’t you realize how bad the war was? All the
airplanes and complicated machines were wrecked by that
pulse thing that blasted all the radios and such
right at
the beginning of the war! Then, later on, there wouldn’t have been
anybody around who knew how to fix ‘em. And there’d be no spare
parts!”
Gordon blinked in brief surprise. The kid was good! He had
been
born after the fall of industrial civilization, yet he had a grasp
of the essentials.
Of course everyone knew about the electromagnetic pulses, from
giant H-bombs exploded high in space, that had devastated
electronic devices all over the world on that deadly first day. But
Johnny’s understanding went beyond that to the interdependence of a
machine culture.
Still, if the kid was bright he must have gotten it from his
grandfather. The older Stevens looked at Gordon archly. “That
right, Inspector? No spares or mechanics left?”
Gordon knew that explanation wouldn’t hold under close
scrutiny.
He blessed those long, tedious hours on broken roads since leaving
Oakridge, when he had worked out his story in
detail.
“No, not quite. The pulse radiation, the blasts, and the
fallout
destroyed a lot. The bugs and riots and the Three-Year Winter
killed many skilled people. But actually, it didn’t take long to
get some machines going again. There were airplanes ready to fly
within days. The Restored U.S. has scores of them, repaired and
tested and waiting to fly.
“But they can’t take off. They’re all grounded, and will be
for
years to come.”
The old man looked puzzled. “Why’s that,
Inspector?”
“For the same reason you wouldn’t pick up a broadcast even if
you put together a working radio,” Gordon said. He paused for
effect.
“Because of laser satellites.”
Peter Von Kleek slapped the table. “Son of a bitch!” All over
the room heads turned their way.
Eric Stevens sighed, giving Gordon a look that had to be total
acceptance… or admiration of a better liar than
himself.
“What… what’s a lay… ?”
“Laser sat,” Johnny’s grandfather explained. “We won the war.”
He snorted at the famous marginal victory that had been trumpeted
in the weeks before the riots began. “But the enemy must have left
some sleeper satellites in orbit. Program ‘em to wait a few months
or years, then anything so much as lets out a peep over the radio,
or tries to fly, and zap!” He sliced the air
decisively.
“No wonder I never picked up anything on my crystal
set!”
Gordon nodded. The story fit so well, it could even be true.
He
actually hoped so. For it might explain the silence, and the lonely
emptiness of the sky, without the world having to be totally vacant
of civilization.
And how else to explain the slag heaps that remained of so
many
radio antennas he had passed in his travels?
“What’s the government doing about it?”
Von Kleek asked
earnestly.
Fairy tales, Gordon thought. His lies
would grow more
complex as he traveled until at last someone caught him
up.
“There are some scientists left. We hope to find facilities in
California for making and launching orbital rockets.” He left the
implication hanging.
The others looked disappointed.
“If only there was a way to take out the damned satellites
sooner,” the Mayor said. “Think of all those aircraft, just sitting
there! Can you imagine how surprised the next Holnist raiding party
out of the damned Rogue River would be, to find us farmers backed
up by the U.S. Air Force and some bloody
A-lOs!”
He gave a whooshing sound and made diving motions with his
hands. Then the Mayor did a pretty good imitation of a machine gun.
Gordon laughed with the others. Like boys they lived briefly in a
fantasy of rescue, and power to the good guys.
Other men and women gathered around, now that the Mayor and
the
postal inspector had apparently finished their business. Someone
pulled out a harmonica. A guitar was passed to Johnny Stevens, who
proved to be quite gifted. Soon the crowd was singing bawdy folk
songs and old commercial jingles.
The mood was high. Hope was thick as the warm, dark beer, and
tasted at least as good.
It was later in the evening that he heard it for the first
time.
On his way out of the men’s room-grateful that Cottage Grove had
somehow retained gravity-flow indoor plumbing-Gordon stopped
suddenly near the back stairs.
There had been a sound.
The crowd by the fireplace was singing… “Gather
‘round and listen to my tale-a tale of
a fateful trip… .”
Gordon cocked his head. Had he imagined the other murmur? It
had
been faint, and his head was ringing a bit on its
own from
the beer.
But a queer feeling at the back of his neck, an intuition,
refused to let go. It made him turn around and begin climbing the
stairs, a steep flight rising into the building above the basement
pub.
The narrow passage was dimly lit by a candle at the halfway
landing. The happy, drunken sounds cf the songfest faded away
behind him as he ascended slowly, careful of the creaking
steps.
At the top he emerged into a darkling hallway. Gordon listened
fruitlessly for what felt like a long time. After some moments he
turned around, writing it all off to an overworked
imagination.
Then it came again.
… a series of faint, eerie sounds at the very edge of
audibility. The half-memories they pulled forth sent a shiver up
Gordon’s back. He had not heard their like since… since long,
long ago.
At the end of the dusty hallway faint light outlined a cracked
door jamb. He approached, quietly.
Bloop!
Gordon touched the cold metal knob. It was free of dust.
Someone
was already inside.
Wah-wah…
The absent weight of his revolver-left in his guest room in
supposedly safe Cottage Grove-made him feel half-naked as he turned
the knob and opened the door.
Dusty tarpaulins covered stacked crates filled with odds and
ends, everything from salvaged tires to tools to furniture, a hoard
put aside by the villagers against the uncertain future. Around one
row of boxes came the source of that faint, flickering light. There
were hushed voices just ahead, whispering in urgent excitement. And
that sound-
Bloop. Bloop!
Gordon crept alongside the towers of musty crates- like
unsteady
cliffs of ancient sediment-growing more tense as he approached the
end of the row. The glow spread. It was a cold
light,
without heat.
A floorboard creaked under his foot.
Five faces turned up suddenly, cast into deep relief by the
strange light. In a breathless instant Gordon saw that they were
children, staring up at him in terrified awe-the
more so
because they clearly recognized him. Their eyes were wide and they
did not move.
But Gordon cared about none of that, only about a little
boxlike
object that lay on an oval rug in the center of the small coven. He
could not believe what he was seeing.
Across its bottom was a row of tiny buttons, and in the center
a
flat, gray screen gave off a pearly sheen.
Pink spiders emerged from flying saucers and stepped
imperiously
down the screen, to a crunching, marching beat. Arriving at the
bottom without opposition, they bleated in triumph, then their
ranks reformed and the assault began all over again.
Gordon’s throat was dry.
“Where…” he breathed.
The children stood up. One of the boys swallowed.
“Sir?”
Gordon pointed. “Where in the name of all that’s holy did you
get that?” He shook his head. “More important… where did you
get the batteries*”
One of the children began to cry. “Please, sir, we didn’t know
it was wrong. Timmy Smith told us it’s just a game the oldtime
children used to have! We find ‘em all over, only they don’t work
no more…”
“Who,” Gordon insisted, “is Timmy Smith?”
“A boy. His pa has come down from Creswell with a wagon to
trade
the last couple years. Timmy swapped this one for twenty old ones
we found that wouldn’t work no more.”
Gordon recalled the map he had been studying in his room
earlier
in the evening. Creswell was just a little north of here, not far
off the route he had planned to take to Eugene.
Can it be? Hope was too hot and sudden to
be a
pleasure, or even recognized.
“Did Timmy Smith say where he got the
toy?” He tried
not to spook the children, but some of his urgency must have
spilled over, frightening them.
A girl wailed. “He said he got it from
Cyclops!”
Then, in a panicked flurry, the children were gone,
disappeared
down little alleys in the dusty storage room. Gordon was left
suddenly alone, standing quite still, watching tiny invaders
descend in the glow of the little gray screen.
“Crunch-crunch-crunch,” they marched.
The game blooped victoriously. Then
began to play all
over again.
3
EUGENE
The pony’s breath puffed visibly as it plodded on through the
dank drizzle, led by a man in a rain-slick poncho. Its only burdens
were a saddle and two thick bags, plastic-covered against the
damp.
The gray Interstate glistened wetly. Deep puddles lay like
small
lakes in the concrete. Dirt had blown over the four-lane highway
during the postwar drought years, and grass had later begun to grow
as the old northwest rains returned. Much of the highway was now a
ribbon of meadow, a flat notch in the forested hills overlooking a
churning river.
Gordon raised his slicker tentlike to consult his map. Ahead,
to
his right, a large fen had formed where the south and east forks of
the Willamette came together before cutting west between Eugene and
Springfield. According to the old map there was a modern industrial
park below. Now only a few old roofs stuck out above the mire. The
neat lanes, parking lots, and lawns were a realm for water fowl,
who seemed not at all discomfitted by the wet.
Back in Creswell they had told Gordon the Interstate would be
impassable a little north of here. He would have to cut through
Eugene itself, find an open bridge across the river, and then
somehow get back onto the highway to Co-burg.
The Creswellers had been a little vague on details. Few
travelers had made the trip since the war.
That’s all right. Eugene has been one of my goals
for
months. We’ll take a look at what’s become of
her.
Briefly, though. Now the city was only a milestone along his
path toward a deeper mystery, waiting farther to the
north.
The elements had not yet defeated the Interstate. It might be
grassy and puddled, but the only fallen bridges he had passed still
bore obvious signs of violence. When man built well, it seemed,
only time or man himself could bring his things down. And they
did build well, Gordon thought. Maybe future generations of
Americans, ambling through the forests eating each other, would
think these works the creations of gods.
He shook his head. The rain, it’s got
me in a fey
mood.
Soon he came upon a large sign, half buried in a puddle.
Gordon
kicked away debris and knelt to examine the rusting plate-like a
tracker reading a cold trail in a forest path.
“Thirtieth Avenue,” he read aloud.
A broad road cut into the hills to the west, away from the
Interstate. According to the map, downtown Eugene was just over the
forested rise that way.
He got up and patted his pack animal. ‘“Come on, Dobbin. Swish
your tail and signal for a right turn. It’s off the freeway and
down surface streets from here.” The horse puffed stoically as
Gordon gave the reins a gentle tug and led it down the off-ramp,
then under the overpass and on up the slope to the
west.
From the top of the hill a gently falling mist seemed somehow
to
soften the ruined town’s disfigurement. Rains had long since washed
away the fire stains. Slow beards of climbing greenery, sprouting
from cracks in the pavement, covered many of the buildings, hiding
their wounds.
Folk in Creswell had warned him what to expect. Still, it was
never easy coming into a dead city. Gordon descended to the ghostly
streets, strewn with broken glass. The rain-wet pavement sparkled
with another era’s shattered panes.
In the lower parts of town, alders grew in the streets, in
dirt
laid down when a river of mud slammed into the city from the broken
Fall Creek and Lookout Point dams. The collapse of those reservoirs
had wiped out Route 58 west of Oakridge, forcing Gordon to make his
long detour south and west through Curtin, Cottage Grove, and
Creswell before finally swinging north again.
The devastation was pretty bad. And yet,
Gordon thought, they held on, here. From all accounts, they
almost made it.
Back in Creswell, between all the meetings and
celebrations-the
election of the new postmaster and excited plans to extend the new
mail delivery network east and west-the citizens had regaled Gordon
with stories of the valiant struggle of Eugene. They told how the
city had struggled to hold out for four long years after war and
epidemic had isolated it from the outer world. In a strange
alliance of the university community and red-neck country farmers,
somehow the city-state had overcome all threats… until at last
the bandit gangs finished her off by blasting the upland reservoirs
all at once, cutting off both power and unpolluted
water.
The tale was already legendary, almost like the fall of Troy.
And yet the storytellers hadn’t sounded forlorn in telling it. It
was more as if they now looked upon the disaster as a temporary
setback, to be overcome within their own lifetimes.
For Creswell had been in a tizzy of optimism even before
Gordon’s arrival. His tale of a “Restored United States” was the
town’s second dose of good news in less than
three
months.
Last winter another visitor had
arrived-this one from
the north, a grinning man in a white-and-black robe-who passed out
startling gifts for the children and then departed, speaking the
magical name Cyclops.
Cyclops, the stranger had said.
Cyclops would make things right again. Cyclops would bring
comfort and progress back into the world, redeeming everybody from
drudgery and lingering hopelessness, the legacy of the
Doomwar.
All the people had to do was collect their old machinery,
particularly electronics. Cyclops would take their donations of
useless, ruined equipment, plus perhaps a little surplus food to
maintain its volunteer servants. In return, Cyclops would give the
Creswellans things that worked.
The toys were only tokens of what was to come. Someday there
would be real miracles.
Gordon had been unable to get anything coherent from the
people
of Creswell. They were too deliriously happy to be completely
logical. Half of them assumed his “Restored United States” was
behind Cyclops, and half thought it was the other
way
around. It hardly occurred to anybody that the two wonders could be
unconnected-two spreading legends encountering one another in the
wilderness.
Gordon didn’t dare disabuse them, or ask too many questions.
He
had left as quickly as he could-loaded down with more letters than
ever-determined to follow the tale to its source.
It was about noon as he turned north on University Street. The
gentle rain was no bother. He could explore Eugene for a while and
still make it by nightfall to Coburg, where a settlement of
gleaners supposedly lived. Somewhere north of there lay the
territory from which the followers of Cyclops were spreading word
of their strange redemption.
As he walked quietly past the gutted buildings, Gordon
wondered
if he should even try to pull his “postman” hoax in the north. He
remembered the little spiders and saucers, flashing in the
darkness, and found it hard not to hope.
Perhaps he could give up the scam and find something real to
believe in at last. Perhaps someone, at last, was leading a fight
against the dark age.
It was too sweet a glimmer to let go of, but too delicate to
hold tightly.
The shattered storefronts of the deserted town gave way at
last
to Eighteenth Avenue and the University of Oregon campus, the broad
athletic field now overgrown with aspen and alder saplings, some
more than twenty feet high. There, near the old gymnasium, Gordon
slowed down, then stopped abruptly and held the pony
still.
The animal snorted and pawed the ground as Gordon listened,
and
then was sure.
Somewhere, perhaps not too far away, somebody was
screaming.
The faint crying crescendoed then fell away. It was a woman’s
voice, soaked with pain and deadly fear. Gordon pushed back the
cover of his holster and drew his revolver. Had it come from the
north? The east?
He pushed into a semijungle between the university buildings,
hurriedly seeking a place to go to ground. He had had an easy time
of it since leaving Oakridge months ago, too easy. Obviously he had
acquired bad habits. It was a miracle no one had heard
him, traipsing down these deserted streets as if
he owned
them.
He led the pony through a gaping door in the side of a
slate-sided gymnasium, and tethered the animal behind a fold-down
stand of bleachers. Gordon dropped a pile of oats near the animal,
but left the saddle in place and cinched.
Now what? Do we wait it out? Or do we check it
out?
Gordon unwrapped his bow and quiver and set the string. In the
rain they were probably more reliable, and certainly quieter than
his carbine or revolver.
He stuffed one of the bulging mail sacks into a ventilation
shaft, well out of sight. As he was searching for a place to hide
the other, he suddenly realized what he was doing.
He grinned ironically at his momentary foolishness and left
the
second bag lying on the floor as he set off to find the
trouble.
The sounds came from a brick building just ahead, one whose
long
bank of glass windows still gleamed. Apparently looters hadn’t even
thought the place worth bothering with. Now Gordon could hear
faint, muttered voices, the soft nickering of horses, and the
creaking of tack. Seeing no watchers at the roofs or windows, he
dashed across the overgrown lawn and up a broad flight of concrete
steps, flattening against a doorway around the corner of the
building. He breathed open-mouthed for silence.
The door bore an ancient, rusted padlock and an engraved
plastic
sign.
THEODORE STURGEON MEMORIAL CENTER
Dedicated May 1989
Cafeteria Hours
11-2:30
5-8 p.m.
The voices came from just within… though too muffled to
make out anything distinct. An outside stairway led up to several
floors overhead. He stepped back and saw that a door lay ajar three
flights up.
Gordon knew he was being a fool once again. Now that he had
the
trouble located, he really should go collect his pony and get the
hell out of there, as quickly as possible.
The voices within grew angry. Through the crack in the door he
heard a blow being struck. A woman’s cry of pain was followed by
coarse male laughter.
Sighing softly at the flaw in his character that kept him
there-instead of running away as anyone with any brains would
do-Gordon started climbing the concrete stair, careful not to make
a sound.
Rot and mold covered an area just within the half-open
doorway.
But beyond that the fourth floor of the student center looked
untouched. Miraculously, none of the glass panes in the great
skylight had been smashed, though the copper frame wore a patina of
verdigris. Under the atrium’s pale glow a carpeted ramp spiraled
downward, connecting each floor.
As Gordon cautiously approached the open center of the
building,
it felt momentarily as if he had stepped backward in time. Looters
had left the student organization offices-with their passionate
tornadoes of paper-completely untouched. Bulletin boards were still
plastered with age-dimmed announcements of sporting events, variety
shows, political rallies.
Only at the far end were there a few notices in bright red,
having to do with the emergency-the final crisis that had struck
almost without warning, bringing it all to an end. Otherwise, the
clutter was homey, radical, enthusiastic…
Young…
Gordon hurried past and skirted down the spiraling ramp toward
the voices below.
A second floor balcony extended out over the main lobby. He
got
down on his hands and knees and crawled the rest of the
way.
On the north side of the building, to the right, part of the
two-story glass facing had been shattered to make room for a pair
of large wagons. Steam rose from six horses tethered over by the
west wall, behind a row of dark pinball machines.
Outside, amid the broken glass shards, the sulking rain
created
spreading pink pools around four sprawled bodies, recently cut down
by automatic weapons fire. Only one of the victims had even managed
to draw a sidearm during the ambush. His pistol lay in a puddle,
inches from a motionless hand.
The voices came from his left, where the balcony made a turn.
Gordon crawled cautiously forward and looked out over the other
part of the L-shaped room.
Several ceiling-high mirrors remained along the west wall,
giving Gordon a wide view of the floor below. A blaze of smashed
furniture crackled in a large fireplace between the reflecting
panes.
He hugged the moldy carpet and lifted his head just enough to
see four heavily-armed men arguing by the fire. A fifth lounged on
a couch over to the left, his automatic rifle aimed idly at a pair
of prisoners-a boy of about nine years and a young
woman.
Red weals on her face matched the pattern of a man’s hand. Her
brown hair was matted and she held the boy close, watching her
captors warily. Neither prisoner seemed to have any energy left for
tears.
The bearded men were all garbed in, one-piece prewar army
surplus outfits in green, brown, and gray-speckled camouflage. Each
wore one or more gold earrings in his left ear lobe.
Survivalists. Gordon felt a wave of
revulsion.
Once upon a time, before the War, the word had had several
meanings, ranging from common sense, community-conscious
preparedness all the way to antisocial paranoid gun nuts. By one
way of looking at things, perhaps Gordon himself could be called a
“survivalist.” But it was the latter connotation that had stuck,
after the ruin the worst sort had caused.
Everywhere he had gone in his travels, folk shared this
reaction. More than the Enemy, whose bombs and germs had wrought
such destruction during the One-Week War, the people in nearly
every wrecked county and hamlet blamed these macho outlaws for the
terrible troubles that led to the final Fall.
And worst of all had been the followers of Nathan Holn, may
he rot in Hell.
But there weren’t supposed to be any
survivalists
anymore in the valley of the Willamette! In Cottage Grove, Gordon
had been told that the last big bunch had been driven south of
Roseburg years ago, into the wilderness of the Rogue River
country!
What were these devils doing here, then? He moved a little
closer and listened.
“I dunno, Strike Leader. I don’t think we oughta go any deeper
on this recon. We’ve already had enough surprises with this
‘Cyclops’ thing the bird here let slip about, before she clammed
up. I say we oughta head back to the boats at Site Bravo and report
what we found.”
The speaker was a short, bald man with a wiry frame. He warmed
his hands over the fire, his back to Gordon. A SAW assault gun
equipped with a flash suppressor was slung muzzle-down over his
back.
The big man he addressed as “Strike Leader” wore a scar from
one
ear to his chin, only partly hidden by a gray-flecked black beard.
He grinned, displaying several gaps in his teeth.
“You don’t really believe that bull the broad was spewing, do
you? All that crap about a big computer that talks? What a crock!
She’s just feedin‘ it to us to give us a stall!”
“Oh yeah? Well how do you explain all
that?”
The little man gestured back to the wagons. In the mirror,
Gordon could see a corner of the nearest. It was loaded down with
odds and ends, no doubt collected here on the University campus.
The haul seemed to consist mostly of electronic
equipment.
Not farm tools, not clothes or jewelry-but
electronics.
It was the first time Gordon had ever seen a gleaner’s wagon
filled with salvage like this. The implication caused Gordon’s
pulse to pound in his ears. In his excitement, he barely ducked
down in time as the little man turned to pick up something from a
nearby table.
“And what about this?” the small
survivalist asked. In
his hand was a toy-a small video game like the one Gordon had seen
in Cottage Grove.
Lights flashed and the little box gave out a high, cheerful
melody. The Strike Leader stared at it for a long moment. Finally
he shrugged. “Don’t mean shit.”
One of the other raiders spoke. “I agree wit‘ lil’
Jim…”
“That’s Blue Five,” the big man growled. “Maintain
discipline!”
“Right,” the third man nodded, apparently unperturbed by the
rebuke. “I agree with Blue Five, then. I think we oughta report
this to Colonel Bezoar an‘ the General. It could affect the
invasion. What if the farmers do got high tech up north of here? We
could wind up doin’ an end run right into some heavy-duty lasers or
something… especially if they got some old Air Force or Navy
stuff working again!”
“All the more reason to continue this recon,” the leader
growled. “We’ve got to find out more about this Cyclops
thing.”
“But you saw how hard we had to work to get the woman to tell
us
even what we learned! And we can’t leave her here while we go
deeper on recon. If we turned back we could put her on one of the
boats and…”
“Off the damn woman! We finish with her
tonight. The
boy, too. You been in the mountains too long, Blue Four. These
valleys are crawling with pretty birds. We can’t
risk this
one making noise, and we sure can’t take her along on a
recon!”
The argument didn’t surprise Gordon. All over the
country-wherever they had managed to establish themselves-these
postwar crazies had taken to raiding for women, as well as for food
and slaves. After the first few years of slaughter, most Holnist
enclaves had found themselves with incredibly high male-female
ratios. Now, women were valuable chattel in the loose, macho,
hyper-survivalist societies.
No wonder some of the raiders below wanted to carry this one
back. Gordon could tell that she might be quite pretty, if she
healed and if the pall of terror ever left her eyes.
The boy in her arms watched the men with fierce
anger.
Gordon surmised that the Rogue River gangs must have become
organized at last, perhaps under a charismatic leader. Apparently
they were planning to invade by sea, skirting the Roseville and
Camas Valley defenses-where the farmers had somehow beaten back
their repeated efforts at conquest.
It was a bold plan, and it could very well mean the end of
whatever flickering civilization remained here in the Willamette
Valley.
Until now, Gordon had been telling himself he might somehow
stay
out of this trouble. But the last seventeen years had long ago made
almost everybody alive take sides in this particular struggle.
Rival villages with bitter feuds would drop their quarrels to join
and wipe out bands like these. The very sight of Army surplus
camouflage and gold earrings elicited a loathing response that was
common nearly everywhere, like the way people felt about vultures.
Gordon could not leave this place without at least trying to think
of a way to harm the men below.
During a lull in the rain, two men went outside and began
stripping the bodies, mutilating them and taking grisly trophies.
When the drizzle returned, the raiders shifted their attention to
the wagons, rummaging through them for anything valuable. From
their curses it seemed the search was futile. Gordon heard the
smashing of delicate and totally irreplaceable electronics parts
under their boots.
Only the one guarding the captives was still in view, turned
away from both Gordon and the wall of mirrors. He was cleaning his
weapon, not paying particular attention.
Wishing he were less a fool, Gordon felt compelled to take a
chance. He lifted his head above the level of the floor and raised
his hand. The motion made the woman look up. Her eyes widened in
surprise.
Gordon put a finger to his lips, praying she would understand
that these men were his enemies, too. The woman blinked, and Gordon
feared for a moment she was about to speak. She glanced quickly at
her guard, who remained absorbed in his weapon.
When her eyes met Gordon’s again, she nodded slightly. He gave
her a thumbs-up sign and quickly backed away from the
balcony.
First chance, he drew his canteen and drank deeply, for his
mouth was dry as ashes. Gordon found an office in which the dust
wasn’t too thick-he certainly couldn’t afford to sneeze-and chewed
on a strip of Creswell beef jerky as he settled down to
wait.
His chance came a little while before dusk. Three of the
raiders
left on a patrol. The one called Little Jim remained behind to cook
a raggedly butchered haunch of deer in the fireplace. A gaunt-faced
Holnist with three gold earrings guarded the prisoners, staring at
the young woman while whittling slowly on a piece of wood. Gordon
wondered how long it would take for the guard’s lust to overcome
his fear of the leader’s wrath. He was obviously working up his
nerve.
Gordon had his bow ready. An arrow was nocked and two more lay
on the carpet before him. His holster flap was free and the
pistol’s hammer rested on a sixth round. There was little more he
could do but wait.
The guard put down his whittling and stood up. The woman held
the boy close and looked away as he walked closer.
“Blue One ain’t gonna like it,” the bandit by the fire warned
lowly.
The guard stood over the woman. She tried not to flinch, but
shivered when he touched her hair. The boy’s eyes glistened with
anger.
“Blue One already said we’re gonna waste her later, after
takin‘
turns. Don’t see why my turn shouldn’t come first. Maybe I can even
get her to talk about that ’Cyclops* thing.
“How ‘bout it, babe?” He leered down on her. “If a beatin’
won’t
make you loosen your mouf, I know just what’ll tame you
down.”
“What about the kid?” Little Jim asked.
The guard shrugged casually. “What about ‘im?”
Suddenly
a hunting knife was in his right hand. With his left he seized the
boy’s hair and yanked him out of the woman’s grasp. She
screamed.
In that telescoped instant, Gordon acted completely on
reflex-there was no time at all to think. Even so, he did not do
the obvious, but what was necessary. Instead of shooting at the man
with the knife, he swung his bow up, and put an arrow into
Little Jim’s chest.
The small survivalist hopped back and stared down at the shaft
in blank surprise. With a faint gurgle he slumped to the
ground.
Gordon quickly nocked another arrow and turned in time to see
the other survivalist yank his knife out of the girl’s shoulder.
She must have hurled herself in between him and the child, blocking
the blow with her body. The boy lay stunned in the
corner.
Gravely wounded, she still tore at her enemy with her nails,
unfortunately blocking Gordon from a clear shot. The surprised
bandit fumbled at first, cursing and trying to catch her wrists.
Finally, he managed to hurl her to the ground. Angered by the
painful scratches-and unaware of his partner’s demise-the Holnist
grinned and hefted his knife to finish the job. He took a step
toward the wounded, gasping woman.
At that point Gordon’s arrow tore through the fabric of his
camouflage fatigues, slicing a shallow, bloody gash along his back.
The shaft struck the couch and quivered, humming.
For all their loathesome attributes, survivalists were
probably
the best fighters in all the world. In a blur, before Gordon could
snatch up his last arrow, the man dove to one side and rolled up
with his assault rifle. Gordon threw himself back as a rapid,
accurate burst of individual shots tore into the balustrade,
ricocheting from the ironmongery where he had just
been.
The rifle was equipped with a silencer, forcing the raider to
fire on semi-automatic; but the zinging bullets clanged all about
Gordon as he rolled over and pulled out his own revolver. He
scurried over to another part of the balcony.
The fellow down below had good ears. Another rapid burst sent
slivers flying inches from Gordon’s face as he ducked aside again,
barely in time.
Silence fell, except that Gordon’s pulse sounded like thunder
in
his ears.
Now what? he wondered.
Suddenly there was a loud scream. Gordon raised his head and
caught a blurry motion reflected in the mirror… the small woman
below was charging her much bigger foe with a large chair raised
over her head!
The survivalist whirled and fired. Red blotches bloomed across
the young gleaner’s chest and she tumbled to the ground; the chair
rolled to the survivalist’s feet.
Gordon might have heard the click as the rifle’s magazine
emptied. Or perhaps it was only a wild guess. Whatever the reason,
without thinking he leapt up, arms extended, and squeezed the
trigger of his .38 over and over again-pumping until the hammer
struck five times on empty, smoking chambers.
His opponent remained standing, a fresh clip already in his
left
hand, ready to be slammed into place. But dark stains had begun to
spread across the camouflage tunic. Looking astonished, more than
anything else, his eyes met Gordon’s over the smoking pistol
barrel.
The assault rifle tipped and fell clattering from limp
fingers,
and the survivalist crumpled to the floor.
Gordon ran downstairs, vaulting the rail at the bottom. First
he
stopped at both men and made sure they were dead. Then he hurried
over to the fatally wounded young woman.
Her mouth made a round inquiry as he lifted her head. “Who…
?”
“Don’t talk,” he urged, and he wiped a trail of blood from the
corner of her mouth.
Pupils widely dilated, eerily alert on the threshold of death,
her eyes took in his face, his uniform-the embroidered restored
u.S. mail service patch over his breast pocket. They widened
briefly in question, in wonder.
Let her believe, Gordon told himself. She’s
dying.
Let her believe it’s true.
But he couldn’t make himself say the words-the lies that he
had
told so often, that had taken him so far for so many months. Not
this time.
“I’m just a traveler, miss,” he shook his head. “I’m… I’m
just a fellow citizen, trying to help.”
She nodded-only slightly disappointed it seemed-as if that in
itself were a minor miracle.
“North…” she gasped. “Take boy… Warn… warn
Cyclops…”
In that last word, even as her dying breath sighed away,
Gordon
heard reverence, loyalty, and a confident faith in ultimate
redemption… all in the spoken name of a machine.
Cyclops, he thought numbly, as he laid her body
down. Now
he had yet another reason to follow the legend to its
source.
There was no time to spare for a burial. The bandit’s rifle
had
been muffled, but Gordon’s .38 had echoed like thunder. The other
raiders would certainly have heard. He had only moments to collect
the child and clear out of this place.
But ten feet away there were horses to steal. And up north lay
something a brave young woman had thought worth dying
for.
If only it’s true, Gordon thought as he
gathered up his
enemy’s rifle and ammunition.
He would drop his postal play-act in a minute, if he found
that
someone, somewhere, was taking responsibility-actually trying to do
something abo.ut the dark age. He would offer his allegiance, his
help, however meager it might be.
Even to a giant computer.
There were distant shouts… coming closer
rapidly.
He turned to the boy, who was now looking up at him,
wide-eyed,
from the corner of the room.
“Come on, then,” Gordon said, holding out his hand. “We had
better ride.”
4
HARRISBURG
Holding the child on the saddle in front of him, Gordon raced
away from the grisly scene as fast as his stolen mount would go. A
glance showed figures charging after them on foot. One raider knelt
to take careful aim.
Gordon bent forward, sawed on the reins, and kicked. The horse
snorted and wheeled around a looted corner Rexall store just as
high-velocity bullets tore apart the granite facing behind them.
Stone chips flew whistling across Sixth Avenue.
He had been congratulating himself on taking the added time to
scatter the other horses before galloping off. But in that last
instant, looking back, Gordon had seen one more raider arrive,
riding his own pony!
For a moment he felt an unreasoning fear. If they had his
horse,
they might also have taken or harmed the
mail-bags.
Gordon shook the irrelevant thought aside as he sent the horse
dashing down a side street. To hell with the letters! They were
only props, anyway. What mattered was that only one of the
survivalists could pursue at the moment. That made the odds
even.
Almost.
He snapped the reins and dug in his heels, sending his mount
galloping hard down one of downtown Eugene’s silent, empty streets.
He heard the clatter of other hooves, too close.
Not
bothering to look back, he swerved into an alley. The horse pranced
past a fall of shattered glass, then sped across the next street,
through a service way and down another clutter-filled
alley.
Gordon turned the animal toward a flash of greenery, cantering
quickly across an open plaza, and pulled up behind an overgrown oak
thicket in a small park.
There was a roar in the air. After a moment Gordon realized
that
it was his own breath and pulse. “Are… are you all right?” he
panted, looking down at the boy.
The nine-year-old swallowed and nodded, not wasting breath on
words. The boy had been terrorized and had witnessed savage things
today, but he had the sense to keep quiet, brown eyes intense on
Gordon.
Gordon stood in the saddle and peered through the
seventeen-year
growth of urban shrubbery. For the moment at least, they seemed to
have lost their pursuer.
Of course the fellow might be less than fifty meters away,
quietly listening himself.
Gordon’s fingers were shaking from reaction, but he managed to
draw his empty .38 from its holster and reloaded while he tried to
think.
If there was only the single rider to contend with, they might
do better to just stay still and wait it out. Let the bandit seek
them, and inevitably drift farther away.
Unfortunately, the other Holnists would catch up soon. It
would
probably be better to risk a little noise now than let those master
trackers and hunters from the Rogue River country collect
themselves and organize a real search of the local
area.
He stroked the horse’s neck, letting the animal catch its
breath
for a moment longer. “What’s your name?” he asked the
boy.
“M-Mark,” he blinked.
“Mine is Gordon. Was that your sister, who saved our lives
back
there at the fireplace?”
Mark shook his head. A child of the dark age, he would save
his
tears for later. “N-nossir… it was my mom.”
Gordon grunted, surprised. These days it was uncommon for
women
to look so young after having children. Mark’s mother must have
lived under unusual conditions-one more clue pointing to mysterious
happenings in northern Oregon.
The light was fading fast. Still hearing nothing, Gordon
nudged
the horse into motion once more, guiding it with his knees, letting
it choose soft ground where it could. He kept a sharp lookout, and
stopped often to listen.
Some minutes later they heard a shout. The boy tensed. But the
source must have been blocks away, Gordon headed in the other
direction, thinking of the Willamette River bridges at the northern
end of town.
The long twilight was over before they rode up to the Route
105
bridge. The clouds had stopped dripping, but they still cast a dark
gloom over ruins on all sides, denying even the starlight. Gordon
stared, trying to penetrate the gloom. Rumor to the south had it
the bridge was still up, and there were no obvious signs of an
ambush.
And yet anything could hide in that mass of dark girders,
including an experienced bushwhacker with a rifle.
Gordon shook his head. He hadn’t lived this long by taking
foolish chances. Not when there were alternatives. He had wanted to
take the old Interstate, the direct route to Corvallis and the
mysterious domain of Cyclops, but there were other ways. He swung
the horse about and headed west, away from the dark, glowering
towers.
There followed a hurried, twisting ride down side streets.
Several times’ he nearly got lost, and had to go by dead reckoning.
At last, he found old Highway 99 by the sound of rushing
water.
Here the bridge was a flat, open structure, and apparently
clear. Anyway, it was the last path he knew of. Bent low over the
boy, he took the span at a gallop and kept on riding hard until he
was certain all pursuit had been left far behind.
Finally, he dismounted and led the horse for a while, letting
the exhausted animal catch its breath.
When he climbed back into the saddle, young Mark had fallen
asleep. Gordon spread his poncho to cover them both as they plodded
on northward, seeking a light.
About an hour before dawn, they arrived at last at the walled
village of Harrisburg.
The stories Gordon had heard about prosperous northern Oregon
must have been understated. The town had apparently been at peace
much, much too long. Thick undergrowth covered the free-fire zone
all the way to the town wall, and there were no guards on the
watchtowers. Gordon had to shout for five minutes before anyone
arrived to swing back the gate.
“I want to talk to your leaders,” he told them under the
sheltered porch of the general store. “There’s worse danger than
you’ve known in years.”
He described the ambushed party of gleaners, the band of hard,
evil men, and their mission to scout the soft northern Willamette
for plundering. Time was of the essence. They had to move quickly
and destroy the Holnists before their mission was
accomplished.
But to his dismay the sleepy-eyed townsmen seemed slow to
believe his story, and even more reluctant to sally forth in the
wet weather. They stared at Gordon suspiciously, and shook their
heads sullenly when he insisted they call up a
posse.
Young Mark had collapsed in exhaustion and wasn’t much of a
witness to corroborate his tale. The locals obviously preferred to
believe he was exaggerating. Several men stated baldly that he must
have run into a few local bandits from south of Eugene, where
Cyclops still had little influence. After all,
nobody had
seen any Holnists around these parts in many years. They were
supposed to have killed each other off long ago, after Nathan Holn
himself was hanged.
Folk patted him on the back reassuringly and started
dispersing
to their homes. The storekeeper offered to let Gordon sack out in
his store room.
I can’t believe this is
happening. Don’t these
idiots realize their very lives are at stake? If
the
scouting party gets away, those barbarians will
be back in
force!
“Listen…” He tried again, but their sullen, rural obstinacy
was impervious to logic. One by one, they drifted
away.
Desperate, exhausted, and angry, Gordon flung back his
poncho-revealing the postal inspector’s uniform underneath. In a
fury, he stormed at them.
“You all don’t seem to understand. I am not asking
you
for your help. Do you think I give a damn about your stupid little
village?
“I care about one thing above all. Those creatures have two
bags
of mail that they have stolen from the people of
the
United States, and I am commanding
you, under my
authority as a federal official, to gather an armed party and
assist in their recovery!”
Gordon had had a lot of practice with the role in recent
months,
but never had he dared such an arrogant pose. It had completely
carried him away. When one of the wide-eyed villagers started
stammering, he cut the man short, his voice shaking with outrage as
he told them of the wrath that would fall when the restored nation
learned of this shame- how a silly little hamlet had cowered behind
its walls and so let their country’s sworn enemies
escape.
His eyes narrowed as he growled lowly, “You ignorant bumpkins
have ten minutes to form your militia and be
ready to
ride, or I warn you, the consequences will be far
more
unpleasant for you all than a forced march in the
rain!”
The townsfolk blinked in astonishment. Most of them had not
even
moved, but stared at his uniform, and the shiny badge on his peaked
hat. The true danger that faced them they could try to ignore, but
this fantastic story had to be swallowed whole, or
not at
all.
For a long moment the tableau held-and Gordon stared them down
until it broke.
All at once men were shouting at one another, running about to
gather weapons. Women hurried to prepare the horses and gear.
Gordon was left standing there-his poncho like a cape whipping
behind him in the blustery wind-cursing silently while the Harrisburg guard turned out around
him.
What, in God’s name, came over
me? he asked
himself at last.
Maybe his role was starting to get to him. For during those
tense moments, as he had faced down an entire town, he had truly
believed! He had felt the power of his role-the
potent
anger of a servant of the People, thwarted in a high task by little
men…
The episode left him shaken, and a little uncertain of his own
mental equilibrium.
One thing was clear. He had hoped to give up the postman scam
on
reaching northern Oregon; but that was no longer possible. He was
stuck with it now, for better or for worse.
All was ready in a quarter of an hour. He left the boy in the
care of a local family and departed with the posse in a drizzling
rain.
The ride was quicker this time, in daylight and with remounts.
Gordon made sure they sent out scouts and flankers to guard against
ambush, and kept the main party in three separated squads. When
they finally arrived at the UO campus, the militia dismounted to
converge on the Student Center.
Although the locals outnumbered the survivalist band by at
least
eight to one, Gordon figured the odds were actually about even.
Wincing at every sound as the clumsy farmers approached the scene
of the massacre, he nervously scanned the rooftops and
windows.
I hear that down south they stopped the Holnists
with sheer
guts and determination. They’ve got some legendary Ieader, down
there, who’s whipped the survivalists three falls out of four. Must
be the xeason the bastards are trying this end run up the coast.
Things are different up here.
If this invasion ever really develops, these locals
haven’t
got a chance.
When they finally burst into the Student Center the raiders
were
long gone. The fireplace was cold. Tracks in the muddy street led
westward, toward the coastal passes and the sea.
The victims of the massacre were found laid out in the old
cafeteria, ears and other… parts… removed as trophies.
The villagers stared at the havoc the automatic rifles had wrought,
rediscovering uncomfortable memories of the early
days.
Gordon had to remind them to get a burial detail
together.
It was a frustrating morning. There was no way to prove who
the
bandits had been. Not without following them. And Gordon wasn’t
about to try with this reluctant band of farmers. They already
wanted to go home to their tall, safe stockade. Sighing, Gordon
insisted that they make one more stop.
In the dank, ruined university gymnasium he found his mail
sacks-one untouched where he had hidden it, the other torn open,
letters scattered and trodden on the floor.
Gordon put on an irate show of fury for the benefit of the
locals, who hurried obsequiously to help him collect and bag the
remains. He played the role of the outraged postal inspector to the
hilt, calling down vengeance on those who dared interfere with the
mail.
But this time it was really only an act. Inside, all Gordon
could think of was how hungry and tired of it all he
was.
The slow, plodding ride back in a chill fog was sheer hell.
But
the ordeal went on at Harrisburg. There Gordon had to go through
all the motions again… passing out a few letters he had
collected in the towns south of Eugene… listening to tearful
jubilation as a couple of lucky ones learned of a relative or
friend thought long dead… appointing a local postmaster…
enduring another silly celebration.
The next day he awoke stiff and sore and a little feverish.
His
dreams had been dire-all ending with a questioning, hopeful look in
a dying woman’s eyes.
Nothing the villagers could say would make him remain another
hour. He saddled a fresh horse, secured the mailbags, and headed
north immediately after breakfast.
It was time, at last, to go see Cyclops.
5
CORVALLIS
May 18, 2011
Transmittal via: Shedd, Harrisburg, Creswell, Cottage Grove,
Culp Creek, Oakridge, to Pine View
Dear Mrs. Thompson,
Your first three letters finally caught up with me in Shedd,
just south of Corvallis. I can’t tell you how glad I was to get
them. And news from Abby and Michael too-I’m very happy for them
both, and I hope it will be a girl.
I note that you’ve expanded your local mail route to include
Gilchrist, New Bend, and Redmond. Enclosed are temporary warrants
for the postmasters you recommended, to be confirmed later. Your
initiative is to be applauded.
The news of a change in regime in Oakridge was welcome. I hope
their revolution lasts.
It was quiet in the paneled guest room as the silver fountain
pen scritch-scratched across the slightly yellowed paper. Through
the open window, with a pale moon shining amid scattered night
clouds, Gordon could hear distant music and laughter from the
hoedown he had left a little while ago, pleading
fatigue.
By now Gordon was accustomed to these exuberant first-day
festivities, as locals pulled out the stops for the visiting
“Government Man.” The biggest difference here was that he had not
seen so many people in one place since the food center riots, long,
long ago.
The music was still of the land; with the Fall, people
everywhere had returned to the fiddle and the banjo, to simple fare
and square dances. In many ways it was all so very
familiar.
But there are other differences as well
Gordon rolled his fountain pen in his fingers and touched the
letters from his friends in Pine View. Arriving with serendipitous
timing, they had been real help in establishing his bona fides. The
mail courier from the southern Willamette-a man Gordon himself had
appointed only two weeks ago-had arrived on a steaming mount and
refused even a glass of water until he reported to “the
Inspector.”
The earnest youth’s behavior emphatically dissolved all
remaining doubts the locals might have had. His fairy tale still
worked.
For now, at least.
Gordon picked up the pen again and wrote.
By now you’ll have received my warning of a possible invasion
by
Rogue River survivalists. I know you’ll take appropriate measures
for the defense of Pine View. Still, here in the strange domain of
Cyclops I find it hard to get anyone to take the
threat
seriously. By today’s standards they’ve been at peace here a very
long time. They treat me well, but people apparently think I am
exaggerating the threat.
Tomorrow, at last, I have my interview. Perhaps I can persuade
Cyclops itself of the danger.
It would be sad if this strange little society led by a
machine
fell to the barbarians. It is the finest thing I have seen since
leaving the civilized east.
Gordon amended the remark in his own mind. The lower
Willamette
was the most civilized area he had encountered in fifteen years,
period. It was a miracle of peace and prosperity,
apparently wrought entirely by an intelligent computer and its
dedicated human servants.
Gordon stopped writing and looked up as the lamp by his desk
flickered. Under a chintz shade, the forty-watt incandescent bulb
winked once more, then returned to a steady glow as the wind
generators two buildings away regained their stride. The light was
soft, but Gordon found his eyes watering each time he looked at it
for even a little while.
He still had not gotten over it. On arriving in Corvallis he
had
seen his first working electric light in over a decade, and had
been forced to excuse himself even as local dignitaries gathered to
welcome him. He took refuge in a washroom to hide until he could
regain his composure. It just wouldn’t do for a supposed
representative of the “Government in Saint Paul City” to be seen
weeping openly at the sight of a few flickering
bulbs.
Corvallis and its environs are divided into independent
boroughs, each supporting about two or three hundred people. All
the land hereabouts is cultivated or ranched, using modern farming
arts and hybrid seed the locals raise themselves. They have managed
to maintain several prewar strains of bio-engineered yeast, and
produce medicines and fertilizers from them.
Of course they’re limited to horse plows, but their smithies
make implements from high-quality steel. They have even started
producing hand-built water- and wind-power turbines-all designed by
Cyclops, of course.
Local craftsmen have expressed an interest in trading with
customers to the south and east. I’ll enclose a list of items
they’re willing to barter for. Copy it and pass it along the line,
will you?
• • •
Gordon had not seen so many happy, well-fed people since
before
the war, nor heard laughter so easy and often. There was a
newspaper and a lending library, and every child in the valley got
at least four years of schooling. Here, at last, was what he had
been looking for since his militia unit broke up in confusion and
despair, a decade and a half ago-a community of good people engaged
in a vigorous effort to rebuild.
Gordon wished he could be a part of it, not a con artist
ripping
them off for a few nights’ meals and a free bed.
Ironically, these people would have accepted the old Gordon
Krantz as a new citizen. But he was indelibly branded by the
uniform he wore and by his actions back at Harrisburg. If he
revealed the truth now, he was certain they would never forgive
him.
He had to be a demigod in their eyes, or nothing at all. If
ever
a man was trapped in his own lie…
Gordon shook his head. He would have to take the hand he had
been dealt. Perhaps these people really could use a
mailman.
So far I haven’t been able to find out much about Cyclops
itself. I’ve been told that the supercomputer does not govern
directly, but insists that all the villages and towns it serves
live together peaceably and democratically. In effect, it has
become judge-arbitrator for the entire lower Willamette, all the
way north to the Columbia.
The Council tells me Cyclops is very interested in seeing a
formal mail route created, and has offered every assistance. He…
I mean, it… seems anxious to cooperate with the Restored
U.S.
Everyone, of course, was glad to hear that they would soon be
in
contact with the rest of the country again-
Gordon looked at the last line for a long moment, his pen
poised, and realized that he simply couldn’t go on with the lies
tonight. It was no longer amusing, knowing Mrs. Thompson would read
through them.
It made him feel sad.
Just as well, he thought. I
have a busy day
tomorrow. He covered the pen and got up to prepare for
bed.
While he washed his face, he thought about the last
time he had met one of the legendary supercomputers. It had been
only months before the war, when he was an eighteen-year-old
sophomore in college. All the talk had been about the new
“intelligent” machines just then being unveiled in a few
locations.
It was a time of excitement. The media trumpeted the
breakthrough as the end of humanity’s long loneliness. Only instead
of coming from outer space, the “other intelligences” with whom man
would share his world would be his own creations.
The neohippies and campus editors of New
Renaissance
Magazine held a grand birthday party the day the University
of
Minnesota put one of the latest supercomps on display. Balloons
floated by, aerostat artists pedaled overhead, music filled the air
while people picnicked on the lawns.
In the midst of it all-inside a mammoth, metal-mesh Faraday
cage
suspended on a cushion of air-they had sealed the helium-cooled
cylinder containing Millichrome, Set up this way,
internally powered and shielded, there was no way anyone from the
outside could fake the mechanical brain’s responses.
He stood in line for hours that afternoon. When at last
Gordon’s
turn came to step forward and face the narrow camera lens, he
brought out a list of test questions, two riddles, and a
complicated play on words.
It was so very long ago, that bright day in the spring of
hope,
yet Gordon remembered it as if it were yesterday… the low,
mellifluous voice, the friendly, open laughter of the machine. On
that day Millichrome met all his challenges, and
responded
with an intricate pun of its own.
It also chided him, gently, for not doing as well as expected
on
a recent history exam.
When his turn was over, Gordon had walked away feeling a
great,
heady joy that his species had created such a
wonder.
The Doomwar came soon thereafter. For seventeen awful years he
had simply assumed that all of the beautiful supercomps were dead,
like the broken hopes of a nation and a world. But here, by some
wonder, one lived! Somehow, by pluck and ingenuity, the Oregon
State techs had managed to keep a machine going through all the bad
years. He couldn’t help feeling unworthy and presumptuous to have
come posing among such men and women.
Gordon reverently switched off the electric light and lay in
bed, listening to the night. In the distance, the music from the
Corvallis hoedown finally ended with a whooping cheer. Then he
could hear the crowd dispersing for home.
Finally, the evening quieted down. There was wind in the trees
outside his window, and the faint whine of the nearby compressors
that kept the delicate brain of Cyclops supercold and
healthy.
And there was something else as well. Through the night came a
rich, soft, sweet sound that he could barely place, though it
tugged at his memory.
After a while it came to him. Somebody, probably one of the
technicians, was playing classical music on a
stereo.
A stereo… Gordon tasted the word.
He had nothing
against banjos and fiddles, but after fifteen years… to hear
Beethoven once again.
Sleep came at last, and the symphony blended into his
dreaming.
The notes rose and fell, and finally melded with a gentle,
melodious voice that spoke to him across the decades. An
articulated metal hand extended past the fog of years and pointed
straight at him.
“Liar!” the voice said softly, sadly. “You
disappoint me so.
“How can I help you, my
makers, if you tell only
lies?”
6
DENA
“This former factory is where we salvage equipment for the
Millenium Project. You can see we’ve really hardly begun. We can’t
start building true robots, as Cyclops’s plans call for later on,
until we’ve recovered some industrial capability
first.”
Gordon’s guide led him down a cavern of shelves stacked high
with the implements of another era. “The first step, of course, was
to try to save as much as we could from rot and decay. Only some of
the salvage is kept here. What has no near-term potential is stored
elsewhere, against a future day.”
Peter Aage, a lanky blond man only a little older than Gordon,
must have been a student at Corvallis State University when war
broke out. He was one of the youngest to wear the black-trimmed
white coat of a Servant of Cyclops, but even he showed gray at the
temples.
Aage also was the uncle and sole surviving relative of the
small
boy Gordon had rescued in the ruins of Eugene. The man had not made
any great display of gratitude, but it was clear he felt indebted
to Gordon. None of those outranking him among the Servants had
interfered when he insisted on being the one to show the visitor
Cyclops’s program to hold off the dark age in
Oregon.
“Here we’ve begun repairing some small computers and other
simple machines,” Aage told Gordon, leading him past stacks of
sorted and labeled electronics. “The hardest part is replacing
circuits burned out in those first few instants of the war, by
those high-frequency electromagnetic pulses the enemy set off above
the continent-you know, by the very first bombs?”
Gordon smiled indulgently, and Aage reddened. He raised a hand
in apology. “I’m sorry. I’m just so used to having to explain
everything so simply… Of course you East-em folks probably
know a lot more about the EMP than we do.”
“I am not a technical man,” Gordon answered, and wished he had
not bluffed so well. He would have liked to have heard
more.
But Aage went back to the subject at hand. “As I was saying,
this is where most of the salvage work is done. It’s painstaking
effort, but as soon as electricity can be provided on a wider
scale, and once more basic needs have been addressed-we plan to put
these microcomputers back in outlying villages, schools, and
machine shops. It’s an ambitious goal, but Cyclops is certain we
can make it happen in our lifetimes.”
The cavern of shelves opened up into a vast factory floor.
Long
banks of overhead skylights spanned the ceiling, so the
fluorescents were used only sparingly. Still, there was a faint hum
of electricity on all sides as white-coated techs carted equipment
to and fro. Against every wall was stacked tribute from the
surrounding towns and hamlets-payment for the benign guidance of
Cyclops.
More machinery of all kinds-plus a small tithe of food and
clothing for Cyclops’s human helpers-came in every day. And yet,
from all Gordon had heard, this salvage was easily spared by the
people of the valley. After all, what use had they for the old
machines, anyway?
No wonder there were no complaints of a “tyranny by machine.”
The supercomputer’s price was easily met. And in exchange, the
valley had its Solomon-and perhaps a Moses to lead them out of this
wilderness. Remembering that gentle, wise voice from so long ago,
Gordon recognized a bargain.
“Cyclops has carefully planned this stage of the transition,”
Aage explained. “You saw our small assembly line for water and wind
turbines. Besides that, we help area blacksmiths improve their
forges and local farmers plan their crops. And by distributing old
hand-held video games to children in the valley, we hope to make
them receptive to better things, such as computers, when the time
comes.”
They passed a bench where gray-haired workers bent over
flashing
lights and screens bright with computer code. A bit lightheaded
from all this, Gordon felt as if he had accidentally stumbled into
a bright, wondrous workshop where shattered dreams were being
carefully put back together by a band of earnest, friendly
gnomes.
Most of the technicians were now well into or past middle age.
To Gordon it seemed they were in a hurry to accomplish as much as
possible before the educated generation passed away
forever.
“Of course now that contact has been reestablished with the
Restored U.S.,” Peter Aage continued, “we can hope to make faster
progress. For instance, I could give you a long list of chips we
haven’t any way to manufacture. They would make a world of
difference. Only eight ounces’ worth could push Cyclops’s program
ahead by four years, if Saint Paul City can provide what we
need.”
Gordon didn’t want to meet the fellow’s eyes. He bent over a
disassembled computer, pretending to pore over the complicated
innards. “I know little about such matters,” he said, swallowing.
“Anyway, back East there have been other priorities than
distributing video games.”
He had said it that way in order not to lie any more than he
had
to. But the Servant of Cyclops paled as if he had been
struck.
“Oh. I’m so stupid. Certainly they’ve had to deal with
terrible
radiation and plagues and famine and Holnists… I guess maybe
we’ve been pretty lucky, here in Oregon. Of course we’ll just have
to manage on our own until the rest of the country can help
out.”
Gordon nodded. Both men were speaking literal truths, but only
one knew just how sadly true the words were.
In the uncomfortable silence, Gordon reached for the very
first
question that came to mind. “So, you distribute toys with
batteries, as sort of missionary tools?”
Aage laughed. “Yes, that’s how you first heard of us, isn’t
it?
It sounds primitive, I know. But it works. Come, I’ll introduce you
to the head of that project. If anyone is a real throwback to the
Twentieth Century, it’s Dena Spurgen. You’ll see what I mean when
you meet her.”
He led Gordon through a side door and down a hallway cluttered
with stacked odds and ends, coming at last to a room that seemed
alive with a faint electric hum.
Everywhere there were racks of wires, looking much like
strands
of ivy climbing the walls alive. Socketed amidst the tangle were
scores of little cubes and cylinders. Even after all these years,
Gordon quickly recognized all manner of rechargeable batteries,
drawing current from the Corval-lis generators.
Across the long room, three civilians listened to a
longhaired,
blond person wearing the black-on-white coat of a Servant. Gordon
blinked in surprise as he noticed that all four were young
women.
Aage whispered in his ear. “I ought to warn you. Dena may be
the
youngest of all the Servants of Cyclops, but in one way she’s a
museum piece. A genuine, bona fide, rip-snorting
feminist.”
Aage grinned. So many things had gone with the Fall of
civilization. There were words in common use, back in the old days,
that one never even heard anymore. Gordon looked again in
curiosity.
She was tall, especially for a woman who had grown up in these
times. Since she was facing the other way, Gordon couldn’t tell
much about her appearance, but her voice was low and certain as she
spoke to the other intense young women.
“So on your next run I don’t want you taking chances like that
again, Tracy. Do you hear me? It took a year of holding my breath
and threatening to turn blue before I was able to get us this
assignment. Never mind that it’s a logical solution-that outland
villagers tend to feel less threatened when the emissary is a
woman. All the logic in the world would come to nothing if one of
you girls came to harm!”
“But Dena,” a tough-looking little brunette protested.
“Tillamook’s already heard of Cyclops! It was
just a quick
hop over from my own village. Anyway, whenever I take Sam and Homer
along they just slow me-”
“Never mind!” the taller woman interrupted. “You just take
those
boys with you next time. I mean it! Or I promise you I’lll have you
back in Beaverville in two shakes, teaching school and making
babies…”
She stopped abruptly as she noticed that her assistants
weren’t
paying attention anymore. They were staring at
Gordon.
“Dena, come over and meet the Inspector,” Peter Aage said.
“I’m
sure he’d like to see your recharging facility and hear about
your-missionary work.”
Aage spoke to Gordon, sotto voce with a wry smile. “Actually,
it
was introduce you or face a broken arm. Watch yourself, Gordon.” As
the woman Servant approached, he said louder, “I have some matters
to look into. I’ll be back in a few minutes to take you to your
interview.”
Gordon nodded as the man left. He felt somehow exposed here,
with these women staring at him this way.
“That’s it for now, girls. I’ll see you tomorrow afternoon and
well plan the next trip.” The others protested with entreating
looks. But Dena’s head shake sent them out the door. Their shy
smiles and giggles-as Gordon tipped his cap-contrasted with the
long knives each wore at hip and boot.
Only when Dena Spurgen smiled, offering Gordon an outstretched
hand, did he realize how young she had to be.
She can’t have been more than six when the bombs
went
off.
Her grip was as firm as her demeanor, and yet her smooth,
barely
calloused hand told of a life spent more among books than threshers
and plows. Her green eyes met his in frank inspection. Gordon
wondered when he had last met anyone like this.
Minneapolis, that crazy sophomore year,
came his
answer. Only then she had been a senior. Amazing 1 should
remember that girl now, after so long.
Dena laughed. “Have I your permission to anticipate your
question? Yes, I am young and female, and not really qualified to
be a full Servant, let alone to be put in charge of an important
project.”
“Forgive me,” he nodded, “but those were my
thoughts.”
“Oh, no problem. Everybody calls me an anachronism, anyway.
The
truth is, I was adopted as a waif by Dr. Lazarensky and Dr. Taigher
and the others, after the Anti-Tech Riots killed my parents. I have
been spoiled terribly since, and learned how to take full
advantage. As, no doubt, you guessed on overhearing what I had to
say to my girls/‘
Gordon finally decided her features could best be described as
“handsome.” Perhaps a bit long and square-jawed. But when she was
laughing at herself, as now, Dena Spurgen’s face lit
up.
“Anyway,” she added, motioning at the wall of wires and little
cylinders. “We may not be able to train any more engineers, but it
doesn’t take much brains to learn how to cram electrons into a
battery.”
Gordon laughed. “You’re unfair to yourself. I had to take
introductory physics twice. Anyway, Cyclops must know what he’s
doing, putting you in this job.”
This brought a reddening to Dena’s face as she blushed and
looked down. “Yes, well, I suppose so.”
Modesty? Gordon wondered. This
one is full of
surprises. I wouldn’t have expected it.
“Oh rats. So soon. Here comes Peter,” she said in a much
softer
voice.
Peter Aage could be seen negotiating the clutter in the
hallway.
Gordon looked at his old-fashioned mechanical watch-one of the
techs had adjusted it so that it no longer ran half a minute fast
on the hour. “No wonder. My interview is in ten minutes,” he said
as they shook hands again. “But I do hope we’ll have another chance
to talk, Dena.”
Her grin was back. “Oh, you can bet we will. I want to ask you
some questions about the way life was for you, back in the days
before the war.”
Not about the Restored U.S., but
about the old
times. Unusual. And in that case, why me? What can
I
tell her about the Lost Age that she can’t learn by picking
the
memories of anyone else over thirty-five?
Puzzled, he met Peter Aage in the hallway and walked with him
through the cavernous warehouse toward the exit.
“I’m sorry to rush you off like this,” Aage told him, “but we
musn’t be late. One thing we don’t want is for Cyclops to scold
us!” He grinned, but Gordon got the feeling Aage was only partly
jesting. Guards bearing rifles and white armbands nodded as they
passed outside into overcast sunshine.
“I do hope your talk with Cyclops goes well, Gordon,” his
guide
said. “We’re all excited to be in contact with the rest of the
country again, of course. I’m sure Cyclops will want to cooperate
in any way he can.”
Cyclops. Gordon returned to reality. There’s
no
delaying this. And I don’t even know if I’m more
eager
than scared.
He steeled himself to play out the charade to the end. He had
no
other choice. “I feel exactly the same,” he said. “I want to help
you folks any way I can.” And he meant it, with all his
heart.
Peter Aage turned away to lead him across the neatly mowed
lawn
toward the House of Cyclops. But for a moment Gordon wondered. Had
he imagined it, or had he seen, for just a moment, a strange
expression in the tech’s eyes-one of sad and profound
guilt?
7
CYCLOPS
The foyer of the House of Cyclops-once the OSU Artificial
Intelligence Laboratory-was a striking reminder of a more elegant
era. The gold carpet was freshly vacuumed and only slightly frayed.
Bright fluorescents shone on fine furniture in the paneled lobby,
where peasants and officials from villages as far as forty miles
away nervously twisted rolled-up petitions as they waited for their
brief interviews with the great machine.
When the townsmen and farmers saw Gordon enter, all of them
stood up. A few of the more daring approached and earnestly shook
his hand in calloused, work-roughened clasps. The hope and wonder
were intense in their eyes, in their low, respectful tones. Gordon
froze his mind behind a smile and nodded pleasantly, wishing he and
Aage could wait somewhere else.
At last, the pretty receptionist smiled and motioned them
through the doors at the end of the foyer. As Gordon and his guide
passed down the long hallway to the interview chamber, two men
approached from the other end. One was a Servant of Cyclops,
wearing the familiar black-trimmed white coat. The other-a citizen
dressed in a faded but carefully tended prewar suit-frowned over a
long sheet of computer printout.
“I’m still not sure I understand, Dr.
Grober. Is
Cyclops sayin‘ we dig the well near the north hollow or
not? His answer isn’t any too clear, if you ask
me.”
“Now Herb, you tell your people it isn’t Cyclops’s job to
figure
everything down to the last detail. He can narrow down the choices,
but he can’t make the final decisions for you.”
The farmer tugged at his overtight collar. “Sure, everybody
knows that. But we’ve gotten straighter answers from him in th‘
past. Why can’t he be clearer this time?”
“Well for one thing, Herb, it’s been over twenty years since
the
geological maps in Cyclops’s memory banks were updated. Then you’re
also certainly aware that Cyclops was designed to talk to
high-level experts, right? So of course a lot of
his
explanations will go over our heads… sometimes even we few
scientists who survived.”
“Yes, b-but…” At that moment the citizen glanced up and
saw
Gordon approaching. He moved as if to remove the hat he was not
wearing, then wiped his palm on his pants leg and nervously
extended it.
“Herb Kalo of Sciotown, Mr. Inspector. This is indeed an
honor,
sir.”
Gordon muttered pleasantries as he shook the man’s hand,
feeling
more than ever like a politician.
“Yes sir, Mr. Inspector. An honor! I sure hope your plans
include coming up our way and setting up a post office. If they do,
I can promise you a wingding like you’ve never-”
“Now Herb,” the older technician interrupted. “Mr. Krantz is
here for a meeting with Cyclops.” He looked at his digital watch
pointedly.
Kalo blushed and nodded. “Remember that invite, Mr. Krantz.
We’ll take good care of you…” He seemed almost to bow as he
backed down the hall toward the foyer. The others didn’t appear to
notice, but for a moment Gordon’s cheeks felt as if they were on
fire.
“They’re waiting for you, sir,” the senior tech told him, and
led the way down the long corridor.
Gordon’s life in the wilderness had made his ears more
sensitive
than these townsmen perhaps realized. So when he heard a mutter of
argument ahead-as he and his guides approached the open door of the
conference room- Gordon purposely slowed down, as if to brush a few
specks of lint from his uniform.
“How do we even know those documents he showed us were real!”
someone up ahead was asking. “Sure they had seals all over them,
but they still looked pretty crude. And that
story about
laser satellites is pretty damn pat, if you ask me.”
“Perhaps. But it also explains why we’ve heard nothing in
fifteen years!” another voice replied. “And if he were faking, how
do you explain those letters that courier brought? Elias Murphy
over in Albany heard from his long-lost sister, and George Seavers
has left his farm in Greenbury to go see his wife in Curtin, after
all these years thinking she was dead!”
“I don’t see where it matters,” a third voice said softly.
“The
people believe, and that’s what counts…”
Peter Aage hurried ahead and cleared his throat at the
doorway.
As Gordon followed, four white-coated men and two women rose from a
polished oak table in the softly lit conference room. All except
Peter were clearly well past middle age.
Gordon shook hands all around, grateful that he had met them
all
earlier; for it would have been impossible to remember
introductions under these circumstances. He tried to be polite, but
his gaze kept drifting to the broad sheet of thick glass that split
the meeting room in two.
The table ended abruptly at that division. And although the
conference room’s lighting was low, the chamber beyond was even
darker. A single spotlight shone on a shimmering, opalescent
face-like a pearl, or a moon in the night.
Behind the single, gleaming, gray camera lens was a dark
cylinder on which two banks of little flashing lights rippled in a
complex pattern that seemed to repeat over and over again.
Something in the repetitious waves touched Gordon inside… He
couldn’t pin down exactly how. It was hard to tear his gaze away
from the rows of winking pinpoints.
The machine was swaddled in a soft cloud of thick
vapor. And although the glass was thick, Gordon
felt a
faint sense of cold coming from the far end of the
room.
The First Servant, Dr. Edward Taigher, took Gordon by the arm
and faced the glass eye.
“Cyclops,” he said. “I’d like you to meet Mr. Gordon Krantz.
He
has presented credentials showing him to be a United States
government postal inspector, and representative of the restored
republic.
“Mr. Krantz, may I present Cyclops.”
Gordon looked at the pearly lens-at the flashing lights and
the
drifting fog-and had to quash the feeling of being like a small
child who had seriously overreached himself in his
lies.
“It is very good to meet you, Gordon. Please, be
seated.”
The gentle voice had a perfect human timbre. It came from a
speaker set on the end of the oak table. Gordon sat in a padded
chair Peter Aage offered. There was a pause. Then Cyclops spoke
again.
“The tidings you bring are joyous, Gordon. After all these
years
caring for the people of the lower Willamette Valley, it seems
almost too good to be true.”
Another brief hiatus, then, “It has been rewarding, working
with
my friends who insist on calling themselves my ‘Servants.’ But it
has also been lonely and hard, imagining the rest of the world to
lie in ruins.
“Please tell me, Gordon. Do any of my brothers still survive
in
the East?”
He had to blink. Finding his voice, Gordon shook his head.
“No,
Cyclops. I’m very sorry. None of the other great machines made it
through the destruction. I’m afraid you are the last of your
species left alive.”
Though he regretted having to give it the news, he hoped it
was
a good omen to be able to start out by telling the
truth.
Cyclops was silent for a long moment. Surely it was only his
imagination when Gordon thought he heard a faint sigh, almost like
a sob.
During the pause, the tiny parity lights below the camera lens
went on flashing, as if signaling over and over again in some
hidden language. Gordon knew he had to keep talking, or lose
himself in that hypnotic pattern. “Uh, in fact, Cyclops, most of
the big computers died in the first seconds of the war-you know,
the electromagnetic pulses. I can’t help being curious how you
yourself survived it.”
Like Gordon, the machine seemed to shake aside a sad
contemplation in order to answer.
“That is a good question. It turns out that my survival was a
fortunate accident of timing. You see the war broke out on
Visitor’s Day, here at OSU. When the pulses flew, I happened to be
in my Faraday cage for a public demonstration. So you see…”
Interested as he was in Cyclops’s story, Gordon felt a
momentary
sense of triumph. He had taken the initiative in this interview,
asking questions exactly as a “federal inspector” would. He glanced
at the sober faces of the human Servants, and knew he had won a
small victory. They were taking him very seriously
indeed.
Maybe this would work out, after all.
Still, he avoided looking at the rippling lights. And soon he
felt himself begin to sweat, even in the coolness near the
superchilled pane of glass.
8
In four days the meetings and negotiations were over.
Suddenly,
before he had really prepared himself, it was time to leave again.
Peter Aage walked with Gordon, helping him carry his two slim
saddlebags toward the stables where his mounts were being
readied.
“I’m sorry it took so long, Gordon. I know you’ve been anxious
to get back to work building your postal network. Cyclops only
wanted to fix up the right itinerary for you, so you can swing
through north Oregon most efficiently.”
“That’s all right, Peter,” Gordon shrugged, pretending. “The
delay wasn’t bad, and I appreciate the help.”
They walked for a time in silence, Gordon’s thoughts a hidden
turmoil. If Peter only knew how much I would have preferred
to
stay. If only there were a way…
Gordon had come to love the simple
comfort of his guest
room, across from the House of Cyclops, the large and pleasant
commissary meals, the impressive library of well-cared-for books.
Perhaps most of all he would miss the electric light by his bed. He
had read himself to sleep each of the last four nights, a habit of
his youth, quickly reawakened after long, long
dormancy.
A pair of tan-jacketed guards tipped their hats as Gordon and
Aage turned the corner of the House of Cyclops and started across
an open field on their way to the stables.
While he waited for Cyclops to prepare his itinerary, Gordon
had
visited much of the area around Corvallis, talking with dozens of
people about scientific farming, about simple but technically
advanced crafts, and about the theory behind the loose
confederation that made for Cyclops’s peace. The secret of the
Valley was simple. No one wanted to fight, not when it might mean
being left out of the cornucopia of wonders promised someday by the
great machine.
But one conversation, in particular, stuck in his head. It had
been last night, with the youngest Servant of Cyclops, Dena
Spurgen.
She had kept him up late by the fire in the commissary,
chaperoned by two of her girl emissaries, pouring cups of tea until
he sloshed, pestering him with questions about his life before and
after the Doomwar.
Gordon had learned many tricks to avoid getting too specific
about the “Restored United States,” but he had no defense against
this sort of grilling. She seemed far less interested in the thing
that excited everyone else, contact with the “rest of the nation.”
Clearly, that was a process that would take decades.
No, Dena wanted to know about the world just before and after
the bombs. She was especially fascinated by that awful, tragic year
he had spent with Lieutenant Van and his militia platoon. She
wanted to know about every man in the unit, his flaws and foibles,
the courage-or obstinacy-that made him continue to fight long after
the cause was lost.
No… not lost. Gordon had reminded himself just in time to
invent a happy ending to the Battle of Meeker County. The cavalry
came. The granaries were saved at the last minute. Good men died-he
spared no details of Tiny Kielre’s agony, or Drew Simms’s brave
stand-but in his tale their struggles were not for
nothing.
He told it the way it should have ended,
feeling the
wish with an intensity that surprised him. The women listened with
rapt attention, as if it were a wonderful bedtime story-or as if it
were critical data and they were going to be tested on it in the
morning.
I wish I knew exactly what it was they were hearing-
what they were trying to find in my own small, grimy
tale.
Perhaps it was because the Lower Willamette had been at peace
for so long, but Dena had also wanted to know about the
worst men he had met, as well… everything he
knew
about the looters and hyper-survivalists and
Holnists.
The cancer at the heart of the end-of-the-century
renaissance… I hope you are burning in Hell,
Nathan
Holn.
Dena kept asking questions even after Tracy and Mary Ann had
fallen asleep by the fire. Normally, he would have been aroused by
such close, admiring attention from an attractive woman. But this
was not the same as it had been with Abby, back in Pine View. Dena
had not seemed uninterested in him that way, to be sure. It was
just that she seemed much more intensely involved
in his
value as a source of information. And if he was only to be here for
a few days, she was completely unhesitant in choosing how best to
use the time.
Gordon found her, all in all, overpowering and maybe a bit
obsessed. Yet he knew that she would be unhappy to see him
go.
She was probably the only one. Gordon had the distinct feeling
that most of the other Servants of Cyclops were happy to be rid of
him. Even Peter Aage seemed relieved.
It’s my role, of course. It makes them nervous.
Perhaps,
deep inside, they sense some falseness. I couldn’t really blame
them.
Even if the majority of the techs believed his story, they had
little reason to love a representative of a remote “government”
certain to meddle-sooner or later-in what they had spent so long
building. They talked about eagerness for contact
with the
outside world. But Gordon sensed that many of them felt it would be
an imposition, at best.
Not that they really had anything to fear, of
course.
Gordon still wasn’t sure about the attitude of Cyclops itself.
The great machine who had taken responsibility for an entire valley
had been rather tentative and distant during their later
interviews. There had been no jokes or clever puns, only a smooth
and involute seriousness. The coolness had been disappointing after
his memory of that prewar day in Minneapolis.
Of course his recollection of that other supercomputer long
ago
might have been colored by time. Cyclops and its Servants had
accomplished so much here. He was not one to judge.
Gordon looked around as he and his escort walked past a
cluster
of burned out structures. “It looks like there was a lot of
fighting here once,” he commented aloud.
Peter frowned, remembering. “We pushed back one of the
AntiTech
mobs right over there, by the old utility shed. You can see the
melted transformers and the old emergency generator. We had to
switch over to wind and water power after they blew it
up.”
Blackened shreds of power-converting machinery still lay in
shriveled heaps where the technicians and scientists had fought
desperately to save their lifework. It reminded Gordon of his other
worry.
“I still think more ought to be done about the possibility of
a
survivalist invasion, Peter. It’ll come soon, if I overheard those
scouts right.”
“But you admit you only heard scraps of conversation that
could
have been misinterpreted.” Aage shrugged. “We’ll beef up our
patrols, of course, as soon as we have a chance to draw up plans
and discuss the matter some more. But you must understand that
Cyclops has his own credibility to consider. There hasn’t been a
general mobilization in ten years. If Cyclops made such a call, and
it turned out to be a false alarm…” He let the implication
hang.
Gordon knew that local village leaders had misgivings over his
story. They didn’t want to draw men from the second planting. And
Cyclops had expressed doubts that the Holnist gangs really could
organize for a truly major strike several hundred miles upcoast. It
just wasn’t in the hyper-survivalist mentality, the great machine
explained.
Gordon finally had to take Cyclops’s word for it. After all,
its
superconducting memory banks had access to every psychology text
ever written-and all the works of Holn himself.
Perhaps the Rogue River scouts were merely on a small-time
raid,
and had talked big to impress themselves.
Perhaps.
Well, here we are.
The stable hands took his satchels, containing a few personal
possessions and three books borrowed from the community library.
They had already saddled his new mount, a fine, strong gelding. A
large, placid mare carried supplies and two bulging sacks of
hope-filled mail. If one in fifty of the intended recipients still
lived, it would be a miracle. But for those few a single letter
might mean much, and would begin the long, slow process of
reconnection.
Maybe his role would do some good-enough
at least to
counterbalance a lie…
Gordon swung up onto the gelding. He patted and spoke to the
spirited animal until it was calm. Peter offered his hand. “We’ll
see you again in three months, when you swing by on your way back
East again.”
Almost exactly what Dena Spurgen said. Maybe I’ll be
back
even sooner, if I ever come up with the courage to tell you all the
truth.
“By then, Gordon, Cyclops promises to have a proper report on
conditions here in north Oregon worked up for your
superiors.”
Aage gripped his hand for another moment. Once again Gordon
was
puzzled. The fellow looked as if, somehow, he were unhappy about
something-something he could not speak of. “Godspeed in your
valuable work, Gordon,” he said earnestly. “If there’s ever
anything I can do to help, anything at all, you have only to let me
know.”
Gordon nodded. No more words were needed, thank Heaven. He
nudged the gelding, and swung about onto the road north. The pack
horse followed close behind.
9
BUENA VISTA
The Servants of Cyclops had told him that the Interstate was
broken up and unsafe north of Corvallis, so Gordon used a county
road that paralleled not far to the west. Debris and potholes made
for slow going, and he was forced to take his lunch in the ruins of
the town of Buena Vista.
It was still fairly early in the afternoon, but clouds were
gathering, and tattered shreds of fog blew down the rubble-strewn
streets. By coincidence, it was the day when area farmers gathered
at a park in the center of the unpopulated town for a country
market. Gordon chatted with them as he munched on cheese and bread
from his saddlebags.
“Ain’t nothin‘ wrong with the Interstate up here,” one of the
locals told him, shaking his head in puzzlement. “Them perfessers
must not get out this way much. They aren’t lean travelin’ men such
as yourself, Mr. Krantz. Must’ve got their wires crossed, for all
their buzzin‘ brains.” The farmer chuckled at his own
wit.
Gordon didn’t mention that his itinerary had been planned by
Cyclops itself. He thanked the fellow and went back to his
saddlebags to pull out the map he had been given.
It was covered with an impressive array of computer graphics,
charting out in fine symbols the path he should take in
establishing a postal network in northern Oregon. He had been told
the itinerary was designed to take him most efficiently around
hazards such as known lawless areas and the belt of radioactivity
near Portland.
Gordon stroked his beard. The longer he examined the map, the
more puzzled he grew, Cyclops had to know what it was doing. Yet
the winding path looked anything but efficient to
him.
Against his will he began to suspect it was designed instead
to
take him far out of his way. To waste his time, rather than save
it.
But why would Cyclops want to do such a
thing?
It couldn’t be that the super machine feared his interference.
By now Gordon knew just the right pitch to ease such anxiety…
emphasizing that the “Restored U.S.” had no wish to meddle in local
matters. Cyclops had appeared to believe him.
Gordon lowered the map. The weather was turning as the clouds
lowered, obscuring the tops of the ruined buildings. Drifts of fog
flowed along the dusty street, pushing puffy swirls between him and
a surviving storefront win-dowpane. It brought back a sudden, vivid
recollection of other panes of glass-seen through scattered,
refracting droplets.
Death’s head… the postman
grinning, his
skeletal face superimposed on mine.
He shivered at another triggered recognition. The foggy wisps
reminded him of superchilled vapor-his reflection in the cool glass
wall as he met with Cyclops back in Corvallis-and the strangeness
he had felt watching the rows of little flashing lights, repeating
the same rippling pattern over and over…
Repeating…
Suddenly Gordon’s spine felt very cold.
“No,” he whispered. “Please, God.” He closed his eyes and felt
an almost overwhelming need to change his thoughts to another
track, to think about the weather, about pesterous Dena or pretty
little Abby back in Pine View, about anything but…
“But who would do such a thing?” he
protested aloud.
“Why would they do it?”
Reluctantly, he realized he knew why. He was an expert on the
strongest reason why people told lies.
Recalling the blackened wreckage behind the House of Cyclops,
he
found himself all at once wondering how the techs could possibly
have accomplished what they claimed to have done. It had been
almost two decades since Gordon had thought about physics, and what
could or could not be achieved with technology. The intervening
years had been filled with the struggle to survive-and his
persistent dreams of a golden place of renewal. He was in no
position to say what was or was not possible.
But he had to find out if his wild suspicion was true. He
could
not sleep until he knew for sure.
“Excuse me!” he called to one of the farmers. The fellow gave
Gordon a gap-toothed grin and limped over, doffing his hat. “What
can I do for you, Mr. Inspector?”
Gordon pointed at a spot on the map, no more than ten miles
from
Buena Vista as the crow might fly. “This place, Sciotown, do you
know the way?”
“Sure do, boss. If you hurry, you can get there
tonight/‘
“I’ll hurry,” Gordon assured the man. “You can bet your ass
I’ll
hurry.”
1O
SCIOTOWN
“Just a darn minute! I’m coming!” the Mayor of Sciotown
hollered. But the knock on his door went on
insistently.
Herb Kalo carefully lit his new oil lantern-made by a craft
commune five miles west of Corvallis. He recently had traded two
hundred pounds of Sciotown’s best pottery work for twenty of the
fine lamps and three thousand matches from Albany, a deal he felt
was sure to mean his reelection this fall.
The knocking grew louder. “All right! This had better be damn
important!” He threw the bolt and opened the door.
It was Douglas Kee, the man on gate duty tonight. Kalo
blinked.
“Is there a problem, Doug? What’s the-”
“Man here to see you, Herb,” the gateman interrupted. “I
wouldn’t‘ve let him in after curfew, but you told us about him when
you got back from Corvallis-and I didn’t want to keep him standin’
out in the rain.”
Out of the dripping gloom stepped a tall man in a slick
poncho.
A shiny badge on his cap glittered in the lamplight. He held out
his hand.
“Mr. Mayor, it’s good to see you again. I wonder if we could
talk.”
11
CORVALLIS
Gordon had never expected to forsake an offer of a bed and a
hot
meal to go galloping off into a rainy night, but this time he had
no choice. He had commandeered the best horse in the Sciotown
stables, but if he had had to, he would have run all the
way.
The filly moved surefootedly down an old county road toward
Corvallis. She was brave, and trotted as fast as Gordon considered
marginally safe in the darkness. Fortunately, a nearly full moon
lit the ragged, leaky clouds from above, laying a faint lambence
across the broken countryside.
Gordon was afraid he must have put the Mayor of Sciotown in a
state of utter confusion from the first moment he stepped into the
man’s home. Sparing no time for pleasantries, he had come straight
to the point, sending Herb Kalo hurrying back to his office to
retrieve a neatly folded fan of paper.
Gordon had taken the printout over to the lamp, and as Kalo
watched, he carefully pored over the lines of text. “How much did
this advice cost you, Mr. Mayor?” he asked without looking
up.
“Only a little, Inspector,” the man answered nervously.
“Cyclops’s prices have been dropping as more villages have joined
the trade pact. And there was a discount because the advice was
kinda vague.”
“How much?” Gordon insisted.
“Uh, well. We found about ten of those old hand-held vid‘
games,
plus about fifty old rechargeable batteries, of which maybe ten
were good enough to use. And oh yes, a home computer that wasn’t
too badly corroded.”
Gordon suspected that Sciotown actually had much more salvage
than that, and was hoarding it for future transactions. It was what
he would have done.
“What else, Mr. Mayor?”
“I beg your pardon?”
“The question is clear enough,” he said severely.
“What- else-did-you-pay?”
“Why nathin‘ else.” Kalo looked
confused. “Unless, of
course, you include a wagon of food and pottery for the Servants.
But that’s got hardly any value compared to the other stuff. It’s
just added on so’s the scientists have somethin’ to live off while
they help Cyclops.”
Gordon breathed heavily. His pulse didn’t seem to want to slow
down. It all fit, heartbreakingly.
He laboriously read aloud from the computer printout. “…
incipient seepage from plate tectonic boundaries… groundwater
retention variance…” Words he had not seen-or thought of-in
seventeen years rolled off his tongue, tasting like old delicacies,
lovingly remembered.
“… variation in aquifer sustenance ratios… tentative
analysis only, due to teleological hesitancy…”
“We think we’ve got a line on what Cyclops meant,” Kalo
offered.
“We’ll start digging at the two best sites come dry season. Of
course if we didn’t interpret his advice right, it’ll be our fault.
We’ll try agin‘ in some other spots he hinted at…”
The Mayor’s voice had trailed off, for the Inspector was
standing very still, staring at empty space.
“Delphi,” Gordon had breathed, hardly
above a
whisper.
Then the hasty ride through the night began.
Years in the wilds had made Gordon hard; all the while the men
of Corvallis had suffered prosperity. It was almost ludicrously
easy to slip by the guardposts at the city’s edge.
He made his way down empty side streets to the OSU campus, and
thence to long-abandoned Moreland Hall. Gordon spared ten minutes
to rub down his damp mount and fill her feedbag. He wanted the
animal to be in shape in case he needed her quickly.
It was only a short run through the drizzle to the House of
Cyclops. When he got near, he made himself slow down, though he
wanted desperately to get this over with.
He ducked out of sight behind the ruins of the old generator
building as a pair of guards walked past, shoulders hunched under
ponchos, their rifles covered against the dank. As he crouched
behind the burned-out shell, the wetness brought to Gordon’s
nose-even after all these years- the scent of burning from the
blackened timbers and melted wiring.
What was it Peter Aage had said about those frantic early
days,
when authority was falling apart, and the riots raged? He’d said
that they had converted to wind and water power, after the
generator house was torched.
Gordon didn’t doubt it would have worked, too, if it were done
in time. But could it have been?
When the guards had moved off, he hurried to the side entrance
of the House of Cyclops. With a prybar he had brought for the
purpose, he broke the padlock in one sharp snap. He listened for a
long moment, and when nobody appeared to be coming, slipped
inside.
The back halls of the OSU Artificial Intelligence Lab were
grimier than those the public got to see. Racks of forgotten
computer tapes, books, papers, all lay under thick layers of dust.
Gordon made his way to the central service corridor, almost
stumbling twice over debris in the darkness. He hid behind a pair
of double doors as someone passed by, whistling. Then he rose and
peered through the crack.
A man wearing thick gloves and the black-and-white robe of a
Servant stopped by a door down the hall and put down a thick,
battered, foam picnic chest.
“Hey, Elmer!” The man knocked. “I’ve got another load of dry
ice
for our lord ‘n’ master. Come on, hurry it up! Cyclops gotta
eat!”
Dry ice, Gordon noted. Heavy vapor
leaked around the
cracked lid of the insulated container.
Another voice was muffled by the door. “Aw, hold your horses.
It
won’t hurt Cyclops any to wait another minute or
two.”
At last the door opened and light streamed into the hall,
along
with the heavy beat of an old rock and roll
recording.
“What kept you?”
“I had a run going! I was up to a hundred thousand in Missile
Command, and didn’t want to interrupt-”
The closing door cut off the rest of Elmer’s braggadocio.
Gordon
pushed through the swinging double doors and hurried down the
hallway. A little farther, he reached another room whose door was
slightly ajar. From within came a narrow line of light, and the
sounds of a late-night argument. Gordon paused as he recognized
some of the voices.
“I still think we ought to kill him,” said one; it sounded
like
Dr. Grober. “That guy could wreck everything we’ve set up
here.”
“Oh, you are exaggerating the danger, Nick. I don’t really
think
he’s much of a threat.” It was the voice of the oldest woman
Servant-he couldn’t even remember her name. “The fellow really
seemed rather earnest and harmless,” she said.
“Yeah? Well did you hear those questions he was asking
Cyclops?
He’s not one of these rubes our average citizen has become after
all this time. The man is sharp! And he remembers
an awful
lot from the old days!”
“So? Maybe we should try to recruit him.”
“No way! Anyone can see he’s an idealist. He’d never do it.
Our
only option is to kill him! Now! And hope it’s years before they
send someone else to take his place.”
“And I still think you’re crazy,” the woman answered. “If the
act were ever traced to us, the consequences would be
disastrous!”
“I agree with Marjorie.” It was the voice of Dr. Taigher
himself. “Not only the people-our people of Oregon-would turn on
us, but we would face the retribution of the rest of the country,
if it were found out.”
There was a long pause.
“I’m still not all that convinced that
he’s really-”
But Grober was interrupted, this time by the soft voice of Peter
Aage.
“Haven’t you all forgotten the biggest reason why nobody
should
touch him, or interfere with him in any way?”
“What’s that?”
Peter’s voice was hushed. “Good lord, man. Hasn’t it occurred
to
you who this fellow is? And what he represents? How low have we
sunk, to even consider doing him harm, when we really owe him our
loyalty and any help we can give him!”
Without conviction: “You’re just biased because he rescued
your
nephew, Peter.”
“Perhaps. And perhaps it’s what Dena has to say about
him.”
“Dena!” Grober sniffed. “An infatuated child with wild
ideas.”
“All right But even if I grant you that, too, there are the
flags.”
“Flags?” Now there was puzzlement in Dr. Taigher’s voice.
“What
flags?”
The woman answered, pensively. “Peter is referring to the
flags
the townsmen have been putting up in all the local boroughs. You
know, Old Glory? The Stars and Stripes? You should get out more,
Ed. Get a feel for what the people are thinking. I’ve never seen
anything stir the villagers up like this, even before the
war.”
There was another long silence before anyone spoke again. Then
Grober said, softly, “I wonder what Joseph thinks of all
this.”
Gordon frowned. He recognized all the voices inside as senior
Servants of Cyclops whom he had met. But he didn’t remember being
introduced to anyone named Joseph.
“Joseph went to bed early, I think,” Taigher said. “And that’s
where I’m headed now. We’ll discuss this again later, when we can
go about it rationally.”
Gordon hurried down the hall as footsteps approached the door.
He didn’t much mind being forced to leave his eavesdropping spot.
The opinions of the people in the room were of no importance,
anyway. No importance at all.
There was only one voice he wanted to hear right now, and he
headed straight to where he had listened to it last.
He ducked around a corner and found himself in the elegant
hallway where he had first met Herb Kalo. The passage was dim now,
but that did not keep him from picking the conference room lock
with pathetic ease. Gordon’s mouth was dry as he slipped into the
chamber, closing the door behind him. He stepped forward, fighting
the urge to walk on tiptoes.
Beyond the conference table, soft light shone on the gray
cylinder on the other side of the glass wall.
“Please,” he wished, “let me be wrong.”
If he was, then surely Cyclops itself would be amused by his
chain of faulty deduction. How he longed to share a laugh over his
foolish paranoia.
He approached the great glass barrier dividing the room, and
the
speaker at the end of the table. “Cyclops?” he whispered, stepping
closer, clearing his tight throat. “Cyclops, it’s me,
Gordon.”
The glow in the pearly lens was subdued. But the row of little
lights still flashed-a complex pattern that repeated over and over
like an urgent message from a distant ship in some lost code-ever,
hypnotically, the same.
Gordon felt a frantic dread rise within him, as when, during
his
boyhood, he had encountered his grandfather lying perfectly still
on the porch swing, and feared to find that the beloved old man had
died.
The pattern of lights repeated, over and over.
Gordon wondered. How many people would recall, after the hell
of
the last seventeen years, that the parity displays of a great
computer never repeated themselves? Gordon remembered a
cyberneticist friend telling him that the patterns of lights were
like snowflakes, none ever the same as any other
“Cyclops,” he said evenly. “Answer me! I
demand you answer-in the name of decency! In the
name of
the United St-”
He stopped. He couldn’t bring himself to meet this lie with
another. Here, the only living mind he would fool would be
himself.
The room was warmer than it had seemed during his interview.
He
looked for, and found, the little vents through which cool air
could be directed at a visitor seated in the guest chair, giving an
impression of great cold just beyond the glass wall.
“Dry ice,” he muttered. “To fool the citizens of
Oz.”
Dorothy herself could not have felt more betrayed. Gordon had
been willing to lay down his life for what had seemed to exist
here. And now he knew it was nothing but a cheat. A way for a bunch
of surviving sophisticates to fleece their neighbors of food and
clothing, and have them be grateful for the
privilege.
By creating the myth of the “Millennium Project” and a market
for salvaged electronics, they had managed to convince the locals
that the old electric machines were of great value. All through the
lower Willamette Valley, people now hoarded home comps, appliances,
and toys-because Cy- clops would accept them in
trade for
its advice.
The “Servants of Cyclops” had arranged it so that canny people
like Herb Kalo hardly even counted the tithe of food and other
goods that were added for the Servants
themselves.
The scientists ate well, Gordon remembered. And none of the
farmers ever complained.
“It’s not your fault,” he told the silent machine, softly.
“You
really would have designed the tools, made up for
all the
lost expertise-helped us find the road back. You and your kind were
the greatest thing we had ever done…”
He choked, remembering the warm, wise voice in Minneapolis, so
long ago. His vision blurred and he looked down.
“You are right, Gordon. It is nobody’s
fault”
Gordon gasped. In a flash, molten hope burned that he had been
mistaken! It was the voice of Cyclops!
But it had not come from the speaker grille. He turned
quickly,
and saw-
-that a thin old man sat in the shadowed back corner of the
room, watching him.
“I often come here, you know.” The aged one spoke with the
voice
of Cyclops-a sad voice, filled with regret. “I come to sit with the
ghost of my friend, who died so long ago, right here in this
room.”
The old man leaned forward a little. Pearly light shone on his
face. “My name is Joseph Lazarensky, Gordon. I built Cyclops, so
many years ago.” He looked down at his hands. “I oversaw his
programming and education. I loved him as I would my own
son.
“And like any good father, I was proud to know that he would
be
a better, kinder, more human being than I had
been.”
Lazarensky sighed. “He really did survive the onset of the
war,
you know. That part of the story is true. Cyclops was
in
his Faraday cage, safe from the battle pulses. And he remained
there while we fought to keep him alive.
“The first and only time I ever killed a man was on the night
of
the Anti-Tech riots. I helped defend the powerhouse, shooting like
somebody crazed.
“But it was no use. The generators were destroyed, even as the
militia finally arrived to drive the mad crowds back… too
late. Minutes, years too late.”
He spread his hands. “As you seem to have figured out, Gordon,
there was nothing to do after that… nothing but to sit with
Cyclops, and watch him die.”
Gordon remained very still, standing in the ghostly ashlight.
Lazarensky went on.
“We had built up great hopes, you know. Before the riots we
had
already conceived of the Millenium Plan. Or I should say
Cyclops conceived of it. He already had the
outlines of a
program for rebuilding the world. He needed a couple of months, he
said, to work out the details.”
Gordon felt as if his face were made of stone. He waited
silently.
“Do you know anything about quantum-memory bubbles, Gordon?
Compared to them, Josephson junctions are made of sticks and mud.
The bubbles are as light and fragile as thought. They allow
mentation a million times faster than neurons. But they must be
kept supercold to exist at all. And once destroyed, they cannot be
remade.
“We tried to save him, but we could not.” The old man looked
down again. “I would rather have died myself, that
night.”
“So you decided to carry out the plan on your own,” Gordon
suggested dryly.
Lazarensky shook his head. “You know better, of course.
Without
Cyclops the task was impossible. All we could do was present a
shell. An illusion.
“It offered a way to survive in the coming dark age. All
around
us was chaos and suspicion. The only leverage we poor intellectuals
had was a weak, flickering thing called Hope,”
“Hope!” Gordon laughed bitterly. Lazarensky
shrugged.
“Petitioners come to speak with Cyclops, and they speak with
me.
It isn’t hard, usually, to give good advice, to look up simple
techniques in books, or to mediate disputes with common sense. They
believe in the impartiality of the computer where they would never
trust a living man.”
“And where you can’t come up with a commonsense answer, you go
oracular on them.”
Again the shrug. “It worked at Delphi and at Ephesus, Gordon.
And honestly, where is the harm? The people of the Willamette have
seen too many power-hungry monsters over the last twenty years to
unite under any man or group of men. But oh, they remember the
machines! As they recall that ancient uniform you wear, even though
in better days they so often treated it with terrible
disrespect.”
There were voices in the hall. They passed close by, then
faded
away. Gordon stirred, “I’ve got to get out of here.”
Lazarensky laughed. “Oh don’t worry about the others. They’re
all talk and no action. They aren’t like you at
all.”
“You don’t know me,” Gordon growled.
“No? As ‘Cyclops’ I spoke with you for some hours. And both my
adopted daughter and young Peter Aage have talked of you at length.
I know more about you than you might imagine.
“You’re a rarity, Gordon. Somehow, out there in the wilderness
you managed to retain a modern mind, while gaining a strength
suited for these times. Even if that bunch out there ever tried to
harm you, you would outsmart them.”
Gordon moved to the door, then stopped. He turned and looked
back one last time at the soft glow from the dead machine, the tiny
lights rippling hopelessly over and over again.
“I’m not so smart.” His breath was hard in his throat. “You
see,
I believed!”
He met Lazarensky’s eyes, and finally the old man looked down,
unable to answer. Gordon stumbled out then, leaving the
death-chilled crypt and its corpses behind him.
12
OREGON
He made it back to where his horse was tethered just as faint
glimmers of dawn were brightening the eastern sky. He remounted,
and with his heels he guided the filly up the old service road to
the north. Within he felt a hollow grief, as if a freezing cold had
locked up his heart. Nothing within him could move, for fear of
shattering something tottering, precarious.
He had to get away from this place. That much was clear. Let
the
fools have their myths. He was finished!
He would not return to Sciotown, where he had left the
mailbags.
All that was behind him now. He began unbuttoning the blouse of his
uniform, intending to drop it in a roadside ditch-along, forever,
with his share in all the lying.
Unbidden, a phrase echoed in his mind.
Who will take responsibility now . . . ?
What? He shook his head to clear it, but the words would not
go
away.
Who will take responsibility now, for these foolish
children?
Gordon cursed and dug in his heels. The horse gamely sped
northward, away from everything he had treasured only yesterday
morning… but now knew to be a Potemkin facade. A cheap, dime
store mannequin. Oz.
Who will take responsibility . . .
The words repeated over and over again within his head, firmly
lodged like a tune that would not let go. It was the same rhythm-he
realized at last-as the winking lights of the parity display on the
face of the old, dead machine, lights that had rippled again and
again.
… for these foolish
children?
The filly trotted on in the dawnlight past orchards bordered
by
rows of ruined cars, and a strange thought suddenly occurred to
Gordon. What if-at the end of its life, as the last drops of liquid
helium evaporated away and the deadly heat rushed in-what if the
final thought of the innocent, wise machine had somehow been caught
in a loop, preserved in peripheral circuits, to flash forlornly
over and over again?
Would that qualify as a ghost?
He wondered, what would Cyclops’s final thoughts, its last
words, have been?
Can a man be haunted by the ghost of a
machine?
Gordon shook his head. He was tired, or else he would not
think
up such nonsense. He didn’t owe anybody anything!
Certainly not a scrap of ruined tin, or a desiccated specter found
in a rusted jeep.
“Ghosts!” He spat on the side of the road and laughed
dryly.
Still, the words echoed round and round inside. Who
will
take responsibility now…
So absorbed was he that it took a few moments at first for him
to recognize the faint sounds of shouting behind him. Gordon pulled
up on the reins and turned to look back, his hand resting on the
butt of his revolver. Anyone who pursued him now did so at great
peril. Lazarensky had been right about one thing. Gordon knew he
was more than a match for this bunch.
In the distance he saw there was a flurry of frantic activity
in
front of the House of Cyclops, but… but the commotion
apparently did not have to do with him,
Gordon shaded his eyes against the glare of the new sun, and
saw
steam rising from a pair of heavily lathered horses. One exhausted
man stumbled up the steps of the House of Cyclops, shouting at
those hurrying to his side.
Another messenger, apparently badly wounded, was being tended
on
the ground.
Gordon heard one word cried out loudly. It told
all.
“Survivalists!”
He had one word to offer in reply.
“Shit.”
He turned his back on the noises and snapped the reins,
sending
the filly northward once again.
A day ago he would have helped. He’d been willing to lay down
his life trying to save Cyclops’s dream, and probably would have
done just that.
He would have died for a hollow farce, a ruse, a con
game!
If the Holnist invasion had really begun, the villagers south
of
Eugene would put up a good fight. The raiders would turn north
toward the front of least resistance. The soft north Willametters
didn’t stand a chance against the Rogue River men.
Still, there probably weren’t enough Holnists to take the
entire
valley. Corvallis would fall, certainly, but there would be other
places to go. Perhaps he might head east on Highway 22, and swing
back around to Pine View, It would be nice to see Mrs. Thompson
again. Maybe he could be there when Abby’s baby
arrived.
The filly trotted on. The shouts died away behind him, like a
bad memory slowly fading. It promised to be fair weather, the first
in weeks without clouds. A good day for traveling.
As Gordon rode on, a cool breeze blew through his half open
shirtfront. A hundred yards down the road he found his hand
drifting to the buttons again, twisting one slowly, back and
forth.
The pony sauntered, slowed, and came to a halt. Gordon sat,
his
shoulders hunched forward.
Who will take responsibility…
The words would not go away, lights pulsing in his
mind.
The horse tossed her head and snorted, pawing at the
ground.
Who… ?“
Gordon cried out, “Aw, hell!” He wheeled
the filly
about, sending her cantering southward again.
A babbling, frightened crowd of men and women stepped back in
hushed silence as he clattered up to the portico of the House of
Cyclops. His spirited mount danced and blew as he stared down at
the people for a long, silent moment.
Finally, Gordon threw his poncho back. He rebuttoned his shirt
and set the postman’s cap on his head so the bright brass rider
shone in the light of the rising sun.
He took a deep breath. Then he began pointing, giving terse
commands.
In the name of survival-and in the name of the “Restored
United
States”-the people of Corvallis and the Servants of Cyclops all
hurried to obey.
INTERLUDE
High above gray, foam-flecked wavetops, the jet
stream
throbbed. Winter had come again, and winds moaned chill
recollections over the north Pacific.
Fewer than twenty cycles past, the normal patterns
of the
air had been perturbed by great, dark funnels- as
if armies
of angry volcanoes had chosen the same moment to throw earth
against sky.
If the episode had not ended quickly, perhaps all
life might
have vanished, and the ice returned forever. Even as it was, clouds
of ash had blanketed the Earth for weeks before the larger grains
fell out of the sky like dirty rain. Smaller bits of rock and soot
dispersed into the high stratospheric streams, scattering the
sunlight.
Years passed before spring came again, at
last.
It did come. The Ocean- slow,
resilient- surrendered up just enough heat to stop
the
spiral short of no-return. In time, warm, sea-drenched clouds again
swept over the continent. The tall trees grew, and weeds sprouted
earnestly, unmolested, through cracks in broken
pavement.
Still, there remained plenty of dust, riding the
high winds.
Now and then the cold air ventured south again, carrying reminders
of the Long Chill. Vapor crystalized around the grains, forming
complex, fractal hexahedrons. Snowflakes grew and
fell.
Obstinate, Winter arrived one more time to claim a
dark
country.
III
CINCINNATUS
1
Gusts sculpted whirling devil shapes in the blowing snow-
flurries that seemed to rise, ghostlike, from the gray drifts,
fluttering and darting windblown under the frosted
trees.
A heavily laden branch cracked, unable to bear the weight of
one
more dingy snowflake. The report echoed like a muffled gunshot down
the narrow forest lanes.
Snow delicately covered the death-glazed eyes of a starved
deer,
filling the channels between its starkly outlined ribs. Flakes soon
hid faint grooves in the icy ground where the animal had last
pawed, only hours ago, in its fruitless search for
food.
Taking no sides, the dancing flurries went on to cloak other
victims as well, settling soft white layers over crimson stains in
the crushed, older snow.
All the corpses soon lay blanketed, peaceful, as if
asleep.
The new storm had erased most signs of the struggle by the
time
Gordon found Tracy’s body under the dark shadow of a
winter-whitened cedar. By then a frozen crust had stanched the
bleeding. Nothing more flowed from the unlucky young woman’s
slashed throat.
Gordon pushed away thoughts of Tracy as he had briefly known
her
in life-ever cheerful and brave, with a slightly mad enthusiasm for
the hopeless job she had taken on. His lips pressed together grimly
as he tore open her woolen shirt and reached in to feel under her
armpit.
The body was still warm. This had not happened long
ago.
Gordon squinted to the southwest, where tracks- already fading
under the blowing snow-led off into the painful ice-brightness. In
a flat, almost silent movement, a white-clad shape appeared beside
him.
“Damn!” he heard Philip Bokuto whisper. “Tracy was good! I
could
have sworn those pricks wouldn’t have been able to-”
“Well, they did ” Gordon cut him off sharply. “And it wasn’t
more than ten minutes ago.”
Taking the girl’s belt buckle, he heaved her over to show the
other man. The dark brown face under the white parka nodded
silently, understanding. Tracy had not been molested, or even
mutilated with Holnist symbols. This small band of
hyper-survivalists had been in too much of a hurry even to stop and
take their customary, grisly trophies.
“We can catch ‘em,” Bokuto whispered. Anger burned in his
eyes.
“I can fetch the rest of the patrol and be back here in three
minutes.”
Gordon shook his head. “No, Phil. We’ve already chased them
too
far beyond our defense perimeter. They’ll have an ambush set by the
time we get close. We’d better just collect Tracy’s body and go
home now.”
Bokuto’s jaw clenched, a bunching of tendons. For the first
time
his voice rose above a whisper. “We can catch the
bastards!”
Gordon felt a wave of irritation. What right does
Philip
have to do this to me? Bokuto had once been a sergeant in
the
Marines, before the world fell to ruin nearly two decades ago. It
should have been his job, not Gordon’s, to make
the
practical, unsatisfying decisions… to be the one
responsible.
He shook his head. “No, we will not. And that’s final.” He
looked down at the girl-until this afternoon the second best scout
in the Army of the Willamette… but apparently not quite good
enough. “We need living fighters, Phil. We need fierce men, not
more corpses.”
For a silent moment neither looked at the other. Then Bokuto
pushed Gordon to one side and stepped over the still form on the
snow.
“Give me five minutes before you bring up the rest of the
patrol,” he told Gordon as he dragged Tracy’s body into the leeward
shadow of the cedar and drew his knife. “You’re right, sir. We need
angry men. Tracy and I’ll see to it that’s what you
get.”
Gordon blinked. “Phil.” He reached forward.
“Don’t.”
Bokuto ignored Gordon’s hand as he grimaced and tore Tracy’s
shirt open wider. He did not look up, but his voice was broken. “I
said you’re right! We have to make our cow-eyed farmers mad enough
to fight! And this is one of the ways Dena and Tracy told us to
use, if we had to…”
Gordon could hardly believe this. “Dena’s crazy,
Phil!
Haven’t you realized that by now? Please, don’t do this!” He
grabbed the man’s arm and pulled him around, but then had to step
back from the threatening glitter of Bokuto’s knife. His friend’s
eyes were hot and agonized as he waved Gordon away.
“Don’t make this harder for me, Gordon! You’re my commander,
and
I’ll serve you so long as it’s the best way to kill as many of
those Holnist bastards as possible.
“But Gordon, you get so frigging civilized
at the worst
of times! That’s when I draw the line. Do you hear me? I won’t let
you betray Tracy, or Dena, or me with your fits of
Twentieth-Century sappiness!
“Now, get outta here, Mr. Inspector… sir.”
Bokuto’s voice was thick with emotion, “And remember to give me
five minutes before you bring up the others.”
He glowered until Gordon had backed away. Then he spat on the
ground, wiped one eye, and bent back to the grisly task awaiting
him.
At first Gordon stumbled, half stunned, as he retreated down
the
gray-sided meadow. Phil Bokuto had never turned on him that way
before, waving a knife, wild-eyed, disobeying orders…
Then Gordon remembered.
I never actually commanded him not to do
this, did I? I
asked, I pleaded. But I didn’t order him…
Am I completely sure he isn’t right, at that? Do even I, deep
inside, believe some of those things Dena and her band of lunatic
women are preaching?
Gordon shook his head. Phil was certainly right about one
thing-the stupidity of philosophizing on a battlefield. Out here
survival was enough of a problem. That other war-the one he had
been waging each night in his dreams-would have to wait its
turn.
He made his way downslope carefully, clutching his drawn
bayonet, the most practical weapon for this kind of weather. Half
his men had put aside their rifles and bows for long knives…
another trick painfully learned from their deadly, devious
enemy.
He and Bokuto had left the rest of the patrol only fifty
meters
back, but it felt like much more as his eyes darted in search of
traps. The whirling snow-devils seemed to take on forms, like the
vaporous scouts of a faerie army that had not yet taken sides.
Ethereal neutrals in a quiet, deadly war.
Who will take responsibility… ? they
seemed to
whisper at him. The words had never left Gordon, not since that
fateful morning when he had chosen between practicality and a
doomed charade of hope.
At least this particular raiding party of Holn survivalists
had
fared worse than usual, and the local farmers and villagers had
done better than anyone would have expected. Also, Gordon and his
escort party had been on an inspection tour nearby. They had been
able to join the fray at a critical moment.
In essence, his Army of the Willamette had won a minor
victory,
losing only twenty or so men to five of the enemy. There were
probably no more than three or four of this Holnist band left to
flee westward.
Still, four of those human monsters were more than enough,
even
tired and short on ammunition. His patrol only numbered seven now,
and help was far away.
Let them go. They’ll be back.
The hoot of a horned owl warbled just ahead of him. He
recognized Leif Morrison’s challenge. He’s getting better,
Gordon thought. If we’re still alive
in a year, it
might even sound real enough to fool someone.
He pursed his lips and tried to mimic the call, two hoots in
answer to Morrison’s three. Then he dashed across a narrow glade
and slid into the gully where the patrol waited.
Morrison and two other men gathered close. Their beards and
sheepskin cloaks were coated with dry snow, and they fingered their
weapons nervously.
“Joe and Andy?” Gordon asked.
Leif, the big Swede, nodded left and right. “Pickets,” he said
tersely.
Gordon nodded. “Good.” Under the big spruce he untied his pack
and pulled out a thermos bottle. One of the privileges of rank; he
didn’t have to ask permission to pour himself a cup of hot
cider.
The others took their positions again, but kept glancing back,
obviously wondering what “the Inspector” was up to this time.
Morrison, a farmer who had barely escaped the rape of Greenleaf
Town last September, eyed him with the simmering look of a man who
had lost everything he loved, and was therefore no longer entirely
of this world.
Gordon glanced at his watch-a beautiful, prewar chronometer
provided by the technicians of Corvallis. Bokuto had had enough
time. By now he would be circling back, covering his
tracks.
“Tracy’s dead,” he told the others. Their faces blanched.
Gordon
went on, weighing their reactions. “I guess she was trying to cut
around past the bastards and hold them for us. She didn’t ask my
permission.” He shrugged. “They got her.”
The stunned expressions turned into a round of seething,
guttural curses. Better, Gordon thought. But
the
Holnists won’t wait for you to remember to get
mad next
time, boys. They’ll kill you while you’re still deciding whether or
not to be scared.
Well practiced by now at the art of lying, Gordon continued in
a
flat tone. “Five minutes quicker and we might have saved her. As it
is, they had time to take souvenirs.”
This time anger battled revulsion on their faces. And burning
shame overcame both. “Let’s go after ‘em!” Morrison urged. “They
can’t be far ahead!” The others muttered agreement.
Not quickly enough, Gordon judged.
“No. If you boys were sluggish getting here, you’re much too
slow to deal with the inevitable ambush. We’ll move up in skirmish
line and retrieve Tracy’s body. Then we’re going
home.”
One of the farmers-among the loudest demanding pursuit-showed
immediate relief. The others, though, glared back at Gordon, hating
him for his words.
Stand in line, boys, Gordon thought
bitterly. If I
were a real leader of men, Id have found a better
way to
put backbone into you than this,
He put away his thermos, not offering any cider to the others.
The implication was clear-that they didn’t deserve any. “Hop to
it,” he said as he slung his light pack over his
shoulders.
They did move quickly this time, gathering their gear and
scrambling out across the snow. Over to the left and right he saw
Joe and Andy emerge from cover and take their places on the flanks.
Holnists would never have been so visible, of course, but then,
they had had a lot more practice than these reluctant
soldiers.
Those with unlimbered rifles covered the knife men, who dashed
ahead. Gordon easily kept up, just behind the skirmish line. In a
minute he felt Bokuto fall in beside him, appearing as if out of
nowhere from behind a tree. For all of their earnestness, none of
the farmers had spotted him.
The scout’s expression was blank, but Gordon knew what he was
feeling. He did not meet Bokuto’s eyes.
Ahead there came a sudden, angry exclamation. The lead man
must
have come upon Tracy’s mutilated body. “Imagine how they’d feel if
they ever found out the truth about that,” Philip told Gordon
softly. “Or if they ever discovered the real reason why most of
your scouts are girls.”
Gordon shrugged. It had been a woman’s idea, but he had agreed
to it. The guilt was his alone. So much guilt, in a cause he knew
was hopeless.
And yet he could not let even the cynical Bokuto sense the
full
extent of the truth. For his sake Gordon maintained a
front.
“You know the main reason,” he told his aide. “Underneath
Dena’s
theories and the promise of Cyclops, beneath it all you know what
it’s for.”
Bokuto nodded, and for a brief moment there was something else
in his voice. “For the Restored United States,” he said softly,
almost reverently.
Lies within lies, Gordon thought. If
you ever found
out the truth, my friend…
“For the Restored United States,” he agreed aloud.
“Yeah.”
Together they moved ahead to watch over their army of
frightened, but now angry men.
2
“It’s no good, Cyclops.”
Beyond the thick pane of glass, a pearly, opalescent eye
stared
back at him from a tall cylinder swaddled in cool fog. A double row
of tiny, flickering lights rippled a complex pattern over and over
again. This was Gordon’s ghost… the specter that had haunted
him for months now… the only lie he had ever met to match his
own damnable fraud.
It felt proper to do his thinking here in this darkened room.
Out in the snows, on village stockades, in the lonely, dim forests,
men and women were dying for the two of them-for what he, Gordon,
supposedly represented, and for the machine on the other side of
the glass.
For Cyclops and for the Restored
United
States.
Without those twin pillars of hope, the Willametters might
well
have collapsed by now. Corvallis would lie in ruins, its hoarded
libraries, its fragile industry, its windmills and flickering
electric lights, all vanished forever into the lowering dark age.
The invaders from the Rogue River would have established fiefdoms
up and down the valley> as they had done
already in
the area west of Eugene.
The farmers and aged techs were battling an enemy ten times
more
experienced and capable. But they fought anyway-not so much for
themselves as for two symbols- for a gentle, wise
machine
that had really died many years ago, and for a long-vanished nation
that existed now only in their imaginations.
The poor fools.
“It isn’t working,” Gordon told his peer, his fellow hoax. The
row of lights replied by dancing the same complex pattern that
burned in his dreams.
“This heavy winter has stopped the Holnists, for now. They’re
kicking back in the towns they captured last autumn. But come
springtime they’ll be back again, picking away at us, burning and
killing until, one by one, the villages sue for
‘protection.’
“We try to fight. But each of those devils is a match for a
dozen of our poor townsmen and farmers.”
Gordon slumped in a soft chair across from the thick sheet of
glass. Even here, in the House of Cyclops, the smell of dust and
age was heavy.
If we had time to train,
to prepare…
if only things had not been so peaceful here for so
long.
If only we had a real leader.
Someone like George Powhatan.
Through the closed doors he could hear faint music. Somewhere
in
the building there lifted the light, moving strains of Pachelbel’s
Canon-a twenty-year-old recording playing on a
stereo.
He remembered weeping when he had first heard such music
again.
He had been so eager to think something brave and noble still
existed in the world, so willing to believe he had found it here in
Corvallis. But “Cyclops” turned out to be a hoax, much like his own
myth of a “Restored United States.”
It still puzzled him that both fables thrived more than ever
in
the shadow of the survivalist invasion. They had grown amid the
blood and terror into a something for which people were daily
giving their lives.
“It’s just not working,” he told the ruined machine again, not
expecting an answer. “Our people fight. They die. But the
camouflaged bastards will be here by summer, no matter what we
do.”
He listened to the sweet, sad music and wondered if, after
Corvallis fell, anyone anywhere would listen to Pa-chelbel, ever
again.
There was a faint tapping on the double door behind him.
Gordon
sat up. Other than himself, only the Servants of Cyclops were
allowed in this building at night. “Yes,” he said.
A narrow trapezoid of light spilled in. The shadow of a tall,
long-haired woman stretched across the carpeted
floor.
Dena. If there was anyone he did not want to see right now…
Her voice was low, quick. “I’m sorry to disturb you, Gordon,
but
I thought you’d want to know at once. Johnny Stevens just rode
in.”
Gordon stood up, his pulse rising. “My God, he got
through!”
Dena nodded. “There was some trouble, but Johnny did get to
Roseburg and back.”
“Men! Did he bring-” he stopped, seeing her shake her head.
Hope
crashed in the look in her eyes.
“Ten,” she said. “Gordon, he carried your message to the
southerners, and they sent ten men.”
Strangely, her voice seemed to carry less dread than shame, as
if everyone had let him down, somehow. Then
something
happened that he had never witnessed before. Her voice
broke.
“Oh, Gordon. They aren’t even men! They’re boys, only
boys!”
3_______________
Dena had been taken in as a toddler by Joseph Lazarensky and
the
other surviving Corvallis techs, soon after the Doomwar, and was
raised among the Servants of Cyclops. Because of this she had grown
tall for a woman of these times, and was far better educated. It
was one reason he had been first attracted to her.
Lately, though, Gordon found himself wishing she had read
fewer
books… or an awful lot more. She had developed a
theory. Worse-she was almost fanatical about it,
spreading
it among her own coterie of impressionable young women and
beyond.
Gordon was afraid that, inadvertently, he had played a role in
this process. He was still unsure just why he had let Dena talk him
into letting some of her girls join the Army as
Scouts.
Young Tracy Smith’s body, sprawled upon the
windblown drifts… tracks leading off into the blinding
snow…
Wrapped in winter coats, he and Dena walked past the men
guarding the entrance of the House of Cyclops, and stepped outside
into the bitterly clear night. Dena said, softly, “If Johnny really
has failed, it means we have only one chance left,
Gordon.”
“I don’t want to talk about it.” He shook his head. “Not now.”
It was cold and he was in a hurry to get to the Refectory to hear
the Stevens lad’s report.
Dena grabbed his arm tightly and held on until he looked at
her.
“Gordon, you’ve got to believe that nobody’s more disappointed
about this than I am. Do you think my girls and I wanted
Johnny to fail? Do you think we’re that crazy?”
Gordon refrained from answering on first impulse. Earlier in
the
day he had passed a cluster of those recruits of Dena’s-young women
from villages all over the northern Willamette Valley, girls with
passionate voices and the fervid eyes of converts. They had been a
strange sight, dressed in the buckskin of Army Scouts with knives
sheathed at hip, wrist, and ankle, sitting in a circle with books
open on their laps.
susanna: No, no, Maria. You’ve got it mixed up.
Lysistrata isn’t anything at all
like the story
of the Danaids! They were both wrong, but for different
reasons.
maria: I don’t get it. Because one group used sex and the
other
used swords?
grace: No, that’s not it. It’s because both groups lacked a
vision, an ideology . . .
The argument had halted abruptly when the women caught sight
of
Gordon. They scrambled to their feet, saluted, and watched him as
he hurried uncomfortably by. All of them had that strange shining
expression in their eyes… something that made him feel they
were observing him as a prime specimen, a symbol, but of what he
could not tell.
Tracy had had that look. Whatever it meant, he didn’t want any
part of it. Gordon felt badly enough about men dying for his lies.
But these women…
“No.” He shook his head as he answered Dena. “No, I don’t
think
you’re that crazy.”
She laughed, and squeezed his arm. “Good. I’ll settle for that
much, for now.”
He knew, though, that that would not be the end of
it.
Inside the Refectory, another guard took their coats. Dena at
least had the wisdom to hang back then, as Gordon went on alone to
hear the bad news.
• • •
Youth was a wonderful thing. Gordon remembered when he had
been
a teenager, just before the Doomwar. Back then, nothing short of a
car wreck could have slowed him down.
Worse things had happened to some of the boys who had left
southern Oregon with Johnny Stevens, nearly two weeks ago. Johnny
himself must have been through hell.
He still looked seventeen though, sitting near the fire
nursing
a steaming mug of broth. The young man needed a hot bath and maybe
forty hours’ sleep. His long, sandy hair and sparse beard covered
innumerable small scratches, and only one part of his uniform was
untattered-a neatly repaired emblem that bore the simple
legend
postal service
of the restored
united states
“Gordon!” He grinned broadly and stood up.
“I prayed you would return safely,” Gordon said, embracing
Johnny. He pushed aside the sheaf of dispatches the youth drew from
his oil-skin pouch… for which Johnny doubtless would have given
his life.
“I’ll look at those in a little while. Sit. Drink your
soup.”
Gordon took a moment to glance over toward the big fireplace,
where the new southern recruits were being tended by the Refectory
staff. One boy’s arm was in a sling. Another, lying on a table, was
having a scalp gash tended by Dr. Pilch, the Army’s
physician.
The rest sipped from steaming mugs and stared at Gordon in
frank
curiosity. Obviously Johnny had been filling their ears with
stories. They looked ready, eager to fight.
And not one of them was over sixteen.
So much for our last hope, Gordon
thought.
People in the midsouthern part of Oregon had been fighting the
Rogue River survivalists for nearly twenty years, and in the last
ten or so had managed to beat the barbarians to a standstill.
Unlike Gordon’s northerners, the ranchers and farmers down around
Roseburg had not been weakened by years of peace. They were tough,
and knew their enemy well.
They also had real leaders. There was one man Gordon had heard
of who had driven back one Holnist raid after another in bloody
disarray. No doubt that was why the enemy had come up with their
new plan. In a bold stroke the Holnists had taken to sea, landing
up the coast at Florence, far north of their traditional
foes.
It was a brilliant move. And now there was nothing to stop
them.
The southern farmers had sent only ten boys to help. Ten
boys.
The recruits stood up as Gordon approached. He went down the
line asking each his name, his hometown. They shook his hand
earnestly, and each addressed him as Mr. Inspector.
No
doubt they all hoped to earn the highest honor, to become
postmen… officers of a nation they were too
young
ever to have known.
Neither that, nor the fact that the nation no longer existed,
would keep them from dying for it, Gordon knew.
He noticed Phil Bokuto sitting in a corner, whittling. The
black
ex-Marine said nothing, but Gordon could tell he was sizing up the
southerners already, and Gordon agreed. If any of them had any
skill at all, they would be made scouts, whatever Dena and her
women said.
Gordon sensed her watching from the back of the room. She had
to
know he would never agree to her new plan. Not while he was in
command of the Army of the Lower Willamette.
Not while he had a breath left in his body.
He spent some minutes talking with the recruits. When he next
looked back toward the door, Dena had left, perhaps to carry word
to her cabal of would-be Amazons. Gordon was resigned to an
inevitable confrontation.
Johnny Stevens fingered the oil-skin pouch as Gordon returned
to
the table. This time the young man would not be put off. He held
out the packet he had carried so far.
“I’m sorry, Gordon.” He kept his voice low. “I did my best,
but
they just wouldn’t listen! I delivered your letters, but…” He
shook his head.
Gordon leafed through replies to the entreaties for help he
had
written more than two months ago. “They all did
want to
join the postal network,” Johnny added with irony in his voice.
“Even if we fall up here, I suppose there’ll still be a sliver of
Oregon free and ready when the nation reaches here.”
On the yellowed envelopes Gordon recognized the names of towns
all around Roseburg, some legendary even up here. He scanned some
of the replies. They were courteous, curious, even enthusiastic
about the stories of a reborn U.S. But there were no promises. And
no troops.
“What about George Powhatan?”
Johnny shrugged. “All the other mayors and sheriffs and bosses
down there look to him. They won’t do anything without he does it
first.”
“I don’t see Powhatan’s reply.” He had looked at all of the
letters.
Johnny shook his head. “Powhatan said he didn’t trust paper,
Gordon. Anyway, his answer was only two words long. He asked me to
tell it to you, direct.”
Johnny’s voice fell.
“He said to tell you-‘I’m sorry.’”
4
Light shone under the door as Gordon returned to his room much
later in the evening. His hand hesitated inches from the knob. He
clearly remembered snuffing the candles earlier, before leaving to
commune with Cyclops.
A soft, female scent solved the mystery before he had the door
more than half open. He saw Dena on his bed, her legs under the
covers. She wore a loose shirt of white homespun and held a book up
close to the bedside candle.
“That’s bad for your eyes,” he said as he dropped Johnny’s
dispatch pouch onto his desk.
Dena replied without looking up from her book. “I agree. May I
remind you that you are the one who put your room back into the
Stone Age, while the rest of this building is electrified. I
suppose you prewar types still have it in your silly heads that
candlelight is somehow romantic. Is that it?”
Gordon wasn’t exactly sure why he had
taken down the
electric bulbs in his room, and carefully packed them away. During
his first few weeks in Corvallis he’d felt a lump of joy every time
he had a chance to turn a switch and make electrons flow again, as
they had in the days of his youth.
Now, in his own room at least, he could not bear the sweetness
of such light.
Gordon poured water and then soda powder over his toothbrush.
“You have a good forty-watt bulb in your own room/‘ he reminded
her. ”You could do your reading there.“
Dena ignored the pointed remark and instead used the flat of
her
hand to slap the open book. “I don’t understand this!” she
declared, exasperated. “According to this book, America was having
a cultural renaissance, just before the Doomwar. Sure, there was
Nathan Holn, preaching his mad doctrine of super machismo-and there
were problems with the Slavic Mystics overseas-but for the most
part it was a brilliant time! In art, music, science, everything
seemed about to come together.
“And yet these surveys taken at the end of the century say
that
the majority of American women of that time still
mistrusted technology!
“I can’t believe it! Is it true? Were they all idiots?” Gordon
spat into the wash basin and looked up at the cover of the book. It
bore a legend in bright holographic print:
who we are:
A portrait of america in the 1990s
He shook out his toothbrush. “It wasn’t that simple, Dena.
Technology had been thought of as a male occupation for thousands
of years. Even in the nineties, only a small fraction of the
engineers and scientists were women, though there were more and
more damn fine-”
“That’s irrelevant!” Dena interrupted. She shut the book and
shook her light brown hair in emphasis. “What’s important is who
benefits! Even if it was
mostly a male art,
technology helped women far more than men! Compare America of your
time with the world today, and tell me I’m wrong.”
“The present is hell for women,” he agreed. Gordon picked up
the
pitcher and poured water over his washcloth. He felt very tired.
“Life is far worse for them than it is even for men. It’s brutish,
painful, and short. And to my shame I let you persuade me to put
girls in the worst, most dangerous-”
Dena seemed determined not to let him finish a sentence. Or
was
it that she sensed his pain over young Tracy Smith’s death, and
wanted to change the subject? “Fine!” she said. “Then what I want
to know is why women were afraid of technology
before the
war-if this crazy book is right-when science had done so much for
them. When the alternative was so terrible!”
Gordon rehung the damp cloth. He shook his head. It had all
been
so long ago. Since those days, in his travels, he had seen horrors
that would leave Dena stunned speechless, if ever he managed to
make himself speak of them.
She had been only an infant when civilization came crashing
down. Except for the terrible days before her adoption into the
House of Cyclops-no doubt by now long gone from her memory-she had
grown up in perhaps the only place in the world today where a
vestige of the old comforts still maintained. No wonder she had no
gray hairs yet, at the ripe age of twenty-two.
“There are those who say technology was the very thing that
wrecked civilization,” he suggested. He sat on the chair next to
the bed and closed his eyes, hoping she might take a hint and leave
in a little while. He spoke without moving. “Those people may have
a point. The bombs and bugs, the Three-Year Winter, the ruined
networks of an interdependent society…”
This time she did not interrupt. It was his own voice that
caught of its own accord. He could not recite the litany
aloud.
… hospitals . . . universities
. . .
restaurants . . . sleek airplanes that
carried free
citizens anywhere they might want to go…
… laughing, clear-eyed children, dancing in the
spray of
lawn sprinklers… pictures sent back from the moons of Jupiter
and Neptune . . . dreams of the stars… and
wonderful, wise machines who wove delicious puns and made us proud
. . .
… knowledge . . .
“Anti-tech bullshit,” Dena said, dismissing his suggestion in
two words. “It was people, not science, that
wrecked the
world. You know that, Gordon. It was certain types of
people.”
Gordon lacked the will even to shrug. What did it matter now,
anyway?
When she spoke again her voice was softer. “Come here. We’ll
get
you out of those sweaty clothes.”
Gordon started to protest. Tonight he only wanted to curl up
and
close out the world, to postpone tomorrow’s decisions in a drowning
of unconsciousness. But Dena was strong and adamant. Her fingers
worked his buttons and pulled him over to sag back against the
pillows.
They carried her scent.
“I know why it all fell apart,” Dena declared as she worked.
“The book was right! Women simply didn’t pay close enough
attention. Feminism got sidetracked onto issues that were at best
peripheral, and ignored the real problem,
men.
“You fellows were doing your job well enough- shaping and
making
and building things. Males can be brilliant that way. But anyone
with any sense can see that a quarter to half of you are also
lunatics, rapists, and murderers. It was our
job
to keep an eye on you, to cultivate the best and cull the
bastards.”
She nodded, completely satisfied with her logic. “We women are
the ones who failed, who let it happen.”
Gordon muttered. “Dena, you are certifiably crazy, do you know
that?” He already realized what she was driving at. This was just
another attempt to twist him around to agreeing to another mad
scheme to win the war. But this time it wasn’t going to
work.
At the front of his mind he wished the would-be Amazon would
simply go away and leave him alone. But her scent was inside his
head. And even with his eyes closed he knew it when her homespun
shirt fell soundlessly to the floor and she blew out the
candle.
“Maybe I am crazy,” she said. “But I do know what I’m talking
about.” The covers lifted and she slid alongside him. “I
know it. It was our fault.”
The smooth stroke of her skin was like electricity along his
flank. Gordon’s body seemed to rise even while, behind his eyelids,
he tried to cling to his pride and the escape of
sleep.
“But we women aren’t going to let it happen again,” Dena
whispered. She nuzzled his neck and ran her fingertips along his
shoulder and biceps. “We’ve learned about men-about the heroes and
the bastards and how to tell the difference.
“And we’re learning about ourselves, too.”
Her skin was hot. Gordon’s arms wound around her and he pulled
her down beside him.
“This time,” Dena sighed, “we’re going to make a
difference.”
Gordon firmly covered her mouth with his, if for no other
reason
than to get her to stop talking at last.
5
“As young Mark here will demonstrate, even a child can use our
new infrared night vision scope-combined with a laser spotter
beam-to pick out a target in almost pitch darkness.”
The Willamette Valley Defense Council sat behind a long table,
on the stage of the largest lecture hall on the old Oregon State
University campus, watching as Peter Aage displayed the latest
“secret weapon” to come out of the laboratories of the Servants of
Cyclops.
Gordon could barely make out the lanky technician when the
lights were turned off and the doors closed. But Aage’s voice was
stentoriously clear. “Up at the back of the hall we have placed a
mouse in a cage, to represent an enemy infiltrator. Mark now
switches on the sniper scope.” There came a soft click in the
darkness. “Now he scans for the heat radiation given off by the
mouse…”
“I see it!” The child’s voice piped.
“Good boy. Now Mark swings the laser over to bear on the
animal…”
“Got him!”
“… and once the beam is locked into place, our spotter
changes laser frequencies so that a visible spot shows the rest of
us-the mouse!”
Gordon peered at the dark area up at the back of the hall.
Nothing had happened. There was still only a deep
darkness.
Someone in the audience giggled.
“Maybe it got ate!” a voice cracked.
“Yeah. Hey, maybe you techs oughta tune that thing to look for
a
cat, instead!” Someone gave a rumbling “meow.”
Although the Council Chairman was banging his gavel, Gordon
joined the wise guys down below in laughing out loud. He was
tempted to interject a remark of his own, but everyone knew his
voice. His role here was a somber one, and he would probably only
hurt somebody’s feelings.
A bustle of activity over to the left told of a gathering of
techs, whispering urgently together. Finally, someone called for
the lights. The fluorescents flickered on and the members of the
Defense Council blinked as their eyes readapted.
Mark Aage, the ten-year-old boy Gordon had rescued from
survivalists in the ruins of Eugene some months ago, removed his
night vision helmet and looked up. “I could see the mouse,” he
insisted. “Real good. And I hit him with th‘ laser beam. But it
wouldn’t switch colors!”
Peter Aage looked embarrassed. The blond man wore the same
black-trimmed white as the techs still huddled over the balky
device. “It worked through fifty trials yesterday,” he explained.
“Maybe the parametric converter got stuck. It does some
times.
“Of course this is only a prototype, and nobody here in Oregon
has tried to build anything like this in nearly twenty years. But
we ought to have the bugs out of it before we go into
production.”
Three different groups made up the Defense Council. The two
men
and a woman who were dressed like Peter, in Servants’ robes, nodded
sympathetically. The rest of the councillors seemed less
understanding.
Two men to Gordon’s right wore blue tunics and leather jackets
similar to his own. On their sleeves were sewn patches depicting an
eagle rising defiantly from a pyre, rimmed by the
legend:
restored U.S.
postal service.
Gordon’s fellow “postmen” looked at each other, one rolling
his
eyes in disgust.
In the middle sat two women and three men, including the
Council
Chairman, representing the various regions in the alliance:
counties once tied together by their reverence of Cyclops, more
recently by a growing postal network, and now by their fear of a
common foe. Their clothing was varied, but each wore an armband
bearing a shiny emblem-a W and a V superimposed to stand for
Willamette Valley. The chromed symbols were one item plentiful
enough to be supplied the entire Army, salvaged from long-abandoned
motorcars.
It was one of these civilian representatives who spoke first.
“Just how many of these gadgets do you think you techs can put
together by springtime?”
Peter thought. “Well, if we go all out, I guess we ought to
have
a dozen or so fixed up by the end of March.”
“And they’ll all need ‘lectricity, I suppose.”
“We’ll provide hand generators, of course. The entire kit
ought
to weigh no more than fifty pounds, all told.”
The farmers looked at each other. The woman representing the
Cascade Indian communities seemed to speak for all of
them.
“I’m sure these night scopes might do some good defending a
few
important sites against sneak attacks. But I want to know how
they’ll help after the snow melts, when those Holnist dick cutters
come down raiding and burning all our little hamlets and villages
one by one. We can’t pull the whole population into Corvallis, you
know. We’d starve in weeks.”
“Yeah,” another farmer added. “Where are all those super
weapons
you big domes were supposed to be comin‘ up with? Have you guys
switched Cyclops off, or what?”
It was the Servants’ turn to look at each other. Their leader,
Dr. Taigher, started to protest.
“That’s not fair! We’ve hardly had any time.
Cyclops
was built for peaceful uses and has to reprogram himself to deal
with things like war. Anyway, he can come up with great plans, but
it’s fallible men who have to implement them!”
To Gordon it was a marvel. Here, in public, the man actually
seemed hurt, defensive of his mechanical oracle… which the
people of the valley still revered like great Oz. The
representative of the northern townships shook his head, respectful
but obstinate.
“Now, I’d be the last one to criticize Cyclops. I’m sure he’s
crankin‘ out the ideas as fast as he can. But I just can’t see
where this night scope is any better than that balloon thing you
keep talking about, or those gas bombs or those gimmicky little
mines. There just aren’t enough of ’em to do any damn
good!
“And even if you made hundreds, thousands, they’d be great if
we
were fightin‘ a real army, like in Vietnam or Kenya before the
Doomtime. But they’re nearly useless against th’
damsurvivalists!”
Although he kept silent, Gordon couldn’t help agreeing. Dr.
Taigher looked down at his hands. After sixteen years of peaceful,
benign hoaxing-doling out a small stream of recycled
Twentieth-Century wonders to keep the area farmers entranced-he and
his technicians were being called on to deliver real
miracles, at last. Fixing toys and wind-driven electric generators
to impress the locals just wouldn’t suffice anymore.
The man sitting to Gordon’s right stirred. It was Eric
Stevens,
young Johnny Stevens’s grandfather. The old man wore the same
uniform as Gordon, and represented the Upper Willamette region,
those few towns just south of Eugene that had joined the
alliance.
“So we’re back to square one,” Stevens said. “Cyclops’s
gimmicks
can help here and there. Mostly they’ll make a few strong points a
bit stronger. But I think we’re all in agreement that that won’t do
much more than inconvenience the enemy.
“Likewise Gordon tells us that we can’t expect help from the
civilized East anywhere near in time. It’s a decade or more before
the Restored U.S. will arrive out here in any force. We have to
hold out at least that long, maybe, before real contact is
established.”
The old man looked at the others fiercely. “There’s only one
way
to do that, and that’s to fight!” He pounded the table. “It all
comes down to basics, once again. Men are what’ll
make the
difference.”
There was a mutter of agreement down the table. But Gordon was
acutely aware of Dena, sitting in the seats below, waiting her
chance to address the Council. She was shaking her head, and Gordon
felt as if he could read her mind.
Not just men… she was thinking. The
tall young
woman wore the robes of a Servant, but Gordon knew where her real
loyalties lay. She sat with three of her disciples-buckskin-clad
female scouts in the Army of the Willamette-all members of her
eccentric cabal.
Until now the Council would have rejected their scheme out of
hand. The girls had barely been allowed to join the Army at all,
and then only out of a latent sense of last-century feminism that
lingered in this still-civilized val-ley.
But Gordon sensed a growing desperation at the table today.
The
news Johnny Stevens had brought home from the south had struck
hard. Soon, when the snows stopped falling and the warm rains began
again, the councillors would begin grasping at any plan. Any idiocy
at all.
Gordon decided to enter this discussion before things got out
of
hand. The Chairman quickly deferred when Gordon lifted his
hand.
“I’m sure the Council wishes to convey to Cyclops- and to his
technicians-our gratitude for their unceasing efforts.” There was a
mutter of agreement. Neither Taigher nor Peter Aage met his
eyes.
“We have perhaps another six or eight weeks of bad weather on
our side before we can look for a resumption of major activity by
the enemy. After hearing the reports of the training and ordnance
committees, it’s clear we have our work cut out for
us.”
Indeed, Philip Bokuto’s summary had begun the morning’s litany
of bad news. Gordon took a breath. “When the Holnist invasion began
last summer, I told you all not to expect any help from the rest of
the nation. Establishing a postal network, as I have been doing
with your help, is only the first step in a long process until the
continent can be reunited. For years to come, Oregon will stand
essentially alone.”
He managed to lie by implication while speaking words that
were
the literal truth, a skill he had grown good at, if not proud
of.
“I won’t mince words with you. The failure of the people of
the
Roseburg region to send more than a dribble of aid has been the
worst blow of all. The southern folk have the experience, the
skill, and most of all, the leadership we need. In my opinion,
persuading them to help us must take priority
over
everything else.”
He paused.
“I shall go south personally, then, and try to get them to
change their minds.”
That brought on an immediate tumult.
“Gordon, that’s crazy!”
“You can’t…”
“We need you here!”
He closed his eyes. In four months he had welded an alliance
strong enough to delay and frustrate the invaders. He had forged it
mostly through his skill as a storyteller, a posturer… a
liar.
Gordon had no illusions that he was a real leader. It was his
image that held the Army of the Willamette
together… his
legendary authority as the Inspector-a
manifestation of
the nation reborn.
A nation whose only remaining spark will soon be
stone cold
dead if something isn’t done damn quick. I can’t
lead
these people! They need a general! A warrior!
They need a man like George Powhatan.
He cut the uproar by holding up a hand.
“I am going. And I want you all to
promise me you’ll
not agree to any crazy, desperate enterprises while I’m away.” He
looked directly at Dena. For an instant she met his gaze. But her
lips were tight, and after a moment her eyes clouded and she jerked
her head aside.
Is she concerned for me? Gordon wondered.
Or for
her plan?
“I’ll be back before spring,” he promised. “I’ll be back with
help.”
Under his breath he added:
“Or I’ll be dead.”
6
It took three days to get ready. All that time Gordon chafed,
wishing he could simply be off.
But it had turned into an expedition, the Council insisting
that
Bokuto and four other men accompany him at least as far as Cottage
Grove. Johnny Stevens and one of the southern volunteers rode ahead
to prepare the way. After all, it was only fitting that the
Inspector be well heralded.
To Gordon it was all a lot of nonsense. An hour with Johnny,
spent going over a prewar road map, would be enough to tell him how
to get where he was going. One fast horse, and another for remount,
would protect him as well as an entire squad.
Gordon particularly resented having to take Bokuto. The man
was
needed here. But the Council was adamant. It was accept their terms
or not be allowed to go at all.
The party departed Corvallis early in the morning, their
horses
steaming in the bitter cold as they rode out past the old OSU
athletic field. A column of marching recruits passed by. Muffled as
they were, it was nonetheless easy to tell from their chanting
voices that these were more of Dena’s girl soldiers.
Oh, I won’t marry a man who smokes,
Who scratches, belches, or bellows bad jokes,
I might not marry at all, at all,
I might not marry at all!
Oh I would rather just sit in the shade,
And be a choosy, picky old maid,
Oh I might not marry at all, at all,
I might not many at all!
The troop performed eyes right as the men rode by. Dena’s
expression was masked by distance, but he felt her gaze,
nonetheless.
Their farewell had been physically passionate and emotionally
tense. Gordon wasn’t sure if even prewar America, with all its
sexual variations, had ever come up with a name for the kind of
relationship they had. It was a relief to be getting away from her.
He knew he would miss her.
As the women’s voices faded behind him, Gordon’s throat was
tight. He tried to pass it off partly as pride in their obvious
courage. But it wasn’t possible to completely rule out
dread.
The party rode hard past barren orchards and frosted
countryside
to make the stockade at Rowland by sundown. That was how close the
lines were-one day’s journey from the fragile center of what passed
for civilization. From here on it would be bandit
country.
In Rowland they heard new rumors-that one contingent of
Holnists
had already established a small duchy in the ruins of Eugene.
Refugees told of bands of the white-camouflaged barbarians roaming
the countryside, burning small hamlets and dragging off food,
women, slaves.
If it was true, Eugene presented a problem. They had to get by
the ruined city.
Bokuto insisted on taking no chances. Gordon glowered and
hardly
spoke at all as the expedition wasted three days on frozen, buckled
asphalt roads, skirting far to the east of Springfield then south
again to arrive at last at the fortified town of Cottage
Grove.
It had been only a short time since a few towns south of
Eugene
had been reunited with the more prosperous communities to the
north. Now the invaders had nearly cut them off
again.
On Gordon’s mental map of the once great state of Oregon, the
entire eastern two-thirds were wilderness, high desert, ancient
lava flows, and the mountainous ramparts of the
Cascades.
The gray Pacific bounded the rain-shrouded coast range in the
west.
The northern and southern edges of the state, too, were
virtually impassible blotches. In the north the Columbia Valley
still glowed from the bombs that had tortured Portland and
shattered the great river’s dams.
The other blot spilled a hundred miles into the southern edge
of
the state from unknown California-and centered on the mountainous
canyonland known as the Rogue.
Even in happier times the area around Medford had been known
for
a certain “strange” element. Before the Doomwar it had been
estimated that the Rogue River Valley held more secret caches, more
illegal machine guns, than anywhere outside the
Everglades.
While civil authority was still struggling to hang on, sixteen
years ago, it was the hyper-survivalist plague that struck the
final blow, all over the civilized world. In southern Oregon the
followers of Nathan Holn had been particularly violent. The fate of
the poor citizens of that region was never known.
Between the desert and the sea, between radiation and the
Holnist madmen, two small areas had come out of the Three-Year
Winter with enough left to do a little more than scratch as
animals… the Willamette in the north and the towns around
Roseburg in
the south. But in the beginning, the southernmost patch seemed
surely doomed to slavery or worse at the hands of the new
barbarians.
Then, somewhere between the Rogue and the Umpqua, something
unexpected happened. The cancer had been arrested. The enemy had
been stopped. To find out how was Gordon’s desperate hope, before
the transplanted disease took hold fully in the vulnerable
Willamette Valley.
On Gordon’s mental map an ugly red incursion had spread inland
from the invader beachheads west of Eugene. And Cottage Grove was
now nearly cut off.
They got their first glimpse of how bad things had become less
than a mile out of town. The bodies of six men hung by the road,
crucified on sagging telephone poles. The corpses had not been left
unmarked.
“Cut them down,” he ordered. Gordon’s heart pounded and his
mouth was dry, exactly the reaction the enemy had wanted from this
exercise in calculated terror. Obviously the men of Cottage Grove
weren’t even patrolling this far out anymore. That did not bode
well.
An hour later he saw how much had changed since the last time
he
had visited the town. Watchtowers stood at the comers of new
earthen ramparts. On the outside, prewar buildings had been razed
to make a broad free-fire zone.
Population had swollen three-fold with refugees, most living
in
crowded shanties just inside the main gate. Children clung to the
skirts of gaunt-faced women and stared as the riders from the north
passed by. Men stood in clusters, warming their hands over open
fires. The smoke mixed with a mist from unwashed bodies to make an
unpleasant, aromatic fog.
Some of the men looked like pretty rough customers. Gordon
wondered how many of them were Holnist infiltrators, only
pretending to be refugees. It had happened before.
There was worse news. From the Town Council they learned that
Mayor Peter Von Kleek had died in an ambush only days before,
trying to lead a patrol to the aid of a besieged hamlet. The loss
was incalculable and it struck Gordon hard. It also helped explain
the mood of stunned silence on the cold streets.
He gave his best morale speech that evening, by torchlight in
the crowded square. But this time the cheers of the crowd were
tired and ragged. His address was interrupted twice by the faint,
echoing crack of gunshots, carrying over the ramparts from the
forest hills beyond.
“I don’t give ‘em two months, once the snow melts,” Bokuto
whispered the next day as they rode out of Cottage Grove. “Two
weeks, if the damsurvivalists try hard.”
Gordon did not have to reply. The town was the southern
linchpin
of the alliance. When it collapsed, there would be nothing to
prevent the full force of the enemy from turning north to the
heartland of the valley and Corvallis itself.
They rode south in a light flurry of snow, climbing the Coast
Fork of the Willamette River toward its source. The dark green pine
forest glistened under its white blanket. Here and there the bright
red bark of myrtlewood stood out against the gray banks of the
half-frozen stream.
Still, a few obstinate Mergansers fished the icy waters,
trying
in their own way to survive until spring.
South of the abandoned town of London, they left the
diminished
river. There followed a long, uninhabited stretch, featured only by
the overgrown ruins of farms and an occasional tumbled-down gas
station.
It had been a silent trek, so far. But now, at last, security
lightened a bit as even the suspicious Philip Bokuto felt sure they
were beyond the likely range of Holnist patrols. Talking was
allowed. There was even laughter.
All of the men were over thirty, so they played the Remember
Game… telling old-time jokes that would have no meaning at all
to any of the new generation, and arguing lightheartedly over dimly
recollected sports arcana. Gordon nearly fell out of his saddle
laughing as Aaron Schimmel gave nasal impressions of popular
television personalities of the nineties.
“It’s amazing how much of our youth gets stored away, ready to
be recalled,” he commented to Philip. “They used to say one sign of
getting old is when you remember things from twenty years ago
easier than recent events.”
“Yeah,” Bokuto said, grinning, and his voice took on a
querulous
falsetto. “What was it we were just talking about?”
Gordon tapped the side of his head. “Eh? Can’t hear you,
fellah… Too much rock ‘n’ roll, way back when.”
The men grew accustomed to the cold bite of wintry mornings
and
the soft pad of horses’ hooves on the grass-covered Interstate. The
land had recovered-deer grazed these forests once again-but man
would for a long time be too sparse to come back and retake all the
abandoned villages.
The Coast Fork tributaries fell away at last. The travelers
crossed a narrow line of hills and a day later found themselves by
the banks of a new stream.
“The Umpqua,” their guide identified.
The northerners stared. This chilled torrent did not empty
into
the placid Willamette, and thence the great Columbia. Rather it
carved its own untamed way westward toward the sea. “Welcome to
sunny southern Oregon,” Bokuto muttered, subdued once again. The
skies glowered down on them. Even the trees seemed wilder than up
north.
The impression held as they began passing small, stockaded
settlements once again. Silent, narrow-eyed men watched them from
eyries on the hillsides, and let them pass on by without speaking.
Word of their coming had preceded them, and it was clear that these
people had nothing against postmen. But it was just as obvious they
had little use for strangers.
Spending a night in the village of Sutherlin, Gordon saw up
close how the southerners lived. Their homes were simple and spare,
with few of the amenities still owned by those in the north. Hardly
anyone did not bear visible scars from disease, malnutrition,
overwork, or war.
Although they did not stare or say anything discourteous, it
wasn’t hard to guess what the locals thought of
Willametters.
Soft.
Their leaders expressed sympathy, but the hidden thought was
obvious. If the Holnists are leaving the south, why should
we
interfere?
A day later, in the trading center of Roseburg, Gordon met
with
a committee of headmen from the surrounding area. Bullet-spalled
windows looked out on scenes recalling the destructive
seventeen-year war against the Rogue River barbarians. A blasted
Denny’s, its yellow plastic sign canted and melted, showed where
the enemy had been turned back from their deepest thrust, nearly a
decade ago.
The wild survivalists had never penetrated as far since.
Gordon
felt certain the site for the meeting had been chosen to make a
point.
The difference in mood and personality was unmistakable. There
was little curiosity about the legendary Cyclops, or about the
flickering rebirth of technology. Even tales of a nation rising
from its ashes in the far lands to the east brought only mild
interest. It was not that they doubted the stories. The men from
Glide and Winston and Lookinglass simply did not seem to care all
that much.
“This is a waste of time,” Philip told Gordon. “These hicks
have
been fighting their own little war for so long, they don’t give a
damn about anything but day to day existence.”
Does that make them smarter,
perhaps? Gordon
wondered.
But Philip was right. It didn’t really matter what the bosses,
mayors, sheriffs, or headmen thought anyway. They blustered,
boasting of their autonomy, but it was obvious there was only one
man whose opinion counted in these parts.
Two days later, Johnny Stevens rode in from the west on a
steaming mount. He looked neither right nor left, but leapt from
his horse to run to Gordon, breathless. This time the message he
carried was three words long.
“Come on up.”
George Powhatan had agreed to hear their plea.
7
The Callahan Mountains bordered Camas Valley from Roseburg
seventy miles to the sea. Below them, the main fork of the little
Coquille River rushed westward under the shattered skeletons of
broken bridges before meeting its north and south branches under
the morning shadow of Sugarloaf Peak.
Here and there, along the north side of the valley, new
fenceposts outlined pastures now covered with powdery snow. Chimney
smoke rose from an occasional hilltop stockade.
On the south bank, however, there was nothing-only scorched,
crumbled ruins slowly succumbing to the relentless blackberry
thickets.
No fortifications overlooked the river fords. The travelers
found the absence puzzling, for this valley was supposed to be
where the defense against the Holnist enemy had dug in, and finally
held.
Calvin Lewis tried to explain. The wiry, dark-eyed young man
had
guided Johnny Stevens since his earlier journey to south Oregon.
Cal’s hand gestured left and right as he spoke.
“You don’t guard a river by buildin‘ strong points,” he told
them in the low, lazy, local drawl. “We protect the north bank by
crossin’ over ourselves, from time to time, and by knowin‘
everything that moves over on the other side.”
Philip Bokuto grunted, nodding in approval. Obviously, that
was
how he would have done it. Johnny Stevens made no comment, having
heard it all before.
Gordon kept looking into the trees, wondering where the
watchers
were. Doubtless both sides had them out, and observed the party at
intervals along the way. Occasionally he caught a glimpse of motion
or a glint of what might have been a binoculars lens at some
height. But the trackers were good. A damn sight better than anyone
in the Army of the Willamette-excluding, perhaps, Phil Bokuto.
The war in the south did not seem to be one of armies or
companies, of sieges and strategic moves. It was more as battles had
been fought among the American Indians… with
victory measured in quick, bloody raids, and in the number of
scalps taken.
Survivalists were expert at this type of sneak and run
warfare.
Unaccustomed to such terror, the Willametters were their ideal
prey.
Here, though, the farmers had managed to stop them. It was not
his place to critique their tactics, so he let Bokuto ask most of
the questions. Gordon knew that these were skills one acquired over
a lifetime. He was here for one reason and one reason only-not to
learn, but to persuade.
The view was spectacular as they climbed the old Sug-arloaf
Mountain road, overlooking the merging forks of the Coquille.
Snow-covered pine forests looked much as they must have before man
came-as if the horror of the last seventeen winters was a matter of
significance only to ephemeral creatures, irrelevant to the abiding
Earth.
“Sometimes the bastards try to sneak by in big canoes,” Cal
Lewis told them. “The south fork comes this way almost straight up
from the Rogue country, and by the time it joins the center fork
here, it’s movin‘ pretty fast.”
The young man grinned. “But George always seems to know what
they’re up to. George is always ready for ‘em.”
There it was again, that affection mixed with awe in
mentioning
the leader of the Camas Valley communities. Did the man eat nails
for breakfast? Did he strike his enemies with lightning? After all
the tales, Gordon was ready to believe anything about George
Powhatan.
Bokuto’s broad nostrils flared as he suddenly reined back,
stopping Gordon protectively with his left arm. The ex-Marine’s
machine pistol was upraised in a blur.
“What is it, Phil?” Gordon drew his carbine as he scanned the
woody slopes. The horses danced and snorted, sensing their riders’
agitation.
“It’s…” Bokuto sniffed. His eyes narrowed incredulously.
“… I smell bear fat!”
Cal Lewis looked up into the trees beside the road and smiled.
From just upslope there came bass, throaty laughter.
“Very good, my man! You have keen senses!”
As Gordon and the others peered, a large, shadowed figure
shifted between the Douglas firs, outlined against the afternoon
sun. Gordon felt a brief thrill as a part of him wondered, for just
a moment, if it was a human being at all, or perhaps the legendary
Sasquatch-Bigfoot of the Northwest.
Then the shape stepped forward and was revealed as a
craggy-faced, middle-aged man whose shoulder-length gray hair was
bound by a beaded headband. A homespun, short-sleeved shirt exposed
thigh-like shoulders to the open air, but he was apparently
unbothered by the cold.
“I am George Powhatan,” the grinning man said. “Welcome,
gentlemen, to Sugarloaf Mountain.”
Gordon swallowed. What was it about the man’s voice that
matched
his physical appearance? It spoke of power so casually assumed that
there was no need for bluster or display. Powhatan spread his
hands. “Come on up, you with the sharp nose. And the rest of you
with your fancy uniforms! You caught a whiff of bear fat? Well
then, come look at my down-home weather station! You’ll see what
the stuff is good for.”
The visitors relaxed and put away their weapons, put at ease
by
the ready laughter. No Sasquatch,
Gordon told
himself. Just’a hearty mountain man-nothing
more.
He patted his skittish northern horse, and told himself that
he,
too, must have been reacting only to the smell of rendered
bear.
8
The Squire of Sugarloaf Mountain used jars of bear fat to
predict the weather, refining a traditional technique with
meticulous, scientific record keeping. He bred cows to give better
milk, and sheep for better wool His greenhouses, warmed by
biogenerated methane, produced fresh vegetables the year round,
even in the harshest winters.
George Powhatan took special pride in showing off his brewery,
famed for the best beer in four counties.
The walls of the great lodge-the seat of his domain-featured
finely woven hangings and the proudly displayed artwork of
children. Gordon had expected to see weapons and trophies of
battle, but there were none in sight anywhere. Indeed, once one
passed within the high stockade and abatis, there were hardly any
reminders of the long war at all.
That first day, Powhatan would not speak of business. He spent
all of it showing his guests around and supervising preparations
for a potlatch in their honor. Then, late in the afternoon, when
they had been shown their rooms in order to rest, their host
vanished.
“I thought I saw him head west,” Philip Bokuto answered, when
Gordon asked. “Toward that bluff over there.”
Gordon thanked him and headed that way down a gravel-lined
path
through the trees. For hours Powhatan had skillfully avoided any
serious discussion at all, always diverting them with something new
to see, or with his apparently infinite store of country
lore.
Tonight could be more of the same, with so many people coming
to
meet them. There might be no opportunity to get to business at
all.
Of course he knew he shouldn’t be so impatient. But Gordon did
not want to meet any more people. He wanted to
talk to
George Powhatan alone.
He found the tall man seated, facing the edge of a steep
dropoff. Far below, waters roared with the meeting of the branches
of the Coquille. To the west, the mountains of the Coast Range
shimmered in purple haze that was rapidly darkening into an orange
and ocher sunset. The ever-present clouds burned with a hundred
autumnal shades.
George Powhatan sat zazen on a simple reed mat, his upturned
hands resting on his knees. His expression was one Gordon had seen
sometimes, before the war-one he had called, for want of another
name, “The Smile of Buddha.”
Well, I’ll be… he thought. The
last of the
neohippies. Who would have believed it?
The mountain man’s sleeveless tunic showed a faded, blue
tattoo
on his massive shoulder-a powerful fist with one finger gently
extended, upon which was delicately perched a dove.
Below
could clearly be read a single word,
AIRBORNE.
The juxtaposition didn’t really surprise Gordon. Nor did the
peaceful expression on Powhatan’s face. Somehow they seemed
fitting.
He knew that courtesy didn’t require that he leave- only that
he
not interfere with the other man’s sitting. He quietly cleared a
space a few feet to Powhatan’s right, and lowered himself to the
ground facing the same direction. Gordon did not even try to get
into a lotus. He hadn’t practiced the skill since he was seventeen.
But he did sit, back straight, and tried to clear his mind as the
colors shimmered and changed out in the direction of the
sea.
At first all he could think of was how stiff he felt. How sore
from riding and sleeping on hard, cold ground. Puffs of wind
chilled him as the sun’s warmth hid behind the mountains. His
thoughts were a churned antheap of sounds, concerns,
memories.
But soon, without willing it at all, his eyelids began to grow
heavy. They settled down, microscopically, and then stopped about
halfway, unable to rise or fall any farther.
If he hadn’t known what was happening, he surely would have
panicked. But it was only a mild meditation trance; he recognized
the feelings. What the hell, he thought, and let
it
grow.
Was he doing this out of a sense of competition with Powhatan?
Or to show the man that he wasn’t the only child
of the
renaissance who still remembered?
Or was it simply because he was tired, and the sunset was so
beautiful?
Gordon felt a hollow sensation within him-as if a pocket of
each
lung were closed, and had been for a very long time. He tried to
inhale hard and deep, but his pattern of breathing did not alter in
the slightest-as if his body knew a wisdom that he did not. The
calm that crossed his face with the numbing breeze seemed to
trickle downward, touching his throat like a woman’s fingers,
running across his tight shoulders and stroking his muscles until
they relaxed of their own accord.
The colors… he thought, seeing only
the sky. His
heart rocked his body gently.
Had it been a lifetime since he last sat like this and let go?
Or was it just that there was so much to let go of?
They are…
In an easing that could never have been forced, the locked
sensation in his lungs seemed to let go, and he breathed.
Stale air escaped, to be swept away by the western wind. His next
breath tasted so sweet that it came back out as a
sigh.
“The colors…”
There was motion to his left, a stirring. A quiet voice spoke.
“I used to wonder if these sunsets were God’s last gift…
something to match the rainbow he gave Noah, only this time it was
his way of saying… ‘So long’… to us all.”
He did not answer Powhatan. There was no need.
“But after many years watching them, I guess the atmosphere is
slowly cleansing itself. They aren’t quite what they were, just
after the war.”
Gordon nodded. Why did people on the coast always assume they
had a monopoly on sunsets? He remembered how it had been on the
prairie-once the Three-Year Winter had passed and the skies were
clear enough to see the sun at all. It had seemed as if Heaven had
spilled its palette in a garish splash of hues, glorious, if deadly
in their beauty.
Without turning to look, Gordon knew that Powhatan had not
moved. The man sat in the same position, smiling
softly.
“Once,” the gray-haired squire said, “perhaps ten years ago, I
was sitting here, just as I am now, recovering from a recent wound
and contemplating the sunset, when I caught sight of something, or
somebody, moving by the river, down below. At first, I thought they
were men. I pulled out of my meditation quickly and headed down for
a closer look. And yet something told me that it was not the enemy,
even from this range.
“I approached as quietly as I could, until I had come within a
few hundred meters, and I focused the little monocular I used to
keep in my pouch.
“They weren’t human beings at all. Imagine my surprise when I
saw them strolling by the river bank, hand in hand, him helping her
over stony banks, she murmuring softly as she carried something
wrapped in a bundle.
“A pair of chimpanzees, for Heaven’s sake. Or maybe one was a
chimp and the other a smaller ape or even a monkey. They vanished
into the rain forest before I could be sure.”
For the first time in ten minutes, Gordon blinked. The image
was
so stark in his imagination, as if he were looking over Powhatan’s
shoulder into the man’s memories from that long ago day. Why
is
he telling me this?
Powhatan continued, “They must have been set free from the
Portland Zoo, along with those leopards running wild in the
Cascades, now. That was the simplest explanation…
that they had worked their way south for years, foraging and
keeping out of sight, helping each other as they headed for what
they must have hoped would be warmer territory.
“I realized that they were moving down the south branch of the
Coquille, right into Holnist territory.
“What could I do? I thought about following. Trying to catch
them, or at least divert them. But it was doubtful I’d be able to
do anything more than frighten them. And anyway, if they had come
so far, what need had they of me to warn them of
the
dangers of being around man?
“They had been caged, now they were free. Oh, I wasn’t foolish
enough to conclude they were happier, but at least they weren’t
subject to the will of others anymore.”
Powhatan’s voice was subdued. “That can be a precious thing, I
know.”
There was another pause. “I let them go,” he said, finishing
his
story. “Often, as I sit here watching these humbling sunsets, I
wonder what ever became of them.”
At last, Gordon’s eyes closed completely. The silence
stretched
on. He inhaled and with some effort made the heaviness fall aside.
Powhatan had been trying to tell him something, with that strange
story. He, in turn, had something to say to
Powhatan.
“A duty to help others isn’t necessarily the same as being
subject to the will of…”
He stopped-sensing that something had changed. His eyes
opened,
and when he turned, he saw that Powhatan was gone.
That evening people gathered from all over, more men and women
than Gordon had thought still lived in the sparsely settled valley.
For the visiting postman and his company, they put on a folk
festival, of sorts. Children sang, and small troupes performed
clever little skits.
Unlike in the north, where popular songs were often those
remembered from the days of television and radio, here there were
no fondly recalled commercial jingles, few rock and roll melodies
retuned to banjo and acoustic guitar. Instead, the music went back
to an older tradition.
The bearded men, the women in long dresses tending table, the
singing by fire and lamplight-it might easily have been a gathering
from nearly two centuries ago, back when this valley had first been
settled by white men, coming together for company and to shake off
the chill of winter.
Johnny Stevens represented the northerners during the
songfest.
He had brought his treasured guitar, and dazzled the people with
his flair, setting them clapping and stamping their
feet.
Normally, this would have been wonderful fun, and Gordon might
gladly join in with offerings from his old repertoire-from back
before he had hit on being a “postman,” when he had been a
wandering minstrel trading songs and stories for meals halfway
across the continent.
But he had listened to jazz and to Debussy the night before
leaving Corvallis. He could not help wondering if it would turn out
to have been the last time, ever.
Gordon knew what George Powhatan was trying to accomplish with
this fete. He was putting off the confrontation… making the
Willametters sit and stew… taking their
measure.
Gordon’s impression back at the cliff had not changed. With
his
long locks and ready banter, Powhatan was the very image of the
aging neohippy. The long-dead movement of the nineties seemed to
fit the Squire’s style of leadership.
For instance, in the Camas Valley, clearly everyone was
independent and equal.
Still, when George laughed, everyone
else did. It
seemed only natural. He gave no orders, no commands. It did not
seem to occur to anyone that he would. Nothing happened in the
lodge that displeased him enough to even raise an
eyebrow.
In what had once been called the “soft” arts-those requiring
neither metals nor electricity-these people were as advanced as the
busy craftsmen of the Willamette. In some ways, perhaps, more so.
That, no doubt, was why Powhatan had insisted on showing off his
farm-to let the visitors see that they were not dealing with a
society of throwbacks, but folk just as civilized in their own
right. Part of Gordon’s plan was to prove that Powhatan was
wrong.
At last it was time to bring out the “gifts from Cyclops” they
had brought all this way.
The people watched wide-eyed as Johnny Stevens demonstrated a
cartoon graphics game on a color display that had been lovingly
repaired by the Corvallis techs. He gave them a video puppet show
about a dinosaur and a robot. The images and bright sounds soon had
everybody laughing in delight, the adults as much as the
children.
And yet Gordon detected once again that uncanny
something in their mood. The people cheered and
laughed,
but their applause seemed to be in honor of a clever
trick. The machines had been brought to whet their
appetites,
to make them want high technology once again. But Gordon saw no
covetous glow in the watchers’ eyes, no rekindled urge to own such
wonders again.
Some of the men did sit up when Philip Bokuto’s turn came. The
black ex-Marine stepped up with a battered leather valise, and from
it he drew out a few of the new weapons.
He showed the gas bombs and mines, and told them how they
might
be used to hold strong points against attack. Philip described the
night vision scopes, soon to be available from the workshops of
Cyclops. A ripple of uncertainty moved from man to
man-battle-scarred veterans of a long war against a terrible enemy.
While Bokuto talked, people kept glancing at the big man in the
corner.
Powhatan did not say or do anything explicit. The picture of
politeness, he only yawned once, demurely covering his mouth. He
smiled indulgently as each weapon was displayed, and Gordon was
awed to see how, with body language alone, the man seemed to say
that these presents were quaint, perhaps even clever… but
really quite irrelevant.
The bastard. But Gordon really didn’t
know how to fight
back. Soon, that smile had spread around the room, and he knew that
it was time to cut their losses.
Dena had pestered him to bring along her own list of presents.
Needles and thread, base-neutral soap, samples of that new line of
semicotton underwear they had started weaving again up in Salem,
just before the invasion.
“They’ll convert the women, Gordon. They’ll do more
good
than all your whiz-bangs and razzle-dazzles. Trust
me”
The last time he had trusted Dena, though, it had led to a
slender, tragic corpse under a snow-blown cedar. By that time
Gordon had had quite enough of Dena’s version of
pseudofeminism.
Would it have been any worse than this, though? Was
I hasty?
Perhaps we should have brought along some of the
more
mundane things-tooth powder and sanitary napkins,
pottery,
and new linen sheets.
He shook his head; that was all water under a dam. He gave
Bokuto the signal to wrap it up and reached for his third ace. He
drew forth his saddlebag and handed it to Johnny
Stevens.
A hush fell over the crowd. Gordon and Powhatan watched each
other across the room as Johnny stood- proud in his uniform-in
front of the flickering fire. He riffled through envelopes and
began reading names aloud in order to deliver the
mail.
All through the still-civilized parts of the Willamette, the
call had gone out. Anyone who had ever known anybody in the south
had been asked to write to them. Most of the
intended
recipients would turn out to be long dead, of course. But a few
letters would certainly arrive in the right hands, or those of
relatives. Old connections might be resumed, the theory went. The
plea for help would have to become something less abstract, more
personal.
It had been a good idea, but once again the reaction was not
as
expected. The pile of undeliverable letters grew. And as Johnny
called out name after name without reply, Gordon saw that a
different lesson was being brought home.
The people of the Camas were being reminded of how many had
died. Of how few had survived the bitter times.
And now that peace seemed to be theirs at last, it was easy to
see how they resented being asked to sacrifice again, for near
strangers who had had it easier for years. Those few who did
acknowledge letters seemed to take them reluctantly, folding them
away without reading them.
George Powhatan looked surprised when his own name was called.
But his flicker of puzzlement vanished quickly as he shrugged and
took a package and a slim envelope.
Things were not going well at all, Gordon realized. Johnny
finished his task and gave his leader a look that seemed to say,
What now?
Gordon had only one card left-the one he hated most of all-and
the one he knew best how to use.
Damn. But there’s no other choice.
He stepped in front of the fireplace, facing the silent people
with the warmth to his back, and took a deep breath. Then he
started right in… lying to them.
“I have come to tell you a story,” he said. “I want to tell
you
about a country of once upon a time. It may sound familiar, since
many of you were born there. But the story ought to amaze you,
nevertheless. I know it always amazes me.
“It’s a strange tale, of a nation of a quarter of a billion
people who once filled the sky and even the spaces between the
planets with their voices, just as you good folk filled this fine
hall with your songs tonight.
“They were a strong people, the
strongest the world had
ever known. But that hardly seemed to matter to them. When they had
a chance to conquer the entire world, they simply ignored the
opportunity, as if there were far more interesting things to do
than that.
“They were wonderfully crazy. They
laughed and they
built things and they argued… They loved to accuse
themselves of terrible crimes as a people: a strange practice until
you understood that its hidden purpose was to make themselves
better-better to each other-better to the Earth- better than prior
generations of Man,
“You all know that to look up at the moon at night, or at
Mars,
is to see the footprints where a few of those people walked. Some
of you remember sitting in your homes and watching those footprints
being made.”
For the first time that evening, Gordon felt he had their full
attention. He saw eyes flicker to the emblems on his uniform, and
to the bright brass rider on the peak of his postman’s
cap.
“The people of that nation were crazy all right,” he told
them.
“But they were crazy in a manner that was magnificent… in a
way that had never been seen before.”
One man’s scarred face stood out from the crowd. Gordon
recognized old, never-healed knife wounds. He looked at that man as
he spoke.
“Today we live by killing,” he said. “But in that fabled land,
for the most part, people settled their differences
peaceably.”
He turned to the tired women, slumped on benches from
butchering
and cleaning and laying out food for so many people. Their lined
faces were flickering crags in the firelight. Several showed
telltale scars from the Pox, or the Big Mumps, wartime diseases or
merely old plagues that had returned in new force with the end of
sanitation.
“They took for granted a clean, healthy life,” he said,
reminding them. “A life far gentler, far sweeter than any that had
gone before.
“Or, perhaps,” he added softly, “sweeter than any that would
ever come again.”
The people were looking at him now,
rather than at
Powhatan. And it wasn’t just in older faces that eyes glistened
wetly. A boy hardly over fifteen sobbed out loud.
Gordon spread his arms. “What were those people like, those
Americans? You remember how they criticized
themselves,
often rightly. They were arrogant, argumentative, often
shortsighted…
“But they did not deserve what happened to them!
“They had begun to wield godlike powers-to create thinking
machines, to give their bodies new strengths, and to mold Life
itself-but it was not pride in their
accomplishments that
struck them down.”
He shook his head. “I cannot believe that! It cannot be true
that we were punished for dreaming, for reaching
out.”
His balled fist clenched whitely. “It was not
fated
that men and women should always live like animals! Or that they
should have learned so much in vain-”
In complete surprise, Gordon felt his voice break,
mid-sentence.
It failed him just as it was time to begin telling the lie… to
give Powhatan a story of his own.
But his heart pounded and his mouth was suddenly nearly too
dry
to speak. He blinked. What was happening? Tell them,
he
thought. Tell them now!
“In the east…” Gordon began, aware of Bokuto and Stevens
staring at him.
“In the east, across the mountains and deserts, rising from
that
great nation’s ashes…”
He stopped again, breathing hard. It felt as if a hand were
clutching his heart, threatening to squeeze if he continued.
Something was preventing him from launching into his well-practiced
pitch, his fairy tale.
All around they waited for him. He had them in his palm. They
were ripe!
That was when Gordon glanced at George Powhatan’s visage,
craggy
and impervious as a cliff face in the flickering firelight. And he
knew then, in a sudden insight, what the problem
was.
For the first time he was trying to pass his myth of a
“Restored
United States” before a man who was clearly much, much stronger
than he.
Gordon knew that it wasn’t only a story’s believability
that mattered, but the personality behind it as
well. He
might convince them all of the existence of a resurgent nation,
somewhere over the eastern mountains, and it wouldn’t make a whit
of difference in the end… not if George Powhatan could make it
all moot with a smile, an indulgent nod, a yawn.
It would become a thing of bygone days. An anachronism.
Irrelevant.
Gordon closed his half-open mouth. Rows of faces looked up at
him expectantly. But he shook his head, abandoning the fable, and
with it, the lost fight.
“The east is far away,” he said softly.
Then he lifted his head and some strength returned to his
voice.
“What is going on back there may affect us all, if we live long
enough. But in the meantime there is the problem of
Oregon-Oregon, standing by herself, as if she
alone were
America still.
“The nation I spoke of smolders under the ashes, ready, if you
help, to cast its light again. To lead a silent world back to hope.
Believe it, and the future will be decided here,
tonight.
For if America ever stood for anything, it was people being at
their best when times were worst-and helping one another when it
counted most.”
Gordon turned and looked straight at George Powha-tan. His
voice
dropped low, but it no longer felt weak.
“And if you have forgotten that, if none of what I have said
to
you matters, then all I can say is that I pity
you.”
The moment seemed to hang, a supersaturated solution in time.
Powhatan sat still, like the carved image of a troubled patriarch.
The tendons in his neck stood out starkly, like knotty
ropes.
Whatever conflict went on in the man’s mind, though, was over
in
seconds. Powhatan smiled sadly.
“I understand,” he said. “And you may well be right, Mr.
Inspector. I can think of no easy answer except to say that most of
us have served and served until there is simply nothing more for us
to give. You may ask for volunteers again, of course. I won’t
forbid anyone. But I doubt many will go.”
He shook his head. “I hope you will believe it when we say
that
we are sorry. We are, deeply.
“But you are asking too much. We have earned our peace. It is,
by now, more precious than honor, or even pity.”
All this way, Gordon thought. We came
all this way,
for nothing.
Powhatan lifted two sheets of paper from his lap and held them
out to Gordon.
“This is the letter I received from Corvallis this
evening-carried all the way in your pouch. But although it had my
name on the envelope, it was not intended for me. It was meant to
be delivered to you… says so on the top of the first
page.
“I hope you will forgive me, though, if I took the liberty of
reading the text.”
There was sympathy in the man’s voice as Gordon reached out to
take the yellowed pages. For the first time Gordon heard Powhatan
repeat himself, too softly for the others to
overhear.
“I am sorry,” the man said. “I am also
quite
amazed.”
9
My dearest Gordon,
As you read this it is already too late to stop us, so please
stay calm while I try to explain. Then, if you still cannot condone
what we have done, I hope you can somehow find it in your heart to
forgive us.
I’ve talked it over and over with Susanna and Jo and the other
Army women. We’ve read as many books as our duties allowed time
for. We’ve badgered our mothers and aunts for their remembrances.
Finally, we were forced to come to two conclusions.
The first one is straightforward. It’s clear that male human
beings should never have been left in control of the world all
these centuries. Many of you are wonderful beyond belief, but too
many others will always be bloody lunatics.
Your sex is simply built that way. Its better side gave us
power
and light, science and reason, medicine and philosophy. Meanwhile,
the dark half spent its time dreaming up unimaginable hells and
putting them into practice.
Some of the old books hint at reasons for this strange
division,
Gordon. Science might even have been on the verge of an answer
before the Doomtime. There were sociologists (mostly women)
studying the problem, asking hard questions.
But whatever they learned, it’s lost to us now, except for the
simplest truths.
Oh, I can just hear you, Gordon, telling me I’m exaggerating
again-that I’m oversimplifying and “generalizing from too little
data.”
For one thing, a lot of women participated in the great “male”
accomplishments, and in the great evils, as well.
Also, it’s obvious that most men fall in between those
extremes
of good and bad I spoke of.
But Gordon, those ones in between wield no power! They don’t
change the world, for better or worse. They are
irrelevant.
You see? I can address your objections as if you were here!
Though I never forget that life has cheated me of so much, I
certainly have had a fine education for a woman of these times.
This last year I’ve learned even more, from you. Knowing you has
convinced me that I am right about men.
Face it, my dearest love. There are simply not enough of you
good guys left to win this round. You and those like you are our
heroes, but the bastards are winning! They are about to bring on
the night that comes after twilight, and you cannot stop them
alone.
There IS another force in humanity, Gordon. It might have
tipped
the balance in your age-old struggle, back in the days before the
Doomwar. But it was lazy or distracted… I don’t know. For some
reason, though, it did not intervene. Not in any concerted
way.
That is the second thing we, the women of the Army of the
Willamette, have realized: that we have one last chance to make up
for what women failed to do in the past.
We’re going to stop the bastards ourselves, Gordon. We are
going
to do our job at last… to choose among men, and to cull out the
mad dogs.
Forgive me, Please. The others wanted me to tell you that we
will always love you. I remain yours, always.
Dena
“Stop!… Oh, God… Don’t!”
When Gordon came abruptly awake, he was already on his feet.
The
remains of the evening campfire smoldered inches from his bare
toes. His arms were outstretched, as if in the midst of grabbing
after something, or someone.
Swaying, he felt the edges of his dream unravel into the
forest
night on all sides. His ghost had visited him again, only moments
ago in his sleep. The voice of the dead machine had spoken to him
across the decades, accusing with growing
impatience.
… Who will take responsibility… for
these foolish children. . . ?
Rows of running lights, and a voice of sad, cryogenic wisdom,
despairing of the endless failings of living human
beings.
“Gordon? What’s going on?”
Johnny Stevens sat up in his bedroll, rubbing his eyes. It was
very dim under the overcast sky, with only the fading embers and a
few wan stars here and there, twinkling faintly through the
overhanging branches.
Gordon shook his head, partly in order to hide his shivers. “I
just thought I’d check on the horses and the pickets,” he said. “Go
back to sleep, Johnny.”
The young postman nodded. “Okay. Tell Philip and Cal to wake
me
when it’s time for watch change.” The boy lay back down and pulled
the bedroll over his shoulders. “Be careful,
Gordon.”
Soon his breath was whistling softly again, his face smooth
and
careless. The hard life seemed to suit Johnny, something that never
ceased to amaze Gordon. After seventeen years of it, he
still wasn’t reconciled with having to live this way. Every so
often-even as he approached middle age-he still imagined he was
going to wake up in his student dormitory room, back in Minnesota,
and all the dirt and death and madness would turn out to be a
nightmare, an alternate world that had never been.
Near the coals, a row of lumpy bedrolls lay close together for
shared warmth. There were eight figures there besides Johnny-Aaron
Schimmel plus all the fighters they had been able to recruit from
the Camas Valley.
Four of the volunteers were boys, hardly old enough to shave.
The others were all old men.
Gordon did not want to think, but memories crowded in as he
pulled on his boots and woolen poncho.
For all of his near-total victory, George Powhatan had seemed
quite eager to see Gordon and his band depart. The visitors made
the patriarch of Sugarloaf Mountain uncomfortable. His domain would
not be the same until they left.
It turned out that Dena had sent two
packages-one more
in addition to her crazy letter. In the other she had managed to
convey gifts to the women of Powhatan’s household in spite of
Gordon, by dispatching them via “U.S. Mail.” Pathetic little
packets of soap and needles and underwear were accompanied by tiny
mimeographed pamphlets. There were vials of pills and ointments
Gordon recognized from the Corvallis central pharmacy. And he had
seen copies of her letter to himself.
The whole thing had Powhatan mystified. At least as much as
Gordon’s speech, Dena’s letter had made the man ill at
ease.
“I don’t understand,” he had said, straddling a chair while
Gordon hurriedly packed to leave. “How could an obviously
intelligent young woman have come up with such a bizarre set of
ideas? Hasn’t anybody cared enough to knock some sense into her?
What does she and her crew of little girls think they can
accomplish against Holnists?”
Gordon had not bothered to answer, knowing it would irritate
Powhatan. Anyway, he was in a hurry. He still hoped there was time
to get back and stop the Scouts before they performed the worst
idiocy since the Doomwar itself.
Powhatan kept probing, though. The man sounded genuinely
puzzled. And he was unaccustomed to being put off. At last, Gordon
found himself actually speaking put in Dena’s
defense,
“What kind of ‘common sense’ would you have had someone knock
into her, George? The logic of the colorless drabs who cook meals
for complacent men, here in the Camas? Or perhaps she should speak
only when spoken to, like those poor women who live as cattle down
in the Rogue, and now in Eugene?
“They may be wrong. They may even be crazy. But at least Dena
and her comrades care about something bigger than themselves, and
have the guts to fight for it. Do you, George? Do
you?”
Powhatan had looked down at the floor. Gordon barely heard his
reply. “Where is it written that one should only care about big
things? I fought for big things, long ago… for issues,
principles, a country. Where are all of them now?”
The steely gray eyes were narrow and sad when next he looked
up
at Gordon. “I found out something, you know. I discovered that the
big things don’t love you back. They take and take, and never give
in return. They’ll drain your blood, your soul, if you let them,
and never let go.
“I lost my wife, my son, while away battling for big
things. They needed me, but I had to go off trying to save
the
world.” Powhatan snorted at the last phrase. “Today I fight for my
people, for my farm-for smaller things- things I can
hold”
Gordon had watched Powhatan’s large, hard-calloused hand flex,
as if straining to grasp life itself. It had never occurred to him
until then that this man feared anything in the world, but there it
was, visible for only the briefest moment.
A certain rare kind of terror in his eyes.
At the door to Gordon’s guest room, Powhatan had turned, his
chiseled face outlined in the flickering light from the tallow
candles. “Me, I think I know why your crazy woman is pulling
whatever mad stunt she’s cooked up, and it doesn’t have to do with
that grand ‘heroes and villains’ bullshit she wrote
about.
“The other women, they’re just following her because she’s a
natural leader in desperate times. She has them swept along in her
wake, poor girls. But she…” Powhatan shook his head. “She
thinks she’s doing it for the big reasons, but one
of the
small things lies beneath it all.
“She’s doing it out of love, Mr. Inspector. I think she’s
doing
it for you alone.”
They had looked at each other, that last time, and Gordon
realized then that Powhatan was paying the visiting postman back
with interest for the unasked-for guilt he had been
delivered.
Gordon had nodded to the Squire of Sugarloaf Mountain,
accepting
the burden-postage prepaid.
Leaving the warmth of the coals, Gordon felt his way over to
the
horses and carefully checked their lines. All seemed well, though
the animals were a little jumpy still. After all, they had been
driven hard today. The ruins of the prewar town of Remote lay
behind them, and the old Bear Creek Campgrounds. If the band really
flew tomorrow, Calvin Lewis figured they might make Roseburg by a
little after nightfall.
Powhatan had been generous with provisions for their journey.
He
had given of the best of his stables. Anything the northerners
wanted, they could have. Except for George Powhatan, of
course.
As Gordon patted the last nickering horse, and stepped out
under
the trees, a part of him was still unable to believe they had come
all this way for nothing. Failure tasted bitter in his
mouth.
… rippling lights… the
voice of a
long-dead machine . . .
Gordon smiled without amusement.
“If I could have infected him with your ghost, Cyclops, don’t
you think I would have? But you don’t reach a man like him as
simply as that! He’s made of stronger stuff than I
was.”
… Who will take responsibility…
?
“I don’t know!” he whispered urgently, silently, at the
darkness
all around him. “I don’t even care anymore!”
He was maybe forty feet from the campsite now. It occurred to
him that he could just keep on going should he choose. If he
disappeared into the forest, right now, he would still be better
off than sixteen months ago when, robbed and injured, he had
stumbled upon that ancient, wrecked postal jeep in a high, dusty
forest.
He had taken the uniform and bag only in order to survive, but
something had latched onto him that strange night, the first of
many ghosts.
At little Pine View the unsought legend began-this Johnny
Appleseed “postman” nonsense that had long since gone completely
out of control, thrusting upon him unasked-for responsibility for
an entire civilization. Since then his life had no longer been his
own. But now, he realized, he could change that!
Just walk away, he thought.
Gordon felt his way in the pitch blackness, using the one
forest
skill that had never failed him, his sense of path and direction.
He walked surefootedly, sensing where the tree roots and little
gullies had to be, using the logic of one who had come to know
woodlands well.
It required a special, remote kind of concentration to move
this
way in the near-total darkness… a zenlike exercise that was
elevating-as detached but more active than that
sunset
meditation two days ago, overlooking the roaring confluence of the
Coquille. As he walked, he seemed to rise higher and higher above
his troubles.
Who needed eyes to see, or ears to hear? Only the touch of the
wind guided him. That and the scent of the red cedars, and the
faint salt traces of the distant, expectant sea.
Just walk away… Joyfully, he
realized that he had
found a counter incantation! One that matched and neutralized the
rippling of little lights in his mind. An antidote to
ghosts.
He hardly felt the ground, striding through the darkness,
repeating it with growing enthusiasm. Just walk
away!
The exalted journey ended abruptly, jarringly, as he tripped
over something completely unexpected-something that did not belong
there on the forest floor.
He tumbled to the ground with barely a sound, a puff of
snow-covered pine needles breaking his fall. Gordon scrambled
around, but couldn’t make out the obstacle that had brought him
down. It was soft and yielding to the touch, though. His hand came
away sticky and warm.
Gordon’s pupils should not have been able to dilate wider, but
sudden fear did the trick. He bent forward and the face of a dead
man came into sudden focus.
Young Cal Lewis stared back at him in a frozen expression of
surprise. The boy’s throat gaped, expertly slit.
Gordon scuttled backward until he came up against a nearby
tree
trunk. In a daze he realized he hadn’t even taken his belt knife or
pouch with him. Somehow, perhaps because of the spell of George
Powhatan’s mountain, he had let that deadly sliver of complacency
slip in. Perhaps his last mistake.
In the dark, he could hear the rushing waters of the middle
fork
of the Coquille. Beyond lay the enemy’s home ground. But right now
they were on this side of the river.
The ambushers don’t know I’m out here, he
realized. It
didn’t seem possible after the way he had been moving around,
mumbling to himself obliviously, but perhaps there had been a gap
in their closing circle.
Perhaps they had been preoccupied.
Gordon understood the principles well. First you take out the
pickets, then, in a rush, swoop down on the unsuspecting
encampment. Those boys and old men sleeping by the campfire did not
have George Powhatan with them, now. They never should have left
their mountain.
Gordon hunched down. The raiders would never find him here in
the roots of this tree. Not so long as he kept quiet. When the
butchery began, while the Holnists were busy collecting trophies,
he could be off into the deep woods without a trace.
Dena had said there were two kinds of men who counted…
and
those in between who did not matter. Fine, he
thought.
Let me be one of those in between. Living beats “mattering”
any
day.
He hunkered down, trying to keep as silent as
possible.
A twig snapped-barely the tiniest click over in the direction
of
the camp. A minute later a “night bird” cooed, a little farther
away. The rendition was understated and completely
believable.
Now that he was listening, Gordon found he could actually
follow
the deadly encirclement as it closed. His own tree had already been
left behind, and was well outside the narrowing ring of
death.
Quiet, he told himself. Wait
it
out.
He tried not to envision the stealthy enemy, their
camouflage-painted faces grinning in anticipation as they stroked
their oiled knives.
Don’t think about it!
He closed his eyes hard,
trying to listen only to his pounding heart while he fingered a
thin chain around his neck. He had worn it, along with the little
keepsake Abby had given him, ever since leaving Pine
View.
That’s right, think about Abby. He tried
to picture
her, smiling and cheerful and loving, but the inner commentary kept
on running within his head.
The Holnists would want to make sure the pickets were all
finished before they closed the trap. If they had not yet taken
care of the other man on watch-Philip Bokuto- they would do it
soon.
He made a fist around Abby’s present. The chain made a taut
line
across the back of his neck.
Bokuto… guarding his commander even
when he
disapproved… doing Gordon’s dirty work for him under the
falling snow… serving with all his heart for the sake of a
myth… for a nation that had died and would never, ever rise
again.
Bokuto . . .
For the second time that night Gordon found himself on his
feet
without remembering how it had happened. There was no volition at
all, only a shrill screech that pierced the night as he blew hard
on Abby’s whistle, then his own voice, screaming through cupped
hands.
“Philip! Watch out!”
… out!… out! . . . out!
. . . The
echo rolled forth, seeming to stun the forest.
For a long second the stillness held, then six sharp
concussions
shook the air in rapid succession, and suddenly, shouting filled
the night.
Gordon blinked. Whatever had come over him, it was too late to
turn back now. He had to play it out. “They walked right into our
trap!” he shouted as loud as he could. “George says he’ll take them
on the river side! Phil, cover the right!”
What an ad lib performance! Even though his words were
probably
lost amid the outcries and gunfire and yelped survivalist battle
calls, the commotion had to be setting their plans off. Gordon kept
shouting and blowing the whistle to try to confuse the
ambushers.
Men screamed and dark shapes rolled through the undergrowth in
desperate struggle. Flames rose high from the stirred campfire,
casting grappling silhouettes through the trees.
If the fight was still going on after two full minutes, Gordon
knew it meant there was a chance after all. He shouted as if he
were directing a whole company of reinforcements.
“Don’t let the bastards get back across the river!” he cried.
And indeed, there did seem to be some hurried motion off that way.
He ducked from tree to tree toward the fighting-even though he had
no weapon. “Keep them bottled in! Don’t let ‘em-”
That was when a shape emerged suddenly from around the very
next
tree. Gordon stopped only ten feet from the jagged patterns of
black and white that made the painted face so hard to focus on. A
slashlike mouth split into a broad, gap-toothed grin. The body
below the unfriendly smile was immense.
“Pretty noisy feller,” the survivalist commented.
“Oughta quiet up for a bit, right, Nate?” The dark eyes
flickered over Gordon’s shoulder.
For the briefest instant Gordon started to turn, even as he
told
himself that it was all a trick-that the Holnist was probably
alone.
His attention only wavered for a moment, but it was long
enough.
The camouflaged figure moved like a blur. One blow from a
ham-sized, rock-hard fist sent Gordon spinning to the
ground.
The world was a whirl of stars and pain. How could
anyone
move so fast? he wondered with unravelling shreds of
consciousness.
It was Gordon’s last clear thought.
10
A frigid, misty rain turned the slushy trail into a quagmire
that sucked at the prisoners’ shuffling feet. With hanging heads
they fought the mud, struggling to keep up with the horses and
riders. After three days, all that mattered in the captives’ narrow
world was keeping up, and avoiding any more
beatings.
The victors looked hardly less fearsome now, without their war
paint. In winter camouflage parkas they rode imperiously on their
seized Camas Valley mounts. The rearmost and youngest Holnist-with
only one gold ring hanging from his ear-occasionally turned back to
snarl at the prisoners and tug the tether around the lead man’s
wrist, causing the whole line to stumble ahead faster for a
time.
Everywhere along the trail lay trash left by successive waves
of
refugees. After countless small battles and massacres, the
strongest held the high ground in this territory. This was the
paradise of Nathan Holn.
Several times the caravan passed through small clusters of
hovels, filthy warrens made from bits and scraps of prewar salvage.
At every ragged hamlet a population of wretched creatures stumbled
out to pay their respects, eyes downcast. Now and then an unlucky
one cowered under a few lazy blows meted out for no apparent reason
by those on horseback.
Only after the warriors had passed did the villagers look up
again. Their tired eyes held no hatred, only a glittering hunger as
they watched the receding rumps of the well-fed
horses.
The serfs hardly glanced at the new prisoners. Their lack of
attention was returned.
Walking filled the daylight hours with few breaks. At night
the
captives were separated to prevent talking. Each was tied to a
hobbled horse for warmth without a fire. Then, with dawn and a meal
of weak gruel, the long walk began anew.
By the fourth day two of the prisoners had died. Two more who
were too weak to continue were left with the Holnist baron of a
tiny, scrabble-backed manor- replacements for serfs whose crucified
corpses still hung over the trail as object lessons to anyone
contemplating disobedience.
All this time, Gordon saw little more than the back of the man
in front of him. He grew to hate the prisoner tethered behind his
waist. Each time that one stumbled, the sudden jerk tore into the
tortured muscles of his arms and sides. Still, he scarcely noticed
by the time that man also disappeared, leaving only two captives to
follow the plodding horses. He envied the one who had been left
behind, not even knowing if the fellow had died.
The journey seemed interminable. He had awakened into it days
ago and had hardly risen to complete awareness since. In spite of
the agony, a small part of him welcomed the
stupor and
monotony. No ghosts bothered him here. No complexities and no
guilt. It was all quite straightforward actually. One put a foot in
front of the other, ate what little one was given, and kept one’s
head down.
At some point he noticed that his fellow prisoner was
helping him, taking part of his weight on his
shoulders as
they fought the mud. Semiconsciously, he wondered why anyone would
do such a thing.
At last there came a time when he blinked and saw that his
hands
had been untied. They stood next to a wood-sided structure, offset
some distance from a maze of teetering, noisome shanties. From not
far away came the roar of rushing water.
“Welcome to Agness Town,” one of the harsh-voiced men said.
Someone planted a hand in his back and pushed. There was laughter
as the prisoners tumbled inside to collapse on a filthy straw
tick.
Neither bothered to move from the exact spot where he rolled
to
a stop. It was a chance to sleep. For the moment, that was all that
mattered. Again, there were no dreams- only occasional twitching as
abused muscles misfired through the rest of the day, the night, and
all the following morning.
Gordon awakened only when bright sunlight rose high enough to
shine painfully through his eyelids. He rolled aside, groaning. A
shadow passed over him, and his eyelids fluttered like rusty
shutters.
It took a few seconds to focus. Recognition came some time
after
that. The first thing that occurred to him was that there was a
tooth missing from the familiar smile.
“Johnny,” he croaked.
The young man’s face was blistered and bruised. Still, John
Stevens grinned cheerfully, gap and all “Hullo, Gordon. Welcome
back among the unlucky-the living.”
He helped Gordon sit up and steadied a ladle of cool river
water
for him to sip. Meanwhile, Johnny talked. “There’s food over in the
corner. And I overheard a guard say something about gettin‘ us
cleaned up sometime soon. So maybe there’s a reason our balls
aren’t already hanging from some asshole’s trophy belt. I guess
they brought us all this way to meet some bigshot.”
Johnny laughed, dryly. “Just you wait, Gordon. We’ll talk
rings
around the guy, whoever it is. Maybe we can offer to make him a
postmaster, or something. Is that what you meant when you lectured
me about the importance of learning practical
politics?”
Gordon was too weak to strangle Johnny for his incredible,
jarring cheerfulness. He tried to smile back instead, but it only
made his cracked lips hurt.
A scuttling movement in the corner opposite them showed that
they were not alone. There were three other prisoners in the shed
with them-filthy, wild-eyed scarecrows who had obviously been here
a long time. They stared back with saucer eyes, obviously long past
human.
“Did… did anyone get away from the ambush?” It had been
Gordon’s first lucid opportunity to ask.
“I think so. Your warning must have buggered the bastards’
timing. It gave us a chance to make a pretty good fight of it. I’m
sure we took out a couple of them before they swamped us.” Johnny’s
eyes shone. If anything, the boy’s admiration seemed to have
increased. Gordon looked away. He didn’t want praise for his
behavior that night.
“I’m pretty sure I killed the sonovabitch who smashed my
guitar.
Another one-”
“What about Phil Bokuto?” Gordon interrupted.
Johnny shook his head. “I don’t know, Gordon. I saw no black
ears or… other things… among the ‘trophies’ the crumbs
collected. Maybe he made it.”
Gordon sagged back against the slats of their pen. The sound
of
rushing water, a roar that had been with them all night, came from
the other side. He turned and peered through the gaps in the rough
planks.
About twenty feet away was the edge of a bluff. Beyond it,
through ragged shreds of drifting fog, he could see the heavily
forested wall of a canyon cut by a narrow, swift
stream.
Johnny seemed to read his thoughts. For the first time the
young
man’s voice was low, serious.
“That’s right, Gordon. We’re right in the heart of it. That
down
there’s the bitch herself. The bloody Rogue.”
11
The mist and icy drizzle turned back into flurries of
snow-flakes for the next week. With food and rest, the two
prisoners slowly regained some strength. For company they had only
each other. Neither their guards nor their fellow captives would
speak to them in more than monosyllables.
Still, it wasn’t hard to learn some things about life in the
Holnist realm. Their meals were brought by silent, cowering drudges
from the nearby shanty town. The only figures they saw who weren’t
emaciated-besides the earringed survivalists themselves-were the
women who served the Holnists’ pleasure. And even those worked by
day: drawing water from the frigid stream or currying the stable of
well-fed horses.
The pattern seemed well established, as if this was an
accustomed way of life. And yet Gordon became convinced that the
neofeudal community was in a state of flux.
“They’re preparing for a big move,” he told Johnny as they
watched a caravan arrive one afternoon. Still more frightened serfs
trudged into Agness, pulling carts and setting up camp in the
swelling warren. Obviously, this little valley could not hold such
a population for very long.
“They’re using this place as a staging area.”
Johnny suggested, “That mob of people might offer us an
advantage, if we find a way to bust out of here.”
“Hmm,” Gordon answered. But he didn’t hold much hope for aid
from any of the slaves out there. They’d had any spirit beaten out
of them, and had problems enough of their own.
One day, after the noon meal, Gordon and Johnny were ordered
to
step out of their pen and strip naked. A pair of shabby, silent
women came and gathered up their clothes. While the northerners’
backs were turned, buckets of cold river water were thrown on them.
Gordon and Johnny gasped and sputtered. The guards all laughed, but
the women’s eyes did not even flicker as they left, heads
bowed.
The Holnists-dressed in green and black camouflage, their ears
arrayed with golden rings-competed in lazy knife practice, flipping
their blades in quick, underhand arcs. The two northerners clutched
greasy blankets in front of a small fire, trying to stay
warm.
That evening their cleaned and patched clothes were returned
to
them. This time one of the women actually looked up briefly, giving
Gordon a chance to see her face. She might have been twenty, though
her lined eyes looked far older. Her brown hair was streaked with
gray. She glanced at Gordon for only a moment as he dressed. But
when he ventured a smile, she turned quickly and fled without
looking back.
The sunset meal was better fare than the usual sour gruel.
There
were scraps of something like venison amidst the parched corn.
Perhaps it was horsemeat
Johnny dared fate by asking for seconds. The other prisoners
blinked in amazement and cringed even farther into their corners.
One of the silent guards growled and took their plates away. But to
their surprise he returned with another helping for each of
them.
It was full dark when three Holn warriors in floppy berets
marched up behind a stoop-shouldered servant bearing a torch. “Come
along,” the leader told them. “The General wants to see
you.”
Gordon looked at Johnny, standing proud again in his uniform.
The young man’s eyes were confident. After all, they seemed to say,
what did these jerks have that could compare with Gordon’s
authority as an official of the Restored Republic?
Gordon remembered how the boy had half-carried him during the
long journey south from the Coquille. He had little heart anymore
for pretenses, but for Johnny’s sake he would try the old scam one
more time.
“All right, postman,” he told his young friend. Gordon winked.
“Neither sleet, nor hail, nor gloom of night…”
Johnny grinned back. “Through bandit’s hell, through firefight…”
They turned together and left the jail shed ahead of their
guards.
12
“Welcome, gentlemen”
The first thing Gordon noticed was the crackling fireplace.
The
snug pre-Doom ranger station was stone sealed and warm. He had
almost forgotten what the sensation felt like.
Second noticed was the rustle of silk as a long-legged blond
rose from a cushion by the hearth. The girl was a striking contrast
to nearly all the other women they had seen here-clean, erect,
laden down with glittering stones that would have brought a fortune
before the war.
Nevertheless, her eyes were lined, and she looked at the two
northerners as one might regard creatures from the far side of the
moon. Silently, she stood up and exited the room through a beaded
curtain.
“I said welcome, gentlemen. Welcome to
the Free
Realm.”
At last Gordon turned and took notice of a thin, bald man with
a
neatly trimmed beard, who rose to greet them from a cluttered desk.
Four gold rings glittered from one earlobe, and three from the
other-symbols of rank. He approached holding out his
hand.
“Colonel Charles Westin Bezoar, at your service, formerly of
the
bar of the State of Oregon and Republican Commissioner for Jackson
County. I presently have the honor of being judge advocate of the
American Liberation Army.”
Gordon arched an eyebrow, ignoring the outstretched hand.
“There
have been a lot of ‘armies’ since the Fall. Which one did you say
you were with, again?”
Bezoar smiled and let his hand drop casually. “I realize that
some apply other names to us. Let’s defer that for now and just say
I serve as aide-de-camp to General Volsci Macklin, who is your
host. The General will be joining us shortly. Meanwhile, may I
offer you some of our hill country sour mash?” He lifted a cut
glass decanter from the carved oak sideboard. “Whatever you may
have heard about our rough life up here, I believe you’ll find
we’ve refined at least a few of the old arts.”
Gordon shook his head. Johnny looked over the man’s head.
Bezoar
shrugged.
“No? Pity. Perhaps some other time. I hope you don’t mind if I
do indulge.” Bezoar poured himself a glass of brown liquor and
gestured to two chairs near the fire. “Please, gentlemen, you must
still be exhausted from your journey. Be comfortable. There is much
I’d like to know.
“For instance, Mr. Inspector, how are
things back in
the states to the east, beyond the deserts and the
mountains?”
Gordon did not even blink as he sat down. So the “Liberation
Army” had an intelligence service. It was no surprise that Bezoar
knew who they were… or at least who north Oregon thought
Gordon was.
“Things are much the same as in the west, Mr. Bezoar. People
try
to live, and rebuild where they can.”
In his mind Gordon was trying to recreate the dreamscape-the
fantasy of St. Paul City, of Odessa and Green Bay-images of living
cities leading a bold, resurgent nation-not the windswept ghost
towns he remembered, picked clean by ragged bands of wary
survivors.
He spoke for the cities as he had dreamed them. His voice was
stern. “In some places citizens have been luckier than in others.
They’ve regained much, and hope for more for their children. In
other areas, the recovery has been… hindered. Some of those
who nearly ruined our nation, a generation ago, still wreak havoc,
still harry our couriers and disrupt communications.
“And as I speak ofit” Gordon continued
coldly. “I
cannot put off any longer asking you just what you’ve done with the
mail your men have stolen from the United States.”
Bezoar put on wire-rimmed glasses and lifted a thick folder
from
the table next to him. “You are speaking of these letters, I
presume?” He opened the packet. Dozens of grayed and yellowed
sheets rustled dryly. “You see? I do not bother to deny it. I
believe we should be open and frank with each other, if anything is
to come of this meeting.
“Yes, a team of our advance scouts did find a pack horse in
the
ruins of Eugene-yours, I imagine-whose saddlebags contained this
very strange cargo. Ironically, I believe that at the very moment
our scouts were seizing these samples, you were killing two of
their comrades elsewhere in the deserted town.”
Bezoar raised one hand before Gordon could speak. “Have no
fear
of retribution. Our Holnist philosophy does not believe in it. You
defeated two survivalists in a straight fight. That makes you a
peer in our eyes. Why do you think you were treated as men after
you were captured, and not gelded as serfs or as
sheep?”
Bezoar smiled amiably, but Gordon seethed inside. In Eugene
last
spring he had seen what Holnists did to the bodies of the harmless
gleaners they had mowed down. He remembered young Mark Aage’s
mother, who saved his life and her son’s with one heroic gesture.
Bezoar clearly meant what he said, yet to Gordon the logic was
sickly, bitterly ironic.
The bald survivalist spread his hands. “We admit to taking
your
mail, Mr. Inspector. Can we mitigate our guilt by claiming
ignorance? After all, until these letters reached me here, none of
us had ever heard of the Restored United
States!
“Imagine our amazement when we saw such things… letters
carried many miles from town to town, warrants for new postmasters,
and these,” he raised a sheaf of official-looking flyers. “These
declarations from the provisional government in
St. Paul
City.”
The words were conciliatory and sounded earnest. But there was
something in the man’s tone of voice… He could not quite pin
it down, but whatever it was disturbed Gordon.
“You know of it now,” he pointed out. “And yet you continue.
Two
of our postal couriers have disappeared without a trace since your
invasion of the north. Ybur ‘American Liberation Army’ has been at
war with the United States for many months now, Colonel
Bezoar. And that cannot be mitigated by
ignorance.”
The lies came easily, now. In essence, after all, the words
were
true.
Ever since those few weeks, right after the big war had been
“won”-when the U.S. still had a government, and food and materiel
still moved protected on the highways- the real problem had not
been the broken enemies without so much as the chaos
within.
Grain rotted in bulging silos while farmers were felled by
simple, innoculable plagues. Vaccine was available in the cities,
where starvation reaped multitudes. More people died due to the
breakdown and lawlessness-the shattered web of commerce and mutual
assistance-than from all the bombs and germs, or even from the
three-year dusk.
It had been men like this who delivered the coup de grace, who
ended any chance those millions had.
“Perhaps, perhaps.” Bezoar tossed back a shot of the pungent
liquor. He smiled. “Then again, many have claimed to be the true
inheritors of American sovereignty. So your ‘Restored United
States’ controls large areas and populations, and so its leaders
include a few old farts who once bought elected office with cash
and a television smile. Does that mean that it is
the true
America?”
For an instant the calm, reasonable visage seemed to crack,
and
Gordon saw the fanatic within, unchanged except perhaps by
deepening over the years. Gordon had heard that tone… long ago
in the radio voice of Nathan Holn-before the survivalist “saint”
was hanged-and spoken by his followers ever since.
It was the same solipsistic philosophy of ego that had stoked
the rage of Nazism, of Stalinism. Hegel, Horbiger, Holn-the roots
were identical. Derived truth, smug and certain,
never to
be tested in the light of reality.
In North America, Holnism had been a nut fringe during a time
of
otherwise unparalleled brilliance, a throwback to the egoistic
eighties. But another version of the same evil-“Slavic
Mysticism”-actually seized power in the other hemisphere. That
madness finally plunged the world into the Doomwar.
Gordon smiled with grim severity. “Who can say what is
legitimate, after all these years? But one thing is certain,
Bezoar, the ‘true spirit of America’ seems to have become a passion
for hunting down Holnists. Your cult of the strong is loathed-not
only in the Restored U.S. but almost everywhere I’ve traveled.
Feuding villages will join forces on rumor of sighting one of your
bands. Any man caught wearing surplus camouflage is hanged on
sight.”
He knew he had scored, then. The earringed officer’s nostrils
flared. “That’s Colonel Bezoar, if you please.
And I’ll
wager there are some areas where that’s not true, Mr. Inspector.
Florida, perhaps? And Alaska?”
Gordon shrugged. Both states had gone silent the day after the
first bombs fell. There had been other places too, such as southern
Oregon, where the militia had not dared enter, even in
strength.
Bezoar stood up and walked to a bookshelf. He pulled down a
thick volume. “Have you ever actually read Nathan
Holn?”
he asked, his voice amiable once again. Gordon shook his
head.
“But, sir!” Bezoar protested. “How can you know your enemy
without learning how he thinks? Please, take this copy of Lost
Empire… Holn’s own biography of that great man, Aaron
Burr. It just might change your mind.
“You know I do believe, Mr. Krantz, that you are the sort of
man
who could become a Holnist. Often the strong need only have their
eyes opened to see that they have been cozened by the propaganda of
the weak, that they could have the world, if only they stretched
out their hands and took it.”
Gordon suppressed his initial response, and picked up the
proffered book instead. It probably wouldn’t be wise to provoke the
man too far. After all, he could probably have both northerners
killed with a word.
“All right. It might help pass the time while you arrange our
transportation back to the Willamette,” he said, quite
calmly.
“Yeah,” Johnny Stevens contributed, speaking for the first
time.
“And while you’re at it, how about paying the extra postage it’ll
take to finish delivering that stolen mail we’re going to take back
with us?”
Bezoar returned Johnny’s cold smile, but before he could
reply,
they heard footsteps on the wooden porch of the former ranger
station. The door opened and in stepped three bearded men dressed
in the traditional green and black fatigues.
One of them, the shortest but easily the most imposing figure,
wore only a single earring. But it glittered with large, inset
gems.
“Gentlemen,” Bezoar said, standing up. “Allow me to introduce
Brigadier General Macklin, U.S. Army Reserve, uniter of the Oregon
clans of Holn and commander of the American Forces of
Liberation.”
Gordon stood up numbly. For a moment he could only stare. The
General and his two aides were among the strangest-looking human
beings he had ever seen.
There was nothing unusual about their beards or earrings…
or the short string of shriveled “trophies” that each wore as
ceremonial decorations. But all three men were eerily
scarred, wherever their uniforms permitted view of
their
necks and arms. And under the faint lines left by some long ago
surgery, the muscles and tendons seemed to bulge and knot
oddly.
It was weird, and yet it occurred to Gordon that he might have
seen something akin to it, sometime in the past. He could not quite
remember where or when though.
Had these men suffered from one of the postwar plagues?
Supermumps, perhaps? Or some sort of thyroid
hypertrophy?
In a sudden recognition Gordon knew that the biggest of
Macklin’s aides was the pig-ugly raider who had struck so quickly
on the night of the ambush by the banks of the Co-qunie, knocking
him to the ground with the punch of a bull before he could even
begin to move.
None of the men was of the newer generation of
feudal-survivalists, young toughs recruited all through southern
Oregon. Like Bezoar, the newcomers were clearly old enough to have
been adults before the Doomwar. Time did not seem to have slowed
them down any, however. General Macklin moved with a catlike
quickness that was intimidating to watch. He wasted no time in
pleasantries. With a jerk of his head and a glance at Johnny, he
made his wishes known to Bezoar.
Bezoar pressed his fingers together. “Ah. Yes. Mr. Stevens, if
you would please accompany these gentlemen back to your, um,
quarters? It appears the General wants to speak with your superior
alone.”
Johnny looked at Gordon. Obviously, if given the word, he
would
fight.
Gordon quailed inwardly under the burden of that expression in
the youth’s eyes. Such devotion was something he had never sought,
not from anybody. “Go on back, John,” he told his young friend.
“I’ll join you later.”
The two hulking aides accompanied Johnny outside. When the
door
had closed, and the footsteps receded into the night, Gordon turned
to face the commander of the united Holnists. In his heart he felt
a powerful determination. There was no regret, no fear of hypocrisy
here. If it was in him to lie well enough to bluff these bastards,
he would do it. He felt full within his postman’s uniform, and got
ready to give the best performance of his life.
“Save it,” Macklin snapped.
The dark-bearded man pointed a long, powerful hand at him.
“One
word of that crap about a ‘Restored United States’ out of you, and
I’ll stuff your ’uniform‘ down your frigging
throat!”
Gordon blinked. He glanced at Bezoar and saw that the man was
grinning.
“I am afraid I’ve been less than open with you, Mr.
Inspecter.” There was a clear lilt of sarcasm this
time in
Be-zoar’s last two words. The Holnist Colonel bent to open a drawer
in his desk. “When first I heard of you I immediately sent out
parties to trace your route backwards. By the way, you are right
that Holnism is not very popular, in certain areas. At least not
yet. Two of the teams never returned.”
General Macklin snapped his fingers. “Don’t drag this out,
Bezoar. I’m busy. Call the jerk in.”
Bezoar nodded quickly and reached back to pull a cord on the
wall, leaving Gordon wondering what he had been trying to find in
the drawer.
“Anyway, one of our scouting parties did encounter a band of
kindred spirits in the Cascades, in a pass north of Crater Lake.
There were misunderstandings, most of the poor locals died, I’m
afraid. But we did manage to persuade a survivor-”
There were footsteps, then the beaded curtain parted. The
svelte
blond woman held it open and watched coldly as a battered-looking
man with a bandaged head stumbled into the room. He wore a uniform
of patched, faded camouflage, a belt knife, and a single, tiny
earring. His eyes were downcast. This survivalist was one who
seemed less than joyous at being here.
“I would introduce you to our latest recruit, Mr. Inspector,”
Bezoar said. “But I believe you two already know each
other.”
Gordon shook his head, thoroughly lost. What was going on
here?
To his knowledge he had never seen this man before in his
life!
Bezoar prodded the drooping newcomer, who looked up, then. “I
cannot say for certain,” the unsteady Holn recruit said, peering
at
Gordon. “He might be the one. It was a passing event, really, of
so… so little consequence at the time…”
Gordon’s fists balled suddenly. That
voice.
“It’s you, you bastard!”
The jaunty Alpine cap was gone, but now Gordon recognized the
salt-and-pepper sideburns, the sallow complexion. Roger Septien
seemed far less serene than when Gordon had last seen the man-on
the slopes of a death-dry mountainside, helping to carry away
nearly everything Gordon owned in the world, blithely,
sarcastically, leaving him to almost certain death.
Bezoar nodded in satisfaction. “You may go, Private Septien. I
believe your officer has suitable duty arranged for you,
tonight.”
The former robber and onetime stockbroker nodded wearily. He
didn’t even glance again at Gordon, but passed outside without
another word.
Gordon realized that he had blundered in reacting so quickly.
He
should have ignored the man, pretended he didn’t recognize
him.
But then, would it have made a difference? Macklin had already
seemed so sure…
“Get on with it,” the General told his aide.
Bezoar reached into the drawer again, and this time drew forth
a
small, ragged, black notebook. He held it out to Gordon. “Do you
recognize this? It has your name in it.”
Gordon blinked. Of course it was his journal, stolen- along
with
all his goods-by Septien and the other robbers only hours before he
stumbled onto the ruined postal van and started down the road to
his new career.
At the time he had mourned its loss, for the diary detailed
his
travels ever since leaving Minnesota, seventeen years ago… his
careful observations of life in postholocaust
America.
Now, though, the slim volume was the last thing on Earth he
would ever have wanted to see. He sat down heavily, suddenly weary,
aware of how completely the devils had been toying with him. The
lie had caught up with him, at last.
In all the pages of that little journal, there wasn’t a single
word about postmen, or recovery, or any “Restored United
States.”
There was only the truth.
13
Lost Empire
by
NATHAN HOLN
Today, as we approach the end of the Twentieth Century, the
great struggles of our time are said to be between the so-called
Left and so-called Right-those
great behemoths of
a contrived, fictitious political spectrum. Very few people seem to
be aware that these so-called opposites are, in
reality,
two faces to the same sick beast. There is a widespread blindness,
which keeps millions from seeing how they have been fooled by this
fabrication.
But it was not always so. Nor will it always be.
In other tracts I have spoken of other types of systems-of the
honor of medieval Japan, of the glorious, wild American Indians,
and of shining Europe during the period effete scholars today call
its “Dark Age.”
One thing history tells us, over and over again. Throughout
all
eras, some have commanded, while others have obeyed.
It is
a pattern of loyalty and power that is both honorable and natural.
Feudalism has always been our way, as a species, ever since we
foraged in wild bands and screamed defiance at each other from
opposing hilltops.
That is, it was always our way until men were perverted, the
strong sapped by the whimpering propaganda of the
weak.
Think back to how things were when the Nineteenth Century was
just dawning in America, Back then the opportunity stood stark and
clear to reverse the sick trends of the so-called “Enlightenment.”
The victorious Revolutionary War soldiers had expelled English
decadence from most of the continent. The frontier lay open, and a
rough spirit of individualism reigned supreme throughout the
newborn nation.
Aaron Burr knew this when he set out to seize the new
territories west of the original thirteen colonies. His dream was
that of all natural males-to dominate, to conquer, to win an
empire!
What would the world have been like if he had won? Could he
have
prevented the rise of those mis-born twin obscenities, socialism
and capitalism?
Who can tell? I will tell you, though, what I believe. I
believe
the Era of Greatness was at hand, ready to be born!
But Burr was brought down before he could accomplish much more
than the punishment of that tool of traitors, Alexander Hamilton.
Superficially, his chief foe would seem to have been Jefferson, the
conniver who robbed him of the Presidency. But in fact the
conspiracy went far, far deeper than that.
That evil genius, Benjamin Franklin, was at the heart of
it-that
cabal to kill the Empire before it could be born. His instruments
were many, too many even for a man as strong as Burr to
fight.
And the chiefest of those instruments was the Order
of
Cincinnatus…
Gordon slammed the book facedown on the ground beside the
straw
tick. How could anyone have read crap like this, let alone
published it?
It was still light enough to read after the evening meal, and
the sun was out for the first time in days. Nevertheless, a
crawling chill ran up and down his back as the mad dialectic echoed
within his head.
That evil genius, Benjamin Franklin…
Nathan Holn did make a good case that “Poor Richard” had been
much more than a clever printer-philosopher, who played ambassador
in between scientific experiments and wenching. If even a small
fraction of Holn’s citations were correct, Franklin certainly
was at the center of unusual events. Something odd
did
happen after the Revolutionary War, something that somehow thwarted
the men like Aaron Burr, and brought about the nation Gordon had
known.
But beyond that, Gordon was impressed mostly with the
magnitude
of Nathan Holn’s madness. Bezoar and Macklin had to be completely
crazy if they thought these ravings would convert him to their
plans!
The book had, in fact, just the opposite effect. If a volcano
were to go off right here in Agness, he felt it would be worth it
to know this nest of snakes would go to Hell along with
him.
Not far away, a baby was crying. Gordon looked up but could
barely make out shabby figures moving beyond the nearby copse of
alders. New captives had been brought in last night. They moaned
and huddled close around the small fire they had been allowed, not
rating even the shelter of a roofed pen.
Gordon and Johnny could be joining those miserable serfs soon
if
Macklin did not get the answer he wanted. The “General” was losing
patience. After all, from Macklin’s point of view his offer to
Gordon must have seemed quite reasonable.
Gordon had only a little while left in which to make up his
mind. The Holnist offensive would begin again with the first thaw,
with or without his compromised cooperation.
He did not see where he had much choice.
Unbidden, a memory of Dena came to mind. He found himself
missing her, wondering if she was still alive, wishing he could
touch her and be with her… pestering questions and
all.
By now, of course, it was probably too late to stop whatever
crazy scheme she and her followers had dreamed up. Gordon frankly
wondered why Macklin had not already gloated to him, over yet
another disaster to the hapless Army of the
Willamette.
Perhaps it’s only a matter of time, he
thought
gloomily.
Johnny finished rinsing out the nub-worn toothbrush that was
their sole common possession. He sat next to Gordon and picked up
the Burr biography. The youth read for a while, then looked up,
clearly puzzled.
“I know our school at Cottage Grove wasn’t much by prewar
standards, Gordon, but Grandfather used to give me lots to read,
and talked to me a lot about history and stuff. Even I know this
guy Holn is making up half this junk.
“How did he get away with pushing a book like this? How is it
anyone ever believed him?”
Gordon shrugged. “It was called ‘the Big Lie’ technique,
Johnny.
Just sound like you know what you’re talking
about-as if
you’re citing real facts. Talk very fast. Weave your lies into the
shape of a conspiracy theory and repeat your assertions over and
over again. Those who want an excuse to hate or blame-those with
big but weak egos-will leap at a simple, neat explanation for the
way the world is, Those types will never call you on the
facts.
“Hitler did it brilliantly. So did the Mystic of Leningrad.
Holn
was just another master of the Big Lie.”
And what about you?
Gordon asked himself. Did
he, inventor of the fable of the “Restored United States,”
collaborator in the hoax of Cyclops, have any right to cast
stones?
Johnny read on for a few minutes more. Then he tapped the book
again. “Who was this Cincinnatus guy, then? Did Holn make him up
too?”
Gordon lay back on the straw. His eyes closed. “No. If I
remember right, he was a great general of ancient Rome, back in the
days of the Republic. According to the legend, he got sick of
fighting one day, and retired from the army to farm his land in
peace.
“One day though, emissaries came out from the city to see him.
Rome’s armies were in rout; their leaders had proven incompetent.
Disaster seemed inevitable.
“The delegation approached Cincinnatus-they found him behind
his
plow-and they pleaded with him to take command of the last
defense.”
“What did Cincinnatus tell the guys from Rome?”
“Oh, well,” Gordon yawned. “He agreed all right. Reluctantly.
He
rallied the Romans, beat the invaders, and drove them all the way
back to their own city. It was a great victory.”
“I’ll bet they made him king or something,” Johnny
suggested.
Gordon shook his head. “The army wanted to. The people, also… But Cincinnatus told them all they could
go chase themselves. He returned to his farm, and never left it
again.”
Johnny scratched his head. “But… why did he do that? I
don’t get it.”
Gordon did though. He understood the story completely, now
that
he thought about it. He had had the reasons explained to him, not
so very long ago, and he would never forget.
“Gordon?”
He did not answer. Instead he turned over at a faint sound
from
outside. Looking through the slats, he saw a party of men
approaching up the trail from the river docks. A boat had just come
ashore.
Johnny seemed not to have noticed yet. He persisted in his
questions, as he had ever since they had recovered from their
capture. Like Dena, the youth never seemed willing to lose any
opportunity to try to improve his education.
“Rome was a long time before the American Revolution wasn’t
it,
Gordon? Well then, what was this-” He picked up the book again.
“-this Order of Cincinnatus Holn talks about
here?”
Gordon watched the procession approach the jail pen. Two serfs
labored with a stretcher, guarded by khaki-clad survivalist
soldiers.
“George Washington founded the Order of the Cincinnati after
the
Revolutionary War,” he said absently. “His former officers were the
chief members-”
He stopped as their guard stepped over and unlocked the gate.
They both watched as the serfs entered and laid their burden on the
straw. They and their escorts turned and left without another
word.
“He’s hurt pretty bad,” Johnny said when they hurried over to
examine the injured man. “This compress hasn’t been changed in
days.”
Gordon had seen plenty of wounded men in the years since his
sophomore class had been drafted into the militia. He had learned a
lot of bush diagnosis while serving with Lieutenant Van’s platoon.
A glance told him that this fellow’s bullet wounds might have
healed, eventually, with proper treatment. But the smell of death
now hung over the still figure. It rose from limbs suppurated with
marks of torture.
“I hope he lied to them,” Johnny muttered as he labored to
make
the dying prisoner comfortable. Gordon helped fit their blankets
around him. He was puzzled over where the fellow had come from. He
did not look like a Willametter. And unlike most Camas and Roseburg
men, he had obviously been clean shaven until recently. In spite of
his ill treatment, there was too much meat on his bones for him to
have been a serf.
Gordon stopped suddenly, rocking back on his haunches. His
eyes
closed and opened. He stared. “Johnny, look here. Is this what I
think it is?”
Johnny peered where he pointed, then pulled back the blankets
for a better view. “Well I’ll be… Gordon, this looks like a
uniform!”
Gordon nodded. A uniform… and clearly one of
postwar making. It was colored and cut totally
unlike
anything the Holnists wore, or for that matter, anything either of
them had ever seen in Oregon before.
On one shoulder, the dying man wore a patch embroidered with a
symbol Gordon recognized from long ago… a brown grizzly bear
striding upon a red stripe… all against a field of
gold.
• • •
A while later word arrived that Gordon was wanted again. The
usual escort came for him by torchlight. “That man in there is
dying,” he told the head guard.
The taciturn, three-earring Holnist shrugged. “So? Woman’s
comin‘ to tend him. Now move. General’s waitin’.”
On their way up the moonlit path they encountered a figure
coming down the other way. The slope-shouldered drudge stepped
aside and waited for the men to pass, eyes downcast to the tray of
rolled bandages and unguents she held. None of the aloof guards
seemed to notice her at all.
At the last moment, however, she looked up at Gordon. He
recognized the same small woman with gray-streaked brown hair, the
one who had taken and repaired his uniform some days back. He tried
to smile at her as they passed, but it only seemed to unnerve her.
She ducked her head and scuttled back into the
shadows.
Saddened, Gordon continued up the path with his escort. She
had
reminded him a little of Abby. One of his worries had to do with
his friends back in Pine View. The Holnist scouts who discovered
his journal had corne very close to the friendly little village. It
wasn’t only the frail civilization in the Willamette that was in
terrible danger.
Nobody anywhere was safe anymore, he knew- except, perhaps,
George Powhatan, living safe atop Sugar-loaf Mountain, tending his
bees and beer while the rest of what was left of the world
burned.
“I’m getting tired of your stalling, Krantz,” General Macklin
told him when the guards had left the book-lined former ranger
station.
“You put me in a hard position, General. I’m studying the book
Colonel Bezoar lent me, trying to understand-”
“Cut the crap, will you?” Macklin approached until his face
was
two feet from Gordon’s. Even looking upward, the Holnist’s
strangely contorted visage was intimidating. “I know men, Krantz.
You’re strong all right, and you’d make a good vassal. But you’re
all mucked up with guilt and other ‘civilized’ poisons. So much so
that I’m beginning to think maybe you’ll be useless, after
all.”
The implication was direct. Gordon forced himself not to show
the weakness in his knees.
“You can be the Baron of Corvallis, Krantz. A senior lord in
our
new empire. You can even hold onto some of your quaint,
old-fashioned sentiments, if you want… and if you’re strong
enough to enforce them. You want to be nice to
your own
vassals? You want post offices?
“We might even find a use for that ‘Restored United States’ of
yours.” Macklin gave Gordon a toothy, odorous smile. “That’s why
only Charlie and I know about that little black journal of yours,
until we can check the idea out.
“It’s not because I like you,
understand. It’s because
we’d benefit a little if you cooperated. You might rule those techs
in Corvallis better than any of my boys could. We might even decide
to keep that Cyclops machine going, if it paid its
keep.”
So the Holnists hadn’t yet pierced the legend of the great
computer. Not that it mattered much. They never had really cared
about technology, except what was necessary to make war. Science
benefitted everyone too much, especially the weak.
Macklin picked up the fireplace poker and slapped it into his
left palm. “The alternative, of course, is that we’ll take
Corvallis anyway, this spring. Only if we have to do it our way,
it’ll burn. And there won’t be no post offices anywhere, boy. No
smart-ass machines.”
With the poker Macklin reached out and touched a sheet of
paper
on the desk. A pen and ink pot lay next to it. Gordon well knew
what the man expected of him.
If all he had to do was agree to the scheme, Gordon would have
done so at once. He would have played along until he had a chance
to make a break for it.
But Macklin was too canny. He wanted Gordon to write to the
Council in Corvallis, convincing them to surrender several key
towns as an act of good faith before he would be
released.
Of course he had only the General’s say-so that he would be
made
“Baron of Corvallis” after that. He doubted Macklin’s word was any
better than his own.
“Perhaps you don’t think we’re strong enough to take your
pathetic ‘Army of the Willamette’ without your help?” Macklin
laughed. He turned to the door.
“Shawn!”
Macklin’s burly bodyguard was in the room so swiftly and
smoothly it seemed almost a blur. He closed the door and marched up
to the General, snapping stiffly to attention.
“I’m going to let you in on something, Krantz. Shawn and I,
and
that mean cat who captured you, are the last of our
kind.”
Macklin confided. “It was really hush-hush stuff, but you
might
have heard some of the rumors. The experiments led to some special
fighting units, unlike any ever known before.”
Gordon blinked. Suddenly it all made sense, the General’s
uncanny speed, the tracery of scars under his skin and his two
aides‘,
“Augments!”
Macklin nodded. “Smart boy. You paid attention good, for a
college kid weakening his mind with psychology
and
ethics”
“But we all thought they were only rumors! You mean they
really
took soldiers and modified them so-”
He stopped, looking at the strangely knotted muscles along
Shawn’s bare arms. As impossible as it seemed, the story had to be
true. There was no other rational explanation.
“They tried us out for the first time in Kenya. And the
government did like the results in combat. But I guess they weren’t
too happy with what happened after peace broke out and they brought
us home.”
Gordon stared as Macklin held out the poker to his bodyguard,
who took one end-not in his massive fist but between two
fingers and a thumb. Macklin
took the other end
in a similar grip.
They pulled. Without even breathing hard, Macklin kept
talking.
“The experiment went on through the late eighties and early
nineties. Special Forces, mostly. They chose gung ho types like us.
Naturals, in other words.”
The steel poker did not rock or shake. Almost totally rigid,
it
began to stretch.
“Oh we tore up those Cubans good,” Macklin chuckled, looking
only at Gordon. “But the Army didn’t like how some of the vets
acted when the action ended and we all went home.
“They were afraid of Nate Holn, you see, even then. He
appealed
to the strong, and they knew it. The augmentation program was cut
off.”
The poker turned dull red in the middle. It had stretched to
half again its former length when it began to neck and shred like
pulled taffy. Gordon glanced quickly at Charles Bezoar, standing
beyond the two augments. The Holnist colonel licked his lips
nervously, unhappily. Gordon could tell what he was
thinking.
Here was strength he could never hope for. The scientists and
the hospitals where the work had been done were long gone.
According to Bezoar’s religion, these men had to be his
masters.
The tips of the torn poker separated with a loud report,
giving
off friction heat that could be felt some distance away. Neither of
the enhanced soldiers even rocked.
“That’ll be all, Shawn.” Macklin threw the pieces into the
fireplace as his aide swiveled smartly and marched out of the room.
The General looked at Gordon archly.
“Do you doubt any longer we’ll be in Corvallis by May? With or
without you? Any of the unaugmented boys in my
army are
equal to twenty of your fumblebum farmers-or your zany women
soldiers.”
Gordon looked up quickly, but Macklin only talked
on.
“But even if the sides were more equal, you still wouldn’t
have
a chance! You think we few augments couldn’t slip into any of your
strong points and level them at will? We could tear your silly
defenses to pieces with our bare hands. Don’t you hesitate to
believe it for even a second.”
He pushed forward the writing paper and rolled the pen toward
Gordon.
Gordon stared at the yellowed sheet. What did it matter? In
the
midst of all these revelations, he felt he knew where things stood.
He met Macklin’s eyes.
“I’m impressed. Really. That was a convincing
demonstration.
“Tell me though, General, if you’re so good, why aren’t you in
Roseburg right now?”
As Macklin reddened, Gordon gave the Holnist chieftain a faint
smile.
“And while we’re on the topic, who is it who’s chasing you out
of your own domain? I should have guessed before why you’re pushing
this war so hard and fast. Why your people are staging their serfs
and worldly possessions to move north, en masse. Most barbarian
invasions used to start that way, back in history, like dominoes
toppled by other dominoes.
“Tell me, General. Who’s kicking your ass so bad you have to
get
out of the Rogue?”
Macklin’s face was a storm. His knotted hands flexed and made
white-hard fists. At any moment Gordon expected to pay the ultimate
price for his deeply satisfying outburst.
Barely in control, Macklin’s eyes never left Gordon. “Get him
out of here!” he snapped at Bezoar.
Gordon shrugged and turned away from the seething
augment.
“And when you get back I want to look into this, Bezoar! I
want
to find out who broke security!” Macklin’s voice pursued his
intelligence chief out onto the steps, where the guards fell in
behind them.
Bezoar’s hand on Gordon’s elbow shook all the way back to the
jail pen.
“Who put this man here!” The Holnist Colonel shouted as he saw
the dying prisoner on the straw tick between Johnny and the
wide-eyed woman.
One guard blinked. “Isterman, I think. He just got in from the
Salmon River front-”
… the Salmon River front…
Gordon recognized
the name of a stream in northern California. “Shut up!” Bezoar
nearly screamed. But Gordon had his confirmation. There was more to
this war than they had known before this evening.
“Get him out of here! Then go bring Isterman to the big house
at
once!”
The guards moved quickly. “Hey, take it easy with him!” Johnny
cried as they grabbed up the unconscious man like a potato sack.
Bezoar favored him with a withering glare. The Holnist colonel took
out his anger by kicking at the drudge woman, but her instincts
were well-honed. She was out the door before he
connected.
“I’ll see you tomorrow,” Bezoar told Gordon. “I think you’d
better reconsider writing that letter to Corvallis in the meantime.
What you did tonight wasn’t wise.”
Gordon looked casually through the man, as if he barely
merited
notice. “What passes between the General and myself is of no
concern to you,” he told Bezoar. “Only peers have the right to
exchange threats, or challenges.”
The quote from Nathan Holn seemed to rock Bezoar back as if he
had been struck. He stared as Gordon sat down on the straw and put
his arms behind his head, ignoring the former lawyer
altogether.
Only after Bezoar had departed, when the gloomy shed had
quieted
again, did Gordon get up and hurry over to Johnny.
“Did the bear-flag soldier ever speak?”
Johnny shook his head. “He never regained consciousness,
Gordon.”
“What about the woman? Did she say
anything?”
Johnny looked left and right. The other prisoners were in
their
corners, facing the wall as they had for weeks.
“Not a word. But she did slip me this.”
Gordon took the tattered envelope. He recognized the papers as
soon as he pulled them out
It was Dena’s letter-the one he had received from George
Powhatan’s hand, back on Sugarloaf Mountain. It must have been in
his pants pocket when the woman took his clothes away to be
cleaned. She must have kept it.
No wonder Macklin and Bezoar never mentioned it!
Gordon was determined the General would never get his hands on
the letter. However crazy Dena and her friends were, they deserved
their chance. He began tearing it up, prior to eating the pieces,
but Johnny reached out and stopped him. “No, Gordon! She wrote
something on the last page.”
“Who? Who wrote…” Gordon shifted the paper in the faint
moonlight that slipped between the slats. At last he saw scrawled
pencil scratchings, rude block letters that contrasted starkly
under Dena’s flowing script.
is true?
are woman so free north?
are some man both good and strong?
will she die for you?
Gordon sat for a long time looking at the sad, simple words.
Everywhere his ghosts foDowed him, in spite of his newfound
resignation. What George Powhatan had said about Dena’s motives
still gnawed within him.
The Big Things would not let go.
He ate the letter slowly. He would not let Johnny share this
particular meal, but made a penance, a sacrament, of every
piece.
About an hour later there was a commotion outside-a ceremony
of
sorts. Out across the clearing, at the old Agness General Store, a
double column of Holnist soldiers marched to the slow beat of
muffled drums. In their midst walked a tall, blond man. Gordon
recognized him as one of the camouflaged fighters who had dumped
the dying prisoner into their midst earlier that
day.
“Must be Isterman,” Johnny commented, fascinated.
“This’ll teach him not to come back without reporting in to
G-2
first thing.”
Gordon noted that Johnny must have watched too many old World
War Two movies, back at the video library in
Corvallis.
At the end of the line of escorts he recognized Roger Septien.
Even in the dark he could tell that the former mountain robber was
trembling, barely able to hold on to his rifle.
Charles Bezoar’s barrister voice sounded nervous, too, as he
read the charges. Isterman stood with his back to a large tree, his
face impassive. His trophy string lay across his chest like a
bandolier… like a sash of grisly merit badges.
Bezoar stood aside and General Macklin stepped up to speak to
the condemned man. Macklin shook hands with Isterman, kissed him on
both cheeks, then moved over beside his aide to watch the
conclusion. A two-earringed sergeant snapped sharp orders. The
executioners knelt, raised their rifles, and fired as
one.
Except for Roger Septien. Who fainted dead away.
The tall blond Holnist officer now lay crumpled in a pool of
blood at the foot of the tree. Gordon thought of the dying prisoner
who had shared their captivity for so short a time, and who had
told them so much without ever opening his eyes.
“Sleep well, Califomian,” he whispered. “You’ve taken one more
of them with you.
“The rest of us should only do so well.”
14
That night Gordon dreamed he was watching Benjamin Franklin
play
chess with a boxy iron stove.
“The problem is one of balance,” the graying
statesman-scientist
said to his invention, ignoring Gordon as he contemplated the
chessboard. “I’ve put some thought to it. How can we set up a
system which encourages individuals to strive and excel, and yet
which shows some compassion to the weak, and weeds out madmen and
tyrants?”
Flames licked behind the stove’s glowing grille, like dancing
rows of lights. In words more seen than heard, it
inquired:
“… Who will take
responsibility . . .
?”
Franklin moved a white knight. “Good question,” he said as he
leaned back. “A very good question.
“Of course we can establish constitutional checks and
balances,
but those won’t mean a thing unless citizens make sure the
safeguards are taken seriously. The greedy and the power-hungry
will always look for ways to break the rules, or twist them to
their advantage.”
The flames flicked out, and somehow in the process a red pawn
had moved.
“… who…?
Franklin took out a handkerchief and wiped his brow. “Would-be
tyrants, that’s who… they have an age-old panoply of
methods-manipulating the common man, lying to him, or crushing his
belief in himself.
“It’s said that ‘power corrupts,’ but actually it’s more true
that power attracts the corruptible. The sane are
usually
attracted by other things than power. When they do act, they think
of it as service, which has limits. The tyrant,
though,
seeks mastery, for which he is insatiable,
implacable.”
“… foolish children . . .” the
flames
flickered.
“Yes,” Franklin nodded, wiping his bifocals. “Still, I believe
that certain innovations might help. The right myths,
for
instance.
“And then, if Good is willing to make sacrifices…” He
reached out, picking up his queen, hesitated for a moment, and then
moved the delicate ivory piece all the way across the board, almost
under the glowing hot grille.
Gordon wanted to cry out a warning. The queen’s position was
completely exposed. Not even a pawn was nearby to protect
her.
His worst fears were borne out almost at once. The flames
licked
forth. In a blur, a red king stood on a pile of ashes where the
slender white figure had been only a moment before.
“Oh lord, no,” Gordon moaned. Even in the half-critical dream
state, he knew what was happening, and what it
symbolized.
“… Who will take responsibility… ?”
the stove
asked again.
Franklin did not answer. Instead, he shifted and pushed back
in
his chair. It squeaked as he turned around. Over the rims of his
bifocals, he looked directly at Gordon.
You too? Gordon quailed. What
do you all want from
me!
The rippling red. And Franklin smiled.
He startled awake, staring until he saw Johnny Stevens
crouching
over him, about to touch his shoulder.
“Gordon, I think you’d better take a look. Something’s the
matter with the guards.”
He sat up, rubbing his eyes. “Show me.”
Johnny led him over to the east wall of the shed, near the
door.
It took a moment to adjust to the moonlight. Then Gordon made out
the two survivalist soldiers who had been assigned to watch
them.
One lay back against a log bench, his mouth hanging open as he
stared blank-eyed up at the low, growling clouds.
The other Holnist still gurgled. He clawed at the ground,
trying
to crawl toward his rifle. In one hand he held his burnished sheath
knife, glinting in the low firelight. By his knees lay a toppled
ale stein, a brown stain spreading from its broken
lip.
Seconds after they had begun to watch, the last guard’s head
slumped. His struggles died away in a faint rattle.
Johnny and Gordon looked at each other. As one, they rushed to
test the door, but the lock was firmly in place. Johnny stretched
his arm through a gap in the planks, trying to grab any part of the
guard’s uniform. The keys… “Damn! He’s just too
far!”
Gordon began prying at the boards. The shack certainly was
flimsy enough to take apart by hand. But when he pulled, the rusty
nails creaked and sent the hair rising up the back of his
neck.
“What do we do?” Johnny asked. “If we yank hard, all at once,
we
might be able to crash out real fast, and dash down the trail to
the canoes…”
“Shhh!” Gordon motioned for silence. Out there in the darkness
he had seen a figure move.
Tentatively, nervously, a small, shabby shape scuttled toward
the moonlit clearing just outside the shack, where the fallen
guards lay.
“It’s her!” Johnny whispered. Gordon also recognized the
dark-haired drudge, the one who had written the pathetic little
addendum to Dena’s letter. He watched as she overcame her terror
and conditioning to approach each of the guards in turn, checking
for breath and life.
Her whole body shook and low moans escaped her as she sought
the
ring of keys under the second man’s belt. To get at them she had to
push her fingers through his line of gruesome trophies, but she
closed her eyes and brought them forth, clinking
softly.
Each second was an agony as she fumbled with the lock. Their
releaser ducked back out of the way as the two men pushed outside
and ran to each of the guards, stripping them of knives, ammo
belts, rifles. They dragged the bodies back into the shed and
closed and locked the door.
“What is your name?” Gordon asked the crouched woman,
squatting
before her. Her eyes were closed as she answered.
“H-Heather.”
“Heather, Why did you help us?”
Her eyes opened. They were a startling green. “Your… your
woman wrote…”
She made a visible effort to gather herself. “I never kenned
what th‘ old women said about th’ old days… But then some of
th‘ new prisoners talked about things up north… and there you
was… Y-you won’t beat me too hard for readin’ yer letter, will
you?”
She cringed as Gordon put his hand out to touch the side of
her
face, so he withdrew it. Tenderness was too alien to her. All sorts
of reassurances came to mind, but he kept to the simplest-one she
would understand. “I won’t beat you at all,” he told her. “Not
ever.”
Johnny appeared beside him. “Only one guard down by the
canoes,
Gordon. I think I see a way we can get up within range. He may be a
Rogue, but he won’t be expecting anything. We can take
him.”
Gordon nodded. “We’ll have to bring her with us,” he
said.
Johnny looked torn between compassion and practicality. He
clearly considered his first duty to get Gordon away from this
place. “But…”
“They’ll know who poisoned the guards. She’s crucified if she
stays.”
Johnny blinked, then nodded, apparently glad to have the
dilemma
resolved so straightforwardly. “Okay. Let’s go,
though!”
They started to rise, but Heather took Gordon’s
sleeve.
“I have a friend,” she said, and turned to wave into the
darkness.
From the shadow of the trees there stepped a slender figure in
pants and shirt several sizes too large, bunched up and cinched
tight by a large belt. In spite of that, the second woman’s figure
was unmistakable. Charles Bezoar’s mistress had her blond hair tied
back and she carried a small package. If anything, she seemed more
nervous than Heather.
After all, Gordon thought, she had more to lose in any escape
attempt. It was a sign of her desperation that she was willing to
throw herself in with two motley strangers from a nearly mythical
north.
“Her name is Marcie,” the older woman told him. “We wasn’t
sure
you’d want to take us, so she brought some presents for
you.”
With trembling hands, Marcie untied a black oilskin. “H-here’s
your m-mail,” she said. The girl held the papers out delicately, as
if afraid of defiling them with her touch.
Gordon nearly laughed out loud when he saw the sheaf of almost
valueless letters. He stopped short, though, when he saw what else
she held: a small, ragged, black-bound volume. Gordon could only
blink then, thinking of the risks she must have taken to get
it.
“All right,” he said, taking the packet and tying it up again.
“Follow us, and keep quiet! When I wave like this, stay low and
wait for us.”
Both women nodded solemnly. Gordon turned, intending to take
point, but Johnny had already ducked ahead, leading the way down
the trail to the river.
Don’t argue this time. He’s right, damn
it.
Freedom was wonderful beyond relief. But with it came that
bitch, Duty.
Hating the fact that he was “important” once again, he
crouched
and followed Johnny, leading the women toward the
canoes.
15
There was no choice of which way to go. Spring’s thaw had
begun,
and the Rogue was already a rushing torrent. The only thing to do
was head downstream and pray.
Johnny still exulted over his successful kill. The sentry
hadn’t
turned until he was within two steps, and had gone down nearly
silently as Johnny tackled him, ending his struggles with three
quick knife thrusts. The young man from Cottage Grove was full of
his own prowess as they loaded the women into the boat and set off,
letting the current pull them into midstream.
Gordon hadn’t the heart to tell his young friend. But he had
seen the guard’s face before they tumbled him into the river. Poor
Roger Septien had looked surprised-hurt- hardly
the image
of a Holnist superman.
Gordon remembered his own first time, nearly two decades ago,
firing at looters and arsonists while there still remained a chain
of command, before the militia units dissolved into the riots they
had been sent to put down. He did not recall being proud, then. He
had cried at night, mourning the men he killed.
Still, these were different times, and a dead Holnist was a
good
thing, no matter how you cut it.
They had left a beach littered with crippled canoes. Every
moment of delay had been an agony, but they had to make sure they
weren’t followed too easily. Anyway, the chore gave the women
something to do and they went at it with gusto. Afterward, both
Marcie and Heather seemed a bit less cowed and
skittish.
The women huddled down in the center of the canoe as Gordon
and
Johnny hefted paddles and struggled with the unfamiliar craft. The
moon kept ducking in and out behind clouds as they dipped and
pulled, trying to learn the proper rhythm as they
went.
They had not gone far before reaching the first set of
riffles.
In moments the time for practice was over as they went crashing
through foamy rapids, barely skimming past glistening, rocky crags,
often seen only at the last moment.
The river was fierce, driven by snow melt. Her roar filled the
air, and spray diffracted the intermittent moonlight. It was
impossible to fight her, only to cajole, persuade, divert, and
guide their frail vessel through hazards barely
seen.
At the first calm stretch, Gordon guided them into an eddy. He
and Johnny rested over their oars, looked at each other, and at the
same moment burst out laughing. Marcie and Heather stared at the
two men-giggling breathlessly from adrenaline and the roar of
freedom in their blood and ears. Johnny whooped and slapped the
water with his paddle.
“Come on, Gordon. That was fun! Let’s get on with
it.”
Gordon caught his breath and wiped river spume out of his
eyes.
“Okay,” he said, shaking his head. “But carefully,
okay?”
They stroked together and banked steeply as the current caught
them again.
“Oh, shit,” Johnny cursed. “I thought the last
one…”
His words were drowned out, but Gordon finished the
thought.
And I thought the last one was bad!
Gaps between the rocks were narrow, deadly shoots. Their canoe
scraped horribly through the first, then shot out, canting
precipitously. “Lean hard!” Gordon shouted. He wasn’t laughing now,
but fighting to survive.
We should have walked… we should have
walked… we should have walked…
The inevitable happened sooner, though, than even he
expected… less than three miles downstream. A sunken tree-a
hidden snag
just beyond the hard rock face of a turn in the canyon wall-a
streak of rolling water cloaked in darkness until it was too late
for him to do more than curse and dig in his paddle to try to
turn.
An aluminum canoe might have survived the collision, but there
were none left after years of war. The homemade wood-and-bark model
tore with an agonized shriek, harmonized by the women’s screams as
they all spilled into the icy flood.
The sudden chill was stunning. Gordon gulped air and grabbed
at
the capsized canoe with one arm. His other hand darted out and
seized a grip on Heather’s dark hair, barely in time to keep her
from being swept away. He struggled to avoid her desperate
clutching and to keep her head above water… all the while
fighting for his own breath in the choppy foam.
At last he felt sand beneath his feet. It took every last
effort
to fight the river’s pull and the sucking mud until he was able at
last to haul his gasping burden out and collapse onto the mat of
rotting vegetation by the steep shore.
Heather coughed and sobbed next to him. He heard Johnny and
Marcie spluttering not far away, and knew that they had made it,
too. There wasn’t a flicker of energy to spare for celebration,
though. He lay breathing hard, unable even to move for what felt
like hours.
Johnny spoke at last. “We didn’t really have any gear to lose.
I
guess my ammo’s wet, though. Your rifle gone,
Gordon?”
“Yeah.” He sat up groaning, touching a thin gash where the
breaking canoe had stroked his forehead.
There did not seem to have been any serious injuries, though
the
coughing was now starting to shift over to general shivers.
Marcie’s borrowed clothes stuck to the blond concubine in ways that
Gordon might have found interesting had he not been so
miserable.
“W-what do we do now?” she asked.
Gordon shrugged. “For starters we go back in and get rid of
the
wreck.”
They stared at him. He explained. “If they don’t find it,
they’ll probably assume we went a whole lot farther than this,
tonight. That could turn out to be our only
advantage.
“Then, when that’s done, we head overland.”
“I’ve never been to California,” Johnny suggested, and Gordon
had to smile. Since they had discovered that the Holnists had
another enemy, the boy had spoken of little else.
The idea was tempting. South was one direction their pursuers
wouldn’t expect them to go.
But that would mean crossing the river. And anyway, if Gordon
remembered correctly, the Salmon River was a long way south of
here. Even if it were practical to sneak through a couple of
hundred miles of survivalist baronies, there just wasn’t time. With
spring here, they were needed back home worse than
ever.
“We’ll wait up in the hills until pursuit’s gone past,” he
said.
“Then we might as well try for the Coquille.”
Johnny, forever cheerful and willing, did not let their dim
chances get him down. He shrugged. “Let’s go get the canoe then.”
He jumped into the frigid, waist-deep water. Gordon picked up a
sturdy piece of driftwood to use as a gaff, and followed a little
more gingerly. The water wasn’t any less bitterly cold the second
time. His toes were starting to go numb.
Together they had almost reached the belly-up canoe when
Johnny
cried out and pointed, “The mail!”
At the fringe of their eddy, a glistening oilskin packet could
be seen drifting outward, toward the swift center of the
current.
“No!” Gordon cried. “Let it go!”
But Johnny had already leaped head first into the rushing
waters. He swam hard toward the receding package, even as Gordon
screamed after him. “Corne back here. Johnny, you fool! It’s
worthless!
“Johnny!”
He watched hopelessly as the bundle and the boy chasing it
were
swept around the next bend in the river. From just ahead there came
the heavy, heartless growl of rapids.
Cursing, Gordon dove into the freezing current and swam with
all
his might to catch up. His pulse pounded and he inhaled icy water
along with every desperate breath. He almost followed Johnny around
the bend, but then, at the last moment, he grabbed an overhanging
branch and held on tightly… just in time.
Through the curtain of foam he saw his young friend tumble
after
the black package into the worst cascade yet, a horrible jumbling
of ebony teeth and spray.
“No,” Gordon whispered hoarsely. He watched as Johnny and the
packet were swept together over a ledge and disappeared into a
sinkhole.
He continued staring, through the hair plastered over his eyes
and the blinding, stinging droplets, but minutes passed and nothing
emerged from that terrible whirlpool.
At last, with his grip slipping, Gordon had to retreat. He
drew
himself hand over hand along the shaky branch until he reached the
slow, shallow water at the river’s bank. Then, mechanically, he
forced his feet to carry him upstream, slogging past the wide-eyed
women to the ruined bark canoe.
He used a driftwood hook to draw it after him behind a jutting
point in the canyon wall, and there he pounded the little boat to
pieces, smashing it into unrecognizable flinders.
Sobbing, he kept striking and slashing the water long after
the
bits had sunk out of sight or drifted away.
16
They passed the day in the brambles and weeds under a
tumbledown
concrete bunker. Before the Doomwar, it must have been someone’s
treasured survivalist hideaway, but now it was a ruin-broken,
bullet-scarred, and looted.
Once, in prewar days, Gordon had read that there were places
in
the country riddled with hideouts like this- stockpiled by men
whose hobby was thinking about the fall of society, and fantasizing
what they would do after it happened. There had been classes,
workshops, special-interest magazines… an industry catering to
“needs” which went far beyond those of the average woodsman or
camper.
Some simply liked to daydream, or enjoyed a relatively
harmless
passion for rifles. Few were ever followers of Nathan Holn, and
most were probably horrified when their fantasies at last came
true.
When that time finally arrived, most of the loner
“sur-vivalists” died in their bunkers, quite alone.
Battle and the rain forest had eroded the few scraps left by
waves of scavengers. Cold rain pattered over the concrete blocks as
the three fugitives took turns keeping watch and
sleeping.
Once they heard shouts and the squish of horses’ hooves in the
mud. Gordon made an effort to look confident for the women’s sake.
He had taken care to leave as little trail as possible, but his two
charges weren’t even as experienced as the Willamette Army scouts.
He wasn’t at all sure they would be able to fool the best forest
trackers who had lived since Cochise.
The riders moved on, and after a while the fugitives were able
to relax just a little. Gordon dozed.
This time he did not dream. He was too exhausted to spare any
energy for hauntings.
They had to wait for the moonrise before setting out that
night.
There were several trails, crisscrossing each other frequently, but
Gordon somehow kept them going in the right direction, using the
semipermanent ice on the north sides of the trees as a
guide.
Three hours after sunset, they came upon the ruins of a little
village.
“Illahee.” Heather identified the place.
“It’s been abandoned,” he observed. The moonlit ghost town was
eerie. From the former Baron’s manor to the lowliest hovel, it
seemed to have been picked clean.
“All the soldiers an‘ their serfs were sent up north,” Marcie
explained. “There’s been a lot of villages emptied that way, last
few weeks.”
Gordon nodded. ‘They’re fighting on three fronts. Macklin
wasn’t
kidding when he said he would be in Corvallis by May. It’s take
over-the Willamette or die.’‘
The countryside looked like a moonscape. There were saplings
everywhere, but few tall trees. Gordon realized that this must have
been one of the places where the Holnists had tried slash-and-burn
agriculture. But this country was not fertile farmland, like the
Willamette Valley. The experiment must have been a
failure.
Heather and Marcie held hands as they walked, their eyes
darting
fearfully. Gordon couldn’t help comparing them to Dena and her
proud, brave Amazons, or to happy, optimistic Abby back in Pine
View. The true dark age would not be a happy time for women, he
decided. Dena had been right about that much.
“Let’s go look around the big house,” he said. “There might be
some food.”
That sparked their interest. They ran
ahead of him to
the abandoned manor with its stockade and abatis surrounding a
solid, prewar house.
When he caught up they were huddled over a pair of dark forms
just within the gate. Gordon flinched when he saw that they were
skinning and flaying two large German shepherd dogs. Their master
couldn’t take them on a sea voyage, he realized a little sickly. No
doubt the Holnist Baron of Dlahee grieved more over his treasured
animals than over the slaves who would die during the mass exodus
to the promised lands up north.
The meat smelled pretty ripe. Gordon decided he would wait a
while, in hopes of something better. The women, though, weren’t
quite so finicky.
So far they had been lucky. At least the search seemed to have
swept westward, away from the direction the fugitives were headed.
Perhaps General Macklin’s men had found Johnny’s body by now,
falsely confirming the trail toward the sea.
Only time would tell how far their luck would last
though.
A narrow, swift stream swept north from near abandoned
Illahee.
Gordon decided it could be nothing other than the south fork of the
Coquille. Of course there were no convenient canoes lying about.
The torrent looked unnavi-gable anyway. They would have to
walk.
An old road ran along the east bank, in the direction they
wanted to go. There was no choice but to use it, whatever the
obvious dangers. Mountains crowded in just ahead, hulking against
the moonlit clouds, blocking every other conceivable
path.
At least the going would be quicker than on the muddy trails.
Or
so Gordon hoped. He coaxed the stoic women, keeping them moving at
a slow, steady pace. Never once did Marcie or Heather complain or
balk, nor were their eyes reproachful. Gordon could not decide
whether it was courage or resignation that kept them plodding on,
mile after mile.
For that matter, he wasn’t sure why he
persevered. To
what point? To live in the dark world that seemed certain to come?
At the rate he was accumulating ghosts, “crossing over” would
probably feel like Homecoming Week anyway.
Why? he wondered. Am I
the only
Twentieth-Century idealist left alive?
Perhaps, he pondered. Perhaps
idealism really
was the disease, the scam, that Charles Bezoar had said it
was.
George Powhatan had been right, too. It did you no good to
fight
for the Big Things… for civilization, for instance. All you
accomplished was getting young girls and boys to believe in you-to
throw their lives away in worthless gestures, accomplishing
nothing.
Bezoar had been right. Powhatan had been right. Even Nathan
Holn, monster that he was, had told the essential truth about Ben
Franklin and his constitutionalist cronies- how they had hoodwinked
a people into believing such things. They had been propagandists to
make Himmler and Trotsky blush as amateurs.
… We hold these truths to be self evident…
Hah!
Then there had been the Order of the Cincinnati, made up of
George Washington’s officers who-halfway embarked one night upon a
mutinous coup-were shamed by their stern commander into giving
their tearful, solemn vow… to remain farmers and citizens
first, and soldiers only at their country’s need and
call.
Whose idea had it been, that unprecedented oath? The promise
was
kept for a generation, long enough for the ideal to set. In
essence, it lasted into the era of professional armies and
technological war.
Until the end of the Twentieth Century, that is, when certain
powers decided that soldiers should be made into something more
than mere men. The thought of Macklin and his augmented veterans,
loosed on the unsuspecting Willametters, made Gordon heartsick. But
there wasn’t anything he or anyone else could do to prevent
it.
Not a whit can be done about it, he
thought wryly.
But that won’t keep the damn ghosts from pestering
me.
The South Coquille grew more swollen with every mile they
slogged, as streamlets joined in from the enclosing hills. A gloomy
drizzle began to fall, and thunder rumbled in counterpoint to the
roaring torrent to their left. As they rounded a bend in the road,
the northern sky brightened with distant flashes of
lightning.
Looking up at the glowering clouds, Gordon almost stumbled
into
Marcie’s back as she came to a sudden halt. He put out his hand to
give her a gentle push, as he had been forced to do more and more
often the last few miles. But this time her feet were
planted.
She turned to face him, and in her eyes there was a bleakness
that went beyond anything Gordon had seen in seventeen years of
war. Chilled with a dark foreboding, he pushed past her and looked
down the road.
Thirty yards or so ahead lay the ruins of an old roadside
trading post. A faded sign advertised myrtlewood carvings for sale
at fabulous prices. Two rusted automobile hulks lay half settled
into the mud in front.
Four horses and a two-wheeled cart were tethered to the
slump-sided shack. From under the canted porch roof, General
Macldin stood with his arms folded, and smiled at
Gordon.
“Run!” Gordon yelled at the women and he dove through the
roadside thicket, rolling up behind a moss-covered trunk with
Johnny’s rifle in his hands. As he moved, he knew he was being a
fool. Macklin still might have some faint wish to keep him alive,
but in a firefight he was already dead.
He knew he had leaped on instinct-to get away from the women,
to
draw attention after himself and give them a chance to get away.
Stupid idealist, he cursed. Marcie and Heather
simply
stood there on the road, too tired or too resigned even to
move.
“Now that ain’t so smart,” Macklin said, his voice at its most
amiable and dangerous. “Do you think you can manage to shoot me,
Mr. Inspector?”
The thought had occurred to Gordon. It depended, of course, on
the augment letting him get close enough to try.
And on whether the twenty-year-old ammo still worked after its
dunking in the Rogue.
Macklin still had not moved. Gordon raised his head and saw
through the leaves that Charles Bezoar stood beside the General.
Both of them looked like easy targets out there in the open. But as
he slid the rifle’s bolt and began to crawl forward, Gordon
realized, sickly, there were four horses.
There came a sudden crashing sound from just overhead. Before
he
could even react, a crushing weight slammed onto his back, driving
his sternum onto the rifle stock.
Gordon’s mouth gaped, but no air would come! He could barely
twitch a muscle as he felt himself lifted into the air by his
collar. The rifle slipped from nearly senseless
fingers.
“Did this guy really waste two of ours last year?” a gravelly
voice behind his left ear shouted in cheerful derision. “Seems a
bit of a woos to me.”
It felt like an eternity, but at last something reopened
inside
him and Gordon was able to breathe again. He sucked noisily, caring
more about air at the moment than dignity.
“Don’t forget those three soldiers back at Agness,” Macklin
called back to his man. “He gets credit for them, too. That makes
five Holnist ears on his belt, Shawn. Our Mr. Krantz deserves
respect.
“Now bring him in, please. I’m sure he and the ladies would
like
a chance to get warm.”
Gordon’s feet barely touched the ground as his captor half
carried him by his collar through the thicket and across the road.
The augment wasn’t even breathing hard when he dumped Gordon
unceremoniously on the porch.
Under the leaky canopy, Charles Bezoar stared hard at Marcie;
the Holnist Colonel’s eyes burned with shame and promised
retribution. But Marcie and Heather watched only Gordon,
silently.
Macklin squatted beside Gordon. “I always did admire a man
with
a knack for the ladies. I’ve got to admit, you do seem to have a
way with ‘em, Krantz.” He grinned. Then he nodded to his beefy
aide. “Bring him inside, Shawn. The women have work to do, and the
Inspector and I have some unfinished business to
discuss.”
17
“I know all about your women now, you know.”
Gordon’s view of the moldy, broken-down trading post kept
rotating. It was hard to focus on anything in particular, let alone
the man talking to him.
He hung by a rope tied around his ankles, his hands dropping
to
a couple of feet above the muddy wooden floor. General Macklin sat
next to the fire, whittling. He looked at Gordon each time his
captive’s steady tortional swing brought them face to face. Most of
the time, he smiled.
The constriction on his ankles, the pain in his forehead and
sternum, were nothing to the heavy weight of blood rushing to his
brain. Through the rear door Gordon could hear low whimpering-a
pathetic enough sound in itself, but definitely a relief after the
screams of the last half hour or so. At last, Macklin had ordered
Bezoar to stop and let the women do some work. There was a prisoner
in the next room he wanted tended, and he didn’t want Marcie and
Heather beaten senseless while they still had their
uses.
Macklin also wanted to be able to draw out his session with
Gordon in peace and quiet. “A few of those crazy Willametter spies
of yours lived long enough to be questioned,” the Holnist commander
told him mildly. “The one in the next room here hasn’t been too
cooperative yet, but we have reports from our invasion force as
well, so the picture’s pretty clear. I have to give you credit,
Krantz. It was a pretty imaginative plan. Too bad it didn’t
work.”
“I haven’t any idea what in hell you’re talking about,
Macklin.”
The thickness in Gordon’s tongue made it hard to
speak.
“Ah, but I see from your face that you do
understand,”
his captor said. “There’s no need to maintain secrecy anymore. You
needn’t concern yourself any longer for your brave girl soldiers.
Because of their sneaky mode of attack, we did suffer some losses.
But I’ll wager far fewer than you’d hoped for. By now, of course,
all your ‘Willamette Scouts’ are dead, or in chains. I compliment
you on a worthy attempt, however.”
Gordon’s heart pounded. “You bastard. Don’t give me
the
credit. It was their own idea! I don’t even know what they planned
to do!”
For only the second time Gordon saw surprise cross Macklin’s
face. “Well, well,” the barbarian chieftain said at last. “Imagine
that. Feminists, still around in this day and
age. My dear
Inspector, it seems we come to the rescue of the poor people of the
Willamette just in the nick of time!” His smile
returned.
The smugness on that face was too much to bear. Gordon reached
for anything at all to try to wipe it off. “You’ll never win,
Macklin. Even if you burn Corvallis, if you crush every village and
smash Cyclops to bits, people will never stop fighting
you!”
The smile remained, unperturbed. The General tsked and shook
his
head. “Do you think us inexperienced? My dear fellow, how did the
Normans domesticate the proud, numerous Saxons? What secret did the
Romans use to tame the Gauls?
“You are indeed a romantic, sir, to underestimate the power of
terror.
“Anyway,” Macklin went on as he sat back and resumed his
whittling, “you forget that we will not remain outsiders for long.
We’ll recruit among your own people. Countless young men will see
the advantage in being lords, rather than serfs. And unlike the
nobility of the Middle Ages, we new feudalists believe that all
males should have a right to fight for their first
earring.
“That is the true
democracy, my friend. The
one America was heading toward before the Constitutionalist
Betrayal. My own sons must kill to become Holnists, or they will
scratch dirt to support those who can.
“We will have recruits. More than plenty, believe it. With the
astonishing population you have up north, we can have-within a
decade-an army the like of which has not been seen since
‘Franklinstein’ Civilization crumbled under its own
hypocrisy.”
“What makes you think your other enemies will give you that
decade?” Gordon gritted. “Do you think the Californians will let
you sit on your conquests long enough to lick your wounds and build
that army of yours?”
Macklin shrugged. “You speak out of very little knowledge, my
dear fellow. Once we’ve pulled back, the loose confederation in the
south will break apart and forget us. And even if they
could put aside their own perpetual petty
squabbles and
unite, those ‘Californians’ you speak of would take a generation to
reach us in our new realm. By then we’ll be more than ready to
counterstrike.
“For another thing-and this is the delightful part- even if
they
pursued us, they would have to go through your friend on Sugarloaf
Mountain to get at us!”
Macklin laughed at the expression on Gordon’s face. “You
thought
I didn’t know about your mission? Oh, Mr. Krantz, why do you
imagine I arranged to have your party ambushed, and to have you
brought to me? I know all about the Squire’s refusal to help anyone
outside the line from Roseburg to the sea.
“Isn’t it wonderful, though? The ‘Wall of the Callahan
Mountains’-the famed George Powhatan-will keep to his valley, and
in so doing, he will defend our flank while we consolidate up north… until at last we are ready to begin the Great
Campaign.”
The general smiled pensively.
“I’ve often regretted that I never got my hands on Powhatan.
Whenever our sides clashed he was always too slippery, always
somewhere else doing mischief. But this way is even better, I
believe! Let him have ten more years on his farm, while I conquer
the rest of Oregon, Then it’ll be his turn.
“Even from your point of view, Mr. Inspector, I am sure you’ll
agree that he deserves what’s coming to him then.”
There was no way to answer that except by silence. Macklin
tapped Gordon with his stick, just hard enough to set him rotating
again. As a result, Gordon found it hard to focus when the front
door opened and a pair of heavy moccasins padded into
view.
“Bill an‘ I checked up along th’ mountainside,” he heard the
huge augment, Shawn, tell his commander. “Found th‘ same tracks as
we saw before, up by th’ river. I’m sure it’s th‘ same black
bastard as slitted those sentries.”
Black bastard…
Gordon breathed a word silently. Phil?
Macklin laughed. “There now. You see, Shawn? Nathan Holn
wasn’t
a racist and neither should you be. I’ve always regretted that the
racial minorities were at such a disadvantage in the riots and
postwar chaos. Even the strong among them had little fair chance to
excel.
“Now consider that Negro soldier out there. He has cut the
throats of three of our river guards. He’s strong,
and
would have made an excellent recruit.”
Even upside down and spinning, Gordon could make out Shawn’s
sour expression. The augment did not dispute his commander aloud,
however.
“Pity we have no time to play games with the fellow,” Macklin
continued. “Go and kill him now, Shawn.”
There was a swirl of disturbed air, and the burly veteran was
out the door again, without a word and almost without
sound.
“I really would have preferred to give your scout a warning,
first,” Macklin confided in Gordon. “It’d have been more sporting
if your man out there knew that he was up against
something-unusual.” Macklin laughed again.
“Alas, in these times it’s not always sensible to play
fair.”
Gordon thought that he had felt hate before this moment. But
his
cold anger right now was unlike anything he remembered. “Philip!
Run!” He cried out as loud as he could, praying
the sound
of his voice would carry over the patter of raindrops. “Watch out,
they’re-”
Macklin’s stick lashed out, striking Gordon’s cheek and
sending
his head rocking back. The world blurred and nearly faded into
blackness. It took a long time for his eyes to clear, blinking away
tears. He tasted blood.
“Yes,” Macklin nodded. “You are a man. I’ll give you that.
When
the time comes, I’ll try to see to it you die like
one.”
“Don’t do me any favors,” Gordon choked. Macklin merely
grinned
and went back to his whittling.
A few minutes later the door at the back of the ruined store
opened. “Go back and see to your women!” Macklin snapped. Charles
Bezoar quickly closed the door to the win-dowless storage
room-where Marcie and Heather presumably still tended the other
prisoner Gordon had not yet seen.
“Just goes to show you, not every strong man is likable,”
Macklin commented sourly. “He’s useful, though. For
now.”
Gordon had no idea whether it was hours or a few minutes later
when a trill call carried through the boarded windows. He thought
it was only the cry of a river bird but Macklin reacted swiftly,
blowing out the small oil lantern and throwing dust onto the
fire.
“This is too good to miss,” he told Gordon. “The guys appear
to
have a good chase going. I hope you’ll excuse me for a few
minutes?”
He grabbed Gordon’s hair. “Of course if you so much as make a
sound while I’m gone, I’ll kill you the instant I get back. That’s
a promise.”
Gordon could not shrug in his position. “Go join Nathan Holn
in
Hell,” he said.
Macklin smiled. “Undoubtedly, someday.” Then the augment was
out
the door, running through the darkness and rain.
Gordon hung while his pendulumlike swinging slowly abated.
Then
he took a deep breath and got to work.
Three times he tried to pull himself up to within reach of the
rope around his ankles. Each time he fell back, grunting from the
tearing agony of sudden, jerking gravity. The third time was almost
too much to bear. His ears rang and he thought he almost heard
voices.
Through tear-filled eyes he seemed to half see an audience to
his struggle. All the ghosts he had accumulated over the years
appeared to line the walls. It occurred to him that they were
making book on his plight.
… take… it… Cyclops said
for all of them,
speaking in a code of rippling highlights in the fireplace
coals.
“Go away,” Gordon muttered angrily, resenting his imagination.
There was neither time nor energy to waste on such games. He hissed
hard as he got ready for one more try, then heaved upward with all
his might.
He barely caught the rope this time, slippery with dripping
rain, and held on tightly with both hands. His whole body quaked
from the strain, bent double like a folded pocket knife, but he
knew he dare not let go. There just wasn’t anything left for
another try.
With both hands fully occupied he couldn’t venture to untie
himself. There was nothing to cut the rope with. Up,
he
concentrated. It’ll be better if you stand.
Slowly, he pulled himself up the rope, hand over hand. His
muscles trembled, threatening cramps, and there was intense pain in
his chest and back, but at last he “stood,” his ankles twisted in
loops of cutting rope, holding on tight as he swung like a
chandelier.
Over by the wall, Johnny Stevens cheered unabashedly. Tracy
Smith and the other Army Scouts smiled. Pretty good, for a
male, they seemed to say.
Cyclops sat in his cloud of supercooled mist, playing checkers
with the smoking Franklin stove. They, too, seemed to
approve.
Gordon tried lowering himself to get at the knots, but it put
so
much pressure on the loops around his ankles that he nearly fainted
from the pain. He had to straighten out again.
Not that way. Ben
Franklin shook his head. The
Great Manipulator looked at him over the tops of his
bifocals.
“Over the tops of his… over the’t-” Gordon looked up at
the
stout beam from which the rope had been hung.
Up and over the top, then.
He raised his arms and wound the rope around them. You
did this back in gymnastics class, before the war,
he told
himself as he began to pull.
Yeah. But now you’re an old man.
Tears flowed as he started hauling himself upward, hand over
hand, helping where he could with his knees. In the blur between
his eyelids, his ghosts seemed more real the more he struggled.
They had graduated from imagination to first-class
hallucinations.
“Go, Gordon!” Tracy called up to him.
Lieutenant Van gave him thumbs up. Johnny Stevens grinned
encouragement alongside the woman who had saved his life back in
the ruins of Eugene.
A skeletal shade in a paisley shirt and leather jacket grinned
and gave him a fleshless thumbs up. Atop the bare skull lay a blue,
peaked cap, its brass badge glimmering.
Even Cyclops ceased its nagging as Gordon gave the endless
climb
everything he had.
Up… he moaned, grabbing slick hemp
and fighting
the crushing hug of gravity. Up, you worthless intellectual… Move or die…
One arm floundered over the top of the rough wooden beam. He
held on and brought up the other to join it.
And that was all. There was no more to give. He hung by his
armpits, unable to move any farther. Through the blur of his
eyelashes, his phantoms all looked up at him, clearly
disappointed.
“Oh, go chase yourselves,” he told them inwardly, unable even
to
speak aloud.
… Who will take
responsibility… the
coals in the fireplace glittered.
“You’re dead, Cyclops. You’re all dead!
Leave me
alone!” Utterly exhausted, Gordon closed his eyes to escape
them.
Only there, in the blackness, he encountered the one ghost
that
remained. The one he had used the most shamelessly, and which had
used him.
It was a nation. A world.
Faces, fading in and out with the entopic speckles behind his
eyelids… millions of faces, betrayed and ruined but striving
still…
-for a Restored United States.
-for a Restored World.
-for a fantasy… but one which refused obstinately to
die-that could not die-not while he lived.
Gordon wondered, amazed. Was this why he’d lied for so long,
why
he had told such fairy tales?… because he
needed
them? Because he couldn’t let go of them? He answered
himself,
Without them, I would have
curled up and
died.
Funny, he had never seen it quite that way before, in such
startling clarity. In the darkness within himself the dream
glowed-even if it existed nowhere else in the Universe-flickering
like a diatom, like a bright mote hovering in a murky
sea.
Amidst the otherwise total blackness, it was as if he stood in
front of it. He seemed to take it in his hand, astonished by the
light. The jewel grew. And in its facets he saw more than people,
more than generations.
A future took shape around him,
enveloping him,
penetrating his heart.
When Gordon next opened his eyes, he was lying atop the beam,
unable to recall how he had gotten there. Unbelievingly, he sat up
blinking. A spectral light seemed to stream away from him in all
directions, passing through the broken walls of the ruined building
as if they were the dream stuff, and the
brilliant rays
the true reality. The radiance spread on and on, beyond limit. For
a short time he felt as if he could see forever in that
glow.
Then, as mysteriously as it had come, it passed. Energy
appeared
to flow back into whatever mysterious well he had tapped. In its
wake, physical sensation returned, the reality of exhaustion and
pain.
Trembling, Gordon fumbled with the knotted tourniquets around
his ankles. His torn, bare feet were slippery with blood. When he
finally got the ropes loosed, returning circulation felt like a
million angry insects running riot inside his skin.
His ghosts were gone, at least; the cheering section seemed to
have been taken up by that strange luminance, whatever it had been.
Gordon wondered if they would ever return.
As the last loop fell away, he heard shots in the distance,
the
first since Macklin had left him alone here. Perhaps, he hoped,
that meant Phil Bokuto wasn’t dead quite yet. Silently, he wished
his friend luck.
He crouched down on the beam as footsteps approached the
storeroom door. It opened slowly and Charles Bezoar stared at the
empty room, at the limp, hanging rope. Panic filled the ex-lawyer’s
eyes as he drew his automatic and stepped out.
Gordon would have preferred to wait until the man came
directly
underneath, but Bezoar was no idiot. An expression of dark
suspicion came over his face, and he started to look up…
Gordon leaped. The .45 swung up and fired at the same instant
as
they collided.
In the hormonal rush of combat Gordon had no idea where the
bullet went, or whose bone had cracked so loud on impact. He
grappled for the gun as they rolled together across the
floor.
“… kill you!” the Holnist growled, the .45 tipping toward
Gordon’s face. Gordon had to duck to one side as it roared again,
stinging his neck with burning powder. “Hold still!” Bezoar
growled, as if he were in the habit of being obeyed. “Just let me…”
Straining against his enemy with all his might, Gordon
suddenly
let go of the gun with one hand and struck out. As the automatic
came down toward him his right fist smashed upward into the root of
Bezoar’s jaw. The bald Holnist’s body convulsed as his head struck
the floor hard. The .45 fired twice into the wall.
Then Bezoar was still.
This time the worst pain was in Gordon’s hand. He stood up
slowly, gingerly, semiconsciously accounting for what had to be a
cracked rib, in addition to his many other bodily
insults.
“Never talk while you fight,” he told the unconscious man.
“It’s
a bad habit.”
Marcie and Heather spilled out of the storage room and drew
Bezoar’s knives. When he saw what they were after, he almost told
them to stop, to tie the man up, instead.
He didn’t, though. Instead he let them do what they would and
turned to step through the back door into the storage
room.
It was even darker inside, but as his eyes adapted, he made
out
a slender figure lying on a dirty blanket over in the corner. A
hand reached up toward him and a thin voice called
out.
“Gordon, I knew you’d come for me… Is that silly?…It sounds… sounds like fairy tale talk, but… but
somehow I just knew it.”
He sank to his knees beside the dying woman. There had been
crude attempts to clean and bandage her wounds, but her matted hair
and blood-streaked clothes covered more damage than he dared even
look at.
“Oh Dena.” He turned his head and closed his eyes. Her hand
took
his.
“We stung them, darling,” she said in a reed-thin voice. “Me
and
the other Scouts… In some places we really caught some of the
bastards with their pants down! It-” Dena had to stop as a fit of
coughing made her nearly double up, bringing forth a trickle of
ocher fluid. The corners of her mouth were stained.
“Don’t talk,” Gordon told her. “We’ll find a way to get you
out
of here.”
Dena clutched Gordon’s tattered shirt.
“They found out about our plan, somehow… in more’n half
the
places they were warned before we could strike…
“Maybe one of the girls fell in love with her rapist, like the
legends say h-happened to H-Hypermnestra…” Dena shook her
head unbelievingly. “Tracy and I were worried about that
possibility, ‘cause Aunt Susan said it used to happen sometimes, in
the old days…”
Gordon had no idea what Dena was talking about. She was
babbling. Inside he struggled to come up with some idea,
any way to carry a desperately wounded and
delirious woman
away through miles and miles of enemy lines before Macklin and the
other Holnists returned.
In agony, he knew it just couldn’t be done.
“I guess we botched it, Gordon… but we did try! We
tried…” Dena shook her head, tears welling as Gordon took
her into his
arms.
“Yes, I know, darling. I know you tried.”
His own eyes blurred. Beneath the filth and ruin, he knew her
scent. And realized-much too late-what it meant to him. He held her
tighter than he knew he ought to, not wanting to let her
go.
“It’ll be all right. I love you. I’m here and I’ll take care
of
you.”
Dena sighed. “You are here. You are…” She held onto his
arm. “You…”
Her body suddenly arched and she shivered. “Oh, Gordon!” she
cried. “I see… Can you… ?”
Her eyes met his for a moment. In them was a light he
recognized.
Then it was over.
“Yes, I saw it,” he told her gently, still holding her body in
his arms. “Not as clearly as you, perhaps. But I saw it,
too.”
18
In the corner of the outer room, Heather and Marcie were busy
with their backs turned as they worked on something Gordon did not
want to look at.
Later, he would mourn. Right now though, there were things he
had to do, like getting these women out of here. The chances were
slim, but if he could see them to the Callahans, they would be
safe.
That would be hard enough, but from there he had other
obligations. He would get back to Corvallis, somehow, if it was
humanly possible, and he would try to live up to Dena’s ridiculous,
beautiful image of what a hero was supposed to do-die defending
Cyclops, perhaps, or lead a last charge of “postmen” against the
invincible enemy.
He wondered if Bezoar’s shoes would fit him, or if, with badly
swollen ankles, he might not be better off barefoot. “Stop wasting
time,” he snapped at the women. “We have to get out of
here.”
But as Gordon bent to pick up Bezoar’s automatic from the
floor,
a low, gravelly voice spoke. “Very good advice, my young friend.
And you know, I’d like to call a man like you
friend.
“Of course, that doesn’t mean I won’t split you open if you
try
to pick up that weapon.”
Gordon left the gun lying where it was and stood up heavily.
General Macklin occupied the open doorway, holding a dagger in
throwing position.
“Kick it away,” he said calmly.
Gordon obeyed. The automatic went spinning into a dusty
corner.
“That’s better.” Macklin resheathed his knife. He jerked his
head at the women. “Get away,” he told them. “Run. Try to live, if
you want to and are able.”
Wide-eyed, Marcie and Heather edged past Macklin. They fled
out
into the night. Gordon had no doubt they would run in the rain
until they dropped.
“I don’t suppose the same applies to me?” he asked
wearily.
Macklin smiled and shook his head. “I want you to come with
me.
I need your assistance out here.”
A hooded lantern illuminated part of the clearing across the
road, aided from time to time by distant lightning and an
occasional moonlit glint at the edge of the rain-clouds. The
pelting drisk had Gordon soaked within minutes of limping outside
after Macklin. His still-bleeding ankles left spreading pink fog in
the puddles where he stepped.
“Your black man is better than I’d thought,” Macklin said,
pulling Gordon to one side of the circular, lamp-lit area. “Either
that or he had help, and the latter’s pretty unlikely. My boys
patrolling the river would have seen more tracks than his, if he’d
been accompanied.
“Either way though, Shawn and Bill deserve what they got for
being careless.”
For the first time Gordon had an inkling of what was
happening.
“You mean-”
“Don’t gloat yet,” Macklin snapped. “My troops are less than a
mile from here, and there’s a Very pistol in my saddlebags. But you
don’t see me hollering for help, do you?”
He smiled again. “Now I’m going to show you what this war is
all
about. Both you and your scout are the sort of strong men who
should have been Holnists.You’re not because of the propaganda of
weakness you grew up in. I’mgoing to take this opportunity to show
you just how weak it makes you.”
With a vicelike grip on Gordon’s ami, Macklin shouted into the
night.
“Black man! This is Genera] Volsci Macklin. I have your
commander here… your United States Postal Inspector!” he
sneered.
“Care to earn his freedom? My men will be here by dawn, so you
have very little time. Come on in! We’ll fight for him! Your choice
of weapons!”
“Don’t do it, Philip! He’s an aug-”
Gordon’s warning collapsed into a groan as Macklin yanked his
arm, nearly tearing his shoulder out of its socket. The force threw
him crashing to his knees. His throbbing ribs sent shock waves
rolling through his body.
“Tsk tsk. Come now. If your man hadn’t already known about
Shawn, it means he got my bodyguard with a lucky shot. If so, he
certainly doesn’t deserve any special consideration now, does
he?”
It took a powerful effort of will, but Gordon lifted his head,
hissing through gritted teeth. Overcoming wave after wave of
nausea, he somehow managed to wobble up to his feet. Although the
world wavered all around him, he refused to be seen on his knees
next to Macklin.
Macklin awarded him a low grunt, as if to say he only expected
this from a real man. The augment’s body was aquiver like a
cat’s-twitching in anticipation. They waited together, just outside
the circle of lamplight. Minutes passed with the rain coming and
going in intermittent, blustery sheets.
“Last chance, black man!” In a blur, Macklin’s knife was at
Gordon’s throat. A grip like an anaconda’s twisted his left arm up
behind his back. “Your Inspector dies in thirty seconds, unless you
show! Starting now!”
The half minute passed slower than any Gordon had ever known.
Oddly enough, he felt detached, almost resigned.
At last Macklin shook his head, sounding
disappointed.
“Well, too bad, Krantz.” The knife moved under his left ear.
“I
guess he’s smarter than I-”
Gordon gasped. He had heard nothing, but suddenly he realized
that there was another pair of moccasins down
there at the
edge of the light, not fifteen feet away.
“I am afraid your men killed
that brave soldier you
were shouting for.” The soft voice of the newcomer spoke
even
as Macklin spun around, putting Gordon between them.
“Philip Bokuto was a good man,” the mysterious voice went on.
“I
have come in his stead, to answer your challenge as he would
have.”
A beaded headband glittered in the lamplight as a
broad-shouldered man stepped forward into the circle. His gray hair
was tied back into a ponytail. The craggy features of his face
expressed a sad serenity.
Gordon could almost feel Macklin’s joy, transmitted through
that
powerful grip. “Well, well. From the descriptions I’ve heard, this
could only be the Squire of Sugarloaf
Lodge, come
down alone out of his mountain and valley at last! I’m gratified
more than you might know, sir. You’re welcome,
indeed.”
“Powhatan,” Gordon gritted, unable to even imagine how or
why the man was here. “Get the hell away, you
fool! You
haven’t a chance! He’s an augment!”
Phil Bokuto had been one of the best fighters Gordon had ever
known. If he had barely managed to ambush the
lesser of
these devils, and had died in the process, what chance did this old
man have?
Powhatan listened to Gordon’s revelation and
frowned.
“So? You mean from those experiments in the early nineties? I
had thought they were all normalized or killed off by the time the
Slavic-Turkic War broke out. Fascinating. This does explain a lot
about the last two decades.”
“You’d heard of us then,” Macklin grinned.
Powhatan nodded somberly. “I had heard, before the war. I also
know why that particular experiment was discontinued-mostly because
the worst kinds of men had been recruited as
subjects.”
“So said the weak,” Macklin agreed. “For they made the error
of
accepting volunteers from among the strong.”
Powhatan shook his head. For all the world it seemed as if he
were engaged in a polite argument over semantics. Only his heavy
breathing seemed to give away any sign of emotion.
“They accepted warriors . . .” he
emphasized, “…
that divinely mad type that’s so valuable when needed, and such a
problem when it’s not. The lesson was learned hard, back in the
nineties. They had a lot of trouble with augments who came home
still loving war.”
“Trouble is the word,” Macklin laughed.
“Let me
introduce you to Trouble, Powhatan.” He threw Gordon aside as if on
an afterthought, and sheathed his knife before stepping toward his
longtime foe.
Splashing into a ditch for the second time, Gordon could only
lie in the muck and groan. His entire left side felt torn and
burning-as if it were loaded with glowing coals. Consciousness
flickered, and remained only because he absolutely refused to let
go of it. When, at last, he was able to look up again through a
pain-squinted tunnel, he saw the other two men circling each other
just inside the lamp’s small oasis of light.
Of course Macklin was just toying with his adversary. Powhatan
was impressive, for a man his age, but the monstrous things that
bulged from Macklin’s neck, arms, and thighs made a normal man’s
muscles look pathetic by comparison. Gordon remembered Macklin’s
fireplace poker, tearing apart like shredding taffy.
George Powhatan inhaled in hard, shuddering gasps, and his
face
was flushed. In spite of the hopelessness of the situation, though,
a deep part of Gordon was surprised to see such blatant signs of
fear on the Squire’s face.
All legends must be based on lies, Gordon
realized.
We exaggerate, and even come to believe the tales, after a
while.
Only in Powhatan’s voice did there seem to be a remnant of
calm.
In fact, he almost sounded detached. “There’s something I think you
should consider, General,” he said between rapid
breaths.
“Later,” Macklin growled. “Later we can discuss stock-raising
and brewing, Squire. Right now I’m going to teach you a more
practical art.”
Quick as a cat, Macklin lashed out. Powhatan leaped aside,
barely in time. But Gordon felt a thrill as the taller man then
whirled back with a kick that Macklin dodged only by
inches.
Gordon began to hope. Perhaps Powhatan was a natural, whose
speed-even in middle age-might almost equal Macklin’s. If so-and
with that longer reach of his-he just might be able to keep out of
his enemy’s terrible grasp…
The augment lunged again, getting a tearing grip on his
opponent’s shirt. This time Powhatan escaped even more narrowly,
shrugging out of the embroidered garment and dodging a flurry of
blows any one of which might have killed a steer. He did nearly
land a savage chop to Macklin’s kidneys as the smaller man rushed
by. But then, in a blur, the Holnist swiveled and caught Powhatan’s
passing wrist!
Daring fate, Powhatan stepped inside and
managed to
break free with a reverse.
But Macklin seemed to have expected the maneuver. The General
rolled past his opponent, and when Powhatan whirled to follow, he
grabbed quickly and seized the taller man’s other arm. Macklin
grinned as Powhatan tried to slip out again, this time to no
avail.
At arm’s length, the Camas Valley man pulled back and panted.
In
spite of the chill rain he seemed overheated.
That’s it, Gordon thought, disappointed.
In spite of
his past differences with Powhatan, Gordon tried to think of
anything he could do to help. He looked around for something to
throw at the monster augment, perhaps distracting Macklin long
enough for the other man to get away.
But there was only mud, and a few soggy twigs. Gordon himself
hardly had the strength even to crawl away from where he had been
tossed. He could only lie there and watch the end, awaiting his own
turn.
“Now,” Macklin told his new captive, “Now say what you have to
say. But you better make it amusing. As I smile, you
live.”
Powhatan grimaced as he tugged, testing Macklin’s iron-jawed
grip. Even after a full minute he had not stopped breathing deeply.
Now the expression on his face seemed distant, as if completely
resigned. His voice was oddly rhythmic when he answered at
last.
“I didn’t want this. I told them I
couldn’t… too
old… luck run out…” He inhaled deeply, and sighed. “I
begged them not to make me. And now, to end it here… ?” The
gray eyes flickered. “But it never ends…
except
death.”
He’s broken, Gordon thought. The
man’s
cracked. He did not want to witness this humiliation. And
I left Dena to seek this famous hero…
“You’re not amusing me, Squire,” Macklin said, coldly. “Don’t
bore me, not if you value your remaining moments.”
But Powhatan seemed distracted, as if he were actually
thinking
about something else, concentrating on
remembering
something, perhaps, and maintaining conversation out of courtesy
alone.
“I only… thought you ought to know that things changed a
bit… after you left the program.”
Macklin shook his head, his eyebrows knotting. “What the hell
are you talking about?”
Powhatan blinked. A shiver ran up and down his body, making
Macklin smile.
“I mean that… that they weren’t about to give up on
anything so promising as augmentation… not just because there
were flaws the first time.”
Macklin growled. “They were too scared
to continue. Too
scared of us!”
Powhatan’s eyelids fluttered. He was still inhaling hard, in
great, silent breaths.
Gordon stared. Something was happening
to the man.
Perspiration glistened in oily speckles all across his shoulders
and chest before being washed away in the scattered, heavy rain.
His muscles twitched as if in the throes of cramps.
Gordon wondered. Was the man falling apart before his
eyes?
Powhatan’s voice sounded remote, almost bemused. “… newer
implants weren’t as large or as powerful… meant more to
supplement training in certain eastern arts…
in
biofeedback…”
Macklin’s head rocked back and he laughed out loud.
“Neohippy augments? Oh! Good, Powhatan. Good
bluff! That
is rich!”
Powhatan didn’t seem to be listening, though. He was
concentrating, his lips moving as if reciting something long ago
memorized.
Gordon stared, blinked away raindrops, and stared harder.
Faint
lines seemed to be radiating out along Powhatan’s
arms and
shoulders, crisscrossing his neck and chest. The man’s shivering
had heightened to a steady rhythm that now seemed less chaotic than… purposeful.
“The process also takes a lot of air,” George Powhatan said
mildly, conversationally. Still inhaling deeply, he began to
straighten up.
By now Macklin had stopped laughing. The Holnist stared in
frank
disbelief.
Powhatan talked on, conversationally. “We are prisoners in
similar cages… although you seem to relish yours… Alike, we’re both trapped by the last arrogance
of arrogant days…”
“You aren’t. . .”
“Come now, General,” Powhatan smiled without malice at his
captor. “Don’t look so surprised… Surely you didn’t believe
you and your generation were the last?”
Macklin must have instantly reached the same conclusion as
Gordon-understanding that George Powhatan was talking only in order
to buy time.
“Macklin!” Gordon shouted. But the Holnist wasn’t distracted.
In
a blur his long, machetelike knife was out, glittering wetly in the
lamplight before slashing down toward Powhatan’s immobilized right
hand.
Still bent and unready, Powhatan reacted in a twisting blur.
The
blow that landed tore only a glancing streak along his arm as he
caught Macklin’s wrist in his free hand.
The Holnist cried out as they strained together, the General’s
greater strength pushing the dripping blade closer,
closer.
With a sudden step and hip movement, Powhatan fell backward,
flicking Macklin overhead. The General landed on his feet, still
holding on, and wrenched hard, in turn. Whirling like two arms of a
pinwheel, they threw each other, gaining momentum until they
disappeared into the blackness beyond the ring of light. There was
a crash. Then another. To Gordon it sounded like elephants
trampling the undergrowth.
Wincing at the pain of mere movement, he crawled out of the
light far enough for his eyes to begin adapting to the darkness,
and pulled up under a rain-drenched red cedar. He peered in the
direction they had gone, but was unable to do anything more than
follow the fight by its tumult, and the skittering of tiny forest
creatures fleeing the path of destruction.
When two wrestling forms spilled out into the clearing again,
their clothes were in tatters. Their bodies ran red rivulets from
scores of cuts and scratches. The knife was gone, but even
weaponless the two warriors were fearsome. In their path no
brambles, no mere saplings endured. A zone of devastation followed
them wherever the battle went.
There was no ritual, no elegance to this combat. The smaller,
more powerful figure closed with ferocity and tried to grapple with
his enemy. The taller one fought to maintain a distance, and lashed
out with blows that seemed to split the air.
Don’t exaggerate,
Gordon told himself.
They’re only men, and old men, at that,
And yet a part of Gordon felt kinship with those ancient
peoples
who believed in giants-in manlike gods- whose battles boiled seas
and pushed up mountain ranges. As the combatants disappeared again
into the darkness, Gordon experienced a wave of the sort of
abstract wondering that had always cropped up in his mind when he
least expected it. Detached, he thought about how augmentation,
like so many other newly discovered powers, had seen its first use
in war. But that had always been the way, before
other
uses were found… with chemistry, aircraft, space-flight…
Later, though, came the real uses.
What would have happened, had the Doomwar not come… had
this technology mixed with the worldwide ideals of the New
Renaissance, and been harnessed by all its
citizens?
What might mankind have been capable of? What, if
anything,
would have been out of reach?
Gordon leaned on the rough trunk of the cedar and managed to
hobble to his feet. He wavered unsteadily for a moment, then put
one foot in front of the other-limping step by step in the
direction of the crashing sounds. There was no thought of running
away, only of witnessing the last great miracle
of
Twentieth-Century science play itself out under pelting rain and
lightning in a dark age forest.
The lantern laid stark shadows through the crushed brambles,
but
soon he was beyond its reach. Gordon followed the noises until,
suddenly, it all stopped. There were no more shouts, no more heavy
concussions, only the rumbling of the thunderheads and the roar of
the river.
Eyes adapted to the darkness. Shading them from the rain, he
finally saw-outlined against the gray clouds-two stark, reddish
shapes standing atop a prominence overlooking the river. One
crouched, squat and bull-necked, like the legendary Minotaur. The
other was shaped more like a man, but with long hair that whipped
like tattered banners in the wind. Completely naked now, the two
augments faced each other, rocking as they panted under the
growling storm.
Then, as if at a signal, they came together for the last
time.
Thunder rolled. A blinding staircase of lightning struck the
mountain on the opposite river bank, whipping the forest branches
with its bellow.
In that instant, Gordon saw a figure silhouetted against the
jagged electric ladder, arms outstretched to hold another
struggling shape overhead. The blinding brightness lasted just long
enough for Gordon to see the standing shadow tense, flex, and cast
the other into the air. The black shape rose for a full second
before the electric brilliance vanished and darkness folded in
again.
The afterimage felt seared. Gordon knew that that tumbling
figure had to come down again-to the canyon and jagged, icy torrent
far below. But in his imagination he saw the shadow continue
upward, as if cast from the Earth.
Great sheets of rain blew southward down the narrow defile.
Gordon felt his way back to the trunk of a fallen tree and sat down
heavily. There he simply waited, unable even to contemplate moving,
his memories churning like a turgid, silt-swirled
river.
At last, there was a crackle of snapping twigs to his left. A
naked form slowly emerged from the darkness, walking wearily toward
him.
“Dena said there were only two types of males who counted,”
Gordon commented. “It always seemed a crackpot idea to me. But I
never realized the government thought that way
too, before
the end.”
The man slumped onto the torn bark beside him. Under his skin
a
thousand little pulsing threads surged and throbbed. Blood trickled
from hundreds of scratches all over his body. He breathed heavily,
staring at nothing at all.
“They reversed their policy, didn’t they?” Gordon asked. “In
the
end, they rediscovered wisdom.”
He knew George Powhatan had heard him, and had understood. But
still there was no reply.
Gordon fumed. He needed an answer. For
some reason,
deep within, he had to know if the United States had been ruled, in
those last years before the Calamity, by men and women of
honor.
“Tell me, George! You said they abandoned using the warrior
type. Who else was there, then? Did they select
for the
opposite? For an aversion to power? For men who
would
fight well, but reluctantly?”
An image: of a puzzled Johnny Stevens-ever eager to
learn-earnestly trying to understand the enigma of a great leader
who spurns a golden crown in favor of a plow. He had never really
explained it to the boy. And now it was too late.
“Well? Did they revive the old ideal? Did they purposely seek
out soldiers who saw themselves as citizens first?”
He grabbed Powhatan’s throbbing shoulders. “Damn you! Why
didn’t
you tell me, when I’d come all that way from
Corvallis to
plead with you! Don’t you think I, of all people, would have
understood?”
The Squire of Camas Valley looked sunken. He met Gordon’s eyes
very briefly, then looked away again, shuddering.
“Oh, you bet I’d have understood,
Powhatan. I knew what
you meant, when you said that the Big Things are insatiable.”
Gordon’s fists clenched. “The Big Things will take
everything you
love away from you, and still demand more. You know it, I know
it… that poor slob Cincinnatus knew it, when he told them they
could keep their stupid crown!
“But your mistake was thinking it can ever
end,
Powhatan!” Gordon hobbled to his feet. He shouted his anger at the
man. “Did you honestly think your responsibility was ever
finished?”
When Powhatan spoke at last, Gordon had to bend to hear him
over
the rolling thunder.
“I’d hoped… I was so sure I could-”
“So sure you could say no to all the big
lies!” Gordon
laughed sarcastically, bitterly. “Sure you could say no to
honor, and dignity^ and
country?
“What made you change your mind, then?
“You laughed off Cyclops, and the promise of technology. Not
God, nor pity, nor the ‘Restored United States’ would move you! So
tell me, Powhatan, what power was finally great enough to make you
follow Phil Bokuto down here and look for me?”
Sitting with clutched hands, the most powerful man alive-sole
relic of an age of near-gods-seemed to draw into himself like a
small boy, exhausted, ashamed.
“You’re right,” he groaned. “It never ends. I’ve done my
share,
a thousand times over I have!… All I wanted was to be left to
grow old in peace. Is that too much to ask? Is it?”
His eyes were bleak, “But it never, ever ends.”
Powhatan looked up, then, meeting and holding Gordon’s stare
for
the first time.
“It was the women,” he said softly, answering Gordon’s
question
at last. “Ever since your visit and those damned letters, they kept
talking, asking questions.
“Then the story of that madness up north arrived, even in my
valley. I tried… tried to tell them it was just craziness,
what your Amazons did, but they-”
Powhatan’s voice caught. He shook his head. “Bokuto stormed
out,
to come down here all alone… and when that happened they kept
looking at me… They kept after me and after
me and
after me…”
He moaned and covered his face with his hands.
“Sweet God in Heaven, forgive me. The women
made me do
it.”
Gordon blinked in amazement. Amidst the pelting raindrops,
tears
flowed down the last augment’s craggy, careworn face. George
Powhatan shuddered and sobbed ach-ingly aloud.
Gordon slumped down to the rough log next to him, a heaviness
filling him like the nearby Coquille, swollen from winter’s snows.
In another minute, his own lips were trembling.
Lightning flashed. The nearby river roared. And they wept
together under the rain-mourning as men can only mourn
themselves.
INTERLUDE
Fierce Winter lingers
Until Ocean does her duty
Chasing him-with Spring
IV
NEITHER CHAOS
1
A new legend swept Oregon, from Roseburg all the way north to
the Columbia, from the mountains to the sea. It traveled by letter
and by word of mouth, growing with each telling.
It was a sadder story than the two that had come before
it-those
speaking of a wise, benevolent machine and of a reborn nation. It
was more disturbing than those. And yet this new fable had one
important element its predecessors lacked.
It was true.
The story told of a band of forty women-crazy-women, many
contended-who had shared among themselves a secret vow: to do
anything and everything to end a terrible war, and end it before
all the good men died trying to save them.
They acted out of love, some explained. Others said that they
did it for their country.
There was even a rumor that the women had looked on their
odyssey to Hell as a form of penance, in order to
make up
for some past failing of womankind.
Interpretations varied, but the overall moral was always the
same, whether spread by word of mouth or by US. Mail. From hamlet
to village to farmstead, mothers and daughters and wives read the
letters and listened to the words-and passed them
on.
• • •
Men can be brilliant and strong, they whispered to one
another.
But men can be mad, as well. And the mad ones can ruin the
world.
Women, you must judge them…
Never again can things be allowed to reach this pass, they
said
to one another as they thought of the sacrifice the Scouts had
made.
Never again can we let the age-old fight go on between good
and
bad men alone.
Women, you must share responsibility… and
bring
your own talents into the struggle…
And always remember, the moral concluded: Even the best
men-the
heroes-will sometimes neglect to do their jobs.
Women, you must remind them, from time to time…
2
April 28, 2012
Dear Mrs. Thompson,
Thank you for your letters. They helped immeasurably during my
recovery-especially since I had been so worried that the enemy
might have reached Pine View. Learning that you and Abby and
Michael were all right was worth more to me than you might ever
know.
Speaking of Abby, please tell her that I saw Michael
yesterday!
He arrived, hale and well, along with the other five volunteers
Pine View sent to help in the war. Like so many of our recruits, it
seemed he just couldn’t wait to get into the
fighting.
I hope I didn’t dampen his spirits too much when I told him of
some of my firsthand experiences with Holnists. I do think, though,
that now he’ll be more attentive to his training, and maybe a bit
less eager to win the war single-handedly. After all, we want Abby
and little Caroline to see him again.
I’m glad you were able to take in Marcie and Heather. We all
owe
those two a debt. Corvallis would have been a shock. Pine View
should offer a kinder readjustment.
Tell Abby I gave her letter to some old professors who have
been
talking about starting up classes again. There just may be a
university of sorts here, in a year or so-assuming the war goes
well.
Of course the latter’s not absolutely assured. Things have
turned around, but we have a long, long way to go against a
terrible enemy.
Your last question is a troubling one, Mrs. Thompson, and I
don’t even know if I can answer. It doesn’t surprise me that the
story of the Scouts’ Sacrifice reached you, up there in the
mountains. But you should know that even down here we aren’t
exactly clear about the details, yet.
All I can really tell you now is, yes, I knew Dena Spurgen
well.
And no, I don’t think I understood her at all. I honestly wonder if
I ever will.
Gordon sat on a bench just outside the Corvallis Post Office.
He
rested his back against the rough wall, catching the rays of the
morning sun, and thought about things he could not write of in his
letter to Mrs. Thompson… things for which he could not find
words.
Until they had recaptured the villages of Chesire and
Franklin,
all the people of the Willamette had to go on were rumors, for not
one of the Scouts had ever come home again from that unauthorized,
midwinter foray. After the first counterattacks, though, newly
released slaves began relating parts of the story. Slowly, the
pieces fell together,
One winter day-in fact only two days after Gordon had left
Corvallis on his long trek south-the women Scouts started deserting
from their army of farmers and townsmen. A few at a time, they
slipped away south and west, and gave themselves up, unarmed, to
the enemy.
A few were killed on the spot. Others were raped and tortured
by
laughing madmen who would not even hear their carefully rehearsed
declarations.
Most, though, were taken in-as they had hoped- welcomed by the
Holnists’ insatiable appetite for women.
Those who could pass it off believably explained that they
were
sick of living as fanners’ wives, and wanted the touch of “real
men.” It was a tale the followers of Nathan Holn were disposed to
accept, or so those who had dreamed up the plan
imagined.
What followed must have been hard, perhaps beyond imagining.
For
the women had to pretend, and pretend believably, until the
scheduled red night of knives-the night when they were supposed to
save the frail remnant of civilization from the monsters who were
bringing it down.
What exactly went wrong wasn’t yet clear, as the spring
counteroffensive pushed through the first recaptured towns. Perhaps
an invader grew suspicious and tortured some poor girl until she
talked. Or maybe one of the women fell in love with her fierce
barbarian, and spilled her heart in a betraying confession. Dena
was correct that history told of such things occurring. It might
have happened here.
Or perhaps some simply could not lie well enough, or hide the
shivers when their new lords touched them.
Whatever went wrong, the scheduled night was red, indeed.
Where
the warning did not arrive in time, women stole kitchen knives,
that midnight, and slipped from room to room, killing and killing
again until they themselves went down struggling.
Elsewhere, they merely went down, cursing and spitting into
their enemies’ eyes to the last.
Of course it was a failure. Anyone could have predicted it.
Even
where the plan “succeeded,” too few of the invaders died to make
any real difference. The women soldiers’ sacrifice accomplished
nothing at all in any military sense.
The gesture was a tragic fiasco.
Word spread though, across the lines and up the valleys. Men
listened, dumbfounded, and shook their heads in disbelief. Women
heard also, and spoke together urgently, privately. They argued,
frowned, and thought.
Eventually, word arrived even far to the south. By now a
legend,
the story came at last to Sugarloaf Mountain.
And there, high above the confluence of
the roaring
Coquille, the Scouts finally won their victory.
• • •
All I can tell you is that I hope this thing doesn’t turn into
a
dogma, a religion. In my worst dreams I see women taking up a
tradition of drowning their sons, if they show signs of becoming
bullies. I envision them doing their duty, by
passing on
life and death before a male child becomes a threat to all around
him.
Maybe a fraction of us males are “too
mad to be allowed
to live.” But taken to the extreme, this “solution” is something
that terrifies me… as an ideology, it is something my mind
cannot even grasp.
Of course, it’ll probably sort itself out. Women are too
sensible to take this to extremes. That, perhaps, is in the end
where our hope lies.
And now it’s time to mail this letter. I will try to write to
you and Abby again from Coos Bay.
Until then, I remain your
devoted-
Gordon
• • •
“Courier!”
Gordon hailed a passing youth, wearing the blue denim and
leather of a postman. The young man hurried over
and
saluted. Gordon held out the envelope. “Would you drop this onto
the regular eastbound sort stack for me?”
“Yessir. Right away, sir!”
“No rush,” Gordon smiled. “It’s just a personal-”
But the young man had already taken off at a dead run. Gordon
sighed. The old days of close camaraderie, of knowing every person
in the “postal service” were over. He was too high above these
young couriers to share a lazy grin and perhaps a minute’s
gossip.
Yes, it’s definitely time.
He stood up, and only winced slightly as he hefted his
saddlebags.
“So you’re goin‘ to skip the hoedown, after all?”
He turned. Eric Stevens stood at the post office’s side door,
chewing on a blade of grass and regarding Gordon with folded
arms.
Gordon shrugged. “It seems best just to go. I don’t want a
party
in my honor. All that fuss is just a waste of time.”
Stevens nodded, agreeing. His calm strength had been a
blessing
during Gordon’s recuperation-especially his derisive dismissal of
any suggestion by Gordon that he was to blame for Johnny’s death.
To Eric, his grandson had died as well as any man could hope to.
The counteroffensive had been proof enough for him, and Gordon had
decided not to argue about it.
The old man shaded his eyes and looked out across the nearby
garden plots toward the south end of Highway 99.
“More southerners ridin‘ in.”
Gordon turned and saw a column of mounted men riding slowly by
on their way north, toward the main encampment.
“Sheesh,” Stevens snickered, “look at their eyes pop. You’d
think they’d never seen a city before.”
Indeed, the tough, bearded men of Sutherün and Roseburg, of
Camas and Coos Bay, rode into town blinking in obvious amazement at
strange sights-at windmill generators and humming electric lines,
at busy machine shops, and at scores of clean, noisy children
playing in the schoolyards.
Calling this a city may be stretching things,
Gordon
noted. But Eric had a point.
Old Glory flapped over a busy central post office. At
intervals,
uniformed couriers leaped onto ponies and sped off north, east, and
south, saddlebags bulging.
From the House of Cyclops poured forth rich music from another
time, and nearby a small, patchy-colored blimp bobbed within its
scaffolding while white-coated workers argued in the ancient,
arcane tongue of engineering.
On one flank of the tiny airship was painted an eagle, rising
from a pyre. The other side bore the crest of the sovereign State
of Oregon.
Finally, at the training grounds themselves, the newcomers
would
encounter small groups of clear-eyed women
soldiers-volunteers from up and down the
valley-who were
there to do a job, the same as everybody else.
It was all quite a lot for the gruff southerners to absorb at
once. Gordon smiled as he watched the rough, bearded fighters gawk
and slowly remember the way things once had been. The
reinforcements arrived thinking of themselves as saviors of an
effete, decadent north. But they would go home
changed.
“So long, Gordon,” Eric Stevens said, concisely. Unlike some
of
the others, he had the good taste to know that goodbyes should be
brief. “Godspeed, and come back someday.”
“I will,” Gordon nodded. “If I can. So long, Eric.” He
shouldered the saddlebag and started walking toward the stables,
leaving the bustle of the post office behind him.
The old athletic fields were a sea of tents as he passed by.
Horses whinnied and men marched. Across the grounds, Gordon saw the
unmistakable figure of George Powhatan, introducing his new
officers to old comrades in arms, reorganizing the frail Willamette
Army into the new Defense League of the Oregon
Commonwealth.
Briefly, as Gordon walked by, the tall, silver-haired man
looked
up and met his eyes. Gordon nodded, saying goodbye without
words.
He had won after all-had brought the Squire down off his
mountain-even though the price of that victory would go with both
of them all of their lives.
Powhatan offered up a faint smile in return. They both knew,
by
now, what a man does with burdens such as those.
He carries them, Gordon thought.
Perhaps some day the two of them might sit together again-in
that peaceful mountain lodge, with children’s art hanging on the
walls-and talk about horsebreeding and the subtle art of brewing
beer. But that time would only come after the Big Things finally
let them both go. Neither man planned to hold his breath until
then.
Powhatan had his war to fight. And Gordon had quite another
job
to do.
He touched the bill of his postman’s cap and turned to walk
on.
He had stunned them all, yesterday, when he resigned from the
Defense Council. “My obligations are to the nation, not to one
small corner of it,” he had told them, allowing them to go on
believing things which were not lies at heart.
“Now that Oregon is safe,” he had said, “I must continue with
my
main job. There are other places to be brought into the postal
network, people elsewhere too long cut off from their
countrymen.
“You can carry on just fine without me.”
All their protests had been to no avail. For it was
true. He had given all he had to give here. He
would be
more useful now elsewhere. Anyway, he couldn’t stay any longer. In
this valley everything would perpetually remind him of the harm
that he had accomplished in doing good.
Gordon had decided to slip out of town today, instead of
attending the party in his honor. He was recovered enough to
travel, as long as he took it easy, and he had said good-bye to
those who were left-to Peter Aage and to Dr. Lazarensky-and to the
shell of that poor, dead machine whose ghost he no longer
feared.
The remuda handler brought out the young mare Gordon had
chosen
for this leg of his journey. Still deep in thought, he adjusted the
saddlebags containing his gear and five pounds of mail-letters
addressed, for the first time, to destinations outside of
Oregon.
On one point he left in complete confidence. The war was won,
though there certainly were brutal months and years ahead. Part of
his present mission was to seek new allies, new ways of shortening
the end. But that end was now inevitable.
He had no fear of George Powhatan ever becoming a tyrant after
victory was complete. When every Holnist had been hanged, the
people of Oregon would be told in no uncertain terms to manage
their own affairs, or be damned. Gordon wished he could be here to
watch the thunder, if anyone ever offered Powhatan a
crown.
The Servants of Cyclops would go on spreading their own myth,
encouraging a rebirth of technology. Gordon’s appointed postmasters
would continue lying without knowing it, using the tale of a
restored nation to bind the land together, until the fable wasn’t
needed anymore.
Or until, by believing it, people made it come
true.
And, yes, women would go on talking over what had happened
here,
this winter. They would pore over the notes Dena Spurgen had left
behind, read the same old books the Scouts had read, and argue over
the merits of judging men.
Gordon had decided that it hardly mattered now whether Dena
really had been mentally unbalanced. The lasting effects would not
be known during his lifetime. And even he hadn’t the influence, or
the desire, to interfere with the spreading legend.
Three myths… and George Powhatan. Among them, the people
of
Oregon were in good hands. The rest they could probably manage for
themselves.
His spirited mount snorted as Gordon swung into the saddle. He
patted and soothed the mare until she was calm, trembling with
eagerness to be off. Gordon’s escort already waited out at the edge
of town, ready to see him safely to Coos Bay and the boat that
would take him the rest of the way.
To California… he thought.
He remembered the bear flag patch, and the silent, dying
soldier
who had told him so much without ever saying a word. He owed that
man something. And Phil Bokuto. And Johnny, who had wanted so to go
south and see for himself.
And Dena… how I wish you could have come
along.
He would find out for them. They were all with him
now.
Silent California, he wondered, what
have you been
up to, all these years?
He wheeled his mount around and headed down the south road,
behind him all the clattering and shouting of an army of free men
and women, certain of victory-soldiers who would return gladly to
their farms and villages when the distasteful chore was done at
last.
Their clamor was loud, irreverent, determined,
impatient.
Gordon rode past an open window blaring recorded music.
Someone
was being lavish with electricity today. Who knew? Maybe the
raucous extravagance was even in his honor.
His head lifted, and even the horse’s ears flicked up. It was
an
old Beach Boys tune, he recognized at last, one he hadn’t heard in
twenty years… a melody of innocence, unflaggingly
optimistic.
I’ll bet they have electricity in California too,
Gordon hoped.
And maybe…
Spring was in the air. Men and women cheered as the little
blimp
rose, sputtering, into the sky.
Gordon nudged with his heels and the mare sped to a canter.
Once
out of town, he did not look back.
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
The author would like to express his appreciation to those who
gave so generously of their time and wisdom during the evolution of
this book.
Dean Ing, Diane and John Brizzolara, Astrid Anderson, Greg
Bear,
Mark Grygier, Douglas Bolger, Kathleen Retz, Conrad Hailing, Pattie
Harper, Don Coleman, Sarah Barter, and Dr. James Arnold all
contributed helpful comments.
Especially, I would like to thank Anita Everson, Daniel J.
Brin,
Kristie McCue, and Professor John Lewis, for their important
insights.
Appreciation to Lou Aronica and Bantam Books, for excellent
support and understanding, and to Shawna McCarthy of Davis
Publications, for more of the same.
And finally, my thanks to those women I’ve known who have
never
ceased to startle me, just when I’ve grown complacent and need most
to be startled, and who make me stop and think.
There is power there, slumbering below the surface. And there
is
magic.
David Brin April 1985
The Postman - David Brin
THE POSTMAN
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By
David Brin
Copyright ©
1985
To Benjamin Franklin, devious genius, and to
Lysistrata, who tried
PRELUDE
THE THIRTEEN-YEAR THAW
Chill winds still blew. Dusty snow fell. But the
ancient sea
was in no hurry.
The Earth had spun six thousand times since flames
blossomed
and cities died. Now, after sixteen circuits of the Sun, plumes of
soot no longer roiled from burning forests, turning day into
night.
Six thousand sunsets had come and gone-gaudy,
orange, glorious with suspended dust-ever since towering,
superheated funnels had punched through to the stratosphere,
fitting it with tiny bits of suspended rock and soil. The darkened
atmosphere passed less sunlight- and it
cooled.
It hardly mattered anymore what had done it- a
giant
meteorite, a huge volcano, or a nuclear war. Temperatures and
pressures swung out of balance, and great winds
blew.
All over the north, a dingy snow fell, and in places
even
summer did not erase it.
Only the Ocean, timeless and obstinate, resistant to
change,
really mattered. Dark skies had come and gone. The winds pushed
ocher, growling sunsets. In places, the ice grew,
and the
shallower seas began to sink.
But the Ocean’s vote was all important, and it was
not in
yet.
The Earth turned. Men still struggled, here and
there.
And the Ocean breathed a sigh of winter.
I
THE CASCADES
I
In dust and blood-with the sharp tang of terror stark in his
nostrils-a man’s mind will sometimes pull forth odd relevancies.
After half a lifetime in the wilderness, most of it spent
struggling to survive, it still struck Gordon as odd- how obscure
memories would pop into his mind right in the middle of a
life-or-death fight.
Panting under a bone-dry thicket-crawling desperately to find
a
refuge-he suddenly experienced a recollection as clear as the dusty
stones under his nose. It was a memory of contrast-of a rainy
afternoon in a warm, safe university library, long ago-of a lost
world filled with books and music and carefree philosophical
ramblings. Words on a page.
Dragging his body through the tough, unyielding bracken, he
could almost see the letters, black against
white. And
although he couldn’t recall the obscure author’s name, the
words came back with utter clarity.
“Short of Death itself, there is no such thing as a ‘total’
defeat… There is never a disaster so devastating that a
determined person cannot pull something out of the ashes-by risking
all that he or she has left…
“Nothing in the world is more dangerous than a desperate
man.”
Gordon wished the long-dead writer were here right now,
sharing
his predicament. He wondered what pollyannish glow the fellow might
find around this catastrophe.
Scratched and torn from his desperate escape into this dense
thicket, he crawled as quietly as he could, stopping to lay still
and squeeze his eyes shut whenever the floating dust seemed about
to make him sneeze. It was slow, painful progress, and he wasn’t
even sure where he was headed.
Minutes ago he had been as comfortable and well-stocked as any
solitary traveler could hope to be, these days. Now, Gordon was
reduced to not much more than a ripped shirt, faded jeans, and camp
moccasins-and the thorns were cutting them all to
bits.
A tapestry of fiery pain followed each new scratch down his
arms
and back. But in this awful, bone-dry jungle, there was nothing to
do but crawl onward and pray his twisting path did not deliver him
back to his enemies-to those who had effectively killed him
already.
Finally, when he had come to think the hellish growth would
never end, an opening appeared ahead. A narrow cleft split the
brush and overlooked a slope of tumbled rock. Gordon pulled free of
the thorns at last, rolled over onto his back, and stared up at the
hazy sky, grateful simply for air that wasn’t foul with the heat of
dry decay.
Welcome to Oregon, he thought bitterly. And
I
thought Idaho was bad.
He lifted one arm and tried to wipe the dust out of his
eyes.
Or is it that I’m simply getting too old for
this
sort of thing? After all, he was over thirty now, beyond the
typical life expectancy of a postholocaust traveler.
Oh Lord, I wish 1 was home again.
He wasn’t thinking of Minneapolis. The prairie today was a
hell
he had struggled for more than a decade to escape. No,
home meant more to Gordon than any particular
place.
A hamburger, a hot bath, music, Merthiolate…
… a cool beer…
As his labored breathing settled, other sounds came to the
fore-the all too clear noise of happy looting. It rose from a
hundred feet or so down the mountainside. Laughter
as the
delighted robbers tore through Gordon’s gear.
… a few friendly neighborhood cops…
Gordon
added, still cataloging the amenities of a world long
gone.
The bandits had caught him off guard as he sipped elderberry
tea
by a late afternoon campfire. From that first instant, as they
charged up the trail straight at him, it had been clear that the
hot-faced men would as soon kill Gordon as look at
him.
He hadn’t waited for them to decide which to do. Throwing
scalding tea into the face of the first bearded robber, he dove
right into the nearby brambles. Two gunshots had followed him, and
that was all. Probably, his carcass wasn’t worth as much to the
thieves as an irreplaceable bullet. They already had all his goods,
anyway.
Or so they probably think.
Gordon’s smile was bitterly thin as he sat up carefully,
backing
along his rocky perch until he felt sure he was out of view of the
slope below. He plucked his travel belt free of twigs and drew the
half-full canteen for a long, desperately needed
drink.
Bless you, paranoia,
he thought. Not once
since the Doomwar had he ever allowed the belt more than three feet
from his side. It was the only thing he had been able to grab
before diving into the brambles.
The dark gray metal of his .38 revolver shone even under a
fine
layer of dust, as he drew it from its holster. Gordon blew on the
snub-nosed weapon and carefully checked its action. Soft clicking
testified in understated eloquence to the craftsmanship and deadly
precision of another age. Even in killing, the old world had made
well.
Especially in the art of killing, Gordon
reminded
himself. Raucous laughter carried up from the slope
below.
Normally he traveled with only four rounds loaded. Now he
pulled
two more precious cartridges from a belt pouch and filled the empty
chambers under and behind the hammer. “Firearm safety” was no
longer a major consideration, especially since he expected to die
this evening anyway.
Sixteen years chasing a dream, Gordon
thought. First
that long, futile struggle against the collapse...
then scratching to survive through the Three-Year Winter…
and finally, more than a decade of moving from place to place,
dodging pestilence and hunger, fighting goddamned Holnists and
packs of wild dogs . . . half a lifetime spent as
a
wandering, dark age minstrel, play-acting for meals in order to
make it one day more while I searched for…
… for someplace…
Gordon shook his head. He knew his own dreams quite well. They
were a fool’s fantasies, and had no place in the present
world.
… for someplace where someone was taking
responsibility…
He pushed the thought aside. Whatever he had been looking for,
his long seeking seemed to have ended here, in the dry, cold
mountains of what had once been eastern Oregon.
From the sounds below he could tell that the bandits were
packing up, getting ready to move off with their plunder. Thick
patches of desiccated creeper blocked Gordon’s view downslope
through the ponderosa pines, but soon a burly man in a faded plaid
hunting coat appeared from the direction of his campsite, moving
northeast on a trail leading down the mountainside.
The man’s clothing confirmed what Gordon remembered from those
blurred seconds of the attack. At least his assailants weren’t
wearing army surplus camouflage… the trademark of Holn
survivalists.
They must be just regular, run of the mill,
may-they-please-roast-in-Hell bandits.
If so, then there was a sliver of a chance the plan glimmering
in his mind just might accomplish something.
Perhaps.
The first bandit had Gordon’s all-weather jacket tied around
his
waist. In his right arm he cradled the pump shotgun Gordon had
carried all the way from Montana. “Come on!” the bearded robber
yelled back up the trail. “That’s enough gloating. Get that stuff
together and move it!”
The leader, Gordon decided.
Another man, smaller and more shabby, hurried into view
carrying
a cloth sack and a battered rifle. “Boy, what a haul! We oughta
celebrate. When we bring this stuff back, can we have all the
‘shine we want, Jas?” The small robber hopped like an excited bird.
“Boy, Sheba an’ the girls’ll bust when they hear
about
that lil‘ rabbit we drove off into the briar patch. I never seen
anything run so fast!” He giggled.
Gordon frowned at the insult added to injury. It was the same
nearly everywhere he had been-a postholocaust callousness to which
he’d never grown accustomed, even after all this time. With only
one eye peering through the scrub grass rimming his cleft, he took
a deep breath and shouted.
“I wouldn’t count on getting drunk yet, Brer Bear!” Adrenaline
turned his voice more shrill than he wanted, but that couldn’t be
helped.
The big man dropped awkwardly to the ground, scrambling for
cover behind a nearby tree. The skinny robber, though, gawked up at
the hillside.
“What… ? Who’s up there?”
Gordon felt a small wash of relief. Their behavior confirmed
that the sons of bitches weren’t true survivalists. Certainly not
Holnists. If they had been, he’d probably be dead
by
now.
The other bandits-Gordon counted a total of five- hurried down
the trail carrying their booty. “Get down!” their leader commanded
from his hiding place. Scrawny seemed to wake up to his exposed
position and hurried to join his comrades behind the
undergrowth.
All except one robber-a sallow-faced man with salt-and-pepper
sideburns, wearing an alpine hat. Instead of hiding he moved
forward a little, chewing a pine needle and casually eyeing the
thicket.
“Why bother?” he asked calmly. “That poor fellow had on barely
more than his skivvies, when we pounced him. We’ve got his shotgun.
Let’s find out what he wants.”
Gordon kept his head down. But he couldn’t help noticing the
man’s lazy, affected drawl. He was the only one who was clean
shaven, and even from here Gordon could tell that his clothes were
cleaner, more meticulously tended.
At a muttered growl from his leader, the casual bandit
shrugged
and sauntered over behind a forked pine. Barely hidden, he called
up the hillside. “Are you there, Mister Rabbit? If so, I am so
sorry you didn’t stay to invite us to tea. Still, aware how Jas and
Little Wally tend to treat visitors, I suppose I cannot blame you
for cutting out.”
Gordon couldn’t believe he was trading banter with this twit.
“That’s what I figured at the time,” he called. “Thanks for
understanding my lack of hospitality. By the way, with whom am I
speaking?”
The tall fellow smiled broadly. “With whom… ? Ah, a
grammarian! What joy. It’s been so long since I’ve heard an
educated voice.” He doffed the alpine hat and bowed. “I am Roger
Everett Septien, at one time a member of the Pacific Stock
Exchange, and presently your robber. As for my colleagues…”
The bushes rustled. Septien listened, and finally shrugged.
“Alas,” he called to Gordon. “Normally I’d be tempted by a chance
for some real conversation; I’m sure you’re as starved for it as I.
Unfortunately, the leader of our small brotherhood of cutthroats
insists that I find out what you want and get this over
with.
“So speak your piece, Mister Rabbit. We are all
ears.”
Gordon shook his head. The fellow obviously classed himself a
wit, but his humor was fourth-rate, even by postwar standards. “I
notice you fellows aren’t carrying all of my
gear. You
wouldn’t by some chance have decided to take only what you needed,
and left enough for me to survive, would you?”
From the scrub below came a high giggle, then more hoarse
chuckles as others joined in. Roger Septien looked left and right
and lifted his hands. His exaggerated sigh seemed to say that
he, at least, appreciated the irony in Gordon’s
question.
“Alas,” he repeated. “I recall mentioning that possibility to
my
compatriots. For instance, our women might find some use for your
aluminum tent poles and pack frame, but I suggested we leave the
nylon bag and tent, which are useless to us.
“Urn, in a sense we have done this. However, I don’t think
that
Wally’s… er, alterations will meet your
approval.”
Again, that shrieking giggle rose from the bushes. Gordon
sagged
a little.
“What about my boots? You all seem well enough shod. Do they
fit
any of you, anyway? Could you leave them? And my jacket and
gloves?”
Septien coughed. “Ah, yes. They’re the main items, aren’t
they?
Other than the shotgun, of course, which is
nonnegotiable.”
Gordon spat. Of course, idiot. Only a blowhard
states the
obvious.
Again, the voice of the bandit leader could be heard, muffled
by
the foliage. Again there were giggles. With a pained expression,
the ex-stockbroker sighed. “My leader asks what you offer in
trade. Of course I know you have nothing. Still, I
must
inquire.”
As a matter of fact, Gordon had a few things they might
want-his
belt compass for instance, and a Swiss army knife.
But what were his chances of arranging an exchange and getting
out alive? It didn’t take telepathy to tell that these bastards
were only toying with their victim.
A fuming anger filled him, especially over Septien’s false
show
of compassion. He had witnessed this combination of cruel contempt
and civilized manners in other once-educated people, over the years
since the Collapse. By his lights, people like this were far more
contemptible than those who had simply succumbed to the barbaric
times.
“Look,” he shouted. “You don’t need those damn boots! You’ve
no
real need for my jacket or my toothbrush or my notebook, either.
This area’s clean, so what do you need my Geiger counter
for?
“I’m not stupid enough to think I can have my shotgun back,
but
without some of those other things I’ll die, damn
you!”
The echo of his curse seemed to pour down the long slope of
the
mountainside, leaving a hanging silence in its wake. Then the
bushes rustled and the big bandit leader stood up. Spitting
contemptuously upslope, he snapped his fingers at the others. “Now
I know he’s got no gun,” he told them. His thick eyebrows narrowed
and he gestured in Gordon’s general direction.
“Run away, little rabbit. Run, or we’ll skin you and have you
for supper!” He hefted Gordon’s shotgun, turned his back, and
sauntered casually down the trail. The others fell in behind,
laughing.
Roger Septien gave the mountainside an ironic shrug and a
smile,
then gathered up his share of the loot and followed his
compatriots. They disappeared around a bend in the narrow forest
path, but for minutes afterward Gordon heard the softly diminishing
sound of someone happily whistling.
You imbecile! Weak as his chances had
been, he had
spoiled them completely by appealing to reason and charity. In an
era of tooth and claw, nobody ever did that except out of
impotence. The bandits’ uncertainty had evaporated just as soon as
he foolishly asked for fair play.
Of course he could have fired his .38, wasting a precious
bullet
to prove he wasn’t completely harmless. That
would have
forced them to take him seriously again…
Then why didn’t I do that? Was I too
afraid?
Probably, he admitted. I’ll
very likely
die of exposure to-night, but that’s still hours away, far enough
to remain only an abstract threat, less frightening and immediate
than five ruthless men with guns.
He punched his left palm with his fist.
Oh stuff it, Gordon. You can
psychoanalyze yourself
this evening, while you’re freezing to death. What it all comes
down to, though, is that you are one prize fool,
and this
is probably the end.
He got up stiffly and began edging cautiously down the slope.
Although he wasn’t quite ready to admit it yet, Gordon felt a
growing certainty that there could only be one solution, only one
even faintly possible way out of this disaster.
As soon as he was free of the thicket, Gordon limped to the
trickling stream to wash his face and the worst of his cuts. He
wiped sweat-soaked strands of brown hair out of his eyes. His
scrapes hurt like hell, but none of them looked bad enough to
persuade him to use the thin tube of the precious iodine in his
belt pouch.
He refilled his canteen and thought.
Besides his pistol and half-shredded clothes, a pocket knife,
and compass, his pouch held a miniature fishing kit that might
prove useful, if he ever made it over the mountains to a decent
watershed.
And of course ten spare rounds for his .38, small, blessed
relics of industrial civilization.
Back at the beginning, during the riots and the great
starvation, it had seemed that the one thing in inexhaustible
supply was ammunition. If only turn-of-the-century America had
stockpiled and distributed food half so well as its citizens had
cached mountains of bullets…
Rough stones jabbed his throbbing left foot as Gordon gingerly
hurried toward his former campsite. Clearly these half-shredded
moccasins would get him nowhere. His torn clothes would be about as
effective against freezing mountain autumn nights as his pleas had
been against the bandits’ hard hearts.
The small clearing where he had made camp only an hour or so
ago
was deserted now, but his worst fears were surpassed by the havoc
he found there.
His tent had been converted into a pile of nylon shreds, his
sleeping bag a small blizzard of scattered goose down. All Gordon
found intact was the slim longbow he had been carving from a cut
sapling, and a line of experimental venison-gut
strings.
Probably thought it was a walking stick.
Sixteen years
after the last factory had burned, Gordon’s robbers had completely
overlooked the potential value of the bow and strings, when the
ammo finally ran out.
He used the bow to poke through the wreckage, looking for
anything else to salvage.
I can’t believe it. They took my journal! That prig
Sep-tien
probably looks forward to poring over it during the snow-time,
chuckling over my adventures and my naivete while my bones are
being picked clean by cougars and buzzards.
Of course the food was all gone: the jerky; the bag of split
grains that a small Idaho village had let him have in exchange for
a few songs and stories; the tiny hoard of rock candy he had found
in the mechanical bowels of a looted vending
machine.
It’s just as well about the candy, Gordon
thought as he
plucked his trampled, ruined toothbrush out of the
dust.
Now why the hell did they have to do
that?
Late in the Three-Year Winter-while the remnants of his
militia
platoon still struggled to guard the soy silos of Wayne, Minnesota,
for a government nobody had heard from in months- five
of
his comrades had died of raging oral infections. They were awful,
unglorious deaths, and no one had even been sure if one of the war
bugs was responsible, or the cold and hunger and near total lack of
modem hygiene. All Gordon knew was that the specter of his teeth
rotting in his head was his own personal phobia.
Bastards, he thought as he flung the
little brush
aside.
He kicked the rubbish one last time. There was nothing here to
change his mind.
You’re procrastinating. Go. Do it.
Gordon started off a little stiffly. But soon he was moving
downtrail as quickly and silently as he could, making time through
the bone-dry forest.
The burly outlaw leader had promised to eat him if they met
again. Cannibalism had been common in the early days, and these
mountain men might have acquired a taste for the “long pork.”
Still, he had to persuade them that a man with nothing to lose must
be reckoned with.
Within half a mile or so, their tracks were familiar to him:
two
traces with the soft outlines of deer hide and three with prewar
Vibram soles. They were moving at a leisurely pace, and it would be
no trouble simply to catch up with his enemies.
That was not his plan, however. Gordon tried to remember this
morning’s climb up this same trail.
The path drops in altitude as it winds north,
along
the east face of the mountain, before switching back south and east
into the desert valley below.
But what if I were to cut above the
main trail, and
traverse the slope higher up? I might be able to come down on them
while it’s still light… while they’re still gloating and
expecting nothing.
If the shortcut is there…
The trail wove gradually downhill toward the northeast, in the
direction of the lengthening shadows, toward the deserts of eastern
Oregon and Idaho. Gordon must have passed below the robbers’
sentinels yesterday or this morning, and they had taken their time
following him until he was settled into camp. Their lair had to be
somewhere off this same trail.
Even limping, Gordon was able to move silently and quickly,
the
only advantage of camp moccasins over boots. Soon he heard faint
sounds below and ahead.
The raiding party. The men were laughing, joking together. It
was painful to hear.
It wasn’t so much that they were laughing over him.
Callous cruelty was a part of life today, and if Gordon couldn’t
reconcile himself to it, he at least recognized he
was the
Twentieth-Century oddball in today’s savage world.
But the sounds reminded him of other laughter, the rough jokes
of men who shared danger together.
Drew Simms- freckle-faced
pre-med with a floppy grin
and deadly skill at chess or poker- the Holnists
got him
when they overran Wayne and burned the silos. . .
.
Tiny Kielre- saved
my life twice, and all
he wanted when he was on his deathbed, the War Mumps tearing him
apart, was for me to read him stories…
Then there had been Lieutenant Van-their half-Vietnamese
platoon
leader. Gordon had never known until it was too late that the
Lieutenant was cutting his own rations and giving them to his men.
He asked, at the end, to be buried in an American
flag.
Gordon had been alone for so long. He missed the company of
such
men almost as much as the friendship of women.
Watching the brush on his left, he came to an opening that
seemed to promise a sloping track-a shortcut perhaps-to the north
across the mountain face. The rust-dry scrub crackled as he left
the path and broke his own trail. Gordon thought he remembered the
perfect site for a bushwhack, a switchback that passed under a
high, stony horseshoe. A sniper might find a place a little way
above that rocky outcrop, within point-blank range of anyone hiking
along the hairpin.
If I can just get there first…
He might pin them down by surprise and force them to
negotiate.
That was the advantage in being the one with nothing to lose. Any
sane bandit would prefer to live and rob another clay. He had to
believe they would part with boots, a jacket, and some food,
against the risk of losing one or two of their band.
Gordon hoped he would not have to kill anybody.
Oh grow up, please! His worst enemy, over
the next few
hours, could be his archaic scruples. Just this once, be
ruthless.
The voices on the trail faded as he cut across the slope of
the
mountain. Several times he had to detour around jagged gullies or
scabrous patches of ugly bramble. Gordon concentrated on finding
the quickest way toward his rocky ambuscade.
Have I gone far enough?
Grimly, he kept on. According to imperfect memory, the
switchback he had in mind came only after a long sweep northward
along the east face of the mountain.
A narrow animal track let him hurry through the pine thickets,
pausing frequently to check his compass. He faced a quandary. To
stand a chance of catching his adversaries, he had to stay above
them. Yet if he kept too high, he might go right past his target
without knowing it.
And twilight was not long away.
A flock of wild turkeys scattered as he jogged into a small
clearing. Of course the thinned human population probably had
something to do with the return of wildlife, but it was also one
more sign that he had come into better-watered country than the
arid lands of Idaho. His bow might someday prove useful, should he
live long enough to learn to use it.
He angled downslope, beginning to get worried. Surely by now
the
main trail was quite a bit below him, if it hadn’t already switched
back a few times. It was possible he had already gone too far
north.
At last Gordon realized the game path was turning inexorably
westward. It appeared to be rising again as well,
toward
what looked like another gap in the mountains, shrouded in late
afternoon mist.
He stopped a moment to catch his breath and his bearings.
Perhaps this was yet another pass through the cold, semi-arid
Cascade Range, leading eventually into the Willamette River Valley
and thence the Pacific Ocean. His map was gone but he knew that at
most a couple weeks’ walk in that direction ought to bring him to
water, shelter, fishing streams, game to hunt, and maybe…
And maybe some people trying to put something right in the
world
again. The sunlight through that high fringe of clouds was like a
luminous halo, akin to the dimly remembered skyglow of city lights,
a promise that had led him ever onward from the midwest, searching.
The dream-hopeless as he knew it was-simply would not go
away.
Gordon shook his head. For certain there would be snow in that
range, and cougars, and starvation. There could be no turning away
from his plan. Not if he wanted to live.
He tried hard to cut downslope, but the narrow game paths kept
forcing him north and westward. The switchback had
to be
behind him, by now. But the thick, dry undergrowth diverted him
farther into the new pass.
In his frustration Gordon almost missed the sound. But then he
stopped suddenly, listening.
Were those voices?
A steep ravine opened up the forest just ahead. He hurried
toward it until he could see the outlines of this mountain and
others in the chain, wrapped in a thick haze, amber high on their
westward flanks and darkening purple where the sun no longer
shone.
The sounds seemed to be coming from below, to the east And
yes,
they were voices. Gordon searched and made out
the
snakelike line of a trail on the mountain’s flank. Far off, he
caught a brief flash of color moving slowly upward through the
woods.
The bandits! But why were they moving uphill again? They
couldn’t be, unless…
Unless Gordon was already far north of the trail he had taken
the day before. He must have missed the ambush site altogether and
come out above a side path. The bandits were climbing a fork he had
failed to notice yesterday, one leading up into this
pass
rather than the one he had been caught in.
This must be the way to their base!
Gordon looked up the mountain. Yes, he could see how a small
hollow could fit over to the west, on a shoulder near the
lesser-used pass. It would be defensible and very hard to discover
by chance.
Gordon smiled grimly and turned west as well. The ambush was a
lost opportunity, but if he hurried he could beat the bandits home,
perhaps get a few minutes to steal what he needed-food, clothes,
something to carry them in.
And if the hideout wasn’t deserted?
Well, maybe he could take their women hostage and try to cut a
deal.
Yeah, that’s lots better. Like holding a ticking
bomb beats
jogging with nitroglycerin.
Frankly, he hated all of his alternatives.
He started to run, ducking under branches and dodging withered
stumps as he charged along the narrow game path. Soon Gordon felt a
strange exuberance. He was committed, and none of his typical
self-doubt would get in the way now. Battle adrenaline nearly made
him high as his stride opened and small shrubs swept by in a blur.
He stretched to leap over a toppled, decayed tree trunk, cleared it
easily…
Landing sent sharp pain lancing up his left leg as something
stabbed him through the flimsy moccasins. He sprawled, face first,
into the gravel of a dry stream bed.
Gordon rolled over clutching his injury. Through wet,
pain-diffracted eyes, he saw that he had tripped over a thick
strand of looped, rusted steel cable, no doubt left over from some
ancient, prewar logging operation. Again, while his leg throbbed
agonizingly, his surface thoughts were absurdly
rational.
Eighteen years since my last tetanus shot.
Lovely.
But no, it hadn’t cut him, only tripped him. That was bad
enough, though. He held onto his thigh and clamped his mouth shut,
trying to ride out a savage cramp.
At last the tremors subsided and he dragged himself over to
the
toppled tree, gingerly hoisting himself into sitting position. He
hissed through clenched teeth as the waves of agony slowly
faded.
Meanwhile he could hear the bandit party passing not far
below,
taking away the head start that had been his only
advantage.
So much for all those great plans to beat them to
their
hideout He listened until their voices faded up the
trail.
At last Gordon used his bow as a staff and tried standing up.
Letting weight settle slowly on his left leg, he found it would
support him, though it still quivered tenderly.
Ten years ago I could’ve taken a fall like that and
been up
and running without another thought Face it You’re obsolete,
Gordon. Worn out These days, thirty-four and alone is the same as
being ready to die.
There would be no ambush now. He couldn’t even chase the
bandits, not all the way up to that notch in the mountain. It would
be useless to try to track them on a moonless night.
He took a few steps as the throbbing slowly subsided. Soon he
was able to walk without leaning too hard on his makeshift
staff.
Fine, but where to? Perhaps he should spend the remaining
daylight looking for a cave, a pile of pine needles, anything to
give him a chance to live through the night.
In the growing chill Gordon watched shadows climb higher above
the desert valley floor, merging and darkening the flanks of the
nearby mountains. The reddening sun probed through chinks in the
range of snowy peaks to his left.
He was facing north, unable quite yet to summon the energy to
move, when his eye was caught by a sudden flash of light, a sharp
glinting against the rolling forest green on the opposite flank of
this narrow pass. Still favoring his tender foot, Gordon took a few
steps forward. His brow furrowed.
The forest fires that had seared so much of the dry Cascades
had
spared the thick forests on that part of the mountainside. And yes,
something across the way was catching the sunlight like a mirror.
From the folds in the hillsides, he guessed that the reflection
could only be seen from this very spot, and only in the late
afternoon.
So he had guessed wrong. The bandits’ roost wasn’t in that
hollow higher up in the pass to the west after all, but much
closer. Only a stroke of luck had given it away.
So you’re giving me clues,
now? Now? he
accused the world. I don’t have enough troubles as it is,
without being offered straws to grasp at?
Hope was an addiction. It had driven him westward for half his
life. Moments after all but giving up, Gordon found himself piecing
together the outlines of a new plan.
Could he try to rob a cabin filled with armed men? He pictured
himself, kicking in the door to their wide-eyed astonishment,
holding them all at bay with the pistol in one hand, while he tied
them all up with the other!
Why not? They might be drunk, and he was desperate enough to
try. Could he take hostages? Hell, even a milk goat would be more
valuable to them than his boots! A captured woman should bring more
in trade than that.
The idea was a sour taste in his mouth. It depended on the
bandit leader behaving rationally for one thing. Would the bastard
recognize the secret power of a desperate man, and let him go with
what he needed?
Gordon had seen pride make men do stupid things. More often
than
not. If it comes down to a chase, I’m
cooked. I
couldn’t outrun a badger, right now.
He eyed the reflection across the pass, and decided he had
very
little choice, after all.
It was slow going from the first. His leg still ached and he
had
to stop every hundred feet or so to scan merging and crisscrossing
trails for his enemy’s spoor. He also found he was checking shadows
as potential ambushes, and made himself quit. These men weren’t
Holnists. Indeed, they seemed lazy. Gordon guessed that their
pickets would be close to home, if they maintained any at
all.
As the light faded, the footprints were lost in the gravelly
soil. But Gordon knew where he was going. The glinting reflection
could no longer be seen, but the ravine on the opposite shoulder of
the mountain saddle was a dark, tree-lined V silhouette. He chose a
likely path and hurried ahead.
It was growing dark quickly. A stiff, cold breeze blew damply
off the misty heights. Gordon limped up a dry stream bed and leaned
on his staff as he climbed a set of switchbacks. Then, when he
guessed he was within a quarter mile of his goal, the path suddenly
failed.
He kept his forearms up to protect his face while he tried to
move quietly through the dry undergrowth. He fought down a
lingering, threatening urge to sneeze in the floating
dust.
Chilly night fog was flowing down the mountainsides. Soon the
ground would shimmer with faintly luminous ground frost. Still,
Gordon shivered less from the cold than from nerves. He knew he was
getting close. One way or another, he was about to have an
encounter with death.
In his youth he had read about heroes, historical and
fictional.
Nearly all of them, when the time came for action, seemed able to
push aside their personal burdens of worry, confusion, angst, for
at least the time when action impended. But Gordon’s mind didn’t
seem to work that way. Instead it just filled with more and more
complexities, a turmoil of regrets.
It wasn’t that he had doubts about what had to be done. By
every
standard he lived by, this was the right thing to do. Survival
demanded it. And anyway, if he was to be a dead man, at least he
could make the mountains a little safer for the next wayfarer by
taking a few of the bastards with him.
Still, the nearer he drew to the confrontation, the more he
realized that he hadn’t wanted his dharma to come to this. He did
not really wish to kill any of these men.
It had been this way even as, with Lieutenant Van’s little
platoon, he had struggled to help maintain a peace- and a fragment
of a nation-that had already died.
And afterward, he had chosen the life of a minstrel, a
traveling
actor and laborer-partly in order to keep moving, searching for a
light, somewhere.
A few of the surviving postwar communities were known to
accept
outsiders as new members. Women were always welcome, of course, but
some accepted new men. And yet there was so often a catch. A new
male frequently had to duel-kill for the right to sit at a communal
table, or bring back a scalp from a feuding clan to prove his
prowess. There were few real Holnists anymore, in the plains and
Rockies. But many survivor outposts he had encountered nevertheless
demanded rituals of which Gordon wanted no part.
And now here he was, counting bullets, a part of him coldly
noting that, if he made them count, there were probably enough for
all the bandits.
Another sparse berry thicket blocked his path. What the patch
lacked in fruit it made up for in thorns. This time Gordon moved
along its edge, carefully picking his way in the gathering gloom.
His sense of direction-honed after fourteen years of wandering-was
automatic. He moved silently, cautious without rising above the
maelstrom of his own thoughts.
All considered, it was amazing a man like him had lived this
long. Everyone he had known or admired as a boy had died, along
with all the hopes any of them had had. The soft world made for
dreamers like himself broke apart when he was only eighteen. Long
since then he’d come to realize that his persistent optimism had to
be a form of hysterical insanity.
Hell, everybody’s crazy, these days.
Yes, he answered himself. But
paranoia and
depression are adaptive, now. Idealism is only
stupid.
Gordon paused at a small blob of color. He peered into the
bramble and saw, about a yard inside, a solitary clump of
blueberries, apparently overlooked by the local black bear. The
mist heightened Gordon’s sense of smell and he could pick their
faint autumn mustiness out of the air.
Ignoring the stabbing thorns, he reached in and drew back a
sticky handful. The tart sweetness was a wild thing in his mouth,
like Life.
Twilight was almost gone, and a few wan stars winked through a
darkling overcast. The cold breeze rifled his torn shirt and
reminded Gordon that it was time to get this business over with,
before his hands were too chilled to pull a trigger.
He wiped the stickiness on his pants as he rounded the end of
the thicket. And there, suddenly, a hundred feet or so away it
seemed, a broad pane of glass glinted at him in the dim
skyglow.
Gordon ducked back behind the thorns. He drew his revolver and
held his right wrist with his left hand until his breathing
settled. Then he checked the pistol’s action. It clicked quietly,
in an almost gentle, mechanical complacency. The spare ammo was
heavy in his breast pocket.
A hazard to quick or forceful motion, the thicket yielded as
he
settled back against it, heedless of a few more little scratches.
Gordon closed his eyes and meditated for calm and, yes, for
forgiveness. In the chilly darkness, the only accompaniment to his
breathing was the rhythmic ratchet of the crickets.
A swirl of cold fog blew around him. No,
he sighed.
There’s no other way. He raised his weapon and
swung
around.
The structure looked distinctly odd. For one thing, the
distant
patch of glass was dark.
That was queer, but stranger still was the silence. He’d have
thought the bandits would have a fire going, and that they would be
loudly celebrating.
It was nearly too dark to see his own hand. The trees loomed
like hulking trolls on every side. Dimly, the glass pane seemed to
stand out against some black structure, reflecting silvery
highlights of a rolling cloud cover. Thin wisps of haze drifted
between Gordon and his objective, confusing the image, making it
shimmer.
He walked forward slowly, giving most of his attention to the
ground. Now was not the time to step on a dry twig, or to be
stabbed by a sharp stone as he shuffled in the
dimness.
He glanced up, and once more the eerie feeling struck him.
There
was something wrong about the edifice ahead, made
out
mostly in silhouette behind the faintly glimmering glass. It didn’t
look right, somehow. Boxlike, its upper section seemed to be mostly
window. Below, it struck him as more like painted metal than wood.
At the corners…
The fog grew thicker. Gordon could tell his perspective was
wrong. He had been looking for a house, or large cottage. As he
neared, he realized the thing was actually much closer than he’d
thought. The shape was familiar, as if-
His foot came down on a twig. The “snap!” filled his ears and
he
crouched, peering into the gloom with a desperate need that
transcended sight. It felt as if a frantic power drove out of his
eyes, propelled by his terror, demanding the mist be cloven so he
could see.
Obediently, it seemed, the dry fog suddenly fell open before
him. Pupils dilated, Gordon saw that he was less than two
meters from the window… his own face reflected,
wide-eyed and wild haired… and saw, superimposed on his own
image, a vacant, skeletal, death mask-a hooded skull grinning in
welcome.
Gordon crouched, hypnotized, as a superstitious thrill coursed
up his spine. He was unable to bring his weapon to bear, unable to
cause his larynx to make sound. The haze swirled as he listened for
proof that he had really gone mad-wishing with all his might that
the death’s head was an illusion.
“Alas, poor Gordon!” The sepulchral image overlay his
reflection
and seemed to shimmer a greeting. Never, in all these awful years,
had Death-owner of the world- manifested to him as a specter.
Gordon’s numbed mind could think of nothing but to attend the
Elsinorian figure’s bidding. He waited, unable to take his gaze
away, or even to move. The skull and his face… his face and the
skull… The thing had captured him without a fight, and now
seemed content to grin about it.
At last it was something as mundane as a monkey reflex that
came
to Gordon’s aid.
No matter how mesmerizing, how terrifying, no unchanging sight
can keep a man riveted forever. Not when it seemed that nothing at
all was happening, nothing changing. Where courage and education
failed him, where his nervous system had let him down,
boredom finally took command.
His breath exhaled. He heard it whistle between his teeth.
Without willing them to, Gordon felt his eyes turn slightly from
the visage of Death.
A part of him noted that the window was set in a door. The
handle lay before him. To the left, another window. To the right… to the right was the hood.
The… hood…
The hood of a jeep.
The hood of an abandoned, rusted jeep that lay in a faint rut
in
the forest gully…
He blinked at the hood of the abandoned, rusted jeep with
ancient U.S. government markings, and the skeleton of a poor, dead,
civil servant within, skull pressed against the passenger-side
window, facing Gordon.
The strangled sigh he let out felt almost ectoplasmic, the
relief and embarrassment were so palpable. Gordon straightened up
and it felt like unwinding from a fetal position-like being
born.
“Oh. Oh Lordie,” he said, just to hear his own voice. Moving
his
arms and legs, he paced a long circle around the vehicle,
obsessively glancing at its dead occupant, coming to terms with its
reality. He breathed deeply as his pulse settled and the roar in
his ears gradually ebbed.
Finally, he sat down on the forest floor with his back against
the cool door on the jeep’s left side. Trembling, he used both
hands as he put the revolver back on safety and slid it into its
holster. Then he pulled out his canteen and drank in slow, full
swallows. Gordon wished he had something stronger, but water right
now tasted as sweet as life.
Night was full, the cold, bone-chilling. Still, Gordon spent a
few moments putting off the obvious. He would never find the
bandits’ roost now, having followed a false clue so far into a
pitch dark wilderness. The jeep, at least, offered some form of
shelter, better than anything else around.
He hauled himself up and placed his hand on the door lever,
calling up motions that had once been second nature to two hundred
million of his countrymen and which, after a stubborn moment,
forced the latch to give. The door let out a loud screech as he
pulled hard and forced it open. He slid onto the cracked vinyl of
the seat and inspected the interior.
The jeep was one of those reversed, driver-on-the-right types
the post office had used back in the once-upon-a-time of before the
Doomwar. The dead mailman-what was left of him-was slumped over on
the far side. Gordon avoided looking at the skeleton for the
moment.
The storage area of the truck was nearly full with canvas
sacks.
The smell of old paper filled the small cabin at least as much as
the faded odor of the mummified remains.
With a hopeful oath, Gordon snatched up a metal flask from the
shift well. It sloshed! To have held liquid for sixteen years or
more it had to be well sealed. Gordon swore as he twisted and pried
at the cap. He pounded it against the door frame, then attacked it
again.
Frustration made his eyes tear, but at last he felt the cap
give. Soon he was rewarded with a slow, rough turning, and then the
heady, distantly familiar aroma of whiskey.
Maybe I’ve been a good boy after all.
Maybe there is indeed a God.
He took a mouthful and coughed as the warming fire streamed
down. Two more small swallows and he fell tack against the seat,
breathing almost a sigh.
He wasn’t ready yet to face removing the jacket draped over
the
skeleton’s narrow shoulders. Gordon grabbed sacks-bearing the
imprint us. postal service-and piled them about himself. Leaving a
narrow opening in the door to let in fresh mountain air, he
burrowed under the makeshift blankets with his
bottle.
At last he looked over at his host, contemplating the dead
civil
servant’s American flag shoulder patch. He unscrewed the flask and
this time raised the container toward the hooded
garment.
“Believe it or not, Mr. Postman, I always thought you folks
gave
good and honest service. Oh, people used you as whipping boys a
lot, but I know what a tough job you all had. I was proud of you,
even before the war.
“But this, Mr. Mailman”-he lifted the
flask-“this goes
beyond anything I’d come to expect! I consider my taxes very well
spent.” He drank to the postman, coughing a little but relishing
the warm glow.
He settled deeper into the mail sacks and looked at the
leather
jacket, ribs serating its sides, arms hanging loosely at odd
angles. Lying still, Gordon felt a sad poignancy-something like
homesickness. The jeep, the symbolic, faithful letter carrier, the
flag patch… they recalled comfort, innocence, cooperation, an
easy life that allowed millions of men and women to relax, to smile
or argue as they chose, to be tolerant with one another-and to hope
to be better people with the passage of time.
Gordon had been ready, today, to kill and to be killed. Now he
was glad that had been averted. They had called him “Mr. Rabbit”
and left him to die. But it was his privilege, without their ever
knowing it, to call the bandits “countrymen,” and let them have
their lives.
Gordon allowed sleep to come and welcomed back
optimism-foolish
anachronism that it might be. He lay in a blanket of his own honor,
and spent the rest of the night dreaming of parallel
worlds.
2
Snow and soot covered the ancient tree’s broken
branches and
seared bark. It wasn’t dead, not quite yet Here
and there
tiny shoots of green struggled to emerge, but they weren’t doing
well. The end was near.
A shadow loomed, and a creature settled onto the
drifts, an
oldt wounded thing of the skies, as near death
as the
tree.
Pinions drooping, it laboriously began building a
nest- a
place of dying. Stick by stick, it pecked among the ruined wood on
the ground, piling the bits higher until it was clear that it was
not a nest at all.
It was a pyre.
The bloody, dying thing settled in atop the
kindling, and
crooned soft music unlike anything ever heard before. A glow began
to build, surrounding the beast soon in a rich purple lambience.
Blue flames burst forth.
And the tree seemed to
respond. Aged, ruined
branches curled forward toward the heat, like an old man warming
his hands. Snow shivered and fell, the green patches grew and began
to fill the air with a fragrance of renewal.
It was not the creature in the pyre that was reborn,
and
even in sleep, that surprised Gordon. The great bird was consumed,
leaving only bones.
But the tree blossomed, and
from its flowering
branches things uncurled and drifted off into the
air.
He stared in wonderment when he saw that they were
balloons,
airplanes, and rocket ships. Dreams.
They floated away in all directions, and the air was
filled
with hope.
3
A camp robber bird, looking for blue jays to chase, landed on
the jeep’s hood with a hollow thump. It squawked-once for
territorially and once for pleasure-then began poking through the
thick detritus with its beak.
Gordon awakened to the tap-tapping sound. He looked up,
bleary-eyed, and saw the gray-flanked bird through the dust-smeared
window. It took him moments to remember where he was. The glass
windshield, the steering wheel, the smell of metal and paper, all
felt like a continuation of one of the night’s most vivid dreams, a
vision of the old days before the war. He sat dazedly for a few
moments, sifting through feelings while the sleep images unraveled
and drifted away, out of grasp.
Gordon rubbed his eyes, and presently began to consider his
situation.
If he hadn’t left an elephant’s trail on his way into this
hollow last night, he should be perfectly safe right now. The fact
that the whiskey had lain here untouched for sixteen years
obviously meant the bandits were lazy hunters. They had their
traditional stalks and blinds, and had never bothered fully to
explore their own mountain.
Gordon felt a bit thick-headed. The war had begun when he was
eighteen, a college sophomore, and since then there had been little
chance to build a tolerance to eighty-proof liquor. Added to
yesterday’s series of traumas and adrenaline rushes, the whiskey
had left him cotton-mouthed and scratchy behind the
eyelids.
He regretted his lost comforts as much as ever. There would be
no tea this morning. Nor a damp washcloth, or venison jerky for
breakfast. No toothbrush.
Still, Gordon tried to be philosophical. After all, he was
alive. He had a feeling there would be times when each of the items
stolen from him would be “missed most of all.”
With any luck, the Geiger counter wouldn’t fall into that
category. Radiation had been one of his main reasons for going ever
westward, since leaving the Dakotas. He had grown tired of walking
everywhere a slave to his precious counter, always afraid it would
be stolen or would break down. Rumor had it that the West Coast had
been spared the worst of the fallout, suffering more, instead, from
plagues wind-borne from Asia.
That had been the way with that strange war. Inconsistent,
chaotic, it had stopped far short of the spasm everyone had
predicted. Instead it was more like a shotgun blast of one midscale
catastrophe after another. By itself, any one of the disasters
might have been survivable.
The initial “techno-war” at sea and in space might not have
been
so terrible had it remained contained, and not spilled over onto
the continents.
The diseases weren’t as bad as in the Eastern Hemisphere,
where
the Enemy’s weapons went out of control in his own populace. They
probably wouldn’t have killed so many in America, had the fallout
zones not pushed crowds of refugees together, and ruined the
delicate network of medical services.
And the starvation might not have been so awful had terrified
communities not blocked rails and roads to keep out the
germs.
As for the long-dreaded atom, only a tiny fraction of the
world’s nuclear arsenals were used before the Slavic Resurgence
collapsed from within and unexpected victory was declared. Those
few score bombs were enough to trigger the Three-Year Winter, but
not a Century-Long Night that might have sent Man the way of the
dinosaurs. For weeks it appeared that a great miracle of restraint
had saved the planet.
So it seemed. And indeed, even the combination-a few bombs,
some
bugs, and three poor harvests-would not have been enough to ruin a
great nation, and with it a world.
But there was another illness, a cancer from
within.
Damn you forever, Nathan Holn, Gordon
thought. Across a
dark continent it was a common litany.
He pushed aside the mail sacks. Ignoring the morning chill, he
opened his left belt pouch and pulled out a small package wrapped
in aluminum foil, coated with melted wax.
If there ever had been an emergency, this was one. Gordon
would
need energy to get through the day. A dozen cubes of beef bouillon
were all he had, but they would have to do.
Washing down a bitter, salty chunk with a swig from his
canteen,
Gordon kicked open the left door of the jeep, letting several sacks
tumble out onto the frosted ground. He turned to his right and
looked at the muffled skeleton that had quietly shared the night
with him.
“Mr. Postman, I’m going to give you as close to a decent
burial
as I can manage with my bare hands. I know that’s not much payment
for what you’ve given me. But it’s all I can offer.” He reached
over the narrow, bony shoulder and unlocked the driver’s
door.
His moccasins slipped on the icy ground as he got out and
stepped carefully around to the other side of the
jeep.
At least it didn’t snow last
night. It’s so dry up
here that the ground ought to thaw enough for digging in a little
while.
The rusty right-hand door groaned as he pulled. It was tricky,
catching the skeleton in an emptied mail sack as it pitched
forward. Gordon somehow managed to get the bundle of clothes and
bones laid out on the forest floor.
He was amazed at the state of preservation. The dry climate
had
almost mummified the postman’s remains, giving insects time to
clean up without much mess. The rest of the jeep appeared to have
been free from mold for all these years.
First he checked the mailman’s apparel.
Funny- Why was he wearing a paisley shirt under his
jacket?
The garment, once colorful but now faded and stained, was a
total loss, but the leather jacket was a wonderful find. If big
enough, it would improve his chances immeasurably.
The footgear looked old and cracked, but perhaps serviceable.
Carefully, Gordon shook out the gruesome, dry remnants and laid the
shoes against his feet.
Maybe a bit large. But then, anything
would be better
than ripped camp moccasins.
Gordon slid the bones out onto the mail sack with as little
violence as he could manage, surprised at how easy it was. Any
superstition had been burned out the night before. All that
remained was a mild reverence and an ironic gratitude to the former
owner of these things. He shook the clothes, holding his breath
against the dust, and hung them on a ponderosa branch to air out.
He returned to the jeep.
Aha, he thought then. The
mystery of the shirt is
solved. Right next to where he had slept was a long-sleeved
blue uniform blouse with Postal Service patches on the shoulders.
It looked almost new, in spite of the years. One for
comfort,
and another for the boss.
Gordon had known postmen to do that, when he was a boy. One
fellow, during the muggy afternoons of summer, had worn bright
Hawaiian shirts as he delivered the mail. The postman had always
been grateful for a cool glass of lemonade. Gordon wished he could
remember his name.
Shivering in the morning chill, he slipped into the uniform
shirt. It was only a little bit large.
“Maybe I’ll grow to fill it out,” he mumbled, joking weakly
with
himself. At thirty-four he probably weighed less than he had at
seventeen.
The glove compartment contained a brittle map of Oregon to
replace the one he had lost. Then, with a shout Gordon grabbed a
small square of clear plastic. A scintilla-tor! Far better than his
Geiger counter, the little crystal would give off tiny flashes
whenever its crystalline interior was struck by gamma radiation. It
didn’t even need power! Gordon cupped it in front of his eye and
watched a few sparse flickerings, caused by cosmic rays. Otherwise,
the cube was quiescent.
Now what was a prewar mailman
doing with a gadget
like that? Gordon wondered idly, as the device went into his
pants pocket.
The glove compartment flashlight was a loss, of course; the
emergency flares were crumbled paste.
The bag, of course. On the floor below
the driver’s
seat was a large, leather letter carrier’s sack. It was dry and
cracked, but the straps held when he tugged, and the flaps would
keep out water.
It wouldn’t come close to replacing his lost Kelty, but the
bag
would be a vast improvement over nothing at all. He opened the main
compartment and bundles of aged correspondence spilled out,
breaking into scattered piles as brittle rubber bands snapped
apart. Gordon picked up a few of the nearest pieces.
“From the Mayor of Bend, Oregon, to the Chairman of the School
of Medicine, University of Oregon, Eugene.” Gordon intoned the
address as though he were playing Polo-nius. He flipped through
more letters. The addresses sounded pompous and
archaic.
“Dr. Franklin Davis, of the small town of Gilchrist sends-with
the word urgent printed clearly on the envelope-a rather bulky
letter to the Director of Regional Disbursement of Medical Supplies… no doubt pleading priority for his
requisitions.”
Gordon’s sardonic smile faded into a frown as he turned over
one
letter after another. Something was wrong, here.
He had expected to be amused by junk mail and personal
correspondence. But there didn’t seem to be a single advertisement
in the bag, And while there were many private letters, most of the
envelopes appeared to be on one or another type of official
stationery.
Well, there wasn’t time for voyeurism anyway. He’d take a
dozen
or so letters for entertainment, and use the backsides for his new
journal.
He avoided thinking about the loss of the old volume- sixteen
years’ tiny scratchings, now doubtless being perused by that
onetime stockbroker robber. It would be read and preserved, he was
sure, along with the tiny volumes of verse he had carried in his
pack, or he had misread Roger Sep-tien’s
personality.
Someday, he would come and get them back.
What was a U.S. Postal Service jeep doing out here, anyway?
And
what had killed the postman? He found part of his answer around at
the back of the vehicle-bullet holes in the tailgate window, well
grouped midway up the right side.
Gordon looked over to the ponderosa. Yes, the shirt and the
jacket each had two holes in the back of the upper chest
area.
The attempted hijacking or robbery could not have been prewar.
Mail carriers were almost never attacked, even in the late
eighties’ depression riots, before the “golden age” of the
nineties.
Besides, a missing carrier would have been searched for until
found.
So, the attack took place after the
One-Week War. But
what was a mailman doing driving alone through the countryside
after the United States had effectively ceased to exist? How long
afterward had this happened?
The fellow must have driven off from his ambush, seeking
obscure
roads and trails to get away from his assailants. Maybe he didn’t
know the severity of his wounds, or simply panicked.
But Gordon suspected that there was another reason the letter
carrier had chosen to weave in and out of blackberry thickets to
hide deep in forest depths.
“He was protecting his cargo,” Gordon whispered. “He measured
the chance he’d black out on the road against the possibility of
getting to help… and decided to cache the mail, rather than
try to live.”
So, this was a bona fide postwar
postman. A hero of the
flickering twilight of civilization. Gordon thought of the old-time
ode of the mails… “Neither sleet, nor hail…” and wondered
at the fact that some had tried this hard to keep the light
alive.
That explained the official letters and the lack of junk mail.
He hadn’t realized that even a semblance of normality had remained
for so long. Of course, a seventeen-year-old militia recruit was
unlikely to have seen anything normal. Mob rule and general looting
in the main disbursement centers had kept armed authority busy and
attrited until the militia finally vanished into the disturbances
it had been sent to quell. If men and women elsewhere were behaving
more like human beings during those months of horror, Gordon never
witnessed it.
The brave story of the postman only served to depress Gordon.
This tale of struggle against chaos, by mayors and university
professors and postmen, had a “what if” flavor that was too
poignant for him to consider for long.
The tailgate opened reluctantly, after some prying. Moving
mail
sacks aside, he found the letter carrier’s hat, with its tarnished
badge, an empty lunchbox, and a valuable pair of sunglasses lying
in thick dust atop a wheel well.
A small shovel, intended to help free the jeep from road ruts,
would now help to bury the driver.
Finally, just behind the driver’s seat, broken under several
heavy sacks, Gordon found a smashed guitar. A large-caliber bullet
had snapped its neck. Near it, a large, yellowed plastic bag held a
pound of desiccated herbs that gave off a strong, musky odor.
Gordon’s recollection hadn’t faded enough to forget the aroma of
marijuana.
He had envisioned the postman as a middle-aged, balding,
conservative type. Gordon now recreated the image, and made the
fellow look more like himself, wiry, bearded, with a perpetual,
stunned expression that seemed about to say, “Oh,
wow.”
A neohippy perhaps-a member of a subgeneration that had hardly
begun to flower before the war snuffed it out and everything else
optimistic-a neohippy dying to protect the establishment’s mail. It
didn’t surprise Gordon in the slightest. He had had friends in the
movement, sincere people, if maybe a little strange.
Gordon retrieved the guitar strings and for the first time
that
morning felt a little guilty.
The letter carrier hadn’t even been armed! Gordon remembered
reading once that the U.S. Mail operated across the lines for three
years into the 1860s Civil War. Perhaps this fellow had trusted his
countrymen to respect that tradition.
Post-Chaos America had no tradition but survival. In his
travels, Gordon had found that some isolated communities welcomed
him in the same way minstrels had been kindly received far and wide
in medieval days. In others, wild varieties of paranoia reigned.
Even in those rare cases where he had found friendliness, where
decent people seemed willing to welcome a stranger, Gordon had
always, before long, moved on. Always, he found himself beginning
to dream again of wheels turning and things flying in the
sky.
It was already midmorning. His gleanings here were enough to
make the chances of survival better without a confrontation with
the bandits. The sooner he was over the pass then, and into a
decent watershed, the better off he would be.
Right now, nothing would serve him half so well as a stream,
somewhere out of the range of the bandit gang, where he could fish
for trout to fill his belly.
One more task, here. He hefted the shovel.
Hungry or not, you owe the guy this
much.
He looked around for a shady spot with soft earth to dig in,
and
a view.
4
“… They said, ‘Fear not, Macbeth, till Birnam Wood comes
to
Dunsinane’; and now a wood comes to Dunsinane!
“Arm, arm, arm yourselves! If this is what the witch spoke
of-that thing out there-there’ll be no running, or hiding
here!”
Gordon clutched his wooden sword, contrived from planking and
a
bit of tin. He motioned to an invisible
aide-de-camp.
“I’m gettin‘ weary of the sun, and wish the world were
undone.
“Ring the alarum bell! Blow, wind! Come wrack! At least we’ll
die with harness on our back!”
Gordon squared his shoulders, flourished his sword, and
marched
Macbeth offstage to his doom.
Out of the light of the tallow lamps, he swiveled to catch a
glimpse of his audience. They had loved his earlier acts. But this
bastardized, one-man version of Macbeth might have gone over their
heads.
An instant after he exited, though, enthusiastic applause
began,
led by Mrs. Adele Thompson, the leader of this small community.
Adults whistled and stamped their feet. Younger citizens clapped
awkwardly, those below twenty years of age watching their elders
and slapping their hands awkwardly, as if they were taking part in
this strange rite for the first time.
Obviously, they had liked his abbreviated version of the
ancient
tragedy, Gordon was relieved. To be honest, some parts had been
simplified less for brevity than because of his imperfect memory of
the original. He had last seen a copy of the play almost a decade
ago, and that a half-burned fragment.
Still, the final lines of his soliloquy had been canon. That
part about “wind and wrack” he would never forget.
Grinning, Gordon returned to take his bows onstage- a
plank-covered garage lift in what had once been the only gas
station in the tiny hamlet of Pine View.
Hunger and isolation had driven him to try the hospitality of
this mountain village of fenced fields and stout log walls, and the
gamble had paid off better than he’d hoped. An exchange of a series
of shows for his meals and supplies had tentatively passed by a
fair majority of the voting adults, and now the deal seemed
settled.
“Bravo! Excellent!” Mrs. Thompson stood in the front row,
clapping eagerly. White-haired and bony, but still robust, she
turned to encourage the forty-odd others, including small children,
to show their appreciation. Gordon did a flourish with one hand,
and bowed deeper than before.
Of course his peformance had been pure crap. But he was
probably
the only person within a hundred miles who had once minored in
drama. There were “peasants” once again in America, and like his
predecessors in the minstrel trade, Gordon had learned to go for
the unsubtle in his shows.
Timing his final bow for the moment before the applause began
to
fade, Gordon hopped off the stage and began removing his slap-dash
costume. He had set firm limits; there would be no encore. His
stock was theater, and he meant to keep them hungry for it until it
was time to leave.
“Marvelous. Just wonderful!” Mrs. Thompson told him as he
joined
the villagers, now gathering at a buffet table along the back wall.
The older children formed a circle around him, staring in
wonderment.
Pine View was quite prosperous, compared with so many of the
starvling villages of the plains and mountains. In some places a
good part of a generation was nearly missing due to the devastating
effects the Three-Year Winter had had on children. But here he saw
several teenagers and young adults, and even a few oldsters who
must have been past middle age when the Doom fell.
They must have fought to save everybody.
That pattern
had been rarer, but he had seen it, too, here and
there.
Everywhere there were traces of those years. Faces pocked from
diseases or etched from weariness and war. Two women and a man were
amputees and another looked out of one good eye, the other a cloudy
mass of cataracts.
He was used to such things-at least on a superficial level. He
nodded gratefully to his host.
“Thank you, Mrs. Thompson. I appreciate kind words from a
perceptive critic. I’m glad you liked the show.”
“No, no seriously,” the clan leader insisted, as if Gordon had
been trying to be modest. “I haven’t been so delighted in years.
The Macbeth part at the end there sent shivers up my spine! I only
wish I’d watched it on TV back when I had a chance. I didn’t know
it was so good!
“And that inspiring speech you gave us earlier, that one of
Abraham Lincoln’s… well, you know, we tried to start a school
here, in the beginning. But it just didn’t work out. We needed
every hand, even the kids‘. Now though, well, that speech got me to
thinking. We’ve got some old books put away. Maybe now’s the time
to give it a try again.”
Gordon nodded politely. He had seen this syndrome before-the
best of the dozen or so types of reception he had experienced over
the years, but also among the saddest. It always made him feel like
a charlatan, when his shows brought out grand, submerged hopes in a
few of the decent, older people who remembered better days…
hopes that, to his knowledge, had always fallen through before a
few weeks or months had passed.
It was as if the seeds of civilization needed more than
goodwill
and the dreams of aging high school graduates to water them. Gordon
often wondered if the right symbol might do the trick-the right
idea. But he knew his little dramas, however well
received, weren’t the key. They might trigger a beginning, once in
a great while, but local enthusiasm always failed soon after. He
was no traveling messiah. The legends he offered weren’t the kind
of sustenance needed in order to overcome the inertia of a dark
age.
The world turns, and soon the last of the old
generation
will be gone. Scattered tribes will rule the continent. Perhaps in
a thousand years the adventure will begin again. Meanwhile…
Gordon was spared hearing more of Mrs. Thompson’s sadly
unlikely
plans. The crowd squeezed out a small, silver-haired, black woman,
wiry and leather skinned, who seized Gordon’s arm in a friendly,
viselike grip.
“Now Adele,” she said to the clan matriarch, “Mister Krantz
hasn’t had a bite since noontime. I think, if we want him able to
perform tomorrow night, we’d better feed him. Right?” She squeezed
his right arm and obviously thought him undernourished-an
impression he was loathe to alter, with the aroma of food wafting
his way,
Mrs. Thompson gave the other woman a look of patient
indulgence.
“Of course, Patricia,” she said. “I’ll speak with you more about
this, later, Mr. Krantz, after Mrs. Hewlett has fattened you up a
bit.” Her smile and her glittering eyes held a touch of intelligent
irony, and Gordon found himself reevaluating Adele Thompson. She
certainly was nobody’s fool.
Mrs. Howlett propelled him through the crowd. Gordon smiled
and
nodded as hands came out to touch his sleeve. Wide eyes followed
his every movement.
Hunger must make me a better actor. I’ve never had
an
audience react quite like this before. I wish I knew exactly what
it was I did that made them feel this way.
One of those watching him from behind the long buffet table
was
a young woman barely taller than Mrs. Howlett, with deep, almond
eyes and hair blacker than Gordon remembered ever seeing before.
Twice, she turned to gently slap the hand of a child who tried to
help himself before the honored guest. Each time the girl quickly
looked back at Gordon and smiled.
Beside her, a tall, burly young man stroked his reddish beard
and gave Gordon a strange look-as if his eyes were filled with some
desperate resignation, Gordon had only a moment to assimilate the
two as Mrs. Howlett pulled him over in front of the pretty
brunette.
“Abby,” she said, “let’s have a little bit of everything on a
plate for Mr. Krantz. Then he can make up his mind what he wants
seconds of. I baked the blueberry pie, Mr. Krantz.”
Dizzily, Gordon made a note to have two helpings of the
blueberry. It was hard to concentrate on diplomacy, though. He
hadn’t seen or smelled anything like this in years. The odors
distracted him from the disconcerting looks and touching
hands.
There was a large, spit-turned, stuffed turkey. A huge,
steaming
bowl of boiled potatoes, dollied up with beer-soaked jerky,
carrots, and onions, was the second course. Down the table Gordon
saw apple cobbler and an opened barrel of dried apple flakes.
I must cozen a supply of those, before
I
leave.
Skipping further inventory, he eagerly held out his plate.
Abby
kept watching him as she took it.
The big, frowning redhead suddenly muttered something
indecipherable and reached out to grab Gordon’s right hand in both
of his own. Gordon flinched, but the taciturn fellow would not let
go until he answered the grip and shook hands
firmly.
The man muttered something too low to follow, nodded, and let
go. He bent to kiss the brunette quickly and then stalked off, eyes
downcast.
Gordon blinked. Did I just miss something?
It felt as
if some sort of event had just occurred, and had gone completely
over his head.
“That was Michael, Abby’s husband,” Mrs. Howlett said. “He’s
got
to go and relieve Edward at the trap string. But he wanted to stay
to see your show, first. When he was little he so used to love to
watch TV shows…”
Steam from the plate rose to his face, making Gordon quite
dizzy
with hunger. Abby blushed and smiled when he thanked her. Mrs.
Howlett pulled him over to take a seat on a pile of old tires.
“You’ll get to talk to Abby, later,” the black woman went on. “Now,
you eat. Enjoy yourself.”
Gordon did not need to be encouraged. He dug in while people
looked on curiously and Mrs. Hewlett rattled on.
“Good, isn’t it? You just sit and eat and pay us no
mind.
“And when you’re all full and you’re ready to talk again, I
think we’d all like to hear, one more time, how you got to be a
mailman.”
Gordon looked up at the eager faces above him. He hurriedly
took
a swig of beer to chase down the too-hot potatoes,
“I’m just a traveler,” he said around a half-full mouth while
lifting a turkey drumstick. “It’s not much of a story how I got the
bag and clothes.”
He didn’t care whether they stared, or touched, or talked at
him, so long as they let him eat!
Mrs. Howlett watched him for a few moments. Then, unable to
hold
back, she started in again. “You know, when I was a little girl we
used to give milk and cookies to the mailman. And my father always
left a little glass of whiskey on the fence for him the day before
New Year’s. Dad used to tell us that poem, you know, ‘Through
sleet, through mud, through war, through blight, through bandits
and through darkest night…’”
Gordon choked on a sudden, wayward swallow. He coughed and
looked up to see if she was in earnest. A glimmer in his forebrain
wanted to dance over the old woman’s accidentally magnificent
misremembrance. It was rich.
The glimmer faded quickly, though, as he bit into the
delicious
roast fowl. He hadn’t the will to try to figure out what the old
woman was driving at.
“Our mailman used to sing to us!”
The speaker, incongruously, was a dark-haired giant with a
silver-streaked beard. His eyes seemed to mist as he remembered.
“We could hear him coming, on Saturdays when we were home from
school, sometimes when he was over a block away.
“He was black, a lot blacker than Mrs. Hewlett, or Jim Horton
over there. Man, did he have a nice voice! Guess that’s how he got
the job. He brought me all those mail order coins I used to
collect. Ringed the doorbell so he could hand ‘em to me, personal,
with his own hand.”
His voice was hushed with telescoped awe.
“Our mailman just whistled when I was little,” said a
middle-aged woman with a deeply lined face. She sounded a little
disappointed.
“But he was real nice. Later, when I was
grown up, I
came home from work one day and found out the mailman had saved the
life of one of my neighbors. Heard him choking and gave him
mouth-to-mouth until th‘ ambulance came.”
A collective sigh, rose from the circle of listeners, as if
they
were hearing the heroic adventures of a single ancient hero. The
children listened in wide-eyed silence as the tales grew more and
more embroidered. At least the small part of him still paying
attention figured they had to be. Some were simply too far-fetched
to be believed.
Mrs. Hewlett touched Gordon’s knee. “Tell us again how you got
to be a mailman.”
Gordon shrugged a little desperately. “I just found the
mailman’s fings!” he emphasized around the food in his mouth. The
flavors had overcome him, and he felt almost panicky over the way
they all hovered over him. If the adult villagers
wanted
to romanticize their memories of men they had once considered
lower-class civil servants at best, that was all right. Apparently
they associated his performance tonight with the little touches of
extroversion they had witnessed in their neighborhood letter
carriers, when they had been children. That, too, was okay. They
could think anything they damn well pleased, so long as they didn’t
interrupt his eating!
“Ah-” Several of the villagers looked at each other knowingly
and nodded, as if Gordon’s answer had had some profound
significance. Gordon heard his own words repeated to those on the
edges of the circle.
“He found the mailman’s things… so naturally he became…”
His answer must have appeased them, somehow, for the crowd
thinned as the villagers moved off to take polite turns at the
buffet. It wasn’t until much later, on reflection, that he
perceived the significance of what had taken place there, under
boarded windows and tallow lamps, while he crammed himself near to
bursting with good food.
5
… we have found that our clinic has an abundant supply of
disinfectants and pain killers of several varieties. We hear these
are in short supply in Bend and in the relocation centers up north.
We’re willing to trade some of these-along with a truckload of
de-ionizing resin columns that happened to be abandoned here-for
one thousand doses of tetracycline, to guard against the bubonic
plague outbreak to the east. Perhaps we’d be willing to settle for
an active culture of balomycine-producing yeast, instead, if
someone could come up and show us how to maintain
it.
Also, we are in desperate need of…
The Mayor of Gilchrist must have been a strong-willed man to
have persuaded his local emergency committee to offer such a trade.
Hoarding, however illogical and uncooperative, was a major
contributor to the collapse. It astonished Gordon that there still
had been people with this much good sense during the first two
years of the Chaos.
He rubbed his eyes. Reading wasn’t easy by the light of a pair
of homemade candles. But he found it difficult getting to sleep on
the soft mattress, and damn if he’d sleep on the floor after so
long dreaming of such a bed, in just such a room!
He had been a little sick, earlier. All that food and
home-brewed ale had almost taken him over the line from delirious
happiness to utter misery. Somehow, he had teetered along the
boundary for several hours of blurrily remembered celebration
before at last stumbling into the room they had prepared for
him.
There had been a toothbrush waiting on
his nightstand,
and an iron tub filled with hot water.
And soap! In the bath his stomach had settled, and a warm,
clean
glow spread over his skin.
Gordon smiled when he saw that his postman’s uniform had been
cleaned and pressed. It lay on a nearby chair; the rips and tears
he had crudely patched were now neatly sewn.
He could not fault the people of this tiny hamlet for
neglecting
his one remaining longing… something he had gone without too
long to even think about. Enough. This was almost
Paradise.
As he lay in a sated haze between a pair of elderly but clean
sheets, waiting leisurely for sleep to come, he read a piece of
correspondence between two long-dead men.
The Mayor of Gilchrist went on:
We are having extreme difficulty with local gangs of
“Survivalists.” Fortunately, these infestations of egotists are
mostly too paranoid to band together. They’re as much trouble to
each other as to us, I suppose. Still, they are becoming a real
problem.
Our deputy is regularly fired on by well armed men in army
surplus camouflage clothing. No doubt the idiots think he’s a
“Russian Lackey” or some such nonsense.
They have taken to hunting game on a massive scale, killing
everything in the forest and doing a typically rotten job of
butchering and preserving the meat. Our own hunters come back
disgusted over the waste, often having been shot at without
provocation.
I know it’s a lot to ask, but when you can spare a platoon
from
relocation riot duty, could you send them up here to help us root
out these self-centered, hoarding, romantic scoundrels from their
little filtered armories? Maybe a unit or two of the US Army will
convince them that we won the war, and have to cooperate with each
other from now on…
He put the letter down.
So it had been that way here, too. The cliched “last straw”
had
been this plague of “survivalists”-particularly those following the
high priest of violent anarchy, Nathan Holn.
One of Gordon’s duties in the militia had been to help weed
out
some of those small gangs of city-bred cutthroats and gun nuts. The
number of fortified caves and cabins his unit had found-in the
prairie and on little lake islands- had been staggering… all set
up in a rash of paranoia in the difficult decades before the
war.
The irony of it was that we had things turned
around! The
depression was over. People were at work again and cooperating.
Except for a few crazies, it looked like a renaissance was coming,
for America and for the world.
But we forgot just how much harm a few crazies could
do, in
America and in the world.
Of course when the collapse did come, the solitary
survivalists’
precious little fortresses did not stay theirs for long. Most of
the tiny bastions changed hands a dozen or more times in the first
months-they were such tempting targets. The battles had raged all
over the plains until every solar collector was shattered, every
windmill wrecked, and every cache of valuable medicines scattered
in the never-ending search for heavy dope.
Only the ranches and villages, those possessing the right
mixture of ruthlessness, internal cohesion, and common sense,
survived in the end. By the time the Guard units had all died at
their posts, or themselves dissolved into roving gangs of battling
survivalists, very few of the original population of armed and
armored hermits remained alive.
Gordon looked at the letter’s postmark again. Nearly
two
years after the war. He shook his head. I
never
knew anyone held on so long.
The thought hurt, like a dull wound inside him. Anything that
made the last sixteen years seem avoidable was just too hard to
imagine.
There was a faint sound. Gordon looked up, wondering if he had
imagined it. Then, only slightly louder, another faint knock rapped
at the door to his room.
“Come in,” he called. The door opened about halfway. Abby, the
petite girl with the vaguely oriental cast to her eyes, smiled
timidly from the opening. Gordon refolded the letter and slipped it
into its envelope. He smiled.
“Hello, Abby. What’s up?”
“I-I’ve come to ask if there is anything else you needed,” she
said a little quickly. “Did you enjoy your bath?”
“Did I now?” Gordon sighed. He found himself slipping back
into
Macduff’s burr. “Aye, lass. And in particular I appreciated the
gift of that toothbrush. Heaven sent, it was.”
“You mentioned you’d lost yours.” She looked at the floor. “I
pointed out that we had at least five or six unused ones in the
storage room. I’m glad you were pleased.”
“It was your idea?” He bowed. “Then I am indeed in your
debt.”
Abby looked up and smiled. “Was that a letter you were just
reading? Could I look at it? I’ve never seen a letter
before.”
Gordon laughed. “Oh surely you’re not that young! What about
before the war?”
Abby blushed at his laughter. “I was only four when it
happened.
It was so frightening and confusing that I…I really don’t
remember much from before.”
Gordon blinked. Had it really been that long? Yes. Sixteen
years
was indeed enough time to have beautiful women in the world who
knew nothing but the dark age.
Amazing, he thought.
“All right, then.” He pushed the chair by his bed. Grinning,
she
came over and sat beside him. Gordon reached into the sack and
pulled out another of the frail, yellowed envelopes. Carefully, he
spread out the letter and handed it to her.
Abby looked at it so intently that he thought she was reading
the whole thing. She concentrated, her thin eyebrows almost coming
together in a crease on her forehead. But finally she handed the
letter back. “I guess I can’t really read that well. I mean, I can
read labels on cans, and stuff. But I never had much practice with
handwriting and… sentences.”
Her voice dropped at the end. She sounded embarrassed, but in
a
totally unafraid, trusting fashion, as if he were her
confessor.
He smiled. “No matter. I’ll tell you what it’s about.” He held
the letter up to the candlelight. Abby moved over to sit by his
knees on the edge of the bed, her eyes rapt on the
pages.
“It’s from one John Briggs, of Fort Rock, Oregon, to his
former
employer in Klamath Falls… I’d guess from the lathe and hobby
horse letterhead that Briggs was a retired machinist or carpenter
or something. Hmmm.”
Gordon concentrated on the barely legible handwriting. “It
seems
Mr. Briggs was a pretty nice man. Here he’s offering to take in his
ex-boss’s children, until the emergency is over. Also he says he
has a good garage machine shop, his own power, and plenty of metal
stock. He wants to know if the man wants to order any parts made
up, especially things in short supply…”
Gordon’s voice faltered. He was still so thick-headed from his
excesses that it had just struck him that a beautiful female was
sitting on his bed. The depression she made in the mattress tilted
his body toward her. He cleared his throat quickly and went back to
scanning the letter.
“Briggs mentions something about power levels from the Fort
Rock
reservoir… Telephones were out, but he was still, oddly
enough, getting Eugene on his computer data net…”
Abby looked at him. Apparently much of what he had said about
the letter writer might as well have been in a foreign language to
her. “Machine shop” and “data net” could have been ancient, magical
words of power.
“Why didn’t you bring us any letters, here in Pine View?” she
asked quite suddenly.
Gordon blinked at the non sequitur. The girl wasn’t stupid.
One
could tell such things. Then why had everything he said, when he
arrived here, and later at the party, been completely
misunderstood? She still thought he was a mailman,
as,
apparently, did all but a few of the others in this small
settlement.
From whom did she imagine they’d get mail?
She probably didn’t realize that the letters he carried had
been
sent long ago, from dead men and women to other dead men and women,
or that he carried them for… for his own
reasons.
The myth that had spontaneously developed here in Pine View
depressed Gordon. It was one more sign of the deterioration of
civilized minds, many of whom had once been high school and even
college graduates. He considered telling her the truth, as brutally
and frankly as he could, to stop this fantasy once and for all. He
started to.
“There aren’t any letters because…”
He paused. Again Gordon was aware of her nearness, the scent
of
her and the gentle curves of her body. Of her trust, as
well.
He sighed and looked away. “There aren’t any letters for you
folks because… because I’m coming west out of Idaho, and
nobody back there knows you, here in Pine View. From here I’m going
to the coast. There might even be some large towns left. Maybe…”
“Maybe someone down there will write to us, if we send them a
letter first!” Abby’s eyes were bright. “Then, when you pass this
way again, on your way back to Idaho, you could give us the letters
they send, and maybe do another play-act for us like tonight, and
we’ll have so much beer and pie for you you’ll bust!” She hopped a
little on the edge of the bed. “By then I’ll be able to read
better, I promise!”
Gordon shook his head and smiled. It was beyond his right to
dash such dreams. “Maybe so, Abby. Maybe so. But you know, you may
get to learn to read easier than that. Mrs. Thompson’s offered to
put it up for a vote to let me stay on here for a while. I guess
officially I’d be schoolteacher, though I’d have to prove myself as
good a hunter and farmer as anybody. I could give archery lessons…”
He stopped. Abby’s expression was open-mouthed in surprise.
She
shook her head vigorously. “But you haven’t heard! They voted on it
after you went to take your bath. Mrs. Thompson should be ashamed
of trying to bribe a man like you that way, with your important
work having to be done!”
He sat forward, not believing his ears. “What did you say?” He
had formed hopes of staying in Pine View for at least the cold
season, maybe a year or more. Who could tell? Perhaps the
wanderlust would leave him, and he could finally find a
home.
His sated stupor dissipated. Gordon fought to hold back his
anger. To have the chance revoked on the basis of the crowd’s
childish fantasies!
Abby noticed his agitation and hurried on. “That wasn’t the
only
reason, of course. There was the problem of there being no woman
for you. And then…” Her voice lowered perceptibly. “And then
Mrs. Hewlett thought you’d be perfect for helping me and Michael
finally have a baby…”
Gordon blinked. “Um,” he said, expressing the sudden and
complete contents of his mind.
“We’ve been trying for five years,” she explained. “We really
want children. But Mr. Horton thinks Michael can’t ‘cause he had
the mumps really bad when he was twelve. You
remember the
real bad mumps, don’t you?”
Gordon nodded, recalling friends who had died. The resultant
sterility had made for unusual social arrangements everywhere he
had traveled.
Still…
Abby went on quickly. “Well, it would cause problems if we
asked
any of the other men here to… to be the body father. I mean,
when you live close to people, like this, you have to look on the
men who aren’t your husband as not being really ‘men’… at least
not that way. I-I don’t think I’d like it, and it might cause
trouble.”
She blushed. “Besides, I’ll tell you something if you promise
to
keep a secret. I don’t think any of the other men would be able to
give Michael the kind of son he deserves. He’s really very smart,
you know. He’s the only one of us youngers who can really
read…”
The flow of strange logic was coming on too fast for Gordon to
follow completely. Part of him dispassionately noted that this was
all really an intricate and subtle tribal adaptation to a difficult
social problem. That part of him though-the last Twentieth-Century
intellectual-was still a bit drunk, and meanwhile the rest was
starting to realize what Abby was driving at.
“You’re different.” She smiled at him. “I mean, even Michael
saw
that right from the start. He’s not too happy, but he figures
you’ll only be through once a year or so, and he could stand that.
He’d rather that than never have any kids.”
Gordon cleared his throat. “You’re sure he feels this
way?”
“Oh, yes. Why do you think Mrs. Hewlett introduced us in that
funny way? It was to make it clear without really saying it out
loud. Mrs. Thompson doesn’t like it much, but I think that’s
because she wanted you to stay.”
Gordon’s mouth felt dry. “How do you feel about all
this?”
Her expression was enough of an answer. She looked at him as
if
he were some sort of visiting prophet, or at least a hero out of a
story book. “I’d be honored if you’d say yes,” she said, quietly,
and lowered her eyes.
“And you’d be able to think of me as a man, ‘that
way’?”
Abby grinned. She answered by crawling up on top of him and
planting her mouth intensely upon his.
• • •
There was a momentary pause as she shimmied out of her clothes
and Gordon turned to snuff out the candles on the bed stand. Beside
them lay the letterman’s gray uniform cap, its brass badge casting
multiple reflections of the dancing flames. The figure of a rider,
hunched forward on horseback before bulging saddle bags, seemed to
move at a flickering gallop.
This is another one I owe
you, Mr.
Postman.
Abby’s smooth skin slid along his side. Her hand slipped into
his as he took a deep breath and blew the candles
out.
6
For ten days, Gordon’s life followed a new pattern. As if to
catch up on six months’ road weariness, he slept late each morning
and awoke to find Abby gone, like the night’s
dreams.
Yet her warmth and scent lingered on the sheets when he
stretched and opened his eyes. The sunshine streaming through his
eastward-facing window was like something new, a springtime in his
heart, and not really early autumn at all.
He rarely saw her during the day as he washed and helped with
chores until noon-chopping and stacking wood for the community
supply and digging a deep pit for a new outhouse. When most of the
village gathered for the main meal of the day, Abby returned from
tending the flocks. But she spent lunchtime with the younger
children, relieving old one-legged Mr. Lothes, their work
supervisor. The little ones laughed as she kidded them, plucking
the wool that coated their clothes from a morning spent carding
skeins for the winter spinning, helping them keep the gray strands
out of their food.
She barely glanced at Gordon, but that brief smile was enough.
He knew he had no rights beyond these few days, and yet a shared
look in the daylight made him feel that it was all real, and not
just a dream.
Afternoons he conferred with Mrs. Thompson and the other
village
leaders, helping them inventory books and other long-neglected
salvage. At intervals, he gave reading and archery
lessons.
One day he and Mrs. Thompson traded methods in the art of
field
medicine while treating a man clawed by a “tiger,” what the locals
called that new strain of mountain lion which had bred with
leopards escaped from zoos in the postwar chaos. The trapper had
surprised the beast with its kill, but fortunately, it had only
batted him into the brush and let him run away. Gordon and the
village matriarch felt sure the wound would heal.
In the evenings all of Pine View gathered in the big garage
and
Gordon recited stories by Twain and Sayles and Keillor. He led them
in singing old folk songs and lovingly remembered commercial
jingles, and in playing “Remember When.” Then it was time for
drama.
Dressed in scrap and foil, he was John Paul Jones, shouting
defiance from the deck of the Bonne Homme Richard.
He was
Anton Perceveral, exploring the dangers of a faraway world and the
depths of his own potential with a mad robot companion. And he was
Doctor Hudson, wading through the horror of the Kenyan Conflict to
treat the victims of biological war.
At first Gordon always felt uneasy, putting on a flimsy
costume
and stomping across the makeshift stage waving his arms, shouting
lines only vaguely recalled or made up on the spot. He had never
really admired play-acting as a profession, even before the great
war.
But it had got him halfway across a continent, and he was good
at it. He felt the rapt gaze of the audience, their hunger for
wonder and something of the world beyond their narrow valley, and
their eagerness warmed him to the task. Pox-scarred and
wounded-bent from year after year of back-breaking labor merely to
survive-they looked up, the need greatest in eyes clouded with age,
a yearning for help doing what they could no longer accomplish
alone- remembering.
Wrapped in his roles, he gave them bits and pieces of lost
romance. And by the time the last lines of his soliloquy faded, he
too was able to forget the present, at least for a
while.
Each night, after he retired, she came to him. For a while she
would sit on the edge of his bed and talk of her life, about the
flocks, and the village children, and Michael. She brought him
books to ask their meanings and questioned him about his
youth-about the life of a student in the wonderful days before the
Doomwar.
Then, after a time, Abby would smile, put away the dusty
volumes, and slide under the covers next to him while he leaned
over and took care of the candle.
On the tenth morning, she did not slip away with the predawn
light, but instead wakened Gordon with a kiss.
“Hmmmn, good morning,” he commented, and reached for her, but
Abby pulled away. She picked up her clothes, brushing her breasts
across the soft hairs of his flat stomach.
“I should let you sleep,” she told him. “But I wanted to ask
you
something.” She held her dress in a ball.
“Mmm? What is it?” Gordon stuffed the pillow behind his head
for
support.
“You’re going to be leaving today, aren’t you?” she
asked.
“Yes,” he nodded seriously. “It’s probably best I’d like to
stay
longer, but since I can’t, I’d better be heading west
again.”
“I know,” she nodded seriously. “We’ll all hate to see you go.
But… well, I’m going to meet Michael out at the trapline, this
evening. I miss him terribly.” She touched the side of his face.
“That doesn’t bother you, does it? I mean, it’s been wonderful here
with you, but he’s my husband and…”
He smiled and covered her hand. To his amazement, he had
little
difficulty with his feelings. He was more envious than jealous of
Michael. The desperate logic of their desire for children, and
their obvious love for one another, made the situation, in
retrospect, as obvious as the need for a clean break at the end. He
only hoped he had done them the favor they sought. For despite
their fantasies, it was unlikely he would ever come this way
again.
“I have something for you,” Abby said. She reached under the
bed
and pulled out a small silvery object on a chain, and a paper
package.
“It’s a whistle. Mrs. Hewlett says you should have one.” She
slipped it over his neck and adjusted it until satisfied with the
effect.
“Also, she helped me write this letter.”
Abby picked up
the little package. “I found some stamps in a drawer in the gas
station, but they wouldn’t stick on. So I got some money, instead.
This is fourteen dollars. Will it be enough?”
She held out a cluster of faded bills.
Gordon couldn’t help smiling. Yesterday five or six of the
others had privately approached him. He had accepted their little
envelopes and similar payments for postage with as straight a face
as possible. He might have used the opportunity to charge them
something he needed, but the community had already given him a
month’s stock of jerky, dried apples, and twenty straight arrows
for his bow. There was no need, nor had he the desire to extort
anything else.
Some of the older citizens had had relatives in Eugene, or
Portland, or towns in the Willamette Valley. It was the direction
he was heading, so he took the letters. A few were addressed to
people who had lived in Oakridge and Blue River. Those he filed
deep in the safest part of his sack. The rest, he might as well
throw into Crater Lake, for all the good they would ever do, but he
pretended anyway.
He soberly counted out a few paper bills, then handed back the
rest of the worthless currency. “And who are you writing to?”
Gordon asked Abby as he took the letter. He felt as if he were
playing Santa Claus, and found himself enjoying it.
“I’m writing to the University. You know, at Eugene? I asked a
bunch of questions like, are they taking new students again yet?
And do they take married students?” Abby blushed. “I know I’d have
to work real hard on my reading to get good enough. And maybe they
aren’t recovered enough to take many new students. But Michael’s
already so smart… and by the time we hear from them maybe
things will be better.”
“By the time you hear…” Gordon shook his
head.
Abby nodded. “I’ll for sure be reading a lot better by then.
Mrs. Thompson promises she’ll help me. And her husband has agreed
to start a school, this winter. I’m going to help with the little
kids.
“I hope maybe I can learn to be a teacher. Do you think that’s
silly?”
Gordon shook his head. He had thought himself beyond surprise,
but this touched him. In spite of Abby’s totally disproportioned
view of the state of the world, her hope wanned him, and he found
himself dreaming along with her. There was no harm in wishing, was
there?
“Actually,” Abby went on, confidentially, twisting her dress
in
her hands. “One of the big reasons I’m writing is to get a… a
pen pal. That’s the word, isn’t it? I’m hoping maybe someone in
Eugene will write to me. That way we’ll get letters, here. I’d love
to get a letter.
“Also”-her gaze fell-“that will give you another reason to
come
back, in a year or so… besides maybe wanting to see the
baby.”
She looked up and dimpled. “I got the idea from your Sherlock
Holmes play. That’s an ‘ulterior motive,’ isn’t it?”
She was so delighted with her own cleverness, and so eager for
his approval-Gordon felt a great, almost painful rush of
tenderness. Tears welled as he reached out and pulled her into an
embrace. He held her tightly and rocked slowly, his eyes shut
against reality, and he breathed in with her sweet smell a light
and optimism he had thought gone from the world.
7
“Well, this is where I turn back.” Mrs. Thompson shook hands
with Gordon. “Down this road things should be pretty tame until you
get to Davis Lake. The last of the old loner survivalists that way
wiped each other out some years back, though I’d still be careful
if I were you.”
There was a chill in the air, for autumn had arrived in full.
Gordon zipped up the old letter carrier’s jacket and adjusted the
leather bag as the straight-backed old woman handed him an old
roadmap.
“I had Jimmie Horton mark the places we know of, where
homesteaders have set up. I wouldn’t bother any of them unless you
have to. Mostly they’re a suspicious type, likely to shoot first.
We’ve only been trading with the nearest for a short
time.”
Gordon nodded. He folded the map carefully and slipped it into
a
pouch. He felt rested and ready. He would regret leaving Pine View
as much as any haven in recent memory. But now that he was resigned
to going, he actually felt a growing eagerness to be traveling, to
see what had happened in the rest of Oregon.
In the years since he had left the wreckage of Minnesota, he
had
found ever wilder signs of the dark age. But now he was in a new
watershed. This had once been a pleasant state with dispersed light
industry, productive farms, and an elevated level of culture.
Perhaps it was merely Ab-by’s innocence infecting him. But
logically, the Willamette Valley would be the place to look for
civilization, if it existed anywhere anymore.
He took the old woman’s hand once again. “Mrs. Thompson, I’m
not
sure I could ever repay what you people have done for
me.”
She shook her head. Her face was deeply tanned and so wrinkled
Gordon was certain she had to be more than the fifty years she
claimed.
“No, Gordon, you paid your keep. I would’ve liked it if you
could’ve stayed and helped me get the school going. But now I see
maybe it won’t be so hard to do it by ourselves.”
She gazed out over her little valley. “You know, we’ve been
living in a kind of a daze, these last years since the crops have
started coming in and the hunting’s returned. You can tell how bad
things have gotten when a bunch of grown men and women, who once
had jobs, who read magazines-and filled out their own taxes, for
Heaven’s sake-start treating a poor, battered, wandering play-actor
as if he was something like the Easter Bunny.” She looked back at
him. “Even Jim Horton gave you a couple of ‘letters’ to deliver,
didn’t he?”
Gordon’s face felt hot. For a moment he was too embarrassed to
face her. Then, all at once, he burst out laughing. He wiped his
eyes in relief at having the group fantasy lifted from his
shoulders.
Mrs. Thompson chuckled as well. “Oh, it was harmless I think.
And more than that. You’ve served as a… you know, that old
automobile thing… a catalyst I think. You
know, the
children are already exploring ruins for miles around-between
chores and supper-bringing me all the books they find. I won’t have
any trouble making school into a privilege.
“Imagine, punishing them by suspending
‘em from class!
I hope Bobbie and I handle it right.”
“I wish you the best of luck, Mrs. Thompson,” Gordon said
sincerely. “God, it would be nice to see a light, somewhere in all
this desolation.”
“Right, son. That’d be bliss.”
Mrs. Thompson sighed. “I’d recommend you wait a year, but come
on back. You’re kind… you treated my people well. And you’re
discreet about some things, like that business with Abby and
Michael.”
She frowned momentarily. “I think I
understand what
went on there, and I guess it’s for the best. Got to adjust, I
suppose. Anyway, like I said, you’re always welcome
back.”
Mrs. Thompson turned to go, walked two paces, then paused. She
half turned to look back at Gordon. For a moment her face betrayed
a hint of confusion and wonder. “You aren’t really
a
postman, are you?” she asked suddenly.
Gordon smiled. He set the cap, with its bright brass emblem,
on
his head. “If I bring back some letters, you’ll know for
sure.”
She nodded, gruffly, then set off up the ruined asphalt road.
Gordon watched her until she passed the first bend, then he turned
about to the west, and the long downgrade toward the
Pacific.
8
The barricades had been long abandoned. The baffle wall on
Highway 58, at the east end of Oakridge, had weathered into a
tumbled tell of concrete debris and curled, rusting steel. The town
itself was silent. This end, at least, was clearly long
abandoned.
Gordon looked down the main street, reading its story. Two,
possibly three, pitched battles had been fought here. A storefront
with a canted sign-emergency services clinic-sat at the center of a
major circle of devastation.
Three intact panes reflected morning sunlight from the top
floor
of a hotel. Elsewhere though, even where store windows had been
boarded, the prismatic sparkle of shattered glass glistened on the
buckled pavement.
Not that he had really expected anything better, but some of
the
feelings he had carried with him out of Pine View had led to hopes
for more islands of peace, especially now that he was in the
fertile watershed of the Willamette Valley. If no living town, at
least Oakridge might have shown other signs conducive to optimism.
There might have been traces of methodical reclamation, for
instance. If an industrial civilization existed here in Oregon,
towns such as this one should have been harvested of anything
usable.
But just twenty yards from his vantage point Gordon saw the
wreckage ef a gas station-a big mechanic’s tool cabinet lay on its
side, its store of wrenches, pliers, and replacement wiring
scattered on the oil-stained floor. A row of never-used tires still
hung on a rack high above the service lifts.
From this, Gordon knew Oakridge to be the worst of all
possible
Oakridges, at least from his point of view. The things needed by a
machine culture were available at every hand, untouched and
rotting… implying there was no such technological society
anywhere
near. At the same time, he would have to pick through the wreckage
of fifty waves of previous looters in his search for anything
useful to a single traveler like himself.
Well, he sighed. I’ve done it
before,
Even sifting through the downtown ruins of Boise, the gleaners
before him had missed a small treasure trove of canned food in a
loft behind a shoe store… some hoarder’s stash, long
untouched. There was a pattern to such things, worked out over the
years. He had his own methods for conducting a
search.
Gordon slipped down on the forest side of the barricade baffle
and entered the overgrowth. He zigzagged, on the off chance he had
been watched. At a place where he could verify landmarks in three
different directions, Gordon dropped his leather shoulder bag and
cap under an autumn-bright red cedar. He took off the dark brown
letter carrier’s jacket and laid it on top, then cut brush to cover
the cache.
He would go to any lengths to avoid conflict with suspicious
locals, but only a fool would leave his weapons behind. There were
two types of fighting that could come out of a situation like this.
For one, the silence of the bow might be better. For the other, it
could be worth expending precious, irreplaceable .38 cartridges.
Gordon checked the pistol’s action and reholstered it. His bow he
carried, along with arrows and a cloth sack for
salvage.
In the first few houses, on the outskirts, the early looters
had
been more exuberant than thorough. Often the wreckage in such
places discouraged those who came after, leaving useful items
within. He had found it true often before.
Still, by the fourth house Gordon had a poor collection to
show
for this theory. His sack contained a pair of boots almost useless
from mildew, a magnifying glass, and two spools of thread. He had
poked into all the usual and some unconventional hoarder’s
crannies, and found no food of any sort.
His Pine View jerky wasn’t gone, but he had dipped down
farther
than he liked. His archery was better, and he had bagged a small
turkey two days ago. Still, if he didn’t have better luck gleaning,
he might have to give up on the Willamette Valley for now and get
to work on a winter hunting camp.
What he really wanted was another haven
such as Pine
View. But fate had been kind enough, lately. Too much good luck
made Gordon suspicious.
He moved on to a fifth house.
The four-poster bed stood in what had once been a prosperous
physician’s two-story home. Like the rest of the house, the bedroom
had been stripped of nearly everything but the furniture.
Nevertheless, as he crouched down over the heavy area rug, Gordon
thought he might have found something the earlier looters had
missed.
The rug seemed out of place. The bed rested upon it, but only
with the right pair of legs. The left pair lay directly on the
hardwood floor. Either the owner had been sloppy in placing the
big, oval carpet, or…
Gordon put down his burdens and grabbed the edge of the
rug.
Whew. It’s heavy.
He started rolling it toward the bed.
Yes! There was a thin, square crack in
the floor, under
the carpet. A bed leg pinned the rug over one of two brass door
hinges. A trapdoor.
He pushed hard on the bedpost. The leg hopped and fell again
with a boom. Twice more he shoved and loud echoes
reverberated.
On his fourth heave the bedpost snapped in two. Gordon barely
escaped impalement on the jagged stub as he toppled onto the
mattress. The canopy followed and the aged bed collapsed in a
crash. Gordon cursed, fighting with the smothering shroud. He
sneezed violently in a cloud of floating dust.
Finally, regaining a bit of sense, he managed to slither out
from under the ancient, moldy fabric. He stumbled out of the room,
still sputtering and sneezing. The attack subsided slowly. He
gripped the upstairs bannister, squinting in that torturous,
semi-orgasmic state that comes before a whopping sternutation. His
ears rang with an extra murmur that seemed almost like
voices.
Next thing you’ll be hearing churchbells,
he told
himself.
The final sneeze came at last, in a loud “Ah- chblthooh!”
Wiping
his eyes, he reentered the bedroom. The trapdoor lay fully exposed,
layered under a new coating of dust. Gordon had to pry the edge of
the secret panel. Finally, it lifted with a high, rusty
skreigh.
Again, it seemed as though some of the sound came from
outside the house. But when he stopped and
listened
carefully, Gordon heard nothing. Impatiently, he bent down and
brushed aside cobwebs to peer into the cache.
There was a large metal box inside. He poked around hoping for
more. After all, the things a prewar doctor might have kept in a
locked chest-money and documents- would be of less use to him than
canned goods stashed here in a spree of wartime hoarding. But there
was nothing other than the box. Gordon hauled it out,
puffing.
Good. It’s heavy. Now lei’s hope it’s not gold or
any
similar crap. The hinges and lock were rusted. He lifted the
haft of his knife to smash the small lock. Then he stopped
abruptly.
Now they were unmistakable. The voices were close, too
close.
“I think it came from this house!” someone called from the
overgrown garden outside. Feet shuffled through the dry leaves.
There were steps on the wooden porch,
Gordon sheathed the knife and snatched up his
gear.
Leaving the box by the bed, he hurried out of the room to the
stairwell.
This was not the best of circumstances to meet other men. In
Boise and other mountain ruins there had been almost a
code-gleaners from ranches all around could try their luck in the
open city, and although the groups and individuals were wary, they
seldom preyed on one another. Only one thing could bring them all
together-a rumor that someone had sighted a Holnist, somewhere.
Otherwise they pretty much left each other alone.
In other places, though, territoriality was the rule-and
fiercely enforced. Gordon might be searching in some such clan’s
turf. A quick departure would, in any case, be
discreet.
Still… he looked back at the strongbox
anxiously.
It‘s mine, damnit!
Boots clomped noisily downstairs. It was too late to close the
trapdoor or hide the heavy treasure chest. Gordon cursed silently
and hurried as quietly as he could across the upstairs landing to
the narrow attic ladder.
The top floor was little more than a simple, A-frame garret.
He
had searched among the useless mementos here earlier. Now all he
wanted was a hiding place. Gordon kept near the sloping walls to
avoid creaks in the floorboards. He chose a trunk near a small,
gabled window, and there laid his sack and quiver. Quickly, he
strung his bow.
Would they search? In that case, the strongbox would certainly
attract attention.
If so, would they take it as an offering and leave him a share
of whatever it contained? He had known such things to happen, in
places where a primitive sort of honor system
worked.
He had the drop on anyone entering the attic, although it was
dubious how much good that would do-cornered in a wooden building.
The locals doubtless retained, even in the middle of a dark age,
the craft of Fire making.
At least three pairs of booted feet could be heard now. In
rapid, hollow steps, they took the stairs, skirmishing up one
landing at a time. When everyone was on the second floor, Gordon
heard a shout.
“Hey Karl, looka this!”
“What? You catch a couple of the kids playing doctor in an old
bed ag… sheeit!”
There was a loud thump, followed by the hammering of metal on
metal.
“Sheeit!” Gordon shook his head. Karl had a limited but
expressive vocabulary.
There were shuffling and tearing sounds, accompanied by more
scatalogical exclamations. At last, though, a third voice spoke up
loudly.
“Sure was nice of that fellow, findin‘ this for us. Wish we
could thank him. Ought to get to know him so we don’t shoot first
if we ever see him again.”
If that was bait, Gordon wasn’t taking. He
waited.
“Well, at least he deserves a warning,” the first voice said
even louder. “We got a shoot first rule, in Oakridge. He better
scat before someone puts a hole in him bigger than the gap between
a survivalist’s ears.”
Gordon nodded, taking the warning at face value.
The footsteps receded. They echoed“ down the stairwell, then
out
onto the wooden porch.
From the gable overlooking the front entrance, Gordon saw
three
men leave the house and walk toward the surrounding hemlock grove.
They carried rifles and bulging canvas day packs. He hurried to the
other windows as they disappeared into the woods, but saw no other
motion. No signs of anyone doubling back from another
side.
There had been three pairs of feet. He was sure of it. Three
voices. And it wasn’t likely only one man would stay in ambush,
anyway. Still, Gordon was careful as he moved out. He lay down
beside the open attic trapdoor, his bow, bag, and quiver next to
him, and crawled until his head and shoulders extended out over the
opening, slightly above the level of the floor. He drew his
revolver, held it out in front of him, and then let gravity swing
his head and torso suddenly downward in a fashion an ambusher would
hardly expect.
As the blood rushed to his head Gordon was primed to snap off
six quick shots at anything that moved.
Nothing did. There was nobody in the second-floor
hallway.
He reached for his canvas bag, never taking his gaze from the
hallway, and dropped it to clatter on the landing.
The sound triggered no ambush.
Gordon took up his gear and dropped to the next level in a
crouch. He quickly moved down the hall,
skirmish-style.
The strongbox lay open and empty next to the bed, beside it a
scattering of paper trash. As he had expected, there were such
curiosities as stock certificates, a stamp collection, and the deed
to this house.
But some of the other debris was different.
A torn cardboard container, the celophane wrapper newly
removed,
colorfully depicted a pair of happy canoeists with their new,
collapsible rifle. Gordon looked at the weapon pictured on the box
and stifled a strangled cry. Doubtless there had also been boxes of
ammunition.
Goddamn thieves, he thought bitterly.
But the other trash almost drove him wild. empirin WITH
CODEINE, ERYTHROMYCIN, MEGAVITAMIN COMPLEX, morphine… the labels
and
boxes were strewn about, but the bottles had been
taken.
Carefully handled… cached and traded in dribbles…
these
could have bought Gordon admission into almost any hamlet. Why he
might even have won a probationary membership in one of the wealthy
Wyoming ranch communities!
He remembered a good doctor, whose clinic in the ruins of
Butte
was a sanctuary protected by all the surrounding villages and
clans. Gordon thought of what that sainted gentleman could have
done with these.
But his eyesight nearly went dim with dark tunnels of rage
when
he saw an empty cardboard box whose label read
… TOOTH POWDER…
My tooth powder!
Gordon counted to ten. It wasn’t enough. He tried controlled
breathing. It only helped him focus on his anger. He stood there,
slope-shouldered, feeling impotent to answer this one more
unkindness by the world.
It’s all right, he told himself. I’m
alive. And if I can get back to my backpack, I’ll probably
stay
alive. Next year, if it comes, I can worry about my teeth rotting
out of my head.
Gordon picked up his gear and resumed his stalking exit out of
that house of false expectations.
A man who spends a long time alone in the wilderness can have
one great advantage over even a very good hunter-if that hunter
nevertheless goes home to friends and companions most nights. The
difference is a trait in kinship with the animals, with the wilds
themselves. It was something as undefinable as that which made him
nervous. Gordon sensed that something was odd long before he could
attribute it. The feeling would not go away.
He had been retracing his steps toward the eastern edge of
town,
where his gear was cached. Now, though, he stopped and considered.
Was he overreacting? He was no Jeremiah Johnson, to read the sounds
and smells of the woods like streetsigns in a city. Still, he
looked around for something to back up his unease.
The forest was mostly western hemlock and bigleaf maple with
alder saplings growing like weeds in nearly every former open area.
It was a far cry from the dry woodlands he had passed through on
the east side of the Cascades, where he had been robbed under the
sparse ponderosa pines. Here there was a scent of life richer than
anything he remembered since before the Three-Year
Winter.
Animal sounds had been scant until he stopped moving. But as
he
kept still, a flow of avian chatter and movement soon began to flow
back into this patch of forest. Gray-feathered camp robbers flitted
in small groups from spot to spot, playing guerrilla war with
lesser jays for the best of the tiny, bug-rich glades. Smaller
birds hopped from branch to branch, chirping and
foraging.
Birds in this size range had no great love for man, but
neither
did they go to great lengths to avoid him, if he was
quiet.
Then why am I nervous as a cat?
There was a brief snapping sound to his left, near one of the
ubiquitous blackberry thickets, about twenty yards away. Gordon
whirled, but there, too, there were birds.
Correction. A bird. A mockingbird.
The creature swooped up through the branches and landed in a
bundle of twigs Gordon guessed to be its nest. It stood there, like
a small lordling, haughty and proud, then it squawked and dove
toward the thicket again. As it passed out of sight, there was
another tiny rustle, then the mockingbird swooped into view
again.
Gordon idly picked at the loam with his bow while loosening
the
loop on his revolver, trying hard to maintain a frozen expression
of nonchalance. He whistled through fear-dry lips as he walked
slowly, moving neither toward the thicket nor away from it, but in
the direction of a large grand fir.
Something behind that thicket had set off the mockingbird’s
nest
defense response, and that something was trying hard to ignore the
nuisance attacks-to stay silently hidden.
Alerted, Gordon recognized a hunting blind. He sauntered with
exaggerated carelessness. But as soon as he passed behind the fir,
he drew his revolver and ran into the forest at a sharp angle,
crouching, trying to keep the bulk of the tree between himself and
the blackberry bramble.
He remained in the tree’s umbra only a moment. Surprise
protected him a moment longer. Then the cracking of three loud
shots, all of different caliber, diffracted down the lattice of
trees. Gordon sprinted to a fallen log at the top of a small rise.
Three more bangs pealed out as he dove over the decaying trunk, and
hit the ground on the other side to a sharp snapping sound and
stabbing pain in his right arm.
He felt a moment’s blind panic as the hand holding his
revolver
cramped. If he had broken his arm . . .
Blood soaked the cuff of his U.S. Government Issue tunic.
Dread
exaggerated the pain until he pulled back his sleeve and saw a
long, shallow gash, with slivers of wood hanging from the
laceration. It was the bow that had broken, stabbing him as he fell
on it.
Gordon threw the fragments aside and scrambled on hands and
knees up a narrow gully to the right, keeping low to take advantage
of the creekbed and underbrush. Behind him whoops of gleeful chase
carried over the tiny hillock.
The following minutes were a blur of whipping branches and
sudden zigzags. When he splashed into a narrow rivulet, Gordon
whirled, then hurried against the flow.
Hunted men often will run downstream, he remembered, racing
upslope, hoping his enemies knew that bit of trivia. He hopped from
stone to stone, trying not to dislodge mud into the water. Then he
jumped off into the forest again.
There were shouts behind him. Gordon’s own footfalls seemed
loud
enough to wake sleeping bears. Twice, he caught his breath behind
boulders or clumps of foliage, thinking as well as practicing
silence.
Finally, the shouts diminished with distance. Gordon sighed as
he settled back against a large oak and pulled out his belt-pouch
aid kit. The wound would be all right. There was no reason to
expect infection from the polished wood of the bow. It hurt like
hell but the tear was far from vessels or tendons. He bound it in
boiled cloth and simply ignored the pain as he got up and looked
around.
To his surprise, he recognized two landmarks at once… the
towering, shattered sign of the Oakridge Motel, seen over the
treetops, and a cattle grate across a worn asphalt path just to the
east.
Gordon moved quickly to the place where he had cached his
goods.
They were exactly as he had left them. Apparently, the Fates were
not so unsubtle as to deal him another blow just yet. He knew they
didn’t operate that way. They always let you hope for a while
longer, then strung it out before they really let
you have
it.
• • •
Now the stalked turned stalker. Cautiously, Gordon sought out
the blackberry blind, with its irate resident mockingbird. As
expected, it was empty now. He crept around behind to get the
ambushers’ point of view, and sat there for a few minutes as the
afternoon waned, looking and thinking.
They had had the drop on him, that was for certain. From this
point of view it was hard to see how they had missed when the three
men fired on him.
Were they so surprised by his sudden break for it? They must
have had semi-automatic weapons, yet he only remembered six shots.
Either they were being very stingy with ammo or…
He approached the grand fir across the clearing. Two fresh
scars
blemished the bark, ten feet up.
Ten feet. They couldn’t be such bad
marksmen.
So. It all fit. They had never meant to kill him at all. They
had aimed high on purpose, to give him a scare and drive him off.
No wonder his pursuers never really came close to catching him
during his escape into the forest.
Gordon’s lip curled. Ironically, this made his assailants
easier
to hate. Unthinking malice he had come to accept, as one must
accept foul weather and savage beasts. So many former Americans had
become little better than barbarians.
But calculated contempt like this was
something he had
to take personally. These men had the concept of mercy; still they
had robbed, injured, and terrorized him.
He remembered Roger Septien, taunting him from that bone-dry
hillside. These bastards were no better at all
Gordon picked up their trail a hundred yards to the west of
the
blind. The bootprints were clear and uncovered… almost
arrogant in their openness.
He took his time, but he never even considered turning
back.
It was approaching dusk before the palisade that surrounded
New
Oakridge was in sight. An open area that had once been a city park
was enclosed by a high, wooden fence.
From within could be heard the lowing of cattle. A horse
whinnied. Gordon smelled hay and the rich odors of
livestock.
Nearby a still higher pallisade surrounded three blocks of
what
had once been the southwest corner of Oakridge town. A row of
two-story buildings half a block long took up the center of the
village. Gordon could see the tops of these over the wall, and a
water tower with a crow’s nest atop it. A silhouetted figure stood
watch, looking out over the dimming forest.
It looked like a prosperous community, perhaps the best-off he
had encountered since leaving Idaho.
Trees had been cut to make a free-fire zone around the village
wall, but that was some time ago. Undergrowth half as high as a man
had encroached on the cleared field.
Well there can’t be many survivalists in the area,
anymore, Gordon thought, or they’d be a whole lot
less
careless.
Let’s see what the main entrance is
like.
He skirted around the open area toward the south side of the
village. On hearing voices he drew up cautiously behind a curtain
of undergrowth.
A large wooden gate swung open. Two armed men sauntered out,
looked around, then waved to someone within. With a shout and a
snap of reins, a wagon pulled by two draft horses sallied through
then stopped. The driver turned to speak to the two
guards.
“Tell the Mayor I appreciate the loan, Jeff. I know my stead
is
in the hole pretty deep. But we’ll pay him back out of next year’s
harvest, for sure. He already owns a piece of the farm, so it ought
to be a good investment for him.”
One of the guards nodded. “Sure thing, Sonny. Now you be
careful
on your way out, okay? Some of the boys spotted a loner down at the
east end of old town, today. There was some
shootin‘.”
The farmer’s breath caught audibly. “Was anyone hurt? Are you
sure it was just a loner?”
“Yeah, pretty sure. He ran like a rabbit according to
Bob.”
Gordon’s pulse pounded faster. The insults had reached a point
almost beyond bearing. He put his left hand inside his shirt and
felt the whistle Abby had given him, hanging from its chain around
his neck. He took some comfort from it, remembering
decency.
“The feller did the Mayor a real favor, though,” the first
guard
went on. “Found a hidey hole full of drugs before Bob’s guys drove
him off. Mayor’s going to pass some of them around to some of the
Owners at a party tonight, to find out what they’ll do. I sure wish
I moved in those circles.”
“Me too,” the younger watchman agreed. “Hey Sonny, you think
the
Mayor might pay you some of your bonus in drugs, if you make quota
this year? You could have a real party!”
“Sonny” smiled sheepishly and shrugged. Then, for some reason,
his head drooped. The older guard looked at him
quizzically.
“What’s the matter?” he asked.
Sonny shook his head. Gordon could barely hear him when he
spoke. “We don’t wish for very much anymore, do we,
Gary?”
Gary frowned. “What do you mean?”
“I mean as long as we’re wishing to be like the Mayor’s
cronies,
why don’t we wish we had a Mayor without cronies at
all!”
“I…”
“Sally and I had three girls and two boys before th‘ Doom,
Gary.”
“I remember, Sonny, but-”
“Hal an‘ Peter died in th’ war, but I counted me an‘ Sally
blessed that all three girls grew up. Blessed!”
“Sonny, it’s not your fault. It was just bad
luck.”
“Bad luck?”The farmer snorted. “One
raped to death when
those reavers came through, Peggy dead in childbirth, and my little
Susan… she’s got gray hair, Gary. She looks
like
Sally’s sister!”
There was a long stretch of silence. The older guard put his
hand on the farmer’s arm. “I’ll bring a jug around tomorrow, Sonny,
I promise. We’ll talk about the old days, like we used
to.”
The farmer nodded without looking up. He shouted “Yaah!” and
snapped the reins.
For a long moment the guard looked after the creaking wagon,
chewing on a grass stem. Finally, he turned to his younger
companion. “Jimmy, did I ever tell you about Portland? Sonny and I
used to go there, before the war. They had this mayor, back when I
was a kid, who used to pose for…”
They passed through the gate, out of Gordon’s
hearing.
Under other circumstances Gordon might have pondered hours
over
what that one small conversation had revealed about the social
structure of Oakridgc and its environs. The farmer’s crop
indebtedness, for instance-it was a classic early stage of
share-kind serfdom. He had read about things like this in sophomore
history tutorial, long ago and in another world. They were features
of feudalism.
But right now Gordon had no time for philosophy or sociology.
His emotions churned. Outrage over what had happened today was
nothing next to his anger over the proposed use of the drugs he had
found. When he thought of what that doctor in Wyoming could do with
such medicines… why most of the substances wouldn’t even make
these ignorant savages high!
Gordon was fed up. His bandaged right arm
throbbed.
I’ll bet I could scale those walls without’much
trouble,
find the storage hut, and reclaim what I found… along with
some extra to make up for the insults, the pain, my broken
bow.
The image wasn’t satisfying enough. Gordon embellished. He
envisioned dropping in on the Mayor’s “party,” and wasting
all the power-hungry bastards who were making a midget empire out
of this corner of the dark age. He imagined acquiring power, power
to do good… power to force these yokels to
use the
education of their younger days before the learned generation
disappeared forever from the world.
Why, why is nobody anywhere
taking responsibility
for putting things right again? I’d help. I’d dedicate my life to
such a leader.
But the big dreams all seem to be gone. All the good
men-like Lieutenant Van and Drew Simms-died
defending them. I must be the only one left who still believes in
them.
Leaving was out of the question, of course. A combination of
pride, obstinacy, and simple gonadal fury rooted him in his tracks.
Here he would do battle, and that was that.
Maybe there’s an idealists’ militia, in Heaven or in
Hell. I
guess I’ll find out soon.
Fortunately, the war hormones left a little space for his
forebrain to choose tactics. As the afternoon
faded, he
thought about what he was going to do.
Gordon stepped back into the shadows and a branch brushed by,
dislodging his cap. He caught it before it fell to the ground, was
about to put it back on, but then stopped abruptly and looked at
it.
The burnished image of a horseman glinted back at him, a brass
figure backed by a ribbon motto in Latin. Gordon watched shifting
highlights in the shiny emblem, and slowly, he
smiled.
It would be audacious-perhaps much more so than attempting the
fence in the darkness. But the idea had a pleasing symmetry that
appealed to Gordon. He was probably the last man alive who would
choose a path of greater danger purely for aesthetic reasons, and
he was glad. If the scheme failed, it would still be
spectacular.
It required a brief foray into the ruins of old
Oakridge-beyond
the postwar village-to a structure certain to be among the least
looted in town. He set the cap back on his head as he moved to take
advantage of the remaining light.
An hour later, Gordon left the gutted buildings of the old
town
and stepped briskly along the pitted asphalt road, retracing his
steps in the gathering dusk. Taking a long detour through the
forest, he came at last to the road “Sonny” had used, south of the
village wall. Now he approached boldly, guided by a solitary
lantern hanging over the broad gate.
The guard was criminally lax. Gordon came within thirty feet
unchallenged. He saw a shadowy sentry, standing on a parapet over
near the far end of the palisade, but the idiot was looking the
other way.
Gordon took a deep breath, put Abby’s whistle to his lips, and
blew three hard blasts. The shrill screams pealed through the
buildings and forest like the shriek of a stooping raptor. Hurried
footsteps pounded along the parapet. Three men carrying shotguns
and oil lanterns appeared above the gate and stared down at him in
the gathering twilight.
“Who are you? What do you want?”
“I must speak with someone in authority,” Gordon hailed, “This
is official business, and I demand entry to the town of
Oakridge!”
That certainly put them off their
routine. There was a
long, stunned silence as the guards blinked, first at him and then
at each other. Finally, one man hurried off while the first speaker
cleared his throat. “Uh, come again? Are you feverish? Have you got
the Sickness?”
Gordon shook his head. “I am not ill. I am tired and hungry.
And
angry over being shot at. But settling all that can wait until I
have discharged my duty here.”
This time the chief guard’s voice cracked in blank perplexity.
“Dis-discharged your… What the hell are you
talking
about, man?”
Hurried footsteps echoed on the parapet. Several more men
arrived, followed by a number of children and women who began to
string out to the left and right. Discipline, apparently, wasn’t
well practiced in Oakridge. The local tyrant and his cronies had
had things their way for a long time.
Gordon repeated himself. Slowly and firmly, giving it his best
Polonius voice.
“I demand to speak with your superiors. You are trying my
patience keeping me out here, and it will definitely go into my
report. Now get somebody here with authority to open this
gate!”
The crowd thickened until an unbroken forest of silhouettes
topped the palisade. They stared down at Gordon as a group of
figures appeared on the parapet to the right, carrying lanterns.
The onlookers on that side made way for the
newcomers.
“Look, loner,” the chief guard said, “you’re just asking for a
bullet. We got no ‘official business’ with anyone
outside
this valley, haven’t since we broke relations with that commie
place down at Blakeville, years ago. You can bet your ass I’m not
bothering the Mayor for some crazy…”
The man turned in surprise as the party of dignitaries reached
the gate. “Mr. Mayor… I’m sorry about the ruckus, but…”
“I was nearby anyway. Heard the commotion. What’s going on
here?”
The guard gestured. “We got a fellow out there babbling like
nothing I’ve heard since the crazy times. He must be sick, or one
of those loonies that always used to come through.”
“I’ll take care of this.”
In the growing darkness the new figure leaned over the
parapet.
“I’m the Mayor of Oakridge,” he announced. “We don’t believe in
charity, here. But if you’re that fellow who found the goodies this
afternoon, and graciously donated them to my boys, I’ll admit we
owe you. I’ll have a nice hot meal lowered over the gate. And a
blanket. You can sleep there by the road. Tomorrow, though, you
gotta be gone. We don’t want no diseases here. And from what my
guards tell me, you must be delirious.”
Gordon smiled. “Your generosity impresses me, Mr. Mayor. But I
have come too far on official business to turn away now. First off,
can you tell me if Oakridge has a working wireless or fiber optic
facility?”
The silence brought on by his non sequitur was long and heavy.
Gordon could imagine the Mayor’s puzzlement. At last, the bossman
answered.
“We haven’t had a radio in ten years. Nothing’s worked since
then. Why? What has that to do with anythi-”
“That’s a shame. The airwaves have been a shambles since the
war, of course…” he improvised, “… all the radioactivity,
you know. But I’d hoped I could try to use your transmitter to
report back to my superiors.”
He delivered the lines with aplomb. This time they brought not
silence but a surge of amazed whispers up and down the parapet.
Gordon guessed that most of the population of Oakridge must be up
there by now. He hoped the wall was well built. It was not in his
plan to enter the town like Joshua.
He had quite another legend in mind.
“Get a lantern over here!” the Mayor commanded. “Not that one,
you idiot! The one with the reflector! Yes. Now shine it on that
man. I want a look at him!”
A bulky lamp was brought forth and there was a rattle as light
speared out at Gordon. He was expecting it though and neither
covered his eyes nor squinted. He shifted the leather bag and
turned to bring his costume to the best angle. The letter carrier’s
cap, with its polished crest, sat at a rakish angle on his
head.
The muttering of the crowd grew louder.
“Mr. Mayor,” he called. “My patience is limited. I already
will
have to have words with you about the behavior of your boys this
afternoon. Don’t force me to exercise my authority in ways both of
us would find unpleasant. You’re on the verge of losing your
privilege of communication with the rest of the
nation.”
The Mayor shifted his weight back and forth rapidly.
“Communication? Nation? What is this blither? There’s just the
Blakcville commune, those self-righteous twits down at Gulp Creek,
and Satan knows what savages beyond them. Who the hell are
you anyway?”
Gordon touched his cap. “Gordon Krantz, of the United States
Postal Service. I’m the courier assigned to reestablish a mail
route in Idaho and lower Oregon, and general federal inspector for
the region.”
And to imagine he had been embarrassed playing Santa Claus
back
in Pine View! Gordon hadn’t thought of the last part about being a
“federal inspector” until it was out of his mouth. Was it
inspiration, or a dare?
Well, might as well be hanged for a sheep as a goat,
he
thought.
The crowd was in tumult. Several times, Gordon heard the words
“outside” and “inspector”-and especially “mailman.” When the Mayor
shouted for silence, it came slowly, trailing off into a rapt
hush.
“So you’re a mailman.” The sneer was sarcastic. “What kind of
idiots do you take us for, Krantz? A shiny suit makes you a
government official? What government? What proof can you give us?
Show us you’re not a wild lunatic, raving with radiation
fever!”
Gordon pulled out the papers he had prepared only an hour
before, using the seal stamp he had found in the ruins of the
Oakridge Post Office.
“I have credentials, here…” But he was interrupted at
once.
“Keep your papers to yourself, loonie. We’re not letting you
come close enough to infect us with your fever!”
The Mayor straightened and waved an arm in the air, addressing
his subjects. “You all remember how crazies and imposters used to
come around, during the Chaos years, claiming to be everything from
the Antichrist to Porky Pig? Well, there’s one fact we can all
depend on. Crazies come and crazies go, but there’s only one
”government“… that’s what we got right here!”
He turned back to Gordon. “You’re lucky this isn’t like the
plague years, loonie. Back then a case like yours would’ve called
for immediate cure… by cremation!”
Gordon cursed silently. The local tyrant was slick and
certainly
no easy bluff. If they wouldn’t even look at the “credentials” he
had forged, the trip into oldtown this afternoon had been wasted.
Gordon was down to his last ace. He smiled for the crowd, but he
really wanted to cross his fingers.
From a side pocket of the leather bag he pulled out a small
bundle. Gordon made a pretense of shuffling through the packet,
squinting at labels he knew by heart.
“Is there a… a Donald Smith, here?” he called up at the
townspeople.
Heads turned left and right in sudden, hushed conversation.
Their confusion was obvious even in the gathering darkness. Finally
someone called out.
“He died a year after the war! In the last battle of the
warehouses.”
There was a tremor in the speaker’s voice. Good. Surprise was
not the only emotion at work here. Still, he needed something a lot
better than that. The Mayor was still staring at him, as perplexed
as the others, but when he figured out what Gordon was trying to
do, there would be trouble.
“Oh well,” Gordon called. “I’ll have to confirm that, of
course,” Before anyone could speak, he hurried on, shuffling the
packet in his hand.
“Is there a Mr. or Mrs. Franklin Thompson, in town? Or their
son
or daughter?”
Now the tide of hushed whispering carried almost a
superstitious
tone. A woman replied. “Dead! The boy lived until last year. Worked
on the Jascowisc stead. His folks were in Portland when it
blew.”
Damn! Gordon had only one name left. It
was all very
well to strike their hearts with his knowledge, but what he needed
was somebody alive!
“Right!” he called. “We’ll confirm that. Finally, is there a
Grace Horton here? A Miss Grace Horton . ,
.”
“No there ain’t no Grace Horton!” the Mayor shouted,
confidence
and sarcasm back in his voice. “I know everyone in my territory.
Never been no Grace Horton in the ten years since I arrived, you
imposter!
“Can’t you all see what he did? He found an old telephone book
in town, and copied down some names to stir us up with.” He shook a
fist at Gordon. “Buddy, I rule that you are disturbing the peace
and endangering the public health! You’ve got five seconds to be
gone before I order my men to fire!”
Gordon exhaled heavily. Now he had no choice. At least he
could
beat a retreat and lose nothing more than a little
pride.
It was a good try, but you knew the chances of it
working
were slim. At least you had the bastard going there, for a little
while.
It was time to go, but to his surprise Gordon found his body
would not turn. His feet refused to move. All will to run away had
evaporated. The sensible part of him was horrified as he squared
his shoulders and called the Mayor’s bluff.
“Assault on a postal courier is one of the few federal crimes
that the pro tem Congress hasn’t suspended for the recovery period,
Mr. Mayor. The United States has always protected its
mailmen.”
He looked coldly into the glare of the lamp. “Always,”
he emphasized. And for a moment he felt a thrill. He was
a
courier, at least in spirit. He was an anachronism that the dark
age had somehow missed when it systematically went about rubbing
idealism from the world. Gordon looked straight toward the dark
silhouette of the Mayor, and silently dared him to kill what was
left of their shared sovereignty.
For several seconds the silence gathered. Then the Mayor held
up
his hand. “One!”
He counted slowly, perhaps to give Gordon time to run, and
maybe
for sadistic effect.
“Two!”
The game was lost. Gordon knew he should leave now, at once.
Still, his body would not turn.
“Three!”
This is the way the last idealist dies,
he thought.
These sixteen years of survival had been an accident, an oversight
of Nature, about to be corrected. In the end, all of his hard-won
pragmatism had finally given way… to a gesture.
There was movement on the parapet. Someone at the far left was
struggling forward.
The guards raised their shotguns. Gordon thought he saw a few
of
them move hesitantly-reluctantly. Not that that would do him any
good.
The Mayor stretched out the last count, perhaps a bit unnerved
by Gordon’s stubbornness. The raised fist began to chop
down.
“Mr. Mayor!” a woman’s tremulous voice cut in, her words
high-pitched with fear as she reached up to grab the bossman’s
hand. “P-please… I…”
The Mayor shrugged her hands away. “Get away, woman. Get her
out
of here.”
The frail shape backed away from the guards, but she cried out
clearly. “I… I’m Grace Horton!”
“What?” The Mayor was not alone in turning to stare at
her.
“It’s my m-maiden name. I was married the year after the
second
famine. That was before you and your men arrived…”
The crowd reacted noisily. The Mayor cried out, “Fools! He
copied her name from a telephone book, I tell you!”
Gordon smiled. He held up the bundle in his hand and touched
his
cap with the other.
“Good evening, Mizz Horton. It’s a lovely night, yes? By the
way, I happen to have a letter here for you, from a
Mr. Jim Horton, of Pine View, Oregon… He gave it to
me
twelve days ago…“
The people on the parapet all seemed to be talking at once.
There were sudden motions and excited shouts. Gordon cupped his ear
to listen to the woman’s amazed exclamation, and had to raise his
voice to be heard.
“Yes, ma’am. He seemed to be quite well. I’m afraid that’s all
I
have on this trip. But I’ll be glad to carry your reply to your
brother on my way back, after I finish my circuit down in the
valley.”
He stepped forward, closer to the light. “One thing though,
ma’am. Mr. Horton didn’t have enough postage, back in Pine View, so
I’m going to have to ask you for ten dollars…
C.O.D.”
The crowd roared.
Next to the glaring lantern the figure of the Mayor turned
left
and right, waving his arms and shouting. But nothing he said was
heard as the gate swung open and people poured out into the night.
They surrounded Gordon, a tight press of hot-faced, excited men,
women, children. Some limped. Others bore livid scars or rasped in
tuberculin heaviness. And yet at that moment the pain of living
seemed as nothing next to a glow of sudden faith.
In the middle of it all Gordon maintained his composure and
walked slowly toward the portal. He smiled and nodded, especially
to those who reached out and touched his elbow, or the wide curve
of his bulging leather bag. The youngsters looked at him in
superstitious awe. On many older faces, tears
streamed.
Gordon was in the middle of a trembling adrenaline reaction,
but
he squelched hard on the little glimmering of conscience… a
touch of shame at this lie.
The hell with it. It’s not my fault
they want to
believe in the Tooth Fairy. I’ve finally grown up. I only want what
belongs to me!
Simpletons.
Nevertheless, he smiled all around as the hands reached out,
and
the love surged forth. It flowed about him like a rushing stream
and carried him in a wave of desperate, unwonted hope, into the
town of Oakridge.
INTERLUDE
In spring orange blazes,
Dust of ancestors glowers-
Cooling Earth with hazes
II
CYCLOPS
NATIONAL RECOVERY ACT
PROVISIONALLY EXTENDED CONGRESS OF
THE RESTORED UNITED STATES
DECLARATION
to all citizens: Let it be known by all now living within the
legal boundaries of the United States of America that the people
and fundamental institutions of the nation survive. Your enemies
have failed in their aggression against humanity, and have been
destroyed. A provisional government, acting in continuous
succession from the last freely elected Congress and Executive of
the United States, is vigorously moving to restore law, public
safety, and liberty once more to this beloved land, under the
Constitution and the righteous mercy of the
Almighty.
to these ends: Let it be known that all lesser laws and
statutes
of the United States are suspended, including all debts, liens, and
judgments made before the outbreak of the Third World War. Until
new codes are adopted by due process, local districts are free to
meet emergency conditions as suitable, providing-
1. The freedoms guaranteed under the Bill of Rights shall not
be
withheld from any man or woman within the territory of the United
States. Trials for all serious crimes shall be by an impartial jury
of one’s peers. Except in cases of dire martial emergency, summary
judgments and executions violating due process are absolutely
forbidden.
2. Slavery is forbidden. Debt bondage shall not be for life,
nor may it be passed from parent to child.
3. Districts, towns, and other entities shall hold proper
secret ballot elections on every even-numbered year, in which all
men and women over 18 years of age may participate. No person may
use official coercion on any other person unless he or she has been
so elected, or is directly answerable to a person so
elected.
4. In order to assist the national recovery, citizens shall
safeguard the physical and intellectual resources of the United
States. Wherever and whenever possible, books and prewar machinery
shall be salvaged and stored for the benefit of future generations.
Local districts shall maintain schools to teach the
young.
The Provisional Government hopes to reestablish nationwide
radio
service by the year 2021. Until that time, all communications must
be carried via surface mail. Postal service should be reestablished
in the Central and Eastern States by the year 2011, and in the West
by 2018.
5. Cooperation with United States Mail Carriers is a
requirement of all citizens. Interference with a letter carrier’s
function is a capital crime.
By order of the Provisional Congress
Restored United States of America
May 2009
1
CURTIN
The black bull terrier snarled and foamed. It yanked and
strained at its chain, whipping froth at the excited, shouting men
leaning over the low wooden walls of the arena. A scarred, one-eyed
mongrel growled back at the pit bull from across the ring. Its rope
tether hummed like a bowstring, threatening to tear out the ring
bolt in the wall.
The dog pit stank. The sick-sweet smoke of locally grown
tobacco-liberally cut with marijuana-rose in thick, roiling plumes.
Farmers and townspeople yelled deafeningly from rows of benches
overlooking the crude arena. Those nearest the ring pounded on the
wooden slats, encouraging the dogs’ hysterical
frenzy.
Leather-gloved handlers pulled their canine gladiators back
far
enough to grip their collars, then turned to face the VIP bench,
overlooking the center of the pit.
A burly, bearded dignitary, better dressed than most, puffed
on
his homemade cigar. He glanced quickly at the slender man who sat
impassively to his right, whose eyes were shaded by a visored cap.
The stranger sat quite still, in no way showing his
feelings.
The heavyset official turned back to the handlers, and
nodded.
A hundred men shouted at once as the dogs were loosed. The
snarling animals shot at one another like quarrels, their argument
uncomplicated. Fur and blood flew as the crowd
cheered.
On the dignitaries’ bench, the elders yelled no less fiercely
than the villagers. Like them, most had bets riding on the outcome.
But the big man with the cigar-the Chairman of Public Safety for
the town of Curtin, Oregon- puffed furiously without enjoyment, his
thoughts cloudy and thick. Once more he glanced at the stranger
sitting to his right.
The thin fellow was unlike anyone else in the arena. His beard
was neatly trimmed, his black hair cut and combed to barely pass
over the ears. The hooded blue eyes seemed to pierce and inspect
critically, like in the images of Old Testament prophets the
Chairman had seen in Sunday School as a boy, long before the
Doomwar.
He had the weathered look of a traveler. And he wore a
uniform… one no living citizen of Curtin had
ever
expected to see again.
On the peak of the stranger’s cap, the burnished image of a
horseman gleamed in the light of the oil lanterns. Somehow it
seemed shinier than any metal had a right to be.
The Chairman looked at his shouting townspeople, and sensed a
difference about them tonight. The men of Curtin were yelling with
more than their usual gusto at the Wednesday Night Fights. They,
too, were aware of the visitor, who had ridden up to the city gates
five days ago, erect and proud like some god, demanding food and
shelter and a place to post his notices…
… and who then began distributing mail.
The Chairman had money riding on one of the dogs- old Jim
Schmidt’s Walleye. But his mind wasn’t on the bloody contest on the
sand below. He could not help glancing repeatedly at the
Postman.
They had staged a special fight just for him, since he was
leaving Curtin tomorrow for Cottage Grove. He isn’t enjoying
himself, the Chairman realized unhappily. The man who had
turned their lives upside down was apparently trying to be polite.
But just as obviously, he did not approve of
dogfights.
The Chairman leaned over to speak to his guest. “I suppose
they
don’t do this sort of thing back East, do they, Mr.
Inspector?”
The cool look on the man’s face was his answer. The Chairman
cursed himself for a fool. Of course they wouldn’t have
dogfights-not in St. Paul City, or Topeka, or Odessa, or any of the
civilized regions of the Restored United States. But here,
here in ruined Oregon, so long cut off from civilization…
“Local communities are free to handle their affairs as they
see
fit, Mr. Chairman,” the man replied. His compelling voice carried
softly over the shouting in the arena. “Customs adapt to the times.
The government in St. Paul City knows this. I’ve seen far worse in
my travels.”
Absolved, he could read in the postal
inspector’s eyes.
The Chairman slumped slightly and looked away again.
He blinked, and at first he thought it was the smoke
irritating
his eyes. He dropped the cigar and ground it out under his foot,
but the stinging would not depart. The bull pit was out of focus,
as if he were seeing it in a dream… as if for the very first
time.
My God, the Chairman thought. Are we really doing this? Only
seventeen years ago I was a member of the Willamette Valley
ASPCA!
What’s happened to us?
What’s happened to me?
Coughing behind his hand, he hid the wiping of his eyes. Then
he
looked around and saw that he was not alone. Here and there in the
crowd at least a dozen men had stopped shouting, and were instead
looking down at their hands. A few were crying openly, tears
streaming down tough faces, hardened from the long battle to
survive.
Suddenly, for a few of those present, the years since the war
seemed compressed-insufficient excuse.
The cheering was ragged at the end of the fight. Handlers
leapt
into the pit to tend the victor and clear away the offal. But half
the audience seemed to be glancing nervously at their leader and
the stern, uniformed figure next to him.
The slender man straightened his cap. “Thank you, Mr.
Chairman.
But I think I’d better retire now. I have a long journey tomorrow.
Good night, all.”
He nodded to the elders, then rose and slipped on a worn
leather
jacket with a multicolored shoulder patch-a red, white, and blue
emblem. As he moved slowly toward the exit, townsmen stood up
silently and made way for him, their eyes downcast.
The Chairman of Curtin hesitated, then got up and followed, a
murmur of voices growing behind him.
The second event was never held that evening.
2
COTTAGE GROVE
Cottage Grove, Oregon April 16,2011
To Mrs. Adele Thompson Mayor of Pine View
Village
Unreclaimed State of Oregon
Transmittal route: Cottage Grove, Curtin,
Gulp Creek,
McFarland Ft, Oakridge, Pine View.
Dear Mrs. Thompson,
This is the second letter I’ve sent back along our new postal
route through the Willamette Forest region. If you received the
first, you’ll already know that your neighbors in Oakridge have
chosen to cooperate-after a few initial misunderstandings. I
appointed Mr. Sonny Davis postmaster there, a prewar resident of
the area liked by all. By now he should have reestablished contact
with you in Pine View.
Gordon Krantz lifted his pencil from the sheaf of yellowed
paper
the citizens of Cottage Grove had donated for his use. A brace of
copper oil lamps and two candles flickered over the antique desk,
casting bright reflections off glass-framed pictures on the bedroom
wall.
The locals had insisted Gordon take the best quarters in town.
The room was snug, clean, and warm.
It was a big change from the way things had been for Gordon
only
a few months before. In the letter, for instance, he said little
about the difficulties he had faced last October in the town of
Oakridge.
The citizens of that mountain town had opened their hearts to
him from the first moment he revealed himself as a representative
of the Restored United States.
But the tyrannical
“Mayor” almost had his unwelcome guest murdered before Gordon
managed to make it clear he was only interested in setting up a
post office and moving on-that he was no threat to the Mayor’s
power.
Perhaps the bossman feared his people’s reaction if he didn’t
help Gordon. In the end, Gordon received the supplies he asked for,
and even a valuable, if somewhat elderly, horse. On leaving
Oakridge, Gordon had seen relief on the Mayor’s face. The local
chief seemed confident he could keep control in spite of the
stunning news that a United States still existed out there,
somewhere.
And yet townspeople followed Gordon for over a mile, appearing
from behind trees to shyly press letters into his hands, eagerly
talking about the reclamation of Oregon and asking what they could
do to help. They complained openly of the petty local tyranny, and
by the time he had left that last crowd on the road, it was clear
that a change was blow-ing in the wind.
Gordon figured the Mayor’s days were numbered.
Since my last letter from Culp Creek, I’ve established post
offices in Palmerville and Curtin. Today I completed negotiations
with the mayor of Cottage Grove. Included in this packet is a
report on my progress so far, to be passed on to my superiors in
the Reclaimed State of Wyoming. When the courier following my trail
arrives in Pine View, please give him my records and my best
wishes.
And be patient if it takes a while. The trail west from St.
Paul
City is dangerous, and it may be more than a year before the next
man arrives.
Gordon could well imagine Mrs. Thompson’s reaction, on reading
that paragraph. The scrappy old matriarch would shake her head, and
maybe even laugh out loud at the sheer blarney that filled every
sentence.
Better than anybody else in the wild territory that had once
been the great state of Oregon, Adele Thompson knew there would be
no couriers from the civilized East. There was no headquarters for
Gordon to report back to. The only thing the city of St. Paul was
capital of was a still slightly radioactive bend in the Mississippi
River.
There had never been a Reclaimed State of Wyoming, or a
Restored
United States for that matter, except in the imagination of an
itinerant, dark-age con artist doing his best to survive in a
deadly and suspicious world.
Mrs. Thompson was one of the rare folks Gordon had met since
the
War who still saw with her eyes, and thought with a logical mind.
The illusion Gordon had created-at first by accident, and later in
desperation-had meant nothing to her. She had liked Gordon for
himself, and shown him charity without having to be coaxed by a
myth.
He was writing the letter in this convoluted way-filled with
references to things that never were-for eyes other than hers. The
mail would change hands many times along the route he had set up,
before finally reaching Pine View. But Mrs. Thompson would read
between the lines.
And she wouldn’t tell on him. Gordon was sure of
that.
He only hoped she could contain her laughter.
This part of the Coast Fork is pretty peaceful these days. The
communities have even started trading with each other in a modest
fashion, overcoming the old fear of war plagues and survivalists.
They’re eager for news of the outside world.
That’s not to say all is placid. They tell me the Rogue River
country south of Roseburg is still totally lawless-Nathan Holn
country. So I’m headed northward, toward Eugene. It’s the direction
most of the letters I’m carrying are addressed,
anyway.
Deep in his saddlebag, under the bundled letters he had
accepted
from excited, grateful people all along his way, was the one Abby
had given him. Gordon would try to see it delivered, whatever
eventually happened to all the others.
Now I must go. Perhaps someday soon a letter from you and my
other dear friends will catch up with me. Until then, please give
my love to Abby and Michael and all.
At least as much as anywhere, the Restored United States of
America is alive and well in beautiful Pine View.
Yours sincerely, Gordon K.
That last remark might be a little dangerous, but Gordon had
to
include it, if only to show Mrs. Thompson he wasn’t completely
caught up by his own hoax-the scam that he hoped would get him
safely across the almost lawless countryside to…
To what? After all these years Gordon still wasn’t sure what
it
was he was looking for.
Perhaps only someone, somewhere, who was taking
responsibility-who was trying to do something about the dark age.
He shook his head. After all these years, the dream would not quite
die.
He folded the letter into an old envelope, dribbled wax from a
candle, and pressed it with a seal salvaged from the Oakridge Post
Office. The letter went atop the “progress report” he had labored
over earlier, a tissue of fantasy addressed to officials of a
make-believe government.
Next to the packet lay his postman’s cap. The lamplight
flickered in the brass image of a Pony Express rider, Gordon’s
silent companion and mentor for months now.
Gordon had stumbled onto his new survival plan by quirk and
coincidence. But now, in town after town, people fell over
themselves to believe, especially when he actually delivered
letters from places he had already visited. After all these years,
it seemed people still longed forlornly for a lost, shiny age-an
era of cleanliness and order and a great nation now lost. The
longing overwhelmed their hard-won skepticism like a spring thaw
cracking the icy crust over a stream.
Gordon quashed a threatening sense of shame. No one alive was
guiltless after the last seventeen years, and his scam actually
seemed to do a little good in the towns he passed through. In
exchange for supplies and a place to rest, he sold
hope.
One did what one had to do.
There were two sharp raps on the door. Gordon called,
“Come!”
Johnny Stevens, the newly appointed Assistant Postmaster of
Cottage Grove, poked his head in. Johnny’s boyish face bore a
barely sprouted fuzz of almost blond beard. But his lanky legs
promised a great cross-country stride, and he was reputed to be a
dead shot.
Who could tell? The lad might even deliver the
mail.
“Uh, sir?” Johnny was obviously reluctant to interrupt
important
business. “It’s eight o’clock. You’ll remember that the Mayor
wanted to have a beer with you in the pub, since it’s your last
night here in town.”
Gordon stood up. “Right, Johnny. Thanks.” He grabbed his cap
and
jacket, then scooped up the phony report and the letter to Mrs.
Thompson.
“Here you are then. These are official packets for your first
run over to Culp Creek. Ruth Marshall is postmistress there. She’ll
be expecting somebody. Her folk will treat you
well.”
Johnny took the envelopes as if they were made of butterfly’s
wings. “I’ll protect them with my life, sir.” The youth’s eyes
shone with pride, and a fierce determination not to let Gordon
down.
“You’ll do no such thing!” Gordon snapped. The last thing he
wanted was for a sixteen-year-old to get hurt protecting a chimera,
“You’ll use common sense, like I told you.”
Johnny swallowed and nodded, but Gordon wasn’t at all sure he
understood. Of course the boy would probably just have an exciting
adventure, following the forest paths farther than anyone from his
village had traveled in over a decade, coming back a hero with
tales to tell. There were still a few loner survivalists in those
hills. But this far north of the Rogue River country the odds were
Johnny’d make it to Culp Creek and back just fine.
Gordon almost had himself convinced.
He exhaled and gripped the young man’s shoulder. “Your country
doesn’t need you to die for her, Johnny, but to live and serve her
another day. Can you remember that?”
“Yessir.” The lad nodded seriously. “I
understand.”
Gordon turned to blow out the candles.
Johnny must have been rummaging in the ruins of Cottage
Grove’s
old post office, for out in the hall Gordon noticed the boy’s
homespun shirt now bore a proud us. mail patch on the shoulder, the
colors still bright after almost twenty years.
“I’ve already got ten letters from people here in Cottage
Grove
and nearby farms,” Johnny said. “I don’t think most of them even
know anybody back east. But they’re writing anyway for the
excitement of it, and in hopes somebody will write
back.”
So at least Gordon’s visit had gotten people to practice their
literacy skills a little. That was worth a few nights’ food and
lodging. “You warned them that east of Pine View the route is slow
yet, and not guaranteed at all?”
“Sure. They don’t care.”
Gordon smiled. “That’s okay then. The Postal Service has
always
carried mostly fantasies, anyway.”
The boy looked at him, puzzled. But Gordon set his cap on his
head and said nothing more.
• •
•
Since departing the shards of Minnesota, so long ago, Gordon
had
seen few villages as prosperous and apparently happy as Cottage
Grove. The farms now brought in a surplus most years. The militia
was well drilled and-unlike at Oakridge-unoppressive. As hope of
finding true civilization faded, Gordon had slowly reduced the
scope of his dreams until a place like this seemed almost like
Paradise.
It was ironic, then, that the very hoax that had taken him
safely this far through the suspicious mountain hamlets now kept
him from remaining here. For in order to maintain his illusion, he
had to keep moving.
They all believed in him. If his illusion failed now, even the
good people of this town would certainly turn on
him.
The walled village covered one comer of prewar Cottage Grove.
Its pub was a large, snug basement with two big fireplaces and a
bar where the bitter local homebrew was served in tall clay
steins.
Mayor Peter Von Kleek sat in a corner booth talking earnestly
with Eric Stevens, Johnny’s grandfather and newly appointed
Postmaster of Cottage Grove. The two men were poring over a copy of
Gordon’s “Federal Regulations” as he and Johnny stepped into the
pub.
Back in Oakridge, Gordon had run off a few score copies on a
hand-cranked mimeograph machine he had managed to get working in
the old, deserted post office. A lot of thought and care had gone
into those circulars. They had to have the flavor of authenticity,
and at the same time present no obvious threat to local
strongmen-giving them no reason to fear Gordon’s mythical Restored
United States… or Gordon himself.
So far those sheets had been his most inspired
prop.
Tall, gaunt-faced Peter Von Kleek stood and shook Gordon’s
hand,
motioning him to a seat. The bartender hurried over with two tall
steins of thick brown beer. It was warm, of course, but
delicious-like pumpernickel bread. The Mayor waited, puffing
nervously on his clay pipe, until Gordon put his stein down with a
lip-smacking sigh.
Von Kleek nodded at the implied compliment. But his frown
remained fixed. He tapped the paper in front of him. “These
regulations here aren’t very detailed, Mr.
Inspector.”
“Call me Gordon, please. These are informal
times.”
“Ah, yes. Gordon. Please call me Peter.” The Mayor was clearly
uncomfortable,
“Well, Peter,” Gordon nodded. “The Restored U.S. Government
has
learned some hard lessons. One has been not to impose rigid
standards on far-flung localities who have problems St. Paul City
can’t even imagine, let alone regulate.”
Gordon launched into one of his prepared pitches.
“There’s the question of money, for instance. Most communities
dropped prewar currency soon after the food center riots. Barter
systems are the rule, and they usually work just fine, except when
debt service turns into a form of slavery.”
That much was all true. In his travels Gordon had seen
versions
of feudal serfdom rising all over. Money was a joke.
“The federal authorities in St. Paul have declared the old
currency moot. There are just too many bills and coins out there
for sparse rural economies.
“Still, we’re trying to encourage national commerce. One way
is
by accepting old-time two-dollar bills to pay postage for letters
carried by U.S. Mail. They never were very common, and are
impossible to forge with present-day technology. Pre-1965 silver
coins are also acceptable.”
“We’ve already taken in over forty dollars’ worth!” Johnny
Stevens interjected. “Folks are hunting ail over for those old
bills and coins. And they’ve started usin‘ them to pay off barter
debts too.”
Gordon shrugged. It had started already. Sometimes the little
things he added to his tale, simply in order to lend
verisimilitude, took off by themselves in ways he had never
expected. He couldn’t see how a little money put back into
circulation, given value by a local myth in the “Restored U.S.,”
could hurt these people much.
Von Kleek nodded. He moved on to the next item.
“This part here about no ‘coercion’ without elections-” He
tapped the paper. “Well, we do have sort of regular town meetings,
and people from the surrounding hamlets take part when something
big is up. But I can’t rightly say I or my militia chief were ever
really voted for… not in a real secret ballot,
like it
says here.”
He shook his head. “And we’ve had to do some pretty drastic
things, especially during the early days. I hope we’re not going to
have that held too hard against us Mr. Inspe- Gordon. We really
have been doin‘ our best.
“We have a school, for instance. Most of the younger kids
attend
after harvest. And we can make a start salvaging machines and
voting like it says here-” Von Kleek wanted reassurance; he was
trying to catch Gordon’s eye. But Gordon lifted his beer mug in
order not to meet his gaze.
One of the major ironies he had found in his travels had been
this phenomenon-that those who had fallen the least far into
savagery were those who seemed the most ashamed of having fallen at
all.
He coughed, clearing his throat.
“It seems… it seems to me you’ve been doing a pretty good
job here, Peter. The past doesn’t matter as much as the future,
anyway. I don’t think you have to worry about the federal
government interfering at all.”
Von Kleek looked relieved. Gordon was sure there would be a
secret ballot election here within weeks. And the people of this
area would deserve what they got if they elected anyone as their
leader but this gruff, sensible man.
“One thing bothers me.”
It was Eric Stevens who spoke. The spry oldster had been
Gordon’s obvious choice as postmaster. For one thing, he ran the
local trading post, and was the best-educated man in town, with a
prewar college degree.
Another reason was that Stevens had appeared the most
suspicious
when Gordon rode into town several days before, proclaiming a new
era for Oregon under the “Restored U.S.” Appointing him postmaster
seemed to persuade him to believe, if only for his own prestige and
profit.
Only incidentally, he would also probably do a good job-as
long
as the myth lasted, at least.
Old Stevens turned his beer stein on the table, leaving a
broad
oval ring. “What I can’t figure out is why nobody’s been out here
from St. Paul City before.
“Sure, I know you had to cross a helluva lot of wild country
to
get here, almost all of it on foot, you say. But what I want to
know is why didn’t they just send somebody out in an
airplane?”
There was a brief silence at the table. Gordon could tell that
townsmen nearby were listening in, as well.
“Aw gramps!” Johnny Stevens shook his head in embarrassment
for
his grandfather. “Don’t you realize how bad the war was? All the
airplanes and complicated machines were wrecked by that
pulse thing that blasted all the radios and such
right at
the beginning of the war! Then, later on, there wouldn’t have been
anybody around who knew how to fix ‘em. And there’d be no spare
parts!”
Gordon blinked in brief surprise. The kid was good! He had
been
born after the fall of industrial civilization, yet he had a grasp
of the essentials.
Of course everyone knew about the electromagnetic pulses, from
giant H-bombs exploded high in space, that had devastated
electronic devices all over the world on that deadly first day. But
Johnny’s understanding went beyond that to the interdependence of a
machine culture.
Still, if the kid was bright he must have gotten it from his
grandfather. The older Stevens looked at Gordon archly. “That
right, Inspector? No spares or mechanics left?”
Gordon knew that explanation wouldn’t hold under close
scrutiny.
He blessed those long, tedious hours on broken roads since leaving
Oakridge, when he had worked out his story in
detail.
“No, not quite. The pulse radiation, the blasts, and the
fallout
destroyed a lot. The bugs and riots and the Three-Year Winter
killed many skilled people. But actually, it didn’t take long to
get some machines going again. There were airplanes ready to fly
within days. The Restored U.S. has scores of them, repaired and
tested and waiting to fly.
“But they can’t take off. They’re all grounded, and will be
for
years to come.”
The old man looked puzzled. “Why’s that,
Inspector?”
“For the same reason you wouldn’t pick up a broadcast even if
you put together a working radio,” Gordon said. He paused for
effect.
“Because of laser satellites.”
Peter Von Kleek slapped the table. “Son of a bitch!” All over
the room heads turned their way.
Eric Stevens sighed, giving Gordon a look that had to be total
acceptance… or admiration of a better liar than
himself.
“What… what’s a lay… ?”
“Laser sat,” Johnny’s grandfather explained. “We won the war.”
He snorted at the famous marginal victory that had been trumpeted
in the weeks before the riots began. “But the enemy must have left
some sleeper satellites in orbit. Program ‘em to wait a few months
or years, then anything so much as lets out a peep over the radio,
or tries to fly, and zap!” He sliced the air
decisively.
“No wonder I never picked up anything on my crystal
set!”
Gordon nodded. The story fit so well, it could even be true.
He
actually hoped so. For it might explain the silence, and the lonely
emptiness of the sky, without the world having to be totally vacant
of civilization.
And how else to explain the slag heaps that remained of so
many
radio antennas he had passed in his travels?
“What’s the government doing about it?”
Von Kleek asked
earnestly.
Fairy tales, Gordon thought. His lies
would grow more
complex as he traveled until at last someone caught him
up.
“There are some scientists left. We hope to find facilities in
California for making and launching orbital rockets.” He left the
implication hanging.
The others looked disappointed.
“If only there was a way to take out the damned satellites
sooner,” the Mayor said. “Think of all those aircraft, just sitting
there! Can you imagine how surprised the next Holnist raiding party
out of the damned Rogue River would be, to find us farmers backed
up by the U.S. Air Force and some bloody
A-lOs!”
He gave a whooshing sound and made diving motions with his
hands. Then the Mayor did a pretty good imitation of a machine gun.
Gordon laughed with the others. Like boys they lived briefly in a
fantasy of rescue, and power to the good guys.
Other men and women gathered around, now that the Mayor and
the
postal inspector had apparently finished their business. Someone
pulled out a harmonica. A guitar was passed to Johnny Stevens, who
proved to be quite gifted. Soon the crowd was singing bawdy folk
songs and old commercial jingles.
The mood was high. Hope was thick as the warm, dark beer, and
tasted at least as good.
It was later in the evening that he heard it for the first
time.
On his way out of the men’s room-grateful that Cottage Grove had
somehow retained gravity-flow indoor plumbing-Gordon stopped
suddenly near the back stairs.
There had been a sound.
The crowd by the fireplace was singing… “Gather
‘round and listen to my tale-a tale of
a fateful trip… .”
Gordon cocked his head. Had he imagined the other murmur? It
had
been faint, and his head was ringing a bit on its
own from
the beer.
But a queer feeling at the back of his neck, an intuition,
refused to let go. It made him turn around and begin climbing the
stairs, a steep flight rising into the building above the basement
pub.
The narrow passage was dimly lit by a candle at the halfway
landing. The happy, drunken sounds cf the songfest faded away
behind him as he ascended slowly, careful of the creaking
steps.
At the top he emerged into a darkling hallway. Gordon listened
fruitlessly for what felt like a long time. After some moments he
turned around, writing it all off to an overworked
imagination.
Then it came again.
… a series of faint, eerie sounds at the very edge of
audibility. The half-memories they pulled forth sent a shiver up
Gordon’s back. He had not heard their like since… since long,
long ago.
At the end of the dusty hallway faint light outlined a cracked
door jamb. He approached, quietly.
Bloop!
Gordon touched the cold metal knob. It was free of dust.
Someone
was already inside.
Wah-wah…
The absent weight of his revolver-left in his guest room in
supposedly safe Cottage Grove-made him feel half-naked as he turned
the knob and opened the door.
Dusty tarpaulins covered stacked crates filled with odds and
ends, everything from salvaged tires to tools to furniture, a hoard
put aside by the villagers against the uncertain future. Around one
row of boxes came the source of that faint, flickering light. There
were hushed voices just ahead, whispering in urgent excitement. And
that sound-
Bloop. Bloop!
Gordon crept alongside the towers of musty crates- like
unsteady
cliffs of ancient sediment-growing more tense as he approached the
end of the row. The glow spread. It was a cold
light,
without heat.
A floorboard creaked under his foot.
Five faces turned up suddenly, cast into deep relief by the
strange light. In a breathless instant Gordon saw that they were
children, staring up at him in terrified awe-the
more so
because they clearly recognized him. Their eyes were wide and they
did not move.
But Gordon cared about none of that, only about a little
boxlike
object that lay on an oval rug in the center of the small coven. He
could not believe what he was seeing.
Across its bottom was a row of tiny buttons, and in the center
a
flat, gray screen gave off a pearly sheen.
Pink spiders emerged from flying saucers and stepped
imperiously
down the screen, to a crunching, marching beat. Arriving at the
bottom without opposition, they bleated in triumph, then their
ranks reformed and the assault began all over again.
Gordon’s throat was dry.
“Where…” he breathed.
The children stood up. One of the boys swallowed.
“Sir?”
Gordon pointed. “Where in the name of all that’s holy did you
get that?” He shook his head. “More important… where did you
get the batteries*”
One of the children began to cry. “Please, sir, we didn’t know
it was wrong. Timmy Smith told us it’s just a game the oldtime
children used to have! We find ‘em all over, only they don’t work
no more…”
“Who,” Gordon insisted, “is Timmy Smith?”
“A boy. His pa has come down from Creswell with a wagon to
trade
the last couple years. Timmy swapped this one for twenty old ones
we found that wouldn’t work no more.”
Gordon recalled the map he had been studying in his room
earlier
in the evening. Creswell was just a little north of here, not far
off the route he had planned to take to Eugene.
Can it be? Hope was too hot and sudden to
be a
pleasure, or even recognized.
“Did Timmy Smith say where he got the
toy?” He tried
not to spook the children, but some of his urgency must have
spilled over, frightening them.
A girl wailed. “He said he got it from
Cyclops!”
Then, in a panicked flurry, the children were gone,
disappeared
down little alleys in the dusty storage room. Gordon was left
suddenly alone, standing quite still, watching tiny invaders
descend in the glow of the little gray screen.
“Crunch-crunch-crunch,” they marched.
The game blooped victoriously. Then
began to play all
over again.
3
EUGENE
The pony’s breath puffed visibly as it plodded on through the
dank drizzle, led by a man in a rain-slick poncho. Its only burdens
were a saddle and two thick bags, plastic-covered against the
damp.
The gray Interstate glistened wetly. Deep puddles lay like
small
lakes in the concrete. Dirt had blown over the four-lane highway
during the postwar drought years, and grass had later begun to grow
as the old northwest rains returned. Much of the highway was now a
ribbon of meadow, a flat notch in the forested hills overlooking a
churning river.
Gordon raised his slicker tentlike to consult his map. Ahead,
to
his right, a large fen had formed where the south and east forks of
the Willamette came together before cutting west between Eugene and
Springfield. According to the old map there was a modern industrial
park below. Now only a few old roofs stuck out above the mire. The
neat lanes, parking lots, and lawns were a realm for water fowl,
who seemed not at all discomfitted by the wet.
Back in Creswell they had told Gordon the Interstate would be
impassable a little north of here. He would have to cut through
Eugene itself, find an open bridge across the river, and then
somehow get back onto the highway to Co-burg.
The Creswellers had been a little vague on details. Few
travelers had made the trip since the war.
That’s all right. Eugene has been one of my goals
for
months. We’ll take a look at what’s become of
her.
Briefly, though. Now the city was only a milestone along his
path toward a deeper mystery, waiting farther to the
north.
The elements had not yet defeated the Interstate. It might be
grassy and puddled, but the only fallen bridges he had passed still
bore obvious signs of violence. When man built well, it seemed,
only time or man himself could bring his things down. And they
did build well, Gordon thought. Maybe future generations of
Americans, ambling through the forests eating each other, would
think these works the creations of gods.
He shook his head. The rain, it’s got
me in a fey
mood.
Soon he came upon a large sign, half buried in a puddle.
Gordon
kicked away debris and knelt to examine the rusting plate-like a
tracker reading a cold trail in a forest path.
“Thirtieth Avenue,” he read aloud.
A broad road cut into the hills to the west, away from the
Interstate. According to the map, downtown Eugene was just over the
forested rise that way.
He got up and patted his pack animal. ‘“Come on, Dobbin. Swish
your tail and signal for a right turn. It’s off the freeway and
down surface streets from here.” The horse puffed stoically as
Gordon gave the reins a gentle tug and led it down the off-ramp,
then under the overpass and on up the slope to the
west.
From the top of the hill a gently falling mist seemed somehow
to
soften the ruined town’s disfigurement. Rains had long since washed
away the fire stains. Slow beards of climbing greenery, sprouting
from cracks in the pavement, covered many of the buildings, hiding
their wounds.
Folk in Creswell had warned him what to expect. Still, it was
never easy coming into a dead city. Gordon descended to the ghostly
streets, strewn with broken glass. The rain-wet pavement sparkled
with another era’s shattered panes.
In the lower parts of town, alders grew in the streets, in
dirt
laid down when a river of mud slammed into the city from the broken
Fall Creek and Lookout Point dams. The collapse of those reservoirs
had wiped out Route 58 west of Oakridge, forcing Gordon to make his
long detour south and west through Curtin, Cottage Grove, and
Creswell before finally swinging north again.
The devastation was pretty bad. And yet,
Gordon thought, they held on, here. From all accounts, they
almost made it.
Back in Creswell, between all the meetings and
celebrations-the
election of the new postmaster and excited plans to extend the new
mail delivery network east and west-the citizens had regaled Gordon
with stories of the valiant struggle of Eugene. They told how the
city had struggled to hold out for four long years after war and
epidemic had isolated it from the outer world. In a strange
alliance of the university community and red-neck country farmers,
somehow the city-state had overcome all threats… until at last
the bandit gangs finished her off by blasting the upland reservoirs
all at once, cutting off both power and unpolluted
water.
The tale was already legendary, almost like the fall of Troy.
And yet the storytellers hadn’t sounded forlorn in telling it. It
was more as if they now looked upon the disaster as a temporary
setback, to be overcome within their own lifetimes.
For Creswell had been in a tizzy of optimism even before
Gordon’s arrival. His tale of a “Restored United States” was the
town’s second dose of good news in less than
three
months.
Last winter another visitor had
arrived-this one from
the north, a grinning man in a white-and-black robe-who passed out
startling gifts for the children and then departed, speaking the
magical name Cyclops.
Cyclops, the stranger had said.
Cyclops would make things right again. Cyclops would bring
comfort and progress back into the world, redeeming everybody from
drudgery and lingering hopelessness, the legacy of the
Doomwar.
All the people had to do was collect their old machinery,
particularly electronics. Cyclops would take their donations of
useless, ruined equipment, plus perhaps a little surplus food to
maintain its volunteer servants. In return, Cyclops would give the
Creswellans things that worked.
The toys were only tokens of what was to come. Someday there
would be real miracles.
Gordon had been unable to get anything coherent from the
people
of Creswell. They were too deliriously happy to be completely
logical. Half of them assumed his “Restored United States” was
behind Cyclops, and half thought it was the other
way
around. It hardly occurred to anybody that the two wonders could be
unconnected-two spreading legends encountering one another in the
wilderness.
Gordon didn’t dare disabuse them, or ask too many questions.
He
had left as quickly as he could-loaded down with more letters than
ever-determined to follow the tale to its source.
It was about noon as he turned north on University Street. The
gentle rain was no bother. He could explore Eugene for a while and
still make it by nightfall to Coburg, where a settlement of
gleaners supposedly lived. Somewhere north of there lay the
territory from which the followers of Cyclops were spreading word
of their strange redemption.
As he walked quietly past the gutted buildings, Gordon
wondered
if he should even try to pull his “postman” hoax in the north. He
remembered the little spiders and saucers, flashing in the
darkness, and found it hard not to hope.
Perhaps he could give up the scam and find something real to
believe in at last. Perhaps someone, at last, was leading a fight
against the dark age.
It was too sweet a glimmer to let go of, but too delicate to
hold tightly.
The shattered storefronts of the deserted town gave way at
last
to Eighteenth Avenue and the University of Oregon campus, the broad
athletic field now overgrown with aspen and alder saplings, some
more than twenty feet high. There, near the old gymnasium, Gordon
slowed down, then stopped abruptly and held the pony
still.
The animal snorted and pawed the ground as Gordon listened,
and
then was sure.
Somewhere, perhaps not too far away, somebody was
screaming.
The faint crying crescendoed then fell away. It was a woman’s
voice, soaked with pain and deadly fear. Gordon pushed back the
cover of his holster and drew his revolver. Had it come from the
north? The east?
He pushed into a semijungle between the university buildings,
hurriedly seeking a place to go to ground. He had had an easy time
of it since leaving Oakridge months ago, too easy. Obviously he had
acquired bad habits. It was a miracle no one had heard
him, traipsing down these deserted streets as if
he owned
them.
He led the pony through a gaping door in the side of a
slate-sided gymnasium, and tethered the animal behind a fold-down
stand of bleachers. Gordon dropped a pile of oats near the animal,
but left the saddle in place and cinched.
Now what? Do we wait it out? Or do we check it
out?
Gordon unwrapped his bow and quiver and set the string. In the
rain they were probably more reliable, and certainly quieter than
his carbine or revolver.
He stuffed one of the bulging mail sacks into a ventilation
shaft, well out of sight. As he was searching for a place to hide
the other, he suddenly realized what he was doing.
He grinned ironically at his momentary foolishness and left
the
second bag lying on the floor as he set off to find the
trouble.
The sounds came from a brick building just ahead, one whose
long
bank of glass windows still gleamed. Apparently looters hadn’t even
thought the place worth bothering with. Now Gordon could hear
faint, muttered voices, the soft nickering of horses, and the
creaking of tack. Seeing no watchers at the roofs or windows, he
dashed across the overgrown lawn and up a broad flight of concrete
steps, flattening against a doorway around the corner of the
building. He breathed open-mouthed for silence.
The door bore an ancient, rusted padlock and an engraved
plastic
sign.
THEODORE STURGEON MEMORIAL CENTER
Dedicated May 1989
Cafeteria Hours
11-2:30
5-8 p.m.
The voices came from just within… though too muffled to
make out anything distinct. An outside stairway led up to several
floors overhead. He stepped back and saw that a door lay ajar three
flights up.
Gordon knew he was being a fool once again. Now that he had
the
trouble located, he really should go collect his pony and get the
hell out of there, as quickly as possible.
The voices within grew angry. Through the crack in the door he
heard a blow being struck. A woman’s cry of pain was followed by
coarse male laughter.
Sighing softly at the flaw in his character that kept him
there-instead of running away as anyone with any brains would
do-Gordon started climbing the concrete stair, careful not to make
a sound.
Rot and mold covered an area just within the half-open
doorway.
But beyond that the fourth floor of the student center looked
untouched. Miraculously, none of the glass panes in the great
skylight had been smashed, though the copper frame wore a patina of
verdigris. Under the atrium’s pale glow a carpeted ramp spiraled
downward, connecting each floor.
As Gordon cautiously approached the open center of the
building,
it felt momentarily as if he had stepped backward in time. Looters
had left the student organization offices-with their passionate
tornadoes of paper-completely untouched. Bulletin boards were still
plastered with age-dimmed announcements of sporting events, variety
shows, political rallies.
Only at the far end were there a few notices in bright red,
having to do with the emergency-the final crisis that had struck
almost without warning, bringing it all to an end. Otherwise, the
clutter was homey, radical, enthusiastic…
Young…
Gordon hurried past and skirted down the spiraling ramp toward
the voices below.
A second floor balcony extended out over the main lobby. He
got
down on his hands and knees and crawled the rest of the
way.
On the north side of the building, to the right, part of the
two-story glass facing had been shattered to make room for a pair
of large wagons. Steam rose from six horses tethered over by the
west wall, behind a row of dark pinball machines.
Outside, amid the broken glass shards, the sulking rain
created
spreading pink pools around four sprawled bodies, recently cut down
by automatic weapons fire. Only one of the victims had even managed
to draw a sidearm during the ambush. His pistol lay in a puddle,
inches from a motionless hand.
The voices came from his left, where the balcony made a turn.
Gordon crawled cautiously forward and looked out over the other
part of the L-shaped room.
Several ceiling-high mirrors remained along the west wall,
giving Gordon a wide view of the floor below. A blaze of smashed
furniture crackled in a large fireplace between the reflecting
panes.
He hugged the moldy carpet and lifted his head just enough to
see four heavily-armed men arguing by the fire. A fifth lounged on
a couch over to the left, his automatic rifle aimed idly at a pair
of prisoners-a boy of about nine years and a young
woman.
Red weals on her face matched the pattern of a man’s hand. Her
brown hair was matted and she held the boy close, watching her
captors warily. Neither prisoner seemed to have any energy left for
tears.
The bearded men were all garbed in, one-piece prewar army
surplus outfits in green, brown, and gray-speckled camouflage. Each
wore one or more gold earrings in his left ear lobe.
Survivalists. Gordon felt a wave of
revulsion.
Once upon a time, before the War, the word had had several
meanings, ranging from common sense, community-conscious
preparedness all the way to antisocial paranoid gun nuts. By one
way of looking at things, perhaps Gordon himself could be called a
“survivalist.” But it was the latter connotation that had stuck,
after the ruin the worst sort had caused.
Everywhere he had gone in his travels, folk shared this
reaction. More than the Enemy, whose bombs and germs had wrought
such destruction during the One-Week War, the people in nearly
every wrecked county and hamlet blamed these macho outlaws for the
terrible troubles that led to the final Fall.
And worst of all had been the followers of Nathan Holn, may
he rot in Hell.
But there weren’t supposed to be any
survivalists
anymore in the valley of the Willamette! In Cottage Grove, Gordon
had been told that the last big bunch had been driven south of
Roseburg years ago, into the wilderness of the Rogue River
country!
What were these devils doing here, then? He moved a little
closer and listened.
“I dunno, Strike Leader. I don’t think we oughta go any deeper
on this recon. We’ve already had enough surprises with this
‘Cyclops’ thing the bird here let slip about, before she clammed
up. I say we oughta head back to the boats at Site Bravo and report
what we found.”
The speaker was a short, bald man with a wiry frame. He warmed
his hands over the fire, his back to Gordon. A SAW assault gun
equipped with a flash suppressor was slung muzzle-down over his
back.
The big man he addressed as “Strike Leader” wore a scar from
one
ear to his chin, only partly hidden by a gray-flecked black beard.
He grinned, displaying several gaps in his teeth.
“You don’t really believe that bull the broad was spewing, do
you? All that crap about a big computer that talks? What a crock!
She’s just feedin‘ it to us to give us a stall!”
“Oh yeah? Well how do you explain all
that?”
The little man gestured back to the wagons. In the mirror,
Gordon could see a corner of the nearest. It was loaded down with
odds and ends, no doubt collected here on the University campus.
The haul seemed to consist mostly of electronic
equipment.
Not farm tools, not clothes or jewelry-but
electronics.
It was the first time Gordon had ever seen a gleaner’s wagon
filled with salvage like this. The implication caused Gordon’s
pulse to pound in his ears. In his excitement, he barely ducked
down in time as the little man turned to pick up something from a
nearby table.
“And what about this?” the small
survivalist asked. In
his hand was a toy-a small video game like the one Gordon had seen
in Cottage Grove.
Lights flashed and the little box gave out a high, cheerful
melody. The Strike Leader stared at it for a long moment. Finally
he shrugged. “Don’t mean shit.”
One of the other raiders spoke. “I agree wit‘ lil’
Jim…”
“That’s Blue Five,” the big man growled. “Maintain
discipline!”
“Right,” the third man nodded, apparently unperturbed by the
rebuke. “I agree with Blue Five, then. I think we oughta report
this to Colonel Bezoar an‘ the General. It could affect the
invasion. What if the farmers do got high tech up north of here? We
could wind up doin’ an end run right into some heavy-duty lasers or
something… especially if they got some old Air Force or Navy
stuff working again!”
“All the more reason to continue this recon,” the leader
growled. “We’ve got to find out more about this Cyclops
thing.”
“But you saw how hard we had to work to get the woman to tell
us
even what we learned! And we can’t leave her here while we go
deeper on recon. If we turned back we could put her on one of the
boats and…”
“Off the damn woman! We finish with her
tonight. The
boy, too. You been in the mountains too long, Blue Four. These
valleys are crawling with pretty birds. We can’t
risk this
one making noise, and we sure can’t take her along on a
recon!”
The argument didn’t surprise Gordon. All over the
country-wherever they had managed to establish themselves-these
postwar crazies had taken to raiding for women, as well as for food
and slaves. After the first few years of slaughter, most Holnist
enclaves had found themselves with incredibly high male-female
ratios. Now, women were valuable chattel in the loose, macho,
hyper-survivalist societies.
No wonder some of the raiders below wanted to carry this one
back. Gordon could tell that she might be quite pretty, if she
healed and if the pall of terror ever left her eyes.
The boy in her arms watched the men with fierce
anger.
Gordon surmised that the Rogue River gangs must have become
organized at last, perhaps under a charismatic leader. Apparently
they were planning to invade by sea, skirting the Roseville and
Camas Valley defenses-where the farmers had somehow beaten back
their repeated efforts at conquest.
It was a bold plan, and it could very well mean the end of
whatever flickering civilization remained here in the Willamette
Valley.
Until now, Gordon had been telling himself he might somehow
stay
out of this trouble. But the last seventeen years had long ago made
almost everybody alive take sides in this particular struggle.
Rival villages with bitter feuds would drop their quarrels to join
and wipe out bands like these. The very sight of Army surplus
camouflage and gold earrings elicited a loathing response that was
common nearly everywhere, like the way people felt about vultures.
Gordon could not leave this place without at least trying to think
of a way to harm the men below.
During a lull in the rain, two men went outside and began
stripping the bodies, mutilating them and taking grisly trophies.
When the drizzle returned, the raiders shifted their attention to
the wagons, rummaging through them for anything valuable. From
their curses it seemed the search was futile. Gordon heard the
smashing of delicate and totally irreplaceable electronics parts
under their boots.
Only the one guarding the captives was still in view, turned
away from both Gordon and the wall of mirrors. He was cleaning his
weapon, not paying particular attention.
Wishing he were less a fool, Gordon felt compelled to take a
chance. He lifted his head above the level of the floor and raised
his hand. The motion made the woman look up. Her eyes widened in
surprise.
Gordon put a finger to his lips, praying she would understand
that these men were his enemies, too. The woman blinked, and Gordon
feared for a moment she was about to speak. She glanced quickly at
her guard, who remained absorbed in his weapon.
When her eyes met Gordon’s again, she nodded slightly. He gave
her a thumbs-up sign and quickly backed away from the
balcony.
First chance, he drew his canteen and drank deeply, for his
mouth was dry as ashes. Gordon found an office in which the dust
wasn’t too thick-he certainly couldn’t afford to sneeze-and chewed
on a strip of Creswell beef jerky as he settled down to
wait.
His chance came a little while before dusk. Three of the
raiders
left on a patrol. The one called Little Jim remained behind to cook
a raggedly butchered haunch of deer in the fireplace. A gaunt-faced
Holnist with three gold earrings guarded the prisoners, staring at
the young woman while whittling slowly on a piece of wood. Gordon
wondered how long it would take for the guard’s lust to overcome
his fear of the leader’s wrath. He was obviously working up his
nerve.
Gordon had his bow ready. An arrow was nocked and two more lay
on the carpet before him. His holster flap was free and the
pistol’s hammer rested on a sixth round. There was little more he
could do but wait.
The guard put down his whittling and stood up. The woman held
the boy close and looked away as he walked closer.
“Blue One ain’t gonna like it,” the bandit by the fire warned
lowly.
The guard stood over the woman. She tried not to flinch, but
shivered when he touched her hair. The boy’s eyes glistened with
anger.
“Blue One already said we’re gonna waste her later, after
takin‘
turns. Don’t see why my turn shouldn’t come first. Maybe I can even
get her to talk about that ’Cyclops* thing.
“How ‘bout it, babe?” He leered down on her. “If a beatin’
won’t
make you loosen your mouf, I know just what’ll tame you
down.”
“What about the kid?” Little Jim asked.
The guard shrugged casually. “What about ‘im?”
Suddenly
a hunting knife was in his right hand. With his left he seized the
boy’s hair and yanked him out of the woman’s grasp. She
screamed.
In that telescoped instant, Gordon acted completely on
reflex-there was no time at all to think. Even so, he did not do
the obvious, but what was necessary. Instead of shooting at the man
with the knife, he swung his bow up, and put an arrow into
Little Jim’s chest.
The small survivalist hopped back and stared down at the shaft
in blank surprise. With a faint gurgle he slumped to the
ground.
Gordon quickly nocked another arrow and turned in time to see
the other survivalist yank his knife out of the girl’s shoulder.
She must have hurled herself in between him and the child, blocking
the blow with her body. The boy lay stunned in the
corner.
Gravely wounded, she still tore at her enemy with her nails,
unfortunately blocking Gordon from a clear shot. The surprised
bandit fumbled at first, cursing and trying to catch her wrists.
Finally, he managed to hurl her to the ground. Angered by the
painful scratches-and unaware of his partner’s demise-the Holnist
grinned and hefted his knife to finish the job. He took a step
toward the wounded, gasping woman.
At that point Gordon’s arrow tore through the fabric of his
camouflage fatigues, slicing a shallow, bloody gash along his back.
The shaft struck the couch and quivered, humming.
For all their loathesome attributes, survivalists were
probably
the best fighters in all the world. In a blur, before Gordon could
snatch up his last arrow, the man dove to one side and rolled up
with his assault rifle. Gordon threw himself back as a rapid,
accurate burst of individual shots tore into the balustrade,
ricocheting from the ironmongery where he had just
been.
The rifle was equipped with a silencer, forcing the raider to
fire on semi-automatic; but the zinging bullets clanged all about
Gordon as he rolled over and pulled out his own revolver. He
scurried over to another part of the balcony.
The fellow down below had good ears. Another rapid burst sent
slivers flying inches from Gordon’s face as he ducked aside again,
barely in time.
Silence fell, except that Gordon’s pulse sounded like thunder
in
his ears.
Now what? he wondered.
Suddenly there was a loud scream. Gordon raised his head and
caught a blurry motion reflected in the mirror… the small woman
below was charging her much bigger foe with a large chair raised
over her head!
The survivalist whirled and fired. Red blotches bloomed across
the young gleaner’s chest and she tumbled to the ground; the chair
rolled to the survivalist’s feet.
Gordon might have heard the click as the rifle’s magazine
emptied. Or perhaps it was only a wild guess. Whatever the reason,
without thinking he leapt up, arms extended, and squeezed the
trigger of his .38 over and over again-pumping until the hammer
struck five times on empty, smoking chambers.
His opponent remained standing, a fresh clip already in his
left
hand, ready to be slammed into place. But dark stains had begun to
spread across the camouflage tunic. Looking astonished, more than
anything else, his eyes met Gordon’s over the smoking pistol
barrel.
The assault rifle tipped and fell clattering from limp
fingers,
and the survivalist crumpled to the floor.
Gordon ran downstairs, vaulting the rail at the bottom. First
he
stopped at both men and made sure they were dead. Then he hurried
over to the fatally wounded young woman.
Her mouth made a round inquiry as he lifted her head. “Who…
?”
“Don’t talk,” he urged, and he wiped a trail of blood from the
corner of her mouth.
Pupils widely dilated, eerily alert on the threshold of death,
her eyes took in his face, his uniform-the embroidered restored
u.S. mail service patch over his breast pocket. They widened
briefly in question, in wonder.
Let her believe, Gordon told himself. She’s
dying.
Let her believe it’s true.
But he couldn’t make himself say the words-the lies that he
had
told so often, that had taken him so far for so many months. Not
this time.
“I’m just a traveler, miss,” he shook his head. “I’m… I’m
just a fellow citizen, trying to help.”
She nodded-only slightly disappointed it seemed-as if that in
itself were a minor miracle.
“North…” she gasped. “Take boy… Warn… warn
Cyclops…”
In that last word, even as her dying breath sighed away,
Gordon
heard reverence, loyalty, and a confident faith in ultimate
redemption… all in the spoken name of a machine.
Cyclops, he thought numbly, as he laid her body
down. Now
he had yet another reason to follow the legend to its
source.
There was no time to spare for a burial. The bandit’s rifle
had
been muffled, but Gordon’s .38 had echoed like thunder. The other
raiders would certainly have heard. He had only moments to collect
the child and clear out of this place.
But ten feet away there were horses to steal. And up north lay
something a brave young woman had thought worth dying
for.
If only it’s true, Gordon thought as he
gathered up his
enemy’s rifle and ammunition.
He would drop his postal play-act in a minute, if he found
that
someone, somewhere, was taking responsibility-actually trying to do
something abo.ut the dark age. He would offer his allegiance, his
help, however meager it might be.
Even to a giant computer.
There were distant shouts… coming closer
rapidly.
He turned to the boy, who was now looking up at him,
wide-eyed,
from the corner of the room.
“Come on, then,” Gordon said, holding out his hand. “We had
better ride.”
4
HARRISBURG
Holding the child on the saddle in front of him, Gordon raced
away from the grisly scene as fast as his stolen mount would go. A
glance showed figures charging after them on foot. One raider knelt
to take careful aim.
Gordon bent forward, sawed on the reins, and kicked. The horse
snorted and wheeled around a looted corner Rexall store just as
high-velocity bullets tore apart the granite facing behind them.
Stone chips flew whistling across Sixth Avenue.
He had been congratulating himself on taking the added time to
scatter the other horses before galloping off. But in that last
instant, looking back, Gordon had seen one more raider arrive,
riding his own pony!
For a moment he felt an unreasoning fear. If they had his
horse,
they might also have taken or harmed the
mail-bags.
Gordon shook the irrelevant thought aside as he sent the horse
dashing down a side street. To hell with the letters! They were
only props, anyway. What mattered was that only one of the
survivalists could pursue at the moment. That made the odds
even.
Almost.
He snapped the reins and dug in his heels, sending his mount
galloping hard down one of downtown Eugene’s silent, empty streets.
He heard the clatter of other hooves, too close.
Not
bothering to look back, he swerved into an alley. The horse pranced
past a fall of shattered glass, then sped across the next street,
through a service way and down another clutter-filled
alley.
Gordon turned the animal toward a flash of greenery, cantering
quickly across an open plaza, and pulled up behind an overgrown oak
thicket in a small park.
There was a roar in the air. After a moment Gordon realized
that
it was his own breath and pulse. “Are… are you all right?” he
panted, looking down at the boy.
The nine-year-old swallowed and nodded, not wasting breath on
words. The boy had been terrorized and had witnessed savage things
today, but he had the sense to keep quiet, brown eyes intense on
Gordon.
Gordon stood in the saddle and peered through the
seventeen-year
growth of urban shrubbery. For the moment at least, they seemed to
have lost their pursuer.
Of course the fellow might be less than fifty meters away,
quietly listening himself.
Gordon’s fingers were shaking from reaction, but he managed to
draw his empty .38 from its holster and reloaded while he tried to
think.
If there was only the single rider to contend with, they might
do better to just stay still and wait it out. Let the bandit seek
them, and inevitably drift farther away.
Unfortunately, the other Holnists would catch up soon. It
would
probably be better to risk a little noise now than let those master
trackers and hunters from the Rogue River country collect
themselves and organize a real search of the local
area.
He stroked the horse’s neck, letting the animal catch its
breath
for a moment longer. “What’s your name?” he asked the
boy.
“M-Mark,” he blinked.
“Mine is Gordon. Was that your sister, who saved our lives
back
there at the fireplace?”
Mark shook his head. A child of the dark age, he would save
his
tears for later. “N-nossir… it was my mom.”
Gordon grunted, surprised. These days it was uncommon for
women
to look so young after having children. Mark’s mother must have
lived under unusual conditions-one more clue pointing to mysterious
happenings in northern Oregon.
The light was fading fast. Still hearing nothing, Gordon
nudged
the horse into motion once more, guiding it with his knees, letting
it choose soft ground where it could. He kept a sharp lookout, and
stopped often to listen.
Some minutes later they heard a shout. The boy tensed. But the
source must have been blocks away, Gordon headed in the other
direction, thinking of the Willamette River bridges at the northern
end of town.
The long twilight was over before they rode up to the Route
105
bridge. The clouds had stopped dripping, but they still cast a dark
gloom over ruins on all sides, denying even the starlight. Gordon
stared, trying to penetrate the gloom. Rumor to the south had it
the bridge was still up, and there were no obvious signs of an
ambush.
And yet anything could hide in that mass of dark girders,
including an experienced bushwhacker with a rifle.
Gordon shook his head. He hadn’t lived this long by taking
foolish chances. Not when there were alternatives. He had wanted to
take the old Interstate, the direct route to Corvallis and the
mysterious domain of Cyclops, but there were other ways. He swung
the horse about and headed west, away from the dark, glowering
towers.
There followed a hurried, twisting ride down side streets.
Several times’ he nearly got lost, and had to go by dead reckoning.
At last, he found old Highway 99 by the sound of rushing
water.
Here the bridge was a flat, open structure, and apparently
clear. Anyway, it was the last path he knew of. Bent low over the
boy, he took the span at a gallop and kept on riding hard until he
was certain all pursuit had been left far behind.
Finally, he dismounted and led the horse for a while, letting
the exhausted animal catch its breath.
When he climbed back into the saddle, young Mark had fallen
asleep. Gordon spread his poncho to cover them both as they plodded
on northward, seeking a light.
About an hour before dawn, they arrived at last at the walled
village of Harrisburg.
The stories Gordon had heard about prosperous northern Oregon
must have been understated. The town had apparently been at peace
much, much too long. Thick undergrowth covered the free-fire zone
all the way to the town wall, and there were no guards on the
watchtowers. Gordon had to shout for five minutes before anyone
arrived to swing back the gate.
“I want to talk to your leaders,” he told them under the
sheltered porch of the general store. “There’s worse danger than
you’ve known in years.”
He described the ambushed party of gleaners, the band of hard,
evil men, and their mission to scout the soft northern Willamette
for plundering. Time was of the essence. They had to move quickly
and destroy the Holnists before their mission was
accomplished.
But to his dismay the sleepy-eyed townsmen seemed slow to
believe his story, and even more reluctant to sally forth in the
wet weather. They stared at Gordon suspiciously, and shook their
heads sullenly when he insisted they call up a
posse.
Young Mark had collapsed in exhaustion and wasn’t much of a
witness to corroborate his tale. The locals obviously preferred to
believe he was exaggerating. Several men stated baldly that he must
have run into a few local bandits from south of Eugene, where
Cyclops still had little influence. After all,
nobody had
seen any Holnists around these parts in many years. They were
supposed to have killed each other off long ago, after Nathan Holn
himself was hanged.
Folk patted him on the back reassuringly and started
dispersing
to their homes. The storekeeper offered to let Gordon sack out in
his store room.
I can’t believe this is
happening. Don’t these
idiots realize their very lives are at stake? If
the
scouting party gets away, those barbarians will
be back in
force!
“Listen…” He tried again, but their sullen, rural obstinacy
was impervious to logic. One by one, they drifted
away.
Desperate, exhausted, and angry, Gordon flung back his
poncho-revealing the postal inspector’s uniform underneath. In a
fury, he stormed at them.
“You all don’t seem to understand. I am not asking
you
for your help. Do you think I give a damn about your stupid little
village?
“I care about one thing above all. Those creatures have two
bags
of mail that they have stolen from the people of
the
United States, and I am commanding
you, under my
authority as a federal official, to gather an armed party and
assist in their recovery!”
Gordon had had a lot of practice with the role in recent
months,
but never had he dared such an arrogant pose. It had completely
carried him away. When one of the wide-eyed villagers started
stammering, he cut the man short, his voice shaking with outrage as
he told them of the wrath that would fall when the restored nation
learned of this shame- how a silly little hamlet had cowered behind
its walls and so let their country’s sworn enemies
escape.
His eyes narrowed as he growled lowly, “You ignorant bumpkins
have ten minutes to form your militia and be
ready to
ride, or I warn you, the consequences will be far
more
unpleasant for you all than a forced march in the
rain!”
The townsfolk blinked in astonishment. Most of them had not
even
moved, but stared at his uniform, and the shiny badge on his peaked
hat. The true danger that faced them they could try to ignore, but
this fantastic story had to be swallowed whole, or
not at
all.
For a long moment the tableau held-and Gordon stared them down
until it broke.
All at once men were shouting at one another, running about to
gather weapons. Women hurried to prepare the horses and gear.
Gordon was left standing there-his poncho like a cape whipping
behind him in the blustery wind-cursing silently while the Harrisburg guard turned out around
him.
What, in God’s name, came over
me? he asked
himself at last.
Maybe his role was starting to get to him. For during those
tense moments, as he had faced down an entire town, he had truly
believed! He had felt the power of his role-the
potent
anger of a servant of the People, thwarted in a high task by little
men…
The episode left him shaken, and a little uncertain of his own
mental equilibrium.
One thing was clear. He had hoped to give up the postman scam
on
reaching northern Oregon; but that was no longer possible. He was
stuck with it now, for better or for worse.
All was ready in a quarter of an hour. He left the boy in the
care of a local family and departed with the posse in a drizzling
rain.
The ride was quicker this time, in daylight and with remounts.
Gordon made sure they sent out scouts and flankers to guard against
ambush, and kept the main party in three separated squads. When
they finally arrived at the UO campus, the militia dismounted to
converge on the Student Center.
Although the locals outnumbered the survivalist band by at
least
eight to one, Gordon figured the odds were actually about even.
Wincing at every sound as the clumsy farmers approached the scene
of the massacre, he nervously scanned the rooftops and
windows.
I hear that down south they stopped the Holnists
with sheer
guts and determination. They’ve got some legendary Ieader, down
there, who’s whipped the survivalists three falls out of four. Must
be the xeason the bastards are trying this end run up the coast.
Things are different up here.
If this invasion ever really develops, these locals
haven’t
got a chance.
When they finally burst into the Student Center the raiders
were
long gone. The fireplace was cold. Tracks in the muddy street led
westward, toward the coastal passes and the sea.
The victims of the massacre were found laid out in the old
cafeteria, ears and other… parts… removed as trophies.
The villagers stared at the havoc the automatic rifles had wrought,
rediscovering uncomfortable memories of the early
days.
Gordon had to remind them to get a burial detail
together.
It was a frustrating morning. There was no way to prove who
the
bandits had been. Not without following them. And Gordon wasn’t
about to try with this reluctant band of farmers. They already
wanted to go home to their tall, safe stockade. Sighing, Gordon
insisted that they make one more stop.
In the dank, ruined university gymnasium he found his mail
sacks-one untouched where he had hidden it, the other torn open,
letters scattered and trodden on the floor.
Gordon put on an irate show of fury for the benefit of the
locals, who hurried obsequiously to help him collect and bag the
remains. He played the role of the outraged postal inspector to the
hilt, calling down vengeance on those who dared interfere with the
mail.
But this time it was really only an act. Inside, all Gordon
could think of was how hungry and tired of it all he
was.
The slow, plodding ride back in a chill fog was sheer hell.
But
the ordeal went on at Harrisburg. There Gordon had to go through
all the motions again… passing out a few letters he had
collected in the towns south of Eugene… listening to tearful
jubilation as a couple of lucky ones learned of a relative or
friend thought long dead… appointing a local postmaster…
enduring another silly celebration.
The next day he awoke stiff and sore and a little feverish.
His
dreams had been dire-all ending with a questioning, hopeful look in
a dying woman’s eyes.
Nothing the villagers could say would make him remain another
hour. He saddled a fresh horse, secured the mailbags, and headed
north immediately after breakfast.
It was time, at last, to go see Cyclops.
5
CORVALLIS
May 18, 2011
Transmittal via: Shedd, Harrisburg, Creswell, Cottage Grove,
Culp Creek, Oakridge, to Pine View
Dear Mrs. Thompson,
Your first three letters finally caught up with me in Shedd,
just south of Corvallis. I can’t tell you how glad I was to get
them. And news from Abby and Michael too-I’m very happy for them
both, and I hope it will be a girl.
I note that you’ve expanded your local mail route to include
Gilchrist, New Bend, and Redmond. Enclosed are temporary warrants
for the postmasters you recommended, to be confirmed later. Your
initiative is to be applauded.
The news of a change in regime in Oakridge was welcome. I hope
their revolution lasts.
It was quiet in the paneled guest room as the silver fountain
pen scritch-scratched across the slightly yellowed paper. Through
the open window, with a pale moon shining amid scattered night
clouds, Gordon could hear distant music and laughter from the
hoedown he had left a little while ago, pleading
fatigue.
By now Gordon was accustomed to these exuberant first-day
festivities, as locals pulled out the stops for the visiting
“Government Man.” The biggest difference here was that he had not
seen so many people in one place since the food center riots, long,
long ago.
The music was still of the land; with the Fall, people
everywhere had returned to the fiddle and the banjo, to simple fare
and square dances. In many ways it was all so very
familiar.
But there are other differences as well
Gordon rolled his fountain pen in his fingers and touched the
letters from his friends in Pine View. Arriving with serendipitous
timing, they had been real help in establishing his bona fides. The
mail courier from the southern Willamette-a man Gordon himself had
appointed only two weeks ago-had arrived on a steaming mount and
refused even a glass of water until he reported to “the
Inspector.”
The earnest youth’s behavior emphatically dissolved all
remaining doubts the locals might have had. His fairy tale still
worked.
For now, at least.
Gordon picked up the pen again and wrote.
By now you’ll have received my warning of a possible invasion
by
Rogue River survivalists. I know you’ll take appropriate measures
for the defense of Pine View. Still, here in the strange domain of
Cyclops I find it hard to get anyone to take the
threat
seriously. By today’s standards they’ve been at peace here a very
long time. They treat me well, but people apparently think I am
exaggerating the threat.
Tomorrow, at last, I have my interview. Perhaps I can persuade
Cyclops itself of the danger.
It would be sad if this strange little society led by a
machine
fell to the barbarians. It is the finest thing I have seen since
leaving the civilized east.
Gordon amended the remark in his own mind. The lower
Willamette
was the most civilized area he had encountered in fifteen years,
period. It was a miracle of peace and prosperity,
apparently wrought entirely by an intelligent computer and its
dedicated human servants.
Gordon stopped writing and looked up as the lamp by his desk
flickered. Under a chintz shade, the forty-watt incandescent bulb
winked once more, then returned to a steady glow as the wind
generators two buildings away regained their stride. The light was
soft, but Gordon found his eyes watering each time he looked at it
for even a little while.
He still had not gotten over it. On arriving in Corvallis he
had
seen his first working electric light in over a decade, and had
been forced to excuse himself even as local dignitaries gathered to
welcome him. He took refuge in a washroom to hide until he could
regain his composure. It just wouldn’t do for a supposed
representative of the “Government in Saint Paul City” to be seen
weeping openly at the sight of a few flickering
bulbs.
Corvallis and its environs are divided into independent
boroughs, each supporting about two or three hundred people. All
the land hereabouts is cultivated or ranched, using modern farming
arts and hybrid seed the locals raise themselves. They have managed
to maintain several prewar strains of bio-engineered yeast, and
produce medicines and fertilizers from them.
Of course they’re limited to horse plows, but their smithies
make implements from high-quality steel. They have even started
producing hand-built water- and wind-power turbines-all designed by
Cyclops, of course.
Local craftsmen have expressed an interest in trading with
customers to the south and east. I’ll enclose a list of items
they’re willing to barter for. Copy it and pass it along the line,
will you?
• • •
Gordon had not seen so many happy, well-fed people since
before
the war, nor heard laughter so easy and often. There was a
newspaper and a lending library, and every child in the valley got
at least four years of schooling. Here, at last, was what he had
been looking for since his militia unit broke up in confusion and
despair, a decade and a half ago-a community of good people engaged
in a vigorous effort to rebuild.
Gordon wished he could be a part of it, not a con artist
ripping
them off for a few nights’ meals and a free bed.
Ironically, these people would have accepted the old Gordon
Krantz as a new citizen. But he was indelibly branded by the
uniform he wore and by his actions back at Harrisburg. If he
revealed the truth now, he was certain they would never forgive
him.
He had to be a demigod in their eyes, or nothing at all. If
ever
a man was trapped in his own lie…
Gordon shook his head. He would have to take the hand he had
been dealt. Perhaps these people really could use a
mailman.
So far I haven’t been able to find out much about Cyclops
itself. I’ve been told that the supercomputer does not govern
directly, but insists that all the villages and towns it serves
live together peaceably and democratically. In effect, it has
become judge-arbitrator for the entire lower Willamette, all the
way north to the Columbia.
The Council tells me Cyclops is very interested in seeing a
formal mail route created, and has offered every assistance. He…
I mean, it… seems anxious to cooperate with the Restored
U.S.
Everyone, of course, was glad to hear that they would soon be
in
contact with the rest of the country again-
Gordon looked at the last line for a long moment, his pen
poised, and realized that he simply couldn’t go on with the lies
tonight. It was no longer amusing, knowing Mrs. Thompson would read
through them.
It made him feel sad.
Just as well, he thought. I
have a busy day
tomorrow. He covered the pen and got up to prepare for
bed.
While he washed his face, he thought about the last
time he had met one of the legendary supercomputers. It had been
only months before the war, when he was an eighteen-year-old
sophomore in college. All the talk had been about the new
“intelligent” machines just then being unveiled in a few
locations.
It was a time of excitement. The media trumpeted the
breakthrough as the end of humanity’s long loneliness. Only instead
of coming from outer space, the “other intelligences” with whom man
would share his world would be his own creations.
The neohippies and campus editors of New
Renaissance
Magazine held a grand birthday party the day the University
of
Minnesota put one of the latest supercomps on display. Balloons
floated by, aerostat artists pedaled overhead, music filled the air
while people picnicked on the lawns.
In the midst of it all-inside a mammoth, metal-mesh Faraday
cage
suspended on a cushion of air-they had sealed the helium-cooled
cylinder containing Millichrome, Set up this way,
internally powered and shielded, there was no way anyone from the
outside could fake the mechanical brain’s responses.
He stood in line for hours that afternoon. When at last
Gordon’s
turn came to step forward and face the narrow camera lens, he
brought out a list of test questions, two riddles, and a
complicated play on words.
It was so very long ago, that bright day in the spring of
hope,
yet Gordon remembered it as if it were yesterday… the low,
mellifluous voice, the friendly, open laughter of the machine. On
that day Millichrome met all his challenges, and
responded
with an intricate pun of its own.
It also chided him, gently, for not doing as well as expected
on
a recent history exam.
When his turn was over, Gordon had walked away feeling a
great,
heady joy that his species had created such a
wonder.
The Doomwar came soon thereafter. For seventeen awful years he
had simply assumed that all of the beautiful supercomps were dead,
like the broken hopes of a nation and a world. But here, by some
wonder, one lived! Somehow, by pluck and ingenuity, the Oregon
State techs had managed to keep a machine going through all the bad
years. He couldn’t help feeling unworthy and presumptuous to have
come posing among such men and women.
Gordon reverently switched off the electric light and lay in
bed, listening to the night. In the distance, the music from the
Corvallis hoedown finally ended with a whooping cheer. Then he
could hear the crowd dispersing for home.
Finally, the evening quieted down. There was wind in the trees
outside his window, and the faint whine of the nearby compressors
that kept the delicate brain of Cyclops supercold and
healthy.
And there was something else as well. Through the night came a
rich, soft, sweet sound that he could barely place, though it
tugged at his memory.
After a while it came to him. Somebody, probably one of the
technicians, was playing classical music on a
stereo.
A stereo… Gordon tasted the word.
He had nothing
against banjos and fiddles, but after fifteen years… to hear
Beethoven once again.
Sleep came at last, and the symphony blended into his
dreaming.
The notes rose and fell, and finally melded with a gentle,
melodious voice that spoke to him across the decades. An
articulated metal hand extended past the fog of years and pointed
straight at him.
“Liar!” the voice said softly, sadly. “You
disappoint me so.
“How can I help you, my
makers, if you tell only
lies?”
6
DENA
“This former factory is where we salvage equipment for the
Millenium Project. You can see we’ve really hardly begun. We can’t
start building true robots, as Cyclops’s plans call for later on,
until we’ve recovered some industrial capability
first.”
Gordon’s guide led him down a cavern of shelves stacked high
with the implements of another era. “The first step, of course, was
to try to save as much as we could from rot and decay. Only some of
the salvage is kept here. What has no near-term potential is stored
elsewhere, against a future day.”
Peter Aage, a lanky blond man only a little older than Gordon,
must have been a student at Corvallis State University when war
broke out. He was one of the youngest to wear the black-trimmed
white coat of a Servant of Cyclops, but even he showed gray at the
temples.
Aage also was the uncle and sole surviving relative of the
small
boy Gordon had rescued in the ruins of Eugene. The man had not made
any great display of gratitude, but it was clear he felt indebted
to Gordon. None of those outranking him among the Servants had
interfered when he insisted on being the one to show the visitor
Cyclops’s program to hold off the dark age in
Oregon.
“Here we’ve begun repairing some small computers and other
simple machines,” Aage told Gordon, leading him past stacks of
sorted and labeled electronics. “The hardest part is replacing
circuits burned out in those first few instants of the war, by
those high-frequency electromagnetic pulses the enemy set off above
the continent-you know, by the very first bombs?”
Gordon smiled indulgently, and Aage reddened. He raised a hand
in apology. “I’m sorry. I’m just so used to having to explain
everything so simply… Of course you East-em folks probably
know a lot more about the EMP than we do.”
“I am not a technical man,” Gordon answered, and wished he had
not bluffed so well. He would have liked to have heard
more.
But Aage went back to the subject at hand. “As I was saying,
this is where most of the salvage work is done. It’s painstaking
effort, but as soon as electricity can be provided on a wider
scale, and once more basic needs have been addressed-we plan to put
these microcomputers back in outlying villages, schools, and
machine shops. It’s an ambitious goal, but Cyclops is certain we
can make it happen in our lifetimes.”
The cavern of shelves opened up into a vast factory floor.
Long
banks of overhead skylights spanned the ceiling, so the
fluorescents were used only sparingly. Still, there was a faint hum
of electricity on all sides as white-coated techs carted equipment
to and fro. Against every wall was stacked tribute from the
surrounding towns and hamlets-payment for the benign guidance of
Cyclops.
More machinery of all kinds-plus a small tithe of food and
clothing for Cyclops’s human helpers-came in every day. And yet,
from all Gordon had heard, this salvage was easily spared by the
people of the valley. After all, what use had they for the old
machines, anyway?
No wonder there were no complaints of a “tyranny by machine.”
The supercomputer’s price was easily met. And in exchange, the
valley had its Solomon-and perhaps a Moses to lead them out of this
wilderness. Remembering that gentle, wise voice from so long ago,
Gordon recognized a bargain.
“Cyclops has carefully planned this stage of the transition,”
Aage explained. “You saw our small assembly line for water and wind
turbines. Besides that, we help area blacksmiths improve their
forges and local farmers plan their crops. And by distributing old
hand-held video games to children in the valley, we hope to make
them receptive to better things, such as computers, when the time
comes.”
They passed a bench where gray-haired workers bent over
flashing
lights and screens bright with computer code. A bit lightheaded
from all this, Gordon felt as if he had accidentally stumbled into
a bright, wondrous workshop where shattered dreams were being
carefully put back together by a band of earnest, friendly
gnomes.
Most of the technicians were now well into or past middle age.
To Gordon it seemed they were in a hurry to accomplish as much as
possible before the educated generation passed away
forever.
“Of course now that contact has been reestablished with the
Restored U.S.,” Peter Aage continued, “we can hope to make faster
progress. For instance, I could give you a long list of chips we
haven’t any way to manufacture. They would make a world of
difference. Only eight ounces’ worth could push Cyclops’s program
ahead by four years, if Saint Paul City can provide what we
need.”
Gordon didn’t want to meet the fellow’s eyes. He bent over a
disassembled computer, pretending to pore over the complicated
innards. “I know little about such matters,” he said, swallowing.
“Anyway, back East there have been other priorities than
distributing video games.”
He had said it that way in order not to lie any more than he
had
to. But the Servant of Cyclops paled as if he had been
struck.
“Oh. I’m so stupid. Certainly they’ve had to deal with
terrible
radiation and plagues and famine and Holnists… I guess maybe
we’ve been pretty lucky, here in Oregon. Of course we’ll just have
to manage on our own until the rest of the country can help
out.”
Gordon nodded. Both men were speaking literal truths, but only
one knew just how sadly true the words were.
In the uncomfortable silence, Gordon reached for the very
first
question that came to mind. “So, you distribute toys with
batteries, as sort of missionary tools?”
Aage laughed. “Yes, that’s how you first heard of us, isn’t
it?
It sounds primitive, I know. But it works. Come, I’ll introduce you
to the head of that project. If anyone is a real throwback to the
Twentieth Century, it’s Dena Spurgen. You’ll see what I mean when
you meet her.”
He led Gordon through a side door and down a hallway cluttered
with stacked odds and ends, coming at last to a room that seemed
alive with a faint electric hum.
Everywhere there were racks of wires, looking much like
strands
of ivy climbing the walls alive. Socketed amidst the tangle were
scores of little cubes and cylinders. Even after all these years,
Gordon quickly recognized all manner of rechargeable batteries,
drawing current from the Corval-lis generators.
Across the long room, three civilians listened to a
longhaired,
blond person wearing the black-on-white coat of a Servant. Gordon
blinked in surprise as he noticed that all four were young
women.
Aage whispered in his ear. “I ought to warn you. Dena may be
the
youngest of all the Servants of Cyclops, but in one way she’s a
museum piece. A genuine, bona fide, rip-snorting
feminist.”
Aage grinned. So many things had gone with the Fall of
civilization. There were words in common use, back in the old days,
that one never even heard anymore. Gordon looked again in
curiosity.
She was tall, especially for a woman who had grown up in these
times. Since she was facing the other way, Gordon couldn’t tell
much about her appearance, but her voice was low and certain as she
spoke to the other intense young women.
“So on your next run I don’t want you taking chances like that
again, Tracy. Do you hear me? It took a year of holding my breath
and threatening to turn blue before I was able to get us this
assignment. Never mind that it’s a logical solution-that outland
villagers tend to feel less threatened when the emissary is a
woman. All the logic in the world would come to nothing if one of
you girls came to harm!”
“But Dena,” a tough-looking little brunette protested.
“Tillamook’s already heard of Cyclops! It was
just a quick
hop over from my own village. Anyway, whenever I take Sam and Homer
along they just slow me-”
“Never mind!” the taller woman interrupted. “You just take
those
boys with you next time. I mean it! Or I promise you I’lll have you
back in Beaverville in two shakes, teaching school and making
babies…”
She stopped abruptly as she noticed that her assistants
weren’t
paying attention anymore. They were staring at
Gordon.
“Dena, come over and meet the Inspector,” Peter Aage said.
“I’m
sure he’d like to see your recharging facility and hear about
your-missionary work.”
Aage spoke to Gordon, sotto voce with a wry smile. “Actually,
it
was introduce you or face a broken arm. Watch yourself, Gordon.” As
the woman Servant approached, he said louder, “I have some matters
to look into. I’ll be back in a few minutes to take you to your
interview.”
Gordon nodded as the man left. He felt somehow exposed here,
with these women staring at him this way.
“That’s it for now, girls. I’ll see you tomorrow afternoon and
well plan the next trip.” The others protested with entreating
looks. But Dena’s head shake sent them out the door. Their shy
smiles and giggles-as Gordon tipped his cap-contrasted with the
long knives each wore at hip and boot.
Only when Dena Spurgen smiled, offering Gordon an outstretched
hand, did he realize how young she had to be.
She can’t have been more than six when the bombs
went
off.
Her grip was as firm as her demeanor, and yet her smooth,
barely
calloused hand told of a life spent more among books than threshers
and plows. Her green eyes met his in frank inspection. Gordon
wondered when he had last met anyone like this.
Minneapolis, that crazy sophomore year,
came his
answer. Only then she had been a senior. Amazing 1 should
remember that girl now, after so long.
Dena laughed. “Have I your permission to anticipate your
question? Yes, I am young and female, and not really qualified to
be a full Servant, let alone to be put in charge of an important
project.”
“Forgive me,” he nodded, “but those were my
thoughts.”
“Oh, no problem. Everybody calls me an anachronism, anyway.
The
truth is, I was adopted as a waif by Dr. Lazarensky and Dr. Taigher
and the others, after the Anti-Tech Riots killed my parents. I have
been spoiled terribly since, and learned how to take full
advantage. As, no doubt, you guessed on overhearing what I had to
say to my girls/‘
Gordon finally decided her features could best be described as
“handsome.” Perhaps a bit long and square-jawed. But when she was
laughing at herself, as now, Dena Spurgen’s face lit
up.
“Anyway,” she added, motioning at the wall of wires and little
cylinders. “We may not be able to train any more engineers, but it
doesn’t take much brains to learn how to cram electrons into a
battery.”
Gordon laughed. “You’re unfair to yourself. I had to take
introductory physics twice. Anyway, Cyclops must know what he’s
doing, putting you in this job.”
This brought a reddening to Dena’s face as she blushed and
looked down. “Yes, well, I suppose so.”
Modesty? Gordon wondered. This
one is full of
surprises. I wouldn’t have expected it.
“Oh rats. So soon. Here comes Peter,” she said in a much
softer
voice.
Peter Aage could be seen negotiating the clutter in the
hallway.
Gordon looked at his old-fashioned mechanical watch-one of the
techs had adjusted it so that it no longer ran half a minute fast
on the hour. “No wonder. My interview is in ten minutes,” he said
as they shook hands again. “But I do hope we’ll have another chance
to talk, Dena.”
Her grin was back. “Oh, you can bet we will. I want to ask you
some questions about the way life was for you, back in the days
before the war.”
Not about the Restored U.S., but
about the old
times. Unusual. And in that case, why me? What can
I
tell her about the Lost Age that she can’t learn by picking
the
memories of anyone else over thirty-five?
Puzzled, he met Peter Aage in the hallway and walked with him
through the cavernous warehouse toward the exit.
“I’m sorry to rush you off like this,” Aage told him, “but we
musn’t be late. One thing we don’t want is for Cyclops to scold
us!” He grinned, but Gordon got the feeling Aage was only partly
jesting. Guards bearing rifles and white armbands nodded as they
passed outside into overcast sunshine.
“I do hope your talk with Cyclops goes well, Gordon,” his
guide
said. “We’re all excited to be in contact with the rest of the
country again, of course. I’m sure Cyclops will want to cooperate
in any way he can.”
Cyclops. Gordon returned to reality. There’s
no
delaying this. And I don’t even know if I’m more
eager
than scared.
He steeled himself to play out the charade to the end. He had
no
other choice. “I feel exactly the same,” he said. “I want to help
you folks any way I can.” And he meant it, with all his
heart.
Peter Aage turned away to lead him across the neatly mowed
lawn
toward the House of Cyclops. But for a moment Gordon wondered. Had
he imagined it, or had he seen, for just a moment, a strange
expression in the tech’s eyes-one of sad and profound
guilt?
7
CYCLOPS
The foyer of the House of Cyclops-once the OSU Artificial
Intelligence Laboratory-was a striking reminder of a more elegant
era. The gold carpet was freshly vacuumed and only slightly frayed.
Bright fluorescents shone on fine furniture in the paneled lobby,
where peasants and officials from villages as far as forty miles
away nervously twisted rolled-up petitions as they waited for their
brief interviews with the great machine.
When the townsmen and farmers saw Gordon enter, all of them
stood up. A few of the more daring approached and earnestly shook
his hand in calloused, work-roughened clasps. The hope and wonder
were intense in their eyes, in their low, respectful tones. Gordon
froze his mind behind a smile and nodded pleasantly, wishing he and
Aage could wait somewhere else.
At last, the pretty receptionist smiled and motioned them
through the doors at the end of the foyer. As Gordon and his guide
passed down the long hallway to the interview chamber, two men
approached from the other end. One was a Servant of Cyclops,
wearing the familiar black-trimmed white coat. The other-a citizen
dressed in a faded but carefully tended prewar suit-frowned over a
long sheet of computer printout.
“I’m still not sure I understand, Dr.
Grober. Is
Cyclops sayin‘ we dig the well near the north hollow or
not? His answer isn’t any too clear, if you ask
me.”
“Now Herb, you tell your people it isn’t Cyclops’s job to
figure
everything down to the last detail. He can narrow down the choices,
but he can’t make the final decisions for you.”
The farmer tugged at his overtight collar. “Sure, everybody
knows that. But we’ve gotten straighter answers from him in th‘
past. Why can’t he be clearer this time?”
“Well for one thing, Herb, it’s been over twenty years since
the
geological maps in Cyclops’s memory banks were updated. Then you’re
also certainly aware that Cyclops was designed to talk to
high-level experts, right? So of course a lot of
his
explanations will go over our heads… sometimes even we few
scientists who survived.”
“Yes, b-but…” At that moment the citizen glanced up and
saw
Gordon approaching. He moved as if to remove the hat he was not
wearing, then wiped his palm on his pants leg and nervously
extended it.
“Herb Kalo of Sciotown, Mr. Inspector. This is indeed an
honor,
sir.”
Gordon muttered pleasantries as he shook the man’s hand,
feeling
more than ever like a politician.
“Yes sir, Mr. Inspector. An honor! I sure hope your plans
include coming up our way and setting up a post office. If they do,
I can promise you a wingding like you’ve never-”
“Now Herb,” the older technician interrupted. “Mr. Krantz is
here for a meeting with Cyclops.” He looked at his digital watch
pointedly.
Kalo blushed and nodded. “Remember that invite, Mr. Krantz.
We’ll take good care of you…” He seemed almost to bow as he
backed down the hall toward the foyer. The others didn’t appear to
notice, but for a moment Gordon’s cheeks felt as if they were on
fire.
“They’re waiting for you, sir,” the senior tech told him, and
led the way down the long corridor.
Gordon’s life in the wilderness had made his ears more
sensitive
than these townsmen perhaps realized. So when he heard a mutter of
argument ahead-as he and his guides approached the open door of the
conference room- Gordon purposely slowed down, as if to brush a few
specks of lint from his uniform.
“How do we even know those documents he showed us were real!”
someone up ahead was asking. “Sure they had seals all over them,
but they still looked pretty crude. And that
story about
laser satellites is pretty damn pat, if you ask me.”
“Perhaps. But it also explains why we’ve heard nothing in
fifteen years!” another voice replied. “And if he were faking, how
do you explain those letters that courier brought? Elias Murphy
over in Albany heard from his long-lost sister, and George Seavers
has left his farm in Greenbury to go see his wife in Curtin, after
all these years thinking she was dead!”
“I don’t see where it matters,” a third voice said softly.
“The
people believe, and that’s what counts…”
Peter Aage hurried ahead and cleared his throat at the
doorway.
As Gordon followed, four white-coated men and two women rose from a
polished oak table in the softly lit conference room. All except
Peter were clearly well past middle age.
Gordon shook hands all around, grateful that he had met them
all
earlier; for it would have been impossible to remember
introductions under these circumstances. He tried to be polite, but
his gaze kept drifting to the broad sheet of thick glass that split
the meeting room in two.
The table ended abruptly at that division. And although the
conference room’s lighting was low, the chamber beyond was even
darker. A single spotlight shone on a shimmering, opalescent
face-like a pearl, or a moon in the night.
Behind the single, gleaming, gray camera lens was a dark
cylinder on which two banks of little flashing lights rippled in a
complex pattern that seemed to repeat over and over again.
Something in the repetitious waves touched Gordon inside… He
couldn’t pin down exactly how. It was hard to tear his gaze away
from the rows of winking pinpoints.
The machine was swaddled in a soft cloud of thick
vapor. And although the glass was thick, Gordon
felt a
faint sense of cold coming from the far end of the
room.
The First Servant, Dr. Edward Taigher, took Gordon by the arm
and faced the glass eye.
“Cyclops,” he said. “I’d like you to meet Mr. Gordon Krantz.
He
has presented credentials showing him to be a United States
government postal inspector, and representative of the restored
republic.
“Mr. Krantz, may I present Cyclops.”
Gordon looked at the pearly lens-at the flashing lights and
the
drifting fog-and had to quash the feeling of being like a small
child who had seriously overreached himself in his
lies.
“It is very good to meet you, Gordon. Please, be
seated.”
The gentle voice had a perfect human timbre. It came from a
speaker set on the end of the oak table. Gordon sat in a padded
chair Peter Aage offered. There was a pause. Then Cyclops spoke
again.
“The tidings you bring are joyous, Gordon. After all these
years
caring for the people of the lower Willamette Valley, it seems
almost too good to be true.”
Another brief hiatus, then, “It has been rewarding, working
with
my friends who insist on calling themselves my ‘Servants.’ But it
has also been lonely and hard, imagining the rest of the world to
lie in ruins.
“Please tell me, Gordon. Do any of my brothers still survive
in
the East?”
He had to blink. Finding his voice, Gordon shook his head.
“No,
Cyclops. I’m very sorry. None of the other great machines made it
through the destruction. I’m afraid you are the last of your
species left alive.”
Though he regretted having to give it the news, he hoped it
was
a good omen to be able to start out by telling the
truth.
Cyclops was silent for a long moment. Surely it was only his
imagination when Gordon thought he heard a faint sigh, almost like
a sob.
During the pause, the tiny parity lights below the camera lens
went on flashing, as if signaling over and over again in some
hidden language. Gordon knew he had to keep talking, or lose
himself in that hypnotic pattern. “Uh, in fact, Cyclops, most of
the big computers died in the first seconds of the war-you know,
the electromagnetic pulses. I can’t help being curious how you
yourself survived it.”
Like Gordon, the machine seemed to shake aside a sad
contemplation in order to answer.
“That is a good question. It turns out that my survival was a
fortunate accident of timing. You see the war broke out on
Visitor’s Day, here at OSU. When the pulses flew, I happened to be
in my Faraday cage for a public demonstration. So you see…”
Interested as he was in Cyclops’s story, Gordon felt a
momentary
sense of triumph. He had taken the initiative in this interview,
asking questions exactly as a “federal inspector” would. He glanced
at the sober faces of the human Servants, and knew he had won a
small victory. They were taking him very seriously
indeed.
Maybe this would work out, after all.
Still, he avoided looking at the rippling lights. And soon he
felt himself begin to sweat, even in the coolness near the
superchilled pane of glass.
8
In four days the meetings and negotiations were over.
Suddenly,
before he had really prepared himself, it was time to leave again.
Peter Aage walked with Gordon, helping him carry his two slim
saddlebags toward the stables where his mounts were being
readied.
“I’m sorry it took so long, Gordon. I know you’ve been anxious
to get back to work building your postal network. Cyclops only
wanted to fix up the right itinerary for you, so you can swing
through north Oregon most efficiently.”
“That’s all right, Peter,” Gordon shrugged, pretending. “The
delay wasn’t bad, and I appreciate the help.”
They walked for a time in silence, Gordon’s thoughts a hidden
turmoil. If Peter only knew how much I would have preferred
to
stay. If only there were a way…
Gordon had come to love the simple
comfort of his guest
room, across from the House of Cyclops, the large and pleasant
commissary meals, the impressive library of well-cared-for books.
Perhaps most of all he would miss the electric light by his bed. He
had read himself to sleep each of the last four nights, a habit of
his youth, quickly reawakened after long, long
dormancy.
A pair of tan-jacketed guards tipped their hats as Gordon and
Aage turned the corner of the House of Cyclops and started across
an open field on their way to the stables.
While he waited for Cyclops to prepare his itinerary, Gordon
had
visited much of the area around Corvallis, talking with dozens of
people about scientific farming, about simple but technically
advanced crafts, and about the theory behind the loose
confederation that made for Cyclops’s peace. The secret of the
Valley was simple. No one wanted to fight, not when it might mean
being left out of the cornucopia of wonders promised someday by the
great machine.
But one conversation, in particular, stuck in his head. It had
been last night, with the youngest Servant of Cyclops, Dena
Spurgen.
She had kept him up late by the fire in the commissary,
chaperoned by two of her girl emissaries, pouring cups of tea until
he sloshed, pestering him with questions about his life before and
after the Doomwar.
Gordon had learned many tricks to avoid getting too specific
about the “Restored United States,” but he had no defense against
this sort of grilling. She seemed far less interested in the thing
that excited everyone else, contact with the “rest of the nation.”
Clearly, that was a process that would take decades.
No, Dena wanted to know about the world just before and after
the bombs. She was especially fascinated by that awful, tragic year
he had spent with Lieutenant Van and his militia platoon. She
wanted to know about every man in the unit, his flaws and foibles,
the courage-or obstinacy-that made him continue to fight long after
the cause was lost.
No… not lost. Gordon had reminded himself just in time to
invent a happy ending to the Battle of Meeker County. The cavalry
came. The granaries were saved at the last minute. Good men died-he
spared no details of Tiny Kielre’s agony, or Drew Simms’s brave
stand-but in his tale their struggles were not for
nothing.
He told it the way it should have ended,
feeling the
wish with an intensity that surprised him. The women listened with
rapt attention, as if it were a wonderful bedtime story-or as if it
were critical data and they were going to be tested on it in the
morning.
I wish I knew exactly what it was they were hearing-
what they were trying to find in my own small, grimy
tale.
Perhaps it was because the Lower Willamette had been at peace
for so long, but Dena had also wanted to know about the
worst men he had met, as well… everything he
knew
about the looters and hyper-survivalists and
Holnists.
The cancer at the heart of the end-of-the-century
renaissance… I hope you are burning in Hell,
Nathan
Holn.
Dena kept asking questions even after Tracy and Mary Ann had
fallen asleep by the fire. Normally, he would have been aroused by
such close, admiring attention from an attractive woman. But this
was not the same as it had been with Abby, back in Pine View. Dena
had not seemed uninterested in him that way, to be sure. It was
just that she seemed much more intensely involved
in his
value as a source of information. And if he was only to be here for
a few days, she was completely unhesitant in choosing how best to
use the time.
Gordon found her, all in all, overpowering and maybe a bit
obsessed. Yet he knew that she would be unhappy to see him
go.
She was probably the only one. Gordon had the distinct feeling
that most of the other Servants of Cyclops were happy to be rid of
him. Even Peter Aage seemed relieved.
It’s my role, of course. It makes them nervous.
Perhaps,
deep inside, they sense some falseness. I couldn’t really blame
them.
Even if the majority of the techs believed his story, they had
little reason to love a representative of a remote “government”
certain to meddle-sooner or later-in what they had spent so long
building. They talked about eagerness for contact
with the
outside world. But Gordon sensed that many of them felt it would be
an imposition, at best.
Not that they really had anything to fear, of
course.
Gordon still wasn’t sure about the attitude of Cyclops itself.
The great machine who had taken responsibility for an entire valley
had been rather tentative and distant during their later
interviews. There had been no jokes or clever puns, only a smooth
and involute seriousness. The coolness had been disappointing after
his memory of that prewar day in Minneapolis.
Of course his recollection of that other supercomputer long
ago
might have been colored by time. Cyclops and its Servants had
accomplished so much here. He was not one to judge.
Gordon looked around as he and his escort walked past a
cluster
of burned out structures. “It looks like there was a lot of
fighting here once,” he commented aloud.
Peter frowned, remembering. “We pushed back one of the
AntiTech
mobs right over there, by the old utility shed. You can see the
melted transformers and the old emergency generator. We had to
switch over to wind and water power after they blew it
up.”
Blackened shreds of power-converting machinery still lay in
shriveled heaps where the technicians and scientists had fought
desperately to save their lifework. It reminded Gordon of his other
worry.
“I still think more ought to be done about the possibility of
a
survivalist invasion, Peter. It’ll come soon, if I overheard those
scouts right.”
“But you admit you only heard scraps of conversation that
could
have been misinterpreted.” Aage shrugged. “We’ll beef up our
patrols, of course, as soon as we have a chance to draw up plans
and discuss the matter some more. But you must understand that
Cyclops has his own credibility to consider. There hasn’t been a
general mobilization in ten years. If Cyclops made such a call, and
it turned out to be a false alarm…” He let the implication
hang.
Gordon knew that local village leaders had misgivings over his
story. They didn’t want to draw men from the second planting. And
Cyclops had expressed doubts that the Holnist gangs really could
organize for a truly major strike several hundred miles upcoast. It
just wasn’t in the hyper-survivalist mentality, the great machine
explained.
Gordon finally had to take Cyclops’s word for it. After all,
its
superconducting memory banks had access to every psychology text
ever written-and all the works of Holn himself.
Perhaps the Rogue River scouts were merely on a small-time
raid,
and had talked big to impress themselves.
Perhaps.
Well, here we are.
The stable hands took his satchels, containing a few personal
possessions and three books borrowed from the community library.
They had already saddled his new mount, a fine, strong gelding. A
large, placid mare carried supplies and two bulging sacks of
hope-filled mail. If one in fifty of the intended recipients still
lived, it would be a miracle. But for those few a single letter
might mean much, and would begin the long, slow process of
reconnection.
Maybe his role would do some good-enough
at least to
counterbalance a lie…
Gordon swung up onto the gelding. He patted and spoke to the
spirited animal until it was calm. Peter offered his hand. “We’ll
see you again in three months, when you swing by on your way back
East again.”
Almost exactly what Dena Spurgen said. Maybe I’ll be
back
even sooner, if I ever come up with the courage to tell you all the
truth.
“By then, Gordon, Cyclops promises to have a proper report on
conditions here in north Oregon worked up for your
superiors.”
Aage gripped his hand for another moment. Once again Gordon
was
puzzled. The fellow looked as if, somehow, he were unhappy about
something-something he could not speak of. “Godspeed in your
valuable work, Gordon,” he said earnestly. “If there’s ever
anything I can do to help, anything at all, you have only to let me
know.”
Gordon nodded. No more words were needed, thank Heaven. He
nudged the gelding, and swung about onto the road north. The pack
horse followed close behind.
9
BUENA VISTA
The Servants of Cyclops had told him that the Interstate was
broken up and unsafe north of Corvallis, so Gordon used a county
road that paralleled not far to the west. Debris and potholes made
for slow going, and he was forced to take his lunch in the ruins of
the town of Buena Vista.
It was still fairly early in the afternoon, but clouds were
gathering, and tattered shreds of fog blew down the rubble-strewn
streets. By coincidence, it was the day when area farmers gathered
at a park in the center of the unpopulated town for a country
market. Gordon chatted with them as he munched on cheese and bread
from his saddlebags.
“Ain’t nothin‘ wrong with the Interstate up here,” one of the
locals told him, shaking his head in puzzlement. “Them perfessers
must not get out this way much. They aren’t lean travelin’ men such
as yourself, Mr. Krantz. Must’ve got their wires crossed, for all
their buzzin‘ brains.” The farmer chuckled at his own
wit.
Gordon didn’t mention that his itinerary had been planned by
Cyclops itself. He thanked the fellow and went back to his
saddlebags to pull out the map he had been given.
It was covered with an impressive array of computer graphics,
charting out in fine symbols the path he should take in
establishing a postal network in northern Oregon. He had been told
the itinerary was designed to take him most efficiently around
hazards such as known lawless areas and the belt of radioactivity
near Portland.
Gordon stroked his beard. The longer he examined the map, the
more puzzled he grew, Cyclops had to know what it was doing. Yet
the winding path looked anything but efficient to
him.
Against his will he began to suspect it was designed instead
to
take him far out of his way. To waste his time, rather than save
it.
But why would Cyclops want to do such a
thing?
It couldn’t be that the super machine feared his interference.
By now Gordon knew just the right pitch to ease such anxiety…
emphasizing that the “Restored U.S.” had no wish to meddle in local
matters. Cyclops had appeared to believe him.
Gordon lowered the map. The weather was turning as the clouds
lowered, obscuring the tops of the ruined buildings. Drifts of fog
flowed along the dusty street, pushing puffy swirls between him and
a surviving storefront win-dowpane. It brought back a sudden, vivid
recollection of other panes of glass-seen through scattered,
refracting droplets.
Death’s head… the postman
grinning, his
skeletal face superimposed on mine.
He shivered at another triggered recognition. The foggy wisps
reminded him of superchilled vapor-his reflection in the cool glass
wall as he met with Cyclops back in Corvallis-and the strangeness
he had felt watching the rows of little flashing lights, repeating
the same rippling pattern over and over…
Repeating…
Suddenly Gordon’s spine felt very cold.
“No,” he whispered. “Please, God.” He closed his eyes and felt
an almost overwhelming need to change his thoughts to another
track, to think about the weather, about pesterous Dena or pretty
little Abby back in Pine View, about anything but…
“But who would do such a thing?” he
protested aloud.
“Why would they do it?”
Reluctantly, he realized he knew why. He was an expert on the
strongest reason why people told lies.
Recalling the blackened wreckage behind the House of Cyclops,
he
found himself all at once wondering how the techs could possibly
have accomplished what they claimed to have done. It had been
almost two decades since Gordon had thought about physics, and what
could or could not be achieved with technology. The intervening
years had been filled with the struggle to survive-and his
persistent dreams of a golden place of renewal. He was in no
position to say what was or was not possible.
But he had to find out if his wild suspicion was true. He
could
not sleep until he knew for sure.
“Excuse me!” he called to one of the farmers. The fellow gave
Gordon a gap-toothed grin and limped over, doffing his hat. “What
can I do for you, Mr. Inspector?”
Gordon pointed at a spot on the map, no more than ten miles
from
Buena Vista as the crow might fly. “This place, Sciotown, do you
know the way?”
“Sure do, boss. If you hurry, you can get there
tonight/‘
“I’ll hurry,” Gordon assured the man. “You can bet your ass
I’ll
hurry.”
1O
SCIOTOWN
“Just a darn minute! I’m coming!” the Mayor of Sciotown
hollered. But the knock on his door went on
insistently.
Herb Kalo carefully lit his new oil lantern-made by a craft
commune five miles west of Corvallis. He recently had traded two
hundred pounds of Sciotown’s best pottery work for twenty of the
fine lamps and three thousand matches from Albany, a deal he felt
was sure to mean his reelection this fall.
The knocking grew louder. “All right! This had better be damn
important!” He threw the bolt and opened the door.
It was Douglas Kee, the man on gate duty tonight. Kalo
blinked.
“Is there a problem, Doug? What’s the-”
“Man here to see you, Herb,” the gateman interrupted. “I
wouldn’t‘ve let him in after curfew, but you told us about him when
you got back from Corvallis-and I didn’t want to keep him standin’
out in the rain.”
Out of the dripping gloom stepped a tall man in a slick
poncho.
A shiny badge on his cap glittered in the lamplight. He held out
his hand.
“Mr. Mayor, it’s good to see you again. I wonder if we could
talk.”
11
CORVALLIS
Gordon had never expected to forsake an offer of a bed and a
hot
meal to go galloping off into a rainy night, but this time he had
no choice. He had commandeered the best horse in the Sciotown
stables, but if he had had to, he would have run all the
way.
The filly moved surefootedly down an old county road toward
Corvallis. She was brave, and trotted as fast as Gordon considered
marginally safe in the darkness. Fortunately, a nearly full moon
lit the ragged, leaky clouds from above, laying a faint lambence
across the broken countryside.
Gordon was afraid he must have put the Mayor of Sciotown in a
state of utter confusion from the first moment he stepped into the
man’s home. Sparing no time for pleasantries, he had come straight
to the point, sending Herb Kalo hurrying back to his office to
retrieve a neatly folded fan of paper.
Gordon had taken the printout over to the lamp, and as Kalo
watched, he carefully pored over the lines of text. “How much did
this advice cost you, Mr. Mayor?” he asked without looking
up.
“Only a little, Inspector,” the man answered nervously.
“Cyclops’s prices have been dropping as more villages have joined
the trade pact. And there was a discount because the advice was
kinda vague.”
“How much?” Gordon insisted.
“Uh, well. We found about ten of those old hand-held vid‘
games,
plus about fifty old rechargeable batteries, of which maybe ten
were good enough to use. And oh yes, a home computer that wasn’t
too badly corroded.”
Gordon suspected that Sciotown actually had much more salvage
than that, and was hoarding it for future transactions. It was what
he would have done.
“What else, Mr. Mayor?”
“I beg your pardon?”
“The question is clear enough,” he said severely.
“What- else-did-you-pay?”
“Why nathin‘ else.” Kalo looked
confused. “Unless, of
course, you include a wagon of food and pottery for the Servants.
But that’s got hardly any value compared to the other stuff. It’s
just added on so’s the scientists have somethin’ to live off while
they help Cyclops.”
Gordon breathed heavily. His pulse didn’t seem to want to slow
down. It all fit, heartbreakingly.
He laboriously read aloud from the computer printout. “…
incipient seepage from plate tectonic boundaries… groundwater
retention variance…” Words he had not seen-or thought of-in
seventeen years rolled off his tongue, tasting like old delicacies,
lovingly remembered.
“… variation in aquifer sustenance ratios… tentative
analysis only, due to teleological hesitancy…”
“We think we’ve got a line on what Cyclops meant,” Kalo
offered.
“We’ll start digging at the two best sites come dry season. Of
course if we didn’t interpret his advice right, it’ll be our fault.
We’ll try agin‘ in some other spots he hinted at…”
The Mayor’s voice had trailed off, for the Inspector was
standing very still, staring at empty space.
“Delphi,” Gordon had breathed, hardly
above a
whisper.
Then the hasty ride through the night began.
Years in the wilds had made Gordon hard; all the while the men
of Corvallis had suffered prosperity. It was almost ludicrously
easy to slip by the guardposts at the city’s edge.
He made his way down empty side streets to the OSU campus, and
thence to long-abandoned Moreland Hall. Gordon spared ten minutes
to rub down his damp mount and fill her feedbag. He wanted the
animal to be in shape in case he needed her quickly.
It was only a short run through the drizzle to the House of
Cyclops. When he got near, he made himself slow down, though he
wanted desperately to get this over with.
He ducked out of sight behind the ruins of the old generator
building as a pair of guards walked past, shoulders hunched under
ponchos, their rifles covered against the dank. As he crouched
behind the burned-out shell, the wetness brought to Gordon’s
nose-even after all these years- the scent of burning from the
blackened timbers and melted wiring.
What was it Peter Aage had said about those frantic early
days,
when authority was falling apart, and the riots raged? He’d said
that they had converted to wind and water power, after the
generator house was torched.
Gordon didn’t doubt it would have worked, too, if it were done
in time. But could it have been?
When the guards had moved off, he hurried to the side entrance
of the House of Cyclops. With a prybar he had brought for the
purpose, he broke the padlock in one sharp snap. He listened for a
long moment, and when nobody appeared to be coming, slipped
inside.
The back halls of the OSU Artificial Intelligence Lab were
grimier than those the public got to see. Racks of forgotten
computer tapes, books, papers, all lay under thick layers of dust.
Gordon made his way to the central service corridor, almost
stumbling twice over debris in the darkness. He hid behind a pair
of double doors as someone passed by, whistling. Then he rose and
peered through the crack.
A man wearing thick gloves and the black-and-white robe of a
Servant stopped by a door down the hall and put down a thick,
battered, foam picnic chest.
“Hey, Elmer!” The man knocked. “I’ve got another load of dry
ice
for our lord ‘n’ master. Come on, hurry it up! Cyclops gotta
eat!”
Dry ice, Gordon noted. Heavy vapor
leaked around the
cracked lid of the insulated container.
Another voice was muffled by the door. “Aw, hold your horses.
It
won’t hurt Cyclops any to wait another minute or
two.”
At last the door opened and light streamed into the hall,
along
with the heavy beat of an old rock and roll
recording.
“What kept you?”
“I had a run going! I was up to a hundred thousand in Missile
Command, and didn’t want to interrupt-”
The closing door cut off the rest of Elmer’s braggadocio.
Gordon
pushed through the swinging double doors and hurried down the
hallway. A little farther, he reached another room whose door was
slightly ajar. From within came a narrow line of light, and the
sounds of a late-night argument. Gordon paused as he recognized
some of the voices.
“I still think we ought to kill him,” said one; it sounded
like
Dr. Grober. “That guy could wreck everything we’ve set up
here.”
“Oh, you are exaggerating the danger, Nick. I don’t really
think
he’s much of a threat.” It was the voice of the oldest woman
Servant-he couldn’t even remember her name. “The fellow really
seemed rather earnest and harmless,” she said.
“Yeah? Well did you hear those questions he was asking
Cyclops?
He’s not one of these rubes our average citizen has become after
all this time. The man is sharp! And he remembers
an awful
lot from the old days!”
“So? Maybe we should try to recruit him.”
“No way! Anyone can see he’s an idealist. He’d never do it.
Our
only option is to kill him! Now! And hope it’s years before they
send someone else to take his place.”
“And I still think you’re crazy,” the woman answered. “If the
act were ever traced to us, the consequences would be
disastrous!”
“I agree with Marjorie.” It was the voice of Dr. Taigher
himself. “Not only the people-our people of Oregon-would turn on
us, but we would face the retribution of the rest of the country,
if it were found out.”
There was a long pause.
“I’m still not all that convinced that
he’s really-”
But Grober was interrupted, this time by the soft voice of Peter
Aage.
“Haven’t you all forgotten the biggest reason why nobody
should
touch him, or interfere with him in any way?”
“What’s that?”
Peter’s voice was hushed. “Good lord, man. Hasn’t it occurred
to
you who this fellow is? And what he represents? How low have we
sunk, to even consider doing him harm, when we really owe him our
loyalty and any help we can give him!”
Without conviction: “You’re just biased because he rescued
your
nephew, Peter.”
“Perhaps. And perhaps it’s what Dena has to say about
him.”
“Dena!” Grober sniffed. “An infatuated child with wild
ideas.”
“All right But even if I grant you that, too, there are the
flags.”
“Flags?” Now there was puzzlement in Dr. Taigher’s voice.
“What
flags?”
The woman answered, pensively. “Peter is referring to the
flags
the townsmen have been putting up in all the local boroughs. You
know, Old Glory? The Stars and Stripes? You should get out more,
Ed. Get a feel for what the people are thinking. I’ve never seen
anything stir the villagers up like this, even before the
war.”
There was another long silence before anyone spoke again. Then
Grober said, softly, “I wonder what Joseph thinks of all
this.”
Gordon frowned. He recognized all the voices inside as senior
Servants of Cyclops whom he had met. But he didn’t remember being
introduced to anyone named Joseph.
“Joseph went to bed early, I think,” Taigher said. “And that’s
where I’m headed now. We’ll discuss this again later, when we can
go about it rationally.”
Gordon hurried down the hall as footsteps approached the door.
He didn’t much mind being forced to leave his eavesdropping spot.
The opinions of the people in the room were of no importance,
anyway. No importance at all.
There was only one voice he wanted to hear right now, and he
headed straight to where he had listened to it last.
He ducked around a corner and found himself in the elegant
hallway where he had first met Herb Kalo. The passage was dim now,
but that did not keep him from picking the conference room lock
with pathetic ease. Gordon’s mouth was dry as he slipped into the
chamber, closing the door behind him. He stepped forward, fighting
the urge to walk on tiptoes.
Beyond the conference table, soft light shone on the gray
cylinder on the other side of the glass wall.
“Please,” he wished, “let me be wrong.”
If he was, then surely Cyclops itself would be amused by his
chain of faulty deduction. How he longed to share a laugh over his
foolish paranoia.
He approached the great glass barrier dividing the room, and
the
speaker at the end of the table. “Cyclops?” he whispered, stepping
closer, clearing his tight throat. “Cyclops, it’s me,
Gordon.”
The glow in the pearly lens was subdued. But the row of little
lights still flashed-a complex pattern that repeated over and over
like an urgent message from a distant ship in some lost code-ever,
hypnotically, the same.
Gordon felt a frantic dread rise within him, as when, during
his
boyhood, he had encountered his grandfather lying perfectly still
on the porch swing, and feared to find that the beloved old man had
died.
The pattern of lights repeated, over and over.
Gordon wondered. How many people would recall, after the hell
of
the last seventeen years, that the parity displays of a great
computer never repeated themselves? Gordon remembered a
cyberneticist friend telling him that the patterns of lights were
like snowflakes, none ever the same as any other
“Cyclops,” he said evenly. “Answer me! I
demand you answer-in the name of decency! In the
name of
the United St-”
He stopped. He couldn’t bring himself to meet this lie with
another. Here, the only living mind he would fool would be
himself.
The room was warmer than it had seemed during his interview.
He
looked for, and found, the little vents through which cool air
could be directed at a visitor seated in the guest chair, giving an
impression of great cold just beyond the glass wall.
“Dry ice,” he muttered. “To fool the citizens of
Oz.”
Dorothy herself could not have felt more betrayed. Gordon had
been willing to lay down his life for what had seemed to exist
here. And now he knew it was nothing but a cheat. A way for a bunch
of surviving sophisticates to fleece their neighbors of food and
clothing, and have them be grateful for the
privilege.
By creating the myth of the “Millennium Project” and a market
for salvaged electronics, they had managed to convince the locals
that the old electric machines were of great value. All through the
lower Willamette Valley, people now hoarded home comps, appliances,
and toys-because Cy- clops would accept them in
trade for
its advice.
The “Servants of Cyclops” had arranged it so that canny people
like Herb Kalo hardly even counted the tithe of food and other
goods that were added for the Servants
themselves.
The scientists ate well, Gordon remembered. And none of the
farmers ever complained.
“It’s not your fault,” he told the silent machine, softly.
“You
really would have designed the tools, made up for
all the
lost expertise-helped us find the road back. You and your kind were
the greatest thing we had ever done…”
He choked, remembering the warm, wise voice in Minneapolis, so
long ago. His vision blurred and he looked down.
“You are right, Gordon. It is nobody’s
fault”
Gordon gasped. In a flash, molten hope burned that he had been
mistaken! It was the voice of Cyclops!
But it had not come from the speaker grille. He turned
quickly,
and saw-
-that a thin old man sat in the shadowed back corner of the
room, watching him.
“I often come here, you know.” The aged one spoke with the
voice
of Cyclops-a sad voice, filled with regret. “I come to sit with the
ghost of my friend, who died so long ago, right here in this
room.”
The old man leaned forward a little. Pearly light shone on his
face. “My name is Joseph Lazarensky, Gordon. I built Cyclops, so
many years ago.” He looked down at his hands. “I oversaw his
programming and education. I loved him as I would my own
son.
“And like any good father, I was proud to know that he would
be
a better, kinder, more human being than I had
been.”
Lazarensky sighed. “He really did survive the onset of the
war,
you know. That part of the story is true. Cyclops was
in
his Faraday cage, safe from the battle pulses. And he remained
there while we fought to keep him alive.
“The first and only time I ever killed a man was on the night
of
the Anti-Tech riots. I helped defend the powerhouse, shooting like
somebody crazed.
“But it was no use. The generators were destroyed, even as the
militia finally arrived to drive the mad crowds back… too
late. Minutes, years too late.”
He spread his hands. “As you seem to have figured out, Gordon,
there was nothing to do after that… nothing but to sit with
Cyclops, and watch him die.”
Gordon remained very still, standing in the ghostly ashlight.
Lazarensky went on.
“We had built up great hopes, you know. Before the riots we
had
already conceived of the Millenium Plan. Or I should say
Cyclops conceived of it. He already had the
outlines of a
program for rebuilding the world. He needed a couple of months, he
said, to work out the details.”
Gordon felt as if his face were made of stone. He waited
silently.
“Do you know anything about quantum-memory bubbles, Gordon?
Compared to them, Josephson junctions are made of sticks and mud.
The bubbles are as light and fragile as thought. They allow
mentation a million times faster than neurons. But they must be
kept supercold to exist at all. And once destroyed, they cannot be
remade.
“We tried to save him, but we could not.” The old man looked
down again. “I would rather have died myself, that
night.”
“So you decided to carry out the plan on your own,” Gordon
suggested dryly.
Lazarensky shook his head. “You know better, of course.
Without
Cyclops the task was impossible. All we could do was present a
shell. An illusion.
“It offered a way to survive in the coming dark age. All
around
us was chaos and suspicion. The only leverage we poor intellectuals
had was a weak, flickering thing called Hope,”
“Hope!” Gordon laughed bitterly. Lazarensky
shrugged.
“Petitioners come to speak with Cyclops, and they speak with
me.
It isn’t hard, usually, to give good advice, to look up simple
techniques in books, or to mediate disputes with common sense. They
believe in the impartiality of the computer where they would never
trust a living man.”
“And where you can’t come up with a commonsense answer, you go
oracular on them.”
Again the shrug. “It worked at Delphi and at Ephesus, Gordon.
And honestly, where is the harm? The people of the Willamette have
seen too many power-hungry monsters over the last twenty years to
unite under any man or group of men. But oh, they remember the
machines! As they recall that ancient uniform you wear, even though
in better days they so often treated it with terrible
disrespect.”
There were voices in the hall. They passed close by, then
faded
away. Gordon stirred, “I’ve got to get out of here.”
Lazarensky laughed. “Oh don’t worry about the others. They’re
all talk and no action. They aren’t like you at
all.”
“You don’t know me,” Gordon growled.
“No? As ‘Cyclops’ I spoke with you for some hours. And both my
adopted daughter and young Peter Aage have talked of you at length.
I know more about you than you might imagine.
“You’re a rarity, Gordon. Somehow, out there in the wilderness
you managed to retain a modern mind, while gaining a strength
suited for these times. Even if that bunch out there ever tried to
harm you, you would outsmart them.”
Gordon moved to the door, then stopped. He turned and looked
back one last time at the soft glow from the dead machine, the tiny
lights rippling hopelessly over and over again.
“I’m not so smart.” His breath was hard in his throat. “You
see,
I believed!”
He met Lazarensky’s eyes, and finally the old man looked down,
unable to answer. Gordon stumbled out then, leaving the
death-chilled crypt and its corpses behind him.
12
OREGON
He made it back to where his horse was tethered just as faint
glimmers of dawn were brightening the eastern sky. He remounted,
and with his heels he guided the filly up the old service road to
the north. Within he felt a hollow grief, as if a freezing cold had
locked up his heart. Nothing within him could move, for fear of
shattering something tottering, precarious.
He had to get away from this place. That much was clear. Let
the
fools have their myths. He was finished!
He would not return to Sciotown, where he had left the
mailbags.
All that was behind him now. He began unbuttoning the blouse of his
uniform, intending to drop it in a roadside ditch-along, forever,
with his share in all the lying.
Unbidden, a phrase echoed in his mind.
Who will take responsibility now . . . ?
What? He shook his head to clear it, but the words would not
go
away.
Who will take responsibility now, for these foolish
children?
Gordon cursed and dug in his heels. The horse gamely sped
northward, away from everything he had treasured only yesterday
morning… but now knew to be a Potemkin facade. A cheap, dime
store mannequin. Oz.
Who will take responsibility . . .
The words repeated over and over again within his head, firmly
lodged like a tune that would not let go. It was the same rhythm-he
realized at last-as the winking lights of the parity display on the
face of the old, dead machine, lights that had rippled again and
again.
… for these foolish
children?
The filly trotted on in the dawnlight past orchards bordered
by
rows of ruined cars, and a strange thought suddenly occurred to
Gordon. What if-at the end of its life, as the last drops of liquid
helium evaporated away and the deadly heat rushed in-what if the
final thought of the innocent, wise machine had somehow been caught
in a loop, preserved in peripheral circuits, to flash forlornly
over and over again?
Would that qualify as a ghost?
He wondered, what would Cyclops’s final thoughts, its last
words, have been?
Can a man be haunted by the ghost of a
machine?
Gordon shook his head. He was tired, or else he would not
think
up such nonsense. He didn’t owe anybody anything!
Certainly not a scrap of ruined tin, or a desiccated specter found
in a rusted jeep.
“Ghosts!” He spat on the side of the road and laughed
dryly.
Still, the words echoed round and round inside. Who
will
take responsibility now…
So absorbed was he that it took a few moments at first for him
to recognize the faint sounds of shouting behind him. Gordon pulled
up on the reins and turned to look back, his hand resting on the
butt of his revolver. Anyone who pursued him now did so at great
peril. Lazarensky had been right about one thing. Gordon knew he
was more than a match for this bunch.
In the distance he saw there was a flurry of frantic activity
in
front of the House of Cyclops, but… but the commotion
apparently did not have to do with him,
Gordon shaded his eyes against the glare of the new sun, and
saw
steam rising from a pair of heavily lathered horses. One exhausted
man stumbled up the steps of the House of Cyclops, shouting at
those hurrying to his side.
Another messenger, apparently badly wounded, was being tended
on
the ground.
Gordon heard one word cried out loudly. It told
all.
“Survivalists!”
He had one word to offer in reply.
“Shit.”
He turned his back on the noises and snapped the reins,
sending
the filly northward once again.
A day ago he would have helped. He’d been willing to lay down
his life trying to save Cyclops’s dream, and probably would have
done just that.
He would have died for a hollow farce, a ruse, a con
game!
If the Holnist invasion had really begun, the villagers south
of
Eugene would put up a good fight. The raiders would turn north
toward the front of least resistance. The soft north Willametters
didn’t stand a chance against the Rogue River men.
Still, there probably weren’t enough Holnists to take the
entire
valley. Corvallis would fall, certainly, but there would be other
places to go. Perhaps he might head east on Highway 22, and swing
back around to Pine View, It would be nice to see Mrs. Thompson
again. Maybe he could be there when Abby’s baby
arrived.
The filly trotted on. The shouts died away behind him, like a
bad memory slowly fading. It promised to be fair weather, the first
in weeks without clouds. A good day for traveling.
As Gordon rode on, a cool breeze blew through his half open
shirtfront. A hundred yards down the road he found his hand
drifting to the buttons again, twisting one slowly, back and
forth.
The pony sauntered, slowed, and came to a halt. Gordon sat,
his
shoulders hunched forward.
Who will take responsibility…
The words would not go away, lights pulsing in his
mind.
The horse tossed her head and snorted, pawing at the
ground.
Who… ?“
Gordon cried out, “Aw, hell!” He wheeled
the filly
about, sending her cantering southward again.
A babbling, frightened crowd of men and women stepped back in
hushed silence as he clattered up to the portico of the House of
Cyclops. His spirited mount danced and blew as he stared down at
the people for a long, silent moment.
Finally, Gordon threw his poncho back. He rebuttoned his shirt
and set the postman’s cap on his head so the bright brass rider
shone in the light of the rising sun.
He took a deep breath. Then he began pointing, giving terse
commands.
In the name of survival-and in the name of the “Restored
United
States”-the people of Corvallis and the Servants of Cyclops all
hurried to obey.
INTERLUDE
High above gray, foam-flecked wavetops, the jet
stream
throbbed. Winter had come again, and winds moaned chill
recollections over the north Pacific.
Fewer than twenty cycles past, the normal patterns
of the
air had been perturbed by great, dark funnels- as
if armies
of angry volcanoes had chosen the same moment to throw earth
against sky.
If the episode had not ended quickly, perhaps all
life might
have vanished, and the ice returned forever. Even as it was, clouds
of ash had blanketed the Earth for weeks before the larger grains
fell out of the sky like dirty rain. Smaller bits of rock and soot
dispersed into the high stratospheric streams, scattering the
sunlight.
Years passed before spring came again, at
last.
It did come. The Ocean- slow,
resilient- surrendered up just enough heat to stop
the
spiral short of no-return. In time, warm, sea-drenched clouds again
swept over the continent. The tall trees grew, and weeds sprouted
earnestly, unmolested, through cracks in broken
pavement.
Still, there remained plenty of dust, riding the
high winds.
Now and then the cold air ventured south again, carrying reminders
of the Long Chill. Vapor crystalized around the grains, forming
complex, fractal hexahedrons. Snowflakes grew and
fell.
Obstinate, Winter arrived one more time to claim a
dark
country.
III
CINCINNATUS
1
Gusts sculpted whirling devil shapes in the blowing snow-
flurries that seemed to rise, ghostlike, from the gray drifts,
fluttering and darting windblown under the frosted
trees.
A heavily laden branch cracked, unable to bear the weight of
one
more dingy snowflake. The report echoed like a muffled gunshot down
the narrow forest lanes.
Snow delicately covered the death-glazed eyes of a starved
deer,
filling the channels between its starkly outlined ribs. Flakes soon
hid faint grooves in the icy ground where the animal had last
pawed, only hours ago, in its fruitless search for
food.
Taking no sides, the dancing flurries went on to cloak other
victims as well, settling soft white layers over crimson stains in
the crushed, older snow.
All the corpses soon lay blanketed, peaceful, as if
asleep.
The new storm had erased most signs of the struggle by the
time
Gordon found Tracy’s body under the dark shadow of a
winter-whitened cedar. By then a frozen crust had stanched the
bleeding. Nothing more flowed from the unlucky young woman’s
slashed throat.
Gordon pushed away thoughts of Tracy as he had briefly known
her
in life-ever cheerful and brave, with a slightly mad enthusiasm for
the hopeless job she had taken on. His lips pressed together grimly
as he tore open her woolen shirt and reached in to feel under her
armpit.
The body was still warm. This had not happened long
ago.
Gordon squinted to the southwest, where tracks- already fading
under the blowing snow-led off into the painful ice-brightness. In
a flat, almost silent movement, a white-clad shape appeared beside
him.
“Damn!” he heard Philip Bokuto whisper. “Tracy was good! I
could
have sworn those pricks wouldn’t have been able to-”
“Well, they did ” Gordon cut him off sharply. “And it wasn’t
more than ten minutes ago.”
Taking the girl’s belt buckle, he heaved her over to show the
other man. The dark brown face under the white parka nodded
silently, understanding. Tracy had not been molested, or even
mutilated with Holnist symbols. This small band of
hyper-survivalists had been in too much of a hurry even to stop and
take their customary, grisly trophies.
“We can catch ‘em,” Bokuto whispered. Anger burned in his
eyes.
“I can fetch the rest of the patrol and be back here in three
minutes.”
Gordon shook his head. “No, Phil. We’ve already chased them
too
far beyond our defense perimeter. They’ll have an ambush set by the
time we get close. We’d better just collect Tracy’s body and go
home now.”
Bokuto’s jaw clenched, a bunching of tendons. For the first
time
his voice rose above a whisper. “We can catch the
bastards!”
Gordon felt a wave of irritation. What right does
Philip
have to do this to me? Bokuto had once been a sergeant in
the
Marines, before the world fell to ruin nearly two decades ago. It
should have been his job, not Gordon’s, to make
the
practical, unsatisfying decisions… to be the one
responsible.
He shook his head. “No, we will not. And that’s final.” He
looked down at the girl-until this afternoon the second best scout
in the Army of the Willamette… but apparently not quite good
enough. “We need living fighters, Phil. We need fierce men, not
more corpses.”
For a silent moment neither looked at the other. Then Bokuto
pushed Gordon to one side and stepped over the still form on the
snow.
“Give me five minutes before you bring up the rest of the
patrol,” he told Gordon as he dragged Tracy’s body into the leeward
shadow of the cedar and drew his knife. “You’re right, sir. We need
angry men. Tracy and I’ll see to it that’s what you
get.”
Gordon blinked. “Phil.” He reached forward.
“Don’t.”
Bokuto ignored Gordon’s hand as he grimaced and tore Tracy’s
shirt open wider. He did not look up, but his voice was broken. “I
said you’re right! We have to make our cow-eyed farmers mad enough
to fight! And this is one of the ways Dena and Tracy told us to
use, if we had to…”
Gordon could hardly believe this. “Dena’s crazy,
Phil!
Haven’t you realized that by now? Please, don’t do this!” He
grabbed the man’s arm and pulled him around, but then had to step
back from the threatening glitter of Bokuto’s knife. His friend’s
eyes were hot and agonized as he waved Gordon away.
“Don’t make this harder for me, Gordon! You’re my commander,
and
I’ll serve you so long as it’s the best way to kill as many of
those Holnist bastards as possible.
“But Gordon, you get so frigging civilized
at the worst
of times! That’s when I draw the line. Do you hear me? I won’t let
you betray Tracy, or Dena, or me with your fits of
Twentieth-Century sappiness!
“Now, get outta here, Mr. Inspector… sir.”
Bokuto’s voice was thick with emotion, “And remember to give me
five minutes before you bring up the others.”
He glowered until Gordon had backed away. Then he spat on the
ground, wiped one eye, and bent back to the grisly task awaiting
him.
At first Gordon stumbled, half stunned, as he retreated down
the
gray-sided meadow. Phil Bokuto had never turned on him that way
before, waving a knife, wild-eyed, disobeying orders…
Then Gordon remembered.
I never actually commanded him not to do
this, did I? I
asked, I pleaded. But I didn’t order him…
Am I completely sure he isn’t right, at that? Do even I, deep
inside, believe some of those things Dena and her band of lunatic
women are preaching?
Gordon shook his head. Phil was certainly right about one
thing-the stupidity of philosophizing on a battlefield. Out here
survival was enough of a problem. That other war-the one he had
been waging each night in his dreams-would have to wait its
turn.
He made his way downslope carefully, clutching his drawn
bayonet, the most practical weapon for this kind of weather. Half
his men had put aside their rifles and bows for long knives…
another trick painfully learned from their deadly, devious
enemy.
He and Bokuto had left the rest of the patrol only fifty
meters
back, but it felt like much more as his eyes darted in search of
traps. The whirling snow-devils seemed to take on forms, like the
vaporous scouts of a faerie army that had not yet taken sides.
Ethereal neutrals in a quiet, deadly war.
Who will take responsibility… ? they
seemed to
whisper at him. The words had never left Gordon, not since that
fateful morning when he had chosen between practicality and a
doomed charade of hope.
At least this particular raiding party of Holn survivalists
had
fared worse than usual, and the local farmers and villagers had
done better than anyone would have expected. Also, Gordon and his
escort party had been on an inspection tour nearby. They had been
able to join the fray at a critical moment.
In essence, his Army of the Willamette had won a minor
victory,
losing only twenty or so men to five of the enemy. There were
probably no more than three or four of this Holnist band left to
flee westward.
Still, four of those human monsters were more than enough,
even
tired and short on ammunition. His patrol only numbered seven now,
and help was far away.
Let them go. They’ll be back.
The hoot of a horned owl warbled just ahead of him. He
recognized Leif Morrison’s challenge. He’s getting better,
Gordon thought. If we’re still alive
in a year, it
might even sound real enough to fool someone.
He pursed his lips and tried to mimic the call, two hoots in
answer to Morrison’s three. Then he dashed across a narrow glade
and slid into the gully where the patrol waited.
Morrison and two other men gathered close. Their beards and
sheepskin cloaks were coated with dry snow, and they fingered their
weapons nervously.
“Joe and Andy?” Gordon asked.
Leif, the big Swede, nodded left and right. “Pickets,” he said
tersely.
Gordon nodded. “Good.” Under the big spruce he untied his pack
and pulled out a thermos bottle. One of the privileges of rank; he
didn’t have to ask permission to pour himself a cup of hot
cider.
The others took their positions again, but kept glancing back,
obviously wondering what “the Inspector” was up to this time.
Morrison, a farmer who had barely escaped the rape of Greenleaf
Town last September, eyed him with the simmering look of a man who
had lost everything he loved, and was therefore no longer entirely
of this world.
Gordon glanced at his watch-a beautiful, prewar chronometer
provided by the technicians of Corvallis. Bokuto had had enough
time. By now he would be circling back, covering his
tracks.
“Tracy’s dead,” he told the others. Their faces blanched.
Gordon
went on, weighing their reactions. “I guess she was trying to cut
around past the bastards and hold them for us. She didn’t ask my
permission.” He shrugged. “They got her.”
The stunned expressions turned into a round of seething,
guttural curses. Better, Gordon thought. But
the
Holnists won’t wait for you to remember to get
mad next
time, boys. They’ll kill you while you’re still deciding whether or
not to be scared.
Well practiced by now at the art of lying, Gordon continued in
a
flat tone. “Five minutes quicker and we might have saved her. As it
is, they had time to take souvenirs.”
This time anger battled revulsion on their faces. And burning
shame overcame both. “Let’s go after ‘em!” Morrison urged. “They
can’t be far ahead!” The others muttered agreement.
Not quickly enough, Gordon judged.
“No. If you boys were sluggish getting here, you’re much too
slow to deal with the inevitable ambush. We’ll move up in skirmish
line and retrieve Tracy’s body. Then we’re going
home.”
One of the farmers-among the loudest demanding pursuit-showed
immediate relief. The others, though, glared back at Gordon, hating
him for his words.
Stand in line, boys, Gordon thought
bitterly. If I
were a real leader of men, Id have found a better
way to
put backbone into you than this,
He put away his thermos, not offering any cider to the others.
The implication was clear-that they didn’t deserve any. “Hop to
it,” he said as he slung his light pack over his
shoulders.
They did move quickly this time, gathering their gear and
scrambling out across the snow. Over to the left and right he saw
Joe and Andy emerge from cover and take their places on the flanks.
Holnists would never have been so visible, of course, but then,
they had had a lot more practice than these reluctant
soldiers.
Those with unlimbered rifles covered the knife men, who dashed
ahead. Gordon easily kept up, just behind the skirmish line. In a
minute he felt Bokuto fall in beside him, appearing as if out of
nowhere from behind a tree. For all of their earnestness, none of
the farmers had spotted him.
The scout’s expression was blank, but Gordon knew what he was
feeling. He did not meet Bokuto’s eyes.
Ahead there came a sudden, angry exclamation. The lead man
must
have come upon Tracy’s mutilated body. “Imagine how they’d feel if
they ever found out the truth about that,” Philip told Gordon
softly. “Or if they ever discovered the real reason why most of
your scouts are girls.”
Gordon shrugged. It had been a woman’s idea, but he had agreed
to it. The guilt was his alone. So much guilt, in a cause he knew
was hopeless.
And yet he could not let even the cynical Bokuto sense the
full
extent of the truth. For his sake Gordon maintained a
front.
“You know the main reason,” he told his aide. “Underneath
Dena’s
theories and the promise of Cyclops, beneath it all you know what
it’s for.”
Bokuto nodded, and for a brief moment there was something else
in his voice. “For the Restored United States,” he said softly,
almost reverently.
Lies within lies, Gordon thought. If
you ever found
out the truth, my friend…
“For the Restored United States,” he agreed aloud.
“Yeah.”
Together they moved ahead to watch over their army of
frightened, but now angry men.
2
“It’s no good, Cyclops.”
Beyond the thick pane of glass, a pearly, opalescent eye
stared
back at him from a tall cylinder swaddled in cool fog. A double row
of tiny, flickering lights rippled a complex pattern over and over
again. This was Gordon’s ghost… the specter that had haunted
him for months now… the only lie he had ever met to match his
own damnable fraud.
It felt proper to do his thinking here in this darkened room.
Out in the snows, on village stockades, in the lonely, dim forests,
men and women were dying for the two of them-for what he, Gordon,
supposedly represented, and for the machine on the other side of
the glass.
For Cyclops and for the Restored
United
States.
Without those twin pillars of hope, the Willametters might
well
have collapsed by now. Corvallis would lie in ruins, its hoarded
libraries, its fragile industry, its windmills and flickering
electric lights, all vanished forever into the lowering dark age.
The invaders from the Rogue River would have established fiefdoms
up and down the valley> as they had done
already in
the area west of Eugene.
The farmers and aged techs were battling an enemy ten times
more
experienced and capable. But they fought anyway-not so much for
themselves as for two symbols- for a gentle, wise
machine
that had really died many years ago, and for a long-vanished nation
that existed now only in their imaginations.
The poor fools.
“It isn’t working,” Gordon told his peer, his fellow hoax. The
row of lights replied by dancing the same complex pattern that
burned in his dreams.
“This heavy winter has stopped the Holnists, for now. They’re
kicking back in the towns they captured last autumn. But come
springtime they’ll be back again, picking away at us, burning and
killing until, one by one, the villages sue for
‘protection.’
“We try to fight. But each of those devils is a match for a
dozen of our poor townsmen and farmers.”
Gordon slumped in a soft chair across from the thick sheet of
glass. Even here, in the House of Cyclops, the smell of dust and
age was heavy.
If we had time to train,
to prepare…
if only things had not been so peaceful here for so
long.
If only we had a real leader.
Someone like George Powhatan.
Through the closed doors he could hear faint music. Somewhere
in
the building there lifted the light, moving strains of Pachelbel’s
Canon-a twenty-year-old recording playing on a
stereo.
He remembered weeping when he had first heard such music
again.
He had been so eager to think something brave and noble still
existed in the world, so willing to believe he had found it here in
Corvallis. But “Cyclops” turned out to be a hoax, much like his own
myth of a “Restored United States.”
It still puzzled him that both fables thrived more than ever
in
the shadow of the survivalist invasion. They had grown amid the
blood and terror into a something for which people were daily
giving their lives.
“It’s just not working,” he told the ruined machine again, not
expecting an answer. “Our people fight. They die. But the
camouflaged bastards will be here by summer, no matter what we
do.”
He listened to the sweet, sad music and wondered if, after
Corvallis fell, anyone anywhere would listen to Pa-chelbel, ever
again.
There was a faint tapping on the double door behind him.
Gordon
sat up. Other than himself, only the Servants of Cyclops were
allowed in this building at night. “Yes,” he said.
A narrow trapezoid of light spilled in. The shadow of a tall,
long-haired woman stretched across the carpeted
floor.
Dena. If there was anyone he did not want to see right now…
Her voice was low, quick. “I’m sorry to disturb you, Gordon,
but
I thought you’d want to know at once. Johnny Stevens just rode
in.”
Gordon stood up, his pulse rising. “My God, he got
through!”
Dena nodded. “There was some trouble, but Johnny did get to
Roseburg and back.”
“Men! Did he bring-” he stopped, seeing her shake her head.
Hope
crashed in the look in her eyes.
“Ten,” she said. “Gordon, he carried your message to the
southerners, and they sent ten men.”
Strangely, her voice seemed to carry less dread than shame, as
if everyone had let him down, somehow. Then
something
happened that he had never witnessed before. Her voice
broke.
“Oh, Gordon. They aren’t even men! They’re boys, only
boys!”
3_______________
Dena had been taken in as a toddler by Joseph Lazarensky and
the
other surviving Corvallis techs, soon after the Doomwar, and was
raised among the Servants of Cyclops. Because of this she had grown
tall for a woman of these times, and was far better educated. It
was one reason he had been first attracted to her.
Lately, though, Gordon found himself wishing she had read
fewer
books… or an awful lot more. She had developed a
theory. Worse-she was almost fanatical about it,
spreading
it among her own coterie of impressionable young women and
beyond.
Gordon was afraid that, inadvertently, he had played a role in
this process. He was still unsure just why he had let Dena talk him
into letting some of her girls join the Army as
Scouts.
Young Tracy Smith’s body, sprawled upon the
windblown drifts… tracks leading off into the blinding
snow…
Wrapped in winter coats, he and Dena walked past the men
guarding the entrance of the House of Cyclops, and stepped outside
into the bitterly clear night. Dena said, softly, “If Johnny really
has failed, it means we have only one chance left,
Gordon.”
“I don’t want to talk about it.” He shook his head. “Not now.”
It was cold and he was in a hurry to get to the Refectory to hear
the Stevens lad’s report.
Dena grabbed his arm tightly and held on until he looked at
her.
“Gordon, you’ve got to believe that nobody’s more disappointed
about this than I am. Do you think my girls and I wanted
Johnny to fail? Do you think we’re that crazy?”
Gordon refrained from answering on first impulse. Earlier in
the
day he had passed a cluster of those recruits of Dena’s-young women
from villages all over the northern Willamette Valley, girls with
passionate voices and the fervid eyes of converts. They had been a
strange sight, dressed in the buckskin of Army Scouts with knives
sheathed at hip, wrist, and ankle, sitting in a circle with books
open on their laps.
susanna: No, no, Maria. You’ve got it mixed up.
Lysistrata isn’t anything at all
like the story
of the Danaids! They were both wrong, but for different
reasons.
maria: I don’t get it. Because one group used sex and the
other
used swords?
grace: No, that’s not it. It’s because both groups lacked a
vision, an ideology . . .
The argument had halted abruptly when the women caught sight
of
Gordon. They scrambled to their feet, saluted, and watched him as
he hurried uncomfortably by. All of them had that strange shining
expression in their eyes… something that made him feel they
were observing him as a prime specimen, a symbol, but of what he
could not tell.
Tracy had had that look. Whatever it meant, he didn’t want any
part of it. Gordon felt badly enough about men dying for his lies.
But these women…
“No.” He shook his head as he answered Dena. “No, I don’t
think
you’re that crazy.”
She laughed, and squeezed his arm. “Good. I’ll settle for that
much, for now.”
He knew, though, that that would not be the end of
it.
Inside the Refectory, another guard took their coats. Dena at
least had the wisdom to hang back then, as Gordon went on alone to
hear the bad news.
• • •
Youth was a wonderful thing. Gordon remembered when he had
been
a teenager, just before the Doomwar. Back then, nothing short of a
car wreck could have slowed him down.
Worse things had happened to some of the boys who had left
southern Oregon with Johnny Stevens, nearly two weeks ago. Johnny
himself must have been through hell.
He still looked seventeen though, sitting near the fire
nursing
a steaming mug of broth. The young man needed a hot bath and maybe
forty hours’ sleep. His long, sandy hair and sparse beard covered
innumerable small scratches, and only one part of his uniform was
untattered-a neatly repaired emblem that bore the simple
legend
postal service
of the restored
united states
“Gordon!” He grinned broadly and stood up.
“I prayed you would return safely,” Gordon said, embracing
Johnny. He pushed aside the sheaf of dispatches the youth drew from
his oil-skin pouch… for which Johnny doubtless would have given
his life.
“I’ll look at those in a little while. Sit. Drink your
soup.”
Gordon took a moment to glance over toward the big fireplace,
where the new southern recruits were being tended by the Refectory
staff. One boy’s arm was in a sling. Another, lying on a table, was
having a scalp gash tended by Dr. Pilch, the Army’s
physician.
The rest sipped from steaming mugs and stared at Gordon in
frank
curiosity. Obviously Johnny had been filling their ears with
stories. They looked ready, eager to fight.
And not one of them was over sixteen.
So much for our last hope, Gordon
thought.
People in the midsouthern part of Oregon had been fighting the
Rogue River survivalists for nearly twenty years, and in the last
ten or so had managed to beat the barbarians to a standstill.
Unlike Gordon’s northerners, the ranchers and farmers down around
Roseburg had not been weakened by years of peace. They were tough,
and knew their enemy well.
They also had real leaders. There was one man Gordon had heard
of who had driven back one Holnist raid after another in bloody
disarray. No doubt that was why the enemy had come up with their
new plan. In a bold stroke the Holnists had taken to sea, landing
up the coast at Florence, far north of their traditional
foes.
It was a brilliant move. And now there was nothing to stop
them.
The southern farmers had sent only ten boys to help. Ten
boys.
The recruits stood up as Gordon approached. He went down the
line asking each his name, his hometown. They shook his hand
earnestly, and each addressed him as Mr. Inspector.
No
doubt they all hoped to earn the highest honor, to become
postmen… officers of a nation they were too
young
ever to have known.
Neither that, nor the fact that the nation no longer existed,
would keep them from dying for it, Gordon knew.
He noticed Phil Bokuto sitting in a corner, whittling. The
black
ex-Marine said nothing, but Gordon could tell he was sizing up the
southerners already, and Gordon agreed. If any of them had any
skill at all, they would be made scouts, whatever Dena and her
women said.
Gordon sensed her watching from the back of the room. She had
to
know he would never agree to her new plan. Not while he was in
command of the Army of the Lower Willamette.
Not while he had a breath left in his body.
He spent some minutes talking with the recruits. When he next
looked back toward the door, Dena had left, perhaps to carry word
to her cabal of would-be Amazons. Gordon was resigned to an
inevitable confrontation.
Johnny Stevens fingered the oil-skin pouch as Gordon returned
to
the table. This time the young man would not be put off. He held
out the packet he had carried so far.
“I’m sorry, Gordon.” He kept his voice low. “I did my best,
but
they just wouldn’t listen! I delivered your letters, but…” He
shook his head.
Gordon leafed through replies to the entreaties for help he
had
written more than two months ago. “They all did
want to
join the postal network,” Johnny added with irony in his voice.
“Even if we fall up here, I suppose there’ll still be a sliver of
Oregon free and ready when the nation reaches here.”
On the yellowed envelopes Gordon recognized the names of towns
all around Roseburg, some legendary even up here. He scanned some
of the replies. They were courteous, curious, even enthusiastic
about the stories of a reborn U.S. But there were no promises. And
no troops.
“What about George Powhatan?”
Johnny shrugged. “All the other mayors and sheriffs and bosses
down there look to him. They won’t do anything without he does it
first.”
“I don’t see Powhatan’s reply.” He had looked at all of the
letters.
Johnny shook his head. “Powhatan said he didn’t trust paper,
Gordon. Anyway, his answer was only two words long. He asked me to
tell it to you, direct.”
Johnny’s voice fell.
“He said to tell you-‘I’m sorry.’”
4
Light shone under the door as Gordon returned to his room much
later in the evening. His hand hesitated inches from the knob. He
clearly remembered snuffing the candles earlier, before leaving to
commune with Cyclops.
A soft, female scent solved the mystery before he had the door
more than half open. He saw Dena on his bed, her legs under the
covers. She wore a loose shirt of white homespun and held a book up
close to the bedside candle.
“That’s bad for your eyes,” he said as he dropped Johnny’s
dispatch pouch onto his desk.
Dena replied without looking up from her book. “I agree. May I
remind you that you are the one who put your room back into the
Stone Age, while the rest of this building is electrified. I
suppose you prewar types still have it in your silly heads that
candlelight is somehow romantic. Is that it?”
Gordon wasn’t exactly sure why he had
taken down the
electric bulbs in his room, and carefully packed them away. During
his first few weeks in Corvallis he’d felt a lump of joy every time
he had a chance to turn a switch and make electrons flow again, as
they had in the days of his youth.
Now, in his own room at least, he could not bear the sweetness
of such light.
Gordon poured water and then soda powder over his toothbrush.
“You have a good forty-watt bulb in your own room/‘ he reminded
her. ”You could do your reading there.“
Dena ignored the pointed remark and instead used the flat of
her
hand to slap the open book. “I don’t understand this!” she
declared, exasperated. “According to this book, America was having
a cultural renaissance, just before the Doomwar. Sure, there was
Nathan Holn, preaching his mad doctrine of super machismo-and there
were problems with the Slavic Mystics overseas-but for the most
part it was a brilliant time! In art, music, science, everything
seemed about to come together.
“And yet these surveys taken at the end of the century say
that
the majority of American women of that time still
mistrusted technology!
“I can’t believe it! Is it true? Were they all idiots?” Gordon
spat into the wash basin and looked up at the cover of the book. It
bore a legend in bright holographic print:
who we are:
A portrait of america in the 1990s
He shook out his toothbrush. “It wasn’t that simple, Dena.
Technology had been thought of as a male occupation for thousands
of years. Even in the nineties, only a small fraction of the
engineers and scientists were women, though there were more and
more damn fine-”
“That’s irrelevant!” Dena interrupted. She shut the book and
shook her light brown hair in emphasis. “What’s important is who
benefits! Even if it was
mostly a male art,
technology helped women far more than men! Compare America of your
time with the world today, and tell me I’m wrong.”
“The present is hell for women,” he agreed. Gordon picked up
the
pitcher and poured water over his washcloth. He felt very tired.
“Life is far worse for them than it is even for men. It’s brutish,
painful, and short. And to my shame I let you persuade me to put
girls in the worst, most dangerous-”
Dena seemed determined not to let him finish a sentence. Or
was
it that she sensed his pain over young Tracy Smith’s death, and
wanted to change the subject? “Fine!” she said. “Then what I want
to know is why women were afraid of technology
before the
war-if this crazy book is right-when science had done so much for
them. When the alternative was so terrible!”
Gordon rehung the damp cloth. He shook his head. It had all
been
so long ago. Since those days, in his travels, he had seen horrors
that would leave Dena stunned speechless, if ever he managed to
make himself speak of them.
She had been only an infant when civilization came crashing
down. Except for the terrible days before her adoption into the
House of Cyclops-no doubt by now long gone from her memory-she had
grown up in perhaps the only place in the world today where a
vestige of the old comforts still maintained. No wonder she had no
gray hairs yet, at the ripe age of twenty-two.
“There are those who say technology was the very thing that
wrecked civilization,” he suggested. He sat on the chair next to
the bed and closed his eyes, hoping she might take a hint and leave
in a little while. He spoke without moving. “Those people may have
a point. The bombs and bugs, the Three-Year Winter, the ruined
networks of an interdependent society…”
This time she did not interrupt. It was his own voice that
caught of its own accord. He could not recite the litany
aloud.
… hospitals . . . universities
. . .
restaurants . . . sleek airplanes that
carried free
citizens anywhere they might want to go…
… laughing, clear-eyed children, dancing in the
spray of
lawn sprinklers… pictures sent back from the moons of Jupiter
and Neptune . . . dreams of the stars… and
wonderful, wise machines who wove delicious puns and made us proud
. . .
… knowledge . . .
“Anti-tech bullshit,” Dena said, dismissing his suggestion in
two words. “It was people, not science, that
wrecked the
world. You know that, Gordon. It was certain types of
people.”
Gordon lacked the will even to shrug. What did it matter now,
anyway?
When she spoke again her voice was softer. “Come here. We’ll
get
you out of those sweaty clothes.”
Gordon started to protest. Tonight he only wanted to curl up
and
close out the world, to postpone tomorrow’s decisions in a drowning
of unconsciousness. But Dena was strong and adamant. Her fingers
worked his buttons and pulled him over to sag back against the
pillows.
They carried her scent.
“I know why it all fell apart,” Dena declared as she worked.
“The book was right! Women simply didn’t pay close enough
attention. Feminism got sidetracked onto issues that were at best
peripheral, and ignored the real problem,
men.
“You fellows were doing your job well enough- shaping and
making
and building things. Males can be brilliant that way. But anyone
with any sense can see that a quarter to half of you are also
lunatics, rapists, and murderers. It was our
job
to keep an eye on you, to cultivate the best and cull the
bastards.”
She nodded, completely satisfied with her logic. “We women are
the ones who failed, who let it happen.”
Gordon muttered. “Dena, you are certifiably crazy, do you know
that?” He already realized what she was driving at. This was just
another attempt to twist him around to agreeing to another mad
scheme to win the war. But this time it wasn’t going to
work.
At the front of his mind he wished the would-be Amazon would
simply go away and leave him alone. But her scent was inside his
head. And even with his eyes closed he knew it when her homespun
shirt fell soundlessly to the floor and she blew out the
candle.
“Maybe I am crazy,” she said. “But I do know what I’m talking
about.” The covers lifted and she slid alongside him. “I
know it. It was our fault.”
The smooth stroke of her skin was like electricity along his
flank. Gordon’s body seemed to rise even while, behind his eyelids,
he tried to cling to his pride and the escape of
sleep.
“But we women aren’t going to let it happen again,” Dena
whispered. She nuzzled his neck and ran her fingertips along his
shoulder and biceps. “We’ve learned about men-about the heroes and
the bastards and how to tell the difference.
“And we’re learning about ourselves, too.”
Her skin was hot. Gordon’s arms wound around her and he pulled
her down beside him.
“This time,” Dena sighed, “we’re going to make a
difference.”
Gordon firmly covered her mouth with his, if for no other
reason
than to get her to stop talking at last.
5
“As young Mark here will demonstrate, even a child can use our
new infrared night vision scope-combined with a laser spotter
beam-to pick out a target in almost pitch darkness.”
The Willamette Valley Defense Council sat behind a long table,
on the stage of the largest lecture hall on the old Oregon State
University campus, watching as Peter Aage displayed the latest
“secret weapon” to come out of the laboratories of the Servants of
Cyclops.
Gordon could barely make out the lanky technician when the
lights were turned off and the doors closed. But Aage’s voice was
stentoriously clear. “Up at the back of the hall we have placed a
mouse in a cage, to represent an enemy infiltrator. Mark now
switches on the sniper scope.” There came a soft click in the
darkness. “Now he scans for the heat radiation given off by the
mouse…”
“I see it!” The child’s voice piped.
“Good boy. Now Mark swings the laser over to bear on the
animal…”
“Got him!”
“… and once the beam is locked into place, our spotter
changes laser frequencies so that a visible spot shows the rest of
us-the mouse!”
Gordon peered at the dark area up at the back of the hall.
Nothing had happened. There was still only a deep
darkness.
Someone in the audience giggled.
“Maybe it got ate!” a voice cracked.
“Yeah. Hey, maybe you techs oughta tune that thing to look for
a
cat, instead!” Someone gave a rumbling “meow.”
Although the Council Chairman was banging his gavel, Gordon
joined the wise guys down below in laughing out loud. He was
tempted to interject a remark of his own, but everyone knew his
voice. His role here was a somber one, and he would probably only
hurt somebody’s feelings.
A bustle of activity over to the left told of a gathering of
techs, whispering urgently together. Finally, someone called for
the lights. The fluorescents flickered on and the members of the
Defense Council blinked as their eyes readapted.
Mark Aage, the ten-year-old boy Gordon had rescued from
survivalists in the ruins of Eugene some months ago, removed his
night vision helmet and looked up. “I could see the mouse,” he
insisted. “Real good. And I hit him with th‘ laser beam. But it
wouldn’t switch colors!”
Peter Aage looked embarrassed. The blond man wore the same
black-trimmed white as the techs still huddled over the balky
device. “It worked through fifty trials yesterday,” he explained.
“Maybe the parametric converter got stuck. It does some
times.
“Of course this is only a prototype, and nobody here in Oregon
has tried to build anything like this in nearly twenty years. But
we ought to have the bugs out of it before we go into
production.”
Three different groups made up the Defense Council. The two
men
and a woman who were dressed like Peter, in Servants’ robes, nodded
sympathetically. The rest of the councillors seemed less
understanding.
Two men to Gordon’s right wore blue tunics and leather jackets
similar to his own. On their sleeves were sewn patches depicting an
eagle rising defiantly from a pyre, rimmed by the
legend:
restored U.S.
postal service.
Gordon’s fellow “postmen” looked at each other, one rolling
his
eyes in disgust.
In the middle sat two women and three men, including the
Council
Chairman, representing the various regions in the alliance:
counties once tied together by their reverence of Cyclops, more
recently by a growing postal network, and now by their fear of a
common foe. Their clothing was varied, but each wore an armband
bearing a shiny emblem-a W and a V superimposed to stand for
Willamette Valley. The chromed symbols were one item plentiful
enough to be supplied the entire Army, salvaged from long-abandoned
motorcars.
It was one of these civilian representatives who spoke first.
“Just how many of these gadgets do you think you techs can put
together by springtime?”
Peter thought. “Well, if we go all out, I guess we ought to
have
a dozen or so fixed up by the end of March.”
“And they’ll all need ‘lectricity, I suppose.”
“We’ll provide hand generators, of course. The entire kit
ought
to weigh no more than fifty pounds, all told.”
The farmers looked at each other. The woman representing the
Cascade Indian communities seemed to speak for all of
them.
“I’m sure these night scopes might do some good defending a
few
important sites against sneak attacks. But I want to know how
they’ll help after the snow melts, when those Holnist dick cutters
come down raiding and burning all our little hamlets and villages
one by one. We can’t pull the whole population into Corvallis, you
know. We’d starve in weeks.”
“Yeah,” another farmer added. “Where are all those super
weapons
you big domes were supposed to be comin‘ up with? Have you guys
switched Cyclops off, or what?”
It was the Servants’ turn to look at each other. Their leader,
Dr. Taigher, started to protest.
“That’s not fair! We’ve hardly had any time.
Cyclops
was built for peaceful uses and has to reprogram himself to deal
with things like war. Anyway, he can come up with great plans, but
it’s fallible men who have to implement them!”
To Gordon it was a marvel. Here, in public, the man actually
seemed hurt, defensive of his mechanical oracle… which the
people of the valley still revered like great Oz. The
representative of the northern townships shook his head, respectful
but obstinate.
“Now, I’d be the last one to criticize Cyclops. I’m sure he’s
crankin‘ out the ideas as fast as he can. But I just can’t see
where this night scope is any better than that balloon thing you
keep talking about, or those gas bombs or those gimmicky little
mines. There just aren’t enough of ’em to do any damn
good!
“And even if you made hundreds, thousands, they’d be great if
we
were fightin‘ a real army, like in Vietnam or Kenya before the
Doomtime. But they’re nearly useless against th’
damsurvivalists!”
Although he kept silent, Gordon couldn’t help agreeing. Dr.
Taigher looked down at his hands. After sixteen years of peaceful,
benign hoaxing-doling out a small stream of recycled
Twentieth-Century wonders to keep the area farmers entranced-he and
his technicians were being called on to deliver real
miracles, at last. Fixing toys and wind-driven electric generators
to impress the locals just wouldn’t suffice anymore.
The man sitting to Gordon’s right stirred. It was Eric
Stevens,
young Johnny Stevens’s grandfather. The old man wore the same
uniform as Gordon, and represented the Upper Willamette region,
those few towns just south of Eugene that had joined the
alliance.
“So we’re back to square one,” Stevens said. “Cyclops’s
gimmicks
can help here and there. Mostly they’ll make a few strong points a
bit stronger. But I think we’re all in agreement that that won’t do
much more than inconvenience the enemy.
“Likewise Gordon tells us that we can’t expect help from the
civilized East anywhere near in time. It’s a decade or more before
the Restored U.S. will arrive out here in any force. We have to
hold out at least that long, maybe, before real contact is
established.”
The old man looked at the others fiercely. “There’s only one
way
to do that, and that’s to fight!” He pounded the table. “It all
comes down to basics, once again. Men are what’ll
make the
difference.”
There was a mutter of agreement down the table. But Gordon was
acutely aware of Dena, sitting in the seats below, waiting her
chance to address the Council. She was shaking her head, and Gordon
felt as if he could read her mind.
Not just men… she was thinking. The
tall young
woman wore the robes of a Servant, but Gordon knew where her real
loyalties lay. She sat with three of her disciples-buckskin-clad
female scouts in the Army of the Willamette-all members of her
eccentric cabal.
Until now the Council would have rejected their scheme out of
hand. The girls had barely been allowed to join the Army at all,
and then only out of a latent sense of last-century feminism that
lingered in this still-civilized val-ley.
But Gordon sensed a growing desperation at the table today.
The
news Johnny Stevens had brought home from the south had struck
hard. Soon, when the snows stopped falling and the warm rains began
again, the councillors would begin grasping at any plan. Any idiocy
at all.
Gordon decided to enter this discussion before things got out
of
hand. The Chairman quickly deferred when Gordon lifted his
hand.
“I’m sure the Council wishes to convey to Cyclops- and to his
technicians-our gratitude for their unceasing efforts.” There was a
mutter of agreement. Neither Taigher nor Peter Aage met his
eyes.
“We have perhaps another six or eight weeks of bad weather on
our side before we can look for a resumption of major activity by
the enemy. After hearing the reports of the training and ordnance
committees, it’s clear we have our work cut out for
us.”
Indeed, Philip Bokuto’s summary had begun the morning’s litany
of bad news. Gordon took a breath. “When the Holnist invasion began
last summer, I told you all not to expect any help from the rest of
the nation. Establishing a postal network, as I have been doing
with your help, is only the first step in a long process until the
continent can be reunited. For years to come, Oregon will stand
essentially alone.”
He managed to lie by implication while speaking words that
were
the literal truth, a skill he had grown good at, if not proud
of.
“I won’t mince words with you. The failure of the people of
the
Roseburg region to send more than a dribble of aid has been the
worst blow of all. The southern folk have the experience, the
skill, and most of all, the leadership we need. In my opinion,
persuading them to help us must take priority
over
everything else.”
He paused.
“I shall go south personally, then, and try to get them to
change their minds.”
That brought on an immediate tumult.
“Gordon, that’s crazy!”
“You can’t…”
“We need you here!”
He closed his eyes. In four months he had welded an alliance
strong enough to delay and frustrate the invaders. He had forged it
mostly through his skill as a storyteller, a posturer… a
liar.
Gordon had no illusions that he was a real leader. It was his
image that held the Army of the Willamette
together… his
legendary authority as the Inspector-a
manifestation of
the nation reborn.
A nation whose only remaining spark will soon be
stone cold
dead if something isn’t done damn quick. I can’t
lead
these people! They need a general! A warrior!
They need a man like George Powhatan.
He cut the uproar by holding up a hand.
“I am going. And I want you all to
promise me you’ll
not agree to any crazy, desperate enterprises while I’m away.” He
looked directly at Dena. For an instant she met his gaze. But her
lips were tight, and after a moment her eyes clouded and she jerked
her head aside.
Is she concerned for me? Gordon wondered.
Or for
her plan?
“I’ll be back before spring,” he promised. “I’ll be back with
help.”
Under his breath he added:
“Or I’ll be dead.”
6
It took three days to get ready. All that time Gordon chafed,
wishing he could simply be off.
But it had turned into an expedition, the Council insisting
that
Bokuto and four other men accompany him at least as far as Cottage
Grove. Johnny Stevens and one of the southern volunteers rode ahead
to prepare the way. After all, it was only fitting that the
Inspector be well heralded.
To Gordon it was all a lot of nonsense. An hour with Johnny,
spent going over a prewar road map, would be enough to tell him how
to get where he was going. One fast horse, and another for remount,
would protect him as well as an entire squad.
Gordon particularly resented having to take Bokuto. The man
was
needed here. But the Council was adamant. It was accept their terms
or not be allowed to go at all.
The party departed Corvallis early in the morning, their
horses
steaming in the bitter cold as they rode out past the old OSU
athletic field. A column of marching recruits passed by. Muffled as
they were, it was nonetheless easy to tell from their chanting
voices that these were more of Dena’s girl soldiers.
Oh, I won’t marry a man who smokes,
Who scratches, belches, or bellows bad jokes,
I might not marry at all, at all,
I might not marry at all!
Oh I would rather just sit in the shade,
And be a choosy, picky old maid,
Oh I might not marry at all, at all,
I might not many at all!
The troop performed eyes right as the men rode by. Dena’s
expression was masked by distance, but he felt her gaze,
nonetheless.
Their farewell had been physically passionate and emotionally
tense. Gordon wasn’t sure if even prewar America, with all its
sexual variations, had ever come up with a name for the kind of
relationship they had. It was a relief to be getting away from her.
He knew he would miss her.
As the women’s voices faded behind him, Gordon’s throat was
tight. He tried to pass it off partly as pride in their obvious
courage. But it wasn’t possible to completely rule out
dread.
The party rode hard past barren orchards and frosted
countryside
to make the stockade at Rowland by sundown. That was how close the
lines were-one day’s journey from the fragile center of what passed
for civilization. From here on it would be bandit
country.
In Rowland they heard new rumors-that one contingent of
Holnists
had already established a small duchy in the ruins of Eugene.
Refugees told of bands of the white-camouflaged barbarians roaming
the countryside, burning small hamlets and dragging off food,
women, slaves.
If it was true, Eugene presented a problem. They had to get by
the ruined city.
Bokuto insisted on taking no chances. Gordon glowered and
hardly
spoke at all as the expedition wasted three days on frozen, buckled
asphalt roads, skirting far to the east of Springfield then south
again to arrive at last at the fortified town of Cottage
Grove.
It had been only a short time since a few towns south of
Eugene
had been reunited with the more prosperous communities to the
north. Now the invaders had nearly cut them off
again.
On Gordon’s mental map of the once great state of Oregon, the
entire eastern two-thirds were wilderness, high desert, ancient
lava flows, and the mountainous ramparts of the
Cascades.
The gray Pacific bounded the rain-shrouded coast range in the
west.
The northern and southern edges of the state, too, were
virtually impassible blotches. In the north the Columbia Valley
still glowed from the bombs that had tortured Portland and
shattered the great river’s dams.
The other blot spilled a hundred miles into the southern edge
of
the state from unknown California-and centered on the mountainous
canyonland known as the Rogue.
Even in happier times the area around Medford had been known
for
a certain “strange” element. Before the Doomwar it had been
estimated that the Rogue River Valley held more secret caches, more
illegal machine guns, than anywhere outside the
Everglades.
While civil authority was still struggling to hang on, sixteen
years ago, it was the hyper-survivalist plague that struck the
final blow, all over the civilized world. In southern Oregon the
followers of Nathan Holn had been particularly violent. The fate of
the poor citizens of that region was never known.
Between the desert and the sea, between radiation and the
Holnist madmen, two small areas had come out of the Three-Year
Winter with enough left to do a little more than scratch as
animals… the Willamette in the north and the towns around
Roseburg in
the south. But in the beginning, the southernmost patch seemed
surely doomed to slavery or worse at the hands of the new
barbarians.
Then, somewhere between the Rogue and the Umpqua, something
unexpected happened. The cancer had been arrested. The enemy had
been stopped. To find out how was Gordon’s desperate hope, before
the transplanted disease took hold fully in the vulnerable
Willamette Valley.
On Gordon’s mental map an ugly red incursion had spread inland
from the invader beachheads west of Eugene. And Cottage Grove was
now nearly cut off.
They got their first glimpse of how bad things had become less
than a mile out of town. The bodies of six men hung by the road,
crucified on sagging telephone poles. The corpses had not been left
unmarked.
“Cut them down,” he ordered. Gordon’s heart pounded and his
mouth was dry, exactly the reaction the enemy had wanted from this
exercise in calculated terror. Obviously the men of Cottage Grove
weren’t even patrolling this far out anymore. That did not bode
well.
An hour later he saw how much had changed since the last time
he
had visited the town. Watchtowers stood at the comers of new
earthen ramparts. On the outside, prewar buildings had been razed
to make a broad free-fire zone.
Population had swollen three-fold with refugees, most living
in
crowded shanties just inside the main gate. Children clung to the
skirts of gaunt-faced women and stared as the riders from the north
passed by. Men stood in clusters, warming their hands over open
fires. The smoke mixed with a mist from unwashed bodies to make an
unpleasant, aromatic fog.
Some of the men looked like pretty rough customers. Gordon
wondered how many of them were Holnist infiltrators, only
pretending to be refugees. It had happened before.
There was worse news. From the Town Council they learned that
Mayor Peter Von Kleek had died in an ambush only days before,
trying to lead a patrol to the aid of a besieged hamlet. The loss
was incalculable and it struck Gordon hard. It also helped explain
the mood of stunned silence on the cold streets.
He gave his best morale speech that evening, by torchlight in
the crowded square. But this time the cheers of the crowd were
tired and ragged. His address was interrupted twice by the faint,
echoing crack of gunshots, carrying over the ramparts from the
forest hills beyond.
“I don’t give ‘em two months, once the snow melts,” Bokuto
whispered the next day as they rode out of Cottage Grove. “Two
weeks, if the damsurvivalists try hard.”
Gordon did not have to reply. The town was the southern
linchpin
of the alliance. When it collapsed, there would be nothing to
prevent the full force of the enemy from turning north to the
heartland of the valley and Corvallis itself.
They rode south in a light flurry of snow, climbing the Coast
Fork of the Willamette River toward its source. The dark green pine
forest glistened under its white blanket. Here and there the bright
red bark of myrtlewood stood out against the gray banks of the
half-frozen stream.
Still, a few obstinate Mergansers fished the icy waters,
trying
in their own way to survive until spring.
South of the abandoned town of London, they left the
diminished
river. There followed a long, uninhabited stretch, featured only by
the overgrown ruins of farms and an occasional tumbled-down gas
station.
It had been a silent trek, so far. But now, at last, security
lightened a bit as even the suspicious Philip Bokuto felt sure they
were beyond the likely range of Holnist patrols. Talking was
allowed. There was even laughter.
All of the men were over thirty, so they played the Remember
Game… telling old-time jokes that would have no meaning at all
to any of the new generation, and arguing lightheartedly over dimly
recollected sports arcana. Gordon nearly fell out of his saddle
laughing as Aaron Schimmel gave nasal impressions of popular
television personalities of the nineties.
“It’s amazing how much of our youth gets stored away, ready to
be recalled,” he commented to Philip. “They used to say one sign of
getting old is when you remember things from twenty years ago
easier than recent events.”
“Yeah,” Bokuto said, grinning, and his voice took on a
querulous
falsetto. “What was it we were just talking about?”
Gordon tapped the side of his head. “Eh? Can’t hear you,
fellah… Too much rock ‘n’ roll, way back when.”
The men grew accustomed to the cold bite of wintry mornings
and
the soft pad of horses’ hooves on the grass-covered Interstate. The
land had recovered-deer grazed these forests once again-but man
would for a long time be too sparse to come back and retake all the
abandoned villages.
The Coast Fork tributaries fell away at last. The travelers
crossed a narrow line of hills and a day later found themselves by
the banks of a new stream.
“The Umpqua,” their guide identified.
The northerners stared. This chilled torrent did not empty
into
the placid Willamette, and thence the great Columbia. Rather it
carved its own untamed way westward toward the sea. “Welcome to
sunny southern Oregon,” Bokuto muttered, subdued once again. The
skies glowered down on them. Even the trees seemed wilder than up
north.
The impression held as they began passing small, stockaded
settlements once again. Silent, narrow-eyed men watched them from
eyries on the hillsides, and let them pass on by without speaking.
Word of their coming had preceded them, and it was clear that these
people had nothing against postmen. But it was just as obvious they
had little use for strangers.
Spending a night in the village of Sutherlin, Gordon saw up
close how the southerners lived. Their homes were simple and spare,
with few of the amenities still owned by those in the north. Hardly
anyone did not bear visible scars from disease, malnutrition,
overwork, or war.
Although they did not stare or say anything discourteous, it
wasn’t hard to guess what the locals thought of
Willametters.
Soft.
Their leaders expressed sympathy, but the hidden thought was
obvious. If the Holnists are leaving the south, why should
we
interfere?
A day later, in the trading center of Roseburg, Gordon met
with
a committee of headmen from the surrounding area. Bullet-spalled
windows looked out on scenes recalling the destructive
seventeen-year war against the Rogue River barbarians. A blasted
Denny’s, its yellow plastic sign canted and melted, showed where
the enemy had been turned back from their deepest thrust, nearly a
decade ago.
The wild survivalists had never penetrated as far since.
Gordon
felt certain the site for the meeting had been chosen to make a
point.
The difference in mood and personality was unmistakable. There
was little curiosity about the legendary Cyclops, or about the
flickering rebirth of technology. Even tales of a nation rising
from its ashes in the far lands to the east brought only mild
interest. It was not that they doubted the stories. The men from
Glide and Winston and Lookinglass simply did not seem to care all
that much.
“This is a waste of time,” Philip told Gordon. “These hicks
have
been fighting their own little war for so long, they don’t give a
damn about anything but day to day existence.”
Does that make them smarter,
perhaps? Gordon
wondered.
But Philip was right. It didn’t really matter what the bosses,
mayors, sheriffs, or headmen thought anyway. They blustered,
boasting of their autonomy, but it was obvious there was only one
man whose opinion counted in these parts.
Two days later, Johnny Stevens rode in from the west on a
steaming mount. He looked neither right nor left, but leapt from
his horse to run to Gordon, breathless. This time the message he
carried was three words long.
“Come on up.”
George Powhatan had agreed to hear their plea.
7
The Callahan Mountains bordered Camas Valley from Roseburg
seventy miles to the sea. Below them, the main fork of the little
Coquille River rushed westward under the shattered skeletons of
broken bridges before meeting its north and south branches under
the morning shadow of Sugarloaf Peak.
Here and there, along the north side of the valley, new
fenceposts outlined pastures now covered with powdery snow. Chimney
smoke rose from an occasional hilltop stockade.
On the south bank, however, there was nothing-only scorched,
crumbled ruins slowly succumbing to the relentless blackberry
thickets.
No fortifications overlooked the river fords. The travelers
found the absence puzzling, for this valley was supposed to be
where the defense against the Holnist enemy had dug in, and finally
held.
Calvin Lewis tried to explain. The wiry, dark-eyed young man
had
guided Johnny Stevens since his earlier journey to south Oregon.
Cal’s hand gestured left and right as he spoke.
“You don’t guard a river by buildin‘ strong points,” he told
them in the low, lazy, local drawl. “We protect the north bank by
crossin’ over ourselves, from time to time, and by knowin‘
everything that moves over on the other side.”
Philip Bokuto grunted, nodding in approval. Obviously, that
was
how he would have done it. Johnny Stevens made no comment, having
heard it all before.
Gordon kept looking into the trees, wondering where the
watchers
were. Doubtless both sides had them out, and observed the party at
intervals along the way. Occasionally he caught a glimpse of motion
or a glint of what might have been a binoculars lens at some
height. But the trackers were good. A damn sight better than anyone
in the Army of the Willamette-excluding, perhaps, Phil Bokuto.
The war in the south did not seem to be one of armies or
companies, of sieges and strategic moves. It was more as battles had
been fought among the American Indians… with
victory measured in quick, bloody raids, and in the number of
scalps taken.
Survivalists were expert at this type of sneak and run
warfare.
Unaccustomed to such terror, the Willametters were their ideal
prey.
Here, though, the farmers had managed to stop them. It was not
his place to critique their tactics, so he let Bokuto ask most of
the questions. Gordon knew that these were skills one acquired over
a lifetime. He was here for one reason and one reason only-not to
learn, but to persuade.
The view was spectacular as they climbed the old Sug-arloaf
Mountain road, overlooking the merging forks of the Coquille.
Snow-covered pine forests looked much as they must have before man
came-as if the horror of the last seventeen winters was a matter of
significance only to ephemeral creatures, irrelevant to the abiding
Earth.
“Sometimes the bastards try to sneak by in big canoes,” Cal
Lewis told them. “The south fork comes this way almost straight up
from the Rogue country, and by the time it joins the center fork
here, it’s movin‘ pretty fast.”
The young man grinned. “But George always seems to know what
they’re up to. George is always ready for ‘em.”
There it was again, that affection mixed with awe in
mentioning
the leader of the Camas Valley communities. Did the man eat nails
for breakfast? Did he strike his enemies with lightning? After all
the tales, Gordon was ready to believe anything about George
Powhatan.
Bokuto’s broad nostrils flared as he suddenly reined back,
stopping Gordon protectively with his left arm. The ex-Marine’s
machine pistol was upraised in a blur.
“What is it, Phil?” Gordon drew his carbine as he scanned the
woody slopes. The horses danced and snorted, sensing their riders’
agitation.
“It’s…” Bokuto sniffed. His eyes narrowed incredulously.
“… I smell bear fat!”
Cal Lewis looked up into the trees beside the road and smiled.
From just upslope there came bass, throaty laughter.
“Very good, my man! You have keen senses!”
As Gordon and the others peered, a large, shadowed figure
shifted between the Douglas firs, outlined against the afternoon
sun. Gordon felt a brief thrill as a part of him wondered, for just
a moment, if it was a human being at all, or perhaps the legendary
Sasquatch-Bigfoot of the Northwest.
Then the shape stepped forward and was revealed as a
craggy-faced, middle-aged man whose shoulder-length gray hair was
bound by a beaded headband. A homespun, short-sleeved shirt exposed
thigh-like shoulders to the open air, but he was apparently
unbothered by the cold.
“I am George Powhatan,” the grinning man said. “Welcome,
gentlemen, to Sugarloaf Mountain.”
Gordon swallowed. What was it about the man’s voice that
matched
his physical appearance? It spoke of power so casually assumed that
there was no need for bluster or display. Powhatan spread his
hands. “Come on up, you with the sharp nose. And the rest of you
with your fancy uniforms! You caught a whiff of bear fat? Well
then, come look at my down-home weather station! You’ll see what
the stuff is good for.”
The visitors relaxed and put away their weapons, put at ease
by
the ready laughter. No Sasquatch,
Gordon told
himself. Just’a hearty mountain man-nothing
more.
He patted his skittish northern horse, and told himself that
he,
too, must have been reacting only to the smell of rendered
bear.
8
The Squire of Sugarloaf Mountain used jars of bear fat to
predict the weather, refining a traditional technique with
meticulous, scientific record keeping. He bred cows to give better
milk, and sheep for better wool His greenhouses, warmed by
biogenerated methane, produced fresh vegetables the year round,
even in the harshest winters.
George Powhatan took special pride in showing off his brewery,
famed for the best beer in four counties.
The walls of the great lodge-the seat of his domain-featured
finely woven hangings and the proudly displayed artwork of
children. Gordon had expected to see weapons and trophies of
battle, but there were none in sight anywhere. Indeed, once one
passed within the high stockade and abatis, there were hardly any
reminders of the long war at all.
That first day, Powhatan would not speak of business. He spent
all of it showing his guests around and supervising preparations
for a potlatch in their honor. Then, late in the afternoon, when
they had been shown their rooms in order to rest, their host
vanished.
“I thought I saw him head west,” Philip Bokuto answered, when
Gordon asked. “Toward that bluff over there.”
Gordon thanked him and headed that way down a gravel-lined
path
through the trees. For hours Powhatan had skillfully avoided any
serious discussion at all, always diverting them with something new
to see, or with his apparently infinite store of country
lore.
Tonight could be more of the same, with so many people coming
to
meet them. There might be no opportunity to get to business at
all.
Of course he knew he shouldn’t be so impatient. But Gordon did
not want to meet any more people. He wanted to
talk to
George Powhatan alone.
He found the tall man seated, facing the edge of a steep
dropoff. Far below, waters roared with the meeting of the branches
of the Coquille. To the west, the mountains of the Coast Range
shimmered in purple haze that was rapidly darkening into an orange
and ocher sunset. The ever-present clouds burned with a hundred
autumnal shades.
George Powhatan sat zazen on a simple reed mat, his upturned
hands resting on his knees. His expression was one Gordon had seen
sometimes, before the war-one he had called, for want of another
name, “The Smile of Buddha.”
Well, I’ll be… he thought. The
last of the
neohippies. Who would have believed it?
The mountain man’s sleeveless tunic showed a faded, blue
tattoo
on his massive shoulder-a powerful fist with one finger gently
extended, upon which was delicately perched a dove.
Below
could clearly be read a single word,
AIRBORNE.
The juxtaposition didn’t really surprise Gordon. Nor did the
peaceful expression on Powhatan’s face. Somehow they seemed
fitting.
He knew that courtesy didn’t require that he leave- only that
he
not interfere with the other man’s sitting. He quietly cleared a
space a few feet to Powhatan’s right, and lowered himself to the
ground facing the same direction. Gordon did not even try to get
into a lotus. He hadn’t practiced the skill since he was seventeen.
But he did sit, back straight, and tried to clear his mind as the
colors shimmered and changed out in the direction of the
sea.
At first all he could think of was how stiff he felt. How sore
from riding and sleeping on hard, cold ground. Puffs of wind
chilled him as the sun’s warmth hid behind the mountains. His
thoughts were a churned antheap of sounds, concerns,
memories.
But soon, without willing it at all, his eyelids began to grow
heavy. They settled down, microscopically, and then stopped about
halfway, unable to rise or fall any farther.
If he hadn’t known what was happening, he surely would have
panicked. But it was only a mild meditation trance; he recognized
the feelings. What the hell, he thought, and let
it
grow.
Was he doing this out of a sense of competition with Powhatan?
Or to show the man that he wasn’t the only child
of the
renaissance who still remembered?
Or was it simply because he was tired, and the sunset was so
beautiful?
Gordon felt a hollow sensation within him-as if a pocket of
each
lung were closed, and had been for a very long time. He tried to
inhale hard and deep, but his pattern of breathing did not alter in
the slightest-as if his body knew a wisdom that he did not. The
calm that crossed his face with the numbing breeze seemed to
trickle downward, touching his throat like a woman’s fingers,
running across his tight shoulders and stroking his muscles until
they relaxed of their own accord.
The colors… he thought, seeing only
the sky. His
heart rocked his body gently.
Had it been a lifetime since he last sat like this and let go?
Or was it just that there was so much to let go of?
They are…
In an easing that could never have been forced, the locked
sensation in his lungs seemed to let go, and he breathed.
Stale air escaped, to be swept away by the western wind. His next
breath tasted so sweet that it came back out as a
sigh.
“The colors…”
There was motion to his left, a stirring. A quiet voice spoke.
“I used to wonder if these sunsets were God’s last gift…
something to match the rainbow he gave Noah, only this time it was
his way of saying… ‘So long’… to us all.”
He did not answer Powhatan. There was no need.
“But after many years watching them, I guess the atmosphere is
slowly cleansing itself. They aren’t quite what they were, just
after the war.”
Gordon nodded. Why did people on the coast always assume they
had a monopoly on sunsets? He remembered how it had been on the
prairie-once the Three-Year Winter had passed and the skies were
clear enough to see the sun at all. It had seemed as if Heaven had
spilled its palette in a garish splash of hues, glorious, if deadly
in their beauty.
Without turning to look, Gordon knew that Powhatan had not
moved. The man sat in the same position, smiling
softly.
“Once,” the gray-haired squire said, “perhaps ten years ago, I
was sitting here, just as I am now, recovering from a recent wound
and contemplating the sunset, when I caught sight of something, or
somebody, moving by the river, down below. At first, I thought they
were men. I pulled out of my meditation quickly and headed down for
a closer look. And yet something told me that it was not the enemy,
even from this range.
“I approached as quietly as I could, until I had come within a
few hundred meters, and I focused the little monocular I used to
keep in my pouch.
“They weren’t human beings at all. Imagine my surprise when I
saw them strolling by the river bank, hand in hand, him helping her
over stony banks, she murmuring softly as she carried something
wrapped in a bundle.
“A pair of chimpanzees, for Heaven’s sake. Or maybe one was a
chimp and the other a smaller ape or even a monkey. They vanished
into the rain forest before I could be sure.”
For the first time in ten minutes, Gordon blinked. The image
was
so stark in his imagination, as if he were looking over Powhatan’s
shoulder into the man’s memories from that long ago day. Why
is
he telling me this?
Powhatan continued, “They must have been set free from the
Portland Zoo, along with those leopards running wild in the
Cascades, now. That was the simplest explanation…
that they had worked their way south for years, foraging and
keeping out of sight, helping each other as they headed for what
they must have hoped would be warmer territory.
“I realized that they were moving down the south branch of the
Coquille, right into Holnist territory.
“What could I do? I thought about following. Trying to catch
them, or at least divert them. But it was doubtful I’d be able to
do anything more than frighten them. And anyway, if they had come
so far, what need had they of me to warn them of
the
dangers of being around man?
“They had been caged, now they were free. Oh, I wasn’t foolish
enough to conclude they were happier, but at least they weren’t
subject to the will of others anymore.”
Powhatan’s voice was subdued. “That can be a precious thing, I
know.”
There was another pause. “I let them go,” he said, finishing
his
story. “Often, as I sit here watching these humbling sunsets, I
wonder what ever became of them.”
At last, Gordon’s eyes closed completely. The silence
stretched
on. He inhaled and with some effort made the heaviness fall aside.
Powhatan had been trying to tell him something, with that strange
story. He, in turn, had something to say to
Powhatan.
“A duty to help others isn’t necessarily the same as being
subject to the will of…”
He stopped-sensing that something had changed. His eyes
opened,
and when he turned, he saw that Powhatan was gone.
That evening people gathered from all over, more men and women
than Gordon had thought still lived in the sparsely settled valley.
For the visiting postman and his company, they put on a folk
festival, of sorts. Children sang, and small troupes performed
clever little skits.
Unlike in the north, where popular songs were often those
remembered from the days of television and radio, here there were
no fondly recalled commercial jingles, few rock and roll melodies
retuned to banjo and acoustic guitar. Instead, the music went back
to an older tradition.
The bearded men, the women in long dresses tending table, the
singing by fire and lamplight-it might easily have been a gathering
from nearly two centuries ago, back when this valley had first been
settled by white men, coming together for company and to shake off
the chill of winter.
Johnny Stevens represented the northerners during the
songfest.
He had brought his treasured guitar, and dazzled the people with
his flair, setting them clapping and stamping their
feet.
Normally, this would have been wonderful fun, and Gordon might
gladly join in with offerings from his old repertoire-from back
before he had hit on being a “postman,” when he had been a
wandering minstrel trading songs and stories for meals halfway
across the continent.
But he had listened to jazz and to Debussy the night before
leaving Corvallis. He could not help wondering if it would turn out
to have been the last time, ever.
Gordon knew what George Powhatan was trying to accomplish with
this fete. He was putting off the confrontation… making the
Willametters sit and stew… taking their
measure.
Gordon’s impression back at the cliff had not changed. With
his
long locks and ready banter, Powhatan was the very image of the
aging neohippy. The long-dead movement of the nineties seemed to
fit the Squire’s style of leadership.
For instance, in the Camas Valley, clearly everyone was
independent and equal.
Still, when George laughed, everyone
else did. It
seemed only natural. He gave no orders, no commands. It did not
seem to occur to anyone that he would. Nothing happened in the
lodge that displeased him enough to even raise an
eyebrow.
In what had once been called the “soft” arts-those requiring
neither metals nor electricity-these people were as advanced as the
busy craftsmen of the Willamette. In some ways, perhaps, more so.
That, no doubt, was why Powhatan had insisted on showing off his
farm-to let the visitors see that they were not dealing with a
society of throwbacks, but folk just as civilized in their own
right. Part of Gordon’s plan was to prove that Powhatan was
wrong.
At last it was time to bring out the “gifts from Cyclops” they
had brought all this way.
The people watched wide-eyed as Johnny Stevens demonstrated a
cartoon graphics game on a color display that had been lovingly
repaired by the Corvallis techs. He gave them a video puppet show
about a dinosaur and a robot. The images and bright sounds soon had
everybody laughing in delight, the adults as much as the
children.
And yet Gordon detected once again that uncanny
something in their mood. The people cheered and
laughed,
but their applause seemed to be in honor of a clever
trick. The machines had been brought to whet their
appetites,
to make them want high technology once again. But Gordon saw no
covetous glow in the watchers’ eyes, no rekindled urge to own such
wonders again.
Some of the men did sit up when Philip Bokuto’s turn came. The
black ex-Marine stepped up with a battered leather valise, and from
it he drew out a few of the new weapons.
He showed the gas bombs and mines, and told them how they
might
be used to hold strong points against attack. Philip described the
night vision scopes, soon to be available from the workshops of
Cyclops. A ripple of uncertainty moved from man to
man-battle-scarred veterans of a long war against a terrible enemy.
While Bokuto talked, people kept glancing at the big man in the
corner.
Powhatan did not say or do anything explicit. The picture of
politeness, he only yawned once, demurely covering his mouth. He
smiled indulgently as each weapon was displayed, and Gordon was
awed to see how, with body language alone, the man seemed to say
that these presents were quaint, perhaps even clever… but
really quite irrelevant.
The bastard. But Gordon really didn’t
know how to fight
back. Soon, that smile had spread around the room, and he knew that
it was time to cut their losses.
Dena had pestered him to bring along her own list of presents.
Needles and thread, base-neutral soap, samples of that new line of
semicotton underwear they had started weaving again up in Salem,
just before the invasion.
“They’ll convert the women, Gordon. They’ll do more
good
than all your whiz-bangs and razzle-dazzles. Trust
me”
The last time he had trusted Dena, though, it had led to a
slender, tragic corpse under a snow-blown cedar. By that time
Gordon had had quite enough of Dena’s version of
pseudofeminism.
Would it have been any worse than this, though? Was
I hasty?
Perhaps we should have brought along some of the
more
mundane things-tooth powder and sanitary napkins,
pottery,
and new linen sheets.
He shook his head; that was all water under a dam. He gave
Bokuto the signal to wrap it up and reached for his third ace. He
drew forth his saddlebag and handed it to Johnny
Stevens.
A hush fell over the crowd. Gordon and Powhatan watched each
other across the room as Johnny stood- proud in his uniform-in
front of the flickering fire. He riffled through envelopes and
began reading names aloud in order to deliver the
mail.
All through the still-civilized parts of the Willamette, the
call had gone out. Anyone who had ever known anybody in the south
had been asked to write to them. Most of the
intended
recipients would turn out to be long dead, of course. But a few
letters would certainly arrive in the right hands, or those of
relatives. Old connections might be resumed, the theory went. The
plea for help would have to become something less abstract, more
personal.
It had been a good idea, but once again the reaction was not
as
expected. The pile of undeliverable letters grew. And as Johnny
called out name after name without reply, Gordon saw that a
different lesson was being brought home.
The people of the Camas were being reminded of how many had
died. Of how few had survived the bitter times.
And now that peace seemed to be theirs at last, it was easy to
see how they resented being asked to sacrifice again, for near
strangers who had had it easier for years. Those few who did
acknowledge letters seemed to take them reluctantly, folding them
away without reading them.
George Powhatan looked surprised when his own name was called.
But his flicker of puzzlement vanished quickly as he shrugged and
took a package and a slim envelope.
Things were not going well at all, Gordon realized. Johnny
finished his task and gave his leader a look that seemed to say,
What now?
Gordon had only one card left-the one he hated most of all-and
the one he knew best how to use.
Damn. But there’s no other choice.
He stepped in front of the fireplace, facing the silent people
with the warmth to his back, and took a deep breath. Then he
started right in… lying to them.
“I have come to tell you a story,” he said. “I want to tell
you
about a country of once upon a time. It may sound familiar, since
many of you were born there. But the story ought to amaze you,
nevertheless. I know it always amazes me.
“It’s a strange tale, of a nation of a quarter of a billion
people who once filled the sky and even the spaces between the
planets with their voices, just as you good folk filled this fine
hall with your songs tonight.
“They were a strong people, the
strongest the world had
ever known. But that hardly seemed to matter to them. When they had
a chance to conquer the entire world, they simply ignored the
opportunity, as if there were far more interesting things to do
than that.
“They were wonderfully crazy. They
laughed and they
built things and they argued… They loved to accuse
themselves of terrible crimes as a people: a strange practice until
you understood that its hidden purpose was to make themselves
better-better to each other-better to the Earth- better than prior
generations of Man,
“You all know that to look up at the moon at night, or at
Mars,
is to see the footprints where a few of those people walked. Some
of you remember sitting in your homes and watching those footprints
being made.”
For the first time that evening, Gordon felt he had their full
attention. He saw eyes flicker to the emblems on his uniform, and
to the bright brass rider on the peak of his postman’s
cap.
“The people of that nation were crazy all right,” he told
them.
“But they were crazy in a manner that was magnificent… in a
way that had never been seen before.”
One man’s scarred face stood out from the crowd. Gordon
recognized old, never-healed knife wounds. He looked at that man as
he spoke.
“Today we live by killing,” he said. “But in that fabled land,
for the most part, people settled their differences
peaceably.”
He turned to the tired women, slumped on benches from
butchering
and cleaning and laying out food for so many people. Their lined
faces were flickering crags in the firelight. Several showed
telltale scars from the Pox, or the Big Mumps, wartime diseases or
merely old plagues that had returned in new force with the end of
sanitation.
“They took for granted a clean, healthy life,” he said,
reminding them. “A life far gentler, far sweeter than any that had
gone before.
“Or, perhaps,” he added softly, “sweeter than any that would
ever come again.”
The people were looking at him now,
rather than at
Powhatan. And it wasn’t just in older faces that eyes glistened
wetly. A boy hardly over fifteen sobbed out loud.
Gordon spread his arms. “What were those people like, those
Americans? You remember how they criticized
themselves,
often rightly. They were arrogant, argumentative, often
shortsighted…
“But they did not deserve what happened to them!
“They had begun to wield godlike powers-to create thinking
machines, to give their bodies new strengths, and to mold Life
itself-but it was not pride in their
accomplishments that
struck them down.”
He shook his head. “I cannot believe that! It cannot be true
that we were punished for dreaming, for reaching
out.”
His balled fist clenched whitely. “It was not
fated
that men and women should always live like animals! Or that they
should have learned so much in vain-”
In complete surprise, Gordon felt his voice break,
mid-sentence.
It failed him just as it was time to begin telling the lie… to
give Powhatan a story of his own.
But his heart pounded and his mouth was suddenly nearly too
dry
to speak. He blinked. What was happening? Tell them,
he
thought. Tell them now!
“In the east…” Gordon began, aware of Bokuto and Stevens
staring at him.
“In the east, across the mountains and deserts, rising from
that
great nation’s ashes…”
He stopped again, breathing hard. It felt as if a hand were
clutching his heart, threatening to squeeze if he continued.
Something was preventing him from launching into his well-practiced
pitch, his fairy tale.
All around they waited for him. He had them in his palm. They
were ripe!
That was when Gordon glanced at George Powhatan’s visage,
craggy
and impervious as a cliff face in the flickering firelight. And he
knew then, in a sudden insight, what the problem
was.
For the first time he was trying to pass his myth of a
“Restored
United States” before a man who was clearly much, much stronger
than he.
Gordon knew that it wasn’t only a story’s believability
that mattered, but the personality behind it as
well. He
might convince them all of the existence of a resurgent nation,
somewhere over the eastern mountains, and it wouldn’t make a whit
of difference in the end… not if George Powhatan could make it
all moot with a smile, an indulgent nod, a yawn.
It would become a thing of bygone days. An anachronism.
Irrelevant.
Gordon closed his half-open mouth. Rows of faces looked up at
him expectantly. But he shook his head, abandoning the fable, and
with it, the lost fight.
“The east is far away,” he said softly.
Then he lifted his head and some strength returned to his
voice.
“What is going on back there may affect us all, if we live long
enough. But in the meantime there is the problem of
Oregon-Oregon, standing by herself, as if she
alone were
America still.
“The nation I spoke of smolders under the ashes, ready, if you
help, to cast its light again. To lead a silent world back to hope.
Believe it, and the future will be decided here,
tonight.
For if America ever stood for anything, it was people being at
their best when times were worst-and helping one another when it
counted most.”
Gordon turned and looked straight at George Powha-tan. His
voice
dropped low, but it no longer felt weak.
“And if you have forgotten that, if none of what I have said
to
you matters, then all I can say is that I pity
you.”
The moment seemed to hang, a supersaturated solution in time.
Powhatan sat still, like the carved image of a troubled patriarch.
The tendons in his neck stood out starkly, like knotty
ropes.
Whatever conflict went on in the man’s mind, though, was over
in
seconds. Powhatan smiled sadly.
“I understand,” he said. “And you may well be right, Mr.
Inspector. I can think of no easy answer except to say that most of
us have served and served until there is simply nothing more for us
to give. You may ask for volunteers again, of course. I won’t
forbid anyone. But I doubt many will go.”
He shook his head. “I hope you will believe it when we say
that
we are sorry. We are, deeply.
“But you are asking too much. We have earned our peace. It is,
by now, more precious than honor, or even pity.”
All this way, Gordon thought. We came
all this way,
for nothing.
Powhatan lifted two sheets of paper from his lap and held them
out to Gordon.
“This is the letter I received from Corvallis this
evening-carried all the way in your pouch. But although it had my
name on the envelope, it was not intended for me. It was meant to
be delivered to you… says so on the top of the first
page.
“I hope you will forgive me, though, if I took the liberty of
reading the text.”
There was sympathy in the man’s voice as Gordon reached out to
take the yellowed pages. For the first time Gordon heard Powhatan
repeat himself, too softly for the others to
overhear.
“I am sorry,” the man said. “I am also
quite
amazed.”
9
My dearest Gordon,
As you read this it is already too late to stop us, so please
stay calm while I try to explain. Then, if you still cannot condone
what we have done, I hope you can somehow find it in your heart to
forgive us.
I’ve talked it over and over with Susanna and Jo and the other
Army women. We’ve read as many books as our duties allowed time
for. We’ve badgered our mothers and aunts for their remembrances.
Finally, we were forced to come to two conclusions.
The first one is straightforward. It’s clear that male human
beings should never have been left in control of the world all
these centuries. Many of you are wonderful beyond belief, but too
many others will always be bloody lunatics.
Your sex is simply built that way. Its better side gave us
power
and light, science and reason, medicine and philosophy. Meanwhile,
the dark half spent its time dreaming up unimaginable hells and
putting them into practice.
Some of the old books hint at reasons for this strange
division,
Gordon. Science might even have been on the verge of an answer
before the Doomtime. There were sociologists (mostly women)
studying the problem, asking hard questions.
But whatever they learned, it’s lost to us now, except for the
simplest truths.
Oh, I can just hear you, Gordon, telling me I’m exaggerating
again-that I’m oversimplifying and “generalizing from too little
data.”
For one thing, a lot of women participated in the great “male”
accomplishments, and in the great evils, as well.
Also, it’s obvious that most men fall in between those
extremes
of good and bad I spoke of.
But Gordon, those ones in between wield no power! They don’t
change the world, for better or worse. They are
irrelevant.
You see? I can address your objections as if you were here!
Though I never forget that life has cheated me of so much, I
certainly have had a fine education for a woman of these times.
This last year I’ve learned even more, from you. Knowing you has
convinced me that I am right about men.
Face it, my dearest love. There are simply not enough of you
good guys left to win this round. You and those like you are our
heroes, but the bastards are winning! They are about to bring on
the night that comes after twilight, and you cannot stop them
alone.
There IS another force in humanity, Gordon. It might have
tipped
the balance in your age-old struggle, back in the days before the
Doomwar. But it was lazy or distracted… I don’t know. For some
reason, though, it did not intervene. Not in any concerted
way.
That is the second thing we, the women of the Army of the
Willamette, have realized: that we have one last chance to make up
for what women failed to do in the past.
We’re going to stop the bastards ourselves, Gordon. We are
going
to do our job at last… to choose among men, and to cull out the
mad dogs.
Forgive me, Please. The others wanted me to tell you that we
will always love you. I remain yours, always.
Dena
“Stop!… Oh, God… Don’t!”
When Gordon came abruptly awake, he was already on his feet.
The
remains of the evening campfire smoldered inches from his bare
toes. His arms were outstretched, as if in the midst of grabbing
after something, or someone.
Swaying, he felt the edges of his dream unravel into the
forest
night on all sides. His ghost had visited him again, only moments
ago in his sleep. The voice of the dead machine had spoken to him
across the decades, accusing with growing
impatience.
… Who will take responsibility… for
these foolish children. . . ?
Rows of running lights, and a voice of sad, cryogenic wisdom,
despairing of the endless failings of living human
beings.
“Gordon? What’s going on?”
Johnny Stevens sat up in his bedroll, rubbing his eyes. It was
very dim under the overcast sky, with only the fading embers and a
few wan stars here and there, twinkling faintly through the
overhanging branches.
Gordon shook his head, partly in order to hide his shivers. “I
just thought I’d check on the horses and the pickets,” he said. “Go
back to sleep, Johnny.”
The young postman nodded. “Okay. Tell Philip and Cal to wake
me
when it’s time for watch change.” The boy lay back down and pulled
the bedroll over his shoulders. “Be careful,
Gordon.”
Soon his breath was whistling softly again, his face smooth
and
careless. The hard life seemed to suit Johnny, something that never
ceased to amaze Gordon. After seventeen years of it, he
still wasn’t reconciled with having to live this way. Every so
often-even as he approached middle age-he still imagined he was
going to wake up in his student dormitory room, back in Minnesota,
and all the dirt and death and madness would turn out to be a
nightmare, an alternate world that had never been.
Near the coals, a row of lumpy bedrolls lay close together for
shared warmth. There were eight figures there besides Johnny-Aaron
Schimmel plus all the fighters they had been able to recruit from
the Camas Valley.
Four of the volunteers were boys, hardly old enough to shave.
The others were all old men.
Gordon did not want to think, but memories crowded in as he
pulled on his boots and woolen poncho.
For all of his near-total victory, George Powhatan had seemed
quite eager to see Gordon and his band depart. The visitors made
the patriarch of Sugarloaf Mountain uncomfortable. His domain would
not be the same until they left.
It turned out that Dena had sent two
packages-one more
in addition to her crazy letter. In the other she had managed to
convey gifts to the women of Powhatan’s household in spite of
Gordon, by dispatching them via “U.S. Mail.” Pathetic little
packets of soap and needles and underwear were accompanied by tiny
mimeographed pamphlets. There were vials of pills and ointments
Gordon recognized from the Corvallis central pharmacy. And he had
seen copies of her letter to himself.
The whole thing had Powhatan mystified. At least as much as
Gordon’s speech, Dena’s letter had made the man ill at
ease.
“I don’t understand,” he had said, straddling a chair while
Gordon hurriedly packed to leave. “How could an obviously
intelligent young woman have come up with such a bizarre set of
ideas? Hasn’t anybody cared enough to knock some sense into her?
What does she and her crew of little girls think they can
accomplish against Holnists?”
Gordon had not bothered to answer, knowing it would irritate
Powhatan. Anyway, he was in a hurry. He still hoped there was time
to get back and stop the Scouts before they performed the worst
idiocy since the Doomwar itself.
Powhatan kept probing, though. The man sounded genuinely
puzzled. And he was unaccustomed to being put off. At last, Gordon
found himself actually speaking put in Dena’s
defense,
“What kind of ‘common sense’ would you have had someone knock
into her, George? The logic of the colorless drabs who cook meals
for complacent men, here in the Camas? Or perhaps she should speak
only when spoken to, like those poor women who live as cattle down
in the Rogue, and now in Eugene?
“They may be wrong. They may even be crazy. But at least Dena
and her comrades care about something bigger than themselves, and
have the guts to fight for it. Do you, George? Do
you?”
Powhatan had looked down at the floor. Gordon barely heard his
reply. “Where is it written that one should only care about big
things? I fought for big things, long ago… for issues,
principles, a country. Where are all of them now?”
The steely gray eyes were narrow and sad when next he looked
up
at Gordon. “I found out something, you know. I discovered that the
big things don’t love you back. They take and take, and never give
in return. They’ll drain your blood, your soul, if you let them,
and never let go.
“I lost my wife, my son, while away battling for big
things. They needed me, but I had to go off trying to save
the
world.” Powhatan snorted at the last phrase. “Today I fight for my
people, for my farm-for smaller things- things I can
hold”
Gordon had watched Powhatan’s large, hard-calloused hand flex,
as if straining to grasp life itself. It had never occurred to him
until then that this man feared anything in the world, but there it
was, visible for only the briefest moment.
A certain rare kind of terror in his eyes.
At the door to Gordon’s guest room, Powhatan had turned, his
chiseled face outlined in the flickering light from the tallow
candles. “Me, I think I know why your crazy woman is pulling
whatever mad stunt she’s cooked up, and it doesn’t have to do with
that grand ‘heroes and villains’ bullshit she wrote
about.
“The other women, they’re just following her because she’s a
natural leader in desperate times. She has them swept along in her
wake, poor girls. But she…” Powhatan shook his head. “She
thinks she’s doing it for the big reasons, but one
of the
small things lies beneath it all.
“She’s doing it out of love, Mr. Inspector. I think she’s
doing
it for you alone.”
They had looked at each other, that last time, and Gordon
realized then that Powhatan was paying the visiting postman back
with interest for the unasked-for guilt he had been
delivered.
Gordon had nodded to the Squire of Sugarloaf Mountain,
accepting
the burden-postage prepaid.
Leaving the warmth of the coals, Gordon felt his way over to
the
horses and carefully checked their lines. All seemed well, though
the animals were a little jumpy still. After all, they had been
driven hard today. The ruins of the prewar town of Remote lay
behind them, and the old Bear Creek Campgrounds. If the band really
flew tomorrow, Calvin Lewis figured they might make Roseburg by a
little after nightfall.
Powhatan had been generous with provisions for their journey.
He
had given of the best of his stables. Anything the northerners
wanted, they could have. Except for George Powhatan, of
course.
As Gordon patted the last nickering horse, and stepped out
under
the trees, a part of him was still unable to believe they had come
all this way for nothing. Failure tasted bitter in his
mouth.
… rippling lights… the
voice of a
long-dead machine . . .
Gordon smiled without amusement.
“If I could have infected him with your ghost, Cyclops, don’t
you think I would have? But you don’t reach a man like him as
simply as that! He’s made of stronger stuff than I
was.”
… Who will take responsibility…
?
“I don’t know!” he whispered urgently, silently, at the
darkness
all around him. “I don’t even care anymore!”
He was maybe forty feet from the campsite now. It occurred to
him that he could just keep on going should he choose. If he
disappeared into the forest, right now, he would still be better
off than sixteen months ago when, robbed and injured, he had
stumbled upon that ancient, wrecked postal jeep in a high, dusty
forest.
He had taken the uniform and bag only in order to survive, but
something had latched onto him that strange night, the first of
many ghosts.
At little Pine View the unsought legend began-this Johnny
Appleseed “postman” nonsense that had long since gone completely
out of control, thrusting upon him unasked-for responsibility for
an entire civilization. Since then his life had no longer been his
own. But now, he realized, he could change that!
Just walk away, he thought.
Gordon felt his way in the pitch blackness, using the one
forest
skill that had never failed him, his sense of path and direction.
He walked surefootedly, sensing where the tree roots and little
gullies had to be, using the logic of one who had come to know
woodlands well.
It required a special, remote kind of concentration to move
this
way in the near-total darkness… a zenlike exercise that was
elevating-as detached but more active than that
sunset
meditation two days ago, overlooking the roaring confluence of the
Coquille. As he walked, he seemed to rise higher and higher above
his troubles.
Who needed eyes to see, or ears to hear? Only the touch of the
wind guided him. That and the scent of the red cedars, and the
faint salt traces of the distant, expectant sea.
Just walk away… Joyfully, he
realized that he had
found a counter incantation! One that matched and neutralized the
rippling of little lights in his mind. An antidote to
ghosts.
He hardly felt the ground, striding through the darkness,
repeating it with growing enthusiasm. Just walk
away!
The exalted journey ended abruptly, jarringly, as he tripped
over something completely unexpected-something that did not belong
there on the forest floor.
He tumbled to the ground with barely a sound, a puff of
snow-covered pine needles breaking his fall. Gordon scrambled
around, but couldn’t make out the obstacle that had brought him
down. It was soft and yielding to the touch, though. His hand came
away sticky and warm.
Gordon’s pupils should not have been able to dilate wider, but
sudden fear did the trick. He bent forward and the face of a dead
man came into sudden focus.
Young Cal Lewis stared back at him in a frozen expression of
surprise. The boy’s throat gaped, expertly slit.
Gordon scuttled backward until he came up against a nearby
tree
trunk. In a daze he realized he hadn’t even taken his belt knife or
pouch with him. Somehow, perhaps because of the spell of George
Powhatan’s mountain, he had let that deadly sliver of complacency
slip in. Perhaps his last mistake.
In the dark, he could hear the rushing waters of the middle
fork
of the Coquille. Beyond lay the enemy’s home ground. But right now
they were on this side of the river.
The ambushers don’t know I’m out here, he
realized. It
didn’t seem possible after the way he had been moving around,
mumbling to himself obliviously, but perhaps there had been a gap
in their closing circle.
Perhaps they had been preoccupied.
Gordon understood the principles well. First you take out the
pickets, then, in a rush, swoop down on the unsuspecting
encampment. Those boys and old men sleeping by the campfire did not
have George Powhatan with them, now. They never should have left
their mountain.
Gordon hunched down. The raiders would never find him here in
the roots of this tree. Not so long as he kept quiet. When the
butchery began, while the Holnists were busy collecting trophies,
he could be off into the deep woods without a trace.
Dena had said there were two kinds of men who counted…
and
those in between who did not matter. Fine, he
thought.
Let me be one of those in between. Living beats “mattering”
any
day.
He hunkered down, trying to keep as silent as
possible.
A twig snapped-barely the tiniest click over in the direction
of
the camp. A minute later a “night bird” cooed, a little farther
away. The rendition was understated and completely
believable.
Now that he was listening, Gordon found he could actually
follow
the deadly encirclement as it closed. His own tree had already been
left behind, and was well outside the narrowing ring of
death.
Quiet, he told himself. Wait
it
out.
He tried not to envision the stealthy enemy, their
camouflage-painted faces grinning in anticipation as they stroked
their oiled knives.
Don’t think about it!
He closed his eyes hard,
trying to listen only to his pounding heart while he fingered a
thin chain around his neck. He had worn it, along with the little
keepsake Abby had given him, ever since leaving Pine
View.
That’s right, think about Abby. He tried
to picture
her, smiling and cheerful and loving, but the inner commentary kept
on running within his head.
The Holnists would want to make sure the pickets were all
finished before they closed the trap. If they had not yet taken
care of the other man on watch-Philip Bokuto- they would do it
soon.
He made a fist around Abby’s present. The chain made a taut
line
across the back of his neck.
Bokuto… guarding his commander even
when he
disapproved… doing Gordon’s dirty work for him under the
falling snow… serving with all his heart for the sake of a
myth… for a nation that had died and would never, ever rise
again.
Bokuto . . .
For the second time that night Gordon found himself on his
feet
without remembering how it had happened. There was no volition at
all, only a shrill screech that pierced the night as he blew hard
on Abby’s whistle, then his own voice, screaming through cupped
hands.
“Philip! Watch out!”
… out!… out! . . . out!
. . . The
echo rolled forth, seeming to stun the forest.
For a long second the stillness held, then six sharp
concussions
shook the air in rapid succession, and suddenly, shouting filled
the night.
Gordon blinked. Whatever had come over him, it was too late to
turn back now. He had to play it out. “They walked right into our
trap!” he shouted as loud as he could. “George says he’ll take them
on the river side! Phil, cover the right!”
What an ad lib performance! Even though his words were
probably
lost amid the outcries and gunfire and yelped survivalist battle
calls, the commotion had to be setting their plans off. Gordon kept
shouting and blowing the whistle to try to confuse the
ambushers.
Men screamed and dark shapes rolled through the undergrowth in
desperate struggle. Flames rose high from the stirred campfire,
casting grappling silhouettes through the trees.
If the fight was still going on after two full minutes, Gordon
knew it meant there was a chance after all. He shouted as if he
were directing a whole company of reinforcements.
“Don’t let the bastards get back across the river!” he cried.
And indeed, there did seem to be some hurried motion off that way.
He ducked from tree to tree toward the fighting-even though he had
no weapon. “Keep them bottled in! Don’t let ‘em-”
That was when a shape emerged suddenly from around the very
next
tree. Gordon stopped only ten feet from the jagged patterns of
black and white that made the painted face so hard to focus on. A
slashlike mouth split into a broad, gap-toothed grin. The body
below the unfriendly smile was immense.
“Pretty noisy feller,” the survivalist commented.
“Oughta quiet up for a bit, right, Nate?” The dark eyes
flickered over Gordon’s shoulder.
For the briefest instant Gordon started to turn, even as he
told
himself that it was all a trick-that the Holnist was probably
alone.
His attention only wavered for a moment, but it was long
enough.
The camouflaged figure moved like a blur. One blow from a
ham-sized, rock-hard fist sent Gordon spinning to the
ground.
The world was a whirl of stars and pain. How could
anyone
move so fast? he wondered with unravelling shreds of
consciousness.
It was Gordon’s last clear thought.
10
A frigid, misty rain turned the slushy trail into a quagmire
that sucked at the prisoners’ shuffling feet. With hanging heads
they fought the mud, struggling to keep up with the horses and
riders. After three days, all that mattered in the captives’ narrow
world was keeping up, and avoiding any more
beatings.
The victors looked hardly less fearsome now, without their war
paint. In winter camouflage parkas they rode imperiously on their
seized Camas Valley mounts. The rearmost and youngest Holnist-with
only one gold ring hanging from his ear-occasionally turned back to
snarl at the prisoners and tug the tether around the lead man’s
wrist, causing the whole line to stumble ahead faster for a
time.
Everywhere along the trail lay trash left by successive waves
of
refugees. After countless small battles and massacres, the
strongest held the high ground in this territory. This was the
paradise of Nathan Holn.
Several times the caravan passed through small clusters of
hovels, filthy warrens made from bits and scraps of prewar salvage.
At every ragged hamlet a population of wretched creatures stumbled
out to pay their respects, eyes downcast. Now and then an unlucky
one cowered under a few lazy blows meted out for no apparent reason
by those on horseback.
Only after the warriors had passed did the villagers look up
again. Their tired eyes held no hatred, only a glittering hunger as
they watched the receding rumps of the well-fed
horses.
The serfs hardly glanced at the new prisoners. Their lack of
attention was returned.
Walking filled the daylight hours with few breaks. At night
the
captives were separated to prevent talking. Each was tied to a
hobbled horse for warmth without a fire. Then, with dawn and a meal
of weak gruel, the long walk began anew.
By the fourth day two of the prisoners had died. Two more who
were too weak to continue were left with the Holnist baron of a
tiny, scrabble-backed manor- replacements for serfs whose crucified
corpses still hung over the trail as object lessons to anyone
contemplating disobedience.
All this time, Gordon saw little more than the back of the man
in front of him. He grew to hate the prisoner tethered behind his
waist. Each time that one stumbled, the sudden jerk tore into the
tortured muscles of his arms and sides. Still, he scarcely noticed
by the time that man also disappeared, leaving only two captives to
follow the plodding horses. He envied the one who had been left
behind, not even knowing if the fellow had died.
The journey seemed interminable. He had awakened into it days
ago and had hardly risen to complete awareness since. In spite of
the agony, a small part of him welcomed the
stupor and
monotony. No ghosts bothered him here. No complexities and no
guilt. It was all quite straightforward actually. One put a foot in
front of the other, ate what little one was given, and kept one’s
head down.
At some point he noticed that his fellow prisoner was
helping him, taking part of his weight on his
shoulders as
they fought the mud. Semiconsciously, he wondered why anyone would
do such a thing.
At last there came a time when he blinked and saw that his
hands
had been untied. They stood next to a wood-sided structure, offset
some distance from a maze of teetering, noisome shanties. From not
far away came the roar of rushing water.
“Welcome to Agness Town,” one of the harsh-voiced men said.
Someone planted a hand in his back and pushed. There was laughter
as the prisoners tumbled inside to collapse on a filthy straw
tick.
Neither bothered to move from the exact spot where he rolled
to
a stop. It was a chance to sleep. For the moment, that was all that
mattered. Again, there were no dreams- only occasional twitching as
abused muscles misfired through the rest of the day, the night, and
all the following morning.
Gordon awakened only when bright sunlight rose high enough to
shine painfully through his eyelids. He rolled aside, groaning. A
shadow passed over him, and his eyelids fluttered like rusty
shutters.
It took a few seconds to focus. Recognition came some time
after
that. The first thing that occurred to him was that there was a
tooth missing from the familiar smile.
“Johnny,” he croaked.
The young man’s face was blistered and bruised. Still, John
Stevens grinned cheerfully, gap and all “Hullo, Gordon. Welcome
back among the unlucky-the living.”
He helped Gordon sit up and steadied a ladle of cool river
water
for him to sip. Meanwhile, Johnny talked. “There’s food over in the
corner. And I overheard a guard say something about gettin‘ us
cleaned up sometime soon. So maybe there’s a reason our balls
aren’t already hanging from some asshole’s trophy belt. I guess
they brought us all this way to meet some bigshot.”
Johnny laughed, dryly. “Just you wait, Gordon. We’ll talk
rings
around the guy, whoever it is. Maybe we can offer to make him a
postmaster, or something. Is that what you meant when you lectured
me about the importance of learning practical
politics?”
Gordon was too weak to strangle Johnny for his incredible,
jarring cheerfulness. He tried to smile back instead, but it only
made his cracked lips hurt.
A scuttling movement in the corner opposite them showed that
they were not alone. There were three other prisoners in the shed
with them-filthy, wild-eyed scarecrows who had obviously been here
a long time. They stared back with saucer eyes, obviously long past
human.
“Did… did anyone get away from the ambush?” It had been
Gordon’s first lucid opportunity to ask.
“I think so. Your warning must have buggered the bastards’
timing. It gave us a chance to make a pretty good fight of it. I’m
sure we took out a couple of them before they swamped us.” Johnny’s
eyes shone. If anything, the boy’s admiration seemed to have
increased. Gordon looked away. He didn’t want praise for his
behavior that night.
“I’m pretty sure I killed the sonovabitch who smashed my
guitar.
Another one-”
“What about Phil Bokuto?” Gordon interrupted.
Johnny shook his head. “I don’t know, Gordon. I saw no black
ears or… other things… among the ‘trophies’ the crumbs
collected. Maybe he made it.”
Gordon sagged back against the slats of their pen. The sound
of
rushing water, a roar that had been with them all night, came from
the other side. He turned and peered through the gaps in the rough
planks.
About twenty feet away was the edge of a bluff. Beyond it,
through ragged shreds of drifting fog, he could see the heavily
forested wall of a canyon cut by a narrow, swift
stream.
Johnny seemed to read his thoughts. For the first time the
young
man’s voice was low, serious.
“That’s right, Gordon. We’re right in the heart of it. That
down
there’s the bitch herself. The bloody Rogue.”
11
The mist and icy drizzle turned back into flurries of
snow-flakes for the next week. With food and rest, the two
prisoners slowly regained some strength. For company they had only
each other. Neither their guards nor their fellow captives would
speak to them in more than monosyllables.
Still, it wasn’t hard to learn some things about life in the
Holnist realm. Their meals were brought by silent, cowering drudges
from the nearby shanty town. The only figures they saw who weren’t
emaciated-besides the earringed survivalists themselves-were the
women who served the Holnists’ pleasure. And even those worked by
day: drawing water from the frigid stream or currying the stable of
well-fed horses.
The pattern seemed well established, as if this was an
accustomed way of life. And yet Gordon became convinced that the
neofeudal community was in a state of flux.
“They’re preparing for a big move,” he told Johnny as they
watched a caravan arrive one afternoon. Still more frightened serfs
trudged into Agness, pulling carts and setting up camp in the
swelling warren. Obviously, this little valley could not hold such
a population for very long.
“They’re using this place as a staging area.”
Johnny suggested, “That mob of people might offer us an
advantage, if we find a way to bust out of here.”
“Hmm,” Gordon answered. But he didn’t hold much hope for aid
from any of the slaves out there. They’d had any spirit beaten out
of them, and had problems enough of their own.
One day, after the noon meal, Gordon and Johnny were ordered
to
step out of their pen and strip naked. A pair of shabby, silent
women came and gathered up their clothes. While the northerners’
backs were turned, buckets of cold river water were thrown on them.
Gordon and Johnny gasped and sputtered. The guards all laughed, but
the women’s eyes did not even flicker as they left, heads
bowed.
The Holnists-dressed in green and black camouflage, their ears
arrayed with golden rings-competed in lazy knife practice, flipping
their blades in quick, underhand arcs. The two northerners clutched
greasy blankets in front of a small fire, trying to stay
warm.
That evening their cleaned and patched clothes were returned
to
them. This time one of the women actually looked up briefly, giving
Gordon a chance to see her face. She might have been twenty, though
her lined eyes looked far older. Her brown hair was streaked with
gray. She glanced at Gordon for only a moment as he dressed. But
when he ventured a smile, she turned quickly and fled without
looking back.
The sunset meal was better fare than the usual sour gruel.
There
were scraps of something like venison amidst the parched corn.
Perhaps it was horsemeat
Johnny dared fate by asking for seconds. The other prisoners
blinked in amazement and cringed even farther into their corners.
One of the silent guards growled and took their plates away. But to
their surprise he returned with another helping for each of
them.
It was full dark when three Holn warriors in floppy berets
marched up behind a stoop-shouldered servant bearing a torch. “Come
along,” the leader told them. “The General wants to see
you.”
Gordon looked at Johnny, standing proud again in his uniform.
The young man’s eyes were confident. After all, they seemed to say,
what did these jerks have that could compare with Gordon’s
authority as an official of the Restored Republic?
Gordon remembered how the boy had half-carried him during the
long journey south from the Coquille. He had little heart anymore
for pretenses, but for Johnny’s sake he would try the old scam one
more time.
“All right, postman,” he told his young friend. Gordon winked.
“Neither sleet, nor hail, nor gloom of night…”
Johnny grinned back. “Through bandit’s hell, through firefight…”
They turned together and left the jail shed ahead of their
guards.
12
“Welcome, gentlemen”
The first thing Gordon noticed was the crackling fireplace.
The
snug pre-Doom ranger station was stone sealed and warm. He had
almost forgotten what the sensation felt like.
Second noticed was the rustle of silk as a long-legged blond
rose from a cushion by the hearth. The girl was a striking contrast
to nearly all the other women they had seen here-clean, erect,
laden down with glittering stones that would have brought a fortune
before the war.
Nevertheless, her eyes were lined, and she looked at the two
northerners as one might regard creatures from the far side of the
moon. Silently, she stood up and exited the room through a beaded
curtain.
“I said welcome, gentlemen. Welcome to
the Free
Realm.”
At last Gordon turned and took notice of a thin, bald man with
a
neatly trimmed beard, who rose to greet them from a cluttered desk.
Four gold rings glittered from one earlobe, and three from the
other-symbols of rank. He approached holding out his
hand.
“Colonel Charles Westin Bezoar, at your service, formerly of
the
bar of the State of Oregon and Republican Commissioner for Jackson
County. I presently have the honor of being judge advocate of the
American Liberation Army.”
Gordon arched an eyebrow, ignoring the outstretched hand.
“There
have been a lot of ‘armies’ since the Fall. Which one did you say
you were with, again?”
Bezoar smiled and let his hand drop casually. “I realize that
some apply other names to us. Let’s defer that for now and just say
I serve as aide-de-camp to General Volsci Macklin, who is your
host. The General will be joining us shortly. Meanwhile, may I
offer you some of our hill country sour mash?” He lifted a cut
glass decanter from the carved oak sideboard. “Whatever you may
have heard about our rough life up here, I believe you’ll find
we’ve refined at least a few of the old arts.”
Gordon shook his head. Johnny looked over the man’s head.
Bezoar
shrugged.
“No? Pity. Perhaps some other time. I hope you don’t mind if I
do indulge.” Bezoar poured himself a glass of brown liquor and
gestured to two chairs near the fire. “Please, gentlemen, you must
still be exhausted from your journey. Be comfortable. There is much
I’d like to know.
“For instance, Mr. Inspector, how are
things back in
the states to the east, beyond the deserts and the
mountains?”
Gordon did not even blink as he sat down. So the “Liberation
Army” had an intelligence service. It was no surprise that Bezoar
knew who they were… or at least who north Oregon thought
Gordon was.
“Things are much the same as in the west, Mr. Bezoar. People
try
to live, and rebuild where they can.”
In his mind Gordon was trying to recreate the dreamscape-the
fantasy of St. Paul City, of Odessa and Green Bay-images of living
cities leading a bold, resurgent nation-not the windswept ghost
towns he remembered, picked clean by ragged bands of wary
survivors.
He spoke for the cities as he had dreamed them. His voice was
stern. “In some places citizens have been luckier than in others.
They’ve regained much, and hope for more for their children. In
other areas, the recovery has been… hindered. Some of those
who nearly ruined our nation, a generation ago, still wreak havoc,
still harry our couriers and disrupt communications.
“And as I speak ofit” Gordon continued
coldly. “I
cannot put off any longer asking you just what you’ve done with the
mail your men have stolen from the United States.”
Bezoar put on wire-rimmed glasses and lifted a thick folder
from
the table next to him. “You are speaking of these letters, I
presume?” He opened the packet. Dozens of grayed and yellowed
sheets rustled dryly. “You see? I do not bother to deny it. I
believe we should be open and frank with each other, if anything is
to come of this meeting.
“Yes, a team of our advance scouts did find a pack horse in
the
ruins of Eugene-yours, I imagine-whose saddlebags contained this
very strange cargo. Ironically, I believe that at the very moment
our scouts were seizing these samples, you were killing two of
their comrades elsewhere in the deserted town.”
Bezoar raised one hand before Gordon could speak. “Have no
fear
of retribution. Our Holnist philosophy does not believe in it. You
defeated two survivalists in a straight fight. That makes you a
peer in our eyes. Why do you think you were treated as men after
you were captured, and not gelded as serfs or as
sheep?”
Bezoar smiled amiably, but Gordon seethed inside. In Eugene
last
spring he had seen what Holnists did to the bodies of the harmless
gleaners they had mowed down. He remembered young Mark Aage’s
mother, who saved his life and her son’s with one heroic gesture.
Bezoar clearly meant what he said, yet to Gordon the logic was
sickly, bitterly ironic.
The bald survivalist spread his hands. “We admit to taking
your
mail, Mr. Inspector. Can we mitigate our guilt by claiming
ignorance? After all, until these letters reached me here, none of
us had ever heard of the Restored United
States!
“Imagine our amazement when we saw such things… letters
carried many miles from town to town, warrants for new postmasters,
and these,” he raised a sheaf of official-looking flyers. “These
declarations from the provisional government in
St. Paul
City.”
The words were conciliatory and sounded earnest. But there was
something in the man’s tone of voice… He could not quite pin
it down, but whatever it was disturbed Gordon.
“You know of it now,” he pointed out. “And yet you continue.
Two
of our postal couriers have disappeared without a trace since your
invasion of the north. Ybur ‘American Liberation Army’ has been at
war with the United States for many months now, Colonel
Bezoar. And that cannot be mitigated by
ignorance.”
The lies came easily, now. In essence, after all, the words
were
true.
Ever since those few weeks, right after the big war had been
“won”-when the U.S. still had a government, and food and materiel
still moved protected on the highways- the real problem had not
been the broken enemies without so much as the chaos
within.
Grain rotted in bulging silos while farmers were felled by
simple, innoculable plagues. Vaccine was available in the cities,
where starvation reaped multitudes. More people died due to the
breakdown and lawlessness-the shattered web of commerce and mutual
assistance-than from all the bombs and germs, or even from the
three-year dusk.
It had been men like this who delivered the coup de grace, who
ended any chance those millions had.
“Perhaps, perhaps.” Bezoar tossed back a shot of the pungent
liquor. He smiled. “Then again, many have claimed to be the true
inheritors of American sovereignty. So your ‘Restored United
States’ controls large areas and populations, and so its leaders
include a few old farts who once bought elected office with cash
and a television smile. Does that mean that it is
the true
America?”
For an instant the calm, reasonable visage seemed to crack,
and
Gordon saw the fanatic within, unchanged except perhaps by
deepening over the years. Gordon had heard that tone… long ago
in the radio voice of Nathan Holn-before the survivalist “saint”
was hanged-and spoken by his followers ever since.
It was the same solipsistic philosophy of ego that had stoked
the rage of Nazism, of Stalinism. Hegel, Horbiger, Holn-the roots
were identical. Derived truth, smug and certain,
never to
be tested in the light of reality.
In North America, Holnism had been a nut fringe during a time
of
otherwise unparalleled brilliance, a throwback to the egoistic
eighties. But another version of the same evil-“Slavic
Mysticism”-actually seized power in the other hemisphere. That
madness finally plunged the world into the Doomwar.
Gordon smiled with grim severity. “Who can say what is
legitimate, after all these years? But one thing is certain,
Bezoar, the ‘true spirit of America’ seems to have become a passion
for hunting down Holnists. Your cult of the strong is loathed-not
only in the Restored U.S. but almost everywhere I’ve traveled.
Feuding villages will join forces on rumor of sighting one of your
bands. Any man caught wearing surplus camouflage is hanged on
sight.”
He knew he had scored, then. The earringed officer’s nostrils
flared. “That’s Colonel Bezoar, if you please.
And I’ll
wager there are some areas where that’s not true, Mr. Inspector.
Florida, perhaps? And Alaska?”
Gordon shrugged. Both states had gone silent the day after the
first bombs fell. There had been other places too, such as southern
Oregon, where the militia had not dared enter, even in
strength.
Bezoar stood up and walked to a bookshelf. He pulled down a
thick volume. “Have you ever actually read Nathan
Holn?”
he asked, his voice amiable once again. Gordon shook his
head.
“But, sir!” Bezoar protested. “How can you know your enemy
without learning how he thinks? Please, take this copy of Lost
Empire… Holn’s own biography of that great man, Aaron
Burr. It just might change your mind.
“You know I do believe, Mr. Krantz, that you are the sort of
man
who could become a Holnist. Often the strong need only have their
eyes opened to see that they have been cozened by the propaganda of
the weak, that they could have the world, if only they stretched
out their hands and took it.”
Gordon suppressed his initial response, and picked up the
proffered book instead. It probably wouldn’t be wise to provoke the
man too far. After all, he could probably have both northerners
killed with a word.
“All right. It might help pass the time while you arrange our
transportation back to the Willamette,” he said, quite
calmly.
“Yeah,” Johnny Stevens contributed, speaking for the first
time.
“And while you’re at it, how about paying the extra postage it’ll
take to finish delivering that stolen mail we’re going to take back
with us?”
Bezoar returned Johnny’s cold smile, but before he could
reply,
they heard footsteps on the wooden porch of the former ranger
station. The door opened and in stepped three bearded men dressed
in the traditional green and black fatigues.
One of them, the shortest but easily the most imposing figure,
wore only a single earring. But it glittered with large, inset
gems.
“Gentlemen,” Bezoar said, standing up. “Allow me to introduce
Brigadier General Macklin, U.S. Army Reserve, uniter of the Oregon
clans of Holn and commander of the American Forces of
Liberation.”
Gordon stood up numbly. For a moment he could only stare. The
General and his two aides were among the strangest-looking human
beings he had ever seen.
There was nothing unusual about their beards or earrings…
or the short string of shriveled “trophies” that each wore as
ceremonial decorations. But all three men were eerily
scarred, wherever their uniforms permitted view of
their
necks and arms. And under the faint lines left by some long ago
surgery, the muscles and tendons seemed to bulge and knot
oddly.
It was weird, and yet it occurred to Gordon that he might have
seen something akin to it, sometime in the past. He could not quite
remember where or when though.
Had these men suffered from one of the postwar plagues?
Supermumps, perhaps? Or some sort of thyroid
hypertrophy?
In a sudden recognition Gordon knew that the biggest of
Macklin’s aides was the pig-ugly raider who had struck so quickly
on the night of the ambush by the banks of the Co-qunie, knocking
him to the ground with the punch of a bull before he could even
begin to move.
None of the men was of the newer generation of
feudal-survivalists, young toughs recruited all through southern
Oregon. Like Bezoar, the newcomers were clearly old enough to have
been adults before the Doomwar. Time did not seem to have slowed
them down any, however. General Macklin moved with a catlike
quickness that was intimidating to watch. He wasted no time in
pleasantries. With a jerk of his head and a glance at Johnny, he
made his wishes known to Bezoar.
Bezoar pressed his fingers together. “Ah. Yes. Mr. Stevens, if
you would please accompany these gentlemen back to your, um,
quarters? It appears the General wants to speak with your superior
alone.”
Johnny looked at Gordon. Obviously, if given the word, he
would
fight.
Gordon quailed inwardly under the burden of that expression in
the youth’s eyes. Such devotion was something he had never sought,
not from anybody. “Go on back, John,” he told his young friend.
“I’ll join you later.”
The two hulking aides accompanied Johnny outside. When the
door
had closed, and the footsteps receded into the night, Gordon turned
to face the commander of the united Holnists. In his heart he felt
a powerful determination. There was no regret, no fear of hypocrisy
here. If it was in him to lie well enough to bluff these bastards,
he would do it. He felt full within his postman’s uniform, and got
ready to give the best performance of his life.
“Save it,” Macklin snapped.
The dark-bearded man pointed a long, powerful hand at him.
“One
word of that crap about a ‘Restored United States’ out of you, and
I’ll stuff your ’uniform‘ down your frigging
throat!”
Gordon blinked. He glanced at Bezoar and saw that the man was
grinning.
“I am afraid I’ve been less than open with you, Mr.
Inspecter.” There was a clear lilt of sarcasm this
time in
Be-zoar’s last two words. The Holnist Colonel bent to open a drawer
in his desk. “When first I heard of you I immediately sent out
parties to trace your route backwards. By the way, you are right
that Holnism is not very popular, in certain areas. At least not
yet. Two of the teams never returned.”
General Macklin snapped his fingers. “Don’t drag this out,
Bezoar. I’m busy. Call the jerk in.”
Bezoar nodded quickly and reached back to pull a cord on the
wall, leaving Gordon wondering what he had been trying to find in
the drawer.
“Anyway, one of our scouting parties did encounter a band of
kindred spirits in the Cascades, in a pass north of Crater Lake.
There were misunderstandings, most of the poor locals died, I’m
afraid. But we did manage to persuade a survivor-”
There were footsteps, then the beaded curtain parted. The
svelte
blond woman held it open and watched coldly as a battered-looking
man with a bandaged head stumbled into the room. He wore a uniform
of patched, faded camouflage, a belt knife, and a single, tiny
earring. His eyes were downcast. This survivalist was one who
seemed less than joyous at being here.
“I would introduce you to our latest recruit, Mr. Inspector,”
Bezoar said. “But I believe you two already know each
other.”
Gordon shook his head, thoroughly lost. What was going on
here?
To his knowledge he had never seen this man before in his
life!
Bezoar prodded the drooping newcomer, who looked up, then. “I
cannot say for certain,” the unsteady Holn recruit said, peering
at
Gordon. “He might be the one. It was a passing event, really, of
so… so little consequence at the time…”
Gordon’s fists balled suddenly. That
voice.
“It’s you, you bastard!”
The jaunty Alpine cap was gone, but now Gordon recognized the
salt-and-pepper sideburns, the sallow complexion. Roger Septien
seemed far less serene than when Gordon had last seen the man-on
the slopes of a death-dry mountainside, helping to carry away
nearly everything Gordon owned in the world, blithely,
sarcastically, leaving him to almost certain death.
Bezoar nodded in satisfaction. “You may go, Private Septien. I
believe your officer has suitable duty arranged for you,
tonight.”
The former robber and onetime stockbroker nodded wearily. He
didn’t even glance again at Gordon, but passed outside without
another word.
Gordon realized that he had blundered in reacting so quickly.
He
should have ignored the man, pretended he didn’t recognize
him.
But then, would it have made a difference? Macklin had already
seemed so sure…
“Get on with it,” the General told his aide.
Bezoar reached into the drawer again, and this time drew forth
a
small, ragged, black notebook. He held it out to Gordon. “Do you
recognize this? It has your name in it.”
Gordon blinked. Of course it was his journal, stolen- along
with
all his goods-by Septien and the other robbers only hours before he
stumbled onto the ruined postal van and started down the road to
his new career.
At the time he had mourned its loss, for the diary detailed
his
travels ever since leaving Minnesota, seventeen years ago… his
careful observations of life in postholocaust
America.
Now, though, the slim volume was the last thing on Earth he
would ever have wanted to see. He sat down heavily, suddenly weary,
aware of how completely the devils had been toying with him. The
lie had caught up with him, at last.
In all the pages of that little journal, there wasn’t a single
word about postmen, or recovery, or any “Restored United
States.”
There was only the truth.
13
Lost Empire
by
NATHAN HOLN
Today, as we approach the end of the Twentieth Century, the
great struggles of our time are said to be between the so-called
Left and so-called Right-those
great behemoths of
a contrived, fictitious political spectrum. Very few people seem to
be aware that these so-called opposites are, in
reality,
two faces to the same sick beast. There is a widespread blindness,
which keeps millions from seeing how they have been fooled by this
fabrication.
But it was not always so. Nor will it always be.
In other tracts I have spoken of other types of systems-of the
honor of medieval Japan, of the glorious, wild American Indians,
and of shining Europe during the period effete scholars today call
its “Dark Age.”
One thing history tells us, over and over again. Throughout
all
eras, some have commanded, while others have obeyed.
It is
a pattern of loyalty and power that is both honorable and natural.
Feudalism has always been our way, as a species, ever since we
foraged in wild bands and screamed defiance at each other from
opposing hilltops.
That is, it was always our way until men were perverted, the
strong sapped by the whimpering propaganda of the
weak.
Think back to how things were when the Nineteenth Century was
just dawning in America, Back then the opportunity stood stark and
clear to reverse the sick trends of the so-called “Enlightenment.”
The victorious Revolutionary War soldiers had expelled English
decadence from most of the continent. The frontier lay open, and a
rough spirit of individualism reigned supreme throughout the
newborn nation.
Aaron Burr knew this when he set out to seize the new
territories west of the original thirteen colonies. His dream was
that of all natural males-to dominate, to conquer, to win an
empire!
What would the world have been like if he had won? Could he
have
prevented the rise of those mis-born twin obscenities, socialism
and capitalism?
Who can tell? I will tell you, though, what I believe. I
believe
the Era of Greatness was at hand, ready to be born!
But Burr was brought down before he could accomplish much more
than the punishment of that tool of traitors, Alexander Hamilton.
Superficially, his chief foe would seem to have been Jefferson, the
conniver who robbed him of the Presidency. But in fact the
conspiracy went far, far deeper than that.
That evil genius, Benjamin Franklin, was at the heart of
it-that
cabal to kill the Empire before it could be born. His instruments
were many, too many even for a man as strong as Burr to
fight.
And the chiefest of those instruments was the Order
of
Cincinnatus…
Gordon slammed the book facedown on the ground beside the
straw
tick. How could anyone have read crap like this, let alone
published it?
It was still light enough to read after the evening meal, and
the sun was out for the first time in days. Nevertheless, a
crawling chill ran up and down his back as the mad dialectic echoed
within his head.
That evil genius, Benjamin Franklin…
Nathan Holn did make a good case that “Poor Richard” had been
much more than a clever printer-philosopher, who played ambassador
in between scientific experiments and wenching. If even a small
fraction of Holn’s citations were correct, Franklin certainly
was at the center of unusual events. Something odd
did
happen after the Revolutionary War, something that somehow thwarted
the men like Aaron Burr, and brought about the nation Gordon had
known.
But beyond that, Gordon was impressed mostly with the
magnitude
of Nathan Holn’s madness. Bezoar and Macklin had to be completely
crazy if they thought these ravings would convert him to their
plans!
The book had, in fact, just the opposite effect. If a volcano
were to go off right here in Agness, he felt it would be worth it
to know this nest of snakes would go to Hell along with
him.
Not far away, a baby was crying. Gordon looked up but could
barely make out shabby figures moving beyond the nearby copse of
alders. New captives had been brought in last night. They moaned
and huddled close around the small fire they had been allowed, not
rating even the shelter of a roofed pen.
Gordon and Johnny could be joining those miserable serfs soon
if
Macklin did not get the answer he wanted. The “General” was losing
patience. After all, from Macklin’s point of view his offer to
Gordon must have seemed quite reasonable.
Gordon had only a little while left in which to make up his
mind. The Holnist offensive would begin again with the first thaw,
with or without his compromised cooperation.
He did not see where he had much choice.
Unbidden, a memory of Dena came to mind. He found himself
missing her, wondering if she was still alive, wishing he could
touch her and be with her… pestering questions and
all.
By now, of course, it was probably too late to stop whatever
crazy scheme she and her followers had dreamed up. Gordon frankly
wondered why Macklin had not already gloated to him, over yet
another disaster to the hapless Army of the
Willamette.
Perhaps it’s only a matter of time, he
thought
gloomily.
Johnny finished rinsing out the nub-worn toothbrush that was
their sole common possession. He sat next to Gordon and picked up
the Burr biography. The youth read for a while, then looked up,
clearly puzzled.
“I know our school at Cottage Grove wasn’t much by prewar
standards, Gordon, but Grandfather used to give me lots to read,
and talked to me a lot about history and stuff. Even I know this
guy Holn is making up half this junk.
“How did he get away with pushing a book like this? How is it
anyone ever believed him?”
Gordon shrugged. “It was called ‘the Big Lie’ technique,
Johnny.
Just sound like you know what you’re talking
about-as if
you’re citing real facts. Talk very fast. Weave your lies into the
shape of a conspiracy theory and repeat your assertions over and
over again. Those who want an excuse to hate or blame-those with
big but weak egos-will leap at a simple, neat explanation for the
way the world is, Those types will never call you on the
facts.
“Hitler did it brilliantly. So did the Mystic of Leningrad.
Holn
was just another master of the Big Lie.”
And what about you?
Gordon asked himself. Did
he, inventor of the fable of the “Restored United States,”
collaborator in the hoax of Cyclops, have any right to cast
stones?
Johnny read on for a few minutes more. Then he tapped the book
again. “Who was this Cincinnatus guy, then? Did Holn make him up
too?”
Gordon lay back on the straw. His eyes closed. “No. If I
remember right, he was a great general of ancient Rome, back in the
days of the Republic. According to the legend, he got sick of
fighting one day, and retired from the army to farm his land in
peace.
“One day though, emissaries came out from the city to see him.
Rome’s armies were in rout; their leaders had proven incompetent.
Disaster seemed inevitable.
“The delegation approached Cincinnatus-they found him behind
his
plow-and they pleaded with him to take command of the last
defense.”
“What did Cincinnatus tell the guys from Rome?”
“Oh, well,” Gordon yawned. “He agreed all right. Reluctantly.
He
rallied the Romans, beat the invaders, and drove them all the way
back to their own city. It was a great victory.”
“I’ll bet they made him king or something,” Johnny
suggested.
Gordon shook his head. “The army wanted to. The people, also… But Cincinnatus told them all they could
go chase themselves. He returned to his farm, and never left it
again.”
Johnny scratched his head. “But… why did he do that? I
don’t get it.”
Gordon did though. He understood the story completely, now
that
he thought about it. He had had the reasons explained to him, not
so very long ago, and he would never forget.
“Gordon?”
He did not answer. Instead he turned over at a faint sound
from
outside. Looking through the slats, he saw a party of men
approaching up the trail from the river docks. A boat had just come
ashore.
Johnny seemed not to have noticed yet. He persisted in his
questions, as he had ever since they had recovered from their
capture. Like Dena, the youth never seemed willing to lose any
opportunity to try to improve his education.
“Rome was a long time before the American Revolution wasn’t
it,
Gordon? Well then, what was this-” He picked up the book again.
“-this Order of Cincinnatus Holn talks about
here?”
Gordon watched the procession approach the jail pen. Two serfs
labored with a stretcher, guarded by khaki-clad survivalist
soldiers.
“George Washington founded the Order of the Cincinnati after
the
Revolutionary War,” he said absently. “His former officers were the
chief members-”
He stopped as their guard stepped over and unlocked the gate.
They both watched as the serfs entered and laid their burden on the
straw. They and their escorts turned and left without another
word.
“He’s hurt pretty bad,” Johnny said when they hurried over to
examine the injured man. “This compress hasn’t been changed in
days.”
Gordon had seen plenty of wounded men in the years since his
sophomore class had been drafted into the militia. He had learned a
lot of bush diagnosis while serving with Lieutenant Van’s platoon.
A glance told him that this fellow’s bullet wounds might have
healed, eventually, with proper treatment. But the smell of death
now hung over the still figure. It rose from limbs suppurated with
marks of torture.
“I hope he lied to them,” Johnny muttered as he labored to
make
the dying prisoner comfortable. Gordon helped fit their blankets
around him. He was puzzled over where the fellow had come from. He
did not look like a Willametter. And unlike most Camas and Roseburg
men, he had obviously been clean shaven until recently. In spite of
his ill treatment, there was too much meat on his bones for him to
have been a serf.
Gordon stopped suddenly, rocking back on his haunches. His
eyes
closed and opened. He stared. “Johnny, look here. Is this what I
think it is?”
Johnny peered where he pointed, then pulled back the blankets
for a better view. “Well I’ll be… Gordon, this looks like a
uniform!”
Gordon nodded. A uniform… and clearly one of
postwar making. It was colored and cut totally
unlike
anything the Holnists wore, or for that matter, anything either of
them had ever seen in Oregon before.
On one shoulder, the dying man wore a patch embroidered with a
symbol Gordon recognized from long ago… a brown grizzly bear
striding upon a red stripe… all against a field of
gold.
• • •
A while later word arrived that Gordon was wanted again. The
usual escort came for him by torchlight. “That man in there is
dying,” he told the head guard.
The taciturn, three-earring Holnist shrugged. “So? Woman’s
comin‘ to tend him. Now move. General’s waitin’.”
On their way up the moonlit path they encountered a figure
coming down the other way. The slope-shouldered drudge stepped
aside and waited for the men to pass, eyes downcast to the tray of
rolled bandages and unguents she held. None of the aloof guards
seemed to notice her at all.
At the last moment, however, she looked up at Gordon. He
recognized the same small woman with gray-streaked brown hair, the
one who had taken and repaired his uniform some days back. He tried
to smile at her as they passed, but it only seemed to unnerve her.
She ducked her head and scuttled back into the
shadows.
Saddened, Gordon continued up the path with his escort. She
had
reminded him a little of Abby. One of his worries had to do with
his friends back in Pine View. The Holnist scouts who discovered
his journal had corne very close to the friendly little village. It
wasn’t only the frail civilization in the Willamette that was in
terrible danger.
Nobody anywhere was safe anymore, he knew- except, perhaps,
George Powhatan, living safe atop Sugar-loaf Mountain, tending his
bees and beer while the rest of what was left of the world
burned.
“I’m getting tired of your stalling, Krantz,” General Macklin
told him when the guards had left the book-lined former ranger
station.
“You put me in a hard position, General. I’m studying the book
Colonel Bezoar lent me, trying to understand-”
“Cut the crap, will you?” Macklin approached until his face
was
two feet from Gordon’s. Even looking upward, the Holnist’s
strangely contorted visage was intimidating. “I know men, Krantz.
You’re strong all right, and you’d make a good vassal. But you’re
all mucked up with guilt and other ‘civilized’ poisons. So much so
that I’m beginning to think maybe you’ll be useless, after
all.”
The implication was direct. Gordon forced himself not to show
the weakness in his knees.
“You can be the Baron of Corvallis, Krantz. A senior lord in
our
new empire. You can even hold onto some of your quaint,
old-fashioned sentiments, if you want… and if you’re strong
enough to enforce them. You want to be nice to
your own
vassals? You want post offices?
“We might even find a use for that ‘Restored United States’ of
yours.” Macklin gave Gordon a toothy, odorous smile. “That’s why
only Charlie and I know about that little black journal of yours,
until we can check the idea out.
“It’s not because I like you,
understand. It’s because
we’d benefit a little if you cooperated. You might rule those techs
in Corvallis better than any of my boys could. We might even decide
to keep that Cyclops machine going, if it paid its
keep.”
So the Holnists hadn’t yet pierced the legend of the great
computer. Not that it mattered much. They never had really cared
about technology, except what was necessary to make war. Science
benefitted everyone too much, especially the weak.
Macklin picked up the fireplace poker and slapped it into his
left palm. “The alternative, of course, is that we’ll take
Corvallis anyway, this spring. Only if we have to do it our way,
it’ll burn. And there won’t be no post offices anywhere, boy. No
smart-ass machines.”
With the poker Macklin reached out and touched a sheet of
paper
on the desk. A pen and ink pot lay next to it. Gordon well knew
what the man expected of him.
If all he had to do was agree to the scheme, Gordon would have
done so at once. He would have played along until he had a chance
to make a break for it.
But Macklin was too canny. He wanted Gordon to write to the
Council in Corvallis, convincing them to surrender several key
towns as an act of good faith before he would be
released.
Of course he had only the General’s say-so that he would be
made
“Baron of Corvallis” after that. He doubted Macklin’s word was any
better than his own.
“Perhaps you don’t think we’re strong enough to take your
pathetic ‘Army of the Willamette’ without your help?” Macklin
laughed. He turned to the door.
“Shawn!”
Macklin’s burly bodyguard was in the room so swiftly and
smoothly it seemed almost a blur. He closed the door and marched up
to the General, snapping stiffly to attention.
“I’m going to let you in on something, Krantz. Shawn and I,
and
that mean cat who captured you, are the last of our
kind.”
Macklin confided. “It was really hush-hush stuff, but you
might
have heard some of the rumors. The experiments led to some special
fighting units, unlike any ever known before.”
Gordon blinked. Suddenly it all made sense, the General’s
uncanny speed, the tracery of scars under his skin and his two
aides‘,
“Augments!”
Macklin nodded. “Smart boy. You paid attention good, for a
college kid weakening his mind with psychology
and
ethics”
“But we all thought they were only rumors! You mean they
really
took soldiers and modified them so-”
He stopped, looking at the strangely knotted muscles along
Shawn’s bare arms. As impossible as it seemed, the story had to be
true. There was no other rational explanation.
“They tried us out for the first time in Kenya. And the
government did like the results in combat. But I guess they weren’t
too happy with what happened after peace broke out and they brought
us home.”
Gordon stared as Macklin held out the poker to his bodyguard,
who took one end-not in his massive fist but between two
fingers and a thumb. Macklin
took the other end
in a similar grip.
They pulled. Without even breathing hard, Macklin kept
talking.
“The experiment went on through the late eighties and early
nineties. Special Forces, mostly. They chose gung ho types like us.
Naturals, in other words.”
The steel poker did not rock or shake. Almost totally rigid,
it
began to stretch.
“Oh we tore up those Cubans good,” Macklin chuckled, looking
only at Gordon. “But the Army didn’t like how some of the vets
acted when the action ended and we all went home.
“They were afraid of Nate Holn, you see, even then. He
appealed
to the strong, and they knew it. The augmentation program was cut
off.”
The poker turned dull red in the middle. It had stretched to
half again its former length when it began to neck and shred like
pulled taffy. Gordon glanced quickly at Charles Bezoar, standing
beyond the two augments. The Holnist colonel licked his lips
nervously, unhappily. Gordon could tell what he was
thinking.
Here was strength he could never hope for. The scientists and
the hospitals where the work had been done were long gone.
According to Bezoar’s religion, these men had to be his
masters.
The tips of the torn poker separated with a loud report,
giving
off friction heat that could be felt some distance away. Neither of
the enhanced soldiers even rocked.
“That’ll be all, Shawn.” Macklin threw the pieces into the
fireplace as his aide swiveled smartly and marched out of the room.
The General looked at Gordon archly.
“Do you doubt any longer we’ll be in Corvallis by May? With or
without you? Any of the unaugmented boys in my
army are
equal to twenty of your fumblebum farmers-or your zany women
soldiers.”
Gordon looked up quickly, but Macklin only talked
on.
“But even if the sides were more equal, you still wouldn’t
have
a chance! You think we few augments couldn’t slip into any of your
strong points and level them at will? We could tear your silly
defenses to pieces with our bare hands. Don’t you hesitate to
believe it for even a second.”
He pushed forward the writing paper and rolled the pen toward
Gordon.
Gordon stared at the yellowed sheet. What did it matter? In
the
midst of all these revelations, he felt he knew where things stood.
He met Macklin’s eyes.
“I’m impressed. Really. That was a convincing
demonstration.
“Tell me though, General, if you’re so good, why aren’t you in
Roseburg right now?”
As Macklin reddened, Gordon gave the Holnist chieftain a faint
smile.
“And while we’re on the topic, who is it who’s chasing you out
of your own domain? I should have guessed before why you’re pushing
this war so hard and fast. Why your people are staging their serfs
and worldly possessions to move north, en masse. Most barbarian
invasions used to start that way, back in history, like dominoes
toppled by other dominoes.
“Tell me, General. Who’s kicking your ass so bad you have to
get
out of the Rogue?”
Macklin’s face was a storm. His knotted hands flexed and made
white-hard fists. At any moment Gordon expected to pay the ultimate
price for his deeply satisfying outburst.
Barely in control, Macklin’s eyes never left Gordon. “Get him
out of here!” he snapped at Bezoar.
Gordon shrugged and turned away from the seething
augment.
“And when you get back I want to look into this, Bezoar! I
want
to find out who broke security!” Macklin’s voice pursued his
intelligence chief out onto the steps, where the guards fell in
behind them.
Bezoar’s hand on Gordon’s elbow shook all the way back to the
jail pen.
“Who put this man here!” The Holnist Colonel shouted as he saw
the dying prisoner on the straw tick between Johnny and the
wide-eyed woman.
One guard blinked. “Isterman, I think. He just got in from the
Salmon River front-”
… the Salmon River front…
Gordon recognized
the name of a stream in northern California. “Shut up!” Bezoar
nearly screamed. But Gordon had his confirmation. There was more to
this war than they had known before this evening.
“Get him out of here! Then go bring Isterman to the big house
at
once!”
The guards moved quickly. “Hey, take it easy with him!” Johnny
cried as they grabbed up the unconscious man like a potato sack.
Bezoar favored him with a withering glare. The Holnist colonel took
out his anger by kicking at the drudge woman, but her instincts
were well-honed. She was out the door before he
connected.
“I’ll see you tomorrow,” Bezoar told Gordon. “I think you’d
better reconsider writing that letter to Corvallis in the meantime.
What you did tonight wasn’t wise.”
Gordon looked casually through the man, as if he barely
merited
notice. “What passes between the General and myself is of no
concern to you,” he told Bezoar. “Only peers have the right to
exchange threats, or challenges.”
The quote from Nathan Holn seemed to rock Bezoar back as if he
had been struck. He stared as Gordon sat down on the straw and put
his arms behind his head, ignoring the former lawyer
altogether.
Only after Bezoar had departed, when the gloomy shed had
quieted
again, did Gordon get up and hurry over to Johnny.
“Did the bear-flag soldier ever speak?”
Johnny shook his head. “He never regained consciousness,
Gordon.”
“What about the woman? Did she say
anything?”
Johnny looked left and right. The other prisoners were in
their
corners, facing the wall as they had for weeks.
“Not a word. But she did slip me this.”
Gordon took the tattered envelope. He recognized the papers as
soon as he pulled them out
It was Dena’s letter-the one he had received from George
Powhatan’s hand, back on Sugarloaf Mountain. It must have been in
his pants pocket when the woman took his clothes away to be
cleaned. She must have kept it.
No wonder Macklin and Bezoar never mentioned it!
Gordon was determined the General would never get his hands on
the letter. However crazy Dena and her friends were, they deserved
their chance. He began tearing it up, prior to eating the pieces,
but Johnny reached out and stopped him. “No, Gordon! She wrote
something on the last page.”
“Who? Who wrote…” Gordon shifted the paper in the faint
moonlight that slipped between the slats. At last he saw scrawled
pencil scratchings, rude block letters that contrasted starkly
under Dena’s flowing script.
is true?
are woman so free north?
are some man both good and strong?
will she die for you?
Gordon sat for a long time looking at the sad, simple words.
Everywhere his ghosts foDowed him, in spite of his newfound
resignation. What George Powhatan had said about Dena’s motives
still gnawed within him.
The Big Things would not let go.
He ate the letter slowly. He would not let Johnny share this
particular meal, but made a penance, a sacrament, of every
piece.
About an hour later there was a commotion outside-a ceremony
of
sorts. Out across the clearing, at the old Agness General Store, a
double column of Holnist soldiers marched to the slow beat of
muffled drums. In their midst walked a tall, blond man. Gordon
recognized him as one of the camouflaged fighters who had dumped
the dying prisoner into their midst earlier that
day.
“Must be Isterman,” Johnny commented, fascinated.
“This’ll teach him not to come back without reporting in to
G-2
first thing.”
Gordon noted that Johnny must have watched too many old World
War Two movies, back at the video library in
Corvallis.
At the end of the line of escorts he recognized Roger Septien.
Even in the dark he could tell that the former mountain robber was
trembling, barely able to hold on to his rifle.
Charles Bezoar’s barrister voice sounded nervous, too, as he
read the charges. Isterman stood with his back to a large tree, his
face impassive. His trophy string lay across his chest like a
bandolier… like a sash of grisly merit badges.
Bezoar stood aside and General Macklin stepped up to speak to
the condemned man. Macklin shook hands with Isterman, kissed him on
both cheeks, then moved over beside his aide to watch the
conclusion. A two-earringed sergeant snapped sharp orders. The
executioners knelt, raised their rifles, and fired as
one.
Except for Roger Septien. Who fainted dead away.
The tall blond Holnist officer now lay crumpled in a pool of
blood at the foot of the tree. Gordon thought of the dying prisoner
who had shared their captivity for so short a time, and who had
told them so much without ever opening his eyes.
“Sleep well, Califomian,” he whispered. “You’ve taken one more
of them with you.
“The rest of us should only do so well.”
14
That night Gordon dreamed he was watching Benjamin Franklin
play
chess with a boxy iron stove.
“The problem is one of balance,” the graying
statesman-scientist
said to his invention, ignoring Gordon as he contemplated the
chessboard. “I’ve put some thought to it. How can we set up a
system which encourages individuals to strive and excel, and yet
which shows some compassion to the weak, and weeds out madmen and
tyrants?”
Flames licked behind the stove’s glowing grille, like dancing
rows of lights. In words more seen than heard, it
inquired:
“… Who will take
responsibility . . .
?”
Franklin moved a white knight. “Good question,” he said as he
leaned back. “A very good question.
“Of course we can establish constitutional checks and
balances,
but those won’t mean a thing unless citizens make sure the
safeguards are taken seriously. The greedy and the power-hungry
will always look for ways to break the rules, or twist them to
their advantage.”
The flames flicked out, and somehow in the process a red pawn
had moved.
“… who…?
Franklin took out a handkerchief and wiped his brow. “Would-be
tyrants, that’s who… they have an age-old panoply of
methods-manipulating the common man, lying to him, or crushing his
belief in himself.
“It’s said that ‘power corrupts,’ but actually it’s more true
that power attracts the corruptible. The sane are
usually
attracted by other things than power. When they do act, they think
of it as service, which has limits. The tyrant,
though,
seeks mastery, for which he is insatiable,
implacable.”
“… foolish children . . .” the
flames
flickered.
“Yes,” Franklin nodded, wiping his bifocals. “Still, I believe
that certain innovations might help. The right myths,
for
instance.
“And then, if Good is willing to make sacrifices…” He
reached out, picking up his queen, hesitated for a moment, and then
moved the delicate ivory piece all the way across the board, almost
under the glowing hot grille.
Gordon wanted to cry out a warning. The queen’s position was
completely exposed. Not even a pawn was nearby to protect
her.
His worst fears were borne out almost at once. The flames
licked
forth. In a blur, a red king stood on a pile of ashes where the
slender white figure had been only a moment before.
“Oh lord, no,” Gordon moaned. Even in the half-critical dream
state, he knew what was happening, and what it
symbolized.
“… Who will take responsibility… ?”
the stove
asked again.
Franklin did not answer. Instead, he shifted and pushed back
in
his chair. It squeaked as he turned around. Over the rims of his
bifocals, he looked directly at Gordon.
You too? Gordon quailed. What
do you all want from
me!
The rippling red. And Franklin smiled.
He startled awake, staring until he saw Johnny Stevens
crouching
over him, about to touch his shoulder.
“Gordon, I think you’d better take a look. Something’s the
matter with the guards.”
He sat up, rubbing his eyes. “Show me.”
Johnny led him over to the east wall of the shed, near the
door.
It took a moment to adjust to the moonlight. Then Gordon made out
the two survivalist soldiers who had been assigned to watch
them.
One lay back against a log bench, his mouth hanging open as he
stared blank-eyed up at the low, growling clouds.
The other Holnist still gurgled. He clawed at the ground,
trying
to crawl toward his rifle. In one hand he held his burnished sheath
knife, glinting in the low firelight. By his knees lay a toppled
ale stein, a brown stain spreading from its broken
lip.
Seconds after they had begun to watch, the last guard’s head
slumped. His struggles died away in a faint rattle.
Johnny and Gordon looked at each other. As one, they rushed to
test the door, but the lock was firmly in place. Johnny stretched
his arm through a gap in the planks, trying to grab any part of the
guard’s uniform. The keys… “Damn! He’s just too
far!”
Gordon began prying at the boards. The shack certainly was
flimsy enough to take apart by hand. But when he pulled, the rusty
nails creaked and sent the hair rising up the back of his
neck.
“What do we do?” Johnny asked. “If we yank hard, all at once,
we
might be able to crash out real fast, and dash down the trail to
the canoes…”
“Shhh!” Gordon motioned for silence. Out there in the darkness
he had seen a figure move.
Tentatively, nervously, a small, shabby shape scuttled toward
the moonlit clearing just outside the shack, where the fallen
guards lay.
“It’s her!” Johnny whispered. Gordon also recognized the
dark-haired drudge, the one who had written the pathetic little
addendum to Dena’s letter. He watched as she overcame her terror
and conditioning to approach each of the guards in turn, checking
for breath and life.
Her whole body shook and low moans escaped her as she sought
the
ring of keys under the second man’s belt. To get at them she had to
push her fingers through his line of gruesome trophies, but she
closed her eyes and brought them forth, clinking
softly.
Each second was an agony as she fumbled with the lock. Their
releaser ducked back out of the way as the two men pushed outside
and ran to each of the guards, stripping them of knives, ammo
belts, rifles. They dragged the bodies back into the shed and
closed and locked the door.
“What is your name?” Gordon asked the crouched woman,
squatting
before her. Her eyes were closed as she answered.
“H-Heather.”
“Heather, Why did you help us?”
Her eyes opened. They were a startling green. “Your… your
woman wrote…”
She made a visible effort to gather herself. “I never kenned
what th‘ old women said about th’ old days… But then some of
th‘ new prisoners talked about things up north… and there you
was… Y-you won’t beat me too hard for readin’ yer letter, will
you?”
She cringed as Gordon put his hand out to touch the side of
her
face, so he withdrew it. Tenderness was too alien to her. All sorts
of reassurances came to mind, but he kept to the simplest-one she
would understand. “I won’t beat you at all,” he told her. “Not
ever.”
Johnny appeared beside him. “Only one guard down by the
canoes,
Gordon. I think I see a way we can get up within range. He may be a
Rogue, but he won’t be expecting anything. We can take
him.”
Gordon nodded. “We’ll have to bring her with us,” he
said.
Johnny looked torn between compassion and practicality. He
clearly considered his first duty to get Gordon away from this
place. “But…”
“They’ll know who poisoned the guards. She’s crucified if she
stays.”
Johnny blinked, then nodded, apparently glad to have the
dilemma
resolved so straightforwardly. “Okay. Let’s go,
though!”
They started to rise, but Heather took Gordon’s
sleeve.
“I have a friend,” she said, and turned to wave into the
darkness.
From the shadow of the trees there stepped a slender figure in
pants and shirt several sizes too large, bunched up and cinched
tight by a large belt. In spite of that, the second woman’s figure
was unmistakable. Charles Bezoar’s mistress had her blond hair tied
back and she carried a small package. If anything, she seemed more
nervous than Heather.
After all, Gordon thought, she had more to lose in any escape
attempt. It was a sign of her desperation that she was willing to
throw herself in with two motley strangers from a nearly mythical
north.
“Her name is Marcie,” the older woman told him. “We wasn’t
sure
you’d want to take us, so she brought some presents for
you.”
With trembling hands, Marcie untied a black oilskin. “H-here’s
your m-mail,” she said. The girl held the papers out delicately, as
if afraid of defiling them with her touch.
Gordon nearly laughed out loud when he saw the sheaf of almost
valueless letters. He stopped short, though, when he saw what else
she held: a small, ragged, black-bound volume. Gordon could only
blink then, thinking of the risks she must have taken to get
it.
“All right,” he said, taking the packet and tying it up again.
“Follow us, and keep quiet! When I wave like this, stay low and
wait for us.”
Both women nodded solemnly. Gordon turned, intending to take
point, but Johnny had already ducked ahead, leading the way down
the trail to the river.
Don’t argue this time. He’s right, damn
it.
Freedom was wonderful beyond relief. But with it came that
bitch, Duty.
Hating the fact that he was “important” once again, he
crouched
and followed Johnny, leading the women toward the
canoes.
15
There was no choice of which way to go. Spring’s thaw had
begun,
and the Rogue was already a rushing torrent. The only thing to do
was head downstream and pray.
Johnny still exulted over his successful kill. The sentry
hadn’t
turned until he was within two steps, and had gone down nearly
silently as Johnny tackled him, ending his struggles with three
quick knife thrusts. The young man from Cottage Grove was full of
his own prowess as they loaded the women into the boat and set off,
letting the current pull them into midstream.
Gordon hadn’t the heart to tell his young friend. But he had
seen the guard’s face before they tumbled him into the river. Poor
Roger Septien had looked surprised-hurt- hardly
the image
of a Holnist superman.
Gordon remembered his own first time, nearly two decades ago,
firing at looters and arsonists while there still remained a chain
of command, before the militia units dissolved into the riots they
had been sent to put down. He did not recall being proud, then. He
had cried at night, mourning the men he killed.
Still, these were different times, and a dead Holnist was a
good
thing, no matter how you cut it.
They had left a beach littered with crippled canoes. Every
moment of delay had been an agony, but they had to make sure they
weren’t followed too easily. Anyway, the chore gave the women
something to do and they went at it with gusto. Afterward, both
Marcie and Heather seemed a bit less cowed and
skittish.
The women huddled down in the center of the canoe as Gordon
and
Johnny hefted paddles and struggled with the unfamiliar craft. The
moon kept ducking in and out behind clouds as they dipped and
pulled, trying to learn the proper rhythm as they
went.
They had not gone far before reaching the first set of
riffles.
In moments the time for practice was over as they went crashing
through foamy rapids, barely skimming past glistening, rocky crags,
often seen only at the last moment.
The river was fierce, driven by snow melt. Her roar filled the
air, and spray diffracted the intermittent moonlight. It was
impossible to fight her, only to cajole, persuade, divert, and
guide their frail vessel through hazards barely
seen.
At the first calm stretch, Gordon guided them into an eddy. He
and Johnny rested over their oars, looked at each other, and at the
same moment burst out laughing. Marcie and Heather stared at the
two men-giggling breathlessly from adrenaline and the roar of
freedom in their blood and ears. Johnny whooped and slapped the
water with his paddle.
“Come on, Gordon. That was fun! Let’s get on with
it.”
Gordon caught his breath and wiped river spume out of his
eyes.
“Okay,” he said, shaking his head. “But carefully,
okay?”
They stroked together and banked steeply as the current caught
them again.
“Oh, shit,” Johnny cursed. “I thought the last
one…”
His words were drowned out, but Gordon finished the
thought.
And I thought the last one was bad!
Gaps between the rocks were narrow, deadly shoots. Their canoe
scraped horribly through the first, then shot out, canting
precipitously. “Lean hard!” Gordon shouted. He wasn’t laughing now,
but fighting to survive.
We should have walked… we should have
walked… we should have walked…
The inevitable happened sooner, though, than even he
expected… less than three miles downstream. A sunken tree-a
hidden snag
just beyond the hard rock face of a turn in the canyon wall-a
streak of rolling water cloaked in darkness until it was too late
for him to do more than curse and dig in his paddle to try to
turn.
An aluminum canoe might have survived the collision, but there
were none left after years of war. The homemade wood-and-bark model
tore with an agonized shriek, harmonized by the women’s screams as
they all spilled into the icy flood.
The sudden chill was stunning. Gordon gulped air and grabbed
at
the capsized canoe with one arm. His other hand darted out and
seized a grip on Heather’s dark hair, barely in time to keep her
from being swept away. He struggled to avoid her desperate
clutching and to keep her head above water… all the while
fighting for his own breath in the choppy foam.
At last he felt sand beneath his feet. It took every last
effort
to fight the river’s pull and the sucking mud until he was able at
last to haul his gasping burden out and collapse onto the mat of
rotting vegetation by the steep shore.
Heather coughed and sobbed next to him. He heard Johnny and
Marcie spluttering not far away, and knew that they had made it,
too. There wasn’t a flicker of energy to spare for celebration,
though. He lay breathing hard, unable even to move for what felt
like hours.
Johnny spoke at last. “We didn’t really have any gear to lose.
I
guess my ammo’s wet, though. Your rifle gone,
Gordon?”
“Yeah.” He sat up groaning, touching a thin gash where the
breaking canoe had stroked his forehead.
There did not seem to have been any serious injuries, though
the
coughing was now starting to shift over to general shivers.
Marcie’s borrowed clothes stuck to the blond concubine in ways that
Gordon might have found interesting had he not been so
miserable.
“W-what do we do now?” she asked.
Gordon shrugged. “For starters we go back in and get rid of
the
wreck.”
They stared at him. He explained. “If they don’t find it,
they’ll probably assume we went a whole lot farther than this,
tonight. That could turn out to be our only
advantage.
“Then, when that’s done, we head overland.”
“I’ve never been to California,” Johnny suggested, and Gordon
had to smile. Since they had discovered that the Holnists had
another enemy, the boy had spoken of little else.
The idea was tempting. South was one direction their pursuers
wouldn’t expect them to go.
But that would mean crossing the river. And anyway, if Gordon
remembered correctly, the Salmon River was a long way south of
here. Even if it were practical to sneak through a couple of
hundred miles of survivalist baronies, there just wasn’t time. With
spring here, they were needed back home worse than
ever.
“We’ll wait up in the hills until pursuit’s gone past,” he
said.
“Then we might as well try for the Coquille.”
Johnny, forever cheerful and willing, did not let their dim
chances get him down. He shrugged. “Let’s go get the canoe then.”
He jumped into the frigid, waist-deep water. Gordon picked up a
sturdy piece of driftwood to use as a gaff, and followed a little
more gingerly. The water wasn’t any less bitterly cold the second
time. His toes were starting to go numb.
Together they had almost reached the belly-up canoe when
Johnny
cried out and pointed, “The mail!”
At the fringe of their eddy, a glistening oilskin packet could
be seen drifting outward, toward the swift center of the
current.
“No!” Gordon cried. “Let it go!”
But Johnny had already leaped head first into the rushing
waters. He swam hard toward the receding package, even as Gordon
screamed after him. “Corne back here. Johnny, you fool! It’s
worthless!
“Johnny!”
He watched hopelessly as the bundle and the boy chasing it
were
swept around the next bend in the river. From just ahead there came
the heavy, heartless growl of rapids.
Cursing, Gordon dove into the freezing current and swam with
all
his might to catch up. His pulse pounded and he inhaled icy water
along with every desperate breath. He almost followed Johnny around
the bend, but then, at the last moment, he grabbed an overhanging
branch and held on tightly… just in time.
Through the curtain of foam he saw his young friend tumble
after
the black package into the worst cascade yet, a horrible jumbling
of ebony teeth and spray.
“No,” Gordon whispered hoarsely. He watched as Johnny and the
packet were swept together over a ledge and disappeared into a
sinkhole.
He continued staring, through the hair plastered over his eyes
and the blinding, stinging droplets, but minutes passed and nothing
emerged from that terrible whirlpool.
At last, with his grip slipping, Gordon had to retreat. He
drew
himself hand over hand along the shaky branch until he reached the
slow, shallow water at the river’s bank. Then, mechanically, he
forced his feet to carry him upstream, slogging past the wide-eyed
women to the ruined bark canoe.
He used a driftwood hook to draw it after him behind a jutting
point in the canyon wall, and there he pounded the little boat to
pieces, smashing it into unrecognizable flinders.
Sobbing, he kept striking and slashing the water long after
the
bits had sunk out of sight or drifted away.
16
They passed the day in the brambles and weeds under a
tumbledown
concrete bunker. Before the Doomwar, it must have been someone’s
treasured survivalist hideaway, but now it was a ruin-broken,
bullet-scarred, and looted.
Once, in prewar days, Gordon had read that there were places
in
the country riddled with hideouts like this- stockpiled by men
whose hobby was thinking about the fall of society, and fantasizing
what they would do after it happened. There had been classes,
workshops, special-interest magazines… an industry catering to
“needs” which went far beyond those of the average woodsman or
camper.
Some simply liked to daydream, or enjoyed a relatively
harmless
passion for rifles. Few were ever followers of Nathan Holn, and
most were probably horrified when their fantasies at last came
true.
When that time finally arrived, most of the loner
“sur-vivalists” died in their bunkers, quite alone.
Battle and the rain forest had eroded the few scraps left by
waves of scavengers. Cold rain pattered over the concrete blocks as
the three fugitives took turns keeping watch and
sleeping.
Once they heard shouts and the squish of horses’ hooves in the
mud. Gordon made an effort to look confident for the women’s sake.
He had taken care to leave as little trail as possible, but his two
charges weren’t even as experienced as the Willamette Army scouts.
He wasn’t at all sure they would be able to fool the best forest
trackers who had lived since Cochise.
The riders moved on, and after a while the fugitives were able
to relax just a little. Gordon dozed.
This time he did not dream. He was too exhausted to spare any
energy for hauntings.
They had to wait for the moonrise before setting out that
night.
There were several trails, crisscrossing each other frequently, but
Gordon somehow kept them going in the right direction, using the
semipermanent ice on the north sides of the trees as a
guide.
Three hours after sunset, they came upon the ruins of a little
village.
“Illahee.” Heather identified the place.
“It’s been abandoned,” he observed. The moonlit ghost town was
eerie. From the former Baron’s manor to the lowliest hovel, it
seemed to have been picked clean.
“All the soldiers an‘ their serfs were sent up north,” Marcie
explained. “There’s been a lot of villages emptied that way, last
few weeks.”
Gordon nodded. ‘They’re fighting on three fronts. Macklin
wasn’t
kidding when he said he would be in Corvallis by May. It’s take
over-the Willamette or die.’‘
The countryside looked like a moonscape. There were saplings
everywhere, but few tall trees. Gordon realized that this must have
been one of the places where the Holnists had tried slash-and-burn
agriculture. But this country was not fertile farmland, like the
Willamette Valley. The experiment must have been a
failure.
Heather and Marcie held hands as they walked, their eyes
darting
fearfully. Gordon couldn’t help comparing them to Dena and her
proud, brave Amazons, or to happy, optimistic Abby back in Pine
View. The true dark age would not be a happy time for women, he
decided. Dena had been right about that much.
“Let’s go look around the big house,” he said. “There might be
some food.”
That sparked their interest. They ran
ahead of him to
the abandoned manor with its stockade and abatis surrounding a
solid, prewar house.
When he caught up they were huddled over a pair of dark forms
just within the gate. Gordon flinched when he saw that they were
skinning and flaying two large German shepherd dogs. Their master
couldn’t take them on a sea voyage, he realized a little sickly. No
doubt the Holnist Baron of Dlahee grieved more over his treasured
animals than over the slaves who would die during the mass exodus
to the promised lands up north.
The meat smelled pretty ripe. Gordon decided he would wait a
while, in hopes of something better. The women, though, weren’t
quite so finicky.
So far they had been lucky. At least the search seemed to have
swept westward, away from the direction the fugitives were headed.
Perhaps General Macklin’s men had found Johnny’s body by now,
falsely confirming the trail toward the sea.
Only time would tell how far their luck would last
though.
A narrow, swift stream swept north from near abandoned
Illahee.
Gordon decided it could be nothing other than the south fork of the
Coquille. Of course there were no convenient canoes lying about.
The torrent looked unnavi-gable anyway. They would have to
walk.
An old road ran along the east bank, in the direction they
wanted to go. There was no choice but to use it, whatever the
obvious dangers. Mountains crowded in just ahead, hulking against
the moonlit clouds, blocking every other conceivable
path.
At least the going would be quicker than on the muddy trails.
Or
so Gordon hoped. He coaxed the stoic women, keeping them moving at
a slow, steady pace. Never once did Marcie or Heather complain or
balk, nor were their eyes reproachful. Gordon could not decide
whether it was courage or resignation that kept them plodding on,
mile after mile.
For that matter, he wasn’t sure why he
persevered. To
what point? To live in the dark world that seemed certain to come?
At the rate he was accumulating ghosts, “crossing over” would
probably feel like Homecoming Week anyway.
Why? he wondered. Am I
the only
Twentieth-Century idealist left alive?
Perhaps, he pondered. Perhaps
idealism really
was the disease, the scam, that Charles Bezoar had said it
was.
George Powhatan had been right, too. It did you no good to
fight
for the Big Things… for civilization, for instance. All you
accomplished was getting young girls and boys to believe in you-to
throw their lives away in worthless gestures, accomplishing
nothing.
Bezoar had been right. Powhatan had been right. Even Nathan
Holn, monster that he was, had told the essential truth about Ben
Franklin and his constitutionalist cronies- how they had hoodwinked
a people into believing such things. They had been propagandists to
make Himmler and Trotsky blush as amateurs.
… We hold these truths to be self evident…
Hah!
Then there had been the Order of the Cincinnati, made up of
George Washington’s officers who-halfway embarked one night upon a
mutinous coup-were shamed by their stern commander into giving
their tearful, solemn vow… to remain farmers and citizens
first, and soldiers only at their country’s need and
call.
Whose idea had it been, that unprecedented oath? The promise
was
kept for a generation, long enough for the ideal to set. In
essence, it lasted into the era of professional armies and
technological war.
Until the end of the Twentieth Century, that is, when certain
powers decided that soldiers should be made into something more
than mere men. The thought of Macklin and his augmented veterans,
loosed on the unsuspecting Willametters, made Gordon heartsick. But
there wasn’t anything he or anyone else could do to prevent
it.
Not a whit can be done about it, he
thought wryly.
But that won’t keep the damn ghosts from pestering
me.
The South Coquille grew more swollen with every mile they
slogged, as streamlets joined in from the enclosing hills. A gloomy
drizzle began to fall, and thunder rumbled in counterpoint to the
roaring torrent to their left. As they rounded a bend in the road,
the northern sky brightened with distant flashes of
lightning.
Looking up at the glowering clouds, Gordon almost stumbled
into
Marcie’s back as she came to a sudden halt. He put out his hand to
give her a gentle push, as he had been forced to do more and more
often the last few miles. But this time her feet were
planted.
She turned to face him, and in her eyes there was a bleakness
that went beyond anything Gordon had seen in seventeen years of
war. Chilled with a dark foreboding, he pushed past her and looked
down the road.
Thirty yards or so ahead lay the ruins of an old roadside
trading post. A faded sign advertised myrtlewood carvings for sale
at fabulous prices. Two rusted automobile hulks lay half settled
into the mud in front.
Four horses and a two-wheeled cart were tethered to the
slump-sided shack. From under the canted porch roof, General
Macldin stood with his arms folded, and smiled at
Gordon.
“Run!” Gordon yelled at the women and he dove through the
roadside thicket, rolling up behind a moss-covered trunk with
Johnny’s rifle in his hands. As he moved, he knew he was being a
fool. Macklin still might have some faint wish to keep him alive,
but in a firefight he was already dead.
He knew he had leaped on instinct-to get away from the women,
to
draw attention after himself and give them a chance to get away.
Stupid idealist, he cursed. Marcie and Heather
simply
stood there on the road, too tired or too resigned even to
move.
“Now that ain’t so smart,” Macklin said, his voice at its most
amiable and dangerous. “Do you think you can manage to shoot me,
Mr. Inspector?”
The thought had occurred to Gordon. It depended, of course, on
the augment letting him get close enough to try.
And on whether the twenty-year-old ammo still worked after its
dunking in the Rogue.
Macklin still had not moved. Gordon raised his head and saw
through the leaves that Charles Bezoar stood beside the General.
Both of them looked like easy targets out there in the open. But as
he slid the rifle’s bolt and began to crawl forward, Gordon
realized, sickly, there were four horses.
There came a sudden crashing sound from just overhead. Before
he
could even react, a crushing weight slammed onto his back, driving
his sternum onto the rifle stock.
Gordon’s mouth gaped, but no air would come! He could barely
twitch a muscle as he felt himself lifted into the air by his
collar. The rifle slipped from nearly senseless
fingers.
“Did this guy really waste two of ours last year?” a gravelly
voice behind his left ear shouted in cheerful derision. “Seems a
bit of a woos to me.”
It felt like an eternity, but at last something reopened
inside
him and Gordon was able to breathe again. He sucked noisily, caring
more about air at the moment than dignity.
“Don’t forget those three soldiers back at Agness,” Macklin
called back to his man. “He gets credit for them, too. That makes
five Holnist ears on his belt, Shawn. Our Mr. Krantz deserves
respect.
“Now bring him in, please. I’m sure he and the ladies would
like
a chance to get warm.”
Gordon’s feet barely touched the ground as his captor half
carried him by his collar through the thicket and across the road.
The augment wasn’t even breathing hard when he dumped Gordon
unceremoniously on the porch.
Under the leaky canopy, Charles Bezoar stared hard at Marcie;
the Holnist Colonel’s eyes burned with shame and promised
retribution. But Marcie and Heather watched only Gordon,
silently.
Macklin squatted beside Gordon. “I always did admire a man
with
a knack for the ladies. I’ve got to admit, you do seem to have a
way with ‘em, Krantz.” He grinned. Then he nodded to his beefy
aide. “Bring him inside, Shawn. The women have work to do, and the
Inspector and I have some unfinished business to
discuss.”
17
“I know all about your women now, you know.”
Gordon’s view of the moldy, broken-down trading post kept
rotating. It was hard to focus on anything in particular, let alone
the man talking to him.
He hung by a rope tied around his ankles, his hands dropping
to
a couple of feet above the muddy wooden floor. General Macklin sat
next to the fire, whittling. He looked at Gordon each time his
captive’s steady tortional swing brought them face to face. Most of
the time, he smiled.
The constriction on his ankles, the pain in his forehead and
sternum, were nothing to the heavy weight of blood rushing to his
brain. Through the rear door Gordon could hear low whimpering-a
pathetic enough sound in itself, but definitely a relief after the
screams of the last half hour or so. At last, Macklin had ordered
Bezoar to stop and let the women do some work. There was a prisoner
in the next room he wanted tended, and he didn’t want Marcie and
Heather beaten senseless while they still had their
uses.
Macklin also wanted to be able to draw out his session with
Gordon in peace and quiet. “A few of those crazy Willametter spies
of yours lived long enough to be questioned,” the Holnist commander
told him mildly. “The one in the next room here hasn’t been too
cooperative yet, but we have reports from our invasion force as
well, so the picture’s pretty clear. I have to give you credit,
Krantz. It was a pretty imaginative plan. Too bad it didn’t
work.”
“I haven’t any idea what in hell you’re talking about,
Macklin.”
The thickness in Gordon’s tongue made it hard to
speak.
“Ah, but I see from your face that you do
understand,”
his captor said. “There’s no need to maintain secrecy anymore. You
needn’t concern yourself any longer for your brave girl soldiers.
Because of their sneaky mode of attack, we did suffer some losses.
But I’ll wager far fewer than you’d hoped for. By now, of course,
all your ‘Willamette Scouts’ are dead, or in chains. I compliment
you on a worthy attempt, however.”
Gordon’s heart pounded. “You bastard. Don’t give me
the
credit. It was their own idea! I don’t even know what they planned
to do!”
For only the second time Gordon saw surprise cross Macklin’s
face. “Well, well,” the barbarian chieftain said at last. “Imagine
that. Feminists, still around in this day and
age. My dear
Inspector, it seems we come to the rescue of the poor people of the
Willamette just in the nick of time!” His smile
returned.
The smugness on that face was too much to bear. Gordon reached
for anything at all to try to wipe it off. “You’ll never win,
Macklin. Even if you burn Corvallis, if you crush every village and
smash Cyclops to bits, people will never stop fighting
you!”
The smile remained, unperturbed. The General tsked and shook
his
head. “Do you think us inexperienced? My dear fellow, how did the
Normans domesticate the proud, numerous Saxons? What secret did the
Romans use to tame the Gauls?
“You are indeed a romantic, sir, to underestimate the power of
terror.
“Anyway,” Macklin went on as he sat back and resumed his
whittling, “you forget that we will not remain outsiders for long.
We’ll recruit among your own people. Countless young men will see
the advantage in being lords, rather than serfs. And unlike the
nobility of the Middle Ages, we new feudalists believe that all
males should have a right to fight for their first
earring.
“That is the true
democracy, my friend. The
one America was heading toward before the Constitutionalist
Betrayal. My own sons must kill to become Holnists, or they will
scratch dirt to support those who can.
“We will have recruits. More than plenty, believe it. With the
astonishing population you have up north, we can have-within a
decade-an army the like of which has not been seen since
‘Franklinstein’ Civilization crumbled under its own
hypocrisy.”
“What makes you think your other enemies will give you that
decade?” Gordon gritted. “Do you think the Californians will let
you sit on your conquests long enough to lick your wounds and build
that army of yours?”
Macklin shrugged. “You speak out of very little knowledge, my
dear fellow. Once we’ve pulled back, the loose confederation in the
south will break apart and forget us. And even if they
could put aside their own perpetual petty
squabbles and
unite, those ‘Californians’ you speak of would take a generation to
reach us in our new realm. By then we’ll be more than ready to
counterstrike.
“For another thing-and this is the delightful part- even if
they
pursued us, they would have to go through your friend on Sugarloaf
Mountain to get at us!”
Macklin laughed at the expression on Gordon’s face. “You
thought
I didn’t know about your mission? Oh, Mr. Krantz, why do you
imagine I arranged to have your party ambushed, and to have you
brought to me? I know all about the Squire’s refusal to help anyone
outside the line from Roseburg to the sea.
“Isn’t it wonderful, though? The ‘Wall of the Callahan
Mountains’-the famed George Powhatan-will keep to his valley, and
in so doing, he will defend our flank while we consolidate up north… until at last we are ready to begin the Great
Campaign.”
The general smiled pensively.
“I’ve often regretted that I never got my hands on Powhatan.
Whenever our sides clashed he was always too slippery, always
somewhere else doing mischief. But this way is even better, I
believe! Let him have ten more years on his farm, while I conquer
the rest of Oregon, Then it’ll be his turn.
“Even from your point of view, Mr. Inspector, I am sure you’ll
agree that he deserves what’s coming to him then.”
There was no way to answer that except by silence. Macklin
tapped Gordon with his stick, just hard enough to set him rotating
again. As a result, Gordon found it hard to focus when the front
door opened and a pair of heavy moccasins padded into
view.
“Bill an‘ I checked up along th’ mountainside,” he heard the
huge augment, Shawn, tell his commander. “Found th‘ same tracks as
we saw before, up by th’ river. I’m sure it’s th‘ same black
bastard as slitted those sentries.”
Black bastard…
Gordon breathed a word silently. Phil?
Macklin laughed. “There now. You see, Shawn? Nathan Holn
wasn’t
a racist and neither should you be. I’ve always regretted that the
racial minorities were at such a disadvantage in the riots and
postwar chaos. Even the strong among them had little fair chance to
excel.
“Now consider that Negro soldier out there. He has cut the
throats of three of our river guards. He’s strong,
and
would have made an excellent recruit.”
Even upside down and spinning, Gordon could make out Shawn’s
sour expression. The augment did not dispute his commander aloud,
however.
“Pity we have no time to play games with the fellow,” Macklin
continued. “Go and kill him now, Shawn.”
There was a swirl of disturbed air, and the burly veteran was
out the door again, without a word and almost without
sound.
“I really would have preferred to give your scout a warning,
first,” Macklin confided in Gordon. “It’d have been more sporting
if your man out there knew that he was up against
something-unusual.” Macklin laughed again.
“Alas, in these times it’s not always sensible to play
fair.”
Gordon thought that he had felt hate before this moment. But
his
cold anger right now was unlike anything he remembered. “Philip!
Run!” He cried out as loud as he could, praying
the sound
of his voice would carry over the patter of raindrops. “Watch out,
they’re-”
Macklin’s stick lashed out, striking Gordon’s cheek and
sending
his head rocking back. The world blurred and nearly faded into
blackness. It took a long time for his eyes to clear, blinking away
tears. He tasted blood.
“Yes,” Macklin nodded. “You are a man. I’ll give you that.
When
the time comes, I’ll try to see to it you die like
one.”
“Don’t do me any favors,” Gordon choked. Macklin merely
grinned
and went back to his whittling.
A few minutes later the door at the back of the ruined store
opened. “Go back and see to your women!” Macklin snapped. Charles
Bezoar quickly closed the door to the win-dowless storage
room-where Marcie and Heather presumably still tended the other
prisoner Gordon had not yet seen.
“Just goes to show you, not every strong man is likable,”
Macklin commented sourly. “He’s useful, though. For
now.”
Gordon had no idea whether it was hours or a few minutes later
when a trill call carried through the boarded windows. He thought
it was only the cry of a river bird but Macklin reacted swiftly,
blowing out the small oil lantern and throwing dust onto the
fire.
“This is too good to miss,” he told Gordon. “The guys appear
to
have a good chase going. I hope you’ll excuse me for a few
minutes?”
He grabbed Gordon’s hair. “Of course if you so much as make a
sound while I’m gone, I’ll kill you the instant I get back. That’s
a promise.”
Gordon could not shrug in his position. “Go join Nathan Holn
in
Hell,” he said.
Macklin smiled. “Undoubtedly, someday.” Then the augment was
out
the door, running through the darkness and rain.
Gordon hung while his pendulumlike swinging slowly abated.
Then
he took a deep breath and got to work.
Three times he tried to pull himself up to within reach of the
rope around his ankles. Each time he fell back, grunting from the
tearing agony of sudden, jerking gravity. The third time was almost
too much to bear. His ears rang and he thought he almost heard
voices.
Through tear-filled eyes he seemed to half see an audience to
his struggle. All the ghosts he had accumulated over the years
appeared to line the walls. It occurred to him that they were
making book on his plight.
… take… it… Cyclops said
for all of them,
speaking in a code of rippling highlights in the fireplace
coals.
“Go away,” Gordon muttered angrily, resenting his imagination.
There was neither time nor energy to waste on such games. He hissed
hard as he got ready for one more try, then heaved upward with all
his might.
He barely caught the rope this time, slippery with dripping
rain, and held on tightly with both hands. His whole body quaked
from the strain, bent double like a folded pocket knife, but he
knew he dare not let go. There just wasn’t anything left for
another try.
With both hands fully occupied he couldn’t venture to untie
himself. There was nothing to cut the rope with. Up,
he
concentrated. It’ll be better if you stand.
Slowly, he pulled himself up the rope, hand over hand. His
muscles trembled, threatening cramps, and there was intense pain in
his chest and back, but at last he “stood,” his ankles twisted in
loops of cutting rope, holding on tight as he swung like a
chandelier.
Over by the wall, Johnny Stevens cheered unabashedly. Tracy
Smith and the other Army Scouts smiled. Pretty good, for a
male, they seemed to say.
Cyclops sat in his cloud of supercooled mist, playing checkers
with the smoking Franklin stove. They, too, seemed to
approve.
Gordon tried lowering himself to get at the knots, but it put
so
much pressure on the loops around his ankles that he nearly fainted
from the pain. He had to straighten out again.
Not that way. Ben
Franklin shook his head. The
Great Manipulator looked at him over the tops of his
bifocals.
“Over the tops of his… over the’t-” Gordon looked up at
the
stout beam from which the rope had been hung.
Up and over the top, then.
He raised his arms and wound the rope around them. You
did this back in gymnastics class, before the war,
he told
himself as he began to pull.
Yeah. But now you’re an old man.
Tears flowed as he started hauling himself upward, hand over
hand, helping where he could with his knees. In the blur between
his eyelids, his ghosts seemed more real the more he struggled.
They had graduated from imagination to first-class
hallucinations.
“Go, Gordon!” Tracy called up to him.
Lieutenant Van gave him thumbs up. Johnny Stevens grinned
encouragement alongside the woman who had saved his life back in
the ruins of Eugene.
A skeletal shade in a paisley shirt and leather jacket grinned
and gave him a fleshless thumbs up. Atop the bare skull lay a blue,
peaked cap, its brass badge glimmering.
Even Cyclops ceased its nagging as Gordon gave the endless
climb
everything he had.
Up… he moaned, grabbing slick hemp
and fighting
the crushing hug of gravity. Up, you worthless intellectual… Move or die…
One arm floundered over the top of the rough wooden beam. He
held on and brought up the other to join it.
And that was all. There was no more to give. He hung by his
armpits, unable to move any farther. Through the blur of his
eyelashes, his phantoms all looked up at him, clearly
disappointed.
“Oh, go chase yourselves,” he told them inwardly, unable even
to
speak aloud.
… Who will take
responsibility… the
coals in the fireplace glittered.
“You’re dead, Cyclops. You’re all dead!
Leave me
alone!” Utterly exhausted, Gordon closed his eyes to escape
them.
Only there, in the blackness, he encountered the one ghost
that
remained. The one he had used the most shamelessly, and which had
used him.
It was a nation. A world.
Faces, fading in and out with the entopic speckles behind his
eyelids… millions of faces, betrayed and ruined but striving
still…
-for a Restored United States.
-for a Restored World.
-for a fantasy… but one which refused obstinately to
die-that could not die-not while he lived.
Gordon wondered, amazed. Was this why he’d lied for so long,
why
he had told such fairy tales?… because he
needed
them? Because he couldn’t let go of them? He answered
himself,
Without them, I would have
curled up and
died.
Funny, he had never seen it quite that way before, in such
startling clarity. In the darkness within himself the dream
glowed-even if it existed nowhere else in the Universe-flickering
like a diatom, like a bright mote hovering in a murky
sea.
Amidst the otherwise total blackness, it was as if he stood in
front of it. He seemed to take it in his hand, astonished by the
light. The jewel grew. And in its facets he saw more than people,
more than generations.
A future took shape around him,
enveloping him,
penetrating his heart.
When Gordon next opened his eyes, he was lying atop the beam,
unable to recall how he had gotten there. Unbelievingly, he sat up
blinking. A spectral light seemed to stream away from him in all
directions, passing through the broken walls of the ruined building
as if they were the dream stuff, and the
brilliant rays
the true reality. The radiance spread on and on, beyond limit. For
a short time he felt as if he could see forever in that
glow.
Then, as mysteriously as it had come, it passed. Energy
appeared
to flow back into whatever mysterious well he had tapped. In its
wake, physical sensation returned, the reality of exhaustion and
pain.
Trembling, Gordon fumbled with the knotted tourniquets around
his ankles. His torn, bare feet were slippery with blood. When he
finally got the ropes loosed, returning circulation felt like a
million angry insects running riot inside his skin.
His ghosts were gone, at least; the cheering section seemed to
have been taken up by that strange luminance, whatever it had been.
Gordon wondered if they would ever return.
As the last loop fell away, he heard shots in the distance,
the
first since Macklin had left him alone here. Perhaps, he hoped,
that meant Phil Bokuto wasn’t dead quite yet. Silently, he wished
his friend luck.
He crouched down on the beam as footsteps approached the
storeroom door. It opened slowly and Charles Bezoar stared at the
empty room, at the limp, hanging rope. Panic filled the ex-lawyer’s
eyes as he drew his automatic and stepped out.
Gordon would have preferred to wait until the man came
directly
underneath, but Bezoar was no idiot. An expression of dark
suspicion came over his face, and he started to look up…
Gordon leaped. The .45 swung up and fired at the same instant
as
they collided.
In the hormonal rush of combat Gordon had no idea where the
bullet went, or whose bone had cracked so loud on impact. He
grappled for the gun as they rolled together across the
floor.
“… kill you!” the Holnist growled, the .45 tipping toward
Gordon’s face. Gordon had to duck to one side as it roared again,
stinging his neck with burning powder. “Hold still!” Bezoar
growled, as if he were in the habit of being obeyed. “Just let me…”
Straining against his enemy with all his might, Gordon
suddenly
let go of the gun with one hand and struck out. As the automatic
came down toward him his right fist smashed upward into the root of
Bezoar’s jaw. The bald Holnist’s body convulsed as his head struck
the floor hard. The .45 fired twice into the wall.
Then Bezoar was still.
This time the worst pain was in Gordon’s hand. He stood up
slowly, gingerly, semiconsciously accounting for what had to be a
cracked rib, in addition to his many other bodily
insults.
“Never talk while you fight,” he told the unconscious man.
“It’s
a bad habit.”
Marcie and Heather spilled out of the storage room and drew
Bezoar’s knives. When he saw what they were after, he almost told
them to stop, to tie the man up, instead.
He didn’t, though. Instead he let them do what they would and
turned to step through the back door into the storage
room.
It was even darker inside, but as his eyes adapted, he made
out
a slender figure lying on a dirty blanket over in the corner. A
hand reached up toward him and a thin voice called
out.
“Gordon, I knew you’d come for me… Is that silly?…It sounds… sounds like fairy tale talk, but… but
somehow I just knew it.”
He sank to his knees beside the dying woman. There had been
crude attempts to clean and bandage her wounds, but her matted hair
and blood-streaked clothes covered more damage than he dared even
look at.
“Oh Dena.” He turned his head and closed his eyes. Her hand
took
his.
“We stung them, darling,” she said in a reed-thin voice. “Me
and
the other Scouts… In some places we really caught some of the
bastards with their pants down! It-” Dena had to stop as a fit of
coughing made her nearly double up, bringing forth a trickle of
ocher fluid. The corners of her mouth were stained.
“Don’t talk,” Gordon told her. “We’ll find a way to get you
out
of here.”
Dena clutched Gordon’s tattered shirt.
“They found out about our plan, somehow… in more’n half
the
places they were warned before we could strike…
“Maybe one of the girls fell in love with her rapist, like the
legends say h-happened to H-Hypermnestra…” Dena shook her
head unbelievingly. “Tracy and I were worried about that
possibility, ‘cause Aunt Susan said it used to happen sometimes, in
the old days…”
Gordon had no idea what Dena was talking about. She was
babbling. Inside he struggled to come up with some idea,
any way to carry a desperately wounded and
delirious woman
away through miles and miles of enemy lines before Macklin and the
other Holnists returned.
In agony, he knew it just couldn’t be done.
“I guess we botched it, Gordon… but we did try! We
tried…” Dena shook her head, tears welling as Gordon took
her into his
arms.
“Yes, I know, darling. I know you tried.”
His own eyes blurred. Beneath the filth and ruin, he knew her
scent. And realized-much too late-what it meant to him. He held her
tighter than he knew he ought to, not wanting to let her
go.
“It’ll be all right. I love you. I’m here and I’ll take care
of
you.”
Dena sighed. “You are here. You are…” She held onto his
arm. “You…”
Her body suddenly arched and she shivered. “Oh, Gordon!” she
cried. “I see… Can you… ?”
Her eyes met his for a moment. In them was a light he
recognized.
Then it was over.
“Yes, I saw it,” he told her gently, still holding her body in
his arms. “Not as clearly as you, perhaps. But I saw it,
too.”
18
In the corner of the outer room, Heather and Marcie were busy
with their backs turned as they worked on something Gordon did not
want to look at.
Later, he would mourn. Right now though, there were things he
had to do, like getting these women out of here. The chances were
slim, but if he could see them to the Callahans, they would be
safe.
That would be hard enough, but from there he had other
obligations. He would get back to Corvallis, somehow, if it was
humanly possible, and he would try to live up to Dena’s ridiculous,
beautiful image of what a hero was supposed to do-die defending
Cyclops, perhaps, or lead a last charge of “postmen” against the
invincible enemy.
He wondered if Bezoar’s shoes would fit him, or if, with badly
swollen ankles, he might not be better off barefoot. “Stop wasting
time,” he snapped at the women. “We have to get out of
here.”
But as Gordon bent to pick up Bezoar’s automatic from the
floor,
a low, gravelly voice spoke. “Very good advice, my young friend.
And you know, I’d like to call a man like you
friend.
“Of course, that doesn’t mean I won’t split you open if you
try
to pick up that weapon.”
Gordon left the gun lying where it was and stood up heavily.
General Macklin occupied the open doorway, holding a dagger in
throwing position.
“Kick it away,” he said calmly.
Gordon obeyed. The automatic went spinning into a dusty
corner.
“That’s better.” Macklin resheathed his knife. He jerked his
head at the women. “Get away,” he told them. “Run. Try to live, if
you want to and are able.”
Wide-eyed, Marcie and Heather edged past Macklin. They fled
out
into the night. Gordon had no doubt they would run in the rain
until they dropped.
“I don’t suppose the same applies to me?” he asked
wearily.
Macklin smiled and shook his head. “I want you to come with
me.
I need your assistance out here.”
A hooded lantern illuminated part of the clearing across the
road, aided from time to time by distant lightning and an
occasional moonlit glint at the edge of the rain-clouds. The
pelting drisk had Gordon soaked within minutes of limping outside
after Macklin. His still-bleeding ankles left spreading pink fog in
the puddles where he stepped.
“Your black man is better than I’d thought,” Macklin said,
pulling Gordon to one side of the circular, lamp-lit area. “Either
that or he had help, and the latter’s pretty unlikely. My boys
patrolling the river would have seen more tracks than his, if he’d
been accompanied.
“Either way though, Shawn and Bill deserve what they got for
being careless.”
For the first time Gordon had an inkling of what was
happening.
“You mean-”
“Don’t gloat yet,” Macklin snapped. “My troops are less than a
mile from here, and there’s a Very pistol in my saddlebags. But you
don’t see me hollering for help, do you?”
He smiled again. “Now I’m going to show you what this war is
all
about. Both you and your scout are the sort of strong men who
should have been Holnists.You’re not because of the propaganda of
weakness you grew up in. I’mgoing to take this opportunity to show
you just how weak it makes you.”
With a vicelike grip on Gordon’s ami, Macklin shouted into the
night.
“Black man! This is Genera] Volsci Macklin. I have your
commander here… your United States Postal Inspector!” he
sneered.
“Care to earn his freedom? My men will be here by dawn, so you
have very little time. Come on in! We’ll fight for him! Your choice
of weapons!”
“Don’t do it, Philip! He’s an aug-”
Gordon’s warning collapsed into a groan as Macklin yanked his
arm, nearly tearing his shoulder out of its socket. The force threw
him crashing to his knees. His throbbing ribs sent shock waves
rolling through his body.
“Tsk tsk. Come now. If your man hadn’t already known about
Shawn, it means he got my bodyguard with a lucky shot. If so, he
certainly doesn’t deserve any special consideration now, does
he?”
It took a powerful effort of will, but Gordon lifted his head,
hissing through gritted teeth. Overcoming wave after wave of
nausea, he somehow managed to wobble up to his feet. Although the
world wavered all around him, he refused to be seen on his knees
next to Macklin.
Macklin awarded him a low grunt, as if to say he only expected
this from a real man. The augment’s body was aquiver like a
cat’s-twitching in anticipation. They waited together, just outside
the circle of lamplight. Minutes passed with the rain coming and
going in intermittent, blustery sheets.
“Last chance, black man!” In a blur, Macklin’s knife was at
Gordon’s throat. A grip like an anaconda’s twisted his left arm up
behind his back. “Your Inspector dies in thirty seconds, unless you
show! Starting now!”
The half minute passed slower than any Gordon had ever known.
Oddly enough, he felt detached, almost resigned.
At last Macklin shook his head, sounding
disappointed.
“Well, too bad, Krantz.” The knife moved under his left ear.
“I
guess he’s smarter than I-”
Gordon gasped. He had heard nothing, but suddenly he realized
that there was another pair of moccasins down
there at the
edge of the light, not fifteen feet away.
“I am afraid your men killed
that brave soldier you
were shouting for.” The soft voice of the newcomer spoke
even
as Macklin spun around, putting Gordon between them.
“Philip Bokuto was a good man,” the mysterious voice went on.
“I
have come in his stead, to answer your challenge as he would
have.”
A beaded headband glittered in the lamplight as a
broad-shouldered man stepped forward into the circle. His gray hair
was tied back into a ponytail. The craggy features of his face
expressed a sad serenity.
Gordon could almost feel Macklin’s joy, transmitted through
that
powerful grip. “Well, well. From the descriptions I’ve heard, this
could only be the Squire of Sugarloaf
Lodge, come
down alone out of his mountain and valley at last! I’m gratified
more than you might know, sir. You’re welcome,
indeed.”
“Powhatan,” Gordon gritted, unable to even imagine how or
why the man was here. “Get the hell away, you
fool! You
haven’t a chance! He’s an augment!”
Phil Bokuto had been one of the best fighters Gordon had ever
known. If he had barely managed to ambush the
lesser of
these devils, and had died in the process, what chance did this old
man have?
Powhatan listened to Gordon’s revelation and
frowned.
“So? You mean from those experiments in the early nineties? I
had thought they were all normalized or killed off by the time the
Slavic-Turkic War broke out. Fascinating. This does explain a lot
about the last two decades.”
“You’d heard of us then,” Macklin grinned.
Powhatan nodded somberly. “I had heard, before the war. I also
know why that particular experiment was discontinued-mostly because
the worst kinds of men had been recruited as
subjects.”
“So said the weak,” Macklin agreed. “For they made the error
of
accepting volunteers from among the strong.”
Powhatan shook his head. For all the world it seemed as if he
were engaged in a polite argument over semantics. Only his heavy
breathing seemed to give away any sign of emotion.
“They accepted warriors . . .” he
emphasized, “…
that divinely mad type that’s so valuable when needed, and such a
problem when it’s not. The lesson was learned hard, back in the
nineties. They had a lot of trouble with augments who came home
still loving war.”
“Trouble is the word,” Macklin laughed.
“Let me
introduce you to Trouble, Powhatan.” He threw Gordon aside as if on
an afterthought, and sheathed his knife before stepping toward his
longtime foe.
Splashing into a ditch for the second time, Gordon could only
lie in the muck and groan. His entire left side felt torn and
burning-as if it were loaded with glowing coals. Consciousness
flickered, and remained only because he absolutely refused to let
go of it. When, at last, he was able to look up again through a
pain-squinted tunnel, he saw the other two men circling each other
just inside the lamp’s small oasis of light.
Of course Macklin was just toying with his adversary. Powhatan
was impressive, for a man his age, but the monstrous things that
bulged from Macklin’s neck, arms, and thighs made a normal man’s
muscles look pathetic by comparison. Gordon remembered Macklin’s
fireplace poker, tearing apart like shredding taffy.
George Powhatan inhaled in hard, shuddering gasps, and his
face
was flushed. In spite of the hopelessness of the situation, though,
a deep part of Gordon was surprised to see such blatant signs of
fear on the Squire’s face.
All legends must be based on lies, Gordon
realized.
We exaggerate, and even come to believe the tales, after a
while.
Only in Powhatan’s voice did there seem to be a remnant of
calm.
In fact, he almost sounded detached. “There’s something I think you
should consider, General,” he said between rapid
breaths.
“Later,” Macklin growled. “Later we can discuss stock-raising
and brewing, Squire. Right now I’m going to teach you a more
practical art.”
Quick as a cat, Macklin lashed out. Powhatan leaped aside,
barely in time. But Gordon felt a thrill as the taller man then
whirled back with a kick that Macklin dodged only by
inches.
Gordon began to hope. Perhaps Powhatan was a natural, whose
speed-even in middle age-might almost equal Macklin’s. If so-and
with that longer reach of his-he just might be able to keep out of
his enemy’s terrible grasp…
The augment lunged again, getting a tearing grip on his
opponent’s shirt. This time Powhatan escaped even more narrowly,
shrugging out of the embroidered garment and dodging a flurry of
blows any one of which might have killed a steer. He did nearly
land a savage chop to Macklin’s kidneys as the smaller man rushed
by. But then, in a blur, the Holnist swiveled and caught Powhatan’s
passing wrist!
Daring fate, Powhatan stepped inside and
managed to
break free with a reverse.
But Macklin seemed to have expected the maneuver. The General
rolled past his opponent, and when Powhatan whirled to follow, he
grabbed quickly and seized the taller man’s other arm. Macklin
grinned as Powhatan tried to slip out again, this time to no
avail.
At arm’s length, the Camas Valley man pulled back and panted.
In
spite of the chill rain he seemed overheated.
That’s it, Gordon thought, disappointed.
In spite of
his past differences with Powhatan, Gordon tried to think of
anything he could do to help. He looked around for something to
throw at the monster augment, perhaps distracting Macklin long
enough for the other man to get away.
But there was only mud, and a few soggy twigs. Gordon himself
hardly had the strength even to crawl away from where he had been
tossed. He could only lie there and watch the end, awaiting his own
turn.
“Now,” Macklin told his new captive, “Now say what you have to
say. But you better make it amusing. As I smile, you
live.”
Powhatan grimaced as he tugged, testing Macklin’s iron-jawed
grip. Even after a full minute he had not stopped breathing deeply.
Now the expression on his face seemed distant, as if completely
resigned. His voice was oddly rhythmic when he answered at
last.
“I didn’t want this. I told them I
couldn’t… too
old… luck run out…” He inhaled deeply, and sighed. “I
begged them not to make me. And now, to end it here… ?” The
gray eyes flickered. “But it never ends…
except
death.”
He’s broken, Gordon thought. The
man’s
cracked. He did not want to witness this humiliation. And
I left Dena to seek this famous hero…
“You’re not amusing me, Squire,” Macklin said, coldly. “Don’t
bore me, not if you value your remaining moments.”
But Powhatan seemed distracted, as if he were actually
thinking
about something else, concentrating on
remembering
something, perhaps, and maintaining conversation out of courtesy
alone.
“I only… thought you ought to know that things changed a
bit… after you left the program.”
Macklin shook his head, his eyebrows knotting. “What the hell
are you talking about?”
Powhatan blinked. A shiver ran up and down his body, making
Macklin smile.
“I mean that… that they weren’t about to give up on
anything so promising as augmentation… not just because there
were flaws the first time.”
Macklin growled. “They were too scared
to continue. Too
scared of us!”
Powhatan’s eyelids fluttered. He was still inhaling hard, in
great, silent breaths.
Gordon stared. Something was happening
to the man.
Perspiration glistened in oily speckles all across his shoulders
and chest before being washed away in the scattered, heavy rain.
His muscles twitched as if in the throes of cramps.
Gordon wondered. Was the man falling apart before his
eyes?
Powhatan’s voice sounded remote, almost bemused. “… newer
implants weren’t as large or as powerful… meant more to
supplement training in certain eastern arts…
in
biofeedback…”
Macklin’s head rocked back and he laughed out loud.
“Neohippy augments? Oh! Good, Powhatan. Good
bluff! That
is rich!”
Powhatan didn’t seem to be listening, though. He was
concentrating, his lips moving as if reciting something long ago
memorized.
Gordon stared, blinked away raindrops, and stared harder.
Faint
lines seemed to be radiating out along Powhatan’s
arms and
shoulders, crisscrossing his neck and chest. The man’s shivering
had heightened to a steady rhythm that now seemed less chaotic than… purposeful.
“The process also takes a lot of air,” George Powhatan said
mildly, conversationally. Still inhaling deeply, he began to
straighten up.
By now Macklin had stopped laughing. The Holnist stared in
frank
disbelief.
Powhatan talked on, conversationally. “We are prisoners in
similar cages… although you seem to relish yours… Alike, we’re both trapped by the last arrogance
of arrogant days…”
“You aren’t. . .”
“Come now, General,” Powhatan smiled without malice at his
captor. “Don’t look so surprised… Surely you didn’t believe
you and your generation were the last?”
Macklin must have instantly reached the same conclusion as
Gordon-understanding that George Powhatan was talking only in order
to buy time.
“Macklin!” Gordon shouted. But the Holnist wasn’t distracted.
In
a blur his long, machetelike knife was out, glittering wetly in the
lamplight before slashing down toward Powhatan’s immobilized right
hand.
Still bent and unready, Powhatan reacted in a twisting blur.
The
blow that landed tore only a glancing streak along his arm as he
caught Macklin’s wrist in his free hand.
The Holnist cried out as they strained together, the General’s
greater strength pushing the dripping blade closer,
closer.
With a sudden step and hip movement, Powhatan fell backward,
flicking Macklin overhead. The General landed on his feet, still
holding on, and wrenched hard, in turn. Whirling like two arms of a
pinwheel, they threw each other, gaining momentum until they
disappeared into the blackness beyond the ring of light. There was
a crash. Then another. To Gordon it sounded like elephants
trampling the undergrowth.
Wincing at the pain of mere movement, he crawled out of the
light far enough for his eyes to begin adapting to the darkness,
and pulled up under a rain-drenched red cedar. He peered in the
direction they had gone, but was unable to do anything more than
follow the fight by its tumult, and the skittering of tiny forest
creatures fleeing the path of destruction.
When two wrestling forms spilled out into the clearing again,
their clothes were in tatters. Their bodies ran red rivulets from
scores of cuts and scratches. The knife was gone, but even
weaponless the two warriors were fearsome. In their path no
brambles, no mere saplings endured. A zone of devastation followed
them wherever the battle went.
There was no ritual, no elegance to this combat. The smaller,
more powerful figure closed with ferocity and tried to grapple with
his enemy. The taller one fought to maintain a distance, and lashed
out with blows that seemed to split the air.
Don’t exaggerate,
Gordon told himself.
They’re only men, and old men, at that,
And yet a part of Gordon felt kinship with those ancient
peoples
who believed in giants-in manlike gods- whose battles boiled seas
and pushed up mountain ranges. As the combatants disappeared again
into the darkness, Gordon experienced a wave of the sort of
abstract wondering that had always cropped up in his mind when he
least expected it. Detached, he thought about how augmentation,
like so many other newly discovered powers, had seen its first use
in war. But that had always been the way, before
other
uses were found… with chemistry, aircraft, space-flight…
Later, though, came the real uses.
What would have happened, had the Doomwar not come… had
this technology mixed with the worldwide ideals of the New
Renaissance, and been harnessed by all its
citizens?
What might mankind have been capable of? What, if
anything,
would have been out of reach?
Gordon leaned on the rough trunk of the cedar and managed to
hobble to his feet. He wavered unsteadily for a moment, then put
one foot in front of the other-limping step by step in the
direction of the crashing sounds. There was no thought of running
away, only of witnessing the last great miracle
of
Twentieth-Century science play itself out under pelting rain and
lightning in a dark age forest.
The lantern laid stark shadows through the crushed brambles,
but
soon he was beyond its reach. Gordon followed the noises until,
suddenly, it all stopped. There were no more shouts, no more heavy
concussions, only the rumbling of the thunderheads and the roar of
the river.
Eyes adapted to the darkness. Shading them from the rain, he
finally saw-outlined against the gray clouds-two stark, reddish
shapes standing atop a prominence overlooking the river. One
crouched, squat and bull-necked, like the legendary Minotaur. The
other was shaped more like a man, but with long hair that whipped
like tattered banners in the wind. Completely naked now, the two
augments faced each other, rocking as they panted under the
growling storm.
Then, as if at a signal, they came together for the last
time.
Thunder rolled. A blinding staircase of lightning struck the
mountain on the opposite river bank, whipping the forest branches
with its bellow.
In that instant, Gordon saw a figure silhouetted against the
jagged electric ladder, arms outstretched to hold another
struggling shape overhead. The blinding brightness lasted just long
enough for Gordon to see the standing shadow tense, flex, and cast
the other into the air. The black shape rose for a full second
before the electric brilliance vanished and darkness folded in
again.
The afterimage felt seared. Gordon knew that that tumbling
figure had to come down again-to the canyon and jagged, icy torrent
far below. But in his imagination he saw the shadow continue
upward, as if cast from the Earth.
Great sheets of rain blew southward down the narrow defile.
Gordon felt his way back to the trunk of a fallen tree and sat down
heavily. There he simply waited, unable even to contemplate moving,
his memories churning like a turgid, silt-swirled
river.
At last, there was a crackle of snapping twigs to his left. A
naked form slowly emerged from the darkness, walking wearily toward
him.
“Dena said there were only two types of males who counted,”
Gordon commented. “It always seemed a crackpot idea to me. But I
never realized the government thought that way
too, before
the end.”
The man slumped onto the torn bark beside him. Under his skin
a
thousand little pulsing threads surged and throbbed. Blood trickled
from hundreds of scratches all over his body. He breathed heavily,
staring at nothing at all.
“They reversed their policy, didn’t they?” Gordon asked. “In
the
end, they rediscovered wisdom.”
He knew George Powhatan had heard him, and had understood. But
still there was no reply.
Gordon fumed. He needed an answer. For
some reason,
deep within, he had to know if the United States had been ruled, in
those last years before the Calamity, by men and women of
honor.
“Tell me, George! You said they abandoned using the warrior
type. Who else was there, then? Did they select
for the
opposite? For an aversion to power? For men who
would
fight well, but reluctantly?”
An image: of a puzzled Johnny Stevens-ever eager to
learn-earnestly trying to understand the enigma of a great leader
who spurns a golden crown in favor of a plow. He had never really
explained it to the boy. And now it was too late.
“Well? Did they revive the old ideal? Did they purposely seek
out soldiers who saw themselves as citizens first?”
He grabbed Powhatan’s throbbing shoulders. “Damn you! Why
didn’t
you tell me, when I’d come all that way from
Corvallis to
plead with you! Don’t you think I, of all people, would have
understood?”
The Squire of Camas Valley looked sunken. He met Gordon’s eyes
very briefly, then looked away again, shuddering.
“Oh, you bet I’d have understood,
Powhatan. I knew what
you meant, when you said that the Big Things are insatiable.”
Gordon’s fists clenched. “The Big Things will take
everything you
love away from you, and still demand more. You know it, I know
it… that poor slob Cincinnatus knew it, when he told them they
could keep their stupid crown!
“But your mistake was thinking it can ever
end,
Powhatan!” Gordon hobbled to his feet. He shouted his anger at the
man. “Did you honestly think your responsibility was ever
finished?”
When Powhatan spoke at last, Gordon had to bend to hear him
over
the rolling thunder.
“I’d hoped… I was so sure I could-”
“So sure you could say no to all the big
lies!” Gordon
laughed sarcastically, bitterly. “Sure you could say no to
honor, and dignity^ and
country?
“What made you change your mind, then?
“You laughed off Cyclops, and the promise of technology. Not
God, nor pity, nor the ‘Restored United States’ would move you! So
tell me, Powhatan, what power was finally great enough to make you
follow Phil Bokuto down here and look for me?”
Sitting with clutched hands, the most powerful man alive-sole
relic of an age of near-gods-seemed to draw into himself like a
small boy, exhausted, ashamed.
“You’re right,” he groaned. “It never ends. I’ve done my
share,
a thousand times over I have!… All I wanted was to be left to
grow old in peace. Is that too much to ask? Is it?”
His eyes were bleak, “But it never, ever ends.”
Powhatan looked up, then, meeting and holding Gordon’s stare
for
the first time.
“It was the women,” he said softly, answering Gordon’s
question
at last. “Ever since your visit and those damned letters, they kept
talking, asking questions.
“Then the story of that madness up north arrived, even in my
valley. I tried… tried to tell them it was just craziness,
what your Amazons did, but they-”
Powhatan’s voice caught. He shook his head. “Bokuto stormed
out,
to come down here all alone… and when that happened they kept
looking at me… They kept after me and after
me and
after me…”
He moaned and covered his face with his hands.
“Sweet God in Heaven, forgive me. The women
made me do
it.”
Gordon blinked in amazement. Amidst the pelting raindrops,
tears
flowed down the last augment’s craggy, careworn face. George
Powhatan shuddered and sobbed ach-ingly aloud.
Gordon slumped down to the rough log next to him, a heaviness
filling him like the nearby Coquille, swollen from winter’s snows.
In another minute, his own lips were trembling.
Lightning flashed. The nearby river roared. And they wept
together under the rain-mourning as men can only mourn
themselves.
INTERLUDE
Fierce Winter lingers
Until Ocean does her duty
Chasing him-with Spring
IV
NEITHER CHAOS
1
A new legend swept Oregon, from Roseburg all the way north to
the Columbia, from the mountains to the sea. It traveled by letter
and by word of mouth, growing with each telling.
It was a sadder story than the two that had come before
it-those
speaking of a wise, benevolent machine and of a reborn nation. It
was more disturbing than those. And yet this new fable had one
important element its predecessors lacked.
It was true.
The story told of a band of forty women-crazy-women, many
contended-who had shared among themselves a secret vow: to do
anything and everything to end a terrible war, and end it before
all the good men died trying to save them.
They acted out of love, some explained. Others said that they
did it for their country.
There was even a rumor that the women had looked on their
odyssey to Hell as a form of penance, in order to
make up
for some past failing of womankind.
Interpretations varied, but the overall moral was always the
same, whether spread by word of mouth or by US. Mail. From hamlet
to village to farmstead, mothers and daughters and wives read the
letters and listened to the words-and passed them
on.
• • •
Men can be brilliant and strong, they whispered to one
another.
But men can be mad, as well. And the mad ones can ruin the
world.
Women, you must judge them…
Never again can things be allowed to reach this pass, they
said
to one another as they thought of the sacrifice the Scouts had
made.
Never again can we let the age-old fight go on between good
and
bad men alone.
Women, you must share responsibility… and
bring
your own talents into the struggle…
And always remember, the moral concluded: Even the best
men-the
heroes-will sometimes neglect to do their jobs.
Women, you must remind them, from time to time…
2
April 28, 2012
Dear Mrs. Thompson,
Thank you for your letters. They helped immeasurably during my
recovery-especially since I had been so worried that the enemy
might have reached Pine View. Learning that you and Abby and
Michael were all right was worth more to me than you might ever
know.
Speaking of Abby, please tell her that I saw Michael
yesterday!
He arrived, hale and well, along with the other five volunteers
Pine View sent to help in the war. Like so many of our recruits, it
seemed he just couldn’t wait to get into the
fighting.
I hope I didn’t dampen his spirits too much when I told him of
some of my firsthand experiences with Holnists. I do think, though,
that now he’ll be more attentive to his training, and maybe a bit
less eager to win the war single-handedly. After all, we want Abby
and little Caroline to see him again.
I’m glad you were able to take in Marcie and Heather. We all
owe
those two a debt. Corvallis would have been a shock. Pine View
should offer a kinder readjustment.
Tell Abby I gave her letter to some old professors who have
been
talking about starting up classes again. There just may be a
university of sorts here, in a year or so-assuming the war goes
well.
Of course the latter’s not absolutely assured. Things have
turned around, but we have a long, long way to go against a
terrible enemy.
Your last question is a troubling one, Mrs. Thompson, and I
don’t even know if I can answer. It doesn’t surprise me that the
story of the Scouts’ Sacrifice reached you, up there in the
mountains. But you should know that even down here we aren’t
exactly clear about the details, yet.
All I can really tell you now is, yes, I knew Dena Spurgen
well.
And no, I don’t think I understood her at all. I honestly wonder if
I ever will.
Gordon sat on a bench just outside the Corvallis Post Office.
He
rested his back against the rough wall, catching the rays of the
morning sun, and thought about things he could not write of in his
letter to Mrs. Thompson… things for which he could not find
words.
Until they had recaptured the villages of Chesire and
Franklin,
all the people of the Willamette had to go on were rumors, for not
one of the Scouts had ever come home again from that unauthorized,
midwinter foray. After the first counterattacks, though, newly
released slaves began relating parts of the story. Slowly, the
pieces fell together,
One winter day-in fact only two days after Gordon had left
Corvallis on his long trek south-the women Scouts started deserting
from their army of farmers and townsmen. A few at a time, they
slipped away south and west, and gave themselves up, unarmed, to
the enemy.
A few were killed on the spot. Others were raped and tortured
by
laughing madmen who would not even hear their carefully rehearsed
declarations.
Most, though, were taken in-as they had hoped- welcomed by the
Holnists’ insatiable appetite for women.
Those who could pass it off believably explained that they
were
sick of living as fanners’ wives, and wanted the touch of “real
men.” It was a tale the followers of Nathan Holn were disposed to
accept, or so those who had dreamed up the plan
imagined.
What followed must have been hard, perhaps beyond imagining.
For
the women had to pretend, and pretend believably, until the
scheduled red night of knives-the night when they were supposed to
save the frail remnant of civilization from the monsters who were
bringing it down.
What exactly went wrong wasn’t yet clear, as the spring
counteroffensive pushed through the first recaptured towns. Perhaps
an invader grew suspicious and tortured some poor girl until she
talked. Or maybe one of the women fell in love with her fierce
barbarian, and spilled her heart in a betraying confession. Dena
was correct that history told of such things occurring. It might
have happened here.
Or perhaps some simply could not lie well enough, or hide the
shivers when their new lords touched them.
Whatever went wrong, the scheduled night was red, indeed.
Where
the warning did not arrive in time, women stole kitchen knives,
that midnight, and slipped from room to room, killing and killing
again until they themselves went down struggling.
Elsewhere, they merely went down, cursing and spitting into
their enemies’ eyes to the last.
Of course it was a failure. Anyone could have predicted it.
Even
where the plan “succeeded,” too few of the invaders died to make
any real difference. The women soldiers’ sacrifice accomplished
nothing at all in any military sense.
The gesture was a tragic fiasco.
Word spread though, across the lines and up the valleys. Men
listened, dumbfounded, and shook their heads in disbelief. Women
heard also, and spoke together urgently, privately. They argued,
frowned, and thought.
Eventually, word arrived even far to the south. By now a
legend,
the story came at last to Sugarloaf Mountain.
And there, high above the confluence of
the roaring
Coquille, the Scouts finally won their victory.
• • •
All I can tell you is that I hope this thing doesn’t turn into
a
dogma, a religion. In my worst dreams I see women taking up a
tradition of drowning their sons, if they show signs of becoming
bullies. I envision them doing their duty, by
passing on
life and death before a male child becomes a threat to all around
him.
Maybe a fraction of us males are “too
mad to be allowed
to live.” But taken to the extreme, this “solution” is something
that terrifies me… as an ideology, it is something my mind
cannot even grasp.
Of course, it’ll probably sort itself out. Women are too
sensible to take this to extremes. That, perhaps, is in the end
where our hope lies.
And now it’s time to mail this letter. I will try to write to
you and Abby again from Coos Bay.
Until then, I remain your
devoted-
Gordon
• • •
“Courier!”
Gordon hailed a passing youth, wearing the blue denim and
leather of a postman. The young man hurried over
and
saluted. Gordon held out the envelope. “Would you drop this onto
the regular eastbound sort stack for me?”
“Yessir. Right away, sir!”
“No rush,” Gordon smiled. “It’s just a personal-”
But the young man had already taken off at a dead run. Gordon
sighed. The old days of close camaraderie, of knowing every person
in the “postal service” were over. He was too high above these
young couriers to share a lazy grin and perhaps a minute’s
gossip.
Yes, it’s definitely time.
He stood up, and only winced slightly as he hefted his
saddlebags.
“So you’re goin‘ to skip the hoedown, after all?”
He turned. Eric Stevens stood at the post office’s side door,
chewing on a blade of grass and regarding Gordon with folded
arms.
Gordon shrugged. “It seems best just to go. I don’t want a
party
in my honor. All that fuss is just a waste of time.”
Stevens nodded, agreeing. His calm strength had been a
blessing
during Gordon’s recuperation-especially his derisive dismissal of
any suggestion by Gordon that he was to blame for Johnny’s death.
To Eric, his grandson had died as well as any man could hope to.
The counteroffensive had been proof enough for him, and Gordon had
decided not to argue about it.
The old man shaded his eyes and looked out across the nearby
garden plots toward the south end of Highway 99.
“More southerners ridin‘ in.”
Gordon turned and saw a column of mounted men riding slowly by
on their way north, toward the main encampment.
“Sheesh,” Stevens snickered, “look at their eyes pop. You’d
think they’d never seen a city before.”
Indeed, the tough, bearded men of Sutherün and Roseburg, of
Camas and Coos Bay, rode into town blinking in obvious amazement at
strange sights-at windmill generators and humming electric lines,
at busy machine shops, and at scores of clean, noisy children
playing in the schoolyards.
Calling this a city may be stretching things,
Gordon
noted. But Eric had a point.
Old Glory flapped over a busy central post office. At
intervals,
uniformed couriers leaped onto ponies and sped off north, east, and
south, saddlebags bulging.
From the House of Cyclops poured forth rich music from another
time, and nearby a small, patchy-colored blimp bobbed within its
scaffolding while white-coated workers argued in the ancient,
arcane tongue of engineering.
On one flank of the tiny airship was painted an eagle, rising
from a pyre. The other side bore the crest of the sovereign State
of Oregon.
Finally, at the training grounds themselves, the newcomers
would
encounter small groups of clear-eyed women
soldiers-volunteers from up and down the
valley-who were
there to do a job, the same as everybody else.
It was all quite a lot for the gruff southerners to absorb at
once. Gordon smiled as he watched the rough, bearded fighters gawk
and slowly remember the way things once had been. The
reinforcements arrived thinking of themselves as saviors of an
effete, decadent north. But they would go home
changed.
“So long, Gordon,” Eric Stevens said, concisely. Unlike some
of
the others, he had the good taste to know that goodbyes should be
brief. “Godspeed, and come back someday.”
“I will,” Gordon nodded. “If I can. So long, Eric.” He
shouldered the saddlebag and started walking toward the stables,
leaving the bustle of the post office behind him.
The old athletic fields were a sea of tents as he passed by.
Horses whinnied and men marched. Across the grounds, Gordon saw the
unmistakable figure of George Powhatan, introducing his new
officers to old comrades in arms, reorganizing the frail Willamette
Army into the new Defense League of the Oregon
Commonwealth.
Briefly, as Gordon walked by, the tall, silver-haired man
looked
up and met his eyes. Gordon nodded, saying goodbye without
words.
He had won after all-had brought the Squire down off his
mountain-even though the price of that victory would go with both
of them all of their lives.
Powhatan offered up a faint smile in return. They both knew,
by
now, what a man does with burdens such as those.
He carries them, Gordon thought.
Perhaps some day the two of them might sit together again-in
that peaceful mountain lodge, with children’s art hanging on the
walls-and talk about horsebreeding and the subtle art of brewing
beer. But that time would only come after the Big Things finally
let them both go. Neither man planned to hold his breath until
then.
Powhatan had his war to fight. And Gordon had quite another
job
to do.
He touched the bill of his postman’s cap and turned to walk
on.
He had stunned them all, yesterday, when he resigned from the
Defense Council. “My obligations are to the nation, not to one
small corner of it,” he had told them, allowing them to go on
believing things which were not lies at heart.
“Now that Oregon is safe,” he had said, “I must continue with
my
main job. There are other places to be brought into the postal
network, people elsewhere too long cut off from their
countrymen.
“You can carry on just fine without me.”
All their protests had been to no avail. For it was
true. He had given all he had to give here. He
would be
more useful now elsewhere. Anyway, he couldn’t stay any longer. In
this valley everything would perpetually remind him of the harm
that he had accomplished in doing good.
Gordon had decided to slip out of town today, instead of
attending the party in his honor. He was recovered enough to
travel, as long as he took it easy, and he had said good-bye to
those who were left-to Peter Aage and to Dr. Lazarensky-and to the
shell of that poor, dead machine whose ghost he no longer
feared.
The remuda handler brought out the young mare Gordon had
chosen
for this leg of his journey. Still deep in thought, he adjusted the
saddlebags containing his gear and five pounds of mail-letters
addressed, for the first time, to destinations outside of
Oregon.
On one point he left in complete confidence. The war was won,
though there certainly were brutal months and years ahead. Part of
his present mission was to seek new allies, new ways of shortening
the end. But that end was now inevitable.
He had no fear of George Powhatan ever becoming a tyrant after
victory was complete. When every Holnist had been hanged, the
people of Oregon would be told in no uncertain terms to manage
their own affairs, or be damned. Gordon wished he could be here to
watch the thunder, if anyone ever offered Powhatan a
crown.
The Servants of Cyclops would go on spreading their own myth,
encouraging a rebirth of technology. Gordon’s appointed postmasters
would continue lying without knowing it, using the tale of a
restored nation to bind the land together, until the fable wasn’t
needed anymore.
Or until, by believing it, people made it come
true.
And, yes, women would go on talking over what had happened
here,
this winter. They would pore over the notes Dena Spurgen had left
behind, read the same old books the Scouts had read, and argue over
the merits of judging men.
Gordon had decided that it hardly mattered now whether Dena
really had been mentally unbalanced. The lasting effects would not
be known during his lifetime. And even he hadn’t the influence, or
the desire, to interfere with the spreading legend.
Three myths… and George Powhatan. Among them, the people
of
Oregon were in good hands. The rest they could probably manage for
themselves.
His spirited mount snorted as Gordon swung into the saddle. He
patted and soothed the mare until she was calm, trembling with
eagerness to be off. Gordon’s escort already waited out at the edge
of town, ready to see him safely to Coos Bay and the boat that
would take him the rest of the way.
To California… he thought.
He remembered the bear flag patch, and the silent, dying
soldier
who had told him so much without ever saying a word. He owed that
man something. And Phil Bokuto. And Johnny, who had wanted so to go
south and see for himself.
And Dena… how I wish you could have come
along.
He would find out for them. They were all with him
now.
Silent California, he wondered, what
have you been
up to, all these years?
He wheeled his mount around and headed down the south road,
behind him all the clattering and shouting of an army of free men
and women, certain of victory-soldiers who would return gladly to
their farms and villages when the distasteful chore was done at
last.
Their clamor was loud, irreverent, determined,
impatient.
Gordon rode past an open window blaring recorded music.
Someone
was being lavish with electricity today. Who knew? Maybe the
raucous extravagance was even in his honor.
His head lifted, and even the horse’s ears flicked up. It was
an
old Beach Boys tune, he recognized at last, one he hadn’t heard in
twenty years… a melody of innocence, unflaggingly
optimistic.
I’ll bet they have electricity in California too,
Gordon hoped.
And maybe…
Spring was in the air. Men and women cheered as the little
blimp
rose, sputtering, into the sky.
Gordon nudged with his heels and the mare sped to a canter.
Once
out of town, he did not look back.
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
The author would like to express his appreciation to those who
gave so generously of their time and wisdom during the evolution of
this book.
Dean Ing, Diane and John Brizzolara, Astrid Anderson, Greg
Bear,
Mark Grygier, Douglas Bolger, Kathleen Retz, Conrad Hailing, Pattie
Harper, Don Coleman, Sarah Barter, and Dr. James Arnold all
contributed helpful comments.
Especially, I would like to thank Anita Everson, Daniel J.
Brin,
Kristie McCue, and Professor John Lewis, for their important
insights.
Appreciation to Lou Aronica and Bantam Books, for excellent
support and understanding, and to Shawna McCarthy of Davis
Publications, for more of the same.
And finally, my thanks to those women I’ve known who have
never
ceased to startle me, just when I’ve grown complacent and need most
to be startled, and who make me stop and think.
There is power there, slumbering below the surface. And there
is
magic.
David Brin April 1985
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