"being_in_dreaming" - читать интересную книгу автора (Castaneda Carlos)

FLORINDA D: ...when that dialogue shuts off. Automatically. We
don't have to do anything. And the reason people reject Castaneda
as not true is because it's too simple. But its sheer simplicity
makes it the hardest thing there is to do for us. There are about
six people in our world engaged in the same pursuit. And the
difficulty we all have is totally shutting off that internal
dialogue. It's fine if we're not threatened. But when certain
buttons arc pushed, our reactions arc so ingrained in us that
it's so easy to go back on automatic pilot. You see, there's one
great exercise that Don Juan prescribes- the idea of
recapitulation. The idea is that you recapitulate your life,
basically. And it's not a psychological recapitulation. You
want to bring back that energy you left in all the interactions
you've had with people throughout your life, and you start of
course from the present moment and you go backwards in lime. But
if you really do a good recapitulation, you discover, by the
time you are three or four years old, you have learned all your
reactions already. Then we become more sophisticated, we can hide
them better, but basically the pattern has already been
established, how we're going to interact with the world and with
our fellow human beings.

ABE: So here is the image, then, or the awareness of a kind human
being who is travelling a parallel path to the world of the
Tonal, or the world of the person, the social person. This other
world, his other opening, is something that has apparently always
been there.

FLORINDA D: Yes, it's always there. It's available to all of us.
Nobody wants to tap into it, or people think they want to tap
into it, but as Don Juan pointed out, the seeker is involved in
something else, because a person who seeks already knows what
he's seeking.

ABE: Yes, that's clear.

FLORINDA D: The disappointment that so many people who are
"seekers" have with Castaneda is because, when he talks to them,
well, they have already made up their mind how things should be.
And they are not open. Even if they're listening, they're not
open to anything anymore, because they already know how it should
be, what it is they're seeking.

ABE: My version of that is that I am not interested in
self-improvement. I'm interested in self-realization, but not im-
provement, and I'm not concerned with whether or not what I turn
out to be in the process of recapitulation is something nice and
spiritual and acceptable, because it's going to contain elements
of madness as well as everything else.