"A Maze Of Death v1.0" - читать интересную книгу автора (Dick Phillip K)

I'll pile her stuff outside, he decided, and then get all of mine aboard. It's her own fault: she should be here to help. I'm under no mandate to load her kipple.
As he stood there with an armload of clothes gripped tightly he saw, in the gloom of twilight, a figure approaching him. Who is it? he wondered, and peered to see.
It was not Mary. A man, he saw, or rather something like a man. A figure in a loose robe, with long hair falling down his dark, full shoulders. Seth Morley felt fear. The Walker-on-Earth, he realized. Come to stop me. Shaking, he began to set down the armload of clothes. Within him his conscience bit furiously; he felt now the complete weight of all the baddoings he had done. Months, years--he had not seen the Walker-on-Earth for a long time, and the weight was intolerable. The accumulation which always left its mark within. Which never departed until the Intercessor removed it.
The figure halted before him. "Mr. Morley," it said.
"Yes," he said, and felt his scalp bleeding perspiration. His face dripped with it and he tried to wipe it away with the back of his hand. "I'm tired," he said. "I've been working for hours to get this noser loaded. It's a big job."
The Walker-on-Earth said, "Your noser, the _Morbid Chicken_, will not get you and your little family to DelmakO. I therefore must interfere, my dear friend. Do you understand?"
"Sure," he said, panting with guilt.
"Select another."
"Yes," he said, nodding frantically. "Yes, I will. And thank you; thanks a lot. The fact of the matter is you saved our lives." He peered at the dim face of the Walker-on-Earth, trying to see if its expression reproached him. But he could not tell; the remaining sunlight had begun to diffuse into an almost nocturnal haze.
"I am sorry," the Walker-on-Earth said, "that you had to labor so long for nothing."
"Well, as I say--"
"I will help you with the reloading," the Walker-on-Earth said. It reached its arms out, bending; it picked up a pile of boxes and began to move among the parked, silent nosers. "I recommend this," it said presently, halting by one and reaching to open its door. "It is not much to look at, but mechanically it's perfect."
"Hey," Morley said, following with a swiftly snatched-up load. "I mean, thanks. Looks aren't important anyhow; it's what's on the inside that counts. For people as well as nosers." He laughed, but the sound emerged as a jarring screech; he cut it off instantly, and the sweat gathered around his neck turned cold with his great fear.
"There is no reason to be afraid of me," the Walker said.
"Intellectually I know that," Morley said.
Together, they labored for a time in silence, carrying box after box from the _Morbid Chicken_ to the better noser. Continually Morley tried to think of something to say, but he could not. His mind, because of his fright, had become dim; the fires of his quick intellect, in which he had so much faith, had almost flickered off.
"Have you ever thought of getting psychiatric help?" the Walker asked him at last.
"No," he said.
"Let's pause a moment and rest. So we can talk a little."
Morley said, "No."
"Why not?"
"I don't want to know anything; I don't want to hear anything." He heard his voice bleat out in its weakness, steeped in its paucity of knowledge. The bleat of foolishness, of the greatest amount of insanity of which he was capable. He knew this, heard it and recognized it, and still he clung to it; he continued on. "I know I'm not perfect," he said. "But I can't change. I'm satisfied."
"Your failure to examine the _Morbid Chicken_."
"Mary made a good point; usually my luck is good."
"She would have died, too."
"Tell her that." Don't tell me, he thought. Please, don't tell me any more. I don't want to know!
The Walker regarded him for a moment. "Is there anything," it said at last, "that you want to say to me?"
"I'm grateful, damn grateful. For your appearance."
"Many times during the past years you've thought to yourself what you would say to me if you met me again. Many things passed through your mind."
"I--forget," he said, huskily.
"May I bless you?"
"Sure," he said, his voice still husky. And almost inaudible. "But why? What have I done?"
"I am proud of you, that's all."
"But why?" He did not understand; the censure which he had been waiting for had not arrived.
The Walker said, "Once years ago you had a tomcat whom you loved. He was greedy and mendacious and yet you loved him. One day he died from bone fragments lodged in his stomach, the result of filching the remains of a dead Martian root-buzzard from a garbage pail. You were sad, but you still loved him. His essence, his appetite--all that made him up had driven him to his death. You would have paid a great deal to have him alive again, but you would have wanted him as he was, greedy and pushy, himself as you loved him, unchanged. Do you understand?"
"I prayed then," Morley said. "But no help came. The Mentufacturer could have rolled time back and restored him."
"Do you want him back now?"
"Yes," Morley said raspingly.
"Will you get psychiatric help?"
''No.
"I bless you," the Walker-on-Earth said, and made a motion with his right hand: a slow and dignified gesture of blessing. Seth Morley bowed his head, pressed his right hand against his eyes . . . and found that black tears had lodged in the hollows of his face. Even now, he marveled. That awful old cat; I should have forgotten him years ago. I guess you never really forget such things, he thought. It's all in there, in the mind, buried until something like this comes up.
"Thank you," he said, when the blessing ended.
"You will see him again," the Walker said. "When you sit with us in Paradise."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes."
"Exactly as he was?"
"Yes."
"Will he remember me?"
"He remembers you now. He waits. He will never stop waiting."
"Thanks," Morley said. "I feel a lot better."