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'Many times.' Almost every day, he reflected caustically.


'Why don't you two get divorced?'


Eric shrugged, a gesture designed to show a deep philosophical nature. He hoped it truly did so.


The gesture evidently fell short, because Jonas said, 'Meaning that you like it?'


'I mean,' he said resignedly, 'that I've been married before and it was no better, and if I divorce Kathy I'll marry again Ц because as my brainbasher puts it I can't find my identity outside the role of husband and daddy and big butter-and-egg-man wage earner Ц and the next damn one will be the same because that's the kind I select. It's rooted in my temperament.' He raised his head and eyed Jonas with as good a show of masochistic defiance as he could manage. 'What did you want, Jonas?'


'Trip,' Jonas Ackerman said brightly. 'To Mars, for all of us, including you. Conference! You and I can nab seats a good long way from old Virgil so we won't have to discuss company business and the war effort and Gino Molinari. And since we're taking the big goat it'll be six hours each way. And for God's sake, let's not find ourselves standing up all the way to Mars and back Ц let's make sure we do get seats.'


'How long will we be there?' He frankly did not look forward to the trip; it would separate him from his work too long.


'We'll undoubtedly be back tomorrow or the day after. Listen; it'll get you out of your wife's path: Kathy's staying here. It's an irony, but I've noticed that when the old fellow's actually at Wash-35 he never likes to have his antique experts around him ... he likes to slide into the, ahem, magic of the place ... more so all the time as he gets older. When you're one hundred and thirty you'll begin to understand Ц so will I, maybe. Meanwhile we have to put up with him.' He added, somberly, 'You probably know this, Eric, because you are his doctor. He never will die; he'll never make the hard decision Ц as it's called Ц no matter what fails and has to be replaced inside him. Sometimes I envy him for being Ц optimistic. For liking life that much; for thinking it's so important. Now, we puny mortals; at our ageЧ' He eyed Eric. 'At a miserable thirty or thirty-threeЧ'


'I've got plenty of vitality,' Eric said. 'I'm good for a long time. And life isn't going to get the best of me.' From his coat pocket he brought forth the bill which the robant collector had presented to him. 'Think back. Did a package of Lucky Strike with the green show up at Wash-35 about three months ago? A contribution from Kathy?'


After a long pause Jonas Ackerman said, 'You poor suspicious stupid creak. That's all you can manage to brood about. Listen, doctor; if you can't get your mind on your job, you're finished; there's twenty artiforg surgeons with applications in our personnel files just waiting to go to work for a man like Virgil, a man of his importance in the economy and war effort. You're really just plain not all that good.' His expression was both compassionate and disapproving, a strange mixture which had the effect of waking Eric Sweetscent abruptly. 'Personally, if my heart gave out Ц which it no doubt will do one of these days Ц I wouldn't particularly care to go to you. You're too tangled in your own personal affairs. You live for yourself, not the planetary cause. My God, don't you remember? We're fighting a life-and-death war. And we're losing. We're being pulverized every goddam day!'


True, Eric realized. And we've got a sick, hypochondriacal, dispirited leader. And Tijuana Fur & Dye Corporation is one of those vast industrial props that maintain that sick leader, that manage just barely to keep the Mole in office. Without such warm, high-placed personal friendships as that of Virgil Ackerman, Gino Molinari would be out or dead or in an old folks' rest home. I know it. And yet Ц individual life must go on. After all, he reflected, I didn't choose to get entangled in my domestic life, my boxer's clinch with Kathy. And if you think I did or do, it's because you're morbidly young. You've failed to pass from adolescent freedom into the land which I inhabit: married to a woman who is economically, intellectually, and even this, too, even erotically my superior.



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Before leaving the building Dr Eric Sweetscent dropped by the Baths, wondering if Bruce Himmel had shown up. He had; there he stood, beside the huge reject-basket full of defective Lazy Brown Dogs.


'Turn them back into groonk,' Jonas said to Himmel, who grinned in his empty, disjointed fashion as the youngest of the Ackermans tossed him one of the defective spheres which rolled off TF&D's assembly lines along with those suitable for wiring into the command guidance structure of interplanetary spacecraft. 'You know,' he said to Eric, 'if you took a dozen of these control syndromes Ц and not the defective ones but the ones going into shipping cartons for the Army Ц you'd find that compared with a year ago or even six months ago their reaction time has slowed by several microseconds.'


'By that you mean,' Eric said, 'our quality standards have dropped?'


It seemed impossible. TF&D's product was too vital. The entire network of military operations depended on these head-sized spheres.


'Exactly.' It did not appear to bother Jonas. 'Because we were rejecting too many units. We couldn't show a profit.'