"Dick, Philip K - Martian Time Slip v1.0" - читать интересную книгу автора (Dick Phillip K) "Oh, fine. No ice, please."
"O.K.," Arnie said impatiently. "Now look, Doc. You got the name of a really advanced schizo for me, or not?" He scrutinized Glaub. "Uh," said Glaub, and then he recalled his visit to New Israel not more than a short while ago. "Manfred Steiner," he said. "Any relation to Norbert Steiner?" "As a matter of fact, his boy. At Camp B-G--I imagine there's no breach of confidence in telling you. Totally autistic, from birth. Mother, the cold, intellectual schizoid personality, doing it by the rulebook. Father--" "Father dead," Arnie said shortly. "Right. Very regrettable. Nice chap, but depressive. It was suicide, you know. Typical impulse during his low-swing. A wonder he didn't do it years ago." Arnie said, "You told me on the phone you've got a theory about the schizophrenic being out of phase in time." "Yes, it's a derangement in the interior time-sense." Dr. Glaub had all three of them listening, and he warmed to his topic; it was his favorite. "We have yet to get total experimental verification, but that will come." And then, without hesitation or shame, he passed off the BerghOlzlei theory as his own. Evidently much impressed, Arnie said, "Very interesting." To the repairman, Jack Bohlen, he said, "Could such slowmotion chambers be built?" "No doubt," Jack murmured. "And sensors," Glaub said. "To get the patient out of the chamber and into the real world. Sight, hearing--" "It could be done," Bohlen said. "How about this," Arnie said impatiently and enthusiastically. "Could the schizophrenic be running so fast, compared to us, in time, that he's actually in what to us is the future? Would that account for his precognition?" His lightcolored eyes glittered excitedly. Glaub shrugged in a manner indicating agreement. Turning to Bohlen, Arnie stuttered, "Hey, Jack, that's it! Goddamn it, I ought to be a psychiatrist. Slow him down, hell. Speed him up, I say. Let him live out of phase in time, if he wants to. But let's get him to share his perceptions with us--right, Bohlen?" Glaub said, "Now, there is the rub. In autism, especially, the faculty of interpersonal communication is drastically impaired." "I see," Arnie said, but he was not daunted. "Hell, I know enough about that to see a way out. Didn't that early guy, Carl Jung--didn't he manage to decode the schizophrenic's language years ago?" "Yes," Glaub said, "decades ago Jung cracked the private language of the schizophrenic. But in child autism, as with Manfred, there is no language at all, at least no spoken language. Possibly totally personal private thoughts . . . but no words." "Shit," Arnie said. The girl glanced at him admonishingly. "This is a serious matter," Arnie said to her. "We've got to get these unfortunates, these autistic kids, to talk to us and tell us what they know; isn't that right, Doc?" "Yes," Glaub said. "That kid's an orphan now," Arnie said, "that Manfred." "Well, he has the mother, still," Glaub said. After a moment Bohlen said, "I don't know what to say." He laughed briefly. "Sure you know what to say--hell, it ought to be easy for you, you're a schizophrenic yourself, like you said." Glaub, interested, said to Bohlen, "Is that the case?" He had already noted, automatically, the repairman's skeletal tension as he sat sipping his drink, and the rigid musculature, not to mention the asthenic build. "But you appear to have made enormous strides toward recovery." Raising his head, Bohlen met his glance, saying, "I'm totally recovered. For many years, now." His face was affectladen. No one makes a total recovery, Glaub thought. But he did not say it; instead he said, "Perhaps Arnie is right. You could empathize with the autistic, whereas that is our basic problem; the autistic can't take our roles, see the world as we do, and we can't take his role either. So a gulf separates us." "Bridge that gulf, Jack!" Arnie cried. He whacked Bohlen on the back. "That's your job; I'm putting you on the payroll." Envy filled Dr. Glaub. He glared down at his drink, hiding his reaction. The girl, however, saw it and smiled at him. He did not smile back. Contemplating Dr. Glaub sitting opposite him, Jack Bohlen felt the gradual diffusion of his perception which he so dreaded, the change in his awareness which had attacked him this way years ago in the personnel manager's office at Corona Corporation, and which always seemed still with him, just on the edge. He saw the psychiatrist under the aspect of absolute reality: a thing composed of cold wires and switches, not a human at all, not made of flesh. The fleshy trappings melted and became transparent, and Jack Bohlen saw the mechanical device beyond. Yet he did not let his terrible state of awareness show; he continued to nurse his drink; he went on listening to the conversation and nodding occasionally. Neither Dr. Glaub nor Arnie Kott noticed. But the girl did. She leaned over and said softly in Jack's ear, "Aren't you feeling well?" He shook his head. No, he was saying, I'm not feeling well. "Let's get away from them," the girl whispered. "I can't stand it either." Aloud, to Arnie, she said, "Jack and I are going to leave you two alone. Come on." She tapped Jack on the arm and rose to her feet; he felt her light, strong fingers, and he, too, rose. Arnie said, "Don't be gone long," and resumed his earnest conversation with Dr. Glaub. "Thanks," Jack said, as they walked up the aisle, between tables. Doreen said, "Did you see how jealous he was, when Arnie said he was putting you on the payroll?" "No. Glaub?" But he was not surprised. "I get this way," he said to the girl, by way of apology. "Something to do with my eyes; it may be astigmatism. Due to tension." The girl said, "Do you want to sit at the bar? Or go outside?" "Outside," Jack said. Presently they stood on the rainbow bridge, over the water. In the water fish slid about, luminous and vague, half-real beings, as rare on Mars as any form of matter conceivable. They were a miracle in this world, and Jack and the girl, gazing down, both felt it. And both knew they felt this same thought without having to speak it aloud. "It's nice out here," Doreen said finally. "Yeah." He did not want to talk. "Everybody," Doreen said, "has at one time or another known a schizophrenic . . . if they're not one themselves. It was my brother, back Home, my younger brother." |
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