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CHAPTER FOUR: This is what happened to Theodore Berendtsen when he was young, having grown up in the shadow of a heap of rubble with a weathering sign on top of it. That was all he had in the way of a portrait of his father. And this is what he did with it: Ted Berendtsen opened the hatch and shouted down over the growl of the PT boat's engines. "Narrows, Jack." Holland nodded, typed the final sentence of his report with two bobbing fingers, and got up. "What's the latest from Matt?" "Nothing new. I just checked with Ryder, on radio watch." Holland scrambled up on deck, stretching his stiff muscles. "Man, next time Matt sends out a mission, somebody else can go. I've had PT's." Ted nodded sourly. "I've had Philadelphia, too," he growled in conscious imitation of Jack's voice. For the hundredth time, he caught the faint smile on Jack's lips, and resolved, for the hundredth time, to stop his adolescent hero-worship. Or at least to tone it down. "Brotherly love. Wow!" He flushed. Boyish excitability was no improvement. Holland grunted and ran his eyes over the bright machine-gunned scars in the deck plywood. He shook his head. "That's a tough nut down there." Ted nodded solemn agreement, instantly stabbed himself with the realization of solemnity, flushed again, and finally shrugged his mental shoulders and, for the hundredth time, gave up on the whole problem of being sixteen. Instead, he watched the shoreline slip by, but soon found himself unable to resist Manhattan's lure. The skyscraper city bulked out the horizon in front of him, windows flashing in the sun. He knew Holland was watching the look on his face, and he cursed himself for being conscious of it just because Holland had gotten him his first man- size rifle and taught him how to use it. "Damn, it's big," he said. Jack nodded. "Big, all right. Wonder how much more of it's joined up since we left?" "Not the West Side, that's for sure." "Those boys aren't ever likely to budge," Holland said. Ted nodded. Too solemnly, again. Matt Garvin put the report down and sighed. Then he looked past Ted at Jack Holland with the quick sharpness of a man who knows that the other will understand him perfectly. "People in Philadelphia aren't any different, are they?" Jack smiled thinly, and Ted felt envy, as he always did whenever Jack and old Matt communicated in these sentences and short gestures that represented paragraphs of the past. He ruthlessly stifled a sigh of his own. When he and Jack had boarded the PT boat, a month before, he had vaguely hoped that something--some uncertain ordeal by fire or inconcise overwhelming experience--would give him that intangible which he recognized in Holland as manhood. He had hoped, as the PT growled slowly down the Jersey coast, that some sort of antagonist would put out from the shore or rise from the sea, and that, at the conclusion of the harrowing struggle, he would find himself spontaneously lean of cheek and jaw, carelessly poised of body, with automatically short and forceful sentences on his lips. But nothing had changed. "What do you think?" Matt asked him. The question caught him unaware. He realized he must have looked ridiculous with his absent gaze snapping precipitously back to Matt Garvin. "About Philadelphia?" he said hastily. "I think we'll have a hard time with them, Matt." Garvin nodded. "Which would mean you think we're bound to run into those people sometime, right?" "Ahuh." He caught the smile on Jack's lips again, and cursed inwardly. "Yes, I do," he amended. Damn, damn, damn! "Any special reason why you think so?" Ted shrugged uncomfortably. He thought about his father less than he should have, probably. He only vaguely remembered the big man--bigger than lifesize, doubtless, in a child's eyes--who had been so friendly. If he had seen his death, perhaps, he would have that missing thing to fill out his inadequacy--a cause, passed down, to be upheld and to which he could dedicate himself. But he had not seen his father die. Of it all, he remembered only his mother's grief, still vaguely terrifying whenever too closely thought of. He stood hopeless before Matt Garvin, with only reasoning to justify him. "I don't know exactly, Matt," he stumbled. "But they're down there with Pennsylvania and New Jersey in their laps whenever they need them. They're going to be crowding up this way in another twenty-five, thirty years. All we've got's Long Island, and it's not going to be enough to feed us by them. We're stuck out here on this island. They could pinch us off easy." He stopped, not knowing whether he'd said enough or too much. Garvin nodded again. "Sounds reasonable. But this report doesn't show any organization down there. How about that?" Ted glanced quickly at Jack. If Holland hadn't covered that in his report, it could only have been because he shared Ted's opinion that the true situation was self-evident. The thought occurred to him that Garvin was testing his reasoning. He felt even more unsure of himself now. "Well," he said finally, "I can't think of anything about Philadelphia that would make people down there much different from us. I don't see how they could have missed setting up some kind of organization. Maybe it works a little different from ours, because of some local factor, but it's bound to be basically the same." He stopped uncertainly. "I'm not making myself clear, am I?" he asked. "It's all right so far, Ted. Go on," Garvin said, betraying no impatience. "Well, it seems to me," Ted went on, some of his inward clumsiness evaporating, "that you'd have a tough time spotting our kind of organization if you just took a boat into the harbor, like we did in Philly. Chances are, you wouldn't run across our radio frequency. If you landed on the West Side, you'd run into the small outfits in the warehouses. Even if you happened to pick the organized territory--I don't know; if somebody came chugging up the river, I wouldn't be much likely to trust him, no matter what he tried to say. It's the same old story. You can't join up with anybody, anymore, unless it's on your own terms. There's been too much of our hard work and fighting done to keep our organization going. It doesn't really matter whether they've had to do the same for themselves. Each of us is in the right, as far as we're separately concerned. And it'd be a lot nicer, for us, if we were the ones who came out running things, because that's the only way we could be sure all that work of ours hadn't been for nothing." He stopped, thinking he'd finished, but as he did, another thought came to him. "It'd be different, if there were a lot of things to negotiate about. Then there'd be room to talk in. I guess, maybe, if we keep organizing, we'll work our way up to that point. But right now, it's a pretty clear-cut thing, one way or the other. Nobody's any better off than anybody else--if somebody was, we'd of heard from them by now. Looking at it from our viewpoint, then, it's a lot better for our organization if we do all the deciding on who joins up with us. So, if somebody from outside comes nosing around, the best thing to do is just discourage him." He broke off long enough to grin crookedly. "They sure discouraged us down at Philly. "All we ever saw of Philadelphia itself was the waterfront. I'd say that almost anything could be going on down there, and we couldn't spot it. You'd have to go deep into the town itself, into the residential area. The same way that somebody coming into Manhattan would have to get to the lower East Side. And I guess we're pretty sure no stranger's going to get that chance." "Hmmm." Garvin was grinning at Jack, and Holland was smiling back. Ted stood awkwardly, looking from one to the other. "All right, Ted," Garvin said, turning back to him. "Looks to me like you kept your eyes open and your brain working." Faintly surprised, Ted acknowledged to himself that he probably had. But he'd devoted no special effort to it, and he'd certainly done nothing else to distinguish himself. The brief engagement in Philadelphia's harbor had offered none of the many hoped-for opportunities to shed his adolescence. All in all, he didn't know how to answer Matt now, and he was deeply grateful that no answer seemed to be expected. "I guess that's it, Ted. You might as well go home. Margaret'll have supper going by now. Tell her I'll be along in a while, will you? You and Jack take it easy for a day or two. I'll be giving you something else to do pretty soon." "Right, Matt. See you tonight." That, too, he thought, had been too crisply casual. He noticed that Jack had started to say something himself--probably the same thing, in effect, and had stopped abruptly, with that same half-concealed, knowing smile at Garvin. Damn, damn, God damn! [Image]
[Image] "Well, that's that," Holland said outside Matt's headquarters. He stretched luxuriously, his eyes grinning. He slapped Ted's shoulder lightly. "I'll see you tomorrow," he said, and walked off, his stride catlike, easily holding his slung rifle straight up and down with the heel of his hand against its butt. Ted smiled. Jack had been cooped up on the boat for a month. The adjective "catlike" was as easily applied to his frame of mind as to his walk. Ted smiled again. Ruefully. He hitched his own rifle sling higher up on his shoulder and walked determinedly toward the Garvins' apartment. Ever since his father's death, Ted and his mother had more or less been staying with the Garvins. Their apartments adjoined, and up to the time that Ted had earned the right to carry his own rifle, both families had been equally under Matt's protection. Ted had been raised with Jim and Mary Garvin--discounting Bob, who was five years younger than Ted, and therefore even more useless than Mary as a companion. Recently, of course, Mary had been acquiring greater significance, even if she was only thirteen. She seemed to him admittedly more mature of mind than other girls her age, most of whom Ted ignored completely. He bent over and tightened the mounting screws on his rear sight with careful concentration. "You mean they had a machinegun?" Mary asked breathlessly. "Ahuh." He shrugged casually, and made sure the windage adjustment was traveling freely but precisely. "Had a bad time for a couple of minutes there." He pulled out the bolt assembly and squinted at the already immaculate walls of the chamber. "What did you do then? I'd have been awfully scared." He shrugged again. "Turned around and ran. It looked like only a couple of guys, but it smelled like more. No telling what they might have backing them up." He slipped the bolt back in and worked it a few times, spreading the lubricant evenly. "Tell you the truth, I kept thinking about those mortars Matt's got down by the river. No reason for them not to be set up the same way. Anyway, we pulled out. Ryder was on the portside turret--that's the left--and he hosed them down a little. Knocked them out, I guess, because we were still in range and they didn't do anything about it." He ran the lightly oiled rag over all of the rifle's exposed metal, set the safety, and slid in a freshly loaded clip. As he looked up, Jim caught his eye and winked, looking sidelong at Mary. Ted's cheeks reddened, and he shot a steely glance at his friend. "Well, I guess I'll turn in," he said lightly. His mother had gone inside a few moments before. He stretched and yawned. He slung the rifle on his shoulder. "Good night, everybody." "Good night, Ted," Mrs. Garvin smiled, looking up from her sewing. "G'nite, Ted," Jim said cuttingly. "Good night, Ted," Mary said. He raised his hand in a short, casual wave to her and walked through the connecting doorway, the heel of his hand resting easily against his rifle's butt. "Ted?" He winced faintly as he closed the door behind him. "Yes, Mom," he said quickly, before the apprehension in her voice could multiply itself. She came into the room, standing just inside. "Of course it's you," she said with a nervous smile. "I don't know who I thought it'd be." "Well, there's the bogeyman, and then there's ghoolies and ghosties..." He let his mock gravity trail off into a smile, and her face smoothed a little. "Can I get you some tea or something?" he asked, putting the rifle up on the rack he'd hung beside the door. "Why, yes, thanks. Are you going to sleep now?" "I guess so. I'm pretty tired," he said on his way to the kitchen. "I made your bed. Your room's just the way you left it." "Thanks, Mom," he said, letting himself smile with tolerant tenderness, in the kitchen where no one could see him. He brought the cupful of tea out to her, and she took it with a grateful smile. "It's good to have you home again," she said. "I rattled around in here, all by myself." "There's all those Garvins next door," he pointed out. She smiled lightly. "Not as many for me as there are for you. The kids get a little noisy sometimes, for my taste. Matt's busy all day, and he goes to sleep almost as soon as he eats. And Margaret's not as good company as she used to be." Her smile grew worried. "She's getting awfully gloomy, Ted. Matt's in his forties, and he's still carrying his rifle with the rest of the men. What would happen if he died?" "I guess he's got to, Mom. It's his responsibility. If he couldn't handle it, somebody else would be running things. He's doing a good job, too. I haven't heard many complaints about it." "I know, Ted. Margaret knows too. But that doesn't help, does it?" "No, I suppose not. Well, there isn't anything we can do about it, the way things are." He bent over and kissed her cheek. "Going to stay up for a while?" She nodded. "I think so, Ted. Good night." "Good night, Mom." He went down the hall to his room, undressed, and blew out the lamp. He lay awake, his eyes closed in the darkness. It was a hard life, for the women. He wondered if that was why Jack Holland wasn't married. He was twenty-nine already. Damn. Thirteen more years. Matt was either forty-two or three. Old Matt, who wouldn't be so old in any other time and place. Old Matt must have been young, nineteen-year-old Matt sometime, trying to stay alive in the first few months after the plague. The vague plague, that nobody knew much about because he could only know what had happened to him or those with him, and had no idea what it had been like all over the world. All over the world. There must be thousands of places like Manhattan, scattered out among the cities, with men like Matt and Jack in them, trying to organize, trying to get people together again. And, more than likely, there were thousands of guys like Ted Berendtsen, who ought to cut out this pointless mental jabbering and get some sleep, right... now. [Image]
"Man, I'm not going to like this," Jim Garvin said as they loaded up their packs and jammed extra clips into their bandoliers. Ted shrugged, smoking up his foresight to kill glare. "Be crazy if you did. But it's got to be done faster than we figured, I guess." "Pop say anything to you about it?" Ted shook his head. "Nope. But that report Jack and I brought back from Philly is what did it. We've got to have this area squared away in case they move up on us. They know where we came from." He settled his pack snugly onto his shoulders, and twisted his belt to get the Colt's holster settled more comfortably. He didn't usually carry a pistol, but this was going to be close-range work, once they flushed their men out from cover. The thing weighed a ton. "S'pose you're right," Jim admitted. Ted frowned slightly. Jim should at least have thought of the obvious question, as long as he was in a questioning frame of mind. He'd wondered about it himself, until he realized that the attempt to take all of the lower West Side in one operation had to be made. Just perhaps, the slow process that had worked on the East Side could be modified to fit, and there was time enough, more than likely, but that territory had been completely impenetrable for twenty years. The men in it knew every alley and back yard. Any attempt to take it piecemeal would mean an endless series of skirmishes with infiltrators. Of course, he had a year and some months on Jim. "Set?" Jack Holland came up to them, his pack bulging with ammunition, dynamite, and gasoline bombs, his rifle balanced in his hand. Ted nodded shortly, and was vaguely surprised to hear Jim say, "Yes, sir." He looked from Jim to Jack, and barely twitched an eyelid. Jack grinned faintly. "Okay, then, let's get formed up. Matt's taking the financial district, swinging up from the Battery. We go straight across town. Bill McGraw and another bunch are going in just below Forty-second Street." He grinned and gestured perfunctorily and ribaldly. "That's us--Lucky Pierre." Jim laughed, and Ted chuckled, winking at Jack again. The kid had been showing his nerves a little. The three of them crossed the street to where the rest of the men in their group were waiting, scattered inconspicuously among the cars and doorways from old, vital habit. Ted looked up at the sky. It was growing dark. They'd move out pretty soon. Jack dropped back and walked beside him. "Make sure Jim sticks pretty close to you, huh?" he said in a low voice. "I won't be able to keep much of an eye on him myself." "Sure," Ted answered. "I'll take care of him." For two nights and three days, what had once been the lower half of Hell's Kitchen had been tearing itself open. From that first cold morning when they had come out of their positions and dynamited their way into a packing plant, the slap of rifle fire and the occasional bellow of heavy sidearms had swept and echoed down the cluttered streets and wide, deadly avenues. Building by heavy building, they had blown gaps in walls, smashed windows, and shot their way from room to room in the first rush of surprise. Here and there, a firebomb had touched off a column of smoke that twisted fitfully in the breeze and light rain that had begun falling on the second day and was still coming down. A steady stream of runners was carrying ammunition up to them, and they supplied themselves from whatever miserable little they found, while scavenger squads cleaned up the weapons and ammunition left behind by corpses. Two days, three nights. They had started on the uptown side of Fourteenth Street, with covering squads to clean out the downtown side and leave them a clear supply route. They had reached Eighteenth Street by nightfall of the third day. Ted slumped his head back against a wall and fed cartridges into a clip. "How's it, Jim?" Jim Garvin rubbed his hand over his face and shook his head in a vague attempt to clear out some of the weariness. "It stinks." Ted put the full clip in his bandolier and started on another. He grinned faintly. "Yeah," he agreed. "You see Jack today?" "Nope. Think he's still around?" "Chances are. He was doing house-to-house when we were just tads, remember?" He opened his pack and threw Jim a can of meat. "Tie into this, huh? I've been saving some. The slop they've been eating here is enough to make you sick." Jim shuddered and exhaled through his clenched teeth. "God, isn't it just? All these bloody warehouses around here, too." He opened the can and dug into it gratefully. "A stinking set-up. Everybody just hung on to what they had, and to hell with you, buddy. Remember that bunch that'd been gettin' no vitamins except out of canned fruit?" "No organization at all," Jim agreed, "What the hell's wrong with these people?" Ted shrugged. "Nothing, I guess. But they had a bunch of forts all ready made for them. These freakin' warehouses were built to take it. And besides, they were warehouses. Up to the roof in supplies. Guess it looked like the simple way out." "How long d'you think we'll be at this mess?" "Depends. If Matt cleans up his end, we'll get a push from him. If McGraw comes down, we'll have 'em squeezed. I'd like it best if both happened, but I don't know--that Greenwich Village is a rat-trap, from what I hear, and McGraw's bound to be having it just as tough as we are. I wish I knew how this whole operation was going." "So long as Pop's all right, I don't give a hoot and a whoop for the rest of the operation. The part I worry about is right here." "Yeah, but the whole thing ties together," Ted explained. "That's for somebody else to worry about," Jim said. Ted looked at him thoughtfully. "Yeah. Guess you're right." For the first time, the thought struck him that it didn't look as if Jim was going to take over when his father left off. He was a good man with a rifle, and he never stopped after he started. But he didn't do his own worrying. That jarred him, somehow. He didn't like the thought, because Jim was a friend of his, and because he was a first-grade fighting man, just like his father. Only being a fighting man wasn't good enough any more. It was a bigger sphere of operations now. New factors were coming into the picture all the time. This entire move against the West Side was not a foraging expedition, or an organizing process, though both would result. It was primarily a strategic maneuver against the day when Philadelphia began to move up the coast. Matt had started out a rifleman and learned, bit by bit, at the same pace with which the world grew more complicated. But Jim wouldn't have that time to learn by practice what he didn't understand by instinct. He was too young, and Matt was too old to give him that time. What the hell, this was supposed to be a republic, wasn't it? A republic lived by developing different kinds of leaders as it needed them. But he didn't like the idea, nevertheless. He'd have to think it over, think it out, before he could accept it. "Might as well get some sleep, Jim," he said. "Looks like we've closed up the big shop for the night. I'll take the first watch." "Okay." Jim rolled over gratefully, and pillowed his head on his arms. Ted checked the action on his .45, which had jammed on him twice already. He handled the truckhorse of a gun distastefully. The only good thing about it was the same thing that was good about Matt's magnum rifle, which he wouldn't handle either. The things kicked like bombs, burned out their barrels, took nonstandard ammunition, were nuisances to maintain, and had all the subtlety of a club. But hit a man anywhere at all on his body with a bullet from one of them, and hydrostatic shock would knock him out, if not kill him. Which, to Ted's mind, was rarely an advantage. There was no point in killing a potentially good man if you could put him out of action some other way. None of which instruction-manual thinking, Ted reflected, was really effective in keeping him from worrying about his big problem. He was beginning to understand why Jack Holland had never really teamed up with Jim on any job. Once you considered things in the proper light, all sorts of evidence began turning up. Jack Holland. He hoped it would be Jack Holland who would be taking over from Matt, when the inevitable time came. A week, now. Jack had finally had to abandon the planned straight-forward sweep, block by parallel block, and had sent his right flank out to clean up as many of the uptown blocks east of Ninth Avenue as it could. On that side of what had become the border of the warehouse gangs' territory, the Republic's men had made contact with McGraw's group--Ryder's now--which had executed a duplicate movement. But, effectively, as far as the warehouse gangs were concerned, Garvin's forces were bogged down at Nineteenth Street and Thirty-first Street, with only minor penetrations into the periphery west of Ninth Avenue. Matt's personal forces were moving slowly out of Greenwich Village, with isolated pockets still to be mopped up in the almost ideal defensive positions that twisted alleys and cross-streets provided. But there, too, the actual core of resistance had hardly been bruised, for almost all the heavily built docks, warehouses, and docked ships were still holding out. Somehow, Ted had acquired a squad of his own from men who had fallen in with him. They were apparently willing to follow his suggestions without debating them, and, as long as he didn't seem to be making costly mistakes, he was perfectly willing to let it ride that way. They certainly weren't hindering him and Jim any. All of them were heavily stubbled and ragged by now, and none of them had had much sleep. The latter probably fogged their judgment, and the former operated in his favor as well, since his own beard, augmented by grime, was enough to hide the boyish roundness of his face. [Image] But the ammunition was running low. His head dropped forward and he jerked it up again, coming out of his doze. Jack twisted a grin at him. "Kinda tiresome, ain't it?" Ted grunted. "What d'you hear on the box?" he said, motioning toward the radio. "Ryder's coming down, Matt's coming up. We're going west. Speed: six inches per hour." "They tried that stunt with the PT's?" Holland snorted. "Ever try to torpedo a warehouse? They knocked out most of the freighters in the channel, which doesn't help us a goddamned bit." "We've got to crack those birds soon, Jack." "I know. We'll be firing Roman candles at them if this keeps up. You got any ideas?" "No." He dozed off again, leaning on a garbage can. Ten days, and he reached his conclusion. It was not an idea, he recognized, no more than Austerlitz or the shelling of Monte Cassino were ideas. It was a calculated decision based on the problem before him, reached in the light of the urgent necessity for the problem's solution. Again, as with many of his recent decisions, he did not like it when he came to it. But it was the product of logical extrapolation, based on rational thinking and personal knowledge which he could honestly believe he had analyzed completely. Once he recognized this last, he knew he had given himself no choice. "Problem is to get in close enough to dynamite the warehouses, right?" he said to Jack. "Ahuh. Been that way for some time, now. They've got those boys on the roofs of the houses all around them. They can cover them, and the lads in the houses keep us back. We clean out a house, they toss dynamite down and blow the house to shreds, leaving an exposed area we can't cross anyway. Can't go in at night, because this is their territory, booby-trapped. So?" "Wait for an east wind. Get one, and burn the houses. Go in under the smoke. Blow your way into the first floor, sit back, and wait for them to come out. They don't come out, blow the second floor." Holland whistled. He looked at Ted thoughtfully. "Kind of mean, isn't it? The guys in those houses get it either way--they come out while we're waiting in the street, or they burn." "Jesus Christ!" Jim said, staring at Ted. Berendtsen swayed wearily on his feet. Suddenly, he realized that he had done something neither Jack Holland nor Matt Garvin's son were capable of. He had reached a decision he hated, but would carry out, given the opportunity, because he knew that whether it was right or wrong on some cosmic balance scale, he believed it to be right. Or, not right--necessary. And he could trust that belief because he trusted himself. "All right," he said, his voice calm, "let's get on that radio and talk to Matt. We've got an old precedent for all this, you know," he added dryly. He led his sooty, weary men back along the broad length of Fourteenth Street, his left hand lost in a bulbous wrapping of bandage, his empty pack flapping between his shoulder blades. He and Jim and the rest of his squad were lost in the haphazard column of Matt Garvin's men, but his mind's eye separated his own from the rest. All the men were shuffling wordlessly up the street, weary past the bone, but he tried to read the faces of his squad. There had been many more men in the firing and dynamiting parties, but these had been the ones he led. He tried to discover whether the men who followed him thought he was right or wrong. But their faces were blank with exhaustion, and he could not let his own expression disclose the slightest anxiety. And then he realized what the hard part of being a man was. When they reached Stuyvesant at last, he found Matt Garvin. They looked at each other, he with his wounded hand and Matt with a shoulder almost dislocated by the magnum's repeated detonations. He drew one corner of his mouth up crookedly, and Matt nodded and smiled faintly. Now I know, Berendtsen thought. Silently, Ted Berendtsen walked up the stairs while Jim hung back. He ran his hand over his jaws, and his cheeks, under their temporary gauntness, were just as soft. His feet stumbled on the steps. Jesus Christ, I'm only sixteen! he thought. He grimaced faintly, at this last, illogical protest. Matt had a few more years. [Image]
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CHAPTER FOUR: This is what happened to Theodore Berendtsen when he was young, having grown up in the shadow of a heap of rubble with a weathering sign on top of it. That was all he had in the way of a portrait of his father. And this is what he did with it: Ted Berendtsen opened the hatch and shouted down over the growl of the PT boat's engines. "Narrows, Jack." Holland nodded, typed the final sentence of his report with two bobbing fingers, and got up. "What's the latest from Matt?" "Nothing new. I just checked with Ryder, on radio watch." Holland scrambled up on deck, stretching his stiff muscles. "Man, next time Matt sends out a mission, somebody else can go. I've had PT's." Ted nodded sourly. "I've had Philadelphia, too," he growled in conscious imitation of Jack's voice. For the hundredth time, he caught the faint smile on Jack's lips, and resolved, for the hundredth time, to stop his adolescent hero-worship. Or at least to tone it down. "Brotherly love. Wow!" He flushed. Boyish excitability was no improvement. Holland grunted and ran his eyes over the bright machine-gunned scars in the deck plywood. He shook his head. "That's a tough nut down there." Ted nodded solemn agreement, instantly stabbed himself with the realization of solemnity, flushed again, and finally shrugged his mental shoulders and, for the hundredth time, gave up on the whole problem of being sixteen. Instead, he watched the shoreline slip by, but soon found himself unable to resist Manhattan's lure. The skyscraper city bulked out the horizon in front of him, windows flashing in the sun. He knew Holland was watching the look on his face, and he cursed himself for being conscious of it just because Holland had gotten him his first man- size rifle and taught him how to use it. "Damn, it's big," he said. Jack nodded. "Big, all right. Wonder how much more of it's joined up since we left?" "Not the West Side, that's for sure." "Those boys aren't ever likely to budge," Holland said. Ted nodded. Too solemnly, again. Matt Garvin put the report down and sighed. Then he looked past Ted at Jack Holland with the quick sharpness of a man who knows that the other will understand him perfectly. "People in Philadelphia aren't any different, are they?" Jack smiled thinly, and Ted felt envy, as he always did whenever Jack and old Matt communicated in these sentences and short gestures that represented paragraphs of the past. He ruthlessly stifled a sigh of his own. When he and Jack had boarded the PT boat, a month before, he had vaguely hoped that something--some uncertain ordeal by fire or inconcise overwhelming experience--would give him that intangible which he recognized in Holland as manhood. He had hoped, as the PT growled slowly down the Jersey coast, that some sort of antagonist would put out from the shore or rise from the sea, and that, at the conclusion of the harrowing struggle, he would find himself spontaneously lean of cheek and jaw, carelessly poised of body, with automatically short and forceful sentences on his lips. But nothing had changed. "What do you think?" Matt asked him. The question caught him unaware. He realized he must have looked ridiculous with his absent gaze snapping precipitously back to Matt Garvin. "About Philadelphia?" he said hastily. "I think we'll have a hard time with them, Matt." Garvin nodded. "Which would mean you think we're bound to run into those people sometime, right?" "Ahuh." He caught the smile on Jack's lips again, and cursed inwardly. "Yes, I do," he amended. Damn, damn, damn! "Any special reason why you think so?" Ted shrugged uncomfortably. He thought about his father less than he should have, probably. He only vaguely remembered the big man--bigger than lifesize, doubtless, in a child's eyes--who had been so friendly. If he had seen his death, perhaps, he would have that missing thing to fill out his inadequacy--a cause, passed down, to be upheld and to which he could dedicate himself. But he had not seen his father die. Of it all, he remembered only his mother's grief, still vaguely terrifying whenever too closely thought of. He stood hopeless before Matt Garvin, with only reasoning to justify him. "I don't know exactly, Matt," he stumbled. "But they're down there with Pennsylvania and New Jersey in their laps whenever they need them. They're going to be crowding up this way in another twenty-five, thirty years. All we've got's Long Island, and it's not going to be enough to feed us by them. We're stuck out here on this island. They could pinch us off easy." He stopped, not knowing whether he'd said enough or too much. Garvin nodded again. "Sounds reasonable. But this report doesn't show any organization down there. How about that?" Ted glanced quickly at Jack. If Holland hadn't covered that in his report, it could only have been because he shared Ted's opinion that the true situation was self-evident. The thought occurred to him that Garvin was testing his reasoning. He felt even more unsure of himself now. "Well," he said finally, "I can't think of anything about Philadelphia that would make people down there much different from us. I don't see how they could have missed setting up some kind of organization. Maybe it works a little different from ours, because of some local factor, but it's bound to be basically the same." He stopped uncertainly. "I'm not making myself clear, am I?" he asked. "It's all right so far, Ted. Go on," Garvin said, betraying no impatience. "Well, it seems to me," Ted went on, some of his inward clumsiness evaporating, "that you'd have a tough time spotting our kind of organization if you just took a boat into the harbor, like we did in Philly. Chances are, you wouldn't run across our radio frequency. If you landed on the West Side, you'd run into the small outfits in the warehouses. Even if you happened to pick the organized territory--I don't know; if somebody came chugging up the river, I wouldn't be much likely to trust him, no matter what he tried to say. It's the same old story. You can't join up with anybody, anymore, unless it's on your own terms. There's been too much of our hard work and fighting done to keep our organization going. It doesn't really matter whether they've had to do the same for themselves. Each of us is in the right, as far as we're separately concerned. And it'd be a lot nicer, for us, if we were the ones who came out running things, because that's the only way we could be sure all that work of ours hadn't been for nothing." He stopped, thinking he'd finished, but as he did, another thought came to him. "It'd be different, if there were a lot of things to negotiate about. Then there'd be room to talk in. I guess, maybe, if we keep organizing, we'll work our way up to that point. But right now, it's a pretty clear-cut thing, one way or the other. Nobody's any better off than anybody else--if somebody was, we'd of heard from them by now. Looking at it from our viewpoint, then, it's a lot better for our organization if we do all the deciding on who joins up with us. So, if somebody from outside comes nosing around, the best thing to do is just discourage him." He broke off long enough to grin crookedly. "They sure discouraged us down at Philly. "All we ever saw of Philadelphia itself was the waterfront. I'd say that almost anything could be going on down there, and we couldn't spot it. You'd have to go deep into the town itself, into the residential area. The same way that somebody coming into Manhattan would have to get to the lower East Side. And I guess we're pretty sure no stranger's going to get that chance." "Hmmm." Garvin was grinning at Jack, and Holland was smiling back. Ted stood awkwardly, looking from one to the other. "All right, Ted," Garvin said, turning back to him. "Looks to me like you kept your eyes open and your brain working." Faintly surprised, Ted acknowledged to himself that he probably had. But he'd devoted no special effort to it, and he'd certainly done nothing else to distinguish himself. The brief engagement in Philadelphia's harbor had offered none of the many hoped-for opportunities to shed his adolescence. All in all, he didn't know how to answer Matt now, and he was deeply grateful that no answer seemed to be expected. "I guess that's it, Ted. You might as well go home. Margaret'll have supper going by now. Tell her I'll be along in a while, will you? You and Jack take it easy for a day or two. I'll be giving you something else to do pretty soon." "Right, Matt. See you tonight." That, too, he thought, had been too crisply casual. He noticed that Jack had started to say something himself--probably the same thing, in effect, and had stopped abruptly, with that same half-concealed, knowing smile at Garvin. Damn, damn, God damn! [Image]
[Image] "Well, that's that," Holland said outside Matt's headquarters. He stretched luxuriously, his eyes grinning. He slapped Ted's shoulder lightly. "I'll see you tomorrow," he said, and walked off, his stride catlike, easily holding his slung rifle straight up and down with the heel of his hand against its butt. Ted smiled. Jack had been cooped up on the boat for a month. The adjective "catlike" was as easily applied to his frame of mind as to his walk. Ted smiled again. Ruefully. He hitched his own rifle sling higher up on his shoulder and walked determinedly toward the Garvins' apartment. Ever since his father's death, Ted and his mother had more or less been staying with the Garvins. Their apartments adjoined, and up to the time that Ted had earned the right to carry his own rifle, both families had been equally under Matt's protection. Ted had been raised with Jim and Mary Garvin--discounting Bob, who was five years younger than Ted, and therefore even more useless than Mary as a companion. Recently, of course, Mary had been acquiring greater significance, even if she was only thirteen. She seemed to him admittedly more mature of mind than other girls her age, most of whom Ted ignored completely. He bent over and tightened the mounting screws on his rear sight with careful concentration. "You mean they had a machinegun?" Mary asked breathlessly. "Ahuh." He shrugged casually, and made sure the windage adjustment was traveling freely but precisely. "Had a bad time for a couple of minutes there." He pulled out the bolt assembly and squinted at the already immaculate walls of the chamber. "What did you do then? I'd have been awfully scared." He shrugged again. "Turned around and ran. It looked like only a couple of guys, but it smelled like more. No telling what they might have backing them up." He slipped the bolt back in and worked it a few times, spreading the lubricant evenly. "Tell you the truth, I kept thinking about those mortars Matt's got down by the river. No reason for them not to be set up the same way. Anyway, we pulled out. Ryder was on the portside turret--that's the left--and he hosed them down a little. Knocked them out, I guess, because we were still in range and they didn't do anything about it." He ran the lightly oiled rag over all of the rifle's exposed metal, set the safety, and slid in a freshly loaded clip. As he looked up, Jim caught his eye and winked, looking sidelong at Mary. Ted's cheeks reddened, and he shot a steely glance at his friend. "Well, I guess I'll turn in," he said lightly. His mother had gone inside a few moments before. He stretched and yawned. He slung the rifle on his shoulder. "Good night, everybody." "Good night, Ted," Mrs. Garvin smiled, looking up from her sewing. "G'nite, Ted," Jim said cuttingly. "Good night, Ted," Mary said. He raised his hand in a short, casual wave to her and walked through the connecting doorway, the heel of his hand resting easily against his rifle's butt. "Ted?" He winced faintly as he closed the door behind him. "Yes, Mom," he said quickly, before the apprehension in her voice could multiply itself. She came into the room, standing just inside. "Of course it's you," she said with a nervous smile. "I don't know who I thought it'd be." "Well, there's the bogeyman, and then there's ghoolies and ghosties..." He let his mock gravity trail off into a smile, and her face smoothed a little. "Can I get you some tea or something?" he asked, putting the rifle up on the rack he'd hung beside the door. "Why, yes, thanks. Are you going to sleep now?" "I guess so. I'm pretty tired," he said on his way to the kitchen. "I made your bed. Your room's just the way you left it." "Thanks, Mom," he said, letting himself smile with tolerant tenderness, in the kitchen where no one could see him. He brought the cupful of tea out to her, and she took it with a grateful smile. "It's good to have you home again," she said. "I rattled around in here, all by myself." "There's all those Garvins next door," he pointed out. She smiled lightly. "Not as many for me as there are for you. The kids get a little noisy sometimes, for my taste. Matt's busy all day, and he goes to sleep almost as soon as he eats. And Margaret's not as good company as she used to be." Her smile grew worried. "She's getting awfully gloomy, Ted. Matt's in his forties, and he's still carrying his rifle with the rest of the men. What would happen if he died?" "I guess he's got to, Mom. It's his responsibility. If he couldn't handle it, somebody else would be running things. He's doing a good job, too. I haven't heard many complaints about it." "I know, Ted. Margaret knows too. But that doesn't help, does it?" "No, I suppose not. Well, there isn't anything we can do about it, the way things are." He bent over and kissed her cheek. "Going to stay up for a while?" She nodded. "I think so, Ted. Good night." "Good night, Mom." He went down the hall to his room, undressed, and blew out the lamp. He lay awake, his eyes closed in the darkness. It was a hard life, for the women. He wondered if that was why Jack Holland wasn't married. He was twenty-nine already. Damn. Thirteen more years. Matt was either forty-two or three. Old Matt, who wouldn't be so old in any other time and place. Old Matt must have been young, nineteen-year-old Matt sometime, trying to stay alive in the first few months after the plague. The vague plague, that nobody knew much about because he could only know what had happened to him or those with him, and had no idea what it had been like all over the world. All over the world. There must be thousands of places like Manhattan, scattered out among the cities, with men like Matt and Jack in them, trying to organize, trying to get people together again. And, more than likely, there were thousands of guys like Ted Berendtsen, who ought to cut out this pointless mental jabbering and get some sleep, right... now. [Image]
"Man, I'm not going to like this," Jim Garvin said as they loaded up their packs and jammed extra clips into their bandoliers. Ted shrugged, smoking up his foresight to kill glare. "Be crazy if you did. But it's got to be done faster than we figured, I guess." "Pop say anything to you about it?" Ted shook his head. "Nope. But that report Jack and I brought back from Philly is what did it. We've got to have this area squared away in case they move up on us. They know where we came from." He settled his pack snugly onto his shoulders, and twisted his belt to get the Colt's holster settled more comfortably. He didn't usually carry a pistol, but this was going to be close-range work, once they flushed their men out from cover. The thing weighed a ton. "S'pose you're right," Jim admitted. Ted frowned slightly. Jim should at least have thought of the obvious question, as long as he was in a questioning frame of mind. He'd wondered about it himself, until he realized that the attempt to take all of the lower West Side in one operation had to be made. Just perhaps, the slow process that had worked on the East Side could be modified to fit, and there was time enough, more than likely, but that territory had been completely impenetrable for twenty years. The men in it knew every alley and back yard. Any attempt to take it piecemeal would mean an endless series of skirmishes with infiltrators. Of course, he had a year and some months on Jim. "Set?" Jack Holland came up to them, his pack bulging with ammunition, dynamite, and gasoline bombs, his rifle balanced in his hand. Ted nodded shortly, and was vaguely surprised to hear Jim say, "Yes, sir." He looked from Jim to Jack, and barely twitched an eyelid. Jack grinned faintly. "Okay, then, let's get formed up. Matt's taking the financial district, swinging up from the Battery. We go straight across town. Bill McGraw and another bunch are going in just below Forty-second Street." He grinned and gestured perfunctorily and ribaldly. "That's us--Lucky Pierre." Jim laughed, and Ted chuckled, winking at Jack again. The kid had been showing his nerves a little. The three of them crossed the street to where the rest of the men in their group were waiting, scattered inconspicuously among the cars and doorways from old, vital habit. Ted looked up at the sky. It was growing dark. They'd move out pretty soon. Jack dropped back and walked beside him. "Make sure Jim sticks pretty close to you, huh?" he said in a low voice. "I won't be able to keep much of an eye on him myself." "Sure," Ted answered. "I'll take care of him." For two nights and three days, what had once been the lower half of Hell's Kitchen had been tearing itself open. From that first cold morning when they had come out of their positions and dynamited their way into a packing plant, the slap of rifle fire and the occasional bellow of heavy sidearms had swept and echoed down the cluttered streets and wide, deadly avenues. Building by heavy building, they had blown gaps in walls, smashed windows, and shot their way from room to room in the first rush of surprise. Here and there, a firebomb had touched off a column of smoke that twisted fitfully in the breeze and light rain that had begun falling on the second day and was still coming down. A steady stream of runners was carrying ammunition up to them, and they supplied themselves from whatever miserable little they found, while scavenger squads cleaned up the weapons and ammunition left behind by corpses. Two days, three nights. They had started on the uptown side of Fourteenth Street, with covering squads to clean out the downtown side and leave them a clear supply route. They had reached Eighteenth Street by nightfall of the third day. Ted slumped his head back against a wall and fed cartridges into a clip. "How's it, Jim?" Jim Garvin rubbed his hand over his face and shook his head in a vague attempt to clear out some of the weariness. "It stinks." Ted put the full clip in his bandolier and started on another. He grinned faintly. "Yeah," he agreed. "You see Jack today?" "Nope. Think he's still around?" "Chances are. He was doing house-to-house when we were just tads, remember?" He opened his pack and threw Jim a can of meat. "Tie into this, huh? I've been saving some. The slop they've been eating here is enough to make you sick." Jim shuddered and exhaled through his clenched teeth. "God, isn't it just? All these bloody warehouses around here, too." He opened the can and dug into it gratefully. "A stinking set-up. Everybody just hung on to what they had, and to hell with you, buddy. Remember that bunch that'd been gettin' no vitamins except out of canned fruit?" "No organization at all," Jim agreed, "What the hell's wrong with these people?" Ted shrugged. "Nothing, I guess. But they had a bunch of forts all ready made for them. These freakin' warehouses were built to take it. And besides, they were warehouses. Up to the roof in supplies. Guess it looked like the simple way out." "How long d'you think we'll be at this mess?" "Depends. If Matt cleans up his end, we'll get a push from him. If McGraw comes down, we'll have 'em squeezed. I'd like it best if both happened, but I don't know--that Greenwich Village is a rat-trap, from what I hear, and McGraw's bound to be having it just as tough as we are. I wish I knew how this whole operation was going." "So long as Pop's all right, I don't give a hoot and a whoop for the rest of the operation. The part I worry about is right here." "Yeah, but the whole thing ties together," Ted explained. "That's for somebody else to worry about," Jim said. Ted looked at him thoughtfully. "Yeah. Guess you're right." For the first time, the thought struck him that it didn't look as if Jim was going to take over when his father left off. He was a good man with a rifle, and he never stopped after he started. But he didn't do his own worrying. That jarred him, somehow. He didn't like the thought, because Jim was a friend of his, and because he was a first-grade fighting man, just like his father. Only being a fighting man wasn't good enough any more. It was a bigger sphere of operations now. New factors were coming into the picture all the time. This entire move against the West Side was not a foraging expedition, or an organizing process, though both would result. It was primarily a strategic maneuver against the day when Philadelphia began to move up the coast. Matt had started out a rifleman and learned, bit by bit, at the same pace with which the world grew more complicated. But Jim wouldn't have that time to learn by practice what he didn't understand by instinct. He was too young, and Matt was too old to give him that time. What the hell, this was supposed to be a republic, wasn't it? A republic lived by developing different kinds of leaders as it needed them. But he didn't like the idea, nevertheless. He'd have to think it over, think it out, before he could accept it. "Might as well get some sleep, Jim," he said. "Looks like we've closed up the big shop for the night. I'll take the first watch." "Okay." Jim rolled over gratefully, and pillowed his head on his arms. Ted checked the action on his .45, which had jammed on him twice already. He handled the truckhorse of a gun distastefully. The only good thing about it was the same thing that was good about Matt's magnum rifle, which he wouldn't handle either. The things kicked like bombs, burned out their barrels, took nonstandard ammunition, were nuisances to maintain, and had all the subtlety of a club. But hit a man anywhere at all on his body with a bullet from one of them, and hydrostatic shock would knock him out, if not kill him. Which, to Ted's mind, was rarely an advantage. There was no point in killing a potentially good man if you could put him out of action some other way. None of which instruction-manual thinking, Ted reflected, was really effective in keeping him from worrying about his big problem. He was beginning to understand why Jack Holland had never really teamed up with Jim on any job. Once you considered things in the proper light, all sorts of evidence began turning up. Jack Holland. He hoped it would be Jack Holland who would be taking over from Matt, when the inevitable time came. A week, now. Jack had finally had to abandon the planned straight-forward sweep, block by parallel block, and had sent his right flank out to clean up as many of the uptown blocks east of Ninth Avenue as it could. On that side of what had become the border of the warehouse gangs' territory, the Republic's men had made contact with McGraw's group--Ryder's now--which had executed a duplicate movement. But, effectively, as far as the warehouse gangs were concerned, Garvin's forces were bogged down at Nineteenth Street and Thirty-first Street, with only minor penetrations into the periphery west of Ninth Avenue. Matt's personal forces were moving slowly out of Greenwich Village, with isolated pockets still to be mopped up in the almost ideal defensive positions that twisted alleys and cross-streets provided. But there, too, the actual core of resistance had hardly been bruised, for almost all the heavily built docks, warehouses, and docked ships were still holding out. Somehow, Ted had acquired a squad of his own from men who had fallen in with him. They were apparently willing to follow his suggestions without debating them, and, as long as he didn't seem to be making costly mistakes, he was perfectly willing to let it ride that way. They certainly weren't hindering him and Jim any. All of them were heavily stubbled and ragged by now, and none of them had had much sleep. The latter probably fogged their judgment, and the former operated in his favor as well, since his own beard, augmented by grime, was enough to hide the boyish roundness of his face. [Image] But the ammunition was running low. His head dropped forward and he jerked it up again, coming out of his doze. Jack twisted a grin at him. "Kinda tiresome, ain't it?" Ted grunted. "What d'you hear on the box?" he said, motioning toward the radio. "Ryder's coming down, Matt's coming up. We're going west. Speed: six inches per hour." "They tried that stunt with the PT's?" Holland snorted. "Ever try to torpedo a warehouse? They knocked out most of the freighters in the channel, which doesn't help us a goddamned bit." "We've got to crack those birds soon, Jack." "I know. We'll be firing Roman candles at them if this keeps up. You got any ideas?" "No." He dozed off again, leaning on a garbage can. Ten days, and he reached his conclusion. It was not an idea, he recognized, no more than Austerlitz or the shelling of Monte Cassino were ideas. It was a calculated decision based on the problem before him, reached in the light of the urgent necessity for the problem's solution. Again, as with many of his recent decisions, he did not like it when he came to it. But it was the product of logical extrapolation, based on rational thinking and personal knowledge which he could honestly believe he had analyzed completely. Once he recognized this last, he knew he had given himself no choice. "Problem is to get in close enough to dynamite the warehouses, right?" he said to Jack. "Ahuh. Been that way for some time, now. They've got those boys on the roofs of the houses all around them. They can cover them, and the lads in the houses keep us back. We clean out a house, they toss dynamite down and blow the house to shreds, leaving an exposed area we can't cross anyway. Can't go in at night, because this is their territory, booby-trapped. So?" "Wait for an east wind. Get one, and burn the houses. Go in under the smoke. Blow your way into the first floor, sit back, and wait for them to come out. They don't come out, blow the second floor." Holland whistled. He looked at Ted thoughtfully. "Kind of mean, isn't it? The guys in those houses get it either way--they come out while we're waiting in the street, or they burn." "Jesus Christ!" Jim said, staring at Ted. Berendtsen swayed wearily on his feet. Suddenly, he realized that he had done something neither Jack Holland nor Matt Garvin's son were capable of. He had reached a decision he hated, but would carry out, given the opportunity, because he knew that whether it was right or wrong on some cosmic balance scale, he believed it to be right. Or, not right--necessary. And he could trust that belief because he trusted himself. "All right," he said, his voice calm, "let's get on that radio and talk to Matt. We've got an old precedent for all this, you know," he added dryly. He led his sooty, weary men back along the broad length of Fourteenth Street, his left hand lost in a bulbous wrapping of bandage, his empty pack flapping between his shoulder blades. He and Jim and the rest of his squad were lost in the haphazard column of Matt Garvin's men, but his mind's eye separated his own from the rest. All the men were shuffling wordlessly up the street, weary past the bone, but he tried to read the faces of his squad. There had been many more men in the firing and dynamiting parties, but these had been the ones he led. He tried to discover whether the men who followed him thought he was right or wrong. But their faces were blank with exhaustion, and he could not let his own expression disclose the slightest anxiety. And then he realized what the hard part of being a man was. When they reached Stuyvesant at last, he found Matt Garvin. They looked at each other, he with his wounded hand and Matt with a shoulder almost dislocated by the magnum's repeated detonations. He drew one corner of his mouth up crookedly, and Matt nodded and smiled faintly. Now I know, Berendtsen thought. Silently, Ted Berendtsen walked up the stairs while Jim hung back. He ran his hand over his jaws, and his cheeks, under their temporary gauntness, were just as soft. His feet stumbled on the steps. Jesus Christ, I'm only sixteen! he thought. He grimaced faintly, at this last, illogical protest. Matt had a few more years. [Image]
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