"being_in_dreaming" - читать интересную книгу автора (Castaneda Carlos)

barriers of perception, according to Don Juan, is that we need
energy. All our energy is already deployed in the world to
present the idea of self- what we are, who we want to be
perceived as, how other people perceive us. So Don Juan says 90%
of our energy is deployed in doing that, and nothing new can come
to us. There's nothing open to us, because no matter how
"egoless" we are, or we pretend to be, or we want to believe we
are, we are not. Even let's say "enlightened" people, or gurus
that I have met- at one time Carlos Castaneda was going around
trying to meet gurus- and the ego of those people was so
gigantic, in how they wanted to be perceived in the world . And
that's, according to Don Juan, exactly what kills us. Nothing
is open to us anymore.

ABE: A real Nagual, a real seer wouldn't care how the world
perceives them, particularly, would they?

FLORINDA D: No, they don't. But they still have to fight it.
Castaneda has been at this for thirty years. I've been at this
for over twenty years, and it's ongoing; it doesn't stop.

ABE: What's the nature of the battle? Because you use the
language of the warrior. What's the nature of the battle? What
are you fighting?

FLORINDA D: The self.

ABE: The self.

FLORINDA D: It's not even the self; it's an idea of the self,
because if we would really get the self below the surface, we
don't really know what it is. And it is possible to curtail this
idea, this bombastic idea we have of the self. Because whether
it's a negative idea or a positive idea doesn't really matter.
The energy employed to sustain that idea is the same.

ABE: So there's tremendous emphasis in this tradition on
overcoming what is called self-importance.

FLORINDA D: Self-importance, exactly. That's the main battle.
To shut off our internal dialogue. Because even if we're isolated
someplace, we are still constantly talking to ourselves. That
internal dialogue never stops. And what does the internal
dialogue do? It always justifies itself, no matter what. We
replay things, events, what we could have said or could have
done, what we feel or don't feel. The emphasis is always on me.
We're constantly spouting this mantra- me...me...me, silently
or verbally.

ABE So, an opening emerges when...