I found Arkana and
asked if she wanted to go flying, nodding to indicate that she
really did want to make a tour of the upper air. For the benefit of
the curious I mentioned wanting to check rumors that troops loyal
to the Protectorate were headed toward the city. One force had
crossed the Main at Vehdna-Bota. Another was gathering out east,
near Mukhra in Ajitsthan, where Mogaba had enjoyed considerable
popularity among the tribes. Since those rumors were beginning to
make a lot of people nervous nobody would be surprised that I would
want to take a look.
And that is what we did while we were aloft, because it was work
that had to be done. Doing the work, though, gave me time to talk
to Arkana.
She replied, “I can see one big problem with your plan.
Maybe. What happens to the plain and the shadowgates? You asked me
if I wanted to go home. The answer is yes. I don’t think to
stay, though. Just to see what happened there. To bury my dead, I
guess you could say. But I don’t see how that could keep from
complicating everything else if I had to do it first because there
wouldn’t be any way later.”
“You’re right. And I need to do what I’ve got
to do as soon as I can. Before Kina catches on.” If she had
not foreseen the possibilities already. Or learned of them from
Goblin. Or Shivetya. Or from Lady, who was smart enough to guess
what I was thinking. Sometimes. “Particularly before my wife
catches on. Or starts thinking I’m chasing around.”
We were approaching the River Main, heading for Vehdna-Bota.
There were pillars of smoke north of the ford, away from the small
settlement. But not many.
Arkana told me, “That’s not much of an
army.”
“Not in any hurry to get into harm’s way, either,
looks like. There’s plenty of daylight left they could use
for traveling.”
Not in any hurry. When we went down for a closer look we found
men scattering like startled roaches.
“Somebody covering his ass,” I said. “Making a
show of honoring his obligations. That bunch will never actually
get to Taglios.”
We went back up. We talked, not just about what had to be
accomplished. Arkana seemed able to relax, now. Seemed to have made
peace with the bad times. Some manage that with comparative ease.
Others remain crippled for life. Those are not the sort who remain
soldiers. They become ex-soldiers and get intimate with wine or
poppies.
I asked about her leg.
She laughed. “I can be one of the old folks now. I can use
it to predict the weather.”
“It’s all right otherwise?”
“Yes.”
“I do good work.”
“Lots of practice.”
“You get that in this racket.”
We flew back toward Taglios, chatting in a relaxed way, me
thinking that this was what it would have been like had
Booboo grown up with her parents. Me fooling myself. Lying to
myself. No child would grow up even as normal as Arkana if they had
Lady for a mother and me for a father.
Maybe I had found the way. Adopt them after they have gotten
through their formative years.
We were passing south of Taglios, going to scout the forces
gathering in Ajitsthan, when Arkana spotted a billowing figure
climbing toward us. “That’s Shukrat.”
“Have you two made peace? Real peace?”
“Sort of. Mainly because we’ve only got each other.
From back home. If it wasn’t for that we wouldn’t even
be talking. Partly it’s because of family stuff. Things our
parents did to each other. And partly it’s us. She’s
too cute and too sweet and dumb as a bucket of rocks. But all
she’s ever had to do is make big eyes or bounce a little and
look helpless.”
“And you were the smart one. Always expected to figure it
out for yourself.”
“Yes.”
“Well, you’re growing up to be the prettier one,
too. Shukrat’s going to be all freckles and frump before
long.”
We slowed so Shukrat could catch up. She came up on my other
side. I asked, “What’s up, other daughter?”
“Croaker, I wanted to talk about what happened to those
men on that island. That scares me. Really bad. I really like Tobo.
A lot.” I was sure she was bright red behind her facial
wraps. She did blush easily. “But I don’t think I want
to be involved with anyone capable of doing that.”
“We’re all capable of that, Shukrat. Put in the
right place at the right time and given a motive. It’s the
people around us that keep us from doing it.”
“What do you mean?”
“I mean, Tobo cares about you. Probably a lot more than
he’s willing to admit. He’s a passionate kid.
“Because he’s what he is he’s always had the
capacity for huge evil, Shukrat. You know, nobody starts out to be
a villain. Not the Shadowmasters. Not my wife or her sister. Not
even the Voroshk. But being powerful can turn you villainous.
Because there’s nothing to stop you from doing whatever you
want to do. Except for something inside you. For Tobo, for a long
time, that something was his love and respect for his parents. He
fought with Sahra every day but there was no way he was ever going
to do something that would disappoint her. While she was alive.
After she disappeared the brake on his dark side became his father.
But now Murgen is gone, too. So there’s only one more person
whose good opinion is important enough to him to keep him from
letting himself go.”
Shukrat had to think about that for a while. She was nowhere as
dim as Arkana claimed but there were times when it took her a while
to get her mind wrapped all the way around complex issues.
“You’re saying me caring about him is what will keep
him from doing that stuff again?”
“Yes. I think that. But I also think you have to confront
him with your knowledge and make him understand that you
won’t accept any excuses for behavior like that. Don’t
nag. Don’t carp. State your case firmly and clearly, then
shut up. Don’t negotiate. You have to mark out an absolute
limit he’ll always know is there. And stick with it. You
always have to know it’s there, too.”
Shukrat nodded.
While I waited to see if she got it I told Arkana, “I
might turn out to be pretty good at this fatherly advice
stuff.”
“You’re definitely long-winded enough.”
“Thanks a lot.”
“For the record, I think you’re right. What you said
to her.”
“You know what she’s talking about?”
“She warned me. In case I wanted to watch out for General
Singh. Not long after you warned me about it. I had to go see what
you were excited about, didn’t I?”
The girl rose in my estimation every damned day.
The force gathering at Mukhra was much more of a threat than
that at Vehdna-Bota. It would mean major new trouble if Aridatha,
as the new Great General, was unable to sell the concept of peace
to Mogaba’s old allies.
I found Arkana and
asked if she wanted to go flying, nodding to indicate that she
really did want to make a tour of the upper air. For the benefit of
the curious I mentioned wanting to check rumors that troops loyal
to the Protectorate were headed toward the city. One force had
crossed the Main at Vehdna-Bota. Another was gathering out east,
near Mukhra in Ajitsthan, where Mogaba had enjoyed considerable
popularity among the tribes. Since those rumors were beginning to
make a lot of people nervous nobody would be surprised that I would
want to take a look.
And that is what we did while we were aloft, because it was work
that had to be done. Doing the work, though, gave me time to talk
to Arkana.
She replied, “I can see one big problem with your plan.
Maybe. What happens to the plain and the shadowgates? You asked me
if I wanted to go home. The answer is yes. I don’t think to
stay, though. Just to see what happened there. To bury my dead, I
guess you could say. But I don’t see how that could keep from
complicating everything else if I had to do it first because there
wouldn’t be any way later.”
“You’re right. And I need to do what I’ve got
to do as soon as I can. Before Kina catches on.” If she had
not foreseen the possibilities already. Or learned of them from
Goblin. Or Shivetya. Or from Lady, who was smart enough to guess
what I was thinking. Sometimes. “Particularly before my wife
catches on. Or starts thinking I’m chasing around.”
We were approaching the River Main, heading for Vehdna-Bota.
There were pillars of smoke north of the ford, away from the small
settlement. But not many.
Arkana told me, “That’s not much of an
army.”
“Not in any hurry to get into harm’s way, either,
looks like. There’s plenty of daylight left they could use
for traveling.”
Not in any hurry. When we went down for a closer look we found
men scattering like startled roaches.
“Somebody covering his ass,” I said. “Making a
show of honoring his obligations. That bunch will never actually
get to Taglios.”
We went back up. We talked, not just about what had to be
accomplished. Arkana seemed able to relax, now. Seemed to have made
peace with the bad times. Some manage that with comparative ease.
Others remain crippled for life. Those are not the sort who remain
soldiers. They become ex-soldiers and get intimate with wine or
poppies.
I asked about her leg.
She laughed. “I can be one of the old folks now. I can use
it to predict the weather.”
“It’s all right otherwise?”
“Yes.”
“I do good work.”
“Lots of practice.”
“You get that in this racket.”
We flew back toward Taglios, chatting in a relaxed way, me
thinking that this was what it would have been like had
Booboo grown up with her parents. Me fooling myself. Lying to
myself. No child would grow up even as normal as Arkana if they had
Lady for a mother and me for a father.
Maybe I had found the way. Adopt them after they have gotten
through their formative years.
We were passing south of Taglios, going to scout the forces
gathering in Ajitsthan, when Arkana spotted a billowing figure
climbing toward us. “That’s Shukrat.”
“Have you two made peace? Real peace?”
“Sort of. Mainly because we’ve only got each other.
From back home. If it wasn’t for that we wouldn’t even
be talking. Partly it’s because of family stuff. Things our
parents did to each other. And partly it’s us. She’s
too cute and too sweet and dumb as a bucket of rocks. But all
she’s ever had to do is make big eyes or bounce a little and
look helpless.”
“And you were the smart one. Always expected to figure it
out for yourself.”
“Yes.”
“Well, you’re growing up to be the prettier one,
too. Shukrat’s going to be all freckles and frump before
long.”
We slowed so Shukrat could catch up. She came up on my other
side. I asked, “What’s up, other daughter?”
“Croaker, I wanted to talk about what happened to those
men on that island. That scares me. Really bad. I really like Tobo.
A lot.” I was sure she was bright red behind her facial
wraps. She did blush easily. “But I don’t think I want
to be involved with anyone capable of doing that.”
“We’re all capable of that, Shukrat. Put in the
right place at the right time and given a motive. It’s the
people around us that keep us from doing it.”
“What do you mean?”
“I mean, Tobo cares about you. Probably a lot more than
he’s willing to admit. He’s a passionate kid.
“Because he’s what he is he’s always had the
capacity for huge evil, Shukrat. You know, nobody starts out to be
a villain. Not the Shadowmasters. Not my wife or her sister. Not
even the Voroshk. But being powerful can turn you villainous.
Because there’s nothing to stop you from doing whatever you
want to do. Except for something inside you. For Tobo, for a long
time, that something was his love and respect for his parents. He
fought with Sahra every day but there was no way he was ever going
to do something that would disappoint her. While she was alive.
After she disappeared the brake on his dark side became his father.
But now Murgen is gone, too. So there’s only one more person
whose good opinion is important enough to him to keep him from
letting himself go.”
Shukrat had to think about that for a while. She was nowhere as
dim as Arkana claimed but there were times when it took her a while
to get her mind wrapped all the way around complex issues.
“You’re saying me caring about him is what will keep
him from doing that stuff again?”
“Yes. I think that. But I also think you have to confront
him with your knowledge and make him understand that you
won’t accept any excuses for behavior like that. Don’t
nag. Don’t carp. State your case firmly and clearly, then
shut up. Don’t negotiate. You have to mark out an absolute
limit he’ll always know is there. And stick with it. You
always have to know it’s there, too.”
Shukrat nodded.
While I waited to see if she got it I told Arkana, “I
might turn out to be pretty good at this fatherly advice
stuff.”
“You’re definitely long-winded enough.”
“Thanks a lot.”
“For the record, I think you’re right. What you said
to her.”
“You know what she’s talking about?”
“She warned me. In case I wanted to watch out for General
Singh. Not long after you warned me about it. I had to go see what
you were excited about, didn’t I?”
The girl rose in my estimation every damned day.
The force gathering at Mukhra was much more of a threat than
that at Vehdna-Bota. It would mean major new trouble if Aridatha,
as the new Great General, was unable to sell the concept of peace
to Mogaba’s old allies.