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Fragment Discovered in the East Tower of the Oreska House
An
old man looks back at me from my mirror now. Even among the other
wizards here in Rhim-inee, I'm a relic of forgotten times. My
new apprentice, little Nysander, cannot imagine what it was like to
be a free wizard of the Second Oreska. At Nysander's birth this
beautiful city had already stood for two centuries above her deep
harbor. Yet to me it shall always and forever be "the new
capital." In
the days of my youth, a whore's cast-off like Nysander would have
gone unschooled. If he were lucky he might have ended up as a village
weather-caller or soothsayer. More likely, he would have unwittingly
killed someone and been stoned as a witch. Only the Lightbearer knows
how many god-touched children were lost before the advent of the
Third Oreska. Before
this city was built, before this great house of learning was gifted
to us by its founder, we wizards of the Second Oreska made our own
way and lived by our own laws. Now,
in return for service to the Crown we have this House, with its
libraries, archives, and its common history. I am the only one still
living who knows how dear a price was paid for that. Two
centuries. Three or four lifetimes for most people; a mere season for
those of us touched by the Lightbearer's gift. "We wizards stand
apart, Arkoniel," my own teacher, lya, told me when I was
scarcely older than Nysander is now. "We are stones in a river's
course, watching the rush of life whirl past." Standing
by Nysander's door tonight, watching the lad sleep, I imagined tya's
ghost beside me, and for a moment it seemed as if it was my younger
self I gazed at; a plain, shy nobleman's son who'd shown a talent for
animal charming. While guesting at my father's estate, lya recognized
the magic in me and revealed it to my family. I wept the day I left
home with her. How
easy it would be to call those tears foreshadowing—that
device the playwrights are so enamored of these days. But I have
never quite believed in fate, despite all the prophecies and oracles
that shaped my life. There's always a choice in there somewhere. I've
seen too often how people make their own future through the balance
of each day's little kindnesses and cruelties. chose
to go with lya. Later,
I chose to believe in the visions the Oracle granted to her and to
me. By
my own choice, I helped rekindle the power of this good strong
country, and so may rightly claim to have helped the fair white
towers ofRhim-inee rise against this blue western sky. But
on those few nights when I sleep deeply, what do I dream of? An
infant's cry, cut short. You
might think after so many years that it would be easier to accept;
that one necessary act of cruelty could alter the course of history
like an earthquake shifts a river's course. But that deed, that cry,
lies at the heart of all the good that came after, like a grain of
sand at the heart of a pearl's glowing nacre. I
alone cany the memory of that infant's brief wail, all those years
ago. I
alone know of the filth at the heart of this pearl. Iya pulled
off her straw wayfarer's hat and fanned herself with it as her horse
labored up the rocky trail toward Afra. The sun stood at noon,
blazing against the cloudless blue. It was only the first week of
Gorathin, far too early for it to be this hot. It seemed the drought
was going to last another season. Snow still
glistened on the peaks overhead, however. Now and then a plume of
wind-blown white gusted out against the stark blue of the sky,
creating the tantalizing illusion of coolness, while down here in the
narrow pass no breeze stirred. Anywhere else Iya might have conjured
up a bit of wind, but no magic was allowed within a day's ride of
Afra. Ahead of
her, Arkoniel swayed in his saddle like a shabby, long-legged stork.
The young wizard's linen tunic was sweated through down the back and
stained drab with a week's worth of road dust. He never complained;
his only concession to the heat was the sacrifice of the patchy black
beard he'd cultivating since he turned one and twenty last Erasin. Poor
boy, Iya thought fondly; the newly shaven skin was already badly
sunburnt. Their
destination, the Oracle at Afra, lay at the very heart of Skala's
mountainous spine and was a grueling ride any time of year. Iya had
made the long pilgrimage twice before, but never in summer. The walls
of the pass pressed close to the trail here, and centuries of seekers
had left their names and supplications to Illior Lightbearer
scratched into the dark stone. Some had
simply scratched the god's thin crescent moon; these lined the trail
like countless tilting smiles. Arkoniel had left one of his own
earlier that morning to commemorate his first visit. lya's horse
stumbled and the reason for their journey bumped hard against her
thigh. Inside the worn leather bag slung from her saddle horn,
smothered in elaborate wrappings and magic, was a lopsided bowl
crudely fashioned of burnt clay. There was nothing remarkable about
it, except for the fierce aura of malevolence it gave off when not
hidden away. More than once over the years she'd imagined throwing it
over a cliff or into a river; in reality, she could no more have done
that than cut off her own arm. She was the Guardian; the contents of
that bag had been her charge for over a century. Unless
the Oracle can tell me otherwise. Fixing her thin, greying hair
into a knot on top of her head, she fanned again at her sweaty neck. Arkoniel
turned in the saddle and regarded her with concern. His unruly black
curls dripped sweat beneath the wilted brim of his hat. "You're
red in the face. We should stop and rest again." 'No, we're
nearly there." 'Then have
some more water, at least. And put your hat back on!" 'You make
me feel old. I'm only two hundred and thirty, you know." 'Two
hundred and thirty-two," he corrected with a wry grin. It was an
old game between them. She pulled
a sour face. "Just wait until you're in your third age, my boy.
It gets harder to keep track." The truth
was, hard riding did tire her more than it had back in her early
hundreds, although she wasn't about to admit it. She took a long pull
from her waterskin and flexed her shoulders. "You've been quiet
today. Do you have a query yet?" 'I think
so. I hope the Oracle finds it worthy." Such
earnestness made lya smile. This journey was merely another lesson as
far as Arkoniel knew. She'd told him nothing of her true quest. The leather
bag bumped against her thigh like a nagging child. Forgive
me, Agazhar, she thought, knowing her long-dead teacher, the
first Guardian, would not have approved. The last
stretch of trail was the most treacherous. The rock face to their
right gave way to a chasm and in places they rode with their left
knees brushing the cliff face. Arkoniel
disappeared around a sharp bend, then called back, "I can see
Illior's Keyhole, just as you described!" Rounding
the outcropping, lya saw the painted archway glowing like a garish
apparition where it straddled the trail. Stylized dragons glowed in
red, blue, and gold around the narrow opening, which was just wide
enough for a single horseman to pass through. Afra lay less than a
mile beyond. Sweat stung
lya's eyes, making her blink. It had been snowing the first time
Agazhar brought her here. JLya had
come later than most to the wizardly arts. She'd grown up on a tenant
farm on the border of Skala's mainland territory. The closest market
town lay across the Keela River in Mycena, and it was here that lya's
family traded. Like many bordermen, her father had taken a Mycenian
wife and made his offerings to Dalna the Maker, rather than Illior or
Sakor. So it was,
when she first showed signs of magic, that she was sent across the
river to study with an old Dalnan priest who'd tried to make a
drysian healer of her. She earned praise for her herb craft, but as
soon as the ignorant old fellow discovered that she could make fire
with a thought, he bound a witch charm to her wrist and sent her home
in disgrace. With this
taint on her, she'd found little welcome in her village and no
prospect of a husband. She was a
spinster of twenty-four when Agazhar happened across her in the
market square. He told her later that it was the witch charm that had
caught his eye as she stood haggling with a trader over the price of
her goats. She'd taken
no notice of him, thinking he was just another old soldier finding
his way home from the wars. Agazhar had been as ragged and
hollow-cheeked as any of them, and the left sleeve of his tunic hung
empty. lya was
forced to take a second look when he walked up to her, clasped her
hand, and broke into a sweet smile of recognition. After a brief
conversation, she sold off her goats and followed the old wizard down
the south road without a backward glance. All anyone would have found
of her, had they bothered to search, was the witch charm lying in the
weeds by the market gate. Agazhar
hadn't scoffed at her fire making. Instead, he explained that it was
the first sign that she was one of the god-touched of Illior. Then he
taught her to harness the unknown power she possessed into the potent
magic of the Oreska wizards. Agazhar was
a free wizard, beholden to no one. Eschewing the comforts of a single
patron, he wandered as he liked, finding welcome in noble houses and
humble ones alike. Together he and lya traveled the Three Lands and
beyond, sailing west to Aurenen, where even the common folk were as
long-lived as wizards and possessed magic. Here she learned that the
Aurenfaie were the First Oreska; it was their blood, mingled with
that of lya's race, that had given magic to the chosen ones of Skala
and Plenimar. This gift
came with a price. Human wizards could neither bear nor sire
children, but lya considered herself well repaid, both in magic and,
later, with students as gifted and companionable as Arkoniel. Agazhar had
also taught her more about the Great War than any of her father's
ballads or legends, for he'd been among the wizards who'd fought for
Skala under Queen Gherilain's banner. 'There's
never been another such war as that, and pray Sakor there never shall
be again," he'd say, staring into the campfire at night as if he
saw his fallen comrades there. "For one shining span of time
wizards stood shoulder to shoulder with warriors, balding the black
necromancers of Plenimar." The tales
Agazhar told of those days gave lya nightmares. A necromancer's
demon—a dyrmagnos, he called it—had
torn off his left arm. But
gruesome as these tales were, lya still clung to them, for only there
had Agazhar given her any glimpse of where the strange bowl had come
from. Agazhar had
carried it then; never in all the years she'd known him had he ever
let it out of his possession. "Spoils of war," he'd said
with a dark laugh, the first time he'd opened the bag to show it to
her. But beyond
that, he would tell her nothing except that the bowl could not be
destroyed and that its existence could not be revealed to anyone but
the next Guardian. Instead, he'd schooled her rigorously in the
complex web of spells that protected it, making her weave and unweave
them until she could do it in the blink of an eye. 'You'll be
the Guardian after me," he reminded her when she grew impatient
with the secrecy. "Then you'll understand. Be certain you choose
your successor wisely." 'But how
will I know who to choose?" He'd smiled
and taken her hand as he had when they'd first met in the
marketplace. "Trust in the Light-bearer. You'll know." And she
had. .H, it
first she couldn't help pressing to know more about it—where
he'd found it, who had made it and why, but Agazhar had remained
obdurate. "Not until the time comes for you to take on the full
care of it. Then I will tell you all there is to know." Sadly, that
day had taken them both unaware. Agazhar had dropped dead in the
streets of Ero one fine spring day soon after her first century. One
moment he was holding forth on the beauty of a new transformation
spell he'd just created; the next, he slipped to the ground with a
hand pressed to his chest and a look of mild surprise in his fixed,
dead eyes. Scarcely
into her second age, lya suddenly found herself Guardian without
knowing what she guarded or why. She kept the oath she'd sworn to him
and waited for Illior to reveal her successor. She'd waited two
lifetimes, as promising students came and went, and said nothing to
them of the bag and its secrets. But as
Agazhar had promised, she'd recognized Arkoniel the moment she first
spied him playing in his father's orchard fifteen years earlier. He
could already keep a pippin spinning in midair and could put out a
candle flame with a thought. Young as he
was, she'd taught him what little she knew of the bowl as soon as he
was bound over to her. Later, when he was strong enough, she taught
him how to weave the protections. Even so, she kept the burden of it
on her own shoulders as Agazhar had instructed. 'ver the
years lya had come to regard the bowl as little more than a sacred
nuisance, but that had all changed a month ago when the wretched
thing had taken over her dreams. The ghastly interwoven nightmares,
more vivid than any she'd ever known, had finally driven her here,
for she saw the bowl in all of them, carried high above a battlefield
by a monstrous black figure for which she knew no name. JLya? lya,
are you well?" asked Arkoniel. lya shook
off the reverie that had claimed her and gave him a reassuring smile.
"Ah, we're here at last, I see." Pinched in
a deep cleft of rock, Afra was scarcely large enough to be called a
village and existed solely to serve the Oracle and the pilgrims who
journeyed here. A wayfarer's inn and the chambers of the priests were
carved like bank swallow nests into the cliff faces on either side of
the small paved square. Their doorways and deep-set windows were
framed with carved fretwork and pillars of ancient design. The square
was deserted now, but a few people waved to them from the shadowy
windows. At the
center of the square stood a red jasper stele as tall as Arkoniel. A
spring bubbled up at its base and flowed away into a stone basin and
on to a trough beyond. 'By the
Light!" Dismounting, Arkoniel turned his horse loose at the
trough and went to examine the stele. Running his palm over the
inscription carved in four languages, he read the words that had
changed the course of Skalan history three centuries earlier. "
'So long as a daughter of Thelatimos' line defends and rules, Skala
shall never be subjugated.'" He shook his head in wonder. "This
is the original, isn't it?" lya nodded sadly. "Queen
Gherilain placed this here herself as a thank offering right after
the war. The Oracle's Queen, they called her then." In the
darkest days of the war, when it seemed that Plenimar would devour
the lands of Skala and Mycena, the Skalan king, Thelatimos, had left
the battlefields and journeyed here to consult the Oracle. When he
returned to battle, he brought with him his daughter, Gherilain, then
a maiden of sixteen. Obeying the Oracle's words, he anointed her
before his exhausted army and passed his crown and sword to her. According
to Agazhar, the generals had not thought much of the king's decision.
Yet from the start the girl proved god-touched as a warrior and led
the allies to victory in a year's time,
killing the Plenimaran Overlord single-handedly at the Battle of
Isil. She'd been a fine queen in peace, as well, and ruled for over
fifty years. Agazhar had been among her mourners. 'These
markers used to stand all over Skala, didn't they?" asked
Arkoniel. 'Yes, at
every major crossroads in the land. You were just a babe when King
Erius tore them all down." lya dismounted and touched the stone
reverently. It was hot under her palm, and still as smooth as the day
it had left the stonecutter's shop. "Even Erius didn't dare
touch this one." 'Why not?" 'When he
sent word for it to be removed, the priests refused. To force the
issue meant invading Afra itself, the most sacred ground in Skala. So
Erius graciously relented and contented himself with having all the
others dumped into the sea. There was also a golden tablet bearing
the inscription in the throne room at the Old Palace. I wonder what
happened to that?" But the
younger wizard had more immediate concerns. Shading his eyes, he
studied the cliff face. "Where's the Oracle's shrine?" 'Further up
the valley. Drink deeply here. We must walk the rest of the way." Ijea saving
their mounts at the inn, they followed a well-worn path deeper into
the cleft. The way became steeper and more difficult as they went.
There were no trees to shade them, no moisture to lay the white dust
that hung on the hot midday air. Soon the way dwindled to a faint
track -winding up between boulders and over rock faces worn smooth
and treacherous by centuries of pilgrim's feet. They met
two other groups of seekers coming in the opposite direction. Several
young soldiers were laughing and talking bravely, all but one young
man who hung back from his fellows with the fear of death clear in
his eyes. The second group clustered around an elderly merchant woman
who wept silently as the younger members of her party helped her
along. Arkoniel
eyed them nervously. lya waited until the merchant's party had
disappeared around a bend, then sat down on a rock to rest. The way
here was hardly wide enough for two people to pass and held the heat
like an oven. She took a sip from the skin Arkoniel had filled at the
spring. The water was still cold enough to make her eyes ache. 'Is it much
further?" he asked. 'Just a
little way." Promising herself a cool bath at the inn, lya stood
and continued on. 'You knew
the king's mother, didn't you?" Arkoniel said, scrambling along
behind her. "Was she as bad as they say?" The stele
must have gotten him thinking. "Not at first. Agnalain the Just,
they called her. But she had a dark streak in her that worsened with
age. Some say it came from her father's blood. Others said it was
because of the trouble she had with childbearing. Her first consort
gave her two sons. Then she seemed to go barren for years and
gradually developed a taste for young consorts and public executions.
Erius' own father went to the block for treason. After that no one
was safe. By the Four, I can still remember the stink of the crow
cages lining the roads around Ero! We all hoped she'd improve when
she finally had a daughter, but she didn't. It only made her worse." It had been
easy enough in those black days for Agnalain's eldest son, Prince
Erius—already a seasoned warrior and the people's darling—to
argue that the Oracle's words had been twisted, that the prophecy had
referred only to King Thelatimos' actual daughter, not to a
matrilineal line of succession. Surely brave Prince Erius was better
suited to the throne than the only direct female heir; his
half-sister Ariani was just past her third birthday. Never mind
the fact that Skala had enjoyed unparalleled prosperity under her
queens, or that the only other man to take the throne, Gherilain's
own son, Pelis, had brought on both plague and drought during his
brief reign. Only when his sister had replaced him on the throne had
Illior protected the land again as the Oracle had promised. Until now. When
Agnalain died so suddenly, it was whispered that Prince Erius and his
brother, Aron, had had a hand in it. But the rumor had been whispered
with relief rather than condemnation; everyone knew Erius had ruled
in all but name during the last terrible years of his mother's
decline. The renewed rumblings from Plenimar were growing too loud
for the nobles to risk civil war on behalf of a child queen. The
crown passed to Erius without challenge. Plenimar attacked the
southern ports that same year and he drove the invaders back into the
sea and burned their black ships. This seemed to lay the prophecy to
rest. All the
same, there had been more blights and drought in the past nineteen
years than even the oldest wizards could recall. The current drought
was in its third year in some parts of the country, and had wiped out
whole villages already decimated by wildfires and waves of plague
brought in from the northern trade routes. Arkoniel's parents had
died in one such epidemic a few years earlier. A quarter of Ero's
population had succumbed in a few months' time, including Prince
Aron, as well as Erius' consort, both daughters, and two of his three
sons, leaving only the second-youngest boy, Korin, alive. Since then,
the words of the Oracle were being whispered again in certain
quarters. lya had her
own reasons now for regretting Erius' coup. His sister, Ariani, had
grown up to marry lya's patron, the powerful Duke Rhius of Atyion.
The couple was expecting their first child in the fall. *oth
wizards were sweating and winded by the time they reached the tight
cul-de-sac where the shrine lay. 'It's not
quite what I expected," Arkoniel muttered, eyeing what appeared
to be a broad stone well, lya chuckled. "Don't judge too
quickly." Two sturdy
priests in dusty red robes and silver masks sat in the shade of a
wooden lean-to beside the well. lya joined them and sat down heavily
on a stone seat. "I need time to compose my thoughts," she
told Arkoniel. "You go first." The priests
carried a coil of heavy rope to the well, motioning for Arkoniel to
join them. He gave lya a nervous grin as they fixed a loop of it
around his hips. Still silent, they guided him into the stone
enclosure to the entrance to the oracle chamber. From the surface,
this was nothing but a hole in the ground about four feet in
diameter. It was
always daunting, this act of faith and surrender, and more so the
first time. But as always, Arkoniel did not hesitate. Sitting with
his feet over the edge, he gripped the rope and nodded for the
priests to let him down. He slid out of sight and they paid out the
line until it went slack. lya
remained in the lean-to, trying to calm her racing heart. She'd done
her best for days not to think too directly on what she was about to
do. Now that she was here, she suddenly regretted her decision.
Closing her eyes, she tried to examine this fear, but could find no
basis for it. Yes, she was disobeying her master's injunction, but
that wasn't it. Here on the very doorstep of the Oracle, she had a
premonition of something dark looming just ahead. She prayed silently
for the strength to face whatever Illior revealed to her today, for
she could not turn aside. Arkoniel's
twitch on the rope came sooner than she'd expected. The priests
hauled him up and he hurried over and collapsed on the ground beside
her, looking rather perplexed. 'lya, it
was the strangest thing—!" he began, but she held up a
warning hand. 'There'll
be time enough later," she told him, knowing she must go now or
not at all. She took
her place in the harness, breath tight in her chest as she hung her
feet over the edge of the hole. Grasping
the rope with one hand and the leather bag with the other, she nodded
to the priests and began her descent. She felt
the familiar nervous flutter in her belly as she swung down into the
cool darkness. She'd never been able to guess the actual dimensions
of this underground chamber; the silence and faint movement of air
against her face suggested a vast cavern. Where the sunlight struck
the stone floor below, it showed the gently undulating smoothness of
stone worn by some ancient underground river. After a few
moments her feet touched solid ground and she stepped free of the
rope and out of the circle of sunlight. As her eyes adjusted to the
darkness, she could make out a faint glow nearby and walked toward
it. The light had appeared from a different direction each time she'd
come here. When she reached the Oracle at last, however, everything
was just as she remembered. A crystal
orb on a silver tripod gave off a wide circle of light. The Oracle
sat next to it on a low ivory stool carved in the shape of a
crouching dragon. This
one is so young! lya thought, inexplicably saddened. The last
two Oracles had been old women with skin bleached white by years of
darkness. This girl was no more than fourteen, but her skin was
already pale. Dressed in a simple linen shift that left her arms and
feet bare, she sat with her palms on her knees. Her face was round
and plain, her eyes vacant. Like wizards, the sibyls of Afra did not
escape Illior's touch unscathed. lya knelt
at her feet. A masked priest stepped into the circle of light with a
large silver salver held out before him. The silence of the chamber
swallowed lya's sigh as she unwrapped the bowl and placed it on the
salver. The priest
presented it to the Oracle, placing it on her knees. Her face
remained vacant, betraying nothing. Doesn't
she feel the evil of the thing? lya wondered. The unveiled power
of it made lya's head hurt. The girl
stirred at last and looked down at the bowl. Silvery light bright as
moonshine on snow swelled in a nimbus around her head and shoulders.
lya felt a thrill of awe. Illior had entered the girl. 'I see
demons feasting on the dead. I see the God Whose Name Is Not Spoken,"
the Oracle said softly. lya's heart
turned to stone in her breast, her worst fears confirmed. This was
Seriamaius, the dark god of necromancy worshipped by the Plenimarans
who'd come so close to destroying Skala in the Great War. "I've
dreamt this. War and disasters far worse than any Skala has ever
known." 'You see
too far, Wizard." The Oracle lifted the bowl in both hands and
by some trick of the light her eyes became sunken black holes in her
face. The priest was nowhere to be seen now, although lya had not
heard him go. The Oracle
turned the bowl slowly in her hands. "Black makes white. Foul
makes pure. Evil creates greatness. Out of Plenimar comes present
salvation and future peril. This is a seed that must be watered with
blood. But you see too far." The Oracle
tilted the bowl forward and bright blood splashed out, too much for
such a small vessel. It formed a round pool on the stone floor at the
Oracle's feet. Looking into it, lya caught the reflection of a
woman's face framed by the visor of a bloody war helm. lya could make
out two intense blue eyes, a firm mouth above a pointed chin. The
face was harsh one moment, sorrowful the next, and so familiar that
it made her heart ache, though she couldn't say then of whom those
eyes reminded her. Flames reflected off the helm and somewhere in the
distance lya heard the clash of battle. The
apparition slowly faded and was replaced by that of a shining white
palace standing on a high cliff. It had a glittering dome, and at
each of its four corners stood a slender tower. 'Behold the
Third Oreska," the Oracle whispered. "Here may you lay your
burden down." lya leaned forward with a gasp of awe. The palace
had hundreds of windows and at every window stood a wizard, looking
directly at her. In the highest window of the closest tower she saw
Arkoniel, robed in blue and holding the bowl in his hands. A little
child with thick blond curls stood at his side. She could
see Arkoniel quite clearly now, even though she was so far away. He
was an old man, with a face deeply lined and weary beyond words. Even
so, her heart swelled with joy at the sight of him. "Ask,"
the Oracle whispered. "What is the bowl?" she called to
Arkoniel. "It's not for us, but he will know," Arkoniel
told her, passing the bowl to the little boy. The child looked at lya
with an old man's eyes and smiled. 'All is
woven together, Guardian," the Oracle said as this vision faded
into something darker. "This is the legacy you and your kind are
offered. One with the true queen. One with Skala. You shall be tested
with fire." lya saw the symbol of her craft—the thin
crescent of Illior's moon—against a circle of fire and the
number 222 glowing just beneath it in figures of white flame so
bright they hurt her eyes. Then Ero
lay spread before her under a bloated moon, in flames from harbor to
citadel. An army under the flag of Plenimar surrounded it, too
numerous to count. lya could feel the heat of the flames on her face
as Erius led his army out against them. But his soldiers fell dead
behind him and the flesh fell from his charger's bones in shreds. The
Plenimarans surrounded the king like wolves and he was lost from
sight. The vision shifted dizzyingly again and lya saw the Skalan
crown, bent and tarnished now, lying in a barren field. 'So long as
a daughter of Thelatimos' line defends and rules, Skala shall never
be subjugated," the Oracle whispered. 'Ariani?"
lya asked, but knew even as she spoke that it had not been the
princess' face she'd seen framed in that helm. The Oracle
began to sway and keen. Raising the bowl, she poured its endless flow
over her head like a libation, masking herself in blood. Falling to
her knees, she grasped lya's hand and a whirlwind took them, striking
lya blind. Screaming
winds surrounded her, then entered the top of her head and plunged
down through the core of her like a shipwright's augur. Images
flashed by like wind-borne leaves: the strange number on its shield,
and the helmeted woman in many forms and guises—old, young, in
rags, crowned, hanging naked from a gibbet, riding garlanded through
broad, unfamiliar streets. lya saw her clearly now, her face, her
blue eyes, black hair, and long limbs like Ariani's. But it was not
the princess. The
Oracle's voice cut through the maelstrom. "This is your queen,
Wizard, this true daughter of Thelatimos. She will turn her face to
the west." Suddenly
lya felt a bundle placed in her arms and looked down at the dead
infant the Oracle had given her. 'Others
see, but only through smoke and darkness," said the Oracle. "By
the will of Illior the bowl came into your hands; it is the long
burden of your line, Guardian, and the bitterest of all. But in this
generation comes the child who is the foundation of what is to come.
She is your legacy. Two children, one queen marked with the blood of
passage." The dead
infant looked up at lya with black staring eyes and searing pain tore
through her chest. She knew whose child this was. Then the
vision was gone and lya found herself kneeling in front of the Oracle
with the unopened bag in her arms. There was no dead infant, no blood
on the floor. The Oracle sat on her stool, shift and hair unstained. 'Two
children, one queen," the Oracle whispered, looking at lya with
the shining white eyes of Illior. lya
trembled before that gaze, trying to cling to all she'd seen and
heard. "The others who dream of this child, Honored One—do
they mean her well or ill? Will they help me raise her up?" But the god
was gone and the girl child slumped on the stool had no answers. unlight
blinded lya as she emerged from the cavern. The heat took her breath
away and her legs would not support her. Arkoniel caught her as she
collapsed against the stone enclosure. "lya, what happened?
What's wrong?" "Just—just give me a moment," she
croaked, clutching the bag to her chest. A
seed watered with blood. Arkoniel
lifted her easily and carried her into the shade. He put the
waterskin to her lips and lya drank, leaning heavily against him. It
was some time before she felt strong enough to start back for the
inn. Arkoniel kept one arm about her waist and she suffered his help
without complaint. They were within sight of the stele when she
fainted. V't't,'hen
she opened her eyes again, she was lying on a soft bed in a cool, dim
room at the inn. Sunlight streamed in through a crack in the dusty
shutter and struck shadows across the carved wall beside the bed.
Arkoniel sat beside her, clearly worried. 'What
happened with the Oracle?" he asked. Illior
spoke and my question was answered, she thought bitterly. How
I wish I'd listened to Agazhar. She took
his hand. "Later, when I'm feeling stronger. Tell me your
vision. Was your query answered?" Her answer
obviously frustrated him, but he knew better than to press her. "I'm
not sure," he said. "I asked what sort of wizard I'd
become, what my path would be. She showed me a vision in the air, but
all I could make out was an image of me holding a young boy in my
arms." 'Did he
have blond hair?" she asked, thinking of the child in the
beautiful white tower. 'No, it was
black. To be honest, I was disappointed, coming all this way just for
that. I must have done something wrong in the asking." 'Sometimes
you must wait for the meaning to be revealed." lya turned away
from that earnest young face, wishing that the Lightbearer had
granted her such a respite. The sun still blazed down on the square
outside her window, but lya saw only the road back to Ero before her,
and darkness at its end. A red
harvest moon cast the sleeping capital into a towering mosaic of
light and shadow that nineteenth night of Erasin. Crooked Ero, the
capital was called. Built on a rambling hill overlooking the islands
of the Inner Sea, the streets spread like poorly woven lace down from
the walls of the Palatine Circle to the quays and shipyards and
rambling slums below. Poor and wealthy alike lived cheek by jowl, and
every house in sight of the harbor had at least one window facing
east toward Plenimar like a watchful eye. The
priests claim Death comes in the west door, Arkoniel thought
miserably as he rode through the west gate behind lya and the witch.
Tonight would be the culmination of the nightmare that had started
nearly five months earlier at Afra. The two
women rode in silence, their faces hidden by their deep hoods.
Heartsick at the task that lay before them, Arkoniel willed lya to
speak, change her mind, turn aside, but she said nothing and he could
not see her eyes to read them. For over half his life she'd been
teacher, mentor, and second mother to him. Since Afra, she'd become a
house full of closed doors. Lhel had
gone quiet, too. Her kind had been unwelcome here for generations.
She wrinkled her nose now as the stink of the city engulfed them.
"You great village? Ha! Too many." 'Not so
loud!" Arkoniel looked around nervously. Wandering wizards were
not as welcome here as they had been, either. It would go hard on
them all to be found with a hill witch. 'Smells
like tok," Lhel muttered. lya pushed
back her hood and surprised Arkoniel with a thin smile. "She
says it smells like shit here, and so it does." Lhel's
one to talk, Arkoniel thought. He'd kept upwind of the hill
woman since they'd met. ifter their
strange visit to Afra they'd gone first to Ero and guested with the
duke and his lovely, fragile princess. By day they gamed and rode.
Each night lya spoke in secret with the duke. From there,
he and lya spent the rest of that hot, sullen summer searching the
remote mountain valleys of the northern province for a witch to aid
them, for no Oreska wizard possessed the magic for the task that
Illior had set them. By the time they found one, the aspen leaves
were already edged with gold. Driven from
the fertile lowlands by the first incursions of Skalan settlers, the
small, dark-skinned hill people kept to their high valleys and did
not welcome travelers. When lya and Arkoniel approached a village,
they might hear dogs barking the alarm, or mothers calling their
children; by the time they reached the edge of a settlement, only a
few armed men would be in sight. These men made no threats, but
offered no hospitality. Lhel's
welcome had surprised them when they'd happened across her lonely
hut. Not only had she welcomed them properly, setting out water,
cider, and cheese, but she claimed to have been expecting them. lya spoke
the witch's language, and Lhel had picked up a few words of Skalan
somewhere. From what Arkoniel could make out between them, the witch
was not surprised by their request. She claimed her moon goddess had
showed them to her in a dream. Arkoniel
felt very awkward around the woman. Her magic radiated from her like
the musky heat of her body, but it was more than that. Lhel was a
woman in her prime. Her black hair hung in a tangled, curling mass to
her waist and her loose woolen dress couldn't mask the curves of hip
and breast as she sauntered around her little hut, bringing him food
and the makings for a pallet. He didn't need an interpreter to know
that she asked lya if she might sleep with him that night or that she
was both offended and amused when lya explained the concept of
wizards' celibacy to her. The Oreska wizards reserved all their
vitality for their magic. Arkoniel
feared that the -witch might change her mind then, but the following
morning they woke to find her waiting for them outside the door, a
traveling bundle slung ready behind the saddle of her shaggy pony. The long
journey back to Ero had been an awkward time for the young man. Lhel
delighted in teasing him, making certain that he saw when she lifted
her skirts to wash, and losing no opportunity to bump against him as
she moved about their camp each night, plucking the year's last herbs
with her knobby, stained fingers. Vows or no, Arkoniel couldn't help
but notice and something in him stirred uneasily. When their
work in Ero was finished this night, he would never see her again and
for that he would be most thankful. is
they rode across an open square, Lhel pointed up at the full red moon
and clucked her tongue. "Baby caller moon, all fat and bloody.
We hurry. No shaimari." She brought
two fingers toward her nostrils in a graceful flourish, mimicking the
intake of breath. Arkoniel shuddered. lya pressed
one hand over her eyes and Arkoniel felt a moment's hope. Perhaps she
would relent after all. But she was merely sending a sighting spell
up to the Palatine ahead of them. After a
moment she shook her head. "No. We have time." A cold salt
breeze tugged at their cloaks as they reached the seaward side of the
citadel and approached the Palatine gate. Arkoniel inhaled deeply,
trying to ease the growing tightness in his chest. A party of
revelers passed them, and by the light of the linkboys' lanterns
Arkoniel stole another look at lya. The wizard's pale, square face
betrayed nothing. It
is the mil oflllior, Arkoniel repeated silently. There could be
no turning aside. the death
of the king's only female heir, women and girls of close royal blood
had died at an alarming rate. Few dared speak of it aloud in the
city, but in too many cases it was not plague or hunger that carried
them down to Bilairy's gate. The king's
cousin took ill after a banquet in town and did not awaken the next
morning. Another somehow managed to fall from her tower window. His
two pretty young nieces, daughters of his own brother, were drowned
sailing on a sunny day. Babies born to more distant relations, all
girls, were found dead in their cradles. Their nurses whispered of
night spirits. As potential female claimants to the throne dropped
away one by one, the people of Ero turned nervous eyes toward the
king's half sister and the unborn child she carried. Her
husband, Duke Rhius, was fifteen years older than his pretty young
wife and owned vast holdings of castles and lands, the greatest of
which lay at Atyion, half a day's ride north of the city. Some said
that the marriage had been a love match between the duke's lands and
the Royal Treasury, but lya thought otherwise. The couple
lived at the grand castle at Atyion when Rhius was not serving at
court. When Ariani became pregnant, however, they had taken up
residence at Ero, in her house beside the Old Palace. lya guessed
that the choice was the king's rather than hers, and Ariani had
confirmed her suspicions during their visit that summer. 'May Illior
and Dalna grant us a son," Ariani had whispered as she and lya
sat together in the garden court of her house, hands pressed to her
swelling belly. As a child
Ariani had adored her handsome older brother, who'd been more like a
father to her. Now she understood all too well that she lived at his
whim; in these uncertain times, any girl claiming Gherilain's blood
posed a threat to the new male succession, should the Illioran
faction fight to reestablish the sacred authority of Afra. With every
new bout of plague or famine, the whispers of doubt grew stronger. JLn a
darkened side street outside the Palatine gate lya cloaked herself
and Lhel in invisibility, and Arkoniel approached the guards as if
alone. There were
still a great many people abroad at this hour, but the
sergeant-at-arms took special note of the silver amulet Arkoniel wore
and called him aside. 'What's
your business here so late, Wizard?" 'I'm
expected. I've come to visit my patron, Duke Rhius." 'Your
name?" 'Arkoniel
of Rhemair." A scribe
noted this down on a wax tablet and Arkoniel strolled on into the
labyrinth of houses and gardens that ringed this side of the
Palatine. To the right loomed the great bulk of the New Palace, which
Queen Agnalain had begun and her son was finishing. To the left lay
the rambling bulk of the Old Palace. lya's magic
was so strong that even he couldn't tell if she and the witch were
still with him, but he didn't dare turn or whisper to them. Ariani's
fine house stood surrounded by its own walls and courtyards; Arkoniel
entered by the front gate and barred it behind him as soon as he felt
lya's touch on his arm. He looked around nervously, half expecting to
find the King's Guard lurking behind the bare trees and statuary in
the shadowed garden, or the familiar faces of the duke's personal
guard. But there was no one here, not even a watchman or porter. The
garden was silent, the air heavy with the scent of some last hardy
bloom of autumn. lya and the
witch reappeared beside him and together they headed across the
courtyard toward the arched entrance. They hadn't gone three steps
when a horned owl swooped down and pounced on a young rat not ten
feet from where they stood. Flapping for balance, it dispatched the
squeaking rodent, then looked up at them with eyes like gold sester
coins. Such birds were not uncommon in the city, but Arkoniel felt a
thrill of awe; owls were the messengers of Illior. 'A
favorable omen," lya murmured as it flapped away, leaving the
dead rat behind. The duke's
steward, Mynir, answered her knock. A thin, solemn, stoop-shouldered
old fellow, he'd always reminded Arkoniel of a cricket. He was one of
the few who would help carry his master's burden in the years to
come. 'Thank the
Maker!" the old man whispered, grasping lya's hand. "The
duke is half out of his mind—" He broke off at the sight
of Lhel. Arkoniel
could guess the man's thoughts: witch, unclean, handler of the dead,
a necromancer who called up demons and ghosts. lya touched
his shoulder. "It's all right, Mynir, your master knows. Where
is he?" 'Upstairs,
Mistress. I'll fetch him." lya held him a moment longer. "And
Captain Tharin?" Tharin, the
nobleman in charge of Rhius' guard, was seldom far from the duke's
side. Illior had not spoken for him, but lya and Rhius had not
discussed how he was to be kept away from this night's business. 'The duke
sent him and the men to Atyion for the rents." Mynir led them
into the darkened audience hall. "The women have all been sent
to sleep at the Palace, so as not to disturb the princess in her
labor. It's just your Nari and myself tonight, Mistress. I'll fetch
the duke." He hurried up the sweeping staircase. A fire
burned in the great fireplace across the chamber, but no lamps were
lit. Arkoniel turned slowly, trying to make out the familiar shapes
of furniture and hangings. This house had always been alive with
music and gaiety. Tonight it seemed like a tomb. 'Is that
you, lya?" a deep voice called. Rhius strode down the stairs to
meet them. He was nearly forty now, a handsome, broadly built
warrior, with arms and hands knotted from a life spent clutching a
sword or the reins. Tonight, however, his skin was sallow beneath his
black beard and his short tunic was sweated through as if he'd been
running or fighting. Warrior that he was, he stank of fear. He stared
at Lhel, then seemed to sag. "You found one." lya handed
her cloak to the steward. "Of course, my lord." A ragged
scream rang out overhead. Rhius clutched a fist to his heart. "There
was no need for the herbs to start the birthing pangs. Her waters
broke at midmorning. She's been like this since sunset. She keeps
begging for her own women—" Lhel
muttered something to lya, who interpreted the question for the duke. 'She asks
if your lady has any issue of blood?" 'No. Your
woman keeps claiming all is well, but—" Upstairs,
Ariani cried out again and Arkoniel's stom ach lurched. The poor
woman had no idea who was in her house this night. lya had given the
couple her solemn pledge to protect any daughter born to the royal
house; she had not revealed to the child's mother the means the
Lightbearer had given her to do so. Only Rhius knew. Ambition had
guaranteed his consent. 'Come, it's
time." lya started for the stairs, but Rhius caught her by the
arm. 'Are you
certain this is the only way? Couldn't you just take one of them
away?" lya regarded him coldly. She stood two steps above him
and in this light she looked for an instant like a stone effigy. "The
Lightbearer wants a queen. You want your child to rule. This is the
price. The favor of Illior is with us in this." Rhius
released her and sighed heavily. "Come then, and let's be done
with it." Rhius followed the two women up and Arkoniel followed
him, close enough to hear the duke murmur, "There will be other
babes." Princess
Ariani's bedchamber was stifling. The others went to the bed, but
Arkoniel halted just inside the doorway, overwhelmed by the heavy
odor of the birthing chamber. He'd never
seen this part of the house before. Under different circumstances
he'd have thought it a pretty room. The walls and carved bed were
covered with bright hangings embroidered with fanciful underwater
scenes, and the marble mantel was carved with dolphins. A familiar
workbasket lay on a chair by the shuttered window; a cloth head and
arm protruded from beneath the half-open lid—one of the
princess' lady dolls, half finished. Ariani was famous for her clever
handiwork and all the great ladies of Ero and some of the lords had
one. Tonight the
sight of this one knotted Arkoniel's guts. Through the
half-open bed hangings he could see the bulging curve of Ariani's
belly and one clenched hand gleaming with costly rings. A plump,
sweet-faced serving woman stood over Ariani, murmuring to her as she
bathed the laboring woman's face. This was Nari, a widowed kinswoman
of lya's, chosen to be the child's wetnurse. lya had intended for
Nari to bring her own babe to be the companion of Ariani's, but the
gods had other plans. A few weeks earlier Nari's child had succumbed
to pneumonia. Even in her grief, Nari had faithfully squeezed the
milk from her breasts to keep it flowing. The front of her loose gown
was stained with it. Lhel set to
work, issuing quiet orders while she laid out the things she needed
at the end of the bed: bunches of herbs, a thin silver knife, needles
of bone, and a skein of silk thread, impossibly fine. Ariani
lurched up with another wail and Arkoniel caught a glimpse of her
face, glassy-eyed and drugged now, behind a tangle of lustrous black
hair. The
princess was not much older than he was, and though he seldom allowed
himself to think on it, he had harbored a secret admiration for her
ever since her marriage to Rhius had brought Arkoniel into her
sphere. Ariani was the most beautiful woman he'd ever seen and she'd
always treated him graciously. Hot shame washed over him; this was
how her kindness was repaid. Too soon
lya turned and motioned for him to join her by the bed. "Come,
Arkoniel, we need you now." He and Nari
held Ariani's feet as the witch felt between her thighs. Ariani
moaned and tried weakly to pull away. Blushing furiously, Arkoniel
kept his face turned away until Lhel had finished her examination,
then hastily retreated. Lhel washed
her hands in a basin, then bent to pat Ariani's cheek. "Is good,
keesa." 'There
are—there are two, aren't there, Midwife?" Ariani gasped
faintly. Arkoniel
shot lya a concerned look, but she only shrugged. "A woman needs
no midwife to tell her how many babes she has in her belly." Nari brewed
a dish of tea from some of the witch's herbs and helped Ariani to sip
it. After a few moments, the woman's breathing slowed and she grew
quiet. Climbing onto the bed, Lhel massaged Ariani's belly, all the
while murmuring to her in a soothing, singsong voice. 'The first
child must be turned into position to enter the world so that the
other may follow," lya translated for Rhius, who stood now in
agonized silence by the head of the bed. Lhel moved
so that she was kneeling between Ariani's knees, still rubbing her
belly. After a few moments the witch let out a soft cry of triumph.
Watching from the corner of his eye, Arkoniel saw her lift a wet
little head into view with one hand. With the other, she held the
child's nostrils and mouth shut until the rest of it was birthed. 'Girl
keesa," she announced, taking her hand from the child's face. Arkoniel
let out a gasp of relief as the girl child sucked in her first
lungful of air. This was the sbaimari, the
"soul's breath" that the witch was so concerned with. Lhel cut
the birth cord with her silver knife and held the child up for all to
see. The baby was well formed under the birth muck and had a thick
head of wet black hair. 'Thank the
Lightbringer!" Rhius exclaimed, leaning down to kiss his
sleeping wife's brow. "A first-born girl, just as the Oracle
promised!" 'And look,"
said Nari, leaning forward to touch a tiny wine-colored birthmark on
the child's left forearm. "She has a favor mark, too, just like
a rosebud." lya gave Arkoniel a tight, triumphant smile. "Here's
our future queen, my boy." Tears of
joy blurred Arkoniel's vision and tightened his throat, but the
moment was tainted by the knowledge that their work was not yet
finished. While Nari
bathed the girl child, Lhel began coaxing forth the twin. Ariani's
head lolled limply against the pillow. Rhius retreated to the
fireplace, mouth set in a grim line. Tears of a
different sort stung Arkoniel's eyes. Forgive us,
my sweet lady, he prayed, unable to look away. Despite
Lhel's efforts, the second child came wrong way around, a footling
breach. Muttering steadily in her own tongue, Lhel worked the other
leg free and the little body slid out. 'Boy
keesa," Lhel said softly, hand poised to cover the child's face
as it emerged, to prevent that all-important first breath so that the
soul might not be fixed in the flesh. Suddenly,
however, there was a loud clatter of horsemen in the street outside,
and a shout of, "Open in the name of the king!" Lhel was as
startled as the rest of them. In that instant of distraction the
child's head slipped free of his mother's body and he sucked a
breath, strong and clear. 'By the
Light!" lya hissed, whirling on the witch. Lhel shook her head
and bent over the squirming babe. Arkoniel backed quickly away,
unable to watch what must follow. He shut his eyes so tightly he saw
flashes of light behind the lids, but he could not escape the sound
of the child's loud, healthy cry, or the way it suddenly choked off.
The silence in its wake left him dizzy and sick. What
followed seemed to take a very long time, although in truth they had
only minutes. Lhel took the living child from Nari and placed her on
the bed next to her dead twin. Chanting over them, she drew patterns
in the air and the living child went still. When Lhel took up her
knife and needle, Arkoniel had to turn away again. Behind him, he
could hear Rhius weeping softly. Then lya
was at his side, pushing him out into the cold corridor. "Go
downstairs and hold off the king. Keep him as long as you can! I'll
send Nari down when it's safe." 'Hold him
off? How?" The door
swung shut in his face and he heard the key turn. 'Very well,
then." Arkoniel dried his face on his sleeve and ran his hands
back through his hair. At the top of the staircase he paused and
turned his face up to the unseen moon, sending a silent prayer to
Illior. Aid my faltering tongue, Lightbearer, or
cloud the king's eyes. Or both, if it's not asking too much. He wished
now that Captain Tharin was here. The tall, quiet knight had a manner
that put everyone at their ease. With a lifetime of hunting,
fighting, and court intrigue behind him, he was far better suited
than a green young wizard to entertain a man like Erius. CO, fynir had
lit the bronze lamps that hung between the painted stone pillars in
the hall and stoked the fire with cedar logs and sweet resins to make
a fragrant blaze. Erius stood beside the hearth, a tall and daunting
figure in the firelight. Arkoniel bowed deeply to him. Like Rhius,
the king had been shaped by a lifetime of war, but his face was still
handsome and filled with a youthful good humor that even a childhood
spent in his mother's court had not extinguished. Only in recent
years, as the royal tomb filled with the bodies of his female kin,
had some come to regard that kindly visage as a mask for a darker
heart, one that had perhaps learned his mother's lessons after all. As Arkoniel
had suspected, the king had not come alone. His court wizard, Lord
Niryn, was there, close to the king as the man's own shadow. He was a
plain fellow somewhere in his second age, but whatever gifts he
possessed had lifted him high and quickly. For years Erius had had no
more use for wizards than his mother, but since the death of the
king's wife and children, Niryn's star had risen steadily at court.
Lately he'd taken to wearing his thick red beard forked and had
affected costly white robes embroidered with silver. He
acknowledged Arkoniel with a slight nod, and the younger wizard bowed
respectfully. Erius had
brought along a priest of Sakor, as well, together
with a dozen of his own guard in their pick spurs and gold badges.
Arkoniel's stomach did an uneasy roll as he caught the glint of mail
beneath their red tunics and saw the long knives they carried at
their belts. It seemed an odd sort of company to bring into a royal
house on such an occasion. He forced a
respectful smile, wondering bitterly who had alerted Erius. One of
the household women, perhaps? Clearly Erius had been prepared for
this visit, despite the hour. The king's greying beard and curly
black hair were neatly combed. His velvet robes looked as fresh as if
he'd been on his way to the audience hall. The Sword of Gherilain,
symbol of Skalan rule, hung at his hip. 'My king,"
Arkoniel bowed again. "Your honored sister is still in the midst
of her pains. Duke Rhius sends his respects and asks me to sit with
you until he is able to attend you himself." Erius
raised an eyebrow in surprise. "Arkoniel? What are you doing
here? Last I knew, neither you nor that mistress of yours practices
midwifery." 'No, my
king. I was guesting here tonight and have been making myself
useful." Arkoniel was suddenly aware of the other wizard's
steady gaze. Niryn's bright brown eyes protruded a bit, giving him a
perpetually surprised air that the younger wizard found unsettling.
He carefully veiled his mind, praying he was strong enough to keep
Niryn from his thoughts without the other man suspecting. 'Your
honored sister's labor is a difficult one, I fear, but she will be
delivered soon," he continued, then wished he hadn't. The king
had attended the births of all his own children. If Erius decided to
go upstairs, there was nothing he could do, short of magic, to
prevent it. And with Niryn here, even that risky avenue was closed to
him. Perhaps
Illior had heeded his prayer after all, for Erius shrugged agreeably
and sat down at a gaming table by the hearth. "How's your skill
with the stones?" he asked, waving Arkoniel to the other chair.
"These birthings generally take longer than you'd expect,
especially the first. We may as well pass the time pleasantly." Hoping his
relief was not too obvious, Arkoniel sent Mynir off for wine and
sweets, then settled down to losing as best he could. Niryn sat
beside them, pretending to observe the play, but Arkoniel still felt
the pressure of his regard. Sweat prickled under his arms and down
his back. What did the man want? Did he know something? He nearly
dropped the gaming stones when Niryn suddenly asked, "Do you
dream, young man?" 'No, my
lord," Arkoniel replied. "Or if I do, I don't recall them
when I wake up." This was
true enough; he seldom dreamed in the normal sense, and foreknowing
dreams had so far proven to be outside his ken. He waited for Niryn
to pursue the question, but he only sat back and stroked the tips of
his forked beard, looking bored. Arkoniel
was in the midst of his third game of Geese and Squares when Nari
came downstairs. 'Duke Rhius
sends his regards, Your Majesty," she said, curtsying low. "He
asks if you would like your new nephew brought down to view?" 'Nonsense!"
Erius exclaimed, setting the stones aside. "Tell your master his
brother is happy to come to him." Again,
Arkoniel had an uneasy sense that the king meant more than he said. That sense
grew stronger when Niryn and the priest accompanied them upstairs.
Nari caught Arkoniel's eye as they followed and gave him a quick nod;
lya and Lhel must already be safely away. Entering Ariani's room,
Arkoniel could sense no trace of magic, Oreska or otherwise. Duke Rhius
stood on the far side of the bed, holding his wife's hand. The
princess was still blessedly asleep, no doubt well drugged. With her
black hair combed back smoothly and a hectic spot of color high on
each cheek, she looked like one of her own dolls. Rhius
lifted the swaddled child from the bed and brought it to the king.
He'd recovered enough to act his part with dignity. 'Your
nephew, my liege," he said, placing the infant in Erius' arms.
"With your leave, he shall be named Tobin Erius Akandor, in
honor of your father's line." 'A son,
Rhius!" Erius undid the swaddling with a gentle, practiced hand. Arkoniel
held his breath and blanked his mind as Niryn and the priest extended
their hands over the sleeping child. Neither appeared to notice
anything amiss; Lhel's magic had covered all trace of the abomination
she'd wrought on the little body. And who would think to look for
hill witch magic in the chamber of the king's own sister? 'A fine
boy, Rhius, to bear such a name," Erius said. The birthmark
caught his eye. "And look at the favor mark he bears. On his
left arm, too. Niryn, you know how to read such things. What does
this one mean?" 'Wisdom,
Your Majesty," the wizard told him. "A most favorable trait
in your son's future companion." 'Indeed it
is," the king said. "Yes, you have my leave, brother, and
my blessing. And I've brought a priest to make an offering for our
little warrior." 'You have
my thanks, brother," said Rhius. The priest
went to the hearth and began his droning prayers, casting resins and
little wax offerings into the flames. 'By the
Flame, he'll make a great playfellow for my Korin in a few years'
time," the king went on. "Just think of the two of them,
hunting and learning the sword together when your Tobin comes to join
the Companions. Just like you and I were, eh? But there was a twin,
too, I believe?" Yes,
thought Arkoniel, the king's spies had been thorough, after all. Nari bent
down and lifted another tiny bundle from behind the bed. Keeping her
back to the princess, she brought it around to the king. "A poor
little girl child, my king. Never drew breath." Erius and
the others examined the dead child just as closely, moving its
flaccid limbs about, verifying the gender, and feeling its chest and
neck for signs of life. Watching from the corner of his eye, Arkoniel
saw the king cast a quick, questioning look at his wizard. They
know something. They're seeking something, Arkoniel thought
dizzily. Niryn's question about dreams suddenly took on a dire
resonance. Had the man had a vision of his own, a vision of this
child? If so, then Lhel's magic did its work again, for the older
wizard replied with a quick shake of his head. Whatever they were
looking for, they hadn't found it here. Arkoniel glanced away before
any expression of relief could betray him. The king
handed the body back to Nari and clasped Rhius by the shoulders.
"It's a hard thing, losing a child. Sakor knows I still grieve
for my lost ones and their dear mother. It's cold comfort for you, I
know, but it's best this way, before you'd both gotten attached." 'As you
say," Rhius replied softly. Giving
Rhius a last brotherly thump on the shoulder, Erius went to the bed
and kissed his sister gently on the forehead. The sight
made the blood pound in Arkoniel's head as he thought of the
swordsmen in the hall below. This usurper, this killer of girls and
women, might love his little sister enough to spare her life, but as
the Lightbearer had shown, that forbearance did not extend to her
children. He kept his gaze fixed on the floor as the king and his
councilors swept out, imagining how differently this little drama
would have played out if Erius had found a living girl child here. As soon as
the door closed behind them, Arkoniel's knees turned to water and he
sank into a chair. But the
ordeal was not yet over. Ariani opened her eyes and saw the dead
child Nari held. Pulling herself up against the bolsters, she held
out her arms for it. "Thank the Light! I knew I heard a second
cry, but I had the most awful dream—" The nurse
exchanged a look with Rhius and Ariani's smile faltered. "What
is it? Give me my child." 'It was
stillborn, my love," Rhius said. "Let it be. Look, here's
our fine son." 'No, I
heard it cry!" Ariani insisted. Rhius
brought little Tobin to her, but she ignored him, staring instead at
the child the nurse held. "Give him to me, woman! I command it!" There was
no dissuading her. Ignoring the soft cry of the living child, she
took the dead one in her arms and her face went whiter still. Arkoniel
knew in that instant that Lhel's magic could not deceive the child's
mother the way that it had the others. Twisting his mind to see
through her eyes, he caught a glimpse of the strips of skin Lhel had
cut from each child's breast and sewn with spider-fine stitches into
the wound left on its twin, just over the heart. With this exchange
of flesh, the transformation had been sealed. The girl child would
retain the semblance of male form for as long as lya deemed
necessary, just as her dead brother had taken her form to deceive the
king. 'What have
you done?" Ariani gasped, staring up at Rhius. 'Later, my
love, when you're rested— Give that one back to Nari and take
your son. See how strong he is? And he has your blue eyes—" 'Son? That
is no son!" Ariani cut him off with a venomous glare. No amount
of reasoning prevailed. When Rhius tried to take the dead child from
her, she lurched from the bed and fled to the far corner of the room,
clutching the tiny corpse against her stained nightdress. 'This is
too much!" Arkoniel whispered. Going to the frantic woman, he
knelt before her. She looked
up at him in surprise. "Arkoniel? Look, I have a son. Isn't he
pretty?" Arkoniel
tried to smile. "Yes, Your Highness, he's—he's perfect."
He touched her brow gently, clouding her mind and sending her once
more into a deep sleep. "Forgive me." He reached
for the little body, then froze in fear. The dead
child's eyes were open. Blue as a kitten's one moment, the irises
went black as Arkoniel watched and fixed accusingly on him. An
unmistakable chill radiated from the little body, slowly spreading to
envelop the wizard. This was
the cost of that first breath. The spirit of the murdered child had
been drawn into its body just long enough to take hold and become a
ghost, or worse. 'By the
Four, what's happening?" Rhius rasped, leaning over him. 'There's
nothing to fear," Arkoniel said quickly, though in truth this
tiny unnatural creature struck fear to the core of his heart. Nari knelt
beside him and whispered, "The witch said to take it away
quickly. She said you must put it in the ground under a large tree.
There's a great chestnut in the rear courtyard by the summer kitchen.
The roots will hold the demon down. Hurry! The longer it stays here,
the stronger it will grow!" It took
every bit of courage Arkoniel possessed to touch the dead child.
Taking it from Ariani's arms, he covered its face with a corner of
the wrappings and hurried out. Nari was right; the waves of icy
coldness pouring from the lifeless body grew stronger by the moment.
They made his joints ache as he bore it downstairs and out through
the back passage of the house. The moon
watched like an accusing eye as Arkoniel placed his cursed burden at
the foot of the chestnut tree and mouthed, forgive
me once more. But he expected no forgiveness for this night's
work and wept as he wove his spell. His tears fell on the litde
bundle as he bent to watch it sink down into the earth's cold embrace
between the gnarled roots. The faint
wail of an infant came to him on the cold night air and he shuddered,
not knowing if it came from the living child or the dead one. T?or
all their power, these Oreska wizards are very stu-JL pid.
And arrogant, Lhel thought as lya urged her down a back stair
and away from the cursed house. The witch
spat thrice to the left, hoping to cut the bad luck that had bound
them together all these •weeks. A real storm crow, this wizard.
Why hadn't she seen it sooner? Lhel had
scarely had time to finish the last stitch on the living child before
the elder wizard was urging her away. "I'm not finished! The
spirit—" 'The king
is downstairs!" lya hissed, as if this should mean something to
her. "If he finds you here, we'll all be spirits. I will force
you if I must." What choice
did she have? So Lhel had followed, thinking, Be
it on your head, then. But the
further they got from that house, the more it weighed on her heart.
To treat the dead so brutally was a dangerous affront to the Mother,
and to Lhel's craft. This wizard woman had no honor, to abandon a
child's spirit like that. Arkoniel might have been made to listen,
but Lhel had long since realized that he had no voice in the matter.
Their god had spoken to lya and lya would listen to no other. Lhel spat
again, just for good measure. Ijhe lei
had dreamed the coming of the two wizards for a full month before
they'd appeared in her village: a man boy and an old woman who
carried a strange burden in a bag. Every divination she'd done as she
awaited their arrival indicated that it was the Mother's will. Lhel
must give them whatever aid they asked. When lya and Arkoniel did
finally arrive, they claimed that a vision from their own moon god
had brought them to her. Lhel had taken this as an auspicious sign. Still, she
had been surprised at the nature of their request. Oreska must be a
pale, milk-fed sort of magic, indeed, for two people possessed of
such powerful souls not to have the craft to make a simple skin
binding. Had she understood then the true depth of their ignorance,
she might have tried to share more of her knowledge with them before
the time came to use it. But she
hadn't understood until it was too late, until the moment her hand
had faltered, letting the boy child draw his first breath. lya would
not wait for the necessary cleansing sacrifice. There was no time for
anything but to complete the binding and flee, leaving the angry new
spirit lost and alone. Ajhel
balked again as the city gate came into sight ahead of them. "You
cannot leave such a spirit earthbound!" she said again,
struggling to free her wrist from lya's grasp. "It grows to a
demon before you know it, and then what will you do, you who couldn't
bind it in the first place?" 'I will
deal with it." 'You are a
fool." lya turned, bringing their faces close together. "I
am saving your life, woman, and that of the child and her family! If
the king's wizard caught so much as a whiff of you we'd all be
executed, starting with that baby. She's all that matters now, not
you or me or anyone else in this whole wretched land. It's the will
of Illior." Once again,
Lhel felt the massive power coursing through the wizard. Different
lya might be and possessed of unfamiliar magic, but there was no
question that she was god-touched, and more than a match for Lhel. So
she'd let herself be led away, leaving the child and its skin-bound
twin behind in the stinking city. She hoped Arkoniel had found a
strong tree to hold the spirit down. V>hey
bought horses and traveled together for two days. Lhel said little,
but prayed silently to the Mother for guidance. When they reached the
edge of the highlands, she allowed lya to give her into the care of a
band of carava-neers heading west into the mountains. As they parted,
lya had even tried to make peace with her. 'You did
well, my friend," she said, her hazel eyes sad as she took
Lhel's hands. "Stay safe in your mountains and all will be well.
We must never meet again." Lhel chose
to ignore the thinly veiled threat. Fishing in a pouch at her belt,
she drew out a little silver amulet made in the shape of a full moon
flanked on either side by slender crescents. "For when the child
takes woman form again." lya held it on her palm. "The
Shield of the Mother." 'Keep it
hidden. It's only for women. As a boy, she must wear this." She
gave lya a short hazel twig capped on both ends with burnished copper
bands. lya shook
her head. "It's too dangerous. I'm not the only wizard to have
studied your ways." 'Then you
keep them for her!" Lhel urged. "This child will need much
magic to survive." lya closed her hand around the amulets, wood
and silver together. "I will, I promise you. Farewell." Ajhel
stayed with the caravan for three days, and each day the black, cold
weight of the dead child's spirit lay heavier on her heart. Each
night its cry grew louder in her dreams. She prayed to the shining
Mother to show her why she had sent her here to create such a thing
and what she must do to make the world right again. The Mother
answered, and on the third night Lhel danced the dreamsleep dance for
her guides, seducing away just enough of their thoughts to remove any
memory of her and the supplies she took with her. Guided by a
waning white sliver of moon, she threw her traveling sack over her
horse's neck and turned back for the stinking city. In the
uneasy days following the birth, only Nari and the duke attended
Ariani. Rhius sent word to Tharin, sending the captain on to the
estate at Cirna to keep him away a while longer. A silence
fell over the household; black banners flew on the roof peaks,
proclaiming mourning for the supposed stillbirth. On the household
altar, Rhius set a fresh basin of water and burned the herbs sacred
to Astellus, who smoothed the water road to birth and death and
protected new mothers from childbed fever. Sitting at
Ariani's bedside each day, however, Nari knew it was not fever that
ailed the woman, but a deep sickness of heart. Nari was old enough to
remember Queen Agnalain's last days and prayed that her daughter was
not afflicted with the same curse of madness. Day after
day, night after night, Ariani tossed against her pillows, waking to
cry out, "The child, Nari! Don't you hear him? He's so cold." 'The child
is well, Your Highness," Nari told her each time. "See,
Tobin is in the cradle here beside you. Look how plump he is." But Ariani
would not look at the living child. "No, I hear him," she
would insist, staring around wildly. "Why have you shut him
outside? Fetch him in at once!" 'There's no
child outside, Your Highness. You were only dreaming again." Nari spoke
the truth, for she'd heard nothing, but some of the other servants
claimed to have heard an infant's cry in the darkness outside. Soon a
rumor spread through the house that the second child had been
stillborn with its eyes open; everyone knew that demons came into the
world through such births. Several serving maids had been sent back
to Atyion already with orders to keep their gossip to themselves.
Only Nari and Mynir knew the truth behind the second child's death. Loyalty to
the duke guaranteed Mynir's silence. Nari owed allegiance to lya. The
wizard had been a benefactress to her family for three generations
and there were times during those first few chaotic days when only
that bond kept the nurse from running back to her own village, lya
had said nothing of demons when Nari agreed to serve. In the end,
however, she stayed for the child's sake. Her milk flowed freely as
soon as she put the dark-haired little mite to her breast, and with
it all the tenderness she'd thought she'd lost when her husband and
son had died. Maker knew neither the princess nor her husband had any
to spare for the poor child. They must
all call Tobin "he" and "him" now. And thanks to
the outlandish magic the witch had worked with her knives and
needles, Tobin was to all appearances a fine healthy boy child. He
slept well, nursed vigorously, and seemed happy with whatever
attention was paid him, which was little enough by his own folk. 'They'll
come 'round, little pet my love," Nari would croon to him as he
dozed contentedly in her arms. "How could they not and you so
sweet?" is
Tobin thrived, however, his mother sank ever faster into a darkness
of spirit. The bout of fever passed, but Ariani kept to her bed. She
still would not touch her living child, and she would not even look
at her husband, or her brother either, when he came to call. Duke Rhius
was near despair. He sat with her for hours, enduring her silence,
and brought in the most skilled drysians from the temple of Dalna.
But the healers found no illness of the body to cure. On the
twelfth day after the birth, however, the princess began to show
signs of rallying. That afternoon, Nari found her curled in an
armchair next to the fire, sewing a doll. The floor around her was
littered with scraps of muslin, clumps of stuffing wool, snippets of
embroidery silks and thread. The new
doll was finished by nightfall—a boy with no mouth. Another
just like it followed the next day, and another. She did not bother
to dress the things, but cast each aside as soon as the last stitch
was tied off and immediately began on another. By week's end half a
dozen of the things were lined up on the mantelpiece. 'They're
very pretty, my love, but why not finish the faces?" Duke Rhius
asked, sitting faithfully by her bedside each night. 'So they
won't cry," Ariani hissed, needle flying as she stitched an arm
to a wool-packed body. "The crying is sending me mad!" Nari looked
away so as not to embarrass the duke by seeing his tears. It was the
first time since the birth that Ariani had spoken to him. This seemed
to encourage the duke. He sent for Captain Tharin that very night and
began to talk of the child's presentation feast. ,''l.riani
told no one of the dreams that plagued her. Who could she tell? Her
own trusted nurse, Lachi, had been sent away weeks ago, replaced by
this stranger who would not leave her side. Nari was some relation of
lya's, Rhius had told her, and that only made Ariani hate her all the
more. Her husband, her brother, the wizards, this woman—they'd
all betrayed her. When she thought of that terrible night, all she
remembered was a circle of faces looking down on her without pity.
She despised them. Exhaustion
and grief had weighed down on her like a stack of wool quilts at
first, and her mind had drifted in a grey fog. Daylight and darkness
seemed to play sport with her; she never knew what to expect when she
opened her eyes, or whether she dreamed or woke. At first
she thought that the horrid midwife lya had brought had returned. But
soon she realized it must be a dream or waking vision that brought
the dark little woman to her bedside each night. She always appeared
surrounded by a circle of shifting light, mouthing silent words at
Ariani and gesturing with stained fingers for her to eat and drink.
It went on for days, this silent pantomime, until Ariani grew used to
her. At last she began to make out something of what the woman
whispered and the words pulled fire and ice through her veins. It was then
that Ariani began to sew again, and forced herself to eat the bread
and thin soups Nari brought. The task the witch had set for her would
take strength. C,'he
child's presentation took place a fortnight after the birth. Ariani
refused to come downstairs and Nari thought this just as well. The
princess' strength was returning, but she was still too strange for
company. She would not dress and seldom spoke. Her shining black hair
was dull and tangled for want of care and her blue eyes stared
strangely, as if she was seeing something the rest could not. She
slept, she ate, and she sewed doll after mouthless doll. Duke Rhius
saw to it that word of a difficult lying-in was spread around the
Palatine, as well as rumors of his wife's deep and continuing grief
over the loss of the dead girl child. Her absence
did not mar the celebration too badly. All the principal nobles of
Ero crowded into the great hall that night until the whole room
seemed to shimmer with jewels and silks under the flickering lamps.
Standing with the servants by the wine table, Nari saw some
whispering be hind their hands and overheard a few speaking of
Ag-nalain's madness, wondering how the daughter could have gone the
way of the mother so quickly and with no warning at all. It was
unseasonably warm that night, and the soft patter of autumn rain
swept in through the open windows. The men of the duke's personal
guard stood at attention flanking the stairs, resplendent in new
green and blue. Sir Tharin stood to the left of the stairs in his
fine tunic and jewels, looking as pleased as if the child were his
own. Nari had taken to the lanky, fair-haired man the day she met
him, and liked him all the better for the way his face lit up the
first time he saw Tobin in his father's arms. The king
stood in the place of honor at the right of the staircase, holding
his own son on one broad shoulder. Prince Korin was a bright, plump
child of three, with his father's dark curls and bright brown eyes.
He bounced excitedly, craning his neck for a look at his new cousin
as Rhius appeared at the top of the stairs. The duke was resplendent
in his embroidered robe and circlet. Tobin's dark head was just
visible above the edge of his silken wrappings. 'Greetings
and welcome, my king and my friends!" Duke Rhius called out.
Descending to where the king stood, he went down on one knee and held
the child up. "My king, I present to you my son and heir, Prince
Tobin Erius Akandor." Setting
Korin down beside him, Erius took Tobin in his arms and showed him to
the priests and assembled nobles. "Your son and heir is
acknowledged before Ero, my brother. May his name be spoken with
honor among the Royal Kin of Skala." And that
was that, though the speechifying and drinking of toasts would go on
half the night. Nari shifted restlessly. It was past time to feed the
child and her breasts ached. She smiled as she heard a familiar
hiccuping whimper. Once Tobin started squalling for his supper they'd
soon let him go, and she could retreat to her quiet chamber at the
top of the house. Just then
one of the serving maids let out a startled squeak and pointed to the
wine table. "By the Four, it just toppled over!" The silver
mazer for Rhius' toast lay on its side, its contents splashed across
the dark polished wood beside the honey cake. 'I was
looking right at it," the maid went on, voice beginning to rise
dangerously. "Not a soul was near it!" 'I can see
that!" Nari whispered, silencing her with a pinch and a glare.
Whisking off her apron, she blotted up the spilled wine. It stained
the linen red as blood. Mynir
snatched the cloth away and balled it tightly under his arm, hiding
the stain. "By the Light, don't let any of the others see!"
he whispered. "That was a white wine!" Looking
down at her hands, Nari saw that they were stained red, too, where
the wine had wet them, though the droplets still clinging inside the
rim of the cup were a pale golden color. There was
just time to send the trembling girl away to fetch a fresh mazer
before the nobles came to make their toasts. Tobin was growing fussy.
Nari held him while the duke raised the cup and sprinkled a few drops
of wine over the child, then a few more over the honey cake in the
traditional offering to the Four. "To Sakor, to make my child a
great and just warrior with fire in his heart. To II-lior, for wisdom
and true dreaming. To Dalna, for many children and long life. To
Astellus, for safe journeys and a swift death." Nari
exchanged a quick look of relief with the steward as the droplets
sank away, leaving the cake's sticky surface unstained. As soon as
the brief ceremony was finished Nari carried Tobin upstairs. The babe
squirmed and grunted, nuzzling at her bodice. 'You're a
pet, you are," Nari murmured absently, still shaken by what
she'd witnessed. She thought of the spell sticks lya had left with
her, wondering if she should use one to summon the wizard back. But
lya had been very clear; she was only to use those in the direst
circumstances. Nari sighed and hugged Tobin closer, wondering where
such portents would lead. Passing
Ariani's door in the upper corridor, Nari caught sight of a small
patch of red on the wall, just above the rushes that covered the
floor. She bent for a closer look, then pressed a hand over her
mouth. It was the
bloody print of an infant's hand, splayed like a starfish. The blood
was still bright and wet. 'Maker keep
us, it's in the house!" Cheers and
applause burst out below. She could hear the king proclaiming a
blessing for Tobin's health. With trembling fingers, Nari wiped at
the mark with the edge of her skirt until the handprint smeared to a
pinkish smudge. She pushed the rushes up to cover it, then slipped
into Ariani's chamber, fearful of what she might find. The
princess sat by the fire, sewing away as madly as ever. For the first
time since the birth, she had changed her nightdress for a loose gown
and put on her rings again. The hem was wet and streaked with mud.
Ariani's hair hung in damp strands around her face. The window was
shut tight as always, but Nari could smell the night air on her, and
the hint of something else besides. Nari wrinkled her nose, trying to
place the raw, unpleasant odor. 'You've
been outside, Your Highness?" Ariani
smiled down at her needlework. "Just for a bit, Nurse. Aren't
you pleased?" 'Yes, my
lady, but you should have waited and I'd have gone with you. You're
not strong enough to be out on your own. What would the duke say?" Ariani
sewed on, still smiling over her work. 'Did you
see anything… unusual out there, Your Highness?" Nari
hazarded at last. Ariani
pulled a tuft of wool from a bag beside her and tucked it into the
muslin arm she'd sewn. "Nothing at all. Off with you now, and
fetch me something to eat. I'm famished!" Nari
mistrusted this sudden brightness. As she left, she could hear Ariani
humming softly to herself, and recognized the tune as a lullaby. She was
halfway to the kitchens when she placed the smell at last and let out
a snort of relief. Tomorrow she must tell the servants to bring in
one of the hounds to root out the dead mouse spoiling somewhere along
the upper corridor. Chapter
Arkoniel left Ero not knowing when he would see Ariani or her child
again. He met up with lya at an inn in Sylara and together they set
off to begin the next long stage of their mission. Despite
Arkoniel's strong misgivings, lya decided that it would be safest for
everyone if they kept their distance from the child. When Arkoniel
told her of his strange conversation with Niryn, it only strengthened
her resolve. Nari and the duke could get word to them by sending
messages to several inns that lya frequented in her travels. For
emergencies, she'd left Nari with a few small tokens; painted rods
that released a simple seeking spell when broken. No matter how far
away lya might be, she would feel the magic and return as quickly as
she could. 'But what
if we're too far away to reach them in time?" Arkoniel fretted,
unhappy with the situation. "And how can we leave them like
that? It all went wrong in the end, lya. You didn't see the demon in
the dead child's eyes. What if the tree can't hold it down?" But she
remained adamant. "They are safest with us away." Lnd so they
began their long wandering quest, seeking out anyone who had a spark
of magic in them, sounding out loyalties, listening to fears,
and—with a select few— cautiously sharing a glimpse of
lya's vision: a new confederation of Oreska wizards. She was patient,
and careful in her choices, winnowing out the mad and the greedy and
those too loyal to the king. Even with those she deemed trustworthy
she did not reveal her true purpose, but left them a small token—a
pebble picked up on the road— and the promise that she would
call on them again. Over the
next few years Niryn's words would come back to haunt them, for it
seemed that they were not the only ones spreading the idea of unity.
They learned from others they met on the road that the king's wizard
was gathering a following of his own at court. Arkoniel often
wondered •what answer these wizards had given to Niryn's oblique
question, and what their dreams had been. Che ic
drought that had heralded Tobin's birth broke, only to be followed by
another the following summer. The further south they went, the more
often they saw empty granaries and sickly livestock. Disease walked
the land in hunger's wake, striking down the weak like a wolf culling
a flock. The worst was a fever brought in by traders. The first sign
was bloody sweat, often followed by black swellings in the armpits
and groin. Few who showed both symptoms survived. The Red and Black
Death, as it came to be called, struck whole villages overnight,
leaving too few living to burn the dead. A plague of
a different sort struck the eastern coast: Plenimaran raiders. Towns
were looted and burned, the old women killed, the younger ones and
the children carried off as slaves in the raiders' black ships. The
men who survived the battle often met a crueler fate. lya and
Arkoniel entered one such village just after an attack and found half
a dozen young men nailed by the hands to the side of a byre; all had
been disemboweled. One boy was still alive, begging for water with
one breath and death with the next. lya gently gave him both. JLya
continued Arkoniel's education as they traveled, and was pleased to
see how his powers continued to flourish. He was the finest student
she'd ever had, and the most curious; for Arkoniel there were always
new vistas ahead, new spells to master. lya practiced what she
jokingly referred to as "portable magics," those spells
which relied more on wand and word than weighty components and
instruments. Arkoniel had a natural talent for these, and was already
beginning to create spells of his own, an unusual accomplishment for
so one so young. Driven by his concern for Rhius and Ariani, he
experimented endlessly with seeking spells, trying to expand their
limited powers, but with no success. lya
explained repeatedly that even Oreska magic had its limits, but he
would not be put off. In the
houses of the richer, more sedentary wizards, particularly those with
noble patrons, she saw him linger longingly in well-equipped
workrooms, examining the strange instruments and alchemists' vessels
he found there. Sometimes they guested long enough for him to learn
something from these wizards, and lya was delighted to see him so
willingly adding to what she could teach him. Content as
always to wander, lya could almost at times forget the responsibility
that hung over them. Almost. JJiving on
the road, they heard a great deal of news but were little touched by
most of it. When the first rumors of the King's Harriers reached
them, lya dismissed them as wild tales. This became harder to do,
however, when they met with a priest of Illior who claimed to have
seen them with his own eyes. 'The king
has sanctioned them," he told lya, nervously fingering the
amulet on his breast, so similar to the ones they wore. "The
Harriers are a special guard, soldiers and wizards both, charged with
hunting down traitors to the throne. They've burned a wizard at Ero,
and there are Illioran priests in the prison." 'Wizards
and priests?" Arkoniel scoffed. "No Skalan wizard has ever
been executed, not since the necromantic purges of the Great War! And
wizards hunting down their own kind?" But lya was
shaken. "Remember who we are dealing with," she warned when
they were safely alone in their rented chamber. "Mad Agnalain's
son has already killed his own kin to preserve his line. Perhaps
there's more of his mother in him than we feared." 'It's Niryn
leading them," Arkoniel said, thinking again of the way the
wizard had watched him the night of To-bin's birth. Had he been
seeking out followers even then? And what had he found in his
Harriers that he hadn't seen in Arkoniel? port two
From the private journal of Queen Tamir II, recently discovered in
the Palace Archives [Archivist's note: passage
undated] My father moved us to that lonely keep in the mountains not
long after my birth. He put it about that my mother's health required
it, but I'm sure by then all Ero knew she'd gone mad, just as her
mother had. When I think of her at all now, I remember a pale wraith
of a woman with nervous hands and a stranger's eyes the same color as
my own. My
father's ancestors built the keep in the days when hill folk still
came through the passes to raid the lowlands. It had thick stone
walls and narrow windows covered by splintery red-and-white painted
shutters—,' remember amusing myself by
picking off the scaling flakes outside my bedchamber window as I
stood there, watching for my father's return. A
tall, square watchtowerjutted from the back of the keep, next to the
river. I used to believe the demon lurked there, and watched me from
the windows whenever Nari or the men took me outside to play in the
courtyards or the meadow below the barracks house. 1 was kept inside
most of the time, though. 1 knew every dusty, shadowed room of the
lower floors by the time I could walk. That crumbling old pile was
all the world I knew, my first seven years—my
nurse and a handful of servants my only companions when Father and
his men were gone, which was all too often. And
the demon, of course. Only years later did I have any inkling that
all households were not like my own—that
it was unusual for invisible hands to pinch and push, or for
furniture to move about the room by itself. One of my earliest
memories is of sitting on Nari's lap as she taught me to bend my
little fingers into a warding sign— 'T'obin
knelt on the floor in his toy room, idly pushing a A little ship
around the painted harbor of the toy city. It was the carrack with
the crooked mast, the one the demon had broken. Tobin
wasn't really playing, though. He was waiting and watching the closed
door of his father's room across the corridor. Nari had closed the
door when they went in to talk, making it impossible to eavesdrop
from here. Tobin's
breath came out in a puff of white vapor as he sighed and bent to
straighten the ship's little sail. It was cold this morning; he could
smell frost on the early morning breeze through the open window. He
opened his mouth and blew several short breaths, making brief clouds
over the citadel. The toy
city, a gift from his father on his last name day, was his most
treasured possession. It stood almost as tall as Tobin and took up
half of this disused bedchamber next to his own. And it wasn't just a
toy, either. It was a miniature version of Ero itself, which his
father had made for him. 'Since
you're too young to go to Ero, I've brought Ero to you!" he'd
said when he gave it to him. "You may one day live here, even
defend it, so you must know the place." Since then,
they'd spent many happy hours together, learning the streets and
wards. Houses made from wooden blocks clustered thickly up the steep
sides of the citadel, and there were open spaces painted green for
the public gardens and pasturage. The great market square had a
temple to the Four surrounded by traders' booths made of twigs and
bright scraps of cloth. Baked clay livestock of all sorts populated
the little enclosures. The blue-painted harbor that jutted from one
side of the city's base outside the many-gated wall was filled with
pretty little ships that could be pushed about with a pole. The top of
the hill was flat and ringed with another wall called the Palatine
Circle, though it wasn't exactly round. Inside lay a great clutter of
houses, palaces, and temples, all with different names and stories.
There were more gardens here, as well as a fish pool made from a
silver mirror and an exercise field for the Royal Companions. This
last interested Tobin very much; the Companions were boys who lived
at the Old Palace with his cousin, Prince Korin, and trained to be
warriors. His father and Tharin had been Companions to King Erius
when they were young, too. As soon as Tobin had learned this, he
wanted to go at once but was told, as usual, that he must wait until
he was older. The biggest
building on the Palatine was the Old Palace. This had a roof that
came off, and several rooms inside. There was a throne room with a
tiny wooden throne, of course, and a tiny tablet of real gold beside
it, set in a little wooden frame. Tobin
lifted this out and squinted at the fine words engraved on it. He
couldn't read them, but he knew them by heart: "So long as a
daughter of Thelatimos' line defends and rules, Skala shall never be
subjugated." Tobin knew the legend of King Thelatimos and the
Oracle by heart, too. It was one of his father's favorite stories. The city
was populated by scores of little wooden stick people. He loved these
the best of anything in the city, and smuggled whole families of them
back to his bed to hold and talk to under the covers at night while
he waited for Nari to come up to bed. Tobin put the golden tablet
back, then lined up half a dozen stick people on the practice ground,
imagining himself among the Companions. Opening the flat,
velvet-lined box his father had brought home from another journey, he
took out the special people and lined them up on the palace roof to
watch the Companions at their exercises. These people—The Ones
Who Came Before—were much fancier than the stick ones; all but
one was made of silver. They had painted faces and clothes and each
carried the same tiny sword at their side, the Sword of Queen
Gherilain. His father had taught him their names and stories, too.
The silver man was King Thelatimos and next to him in the box was his
daughter, Gherilain the Founder—made queen of Skala because of
Oracle's golden words. After Gherilain came Queen Tamir, who was
poisoned by her brother who'd wanted to be king, then an Agnalain and
another Gherilain, then six more whose names and order he still mixed
up, and then Grandmama Agnalain the Second. The first and last queens
were his favorites. The first Gherilain had the finest crown;
Grandmama Agnalain had the nicest painting on her cloak. The last
figure in the box was a man carved of wood. He had a black beard like
Tobin's father, a crown, and two names: Your Uncle Erius and The
Present King. Tobin
turned the king over in his hands. The demon liked to break this one.
The litde wooden man would be standing on the Palace roof or lying in
his place in the box when suddenly his head would fly off or he'd
split right down the middle. After many mendings, Your Uncle was all
misshapen. Tobin
sighed again and put them all carefully back in the box. Not even the
city could hold his attention today. He turned and stared at the
door, willing it to open. Nari had gone in there ages ago! At last,
unable to stand the suspense any longer, he crept across the corridor
to listen. The rushes
covering the floor were old and crunched beneath his slippers no
matter how carefully he tiptoed. He looked quickly up and down the
short passage. To his left lay the stairs to the great hall. He could
hear Captain Tharin and old Mynir laughing about something there. To
his right, the door beside his father's was tightly shut and he hoped
this one stayed that way; his mama was having another one of her bad
spells. Satisfied
that he was alone for the moment, he pressed his ear to the carved
oak panel and listened. 'What harm
can there be, my lord?" That was Nari. Tobin wiggled with
delight. He'd nagged for weeks to get her to do battle on his behalf. His father
rumbled something, then he heard Nari again, gently cajoling the way
she did sometimes. "I know what she said, my lord, but with all
respect, he's growing up strange kept apart like this. I can't think
she wants that!" Who's
strange? Tobin wondered. And who was this mysterious "she"
who might object to him going to town with Father? It was his name
day, after all. He was seven today; surely old enough at last to make
the journey. And it wasn't so far to Alestun; when he picnicked on
the roof with Nari, they could look east over the valley and see the
cluster of roofs beyond the forest's edge. On a cold day he could
even make out smoke rising from the hearth fires there. It seemed a
small thing to ask for a present, just to go, and it was all he
wanted. The voices
went on, too soft now to make out. Please!
he mouthed, making a luck sign to the Four. The brush
of cold fingers against Tobin's cheek made him jump. Turning, he was
dismayed to find his mother standing right there behind him. She was
almost like a ghost herself, a ghost Tobin could see. She was thin
and pale, with nervous hands that fluttered about like dying birds
when she wasn't sewing the pretty rag dolls, or clutching the ugly
old one she was never without. It was tucked under her arm just now
and seemed to be staring at him, even though it had no face. He was as
surprised to find her here as he was to see her free. When Tobin's
father was home, she always kept to herself and avoided him. Tobin
liked it better when she did. It was
second nature for him now to steal a quick look into his mama's eyes;
Tobin had learned young to gauge the moods of those around him,
especially his mother's. Usually she simply looked at him like a
stranger, cold and distant. When the demon threw things or pinched
him, she would just hug her ugly old doll and look away. She almost
never hugged Tobin, though on the very bad days, she spoke to him as
if he were still a baby, or as if he were a girl. On those days
Father would shut her up in her chamber and Nari would make the
special teas for her to drink. But her
eyes were clear now, he saw. She was almost smiling as she held out a
hand to him. "Come, little love." She'd never
spoken to him like that before. Tobin glanced nervously at his
father's door, but she bent and captured his hand in hers. Her grip
was just a little too tight as she drew him to the locked door at the
end of the corridor, the one that led upstairs. 'I'm not
allowed up there," Tobin told her, his voice hardly more than a
squeak. Nari said the floors were unsound up there, and that there
were rats and spiders big as his fist. 'You may
come up with me," she said, producing a large key from her
skirts and opening the forbidden door. Stairs led
up to a corridor that looked very much like the one below, with doors
on either side, but this one was dusty and dank-smelling, and the
small, high-set windows were tightly shuttered. Tobin
glanced through an open door as they passed and saw a sagging bed
with tattered hangings, but no rats. At the end of the corridor his
mother opened a smaller door and led him up a very steep, narrow
stairway lit by a few arrow slits in the walls. There was hardly
enough light to make out the worn steps, but Tobin knew where they
were. They were
in the watchtower. He pressed
one hand to the wall for balance, but pulled it away again when his
ringers found patches of something rough that scaled away at his
touch. He was scared now, and wanted to run back down to the bright,
safe part of the house, but his mother still held his hand. As they
climbed higher, something suddenly flittered in the shadows
overhead—the demon, no doubt, or some worse terror. Tobin tried
to pull free, but she held him fast and smiled at him over her
shoulder as she led him up to a narrow door at the top. 'Those are
just my birds. They have their nests here and I have mine, but they
can fly in and out whenever they wish." She opened
the narrow door and sunlight flooded out. It made him blink as he
stumbled over the threshold. He'd always
thought the tower was empty, abandoned, except perhaps for the demon,
but here was a pretty little sitting room furnished more nicely than
any of the rooms downstairs. He gazed around in amazement, never
imagining his mother had such a delightful secret place. Faded
tapestries covered the windows on three sides, but the west wall was
bare and the heavy shutters open. Tobin could see sunlight shining on
the snow-covered peaks in the distance, and hear the rush of the
river below. 'Come,
Tobin," she urged, going to a table by the window. "Sit
with me a while on your name day." A little
spark of hope flared up in Tobin's heart and he edged further into
the room. She'd never remembered his birthday before. The room
was very cozy and comfortable. A long table stood against the far
wall, piled with doll-making goods. On another table, finished
dolls—dark-haired and mouthless as always, but dressed in
tunics of velvet and silk fancier than any Tobin owned—sat
propped in a double rank against the wall. Perhaps
she brought me here to give me one for my name day, he thought.
Even without mouths, they were very pretty. He turned hopefully to
his mother. For an instant he could almost see how she'd smile,
telling him to pick whichever one he liked best, a special present
just from her. But his mama just stood by the window, plucking
restlessly at the front of her skirt with the fingers of her free
hand as she stared down at the bare table in front of her. "I
should have cakes, shouldn't I? Honey cakes and wine." 'We always
have them in the hall," Tobin reminded her, casting another
longing glance at the dolls. "You were there last year,
remember? Until the demon knocked the cake on the floor and—" He faltered
to a stop as other memories of that day came back. His mother had
burst into tears when the demon came, then started screaming. His
father and Nari had carried her away and Tobin had eaten his broken
bits of cake in the kitchen with Cook and Tharin. 'The
demon?" A tear rolled down his mother's pale cheek and she
hugged the doll tighter. "How can they call him that?" Tobin
looked to the open doorway, gauging an escape. If she started
screaming now, he could run away down the stairs, back to people who
loved him and could be counted on to do what he expected. He wondered
if Nari would be angry with him for going upstairs. But his
mother didn't scream. She just sank into a chair and wept, clutching
the ugly doll to her heart. He started
to edge his way toward the door, but his mama looked so terribly sad
that instead of running away, he went to her and rested his head on
her shoulder, the way he did with Nari when she was sad and homesick. Ariani put
an arm around him and pulled him close, stroking
his unruly black hair. As usual, she hugged too hard, stroked too
roughly, but he stayed, grateful for even this much affection. For
once, the demon let him be. 'My poor
little babies," she whispered, rocking Tobin. "What are we
to do?" Reaching into her bodice, she took out a tiny pouch.
"Hold out your hand." Tobin
obeyed and she shook out two small objects: a silver moon charm, and
a little piece of wood capped on both ends with the red metal he'd
seen on the backs of shields. She picked
up one, then the other, and pressed them to Tobin's forehead as if
she expected something to happen. When nothing did, she tucked them
away again with a sigh. Still
holding Tobin close, she rose and drew him to the window. Lifting him
up with surprising strength, she stood him on the wide stone sill.
Tobin looked down between the toes of his slippers and saw the river
rushing in white curls around the rocks below. Frightened again, he
gripped the window casing with one hand, his mother's thin shoulder
with the other. 'Lhel!"
she shouted at the mountains. "What are we to do? Why don't you
come? You promised you'd come!" She gripped
the back of Tobin's tunic, pushing him slightly forward, threatening
his balance. 'Mama, I
want to get down!" Tobin whispered, clutching her harder. He turned
his head and looked into eyes that were cold and hard again. For an
instant she looked as if she didn't know who he was or what they were
doing here at this window so high above the ground. Then she yanked
him back and they both tumbled to the floor. Tobin bumped his elbow
and let out a yelp of pain. 'Poor baby!
Mama's sorry," his mother sobbed, but it was the doll she rocked
in her arms as she crouched there on the floor, not him. 'Mama?"
Tobin crept to her side, but she ignored him. Heartbroken
and confused, he ran from the room, wanting nothing more than to
escape the sound of her sobs. He was almost to the bottom of the
tower when something pushed him hard in the back and he fell the last
few steps, banging his shins and scuffing his palms. The demon
was with him, a dark shape flitting just at the edge of his vision.
Tobin couldn't recall just when he'd begun to see it, but he knew he
hadn't always been able to. It darted close and yanked at a stray
lock of his hair. Tobin
struck out wildly. "I hate you! I hate you I
hate you I hate your Hate you.' echoed back from the shadows
overhead. Tobin
limped back downstairs to the toy room, but even here the daylight
seemed tarnished. The savor of his earlier excitement had been
leeched away, and his shins and hands hurt. All he wanted was to
burrow under his bedcovers with the current family of friendly little
wooden people waiting there. As he turned to go, his father came in. 'There you
are!" Rhius exclaimed, hoisting Tobin up in his strong arms and
giving him a kiss. His beard tickled and suddenly the day seemed a
little brighter. "I've looked high and low for you. Where have
you been? And how did you manage to get so dusty?" Shame
welled up in Tobin's chest as he thought of the disastrous visit. "I
was just playing," he said, staring down at the heavy silver
broach on his father's shoulder. Rhius
slipped a rough, callused finger under Tobin's chin and examined a
smudge on his cheek. Tobin knew his father was thinking of the demon;
this at least they both understood without the need for words. 'Well now,
never mind that," he said, carrying Tobin next door to his room,
where they found Nari laying out a new set of clothes on the bed.
"Nari tells me you're old enough to ride down to Alestun with me
and look for a name day present. What do you think of that?" 'I can go?"
Tobin cried, all dark thoughts swept away for the moment. 'Not
looking like that, you can't!" his nurse exclaimed, sloshing
water into the basin on his washstand. "How did you manage to
get so dirty this early in the day?" His father
winked at him and went to the door. "I'll meet you in the front
court when you're presentable." Tobin
forgot all about his scraped shins and sore elbow as he dutifully
scrubbed his face and hands, then stood as still as he could while
Nari combed the tangles she called rats' nests from his hair. Dressed at
last in a fine new tunic of soft green wool and fresh leggings, he
hurried down to the courtyard. His father was waiting, as promised,
and all the rest of the household with him. 'Blessings
of the day, little prince!" everyone cried, laughing and hugging
him. Tobin was
so excited that at first he didn't even notice Tharin standing off to
one side, holding the bridle of a bay gelding Tobin had never seen
before. The horse
was a few spans shorter than his father's black palfrey and fitted
out with a child-sized saddle. His rough winter coat and mane had
been curried until they shone. 'Blessings,
my son," Rhius said, lifting Tobin up into the saddle. "A
lad old enough to ride to town needs his own horse to go on. He's
yours to care for, and to name." Grinning,
Tobin twitched the reins and guided the bay into a walk around the
courtyard. "I'll call him Chestnut. That's the color he is, just
like a chestnut shell." 'Then you
could also call him Gosi," his father told him with a twinkle in
his eye. 'Why is
that'" 'Because
this isn't just any horse. He's come all the way from Aurenen, just
as my black did. There are no finer mounts than that. All the nobles
of Skala ride Auren-faie horses now." Aurenfaie.
A flicker of memory stirred. Aurenfaie traders had come to their gate
one stormy night—wonderful, strange-looking folk with long red
scarves wrapped around their heads and tattoos on their cheeks. Nari
had sent him upstairs too early that night, but he'd hidden at the
top of the stairs and watched as they did colorful magics and played
music on strange instruments. The demon had scared them away, and
Tobin had seen his mother laughing with her doll in the shadows of
the disused minstrel's gallery. It was the first time he'd ever
realized he might hate her. Tobin
pushed the dark thoughts away; that had been a long time ago, nearly
two years. Aurenen meant magic and strange folk who bred horses fit
for Skalan nobles. Nothing more. He leaned
down to stroke the gelding's neck. "Thank you, Father! I'll call
him Gosi. Can I go to Aurenen someday?" 'Everyone
should go to Aurenen. It's a beautiful place." 'Here, take
these to make a name day offering at the temple." Nari passed
him up several little packets tied up in clean cloth. Tobin proudly
stowed them away in his new saddle pouch. 'I've a
gift for you, too, Tobin." Tharin pulled a long, cloth-wrapped
parcel from his belt and handed it up to him. Inside
Tobin found a carved wooden sword nearly as long as his arm. The
blade was thick and blunt, but the hilt was nicely carved and fitted
with real bronze quillons. "It's handsome! Thank you!" Tharin gave
him a wink. "We'll see if you thank me after we start using it.
I'm to be your swordmaster. I think we'll wear out a good many of
those before we're done, but there's the first." This was as
good a gift as the horse, even if the blade wasn't real. He tried to
brandish his new weapon, but it was heavier than he'd thought. His father
chuckled. "Don't you worry, my boy. Tharin will soon put you
through your paces. You'd best leave your weapon with Mynir for now,
though. We don't want you getting into any duels your first time
abroad." Tobin
surrendered it grudgingly to the steward, but soon forgot all about
it as he rode out the gate and across the bridge behind his father
and Tharin. For the first time in his life, he didn't have to stop at
the far end and wave good-bye to them. As they continued down through
the meadow, he felt like a warrior already, heading off to see the
wide world. Just before
they entered the trees, however, he felt a sudden crawly chill
between his shoulder blades, as if an ant had fallen down his tunic.
Turning, he glanced back at the keep and thought he saw the shutters
at the watch-tower's south window move. He turned away quickly. Leaves like
round gold coins paved the forest road. Others like hands of red or
orange wavered over head, together with oak leaves shiny and brown as
polished leather. Tobin
amused himself by practicing with rein and knees, getting Gosi to
trot at his command. 'Tobin
rides like a soldier already, Rhius," Tharin remarked, and
Tobin's heart swelled with pride. 'Do you
ride your horse at the Plenimarans in battle, Father?" he asked. 'When we
fight on land, but I have a great black war horse called Sakor's Fire
for that, with iron shoes that the smiths sharpen before every
battle." 'Why have I
never seen that horse?" Tobin demanded. 'He stays
at Atyion. That sort of mount is only suited for battle. He's strong
and fast and has no fear of blood or fire, but it's rather like
riding a crate on square wheels. Old Majyer here and your Gosi are
proper riding mounts." 'Why can't
I ever go to Atyion?" Tobin asked, and not for the first time. The answer
often varied. Today his father just smiled and said, "You will,
someday." Tobin
sighed. Perhaps now that he was old enough to ride his own horse,
"someday" would come soon? V,'he ride
to town was much shorter than Tobin had imagined. The sun had moved
less than two hours across the sky when they passed the first
cottages beside the road. The trees
grew thinner here, mostly oak and aspen, and Tobin could see herds of
pigs snuffling in the mast beneath their branches. A mile or so
further and the forest gave way to open meadow, where flocks of sheep
and goats grazed under the watchful eye of shepherds not much older
than Tobin. They waved to him and he returned the gesture shyly. They soon
met more people on the road, driving carts pulled by goats or oxen,
or carrying loads in long baskets on their backs. A trio of young
girls in short, dirty shifts stared at Tobin as he rode past and
talked to each other behind their hands as they followed him with
their eyes. 'Get home
to your mothers," Tharin growled in a voice Tobin had never
heard him use before. The girls jumped like startled rabbits and fled
across the ditch, but Tobin could hear laughter in their wake. A river
flowed down out of the hills to the town and the road bent to follow
its bank to Alestun. Fields laid out in broad strips surrounded the
town. Some were tilled for spring; others were yellow and brown with
autumn stubble. His father
pointed to a group of people at work in a barley field, gathering the
last sheaves of the harvest. "We've been lucky here. In some
parts of the country the plague has killed off so many folk the
fields have gone to ruin for want of laborers. And those who don't
die of the illness starve." Tobin knew
what plague was. He'd heard the men talking about it in the barracks
yard when they thought he couldn't hear. It made your skin bleed and
black lumps grow under your arms. He was glad it hadn't come here. By the time
they neared the wooden palisade of the town, Tobin was round-eyed
with excitement. There were more people than ever here and he waved
to them all, delighted to see so many folk at once. Many waved back
and saluted his father respectfully, but a few stared at him as the
girls by the road had. Just
outside the walls a mill stood on the riverbank. There was a large
oak tree beside it, full of children, girls and boys alike, swinging
out over the water on long ropes tied to its branches. 'Are they
being hanged?" Tobin gasped as they rode past. He'd heard of
such punishments but hadn't pictured it quite like this. The children
seemed to be enjoying themselves. His father
laughed. "No, they're playing at swings." 'Could I do
that?" The two men
exchanged an odd look that Tobin couldn't quite decipher. 'Would you
like to?" asked Tharin. Tobin
looked back at the laughing children clambering like squirrels among
the branches. "Maybe." At the gate
a pikeman stepped forward and bowed to his father, touching a hand to
his heart. "Good day to you, Duke Rhius." 'Good day
to you, Lika." 'Say, this
fine young fellow wouldn't be your son, would he?" 'Indeed he
is, come to visit at last." Tobin sat
up a little straighter in his saddle. 'Welcome,
young prince," Lika said, bowing to Tobin. 'Come to
see the pleasures of the town? It's market day, and there's lots to
look at." 'It's my
name day," Tobin told him shyly. 'Blessings
on you, then, by the Four!" Llestun was
only a small market town, but to Tobin it seemed a vast city. Low,
thatch-roofed cottages lined the muddy streets, and there were
children and animals everywhere. Pigs chased dogs, dogs chased cats
and chickens, and small children chased each other and everything
else. Tobin couldn't help staring, for he'd never seen so many
children in one place. Those who noticed him stopped to stare back or
point, and he began to feel rather uncomfortable again. A little girl
with a wooden doll tucked under her arm gazed
at him and he scowled back at her until she looked away. The square
was too crowded for riding, so they left their mounts with an ostler
and continued on foot. Tobin held tightly to his father's hand for
fear he'd be lost forever in the throng if they got separated. 'Stand up
tall, Tobin," his father murmured. "It's not every day a
prince comes to Alestun market." They went
first to the shrine of the Four, which stood at the center of the
square. The shrine at the keep was just a stone niche in the hall,
carved and painted with the symbols of the four gods of Skala. This
one looked more like Cook's summer kitchen. Four posts supported the
thatch roof and each was painted a different color: white for
II-lior, red for Sakor, blue for Astellus, and yellow for Dalna. A
small offering brazier burned at the foot of each. Inside, an elderly
priestess sat on a stool surrounded by pots and baskets. She accepted
Tobin's offerings, sprinkling the portions of salt, bread, herbs, and
incense onto the braziers with the proper prayers. 'Would you
like to make a special prayer, my prince?" she asked when she'd
finished. Tobin
looked to his father, -who smiled and gave the priestess a silver
sester. 'To which
of the Four do you petition?" she asked, laying a hand on
Tobin's head. 'Sakor, so
that I can be a great warrior, like my father." 'Bravely
said! Well then, we must make the warrior's offering to please the
god." The
priestess cut a bit of Tobin's hair with a steel blade and kneaded it
into a lump of wax, along with salt, a few drops of water, and some
powders that turned the wax bright red. 'There
now," she said, placing the softened wax in his hand. "Shape
it into a horse." Tobin liked
the smooth feel of the wax under his fingers as he pinched and molded
it. He thought of Gosi as he fashioned the animal's shape, then used
his fingernail to make lines for the mane and tail. 'Huh!"
the priestess said, turning it over in her hands when he'd finished.
"That's fine work for a little fellow like you. I've seen grown
men not do so well. Sakor will be pleased." She made a few
designs on the wax with her fingernail, then gave it back to him.
"Make your prayer, and give it to the god." Tobin bent
over the brazier at the foot of the Sakor post and inhaled the
pungent smoke. "Make me a great warrior, a defender of Skala,"
he whispered, then cast the little figure onto the coals. Acrid green
flames flared up as it melted away. Leaving the
shrine, they plunged again into the market-day crowd. Tobin still
held his father's hand, but curiosity was quickly replacing fear. Tobin
recognized a few faces here, people who came to sell their goods to
Cook in the kitchen courtyard. Balus the knife grinder saw him and
touched his brow to Tobin. Farmers
hawked their fruits and vegetables from the backs of carts. There
were piles of turnips, onions, rabes, and marrows, and baskets of
apples that made Tobin's mouth water. One sour-smelling cart was
stacked with waxed wheels of cheese and buckets of milk and butter.
The next was full of hams. A tinker was selling new pots and mending
old ones, creating a continuous clatter in his corner by the town
well. Merchants carried their wares in baskets hanging from shoulder
yokes, crying, "Almond milk!" "Good marrow bones!"
"Candles and flints!" "Coral beads for luck!"
"Needles and thread!" This
must be what Ero is like! Tobin thought in wonder. 'What would
you like for your present?" his father asked, raising his voice
to be heard over the din. 'I don't
know," Tobin replied. All he'd wanted, really, was to come here,
and now he had, and gotten a horse and sword into the bargain. 'Come on,
then, we'll have a look around." Tharin went
off on business of his own and his father found people who needed to
talk to him. Tobin stood patiently by as several of his father's
tenants brought him news and complaints. Tobin was half-listening to
a sheep farmer rattle on about blocked teats when he spied a knot of
children gathered at a nearby table. Bolder now, he left his father
and sidled over to see what the attraction was. A toy maker
had spread her wares there. There were the tops and whirligigs, cup
and ball sets, sacks of red clay marbles, and a few crudely painted
linen gaming boards. But what caught Tobin's eye was the dolls. Nari and
Cook said that his mother made the prettiest dolls in Skala and he
saw nothing here to contradict them. Some were carved from flat
pieces of wood, like the one he'd seen the little girl carrying.
Others were made of stuffed cloth, like his mother's, but they were
not so well shaped and had no fine clothes. All the same, their
embroidered faces had mouths—smiling mouths—that gave
them a friendly, comfortable look. Tobin picked one up and squeezed
it. The coarse stuffing crunched nicely under his fingers. He smiled,
imagining tucking this funny little fellow under his covers with the
wooden family. Perhaps Nari could make some clothes for it— Glancing
up, he saw that the other children and the merchant were all staring
at him. One of the older boys sniggered. And then
his father was beside him again, angrily snatching the doll from his
hands. His face was pale, his eyes hard and angry. Tobin shrank back
against the table; he'd never seen his father look like that before.
It was the sort of look his mother gave him on her worst days. Then it was
gone, replaced by a stiff smile that was even worse. "What a
silly thing that is!" his father exclaimed, tossing the doll
back onto the pile. "Here's what we want!" He snatched
something up from the table and thrust it into Tobin's hands—a
sack of marbles. "Captain Tharin will pay you, Mistress. Come
on, Tobin, there's more to see." He led
Tobin away, gripping him too hard by the arm. Tobin heard a burst of
mean laughter behind them from the children and some man muttering,
"Told you he was an idiot child." Tobin kept
his head down to hide the tears of shame burning his eyes. This was
worse, far worse, than the scene with his mother that morning. He
couldn't imagine what had made his father so angry or the townspeople
so mean, but he knew with a child's sudden, clear conviction that it
was his fault. They went
straight back to the ostler for the horses. No more town for him. As
Tobin went to mount, he found he was still holding the marbles. He
didn't want them, but didn't dare anger his father further by
throwing them away, so he jammed them into the neck of his tunic.
They slid down to where his belt cinched in, heavy and uncomfortable
against his side. 'Come on,
let's go home," his father said, and rode away without waiting
for Tharin. Silence
hung heavily between them on the homeward journey. Tobin felt as
though a hand was clutching his throat, making it ache. He'd learned
long ago how to cry silently. They were halfway home before his
father looked back and saw. 'Ah,
Tobin!" He reined in and waited for Tobin to ride up beside him.
He didn't look angry anymore, just weary and sad as he gestured
vaguely back toward the town and said, "Dolls… They're
silly, filthy things. Boys don't play with them, especially not boys
who want to grow up to be brave warriors. Do you understand?" The
doll! A fresh wave of shame washed over Tobin. So that was why
his father had been so angry. His heart sank further as another
realization came clear. It was why his mother hadn't given him one
that morning, too. It was shameful of him to want them. He was too
shocked at himself to wonder why no one, not even Nari, had thought
to tell him. His father
patted his shoulder. "Let's go home and have your cake. Tomorrow
Tharin will start your training." But by the
time they reached home he was feeling too sick in his stomach to eat
any honey cake or wine. Nari felt his forehead, pronounced him played
out, and put him to bed. He waited
until she was gone, then reached under his pillow for the four little
stick people hidden there. What had been a happy secret now made his
cheeks burn. These were dolls, too. Gathering them up, he crept next
door and put them down in one of the toy city's market squares. This
was where they belonged. His father had made them and put them here,
so it must be all right to play with them here. Returning
to his room, Tobin hid the unwanted sack of marbles at the very back
of his wardrobe. Then he crawled between the cold sheets and said
another prayer to Sakor that he would be a better boy and make his
father proud. Even after
he cried again, it was hard to sleep. His bed felt very empty now. At
last he fetched the wooden sword Tharin had given him and cuddled up
with that. Tobin
didn't forget the bad memories of that name day, but—like the
unwanted sack of marbles gathering dust at the back of his
wardrobe—he simply chose not to touch them. The other gifts
he'd received kept him happily occupied over the next year. He learned
swordplay and archery in the barracks yard with Tharin, and rode Gosi
every day. He no longer cast a longing eye at the Alestun road. The
few traders they met on the mountain track bowed respectfully; no one
pointed at him here, or whispered behind their hands. Remembering
the pleasure he'd felt making the wax horse at the shrine, he begged
bits of candle end from Cook's melting pot, and soon the windowsill
in his bedchamber was populated by tiny yellow animals and birds.
Nari and his father praised these, but it was Tharin who brought him
lumps of clean new wax so that he could make bigger animals.
Delighted, Tobin used the first bit to make him a horse. Or 'n his
eighth name day they went to town again and he was careful to behave
himself as a young warrior should. He made fine wax horses at the
shrine, and no one snickered later when he chose a fine hunting knife
as his gift. I ot long
after this, his father decided it was time for Tobin to learn his
letters. Tobin
enjoyed these lessons at first, but mostly because he loved sitting
in his father's chamber. It smelled of leather and there were maps
and interesting daggers hanging on the walls. 'No Skalan
noble should be at the mercy of scribes," his father explained,
setting out parchments and a pot of ink on a small table by the
window. He trimmed a goose quill and held it up for Tobin to see.
"This is a weapon, my son, and some know how to wield it as
skillfully as a sword or dagger." Tobin
couldn't imagine what he meant but was anxious as always to please
him. In this, however, he had little luck. Try as he might, he simply
could not understand the connection between the crooked black marks
his father drew on the page and the sounds he claimed they made.
Worse yet, his fingers, so adept at molding wax or clay from the
riverbank, could not control the scratchy, skittering quill. It
blotted. It wandered. It caught on the parchment and spat ink in all
directions. His lines were wiggly as grass snakes, his loops came out
too large, and whole letters ended up backwards or upside down. His
father was patient but Tobin was not. Day after day he struggled,
blotching and scratching along until the sheer frustration of it all
made him cry. 'Perhaps
we'd best leave this for later," his father conceded at last. That night
Tobin dreamt of burning all the quills in the house, just in case his
father changed his mind.
fortunately, Tobin had no such difficulty learning the sword. Tharin
had kept his promise; whenever he was at the keep, they met to
practice in the barracks yard or the hall. Using wooden swords and
bucklers, Tharin taught Tobin the rudiments of sweeps and blocks, how
to attack and how to defend himself. Tobin worked fiercely at these
lessons and kept his pledge to the gods and his father in his heart;
he would be a great warrior. It was not
a difficult one to keep, for he loved arms practice. When he was
little he'd often come with Nari to watch the men spar among
themselves. Now they gathered to watch him, leaning out the barracks
windows or sitting on crates and log stools in front of the long
building. They offered advice, joked with him, and stepped out to
show him their own special tricks and dodges. Soon Tobin had as many
teachers as he wanted. Tharin sometimes paired him against
left-handed Manies or Aladar, to demonstrate how different it was to
fight a man who held his weapon on the same side as your own. He
couldn't properly fight any of them, small as he was, but they went
through the motions in mock fights and showed him what they could.
Koni, the fletcher, who was the smallest and youngest of the guard,
was closest to him in size. He took a special interest in Tobin, too,
for they both liked to make things. Tobin made him wax animals and in
return Koni taught him how to fletch arrow shafts and carve twig
whistles. When Tobin
had finished his practice for the day, the others would shoot with
him, or tell stories of the battles they'd fought against the
Plenimarans. Tobin's father was the great hero of these tales, always
in the forefront, always the bravest on the field. Tharin figured
large as well, and was always at his father's side. 'Have you
always been with Father?" he asked Tharin one winter day as they
rested between drills. It had snowed the night before. Tharin's beard
was white around his mouth where his breath had frozen. He nodded.
"All my life. My father was one of your grandfather's liegemen.
I was his third son, born at Atyion the same year as your father. We
were raised together, almost like brothers." 'So you're
almost my uncle?" Tobin said, pleased with the notion. Tharin
tousled Tobin's hair. "As good as, my prince. When I was
old enough, I was made his squire and later he made me a knight and
granted me my lands at Hawkhaven. We've never been separated in
battle." Tobin
pondered all this a moment, then asked, "Why don't I have a
squire?" 'Oh, you're
young for that yet. I'm sure you will when you're a bit older." 'But not
one I've grown up with," Tobin pointed out glumly. "No boy
has been born here. There aren't any other children at all. Why can't
we go live at Atyion, like you and Father did? Why do the children in
the village point and stare at me?" Tobin half
expected Tharin to put him off, talk of other things the way his
father and Nari always did. Instead, he just shook his head and
sighed. "Because of the demon, I suppose, and because your mama
is so unhappy. Your father feels it's best this way, but I don't
know…" He looked
so sad as he said it that Tobin almost blurted out what had happened
that day in the tower. He'd never told anyone about that. Before he
could, however, Nari came to fetch him. He promised himself he would
tell Tharin the following day during their ride, but Koni and old
Lethis came too, and he didn't feel right speaking in front of anyone
else. Another day or two passed and he forgot about it, but his trust
in Tharin remained. Cinrin wore
on there was little snow, hardly enough to dust the meadow, but the
weather turned bitter cold. Tharin kept the men busy hauling firewood
from the forest and everyone slept in the hall, where the hearth fire
burned night and day. Tobin wore two tunics and his cloak indoors.
During the day Cook kept a fire pot burning in the toy room so that
he could amuse himself there, but even so he could still see his
breath on the air. The river
froze hard enough to walk on and some of the younger soldiers and
servants went skating, but Nari would only let Tobin watch from the
bank. l_,'e was
playing alone upstairs one bright morning when he caught the sound of
a horse galloping up the frozen road. Soon a lone rider in a
streaming red cape came riding up the meadow and across the bridge.
Leaning out over the sill, Tobin saw his father come out to greet the
man and welcome him inside. He recognized the red and gold badge all
too well; this was a messenger from the king and that usually meant
only one thing. The man did
not stay long however, and was soon off again down the road. As soon
as Tobin heard him clatter across the bridge he hurried downstairs. His father
sat on a bench by the hearth, studying a long scroll weighted down
with the king's seals and ribbons. Tobin sat down beside him and
peered at the document, wishing that he could read it. Not that he
needed to, to know what the message was. "You have to leave
again, don't you, Father?" 'Yes, and
very soon, I'm afraid. Plenimar is taking advantage of the dry winter
to raid up the Mycenian coast. The Mycenians have appealed to Erius
for aid." 'You can't
sail this time of year! The sea's too stormy, isn't it?" 'Yes, we
must ride," his father replied absently. He already had that
faraway look in his eyes, and Tobin knew he was thinking of supplies
and horses and men. That would be all he and Tharin would talk about
around the hearth at night until they left. 'Why is
Plenimar always making war?" Tobin asked, angry with these
strangers who kept causing trouble and taking his father away. The
Sakor festival was only a few weeks away and his father was sure to
leave before then. Rhius
looked up at him. "You remember the map I showed you, how the
Three Lands lie around the Inner Sea?" 'Yes." 'Well, they
were all one land once, ruled by priest kings called hierophants.
They had their capital at Ben-shal, in Plenimar. A long while ago the
last hierophant divided the lands up into three countries, but the
Pleni-marans never liked that and have always wanted to reclaim all
the territory for their own." 'When can I
go to war with you?" Tobin asked. "Tharin says I'm doing
very well at my lessons!" 'So I
hear." His father hugged him, smiling in the way that meant no.
"I'll tell you what. As soon as you're big enough to wear my
second hauberk, you may come with me. Come, let's see if it fits." The heavy
coat of chain hung on a rack in his father's bedchamber. It was far
too big, of course, and puddled around Tobin's feet, anchoring him
helplessly in place. The coif hung over his eyes. Laughing, his
father placed the steel cap on Tobin's head. It felt like he was
wearing one of Cook's soup kettles; the end of the long nasal guard
hung below his chin. All the same, his heart beat faster as he
imagined the tall, strong man he'd someday be, filling all this out
properly. 'Well, I
can see it won't be much longer before you'll be needing this,"
his father chuckled. And with that he dragged the rack across the
corridor to Tobin's bedchamber and spent the rest of the afternoon
showing him how to keep the mail oiled and ready. V'obü ?in still
clung to the hope that his father and the others could stay until the
Sakor festival, but his father's liegemen, Lord Nyanis and Lord
Solan, arrived a few days later with their men. For a few days the
meadow was full of soldiers and their tents, but within the week
everyone was gone to Atyion, leaving Tobin and the servants to
celebrate without them. Tobin moped
about for a few days, but Nari cajoled him out of his dark mood and
sent him off to help deck the house. Garlands of fir boughs were hung
over every doorway, and wooden shields painted gold and black were
hung on the pillars of the hall. Tobin filled the offering shelf of
the household shrine with an entire herd of wax horses for Sakor. The
following morning, however, he found them scattered across the
rush-covered floor, replaced by an equal number of dirty, twisted
tree roots. This was
one of the demon's favorite tricks, and one Tobin particularly hated,
since it upset his father so. The duke would always go pale at the
sight of them. Then he had to burn sweet herbs and say prayers to
cleanse the shrine. If Tobin found the roots first, he threw them
away and cleaned the shelf with his sleeve so his father wouldn't
know and be sad. Scowling to
himself, Tobin pitched the whole mess into the hearth fire and went
to make new horses. 'n Mourning
Night, Cook extinguished all but one fire-pot to symbolize Old
Sakor's death and everyone played games of Blindman's Gambit by
moonlight in the deserted barracks yard. Tobin was
hiding behind a hayrack when he happened to glance up at the tower. A
faint glimmer of forbidden firelight showed through the shutters. He
hadn't seen his mother in days and that suited him very well. All the
same, a shiver danced up the knobs of his spine as he pictured her up
there, peering out at him. Suddenly
something heavy knocked him to the ground and a burning pain
blossomed in his right cheek, just below his eye. The invisible
attacker vanished as quickly as it had come and Tobin blundered out
from behind the rack, sobbing with fear and pain. 'What is
it, pet?" Nari cried, gathering him into her arms. Too shaken
to answer, he pressed his throbbing cheek against her shoulder as she
carried him into the hall. 'Someone
strike a light!" she ordered. 'Not on
Mourning Night…" the housemaid, Sarilla, said, hovering
at her side. 'Then fetch
the reserve coals and blow up enough flame to see by. The child's
hurt!" Tobin
curled tightly against her, eyes shut tight. The pain was subsiding
to a dull ache, but the shock of the attack still made him tremble.
He heard Sarilla return, then the creak of the firepot lid. 'There now,
pet, let Nari see." Tobin
lifted his head and let her turn his cheek toward the dim glow. Mynir
and the others stood in a circle around them, looking very worried. 'By the
Light, he's bitten!" the old steward exclaimed. "Go fetch a
basin and a clean cloth, girl." Sarilla hurried off. Tobin
raised a hand to his cheek and felt sticky wetness there. Nari took
the cloth Sarilla fetched and wiped his fingers and cheek. It came
away streaked with blood. 'Could it
have been one of the hounds, Tobin? Perhaps one was sleeping in the
hayrack," Mynir said anxiously. Dogs couldn't abide Tobin; they
growled and slunk away from him. There were only a few old ones left
at the keep now, and Nari wouldn't let them in the house. 'That's no
dog bite," Sarilla whispered. "Look, you can see—" 'It was the
demon!" Tobin cried. There had been moonlight enough to see that
nothing with a proper solid body had been behind that rack with him.
"It knocked me down and bit me!" 'Never mind
that," Nari said soothingly, turning the rag to a clean side and
sponging away his tears. "Never you mind. We'll talk about it in
the morning. Come to bed now, and Nari will keep that old demon
away." Tobin could
hear the others still whispering to each other as she led him toward
the stairs. 'It's true,
what they say!" Sarilla was whimpering. "Who else does it
attack like that? Born cursed!" 'That's
enough, girl," Mynir hissed back. "There's a cold, lonesome
road outside for those who can't keep their mouths shut." Tobin
shivered. So, even here, people whispered. *^,'e slept
deeply with Nari close beside him. He woke alone, but well tucked in
and could tell by the slant of the sun through the shutters that it
was midmorning.
Disappointment swept away all the terror of the night before. At the
dawn of Sakor's Day he and Mynir always woke the household to the new
year, beating on the shield gong by the shrine. The steward must have
done it without him this year and he hadn't even heard. He padded
barefoot across the cold floor to the small bronze mirror above his
washbasin and inspected his cheek. Yes, there it was; a double line
of red tooth marks, curved like the outline of an eye. Tobin bit his
forearm just hard enough to leave an impression in the skin and saw
that the two marks looked very much the same. Tobin looked back at
the mirror, staring into his own blue eyes and wondering what sort of
invisible body the demon had. Until now it had only been a dark blur
he sometimes saw from the corner of his eye. Now he imagined it as
one of the goblins in Nari's bedtime tales—the ones she said
looked like a boy burned all over in a fire. A goblin with teeth like
his. Was that what had been lurking at the edges of his world all
this time? Tobin
glanced nervously around the room and made the warding sign three
times over before he felt brave enough to get dressed. He was
sitting on the bed tying the leather lacings over his trouser legs
when he heard the door latch lift. He glanced up, expecting Nari. Instead,
his mother stood framed in the doorway with the doll. "I heard
Mynir and Cook talking about what happened last night," she said
softly. "You slept late this Sakor's Day." This was
the first time in more than year that they'd been alone together.
Since that day in the tower. He couldn't
move. He just sat staring, with the leather lacing biting into his
fingers as she walked to him and reached to touch his cheek. Her hair
was combed and plaited today. Her dress was clean and she smelled
faintly of flowers. Her fingers were cool and gentle as she smoothed
his hair back and examined the swollen flesh around the bite. There
were no shadows in her face today that Tobin could see. She just
looked sad. Laying the doll aside on the bed, she cradled his face in
both hands and kissed him on the brow. 'I'm so
sorry," she murmured. Then she pushed his left sleeve back and
kissed the wisdom mark on his forearm. "We're living in an
ill-starred dream, you and I. I must do better by you, little love.
What else do we have but each other?" 'Sarilla
says I'm cursed," Tobin mumbled, undone by such tenderness. His
mother's eyes narrowed dangerously, but her touch remained gentle.
"Sarilla is an ignorant peasant. You mustn't ever listen to such
talk." She took up
the doll again, then reached for Tobin's hand. Smiling, she said,
"Come, my dears, let's see what Cook has for our breakfast." Since that
strange Sakor's Day morning, his mother ceased to be a ghost in her
own household. Her first
acts were to dismiss Sarilla and then dispatch Mynir to the town to
find a suitable replacement. He returned the following day with a
quiet, good-natured widow named Tyra who became her serving maid. Sarilla's
dismissal frightened Tobin. He hadn't cared much for the girl, but
she'd been a part of the household for as long as he could remember.
His mother's dislike of Nari was no secret, and he was terrified that
she might send the nurse away, too. But Nari stayed and cared for him
as she always had, without any interference. His mother
came downstairs nearly every morning now, properly dressed, with her
shining black hair braided or combed in a smooth veil over her
shoulders. She even wore some scent that smelled like spring flowers
in the meadow. She still spent much of the day sewing dolls by the
fire in her bedchamber, but she took time now to look over the
accounts with Mynir and came out to the kitchen yard with Cook to
meet the farmers and peddlers who called. Tobin came along, too, and
was surprised to hear of famine and disease striking in nearby towns.
Before now, those were things that always happened far away. Still, as
bright as she was during the day, as soon as the afternoon shadows
began to lengthen the light seemed to go out of her, too, and she'd
retreat upstairs to the forbidden third floor. This saddened Tobin at
first, but he was never tempted to follow. The next morning she would
reappear, smiling again. The demon
seemed to come and go with the daylight, too, but it was most active
in the dark. The tooth
marks it had left on Tobin's cheek soon healed and faded, but his
terror of it did not. Lying in bed beside Nari each night, Tobin
could not rid himself of the image of a wizened black form lurking in
the shadows, reaching out with taloned fingers to pinch and pull, its
sharp teeth bared to bite again. He kept the covers pulled up to his
eyes and learned to drink nothing after supper, so that he wouldn't
have to get up in the dark to use the chamber pot. V,'he
fragile peace with his mother held, and a few -weeks later Tobin
walked into his toy room to find his mother waiting for him at a new
table. 'For our
lessons," his mother explained, waving him to the other chair. Tobin's
heart sank as he saw the parchments and writing materials. "Father
tried to teach me," he said. "I couldn't learn." A small
frown creased her forehead at the mention of his father, but it
quickly passed. Dipping a quill into the inkpot, she held it out to
him. "Let's try again, shall we? Perhaps I'll be a better
teacher." Still
dubious, Tobin took it and tried to write his name, the only word he
knew. She watched him struggle for a few moments, then gently took
back the quill. Tobin sat
very still, wondering if there would be an outburst of some sort.
Instead, she rose and went to the windowsill, where a row of his
little wax and wooden carvings stood in a row. Picking up a fox, she
looked back at him. "You made these, didn't you?" Tobin
nodded. She
examined each of the others: the hawk, the bear, the eagle, a running
horse, and the attempt he'd made at modeling Tharin holding a
wood-splinter sword. 'Those
aren't my best ones," he told her shyly. "I give them
away." 'To who?" He
shrugged. "Everyone." The servants and soldiers had always
praised his work and even asked for particular animals. Manies had
wanted an otter and Laris a bear. Koni liked birds; in return for an
eagle he'd given Tobin one of his sharp little knives and found him
soft bits of wood that were easy to shape. As much as
Tobin loved pleasing them all, he always saved his best carvings for
his father and Tharin. It had never occurred to him to give one to
his mother. He wondered if her feelings were hurt. 'Would you
like to have that one?" he asked, pointing to the fox she still
held. She bowed
slightly, smiling. "Why, thank you, my lord." Returning
to her chair, she placed it on the table between them and handed him
the quill. "Can you draw this for me?" Tobin had
never thought to draw anything when it was so easy to model them. He
looked down at the blank parchment, flicking the feathered end of the
quill against his chin. Pulling the shape of something from soft wax
was easy; to make the same shape real this way was something else
again. He imagined a vixen he'd seen in the meadow one morning and
tried to draw a line that would capture the shape of her muzzle and
the alert forward set of her ears as she'd hunted mice in the grass.
He could see her as clearly as ever in his mind, but try as he might
he couldn't make the pen behave. The crabbed scrawl it drew looked
nothing like the fox. Throwing the quill down, he stared down at his
ink-stained fingers, defeated again. 'Never
mind, love," his mother told him. "Your carvings are as
good as any drawing. I was just curious. But let's see if we can make
your letters easier for you." Turning the
sheet over, she wrote for a moment, then sanded the page and turned
it around for Tobin to see. There, across the top, were three As,
written very large. She dipped the pen and gave it to him, then rose
to stand behind him. Covering his hand with hers, she guided it to
trace the letters she'd drawn, showing him the proper strokes. They
went over them several times, and when he tried it alone he found
that his own scrawls had begun to resemble the letter he was
attempting. 'Look,
Mama, I did it!" he exclaimed. 'It's as I
thought," she murmured as she drew out more practice letters for
him. "I was just the same when I was your age." Tobin
watched her as she worked, trying to imagine her as a young girl in
braids who couldn't write. 'I made
little sculptures, too, though not nearly as nice as yours," she
went on, still writing. "Then my nurse taught me doll making.
You've seen my dolls." Thinking of
them made Tobin uncomfortable, but he didn't want to seem rude by not
answering. "They're very pretty," he said. His gaze drifted
to her doll, slumped in an ungainly heap on the chest beside them.
She looked up and caught him staring at it. It was too late. She knew
what he was looking at, maybe even what he was thinking. Her face
softened in a fond smile as she took the ugly doll onto her lap and
arranged its misshapen limbs. "This is the best I ever made." 'But—
Well, how come it doesn't have a face?" 'Silly
child, of course he has a face!" She laughed, brushing her
fingers across the blank oval of cloth. "The prettiest little
face I've ever seen!" For an
instant her eyes were mad and wild again, as they had been in the
tower. Tobin flinched as she leaned forward, but she simply dipped
the pen again and went on writing. 'I could
shape anything with my hands, but I couldn't write or read. My
father—your grandfather, the Fifth Consort Tanaris—showed
me how to teach my hand the shapes, just as I'm showing you now." 'I have a
grandfather? Will I meet him someday?" 'No, my
dear, your grandmama poisoned him years ago," his mother said,
busily writing. After a moment she turned the sheet to him. "Here
now, a fresh row for you to trace." They spent
the rest of the morning over the parchments. Once he was comfortable
with tracing, she had him say the sounds each letter represented as
he copied them. Over and over he traced and repeated, until by sheer
rote he began to understand. By the time Nari brought the midday meal
up to them on a tray, he'd forgotten all about his grandfather's
curious fate. From that
day on, they spent part of each morning there as she worked with
surprising patience to teach him the letters that had eluded him
before. And, little by little, he began to learn. 't't^s
uke Rhius stayed away the rest of the winter, fighting in Mycena
beside the king. His letters were filled with descriptions of
battles, written as lessons for Tobin. Sometimes he sent gifts with
the letters, trophies from the battlefield: an enemy dagger with a
serpent carved around the hilt, a silver ring, a sack of gaming
stones, a tiny frog carved from amber. One messenger brought Tobin a
dented helmet with a crest of purple horsehair. Tobin lined
the smaller treasures up on a shelf in the toy room, wondering what
sort of men had owned them. He placed the helmet on the back of a
cloak-draped chair and fought duels against it with his wooden sword.
Sometimes he imagined himself fighting beside his father and the
king. Other times, the chair soldier became his squire and together
they led armies of their own. Such games
left him lonesome for his father, but he knew that one day he would
fight beside him, just as his father had promised. the last
grey weeks of winter Tobin truly began to enjoy his mother's company.
At first they met in the hall after his morning ride with Mynir. Once
or twice she even went with them and he was amazed at how well she
sat her horse, riding astride with her long hair streaming free
behind her like a black silk banner. For all her
improvement with him, however, her attitude toward the others of the
household did not change. She spoke seldom to Mynir and almost never
to Nari. The new woman, Tyra, saw to her needs and was kind to Tobin,
too, until the demon pushed her down the stairs and she left without
even saying good-bye. After that, they made do without a maid. Most
disappointing of all, however, was her continuing coldness toward his
father. She never spoke of him, spurned any gifts he sent, and left
the hall when Mynir read his letters by the hearth each night to
Tobin. No one could tell him why she seemed to hate him so, and he
didn't dare ask his mother directly. All the same, Tobin began to
hope. When his father came home and saw how improved she was, perhaps
things might ease between them. She'd come to love him, after all.
Lying in bed at night, he imagined the three of them riding the
mountain trails together, all of them smiling. n and his
mother were at his lessons one cold morning at the end of Klesin when
they heard a rider approaching the keep at a gallop. Tobin ran
to the window, hoping to see his father on his way home at last. His
mother followed and rested a hand on his shoulder. 'I don't
know that horse," Tobin said, shading his eyes. The rider was
too muffled against the cold to recognize at a distance. "May I
go see who it is?" 'I suppose
so. Why don't you see if Cook has anything nice for us in the larder,
too? I could do with an apple. Hurry back now. We're not done for
today." 'I will!"
Tobin called, dashing off. There was
no one in the hall, so he went through to the kitchen and saw with
delight that it was Tharin being greeted by Nari and the others. His
beard had grown long over the winter. His boots were filthy with mud
and snow, and he had a bandage wrapped around one wrist. 'Is the war
over? Is Father coming home?" Tobin cried, throwing himself into
the man's arms. Tharin
lifted him up, nose to nose. "Yes to both, little prince, and
he's bringing some guests with him. They're just behind me." He
set Tobin back on his feet. He was trying to smile, but Tobin read
something else in the lines around the man's eyes as he glanced at
Nari and the steward. "They'll be here soon. You run along and
play now, Tobin. Cook doesn't need you underfoot. There's much to
do." 'But—" 'That's
enough," Nari said sharply. "Tharin will take you out for a
ride later. Off with you now!" Tobin
wasn't used to being dismissed like this. Feeling sulky, he dawdled
back toward the hall. Tharin hadn't even said who Father was
bringing. Tobin hoped it was Lord Nyanis or Duke Archis. He liked
them the best of all his father's liegemen. He was
halfway across the hall when he remembered that his mother had asked
for an apple. They couldn't very well scold him for coming back for
that. The kitchen
door was open and as he approached, he heard Nari say, "What is
the king doing coming here, after all these years?" 'For the
hunting, or so he claims," Tharin replied. "We were on our
way home the other day, nearly in sight of Ero, when Rhius happened
to mention the fine stag hunting we have here. The king took it into
his head for an invitation. He's struck with these strange whims more
often now—" The
king! Tobin forgot about apples as he scurried back upstairs,
thinking instead of the little wooden figure in the box—The
Present King, Your Uncle. Tobin wondered excitedly if he'd be wearing
his golden crown, and if he'd let Tobin hold Gherilain's sword. His mother
was still by the window. "Who was that on the road, child?" Tobin ran
to the window but couldn't see anyone coming yet. He flopped down in
his chair, panting for breath. "Father sent Tharin ahead—
The king— The king is coming! He and Father are—" 'Erius?"
Ariani shrank back against the wall, clutching the doll. "He's
coming here? Are you certain?" The demon's
cold, angry presence closed in around Tobin, so strong it felt hard
to breathe. Parchments and inkpots flew from the table and scattered
across the dusty floor. 'Mama,
what's wrong?" he whispered, suddenly afraid of the look in his
mother's eye. With a
choked cry, she lunged for him and half dragged, half carried him
from the room. The demon raged around them, blowing up the dry rushes
into whirling clouds and knocking the lamps from their hooks. She
paused in the corridor, looking wildly around as if seeking some way
to escape. Tobin tried not to whimper as her fingers dug into his
arm. 'No, no,
no!" she muttered. The rag doll's blank, dingy face peeped out
at Tobin from under her arm. 'Mama,
you're hurting me. Where are we going?" But she
wasn't listening to him. "Not again. No!" she whispered,
pulling him toward the third-floor stairs. Tobin tried
to pull away, but she was too strong for him. "No, Mama, I don't
want to go up there!" 'We must
hide!" she hissed, gripping him by both shoulders now. "I
couldn't last time. I would have. By the Four, I would have, but they
wouldn't let me! Please, Tobin, come with Mama. There's no time!" She pulled
him up the stairs and along the corridor to the tower stairs. When
Tobin tried to pull away this time, unseen hands shoved him forward
from behind. The door flew open before them, slamming back against
the wall so hard that one of the panels splintered. Panicked
birds flapped and screeched around them as she wrestled Tobin up the
stairs to the tower room. This door slammed shut behind them and the
wine table flew across the room, narrowly missing Tobin's shoulder as
it smashed across the doorway, blocking his escape. Dusty tapestries
flew from the walls and the shuttered windows banged wide. Sunlight
flooded in on all sides, but the room remained dim and deathly cold.
Outside they could hear a great company of riders now, coming up the
road. Ariani
released Tobin and paced frantically around the room, weeping with
one hand pressed over her mouth. Tobin
cowered by the broken table. This was the mother he knew best—hurtful
and unpredictable. The rest of it had all been a lie. 'What are
we to do?" she wailed. "He's found us again.
He can find us anywhere. We must escape! Lhel, you bitch, you
promised me…" The jangle
of harness grew louder outside and she dashed to the window
overlooking the front court. "Too late! Here he is. How can he?
How can he?" Tobin crept
up beside her, just close enough to peek down over the sill. His
father and a group of strangers in scarlet cloaks were dismounting.
One of them wore a golden helmet that shown in the sun like a crown. 'Is that
the king, Mama?" She yanked
him back, clutching him so close that his face was pressed against
the doll. It had a sour, musty smell. 'Mark him,"
she whispered, and he could feel her trembling. "Mark him, the
murderer! Your father brought him here. But he won't have you this
time." She dragged
him to the opposite window, the one that overlooked the mountains to
the west. The demon overturned another table, spilling mouthless
dolls across the floor. His mother whirled at the noise, and Tobin's
head hit the corner of the stone sill hard enough to daze him. He
felt himself falling, felt his mother pulling at him again,
felt sunlight and wind on his face. Opening his eyes, he found
himself hanging out over the still, looking down at the frozen river. Just like
the last time she'd brought him here. But this
time she was crouched on the sill beside him, tear-stained face
turned to the mountains as she grasped the back of Tobin's tunic and
tried to pull him out.
Overbalancing, he thrashed back wildly, grasping for anything—the
window casing, his mother's arm, her clothing—but his feet were
already tipping up over his head. He could see the dark water moving
like ink beneath the ice. His mind skittered on ahead; would the ice
break when he landed on it? Then his
mother screamed and tumbled past him, skirts and wild black hair
billowing around her as she fell. For an instant they looked one
another straight in the eye and Tobin felt as if a bolt of lightning
passed between them, joining them just for a second eye to eye, heart
to heart. Then
someone had Tobin by the ankle, dragging him roughly back into the
room. His chin struck the outer edge of the sill and he spun down
into darkness with the taste of blood in his mouth. R, jhius
and the king were about to dismount when they heard a shriek echo
behind the keep. 'By the
Flame! Is it that demon of yours?" Erius exclaimed, looking
around in alarm. But Rhius
knew the demon had no voice. Pushing past the other riders, he ran
out the gate, seeing already in his mind's eye what he should have
anticipated, what he would see again and again in his dreams for the
rest of his life: Ariani at an upper window that should have been
tightly shuttered, catching the glint of her brother's golden helm at
the bottom of the meadow, imagining— He stumbled
along the riverbank, following the keep wall around a final corner.
There he stopped, and let out an anguished cry at the sight of bare
white legs splayed awkwardly between two boulders at the river's
edge. He ran to her and tugged down her skirts, which had blown up
around her head as she'd fallen. Looking up, he saw the tower bulking
over them. There were no other windows on this side but the single
square one directly overhead. The shutters were open. A rock had
broken her back, and her head had struck the ice and split. Black
hair and red blood spread out around her face in a terrible corona.
Her beautiful eyes were open and fixed in an expression of anguish
and outrage; even in death she accused him. Recoiling
from that gaze, Rhius staggered back into the arms of the king. 'By the
Flame," Erius gasped, staring down at her. "My poor sister,
what have you done?" Rhius
clutched his fists against his temples, resisting the urge to pull
back and strike the man in the face. 'My king,"
he managed, sinking down beside her. "Your sister is dead." :>bin
remembered falling. As consciousness gradually returned he became
aware of a hard floor under him and instinctively pressed his belly
to it, too terrified to move. Somewhere nearby echoing voices were
talking all at once, but he couldn't understand the words. He didn't
know where he was or how he had gotten there. Opening his
heavy eyelids at last, he realized that he was in the tower room. It
was very quiet here. The demon
was with him. He'd never felt it so strongly. But there was something
different about it, though he couldn't say just what. Tobin felt
very strange, like he was in a dream, but the pain in his chin and
mouth told him he wasn't. When he tried to remember how he'd gotten
up here his mind went all fuzzy and loud, as if his head was full of
bees. His cheek
hurt where it was pressed to the stone floor. He turned his head the
other way and found himself looking into the blank face of his mama's
doll, which lay just inches from his outstretched hand. Where could
she be? She never left the doll behind, not ever. Father
won't let me keep it, he thought. But suddenly he wanted it more
than anything in the world. It was ugly and he'd hated it all his
life, but he reached out for it anyway, remembering his mama saying
so fondly, This one is the best I ever made.
It was almost as if she'd just spoken the words aloud. Where
is she? The buzzing
in his head grew louder as he sat up and hugged the doll. It was
small and coarse and lumpy, but solid and comforting all the same.
Looking around dizzily, he was surprised to see himself squatting by
a broken table across the room. But this Tobin was naked and filthy
and angry and his face was streaked with tears. This other self held
no doll; he still covered his ears with both hands to block out
something neither of them wanted to remember. H iari
cried out once then clamped a hand over her mouth as the duke
staggered into the hall with Ariani's broken body in his arms. Nari
could see at once that she was dead. Blood ran from the woman's ears
and mouth; her open eyes -were fixed as stones. Tharin and
the king followed close behind. Erius kept reaching out to touch his
sister's face, but Rhius wouldn't let him. He got as far as the
hearth before his knees buckled. Sinking down, he gathered her closer
and buried his face in her black hair. It was
probably the first time since Tobin's birth that he'd been able to
embrace her, thought Nari. Erius sat
heavily on one of the hearth benches, then looked up at her and those
of his entourage who'd followed. His face was grey and his hands
shook. 'Get out,"
he ordered, not focusing on anyone in particular. He didn't have to.
Everyone scattered except Tharin. The last Nari saw of him, he was
still standing a little way off, watching the two men with no
expression at all. Nari was
halfway up the stairs before it occurred to her that Tobin had been
at lessons with his mother that morning. She took
the remaining stairs two at a time and ran down the corridor. Her
heart skipped a painful beat as she took in the smashed lamps on the
floor. Tobin's bedchamber and toy room were both empty. The writing
things they'd been using were strewn across the floor and one of the
chairs lay on its side. Fear closed
a fist around Nari's heart. "O Illior, let the child be safe!" Rushing
back into the corridor, she saw the door leading to the third floor
standing open. 'Maker's
mercy, no!" she whispered, hurrying up. Upstairs, torn hangings
were strewn around the dank corridor. They seemed to catch at Nari's
feet as she ran to the broken tower door and on up the narrow stairs
beyond. She hadn't been welcome here •when Ariani lived; even
now she felt like a trespasser. What she saw as she reached the top
of the stairs drove out all such doubts. The tower
room was choked with broken furniture and dismembered dolls. All four
windows stood open, but the room was dark and fetid. She knew that
smell. "Tobin, are you here, child?" Her voice
hardly seemed to penetrate the small space, but she heard clearly
enough the sound of ragged breathing and followed it to the corner
furthest from the fatal window. Half hidden under a fallen tapestry,
Tobin sat curled against the wall, his thin arms locked around his
knees, staring wide-eyed at nothing. 'Oh, my
poor pet!" Nari gasped, falling to her knees beside him. The child's
face and tunic were streaked with blood, making her fear at first
that Ariani had tried to cut his throat, that he would die here in
her arms, that all the pain and lies and waiting had been for
nothing. She tried
to pick him up, but Tobin pulled away and curled tighter into his
corner, his eyes still vacant. 'Tobin,
pet, it's me. Come now, let's go down to your room." The child
didn't move or acknowledge her presence. Nari
settled herself closer beside him and stroked his hair. "Please,
pet. This is a nasty cold place to be. Come down to the kitchen for a
nice cup of Cook's good soup. Tobin? Look at me, child. Are you
hurt?" Heavy
footsteps pounded up the tower stairs and Rhius burst in with Tharin
on his heels. 'Did you—?
O, thank the Light!" Rhius stumbled over shattered furniture to
kneel beside her. "Is he badly hurt?" 'No, just
very frightened, my lord," Nari whispered, still stroking
Tobin's hair. "He must have seen…" Rhius
leaned in and cupped Tobin's chin gently, trying to raise the boy's
head. Tobin jerked away. 'What
happened? Why did she bring you here?" Rhius asked softly. Tobin said
nothing. 'Look
around you, my lord!" Nari stroked Tobin's black hair back from
his face to examine the large bruise blossoming there. The blood on
his face and clothes came from a crescent-shaped cut on the point of
his chin. It wasn't large, but it was deep. "She must have seen
the king ride in with you. It's the first time since… Well,
you know how she was." Nari looked
more closely into Tobin's colorless face. No tears, but his eyes were
wide and fixed, as if he were still watching whatever had happened
here. He didn't
resist when his father lifted him in his arms and carried him down to
his bedchamber. But he didn't relax either, and remained curled in a
tight ball. There was no question of getting his soiled clothing off
yet, so Nari took off his shoes, bathed his face, and tucked him into
bed with extra quilts. The duke knelt beside the bed and took one of
Tobin's hands in his, murmuring softly to him and watching the pale
face on the pillow for any response. Turning,
Nari saw Tharin standing just inside the door, pale as milk. She went
to him and took his cold hand in hers. 'He'll be
fine, Tharin. He's just badly frightened." 'She threw
herself from the tower window," Tharin whispered, still staring
at Rhius and the boy. "She took Tobin with her— Look at
him, Nariv Do you think she tried—?" 'No mother
could do such a thing!" In her heart, however, she wasn't so
certain. They
remained there for some time, still as a mummer's tableau. At last
Rhius got to his feet and ran a hand absently down the front of his
bloodied tunic. "I must attend the king. He means to take her
back to the royal tomb at Ero." Nari
knotted her hands angrily in her apron. "For the child's sake,
shouldn't we wait—?" Rhius gave
her a look so filled with bitterness that the words withered on her
tongue. "The king has spoken." Wiping again at his tunic,
he left the room. With a last sad look at the sleeping child, Tharin
followed. Nari pulled
a chair up next to the bed and patted To-bin's thin shoulder through
the quilts. "My poor dear little one," she sighed. "They
won't even let you mourn her!" Stroking
the sleeping child's brow, she imagined what it would be like to
bundle him up and carry him far away from this house of misery.
Closing her eyes, she imagined raising him as her own in some simple
cottage, far from kings and ghosts and madwomen. V,'obin
heard wailing and huddled up more tightly as it grew louder.
Gradually, the sobbing voice changed to the sound of a strong east
wind buffeting itself against the walls of the keep. He could feel
the weight of heavy blankets pressing down on him, but he was still
so cold. Opening his
eyes, he blinked at the small night lamp guttering on the stand by
his bed. Nari was asleep in a chair beside it. She'd put
him to bed in his clothes. Slowly uncurling his cramped body, Tobin
rolled to face the wall and pulled the rag doll out of his tunic. He didn't
know why he had it. Something bad had happened, something so bad that
he couldn't make himself think what it was. My
mama is— He squeezed
his eyes shut and hugged the doll tightly. If
I have the doll, then my mama is— He didn't
recall hiding the doll under his clothes, didn't recall anything
really, but now he hid it again under the covers, pushing it all the
way down the bed with his feet, knowing he must find a better place
very soon. He knew it was wicked to want it, shameful for a boy who
was going to be a warrior to need a doll, but he hid it all the same,
full of shame and longing. Perhaps his
mama had given it to him, after all. Slipping
back into a broken doze, he dreamed over and over again of his mother
passing the doll to him. Every time she was smiling as she told him
that it was the best she ever made. '"Tpobin
was made to stay in bed for two days. At first he _L slept much of
the time, lulled by the sound of the rain pelting steadily against
the shutters and the groan and grumble of the river ice breaking up. Sometimes,
half awake, he thought his mama was in the room with him, standing at
the foot of his bed with her hands clasped tight the way she had when
she saw the king riding up the hill. He'd be so certain she was there
that he could even hear her breathing, but when he opened his eyes to
look, she wasn't. The demon
was, though. Tobin could feel it hovering around him all the time
now. At night he pressed closer to Nari, trying to pretend he didn't
feel it staring at him. Yet powerful as it was, it didn't touch him
or break anything. By
afternoon on the second day he was awake and restless. Nari and
Tharin sat with him during the day, telling stories and bringing him
little toys as if he were a baby. The other servants came too, to pat
his hand and kiss his brow. Everyone
came except Father. When Tharin explained at last that he'd had to go
back to Ero with the king for a little while, Tobin's throat ached,
but he couldn't find the tears to cry. No one
spoke of his mother. He wondered what had happened to her after she'd
gone to the tower, but he couldn't bring himself to ask. In fact, he
didn't feel like speaking at all, and so he didn't, not even when the
others coaxed him. Instead, he played with his wax or burrowed under
the blankets, waiting for everyone to go away. The few times that he
was left to himself, he took the rag doll from its new hiding place
behind the wardrobe and just held it, looking down at the blank
circle of cloth where its face should be. Of
course be has a face. The prettiest— But it
wasn't pretty at all. It was ugly. Its stuffing was lumpy and clumped
inside and he could feel little sharp bits like splinters in the
uneven legs and arms. Its thick muslin skin was dingy and much
patched. He did discover something new, though; a thin, shiny black
cord tied tightly around its neck, so tight that it didn't show
unless he bent the head sharply back. Ugly as it
was, though, Tobin thought he could smell the flower scent his mother
had worn during those last happy weeks on it, and that was enough. He
guarded the doll jealously and, when he was finally allowed up on the
third day, he moved it to the bottom of the old chest in the toy
room. The weather
had turned cold again and sleet was hissing down outside. The toy
room was dim and dreary in this light. There was dust on the floor
and on the flat roofs of the city's wooden block houses; the little
wooden people lay scattered about the Palatine like the plague
victims his father had written of. In the corner, the Plenimaran
chair warrior seemed to mock him and he took it apart, throwing the
cloak into the empty wardrobe and putting the helmet away in the
chest. Wandering
over to the writing table by the window, Tobin gingerly touched the
things he and his mother had shared—the parchments, sand
shaker, scraping blades, and quills. They'd labored through almost
half the alphabet. Sheets of new letters in her bold, square hand lay
waiting for his practice. He picked one up and sniffed it, hoping to
catch her scent here, too, but it only smelled of ink. V,'he sleet
had given way to early spring rain when his father came back a few
days later. He looked strange and sad and no one seemed to know what
to say to him, not even Tharin. After supper that night Rhius sent
everyone out of the hall, then took Tobin onto his lap by the fire.
He was quiet for a long time. After a
while he raised Tobin's bruised chin and looked into his face. "Can't
you speak, child?" Tobin was
shocked to see tears trickling down into his father's
black-and-silver beard. Don't cry! Warriors don't
cry, he thought, frightened to see his brave father weeping.
Tobin could hear the words in his head, but he still couldn't make
any sounds come out. 'Never
mind, then." His father pulled him close and Tobin rested his
head against that broad chest, listening to the comforting thump of
his father's heart and grateful not to have to watch those tears
fall. Perhaps that's why his father had sent everyone away; so they
wouldn't see. 'Your
mother… She wasn't well. Sooner or later, you'll hear people
say she was mad, and she was." He paused and Tobin felt him
sigh. "What she did in the tower… It was the madness. Her
mother had it, too." What had
happened in the tower? Tobin closed his eyes, feeling strange all
over. The bees had started buzzing in his head again. Did making
dolls drive you mad? He remembered the toy maker he'd seen in town.
He hadn't noticed anything wrong with her. Had his grandmama made
dolls? No, she'd poisoned her husband— Rhius
sighed again. "I don't think your mama meant to hurt you. When
she was in her bad spells, she didn't know what she was doing. Do you
understand what I'm telling you?" Tobin
didn't understand at all, but he nodded anyway, hoping that would
satisfy his father. He didn't like thinking about his mother now.
When he did, he seemed to see two different people and that made him
feel afraid. The mean, distant woman who had the "bad spells"
had always been frightening. The other—the one who had shown
him how to trace letters, who rode astride with her hair flying in
the wind and smelled like flowers—she was a stranger who'd come
to visit for a little while, then abandoned him. In Tobin's mind, she
had disappeared from the tower like one of her birds. 'Someday
you'll understand," his father said again. He pulled Tobin up
and looked at him again. "You are very special, my child." The demon,
who'd been so quiet, snatched a tapestry from the wall across the
room and ripped it violently up the middle, snapping the wooden rod
that held it. The whole thing fell to the floor with a clatter, but
his father paid it no mind. "You're too young yet to think about
it, but I promise you that you will be a great warrior when you're
grown. You'll live in Ero and everyone will bow to you. Everything
I've done, Tobin, I've done for you, and for Skala." Tobin burst
into tears and pressed his face against his father's chest again. He
didn't care if he ever lived in Ero or any of the rest of it. He just
didn't want to see this strange new look on his father's face. It
reminded him too much of his mother. The one
with bad spells. C,'he next
day Tobin gathered up the parchments and quills and inkpots and put
them away in an unused chest in his bedroom, then placed the doll
under them, hidden in an old flour sack he found in the kitchen yard.
It was risky, he knew, but it made him feel a little better to have
the doll close by. After that
he could look into his own shadowed eyes in the mirror by his
washstand and mouth my mama is dead without
feeling anything at all. Whenever
his mind strayed to why she was dead or what had happened that day in
the tower, however, his thoughts would scatter like a handful of
spilled beans and a hot red ache would start under his breastbone,
burning so badly that he could hardly breathe. Better not to think of
it at all. The doll
was a different matter. He didn't dare let anyone know about it, but
he couldn't leave it alone. The need to touch it woke him in the
middle of the night and drew him to the chest. Once he fell asleep on
the floor and woke just in time to hide it from Nari as she awakened
the next morning. After that
he sought out a new hiding place for it, settling at last on a chest
in one of the ruined guest chambers upstairs. No one seemed to care
anymore if he came up there. His father spent most of his time shut
away in his chamber. Now that most of the servants had run away or
been dismissed, Nari did more work around the keep during the
daytime, cleaning and helping Cook in the kitchen. Tharin was there
as always, but Tobin didn't feel like riding or shooting, or even
practicing at swords. His one
companion during the long, dreary days that spring was the demon. It
followed him everywhere and lurked in the shadows of the dusty
upstairs room when he visited the doll. Tobin could feel it watching
him. It knew his secret. sbin was
pushing a little stick person around the streets of his city a few
days later when Tharin appeared in the doorway. 'How goes
life in Ero today?" Tharin sat down beside him and helped set
some of the clay sheep back on their feet in their market enclosure.
There were raindrops in his short blond beard, and he smelled like
fresh air and leaves. He didn't seem to mind that Tobin said nothing.
Instead, he carried on the conversation for both of them, just as if
he knew what Tobin was thinking. "You must be missing your
mother. She was a fine lady in her day. Nari tells me she brightened
up these past few months. I hear she was teaching you your letters?" Tobin
nodded. 'I'm glad
to hear it." Tharin paused to arrange a few sheep more to his
liking. "Do you miss her?" Tobin
shrugged. 'By the
Flame, I do." Tobin
looked up in surprise and Tharin nodded. "I watched your father
court her. He loved her then, and she him. Oh, I know it must not
have seemed so to you, but that's how it was before. They were the
handsomest pair in all Ero—him a warrior in his prime, and her
the fair young princess, just come into womanhood." Tobin
fiddled with a toy ship. He couldn't imagine his parents acting any
differently toward one another than they ever had. Tharin got
up and held out a hand to Tobin. "Come on, then, Tobin, you've
moped around inside long enough. The rain's stopped and the sun's
shining. It's fine shooting weather. Go fetch your boots and cloak.
Your weapons are downstairs where you left them." Tobin let
himself be pulled up and followed the man out to the barracks yard.
The men were lounging in the sun and greeted Tobin with false
heartiness. 'There he
is at last!" grey-bearded Laris said, swinging Tobin up on his
shoulder. "We've missed you, lad. Is Tharin putting you back to
your lessons?" Tobin
nodded. 'What's
that, young prince?" Koni chided playfully, giving Tobin's foot
a shake. "Speak up, won't you?" 'He will
when he's ready," said Tharin. "Fetch the prince's sword
and let's see how much he remembers." Tobin
saluted Tharin with his blade and took his position. He felt stiff
and clumsy all over as they began the forms, but by the time he
reached the final set of thrusts and guards, the men were cheering
him on. 'Not bad,"
said Tharin. "But I want to see you out here every day again.
The time will come when you'll be glad of all these exercises. Now
let's see how your bow arm is." Ducking
into the barracks, he returned with Tobin's bow and practice arrows,
and the sack of shavings they used for a target. He tossed the sack
out into the middle of the yard, about twenty paces away. Tobin
checked his string, then fitted an arrow to it and pulled. The arrow
flew high and awry and landed in the mud near the •wall. 'Mind your
breathing and spread your feet a little," Tharin reminded him. Tobin took
a deep breath and let it out slowly as he drew again. This time the
arrow struck home, skewering the bag and knocking it several feet. 'That's the
way. And again." Tharin only
allowed him three arrows at practice. After he shot them all, he was
to think about how to improve his shooting as he collected them. Before he
could do so this time, Tharin turned to Koni. "Do you have those
new arrows fletched for the prince?" 'Right
here." Koni reached behind the barrel he was sitting on and
brought out a quiver with half a dozen new shafts fletched with wild
goose feathers. "Hope they bring you luck, Tobin," he said,
presenting them to the boy. Pulling one
out, Tobin saw that it had a small round stone for a head. He grinned
up at Tharin; these were hunting arrows. 'Cook has a
hankering to cook some rabbit or grouse," Tharin told him. "Want
to help me find supper? Good. Laris, go ask the duke if he'd like to
join a hunting party. Manies, get Gosi saddled." Laris
hurried off, only to return alone a few moments later shaking his
head. Tobin hid
his disappointment as best he could as he rode up the muddy mountain
road with Tharin and Koni. The trees were still bare, but a few green
shoots were already pushing up through last year's leaves. The first
hint of true spring was on the air, and the forest smelled of rot
ting wood and wet earth. When they reached what Tharin judged to be a
promising stretch of woods, they dismounted and set off along a
faint, winding trail. This was
the first time Tobin had ever traveled so far into the forest. The
road was soon lost from sight behind them and the trees grew thicker,
the ground rougher. With only their own careful footsteps to break
the quiet, he could hear the eerie squeak of trees rubbing together,
and the patter of little creatures in the undergrowth. Best of all,
the demon hadn't followed. He was free. Tharin and
Koni showed him how to call the curious grouse into the open,
mimicking its funny puk puk puk call. Tobin
pursed his lips as they did, but only a faint popping sound came out. A few birds
answered Tharin's call, poking their heads from the undergrowth or
hopping up on logs to see what was going on. The men let Tobin shoot
at all of them and he finally hit one, knocking it off a fallen tree. 'Well
done!" said Tharin, clapping him on the shoulder proudly. "Go
on and gather your kill." Still
clutching his bow, Tobin hurried to the tree and peered over it. The grouse
had fallen over on its breast, but it wasn't dead. Its striped head
was twisted to the side and it stared up at him with one black eye.
Its tail fan beat weakly as he bent over it, but the bird couldn't
move. A drop of bright blood welled at the tip of its beak, red as— Tobin heard
a strange buzzing, like bees, but it was too early in the year. The
next thing he knew, he was lying on the damp ground, looking up into
Tharin's worried face as the man chafed his wrists and chest. 'Tobin?
What's wrong with you, lad?" Puzzled,
Tobin sat up and looked around. There was his bow lying on the damp
ground, but no one seemed upset about that. Koni was sitting on the
fallen tree beside him, holding the dead grouse up by its feet. 'You got
him, Prince Tobin. You knocked old Master Grouse right off his log.
What did you go and faint for, eh? Are you sick?" Tobin shook
his head. He didn't know what had happened. Reaching for the bird, he
spread its tail and admired the fan of barred feathers. 'It was a
fine shot, but I think perhaps that's enough for today," said
Tharin. Tobin shook
his head again, more vigorously this time, and jumped up to show them
how well he was. Tharin
hesitated a moment, then laughed. "All right then, if you say
so!" Tobin shot
another grouse before dusk, and by the time they started down the
road everyone had forgotten all about his silly faint, even Tobin. 'ver the
next few weeks the days grew longer and they spent more time in the
forest. Spring came to the mountains, clothing the trees in fresh new
green and pulling tender shoots and colorful mushrooms up through the
brown loam. Does came out into the forest clearing to teach their
spotted fawns to graze. Tharin would not shoot at them, just grouse
and rabbits. They stayed
out all day sometimes, cooking their kills on sticks over a fire when
the hunting was good, eating the bread and cheese Cook sent along
when it wasn't. Tobin didn't care either way, so long as it meant
being outdoors. He'd never had so much fun. Tharin and
Koni taught Tobin how to keep his bearings in the trees using the
sun's position over his shoulder. They came across a nest of wood
snakes in a rock pile, still sluggish from their winter sleep, and
Koni explained how to tell if they were vipers or not by the shape of
their heads. Tharin showed him the tracks and spoor of the creatures
that shared this forest. There were mostly signs of rabbits and fox
and stag. As they walked along a game trail one day, however, Tharin
suddenly bent down next to a patch of soft earth. 'See that?"
he said, pointing out a print broader than his hand. It looked
something like a hound's, but rounder. "That's a catamount. This
is why you play in the courtyard, my lad. A big she cat •with
cubs to feed would consider you a good day's catch." Seeing
Tobin's look of alarm, he chuckled and ruffled the boy's hair.
"You're not likely to see one in daylight, and as summer comes
they'll move back up into the mountains. But you don't ever want to
be out here alone at night." Tobin took
in all these lessons eagerly, and made a few observations of his own:
the inviting gap beneath a fallen tree, a sheltered circle of rocks,
a shadowy hole beneath a boulder — all fine hiding spots, big
enough for the troublesome doll. For the first time, he wondered what
it would be like to walk here alone and explore these hidden places
by himself. is father
hunted with them now and then, but he was too quiet for Tobin to feel
comfortable around him. Most days he stayed shut up in his room, just
as Tobin's mother had. Tobin would
steal to his father's door and press his ear to it, aching for things
to be the way they had been. Before. Nari found
him there one afternoon and knelt down, putting her arms around him.
"Don't fret," she whispered, stroking his cheek. "Men
do their grieving alone. He'll soon be right again." But as
wildflowers burst out to carpet the new grass in the meadow, Rhius
remained a shadow in the house. *y the end
of Lithion the roads were dry enough to drive the cart to market. On
market day, Cook and Nari took Tobin with them into Alestun, thinking
it would be a treat for him to ride Gosi beside the cart. He shook
his head, trying to tell Nari that he didn't want to go, but she
clucked her tongue at him, insisting he'd enjoy the ride. There were
a few new lambs and kids in the meadows around the town, and the
fields of young oats and barley looked like soft woolen blankets
thrown on the ground. Wild crocus grew thickly at the edges of the
road and they stopped to gather handfuls of these for the shrine. Alestun
held no charm for Tobin now. He ignored the other children and never
allowed himself to look at any dolls. He added his flowers to the
fragrant piles around the pillar of Dalna and waited stoically for
the adults to finish their business. They
arrived home that evening to find Rhius and the others in the
courtyard, packing their horses to leave. Tobin slid off Gosi's back
and ran to his father. Rhius took
him by the shoulders. "I'm needed at court. I'll come back as
soon as I can." 'So will I,
little prince," Tharin promised, looking sadder than his father
did to be leaving. ,' need
you here! Tobin wanted to cry out. But words still would not
come, and he had to turn away so they wouldn't see his tears. By
nightfall they were gone, leaving him lonelier than ever. tt Iya and
Arkoniel spent the late winter months just outside Hear, guesting
with a wizard named Virishan. This woman had no vision except her
own, which drove her to seek out and shelter god-touched children
among the poor. She had fifteen young students, many of them already
severely crippled or battered by the ignorant folk they'd been born
to. Most of them would never amount to much as wizards, but what
humble powers they'd retained were cherished and coaxed forth under
Virishan's patient tutelage. Iya and Arkoniel gave what help they
could in return for shelter, and Iya left Virishan one of her pebbles
when they departed. When the
weather cleared they made their way to Sy-lara, where Iya had
arranged passage south. They reached it just before sundown and
encountered an unusual number of people on the road, all streaming
into the little port. 'What's
going on?" Arkoniel asked a farmer. "Is it a fair?" The man
eyed their silver amulets with distrust. "No, a bonfire stoked
with your kind." 'The
Harriers are there?" asked Iya. The man
spat over his shoulder. "Yes, Mistress, and they've brought a
gang of traitors who dared speak against the king's rule. You'd do
best to steer clear of Sy-lara today." Iya reined
her horse to the side of the road and Arkoniel followed. "Perhaps
we should take his advice," he muttered, looking nervously
around at the crowd. "We're strangers here, with no one to vouch
for us." He was
right, of course, but lya shook her head. "The Lightbearer has
put an opportunity in our path. I want to see what they do, while
we're still unknown to them. And that's something we should make
certain of, too. Take off your amulet." Leaving the
road, she led him to a small oak grove on a nearby hill. Here,
protected by a circle of stones and sig-ils, they left their amulets
and every other accouterment that marked them as wizards except the
leather bag. Trusting
that their plain traveling garb would excite no suspicion, they rode
on to Sylara. ^^•ve
ven without his amulet, Arkoniel couldn't
help glancing around nervously as they entered the town. Could these
Harriers recognize a wizard merely by his powers? Some of the rumors
they'd picked up invested the white-clad wizards with powers beyond
the normal range. If so, they'd chosen an odd place to show them off.
Sylara was nothing but a rambling, dirty harbor town. The
waterfront was already crowded with spectators. Arkoniel could hear
jeers and catcalls echoing across the water as they made their way
down the muddy street to the shore. The crowd
was too thick to get through, so lya paid a taverner to watch from a
squalid little upper room that overlooked the waterfront. A broad
platform had been set up here, built between two stone jetties.
Soldiers wearing dark grey tabards with the outline of a flying hawk
stitched in red across the breast stood two deep on the landward
side. Arkoniel counted forty in all. Behind them
stood a long gibbet and a knot of wizards by two large wooden frames.
These last looked like upended bedframes, but larger. 'White
robes," lya muttered, looking at the wizards. 'Niryn's
fashion. He had on a white robe the night To-bin was born." Six people
already dangled from the horizontal pole of the gibbet. The four men
hung limp at the end of their halters; one still wore the robes of a
priest of Illior. The remaining two, a woman and a boy, were so small
that their weight was not enough to break their necks. Bound hand and
foot, they bucked and twisted wildly. Fighting
for life, or death? Arkoniel wondered, horrified. They reminded
him perversely of a butterfly he'd watched emerge from its winter
chrysalis—suspended beneath a branch by a bit of silk, it had
twitched and jiggled inside the shiny brown casing. These two looked
like that, but their struggle would not end in wings and color. At last
some soldiers grabbed their legs and hauled down to snap their necks.
A few cheers went up among the crowd, but most of the onlookers had
fallen silent. Arkoniel
clutched the window frame, already nauseated, but there was worse to
follow. The wizards
had remained motionless near the wooden frames all this time. As soon
as the last of the hanged went still, they spread out in a line
across the platform, revealing the two naked, kneeling men they'd
been shielding with their circle. One was an old man with white hair;
the other was young and dark. Both wore thick iron bands around their
necks and wrists. Arkoniel
squinted down at the Harrier wizards and let out a gasp of dismay. He
couldn't make out faces at this distance, but he recognized the
forked red beard of the man standing closest to the frames. "That's
Niryn himself!" 'Yes. I
didn't realize there were so many, but I suppose there would have to
be… Those prisoners are wizards. See those iron bands? Very
powerful magic, that. They cloud the mind." Soldiers
pulled the prisoners to their feet and bound them spread-eagled on
the frames with silver cables. Now Arkoniel could see the complex
spell patterns that covered each man's chest. Before he could ask lya
what these signified, she let out a groan and clutched his hand. When the
victims were secured, the wizards flanked them in two rows and began
their incantations. The old man fixed his gaze stoically on the sky,
but his companion panicked, screaming and imploring the crowd and
Illior to save him. 'Can't we
do—" Arkoniel staggered as a blinding ache struck him
behind the eyes. "What is it? Do you feel it?" 'It's a
warding," lya whispered, pressing a hand to her brow. "And
a warning to any of us who might be watching." The crowd
had gone completely silent now. Arkoniel could hear the chanting
growing louder and louder. The blur of words was unintelligible, but
the throbbing in his head grew stronger and spread to his chest and
arms until his heart felt as if it was being squeezed between heavy
stones. He slowly slid down to his knees in front of the window but
could not look away. Both
prisoners began to shake violently, then shrieked as white flames
sprang from their flesh to engulf them. There was no smoke. The white
fire burned with such intensity that within a few moments nothing was
left on the frames but shriveled black hands and feet dangling from
the silver bonds. lya was whispering hoarsely beside him, and he
joined her in the prayer for the dead. When it was
over, lya slumped down on the narrow bed and wove a spell of silence
around them with shaking fingers. Arkoniel remained where he was
under the window, unable to move. For a long time neither could
speak. At last lya
whispered, "There was nothing we could have done. Nothing. I see
their power now. They've banded together and joined their strength.
The rest of us are so scattered—" 'That, and
the king's sanction!" Arkoniel spat out. "He's his mad
mother's son after all." 'He's
worse. She was insane, where he is ruthless, and intelligent enough
to turn wizards against their own kind." Fear kept
them in the tiny room until nightfall, when the tavern keeper shooed
them out to make way for a whore and her cully. The taverns
were open and there were still many people on the street, but none
ventured out onto the platform. Torches had been left burning there.
Arkoniel could see the bodies on the gibbet swinging in the night
breeze. The frames, however, were gone. 'Should we
go see if there's anything to be learned?" "No." lya
drew him hastily away. "It's too dangerous. They might be
watching." Slipping
out of town by the darkest alleys, they rode back to the grove and
gathered their tools. But when Arkoniel reached for the amulets, lya
shook her head. They left them where they lay and rode on without
speaking until the town was far behind them. 'Eight
wizards could do that, Arkoniel, just eight!" lya burst out at
last, voice shaking with fury. "And there was nothing we could
do against them. I begin to see more clearly now. The Third Oreska
the Oracle revealed to me in my vision—it was a great
confederation of wizards in a shining palace of their own at the
heart of a great city. If eight are enough to carry out the evil we
witnessed here, what could a hundred accomplish for good? And who
could stand against us?" 'Like in
the Great War," said Arkoniel. lya shook her head. "That
union lasted only as long as the war, and in the face of the most
horrible conflict and upheaval. Think what we could do with peace and
time enough to work! Imagine—the knowledge you and I have
collected in our travels combined with that of a hundred other
wizards. And think of Virishan's poor children. Imagine them saved
sooner and brought up in such a place, with dozens of teachers
instead of one, and whole libraries of wisdom to draw from." 'But
instead, that same power is being used to divide us against
ourselves." lya stared
into the distance, her face unreadable in the starlight. "Famine.
Disease. Raiders. Now this. Sometimes, Arkoniel, I see Skala like a
sacrificial bull at Sakor-tide. But instead of a clean stroke of the
sword to kill it, it's being stuck over and over with little knives
until it weakens and falls to its knees." She turned grimly to
Arkoniel. "And there's Plenimar just across the water, scenting
blood like a wolf." 'It's
almost as if Niryn has had the same vision, but turned it on its
head," Arkoniel murmured. "Why would the Lightbearer do
that?" 'You saw
the priest on the gibbet, my boy. Do you really think it's Illior who
guides him?" Spring
turned to summer and the meadow below the keep was thick again with
daisies and willow bay. Tb-bin longed to go riding, but Mynir was
ailing and there was no one else left to go out with, so he had to be
content with walks with Nari. He was too
old now to be content playing in the kitchen under the women's
watchful eyes, but Nari wouldn't let him go out to the barracks yard
to practice unless one of the servants was free to go with him. Cook
was the only one in the house who knew anything of shooting or
swordplay, and she was too old and fat to do more than advise him. He still
had the parchments and ink his mother had given him, but they brought
too many dark memories. He began to spend more time shut up in the
third-floor chamber, with only the doll and the demon for company. He
sometimes whittled with the sharp little knife Koni had given him,
using chunks of soft pine and cedar purloined from the kindling pile.
The wood was fragrant under his hands and seemed to hold shapes for
his blade to discover. Caught up in puzzling out how to coax out a
leg or fin or ear, he forgot for a while how lonely he was. Often,
however, he would sit with the doll on his lap the way his mama had,
wondering what to do with it. It wasn't useful like a sword or bow.
Its blank face made him sad. He remembered how his mama used to talk
to it, but he couldn't even do that, for his voice had not come back.
Sitting there, squeezing his fingers into the stuffed limbs to find
the mysterious lumps and sharp bits inside, he still
couldn't remember why his mama had given him the strange, misshapen
toy. All the same, he clung to the solid reality of it and the notion
that she had loved him a little after all, at the last. d j^7omeone
had replaced the door to the tower with a stout new one and Tobin was
glad of this without knowing quite why. Whenever he went upstairs, he
always made certain it was tightly locked. Standing in
front of it one day, he suddenly had the oddest sense that his mother
was just on the other side, staring at him through the wood. The
thought sent a thrill of longing and fear through him, and this fancy
grew stronger each day, until he was certain he could hear her inside
the tower, walking up and down the stone steps with her skirts
swishing behind her, or sliding her hands across the wooden panels of
the door in search of the latch. He tried hard to imagine her kind
and happy, but more often it seemed to him that she was angry. This darker
vision took root and grew like nightshade in his imagination. One
night he dreamt that she reached out under the door and pulled him
underneath to her side like a sheet of parchment. The demon was
there, too, and they dragged him up the stairs to the open window
overlooking the mountains to— He woke
thrashing in Nari's arms, but couldn't speak to tell her what the
trouble was. But he knew that he didn't want to go upstairs anymore. The
following afternoon he crept to the third floor one last time, heart
hammering in his chest. He didn't go near the tower door this time.
Instead, he snatched the doll from its hiding place and dashed
downstairs as fast as he could, certain he could hear his mother's
ghost trying to claw her way under the tower door to catch him. Never
again, he vowed, making certain the door at the bottom of the
stairs was shut tight. Running to the toy room, he curled up in the
corner beside the wardrobe, cradling the doll in his arms. V,'obi; Mn spent
the next few days fretting over a new hiding place but couldn't find
anywhere that seemed safe. No matter how safely he thought he'd
tucked it away, he couldn't stop worrying about it. At last, he
decided to share his secret with Nari. She loved him more than anyone
now and perhaps, being a woman, wouldn't think so badly of him. He decided
to show the doll to her when she came up to fetch him for supper. He
waited until he heard her step in the corridor, then took the doll
from its latest hiding spot beneath the toy room wardrobe and turned
to the door. For an
instant he thought he saw someone standing in the open doorway. Then
the door slammed shut and the demon went into a frenzy. Tapestries
flew from the walls and leaped at him like living things. Dust choked
him as layers of heavy fabric knocked him to his knees and shut out
the light. He dropped the doll and managed to struggle out from
beneath them just in time to see the wardrobe topple forward with a
crash, landing just inches from where he lay. The chest upended,
spilling toys and inkpots out over the floor. The seal on one of the
larger pots broke and a pool of sticky black fluid spread out across
the stone floor. Like
Mama's hair on the ice— The thought
came and went like a dragonfly skimming the river's surface. Then the
demon attacked his city. It tore
wooden houses from their places and threw them into the air. People
and animals flew at the wall. Tiny ships scattered as if a gale was
driving them. 'No! Stop
it!" Tobin shrieked, fighting his way free of the fallen
tapestries to protect the cherished toy. A flock of clay sheep flew
past his head and shattered to bits against the wall. "Stop it!
That's minel" Tobin's
vision seemed to narrow to a long, dark tunnel, and all he could see
at the end of it was his most cherished possession being torn to
pieces. He struck out wildly, flailing with his fists to drive the
hateful spirit away. He heard a loud pounding from somewhere nearby
and fought harder, blind with fury, until his hand connected with
something solid. He heard a startled cry. Strong hands grabbed him
and wrestled him down to the floor. 'Tobin!
Tobin, stop that!" Gasping for
breath, Tobin looked up at Nari. Tears were streaming down her plump
cheeks and blood trickled from her nose. A
red droplet on a grouse's beak—the
same bright red on river ice— Tobin's
vision went completely black. Pain blossomed like a flower of fire in
his chest, pressing a ragged wail from his lungs. His
mother's birds beating themselves against the tower walls behind him
as he looked down on her— No, don't
think— —broken
body at the river's edge. Black
hair and red blood on the ice. The fiery
ache disappeared, leaving him cold and empty. 'Oh Tobin,
how could you?" Nari wept, still holding him down. "All
your pretty things! Why?" 'I didn't,"
he whispered, too tired to move. 'Oh, my
poor love— Maker's mercy, you spoke!" Nari gathered Tobin
into her arms. "Oh, my love, you've found your voice at last." She carried
him next door to his bed and tucked him in, but he hardly noticed. He
lay limp as the doll, remembering. He
remembered why he'd been in the tower. He
remembered why his mama was dead. Why he had
the doll. She hadn't
given it to him. Another
swift, sharp stab of pain pierced Tobin's chest, and he wondered if
it was what Nari meant in her bedtime stories when she spoke of
someone's heart breaking. She lay
down beside him and held him close through the covers, stroking his
hair the way she always did. It made him drowsy. 'Why?"
he managed at last. "Why did Mama hate me?" But if Nari had
an answer for this, he fell asleep before he heard it. woke with a
start in the night, knowing he'd left the doll lying somewhere in the
toy room. He slipped
out of bed and hurried next door in his nightshirt, only to find that
the room had been put right already. The tapestries were back on the
walls. The wardrobe and chest were in their places. The ink was gone,
and all the scattered toys. His city lay in ruins in the middle of
the floor and he knew he must fix it before his father came home and
saw. But the
doll was nowhere to be seen. Leaving the room, he searched the house,
room after room, even the barracks and the stables. There was
no one else in the house. This frightened him terribly, for he'd
never been so alone. Worse yet, he knew that the only place left to
look was upstairs in the tower. He stood in the courtyard, looking up
at the shuttered windows above the roofline. 'I can't,"
he said aloud. "I don't want to go up there." As if in
answer, the courtyard gate swung open with a creak of hinges, and
Tobin caught a glimpse of someone small and dark slipping away across
the bridge. He followed
but as soon as he was through the gate he found himself deep in the
forest, following a path that ran along the riverbank. Far ahead,
half hidden by branches, he caught movement again and knew it was the
demon. He followed
it to a clearing but it disappeared. The moon was up now and he could
see two does grazing on the silvery, dew-covered grass. They pricked
up their ears at his approach, but didn't spring away. Tobin went to
them and stroked their soft brown muzzles. They bowed their heads
under his hand, then sidled away into the dark forest. There was a
hole in the ground, like the entrance to a fox's burrow, where they'd
been grazing. It was just big enough for him to crawl into, and he
did. Wiggling
through, he found a room below very much like his mother's tower
chamber. The windows were open, but blocked by packed earth and
roots. It was bright all the same, though, lit by a cheerful fire on
the hearth in the center of the room. A table beside it was set with
honey cakes and cups of milk, and next to that was a chair. It was
turned away from him, but he could see that someone was sitting
there, someone with long black hair. 'Mama?"
Tobin asked, caught between joy and terror. The woman started to
turn— And Tobin
woke up. He lay
there a moment, blinking back tears as he listened to Nari's soft
snoring beside him. The dream had been so real, and he'd wanted to
see his mother again so badly. He wanted her to be smiling and kind.
He wanted for them to sit at the table by the fire and eat the honey
cakes together, as they never had on any of his name days. He burrowed
deeper beneath the blankets, wondering if he could slip back into the
dream. Suddenly a fragment of it brought him fully awake again. He had
left the doll in the toy room. Slipping
out of bed, he took the night lamp from its stand and went into the
next room, wondering if it would all be the way it had been in his
dream. But the
room was still a shambles. Everything lay where it had fallen. Trying
not to look at the broken city, he hauled the heavy tapestries aside,
looking for the doll where he must have dropped it. It wasn't
there. Crouched
miserably with his arms around his knees, he pictured someone—Nari
or Mynir perhaps—finding it and shaking their head in
disapproval as they carried it away. Would they tell his father?
Would they give it back? Something
struck him on the head and he toppled sideways, choking back a cry of
alarm. There was
the doll on the floor beside him, where it most certainly had not
been the moment before. Tobin couldn't see the demon but he could
feel it, watching him from the far corner. Slowly,
cautiously, Tobin picked up the doll and whispered, "Thank you." Chapter Not
daring to risk losing the doll again, Tobin moved it back to his
room, tying it up in the flour sack and burying it deep in the unused
clothes chest under his parchments, some old toys, and his
second-best cloak. He felt a
little easier after that, but the dream of going into the forest came
to him three more times over the next week, always ending before he
could reach the woman in the chair. It was the
same each time in every detail except one. In these dreams he was
bringing the doll back to his mother, knowing she would keep it safe
for him in her room under the ground. Another
week passed, and the dream came again, growing so real in his mind
that he knew at last that he must go see for himself if there really
was such a place. This meant disobeying everyone and going out by
himself, but the dream was too strong to be denied. He bided
his time and saw his chance one washing day in mid-Gorathin. Everyone
would be busy in the kitchen yard all day. He worked with them in the
morning, hauling buckets of water in from the river to fill the wash
cauldron and dragging bundles of branches from the woodshed to start
the fire. The eastern sky, so clear at dawn, was darkening ominously
over the treetops and everyone was in a hurry to finish before the
rain came. He ate his
midday meal with the others, then asked to be excused. Nari pulled
him close and kissed him on the top of his head. She always seemed to
be hugging him these days. 'What will
you do with yourself, pet? Stay and keep us company." 'I want to
work on my city." Tobin pressed his face against her shoulder so
she wouldn't see that he was lying. "Do you… do you think
Father will be angry when he sees?" 'Of course
not. I can't imagine your father ever being angry with a boy as good
as you. Isn't that right, Cook?" The woman
nodded over her bread and cheese. "You're the moon and sun to
him." The ash
shovel by the hearth jumped off its nail with a loud clatter, but
everyone pretended not to notice. Freeing
himself from Nari's embrace, Tobin ran upstairs and waited by his
window until he could hear everyone out in the yard again. Then,
hiding the doll beneath his longest cloak, he crept downstairs again
and slipped out the front gate. He half expected to be magically
transported to the forest, as he always was in the dream, but simply
ended up outside the wall. As the gate swung shut behind him, he
froze for a moment, overcome by the enormity of what he was about to
do. What if Nari found him gone? What if he met with a catamount or a
wolf? A rising
breeze stroked his face with the scent of rain as he crept between
the courtyard wall and the riverbank toward the forest. Robins were
singing of the storm somewhere nearby, and doves called mournfully to
each other in the trees. The gate of
the kitchen yard was still open. He could see Nari and Cook at work
there as he passed, laughing as they stirred the -wash pot with their
wooden paddles. It felt very odd, standing out here looking in. He
continued on, following the wall past the base of the tower. He kept
his eyes down as he passed the boulders where his mother had died. He reached
the cover of the trees at last, and only now did it occur to Tobin
that he had no idea where to go; in his dreams, he'd had the demon to
guide him. But there had been a river in the dream and he had a river
here, so he decided to follow it and hope for the best. He paused to
check the sun's position over his shoulder the way Tharin had taught
him. It wasn't so easy today. The sun was little more than a bright
blur behind the haze. The
river is as good as a path, he thought. All
I have to do is follow it home. He'd never
been this way before. The riverbank was steep and the trees grew down
close to the water. To follow it, he had to clamber over rocks and
wriggle through thick stands of willow and alder. In low places he
found animal tracks in the mud and scanned these nervously for signs
of prowling catamounts. He found none, but still wished he'd thought
to bring his bow. The sky
grew darker as he toiled on, and the wind began to toss the branches
around overhead. There were no doves or robins calling now, just some
ravens croaking nearby. Tobin's arm cramped from carrying the doll.
He thought of all the hiding places he'd seen on his rides, but the
few holes he found here were all too wet. Even if he did find a dry
hiding place, he wasn't sure if he'd dare come out and visit it very
often. On the heels of that thought came the realization that he did
not want to be parted from it at all. Better to
keep going and look for that hidden room, he told himself. But nothing
looked the way it had in his dream. There was no clearing, no
friendly deer waiting for him, just rocks and roots that caught his
feet, little biting flies that buzzed in his ears, and mud that
soaked his shoes. He was almost ready to give up when he struck a
clear trail leading up to a pine grove on higher ground. The way was
much easier here. Fragrant rust-colored needles lay thick underfoot
and his feet hardly made a sound as he walked. He followed this path
eagerly, certain it would lead him to the clearing and the deer. In
stead, it gradually grew fainter until it disappeared altogether
beneath the thick, straight trunks of the pines. Turning around, he
couldn't see his way back. His feet had left no impression in the
thick needles. He couldn't even hear the sound of the river anymore,
just the first patter of rain through the boughs. No matter what
direction he turned, it all looked the same. The bit of sky he could
see through the thick branches was an even blanket of grey with no
hint of the sun. The breeze
had died and the day had turned close. Flies with big green eyes
joined the clouds of tiny midges buzzing around him, biting him on
the neck and behind his ears. The grand adventure was over. Tobin was
hot, frightened and lost. He cast
around frantically to find the path but it was no use. At last, he
gave up and sat on a rock, wondering if Nan had noticed that he was
gone yet. It was
quiet here. He heard a red squirrel's angry trill and the sounds of
small creatures creeping in the undergrowth around him. Little black
ants toiled in the needles around his feet, carrying their eggs and
bits of leaves. Exhausted, he leaned forward to watch them. One had a
shiny beetle's leg in its pinchers. A long black snake as thick as
Tobin's wrist emerged from a hole under a nearby tree and slithered
past his foot, paying no attention to him at all. Rain fell softly
through the branches, and he could hear the different sounds the
drops made, striking dead leaves, plants, rocks, and the needles on
the ground. Tobin wondered uneasily what catamount's feet sounded
like on pine needles, or if they made any sound at all. 'I thought
you come today maybe." Tobin
nearly toppled off his rock as he whirled around. A small,
black-haired woman sat on a mossy log just a few yards away, hands
clasped in her lap. She was very dirty and wore a ragged brown rag of
a dress decorated with animal teeth. Her hands and bare feet were
stained, and there were sticks and bits of leaf tangled in her long,
curly hair. She grinned at him, but her black eyes held no mockery. Tobin
thrust the doll behind him, shamed at being caught with it, even by a
stranger. He was scared, too, noting the long knife sheathed at her
belt. She didn't look like one of his father's tenants, and she spoke
strangely. She gave
him a broad smile that lacked several teeth. "Look what I got,
keesa." She moved her hands and he saw
that she held a young rabbit on her lap. She stroked its ears and
back. "You come see?" Tobin
hesitated, but curiosity overcame caution. He rose and slowly walked
over to stand before her. 'You rub
her," the woman said, showing him how to pat the rabbit. "She
like." Tobin
stroked the rabbit's back. Its fur was soft and warm under his hand
and, like the deer in his dream, it wasn't the least bit skittish. 'She like
you." Yes,
thought Tobin, this woman didn't speak like anyone he'd met in
Alestun. He was close enough now to tell that she didn't smell very
good, either, but for some reason he wasn't afraid anymore. Keeping the
doll hidden under his cloak, he knelt and patted the rabbit some
more. "She's soft. Dogs don't let me pet them." The woman
clicked her tongue against her teeth. "Dogs don't
understanding." Before Tobin could ask what she meant, she said,
"I waiting for you long time, keesa." 'My name
isn't Keesa. It's Prince Tobin. I don't know you, do I?" 'But I
knowing you, keesa called Tobin. Knowing your poor mama, too. You got
one was her thing." So she had
seen the doll. Blushing, Tobin slowly brought it out from under his
cloak. She took it and passed him the rabbit to hold. 'I Lhel.
You don't be scared me." She held the doll on her lap, smoothing
it with her stained fingers. "I know you born. Watch for you." Lhel?
He'd heard that name somewhere before. "How come you never come
to the keep?" 'I come."
She winked at him. "Not be see." 'How come
you don't talk right?" Lhel
touched a finger playfully to his nose. "Maybe you teach? I
teach, too. I wait be your teaching, all this time out in trees.
Lonesome time, but I wait. You ready learn some things?" 'No. I was
looking for—for—" 'Mama?" Tobin
nodded. "I saw her in a dream. In a room under the ground." Lhel shook
her head sadly. "Don't her. Be me. That mama don't be need now." Sadness
overwhelmed Tobin. "I want to go home!" Lhel patted
his cheek. "Not so far. But you don't come just get lost, no?"
She patted the doll. "This give you some troubles." 'Well—" 'I know.
You come, keesa." She got up
and walked off through the trees with the doll. Tobin had little
choice but to follow. V,'he
washing didn't take as long when Rhius and the men were away. With
rain threatening, Nari and Cook made quick work of the clothing and
linens while Mynir strung lines up in the hall for drying. They were
finished in time to start a proper supper. 'I'll do
the bread," Nari said, surveying the lines of dripping linen
with satisfaction. "Just let me go see if Tobin wants to help." The truth
was, she didn't feel easy in her mind leaving the child alone so
much, not since the mess in the toy room. It could have been the
spirit that tore the room up— the thought of Tobin heaving over
that heavy wardrobe scared the liver out of her—but it had been
Tobin she'd seen throwing toys and torn tapestries around, and he
who'd attacked her, bloodying her nose before she could hold him. It
was getting harder to tell when to blame the spirit, and when Tobin
was in one of his fits. He'd been so strange since the death, keeping
to himself and always acting as if he had some great secret he was
keeping. Nari sighed
as she climbed the stairs. Ariani had never been much use as a
mother, except perhaps for those last quiet months. And Rhius? Nari
shook her head. She'd never been able to puzzle that one out, and all
the more so since his wife's death. If Tobin was a bit strange—well,
who was to blame for that? She found
Tobin kneeling beside his toy city, his black hair hanging in a
tangled mess around his face as he worked on a broken ship. 'Would you
like to help with the baking, pet?" she asked. He shook
his head, struggling to fit the tiny mast back into place. 'Want some
help with that'" He shook
his head again and turned away, reaching for something beside him. 'Suit
yourself, then, Master Silence." Giving him a last, fond look,
Nari headed back for the kitchen, already pondering what sort of
bread they ought to have tonight. She didn't
hear the sound of the little ship falling to the floor in the empty
room behind her. C,'obi in
cradled the rabbit in his arms as he followed Lhel deeper into the
forest. There was no path that he could see, but she picked her way
through the trees as swiftly as if she could see one. The forest grew
darker, and the trees here were larger than any Tobin had seen
before. Soon they were walking between huge oaks and hemlocks. Wide
swaths of yellow lady slippers, wintergreen, and foul-smelling purple
trillium covered the ground like a colorful rag quilt. Tobin
studied Lhel as he followed her. She wasn't much taller than he was.
Her hair was black like his mama's, but coarse and curly, with thick
locks of silver mixed in. They went
on for a very long time. He didn't want to go this deep in the woods,
not with her, but she had the doll and she didn't even look back to
see if he was following. Blinking back fresh tears, he promised
himself he would never come out alone again. She stopped
at last by the largest oak tree Tobin had ever seen. It towered over
them as high as the tower and its trunk was nearly as thick. It was
festooned with animal skulls, antlers, and hides tacked up to cure. A
few small fish hung on drying racks beside it, and there were baskets
made of woven grass and willow. Just beyond these a spring welled up
in a clear, round pool that sent a trickling streamlet down the hill.
They drank from their hands at the pool, and then Lhel led him back
to the great tree. 'My house,"
she said, and vanished into the trunk. Tobin
gaped, wondering if the tree had eaten her, but she peeked out at him
from its side and beckoned him to follow. Coming
closer, he saw that there was a crack in the trunk large enough for
him to walk through without stooping. Inside the ancient tree was a
hollow place almost as big as Tobin's bedchamber, with a floor of
packed, dry earth. The smooth silvery wood of the walls went up into
darkness, and a second crack a few yards above the door let in enough
light for Tobin to make out a pallet bed piled with furs, a firepit,
and a small iron pot beside it. The pot looked just like the ones
Cook used. 'Did you
make this place?" he asked, forgetting his fear again as he
gazed around. This was even better than a room under the ground. 'No. Old
grandmother trees open up hearts, make good place inside." She
kissed her palm and pressed it to the wood as if she was thanking the
tree. Lhel
settled Tobin on the pallet and kindled a small blaze in the firepit.
He put the rabbit down, and it settled beside him and began cleaning
its whiskers with its paws. Lhel reached into the shadows near the
door and brought out a basket of wild strawberries and a braided loaf
of bread. 'That looks
like the bread Cook made the other day," Tobin observed. 'She good
maker," Lhel replied, setting the food down in front of him.
"Tell you I go your home." 'You stole
the bread?" 'I earn it,
wait for you." 'How come
I've never seen you there, then?" Tobin asked again. "How
come I've never heard of you, living so close?" The woman
scooped a handful of berries into her mouth and shrugged. "I
don't want folks be see me, they don't see. Now, we fix this hekka,
yes?" Before
Tobin could object, Lhel drew her knife and cut the shiny black cord
from the doll's neck. Once severed, the cord unwound into a thin hank
of black hair. 'Mama's."
Lhel tickled Tobin's cheek with it, then cast it into the fire. Using
her knife again, she picked open a seam on the doll's back and shook
some brown, crumbling flakes into the fire, then replaced them with
sprigs of herbs from a basket. Among them Tobin recognized the spiky
tips of rosemary and rue. Producing a
silver needle and some thread from the pouch at her belt, she held
out her hand to Tobin. "Need bitty of you red, keesa, hold the
charm. Make this you hekka." 'It's
already mine," Tobin protested, shrinking back. Lhel shook
her head. "No." Not knowing
what else to do, Tobin allowed her to prick his finger and squeeze a
drop of his blood into the body of the doll. Then she stitched it all
up again, set it upright on her knee, and wrinkled her nose into a
comic grimace. "Need face, but you maker for that. I done last
thing now. Little thing." Humming to
herself, Lhel cut a lock of Tobin's hair, rubbed the strands with wax
like a bowstring, and twisted them into a new neck cord for the doll.
Tobin watched her fingers as she secured it with a fancy knot that
seemed to knit the ends of the strand together. "Are you a
wizard?" Lhel
snorted and handed him the finished doll. "What you think this
be?" 'Just—just
a doll?" Tobin replied, already suspecting it wasn't. "Is
it magic now?" 'Always be
magic," Lhel told him. "My folk call this hekkamari.
Got spirit in it. You know the one." 'The
demon?" Tobin stared down at it. Lhel gave
him a sad smile. "Demon, keesa? No. Spirit. Ghost. This be your
brother." 'I don't
have a brother!" 'You do,
keesa. Born with you but die. I teaching your mama be make this for
his poor man. He be wait, too. Long time.
You say—" She paused, pressing her palms together beneath
her chin as she thought. "You say, 'Blood, my blood. Flesh, my
flesh. Bone, my bone.'" 'What will
that do?" 'Bind him
to you. You see then. He need you. You need him." 'I don't
want to see it!" Tobin cried, thinking of all the monsters he'd
conjured up trying to put a form to the presence that had
overshadowed his life. Lhel
reached out and cupped his cheek in her rough palm. "You being
scared long enough. Be brave now like warrior. You got things coming
of you, you don't know. You always being brave, all the time." Always
being brave, like a warrior, thought Tobin. Feeling anything but
brave, he closed his eyes and whispered, "Blood, my blood.
Flesh, my flesh…" 'Bone, my
bone," Lhel prompted softly. 'Bone, my
bone." He felt the
demon enter the oak and come so close to him he could reach out and
touch it if he dared. Lhel's cool hand covered his. 'Keesa,
see." Tobin
opened his eyes and gasped. A boy who looked just like him crouched a
few feet away. But this boy was dirty and naked, and his dull black
hair was tangled around his face in filthy clumps. ,' saw
him that day when Mama… Tobin shoved the thought away. He
didn't think of That Day. Not ever. The other
boy glared at Tobin with eyes so black the pupils didn't show. 'He looks
like me," Tobin whispered. 'He you.
You he. Look-likes." 'Twins, you
mean?" Tobin had seen twins in Alestun. 'Twins,
yes." The demon
bared its teeth at Lhel in a soundless hiss, then scuttled to squat
on the far side of the fire. The rabbit hopped back into Tobin's lap
beside the doll and went on washing. 'He doesn't
like you," Tobin told Lhel. 'Hates,"
Lhel agreed. "You mama have him. Now you have him. Keep
hekkamari safe or he be lost. He need you, help you some." Unnerved by
the demon's unblinking glare, Tobin huddled closer to Lhel. "Why
did he die?" Lhel
shrugged. "Keesa die sometime." The ghost
crouched lower, ready to spring at her. She ignored it. 'But—but
how come he didn't go to Bilairy?" Tobin demanded. "Nari
says we go to Bilairy at the gates when we die and he takes us to
Astellus, who guides us to the dead lands." Lhel
shrugged again. Tobin
squirmed in frustration. "Well, what's its name?" 'Can't name
on dead." 'I have to
call it something!" 'Call him
Brother. That he is." 'Brother?"
The ghost just stared at him and Tobin shivered again. This was worse
than when it was something he couldn't see at all. "I don't want
him looking at me all the time. And he hurts me, too. He broke my
city!" 'He don't
be do that no more, now you keep hekkamari. You tell him 'go way!' he
go way. You call him back, too, with words I teaching you. You say,
so I know you know them." 'Blood, my
blood. Flesh, my flesh. Bone, my bone." The spirit
boy flinched, then crept closer to Tobin, who scrambled back,
dropping the rabbit. Lhel hugged
him and laughed. "He don't be hurt you. Tell him go way." 'Go away,
Brother!" The spirit
vanished. 'Can I make
him go away forever?" Lhel
gripped his hand, suddenly serious. "No! You need him, I tell
you." She shook her head sadly. "Think how lonesome he be?
He miss mama, like you miss. She make this hekka, care for him. She
die. No care. You care now." Tobin
didn't like the sound of that. "What do I do? Do I have to feed
him? Can I give him some clothes?" 'Spirits
eat with they eye. Needs be with folk. Way you see him, that's how
your mama keep him. All she could, so sick in the heart. You call him
sometime, let him look around with you so he don't be so lonesome and
hungry. You do that, keesa?" Tobin
couldn't imagine calling a ghost on purpose, but he
understood all too well what Lhel said about Brother being lonesome
and lost. He sighed,
then whispered the words again. "Blood, my blood. Flesh, my
flesh. Bone, my bone." Brother
reappeared beside him, still glowering. 'Good!"
Lhel said. "You and spirit—" She linked her
forefingers together. Tobin
studied the sullen face, so like his own, and yet not. "Will he
be my friend?" 'No, just
do as he do. Be a lot worse before you mama make hekkamari." She
made the joining sign with her fingers again. "You kin." 'Will Nari
and Father be able to see him when I call him?" 'No, 'less
they got eye. Or he want." 'But you
can see him." Lhel tapped
her forehead. "I got eye. You, too, yes? You see him a little?"
Tobin nodded. "They know him, without seeing. Father. Nari. Old
man at door. They know." Tobin felt
like someone had squeezed all the air out of him. "They know
who the demon is? That I have a brother? Why didn't they tell me?" 'They don't
be ready. Til then, you keep your secret tight." She tapped him
over the heart. "They don't know hekkamari. Just your mama and
me. You keep it tight, just you. Don't show it no oner
'But how?" This brought Tobin right back to his original
dilemma. "I keep putting it places to hide it, but—" Lhel stood
up and went to the door. "Yours, keesa. You carry it. Go home
now." Brother
moved along with them as they started back, sometimes ahead,
sometimes behind. It appeared to walk, but it didn't look quite
right, though Tobin couldn't say exactly why. In a
surprisingly short time, he caught sight of the watchtower roof above
the treetops. 'You're not
very far from us at all!" he exclaimed. "Can I come see you
again?" 'Some
while, keesa." Lhel stopped beneath a drooping birch. "Your
father, he don't like you know me. You have a new teaching, soon."
Reaching out, she cupped his cheek again and drew a design on his
forehead with her thumb. "You be great warrior, keesa. I see.
You remember then I help you, yes?" 'I will,"
he promised. "And I'll take care of Brother." Lhel patted
his cheek, not quite smiling, and her lips didn't seem to move when
she said, "You will do all that must be done." She turned
and strode away, disappearing so quickly Tobin wasn't even certain
which direction she'd gone. Brother was still with him, though,
watching him with that same frightening stare. Without Lhel there,
all the old fears flooded back. 'You go
away!" Tobin ordered hastily. "Blood my
blood, flesh my flesh, bone my boner To his relief, the spirit
obeyed, winking out of sight like a snuffed candle. All the same,
Tobin was sure he could feel it dogging his steps as he hurried home. Using the
watchtower as a guide, he found the river-bank again and hurried
along it to the back wall of the keep. The usual evening sounds came
from the kitchen and yard as he slipped in through the gate but there
was no one in the hall. He dashed through and made it all the way to
his room without meeting anyone. The whole
house smelled nicely of baking. Hiding the doll in the chest again,
he shoved his ruined shoes under the wardrobe, washed his hands and
face, and went downstairs for supper. Home safe
at last, he quickly forgot how frightened he'd been. He'd been gone
for hours, had an adventure, and no one had even noticed. Even if he
had been frightened, even if Brother wasn't going to be his friend,
or even much less scary, he somehow felt older, and closer to being
the warrior who would wear his father's armor someday. Nari and
Mynir were laying out spoons on the kitchen table while Cook tended
something savory in a pot over the fire. 'There you
are!" Nari exclaimed as he came in. "I was just coming up
to fetch you. You've been so quiet this afternoon I hardly knew you
were here!" Tobin took
a warm bun from the pile cooling on the sideboard and bit into it,
smiling to himself. Lhel would
like these. sat beside
his toy city the next day, holding the JL doll on his lap. Nari had
gone to town with Mynir, and Cook could be counted on not to come
upstairs looking for him. The pungent
aroma of fresh herbs rose in Tobin's nostrils as he stared down into
its blank face, wondering again what his mama had seen when she
looked at it. Had she seen Brother? He hooked a finger under the hair
cord around the doll's neck and tugged idly at it, thinking, My
hair. My blood. And his
responsibility, Lhel said, but one he wanted no part of. It had been
bad enough, calling Brother when she was with him. To do it now?
Here? His heart beat faster just thinking about it. Instead, he
fetched ink and a quill from the chest and carried the doll to the
window where the light was better. Dipping the quill, he tried to
draw a round eye on the blank cloth face. The ink bled through the
muslin and he ended up with a spidery black blotch instead. Sighing,
he flicked a few drops of ink from the quill tip and tried again with
a drier point. This worked better and he drew around the blotch,
smoothing the edges in to make a large dark iris, and framing it with
two curved horizontal lines for lids. He drew the other eye to match,
and found himself looking into large black eyes not unlike Brother's.
He made an attempt at the nose and dark brows. When he reached the
mouth, however, he drew it smiling. That didn't look right at all;
the eyes still looked angry, but there was no changing it now. It
wasn't a very good face, but it was
still an improvement over the blank one he'd known all his life. It made the
doll seem more like his now, too, but it didn't make it any less
daunting to summon Brother. To-bin carried it to the corner furthest
from the door and sat down with his back pressed to the wall. What if
Brother attacked him? What if it broke the city again, or flew off to
hurt someone? In the end
it was what Lhel had said about Brother being hungry that forced
Tobin to utter the summons. Pressing back into the corner as far as
he could, he squinted his eyes half shut and whispered, "Blood
my blood. Flesh my flesh. Bone my bone." At the oak
yesterday the spirit had crouched like a wild beast at his very feet.
This time, however, Tobin had to look around to find it. Brother
stood by the door as if he'd just walked in like a living person. He
was still thin and dirty, but he had on a plain, clean tunic like the
one Tobin wore. He didn't look so angry today, either. He just stood
there, staring at Tobin with no expression at all, as if he was
waiting for something. Tobin stood
up slowly, never taking his eyes off the ghost. "Would—would
you like to come over here?" Brother
didn't walk across the room. He was just suddenly there beside him,
staring at him with those unblinking black eyes. Lhel had said to
feed him by letting him look at things. Tobin held out the doll.
"See? I drew a face." Brother
showed no sign of interest or understanding. Tobin warily studied the
strange face. Brother had all his features except for the
crescent-shaped scar on his chin, yet he didn't really look like
Tobin at all. 'Are you
hungry?" he asked. Brother
said nothing. 'Come on,
then. I'll show you things. Then you can go." Tobin felt
a little silly as he walked around the room showing his favorite
possessions to a silent ghost. He held up his little sculptures and
carvings, and the treasures his father had sent. Would Brother be
jealous? Tobin wondered. He picked up a Plenimaran shield boss and
held it out to him. "Would you like to have this?" Brother
accepted it with a hand that looked solid, but where their fingers
appeared to touch Tobin felt only a wisp of cold air. Tobin
squatted down beside the city and Brother did the same, still holding
the boss. "I'm fixing all the things you broke that day,"
he told him, letting a little resentment creep into his voice. He
picked up a boat and showed Brother where the mast had been mended.
"Nari thinks I broke it." Brother
still said nothing. 'It's all
right, I guess. You were afraid I'd show Nari the doll, weren't you?" You
must keep it. Tobin was
so startled he dropped the ship. Brother's voice was faint and
expressionless, and his lips didn't move, but there was no question
that he'd spoken. 'You can
talk!" Brother
stared at him. You must keep it. "I
will, I promise. But you talked! What else can you say?" Brother
stared. Tobin was
stumped for a moment, wondering what you could say to a ghost.
Suddenly, he knew exactly what he wanted to ask. "Do you see
Mama in the tower?" Brother
nodded. 'Do you
visit her?" Another
nod. 'Does—does
she want to hurt me?" Sometimes. A knot of
sorrow and fear lodged in Tobin's chest. Hugging himself, he searched
the ghost's face. Did he see a hint of satisfaction there? "But
why?" Brother
either could not or would not tell him. 'Go away
then! I don't want you here!" Tobin cried. Brother
disappeared and the brass boss clattered to the floor. Tobin stared
at it a moment, then threw it across the room. everal days
passed before Tobin could summon the courage to call Brother again.
When he finally did so, however, he found he wasn't as afraid of him. He was
curious to know whether Nari could see Brother, so he ordered him to
follow him into the bedchamber where Nari was changing the linens.
The woman looked right at Brother without seeing him. No one else
saw him that night, either, when Tobin brought him to the kitchen
briefly, thinking that looking at food might help Brother not to look
so very hungry. Alone in
his bedroom that night, Tobin summoned him again to see if there was
any change. There wasn't, though. Brother looked as famished as ever. 'Didn't you
eat the food with your eyes?" Tobin asked him as Brother stood
motionless at the end of his bed. Brother
tilted his head slightly, as if he were considering the question. ,'
eat everything with my eyes. Tobin
shivered as Brother looked at him. "Do you hate me, Brother?" A long
pause. No. 'Then why
are you so mean?" Brother had
no answer for this. Tobin couldn't tell if he even understood what
he'd said. 'Do you
like it when I call you?" Again, no
comprehension. 'Will you
be nice to me if I let you come out every day? Will you do as I say?" Brother
blinked slowly at him, like an owl in the sun. That would
have to do for now. "You mustn't break things or hurt people
anymore. That's very bad. Father wouldn't let you act so if you were
alive." Father… The cold,
hissing whisper raised the hairs on Tobin's arms. Ordering Brother
away, Tobin pulled the covers around his head like a hood and stared
at the flickering night lamp until Nari came to bed. After that, he
only summoned Brother in the daytime. Iya and
Arkoniel spent the summer in the southernmost provinces, and here Iya
searched out an ancient wizard named Ranai, who lived in a little
fishing village north of Erind. As a girl Ranai had fought beside
lya's master in the Great War and been badly wounded there. Iya had
prepared Arkoniel to meet her, but he still cringed inwardly at his
first sight of her face when she answered their knock on her cottage
door. She was a
frail, stooped woman. A necromancer's demon had crippled her left leg
and raked the left side of her head with claws of fire; the skin
clung to her skull in pale waxlike ridges that did not move when she
smiled or spoke. Perhaps
this was why she'd chosen to immure herself in this tiny hamlet,
thought Arkoniel. The power in the woman made the hairs on the young
wizard's arms prickle. 'Greetings,
Mistress Ranai," Iya said, bowing to the old woman. "Do you
remember me?" Ranai
squinted at her for a moment, then smiled. "Why, you're
Agazhar's girl, aren't you? But not a girl any longer. Come in, my
dear. And I see you have a student of your own now. Come in and
welcome, young man, and share my hearth." Rain
pattered cozily down on the thatched roof as the old woman limped
from table to hearth and back, serving them bread and soup. Iya
contributed cheese and a skin of good wine they'd bought in the
village. The night breeze carried the smell of wild roses and the sea
through the cottage's single window. They spoke
of small matters as they ate, but after the dishes had been cleared
away Ranai fixed Iya with her good eye and said, "You've come
here for a reason, I think." Arkoniel
settled back with his wine, knowing by heart the conversation that
would follow. 'Do you
ever wonder, Ranai, what we wizards might accomplish if we put our
heads together?" Iya asked. This
is the two hundred and thirteenth time, Arkoniel thought. He'd
kept count. 'Your
master and I saw what wizards are capable of, for good and for evil,"
Ranai replied. "Is that why you came all the way down here, Iya?
To ask me that?" Iya smiled.
"I wouldn't say this straight out to many, but I will to you.
Where do you stand regarding the king?" The sound
portion of Ranai's face took on a familiar look of wonder and hope.
She waved a hand and the window shut itself tight. "You've been
dreaming of her!" 'Who?"
Iya asked quietly, but Arkoniel sensed her excitement. They'd found
another. 'The Sad
Queen, I call her," Ranai whispered. "The dreams started
about twenty years ago, but Illior sends them more often now,
especially on the nights between the moon's two crescents. Sometimes
she's young, sometimes old. Sometimes a victor, others a corpse. I
never see her face clearly, but there's always a sense of deep sorrow
about her. Is she real?" Iya did not
answer her question directly. She never did, any more than she would
ever show the bowl she carried in the worn leather sack. "I was
granted a vision at Afra. Arkoniel will bear witness to that. In it I
saw the destruction of Ero, and then a new city and a new age of
wizards. But a queen must rule that new city. You know Erius will
never let that happen. He follows Sakor of the Four, but it is Illior
who protected Skala in the Great War and since. It's Illior's hand
over wizards, as well. Have we served the Lightbearer well, standing
idly by all these years while the great prophecy given to Thelatimos
is trampled and ignored?" Ranai drew
designs in a dribble of wine on the table-top. "I've wondered
that myself. But compared to his mother, Erius hasn't been a bad
ruler, and he won't live forever. I might even outlive him. And that
business with the female heirs? It's not without precedent.
Gherilain's own son Pelis seized the throne from his sister—" 'And the
land was struck with a plague that killed him and thousands of others
within the year," Arkoniel reminded her. Ranai
raised an eyebrow and he saw a flash of the great woman she had been.
"Don't lecture me on history, young man. I was there. The gods
struck down Pelis swiftly. But King Erius has ruled for over two
decades now. Perhaps he's right about the Oracle being
misinterpreted. You know as well as I that his mother, descendent of
Thelatimos though she was, was no fit ruler." 'Perhaps
she was sent to test us," Arkoniel replied, trying to maintain a
respectful tone with the elder wizard. He'd had ten years and
thousands of miles to ponder the point. "King Pelis suffered one
terrible plague. Since Erius took the throne, there have been dozens,
if on a smaller scale. Perhaps these have been warnings. Perhaps the
Lightbringer's patience is running out. What lya saw at Afra—" 'Have you
heard of the Harriers, young man?" Ranai snapped. "Do you
know that the king's wizard serves by hunting down his own kind?" 'Yes,
Ranai," said lya, intervening. "We've seen their work." 'Have you
seen them kill anyone you knew? No? Well, I have. I had to stand by
helplessly while a dear friend of mine, a wizard who served four
queens, was burned pn a yew frame for merely speaking aloud of a
dream very similar to my mine; and yours, too, I've no doubt. Burned
alive for speaking of a dream't't Imagine,
if you can, what the power of the Harriers must be, to be able to
kill so cruelly. And it's not just us they persecute, either, but
anyone who dares speak against the male succession. Illio-rans in
particular. By the Four, if he'd kill his own sister—" The cup
fell from Arkoniel's hand, splattering wine across the table. "Ariani
is dead?" Nari's
letters had continued to arrive at the appointed places at regular
intervals. How could she not have sent word? 'Last year,
I think," Ranai was saying. "Did you know her?" 'We did,"
lya replied, sounding calmer than Arkoniel would have believed
possible. 'Then I'm
sorry that you had to hear of it this way," Ranai said. 'The king
killed her?" Arkoniel rasped out, hardly able to get his breath. Ranai
shrugged. "I'm not certain of that, but by all reports he was
there when she died. So you see, that's the last of them, and Prince
Korin will inherit the throne. Perhaps he will sire our Sad Queen." 'Perhaps,"
lya murmured, and Arkoniel knew she would speak no more of her vision
to this woman. An uneasy
silence fell over the room. Arkoniel fought back tears and avoided
lya's watchful eye. 'I served
Illior and Skala well," Ranai said at last, sounding defeated
and old. She touched a hand to her ruined face. "All I ever
asked was a bit of peace." lya nodded. "Forgive us for
disturbing you. If the Harriers come here, what will you tell them?" The elder
wizard had the good grace to look ashamed. "I have nothing to
say to them. You have my word on it." 'Thank
you." lya reached to cover Ranai's damaged hand with her own.
"Life is long, my friend, and shaped of smoke and water, not
stone. Pray we meet again in better days." . terrible
suspicion took root in Arkoniel's heart as they left the wizard's
cottage and set off along the muddy track leading away from the
village. He couldn't speak of it yet; he didn't know if he could bear
the answer. They made
camp beneath a huge fir beside the sea. lya sang a spell to keep out
the damp, and Arkoniel coaxed his newly perfected spell, a sphere of
black fire, into being and fixed it in the air at their feet. 'Ah, that's
nice." lya pulled off her sodden boots and warmed her feet.
"Well done." They sat
for a while listening to the rain and the rhythmic wash of the waves
on the ledges. He tried to speak of Ariani, needing to hear from
lya's lips that his dark suspicion was wrong, but he couldn't seem to
shape the words. Sorrow stuck in his throat like a stone. 'I knew,"
lya said at last, reducing his heart to ashes. 'For how
long?" 'Since it
happened. Nari sent word." 'And you
didn't tell me?" Unable to look at lya, he stared up through the
branches overhead. All these years he'd been haunted by memories of
that terrible night, of the strange child they'd created and the
lovely woman they'd betrayed. They had not been back to Ero since—
lya still forbade it—yet he'd always imagined that one day they
would go back to make things right again somehow. Arkoniel
felt her hand on his shoulder. "How could you not tell me?" 'Because
there was nothing to be done. Not until the child is of age. Erius
didn't kill his sister, at least not directly. Ariani threw herself
from a tower window. Apparently she tried to kill the child as well.
There is nothing we can do there." 'That's
what you always say!" He wiped angrily at the tears welling in
his eyes. "I don't question that what we're doing is Illior's
will. I never have. But are you so certain this is how
we're meant to do it? It's been nearly ten years, lya, and not once
have we been back to see if she's well or fit, or to help with the
mess Lhel left. The child's own mother kills herself and still you
say we have more-important work?" Too upset
to sit still, he scrambled from the shelter and strode down to the
water's edge. The tide was high, the water smooth beneath the
shifting pattern of rain. In the distance, the glow of a ship's
lantern cast a thread of light across that glassy surface. Arkoniel
imagined himself swimming out to the ship and begging a berth among
the sailors. He'd heave cargo and pull sheets until his hands bled
and never think of magic or spirits or women falling from towers
again. O
Illior! he prayed silently, turning his face up to the moon's
pull beyond the clouds as he strode along the water's edge. How
can this be your will if my heart is breaking? How can I love and
follow a teacher who can look unblinking upon such acts and keep such
silence between us? In his
heart, he knew that he still loved and trusted lya, yet some crucial
balance was lacking between means and end that only he seemed to
sense. And how could that be? He was only her student, a wizard of no
account. He stopped
and sank down on his heels, cradling his face in his hands. Something
is wrong. Something is missing, if not for lya, then for me. Since Afra. It
sometimes seemed that his life had begun anew that fateful summer
day. Resting his forehead on his knees, he summoned the brightness of
the sun, the taste of dust, the hot smoothness of the sun-warmed
stele beneath his hand. He thought of the cool darkness of the
Oracle's cavern, where he'd knelt to receive the strange answer that
had been no answer at all; a vision of himself holding a dark-haired
boy in his arms… A
strange stillness stole over him as he
remembered. The
child. Which child? Now it was
the chill of the murdered child's angry spirit that gripped him,
stiffening his hands and making his bones ache. For an instant it
seemed he was standing under that chestnut tree again, watching the
tiny body sink down into the earth. The witch's
magic had not been enough to hold the angry spirit down. The vision
grew brighter in his mind's eye, taking on new shape and form. A
child rose from the earth at his feet, fighting the grip of the roots
and hard earth. Arkoniel grasped his hands and pulled, looking down
into dark blue eyes, not black. But the roots still held the child,
pulling at his arms and legs. One had pierced his back and came out
of the wound in his chest where Lhel had sewn a strip of skin with
stitches finer than eyelashes. The tree was drinking the child's
blood. Arkoniel could see him withering before his eyes… The
unnatural chill still gripped him, making Arkoniel shake and stagger
like an old man as he slowly made his way back to the fir. CU, 'izards see
well enough in the dark, but what lya sensed as Arkoniel came
lurching back made her strike a light. His face
was ashen beneath his thin beard, his eyes red-rimmed and staring. 'At Afra!"
he gasped, falling to his knees beside her. "My vision. The one
I didn't— Tobin's my path. That's why— Oh, lya, I must
go! We have to go!" 'Arkoniel,
you're babbling! What is it?" lya cradled his face in both hands
and pressed her brow to his. He was shaking like a man with spring
plague, but there was no hint of fever. His skin was icy. She reached
out cautiously to his mind and was immediately presented with a
vision: Arkoniel stood on a high cliff looking west over a dark blue
sea. Just ahead of him, much too close to the edge, stood Ariani's
twins, grown tall and slender now. Strands of golden light connected
the young wizard to the children. 'You see?"
Pulling back, Arkoniel clasped her hands and told her of the darker
vision he'd had at the shore. "I must go to the child. I must
see Tobin." 'Very well.
Forgive me for not telling you. My vision—" She held out
her empty hands, palm up. "It's so clear and yet so dark before
me. So long as the child lives, I have other things I must do. I
forgot, I suppose, how much time has passed since Ariani died, how
much faster it passes for you than for me. But you must believe me
when I tell you that I have not forgotten the child. It was for
Tobin's sake that we've kept our distance all these years, and now it
seems to me even more crucial to be careful not to draw Erius'
attention to that house, now that he distrusts all wizards but his
own." She paused
as a new thought struck her. Twice she'd had a glimpse of the
Lightbearer's hand on Arkoniel and, while he appeared in her visions,
she did not appear in his. The realization brought sadness and a
twinge of fear. "Well, it seems you must go," she told him.
He kissed both her hands. "Thank you, lya. I won't be away long,
I promise. I only want to make certain the child is safe and try to
discover what it is that Illior is trying to say to me. If I can find
a ship tomorrow, I'll be back in a week. Where should I meet with
you?" 'There's no
need for such haste. I'll go on to Ylani as we planned. Send word to
me there when you've seen the child…" There it was, that
sadness again. "Then we shall see." -'t't6 Arkoniel
looked back over his shoulder as he set off the next day. lya stood
by the fir, looking very small and ordinary. She waved and he waved
back, then turned his face for the village, trying to ignore the
sudden lump in his throat. It felt strange, walking alone after all
these years. The
wizardly accouterments he carried were stowed safely out of sight in
the bedroll slung over his shoulder. Hopefully anyone looking at him
would see nothing more than a traveler in muddy boots and a dusty,
broken-brimmed hat. All the same, he planned to heed lya's warning to
avoid priests and other wizards, and to keep the usual cautious eye
out for men wearing the hawk badge of the Harriers. He found a
fisherman willing to take him up the coast as far as Ylani, where he
boarded a larger vessel bound north for Volchi. Leaving the ship
there two days later, he bought a sturdy sorrel gelding and set off
for Alestun and whatever tasks the Lightbearer had set for him there. He knew
from Rhius and Nari's letters that the duke had moved his family from
Ero to the keep the spring following Tobin's birth; by then tales of
the "demon" had already spread around the city. The spirit,
it was said, threw things at visitors, hit them, and spirited away
jewels and hats. And beautiful Ariani with her stained dress and
strange doll, wandering the corridors in search of her child—that
was still remembered, too. The king
had apparently been content to let Rhius go. The same
had not been so for the "demon," which had somehow followed
them to the keep. A chill ran
up Arkoniel's spine as he tried to imagine it. Unquiet spirits were
fearsome, shameful things, and any dealings with them were normally
left to the priests and drysians. He and lya had learned what they
could from such folk, knowing that sooner or later they would have to
face the ghost they'd helped create. He'd never expected to have to
face it alone. rkoniel
reached Alestun on the third day of Shemin. It was a pleasant,
prosperous little market town nestled in the foothills of the Skalan
Range. A few miles further west, a line of jagged peaks loomed
against the cloudless afternoon sky. It was cooler here than it had
been on the coast, and the fields showed no sign of drought. He stopped
in the square to ask directions of a woman selling fresh cheeses from
a cart. 'Duke
Rhius? You'll find him up at the old keep on the pass," she told
him. "He's been back the better part of a month now, though I
hear he's not to stay long. He'll be at the shrine tomorrow to hear
petitions, if that's what you need." 'No, I'm
looking for his home." 'Just keep
on the main road through the woods. If you're peddling, though, I'll
save you the trip. They'll set the watch on you, less they know you.
They do no business with strangers up there." 'I'm not a
stranger," Arkoniel told her. He bought some of her cheese and
walked away smiling, pleased to have been taken for a vagrant. Riding on,
he passed golden barley fields and meadows filled with shorn sheep
and fat pigs, and on into the dark forest beyond. The road she'd sent
him on showed less travel than the one leading into town. Sere grass
stood thick between the wheel ruts, and he picked out more tracks of
deer and pigs in the mud than of horses. The shadows were lengthening
quickly now and he pushed his sweating mount into a gallop, wishing
he'd thought to ask how far it was to the keep. He came out
into the open again at last beside a river at the bottom of a steep
meadow. At the top of the rise stood a tall grey keep backed by a
single square watchtower. Threw herself from a
tower window— Arkoniel shuddered. As he turned his horse
to continue up the road, he saw a little peasant boy hunkered down in
the weeds by the road, not twenty feet from where he sat. The boy's
ragged tunic left his skinny arms and legs bare. His skin was
streaked with mud and his dark hair was matted with burrs and leaves. Arkoniel
was about to call out to him when he remembered that there was only
one child in this house—a child with black hair. Shocked at the
prince's condition, he urged his horse forward at a walk to greet
him. Tobin had
his back to the road, staring intently at something in the long grass
above the riverbank. He didn't look up as Arkoniel approached. The
wizard started to dismount, then remained in the saddle. Something in
Tobin's stillness warned him to keep his distance. "Do you know
who I am?" he asked at last. "You're Arkoniel," the
boy replied, still looking down at whatever had engaged his
attention. 'Your
father won't like you being so far from the house all by yourself.
Where's your nurse?" The child
ignored the question. "Will it bite, do you think?" 'Will what
bite?" Tobin
thrust a hand into the grass and plucked out a shrew, holding it up
by one hind leg. He watched it struggle for a moment, then snapped
its neck, neat as a poacher. A drop of blood welled at the tip of the
creature's tiny snout. 'My mama is
dead." He turned to Arkoniel at last, and the wizard found
himself staring down into eyes as black and deep as night. Arkoniel's
voice died in his throat as he realized what he'd been conversing
with. 'I know the
taste of your tears," the demon said. Before he
could make any warding sign against it, it leaped up and flung the
dead shrew in his horse's face. The gelding reared, throwing Arkoniel
into the tall grass. He came down awkwardly on his left hand and felt
a sickening snap just above his wrist. Pain and the fall knocked the
wind out of him, and he lay in a tight ball, fighting back nausea and
fear. The
demon. He'd never heard of one appearing so clearly or speaking.
Arkoniel managed to lift his head, expecting to find it squatting
beside him, watching him with its dead black eyes. Instead, he saw
his gelding tossing its head and kicking in the meadow across the
river. He sat up
slowly, cradling his injured arm. His left hand hung at a bad angle
and felt cold to the touch. Another wave of nausea burned his throat
and he eased himself back down in the grass. The sun beat down on his
upturned cheek, and insects investigated his ears. He watched the
green rye and timothy dancing against the sky and tried to imagine
himself walking the rest of the way up the steep road to the keep. Failing
that, he returned to the demon. Only now did its words really
register. My
mama is dead. I
know the taste of your tears. This was
not the racketing poltergeist he'd expected. It had matured like a
living child and come to some sort of awareness. He'd never heard of
such a thing. 'Lhel, you
damned necromancer, what did you do?" he groaned. What
did we do? He must
have drifted off for a time, because when he opened his eyes again he
found a man's head and shoulders bJocking the sun. 'I'm not a
peddler," he mumbled. "Arkoniel?" Strong hands reached
under his shoulders and helped him to his feet. "What are you
doing here all by yourself?" He knew
that voice, and the weathered, bearded face that went with it,
although it had been more than a decade since he'd last laid eyes on
the man. "Tharin? By the Four, I'm glad to see you." Arkoniel
swayed and the captain got an arm around his waist, holding him
upright. Blinking,
he tried to focus on the too-close face. Tharin's fair hair and beard
had faded •with age, and the lines around his eyes and mouth
were deeper, but the man's quiet, easy manner was just the same and
Arkoniel was grateful for it. "Is Rhius here? I must—" 'Yes, he's
here, though you're lucky to catch us. We're leaving for Ero
tomorrow. Why didn't you send word?" Arkoniel's legs buckled and
he staggered. Tharin hoisted him upright again. "Never mind,
then. Let's get you up to the house." Helping him
over to a tall grey, Tharin got him up into the saddle. "What
happened? I saw you sitting down here looking at the river, then your
horse just threw you off. Looked like it went crazy. Sefus is having
a hell of a time over there trying to catch him for you." Out in the
meadow, Arkoniel could see a man trying to calm his runaway gelding,
but it shied and kicked every time he reached for the bridle. He
shook his head, not yet ready to speak of what he'd seen. Clearly
Tharin hadn't seen the demon. "Skittish beast."
'Apparently. So, how shall we get you up to the house? Slow and
painful or fast and painful?" Arkoniel managed a wretched grin.
"Fast." Tharin mounted behind him and reached around
Arkoniel for the reins, then kicked the horse into a canter. Every
pounding hoofbeat sent a hot stab up Arkoniel's arm. He fixed his
eyes on their destination and held on as best he could with his good
hand. At the top
of the hill they rode across a wide wooden bridge and on through a
gate into a paved yard. Mynir and Nari were there, with a large-boned
woman in the stained apron of a cook. Nari had
aged, too. She was still plump and ruddy, but there were streaks of
grey in her thick brown hair. They helped
him down and Tharin supported him through a dim, echoing hall to the
kitchen. 'Whatever
are you doing here?" Nari asked as Tharin eased him down onto a
bench beside a scrubbed oak table. 'The
child," he croaked, resting his spinning head on his good hand.
"Come to see the child. Is he well?" Tharin gently took his
swelling wrist in both hands. Arkoniel gasped as the man felt for
damage. Nari raised
an eyebrow at him. "Of course he's well. What makes you think he
isn't?" 'I just—"
He caught his breath again as Tharin probed deeper. 'That's
lucky," he told Arkoniel. "It's just the outer bone, and a
clean break. Once it's set and bound it shouldn't trouble you too
badly." Mynir
fetched a slat and some strips of cloth. 'Best have
this first," the cook said, giving him a clay cup. Arkoniel
downed the contents gratefully and felt a numbing heat spread quickly
through his belly and limbs. "What is this?" 'Vinegar,
brandywine, with a little poppy and henbane," she told him,
patting his shoulder. It still
hurt like hell when Tharin set the bone, but Arkoniel was able to
bear it without complaint. Tharin
bound the slat in place with the cloth and a leather thong. When he
was done he sat back and grinned at Arkoniel. 'You're
tougher than you look, boy." Arkoniel groaned and took another
gulp from the cup. He was beginning to feel quite sleepy. "Did
lya send you?" Nan asked. "No. I thought I should come pay
my—" "So one of you could finally spare us a visit,
could you?" a harsh voice snapped. Jarred back
to alertness, Arkoniel found Rhius scowling at him from the kitchen
doorway. Tharin rose
and stepped toward the duke as if he expected violence. "Rhius,
he's hurt." The duke
ignored him as he crossed the kitchen to glare down at Arkoniel. "So
you've finally come back to us, have you? Where's your mistress?" 'She's
still in the south, my lord. I came to pay our respects. We were both
so sorry to hear of your lady's death." 'So sorry
that it took a year for you to come?" Rhius sat down across from
him and glanced at the wizard's bound wrist. "But I see you
won't be leaving us anytime soon. I leave for Ero tomorrow, but you
may stay until you're fit to ride." It was a
far cry from the welcome they used to enjoy under Rhius' roof, but
Arkoniel suspected that he was lucky the duke didn't toss him into
the river. "How is the king?" he asked. Curdled
anger curled Rhius' lip. "Very well, thank you. The Plenimaran
raids have ceased for the harvest season. The crops are ripening. The
sun continues to shine. It seems the Four smile on his reign."
Rhius spoke quietly, his voice devoid of inflection, but Arkoniel
read betrayal in those hard, tired eyes. lya would have talked of
patience and visions, but Arkoniel didn't know where to begin. Just then
an eerily familiar face peered in around the corridor doorway. "Who's
that, Father?" All the
harshness left Rhius' face as he held out his hand to the boy, who
came and pressed close to his father's side, looking at Arkoniel with
shy blue eyes. Tobin. There was
nothing of the hidden girl child in this plain, skinny lad. Lhel had
done her work too well. But Tobin's eyes were the same striking blue
as his mother's and, unlike his demon twin, Tobin looked well cared
for except for the fading pink scar that marred his pointed chin.
Arkoniel stole a quick glance at the triangle of smooth pale skin
that showed at the unlaced neck of the child's tunic, wondering what
Lhel's stitching looked like after all these years. The child's
long black hair was shiny and, though no one would have taken him for
the son of a princess in such garb, his simple tunic was clean and
well made. Looking around at the others in the room, Arkoniel
recognized a love for this solemn child that made his heart ache with
a strange burst of compassion for the demon, an abandoned child shut
out from the warmth of hearth and family while its double grew up in
comfort and warmth. It was aware. It must know. Tobin
didn't smile or come forward to greet him; he just stared at
Arkoniel. Something in his stillness made him seem as strange as his
ghostly twin. 'This is
Arkoniel," Rhius explained. "He's a—friend I haven't
seen in a very long time. Come now, introduce yourself properly." The boy
made Arkoniel a stiff formal bow, left hand on his belt where a sword
would someday hang. There was the wine-colored faver mark on the
outside of his forearm, like the print of a rosebud cut in half.
Arkoniel had forgotten about that, the only outward sign left of the
girl's true form. f 'I am
Prince Tobin Erius Akandor, son of Ariani and Rhius." The way he
moved reinforced Arkoniel's initial impression. There was nothing of
a normal child in his manner. He had his father's dignity, but not
the stature or years to carry it off properly. Arkoniel
returned the bow as best he could seated. The cook's draught seemed
to work more strongly the longer it was in him, making him dizzy. "I
am most honored to make your acquaintance, my prince. I am Arkoniel,
son of Sir Coran and Lady Mekia of Rhemair, fostered to the wizard
lya. Please accept my humble service to you and all your house." Tobin's
eyes widened. "You're a wizard?" "Yes, my prince."
Arkoniel held up his bandaged wrist. "Perhaps when this feels a
bit better, I can show you some of the tricks I've learned." Most
children greeted such an offer with exclamations of delight, or at
least a smile, but Tobin seemed to retreat without moving a muscle. I
was right, Arkoniel thought, looking into those dark eyes.
Something is very wrong here. He
attempted to rise and found that his legs and head would not
cooperate in the effort. 'That
draught of Cook's isn't done with you," Nari said, pressing him
back onto the bench. "My lord, he must lie down somewhere, but
none of the guest chambers are fit to sleep in." 'A pallet
here by the fire is all I need," Arkoniel mumbled, nauseated
again. Despite the brandy burning his belly and the warmth of the
day, he felt chilled all over. 'We could
set up a bed in Tobin's second room," Mynir suggested, ignoring
Arkoniel's much simpler solution. "It wouldn't be such a climb
for him." 'Very
well," Rhius replied. "Have some of the men fetch whatever
you think necessary." Arkoniel
sagged against the table, wishing they'd just let him curl up here by
the hearth so he could get warm. The women
went to fetch linens. Tobin went out with Tharin and the steward,
leaving the wizard alone with Rhius. For a
moment neither man said anything. 'The demon
frightened my horse," Arkoniel told him. "I saw it clearly
in the road at the bottom of the meadow." Rhius
shrugged. "It's here with us now. I see the gooseflesh on your
arms. You feel it, too." Arkoniel
shivered. "Yes, I feel it, but I saw it
in the meadow, as clearly as I see you now. Tobin looks just like
it." Rhius shook
his head. "No one has ever seen it, except perhaps for—" 'Tobin?" 'By the
Four, no!" Rhius made a sign against bad luck. "He's been
spared that much, at least. But I think Ariani did. She made a doll
to replace the dead child, and sometimes spoke to it as if it were
real. But I often had the feeling that it wasn't the doll she was
seeing. Illior knows, she paid little enough attention to her living
child, except at the end." Arkoniel's
throat tightened again. "My lord, words cannot express how
sorry—" Rhius
slammed a hand down on the table, then leaned forward and snarled,
"Don't you dare weep for her! You have
no right, no more than I!" Lurching to his feet, he strode from
the room, leaving the startled wizard alone in the demon-haunted
kitchen. The chill
pressed in around him and Arkoniel was certain he felt a child's cold
hands on the back of his neck. Thinking of the dead shrew, he
whispered, "By the Four—Maker, Traveler, Flame, and
Lightbearer—I command you! Lie down, Spirit, until Bilairy
guides you to the Gate." The cold
intensified around him and the bright room darkened as if a
thunderhead had covered the sun. A large clay pot flew from a shelf
and shattered against the opposite wall, narrowly
missing his shoulder. A basket of onions followed, then a wooden bowl
of dough and a platter. Arkoniel slid hastily under the table, broken
bones forgotten for the moment. Scant yards
away, an iron poker scraped across the stone hearth in his direction.
He tried to dive away toward the door, but came down on his bad wrist
and collapsed with a strangled scream, eyes screwed shut in agony. 'No!"
A boy's high clear voice. The poker
clattered to the floor. Arkoniel
heard whispering and footsteps. Opening his eyes, he found Tobin
kneeling beside him. The room was warm again. 'It doesn't
like you," Tobin said. 'No—I
don't think it does," Arkoniel panted, content for the moment to
stay where he was. "Is it gone?" Tobin
nodded. 'Did you
send it away?" Tobin gave
him a startled look, but said nothing. He was a few months shy of his
tenth birthday, but looking into that face now, Arkoniel could not
have put an age to it. Tobin looked at once too old and too young. . "It
listens to you, doesn't it?" he asked. "I heard you
speaking to it." 'Don't tell
Father, please!" 'Why?" Now Tobin
looked like any frightened little boy. "I—it would make
him sad. Please, don't tell him what you saw!" Arkoniel
hesitated, recalling the duke's violent outburst. Crawling out from
beneath the table, he sat on the floor next to Tobin and rested his
hand in his lap. "I take it all this—" He looked
around at the broken crockery. "It isn't going to surprise
anyone?" Tobin shook
his head. 'Very well,
then, my prince, I'll keep your secret. But I'd very much like to
know why the demon obeys you." Tobin said
nothing. 'Did you
tell it to throw the dishes at me?" 'No! I'd
never do that, on my honor." Arkoniel
studied that strained, earnest little face and knew Tobin spoke the
truth, and yet there was some great secret behind those eyes. Another
house of closed doors, he thought, but here at least he sensed
the chance of finding the keys. Voices came
from the direction of the hall. "Go on, then," he
whispered. Tobin
slipped out the courtyard door without a sound. Thank
you, lllior, for sending me here, Arkoniel thought, watching him
go. Whatever darkness surrounds this child, I'll
make it right, and stand by her until I see her crowned in her
rightful form. Arkoniel
staggered a bit as Nari and Tharin helped him upstairs. The sun had
fallen behind the peaks, casting the whole house into dusky gloom.
Tharin carried a clay hand lamp and by its light Arkoniel made out
the faded, flaking colors of the painted pillars in the great hall,
the tattered banners from long-forgotten battles hanging in shreds
from the carved beams overhead, and the tarnished brass lamps
festooned with cobwebs. Despite the fresh strewing herbs among the
rushes on the floor, there was an underlying odor of damp and mice. The
upstairs corridor was darker still. They brought Arkoniel into a
dusty, cluttered chamber on the right. A lamp on a stand shed enough
light to see what appeared to be a miniature city taking up one side
of the room. A few other toys lay scattered in the corners, but they
had an abandoned look. A few old
chests and a wardrobe with a cracked door stood against the bare
stone walls. An ornate oak bedstead had been set at an awkward angle
near the window. It was a handsome piece, carved with vines and
birds, but bits of cobwebs still clung to it here and there. Tharin
helped Arkoniel to the bed and pulled off his boots and tunic. The
wizard couldn't suppress another groan as he slid the sleeve over his
broken wrist. 'Go fetch
him more of Cook's brew," Nari said. "I'll get him
settled." 'I'll have
her make it strong enough to help you sleep," Tharin told him. The scents
of cedar and lavender rose from the eider down as Nari drew it over
him and propped his arm on a cushion. The blue silk cover still
showed fresh creases from being packed away. "You don't get many
guests here, I gather," Arkoniel said, sinking gratefully into
the deep, musty-smelling bed. 'The duke
entertains his guests elsewhere, mostly." She smoothed the
coverlet over his chest. "You know it's best this way. Tobin's
safe." 'But not
happy." 'That's not
for me to say. He's a good boy, our Tobin. I couldn't ask for better.
And his father dotes on him, or did… The way he was today?"
She shook her head. "It's been hard on him since the princess…
Her dying like that—by the Light, Arkoniel, I fear it's broken
him." 'How did it
happen? I've heard only rumors." Nari pulled
a chair over and sat down. "The king came here to hunt. She saw
him on the road from a window and dragged poor Tobin up to the tower.
Well, Tobin won't speak of it, but he had a cut on his chin, and I
found blood on the windowsill." 'The scar?" 'Yes,
that's when he got it." 'You think
she meant to kill him?" Nari said
nothing. Muzzy as he
was from the draught, Arkoniel stared at her, trying to fathom her
silence. "You don't think— Nari, he's scarcely ten years
old and undersized at that! How would he push a grown woman out a
window?" 'I'm not
saying he did! But there have been times when he seems to be
possessed with the demon. He tore this room to pieces one day. I
caught him at it! And the tower room when we finally found him? It
was just the same." 'That's
absurd." Nari folded
her hands and frowned down at them. "I'm sure you're right.
Believe me, I don't want to think ill of the child. But he does talk
to it now." 'To the
demon?" Arkoniel thought of the whispering he'd heard in the
kitchen and Tobin's plea to keep his secret. 'He thinks
I don't hear, but I do. Sometimes it's at night, sometimes when he's
in here playing alone. Poor thing. He's so lonely he'll talk to a
ghost just for someone to play with." 'He has you
and his father. And Tharin and the others seem very fond of him." 'Oh yes.
But it's not the same for a child, is it? You're young enough to
remember. What would you have done, shut away in an old house like
this with nothing but servants and soldiers? And the men not even
here most of the time? I'll bet you come from a house full of
children." Arkoniel
chuckled. "I had five brothers. We all slept in the same bed and
fought like badgers. When lya took me on, I still found children to
play with everywhere we traveled until it began to show that I
was different." 'Well, our
Tobin's as different as they come, and never has known what it is to
play with another child. It's not right. I've said so all along. How
is he supposed to know what folks are really like, shut away here?" How,
indeed? thought Arkoniel. "What does he do with his days?" Nari
snorted. "Works like a peasant child and trains to be a great
warrior. You should see him at it with the men, like a puppy going at
bears. He'll be lucky if he gets through the summer without another
broken finger. Tharin and his father do say he's quick, and he shoots
as well as some of the grown men." 'That's
all?" 'He rides
when someone can take him, and makes his little carvings—oh,
but he's good at that!" She reached over to the windowsill and
placed several little wax and wooden animals on the coverlet for him
to see. They were quite good. 'And he
plays in here." She pointed to the city, smil ing fondly. "The
duke made that for him years back. They spend hours with it. It's
meant to be Ero, you know. But he's not allowed outside alone to
ramble or fish as we did. As any child should! Noble boys his age are
serving as pages at court by now. He can't do that, of course. But
Rhius won't even allow any of the village children to visit. He's
that terrified of being found out." 'He's right
in that. Still…" Arkoniel pondered a moment. "What
about the rest of the household. Does anyone else know?" 'No.
Sometimes even I forget. He's our little prince. I can't think what
it will be like when the change comes. Just imagine being told, 'Oh,
by the by, pet, you're not…' " She broke
off as Tharin returned with the cup for Arkoniel. The captain said
his good nights and left again, but Nari lingered a moment. Bending
close to the wizard's ear, she whispered, "It's a pity lya
wouldn't let Rhius tell him. There's not a better friend to this
family. Secrets. We're all about secrets here." V,'he
second draught had the promised effect. Arkoniel slept like a stone,
and dreamt of playing fox and geese with his brothers in his father's
orchard. At some point he noticed Tobin watching them, but couldn't
find the words to invite the child to join them. Then he was sitting
in his mother's kitchen and the demon was there with him. "I
know the taste of your tears," it told him again. woke late
the next morning with a full bladder and a nasty taste in his mouth.
His left side was bruised from the fall and his arm throbbed from
wrist to shoulder. Holding it against his chest, he found a chamber
pot under the bed and was in the midst of using it when the door
inched open. Tobin peeked in. 'Good
morning, my prince!" Arkoniel slid the pot away and eased
himself back onto the bed. "I don't suppose you'd be so good as
to tell Cook I need another of her potions?" Tobin
disappeared so suddenly that Arkoniel wondered if he'd understood. Or
if that really was Tobin I was talking to. But the boy
soon returned with a mug and a small brown loaf on a napkin. There
was no hint of the previous night's shyness now, but he was still
unsmiling and reserved. He gave Arkoniel the food, then stood there
staring at him with those too-old eyes as he ate. Arkoniel
took a bite of the dense, warm bread. Cook had split it and slipped a
thick slice of well-aged cheese inside. "Ah, that's wonderful!"
he exclaimed, washing it down with the brandy draught. It tasted
weaker this time. 'I helped
with the baking," Tobin told him. 'Did you?
Well, you're a fine baker." This won
him not so much as a hint of a smile. Arkoniel began to feel like a
mediocre player before a very critical audience. He tried another
tack. "Nari tells me you shoot very well." 'I brought
home five grouse last week." 'I used to
shoot quite well myself." Tobin
raised an eyebrow, just as lya might have when she was about to
disapprove of something he'd said or done. "Don't you anymore?" 'I went on
to other studies and never seemed to find the time." 'Wizards
don't need to shoot?" Arkoniel
smiled. "We have other ways of getting food." 'You don't
beg, do you? Father says it's shameful for any able-bodied man to
beg." 'My father
taught me the same. No, my teacher and I travel and earn our bread.
And sometimes we are guests, like I am now with you." 'How will
you earn your bread here?" Arkoniel
fought down the urge to chuckle. This child would be checking his
mattress next to see if he was stealing the spoons. "Wizards
earn their keep with magic. We make things and fix things. And we
entertain." He
stretched out his right hand and concentrated on the center of his
palm. An apple-sized ball of light took shape there and resolved
itself into a tiny dragon with transparent, batlike wings. "I
saw these in Aurenen—" Looking up,
he found Tobin backing slowly away, eyes wide with fear. This was
hardly the reaction he'd hoped for. "Don't be scared. It's only
an illusion." 'It's not
real?" Tobin asked from the safety of the doorway. 'It's just
a picture, a memory from my travels. I saw lots of these fingerlings
at a place called Sarikali. Some of them grow to be larger than this
keep, but they're very rare and live on mountains. But these little
ones scamper everywhere. They're sacred creatures to the Aurenfaie.
They have a legend about how the first 'faie were created—" 'From
eleven drops of dragon blood. My father told me that story, and I
know what the 'faie are," Tobin said, cutting him off as tersely
as his father might have. "Some came here once. They played
music. Did a dragon teach you?" 'No, a
wizard named lya is my teacher. You'll meet her someday." He let
the dragon illusion fade away. "Would you like to see something
else?" Still
poised for escape, Tobin glanced over his shoulder into the corridor,
then asked, "Like what?" 'Oh,
anything, really. What would you most like to see?" Tobin
considered this. "I'd like to see the city." 'Ero, you
mean?" 'Yes. I'd
like to see my mother's house in Ero where I was born." 'Hmmm."
Arkoniel quashed a stirring of disquiet. "Yes, I can do
that, but we'll have to use a different sort of magic. I need to hold
your hand. Will you let me do that?" The boy
hesitated, then slowly came back to him and held out his hand. Arkoniel
took it in his and gave him a reassuring smile. "This is quite
simple, but you may feel a little odd. It's going to be like having a
dream while you're awake. Close your eyes." Arkoniel
could feel tension in the boy's thin, hard little hand, but Tobin did
as he was asked. 'Good, now
imagine that we're two great birds flying over the forest. What sort
of bird would you like to be?" Tobin
pulled his hand away and took a step back. "I don't want to be a
bird!" Fear again,
or was it just distrust? "It's just pretending, Tobin. You
pretend when you play, don't you?" This was
met with a blank stare.
'Pretending. Imagining things that aren't really there." That
was another misstep. Tobin cast a nervous look at the door. Arkoniel
looked around at the toys available. With any other child, he would
have made the little ships in the city's harbor sail across the
floor, or had the dusty wooden horse on wheels take a turn about the
room, but something warned against it. Instead, he slid off the bed
and limped over to the city. Seen at closer range, there was no
mistaking the layout of streets and major buildings, even though it
had seen some rough handling. Part of the western wall was missing,
and there were holes in the clay base where some of the wooden houses
had been lost. Those that remained varied from simple cubes of plain
wood to fancy carved and painted ones recognizable as some of the
principal houses and temples on the Palatine. The New Palace was done
in detail, with rows of stick columns along the sides and tiny gilt
emblems of the Four along its roof. Little
stick people lay scattered in the markets and on the roof of the
wooden box that served as the Old Palace. He picked one up. 'Your
father must have worked very hard to make all this. When you play
with it, don't you imagine that you're one of these little fellows
walking around the town?" He took his stick person by the head
and marched it around the central market. "See, here you are in
the great marketplace." He changed to a comic falsetto. "
'What shall I buy today? Think I'll see what Granny Sheda has for
sweets at her booth. Now I'll run down to Fletcher Street and see if
they have a new hunting bow just my size.'" 'No, you're
doing it wrong." Tobin squatted down beside him and picked up
another figure. "You can't be me. You have to be you." 'I can
pretend to be you, can't I?" Tobin shook
his head emphatically. "I don't want
anyone else to be me." 'Very well,
I'll be me and you be you. Now, what if you stay you but change
form." Covering Tobin's hand with his own, Arkoniel transformed
the figure Tobin held into a small wooden eagle. "See, it's
still you, but now you look like an eagle. You can do the same thing
in your mind. Just imagine yourself with a different shape. It's not
magic at all. My brothers and I spent hours being all sorts of
things." He'd half
expected Tobin to drop the toy and flee, but instead, he was
inspecting the little bird closely. And he was smiling. 'Can I show
you something?" he asked. 'Of
course." Tobin ran
from the room, still holding the bird, and returned a moment later
with both hands cupped in front of him. Squatting down beside
Arkoniel again, he spilled a dozen little carvings and wax figures on
the floor between them, similar to the ones Nari had shown him
earlier. These were
even better, though. There was a fox, several horses, a deer, and a
pretty little wooden bird about the same size as the one he'd
conjured. 'You made
all these?" 'Yes."
Tobin held up his bird and Arkoniel's. "Yours is better than
mine, though. Can you teach me to make them your way?" Arkoniel
picked up a wooden horse and shook his head in wonder. "No. And
yours are better, really. Mine are just a trick. These are the
products of your hands and imagination. You must be an artist like
your father." 'And my
mama," Tobin said, looking pleased at the praise. "She made
carvings, too, before the dolls." 'I didn't
know that. You must miss her." The smile
disappeared. Tobin shrugged and began lining the animals and people
up in phalanxes across the painted harbor. "How many brothers do
you have?" 'Two now. I
had five, but two died of plague and the oldest was killed fighting
the Plenimarans. The others are both warriors, too." 'But not
you." 'No, Illior
had other plans for me." 'Have you
always been a wizard?" 'Yes, but I
didn't know it until my teacher found me when I was—"
Arkoniel paused as if surprised. "Well, since I was just a bit
younger than you are now." 'Were you
very sad?" 'Why would
I be sad?" 'Not to be
a warrior like your brothers. Not to serve Skala with heart and
sword." 'We all
serve in our own way. Did you know that wizards fought in the Great
War? The king has some in his army now." 'But you're
not," Tobin pointed out. This clearly lowered Arkoniel in his
eyes. 'As I said,
there are many ways to serve. And a coun try doesn't just need
warriors. It needs scholars and builders and farmers." He held
up Tobin's bird. "And artists! You can be an artist and a
warrior, too. Now, how would you like to see the great city you'll be
protecting, my young warrior? Are you ready?" Tobin
nodded and held out his hand again. "So I should pretend that
I'm a bird, but I'm still me?" Arkoniel
grinned. "You'll always be you, no matter what. Now relax and
breathe like you're asleep, very gently. Good. What kind of a bird
will you be?" 'An eagle." 'Then I'll
be one, too, or I won't be able to keep up." This time
Tobin relaxed easily and Arkoniel silently wove the spell that would
project his own memories into Tobin's mind. Careful to avoid any
sudden transitions, he began the vision with them both perched in a
tall fir that overlooked the meadow outside. "Can you see the
forest and the house?" 'Yes!"
Tobin replied in an awed whisper. "It is like dreaming." 'Good. You
know how to fly, so spread your wings and come with me." Tobin did
with surprising readiness. "I can see the town now." 'We're
going to fly east now." Arkoniel summoned an image of trees and
fields passing rapidly below them, then conjured Ero and poised them
high above the Old Palace, trying to give the boy a recognizable
view. Below them, the Palatine Circle looked like a round green eye
atop the crowded hill. 'I see it!"
Tobin whispered. "It's just like my city, only lots more houses
and streets and colors. May I see the harbor, and ships?" 'We'll have
to fly to it. The vision is limited." Arkoniel smiled to
himself. So there was a child behind that stern face, after all.
Together, they swooped down to the harbor and circled the
round-bellied carracks and longboats moored there. 'I want to
sail on ships like that!" Tobin exclaimed. "I want to see
all the Three Lands, and the 'faie, too." 'Perhaps
you can sing with them." 'No…" The vision
dimmed as something distracted the boy. "You must concentrate,"
Arkoniel reminded him. "Don't let any worries bother you. I
can't do this for very long. Where else would you like to go?" 'To my
mother's house." 'Ah, yes.
Back up to the Palatine we go." He guided Tobin to the warren of
walled houses that lay between the Old and New Palaces. 'Mama's is
that one," Tobin said. "I know it by the golden griffins
along the roofline." 'Yes."
Rhius had taught his son well. As they
circled closer, the vision faltered again, but this time the problem
did not lie with the boy. Arkoniel felt a growing uneasiness as the
shape of the house and its grounds became more distinct. He could
pick out the yards and outbuildings, and the courtyard where the tall
chestnut tree stood, marking the dead twin's grave. As they drew
closer, however it withered before his eyes. Gnarled bare branches
reached up to snare him like clawed fingers, just as the roots had
held Tobin in his vision by the sea. 'By the
Light—!" he gasped, trying to end the vision before Tobin
saw. It was ended for him as a blast of cold buffeted them both. The
vision collapsed, leaving him reeling and momentarily blind. 'No, no!"
Tobin cried, Arkoniel
felt the boy's hand yanked from his. Something struck him a stinging
blow on the cheek and the pain broke the last of the magic, clearing
his mind and his eyes. The entire
room was shaking. The wardrobe doors banged open, then slammed again
with a crash. Chests jittered against the walls, and objects flew
through the air in all directions. Tobin knelt
by the city, holding down the roof of the Palace with both hands.
"Stop it!" he cried. "Go away, Wizard. Please!
Get out!" Arkoniel
stayed where he was. "Tobin, I can't—" Nari rushed
in and ran to the boy. Tobin clung to her, pressing his face to her
shoulder. 'What are
you doing?" she cried, giving Arkoniel an accusing glare. 'I was
just—" The roof of the Palace spun up into the air and he
caught it with his good hand. "We were looking at the city. Your
demon didn't care for that." He could
see enough of Tobin's face to know that the boy's lips were moving,
forming quick, silent words against the dark fabric of Nari's loose
gown. The room
went still, but an ominous heaviness remained, like a lull in a
thunderstorm. Tobin struggled free of his nurse and fled the room. Nari looked
around at the mess and sighed. "You see what it's like for us?
No telling what it will do, or why. Illior and Bilairy shield us from
angry spirits!" Arkoniel
nodded, but he knew exactly why the thing had chosen the moment it
did this time. He thought again of bending over a small, still body
beneath that chestnut tree, weeping as it sank out of sight, his
tears sinking into the hard earth. Yes, it knew the taste of his
tears. abin wanted
nothing to do with him after that, so Arkoniel spent the rest of the
day quietly exploring the keep. The pain in his arm required several
draughts of Cook's infusion, and its dulling effects left him feeling
like he was walking about in a dream. His
original impression of the keep was borne out in daylight; it was
only partially inhabitable. The upper floor was in total disrepair.
Once-handsome chambers lay in ruin, overrun by rats and rot. Leakage
from the roof or attics above had destroyed the fine murals and
furnishings. Strangely
enough, there was evidence that someone had continued to frequent
these gloomy rooms. Several sets of footprints were visible in the
dust that covered the bare floors. One room in particular had had a
frequent, small-footed visitor, though the footprints had a new layer
of fine grit in them now. This room lay halfway along the corridor
and was sounder than its neighbors, and better lit thanks to the loss
of a shutter on one of the tall, narrow windows. Tobin had
come here on numerous occasions, and always went to the back corner
of the room. A cedarwood chest of Mycenian design stood here, and the
dust on its ornate painted lid continued the tale. Arkoniel summoned
a small orb of light and bent to examine the smudges and finger marks
there. Tobin had come here to open this chest. Inside Arkoniel found
nothing but a few tabards of ancient cut. Perhaps it
had been a game of some sort? Yet what game would a child play alone,
a child who did not know how to pretend? Arkoniel looked around the
dirty, shadowed room, imagining Tobin here all by himself. His small
footprints crossed and recrossed each other for however many days the
game had lasted. Another pang of compassion pierced the young
wizard's heart, this time for the living twin. Equally
intriguing were the sets of tracks that led to the far end of the
corridor. The door here was new, and the only one that was locked. Placing his
hand over the bronze key plate, he examined the intricacies of its
mechanism. It would have been a relatively easy matter to trick it
open, but the unwritten laws of guesting forbade such a coarse
trespass. He already suspected where it led. Threw
herself from the tower window— Arkoniel
rested his forehead against the door's cool surface. Ariani had fled
here, fled to her death taking her child with her. Or had Tobin
followed? It had been too long and too many others had come and gone
here since for him to read the tale of their tracks. Nari's
vague suspicions still nagged at him. Possession was rare, and he did
not believe Tobin would have hurt Ariani himself. But Arkoniel had
felt the demon's rage three times now; it possessed both the strength
and will to kill. But why kill his mother, who'd been as much a
victim of circumstance as he and his twin? Downstairs,
he crossed the gloomy hall and went outside. The duke was nowhere to
be seen, but his men were busy packing horses and stacking arms for
the journey back to Ero. 'How's the
arm today?" asked Tharin, coming over to him. 'I think it
will mend very well. Thank you." 'Captain
Tharin keeps us all mended," a young sandy-haired man remarked,
swaggering by with a handful of tools. "So you're the young
wizard who can't manage a gelded two-year-old?" 'Mind
yourself, Sefus, or he'll turn you into something useful," an
older man snapped from a lean-to workshop built against the courtyard
wall. "Get over here and help with the harness, you lazy pup!" 'Don't mind
Sefus," another young soldier told him, grinning. "He gets
irritable when he's away from the brothels too long." 'I don't
imagine any of you enjoy being so far from the city. This doesn't
seem a very cheerful place." 'Took you
all morning to figure that one out, did it?" Tharin replied with
a chuckle. 'Are the
men good to the boy?" 'Do you
think Rhius would tolerate anyone who wasn't? The sun rises and sets
on that child, as far as he's concerned. Far as any
of us are concerned, for that matter. It's not Tb-bin's fault."
He gestured at the house. "Not any of it." The
defensiveness with which he declared this was not lost on Arkoniel.
"Of course not," he agreed. "Does anyone say it is?" 'Tongues
always wag. You get something like a demon haunting the king's own
sister and you can imagine what the gossips do with that. Why else do
you think Rhius stuck his poor wife and son out here, so far from
proper society? A princess, living here? And a prince? No wonder…
Well, that's enough said about that. There's enough ignorant gossip
in the town. Back in Ero, even." 'Perhaps
Rhius is right. Tobin might not be happy in the city with all those
wagging tongues. He's old enough to understand now." 'Yes. And
it would break his father's heart. Mine too, for that matter. He's a
good boy, our Tobin. One of these days he'll come into his own." 'I don't
doubt it." Leaving
Tharin to his preparations, Arkoniel made a circuit of the outer
walls. Here, too,
he saw sad evidence of neglect and decline. There had been gardens
here once. A few bush roses ran wild against the remains of crumbling
stone enclosures, and he could see the brown dry seed heads of rare
peonies here and there, fighting to hold their ground amidst the
•wild native blooms of willow bay, daisy, milkweed, and broom.
Ariani had had banks of peonies in her garden at Ero, he recalled. In
the early months of summer, huge vases of them had scented the entire
house. Only a
kitchen garden between a back gate and the river's edge was still
tended here now. Arkoniel plucked a sprig of fennel and chewed it as
he let himself in the back gate. This let
onto a rear court. Entering by an open door, he found himself back in
the kitchen. Cook, who seemed to have no other name, was busy
preparing the evening meal with the help of Tobin, Nari, and Sefus. 'I don't
know, pet," Nari was saying, sounding annoyed. "Why do you
ask such things?" 'Ask what
things?" Arkoniel joined them at the table. As he sat down, he
saw what Tobin had been doing and grinned. Five white turnip sheep
were being stalked by a pair of beet root bears and a carroty
something that looked vaguely like the dragon Arkoniel had shown him
that morning. 'Cook used
to be an archer and fight the Plenimarans with Father like Tharin
does," Tobin said. "But she says the king doesn't like
women to be in his army anymore. Why is that?" 'You were a
soldier?" asked Arkoniel. Cook
straightened from stirring a kettle and wiped her hands on her apron
front. Arkoniel hadn't paid much attention to her before, but now he
saw a flash of pride as she nodded. "I was. I served the last
queen with Duke Rhius' father, and the king after her for a time. I'd
be serving still—my eye and arm are still true—but the
king don't like seeing women in the ranks." She gave a shrug.
"So, here you find me." 'But why?"
Tobin insisted, starting work on another turnip. 'Maybe
girls can't fight proper," Sefus said with a smirk. 'I was
worth three of you, and I wasn't even the best!" Cook snapped.
Snatching up a cleaver, she set to work on a joint of mutton as if it
were a Plenimaran foot soldier. Arkoniel
recognized Sefus' smug attitude. He'd seen plenty of it in recent
years. "Women can be fine warriors, and wizards, too, if they
have the heart and the training," Arkoniel told Tobin. "Heart
and training; that's what it takes to be good at anything. Remember
how I told you this morning that I don't shoot anymore? Well, I
wasn't very good to begin with, or at swordplay, either. I wouldn't
have been much use to anyone as a warrior. Why, if lya hadn't made a
wizard of me, I'd probably be a scullion instead of a scholar!"
He cast a sidelong glance at Sefus. "Not too long ago, I met an
old woman who'd been both warrior and wizard in the wars. She fought
with Queen Gherilain, who won the war because she was such a good
warrior herself. You do know about the warrior queens of Skala, don't
you?" 'I have
them in a box upstairs," Tobin replied, still engrossed in his
carving. In a singsong voice, he recited: "There's King
Thelatimos, who got told by Oracle to give his crown to his daughter,
then Gherilain the Founder, Tamir the Murder, Agnalain who isn't my
grandmama, Gherilain the Second, laair who fought the dragon, Klia
who killed the lion, Klie, Markira, Oslie with six fingers, Marnil
who wanted a daughter so much but Oracle gave her a new husband
instead, and Agnalain who is my grandmama. And then the king my
uncle." 'Ah, I
see." Arkoniel paused, trying to unravel the garbled litany.
Clearly, Tobin had little understanding of what he'd just rattled
off, beyond a few odd or interesting facts. "Agnalain the First,
you mean. And Queen Tamir, who was murdered." Tobin
shrugged. 'Well, you
have the names right, but do—" Nari
cleared her throat loudly and gave Arkoniel a warning look. "Duke
Rhius sees to Tobin's education. He'll instruct the boy about such
things when he thinks fit." He
needs a proper tutor, Arkoniel thought, then blinked at the
resonance the notion struck in his mind: teacher, friend, companion.
Guardian. "When is the duke leaving?" he asked. 'First
light tomorrow," Sefus told him. 'Well then,
I'd best pay my respects tonight. Will he and the men be dining in
the hall?" ' "Course,"
Tobin mumbled. Under his knife, a turnip was changing into another
dragon. Excusing
himself, Arkoniel hurried upstairs to compose his thoughts, hoping
that the idea that had come clear so suddenly was indeed an
inspiration sent by the Lightbearer. He needed
very much to believe that, for that's what he was going to tell
Rhius. And lya. IS Arkoniel
found himself seated on Rhius' right at the evening meal, and served
by Tharin and several of the men. The food, though well seasoned, was
shockingly simple and sparse. This only strengthened the wizard's
concerns. In Ero and Atyion, Rhius had hosted lavishly. There were
always color and music there; feasts of twenty courses, and a hundred
guests all glittering with jewels, silks, and furs. The life Tobin
knew here was little different than that of a landless backcountry
knight. Rhius
himself was severely dressed in a short dark robe accented with a bit
of fox and gold. His only jewel was a large mourning ring. Tobin
could have passed for a serving boy in his plain tunic. Arkoniel
doubted the boy owned more than two suits of clothes, and this was
probably his best. The duke
paid Arkoniel little attention during the meal, focusing instead on
Tobin, telling him stories of court and the wars. Listening quietly,
Arkoniel thought the exchange seemed hollow and forced. Tobin looked
miserable. Seated far down the table, Nari caught the wizard's eye
and silently shook her head. When the
meal was finished Rhius moved to a large chair by the open hearth and
sat staring into the small fire laid there. Neither dismissed nor
invited, Arkoniel settled uncomfortably on the hearth bench beside
him and waited, listening to the crackle of the flames as he searched
for words to broach his request. 'My lord?"
Arkoniel ventured at last. Rhius
didn't look up. "What is it you want of me now, Wizard?" 'Nothing
but a word in private, if you please." He thought
the duke might refuse, but Rhius stood and led Arkoniel outside to a
path into the meadow. They followed it down the hillside to the
riverbank. It was a
cool, pleasant evening. The sun's last rays lit the sky behind the
peaks, stretching their shadows over the keep and meadow. Swallows
flitted after their supper overhead. Frogs tuned their throats under
the riverbank. They stood
watching the roiling water in silence for a time, and then Rhius
turned to Arkoniel. "Well? I've given you a child and a wife.
What would your mistress have of me now?" 'Nothing,
my lord, except the safety and well-being of your remaining child." Rhius let
out a derisive laugh. "I see." 'I don't
think you do. If Tobin is to be—what we wish him to be, he must
understand the world he will inherit. You did right, protecting him
here, but he's older now. He needs to learn the ways of dress and
manner, and the courtly arts. He must have teachers. He also needs
friends of his own age, other children—" 'No! You've
seen the demon that haunts him, thanks to the fumbling of your filthy
witch that night. Mothers from here to Ero scare their brats with
tales of the 'haunted child at the keep.' Didn't you know? Oh, but
how could you, since neither you nor your mistress deigned to come
back to us until now? Shall I send Tobin and his demon to court,
present them to the king? Just how long would it be before one of
Erius' creatures saw through the veil with their sharp eyes and
killing spells?" 'But that
isn't possible. That's why we brought the witch—" 'I won't
take that risk! Erius may still wear a mourning ring for his sister,
but how sentimental will he be if he learns that her surviving child
is—" He caught himself and lowered his voice to a scathing
hiss. "A true heir? If you imagine that any
of us whom he saw there that night in the birthing chamber would be
spared, then you are a fool. As much as I might welcome death, think
of the child. Have we come this far to throw it away on the whim of…"
He paused, waving a hand at Arkoniel. "Of a half-trained
apprentice wizard?" Arkoniel
ignored the insult. "Then let me bring children here, my lord.
Children from another province who haven't heard the tales. Tobin is
a prince; by right he should join the Prince Royal's Companions soon,
or have a company of Companions of his own. What will the nobles at
Ero say about the king's own nephew, the child of a princess and a
high lord, growing up like a peasant? Tobin must be prepared." Rhius gazed
out at the river, saying nothing, but Arkoniel sensed he'd struck his
mark. 'Tobin is
still young, but soon his absence at court will be noted—perhaps
even by the king's wizards. And then they'll come here looking for
him. No matter what we do, you'll have to present him at court sooner
or later. The less odd he seems—" 'One, then.
One child here, as a companion. But only if you agree to my terms."
He turned bleak eyes on Arkoniel. "First: should this other
child discover our secret, you will kill him yourself." 'My lord—-" Rhius
leaned closer, speaking very low. "My own child had to die. Why
should a stranger's child live to jeopardize our plans?" Arkoniel
nodded, knowing that lya would exact the same promise. "And your
second requirement?" When Rhius
spoke again, the anger was gone. In the gathering gloom, he looked
stooped and old—a sad, hollow effigy of the man he'd once been.
"That you will re main here and be Tobin's tutor. You're of
noble birth and know something of the court. I won't chance bringing
another stranger into my house. Stay and guard my child until the
world is set right." Arkoniel
felt dizzy with relief. "I will, my lord. By my hands and heart
and eyes, I will." This was the fulfillment of the vision he'd
been given at Afra, and Rhius himself had proposed it. 'But if you
will permit me, my lord," he said, proceeding gingerly with his
own elaborations. "You're a very wealthy man, yet your child is
being raised in a tomb. Couldn't you make this place,a proper home
for him? I'll need chambers of my own, too, for sleeping and study.
The rooms on the third floor could be repaired. And we'll need a room
for Tobin's lessons—" 'Yes, very
well!" Rhius snapped, throwing up his hands. "Do what you
will. Hire workmen. Fix the roof. Have gold chamber pots cast if you
like, so long as you protect my child." He stared at the keep
for a moment. The
barracks windows glowed warmly and they could hear men singing around
the watch fire. Beyond it, the keep looked abandoned except for a
thin sliver of light showing at a second-level window. Rhius let
out a long sigh. "By the Four, it has become a tomb, hasn't it'
This was a handsome house once, with gardens and fine stables. My
ancestors hosted hunts and feasts here in the autumn and queens
guested. I—I always hoped that Ariani would be well again and
help me make it fine again." 'A future
queen calls this home. Make it beautiful for her. After all, Tobin is
an artist and for such people the eye feeds the soul." Rhius
nodded. "Do what you will, Arkoniel. But leave the tower as it
is. No one is to go there. The shutters are nailed down and the doors
have no keys." 'As you
will, my lord." The
swallows had gone to roost and little brown bats had come out to hunt
moths. Fireflies flashed in the long grass, turning the darkened
meadow into a mirror of the starry sky above. 'There'll
be a real war again soon, I think," Rhius said. "It's been
skirmishes and sword rattling for years now, but Plenimar is chafing
harder against her borders every year." 'War?"
Arkoniel asked, surprised by this abrupt change of subject. "Then
you don't think Plenimar will uphold the Treaty of Kouros?" 'I stood
beside the king when Overlord Cyranius put his seal to it. I watched
his face. No, I don't think he will keep the treaty. He wants the
Three Lands as an empire again, as they were under the hierophants.
But this time he'll sit on the throne, not a priest king. He wants
the lands of Mycena, and he wants the wizards of Skala." 'I suppose
so." Aurenen had long ago cut off trade with Plenimar; there
were no longer the necessary intermarriages to maintain the wizard
bloodlines in Plenimar. In his travels he'd heard rumors of
Plenimaran pirates attacking Aurenfaie ships and carrying off
prisoners for forced breeding, like animals. 'These past
few years they've been testing us, feinting in and out of the islands
and raiding our shores," Rhius went on. "I only hope Tobin
is old enough when the time comes." 'We must
make him ready in every way we can." 'Indeed.
Good night, Arkoniel." Rhius bowed and started back up the path,
still looking bowed and old. The wizard
remained by the river, listening to the quiet sounds that filled the
warm summer night and wondering what a battle sounded like. He'd left
his father's house before he could carry a sword. He smiled,
recalling Tobin's disdainful reaction to his choice of vocation. As he
started up the hill the tower caught his eye again, and he thought he
saw one of the shutters move. He thought
again of casting, but Rhius' order stopped him. It had probably only
been a bat. V'obi in
had watched the two men in the meadow from his window. He knew who
they were; Brother had told him. The
wizard will stay, Brother whispered in the shadows behind him. 'Why?"
Tobin demanded. He didn't want Arkoniel to stay. He didn't like him
at all. There was something wrong behind his smile, and he was too
tall and too loud and had a long face like a horse. Worst of all,
though, he'd surprised Tobin with his magic and expected him to like
it. Tobin hated
surprises. They always ended badly. 'Why is he
staying?" he asked again, then turned to see if Brother had
heard him. The flame
of the little night lamp by his bed was hardly more than a fuzzy
patch of light now. This was Brother's doing. Since Lhel had bound
them together with the doll, Tobin could see the darkness Brother
sometimes made, especially at night. Some nights Tobin could hardly
see at all. There
you are, he thought, catching sight of a slither of shadow along
the far wall. "What are they saying down there?" Brother
slipped away, saying nothing. Tobin often
wished he hadn't kept the ugly doll, that it had fallen out the
window with his mama. He'd even slipped away from the house again a
few weeks ago, hoping to find Lhel and make her take her magic back,
but he didn't dare leave the riverbank this time and she didn't hear
him calling. So he'd
gone on obeying her instructions, summoning Brother every day and
letting the spirit follow him around. He couldn't tell if Brother
enjoyed this or not; he still leered at Tobin sometimes and twitched
his fingers, as if he wanted to pinch him or pull his hair the way he
used to. But Brother didn't hurt him anymore, not since Lhel had put
his blood and hair on the doll. Almost
without realizing it, Tobin had begun to call for Brother more often
lately, even inviting him to play with the city. Brother just watched
"while Tobin moved his wooden people about the streets and
sailed the little ships, but it was better than being alone. Tobin
searched the dark corners of the room for movement. Even when he sent
Brother away, he didn't go very far. The servants still complained of
his antics. The only person he'd seriously hurt, however, was
Arkoniel. As much as
Tobin disliked the wizard, he was angry with Brother for that. He'd
had to do the calling spell right in front of the man and Arkoniel
had seen something, perhaps even heard the words. If he told Tobin's
father, then sooner or later they'd find out about the doll, and then
his father would be ashamed and the men would laugh like the people
in the town and he would never be a warrior. Tobin's
belly cramped painfully as he turned back to the window; perhaps
that's what his father and the wizard were talking about out there.
Arkoniel had promised not to tell but Tobin didn't trust him. He
didn't trust anyone anymore, really, except maybe Tharin. When it got
too dark to see his father in the meadow, Tobin crawled into bed and
lay rigid between the sweaty sheets, waiting for angry voices. Instead,
Nan came to bed presently looking very pleased. 'You'll
never guess what's happened!" she exclaimed as she began
unlacing the sleeves of her gown. "That young wizard is to stay
on and be your tutor. Not only that, but you're to have a companion!
Arkoniel is going to write to his teacher, asking her to find a
suitable boy. You'll have a proper playfellow at last, pet, just as a
young prince should! What do you think of that?" 'What if he
doesn't like me?" Tobin mumbled, think ing again
of the way the townspeople looked at him and gossiped behind their
hands. Nari
clucked her tongue and climbed in beside him. "Who wouldn't like
you, pet? And to be companion to a prince, the king's only nephew?
Any boy would be thrilled with such an honor!" 'But what
if he's not nice?" Tobin insisted. 'Why, then
I'll send the little fool packing myself," Nari declared. Then,
more gently, "Don't you fret, love. Don't you worry about a
thing." Tobin
sighed and pretended to go to sleep. There was a great deal to worry
about, as far as he was concerned, not the least of which was being
saddled with ill-tempered ghosts and loud, laughing, sharp-eyed
wizards. Iya read
Arkoniel's brief letter over several times while the duke's courier
waited outside in the inn yard for her reply. Pressing the little
parchment to her heart, she gazed at the crowded harbor outside her
window and tried to sort out her warring emotions. Her initial
response was much like the duke's; to bring in the child of another
noble put both houses at risk. Yet in her heart she knew Arkoniel was
correct. She looked down at the letter again. I
know you will disapprove of my decision, perhaps even be angry at my
presumption, but I believe I am right in this. The child is nearly
ten, and already so strange in his ways that I fear he'll fare poorly
at court when he is grown. The household is overbearingly protective.
This child has never gone swimming on a hot day or had an afternoon
to himself in the meadow outside the gates. For the sake of his
mother's memory and her line, we must do what we can— 'Him,
indeed," Iya murmured, pleased that Arkoniel had been so
careful. Letters too often fell into the wrong hands, by mistake or
design. I
leave the choice of companion to you, of course. Yes, here he
tried to placate her after he'd already gone his own way. The
boy should be cheerful, brave, light of heart, and much interested in
the arts of war and hunting, for he finds me sorely lacking in those
regards. Since the keep is so lonely and the prince does not attend
court yet, perhaps you might find a boy who will not be too dearly
missed by his family, if he should be long away. He should not be a
first-born son. She nodded
to herself, understanding the implication all too well; this must be
an expendable boy. She tucked
the letter away, already making her plans. She'd visit some of the
country lords who had small holdings here in the southern mountains.
They ran to large families. Such
concerns helped fend off the deeper implication of his proposal:
Arkoniel was going to stay with Tobin. He was far enough along in his
training to leave her for a time, of course, or even to strike out on
his own. Other students had left her, contented with less. Arkoniel
knew enough already to be entrusted with the bowl when the time came. All the
same, she hated to be without him. He was the finest pupil she had
ever had, capable of learning far more than he had as yet. Far more
than she knew to teach him, come to that. But a few years apart would
not unmake him as a wizard. No, it was
the memory of his visions that haunted her, the visions in which she
had no part. She was not ready to be without him, the son of her
heart. zo
A'sTobin had feared, the wizard began changing things -TValmost
at once, though not quite in the way he'd expected. Arkoniel
remained in the toy room for the time being, but within a week of
Father's departure workers began arriving by the cartload and set up
a small village of tents in the meadow. A steady stream of wagons
followed, laden with materials of every sort. Soon the courtyards and
empty barracks were stacked with lumber, stone, mixing troughs, and
heavy sacks. Tobin wasn't allowed to go out among the strangers, so
he stood at his window instead and watched them bustling about. He'd never
realized how quiet the keep was until now. Banging and clanging came
from every direction all day long, and with it the loud voices of the
workers, shouting directions or singing songs. A crew of
masons clattered about on the roof with slates and pots of hot lead
and tar, so that by night and day it looked like the roof was on
fire. Another gang came into the house and took over the third level
and the great hall all at once, shoving the furniture about and
filling the house with the exciting new smells of wet lime and
sawdust. Arkoniel
gained a little in Tobin's favor when he insisted that Tobin be
allowed to watch the craftsmen at work. One night, after Nari had
tucked him into bed, Brother came and led Tobin to the top of the
stairs to listen to an argument going on below. Nari and Arkoniel
were standing by the hearth. 'I don't
care what you or Duke Rhius says," Nari sputtered, balling her
hands in her apron front the way she did when she was upset. "It's
not safe! What's the sense of being out here in the midst of
nowhere—" 'I'll stay
by him," the wizard interrupted. "By the Light, woman, you
can't keep him wrapped in fleece his whole life. And there's so much
he can learn. He's clearly got an aptitude for such things." 'Oh, so
you'd have him grow up to wear a mason's apron rather than a crown,
would you?" Tobin
chewed his thumbnail thoughtfully, wondering what they meant. He'd
never heard that a prince could wear a crown. His mother hadn't that
he knew of, and she'd lived at the palace when she was little. But if
wearing a mason's apron meant he'd be able to use a trowel and mortar
to build walls, then he wouldn't mind that. He'd spied on the crew
working upstairs that day when Nari wasn't looking, and it had been
interesting. He guessed it would be far more fun than his other
lessons with Arkoniel, learning verse by heart and memorizing the
names of the stars. Before he
could learn who was going to win this argument, Brother whispered to
him to hurry back to bed. He made it to his room and got the door
shut before Mynir passed by, whistling happily and rattling his keys
on their iron ring.
l"^ortunately, Arkoniel won, and he and Tobin spent the next day
watching the workmen. The tools
of the plasterers and stonecutters, and the ease with which they
wielded them, fascinated Tobin. Whole walls went from dirty grey to
sugar white in a morning's time. But it was
the wood-carver he admired most. She was a slight, pretty woman with
ugly hands, who shaped wood with her chisels and knives like it was
butter. The broken newel post in the hall had been torn out the day
before and Tobin watched with rapt attention as she carved a new one
out of a long block of dark wood. It seemed to Tobin that she was
digging into the wood to find the pattern of fruited vines that
already existed inside. When he shyly told her this, she nodded. 'That's
just how I see it, Your Highness. I take a piece of fine wood like
this in my hands and ask it, 'What treasure are you holding inside
for me?'" 'Prince
Tobin does the same with vegetables and lumps of wax," Arkoniel
told her. 'I carve
wood, too," Tobin said, waiting for the artist to laugh at him.
Instead, she whispered to Arkoniel, then went to a pile of scrap
lying nearby and brought him a piece of pale yellow wood about the
size of a brick. She handed him two of her sharp carving blades, too,
and asked, "Would you like to see what's inside this piece?" Tobin spent
the rest of the afternoon sitting on the ground beside her, and at
the end of the day presented her with a fat otter that was only a
little lopsided. She was so pleased that she traded him the knives
for it. CO, hen they
weren't watching the workmen, Tobin and Arkoniel took long rides or
walks on the forest roads. These turned into lessons, too, "without
Tobin even noticing. Arkoniel might not know how to fight or shoot
properly, but he knew a great deal about herbs and trees. He began by
letting Tobin show him the ones he knew, then taught him others,
together with their uses. They picked wintergreen and dug wild ginger
in shaded forest glades, and gathered wild strawberries and bunches
of goosegrass, sorrel, and dock in the meadow for Cook's soups. Tobin still
distrusted the wizard, but found he could tolerate him. Arkoniel
wasn't so loud now, and never did any magic. Even though he wasn't a
hunter, he knew as much as Tharin did about tracking and traveling
the forest. They ranged
far up the mountainside, and now and then came across a trail or
clearing that seemed familiar to Tobin. But he saw no sign of Lhel. Unbeknownst
to Arkoniel, Brother was often with them, a silent, watchful
presence. J't't.s
soon as the masons finished their work in the great hall, the
painters began scratching out their designs on the fresh plaster. As
a long band of design took shape along the top of one wall, Tobin
cocked his head and remarked, "That looks a little like oak
leaves and acorns, but not quite." 'It's not
meant to be a picture of anything," Arkoniel explained. "Just
a pattern that pleases the eye. He'll do rows and rows of different
patterns and paint them with bright colors." They
climbed the rickety scaffolding and Arkoniel had the artist show
Tobin how he used a brass straightedge and calipers to mark out the
shapes and keep the lines even. When they
came down again, Tobin ran upstairs to the toy room and took the
neglected writing materials from the chest. Laying them out on the
table in his room, he began a row of patterns, using his fingers for
calipers and a piece of broken practice blade for a straightedge. He
had half a row done when he noticed Arkoniel watching from the
doorway. Tobin kept
working to the edge of the page, then sat back to inspect his effort.
"It's not very good." Arkoniel
came over and looked at it. "No, but it's not bad for a first
effort, either." That was
his way. While Nari praised whatever Tobin did, whether it was good
or not, Arkoniel was more like Tharin—finding the good in an
effort without praising it more than it deserved. 'Let's see
if I can do it." Arkoniel took a sheet of parchment from the
pile and turned it over, then stood there with a strange sick
expression on his face. This side of the sheet was covered with lines
of small words Tobin's mother had written one day while he traced his
letters. Tobin couldn't read it, but he could see that it upset
Arkoniel. 'What does
it say?" he asked. Arkoniel
swallowed hard and cleared his throat, but Brother tore the page from
his hand and sent it sailing across the room before he could read it. 'It was
just a bit of verse about birds." Tobin
retrieved the sheet and stuck it at the bottom of the pile so Brother
wouldn't get more upset. The uppermost parchment had several lines of
practice letters on it, all smudged and blurred from his tracing. 'Mama was
teaching me my letters," he said, running a finger over them. 'I see.
Would you like to show me what you've learned so far?" Arkoniel
tried to smile as if nothing were wrong, but his gaze kept straying
to the parchment Brother had taken and he looked sad. Tobin
laboriously wrote out the eleven letters he knew. He hadn't drawn
them in months and they came out very crooked. Some were even upside
down again. He'd forgotten most of their names and sounds, too. 'You're off
to a good start. Would you like me to make you some more to trace?" Tobin shook
his head, but the wizard was already scratching away with the pen. Soon Tobin
was so busy that he forgot all about the verse Arkoniel had not read
to him, and Brother's small tantrum. Lrkoniel
waited until Tobin was engrossed in his work, then carefully pulled
at the edge of the parchment the demon had snatched away, tugging it
out just far enough to see the lines Ariani had written: Only
in my tower can I hear the bird's song My prison is my freedom. My
bean sings only there With the dead for company Only the dead speak
clearly, and the birds Cot had secretly fretted over the
impending arrival of the promised companion, but when none
immediately arrived he happily forgot about it, assuming his father
had changed his mind. There were
far too many people in the house as it was. For as long as he could
remember, the house had been shadowy and peaceful. Now workers
tramped in and out at all hours. When he wearied of watching the
craftsmen, he retreated to the kitchen with Nari and Cook, both of
whom seemed absurdly pleased with all the commotion, despite what
Nari had said about Tobin mixing with the workers. But no one
was more pleased than old Mynir. Even though it appeared to be the
wizard's fault that all the changes were being made, Mynir was in
charge, and he'd never looked happier than when he was instructing
the workmen on the colors and designs to use. He met with merchants
in the hall, too, and soon polished plate appeared on the bare
shelves and bright new hangings arrived by the cartload. 'Ah, Tobin,
this is what I used to do at Atyion!" he said one day as they
inspected the new hangings. "Your father is letting me make this
into a proper house at last!" As much as
he enjoyed watching the workers, however, as the repairs progressed
Tobin began to feel uneasy about the results. The more the house
changed, the harder it was for him to think of his father or mother
living there. When Mynir began to talk of changes to his own
bedchamber, Tobin slammed the door and pushed a chest against it,
refusing to come out until the steward promised him through the latch
hole that it would be left alone. And so the
work continued around him. Sometimes, at night,
before Nari came up to join him, he crept to the top of the great
stairway and stared down into the bright, colorful new hall,
imagining it as it had been before his father began staying away so
much. Perhaps if they changed it too much, Father wouldn't want to
come back at all. ,1 Finding a
suitable companion for Tobin proved to be a more difficult task than
lya had expected. She wasn't
especially fond of children in general. For decades the only ones
she'd anything to do with were the wizard born. None of her students
were ordinary to start with, and training and time soon brought out
the bright flashes of ability. With these children she relived her
own tentative first steps, early frustrations, and glories; and she
exulted with them as they claimed the power of their own unique
natures. No two were alike in power or ability, but that made no
difference. The joy was in finding a vein of talent in a novice and
following it to its core. But this…
As her search stretched dismally from weeks to a month, her opinion
of ordinary children was not much improved. She found children enough
among the country nobles, but not one who struck her as any more
interesting than a turnip. Lord Evir,
whose house she had visited first, had six fine boys, two of them of
an age and ability to serve, but they were thick, heavy-footed
bullcalves, dull as moles. She went to
Lady Morial's great holding next, recalling that some number of babes
had been born there. The good widow had a son just turned ten who
seemed lively enough, but when lya brushed his mind with hers, she
found it already stained with greed and envy. One could not well
serve a prince, or a queen, if one coveted their station. So she
traveled on, moving slowly up the spine of Skala, encountering yet
more turnips, moles, and vipers-to-be. She was within a week's ride
of Ero when the first rains of Rhythin came. She wandered on through
the cold, misty drizzle, searching for the estate of Lord Jorvai of
Co-lath, whom she'd known as a youth. Two days
later, with the afternoon waning and no sign of estate or shelter in
sight, the muddy road she'd been following ended abruptly at the bank
of a swollen stream. She tried to urge her mare on, but the beast
shied and sidestepped.
'Damnation!" lya shouted, looking around at the empty barrens
that surrounded her on every side. She couldn't wade the flood and
there was no inn nearby if she turned back. She had passed a side
road an hour or so earlier, she recalled, wrapping her sodden cloak
more closely around her. That had to lead somewhere. She'd
backtracked less than half a mile when a small band of riders
appeared out of the mist, leading a string of fine horses. They were
a hard-bitten lot, either soldiers or bandits by the look of their
gear. lya put on a brave face to meet them. As they drew up ahead of
her, she noted that one of the riders was a woman, though she looked
as rough and grim as any of the others. Their
leader was a tall, gaunt old man whose long grey moustaches framed a
mouth full of broken teeth. "What's your business on this road,
woman?" he challenged. 'And who
might you be to ask?" lya retorted, already weaving a blinding
spell at the back of her mind. There were only seven of them. From
the dark looks she was getting, the horses they led were probably
stolen. 'I'm Sir
Larenth of Oakmount Stead, a tenant of Lord Jorvai, whose lands
you're on." He jerked a thumb at the woman and two of the
others. These are my sons, Alon and Khemeus, and my daughter Ahra. We
guard Jorvai's roads." 'I beg
pardon, then. I'm lya of Maker's Ford, a free wizard of Skala. And as
it happens, I was seeking your lord myself, but I believe I've lost
my way." 'By a good
mark, too. His manor is half a day's ride back the way you came,"
Larenth replied, still brusque. "You may claim hospitality at my
hearth tonight, if you've nowhere else to go." lya had little
choice. "Many thanks, Sir Larenth. I do claim it, and
gratefully." 'What
business do you have with my lord?" Larenth asked as she fell in
with them. 'I'm
charged with seeking a companion for a nobleman's son." The old
knight snorted. "I've a houseful of whelps— four wives'
worth—and plenty of bastards. Good as any you'll find in the
capital. I could do with a few less mouths to feed. I suppose I'd be
paid for the loss of labor?" 'The
customary boon fee would be paid, of course." lya eyed the dour
offspring present and doubted there was much chance of loosening her
purse strings under his roof. All the same, he had a girl trained to
arms, a rare and welcome sight these days. "Your daughter serves
with you. That's rather out of fashion these days, I hear." The young
woman straightened in the saddle, looking offended. 'Fashion be
damned, and the king, too, with his airs and laws," Larenth
snapped. "My mother earned her keep by the sword, and her mother
before her. I won't have my girl done out of a good living, by the
Light I won't! All of my children are trained to arms soon as they
can walk. You'll find Lord Jorvai is of a like mind, and not afraid
to say so. You're a wizard; you must hold with the old ways, too?" 'I do, but
these days it's not always wise to say so too loudly." Larenth
blew out his moustaches with another snort. "Mark my words,
Mistress. There'll come a day when the king will be glad enough of my
girl in his ranks, and all the others like her he's pushed out. Those
bastards across the water won't be content with raiding forever."
ir Larenth's steading proved to be nothing but a small,
sparse-looking bit of land with a few outbuildings and corrals
surrounding a rude stone house inside a stockade. A pack of barking
hounds greeted their arrival and milled around their legs as they
dismounted. Half a dozen muddy young children came running to do the
same, hanging on their father and older siblings. Larenth's
harsh face softened a little as he tossed a little girl up on his
shoulder and ushered lya into the damp, smoky hall with rough
courtesy. There was
little in the way of comfort to be found here. Even with the doors
open, the room was cramped and malodorous. The furnishings were plain
and few, with no hangings or plate in sight. Sides of meat and ropes
of sausages dangled from the rafters below the smoke hole in the
roof, curing in the smoke of the fire that blazed in the center of
the packed earth floor. Beside it a thin, pregnant young woman in a
sack of a gown sat twirling a distaff. She was introduced as the old
knight's fourth lady, Sekora. With her were a few women, and an idiot
stepson of about fourteen. Four bare-bottomed little children
scrambled among the hounds at the women's feet. The rest of
Larenth's brood soon came straggling in for the evening meal. lya
lost count at fifteen. It was impossible to distinguish trueborn from
bastard; in country households like this, where only the eldest stood
to inherit the father's rank, it didn't much matter. The rest would
have to make their own way. Supper was
a disorganized affair. Trestles were set up and pots hung on tripods
over the hearth. Trenchers were brought in from a bake house and
everyone sat where they could find space to eat. No one stood on
ceremony here; more children arrived and elbowed the others out of
the way to reach the hearth. It was not an elegant house hold, or a
particularly friendly one, and the food was vile, but lya was
grateful to be off the road. The drizzle had turned into a downpour
and lightning lit the yard outside. The meal
was nearly over before lya noticed the trio of boys standing by the
open doorway. Judging by their wet clothes and small portions, they'd
arrived late during the chaos of the meal. One of them, the muddiest
of the lot, was laughing over something with his brothers. He was as
wiry and sun-browned as all the others, with thick dark hair that was
probably a good brown under the dirt and twigs. She wasn't certain at
first why she noticed him at all. Perhaps it was something in the
tilt of his smile. 'Who is
that?" she asked her host, trying to make herself heard over the
chatter and the rain pounding on the thatch. 'That one?"
Larenth frowned a moment. "Dimias, I think." 'That's Ki,
Father!" Ahra chided. 'Is he
trueborn or bastard?" asked lya. Stumped
again, Larenth consulted his daughter. "True-born, of my third
wife," he said at last. 'May I
speak with him?" asked lya. Larenth
gave her knowing wink. "All you like, Mistress, but remember
there's other pups in the litter, if that one don't suit you."
lya made her way over dogs and legs and babes to the trio in the
doorway. "Are you called Ki?" she asked the boy. Caught in
midchew, he swallowed hastily and bowed. "Yes, Lady. At your
service." Though he
was not striking in any particular way, lya knew at once that this
was no turnip. His eyes, the color of chestnut hulls, shone with good
nature and intelligence. lya's heart
skipped a beat; could he be wizard born? Taking his dirty hand in
greeting, she touched his mind out of habit and found with a twinge
of disappointment that he was not. 'Is that
all there is to your name?" she asked. He
shrugged. "It's all I'm ever called." 'It's
Kirotbius," one of the older boys
reminded him, giving him a poke in the back. "He just don't like
it 'cause he can't say it." 'I can so!"
Ki told lya, blushing under the dirt that streaked his cheeks. From
the smell of him, he'd spent his day tending pigs. "I like just
Ki better. And it helps Father remember, with so many of us to keep
track of." Everyone
within hearing laughed, and Ki of the shortened name flashed a
buck-toothed grin that seemed the brightest thing in this wretched
hovel, or the whole wretched day. 'Well now,
Ki, how old are you?" 'Eleven
summers, Lady." 'And are
you trained to the sword?" The boy's
chin rose proudly. "Yes, Lady. And the bow." 'Trained to
the pig-whacking stick, more like it," the poking brother chimed
in. Ki turned
on him angrily. "You just shut your mouth, Amin. Who broke your
finger for you last month?" Ah,
so the pup has cut some teeth, too, lya noted approvingly. "Have
you ever been to court?" 'I have,
Lady. Father takes us to Ero for the Sakor festival most years. I
seen the king and his son in their golden crowns, riding with the
priests to the temple. I'll serve at court one day, myself." 'Tending
the king's pigs!" teasing Amin put in. Outraged,
Ki jumped on his brother and knocked him down onto a circle of
children sitting on the floor behind them. lya retreated hastily as
the discussion devolved into a loud free-for-all involving an
increasing number of children and dogs and wailing babies. A few
minutes later, she spotted Ki and the offending brother perched in
the rafters overhead, grinning at the mayhem they'd created. The
current mother waded into the fray, wielding a ladle. lya knew
she'd found her boy, but was surprised by a twinge of conscience. If
the worst happened, there could be no hesitation, no mercy. Yet
surely it was worth the risk. What future did the poor child have
here? No land, no tide; at best, he'd end up a foot soldier or
mercenary and die on the end of a Plenimaran lance. This way, he at
least had a chance to realize his dream of court and some title of
his own. After the
children were asleep that night in scattered piles on the floor, Sir
Larenth bound the boy over for a boon fee of five gold sesters and a
packet of charms to keep his well sweet and his roof sound. No one
thought to ask Ki what he thought of the matter. the light
of day, lya worried that she might have acted rashly. Ki had cleaned
up well enough, and even had on a clean suit of faded hand-me-down
clothes. His hair, tied back with a thong today, was the same warm
brown as his eyes. He came armed, too, with a knife at his belt and a
decent bow and quiver over his shoulder. But he
showed none of the previous night's sparkle as he bid his family
good-bye and set off on foot beside lya's horse. 'Are you
well?" she asked, watching him march doggedly along. 'Yes,
Lady." 'You
mustn't call me 'lady.' You're more nobly born than I am. You may
call me Mistress lya and I shall call you Ki, just as you like. Now,
-would you like to come up and ride behind me?" 'No,
Mistress." 'Did your
father tell you where we're going?" 'Yes,
Mistress." 'Are you
glad to be the companion of the king's nephew?" He said
nothing and lya noted the grim set of his jaw. "Does the
prospect displease you?" Ki shrugged
his little bundle higher on his shoulder. "I'll do my duty,
Mistress." 'Well, you
might be a bit happier about it. I should think you'd be glad to
leave that wretched place back there. Nobody will expect you to tend
pigs or sleep under a table in Duke Rhius' house." Ki's spine
stiffened visibly, just as his half sister's had the day before.
"Yes, Mistress." Wearying of
this strange, one-sided conversation, lya let him be and Ki trudged
along behind her in silence. By
the Light, perhaps I have made a mistake after all, lya thought. Glancing
back at him, she saw that he was limping now. 'Do you
have a blister?" 'No,
Mistress." 'Then why
are you limping?" 'I got a
stone in my shoe."
Exasperated, she reined her horse to a halt. "Then why in the
world didn't you say so? By the Light, child, you have a voice!" He met her
gaze squarely, but his chin was trembling. "Father said I was to
speak only when spoke to," he told her, trying desperately to
keep up a brave front as the words spilled out. "He said if I
give you any back talk or stepped wrong, you'd turn me back to him
and make him give the gold back and he'd flay the skin off me and
turn me out on the road. He said I must do my duty to Prince Tobin
and never come home again." It was
quite a speech, and boldly stated except for the tears spilling down
his cheeks. He swiped at them with his sleeve, but kept his head up
proudly as he waited to be sent home in disgrace. lya sighed.
"Wipe your nose, boy. No one's going to send you home for having
a rock in your shoe. I don't have a lot of experience of ordinary
boys, Ki, but you strike me as a good sort, over all. You're not
going to hurt Prince Tobin or run away, are you?" 'No, La—
Mistress!" 'Then I
doubt there'll be any need to send you home. Now empty your shoe and
come up here." When he'd
finished with his shoe she gave him a hand up and gave his knee an
awkward pat. "That's settled. We'll get along just fine now." 'Yes,
Mistress." 'And
perhaps we can have a more interesting conversation. It's a long ride
to Alestun from here. You may speak freely, and ask me questions
whenever you like. You won't learn much in life if you don't, you
know." Ki shifted
his knee against the leather sack, which hung against his leg.
"What's in here? You carry it around with you all the time. I
seen you sleep with it, last night." Startled,
she snapped, "Nothing you need to know of, except that it's very
dangerous and I will send you home if you
ever meddle with it." She felt
the boy cringe and let out a slow breath before she spoke again. He
was only a child, after all. "That wasn't a very good start, was
it? Ask me another." There was a
long moment of silence, then, "What's the prince like?" lya
thought back to Arkoniel's letter. "He's a year or so younger
than you. I'm told he likes to hunt and he's training to be a
warrior. He might make you his squire if you're a good boy." 'How many
brothers and sisters he got?" ''Does he
have,'" lya corrected. "By the
Light, we must work on your grammar." 'How many
does he have?" 'Not a one,
nor any mother, either. That's why you're going to keep him company." 'Did his
mother die?" 'Yes, a
year ago last spring." 'A year?
And the duke ain't got hisself a new woman yet?" Ki asked. lya sighed.
" 'Duke Rhius hasn't gotten himself—' Illior's Fingers!
'Hasn't remarried' is how it's said, not that it's any concern of
yours! And no, he has not. I believe you'll find this household
rather different from what you're used to." Another
pause, then, "I heard some folks claim there's a ghost at this
prince's castle." 'Are you
afraid of ghosts?" 'Yes,
Mistress lya! Aren't you?" 'Not
especially. And you mustn't be, either, because there is
a ghost at the keep." 'Bilairy's
balls!" Suddenly Ki
was no longer behind her. Turning, lya found him standing in the road
with his bundle in his arms, staring miserably back toward home. 'Get back
up here, boy!" Ki wavered,
evidently uncertain which he was more afraid of, ghosts or his
formidable father. 'Don't be
ridiculous," she chided. "Prince Tobin has lived his whole
life with it and it hasn't done him any harm. Now come along or I
will send you back. The prince needs no cowards around him." Ki
swallowed hard and squared his shoulders, just as she'd guessed he
would. "My father sired no cowards." 'I'm
pleased to hear it." When he was
safely mounted again, she asked, "How did you know of the
ghost?" 'Ahra told
me this morning after she heard who Father bound me off to." 'And how
did she know of it?" She felt a
shrug. "Said she heard it among the ranks." 'And what
else did your sister hear?" Another
shrug. "That's all she told me, Mistress." K i was
polite in a glum sort of way the rest of the day, and that night he
wept very quietly after he thought lya was asleep. She half expected
to find him gone in the morning. When she opened her eyes just after
dawn, however, he was still there, watching her from across a freshly
laid fire. There were dark circles under his eyes, but he'd fixed a
cold breakfast for both of them and looked much more the bright
fellow she'd taken him for that first night. 'Good
morning, Mistress lya." 'Good
morning, Ki." lya sat up and stretched the stiffness from her
shoulders. 'How
long'til we get there?" he asked as they ate. 'Oh, three
or four days, I think." He bit off
another mouthful of sausage and chewed noisily. "Could you learn
me to talk proper on the way, like you said?" 'For a
start, don't speak with your mouth full. And don't chew with your
mouth open." She chuckled as he hastily swallowed. "There's
no need to choke on my account. Let's see, what else? Don't curse or
swear by Bilairy's body. It's coarse. Now, say 'could you please
teach me to speak properly?'" 'Could you
please teach me to speak properly?" he repeated, as carefully as
if it were some foreign tongue he was mastering. "And could you
please learn—teach me about ghosts?" 'I'll do
both, as best I can," lya replied, smiling at him. She'd judged
rightly after all. This boy was no turnip. Chapter zz
Sitting on the roof with Arkoniel one afternoon in late Rhythin,
Tobin looked out over the blazing colors of the forest and realized
it was only a few weeks until his name day. He hoped no one
remembered. He hadn't
wanted to come up here for their morning lesson, and made certain
they sat as far as possible from the base of the tower. Arkoniel
was trying to teach him mathematics, using dried beans and lentils to
work through the problems. Tobin wanted to pay attention, but his
thoughts kept straying to the tower. He could feel it looming behind
him, cold like a shadow even though the sun was warm on his
shoulders. The tower shutters were closed tight, but Tobin was sure
he could hear noises behind them; footsteps, and the soft brush of
long skirts across stone floors. The sounds scared him the way his
visions of his mother's ghost behind the tower door did. He didn't
tell Arkoniel about the sounds, or about the dream he'd had the night
before; he'd made that mistake several times already and everyone,
even Nari, had started to look at him strangely when the ones he told
came true. In this
one, he and Brother went outside again, but this time the demon led
him to the bottom of the meadow, where they stood waiting for
someone. In the dream, Brother started crying. He cried so hard that
dark blood ran from his nose and mouth. Then he pressed one hand over
his heart and the other over Tobin's, and leaned so close their faces
were almost touching. 'She's
coming," Brother whispered. Then he flew through the air like a
bird back to the tower, leaving Tobin to wait alone, watching the
road. He'd woken
up with a start, still feeling Brother's hand pressing on his chest.
Who's coming, he thought, and
why? Cl
j^7itting here in the sunshine now, Tobin didn't tell Arkoniel any of
that. He hadn't been scared in the dream, but when he thought of it
now, listening to the noises in the tower, he was overcome with a
strange sense of dread. An
especially loud bump sounded overhead and Tobin stole a quick glance
at the wizard, thinking he must have heard that,
that perhaps Arkoniel was just choosing not to say anything. In their
first days together Arkoniel had asked him many questions about his
mother. He never mentioned the tower or what had happened there, but
Tobin could see in his eyes that he wanted to. Tobin let
out a sigh of relief when Tharin appeared in the courtyard below.
Father and the others were still away, but Tharin had come home to be
his weapons master. 'It's time
for my practice," he said, jumping up. Arkoniel
raised an eyebrow at him. "So I see. You know, Tobin, there's
more to being a noble than arms. You have to understand the world and
how it works…" 'Yes,
Master Arkoniel. May I go now?" A familiar
sigh. "You may."
.,'l-rkoniel watched the child scamper eagerly away over the slates.
He doubted Tobin had heard half the lesson. Something about the tower
had distracted him; he'd twisted around to stare at it every time he
thought Arkoniel wasn't looking. The wizard
stood and looked up at it. Something about those closed shutters
always sent a chill down his spine. When the duke returned, Arkoniel
meant to get his permission to see that room. Perhaps if he could
stand there, breathe the air, touch the things she'd left behind,
then he could gain some sense of what exactly had happened that day.
He certainly wasn't going to learn it from Tobin. The few times
Arkoniel had broached the subject the child had gone blank and silent
in the most disquieting way. Arkoniel
gave no credence to Nari's wild talk of possession, or her fear that
Tobin had somehow caused his mother's fall. But the longer Arkoniel
remained here, the more keenly aware he was of the dead child's
permeating presence. He could feel its chill. And he'd heard Tobin
whispering to it, just as Nari had said, and found himself wondering
what sort of replies Tobin heard. What if
Tobin had fallen that day? For an instant he imagined the two
children watching him from behind those peeling shutters, united in
death, as they should have been in life. 'I'll go
mad here," he muttered, scattering the lentils for the birds. Hoping to
shake off his dark mood, he made his way down to the practice yard
and watched Tharin working with Tobin. Here was a man who knew how to
teach a boy. Both of
them were grinning as they moved back and forth with their wooden
blades. No matter how hard Tharin worked Tobin, the boy strove to
please him, worshiping the big warrior with an openness that Arkoniel
envied. Tobin had put on a battered leather tunic and tied back his
hair with a thong; a dark miniature of fair-skinned Tharin. Arkoniel
had come to accept that these lessons captured the boy's interest in
a way that his own lame attempts could not. He'd never meant to be a
tutor and suspected he was making a poor job of it. Part of the
problem was Tobin's distrust. Arkoniel had felt it since the day he
arrived, and things had not changed much for the better. He was
certain that the demon had something to do with this. It remembered
the events of its birth; had it told Tobin? Nari didn't think so, but
Arkoniel remained certain the demon had somehow set Tobin against him
from the start. In spite of
all these obstacles, however, he found himself growing increasingly
attached to the child. Tobin was intelligent and perceptive when he
chose to be, and around anyone else except Arkoniel he was pleasant
and well mannered. Recently,
however, something new had given the wizard pause and filled him with
a mix of wonder and unease. The boy had shown a few flashes of what
appeared to be foreknowledge. A week earlier Tobin had claimed that a
letter was coming from his father, and waited all afternoon by the
gate until a rider appeared with the message that Duke Rhius was not
coming home in time for Tobin's name day after all. Stranger
still, a few nights ago he had frantically woken Nari and Tharin,
begging them to go into the woods to find a fox with a broken back.
They'd tried to reassure him that it had only been a dream but he
grew so upset that Tharin had finally taken a lantern and gone out.
He'd returned within the hour with a dead vixen. Tharin swore the fox
had been too far from the house for Tobin to hear its cries and, when
asked how he'd known, Tobin had mumbled that the demon had told him,
but wouldn't say any more. This
morning he'd had a furtive air and Arkoniel guessed he'd had another
vision, and that it might have something to do with the way Tobin had
squirmed so inattentively through the aborted lesson in mathematics. While
foreknowing in a future ruler was an undoubted advantage, what if it
presaged the first blossoming of a wizard's gifts? Would the people
accept a wizard queen, unable for all her power to bear a successor? Leaving
Tobin and Tharin to their practice, Arkoniel crossed the bridge and
wandered down the road into the forest. As the keep
disappeared from sight behind him, Arkoniel felt his spirits lift.
The crisp autumn air cleansed him of the tainted atmosphere he'd been
breathing for the past month, and he was suddenly grateful to be away
from that strange house and its haunted people. No amount of repair
and fresh paint could mask its underlying rot. 'That baby
still sit heavy on you heart," an unmistakable voice said behind
him. Arkoniel
whirled around to find the road as empty as before. "Lhel? I
know it's you! What are you doing here?" 'Be scared,
Wizard?" Now the mocking voice came from a thick stand of
yellow-leafed poplar on his right. He couldn't make out anyone hidden
there, but just then a small brown hand appeared—not from
behind the trees but out of thin air just in front of them. The
forefinger crooked, beckoning, then disappeared as if it had been
pulled back through an invisible window frame. "You come here, I
take your fear away," the voice wheedled, almost at his ear. 'By the
Light, show yourself!" Arkoniel demanded, intrigued in spite of
his surprise. "Lhel? Where are you?" He stared
into the trees, looking for telltale shadows, listening for stealthy
footsteps. Nothing came to him but the patter of leaves in the wind.
It was as if she had opened a portal in the air and spoken to him
through it. And put her hand through it. It's
a trick. You're seeing what you want to see. But
what if it wasn't? The more
important question right now was what she was doing here at all after
all these years? 'Come to
me, Arkoniel," Lhel called to him from behind the screen of
poplars. "Come into the woods." He
hesitated just long enough to summon a protective core of power deep
in his mind, strong enough—he hoped—to keep away any
creatures of darkness she might summon. Gathering his courage, he
pushed through the screen of branches, following the voice into the
forest beyond. The light
was muted here, and the ground rose gently before him. Laughter came
from up the hillside and he looked up to see the •witch floating
beside a large oak tree a dozen yards from where he stood. Lhel
smiled at him, framed by a long oval of soft green light. He could
see rushes and cattails swaying around her, bathed in the rippling
shimmer of light reflected from unseen water. The vision was so clear
he could even make out the exact demarcation between the illusion and
the surrounding forest, like a painting hung on the air. She
beckoned coyly, then the entire apparition collapsed like a washday
soap bubble. He ran to
where she had appeared and felt the tingle of magic in the air there.
He breathed it in, and felt a long-forgotten memory stir. Years
earlier, while still a child apprentice, Arkoniel had thought he'd
seen a similar miracle. Half asleep in some noble's hall, he'd
awakened in the early light to see men appearing silently out of thin
air at the far end of the room. The sight had both frightened and
excited him. When he
told lya of it later that morning, however, he was heartbroken to
learn that it had simply been a clever trick of the eye, using a
painted wall and the placement of a tapestry in front of a servant's
entry. 'No such
spell has ever existed in Oreska magic," lya had told him. "Even
the Aurenfaie have to walk from place to place, just as we do." The
disappointment had faded, but not the inspiration. There were spells
aplenty that could move objects like locks or doors or stones; surely
there must be some way of translating these. He'd toyed with the
notion for years, but had come no closer to making it a reality. He
could push a pea across a carpet with ease, but he could not make it
pass through a solid door or wall, no matter how he meditated and
envisioned the act. Arkoniel
shook off the reverie with suspicion. This was some witch trick,
coupled with the memory his mind had fastened onto in the shock of
the moment. Lhel's
faint call drifted down to him again, leading him to a trail that
wound off to his right through a thick stand of fir. The ground fell
away sharply from here and he came out at last at the edge of a
marsh. Lhel stood
waiting for him at the water's edge, surrounded by cattails and faded
marshworts, just as he'd seen her earlier. He stared hard at her,
trying to pierce whatever new illusion she was practicing on him, but
her shadow fell across the wet ground just as it should, and her bare
feet sank into the soft mud as she took a step toward him. 'What are
you doing here?" he demanded. 'I be here,
waiting for you," she replied. This time
it was Arkoniel who stepped closer. His heart was racing, but he felt
no fear of her now. She looked
smaller and more ragged than he recalled, as if she'd been hungry for
a long time. There were thicker streaks of white in her hair, too,
but her body was still rounded and ripe, and she moved with the same
challenge in her hips that had so unnerved him. She took another step
toward him, then tilted her head and set her hands on her hips like a
fishwife, regarding him with a combination of heat and wry disdain in
her black eyes. He was
close enough to smell herbs and sweat and moist earth, with something
else mixed in that made him think of mares in heat. 'When—when
did you arrive?" he asked. She
shrugged. "I be here always. Where you
be, all these times? How you take care what we make, be gone so
long?" 'You mean
you've been here, near the keep, all these
years?" 'I help the
lady. I follow and keep watch. Help that spirit not be so angry." 'You
haven't done much of a job of that," Arkoniel retorted, holding
out his splinted wrist for her to see. "To-bin's life has been a
misery because of it." 'It be
worse, I don't do as the Mother show," she retorted, shaking a
finger at him. "You and lya, you don't know! A witch make a
spirit, she…" She held her wrists up, crossed, as if she
were bound. "lya say, 'You go home, witch. Don't come back.' She
don't know." Lhel tapped her temple. "That spirit call out
for me. I tell her, but she don't listen." 'Does Rhius
know you're here?" Lhel shook
her head and an earwig squirmed loose from a tendril of hair and
skittered away down her bare arm. "I close always, but not to be
see." She smiled slyly, then faded from sight before his eyes.
"You do that, Wizard?" she whispered, behind him now and
close enough to his ear for him to feel her breath. She'd made no
sound as she moved, nor left any mark on the ground. Arkoniel
flinched away. "No." 'I show
you," she whispered. An invisible hand stroked his arm. "Show
you what you dream." The memory
of the men emerging from the air intruded on his thoughts again. She was
doing this. Arkoniel
jerked back, caught between the water and the invisible hands that
tried to stroke his chest. "Stop that! This is no time for your
petty teasing." Something
struck him hard in the chest, knocking him backward into the mud at
the water's edge. A weight settled on his chest, holding him down,
and Lhel's musky unwashed scent overwhelmed him. Then she was visible
again, squatting naked on top of him. His eyes
widened in wonder. The three-phase moon—a circle flanked by two
outfacing crescents—was tattooed on her belly, and concentric
serpent patterns covered each full breast. More symbols covered her
face and arms. He had seen such marks before, carved into the walls
of caves on the sacred island of Kouros, and on rocks along the
Skalan coastline. According to lya, such marks had been old long
before the Hierophant came to the Three Lands. Had Lhel somehow
hidden these markings before, he wondered, unable to move, or were
they another illusion? There was certainly considerable magic of some
sort involved. Strength greater than her small body could account for
held him flat as she took his face between her hands. You
and your kind dismiss my people, and my gods. Her true voice
intruded into his mind, devoid of accent or stumbling grammar. You
think we are dirty, that we practice necromancy. You are strong, you
Oreska, but you are often fools, too, blinded by pride. Your teacher
asked me for a great magic, then treated me with disrespect. Because
of her I offended the Mother and the dead. For
ten years I have guarded that spirit, and the child it is bound to.
The dead child could have killed the living one and those around her
if I had not bound it. Until its flesh is cut free from the one you
call Tobin, it must be so bound and I must remain, for only I can do
both unbind-ings when the time comes. Arkoniel
was amazed to see a tear roll down the witch's cheek. It fell and
struck his face. ,' have
waited alone all these years, cut off from my people, a ghost among
yours. There's been no full moon priest for me, no harvest sacrifice
or spring rites. I die inside, Wizard, for the child and for the
goddess who sent you to me. My hair turns white and my womb is still
empty, lya put gold in my hands, not understanding that a great magic
must be paid for with the body. When she first came to me
in my visions, I thought you were for me, my payment. But lya sent me
away empty. Will you pay me now? 'I—I
can't." Arkoniel dug his fingers into the earth as the meaning
of her words dawned on him. "It… such intercourse…
it takes away our power." She leaned
over him and brushed her heavy breasts across his lips. Her skin was
hot. A hard brown nipple brushed the corner of his mouth and he
turned his head away. You
are wrong, Oreska, she whispered in his mind. It
feeds the power. Join with me in flesh and I will teach you my magic.
Then your power will be doubled. Arkoniel
shivered. "I can't give you a child. Oreska wizards are barren." But
not eunuchs. Slowly, sinuously, she slid back until she was
straddling his hips. Arkoniel kept silent, but his body answered for
him. I need no child from you, Wizard. Just your
heat and your rush of seed. That is payment enough. She pressed
against him and pleasure bordering on pain blossomed through his
groin as her heat seeped through his tunic. He closed his eyes,
knowing she would take him if she chose. There was no way to prevent
it. But then
the pressure, the heat, the hands were gone. Arkoniel opened his eyes
and found himself alone. It had been
no vision, though; he could still taste her salt on his lips, smell
her scent on his clothes. In the mud on either side of him the prints
of small bare feet slowly filled with water. He sat up
and rested his head on his knees, drawing in the musky woman smell
that clung to him. Cold, aching, and strangely ashamed, he groaned
aloud as he conjured her warmth pressing against him. ,' thought
you were for me. The words
made the breath catch in his throat and his groin pound. He forced
himself up to his feet. Mud and pond slime oozed from his hair and
dripped down inside the front of his tunic like cold little fingers
seeking his heart. Illusions
and lies, he thought desperately, but as he made his way back
toward the rotting keep, he could not forget what she'd shown him, or
the whispered invitation; Join with me,
Wizard—your power will be doubled. '""T'obin's
head started to hurt during his sword practice. It JL ached so badly
it made him sick to his stomach, and Tharin sent him up to bed in the
middle of the day. Brother
came without being called and crouched on the end of Tobin's bed, one
hand pressed to his chest. Curled on his side, cheek pressed to the
soft new coverlet Father had sent from Ero, Tobin stared at his
baleful mirror self, waiting for Brother to touch him or weep as he
had in the dreams. But Brother didn't do anything, just stayed there
gathering darkness around himself. Queasy from the headache, Tobin
slipped into a doze. He
was riding Gosi up the forest road toward the mountains. Red and gold
leaves swirled around him, bright in the sunshine. He thought he
could hear another rider just behind him, but he couldn't see who it
was. After a moment he realized that Brother was sitting behind him
with his arms wrapped around Tobin's waist. In the dream Brother was
alive; Tobin could feel the other boy's chest pressing warm and solid
against his back, and Brother's breath against his neck. The hands
clasped at his waist were brown and callused, with dirt under the
nails. Tobin's
eyes filled with happy tears. He had a real brother! All the rest of
it—demons and wizards and strange
women in the forest—it had just been
one of his bad dreams. He
tried to look at Brother, to see if his eyes were blue like his own,
but Brother pressed his face to Tobin's back and whispered, "Ride
faster, she's almost here!" Brother
was afraid, and that made Tobin feel scared, too. They
rode further into the mountains than Tobin had ever gone before. Huge
snow-capped peaks surrounded them on every side. The sky grew dark
and a cold wind whipped around them. "What
will we do when it gets dark? Where will we sleep?" Tobin asked,
looking around in dismay. "Ride
faster," whispered Brother. But
when they rounded a bend in the road, they found themselves at the
bottom of the meadow below the keep, heading for the bridge at a
gallop. Gosi would not take the rein and stop— Tobin woke
with a start. Nari stood over him, rubbing his chest. It was nearly
dark and the room was very cold. 'You've
slept the day away, pet," she told him. It
was only a dream! Tobin thought, heartbroken. He could feel
Brother somewhere nearby, cold and strange as ever. Nothing had
changed. He wanted to roll over and escape back into the dream, but
Nari hustled him out of bed. 'You have
visitors! Get up now, and let's change that tunic." 'Visitors?
For me?" Tobin blinked up at her. He knew he should send Brother
away, but it was too late now, with Nari fussing over him. She pressed
the backs of her fingers to his forehead and clucked her tongue.
"You're like ice, pet! Ah, look— the window's been open
all day, and you with no covers. Let's get these clothes changed so
you can come down to the hall and warm yourself." Tobin's
head still hurt. Shivering, he let Nari pull off his rumpled tunic,
then wiggled into the stiff new one •with the embroidery on the
hem. This had come in the same package as the coverlet, along with
another suit of good clothes, better than anything Tobin had ever
worn, and other fancy things for the house. He caught
sight of Brother in a dark corner as he turned to leave the room; the
demon was wearing the very same new clothes, but his face was paler
than Tobin had ever seen it. 'Stay
here," he whispered. Following Nari downstairs, he wondered what
it would feel like to have a living brother walking beside him. The hall
was dark except for the hearth fire and a few torches. Still beyond
the reach of the light, Tobin could see the people standing by the
hearth without being seen. Arkoniel, Cook, Tharin, and Mynir were all
there, speaking softly with an old woman in a plain, travel-stained
gown. She had a brown, wrinkled face and wore her thin grey hair in a
braid over one shoulder. Was this the "she" Brother had
spoken of? She looked like a peasant. Mistaking
his hesitation for fear, Nari took his hand. "Don't be afraid,"
she whispered, leading him down. "Mistress lya is a friend of
your father's, and a great wizard. And look who she's brought with
her!" As Tobin
came closer, he saw that there was another stranger hanging back in
the shadows behind the old woman. lya said something over her
shoulder and this one came forward into the light. It was a
boy. Tobin's
heart sank. This must be the companion they'd promised him. They
hadn't forgotten about that after all, even though he had. The boy was
taller than he was, and looked older. His tunic was embroidered, but
frayed at the hems and patched under one arm. His shoes were stained
and his trousers were bound from ankle to knee with twine. Nari would
have scolded Tobin for being so poorly turned out. The boy looked
Tobin's way just then, and the firelight struck his face. His skin
was ruddy from the sun, and his thick brown hair fell in ragged bangs
over his forehead. His dark eyes were -wide now with trepidation as
he looked around the hall. Tobin braced for the worst as Nari urged
him into the light. Did this boy already know he was odd? As soon as
the boy noticed him, however, he made Tobin a quick, clumsy bow. Tharin gave
him a reassuring smile. "Prince Tobin, this is Kirothius, son of
Sir Larenth of Oakmount Stead at Co-lath. He's come to be your
companion." Tobin
returned the bow, then held up his hand for the warrior's clasp as
his father had taught him. Kirothius managed a small smile as he
gripped it. His palm felt like a soldier's: hard and callused. 'Welcome to
the house of my father," said Tobin. "I am honored—"
It took a moment to summon the rest of the host's ritual greeting;
he'd never had to offer it by himself before. "I am honored to
offer you the hospitality of my hearth, Kirothius, son of Larenth." 'I am
honored to accept, Prince Tobin." Kirothius ducked his head
again in a half bow. His front teeth were big and stuck out a little. Tharin gave
him a wink and Tobin felt a stab of jealousy. His friend already
seemed to approve of this newcomer. 'And this
is Mistress lya," said Arkoniel, introducing the old woman.
"I've told you a little about her, my prince. She is my teacher,
just as I am yours." 'I am most
glad to make your acquaintance, Prince Tobin," lya said, bowing.
"Arkoniel had written me many good things about you." 'Thank you,
Mistress." Tobin felt held by her eyes and voice. She might
dress like a peasant, but there was an air of power about her that
made him tremble a little. All the
same, when she smiled he saw kindness and a hint of amusement in her
colorless eyes as she placed a hand on the new boy's shoulder. "I
hope that young Kirothius here will serve you well. He prefers to be
called Ki, by the way, if you have no objection?" 'No,
Mistress lya. Welcome to the house of my father," Tobin replied,
bowing again. The instant
the words left his lips the room went cold and Brother came down the
stairs like a hurricane, whipping new tapestries from the walls and
scattering sparks from the hearth across the rushes in great swirling
clouds. Ki cried out as an ember struck his cheek, then jumped to
stand between Tobin and the fire. With the
wind came a deep, slow throbbing sound, like the beating of a huge
drum. Tobin had never heard such a sound; it went through him and
shook his heart in his chest. A loud buzzing noise filled his ears—it
reminded him of something bad but he couldn't quite recall what. The wizard
woman stood calmly in the midst of it all with nothing but her lips
moving. Brother, no more than a dark blur of motion, flung a bench at
her, but it veered away and toppled over on its side. Brother
whirled on Ki then and yanked on his cloak, trying to pull him into
the fire. Tobin grabbed at the older boy's arm as Ki fought to untie
the lacings at his throat. They came free and both boys tumbled
backward as the cloak pulled free and disappeared into the rafters. As Tobin
righted himself he caught the look of terror in Ki's eyes and the
sight burned him with shame. Now
he's sure to hate me! he thought, knowing it was his fault for
being so careless. He never should have gone to sleep without sending
Brother away. Turning away from the others, he whispered, "Blood
my blood, flesh my flesh, bone my bone. Go away, Brother. Leave them
alone!" The wind
dropped instantly. The furniture stopped moving and silence fell over
the room. The beautiful new newel post at the bottom of the staircase
split down the middle with a loud crack that made them all jump, then
Brother was gone. When Tobin
turned around again, both wizards were watching him as if they knew
what he'd been doing. lya stared at him for a long moment, then said
something to Arkoniel, too low for Tobin to hear. Ki got up
and offered Tobin a hand. "Are you hurt, Prince Tobin?" A
blister was already rising on his cheek. 'No." Ki was
staring at Tobin, too, but he didn't look angry. "So that was
your ghost?" 'He does
that sometimes. I'm sorry." Tobin wanted to say something more,
something to keep that warm, amazed smile aimed at him. "I don't
think he'll hurt you again." 'We were
not expecting guests, Mistress," Mynir was saying to lya, as if
nothing had happened. "I hope you will not think poorly of our
house. We'd have readied a feast if we'd known." lya patted the
old steward's arm. "We're no strangers to the duke's
hospitality. Whatever you have will please us very well. Is Catilan
still running the kitchen?" They all
chattered on like they were old friends and had known each other for
a long time. Tobin didn't like this at all. Nothing had felt right
since the first wizard had arrived. Now there were two of them, and
Brother hated lya even more than Arkoniel. Tobin had felt that during
the brief attack. He was
certain that this was the "she" of his dreams, the one
who'd made Brother weep blood. Yet Nari had claimed lya was a friend
of his father's, and treated her like an honored guest. He was
tempted to call Brother back, just to see what would happen. Before he
could, however, he noticed the other boy watching him. Ki looked away
quickly and so did Tobin, embarrassed without knowing why. C,'he
steward insisted that Cook serve dinner in the hall at the high
table, even though Tobin's father was not at home. Brother had
knocked down the new canopy, but that was soon put right. Tobin had
to sit in his father's place, between lya and the new companion, and
Tharin served as carver and butler for them. Tobin wanted to talk to
Ki and put him at ease, but found himself completely tongue-tied. Ki
was silent, too, and Tobin saw him stealing uneasy glances around the
hall and at him during each successive course. Tobin kept one eye out
for Brother through the meal, but the spirit heeded his command. The adults
didn't seem to notice his discomfort, chattering on among themselves.
Nari, Arkoniel, and lya were talking about people Tobin had never
heard his nurse mention before, and he felt another pang of jealousy.
As soon as the last fruit tart had been dispatched, he excused
himself, intending to retreat upstairs. But Ki rose, too, clearly
meaning to follow. Perhaps this was what companions were supposed to
do. Tobin changed direction and went outside into the front courtyard
instead, with the older boy tagging along behind. A ruddy
autumn moon was climbing the sky, bright enough to cast shadows in
the courtyard. Alone with
this stranger, Tobin felt more awkward than ever. He wished he'd
stayed in the hall now, but knew it would look too silly to go back
in so soon with Ki trailing him like a duckling. They stood
there awhile in silence. Then Ki looked up at the keep and said,
"Your house is very grand, Prince Tobin." 'Thank you.
What's yours like?" 'Oh, about
like your barracks here." The frayed
edges on the boy's tunic caught his eye again. "Is your father a
poor man?" The words were out of his mouth before it occurred to
him that this might be taken as an insult. But Ki just
shrugged. "We're not rich, that's for certain. My
great-great-grandmother was married to one of Queen Klie's kin and
had lands of her own. But there's been so many of us since that no
one has claim to that anymore. That's the trouble in my family,
Father says; we're too hot in our passions. Those of us that don't
get killed in battle breed like conies. In our house the young ones
sleep in a big pile on the floor like puppies, there's so many of
us." Tobin had
never heard of such a thing. "How many of you are there?" 'Fourteen
brothers and twelve sisters living, counting all the bastards." Tobin
wanted to know what a bastard was and why they would be counted
differently than the rest, but Ki was still talking. "I'm one of
the younger ones, from the third wife, and our new mama is kindling
again. The five oldest fight in your uncle's army now, with our
father," he added proudly. 'I'm going
to be a warrior, too," Tobin told him. "I'll be a great
lord like my father and fight the Plenimarans on land and sea." 'Well, of
course! You being a prince and all." 'I suppose
you could come with me and be my squire. You'd be a knight, like
Tharin." The older
boy stuck his hands under his belt like a grown man and nodded. "Sir
Ki? I like the sound of that. Not much chance of that back home." There was
that smile again, making Tobin feel all funny inside. "Why do
you prefer being called Ki?" he asked. 'That's
what everyone calls me back home. Kirothius is too damn long—"
He stopped, looking embarrassed. "Begging your pardon, Tobin! I
mean prince—! That is, my prince. Oh hell!" Tobin
giggled with guilty delight. He wasn't allowed to curse and swear;
Nari said it was common. But Tharin's men did when they thought he
wasn't listening. "You can just call me Tobin. Everyone else
does most of the time." 'Well—"
Ki looked around nervously. "I better call you Prince Tobin when
anyone else is around. Father said he'd make sure I got a beating if
he got word I was disrespectful." 'I wouldn't
let him!" Tobin exclaimed. No one ever struck Tobin except
Brother. "We'll just tell him that I gave you my permission.
Since I'm a prince, he'll have to obey me. I think." 'That's all
right then," Ki said, relieved. 'Do you
want to see my horse?" In the
stable Ki climbed the side of Gosi's stall and let out a whistle of
appreciation. "He's a beauty, all right. I seen lots of these
Aurenfaie at the Horse Fair at Ero. What kind of 'faie did you get
him from?" 'How do you
mean?" 'Well,
there's all kinds of them, depending on what part of Aurenen they're
from. The people, I mean, not the horses. You can tell 'em apart by
the colors of their sen'gai." 'Their
what?" 'Those
colored head cloths they wear." 'Oh, those.
I saw some Aurenfaie wizards once," Tobin told him, glad at last
to seem a little worldly. Ki was only a poor knight's son, but he'd
been to Ero and knew about horses. "They did magic and played
music. And they had marks on their faces. Designs." 'That'd be
Khatme or Ky'arin clan, I bet. They're the only ones that do that,
far as I know." They
wandered back out to the barracks yard, where Tobin spied the wooden
swords he and Tharin had used earlier in the day. "I think
you're supposed to practice with me. Want to try now?" With some
common ground established at last, they saluted each other and
started in. But Ki didn't fight in careful drills like Tharin did. He
swung hard and moved in aggressively, as if they were really
fighting. Tobin fought back as best he could until Ki caught him a
sharp blow across the hand. Tobin yelped and stuck his fingers in his
mouth without thinking to call "hold." Ki lunged
in and poked him in the belly. "I call a kill!" Tobin
grunted and grabbed at his middle with his wounded hand, trying not
to let on how embarrassed he was. "You're much better than I
am." Ki grinned
and clapped him on the shoulder. "Well, I had all them brothers
and sisters to teach me, and Father, too. You
should see me after a practice with them! Bruises all over. My sister
Cytra split my lip wide open last year. I bawled like a cut shoat
when my stepmother sewed it up. Look, you can still see the scar over
on the left side." Tobin
leaned close and squinted at the small white line that crossed Ki's
upper lip. 'That's a
nice one, too." Ki touched his thumb to the scar on Tobin's
chin. "It looks just like Illior's moon. Bet that makes it
lucky. How'd you get it?" Tobin
jerked back. "I—I fell." He wished
that Ki was right about the scar being lucky, but he was certain it
wasn't. Just thinking about it made him feel bad. 'Well,
don't fret yourself," said Ki. "You're just not used to my
way of righting. I'll learn—ah, teach you, if you like. I'll go
slow, too. Promise." He touched his sword to his brow and gave
Tobin a bucktoothed grin. "Shall we go again, my prince?" The bad
feeling quickly passed as he and Ki began again. This boy was
different than anyone he'd ever met, except maybe Tharin. Even though
he was older and obviously knew more of the world than Tobin, there
was nothing behind his eyes or smile that didn't match what he said.
Tobin felt all strange inside when Ki grinned at him, but it was a
good feeling, like the way he'd felt in his dream where Brother was
alive. Ki kept his
word, too. He went more slowly this time, and tried to explain what
he was doing and how Tobin could defend himself. In this way, Tobin
saw that he was using the same thrusts and guards that Tharin had
taught him. They
started slow, stepping through the positions, but soon Tobin found
himself having to work to keep his guard up. Their wooden blades
clacked together like a heron's beak, and their shadows jumped and
darted like moths in the moonlight. Ki was the
more aggressive fighter, but he didn't have the control that Tharin
had instilled in Tobin. Ducking a wild swing, Tobin lunged forward
and struck Ki across the ribs. The older boy dropped his sword and
collapsed in an ungainly heap at his feet. 'I'm slain,
Your Highness!" he gasped, pretending to hold his guts in. "Send
my ashes home to my father!" Tobin had
never seen anything like this, either. It was so absurd that he
laughed, hesitantly at first out of surprise, then louder because it
felt so good when Ki joined in. 'Damn your
ashes!" Tobin giggled, feeling giddy and wicked. This
started Ki laughing again and their voices echoed together off the
courtyard walls. Ki made faces, screwing up his eyes and hanging his
tongue out of the side of his mouth. Tobin laughed so hard his sides
hurt and his eyes watered. 'By the
Four, what a racket!" Tobin
turned to find Nari and Tharin watching them from the gateway. 'You
haven't hurt him, have you, Tobin?" Nari demanded. Tharin
chuckled. "What do you say, Ki? Will you live?" Ki
scrambled to his feet and bowed, "Yes, Sir Tharin." 'Come
along, you two," Nari said, shooing them toward the door. "Ki's
had a long ride and you've been feeling ill, Tobin. It's time you
were both off to bed." Tobin
stifled the sudden urge to shout, "Damn your bed!" settling
instead for an exchanged smirk with Ki. As they headed back into the
house, he heard Tharin chuckle again and whisper to Nari, "You
have been exiled too long, girl, if you don't recognize play when you
see it!" JLt wasn't
until they reached Tobin's door that he realized Ki was to share both
his chamber and his bed. Ki's small traveling bundle lay on the
disused chest where Tobin had the doll hidden, and an unfamiliar bow
and quiver leaned in the corner next to his own. 'But, he
can't!" Tobin whispered, tugging Nari back out into the
corridor. What would Brother do? And what if Ki found the doll or saw
him with it? 'Now, now.
You're too old for a nurse," Nari murmured. "A boy your age
should have been sharing a room with a companion long since."
She rubbed at her eyes, and Tobin saw she was trying not to cry. "I
should have told you, I know, pet, but I didn't think he'd get here
so soon and— Well, this is the way it must be." She was
using her firm voice now, the one that warned there was no use in
arguing. "I'll sleep down in the hall now, with the others. Just
call down if you need me, like you always do when you're in bed
before me." Ki must
have heard them. When Tobin and Nari came back in, he was standing in
the middle of the room looking uncertain again. Nari bustled over to
the bed and went to put his bundle away in the chest. "We'll
just stow your things in here. Tobin doesn't—-" 'No!"
Tobin cried. "No, you can't put that in there." 'Tobin,
shame on you!" Ki had his
head down now, looking as if he wanted to sink into the floor. 'No, it's
just— I have ink jars in there," he explained hastily. The
words came easily, being true. The doll was hidden in the flour sack
under a heap of parchments and his drawing tools. "There's ink
and pens and wax and things. They'd soil his clothes. There's lots of
room in the wardrobe, though. Put your things in with mine, Ki. We
can share. Like—like brothers!" He felt his
face go hot. Where had those last words come from? But Ki was smiling
again and Nari looked pleased. Nari put
Ki's few belongings into the wardrobe and made them wash their teeth
and faces. Tobin stripped down to his shirt and climbed into bed, but
Ki seemed hesitant again. 'Go on,
lad," Nari urged. "Strip off and get in. I put a warm brick
down the end to take the chill off." 'I don't
strip off to sleep," Ki told her. 'That's all
well and good for country folk, but you're in a noble house now, so
the sooner you learn our ways, the better for you." Ki mumbled
something else as his cheeks flamed. 'What's the
matter, boy?" 'I don't
have a shirt," Ki told her. 'No shirt?"
Nari clucked her tongue. "Well now, I'll go find you one. But
see that you skin out of those dusty things before I get back. I
don't want your road dirt in the clean linens." She lit the
night lamp and blew out the others. Then she kissed Tobin soundly on
the cheek, and Ki, too, making him blush again. He waited
until the door had closed behind her, then pulled off his tunic and
trousers and hurried under the covers to keep warm. As he got in,
Tobin saw that Ki's slender body was almost as brown as his face,
except for a band of pale skin around his hips and privates. 'How come
you're only white there?" asked Tobin, whose own body was fair
as new butter summer and winter. Shivering,
Ki snuggled in next to him. "We wear clouts, swimming. There's
snapper turtles in the river and you don't want them biting off your
diddler!" Tobin
giggled again, though more at the oddness of having a stranger in
Nari's place than what Ki had said. Nari returned with one of
Tharin's old shirts and Ki struggled into it under the covers. Nari kissed
them both again and went out, shutting the door softly behind her. Both boys
lay quiet for a while, watching the play of lamplight on the carved
beams overhead. Ki was still shivering. 'Are you
cold?" asked Tobin, shifting away from a sharp elbow. 'You're
not?" Ki said through chattering teeth. "Well, I guess
you're used to it." 'Used to
what?" 'Sleeping
bare, or almost, with just one person for warmth. Like I told you
before, my brothers and me sleep all together in our clothes. It's
nice, mostly, especially in winter." He sighed. " 'Course,
Amin gets the farts, which makes it that much warmer." Both boys
dissolved into laughter again, shaking the bed. 'I've never
heard anyone talk like you!" Tobin gasped, wiping his eyes on
the edge of the sheet. 'Oh, I'm a
bad character. Ask anyone. Hey, what's that?" He pushed back
Tobin's left sleeve to inspect the birthmark. "Did you burn
yourself?" 'No, I've
always had it. Father says it's a sign I'm wise." 'Oh, yeah?
Like this." Ki hauled down the covers and showed Tobin a brown
spot on his right hip the size of a man's thumbprint. "Bad luck
mark, a soothsayer told my mam, but I been lucky so far. Look at me,
here with you. That's luck! Now, my sister Ahra's got one of them red
ones like yours on her left tit. A wizard she showed it to down in
Erind claimed it means she's feisty and sharp-tongued, so I guess he
must have known how to read marks better. She's got a voice can
curdle vinegar when she's riled up." He pulled the covers up
again and sighed. "She treated me good, though, mostly. That's
her old quiver I come with. It's got cuts on it from Plenimaran
swords, and a stain she claims is blood!" 'Really?" 'Yeah. I'll
show you tomorrow." As they
drifted off to sleep at last, Tobin decided that having a companion
might not be such a bad thing after all. Caught up in thoughts of
sisters and battles, he didn't notice the dark shape lurking unbidden
in the far corner. Brother
woke Tobin sometime later with a cold touch on his chest. When Tobin
opened his eyes, the ghost was standing next to the bed, pointing
across the room at the chest where the doll was hidden. Tobin could
feel Ki's warm, bony back pressed against his own, but he also saw
him kneeling in front of the chest. Tobin
shivered as he watched the boy open the lid and take out a few
things, examining them with curiosity. Tobin knew this was a vision.
Brother had shown him things before, like the dying fox, and they
were never nice. When Ki found the doll, his expression changed to
one Tobin knew all too well. Then the
scene shifted. It was daylight now; lya and Arkoniel were there with
Ki, and Father, too. They put the doll down on the chest and cut it
open with long knives, and it bled. Then they took it away, looking
back at him with expressions of such sadness and disgust that his
face burned. The vision
vanished, but the fear remained. As much as the thought of losing the
doll terrified him, the look on everyone's faces—especially his
father's and Ki's—filled him with grief and desperation. Brother was
still there beside the bed, touching his chest and Tobin's, and Tobin
knew he'd shown him a true thing. Nari had never bothered with the
old chest before. Ki was going to find the doll and everything would
be ruined. He lay very
still, his heart beating so loudly in his ears he could hardly hear
Ki's soft breathing behind him. What could he do? Send
him away, hissed Brother. Tobin
thought about what it had felt like to laugh with Ki and shook his
head. "No," he replied, barely making a sound with his
mouth. He didn't have to. Brother always heard him. "And don't
you ever try to hurt him again! I have to hide it somewhere else.
Somewhere no one will find it." Brother
disappeared. Tobin looked around and found him by the chest,
motioning to him. Tobin slid
out of bed and crept across the cold floor, praying Ki wouldn't wake
up. The lid rose by itself as he reached for it. For an instant he
imagined Brother slamming it down on him for spite as he reached in,
but he didn't. Tobin eased the flour sack out from under the rustling
parchments and tiptoed into the corridor. It was very
late. No light showed at the staircase leading to the hall. The
corridor lamp had gone out, but patches of moonlight gave him enough
light to see by. Brother
wasn't showing himself now. Tobin hugged the doll to his chest,
wondering where to go. Arkoniel was still sleeping in the toy room
next door, and would soon occupy the newly repaired rooms upstairs,
so that was no good. There was nowhere downstairs that someone
wouldn't look, either. Perhaps he could get outside again into the
forest and find some dry hole nearby? But no, the doors would all be
barred and besides, there might be catamounts in the forest at night.
Tobin shivered miserably. His bare feet ached -with cold and he had
to piss. A creak of
hinges came from the far end of the corridor as the door to the third
floor swung open, shining like silver in the moonlight. The doorway
beyond was a black mouth waiting to swallow him up. Yes, there
was one place, a place no one could go
except Brother. And him. Brother
appeared in the open doorway. He looked at Tobin, then turned and
disappeared up the dark stairs. Tobin followed, stubbing his bare
toes on steps he could not see. In the
upstairs corridor moonlight streamed in through the new rosette
windows, casting pools of black and silver lace on the walls. It took all
his courage to approach the tower door; he thought he could feel his
mother's angry spirit standing just on the other side, glaring at him
right through the wood. He stopped a few feet away, heart beating so
hard it hurt to breathe. He wanted to turn and run away but he
couldn't move, not even when he heard the lock give. The door swung
slowly open to reveal— Nothing. His mother
was not standing there. Neither was Brother. It was dark inside, so
dark that the lacy moonlight faded to a murky glow just a few inches
inside. A current of cold, stale air crawled around his ankles. Come,
Brother whispered from the darkness. ,' can't!
Tobin thought, but somehow he was already following that voice. He
found the first worn stone step with his toes and put his foot on it.
The door closed behind him, shutting out the light. The spell that
held Tobin broke. He dropped the doll and scrabbled for the door
handle. The metal was so cold it burned his palm. The wooden door
panels felt as if they were covered with frost as he beat his hands
against them. The door wouldn't budge. Upstairs,
Brother urged. Tobin
slumped against the door, breathing in panicky sobs. "Flesh my
flesh," he managed at last. "Blood my blood, bone my bone,"
and there was Brother at the base of the stairs, dressed in a ragged
nightshirt and holding out his hand for Tobin to follow. When he
didn't move, Brother squatted down in front of him, peering into his
face. For the first time, Tobin saw that Brother had the same little
crescent-shaped scar on his chin that Tobin did. Then Brother opened
the neck of his shirt, showing Tobin that he had another scar, as
well. Tobin could see two thin vertical lines of stitching on
Brother's chest, very close together,
perhaps three inches long. It reminded Tobin of the seams on his
mother's dolls, but the stitches were even finer, and the skin was
puckered and bloody around them. That
must hurt, Tobin thought. It
does, all the time, whispered Brother, and one bloody tear fell
down his cheek before he disappeared again, taking all illusion of
light with him. Feeling his
way blindly, Tobin found the bag and slid his feet across the stone
floor until he found the first step again. The darkness made him
dizzy, so he crawled up the stairs on his hands and knees, dragging
the bag beside him. His bladder was so full it hurt, but he didn't
quite dare let go here in the darkness. As he
climbed higher he realized that he could see a few stars through the
arrow slits above. This gave him his bearings and he hurried up the
last few steps to find the upper door standing open for him, just as
he'd expected. All he had to do now was hide the doll. Then he could
find a chamber pot or even an open window and go back to bed. The room
was full of moonlight. Brother had opened the shutters. The few times
Tobin had let himself think of this room, he remembered a cozy little
chamber with tapestries on the walls and dolls on a table. This was a
shambles. His memories of his last visit here were still fragmentary,
but the sight of a broken chair leg stirred something dark and
hurtful deep in his chest. His
mother had brought him up here because she was scared of the king. She
had jumped out the window because she was so scared. She'd
wanted him to jump, too. Tobin
inched inside and saw that only the window facing west toward the
mountains was open. The
same window— That's
where the light came from. He moved to stand before it, as if the
moon's white glow could protect him from all the shadowy fears
building around him. His foot struck a broken chair back, then trod
on a soft lump. It was a doll's arm. He'd watched his mother make
hundreds. Someone— Brother
—had strewn his mother's things all over the floor. Bolts of
cloth were thrown into a corner and mice had chewed holes in the
little bales of stuffing wool. Turning slowly, he searched in vain
for her fine boy dolls among the wreckage, but he couldn't see any,
just bits and lumps and rags. Something,
a spool of thread perhaps, tinkled to the floor and Tobin jumped. 'Mama?"
he croaked, praying she was there. Praying she
wasn't. Not knowing
which face she would show now that she was dead. He heard
another little thud and a rat scampered across the floor with a
mouthful of wool. Tobin
slowly eased his aching grip on the flour sack. Brother was right.
This was the best place. Nobody came
here. Nobody
would look. He carried
the sack to a moonlit corner across from the door. Placing it on the
floor, he pulled the chair back over it and then piled some of the
musty cloth over that. Dust motes rose in firefly clouds to choke
him. There.
That's done. The task
had held his fear at bay, but as he got to his feet again he felt it
flooding back. He turned hastily for the door, trying not to think
about having to go down those steep stairs in the dark. His mother
stood silhouetted in the open window. He knew her by the shape of her
shoulders and the way her hair fell loose around them. He could not
see her face to read her eyes or the lines around her mouth. He
didn't know if this was the good or the frightening mother taking a
step toward him, holding out her arms. For an
instant Tobin hung suspended in time and horror. She threw
no shadow. She made no
sound. She smelled
of flowers. That was
the window she had tried to throw him out of. She had dragged him
there, sobbing and cursing the king. She had
pushed him out, but someone else pulled him back and he'd banged his
chin on the sill— The memory
tasted like blood. Then
somehow he was in motion, dashing out the door, blundering down the
stairs, one hand pressed to the rough stone wall, feeling the dry
crusts of bird droppings and parched lichen flaking off beneath his
fingers. He heard a sob and a slam behind him but refused to look
back. He could see all the way to the bottom of the stairs now,
guided by a rectangle of moonlight where the tower door stood open.
He rushed headlong through it and flung it shut, not waiting to see
if the latch caught, not caring if anyone heard. He fled downstairs,
deafened by the ragged rush of his own frantic lungs, only dimly
aware that his nightshirt and legs were wet. The realization that
he'd wet himself halted him just outside his own room. He didn't even
remember doing it. He fought
back fresh tears, berating himself for such weakness. Slipping in, he
listened to be certain Ki was still sleeping, then pulled off the
soiled shirt and used a sleeve and the cold water left in the basin
to clean himself. He found his other shirt in the wardrobe, then
carefully climbed back into bed. He tried not to shake the mattress,
but Ki jerked awake with a frightened gasp, staring wide-eyed down
the bed. Brother
stood there, glaring back at him. Tobin
gripped the older boy's shoulder, trying to keep him from crying out.
"Don't be scared, Ki, he won't—" Ki turned
to him with a shaky little laugh. "Bilairy's balls, it's only
you! For a minute I thought it was that ghost of yours crawling into
the bed. You're cold enough to be one." Tobin
glanced at Brother, then back at Ki. He couldn't see Brother standing
there hating him. He didn't have the eye. Even so, Ki
looked as scared as if he had as he asked, "Can I tell you
something, Prince Tobin?" Tobin
nodded. Ki fiddled
with the edge of the quilt. "When old lya told me about the
ghost, I almost ran for home, even though I knew my father'd beat me
and put me on the road. I almost did. And then, when the ghost
started throwing things around downstairs tonight? I nearly pissed
myself I was so scared. But you just stood there, like it didn't even
matter…" He hugged his arms around his drawn-up knees. "I
guess what I'm trying to say is that my father didn't raise any
cowards. I'm not feared of anything, except ghosts, and I can stand
that to serve someone as brave as you. If you'll still have me." He
thinks I'm going to send him away. In that instant of
recognition, Tobin nearly blurted it all out, about Brother and the
doll and his mother and the wet nightshirt in a heap by the door. But
the worshipful look in the older boy's eyes sealed the words behind
his teeth. Instead, he
just shrugged and said, "Everyone's afraid of him, even
Arkoniel. I'm used to him, that's all." He wanted to promise Ki
that Brother wouldn't hurt him again, but he wasn't sure of that yet
and didn't want to lie. Ki got up
on his knees and touched his forehead and heart in the soldier's
salute. "Well, I still say you're brave, and if you'll accept my
service, then I swear by Sakor and Illior that I'm your man until
death." 'I accept,"
Tobin replied, feeling silly and proud at the same time. Ki had no
sword to offer him, so they clasped hands on it and he flopped back
down beside Tobin and burrowed under the covers. Young as he
was, Tobin understood that something important had passed between
them. Until death, Ki had said. This conjured images of them riding
side by side under his father's banner on some distant battlefield. So long as
the doll stayed hidden. So long as no one ever found out what was up
there in the tower. Mama
is up there, locked in the tower. The night's
horror closed in around him again and he turned his back against
Ki's, glad not to be alone. He would never go there again. She was
there, waiting to catch him. But the tower was locked and Brother
wouldn't let anyone else in. Brother had
warned him and his secret was safe. Now he would never see Ki looking
at him with the face Brother had shown him in the vision. 'Tobin?"
A sleepy mumble. 'What'" 'You say
that ghost of yours is a he?" 'Yes. I
call him Brother." 'Huh…
I'd heard tell it was a girl." 'Huh." Ki's soft
snore lulled Tobin to sleep, and he dreamed of riding east with Ki to
find Ero and the sea. A fter the
household had settled for the night, Arkoniel -iYtook lya outside to
walk in the meadow, just as he and Rhius had two months before. There
had been bats and fireflies that night, and the song of frogs. Tonight the
meadow and forest were silent except for the hunting cries of owls in
the moonlight. It was very cold, and the wizards' shadows fell
sharp-edged across frost-coated grass as they followed one of the
paths the workers had worn along the riverbank. The forest and peaks
glimmered white around them. In the distance, a few fires still
glowed in front of the handful of tents left at the bottom of the
meadow. Most of the workmen had finished their tasks. The rest would
soon be gone, as well, anxious to return to the city before the snow
fell. Arkoniel's
encounter with Lhel earlier in the day weighed heavily on his mind.
As they walked he tried to find the proper words to explain what had
happened. 'What do
you think of your new occupation?" she asked before he could
broach the subject. 'I don't
think I'm much of a teacher. Tobin cares nothing for learning or me,
as far as I can tell. It's all warcraft and hunting with him. All he
talks of is being a warrior." Even alone here they were careful
to refer to Tobin as "he" and "him." 'So you
dislike him?" 'Not in the
least!" Arkoniel exclaimed. "He's intelligent, and a
wonderful artist. You should see the little figures he makes. I think
we're the happiest together when we're watching the craftsmen and
builders." lya
chuckled. "Then it's not 'all warcraft and hunting' after all? A
clever teacher would find a way to make use of such interests.
There's a great deal of mathematics in building a sound arch or
planning a mural. The compounding of colors is practically alchemy.
And to create the shapes of living things, one ought to have a sound
knowledge of them." Arkoniel
raised his hands in surrender. "Yes, I see I've been a complete
mole. I'll try to make a fresh start with him." 'Don't
judge yourself too harshly, my boy. This isn't a young wizard you're
training, after all, but a noble. Even as ruler, Tobin will never
need the sort of education that we do. Half the Palatine can't write
much more than their names. I must say I admire Rhius' stand on the
matter; you still hear a good many fine lords and ladies calling it
scribe's work. Teach them all to read for themselves and you'll put
half the well-bred merchants' daughters out of an occupation. No, you
keep on with that, and give him what you can of the disciplines he
might find useful later on. Geography and history—you're well
versed in those. He should learn something of music, and dancing,
too, before he's summoned to court—" 'Have you
heard something? Do you think he will be summoned soon?" 'No, but it
must come eventually, unless Rhius is willing to paint him as an
utter idiot to the king. And that will make our task a great deal
more difficult when the moment arrives. No, I think we must assume
that it will be necessary in the due course of time. He's just
turning ten now. I'd say three years is the best we can hope
for—perhaps less, being Royal Kin." She paused, frowning.
"I pray he has time to grow up to his role before he has to step
into it. There's no way of knowing." Arkoniel
shook his head. "He's so young, so—" He groped for
the word. "Unworldly. It's difficult to imagine the fate that
weighs on those narrow little shoulders." 'Take what
the Lightbearer sends," lya replied. "Whatever happens, we
must make the best of what we are given to work with. For now, your
task is to keep him safe and happy. You'll be my eyes here from now
on. And if anything—untoward should happen with Ki…
Perhaps you shouldn't allow yourself to get too attached." 'I know.
Rhius made that a condition. It makes poor Ki sound like the pet lamb
being fattened for the Solstice feast." 'He is here
at your insistence, Arkoniel. Don't ever let that gentle heart of
yours blind you to the reality of our situation." 'I've felt
the god's touch, lya. I never forget that." She patted
his arm. "I know. Now tell me more of Tobin." 'I'm
concerned about his fear of magic." 'He fears
you?" 'Not me,
exactly, but— Well, he takes the oddest turns! When I first
arrived, for instance, I tried to entertain him with a few pretty
spells. You know, the sort of illusions that we'd do to amuse the
children of any host?" 'And he was
not amused?" 'You'd
think I'd cut off my head and thrown it at him! The one time I did
manage to please him with a vision of Ero, the demon nearly tore the
room down. I haven't dared try anything more with him since."
lya raised an eyebrow. "He must be cured of this if we are to
realize our goal. Perhaps Ki can be of some help to you there. He
liked the little tricks and illusions I showed him as we traveled."
She smiled up at him. "You haven't yet said what you think of my
choice." 'Judging by
what I saw tonight, you chose very well. I was watching him when the
demon attacked. He was terrified, but still went to Tobin instead of
running away. He already understands his duty, without even knowing
his lord." 'Rather
exceptional for one so young. Now, as for the demon, was that
unusual, what happened?" 'Not
really, though it was more severe than anything I've seen since my
arrival. I got something of the same kind of reception when I first
arrived. It said it remembered me, so it must have known you, as
well. That doesn't explain its attack on Ki, though. Has he any magic
in him?" 'No, and
it's a shame, for he might make an interesting wizard. He should do
very nicely for Tobin. Now that I've seen the child, I must admit you
were correct. He desperately needs some semblance of normal society."
lya turned back toward the keep and a frown creased her brow. "I
only hope Ki influences him, rather than the other way around. I
expected better of Rhius." 'I gather
it's been difficult for him, with the demon and Ariani's madness.
None of us foresaw that." 'Illior
brings madness, as well as insight." In the cold, pale light,
lya suddenly looked like a statue made of iron. The image struck
Arkoniel through with sadness. For the first time since he'd known
her, he admitted to himself how hard she could be, how removed from
the common flow of humanity. He'd seen this in other wizards, a
detachment from what seemed to him normal feeling. It came of living
so long, she'd once told him, but he'd tried hard to not see it in
her. Then she
turned to him with a sad smile and the dark fancy retreated. She was
again his patient teacher, the woman he loved as a second mother. 'Did you
see anything when the demon was present?" he asked. 'No, but I
felt it. It does remember me and it does not forgive. But I gathered
from your letter that you saw it?" 'Only once,
but as clearly as I see you now. The day I arrived here it was
waiting for me down there where the road comes out of the trees. It
looked exactly like Tobin, except for the eyes—" 'You're
wrong there." lya plucked a stalk of dead grass and twirled it
between her fingers. "It doesn't look like Tobin. Tobin looks
like it, or at least as the dead boy would have looked, had he lived.
That was the purpose of Lhel's magic, after all, to give the girl
child the semblance of her brother. Illior only knows what Tobin
actually looks like." She paused, tapping the dry stalk against
her chin. "I wonder what name he will choose, after the change?" The thought
was somewhat disorienting, but it also jarred him back to what he'd
come out here for in the first place. 'I saw Lhel
today. From what I could gather, I'd say she's been here all along." 'The witch
is here? By the Light, why didn't Nari or Rhius say something?" 'They don't
know. No one does. I don't know how, lya, but it seems she followed
the child here and lives somewhere nearby." 'I see."
lya gazed around at the forest that hemmed in the keep. "Did she
say why?" Arkoniel
hesitated, then slowly explained what had happened between the two of
them. When he reached the point where Lhel had overpowered him,
however, he faltered to a halt. The temptation had been so great;
just thinking of it now stirred the dark, thrilling guilt in him. It
had been Lhel who had stopped short of coupling, not he. 'She—she
wanted me to break celibacy, in return for learning what she had to
teach. And as payment for watching over Tobin." 'I see."
Arkoniel caught another glimpse of iron in her. "Is it your
impression that she will abandon the child if you don't comply with
her demand?" 'No, she
must make amends to her own gods somehow for creating the demon. I
don't think she could go against that. Short of killing her, I doubt
we could force her away." 'Nor should
we." lya stared at the river, lost in thought. 'I've never
told anyone this before," she said softly, "but my own
master studied the Old Magic. It's more powerful than you know." 'But it's
forbidden!" lya snorted. "So is what we are attempting,
dear boy. And why do you suppose I sought her out in the first place?
Perhaps it's the fate of the wizards of our line to do what is
forbidden when necessary. Perhaps it is what Illior intends for you." 'You mean I
should learn from her?" 'I believe
I can undo the magics she wove on Tbbin. But what if I'm wrong? What
if I die before the time comes, as Agazhar did with me? Yes, it might
be best if you learn from her what must be done, and in her way." 'But her
price?" Arkoniel's chest tightened at the thought. He tried to
believe it was purely revulsion. lya's lips
pressed into a thin line of disapproval. "Offer her something
else." 'What if
she refuses?" 'Arkoniel,
I taught you what my master taught me; that celibacy preserves our
power. I have practiced it since I undertook the craft. There are
those who stray, however, and not all of them have been weakened by
the experience. Many, but not all…" Arkoniel
felt as if the earth were opening up under his feet. "Why didn't
you ever tell me this before?" 'Why would
I? As a child you didn't need to know. And as a young man in your
prime? It was too dangerous, the temptation too real. I was nearly as
old as you are now when I began my training, and no virgin. The tides
of the flesh are strong, make no mistake, and we all feel their pull.
Once a wizard gets past the first life and feels his power strong in
him, it becomes easier to bear. The carnal pleasures pale in
comparison, I promise you." 'I will
refuse her, lya." 'You will
do what you will do, dear boy." lya took his hands between her
own and looked into his face; her skin was cold as ivory. "There's
so much more I'd hoped to teach you. Before Afra I imagined that we
had the rest of my life together. You are my successor, Arkoniel, and
the finest student I've ever had. We've known that for some time,
Illior and I." She patted the bag hanging over her shoulder.
"But Illior has other plans for you just now, as we've both
seen. For the time being you must take what lessons you can find and
make of them what you can. If Lhel can teach you, then learn from
her. Barring all else, you must keep watch and learn if she has any
ill intent toward the child." 'Your
answer is no answer at all!" Arkoniel groaned, more confused
than ever. lya
shrugged. "You're not a child anymore, or an apprentice. There
comes a time when a wizard must learn to trust his own heart. You've
been doing just that for some time now, though you don't seem to have
noticed yet." Smiling, she tapped him on the chest. "Listen
to this, my dear. I believe it to be a good, true guide." Arkoniel
felt a sudden chill of premonition. "That sounds almost like a
farewell." lya smiled sadly. "It is, but only to the boy
who was my student. The man who's stolen into his place needn't fear
losing me. I like him too much for that, and we've a great deal of
work to do together." 'But—"
Arkoniel groped for words. "How will I know the right things to
do, to help Tobin and protect him?" 'Do you
think Illior would have sent you here unless you were worthy of the
task? Now, then. Are you going to keep an old woman outdoors all
night or may we go in now?" 'Old woman,
eh? When did that happen?" Arkoniel asked, slipping his arm
through hers as they walked up the hill. 'I've been
wondering that myself." "How
long can you stay?" 'Not long,
judging from the demon's reception. How has it treated you since it
broke your arm?"
'Surprisingly well. It knocks the furniture around now and then, but
Tobin appears to have some control over it. According to Nari, it has
been much quieter since Ariani's death." 'Very odd.
You'd think it would be just the opposite. In all my years, Arkoniel,
I've never seen a spirit quite like this one. It makes one wonder…" 'What?" 'Whether it
will surprise us again when we try to break its bond with Tobin." V,'hey
returned to the keep, intending for lya to share Arkoniel's room for
the night. As soon as they set foot inside the hall, however, they
could feel the demon's malevolence closing in around them. The air
thickened perceptibly and the hearth fire guttered and burned pale. Nari and
the others of the household gathered around the hearth looked up in
alarm. 'Be
careful, lya. There's no telling what it will do," Tharin
warned. The ominous
weight of silence drew out, and then they heard something clatter
loudly to the floor at the far end of the room near the high table.
Another clatter followed and lya cast a light in the air,
illuminating the room enough to see the silver plate being knocked
from the shelves of the sideboard. One by one, platters and bowls
slid off with a thud or clank onto the rushes. Each object moved by
itself, but Arkoniel could easily imagine the wild, surly child he'd
encountered at the bottom of the meadow, watching them over its
shoulder and smiling spitefully as it reached for the next salver or
cup. The strange
performance continued, and each successive dish flew a little further
from the sideboard, veered a little more in their direction. 'That's
quite enough of that!" lya muttered. Striding down the hall, she
stopped just short of the sideboard and sketched a circle of white
light on the air before her with her crystal wand. 'What's she
doing?" asked Nari. 'I'm not
certain," Arkoniel said, trying to read the sigils lya was
inscribing into the circle. It looked something like a banishing
spell a drysian had tried to teach them, but the sigils taking shape
in the circle were not what he recalled. Perhaps lya
was mistaken in her weaving, for just then a heavy silver platter
flew from its shelf and collided with the circle. Pattern and wand
exploded in a sudden burst of blue-white fire. lya cried out,
clutching her hand to her side. Blinking
black spots from his vision, Arkoniel ran to her and pulled lya away
as the demon scattered the remaining silver around the room, then
began overturning benches. Arkoniel wrapped his arms around her and
pulled her head down, trying to shield her. Then Tharin was there,
doing the same for both of them. 'Outside!"
lya gasped, trying to push them off. They
staggered out into the courtyard with the rest of the frightened
servants, then looked back in through the open doorway to see
tapestries flying through the air. One landed on the open hearth. 'Fetch
water!" Mynir shouted. "It means to set the house afire!" 'Go to the
barracks. You can sleep there," Tharin ordered, then dashed back
into the house to aid the others. Arkoniel
helped lya to the dark barracks house. A brazier stood just inside
the door and he snapped a finger over it, kindling a small blaze.
Narrow pallets lined the walls and lya sank down on the closest one.
Arkoniel gently took her wounded hand and examined it in the
flickering light. A long red burn marked where the crystal wand had
laid against her palm. Small cuts and fragments of the wand peppered
her fingers and knuckles. 'It's not
as bad as it looks," lya said, letting him pick out the shards
of crystal. 'Yes, it
is. Lie down. I'll go get a few things and come right back." He ran back
into the hall and found Cook and the others flailing at a smoking
tapestry and kicking smoldering rushes onto the hearth. 'Douse!"
Arkoniel ordered, clapping his hands sharply and spreading his palms
over the floor. The last of the sparks fizzled
out, leaving a stinking cloud in their wake, "lya's hurt. I need
simples for a burn, and clean rags for binding." Cook
fetched what he needed, and Tharin followed him out to the barracks
to oversee the binding of lya's hand. 'What
happened?" the captain demanded. "What was it you were
trying to do?" lya winced as Arkoniel bathed her hand in a
basin. "Something rather unwise, it would seem." Tharin
waited, giving her the opportunity to elucidate. When she didn't, he
nodded and said, "You'd best stay out here tonight. I'll sleep
in the hall." 'Thank
you." She looked up from Arkoniel's work. "What are you
doing here, Tharin? Rhius is at Atyion, isn't he?" 'I'm Prince
Tobin's swordmaster. I've stayed behind to continue his training."
"Indeed, Tharin?" Something
in the way lya said this made Arkoniel pause and look up. 'I've known
you since you and Rhius were boys together. Tell me how Rhius fares.
I've been away too long and feel like a stranger." Tharin
rubbed a hand over his short beard. "He's had a rough time of
it, as you might imagine. It was hard before, and losing Ariani in
such a way—not just her death, but having her mad all those
years after the birth, and hat ing him." He shook his head. "I
can't for the life of me understand why she blamed him for that child
dying, or why she took it so hard. I don't mean to speak ill of the
dead, lya, but I think there was more of her mother in her than
anyone ever guessed. Some say that's why the dead child haunts the
living one, though I don't put any stock in that." 'What else
do people say?" 'Oh, all
sorts of things." 'For the
sake of the child, tell me. You know it will go no further with us." Tharin
looked down at his scarred hands. "There are those who say that
Rhius found out he wasn't the father and killed one of the babes
before anyone could stop him; that that's why the dead child haunts,
and why he keeps Tobin away from court." 'What
nonsense! How is the duke managing at court?" 'The king
keeps him close, as always. He calls Rhius 'brother,' but—
Things have been a bit strained between them since she died, though a
good deal of that seems to be on Rhius' side. He's cleared out of his
rooms at the New Palace and gone back to Atyion. He can't even bear
to be here anymore." 'That's not
fair to the child." Tharin
looked up at them and, for the first time, Arkoniel saw a shadow of
pain and guilt there. "I know that and I told him so. That's
part of the reason I was sent back, if you must know. I haven't told
anyone here at the keep, for fear it would get back to Tobin. It
would break his heart and it's about broken mine." lya took his
hand in her good one. "You've always spoken to Rhius like a
brother, Tharin. I can't imagine that you've fallen too far out of
his graces. I'll speak to him about it when I meet him." Tharin rose
to go. "You don't need to. This will pass. Good night to you."
lya watched him go, then shook her head. "I've often regretted
not telling him." Arkoniel
nodded. "I feel it more strongly the longer I'm here." 'Let's
leave things as they are for now." lya flexed her bandaged hand
and winced. "I can ride with this. I think I'll be off tomorrow.
I want to see Ero again, and have a word with Rhius." 'Ero?
That's walking into the wolves' own den. You're sure to meet with
Harriers there." 'No doubt,
but they need looking into. I wish Illior had given us a glimpse of
them when this whole thing started. Don't
fret, Arkoniel. I'll be careful." 'More
careful than you were in the hall just now, I hope. What happened?" 'I don't
know, exactly. When I first arrived tonight and it attacked I felt
the circle of protection I'd cast bow like a tent wall in a high
wind. Just now I thought something stronger was called for and
attempted to push it from the room and seal the hall against it until
morning." "Did you make an error in the pattern?" "No,
the spell was laid out properly. But it didn't work, as you saw. As I
said earlier, this spirit is unlike anything I've ever encountered. I
wish I had more time to study it, but as things stand it would be too
disruptive for the children. I don't even dare go back in the house.
I would like to see Tobin again before I go, though. Will you bring
him to me in the morning? Alone, this time." 'Of course.
But I wouldn't expect it to be a long conversation if I were you.
He's not easily drawn." lya lay down on the pallet and chuckled.
"I could see that much at a glance. By the Light, you do have
your work cut out for you!" ~T7~i
was at the open window when Tobin woke the next JLVmorning. He stood
with his chin on one hand, picking absently at a patch of lichen on
the sill with long, restless fingers. He looked younger in daylight,
and sad. 'Do you
miss your family?" Ki's head
jerked up. "You must be a wizard, too. You can read thoughts."
But he smiled as he said it. "It's awful quiet here, isn't it?" Tobin sat
up and stretched. "Father's men make a lot of noise when they're
here. But they're all at Atyion now." 'I've been
there." Ki hitched himself up on the sill, bare legs dangling
under the hem of his shirt. "At least I've ridden past it on the
way to the city. Your castle is the biggest in Skala, outside of Ero.
How many rooms does it have?" 'I don't
know. I've never been there." Seeing Ki's eyebrows shoot up, he
added, "I've never been anywhere except here and Alestun. I was
born at the Palace but I don't remember it." 'You don't
go visiting? We have family all over the place and go guest with
them. If my uncle were the king, I'd want to go to Ero all the time.
There's music there, and dancing, and players in the street and—"
He broke off. "Oh, because of the demon?" 'I don't
know. Mama didn't like to go anywhere. And Father says there's plague
in the cities." It occurred to Tobin that Ki had survived his
travels well enough. He shrugged. "I've always just been here." Ki twisted
around to look out the window. "Well, what do you
do for fun? I bet you don't have to mend walls or tend pigs!" Tobin
grinned. "No, Father has tenants to do those things. I train
with Tharin and go hunting in the forest. And I have a toy city my
father made for me, but Arkoniel's in that room now so I'll have to
show you later." 'All right
then, let's go hunting." Ki slid off the sill and began looking
under the bed for his clothes. "Haw
many hounds do you have? I didn't see any in the hall last night." 'Just a few
old ones in the yard. But I don't hunt with them; dogs don't like me.
But Tharin says I'm a fine archer. I'll ask if he can take us
hunting." Brown eyes
peered at him over the edge of the bed. " Take
us? You mean you don't go by yourself?" 'I'm not to
go away from the keep alone." Ki
disappeared again and Tobin heard a sigh. "All right then. It's
not too cold to swim, or we could fish. I saw a good spot at the
bottom of the meadow." 'I've never
fished," Tobin admitted, feeling very awkward. "And I can't
swim." Ki rose up
and rested his elbows on the edge of the bed, regarding Tobin
quizzically. "How old are you?" 'I'll be
ten come the twentieth of Erasin." 'And they
don't let you have any fun on your own? Why not?" 'I don't
know, I—" 'You know
what?" Tobin shook
his head. 'Before I
left home, after lya bought me off my father, my sister told me she'd
heard of you." Tobin's
heart turned to stone in his chest. 'She said
that some folk at court say you're demon cursed, or simple in the
head, and that that's why you live clear out here instead of in Ero
or Atyion. You know what I think?" This was
it, then. Last night hadn't meant a thing after all. It was going to
be just the way he'd feared. Tobin kept his chin up and made himself
look Ki in the eye. "No. What do you think?" ',' think
the folks who say that have shit between their ears. And I think the
folks raising you are the ones simple in the head if they won't let
you outside on your own— not meaning any disrespect to Duke
Rhius, mind you." Ki gave him a teasing grin that swept away
every shadow and fear. "And I think it's well worth a beating to
get out on a day as fair as this is making up to be." 'Do you,
now?" asked Arkoniel, leaning against the door frame. Ki sat up,
blushing guiltily, but the wizard laughed. "So do I, and I don't
think it has to come to beatings. I've been talking with Nari and
Tharin. They agree that it's time Prince Tobin began following proper
boy's pursuits. With you here to accompany him, I don't think any
reasonable request will be refused so long as you don't stray too
far." Tobin
stared at the man. He knew he ought to be grateful for this sudden
change in the household rules, but he resented it coming from the
wizard. Who was Arkoniel to make such decisions, as if he was the
master of the house? 'Before you
go off on any adventures, though, my prince, lya would like to speak
with you," Arkoniel told him. "She's at the barracks. Ki,
why don't you go see what Cook has to eat? I'll meet you in the hall,
Tobin." Tobin
glared angrily at the door as it closed behind the wizard, then began
yanking on his clothes. "Who do they think they are, these
wizards, coming here and ordering me about?" 'I don't
think he was doing that," said Ki. "And don't worry about
lya. She's not so frightening as she seems." Tobin
shoved on his shoes. "I'm not scared of her." JLya was
enjoying her breakfast in a sunny corner of the barracks yard when
Arkoniel arrived with Tobin. Daylight
bore out the brief impression she'd formed the night before. The
child was thin and rather pale from too much time spent indoors, but
otherwise unmistakably male in appearance. No spell known to the
Oreska could have done more than create a glamour around the girl,
too easily detected or broken. Lhel's cruel stitching had held
perfectly. The magics sewn in with that bit of flesh had held sinew
and flesh in solid form, real as the female frame that lay hidden
beneath it. Sadly,
Tobin hadn't inherited his parents' handsome looks except for his
mother's eyes and well-shaped mouth, and even these were spoiled at
the moment by a sulky, guarded expression. Clearly, he wasn't pleased
to see her, but he made her a proper bow all the same. Too proper,
really. As Arkoniel had observed, there was little that was childlike
about this child. 'Good
morning, Prince Tobin. And how are you liking your new companion?" Tobin
brightened a little at that. "I like him very much, Mistress
lya. Thank you for bringing him." 'I must
leave today, but I wanted to speak with you before I go to visit your
father." 'You're
going to see Father?" Yearning so plain it made her heart ache
showed on the child's face. 'Yes, my
prince. May I take him a greeting from you?" 'Would you
please ask him when he's going to come home?" 'I plan to
speak to him about that. Now come and sit beside me so I may know you
better." For a
moment she thought he would refuse, but manners won out. He settled
on the stool she'd placed beside her chair, then looked curiously at
her bandaged hand. "Did you hurt yourself?" 'Your demon
was very angry with me last night. It burned my hand." 'Just as it
made my horse throw me when I first arrived," added Arkoniel. 'It
shouldn't have done that." Tobin's cheeks colored hotly as if
he'd done these things himself. 'Arkoniel,
I'd like to speak privately with the prince. Would you excuse us?" 'Of
course." 'It wasn't
your fault, my dear," lya began after Arkoniel had gone,
wondering how to draw out this strange child. When Tobin said
nothing, she took his thin, callused hand between her own and looked
deeply into his eyes. "You've had too many sorrows and frights
already in your young life. I won't tell you that there are no more
to come, but I hope things will be easier for you for a time." Still
holding his hand, she asked him about simple things at first: his
horse, his carvings, and his studies with Arkoniel and Tharin. She
did not read his thoughts, simply let the impressions come to her
through their clasped hands. Tobin answered each question she put to
him, but volunteered nothing more. 'You've
been very frightened, haven't you?" she ventured at last. "Of
your mother and the demon?" Tobin
shuffled his feet, drawing twin arcs in the dust with the toes of his
shoes. 'Do you
miss your mother?" Tobin
didn't look up, but a jolt passed between them and she caught an
image of Ariani as Tobin must have seen her that last terrible day,
clear as if lya was standing in the tower room with them. So it had
been terror that had driven the princess up to that tower, rather
than hatred of the child. But with this image came something else: a
fleeting twinge of something else associated with the tower,
something the child had pushed further from his mind than she'd
imagined possible in one so young. She saw him glance up at it. 'Why are
you so frightened of it now?" she asked. Tobin
pulled back and clasped his hands in his lap, not looking at her.
"I—I'm not." 'You
mustn't Jie to me, Tobin. You are mortally afraid of it." Tobin sat
mute as a turtle, but a torrent of emotion was building up behind
those stubborn blue eyes. "Mama's ghost is there," he said
at last, and again he looked strangely ashamed. "She's still
angry." 'I'm sorry
she was so unhappy. Is there something more you'd like to tell me
about her? You can, you know. I must seem like a stranger to you, but
I have served your family for many years. I've known your father all
of his life, and his mother and grandfather before him. I was a good
friend to them. I want to be your friend, as well, and serve you as
best I can. So does Arkoniel. Did he tell you that?" 'Nari did,"
Tobin mumbled. 'It was his
idea to come here and be your teacher, and to bring Ki here, too. He
was worried that you were lonely without any friends of your own age.
He also told me that you don't seem to like him." This earned
her only a sidelong glance and more silence. 'Did the
demon tell you not to like him?" "It's not a demon. It's a
ghost," Tobin said softly. "And it doesn't like you,
either. That's why it hurt you last night." 'I see."
She decided to gamble, knowing she had little to lose in the way of
trust. "Did Lhel say that the ghost doesn't like me?" Tobin shook
his head, then caught himself and looked up at her with startled
eyes. Here was one secret revealed. 'Don't be
scared, Tobin. I know she's here. So does Arkoniel. Did she speak to
you about us?" "No." 'How did
you meet her?" Tobin
squirmed on the stool. "In the woods, after Mama died." 'You went
into the forest alone?" He nodded.
"Are you going to tell?" 'Not if you
don't want me to, so long as you tell me the truth. Why did you go
into the woods, Tobin? Did she call you?" 'In dreams.
I didn't know it was her. I thought it was Mama. I had to go see, so
I stole out one day. I got lost but she found me and helped me get
back home." 'What else
did she do?" 'She let me
hold a rabbit, and she told me how to call Brother." 'Brother?" Tobin
sighed. "You promise you won't tell?" 'I'll try
not to, unless I think your father should know to keep you safe." Tobin
looked at her directly for the first time and the hint of a smile
quirked the corner of his mouth. "You could have lied, but you
didn't." For an
instant lya felt like she'd been stripped naked. If she hadn't
already known otherwise, she'd have looked for magic in him. Trying
to cover her surprise, she replied, "I'd rather we be honest
with each other." 'Brother is
what Lhel said to call the spirit. She said you can't give the dead a
name if they never had one before they died. Is that true?" 'She knows
about such things, so it must be true." 'Why didn't
Father or Nari tell me about him?" lya shrugged. "What do
you think of him, now that you know?" 'He still
does mean things, but I'm not as scared of him anymore." 'Why did
Lhel teach you to call him?" He looked
away, guarded again. "She said I'm to take care of him." 'You made
him stop throwing things in the hall last night, didn't you? Does he
always do what you tell him to do?" 'No. But I
can keep him from hurting people." He looked at her hand again.
"Usually." 'That's
very good of you." Another child might just as easily have done
the opposite. She would speak to Arkoniel about this before she left.
Outside the sheltered confines of the keep, it might occur to Tobin
to use his power differently. "Will you show me what she taught
you?" 'You mean
call Brother here?" Tobin looked less than enthusiastic at the
prospect. 'Yes. I'll
trust you to protect me." Still Tobin hesitated. 'Very well.
What if I close my eyes and put my fingers in my ears while you do
what she showed you? Just touch me on the knee when I can look."
"You promise not to look?" 'By my
hands and heart and eyes, I swear it. That's the most solemn and
binding oath a wizard can give." With that, she squeezed her
eyes shut and plugged her ears, then turned her back for good
measure. She kept
her promise not to look or listen. She didn't have to, for she felt
clearly enough the spell that rippled briefly in the air nearby. It
was a summoning of some sort, but not any she recognized. The air
around her went deathly cold. She felt a tap on her knee and opened
her eyes to find two boys standing before her. Perhaps it was Tobin's
proximity, or the spell itself. Perhaps the unquiet spirit had simply
chosen to show itself to her, but the one called Brother looked as
solid as his twin, except that he cast no shadow. Even without this,
however, there was no confusing the two. Brother was
completely still, but lya sensed a wild black rage in him. His mouth
did not move, but she heard the words, You will
not enter as clearly as if he'd put those pale lips to her ear.
The hair rose on the back of her neck, for the words had the bitter
tang of a curse. Then he was gone. 'You see?"
said Tobin. "Sometimes he just does what he wants to." 'You kept
him from attacking me. He would have if you weren't here. Thank you,
my prince," said lya. Tobin
managed a smile, but lya felt more disturbed than ever. A young
child, especially a child with no magic, should not have been able to
do what she had just witnessed. She nearly
laughed aloud when this bold little tamer of spirits replied, "You
won't tell, will you?" 'I'll make
you a bargain. I won't tell your father, or anyone else, if you let
me tell Arkoniel, and if you promise to try to be his friend and go
to him for help whenever you need it." She hesitated, weighing
her words. "You must tell him if Lhel asks anything of you that
scares you, anything at all. Will you promise me that?" Tobin
shrugged. "I'm not scared of her." 'Keesa
don't should be, Wizard," a familiar voice said from the
barracks doorway. "I help her." lya turned and found Lhel
regarding her with a scornful smile. "I help you. Help that boy
wizard of yours, too." She raised her left hand and showed lya
the crescent moon tattooed there. "By Goddess, I swear you not
make me go this time. When Brother go on, then I go. You leave me to
work until time I can go. You got own work, Wizard, to help this
child and the spirit." 'What are
you looking at?" asked Tobin. lya glanced
at him, then back. Lhel was gone. 'Nothing. A
shadow," lya said, distracted. Even looking straight at the
woman, she'd been unable to sense what manner of magic the witch had
used. "Now, give me your hand, my prince, and promise me you'll
try to be Arkoniel's friend. He'll be very sad if you refuse." 'I'll try,"
Tobin muttered. Pulling his hand free, he walked away, but not before
she'd seen the betrayed look in his eyes. He might not have seen
Lhel, but he'd known she'd lied. lya watched
him out of sight, then sank her face into her good hand, knowing the
witch had surprised her into a serious misstep, perhaps even
intentionally. Like it or
not, she had misjudged Lhel all those years ago and now their fates
were twined together too tightly to risk any rash action. The deathly
coldness washed over her again. Brother crouched at her feet now,
staring at her with gloating, hate-filled eyes. You
will not enter, he whispered again. 'Enter
where?" she demanded. But Brother
kept his own secrets and took them with him when he vanished. lya sat for
some time, pondering the spirit's ominous words. Liter Tobin
left with the wizard, Ki found his way back down to the hall. He
still couldn't believe that this grand place was to be his home.
Haunted it might be, but to live among royalty and wizards seemed
well worth the risk in daylight. Young as he
was, however, he'd seen enough of the world to know how strange a
household this was. A prince belonged in the fine palaces Ki had
glimpsed over the Palatine walls at Ero, not in a backwater keep like
this one. Then again, Prince Tobin was damned strange himself. A
pinched-up, dark little thing with eyes like an old man. Ki had been
a little scared of him the first time he'd seen him. But after they'd
gotten to laughing, Ki saw something else. Odd Tobin might be, but
not like people said. Ki thought again of how the younger boy had
stood up to the demon's rage, not even twitching an eyelid, and his
heart swelled with pride. What would a living enemy be to someone
like that' He
continued on and met Captain Tharin coming into the hall by another
door behind the high table. The lanky blond man had on a rough shirt
and tunic like a common soldier's, and shared the men's barracks
here, even though Ki knew from lya that he was the son of a rich
knight at Atyion. Here was another person he had a good feeling
about, and this one from first look last night. 'Good
morning, lad. Looking to break your fast? Come on, then, the
kitchen's through here." Tharin led
him through another door and into a large warm kitchen where the cook
was at work over a kettle. 'How does
the place suit you so far?" Tharin asked, settling down by the
hearth to repair a buckle on his scabbard. 'Very well,
sir. I hope I'll suit the prince and Duke Rhius." 'I've no
doubt of that. Mistress lya wouldn't have chosen you otherwise." Cook
brought them some broth and stale bread. Ki sat down on a bench and
watched Tharin work with his awl and waxed thread. Tharin had a
nobleman's fine hands, but the skill of a craftsman in them. 'Will the
duke be coming here soon?" 'That's
hard to say. The king keeps him busy in the city these days." He
made short work of the buckle and laid his tools aside. Ki dipped
his bread in the broth and took a bite. "How come you're not
with him?" Tharin
raised an eyebrow at him, but looked more amused than annoyed. "Duke
Rhius has entrusted me with Tobin's training at arms. Until we go off
to fight again, I'm honored to serve him here. From what I saw last
night, you're going to be quite a help to me. Tobin needs someone
matched to him for practice." He reached for his own cup and
took a sip. "That was a fine thing you did last night." 'What did I
do?" asked Ki. 'You
stepped in to protect Tobin when the demon was racketing about in the
hall." Tharin said, as nonchalantly as if they were discussing
the weather or crops. "I don't believe you even thought about
it. You just did it, even though you'd scarcely met him. I've seen a
lot of squires—I was with Rhius in the Royal Companions in our
youth—and I can tell you there aren't many, even the best,
who'd have thought to do that under such conditions. Well done, Ki." Tharin set
his cup aside and ruffled Ki's hair. "Tobin and I will take you
up the road later and show you some good hunting. I've got a craving
for Cook's good grouse pie." Struck
speechless by this unexpected praise, Ki could only nod as the man
went outside again. As Tharin had said, he'd acted without thinking
and so had thought nothing of it. His own father seldom took note
when Ki tried to do well, only when he'd failed. He sat for
a moment, then tossed the rest of his bread into the fire with a
prayer to Sakor to always be worthy of this man's regard. 'y the time
Arkoniel came back to the barracks yard, lya had reached an uneasy
decision. 'Are you
ready to go?" he asked. 'Yes, but
there's one last thing we must speak of before I leave." Rising, she
took his arm and led him inside. "We're likely to be separated
for some time, you know." Reaching behind the narrow pallet
she'd used, she pulled out the leather bag and placed it in his arms.
"I think it's time I passed this on to you." Arkoniel
stared at her in alarm. "This is passed on when the old Guardian
dies!" 'Don't go
scattering my ashes just yet!" She did her best to sound
annoyed. "I've been thinking about what you said before. The
Harriers will be more vigilant in Ero, and perhaps more likely than
most to notice something like this. It's safer here with you for the
time being." When he remained dubious she gripped his arm
firmly. "Listen to me, Arkoniel. You know what happened to
Agazhar. What do you suppose I've been doing all these years but
training you for this? You're as much the Guardian now as I am. You
know all the spells to hide and mask it. You know the history, what
little there is left. There's nothing left to teach you. Say you'll
do this for me. I'm ready to be free of it. I must concentrate on
Tobin now." Arkoniel
clasped the bag in both hands. "Of course I will. You know that.
But— You are coming back, aren't you?" lya sighed,
determined not to make the same mistake with him she had with Tobin
just now. "I certainly plan to, my dear, but these are dangerous
times. If one of us falls, the other must be ready to carry on with
the task Illior has set for us. The bowl is safer here, just as Tobin
is." She stood
to go and he embraced her, something he hadn't done since he was a
child. Her cheek came just to his shoulder now. She hugged him back,
thinking, What a fine man you've grown into. Iya dressed
as a merchant to enter the city. She hadn't worn an amulet since that
night in Sylara and wanted no undue attention now. She was soon glad
of her decision. A few miles
out from Ero, she came upon a gibbet by the side of the road. The
body of a naked man still hung there, swinging gently in the wind
that blew in from the sea. The face was too black and swollen to make
out, but as she came closer she could see that in life he'd been
young and well fed, not a laborer. She reined
in. A large "T" for "traitor" was branded into
the center of the dead man's chest. Uneasy memories of Agnalain
stirred in her heart. This road had once been lined with such sights
as this. She was about to ride on when the wind caught the body again
and swung it around so she caught a glimpse of his palms. The center
of each was covered with a circle of black tracery. This poor
fellow had been a novice at the Temple of Illior. Wizards
and priests, she thought bitterly. The
Harriers hunt the children of Illior at the gates of the capital
itself and hang them out like a farmer would a dead crow. She made a
blessing sign and whispered a prayer for the young priest's spirit,
but as she rode on she was haunted by Brother's parting words to her. You
will not enter. She steeled
herself as she approached the guards at the gate, waiting for some
challenge or outcry, but none came. took a room
in a modest inn near the upper market and spent the next few days
listening in high places and low, trying to gauge the mood of the
people. She was careful to avoid anyone who might recognize her,
nobles and wizards alike. Prince
Korin and his Companions were a common sight around the city,
galloping about with their guards and squires. Korin was a fine,
strong lad of thirteen now, the image of his father with his ruddy
dark coloring and laughing eyes. Iya felt a pang of regret the first
time she watched him ride past; if Tobin was who he appeared to be,
and if a better ruler sat upon the throne, he'd have soon been of age
to claim his place in this happy band, not hidden away with a
landless knight's unwanted brat as his only companion. With a sigh,
she put such thoughts aside and resolved to concentrate on what she'd
come here to do. Years
of intermittent drought and sickness had left their mark even here.
The warren of tenements that ringed the city was less crowded now.
Many doors were still nailed shut and bore the lead circles used to
mark plague houses, remnants of the previous summer's outbreak. One
house in Sheepshead Street had been burned; the epithet "Plague
Bringer" was still scrawled on one charred wall. In the
wealthier wards up the hill such rerninders were usually taken down
as soon as the illness passed and the bodies had been burnt, but many
fine houses were still boarded up, and shops, too. Weeds growing in
the doorways showed that there was no one left inside to clean them
away. A strange,
unhealthy gaiety reigned in the wake of death. The clothing of the
wealthy was dyed brighter colors, and made gaudier still with
patterned borders and jewels. Many mourners had their lost loved
ones' likenesses embroidered on their coats or skirts, with maudlin
verses stitched beneath. Sleeves, caps, and mantles were ornate even
among the merchant classes, and cut to exaggerated lengths. The strange
hysteria was not limited to fashion. Every masker, mummer, and
puppeteer company who plied their trade in the streets now featured a
gaudy new persona in their repertoire—Red and Black Death. Red
ribbons fluttered gaily from this character's mask and tunic,
signifying the blood that seeped through the afflicted's skin like
sweat, and poured from their mouth and nose in the final agony. He
also sported an exaggerated black codpiece and lumpy armlets,
mimicking the dark pustules that swelled in groin and armpits. His
fellow maskers delighted in abusing this strutter and donned beaked
masks to chase him off. Nosegays
and pomanders of purifying herbs said to fend off the foul humors
that caused the plague were worn by folk of every class. In these
times, one never knew when the real Red and Black would come for a
return engagement. Another
noticeable difference was the scarcity of wizards about on the
streets. In the old days conjurers and fortune readers plied their
trade in every market. Wizards with noble patrons lived like lords
and ladies themselves. Now she saw few except the occasional
white-robed Harrier accompanied by patrols of grey-uniformed guards.
lya turned aside quickly when she saw them coming, but watched the
faces of those around her. Many people
paid the patrols little mind, but others watched with poorly
concealed fear or anger. Grey-backs, the boldest called them, well
out of hearing. Grey-back was common parlance for "louse."
lya was standing at the booth of an Aurenfaie goldsmith when one such
patrol marched past. The gold smiths' faces were inscrutable beneath
the intricate tattooed patterns of Khatme clan, but there was no
mistaking the outrage in their grey eyes, or the implicit curse as
the eldest woman spat over her left shoulder at their backs. 'You don't
think much of them," lya remarked quietly in their language. 'Wizard
killers! They spit in the Lightbearer's face!" The faie were
monotheists, worshipping only Illior, whom they called Aura. "We
expect such things in Plenimar, but never here! No wonder your land
suffers." C,'hat
evening lya was watching a mummer's show in the great marketplace
near the Palatine when she felt a touch on her sleeve. Turning, she
found herself face-to-face with a young Harrier flanked by a dozen or
more grey-backs. The red birds on their tunics seemed to circle her
like vultures as they closed ranks around her. 'Good day,
Mistress Wizard," the young wizard greeted her. He had a round,
cheerful face and innocent blue eyes that she distrusted the moment
she looked into them. "I haven't had the pleasure of your
acquaintance." 'Nor I
yours," she replied. "I haven't been in the city for
years." 'Ah, then
perhaps you did not know that all wizards entering the capital are
required to register with the Grey Guard, and to display their
symbols openly?" 'No, young
man, I did not. There was no such law when I was last here and no one
troubled to inform me." lya's heart was hammering in her chest,
but she summoned up the dignity of her years, hoping to overawe him.
In truth, however, it had shaken her badly to be discovered by one so
young. She had used no magic to mask herself, but he'd still had to
make a conscious effort to identify her. "If you'd be so kind as
to direct me to the proper officials, I will make myself known to
them." 'In the
king's name, I must ask you to accompany me. Where are you lodged?" lya felt
his mind brush hers, seeking out her thoughts. He must have mistaken
her for a lower order wizard to make so bold. Age and experience were
proof against such clumsy attempts, but she suspected he would
recognize an outright lie. 'I'm lodged
at the Mermaid, in Ivy Lane," she told him. The wizard
motioned for her to follow him. Several of the soldiers split off
from the rest, presumably to search her room. She
suspected she was more than a match for this wizard and his men, but
to resist or disappear could only be construed as provocation. She
dared not cause any stir, especially now that they knew her face. They
conducted her to a tall stone and timber building not far from the
Palatine Gate. She knew the place. It had once been an inn; now it
was full of soldiers and wizards. In the
great room she was made to sit in front of another wizard at a table
and place her hands on two plaques made of ebony ringed with silver
and iron. There were no markings on them that she could make out, but
the touch of the combined metals stung her wrists where they brushed
it. What the purpose of these might be, she could only guess. The wizard
behind the table had a thick ledger in front of him, open to the
middle pages. 'Your
name?" She gave
it. He glanced
at her hand. "I see you've injured yourself." 'A mishap
with a spell," she replied, looking chagrined. With a
condescending little smile he returned to his ledger, asking her
about her business in the city and noting her responses word for word
in his book. Beside it was a covered basket, not unlike the ones
traveling performers carried trained snakes and ferrets in. 'I'm simply
here to renew old acquaintances," she assured him. The words
held no lie, should anyone here be a truthknower. Perhaps that was
the purpose of the plaques, she thought, pressing the polished wood
with her fingertips. 'How long
have you been in the city?" 'Four
days." 'Why did
you not register upon your arrival?" 'As I told
the young man who brought me here, I had no idea there was such a
law." 'When was
the last time you were in—" They were
interrupted just then by the sound of a scuffle outside. 'I've done
nothing wrong!" a man cried out. "I wear the symbol. I've
professed my loyalty! What right have you to lay hands on me? I am a
free wizard of the Oreska." A pair of
grey-backs dragged in a disheveled young wizard, followed by an older
man in white. The prisoner's hands were bound with shining silver
bands and there was blood running down his face from a cut over his
right eye. As he threw back long, dirty hair from his face, lya
recognized him as a vain but mediocre student of one of Agazhar's
friends. He hadn't amounted to much, as lya recalled, but he still
wore the silver amulet. 'This
fellow spat at the person of a King's Harrier," the white-robed
wizard told the one behind the ledger. 'Your
number, young man?" the recording wizard asked. 'I refute
your numbers!" the young prisoner snarled. "My name is
Salnar, Salnar of Scop's Rest." 'Ah yes. I
remember you." The wizard thumbed back through the ledger and
carefully noted something down. When he'd finished he motioned for
the prisoner to be taken upstairs. Salnar must have realized the
implication of this, for he began to scream and struggle as the
guards rushed him through an inner door. His cries continued loudly
until they were cut off by the slam of a heavy door somewhere
overhead. Unruffled,
the recording wizard returned to lya. "Now, where were we?"
He glanced down at his notes. "Ah, yes. When was the last time
you visited the city?" lya's fingers twitched against the dark
wood. "I—I can't think of the exact date. It was around
the time the king's nephew was born. I visited Duke Rhius and his
family." This was dangerous ground, but what choice did she
have? 'Duke
Rhius?" The name had a better effect than she'd hoped. "You
are a friend of the duke's?" 'Yes, he's
one of my patrons, though I haven't seen him in some time. I travel
and study." The wizard
noted this information next to her name. "Why do you not wear
the symbol of our craft?" This was
more difficult to evade. "I did not wish to draw attention to
myself," she told him, allowing an old woman's quaver to creep
into her voice. "The executions have made people suspicious of
our kind." This answer
seemed to satisfy her interrogator. "There have been outrages,
as you say." He reached into the basket beside him and took out
a crudely molded copper brooch inset with the silver crescent of
Illior. He turned it over, read the number inscribed there, and
jotted this into his ledger. "You must wear this at all times,"
he instructed, holding it out for her to take. lya removed
her hands from the plates to accept it and was not ordered to replace
them. She turned the ugly brooch over and her heart skipped a beat. A
number was engraved below the crown-and-eagle imprint of the
Harriers. The number
she'd seen in her vision at Afra, in numerals of fire. 'If you
wish to have a more attractive piece fashioned, you may," he
went on. "There are a number of jewelers specializing in such
commissions now. But take care that any you have made bear this same
number, and that it is sent here to be struck with the king's mark
before it is delivered to you. Is that quite clear?" lya nodded
as she fastened it to the front of her gown. 'I promise,
no harm will come to you because of it," he told her. "Show
it to the gate wardens whenever you leave or enter a city. Do you
understand? Any wizard who refuses is subject to further
interrogation." lya wondered what "further interrogation"
meant to someone like poor Salnar. It took a
moment to realize that she'd been released. She could hardly feel her
legs as she stood and walked out into the autumn sunlight. She half
expected someone to call out, seize her, drag her back to whatever
terrors lay beyond the slamming of a door. At oo time
during the interview had anyone openly threatened her, or even been
rude. Yet the implications of the encounter left her so shaken that
she entered the first tavern she came to and sat for nearly an hour
at the table furthest from the door, sipping vile sour wine and
fighting back tears. Then, with shaking fingers, she undid the brooch
and placed it on the table in front of her, studying it back and
front. Silver was
Illior's metal. Copper and all the other sun-colored metals of
weapons and armor belonged to Sakor. These two of the Four had long
been the principal patrons of Skala, but since the days of Gherilain,
Illior had been the most highly revered. Now lya was made to wear the
Lightbearer's symbol like a criminal's brand, the beautiful silver
bow held thrall against the copper disk. The
king dares to number the free wizards, she thought as fear gave
way to anger. As if we are beasts of his flock! And yet
they'd given her the number ordained by Illior. A shadow
fell across her table, and renewed fear scattered her thoughts. She
looked up, expecting to find the Harriers surrounding her with their
silver and iron bonds, but it was only the taverner. He sat down
across from her and handed her a small brass cup. Pointing to the
brooch, he gave her a wry smile and said, "Drink up, Mistress. I
imagine you need fortifying." 'Thank
you." lya downed the strong liquor gratefully and wiped her lips
with fingers that still trembled. The taverner was a big, comfortable
fellow with kind brown eyes. After the icy cordiality of the
Harriers, even a stranger's kindness was welcome. "I suppose
you've seen a lot like me in here, being so close to—that
place?" 'Every day,
sometimes. Took you by surprise, did they?" 'Yes. Has
this been going on long?" 'Just
started last month. I hear it was that Niryn's idea. I don't imagine
your kind thinks much of him these days." Something
in the taverner's manner suddenly rang false. Looking into his eyes
again, she saw the same disarming innocence she'd seen in the young
Harrier's. Taking up
her wine cup, she gave him a wide-eyed look over its rim. "He
frightens me, but I suppose he is only doing his duty to our king."
She did not dare touch this man's mind; instead she gently sought out
any magic about his person, and found it. Under his tunic he wore a
charm that warded against thought reading. He was a spy. It had
taken less than the blink of an eye to learn this, but lya retracted
her seeking quickly lest there was someone else lurking to catch her
at it. The
taverner plied her with more brandy and questions about herself and
the burnings, perhaps trying to coax her into some admission that
could be turned against her. lya meekly persisted in lukewarm
platitudes until he must have decided she was a very minor wizard,
and not a very smart one to boot. After extending an offer of future
hospitality he bid her farewell. lya forced herself to finish the
wretched wine, then walked back to her lodgings to see what the
grey-backs had left of it. The
frightened look the Mermaid's host gave her was enough to confirm
that they had been here. lya hurried up the stairs, expecting to find
her chamber turned upside down. Except for
the missing glyph she'd left on the door latch, however, nothing
appeared to have been disturbed. Her pack lay as she had left it on
the bed. Whoever had searched this room had not used their hands to
do so. lya closed the door and fixed the latch, then sprinkled a sand
circle on the floor and set about inscribing the necessary chart of
wards inside it to create a safe casting space. Once this was done,
she sat down inside and cautiously opened her mind, seeking some echo
of the searchers and their methods. Gradually a murky scene took
shape behind her closed eyelids: a woman and a man, with Harrier
guards. The woman was robed in white and had carried a short wand of
polished red obsidian. Sitting on lya's narrow bed, she had held its
ends between her palms and cast a spell of— lya concentrated on
the vision, trying to see the patterns of light and color in the
space between the woman's hands. As the glimpses became clearer lya's
breath caught in her throat. It was a powerful seeking for signs of
something… someone… lya
concentrated harder, trying to see the woman's lips as they formed
words around the spell. When the
answer came lya had to choke down a cry of alarm. The woman
was seeking a girl child. She was
seeking Tobin. The vision
collapsed and lya slumped forward, resting her face in her hands. 'Be calm,"
she whispered to herself, but fragments of the vision she'd had at
Afra danced in the vault of her memory: a queen old, young, ragged,
crowned, dead with a halter around her neck, garlanded and
victorious. So many of the other wizards she'd talked to over the
years had said the same. The myriad strands of fate were still
unspliced, despite the guidance of Illior. The king's creatures had
some inkling of the threat to his throne and even now they were
seeking her out. Then again,
she told herself, if they were searching and questioning every
wandering wizard who passed through, then they had no idea of the
truth. Lhel's strange magic still shielded Tobin. lya weighed
the hated broach in her palm, thinking how the recording wizard had
simply reached into a basket and pulled this out at random. Two—the
number of twins, of duality—repeated thrice like a summoning
spell. Two parents. Two children. Two
wizards—herself and Arkoniel—with different visions of
how to protect this child. A knowing
smile curved her lips. Two wizards—herself and Niryn—with
different visions of how to unite the wizards of Skala and serve the
throne. The
Harriers might intend their numbers as instruments of control or
shame, but for lya they were a call to arms. Chapter 27 '"Tphe
castle town of Atyion dominated the fertile plain J. north of Ero.
The castle itself had been built in the embrace of an oxbow in the
meandering Heron River, in sight of the Inner Sea. The castle's two
huge round towers were visible for miles around and could easily
shelter a thousand men or more in time of siege. Duke Rhius'
family had earned their place by war and honor, but their great
wealth flowed out of the acres of vineyards, groves, and lush,
well-watered pastures full of horses that covered the plain. What had
once been a village nestled in the castle's protective shadow had
grown into a prosperous market town. The few plague markers found
here were weathered white; Atyion had not been touched by disease for
a decade. Not since
Tobin's birth. lya rode
through the muddy streets and across the lowered drawbridge that
spanned the castle moat. Inside the curtain walls lay more land,
enough to pasture sizeable herds, and ranks of barracks and stables
for the duke's armies. Many of these were deserted today; the duke's
ally lords and vassals had gone home to tend their own lands. The
soldiers who remained moved at their leisure, practicing at arms or
lounging around the corrals. Armorers and farriers were noisily at
work over their smoky forges along the inner wall. A few saddlers sat
beneath an awning, cutting leather and mending harnesses. Out of
deference for the king, Rhius had no women soldiers among the ranks
of his guard, but there were a number of them among the castle
household who had once served his father with sword and bow. Cook,
back at the keep, was such a one, too. They all still knew how to
fight, and would gladly do so if given the order. lya left
her horse with a stable hand and hurried up the broad stair to the
arched portal that let into the main hall. The doorway was flanked by
rows of columns supporting a pointed arch. A painted relief of the
Cloud Eye of Illior had decorated the peak of this arch since Atyion
was built, but today lya saw that a carved oak panel had been fitted
over it. This bore one of the more martial symbols of Sakor: a gloved
hand holding up a flaming sword garlanded with laurel and rue. It had
been fitted by a master craftsman; anyone unfamiliar with the house
would never guess that another image lay hidden below. It's
like the brooch, she thought, saddened and angered. How
has it come to this, that we have set the very gods against one
another? An ancient
fellow with a paunch beneath his blue livery greeted her in the hall. 'How long
has Sakor guarded the entrance, Hakone?" she asked, giving him
her cloak. 'Nearly
nine years, my lady," the porter told her. "It was a gift
from the king." 'I see. Is
the duke at home today?" 'He is,
Mistress. He's in the open gallery. I'll bring you to him." lya
looked around as they passed through the great vaulted hall and on
through a series of rooms and inner galleries. Atyion was still
magnificent, but the glory of the house seemed tarnished, as if the
structure itself lay under the same pall as its master. A few
servants were at work, polishing and scrubbing, but the furnishings
and hangings, even the brightly painted walls, were more faded than
she recalled. There
used to be music and laughter here, she thought. And
children running thorough the hall. Tobin had never seen this
house. 'Is Lord
Rhius well?" 'He
grieves, Mistress." They found
Rhius walking in a pillared gallery overlooking the castle gardens.
Judging by the dusty leather boots and jerkin he wore, he'd spent the
day in the saddle and only recently returned. A young page trailed
after him, ignored. As a boy
Rhius had always run to meet lya. Now he dismissed the servants and
stood regarding her in bleak silence. lya bowed
and looked out over the deserted gardens. "Your aunts and uncles
used to play blind beggars with me in that stand of walnut trees." 'They're
dead now, too," Rhius told her. "All but Uncle Tynir. He
lost his wife in the plague and his daughter to the king. He's carved
a new estate for himself in the northern territories." A pair of
gardeners came into view below them, pulling a cartload of rotted
manure. A tall, bald man in a jeweled robe wandered out from a rose
maze to watch them at their work. Rhius'
mouth tightened with distaste at the sight of him. "Come, let's
speak inside." lya glanced back at the stranger, trying to make
out who it was. "You have a guest?" 'Several." Rhius led
the way to an inner room lit by several lamps. He shut the door and
lya cast a seal to keep out prying eyes and ears. 'That man
in the garden is Lord Orun, Chancellor of the Treasury. Surely you
remember him?" Rhius asked, circling a round table that stood at
the center of the room. lya
remained near the door, watching him pace like a cornered wolf. "Ah
yes, he often guested here in your father's day. I remember Tharin
always detested him." 'Yes,
that's him. He's risen high and serves the king closely now as the
royal ear. Not a man to cross. Thank II-lior, Erius has kept Hylus on
as Lord Chancellor. He's able to keep most of the nobles from eating
one another alive." 'But why is
Orun here? 'He knew my
father, and now he makes it his business to know me. This time he's
brought me some young cousin of his and asks me to take him on as an
equerry." 'Spreading
his spies around, is he?" 'I'm
surrounded by them. He's gifted me with several pages and a very
pretty court minstrel whom I think he intends for my bed. She's away
for the day, or I'd introduce you and do away with the mystery." He sat down
and turned a weary eye on her. "So, you've come back, as well?
You took your time." lya let that go for the moment. "I've
just come from visiting your child, my lord. Prince Tobin sends you
his regards and a message. He misses you." 'By the
Four, if you knew how much I miss him!" 'Tharin
gave me to believe otherwise." An angry
flush rose in the duke's cheeks. "Lies breed like maggots on a
dead horse, as they say. All these years I've kept my secret from
Tharin. Now that lie has festered between us and driven him away." 'How so?" Rhius waved
a hand around at the room, the house, perhaps the entire estate.
"King Erius prefers to keep me close by him, now that his
sister's life no longer binds me. This is as far from Ero as I'm
allowed to venture. Should I bring Tobin here now, where Erius and
his wizards come to guest whenever the whim takes them? No, instead I
drive away a man who loves me better than any brother, send him back
to be the father to Tobin that I can't be." He rubbed his hands
over his face. "Another sacrifice." lya went to him and
clasped his hand. "You know Tharin better than that. He loves
you still and keeps you close in your child's heart. Surely the king
would not begrudge you the occasional visit?" 'Perhaps
not, but I'm so—fearful." The word seemed to choke him.
"We both know what Tobin is, and is to be, but she's also my
beloved child and all I have left of Ari-ani. No sacrifice is too
great to keep her safe!" 'Then
perhaps you can find a little forgiveness in your heart for me; you
know perfectly well that's why I've stayed away." She took the
Harrier's brooch from a pouch at her belt and tossed it onto the
table. "I was given this in Ero." Rhius eyed
it with distaste. "Ah yes. Niryn's badges." It was
lya's turn to pace as she told him of her visit to the city, ending
with the search made of her room at the inn and the spell the wizard
had cast for the unknown girl. Rhius let
out a bitter bark of a laugh. "You've been too long away. Niryn
has turned oracle and claims to dream of a usurper who'll unseat
Erius from the throne—a false queen raised by necromancy. It
wasn't enough to slaughter the innocents of royal blood. They go on
looking for signs and wonders now." 'I think
he's been sent the same vision that I was given, but he misinterprets
it. Or chooses to. It wasn't enough to slaughter the royal girls;
none of them was the one and so the dream continues. Fortunately, he
hasn't yet seen Tobin clearly. I think we may thank Lhel's magic for
that. All the same, Niryn has an inkling of what's coming, and the
wizards of Skala are to be numbered and divided against themselves." 'By the
Light! If they discover Tobin before she's old enough to fight, to
lead—" 'I don't
believe there is any danger of that just yet. Clearly, however,
they've had some inkling of wizardly protection, otherwise why should
they have scoured my room looking for her?" 'Are you
certain they found no clue there?" 'I saw no
sign of it. Sooner or later, though, the king's spies will recall the
connection between your family and myself. I only hope that
Arkoniel's presence at the keep won't bring undue attention on the
household." 'I've said
nothing of him. Keep him away from the city and unnumbered." 'I plan to.
Has Niryn shown any interest in the child recently?" 'None at
all. Of course, he's had the Harriers and their work to occupy his
attention. Quite a powerful little cabal he's building up." 'How so?" Rhius laced
his fingers together around one knee and stared down the black
mourning ring on his left hand. "There are rumors of secret
meetings being held somewhere outside the city." 'And Erius
says nothing to this? I can't imagine even the rumor of such a thing
going unchallenged." 'They serve
him, or so he believes. For all his caution about rivals, Erius has a
true blind spot when it comes to Niryn and his followers." 'Or has
been given one. Tell me, how does the king seem to you these days? Do
you see any of his mother's madness growing in him?" 'On the
face of it, he's nothing like her. The business with the girl
children—" He made a weary, dismissive gesture. "He's
not the first to take such ruthless measures to ensure a succession.
For years now Niryn has filled his head with fears of traitors and
rivals, then earned favor by rounding up people for execution. Mad
Agnalain had no use for wizards; her son keeps his by him day and
night. Niryn brags openly about his "visions," but rages
against Illiorans and wizards and anyone who might rise up and
proclaim the Prophecy of Afra again." 'How many
Harrier wizards are there now?" 'Twenty,
perhaps. Many of them are very young and he keeps them on a tight
rein. But there are others at court who recognize power when they see
it and support him— Lord Orun among them. Tell me, lya, in all
your wandering, how many wizards can you claim to our cause?"
lya held a finger to her lips. "More, but leave that to me until
the moment arrives. And you know wizards alone won't put Tobin on the
throne. We must have armies. Are you still prepared to take the
risk?" Rhius' face
set like a grim mask. "What have I to lose that hasn't already
been taken from me? Tobin can't remain hidden forever. He must
reveal—" He rubbed at his eyelids and sighed. "She
must reveal herself eventually and either take the throne or die. If
she's discovered before that, then none of us will survive Erius'
rage. Where there's such certainty, a warrior sees no risk." lya
covered his hand with her own and squeezed it. "The Lightbearer
chose you as much as Tobin. That trust sits -well on you. As you say,
we must continue to be cautious. Even Illior's favor doesn't
guarantee success." She sat back and studied the duke's gaunt
face. "If we had to fight today, how many men could you bring to
the field? What nobles would back you?" 'Tharin, of
course, and the men of his estate. Nyanis, I think, and Solari.
They'd stand with me. My uncle bears the king no goodwill and has
ships. Those who lost their women and girls to him—many of
those might be willing to back a rightful queen in the field if they
saw a chance of winning. Five thousand, perhaps more. But not for a
child, lya. I don't think they'd fight for Tobin yet. Erius is a
strong king, and a good one in many ways, and Plenimar is still
restless. It's the same as when his mother died and Ariani was so
young." 'Not
entirely. Then they'd had a mad queen. Now they've had years of
plague and famine and war, and whispers of prophecy. A sign will be
given, my lord, and when it comes, the people will recognize it."
lya stopped, startled at how loud her voice had risen in the little
room, and how hard her heart was suddenly pounding. At Afra she'd
seen so many possible futures— was the sign she waited for
among these? She went to
the table and sat down by Rhius. "The king keeps you close, yet
not on Tobin's account. Why? What's changed between you?" 'I'm not
certain. You know my marriage to Ariani was a one-sided love match. I
loved her and her brother loved my lands. I expect he thought I'd die
first and leave it all to her and the Crown. Now I think he means to
do it through Tobin. Erius speaks often of bringing Tobin to court to
join the Companions." 'He's not
of age yet." 'But he
soon will be, and even with the stories of Tobin being sickly and
demon-cursed, Erius has always been anxious for the boys to know one
another. Sometimes I honestly think that it is for love of his
sister. All the same, once at court, Tobin will be little more than a
hostage." Rhius frowned down at the brooch. "You've seen
what it's like there; once he's at the Palace, can you still protect
my child?" 'With all
my heart, I will, my lord," lya assured him, not daring to
reveal the sudden doubt she felt at the prospect. Like a handful of
unthrown dice, Tobin's future still encompassed all possibilities. z 'T~*he
weeks following Ki's arrival were happy ones. JL Arkoniel never
learned what lya said to Rhius during her visit to Atyion, but the
duke returned to the keep soon after and promised to stay until
Tobin's name day in Erasin. Better still, Rhius seemed almost his old
self again, praising the improvements to the house and inviting
Arkoniel to game with him and Tharin in the evenings. Whatever rift
had been between Rhius and his friend had healed. The two men
appeared to be as close as ever. The duke
approved of Ki, as well, and praised Tharin's training when Ki served
at table or matched Tobin at sword and bow practice. When Tobin knelt
in the hall on his tenth name day and requested that Ki be made his
squire, Rhius granted his permission readily and allowed the boys to
pledge their oath to Sakor at the house shrine that same night. Tobin
gave Ki one of his finest carved horse charms on a neck chain as a
symbol of the bond. Yet in
spite of all this, Rhius maintained a certain aloofness with Ki that
cost both boys some discomfort. On Tobin's
name day, Rhius had gifted Ki with a new suit of clothes and a fine
roan horse named Dragon. When Ki
tried to thank him, Rhius said only, "My son should be well
attended." Ki already
worshipped Tharin and was cle.arly prepared to accord Tobin's father
the same regard; the man's coolness left him awkward and a little
clumsy. Tobin saw
this, too, and hurt for his friend. Only
Arkoniel and Nari understood the reason for the duke's distance and
neither could offer the truth as comfort. Even among themselves they
could not speak of the fatal possibility that hung by a spider's
thread over Ki's young heart. 'ne bright
cold afternoon a few weeks later Arkoniel found himself sharing the
parapet with the duke as they watched the boys at play in the meadow
below. Tobin was
attempting to track Ki, who lay hidden in a shallow depression
surrounded by snow-dusted grass and weeds. Ki somehow managed to keep
the white fog of his breath from rising, but in the end he gave
himself away when his foot bumped a dead milkweed stalk. Several dry
pods still clung to the stem and when he jarred them, their silky
white seeds burst forth and rose like a battlefield signal. Rhius
chuckled. "Ah, he's done for now." Tobin saw
and dashed over to pounce on his friend. The resulting wrestling
match sent up another thick cloud of milkweed fluff. "By the
Light, that Ki is godsent." 'I believe
he is," Arkoniel agreed. "It's amazing how they've taken to
one another." At first
glance, no two boys could have been more different. Tobin remained
quiet and serious by nature; bold Ki couldn't seem to sit still or
keep quiet for more than a few minutes at a stretch. For him, talking
seemed as necessary as breathing. He still spoke like a peasant and
could be crude as a country tinker. Nari would have taken a switch to
him a dozen times already if Tobin hadn't pleaded for leniency. Yet
the substance of what he said was for the most part intelligent if
unschooled, and invariably entertaining if not always seemly. And if
Tobin hadn't yet tried to emulate Ki's boisterous nature, Arkoniel
could tell that he gloried in it. He glowed like a full moon in Ki's
presence and delighted in the older boy's tales of his large and
colorful family. It wasn't only Tobin who loved these, either. When
the household gathered around the fire each night, Ki was often their
principal entertainment and would soon have everyone holding their
sides as he described the foibles and mishaps of his various
siblings. He also had
a substantial store of garbled fables and myths learned at his
father's hearth; stories of talking animals and ghosts, and fanciful
kingdoms where men had two heads and birds shed golden feathers sharp
enough to cut off the fingers of the greedy. Endeavoring
to follow lya's advice, Arkoniel sent for richly illustrated texts of
the more familiar tales, hoping these would coax the boys into their
reading lessons. Tobin was still struggling with his letters and Ki
was little help. The older boy had proven resistant to such learning
in the proud, backward way of a country noble who'd never seen his
own name written out and didn't care to. Arkoniel did not chide them;
instead, he left a book or two open to particularly exciting
illustrations, trusting curiosity to do his work for him. Only the
other day, he'd caught Ki puzzling over Gramain's
Bestiary. Meanwhile, Tobin had quietly set to work on a history
of his famed ancestor, Gherilain the First, a gift from his father. Ki proved a
better ally when it came to magic. The boy possessed a child's normal
fascination with it, and his enthusiasm smoothed the way for Arkoniel
to attempt to address Tobin's odd fears. The wizard began with small
illusions and a few simple makings. But while Ki threw himself into
such pastimes with all his usual carefree abandon, Tobin's reactions
were less predictable. He seemed pleased with lightstones and
firechips, but grew wary whenever Arkoniel suggested another vision
journey. C,'harin
was well pleased with Ki, as well. The boy had an innate
understanding of honor and took happily to a squire's training. He
learned the rudiments of table service, though there was little
formality at the keep, and eagerly strove to master the other arts of
service, though Tobin stubbornly resisted most efforts to be served.
He refused any help in bathing or dressing, and much preferred to
take care of his own horse. In the end,
it was at swordplay that Ki proved most useful. He was less than a
head taller than Tooin, and had been fighting with his brothers and
sisters since he could walk. He made a proper sparring partner, and a
very demanding one, too. More often than not he emerged victorious,
and Tobin bruised. To Tobin's credit, he seldom sulked about it and
listened willingly as Tharin or Ki explained to him what he'd done
wrong. It perhaps helped that Tobin was Ki's master at archery and
horsemanship. Until he'd come here, Ki's backside had never had a
proper saddle beneath it. A knight's son he might be in name, but
he'd had the hard upbringing of a peasant. Perhaps because of this,
he never balked at any task and was grateful for any favor. For his
part, Tobin, who'd been kept too close to the women for too long,
considered every new task a game and often insisted on helping out
with chores that most noblemen's sons would have been insulted to
consider. As a result, he grew brighter and browner by the day. The
men in the barracks gave Ki all the credit and made pets of them
both. When Nari
or Arkoniel fussed over Tobin raking stalls and mending wall beside
Ki, Tharin simply shooed them back into the house. V,'he demon
has been quieter since he came," Rhius murmured aloud,
interrupting Arkoniel's thoughts. 'Has it?"
he asked. "I don't suppose I've been here long enough to judge." 'And it
never seems to hurt Tobin anymore, not since—not since his poor
mother died. Perhaps that was for the best, after all." 'You can't
mean that, my lord!" Rhius kept
his gaze on the meadow. "You knew my lady when she was happy and
well. You didn't see what she became. You weren't here to see." Arkoniel
had no answer for that. The boys
had reached a truce now. Lying side by side in the snowy grass, they
were pointing up at the clouds drifting across the blue winter sky. Arkoniel
looked up and smiled. It had been years since he'd thought to play at
finding shapes in the clouds. He suspected that this might be the
first time Tobin had ever tried. JUook k,"
said Ki. "That cloud is a fish. And that one over there looks
like a kettle with a pig climbing out of it." Tobin was
unaware of the wizard watching him, but his thoughts were running
along similar lines. It seemed that everything had changed again
since Ki's arrival, and this time for the better. Lying here with the
sun on his face and the cold seeping up through his cloak, it was
easy to forget about mothers and demons and all the other shadows
that lurked at the corners of his memory. He could even almost ignore
Brother crouched a few feet away, watching Ki with black, hungry
eyes. Brother
hated Ki. He wouldn't say why, but Tobin could tell just by the way
he watched the living boy that he wanted to pinch and slap and hurt
him. Every time Tobin called Brother he warned him not to, but that
didn't stop him from doing things that startled Ki, like pulling
objects out of his hands or knocking over his mazer at table. Ki
always jumped a little and hissed curses between his teeth, but he
never ran or cried out. Tharin said that was a sign of real courage,
to stand fast when you were scared. Ki couldn't see Brother, but
after a while he claimed he could sometimes sense when he was there. If it had
been up to Tobin, he'd have sent Brother away and let him go hungry
for a while, but he'd sworn to Lhel that he'd care for him and he
couldn't go back on his word. So he called Brother every day and the
baleful spirit lurked on the edges of their games like an unwelcome
hound. He hovered in the shadows of the toy room, and went into the
forest with them when they rode, somehow keeping up with their horses
without ever running. Recalling his dream, Tobin once offered to let
Brother ride behind him on his horse, but the spirit greeted this
with his usual uncomprehending silence. Ki pointed
up at another cloud. "That one looks like the fancy cakes they
sell at the Festival of Flowers back home. And there's a hound's
head, with its tongue hanging out." Tobin
picked a few black beggars ticks from his hair and flicked the
prickly seeds up at the sky shapes. "I like the way they change
as they go. Your dog looks more like a dragon now." 'The great
dragon of Illior, only white instead of red," Ki agreed. "When
your father takes us to Ero I'll show you the painting of it in the
temple in Goldsmith's Street. It's a hundred feet long, with jewels
for eyes and the scales all outlined in gold." He searched the
sky again. "And now the cake looks like our maidservant, Lilain,
with Alon's bastard eight moons in her belly." Tobin
glanced over at his friend and could tell by the slant of Ki's grin
that there was a story coming. Sure
enough, Ki went on. "We thought Khemeus would kill the pair of
them, since he'd been panting over her since she come to us—" ' 'Came to
us,'" Tobin corrected. Arkoniel had tasked him with helping Ki
learn to speak properly. 'Came to
us, then!" Ki said, rolling his eyes. "But in the end the
boys just had a fistfight out in the yard. It was pouring down rain
and they fell in the manure heap. Then they went off and got drunk.
When Lilain's baby finally did come it looked like Khemeus anyway, so
it was probably his after all, and he and Alon had another fight over
that." Tobin
stared at the cloud, trying to puzzle out the sense of this new
exploit. "What's a bastard?" 'You know,
a baby that comes when the man and woman haven't made contract
together." 'Oh."
That didn't really tell him anything. "How did it get in that
girl's belly?" Ki reared
up on one elbow and stared at him in disbelief. "You don't know?
Haven't you ever watched animals at it?" 'At what?" 'Why,
fucking, of course! Like when a stallion
climbs a mare's back, or a rooster treads a hen? Bilairy's balls,
Tobin, you must have seen dogs fuck, at least?" 'Oh, that!"
Tobin knew what Ki meant now, though he'd never heard anyone call it
that. Suspecting it to be another of those words Nari and Arkoniel
didn't approve of, he stored it away with delight. "You mean
people do it, too?" 'Of
course!" Tobin sat
up and wrapped his arms around his knees. The thought was intriguing
and unsettling all at once. "But—how? Wouldn't they fall
over?" Ki fell
back, whooping with laughter. "Not hardly! You never have seen
anyone at it, have you?" 'Have you?"
Tobin challenged, wondering if Ki was making fun of him. 'At our
house?" Ki snorted. "Gods, all the time! Father's always on
top of someone, and the older boys are at the maids or men, even,
sometimes. It's a wonder any of us sleeps nights! Like I told you, in
most houses everyone sleeps all in the same room. 'Least the ones
I've been in." When Tobin
remained baffled as to the actual act, Ki found a couple of forked
weed stalks and used them to illustrate a more detailed explanation. 'You mean
it gets bigger?" Tobin asked, wide-eyed. "Doesn't it hurt
the girl?" Ki stuck
one of the stalks in the corner of his mouth and gave Tobin a wink.
"From the sounds they make, I don't hardly think so." He cocked
an eye at the sun's height. "I'm cold. Come on, let's go riding
before Nari decides it's too late. Maybe we'll find that witch of
yours today!" Cot abin
wasn't sure whether or not he'd done wrong in telling Ki about Lhel.
He couldn't even remember exactly if she'd told him not to, but he
had the guilty feeling that she had. Ki had been
spinning some yarn about a witch in his village one night as they lay
in bed and Tobin blurted out that he knew one, too. Of course, Ki
demanded details since his own story was only a made-up one he'd
heard from a bard. In the end Tobin had told him about the dreams. He
told him about getting lost, too, and about the hollow oak tree Lhel
lived in, but he was careful to leave out any mention of the doll. Since then
it had been a secret quest between them to find her so Ki could meet
her, too. They went
out riding nearly every day, but so far they'd found no sign of her.
Tobin always came back from these searches with mixed feelings. As
much as he wanted to see her again and find out what it was she meant
to teach him, he was also relieved, in case she was angry with him
for telling Ki. Despite
weeks of fruitless searching, Ki's faith remained unshakable and he
delighted in sharing Tobin's secret. That almost
made up for those Tobin couldn't share. V'he boys
kept an eye on the sun's progress as they spurred their mounts up the
road. The days were short now and storms blew down off the mountains
fast. Brother
kept just ahead of them, moving with his usual stiff, unnatural walk
that should have been too slow to keep up but wasn't. No matter how
fast they rode, he stayed ahead of them. Ki had
other concerns. "How is this witch of yours going to live in a
tree all winter?" 'She had a
fire," Tobin reminded him. 'Yes, but
the snow will cover the doorway, won't it? She must have to burrow
out like a rabbit. And what will she eat?" Pondering
this, they left their mounts tied by the road and set off on foot to
explore an untried game trail Tobin had spotted a few days earlier.
Following it to a dead end used up their last margin of daylight. The
sun was almost touching the peaks when they finally gave up and
headed back; they'd have to lather their mounts to get back before
Nari began to fret. Ki had just
mounted and Tobin had one foot in the stirrup when their horses
shied. Gosi reared, throwing Tobin backward off his feet, then
galloped away down the road. Tobin came down hard on his back with a
grunt of surprise. Raising his head, he saw Ki trying to rein in
Dragon as he careened away after Gosi. Both horses disappeared around
a bend in the road, taking Ki with them. 'Damn!"
he wheezed. He was halfway to his feet when a thunderous growl froze
him in a crouch. Looking slowly to his right, he found himself facing
a catamount that crouched at the edge of the trees across the road. The great
cat's tawny coat blended well with the winter cover, but its yellow
eyes looked as big as the lids of nail kegs and they were fixed on
him. It watched him, belly low to the ground, tail stirring the dead
leaves and snow as it twitched this way and that. Then, like a
nightmare, it glided out a step toward him, then two, muscles
bunching and rippling across its shoulders. It was
stalking him. There was
no point in running. Tobin was too scared to even close his eyes. The
catamount took another step then stopped, ears pressed flat to its
blunt head as Brother appeared between them. The cat
could see him. It crouched lower and snarled, showing cruel curved
fangs as long as Tobin's thumbs. Beyond fear now, Tobin couldn't
move. The
catamount screamed and lashed out at the ghost. The huge paw raked
the air less than a yard from Tobin's chest, close enough for him to
feel the air move and see the hooked claws rake through Brother's
belly. Brother didn't move. The beast snarled again and gathered
itself to spring. Tobin heard
someone running toward them. It was Ki, charging back on foot with
his long hair flying around his head. He let out a fierce yell and
ran straight at the catamount, brandishing nothing but a long, knobby
stick. 'No!"
Tobin screamed, but it was too late. The cat sprang and struck Ki
full in the chest. Together they tumbled across the road and came to
rest with the catamount on top. For one
awful moment Tobin felt time stop, just like it had when his mother
was falling away from him down the side of the tower. Ki was on his
back beneath the catamount; all Tobin could see were his friend's
splayed legs and the catamount's hind foot braced against his belly,
poised to gut him like a squirrel. But neither
Ki nor the cat moved, and now Brother was standing over them. Tobin
was hardly aware that he was running until he threw himself on the
catamount's back and grappled the huge head away from Ki's throat.
The beast was limp, dead weight in his hands. 'Ki! Ki,
are you dead?" Tobin cried, trying to wrestle the heavy carcass
off his friend. 'I don't
think so," came the faint reply. Ki began to struggle, and
between the two of them they managed to heave the catamount aside. Ki
emerged pale and shaking but unquestionably alive. The front of his
tunic had several jagged tears and blood trickled down onto the
lacings from a long scratch on his neck. Tobin dropped to his knees
and stared at him, hardly able to believe what had just happened.
Without a word, they turned to look at the huge she-cat lying beside
them. The yellow eyes stared sightlessly into the ditch. Dark blood
stained the snow under her gaping jaws. Ki found
his voice first. "Bilairy's hairy bag!" he croaked, his
voice a full octave higher than normal. "What happened?" 'I think
Brother killed her!" Tobin stared in wonder at the ghost
crouching now over the dead cat. "He got between me and her and
stopped her charge. But then you came running in with… What
were you thinking, running at her with—with
a stick?" Ki pulled
out the carved horse charm he wore around his neck. "I'm your
squire. It was all I could find and—" Ki stopped, staring
gape-mouthed over Tobin's shoulder. The hair on
Tobin's neck rose. Did catamounts hunt in pairs? Or packs? He twisted
around quickly, lost his balance, and fell heavily on his backside. Lhel stood
a few feet away, looking as dirty and ragged as he remembered. She
didn't seem at all surprised to find them here with a dead catamount. 'You be
looking for me, keesas?" 'Well, yes.
I—I hope you don't mind. I told my friend— He's never met
a witch. And—and you said you were going to teach me things,"
he finished lamely, unable to tell in the failing light if she was
angry or not. 'And
instead you be find by big maskar." She
nudged the dead cat with one rag-bound foot. 'Brother
stopped it from catching me, then Ki came and drew it off and Brother
killed— 'I kill.
Brother not make death." Both boys
gaped up at her. "You? But—but how?" asked Tobin. She
snorted. "I witch." She knelt and cupped Tobin's face
between her rough palms. "You be hurt, keesa?" 'No." 'You?"
She reached to touch Ki's neck. Ki shook
his head. 'Good."
Lhel grinned, showing the gaps of missing teeth. "You Tobin's
brave good friend. You got voice, keesa?" Ki blushed.
"I don't know what to say to a witch." 'Say
'hello, witch,' maybe?" Ki got to
his knees and made her a bow as if she were a lady. "Hello,
Mistress Lhel. And thank you! I'm in your debt." Lhel placed
a hand on his head. For an instant Tobin thought he caught a fleeting
look of sadness in her eyes and it sent an unpleasant chill coiling
through his belly. But the look was gone when she turned and drew
Tobin into a hug. He accepted the embrace stiffly; she still didn't
smell very good. Lhel held
him tight for a moment and whispered, "This a good keesa. You be
good to him? Be protecting him?" 'Protecting
him? From who?" 'You know,
comes the time." Lhel tapped a finger against his chest. "You
hold that here, don't be forget." 'I won't." Tobin
pulled away. Brother stood close enough to touch now and he tried to,
to thank him. As always, his hand found no purchase on that
solid-looking form, only a patch of colder air. 'How did
you know we were here?" Ki asked. 'I be
seeing you many time to know what kind of good friend my Tobin be
having. You be fine warriors together." She touched her
forehead. "I see it here." She looked back at Tobin, then
pointed to the keep. "You got another teacher. You like?" 'No. He
does magic, but not like yours. Mostly he teaches us how to read and
figure." 'He tried
to teach us dancing, too, but he's like a big heron on ice," Ki
told her. "Will you come to the house with us, Mistress? It's
not my place to offer you hospitality, but you saved my life. It's a
cold night and—and Cook is making a galantine pie." She patted
his shoulder. "No, they don't be know me. Not tell, yes?" 'I won't!"
Ki promised, shooting Tobin a conspiratorial grin. The tale of a
witch had been a fine secret; the witch herself was a treasure beyond
all hopes. 'We have to
get home." Tobin cast another worried look at the sky; it had
darkened to purple-and-gold behind the black peaks. "Now that
we've found you, can we come visit you again? You said you'd be my
teacher, too." 'Time come.
Not yet." She put two fingers in her mouth and let out a
piercing whistle. The runaway horses came trotting up the road,
dragging their loose reins in the snow. "You come visit times,
though." 'Where? How
will we find you?" 'You seek.
You find." And with that she stepped lightly away and vanished
into the gathering darkness. 'By the
Flame!" Ki bounced up and down in excitement and punched Tobin
on the arm. "By the Flame, she's just as you said! A real witch.
She killed that catamount without even touching it. And she told our
future, did you hear? Fine warriors!" He mimed a fierce blow at
some future foe, then gasped at the pain in his side. It didn't slow
him down much though. "The two of us together! Prince and
squire." Tobin
raised his hand and Ki clasped it. "Together. But we can't
tell," Tobin reminded him, all too familiar with Ki's tendency
to blurt out whatever came into his head. 'By my
honor, Prince Tobin, I shall obey. Torture wouldn't drag it out of
me. Which is what we're in for when we get home! The sun's down for
certain now." He looked ruefully at his torn tunic. "How
are we going to explain this? If Nari finds out she'll never let us
out of the house again!" Tobin
chewed at his lower lip a moment, knowing Ki was right. Even with
Arkoniel's support, Nari still fretted and fussed over them if they
were out of her sight for too long. The thought of losing a single
day of their newfound freedom was intolerable. "We'll just tell
her Dragon ran away with you. That's not even a lie." Rhius
returned to Ero before the turn of the month, leaving Arkoniel and
Tharin once more in charge of the boys. Having
defined his duties as tutor to his own satisfaction and that of his
young charges, Arkoniel was pleased to find himself with a great deal
of time to pursue his own studies. lya had been content to wander,
collecting ideas and practicing her craft for those who needed it and
could pay. Arkoniel had always wished to create and study; now it
seemed Illior had granted him both the means and the opportunity to
do so. By late
Kemmin the rooms on the third floor were finally refurbished and he
took possession of two of them: a small, comfortable bedchamber, and
a large, high-ceilinged room adjoining it. In return for his
guardianship of Tobin, the duke had granted the wizard a virtually
unlimited allowance to pursue his own studies when not otherwise
engaged. For the
first time in his well-traveled life, Arkoniel had both ample time
and the means to pursue more complex magics. Long before the final
coat of plaster was applied to the upstairs walls, he set about
furnishing what he already thought of as his workroom. Over the next
few months crates arrived almost daily, filled with books and
instruments he'd seen in his travels with lya. From the foundries and
kilns of Ylani came the mortars, limbics, and crucibles for
alchemical studies and the compounding of magical objects. At Alestun
he found tables, braziers, and tools enough to fill another section
of the room. He sent to the mines of the northern territories for
fine, clear crystals and wrote to other wizards for herbs, ores, and
other rare substances not available locally. He began to wonder if he
dared ask for another room. In return for such largesse, he began
crafting every household simple he knew how to make. Since he
dared commit little news of Tobin to writing, he filled long letters
to lya with his progress, plans, and hopes. In her infrequent replies
he read approval and encouragement. This
is what a Third Oreska might be, she wrote, choosing her words
carefully. Not one wizard working alone, but
many, sharing their knowledge with generations of students for the
benefit of all. I expect you will have something new to show me, when
next we meet. He fully
intended to fulfill that expectation, and with something much more
impressive than a new fire spell. ^,'he
year's first heavy snowstorm came on the fifth night of Cinrin. The
following day the world was a startling palate of black and white
under a sky of dazzling blue. The boys were absolutely incapable of
sitting still for lessons with such a landscape waiting for them
outside the window. Shaking his head, Arkoniel released them and
retired to the workshop to pursue his current passion. Soon after, he
heard laughter from outside. Going to the window, he saw Tharin and
the boys building a snow fortress in the meadow. The slope around
them looked like a sparkling white expanse of fine salt, unbroken
except for the area they'd chowdered up with their building. Where
they'd walked and rolled their snow boulders, the shadows showed
blue. The road and bridge had disappeared beneath the snow. Only the
river remained, flowing like a thick black serpent between its
mounded white banks. More
laughter, and a bellow from Tharin. It appeared Ki had taught Tobin
of snowballs and their uses. Work on the snow fort halted as the
battle raged. Arkoniel was tempted to go down and join them, but the
warmth and quiet of his •workroom won out. The first
step in creating magic, as lya had taught him, was to envision the
desired result. Casting a known spell began that way; if you wanted
to make a fire, you envisioned a flame, then let form follow intent
with focus. Creating a
new spell was simply a matter of finding out the steps in between to
make that intent a reality. At first,
with the adjustment to his new role and home, and the excitement of
setting up his own rooms occupying his mind, he'd toyed with alchemy
and other known sciences, perfecting the skills he already possessed.
However, with a routine established and winter settling in, he found
himself thinking about his encounter with Lhel. The
startling power of her sexuality found its way into his dreams more
and more often; he could feel her heat against him and smell her
musky, feral scent. He awoke
each time with his heart pounding in panic, drenched in sweat. In the
light of day he was able to discount all this as the raging of his
young and unruly body. The thought of touching her as he did in those
dreams made him sick with anxiety. What drew
him back to those memories today was not the carnality of their
encounter, but what he thought he'd seen her do that day in the
forest, and a dream. The
projection of one's image was a known magic; not easily mastered, but
not uncommon, either. lya could do it and Arkoniel himself had had a
few minor successes, but by Oreska magic the resulting image was
limited to the wizard's form alone, usually very clear and unnatural,
like a specter seen in daylight. That day by the road, however, he'd
seen Lhel as if through an oval window; the light that had struck her
was daylight, and he'd been able to see the marsh around her before
he'd had any idea that one existed in the area. His own mind could
not have filled in such detail; Lhel had shown him where she was as
clearly as if she had taken him there through a hole in the air. A hole in
the air. The image
had come to him just as he was waking up that morning. Up until now,
he'd been relying on disappearance spells, trying to bend them into a
combination of form and movement. Nothing had come even close to
working. But this
morning he had a new idea, an inspiration left in the wake of a
dream. In it, he'd again seen Lhel floating in that green-tinged
light that did not match the sunlight where he stood. She was naked,
beckoning him, as if she wanted him to step through the shining oval
and join her without the trouble of walking up the hill. In this
dream he perceived some sort of hole or tunnel connecting them by a
tube of shifting green light. In the dream he'd known he was about to
grasp the secret he needed, but the image of the naked witch intruded
again and he woke with a full bladder and an aching groin. As he sat
here pondering all this, another long-forgotten and seemingly
unrelated memory came to him. He and lya had once explored echoing
tunnels at the base of an ancient peak in the northern territories.
The tunnels reminded him of enormous mole burrows, but the walls were
glassy smooth and showed no sign of digging. lya claimed that the
mountain had created them itself somehow, and showed him chunks of
obsidian that contained tiny holes, miniatures of the tunnels
themselves, but these were as fine as ant holes in fine earth. His member
stirred again as he settled on a stool by his worktable and attempted
to summon the details of the dream more clearly. He willed his body
to behave and concentrated on the image: a hole in the air—no,
a tunnel! Easy to visualize, but how to create such a thing when he
didn't even understand how the mountain had achieved it? Never in
all their travels had lya or he discovered any spell that resembled
such a thing as he envisioned. Here, in his newfound solitude, he
worked alone at devising some mechanism of mind that could encompass
his vision. As he had
so often over the past few weeks, Arkoniel reached into a nearby bowl
and took out a dried bean. It was half the size of his thumbnail and
dark red with a smattering of white speckles, the sort his father's
cook had called red hens. He rubbed it between thumb and forefinger,
committing its weight and smoothness to memory. Holding the
image of the bean firmly in his mind, he placed it on the oak table
in front of him, next to a lidded salt box Cook had grudgingly
relinquished. Concentrating, he pushed the bean back and forth with
his fingers a few times, then took his hand away and raised the bean
with his mind until it hovered a foot off the table. Then he brought
the full force of his concentration to bear on it, imagining the
tunnel he'd dreamed of, willing the bean to find such a route into
the closed box. The bean
certainly moved, but only in the usual prosaic manner. Flying against
the box as if hurled from a sling, it struck the lid so hard it split
in half. The pieces ricocheted in opposite directions and he heard
them skitter away across the bare stone floor, no doubt to join their
predecessors already scattered around the room. 'Bilairy's
balls!" he muttered, resting his face in his hands. Over the
past few weeks he'd used enough beans to make a pot of soup, and
always with the same discouraging results. He spent
another hour trying to get his mind around the construct of an
opening in the air, but ended up with nothing more than a thumping
headache. Leaving
off, he turned to surer magics for the rest of the afternoon. Shaking
out a newly made firechip fro*-covered crucible, he placed it on a
plate and mi-"Burn." The reddish brown chip flickered at
*•' to release
a small tongue of pale yellow fire that would burn until he told it
to stop. He set a
crucible full of rainwater to boil over it on an iron tripod, then
went to his herb cabinet for the various simples he needed to concoct
a sleeping draught for Mynir. The initial
mixture stank fiercely, but Arkoniel didn't mind. A feeling of
satisfaction crept over him as he sat watching the first bubbles
rise. He'd gathered the makings himself in the forest and meadow, and
woven the spells from memory. Such melding of magic and material
things calmed his nerves; it was pleasing to have a finished, useful
product at the end of the incantations. The firechip was his work, as
well. Remnants of the latest brick he'd fashioned still lay on a
plank nearby, next to the stone hammer he'd used to smash it into
usable pieces. This batch would keep the house supplied until spring. The smell
of the steeping herbs brought him back to memories of Lhel, this time
as she'd been during their journey to Ero. She'd used every pause and
rest break to seek out useful things in the earth or among the dry
autumn leaves. His face burned again as he recalled how he'd
dismissed her then, not realizing the power she possessed. More recent
memories of musky, tattooed skin and whispered promises crept up on
him, making the wizard's heart skip a giddy beat. Had she
known his secret hope? Had she shown him a glimpse of that trick on
purpose to snare him? During the long journey to Ero he'd caught her
touching his mind so many times; how often had she stolen in
unheeded? He slid off
the stool and went back to the window. Late afternoon shadows
stretched themselves like long blue cats below the house and a
three-quarter moon was rising. Tharin and the boys were gone. Their
fort stood like a tiny outpost, surrounded by a welter of trampled
2tprints. Below it, a single track line of footprints crossed the
smooth white flank of the hillside, leading down to the bend in the
river. In the
forest the bare trunks and branches stood stark black against the
blanket of new snow like hairs on a miller's arm. Soon the real
storms would come and choke the roads and trails until spring. The
keep was well stocked with provisions and fuel, but how would a
barefoot little woman, even a witch, survive? How had she survived so
long here already? And where
was she right now? He
stretched his arms out over his head, trying to ignore the fresh
thrill of guilt-tainted longing that coursed through him at the
thought. Instead, he
leaned far out the window, letting the cold air deal with the sudden
flush that suffused his cheeks. From here
he could hear the clatter of cooking pots echoing from the kitchen
and the muffled staccato of hooves on the road behind the keep.
Arkoniel covered his eyes with one hand and sent a sighting spell up
the mountain road. He was nearly as good at this spell as lya now,
and could see over a distance of several miles for short periods of
time. Looking
down from a hawk's height, he spotted Tobin and Ki galloping for
home, cloaks billowing behind them. They were still some distance
away and riding hard to get home before sunset. They'd come in late a
few weeks earlier and moped like caged bears when Nari had kept them
inside the walls for two days as punishment. Arkoniel
smiled to himself as he watched them. As always, Ki was talking and
Tobin was laughing. Suddenly, however, they both reined in so
abruptly that their horses reared and wheeled, throwing up white
bursts of snow. A third figure entered the wizard's field of vision
and he let out a gasp of surprise. It was
Lhel. She was
wrapped in a long fur robe, her hair loose over her shoulders. Both
boys dismounted and went to her, clasping her hands in greeting.
Arkoniel did not have the power to hear their words at such a
distance, but he could see their faces clearly enough. This was not a
meeting of strangers. The witch
smiled fondly as she clasped hands with Ki. Tobin said something to
her and she reached to touch his cold-reddened cheek. Arkoniel
shuddered, remembering those same fingers cutting, stitching, weaving
souls together. They talked
for a few moments, then the boys mounted again and continued
homeward. Arkoniel kept the sighting on the witch, but he could
already feel the power of the spell waning. He pressed his fingers
into his eyelids, straining to keep her in sight as his ability to
focus slowly faded. Lhel
remained in the road, watching them ride away. He would have to break
it off soon, but he wanted desperately to see where she would go.
Just before he gave up, she raised her head slightly, perhaps looking
up at the rising moon. For an instant she seemed to look directly at
him. Arkoniel
knew he'd held the vision too long. Suddenly he was on his knees
under the window, head pounding, and colored sparks dancing dizzily
before his eyes. When the worst of it had passed, he pulled himself
up and hurried down to the stables for his horse. Not bothering with
a saddle, he climbed astride the sorrel and galloped up the road. As he rode,
he had time to wonder at the pounding of his heart and the furious
sense of urgency that drove him on. He knew beyond all doubt that
Lhel would not harm the children. What's more, he'd seen them part.
Yet still he urged his horse on, desperate to find them— Her. And
why not? he asked himself. She held secrets to magic he had only
dreamed of. lya wanted him to learn from her, and how could he do
that without confronting her? And
why would she still he there, standing in the cold road with night
coming on? Tobin and
Ki came around a bend and reined in to greet him. He pulled his
gelding around so hard he had to cling to its mane to keep his seat. 'You met a
woman on the road. What did she say to you?" He was surprised at
how harshly the words came out. Ki shifted uneasily in the saddle,
not looking at him. Tobin met his gaze squarely and shrugged. 'Lhel says
she's getting tired of waiting for you," he replied, and for a
moment he was again the dark, strange child Arkoniel had met that
summer day. More than that; in the failing light, eyes shadowed to
near black, he looked eerily like his demon twin. The sight sent a
shiver up Arkoniel's back. Tobin pointed back up the road. "She
says for you to hurry. She won't wait much longer." Lhel. She.
Tobin was speaking of someone he knew, not a stranger encountered by
chance on the road. Lhel was
waiting for him, would not wait much longer. 'You'd best
get home," he told them, and galloped on. He grasped for words
to greet her with and found only demands. Where had she been all
these months? What had she said to the child? But more than that,
what magic had she used the first time she'd come to Arkoniel in the
forest? He cursed
himself for not noting any landmarks in his vision, but in the end it
didn't matter. A mile or so on and there she was, still standing in
the road just as he'd last seen her, her shadow lying blue on the
snow. The failing light softened her features, making her look like a
young girl lost in the forest. The sight
drove every question from his mind. He reined his horse in and slid
down to face her. Her smell came to him, hot on the cold air. It took
away his voice and pulled a powerful ache of longing through him. She
reached to touch his cheek, just as she had with Tobin, and the
caress sent a jolt of raw desire through him, making it hurt to
breathe. All he could think to do was to reach out for her, pull her
close, and crush her warm body against his. She moaned softly as she
pressed against him, rubbing a hard thigh against the answering
hardness between his legs. Thought
fled, leaving only sensation and instinct. She must have guided him,
he realized later, but at that moment he seemed to be moving in a
dream filled with hands and warm lips moving over his skin. He wanted
to resist, to summon the rectitude that had guided his life to this
point, but all he could think of now was lya's oblique permission to
do exactly this; give Lhel what she wanted in return for the promise
of knowledge. Lhel wasted
no time on niceties. Pulling him down on top of the fur robe, she
dragged her skirt up to her waist. He fumbled his tunic out of the
way, then he was falling onto her, into her, and she was pulling him
deeper, so deep that he could scarely comprehend the hot grip of her
body around his before he felt something like lightning strike him,
pulling a raw cry of amazement from his throat. She shoved him over
onto his back, and he felt the soft snow cradle him as she rode him
beneath the first stars of evening. Head thrown back, she keened
wildly, clenching his member with whatever strange inner muscles
women possessed. Lightning struck again, harder and more consuming
this time, and Arkoniel went blind, listening to his own cries and
hers echoing through the forest like wolf song. Then he was
gulping air, too stunned to move. She leaned forward and kissed his
cheeks, eyelids, and lips. His throat was sore, his body cold, and
their mingled fluids were trickling in a chilly, ticklish stream over
his balls. He couldn't have stirred if a whole regiment of cavalry
had come thundering down the road at them. His horse nickered softly
nearby, as if amused. Lhel sat
back and took his hand. Pressing it to one full breast through her
rough dress, she grinned down at him. "Make spell for me,
Oreska." He goggled
stupidly up at her. "What?" She kneaded
his fingers into her firm, pliant flesh and her grin widened. "Make
a magic for me." The stars
caught his eye again and he whispered a
spell in their honor. A point of brilliant white light sprang to life
above them, radiant as a star itself. The sheer beauty of it made him
laugh. He spun the light into a larger sphere, then split it into a
thousand sparkling shards and placed them in her hair like a wreath
of frost and diamonds. Bathed in their ethereal light, Lhel looked
like a wild spirit of the night masquerading in rags. As if reading
his thoughts on his face, she grasped the neck of her dress and tore
it down the front, revealing again the marks of power that covered
her body. Arkoniel touched them reverently, tracing spirals, whorls,
and crescents, then shyly reached down to where their bodies were
still joined, flesh to flesh. 'You were
right. lya tried to tell me…" he managed at last, caught
between wonder and betrayal. "It was all a lie, that this robs a
wizard of power." He raised his hand to the crown of light
glowing in her hair. "I've never made anything so beautiful." Lhel took
his hand again and pressed it to her heart. "Not lies for all,
Oreska. Some can't serve the Goddess. But you? What you feel here…"
She tapped his chest with her free hand. "That's what you make
here." She touched his forehead. "lya thinks this. She
tried tell you." 'You heard
us talking that day?" 'I hear a
lot. See a lot. See you sleep with longing in your raluk."
She squeezed him inside of her and gave him a playful wink. "I
try send my words to you in dreams, but you stubborn one! Why you
make me send children after you with all that heat in you?" Arkoniel
stared up at the sky, trying to summon the fear that had beset him
less than an hour earlier. How had he come to be here, sated and
laughing, without any memory of decision or consent? "Did you
make me—?" Lhel
shrugged. "Can't make if desire don't be in you. Wasn't, that
first time in the mud place. Now it is; I just call it out." 'But you
could have had me easily in the—the 'mud place'!" Yet even
as he said it, Arkoniel knew that something important had shifted in
himself since that day at the marsh. 'I don't
take," she said softly. "You give." 'But I
didn't have any intention of—of—" He gestured
weakly. "Of any of this until the moment I got here!" 'You did.
In here." Lhel caught one of the light points on her fingertip
and placed it on his chest. "Heart don't always tell head. But
body know. You learn that." 'Yes, I
learn that," Arkoniel agreed, surrendering to her logic. Lhel rolled
off him and stood up. Her feet were bound up with rags and strips of
bark but she showed no sign of minding the cold. Pulling the torn
dress and the robe around her, she said, "Too much in they head,
you Oreskas. That why you need me for the shaimari
anan. Why you need me put those keesas' shaimari back right." 'You'll
teach me?" Lhel looked
down at him and raised an eyebrow. "You keep pay?" Arkoniel
got up and straightened his own clothing. "By the Four, yes, if
that's your price. But can't you come to the keep?" Lhel shook
her head. "No, lya right in that. I seen your king, read his
heart. Nobody knows, is better." Sudden
doubt leeched up through Arkoniel's buoyant mood. "I saw you
speak to Tobin and Ki in the road. They know you." 'Keesas
knows not to say." 'You put Ki
in danger, you know, revealing too much." Lhel
shrugged. "You don't be worry about Ki. Goddess send him, too." This seemed
to be the foundation of her reasoning. "She's a busy lady, your
goddess." Lhel folded
her arms and stared at him until he felt uncomfortable, then turned
abruptly and motioned for him to follow. 'Where are
we going?" A chuckle
floated back to him as she melted into the shadow of the trees. "You
want have all lessons in the road, Oreska?" With a
resigned sigh, Arkoniel reached for his horse's lead rein and
followed her on foot. Wizards saw
well in the dark, and apparently so did witches. Lhel strode
confidently through the trees with no path to guide her. Humming to
herself, she seemed almost to dance ahead of him, brushing trees and
stones with her hands as she went. Without the stars to sight by,
Arkoniel soon lost track of the way and hurried to keep up with her. She stopped
at last under an enormous oak. "Cama!"
she said aloud, and a soft glow issued from an opening in its side. Following
her inside, he found himself in a comfortable shelter. A light
similar to the one he'd conjured glowed softly some twenty feet
overhead where the cleft in the oak ended. lya and he had found
shelters like this in their travels; ancient oaks often split without
dying. Lhel had made herself nicely at home here. A fur-covered
pallet lay against the far wall beside a rumpled pile of what might
be clothing; there were a few pots and baskets, and the fire pit and
upper walls of the tree were well blackened with smoke. Even so, he
could not imagine living all these years in such a place. Lhel pulled
a deer hide across the entrance, then squatted by the firepit to
strike a flame in the tinder stacked ready there. 'Here, a
gift." Arkoniel took a small pouch of firechips from his tunic
and showed her how to use them. Flames licked up and she fed the
little blaze from a pile of twigs and broken branches next to it. She looked
into the pouch and smiled. "Is good." 'How have
you survived here?" he asked, hunkering down beside her. In this
light he could see how chapped her face and hands were, and the thick
calluses and chilblains on her dirty bare feet under the wrappings. Lhel looked
at him over the fire. The flickering light sank deep shadows into the
lines around her mouth and struck reddish glints in the silver
streaks in her hair. As they'd rutted wildly in the road, she'd
seemed so young; here she looked ancient as a goddess herself. 'This good
place," she said, shrugging out of the cloak and letting the
torn top of her dress slide off her shoulders to hang loose about her
waist. Her full breasts glowed in the firelight, showing no sign of
the symbols he'd seen there before. She reached into a basket and
offered him a strip of dried meat. Arkoniel took it, still staring at
her body as she found more food and began to eat. She was as filthy
as ever, and had lost some teeth over the years. Those she had left
were stained and worn. Yet as she turned to grin at him, she was
still handsome, still deeply alluring… Without
thinking, he leaned forward to kiss her shoulder, inhaling her odor
and wanting her again. "How do you make me feel like this?"
he whispered, genuinely mystified. 'How many
year you be?" she asked around a mouthful of wizened
caneberries. Arkoniel
had to stop and think. "Thirty-one," he said at last. It
was nearly a life's span for some men; for a wizard he was hardly out
of his youth. Lhel raised
her eyebrows in mocking surprise. "Thirty-one year no woman and
now you don't know why you get hard?" She snorted and reached
under his tunic to cra die his genitals in her hand. "You got
power here!" Taking her hand away, she
touched his belly, chest, throat, and brow. "Got power all
places. Some can use. You can." 'And you'll
teach me?" 'Some. For
the keesa." Arkoniel
moved closer until his leg was pressed to hers. "That day at the
marsh I saw you do something that I want to learn. I was on the road,
and you appeared— Lhel smiled
slyly and made a pinching motion with thumb and forefinger. "I
see you with your krabol." Arkoniel
stared at her a moment, then grinned sheepishly as he interpreted the
hand gesture. "With the beans, you mean!" 'Beans."
She repeated the word. "You think you move them—"
Another less intelligible gesture, but he thought he understood. 'You've
seen me trying to move them about. But how?" Lhel held
up her left hand and made a circle with thumb and forefinger.
Rattling off a quick gabble of sounds that didn't quite seem to be
words, she pursed her lips and blew through her fingers. When she
took her hand away Arkoniel saw a small black hole in the air in
front of them, no bigger than a horse's eye. 'Look,"
she offered. Leaning
over, Arkoniel peered into the spy hole and found himself looking at
Tobin and Ki. They were sitting on the floor beside the toy city and
Tobin was trying to teach Ki to carve. "Incredible!" Lhel
elbowed him sharply and closed the hole with a wave of her hand, but
not before Arkoniel glimpsed two startled faces look up as one,
trying to find the source of the voice that must have come out of
thin air. 'I forgot
that I could hear you through it, too," Arkoniel exclaimed. "By
the Light, it is a. tunnel in the air!"
'What'tunnel'?" asked Lhel. When
Arkoniel tried to explain, she shook her head. 'No, it
is—" She mimed what he finally understood to be opening a
shuttered window. "Like that, with two side—" She
pressed her palms tightly together. Arkoniel
pondered this with growing excitement. If a voice could go through so
easily, then surely an object, or even a person, could as well? But
when he tried to explain this to Lhel her eyes widened in alarm. 'No!"
she warned, shaking his arm for emphasis. Placing her other hand on
his brow, she spoke in his mind, as she had that day at the marsh. No
solid thing that goes into a seeing window comes out again, on the
other side or anywhere else. They swallow up whatever is put into
them. 'Teach me,"
he said aloud. Lhel took
her hands away and shook her head. "Not yet. Other things more
needful. You don't be knowing enough." Arkoniel
sat back on his heels, trying to swallow his disappointment. It was
not the magic he'd hoped for, but one that would take him closer to
his goal than anything else he knew of. He would bide his time. "What
must I be knowing, then?" Lhel
produced a bone needle from somewhere in her skirts. She held it up
for him to see, then pricked the pad of her thumb and squeezed out a
bright red droplet. "First you learn the power of this, and
flesh, and bone, and the dead."
'Necromancy?" Was he so blinded by a single rut that he'd
forgotten the darker roots of her magic? Lhel gazed
at him with unfathomable black eyes, and again she looked ancient and
powerful. "This word I know. Your people call us this when you
drive us out of lands that be ours. You wrong." 'But it's
blood magic—" 'Yes, but
not evil. Necromancy is—" She
struggled with the language. "Most worse dirty thing."
'Abomination," Arkoniel offered. 'Yes,
abomination. But not this." She squeezed out another drop and
smeared it across her palm. "You have blood, flesh. I have. All
people. No evil. Power. Evil come from
heart, not blood." Arkoniel
stared at her palm, watching the thin smear dry into the lines of her
palm. What she'd said went against everything he'd ever been taught
as a Skalan in his father's house and as a wizard. Yet sitting here
with this woman, feeling the aura of power that surrounded her, he
sensed no evil in her. He thought of Tobin and the demon, and the
lengths to which Lhel had gone to make things as right as she could.
Grudgingly, fearfully, he listened to his heart and guessed that she
spoke the truth. Had he been
gifted with future sight, he would have seen the course of Skalan and
Oreska history shift ever so subtly in that moment of uneasy
realization. Arkoniel
found himself in the dual roles of teacher and pupil that winter,
instructing his reluctant young charges each morning, then seeking
out Lhel for his own lessons. Tharin
proved a stout ally in the former, for he refused to begin weapons
practice until both boys had made an acceptable effort at Arkoniel's
lessons. This system met with some resistance at first, but as Tobin
finally mastered his letters and could read a little, he suddenly
developed a taste for learning. His enthusiasm increased when
Arkoniel offered to teach him to draw. As far as Arkoniel could tell,
it was the only skill he possessed that impressed Tobin. Ki still
fidgeted and sighed a great deal, but Arkoniel saw improvements
there, too, though he knew better than to flatter himself as to the
reason. For Ki, the sun rose and set on Tobin and he would strive at
any task his companion set value on. Whatever the young prince chose
to apply himself to, Ki threw himself into with a will. There was
no arguing that he'd had the desired effect on Tobin, either. The
prince laughed more now, and the daily rambles on the mountainside
put color in his cheeks and lean muscle on his long bones. 'ispatch
riders arrived every few weeks, carrying letters from Rhius filled
with reports of the growing unrest across the sea. The
Plenimaran shipyards are too busy for comfort, he wrote in one
letter, and the king's spies send word of great
numbers of Plenimarans massing along Mycena's eastern border. I fear
they will not limit themselves to coastal raids, come spring. May
Illior and Sakor grant that we fight on other shores this time. Arkoniel,
who had no experience of war, found himself watching Tharin as these
letters were read out in the hall. Tharin
listened carefully, brow furrowed in thought, then questioned the
messenger in detail. How fared the garrisons at Atyion and Cirna? How
many ships were anchored in Ero's harbor? Had the king raised another
levy of soldiers, or provender from the countryside? 'I feel
very green, listening to you," Arkoniel admitted one evening as
he and Tharin sat up late over a game of bakshi. "For all my
travels, I've led a sheltered existence compared to you." 'Wizards
used to fight for Skala," Tharin mused, still focused on the
gaming stones in front of them. "Now it seems the king is only
willing to have you fight one another." 'I hope to
see that change one day." At such
moments Arkoniel was uncomfortably aware of the secret that divided
them. The more he grew to know the man, the more he regretted that
Tharin did not know the truth. 'I wouldn't
mind having you at my back," Tharin went on, gathering the
stones for another toss. Firelight struck the polished carnelians,
turning them to fire and blood in his fingers. "I'm no authority
on wizards, but I know men. You've got steel in your spine. And I
don't imagine old lya would've taken you on if she didn't believe it,
too. Or left that old bag of hers with you." He looked
up before Arkoniel could completely mask his surprise. "Oh, I'm
not asking. But I'm not blind, either. If she trusts you, that should
be good enough for anyone." Neither
said anything more about the matter, but Arkoniel was grateful to
have the respect of this man. He wished
he were as certain of Lhel's opinion of him. Arkoniel burned for her.
He dreamed of her body and awoke stiff and hot in the night with no
recourse but his own hand, a remedy far less satisfying than it had
once been. But she
remained obdurate; he was only allowed to find her at her whim. No
seeking spell could locate her and he was never able to find his way
to the oak on his own. When he wanted her, he rode into the forest
and, if she wished, she would reveal herself. If not, he came home
frustrated and fuming. Sometimes
when he did find her, the boys were with her. Then the four of them
would tramp through the snow, exploring the forest together like some
peasant family. It was pleasant and he smiled at the picture they
made, for in daylight Lhel showed her age and he felt more akin to
Tobin and Ki than he did to her. When he and
Lhel did manage to meet alone, however, it was quite another matter.
They coupled each time—he never did equate her "price"
with lovemaking, nor did she—and each time was as frenzied as
the first. She asked no tenderness of him and gave none in return,
only passion. Behind closed eyelids, Arkoniel saw visions of
whirlwinds, thunderstorms, and earthquakes. When he opened his eyes
he saw the power of Lhel's goddess blazing in her eyes and in the
dark whorls on her skin that she showed him only then. As they lay
naked together on her pallet afterward, she showed him whatever she
was moved to in the way of spellcraft. Much of it seemed designed to
overcome his natural aversion to blood magic. She began
by teaching him to "read the blood," as she put it. She
would hand him a bloodstained bit of cloth or bark; by touching it
with fingers and mind, he soon learned to identify the creature that
had shed it. As these lessons progressed, he learned to enter the
mind of the creature if it was still living, and to see through its
eyes. As a fox he padded through a meadow and dug sluggish mice from
their tunnels in the brown, ice-rimed grass. As an eagle, he circled
the keep in search of stray hens. In the strangest of these
explorations, he entered a trout swimming in the muted brown light
under the river ice and saw a woman's jeweled ring shining brightly
among the silky strands of slime that covered the rocks. As a final
test, Lhel gave him a bit of her own blood, and he found himself
inside her skin. The simple minds of the beasts had given him nothing
more than a few visual images, cast in shades of grey. Settling in
Lhel, however, he felt the intimate weight of her body around him, as
if he wore her flesh as a garment over his own. He could feel the sag
of her breasts beneath her ragged dress, the ache that plagued her
left ankle, the heavy warmth of their coupling between her thighs.
After a moment's dis-orientation, he realized that he was looking at
himself through her eyes. His body lay on the pallet next to the
fire, still as a corpse beneath the fur robe. With a mix of chagrin
and amusement he inspected his own long, bony limbs, the jut of ribs
under his white skin, the black pelt of hair that covered his chest
and back, arms and legs. The expression on his face was ecstatic,
like a temple Oracle's when touched by the god. For all
that, however, he could not hear Lhel's thoughts. That she would not
share. As his fear
of her magic lessened, she began to impart a few rudiments about
spirits and ghosts. 'How did
you make the change in Tobin?" he asked one day as the wind
moaned around the oak. 'You saw." 'I saw you
trade a piece of skin between them. Does it hold the magic?" 'It make
skin one skin," she replied, casting about for the right words.
"When Tobin is to be a girl again, that skin must come off."
was not always the student with her. He helped Lhel learn more of his
language, and showed her all the ways he knew to make fire. Comparing
magics, they discovered that they could both call wind, and pass
through any cover without leaving traces. He taught
her the Oreska method of wizard sighting, and in return she tried to
teach him her "tunnel in the air" magic. However, this
proved more difficult than he'd expected. It was not the whispered
incantation, or even the patterned hand movements it required, but
some odd twist of mind that he could not see and she did not have the
language to explain. 'It will
come to you," she assured him again and again. "It will
come." i Arkoniel's dismay, the one person at the keep whom he
seemed to make the least progress with was Tobin. The child was civil
and seemed determined to master what Arkoniel tried to teach him, but
there was always a distance between them that seemed unbridgeable. One thing
Tobin did choose to share, much to Arkoniel's surprise, was the spell
he used to summon Brother. Arkoniel attempted it, but with no result.
Brother answered only to Tobin. When he
asked Lhel about it later, she shrugged and said, "They joined
by flesh. That you cannot learn by magic." Arkoniel
was sorry to hear this, for the spirit often found its way into his
workroom. He had not seen it with his eyes since that day it had
fooled him and spooked his horse, but there was no mistaking its
cold, hostile presence. It seemed to enjoy tormenting him, and often
came close enough to raise the hairs on his neck. It did him no
physical harm, but more than once it drove him downstairs in search
of Tobin. G* ^7pring
came early with little rain. As expected, King Erius signed a pact
with Mycena and launched a campaign against the Plenimaran invaders
there, leaving his trusted minister, Lord Chancellor Hylus, to
oversee the court in his absence. One of lya's infrequent letters
mentioned seemingly in passing that the king's wizard, Lord Niryn,
had also remained behind. Rhius was
to accompany the king, of course, and Tharin could no longer be
spared. The duke
came in early Lithion to make his farewells, and brought a band of
minstrels and acrobats with him to perform. He stayed less than a
week, but rode with the boys each day, and sat up late in the hall,
gaming with Tharin and Arkoniel and listening to the minstrels. The
wizard was delighted to see him acting so much more like his old
self, and Tobin was ecstatic. The only
thing to mar the visit was the sudden passing of the old steward,
Mynir. He failed to come down for breakfast one morning and Nari
found the old man dead in his bed. The women drained and washed the
body, wrapped it with spices, and sewed it into a shroud to be
carried back to his people in Ero. The old man
had been beloved in the household and everyone wept around the body
as it lay before the shrine—everyone except Tobin. Even Ki shed
a few tears for the poor old fellow, but Tobin's eyes remained dry as
he made his solemn offerings to Astellus. The sight chilled Arkoniel,
though no one else seemed to remark on it. V,'he day
of parting came too soon, and the household gathered in the courtyard
to see Rhius and Tharin off. Arkoniel and Tharin had said their
good-byes over wine the night before, but all the same the wizard
felt a dull ache clutch his heart as he watched the tall swordsman
saddle his mount. Tobin and
Ki helped glumly with the preparation, looking more subdued than
Arkoniel had ever seen them. When
everything was ready and his father and Tharin were mounted to go,
Tobin stood by his father's stirrup and looked up. "Ki and I
will practice every day," he promised. "When can we come to
join you?" proudly. fly.
when my armor fits you, my child, and that day will come sooner
than you think. When it does—" The man's voice caught
roughly in his throat. "By the Four, then no general will be
prouder than I to have such a warrior at my back." He turned to
Ki then. "Do you have any message for your father, if I meet
with him?" Ki
shrugged. "If I've served well here, my lord, you might tell him
that. I can't think what else he'd want to know." 'I'll tell
him that no prince has a more loyal squire. You have my thanks,
Kirothius, son of Larenth." Arkoniel
would have been hard pressed to say whose eyes shone more brightly as
they watched Rhius out of sight, Tobin's or Ki's. For weeks
after his father left, Tobin watched for messengers on the Alestun
road, but none came. Arkoniel
found him standing at his window one morning and guessed his
thoughts. "Mycena's a long way off, you know. They may not even
be there yet." Tobin knew
he was right, but he couldn't help watching the road, all the same. When a
rider finally did appear one warm spring day a month or so later, it
was not with word of Rhius. Tobin and
Ki were fishing at the river bend when they heard the sound of hooves
on the road. Scrambling up the bank, they peered over the edge. The
horseman was a rough-looking character in leather with a mane of wild
brown hair flying about his shoulders. The rules
for strangers had not changed since Ki's arrival: keep your distance
and head for the keep. Ki knew this as well as Tobin did, but instead
of obeying, he let out a whoop and leapt up to meet the rider. 'Ki, no!"
Tobin snouted, catching at his ankle. But Ki
laughed. "Come on, it's only Ahra!" 'Ahra? Your
sister?" Tobin followed, but hung back shyly. Ahra was often a
rather formidable character in Ki's stories. The rider
saw them and reined in sharply. "That you, Ki?" It was a
woman after all, but not like any Tobin had ever seen. She wore the
same sort of leather armor over mail that his father's men did, and a
bow and longsword hung at her back. Her hair was dark brown like
Ki's, and worn braided in front, wild behind. She didn't look much
like him, otherwise, being only a half sister. She swung
down and grabbed her brother in a hug that lifted him off the ground.
"It is you, boy! Skinny as ever, but you've grown two spans!" 'What're
you doing here?" Ki demanded as she let him down. 'Come to
see how you was faring." Ahra spoke with the same flat, country
accent that Ki had had when he first came to the keep. "I met
that wizard woman of yours on the road a few weeks back and she asked
me to bring a letter to another wizard here—friend of hers.
Said you'd worked in here well enough, too." She grinned at
Tobin. "Who's this one with mud between his toes? lya didn't say
nothing about another boy sent to serve the prince." 'Mind your
mouth," Ki warned. "That is the
prince!" Tobin
stepped forward to greet her and the woman dropped to one knee before
him, head bent. "Forgive me, Your Highness. I didn't know you!" 'How would
you? Please, get up!" Tobin urged, embarrassed to have anyone
kneel to him. Ahra stood
and shot Ki a dark look. "You mighta said." 'Didn't
give me a chance, did you?" 'I'm glad
to meet you," Tobin said, clasping hands with her. Now that his
initial surprise had passed, he •was very curious about her and
delighted to finally meet one of Ki's kin. "My father's not
here, but you're welcome to guest with us." 'I'd be
most honored, Highness, but my captain only give me'til nightfall.
Rest of the company's back in Alestun buying supplies. We're bound
for Ylani to fend off the summer raiders." 'I figured
you'd be gone to Mycena with Jorvai and Father and all," said
Ki. She let out
a snort and Tobin got a glimpse of her famous temper. " They
went, all the boys right down to your mam's Amin, just year older'n
you. Gone for a runner. But the king still wants no women in the
ranks with him, by Sakor. Left us with the old men and cripples to
watch the coastline." Ahra gave
Ki news of home as the three of them walked up to the house. Their
fourth mother, who was only a year older than Ahra, had birthed twins
soon after Ki left home and was pregnant again. Five of the younger
children had been taken with fever, but only two had died. The house
was quieter with the seven eldest gone; the war had come in time to
save Alon from being taken up as a horse thief by a neighboring
knight. Even though this was old news, Ki vigorously defended his
brother's innocence in the matter all the same, outraged at the
charge. Tobin took
all this in with mounting delight; he knew all these people through
Ki's stories and here was one of them in the flesh. He liked Ahra,
too, and decided Ki had exaggerated her bad points a bit. Like him,
she was blunt and open, with no secrets behind her dark eyes. All the
same, it was strange to see a woman carrying a sword. H
lari met them as they came across the bridge, and her scowl
stopped all three in their tracks. "Prince Tobin, who's this and
what's she doing here?" 'Ki's
sister," he told her. "You know, the one who tried to leap
her horse over the hog pen and fell in." 'Ahra, is
it?" Nari softened at once. Ahra glared
at Ki. "You been telling tales on me, have you?" Nari
laughed. "That he has! You'll find you've no secrets with Ki
about. Come in, girl, and eat with us. Cook will be glad to see a
woman in armor again!" They were
listening to Cook trade stories with Ahra about her fighting days
when Arkoniel came in with that smug, comfortable look he always had
when he'd been with Lhel on his own. That
changed when he saw Ahra. He looked even less pleased than Nari until
Ahra handed him lya's letter. 'Well, if
she sent you," he muttered. "I suppose I should have had Ki
write to his mother before now." 'Wouldn't
do no good if he did," Ahra told him with stiff dignity. "Can't
none of us read." Ki colored
as if he'd been caught doing something shameful. 'What can
you tell us of the war?" Tobin asked. 'Last news
I had is a good month old. The king met up with the Mycenian Elders
at Nanta and a fleet went down the coast to engage the Plenimarans at
the frontier. I heard your father well spoken of, Prince Tobin. Word
is he's at the front of every battle, the king's right hand." 'Have you
been in the capital recently?" asked Arkoniel. Ahra
nodded. "We come through there a week back. Two ships were
burned at anchor when the harbormaster found plague aboard. When it
turned out that some of the sailors had got ashore already and gone
into a tavern, the deathbirds come and nailed it up with them in it
and burned 'em for plague bringers." 'What are
deathbirds?" Tobin asked. 'They're
something like a healer," Arkoniel told him, though his look of
distaste belied the explanation. "They go about the country
trying to keep plague from coming in at the ports. They wear masks
with long fronts on them that look like beaks. The beak part is
filled with herbs to keep off the plague. That's why people call them
deathbirds." 'There's
plenty of Harriers about making trouble, too," Ahra told him,
and again Tobin didn't know what she meant, except that she didn't
think much of them. "Have there been any more executions in the
city?" Ahra nodded. "Three more, one of them a priest.
People don't like it much, but no one dares speak against them, not
since the arrests a few months back." 'That's
enough about that," said Cook. "I think the boys might like
to see how a woman fights, don't you? You're the first Prince Tobin
has ever met still in armor." They
finished the visit with a bout of swordplay in the barracks yard.
Ahra fought hard and dirty, and showed the boys a few new ways of
tripping up and backhanding an opponent. 'That's no
way to be teaching the king's nephew!" Nari objected, watching
from a safe distance. 'No, let
them have at it," said Cook. "No one pays attention to
tides or birthrights in battle. A young warrior can do with a few
tricks up his sleeve." Lrkoniel
remained in the kitchen, committing lya's letter to memory so he
could burn it. To anyone else, it would appear to be nothing more
than a rambling account of people lya had met in her recent travels.
However, when Arkoniel muttered the correct words over it, the spell
silvered a few letters here and there, revealing the true message. It
was still cryptic, but clear enough to send a nasty jolt of dread
through him. Three
more friends lost to flames. The hounds still hunt but have not
struck a scent. Come White or Grey, flee. I keep my distance. Illior
watch over you. Grey or
White. Arkoniel imagined a column of such riders coming up through
the meadow and shivered. He tossed the letter into the fire and
watched until it was completely consumed. 'Illior
watch over you, too," he whispered, knocking the ashes to bits
with the poker. Messengers
from Mycena began to arrive by early Gorathin. From then on, all
through the summer and the long winter that followed, the boys lived
from dispatch to dispatch. The duke wrote infrequently; each letter
was read and reread until the parchment was limp and dog-eared. The
king returned to Ero for the winter, but left the bulk of his force
on the frontier. As one of his most valued commanders, Rhius
remained, camped with his armies on the western bank of the Eel
River. The Pleni-marans did the same on their side of the water and
when spring came the fighting broke out anew. The summer
that followed was hotter than any even Cook could recall. Arkoniel
kept the boys at their lessons as best he could while they fretted
that the war was passing them by. Ki turned
thirteen on the fourth of Shemin. His voice cracked wildly at odd
moments now and he proudly showed off a faint line of downy black
hair on his upper lip. Tobin would
soon be twelve, and though his cheeks and lip remained bare, he now
matched Ki in height. Both boys were still rangy and coltish in
build, but endless days of riding, chores, and arms practice had
given them a wiry strength no town-bred boy could match. Arkoniel
continued to marvel at their bond. No two brothers could have been
closer in love than these two. In fact, it seemed to the wizard that
they got on with each other better than most brothers did. Despite
the fact that they shared nearly every waking hour of the day and the
same bed at night, Arkoniel seldom heard a harsh word pass between
them. Instead, they challenged each other good-naturedly at all
pursuits and shamelessly supported one another when caught in some
prank around the house. Arkoniel suspected that Ki was behind most of
the mischief, but it would have taken magic or torture to get the
truth out of either of them. Two years
of careful tutelage had polished Ki up like a good gem. He spoke as
fair as any country lord and managed not to swear most of the time.
He still had a boy's unformed features, but he'd prove to be a comely
fellow in time and Arkoniel suspected he had the wit to go far at
court if he chose. Or at least
as far as a landless knight's middle son could go with the right
patronage. His father's tide was an empty one; it would be Rhius or
Tobin who sent him higher, and even then it would not be an easy
climb unless Rhius chose to adopt Ki—an unlikely prospect. Had this
been a normal household, the difference in the boys' stations might
have made itself felt by now, but this was not a normal house by any
measure. Tobin knew nothing of court life and treated everyone as his
equal. Nari fretted over this, but Arkoniel advised her to let the
boys be. Judged on his own merits, Ki was as worthy a companion as
any young prince could ask for and Tobin was happy at last—for
the most part, at least. His strange
bouts of foreknowing seemed to have passed, and with Lhel's help he'd
reached some accord with Brother. The spirit had grown so quiet that
Nari joked about missing its antics. Arkoniel asked Lhel if it was
possible that the spirit might go to rest at last, but the witch
shook her head and told him, "No, and you don't want for it to." If Tobin
thought at all of his mother's death, he said nothing. The only
indication that it still haunted him was his aversion to the tower. The only
apparent clouds on the boy's youthful horizon were his father's
absence and not being allowed to join him in Mycena. Since
Ahra's visit the previous summer, Tobin and Ki were painfully aware
that boys younger than themselves had gone off to war. Arkoniel's
assurances that no boy of Tobin's station, not even the Prince Royal
himself, would be allowed in battle did little to assuage his wounded
pride. At least
once a month since then, both boys tried on the armor Rhius had left
behind and swore it nearly fit, though in truth the sleeves of the
hauberk still hung well below their fingertips. They kept up their
arms practice with grim determination and splintered enough practice
blades to keep Cook in kindling through the winter. Tobin
capitalized on his hard-won writing skills and always had a thick
packet of letters ready for his father's couriers. Rhius replied
sporadically, and his letters made no mention of Tobin's pleas to
join him. However, he did send a swordsmith to the keep. The man took
their measure with his strings and calipers; within the month they
each had proper swords to practice with. Otherwise,
life went on as it always had until one summer day when Arkoniel
overheard them trying to guess the distance to Ero, and how they
might present themselves to strangers on the road. That night he
quietly fixed a small glyph on each of them as they slept, in case he
had to track them down later. and Tobin
didn't run away, but all through that long hot summer they grumbled
and fretted and talked of war, and Ero. In truth Ki
had been to the city only a handful of times, but he relived each
visit from memory for Tobin. Sitting by the dusty toy city at night,
he would point here and there, painting a picture with his words,
making a new section come alive in Tobin's imagination. 'Here's
where Goldsmith Street lies, or thereabouts, and the temple," Ki
would explain. "Remember I told you about the painted dragon on
the wall there?" Tobin
questioned him closely about Aurenfaie horses and traders he'd seen
at the Horse Fair, and repeatedly made him describe everything he
could recall of the ships in the harbor, with their colored sails and
banners. It was
Tobin, however, who taught Ki what lay inside the walls of the
Palatine Circle, for Ki had never been there. Tobin had only his
father and Tharin's stories to go by, but he'd learned them well. He
quizzed his friend on the royal lineage, as well, lining the little
kings and queens from the box up on the Palace roof. During the
day they roamed the woods and meadow wearing little more than short
linen kilts. It was too hot most days for more. Even Arkoniel adopted
their fashion and didn't seem to mind when they snickered at his pale
hairy body. Lhel
stripped for the heat, too. Tobin was shocked the first time she
stepped from the trees to greet them clad only in a short skirt. He'd
seen most of Nari often enough when she changed her shift or bathed,
but never any other woman. And Nari was small-breasted, soft and
pale. Lhel was nothing like that. She was brown all over, and her
body was almost as hard as a man's, but not flat and angular. Her
breasts hung like huge ripe plums and they swayed as she walked. Her
legs and flanks were firm, her hips wide and rounded, and her waist
slender. Her hands and feet were as dirty as ever, but the rest of
her looked as clean as if she'd just come from swimming. Tobin wanted
to reach out and touch her shoulder, just to see what it would feel
like, but the very thought made him blush. He saw Ki
blushing, too, that first time, though he didn't look all that
embarrassed. They both soon grew used to the sight of her, but Tobin
did sometimes wonder what her skirt might hide. Ki said a woman's
nether parts were nothing like a man's. Now and then he'd find Lhel
watching him as if she knew his thoughts and he'd have to look away,
coloring more hotly than ever. Do you
think Prince Korin has to fill the wash kettle at the Palace?"
Ki complained as he and Tobin toiled into the kitchen yard with their
buckets. The wooden horse carving he wore stuck against his sweaty
brown chest as he heaved his bucket up onto the edge of the steaming
wash cauldron. It wasn't even noon yet, but the Lenthin day was
already sweltering. Sweat ran
off Tobin's nose as he emptied his own bucket. Leaning over the
cauldron, he blew the steam out of the way and let out an exasperated
groan. "Bilairy's balls! Not even half full yet. Two more trips
and we're taking a swim. I don't care if Cook yells herself hoarse." 'Command
me, my prince," Ki chuckled, following Tobin back out the gate. The most
recent drought had lowered the river between its banks. They had to
pick their way over jumbled stones crusted with dead rockweed to
reach the water's edge. They were almost there when Ki stubbed his
toe badly. He let out a strangled groan as he bit back a forbidden
word; Nari had already clipped his ear once today for foul language.
"Damnation!" he hissed instead, gripping his bleeding toe. Tobin
dropped his buckets and helped him hobble down to the water. "Soak
it until it feels better." Ki sat down
and thrust both legs into the current up to the knees. Tobin did the
same and leaned back, resting on his elbows. He was even browner than
Ki this summer, he noted proudly, though Nari claimed it made him
look like a peasant. From his
current vantage point he could see the line of fine golden hairs that
ran down the muscled trough of Ki's spine, and the way his friend's
shoulder blades flared out beneath the smooth skin. Ki reminded Tobin
of the catamount they'd faced together in the mountains, tawny and
supple. The sight sent a warm glow through him that he couldn't quite
put words to. 'That
kettle won't fill itself!" Cook called from the gate behind
them. Tobin
craned his head back for an upside down look at the impatient woman.
"Ki hurt his foot." "Are your
legs broke?" 'Nothing
wrong that I can see," Ki said, throwing a handful of cold water
onto Tobin's belly. He yelped
and sat up. "Traitor! See if I help you…" Brother
stood watching him on the far bank. Tobin had called him earlier that
morning, then forgotten about him. Brother had matched Tobin in
growth, but stayed gaunt and fish-belly pale. No matter where Brother
appeared, the light never struck him the way it did a living person.
At this distance, his unnatural eyes looked like two black holes in
his face. His voice had grown fainter, too. It had been months since
Tobin had heard him speak at all. He stared at Tobin a moment longer,
then turned and gazed down the road. 'Someone's
coming," Tobin murmured. Ki glanced down the meadow, then back
at him. "I don't hear anything." A moment
later they both heard the first faint jingle of harness in the
distance. "Ah! Brother?" Tobin nodded. By now they
could both hear the riders clearly enough to know there were at least
a score. Tobin jumped to his feet. "Do you suppose that's
Father?" Ki grinned.
"Who else could it be, coming here with that many?" Tobin
scrambled back up the rocks and ran onto the bridge for a better
view. The
sun-baked planks burned his feet. He danced impatiently from foot to
foot for a minute, then set off along the grassy verge to meet the
riders. 'Tobin,
come back! You know we're not supposed to." 'I'll just
go part way!" Glancing over his shoulder, he saw Ki limping
toward the bridge. The other boy pointed at his hurt foot and
shrugged. Tobin's
heart beat faster as he caught the flash of sunlight off steel
through the trees. Why were they coming so slowly? His father always
took the last mile at a gallop, raising a cloud of dust that could be
seen above the trees long before the riders appeared. Tobin
stopped and shaded his eyes. There was no dust cloud today. Uneasy,
he stood poised to run if it proved to be strangers after all. When the
first riders came into sight at the bottom of the meadow, however, he
recognized Tharin in the lead on his roan, with old Laris and the
others close behind. There were two other lords with him, too. He
recognized Nyanis by his shining hair and Solari by his bushy black
beard and green-and-gold cloak. The
fighting must be over. He's brought guests for a feast! Tobin
let out a whoop and waved both arms at them, still searching for his
father among the press of riders. Tharin waved an answering salute
but didn't spur his horse. As they came up the hill Tobin saw that
the captain was leading a horse on a long rein—his father's
black palfrey. It was saddled but riderless. Only then did Tobin note
that all the horses' manes were shorn close to their necks. He knew
what that meant. The men had told him tales in the barracks yard— The air
beside Tobin darkened as Brother shimmered into view. His voice was
scarcely audible above the sound of the river but Tobin heard him
clearly enough. Our
father has come home. 'No."
Tobin marched on stubbornly to meet the riders. His heart was
pounding in his ears. He couldn't feel the road beneath his feet. Tharin and
the others reined in as he reached them. Tobin refused to look at
their faces. He looked only at his father's horse and the things
strapped across the saddle: hauberk, helm, bow. And a long clay jar
slung in a net. 'Where is
he?" Tobin demanded, staring now at one worn, empty stirrup. His
voice sounded almost as faint as Brother's in his ears. He heard
Tharin dismount, felt the man's big hands on his shoulders, but he
kept his eyes on the stirrup. Tharin
turned him gently and cupped his chin, making Tobin look at him. His
faded blue eyes were red-rimmed and full of sorrow. "Where is
Father?" Tharin took
something from his belt pouch, something that glinted black and gold
in the sunlight. It was his father's oak tree signet on its chain.
With shaking hands, Tharin placed it around Tobin's neck. 'Your
father died in battle, my prince, on the fifth day of Shemin. He fell
bravely, Tobin. I brought his ashes home to you." Tobin
looked back at the jar in the net and understood. The
fifth of Shemin? That was the day after Ki's name day. We went
swimming. I shot two grouse. We saw Lhel. We
didn't know. Brother
stood beside the horse now, one hand resting on the dusty jar. Their
father had been dead nearly a month. You once
told me about a fox dying, he thought, staring at Brother in
disbelief. And about lya coming. But not that our
father was dead? 'I was
there, too, Tobin. What Tharin says is true." That was Lord
Solari. He dismounted and came to stand by him. Tobin had always
liked the young lord but he couldn't look up at him now, either. When
he spoke again, it sounded as if the man was far away, even though
Tobin could see Solari's boots right there next to him in the road.
"He gave his war cry until the end and all his wounds were in
the front. I saw him kill at least four men before he fell. No
warrior could ask for a better death." Tobin felt
light, like his body was going to drift away on the breeze like a
milkweed seed. Perhaps I'll see Father's ghost.
He squinted, trying to make out his father's shade near the jar. But
Brother stood alone, his black eyes dark holes in his face as he
slowly faded from sight. 'Tobin?" Tharin's
hands were firm on his shoulders, holding him so he •wouldn't
blow away. Tobin didn't want to look at Tharin, didn't want to see
the tears slowly scouring twin trails through the dust on the man's
cheeks. He didn't want the other lords and soldiers to see Tharin
crying. Instead, he
looked past him and saw Ki running down the road. "His foot must
be better." Tharin
brought his face closer to Tobin's, looking at him with the oddest
expression. Tobin could hear some of the other men weeping softly
now, something he'd never heard before. Soldiers didn't weep. 'Ki,"
Tobin explained, as his gaze skittered back to his father's horse.
"He hurt his toe, but he's coming now." Tharin took
a scabbard from his back and placed the duke's sheathed sword in
Tobin's hands. "This is yours now, too." Tobin
clutched the heavy weapon, so much heavier than his own. Too
large for me. Just like the armor. One more thing to be saved
for later. Too late. He heard
Tharin talking, but it felt as if his head was stuffed with milkweed
fluff; it was hard to make sense of anything. "What do we do
with the ashes?" Tharin
hugged him closer. "When you're ready, we'll take them to Ero
and lay them with your mother in the royal tomb. They'll be together
again at last." 'In Ero?" Father had
always promised to take him to Ero. Instead, it
seemed that he must take his father. Tobin's
eyes felt hot and his chest burned as if he'd run all the way from
the town, but no tears would come. He felt as dry inside as the dust
beneath his feet. Tharin
mounted his horse again and someone helped Tobin up behind him, still
clutching his father's sword. Ki met them
halfway, breathless and limping. He seemed to know already what had
happened and burst into silent tears at the sight of the arms lashed
to the empty saddle. Going to Tobin, he clasped his friend's leg with
both hands and rested his forehead against his knee. Koni came and
gave Ki a hand up onto his horse. As they
rode the rest of the way up the hill, Tobin could feel his father's
gold signet swing heavily against his heart with every beat of the
horse's hooves. H
I ari and the others met them at the main gate and set up an
awful wailing before Tharin could even tell them what had happened.
Even Arkoniel wept. Nari caught
Tobin in a fierce embrace as he climbed down. "Oh, my poor
love," she sobbed. "What will we do?" 'Go to
Ero," he tried to tell her, but doubted whether she heard him. The arms
and ashes were carried into the hall and laid before the shrine.
Tharin helped Tobin cut off Gosi's mane and burn it with a lock of
his own hair in the barracks yard to honor his father. Then they
sang sad songs at the shrine that everyone except Tobin seemed to
know, and Tharin kept both hands on Tobin's shoulders as he said
prayers to Astellus and Dalna to take care of his father's spirit,
then to Sakor and Illior, asking them to protect the household. For Tobin
it was all a blur of words. When Brother appeared and placed one of
his dirty, twisted tree roots on the shelf of the shrine, Tobin was
too tired to sweep it away. No one else noticed. When the
prayers and songs were done, Tharin took Tobin aside and knelt beside
him, pulling him close again. "I was with your father as he
died," Tharin said softly, and he had that odd look in his eyes
again. "We spoke of you. He loved you more than anything in the
world and was so sad to be leaving you—" He wiped at his
eyes and cleared his throat. "He charged me to be your
protector, and so I shall for the rest of my life. You can always
depend on me." He drew his
sword and placed it point down before him. Taking Tobin's hand, he
placed it on the worn hilt and covered it with his own. "I
pledge by the Four and my honor to stand by you and serve you the
rest of my days. I gave the same oath to your father. Do you
understand, Tobin?" Tobin
nodded. "Thank you." Tharin
sheathed his sword and embraced him for a long moment. Pulling back,
he stood and shook his head. "By the Four, I wish it was my
ashes in that jar and not his. I'd give anything for it to be so." 'aylight
was failing by the time it was all finished. Mealtime came and went,
but no one lit a fire or cooked, and everyone spent the night in the
hall. A vigil, Tharin called it. As night fell, he lit a single lamp
in the shrine but the rest of the house was left dark. Some of the
servants lay down to sleep, but the warriors knelt in a half circle
around the shrine, their swords unsheathed before them. Nari made a
pallet for Tobin by the hearth, but he couldn't lie down. He joined
the men for a while, but their silence made him feel shut out and
alone. At last he crept away to the far end of the hall and slumped
down in the rushes near the staircase. Ki found
him there and sat down beside him. "You've never seen anything
like this, have you?" he whispered. Tobin shook
his head. 'They must
have done something when your mother died?" 'I don't
know." Thinking about that time still sent a shiver through him.
Ki must have noticed, for he shifted closer and put an arm around
him, just as Tharin had. Tobin slumped against him and rested his
head on Ki's shoulder, grateful for the solid, simple comfort. "I
don't remember. I saw her lying on the ice, then she was just gone." He'd never
asked what had happened to her. Nari had tried to speak of it once or
twice soon after, but Tobin hadn't wanted to hear it then. He'd put
his fingers in his ears and burrowed under the covers until she went
away. No one in the house had spoken of it since, and he'd never
asked. It had been bad enough, knowing that his mother's spirit still
walked in the tower; it hadn't mattered to him where her body was. Sitting
here in the dark now, though, he considered what Tharin had said. His
mother was in Ero. Little as
he recalled of that terrible day, he knew that the king had been gone
by the time he'd been let out of bed. And so had his mother. Like a tiny
seeding stone dropped into one of Arkoniel's alchemical solutions,
the thought crystallized years of half-realized memories into a
single sharp-edged conviction: the king had taken his mother away.
His grief-clouded mind worried at this like a bad tooth too painful
not to touch and prod. No,
Brother whispered in the dark. 'My mam
died when I was six," Ki said softly, drawing him back to the
present. 'How?"
For all their talking, they'd never spoken of this before. 'She cut
her foot on a scythe and the wound wouldn't heal." A hint of the
old upcountry accent crept back. "Her leg went all black and her
mouth locked shut and she died. The ground was froze, so Father left
her wrapped in the byre loft'til spring. I used to climb up and sit
by her sometimes, when I was lonesome. Sometimes I'd even pull back
the blanket, just to see her face again. We buried her in the spring
before the leaves came out. Father had brought Sekora home by then
and her belly was already big. I remember staring at it whilst we
sang the songs over my mam's grave." His voice broke high. 'You got a
new mother," Tobin murmured, suddenly feeling heavy and tired
beyond words. "Now I've got no mother or father at all." Ki's arm
tightened around him. "Don't suppose they'd let you come back
home with me, eh? We'd hardly notice one more underfoot." Still
dry-eyed and aching inside, Tobin drifted off and dreamt of sleeping
with Ki in a great pile of brown-haired children—all of them
snug together like a litter of pups while dead mothers lay frozen in
the byre outside. Chapter
Arkoniel woke with a stiff neck just after dawn. He'd propped himself
in a corner near the shrine, meaning to keep the vigil with the
others, but dozed off sometime in the night. At
least I wasn't the only one who fell asleep, he thought, looking
around the hall. The lamp in
the shrine still burned, and by its dim light he could see dark forms
sprawled on benches and in the rushes by the hearth. He could just
make out Ki and Tobin near the stairs, slumped together with their
backs to the wall. Only the
warriors had stayed awake, spending the night on their knees to honor
the man whom they'd followed for so long. Arkoniel
studied their worn faces. Nyanis and Solari were new to him; from
what he'd heard from Nari and Cook last night, both had been loyal
liegemen, and so perhaps future allies for Rhius' daughter. He looked
over at Tobin again; in this light he could have been any urchin from
the slums of Fro, sleeping against a wall. Arkoniel sighed, recalling
what lya had told him of her own visions. Too uneasy
to sleep again, Arkoniel went outside and wandered onto the bridge to
watch the sun come up. A few deer were grazing at the edge of the
meadow, and several others had picked their way over the river's
stony banks to the water's edge. A tall white heron stalked the
shallows, looking for its breakfast. Even at this hour the day
promised to be hot. He sat down
at the middle of the bridge and let his legs dangle over the edge.
"What now, Lightbearer?" he asked softly. "What are we
to do, if those who protect this child keep being taken away?" He waited
quietly, praying for some answering sign. All he could see, however,
was Sakor's fiery sun staring him in the face. He sighed and began
composing a letter to lya, trying to convince her to come back from
her long wandering and help him. He hadn't heard from her in months,
though, and wasn't even sure where to send it to reach her. He hadn't
gotten very far with this when he heard the gate open behind him.
Tharin strode out to join him on the bridge. Sitting down beside the
wizard, he stared out over the meadow, hands clasped between his
knees. His face was pale and deeply lined with grief. The morning
light leeched the color from his eyes. 'You're
exhausted," said Arkoniel. Tharin
nodded slowly. 'What do
you think will happen now?" 'That's
what I came out to talk to you about. The king spoke with me at
Rhius' pyre. He means to send for To-bin. He wants him in Ero with
Prince Korin and the Companions." It was
hardly a surprising turn of events, but Arkoniel's gut tightened all
the same. "When?" 'I'm not
certain. Soon. I asked him to give the boy some time, but he didn't
give me an answer on that. I don't imagine he wants Tobin out of his
reach for too long." 'What do
you mean?" Tharin
didn't answer at once, just stared out at the deer. At last he sighed
and said, "I knew you as a boy when you and lya guested in
Atyion. Since you've been here I've seen the man you've become. I've
always liked you and I believe I can trust you, especially where
Tobin is concerned. That's why I'm about to put my life in your
hands." He turned and looked Arkoniel in the eye. "But if
you prove me wrong, by the Four, you'll have to kill me to put me off
your trail. Do we understand one another?" Arkoniel
knew this was no idle threat. Yet behind the man's harsh words he
also heard fear, not for himself but for Tobin. Arkoniel
held up his right hand and pressed his left over his heart. "By
my hands, heart, and eyes, Sir Tharin, I swear to you I will lay down
my life to protect Rhius and Ariani's child. What is it you want to
say to me?" 'I have
your word you'll tell no one else?" 'lya and I
have no secrets, but I can vouch for her as I do myself." 'Very well.
I've no one else to turn to anyway. First of all, I believe the king
wanted Rhius dead. I think he may have even had a hand in getting him
killed." Arkoniel
had little experience of court, but even he realized that Tharin had
just placed his life in Arkoniel's hands twice over. Tharin must have
known it, too, but he didn't hesitate as he went on. "Ever since
the princess died Erius has pushed Rhius into the worst of any
battle. Rhius saw it, too, but he had too much honor to say so. But
some of the orders we followed were just foolhardy. There are
hundreds of good Skalan warriors who'd still be upright and drawing
breath in Atyion and Cirna if the king had shown a bit more sense in
his placement of attacks. 'The day
Rhius was killed, Erius ordered us into marshland on horseback. We
were ambushed as we tried to get out the other side." 'What makes
you think the king had anything to do with that?" Tharin gave
him a bitter smile. "You don't know much about cavalry, do you,
Wizard? You don't send horsemen into such ground in the summer, with
no decent footing and no cover. And not when there's a good chance of
the enemy being well entrenched on the other side and all ears for
your approach. An arrow took Rhius in the thigh before we got
anywhere near solid ground. I was struck in the shoulder, and another
shaft killed my horse under me. I fell and he charged on— It
was a damn massacre. There must have been two or three hundred foot
soldiers and archers, and if they weren't waiting just for us then
someone was making damn poor use of their forces. Even with the arrow
wound, Rhius fought like a wolf, but Laris told me a pikeman killed
the duke's horse and took him down. Rhius was pinned under the beast
and the enemy was on him with axes before— Before I could get
to him." A tear
rolled down and clung to the stubble on Tharin's cheek. "The
life was running out of him by the time I found him. We got him away,
but there was nothing we could do." More tears
fell, but Tharin didn't seem to notice. Something told Arkoniel that
he'd grown accustomed to weeping. "Rhius felt Bilairy coming for
him. He pulled me down close and spoke so only I could hear. His last
words in this life were, 'Protect my child with your life, by any
means. Tobin must rule Skala.'" Arkoniel's
breath caught in his chest. "He said that to you?" Tharin
looked him in the eye, holding his gaze. "I thought then that it
must be death addling his thoughts. But looking at your face right
now, I think I'm about to change my mind. Do you know what he meant?" Trust
your instincts, lya had counseled before she left. Those
instincts had always told him to trust Tharin. All the same, Arkoniel
felt like a man about to leap off a high cliff with only mist below.
The secret was a danger to whoever carried it. 'I do. It's
all lya and I have -worked for since before Tobin was born. But you
must tell me truthfully, can you still serve Tobin knowing no more
than you do right now?" 'Yes.
Only—" Arkoniel
studied Tharin's stricken face as the man groped for words. "You're
wondering why Rhius didn't tell you more… before?" Tharin
nodded, mouth pressed in a tight line. 'Because he
couldn't," Arkoniel said gently. "Rhius never doubted your
loyalty; you must believe that. One day I'll be able to explain
everything to you and you'll understand. But don't ever doubt the
duke's faith in you. He proved it with his last breath, Tharin. What
he passed to you was the most sacred trust of his life. 'What Tobin
needs now is protection, and allies later on. How many troops could
we summon today if we needed them?" Tharin
rubbed a hand over his beard. "Tobin's not quite twelve,
Arkoniel. That's too young to command, too young even to inspire much
of a following without a powerful lord to back him." He pointed
back at the keep. "Nyanis and Solari are good men, but Rhius was
the warlord who led. If Tobin were sixteen or seventeen, say—
perhaps even fifteen—it might be a different story, but as
things stand, the only close kin he has with any power is the king.
Still—" 'Yes?" 'Between
you and me, there are those among the nobles who won't stand by and
watch any child of the female line of Skala come to harm, and others
with good cause to remember who Tobin's father was." 'You know
who these nobles are? Whom Tobin can trust?" 'There are
few people I'd stake my life on, the court being what it is these
days, but I've spent my life at the duke's side and in his
confidence. I have a fair sense of how the wind blows." 'Tobin will
need your guidance there. What about the soldiers who owed their
loyalty to Rhius?" 'The common
men are tied to the lands they work. By right, they serve whoever
holds those. Until Tobin is of age to lead, I imagine that will be
whoever the king wants it to be." He shook his head. "A lot
can change between now and then, I'm afraid. Erius is sure to appoint
his own regents and stewards for the estates." 'Too much
has changed already for the child," murmured Arkoniel. "All
the same, he's fortunate to have a man as loyal as you to stand by
him." Tharin
clapped Arkoniel on the shoulder and stood up. "Some serve for
loyalty or glory, some for pay," he said gruffly. "I served
Rhius for love, and Tobin, too." 'Love."
Arkoniel looked up, struck by something in the man's tone. "I've
never thought to ask before. You have an estate somewhere. Do you
have a family of your own there?" 'No."
Before the wizard could read his face, Tharin turned and strode back
to the keep. 'That a
good man," Lhel whispered unseen, her voice mingling with the
rushing of the water below his dangling feet. 'I know,"
Arkoniel replied, comforted by her disembodied presence. "You
know about Lord Rhius?" 'Brother
tell me." 'What am I
going to do, Lhel? The king wants him to go to Ero." 'Keep Ki by
him." Arkoniel
let out a bitter chuckle. "Is that all? I'm glad to hear it.
Lhel?" But she was
already gone. '"phe
morning after the vigil Tobin woke filled with a A strange stillness.
Ki was still asleep against his shoulder, head pressed against
Tobin's cheek. Tobin sat very still, trying to fathom the strange
emptiness under his ribs. It wasn't the same as what he'd felt when
his mother died; his father had died a warrior's death, falling with
honor in battle. Ki was
heavy. Tobin shifted to ease his weight and Ki jerked awake. "Tob,
are you well?" 'Yes."
He could still speak, at least. But the sense of stillness inside him
felt like a lightless hole, or the cold deep spring by Lhel's house
oak. It was as if he was staring down into that dark water, waiting
for something. He just didn't know what it was. He got up
and went to the shrine to pray for his father. Tharin and the nobles
were gone, but Koni and some of the others were still there on their
knees. 'I should
have kept the vigil with you," he mumbled, ashamed at having
slept. 'No one
expected that, Tobin," Koni said kindly. "We shed blood
with him. You could make the offerings for the shrine, though.
Fifty-one wax horses, one for each year he lived." Koni saw
the root that Brother had left and moved to sweep it away. Tobin
stopped him. "Leave it." There was an acorn next to the
root now, too. He and Ki
spent the morning sitting on the toy room floor with his chunks of
beeswax. He'd never made so many figures at once and his hands were
soon sore, but he wouldn't stop. He let Ki knead the wax to soften it
for him, but insisted on shaping all the horses himself. He made them
as he always had, with arched necks and small pointed heads, like the
Aurenfaie horses he and his father rode, but this time his thumbnail
pinched out short strokes for the manes, making them cropped for
mourning. V,'hey were
still at work when Solari and Nyanis came to the door in their riding
cloaks. 'I've come
to take my leave, Prince Tobin," Nyanis said, coming to kneel
beside him. "When you come to Ero you must count me among your
friends." Tobin
looked up from his wax and nodded, wondering at how faded and dull
Nyanis' hair had become since he'd last seen the man. When he was
little he'd always liked to watch the firelight shining on it as they
played goose stones by the fire. 'You can
always depend on me, too, my prince," said Solari, touching his
fist to his breast. "For your father's sake, I shall always
consider myself the ally of Atyion." Liar,
Brother hissed, hovering just behind the man. He
told his captain he would be lord of Atyion himself in a year. Stunned,
Tobin gasped out, "In a year?" 'In a year,
and always I hope, my prince," Solari replied, but as Tobin
looked into the man's eyes, he knew Brother had spoken the truth. Tobin rose
and gave both men a bow, just as his father would have. As they
went off down the corridor Solari's loud whisper echoed back to him.
"I don't care what Tharin says. The boy's not—" Tobin
stared at Brother. Perhaps it was only a trick of the light, but the
ghost seemed to be smiling. K I ari
wanted to fuss over Tobin, even offering to sleep in the bed with him
again as she had when he was little, but he couldn't bear it and
pushed her away. Arkoniel and Tharin kept their distance, but always
seemed to be close by, quietly watching. The only
company Tobin could bear was Ki's, and over the next few days they
spent hours together outside the keep. Riding was forbidden during
the four days of official mourning, as were hot meals or fires after
sundown, so they walked the trails and the riverbanks instead. The feeling
of inner stillness persisted; Ki seemed to sense it and he stayed
uncommonly quiet. He never questioned Tobin's lack of tears for his
father, either, though he shed enough of his own. And he
wasn't the only one. During those first few days Tobin often caught
Nari and Tharin dabbing at their eyes, and a good many of the men
around the barracks, too. Clearly something was wrong with him. He
went to the shrine alone at night and stood with his hands on the jar
of ashes, trying to find tears, but they wouldn't come. The third
night after the vigil it was too hot to sleep. He lay awake for
hours, watching the moths flittering around the night lamp and
listening to the chorus of frogs and crickets in the meadow below. Ki
was fast asleep beside him, sprawled on his back with his mouth open,
bare skin dewed with sweat. His right hand lay a few inches from
Tobin's thigh and every so often the fingers would twitch in some
dream. Tobin watched him, envious of the ease with which his friend
slept. The more
Tobin longed for sleep, the more it eluded him. His eyes felt dry as
cold embers and the beating of his heart seemed to shake the bed. A
ray of moonlight fell on the suit of mail on its stand in the corner,
complete now with the sword that they said was his. Too soon for the
sword, he thought bitterly, and too late for the armor. His heart
was beating harder than ever now. Abandoning the bed, he pulled on a
wrinkled shirt and crept out into the corridor. There would be
servants sleeping in the hall, he knew, and if he went upstairs,
chances were Arkoniel would still be awake. Tobin didn't feel like
talking to him. Instead, he went into the toy room. The
shutters were open to the moon. In its glow the city looked almost
real. For a moment he imagined himself an owl, flying over Ero in the
night. He stepped closer and it was just a toy again, the wonderful
creation his father had made for him and spent so many happy hours
with, teaching him the streets and byways. And
the queens. Tobin
didn't need to stand on a chair anymore to reach the shelf that held
the box of figures. Taking it down, he sat beside the city and lined
the kings and queens up on the roof of the Old Palace: King
Thelatimos and his daughter, Gherilain the Founder stood together, as
always, then poor poisoned Tamir, victim of a brother's pride. Then
came the first Agnalain, Klia and all the others up to Grandmama
Agnalain, -who'd been as mad as her own daughter. Arkoniel's history
lessons had been far more detailed than any he'd had from his father
or Nari. He knew about Grandmama's crow cages and her gibbets, and
all her poisoned and beheaded consorts. No wonder the people had let
Uncle Erius put aside the Prophecy and take the throne after she
died. He took the
last battered, much-repaired wooden figure from the box: The King
Your Uncle. He was still hardly more than a name in a story, a face
glimpsed once out a window. He
took Mama away. Tobin
turned the little figure over in his hands, thinking of all the times
his father had brought out the glue pot and pieced it back together
after one of Brother's attacks. Brother hadn't bothered to break the
carving in years. A tiny
sound made him blink; looking down, Tobin found he'd snapped the
king's head off. He dropped the pieces into the shadows of the
citadel and listened to the brief clatter of their descent. His father
wouldn't come with the glue pot to mend it. This memory
brought others with it, image after image of his father laughing,
teaching, playing, riding. Yet he could not weep. Just then
Tobin heard a soft step behind him and smelled wood smoke and crushed
green shoots. Lhel's black hair tickled his cheek as she pulled his
head down on her breast. 'I tell you
a true thing now, keesa," she whispered. "Your
father, he make this city for you and you for this city." 'What do
you mean?" He pulled away and found himself alone in the
moonlight. 'What're
you doing in here?" Ki mumbled, leaning sleepily in the doorway.
When Tobin didn't reply, Ki shuffled over and led him back to bed.
Sprawling down beside him with a hand pressed over Tobin's heart, he
was asleep again as soon as his eyes closed. Tobin
wanted to puzzle out what Lhel could have meant, but the sure
pressure of Ki's hand and the witch's^ lingering scent lulled him to
sleep, free of dreams for now. Erius
didn't wait long. Less than two weeks after Tharin's return Arkoniel
glanced out his workroom window to see a cloud of dust rising on the
Alestun road. It would
take at least a squadron of riders to raise such a cloud, and
Arkoniel had no doubt who'd sent them. Cursing
himself for not being more vigilant, he was about to cast a sighting
for the boys when he spied them at the far end of the meadow. Half
naked as always in the heat, they crouched under a thick clump of
willow bay by the riverbank. 'Run!"
Arkoniel called out, knowing they couldn't see the dust rising from
there, or hear the horses over the river noise. They couldn't hear
him, either, of course, but something spooked them. They took off
through the long grass, making for the woods on the far side of the
meadow. 'Good
boys," he whispered. 'Riders!"
Tharin shouted in the yard below. He and the
others had been making repairs to the barracks roof. Tharin stood
there now, shading his eyes with one hand as he looked up at the
wizard. "Who is it?" he called. Arkoniel
covered his eyes and quickly cast the sighting. "Two score or so
armed men coming on at a gallop. They're led by a King's Herald, and
a nobleman—I don't know him." 'What
colors?" 'I'm not
sure, with the dust," Arkoniel replied. The tunics he could see
could easily be grey. When he opened his eyes again,
Tharin had already disappeared down the ladder. The
wizard's legs felt shaky as he locked up his rooms and dashed
downstairs. What if there was a Harrier wizard among those riders? He
had no idea what powers he was facing, or if he had the skill to best
them. He met Nari
coming out of Tobin's room. "I saw riders!" she exclaimed,
wringing her hands. "Oh Arkoniel, what if something's happened
at last? What if they know?" "Calm yourself. I think it's
only a herald," he told her, convincing neither of them.
Together, they ran down the stairs and found Tharin and the others
armed and ready in the hall. 'Quite an
escort for a messenger, wouldn't you say?" Tharin observed
grimly. 'It won't
do for them to see me here," Arkoniel told him. "You greet
them. I'll find the boys and keep them out of sight until we see
which way the wind is blowing. Send Koni down the meadow for us if
you think it's safe." "Let me come, too!" begged Nari.
"No. Stay here and welcome them." He slipped out the front
gate and ran for the woods. He could hear the riders clearly now.
They'd be in sight any moment. He was
halfway down to the river when Lhel's face and shoulders shimmered
into view in front of him. "Here!" she urged, pointing him
back to a spot he'd just passed. Arkoniel
dashed into the trees, then let out a startled cry as the ground went
out from under him. He tumbled down a small slope and found himself
at the bottom of a leaf-choked gully just inside the trees. He landed
with his feet uphill and one arm in a muddy runnel. Righting himself,
he climbed back up to join Lhel and the boys, keeping watch over the
edge of the gully. In their stained kilts, with dead leaves stuck to
their arms and legs, and knives at the ready, Tobin and Ki looked
like a pair of young forest bandits. 'Who's
coming?" Tobin asked, watching the mouth of the road. 'Just a
messenger from the king, I hope." 'Then why
did Brother tell Tobin to hide?" Ki demanded. 'Well, he
does have rather a lot— You say Brother told you?" He
glanced at the witch. "But I assumed—" 'I be
watching, too." Lhel waved toward the road. "Brother say
there's a wizard with them." 'Is it
those Harriers?" Ki asked. 'I don't
know." Arkoniel felt for the crystal wand in his belt pouch,
praying he and Lhel together could hold them off long enough for
Tharin to get Tobin away. "We must be very careful until we find
out." Tobin
nodded, showing no hint of fear. Ki left his side just long enough to
find a stout stick, then settled back beside the prince, ready to
face down a legion of wizards. The riders
emerged from the forest and thundered up the hill to the bridge.
Creeping to the edge of the trees for a better look, Arkoniel could
make out their leader speaking with someone at the gate. A dozen or
so of the newcomers went in, leaving the rest to water the horses at
the river. There was
nothing to do now but wait. The dust cloud hung over the road.
Cicadas sawed out a hot-weather warning. A murder of crows argued
loudly among themselves nearby, underscored by the mournful bell-like
calls of doves. A moment later they heard the single, unexpected hoot
of an owl. Arkoniel made a luck sign for reverence and mouthed
Lightbearer, keep your hand over this child! Time
dragged on. Tobin caught a shiny green beetle and let it crawl over
his fingers, but Ki remained watchful, eyes darting to follow every
sound. Tobin
looked up from his beetle suddenly and whispered, "The wizard is
a man with yellow hair." 'Are you
certain?" Arkoniel asked. This was the first time in months that
Tobin had shown any signs of foreknowing. 'That's
what Brother says," the boy replied, looking to the empty air
next to him for confirmation. So it
wasn't foreknowing after all, but forewarned. For once the wizard had
cause to be grateful to the ghost. At last
Koni came running along the verge of trees. Arkoniel turned to warn
Lhel, but she'd already disappeared. 'Here!"
Ki called, hailing the young soldier. Koni
skidded to a halt and bounded in to join them. 'The king—"
he panted. "The king's sent a lord with a message. Lord Orun." 'Orun?"
Arkoniel had heard the name but couldn't place it. Koni rolled
his eyes. "Old Lord High and Mighty. Knows Tobin's family from
way back. He's Chancellor of the Treasury now. A great pompous—
Well, never mind that. Tharin says you should come up now. We're to
go around the back if you can manage it. Nari will have clothes for
you in the kitchen, Tobin." He turned to Arkoniel. "There's
no sign of them white wizards with 'em, nor any others, but Tharin
says maybe you ought to lie low all the same." 'No
wizard?" Tobin had sounded very certain on the matter. Best not
to take chances. "Don't worry, Tobin. I won't be far away." Tobin
barely acknowledged the assurance. Squaring his bare shoulders, he
set off for the keep without a backward glance. Vrobin
wasn't afraid. Brother was still with him and would have said if it
were dangerous to go back. And Ki was there, too, faithful as any
squire in a ballad. Tobin glanced sidelong at his friend and smiled;
armed with a knife and a twisted branch, Ki looked as fearless as he
had charging that catamount. They
reached the kitchen without meeting any of the strangers. Nari and
Cook were waiting for them there. 'Hurry
along now, pet. Lord Orun won't speak to anyone but you, and he's in
an almighty hurry," Nari fussed as she hustled them into their
best tunics and combed the leaves from their hair. She didn't say so,
but Tobin could tell that she didn't like this Orun fellow any better
than Koni had. He could see that she was worried and trying not to
show it. Tobin leaned forward and kissed her soft cheek. "Don't
worry, Nari." She threw
her arms around him, hugging him tight. "What would I worry
about, pet?" Tobin freed
himself and turned for the hall, with Ki and Koni flanking him as if
he was the lord of the house. He faltered
a little at the sight of ranks of strange soldiers standing at
attention in the hall. Tharin and his men were there, too, but they
looked like a rabble by comparison. Most of them had on their dirty
work clothes instead of uniforms, and didn't look nearly as grand as
the others, who wore badges of red and gold on the breasts of their
black tunics. He quickly looked them over; there were plenty with
blond hair, but he saw no one in wizard's robes. No sooner
had the thought crossed his mind, however, then he spied Brother
peeping at him from behind one of the soldiers, a fair-haired man
with cheeks reddened with the sun. Brother didn't touch him, just
stared until the man shifted his feet and cast a nervous look around. Two men in
richer dress stood in front of the soldiers, flanked by several
servants and squires. The man in boots and dusty blue carried the
silver horn and white baton of a King's Herald. He stepped forward
and bowed very low to Tobin. "Prince Tobin, may I present an
emissary from your uncle, the king. Lord Orun, son of Makiar,
Chancellor of the Treasury and Protector of Atyion and Cirna." Tobin went
cold. Atyion and Cirna were his father's lands. Lord Orun
stepped forward and bowed. He wore a short robe of vermilion silk
with extravagantly cut sleeves edged with dangling gold beads. The
skirts were embroidered with scenes of battle, but Tobin doubted this
man had ever been a warrior. He was old and very tall, but soft and
pale as a woman, with deep lines bracketing a thick, moist-looking
mouth. He had no hair on his head at all; his wide hat of puffed silk
looked like a cushion balanced on a boiled egg. He smiled at Tobin
with his thick lips, but not his eyes. "How I have longed to
meet the son of Ariani and Rhius!" he exclaimed, coming forward
to clasp Tobin's hand. His huge hands were unpleasantly cool and
moist, like mushrooms. 'Welcome,"
Tobin managed, wanting to pull away and run back up the stairs. Orun's eyes
slid to Ki and he leaned toward him. "And who is this fellow, my
prince? Your huntsman's boy?" 'This is
Prince Tobin's squire, Kirothius, son of Sir Larenth, a knight in the
service of Lord Jorvai," Tharin put in gruffly. Orun's
smile slipped. "But I had thought— That is, the king was
not aware that a squire had been chosen for the prince." 'Duke Rhius
blessed the bond some time ago." Tharin
spoke respectfully, but Tobin sensed an unspoken tension behind the
exchange. Lord Orun
stared at Ki a moment longer, then motioned to the herald. The herald
laid his baton at Tobin's feet, bowed again, and produced a rolled
parchment heavy with seals and ribbons. "Prince Tobin, I bring
word from your uncle, King Erius." He broke
the seals and unrolled the parchment with a flourish. "From
Erius of Ero, King of Skala, Kouros, and the Northern Territories, to
Prince Tobin of Ero at Alestun Keep, 't'tvritten this the ninth day
of Shemin month. 'Nephew, it
is with a heavy heart that I write to you of the death of your
father, our beloved brother Rhius. Your father was my most valued
commander and while his death was a noble one, befitting a warrior,
words cannot convey my despair at his loss. 'In honor
of your mother's dear memory—may Astellus guide her spirit to
peace—and for the love I bear you, my nearest kin, I
acknowledge you as my ward until you attain the age to govern the
holdings left you by your esteemed parents and take your father's
place among my councilors. I appoint my trusted servant, Lord Orun,
to oversee the stewardship of your lands until you reach the age of
twenty-one years and I send him to act as your guardian until I
return to Skala. 'I have
instructed Lord Orun to escort you to Ero, where you shall take your
rightful place among my son's Royal Companions. It is my fondest wish
that you will be a beloved brother to Prince Korin and he to you. In
the Companions you will be trained to take your place at his side
when he comes to rule, just as your father served me. 'How I long
to embrace you again, as I did the night of your birth! Pray for our
victory in Mycena." The herald
looked up. "It is signed and sealed, 'Your most loving and
affectionate Uncle, Erius of Ero, King of Skala.' My prince, here
ends the message." Everyone
was looking at Tobin, expecting some response, but his tongue had
fixed itself to the roof of his mouth. When Tharin had said they'd go
to Ero, he'd pictured himself riding with his friends to the house of
his birth, or perhaps to grand Atyion. He looked
at his so-called guardian again, already hating the man. Anyone could
see that this was no warrior, just a fat, sweating pig with eyes like
two dried currants pressed into dough. The arrival of the soldiers
hadn't frightened him at all; the thought of this man taking him away
left him sick and cold all over. No! he
wanted to cry out, but he was struck dumb as a stone. Brother
answered for him. Moving more quickly than even Tobin could follow,
he snatched the scroll from the startled herald's hand and ripped it
in two, then knocked off Lord Orun's silly hat. His servants
scattered, some chasing the hat, others running for cover. A strong
wind swirled out of nowhere, whipping the soldiers' hair into their
eyes and snatching away badges and daggers. Some of the guardsmen
flinched and broke formation. Lord Orun let out an unmanly squeal and
dove for cover under a nearby table. Tharin's men laughed aloud and
Tobin nearly joined in, grateful for once for Brother's tricks.
Instead, he found his voice and shouted, "Enough!" Brother
ceased instantly and came to rest by the shrine, watching Tobin. The
spirit's face showed no emotion, but in that shared moment Tobin
sensed that Brother was ready to do murder for him. What
would he do to Orun if I asked? Tobin wondered, then hastily
pushed the unworthy thought away. Tharin's
men were still laughing. The chagrined guardsmen muttered among
themselves and made warding signs as they moved back into formation.
Among the few who'd stood fast was the blond man Brother had pointed
out to him. He was watching Tobin with a smile that showed only in
his eyes. Tobin didn't know what to make of that, except that he
already liked him better than Lord Orun, who was currently being
helped out from under the table by his servants. 'I welcome
you as guests in my house," Tobin began, trying to make himself
heard. 'Silence
for the prince!" Tharin roared in a battlefield voice, making
even Tobin jump. Silence fell and everyone turned their way. 'I welcome
you as guests in my house," Tobin said again. "Lord Orun, I
extend to you the courtesy of my hearth. My servants will bring you
water and wine. Your men can rest themselves in the meadow until a
meal is prepared." Orun
bristled visibly. "Young sir, the king's orders—" 'Have taken
Prince Tobin by surprise, my lord. He is still mourning the loss of
his father," Tharin interrupted. "I'm certain the king
would not wish his only nephew discomforted further." He leaned
his head close to Tobin, as if listening to some whispered order,
then turned back to Orun. "You must allow his highness to
withdraw for a time and meditate on his uncle's words. He will attend
you when he has rested." Orun
recovered enough to make a passable bow, though there was no
mistaking the suppressed outrage in his face. Tobin stifled another
laugh. Turning his back on the courtier and his men, he strolled up
the stairs as nonchalantly as he could manage. Ki and Tharin
followed. Behind him, he could hear Tharin's second in command, old
Laris, barking out orders for the visitors' accommodations. Arkoniel
was waiting for them in Tobin's bedchamber. 'I heard
most of it from the top of the stairs," he said, looking
uncommonly grim. "Tharin, it seems the time has come to call
upon your knowledge of court. Do you know Lord Orun?" Tharin
pulled a face like he'd eaten something bitter. "He's Royal Kin,
a distaff cousin of some degree. He's no use in the field, but I've
heard it said that he's an able enough chancellor, and the funnel
through which a great deal of information flows to the king's ear." 'I don't
like the looks of him," Ki growled. "He can say what he
likes about me, but he spoke to Tobin like he was a scullion. 'My
young sir'!" Tharin gave
him a wink. "Don't fret yourself. Orun's a painted bladder, more
wind than substance." 'Do I have
to go with him?" Tobin asked. 'I'm afraid
so," Tharin told him. "A king's summons can't be ignored,
not even by you. I'll be with you, though, and so will Ki." 'I—I
don't want to go," Tobin said, and was ashamed to hear the
quaver in his voice. Clearing his throat, he added, "But I
will." 'It won't
be so bad," Tharin said. "Your father and I served among
Erius' Companions when we were boys, you know. The Old Palace is a
fine place and you'll train with the best in the land. Not that
they'll have much to teach you, with all the training you've done
here. The pair of you may even show those city-bred dandies a thing
or two." He grinned at them, warm and sure as ever. "Prince
Korin is a good lad, too. You'll like him. So don't lose heart. You
show everyone who Princess Ariani's son is, and I'll keep an eye on
old Orun for you." Ajeaving
the boys to calm down, Arkoniel brought Tharin upstairs to his
workroom and locked the door. From here they had a clear view of the
soldiers waiting in the meadow. 'You and
Tobin snubbed the reins nicely down there." 'He did
well, didn't he, once he got started? A proper little princeling with
his back up. And I believe that's the first time I've ever been
pleased to have that demon of his show up." 'Indeed.
Tell me, when you were talking to the boys just now I had the
impression you knew more about Orun than you let on." Tharin
nodded. "The first time I met Lord Orun he was guesting with
Rhius' father at Atyion. I was about Ki's age at the time. Orun
stumbled out of the feast blind drunk and ran into me in a deserted
passageway. He backed me into a corner and offered me a cheap gilt
ring if I'd let him bugger me." Arkoniel
sat down heavily on his stool. "By the Four! What did you do?" Tharin gave
him a humorless smirk. "I told him if he had to pay he couldn't
be much good at it and legged it out of there. A day or two later I
saw that same ring on the hand of one of the kitchen girls. Guess she
was less particular." Arkoniel
gaped at him. "And this is who the king
sends for his nephew?" Tharin
shrugged. "Creatures like Orun don't prey on their own kind.
They stick to servants and peasants, those who won't complain or be
listened to if they do." 'I met with
a few of that kind in my day, too. lya taught me some choice spells
to deal -with them. But you were no peasant boy." 'No. As I
said, he was drunk. Luckily for him, I was too angry and shamed to
say anything when I should have, and he was too far gone at the time
to remember me later, so I let it pass. He'd never dare lay hands on
Tobin, I'm certain of it." 'But what
about Ki?" 'That would
be almost as foolish, given his station, but I'll have a word with
the boy. Don't worry, Arkoniel. I'll be with them every step of the
way until they're safely delivered to the companion's quarters. Arms
Master Porion is a good man and keeps a close eye on his boys.
They'll be safe with him. If Orun tries to get up to anything before
then, I'll be more than happy to reintroduce myself." He paused.
"Am I right in thinking you can't come with us?" 'lya wants
me here, unnumbered by the Harriers. But it's only a day's ride if
you need me." 'That it
should come to this." Tharin ran a hand wearily back though his
hair. "You know, I was right beside Rhius until that last bad
moment. If my horse hadn't been hit— If I'd been where I was
supposed to be, where I've always been—"
He pressed his hand over his eyes. 'You
couldn't control where the arrows went." 'I know
that! But by the Four, it should be Rhius here alive and talking to
you, and not me! Or both of us dead together." Arkoniel
studied the man's grief-stricken face, thinking again of their
conversation on the bridge after the vigil. "You loved him a
great deal." Tharin
looked up at Arkoniel and his expression softened a little. "No
more than he deserved. He was my friend, just like Tobin is with Ki—" A soft
knock came at the door. "Tharin, are you there?" Nari
called, sounding frantic. Arkoniel
let her in. The woman was in a terrible state, teary-eyed and
wringing her hands. "Lord Orun is raising a fuss downstairs!
He's frightened to death of the demon and says Tobin is to leave with
him within the hour. He says that the king's order gives him the
right to force the child. You mustn't allow it! Tobin doesn't even
have anything proper to wear to court. Ki has his sword drawn and
says he'll kill anyone who comes in the bedchamber!" Tharin was
halfway out the door before she'd finished. "Has anyone tried?"
"Not yet." He turned
to Arkoniel, eyes blazing. "What shall we do, Wizard? The
bastard sees an orphaned boy surrounded by servants and thinks he can
play the master in a dead man's house." 'Well,
bloodshed won't do." Arkoniel pondered the situation a moment,
then smiled. "I think it's time Prince Tobin set a few terms of
his own. Send Tobin up to me. Tharin, you go with Nari and calm Ki
down. I need to speak with the prince privately." Tobin
entered his chamber a few minutes later, looking pale but resigned. 'Ki hasn't
killed anyone yet, has he?" Arkoniel asked. Tobin didn't smile.
"Lord Orun says we must go at once." 'What do
you think of Lord Orun?" 'He's a
fat, pompous bastard the king left behind because he's not fit for
battle!" 'You're a
fine judge of character. And who are you?" 'Me? What
do you mean?" Arkoniel
folded his arms. "You're Prince Tobin, son of Princess Ariani,
who by right of Oracle should have been Queen of Skala. You are the
first-born son of Duke Rhius, Lord of Atyion and Cirna, the richest
lord and the greatest warrior in the land. You are the nephew of the
king and the cousin of his son, the future king. No matter how many
guardians and stewards they put between you and what is rightfully
yours, you mustn't forget one jot of that, or let anyone else forget
it, either. You're a true noble of the purest blood, Tobin, modest
and brave and forthright. I've seen it proven a hundred times over in
my time here. 'But now
you're going to court and must learn to wear a few masks besides.
People like Orun must be fought with their own weapons: pride,
arrogance, disdain, or whatever approximation you can summon from
that honest heart of yours. You mustn't imagine that your father
would treat a cur like that with respect when none is offered in
return. If someone slaps you in the face, you must slap him right
back, and harder. Do you understand?" 'But—but
he's a lord and my uncle's—" 'And you
are a prince and a warrior. Your uncle will
see that when he returns. In the meantime, you're going to have to
make your own reputation. Be gracious to those who respect you, but
have no mercy on those who don't." He could
see Tobin taking all this in and weighing it. At last he set his jaw
and nodded. "Then I don't have to be polite to Lord Orun, even
though he's a guest?" 'He's
behaved offensively. You owe him nothing more than the assurance of
safety beneath your roof. You've given him that already, calling off
Brother." Arkoniel smiled again. "That was nicely done, by
the way. Tell me, if you asked Brother to cause a stir, would he do
it?" 'I don't
know. I've never asked him to do anything, only to stop." 'Would you
like to find out?" Tobin
frowned. "I won't have him hurt anyone. Not even Orun." 'Of course
not. But Lord Orun doesn't need to know that, does he? You must go
downstairs now and inform our guest that you will need until tomorrow
to put your household in good order." 'What if he
says no?" 'Then I
hope that Brother will be good enough to convey your displeasure. Is
he here now? No? Why not call him?" Tobin still
looked faintly embarrassed as he spoke the summoning, although it
wasn't the first time the wizard had seen him do it. Arkoniel felt a
change in the air, and knew by the way Tobin turned his head slightly
that Brother had appeared behind him. The wizard shifted uneasily on
his stool, not liking the thought of an unseen guest at his back. 'Will you
help me?" Tobin asked. 'What does
he say?" 'Nothing.
But I think he will." Tobin thought of something and frowned.
"Where is Lord Orun to sleep, if he stays the night? The only
guest chamber we have is next to your room up here." Arkoniel
knew that Rhius and Ariani's bedchambers could be offered, but hated
the thought of that creature so close to the boys. "I suppose we
could put him in the tower." He'd meant it as a joke, but
Tobin's stricken look killed the smile on his lips. "It was only
a jest, Tobin, and a bad one. He can make do with the hall. Have the
servants set up a good bedstead with hangings for him, and a decent
one for the herald, as well. They can hardly complain about that in a
country house." Tobin
turned to go, but a sudden pang of fear and affection made Arkoniel
call him back. When Tobin stood before him, however, he hardly knew
where to begin. Laying a hand awkwardly on Tobin's shoulder, he said,
"You will have to go with him, you know. And life will be
different in the city. You've led such a quiet life here, with people
you could trust. It isn't that way at court." He groped for the
right words. "If anyone should—" Tobin's
face betrayed little, but his rigid stance and the darting glance he
stole at the hand on his shoulder made the wizard draw back in
confusion. "Well, you must have a care for strangers," he
finished lamely. "If anything confuses you, you should speak of
it to Tharin or Ki. They both have a wider experience of the world
than you." With a final burst of false heartiness, he waved
Tobin off to the door. "You'll soon find your feet." As soon as
the door closed behind the boy, Arkoniel sank his face into his
hands. "That was a fine send-off!" he berated himself,
wondering why the god's will and two years of good intentions had
gotten him no further into Tobin's good graces than this. He'd fought
lya to be here, to help Tobin see what a normal life might be. He
wanted nothing more than to protect him from treacherous men like
Orun, or at least to warn him. A fine attempt he'd made, too, just
now. He might just as well have summoned snakes from the walls and
grown himself a second head. Tobin
forgot all about Arkoniel's last cryptic advice, pondering instead
the revelation that he was within his rights to defy the unpleasant
man downstairs. By the time he reached his room, he was looking
forward to putting this newfound bit of knowledge to the test. Brother
still shadowed him silently. For years Tobin had been too scared of
the spirit to do anything but avoid him. Once they'd established
their uneasy truce Brother had sometimes offered information, like
the unexpected tattling on Lord Solari, but Tobin had never thought
to seek any from him. He paused
at the far end of the corridor and whispered, "Will you help me?
Will you scare Lord Orun if he insults me again?" Brother
gave him what might have been meant as the mocking semblance of a
smile. Your enemies are my enemies. At his own
door he could hear Nari weeping. Inside, he found her and Ki packing
their small collection of belongings into chests. His father's arms
and sword were lashed into a bundle in a corner. Tharin stood by the
foot of the bed, looking uncommonly dour. Everyone
looked to him as he came in. 'I've laid
out your best tunic," Nari told him, wiping her eyes on her
apron. "You'll be wanting your carving things, and your books. I
suppose we can always send along anything we miss." Tobin drew
himself up and announced, "I'm not going tonight. Our guests
should be made comfortable in the hall." 'But Lord
Orun ordered…" 'This is my
house and I give the orders in it." Seeing the way they stared
at him, he added sheepishly. "At least that's what Arkoniel
says. I have to go tell Lord Orun now. Will you come with me,
Tharin?" 'We're
yours to command, my prince," Tharin replied; then, aside to Ki,
"We wouldn't want to miss this." Grinning,
Ki followed them as far as the top of the grand staircase, where he
gave Tobin a wink of encouragement before hiding himself to watch. With Tharin
on his left and Brother before him, Tobin felt a bit bolder as he
descended into the great hall again. Orun was pacing around the
hearth, looking very put out. The herald and several soldiers were
sitting nearby at a wine table, the blond wizard among them. 'Well,
then, are you prepared to leave?" Orun demanded. 'No, my
lord," said Tobin, trying to sound like his father. "I must
put my household in order and see that my things are properly packed
for the journey. I'll go with you tomorrow as early as can be
arranged. Until then, you shall be my guest. A feast will be prepared
for the evening and a bed set up for you here by the hearth." Orun halted
and stared up at him, grey brows rising toward his hat. "You'll
what?" Brother
began to stalk the man, flowing down toward him smooth and low as fog
on the river. 'I did not
come all the way to this benighted backwater to be answered back to
by—" Lord Orun's
ill-fated hat flew off again. This time it landed in the middle of
the smoldering hearth behind him, where it blossomed into a
malodorous crimson burst of burnt silk and feathers. Orun's hands
flew to his bald pate, then curled into angry fists as he rounded on
Tobin. Brother
yanked at his sleeve, scattering golden beads, then crouched to
spring at him, teeth bared. 'Stop,"
Tobin whispered in alarm, hoping he didn't have to speak the command
spell in front of all these people. Brother subsided and faded from
view. 'Have a
care, my lord!" The blond wizard took Orun's arm, steadying him. Lord Orun
pulled away from him, then turned to give Tobin a false smile. "As
you wish, Your Highness. But I fear the spirit that haunts this hall!
Haven't you a more hospitable chamber to offer a guest?" 'No, my
lord, I do not. But I assure you by my honor that none who wish me
well will come to harm under my roof. Will you ride with me until the
feast is prepared?" it was frustrating to hide himself away at
the top of the house, but Arkoniel contented himself with keeping
watch. Since he'd seen no evidence of the wizard Brother had spoken
of, he allowed himself the occasional sighting, following Tobin as he
and his companions led Orun and a few of his escort a merry chase
over a torturous mountain trail. He was
drafting a letter to lya when Nari knocked on his door and stuck her
head in. "There's someone here I think you'd best speak to,
Arkoniel." To his
alarm, she ushered in one of Orun's armed escort. He was a
pleasant-looking young fellow, but all Arkoniel noticed at first
glance was the red-and-gold badge the man wore, and his sword.
Readying a killing spell, he slowly stood up and bowed. 'What is it
you want with me?" The
guardsman shut the door and bowed. "lya sends her greetings and
told me to give you this as a token of good faith." He held out
his hand. Arkoniel
approached cautiously, still expecting violence, and saw that his
visitor held a small pebble in the hollow of his palm. LYNN
FLEWELL1NG Arkoniel took it and closed his fist around it, feeling
lya's essence infused into the stone. It was one of her tokens, the
sort she left only with those she felt would be of use to Tobin's
cause later. How this man had come by it remained to be learned. When he
looked back at him, however, he let out a startled gasp. Instead of a
soldier, he found himself facing a man who only slightly resembled
the one he'd just been looking at. He was fair-skinned and blond, and
his features showed a strong strain of Aurenfaie blood. "You're
a shape-shifter?" 'No, just a
mind clouder. My name is Eyoli of Kes. I met your mistress last year
while passing myself off as a beggar and picking pockets. She caught
me at it and told me she had better work for me to do. I didn't know,
you see." 'You didn't
know you were wizard born?" Eyoli
shrugged. "I knew I could cloud minds and make ignorant people
do as I wished. She sent me to study with a woman named Virishan at
Hear. You remember her?" 'Yes, we
spent most of a winter with her, a few years back. I've met mind
clouders before, but this—" Arkoniel shook his head in
admiration as Eyoli resumed the form of the soldier. "And to
carry it off without detection. It's a rare gift." The young
man smiled shyly. "It's my only talent, I'm afraid, but Viri
does say I'm the best she's seen. I've had the dreams, Arkoniel.
That's what lya saw in me and she says that Ariani's son is part of
that vision somehow, and that he must be protected. She sent word to
me when she learned of the duke's death. I arrived in Ero just in
time to get myself in with Orun's lot— 'Wait."
Arkoniel held up a hand. "How do I know that this is the truth?
How do I know that you aren't clouding my mind now, pulling thoughts
from my own mind and telling them back to me?" Eyoli took
Arkoniel's hand and placed it against his own brow. "Touch my
mind. Read my heart. lya says you have the gift." 'It's not a
gentle magic." 'I know
that," he replied, and Arkoniel could tell that he'd been
subjected to such tests before. "Go on. I knew you'd need to." Arkoniel
did, not a gentle brush of the mind but a deep, direct delving into
the core of the man who stood so trustingly under his hand. It was
not a pleasant spell, and never suffered between wizards without
permission, but Eyoli allowed it, even as he groaned aloud and
clutched at Arkoniel's shoulder to keep his balance. Arkoniel
pulled the substance of the other man's life from his mind like juice
from a ripe grape. It was a brief life, and a sordid one in its
earliest details. Eyoli had been a harbor brat, orphaned early and
raised in filth, using his innate skills from an early age to keep
himself fed and cared for as best he could. His talent was a meager
one, and unpolished until lya found him, but once tapped, his
potential was amazing. He was right in thinking he'd never make a
true wizard, but as a spy, he was quite unique. Arkoniel
released him. "You say this is all you can do?" 'Yes. I
can't even make fire or light." 'Well, what
you can do is extremely useful. Are you sworn to watch over Tobin?" 'By my
hands, heart, and eyes, Master Arkoniel. The Harriers haven't
numbered me, so I can come and go in the city. Orun and the others
think I've been with them for years. They won't miss me when I'm
gone." 'Amazing.
Where is lya now?" 'I don't
know, Master." 'Well, I'm
glad to have your help. Keep a close eye on him, and Ki, too."
He held out his hand and Eyoli clasped it respectfully, wincing a
little at the older wizard's firm grip-When he was gone Arkoniel
inspected the corner of his little fingernail. Lhel had taught him
how to sharpen it, how to clasp a man's hand so that it would nick
without hurting, and just deep enough to draw a tiny "bitty of
the red." He squeezed
the blood out and rubbed the tiny smear into the whorls of his thumb.
Then, fixing the patterns in his mind's eye, he spoke the witching
words Lhel had taught him. "Into this skin I go, through these
eyes I see, into this heart I listen." In Eyoli's
heart he found a burning hatred of the Harriers, and a vision of
Virishan's school and a shining white city in the west filled with
wizards who welcomed her orphans. For that vision Eyoli would do
whatever was asked of him. Arkoniel also caught a glimpse of lya as
the young man remembered her. She looked older and more tired than
Arkoniel recalled. All the
same, he breathed a sigh of relief, feeling less alone than he had in
years. The Third Oreska had already truly begun. V,'harin's
story about Orun continued to worry Arkoniel, but the troublesome
noble went to bed early in a surly humor, settled his nerves with a
large pot of Cook's hip-pocras, and was soon snoring loudly. The
herald did the same on the other side of the hearth. Meanwhile,
Tharin saw to it that the men of the King's Guard were under close
watch in their makeshift encampment in the meadow below. As silence
settled over the house, Arkoniel sat quietly in his darkened
workroom, alert for any disturbance in the hall below. Intent as
he was on this task, he was taken quite by surprise by stealthy
footsteps just outside his own door. Sending out another sighting, he
saw Tobin stealing past in his rumpled nightshirt. The boy hesitated
briefly outside the wizard's door as if to knock, then turned away
and continued on. Arkoniel
went to the door and opened it a crack, knowing there was only one
place Tobin could be going in this part of the keep. Arkoniel
had almost let himself into the tower several times, wanting to see
the place Ariani had called her own, the place she'd chosen to die.
But something—honor, fear, respect for the duke's wishes,
perhaps—still held him back. Tobin stood
near the tower door now, arms wrapped tight around himself in spite
of the humid night. As Arkoniel watched, he took another hesitant
step, then stopped. Then another. It was painful to watch, and worse
to feel like a spy doing it. After a
moment he leaned out and whispered, "Tobin? What are you doing
up here?" The boy
whirled around, eyes huge. If not for what Arkoniel had already
witnessed, he might have thought he'd been sleepwalking. Tobin
hugged himself tighter as Arkoniel approached. 'Do you
need my help?" Another
agonized hesitation, a sidelong glance—at Brother, perhaps?
Then he sighed and fixed Arkoniel with those earnest blue eyes.
"You're Lhel's friend, aren't you?" 'Of course
I am. Does this have something to do with her?" Again that
sidelong glance. "There's something I have to fetch." 'From the
tower?" 'Yes." 'Whatever
it is, Tobin, I know Lhel would want me to help you. What can I do?" 'Come with
me." 'That
sounds easy enough. Do you have the key, or shall I use my magic to
open it?" As if in
answer, the tower door swung open for them. Tobin flinched and stared
at the open doorway as if expecting to see something there. Perhaps
he did. All the wizard could make out were a few worn stone steps
leading up into darkness. 'Did you
tell Brother to do that?" 'No."
Tobin edged forward and Arkoniel followed. The summer
night was heavy, but the moment they stepped into the tower a dank
chill wrapped itself around them like the air of a tomb. High
overhead the moon peered in through narrow slit windows. Tobin was
clearly frightened to be here, but he took the lead. Halfway up
Arkoniel heard a stifled sob, but when Tobin glanced back at him, his
face was dry. Another sob raised the hair on the back of the wizard's
neck. It was a woman's voice. A small,
square chamber lay at the top of the tower. The windows on each side
were tightly shuttered, so Arkoniel summoned a tiny point of light,
then let out a gasp of dismay. The place
was a shambles. The furniture had been smashed to bits and scattered
about the room. Mouldering bolts of cloth and tapestries covered the
floor. 'Mother
made her dolls here," Tobin whispered. Arkoniel
had heard of those later dolls; boys with no mouths. The sound
of weeping was more distinct here, but it was still faint, as if
heard from another room. If Tobin heard it, he said nothing. As he
crossed to a far corner, however, Arkoniel noted how he kept his face
turned away from the fatal western window. What had
the child witnessed that final day, when he'd received that crescent
scar on his chin? Closing his eyes, Arkoniel whispered a
blood-seeking spell. The magic made a few scattered spots of old
blood on the floor near the west window shine bright as moonlight on
silver. And there was one more trace, a tiny, much-weathered
half-moon smudge on the edge of the stone sill. The outer
edge, beyond the shutters. Tobin made
his way over the debris to a far corner and was shifting a small pile
of refuse there. The sobbing
grew suddenly louder and Arkoniel could hear the whisper of heavy
skirts, as if the weeper was pacing the room. Caught
between fear and grief, Arkoniel searched his mind for spirit spells,
but all that would come was her name. 'Ariani." It was
enough. The shutters of the west window flew open and there she
stood, a dark outline against the moonlight. Brother stood with her,
grown as tall as his sibling even in death. Arkoniel
took a step toward her and held out his hand, face to face with the
woman he'd helped wrong. She turned
to him and the light fell across her face. Black blood covered the
left side, but her eyes were bright and alive and fixed on him with a
terrible confusion that disturbed him more deeply than any show of
anger. "Forgive me, Lady." An echo a decade gone. He felt
Tobin beside him, clutching at his arm with trembling fingers. "Do
you see her?" he whispered. 'Yes. Oh,
yes." He stretched out his left hand to the pitiful apparition.
She tilted her head as if bemused by his gesture, then reached as if
they were partnered in a dance. As their hands met he felt a fleeting
sensation like the kiss of snow shaken from a branch. Then she was
gone, and Brother with her. Arkoniel
brought his hand to his nose and caught the faint scent of her
perfume mingled with blood. Then a deathly chill closed in around
him. It felt as if someone was reaching into his chest and squeezing
his heart to stop it. Another hand, this one hard and warm, found his
and dragged him from the room. Doors slammed shut behind them as he
and Tobin fled the tower. In his
workroom Arkoniel locked the door, latched r the
shutters, and lit a small lamp, then collapsed trembling on the floor
with his face in his hands. "By L Ligh™ You saw her,
didn't you." "Oh
yes. Maker forgive me, I did." 'Was she
angry?" Arkoniel
thought of the crushing sensation he'dfe,'cin M
Cmt ,'Mt&f been ner doing, or Baxter's? "She t looked
sad, Tobin. And lost." He looked up and only then noticed what
Tobin had brought back with him from the tower. "Is that what
you went up for?" 'Yes."
Tobin clutched an old cloth sack to his chest. "I—I'm glad
you caught me tonight. I don't think I could've done it alone again
and I'd never have been able to ask anyone to go—" "Again?
You mean you did that before? All by yourself?" 'When I put
it up there. That night Ki arrived." 'You saw
your mother then, didn't you?" Tobin knelt
beside him and began plucking at the knotted string that held the
sack closed. He was shivering. "Yes. She reached out for me,
like she was going to throw me out the window again." Arkoniel
searched for something to say, but words failed him. Tobin was
still busy with the sack. "You might as well see. This was my
mother's. She made it." The string came loose and he pulled out
a crude muslin rag doll with a badly drawn face. "She always
carried it." 'Your
father mentioned it in his letters." He thought
of the fine dolls she'd made in Ero. All the great ladies of Ero had
wanted one, and many of the lords, too. This thing that Tobin cradled
so carefully was a grotesque parody, the embodiment of her ruined
soul. This
thought was quickly replaced by another, however, and the hair rose
on his neck and arms for the second time that night. The doll wore a
necklace of hair 'houghr with n-c-n-
nof enough K, There
had to foe something more; a talisman of 't'tsontt-'sthat joined
the two. Something that had perhaps been passed from mother to child. 'Did your
mother give this to you?" Tobin
stared down at the doll. "Lhel helped my mother make this. Then
she made it mine." 'With your
hair?" Tobin
nodded. "And some blood." Of course.
"And this helps you call Brother?" 'Yes. I
wasn't supposed to show it to anyone, so I hid it in the tower. I
think maybe that's why Brother doesn't always stay away when I tell
him to. When Lord Orun said I must go to Ero I knew I had to get it…" 'But why
not leave it here? Leave him here?" 'No, I have
to take care of him. Lhel said so." 'If a
wizard put his mind to it, he might be able to smell it out." 'You
didn't." Arkoniel
let out a rueful chuckle. "I suppose not, but I wasn't looking.
All the same, there are plenty of wizards in Ero. You must be careful
of all of them, especially those who wear the white robes of the
King's Harriers." Tobin
looked up in alarm. "What about the one with Orun's men?" 'A blond
young man dressed as a soldier?" 'Yes,
that's the one." 'He's a
friend, Tobin. But you mustn't let on that you know about him. lya
sent him to keep watch over you, that's all. It's a secret." 'I'm glad
he's not a bad wizard. He has a kind face." 'You
mustn't only judge people on their faces—" Arkoniel caught
himself, not wanting to scare the boy, or give too much away for a
Harrier to find in Tobin's mind later, should one have cause to look.
"There are many kinds of people in the world, Tobin, and as many
kinds of wizards. Not all of them mean you well. By the Four, you
didn't trust me and I mean you nothing but good! Don't go lowering
your guard to someone just because they tip you a winning smile."
He looked down at the doll again. "Now, are you certain you must
take this with you? Couldn't you leave it here with me?" 'No, Lhel
says I have to keep it and care for Brother. No one else can do that.
He needs me and I need him." Him. Oh
dear, thought Arkoniel. Here was another plan that had worked
too well until now. Thanks to Lhel's magic, the king had been shown
the body of a dead girl child, and so the world had heard the story;
Tobin knew the truth. If someone saw Brother or heard Tobin speak of
"him," uncomfortable questions would be raised. Tobin was
watching him with those eyes that saw too much and Arkoniel felt the
terrible fragility of the new bond they'd created in the tower just
now. He thought
of lya's bag lying under his worktable; no wizard could see through
its magics to the bowl swathed in silk and spells inside. For an
instant he seized on the notion of making such a bag for the doll.
This, at least, he had the magic for, and the makings: dark silk and
silver thread, a crystal wand, needles and razors of iron, censers
for burning resins and gums. Everything lay in easy reach. With these
he could make a bag that would hold Brother in and keep out the
prying eyes of any Harrier. But the bag
itself would be seen. He or lya might carry such a thing with
impunity, but an ordinary eleven-year-old child of warrior birth
could not. He sighed
and picked up the discarded flour sack. 387 Ordinary.
As ordinary as an old doll left as a keepsake for an orphaned child. 'This
changes everything, you know," he mused, an idea already taking
form. "That little display we had Brother put on in the hall was
all well and good as the antics of a house spirit. At court no one,
especially you, can afford any taint of necromancy and there are
plenty who might assume just that if they think you can control
Brother. You mustn't speak of him except as the demon twin they know
of. It's an old story there." 'I know. Ki
told me some people even claim it was a girl child." Arkoniel
covered his surprise quickly; he supposed if rumors would come from
anyone, it would be Ki. It seemed his work was done for him after
all. "Let them go on thinking that. There's no use arguing. Say
nothing at all about it, and never let anyone see him. And you must
never let on that you know anyone like Lhel.
Her sort of magic isn't necromancy, but most think it is, and because
of that her kind are outlawed from Skala." He gave Tobin a
conspiratorial wink. "That makes us outlaws, you and I."
"But why would Father have dealings with her if— "That's
a question best left'til you're older, my prince. For now, trust in
your father's honor as you always have and promise me that you'll
keep Lhel and Brother your own secret." Tobin
fidgeted with one of the doll's mismatched legs. "I will, but
sometimes he just does what he wants to." 'Well, you
must try very, very hard for your sake. And Ki's, too." "Ki?" Arkoniel
rested his elbows on his knees. "Here at the keep you and Ki
have lived as brothers and friends. Equals, if you like. But once
you're at court, you'll soon learn that you're not. Until you're of
age, Ki has no protection but your friendship and your uncle's whim.
If you were accused of necromancy the king might save you, but Ki
would be executed very horribly and there'd be no saving him." Tobin went
pale. "But Brother's nothing to do with him!" 'It
wouldn't matter, Tobin. That's what I'm trying to make you
understand. It has nothing to do with truth. All it would take would
be a Harrier wizard's accusation. It happens often these days. Great
wizards who've never done harm to anyone have been burnt alive on
nothing more than a secondhand tale." "But why?" 'In their
zeal to serve the king, they have taken a different road than the
rest of us. I can't explain it because I don't understand it myself.
For now, promise me you'll be careful and make Ki be careful, too." Tobin
sighed. "I wish I didn't have to go away. Not like this. I
wanted to go with Father and see Ero and Atyion and go to war, but—"
He broke off and rubbed at his eyes. 'I know.
But Illior has a way of putting our feet on the right path without
shining the Light very far ahead. Put your trust in that, and in the
good friends the Lightbearer has sent to walk with you." 'Illior?"
Tobin gave him a doubtful look. "And Sakor, too," he added
quickly. "But look whose mark you wear on your chin." 'But what
about the doll? What do I do with it?" Arkoniel picked up the
flour sack. "This should do well enough." The boy
gave him an exasperated look. "You don't understand. What if the
prince sees it? Or the Arms Master? Or Ki?" 'What if he
did?" To his astonishment, Tobin blushed. "You think Ki
would think less of you for it?" "Why do you think I had it
up in the tower?" "Well, I've seen it, and I certainly
don't." Tobin
rolled his eyes. "You're a wizard." Arkoniel
laughed. "Has my manhood just been insulted?" 'You're not
a warrior!" Some strong emotion shook Tobin now, making his eyes
flash and his voice break. "Warriors don't want dolls. I only
have this one because Lhel says I must. For Brother." Arkoniel
watched him closely. The way Tobin still clasped the lopsided doll
belied every word he spoke. She
spoke, he amended. For the first time in a very long time,
Arkoniel allowed himself to make the correction, though he saw little
sign of the hidden princess in the angry youth before him—except
perhaps for the way the strong, callused hands neither crushed nor
threw away what they professed to be ashamed of. 'I believe
you misjudge your friend," he said quietly. "It's a
keepsake from your dead mother. Who would begrudge you that? But you
must manage that as you see best." 'But—"
Confusion warred with stubbornness on the boy's drawn face. 'What is
it?" 'The night
Ki came, Brother showed me. He showed me Ki
finding the doll, and how-disappointed and shamed everyone was that I
had it. Just like Father told me. And everything else he's shown me
has come true. At least I think so. You remember the fox with the
broken back? And I knew when lya was coming. And— And he told
me that Lord Solan wants to take Atyion away from me." 'Does he,
now? I'll pass that along to Tharin. As for the rest of it, I don't
know. It's possible that Brother could lie when he wants. Or that
what he shows you can change with time, or that perhaps you don't
always understand what he shows you." He reached to pat Tobin's
shoulder and this time the boy allowed it. "You're not wizard
born, but you've a bit of the sight in you. You should have shared
your visions with Lhel or me. It's our gift and our service." Tobin's
shoulders sagged. "Forgive me, Master Arkoniel. You've always
helped me and I've shown you poor courtesy." Arkoniel
waved aside the apology. For the first time since his arrival here he
felt that a true link had been forged between them. "I don't
expect you to understand it yet, but I've pledged my life to
protecting you. Perhaps one day you'll remember what we've shared
here tonight and know that I'm your friend. Even if I am only a
wizard." Grinning, he held out his hand in the warrior style. Tobin
clasped it. The old guarded look had not completely left him, but in
his eyes the wizard saw a respect that hadn't been there before. 'I'll
remember, Wizard." diausted
beyond words, Tobin crept back to his bedchamber and hid the doll
deep in one of the traveling chests. He tried to
slip into bed without disturbing Ki, but as he lay back he felt Ki's
hand on his arm. 'Are you
sick, Tob? You were gone a long time." 'No—"
Arkoniel thought he should tell Ki about the doll, and suddenly he
was badly tempted to. Maybe Ki wouldn't care, after all. He hated
having secrets between them and the doll was so close, just a few
feet away. But the memory of Brother's fury when he'd tried to show
it to Nari was still too clear. 'I just
wanted to say good-bye to Arkoniel," he mumbled. 'We're
going to miss him. I bet he has a few spells up his sleeve that would
shut Lord Orun up." It was too
hot for blankets or shirts. Sprawled on their backs, they stared up
into the shadows. 'It's been
a rotten few weeks, hasn't it?" Ki said after a while. "With
your father—" His voice choked off for a moment. "And
old Slack Guts downstairs? Not quite the way we meant to go east." A Jump
hardened in Tobin's throat and he shook his head. His father's death,
his mother's ghost, the summons to Ero, Arkoniel's warnings tonight,
and the business with Brother, the pack of strangers waiting for them
downstairs— All the
tears he hadn't been able to find over the years suddenly seemed to
find him and rolled silently down his cheeks into his ears. He didn't
dare sniff or wipe at them for fear Ki would know. ' 'Bout
time," Ki muttered huskily, and Tobin realized his friend was
weeping too. "I was starting to think you didn't know how.
You've got to mourn, Tobin. All warriors do." Is that
what this pain was? Tobin wondered. But it felt so big. If he let it
loose, it would sweep him away and he'd be lost. Easier to retreat
again into the numbing silence that had protected him for so long. He
imagined it flowing into him like liquid darkness, filling his lungs,
spreading out to his limbs and head until he was nothing more than a
black shape himself. 'That's not
good way, keesa." Tobin
looked over to find Lhel standing in the doorway. It was dawn. She
beckoned to him, then disappeared in the direction of the stairs. He
hurried after her, but caught only the sight of her ragged skirt as
she slipped out the door of the great hall. Lord Orun was snoring
loudly behind the curtains of his bed. Tobin hurried out through the
open gate in time to see Lhel disappearing into the forest across the
bridge. 'Wait!"
he called, then clamped a hand over his mouth in alarm. The
dew-soaked meadow below the keep was filled with Orun's escort. He'd
thought there were only two score or so yesterday, but now it looked
like there were at least a hundred. A few sentries were gathered
around the morning cook fire, but no one noticed him as he ran
barefoot into the woods. As soon as
he reached the shelter of the trees he understood. This wasn't the
real forest; it was the one he'd come to so often in visions after
his mother's death. This time
he didn't need Brother to guide him. He found the river path easily
and followed it to the clearing where the two gentle deer grazed by
the hole in the ground. When he entered the opening this time, he
found himself inside Lhel's oak. The -witch
and his mother sat by the fire. His mother was suckling an infant at
her breast. Lhel held the rag doll on her lap instead of the rabbit. 'This is a
seeing dream, keesa," Lhel told him. 'I know." Lhel gave
him the doll and shook her finger at him. "Don't you be
forgetting him." 'I won't!"
What else had he been worrying about all night? His mother
looked up from the baby, her blue eyes clear and sane, but full of
sadness. "I want to be there, too, Tobin. Don't leave me in the
tower!" She held up the baby. "He'll show you." Lhel
jumped, as if startled to find her here. "Keesa can't be worried
about that. Go!" Ariani and
the baby disappeared, and Lhel drew Tobin down onto the pallet beside
her. "Don't you be worried about her. That's not your burden
now. You look out for you and Brother. And Ki." She cast a
handful of herbs and bones into the fire and studied the pattern of
their burning. "This hairless man? I don't like him but you must
go. I see your path. It takes you to the stinking city of the king.
You don't know this king yet. You don't know his heart." She
threw in more herbs and rocked slowly back and forth, eyes narrowed
to slits. Then she sighed, and leaned close until all Tobin could see
was her face. "You see blood? Don't tell nobody. Nobody." 'Like the
doll." Tobin thought of his near slip with Ki. Lhel
nodded. "You love your friend, you don't tell him. You see
blood, you come here to me." 'What
blood, Lhel? I'm a warrior. I'm going to see blood!" 'Maybe you
will, maybe not. But if you do—" She touched her finger to
his heart. "You know here. And you come to Lhel." She poked
him in the chest again, harder this time, and Tobin woke in his own
bed in the hot darkness with Ki snoring softly beside him. Tobin
turned on his side, pondering the dream. He could still feel Lhel's
finger on his chest, and the softness of the furs he'd sat on. A
seeing dream, Lhel had told him. Wondering
if he should go ask Arkoniel if it had been a vision or just a
regular dream, he drifted back to sleep. porttJbree
From the memoirs of Queen Tamir II. Ero. When
I recall the city now, the actual place, so briefly known, is
overlaid in my mind by the image of the simple model my father built
for me. In my dreams wooden people, clay sheep, wax geese populate
the crooked streets. Flat-bottomed boats with parchment sails slide
whispering across a dusty painted harbor. Only
the Palatine survives in my memory as it was, and those who lived
within its walls and mazes. Tobin rode
out from the keep on the twenty-third day of Lenthin and didn't look
back. He'd said his farewells at dawn and let the women weep over
him. With Ki and Tharin beside him, his father's ashes at his
saddlebow, and a column of men at his back, he set his face for Ero,
determined to uphold the honor of his family as best he could. He'd been
surprised to learn from Lord Orun that the ride would take only a
day. With no heavy baggage to slow them, they rode for long stretches
at a gallop and soon left Alestun behind. Beyond it the familiar road
joined another that wound back into the dark forest. After several
hours the forest gave way to a vast rolling countryside netted with
rivers and dotted "with wide-flung farmsteads and estates. Lord Orun
insisted on courtly protocol, so that Tobin was forced to ride in
front beside him, with Tharin and Ki behind with the herald and
servants. The men from the keep, who were now to be called Prince
Tobin's Guard, rode in the column with the other soldiers. Tobin
looked for the disguised wizard among them, but hadn't caught sight
of him before he had to take his own position. At
midmorning they came to a broad lake that reflected the clouds
overhead and the fine stone manor house on the far side. A great
flock of wild geese was swimming and grazing along its shores. 'That
estate once belonged to an aunt of your mother's," Tharin
remarked as they rode past. 'Who does
it belong to now?" asked Tobin, marveling at the grandness of
the place. 'The king." 'Is Atyion
as large as that?" 'Put ten of
those together and you begin to match it. But Atyion has a town
around it, with fields and proper walls." Looking
back, Tobin saw that his mountains were already growing smaller
behind him. "How much longer until we reach Ero?" 'If we push
on, I should say before sunset, my prince," Lord Orun replied. Tobin
spurred Gosi on, wondering how Alestun could have seemed so far away
when the capital itself was only a day's ride. Suddenly the world
seemed a great deal smaller than it had. They passed
through a market town called Korma just after noon. It was larger
than Alestun and had the usual sort of traders and farmers crowding
the square, as well as a few Aurenfaie in elaborately wrapped purple
head cloths. Several were performing on lyres and flutes. Lord Orun
stopped at the largest inn to rest the horses and dine. The innkeeper
bowed low to him, and even lower to Tobin when he was introduced.
Their host made a great fuss over Tobin, bringing him all sorts of
foods to try and refusing to take any payment except Tobin's kind
remembrance. He wasn't used to such a commotion and was very glad to
set off again. Che icy
rode at a more leisurely pace through the heat of the day and Lord
Orun took it upon himself to keep Tobin entertained. He spoke of the
Prince Royal's Companions and their training and what Tobin could
look forward to in the way of entertainments. From him,
Tobin learned that he might purchase anything a boy could desire
simply by using his father's seal, which he still wore around his
neck. Koni had shortened the chain for him. 'Oh yes,"
Orun assured him. "Fine clothes, a proper sword, sweets, hounds,
gambling. A young man of your rank must have his pleasures. A new
sport, falconry, has recently been introduced from Aurenen, who had
it from the Zengati. Leave it to the faie to import such barbarian
decadence! Oh well, they breed good horses. But it's all the rage
among the young bloods." He paused
and his thick lips curved into a knowing smile. "Of course, any
transaction of substance—say, to sell land or raise a levy of
troops, the purchase of grain or iron, or the collection of rents
from your lands—for that you must also have the seal of your
uncle or myself until you are of age. But you're too young to trouble
yourself about such things! All will be managed for you." 'Thank you,
Lord Orun," Tobin replied, but only because good manners seemed
to demand it. He'd disliked the man on sight yesterday, and
familiarity had only strengthened the impression. There was something
greedy behind Orun's smile; it made Tobin think of something cold and
nasty stepped on in the dark. More
damning was the way he treated Ki and Tharin. Despite his fine
manners to Tobin, Orun treated them as if they were his own servants,
and managed to hint repeatedly that Tobin might consider finding a
more suitable squire once he was at court. If it hadn't been for
Arkoniel's warning, he might have summoned Brother again. Secretly,
he made up his mind to find out how to make his friends into such
rich lords that Orun would have to bow to them. K ^i could
tell that Tobin was miserable riding with Orun, but there didn't seem
to be any help for it. The long ride did give him the first
opportunity he'd had to speak with Tharin since he'd returned from
Mycena. Ki had seen
from the first that Tharin was suffering but hadn't known what to say
to him, though in his heart he guessed the cause. Tharin believed
he'd failed Rhius. A squire did not come home without his lord. Yet
from what Ki had been able to glean from the other men in the days
since their return, it had been no fault of Tharin's. Rhius had
fallen in battle and Tharin had tried to save him. Ki clung to that,
unable to believe anything less of his hero. Now they
had a new kettle of trouble to stir, and Tharin looked hollow-eyed
and exhausted. Riding a
respectful distance behind the nobles, he reined Dragon in close to
Tharin's horse and kept his voice low as he asked, "Are we going
to have to live with him now?" Tharin
grimaced. "No, you'll live in the Old Palace with the other
Companions. You'll only have to dine with Lord Orun now and then, so
he can make reports to the king." Ki had
glimpsed the Palace over the citadel walls. "It's so big! How
will we ever learn our way around?" 'The
Companions have their own apartments. And the others will help you." 'How many
are there?" 'Seven or
eight now, I think, and their squires." Ki fiddled
with his reins. "The other squires—are they like me?" Tharin
looked at him again. "How do you mean?" 'You know." Tharin gave
him a sad little smile. "I believe all of them are the sons of
highborn knights and lords." 'Oh." 'Yes."
The way Tharin said it let Ki know that he understood his fears.
"Don't let them bully you. Only one other of them can claim he's
squired to a prince. And I promise you, Ki, there's not another boy
there who surpasses you in honor." He nodded in Tobin's
direction. "Keep him uppermost in your heart and you'll always
do what's right." 'I don't
want to fail him. I couldn't bear it." Tharin
reached out and gripped his arm hard enough to make Ki wince. "You
won't," he said sternly. "You have to look after him for me
now. You swear on your honor to do that." The
challenge hurt more than the hold on his arm. Ki straightened in the
saddle and cast all his shameful doubts aside. "I swear it!" Tharin
released him with a satisfied nod. "We'll be his personal guard
in name, but you're the one who'll be at his side. You must be my
eyes and ears, Ki. If you smell any kind of trouble for him, you come
to me." 'I will,
Tharin!" For a
moment Ki feared he'd gone too far and angered the man, but Tharin
only chuckled. "I know you will." But Ki
could see that he was still worried, and that made him check the
lacings on his scabbard. He'd never imagined that going to the
capital would feel like riding into enemy territory. He only wished
he knew why. V,'he day
wore on. The road they followed took them into flat bottomland laid
out in long strips and farmed by tenants. Some of the strips lay
fallow, grown over with weeds. Others were planted, but sparsely
grown, or spoiled by disease. Great swaths of grain lay grey and
rotted and flat. In the
villages here Tobin saw children with skinny legs, big bellies, and
dark circles under their eyes. They reminded him of the way Brother
used to look. What few cattle remained were raw-boned, and there were
carcasses bloating in the ditches with ravens picking at their eyes.
Many of the cottages in the village were empty, and several had been
burnt. Most of those that remained had the crescent of Illior painted
or chalked on the front door. 'That's
odd," he said. "You'd think they'd be praying to Dalna for
healing or good crops." No one
replied. As the sun
began its slow descent behind them, a cool breeze freshened out of
the east, blowing their hair back and cooling the sweat on their
brows. It carried the first hint of a sweet new smell Tobin didn't
recognize. Orun
noticed him sniffing and smiled indulgently. "That's the sea, my
prince. We'll be in sight of it soon." A little
further on they met a cart piled with the strangest crop he'd ever
seen. A mass of some greenish brown plant quivered with every jounce
and bump of the cart's wheels. A queer odor rose from it, salty and
earthy. 'What is
that?" he asked, wrinkling his nose. 'Seaweed,
from the coast," Tharin explained. "Farmers manure their
fields with it." 'From the
sea!" Urging Gosi closer, Tobin leaned over and plunged his hand
into the smelly stuff. It was cold and wet underneath, and had a
leathery feel like the surface of Cook's calves' foot jelly after it
cooled. 'ry brown
hills like shoulders with no heads rose up against the sunset. The
thin sliver of Illior's moon climbed over them as Tobin watched. Orun
had said they'd be in Ero by sunset, yet it seemed they were in the
middle of nowhere instead. The road
was steep here. Leaning forward in the stirrups, he urged Gosi up the
last few yards to the top, then looked up to find a huge,
unimaginable expanse of sparkling water stretching out below him. The
glimpses he'd had in his vision journeys with Arkoniel hadn't
prepared him for this; they'd been fuzzy and bounded by darkness, and
he'd been focused on other things. Ki rode up
beside him. "What do you think of it?" 'It's—big!" From here
he could see how the water curved away to the horizon, broken in the
distance by islands of all sizes sticking up through the waves. Tobin
gaped, trying to take in the sheer size of it; beyond all that lay
the places his father and Arkoniel had told him of: Kouros, Plenimar,
Mycena, and the battlefield where his father had bravely fought and
died. 'Think of
it, Ki. Someday we'll be out there, you and I. We'll stand on the
deck of some ship and look back at this shore and we'll remember
standing here right now." He held up
his hand. Grinning,
Ki grasped it. "Warriors together. Just like—" He
stopped in time, but Tobin knew what he'd meant. Just
like Lhel had foreseen, the first time she'd met Ki on that snowy
forest road. Tobin
looked around again. "But where's the city?" "Couple
miles north, Your Highness." It was the blond wizard. He saluted
Tobin, then disappeared back into the milling ranks. V>hey
followed the road over the hills, and before the last light faded in
the west they crested a final rise and saw Ero shining like a gem
above her wide harbor. For a moment Tobin was disappointed; at first
glance it didn't look at all like the toy city his father had made
for him. There was a broad river flowing past it, for one thing, and
the city was spread out over several rolling hills that curved around
the bay. On closer inspection, however, he could make out the
undulating line of the city wall ringing the base of the largest one.
The Palatine crowned this hill and he thought he could make out the
roof of the Old Palace there, glowing like gold in the slanting
sunset light. For the first time he seemed to feel his father's
spirit beside him, smiling as he showed Tobin all the places he'd
taught him of. This was where his father had gone when he'd left the
keep, riding on this road, to that market, to that hill, to those
shining palaces and gardens. Tobin could almost hear his voice again,
telling him tales of the kings and queens who'd ruled here, and the
priest kings who'd ruled all the Three Lands before them from their
island capital, back when Ero was nothing but a fishing village beset
by raiders from the hills. 'What's
wrong, Tobin?" Tharin was looking at him with concern. 'Nothing. I
was just thinking of Father. I feel like I know the city a little
already—" Tharin
smiled. "He'd be pleased." 'There's a
lot more to it, though," Ki replied, ever practical. "He
couldn't make all the houses and slums and all. But he got the main
ways right." 'See that
the pair of you stay out of alleys and side lanes," Tharin
warned, giving him a sharp look. "You're still too young to be
roaming the streets on your own, day or night. I'm sure Master Porion
will keep you too busy to wander very much, but all the same, I want
your word that you'll behave yourselves." Tobin
nodded, still taken up with the wonders spread out before him. Setting off
at a gallop, they rode along the edge of the harbor and the salt air
cleared the dust from their throats. An enormous stone bridge spanned
the river, broad enough for the column to ride ten abreast. On the
far side they entered the outskirts of Ero, and here Tobin discovered
for himself why the capital was called Stinking Ero. Tobin had
never seen so many people crowded together, or smelled such a stench.
Accustomed as he was to nothing worse than cooking smoke, the mingled
reek of offal and human waste made him gag and clench his teeth. The
houses that lined the narrow streets here were rude hovels, worse
than any byre in Alestun. And it
seemed that everyone here was maimed somehow, too, with stumps where
hands or legs had been, or faces rotted with disease. Among the many
carts on the road, he was shocked to see one loaded with dead bodies.
They were stacked like firewood and their limbs shud THE B'ONE DOLL'S
TWIN dered with every bump. Some had black faces. Others were so thin
their bones showed through their skin. 'They're
headed there," Ki said, pointed to a column of black smoke in
the distance. "Burning ground." Tobin
looked down at the jar of ashes hanging against Gosi's side. Had his
father been hauled away in a dead cart? He shook his head, pushing
the thought away. Passing a
wayside tavern, he saw two filthy children huddled next to the body
of a woman. The bodice of her ragged gown was torn open to show her
slack breasts and the skirt was pushed up over her thighs. The
children held their hands up, crying for alms, but people simply
walked past them, paying them no mind. Tharin noticed him staring and
reined in long enough to flip a silver half sester their way. The
children pounced on the coin, spitting at each other like cats. The
woman settled it by rearing up and cuffing them both away. Grabbing
up the coin with one hand, she cupped a breast in the other and
flapped it at Tharin, then walked away with the children whining
after her. Tharin
looked at Tobin and shrugged. "People aren't always what they
seem, my prince. This is called Beggar's Way here. They come out to
fleece country folk coming to market." Even at
this hour the road to the south gate was crowded with carts and
riders, but the herald blew his silver trumpet and most of them gave
way. Tobin felt
embarrassed and important all at once when Tharin greeted the captain
of the guard at the city gate in his name, as if he were a grown man.
Looking up, he saw Illior's crescent and Sakor's flame carved on the
gate head and touched his heart and sword hilt reverently as they
passed beneath. Inside the
city walls the wider streets •were paved and provided with
gutters. This did little to improve the smell of the place, however,
as householders could be observed emptying their slop buckets out of
front doors and upper windows. The streets
leading up to the Palatine sloped steadily upward, but the city's
builders had cut terraces in the hillside for the larger
marketplaces, parks, and gardens. Otherwise, houses and shops were
stacked up the hillsides like the painted blocks of Tobin's city.
They were tall rather than broad, four or five stories some of them,
and built of timber over stone foundations, with roofs of baked tile. Despite all
his lessons, Tobin was seldom sure of just where they were. As Ki had
said, there were a thousand side ways off the main routes and no way
of knowing what street you were in without asking. Glad of his
escort, he let Orun take the lead and turned his attention to the
city as night fell around them. In the
lower markets the shops were already putting up their shutters for
the night, but higher up many were open and lit by torches. There were
still beggars and dead dogs, pigs and dirty children, but now they
also met with lords and ladies on horseback who carried hooded hawks
on their fists and had a dozen servants in livery at their heels.
There were Aurenfaie, too, and these must have been lords as well,
for they were dressed finer than the Skalans themselves and Lord Orun
bowed to many of them as they passed. Actors and
musicians in outlandish clothes performed by torchlight on little
platforms in the squares. There were maskers and pie sellers,
drysians and priests. He also saw a few robed figures wearing
strange, beaklike devices on their faces; these must be the
deathbirds Arkoniel had told him of. Merchants
sold their wares from poles and pushcarts and open-fronted shops.
Passing through one wide courtyard, Tobin saw carvers of all sorts at
work in booths there. He wanted to stop and watch but Orun hurried
him on. There were
wizards, too, in robes and silver symbols. He saw one in the white
robes Arkoniel had warned him about, but he looked no different to
Tobin than any of the others. 'Hurry on,"
Orun urged, pressing a golden pomander to his nose. They turned
to the left and followed a broad level way until they could see the
harbor below them, then turned again and climbed to the Palatine
Gate. The captain
of the guard spoke a moment with Orun, then raised his torch and
saluted Tobin. Inside the
walls of the Palatine it was dark and quiet. Tobin could make out
little more than a few lighted windows and the dark bulk of buildings
against the stars overhead, but he could tell by the way the air
moved that it was less crowded here. The breeze was stronger, and
carried the smells of fresh water, flowers, shrine incense, and the
sea. In that moment the kings and queens weren't just names in a
lesson anymore. They were his kin and they'd stood where he was
standing and seen all this. As if
hearing his thoughts, Tharin bowed in the saddle and said, "Welcome
home, Prince Tobin." Ki and the others did the same. 'The Prince
Royal will be most anxious to welcome you," Orun said. "Come,
he should still be at table with the Companions at this hour." 'What about
my father?" Tobin asked, laying his hand on the urn. His father
had walked here, too. He'd probably stood on this very spot. Suddenly
Tobin felt very tired and overwhelmed. Orun raised
an eyebrow. "Your father?" "Lord Rhius asked that his
ashes be laid with those of Princess Ariani in the royal tomb,"
Tharin told him. "Perhaps it would be best to see to the dead
before we attend the living. All the rites have been observed.
There's only this left to do. Prince Tobin's had the burden of it
long enough, I think." Orun made a
fair job of hiding his impatience. "Of course. Now that we're
safely arrived, however, I suppose we can do without our escort.
Captain Tharin, you and your men should go to your rest. Your old
billet has been maintained." Tobin shot
Tharin an unhappy look, dismayed at the idea of being left with Orun
in this strange place. 'Prince
Tobin, we accompanied your father where-ever he went," Tharin
said. "Will you permit us to see our lord to his final rest?" 'Certainly,
Sir Tharin," Tobin replied, relieved. 'Very well,
then," Orun sighed, dismissing his own guard. Tharin and
Koni borrowed torches from the soldiers at the gate and led the way
along a broad avenue lined with tall elms. The ancient trees arched
to form a rustling tunnel overhead, and through their trunks to his
right Tobin caught fleeting glimpses of firelight glowing between
pillars and high windows in the distance. Leaving the
tunnel of trees, they rode through an open park to a low-set building
with a flat tile roof supported by thick age-blackened wooden
pillars. At Tharin's command the men-at-arms formed a double line
flanking the entrance and knelt with their drawn swords point down
before them. Tobin
dismounted and took the jar in his arms. With Tharin and Ki beside
him, he carried his father's ashes between the kneeling soldiers and
entered the tomb. An altar
stood at the center of the stone platform inside, and a flame burned
on it in a large basin of oil. This flame illuminated the faces of
the life-size stone effigies that stood in a semicircle around the
altar. Tobin guessed that these were the queens of Skala. Those Who
Came Before. A priest of
Astellus appeared and led them down a stone stairway behind the altar
to the catacombs below. By the light of his torch Tobin saw dusty
jars like the one he carried stacked in shadowed niches, as well as
bundles of bones and skulls piled on shelves. 'These are
the oldest dead, my lord, your oldest ancestors who have been kept,"
the priest told him. "As each level fills, a new one is
excavated. Your noble mother lies in the newest crypt, deep below." They
descended five narrow flights to a cold, airless chamber. The walls
were carved floor to ceiling with niches and the floor was covered
with wooden biers. Here lay bodies tightly wrapped with bands of
thick white cloth. 'Your
father chose for your mother to be wrapped," Tharin said softly,
guiding Tobin to one of the niches on the far wall. An oval painting
of his mother's likeness covered her face, and her long black hair
hung free of the wrappings in a heavy braid coiled on her breast. She
looked very thin and small. Her hair
looked just as it had when she was alive, thick and shining in the
torchlight. He reached to touch it, then drew his hand back. The
painting of her face was well done, but she was smiling in a happy
way he'd never seen in life. 'Her eyes
were just like yours," whispered Ki, and Tobin recalled with
mild surprise that Ki had never known his mother. It seemed to him
now that Ki had always been with him. With
Tharin's help, he lifted the jar from the netting and laid it between
his mother's body and the wall. The priest stood mumbling prayers
beside him, but Tobin couldn't think of a thing to say. When they
were finished Ki looked around the crowded chamber and whistled. "Are
these all your kin?" 'If they're
here, then I suppose they must be." 'I wonder
why there are so many more women than men. You'd think with a war on
and all, it'd be just the other way around." Tobin saw
that Ki was right, though he'd taken no notice of it before. While
there were a number of jars like the one he held, there were many
more cloth-wrapped bodies with braids, and not all of them were grown
women, either; he counted at least a dozen girls and babes. 'Come on,"
he sighed, too weary of death to concern himself with strangers. 'Wait,"
said Tharin. "It's customary to take a lock of hair as a
remembrance. Would you like me to cut one for you?" Tobin
raised a hand absently to his lips as he considered this, and his
fingers lingered on the small faded scar on his chin. "Another
time, perhaps. Not now." After
leaving the tomb, Lord Orun led them back the way they'd come and
turned onto an avenue that took them past open riding grounds bounded
by more trees. The moon was high now and cast a pale glow over their
surroundings. This part
of the Palatine was a shadowed jumble of gardens and flat rooflines.
Tobin caught the shimmer of water in the distance; there was a large
artificial pond here, built by one of the queens. In front of them,
past more trees, he could see a rambling, uneven mass of roofs
bulking low on the eastern side of the walled citadel. 'That's the
New Palace there," Tharin explained, pointing to the longest
silhouette to their left, "and that directly in front of us is
the Old. All around them is a rabbit's warren of other palaces and
houses, but you won't have to concern yourself with those for now.
When you get settled in, I'll bring you to your mother's house." Tobin was
too exhausted to register more than an impression of gardens and
colonnades. "I wish I could live there." 'You will,
when you're grown." The
entrance of the Old Palace loomed before them out of the darkness,
flanked by huge columns, flaring torches, and a line of guards in
black and white tunics. Tobin
clasped hands with Tharin, fighting back tears. 'Be brave,
my prince," Tharin said softly. "Ki, make me proud." The moment
of parting couldn't be put off any longer. Tharin and the others
saluted him and rode off into the darkness. Strangers in livery
surged in around them, anxious to take charge of their baggage
and horses. Lord Orun
swooped in as soon as Tharin was out of the way. 'Come
along, Prince Tobin, Prince Korin mustn't be kept waiting any longer.
You, boy." This to Ki. "Fetch the prince's baggage!" Ki waited
until the man's back was turned and made him an obscene salute. Tobin
gave him a grateful grin. So did several of the palace servants. Orun
hurried them up the stairs, where more servants in long white and
gold livery met them at a huge set of bronze doors covered with
rampant dragons. Inside, a stiff-backed servant with a white beard
led them down a long corridor inside. Tobin
looked around, round-eyed. The walls were painted with wonderful
glowing patterns, and in the center of the broad stone corridor there
was a shallow pool where colorful fish swam among tinkling fountains.
He'd never imagined such grandeur. They passed
through a series of huge rooms with ceilings so high they were lost
in shadow. The walls were covered in more faded but wonderful murals
and the furnishings were wonders of carving and inlay work. There
were gold and jewels everywhere he looked. Bowed under a load of
bags, Ki appeared equally awed. After
several more turns, the old man opened a creaking black door and
ushered Tobin into an airy bedchamber half the size of the great hall
back at the keep. A tall bed with hangings of black and gold stood on
a raised platform in the center of the room. Past that, a balcony
overlooked the city beyond. The walls were painted with faded hunting
scenes. The room smelled nicely of the sea and the tall pines visible
outside the window. 'This is
your room, Prince Tobin," the man informed him. "Prince
Korin occupies the next chamber." Ki stood
gaping until the man showed him to a sec ond, smaller room at the
back where wardrobes and chests stood. Next to this was an alcove
containing a second bed built into the wall like a shelf. It was made
up with rich bedding, too, but reminded Tobin too much of the place
where his mother had been laid. Orun
hustled them out again and they followed the sound of music and
boisterous laughter to an even larger chamber filled with performers
of all sorts. There were minstrels, half-naked tumblers, jugglers
tossing balls, knives, burning torches—even hedgehogs—and
a girl in a silken shift dancing with a bear she led on a silver
chain. A glittering company of youths and girls sat on a raised dais
on a balcony at the far end of the room. The least of them was
dressed more finely than Tobin ever had been in his life. Suddenly he
was aware of the thick coating of dust on his clothes. The diners
didn't seem to be paying the entertainers much mind, but sat talking
and jesting among themselves over the wreckage of their feast.
Servants went among them with platters and pitchers. Tobin's
approach attracted their notice, however. A black-haired youth
sitting at the center of the table suddenly vaulted over and strode
across to meet him. He was a stocky lad of about fifteen, with short,
curling black hair and smiling dark eyes. His scarlet tunic was
embroidered with gold; rubies glowed on the gold hilt of a dagger at
his belt and in a small jewel dangling from one ear. Tobin and
Ki copied the low bows the others made him, guessing that this was
Prince Korin. The older
boy studied them a moment, looking uncertainly from Tobin to Ki.
"Cousin, is this you arrived at last?" Tobin
straightened first, realizing his mistake. "Greetings, Prince
Korin. I'm your cousin, Tobin." Korin
smiled and held out his hand. "They tell me I was at your
naming, but I don't remember it. I'm glad to meet you properly at
last." He glanced down at the back of Ki's bowed head. "And
who's this?" Tobin
touched Ki's arm and he stood up. Before he could answer, however,
Lord Orun thrust himself into the conversation. 'This is
Prince Tobin's squire, Your Highness, the son of one of Lord Jorvai's
minor knights. It seems Duke Rhius chose him without your father's
knowledge. I thought it best for you to explain— Ki dropped
to one knee before the prince, left hand on his sword hilt. "My
name is Kirothius, son of Sir Larenth of Oakmount Stead, a warrior in
your father's service in Mycena, my prince." 'And my
good friend," Tobin added. "Everyone calls him Ki." Tobin saw
the hint of a smile tug at the prince's mouth as he looked from Orun
to Ki. "Welcome, Ki. Let's find a place for you at the squire's
table. I'm sure you must be wanting your own bed after such a long
ride, Lord Orun. Good night to you." The
chancellor did not look pleased, but he could not argue with the
prince. With a last bow, he swept from the room. Korin
watched the man go, then motioned for Tobin and Ki to follow him to
the banquet table. Throwing an arm around Tobin's shoulders, he asked
softly, "What do you think of my father's choice of guardian?" Tobin gave
a cautious shrug. "He's discourteous." Korin
smelled strongly of wine and Tobin wondered if he was a little drunk.
But his eyes were clear and shrewd enough as he warned, "Yes,
but he's also powerful. Be careful." Following
just behind, Ki ducked his head nervously and asked, "Excuse me
for speaking out of turn, my prince, but am I right in thinking that
the king chose someone else to be Tob—Prince Tobin's squire?" Korin
nodded and Tobin's heart sank. "Since you've grown up so far
from court, Father felt it would be best for you to have someone
knowledgeable of the ways here. He left the choice to Lord Orun, who
chose Sir Moriel, third son of Lady Yria. See that fellow at the
lower table with the white eyebrows and a nose like a woodpecker's
beak? That's him." They'd
reached the balcony and Tobin could see the squire's table to the
right of the long feast table. Korin's description was an apt one.
Moriel was already striding over to present himself. He was about
Ki's age and height, with a plain face and white-blond hair. Tobin
started to object but Korin forestalled him with a smile. "I see
the way things are." He gave Tobin a wink and whispered, "Just
between us, I've always considered Moriel a bit of a toad. We'll
manage something." Moriel
distinguished himself immediately by bowing deeply to Ki. "Prince
Tobin, your servant and squire— 'No, that
is his squire." Korin hauled Moriel up by the arm and pointed
him at Tobin. "This is Prince Tobin. And since you can't
distinguish between a squire and a prince, we'd best leave the job to
someone who can." Moriel's
pale face went pink. Those at the table close enough to hear the
exchange burst out laughing. Moriel redirected his bow awkwardly to
Tobin. "My apologies, Prince Tobin, I— That is, I couldn't
tell— The others
were staring at them now, nobles and servants alike. Tobin smiled at
the mortified youth. "That's all right, Sir Moriel. My squire
and I are equally dusty." This earned
him another laugh from the others, but Moriel only colored more
deeply. 'My
Companions and friends," said Korin. "I present to you my
beloved cousin, Prince Tobin of Ero, who's come to join us at last."
Everyone rose and bowed. "And his squire, Sir Ki of—" 'Now, I
think you know better than that, my lord," a deep voice rumbled
behind them. A heavy-set man with a long grey mane of hair stepped
onto the balcony and gave Prince Korin a wry look. His short plain
robe and wide belt were not the clothes of a noble, but every boy
except Korin bowed to him. 'Your
father charged Lord Orun with the choice of a squire for Prince
Tobin, I believe," he said. 'But as you
see, Master Porion, Tobin already has a squire, and one bonded to him
by his father," Korin told him. This was
the royal arms master Tharin had spoken so well of. Korin may not
have bowed to him, Tobin noted, but he spoke to the man with a
respect he hadn't shown to Orun. 'So I've
heard. Lord Orun's just been round to my rooms with word of him."
Porion sized up Ki. "Country bred, are you?" 'Yes, sir." 'I don't
suppose you're familiar with court life, or the city?" 'I know
Ero. A bit." Some of the
Companions snickered at this and Moriel began to puff up again. Porion
addressed both boys. "Tell me, what is the highest duty of a
squire? Moriel?" The boy
hesitated. "To serve his lord in any fashion required." Porion
nodded approvingly. "Ki, your answer?" Ki set his
hand on his sword hilt. "To lay down his life for his lord, Arms
Master. To be his warrior." 'Both
worthy answers." Porion pulled a golden badge of office from the
neck of his robe and let it fall on his chest with a thump. Grasping
it, he stood a moment in thought. "As Master of the Royal
Companions, I have the right to judge this in the king's absence.
According to the ancient laws and customs, the bond contracted
between the fathers of Prince Tobin and Squire—" He leaned
over to Ki and whispered loudly, "What's your name again, boy? —and
his squire Kirothius, son of Larenth of Oak-mount, is a sacred one
before Sakor and must be recognized. Ki's place in the Companions
must stand until such time as the king says otherwise. Don't take it
hard, Moriel. No one knew when they chose you." 'May I
withdraw, Your Highness?" Moriel asked. Korin
nodded and the boy turned away. Tobin saw him cast a poisonous glance
in Ki's direction as he stalked from the chamber. 'Have you a
title, boy?" Porion asked Ki. 'No,
Swordmaster." 'No title!"
Korin exclaimed. "Well, that won't do for a prince of Skala, to
be served so! Tanil, my sword." One of the
young men at the squire's table hurried forward with a handsome
blade. "Kneel and be knighted," he ordered Ki. The other
squires cheered and pounded the table with their footed drinking
cups. Tobin was
delighted but Ki hesitated, shooting him a strange, questioning look. Tobin
nodded. "You'll be a knight." Ki bowed
his head and knelt. Korin touched him on the shoulders and both
cheeks with the flat of his blade. "Rise, Sir Ki—what was
it? Kirothius, Knight of Ero, Companion of the Prince Royal. There.
Done!" Korin tossed the sword back to his squire and the rest of
the table pounded their cups. Ki rose and
looked around uncertainly. "I'm a knight now?" 'You are."
Porion clapped him on the shoulders. "Welcome your little
brother, squires. Give him a full mazer and a good place among you."
This brought on another round of cup banging. With a last
doubtful look over his shoulder at Tobin, Ki went to join the others. Korin
brought Tobin to the long table and set him in a fine carved chair on
his right. The feast was long over, the cloth covered with rinds,
bones, and nutshells, but fresh trenchers and bowls had been set
ready for him. 'And now
you must meet your new brothers," Korin announced. "I won't
trouble you with everyone's lineage tonight. This is Caliel."
Korin ruffled the hair of the handsome fair-skinned youth on his
left. "This great red bear with the scruffy chin next to him is
our old man, Zusthra. Then we have Alben, Orneus, Urmanis, Quirion,
Nikides, and little Lutha, the baby until your arrival." Each boy
rose and clasped hands with Tobin, greeting him with varying degrees
of interest and warmth. There was something odd in their handclasps.
It took him a moment to realize that it was the smoothness of their
palms. Lutha's
smile was the broadest. "Welcome, Prince Tobin. You make our
number even again for drills." He had a sharp face that put
Tobin in mind of a mouse, and his brown eyes were friendly. The feast
resumed. Korin was lord of the table and everyone deferred to him as
if he were lord of the castle. With the exception of Zusthra, no one
at the table looked to be any older than Korin, but all went on as if
they ruled great estates of their own already, talking of horses,
crops, and battles. They drank wine like men, too. Prince Korin's
mazer was always in his hand and a butler always at his shoulder.
Master Porion had taken a place at the far end of the table and
seemed to be watching the prince without looking at him too often. The rest in
the company were the children of Skalan nobility and foreign
dignitaries. The young men and boys wore elaborate tunics and jeweled
daggers and rings. The dozen or so girls at the table wore gowns
decorated with wide bands of embroidery, and strands of ribbon or
jewels twisted into their hair under gauzy veils. Tobin couldn't keep
track of all the names and titles. He did sit forward and take note,
however, when a dark-haired boy was introduced as an Aurenfaie from
Gedre. Tobin had over looked him before, for he was dressed like the
rest, and wore no sen'gai. 'Gedre?
You're Aurenfaie?" 'Yes. I'm
Arengil i Maren Ortheil Solun Gedre, son of
the Gedre Khirnari. Welcome, Prince Tobin i
Rhius." One of the
older girls leaned in beside Tobin, resting an arm across the back of
his chair. She had thick auburn hair and a mix of freckles and
pimples across her sharp chin. Tobin struggled to recall her name.
Aliya something, a duke's daughter. Her green gown was embroidered
with pearls and showed the first hint of a womanly form. "The
'faie love their long, fancy names," she said with a smirk.
"I'll bet you a sester you can't guess Ari's age." Everyone
groaned, including Korin. "Aliya, let him be!" She pouted
at him. "Oh, let him guess. He's probably never even seen a
'faie before." The
Aurenfaie boy sighed and rested his chin on one hand. "Go on,"
he offered. Tobin had
seen a few 'faie, and learned a great deal more from his father and
Arkoniel. This boy looked to be about Ki's age. "Twenty-nine?"
he guessed. Ari's
eyebrows flew up. "Twenty-five, but that's closer than most get
it." Everyone
laughed as Aliya slapped a coin down in front of Tobin's trencher and
flounced away. 'Don't mind
her," chuckled Korin, quite drunk now. "She's gone sour
ever since her brother went to Mycena." He sighed and waved a
hand around at the company. "So have we all. All the older boys
are gone except for me and those unfortunate enough to be my
Companions. We'd all be in the field now if there were a second heir
to take my place. It would be different if my brothers and sisters
had lived." He took a long swig from his mazer, then scowled
unhappily at Tobin over the rim. "Why, if my sisters had lived,
Skala could have her queen back as the moon priests would have it,
but all they have is me. So I have to stay wrapped in silk here,
safely kept by to rule." Korin slumped back in his chair,
staring morosely into his cup. "An heir to spare, that's what
we're lacking. A spare heir—" 'We've all
heard that one, Korin," Caliel chided, nudging the prince.
"Maybe we should tell him about the palace ghosts instead?" 'Ghosts?"
Korin brightened at this. "By the Four, we have buckets of them!
Half of 'em are Grandmama Ag-nalain's old consorts she poisoned or
beheaded. Isn't that so, squires?" The squires
chorused their agreement and Tobin saw Ki's eyes widen a bit. 'And the
old mad queen herself," Zusthra added, scratching sagely at his
thin, coppery beard. "She wanders the corridors at night in her
armor. You can hear the drag of her bad leg as she goes up and down,
looking for traitors. She's been known to grab up grown men and carry
them to the torture chambers beneath the Palace, where she locks them
up in her rusty old cages to starve." 'What of
that ghost of yours, cousin—" Korin began, but Porion
cleared his throat. 'Your
Highness, Prince Tobin has had a weary journey today. You shouldn't
keep him so late, his first night here." Korin
leaned close to Tobin. His breath was sour with wine and his words
were slurred. "Poor coz! Would you? Would you like to find your
bed? You're in my dead brother's room, you know. There might be
ghosts, there, too, but you shouldn't mind that. Elarin was a sweet
lad—" Porion was
behind Korin's chair now, slipping a hand under his arm. "My
prince," he murmured. Korin
glanced up at him, then turned back to Tobin with a charming smile
that made him look almost sober. "Sleep well, then." Tobin rose
and took his leave, glad to escape this crowd of drunken strangers. The
stiff-backed servant appeared with Ki on his heels and conducted them
back to their room. Porion walked with them as far as their door. 'You
mustn't judge the prince by what you saw tonight, Prince Tobin,"
he said sadly. "He's a good lad and a great warrior. That's the
problem, you see. It weighs heavily on him, not being allowed to go
to war now that he's of age. As he said, it's a hard thing being the
sole heir to the throne when his father will declare no second. Such
feasts as these—" He cast a disgusted look back toward the
hall. "It's his father's absence. Well, when he's fresh tomorrow
he'll make you a better welcome. You're to be presented to Lord
Chancellor Hylus at the audience chamber in the morning. Come out to
the training grounds after that so I can have a look at your skills
and equipage. I understand you have no proper armor." 'No." 'I'll see
to that. Rest well, my prince, and welcome. I'd like to say, too,
that I remember your father as a fine man and a great warrior. I
mourn your loss." 'Thank you,
Arms Master," said Tobin. "And thank you for keeping Ki as
my squire." Porion gave
him a wink. "An old friend of yours had a word with me, just
after you arrived." Tobin gave
him a blank look, then laughed. "Tharin?" Porion held
a finger to his lips, but nodded. "I don't know what Orun was
thinking. A father's choice of squire can't be put aside like that." 'Then it
wasn't my answer?" asked Ki, a little crestfallen. 'You were
both right," Porion replied. "And you might try to smooth
Moriel's feathers if you get the chance. He knows the Palatine and
the city. Good night, boys, and welcome." Servants
had lit a dozen lamps around the room and carried in a copper tub
full of hot scented water. A young page stood by the bed and a young
man stood ready with brushes and sheets, apparently waiting to bathe
Tobin. He sent
both servants away, then stripped off and slid into the bath with a
happy groan. Hot baths had been a rare occurrence at the keep. He was
nearly asleep with his nose just above the water's surface when he
heard Ki let out a cackle across the room. 'No wonder
Model had his nose out of joint," he called, holding back the
curtains of the wall bed. All the fine bedding was gone. "He
must have had himself all moved in anticipation of your majesty's
arrival. All he's left me is a bare straw tick. And, by the smell, he
pissed on it as a parting remembrance, the little bastard!" Tobin sat
up and wrapped his arms around his knees. It hadn't occurred to him
that they'd sleep apart, much less in such a cavern of a room. 'Sure is a
big room," Ki muttered, looking around. Tobin
grinned, guessing his friend was having similar doubts. "Big
bed, too. Plenty of room for two." 'I'd say
so. I'll go unpack Your Highness' bags," Ki said, chuckling. Tobin was
about to settle back in the tub when he remembered the doll hidden in
the bottom of the chest. 'No!" Ki snorted.
"It's my duty, Tob. Let me do it." 'It can
wait. The water will get cold if you don't get in now. Come on, your
turn." Tobin
splashed out of the tub and wrapped himself in one of the sheets. Ki eyed him
suspiciously. "You're as fussy as Nari all of a sudden. Then
again—" He sniffed comically at his armpits. "I do
stink." As soon as
Ki had taken his place in the tub Tobin hurried into the dressing
room and flung open the chest. 'I said I'd
do that!" Ki hollered. 'I need a
shirt." Tobin pulled on a clean one, then dug out the flour sack
and looked around for a safe hiding place. A painted wardrobe and
several chests stood against one wall. On the other side was a tall
cupboard that reached almost to the ceiling. By opening the doors, he
could use the shelves inside as a creaking, cracking ladder. There
was just enough space at the top to hide the bag. That would do for
now. Climbing
back down, he had just time enough to shut the doors and brush the
cobwebs off his shirt before Ki sauntered in wrapped in a sheet. 'What are
you doing in here, taking the roof off?" 'Just
exploring." Ki eyed him
again, then looked nervously over his shoulder. "Do you think
there are really ghosts here?" Tobin
walked back into the bedchamber. "If there are, then they're my
kin, like Brother. You're not afraid of him anymore, are you?" Ki
shrugged, then thrust his arms up and yawned until his jaws creaked,
letting the sheet slide to the floor. "We better get some sleep.
Once Master Porion gets a hold of us tomorrow, I'm betting he doesn't
let us stand still long enough to cast a shadow." 'I like
him." Ki flung
back the black hangings on the bed and launched himself into a
somersault across the velvet counterpane. "I didn't say I
didn't. I just think he's going to work us as hard as Tharin ever
did. That's what the other squires say, anyway." Tobin did a
back flip of his own and landed beside his friend. 'What are
they like?" 'The other
squires? Hard to say yet. They were mostly drunk and they didn't say
much to me, except for Korin's squire, Tanil. He's a duke's first son
and seems a nice enough fellow. So does Barieus, squire to that
little fellow who looks like a rat." 'Lutha." 'That's the
one." 'But not
the others?" Ki
shrugged. "Too soon to say, I guess. All the others are the
second or third sons of high lords—" It was too
dark inside the hangings to make out his friend's expression, but
there was something troubling in his tone. 'Well,
you're a knight now. And I'm going to have you made a lord as soon as
I can and give you an estate," Tobin told him. "I've been
thinking about it all day. Arkoniel says I'll have to wait until I'm
of age, but I don't want to wait that long. When the king comes back
I'm going to ask him how I can do it." Ki rose up
on one elbow and stared down at him. "You'd do that, wouldn't
you? Just like that." 'Well, of
course!" Tobin grinned up at him. "Just try not to breed so
much that your grandchildren end up sleeping in a heap on the floor
again." Ki lay back
and folded his hands behind his head. "I don't know. From what I
saw back home, breeding is great fun. And I saw some pretty girls at
that banquet tonight! That one in the green dress? I wouldn't mind
having a look under her skirts, would you?" 'Ki!" Ki shrugged
and stroked his faint moustache, smiling to himself. He was soon
snoring, but Tobin lay awake for some time, listening to the ongoing
revels echoing outside the window. He'd never seen anyone drunk at
the keep. It made him nervous. This wasn't
what he'd looked for, all those years staring down the Alestun road.
He was a warrior, not a courtier, drinking wine half the night in
fancy clothes. With girls! He frowned
over at Ki's peaceful profile. The soft down covering his cheeks
caught the faint light coming in through the hangings. Tobin rubbed
at his own smooth cheeks and sighed.. He and Ki were the same height,
but his shoulders were still narrow and his skin still bare of the
spots and stray hairs that Ki was developing. He tossed a while
longer, then realized that he'd forgotten all about Brother. Barely
moving his lips, he whispered the words. Brother appeared crouching
on the end of the bed, face as inscrutable as ever. 'You
mustn't go wandering about," he told him. "Stay close and
do as I ask. It isn't safe here." To his
amazement, Brother nodded. Crawling slowly up the bed, he touched
Tobin's chest, then his own, and settled back at the end of the bed. Tobin lay
back and yawned. It was comforting having someone else from home
here, even if it was only a ghost. J't't't't.
the New Palace, in a wing adjoining the king's own now-empty rooms,
the wizard Niryn stirred in his sleep, disturbed by a half-formed
image that would not quite take shape. ,'"T"<obin
woke at sunrise and lay listening to the new -L morning sounds
outside. He could hear crowds of people laughing and talking and
whispering loudly just outside the door. From the open balcony came
the sounds of riders and birds, splashing water, and the distant
cacophony of the waking city. Even here, the scent of flowers and
pines could not mask the rising stink of the place carried in on the
warm sea breeze. Had it really only been a day ago that he'd woken in
his own bed? He sighed and shook off the wave of homesickness that
threatened to overwhelm him. Ki was a
softly snoring lump on the far side of the bed. Tobin tossed a pillow
at him, then rolled out between the heavy curtains and went to have a
look outside. It was
another clear summer day. From here he could see over the Palatine
wall to the southern city and the sea. It was incredible. With the
mist rising off the water and the sun slanting low as it rose, it was
hard to tell where the sky stopped and the sea began. In the wash of
dawn, Ero appeared to be made of fire, trees and all. Outside his
window, a colorful garden stretched away to the belt of elms he'd
ridden past the night before. There were already servants at work
with shears and baskets, like bees in the meadow at home. To either
side he could see other balconies, pillars, and the jut of tiled
roofs with fancy cornices and bits of sculpture on top. 'I bet we
could go all the way from the Old Palace to the New over the roofs,"
Ki said, coming up behind him. 'You can,"
a girl's voice agreed, seeming to come from the air over their heads. Both boys
whirled and looked up just in time to see a dark-haired blur of
motion disappear beyond the eaves above their balcony. Only the
rapidly fading scuffle of feet over tiles betrayed their visitor's
retreat. 'Who was
that?" laughed Ki, looking for a way to follow. Before they
could find an easy way up, a young manservant came in, followed by an
entourage of others laden with clothes and packages. He went to the
bed, then spied them on the balcony and bowed deeply. 'Good
morning, my prince. I am to be your manservant at the Palace. My name
is Molay. And these—" He indicated the line of laden
servants behind him. "They all come bearing gifts from your
noble kin and admirers." The
servants came forward in turn, presenting handsome robes and tunics,
under robes, fine shirts and trousers, soft velvet hats, jewels in
delicate caskets, ornate swords and knives, and colorful belts, two
matched hounds who cringed and growled at Tobin when he tried to pet
them, and a pretty falcon with golden ornaments on her plumed hood
and jesses from Prince Korin. There were boxes of sweets, caskets of
incense, even baskets of bread and flowers. Among the jewels he found
an earring from the prince similar to the one Korin wore and a ring
from Lord Orun. Best of all, however, were the two shirts of shining,
supple mail sent by Porion from the Royal Armory. 'At last,
one that fits!" Ki exclaimed, throwing one over his nightshirt. 'It is
customary when a new Companion arrives in the city," Molay
explained, seeing Tobin's consternation. "Perhaps I might assist
you in such matters?" 'Yes,
please!" 'Your
Highness must of course wear first the suit of clothes sent by Lord
Chancellor Hylus for your audience with him this morning. I see he
has had it done in black, out of respect for your loss— But I
see you have no mourning ring!" 'No. I
didn't know how to get one." "I shall call in a jeweler for
you, my prince. For now, you might wear this jewel from the Prince
Royal, and of course this ring from your guardian. And then each gift
in turn according to the rank of the giver." 'I thought
I heard voices!" Korin strode out of the dressing room with
Caliel. Both wore fighting leathers with fantastically elaborate
raised work and metal fittings. Tobin wondered how they could move
properly in such a costume, or how they'd dare risk damaging it. 'There's a
connecting door between our rooms," Korin explained, taking
Tobin to the back of the dressing room and showing him where a small
panel swung back on a short dusty passage. At the far end he had a
glimpse of gold and red hangings and a pack of hounds watching
expectantly for their master's return. "It only opens from my
side, but if you knock I can let you through." They went
back to Tobin's chamber to inspect the jumble of gifts. "Not a
bad haul, coz. I'm glad to see you've been shown the proper respect
even though no one knows you yet. Do you like my hawk?" 'Very
much!" Tobin exclaimed, though in truth he was a little afraid
of her. "Will you show me how to hunt with her?" 'Will he?
It's all he wants to do, besides sword fighting," Caliel
exclaimed, stroking the falcon's smooth wings. "Gladly, but
Caliel's our best falconer," Korin demurred modestly. "He
has some Aurenfaie blood, you know." 'Her name
is Erizhal," Caliel told Tobin. "It's 'faie for 'arrow of
the sun.' The royal falconer will keep her in good trim for you.
We'll have to bring Ari along, too. He's got a wizard's touch with
hawks." With the
help of the older boys, Tobin sorted through the gifts. Those sent by
lesser nobles were by custom passed to his squire, so Ki came out of
it quite well, too. Korin drew up a list of proper return gifts and
Tobin used his father's seal to authorize the deliveries. 'There, now
you're a true Ero noble," laughed Korin. "To be one, you
must spend exorbitant amounts of money and drink exorbitant amounts
of wine. We'll get to the wine later." The sun was
well up by the time they'd finished. Korin and Caliel went back the
way they'd come, promising to meet Tobin on the training field later. Molay
helped the boys dress, and by the time he'd finished they hardly
recognized each other. Tobin's robe from Chancellor Hylus was of fine
black wool split at the front, cut slim in the waist and embroidered
in red and golden silk with the Dragon of Skala on the breast and the
hems. The oversleeves were cut full to show off the sleeves of the
red under robe. When he'd put on shoes of soft red leather and the
first jewels he'd ever worn, he hardly felt like himself at all. As
for Ki, he looked like a dapper fox in russet and green. Standing at
the polished bronze mirror together, they both burst out laughing.
Molay offered them each a new sword, but they kept the plain,
serviceable blades Tobin's father had given them, accepting no other. Ctt folay
was very pleased with them, and fussed over the trimming of their
hair and nails as much as Nari ever had. When he was satisfied, he
sent the young page scampering off for their escort. To Tobin's
considerable disappointment, this proved to be not Tharin, but Lord
Orun. He was more resplendent than ever, in shimmering silken robes
of sunbird gold, with a black and gold hood of office over his
shoulders. A jeweled triangle of heavy black velvet covered his bald
head. He paused
in the doorway and raised an approving eyebrow. "Well, now you
do look like a young prince, Your
Highness. Ah, and I see you received my token. I hope it pleases
you?" 'Thank you,
my lord. It was most generous of you," Tobin said, holding out
his hand to show off the ring. After the incident with Moriel last
night, and what Korin had said, he was glad to be able to please his
guardian a little today. The
audience chamber was in the New Palace, far enough away that they
found their horses saddled and ready for them as they came out of the
palace gate. Ki made a show of checking the saddles before Tobin
mounted, and rode at Tobin's left as Tharin had taught him. The New
Palace dwarfed the Old in both size and grandeur. Many of its
pillared courtyards stood open to the sky and had splashing fountains
to make music through the corridors beyond. Windows with panes of
colored glass cast patterns on the marble floors, and shrines as tall
as the keep tower filled the palace with their incense. The
audience chamber was equal in scale to all the rest. The vaulted
white stone roof was held aloft by ranks of pillars carved with
twisting dragons. The huge
chamber was filled with people in clothing of every sort, from rags
to fine robes. There were Aurenfaie in white tunics and jewels and
sen'gai of every color, and other foreigners Tobin did not recognize
at all—people in blue tunics that billowed like tents around
them, and men in brightly striped robes with skin the color of dark
tea and curly black hair like Lhel's. Some stood
in intent knots, speaking in hushed, rapid voices. Others lounged at
their leisure on couches or on the edges of the great fountains,
toying with their hawks or the hounds and spotted cats they led on
chains. At the far
end of the chamber a beautiful golden throne stood on a wide dais,
but no one sat there. A cape bearing the king's crest was draped over
it and a crown had been placed on the seat. Two men sat
in lower chairs before it. The older of the pair was listening to
each petitioner in turn, just as Tobin's father had in the hall at
the keep. He had a short white beard, a number of heavy gold chains
and seals around his neck, and wore long black robes and a hat like a
red velvet pancake on his head. 'That is
Lord Chancellor Hylus, the King's Regent," Orun told him as they
approached. "He is a distant kinsman of yours." 'And the
other?" asked Tobin, though he'd already guessed. The other
man was much younger, with jasper-colored eyes and a forked beard
that shone coppery red in the sunlight. But all Tobin saw at first
were his robes. They were white as sunlit snow, with sweeping designs
over the shoulders and skirts picked out in glittering silver thread.
This was one of the Harriers that Arkoniel had warned him about. He'd
been sure to send Brother away last night, but he looked around
quickly just to be sure. 'That is
the King's Wizard, Lord Niryn," said Orun, and Tobin's heart
skipped a beat. This was not only a Harrier, but the
Harrier. He feared
that they'd spend the whole morning waiting their turn, but Lord Orun
led them right up to the front and bowed to Hylus. Tobin had
thought that the Lord Chancellor Hylus had a harsh face, for he'd
been dealing sternly with a baker accused of selling underweight
loaves when they approached. As soon as Orun introduced Tobin,
however, the old man's face softened into a warm smile. He held out
his hand and Tobin climbed the steps to join him. 'It's as if
I see your dear mother looking at me out of your eyes!" he
exclaimed, clasping Tobin's hand between ones that felt like they
were made of bones and thin leather. "And her grandmother, too.
Most extraordinary. You must dine with me soon, dear boy, and I will
tell you stories of them. You'll have met my grandson Nikides among
the Companions?" 'I'm sure,
my lord." Tobin thought he remembered the name, but couldn't
summon a face to go with it. There had been so many last night. The
chancellor appeared pleased. "I'm sure he'll be a good friend to
you. Have they given you a squire?" Tobin
introduced Ki, still standing with Orun below. Hylus squinted down at
him for a moment. "Sir Larenth? I don't know that name. This is
a fine-looking young fellow, though. Welcome to you both." He
looked at Tobin a moment longer, then turned to the man beside him.
"And allow me to present your uncle's wizard, Lord Niryn." Tobin's
heart knocked against his ribs again as he acknowledged Niryn's bow.
Yet it was Arkoniel's warning that made his heart race rather than
anything in the man's appearance, for Niryn was a perfectly ordinary
looking man. The wizard inquired politely about his journey and his
home, spoke kindly of his parents, then asked, "Do you enjoy
seeing magic, my prince?" 'No,"
Tobin said quickly. Arkoniel had done his best to interest him in
tricks and visions—Ki loved anything of the sort—but
Tobin still found most of it disconcerting. He didn't want to give
this stranger any encouragement. The wizard
didn't seem insulted. "I remember the night of your birth,
Prince Tobin. You did not have this mark on your chin then. But there
was another, I think?" 'It's a
scar. You're thinking of my wisdom mark." 'Ah yes.
Curious things, such- marks. May I see how it has developed? I have
made a study of such things." Tobin
pushed back his sleeve and showed Niryn and Hylus the red mark. Nari
called it a rosebud, but to him it looked like a grouse's heart. Niryn
covered it with the tips of two fingers. His expression did not
change, but Tobin felt an unpleasant tingle pass through his skin and
saw the man's jasper eyes go hard and distant for an instant, just
the way Arkoniel's did when he made magic. But Arkoniel had never
done any magic on him without first asking permission. Shocked,
Tobin pulled away. "Don't be rude, sir!" Niryn
bowed. "My apologies, my prince. I was merely reading the mark.
It does indeed denote great wisdom. You are most fortunate." 'He did say
he does not like tricks," murmured Hylus, looking displeased
with the wizard. "His mother was much the same at that age." 'My
apologies," Niryn said again. "I hope you will allow me to
redeem myself another day, Prince Tobin." 'If you
wish, my lord." For once Tobin was grateful when Orun loomed up
behind him to shepherd him away. When he was sure they were out of
sight of the dais he pushed his sleeve back and looked at his
birthmark, wondering if Niryn had done anything to it. But it seemed
just the same. at went
well enough, I suppose," Orun sniffed as he escorted them back
to their room. "You would do better to be civil to Niryn,
though. He's a powerful man." Tobin
wondered angrily if any of the powerful men in Ero were pleasant.
Orun left them with a promise to feast with Tobin in a few days and
went on his way. Ki made a
face at Orun's back, then turned to Tobin with concern. "Did the
wizard hurt you?" 'No. I just
don't like to be pawed at." Molay had
laid out a pair of fine leather jerkins for them, similar to those
Korin and Caliel had worn, but they were far too stiff and fancy for
Tobin's taste. Instead, he
sent Ki to find the worn leathers they'd brought with them from home.
Molay was clearly dismayed at the thought of Tobin wearing such plain
garb but Tobin happily ignored him, glad to be back in comfortable
old clothes again. Gathering up their swords, helms, and bows, he and
Ki followed the waiting page to the main entrance. So happy
was he to finally be doing something war-riorlike, he didn't notice
the odd looks they were attracting until Ki tugged on his sleeve and
tilted his chin at two robed noblemen staring at them disapprovingly. 'I should
be carrying your gear," Ki muttered. "They must think we're
a couple of peasant soldiers who wandered in from the street!" The page
heard him. Throwing his shoulders back, he cried out in a ringing
voice, "Make way for His Highness, Prince Tobin of Ero!" The words
worked like magic. All the muttering, glittering nobles parted and
bowed to Tobin and Ki as they strode past in their dusty shoes and
scarred leathers. Tobin tried to copy Lord Orun's haughty nod, but
Ki's smothered snort behind him probably spoiled the effect. At the
palace entrance the page stepped aside and bowed deeply, though not
quickly enough to hide his own grin. 'What's
your name?" asked Tobin. 'Baldus, my
prince." 'Well done,
Baldus." %,'he
Companions trained on a broad stretch of open land near the center of
the Palatine. There were riding grounds, sword fighting rings,
archery lists, stables, and a high stone Temple of the Four, which
the boys ran to each morning to make sacrifice to Sakor. The
Companions and their squires were shooting in the archery lists when
Tobin and Ki arrived. Even at a distance, Tobin could see that all of
them wore fine clothes like Korin's. There were scores of other
people around the field, as well. Tobin recognized some of the guests
from the banquet last night, though he could recall few names. Many
of the girls were there, too, in bright gowns and light capes of silk
that fluttered in the morning breeze like butterfly wings. Some rode
their palfreys around the perimeter. Others were shooting at targets
or flying their hawks. Ki's eyes followed them, and Tobin suspected
he was looking for auburn-haired Aliya. Master
Porion didn't seem to mind how they were dressed. 'From the
looks of your leathers, you've been practicing with bears and
wildcats!" he said. "The others are at their shooting, so
you may as well begin there." Korin might
be lord of the mess table, but Porion was master here. At his
approach all eighteen boys turned and made him a respectful salute,
fist to heart. A few also raised their hands to smother smirks at the
sight of Tobin and Ki's leathers. Someone in the crowd watching the
Companions laughed aloud and Tobin thought he caught a glimpse of
Moriel's pale head. The
Companions' practice jerkins were as ornate as their banquet garb,
worked with raised patterns and colors to show hunting or battle
scenes. Fancy gold and silver work glittered on scabbards and
quivers. Tobin felt dull as a cowbird by comparison. Even the squires
were better turned out than he was. Remember
whose son you are, he thought, and squared his shoulders. 'Today you
become a Royal Companion in earnest," Porion told him. "I
know I don't have to teach you of honor; I know whose son you are.
Here I charge you to add to it the Companion's Rule: Stand together.
We stand for the Prince Royal, and we stand with him for the king and
Skala. We don't fight among ourselves. If you have a grievance with
one of your fellows, you bring it to the circle." He pointed to
the stone outline of the sword fighting ground. "Words are met
with words and judged by me. Blows are exchanged only here. To strike
another Companion is a serious offense, punishable by flogging on the
Temple steps. A Companion who breaks the rule is punished by Korin, a
squire by his own lord. Isn't that so, Arms?" One of the
squires who'd smirked at Tobin's jerkin gave the arms master a
sheepish nod. 'But I
don't imagine that will be a problem with you two. Come on and let's
see how you shoot." As Tobin
stepped up to the lists, he began to feel a little steadier. After
all, these were the same sort of targets he'd trained on at home:
bulls and wands and straw-filled sacks for straight shots, and clouts
tossed out for arching. Tobin checked his string and the breeze as
he'd been taught, then set his feet well apart and nocked one of
Koni's fine new arrows to the string. The king vanes were made from
striped owl feathers he'd found in the forest one day. A puff of
wind across the field carried his first shaft wild, but the next four
found their marks on the bull, all striking close inside the center
ring. He shot five more at the sack, and then managed to hit three of
the five wands set in the ground. He'd shot better, but when he was
done the others cheered him and clapped him on the shoulders. Ki took his
place and pulled just as well. They moved
on to the sword ground next, and Tobin was paired with plump,
sandy-haired Nikides, the lord chancellor's kinsman. He was older
than Lutha, but closer to Tobin in height. His steel helm was
burnished like silver and had fancy bronze work around the rim and
down the nasal, but there was something unsure in his stance. Tobin
clapped on his own plain helmet and stepped into the circle to face
him. As they saluted each other with their wooden practice blades,
Tobin's first bout with Ki came back to him. A new opponent wouldn't
catch him off guard this time. Porion set
them no slow drills or forms, just raised his own sword, then dropped
it with the cry, "Have at it, boys!" Tobin
lunged forward and got past Nikides' guard with surprising ease. He
expected a swift reprisal, but Nikides proved to be clumsy and slow.
Within a few minutes Tobin had driven him to the edge of the circle, knocked his
sword from his hand, and scored a killing thrust to the belly. 'Well
fought, Prince Tobin," the boy mumbled, clasping hands with him.
Tobin noted again how soft his palm was, compared to the warriors
he'd grown up among. 'Let's try
you with someone a bit tougher," Porion said, and called Quirion
into the ring. He was fourteen, a hand taller than Nikides, and
leaner built. He was left-handed, too, but Tharin had made Tobin
practice with Ma-nies and Aladar back home so this didn't throw him.
He shifted his weight to accommodate the difference and met Quirion's
opening attack solidly. This boy was a better fighter than Nikides
and scored a bruising blow on Tobin's thigh. Tobin quickly recovered
and got his blade under Quirion's, forced it up, then gutted him. Ki
hooted triumphantly outside the circle. This time
Porion said nothing, just motioned Lutha into the ring. Lutha was
smaller than Tobin, but he was sharp-eyed, quick, and had the
advantage of having watched Tobin fight. Tobin soon found himself
being pushed, and had to turn to keep from being forced past the
stone perimeter. Lutha grinned as he fought, and Tobin could almost
hear Tharin's voice saying a real warrior, this
little one. Tobin
rallied and beat him back, raining blows down at his head that Lutha
had no choice but to fend off. Tobin was dimly aware of the cheering
around them, but all he could see was the bowed figure before him,
boldly facing him down. He was sure Lutha was about to fall back when
his own blade shattered. Lutha sprang at him and Tobin had to dodge
sideways to avoid a killing swing. Using one of the tricks Ki's
sister had shown them, he checked his own rush and took advantage of
Lutha's overbalanced stance to trip him up. Much to his surprise, it
worked, and Lutha went sprawling on his belly. Leaping on the boy's
back before he could recover, Tobin got an arm around his neck and
pretended to cut his throat with his broken sword. 'You can't
do that!" Caliel protested. 'You can if
you know how," said Porion. Tobin
climbed off Lutha and helped him up. 'Who taught
you that move?" the boy asked, dusting himself off. 'Ki's
sister." The
statement was met with resounding silence. Tobin saw a mix of
disbelief and derision in many of the faces of the onlookers outside
the circle. 'A girl?"
Alben sneered. 'She's a
warrior," Ki said, but no one seemed to hear him. Lutha
clasped hands with Tobin. "Well, it's a good one. You'll have to
teach it to me." 'Who's next
in the ring with our mountain wildcat?" asked Porion. "Come
on, he's whipped three of you. No, not you Zusthra. You know you're
too big for him. Same for you, Caliel. Alben, I haven't heard much
from you yet today." Alben was
fourteen, tall, and dark, with a sulky mouth and shining blue-black
hair that he wore in a long tail down his back. He made a show of
knotting this up behind his neck, then ambled into the ring to face
Tobin. Many of the girls in the crowd pushed forward to watch, Aliya
and her friends among them. 'None of
your tricks now, Prince Wildcat," he murmured, twirling his
wooden blade from hand to hand like a juggler's stick. Distrustful
of such showy moves, Tobin took a step back and assumed the salute
position. With a sly, knowing nod, Alben did the same. When they
fought, all the showiness disappeared. Alben fought like Lutha, hard
and skillfully, with more height and strength behind it. Already
tired from the previous bouts, Tobin was hard pressed to keep up his
guard, much less
press an attack. His arms ached and his leg hurt where Quirion had
struck him. If he'd been at practice with Tharin, he might have
given, or called truce. Instead, he thought of the sneering way this
boy had spoken of Ki's sister and threw himself into the fight. Alben
fought rough, butting him with his shoulders and head whenever he saw
an opening. But Tobin was no stranger to this sort of
rough-and-tumble, thanks to Ki, and responded in kind. He began to
think it might be in fun after all, that he and Alben had found a way
to make friends, but the look on the older boy's face told him
otherwise. He didn't like being matched by a younger boy, or at least
not by Tobin. Tobin gave rein to his own anger again. When Alben
caught him in the nose with his elbow, the pain only put the strength
back into him and he laughed aloud as he felt the shock of his blade
against the other boy's. Sakor's
luck was still with him, or maybe the gods hated a sneerer that day,
for he was able to trip up Alben with the very same trick he'd used
on Lutha. Alben went down on his back with the wind knocked out of
him. Tobin sprang on him and put his sword to his heart. 'Do you
yield?" Alben
glared up at him but saw that he had no choice. "I yield." Tobin
withdrew and walked out of the circle to where Korin and Ki stood
with Porion. 'Our new
Companion's been bloodied," the arms master observed. Tobin
looked at him, then at the cloth Ki was holding out to him. 'Your nose,
Tobin. He scored one hit on you, anyway." Tobin took
the cloth and wiped at his bloody nose and chin. The sight of the
stained cloth brought back the fleeting fragment of a dream. You
see blood, you come here. He shook
his head as Korin and some of the others thumped his back and told
him what a fine swordsman he •was. This was an honorable
bloodying. Why -would he go running home for that? It had just been a
silly dream. 'Look at
you! Scarce half-grown and you've already taken down half the Royal
Companions," said Korin. He was clear-eyed today, and Tobin
found himself basking in the older boy's praise. "Who taught you
to fight so well, coz? Not Ki's sister, surely?" 'My father
and Sir Tharin were my teachers," he told him. "And Ki. We
practice together." 'When
you've rested a bit, would you two fight for us?" asked Porion. 'Certainly,
Arms Master." Ki fetched
him a mug of cider from a barrel nearby, and they watched Korin and
Caliel fight a practice match while Tobin rested. Lutha and Nikides
joined them with their squires, Barieus and Ruan. The others kept
their distance and watched the prince. After the praise from the
prince and Porion, it felt awkward to be standing apart. 'Did I do
something wrong?" Tobin asked Lutha. The other
boy looked down at his feet and shrugged. "Alben doesn't like to
be beaten." 'Neither
did you two." Lutha
shrugged again. 'Lutha will
beat you next time, now that he knows how you fight," said
Nikides. "Or maybe not, but he'll have a chance and he's always
good-hearted about it. I won't, though." 'You
might," Tobin told him, though he guessed the boy was right. 'No, not
against you," Nikides insisted, apparently unconcerned. "But
that's no matter. Not all of us are here because we're great
warriors, Prince Tobin." Before
Tobin could ask what Nikides meant, the older boys had finished their
match and Porion was calling them into the ring. 'All right,
then. Let's give 'em a proper show," Ki whispered happily. Putting
aside their wooden swords, they drew steel and fought, no holds
barred, using elbows and knees and butting helmets. They yelled their
war cries and fought until the dust rolled higher than their heads
and sweat soaked through their mail and jerkins. Steel rang on steel
as they battered at each other's guards and Ki came close to smashing
Tobin's sword hand. Tobin caught him a flat-bladed smack on the
helmet in return, but neither would give. For the space of the battle
nothing else mattered and Tobin lost himself in the familiarity of
the fight. They'd done this so often and were so well matched that
they eventually fought each other to a standstill and Porion called a
draw. They
stepped apart, panting and winded, and found themselves in the center
of a crowd of spectators. Many of Alben's female admirers were
watching them now. Ki noticed and nearly tripped over his own feet.
Aliya turned and said something to a slender blond girl beside her
and they both laughed. Behind them, a brunette closer to Tobin's age
stood watching him with dark, serious eyes. He didn't remember seeing
her before. She caught him looking and disappeared into the
surrounding crowd. 'By the
Flame!" Korin exclaimed. "You weren't joking when you said
you did nothing else back in your mountains but fight!" Not even
proud Alben could hang back in the face of Korin's obvious approval.
The pair was allowed to rest again, but both were in demand for the
rest of the afternoon among the younger Companions and squires. But not
against Prince Korin, Tobin noted. Korin fought only against Caliel
and Porion, and defeated both of them most of the time. Tobin was
glad not to have been paired against him. Alben had been hard enough
to defeat. Of all of them, however, he'd already set Lutha as his
main challenger. He was as slippery as Alben, but Tobin liked him a
good deal better. Ki was glad
that there was no great feast on their second night in Ero. Instead,
he began his regular duties at table in the Companion's mess. This
meal, eaten in a smaller hall, was conducted like any noble table. A
few musicians entertained them, and couriers from the king read out
dispatches and descriptions of the latest battles. Each squire
had his appointed role. Tanil served as carver of the meats in each
course, and Caliel's squire Mylirin as panter, with his four knives
for the different breads. These were the services of highest
distinction. Carol had
the alchemist's task of butler, mixing the wines and spices with
water. It could be a dangerous task; the butler must always "prove
by the mouth" to test the wine's quality and therefore was
usually the first to be poisoned if someone meant to kill the host.
According to Squire Ruan, Carol was more likely to kill the rest of
them by mixing the wine too strong. Orneus'
squire, a quiet, graceful boy nicknamed Lynx, was the mazer, whose
task it was to keep the footed cups filled with the appropriate wines
during each course. Ruan served as almoner, in charge of collecting
scraps to be sent out to the beggars at the Palatine gates. Ki and
the rest were sent off as ushers to carry in food from the kitchens,
with Zusthra's squire, Chylnir, as their captain. Unfortunately, this
left Ki at the mercy of his least sympathetic companions in arms. Even with
friendly Squire Barieus to help him, Ki was always one step behind or
forgetting something. The other ushers, Mago and Arius, were too busy
looking down their long noses at him to give him any help. Chylnir
had little patience with any of them. It hurt
Ki's pride to make such a poor showing for Tobin in front of the
others. He managed to upset two sauce basins that first night, and
nearly dumped a steaming swan's-neck pudding on Korin's head when
Mago bumped his elbow. He ended the evening splattered with grease
and plum sauce, then had to endure the snickers and smirks of the
others during the evening's hearth entertainments. Korin passed it
off graciously with a joke and Tobin was happily oblivious, clearly
not feeling dishonored in the least. Ki sat outside the circle of
firelight, feeling low-spirited and out of place. Cot abin
guessed that something was bothering Ki, but couldn't guess what it
might be. Tobin had been proud of him at table; he'd even gotten
praise from Prince Korin. Ki's mood
didn't seem to lighten any when Porion and the older boys began
telling more tales of the palace ghosts around the hearth that night,
elaborating on where the different apparitions were most likely to be
found. There were weeping maids and headless lovers at every turn, if
all the stories were to be believed, but the most fearsome ghost was
that of Mad Agnalain herself. 'Our
grandmother wanders these very halls," Korin said, sitting close
beside Tobin as he imparted the tale. "She has a golden crown on
her head, and blood runs down from it into her face and over her
gown—the blood of all the innocents she sent to the torture
chambers and gibbet and crow cages. She has a bloody sword in her
hand, and a golden girdle hung with the pricks of all the consorts
and lovers she took." 'How many
are there?" asked someone, and it sounded like an old question. 'Hundreds!"
everyone chorused. Judging by
the grins being exchanged among the younger boys, Tobin guessed that
this was a test to see if the new Companions would show fear. Tobin
had been in enough haunted places in his life to know the feel of
one; so far he hadn't sensed anything at all here at the Palace, or
even in the royal tombs among the dead. He stole
another glance at Ki, sprawled on the rushes at the edge of the
fire-lit circle. He was maintaining a carefully bored expression, but
Tobin thought he saw some uneasiness in his friend's eyes. Perhaps
living around Brother for so long hadn't cured him of his fears,
after all. As the
tales went on of floating heads and ghostly hands and unseen lips
that blew out lamps in the night, Tobin found he wasn't feeling all
that brave himself. By the time they went back to their huge, shadowy
room he was more glad than usual of Ki's company and for little
Baldus on his pallet by their door. 'Have you
ever seen a ghost here?" he asked when the other servants had
gone away for the night. Molay slept on a pallet outside their door
to keep guard. 'Oh, yes!
Lots," the boy said, sounding quite cheerful about it. Tobin
pulled the bed curtains tight, then exchanged a troubled look with
Ki. The bed might be large enough for a whole family, but they
settled down close enough to touch shoulders all the same. V,'hey were
awakened sometime later by ominous scuffling and clacking sounds that
came from all directions at once. 'Baldus,
what is that?" Tobin called out. Someone had put out all the
lamps. He couldn't see a thing. The noises
grew louder and surrounded the bed. Both boys lurched up onto their
knees, back to back. The
unnatural glow of lightstones broke in on them as dead white hands
yanked back the bed curtains. Tobin
choked back a cry of alarm. The room was filled with shaggy humped
figures that moaned and clacked long white bones together in their
hands as they marched around the bed. The cry
quickly turned to a muffled laugh. Even in this light, he recognized
Korin and Caliel beneath the black and white paint that covered their
faces. They had on long black cloaks and what appeared to be wigs
made out of frayed rope. The light came from several lightstones set
on long poles that some of the others carried. There were too many
for this to be only the Companions; looking more closely, he made out
some of the young noble boys and girls who hung about the training
grounds. Tobin could smell the wine on them, too. Baldus was crouched
on his pallet by the door, both hands pressed over his mouth, but he
looked to be shaking with laughter rather than fear. 'Are you
ghosts?" Tobin asked, trying hard to keep a straight face. 'We are the
ghosts of the Old Palace!" Caliel wailed. "You must prove
your worth, New Companion. You and your squire must enter the
forbidden chamber and sit on the throne of the mad queen." 'Very well.
Come on, Ki." Tobin slid out of bed and pulled on his discarded
trousers. Their
ghostly escort blindfolded them, then hoisted them up and carried
them for what felt like a long way to a cold, quiet place that
smelled of rot and the sea. When Tobin
was set on his feet and the blindfold pulled away, he found himself
standing beside Ki in a corridor similar to most they'd seen in the
Old Palace, except that this one had gone to ruin. The fish pool down
its center was empty and choked with dead leaves, and stars showed
through holes in the roof overhead. What murals remained on the
rain-washed walls were flaking and faded. Before them was a set of
doors similar to those at the front of the Palace, but these were
sheathed in gold and sealed with great plugs of lead pounded in
around their edges and struck with official-looking imprints. His captors
didn't look quite so silly in their robes and wigs here. 'This is
the old throne room, the forbidden chamber," Korin intoned.
"Here Mad Agnalain had a hundred traitors executed in a single
day and sat drinking their blood. Here she took a dozen consorts,
then sent them to their dooms. On this very throne she commanded that
five hundred crow cages be set up on the high road, from here to
Ylani, and that every cage be filled. She still walks these halls,
and she still sits upon that throne." He raised a white hand and
pointed at Tobin. "Here, in the sight of these witnesses, you
and your squire must join her. You must enter this chamber and sit in
the mad queen's lap or you are not one with us, and no warriors!" Their
escort dragged them through a side door and into a long room where a
narrow window stood open. From here, they had to crawl onto a wide
ledge high above the gardens and climb into the audience chamber
beyond through a broken shutter. It was a
simple enough matter to get into the chamber, but once in, it was as
if they'd dropped into a black void. They could see nothing at first,
and the echo of every whisper and shuffling step seemed to be
swallowed up in endless space around them. Tobin could
hear the others on the ledge outside and knew they were being
listened to. Someone tossed in one of the glowing stones, a tiny one
that cast light no more than a few feet around. Still, it was better
than nothing. 'Tobin, son
of Rhius!" a woman's voice whispered from the darkness. Tobin
jumped as Ki clamped a hand around his wrist. 'Did you
hear that?" Ki whispered. 'Yes." 'Do you
think it's her? Queen Agnalain?" 'I don't
know." He tried to sense what he felt when Brother was around,
but the place just felt drafty and deserted. 'Come on,
they're just playing tricks on us. If there really was a ghost who'd
kill us, they wouldn't send us in, would they?" 'You don't
think so?" muttered Ki, but he followed when Tobin handed him
the lightstone and strode off into the darkness. At first it
felt like stepping off a cliff, but with the light-stone behind him
and the starlight that filtered in around the shuttered windows to
his right, Tobin soon made out the rows of pillars that marched away
into the darkness on either side of the long chamber. This had
been Queen Gherilain's audience chamber, her throne room. He paused,
visualizing the one at the New Palace. The throne there had been at
the end farthest from the doors. The doors here should be to his
right, so the throne would be to his far left. 'Prince
Tobin!" the ghostly voice called. It was coming from his right
instead. He stopped
again, recalling the toy palace his father had made for him. It had
been a simple box with a roof that lifted off, but inside had been
the queen's throne room. This room. And the throne had been in the
middle, not at the end, with the golden tablet of the Oracle beside
it. Squinting, he could just make out a dark shape to his right that
could be a dais. Suddenly he wanted very much to see that throne, and
touch that golden tablet for himself. Even if there was a ghost
there, she was his kin. He turned
and bumped into Ki, who jumped and grabbed for him again. "What
is it? Did you see something?" Tobin felt
for his friend's shoulder; sure enough, Ki was shivering. Putting his
mouth close to Ki's ear, he whispered, "There aren't any ghosts
here. Korin and the others were just trying to scare us with their
stories tonight so we'd be worked up for this. I mean, look what they
had on! Who knows better than 7 do what a real ghost looks like?" Ki grinned,
and for a fleeting moment Tobin considered turning Brother loose here
to show the others what a real spirit was capable of. Instead, he
raised his voice for the benefit of those listening behind them and
said, "Come on, Ki, the throne is just over here. Let's go visit
my grandmother." Their
footsteps echoed bravely in the unseen vaulting overhead, disturbing
some creatures that ruffled the night air with their soft wings.
Perhaps it was the spirits of the dead, but if so, they kept their
distance. Just as
he'd guessed, the throne stood on a broad platform in the middle of
the chamber. It was approached by two stairs and was shrouded in some
dark covering. 'We have to
sit on the throne," Ki reminded him. "After you, Your
Highness." Tobin
acknowledged Ki's mocking bow with a salute Nari would not have
approved of and climbed the steps to the throne. As he bent to draw
aside the cloth that shrouded it, the dark stuff gathered itself
together into a white-faced figure that leaped at him, brandishing a
sword and shrieking, "Traitor, traitor, execute him!" More
startled than frightened, Tobin would have tumbled backward down the
stairs if Ki hadn't been there to catch him and push him upright
again. Both of them recognized that voice, distorted as it was. It was
Aliya. 'Good —
good evening, Grandmother!" he managed, as the rest of the
supposed ghosts ran over with their lights to join them. He tried to
grasp her hand and kiss it, but she snatched it away. 'Oh, he's
no fun at all!" Aliya cried out, stamping her foot in
frustration. 'I told you
he'd stand fast!" Korin hugged Tobin off his feet. "You owe
me ten sesters, Alben. By the Flame, no blood of mine is a coward.
And you, too, Ki, though I saw you shaking when you went in. Don't
worry; you should have seen Carol." Korin reached out and pulled
off the other squire's wig. "He fell down the stairs and almost
dashed his own brains out." 'I
tripped," Carol grumbled. 'I nearly
did, too," Tobin admitted. "But only because Aliya
surprised me. She hides better than she haunts." 'I suppose
you'd know?" she shot back. 'Yes, I do.
Korin, may I see the golden tablet?" The prince
cocked his head. "The what?" 'The golden
tablet with the Prophecy of Afra on it. It's here somewhere beside
the throne—" 'There's
nothing like that here." Korin took Tobin's arm and walked him
around the dais. As he'd said, there was no sign of a tablet. "Come
on, you two, we've got to celebrate your great triumph here tonight." Pleased as
he was to have passed the test, Tobin was terribly disappointed not
to find the tablet. And how could Korin not know of it, growing up
here his whole life? Could his father have been mistaken? As they
walked back toward the window, he twisted around for a final look,
then pulled free of the prince and exclaimed, "Oh, look! Korin,
look!" There was a
ghost here, after all. The carved throne was undraped now and a woman
sat upon it. The jostling and noise of the other Companions seemed to
fade away around Tobin as he gazed at her. He didn't recognize her
but he knew who she was: one of Those Who Came Before—no longer
just a figure in a box, or a name in a tale, or one of Korin's silly
conjurings, either. This was a ghost as real and knowing as his own
twin. She wore a
golden crown and armor of ancient design. Staring at him with eyes as
dark and unblinking as Brother's, she rose and unsheathed the sword
that hung at her side, then held it out to him like an offering on
her open palms. And there
at the foot of the dais stood the golden tablet, as tall as Tobin was
himself. It caught the light like a mirror and the lines of lettering
on it shimmered and moved as though they were written in fire. He
couldn't read the script but he knew by heart what they said. He wanted
to walk back and speak to the queen, learn her name and touch the
sword she held, but he couldn't move. He looked around to find
everyone staring at him, their faces strange and wary behind their
paint. When Tobin looked back at the throne again he saw only
darkness. There was no throne, no queen, and no tablet. He was too
far away to see anything at all. Then Ki
grinned and said, "You fooled them well, my prince. You even had
me looking!" Korin burst
out laughing. "By the Four, cousin, you're a quick one! You've
turned our own joke back on us." 'The little
trickster!" Aliya
grabbed Tobin and kissed him on the lips. "You terrible child!
You even scared me!" Tobin
couldn't help stealing a last look back toward the throne as they
continued on. He wasn't the only one to do so. Ijis
victory celebration took place in the gardens below, with wine and
cakes the Companions had stolen from the kitchens. The old
audience chamber was forbidden ground, the seals on its door real,
though no one seemed to know quite why. Korin and Caliel had invented
the game years ago, and carried it on in defiance of the king and
Master Porion. Korin and
his marauders took Tobin and Ki to a sheltered bank under a tangled
overhang of rose hedge. Lying on the soft, damp grass, they passed
the wineskins and cakes. 'So you
weren't scared a bit?" Alben jeered. 'Were you
when you had to go?" Tobin shot back. "He was! Don't let
him tell you any differently," Aliya scoffed. Everyone
laughed except Alben, who sniffed and flipped his long, black hair
over his shoulder, looking offended. 'It's
because you know of ghosts already, isn't it?" Lynx asked, made
bold by the wine. "I don't mean any offense, Prince Tobin, but
we all know the story. They say your twin was stillborn with her eyes
open, or under a caul, and turned demon so that your family had to
leave the city. They say the ghost followed you all the way to the
mountains. Is it true? Do you really have a demon twin?" Tobin
shrugged. "It's nothing, really. Just a haunting spirit." Ki began to
sputter, but Tobin nudged his foot and he subsided. 'My father
says that's what comes of consorting with wizards," Zusthra put
in. "Go messing about with magic too much and you end up with
all sorts of creatures you don't care for lurking about." 'You
wouldn't want Lord Niryn to hear that opinion, I'm sure,"
someone said, and Tobin realized that the would-be squire, Moriel,
had been with them all along. He just hadn't noticed him under the
wig and paint until he spoke. "Lord Niryn believes that wizards
can help strengthen the throne of Skala. What do you say, Korin? You
see enough of the fellow." Korin took
a long pull from the wineskin and laid his head in Aliya's lap. "My
father's wizard has eyes like two brown stones polished by the sea
surf. I can't ever tell what's going on behind those cold hard orbs.
So long as he keeps us in lightstones and tricks, I've nothing
against the man, but when I'm king I won't need any wizards to win my
wars for me, or to guard my throne. Just give me you lot!" He
waved the wineskin, spraying its contents liberally over those lying
closest to him. "Skalan steel and a brave Skalan to wield it!" This toast
led to singing, and the singing to more drinking. Even Tobin let
himself get a little drunk before Ki hauled him off to bed in
disgust. '""T'obin
and Ki came off the training field a few days later J. to find Tharin
and half a dozen of his men waiting for them. Tobin hardly recognized
them at first. Koni and the others wore new uniforms similar to those
of the King's Guard, with silver badges instead of gold. Tharin was
dressed like a lord in somber brown edged with black, and wore a
silver chain. 'My
prince," said Tharin. "The steward sends word, asking if
your highness will inspect your house today. Everything has been made
ready for you." Tobin
strode up to hug him, he was so glad to see a familiar face, but
Tharin gently held him off and shook his head ever so slightly. Ki
hung back, looking like he wanted to do the same. They got
leave from the arms master and followed Tharin into the labyrinth of
noble dwellings that filled the grounds between the two great
palaces. The house
that had belonged to Tobin's mother was actually a small wing
attached to the outer wall of the Old Palace, surrounded by its own
walls and courts. The gardens inside the main courtyard had been well
tended, but once inside the house itself Tobin felt a strange
emptiness close in around him, even though the hall had fine carved
furnishings and brightly painted walls. Half a dozen servants in
livery bowed to him as he entered. The steward was a middle-aged man
Tharin introduced as Ulies, old Mynir's son. 'I grieve
for your loss," Tobin told him. Ulies bowed
again. "And I for yours, my prince. I am honored that he served
you and your family, and hope that I may do the same." Tobin
turned slowly, taking in the great hall, with its ancient sideboards,
hangings, and elegant carvings on the beams and walls. A broad
staircase led up to his left. 'Your
father carried you down those stairs the day you were named,"
Tharin told him. "You should have seen this room, filled with
all the great nobles of Skala. The king himself stood just there at
the bottom of the stairs with Prince Korin on his shoulders. By the
Four, how proud we all were!" Tobin
looked up at him. "Where was my mother? Was—was she well
then?" Tharin
sighed. "No, Tobin, she wasn't. From the night of your birth she
wasn't, but that's no fault of yours. She stayed up in her room." 'May I see
it?" 'Of course.
This is your house now and you can go anywhere you like. But the
upstairs rooms haven't been lived in since your mother left. Your
father and I used chambers on this floor when we were in Ero, and the
men have a barracks in the back court. Come on." Tobin
looked around for Ki. "Well, come on!" They were
halfway up the stairs when Brother appeared above them, waiting for
him at the top. He
shouldn't have been there. Tobin hadn't called him all day. Actually,
he hadn't called him since that first night, he realized guiltily.
There'd been so much to see and do here that he'd completely
forgotten. Yet Brother
was there all the same, staring at him with black, accusing eyes.
Tobin sighed inwardly and let him stay. 'Did you
see my twin, Tharin?" he asked. "The one who died?" 'No, I was
away at Atyion that night. By the time I returned all had been dealt
with." 'Why didn't
Father ever talk about that, and tell me what the demon really was?" 'I don't
know." Tharin paused at the top of the stairs, not realizing
that his hand brushed Brother's shoulder as he spoke. "Perhaps
out of respect for your mother? She couldn't bear the mention of it,
especially in the early days. It made her quite—wild. And then
there was all the gossip around the city of ghosts and hauntings.
After a while none of us spoke of it at all." He shook his head.
"I assumed he'd said something to you on his own. It wasn't my
place." He lifted
the latch of a door just across from the head of the staircase. "This
is it, Tobin, the room where you were born." The
corridor floor was freshly laid with rushes, and smelled of strewing
herbs and lamp oil. In the room beyond, however, Tobin recognized the
stale smell of disuse. The shutters were open but the room was dismal
and cold. Gooseflesh prickled up his arms as he stepped inside. It had been
a lady's bedchamber. A few tapestries still hung on the walls—faded
scenes of ocean creatures and forest hunts. There were fish of some
sort carved on the mantel, very pretty, but the hearth was cold and
full of soot, and there were no ornaments or dolls on the bare stone
mantel. Across the
room Brother stood at the foot of a high, tall-posted bed with a bare
mattress. He was naked now, and Tobin could see the line of
blood-crusted stitching on his chest again. As Tobin watched he
climbed onto the bed and lay down on his back. Then he was gone. 'Do you
know how my brother died?" asked Tobin softly, still staring at
the bed. Tharin
looked at him. "Stillborn, Nari said. Never drew breath. But it
wasn't a boy child, Tobin, it was a little girl." Ki gave him
a questioning look; surely he'd speak the truth to Tharin? But here
was Brother again, standing LYNN FLE WELLING between them with a
finger to his lips. Tobin shook his head at Ki and said nothing. Instead, he
turned away, seeking some sign of his mother in this empty room. If
she had changed so terribly the night he was born, then perhaps there
was some trace here of who she'd been before—something to help
him understand why she'd changed. But he
found nothing and suddenly he didn't want to be here anymore. The other
chambers along the corridor were the same: long since deserted and
emptied of all but the largest furnishings. The more he saw, the
lonelier he felt, like a stranger wandering somewhere he did not
belong. Tharin must
have sensed this. He put an arm around Tobin's shoulders and said,
"Come back downstairs. There's a place I think you'll like
better." They went
down through the hall and along a short corridor to a cozy,
dark-paneled bedchamber that Tobin recognized at once as having been
his father's. Rhius hadn't been here in months and would never
return, but there was still a feeling of life in this room. The heavy
dark red hangings around the bed were just like the ones at the keep.
A pair of familiar shoes stood on a chest. A half-finished letter in
a bold scrawl lay curling on the writing desk beside an ivory
portrait of Tobin. Tobin breathed in the familiar mix of scents:
sealing wax, oiled leather, rust, herbs, and his father's own warm,
manly smell. On a shelf by the writing desk Tobin found a collection
of his wax and wooden sculptures—gifts to his father over the
years—lined up and saved just as Tobin had saved the tokens his
father had sent to him. All at once
the ache of loss he'd managed to hold at bay returned full force. He
clenched his teeth against it, but the hot tears came anyway,
blinding him as he sank down. Strong arms caught him; not his father,
but Tharin holding him tight, patting his back as he had when Tobin
was very small. There was another hand on his shoulder, too, and
this time he was not ashamed at showing weakness in front of Ki. He
believed him now; even warriors had to grieve. He wept
until his chest hurt and his nose ran, but in the end he felt
lighter, freed of some of the burden of sorrow he'd carried so
deeply. He pulled away from them and wiped his nose on his sleeve.
"I'll honor my father," he said, looking around the room
again with gratitude. "I'll carry his name into battle and be as
great a warrior as he was." 'He knew
that," said Tharin. "He always spoke proudly of you." 'May I have
this room as mine, when I stay here?" "You don't have to
ask, Tobin. It all belongs to you." "Is that why Koni and
the others are wearing different uniforms now?" 'Yes. As
your parents' sole heir, you take the rank of your mother and all
your father's holdings fall to you." "My holdings,"
Tobin mused. "Can you show me?" Tharin opened a chest and
took out a map. On it Tobin recognized the outline of the Skalan
peninsula and the territories to the north of it. A tiny crown on the
eastern coast marked Ero. He'd seen maps like this before, but on
this one there were other places marked in red ink. Atyion lay to the
north, and Cirna was a dot on the thin bridge of land that connected
Skala to the mainland. There were red dots up there in the
territories, too, and across the mountains on the northwestern
coastline where there were almost no cities at all. Which ones would
Ki like best, he wondered? 'All these
belong to the Crown until you're of age, of course," Tharin
said, frowning down at the map. "That worries you." 'It's
nothing we have to think about for now." Tharin tried to smile
as he put the map away. "Come and see my room." They walked
to the next door along the passageway and Tharin showed them in. This
chamber was austere to the point of severity by comparison, with
plain hangings and few comforts. The only exceptions were a fine
collection of weapons hung on one wall, collected from many
battlefields, and more of Tobin's little creations on a table near
the window. Tobin went over and picked up a lopsided wax man with a
wood splinter sword in one round fist. He wrinkled his nose. "I
remember this one. I threw it out." Tharin
chuckled fondly. "And I saved it; it's the only portrait ever
done of me. These others were gifts from you, remember?" He
pulled a crude little wooden Sakor horse on a knotted bit of string
from the neck of his tunic. "This is the first one you ever made
for me. All the other men have them, too. We wear them for luck." 'You should
have him make you a new one," said Ki with a laugh. "He's
improved quite a lot since then." Tharin
shook his head. "It was a gift from the heart. I wouldn't trade
this little fellow for all the horses of Atyion." 'When can I
go to Atyion?" Tobin asked. "I've heard tales of it all my
life. Even Ki's seen it, but not me! And Cirna and all the other
estates and holdings?" There was
that hint of a frown again as Tharin replied, "You'll have to
speak to Lord Orun about that. He's the one who must arrange any
travel outside the city." 'Oh."
Tobin made no effort to hide his dislike here. "When do you
think the king will come back? I'm going to ask him to give me a new
guardian before he goes away next time. I don't care how rich or
powerful Orun is, I can't stand the sight of him!" 'Well, I've
been hoping to have a talk with you about that. That's one of the
reasons I brought you here today." Tharin closed the door and
leaned against it, rubbing a hand over his bearded chin. 'You're
young, Tobin, and you've no experience of court life. I can't say I'm
sorry about how you've turned out because of that, but now that
you're here, it may hurt you, not knowing how things are done. Illior
knows, there hasn't been much time to speak of all the changes—
It took us all by surprise when he showed up. But now that we're all
split up this way, there are some things you need to hear. I swore to
your father that I would watch over you, and I don't know of anyone
else who can tell you what I'm about to tell you. Ki, you listen
well, too, and don't you ever breathe a word of it to anyone." He sat the
boys on the edge of his bed and pulled up a chair. 'I don't
care much for Lord Orun, either, but you keep that to yourselves.
He's the king's friend, and one of his highest ministers, so it
wouldn't do you any good if that's the first thing your uncle hears
from you when you meet. Understand?" Tobin
nodded. "Prince Korin says I should be careful of him, because
he's a powerful man." 'That's
right. At court you must say less than you think and only speak as
much of the truth as will do you good. I'm afraid that's something we
didn't teach you before, but you always were a good one at keeping
quiet about things. As for you, Ki— Ki blushed.
"I know. I'll keep my mouth closed." 'It's for
Tobin's sake. Now, it costs me some pride to say it, but I want you
both to keep on Lord Orun's good side while you have to." 'You sound
like you're scared of him!" Ki blurted out. 'You could
say that. Orun was already a powerful lord at court when Rhius and I
were in the Companions. He was only the third son of a duke, but his
father was rich and had the mad queen's ear. I mean no disrespect to
your family, Tobin, but your grandmother Agnalain was mad as a cat in
a high wind by the end and Orun still managed to come out alive and
with power. Erius likes him, too, which is more than your father or I
could ever fathom. So crossing Orun is only fouling your own nest.
Keep peace between you. And…" He stopped, as if unsure
what to say next. 'Well, if
either of you has any trouble with him, you come to me. Promise me
that." 'You know
we will," Tobin replied, though it seemed to him that Tharin was
looking at Ki as he said this. A knock
came at the door and Tharin went to deal with a courier who'd
arrived. Tobin sat a moment, pondering all he'd been told, then rose
to go back to the hall. When he came out into the passage, however,
Ki tapped his shoulder and whispered, "I think our friend is
here. I've been feeling him since we were upstairs." Tobin
turned in surprise, realizing that Ki meant Brother. "You can
feel him?" he whispered back. He'd lost track of the spirit
upstairs and hadn't seen him since. 'Sometimes.
Am I right?" Tobin
looked around and, sure enough, there was Brother behind them,
beckoning for Tobin to follow him down the passage in the opposite
direction. "Yes. He's there. I didn't call him, though." 'Why should
he act any different here?" muttered Ki. Following
Brother, the boys passed through a succession of narrower passages
and out into a small disused courtyard surrounded by a high wall.
There was a summer kitchen here, but the mossy roof over the outdoor
oven had fallen in years ago and never been repaired. Near the center
of the yard stood a huge, dead chestnut tree. Its twisted branches
stretched their broken fingers over the yard like a netted roof, grey
and scabrous against the blue sky. Its knobby roots humped up out of
the packed earth like serpents writhing across the ground. 'Can you
still see him?" Ki •whispered. Tobin
nodded. Brother was sitting at the base of the tree between two big
roots. His legs were drawn up tight against his chest and his
forehead rested on his knees. Tangled black hair hung down, covering
his face. He looked so forlorn that Tobin slowly moved closer,
wondering what the matter could be. He was within a few feet of the
spirit when Brother raised a pale, tear-streaked face to him and
whispered in a dry, weary voice Tobin had never heard before, "This
is the place," and faded from sight again. Baffled,
Tobin stared up at the tree, wondering what was remarkable about this
spot. He'd understood about the bed; Brother had been stillborn upon
it and seemed to remember it. But why would he remember this yard, or
this tree? He looked back at where Brother had been sitting and spied
a small opening beneath one of the roots. Squatting down, he examined
it more closely. It was larger than it had looked at first glance;
eight or ten inches wide and a few inches high on the outside. It
reminded Tobin of the sort of place he used to look for in the forest
as a hiding place for the doll. The soil
here was sandy and hard, well sheltered by the tree. Curious, he
reached inside to see if the hole was as dry as it looked. 'There
could be snakes," Ki warned, hunkering down beside him. It was
larger inside than he'd have guessed, large enough for the doll if he
could get it through the opening. His fingers found no snakes, only a
few spiky chestnut husks among the dead leaves. As he moved to
withdraw his hand, however, his fingers brushed across a rounded
edge. He felt more closely, then got enough of a grip on it to
dislodge it from the soil. Drawing it out, he saw that it was a gold
ring set with a carved stone like the one Lord Orun had given him. He
rubbed it on his sleeve to clean it. The large flat stone was the
same deep purple as the throat of a river iris, and carved with the
intaglio profiles of a man and a woman, side by side with the woman's
foremost. 'By the
Flame, Tobin, isn't that your father?" asked Ki, peering over
his shoulder. 'And my
mother." Tobin turned the ring over in his hands and found an A
and an R engraved on the gold band behind
the stone. 'I'll be
damned. Brother must have wanted you to find it. See if there's
anything else." Tobin felt
again, but there was nothing more in the hole. 'Here you
are!" said Tharin, coming out into the yard. "What are you
doing down in the dirt?" 'Look what
Tobin found under this dead tree," said Ki. Tobin
showed him the ring and Tharin's eyes widened. "It's been years—
How did that get out here?" 'Was it my
mother's?" The tall
man sat down and took the ring from him, gazing at the two profiles
on the stone. "Oh, yes. It was her favorite among the betrothal
gifts your father gave her. It's Aurenfaie work. We sailed clear to
Viresse just so he could have the finest carvers make it for her. I
remember the look on her face— We never did know what happened
to it after she got sick, or some of her other things either."
He looked down at the hole. "How do you suppose it ended up out
here? Well, it's no matter. It's found now, and yours to keep. You
should wear it in their memory." It was too
large for Tobin's fingers so he hung it on the golden chain with his
father's seal, then looked at the carving again. His parents looked
young and handsome together, not at all like the troubled people he'd
known. Tharin
reached down and took the ring and seal together on his palm. "Now
you can carry something of both of them close to your heart." 'Tphe weeks
that followed passed in a glittering blur. Life -L at the keep hadn't
prepared either boy for such company, though neither wanted to
trouble the other with his doubts at first. Each
morning the Companions ran to the temple to make their offerings,
then worked hard on the training field until midafternoon under
Porion's demanding direction. Here, at
least, Ki and Tobin both excelled. Porion was a strict taskmaster,
but he was as quick to praise as to chastise. He taught the
Companions the fine points of buckler work and how to fight and shoot
on horseback, but they also learned to use the javelin and the axe,
and how to wrestle and fight with knives. 'You fine
nobles may start the day in the saddle, but only Sakor knows how long
you'll stay there," Porion was fond of telling them, and devised
a good many drills designed to unseat them in various jarring ways. After
practice the remainder of the day belonged to the boys to amuse
themselves as they pleased until mess time. Sometimes they rode about
the city to see players or visit their favorite artisans and tailors.
Other times they went to the hills to hunt and hawk, or to the
seaside to bathe, enjoying the last warm days of summer. In these
pastimes they usually were accompanied by a great crowd of young
nobles, and some not so young. Lord Orun frequently came along,
together with others of his ilk—men who wore ear bobs and scent
and hadn't gone off to fight. There were women and girls, too. Ki soon
realized that girls like pretty Aliya and her friends were beyond his
grasp, and that a pretty face didn't necessarily mean a pretty heart.
Aliya was Alben's cousin and proved to be as spiteful as her kinsman.
Prince Korin liked Aliya well enough, though, and through the gossip
of the squires Ki learned that she was one of several mistresses who
regularly visited the prince's bed, hoping to get him an heir so he
could go off to war. What the king would say to that no one cared to
speculate. Still,
there were plenty of other girls who found Ki good enough to flirt
with. One in particular, Mekhari, had given him several encouraging
looks while endeavoring to teach him to dance. Skilled as he and
Tobin might be at the arts of war, neither had a proper dance step
between them, nor played an instrument; and despite Arkoniel's best
efforts, they had the singing abilities of a pair of crows. Their ill
wishers took no end of delight in this lack of graces and made
certain to include them in any situation that would call attention to
these shortcomings. Tobin
managed to redeem himself quite by accident one night at dinner when,
in a fit of boredom, he whittled one of his little sculptures from a
block of cheese. Soon the girls were pestering him to carve charms
and toys for them, offering kisses and favors in return. Tobin
modestly refused payment as he hemmed and blushed and carved away
furiously for them, clearly not knowing what to do in the face of
such attentions. This
puzzled Ki. Tobin was nearly twelve and had heard enough of his tales
to know what girls were about. While he might not be old enough to
want one yet, it seemed odd that he'd be so standoffish about it. Two
in particular seemed to plague him. Pale Lilyan, Urmanis' sister, had
taken to flirting outrageously with him, though Ki was certain she
only did it because she knew it made Tobin squirm. But the
other one, a slim brunette named Una, was another matter. She was
skilled at hunting and riding, and had a quiet way about her that Ki
found both pleasant and unsettling; she looked at you like she could
read your thoughts and liked them fine. Yet Tobin was more
stum-ble-tongued around her than anyone else. He'd nearly sliced off
one of his fingers whittling her a cat. 'What in
Bilairy's name is the matter with you!" Ki had chided, bathing
the gash in a basin that night as they got ready for bed. "I bet
Una would let you kiss her if you tried, but you act like she's got
the plague!" 'I don't
want to kiss her!" Tobin snapped,
pulling his hand away before Ki could wrap the finger. Scrambling
across the bed, he burrowed under the blankets as far from Ki as he
could get and remained there, refusing to talk to him for the rest of
the night. That was
the first time Tobin had ever been truly angry with him. Ki laid
awake heartsick half the night and vowed never to tease Tobin about
girls again. He had enough to trouble him as it was. J| rince
Korin had thrown several more of his lavish banquets since their
arrival, ordering them up whenever the whim took him and he thought
he could brook Porion's disapproval. Although this meant a respite
from table service for the squires, Ki could have done without them.
Everyone drank more, especially Korin, and Ki liked the Prince Royal
a good deal better when he was sober. Tobin had
taken to his cousin in his usual good-hearted way, but Ki wasn't so
sure of his friend's judgment this time. Korin struck him as a weak
reed when drunk, too likely to take on the colors of those around him
instead of shining with his own. He was more likely to tease then,
and overlook the rudeness of others. And
rudeness abounded, though it was often thinly veiled in jest. Their
skill on the training field had sparked jealousy among the older
Companions, and Tobin's odd behavior that night in the old audience
chamber had set a few tongues wagging. But they'd probably wagged
before they ever arrived. Still,
seeing Tobin here brought back to Ki how strange the boy had seemed
to him when they'd first met: the way Tobin talked to ghosts and
witches and wizards as if it were the most natural thing in the
world, and how he could read people's faces like others read tracks
or weather, without even knowing he was doing it. He'd changed some
since Ki had known him, but Tobin still had the eyes of a man, and
still made little distinction in his manner toward noble or servant,
highborn or low. He treated them all well. Ki had grown accustomed to
that, too, during the slow, easy years at the keep. Here among these
young lords, it was quickly brought home to him how unusual that was,
and in ways that Tobin just didn't seem to understand. But Ki
understood, and so did the Companions—even the ones who were
kind. Tobin hadn't understood the shame Ki felt when a drunken prince
had slapped him so carelessly with a sword and dubbed him "Sir,"
bestowing on him a grass knight's hollow title—with its boon of
a warhorse and a yearly purse of money. For all the lessons and
proper speech he'd learned from Arkoniel, everyone here knew who his
father was and had seen how his "knighthood" had been
earned. No, Tobin
couldn't understand any of that, and Ki kept his promise to Tharin
and didn't tell him. Pride kept him from confiding even in Tharin,
though they visited him as often as they could. Still, it
wasn't all bad, he often reminded himself. Tobin was like a drink of
sweet water in a swamp, and there were those who knew how to
appreciate him. Korin did, when he was sober, and so did the better
ones among the Companions: Caliel, Orneus, Nikides, and little Lutha.
Their squires were courteous to Ki out of respect for that, and some
of them accepted him as a friend. On the
other side of the fence were Squire Mago and his faction; it hadn't
taken Ki long to peg them as trouble. They spared no effort to remind
him that he was a grass knight, and a poor man's son. Whenever they
could corner him out of earshot of the prince—at the stables,
in the baths, or even when they were sparring in the sword
circle—they hissed it at him like rock vipers: "Grass
knight!" To make
matters worse, Moriel, the boy whose place Ki had taken, was fast
friends with Mago and cousin to Quirion's squire, Arius. Evidently
Model's appointment was to have been his way into the Companions. There was
something wrong there, Ki thought. Korin didn't seem overly fond of
some of his own Companions, even though they were touted by all as a
closely bound elite, the future generals and councilors of a future
king. It seemed to Ki that Korin would do well to rid himself of a
good many of them when he was old enough to choose for himself. None
of that is my concern, he reminded himself. He was Tobin's
squire and in that he was content. Nothing the other squires could
say to him would interfere with that. Or so he
thought. the end of
Rhythin Ki was beginning to get his bearings at table. He could serve
any type of dish through a twelve-course banquet without spilling a
drop, knew all the right serving dishes, and was feeling rather proud
of himself. That night
at mess it was only the Companions and Porion at table. Tobin was
seated between the arms master and Zusthra. The older boy was still
hard to read; he seemed sullen, but Porion treated him with high
regard and Ki took that for a favorable sign. Tobin
seemed happy enough, if quiet. Korin was drinking and going on again
about the latest report from Mycena. Apparently the king had routed a
Plenimaran attack along some river and everyone was drinking to
celebrate the victory, and growing more morose as they grew drunker,
convinced the fighting would be over before they were allowed to go. Ki went out
for more platters, and by the time he came back Caliel and Korin were
arguing about why hounds didn't like Tobin and hawks did. Ki wished
them luck with that one; even Arkoniel had had no answer for the dog
question. They'd had to give Tobin's gift hounds away, but he'd
turned to out be a fine hand with falcons. Caliel spent a great deal
of time with him, teaching Tobin how to use the hoods, jesses, and
whistles. In return, Tobin had fashioned a beautiful ring for him
from wax, in the shape of a hawk with outstretched wings, and had a
goldsmith cast it. Caliel wore it proudly and was the envy of the
Companions. Thanks to that, Tobin had switched from wood carvings to
jewelry making and their room was littered with gobs of wax and
sketches. Tobin already knew half the goldsmiths near the Palatine,
and was making inroads among the gem carvers as that took his fancy.
Korin dubbed him the Artist Prince. Ki was
pleasantly lost in these happy thoughts as he balanced two half-empty
sauce basins back to the kitchen. He was nearly to the sideboard when
Mago and Arius cornered him. He glanced around quickly but Barieus
was nowhere in sight. The cooks and scullions were busy with their
own work. 'No, it's
just we three," said Arius, guessing his thought. He jostled Ki
on one side and Mago did the same on the other until they had him
backed into a corner. Ki barely managed to get the sauce basins down
onto a table before they spilled. 'Well done,
grass knight," snickered Arius. Ki sighed
and waited for them to back off now that they'd had their fun. But
they didn't. 'Well done,
for a horse thiefs son," sneered Mago, not even bothering to
lower his voice. Ki felt his
face go hot. "My father's no thief." 'He's not?"
Mago made round eyes of surprise at him. "Well, then you're the
cuckold's bastard I took you for all along. Old Larenth has been
stealing my uncle's horses for years and everyone knows it. He'd have
hanged your brother Alon if he hadn't run away to the war before the
bailiff caught him." Ki faced
him down, holding his clenched fists against his thighs. "He's
no thief! And neither is my father." 'Then he's
not your father," said Arius, pretending to reason with him.
"Come on now, which side of the blanket were you born on, Sir
Kirothius? Or do you even know?" It
doesn't matter. Ki clenched his fists so tightly he felt the
nails bite into his palms. Only honor matters.
Don't dishonor Tobin by losing your temper. 'What's a
prince doing with a grass knight like you for a squire, I wonder?"
said Mago. Arius
leaned in closer. "Well, you know what they say about him—" Ki could
hardly believe his ears. Were they daring to insult Tobin now? Both
boys turned and were gone before he could gather his wits to respond. 'Ki, don't
stand there dreaming. Fetch in the damson tart!" snapped
Chylnir, who'd just come in. Honor.
Ki summoned Tharin's voice in his mind as he hoisted the heavy pastry
dish. Whatever a squire does reflects on the lord
he serves. Keep that thought first in your heart, no matter what, and
you'll always do what's proper. Thinking of
Tharin calmed him. By the time he reached the dining room, he could
wish Mago and Arius dead without so much as frowning in their
direction. JLnstead,
he brought all his anger and resentment to the training fields the
next morning and every day after. Whenever he could, he paired off
with his enemies for swordplay or wrestling, and let his body speak
for him. The other boys were good fighters, too, and he didn't always
best them, but they soon learned to avoid him when they could. He and
Tobin were hailed as equals of all but the r oldest boys, and Ki
wasn't sure they couldn't have taken some of them on, but Porion
wouldn't allow it. Crowds gathered to watch the new prince fight.
Some of the squires and other blades, including Lutha, began to adopt
plainer garb on the training field, though nothing so worn as Tobin's
old jerkin. Ki had even sided with Molay and Lord Orun on this issue,
trying to talk Tobin into adopting better garb to suit his station,
but he wouldn't be moved. He'd wear any finery they wanted to feasts
and around the city, but remained stubborn on that point, even when
he overheard some of the onlookers joking that they couldn't tell him
from Ki in a match. In fact, it seemed to please him. It was only
much later that Ki realized that Tobin understood and resented the
petty meanness directed at them as well as Ki did, and chose his own
ways of fighting back. Autumn came
on in a series of terrible thunderstorms that swept in off the sea.
Lightning flashed down, striking buildings and sometimes even people.
Rain ran in torrents from rooftops and through the streets, washing
the year's refuse down to the sea. The foul
weather kept the Companions indoors for days. They practiced at
swords in the feasting hall and played wild games of chase through
the corridors, much to the despair of those nobles unfortunate enough
to encounter them. Several ended up in the fish pools. Korin held
court in his great hall, surrounded by jugglers and minstrels. He
brought in troupes of actors and badgered the heralds for news every
few hours. And he drank. Ki and
Tobin were sweating through another round of dancing lessons when a
page wearing the yellow livery of Lord Orun beneath his dripping
cloak appeared and approached Prince Korin. 'Cousin!"
Korin called to Tobin. "Your guardian requests our company this
afternoon. I suppose we must go. You too, Caliel. I'm sure Orun can
make room for you." 'Damn,"
sighed Ki. 'You'll
have a better time here than I will there," groused Tobin. "What
does he want with me now? I was just there three nights ago." Other
messengers appeared through the dreary afternoon, calling more of the
boys away. Chancellor Hylus called for his grandson, Nikides, who
took Ruan with him. Lutha was ill with a fever and Barieus was
tending him. Faced with
Mago and few allies, Ki decided to make himself scarce until Tobin
came back. He went
back to their room and cast about for something to do, but Molay had
put everything in order. Even Tobin's carving bench was tidy for a
change. Deciding to chance a ride in spite of the weather, Ki threw
on old shoes and a thick cloak and set off for the stables. 'Shall I
send for your horse, Sir Ki?" Baldus called after him. 'No,"
Ki replied, glad of the excuse for a walk after being shut up inside
for so long. The rain
had slackened but a strong wind whipped his cloak around his legs as
he left the shelter of the palace gardens. His shoes were soon soaked
through, but he didn't care. The pummeling of the wind and the cold,
sharp smell of the sea made his blood race and his heart feel
lighter. He turned his face up and let the wind scour it. There was
plenty of daylight left; perhaps he could get Tharin to go for a ride
by the shore. The stables
were deserted except for a few grooms, and ostlers. They knew him and
bowed as he walked through the sour darkness of the mews. A hundred
glossy rumps faced him on either side; Dragon and Gosi's stalls were
about halfway down on the left side. He hadn't
gone very far when he realized that he wasn't alone after all. Turning, he
found Mago and Arius almost on his heels. The sound of the storm must
have covered them as they followed him from the palace. That, and his
own inattention, he thought with sinking heart. There wasn't a groom
in sight now. These two probably had the sense to bribe them to stay
away. 'Why, fancy
meeting you here, grass knight," Mago exclaimed brightly. "And
how might you be this fine afternoon?" 'Well
enough, but for the company," Ki retorted. They wouldn't let him
pass; that much was clear. There was a door at the far end of the
stable, but it meant turning tail and running, and he'd be damned if
he'd do that. He'd rather take a beating. Then again, surely even
they wouldn't be that foolish. 'I wouldn't
think you'd be so particular about what company you keep," Arius
said, toying with a heavy ring on his hand. "Stuck in that rat
trap old keep of the duke's with a demon and Tharin's draggle-tailed
peasant soldiers? And I'm curious…" Arius went on
twisting the ring around and around. "Perhaps you can tell me,
since you lived there. Is it true what they say about Tharin and Lord
Rhius? With you being his son's squire and all, I thought maybe you'd
know." The blood
began to pound in Ki's ears. He had no idea what Arius was talking
about, but the way he said it was insult enough. 'Maybe it
runs in the family, like the madness," Mago put in with a
poisonous smile. "Do you and Tobin do it, too?" Ki began to
suspect what Mago was hinting at and went cold with anger. Not at the
implied act itself, but at the thought of these spotty-faced bastards
dragging two such men down with their filthy leering tones, and Tobin
with them. 'You take
that back," he growled, advancing on Mago. 'Why should
I? You share a bed, don't you? We all saw it the night we went to the
old throne room." 'Everyone
does where I'm from," Ki said. 'Well, we
all know where you're from, don't we, grass knight?" said Arius. 'Two in a
bed," Mago taunted. "Lord Orun told me that Tharin used to
take it up the ass. Do you? Or is it Tob—" Ki punched
Mago without even deciding to do it. He just didn't want to hear
those words, and, in the instant that his fist connected with the
older squire's nose, it felt good. Mago went down cursing and landed
on his back in the wet muck of a stall, blood spurting from his nose.
Arius got Ki by the arm and yelled for help, but Ki threw him off and
walked away. His elation
was short-lived. By the time he was out the door at the far end of
the stable he knew he'd made a serious error and started running,
knowing there was only one place to go. No one followed. I
failed him! he raged at himself as the enormity of the situation
crashed in on him. He'd failed Tobin and Tharin. And himself. In the
next instant he lashed out at his tor-menters. Korin was right; they
were all rotting here. Foul mouthed, soft-handed, backbiting little
sneak bitches like Mago wouldn't last a day among real warriors. But
that didn't change the fact that he'd dishonored Tobin. And now
there'd be worse to come. The clouds
opened, the rain lashed down, and Ki ran. Cob abin
hated the visits to Lord Orun's house. The rooms were too warm, the
food too sweet, and the attendants—a pack of droopy,
bare-chested youths—overly attentive. Orun always insisted that
Tobin sit next to him and share his dish. The sight of those greasy,
wrinkled fingers did little for his appetite. It was even
worse today. Tobin's head had been hurting since he woke up that
morning, and he'd had a dull pain in his side that was making him
tired and out of sorts. He'd hoped to sleep that afternoon, until the
summons came and spoiled his plans. Orun always
insisted on inviting Moriel, as well. Though Tobin still resented
this, he had to admit that the pale boy did do his best to be
pleasant when they were thrown together here. Then again, almost
anyone would seem pleasant company at Orun's table. There were
thirty nobles at the table today, and the king's wizard, Niryn,
occupied the place of honor on Tobin's left. Between courses he
entertained the company with silly tricks and illusions, like making
a stuffed capon dance, or floating sauceboats around like ships in
the harbor. Looking down the table, Tobin caught Korin and Caliel
rolling their eyes. He sat back
with a sigh. Niryn's magic was even more pointless than Arkoniel's. i managed
to keep himself under control as Ulies let him in and led him to the
hall. Tharin sat by the fire in his shirtsleeves. Koni and some of
the other men were with him, gambling and repairing bits of tack by
the hearth. They called out their usual greetings to Ki, but Tharin
frowned as soon as he saw him. 'What's
wrong?" he asked. 'Can we
speak alone?" Tharin
nodded and took him to his room. Shutting the door, he turned and
asked, "What happened?" Ki had
rehearsed half a dozen explanations on the way here but now his
tongue seemed to have glued itself to the roof of his mouth. There
was no fire and the room was cold. Shivering miserably, he listened
to the sound of his sodden cloak dripping on the floor as he searched
for the words. Tharin sat
down in the chair next to his bed and motioned for Ki to come to him.
"Come on, now. Tell me about it." Ki let his
cloak fall and knelt at Tharin's feet. "I've dishonored Tobin
and myself," he managed at last, fighting back tears of shame.
"I struck another squire. At the stables. Just now." Tharin's
pale eyes fixed on him in a most unnerving way. "Which one?" 'Mago." 'Why?" 'He's been
saying things to me." 'Insults?" 'Yes." 'Were there
witnesses?" 'Just
Arius." Tharin let
out a snort of disgust. "The arrogant little fool. Well, out
with it. What did he say that you couldn't walk away from?" Ki
bristled. "I did walk away from a lot! Ever since we came here
they've called me grass knight and bastard and a horse thief'sson.
And I walked away every time. But this time they got me alone in the
stables and they— They— He cringed inwardly at the
thought of repeating what they'd said about Tharin. "They
insulted Tobin. And Duke Rhius. And you. They said filthy lies and I
lost my temper and punched Mago. Then I ran here." He hung his
head, wishing he could die and be done with it. "What am I going
to do, Tharin?" 'You're
going to take your punishment tomorrow like any other squire. But
right now I want to hear what they said that made you angry enough to
do such a thing. And why being called those other things didn't.
Let's start with that, shall we?" Tharin
pulled Ki up by the shoulders and sat him on the bed, then poured him
a small cup of wine. Ki downed it and shivered as it burned his
belly. "I don't know. Maybe because I knew most of what he said
about my kin and me is true. I am a grass knight, but Tobin doesn't
care and neither do you or Porion, so I don't mind it so much. And I
know I'm no bastard. And that about my father? I don't know. Maybe he
is a horse thief, but Tobin doesn't care about that, either, so long
as I'm not one… And I'm not! So I can stand any of that." 'Then what
was it you couldn't stand?" Ki clutched
the cup in both hands. "Mago said that Lord Orun told him you
and Duke Rhius— That you—" He couldn't say it. 'That we
were bedmates when we were young? Lovers?" Ki stared
miserably down into the red depths of his cup. "He said he
thought Tobin and I did it, too. But that's not the way he put
it—what you said." Tharin
sighed, but Ki could tell he was angry. "I don't suppose it
was." 'Tobin and
I don't!" 'I didn't
imagine you did. But it is common enough among young warriors, and
lots of other folk besides. I could tell Mago a thing or two about
his own father that would shut him up for you. With some it's
something that passes. Others stay with men all their lives. For
Rhius, it passed." He reached
out and chucked Ki under the chin, making him look him in the eye.
"I'd have told you myself if you'd asked me. There's no dishonor
in it between friends, Ki, or half of Ero would be shamed, and some
of the other Companions too, from what I've seen." This
revelation left Ki speechless. 'So they
teased you all this time, and this is what broke you?" Ki nodded. 'They poked
around until they found the sore spot to goad you with. Well, here
you are. What interests me the most is that Mago said he had this
from Lord Orun, Tobin's own guardian. I think perhaps that was more
than Orun wanted said." 'But why
would he say it at all?" 'Use your
brains, boy. Who wanted Moriel as Tobin's squire? Who hasn't had use
for you since the day he laid eyes on you? Who got his nose put out
of joint when Porion put Moriel out of the Companions in favor of
you?" 'Orun." 'Whom Tobin
just happens to be dining with right now, I believe?" Ki dropped
the cup and jumped to his feet. "Oh gods! He can dismiss me?
I've done it, haven't I? Old Slack Guts is going to send me away!" 'He can't
dismiss you, not directly. But perhaps he thinks that Tobin won't be
able to discipline you as he must, and that will reflect badly on
both of you. Perhaps that's what he's hoping to put in his next
report to the king." 'But why?
Why does Orun give a damn who Tobin's squire is?" 'Who's
closer to Tobin than you? Who would be of more use to Orun if he
wanted Tobin spied on than the prince's own squire?" 'You think
Orun means to harm him?" 'No, I
think he means to control him. And who do you think controls Orun?" 'The king?"
Ki whispered. 'Yes.
You're too young for this, Ki, but since they've gone after you, you
need to know. It's all a great gaming board we're on, and the stake
over on the side is Atyion and all the other lands and riches that
Tobin holds. You and me? We're guard stones around Tobin, and we're
in their way." 'But
Tobin's loyal to the king. All he wants is to go and fight for him.
Why can't Erius just leave him alone?" 'That's
what I don't quite understand myself. But it's not for us to solve
that, only to stand by him. And to do that, you're going to have to
convince Tobin to flog you properly tomorrow. And you're going to
have to tell him what Mago said." 'No."
Ki set his jaw. "I know what you've told me is the true way of
it, but I don't ever want Tobin knowing that a squire was talking
about him and his kin that way." 'But you're
going to have to, Ki. You'll have to go before Porion to be judged,
and he's going to ask." 'But that
means saying it out in front of everyone. Then they'll all know what
he said, right?" 'Probably." 'I won't do
that, Tharin. I just won't! Some of the others already make fun of
him behind his back on account of me, and for seeing ghosts. I don't
know what Tobin would do if this all came out, too. He isn't like the
rest of us. You know that." Ki was trembling again. "And I
don't want him to be, either. I like him just the way he is. So let
me do this my way now and I promise you I won't give Lord Orun
anything more to write to the king. I'll say it was for the insults
to my father and take my flogging and that'll be the end of it. To
make me out a liar, Mago would have to tell what he really said, and
I don't think he's going to do that. Not in front of Porion." He stood
tensely as Tharin considered this, ready to argue all night if he had
to. But Tharin
nodded. "All right then. But be careful, my boy. Some mistakes
you can back out of; I think you can with this one. But others you
can't. Honor, Ki, always honor. I want you safe. Both of you." Ki clasped
his hand gratefully. "I won't forget again. I swear it." Lctors came
in after the feast was finished, but the play was a romance of some
sort, incomprehensible to Tobin. He was dozing with his chin on his
hand, trying to ignore the ache in his side, when a messenger entered
and whispered in Orun's ear. Orun
clucked his tongue, then leaned over to Tobin. "Dear me, there
seems to have been some unpleasantness involving that squire of
yours!" Those
closest to them turned to stare. Korin had heard, and Caliel, too. Tobin stood
and made a hasty bow. "With your permission, Lord Orun, may I be
excused?" 'If you
must. I shouldn't bother myself if I were you." 'I'd like
to, all the same." Tobin felt
every eye in the room on his back as he hurried out. His side hurt
worse than ever. ^aldus was
waiting for him at the Palace gate and burst into tears as soon as he
saw him. "Hurry, Prince Tobin! Master
Porion and the others are already in the Companion's hall. Ki hit
Mago!" 'O gods!
Why?" Tobin asked in alarm as they strode down the corridor. 'I don't
know, but I hope he knocked his teeth out!" the boy exclaimed
tearfully. "He's always been mean to the pages." A few lamps
at one end lit the hall. Ki sat on a bench, looking defiant. Porion
stood grimly beside him. On a second
bench Alben sat with Mago, looking no happier. The squire's nose was
swollen and his lip was split. Quirion and Arius stood with them. The
rest of the Companions stood at attention across the room. 'He did
this!" Alben shouted at Tobin, pointing an accusing finger at
Ki. 'That's
enough!" snapped Porion. 'What
happened?" Tobin asked, unable to believe what he was seeing. Ki
shrugged. "Mago insulted me." 'But why
didn't you say? Why didn't you tell me and bring it to the circle as
we're supposed to?" 'He
surprised me, my lord, and I lost my temper. I'm very sorry to have
dishonored you and I'm ready to take my punishment at your hand." Porion
sighed. "That's all he'll say, Prince Tobin. He won't even
repeat what Mago said." 'It doesn't
matter," Ki muttered. 'It does,"
snapped Porion. "If it's only you he insulted that's one thing.
If he said anything about your lord or some other—" He
cast a baleful look at Mago. "—then it's another matter
altogether. Prince Tobin, command him to speak." 'Ki,
please." Ki shot
Mago a disdainful glance. "He called me a bastard and a grass
knight. And he called my father a horse thief." Porion
stared at him in disbelief. "And for that you hit him?" 'I didn't
like the way he said it." Tobin
looked around at the others again, wondering why Ki seemed the
calmest of the lot. The arms
master gave Mago and Arius a hard look. "Is this so?" The two
boys quailed under that scrutiny. "Yes, Arms Master. It's as he
said." They're
lying, thought Tobin. But why would Ki protect them? Porion
threw up his hands. "Very well. Prince Tobin, I give Ki into
your charge. Alben, I give Mago over to you. Before the offering
tomorrow Prince Tobin will mete out Ki's punishment on the Sakor
steps. First offense is ten strokes of the lash, and a day and night
of fasting vigil. Mago, a fasting vigil might curb that unruly tongue
of yours, too, so the same for you. Now get out of my sight!" ^etreating
to their chamber, Tobin sent the servants out and rounded on Ki.
"What happened? How could you do such a thing?" 'Just being
a stupid grass knight, I guess." Tobin
grabbed him by the front of his damp tunic and shook him angrily.
"Don't you ever call yourself that! That's not what you are!" Ki covered
Tobin's hands with his own and eased them away. "I did what they
said, Tob. I lost my temper like a fool. But they wanted me to. I
think they did it on purpose to embarrass you. Don't give them the
satisfaction." 'What do
you mean?" Tobin demanded. "And how can I do that to you?
If I'd been there I'd have hit him myself, and then they could beat
the both of us together!" 'Yes, I'm
sure you would have. But that's no good. They forced my hand, made me
do something against my will, and now they think they've got the
laugh on me." He went to
the bed and sat down. "I didn't tell Porion everything. This
wasn't the first time, and Mago isn't the only one who's said things.
I don't even have to say who, do I? To them, I'm just a grass knight
who grew up sleeping in the dirt." He looked up and forced a
tired grin. "That's true enough I guess, but the lucky thing is,
it makes you strong. Stronger than they are. Ruan told me Arius cried
when he got his beating a while back. You don't have enough strength
in that arm of yours to make me bawl." Tobin
stared at him, aghast. "I won't hurt you!" Ki shook
his head. "You're going to have to try, though. We have to give
'em a good show, like we always do. If they think that you're too
soft to keep me in line, then the king may think again about letting
me stay on as your squire. That's what Tharin said. I asked him
already. So put your back into it tomorrow and show them that we're
tough as mountain oak." Tobin was
trembling now. Ki rose and gripped him by the shoulders. "This
is for us, Tob, so we can stay together. You don't want Moriel in
here, instead of me, do you?" 'No."
Tobin, trying hard not to cry. If Tharin said they could still send
Ki away, then it must be so. "But Ki, I don't want—" 'I know
that. This is all my fault." He knelt before Tobin as he
had with Tharin. "Can you forgive me?" Tobin
couldn't bear it. Weeping, he grabbed Ki and hugged him close. Ki hugged
him back, but his voice was hard as he said, "Listen to me,
Tobin, you can't act like this tomorrow, you hear? It's just what
they want, the bastards. Don't you give them the satisfaction!" Tobin
pulled back and looked down at Ki; the same warm brown eyes, golden
skin, and prominent teeth under the dark lip scruff, but Ki looked
almost man grown suddenly. "You're not scared?" Ki stood up
and grinned at him again. "I told you, you're not going to hurt
me. You should have seen the hidings my father used to give us.
Bilairy's balls, I'll probably doze off before you're finished.
Besides, it was worth it to finally shut Mago's foul mouth!" Tobin tried
to match that grin, but it wouldn't come. $ It was
still raining the next morning. They jogged to the temple under a
cold grey canopy of clouds. Tobin gripped the heavy whip in his hands
as he ran and tried to think of nothing but the solid feel of the wet
earth beneath his feet; not the hot stitch throbbing in his side, or
Ki running like a silent shadow beside him. Neither of
them had slept well and, when morning came, Tobin was dismayed to
find his friend curled up in a blanket on the alcove bed across the
room. Tobin had almost forgotten that it was there. Ki mumbled
something about being restless, and they'd dressed in silence. They were
among the first to appear that morning, and Porion took Tobin aside
as they waited in the portico for the rest of the Companions to
arrive. The arms
master placed a stiff leather lash in Tobin's hands. It was about
three feet long and as thick as his thumb, with a stiff core and a
hilt like that of a sword. 'This is no
toy," he warned. "Ki doesn't have a man's muscle on him
yet. Strike too hard or too often in the same place and you'll open
him to the bone and lay him up for days. No one wants that. Stand to
his left for five strokes and to his right for the other five, and
space them wide. Strike this hard—" Porion slapped the
base of the whip against Tobin's palm, "and the tip strikes ten
times as hard. When you're done he must kiss your hand, still
kneeling, and ask your pardon." Tobin's
stomach turned over at the thought. V.' he
Temple of the Four resolved from the curtain of rain ahead of them,
square and forbidding above its steep stairs. It stood at the center
of the Palatine and was a nexus for business as well as worship. At
this early hour, however, it was- frequented mostly by the devout
making their offerings at the altars inside. Broad
stairs led up each of the Temple's four sides. The Altar of Sakor
stood on the west, and it was on these stairs that the Companions
gathered for Ki's ordeal after making their offerings. The priest of
Sakor stood in the open doorway at the top of the stairs. "Who
has broken the Companions' peace and brought disgrace on his lord's
name?" he asked, attracting a small crowd of onlookers. Tobin
looked around. There were soldiers mostly, but Aliya and her friends
were there, too, muffled in veils and cloaks against the rain. So
were Lord Orun and Moriel. Any goodwill Tobin had had for the boy
evaporated as he recognized the gloating look in Moriel's eyes.
Tharin was not there, or anyone else from Tobin's household. 'I broke
the peace," Ki replied in a loud, steady voice. "I,
Kirothius, son of Larenth, unworthy squire of Prince Tobin, am guilty
of striking a fellow Companion. I stand ready to take my punishment." The other
Companions formed a box on the stairs around them as Ki stripped off
his jerkin and shirt. Kneeling, he leaned forward and braced his
hands on a step above him. Tobin took his place on Ki's right and
gripped the whip. 'I beg your
pardon, my prince," Ki said, his voice carrying clear and strong
on the morning air. Tobin
rested the whip across Ki's back, then froze, unable for a moment to
get any air into his lungs. He knew what was expected, that Ki would
hold no grudge, that there was no turning back. But looking down at
that familiar back, with its downy golden line down the spine and the
catamount shoulder blades motionless under the sun-browned skin, he
thought he wasn't going to be able to move at all. Then Ki whispered,
"Come on, Job, let's give 'em a show." Trying to
gauge as Porion had shown him, Tobin raised the whip and brought it
down across Ki's shoulders. Ki didn't flinch, but an angry red welt
burned where the whip had bitten. 'One,"
said Ki, quite clearly. 'No one
expects you to count the strokes," Porion said quietly. Tobin
brought the whip down again, a few inches lower. It was too hard; Ki
shuddered this time, and droplets of blood beaded the new welt. 'Two,"
Ki announced, just as clearly. Someone
murmured in the crowd. Tobin thought he recognized Orun's voice and
hated the man all the more. He brought
the whip down three more times on that side, ending just above Ki's
waist. They were both sweating, but Ki's voice stayed steady as he
counted off each stroke. Tobin
changed sides and began again at Ki's shoulders, crosshatching the
welts he'd already made. 'Six,"
said Ki, but this time it came out a hiss. Tobin had drawn blood
again. The whip cut into the swollen flesh where the two stripes met
and a trickle of blood inched away toward Ki's armpit. You
see blood Tobin's empty stomach lurched again. He made seven too
light, then eight and nine too fast so that Ki had to gasp out the
count. By "Ten" his voice was ragged but it was over. Ki sat back
on his heels and reached for Tobin's hand. "Forgive me, my
prince, for disgracing you." Before he
could kiss it, Tobin pulled him up onto his feet and clasped his hand
like a warrior. "I forgive you, Ki." Confused by
this break with ritual, Ki bent uncertainly to complete the ceremony,
pressing his lips to the back of Tobin's hand as they stood facing
each other. Another murmur went through the crowd. Tobin saw Prince
Korin and Porion both giving them curious but approving looks. The priest
was less happy about the breach. His voice was harsh as he called
out, "Come and be cleansed, Squire Kirothius." The
Companions parted silently and Ki climbed the remaining stairs with
his head held high, the ten uneven welts showing like fire on his
bloodied back. Mago followed to begin his punishment vigil, looking a
good deal less heroic. When they'd
disappeared inside Tobin looked down at the whip he still held, then
over at Alben, who stood with Quirion and Urmanis. Were they smirking
at him? At what he'd just done? He tossed the whip down. "I
challenge you, Alben. Meet me in the practice ring. Unless you're
afraid of getting your pretty clothes dirty." Gathering
up Ki's discarded jerkin and shirt, he turned on his heel and walked
away. i-lben had
little choice but to accept Tobin's challenge, though he didn't look
too happy about it. The rain
had slackened to a sullen drizzle by the time they squared off in the
stone circle. A crowd had followed them from the temple to watch what
was all too clearly a grudge match. Tobin had
practiced against Alben often since his arrival in Ero and hadn't
often bested the older boy, once Alben had learned to watch for
tricks. But today he was driven by pent-up fury, and his years of
rough practice with Ki served him well. He battered Alben down into
the cold mud again and again. As he swung the wooden sword, it felt
almost like the heavy whip in his hand and he wished he could bring
it down on Alben's back just once. Instead, he broke through the
older boy's guard and hit him across the nasal of his helmet hard
enough to bloody his nose. Alben went to his knees and yielded. Tobin bent
to help him up. As he leaned close, he whispered just loud enough for
Alben to hear. "I'm a prince, Alben, and I'll remember you when
I'm grown. Teach your squire to keep a civil tongue in his head. And
you can tell Lord Orun the same." Alben
pulled away angrily, then bowed and left the circle. 'You."
Tobin pointed his sword at Quirion. "Will you fight me?" 'I have no
quarrel with you. And no desire to catch the plague out here in the
rain." He helped Alben back toward the Palace and their friends
drifted off with them. 'I'll fight
you," said Korin, stepping into the ring. 'Korin,
no—" Porion warned, but Korin waved him off. 'It's all
right, Arms Master. Come on, Tobin. Give me your best." Tobin
hesitated. He wanted to fight someone he was angry with, not his
cousin. But Korin was already in the circle and saluting. He faced
Korin and raised his blade. Fighting
Korin was like fighting against a wall. Tobin threw himself into it,
wanting to give the prince his best, but Korin met every attack with
a block like an iron bar. But he didn't return the attacks, just let
Tobin wear himself out until he fell back panting and called a yield. 'There now,
do you feel any better?" 'Maybe a
little." Korin
leaned on his sword and grinned at him. "You two always have to
have things your own way, don't you?" 'What do
you mean?" 'Well, the
kiss, for one thing. You wouldn't let Ki kneel." Tobin
shrugged. He hadn't planned that. It had just seemed the thing to do
at the moment. "Only equals do that." 'Ki is my
equal." 'He's not,
you know. You're a prince." 'He's my
friend." Korin shook
his head. "What a funny little fellow you are. I think I'll have
you for my Lord Chancellor when I'm king. Come on. Let's go eat. Ki
and Mago must starve for their sins, but we don't have to." 'I'd rather
stay out for a while, if you don't mind, cousin." Korin
looked to Porion and laughed. "Stubborn as his father! Or mine.
Suit yourself, then, coz, but don't catch your death. I'll be needing
you, as I said before." Korin and the older Companions strode
away, followed by their squires. Lutha and
Nikides hung back. "Would you like company?" Lutha asked. Tobin shook
his head. All he wanted right now was to be left alone to miss Ki.
He'd have ridden down to the sea if he could, but it was forbidden
for Companions to leave the Palatine alone and he didn't have the
heart to face Tharin yet. Instead he spent the rest of the day
walking the citadel in the rain. It was a gloomy pastime and suited
his mood. He avoided
the Temple, telling himself he didn't want to embarrass Ki by
intruding on his vigil, but the truth was he wasn't ready to face his
friend, either. The memory of the red welts rising on that smooth
brown back was enough to make the bile rise in his throat. Instead, he
circled the banks of Queen Klia's great pool and watched the silvery
fish jump at raindrops, then made the long walk to the grove of Dalna
above the northern escarpment. It was only a few acres of trees, but
they were as ancient as the city itself, and for a little while he
could imagine himself back home again, on his way to Lhel's oak. He
missed the strange little witch terribly. He missed Nari and the
servants at the keep. He even missed Arkoniel. A hearth
shrine stood at the center of the grove; Tobin found a wooden carving
in his belt pouch and cast it and a few homesick tears into the
flames with a prayer to be at his home hearth soon. JLjamps
were being lit around the citadel when Tobin happened past the royal
tomb. He hadn't come here since the night of his arrival. Chilled and
footsore, he went inside to warm himself at the altar flame. 'Father, I
miss you!" he whispered, staring into the flame. Had it really
only been a few months since he'd died? It didn't seem possible.
Tobin felt like he'd been here for years already. He pulled
the chain from his neck and held the seal and his mother's ring in
his hand. Tears blurred his eyes as he looked down at the dual
profiles on the ring. He missed both of them. Right now he knew he'd
even be glad to see his mama in one of her bad spells, if only he
could be home again and everything as it had been. He had no
desire to visit the dead below. Instead, he said a long prayer for
their spirits. When he was finished he felt a little better. It was
raining harder now. He turned and studied the effigies of the Skalan
queens as he waited for it to pass, wondering if he could recognize
the ghost that he'd seen in the throne room. As an
artist, he noted with interest the differing styles of the statues.
The earliest, Gherilain the Founder, was a stiff, lifeless figure
with a flat face and all her clothes and accounterments molded close
to her body, as if the sculptor hadn't had the skill to quite free
her from the stone. All the same, he recognized the Sword of
Gherilain clutched in her gauntleted hands—the same sword that
all the other statues held. His uncle carried that sword now. Was it the
same sword, perhaps, that the ghost had held out to him? He turned
slowly where he stood, studying the stone faces. Which one had she
been? For she had certainly been a queen. And if it had been this
sword she'd held, why would she offer it to him? He checked
quickly to make certain that the altar priest "was nowhere
around, then whispered, "Blood my blood, flesh my flesh, bone my
bone." Brother
appeared, looking transparent in the firelight. How long had it been
since he'd last called him, Tobin wondered guiltily. Three days? A
week? Perhaps longer. There had been feasts and dances and practices,
then all the fuss with Ki. What would Lhel say? He didn't like to
think of that. 'I'm sorry
I forgot," he whispered. "Look, here are the great queens.
You remember the ones in the box at home? This is their tomb. I saw
one of them—her ghost. Do you know who it was?" Brother
began circling the effigies, looking up at each one in turn. He came
to rest at last in front of one and seemed content to remain there. 'Is that
her? Is she the one I saw at the Old Palace?" 'I beg your
pardon, Prince Tobin?" Tobin
turned to find the king's wizard standing beside the altar. "Lord
Niryn! You startled me." Niryn
bowed. "I might say the same, my prince. I heard you speak, yet
I see no one here to listen." 'I—I
thought I saw a ghost in the Old Palace once, and I was wondering if
it could have been one of the queens." 'But you
spoke aloud." If Niryn
could see Brother, he gave no sign. Tobin was careful not to look at
the ghost as he answered. "Don't you ever talk to yourself, my
lord?" Niryn
stepped closer. "Perhaps. So, do you recognize your ghost here?" 'I'm not
sure. They aren't very good for faces, are they? Perhaps that one."
He pointed to the one where Brother stood. "Do you know who she
is?" 'Queen
Tamir, daughter of Queen Gherilain the First, I believe." 'Then I
guess she'd have reason to haunt," Tobin said, trying to make
light of it all. "She was murdered by her brother," he went
on, nervously rattling off the lesson out of habit. "Pelis
contested the Oracle and seized the throne, but Illior Lightbearer
punished the land and killed him." 'Hush,
child!" Niryn exclaimed, making some sign on the air. "King
Pelis did not murder his sister. She died and he was the only heir.
No queen has ever been murdered in Skala, my prince. It's most
unlucky to even suggest such a thing. And assassins killed him, not
the gods. Your teachers were most misinformed. Perhaps a new tutor is
in order." 'My
apologies, Wizard," Tobin said quickly, taken aback by this
unexpected outburst. "I meant no offense in this holy place." The
wizard's stern expression softened. "I'm certain the shades of
your ancestors would make allowances for their youngest descendent.
You are, after all, the next in line for their throne after Prince
Korin." 'Me?"
This was even more surprising. 'But of
course. The king's brothers and sisters are dead, and their issue
with them. There is no one else of such close blood tie." 'But Korin
will have heirs of his own." Tobin had never once imagined
sitting on the throne of Skala, only that he would serve it. 'No doubt.
But he is a young spark yet, and none of his paramours have kindled.
Until then, you are next in the line of succession. Your parents
never spoke to you of such things?" Niryn
smiled in a way that did not reach his eyes, and Tobin felt a
strange, crawling feeling deep inside, like someone was stirring
around in his guts with a bony finger. 'No, my
lord. Father only said that I would be a great warrior and serve my
cousin as he served the king." 'An
admirable aspiration. You should always beware of anyone who tries to
draw you from the path ordained for you by Sakor." 'My lord?" 'We live in
uncertain times, my dear prince. There are forces at work disloyal to
the royal house, factions who would have someone other than
Agnalain's son rule. If anyone of that ilk should approach you, I
hope you will do your duty and speak to me at once. Such disloyalty
cannot be tolerated." 'Is that
what you and the Harriers do, my lord?" Tobin asked. "Hunt
down traitors?" 'Yes,
Prince Tobin." The wizard's voice seemed to take on a darker
timbre and fill the open space of the tomb. "As a servant of the
Lightbearer, I have sworn to see the children of Thelatimos safe on
the throne of Skala. Every true Skalan must serve. All falsehood must
be purged with the Flame of Sakor." Niryn
reached into the altar fire and drew out a handful of flame. It
rested in his palm like water. Tobin fell
back a step, disliking the reflection of this unnatural fire in the
man's jasper-colored eyes. Niryn let
the flame run away to nothingness through his fingers. "Forgive
me, Your Highness. I had forgotten that you do not enjoy displays of
magic. But I hope that you will remember my words. As I said, we live
in uncertain times and too often foul appears fair. It is difficult
for one so young as you to discern the difference. I pray that the
mark you bear on your arm proves a true sign, and that you will
always count me among your good councilors. Good night to you, my
prince." The
crawling, stirring feeling rippled through Tobin again, less strong
this time, then disappeared as Niryn left the tomb. Tobin
waited until the man was out of sight, then sat down at the foot of
the altar and wrapped his arms around his knees to fight the fresh
chill that had overtaken him. The
wizard's veiled allusions to traitors frightened him. It was as if he
was being accused of doing something, yet he knew that he'd done
nothing that the wizard could disapprove of. He was loyal to Korin
and the king with all his heart. Brother
squatted beside him. There is no Pelts here. Tobin
looked around at the effigies. After taking count and looking
carefully into their faces he saw that Brother was right. No effigy
of King Pelis stood among the royal dead. Niryn was wrong; the
lessons his father and Arkoniel had taught him were the truth. But
why would the wizard be so insistent? All the
same, Niryn had given him the name of the queen Brother had
chosen—the very one King Pelis had murdered. Tobin went
to stand in front of the second queen of Skala and placed his right
hand on the stone sword she held. "Hello, Grandmother Tamir." *
I %e sun came out the next day and Porion ordered J. them back to
outdoor practice. Tobin
hardly noticed the renewed ache in his side as they ran to the
Temple, wondering instead how Ki had fared. His heart swelled with
relief when Ki emerged, hungry but unbowed. Mago looked the worse for
wear of the two, and Ki confided later that he'd stared at the other
squire for hours in the dead of night without speaking, just to put
the wind up Mago's ass. Apparently it had worked. The priests
had put a salve on Ki's stripes and he joined in at practice without
complaint. He joked with his friends among the squires, ignored his
enemies, and served at table that night. Tobin decided that
everything was settled for the best until bedtime came and Ki pulled
back the curtains on the alcove bed. 'You're
sleeping there again?" Ki eased
himself down on the edge of the narrow bed and laced his fingers
together in his lap. Tobin could tell by the way Ki held himself that
he was in more pain than he'd let on. "Baldus?" The page
rose up on his pallet. "Yes, Prince Tobin?" 'Go to the
kitchens and see if the cook can make a sleeping draught for Sir Ki." Baldus
scampered out. Tobin barred the door after him and went back to Ki.
"What's all this about?" He
shrugged. "I hear that most of the other squires do and—well—
You know, people look at us strange enough as it is. I just thought
that maybe we ought to do a few things the Ero way." 'Korin
likes how we do things our own "way. He told me so. He was proud
of you yesterday." 'Was he?
Well, Korin isn't everybody. And I'm not a prince." 'You're
angry with me." 'With you?
Never. But—" For the
first time since the trouble began, Ki's brave front crumbled. Tobin
saw past it to the tired, beaten-down country boy slumped before him,
shoulders held awkwardly to ease the pain. Tobin sat
down beside him and inspected the back of Ki's shirt. It was stained
with spots of blood. 'You're
bleeding. That'll stick by morning if you leave it. Here, you better
let me help." He coaxed
Ki out of the shirt and threw it aside on the bed. The ache in his
side was worse tonight, but he ignored it. It was Ki who needed
tending now, not him. The welts
had changed from red to purple and black, and the scabs pulled and
bled when Ki moved. Tobin swallowed hard, thinking of all the times
he'd kept Nari from taking a switch to Ki. Now he'd done this. 'I don't
like it here," he said at last. Ki nodded
and a tear dripped off the end of his nose to land on the back of
Tobin's hand. 'I wish we
could have just gone with Father. Or that the Companions could ride
out tomorrow and go find the king. Mostly, I wish I was grown and had
my lands, so I could make you a lord. I promise I will, Ki. No one is
going to call you a grass knight again after that." Ki let out
a hiccuping laugh and painfully lifted an arm around Tobin's
shoulders. "I don't—" A loud
crash came from the direction of the dressing room, startling them
both. Tobin jumped to his feet and Ki flinched back, grabbing for his
discarded shirt. Korin and
half a dozen of the older Companions and squires came staggering in
by way of the hidden panel. 'Cousin,
we've come to issue an invitation!" Korin cried, and Tobin
guessed that he'd been drinking steadily since they'd parted after
supper. Urmanis and Zusthra were flushed and grinning, too. Orneus
had his arms around Lynx and was nuzzling his ear. Caliel looked a
bit clearer but Korin's squire, Tanil, was the only sober one. He
gave Tobin a bow, looking embarrassed. 'We're off
to the city to play and we've come to invite you," Korin went
on, staggering into the middle of the room. "And more
especially, the inestimable Ki. Get your clothes on, boy, and I'll
buy you a whore to take your mind off your back." Carol
staggered sideways from the group and vomited loudly as the others
berated him. 'Ah,
Urmanis, looks like you two are next for the temple steps,"
Korin said, shaking his head. "Your squire's dishonored you all
over my poor cousin's floor. Now, what was I saying—? Oh, yes.
Whores. You're old enough, aren't you, Ki? I've seen you eyeing the
girls! By the Flame, you're the best of this rotten lot. We'll get
drunk and kick that pimple Mago out of bed. Alben, too, the bugger!" 'No,
Cousin. Ki's tired." Tobin stood between the prince and his
friend, wondering what he was going to do if Korin decided to force
them to go. This was the drunkest he'd seen Korin since the night
they'd arrived. Fortunately
Tanil was his ally tonight. "They're too young for your revels,
your highness. Besides, Ki's so sore a whore would be wasted on him.
Let's get ourselves out before Master Porion catches you and sends
you back to bed." 'Damnation,
we don't want that! Everyone be quiet, for
hell's sake!" Korin roared. "Come, coz. Give us a kiss for
luck. You, too, imeshamable Kirothius. Good night! Good night!" Korin
wouldn't be satisfied until everyone had kissed Tobin and Ki on both
cheeks and been kissed for luck in return, but at last they stumbled
out the way they'd come. As soon as
Tobin was sure they were gone he dragged the heaviest chair in the
room into the dressing room and braced it against the panel, then
called Brother and set him to watch. He returned
to the bedchamber to find Ki washing his face at the basin. He'd let
Baldus and Molay in, and they were grumbling to each other as they
cleared away Carol's sour vomit. 'It's never
like this when the king's at home," Molay muttered. "When
Korin was younger Porion could keep him in line, but now—! I'll
burn some incense to cut the stink. Baldus, go and fetch some spiced
wine for the prince." 'No, no
wine," Tobin said wearily. When the
servants had finished, Tobin sent them away for the night, then
pulled Ki back to the large bed. "You saw what comes of doing
things the Ero way. Go to sleep." With a
sigh, Ki gave in and sprawled on his belly at the far edge of the
bed. Tobin lay
back against the bolsters and tried to ignore the smell still
noticeable through the roiling clouds of incense. "What was
Ornews doing to poor Lynx?" Ki snorted
into his pillow. "What did you do yesterday while I was
flattening my knees with Mago?" Tobin
thought back over the long grey day. "Nothing, really. But I met
Niryn at the tombs last night." 'Fox Beard?
What did he want?" 'He said
I'm the next heir after Korin until he gets an heir of his own." Ki turned
to regard him thoughtfully. "I guess you are, at that. The way
Korin was staggering tonight, you might just get your chance, too." 'Don't
joke!" Tobin warned. "If the Harriers heard you even
joking, I think maybe they'd come for you. Niryn scares me. Every
time he's near me I feel like he's looking for something, like he
thinks I'm hiding something." 'He looks
at everyone that way," Ki mumbled, slipping fast toward sleep.
"All those white wizards do. I wouldn't dare get around any of
them. But what have we got to worry about? No one is more loyal than
we…" He trailed off into a soft snore. Tobin lay
awake for a long time, remembering the strange feeling he'd had
around the wizard, and the secret enemies the man had spoken of. No
traitor had better approach him; as little as he might care for the
red-bearded wizard, he'd keep his promise to him if any man asked him
to betray the rightful ruler of Skala. 'TT'hink it
was worth it to them?" Ki whispered to Tobin -L as Korin and his
revelers straggled up for the morning run the next day. Porion was
watching them, too, looking like a thundercloud about to burst. Carol's
purging hadn't done him any good; he was as green as a leek and
swaying on his feet. The others were less wobbly but very quiet. Only
Korin, who'd seemed the drunkest, was his usual self. His morning
greeting to Tobin was contrite, however. 'I don't
suppose you spared any kind thoughts for us after we left you?"
he asked, giving Tobin a sheepish look. 'Did you
have fun in the city, Your Highness?" asked Ki. 'We got as
far as the gate this time before Porion caught us. We're all to do a
penance vigil after training, to cleanse the poisons from us, as he
put it. There's to be no wine at table for a month." He sighed.
"I don't know why I do it. You will forgive me, won't you, Tob?" Tobin
hadn't been angry in the first place, and Korin's pleading smile
would have melted river ice on Sakor's Day. "I'd rather you come
in my front door, that's all." Korin
clapped him on the shoulder. "Then it's peace between us? Good.
Come on, let's race these laggards to the temple!" Tobin and
Ki led the pack easily today, but Korin kept up with them, laughing
all the way. Tobin knew Ki had his doubts about the prince, but he
found himself liking the older boy almost as much for his faults as
in spite of them. Even drunk he was never gross or cruel the way some
of the others were, and it never seemed to affect him afterward.
Today he looked as fresh as if he'd spent the whole night sound
asleep. When they'd
finished with the temple devotions Porion ran them straight to the
archery lists. It was a clear, windless morning and Tobin was looking
forward to besting Urmanis, with whom he had a running rivalry. As he took
his place at the mark and drew the first shaft to his ear, however,
the belly pain that had plagued him over the past several days took
him again, this time with a sharp, sudden stitch that made him catch
his breath and release without aiming. The arrow flew wild over a
knot of girls watching nearby. They scattered like startled birds. 'Tobin,
have you got your eyes open?" shouted Porion, still in a foul
humor. Tobin
mumbled an apology. The pain passed, but left him tense and awkward. 'What's the
matter, Prince Wildcat?" Urmanis chuckled, stepping up for his
shot. "Snake crawl over your shadow?" His arrow sped true
to the center of the bull. Tobin
ignored the jibe and nocked another shaft. Before he could draw the
pain came again, gripping his bowels like hot claws. Tobin swallowed
hard and made himself go on as if nothing was wrong, not wanting to
show weakness before the other Companion. He took aim and released in
one smooth motion, only to find Brother standing there in front of
the bull as the shaft took flight. The spirit
hadn't come without being summoned since that day at his mother's
house. The day he'd found her ring. Brother was
mouthing something but Tobin couldn't make it out. Another cramp took
him, worse than the last. It was all Tobin could do to stay on his
feet until it passed. 'Tobin?"
Urmanis wasn't making fun anymore as he bent to look into Tobin's
face. "Master Porion, I think the prince is ill!" Ki and
Porion were at his side at once. 'It's just
a cramp," he gasped. "I ran hard—" Porion felt
his brow. "No sign of fever, but you're pale as milk. Were you
sick in the night?" Brother
stood close enough to touch now. "No. It just took me now, since
the run." 'Well then,
you'd better go back to your bed for a while. Ki, see that the prince
gets to his bed, then report to me." Brother
stayed with Tobin all the way back to their chamber, watching him
with unreadable black eyes. Molay
insisted on helping him into bed while little Baldus hovered just
behind. Tobin let them pull off his jerkin and shoes, then curled
into a tight ball as a new wave of pain struck. Ki shooed
the others back and climbed up beside him. Pressing the back of his
hand to Tobin's brow, he shook his head. "You're not feverish,
but you're in a sweat. Baldus, go fetch Sir Tharin." Tobin could
see Brother standing behind Ki now, shaking his head slowly. "No,
just let me rest," he gasped. "It's probably that pudding
we ate last night. I shouldn't eat figs." He gave Ki a rueful
grin. "Just leave me with the pot, all right? Go back and tell
them I'm all right. I don't want that pack of drunkards gloating over
me." 'Is that
all?" Ki let out a relieved laugh. "No wonder you ran out
of there so fast. All right, then. I'll carry your message and come
right back." 'No, stay
and practice. I'll be right soon. Porion has enough people to be
angry at today." Ki squeezed
his shoulder and then pulled the curtains around the bed. Tobin
listened to him go out. He lay very still, wondering at the strange
sensations in his belly. The pain was not so sharp now, and seemed to
come and go like waves that made him think of the tide on the beach.
As the pain receded, he was aware of another, more unsettling sensa
tion in its wake. He got up and made certain there was no one in the
chamber or dressing room. Then, with the curtain pulled tight all
around, he undid his trousers and pulled them down to find a small
wet stain where the two legs joined. He stared at it, puzzled. He was
certain he hadn't soiled himself. Brother was
with him again, staring. 'Go away,"
Tobin whispered, his voice faint and shaky, but Brother stayed.
"Blood my blood—" He stopped,
throat tight with fear as he gauged the position of that stain.
Reaching down with shaking fingers, he felt under his privates, still
so small and hairless compared to those of the other Companions. On
the wrinkled underside of the sac, he felt a patch of sticky wetness
on the skin. He stared at his fingertips in alarm; even in this light
he could see that it was blood. He could hardly breathe for fear as
he reached down again and felt desperately for some sore or wound. The skin
was unbroken. The blood was seeping through like dew. 'Oh, gods!"
He knew what this was. Plague. The
Red and Black Death. All the
street-corner mummeries he'd watched came back to him, and the tales
the boys shared around the hearth. First you bled through your skin,
then huge black sores swelled under your arms and in your groin. In
the end you thirsted so badly you'd crawl into a gutter to drink
filth before you died vomiting out what blood you had left. On the
heels of this came Lhel's words again. You see
blood? You come to me. It had been a vision after all. 'What do I
do?" he whispered to Brother. But he already knew. Don't
be tell nobody. You love your friend, you don't tell him, Lhel
had warned. He mustn't
tell Ki. Or Tharin. Or anyone else he loved. They'd want to help and
they'd catch it, too. He looked
around at the bed he and Ki had shared. Had he made his friend sick
already? You
love your friend, you don't tell him. Tobin tied
up his trousers and climbed out of the bed. Ki would never let him go
off alone. Neither would Lord Orun or Porion or Tharin or anyone
else. He found his tunic and got it on before pain pushed hot red
fingers through his belly again, making him grit his teeth and curl
forward. The seal and ring clinked against his chest inside his
shirt. He pulled them out and clutched them like talismans, feeling
very alone. He had to get to Lhel. When the
pain receded he went into the dressing room and buckled on his
father's blade. I'm nearly tall enough to carry
it, now that I'm dying, he thought bitterly. Let
me at least be burned with it. There's no one left to pass it to. He heard
servants talking out in the corridor; there was no escape that way
without being seen. Throwing on an old cloak, he knelt and felt at
the panel that led to his cousin's room. As Korin had warned, he
couldn't open it from his side, but Brother could and did. Korin's
room was similar to his own, but the hangings were richer and done in
red and gold. He also had a stairway from his balcony down to the
gardens, and Tobin made use of it to escape unseen. T't't
,''l-s Ki had feared, Porion kept him at practice half the
afternoon. The shadows of the thin pines were stretching into their
chamber by the time he finally returned to their room. 'Tobin, how
are you?" There was
no answer. He went to the bed and pulled back one of the heavy
hangings, thinking his friend must still be asleep, but found the bed
empty. Puzzled, Ki
looked around the room. There was the discarded jerkin; Tobin's sword
and bow still hung on the carved rack where he'd left them. There
were a dozen places his friend could be, and normally Ki would have
been content to wait for him to show up or to meet him at the nightly
feast, but Tobin's sudden illness had left him uneasy in his mind. Just then
he caught the scuffing of feet on the balcony and turned to see Tobin
framed in the brightness of the doorway. "There you are!"
he exclaimed, relieved. "You must be feeling better." Tobin
nodded and walked quickly into the dressing room, waving at him to
follow. 'How are
you feeling? You still look pale." Tobin said
nothing as he climbed to the top of the old cupboard that stood in
the dressing room. 'What are
you doing?" Tobin wasn't acting himself, Ki thought. Perhaps he
was really ill after all. Even the way he moved seemed odd, though Ki
couldn't quite say how. 'Tob,
what's wrong? What're you after up there?" Tobin
twisted around and dropped a dirty cloth bag into Ki's hands. The
move brought them face to face for the first time since Ki had come
back to the room. Ki looked
up into those black, staring eyes and began to tremble. This wasn't
Tobin. 'Brother?" In the
blink of an eye, the other stood just inches in front of him. The
spirit's face reminded him of a mask—it was as if some
ham-fisted carver had tried to model Tobin's face, but forgotten to
put in any kindness or warmth. Ki thought suddenly of his own dead
mother lying frozen in the loft all those years ago; he'd pulled back
the blanket and looked into her face, seeking in vain for the loving
presence he'd known. It was the same now, looking for Tobin in the
face of the demon. In spite of
his fear, he found his voice again. "You're Brother?" The spirit
nodded, and something like a smile twitched its thin lips. The effect
was not a pleasant one. 'Where's
Tobin?" Brother
pointed to the bag. His mouth didn't move, but Ki heard a faint
whisper like wind blowing over a frozen lake. He
goes to Lhel. Take this to him quickly! Brother
vanished, leaving Ki alone in the lengthening shadows holding a dirty
cloth sack that wasn't empty. Lhel? Tobin
had gone home? But why? And why would he leave without him? Ki's hand
found the carved horse hanging at his throat as he fought off the
hurt feelings that came with such questions. If Tobin had gone
without him, then something was terribly wrong and, if that was so,
then Ki's place was at his side. But
he left without me— 'Tharin. I
should go tell Tharin, perhaps even Porion—" No! Ki jumped
as Brother hissed at him from the shadows beside the doorway. It was
a sign, seeing Brother at last. Tobin must be in very great danger
indeed if the ghost was appearing to him. He'd better do as the thing
said. In this, at
least, he had luck on his side. In the hours between duty and mess,
the boys were free to do as they wished. No one would give a squire a
second glance as he went between Palace and stables carrying his
master's arms for repair. Taking only
their swords and the mysterious bag, he went out to the stables. Here
his fears were confirmed. Gosi was gone. If Tobin had left mounted,
there was no hope of catching up with him now. All he could do was
follow. 'You might
have shown yourself a bit earlier," he muttered as he saddled
Dragon, hoping Brother was lurking close enough to hear. tale of a
squire's errand in the city suited the Palatine guards, and another
got him past those at the harbor gate. Night was falling fast and
there was no sign of Brother to guide him now, but there was moon
enough to light his road. Turning Dragon's head to the west, he
kicked the roan into a gallop along the high road and prayed to
Astellus to guide his hooves safely in the dark. There were
few riders on the roads at night, and fewer yet slight enough to be
Tobin, but Ki couldn't help staring hard at every stranger he
overtook. Near
midnight he stopped to rest his horse at a stream. Only then did it
occur to him to look inside the bag. JLt was
near that same hour that Tharin found a very distraught Molay at his
door. >Tphe
crescent moon guided Tobin home. By its light he JL put the sea at
his back and retraced the rivers and roads that led west to the
mountains. Perhaps Gosi remembered the way, too, for they took no
wrong turning through the night. Tobin had
fear to keep him awake, and the strange pain that swelled and changed
as the moon pulled him onward. Sometimes it wasn't there at all and
he pushed the horse into a gallop for miles at a time. Then it would
close in on him again and Gosi would wander along the grassy verge
while Tobin carried a basin of dull red fire sloshing between his
hipbones. Eyes half closed against it, he thought of Niryn and his
handful of flame at the royal tomb. As the
night dragged on, the pain often rose through him, digging in under
his breastbone and spreading out beneath his skin, making his flesh
hot and cold by turns on his bones. The blood in his trousers had
dried, but near midnight his chest began to itch down low, between
his nipples. When he reached in to scratch, his fingers came away
dark and wet. Plague
plague plague. It thrummed with the beating of his heart. Plague
bringer. Lhel must
have some cure. That must be why he'd been given the vision telling
him to go to her. Perhaps hill witches knew of some healing that the
drysians and the royal healers of Skala did not. They'd all
heard the tales. In the port cities the death bird plague chasers
nailed plague bringers in their houses, along with anyone else
unlucky enough to be there when the first victim was discovered. If
anyone survived the illness, they could prove their health by
breaking free. He was a
plague bringer. Lhel had
foreseen it. Would they
nail the Old Palace shut? In the
darkness his imagination conjured an army of deathbirds settling like
carrion crows on the Palace with hammers and pouches of nails over
their shoulders, like the workmen who'd come to the keep. Would they
follow him and nail up the keep, too? They could
put him in the tower. He'd wear their mask and be a bird like the
ones who'd been his mother's only companions-All through the long
night his thoughts chased themselves round in an endless circle. He
was almost surprised when he saw the jagged teeth of the mountains
rising against the star-crusted sky so close ahead of him. Che le
first glow of dawn was warming the sky at his back when he rode
through sleeping Alestun. Gosi was stumbling and blowing under him.
Tobin had passed from weariness into a numbed, dreaming state and
began to wonder if he would suddenly open his eyes and find himself
back in Ero after all, nailed in his room by the death-birds. Or
perhaps he was really following the trail of his visions to that
underground room guarded by the deer. He left the
town behind and rode on along the familiar road between
autumn-colored trees. It had looked much the same the first time his
father took him to Alestun nearly half his life ago. He was glad to
be here again, even if it did prove to be for the last time. Better
to die here than in the city. He hoped they'd leave his body
somewhere in the forest. He didn't want to be on one of those stone
shelves under the stone queens. He belonged here. He'd just
caught a glimpse of the tower roof over the treetops when Lhel
stepped out of the trees ahead of him. Tears of relief burned his
eyes. 'Keesa, you
come," she said, walking out into the road to meet him. 'I saw the
blood, Lhel." His voice was as faint as Brother's. "I'm
sick. I've brought plague." She grasped
his ankle and squinted up into his face, then gave his foot a
reassuring pat. "No, keesa. No plague." Pulling his
foot out of the stirrup, she climbed up behind him and took the
reins. He
remembered little of the ride that followed except for the warmth of
her body against his back. It felt good. The next
thing he knew she was helping him down out of the saddle •with
hands as cool as river water. There was the house oak, with its
baskets and racks, and the round shining pool of the spring
glimmering like a green and gold mirror just beyond. A cheerful
fire crackled in front of the door. She guided him to a log seat
beside it, pulled a fur robe around him, and placed a wooden cup of
boiled herb tea in his hands. Tobin sipped it, grateful for the
warmth. The soft fur of the robe was tawny cream and brown—catamount
fur. Ki's catamount, he thought, wishing his friend was here. 'What's
wrong with me?" he rasped. 'Show
blood." Tobin
pulled down the neck of his tunic to show her the seeping patch on
his chest. "You say I'm not sick, but look! What else would do
this?" Lhel
touched the damp flesh and sighed. "We asked much of the Mother.
Too much, I think." 'My
mother?" 'Her, yes,
but Goddess mother is the one I speak. You have pains there?" 'Some, but
mostly in my belly." Lhel
nodded. "Blood other place?"
Embarrassed, Tobin pulled up his jerkin and showed her where the
first stain had soaked through his trousers. Lhel placed
her hands on his head and spoke softly in words he didn't understand. 'Ah, too
soon, keesa. Too soon," she said, sounding sad. "Perhaps I
did wrong, making Brother's hekkamari keeping you so close. I must
bring Arkoniel. You eat while I go." 'Can't I go
•with you? I want to see Nari!" Tobin begged. 'Later,
keesa." She brought
him warm porridge, berries, and bread, then strode away through the
trees. Tobin
huddled deeper into the robe and took a bite of the bread. Stolen
from Cook's kitchen, no doubt. The taste of it made him even more
homesick. He longed to run after Lhel and sit by the kitchen fire
with Cook and Nari. Being so close, dressed in his old clothes, it
was easy to pretend that he'd never left home at all. Except that
Ki "wasn't here. Tobin ran his fingers along the edge of the
catamount skin, wondering what he was going to say to him when he
went back. What must Ki and Tharin and the others be thinking by now? He pushed
that worry away for later and touched the blood on his chest again.
He wasn't a plague carrier after all, but something was wrong. Maybe
something even worse. JLt was
almost daylight when Ki reached the turning of the road for Alestun,
but he missed it all the same, only having been this way once before.
He was clear past it •when Brother suddenly appeared in the road
in front of him, startling his horse. 'So there
you are!" Ki muttered, snubbing the reins to calm Dragon as he
shied. The ghost
pointed back the way he'd come. Ki turned and saw the marker he'd
missed at the crossroads behind him. "Many thanks, Brother." He was
almost used to the ghost by now. Or maybe he was just too tired and
hungry and worried about what he was going to find at the end of this
night's long ride to have any fear to spare. Whatever the case, he
was glad enough when Brother stayed with him and led the way to
Alestun. It was a
warm morning for mid-Erasin. A mist rose off the dripping trees,
ghostly in the thin light of the false dawn. 'Is Tobin
well?" he asked, assuming Brother would know something of his
twin's condition. But Brother neither turned nor spoke, just moved on
ahead of him in that odd, not-walking way of his. Watching him for a
while, Ki began to think he'd been more comfortable alone after all. ^,'Vrkoniel
looked up from his washbasin to find Lhel's face floating before him. 'You come
now," she said, and there was no mistaking the urgency in her
voice. "Tobin is with me. Magic has broken." Arkoniel
hastily dried his face and ran out to the stable. He didn't bother
with a saddle, just grasped the bridle and clung on to his gelding's
back as he rode up the mountain road to meet the witch. She was
waiting for him at the forest's edge, as always. He left the horse
and followed her on foot through the trees by •what felt like a
shorter route than usual. For over two years he'd been her pupil, her
lover, yet she had still not entrusted him with the way to her home. At the
clearing he found Tobin sitting by the fire wrapped in a catamount
skin. The child's face was drawn and sallow, and there were dark
circles under his eyes. He'd been dozing, but looked up sharply at
their approach. 'Tobin, how
are you feeling?" Arkoniel asked, kneeling in front of him. Was
it his imagination, or had the familiar planes of that face shifted
already, ever so slightly? 'A little
better," Tobin replied, looking scared. "Lhel says I don't
have plague." 'No, of
course you don't!" 'But tell
me what is happening to me!" Tobin showed him a bloody smear on
his flat, smooth chest. "It just keeps leaking out and it's
starting to hurt again. It must be the Red and Black Death. What else
would do this?" 'Magic,"
said Arkoniel. "A magic worked on you long ago that's coming
undone before its time. I'm so sorry. You were never meant to find
out this way." As he'd
feared, Tobin only looked more frightened at this. "Magic? On
me?" 'Yes.
Lhel's magic." Tobin cast
a betrayed look at the witch. "But why? When did you do it? When
you put my blood on the doll?" 'No, keesa.
Much older time ago. When you is born. lya and Arkoniel came to me,
ask for it. Say your moon god want it. Your father want it. Part of
your warrior path. Come, it's better to show than to tell you."
i had planned to go straight to the keep and fetch Arkoniel, but
Brother would have none of it. Follow,
the spirit demanded in his hoarse whispery voice. Ki didn't dare
disobey. Brother
guided him to a game track that skirted the meadow and crossed the
river at a ford further upstream. Ki peeked
into the bag at the worn old doll as he rode, wondering how such a
thing could matter to a ghost. But clearly it did, for Brother was
suddenly at his stirrup and Ki felt cold all over. Not
for you! hissed Brother, gripping his leg with icy fingers. 'I don't
want it!" Ki snugged the bag shut and stuffed it between his leg
and the saddle. The way
quickly became steep on the other side of the ford and began to look
familiar. Ki recognized a large stone that they'd used for a table
one summer day, picnicking with Arkoniel and Lhel. It couldn't be
much farther now. Tired as he
was, and uneasy with Brother, Ki couldn't help smiling as he thought
how surprised everyone would be to see him. Cot abin
shivered as he bent over the spring's smooth surface. Lhel had made
him take off his tunic and shirt. Looking down, he could see his face
and the red smear on his chest. He wondered if he should wash it
away, but didn't dare. Lhel and Arkoniel were still looking at him so
strangely. 'Watch the
pool," Lhel told him again, rustling around with something
behind him. "Arkoniel, you tell." The wizard
knelt beside him. "It should have been your father who told you
this, or lya. And you should be older and ready to take your place.
But it seems the gods have other plans. 'You've
heard people say that your dead twin was a girl. Well, that's true,
in a way." Tobin
looked up at him and saw a deep sadness in the wizard's face. 'Your
mother bore two children that night: a boy and a girl. One died, as
you know. But you see, the child who lived was a girl. You, Tobin.
Lhel used a special kind of magic—" 'Skin
binding," said Lhel. 'Skin
binding, to make you appear to be a boy, and the dead
boy—Brother—appear to be a girl." For a
moment Tobin thought he'd lost his voice again, as he had when his
mother died. But he managed a rasping, "No!" 'It's true,
Tobin. You are a girl in boy's form. And there will come a time when
you must put aside that false form and take your place in the world
as a woman." Tobin was
shivering now, and not because of the cold. "But— But
why?" 'To protect
you until you can be queen." 'Protect
me? From who?" 'From your
uncle and his Harriers. They'd kill you if they knew. The king would
have killed you the night you were born if we hadn't done as we did.
He'd killed others already, many others, whom he feared would
challenge his right, and Korin's." 'Niryn
said— But he talked of traitors!" 'No, they
were innocents. And they had far less claim than you, his own
sister's child. You know the Prophecy of Afra. You're a true daughter
of Thelatimos, the last of the pure line. This skin binding—it
was the only way we could think of to protect you. And until now it
worked." Tobin
stared down at the face in the water—his eyes, his hair, the
scar on his pointed chin. "No! You're lying! I want to be who I
am! I'm a warrior!" 'You've
never been anything else," Arkoniel told him. "But you're
destined by Illior to be something more. Illior showed this to lya
while you were still in your mother's womb. Countless wizards and
priests have dreamed of you. You'll be a great warrior and a great
queen, like Gherilain herself." Tobin
pressed his hands to his ears and shook his head in fury. "No!
Women aren't warriors! I'm a warrior! I'm Tobin. ,' know
who I am.'" The scent
of musk and green herbs enveloped him as Lhel knelt on his other side
and wrapped strong arms around him. "You are who you are. Let me
show." She covered
the bloody place on his chest with her hand and the pain came back
for a moment on crawling centipede feet. When she took her hand away,
he saw a vertical line of stitching on his chest identical to the one
that Brother had once shown him, tiny and fine as spider silk. But
his wound had healed and the scar had faded pale. Only the lower end
of it was bloody, like Brother's wound. 'The magic
grow thin, the binding not hold. Must be new magic made," Lhel
said. "It's not your time to show the true face, keesa." Tobin
pressed against her gratefully. He didn't want to change. 'But how—"
Arkoniel began. Lhel
forestalled him with one upraised finger. "For later. Tobin, you
should know your true face." 'I don't
want to!" 'Yes. Is
good to know. Come, keesa, look." Lhel
pressed a finger to the stitching on his chest and when she spoke
again, he heard her voice inside his head; for the first time her
words were clear and unbroken. "Goddess Mother, I loosen these
stitches made in your name, sewn on the night of your waxing harvest
moon, that they may be made sound again in this moon to protect this
child with the binding of one form to another. Let this daughter
called Tobin see her true face in your mirror. Ease, red moon woven
strand, here." Saying this, she passed her hand across Tobin's
eyes and guided him to lean over the pool's glassy surface again. Fearfully,
unwillingly, he looked down to see what stranger would peer up at
him. She was not
so different. It was a
girl—there was no mistaking that—but she had his dark
blue eyes, his straight nose and pointed chin, even the same scar.
He'd feared to see someone soft and silly, like the girls at court,
but this one had nothing soft about her. Her cheekbones might be a
little higher set than his own, the lips a hint fuller, but she met
his gaze with the same wariness he'd so often seen in his mirror at
home—and the same determination. 'Not'she,'
Tobin," Arkoniel whispered. "You. You are
she. You've been looking at Brother in your mirror all these years.
But not all of him. Your eyes are your own." 'No binding
change that. And this." Tobin felt Lhel touch the wisdom mark
and heard the witch's voice inside his head again. "That did not
change from your birth. That has always been a part of you. And
this—" She touched the scar. "This was given to you,
and this you keep. All your life you have thought to follow Sakor,
but Illior marked you from birth. So it is with your memories, your
training, your art, your soul. All the things that you are you keep.
But you shall be more than that." Tobin
shivered, remembering the ghostly queen who'd offered him the sword.
Had she known, and given it as a blessing? 'You can
see me, Arkoniel?" 'Yes. Oh,
yes!" The wizard's voice was thick with joy. "I'm so glad
to see you at last, after all these years, my lady!" My
lady. Tobin
covered her ears against the word but could not take her gaze from
the reflection. 'I know
what you fear, Tobin," Arkoniel told her, speaking gently. "But
you know the histories. Before your uncle's time, the queens of Skala
were the greatest warriors of all, and there were women generals,
women captains and squires and arms masters." 'Like Ki's
sister." 'Yes, like
Ki's sister. And Cook, too, in her day. They're still out there in
the armies, as she is. You can bring them back to court, back to
honor. But only if you stay safe and hidden until the time is right.
To do that, you must go back to Ero and remain Tobin to the world.
Nari and lya are the only others who know the truth, besides we two.
No one else can know. Not even Ki or Tharin." 'But why?"
Tobin demanded. She'd had enough of secrets already. How was she to
bear this one alone? 'I gave my
word to your father and to lya that no one would learn of your true
identity until the sign is given." 'What
sign?" 'I don't
know that yet. Illior will reveal it. For now, we must be patient." V,'he
incident with the doll had ended any chance of Ki being at ease with
the spirit or demon or whatever the hell Brother was. Even so, he
wasn't prepared when it suddenly flew at him as they climbed a steep,
crumbling bank. It didn't touch him, but spooked Dragon, who reared
and threw him. He went tumbling ass over tippet down the bank.
Luckily the ground was soft with moss and ferns, but he still found a
few rocks and logs before he fetched up against a tree halfway back
down the slope. 'Damnation,
what did you do that for?" he gasped, trying to get his wind
back. He could see Brother at the top of the hill. The ghost had the
flour sack now, and he was smiling that unsettling smile of his as he
looked back at Ki. The horse was long gone. 'What do
you want?" Ki shouted at him. Brother
said nothing. Ki started
to scramble up after him. When he looked up again, Brother was gone. He climbed
to the top of the rise and found Brother watching him from the mouth
of a game track a few yards away. Ki took a step in his direction and
Brother faded back, leading him. Not knowing
what else to do, Ki set after him, letting the ghost lead him as it
would. After all, it had the doll now. Ajhel had
taken Arkoniel back behind the oak some time ago, leaving Tobin alone
at the spring. She knelt where they'd left her, staring down at the
face in the pool and feeling the world turning upside down around
her. My
face, she told herself. Girl.
Lady. Princess. The world
spun again. Queen. Me. She touched
her cheek to discover if it felt as different as it looked in the
water. Before she could decide, the image burst in a splash that wet
her from face to knees. A cloth
sack floated in the spring in front of her. A flour
sack. 'The doll!"
she cried, pulling it out before it could sink. She'd forgotten it in
Ero. Brother crouched on the far side of the pool, staring at her
with his head cocked to one side, almost as if he were surprised to
see her like this. 'Look
Lhel," she called. "Brother brought it all the way from the
city." Lhel and
Arkoniel ran to her and pulled her from the spring. The witch wrapped
the catamount robe around her like a cloak, pulling it forward over
her face. 'No,
Brother couldn't have done that. Not by himself," said Arkoniel,
scanning the edge of the clearing with frightened eyes. 'Then
Brother must have brought Ki," said Tobin, trying to pull away.
"I was so scared when I saw the blood that I just ran away and
forgot the doll. Brother must have shown it to Ki and told him to
bring it." 'Yes, the
spirit knows his way," Lhel said, but she was looking at
Arkoniel, not at the ghost. "And Ki knew the way to the keep—" V'he wizard
had disappeared into the trees before she could finish. She sent her
voice after him, finding his mind with ease. 'No, you
must not harm him." 'You know
what I have sworn, Lhel." Lhel almost
followed, but knew she couldn't leave Tobin alone like this. 'What's
wrong?" Tobin asked, gripping her arm. 'Nothing,
keesa. Arkoniel gone to find your friend. We start the healing while
he go." 'No, I want
to wait for Ki." Lhel smiled
and placed her hand on Tobin's head, then spoke the spell she'd
shaped in her mind. Tobin fell limp in her arms. Lhel caught
her and held her close as she stared into the trees. "Mother,
protect him." 'rother
kept just ahead of Ki all the way to Lhel's clearing, never close
enough to question but never quite out of sight. Then he disappeared,
and where he'd stood Ki could see what looked like Tobin through a
break in the trees. He opened
his mouth to hail him when Arkoniel suddenly stepped in front of him.
Sunlight flashed on something in the wizard's hand and everything
went black. bin woke on
a pallet inside the oak. It was hot and his bare skin streamed with
sweat. His head felt like it was filled with warm mud, too heavy to
lift. Lhel sat
cross-legged beside him, holding the rag doll on her lap. 'You 'wake,
keesa?" A twinge of
pain brought Tobin fully awake and he sat up with a cry of dismay.
"Ki? Where's Ki?" There was
something wrong with his voice. It was too high. It sounded like— 'No!" 'Yes,
daughter." 'Where's
Ki?" Tobin asked again. 'He be
outside. It's time for the teaching I tell you of all that time ago,
when you bring me this hekkamari." She held up the doll. "The
Skala moon god got path set for you. You a girl, but you got to be a
boy looking for a time again. We do another binding now." Tobin
looked down and saw that her naked body was still a boy's—lean
and angular with a little penis nestled like a mouse between her
thighs. But there were a few smears of fresh blood there, too. 'Why am I
bleeding there?" 'Binding
got weak when your moon time come on you. Fight with the magic." 'Moon
time?" Tobin realized uncomfortably that Lhel must mean the
monthly female bleeding Ki had told her about. 'Woman got
a tide in her womb like the sea, called by the moon," Lhel told
her. "Give you blood and pain. Give you magic to grow baby in
your belly. Some get other magic from it too, like me. And you, too.
It give you dreams, sometimes, and the eye. Strong magic. Break some
of my stitching." Lhel
clucked her tongue against her teeth as she took out a slender silver
blade and picked out a few of the stitches on the doll's side. "Never
do a binding for so long time. Maybe not meant to hold so long. Skin
strong, but bone stronger. We use bone this time." 'What
bone?" Lhel pulled
a handful of yellowed wool and crumbling dried herbs from the body of
the doll and felt through it until she found what she wanted. Holding
out her hand, she showed Tobin three ivory-colored fragments: a tiny
curved splinter of rib, a fragment of skull cupped and thin as
eggshell, and one whole bone small and fine as the wing bone of a
swallow. "Brother's bone," she said. Tobin's
eyes widened. "His bones are in the doll?" 'Most. Some
little bits still be in ground by your mama's house in the city.
Under a big tree there, near cooking place." Tobin
reached up for the chain around her neck and showed Lhel the ring. "I
found this in a hole under a dead tree by the old summer kitchen.
Tharin says it was my mother's. Is that where he was buried?" Lhel
nodded. "I call to bring up bones from earth and flesh. Your
mama—" She mimed digging into the earth, fingers bent like
claws. "She make them clean and sew into the doll so she can
care for the spirit." Tobin
looked at the doll with revulsion. "But why?" 'Brother
angry to be dead and still skin bind to you. His spirit
be demon worse than what you know if I didn't teach your mama to make
the hekkamari. We take up his little bones and put them in the doll.
I bind her to it, just as I bind you. You remember?" 'With the
hair and the blood." Lhel
nodded. "She his blood, too. His mama. When she die it pass to
you. You know the words. 'Blood my blood. Flesh my flesh. Bone my
bone.' That's a true thing." Lhel
snapped off a tiny sliver from the broken rib bone and held it up. "I
put this in you, you be bind again, have Brother's face until you cut
it out and be girl outside. But you know you girl inside now, keesa." Tobin
nodded miserably. "Yes, I know. Just make me look like my old
self again, please?" Lhel
pressed Tobin back down on the pallet and placed the doll beside her.
Then she began to sing softly under her breath. Tobin felt very
sleepy all at once, though her eyes stayed open. Brother came into
the oak and lay down where the doll was. His body felt as solid and
warm beside her as Ki's ever had. She looked over at him and smiled,
but he was staring straight up, his face as rigid as a mask. Lhel
dropped the rough dress from her shoulders. The firelight made the
tattoos on her hands, breasts, and belly seem to crawl across her
skin as she wove moon white patterns in the air with the silver blade
and a needle. A net of light hung over Tobin and Brother when she was
done. Tobin felt
the cold touch of metal between her thighs, and a sharp needle prick
under her boy sac. Then Lhel was painting red on the air, so that the
patterns looked like— —blood
on river ice Tobin wanted to look away but she couldn't move. Chanting
softly, Lhel balanced the tiny shard of infant bone on the tip of her
knife and waved it through the flames beside her until it glowed
blue-white. Brother floated up into the air and turned over, so that
he hung nose to nose above Tobin. Lhel reached through his luminous
body and plunged the hot bone shard into the seeping wound on Tobin's
breast. The flame
of the burning bone shot out under her skin, encasing her in heat.
She tried to cry out in pain and fear, certain the flesh would boil
off her bones, but she was still held tight by Lhel's voice. White
light blinded her for a moment, then the pain lifted her off the
ground and she and Brother floated together up the smoke hole of the
oak, and still higher above the trees. Like a hawk, she could see
everything for miles around. She saw Tharin and his men coming on at
a gallop from Alestun. She saw Nari and Cook doing the wash in the
kitchen yard at the keep. And she saw Arkoniel kneeling over Ki, who
lay on his back just outside Lhel's clearing, looking up at the sky
with unseeing eyes. The wizard had one hand pressed to Ki's brow, the
other over his own eyes as if he were weeping. Tobin
wanted to go closer, see what the matter was, but something lifted
her higher, until she was flying west over the mountains to a deep
harbor below a cliff. Long arms of rock embraced the mouth of the
harbor, and islands guarded it. She could hear the waves breaking
against their steep sides now, and the lonely cries of the
grey-winged gulls— Here,
a voice whispered to her. The white light swelled again, filling her
eyes. Then, You must go back, and she was
falling, falling back into the oak, into herself. She opened
her eyes. Brother was still hovering over her, but Lhel's chanting
had changed. She'd exchanged knife for needle and was stitching up
the bloody edges of the wound in Tobin's chest as deftly as Nari used
to mend the rents in her tunics. Nari
knew all along— But now
Tobin was the tunic and had to watch as the silver needle rose and
fell in the firelight, drawing a barely visible thread silvery as a
snail's trail through the air, through her skin. It didn't hurt,
though. With each successive flash and tug of the needle Tobin felt
herself being drawn together, made whole again. Patched,
she thought dizzily. With every
stitch Brother shook above her and his face twisted into a mask of
true pain. She could see the unhealed wound on his chest again, how
the blood fell from it drop by drop with every pass of the witch's
needle through Tobin's living flesh. His lips drew back from his
white teeth and bloody tears fell from his eyes. Tobin expected to
feel them on her face but they disappeared somewhere in the air
between them. Stop
it! she tried to cry out to Lhel. You're
hurting him. Can't you see you're hurting him? Brother's
eyes flew wide and he stared down at her. Let me
go! It was a scream inside her head. 'Be still,
keesa. Dead don't know pain," Lhel murmured. You're
wrong! Tobin cried out silently. Brother,
I'm sorry! Lhel pulled
the final stitch tight and Brother slowly sank down onto Tobin, then
through her, and for an instant she felt the coldness of his presence
in every inch of her frame. You
must go back— Then
Brother was gone and Tobin was free, curling away from Lhel's stained
hands, curling into the sweet-smelling softness of the catamount
skin, and sobbing aloud with the hoarse, ugly voice of a boy.
Document
Fragment Discovered in the East Tower of the Oreska House
An
old man looks back at me from my mirror now. Even among the other
wizards here in Rhim-inee, I'm a relic of forgotten times. My
new apprentice, little Nysander, cannot imagine what it was like to
be a free wizard of the Second Oreska. At Nysander's birth this
beautiful city had already stood for two centuries above her deep
harbor. Yet to me it shall always and forever be "the new
capital." In
the days of my youth, a whore's cast-off like Nysander would have
gone unschooled. If he were lucky he might have ended up as a village
weather-caller or soothsayer. More likely, he would have unwittingly
killed someone and been stoned as a witch. Only the Lightbearer knows
how many god-touched children were lost before the advent of the
Third Oreska. Before
this city was built, before this great house of learning was gifted
to us by its founder, we wizards of the Second Oreska made our own
way and lived by our own laws. Now,
in return for service to the Crown we have this House, with its
libraries, archives, and its common history. I am the only one still
living who knows how dear a price was paid for that. Two
centuries. Three or four lifetimes for most people; a mere season for
those of us touched by the Lightbearer's gift. "We wizards stand
apart, Arkoniel," my own teacher, lya, told me when I was
scarcely older than Nysander is now. "We are stones in a river's
course, watching the rush of life whirl past." Standing
by Nysander's door tonight, watching the lad sleep, I imagined tya's
ghost beside me, and for a moment it seemed as if it was my younger
self I gazed at; a plain, shy nobleman's son who'd shown a talent for
animal charming. While guesting at my father's estate, lya recognized
the magic in me and revealed it to my family. I wept the day I left
home with her. How
easy it would be to call those tears foreshadowing—that
device the playwrights are so enamored of these days. But I have
never quite believed in fate, despite all the prophecies and oracles
that shaped my life. There's always a choice in there somewhere. I've
seen too often how people make their own future through the balance
of each day's little kindnesses and cruelties. chose
to go with lya. Later,
I chose to believe in the visions the Oracle granted to her and to
me. By
my own choice, I helped rekindle the power of this good strong
country, and so may rightly claim to have helped the fair white
towers ofRhim-inee rise against this blue western sky. But
on those few nights when I sleep deeply, what do I dream of? An
infant's cry, cut short. You
might think after so many years that it would be easier to accept;
that one necessary act of cruelty could alter the course of history
like an earthquake shifts a river's course. But that deed, that cry,
lies at the heart of all the good that came after, like a grain of
sand at the heart of a pearl's glowing nacre. I
alone cany the memory of that infant's brief wail, all those years
ago. I
alone know of the filth at the heart of this pearl. Iya pulled
off her straw wayfarer's hat and fanned herself with it as her horse
labored up the rocky trail toward Afra. The sun stood at noon,
blazing against the cloudless blue. It was only the first week of
Gorathin, far too early for it to be this hot. It seemed the drought
was going to last another season. Snow still
glistened on the peaks overhead, however. Now and then a plume of
wind-blown white gusted out against the stark blue of the sky,
creating the tantalizing illusion of coolness, while down here in the
narrow pass no breeze stirred. Anywhere else Iya might have conjured
up a bit of wind, but no magic was allowed within a day's ride of
Afra. Ahead of
her, Arkoniel swayed in his saddle like a shabby, long-legged stork.
The young wizard's linen tunic was sweated through down the back and
stained drab with a week's worth of road dust. He never complained;
his only concession to the heat was the sacrifice of the patchy black
beard he'd cultivating since he turned one and twenty last Erasin. Poor
boy, Iya thought fondly; the newly shaven skin was already badly
sunburnt. Their
destination, the Oracle at Afra, lay at the very heart of Skala's
mountainous spine and was a grueling ride any time of year. Iya had
made the long pilgrimage twice before, but never in summer. The walls
of the pass pressed close to the trail here, and centuries of seekers
had left their names and supplications to Illior Lightbearer
scratched into the dark stone. Some had
simply scratched the god's thin crescent moon; these lined the trail
like countless tilting smiles. Arkoniel had left one of his own
earlier that morning to commemorate his first visit. lya's horse
stumbled and the reason for their journey bumped hard against her
thigh. Inside the worn leather bag slung from her saddle horn,
smothered in elaborate wrappings and magic, was a lopsided bowl
crudely fashioned of burnt clay. There was nothing remarkable about
it, except for the fierce aura of malevolence it gave off when not
hidden away. More than once over the years she'd imagined throwing it
over a cliff or into a river; in reality, she could no more have done
that than cut off her own arm. She was the Guardian; the contents of
that bag had been her charge for over a century. Unless
the Oracle can tell me otherwise. Fixing her thin, greying hair
into a knot on top of her head, she fanned again at her sweaty neck. Arkoniel
turned in the saddle and regarded her with concern. His unruly black
curls dripped sweat beneath the wilted brim of his hat. "You're
red in the face. We should stop and rest again." 'No, we're
nearly there." 'Then have
some more water, at least. And put your hat back on!" 'You make
me feel old. I'm only two hundred and thirty, you know." 'Two
hundred and thirty-two," he corrected with a wry grin. It was an
old game between them. She pulled
a sour face. "Just wait until you're in your third age, my boy.
It gets harder to keep track." The truth
was, hard riding did tire her more than it had back in her early
hundreds, although she wasn't about to admit it. She took a long pull
from her waterskin and flexed her shoulders. "You've been quiet
today. Do you have a query yet?" 'I think
so. I hope the Oracle finds it worthy." Such
earnestness made lya smile. This journey was merely another lesson as
far as Arkoniel knew. She'd told him nothing of her true quest. The leather
bag bumped against her thigh like a nagging child. Forgive
me, Agazhar, she thought, knowing her long-dead teacher, the
first Guardian, would not have approved. The last
stretch of trail was the most treacherous. The rock face to their
right gave way to a chasm and in places they rode with their left
knees brushing the cliff face. Arkoniel
disappeared around a sharp bend, then called back, "I can see
Illior's Keyhole, just as you described!" Rounding
the outcropping, lya saw the painted archway glowing like a garish
apparition where it straddled the trail. Stylized dragons glowed in
red, blue, and gold around the narrow opening, which was just wide
enough for a single horseman to pass through. Afra lay less than a
mile beyond. Sweat stung
lya's eyes, making her blink. It had been snowing the first time
Agazhar brought her here. JLya had
come later than most to the wizardly arts. She'd grown up on a tenant
farm on the border of Skala's mainland territory. The closest market
town lay across the Keela River in Mycena, and it was here that lya's
family traded. Like many bordermen, her father had taken a Mycenian
wife and made his offerings to Dalna the Maker, rather than Illior or
Sakor. So it was,
when she first showed signs of magic, that she was sent across the
river to study with an old Dalnan priest who'd tried to make a
drysian healer of her. She earned praise for her herb craft, but as
soon as the ignorant old fellow discovered that she could make fire
with a thought, he bound a witch charm to her wrist and sent her home
in disgrace. With this
taint on her, she'd found little welcome in her village and no
prospect of a husband. She was a
spinster of twenty-four when Agazhar happened across her in the
market square. He told her later that it was the witch charm that had
caught his eye as she stood haggling with a trader over the price of
her goats. She'd taken
no notice of him, thinking he was just another old soldier finding
his way home from the wars. Agazhar had been as ragged and
hollow-cheeked as any of them, and the left sleeve of his tunic hung
empty. lya was
forced to take a second look when he walked up to her, clasped her
hand, and broke into a sweet smile of recognition. After a brief
conversation, she sold off her goats and followed the old wizard down
the south road without a backward glance. All anyone would have found
of her, had they bothered to search, was the witch charm lying in the
weeds by the market gate. Agazhar
hadn't scoffed at her fire making. Instead, he explained that it was
the first sign that she was one of the god-touched of Illior. Then he
taught her to harness the unknown power she possessed into the potent
magic of the Oreska wizards. Agazhar was
a free wizard, beholden to no one. Eschewing the comforts of a single
patron, he wandered as he liked, finding welcome in noble houses and
humble ones alike. Together he and lya traveled the Three Lands and
beyond, sailing west to Aurenen, where even the common folk were as
long-lived as wizards and possessed magic. Here she learned that the
Aurenfaie were the First Oreska; it was their blood, mingled with
that of lya's race, that had given magic to the chosen ones of Skala
and Plenimar. This gift
came with a price. Human wizards could neither bear nor sire
children, but lya considered herself well repaid, both in magic and,
later, with students as gifted and companionable as Arkoniel. Agazhar had
also taught her more about the Great War than any of her father's
ballads or legends, for he'd been among the wizards who'd fought for
Skala under Queen Gherilain's banner. 'There's
never been another such war as that, and pray Sakor there never shall
be again," he'd say, staring into the campfire at night as if he
saw his fallen comrades there. "For one shining span of time
wizards stood shoulder to shoulder with warriors, balding the black
necromancers of Plenimar." The tales
Agazhar told of those days gave lya nightmares. A necromancer's
demon—a dyrmagnos, he called it—had
torn off his left arm. But
gruesome as these tales were, lya still clung to them, for only there
had Agazhar given her any glimpse of where the strange bowl had come
from. Agazhar had
carried it then; never in all the years she'd known him had he ever
let it out of his possession. "Spoils of war," he'd said
with a dark laugh, the first time he'd opened the bag to show it to
her. But beyond
that, he would tell her nothing except that the bowl could not be
destroyed and that its existence could not be revealed to anyone but
the next Guardian. Instead, he'd schooled her rigorously in the
complex web of spells that protected it, making her weave and unweave
them until she could do it in the blink of an eye. 'You'll be
the Guardian after me," he reminded her when she grew impatient
with the secrecy. "Then you'll understand. Be certain you choose
your successor wisely." 'But how
will I know who to choose?" He'd smiled
and taken her hand as he had when they'd first met in the
marketplace. "Trust in the Light-bearer. You'll know." And she
had. .H, it
first she couldn't help pressing to know more about it—where
he'd found it, who had made it and why, but Agazhar had remained
obdurate. "Not until the time comes for you to take on the full
care of it. Then I will tell you all there is to know." Sadly, that
day had taken them both unaware. Agazhar had dropped dead in the
streets of Ero one fine spring day soon after her first century. One
moment he was holding forth on the beauty of a new transformation
spell he'd just created; the next, he slipped to the ground with a
hand pressed to his chest and a look of mild surprise in his fixed,
dead eyes. Scarcely
into her second age, lya suddenly found herself Guardian without
knowing what she guarded or why. She kept the oath she'd sworn to him
and waited for Illior to reveal her successor. She'd waited two
lifetimes, as promising students came and went, and said nothing to
them of the bag and its secrets. But as
Agazhar had promised, she'd recognized Arkoniel the moment she first
spied him playing in his father's orchard fifteen years earlier. He
could already keep a pippin spinning in midair and could put out a
candle flame with a thought. Young as he
was, she'd taught him what little she knew of the bowl as soon as he
was bound over to her. Later, when he was strong enough, she taught
him how to weave the protections. Even so, she kept the burden of it
on her own shoulders as Agazhar had instructed. 'ver the
years lya had come to regard the bowl as little more than a sacred
nuisance, but that had all changed a month ago when the wretched
thing had taken over her dreams. The ghastly interwoven nightmares,
more vivid than any she'd ever known, had finally driven her here,
for she saw the bowl in all of them, carried high above a battlefield
by a monstrous black figure for which she knew no name. JLya? lya,
are you well?" asked Arkoniel. lya shook
off the reverie that had claimed her and gave him a reassuring smile.
"Ah, we're here at last, I see." Pinched in
a deep cleft of rock, Afra was scarcely large enough to be called a
village and existed solely to serve the Oracle and the pilgrims who
journeyed here. A wayfarer's inn and the chambers of the priests were
carved like bank swallow nests into the cliff faces on either side of
the small paved square. Their doorways and deep-set windows were
framed with carved fretwork and pillars of ancient design. The square
was deserted now, but a few people waved to them from the shadowy
windows. At the
center of the square stood a red jasper stele as tall as Arkoniel. A
spring bubbled up at its base and flowed away into a stone basin and
on to a trough beyond. 'By the
Light!" Dismounting, Arkoniel turned his horse loose at the
trough and went to examine the stele. Running his palm over the
inscription carved in four languages, he read the words that had
changed the course of Skalan history three centuries earlier. "
'So long as a daughter of Thelatimos' line defends and rules, Skala
shall never be subjugated.'" He shook his head in wonder. "This
is the original, isn't it?" lya nodded sadly. "Queen
Gherilain placed this here herself as a thank offering right after
the war. The Oracle's Queen, they called her then." In the
darkest days of the war, when it seemed that Plenimar would devour
the lands of Skala and Mycena, the Skalan king, Thelatimos, had left
the battlefields and journeyed here to consult the Oracle. When he
returned to battle, he brought with him his daughter, Gherilain, then
a maiden of sixteen. Obeying the Oracle's words, he anointed her
before his exhausted army and passed his crown and sword to her. According
to Agazhar, the generals had not thought much of the king's decision.
Yet from the start the girl proved god-touched as a warrior and led
the allies to victory in a year's time,
killing the Plenimaran Overlord single-handedly at the Battle of
Isil. She'd been a fine queen in peace, as well, and ruled for over
fifty years. Agazhar had been among her mourners. 'These
markers used to stand all over Skala, didn't they?" asked
Arkoniel. 'Yes, at
every major crossroads in the land. You were just a babe when King
Erius tore them all down." lya dismounted and touched the stone
reverently. It was hot under her palm, and still as smooth as the day
it had left the stonecutter's shop. "Even Erius didn't dare
touch this one." 'Why not?" 'When he
sent word for it to be removed, the priests refused. To force the
issue meant invading Afra itself, the most sacred ground in Skala. So
Erius graciously relented and contented himself with having all the
others dumped into the sea. There was also a golden tablet bearing
the inscription in the throne room at the Old Palace. I wonder what
happened to that?" But the
younger wizard had more immediate concerns. Shading his eyes, he
studied the cliff face. "Where's the Oracle's shrine?" 'Further up
the valley. Drink deeply here. We must walk the rest of the way." Ijea saving
their mounts at the inn, they followed a well-worn path deeper into
the cleft. The way became steeper and more difficult as they went.
There were no trees to shade them, no moisture to lay the white dust
that hung on the hot midday air. Soon the way dwindled to a faint
track -winding up between boulders and over rock faces worn smooth
and treacherous by centuries of pilgrim's feet. They met
two other groups of seekers coming in the opposite direction. Several
young soldiers were laughing and talking bravely, all but one young
man who hung back from his fellows with the fear of death clear in
his eyes. The second group clustered around an elderly merchant woman
who wept silently as the younger members of her party helped her
along. Arkoniel
eyed them nervously. lya waited until the merchant's party had
disappeared around a bend, then sat down on a rock to rest. The way
here was hardly wide enough for two people to pass and held the heat
like an oven. She took a sip from the skin Arkoniel had filled at the
spring. The water was still cold enough to make her eyes ache. 'Is it much
further?" he asked. 'Just a
little way." Promising herself a cool bath at the inn, lya stood
and continued on. 'You knew
the king's mother, didn't you?" Arkoniel said, scrambling along
behind her. "Was she as bad as they say?" The stele
must have gotten him thinking. "Not at first. Agnalain the Just,
they called her. But she had a dark streak in her that worsened with
age. Some say it came from her father's blood. Others said it was
because of the trouble she had with childbearing. Her first consort
gave her two sons. Then she seemed to go barren for years and
gradually developed a taste for young consorts and public executions.
Erius' own father went to the block for treason. After that no one
was safe. By the Four, I can still remember the stink of the crow
cages lining the roads around Ero! We all hoped she'd improve when
she finally had a daughter, but she didn't. It only made her worse." It had been
easy enough in those black days for Agnalain's eldest son, Prince
Erius—already a seasoned warrior and the people's darling—to
argue that the Oracle's words had been twisted, that the prophecy had
referred only to King Thelatimos' actual daughter, not to a
matrilineal line of succession. Surely brave Prince Erius was better
suited to the throne than the only direct female heir; his
half-sister Ariani was just past her third birthday. Never mind
the fact that Skala had enjoyed unparalleled prosperity under her
queens, or that the only other man to take the throne, Gherilain's
own son, Pelis, had brought on both plague and drought during his
brief reign. Only when his sister had replaced him on the throne had
Illior protected the land again as the Oracle had promised. Until now. When
Agnalain died so suddenly, it was whispered that Prince Erius and his
brother, Aron, had had a hand in it. But the rumor had been whispered
with relief rather than condemnation; everyone knew Erius had ruled
in all but name during the last terrible years of his mother's
decline. The renewed rumblings from Plenimar were growing too loud
for the nobles to risk civil war on behalf of a child queen. The
crown passed to Erius without challenge. Plenimar attacked the
southern ports that same year and he drove the invaders back into the
sea and burned their black ships. This seemed to lay the prophecy to
rest. All the
same, there had been more blights and drought in the past nineteen
years than even the oldest wizards could recall. The current drought
was in its third year in some parts of the country, and had wiped out
whole villages already decimated by wildfires and waves of plague
brought in from the northern trade routes. Arkoniel's parents had
died in one such epidemic a few years earlier. A quarter of Ero's
population had succumbed in a few months' time, including Prince
Aron, as well as Erius' consort, both daughters, and two of his three
sons, leaving only the second-youngest boy, Korin, alive. Since then,
the words of the Oracle were being whispered again in certain
quarters. lya had her
own reasons now for regretting Erius' coup. His sister, Ariani, had
grown up to marry lya's patron, the powerful Duke Rhius of Atyion.
The couple was expecting their first child in the fall. *oth
wizards were sweating and winded by the time they reached the tight
cul-de-sac where the shrine lay. 'It's not
quite what I expected," Arkoniel muttered, eyeing what appeared
to be a broad stone well, lya chuckled. "Don't judge too
quickly." Two sturdy
priests in dusty red robes and silver masks sat in the shade of a
wooden lean-to beside the well. lya joined them and sat down heavily
on a stone seat. "I need time to compose my thoughts," she
told Arkoniel. "You go first." The priests
carried a coil of heavy rope to the well, motioning for Arkoniel to
join them. He gave lya a nervous grin as they fixed a loop of it
around his hips. Still silent, they guided him into the stone
enclosure to the entrance to the oracle chamber. From the surface,
this was nothing but a hole in the ground about four feet in
diameter. It was
always daunting, this act of faith and surrender, and more so the
first time. But as always, Arkoniel did not hesitate. Sitting with
his feet over the edge, he gripped the rope and nodded for the
priests to let him down. He slid out of sight and they paid out the
line until it went slack. lya
remained in the lean-to, trying to calm her racing heart. She'd done
her best for days not to think too directly on what she was about to
do. Now that she was here, she suddenly regretted her decision.
Closing her eyes, she tried to examine this fear, but could find no
basis for it. Yes, she was disobeying her master's injunction, but
that wasn't it. Here on the very doorstep of the Oracle, she had a
premonition of something dark looming just ahead. She prayed silently
for the strength to face whatever Illior revealed to her today, for
she could not turn aside. Arkoniel's
twitch on the rope came sooner than she'd expected. The priests
hauled him up and he hurried over and collapsed on the ground beside
her, looking rather perplexed. 'lya, it
was the strangest thing—!" he began, but she held up a
warning hand. 'There'll
be time enough later," she told him, knowing she must go now or
not at all. She took
her place in the harness, breath tight in her chest as she hung her
feet over the edge of the hole. Grasping
the rope with one hand and the leather bag with the other, she nodded
to the priests and began her descent. She felt
the familiar nervous flutter in her belly as she swung down into the
cool darkness. She'd never been able to guess the actual dimensions
of this underground chamber; the silence and faint movement of air
against her face suggested a vast cavern. Where the sunlight struck
the stone floor below, it showed the gently undulating smoothness of
stone worn by some ancient underground river. After a few
moments her feet touched solid ground and she stepped free of the
rope and out of the circle of sunlight. As her eyes adjusted to the
darkness, she could make out a faint glow nearby and walked toward
it. The light had appeared from a different direction each time she'd
come here. When she reached the Oracle at last, however, everything
was just as she remembered. A crystal
orb on a silver tripod gave off a wide circle of light. The Oracle
sat next to it on a low ivory stool carved in the shape of a
crouching dragon. This
one is so young! lya thought, inexplicably saddened. The last
two Oracles had been old women with skin bleached white by years of
darkness. This girl was no more than fourteen, but her skin was
already pale. Dressed in a simple linen shift that left her arms and
feet bare, she sat with her palms on her knees. Her face was round
and plain, her eyes vacant. Like wizards, the sibyls of Afra did not
escape Illior's touch unscathed. lya knelt
at her feet. A masked priest stepped into the circle of light with a
large silver salver held out before him. The silence of the chamber
swallowed lya's sigh as she unwrapped the bowl and placed it on the
salver. The priest
presented it to the Oracle, placing it on her knees. Her face
remained vacant, betraying nothing. Doesn't
she feel the evil of the thing? lya wondered. The unveiled power
of it made lya's head hurt. The girl
stirred at last and looked down at the bowl. Silvery light bright as
moonshine on snow swelled in a nimbus around her head and shoulders.
lya felt a thrill of awe. Illior had entered the girl. 'I see
demons feasting on the dead. I see the God Whose Name Is Not Spoken,"
the Oracle said softly. lya's heart
turned to stone in her breast, her worst fears confirmed. This was
Seriamaius, the dark god of necromancy worshipped by the Plenimarans
who'd come so close to destroying Skala in the Great War. "I've
dreamt this. War and disasters far worse than any Skala has ever
known." 'You see
too far, Wizard." The Oracle lifted the bowl in both hands and
by some trick of the light her eyes became sunken black holes in her
face. The priest was nowhere to be seen now, although lya had not
heard him go. The Oracle
turned the bowl slowly in her hands. "Black makes white. Foul
makes pure. Evil creates greatness. Out of Plenimar comes present
salvation and future peril. This is a seed that must be watered with
blood. But you see too far." The Oracle
tilted the bowl forward and bright blood splashed out, too much for
such a small vessel. It formed a round pool on the stone floor at the
Oracle's feet. Looking into it, lya caught the reflection of a
woman's face framed by the visor of a bloody war helm. lya could make
out two intense blue eyes, a firm mouth above a pointed chin. The
face was harsh one moment, sorrowful the next, and so familiar that
it made her heart ache, though she couldn't say then of whom those
eyes reminded her. Flames reflected off the helm and somewhere in the
distance lya heard the clash of battle. The
apparition slowly faded and was replaced by that of a shining white
palace standing on a high cliff. It had a glittering dome, and at
each of its four corners stood a slender tower. 'Behold the
Third Oreska," the Oracle whispered. "Here may you lay your
burden down." lya leaned forward with a gasp of awe. The palace
had hundreds of windows and at every window stood a wizard, looking
directly at her. In the highest window of the closest tower she saw
Arkoniel, robed in blue and holding the bowl in his hands. A little
child with thick blond curls stood at his side. She could
see Arkoniel quite clearly now, even though she was so far away. He
was an old man, with a face deeply lined and weary beyond words. Even
so, her heart swelled with joy at the sight of him. "Ask,"
the Oracle whispered. "What is the bowl?" she called to
Arkoniel. "It's not for us, but he will know," Arkoniel
told her, passing the bowl to the little boy. The child looked at lya
with an old man's eyes and smiled. 'All is
woven together, Guardian," the Oracle said as this vision faded
into something darker. "This is the legacy you and your kind are
offered. One with the true queen. One with Skala. You shall be tested
with fire." lya saw the symbol of her craft—the thin
crescent of Illior's moon—against a circle of fire and the
number 222 glowing just beneath it in figures of white flame so
bright they hurt her eyes. Then Ero
lay spread before her under a bloated moon, in flames from harbor to
citadel. An army under the flag of Plenimar surrounded it, too
numerous to count. lya could feel the heat of the flames on her face
as Erius led his army out against them. But his soldiers fell dead
behind him and the flesh fell from his charger's bones in shreds. The
Plenimarans surrounded the king like wolves and he was lost from
sight. The vision shifted dizzyingly again and lya saw the Skalan
crown, bent and tarnished now, lying in a barren field. 'So long as
a daughter of Thelatimos' line defends and rules, Skala shall never
be subjugated," the Oracle whispered. 'Ariani?"
lya asked, but knew even as she spoke that it had not been the
princess' face she'd seen framed in that helm. The Oracle
began to sway and keen. Raising the bowl, she poured its endless flow
over her head like a libation, masking herself in blood. Falling to
her knees, she grasped lya's hand and a whirlwind took them, striking
lya blind. Screaming
winds surrounded her, then entered the top of her head and plunged
down through the core of her like a shipwright's augur. Images
flashed by like wind-borne leaves: the strange number on its shield,
and the helmeted woman in many forms and guises—old, young, in
rags, crowned, hanging naked from a gibbet, riding garlanded through
broad, unfamiliar streets. lya saw her clearly now, her face, her
blue eyes, black hair, and long limbs like Ariani's. But it was not
the princess. The
Oracle's voice cut through the maelstrom. "This is your queen,
Wizard, this true daughter of Thelatimos. She will turn her face to
the west." Suddenly
lya felt a bundle placed in her arms and looked down at the dead
infant the Oracle had given her. 'Others
see, but only through smoke and darkness," said the Oracle. "By
the will of Illior the bowl came into your hands; it is the long
burden of your line, Guardian, and the bitterest of all. But in this
generation comes the child who is the foundation of what is to come.
She is your legacy. Two children, one queen marked with the blood of
passage." The dead
infant looked up at lya with black staring eyes and searing pain tore
through her chest. She knew whose child this was. Then the
vision was gone and lya found herself kneeling in front of the Oracle
with the unopened bag in her arms. There was no dead infant, no blood
on the floor. The Oracle sat on her stool, shift and hair unstained. 'Two
children, one queen," the Oracle whispered, looking at lya with
the shining white eyes of Illior. lya
trembled before that gaze, trying to cling to all she'd seen and
heard. "The others who dream of this child, Honored One—do
they mean her well or ill? Will they help me raise her up?" But the god
was gone and the girl child slumped on the stool had no answers. unlight
blinded lya as she emerged from the cavern. The heat took her breath
away and her legs would not support her. Arkoniel caught her as she
collapsed against the stone enclosure. "lya, what happened?
What's wrong?" "Just—just give me a moment," she
croaked, clutching the bag to her chest. A
seed watered with blood. Arkoniel
lifted her easily and carried her into the shade. He put the
waterskin to her lips and lya drank, leaning heavily against him. It
was some time before she felt strong enough to start back for the
inn. Arkoniel kept one arm about her waist and she suffered his help
without complaint. They were within sight of the stele when she
fainted. V't't,'hen
she opened her eyes again, she was lying on a soft bed in a cool, dim
room at the inn. Sunlight streamed in through a crack in the dusty
shutter and struck shadows across the carved wall beside the bed.
Arkoniel sat beside her, clearly worried. 'What
happened with the Oracle?" he asked. Illior
spoke and my question was answered, she thought bitterly. How
I wish I'd listened to Agazhar. She took
his hand. "Later, when I'm feeling stronger. Tell me your
vision. Was your query answered?" Her answer
obviously frustrated him, but he knew better than to press her. "I'm
not sure," he said. "I asked what sort of wizard I'd
become, what my path would be. She showed me a vision in the air, but
all I could make out was an image of me holding a young boy in my
arms." 'Did he
have blond hair?" she asked, thinking of the child in the
beautiful white tower. 'No, it was
black. To be honest, I was disappointed, coming all this way just for
that. I must have done something wrong in the asking." 'Sometimes
you must wait for the meaning to be revealed." lya turned away
from that earnest young face, wishing that the Lightbearer had
granted her such a respite. The sun still blazed down on the square
outside her window, but lya saw only the road back to Ero before her,
and darkness at its end. A red
harvest moon cast the sleeping capital into a towering mosaic of
light and shadow that nineteenth night of Erasin. Crooked Ero, the
capital was called. Built on a rambling hill overlooking the islands
of the Inner Sea, the streets spread like poorly woven lace down from
the walls of the Palatine Circle to the quays and shipyards and
rambling slums below. Poor and wealthy alike lived cheek by jowl, and
every house in sight of the harbor had at least one window facing
east toward Plenimar like a watchful eye. The
priests claim Death comes in the west door, Arkoniel thought
miserably as he rode through the west gate behind lya and the witch.
Tonight would be the culmination of the nightmare that had started
nearly five months earlier at Afra. The two
women rode in silence, their faces hidden by their deep hoods.
Heartsick at the task that lay before them, Arkoniel willed lya to
speak, change her mind, turn aside, but she said nothing and he could
not see her eyes to read them. For over half his life she'd been
teacher, mentor, and second mother to him. Since Afra, she'd become a
house full of closed doors. Lhel had
gone quiet, too. Her kind had been unwelcome here for generations.
She wrinkled her nose now as the stink of the city engulfed them.
"You great village? Ha! Too many." 'Not so
loud!" Arkoniel looked around nervously. Wandering wizards were
not as welcome here as they had been, either. It would go hard on
them all to be found with a hill witch. 'Smells
like tok," Lhel muttered. lya pushed
back her hood and surprised Arkoniel with a thin smile. "She
says it smells like shit here, and so it does." Lhel's
one to talk, Arkoniel thought. He'd kept upwind of the hill
woman since they'd met. ifter their
strange visit to Afra they'd gone first to Ero and guested with the
duke and his lovely, fragile princess. By day they gamed and rode.
Each night lya spoke in secret with the duke. From there,
he and lya spent the rest of that hot, sullen summer searching the
remote mountain valleys of the northern province for a witch to aid
them, for no Oreska wizard possessed the magic for the task that
Illior had set them. By the time they found one, the aspen leaves
were already edged with gold. Driven from
the fertile lowlands by the first incursions of Skalan settlers, the
small, dark-skinned hill people kept to their high valleys and did
not welcome travelers. When lya and Arkoniel approached a village,
they might hear dogs barking the alarm, or mothers calling their
children; by the time they reached the edge of a settlement, only a
few armed men would be in sight. These men made no threats, but
offered no hospitality. Lhel's
welcome had surprised them when they'd happened across her lonely
hut. Not only had she welcomed them properly, setting out water,
cider, and cheese, but she claimed to have been expecting them. lya spoke
the witch's language, and Lhel had picked up a few words of Skalan
somewhere. From what Arkoniel could make out between them, the witch
was not surprised by their request. She claimed her moon goddess had
showed them to her in a dream. Arkoniel
felt very awkward around the woman. Her magic radiated from her like
the musky heat of her body, but it was more than that. Lhel was a
woman in her prime. Her black hair hung in a tangled, curling mass to
her waist and her loose woolen dress couldn't mask the curves of hip
and breast as she sauntered around her little hut, bringing him food
and the makings for a pallet. He didn't need an interpreter to know
that she asked lya if she might sleep with him that night or that she
was both offended and amused when lya explained the concept of
wizards' celibacy to her. The Oreska wizards reserved all their
vitality for their magic. Arkoniel
feared that the -witch might change her mind then, but the following
morning they woke to find her waiting for them outside the door, a
traveling bundle slung ready behind the saddle of her shaggy pony. The long
journey back to Ero had been an awkward time for the young man. Lhel
delighted in teasing him, making certain that he saw when she lifted
her skirts to wash, and losing no opportunity to bump against him as
she moved about their camp each night, plucking the year's last herbs
with her knobby, stained fingers. Vows or no, Arkoniel couldn't help
but notice and something in him stirred uneasily. When their
work in Ero was finished this night, he would never see her again and
for that he would be most thankful. is
they rode across an open square, Lhel pointed up at the full red moon
and clucked her tongue. "Baby caller moon, all fat and bloody.
We hurry. No shaimari." She brought
two fingers toward her nostrils in a graceful flourish, mimicking the
intake of breath. Arkoniel shuddered. lya pressed
one hand over her eyes and Arkoniel felt a moment's hope. Perhaps she
would relent after all. But she was merely sending a sighting spell
up to the Palatine ahead of them. After a
moment she shook her head. "No. We have time." A cold salt
breeze tugged at their cloaks as they reached the seaward side of the
citadel and approached the Palatine gate. Arkoniel inhaled deeply,
trying to ease the growing tightness in his chest. A party of
revelers passed them, and by the light of the linkboys' lanterns
Arkoniel stole another look at lya. The wizard's pale, square face
betrayed nothing. It
is the mil oflllior, Arkoniel repeated silently. There could be
no turning aside. the death
of the king's only female heir, women and girls of close royal blood
had died at an alarming rate. Few dared speak of it aloud in the
city, but in too many cases it was not plague or hunger that carried
them down to Bilairy's gate. The king's
cousin took ill after a banquet in town and did not awaken the next
morning. Another somehow managed to fall from her tower window. His
two pretty young nieces, daughters of his own brother, were drowned
sailing on a sunny day. Babies born to more distant relations, all
girls, were found dead in their cradles. Their nurses whispered of
night spirits. As potential female claimants to the throne dropped
away one by one, the people of Ero turned nervous eyes toward the
king's half sister and the unborn child she carried. Her
husband, Duke Rhius, was fifteen years older than his pretty young
wife and owned vast holdings of castles and lands, the greatest of
which lay at Atyion, half a day's ride north of the city. Some said
that the marriage had been a love match between the duke's lands and
the Royal Treasury, but lya thought otherwise. The couple
lived at the grand castle at Atyion when Rhius was not serving at
court. When Ariani became pregnant, however, they had taken up
residence at Ero, in her house beside the Old Palace. lya guessed
that the choice was the king's rather than hers, and Ariani had
confirmed her suspicions during their visit that summer. 'May Illior
and Dalna grant us a son," Ariani had whispered as she and lya
sat together in the garden court of her house, hands pressed to her
swelling belly. As a child
Ariani had adored her handsome older brother, who'd been more like a
father to her. Now she understood all too well that she lived at his
whim; in these uncertain times, any girl claiming Gherilain's blood
posed a threat to the new male succession, should the Illioran
faction fight to reestablish the sacred authority of Afra. With every
new bout of plague or famine, the whispers of doubt grew stronger. JLn a
darkened side street outside the Palatine gate lya cloaked herself
and Lhel in invisibility, and Arkoniel approached the guards as if
alone. There were
still a great many people abroad at this hour, but the
sergeant-at-arms took special note of the silver amulet Arkoniel wore
and called him aside. 'What's
your business here so late, Wizard?" 'I'm
expected. I've come to visit my patron, Duke Rhius." 'Your
name?" 'Arkoniel
of Rhemair." A scribe
noted this down on a wax tablet and Arkoniel strolled on into the
labyrinth of houses and gardens that ringed this side of the
Palatine. To the right loomed the great bulk of the New Palace, which
Queen Agnalain had begun and her son was finishing. To the left lay
the rambling bulk of the Old Palace. lya's magic
was so strong that even he couldn't tell if she and the witch were
still with him, but he didn't dare turn or whisper to them. Ariani's
fine house stood surrounded by its own walls and courtyards; Arkoniel
entered by the front gate and barred it behind him as soon as he felt
lya's touch on his arm. He looked around nervously, half expecting to
find the King's Guard lurking behind the bare trees and statuary in
the shadowed garden, or the familiar faces of the duke's personal
guard. But there was no one here, not even a watchman or porter. The
garden was silent, the air heavy with the scent of some last hardy
bloom of autumn. lya and the
witch reappeared beside him and together they headed across the
courtyard toward the arched entrance. They hadn't gone three steps
when a horned owl swooped down and pounced on a young rat not ten
feet from where they stood. Flapping for balance, it dispatched the
squeaking rodent, then looked up at them with eyes like gold sester
coins. Such birds were not uncommon in the city, but Arkoniel felt a
thrill of awe; owls were the messengers of Illior. 'A
favorable omen," lya murmured as it flapped away, leaving the
dead rat behind. The duke's
steward, Mynir, answered her knock. A thin, solemn, stoop-shouldered
old fellow, he'd always reminded Arkoniel of a cricket. He was one of
the few who would help carry his master's burden in the years to
come. 'Thank the
Maker!" the old man whispered, grasping lya's hand. "The
duke is half out of his mind—" He broke off at the sight
of Lhel. Arkoniel
could guess the man's thoughts: witch, unclean, handler of the dead,
a necromancer who called up demons and ghosts. lya touched
his shoulder. "It's all right, Mynir, your master knows. Where
is he?" 'Upstairs,
Mistress. I'll fetch him." lya held him a moment longer. "And
Captain Tharin?" Tharin, the
nobleman in charge of Rhius' guard, was seldom far from the duke's
side. Illior had not spoken for him, but lya and Rhius had not
discussed how he was to be kept away from this night's business. 'The duke
sent him and the men to Atyion for the rents." Mynir led them
into the darkened audience hall. "The women have all been sent
to sleep at the Palace, so as not to disturb the princess in her
labor. It's just your Nari and myself tonight, Mistress. I'll fetch
the duke." He hurried up the sweeping staircase. A fire
burned in the great fireplace across the chamber, but no lamps were
lit. Arkoniel turned slowly, trying to make out the familiar shapes
of furniture and hangings. This house had always been alive with
music and gaiety. Tonight it seemed like a tomb. 'Is that
you, lya?" a deep voice called. Rhius strode down the stairs to
meet them. He was nearly forty now, a handsome, broadly built
warrior, with arms and hands knotted from a life spent clutching a
sword or the reins. Tonight, however, his skin was sallow beneath his
black beard and his short tunic was sweated through as if he'd been
running or fighting. Warrior that he was, he stank of fear. He stared
at Lhel, then seemed to sag. "You found one." lya handed
her cloak to the steward. "Of course, my lord." A ragged
scream rang out overhead. Rhius clutched a fist to his heart. "There
was no need for the herbs to start the birthing pangs. Her waters
broke at midmorning. She's been like this since sunset. She keeps
begging for her own women—" Lhel
muttered something to lya, who interpreted the question for the duke. 'She asks
if your lady has any issue of blood?" 'No. Your
woman keeps claiming all is well, but—" Upstairs,
Ariani cried out again and Arkoniel's stom ach lurched. The poor
woman had no idea who was in her house this night. lya had given the
couple her solemn pledge to protect any daughter born to the royal
house; she had not revealed to the child's mother the means the
Lightbearer had given her to do so. Only Rhius knew. Ambition had
guaranteed his consent. 'Come, it's
time." lya started for the stairs, but Rhius caught her by the
arm. 'Are you
certain this is the only way? Couldn't you just take one of them
away?" lya regarded him coldly. She stood two steps above him
and in this light she looked for an instant like a stone effigy. "The
Lightbearer wants a queen. You want your child to rule. This is the
price. The favor of Illior is with us in this." Rhius
released her and sighed heavily. "Come then, and let's be done
with it." Rhius followed the two women up and Arkoniel followed
him, close enough to hear the duke murmur, "There will be other
babes." Princess
Ariani's bedchamber was stifling. The others went to the bed, but
Arkoniel halted just inside the doorway, overwhelmed by the heavy
odor of the birthing chamber. He'd never
seen this part of the house before. Under different circumstances
he'd have thought it a pretty room. The walls and carved bed were
covered with bright hangings embroidered with fanciful underwater
scenes, and the marble mantel was carved with dolphins. A familiar
workbasket lay on a chair by the shuttered window; a cloth head and
arm protruded from beneath the half-open lid—one of the
princess' lady dolls, half finished. Ariani was famous for her clever
handiwork and all the great ladies of Ero and some of the lords had
one. Tonight the
sight of this one knotted Arkoniel's guts. Through the
half-open bed hangings he could see the bulging curve of Ariani's
belly and one clenched hand gleaming with costly rings. A plump,
sweet-faced serving woman stood over Ariani, murmuring to her as she
bathed the laboring woman's face. This was Nari, a widowed kinswoman
of lya's, chosen to be the child's wetnurse. lya had intended for
Nari to bring her own babe to be the companion of Ariani's, but the
gods had other plans. A few weeks earlier Nari's child had succumbed
to pneumonia. Even in her grief, Nari had faithfully squeezed the
milk from her breasts to keep it flowing. The front of her loose gown
was stained with it. Lhel set to
work, issuing quiet orders while she laid out the things she needed
at the end of the bed: bunches of herbs, a thin silver knife, needles
of bone, and a skein of silk thread, impossibly fine. Ariani
lurched up with another wail and Arkoniel caught a glimpse of her
face, glassy-eyed and drugged now, behind a tangle of lustrous black
hair. The
princess was not much older than he was, and though he seldom allowed
himself to think on it, he had harbored a secret admiration for her
ever since her marriage to Rhius had brought Arkoniel into her
sphere. Ariani was the most beautiful woman he'd ever seen and she'd
always treated him graciously. Hot shame washed over him; this was
how her kindness was repaid. Too soon
lya turned and motioned for him to join her by the bed. "Come,
Arkoniel, we need you now." He and Nari
held Ariani's feet as the witch felt between her thighs. Ariani
moaned and tried weakly to pull away. Blushing furiously, Arkoniel
kept his face turned away until Lhel had finished her examination,
then hastily retreated. Lhel washed
her hands in a basin, then bent to pat Ariani's cheek. "Is good,
keesa." 'There
are—there are two, aren't there, Midwife?" Ariani gasped
faintly. Arkoniel
shot lya a concerned look, but she only shrugged. "A woman needs
no midwife to tell her how many babes she has in her belly." Nari brewed
a dish of tea from some of the witch's herbs and helped Ariani to sip
it. After a few moments, the woman's breathing slowed and she grew
quiet. Climbing onto the bed, Lhel massaged Ariani's belly, all the
while murmuring to her in a soothing, singsong voice. 'The first
child must be turned into position to enter the world so that the
other may follow," lya translated for Rhius, who stood now in
agonized silence by the head of the bed. Lhel moved
so that she was kneeling between Ariani's knees, still rubbing her
belly. After a few moments the witch let out a soft cry of triumph.
Watching from the corner of his eye, Arkoniel saw her lift a wet
little head into view with one hand. With the other, she held the
child's nostrils and mouth shut until the rest of it was birthed. 'Girl
keesa," she announced, taking her hand from the child's face. Arkoniel
let out a gasp of relief as the girl child sucked in her first
lungful of air. This was the sbaimari, the
"soul's breath" that the witch was so concerned with. Lhel cut
the birth cord with her silver knife and held the child up for all to
see. The baby was well formed under the birth muck and had a thick
head of wet black hair. 'Thank the
Lightbringer!" Rhius exclaimed, leaning down to kiss his
sleeping wife's brow. "A first-born girl, just as the Oracle
promised!" 'And look,"
said Nari, leaning forward to touch a tiny wine-colored birthmark on
the child's left forearm. "She has a favor mark, too, just like
a rosebud." lya gave Arkoniel a tight, triumphant smile. "Here's
our future queen, my boy." Tears of
joy blurred Arkoniel's vision and tightened his throat, but the
moment was tainted by the knowledge that their work was not yet
finished. While Nari
bathed the girl child, Lhel began coaxing forth the twin. Ariani's
head lolled limply against the pillow. Rhius retreated to the
fireplace, mouth set in a grim line. Tears of a
different sort stung Arkoniel's eyes. Forgive us,
my sweet lady, he prayed, unable to look away. Despite
Lhel's efforts, the second child came wrong way around, a footling
breach. Muttering steadily in her own tongue, Lhel worked the other
leg free and the little body slid out. 'Boy
keesa," Lhel said softly, hand poised to cover the child's face
as it emerged, to prevent that all-important first breath so that the
soul might not be fixed in the flesh. Suddenly,
however, there was a loud clatter of horsemen in the street outside,
and a shout of, "Open in the name of the king!" Lhel was as
startled as the rest of them. In that instant of distraction the
child's head slipped free of his mother's body and he sucked a
breath, strong and clear. 'By the
Light!" lya hissed, whirling on the witch. Lhel shook her head
and bent over the squirming babe. Arkoniel backed quickly away,
unable to watch what must follow. He shut his eyes so tightly he saw
flashes of light behind the lids, but he could not escape the sound
of the child's loud, healthy cry, or the way it suddenly choked off.
The silence in its wake left him dizzy and sick. What
followed seemed to take a very long time, although in truth they had
only minutes. Lhel took the living child from Nari and placed her on
the bed next to her dead twin. Chanting over them, she drew patterns
in the air and the living child went still. When Lhel took up her
knife and needle, Arkoniel had to turn away again. Behind him, he
could hear Rhius weeping softly. Then lya
was at his side, pushing him out into the cold corridor. "Go
downstairs and hold off the king. Keep him as long as you can! I'll
send Nari down when it's safe." 'Hold him
off? How?" The door
swung shut in his face and he heard the key turn. 'Very well,
then." Arkoniel dried his face on his sleeve and ran his hands
back through his hair. At the top of the staircase he paused and
turned his face up to the unseen moon, sending a silent prayer to
Illior. Aid my faltering tongue, Lightbearer, or
cloud the king's eyes. Or both, if it's not asking too much. He wished
now that Captain Tharin was here. The tall, quiet knight had a manner
that put everyone at their ease. With a lifetime of hunting,
fighting, and court intrigue behind him, he was far better suited
than a green young wizard to entertain a man like Erius. CO, fynir had
lit the bronze lamps that hung between the painted stone pillars in
the hall and stoked the fire with cedar logs and sweet resins to make
a fragrant blaze. Erius stood beside the hearth, a tall and daunting
figure in the firelight. Arkoniel bowed deeply to him. Like Rhius,
the king had been shaped by a lifetime of war, but his face was still
handsome and filled with a youthful good humor that even a childhood
spent in his mother's court had not extinguished. Only in recent
years, as the royal tomb filled with the bodies of his female kin,
had some come to regard that kindly visage as a mask for a darker
heart, one that had perhaps learned his mother's lessons after all. As Arkoniel
had suspected, the king had not come alone. His court wizard, Lord
Niryn, was there, close to the king as the man's own shadow. He was a
plain fellow somewhere in his second age, but whatever gifts he
possessed had lifted him high and quickly. For years Erius had had no
more use for wizards than his mother, but since the death of the
king's wife and children, Niryn's star had risen steadily at court.
Lately he'd taken to wearing his thick red beard forked and had
affected costly white robes embroidered with silver. He
acknowledged Arkoniel with a slight nod, and the younger wizard bowed
respectfully. Erius had
brought along a priest of Sakor, as well, together
with a dozen of his own guard in their pick spurs and gold badges.
Arkoniel's stomach did an uneasy roll as he caught the glint of mail
beneath their red tunics and saw the long knives they carried at
their belts. It seemed an odd sort of company to bring into a royal
house on such an occasion. He forced a
respectful smile, wondering bitterly who had alerted Erius. One of
the household women, perhaps? Clearly Erius had been prepared for
this visit, despite the hour. The king's greying beard and curly
black hair were neatly combed. His velvet robes looked as fresh as if
he'd been on his way to the audience hall. The Sword of Gherilain,
symbol of Skalan rule, hung at his hip. 'My king,"
Arkoniel bowed again. "Your honored sister is still in the midst
of her pains. Duke Rhius sends his respects and asks me to sit with
you until he is able to attend you himself." Erius
raised an eyebrow in surprise. "Arkoniel? What are you doing
here? Last I knew, neither you nor that mistress of yours practices
midwifery." 'No, my
king. I was guesting here tonight and have been making myself
useful." Arkoniel was suddenly aware of the other wizard's
steady gaze. Niryn's bright brown eyes protruded a bit, giving him a
perpetually surprised air that the younger wizard found unsettling.
He carefully veiled his mind, praying he was strong enough to keep
Niryn from his thoughts without the other man suspecting. 'Your
honored sister's labor is a difficult one, I fear, but she will be
delivered soon," he continued, then wished he hadn't. The king
had attended the births of all his own children. If Erius decided to
go upstairs, there was nothing he could do, short of magic, to
prevent it. And with Niryn here, even that risky avenue was closed to
him. Perhaps
Illior had heeded his prayer after all, for Erius shrugged agreeably
and sat down at a gaming table by the hearth. "How's your skill
with the stones?" he asked, waving Arkoniel to the other chair.
"These birthings generally take longer than you'd expect,
especially the first. We may as well pass the time pleasantly." Hoping his
relief was not too obvious, Arkoniel sent Mynir off for wine and
sweets, then settled down to losing as best he could. Niryn sat
beside them, pretending to observe the play, but Arkoniel still felt
the pressure of his regard. Sweat prickled under his arms and down
his back. What did the man want? Did he know something? He nearly
dropped the gaming stones when Niryn suddenly asked, "Do you
dream, young man?" 'No, my
lord," Arkoniel replied. "Or if I do, I don't recall them
when I wake up." This was
true enough; he seldom dreamed in the normal sense, and foreknowing
dreams had so far proven to be outside his ken. He waited for Niryn
to pursue the question, but he only sat back and stroked the tips of
his forked beard, looking bored. Arkoniel
was in the midst of his third game of Geese and Squares when Nari
came downstairs. 'Duke Rhius
sends his regards, Your Majesty," she said, curtsying low. "He
asks if you would like your new nephew brought down to view?" 'Nonsense!"
Erius exclaimed, setting the stones aside. "Tell your master his
brother is happy to come to him." Again,
Arkoniel had an uneasy sense that the king meant more than he said. That sense
grew stronger when Niryn and the priest accompanied them upstairs.
Nari caught Arkoniel's eye as they followed and gave him a quick nod;
lya and Lhel must already be safely away. Entering Ariani's room,
Arkoniel could sense no trace of magic, Oreska or otherwise. Duke Rhius
stood on the far side of the bed, holding his wife's hand. The
princess was still blessedly asleep, no doubt well drugged. With her
black hair combed back smoothly and a hectic spot of color high on
each cheek, she looked like one of her own dolls. Rhius
lifted the swaddled child from the bed and brought it to the king.
He'd recovered enough to act his part with dignity. 'Your
nephew, my liege," he said, placing the infant in Erius' arms.
"With your leave, he shall be named Tobin Erius Akandor, in
honor of your father's line." 'A son,
Rhius!" Erius undid the swaddling with a gentle, practiced hand. Arkoniel
held his breath and blanked his mind as Niryn and the priest extended
their hands over the sleeping child. Neither appeared to notice
anything amiss; Lhel's magic had covered all trace of the abomination
she'd wrought on the little body. And who would think to look for
hill witch magic in the chamber of the king's own sister? 'A fine
boy, Rhius, to bear such a name," Erius said. The birthmark
caught his eye. "And look at the favor mark he bears. On his
left arm, too. Niryn, you know how to read such things. What does
this one mean?" 'Wisdom,
Your Majesty," the wizard told him. "A most favorable trait
in your son's future companion." 'Indeed it
is," the king said. "Yes, you have my leave, brother, and
my blessing. And I've brought a priest to make an offering for our
little warrior." 'You have
my thanks, brother," said Rhius. The priest
went to the hearth and began his droning prayers, casting resins and
little wax offerings into the flames. 'By the
Flame, he'll make a great playfellow for my Korin in a few years'
time," the king went on. "Just think of the two of them,
hunting and learning the sword together when your Tobin comes to join
the Companions. Just like you and I were, eh? But there was a twin,
too, I believe?" Yes,
thought Arkoniel, the king's spies had been thorough, after all. Nari bent
down and lifted another tiny bundle from behind the bed. Keeping her
back to the princess, she brought it around to the king. "A poor
little girl child, my king. Never drew breath." Erius and
the others examined the dead child just as closely, moving its
flaccid limbs about, verifying the gender, and feeling its chest and
neck for signs of life. Watching from the corner of his eye, Arkoniel
saw the king cast a quick, questioning look at his wizard. They
know something. They're seeking something, Arkoniel thought
dizzily. Niryn's question about dreams suddenly took on a dire
resonance. Had the man had a vision of his own, a vision of this
child? If so, then Lhel's magic did its work again, for the older
wizard replied with a quick shake of his head. Whatever they were
looking for, they hadn't found it here. Arkoniel glanced away before
any expression of relief could betray him. The king
handed the body back to Nari and clasped Rhius by the shoulders.
"It's a hard thing, losing a child. Sakor knows I still grieve
for my lost ones and their dear mother. It's cold comfort for you, I
know, but it's best this way, before you'd both gotten attached." 'As you
say," Rhius replied softly. Giving
Rhius a last brotherly thump on the shoulder, Erius went to the bed
and kissed his sister gently on the forehead. The sight
made the blood pound in Arkoniel's head as he thought of the
swordsmen in the hall below. This usurper, this killer of girls and
women, might love his little sister enough to spare her life, but as
the Lightbearer had shown, that forbearance did not extend to her
children. He kept his gaze fixed on the floor as the king and his
councilors swept out, imagining how differently this little drama
would have played out if Erius had found a living girl child here. As soon as
the door closed behind them, Arkoniel's knees turned to water and he
sank into a chair. But the
ordeal was not yet over. Ariani opened her eyes and saw the dead
child Nari held. Pulling herself up against the bolsters, she held
out her arms for it. "Thank the Light! I knew I heard a second
cry, but I had the most awful dream—" The nurse
exchanged a look with Rhius and Ariani's smile faltered. "What
is it? Give me my child." 'It was
stillborn, my love," Rhius said. "Let it be. Look, here's
our fine son." 'No, I
heard it cry!" Ariani insisted. Rhius
brought little Tobin to her, but she ignored him, staring instead at
the child the nurse held. "Give him to me, woman! I command it!" There was
no dissuading her. Ignoring the soft cry of the living child, she
took the dead one in her arms and her face went whiter still. Arkoniel
knew in that instant that Lhel's magic could not deceive the child's
mother the way that it had the others. Twisting his mind to see
through her eyes, he caught a glimpse of the strips of skin Lhel had
cut from each child's breast and sewn with spider-fine stitches into
the wound left on its twin, just over the heart. With this exchange
of flesh, the transformation had been sealed. The girl child would
retain the semblance of male form for as long as lya deemed
necessary, just as her dead brother had taken her form to deceive the
king. 'What have
you done?" Ariani gasped, staring up at Rhius. 'Later, my
love, when you're rested— Give that one back to Nari and take
your son. See how strong he is? And he has your blue eyes—" 'Son? That
is no son!" Ariani cut him off with a venomous glare. No amount
of reasoning prevailed. When Rhius tried to take the dead child from
her, she lurched from the bed and fled to the far corner of the room,
clutching the tiny corpse against her stained nightdress. 'This is
too much!" Arkoniel whispered. Going to the frantic woman, he
knelt before her. She looked
up at him in surprise. "Arkoniel? Look, I have a son. Isn't he
pretty?" Arkoniel
tried to smile. "Yes, Your Highness, he's—he's perfect."
He touched her brow gently, clouding her mind and sending her once
more into a deep sleep. "Forgive me." He reached
for the little body, then froze in fear. The dead
child's eyes were open. Blue as a kitten's one moment, the irises
went black as Arkoniel watched and fixed accusingly on him. An
unmistakable chill radiated from the little body, slowly spreading to
envelop the wizard. This was
the cost of that first breath. The spirit of the murdered child had
been drawn into its body just long enough to take hold and become a
ghost, or worse. 'By the
Four, what's happening?" Rhius rasped, leaning over him. 'There's
nothing to fear," Arkoniel said quickly, though in truth this
tiny unnatural creature struck fear to the core of his heart. Nari knelt
beside him and whispered, "The witch said to take it away
quickly. She said you must put it in the ground under a large tree.
There's a great chestnut in the rear courtyard by the summer kitchen.
The roots will hold the demon down. Hurry! The longer it stays here,
the stronger it will grow!" It took
every bit of courage Arkoniel possessed to touch the dead child.
Taking it from Ariani's arms, he covered its face with a corner of
the wrappings and hurried out. Nari was right; the waves of icy
coldness pouring from the lifeless body grew stronger by the moment.
They made his joints ache as he bore it downstairs and out through
the back passage of the house. The moon
watched like an accusing eye as Arkoniel placed his cursed burden at
the foot of the chestnut tree and mouthed, forgive
me once more. But he expected no forgiveness for this night's
work and wept as he wove his spell. His tears fell on the litde
bundle as he bent to watch it sink down into the earth's cold embrace
between the gnarled roots. The faint
wail of an infant came to him on the cold night air and he shuddered,
not knowing if it came from the living child or the dead one. T?or
all their power, these Oreska wizards are very stu-JL pid.
And arrogant, Lhel thought as lya urged her down a back stair
and away from the cursed house. The witch
spat thrice to the left, hoping to cut the bad luck that had bound
them together all these •weeks. A real storm crow, this wizard.
Why hadn't she seen it sooner? Lhel had
scarely had time to finish the last stitch on the living child before
the elder wizard was urging her away. "I'm not finished! The
spirit—" 'The king
is downstairs!" lya hissed, as if this should mean something to
her. "If he finds you here, we'll all be spirits. I will force
you if I must." What choice
did she have? So Lhel had followed, thinking, Be
it on your head, then. But the
further they got from that house, the more it weighed on her heart.
To treat the dead so brutally was a dangerous affront to the Mother,
and to Lhel's craft. This wizard woman had no honor, to abandon a
child's spirit like that. Arkoniel might have been made to listen,
but Lhel had long since realized that he had no voice in the matter.
Their god had spoken to lya and lya would listen to no other. Lhel spat
again, just for good measure. Ijhe lei
had dreamed the coming of the two wizards for a full month before
they'd appeared in her village: a man boy and an old woman who
carried a strange burden in a bag. Every divination she'd done as she
awaited their arrival indicated that it was the Mother's will. Lhel
must give them whatever aid they asked. When lya and Arkoniel did
finally arrive, they claimed that a vision from their own moon god
had brought them to her. Lhel had taken this as an auspicious sign. Still, she
had been surprised at the nature of their request. Oreska must be a
pale, milk-fed sort of magic, indeed, for two people possessed of
such powerful souls not to have the craft to make a simple skin
binding. Had she understood then the true depth of their ignorance,
she might have tried to share more of her knowledge with them before
the time came to use it. But she
hadn't understood until it was too late, until the moment her hand
had faltered, letting the boy child draw his first breath. lya would
not wait for the necessary cleansing sacrifice. There was no time for
anything but to complete the binding and flee, leaving the angry new
spirit lost and alone. Ajhel
balked again as the city gate came into sight ahead of them. "You
cannot leave such a spirit earthbound!" she said again,
struggling to free her wrist from lya's grasp. "It grows to a
demon before you know it, and then what will you do, you who couldn't
bind it in the first place?" 'I will
deal with it." 'You are a
fool." lya turned, bringing their faces close together. "I
am saving your life, woman, and that of the child and her family! If
the king's wizard caught so much as a whiff of you we'd all be
executed, starting with that baby. She's all that matters now, not
you or me or anyone else in this whole wretched land. It's the will
of Illior." Once again,
Lhel felt the massive power coursing through the wizard. Different
lya might be and possessed of unfamiliar magic, but there was no
question that she was god-touched, and more than a match for Lhel. So
she'd let herself be led away, leaving the child and its skin-bound
twin behind in the stinking city. She hoped Arkoniel had found a
strong tree to hold the spirit down. V>hey
bought horses and traveled together for two days. Lhel said little,
but prayed silently to the Mother for guidance. When they reached the
edge of the highlands, she allowed lya to give her into the care of a
band of carava-neers heading west into the mountains. As they parted,
lya had even tried to make peace with her. 'You did
well, my friend," she said, her hazel eyes sad as she took
Lhel's hands. "Stay safe in your mountains and all will be well.
We must never meet again." Lhel chose
to ignore the thinly veiled threat. Fishing in a pouch at her belt,
she drew out a little silver amulet made in the shape of a full moon
flanked on either side by slender crescents. "For when the child
takes woman form again." lya held it on her palm. "The
Shield of the Mother." 'Keep it
hidden. It's only for women. As a boy, she must wear this." She
gave lya a short hazel twig capped on both ends with burnished copper
bands. lya shook
her head. "It's too dangerous. I'm not the only wizard to have
studied your ways." 'Then you
keep them for her!" Lhel urged. "This child will need much
magic to survive." lya closed her hand around the amulets, wood
and silver together. "I will, I promise you. Farewell." Ajhel
stayed with the caravan for three days, and each day the black, cold
weight of the dead child's spirit lay heavier on her heart. Each
night its cry grew louder in her dreams. She prayed to the shining
Mother to show her why she had sent her here to create such a thing
and what she must do to make the world right again. The Mother
answered, and on the third night Lhel danced the dreamsleep dance for
her guides, seducing away just enough of their thoughts to remove any
memory of her and the supplies she took with her. Guided by a
waning white sliver of moon, she threw her traveling sack over her
horse's neck and turned back for the stinking city. In the
uneasy days following the birth, only Nari and the duke attended
Ariani. Rhius sent word to Tharin, sending the captain on to the
estate at Cirna to keep him away a while longer. A silence
fell over the household; black banners flew on the roof peaks,
proclaiming mourning for the supposed stillbirth. On the household
altar, Rhius set a fresh basin of water and burned the herbs sacred
to Astellus, who smoothed the water road to birth and death and
protected new mothers from childbed fever. Sitting at
Ariani's bedside each day, however, Nari knew it was not fever that
ailed the woman, but a deep sickness of heart. Nari was old enough to
remember Queen Agnalain's last days and prayed that her daughter was
not afflicted with the same curse of madness. Day after
day, night after night, Ariani tossed against her pillows, waking to
cry out, "The child, Nari! Don't you hear him? He's so cold." 'The child
is well, Your Highness," Nari told her each time. "See,
Tobin is in the cradle here beside you. Look how plump he is." But Ariani
would not look at the living child. "No, I hear him," she
would insist, staring around wildly. "Why have you shut him
outside? Fetch him in at once!" 'There's no
child outside, Your Highness. You were only dreaming again." Nari spoke
the truth, for she'd heard nothing, but some of the other servants
claimed to have heard an infant's cry in the darkness outside. Soon a
rumor spread through the house that the second child had been
stillborn with its eyes open; everyone knew that demons came into the
world through such births. Several serving maids had been sent back
to Atyion already with orders to keep their gossip to themselves.
Only Nari and Mynir knew the truth behind the second child's death. Loyalty to
the duke guaranteed Mynir's silence. Nari owed allegiance to lya. The
wizard had been a benefactress to her family for three generations
and there were times during those first few chaotic days when only
that bond kept the nurse from running back to her own village, lya
had said nothing of demons when Nari agreed to serve. In the end,
however, she stayed for the child's sake. Her milk flowed freely as
soon as she put the dark-haired little mite to her breast, and with
it all the tenderness she'd thought she'd lost when her husband and
son had died. Maker knew neither the princess nor her husband had any
to spare for the poor child. They must
all call Tobin "he" and "him" now. And thanks to
the outlandish magic the witch had worked with her knives and
needles, Tobin was to all appearances a fine healthy boy child. He
slept well, nursed vigorously, and seemed happy with whatever
attention was paid him, which was little enough by his own folk. 'They'll
come 'round, little pet my love," Nari would croon to him as he
dozed contentedly in her arms. "How could they not and you so
sweet?" is
Tobin thrived, however, his mother sank ever faster into a darkness
of spirit. The bout of fever passed, but Ariani kept to her bed. She
still would not touch her living child, and she would not even look
at her husband, or her brother either, when he came to call. Duke Rhius
was near despair. He sat with her for hours, enduring her silence,
and brought in the most skilled drysians from the temple of Dalna.
But the healers found no illness of the body to cure. On the
twelfth day after the birth, however, the princess began to show
signs of rallying. That afternoon, Nari found her curled in an
armchair next to the fire, sewing a doll. The floor around her was
littered with scraps of muslin, clumps of stuffing wool, snippets of
embroidery silks and thread. The new
doll was finished by nightfall—a boy with no mouth. Another
just like it followed the next day, and another. She did not bother
to dress the things, but cast each aside as soon as the last stitch
was tied off and immediately began on another. By week's end half a
dozen of the things were lined up on the mantelpiece. 'They're
very pretty, my love, but why not finish the faces?" Duke Rhius
asked, sitting faithfully by her bedside each night. 'So they
won't cry," Ariani hissed, needle flying as she stitched an arm
to a wool-packed body. "The crying is sending me mad!" Nari looked
away so as not to embarrass the duke by seeing his tears. It was the
first time since the birth that Ariani had spoken to him. This seemed
to encourage the duke. He sent for Captain Tharin that very night and
began to talk of the child's presentation feast. ,''l.riani
told no one of the dreams that plagued her. Who could she tell? Her
own trusted nurse, Lachi, had been sent away weeks ago, replaced by
this stranger who would not leave her side. Nari was some relation of
lya's, Rhius had told her, and that only made Ariani hate her all the
more. Her husband, her brother, the wizards, this woman—they'd
all betrayed her. When she thought of that terrible night, all she
remembered was a circle of faces looking down on her without pity.
She despised them. Exhaustion
and grief had weighed down on her like a stack of wool quilts at
first, and her mind had drifted in a grey fog. Daylight and darkness
seemed to play sport with her; she never knew what to expect when she
opened her eyes, or whether she dreamed or woke. At first
she thought that the horrid midwife lya had brought had returned. But
soon she realized it must be a dream or waking vision that brought
the dark little woman to her bedside each night. She always appeared
surrounded by a circle of shifting light, mouthing silent words at
Ariani and gesturing with stained fingers for her to eat and drink.
It went on for days, this silent pantomime, until Ariani grew used to
her. At last she began to make out something of what the woman
whispered and the words pulled fire and ice through her veins. It was then
that Ariani began to sew again, and forced herself to eat the bread
and thin soups Nari brought. The task the witch had set for her would
take strength. C,'he
child's presentation took place a fortnight after the birth. Ariani
refused to come downstairs and Nari thought this just as well. The
princess' strength was returning, but she was still too strange for
company. She would not dress and seldom spoke. Her shining black hair
was dull and tangled for want of care and her blue eyes stared
strangely, as if she was seeing something the rest could not. She
slept, she ate, and she sewed doll after mouthless doll. Duke Rhius
saw to it that word of a difficult lying-in was spread around the
Palatine, as well as rumors of his wife's deep and continuing grief
over the loss of the dead girl child. Her absence
did not mar the celebration too badly. All the principal nobles of
Ero crowded into the great hall that night until the whole room
seemed to shimmer with jewels and silks under the flickering lamps.
Standing with the servants by the wine table, Nari saw some
whispering be hind their hands and overheard a few speaking of
Ag-nalain's madness, wondering how the daughter could have gone the
way of the mother so quickly and with no warning at all. It was
unseasonably warm that night, and the soft patter of autumn rain
swept in through the open windows. The men of the duke's personal
guard stood at attention flanking the stairs, resplendent in new
green and blue. Sir Tharin stood to the left of the stairs in his
fine tunic and jewels, looking as pleased as if the child were his
own. Nari had taken to the lanky, fair-haired man the day she met
him, and liked him all the better for the way his face lit up the
first time he saw Tobin in his father's arms. The king
stood in the place of honor at the right of the staircase, holding
his own son on one broad shoulder. Prince Korin was a bright, plump
child of three, with his father's dark curls and bright brown eyes.
He bounced excitedly, craning his neck for a look at his new cousin
as Rhius appeared at the top of the stairs. The duke was resplendent
in his embroidered robe and circlet. Tobin's dark head was just
visible above the edge of his silken wrappings. 'Greetings
and welcome, my king and my friends!" Duke Rhius called out.
Descending to where the king stood, he went down on one knee and held
the child up. "My king, I present to you my son and heir, Prince
Tobin Erius Akandor." Setting
Korin down beside him, Erius took Tobin in his arms and showed him to
the priests and assembled nobles. "Your son and heir is
acknowledged before Ero, my brother. May his name be spoken with
honor among the Royal Kin of Skala." And that
was that, though the speechifying and drinking of toasts would go on
half the night. Nari shifted restlessly. It was past time to feed the
child and her breasts ached. She smiled as she heard a familiar
hiccuping whimper. Once Tobin started squalling for his supper they'd
soon let him go, and she could retreat to her quiet chamber at the
top of the house. Just then
one of the serving maids let out a startled squeak and pointed to the
wine table. "By the Four, it just toppled over!" The silver
mazer for Rhius' toast lay on its side, its contents splashed across
the dark polished wood beside the honey cake. 'I was
looking right at it," the maid went on, voice beginning to rise
dangerously. "Not a soul was near it!" 'I can see
that!" Nari whispered, silencing her with a pinch and a glare.
Whisking off her apron, she blotted up the spilled wine. It stained
the linen red as blood. Mynir
snatched the cloth away and balled it tightly under his arm, hiding
the stain. "By the Light, don't let any of the others see!"
he whispered. "That was a white wine!" Looking
down at her hands, Nari saw that they were stained red, too, where
the wine had wet them, though the droplets still clinging inside the
rim of the cup were a pale golden color. There was
just time to send the trembling girl away to fetch a fresh mazer
before the nobles came to make their toasts. Tobin was growing fussy.
Nari held him while the duke raised the cup and sprinkled a few drops
of wine over the child, then a few more over the honey cake in the
traditional offering to the Four. "To Sakor, to make my child a
great and just warrior with fire in his heart. To II-lior, for wisdom
and true dreaming. To Dalna, for many children and long life. To
Astellus, for safe journeys and a swift death." Nari
exchanged a quick look of relief with the steward as the droplets
sank away, leaving the cake's sticky surface unstained. As soon as
the brief ceremony was finished Nari carried Tobin upstairs. The babe
squirmed and grunted, nuzzling at her bodice. 'You're a
pet, you are," Nari murmured absently, still shaken by what
she'd witnessed. She thought of the spell sticks lya had left with
her, wondering if she should use one to summon the wizard back. But
lya had been very clear; she was only to use those in the direst
circumstances. Nari sighed and hugged Tobin closer, wondering where
such portents would lead. Passing
Ariani's door in the upper corridor, Nari caught sight of a small
patch of red on the wall, just above the rushes that covered the
floor. She bent for a closer look, then pressed a hand over her
mouth. It was the
bloody print of an infant's hand, splayed like a starfish. The blood
was still bright and wet. 'Maker keep
us, it's in the house!" Cheers and
applause burst out below. She could hear the king proclaiming a
blessing for Tobin's health. With trembling fingers, Nari wiped at
the mark with the edge of her skirt until the handprint smeared to a
pinkish smudge. She pushed the rushes up to cover it, then slipped
into Ariani's chamber, fearful of what she might find. The
princess sat by the fire, sewing away as madly as ever. For the first
time since the birth, she had changed her nightdress for a loose gown
and put on her rings again. The hem was wet and streaked with mud.
Ariani's hair hung in damp strands around her face. The window was
shut tight as always, but Nari could smell the night air on her, and
the hint of something else besides. Nari wrinkled her nose, trying to
place the raw, unpleasant odor. 'You've
been outside, Your Highness?" Ariani
smiled down at her needlework. "Just for a bit, Nurse. Aren't
you pleased?" 'Yes, my
lady, but you should have waited and I'd have gone with you. You're
not strong enough to be out on your own. What would the duke say?" Ariani
sewed on, still smiling over her work. 'Did you
see anything… unusual out there, Your Highness?" Nari
hazarded at last. Ariani
pulled a tuft of wool from a bag beside her and tucked it into the
muslin arm she'd sewn. "Nothing at all. Off with you now, and
fetch me something to eat. I'm famished!" Nari
mistrusted this sudden brightness. As she left, she could hear Ariani
humming softly to herself, and recognized the tune as a lullaby. She was
halfway to the kitchens when she placed the smell at last and let out
a snort of relief. Tomorrow she must tell the servants to bring in
one of the hounds to root out the dead mouse spoiling somewhere along
the upper corridor. Chapter
Arkoniel left Ero not knowing when he would see Ariani or her child
again. He met up with lya at an inn in Sylara and together they set
off to begin the next long stage of their mission. Despite
Arkoniel's strong misgivings, lya decided that it would be safest for
everyone if they kept their distance from the child. When Arkoniel
told her of his strange conversation with Niryn, it only strengthened
her resolve. Nari and the duke could get word to them by sending
messages to several inns that lya frequented in her travels. For
emergencies, she'd left Nari with a few small tokens; painted rods
that released a simple seeking spell when broken. No matter how far
away lya might be, she would feel the magic and return as quickly as
she could. 'But what
if we're too far away to reach them in time?" Arkoniel fretted,
unhappy with the situation. "And how can we leave them like
that? It all went wrong in the end, lya. You didn't see the demon in
the dead child's eyes. What if the tree can't hold it down?" But she
remained adamant. "They are safest with us away." Lnd so they
began their long wandering quest, seeking out anyone who had a spark
of magic in them, sounding out loyalties, listening to fears,
and—with a select few— cautiously sharing a glimpse of
lya's vision: a new confederation of Oreska wizards. She was patient,
and careful in her choices, winnowing out the mad and the greedy and
those too loyal to the king. Even with those she deemed trustworthy
she did not reveal her true purpose, but left them a small token—a
pebble picked up on the road— and the promise that she would
call on them again. Over the
next few years Niryn's words would come back to haunt them, for it
seemed that they were not the only ones spreading the idea of unity.
They learned from others they met on the road that the king's wizard
was gathering a following of his own at court. Arkoniel often
wondered •what answer these wizards had given to Niryn's oblique
question, and what their dreams had been. Che ic
drought that had heralded Tobin's birth broke, only to be followed by
another the following summer. The further south they went, the more
often they saw empty granaries and sickly livestock. Disease walked
the land in hunger's wake, striking down the weak like a wolf culling
a flock. The worst was a fever brought in by traders. The first sign
was bloody sweat, often followed by black swellings in the armpits
and groin. Few who showed both symptoms survived. The Red and Black
Death, as it came to be called, struck whole villages overnight,
leaving too few living to burn the dead. A plague of
a different sort struck the eastern coast: Plenimaran raiders. Towns
were looted and burned, the old women killed, the younger ones and
the children carried off as slaves in the raiders' black ships. The
men who survived the battle often met a crueler fate. lya and
Arkoniel entered one such village just after an attack and found half
a dozen young men nailed by the hands to the side of a byre; all had
been disemboweled. One boy was still alive, begging for water with
one breath and death with the next. lya gently gave him both. JLya
continued Arkoniel's education as they traveled, and was pleased to
see how his powers continued to flourish. He was the finest student
she'd ever had, and the most curious; for Arkoniel there were always
new vistas ahead, new spells to master. lya practiced what she
jokingly referred to as "portable magics," those spells
which relied more on wand and word than weighty components and
instruments. Arkoniel had a natural talent for these, and was already
beginning to create spells of his own, an unusual accomplishment for
so one so young. Driven by his concern for Rhius and Ariani, he
experimented endlessly with seeking spells, trying to expand their
limited powers, but with no success. lya
explained repeatedly that even Oreska magic had its limits, but he
would not be put off. In the
houses of the richer, more sedentary wizards, particularly those with
noble patrons, she saw him linger longingly in well-equipped
workrooms, examining the strange instruments and alchemists' vessels
he found there. Sometimes they guested long enough for him to learn
something from these wizards, and lya was delighted to see him so
willingly adding to what she could teach him. Content as
always to wander, lya could almost at times forget the responsibility
that hung over them. Almost. JJiving on
the road, they heard a great deal of news but were little touched by
most of it. When the first rumors of the King's Harriers reached
them, lya dismissed them as wild tales. This became harder to do,
however, when they met with a priest of Illior who claimed to have
seen them with his own eyes. 'The king
has sanctioned them," he told lya, nervously fingering the
amulet on his breast, so similar to the ones they wore. "The
Harriers are a special guard, soldiers and wizards both, charged with
hunting down traitors to the throne. They've burned a wizard at Ero,
and there are Illioran priests in the prison." 'Wizards
and priests?" Arkoniel scoffed. "No Skalan wizard has ever
been executed, not since the necromantic purges of the Great War! And
wizards hunting down their own kind?" But lya was
shaken. "Remember who we are dealing with," she warned when
they were safely alone in their rented chamber. "Mad Agnalain's
son has already killed his own kin to preserve his line. Perhaps
there's more of his mother in him than we feared." 'It's Niryn
leading them," Arkoniel said, thinking again of the way the
wizard had watched him the night of To-bin's birth. Had he been
seeking out followers even then? And what had he found in his
Harriers that he hadn't seen in Arkoniel? port two
From the private journal of Queen Tamir II, recently discovered in
the Palace Archives [Archivist's note: passage
undated] My father moved us to that lonely keep in the mountains not
long after my birth. He put it about that my mother's health required
it, but I'm sure by then all Ero knew she'd gone mad, just as her
mother had. When I think of her at all now, I remember a pale wraith
of a woman with nervous hands and a stranger's eyes the same color as
my own. My
father's ancestors built the keep in the days when hill folk still
came through the passes to raid the lowlands. It had thick stone
walls and narrow windows covered by splintery red-and-white painted
shutters—,' remember amusing myself by
picking off the scaling flakes outside my bedchamber window as I
stood there, watching for my father's return. A
tall, square watchtowerjutted from the back of the keep, next to the
river. I used to believe the demon lurked there, and watched me from
the windows whenever Nari or the men took me outside to play in the
courtyards or the meadow below the barracks house. 1 was kept inside
most of the time, though. 1 knew every dusty, shadowed room of the
lower floors by the time I could walk. That crumbling old pile was
all the world I knew, my first seven years—my
nurse and a handful of servants my only companions when Father and
his men were gone, which was all too often. And
the demon, of course. Only years later did I have any inkling that
all households were not like my own—that
it was unusual for invisible hands to pinch and push, or for
furniture to move about the room by itself. One of my earliest
memories is of sitting on Nari's lap as she taught me to bend my
little fingers into a warding sign— 'T'obin
knelt on the floor in his toy room, idly pushing a A little ship
around the painted harbor of the toy city. It was the carrack with
the crooked mast, the one the demon had broken. Tobin
wasn't really playing, though. He was waiting and watching the closed
door of his father's room across the corridor. Nari had closed the
door when they went in to talk, making it impossible to eavesdrop
from here. Tobin's
breath came out in a puff of white vapor as he sighed and bent to
straighten the ship's little sail. It was cold this morning; he could
smell frost on the early morning breeze through the open window. He
opened his mouth and blew several short breaths, making brief clouds
over the citadel. The toy
city, a gift from his father on his last name day, was his most
treasured possession. It stood almost as tall as Tobin and took up
half of this disused bedchamber next to his own. And it wasn't just a
toy, either. It was a miniature version of Ero itself, which his
father had made for him. 'Since
you're too young to go to Ero, I've brought Ero to you!" he'd
said when he gave it to him. "You may one day live here, even
defend it, so you must know the place." Since then,
they'd spent many happy hours together, learning the streets and
wards. Houses made from wooden blocks clustered thickly up the steep
sides of the citadel, and there were open spaces painted green for
the public gardens and pasturage. The great market square had a
temple to the Four surrounded by traders' booths made of twigs and
bright scraps of cloth. Baked clay livestock of all sorts populated
the little enclosures. The blue-painted harbor that jutted from one
side of the city's base outside the many-gated wall was filled with
pretty little ships that could be pushed about with a pole. The top of
the hill was flat and ringed with another wall called the Palatine
Circle, though it wasn't exactly round. Inside lay a great clutter of
houses, palaces, and temples, all with different names and stories.
There were more gardens here, as well as a fish pool made from a
silver mirror and an exercise field for the Royal Companions. This
last interested Tobin very much; the Companions were boys who lived
at the Old Palace with his cousin, Prince Korin, and trained to be
warriors. His father and Tharin had been Companions to King Erius
when they were young, too. As soon as Tobin had learned this, he
wanted to go at once but was told, as usual, that he must wait until
he was older. The biggest
building on the Palatine was the Old Palace. This had a roof that
came off, and several rooms inside. There was a throne room with a
tiny wooden throne, of course, and a tiny tablet of real gold beside
it, set in a little wooden frame. Tobin
lifted this out and squinted at the fine words engraved on it. He
couldn't read them, but he knew them by heart: "So long as a
daughter of Thelatimos' line defends and rules, Skala shall never be
subjugated." Tobin knew the legend of King Thelatimos and the
Oracle by heart, too. It was one of his father's favorite stories. The city
was populated by scores of little wooden stick people. He loved these
the best of anything in the city, and smuggled whole families of them
back to his bed to hold and talk to under the covers at night while
he waited for Nari to come up to bed. Tobin put the golden tablet
back, then lined up half a dozen stick people on the practice ground,
imagining himself among the Companions. Opening the flat,
velvet-lined box his father had brought home from another journey, he
took out the special people and lined them up on the palace roof to
watch the Companions at their exercises. These people—The Ones
Who Came Before—were much fancier than the stick ones; all but
one was made of silver. They had painted faces and clothes and each
carried the same tiny sword at their side, the Sword of Queen
Gherilain. His father had taught him their names and stories, too.
The silver man was King Thelatimos and next to him in the box was his
daughter, Gherilain the Founder—made queen of Skala because of
Oracle's golden words. After Gherilain came Queen Tamir, who was
poisoned by her brother who'd wanted to be king, then an Agnalain and
another Gherilain, then six more whose names and order he still mixed
up, and then Grandmama Agnalain the Second. The first and last queens
were his favorites. The first Gherilain had the finest crown;
Grandmama Agnalain had the nicest painting on her cloak. The last
figure in the box was a man carved of wood. He had a black beard like
Tobin's father, a crown, and two names: Your Uncle Erius and The
Present King. Tobin
turned the king over in his hands. The demon liked to break this one.
The litde wooden man would be standing on the Palace roof or lying in
his place in the box when suddenly his head would fly off or he'd
split right down the middle. After many mendings, Your Uncle was all
misshapen. Tobin
sighed again and put them all carefully back in the box. Not even the
city could hold his attention today. He turned and stared at the
door, willing it to open. Nari had gone in there ages ago! At last,
unable to stand the suspense any longer, he crept across the corridor
to listen. The rushes
covering the floor were old and crunched beneath his slippers no
matter how carefully he tiptoed. He looked quickly up and down the
short passage. To his left lay the stairs to the great hall. He could
hear Captain Tharin and old Mynir laughing about something there. To
his right, the door beside his father's was tightly shut and he hoped
this one stayed that way; his mama was having another one of her bad
spells. Satisfied
that he was alone for the moment, he pressed his ear to the carved
oak panel and listened. 'What harm
can there be, my lord?" That was Nari. Tobin wiggled with
delight. He'd nagged for weeks to get her to do battle on his behalf. His father
rumbled something, then he heard Nari again, gently cajoling the way
she did sometimes. "I know what she said, my lord, but with all
respect, he's growing up strange kept apart like this. I can't think
she wants that!" Who's
strange? Tobin wondered. And who was this mysterious "she"
who might object to him going to town with Father? It was his name
day, after all. He was seven today; surely old enough at last to make
the journey. And it wasn't so far to Alestun; when he picnicked on
the roof with Nari, they could look east over the valley and see the
cluster of roofs beyond the forest's edge. On a cold day he could
even make out smoke rising from the hearth fires there. It seemed a
small thing to ask for a present, just to go, and it was all he
wanted. The voices
went on, too soft now to make out. Please!
he mouthed, making a luck sign to the Four. The brush
of cold fingers against Tobin's cheek made him jump. Turning, he was
dismayed to find his mother standing right there behind him. She was
almost like a ghost herself, a ghost Tobin could see. She was thin
and pale, with nervous hands that fluttered about like dying birds
when she wasn't sewing the pretty rag dolls, or clutching the ugly
old one she was never without. It was tucked under her arm just now
and seemed to be staring at him, even though it had no face. He was as
surprised to find her here as he was to see her free. When Tobin's
father was home, she always kept to herself and avoided him. Tobin
liked it better when she did. It was
second nature for him now to steal a quick look into his mama's eyes;
Tobin had learned young to gauge the moods of those around him,
especially his mother's. Usually she simply looked at him like a
stranger, cold and distant. When the demon threw things or pinched
him, she would just hug her ugly old doll and look away. She almost
never hugged Tobin, though on the very bad days, she spoke to him as
if he were still a baby, or as if he were a girl. On those days
Father would shut her up in her chamber and Nari would make the
special teas for her to drink. But her
eyes were clear now, he saw. She was almost smiling as she held out a
hand to him. "Come, little love." She'd never
spoken to him like that before. Tobin glanced nervously at his
father's door, but she bent and captured his hand in hers. Her grip
was just a little too tight as she drew him to the locked door at the
end of the corridor, the one that led upstairs. 'I'm not
allowed up there," Tobin told her, his voice hardly more than a
squeak. Nari said the floors were unsound up there, and that there
were rats and spiders big as his fist. 'You may
come up with me," she said, producing a large key from her
skirts and opening the forbidden door. Stairs led
up to a corridor that looked very much like the one below, with doors
on either side, but this one was dusty and dank-smelling, and the
small, high-set windows were tightly shuttered. Tobin
glanced through an open door as they passed and saw a sagging bed
with tattered hangings, but no rats. At the end of the corridor his
mother opened a smaller door and led him up a very steep, narrow
stairway lit by a few arrow slits in the walls. There was hardly
enough light to make out the worn steps, but Tobin knew where they
were. They were
in the watchtower. He pressed
one hand to the wall for balance, but pulled it away again when his
ringers found patches of something rough that scaled away at his
touch. He was scared now, and wanted to run back down to the bright,
safe part of the house, but his mother still held his hand. As they
climbed higher, something suddenly flittered in the shadows
overhead—the demon, no doubt, or some worse terror. Tobin tried
to pull free, but she held him fast and smiled at him over her
shoulder as she led him up to a narrow door at the top. 'Those are
just my birds. They have their nests here and I have mine, but they
can fly in and out whenever they wish." She opened
the narrow door and sunlight flooded out. It made him blink as he
stumbled over the threshold. He'd always
thought the tower was empty, abandoned, except perhaps for the demon,
but here was a pretty little sitting room furnished more nicely than
any of the rooms downstairs. He gazed around in amazement, never
imagining his mother had such a delightful secret place. Faded
tapestries covered the windows on three sides, but the west wall was
bare and the heavy shutters open. Tobin could see sunlight shining on
the snow-covered peaks in the distance, and hear the rush of the
river below. 'Come,
Tobin," she urged, going to a table by the window. "Sit
with me a while on your name day." A little
spark of hope flared up in Tobin's heart and he edged further into
the room. She'd never remembered his birthday before. The room
was very cozy and comfortable. A long table stood against the far
wall, piled with doll-making goods. On another table, finished
dolls—dark-haired and mouthless as always, but dressed in
tunics of velvet and silk fancier than any Tobin owned—sat
propped in a double rank against the wall. Perhaps
she brought me here to give me one for my name day, he thought.
Even without mouths, they were very pretty. He turned hopefully to
his mother. For an instant he could almost see how she'd smile,
telling him to pick whichever one he liked best, a special present
just from her. But his mama just stood by the window, plucking
restlessly at the front of her skirt with the fingers of her free
hand as she stared down at the bare table in front of her. "I
should have cakes, shouldn't I? Honey cakes and wine." 'We always
have them in the hall," Tobin reminded her, casting another
longing glance at the dolls. "You were there last year,
remember? Until the demon knocked the cake on the floor and—" He faltered
to a stop as other memories of that day came back. His mother had
burst into tears when the demon came, then started screaming. His
father and Nari had carried her away and Tobin had eaten his broken
bits of cake in the kitchen with Cook and Tharin. 'The
demon?" A tear rolled down his mother's pale cheek and she
hugged the doll tighter. "How can they call him that?" Tobin
looked to the open doorway, gauging an escape. If she started
screaming now, he could run away down the stairs, back to people who
loved him and could be counted on to do what he expected. He wondered
if Nari would be angry with him for going upstairs. But his
mother didn't scream. She just sank into a chair and wept, clutching
the ugly doll to her heart. He started
to edge his way toward the door, but his mama looked so terribly sad
that instead of running away, he went to her and rested his head on
her shoulder, the way he did with Nari when she was sad and homesick. Ariani put
an arm around him and pulled him close, stroking
his unruly black hair. As usual, she hugged too hard, stroked too
roughly, but he stayed, grateful for even this much affection. For
once, the demon let him be. 'My poor
little babies," she whispered, rocking Tobin. "What are we
to do?" Reaching into her bodice, she took out a tiny pouch.
"Hold out your hand." Tobin
obeyed and she shook out two small objects: a silver moon charm, and
a little piece of wood capped on both ends with the red metal he'd
seen on the backs of shields. She picked
up one, then the other, and pressed them to Tobin's forehead as if
she expected something to happen. When nothing did, she tucked them
away again with a sigh. Still
holding Tobin close, she rose and drew him to the window. Lifting him
up with surprising strength, she stood him on the wide stone sill.
Tobin looked down between the toes of his slippers and saw the river
rushing in white curls around the rocks below. Frightened again, he
gripped the window casing with one hand, his mother's thin shoulder
with the other. 'Lhel!"
she shouted at the mountains. "What are we to do? Why don't you
come? You promised you'd come!" She gripped
the back of Tobin's tunic, pushing him slightly forward, threatening
his balance. 'Mama, I
want to get down!" Tobin whispered, clutching her harder. He turned
his head and looked into eyes that were cold and hard again. For an
instant she looked as if she didn't know who he was or what they were
doing here at this window so high above the ground. Then she yanked
him back and they both tumbled to the floor. Tobin bumped his elbow
and let out a yelp of pain. 'Poor baby!
Mama's sorry," his mother sobbed, but it was the doll she rocked
in her arms as she crouched there on the floor, not him. 'Mama?"
Tobin crept to her side, but she ignored him. Heartbroken
and confused, he ran from the room, wanting nothing more than to
escape the sound of her sobs. He was almost to the bottom of the
tower when something pushed him hard in the back and he fell the last
few steps, banging his shins and scuffing his palms. The demon
was with him, a dark shape flitting just at the edge of his vision.
Tobin couldn't recall just when he'd begun to see it, but he knew he
hadn't always been able to. It darted close and yanked at a stray
lock of his hair. Tobin
struck out wildly. "I hate you! I hate you I
hate you I hate your Hate you.' echoed back from the shadows
overhead. Tobin
limped back downstairs to the toy room, but even here the daylight
seemed tarnished. The savor of his earlier excitement had been
leeched away, and his shins and hands hurt. All he wanted was to
burrow under his bedcovers with the current family of friendly little
wooden people waiting there. As he turned to go, his father came in. 'There you
are!" Rhius exclaimed, hoisting Tobin up in his strong arms and
giving him a kiss. His beard tickled and suddenly the day seemed a
little brighter. "I've looked high and low for you. Where have
you been? And how did you manage to get so dusty?" Shame
welled up in Tobin's chest as he thought of the disastrous visit. "I
was just playing," he said, staring down at the heavy silver
broach on his father's shoulder. Rhius
slipped a rough, callused finger under Tobin's chin and examined a
smudge on his cheek. Tobin knew his father was thinking of the demon;
this at least they both understood without the need for words. 'Well now,
never mind that," he said, carrying Tobin next door to his room,
where they found Nari laying out a new set of clothes on the bed.
"Nari tells me you're old enough to ride down to Alestun with me
and look for a name day present. What do you think of that?" 'I can go?"
Tobin cried, all dark thoughts swept away for the moment. 'Not
looking like that, you can't!" his nurse exclaimed, sloshing
water into the basin on his washstand. "How did you manage to
get so dirty this early in the day?" His father
winked at him and went to the door. "I'll meet you in the front
court when you're presentable." Tobin
forgot all about his scraped shins and sore elbow as he dutifully
scrubbed his face and hands, then stood as still as he could while
Nari combed the tangles she called rats' nests from his hair. Dressed at
last in a fine new tunic of soft green wool and fresh leggings, he
hurried down to the courtyard. His father was waiting, as promised,
and all the rest of the household with him. 'Blessings
of the day, little prince!" everyone cried, laughing and hugging
him. Tobin was
so excited that at first he didn't even notice Tharin standing off to
one side, holding the bridle of a bay gelding Tobin had never seen
before. The horse
was a few spans shorter than his father's black palfrey and fitted
out with a child-sized saddle. His rough winter coat and mane had
been curried until they shone. 'Blessings,
my son," Rhius said, lifting Tobin up into the saddle. "A
lad old enough to ride to town needs his own horse to go on. He's
yours to care for, and to name." Grinning,
Tobin twitched the reins and guided the bay into a walk around the
courtyard. "I'll call him Chestnut. That's the color he is, just
like a chestnut shell." 'Then you
could also call him Gosi," his father told him with a twinkle in
his eye. 'Why is
that'" 'Because
this isn't just any horse. He's come all the way from Aurenen, just
as my black did. There are no finer mounts than that. All the nobles
of Skala ride Auren-faie horses now." Aurenfaie.
A flicker of memory stirred. Aurenfaie traders had come to their gate
one stormy night—wonderful, strange-looking folk with long red
scarves wrapped around their heads and tattoos on their cheeks. Nari
had sent him upstairs too early that night, but he'd hidden at the
top of the stairs and watched as they did colorful magics and played
music on strange instruments. The demon had scared them away, and
Tobin had seen his mother laughing with her doll in the shadows of
the disused minstrel's gallery. It was the first time he'd ever
realized he might hate her. Tobin
pushed the dark thoughts away; that had been a long time ago, nearly
two years. Aurenen meant magic and strange folk who bred horses fit
for Skalan nobles. Nothing more. He leaned
down to stroke the gelding's neck. "Thank you, Father! I'll call
him Gosi. Can I go to Aurenen someday?" 'Everyone
should go to Aurenen. It's a beautiful place." 'Here, take
these to make a name day offering at the temple." Nari passed
him up several little packets tied up in clean cloth. Tobin proudly
stowed them away in his new saddle pouch. 'I've a
gift for you, too, Tobin." Tharin pulled a long, cloth-wrapped
parcel from his belt and handed it up to him. Inside
Tobin found a carved wooden sword nearly as long as his arm. The
blade was thick and blunt, but the hilt was nicely carved and fitted
with real bronze quillons. "It's handsome! Thank you!" Tharin gave
him a wink. "We'll see if you thank me after we start using it.
I'm to be your swordmaster. I think we'll wear out a good many of
those before we're done, but there's the first." This was as
good a gift as the horse, even if the blade wasn't real. He tried to
brandish his new weapon, but it was heavier than he'd thought. His father
chuckled. "Don't you worry, my boy. Tharin will soon put you
through your paces. You'd best leave your weapon with Mynir for now,
though. We don't want you getting into any duels your first time
abroad." Tobin
surrendered it grudgingly to the steward, but soon forgot all about
it as he rode out the gate and across the bridge behind his father
and Tharin. For the first time in his life, he didn't have to stop at
the far end and wave good-bye to them. As they continued down through
the meadow, he felt like a warrior already, heading off to see the
wide world. Just before
they entered the trees, however, he felt a sudden crawly chill
between his shoulder blades, as if an ant had fallen down his tunic.
Turning, he glanced back at the keep and thought he saw the shutters
at the watch-tower's south window move. He turned away quickly. Leaves like
round gold coins paved the forest road. Others like hands of red or
orange wavered over head, together with oak leaves shiny and brown as
polished leather. Tobin
amused himself by practicing with rein and knees, getting Gosi to
trot at his command. 'Tobin
rides like a soldier already, Rhius," Tharin remarked, and
Tobin's heart swelled with pride. 'Do you
ride your horse at the Plenimarans in battle, Father?" he asked. 'When we
fight on land, but I have a great black war horse called Sakor's Fire
for that, with iron shoes that the smiths sharpen before every
battle." 'Why have I
never seen that horse?" Tobin demanded. 'He stays
at Atyion. That sort of mount is only suited for battle. He's strong
and fast and has no fear of blood or fire, but it's rather like
riding a crate on square wheels. Old Majyer here and your Gosi are
proper riding mounts." 'Why can't
I ever go to Atyion?" Tobin asked, and not for the first time. The answer
often varied. Today his father just smiled and said, "You will,
someday." Tobin
sighed. Perhaps now that he was old enough to ride his own horse,
"someday" would come soon? V,'he ride
to town was much shorter than Tobin had imagined. The sun had moved
less than two hours across the sky when they passed the first
cottages beside the road. The trees
grew thinner here, mostly oak and aspen, and Tobin could see herds of
pigs snuffling in the mast beneath their branches. A mile or so
further and the forest gave way to open meadow, where flocks of sheep
and goats grazed under the watchful eye of shepherds not much older
than Tobin. They waved to him and he returned the gesture shyly. They soon
met more people on the road, driving carts pulled by goats or oxen,
or carrying loads in long baskets on their backs. A trio of young
girls in short, dirty shifts stared at Tobin as he rode past and
talked to each other behind their hands as they followed him with
their eyes. 'Get home
to your mothers," Tharin growled in a voice Tobin had never
heard him use before. The girls jumped like startled rabbits and fled
across the ditch, but Tobin could hear laughter in their wake. A river
flowed down out of the hills to the town and the road bent to follow
its bank to Alestun. Fields laid out in broad strips surrounded the
town. Some were tilled for spring; others were yellow and brown with
autumn stubble. His father
pointed to a group of people at work in a barley field, gathering the
last sheaves of the harvest. "We've been lucky here. In some
parts of the country the plague has killed off so many folk the
fields have gone to ruin for want of laborers. And those who don't
die of the illness starve." Tobin knew
what plague was. He'd heard the men talking about it in the barracks
yard when they thought he couldn't hear. It made your skin bleed and
black lumps grow under your arms. He was glad it hadn't come here. By the time
they neared the wooden palisade of the town, Tobin was round-eyed
with excitement. There were more people than ever here and he waved
to them all, delighted to see so many folk at once. Many waved back
and saluted his father respectfully, but a few stared at him as the
girls by the road had. Just
outside the walls a mill stood on the riverbank. There was a large
oak tree beside it, full of children, girls and boys alike, swinging
out over the water on long ropes tied to its branches. 'Are they
being hanged?" Tobin gasped as they rode past. He'd heard of
such punishments but hadn't pictured it quite like this. The children
seemed to be enjoying themselves. His father
laughed. "No, they're playing at swings." 'Could I do
that?" The two men
exchanged an odd look that Tobin couldn't quite decipher. 'Would you
like to?" asked Tharin. Tobin
looked back at the laughing children clambering like squirrels among
the branches. "Maybe." At the gate
a pikeman stepped forward and bowed to his father, touching a hand to
his heart. "Good day to you, Duke Rhius." 'Good day
to you, Lika." 'Say, this
fine young fellow wouldn't be your son, would he?" 'Indeed he
is, come to visit at last." Tobin sat
up a little straighter in his saddle. 'Welcome,
young prince," Lika said, bowing to Tobin. 'Come to
see the pleasures of the town? It's market day, and there's lots to
look at." 'It's my
name day," Tobin told him shyly. 'Blessings
on you, then, by the Four!" Llestun was
only a small market town, but to Tobin it seemed a vast city. Low,
thatch-roofed cottages lined the muddy streets, and there were
children and animals everywhere. Pigs chased dogs, dogs chased cats
and chickens, and small children chased each other and everything
else. Tobin couldn't help staring, for he'd never seen so many
children in one place. Those who noticed him stopped to stare back or
point, and he began to feel rather uncomfortable again. A little girl
with a wooden doll tucked under her arm gazed
at him and he scowled back at her until she looked away. The square
was too crowded for riding, so they left their mounts with an ostler
and continued on foot. Tobin held tightly to his father's hand for
fear he'd be lost forever in the throng if they got separated. 'Stand up
tall, Tobin," his father murmured. "It's not every day a
prince comes to Alestun market." They went
first to the shrine of the Four, which stood at the center of the
square. The shrine at the keep was just a stone niche in the hall,
carved and painted with the symbols of the four gods of Skala. This
one looked more like Cook's summer kitchen. Four posts supported the
thatch roof and each was painted a different color: white for
II-lior, red for Sakor, blue for Astellus, and yellow for Dalna. A
small offering brazier burned at the foot of each. Inside, an elderly
priestess sat on a stool surrounded by pots and baskets. She accepted
Tobin's offerings, sprinkling the portions of salt, bread, herbs, and
incense onto the braziers with the proper prayers. 'Would you
like to make a special prayer, my prince?" she asked when she'd
finished. Tobin
looked to his father, -who smiled and gave the priestess a silver
sester. 'To which
of the Four do you petition?" she asked, laying a hand on
Tobin's head. 'Sakor, so
that I can be a great warrior, like my father." 'Bravely
said! Well then, we must make the warrior's offering to please the
god." The
priestess cut a bit of Tobin's hair with a steel blade and kneaded it
into a lump of wax, along with salt, a few drops of water, and some
powders that turned the wax bright red. 'There
now," she said, placing the softened wax in his hand. "Shape
it into a horse." Tobin liked
the smooth feel of the wax under his fingers as he pinched and molded
it. He thought of Gosi as he fashioned the animal's shape, then used
his fingernail to make lines for the mane and tail. 'Huh!"
the priestess said, turning it over in her hands when he'd finished.
"That's fine work for a little fellow like you. I've seen grown
men not do so well. Sakor will be pleased." She made a few
designs on the wax with her fingernail, then gave it back to him.
"Make your prayer, and give it to the god." Tobin bent
over the brazier at the foot of the Sakor post and inhaled the
pungent smoke. "Make me a great warrior, a defender of Skala,"
he whispered, then cast the little figure onto the coals. Acrid green
flames flared up as it melted away. Leaving the
shrine, they plunged again into the market-day crowd. Tobin still
held his father's hand, but curiosity was quickly replacing fear. Tobin
recognized a few faces here, people who came to sell their goods to
Cook in the kitchen courtyard. Balus the knife grinder saw him and
touched his brow to Tobin. Farmers
hawked their fruits and vegetables from the backs of carts. There
were piles of turnips, onions, rabes, and marrows, and baskets of
apples that made Tobin's mouth water. One sour-smelling cart was
stacked with waxed wheels of cheese and buckets of milk and butter.
The next was full of hams. A tinker was selling new pots and mending
old ones, creating a continuous clatter in his corner by the town
well. Merchants carried their wares in baskets hanging from shoulder
yokes, crying, "Almond milk!" "Good marrow bones!"
"Candles and flints!" "Coral beads for luck!"
"Needles and thread!" This
must be what Ero is like! Tobin thought in wonder. 'What would
you like for your present?" his father asked, raising his voice
to be heard over the din. 'I don't
know," Tobin replied. All he'd wanted, really, was to come here,
and now he had, and gotten a horse and sword into the bargain. 'Come on,
then, we'll have a look around." Tharin went
off on business of his own and his father found people who needed to
talk to him. Tobin stood patiently by as several of his father's
tenants brought him news and complaints. Tobin was half-listening to
a sheep farmer rattle on about blocked teats when he spied a knot of
children gathered at a nearby table. Bolder now, he left his father
and sidled over to see what the attraction was. A toy maker
had spread her wares there. There were the tops and whirligigs, cup
and ball sets, sacks of red clay marbles, and a few crudely painted
linen gaming boards. But what caught Tobin's eye was the dolls. Nari and
Cook said that his mother made the prettiest dolls in Skala and he
saw nothing here to contradict them. Some were carved from flat
pieces of wood, like the one he'd seen the little girl carrying.
Others were made of stuffed cloth, like his mother's, but they were
not so well shaped and had no fine clothes. All the same, their
embroidered faces had mouths—smiling mouths—that gave
them a friendly, comfortable look. Tobin picked one up and squeezed
it. The coarse stuffing crunched nicely under his fingers. He smiled,
imagining tucking this funny little fellow under his covers with the
wooden family. Perhaps Nari could make some clothes for it— Glancing
up, he saw that the other children and the merchant were all staring
at him. One of the older boys sniggered. And then
his father was beside him again, angrily snatching the doll from his
hands. His face was pale, his eyes hard and angry. Tobin shrank back
against the table; he'd never seen his father look like that before.
It was the sort of look his mother gave him on her worst days. Then it was
gone, replaced by a stiff smile that was even worse. "What a
silly thing that is!" his father exclaimed, tossing the doll
back onto the pile. "Here's what we want!" He snatched
something up from the table and thrust it into Tobin's hands—a
sack of marbles. "Captain Tharin will pay you, Mistress. Come
on, Tobin, there's more to see." He led
Tobin away, gripping him too hard by the arm. Tobin heard a burst of
mean laughter behind them from the children and some man muttering,
"Told you he was an idiot child." Tobin kept
his head down to hide the tears of shame burning his eyes. This was
worse, far worse, than the scene with his mother that morning. He
couldn't imagine what had made his father so angry or the townspeople
so mean, but he knew with a child's sudden, clear conviction that it
was his fault. They went
straight back to the ostler for the horses. No more town for him. As
Tobin went to mount, he found he was still holding the marbles. He
didn't want them, but didn't dare anger his father further by
throwing them away, so he jammed them into the neck of his tunic.
They slid down to where his belt cinched in, heavy and uncomfortable
against his side. 'Come on,
let's go home," his father said, and rode away without waiting
for Tharin. Silence
hung heavily between them on the homeward journey. Tobin felt as
though a hand was clutching his throat, making it ache. He'd learned
long ago how to cry silently. They were halfway home before his
father looked back and saw. 'Ah,
Tobin!" He reined in and waited for Tobin to ride up beside him.
He didn't look angry anymore, just weary and sad as he gestured
vaguely back toward the town and said, "Dolls… They're
silly, filthy things. Boys don't play with them, especially not boys
who want to grow up to be brave warriors. Do you understand?" The
doll! A fresh wave of shame washed over Tobin. So that was why
his father had been so angry. His heart sank further as another
realization came clear. It was why his mother hadn't given him one
that morning, too. It was shameful of him to want them. He was too
shocked at himself to wonder why no one, not even Nari, had thought
to tell him. His father
patted his shoulder. "Let's go home and have your cake. Tomorrow
Tharin will start your training." But by the
time they reached home he was feeling too sick in his stomach to eat
any honey cake or wine. Nari felt his forehead, pronounced him played
out, and put him to bed. He waited
until she was gone, then reached under his pillow for the four little
stick people hidden there. What had been a happy secret now made his
cheeks burn. These were dolls, too. Gathering them up, he crept next
door and put them down in one of the toy city's market squares. This
was where they belonged. His father had made them and put them here,
so it must be all right to play with them here. Returning
to his room, Tobin hid the unwanted sack of marbles at the very back
of his wardrobe. Then he crawled between the cold sheets and said
another prayer to Sakor that he would be a better boy and make his
father proud. Even after
he cried again, it was hard to sleep. His bed felt very empty now. At
last he fetched the wooden sword Tharin had given him and cuddled up
with that. Tobin
didn't forget the bad memories of that name day, but—like the
unwanted sack of marbles gathering dust at the back of his
wardrobe—he simply chose not to touch them. The other gifts
he'd received kept him happily occupied over the next year. He learned
swordplay and archery in the barracks yard with Tharin, and rode Gosi
every day. He no longer cast a longing eye at the Alestun road. The
few traders they met on the mountain track bowed respectfully; no one
pointed at him here, or whispered behind their hands. Remembering
the pleasure he'd felt making the wax horse at the shrine, he begged
bits of candle end from Cook's melting pot, and soon the windowsill
in his bedchamber was populated by tiny yellow animals and birds.
Nari and his father praised these, but it was Tharin who brought him
lumps of clean new wax so that he could make bigger animals.
Delighted, Tobin used the first bit to make him a horse. Or 'n his
eighth name day they went to town again and he was careful to behave
himself as a young warrior should. He made fine wax horses at the
shrine, and no one snickered later when he chose a fine hunting knife
as his gift. I ot long
after this, his father decided it was time for Tobin to learn his
letters. Tobin
enjoyed these lessons at first, but mostly because he loved sitting
in his father's chamber. It smelled of leather and there were maps
and interesting daggers hanging on the walls. 'No Skalan
noble should be at the mercy of scribes," his father explained,
setting out parchments and a pot of ink on a small table by the
window. He trimmed a goose quill and held it up for Tobin to see.
"This is a weapon, my son, and some know how to wield it as
skillfully as a sword or dagger." Tobin
couldn't imagine what he meant but was anxious as always to please
him. In this, however, he had little luck. Try as he might, he simply
could not understand the connection between the crooked black marks
his father drew on the page and the sounds he claimed they made.
Worse yet, his fingers, so adept at molding wax or clay from the
riverbank, could not control the scratchy, skittering quill. It
blotted. It wandered. It caught on the parchment and spat ink in all
directions. His lines were wiggly as grass snakes, his loops came out
too large, and whole letters ended up backwards or upside down. His
father was patient but Tobin was not. Day after day he struggled,
blotching and scratching along until the sheer frustration of it all
made him cry. 'Perhaps
we'd best leave this for later," his father conceded at last. That night
Tobin dreamt of burning all the quills in the house, just in case his
father changed his mind.
fortunately, Tobin had no such difficulty learning the sword. Tharin
had kept his promise; whenever he was at the keep, they met to
practice in the barracks yard or the hall. Using wooden swords and
bucklers, Tharin taught Tobin the rudiments of sweeps and blocks, how
to attack and how to defend himself. Tobin worked fiercely at these
lessons and kept his pledge to the gods and his father in his heart;
he would be a great warrior. It was not
a difficult one to keep, for he loved arms practice. When he was
little he'd often come with Nari to watch the men spar among
themselves. Now they gathered to watch him, leaning out the barracks
windows or sitting on crates and log stools in front of the long
building. They offered advice, joked with him, and stepped out to
show him their own special tricks and dodges. Soon Tobin had as many
teachers as he wanted. Tharin sometimes paired him against
left-handed Manies or Aladar, to demonstrate how different it was to
fight a man who held his weapon on the same side as your own. He
couldn't properly fight any of them, small as he was, but they went
through the motions in mock fights and showed him what they could.
Koni, the fletcher, who was the smallest and youngest of the guard,
was closest to him in size. He took a special interest in Tobin, too,
for they both liked to make things. Tobin made him wax animals and in
return Koni taught him how to fletch arrow shafts and carve twig
whistles. When Tobin
had finished his practice for the day, the others would shoot with
him, or tell stories of the battles they'd fought against the
Plenimarans. Tobin's father was the great hero of these tales, always
in the forefront, always the bravest on the field. Tharin figured
large as well, and was always at his father's side. 'Have you
always been with Father?" he asked Tharin one winter day as they
rested between drills. It had snowed the night before. Tharin's beard
was white around his mouth where his breath had frozen. He nodded.
"All my life. My father was one of your grandfather's liegemen.
I was his third son, born at Atyion the same year as your father. We
were raised together, almost like brothers." 'So you're
almost my uncle?" Tobin said, pleased with the notion. Tharin
tousled Tobin's hair. "As good as, my prince. When I was
old enough, I was made his squire and later he made me a knight and
granted me my lands at Hawkhaven. We've never been separated in
battle." Tobin
pondered all this a moment, then asked, "Why don't I have a
squire?" 'Oh, you're
young for that yet. I'm sure you will when you're a bit older." 'But not
one I've grown up with," Tobin pointed out glumly. "No boy
has been born here. There aren't any other children at all. Why can't
we go live at Atyion, like you and Father did? Why do the children in
the village point and stare at me?" Tobin half
expected Tharin to put him off, talk of other things the way his
father and Nari always did. Instead, he just shook his head and
sighed. "Because of the demon, I suppose, and because your mama
is so unhappy. Your father feels it's best this way, but I don't
know…" He looked
so sad as he said it that Tobin almost blurted out what had happened
that day in the tower. He'd never told anyone about that. Before he
could, however, Nari came to fetch him. He promised himself he would
tell Tharin the following day during their ride, but Koni and old
Lethis came too, and he didn't feel right speaking in front of anyone
else. Another day or two passed and he forgot about it, but his trust
in Tharin remained. Cinrin wore
on there was little snow, hardly enough to dust the meadow, but the
weather turned bitter cold. Tharin kept the men busy hauling firewood
from the forest and everyone slept in the hall, where the hearth fire
burned night and day. Tobin wore two tunics and his cloak indoors.
During the day Cook kept a fire pot burning in the toy room so that
he could amuse himself there, but even so he could still see his
breath on the air. The river
froze hard enough to walk on and some of the younger soldiers and
servants went skating, but Nari would only let Tobin watch from the
bank. l_,'e was
playing alone upstairs one bright morning when he caught the sound of
a horse galloping up the frozen road. Soon a lone rider in a
streaming red cape came riding up the meadow and across the bridge.
Leaning out over the sill, Tobin saw his father come out to greet the
man and welcome him inside. He recognized the red and gold badge all
too well; this was a messenger from the king and that usually meant
only one thing. The man did
not stay long however, and was soon off again down the road. As soon
as Tobin heard him clatter across the bridge he hurried downstairs. His father
sat on a bench by the hearth, studying a long scroll weighted down
with the king's seals and ribbons. Tobin sat down beside him and
peered at the document, wishing that he could read it. Not that he
needed to, to know what the message was. "You have to leave
again, don't you, Father?" 'Yes, and
very soon, I'm afraid. Plenimar is taking advantage of the dry winter
to raid up the Mycenian coast. The Mycenians have appealed to Erius
for aid." 'You can't
sail this time of year! The sea's too stormy, isn't it?" 'Yes, we
must ride," his father replied absently. He already had that
faraway look in his eyes, and Tobin knew he was thinking of supplies
and horses and men. That would be all he and Tharin would talk about
around the hearth at night until they left. 'Why is
Plenimar always making war?" Tobin asked, angry with these
strangers who kept causing trouble and taking his father away. The
Sakor festival was only a few weeks away and his father was sure to
leave before then. Rhius
looked up at him. "You remember the map I showed you, how the
Three Lands lie around the Inner Sea?" 'Yes." 'Well, they
were all one land once, ruled by priest kings called hierophants.
They had their capital at Ben-shal, in Plenimar. A long while ago the
last hierophant divided the lands up into three countries, but the
Pleni-marans never liked that and have always wanted to reclaim all
the territory for their own." 'When can I
go to war with you?" Tobin asked. "Tharin says I'm doing
very well at my lessons!" 'So I
hear." His father hugged him, smiling in the way that meant no.
"I'll tell you what. As soon as you're big enough to wear my
second hauberk, you may come with me. Come, let's see if it fits." The heavy
coat of chain hung on a rack in his father's bedchamber. It was far
too big, of course, and puddled around Tobin's feet, anchoring him
helplessly in place. The coif hung over his eyes. Laughing, his
father placed the steel cap on Tobin's head. It felt like he was
wearing one of Cook's soup kettles; the end of the long nasal guard
hung below his chin. All the same, his heart beat faster as he
imagined the tall, strong man he'd someday be, filling all this out
properly. 'Well, I
can see it won't be much longer before you'll be needing this,"
his father chuckled. And with that he dragged the rack across the
corridor to Tobin's bedchamber and spent the rest of the afternoon
showing him how to keep the mail oiled and ready. V'obü ?in still
clung to the hope that his father and the others could stay until the
Sakor festival, but his father's liegemen, Lord Nyanis and Lord
Solan, arrived a few days later with their men. For a few days the
meadow was full of soldiers and their tents, but within the week
everyone was gone to Atyion, leaving Tobin and the servants to
celebrate without them. Tobin moped
about for a few days, but Nari cajoled him out of his dark mood and
sent him off to help deck the house. Garlands of fir boughs were hung
over every doorway, and wooden shields painted gold and black were
hung on the pillars of the hall. Tobin filled the offering shelf of
the household shrine with an entire herd of wax horses for Sakor. The
following morning, however, he found them scattered across the
rush-covered floor, replaced by an equal number of dirty, twisted
tree roots. This was
one of the demon's favorite tricks, and one Tobin particularly hated,
since it upset his father so. The duke would always go pale at the
sight of them. Then he had to burn sweet herbs and say prayers to
cleanse the shrine. If Tobin found the roots first, he threw them
away and cleaned the shelf with his sleeve so his father wouldn't
know and be sad. Scowling to
himself, Tobin pitched the whole mess into the hearth fire and went
to make new horses. 'n Mourning
Night, Cook extinguished all but one fire-pot to symbolize Old
Sakor's death and everyone played games of Blindman's Gambit by
moonlight in the deserted barracks yard. Tobin was
hiding behind a hayrack when he happened to glance up at the tower. A
faint glimmer of forbidden firelight showed through the shutters. He
hadn't seen his mother in days and that suited him very well. All the
same, a shiver danced up the knobs of his spine as he pictured her up
there, peering out at him. Suddenly
something heavy knocked him to the ground and a burning pain
blossomed in his right cheek, just below his eye. The invisible
attacker vanished as quickly as it had come and Tobin blundered out
from behind the rack, sobbing with fear and pain. 'What is
it, pet?" Nari cried, gathering him into her arms. Too shaken
to answer, he pressed his throbbing cheek against her shoulder as she
carried him into the hall. 'Someone
strike a light!" she ordered. 'Not on
Mourning Night…" the housemaid, Sarilla, said, hovering
at her side. 'Then fetch
the reserve coals and blow up enough flame to see by. The child's
hurt!" Tobin
curled tightly against her, eyes shut tight. The pain was subsiding
to a dull ache, but the shock of the attack still made him tremble.
He heard Sarilla return, then the creak of the firepot lid. 'There now,
pet, let Nari see." Tobin
lifted his head and let her turn his cheek toward the dim glow. Mynir
and the others stood in a circle around them, looking very worried. 'By the
Light, he's bitten!" the old steward exclaimed. "Go fetch a
basin and a clean cloth, girl." Sarilla hurried off. Tobin
raised a hand to his cheek and felt sticky wetness there. Nari took
the cloth Sarilla fetched and wiped his fingers and cheek. It came
away streaked with blood. 'Could it
have been one of the hounds, Tobin? Perhaps one was sleeping in the
hayrack," Mynir said anxiously. Dogs couldn't abide Tobin; they
growled and slunk away from him. There were only a few old ones left
at the keep now, and Nari wouldn't let them in the house. 'That's no
dog bite," Sarilla whispered. "Look, you can see—" 'It was the
demon!" Tobin cried. There had been moonlight enough to see that
nothing with a proper solid body had been behind that rack with him.
"It knocked me down and bit me!" 'Never mind
that," Nari said soothingly, turning the rag to a clean side and
sponging away his tears. "Never you mind. We'll talk about it in
the morning. Come to bed now, and Nari will keep that old demon
away." Tobin could
hear the others still whispering to each other as she led him toward
the stairs. 'It's true,
what they say!" Sarilla was whimpering. "Who else does it
attack like that? Born cursed!" 'That's
enough, girl," Mynir hissed back. "There's a cold, lonesome
road outside for those who can't keep their mouths shut." Tobin
shivered. So, even here, people whispered. *^,'e slept
deeply with Nari close beside him. He woke alone, but well tucked in
and could tell by the slant of the sun through the shutters that it
was midmorning.
Disappointment swept away all the terror of the night before. At the
dawn of Sakor's Day he and Mynir always woke the household to the new
year, beating on the shield gong by the shrine. The steward must have
done it without him this year and he hadn't even heard. He padded
barefoot across the cold floor to the small bronze mirror above his
washbasin and inspected his cheek. Yes, there it was; a double line
of red tooth marks, curved like the outline of an eye. Tobin bit his
forearm just hard enough to leave an impression in the skin and saw
that the two marks looked very much the same. Tobin looked back at
the mirror, staring into his own blue eyes and wondering what sort of
invisible body the demon had. Until now it had only been a dark blur
he sometimes saw from the corner of his eye. Now he imagined it as
one of the goblins in Nari's bedtime tales—the ones she said
looked like a boy burned all over in a fire. A goblin with teeth like
his. Was that what had been lurking at the edges of his world all
this time? Tobin
glanced nervously around the room and made the warding sign three
times over before he felt brave enough to get dressed. He was
sitting on the bed tying the leather lacings over his trouser legs
when he heard the door latch lift. He glanced up, expecting Nari. Instead,
his mother stood framed in the doorway with the doll. "I heard
Mynir and Cook talking about what happened last night," she said
softly. "You slept late this Sakor's Day." This was
the first time in more than year that they'd been alone together.
Since that day in the tower. He couldn't
move. He just sat staring, with the leather lacing biting into his
fingers as she walked to him and reached to touch his cheek. Her hair
was combed and plaited today. Her dress was clean and she smelled
faintly of flowers. Her fingers were cool and gentle as she smoothed
his hair back and examined the swollen flesh around the bite. There
were no shadows in her face today that Tobin could see. She just
looked sad. Laying the doll aside on the bed, she cradled his face in
both hands and kissed him on the brow. 'I'm so
sorry," she murmured. Then she pushed his left sleeve back and
kissed the wisdom mark on his forearm. "We're living in an
ill-starred dream, you and I. I must do better by you, little love.
What else do we have but each other?" 'Sarilla
says I'm cursed," Tobin mumbled, undone by such tenderness. His
mother's eyes narrowed dangerously, but her touch remained gentle.
"Sarilla is an ignorant peasant. You mustn't ever listen to such
talk." She took up
the doll again, then reached for Tobin's hand. Smiling, she said,
"Come, my dears, let's see what Cook has for our breakfast." Since that
strange Sakor's Day morning, his mother ceased to be a ghost in her
own household. Her first
acts were to dismiss Sarilla and then dispatch Mynir to the town to
find a suitable replacement. He returned the following day with a
quiet, good-natured widow named Tyra who became her serving maid. Sarilla's
dismissal frightened Tobin. He hadn't cared much for the girl, but
she'd been a part of the household for as long as he could remember.
His mother's dislike of Nari was no secret, and he was terrified that
she might send the nurse away, too. But Nari stayed and cared for him
as she always had, without any interference. His mother
came downstairs nearly every morning now, properly dressed, with her
shining black hair braided or combed in a smooth veil over her
shoulders. She even wore some scent that smelled like spring flowers
in the meadow. She still spent much of the day sewing dolls by the
fire in her bedchamber, but she took time now to look over the
accounts with Mynir and came out to the kitchen yard with Cook to
meet the farmers and peddlers who called. Tobin came along, too, and
was surprised to hear of famine and disease striking in nearby towns.
Before now, those were things that always happened far away. Still, as
bright as she was during the day, as soon as the afternoon shadows
began to lengthen the light seemed to go out of her, too, and she'd
retreat upstairs to the forbidden third floor. This saddened Tobin at
first, but he was never tempted to follow. The next morning she would
reappear, smiling again. The demon
seemed to come and go with the daylight, too, but it was most active
in the dark. The tooth
marks it had left on Tobin's cheek soon healed and faded, but his
terror of it did not. Lying in bed beside Nari each night, Tobin
could not rid himself of the image of a wizened black form lurking in
the shadows, reaching out with taloned fingers to pinch and pull, its
sharp teeth bared to bite again. He kept the covers pulled up to his
eyes and learned to drink nothing after supper, so that he wouldn't
have to get up in the dark to use the chamber pot. V,'he
fragile peace with his mother held, and a few -weeks later Tobin
walked into his toy room to find his mother waiting for him at a new
table. 'For our
lessons," his mother explained, waving him to the other chair. Tobin's
heart sank as he saw the parchments and writing materials. "Father
tried to teach me," he said. "I couldn't learn." A small
frown creased her forehead at the mention of his father, but it
quickly passed. Dipping a quill into the inkpot, she held it out to
him. "Let's try again, shall we? Perhaps I'll be a better
teacher." Still
dubious, Tobin took it and tried to write his name, the only word he
knew. She watched him struggle for a few moments, then gently took
back the quill. Tobin sat
very still, wondering if there would be an outburst of some sort.
Instead, she rose and went to the windowsill, where a row of his
little wax and wooden carvings stood in a row. Picking up a fox, she
looked back at him. "You made these, didn't you?" Tobin
nodded. She
examined each of the others: the hawk, the bear, the eagle, a running
horse, and the attempt he'd made at modeling Tharin holding a
wood-splinter sword. 'Those
aren't my best ones," he told her shyly. "I give them
away." 'To who?" He
shrugged. "Everyone." The servants and soldiers had always
praised his work and even asked for particular animals. Manies had
wanted an otter and Laris a bear. Koni liked birds; in return for an
eagle he'd given Tobin one of his sharp little knives and found him
soft bits of wood that were easy to shape. As much as
Tobin loved pleasing them all, he always saved his best carvings for
his father and Tharin. It had never occurred to him to give one to
his mother. He wondered if her feelings were hurt. 'Would you
like to have that one?" he asked, pointing to the fox she still
held. She bowed
slightly, smiling. "Why, thank you, my lord." Returning
to her chair, she placed it on the table between them and handed him
the quill. "Can you draw this for me?" Tobin had
never thought to draw anything when it was so easy to model them. He
looked down at the blank parchment, flicking the feathered end of the
quill against his chin. Pulling the shape of something from soft wax
was easy; to make the same shape real this way was something else
again. He imagined a vixen he'd seen in the meadow one morning and
tried to draw a line that would capture the shape of her muzzle and
the alert forward set of her ears as she'd hunted mice in the grass.
He could see her as clearly as ever in his mind, but try as he might
he couldn't make the pen behave. The crabbed scrawl it drew looked
nothing like the fox. Throwing the quill down, he stared down at his
ink-stained fingers, defeated again. 'Never
mind, love," his mother told him. "Your carvings are as
good as any drawing. I was just curious. But let's see if we can make
your letters easier for you." Turning the
sheet over, she wrote for a moment, then sanded the page and turned
it around for Tobin to see. There, across the top, were three As,
written very large. She dipped the pen and gave it to him, then rose
to stand behind him. Covering his hand with hers, she guided it to
trace the letters she'd drawn, showing him the proper strokes. They
went over them several times, and when he tried it alone he found
that his own scrawls had begun to resemble the letter he was
attempting. 'Look,
Mama, I did it!" he exclaimed. 'It's as I
thought," she murmured as she drew out more practice letters for
him. "I was just the same when I was your age." Tobin
watched her as she worked, trying to imagine her as a young girl in
braids who couldn't write. 'I made
little sculptures, too, though not nearly as nice as yours," she
went on, still writing. "Then my nurse taught me doll making.
You've seen my dolls." Thinking of
them made Tobin uncomfortable, but he didn't want to seem rude by not
answering. "They're very pretty," he said. His gaze drifted
to her doll, slumped in an ungainly heap on the chest beside them.
She looked up and caught him staring at it. It was too late. She knew
what he was looking at, maybe even what he was thinking. Her face
softened in a fond smile as she took the ugly doll onto her lap and
arranged its misshapen limbs. "This is the best I ever made." 'But—
Well, how come it doesn't have a face?" 'Silly
child, of course he has a face!" She laughed, brushing her
fingers across the blank oval of cloth. "The prettiest little
face I've ever seen!" For an
instant her eyes were mad and wild again, as they had been in the
tower. Tobin flinched as she leaned forward, but she simply dipped
the pen again and went on writing. 'I could
shape anything with my hands, but I couldn't write or read. My
father—your grandfather, the Fifth Consort Tanaris—showed
me how to teach my hand the shapes, just as I'm showing you now." 'I have a
grandfather? Will I meet him someday?" 'No, my
dear, your grandmama poisoned him years ago," his mother said,
busily writing. After a moment she turned the sheet to him. "Here
now, a fresh row for you to trace." They spent
the rest of the morning over the parchments. Once he was comfortable
with tracing, she had him say the sounds each letter represented as
he copied them. Over and over he traced and repeated, until by sheer
rote he began to understand. By the time Nari brought the midday meal
up to them on a tray, he'd forgotten all about his grandfather's
curious fate. From that
day on, they spent part of each morning there as she worked with
surprising patience to teach him the letters that had eluded him
before. And, little by little, he began to learn. 't't^s
uke Rhius stayed away the rest of the winter, fighting in Mycena
beside the king. His letters were filled with descriptions of
battles, written as lessons for Tobin. Sometimes he sent gifts with
the letters, trophies from the battlefield: an enemy dagger with a
serpent carved around the hilt, a silver ring, a sack of gaming
stones, a tiny frog carved from amber. One messenger brought Tobin a
dented helmet with a crest of purple horsehair. Tobin lined
the smaller treasures up on a shelf in the toy room, wondering what
sort of men had owned them. He placed the helmet on the back of a
cloak-draped chair and fought duels against it with his wooden sword.
Sometimes he imagined himself fighting beside his father and the
king. Other times, the chair soldier became his squire and together
they led armies of their own. Such games
left him lonesome for his father, but he knew that one day he would
fight beside him, just as his father had promised. the last
grey weeks of winter Tobin truly began to enjoy his mother's company.
At first they met in the hall after his morning ride with Mynir. Once
or twice she even went with them and he was amazed at how well she
sat her horse, riding astride with her long hair streaming free
behind her like a black silk banner. For all her
improvement with him, however, her attitude toward the others of the
household did not change. She spoke seldom to Mynir and almost never
to Nari. The new woman, Tyra, saw to her needs and was kind to Tobin,
too, until the demon pushed her down the stairs and she left without
even saying good-bye. After that, they made do without a maid. Most
disappointing of all, however, was her continuing coldness toward his
father. She never spoke of him, spurned any gifts he sent, and left
the hall when Mynir read his letters by the hearth each night to
Tobin. No one could tell him why she seemed to hate him so, and he
didn't dare ask his mother directly. All the same, Tobin began to
hope. When his father came home and saw how improved she was, perhaps
things might ease between them. She'd come to love him, after all.
Lying in bed at night, he imagined the three of them riding the
mountain trails together, all of them smiling. n and his
mother were at his lessons one cold morning at the end of Klesin when
they heard a rider approaching the keep at a gallop. Tobin ran
to the window, hoping to see his father on his way home at last. His
mother followed and rested a hand on his shoulder. 'I don't
know that horse," Tobin said, shading his eyes. The rider was
too muffled against the cold to recognize at a distance. "May I
go see who it is?" 'I suppose
so. Why don't you see if Cook has anything nice for us in the larder,
too? I could do with an apple. Hurry back now. We're not done for
today." 'I will!"
Tobin called, dashing off. There was
no one in the hall, so he went through to the kitchen and saw with
delight that it was Tharin being greeted by Nari and the others. His
beard had grown long over the winter. His boots were filthy with mud
and snow, and he had a bandage wrapped around one wrist. 'Is the war
over? Is Father coming home?" Tobin cried, throwing himself into
the man's arms. Tharin
lifted him up, nose to nose. "Yes to both, little prince, and
he's bringing some guests with him. They're just behind me." He
set Tobin back on his feet. He was trying to smile, but Tobin read
something else in the lines around the man's eyes as he glanced at
Nari and the steward. "They'll be here soon. You run along and
play now, Tobin. Cook doesn't need you underfoot. There's much to
do." 'But—" 'That's
enough," Nari said sharply. "Tharin will take you out for a
ride later. Off with you now!" Tobin
wasn't used to being dismissed like this. Feeling sulky, he dawdled
back toward the hall. Tharin hadn't even said who Father was
bringing. Tobin hoped it was Lord Nyanis or Duke Archis. He liked
them the best of all his father's liegemen. He was
halfway across the hall when he remembered that his mother had asked
for an apple. They couldn't very well scold him for coming back for
that. The kitchen
door was open and as he approached, he heard Nari say, "What is
the king doing coming here, after all these years?" 'For the
hunting, or so he claims," Tharin replied. "We were on our
way home the other day, nearly in sight of Ero, when Rhius happened
to mention the fine stag hunting we have here. The king took it into
his head for an invitation. He's struck with these strange whims more
often now—" The
king! Tobin forgot about apples as he scurried back upstairs,
thinking instead of the little wooden figure in the box—The
Present King, Your Uncle. Tobin wondered excitedly if he'd be wearing
his golden crown, and if he'd let Tobin hold Gherilain's sword. His mother
was still by the window. "Who was that on the road, child?" Tobin ran
to the window but couldn't see anyone coming yet. He flopped down in
his chair, panting for breath. "Father sent Tharin ahead—
The king— The king is coming! He and Father are—" 'Erius?"
Ariani shrank back against the wall, clutching the doll. "He's
coming here? Are you certain?" The demon's
cold, angry presence closed in around Tobin, so strong it felt hard
to breathe. Parchments and inkpots flew from the table and scattered
across the dusty floor. 'Mama,
what's wrong?" he whispered, suddenly afraid of the look in his
mother's eye. With a
choked cry, she lunged for him and half dragged, half carried him
from the room. The demon raged around them, blowing up the dry rushes
into whirling clouds and knocking the lamps from their hooks. She
paused in the corridor, looking wildly around as if seeking some way
to escape. Tobin tried not to whimper as her fingers dug into his
arm. 'No, no,
no!" she muttered. The rag doll's blank, dingy face peeped out
at Tobin from under her arm. 'Mama,
you're hurting me. Where are we going?" But she
wasn't listening to him. "Not again. No!" she whispered,
pulling him toward the third-floor stairs. Tobin tried
to pull away, but she was too strong for him. "No, Mama, I don't
want to go up there!" 'We must
hide!" she hissed, gripping him by both shoulders now. "I
couldn't last time. I would have. By the Four, I would have, but they
wouldn't let me! Please, Tobin, come with Mama. There's no time!" She pulled
him up the stairs and along the corridor to the tower stairs. When
Tobin tried to pull away this time, unseen hands shoved him forward
from behind. The door flew open before them, slamming back against
the wall so hard that one of the panels splintered. Panicked
birds flapped and screeched around them as she wrestled Tobin up the
stairs to the tower room. This door slammed shut behind them and the
wine table flew across the room, narrowly missing Tobin's shoulder as
it smashed across the doorway, blocking his escape. Dusty tapestries
flew from the walls and the shuttered windows banged wide. Sunlight
flooded in on all sides, but the room remained dim and deathly cold.
Outside they could hear a great company of riders now, coming up the
road. Ariani
released Tobin and paced frantically around the room, weeping with
one hand pressed over her mouth. Tobin
cowered by the broken table. This was the mother he knew best—hurtful
and unpredictable. The rest of it had all been a lie. 'What are
we to do?" she wailed. "He's found us again.
He can find us anywhere. We must escape! Lhel, you bitch, you
promised me…" The jangle
of harness grew louder outside and she dashed to the window
overlooking the front court. "Too late! Here he is. How can he?
How can he?" Tobin crept
up beside her, just close enough to peek down over the sill. His
father and a group of strangers in scarlet cloaks were dismounting.
One of them wore a golden helmet that shown in the sun like a crown. 'Is that
the king, Mama?" She yanked
him back, clutching him so close that his face was pressed against
the doll. It had a sour, musty smell. 'Mark him,"
she whispered, and he could feel her trembling. "Mark him, the
murderer! Your father brought him here. But he won't have you this
time." She dragged
him to the opposite window, the one that overlooked the mountains to
the west. The demon overturned another table, spilling mouthless
dolls across the floor. His mother whirled at the noise, and Tobin's
head hit the corner of the stone sill hard enough to daze him. He
felt himself falling, felt his mother pulling at him again,
felt sunlight and wind on his face. Opening his eyes, he found
himself hanging out over the still, looking down at the frozen river. Just like
the last time she'd brought him here. But this
time she was crouched on the sill beside him, tear-stained face
turned to the mountains as she grasped the back of Tobin's tunic and
tried to pull him out.
Overbalancing, he thrashed back wildly, grasping for anything—the
window casing, his mother's arm, her clothing—but his feet were
already tipping up over his head. He could see the dark water moving
like ink beneath the ice. His mind skittered on ahead; would the ice
break when he landed on it? Then his
mother screamed and tumbled past him, skirts and wild black hair
billowing around her as she fell. For an instant they looked one
another straight in the eye and Tobin felt as if a bolt of lightning
passed between them, joining them just for a second eye to eye, heart
to heart. Then
someone had Tobin by the ankle, dragging him roughly back into the
room. His chin struck the outer edge of the sill and he spun down
into darkness with the taste of blood in his mouth. R, jhius
and the king were about to dismount when they heard a shriek echo
behind the keep. 'By the
Flame! Is it that demon of yours?" Erius exclaimed, looking
around in alarm. But Rhius
knew the demon had no voice. Pushing past the other riders, he ran
out the gate, seeing already in his mind's eye what he should have
anticipated, what he would see again and again in his dreams for the
rest of his life: Ariani at an upper window that should have been
tightly shuttered, catching the glint of her brother's golden helm at
the bottom of the meadow, imagining— He stumbled
along the riverbank, following the keep wall around a final corner.
There he stopped, and let out an anguished cry at the sight of bare
white legs splayed awkwardly between two boulders at the river's
edge. He ran to her and tugged down her skirts, which had blown up
around her head as she'd fallen. Looking up, he saw the tower bulking
over them. There were no other windows on this side but the single
square one directly overhead. The shutters were open. A rock had
broken her back, and her head had struck the ice and split. Black
hair and red blood spread out around her face in a terrible corona.
Her beautiful eyes were open and fixed in an expression of anguish
and outrage; even in death she accused him. Recoiling
from that gaze, Rhius staggered back into the arms of the king. 'By the
Flame," Erius gasped, staring down at her. "My poor sister,
what have you done?" Rhius
clutched his fists against his temples, resisting the urge to pull
back and strike the man in the face. 'My king,"
he managed, sinking down beside her. "Your sister is dead." :>bin
remembered falling. As consciousness gradually returned he became
aware of a hard floor under him and instinctively pressed his belly
to it, too terrified to move. Somewhere nearby echoing voices were
talking all at once, but he couldn't understand the words. He didn't
know where he was or how he had gotten there. Opening his
heavy eyelids at last, he realized that he was in the tower room. It
was very quiet here. The demon
was with him. He'd never felt it so strongly. But there was something
different about it, though he couldn't say just what. Tobin felt
very strange, like he was in a dream, but the pain in his chin and
mouth told him he wasn't. When he tried to remember how he'd gotten
up here his mind went all fuzzy and loud, as if his head was full of
bees. His cheek
hurt where it was pressed to the stone floor. He turned his head the
other way and found himself looking into the blank face of his mama's
doll, which lay just inches from his outstretched hand. Where could
she be? She never left the doll behind, not ever. Father
won't let me keep it, he thought. But suddenly he wanted it more
than anything in the world. It was ugly and he'd hated it all his
life, but he reached out for it anyway, remembering his mama saying
so fondly, This one is the best I ever made.
It was almost as if she'd just spoken the words aloud. Where
is she? The buzzing
in his head grew louder as he sat up and hugged the doll. It was
small and coarse and lumpy, but solid and comforting all the same.
Looking around dizzily, he was surprised to see himself squatting by
a broken table across the room. But this Tobin was naked and filthy
and angry and his face was streaked with tears. This other self held
no doll; he still covered his ears with both hands to block out
something neither of them wanted to remember. H iari
cried out once then clamped a hand over her mouth as the duke
staggered into the hall with Ariani's broken body in his arms. Nari
could see at once that she was dead. Blood ran from the woman's ears
and mouth; her open eyes -were fixed as stones. Tharin and
the king followed close behind. Erius kept reaching out to touch his
sister's face, but Rhius wouldn't let him. He got as far as the
hearth before his knees buckled. Sinking down, he gathered her closer
and buried his face in her black hair. It was
probably the first time since Tobin's birth that he'd been able to
embrace her, thought Nari. Erius sat
heavily on one of the hearth benches, then looked up at her and those
of his entourage who'd followed. His face was grey and his hands
shook. 'Get out,"
he ordered, not focusing on anyone in particular. He didn't have to.
Everyone scattered except Tharin. The last Nari saw of him, he was
still standing a little way off, watching the two men with no
expression at all. Nari was
halfway up the stairs before it occurred to her that Tobin had been
at lessons with his mother that morning. She took
the remaining stairs two at a time and ran down the corridor. Her
heart skipped a painful beat as she took in the smashed lamps on the
floor. Tobin's bedchamber and toy room were both empty. The writing
things they'd been using were strewn across the floor and one of the
chairs lay on its side. Fear closed
a fist around Nari's heart. "O Illior, let the child be safe!" Rushing
back into the corridor, she saw the door leading to the third floor
standing open. 'Maker's
mercy, no!" she whispered, hurrying up. Upstairs, torn hangings
were strewn around the dank corridor. They seemed to catch at Nari's
feet as she ran to the broken tower door and on up the narrow stairs
beyond. She hadn't been welcome here •when Ariani lived; even
now she felt like a trespasser. What she saw as she reached the top
of the stairs drove out all such doubts. The tower
room was choked with broken furniture and dismembered dolls. All four
windows stood open, but the room was dark and fetid. She knew that
smell. "Tobin, are you here, child?" Her voice
hardly seemed to penetrate the small space, but she heard clearly
enough the sound of ragged breathing and followed it to the corner
furthest from the fatal window. Half hidden under a fallen tapestry,
Tobin sat curled against the wall, his thin arms locked around his
knees, staring wide-eyed at nothing. 'Oh, my
poor pet!" Nari gasped, falling to her knees beside him. The child's
face and tunic were streaked with blood, making her fear at first
that Ariani had tried to cut his throat, that he would die here in
her arms, that all the pain and lies and waiting had been for
nothing. She tried
to pick him up, but Tobin pulled away and curled tighter into his
corner, his eyes still vacant. 'Tobin,
pet, it's me. Come now, let's go down to your room." The child
didn't move or acknowledge her presence. Nari
settled herself closer beside him and stroked his hair. "Please,
pet. This is a nasty cold place to be. Come down to the kitchen for a
nice cup of Cook's good soup. Tobin? Look at me, child. Are you
hurt?" Heavy
footsteps pounded up the tower stairs and Rhius burst in with Tharin
on his heels. 'Did you—?
O, thank the Light!" Rhius stumbled over shattered furniture to
kneel beside her. "Is he badly hurt?" 'No, just
very frightened, my lord," Nari whispered, still stroking
Tobin's hair. "He must have seen…" Rhius
leaned in and cupped Tobin's chin gently, trying to raise the boy's
head. Tobin jerked away. 'What
happened? Why did she bring you here?" Rhius asked softly. Tobin said
nothing. 'Look
around you, my lord!" Nari stroked Tobin's black hair back from
his face to examine the large bruise blossoming there. The blood on
his face and clothes came from a crescent-shaped cut on the point of
his chin. It wasn't large, but it was deep. "She must have seen
the king ride in with you. It's the first time since… Well,
you know how she was." Nari looked
more closely into Tobin's colorless face. No tears, but his eyes were
wide and fixed, as if he were still watching whatever had happened
here. He didn't
resist when his father lifted him in his arms and carried him down to
his bedchamber. But he didn't relax either, and remained curled in a
tight ball. There was no question of getting his soiled clothing off
yet, so Nari took off his shoes, bathed his face, and tucked him into
bed with extra quilts. The duke knelt beside the bed and took one of
Tobin's hands in his, murmuring softly to him and watching the pale
face on the pillow for any response. Turning,
Nari saw Tharin standing just inside the door, pale as milk. She went
to him and took his cold hand in hers. 'He'll be
fine, Tharin. He's just badly frightened." 'She threw
herself from the tower window," Tharin whispered, still staring
at Rhius and the boy. "She took Tobin with her— Look at
him, Nariv Do you think she tried—?" 'No mother
could do such a thing!" In her heart, however, she wasn't so
certain. They
remained there for some time, still as a mummer's tableau. At last
Rhius got to his feet and ran a hand absently down the front of his
bloodied tunic. "I must attend the king. He means to take her
back to the royal tomb at Ero." Nari
knotted her hands angrily in her apron. "For the child's sake,
shouldn't we wait—?" Rhius gave
her a look so filled with bitterness that the words withered on her
tongue. "The king has spoken." Wiping again at his tunic,
he left the room. With a last sad look at the sleeping child, Tharin
followed. Nari pulled
a chair up next to the bed and patted To-bin's thin shoulder through
the quilts. "My poor dear little one," she sighed. "They
won't even let you mourn her!" Stroking
the sleeping child's brow, she imagined what it would be like to
bundle him up and carry him far away from this house of misery.
Closing her eyes, she imagined raising him as her own in some simple
cottage, far from kings and ghosts and madwomen. V,'obin
heard wailing and huddled up more tightly as it grew louder.
Gradually, the sobbing voice changed to the sound of a strong east
wind buffeting itself against the walls of the keep. He could feel
the weight of heavy blankets pressing down on him, but he was still
so cold. Opening his
eyes, he blinked at the small night lamp guttering on the stand by
his bed. Nari was asleep in a chair beside it. She'd put
him to bed in his clothes. Slowly uncurling his cramped body, Tobin
rolled to face the wall and pulled the rag doll out of his tunic. He didn't
know why he had it. Something bad had happened, something so bad that
he couldn't make himself think what it was. My
mama is— He squeezed
his eyes shut and hugged the doll tightly. If
I have the doll, then my mama is— He didn't
recall hiding the doll under his clothes, didn't recall anything
really, but now he hid it again under the covers, pushing it all the
way down the bed with his feet, knowing he must find a better place
very soon. He knew it was wicked to want it, shameful for a boy who
was going to be a warrior to need a doll, but he hid it all the same,
full of shame and longing. Perhaps his
mama had given it to him, after all. Slipping
back into a broken doze, he dreamed over and over again of his mother
passing the doll to him. Every time she was smiling as she told him
that it was the best she ever made. '"Tpobin
was made to stay in bed for two days. At first he _L slept much of
the time, lulled by the sound of the rain pelting steadily against
the shutters and the groan and grumble of the river ice breaking up. Sometimes,
half awake, he thought his mama was in the room with him, standing at
the foot of his bed with her hands clasped tight the way she had when
she saw the king riding up the hill. He'd be so certain she was there
that he could even hear her breathing, but when he opened his eyes to
look, she wasn't. The demon
was, though. Tobin could feel it hovering around him all the time
now. At night he pressed closer to Nari, trying to pretend he didn't
feel it staring at him. Yet powerful as it was, it didn't touch him
or break anything. By
afternoon on the second day he was awake and restless. Nari and
Tharin sat with him during the day, telling stories and bringing him
little toys as if he were a baby. The other servants came too, to pat
his hand and kiss his brow. Everyone
came except Father. When Tharin explained at last that he'd had to go
back to Ero with the king for a little while, Tobin's throat ached,
but he couldn't find the tears to cry. No one
spoke of his mother. He wondered what had happened to her after she'd
gone to the tower, but he couldn't bring himself to ask. In fact, he
didn't feel like speaking at all, and so he didn't, not even when the
others coaxed him. Instead, he played with his wax or burrowed under
the blankets, waiting for everyone to go away. The few times that he
was left to himself, he took the rag doll from its new hiding place
behind the wardrobe and just held it, looking down at the blank
circle of cloth where its face should be. Of
course be has a face. The prettiest— But it
wasn't pretty at all. It was ugly. Its stuffing was lumpy and clumped
inside and he could feel little sharp bits like splinters in the
uneven legs and arms. Its thick muslin skin was dingy and much
patched. He did discover something new, though; a thin, shiny black
cord tied tightly around its neck, so tight that it didn't show
unless he bent the head sharply back. Ugly as it
was, though, Tobin thought he could smell the flower scent his mother
had worn during those last happy weeks on it, and that was enough. He
guarded the doll jealously and, when he was finally allowed up on the
third day, he moved it to the bottom of the old chest in the toy
room. The weather
had turned cold again and sleet was hissing down outside. The toy
room was dim and dreary in this light. There was dust on the floor
and on the flat roofs of the city's wooden block houses; the little
wooden people lay scattered about the Palatine like the plague
victims his father had written of. In the corner, the Plenimaran
chair warrior seemed to mock him and he took it apart, throwing the
cloak into the empty wardrobe and putting the helmet away in the
chest. Wandering
over to the writing table by the window, Tobin gingerly touched the
things he and his mother had shared—the parchments, sand
shaker, scraping blades, and quills. They'd labored through almost
half the alphabet. Sheets of new letters in her bold, square hand lay
waiting for his practice. He picked one up and sniffed it, hoping to
catch her scent here, too, but it only smelled of ink. V,'he sleet
had given way to early spring rain when his father came back a few
days later. He looked strange and sad and no one seemed to know what
to say to him, not even Tharin. After supper that night Rhius sent
everyone out of the hall, then took Tobin onto his lap by the fire.
He was quiet for a long time. After a
while he raised Tobin's bruised chin and looked into his face. "Can't
you speak, child?" Tobin was
shocked to see tears trickling down into his father's
black-and-silver beard. Don't cry! Warriors don't
cry, he thought, frightened to see his brave father weeping.
Tobin could hear the words in his head, but he still couldn't make
any sounds come out. 'Never
mind, then." His father pulled him close and Tobin rested his
head against that broad chest, listening to the comforting thump of
his father's heart and grateful not to have to watch those tears
fall. Perhaps that's why his father had sent everyone away; so they
wouldn't see. 'Your
mother… She wasn't well. Sooner or later, you'll hear people
say she was mad, and she was." He paused and Tobin felt him
sigh. "What she did in the tower… It was the madness. Her
mother had it, too." What had
happened in the tower? Tobin closed his eyes, feeling strange all
over. The bees had started buzzing in his head again. Did making
dolls drive you mad? He remembered the toy maker he'd seen in town.
He hadn't noticed anything wrong with her. Had his grandmama made
dolls? No, she'd poisoned her husband— Rhius
sighed again. "I don't think your mama meant to hurt you. When
she was in her bad spells, she didn't know what she was doing. Do you
understand what I'm telling you?" Tobin
didn't understand at all, but he nodded anyway, hoping that would
satisfy his father. He didn't like thinking about his mother now.
When he did, he seemed to see two different people and that made him
feel afraid. The mean, distant woman who had the "bad spells"
had always been frightening. The other—the one who had shown
him how to trace letters, who rode astride with her hair flying in
the wind and smelled like flowers—she was a stranger who'd come
to visit for a little while, then abandoned him. In Tobin's mind, she
had disappeared from the tower like one of her birds. 'Someday
you'll understand," his father said again. He pulled Tobin up
and looked at him again. "You are very special, my child." The demon,
who'd been so quiet, snatched a tapestry from the wall across the
room and ripped it violently up the middle, snapping the wooden rod
that held it. The whole thing fell to the floor with a clatter, but
his father paid it no mind. "You're too young yet to think about
it, but I promise you that you will be a great warrior when you're
grown. You'll live in Ero and everyone will bow to you. Everything
I've done, Tobin, I've done for you, and for Skala." Tobin burst
into tears and pressed his face against his father's chest again. He
didn't care if he ever lived in Ero or any of the rest of it. He just
didn't want to see this strange new look on his father's face. It
reminded him too much of his mother. The one
with bad spells. C,'he next
day Tobin gathered up the parchments and quills and inkpots and put
them away in an unused chest in his bedroom, then placed the doll
under them, hidden in an old flour sack he found in the kitchen yard.
It was risky, he knew, but it made him feel a little better to have
the doll close by. After that
he could look into his own shadowed eyes in the mirror by his
washstand and mouth my mama is dead without
feeling anything at all. Whenever
his mind strayed to why she was dead or what had happened that day in
the tower, however, his thoughts would scatter like a handful of
spilled beans and a hot red ache would start under his breastbone,
burning so badly that he could hardly breathe. Better not to think of
it at all. The doll
was a different matter. He didn't dare let anyone know about it, but
he couldn't leave it alone. The need to touch it woke him in the
middle of the night and drew him to the chest. Once he fell asleep on
the floor and woke just in time to hide it from Nari as she awakened
the next morning. After that
he sought out a new hiding place for it, settling at last on a chest
in one of the ruined guest chambers upstairs. No one seemed to care
anymore if he came up there. His father spent most of his time shut
away in his chamber. Now that most of the servants had run away or
been dismissed, Nari did more work around the keep during the
daytime, cleaning and helping Cook in the kitchen. Tharin was there
as always, but Tobin didn't feel like riding or shooting, or even
practicing at swords. His one
companion during the long, dreary days that spring was the demon. It
followed him everywhere and lurked in the shadows of the dusty
upstairs room when he visited the doll. Tobin could feel it watching
him. It knew his secret. sbin was
pushing a little stick person around the streets of his city a few
days later when Tharin appeared in the doorway. 'How goes
life in Ero today?" Tharin sat down beside him and helped set
some of the clay sheep back on their feet in their market enclosure.
There were raindrops in his short blond beard, and he smelled like
fresh air and leaves. He didn't seem to mind that Tobin said nothing.
Instead, he carried on the conversation for both of them, just as if
he knew what Tobin was thinking. "You must be missing your
mother. She was a fine lady in her day. Nari tells me she brightened
up these past few months. I hear she was teaching you your letters?" Tobin
nodded. 'I'm glad
to hear it." Tharin paused to arrange a few sheep more to his
liking. "Do you miss her?" Tobin
shrugged. 'By the
Flame, I do." Tobin
looked up in surprise and Tharin nodded. "I watched your father
court her. He loved her then, and she him. Oh, I know it must not
have seemed so to you, but that's how it was before. They were the
handsomest pair in all Ero—him a warrior in his prime, and her
the fair young princess, just come into womanhood." Tobin
fiddled with a toy ship. He couldn't imagine his parents acting any
differently toward one another than they ever had. Tharin got
up and held out a hand to Tobin. "Come on, then, Tobin, you've
moped around inside long enough. The rain's stopped and the sun's
shining. It's fine shooting weather. Go fetch your boots and cloak.
Your weapons are downstairs where you left them." Tobin let
himself be pulled up and followed the man out to the barracks yard.
The men were lounging in the sun and greeted Tobin with false
heartiness. 'There he
is at last!" grey-bearded Laris said, swinging Tobin up on his
shoulder. "We've missed you, lad. Is Tharin putting you back to
your lessons?" Tobin
nodded. 'What's
that, young prince?" Koni chided playfully, giving Tobin's foot
a shake. "Speak up, won't you?" 'He will
when he's ready," said Tharin. "Fetch the prince's sword
and let's see how much he remembers." Tobin
saluted Tharin with his blade and took his position. He felt stiff
and clumsy all over as they began the forms, but by the time he
reached the final set of thrusts and guards, the men were cheering
him on. 'Not bad,"
said Tharin. "But I want to see you out here every day again.
The time will come when you'll be glad of all these exercises. Now
let's see how your bow arm is." Ducking
into the barracks, he returned with Tobin's bow and practice arrows,
and the sack of shavings they used for a target. He tossed the sack
out into the middle of the yard, about twenty paces away. Tobin
checked his string, then fitted an arrow to it and pulled. The arrow
flew high and awry and landed in the mud near the •wall. 'Mind your
breathing and spread your feet a little," Tharin reminded him. Tobin took
a deep breath and let it out slowly as he drew again. This time the
arrow struck home, skewering the bag and knocking it several feet. 'That's the
way. And again." Tharin only
allowed him three arrows at practice. After he shot them all, he was
to think about how to improve his shooting as he collected them. Before he
could do so this time, Tharin turned to Koni. "Do you have those
new arrows fletched for the prince?" 'Right
here." Koni reached behind the barrel he was sitting on and
brought out a quiver with half a dozen new shafts fletched with wild
goose feathers. "Hope they bring you luck, Tobin," he said,
presenting them to the boy. Pulling one
out, Tobin saw that it had a small round stone for a head. He grinned
up at Tharin; these were hunting arrows. 'Cook has a
hankering to cook some rabbit or grouse," Tharin told him. "Want
to help me find supper? Good. Laris, go ask the duke if he'd like to
join a hunting party. Manies, get Gosi saddled." Laris
hurried off, only to return alone a few moments later shaking his
head. Tobin hid
his disappointment as best he could as he rode up the muddy mountain
road with Tharin and Koni. The trees were still bare, but a few green
shoots were already pushing up through last year's leaves. The first
hint of true spring was on the air, and the forest smelled of rot
ting wood and wet earth. When they reached what Tharin judged to be a
promising stretch of woods, they dismounted and set off along a
faint, winding trail. This was
the first time Tobin had ever traveled so far into the forest. The
road was soon lost from sight behind them and the trees grew thicker,
the ground rougher. With only their own careful footsteps to break
the quiet, he could hear the eerie squeak of trees rubbing together,
and the patter of little creatures in the undergrowth. Best of all,
the demon hadn't followed. He was free. Tharin and
Koni showed him how to call the curious grouse into the open,
mimicking its funny puk puk puk call. Tobin
pursed his lips as they did, but only a faint popping sound came out. A few birds
answered Tharin's call, poking their heads from the undergrowth or
hopping up on logs to see what was going on. The men let Tobin shoot
at all of them and he finally hit one, knocking it off a fallen tree. 'Well
done!" said Tharin, clapping him on the shoulder proudly. "Go
on and gather your kill." Still
clutching his bow, Tobin hurried to the tree and peered over it. The grouse
had fallen over on its breast, but it wasn't dead. Its striped head
was twisted to the side and it stared up at him with one black eye.
Its tail fan beat weakly as he bent over it, but the bird couldn't
move. A drop of bright blood welled at the tip of its beak, red as— Tobin heard
a strange buzzing, like bees, but it was too early in the year. The
next thing he knew, he was lying on the damp ground, looking up into
Tharin's worried face as the man chafed his wrists and chest. 'Tobin?
What's wrong with you, lad?" Puzzled,
Tobin sat up and looked around. There was his bow lying on the damp
ground, but no one seemed upset about that. Koni was sitting on the
fallen tree beside him, holding the dead grouse up by its feet. 'You got
him, Prince Tobin. You knocked old Master Grouse right off his log.
What did you go and faint for, eh? Are you sick?" Tobin shook
his head. He didn't know what had happened. Reaching for the bird, he
spread its tail and admired the fan of barred feathers. 'It was a
fine shot, but I think perhaps that's enough for today," said
Tharin. Tobin shook
his head again, more vigorously this time, and jumped up to show them
how well he was. Tharin
hesitated a moment, then laughed. "All right then, if you say
so!" Tobin shot
another grouse before dusk, and by the time they started down the
road everyone had forgotten all about his silly faint, even Tobin. 'ver the
next few weeks the days grew longer and they spent more time in the
forest. Spring came to the mountains, clothing the trees in fresh new
green and pulling tender shoots and colorful mushrooms up through the
brown loam. Does came out into the forest clearing to teach their
spotted fawns to graze. Tharin would not shoot at them, just grouse
and rabbits. They stayed
out all day sometimes, cooking their kills on sticks over a fire when
the hunting was good, eating the bread and cheese Cook sent along
when it wasn't. Tobin didn't care either way, so long as it meant
being outdoors. He'd never had so much fun. Tharin and
Koni taught Tobin how to keep his bearings in the trees using the
sun's position over his shoulder. They came across a nest of wood
snakes in a rock pile, still sluggish from their winter sleep, and
Koni explained how to tell if they were vipers or not by the shape of
their heads. Tharin showed him the tracks and spoor of the creatures
that shared this forest. There were mostly signs of rabbits and fox
and stag. As they walked along a game trail one day, however, Tharin
suddenly bent down next to a patch of soft earth. 'See that?"
he said, pointing out a print broader than his hand. It looked
something like a hound's, but rounder. "That's a catamount. This
is why you play in the courtyard, my lad. A big she cat •with
cubs to feed would consider you a good day's catch." Seeing
Tobin's look of alarm, he chuckled and ruffled the boy's hair.
"You're not likely to see one in daylight, and as summer comes
they'll move back up into the mountains. But you don't ever want to
be out here alone at night." Tobin took
in all these lessons eagerly, and made a few observations of his own:
the inviting gap beneath a fallen tree, a sheltered circle of rocks,
a shadowy hole beneath a boulder — all fine hiding spots, big
enough for the troublesome doll. For the first time, he wondered what
it would be like to walk here alone and explore these hidden places
by himself. is father
hunted with them now and then, but he was too quiet for Tobin to feel
comfortable around him. Most days he stayed shut up in his room, just
as Tobin's mother had. Tobin would
steal to his father's door and press his ear to it, aching for things
to be the way they had been. Before. Nari found
him there one afternoon and knelt down, putting her arms around him.
"Don't fret," she whispered, stroking his cheek. "Men
do their grieving alone. He'll soon be right again." But as
wildflowers burst out to carpet the new grass in the meadow, Rhius
remained a shadow in the house. *y the end
of Lithion the roads were dry enough to drive the cart to market. On
market day, Cook and Nari took Tobin with them into Alestun, thinking
it would be a treat for him to ride Gosi beside the cart. He shook
his head, trying to tell Nari that he didn't want to go, but she
clucked her tongue at him, insisting he'd enjoy the ride. There were
a few new lambs and kids in the meadows around the town, and the
fields of young oats and barley looked like soft woolen blankets
thrown on the ground. Wild crocus grew thickly at the edges of the
road and they stopped to gather handfuls of these for the shrine. Alestun
held no charm for Tobin now. He ignored the other children and never
allowed himself to look at any dolls. He added his flowers to the
fragrant piles around the pillar of Dalna and waited stoically for
the adults to finish their business. They
arrived home that evening to find Rhius and the others in the
courtyard, packing their horses to leave. Tobin slid off Gosi's back
and ran to his father. Rhius took
him by the shoulders. "I'm needed at court. I'll come back as
soon as I can." 'So will I,
little prince," Tharin promised, looking sadder than his father
did to be leaving. ,' need
you here! Tobin wanted to cry out. But words still would not
come, and he had to turn away so they wouldn't see his tears. By
nightfall they were gone, leaving him lonelier than ever. tt Iya and
Arkoniel spent the late winter months just outside Hear, guesting
with a wizard named Virishan. This woman had no vision except her
own, which drove her to seek out and shelter god-touched children
among the poor. She had fifteen young students, many of them already
severely crippled or battered by the ignorant folk they'd been born
to. Most of them would never amount to much as wizards, but what
humble powers they'd retained were cherished and coaxed forth under
Virishan's patient tutelage. Iya and Arkoniel gave what help they
could in return for shelter, and Iya left Virishan one of her pebbles
when they departed. When the
weather cleared they made their way to Sy-lara, where Iya had
arranged passage south. They reached it just before sundown and
encountered an unusual number of people on the road, all streaming
into the little port. 'What's
going on?" Arkoniel asked a farmer. "Is it a fair?" The man
eyed their silver amulets with distrust. "No, a bonfire stoked
with your kind." 'The
Harriers are there?" asked Iya. The man
spat over his shoulder. "Yes, Mistress, and they've brought a
gang of traitors who dared speak against the king's rule. You'd do
best to steer clear of Sy-lara today." Iya reined
her horse to the side of the road and Arkoniel followed. "Perhaps
we should take his advice," he muttered, looking nervously
around at the crowd. "We're strangers here, with no one to vouch
for us." He was
right, of course, but lya shook her head. "The Lightbearer has
put an opportunity in our path. I want to see what they do, while
we're still unknown to them. And that's something we should make
certain of, too. Take off your amulet." Leaving the
road, she led him to a small oak grove on a nearby hill. Here,
protected by a circle of stones and sig-ils, they left their amulets
and every other accouterment that marked them as wizards except the
leather bag. Trusting
that their plain traveling garb would excite no suspicion, they rode
on to Sylara. ^^•ve
ven without his amulet, Arkoniel couldn't
help glancing around nervously as they entered the town. Could these
Harriers recognize a wizard merely by his powers? Some of the rumors
they'd picked up invested the white-clad wizards with powers beyond
the normal range. If so, they'd chosen an odd place to show them off.
Sylara was nothing but a rambling, dirty harbor town. The
waterfront was already crowded with spectators. Arkoniel could hear
jeers and catcalls echoing across the water as they made their way
down the muddy street to the shore. The crowd
was too thick to get through, so lya paid a taverner to watch from a
squalid little upper room that overlooked the waterfront. A broad
platform had been set up here, built between two stone jetties.
Soldiers wearing dark grey tabards with the outline of a flying hawk
stitched in red across the breast stood two deep on the landward
side. Arkoniel counted forty in all. Behind them
stood a long gibbet and a knot of wizards by two large wooden frames.
These last looked like upended bedframes, but larger. 'White
robes," lya muttered, looking at the wizards. 'Niryn's
fashion. He had on a white robe the night To-bin was born." Six people
already dangled from the horizontal pole of the gibbet. The four men
hung limp at the end of their halters; one still wore the robes of a
priest of Illior. The remaining two, a woman and a boy, were so small
that their weight was not enough to break their necks. Bound hand and
foot, they bucked and twisted wildly. Fighting
for life, or death? Arkoniel wondered, horrified. They reminded
him perversely of a butterfly he'd watched emerge from its winter
chrysalis—suspended beneath a branch by a bit of silk, it had
twitched and jiggled inside the shiny brown casing. These two looked
like that, but their struggle would not end in wings and color. At last
some soldiers grabbed their legs and hauled down to snap their necks.
A few cheers went up among the crowd, but most of the onlookers had
fallen silent. Arkoniel
clutched the window frame, already nauseated, but there was worse to
follow. The wizards
had remained motionless near the wooden frames all this time. As soon
as the last of the hanged went still, they spread out in a line
across the platform, revealing the two naked, kneeling men they'd
been shielding with their circle. One was an old man with white hair;
the other was young and dark. Both wore thick iron bands around their
necks and wrists. Arkoniel
squinted down at the Harrier wizards and let out a gasp of dismay. He
couldn't make out faces at this distance, but he recognized the
forked red beard of the man standing closest to the frames. "That's
Niryn himself!" 'Yes. I
didn't realize there were so many, but I suppose there would have to
be… Those prisoners are wizards. See those iron bands? Very
powerful magic, that. They cloud the mind." Soldiers
pulled the prisoners to their feet and bound them spread-eagled on
the frames with silver cables. Now Arkoniel could see the complex
spell patterns that covered each man's chest. Before he could ask lya
what these signified, she let out a groan and clutched his hand. When the
victims were secured, the wizards flanked them in two rows and began
their incantations. The old man fixed his gaze stoically on the sky,
but his companion panicked, screaming and imploring the crowd and
Illior to save him. 'Can't we
do—" Arkoniel staggered as a blinding ache struck him
behind the eyes. "What is it? Do you feel it?" 'It's a
warding," lya whispered, pressing a hand to her brow. "And
a warning to any of us who might be watching." The crowd
had gone completely silent now. Arkoniel could hear the chanting
growing louder and louder. The blur of words was unintelligible, but
the throbbing in his head grew stronger and spread to his chest and
arms until his heart felt as if it was being squeezed between heavy
stones. He slowly slid down to his knees in front of the window but
could not look away. Both
prisoners began to shake violently, then shrieked as white flames
sprang from their flesh to engulf them. There was no smoke. The white
fire burned with such intensity that within a few moments nothing was
left on the frames but shriveled black hands and feet dangling from
the silver bonds. lya was whispering hoarsely beside him, and he
joined her in the prayer for the dead. When it was
over, lya slumped down on the narrow bed and wove a spell of silence
around them with shaking fingers. Arkoniel remained where he was
under the window, unable to move. For a long time neither could
speak. At last lya
whispered, "There was nothing we could have done. Nothing. I see
their power now. They've banded together and joined their strength.
The rest of us are so scattered—" 'That, and
the king's sanction!" Arkoniel spat out. "He's his mad
mother's son after all." 'He's
worse. She was insane, where he is ruthless, and intelligent enough
to turn wizards against their own kind." Fear kept
them in the tiny room until nightfall, when the tavern keeper shooed
them out to make way for a whore and her cully. The taverns
were open and there were still many people on the street, but none
ventured out onto the platform. Torches had been left burning there.
Arkoniel could see the bodies on the gibbet swinging in the night
breeze. The frames, however, were gone. 'Should we
go see if there's anything to be learned?" "No." lya
drew him hastily away. "It's too dangerous. They might be
watching." Slipping
out of town by the darkest alleys, they rode back to the grove and
gathered their tools. But when Arkoniel reached for the amulets, lya
shook her head. They left them where they lay and rode on without
speaking until the town was far behind them. 'Eight
wizards could do that, Arkoniel, just eight!" lya burst out at
last, voice shaking with fury. "And there was nothing we could
do against them. I begin to see more clearly now. The Third Oreska
the Oracle revealed to me in my vision—it was a great
confederation of wizards in a shining palace of their own at the
heart of a great city. If eight are enough to carry out the evil we
witnessed here, what could a hundred accomplish for good? And who
could stand against us?" 'Like in
the Great War," said Arkoniel. lya shook her head. "That
union lasted only as long as the war, and in the face of the most
horrible conflict and upheaval. Think what we could do with peace and
time enough to work! Imagine—the knowledge you and I have
collected in our travels combined with that of a hundred other
wizards. And think of Virishan's poor children. Imagine them saved
sooner and brought up in such a place, with dozens of teachers
instead of one, and whole libraries of wisdom to draw from." 'But
instead, that same power is being used to divide us against
ourselves." lya stared
into the distance, her face unreadable in the starlight. "Famine.
Disease. Raiders. Now this. Sometimes, Arkoniel, I see Skala like a
sacrificial bull at Sakor-tide. But instead of a clean stroke of the
sword to kill it, it's being stuck over and over with little knives
until it weakens and falls to its knees." She turned grimly to
Arkoniel. "And there's Plenimar just across the water, scenting
blood like a wolf." 'It's
almost as if Niryn has had the same vision, but turned it on its
head," Arkoniel murmured. "Why would the Lightbearer do
that?" 'You saw
the priest on the gibbet, my boy. Do you really think it's Illior who
guides him?" Spring
turned to summer and the meadow below the keep was thick again with
daisies and willow bay. Tb-bin longed to go riding, but Mynir was
ailing and there was no one else left to go out with, so he had to be
content with walks with Nari. He was too
old now to be content playing in the kitchen under the women's
watchful eyes, but Nari wouldn't let him go out to the barracks yard
to practice unless one of the servants was free to go with him. Cook
was the only one in the house who knew anything of shooting or
swordplay, and she was too old and fat to do more than advise him. He still
had the parchments and ink his mother had given him, but they brought
too many dark memories. He began to spend more time shut up in the
third-floor chamber, with only the doll and the demon for company. He
sometimes whittled with the sharp little knife Koni had given him,
using chunks of soft pine and cedar purloined from the kindling pile.
The wood was fragrant under his hands and seemed to hold shapes for
his blade to discover. Caught up in puzzling out how to coax out a
leg or fin or ear, he forgot for a while how lonely he was. Often,
however, he would sit with the doll on his lap the way his mama had,
wondering what to do with it. It wasn't useful like a sword or bow.
Its blank face made him sad. He remembered how his mama used to talk
to it, but he couldn't even do that, for his voice had not come back.
Sitting there, squeezing his fingers into the stuffed limbs to find
the mysterious lumps and sharp bits inside, he still
couldn't remember why his mama had given him the strange, misshapen
toy. All the same, he clung to the solid reality of it and the notion
that she had loved him a little after all, at the last. d j^7omeone
had replaced the door to the tower with a stout new one and Tobin was
glad of this without knowing quite why. Whenever he went upstairs, he
always made certain it was tightly locked. Standing in
front of it one day, he suddenly had the oddest sense that his mother
was just on the other side, staring at him through the wood. The
thought sent a thrill of longing and fear through him, and this fancy
grew stronger each day, until he was certain he could hear her inside
the tower, walking up and down the stone steps with her skirts
swishing behind her, or sliding her hands across the wooden panels of
the door in search of the latch. He tried hard to imagine her kind
and happy, but more often it seemed to him that she was angry. This darker
vision took root and grew like nightshade in his imagination. One
night he dreamt that she reached out under the door and pulled him
underneath to her side like a sheet of parchment. The demon was
there, too, and they dragged him up the stairs to the open window
overlooking the mountains to— He woke
thrashing in Nari's arms, but couldn't speak to tell her what the
trouble was. But he knew that he didn't want to go upstairs anymore. The
following afternoon he crept to the third floor one last time, heart
hammering in his chest. He didn't go near the tower door this time.
Instead, he snatched the doll from its hiding place and dashed
downstairs as fast as he could, certain he could hear his mother's
ghost trying to claw her way under the tower door to catch him. Never
again, he vowed, making certain the door at the bottom of the
stairs was shut tight. Running to the toy room, he curled up in the
corner beside the wardrobe, cradling the doll in his arms. V,'obi; Mn spent
the next few days fretting over a new hiding place but couldn't find
anywhere that seemed safe. No matter how safely he thought he'd
tucked it away, he couldn't stop worrying about it. At last, he
decided to share his secret with Nari. She loved him more than anyone
now and perhaps, being a woman, wouldn't think so badly of him. He decided
to show the doll to her when she came up to fetch him for supper. He
waited until he heard her step in the corridor, then took the doll
from its latest hiding spot beneath the toy room wardrobe and turned
to the door. For an
instant he thought he saw someone standing in the open doorway. Then
the door slammed shut and the demon went into a frenzy. Tapestries
flew from the walls and leaped at him like living things. Dust choked
him as layers of heavy fabric knocked him to his knees and shut out
the light. He dropped the doll and managed to struggle out from
beneath them just in time to see the wardrobe topple forward with a
crash, landing just inches from where he lay. The chest upended,
spilling toys and inkpots out over the floor. The seal on one of the
larger pots broke and a pool of sticky black fluid spread out across
the stone floor. Like
Mama's hair on the ice— The thought
came and went like a dragonfly skimming the river's surface. Then the
demon attacked his city. It tore
wooden houses from their places and threw them into the air. People
and animals flew at the wall. Tiny ships scattered as if a gale was
driving them. 'No! Stop
it!" Tobin shrieked, fighting his way free of the fallen
tapestries to protect the cherished toy. A flock of clay sheep flew
past his head and shattered to bits against the wall. "Stop it!
That's minel" Tobin's
vision seemed to narrow to a long, dark tunnel, and all he could see
at the end of it was his most cherished possession being torn to
pieces. He struck out wildly, flailing with his fists to drive the
hateful spirit away. He heard a loud pounding from somewhere nearby
and fought harder, blind with fury, until his hand connected with
something solid. He heard a startled cry. Strong hands grabbed him
and wrestled him down to the floor. 'Tobin!
Tobin, stop that!" Gasping for
breath, Tobin looked up at Nari. Tears were streaming down her plump
cheeks and blood trickled from her nose. A
red droplet on a grouse's beak—the
same bright red on river ice— Tobin's
vision went completely black. Pain blossomed like a flower of fire in
his chest, pressing a ragged wail from his lungs. His
mother's birds beating themselves against the tower walls behind him
as he looked down on her— No, don't
think— —broken
body at the river's edge. Black
hair and red blood on the ice. The fiery
ache disappeared, leaving him cold and empty. 'Oh Tobin,
how could you?" Nari wept, still holding him down. "All
your pretty things! Why?" 'I didn't,"
he whispered, too tired to move. 'Oh, my
poor love— Maker's mercy, you spoke!" Nari gathered Tobin
into her arms. "Oh, my love, you've found your voice at last." She carried
him next door to his bed and tucked him in, but he hardly noticed. He
lay limp as the doll, remembering. He
remembered why he'd been in the tower. He
remembered why his mama was dead. Why he had
the doll. She hadn't
given it to him. Another
swift, sharp stab of pain pierced Tobin's chest, and he wondered if
it was what Nari meant in her bedtime stories when she spoke of
someone's heart breaking. She lay
down beside him and held him close through the covers, stroking his
hair the way she always did. It made him drowsy. 'Why?"
he managed at last. "Why did Mama hate me?" But if Nari had
an answer for this, he fell asleep before he heard it. woke with a
start in the night, knowing he'd left the doll lying somewhere in the
toy room. He slipped
out of bed and hurried next door in his nightshirt, only to find that
the room had been put right already. The tapestries were back on the
walls. The wardrobe and chest were in their places. The ink was gone,
and all the scattered toys. His city lay in ruins in the middle of
the floor and he knew he must fix it before his father came home and
saw. But the
doll was nowhere to be seen. Leaving the room, he searched the house,
room after room, even the barracks and the stables. There was
no one else in the house. This frightened him terribly, for he'd
never been so alone. Worse yet, he knew that the only place left to
look was upstairs in the tower. He stood in the courtyard, looking up
at the shuttered windows above the roofline. 'I can't,"
he said aloud. "I don't want to go up there." As if in
answer, the courtyard gate swung open with a creak of hinges, and
Tobin caught a glimpse of someone small and dark slipping away across
the bridge. He followed
but as soon as he was through the gate he found himself deep in the
forest, following a path that ran along the riverbank. Far ahead,
half hidden by branches, he caught movement again and knew it was the
demon. He followed
it to a clearing but it disappeared. The moon was up now and he could
see two does grazing on the silvery, dew-covered grass. They pricked
up their ears at his approach, but didn't spring away. Tobin went to
them and stroked their soft brown muzzles. They bowed their heads
under his hand, then sidled away into the dark forest. There was a
hole in the ground, like the entrance to a fox's burrow, where they'd
been grazing. It was just big enough for him to crawl into, and he
did. Wiggling
through, he found a room below very much like his mother's tower
chamber. The windows were open, but blocked by packed earth and
roots. It was bright all the same, though, lit by a cheerful fire on
the hearth in the center of the room. A table beside it was set with
honey cakes and cups of milk, and next to that was a chair. It was
turned away from him, but he could see that someone was sitting
there, someone with long black hair. 'Mama?"
Tobin asked, caught between joy and terror. The woman started to
turn— And Tobin
woke up. He lay
there a moment, blinking back tears as he listened to Nari's soft
snoring beside him. The dream had been so real, and he'd wanted to
see his mother again so badly. He wanted her to be smiling and kind.
He wanted for them to sit at the table by the fire and eat the honey
cakes together, as they never had on any of his name days. He burrowed
deeper beneath the blankets, wondering if he could slip back into the
dream. Suddenly a fragment of it brought him fully awake again. He had
left the doll in the toy room. Slipping
out of bed, he took the night lamp from its stand and went into the
next room, wondering if it would all be the way it had been in his
dream. But the
room was still a shambles. Everything lay where it had fallen. Trying
not to look at the broken city, he hauled the heavy tapestries aside,
looking for the doll where he must have dropped it. It wasn't
there. Crouched
miserably with his arms around his knees, he pictured someone—Nari
or Mynir perhaps—finding it and shaking their head in
disapproval as they carried it away. Would they tell his father?
Would they give it back? Something
struck him on the head and he toppled sideways, choking back a cry of
alarm. There was
the doll on the floor beside him, where it most certainly had not
been the moment before. Tobin couldn't see the demon but he could
feel it, watching him from the far corner. Slowly,
cautiously, Tobin picked up the doll and whispered, "Thank you." Chapter Not
daring to risk losing the doll again, Tobin moved it back to his
room, tying it up in the flour sack and burying it deep in the unused
clothes chest under his parchments, some old toys, and his
second-best cloak. He felt a
little easier after that, but the dream of going into the forest came
to him three more times over the next week, always ending before he
could reach the woman in the chair. It was the
same each time in every detail except one. In these dreams he was
bringing the doll back to his mother, knowing she would keep it safe
for him in her room under the ground. Another
week passed, and the dream came again, growing so real in his mind
that he knew at last that he must go see for himself if there really
was such a place. This meant disobeying everyone and going out by
himself, but the dream was too strong to be denied. He bided
his time and saw his chance one washing day in mid-Gorathin. Everyone
would be busy in the kitchen yard all day. He worked with them in the
morning, hauling buckets of water in from the river to fill the wash
cauldron and dragging bundles of branches from the woodshed to start
the fire. The eastern sky, so clear at dawn, was darkening ominously
over the treetops and everyone was in a hurry to finish before the
rain came. He ate his
midday meal with the others, then asked to be excused. Nari pulled
him close and kissed him on the top of his head. She always seemed to
be hugging him these days. 'What will
you do with yourself, pet? Stay and keep us company." 'I want to
work on my city." Tobin pressed his face against her shoulder so
she wouldn't see that he was lying. "Do you… do you think
Father will be angry when he sees?" 'Of course
not. I can't imagine your father ever being angry with a boy as good
as you. Isn't that right, Cook?" The woman
nodded over her bread and cheese. "You're the moon and sun to
him." The ash
shovel by the hearth jumped off its nail with a loud clatter, but
everyone pretended not to notice. Freeing
himself from Nari's embrace, Tobin ran upstairs and waited by his
window until he could hear everyone out in the yard again. Then,
hiding the doll beneath his longest cloak, he crept downstairs again
and slipped out the front gate. He half expected to be magically
transported to the forest, as he always was in the dream, but simply
ended up outside the wall. As the gate swung shut behind him, he
froze for a moment, overcome by the enormity of what he was about to
do. What if Nari found him gone? What if he met with a catamount or a
wolf? A rising
breeze stroked his face with the scent of rain as he crept between
the courtyard wall and the riverbank toward the forest. Robins were
singing of the storm somewhere nearby, and doves called mournfully to
each other in the trees. The gate of
the kitchen yard was still open. He could see Nari and Cook at work
there as he passed, laughing as they stirred the -wash pot with their
wooden paddles. It felt very odd, standing out here looking in. He
continued on, following the wall past the base of the tower. He kept
his eyes down as he passed the boulders where his mother had died. He reached
the cover of the trees at last, and only now did it occur to Tobin
that he had no idea where to go; in his dreams, he'd had the demon to
guide him. But there had been a river in the dream and he had a river
here, so he decided to follow it and hope for the best. He paused to
check the sun's position over his shoulder the way Tharin had taught
him. It wasn't so easy today. The sun was little more than a bright
blur behind the haze. The
river is as good as a path, he thought. All
I have to do is follow it home. He'd never
been this way before. The riverbank was steep and the trees grew down
close to the water. To follow it, he had to clamber over rocks and
wriggle through thick stands of willow and alder. In low places he
found animal tracks in the mud and scanned these nervously for signs
of prowling catamounts. He found none, but still wished he'd thought
to bring his bow. The sky
grew darker as he toiled on, and the wind began to toss the branches
around overhead. There were no doves or robins calling now, just some
ravens croaking nearby. Tobin's arm cramped from carrying the doll.
He thought of all the hiding places he'd seen on his rides, but the
few holes he found here were all too wet. Even if he did find a dry
hiding place, he wasn't sure if he'd dare come out and visit it very
often. On the heels of that thought came the realization that he did
not want to be parted from it at all. Better to
keep going and look for that hidden room, he told himself. But nothing
looked the way it had in his dream. There was no clearing, no
friendly deer waiting for him, just rocks and roots that caught his
feet, little biting flies that buzzed in his ears, and mud that
soaked his shoes. He was almost ready to give up when he struck a
clear trail leading up to a pine grove on higher ground. The way was
much easier here. Fragrant rust-colored needles lay thick underfoot
and his feet hardly made a sound as he walked. He followed this path
eagerly, certain it would lead him to the clearing and the deer. In
stead, it gradually grew fainter until it disappeared altogether
beneath the thick, straight trunks of the pines. Turning around, he
couldn't see his way back. His feet had left no impression in the
thick needles. He couldn't even hear the sound of the river anymore,
just the first patter of rain through the boughs. No matter what
direction he turned, it all looked the same. The bit of sky he could
see through the thick branches was an even blanket of grey with no
hint of the sun. The breeze
had died and the day had turned close. Flies with big green eyes
joined the clouds of tiny midges buzzing around him, biting him on
the neck and behind his ears. The grand adventure was over. Tobin was
hot, frightened and lost. He cast
around frantically to find the path but it was no use. At last, he
gave up and sat on a rock, wondering if Nan had noticed that he was
gone yet. It was
quiet here. He heard a red squirrel's angry trill and the sounds of
small creatures creeping in the undergrowth around him. Little black
ants toiled in the needles around his feet, carrying their eggs and
bits of leaves. Exhausted, he leaned forward to watch them. One had a
shiny beetle's leg in its pinchers. A long black snake as thick as
Tobin's wrist emerged from a hole under a nearby tree and slithered
past his foot, paying no attention to him at all. Rain fell softly
through the branches, and he could hear the different sounds the
drops made, striking dead leaves, plants, rocks, and the needles on
the ground. Tobin wondered uneasily what catamount's feet sounded
like on pine needles, or if they made any sound at all. 'I thought
you come today maybe." Tobin
nearly toppled off his rock as he whirled around. A small,
black-haired woman sat on a mossy log just a few yards away, hands
clasped in her lap. She was very dirty and wore a ragged brown rag of
a dress decorated with animal teeth. Her hands and bare feet were
stained, and there were sticks and bits of leaf tangled in her long,
curly hair. She grinned at him, but her black eyes held no mockery. Tobin
thrust the doll behind him, shamed at being caught with it, even by a
stranger. He was scared, too, noting the long knife sheathed at her
belt. She didn't look like one of his father's tenants, and she spoke
strangely. She gave
him a broad smile that lacked several teeth. "Look what I got,
keesa." She moved her hands and he saw
that she held a young rabbit on her lap. She stroked its ears and
back. "You come see?" Tobin
hesitated, but curiosity overcame caution. He rose and slowly walked
over to stand before her. 'You rub
her," the woman said, showing him how to pat the rabbit. "She
like." Tobin
stroked the rabbit's back. Its fur was soft and warm under his hand
and, like the deer in his dream, it wasn't the least bit skittish. 'She like
you." Yes,
thought Tobin, this woman didn't speak like anyone he'd met in
Alestun. He was close enough now to tell that she didn't smell very
good, either, but for some reason he wasn't afraid anymore. Keeping the
doll hidden under his cloak, he knelt and patted the rabbit some
more. "She's soft. Dogs don't let me pet them." The woman
clicked her tongue against her teeth. "Dogs don't
understanding." Before Tobin could ask what she meant, she said,
"I waiting for you long time, keesa." 'My name
isn't Keesa. It's Prince Tobin. I don't know you, do I?" 'But I
knowing you, keesa called Tobin. Knowing your poor mama, too. You got
one was her thing." So she had
seen the doll. Blushing, Tobin slowly brought it out from under his
cloak. She took it and passed him the rabbit to hold. 'I Lhel.
You don't be scared me." She held the doll on her lap, smoothing
it with her stained fingers. "I know you born. Watch for you." Lhel?
He'd heard that name somewhere before. "How come you never come
to the keep?" 'I come."
She winked at him. "Not be see." 'How come
you don't talk right?" Lhel
touched a finger playfully to his nose. "Maybe you teach? I
teach, too. I wait be your teaching, all this time out in trees.
Lonesome time, but I wait. You ready learn some things?" 'No. I was
looking for—for—" 'Mama?" Tobin
nodded. "I saw her in a dream. In a room under the ground." Lhel shook
her head sadly. "Don't her. Be me. That mama don't be need now." Sadness
overwhelmed Tobin. "I want to go home!" Lhel patted
his cheek. "Not so far. But you don't come just get lost, no?"
She patted the doll. "This give you some troubles." 'Well—" 'I know.
You come, keesa." She got up
and walked off through the trees with the doll. Tobin had little
choice but to follow. V,'he
washing didn't take as long when Rhius and the men were away. With
rain threatening, Nari and Cook made quick work of the clothing and
linens while Mynir strung lines up in the hall for drying. They were
finished in time to start a proper supper. 'I'll do
the bread," Nari said, surveying the lines of dripping linen
with satisfaction. "Just let me go see if Tobin wants to help." The truth
was, she didn't feel easy in her mind leaving the child alone so
much, not since the mess in the toy room. It could have been the
spirit that tore the room up— the thought of Tobin heaving over
that heavy wardrobe scared the liver out of her—but it had been
Tobin she'd seen throwing toys and torn tapestries around, and he
who'd attacked her, bloodying her nose before she could hold him. It
was getting harder to tell when to blame the spirit, and when Tobin
was in one of his fits. He'd been so strange since the death, keeping
to himself and always acting as if he had some great secret he was
keeping. Nari sighed
as she climbed the stairs. Ariani had never been much use as a
mother, except perhaps for those last quiet months. And Rhius? Nari
shook her head. She'd never been able to puzzle that one out, and all
the more so since his wife's death. If Tobin was a bit strange—well,
who was to blame for that? She found
Tobin kneeling beside his toy city, his black hair hanging in a
tangled mess around his face as he worked on a broken ship. 'Would you
like to help with the baking, pet?" she asked. He shook
his head, struggling to fit the tiny mast back into place. 'Want some
help with that'" He shook
his head again and turned away, reaching for something beside him. 'Suit
yourself, then, Master Silence." Giving him a last, fond look,
Nari headed back for the kitchen, already pondering what sort of
bread they ought to have tonight. She didn't
hear the sound of the little ship falling to the floor in the empty
room behind her. C,'obi in
cradled the rabbit in his arms as he followed Lhel deeper into the
forest. There was no path that he could see, but she picked her way
through the trees as swiftly as if she could see one. The forest grew
darker, and the trees here were larger than any Tobin had seen
before. Soon they were walking between huge oaks and hemlocks. Wide
swaths of yellow lady slippers, wintergreen, and foul-smelling purple
trillium covered the ground like a colorful rag quilt. Tobin
studied Lhel as he followed her. She wasn't much taller than he was.
Her hair was black like his mama's, but coarse and curly, with thick
locks of silver mixed in. They went
on for a very long time. He didn't want to go this deep in the woods,
not with her, but she had the doll and she didn't even look back to
see if he was following. Blinking back fresh tears, he promised
himself he would never come out alone again. She stopped
at last by the largest oak tree Tobin had ever seen. It towered over
them as high as the tower and its trunk was nearly as thick. It was
festooned with animal skulls, antlers, and hides tacked up to cure. A
few small fish hung on drying racks beside it, and there were baskets
made of woven grass and willow. Just beyond these a spring welled up
in a clear, round pool that sent a trickling streamlet down the hill.
They drank from their hands at the pool, and then Lhel led him back
to the great tree. 'My house,"
she said, and vanished into the trunk. Tobin
gaped, wondering if the tree had eaten her, but she peeked out at him
from its side and beckoned him to follow. Coming
closer, he saw that there was a crack in the trunk large enough for
him to walk through without stooping. Inside the ancient tree was a
hollow place almost as big as Tobin's bedchamber, with a floor of
packed, dry earth. The smooth silvery wood of the walls went up into
darkness, and a second crack a few yards above the door let in enough
light for Tobin to make out a pallet bed piled with furs, a firepit,
and a small iron pot beside it. The pot looked just like the ones
Cook used. 'Did you
make this place?" he asked, forgetting his fear again as he
gazed around. This was even better than a room under the ground. 'No. Old
grandmother trees open up hearts, make good place inside." She
kissed her palm and pressed it to the wood as if she was thanking the
tree. Lhel
settled Tobin on the pallet and kindled a small blaze in the firepit.
He put the rabbit down, and it settled beside him and began cleaning
its whiskers with its paws. Lhel reached into the shadows near the
door and brought out a basket of wild strawberries and a braided loaf
of bread. 'That looks
like the bread Cook made the other day," Tobin observed. 'She good
maker," Lhel replied, setting the food down in front of him.
"Tell you I go your home." 'You stole
the bread?" 'I earn it,
wait for you." 'How come
I've never seen you there, then?" Tobin asked again. "How
come I've never heard of you, living so close?" The woman
scooped a handful of berries into her mouth and shrugged. "I
don't want folks be see me, they don't see. Now, we fix this hekka,
yes?" Before
Tobin could object, Lhel drew her knife and cut the shiny black cord
from the doll's neck. Once severed, the cord unwound into a thin hank
of black hair. 'Mama's."
Lhel tickled Tobin's cheek with it, then cast it into the fire. Using
her knife again, she picked open a seam on the doll's back and shook
some brown, crumbling flakes into the fire, then replaced them with
sprigs of herbs from a basket. Among them Tobin recognized the spiky
tips of rosemary and rue. Producing a
silver needle and some thread from the pouch at her belt, she held
out her hand to Tobin. "Need bitty of you red, keesa, hold the
charm. Make this you hekka." 'It's
already mine," Tobin protested, shrinking back. Lhel shook
her head. "No." Not knowing
what else to do, Tobin allowed her to prick his finger and squeeze a
drop of his blood into the body of the doll. Then she stitched it all
up again, set it upright on her knee, and wrinkled her nose into a
comic grimace. "Need face, but you maker for that. I done last
thing now. Little thing." Humming to
herself, Lhel cut a lock of Tobin's hair, rubbed the strands with wax
like a bowstring, and twisted them into a new neck cord for the doll.
Tobin watched her fingers as she secured it with a fancy knot that
seemed to knit the ends of the strand together. "Are you a
wizard?" Lhel
snorted and handed him the finished doll. "What you think this
be?" 'Just—just
a doll?" Tobin replied, already suspecting it wasn't. "Is
it magic now?" 'Always be
magic," Lhel told him. "My folk call this hekkamari.
Got spirit in it. You know the one." 'The
demon?" Tobin stared down at it. Lhel gave
him a sad smile. "Demon, keesa? No. Spirit. Ghost. This be your
brother." 'I don't
have a brother!" 'You do,
keesa. Born with you but die. I teaching your mama be make this for
his poor man. He be wait, too. Long time.
You say—" She paused, pressing her palms together beneath
her chin as she thought. "You say, 'Blood, my blood. Flesh, my
flesh. Bone, my bone.'" 'What will
that do?" 'Bind him
to you. You see then. He need you. You need him." 'I don't
want to see it!" Tobin cried, thinking of all the monsters he'd
conjured up trying to put a form to the presence that had
overshadowed his life. Lhel
reached out and cupped his cheek in her rough palm. "You being
scared long enough. Be brave now like warrior. You got things coming
of you, you don't know. You always being brave, all the time." Always
being brave, like a warrior, thought Tobin. Feeling anything but
brave, he closed his eyes and whispered, "Blood, my blood.
Flesh, my flesh…" 'Bone, my
bone," Lhel prompted softly. 'Bone, my
bone." He felt the
demon enter the oak and come so close to him he could reach out and
touch it if he dared. Lhel's cool hand covered his. 'Keesa,
see." Tobin
opened his eyes and gasped. A boy who looked just like him crouched a
few feet away. But this boy was dirty and naked, and his dull black
hair was tangled around his face in filthy clumps. ,' saw
him that day when Mama… Tobin shoved the thought away. He
didn't think of That Day. Not ever. The other
boy glared at Tobin with eyes so black the pupils didn't show. 'He looks
like me," Tobin whispered. 'He you.
You he. Look-likes." 'Twins, you
mean?" Tobin had seen twins in Alestun. 'Twins,
yes." The demon
bared its teeth at Lhel in a soundless hiss, then scuttled to squat
on the far side of the fire. The rabbit hopped back into Tobin's lap
beside the doll and went on washing. 'He doesn't
like you," Tobin told Lhel. 'Hates,"
Lhel agreed. "You mama have him. Now you have him. Keep
hekkamari safe or he be lost. He need you, help you some." Unnerved by
the demon's unblinking glare, Tobin huddled closer to Lhel. "Why
did he die?" Lhel
shrugged. "Keesa die sometime." The ghost
crouched lower, ready to spring at her. She ignored it. 'But—but
how come he didn't go to Bilairy?" Tobin demanded. "Nari
says we go to Bilairy at the gates when we die and he takes us to
Astellus, who guides us to the dead lands." Lhel
shrugged again. Tobin
squirmed in frustration. "Well, what's its name?" 'Can't name
on dead." 'I have to
call it something!" 'Call him
Brother. That he is." 'Brother?"
The ghost just stared at him and Tobin shivered again. This was worse
than when it was something he couldn't see at all. "I don't want
him looking at me all the time. And he hurts me, too. He broke my
city!" 'He don't
be do that no more, now you keep hekkamari. You tell him 'go way!' he
go way. You call him back, too, with words I teaching you. You say,
so I know you know them." 'Blood, my
blood. Flesh, my flesh. Bone, my bone." The spirit
boy flinched, then crept closer to Tobin, who scrambled back,
dropping the rabbit. Lhel hugged
him and laughed. "He don't be hurt you. Tell him go way." 'Go away,
Brother!" The spirit
vanished. 'Can I make
him go away forever?" Lhel
gripped his hand, suddenly serious. "No! You need him, I tell
you." She shook her head sadly. "Think how lonesome he be?
He miss mama, like you miss. She make this hekka, care for him. She
die. No care. You care now." Tobin
didn't like the sound of that. "What do I do? Do I have to feed
him? Can I give him some clothes?" 'Spirits
eat with they eye. Needs be with folk. Way you see him, that's how
your mama keep him. All she could, so sick in the heart. You call him
sometime, let him look around with you so he don't be so lonesome and
hungry. You do that, keesa?" Tobin
couldn't imagine calling a ghost on purpose, but he
understood all too well what Lhel said about Brother being lonesome
and lost. He sighed,
then whispered the words again. "Blood, my blood. Flesh, my
flesh. Bone, my bone." Brother
reappeared beside him, still glowering. 'Good!"
Lhel said. "You and spirit—" She linked her
forefingers together. Tobin
studied the sullen face, so like his own, and yet not. "Will he
be my friend?" 'No, just
do as he do. Be a lot worse before you mama make hekkamari." She
made the joining sign with her fingers again. "You kin." 'Will Nari
and Father be able to see him when I call him?" 'No, 'less
they got eye. Or he want." 'But you
can see him." Lhel tapped
her forehead. "I got eye. You, too, yes? You see him a little?"
Tobin nodded. "They know him, without seeing. Father. Nari. Old
man at door. They know." Tobin felt
like someone had squeezed all the air out of him. "They know
who the demon is? That I have a brother? Why didn't they tell me?" 'They don't
be ready. Til then, you keep your secret tight." She tapped him
over the heart. "They don't know hekkamari. Just your mama and
me. You keep it tight, just you. Don't show it no oner
'But how?" This brought Tobin right back to his original
dilemma. "I keep putting it places to hide it, but—" Lhel stood
up and went to the door. "Yours, keesa. You carry it. Go home
now." Brother
moved along with them as they started back, sometimes ahead,
sometimes behind. It appeared to walk, but it didn't look quite
right, though Tobin couldn't say exactly why. In a
surprisingly short time, he caught sight of the watchtower roof above
the treetops. 'You're not
very far from us at all!" he exclaimed. "Can I come see you
again?" 'Some
while, keesa." Lhel stopped beneath a drooping birch. "Your
father, he don't like you know me. You have a new teaching, soon."
Reaching out, she cupped his cheek again and drew a design on his
forehead with her thumb. "You be great warrior, keesa. I see.
You remember then I help you, yes?" 'I will,"
he promised. "And I'll take care of Brother." Lhel patted
his cheek, not quite smiling, and her lips didn't seem to move when
she said, "You will do all that must be done." She turned
and strode away, disappearing so quickly Tobin wasn't even certain
which direction she'd gone. Brother was still with him, though,
watching him with that same frightening stare. Without Lhel there,
all the old fears flooded back. 'You go
away!" Tobin ordered hastily. "Blood my
blood, flesh my flesh, bone my boner To his relief, the spirit
obeyed, winking out of sight like a snuffed candle. All the same,
Tobin was sure he could feel it dogging his steps as he hurried home. Using the
watchtower as a guide, he found the river-bank again and hurried
along it to the back wall of the keep. The usual evening sounds came
from the kitchen and yard as he slipped in through the gate but there
was no one in the hall. He dashed through and made it all the way to
his room without meeting anyone. The whole
house smelled nicely of baking. Hiding the doll in the chest again,
he shoved his ruined shoes under the wardrobe, washed his hands and
face, and went downstairs for supper. Home safe
at last, he quickly forgot how frightened he'd been. He'd been gone
for hours, had an adventure, and no one had even noticed. Even if he
had been frightened, even if Brother wasn't going to be his friend,
or even much less scary, he somehow felt older, and closer to being
the warrior who would wear his father's armor someday. Nari and
Mynir were laying out spoons on the kitchen table while Cook tended
something savory in a pot over the fire. 'There you
are!" Nari exclaimed as he came in. "I was just coming up
to fetch you. You've been so quiet this afternoon I hardly knew you
were here!" Tobin took
a warm bun from the pile cooling on the sideboard and bit into it,
smiling to himself. Lhel would
like these. sat beside
his toy city the next day, holding the JL doll on his lap. Nari had
gone to town with Mynir, and Cook could be counted on not to come
upstairs looking for him. The pungent
aroma of fresh herbs rose in Tobin's nostrils as he stared down into
its blank face, wondering again what his mama had seen when she
looked at it. Had she seen Brother? He hooked a finger under the hair
cord around the doll's neck and tugged idly at it, thinking, My
hair. My blood. And his
responsibility, Lhel said, but one he wanted no part of. It had been
bad enough, calling Brother when she was with him. To do it now?
Here? His heart beat faster just thinking about it. Instead, he
fetched ink and a quill from the chest and carried the doll to the
window where the light was better. Dipping the quill, he tried to
draw a round eye on the blank cloth face. The ink bled through the
muslin and he ended up with a spidery black blotch instead. Sighing,
he flicked a few drops of ink from the quill tip and tried again with
a drier point. This worked better and he drew around the blotch,
smoothing the edges in to make a large dark iris, and framing it with
two curved horizontal lines for lids. He drew the other eye to match,
and found himself looking into large black eyes not unlike Brother's.
He made an attempt at the nose and dark brows. When he reached the
mouth, however, he drew it smiling. That didn't look right at all;
the eyes still looked angry, but there was no changing it now. It
wasn't a very good face, but it was
still an improvement over the blank one he'd known all his life. It made the
doll seem more like his now, too, but it didn't make it any less
daunting to summon Brother. To-bin carried it to the corner furthest
from the door and sat down with his back pressed to the wall. What if
Brother attacked him? What if it broke the city again, or flew off to
hurt someone? In the end
it was what Lhel had said about Brother being hungry that forced
Tobin to utter the summons. Pressing back into the corner as far as
he could, he squinted his eyes half shut and whispered, "Blood
my blood. Flesh my flesh. Bone my bone." At the oak
yesterday the spirit had crouched like a wild beast at his very feet.
This time, however, Tobin had to look around to find it. Brother
stood by the door as if he'd just walked in like a living person. He
was still thin and dirty, but he had on a plain, clean tunic like the
one Tobin wore. He didn't look so angry today, either. He just stood
there, staring at Tobin with no expression at all, as if he was
waiting for something. Tobin stood
up slowly, never taking his eyes off the ghost. "Would—would
you like to come over here?" Brother
didn't walk across the room. He was just suddenly there beside him,
staring at him with those unblinking black eyes. Lhel had said to
feed him by letting him look at things. Tobin held out the doll.
"See? I drew a face." Brother
showed no sign of interest or understanding. Tobin warily studied the
strange face. Brother had all his features except for the
crescent-shaped scar on his chin, yet he didn't really look like
Tobin at all. 'Are you
hungry?" he asked. Brother
said nothing. 'Come on,
then. I'll show you things. Then you can go." Tobin felt
a little silly as he walked around the room showing his favorite
possessions to a silent ghost. He held up his little sculptures and
carvings, and the treasures his father had sent. Would Brother be
jealous? Tobin wondered. He picked up a Plenimaran shield boss and
held it out to him. "Would you like to have this?" Brother
accepted it with a hand that looked solid, but where their fingers
appeared to touch Tobin felt only a wisp of cold air. Tobin
squatted down beside the city and Brother did the same, still holding
the boss. "I'm fixing all the things you broke that day,"
he told him, letting a little resentment creep into his voice. He
picked up a boat and showed Brother where the mast had been mended.
"Nari thinks I broke it." Brother
still said nothing. 'It's all
right, I guess. You were afraid I'd show Nari the doll, weren't you?" You
must keep it. Tobin was
so startled he dropped the ship. Brother's voice was faint and
expressionless, and his lips didn't move, but there was no question
that he'd spoken. 'You can
talk!" Brother
stared at him. You must keep it. "I
will, I promise. But you talked! What else can you say?" Brother
stared. Tobin was
stumped for a moment, wondering what you could say to a ghost.
Suddenly, he knew exactly what he wanted to ask. "Do you see
Mama in the tower?" Brother
nodded. 'Do you
visit her?" Another
nod. 'Does—does
she want to hurt me?" Sometimes. A knot of
sorrow and fear lodged in Tobin's chest. Hugging himself, he searched
the ghost's face. Did he see a hint of satisfaction there? "But
why?" Brother
either could not or would not tell him. 'Go away
then! I don't want you here!" Tobin cried. Brother
disappeared and the brass boss clattered to the floor. Tobin stared
at it a moment, then threw it across the room. everal days
passed before Tobin could summon the courage to call Brother again.
When he finally did so, however, he found he wasn't as afraid of him. He was
curious to know whether Nari could see Brother, so he ordered him to
follow him into the bedchamber where Nari was changing the linens.
The woman looked right at Brother without seeing him. No one else
saw him that night, either, when Tobin brought him to the kitchen
briefly, thinking that looking at food might help Brother not to look
so very hungry. Alone in
his bedroom that night, Tobin summoned him again to see if there was
any change. There wasn't, though. Brother looked as famished as ever. 'Didn't you
eat the food with your eyes?" Tobin asked him as Brother stood
motionless at the end of his bed. Brother
tilted his head slightly, as if he were considering the question. ,'
eat everything with my eyes. Tobin
shivered as Brother looked at him. "Do you hate me, Brother?" A long
pause. No. 'Then why
are you so mean?" Brother had
no answer for this. Tobin couldn't tell if he even understood what
he'd said. 'Do you
like it when I call you?" Again, no
comprehension. 'Will you
be nice to me if I let you come out every day? Will you do as I say?" Brother
blinked slowly at him, like an owl in the sun. That would
have to do for now. "You mustn't break things or hurt people
anymore. That's very bad. Father wouldn't let you act so if you were
alive." Father… The cold,
hissing whisper raised the hairs on Tobin's arms. Ordering Brother
away, Tobin pulled the covers around his head like a hood and stared
at the flickering night lamp until Nari came to bed. After that, he
only summoned Brother in the daytime. Iya and
Arkoniel spent the summer in the southernmost provinces, and here Iya
searched out an ancient wizard named Ranai, who lived in a little
fishing village north of Erind. As a girl Ranai had fought beside
lya's master in the Great War and been badly wounded there. Iya had
prepared Arkoniel to meet her, but he still cringed inwardly at his
first sight of her face when she answered their knock on her cottage
door. She was a
frail, stooped woman. A necromancer's demon had crippled her left leg
and raked the left side of her head with claws of fire; the skin
clung to her skull in pale waxlike ridges that did not move when she
smiled or spoke. Perhaps
this was why she'd chosen to immure herself in this tiny hamlet,
thought Arkoniel. The power in the woman made the hairs on the young
wizard's arms prickle. 'Greetings,
Mistress Ranai," Iya said, bowing to the old woman. "Do you
remember me?" Ranai
squinted at her for a moment, then smiled. "Why, you're
Agazhar's girl, aren't you? But not a girl any longer. Come in, my
dear. And I see you have a student of your own now. Come in and
welcome, young man, and share my hearth." Rain
pattered cozily down on the thatched roof as the old woman limped
from table to hearth and back, serving them bread and soup. Iya
contributed cheese and a skin of good wine they'd bought in the
village. The night breeze carried the smell of wild roses and the sea
through the cottage's single window. They spoke
of small matters as they ate, but after the dishes had been cleared
away Ranai fixed Iya with her good eye and said, "You've come
here for a reason, I think." Arkoniel
settled back with his wine, knowing by heart the conversation that
would follow. 'Do you
ever wonder, Ranai, what we wizards might accomplish if we put our
heads together?" Iya asked. This
is the two hundred and thirteenth time, Arkoniel thought. He'd
kept count. 'Your
master and I saw what wizards are capable of, for good and for evil,"
Ranai replied. "Is that why you came all the way down here, Iya?
To ask me that?" Iya smiled.
"I wouldn't say this straight out to many, but I will to you.
Where do you stand regarding the king?" The sound
portion of Ranai's face took on a familiar look of wonder and hope.
She waved a hand and the window shut itself tight. "You've been
dreaming of her!" 'Who?"
Iya asked quietly, but Arkoniel sensed her excitement. They'd found
another. 'The Sad
Queen, I call her," Ranai whispered. "The dreams started
about twenty years ago, but Illior sends them more often now,
especially on the nights between the moon's two crescents. Sometimes
she's young, sometimes old. Sometimes a victor, others a corpse. I
never see her face clearly, but there's always a sense of deep sorrow
about her. Is she real?" Iya did not
answer her question directly. She never did, any more than she would
ever show the bowl she carried in the worn leather sack. "I was
granted a vision at Afra. Arkoniel will bear witness to that. In it I
saw the destruction of Ero, and then a new city and a new age of
wizards. But a queen must rule that new city. You know Erius will
never let that happen. He follows Sakor of the Four, but it is Illior
who protected Skala in the Great War and since. It's Illior's hand
over wizards, as well. Have we served the Lightbearer well, standing
idly by all these years while the great prophecy given to Thelatimos
is trampled and ignored?" Ranai drew
designs in a dribble of wine on the table-top. "I've wondered
that myself. But compared to his mother, Erius hasn't been a bad
ruler, and he won't live forever. I might even outlive him. And that
business with the female heirs? It's not without precedent.
Gherilain's own son Pelis seized the throne from his sister—" 'And the
land was struck with a plague that killed him and thousands of others
within the year," Arkoniel reminded her. Ranai
raised an eyebrow and he saw a flash of the great woman she had been.
"Don't lecture me on history, young man. I was there. The gods
struck down Pelis swiftly. But King Erius has ruled for over two
decades now. Perhaps he's right about the Oracle being
misinterpreted. You know as well as I that his mother, descendent of
Thelatimos though she was, was no fit ruler." 'Perhaps
she was sent to test us," Arkoniel replied, trying to maintain a
respectful tone with the elder wizard. He'd had ten years and
thousands of miles to ponder the point. "King Pelis suffered one
terrible plague. Since Erius took the throne, there have been dozens,
if on a smaller scale. Perhaps these have been warnings. Perhaps the
Lightbringer's patience is running out. What lya saw at Afra—" 'Have you
heard of the Harriers, young man?" Ranai snapped. "Do you
know that the king's wizard serves by hunting down his own kind?" 'Yes,
Ranai," said lya, intervening. "We've seen their work." 'Have you
seen them kill anyone you knew? No? Well, I have. I had to stand by
helplessly while a dear friend of mine, a wizard who served four
queens, was burned pn a yew frame for merely speaking aloud of a
dream very similar to my mine; and yours, too, I've no doubt. Burned
alive for speaking of a dream't't Imagine,
if you can, what the power of the Harriers must be, to be able to
kill so cruelly. And it's not just us they persecute, either, but
anyone who dares speak against the male succession. Illio-rans in
particular. By the Four, if he'd kill his own sister—" The cup
fell from Arkoniel's hand, splattering wine across the table. "Ariani
is dead?" Nari's
letters had continued to arrive at the appointed places at regular
intervals. How could she not have sent word? 'Last year,
I think," Ranai was saying. "Did you know her?" 'We did,"
lya replied, sounding calmer than Arkoniel would have believed
possible. 'Then I'm
sorry that you had to hear of it this way," Ranai said. 'The king
killed her?" Arkoniel rasped out, hardly able to get his breath. Ranai
shrugged. "I'm not certain of that, but by all reports he was
there when she died. So you see, that's the last of them, and Prince
Korin will inherit the throne. Perhaps he will sire our Sad Queen." 'Perhaps,"
lya murmured, and Arkoniel knew she would speak no more of her vision
to this woman. An uneasy
silence fell over the room. Arkoniel fought back tears and avoided
lya's watchful eye. 'I served
Illior and Skala well," Ranai said at last, sounding defeated
and old. She touched a hand to her ruined face. "All I ever
asked was a bit of peace." lya nodded. "Forgive us for
disturbing you. If the Harriers come here, what will you tell them?" The elder
wizard had the good grace to look ashamed. "I have nothing to
say to them. You have my word on it." 'Thank
you." lya reached to cover Ranai's damaged hand with her own.
"Life is long, my friend, and shaped of smoke and water, not
stone. Pray we meet again in better days." . terrible
suspicion took root in Arkoniel's heart as they left the wizard's
cottage and set off along the muddy track leading away from the
village. He couldn't speak of it yet; he didn't know if he could bear
the answer. They made
camp beneath a huge fir beside the sea. lya sang a spell to keep out
the damp, and Arkoniel coaxed his newly perfected spell, a sphere of
black fire, into being and fixed it in the air at their feet. 'Ah, that's
nice." lya pulled off her sodden boots and warmed her feet.
"Well done." They sat
for a while listening to the rain and the rhythmic wash of the waves
on the ledges. He tried to speak of Ariani, needing to hear from
lya's lips that his dark suspicion was wrong, but he couldn't seem to
shape the words. Sorrow stuck in his throat like a stone. 'I knew,"
lya said at last, reducing his heart to ashes. 'For how
long?" 'Since it
happened. Nari sent word." 'And you
didn't tell me?" Unable to look at lya, he stared up through the
branches overhead. All these years he'd been haunted by memories of
that terrible night, of the strange child they'd created and the
lovely woman they'd betrayed. They had not been back to Ero since—
lya still forbade it—yet he'd always imagined that one day they
would go back to make things right again somehow. Arkoniel
felt her hand on his shoulder. "How could you not tell me?" 'Because
there was nothing to be done. Not until the child is of age. Erius
didn't kill his sister, at least not directly. Ariani threw herself
from a tower window. Apparently she tried to kill the child as well.
There is nothing we can do there." 'That's
what you always say!" He wiped angrily at the tears welling in
his eyes. "I don't question that what we're doing is Illior's
will. I never have. But are you so certain this is how
we're meant to do it? It's been nearly ten years, lya, and not once
have we been back to see if she's well or fit, or to help with the
mess Lhel left. The child's own mother kills herself and still you
say we have more-important work?" Too upset
to sit still, he scrambled from the shelter and strode down to the
water's edge. The tide was high, the water smooth beneath the
shifting pattern of rain. In the distance, the glow of a ship's
lantern cast a thread of light across that glassy surface. Arkoniel
imagined himself swimming out to the ship and begging a berth among
the sailors. He'd heave cargo and pull sheets until his hands bled
and never think of magic or spirits or women falling from towers
again. O
Illior! he prayed silently, turning his face up to the moon's
pull beyond the clouds as he strode along the water's edge. How
can this be your will if my heart is breaking? How can I love and
follow a teacher who can look unblinking upon such acts and keep such
silence between us? In his
heart, he knew that he still loved and trusted lya, yet some crucial
balance was lacking between means and end that only he seemed to
sense. And how could that be? He was only her student, a wizard of no
account. He stopped
and sank down on his heels, cradling his face in his hands. Something
is wrong. Something is missing, if not for lya, then for me. Since Afra. It
sometimes seemed that his life had begun anew that fateful summer
day. Resting his forehead on his knees, he summoned the brightness of
the sun, the taste of dust, the hot smoothness of the sun-warmed
stele beneath his hand. He thought of the cool darkness of the
Oracle's cavern, where he'd knelt to receive the strange answer that
had been no answer at all; a vision of himself holding a dark-haired
boy in his arms… A
strange stillness stole over him as he
remembered. The
child. Which child? Now it was
the chill of the murdered child's angry spirit that gripped him,
stiffening his hands and making his bones ache. For an instant it
seemed he was standing under that chestnut tree again, watching the
tiny body sink down into the earth. The witch's
magic had not been enough to hold the angry spirit down. The vision
grew brighter in his mind's eye, taking on new shape and form. A
child rose from the earth at his feet, fighting the grip of the roots
and hard earth. Arkoniel grasped his hands and pulled, looking down
into dark blue eyes, not black. But the roots still held the child,
pulling at his arms and legs. One had pierced his back and came out
of the wound in his chest where Lhel had sewn a strip of skin with
stitches finer than eyelashes. The tree was drinking the child's
blood. Arkoniel could see him withering before his eyes… The
unnatural chill still gripped him, making Arkoniel shake and stagger
like an old man as he slowly made his way back to the fir. CU, 'izards see
well enough in the dark, but what lya sensed as Arkoniel came
lurching back made her strike a light. His face
was ashen beneath his thin beard, his eyes red-rimmed and staring. 'At Afra!"
he gasped, falling to his knees beside her. "My vision. The one
I didn't— Tobin's my path. That's why— Oh, lya, I must
go! We have to go!" 'Arkoniel,
you're babbling! What is it?" lya cradled his face in both hands
and pressed her brow to his. He was shaking like a man with spring
plague, but there was no hint of fever. His skin was icy. She reached
out cautiously to his mind and was immediately presented with a
vision: Arkoniel stood on a high cliff looking west over a dark blue
sea. Just ahead of him, much too close to the edge, stood Ariani's
twins, grown tall and slender now. Strands of golden light connected
the young wizard to the children. 'You see?"
Pulling back, Arkoniel clasped her hands and told her of the darker
vision he'd had at the shore. "I must go to the child. I must
see Tobin." 'Very well.
Forgive me for not telling you. My vision—" She held out
her empty hands, palm up. "It's so clear and yet so dark before
me. So long as the child lives, I have other things I must do. I
forgot, I suppose, how much time has passed since Ariani died, how
much faster it passes for you than for me. But you must believe me
when I tell you that I have not forgotten the child. It was for
Tobin's sake that we've kept our distance all these years, and now it
seems to me even more crucial to be careful not to draw Erius'
attention to that house, now that he distrusts all wizards but his
own." She paused
as a new thought struck her. Twice she'd had a glimpse of the
Lightbearer's hand on Arkoniel and, while he appeared in her visions,
she did not appear in his. The realization brought sadness and a
twinge of fear. "Well, it seems you must go," she told him.
He kissed both her hands. "Thank you, lya. I won't be away long,
I promise. I only want to make certain the child is safe and try to
discover what it is that Illior is trying to say to me. If I can find
a ship tomorrow, I'll be back in a week. Where should I meet with
you?" 'There's no
need for such haste. I'll go on to Ylani as we planned. Send word to
me there when you've seen the child…" There it was, that
sadness again. "Then we shall see." -'t't6 Arkoniel
looked back over his shoulder as he set off the next day. lya stood
by the fir, looking very small and ordinary. She waved and he waved
back, then turned his face for the village, trying to ignore the
sudden lump in his throat. It felt strange, walking alone after all
these years. The
wizardly accouterments he carried were stowed safely out of sight in
the bedroll slung over his shoulder. Hopefully anyone looking at him
would see nothing more than a traveler in muddy boots and a dusty,
broken-brimmed hat. All the same, he planned to heed lya's warning to
avoid priests and other wizards, and to keep the usual cautious eye
out for men wearing the hawk badge of the Harriers. He found a
fisherman willing to take him up the coast as far as Ylani, where he
boarded a larger vessel bound north for Volchi. Leaving the ship
there two days later, he bought a sturdy sorrel gelding and set off
for Alestun and whatever tasks the Lightbearer had set for him there. He knew
from Rhius and Nari's letters that the duke had moved his family from
Ero to the keep the spring following Tobin's birth; by then tales of
the "demon" had already spread around the city. The spirit,
it was said, threw things at visitors, hit them, and spirited away
jewels and hats. And beautiful Ariani with her stained dress and
strange doll, wandering the corridors in search of her child—that
was still remembered, too. The king
had apparently been content to let Rhius go. The same
had not been so for the "demon," which had somehow followed
them to the keep. A chill ran
up Arkoniel's spine as he tried to imagine it. Unquiet spirits were
fearsome, shameful things, and any dealings with them were normally
left to the priests and drysians. He and lya had learned what they
could from such folk, knowing that sooner or later they would have to
face the ghost they'd helped create. He'd never expected to have to
face it alone. rkoniel
reached Alestun on the third day of Shemin. It was a pleasant,
prosperous little market town nestled in the foothills of the Skalan
Range. A few miles further west, a line of jagged peaks loomed
against the cloudless afternoon sky. It was cooler here than it had
been on the coast, and the fields showed no sign of drought. He stopped
in the square to ask directions of a woman selling fresh cheeses from
a cart. 'Duke
Rhius? You'll find him up at the old keep on the pass," she told
him. "He's been back the better part of a month now, though I
hear he's not to stay long. He'll be at the shrine tomorrow to hear
petitions, if that's what you need." 'No, I'm
looking for his home." 'Just keep
on the main road through the woods. If you're peddling, though, I'll
save you the trip. They'll set the watch on you, less they know you.
They do no business with strangers up there." 'I'm not a
stranger," Arkoniel told her. He bought some of her cheese and
walked away smiling, pleased to have been taken for a vagrant. Riding on,
he passed golden barley fields and meadows filled with shorn sheep
and fat pigs, and on into the dark forest beyond. The road she'd sent
him on showed less travel than the one leading into town. Sere grass
stood thick between the wheel ruts, and he picked out more tracks of
deer and pigs in the mud than of horses. The shadows were lengthening
quickly now and he pushed his sweating mount into a gallop, wishing
he'd thought to ask how far it was to the keep. He came out
into the open again at last beside a river at the bottom of a steep
meadow. At the top of the rise stood a tall grey keep backed by a
single square watchtower. Threw herself from a
tower window— Arkoniel shuddered. As he turned his horse
to continue up the road, he saw a little peasant boy hunkered down in
the weeds by the road, not twenty feet from where he sat. The boy's
ragged tunic left his skinny arms and legs bare. His skin was
streaked with mud and his dark hair was matted with burrs and leaves. Arkoniel
was about to call out to him when he remembered that there was only
one child in this house—a child with black hair. Shocked at the
prince's condition, he urged his horse forward at a walk to greet
him. Tobin had
his back to the road, staring intently at something in the long grass
above the riverbank. He didn't look up as Arkoniel approached. The
wizard started to dismount, then remained in the saddle. Something in
Tobin's stillness warned him to keep his distance. "Do you know
who I am?" he asked at last. "You're Arkoniel," the
boy replied, still looking down at whatever had engaged his
attention. 'Your
father won't like you being so far from the house all by yourself.
Where's your nurse?" The child
ignored the question. "Will it bite, do you think?" 'Will what
bite?" Tobin
thrust a hand into the grass and plucked out a shrew, holding it up
by one hind leg. He watched it struggle for a moment, then snapped
its neck, neat as a poacher. A drop of blood welled at the tip of the
creature's tiny snout. 'My mama is
dead." He turned to Arkoniel at last, and the wizard found
himself staring down into eyes as black and deep as night. Arkoniel's
voice died in his throat as he realized what he'd been conversing
with. 'I know the
taste of your tears," the demon said. Before he
could make any warding sign against it, it leaped up and flung the
dead shrew in his horse's face. The gelding reared, throwing Arkoniel
into the tall grass. He came down awkwardly on his left hand and felt
a sickening snap just above his wrist. Pain and the fall knocked the
wind out of him, and he lay in a tight ball, fighting back nausea and
fear. The
demon. He'd never heard of one appearing so clearly or speaking.
Arkoniel managed to lift his head, expecting to find it squatting
beside him, watching him with its dead black eyes. Instead, he saw
his gelding tossing its head and kicking in the meadow across the
river. He sat up
slowly, cradling his injured arm. His left hand hung at a bad angle
and felt cold to the touch. Another wave of nausea burned his throat
and he eased himself back down in the grass. The sun beat down on his
upturned cheek, and insects investigated his ears. He watched the
green rye and timothy dancing against the sky and tried to imagine
himself walking the rest of the way up the steep road to the keep. Failing
that, he returned to the demon. Only now did its words really
register. My
mama is dead. I
know the taste of your tears. This was
not the racketing poltergeist he'd expected. It had matured like a
living child and come to some sort of awareness. He'd never heard of
such a thing. 'Lhel, you
damned necromancer, what did you do?" he groaned. What
did we do? He must
have drifted off for a time, because when he opened his eyes again he
found a man's head and shoulders bJocking the sun. 'I'm not a
peddler," he mumbled. "Arkoniel?" Strong hands reached
under his shoulders and helped him to his feet. "What are you
doing here all by yourself?" He knew
that voice, and the weathered, bearded face that went with it,
although it had been more than a decade since he'd last laid eyes on
the man. "Tharin? By the Four, I'm glad to see you." Arkoniel
swayed and the captain got an arm around his waist, holding him
upright. Blinking,
he tried to focus on the too-close face. Tharin's fair hair and beard
had faded •with age, and the lines around his eyes and mouth
were deeper, but the man's quiet, easy manner was just the same and
Arkoniel was grateful for it. "Is Rhius here? I must—" 'Yes, he's
here, though you're lucky to catch us. We're leaving for Ero
tomorrow. Why didn't you send word?" Arkoniel's legs buckled and
he staggered. Tharin hoisted him upright again. "Never mind,
then. Let's get you up to the house." Helping him
over to a tall grey, Tharin got him up into the saddle. "What
happened? I saw you sitting down here looking at the river, then your
horse just threw you off. Looked like it went crazy. Sefus is having
a hell of a time over there trying to catch him for you." Out in the
meadow, Arkoniel could see a man trying to calm his runaway gelding,
but it shied and kicked every time he reached for the bridle. He
shook his head, not yet ready to speak of what he'd seen. Clearly
Tharin hadn't seen the demon. "Skittish beast."
'Apparently. So, how shall we get you up to the house? Slow and
painful or fast and painful?" Arkoniel managed a wretched grin.
"Fast." Tharin mounted behind him and reached around
Arkoniel for the reins, then kicked the horse into a canter. Every
pounding hoofbeat sent a hot stab up Arkoniel's arm. He fixed his
eyes on their destination and held on as best he could with his good
hand. At the top
of the hill they rode across a wide wooden bridge and on through a
gate into a paved yard. Mynir and Nari were there, with a large-boned
woman in the stained apron of a cook. Nari had
aged, too. She was still plump and ruddy, but there were streaks of
grey in her thick brown hair. They helped
him down and Tharin supported him through a dim, echoing hall to the
kitchen. 'Whatever
are you doing here?" Nari asked as Tharin eased him down onto a
bench beside a scrubbed oak table. 'The
child," he croaked, resting his spinning head on his good hand.
"Come to see the child. Is he well?" Tharin gently took his
swelling wrist in both hands. Arkoniel gasped as the man felt for
damage. Nari raised
an eyebrow at him. "Of course he's well. What makes you think he
isn't?" 'I just—"
He caught his breath again as Tharin probed deeper. 'That's
lucky," he told Arkoniel. "It's just the outer bone, and a
clean break. Once it's set and bound it shouldn't trouble you too
badly." Mynir
fetched a slat and some strips of cloth. 'Best have
this first," the cook said, giving him a clay cup. Arkoniel
downed the contents gratefully and felt a numbing heat spread quickly
through his belly and limbs. "What is this?" 'Vinegar,
brandywine, with a little poppy and henbane," she told him,
patting his shoulder. It still
hurt like hell when Tharin set the bone, but Arkoniel was able to
bear it without complaint. Tharin
bound the slat in place with the cloth and a leather thong. When he
was done he sat back and grinned at Arkoniel. 'You're
tougher than you look, boy." Arkoniel groaned and took another
gulp from the cup. He was beginning to feel quite sleepy. "Did
lya send you?" Nan asked. "No. I thought I should come pay
my—" "So one of you could finally spare us a visit,
could you?" a harsh voice snapped. Jarred back
to alertness, Arkoniel found Rhius scowling at him from the kitchen
doorway. Tharin rose
and stepped toward the duke as if he expected violence. "Rhius,
he's hurt." The duke
ignored him as he crossed the kitchen to glare down at Arkoniel. "So
you've finally come back to us, have you? Where's your mistress?" 'She's
still in the south, my lord. I came to pay our respects. We were both
so sorry to hear of your lady's death." 'So sorry
that it took a year for you to come?" Rhius sat down across from
him and glanced at the wizard's bound wrist. "But I see you
won't be leaving us anytime soon. I leave for Ero tomorrow, but you
may stay until you're fit to ride." It was a
far cry from the welcome they used to enjoy under Rhius' roof, but
Arkoniel suspected that he was lucky the duke didn't toss him into
the river. "How is the king?" he asked. Curdled
anger curled Rhius' lip. "Very well, thank you. The Plenimaran
raids have ceased for the harvest season. The crops are ripening. The
sun continues to shine. It seems the Four smile on his reign."
Rhius spoke quietly, his voice devoid of inflection, but Arkoniel
read betrayal in those hard, tired eyes. lya would have talked of
patience and visions, but Arkoniel didn't know where to begin. Just then
an eerily familiar face peered in around the corridor doorway. "Who's
that, Father?" All the
harshness left Rhius' face as he held out his hand to the boy, who
came and pressed close to his father's side, looking at Arkoniel with
shy blue eyes. Tobin. There was
nothing of the hidden girl child in this plain, skinny lad. Lhel had
done her work too well. But Tobin's eyes were the same striking blue
as his mother's and, unlike his demon twin, Tobin looked well cared
for except for the fading pink scar that marred his pointed chin.
Arkoniel stole a quick glance at the triangle of smooth pale skin
that showed at the unlaced neck of the child's tunic, wondering what
Lhel's stitching looked like after all these years. The child's
long black hair was shiny and, though no one would have taken him for
the son of a princess in such garb, his simple tunic was clean and
well made. Looking around at the others in the room, Arkoniel
recognized a love for this solemn child that made his heart ache with
a strange burst of compassion for the demon, an abandoned child shut
out from the warmth of hearth and family while its double grew up in
comfort and warmth. It was aware. It must know. Tobin
didn't smile or come forward to greet him; he just stared at
Arkoniel. Something in his stillness made him seem as strange as his
ghostly twin. 'This is
Arkoniel," Rhius explained. "He's a—friend I haven't
seen in a very long time. Come now, introduce yourself properly." The boy
made Arkoniel a stiff formal bow, left hand on his belt where a sword
would someday hang. There was the wine-colored faver mark on the
outside of his forearm, like the print of a rosebud cut in half.
Arkoniel had forgotten about that, the only outward sign left of the
girl's true form. f 'I am
Prince Tobin Erius Akandor, son of Ariani and Rhius." The way he
moved reinforced Arkoniel's initial impression. There was nothing of
a normal child in his manner. He had his father's dignity, but not
the stature or years to carry it off properly. Arkoniel
returned the bow as best he could seated. The cook's draught seemed
to work more strongly the longer it was in him, making him dizzy. "I
am most honored to make your acquaintance, my prince. I am Arkoniel,
son of Sir Coran and Lady Mekia of Rhemair, fostered to the wizard
lya. Please accept my humble service to you and all your house." Tobin's
eyes widened. "You're a wizard?" "Yes, my prince."
Arkoniel held up his bandaged wrist. "Perhaps when this feels a
bit better, I can show you some of the tricks I've learned." Most
children greeted such an offer with exclamations of delight, or at
least a smile, but Tobin seemed to retreat without moving a muscle. I
was right, Arkoniel thought, looking into those dark eyes.
Something is very wrong here. He
attempted to rise and found that his legs and head would not
cooperate in the effort. 'That
draught of Cook's isn't done with you," Nari said, pressing him
back onto the bench. "My lord, he must lie down somewhere, but
none of the guest chambers are fit to sleep in." 'A pallet
here by the fire is all I need," Arkoniel mumbled, nauseated
again. Despite the brandy burning his belly and the warmth of the
day, he felt chilled all over. 'We could
set up a bed in Tobin's second room," Mynir suggested, ignoring
Arkoniel's much simpler solution. "It wouldn't be such a climb
for him." 'Very
well," Rhius replied. "Have some of the men fetch whatever
you think necessary." Arkoniel
sagged against the table, wishing they'd just let him curl up here by
the hearth so he could get warm. The women
went to fetch linens. Tobin went out with Tharin and the steward,
leaving the wizard alone with Rhius. For a
moment neither man said anything. 'The demon
frightened my horse," Arkoniel told him. "I saw it clearly
in the road at the bottom of the meadow." Rhius
shrugged. "It's here with us now. I see the gooseflesh on your
arms. You feel it, too." Arkoniel
shivered. "Yes, I feel it, but I saw it
in the meadow, as clearly as I see you now. Tobin looks just like
it." Rhius shook
his head. "No one has ever seen it, except perhaps for—" 'Tobin?" 'By the
Four, no!" Rhius made a sign against bad luck. "He's been
spared that much, at least. But I think Ariani did. She made a doll
to replace the dead child, and sometimes spoke to it as if it were
real. But I often had the feeling that it wasn't the doll she was
seeing. Illior knows, she paid little enough attention to her living
child, except at the end." Arkoniel's
throat tightened again. "My lord, words cannot express how
sorry—" Rhius
slammed a hand down on the table, then leaned forward and snarled,
"Don't you dare weep for her! You have
no right, no more than I!" Lurching to his feet, he strode from
the room, leaving the startled wizard alone in the demon-haunted
kitchen. The chill
pressed in around him and Arkoniel was certain he felt a child's cold
hands on the back of his neck. Thinking of the dead shrew, he
whispered, "By the Four—Maker, Traveler, Flame, and
Lightbearer—I command you! Lie down, Spirit, until Bilairy
guides you to the Gate." The cold
intensified around him and the bright room darkened as if a
thunderhead had covered the sun. A large clay pot flew from a shelf
and shattered against the opposite wall, narrowly
missing his shoulder. A basket of onions followed, then a wooden bowl
of dough and a platter. Arkoniel slid hastily under the table, broken
bones forgotten for the moment. Scant yards
away, an iron poker scraped across the stone hearth in his direction.
He tried to dive away toward the door, but came down on his bad wrist
and collapsed with a strangled scream, eyes screwed shut in agony. 'No!"
A boy's high clear voice. The poker
clattered to the floor. Arkoniel
heard whispering and footsteps. Opening his eyes, he found Tobin
kneeling beside him. The room was warm again. 'It doesn't
like you," Tobin said. 'No—I
don't think it does," Arkoniel panted, content for the moment to
stay where he was. "Is it gone?" Tobin
nodded. 'Did you
send it away?" Tobin gave
him a startled look, but said nothing. He was a few months shy of his
tenth birthday, but looking into that face now, Arkoniel could not
have put an age to it. Tobin looked at once too old and too young. . "It
listens to you, doesn't it?" he asked. "I heard you
speaking to it." 'Don't tell
Father, please!" 'Why?" Now Tobin
looked like any frightened little boy. "I—it would make
him sad. Please, don't tell him what you saw!" Arkoniel
hesitated, recalling the duke's violent outburst. Crawling out from
beneath the table, he sat on the floor next to Tobin and rested his
hand in his lap. "I take it all this—" He looked
around at the broken crockery. "It isn't going to surprise
anyone?" Tobin shook
his head. 'Very well,
then, my prince, I'll keep your secret. But I'd very much like to
know why the demon obeys you." Tobin said
nothing. 'Did you
tell it to throw the dishes at me?" 'No! I'd
never do that, on my honor." Arkoniel
studied that strained, earnest little face and knew Tobin spoke the
truth, and yet there was some great secret behind those eyes. Another
house of closed doors, he thought, but here at least he sensed
the chance of finding the keys. Voices came
from the direction of the hall. "Go on, then," he
whispered. Tobin
slipped out the courtyard door without a sound. Thank
you, lllior, for sending me here, Arkoniel thought, watching him
go. Whatever darkness surrounds this child, I'll
make it right, and stand by her until I see her crowned in her
rightful form. Arkoniel
staggered a bit as Nari and Tharin helped him upstairs. The sun had
fallen behind the peaks, casting the whole house into dusky gloom.
Tharin carried a clay hand lamp and by its light Arkoniel made out
the faded, flaking colors of the painted pillars in the great hall,
the tattered banners from long-forgotten battles hanging in shreds
from the carved beams overhead, and the tarnished brass lamps
festooned with cobwebs. Despite the fresh strewing herbs among the
rushes on the floor, there was an underlying odor of damp and mice. The
upstairs corridor was darker still. They brought Arkoniel into a
dusty, cluttered chamber on the right. A lamp on a stand shed enough
light to see what appeared to be a miniature city taking up one side
of the room. A few other toys lay scattered in the corners, but they
had an abandoned look. A few old
chests and a wardrobe with a cracked door stood against the bare
stone walls. An ornate oak bedstead had been set at an awkward angle
near the window. It was a handsome piece, carved with vines and
birds, but bits of cobwebs still clung to it here and there. Tharin
helped Arkoniel to the bed and pulled off his boots and tunic. The
wizard couldn't suppress another groan as he slid the sleeve over his
broken wrist. 'Go fetch
him more of Cook's brew," Nari said. "I'll get him
settled." 'I'll have
her make it strong enough to help you sleep," Tharin told him. The scents
of cedar and lavender rose from the eider down as Nari drew it over
him and propped his arm on a cushion. The blue silk cover still
showed fresh creases from being packed away. "You don't get many
guests here, I gather," Arkoniel said, sinking gratefully into
the deep, musty-smelling bed. 'The duke
entertains his guests elsewhere, mostly." She smoothed the
coverlet over his chest. "You know it's best this way. Tobin's
safe." 'But not
happy." 'That's not
for me to say. He's a good boy, our Tobin. I couldn't ask for better.
And his father dotes on him, or did… The way he was today?"
She shook her head. "It's been hard on him since the princess…
Her dying like that—by the Light, Arkoniel, I fear it's broken
him." 'How did it
happen? I've heard only rumors." Nari pulled
a chair over and sat down. "The king came here to hunt. She saw
him on the road from a window and dragged poor Tobin up to the tower.
Well, Tobin won't speak of it, but he had a cut on his chin, and I
found blood on the windowsill." 'The scar?" 'Yes,
that's when he got it." 'You think
she meant to kill him?" Nari said
nothing. Muzzy as he
was from the draught, Arkoniel stared at her, trying to fathom her
silence. "You don't think— Nari, he's scarcely ten years
old and undersized at that! How would he push a grown woman out a
window?" 'I'm not
saying he did! But there have been times when he seems to be
possessed with the demon. He tore this room to pieces one day. I
caught him at it! And the tower room when we finally found him? It
was just the same." 'That's
absurd." Nari folded
her hands and frowned down at them. "I'm sure you're right.
Believe me, I don't want to think ill of the child. But he does talk
to it now." 'To the
demon?" Arkoniel thought of the whispering he'd heard in the
kitchen and Tobin's plea to keep his secret. 'He thinks
I don't hear, but I do. Sometimes it's at night, sometimes when he's
in here playing alone. Poor thing. He's so lonely he'll talk to a
ghost just for someone to play with." 'He has you
and his father. And Tharin and the others seem very fond of him." 'Oh yes.
But it's not the same for a child, is it? You're young enough to
remember. What would you have done, shut away in an old house like
this with nothing but servants and soldiers? And the men not even
here most of the time? I'll bet you come from a house full of
children." Arkoniel
chuckled. "I had five brothers. We all slept in the same bed and
fought like badgers. When lya took me on, I still found children to
play with everywhere we traveled until it began to show that I
was different." 'Well, our
Tobin's as different as they come, and never has known what it is to
play with another child. It's not right. I've said so all along. How
is he supposed to know what folks are really like, shut away here?" How,
indeed? thought Arkoniel. "What does he do with his days?" Nari
snorted. "Works like a peasant child and trains to be a great
warrior. You should see him at it with the men, like a puppy going at
bears. He'll be lucky if he gets through the summer without another
broken finger. Tharin and his father do say he's quick, and he shoots
as well as some of the grown men." 'That's
all?" 'He rides
when someone can take him, and makes his little carvings—oh,
but he's good at that!" She reached over to the windowsill and
placed several little wax and wooden animals on the coverlet for him
to see. They were quite good. 'And he
plays in here." She pointed to the city, smil ing fondly. "The
duke made that for him years back. They spend hours with it. It's
meant to be Ero, you know. But he's not allowed outside alone to
ramble or fish as we did. As any child should! Noble boys his age are
serving as pages at court by now. He can't do that, of course. But
Rhius won't even allow any of the village children to visit. He's
that terrified of being found out." 'He's right
in that. Still…" Arkoniel pondered a moment. "What
about the rest of the household. Does anyone else know?" 'No.
Sometimes even I forget. He's our little prince. I can't think what
it will be like when the change comes. Just imagine being told, 'Oh,
by the by, pet, you're not…' " She broke
off as Tharin returned with the cup for Arkoniel. The captain said
his good nights and left again, but Nari lingered a moment. Bending
close to the wizard's ear, she whispered, "It's a pity lya
wouldn't let Rhius tell him. There's not a better friend to this
family. Secrets. We're all about secrets here." V,'he
second draught had the promised effect. Arkoniel slept like a stone,
and dreamt of playing fox and geese with his brothers in his father's
orchard. At some point he noticed Tobin watching them, but couldn't
find the words to invite the child to join them. Then he was sitting
in his mother's kitchen and the demon was there with him. "I
know the taste of your tears," it told him again. woke late
the next morning with a full bladder and a nasty taste in his mouth.
His left side was bruised from the fall and his arm throbbed from
wrist to shoulder. Holding it against his chest, he found a chamber
pot under the bed and was in the midst of using it when the door
inched open. Tobin peeked in. 'Good
morning, my prince!" Arkoniel slid the pot away and eased
himself back onto the bed. "I don't suppose you'd be so good as
to tell Cook I need another of her potions?" Tobin
disappeared so suddenly that Arkoniel wondered if he'd understood. Or
if that really was Tobin I was talking to. But the boy
soon returned with a mug and a small brown loaf on a napkin. There
was no hint of the previous night's shyness now, but he was still
unsmiling and reserved. He gave Arkoniel the food, then stood there
staring at him with those too-old eyes as he ate. Arkoniel
took a bite of the dense, warm bread. Cook had split it and slipped a
thick slice of well-aged cheese inside. "Ah, that's wonderful!"
he exclaimed, washing it down with the brandy draught. It tasted
weaker this time. 'I helped
with the baking," Tobin told him. 'Did you?
Well, you're a fine baker." This won
him not so much as a hint of a smile. Arkoniel began to feel like a
mediocre player before a very critical audience. He tried another
tack. "Nari tells me you shoot very well." 'I brought
home five grouse last week." 'I used to
shoot quite well myself." Tobin
raised an eyebrow, just as lya might have when she was about to
disapprove of something he'd said or done. "Don't you anymore?" 'I went on
to other studies and never seemed to find the time." 'Wizards
don't need to shoot?" Arkoniel
smiled. "We have other ways of getting food." 'You don't
beg, do you? Father says it's shameful for any able-bodied man to
beg." 'My father
taught me the same. No, my teacher and I travel and earn our bread.
And sometimes we are guests, like I am now with you." 'How will
you earn your bread here?" Arkoniel
fought down the urge to chuckle. This child would be checking his
mattress next to see if he was stealing the spoons. "Wizards
earn their keep with magic. We make things and fix things. And we
entertain." He
stretched out his right hand and concentrated on the center of his
palm. An apple-sized ball of light took shape there and resolved
itself into a tiny dragon with transparent, batlike wings. "I
saw these in Aurenen—" Looking up,
he found Tobin backing slowly away, eyes wide with fear. This was
hardly the reaction he'd hoped for. "Don't be scared. It's only
an illusion." 'It's not
real?" Tobin asked from the safety of the doorway. 'It's just
a picture, a memory from my travels. I saw lots of these fingerlings
at a place called Sarikali. Some of them grow to be larger than this
keep, but they're very rare and live on mountains. But these little
ones scamper everywhere. They're sacred creatures to the Aurenfaie.
They have a legend about how the first 'faie were created—" 'From
eleven drops of dragon blood. My father told me that story, and I
know what the 'faie are," Tobin said, cutting him off as tersely
as his father might have. "Some came here once. They played
music. Did a dragon teach you?" 'No, a
wizard named lya is my teacher. You'll meet her someday." He let
the dragon illusion fade away. "Would you like to see something
else?" Still
poised for escape, Tobin glanced over his shoulder into the corridor,
then asked, "Like what?" 'Oh,
anything, really. What would you most like to see?" Tobin
considered this. "I'd like to see the city." 'Ero, you
mean?" 'Yes. I'd
like to see my mother's house in Ero where I was born." 'Hmmm."
Arkoniel quashed a stirring of disquiet. "Yes, I can do
that, but we'll have to use a different sort of magic. I need to hold
your hand. Will you let me do that?" The boy
hesitated, then slowly came back to him and held out his hand. Arkoniel
took it in his and gave him a reassuring smile. "This is quite
simple, but you may feel a little odd. It's going to be like having a
dream while you're awake. Close your eyes." Arkoniel
could feel tension in the boy's thin, hard little hand, but Tobin did
as he was asked. 'Good, now
imagine that we're two great birds flying over the forest. What sort
of bird would you like to be?" Tobin
pulled his hand away and took a step back. "I don't want to be a
bird!" Fear again,
or was it just distrust? "It's just pretending, Tobin. You
pretend when you play, don't you?" This was
met with a blank stare.
'Pretending. Imagining things that aren't really there." That
was another misstep. Tobin cast a nervous look at the door. Arkoniel
looked around at the toys available. With any other child, he would
have made the little ships in the city's harbor sail across the
floor, or had the dusty wooden horse on wheels take a turn about the
room, but something warned against it. Instead, he slid off the bed
and limped over to the city. Seen at closer range, there was no
mistaking the layout of streets and major buildings, even though it
had seen some rough handling. Part of the western wall was missing,
and there were holes in the clay base where some of the wooden houses
had been lost. Those that remained varied from simple cubes of plain
wood to fancy carved and painted ones recognizable as some of the
principal houses and temples on the Palatine. The New Palace was done
in detail, with rows of stick columns along the sides and tiny gilt
emblems of the Four along its roof. Little
stick people lay scattered in the markets and on the roof of the
wooden box that served as the Old Palace. He picked one up. 'Your
father must have worked very hard to make all this. When you play
with it, don't you imagine that you're one of these little fellows
walking around the town?" He took his stick person by the head
and marched it around the central market. "See, here you are in
the great marketplace." He changed to a comic falsetto. "
'What shall I buy today? Think I'll see what Granny Sheda has for
sweets at her booth. Now I'll run down to Fletcher Street and see if
they have a new hunting bow just my size.'" 'No, you're
doing it wrong." Tobin squatted down beside him and picked up
another figure. "You can't be me. You have to be you." 'I can
pretend to be you, can't I?" Tobin shook
his head emphatically. "I don't want
anyone else to be me." 'Very well,
I'll be me and you be you. Now, what if you stay you but change
form." Covering Tobin's hand with his own, Arkoniel transformed
the figure Tobin held into a small wooden eagle. "See, it's
still you, but now you look like an eagle. You can do the same thing
in your mind. Just imagine yourself with a different shape. It's not
magic at all. My brothers and I spent hours being all sorts of
things." He'd half
expected Tobin to drop the toy and flee, but instead, he was
inspecting the little bird closely. And he was smiling. 'Can I show
you something?" he asked. 'Of
course." Tobin ran
from the room, still holding the bird, and returned a moment later
with both hands cupped in front of him. Squatting down beside
Arkoniel again, he spilled a dozen little carvings and wax figures on
the floor between them, similar to the ones Nari had shown him
earlier. These were
even better, though. There was a fox, several horses, a deer, and a
pretty little wooden bird about the same size as the one he'd
conjured. 'You made
all these?" 'Yes."
Tobin held up his bird and Arkoniel's. "Yours is better than
mine, though. Can you teach me to make them your way?" Arkoniel
picked up a wooden horse and shook his head in wonder. "No. And
yours are better, really. Mine are just a trick. These are the
products of your hands and imagination. You must be an artist like
your father." 'And my
mama," Tobin said, looking pleased at the praise. "She made
carvings, too, before the dolls." 'I didn't
know that. You must miss her." The smile
disappeared. Tobin shrugged and began lining the animals and people
up in phalanxes across the painted harbor. "How many brothers do
you have?" 'Two now. I
had five, but two died of plague and the oldest was killed fighting
the Plenimarans. The others are both warriors, too." 'But not
you." 'No, Illior
had other plans for me." 'Have you
always been a wizard?" 'Yes, but I
didn't know it until my teacher found me when I was—"
Arkoniel paused as if surprised. "Well, since I was just a bit
younger than you are now." 'Were you
very sad?" 'Why would
I be sad?" 'Not to be
a warrior like your brothers. Not to serve Skala with heart and
sword." 'We all
serve in our own way. Did you know that wizards fought in the Great
War? The king has some in his army now." 'But you're
not," Tobin pointed out. This clearly lowered Arkoniel in his
eyes. 'As I said,
there are many ways to serve. And a coun try doesn't just need
warriors. It needs scholars and builders and farmers." He held
up Tobin's bird. "And artists! You can be an artist and a
warrior, too. Now, how would you like to see the great city you'll be
protecting, my young warrior? Are you ready?" Tobin
nodded and held out his hand again. "So I should pretend that
I'm a bird, but I'm still me?" Arkoniel
grinned. "You'll always be you, no matter what. Now relax and
breathe like you're asleep, very gently. Good. What kind of a bird
will you be?" 'An eagle." 'Then I'll
be one, too, or I won't be able to keep up." This time
Tobin relaxed easily and Arkoniel silently wove the spell that would
project his own memories into Tobin's mind. Careful to avoid any
sudden transitions, he began the vision with them both perched in a
tall fir that overlooked the meadow outside. "Can you see the
forest and the house?" 'Yes!"
Tobin replied in an awed whisper. "It is like dreaming." 'Good. You
know how to fly, so spread your wings and come with me." Tobin did
with surprising readiness. "I can see the town now." 'We're
going to fly east now." Arkoniel summoned an image of trees and
fields passing rapidly below them, then conjured Ero and poised them
high above the Old Palace, trying to give the boy a recognizable
view. Below them, the Palatine Circle looked like a round green eye
atop the crowded hill. 'I see it!"
Tobin whispered. "It's just like my city, only lots more houses
and streets and colors. May I see the harbor, and ships?" 'We'll have
to fly to it. The vision is limited." Arkoniel smiled to
himself. So there was a child behind that stern face, after all.
Together, they swooped down to the harbor and circled the
round-bellied carracks and longboats moored there. 'I want to
sail on ships like that!" Tobin exclaimed. "I want to see
all the Three Lands, and the 'faie, too." 'Perhaps
you can sing with them." 'No…" The vision
dimmed as something distracted the boy. "You must concentrate,"
Arkoniel reminded him. "Don't let any worries bother you. I
can't do this for very long. Where else would you like to go?" 'To my
mother's house." 'Ah, yes.
Back up to the Palatine we go." He guided Tobin to the warren of
walled houses that lay between the Old and New Palaces. 'Mama's is
that one," Tobin said. "I know it by the golden griffins
along the roofline." 'Yes."
Rhius had taught his son well. As they
circled closer, the vision faltered again, but this time the problem
did not lie with the boy. Arkoniel felt a growing uneasiness as the
shape of the house and its grounds became more distinct. He could
pick out the yards and outbuildings, and the courtyard where the tall
chestnut tree stood, marking the dead twin's grave. As they drew
closer, however it withered before his eyes. Gnarled bare branches
reached up to snare him like clawed fingers, just as the roots had
held Tobin in his vision by the sea. 'By the
Light—!" he gasped, trying to end the vision before Tobin
saw. It was ended for him as a blast of cold buffeted them both. The
vision collapsed, leaving him reeling and momentarily blind. 'No, no!"
Tobin cried, Arkoniel
felt the boy's hand yanked from his. Something struck him a stinging
blow on the cheek and the pain broke the last of the magic, clearing
his mind and his eyes. The entire
room was shaking. The wardrobe doors banged open, then slammed again
with a crash. Chests jittered against the walls, and objects flew
through the air in all directions. Tobin knelt
by the city, holding down the roof of the Palace with both hands.
"Stop it!" he cried. "Go away, Wizard. Please!
Get out!" Arkoniel
stayed where he was. "Tobin, I can't—" Nari rushed
in and ran to the boy. Tobin clung to her, pressing his face to her
shoulder. 'What are
you doing?" she cried, giving Arkoniel an accusing glare. 'I was
just—" The roof of the Palace spun up into the air and he
caught it with his good hand. "We were looking at the city. Your
demon didn't care for that." He could
see enough of Tobin's face to know that the boy's lips were moving,
forming quick, silent words against the dark fabric of Nari's loose
gown. The room
went still, but an ominous heaviness remained, like a lull in a
thunderstorm. Tobin struggled free of his nurse and fled the room. Nari looked
around at the mess and sighed. "You see what it's like for us?
No telling what it will do, or why. Illior and Bilairy shield us from
angry spirits!" Arkoniel
nodded, but he knew exactly why the thing had chosen the moment it
did this time. He thought again of bending over a small, still body
beneath that chestnut tree, weeping as it sank out of sight, his
tears sinking into the hard earth. Yes, it knew the taste of his
tears. abin wanted
nothing to do with him after that, so Arkoniel spent the rest of the
day quietly exploring the keep. The pain in his arm required several
draughts of Cook's infusion, and its dulling effects left him feeling
like he was walking about in a dream. His
original impression of the keep was borne out in daylight; it was
only partially inhabitable. The upper floor was in total disrepair.
Once-handsome chambers lay in ruin, overrun by rats and rot. Leakage
from the roof or attics above had destroyed the fine murals and
furnishings. Strangely
enough, there was evidence that someone had continued to frequent
these gloomy rooms. Several sets of footprints were visible in the
dust that covered the bare floors. One room in particular had had a
frequent, small-footed visitor, though the footprints had a new layer
of fine grit in them now. This room lay halfway along the corridor
and was sounder than its neighbors, and better lit thanks to the loss
of a shutter on one of the tall, narrow windows. Tobin had
come here on numerous occasions, and always went to the back corner
of the room. A cedarwood chest of Mycenian design stood here, and the
dust on its ornate painted lid continued the tale. Arkoniel summoned
a small orb of light and bent to examine the smudges and finger marks
there. Tobin had come here to open this chest. Inside Arkoniel found
nothing but a few tabards of ancient cut. Perhaps it
had been a game of some sort? Yet what game would a child play alone,
a child who did not know how to pretend? Arkoniel looked around the
dirty, shadowed room, imagining Tobin here all by himself. His small
footprints crossed and recrossed each other for however many days the
game had lasted. Another pang of compassion pierced the young
wizard's heart, this time for the living twin. Equally
intriguing were the sets of tracks that led to the far end of the
corridor. The door here was new, and the only one that was locked. Placing his
hand over the bronze key plate, he examined the intricacies of its
mechanism. It would have been a relatively easy matter to trick it
open, but the unwritten laws of guesting forbade such a coarse
trespass. He already suspected where it led. Threw
herself from the tower window— Arkoniel
rested his forehead against the door's cool surface. Ariani had fled
here, fled to her death taking her child with her. Or had Tobin
followed? It had been too long and too many others had come and gone
here since for him to read the tale of their tracks. Nari's
vague suspicions still nagged at him. Possession was rare, and he did
not believe Tobin would have hurt Ariani himself. But Arkoniel had
felt the demon's rage three times now; it possessed both the strength
and will to kill. But why kill his mother, who'd been as much a
victim of circumstance as he and his twin? Downstairs,
he crossed the gloomy hall and went outside. The duke was nowhere to
be seen, but his men were busy packing horses and stacking arms for
the journey back to Ero. 'How's the
arm today?" asked Tharin, coming over to him. 'I think it
will mend very well. Thank you." 'Captain
Tharin keeps us all mended," a young sandy-haired man remarked,
swaggering by with a handful of tools. "So you're the young
wizard who can't manage a gelded two-year-old?" 'Mind
yourself, Sefus, or he'll turn you into something useful," an
older man snapped from a lean-to workshop built against the courtyard
wall. "Get over here and help with the harness, you lazy pup!" 'Don't mind
Sefus," another young soldier told him, grinning. "He gets
irritable when he's away from the brothels too long." 'I don't
imagine any of you enjoy being so far from the city. This doesn't
seem a very cheerful place." 'Took you
all morning to figure that one out, did it?" Tharin replied with
a chuckle. 'Are the
men good to the boy?" 'Do you
think Rhius would tolerate anyone who wasn't? The sun rises and sets
on that child, as far as he's concerned. Far as any
of us are concerned, for that matter. It's not Tb-bin's fault."
He gestured at the house. "Not any of it." The
defensiveness with which he declared this was not lost on Arkoniel.
"Of course not," he agreed. "Does anyone say it is?" 'Tongues
always wag. You get something like a demon haunting the king's own
sister and you can imagine what the gossips do with that. Why else do
you think Rhius stuck his poor wife and son out here, so far from
proper society? A princess, living here? And a prince? No wonder…
Well, that's enough said about that. There's enough ignorant gossip
in the town. Back in Ero, even." 'Perhaps
Rhius is right. Tobin might not be happy in the city with all those
wagging tongues. He's old enough to understand now." 'Yes. And
it would break his father's heart. Mine too, for that matter. He's a
good boy, our Tobin. One of these days he'll come into his own." 'I don't
doubt it." Leaving
Tharin to his preparations, Arkoniel made a circuit of the outer
walls. Here, too,
he saw sad evidence of neglect and decline. There had been gardens
here once. A few bush roses ran wild against the remains of crumbling
stone enclosures, and he could see the brown dry seed heads of rare
peonies here and there, fighting to hold their ground amidst the
•wild native blooms of willow bay, daisy, milkweed, and broom.
Ariani had had banks of peonies in her garden at Ero, he recalled. In
the early months of summer, huge vases of them had scented the entire
house. Only a
kitchen garden between a back gate and the river's edge was still
tended here now. Arkoniel plucked a sprig of fennel and chewed it as
he let himself in the back gate. This let
onto a rear court. Entering by an open door, he found himself back in
the kitchen. Cook, who seemed to have no other name, was busy
preparing the evening meal with the help of Tobin, Nari, and Sefus. 'I don't
know, pet," Nari was saying, sounding annoyed. "Why do you
ask such things?" 'Ask what
things?" Arkoniel joined them at the table. As he sat down, he
saw what Tobin had been doing and grinned. Five white turnip sheep
were being stalked by a pair of beet root bears and a carroty
something that looked vaguely like the dragon Arkoniel had shown him
that morning. 'Cook used
to be an archer and fight the Plenimarans with Father like Tharin
does," Tobin said. "But she says the king doesn't like
women to be in his army anymore. Why is that?" 'You were a
soldier?" asked Arkoniel. Cook
straightened from stirring a kettle and wiped her hands on her apron
front. Arkoniel hadn't paid much attention to her before, but now he
saw a flash of pride as she nodded. "I was. I served the last
queen with Duke Rhius' father, and the king after her for a time. I'd
be serving still—my eye and arm are still true—but the
king don't like seeing women in the ranks." She gave a shrug.
"So, here you find me." 'But why?"
Tobin insisted, starting work on another turnip. 'Maybe
girls can't fight proper," Sefus said with a smirk. 'I was
worth three of you, and I wasn't even the best!" Cook snapped.
Snatching up a cleaver, she set to work on a joint of mutton as if it
were a Plenimaran foot soldier. Arkoniel
recognized Sefus' smug attitude. He'd seen plenty of it in recent
years. "Women can be fine warriors, and wizards, too, if they
have the heart and the training," Arkoniel told Tobin. "Heart
and training; that's what it takes to be good at anything. Remember
how I told you this morning that I don't shoot anymore? Well, I
wasn't very good to begin with, or at swordplay, either. I wouldn't
have been much use to anyone as a warrior. Why, if lya hadn't made a
wizard of me, I'd probably be a scullion instead of a scholar!"
He cast a sidelong glance at Sefus. "Not too long ago, I met an
old woman who'd been both warrior and wizard in the wars. She fought
with Queen Gherilain, who won the war because she was such a good
warrior herself. You do know about the warrior queens of Skala, don't
you?" 'I have
them in a box upstairs," Tobin replied, still engrossed in his
carving. In a singsong voice, he recited: "There's King
Thelatimos, who got told by Oracle to give his crown to his daughter,
then Gherilain the Founder, Tamir the Murder, Agnalain who isn't my
grandmama, Gherilain the Second, laair who fought the dragon, Klia
who killed the lion, Klie, Markira, Oslie with six fingers, Marnil
who wanted a daughter so much but Oracle gave her a new husband
instead, and Agnalain who is my grandmama. And then the king my
uncle." 'Ah, I
see." Arkoniel paused, trying to unravel the garbled litany.
Clearly, Tobin had little understanding of what he'd just rattled
off, beyond a few odd or interesting facts. "Agnalain the First,
you mean. And Queen Tamir, who was murdered." Tobin
shrugged. 'Well, you
have the names right, but do—" Nari
cleared her throat loudly and gave Arkoniel a warning look. "Duke
Rhius sees to Tobin's education. He'll instruct the boy about such
things when he thinks fit." He
needs a proper tutor, Arkoniel thought, then blinked at the
resonance the notion struck in his mind: teacher, friend, companion.
Guardian. "When is the duke leaving?" he asked. 'First
light tomorrow," Sefus told him. 'Well then,
I'd best pay my respects tonight. Will he and the men be dining in
the hall?" ' "Course,"
Tobin mumbled. Under his knife, a turnip was changing into another
dragon. Excusing
himself, Arkoniel hurried upstairs to compose his thoughts, hoping
that the idea that had come clear so suddenly was indeed an
inspiration sent by the Lightbearer. He needed
very much to believe that, for that's what he was going to tell
Rhius. And lya. IS Arkoniel
found himself seated on Rhius' right at the evening meal, and served
by Tharin and several of the men. The food, though well seasoned, was
shockingly simple and sparse. This only strengthened the wizard's
concerns. In Ero and Atyion, Rhius had hosted lavishly. There were
always color and music there; feasts of twenty courses, and a hundred
guests all glittering with jewels, silks, and furs. The life Tobin
knew here was little different than that of a landless backcountry
knight. Rhius
himself was severely dressed in a short dark robe accented with a bit
of fox and gold. His only jewel was a large mourning ring. Tobin
could have passed for a serving boy in his plain tunic. Arkoniel
doubted the boy owned more than two suits of clothes, and this was
probably his best. The duke
paid Arkoniel little attention during the meal, focusing instead on
Tobin, telling him stories of court and the wars. Listening quietly,
Arkoniel thought the exchange seemed hollow and forced. Tobin looked
miserable. Seated far down the table, Nari caught the wizard's eye
and silently shook her head. When the
meal was finished Rhius moved to a large chair by the open hearth and
sat staring into the small fire laid there. Neither dismissed nor
invited, Arkoniel settled uncomfortably on the hearth bench beside
him and waited, listening to the crackle of the flames as he searched
for words to broach his request. 'My lord?"
Arkoniel ventured at last. Rhius
didn't look up. "What is it you want of me now, Wizard?" 'Nothing
but a word in private, if you please." He thought
the duke might refuse, but Rhius stood and led Arkoniel outside to a
path into the meadow. They followed it down the hillside to the
riverbank. It was a
cool, pleasant evening. The sun's last rays lit the sky behind the
peaks, stretching their shadows over the keep and meadow. Swallows
flitted after their supper overhead. Frogs tuned their throats under
the riverbank. They stood
watching the roiling water in silence for a time, and then Rhius
turned to Arkoniel. "Well? I've given you a child and a wife.
What would your mistress have of me now?" 'Nothing,
my lord, except the safety and well-being of your remaining child." Rhius let
out a derisive laugh. "I see." 'I don't
think you do. If Tobin is to be—what we wish him to be, he must
understand the world he will inherit. You did right, protecting him
here, but he's older now. He needs to learn the ways of dress and
manner, and the courtly arts. He must have teachers. He also needs
friends of his own age, other children—" 'No! You've
seen the demon that haunts him, thanks to the fumbling of your filthy
witch that night. Mothers from here to Ero scare their brats with
tales of the 'haunted child at the keep.' Didn't you know? Oh, but
how could you, since neither you nor your mistress deigned to come
back to us until now? Shall I send Tobin and his demon to court,
present them to the king? Just how long would it be before one of
Erius' creatures saw through the veil with their sharp eyes and
killing spells?" 'But that
isn't possible. That's why we brought the witch—" 'I won't
take that risk! Erius may still wear a mourning ring for his sister,
but how sentimental will he be if he learns that her surviving child
is—" He caught himself and lowered his voice to a scathing
hiss. "A true heir? If you imagine that any
of us whom he saw there that night in the birthing chamber would be
spared, then you are a fool. As much as I might welcome death, think
of the child. Have we come this far to throw it away on the whim of…"
He paused, waving a hand at Arkoniel. "Of a half-trained
apprentice wizard?" Arkoniel
ignored the insult. "Then let me bring children here, my lord.
Children from another province who haven't heard the tales. Tobin is
a prince; by right he should join the Prince Royal's Companions soon,
or have a company of Companions of his own. What will the nobles at
Ero say about the king's own nephew, the child of a princess and a
high lord, growing up like a peasant? Tobin must be prepared." Rhius gazed
out at the river, saying nothing, but Arkoniel sensed he'd struck his
mark. 'Tobin is
still young, but soon his absence at court will be noted—perhaps
even by the king's wizards. And then they'll come here looking for
him. No matter what we do, you'll have to present him at court sooner
or later. The less odd he seems—" 'One, then.
One child here, as a companion. But only if you agree to my terms."
He turned bleak eyes on Arkoniel. "First: should this other
child discover our secret, you will kill him yourself." 'My lord—-" Rhius
leaned closer, speaking very low. "My own child had to die. Why
should a stranger's child live to jeopardize our plans?" Arkoniel
nodded, knowing that lya would exact the same promise. "And your
second requirement?" When Rhius
spoke again, the anger was gone. In the gathering gloom, he looked
stooped and old—a sad, hollow effigy of the man he'd once been.
"That you will re main here and be Tobin's tutor. You're of
noble birth and know something of the court. I won't chance bringing
another stranger into my house. Stay and guard my child until the
world is set right." Arkoniel
felt dizzy with relief. "I will, my lord. By my hands and heart
and eyes, I will." This was the fulfillment of the vision he'd
been given at Afra, and Rhius himself had proposed it. 'But if you
will permit me, my lord," he said, proceeding gingerly with his
own elaborations. "You're a very wealthy man, yet your child is
being raised in a tomb. Couldn't you make this place,a proper home
for him? I'll need chambers of my own, too, for sleeping and study.
The rooms on the third floor could be repaired. And we'll need a room
for Tobin's lessons—" 'Yes, very
well!" Rhius snapped, throwing up his hands. "Do what you
will. Hire workmen. Fix the roof. Have gold chamber pots cast if you
like, so long as you protect my child." He stared at the keep
for a moment. The
barracks windows glowed warmly and they could hear men singing around
the watch fire. Beyond it, the keep looked abandoned except for a
thin sliver of light showing at a second-level window. Rhius let
out a long sigh. "By the Four, it has become a tomb, hasn't it'
This was a handsome house once, with gardens and fine stables. My
ancestors hosted hunts and feasts here in the autumn and queens
guested. I—I always hoped that Ariani would be well again and
help me make it fine again." 'A future
queen calls this home. Make it beautiful for her. After all, Tobin is
an artist and for such people the eye feeds the soul." Rhius
nodded. "Do what you will, Arkoniel. But leave the tower as it
is. No one is to go there. The shutters are nailed down and the doors
have no keys." 'As you
will, my lord." The
swallows had gone to roost and little brown bats had come out to hunt
moths. Fireflies flashed in the long grass, turning the darkened
meadow into a mirror of the starry sky above. 'There'll
be a real war again soon, I think," Rhius said. "It's been
skirmishes and sword rattling for years now, but Plenimar is chafing
harder against her borders every year." 'War?"
Arkoniel asked, surprised by this abrupt change of subject. "Then
you don't think Plenimar will uphold the Treaty of Kouros?" 'I stood
beside the king when Overlord Cyranius put his seal to it. I watched
his face. No, I don't think he will keep the treaty. He wants the
Three Lands as an empire again, as they were under the hierophants.
But this time he'll sit on the throne, not a priest king. He wants
the lands of Mycena, and he wants the wizards of Skala." 'I suppose
so." Aurenen had long ago cut off trade with Plenimar; there
were no longer the necessary intermarriages to maintain the wizard
bloodlines in Plenimar. In his travels he'd heard rumors of
Plenimaran pirates attacking Aurenfaie ships and carrying off
prisoners for forced breeding, like animals. 'These past
few years they've been testing us, feinting in and out of the islands
and raiding our shores," Rhius went on. "I only hope Tobin
is old enough when the time comes." 'We must
make him ready in every way we can." 'Indeed.
Good night, Arkoniel." Rhius bowed and started back up the path,
still looking bowed and old. The wizard
remained by the river, listening to the quiet sounds that filled the
warm summer night and wondering what a battle sounded like. He'd left
his father's house before he could carry a sword. He smiled,
recalling Tobin's disdainful reaction to his choice of vocation. As he
started up the hill the tower caught his eye again, and he thought he
saw one of the shutters move. He thought
again of casting, but Rhius' order stopped him. It had probably only
been a bat. V'obi in
had watched the two men in the meadow from his window. He knew who
they were; Brother had told him. The
wizard will stay, Brother whispered in the shadows behind him. 'Why?"
Tobin demanded. He didn't want Arkoniel to stay. He didn't like him
at all. There was something wrong behind his smile, and he was too
tall and too loud and had a long face like a horse. Worst of all,
though, he'd surprised Tobin with his magic and expected him to like
it. Tobin hated
surprises. They always ended badly. 'Why is he
staying?" he asked again, then turned to see if Brother had
heard him. The flame
of the little night lamp by his bed was hardly more than a fuzzy
patch of light now. This was Brother's doing. Since Lhel had bound
them together with the doll, Tobin could see the darkness Brother
sometimes made, especially at night. Some nights Tobin could hardly
see at all. There
you are, he thought, catching sight of a slither of shadow along
the far wall. "What are they saying down there?" Brother
slipped away, saying nothing. Tobin often
wished he hadn't kept the ugly doll, that it had fallen out the
window with his mama. He'd even slipped away from the house again a
few weeks ago, hoping to find Lhel and make her take her magic back,
but he didn't dare leave the riverbank this time and she didn't hear
him calling. So he'd
gone on obeying her instructions, summoning Brother every day and
letting the spirit follow him around. He couldn't tell if Brother
enjoyed this or not; he still leered at Tobin sometimes and twitched
his fingers, as if he wanted to pinch him or pull his hair the way he
used to. But Brother didn't hurt him anymore, not since Lhel had put
his blood and hair on the doll. Almost
without realizing it, Tobin had begun to call for Brother more often
lately, even inviting him to play with the city. Brother just watched
"while Tobin moved his wooden people about the streets and
sailed the little ships, but it was better than being alone. Tobin
searched the dark corners of the room for movement. Even when he sent
Brother away, he didn't go very far. The servants still complained of
his antics. The only person he'd seriously hurt, however, was
Arkoniel. As much as
Tobin disliked the wizard, he was angry with Brother for that. He'd
had to do the calling spell right in front of the man and Arkoniel
had seen something, perhaps even heard the words. If he told Tobin's
father, then sooner or later they'd find out about the doll, and then
his father would be ashamed and the men would laugh like the people
in the town and he would never be a warrior. Tobin's
belly cramped painfully as he turned back to the window; perhaps
that's what his father and the wizard were talking about out there.
Arkoniel had promised not to tell but Tobin didn't trust him. He
didn't trust anyone anymore, really, except maybe Tharin. When it got
too dark to see his father in the meadow, Tobin crawled into bed and
lay rigid between the sweaty sheets, waiting for angry voices. Instead,
Nan came to bed presently looking very pleased. 'You'll
never guess what's happened!" she exclaimed as she began
unlacing the sleeves of her gown. "That young wizard is to stay
on and be your tutor. Not only that, but you're to have a companion!
Arkoniel is going to write to his teacher, asking her to find a
suitable boy. You'll have a proper playfellow at last, pet, just as a
young prince should! What do you think of that?" 'What if he
doesn't like me?" Tobin mumbled, think ing again
of the way the townspeople looked at him and gossiped behind their
hands. Nari
clucked her tongue and climbed in beside him. "Who wouldn't like
you, pet? And to be companion to a prince, the king's only nephew?
Any boy would be thrilled with such an honor!" 'But what
if he's not nice?" Tobin insisted. 'Why, then
I'll send the little fool packing myself," Nari declared. Then,
more gently, "Don't you fret, love. Don't you worry about a
thing." Tobin
sighed and pretended to go to sleep. There was a great deal to worry
about, as far as he was concerned, not the least of which was being
saddled with ill-tempered ghosts and loud, laughing, sharp-eyed
wizards. Iya read
Arkoniel's brief letter over several times while the duke's courier
waited outside in the inn yard for her reply. Pressing the little
parchment to her heart, she gazed at the crowded harbor outside her
window and tried to sort out her warring emotions. Her initial
response was much like the duke's; to bring in the child of another
noble put both houses at risk. Yet in her heart she knew Arkoniel was
correct. She looked down at the letter again. I
know you will disapprove of my decision, perhaps even be angry at my
presumption, but I believe I am right in this. The child is nearly
ten, and already so strange in his ways that I fear he'll fare poorly
at court when he is grown. The household is overbearingly protective.
This child has never gone swimming on a hot day or had an afternoon
to himself in the meadow outside the gates. For the sake of his
mother's memory and her line, we must do what we can— 'Him,
indeed," Iya murmured, pleased that Arkoniel had been so
careful. Letters too often fell into the wrong hands, by mistake or
design. I
leave the choice of companion to you, of course. Yes, here he
tried to placate her after he'd already gone his own way. The
boy should be cheerful, brave, light of heart, and much interested in
the arts of war and hunting, for he finds me sorely lacking in those
regards. Since the keep is so lonely and the prince does not attend
court yet, perhaps you might find a boy who will not be too dearly
missed by his family, if he should be long away. He should not be a
first-born son. She nodded
to herself, understanding the implication all too well; this must be
an expendable boy. She tucked
the letter away, already making her plans. She'd visit some of the
country lords who had small holdings here in the southern mountains.
They ran to large families. Such
concerns helped fend off the deeper implication of his proposal:
Arkoniel was going to stay with Tobin. He was far enough along in his
training to leave her for a time, of course, or even to strike out on
his own. Other students had left her, contented with less. Arkoniel
knew enough already to be entrusted with the bowl when the time came. All the
same, she hated to be without him. He was the finest pupil she had
ever had, capable of learning far more than he had as yet. Far more
than she knew to teach him, come to that. But a few years apart would
not unmake him as a wizard. No, it was
the memory of his visions that haunted her, the visions in which she
had no part. She was not ready to be without him, the son of her
heart. zo
A'sTobin had feared, the wizard began changing things -TValmost
at once, though not quite in the way he'd expected. Arkoniel
remained in the toy room for the time being, but within a week of
Father's departure workers began arriving by the cartload and set up
a small village of tents in the meadow. A steady stream of wagons
followed, laden with materials of every sort. Soon the courtyards and
empty barracks were stacked with lumber, stone, mixing troughs, and
heavy sacks. Tobin wasn't allowed to go out among the strangers, so
he stood at his window instead and watched them bustling about. He'd never
realized how quiet the keep was until now. Banging and clanging came
from every direction all day long, and with it the loud voices of the
workers, shouting directions or singing songs. A crew of
masons clattered about on the roof with slates and pots of hot lead
and tar, so that by night and day it looked like the roof was on
fire. Another gang came into the house and took over the third level
and the great hall all at once, shoving the furniture about and
filling the house with the exciting new smells of wet lime and
sawdust. Arkoniel
gained a little in Tobin's favor when he insisted that Tobin be
allowed to watch the craftsmen at work. One night, after Nari had
tucked him into bed, Brother came and led Tobin to the top of the
stairs to listen to an argument going on below. Nari and Arkoniel
were standing by the hearth. 'I don't
care what you or Duke Rhius says," Nari sputtered, balling her
hands in her apron front the way she did when she was upset. "It's
not safe! What's the sense of being out here in the midst of
nowhere—" 'I'll stay
by him," the wizard interrupted. "By the Light, woman, you
can't keep him wrapped in fleece his whole life. And there's so much
he can learn. He's clearly got an aptitude for such things." 'Oh, so
you'd have him grow up to wear a mason's apron rather than a crown,
would you?" Tobin
chewed his thumbnail thoughtfully, wondering what they meant. He'd
never heard that a prince could wear a crown. His mother hadn't that
he knew of, and she'd lived at the palace when she was little. But if
wearing a mason's apron meant he'd be able to use a trowel and mortar
to build walls, then he wouldn't mind that. He'd spied on the crew
working upstairs that day when Nari wasn't looking, and it had been
interesting. He guessed it would be far more fun than his other
lessons with Arkoniel, learning verse by heart and memorizing the
names of the stars. Before he
could learn who was going to win this argument, Brother whispered to
him to hurry back to bed. He made it to his room and got the door
shut before Mynir passed by, whistling happily and rattling his keys
on their iron ring.
l"^ortunately, Arkoniel won, and he and Tobin spent the next day
watching the workmen. The tools
of the plasterers and stonecutters, and the ease with which they
wielded them, fascinated Tobin. Whole walls went from dirty grey to
sugar white in a morning's time. But it was
the wood-carver he admired most. She was a slight, pretty woman with
ugly hands, who shaped wood with her chisels and knives like it was
butter. The broken newel post in the hall had been torn out the day
before and Tobin watched with rapt attention as she carved a new one
out of a long block of dark wood. It seemed to Tobin that she was
digging into the wood to find the pattern of fruited vines that
already existed inside. When he shyly told her this, she nodded. 'That's
just how I see it, Your Highness. I take a piece of fine wood like
this in my hands and ask it, 'What treasure are you holding inside
for me?'" 'Prince
Tobin does the same with vegetables and lumps of wax," Arkoniel
told her. 'I carve
wood, too," Tobin said, waiting for the artist to laugh at him.
Instead, she whispered to Arkoniel, then went to a pile of scrap
lying nearby and brought him a piece of pale yellow wood about the
size of a brick. She handed him two of her sharp carving blades, too,
and asked, "Would you like to see what's inside this piece?" Tobin spent
the rest of the afternoon sitting on the ground beside her, and at
the end of the day presented her with a fat otter that was only a
little lopsided. She was so pleased that she traded him the knives
for it. CO, hen they
weren't watching the workmen, Tobin and Arkoniel took long rides or
walks on the forest roads. These turned into lessons, too, "without
Tobin even noticing. Arkoniel might not know how to fight or shoot
properly, but he knew a great deal about herbs and trees. He began by
letting Tobin show him the ones he knew, then taught him others,
together with their uses. They picked wintergreen and dug wild ginger
in shaded forest glades, and gathered wild strawberries and bunches
of goosegrass, sorrel, and dock in the meadow for Cook's soups. Tobin still
distrusted the wizard, but found he could tolerate him. Arkoniel
wasn't so loud now, and never did any magic. Even though he wasn't a
hunter, he knew as much as Tharin did about tracking and traveling
the forest. They ranged
far up the mountainside, and now and then came across a trail or
clearing that seemed familiar to Tobin. But he saw no sign of Lhel. Unbeknownst
to Arkoniel, Brother was often with them, a silent, watchful
presence. J't't.s
soon as the masons finished their work in the great hall, the
painters began scratching out their designs on the fresh plaster. As
a long band of design took shape along the top of one wall, Tobin
cocked his head and remarked, "That looks a little like oak
leaves and acorns, but not quite." 'It's not
meant to be a picture of anything," Arkoniel explained. "Just
a pattern that pleases the eye. He'll do rows and rows of different
patterns and paint them with bright colors." They
climbed the rickety scaffolding and Arkoniel had the artist show
Tobin how he used a brass straightedge and calipers to mark out the
shapes and keep the lines even. When they
came down again, Tobin ran upstairs to the toy room and took the
neglected writing materials from the chest. Laying them out on the
table in his room, he began a row of patterns, using his fingers for
calipers and a piece of broken practice blade for a straightedge. He
had half a row done when he noticed Arkoniel watching from the
doorway. Tobin kept
working to the edge of the page, then sat back to inspect his effort.
"It's not very good." Arkoniel
came over and looked at it. "No, but it's not bad for a first
effort, either." That was
his way. While Nari praised whatever Tobin did, whether it was good
or not, Arkoniel was more like Tharin—finding the good in an
effort without praising it more than it deserved. 'Let's see
if I can do it." Arkoniel took a sheet of parchment from the
pile and turned it over, then stood there with a strange sick
expression on his face. This side of the sheet was covered with lines
of small words Tobin's mother had written one day while he traced his
letters. Tobin couldn't read it, but he could see that it upset
Arkoniel. 'What does
it say?" he asked. Arkoniel
swallowed hard and cleared his throat, but Brother tore the page from
his hand and sent it sailing across the room before he could read it. 'It was
just a bit of verse about birds." Tobin
retrieved the sheet and stuck it at the bottom of the pile so Brother
wouldn't get more upset. The uppermost parchment had several lines of
practice letters on it, all smudged and blurred from his tracing. 'Mama was
teaching me my letters," he said, running a finger over them. 'I see.
Would you like to show me what you've learned so far?" Arkoniel
tried to smile as if nothing were wrong, but his gaze kept straying
to the parchment Brother had taken and he looked sad. Tobin
laboriously wrote out the eleven letters he knew. He hadn't drawn
them in months and they came out very crooked. Some were even upside
down again. He'd forgotten most of their names and sounds, too. 'You're off
to a good start. Would you like me to make you some more to trace?" Tobin shook
his head, but the wizard was already scratching away with the pen. Soon Tobin
was so busy that he forgot all about the verse Arkoniel had not read
to him, and Brother's small tantrum. Lrkoniel
waited until Tobin was engrossed in his work, then carefully pulled
at the edge of the parchment the demon had snatched away, tugging it
out just far enough to see the lines Ariani had written: Only
in my tower can I hear the bird's song My prison is my freedom. My
bean sings only there With the dead for company Only the dead speak
clearly, and the birds Cot had secretly fretted over the
impending arrival of the promised companion, but when none
immediately arrived he happily forgot about it, assuming his father
had changed his mind. There were
far too many people in the house as it was. For as long as he could
remember, the house had been shadowy and peaceful. Now workers
tramped in and out at all hours. When he wearied of watching the
craftsmen, he retreated to the kitchen with Nari and Cook, both of
whom seemed absurdly pleased with all the commotion, despite what
Nari had said about Tobin mixing with the workers. But no one
was more pleased than old Mynir. Even though it appeared to be the
wizard's fault that all the changes were being made, Mynir was in
charge, and he'd never looked happier than when he was instructing
the workmen on the colors and designs to use. He met with merchants
in the hall, too, and soon polished plate appeared on the bare
shelves and bright new hangings arrived by the cartload. 'Ah, Tobin,
this is what I used to do at Atyion!" he said one day as they
inspected the new hangings. "Your father is letting me make this
into a proper house at last!" As much as
he enjoyed watching the workers, however, as the repairs progressed
Tobin began to feel uneasy about the results. The more the house
changed, the harder it was for him to think of his father or mother
living there. When Mynir began to talk of changes to his own
bedchamber, Tobin slammed the door and pushed a chest against it,
refusing to come out until the steward promised him through the latch
hole that it would be left alone. And so the
work continued around him. Sometimes, at night,
before Nari came up to join him, he crept to the top of the great
stairway and stared down into the bright, colorful new hall,
imagining it as it had been before his father began staying away so
much. Perhaps if they changed it too much, Father wouldn't want to
come back at all. ,1 Finding a
suitable companion for Tobin proved to be a more difficult task than
lya had expected. She wasn't
especially fond of children in general. For decades the only ones
she'd anything to do with were the wizard born. None of her students
were ordinary to start with, and training and time soon brought out
the bright flashes of ability. With these children she relived her
own tentative first steps, early frustrations, and glories; and she
exulted with them as they claimed the power of their own unique
natures. No two were alike in power or ability, but that made no
difference. The joy was in finding a vein of talent in a novice and
following it to its core. But this…
As her search stretched dismally from weeks to a month, her opinion
of ordinary children was not much improved. She found children enough
among the country nobles, but not one who struck her as any more
interesting than a turnip. Lord Evir,
whose house she had visited first, had six fine boys, two of them of
an age and ability to serve, but they were thick, heavy-footed
bullcalves, dull as moles. She went to
Lady Morial's great holding next, recalling that some number of babes
had been born there. The good widow had a son just turned ten who
seemed lively enough, but when lya brushed his mind with hers, she
found it already stained with greed and envy. One could not well
serve a prince, or a queen, if one coveted their station. So she
traveled on, moving slowly up the spine of Skala, encountering yet
more turnips, moles, and vipers-to-be. She was within a week's ride
of Ero when the first rains of Rhythin came. She wandered on through
the cold, misty drizzle, searching for the estate of Lord Jorvai of
Co-lath, whom she'd known as a youth. Two days
later, with the afternoon waning and no sign of estate or shelter in
sight, the muddy road she'd been following ended abruptly at the bank
of a swollen stream. She tried to urge her mare on, but the beast
shied and sidestepped.
'Damnation!" lya shouted, looking around at the empty barrens
that surrounded her on every side. She couldn't wade the flood and
there was no inn nearby if she turned back. She had passed a side
road an hour or so earlier, she recalled, wrapping her sodden cloak
more closely around her. That had to lead somewhere. She'd
backtracked less than half a mile when a small band of riders
appeared out of the mist, leading a string of fine horses. They were
a hard-bitten lot, either soldiers or bandits by the look of their
gear. lya put on a brave face to meet them. As they drew up ahead of
her, she noted that one of the riders was a woman, though she looked
as rough and grim as any of the others. Their
leader was a tall, gaunt old man whose long grey moustaches framed a
mouth full of broken teeth. "What's your business on this road,
woman?" he challenged. 'And who
might you be to ask?" lya retorted, already weaving a blinding
spell at the back of her mind. There were only seven of them. From
the dark looks she was getting, the horses they led were probably
stolen. 'I'm Sir
Larenth of Oakmount Stead, a tenant of Lord Jorvai, whose lands
you're on." He jerked a thumb at the woman and two of the
others. These are my sons, Alon and Khemeus, and my daughter Ahra. We
guard Jorvai's roads." 'I beg
pardon, then. I'm lya of Maker's Ford, a free wizard of Skala. And as
it happens, I was seeking your lord myself, but I believe I've lost
my way." 'By a good
mark, too. His manor is half a day's ride back the way you came,"
Larenth replied, still brusque. "You may claim hospitality at my
hearth tonight, if you've nowhere else to go." lya had little
choice. "Many thanks, Sir Larenth. I do claim it, and
gratefully." 'What
business do you have with my lord?" Larenth asked as she fell in
with them. 'I'm
charged with seeking a companion for a nobleman's son." The old
knight snorted. "I've a houseful of whelps— four wives'
worth—and plenty of bastards. Good as any you'll find in the
capital. I could do with a few less mouths to feed. I suppose I'd be
paid for the loss of labor?" 'The
customary boon fee would be paid, of course." lya eyed the dour
offspring present and doubted there was much chance of loosening her
purse strings under his roof. All the same, he had a girl trained to
arms, a rare and welcome sight these days. "Your daughter serves
with you. That's rather out of fashion these days, I hear." The young
woman straightened in the saddle, looking offended. 'Fashion be
damned, and the king, too, with his airs and laws," Larenth
snapped. "My mother earned her keep by the sword, and her mother
before her. I won't have my girl done out of a good living, by the
Light I won't! All of my children are trained to arms soon as they
can walk. You'll find Lord Jorvai is of a like mind, and not afraid
to say so. You're a wizard; you must hold with the old ways, too?" 'I do, but
these days it's not always wise to say so too loudly." Larenth
blew out his moustaches with another snort. "Mark my words,
Mistress. There'll come a day when the king will be glad enough of my
girl in his ranks, and all the others like her he's pushed out. Those
bastards across the water won't be content with raiding forever."
ir Larenth's steading proved to be nothing but a small,
sparse-looking bit of land with a few outbuildings and corrals
surrounding a rude stone house inside a stockade. A pack of barking
hounds greeted their arrival and milled around their legs as they
dismounted. Half a dozen muddy young children came running to do the
same, hanging on their father and older siblings. Larenth's
harsh face softened a little as he tossed a little girl up on his
shoulder and ushered lya into the damp, smoky hall with rough
courtesy. There was
little in the way of comfort to be found here. Even with the doors
open, the room was cramped and malodorous. The furnishings were plain
and few, with no hangings or plate in sight. Sides of meat and ropes
of sausages dangled from the rafters below the smoke hole in the
roof, curing in the smoke of the fire that blazed in the center of
the packed earth floor. Beside it a thin, pregnant young woman in a
sack of a gown sat twirling a distaff. She was introduced as the old
knight's fourth lady, Sekora. With her were a few women, and an idiot
stepson of about fourteen. Four bare-bottomed little children
scrambled among the hounds at the women's feet. The rest of
Larenth's brood soon came straggling in for the evening meal. lya
lost count at fifteen. It was impossible to distinguish trueborn from
bastard; in country households like this, where only the eldest stood
to inherit the father's rank, it didn't much matter. The rest would
have to make their own way. Supper was
a disorganized affair. Trestles were set up and pots hung on tripods
over the hearth. Trenchers were brought in from a bake house and
everyone sat where they could find space to eat. No one stood on
ceremony here; more children arrived and elbowed the others out of
the way to reach the hearth. It was not an elegant house hold, or a
particularly friendly one, and the food was vile, but lya was
grateful to be off the road. The drizzle had turned into a downpour
and lightning lit the yard outside. The meal
was nearly over before lya noticed the trio of boys standing by the
open doorway. Judging by their wet clothes and small portions, they'd
arrived late during the chaos of the meal. One of them, the muddiest
of the lot, was laughing over something with his brothers. He was as
wiry and sun-browned as all the others, with thick dark hair that was
probably a good brown under the dirt and twigs. She wasn't certain at
first why she noticed him at all. Perhaps it was something in the
tilt of his smile. 'Who is
that?" she asked her host, trying to make herself heard over the
chatter and the rain pounding on the thatch. 'That one?"
Larenth frowned a moment. "Dimias, I think." 'That's Ki,
Father!" Ahra chided. 'Is he
trueborn or bastard?" asked lya. Stumped
again, Larenth consulted his daughter. "True-born, of my third
wife," he said at last. 'May I
speak with him?" asked lya. Larenth
gave her knowing wink. "All you like, Mistress, but remember
there's other pups in the litter, if that one don't suit you."
lya made her way over dogs and legs and babes to the trio in the
doorway. "Are you called Ki?" she asked the boy. Caught in
midchew, he swallowed hastily and bowed. "Yes, Lady. At your
service." Though he
was not striking in any particular way, lya knew at once that this
was no turnip. His eyes, the color of chestnut hulls, shone with good
nature and intelligence. lya's heart
skipped a beat; could he be wizard born? Taking his dirty hand in
greeting, she touched his mind out of habit and found with a twinge
of disappointment that he was not. 'Is that
all there is to your name?" she asked. He
shrugged. "It's all I'm ever called." 'It's
Kirotbius," one of the older boys
reminded him, giving him a poke in the back. "He just don't like
it 'cause he can't say it." 'I can so!"
Ki told lya, blushing under the dirt that streaked his cheeks. From
the smell of him, he'd spent his day tending pigs. "I like just
Ki better. And it helps Father remember, with so many of us to keep
track of." Everyone
within hearing laughed, and Ki of the shortened name flashed a
buck-toothed grin that seemed the brightest thing in this wretched
hovel, or the whole wretched day. 'Well now,
Ki, how old are you?" 'Eleven
summers, Lady." 'And are
you trained to the sword?" The boy's
chin rose proudly. "Yes, Lady. And the bow." 'Trained to
the pig-whacking stick, more like it," the poking brother chimed
in. Ki turned
on him angrily. "You just shut your mouth, Amin. Who broke your
finger for you last month?" Ah,
so the pup has cut some teeth, too, lya noted approvingly. "Have
you ever been to court?" 'I have,
Lady. Father takes us to Ero for the Sakor festival most years. I
seen the king and his son in their golden crowns, riding with the
priests to the temple. I'll serve at court one day, myself." 'Tending
the king's pigs!" teasing Amin put in. Outraged,
Ki jumped on his brother and knocked him down onto a circle of
children sitting on the floor behind them. lya retreated hastily as
the discussion devolved into a loud free-for-all involving an
increasing number of children and dogs and wailing babies. A few
minutes later, she spotted Ki and the offending brother perched in
the rafters overhead, grinning at the mayhem they'd created. The
current mother waded into the fray, wielding a ladle. lya knew
she'd found her boy, but was surprised by a twinge of conscience. If
the worst happened, there could be no hesitation, no mercy. Yet
surely it was worth the risk. What future did the poor child have
here? No land, no tide; at best, he'd end up a foot soldier or
mercenary and die on the end of a Plenimaran lance. This way, he at
least had a chance to realize his dream of court and some title of
his own. After the
children were asleep that night in scattered piles on the floor, Sir
Larenth bound the boy over for a boon fee of five gold sesters and a
packet of charms to keep his well sweet and his roof sound. No one
thought to ask Ki what he thought of the matter. the light
of day, lya worried that she might have acted rashly. Ki had cleaned
up well enough, and even had on a clean suit of faded hand-me-down
clothes. His hair, tied back with a thong today, was the same warm
brown as his eyes. He came armed, too, with a knife at his belt and a
decent bow and quiver over his shoulder. But he
showed none of the previous night's sparkle as he bid his family
good-bye and set off on foot beside lya's horse. 'Are you
well?" she asked, watching him march doggedly along. 'Yes,
Lady." 'You
mustn't call me 'lady.' You're more nobly born than I am. You may
call me Mistress lya and I shall call you Ki, just as you like. Now,
-would you like to come up and ride behind me?" 'No,
Mistress." 'Did your
father tell you where we're going?" 'Yes,
Mistress." 'Are you
glad to be the companion of the king's nephew?" He said
nothing and lya noted the grim set of his jaw. "Does the
prospect displease you?" Ki shrugged
his little bundle higher on his shoulder. "I'll do my duty,
Mistress." 'Well, you
might be a bit happier about it. I should think you'd be glad to
leave that wretched place back there. Nobody will expect you to tend
pigs or sleep under a table in Duke Rhius' house." Ki's spine
stiffened visibly, just as his half sister's had the day before.
"Yes, Mistress." Wearying of
this strange, one-sided conversation, lya let him be and Ki trudged
along behind her in silence. By
the Light, perhaps I have made a mistake after all, lya thought. Glancing
back at him, she saw that he was limping now. 'Do you
have a blister?" 'No,
Mistress." 'Then why
are you limping?" 'I got a
stone in my shoe."
Exasperated, she reined her horse to a halt. "Then why in the
world didn't you say so? By the Light, child, you have a voice!" He met her
gaze squarely, but his chin was trembling. "Father said I was to
speak only when spoke to," he told her, trying desperately to
keep up a brave front as the words spilled out. "He said if I
give you any back talk or stepped wrong, you'd turn me back to him
and make him give the gold back and he'd flay the skin off me and
turn me out on the road. He said I must do my duty to Prince Tobin
and never come home again." It was
quite a speech, and boldly stated except for the tears spilling down
his cheeks. He swiped at them with his sleeve, but kept his head up
proudly as he waited to be sent home in disgrace. lya sighed.
"Wipe your nose, boy. No one's going to send you home for having
a rock in your shoe. I don't have a lot of experience of ordinary
boys, Ki, but you strike me as a good sort, over all. You're not
going to hurt Prince Tobin or run away, are you?" 'No, La—
Mistress!" 'Then I
doubt there'll be any need to send you home. Now empty your shoe and
come up here." When he'd
finished with his shoe she gave him a hand up and gave his knee an
awkward pat. "That's settled. We'll get along just fine now." 'Yes,
Mistress." 'And
perhaps we can have a more interesting conversation. It's a long ride
to Alestun from here. You may speak freely, and ask me questions
whenever you like. You won't learn much in life if you don't, you
know." Ki shifted
his knee against the leather sack, which hung against his leg.
"What's in here? You carry it around with you all the time. I
seen you sleep with it, last night." Startled,
she snapped, "Nothing you need to know of, except that it's very
dangerous and I will send you home if you
ever meddle with it." She felt
the boy cringe and let out a slow breath before she spoke again. He
was only a child, after all. "That wasn't a very good start, was
it? Ask me another." There was a
long moment of silence, then, "What's the prince like?" lya
thought back to Arkoniel's letter. "He's a year or so younger
than you. I'm told he likes to hunt and he's training to be a
warrior. He might make you his squire if you're a good boy." 'How many
brothers and sisters he got?" ''Does he
have,'" lya corrected. "By the
Light, we must work on your grammar." 'How many
does he have?" 'Not a one,
nor any mother, either. That's why you're going to keep him company." 'Did his
mother die?" 'Yes, a
year ago last spring." 'A year?
And the duke ain't got hisself a new woman yet?" Ki asked. lya sighed.
" 'Duke Rhius hasn't gotten himself—' Illior's Fingers!
'Hasn't remarried' is how it's said, not that it's any concern of
yours! And no, he has not. I believe you'll find this household
rather different from what you're used to." Another
pause, then, "I heard some folks claim there's a ghost at this
prince's castle." 'Are you
afraid of ghosts?" 'Yes,
Mistress lya! Aren't you?" 'Not
especially. And you mustn't be, either, because there is
a ghost at the keep." 'Bilairy's
balls!" Suddenly Ki
was no longer behind her. Turning, lya found him standing in the road
with his bundle in his arms, staring miserably back toward home. 'Get back
up here, boy!" Ki wavered,
evidently uncertain which he was more afraid of, ghosts or his
formidable father. 'Don't be
ridiculous," she chided. "Prince Tobin has lived his whole
life with it and it hasn't done him any harm. Now come along or I
will send you back. The prince needs no cowards around him." Ki
swallowed hard and squared his shoulders, just as she'd guessed he
would. "My father sired no cowards." 'I'm
pleased to hear it." When he was
safely mounted again, she asked, "How did you know of the
ghost?" 'Ahra told
me this morning after she heard who Father bound me off to." 'And how
did she know of it?" She felt a
shrug. "Said she heard it among the ranks." 'And what
else did your sister hear?" Another
shrug. "That's all she told me, Mistress." K i was
polite in a glum sort of way the rest of the day, and that night he
wept very quietly after he thought lya was asleep. She half expected
to find him gone in the morning. When she opened her eyes just after
dawn, however, he was still there, watching her from across a freshly
laid fire. There were dark circles under his eyes, but he'd fixed a
cold breakfast for both of them and looked much more the bright
fellow she'd taken him for that first night. 'Good
morning, Mistress lya." 'Good
morning, Ki." lya sat up and stretched the stiffness from her
shoulders. 'How
long'til we get there?" he asked as they ate. 'Oh, three
or four days, I think." He bit off
another mouthful of sausage and chewed noisily. "Could you learn
me to talk proper on the way, like you said?" 'For a
start, don't speak with your mouth full. And don't chew with your
mouth open." She chuckled as he hastily swallowed. "There's
no need to choke on my account. Let's see, what else? Don't curse or
swear by Bilairy's body. It's coarse. Now, say 'could you please
teach me to speak properly?'" 'Could you
please teach me to speak properly?" he repeated, as carefully as
if it were some foreign tongue he was mastering. "And could you
please learn—teach me about ghosts?" 'I'll do
both, as best I can," lya replied, smiling at him. She'd judged
rightly after all. This boy was no turnip. Chapter zz
Sitting on the roof with Arkoniel one afternoon in late Rhythin,
Tobin looked out over the blazing colors of the forest and realized
it was only a few weeks until his name day. He hoped no one
remembered. He hadn't
wanted to come up here for their morning lesson, and made certain
they sat as far as possible from the base of the tower. Arkoniel
was trying to teach him mathematics, using dried beans and lentils to
work through the problems. Tobin wanted to pay attention, but his
thoughts kept straying to the tower. He could feel it looming behind
him, cold like a shadow even though the sun was warm on his
shoulders. The tower shutters were closed tight, but Tobin was sure
he could hear noises behind them; footsteps, and the soft brush of
long skirts across stone floors. The sounds scared him the way his
visions of his mother's ghost behind the tower door did. He didn't
tell Arkoniel about the sounds, or about the dream he'd had the night
before; he'd made that mistake several times already and everyone,
even Nari, had started to look at him strangely when the ones he told
came true. In this
one, he and Brother went outside again, but this time the demon led
him to the bottom of the meadow, where they stood waiting for
someone. In the dream, Brother started crying. He cried so hard that
dark blood ran from his nose and mouth. Then he pressed one hand over
his heart and the other over Tobin's, and leaned so close their faces
were almost touching. 'She's
coming," Brother whispered. Then he flew through the air like a
bird back to the tower, leaving Tobin to wait alone, watching the
road. He'd woken
up with a start, still feeling Brother's hand pressing on his chest.
Who's coming, he thought, and
why? Cl
j^7itting here in the sunshine now, Tobin didn't tell Arkoniel any of
that. He hadn't been scared in the dream, but when he thought of it
now, listening to the noises in the tower, he was overcome with a
strange sense of dread. An
especially loud bump sounded overhead and Tobin stole a quick glance
at the wizard, thinking he must have heard that,
that perhaps Arkoniel was just choosing not to say anything. In their
first days together Arkoniel had asked him many questions about his
mother. He never mentioned the tower or what had happened there, but
Tobin could see in his eyes that he wanted to. Tobin let
out a sigh of relief when Tharin appeared in the courtyard below.
Father and the others were still away, but Tharin had come home to be
his weapons master. 'It's time
for my practice," he said, jumping up. Arkoniel
raised an eyebrow at him. "So I see. You know, Tobin, there's
more to being a noble than arms. You have to understand the world and
how it works…" 'Yes,
Master Arkoniel. May I go now?" A familiar
sigh. "You may."
.,'l-rkoniel watched the child scamper eagerly away over the slates.
He doubted Tobin had heard half the lesson. Something about the tower
had distracted him; he'd twisted around to stare at it every time he
thought Arkoniel wasn't looking. The wizard
stood and looked up at it. Something about those closed shutters
always sent a chill down his spine. When the duke returned, Arkoniel
meant to get his permission to see that room. Perhaps if he could
stand there, breathe the air, touch the things she'd left behind,
then he could gain some sense of what exactly had happened that day.
He certainly wasn't going to learn it from Tobin. The few times
Arkoniel had broached the subject the child had gone blank and silent
in the most disquieting way. Arkoniel
gave no credence to Nari's wild talk of possession, or her fear that
Tobin had somehow caused his mother's fall. But the longer Arkoniel
remained here, the more keenly aware he was of the dead child's
permeating presence. He could feel its chill. And he'd heard Tobin
whispering to it, just as Nari had said, and found himself wondering
what sort of replies Tobin heard. What if
Tobin had fallen that day? For an instant he imagined the two
children watching him from behind those peeling shutters, united in
death, as they should have been in life. 'I'll go
mad here," he muttered, scattering the lentils for the birds. Hoping to
shake off his dark mood, he made his way down to the practice yard
and watched Tharin working with Tobin. Here was a man who knew how to
teach a boy. Both of
them were grinning as they moved back and forth with their wooden
blades. No matter how hard Tharin worked Tobin, the boy strove to
please him, worshiping the big warrior with an openness that Arkoniel
envied. Tobin had put on a battered leather tunic and tied back his
hair with a thong; a dark miniature of fair-skinned Tharin. Arkoniel
had come to accept that these lessons captured the boy's interest in
a way that his own lame attempts could not. He'd never meant to be a
tutor and suspected he was making a poor job of it. Part of the
problem was Tobin's distrust. Arkoniel had felt it since the day he
arrived, and things had not changed much for the better. He was
certain that the demon had something to do with this. It remembered
the events of its birth; had it told Tobin? Nari didn't think so, but
Arkoniel remained certain the demon had somehow set Tobin against him
from the start. In spite of
all these obstacles, however, he found himself growing increasingly
attached to the child. Tobin was intelligent and perceptive when he
chose to be, and around anyone else except Arkoniel he was pleasant
and well mannered. Recently,
however, something new had given the wizard pause and filled him with
a mix of wonder and unease. The boy had shown a few flashes of what
appeared to be foreknowledge. A week earlier Tobin had claimed that a
letter was coming from his father, and waited all afternoon by the
gate until a rider appeared with the message that Duke Rhius was not
coming home in time for Tobin's name day after all. Stranger
still, a few nights ago he had frantically woken Nari and Tharin,
begging them to go into the woods to find a fox with a broken back.
They'd tried to reassure him that it had only been a dream but he
grew so upset that Tharin had finally taken a lantern and gone out.
He'd returned within the hour with a dead vixen. Tharin swore the fox
had been too far from the house for Tobin to hear its cries and, when
asked how he'd known, Tobin had mumbled that the demon had told him,
but wouldn't say any more. This
morning he'd had a furtive air and Arkoniel guessed he'd had another
vision, and that it might have something to do with the way Tobin had
squirmed so inattentively through the aborted lesson in mathematics. While
foreknowing in a future ruler was an undoubted advantage, what if it
presaged the first blossoming of a wizard's gifts? Would the people
accept a wizard queen, unable for all her power to bear a successor? Leaving
Tobin and Tharin to their practice, Arkoniel crossed the bridge and
wandered down the road into the forest. As the keep
disappeared from sight behind him, Arkoniel felt his spirits lift.
The crisp autumn air cleansed him of the tainted atmosphere he'd been
breathing for the past month, and he was suddenly grateful to be away
from that strange house and its haunted people. No amount of repair
and fresh paint could mask its underlying rot. 'That baby
still sit heavy on you heart," an unmistakable voice said behind
him. Arkoniel
whirled around to find the road as empty as before. "Lhel? I
know it's you! What are you doing here?" 'Be scared,
Wizard?" Now the mocking voice came from a thick stand of
yellow-leafed poplar on his right. He couldn't make out anyone hidden
there, but just then a small brown hand appeared—not from
behind the trees but out of thin air just in front of them. The
forefinger crooked, beckoning, then disappeared as if it had been
pulled back through an invisible window frame. "You come here, I
take your fear away," the voice wheedled, almost at his ear. 'By the
Light, show yourself!" Arkoniel demanded, intrigued in spite of
his surprise. "Lhel? Where are you?" He stared
into the trees, looking for telltale shadows, listening for stealthy
footsteps. Nothing came to him but the patter of leaves in the wind.
It was as if she had opened a portal in the air and spoken to him
through it. And put her hand through it. It's
a trick. You're seeing what you want to see. But
what if it wasn't? The more
important question right now was what she was doing here at all after
all these years? 'Come to
me, Arkoniel," Lhel called to him from behind the screen of
poplars. "Come into the woods." He
hesitated just long enough to summon a protective core of power deep
in his mind, strong enough—he hoped—to keep away any
creatures of darkness she might summon. Gathering his courage, he
pushed through the screen of branches, following the voice into the
forest beyond. The light
was muted here, and the ground rose gently before him. Laughter came
from up the hillside and he looked up to see the •witch floating
beside a large oak tree a dozen yards from where he stood. Lhel
smiled at him, framed by a long oval of soft green light. He could
see rushes and cattails swaying around her, bathed in the rippling
shimmer of light reflected from unseen water. The vision was so clear
he could even make out the exact demarcation between the illusion and
the surrounding forest, like a painting hung on the air. She
beckoned coyly, then the entire apparition collapsed like a washday
soap bubble. He ran to
where she had appeared and felt the tingle of magic in the air there.
He breathed it in, and felt a long-forgotten memory stir. Years
earlier, while still a child apprentice, Arkoniel had thought he'd
seen a similar miracle. Half asleep in some noble's hall, he'd
awakened in the early light to see men appearing silently out of thin
air at the far end of the room. The sight had both frightened and
excited him. When he
told lya of it later that morning, however, he was heartbroken to
learn that it had simply been a clever trick of the eye, using a
painted wall and the placement of a tapestry in front of a servant's
entry. 'No such
spell has ever existed in Oreska magic," lya had told him. "Even
the Aurenfaie have to walk from place to place, just as we do." The
disappointment had faded, but not the inspiration. There were spells
aplenty that could move objects like locks or doors or stones; surely
there must be some way of translating these. He'd toyed with the
notion for years, but had come no closer to making it a reality. He
could push a pea across a carpet with ease, but he could not make it
pass through a solid door or wall, no matter how he meditated and
envisioned the act. Arkoniel
shook off the reverie with suspicion. This was some witch trick,
coupled with the memory his mind had fastened onto in the shock of
the moment. Lhel's
faint call drifted down to him again, leading him to a trail that
wound off to his right through a thick stand of fir. The ground fell
away sharply from here and he came out at last at the edge of a
marsh. Lhel stood
waiting for him at the water's edge, surrounded by cattails and faded
marshworts, just as he'd seen her earlier. He stared hard at her,
trying to pierce whatever new illusion she was practicing on him, but
her shadow fell across the wet ground just as it should, and her bare
feet sank into the soft mud as she took a step toward him. 'What are
you doing here?" he demanded. 'I be here,
waiting for you," she replied. This time
it was Arkoniel who stepped closer. His heart was racing, but he felt
no fear of her now. She looked
smaller and more ragged than he recalled, as if she'd been hungry for
a long time. There were thicker streaks of white in her hair, too,
but her body was still rounded and ripe, and she moved with the same
challenge in her hips that had so unnerved him. She took another step
toward him, then tilted her head and set her hands on her hips like a
fishwife, regarding him with a combination of heat and wry disdain in
her black eyes. He was
close enough to smell herbs and sweat and moist earth, with something
else mixed in that made him think of mares in heat. 'When—when
did you arrive?" he asked. She
shrugged. "I be here always. Where you
be, all these times? How you take care what we make, be gone so
long?" 'You mean
you've been here, near the keep, all these
years?" 'I help the
lady. I follow and keep watch. Help that spirit not be so angry." 'You
haven't done much of a job of that," Arkoniel retorted, holding
out his splinted wrist for her to see. "To-bin's life has been a
misery because of it." 'It be
worse, I don't do as the Mother show," she retorted, shaking a
finger at him. "You and lya, you don't know! A witch make a
spirit, she…" She held her wrists up, crossed, as if she
were bound. "lya say, 'You go home, witch. Don't come back.' She
don't know." Lhel tapped her temple. "That spirit call out
for me. I tell her, but she don't listen." 'Does Rhius
know you're here?" Lhel shook
her head and an earwig squirmed loose from a tendril of hair and
skittered away down her bare arm. "I close always, but not to be
see." She smiled slyly, then faded from sight before his eyes.
"You do that, Wizard?" she whispered, behind him now and
close enough to his ear for him to feel her breath. She'd made no
sound as she moved, nor left any mark on the ground. Arkoniel
flinched away. "No." 'I show
you," she whispered. An invisible hand stroked his arm. "Show
you what you dream." The memory
of the men emerging from the air intruded on his thoughts again. She was
doing this. Arkoniel
jerked back, caught between the water and the invisible hands that
tried to stroke his chest. "Stop that! This is no time for your
petty teasing." Something
struck him hard in the chest, knocking him backward into the mud at
the water's edge. A weight settled on his chest, holding him down,
and Lhel's musky unwashed scent overwhelmed him. Then she was visible
again, squatting naked on top of him. His eyes
widened in wonder. The three-phase moon—a circle flanked by two
outfacing crescents—was tattooed on her belly, and concentric
serpent patterns covered each full breast. More symbols covered her
face and arms. He had seen such marks before, carved into the walls
of caves on the sacred island of Kouros, and on rocks along the
Skalan coastline. According to lya, such marks had been old long
before the Hierophant came to the Three Lands. Had Lhel somehow
hidden these markings before, he wondered, unable to move, or were
they another illusion? There was certainly considerable magic of some
sort involved. Strength greater than her small body could account for
held him flat as she took his face between her hands. You
and your kind dismiss my people, and my gods. Her true voice
intruded into his mind, devoid of accent or stumbling grammar. You
think we are dirty, that we practice necromancy. You are strong, you
Oreska, but you are often fools, too, blinded by pride. Your teacher
asked me for a great magic, then treated me with disrespect. Because
of her I offended the Mother and the dead. For
ten years I have guarded that spirit, and the child it is bound to.
The dead child could have killed the living one and those around her
if I had not bound it. Until its flesh is cut free from the one you
call Tobin, it must be so bound and I must remain, for only I can do
both unbind-ings when the time comes. Arkoniel
was amazed to see a tear roll down the witch's cheek. It fell and
struck his face. ,' have
waited alone all these years, cut off from my people, a ghost among
yours. There's been no full moon priest for me, no harvest sacrifice
or spring rites. I die inside, Wizard, for the child and for the
goddess who sent you to me. My hair turns white and my womb is still
empty, lya put gold in my hands, not understanding that a great magic
must be paid for with the body. When she first came to me
in my visions, I thought you were for me, my payment. But lya sent me
away empty. Will you pay me now? 'I—I
can't." Arkoniel dug his fingers into the earth as the meaning
of her words dawned on him. "It… such intercourse…
it takes away our power." She leaned
over him and brushed her heavy breasts across his lips. Her skin was
hot. A hard brown nipple brushed the corner of his mouth and he
turned his head away. You
are wrong, Oreska, she whispered in his mind. It
feeds the power. Join with me in flesh and I will teach you my magic.
Then your power will be doubled. Arkoniel
shivered. "I can't give you a child. Oreska wizards are barren." But
not eunuchs. Slowly, sinuously, she slid back until she was
straddling his hips. Arkoniel kept silent, but his body answered for
him. I need no child from you, Wizard. Just your
heat and your rush of seed. That is payment enough. She pressed
against him and pleasure bordering on pain blossomed through his
groin as her heat seeped through his tunic. He closed his eyes,
knowing she would take him if she chose. There was no way to prevent
it. But then
the pressure, the heat, the hands were gone. Arkoniel opened his eyes
and found himself alone. It had been
no vision, though; he could still taste her salt on his lips, smell
her scent on his clothes. In the mud on either side of him the prints
of small bare feet slowly filled with water. He sat up
and rested his head on his knees, drawing in the musky woman smell
that clung to him. Cold, aching, and strangely ashamed, he groaned
aloud as he conjured her warmth pressing against him. ,' thought
you were for me. The words
made the breath catch in his throat and his groin pound. He forced
himself up to his feet. Mud and pond slime oozed from his hair and
dripped down inside the front of his tunic like cold little fingers
seeking his heart. Illusions
and lies, he thought desperately, but as he made his way back
toward the rotting keep, he could not forget what she'd shown him, or
the whispered invitation; Join with me,
Wizard—your power will be doubled. '""T'obin's
head started to hurt during his sword practice. It JL ached so badly
it made him sick to his stomach, and Tharin sent him up to bed in the
middle of the day. Brother
came without being called and crouched on the end of Tobin's bed, one
hand pressed to his chest. Curled on his side, cheek pressed to the
soft new coverlet Father had sent from Ero, Tobin stared at his
baleful mirror self, waiting for Brother to touch him or weep as he
had in the dreams. But Brother didn't do anything, just stayed there
gathering darkness around himself. Queasy from the headache, Tobin
slipped into a doze. He
was riding Gosi up the forest road toward the mountains. Red and gold
leaves swirled around him, bright in the sunshine. He thought he
could hear another rider just behind him, but he couldn't see who it
was. After a moment he realized that Brother was sitting behind him
with his arms wrapped around Tobin's waist. In the dream Brother was
alive; Tobin could feel the other boy's chest pressing warm and solid
against his back, and Brother's breath against his neck. The hands
clasped at his waist were brown and callused, with dirt under the
nails. Tobin's
eyes filled with happy tears. He had a real brother! All the rest of
it—demons and wizards and strange
women in the forest—it had just been
one of his bad dreams. He
tried to look at Brother, to see if his eyes were blue like his own,
but Brother pressed his face to Tobin's back and whispered, "Ride
faster, she's almost here!" Brother
was afraid, and that made Tobin feel scared, too. They
rode further into the mountains than Tobin had ever gone before. Huge
snow-capped peaks surrounded them on every side. The sky grew dark
and a cold wind whipped around them. "What
will we do when it gets dark? Where will we sleep?" Tobin asked,
looking around in dismay. "Ride
faster," whispered Brother. But
when they rounded a bend in the road, they found themselves at the
bottom of the meadow below the keep, heading for the bridge at a
gallop. Gosi would not take the rein and stop— Tobin woke
with a start. Nari stood over him, rubbing his chest. It was nearly
dark and the room was very cold. 'You've
slept the day away, pet," she told him. It
was only a dream! Tobin thought, heartbroken. He could feel
Brother somewhere nearby, cold and strange as ever. Nothing had
changed. He wanted to roll over and escape back into the dream, but
Nari hustled him out of bed. 'You have
visitors! Get up now, and let's change that tunic." 'Visitors?
For me?" Tobin blinked up at her. He knew he should send Brother
away, but it was too late now, with Nari fussing over him. She pressed
the backs of her fingers to his forehead and clucked her tongue.
"You're like ice, pet! Ah, look— the window's been open
all day, and you with no covers. Let's get these clothes changed so
you can come down to the hall and warm yourself." Tobin's
head still hurt. Shivering, he let Nari pull off his rumpled tunic,
then wiggled into the stiff new one •with the embroidery on the
hem. This had come in the same package as the coverlet, along with
another suit of good clothes, better than anything Tobin had ever
worn, and other fancy things for the house. He caught
sight of Brother in a dark corner as he turned to leave the room; the
demon was wearing the very same new clothes, but his face was paler
than Tobin had ever seen it. 'Stay
here," he whispered. Following Nari downstairs, he wondered what
it would feel like to have a living brother walking beside him. The hall
was dark except for the hearth fire and a few torches. Still beyond
the reach of the light, Tobin could see the people standing by the
hearth without being seen. Arkoniel, Cook, Tharin, and Mynir were all
there, speaking softly with an old woman in a plain, travel-stained
gown. She had a brown, wrinkled face and wore her thin grey hair in a
braid over one shoulder. Was this the "she" Brother had
spoken of? She looked like a peasant. Mistaking
his hesitation for fear, Nari took his hand. "Don't be afraid,"
she whispered, leading him down. "Mistress lya is a friend of
your father's, and a great wizard. And look who she's brought with
her!" As Tobin
came closer, he saw that there was another stranger hanging back in
the shadows behind the old woman. lya said something over her
shoulder and this one came forward into the light. It was a
boy. Tobin's
heart sank. This must be the companion they'd promised him. They
hadn't forgotten about that after all, even though he had. The boy was
taller than he was, and looked older. His tunic was embroidered, but
frayed at the hems and patched under one arm. His shoes were stained
and his trousers were bound from ankle to knee with twine. Nari would
have scolded Tobin for being so poorly turned out. The boy looked
Tobin's way just then, and the firelight struck his face. His skin
was ruddy from the sun, and his thick brown hair fell in ragged bangs
over his forehead. His dark eyes were -wide now with trepidation as
he looked around the hall. Tobin braced for the worst as Nari urged
him into the light. Did this boy already know he was odd? As soon as
the boy noticed him, however, he made Tobin a quick, clumsy bow. Tharin gave
him a reassuring smile. "Prince Tobin, this is Kirothius, son of
Sir Larenth of Oakmount Stead at Co-lath. He's come to be your
companion." Tobin
returned the bow, then held up his hand for the warrior's clasp as
his father had taught him. Kirothius managed a small smile as he
gripped it. His palm felt like a soldier's: hard and callused. 'Welcome to
the house of my father," said Tobin. "I am honored—"
It took a moment to summon the rest of the host's ritual greeting;
he'd never had to offer it by himself before. "I am honored to
offer you the hospitality of my hearth, Kirothius, son of Larenth." 'I am
honored to accept, Prince Tobin." Kirothius ducked his head
again in a half bow. His front teeth were big and stuck out a little. Tharin gave
him a wink and Tobin felt a stab of jealousy. His friend already
seemed to approve of this newcomer. 'And this
is Mistress lya," said Arkoniel, introducing the old woman.
"I've told you a little about her, my prince. She is my teacher,
just as I am yours." 'I am most
glad to make your acquaintance, Prince Tobin," lya said, bowing.
"Arkoniel had written me many good things about you." 'Thank you,
Mistress." Tobin felt held by her eyes and voice. She might
dress like a peasant, but there was an air of power about her that
made him tremble a little. All the
same, when she smiled he saw kindness and a hint of amusement in her
colorless eyes as she placed a hand on the new boy's shoulder. "I
hope that young Kirothius here will serve you well. He prefers to be
called Ki, by the way, if you have no objection?" 'No,
Mistress lya. Welcome to the house of my father," Tobin replied,
bowing again. The instant
the words left his lips the room went cold and Brother came down the
stairs like a hurricane, whipping new tapestries from the walls and
scattering sparks from the hearth across the rushes in great swirling
clouds. Ki cried out as an ember struck his cheek, then jumped to
stand between Tobin and the fire. With the
wind came a deep, slow throbbing sound, like the beating of a huge
drum. Tobin had never heard such a sound; it went through him and
shook his heart in his chest. A loud buzzing noise filled his ears—it
reminded him of something bad but he couldn't quite recall what. The wizard
woman stood calmly in the midst of it all with nothing but her lips
moving. Brother, no more than a dark blur of motion, flung a bench at
her, but it veered away and toppled over on its side. Brother
whirled on Ki then and yanked on his cloak, trying to pull him into
the fire. Tobin grabbed at the older boy's arm as Ki fought to untie
the lacings at his throat. They came free and both boys tumbled
backward as the cloak pulled free and disappeared into the rafters. As Tobin
righted himself he caught the look of terror in Ki's eyes and the
sight burned him with shame. Now
he's sure to hate me! he thought, knowing it was his fault for
being so careless. He never should have gone to sleep without sending
Brother away. Turning away from the others, he whispered, "Blood
my blood, flesh my flesh, bone my bone. Go away, Brother. Leave them
alone!" The wind
dropped instantly. The furniture stopped moving and silence fell over
the room. The beautiful new newel post at the bottom of the staircase
split down the middle with a loud crack that made them all jump, then
Brother was gone. When Tobin
turned around again, both wizards were watching him as if they knew
what he'd been doing. lya stared at him for a long moment, then said
something to Arkoniel, too low for Tobin to hear. Ki got up
and offered Tobin a hand. "Are you hurt, Prince Tobin?" A
blister was already rising on his cheek. 'No." Ki was
staring at Tobin, too, but he didn't look angry. "So that was
your ghost?" 'He does
that sometimes. I'm sorry." Tobin wanted to say something more,
something to keep that warm, amazed smile aimed at him. "I don't
think he'll hurt you again." 'We were
not expecting guests, Mistress," Mynir was saying to lya, as if
nothing had happened. "I hope you will not think poorly of our
house. We'd have readied a feast if we'd known." lya patted the
old steward's arm. "We're no strangers to the duke's
hospitality. Whatever you have will please us very well. Is Catilan
still running the kitchen?" They all
chattered on like they were old friends and had known each other for
a long time. Tobin didn't like this at all. Nothing had felt right
since the first wizard had arrived. Now there were two of them, and
Brother hated lya even more than Arkoniel. Tobin had felt that during
the brief attack. He was
certain that this was the "she" of his dreams, the one
who'd made Brother weep blood. Yet Nari had claimed lya was a friend
of his father's, and treated her like an honored guest. He was
tempted to call Brother back, just to see what would happen. Before he
could, however, he noticed the other boy watching him. Ki looked away
quickly and so did Tobin, embarrassed without knowing why. C,'he
steward insisted that Cook serve dinner in the hall at the high
table, even though Tobin's father was not at home. Brother had
knocked down the new canopy, but that was soon put right. Tobin had
to sit in his father's place, between lya and the new companion, and
Tharin served as carver and butler for them. Tobin wanted to talk to
Ki and put him at ease, but found himself completely tongue-tied. Ki
was silent, too, and Tobin saw him stealing uneasy glances around the
hall and at him during each successive course. Tobin kept one eye out
for Brother through the meal, but the spirit heeded his command. The adults
didn't seem to notice his discomfort, chattering on among themselves.
Nari, Arkoniel, and lya were talking about people Tobin had never
heard his nurse mention before, and he felt another pang of jealousy.
As soon as the last fruit tart had been dispatched, he excused
himself, intending to retreat upstairs. But Ki rose, too, clearly
meaning to follow. Perhaps this was what companions were supposed to
do. Tobin changed direction and went outside into the front courtyard
instead, with the older boy tagging along behind. A ruddy
autumn moon was climbing the sky, bright enough to cast shadows in
the courtyard. Alone with
this stranger, Tobin felt more awkward than ever. He wished he'd
stayed in the hall now, but knew it would look too silly to go back
in so soon with Ki trailing him like a duckling. They stood
there awhile in silence. Then Ki looked up at the keep and said,
"Your house is very grand, Prince Tobin." 'Thank you.
What's yours like?" 'Oh, about
like your barracks here." The frayed
edges on the boy's tunic caught his eye again. "Is your father a
poor man?" The words were out of his mouth before it occurred to
him that this might be taken as an insult. But Ki just
shrugged. "We're not rich, that's for certain. My
great-great-grandmother was married to one of Queen Klie's kin and
had lands of her own. But there's been so many of us since that no
one has claim to that anymore. That's the trouble in my family,
Father says; we're too hot in our passions. Those of us that don't
get killed in battle breed like conies. In our house the young ones
sleep in a big pile on the floor like puppies, there's so many of
us." Tobin had
never heard of such a thing. "How many of you are there?" 'Fourteen
brothers and twelve sisters living, counting all the bastards." Tobin
wanted to know what a bastard was and why they would be counted
differently than the rest, but Ki was still talking. "I'm one of
the younger ones, from the third wife, and our new mama is kindling
again. The five oldest fight in your uncle's army now, with our
father," he added proudly. 'I'm going
to be a warrior, too," Tobin told him. "I'll be a great
lord like my father and fight the Plenimarans on land and sea." 'Well, of
course! You being a prince and all." 'I suppose
you could come with me and be my squire. You'd be a knight, like
Tharin." The older
boy stuck his hands under his belt like a grown man and nodded. "Sir
Ki? I like the sound of that. Not much chance of that back home." There was
that smile again, making Tobin feel all funny inside. "Why do
you prefer being called Ki?" he asked. 'That's
what everyone calls me back home. Kirothius is too damn long—"
He stopped, looking embarrassed. "Begging your pardon, Tobin! I
mean prince—! That is, my prince. Oh hell!" Tobin
giggled with guilty delight. He wasn't allowed to curse and swear;
Nari said it was common. But Tharin's men did when they thought he
wasn't listening. "You can just call me Tobin. Everyone else
does most of the time." 'Well—"
Ki looked around nervously. "I better call you Prince Tobin when
anyone else is around. Father said he'd make sure I got a beating if
he got word I was disrespectful." 'I wouldn't
let him!" Tobin exclaimed. No one ever struck Tobin except
Brother. "We'll just tell him that I gave you my permission.
Since I'm a prince, he'll have to obey me. I think." 'That's all
right then," Ki said, relieved. 'Do you
want to see my horse?" In the
stable Ki climbed the side of Gosi's stall and let out a whistle of
appreciation. "He's a beauty, all right. I seen lots of these
Aurenfaie at the Horse Fair at Ero. What kind of 'faie did you get
him from?" 'How do you
mean?" 'Well,
there's all kinds of them, depending on what part of Aurenen they're
from. The people, I mean, not the horses. You can tell 'em apart by
the colors of their sen'gai." 'Their
what?" 'Those
colored head cloths they wear." 'Oh, those.
I saw some Aurenfaie wizards once," Tobin told him, glad at last
to seem a little worldly. Ki was only a poor knight's son, but he'd
been to Ero and knew about horses. "They did magic and played
music. And they had marks on their faces. Designs." 'That'd be
Khatme or Ky'arin clan, I bet. They're the only ones that do that,
far as I know." They
wandered back out to the barracks yard, where Tobin spied the wooden
swords he and Tharin had used earlier in the day. "I think
you're supposed to practice with me. Want to try now?" With some
common ground established at last, they saluted each other and
started in. But Ki didn't fight in careful drills like Tharin did. He
swung hard and moved in aggressively, as if they were really
fighting. Tobin fought back as best he could until Ki caught him a
sharp blow across the hand. Tobin yelped and stuck his fingers in his
mouth without thinking to call "hold." Ki lunged
in and poked him in the belly. "I call a kill!" Tobin
grunted and grabbed at his middle with his wounded hand, trying not
to let on how embarrassed he was. "You're much better than I
am." Ki grinned
and clapped him on the shoulder. "Well, I had all them brothers
and sisters to teach me, and Father, too. You
should see me after a practice with them! Bruises all over. My sister
Cytra split my lip wide open last year. I bawled like a cut shoat
when my stepmother sewed it up. Look, you can still see the scar over
on the left side." Tobin
leaned close and squinted at the small white line that crossed Ki's
upper lip. 'That's a
nice one, too." Ki touched his thumb to the scar on Tobin's
chin. "It looks just like Illior's moon. Bet that makes it
lucky. How'd you get it?" Tobin
jerked back. "I—I fell." He wished
that Ki was right about the scar being lucky, but he was certain it
wasn't. Just thinking about it made him feel bad. 'Well,
don't fret yourself," said Ki. "You're just not used to my
way of righting. I'll learn—ah, teach you, if you like. I'll go
slow, too. Promise." He touched his sword to his brow and gave
Tobin a bucktoothed grin. "Shall we go again, my prince?" The bad
feeling quickly passed as he and Ki began again. This boy was
different than anyone he'd ever met, except maybe Tharin. Even though
he was older and obviously knew more of the world than Tobin, there
was nothing behind his eyes or smile that didn't match what he said.
Tobin felt all strange inside when Ki grinned at him, but it was a
good feeling, like the way he'd felt in his dream where Brother was
alive. Ki kept his
word, too. He went more slowly this time, and tried to explain what
he was doing and how Tobin could defend himself. In this way, Tobin
saw that he was using the same thrusts and guards that Tharin had
taught him. They
started slow, stepping through the positions, but soon Tobin found
himself having to work to keep his guard up. Their wooden blades
clacked together like a heron's beak, and their shadows jumped and
darted like moths in the moonlight. Ki was the
more aggressive fighter, but he didn't have the control that Tharin
had instilled in Tobin. Ducking a wild swing, Tobin lunged forward
and struck Ki across the ribs. The older boy dropped his sword and
collapsed in an ungainly heap at his feet. 'I'm slain,
Your Highness!" he gasped, pretending to hold his guts in. "Send
my ashes home to my father!" Tobin had
never seen anything like this, either. It was so absurd that he
laughed, hesitantly at first out of surprise, then louder because it
felt so good when Ki joined in. 'Damn your
ashes!" Tobin giggled, feeling giddy and wicked. This
started Ki laughing again and their voices echoed together off the
courtyard walls. Ki made faces, screwing up his eyes and hanging his
tongue out of the side of his mouth. Tobin laughed so hard his sides
hurt and his eyes watered. 'By the
Four, what a racket!" Tobin
turned to find Nari and Tharin watching them from the gateway. 'You
haven't hurt him, have you, Tobin?" Nari demanded. Tharin
chuckled. "What do you say, Ki? Will you live?" Ki
scrambled to his feet and bowed, "Yes, Sir Tharin." 'Come
along, you two," Nari said, shooing them toward the door. "Ki's
had a long ride and you've been feeling ill, Tobin. It's time you
were both off to bed." Tobin
stifled the sudden urge to shout, "Damn your bed!" settling
instead for an exchanged smirk with Ki. As they headed back into the
house, he heard Tharin chuckle again and whisper to Nari, "You
have been exiled too long, girl, if you don't recognize play when you
see it!" JLt wasn't
until they reached Tobin's door that he realized Ki was to share both
his chamber and his bed. Ki's small traveling bundle lay on the
disused chest where Tobin had the doll hidden, and an unfamiliar bow
and quiver leaned in the corner next to his own. 'But, he
can't!" Tobin whispered, tugging Nari back out into the
corridor. What would Brother do? And what if Ki found the doll or saw
him with it? 'Now, now.
You're too old for a nurse," Nari murmured. "A boy your age
should have been sharing a room with a companion long since."
She rubbed at her eyes, and Tobin saw she was trying not to cry. "I
should have told you, I know, pet, but I didn't think he'd get here
so soon and— Well, this is the way it must be." She was
using her firm voice now, the one that warned there was no use in
arguing. "I'll sleep down in the hall now, with the others. Just
call down if you need me, like you always do when you're in bed
before me." Ki must
have heard them. When Tobin and Nari came back in, he was standing in
the middle of the room looking uncertain again. Nari bustled over to
the bed and went to put his bundle away in the chest. "We'll
just stow your things in here. Tobin doesn't—-" 'No!"
Tobin cried. "No, you can't put that in there." 'Tobin,
shame on you!" Ki had his
head down now, looking as if he wanted to sink into the floor. 'No, it's
just— I have ink jars in there," he explained hastily. The
words came easily, being true. The doll was hidden in the flour sack
under a heap of parchments and his drawing tools. "There's ink
and pens and wax and things. They'd soil his clothes. There's lots of
room in the wardrobe, though. Put your things in with mine, Ki. We
can share. Like—like brothers!" He felt his
face go hot. Where had those last words come from? But Ki was smiling
again and Nari looked pleased. Nari put
Ki's few belongings into the wardrobe and made them wash their teeth
and faces. Tobin stripped down to his shirt and climbed into bed, but
Ki seemed hesitant again. 'Go on,
lad," Nari urged. "Strip off and get in. I put a warm brick
down the end to take the chill off." 'I don't
strip off to sleep," Ki told her. 'That's all
well and good for country folk, but you're in a noble house now, so
the sooner you learn our ways, the better for you." Ki mumbled
something else as his cheeks flamed. 'What's the
matter, boy?" 'I don't
have a shirt," Ki told her. 'No shirt?"
Nari clucked her tongue. "Well now, I'll go find you one. But
see that you skin out of those dusty things before I get back. I
don't want your road dirt in the clean linens." She lit the
night lamp and blew out the others. Then she kissed Tobin soundly on
the cheek, and Ki, too, making him blush again. He waited
until the door had closed behind her, then pulled off his tunic and
trousers and hurried under the covers to keep warm. As he got in,
Tobin saw that Ki's slender body was almost as brown as his face,
except for a band of pale skin around his hips and privates. 'How come
you're only white there?" asked Tobin, whose own body was fair
as new butter summer and winter. Shivering,
Ki snuggled in next to him. "We wear clouts, swimming. There's
snapper turtles in the river and you don't want them biting off your
diddler!" Tobin
giggled again, though more at the oddness of having a stranger in
Nari's place than what Ki had said. Nari returned with one of
Tharin's old shirts and Ki struggled into it under the covers. Nari kissed
them both again and went out, shutting the door softly behind her. Both boys
lay quiet for a while, watching the play of lamplight on the carved
beams overhead. Ki was still shivering. 'Are you
cold?" asked Tobin, shifting away from a sharp elbow. 'You're
not?" Ki said through chattering teeth. "Well, I guess
you're used to it." 'Used to
what?" 'Sleeping
bare, or almost, with just one person for warmth. Like I told you
before, my brothers and me sleep all together in our clothes. It's
nice, mostly, especially in winter." He sighed. " 'Course,
Amin gets the farts, which makes it that much warmer." Both boys
dissolved into laughter again, shaking the bed. 'I've never
heard anyone talk like you!" Tobin gasped, wiping his eyes on
the edge of the sheet. 'Oh, I'm a
bad character. Ask anyone. Hey, what's that?" He pushed back
Tobin's left sleeve to inspect the birthmark. "Did you burn
yourself?" 'No, I've
always had it. Father says it's a sign I'm wise." 'Oh, yeah?
Like this." Ki hauled down the covers and showed Tobin a brown
spot on his right hip the size of a man's thumbprint. "Bad luck
mark, a soothsayer told my mam, but I been lucky so far. Look at me,
here with you. That's luck! Now, my sister Ahra's got one of them red
ones like yours on her left tit. A wizard she showed it to down in
Erind claimed it means she's feisty and sharp-tongued, so I guess he
must have known how to read marks better. She's got a voice can
curdle vinegar when she's riled up." He pulled the covers up
again and sighed. "She treated me good, though, mostly. That's
her old quiver I come with. It's got cuts on it from Plenimaran
swords, and a stain she claims is blood!" 'Really?" 'Yeah. I'll
show you tomorrow." As they
drifted off to sleep at last, Tobin decided that having a companion
might not be such a bad thing after all. Caught up in thoughts of
sisters and battles, he didn't notice the dark shape lurking unbidden
in the far corner. Brother
woke Tobin sometime later with a cold touch on his chest. When Tobin
opened his eyes, the ghost was standing next to the bed, pointing
across the room at the chest where the doll was hidden. Tobin could
feel Ki's warm, bony back pressed against his own, but he also saw
him kneeling in front of the chest. Tobin
shivered as he watched the boy open the lid and take out a few
things, examining them with curiosity. Tobin knew this was a vision.
Brother had shown him things before, like the dying fox, and they
were never nice. When Ki found the doll, his expression changed to
one Tobin knew all too well. Then the
scene shifted. It was daylight now; lya and Arkoniel were there with
Ki, and Father, too. They put the doll down on the chest and cut it
open with long knives, and it bled. Then they took it away, looking
back at him with expressions of such sadness and disgust that his
face burned. The vision
vanished, but the fear remained. As much as the thought of losing the
doll terrified him, the look on everyone's faces—especially his
father's and Ki's—filled him with grief and desperation. Brother was
still there beside the bed, touching his chest and Tobin's, and Tobin
knew he'd shown him a true thing. Nari had never bothered with the
old chest before. Ki was going to find the doll and everything would
be ruined. He lay very
still, his heart beating so loudly in his ears he could hardly hear
Ki's soft breathing behind him. What could he do? Send
him away, hissed Brother. Tobin
thought about what it had felt like to laugh with Ki and shook his
head. "No," he replied, barely making a sound with his
mouth. He didn't have to. Brother always heard him. "And don't
you ever try to hurt him again! I have to hide it somewhere else.
Somewhere no one will find it." Brother
disappeared. Tobin looked around and found him by the chest,
motioning to him. Tobin slid
out of bed and crept across the cold floor, praying Ki wouldn't wake
up. The lid rose by itself as he reached for it. For an instant he
imagined Brother slamming it down on him for spite as he reached in,
but he didn't. Tobin eased the flour sack out from under the rustling
parchments and tiptoed into the corridor. It was very
late. No light showed at the staircase leading to the hall. The
corridor lamp had gone out, but patches of moonlight gave him enough
light to see by. Brother
wasn't showing himself now. Tobin hugged the doll to his chest,
wondering where to go. Arkoniel was still sleeping in the toy room
next door, and would soon occupy the newly repaired rooms upstairs,
so that was no good. There was nowhere downstairs that someone
wouldn't look, either. Perhaps he could get outside again into the
forest and find some dry hole nearby? But no, the doors would all be
barred and besides, there might be catamounts in the forest at night.
Tobin shivered miserably. His bare feet ached -with cold and he had
to piss. A creak of
hinges came from the far end of the corridor as the door to the third
floor swung open, shining like silver in the moonlight. The doorway
beyond was a black mouth waiting to swallow him up. Yes, there
was one place, a place no one could go
except Brother. And him. Brother
appeared in the open doorway. He looked at Tobin, then turned and
disappeared up the dark stairs. Tobin followed, stubbing his bare
toes on steps he could not see. In the
upstairs corridor moonlight streamed in through the new rosette
windows, casting pools of black and silver lace on the walls. It took all
his courage to approach the tower door; he thought he could feel his
mother's angry spirit standing just on the other side, glaring at him
right through the wood. He stopped a few feet away, heart beating so
hard it hurt to breathe. He wanted to turn and run away but he
couldn't move, not even when he heard the lock give. The door swung
slowly open to reveal— Nothing. His mother
was not standing there. Neither was Brother. It was dark inside, so
dark that the lacy moonlight faded to a murky glow just a few inches
inside. A current of cold, stale air crawled around his ankles. Come,
Brother whispered from the darkness. ,' can't!
Tobin thought, but somehow he was already following that voice. He
found the first worn stone step with his toes and put his foot on it.
The door closed behind him, shutting out the light. The spell that
held Tobin broke. He dropped the doll and scrabbled for the door
handle. The metal was so cold it burned his palm. The wooden door
panels felt as if they were covered with frost as he beat his hands
against them. The door wouldn't budge. Upstairs,
Brother urged. Tobin
slumped against the door, breathing in panicky sobs. "Flesh my
flesh," he managed at last. "Blood my blood, bone my bone,"
and there was Brother at the base of the stairs, dressed in a ragged
nightshirt and holding out his hand for Tobin to follow. When he
didn't move, Brother squatted down in front of him, peering into his
face. For the first time, Tobin saw that Brother had the same little
crescent-shaped scar on his chin that Tobin did. Then Brother opened
the neck of his shirt, showing Tobin that he had another scar, as
well. Tobin could see two thin vertical lines of stitching on
Brother's chest, very close together,
perhaps three inches long. It reminded Tobin of the seams on his
mother's dolls, but the stitches were even finer, and the skin was
puckered and bloody around them. That
must hurt, Tobin thought. It
does, all the time, whispered Brother, and one bloody tear fell
down his cheek before he disappeared again, taking all illusion of
light with him. Feeling his
way blindly, Tobin found the bag and slid his feet across the stone
floor until he found the first step again. The darkness made him
dizzy, so he crawled up the stairs on his hands and knees, dragging
the bag beside him. His bladder was so full it hurt, but he didn't
quite dare let go here in the darkness. As he
climbed higher he realized that he could see a few stars through the
arrow slits above. This gave him his bearings and he hurried up the
last few steps to find the upper door standing open for him, just as
he'd expected. All he had to do now was hide the doll. Then he could
find a chamber pot or even an open window and go back to bed. The room
was full of moonlight. Brother had opened the shutters. The few times
Tobin had let himself think of this room, he remembered a cozy little
chamber with tapestries on the walls and dolls on a table. This was a
shambles. His memories of his last visit here were still fragmentary,
but the sight of a broken chair leg stirred something dark and
hurtful deep in his chest. His
mother had brought him up here because she was scared of the king. She
had jumped out the window because she was so scared. She'd
wanted him to jump, too. Tobin
inched inside and saw that only the window facing west toward the
mountains was open. The
same window— That's
where the light came from. He moved to stand before it, as if the
moon's white glow could protect him from all the shadowy fears
building around him. His foot struck a broken chair back, then trod
on a soft lump. It was a doll's arm. He'd watched his mother make
hundreds. Someone— Brother
—had strewn his mother's things all over the floor. Bolts of
cloth were thrown into a corner and mice had chewed holes in the
little bales of stuffing wool. Turning slowly, he searched in vain
for her fine boy dolls among the wreckage, but he couldn't see any,
just bits and lumps and rags. Something,
a spool of thread perhaps, tinkled to the floor and Tobin jumped. 'Mama?"
he croaked, praying she was there. Praying she
wasn't. Not knowing
which face she would show now that she was dead. He heard
another little thud and a rat scampered across the floor with a
mouthful of wool. Tobin
slowly eased his aching grip on the flour sack. Brother was right.
This was the best place. Nobody came
here. Nobody
would look. He carried
the sack to a moonlit corner across from the door. Placing it on the
floor, he pulled the chair back over it and then piled some of the
musty cloth over that. Dust motes rose in firefly clouds to choke
him. There.
That's done. The task
had held his fear at bay, but as he got to his feet again he felt it
flooding back. He turned hastily for the door, trying not to think
about having to go down those steep stairs in the dark. His mother
stood silhouetted in the open window. He knew her by the shape of her
shoulders and the way her hair fell loose around them. He could not
see her face to read her eyes or the lines around her mouth. He
didn't know if this was the good or the frightening mother taking a
step toward him, holding out her arms. For an
instant Tobin hung suspended in time and horror. She threw
no shadow. She made no
sound. She smelled
of flowers. That was
the window she had tried to throw him out of. She had dragged him
there, sobbing and cursing the king. She had
pushed him out, but someone else pulled him back and he'd banged his
chin on the sill— The memory
tasted like blood. Then
somehow he was in motion, dashing out the door, blundering down the
stairs, one hand pressed to the rough stone wall, feeling the dry
crusts of bird droppings and parched lichen flaking off beneath his
fingers. He heard a sob and a slam behind him but refused to look
back. He could see all the way to the bottom of the stairs now,
guided by a rectangle of moonlight where the tower door stood open.
He rushed headlong through it and flung it shut, not waiting to see
if the latch caught, not caring if anyone heard. He fled downstairs,
deafened by the ragged rush of his own frantic lungs, only dimly
aware that his nightshirt and legs were wet. The realization that
he'd wet himself halted him just outside his own room. He didn't even
remember doing it. He fought
back fresh tears, berating himself for such weakness. Slipping in, he
listened to be certain Ki was still sleeping, then pulled off the
soiled shirt and used a sleeve and the cold water left in the basin
to clean himself. He found his other shirt in the wardrobe, then
carefully climbed back into bed. He tried not to shake the mattress,
but Ki jerked awake with a frightened gasp, staring wide-eyed down
the bed. Brother
stood there, glaring back at him. Tobin
gripped the older boy's shoulder, trying to keep him from crying out.
"Don't be scared, Ki, he won't—" Ki turned
to him with a shaky little laugh. "Bilairy's balls, it's only
you! For a minute I thought it was that ghost of yours crawling into
the bed. You're cold enough to be one." Tobin
glanced at Brother, then back at Ki. He couldn't see Brother standing
there hating him. He didn't have the eye. Even so, Ki
looked as scared as if he had as he asked, "Can I tell you
something, Prince Tobin?" Tobin
nodded. Ki fiddled
with the edge of the quilt. "When old lya told me about the
ghost, I almost ran for home, even though I knew my father'd beat me
and put me on the road. I almost did. And then, when the ghost
started throwing things around downstairs tonight? I nearly pissed
myself I was so scared. But you just stood there, like it didn't even
matter…" He hugged his arms around his drawn-up knees. "I
guess what I'm trying to say is that my father didn't raise any
cowards. I'm not feared of anything, except ghosts, and I can stand
that to serve someone as brave as you. If you'll still have me." He
thinks I'm going to send him away. In that instant of
recognition, Tobin nearly blurted it all out, about Brother and the
doll and his mother and the wet nightshirt in a heap by the door. But
the worshipful look in the older boy's eyes sealed the words behind
his teeth. Instead, he
just shrugged and said, "Everyone's afraid of him, even
Arkoniel. I'm used to him, that's all." He wanted to promise Ki
that Brother wouldn't hurt him again, but he wasn't sure of that yet
and didn't want to lie. Ki got up
on his knees and touched his forehead and heart in the soldier's
salute. "Well, I still say you're brave, and if you'll accept my
service, then I swear by Sakor and Illior that I'm your man until
death." 'I accept,"
Tobin replied, feeling silly and proud at the same time. Ki had no
sword to offer him, so they clasped hands on it and he flopped back
down beside Tobin and burrowed under the covers. Young as he
was, Tobin understood that something important had passed between
them. Until death, Ki had said. This conjured images of them riding
side by side under his father's banner on some distant battlefield. So long as
the doll stayed hidden. So long as no one ever found out what was up
there in the tower. Mama
is up there, locked in the tower. The night's
horror closed in around him again and he turned his back against
Ki's, glad not to be alone. He would never go there again. She was
there, waiting to catch him. But the tower was locked and Brother
wouldn't let anyone else in. Brother had
warned him and his secret was safe. Now he would never see Ki looking
at him with the face Brother had shown him in the vision. 'Tobin?"
A sleepy mumble. 'What'" 'You say
that ghost of yours is a he?" 'Yes. I
call him Brother." 'Huh…
I'd heard tell it was a girl." 'Huh." Ki's soft
snore lulled Tobin to sleep, and he dreamed of riding east with Ki to
find Ero and the sea. A fter the
household had settled for the night, Arkoniel -iYtook lya outside to
walk in the meadow, just as he and Rhius had two months before. There
had been bats and fireflies that night, and the song of frogs. Tonight the
meadow and forest were silent except for the hunting cries of owls in
the moonlight. It was very cold, and the wizards' shadows fell
sharp-edged across frost-coated grass as they followed one of the
paths the workers had worn along the riverbank. The forest and peaks
glimmered white around them. In the distance, a few fires still
glowed in front of the handful of tents left at the bottom of the
meadow. Most of the workmen had finished their tasks. The rest would
soon be gone, as well, anxious to return to the city before the snow
fell. Arkoniel's
encounter with Lhel earlier in the day weighed heavily on his mind.
As they walked he tried to find the proper words to explain what had
happened. 'What do
you think of your new occupation?" she asked before he could
broach the subject. 'I don't
think I'm much of a teacher. Tobin cares nothing for learning or me,
as far as I can tell. It's all warcraft and hunting with him. All he
talks of is being a warrior." Even alone here they were careful
to refer to Tobin as "he" and "him." 'So you
dislike him?" 'Not in the
least!" Arkoniel exclaimed. "He's intelligent, and a
wonderful artist. You should see the little figures he makes. I think
we're the happiest together when we're watching the craftsmen and
builders." lya
chuckled. "Then it's not 'all warcraft and hunting' after all? A
clever teacher would find a way to make use of such interests.
There's a great deal of mathematics in building a sound arch or
planning a mural. The compounding of colors is practically alchemy.
And to create the shapes of living things, one ought to have a sound
knowledge of them." Arkoniel
raised his hands in surrender. "Yes, I see I've been a complete
mole. I'll try to make a fresh start with him." 'Don't
judge yourself too harshly, my boy. This isn't a young wizard you're
training, after all, but a noble. Even as ruler, Tobin will never
need the sort of education that we do. Half the Palatine can't write
much more than their names. I must say I admire Rhius' stand on the
matter; you still hear a good many fine lords and ladies calling it
scribe's work. Teach them all to read for themselves and you'll put
half the well-bred merchants' daughters out of an occupation. No, you
keep on with that, and give him what you can of the disciplines he
might find useful later on. Geography and history—you're well
versed in those. He should learn something of music, and dancing,
too, before he's summoned to court—" 'Have you
heard something? Do you think he will be summoned soon?" 'No, but it
must come eventually, unless Rhius is willing to paint him as an
utter idiot to the king. And that will make our task a great deal
more difficult when the moment arrives. No, I think we must assume
that it will be necessary in the due course of time. He's just
turning ten now. I'd say three years is the best we can hope
for—perhaps less, being Royal Kin." She paused, frowning.
"I pray he has time to grow up to his role before he has to step
into it. There's no way of knowing." Arkoniel
shook his head. "He's so young, so—" He groped for
the word. "Unworldly. It's difficult to imagine the fate that
weighs on those narrow little shoulders." 'Take what
the Lightbearer sends," lya replied. "Whatever happens, we
must make the best of what we are given to work with. For now, your
task is to keep him safe and happy. You'll be my eyes here from now
on. And if anything—untoward should happen with Ki…
Perhaps you shouldn't allow yourself to get too attached." 'I know.
Rhius made that a condition. It makes poor Ki sound like the pet lamb
being fattened for the Solstice feast." 'He is here
at your insistence, Arkoniel. Don't ever let that gentle heart of
yours blind you to the reality of our situation." 'I've felt
the god's touch, lya. I never forget that." She patted
his arm. "I know. Now tell me more of Tobin." 'I'm
concerned about his fear of magic." 'He fears
you?" 'Not me,
exactly, but— Well, he takes the oddest turns! When I first
arrived, for instance, I tried to entertain him with a few pretty
spells. You know, the sort of illusions that we'd do to amuse the
children of any host?" 'And he was
not amused?" 'You'd
think I'd cut off my head and thrown it at him! The one time I did
manage to please him with a vision of Ero, the demon nearly tore the
room down. I haven't dared try anything more with him since."
lya raised an eyebrow. "He must be cured of this if we are to
realize our goal. Perhaps Ki can be of some help to you there. He
liked the little tricks and illusions I showed him as we traveled."
She smiled up at him. "You haven't yet said what you think of my
choice." 'Judging by
what I saw tonight, you chose very well. I was watching him when the
demon attacked. He was terrified, but still went to Tobin instead of
running away. He already understands his duty, without even knowing
his lord." 'Rather
exceptional for one so young. Now, as for the demon, was that
unusual, what happened?" 'Not
really, though it was more severe than anything I've seen since my
arrival. I got something of the same kind of reception when I first
arrived. It said it remembered me, so it must have known you, as
well. That doesn't explain its attack on Ki, though. Has he any magic
in him?" 'No, and
it's a shame, for he might make an interesting wizard. He should do
very nicely for Tobin. Now that I've seen the child, I must admit you
were correct. He desperately needs some semblance of normal society."
lya turned back toward the keep and a frown creased her brow. "I
only hope Ki influences him, rather than the other way around. I
expected better of Rhius." 'I gather
it's been difficult for him, with the demon and Ariani's madness.
None of us foresaw that." 'Illior
brings madness, as well as insight." In the cold, pale light,
lya suddenly looked like a statue made of iron. The image struck
Arkoniel through with sadness. For the first time since he'd known
her, he admitted to himself how hard she could be, how removed from
the common flow of humanity. He'd seen this in other wizards, a
detachment from what seemed to him normal feeling. It came of living
so long, she'd once told him, but he'd tried hard to not see it in
her. Then she
turned to him with a sad smile and the dark fancy retreated. She was
again his patient teacher, the woman he loved as a second mother. 'Did you
see anything when the demon was present?" he asked. 'No, but I
felt it. It does remember me and it does not forgive. But I gathered
from your letter that you saw it?" 'Only once,
but as clearly as I see you now. The day I arrived here it was
waiting for me down there where the road comes out of the trees. It
looked exactly like Tobin, except for the eyes—" 'You're
wrong there." lya plucked a stalk of dead grass and twirled it
between her fingers. "It doesn't look like Tobin. Tobin looks
like it, or at least as the dead boy would have looked, had he lived.
That was the purpose of Lhel's magic, after all, to give the girl
child the semblance of her brother. Illior only knows what Tobin
actually looks like." She paused, tapping the dry stalk against
her chin. "I wonder what name he will choose, after the change?" The thought
was somewhat disorienting, but it also jarred him back to what he'd
come out here for in the first place. 'I saw Lhel
today. From what I could gather, I'd say she's been here all along." 'The witch
is here? By the Light, why didn't Nari or Rhius say something?" 'They don't
know. No one does. I don't know how, lya, but it seems she followed
the child here and lives somewhere nearby." 'I see."
lya gazed around at the forest that hemmed in the keep. "Did she
say why?" Arkoniel
hesitated, then slowly explained what had happened between the two of
them. When he reached the point where Lhel had overpowered him,
however, he faltered to a halt. The temptation had been so great;
just thinking of it now stirred the dark, thrilling guilt in him. It
had been Lhel who had stopped short of coupling, not he. 'She—she
wanted me to break celibacy, in return for learning what she had to
teach. And as payment for watching over Tobin." 'I see."
Arkoniel caught another glimpse of iron in her. "Is it your
impression that she will abandon the child if you don't comply with
her demand?" 'No, she
must make amends to her own gods somehow for creating the demon. I
don't think she could go against that. Short of killing her, I doubt
we could force her away." 'Nor should
we." lya stared at the river, lost in thought. 'I've never
told anyone this before," she said softly, "but my own
master studied the Old Magic. It's more powerful than you know." 'But it's
forbidden!" lya snorted. "So is what we are attempting,
dear boy. And why do you suppose I sought her out in the first place?
Perhaps it's the fate of the wizards of our line to do what is
forbidden when necessary. Perhaps it is what Illior intends for you." 'You mean I
should learn from her?" 'I believe
I can undo the magics she wove on Tbbin. But what if I'm wrong? What
if I die before the time comes, as Agazhar did with me? Yes, it might
be best if you learn from her what must be done, and in her way." 'But her
price?" Arkoniel's chest tightened at the thought. He tried to
believe it was purely revulsion. lya's lips
pressed into a thin line of disapproval. "Offer her something
else." 'What if
she refuses?" 'Arkoniel,
I taught you what my master taught me; that celibacy preserves our
power. I have practiced it since I undertook the craft. There are
those who stray, however, and not all of them have been weakened by
the experience. Many, but not all…" Arkoniel
felt as if the earth were opening up under his feet. "Why didn't
you ever tell me this before?" 'Why would
I? As a child you didn't need to know. And as a young man in your
prime? It was too dangerous, the temptation too real. I was nearly as
old as you are now when I began my training, and no virgin. The tides
of the flesh are strong, make no mistake, and we all feel their pull.
Once a wizard gets past the first life and feels his power strong in
him, it becomes easier to bear. The carnal pleasures pale in
comparison, I promise you." 'I will
refuse her, lya." 'You will
do what you will do, dear boy." lya took his hands between her
own and looked into his face; her skin was cold as ivory. "There's
so much more I'd hoped to teach you. Before Afra I imagined that we
had the rest of my life together. You are my successor, Arkoniel, and
the finest student I've ever had. We've known that for some time,
Illior and I." She patted the bag hanging over her shoulder.
"But Illior has other plans for you just now, as we've both
seen. For the time being you must take what lessons you can find and
make of them what you can. If Lhel can teach you, then learn from
her. Barring all else, you must keep watch and learn if she has any
ill intent toward the child." 'Your
answer is no answer at all!" Arkoniel groaned, more confused
than ever. lya
shrugged. "You're not a child anymore, or an apprentice. There
comes a time when a wizard must learn to trust his own heart. You've
been doing just that for some time now, though you don't seem to have
noticed yet." Smiling, she tapped him on the chest. "Listen
to this, my dear. I believe it to be a good, true guide." Arkoniel
felt a sudden chill of premonition. "That sounds almost like a
farewell." lya smiled sadly. "It is, but only to the boy
who was my student. The man who's stolen into his place needn't fear
losing me. I like him too much for that, and we've a great deal of
work to do together." 'But—"
Arkoniel groped for words. "How will I know the right things to
do, to help Tobin and protect him?" 'Do you
think Illior would have sent you here unless you were worthy of the
task? Now, then. Are you going to keep an old woman outdoors all
night or may we go in now?" 'Old woman,
eh? When did that happen?" Arkoniel asked, slipping his arm
through hers as they walked up the hill. 'I've been
wondering that myself." "How
long can you stay?" 'Not long,
judging from the demon's reception. How has it treated you since it
broke your arm?"
'Surprisingly well. It knocks the furniture around now and then, but
Tobin appears to have some control over it. According to Nari, it has
been much quieter since Ariani's death." 'Very odd.
You'd think it would be just the opposite. In all my years, Arkoniel,
I've never seen a spirit quite like this one. It makes one wonder…" 'What?" 'Whether it
will surprise us again when we try to break its bond with Tobin." V,'hey
returned to the keep, intending for lya to share Arkoniel's room for
the night. As soon as they set foot inside the hall, however, they
could feel the demon's malevolence closing in around them. The air
thickened perceptibly and the hearth fire guttered and burned pale. Nari and
the others of the household gathered around the hearth looked up in
alarm. 'Be
careful, lya. There's no telling what it will do," Tharin
warned. The ominous
weight of silence drew out, and then they heard something clatter
loudly to the floor at the far end of the room near the high table.
Another clatter followed and lya cast a light in the air,
illuminating the room enough to see the silver plate being knocked
from the shelves of the sideboard. One by one, platters and bowls
slid off with a thud or clank onto the rushes. Each object moved by
itself, but Arkoniel could easily imagine the wild, surly child he'd
encountered at the bottom of the meadow, watching them over its
shoulder and smiling spitefully as it reached for the next salver or
cup. The strange
performance continued, and each successive dish flew a little further
from the sideboard, veered a little more in their direction. 'That's
quite enough of that!" lya muttered. Striding down the hall, she
stopped just short of the sideboard and sketched a circle of white
light on the air before her with her crystal wand. 'What's she
doing?" asked Nari. 'I'm not
certain," Arkoniel said, trying to read the sigils lya was
inscribing into the circle. It looked something like a banishing
spell a drysian had tried to teach them, but the sigils taking shape
in the circle were not what he recalled. Perhaps lya
was mistaken in her weaving, for just then a heavy silver platter
flew from its shelf and collided with the circle. Pattern and wand
exploded in a sudden burst of blue-white fire. lya cried out,
clutching her hand to her side. Blinking
black spots from his vision, Arkoniel ran to her and pulled lya away
as the demon scattered the remaining silver around the room, then
began overturning benches. Arkoniel wrapped his arms around her and
pulled her head down, trying to shield her. Then Tharin was there,
doing the same for both of them. 'Outside!"
lya gasped, trying to push them off. They
staggered out into the courtyard with the rest of the frightened
servants, then looked back in through the open doorway to see
tapestries flying through the air. One landed on the open hearth. 'Fetch
water!" Mynir shouted. "It means to set the house afire!" 'Go to the
barracks. You can sleep there," Tharin ordered, then dashed back
into the house to aid the others. Arkoniel
helped lya to the dark barracks house. A brazier stood just inside
the door and he snapped a finger over it, kindling a small blaze.
Narrow pallets lined the walls and lya sank down on the closest one.
Arkoniel gently took her wounded hand and examined it in the
flickering light. A long red burn marked where the crystal wand had
laid against her palm. Small cuts and fragments of the wand peppered
her fingers and knuckles. 'It's not
as bad as it looks," lya said, letting him pick out the shards
of crystal. 'Yes, it
is. Lie down. I'll go get a few things and come right back." He ran back
into the hall and found Cook and the others flailing at a smoking
tapestry and kicking smoldering rushes onto the hearth. 'Douse!"
Arkoniel ordered, clapping his hands sharply and spreading his palms
over the floor. The last of the sparks fizzled
out, leaving a stinking cloud in their wake, "lya's hurt. I need
simples for a burn, and clean rags for binding." Cook
fetched what he needed, and Tharin followed him out to the barracks
to oversee the binding of lya's hand. 'What
happened?" the captain demanded. "What was it you were
trying to do?" lya winced as Arkoniel bathed her hand in a
basin. "Something rather unwise, it would seem." Tharin
waited, giving her the opportunity to elucidate. When she didn't, he
nodded and said, "You'd best stay out here tonight. I'll sleep
in the hall." 'Thank
you." She looked up from Arkoniel's work. "What are you
doing here, Tharin? Rhius is at Atyion, isn't he?" 'I'm Prince
Tobin's swordmaster. I've stayed behind to continue his training."
"Indeed, Tharin?" Something
in the way lya said this made Arkoniel pause and look up. 'I've known
you since you and Rhius were boys together. Tell me how Rhius fares.
I've been away too long and feel like a stranger." Tharin
rubbed a hand over his short beard. "He's had a rough time of
it, as you might imagine. It was hard before, and losing Ariani in
such a way—not just her death, but having her mad all those
years after the birth, and hat ing him." He shook his head. "I
can't for the life of me understand why she blamed him for that child
dying, or why she took it so hard. I don't mean to speak ill of the
dead, lya, but I think there was more of her mother in her than
anyone ever guessed. Some say that's why the dead child haunts the
living one, though I don't put any stock in that." 'What else
do people say?" 'Oh, all
sorts of things." 'For the
sake of the child, tell me. You know it will go no further with us." Tharin
looked down at his scarred hands. "There are those who say that
Rhius found out he wasn't the father and killed one of the babes
before anyone could stop him; that that's why the dead child haunts,
and why he keeps Tobin away from court." 'What
nonsense! How is the duke managing at court?" 'The king
keeps him close, as always. He calls Rhius 'brother,' but—
Things have been a bit strained between them since she died, though a
good deal of that seems to be on Rhius' side. He's cleared out of his
rooms at the New Palace and gone back to Atyion. He can't even bear
to be here anymore." 'That's not
fair to the child." Tharin
looked up at them and, for the first time, Arkoniel saw a shadow of
pain and guilt there. "I know that and I told him so. That's
part of the reason I was sent back, if you must know. I haven't told
anyone here at the keep, for fear it would get back to Tobin. It
would break his heart and it's about broken mine." lya took his
hand in her good one. "You've always spoken to Rhius like a
brother, Tharin. I can't imagine that you've fallen too far out of
his graces. I'll speak to him about it when I meet him." Tharin rose
to go. "You don't need to. This will pass. Good night to you."
lya watched him go, then shook her head. "I've often regretted
not telling him." Arkoniel
nodded. "I feel it more strongly the longer I'm here." 'Let's
leave things as they are for now." lya flexed her bandaged hand
and winced. "I can ride with this. I think I'll be off tomorrow.
I want to see Ero again, and have a word with Rhius." 'Ero?
That's walking into the wolves' own den. You're sure to meet with
Harriers there." 'No doubt,
but they need looking into. I wish Illior had given us a glimpse of
them when this whole thing started. Don't
fret, Arkoniel. I'll be careful." 'More
careful than you were in the hall just now, I hope. What happened?" 'I don't
know, exactly. When I first arrived tonight and it attacked I felt
the circle of protection I'd cast bow like a tent wall in a high
wind. Just now I thought something stronger was called for and
attempted to push it from the room and seal the hall against it until
morning." "Did you make an error in the pattern?" "No,
the spell was laid out properly. But it didn't work, as you saw. As I
said earlier, this spirit is unlike anything I've ever encountered. I
wish I had more time to study it, but as things stand it would be too
disruptive for the children. I don't even dare go back in the house.
I would like to see Tobin again before I go, though. Will you bring
him to me in the morning? Alone, this time." 'Of course.
But I wouldn't expect it to be a long conversation if I were you.
He's not easily drawn." lya lay down on the pallet and chuckled.
"I could see that much at a glance. By the Light, you do have
your work cut out for you!" ~T7~i
was at the open window when Tobin woke the next JLVmorning. He stood
with his chin on one hand, picking absently at a patch of lichen on
the sill with long, restless fingers. He looked younger in daylight,
and sad. 'Do you
miss your family?" Ki's head
jerked up. "You must be a wizard, too. You can read thoughts."
But he smiled as he said it. "It's awful quiet here, isn't it?" Tobin sat
up and stretched. "Father's men make a lot of noise when they're
here. But they're all at Atyion now." 'I've been
there." Ki hitched himself up on the sill, bare legs dangling
under the hem of his shirt. "At least I've ridden past it on the
way to the city. Your castle is the biggest in Skala, outside of Ero.
How many rooms does it have?" 'I don't
know. I've never been there." Seeing Ki's eyebrows shoot up, he
added, "I've never been anywhere except here and Alestun. I was
born at the Palace but I don't remember it." 'You don't
go visiting? We have family all over the place and go guest with
them. If my uncle were the king, I'd want to go to Ero all the time.
There's music there, and dancing, and players in the street and—"
He broke off. "Oh, because of the demon?" 'I don't
know. Mama didn't like to go anywhere. And Father says there's plague
in the cities." It occurred to Tobin that Ki had survived his
travels well enough. He shrugged. "I've always just been here." Ki twisted
around to look out the window. "Well, what do you
do for fun? I bet you don't have to mend walls or tend pigs!" Tobin
grinned. "No, Father has tenants to do those things. I train
with Tharin and go hunting in the forest. And I have a toy city my
father made for me, but Arkoniel's in that room now so I'll have to
show you later." 'All right
then, let's go hunting." Ki slid off the sill and began looking
under the bed for his clothes. "Haw
many hounds do you have? I didn't see any in the hall last night." 'Just a few
old ones in the yard. But I don't hunt with them; dogs don't like me.
But Tharin says I'm a fine archer. I'll ask if he can take us
hunting." Brown eyes
peered at him over the edge of the bed. " Take
us? You mean you don't go by yourself?" 'I'm not to
go away from the keep alone." Ki
disappeared again and Tobin heard a sigh. "All right then. It's
not too cold to swim, or we could fish. I saw a good spot at the
bottom of the meadow." 'I've never
fished," Tobin admitted, feeling very awkward. "And I can't
swim." Ki rose up
and rested his elbows on the edge of the bed, regarding Tobin
quizzically. "How old are you?" 'I'll be
ten come the twentieth of Erasin." 'And they
don't let you have any fun on your own? Why not?" 'I don't
know, I—" 'You know
what?" Tobin shook
his head. 'Before I
left home, after lya bought me off my father, my sister told me she'd
heard of you." Tobin's
heart turned to stone in his chest. 'She said
that some folk at court say you're demon cursed, or simple in the
head, and that that's why you live clear out here instead of in Ero
or Atyion. You know what I think?" This was
it, then. Last night hadn't meant a thing after all. It was going to
be just the way he'd feared. Tobin kept his chin up and made himself
look Ki in the eye. "No. What do you think?" ',' think
the folks who say that have shit between their ears. And I think the
folks raising you are the ones simple in the head if they won't let
you outside on your own— not meaning any disrespect to Duke
Rhius, mind you." Ki gave him a teasing grin that swept away
every shadow and fear. "And I think it's well worth a beating to
get out on a day as fair as this is making up to be." 'Do you,
now?" asked Arkoniel, leaning against the door frame. Ki sat up,
blushing guiltily, but the wizard laughed. "So do I, and I don't
think it has to come to beatings. I've been talking with Nari and
Tharin. They agree that it's time Prince Tobin began following proper
boy's pursuits. With you here to accompany him, I don't think any
reasonable request will be refused so long as you don't stray too
far." Tobin
stared at the man. He knew he ought to be grateful for this sudden
change in the household rules, but he resented it coming from the
wizard. Who was Arkoniel to make such decisions, as if he was the
master of the house? 'Before you
go off on any adventures, though, my prince, lya would like to speak
with you," Arkoniel told him. "She's at the barracks. Ki,
why don't you go see what Cook has to eat? I'll meet you in the hall,
Tobin." Tobin
glared angrily at the door as it closed behind the wizard, then began
yanking on his clothes. "Who do they think they are, these
wizards, coming here and ordering me about?" 'I don't
think he was doing that," said Ki. "And don't worry about
lya. She's not so frightening as she seems." Tobin
shoved on his shoes. "I'm not scared of her." JLya was
enjoying her breakfast in a sunny corner of the barracks yard when
Arkoniel arrived with Tobin. Daylight
bore out the brief impression she'd formed the night before. The
child was thin and rather pale from too much time spent indoors, but
otherwise unmistakably male in appearance. No spell known to the
Oreska could have done more than create a glamour around the girl,
too easily detected or broken. Lhel's cruel stitching had held
perfectly. The magics sewn in with that bit of flesh had held sinew
and flesh in solid form, real as the female frame that lay hidden
beneath it. Sadly,
Tobin hadn't inherited his parents' handsome looks except for his
mother's eyes and well-shaped mouth, and even these were spoiled at
the moment by a sulky, guarded expression. Clearly, he wasn't pleased
to see her, but he made her a proper bow all the same. Too proper,
really. As Arkoniel had observed, there was little that was childlike
about this child. 'Good
morning, Prince Tobin. And how are you liking your new companion?" Tobin
brightened a little at that. "I like him very much, Mistress
lya. Thank you for bringing him." 'I must
leave today, but I wanted to speak with you before I go to visit your
father." 'You're
going to see Father?" Yearning so plain it made her heart ache
showed on the child's face. 'Yes, my
prince. May I take him a greeting from you?" 'Would you
please ask him when he's going to come home?" 'I plan to
speak to him about that. Now come and sit beside me so I may know you
better." For a
moment she thought he would refuse, but manners won out. He settled
on the stool she'd placed beside her chair, then looked curiously at
her bandaged hand. "Did you hurt yourself?" 'Your demon
was very angry with me last night. It burned my hand." 'Just as it
made my horse throw me when I first arrived," added Arkoniel. 'It
shouldn't have done that." Tobin's cheeks colored hotly as if
he'd done these things himself. 'Arkoniel,
I'd like to speak privately with the prince. Would you excuse us?" 'Of
course." 'It wasn't
your fault, my dear," lya began after Arkoniel had gone,
wondering how to draw out this strange child. When Tobin said
nothing, she took his thin, callused hand between her own and looked
deeply into his eyes. "You've had too many sorrows and frights
already in your young life. I won't tell you that there are no more
to come, but I hope things will be easier for you for a time." Still
holding his hand, she asked him about simple things at first: his
horse, his carvings, and his studies with Arkoniel and Tharin. She
did not read his thoughts, simply let the impressions come to her
through their clasped hands. Tobin answered each question she put to
him, but volunteered nothing more. 'You've
been very frightened, haven't you?" she ventured at last. "Of
your mother and the demon?" Tobin
shuffled his feet, drawing twin arcs in the dust with the toes of his
shoes. 'Do you
miss your mother?" Tobin
didn't look up, but a jolt passed between them and she caught an
image of Ariani as Tobin must have seen her that last terrible day,
clear as if lya was standing in the tower room with them. So it had
been terror that had driven the princess up to that tower, rather
than hatred of the child. But with this image came something else: a
fleeting twinge of something else associated with the tower,
something the child had pushed further from his mind than she'd
imagined possible in one so young. She saw him glance up at it. 'Why are
you so frightened of it now?" she asked. Tobin
pulled back and clasped his hands in his lap, not looking at her.
"I—I'm not." 'You
mustn't Jie to me, Tobin. You are mortally afraid of it." Tobin sat
mute as a turtle, but a torrent of emotion was building up behind
those stubborn blue eyes. "Mama's ghost is there," he said
at last, and again he looked strangely ashamed. "She's still
angry." 'I'm sorry
she was so unhappy. Is there something more you'd like to tell me
about her? You can, you know. I must seem like a stranger to you, but
I have served your family for many years. I've known your father all
of his life, and his mother and grandfather before him. I was a good
friend to them. I want to be your friend, as well, and serve you as
best I can. So does Arkoniel. Did he tell you that?" 'Nari did,"
Tobin mumbled. 'It was his
idea to come here and be your teacher, and to bring Ki here, too. He
was worried that you were lonely without any friends of your own age.
He also told me that you don't seem to like him." This earned
her only a sidelong glance and more silence. 'Did the
demon tell you not to like him?" "It's not a demon. It's a
ghost," Tobin said softly. "And it doesn't like you,
either. That's why it hurt you last night." 'I see."
She decided to gamble, knowing she had little to lose in the way of
trust. "Did Lhel say that the ghost doesn't like me?" Tobin shook
his head, then caught himself and looked up at her with startled
eyes. Here was one secret revealed. 'Don't be
scared, Tobin. I know she's here. So does Arkoniel. Did she speak to
you about us?" "No." 'How did
you meet her?" Tobin
squirmed on the stool. "In the woods, after Mama died." 'You went
into the forest alone?" He nodded.
"Are you going to tell?" 'Not if you
don't want me to, so long as you tell me the truth. Why did you go
into the woods, Tobin? Did she call you?" 'In dreams.
I didn't know it was her. I thought it was Mama. I had to go see, so
I stole out one day. I got lost but she found me and helped me get
back home." 'What else
did she do?" 'She let me
hold a rabbit, and she told me how to call Brother." 'Brother?" Tobin
sighed. "You promise you won't tell?" 'I'll try
not to, unless I think your father should know to keep you safe." Tobin
looked at her directly for the first time and the hint of a smile
quirked the corner of his mouth. "You could have lied, but you
didn't." For an
instant lya felt like she'd been stripped naked. If she hadn't
already known otherwise, she'd have looked for magic in him. Trying
to cover her surprise, she replied, "I'd rather we be honest
with each other." 'Brother is
what Lhel said to call the spirit. She said you can't give the dead a
name if they never had one before they died. Is that true?" 'She knows
about such things, so it must be true." 'Why didn't
Father or Nari tell me about him?" lya shrugged. "What do
you think of him, now that you know?" 'He still
does mean things, but I'm not as scared of him anymore." 'Why did
Lhel teach you to call him?" He looked
away, guarded again. "She said I'm to take care of him." 'You made
him stop throwing things in the hall last night, didn't you? Does he
always do what you tell him to do?" 'No. But I
can keep him from hurting people." He looked at her hand again.
"Usually." 'That's
very good of you." Another child might just as easily have done
the opposite. She would speak to Arkoniel about this before she left.
Outside the sheltered confines of the keep, it might occur to Tobin
to use his power differently. "Will you show me what she taught
you?" 'You mean
call Brother here?" Tobin looked less than enthusiastic at the
prospect. 'Yes. I'll
trust you to protect me." Still Tobin hesitated. 'Very well.
What if I close my eyes and put my fingers in my ears while you do
what she showed you? Just touch me on the knee when I can look."
"You promise not to look?" 'By my
hands and heart and eyes, I swear it. That's the most solemn and
binding oath a wizard can give." With that, she squeezed her
eyes shut and plugged her ears, then turned her back for good
measure. She kept
her promise not to look or listen. She didn't have to, for she felt
clearly enough the spell that rippled briefly in the air nearby. It
was a summoning of some sort, but not any she recognized. The air
around her went deathly cold. She felt a tap on her knee and opened
her eyes to find two boys standing before her. Perhaps it was Tobin's
proximity, or the spell itself. Perhaps the unquiet spirit had simply
chosen to show itself to her, but the one called Brother looked as
solid as his twin, except that he cast no shadow. Even without this,
however, there was no confusing the two. Brother was
completely still, but lya sensed a wild black rage in him. His mouth
did not move, but she heard the words, You will
not enter as clearly as if he'd put those pale lips to her ear.
The hair rose on the back of her neck, for the words had the bitter
tang of a curse. Then he was gone. 'You see?"
said Tobin. "Sometimes he just does what he wants to." 'You kept
him from attacking me. He would have if you weren't here. Thank you,
my prince," said lya. Tobin
managed a smile, but lya felt more disturbed than ever. A young
child, especially a child with no magic, should not have been able to
do what she had just witnessed. She nearly
laughed aloud when this bold little tamer of spirits replied, "You
won't tell, will you?" 'I'll make
you a bargain. I won't tell your father, or anyone else, if you let
me tell Arkoniel, and if you promise to try to be his friend and go
to him for help whenever you need it." She hesitated, weighing
her words. "You must tell him if Lhel asks anything of you that
scares you, anything at all. Will you promise me that?" Tobin
shrugged. "I'm not scared of her." 'Keesa
don't should be, Wizard," a familiar voice said from the
barracks doorway. "I help her." lya turned and found Lhel
regarding her with a scornful smile. "I help you. Help that boy
wizard of yours, too." She raised her left hand and showed lya
the crescent moon tattooed there. "By Goddess, I swear you not
make me go this time. When Brother go on, then I go. You leave me to
work until time I can go. You got own work, Wizard, to help this
child and the spirit." 'What are
you looking at?" asked Tobin. lya glanced
at him, then back. Lhel was gone. 'Nothing. A
shadow," lya said, distracted. Even looking straight at the
woman, she'd been unable to sense what manner of magic the witch had
used. "Now, give me your hand, my prince, and promise me you'll
try to be Arkoniel's friend. He'll be very sad if you refuse." 'I'll try,"
Tobin muttered. Pulling his hand free, he walked away, but not before
she'd seen the betrayed look in his eyes. He might not have seen
Lhel, but he'd known she'd lied. lya watched
him out of sight, then sank her face into her good hand, knowing the
witch had surprised her into a serious misstep, perhaps even
intentionally. Like it or
not, she had misjudged Lhel all those years ago and now their fates
were twined together too tightly to risk any rash action. The deathly
coldness washed over her again. Brother crouched at her feet now,
staring at her with gloating, hate-filled eyes. You
will not enter, he whispered again. 'Enter
where?" she demanded. But Brother
kept his own secrets and took them with him when he vanished. lya sat for
some time, pondering the spirit's ominous words. Liter Tobin
left with the wizard, Ki found his way back down to the hall. He
still couldn't believe that this grand place was to be his home.
Haunted it might be, but to live among royalty and wizards seemed
well worth the risk in daylight. Young as he
was, however, he'd seen enough of the world to know how strange a
household this was. A prince belonged in the fine palaces Ki had
glimpsed over the Palatine walls at Ero, not in a backwater keep like
this one. Then again, Prince Tobin was damned strange himself. A
pinched-up, dark little thing with eyes like an old man. Ki had been
a little scared of him the first time he'd seen him. But after they'd
gotten to laughing, Ki saw something else. Odd Tobin might be, but
not like people said. Ki thought again of how the younger boy had
stood up to the demon's rage, not even twitching an eyelid, and his
heart swelled with pride. What would a living enemy be to someone
like that' He
continued on and met Captain Tharin coming into the hall by another
door behind the high table. The lanky blond man had on a rough shirt
and tunic like a common soldier's, and shared the men's barracks
here, even though Ki knew from lya that he was the son of a rich
knight at Atyion. Here was another person he had a good feeling
about, and this one from first look last night. 'Good
morning, lad. Looking to break your fast? Come on, then, the
kitchen's through here." Tharin led
him through another door and into a large warm kitchen where the cook
was at work over a kettle. 'How does
the place suit you so far?" Tharin asked, settling down by the
hearth to repair a buckle on his scabbard. 'Very well,
sir. I hope I'll suit the prince and Duke Rhius." 'I've no
doubt of that. Mistress lya wouldn't have chosen you otherwise." Cook
brought them some broth and stale bread. Ki sat down on a bench and
watched Tharin work with his awl and waxed thread. Tharin had a
nobleman's fine hands, but the skill of a craftsman in them. 'Will the
duke be coming here soon?" 'That's
hard to say. The king keeps him busy in the city these days." He
made short work of the buckle and laid his tools aside. Ki dipped
his bread in the broth and took a bite. "How come you're not
with him?" Tharin
raised an eyebrow at him, but looked more amused than annoyed. "Duke
Rhius has entrusted me with Tobin's training at arms. Until we go off
to fight again, I'm honored to serve him here. From what I saw last
night, you're going to be quite a help to me. Tobin needs someone
matched to him for practice." He reached for his own cup and
took a sip. "That was a fine thing you did last night." 'What did I
do?" asked Ki. 'You
stepped in to protect Tobin when the demon was racketing about in the
hall." Tharin said, as nonchalantly as if they were discussing
the weather or crops. "I don't believe you even thought about
it. You just did it, even though you'd scarcely met him. I've seen a
lot of squires—I was with Rhius in the Royal Companions in our
youth—and I can tell you there aren't many, even the best,
who'd have thought to do that under such conditions. Well done, Ki." Tharin set
his cup aside and ruffled Ki's hair. "Tobin and I will take you
up the road later and show you some good hunting. I've got a craving
for Cook's good grouse pie." Struck
speechless by this unexpected praise, Ki could only nod as the man
went outside again. As Tharin had said, he'd acted without thinking
and so had thought nothing of it. His own father seldom took note
when Ki tried to do well, only when he'd failed. He sat for
a moment, then tossed the rest of his bread into the fire with a
prayer to Sakor to always be worthy of this man's regard. 'y the time
Arkoniel came back to the barracks yard, lya had reached an uneasy
decision. 'Are you
ready to go?" he asked. 'Yes, but
there's one last thing we must speak of before I leave." Rising, she
took his arm and led him inside. "We're likely to be separated
for some time, you know." Reaching behind the narrow pallet
she'd used, she pulled out the leather bag and placed it in his arms.
"I think it's time I passed this on to you." Arkoniel
stared at her in alarm. "This is passed on when the old Guardian
dies!" 'Don't go
scattering my ashes just yet!" She did her best to sound
annoyed. "I've been thinking about what you said before. The
Harriers will be more vigilant in Ero, and perhaps more likely than
most to notice something like this. It's safer here with you for the
time being." When he remained dubious she gripped his arm
firmly. "Listen to me, Arkoniel. You know what happened to
Agazhar. What do you suppose I've been doing all these years but
training you for this? You're as much the Guardian now as I am. You
know all the spells to hide and mask it. You know the history, what
little there is left. There's nothing left to teach you. Say you'll
do this for me. I'm ready to be free of it. I must concentrate on
Tobin now." Arkoniel
clasped the bag in both hands. "Of course I will. You know that.
But— You are coming back, aren't you?" lya sighed,
determined not to make the same mistake with him she had with Tobin
just now. "I certainly plan to, my dear, but these are dangerous
times. If one of us falls, the other must be ready to carry on with
the task Illior has set for us. The bowl is safer here, just as Tobin
is." She stood
to go and he embraced her, something he hadn't done since he was a
child. Her cheek came just to his shoulder now. She hugged him back,
thinking, What a fine man you've grown into. Iya dressed
as a merchant to enter the city. She hadn't worn an amulet since that
night in Sylara and wanted no undue attention now. She was soon glad
of her decision. A few miles
out from Ero, she came upon a gibbet by the side of the road. The
body of a naked man still hung there, swinging gently in the wind
that blew in from the sea. The face was too black and swollen to make
out, but as she came closer she could see that in life he'd been
young and well fed, not a laborer. She reined
in. A large "T" for "traitor" was branded into
the center of the dead man's chest. Uneasy memories of Agnalain
stirred in her heart. This road had once been lined with such sights
as this. She was about to ride on when the wind caught the body again
and swung it around so she caught a glimpse of his palms. The center
of each was covered with a circle of black tracery. This poor
fellow had been a novice at the Temple of Illior. Wizards
and priests, she thought bitterly. The
Harriers hunt the children of Illior at the gates of the capital
itself and hang them out like a farmer would a dead crow. She made a
blessing sign and whispered a prayer for the young priest's spirit,
but as she rode on she was haunted by Brother's parting words to her. You
will not enter. She steeled
herself as she approached the guards at the gate, waiting for some
challenge or outcry, but none came. took a room
in a modest inn near the upper market and spent the next few days
listening in high places and low, trying to gauge the mood of the
people. She was careful to avoid anyone who might recognize her,
nobles and wizards alike. Prince
Korin and his Companions were a common sight around the city,
galloping about with their guards and squires. Korin was a fine,
strong lad of thirteen now, the image of his father with his ruddy
dark coloring and laughing eyes. Iya felt a pang of regret the first
time she watched him ride past; if Tobin was who he appeared to be,
and if a better ruler sat upon the throne, he'd have soon been of age
to claim his place in this happy band, not hidden away with a
landless knight's unwanted brat as his only companion. With a sigh,
she put such thoughts aside and resolved to concentrate on what she'd
come here to do. Years
of intermittent drought and sickness had left their mark even here.
The warren of tenements that ringed the city was less crowded now.
Many doors were still nailed shut and bore the lead circles used to
mark plague houses, remnants of the previous summer's outbreak. One
house in Sheepshead Street had been burned; the epithet "Plague
Bringer" was still scrawled on one charred wall. In the
wealthier wards up the hill such rerninders were usually taken down
as soon as the illness passed and the bodies had been burnt, but many
fine houses were still boarded up, and shops, too. Weeds growing in
the doorways showed that there was no one left inside to clean them
away. A strange,
unhealthy gaiety reigned in the wake of death. The clothing of the
wealthy was dyed brighter colors, and made gaudier still with
patterned borders and jewels. Many mourners had their lost loved
ones' likenesses embroidered on their coats or skirts, with maudlin
verses stitched beneath. Sleeves, caps, and mantles were ornate even
among the merchant classes, and cut to exaggerated lengths. The strange
hysteria was not limited to fashion. Every masker, mummer, and
puppeteer company who plied their trade in the streets now featured a
gaudy new persona in their repertoire—Red and Black Death. Red
ribbons fluttered gaily from this character's mask and tunic,
signifying the blood that seeped through the afflicted's skin like
sweat, and poured from their mouth and nose in the final agony. He
also sported an exaggerated black codpiece and lumpy armlets,
mimicking the dark pustules that swelled in groin and armpits. His
fellow maskers delighted in abusing this strutter and donned beaked
masks to chase him off. Nosegays
and pomanders of purifying herbs said to fend off the foul humors
that caused the plague were worn by folk of every class. In these
times, one never knew when the real Red and Black would come for a
return engagement. Another
noticeable difference was the scarcity of wizards about on the
streets. In the old days conjurers and fortune readers plied their
trade in every market. Wizards with noble patrons lived like lords
and ladies themselves. Now she saw few except the occasional
white-robed Harrier accompanied by patrols of grey-uniformed guards.
lya turned aside quickly when she saw them coming, but watched the
faces of those around her. Many people
paid the patrols little mind, but others watched with poorly
concealed fear or anger. Grey-backs, the boldest called them, well
out of hearing. Grey-back was common parlance for "louse."
lya was standing at the booth of an Aurenfaie goldsmith when one such
patrol marched past. The gold smiths' faces were inscrutable beneath
the intricate tattooed patterns of Khatme clan, but there was no
mistaking the outrage in their grey eyes, or the implicit curse as
the eldest woman spat over her left shoulder at their backs. 'You don't
think much of them," lya remarked quietly in their language. 'Wizard
killers! They spit in the Lightbearer's face!" The faie were
monotheists, worshipping only Illior, whom they called Aura. "We
expect such things in Plenimar, but never here! No wonder your land
suffers." C,'hat
evening lya was watching a mummer's show in the great marketplace
near the Palatine when she felt a touch on her sleeve. Turning, she
found herself face-to-face with a young Harrier flanked by a dozen or
more grey-backs. The red birds on their tunics seemed to circle her
like vultures as they closed ranks around her. 'Good day,
Mistress Wizard," the young wizard greeted her. He had a round,
cheerful face and innocent blue eyes that she distrusted the moment
she looked into them. "I haven't had the pleasure of your
acquaintance." 'Nor I
yours," she replied. "I haven't been in the city for
years." 'Ah, then
perhaps you did not know that all wizards entering the capital are
required to register with the Grey Guard, and to display their
symbols openly?" 'No, young
man, I did not. There was no such law when I was last here and no one
troubled to inform me." lya's heart was hammering in her chest,
but she summoned up the dignity of her years, hoping to overawe him.
In truth, however, it had shaken her badly to be discovered by one so
young. She had used no magic to mask herself, but he'd still had to
make a conscious effort to identify her. "If you'd be so kind as
to direct me to the proper officials, I will make myself known to
them." 'In the
king's name, I must ask you to accompany me. Where are you lodged?" lya felt
his mind brush hers, seeking out her thoughts. He must have mistaken
her for a lower order wizard to make so bold. Age and experience were
proof against such clumsy attempts, but she suspected he would
recognize an outright lie. 'I'm lodged
at the Mermaid, in Ivy Lane," she told him. The wizard
motioned for her to follow him. Several of the soldiers split off
from the rest, presumably to search her room. She
suspected she was more than a match for this wizard and his men, but
to resist or disappear could only be construed as provocation. She
dared not cause any stir, especially now that they knew her face. They
conducted her to a tall stone and timber building not far from the
Palatine Gate. She knew the place. It had once been an inn; now it
was full of soldiers and wizards. In the
great room she was made to sit in front of another wizard at a table
and place her hands on two plaques made of ebony ringed with silver
and iron. There were no markings on them that she could make out, but
the touch of the combined metals stung her wrists where they brushed
it. What the purpose of these might be, she could only guess. The wizard
behind the table had a thick ledger in front of him, open to the
middle pages. 'Your
name?" She gave
it. He glanced
at her hand. "I see you've injured yourself." 'A mishap
with a spell," she replied, looking chagrined. With a
condescending little smile he returned to his ledger, asking her
about her business in the city and noting her responses word for word
in his book. Beside it was a covered basket, not unlike the ones
traveling performers carried trained snakes and ferrets in. 'I'm simply
here to renew old acquaintances," she assured him. The words
held no lie, should anyone here be a truthknower. Perhaps that was
the purpose of the plaques, she thought, pressing the polished wood
with her fingertips. 'How long
have you been in the city?" 'Four
days." 'Why did
you not register upon your arrival?" 'As I told
the young man who brought me here, I had no idea there was such a
law." 'When was
the last time you were in—" They were
interrupted just then by the sound of a scuffle outside. 'I've done
nothing wrong!" a man cried out. "I wear the symbol. I've
professed my loyalty! What right have you to lay hands on me? I am a
free wizard of the Oreska." A pair of
grey-backs dragged in a disheveled young wizard, followed by an older
man in white. The prisoner's hands were bound with shining silver
bands and there was blood running down his face from a cut over his
right eye. As he threw back long, dirty hair from his face, lya
recognized him as a vain but mediocre student of one of Agazhar's
friends. He hadn't amounted to much, as lya recalled, but he still
wore the silver amulet. 'This
fellow spat at the person of a King's Harrier," the white-robed
wizard told the one behind the ledger. 'Your
number, young man?" the recording wizard asked. 'I refute
your numbers!" the young prisoner snarled. "My name is
Salnar, Salnar of Scop's Rest." 'Ah yes. I
remember you." The wizard thumbed back through the ledger and
carefully noted something down. When he'd finished he motioned for
the prisoner to be taken upstairs. Salnar must have realized the
implication of this, for he began to scream and struggle as the
guards rushed him through an inner door. His cries continued loudly
until they were cut off by the slam of a heavy door somewhere
overhead. Unruffled,
the recording wizard returned to lya. "Now, where were we?"
He glanced down at his notes. "Ah, yes. When was the last time
you visited the city?" lya's fingers twitched against the dark
wood. "I—I can't think of the exact date. It was around
the time the king's nephew was born. I visited Duke Rhius and his
family." This was dangerous ground, but what choice did she
have? 'Duke
Rhius?" The name had a better effect than she'd hoped. "You
are a friend of the duke's?" 'Yes, he's
one of my patrons, though I haven't seen him in some time. I travel
and study." The wizard
noted this information next to her name. "Why do you not wear
the symbol of our craft?" This was
more difficult to evade. "I did not wish to draw attention to
myself," she told him, allowing an old woman's quaver to creep
into her voice. "The executions have made people suspicious of
our kind." This answer
seemed to satisfy her interrogator. "There have been outrages,
as you say." He reached into the basket beside him and took out
a crudely molded copper brooch inset with the silver crescent of
Illior. He turned it over, read the number inscribed there, and
jotted this into his ledger. "You must wear this at all times,"
he instructed, holding it out for her to take. lya removed
her hands from the plates to accept it and was not ordered to replace
them. She turned the ugly brooch over and her heart skipped a beat. A
number was engraved below the crown-and-eagle imprint of the
Harriers. The number
she'd seen in her vision at Afra, in numerals of fire. 'If you
wish to have a more attractive piece fashioned, you may," he
went on. "There are a number of jewelers specializing in such
commissions now. But take care that any you have made bear this same
number, and that it is sent here to be struck with the king's mark
before it is delivered to you. Is that quite clear?" lya nodded
as she fastened it to the front of her gown. 'I promise,
no harm will come to you because of it," he told her. "Show
it to the gate wardens whenever you leave or enter a city. Do you
understand? Any wizard who refuses is subject to further
interrogation." lya wondered what "further interrogation"
meant to someone like poor Salnar. It took a
moment to realize that she'd been released. She could hardly feel her
legs as she stood and walked out into the autumn sunlight. She half
expected someone to call out, seize her, drag her back to whatever
terrors lay beyond the slamming of a door. At oo time
during the interview had anyone openly threatened her, or even been
rude. Yet the implications of the encounter left her so shaken that
she entered the first tavern she came to and sat for nearly an hour
at the table furthest from the door, sipping vile sour wine and
fighting back tears. Then, with shaking fingers, she undid the brooch
and placed it on the table in front of her, studying it back and
front. Silver was
Illior's metal. Copper and all the other sun-colored metals of
weapons and armor belonged to Sakor. These two of the Four had long
been the principal patrons of Skala, but since the days of Gherilain,
Illior had been the most highly revered. Now lya was made to wear the
Lightbearer's symbol like a criminal's brand, the beautiful silver
bow held thrall against the copper disk. The
king dares to number the free wizards, she thought as fear gave
way to anger. As if we are beasts of his flock! And yet
they'd given her the number ordained by Illior. A shadow
fell across her table, and renewed fear scattered her thoughts. She
looked up, expecting to find the Harriers surrounding her with their
silver and iron bonds, but it was only the taverner. He sat down
across from her and handed her a small brass cup. Pointing to the
brooch, he gave her a wry smile and said, "Drink up, Mistress. I
imagine you need fortifying." 'Thank
you." lya downed the strong liquor gratefully and wiped her lips
with fingers that still trembled. The taverner was a big, comfortable
fellow with kind brown eyes. After the icy cordiality of the
Harriers, even a stranger's kindness was welcome. "I suppose
you've seen a lot like me in here, being so close to—that
place?" 'Every day,
sometimes. Took you by surprise, did they?" 'Yes. Has
this been going on long?" 'Just
started last month. I hear it was that Niryn's idea. I don't imagine
your kind thinks much of him these days." Something
in the taverner's manner suddenly rang false. Looking into his eyes
again, she saw the same disarming innocence she'd seen in the young
Harrier's. Taking up
her wine cup, she gave him a wide-eyed look over its rim. "He
frightens me, but I suppose he is only doing his duty to our king."
She did not dare touch this man's mind; instead she gently sought out
any magic about his person, and found it. Under his tunic he wore a
charm that warded against thought reading. He was a spy. It had
taken less than the blink of an eye to learn this, but lya retracted
her seeking quickly lest there was someone else lurking to catch her
at it. The
taverner plied her with more brandy and questions about herself and
the burnings, perhaps trying to coax her into some admission that
could be turned against her. lya meekly persisted in lukewarm
platitudes until he must have decided she was a very minor wizard,
and not a very smart one to boot. After extending an offer of future
hospitality he bid her farewell. lya forced herself to finish the
wretched wine, then walked back to her lodgings to see what the
grey-backs had left of it. The
frightened look the Mermaid's host gave her was enough to confirm
that they had been here. lya hurried up the stairs, expecting to find
her chamber turned upside down. Except for
the missing glyph she'd left on the door latch, however, nothing
appeared to have been disturbed. Her pack lay as she had left it on
the bed. Whoever had searched this room had not used their hands to
do so. lya closed the door and fixed the latch, then sprinkled a sand
circle on the floor and set about inscribing the necessary chart of
wards inside it to create a safe casting space. Once this was done,
she sat down inside and cautiously opened her mind, seeking some echo
of the searchers and their methods. Gradually a murky scene took
shape behind her closed eyelids: a woman and a man, with Harrier
guards. The woman was robed in white and had carried a short wand of
polished red obsidian. Sitting on lya's narrow bed, she had held its
ends between her palms and cast a spell of— lya concentrated on
the vision, trying to see the patterns of light and color in the
space between the woman's hands. As the glimpses became clearer lya's
breath caught in her throat. It was a powerful seeking for signs of
something… someone… lya
concentrated harder, trying to see the woman's lips as they formed
words around the spell. When the
answer came lya had to choke down a cry of alarm. The woman
was seeking a girl child. She was
seeking Tobin. The vision
collapsed and lya slumped forward, resting her face in her hands. 'Be calm,"
she whispered to herself, but fragments of the vision she'd had at
Afra danced in the vault of her memory: a queen old, young, ragged,
crowned, dead with a halter around her neck, garlanded and
victorious. So many of the other wizards she'd talked to over the
years had said the same. The myriad strands of fate were still
unspliced, despite the guidance of Illior. The king's creatures had
some inkling of the threat to his throne and even now they were
seeking her out. Then again,
she told herself, if they were searching and questioning every
wandering wizard who passed through, then they had no idea of the
truth. Lhel's strange magic still shielded Tobin. lya weighed
the hated broach in her palm, thinking how the recording wizard had
simply reached into a basket and pulled this out at random. Two—the
number of twins, of duality—repeated thrice like a summoning
spell. Two parents. Two children. Two
wizards—herself and Arkoniel—with different visions of
how to protect this child. A knowing
smile curved her lips. Two wizards—herself and Niryn—with
different visions of how to unite the wizards of Skala and serve the
throne. The
Harriers might intend their numbers as instruments of control or
shame, but for lya they were a call to arms. Chapter 27 '"Tphe
castle town of Atyion dominated the fertile plain J. north of Ero.
The castle itself had been built in the embrace of an oxbow in the
meandering Heron River, in sight of the Inner Sea. The castle's two
huge round towers were visible for miles around and could easily
shelter a thousand men or more in time of siege. Duke Rhius'
family had earned their place by war and honor, but their great
wealth flowed out of the acres of vineyards, groves, and lush,
well-watered pastures full of horses that covered the plain. What had
once been a village nestled in the castle's protective shadow had
grown into a prosperous market town. The few plague markers found
here were weathered white; Atyion had not been touched by disease for
a decade. Not since
Tobin's birth. lya rode
through the muddy streets and across the lowered drawbridge that
spanned the castle moat. Inside the curtain walls lay more land,
enough to pasture sizeable herds, and ranks of barracks and stables
for the duke's armies. Many of these were deserted today; the duke's
ally lords and vassals had gone home to tend their own lands. The
soldiers who remained moved at their leisure, practicing at arms or
lounging around the corrals. Armorers and farriers were noisily at
work over their smoky forges along the inner wall. A few saddlers sat
beneath an awning, cutting leather and mending harnesses. Out of
deference for the king, Rhius had no women soldiers among the ranks
of his guard, but there were a number of them among the castle
household who had once served his father with sword and bow. Cook,
back at the keep, was such a one, too. They all still knew how to
fight, and would gladly do so if given the order. lya left
her horse with a stable hand and hurried up the broad stair to the
arched portal that let into the main hall. The doorway was flanked by
rows of columns supporting a pointed arch. A painted relief of the
Cloud Eye of Illior had decorated the peak of this arch since Atyion
was built, but today lya saw that a carved oak panel had been fitted
over it. This bore one of the more martial symbols of Sakor: a gloved
hand holding up a flaming sword garlanded with laurel and rue. It had
been fitted by a master craftsman; anyone unfamiliar with the house
would never guess that another image lay hidden below. It's
like the brooch, she thought, saddened and angered. How
has it come to this, that we have set the very gods against one
another? An ancient
fellow with a paunch beneath his blue livery greeted her in the hall. 'How long
has Sakor guarded the entrance, Hakone?" she asked, giving him
her cloak. 'Nearly
nine years, my lady," the porter told her. "It was a gift
from the king." 'I see. Is
the duke at home today?" 'He is,
Mistress. He's in the open gallery. I'll bring you to him." lya
looked around as they passed through the great vaulted hall and on
through a series of rooms and inner galleries. Atyion was still
magnificent, but the glory of the house seemed tarnished, as if the
structure itself lay under the same pall as its master. A few
servants were at work, polishing and scrubbing, but the furnishings
and hangings, even the brightly painted walls, were more faded than
she recalled. There
used to be music and laughter here, she thought. And
children running thorough the hall. Tobin had never seen this
house. 'Is Lord
Rhius well?" 'He
grieves, Mistress." They found
Rhius walking in a pillared gallery overlooking the castle gardens.
Judging by the dusty leather boots and jerkin he wore, he'd spent the
day in the saddle and only recently returned. A young page trailed
after him, ignored. As a boy
Rhius had always run to meet lya. Now he dismissed the servants and
stood regarding her in bleak silence. lya bowed
and looked out over the deserted gardens. "Your aunts and uncles
used to play blind beggars with me in that stand of walnut trees." 'They're
dead now, too," Rhius told her. "All but Uncle Tynir. He
lost his wife in the plague and his daughter to the king. He's carved
a new estate for himself in the northern territories." A pair of
gardeners came into view below them, pulling a cartload of rotted
manure. A tall, bald man in a jeweled robe wandered out from a rose
maze to watch them at their work. Rhius'
mouth tightened with distaste at the sight of him. "Come, let's
speak inside." lya glanced back at the stranger, trying to make
out who it was. "You have a guest?" 'Several." Rhius led
the way to an inner room lit by several lamps. He shut the door and
lya cast a seal to keep out prying eyes and ears. 'That man
in the garden is Lord Orun, Chancellor of the Treasury. Surely you
remember him?" Rhius asked, circling a round table that stood at
the center of the room. lya
remained near the door, watching him pace like a cornered wolf. "Ah
yes, he often guested here in your father's day. I remember Tharin
always detested him." 'Yes,
that's him. He's risen high and serves the king closely now as the
royal ear. Not a man to cross. Thank II-lior, Erius has kept Hylus on
as Lord Chancellor. He's able to keep most of the nobles from eating
one another alive." 'But why is
Orun here? 'He knew my
father, and now he makes it his business to know me. This time he's
brought me some young cousin of his and asks me to take him on as an
equerry." 'Spreading
his spies around, is he?" 'I'm
surrounded by them. He's gifted me with several pages and a very
pretty court minstrel whom I think he intends for my bed. She's away
for the day, or I'd introduce you and do away with the mystery." He sat down
and turned a weary eye on her. "So, you've come back, as well?
You took your time." lya let that go for the moment. "I've
just come from visiting your child, my lord. Prince Tobin sends you
his regards and a message. He misses you." 'By the
Four, if you knew how much I miss him!" 'Tharin
gave me to believe otherwise." An angry
flush rose in the duke's cheeks. "Lies breed like maggots on a
dead horse, as they say. All these years I've kept my secret from
Tharin. Now that lie has festered between us and driven him away." 'How so?" Rhius waved
a hand around at the room, the house, perhaps the entire estate.
"King Erius prefers to keep me close by him, now that his
sister's life no longer binds me. This is as far from Ero as I'm
allowed to venture. Should I bring Tobin here now, where Erius and
his wizards come to guest whenever the whim takes them? No, instead I
drive away a man who loves me better than any brother, send him back
to be the father to Tobin that I can't be." He rubbed his hands
over his face. "Another sacrifice." lya went to him and
clasped his hand. "You know Tharin better than that. He loves
you still and keeps you close in your child's heart. Surely the king
would not begrudge you the occasional visit?" 'Perhaps
not, but I'm so—fearful." The word seemed to choke him.
"We both know what Tobin is, and is to be, but she's also my
beloved child and all I have left of Ari-ani. No sacrifice is too
great to keep her safe!" 'Then
perhaps you can find a little forgiveness in your heart for me; you
know perfectly well that's why I've stayed away." She took the
Harrier's brooch from a pouch at her belt and tossed it onto the
table. "I was given this in Ero." Rhius eyed
it with distaste. "Ah yes. Niryn's badges." It was
lya's turn to pace as she told him of her visit to the city, ending
with the search made of her room at the inn and the spell the wizard
had cast for the unknown girl. Rhius let
out a bitter bark of a laugh. "You've been too long away. Niryn
has turned oracle and claims to dream of a usurper who'll unseat
Erius from the throne—a false queen raised by necromancy. It
wasn't enough to slaughter the innocents of royal blood. They go on
looking for signs and wonders now." 'I think
he's been sent the same vision that I was given, but he misinterprets
it. Or chooses to. It wasn't enough to slaughter the royal girls;
none of them was the one and so the dream continues. Fortunately, he
hasn't yet seen Tobin clearly. I think we may thank Lhel's magic for
that. All the same, Niryn has an inkling of what's coming, and the
wizards of Skala are to be numbered and divided against themselves." 'By the
Light! If they discover Tobin before she's old enough to fight, to
lead—" 'I don't
believe there is any danger of that just yet. Clearly, however,
they've had some inkling of wizardly protection, otherwise why should
they have scoured my room looking for her?" 'Are you
certain they found no clue there?" 'I saw no
sign of it. Sooner or later, though, the king's spies will recall the
connection between your family and myself. I only hope that
Arkoniel's presence at the keep won't bring undue attention on the
household." 'I've said
nothing of him. Keep him away from the city and unnumbered." 'I plan to.
Has Niryn shown any interest in the child recently?" 'None at
all. Of course, he's had the Harriers and their work to occupy his
attention. Quite a powerful little cabal he's building up." 'How so?" Rhius laced
his fingers together around one knee and stared down the black
mourning ring on his left hand. "There are rumors of secret
meetings being held somewhere outside the city." 'And Erius
says nothing to this? I can't imagine even the rumor of such a thing
going unchallenged." 'They serve
him, or so he believes. For all his caution about rivals, Erius has a
true blind spot when it comes to Niryn and his followers." 'Or has
been given one. Tell me, how does the king seem to you these days? Do
you see any of his mother's madness growing in him?" 'On the
face of it, he's nothing like her. The business with the girl
children—" He made a weary, dismissive gesture. "He's
not the first to take such ruthless measures to ensure a succession.
For years now Niryn has filled his head with fears of traitors and
rivals, then earned favor by rounding up people for execution. Mad
Agnalain had no use for wizards; her son keeps his by him day and
night. Niryn brags openly about his "visions," but rages
against Illiorans and wizards and anyone who might rise up and
proclaim the Prophecy of Afra again." 'How many
Harrier wizards are there now?" 'Twenty,
perhaps. Many of them are very young and he keeps them on a tight
rein. But there are others at court who recognize power when they see
it and support him— Lord Orun among them. Tell me, lya, in all
your wandering, how many wizards can you claim to our cause?"
lya held a finger to her lips. "More, but leave that to me until
the moment arrives. And you know wizards alone won't put Tobin on the
throne. We must have armies. Are you still prepared to take the
risk?" Rhius' face
set like a grim mask. "What have I to lose that hasn't already
been taken from me? Tobin can't remain hidden forever. He must
reveal—" He rubbed at his eyelids and sighed. "She
must reveal herself eventually and either take the throne or die. If
she's discovered before that, then none of us will survive Erius'
rage. Where there's such certainty, a warrior sees no risk." lya
covered his hand with her own and squeezed it. "The Lightbearer
chose you as much as Tobin. That trust sits -well on you. As you say,
we must continue to be cautious. Even Illior's favor doesn't
guarantee success." She sat back and studied the duke's gaunt
face. "If we had to fight today, how many men could you bring to
the field? What nobles would back you?" 'Tharin, of
course, and the men of his estate. Nyanis, I think, and Solari.
They'd stand with me. My uncle bears the king no goodwill and has
ships. Those who lost their women and girls to him—many of
those might be willing to back a rightful queen in the field if they
saw a chance of winning. Five thousand, perhaps more. But not for a
child, lya. I don't think they'd fight for Tobin yet. Erius is a
strong king, and a good one in many ways, and Plenimar is still
restless. It's the same as when his mother died and Ariani was so
young." 'Not
entirely. Then they'd had a mad queen. Now they've had years of
plague and famine and war, and whispers of prophecy. A sign will be
given, my lord, and when it comes, the people will recognize it."
lya stopped, startled at how loud her voice had risen in the little
room, and how hard her heart was suddenly pounding. At Afra she'd
seen so many possible futures— was the sign she waited for
among these? She went to
the table and sat down by Rhius. "The king keeps you close, yet
not on Tobin's account. Why? What's changed between you?" 'I'm not
certain. You know my marriage to Ariani was a one-sided love match. I
loved her and her brother loved my lands. I expect he thought I'd die
first and leave it all to her and the Crown. Now I think he means to
do it through Tobin. Erius speaks often of bringing Tobin to court to
join the Companions." 'He's not
of age yet." 'But he
soon will be, and even with the stories of Tobin being sickly and
demon-cursed, Erius has always been anxious for the boys to know one
another. Sometimes I honestly think that it is for love of his
sister. All the same, once at court, Tobin will be little more than a
hostage." Rhius frowned down at the brooch. "You've seen
what it's like there; once he's at the Palace, can you still protect
my child?" 'With all
my heart, I will, my lord," lya assured him, not daring to
reveal the sudden doubt she felt at the prospect. Like a handful of
unthrown dice, Tobin's future still encompassed all possibilities. z 'T~*he
weeks following Ki's arrival were happy ones. JL Arkoniel never
learned what lya said to Rhius during her visit to Atyion, but the
duke returned to the keep soon after and promised to stay until
Tobin's name day in Erasin. Better still, Rhius seemed almost his old
self again, praising the improvements to the house and inviting
Arkoniel to game with him and Tharin in the evenings. Whatever rift
had been between Rhius and his friend had healed. The two men
appeared to be as close as ever. The duke
approved of Ki, as well, and praised Tharin's training when Ki served
at table or matched Tobin at sword and bow practice. When Tobin knelt
in the hall on his tenth name day and requested that Ki be made his
squire, Rhius granted his permission readily and allowed the boys to
pledge their oath to Sakor at the house shrine that same night. Tobin
gave Ki one of his finest carved horse charms on a neck chain as a
symbol of the bond. Yet in
spite of all this, Rhius maintained a certain aloofness with Ki that
cost both boys some discomfort. On Tobin's
name day, Rhius had gifted Ki with a new suit of clothes and a fine
roan horse named Dragon. When Ki
tried to thank him, Rhius said only, "My son should be well
attended." Ki already
worshipped Tharin and was cle.arly prepared to accord Tobin's father
the same regard; the man's coolness left him awkward and a little
clumsy. Tobin saw
this, too, and hurt for his friend. Only
Arkoniel and Nari understood the reason for the duke's distance and
neither could offer the truth as comfort. Even among themselves they
could not speak of the fatal possibility that hung by a spider's
thread over Ki's young heart. 'ne bright
cold afternoon a few weeks later Arkoniel found himself sharing the
parapet with the duke as they watched the boys at play in the meadow
below. Tobin was
attempting to track Ki, who lay hidden in a shallow depression
surrounded by snow-dusted grass and weeds. Ki somehow managed to keep
the white fog of his breath from rising, but in the end he gave
himself away when his foot bumped a dead milkweed stalk. Several dry
pods still clung to the stem and when he jarred them, their silky
white seeds burst forth and rose like a battlefield signal. Rhius
chuckled. "Ah, he's done for now." Tobin saw
and dashed over to pounce on his friend. The resulting wrestling
match sent up another thick cloud of milkweed fluff. "By the
Light, that Ki is godsent." 'I believe
he is," Arkoniel agreed. "It's amazing how they've taken to
one another." At first
glance, no two boys could have been more different. Tobin remained
quiet and serious by nature; bold Ki couldn't seem to sit still or
keep quiet for more than a few minutes at a stretch. For him, talking
seemed as necessary as breathing. He still spoke like a peasant and
could be crude as a country tinker. Nari would have taken a switch to
him a dozen times already if Tobin hadn't pleaded for leniency. Yet
the substance of what he said was for the most part intelligent if
unschooled, and invariably entertaining if not always seemly. And if
Tobin hadn't yet tried to emulate Ki's boisterous nature, Arkoniel
could tell that he gloried in it. He glowed like a full moon in Ki's
presence and delighted in the older boy's tales of his large and
colorful family. It wasn't only Tobin who loved these, either. When
the household gathered around the fire each night, Ki was often their
principal entertainment and would soon have everyone holding their
sides as he described the foibles and mishaps of his various
siblings. He also had
a substantial store of garbled fables and myths learned at his
father's hearth; stories of talking animals and ghosts, and fanciful
kingdoms where men had two heads and birds shed golden feathers sharp
enough to cut off the fingers of the greedy. Endeavoring
to follow lya's advice, Arkoniel sent for richly illustrated texts of
the more familiar tales, hoping these would coax the boys into their
reading lessons. Tobin was still struggling with his letters and Ki
was little help. The older boy had proven resistant to such learning
in the proud, backward way of a country noble who'd never seen his
own name written out and didn't care to. Arkoniel did not chide them;
instead, he left a book or two open to particularly exciting
illustrations, trusting curiosity to do his work for him. Only the
other day, he'd caught Ki puzzling over Gramain's
Bestiary. Meanwhile, Tobin had quietly set to work on a history
of his famed ancestor, Gherilain the First, a gift from his father. Ki proved a
better ally when it came to magic. The boy possessed a child's normal
fascination with it, and his enthusiasm smoothed the way for Arkoniel
to attempt to address Tobin's odd fears. The wizard began with small
illusions and a few simple makings. But while Ki threw himself into
such pastimes with all his usual carefree abandon, Tobin's reactions
were less predictable. He seemed pleased with lightstones and
firechips, but grew wary whenever Arkoniel suggested another vision
journey. C,'harin
was well pleased with Ki, as well. The boy had an innate
understanding of honor and took happily to a squire's training. He
learned the rudiments of table service, though there was little
formality at the keep, and eagerly strove to master the other arts of
service, though Tobin stubbornly resisted most efforts to be served.
He refused any help in bathing or dressing, and much preferred to
take care of his own horse. In the end,
it was at swordplay that Ki proved most useful. He was less than a
head taller than Tooin, and had been fighting with his brothers and
sisters since he could walk. He made a proper sparring partner, and a
very demanding one, too. More often than not he emerged victorious,
and Tobin bruised. To Tobin's credit, he seldom sulked about it and
listened willingly as Tharin or Ki explained to him what he'd done
wrong. It perhaps helped that Tobin was Ki's master at archery and
horsemanship. Until he'd come here, Ki's backside had never had a
proper saddle beneath it. A knight's son he might be in name, but
he'd had the hard upbringing of a peasant. Perhaps because of this,
he never balked at any task and was grateful for any favor. For his
part, Tobin, who'd been kept too close to the women for too long,
considered every new task a game and often insisted on helping out
with chores that most noblemen's sons would have been insulted to
consider. As a result, he grew brighter and browner by the day. The
men in the barracks gave Ki all the credit and made pets of them
both. When Nari
or Arkoniel fussed over Tobin raking stalls and mending wall beside
Ki, Tharin simply shooed them back into the house. V,'he demon
has been quieter since he came," Rhius murmured aloud,
interrupting Arkoniel's thoughts. 'Has it?"
he asked. "I don't suppose I've been here long enough to judge." 'And it
never seems to hurt Tobin anymore, not since—not since his poor
mother died. Perhaps that was for the best, after all." 'You can't
mean that, my lord!" Rhius kept
his gaze on the meadow. "You knew my lady when she was happy and
well. You didn't see what she became. You weren't here to see." Arkoniel
had no answer for that. The boys
had reached a truce now. Lying side by side in the snowy grass, they
were pointing up at the clouds drifting across the blue winter sky. Arkoniel
looked up and smiled. It had been years since he'd thought to play at
finding shapes in the clouds. He suspected that this might be the
first time Tobin had ever tried. JUook k,"
said Ki. "That cloud is a fish. And that one over there looks
like a kettle with a pig climbing out of it." Tobin was
unaware of the wizard watching him, but his thoughts were running
along similar lines. It seemed that everything had changed again
since Ki's arrival, and this time for the better. Lying here with the
sun on his face and the cold seeping up through his cloak, it was
easy to forget about mothers and demons and all the other shadows
that lurked at the corners of his memory. He could even almost ignore
Brother crouched a few feet away, watching Ki with black, hungry
eyes. Brother
hated Ki. He wouldn't say why, but Tobin could tell just by the way
he watched the living boy that he wanted to pinch and slap and hurt
him. Every time Tobin called Brother he warned him not to, but that
didn't stop him from doing things that startled Ki, like pulling
objects out of his hands or knocking over his mazer at table. Ki
always jumped a little and hissed curses between his teeth, but he
never ran or cried out. Tharin said that was a sign of real courage,
to stand fast when you were scared. Ki couldn't see Brother, but
after a while he claimed he could sometimes sense when he was there. If it had
been up to Tobin, he'd have sent Brother away and let him go hungry
for a while, but he'd sworn to Lhel that he'd care for him and he
couldn't go back on his word. So he called Brother every day and the
baleful spirit lurked on the edges of their games like an unwelcome
hound. He hovered in the shadows of the toy room, and went into the
forest with them when they rode, somehow keeping up with their horses
without ever running. Recalling his dream, Tobin once offered to let
Brother ride behind him on his horse, but the spirit greeted this
with his usual uncomprehending silence. Ki pointed
up at another cloud. "That one looks like the fancy cakes they
sell at the Festival of Flowers back home. And there's a hound's
head, with its tongue hanging out." Tobin
picked a few black beggars ticks from his hair and flicked the
prickly seeds up at the sky shapes. "I like the way they change
as they go. Your dog looks more like a dragon now." 'The great
dragon of Illior, only white instead of red," Ki agreed. "When
your father takes us to Ero I'll show you the painting of it in the
temple in Goldsmith's Street. It's a hundred feet long, with jewels
for eyes and the scales all outlined in gold." He searched the
sky again. "And now the cake looks like our maidservant, Lilain,
with Alon's bastard eight moons in her belly." Tobin
glanced over at his friend and could tell by the slant of Ki's grin
that there was a story coming. Sure
enough, Ki went on. "We thought Khemeus would kill the pair of
them, since he'd been panting over her since she come to us—" ' 'Came to
us,'" Tobin corrected. Arkoniel had tasked him with helping Ki
learn to speak properly. 'Came to
us, then!" Ki said, rolling his eyes. "But in the end the
boys just had a fistfight out in the yard. It was pouring down rain
and they fell in the manure heap. Then they went off and got drunk.
When Lilain's baby finally did come it looked like Khemeus anyway, so
it was probably his after all, and he and Alon had another fight over
that." Tobin
stared at the cloud, trying to puzzle out the sense of this new
exploit. "What's a bastard?" 'You know,
a baby that comes when the man and woman haven't made contract
together." 'Oh."
That didn't really tell him anything. "How did it get in that
girl's belly?" Ki reared
up on one elbow and stared at him in disbelief. "You don't know?
Haven't you ever watched animals at it?" 'At what?" 'Why,
fucking, of course! Like when a stallion
climbs a mare's back, or a rooster treads a hen? Bilairy's balls,
Tobin, you must have seen dogs fuck, at least?" 'Oh, that!"
Tobin knew what Ki meant now, though he'd never heard anyone call it
that. Suspecting it to be another of those words Nari and Arkoniel
didn't approve of, he stored it away with delight. "You mean
people do it, too?" 'Of
course!" Tobin sat
up and wrapped his arms around his knees. The thought was intriguing
and unsettling all at once. "But—how? Wouldn't they fall
over?" Ki fell
back, whooping with laughter. "Not hardly! You never have seen
anyone at it, have you?" 'Have you?"
Tobin challenged, wondering if Ki was making fun of him. 'At our
house?" Ki snorted. "Gods, all the time! Father's always on
top of someone, and the older boys are at the maids or men, even,
sometimes. It's a wonder any of us sleeps nights! Like I told you, in
most houses everyone sleeps all in the same room. 'Least the ones
I've been in." When Tobin
remained baffled as to the actual act, Ki found a couple of forked
weed stalks and used them to illustrate a more detailed explanation. 'You mean
it gets bigger?" Tobin asked, wide-eyed. "Doesn't it hurt
the girl?" Ki stuck
one of the stalks in the corner of his mouth and gave Tobin a wink.
"From the sounds they make, I don't hardly think so." He cocked
an eye at the sun's height. "I'm cold. Come on, let's go riding
before Nari decides it's too late. Maybe we'll find that witch of
yours today!" Cot abin
wasn't sure whether or not he'd done wrong in telling Ki about Lhel.
He couldn't even remember exactly if she'd told him not to, but he
had the guilty feeling that she had. Ki had been
spinning some yarn about a witch in his village one night as they lay
in bed and Tobin blurted out that he knew one, too. Of course, Ki
demanded details since his own story was only a made-up one he'd
heard from a bard. In the end Tobin had told him about the dreams. He
told him about getting lost, too, and about the hollow oak tree Lhel
lived in, but he was careful to leave out any mention of the doll. Since then
it had been a secret quest between them to find her so Ki could meet
her, too. They went
out riding nearly every day, but so far they'd found no sign of her.
Tobin always came back from these searches with mixed feelings. As
much as he wanted to see her again and find out what it was she meant
to teach him, he was also relieved, in case she was angry with him
for telling Ki. Despite
weeks of fruitless searching, Ki's faith remained unshakable and he
delighted in sharing Tobin's secret. That almost
made up for those Tobin couldn't share. V'he boys
kept an eye on the sun's progress as they spurred their mounts up the
road. The days were short now and storms blew down off the mountains
fast. Brother
kept just ahead of them, moving with his usual stiff, unnatural walk
that should have been too slow to keep up but wasn't. No matter how
fast they rode, he stayed ahead of them. Ki had
other concerns. "How is this witch of yours going to live in a
tree all winter?" 'She had a
fire," Tobin reminded him. 'Yes, but
the snow will cover the doorway, won't it? She must have to burrow
out like a rabbit. And what will she eat?" Pondering
this, they left their mounts tied by the road and set off on foot to
explore an untried game trail Tobin had spotted a few days earlier.
Following it to a dead end used up their last margin of daylight. The
sun was almost touching the peaks when they finally gave up and
headed back; they'd have to lather their mounts to get back before
Nari began to fret. Ki had just
mounted and Tobin had one foot in the stirrup when their horses
shied. Gosi reared, throwing Tobin backward off his feet, then
galloped away down the road. Tobin came down hard on his back with a
grunt of surprise. Raising his head, he saw Ki trying to rein in
Dragon as he careened away after Gosi. Both horses disappeared around
a bend in the road, taking Ki with them. 'Damn!"
he wheezed. He was halfway to his feet when a thunderous growl froze
him in a crouch. Looking slowly to his right, he found himself facing
a catamount that crouched at the edge of the trees across the road. The great
cat's tawny coat blended well with the winter cover, but its yellow
eyes looked as big as the lids of nail kegs and they were fixed on
him. It watched him, belly low to the ground, tail stirring the dead
leaves and snow as it twitched this way and that. Then, like a
nightmare, it glided out a step toward him, then two, muscles
bunching and rippling across its shoulders. It was
stalking him. There was
no point in running. Tobin was too scared to even close his eyes. The
catamount took another step then stopped, ears pressed flat to its
blunt head as Brother appeared between them. The cat
could see him. It crouched lower and snarled, showing cruel curved
fangs as long as Tobin's thumbs. Beyond fear now, Tobin couldn't
move. The
catamount screamed and lashed out at the ghost. The huge paw raked
the air less than a yard from Tobin's chest, close enough for him to
feel the air move and see the hooked claws rake through Brother's
belly. Brother didn't move. The beast snarled again and gathered
itself to spring. Tobin heard
someone running toward them. It was Ki, charging back on foot with
his long hair flying around his head. He let out a fierce yell and
ran straight at the catamount, brandishing nothing but a long, knobby
stick. 'No!"
Tobin screamed, but it was too late. The cat sprang and struck Ki
full in the chest. Together they tumbled across the road and came to
rest with the catamount on top. For one
awful moment Tobin felt time stop, just like it had when his mother
was falling away from him down the side of the tower. Ki was on his
back beneath the catamount; all Tobin could see were his friend's
splayed legs and the catamount's hind foot braced against his belly,
poised to gut him like a squirrel. But neither
Ki nor the cat moved, and now Brother was standing over them. Tobin
was hardly aware that he was running until he threw himself on the
catamount's back and grappled the huge head away from Ki's throat.
The beast was limp, dead weight in his hands. 'Ki! Ki,
are you dead?" Tobin cried, trying to wrestle the heavy carcass
off his friend. 'I don't
think so," came the faint reply. Ki began to struggle, and
between the two of them they managed to heave the catamount aside. Ki
emerged pale and shaking but unquestionably alive. The front of his
tunic had several jagged tears and blood trickled down onto the
lacings from a long scratch on his neck. Tobin dropped to his knees
and stared at him, hardly able to believe what had just happened.
Without a word, they turned to look at the huge she-cat lying beside
them. The yellow eyes stared sightlessly into the ditch. Dark blood
stained the snow under her gaping jaws. Ki found
his voice first. "Bilairy's hairy bag!" he croaked, his
voice a full octave higher than normal. "What happened?" 'I think
Brother killed her!" Tobin stared in wonder at the ghost
crouching now over the dead cat. "He got between me and her and
stopped her charge. But then you came running in with… What
were you thinking, running at her with—with
a stick?" Ki pulled
out the carved horse charm he wore around his neck. "I'm your
squire. It was all I could find and—" Ki stopped, staring
gape-mouthed over Tobin's shoulder. The hair on
Tobin's neck rose. Did catamounts hunt in pairs? Or packs? He twisted
around quickly, lost his balance, and fell heavily on his backside. Lhel stood
a few feet away, looking as dirty and ragged as he remembered. She
didn't seem at all surprised to find them here with a dead catamount. 'You be
looking for me, keesas?" 'Well, yes.
I—I hope you don't mind. I told my friend— He's never met
a witch. And—and you said you were going to teach me things,"
he finished lamely, unable to tell in the failing light if she was
angry or not. 'And
instead you be find by big maskar." She
nudged the dead cat with one rag-bound foot. 'Brother
stopped it from catching me, then Ki came and drew it off and Brother
killed— 'I kill.
Brother not make death." Both boys
gaped up at her. "You? But—but how?" asked Tobin. She
snorted. "I witch." She knelt and cupped Tobin's face
between her rough palms. "You be hurt, keesa?" 'No." 'You?"
She reached to touch Ki's neck. Ki shook
his head. 'Good."
Lhel grinned, showing the gaps of missing teeth. "You Tobin's
brave good friend. You got voice, keesa?" Ki blushed.
"I don't know what to say to a witch." 'Say
'hello, witch,' maybe?" Ki got to
his knees and made her a bow as if she were a lady. "Hello,
Mistress Lhel. And thank you! I'm in your debt." Lhel placed
a hand on his head. For an instant Tobin thought he caught a fleeting
look of sadness in her eyes and it sent an unpleasant chill coiling
through his belly. But the look was gone when she turned and drew
Tobin into a hug. He accepted the embrace stiffly; she still didn't
smell very good. Lhel held
him tight for a moment and whispered, "This a good keesa. You be
good to him? Be protecting him?" 'Protecting
him? From who?" 'You know,
comes the time." Lhel tapped a finger against his chest. "You
hold that here, don't be forget." 'I won't." Tobin
pulled away. Brother stood close enough to touch now and he tried to,
to thank him. As always, his hand found no purchase on that
solid-looking form, only a patch of colder air. 'How did
you know we were here?" Ki asked. 'I be
seeing you many time to know what kind of good friend my Tobin be
having. You be fine warriors together." She touched her
forehead. "I see it here." She looked back at Tobin, then
pointed to the keep. "You got another teacher. You like?" 'No. He
does magic, but not like yours. Mostly he teaches us how to read and
figure." 'He tried
to teach us dancing, too, but he's like a big heron on ice," Ki
told her. "Will you come to the house with us, Mistress? It's
not my place to offer you hospitality, but you saved my life. It's a
cold night and—and Cook is making a galantine pie." She patted
his shoulder. "No, they don't be know me. Not tell, yes?" 'I won't!"
Ki promised, shooting Tobin a conspiratorial grin. The tale of a
witch had been a fine secret; the witch herself was a treasure beyond
all hopes. 'We have to
get home." Tobin cast another worried look at the sky; it had
darkened to purple-and-gold behind the black peaks. "Now that
we've found you, can we come visit you again? You said you'd be my
teacher, too." 'Time come.
Not yet." She put two fingers in her mouth and let out a
piercing whistle. The runaway horses came trotting up the road,
dragging their loose reins in the snow. "You come visit times,
though." 'Where? How
will we find you?" 'You seek.
You find." And with that she stepped lightly away and vanished
into the gathering darkness. 'By the
Flame!" Ki bounced up and down in excitement and punched Tobin
on the arm. "By the Flame, she's just as you said! A real witch.
She killed that catamount without even touching it. And she told our
future, did you hear? Fine warriors!" He mimed a fierce blow at
some future foe, then gasped at the pain in his side. It didn't slow
him down much though. "The two of us together! Prince and
squire." Tobin
raised his hand and Ki clasped it. "Together. But we can't
tell," Tobin reminded him, all too familiar with Ki's tendency
to blurt out whatever came into his head. 'By my
honor, Prince Tobin, I shall obey. Torture wouldn't drag it out of
me. Which is what we're in for when we get home! The sun's down for
certain now." He looked ruefully at his torn tunic. "How
are we going to explain this? If Nari finds out she'll never let us
out of the house again!" Tobin
chewed at his lower lip a moment, knowing Ki was right. Even with
Arkoniel's support, Nari still fretted and fussed over them if they
were out of her sight for too long. The thought of losing a single
day of their newfound freedom was intolerable. "We'll just tell
her Dragon ran away with you. That's not even a lie." Rhius
returned to Ero before the turn of the month, leaving Arkoniel and
Tharin once more in charge of the boys. Having
defined his duties as tutor to his own satisfaction and that of his
young charges, Arkoniel was pleased to find himself with a great deal
of time to pursue his own studies. lya had been content to wander,
collecting ideas and practicing her craft for those who needed it and
could pay. Arkoniel had always wished to create and study; now it
seemed Illior had granted him both the means and the opportunity to
do so. By late
Kemmin the rooms on the third floor were finally refurbished and he
took possession of two of them: a small, comfortable bedchamber, and
a large, high-ceilinged room adjoining it. In return for his
guardianship of Tobin, the duke had granted the wizard a virtually
unlimited allowance to pursue his own studies when not otherwise
engaged. For the
first time in his well-traveled life, Arkoniel had both ample time
and the means to pursue more complex magics. Long before the final
coat of plaster was applied to the upstairs walls, he set about
furnishing what he already thought of as his workroom. Over the next
few months crates arrived almost daily, filled with books and
instruments he'd seen in his travels with lya. From the foundries and
kilns of Ylani came the mortars, limbics, and crucibles for
alchemical studies and the compounding of magical objects. At Alestun
he found tables, braziers, and tools enough to fill another section
of the room. He sent to the mines of the northern territories for
fine, clear crystals and wrote to other wizards for herbs, ores, and
other rare substances not available locally. He began to wonder if he
dared ask for another room. In return for such largesse, he began
crafting every household simple he knew how to make. Since he
dared commit little news of Tobin to writing, he filled long letters
to lya with his progress, plans, and hopes. In her infrequent replies
he read approval and encouragement. This
is what a Third Oreska might be, she wrote, choosing her words
carefully. Not one wizard working alone, but
many, sharing their knowledge with generations of students for the
benefit of all. I expect you will have something new to show me, when
next we meet. He fully
intended to fulfill that expectation, and with something much more
impressive than a new fire spell. ^,'he
year's first heavy snowstorm came on the fifth night of Cinrin. The
following day the world was a startling palate of black and white
under a sky of dazzling blue. The boys were absolutely incapable of
sitting still for lessons with such a landscape waiting for them
outside the window. Shaking his head, Arkoniel released them and
retired to the workshop to pursue his current passion. Soon after, he
heard laughter from outside. Going to the window, he saw Tharin and
the boys building a snow fortress in the meadow. The slope around
them looked like a sparkling white expanse of fine salt, unbroken
except for the area they'd chowdered up with their building. Where
they'd walked and rolled their snow boulders, the shadows showed
blue. The road and bridge had disappeared beneath the snow. Only the
river remained, flowing like a thick black serpent between its
mounded white banks. More
laughter, and a bellow from Tharin. It appeared Ki had taught Tobin
of snowballs and their uses. Work on the snow fort halted as the
battle raged. Arkoniel was tempted to go down and join them, but the
warmth and quiet of his •workroom won out. The first
step in creating magic, as lya had taught him, was to envision the
desired result. Casting a known spell began that way; if you wanted
to make a fire, you envisioned a flame, then let form follow intent
with focus. Creating a
new spell was simply a matter of finding out the steps in between to
make that intent a reality. At first,
with the adjustment to his new role and home, and the excitement of
setting up his own rooms occupying his mind, he'd toyed with alchemy
and other known sciences, perfecting the skills he already possessed.
However, with a routine established and winter settling in, he found
himself thinking about his encounter with Lhel. The
startling power of her sexuality found its way into his dreams more
and more often; he could feel her heat against him and smell her
musky, feral scent. He awoke
each time with his heart pounding in panic, drenched in sweat. In the
light of day he was able to discount all this as the raging of his
young and unruly body. The thought of touching her as he did in those
dreams made him sick with anxiety. What drew
him back to those memories today was not the carnality of their
encounter, but what he thought he'd seen her do that day in the
forest, and a dream. The
projection of one's image was a known magic; not easily mastered, but
not uncommon, either. lya could do it and Arkoniel himself had had a
few minor successes, but by Oreska magic the resulting image was
limited to the wizard's form alone, usually very clear and unnatural,
like a specter seen in daylight. That day by the road, however, he'd
seen Lhel as if through an oval window; the light that had struck her
was daylight, and he'd been able to see the marsh around her before
he'd had any idea that one existed in the area. His own mind could
not have filled in such detail; Lhel had shown him where she was as
clearly as if she had taken him there through a hole in the air. A hole in
the air. The image
had come to him just as he was waking up that morning. Up until now,
he'd been relying on disappearance spells, trying to bend them into a
combination of form and movement. Nothing had come even close to
working. But this
morning he had a new idea, an inspiration left in the wake of a
dream. In it, he'd again seen Lhel floating in that green-tinged
light that did not match the sunlight where he stood. She was naked,
beckoning him, as if she wanted him to step through the shining oval
and join her without the trouble of walking up the hill. In this
dream he perceived some sort of hole or tunnel connecting them by a
tube of shifting green light. In the dream he'd known he was about to
grasp the secret he needed, but the image of the naked witch intruded
again and he woke with a full bladder and an aching groin. As he sat
here pondering all this, another long-forgotten and seemingly
unrelated memory came to him. He and lya had once explored echoing
tunnels at the base of an ancient peak in the northern territories.
The tunnels reminded him of enormous mole burrows, but the walls were
glassy smooth and showed no sign of digging. lya claimed that the
mountain had created them itself somehow, and showed him chunks of
obsidian that contained tiny holes, miniatures of the tunnels
themselves, but these were as fine as ant holes in fine earth. His member
stirred again as he settled on a stool by his worktable and attempted
to summon the details of the dream more clearly. He willed his body
to behave and concentrated on the image: a hole in the air—no,
a tunnel! Easy to visualize, but how to create such a thing when he
didn't even understand how the mountain had achieved it? Never in
all their travels had lya or he discovered any spell that resembled
such a thing as he envisioned. Here, in his newfound solitude, he
worked alone at devising some mechanism of mind that could encompass
his vision. As he had
so often over the past few weeks, Arkoniel reached into a nearby bowl
and took out a dried bean. It was half the size of his thumbnail and
dark red with a smattering of white speckles, the sort his father's
cook had called red hens. He rubbed it between thumb and forefinger,
committing its weight and smoothness to memory. Holding the
image of the bean firmly in his mind, he placed it on the oak table
in front of him, next to a lidded salt box Cook had grudgingly
relinquished. Concentrating, he pushed the bean back and forth with
his fingers a few times, then took his hand away and raised the bean
with his mind until it hovered a foot off the table. Then he brought
the full force of his concentration to bear on it, imagining the
tunnel he'd dreamed of, willing the bean to find such a route into
the closed box. The bean
certainly moved, but only in the usual prosaic manner. Flying against
the box as if hurled from a sling, it struck the lid so hard it split
in half. The pieces ricocheted in opposite directions and he heard
them skitter away across the bare stone floor, no doubt to join their
predecessors already scattered around the room. 'Bilairy's
balls!" he muttered, resting his face in his hands. Over the
past few weeks he'd used enough beans to make a pot of soup, and
always with the same discouraging results. He spent
another hour trying to get his mind around the construct of an
opening in the air, but ended up with nothing more than a thumping
headache. Leaving
off, he turned to surer magics for the rest of the afternoon. Shaking
out a newly made firechip fro*-covered crucible, he placed it on a
plate and mi-"Burn." The reddish brown chip flickered at
*•' to release
a small tongue of pale yellow fire that would burn until he told it
to stop. He set a
crucible full of rainwater to boil over it on an iron tripod, then
went to his herb cabinet for the various simples he needed to concoct
a sleeping draught for Mynir. The initial
mixture stank fiercely, but Arkoniel didn't mind. A feeling of
satisfaction crept over him as he sat watching the first bubbles
rise. He'd gathered the makings himself in the forest and meadow, and
woven the spells from memory. Such melding of magic and material
things calmed his nerves; it was pleasing to have a finished, useful
product at the end of the incantations. The firechip was his work, as
well. Remnants of the latest brick he'd fashioned still lay on a
plank nearby, next to the stone hammer he'd used to smash it into
usable pieces. This batch would keep the house supplied until spring. The smell
of the steeping herbs brought him back to memories of Lhel, this time
as she'd been during their journey to Ero. She'd used every pause and
rest break to seek out useful things in the earth or among the dry
autumn leaves. His face burned again as he recalled how he'd
dismissed her then, not realizing the power she possessed. More recent
memories of musky, tattooed skin and whispered promises crept up on
him, making the wizard's heart skip a giddy beat. Had she
known his secret hope? Had she shown him a glimpse of that trick on
purpose to snare him? During the long journey to Ero he'd caught her
touching his mind so many times; how often had she stolen in
unheeded? He slid off
the stool and went back to the window. Late afternoon shadows
stretched themselves like long blue cats below the house and a
three-quarter moon was rising. Tharin and the boys were gone. Their
fort stood like a tiny outpost, surrounded by a welter of trampled
2tprints. Below it, a single track line of footprints crossed the
smooth white flank of the hillside, leading down to the bend in the
river. In the
forest the bare trunks and branches stood stark black against the
blanket of new snow like hairs on a miller's arm. Soon the real
storms would come and choke the roads and trails until spring. The
keep was well stocked with provisions and fuel, but how would a
barefoot little woman, even a witch, survive? How had she survived so
long here already? And where
was she right now? He
stretched his arms out over his head, trying to ignore the fresh
thrill of guilt-tainted longing that coursed through him at the
thought. Instead, he
leaned far out the window, letting the cold air deal with the sudden
flush that suffused his cheeks. From here
he could hear the clatter of cooking pots echoing from the kitchen
and the muffled staccato of hooves on the road behind the keep.
Arkoniel covered his eyes with one hand and sent a sighting spell up
the mountain road. He was nearly as good at this spell as lya now,
and could see over a distance of several miles for short periods of
time. Looking
down from a hawk's height, he spotted Tobin and Ki galloping for
home, cloaks billowing behind them. They were still some distance
away and riding hard to get home before sunset. They'd come in late a
few weeks earlier and moped like caged bears when Nari had kept them
inside the walls for two days as punishment. Arkoniel
smiled to himself as he watched them. As always, Ki was talking and
Tobin was laughing. Suddenly, however, they both reined in so
abruptly that their horses reared and wheeled, throwing up white
bursts of snow. A third figure entered the wizard's field of vision
and he let out a gasp of surprise. It was
Lhel. She was
wrapped in a long fur robe, her hair loose over her shoulders. Both
boys dismounted and went to her, clasping her hands in greeting.
Arkoniel did not have the power to hear their words at such a
distance, but he could see their faces clearly enough. This was not a
meeting of strangers. The witch
smiled fondly as she clasped hands with Ki. Tobin said something to
her and she reached to touch his cold-reddened cheek. Arkoniel
shuddered, remembering those same fingers cutting, stitching, weaving
souls together. They talked
for a few moments, then the boys mounted again and continued
homeward. Arkoniel kept the sighting on the witch, but he could
already feel the power of the spell waning. He pressed his fingers
into his eyelids, straining to keep her in sight as his ability to
focus slowly faded. Lhel
remained in the road, watching them ride away. He would have to break
it off soon, but he wanted desperately to see where she would go.
Just before he gave up, she raised her head slightly, perhaps looking
up at the rising moon. For an instant she seemed to look directly at
him. Arkoniel
knew he'd held the vision too long. Suddenly he was on his knees
under the window, head pounding, and colored sparks dancing dizzily
before his eyes. When the worst of it had passed, he pulled himself
up and hurried down to the stables for his horse. Not bothering with
a saddle, he climbed astride the sorrel and galloped up the road. As he rode,
he had time to wonder at the pounding of his heart and the furious
sense of urgency that drove him on. He knew beyond all doubt that
Lhel would not harm the children. What's more, he'd seen them part.
Yet still he urged his horse on, desperate to find them— Her. And
why not? he asked himself. She held secrets to magic he had only
dreamed of. lya wanted him to learn from her, and how could he do
that without confronting her? And
why would she still he there, standing in the cold road with night
coming on? Tobin and
Ki came around a bend and reined in to greet him. He pulled his
gelding around so hard he had to cling to its mane to keep his seat. 'You met a
woman on the road. What did she say to you?" He was surprised at
how harshly the words came out. Ki shifted uneasily in the saddle,
not looking at him. Tobin met his gaze squarely and shrugged. 'Lhel says
she's getting tired of waiting for you," he replied, and for a
moment he was again the dark, strange child Arkoniel had met that
summer day. More than that; in the failing light, eyes shadowed to
near black, he looked eerily like his demon twin. The sight sent a
shiver up Arkoniel's back. Tobin pointed back up the road. "She
says for you to hurry. She won't wait much longer." Lhel. She.
Tobin was speaking of someone he knew, not a stranger encountered by
chance on the road. Lhel was
waiting for him, would not wait much longer. 'You'd best
get home," he told them, and galloped on. He grasped for words
to greet her with and found only demands. Where had she been all
these months? What had she said to the child? But more than that,
what magic had she used the first time she'd come to Arkoniel in the
forest? He cursed
himself for not noting any landmarks in his vision, but in the end it
didn't matter. A mile or so on and there she was, still standing in
the road just as he'd last seen her, her shadow lying blue on the
snow. The failing light softened her features, making her look like a
young girl lost in the forest. The sight
drove every question from his mind. He reined his horse in and slid
down to face her. Her smell came to him, hot on the cold air. It took
away his voice and pulled a powerful ache of longing through him. She
reached to touch his cheek, just as she had with Tobin, and the
caress sent a jolt of raw desire through him, making it hurt to
breathe. All he could think to do was to reach out for her, pull her
close, and crush her warm body against his. She moaned softly as she
pressed against him, rubbing a hard thigh against the answering
hardness between his legs. Thought
fled, leaving only sensation and instinct. She must have guided him,
he realized later, but at that moment he seemed to be moving in a
dream filled with hands and warm lips moving over his skin. He wanted
to resist, to summon the rectitude that had guided his life to this
point, but all he could think of now was lya's oblique permission to
do exactly this; give Lhel what she wanted in return for the promise
of knowledge. Lhel wasted
no time on niceties. Pulling him down on top of the fur robe, she
dragged her skirt up to her waist. He fumbled his tunic out of the
way, then he was falling onto her, into her, and she was pulling him
deeper, so deep that he could scarely comprehend the hot grip of her
body around his before he felt something like lightning strike him,
pulling a raw cry of amazement from his throat. She shoved him over
onto his back, and he felt the soft snow cradle him as she rode him
beneath the first stars of evening. Head thrown back, she keened
wildly, clenching his member with whatever strange inner muscles
women possessed. Lightning struck again, harder and more consuming
this time, and Arkoniel went blind, listening to his own cries and
hers echoing through the forest like wolf song. Then he was
gulping air, too stunned to move. She leaned forward and kissed his
cheeks, eyelids, and lips. His throat was sore, his body cold, and
their mingled fluids were trickling in a chilly, ticklish stream over
his balls. He couldn't have stirred if a whole regiment of cavalry
had come thundering down the road at them. His horse nickered softly
nearby, as if amused. Lhel sat
back and took his hand. Pressing it to one full breast through her
rough dress, she grinned down at him. "Make spell for me,
Oreska." He goggled
stupidly up at her. "What?" She kneaded
his fingers into her firm, pliant flesh and her grin widened. "Make
a magic for me." The stars
caught his eye again and he whispered a
spell in their honor. A point of brilliant white light sprang to life
above them, radiant as a star itself. The sheer beauty of it made him
laugh. He spun the light into a larger sphere, then split it into a
thousand sparkling shards and placed them in her hair like a wreath
of frost and diamonds. Bathed in their ethereal light, Lhel looked
like a wild spirit of the night masquerading in rags. As if reading
his thoughts on his face, she grasped the neck of her dress and tore
it down the front, revealing again the marks of power that covered
her body. Arkoniel touched them reverently, tracing spirals, whorls,
and crescents, then shyly reached down to where their bodies were
still joined, flesh to flesh. 'You were
right. lya tried to tell me…" he managed at last, caught
between wonder and betrayal. "It was all a lie, that this robs a
wizard of power." He raised his hand to the crown of light
glowing in her hair. "I've never made anything so beautiful." Lhel took
his hand again and pressed it to her heart. "Not lies for all,
Oreska. Some can't serve the Goddess. But you? What you feel here…"
She tapped his chest with her free hand. "That's what you make
here." She touched his forehead. "lya thinks this. She
tried tell you." 'You heard
us talking that day?" 'I hear a
lot. See a lot. See you sleep with longing in your raluk."
She squeezed him inside of her and gave him a playful wink. "I
try send my words to you in dreams, but you stubborn one! Why you
make me send children after you with all that heat in you?" Arkoniel
stared up at the sky, trying to summon the fear that had beset him
less than an hour earlier. How had he come to be here, sated and
laughing, without any memory of decision or consent? "Did you
make me—?" Lhel
shrugged. "Can't make if desire don't be in you. Wasn't, that
first time in the mud place. Now it is; I just call it out." 'But you
could have had me easily in the—the 'mud place'!" Yet even
as he said it, Arkoniel knew that something important had shifted in
himself since that day at the marsh. 'I don't
take," she said softly. "You give." 'But I
didn't have any intention of—of—" He gestured
weakly. "Of any of this until the moment I got here!" 'You did.
In here." Lhel caught one of the light points on her fingertip
and placed it on his chest. "Heart don't always tell head. But
body know. You learn that." 'Yes, I
learn that," Arkoniel agreed, surrendering to her logic. Lhel rolled
off him and stood up. Her feet were bound up with rags and strips of
bark but she showed no sign of minding the cold. Pulling the torn
dress and the robe around her, she said, "Too much in they head,
you Oreskas. That why you need me for the shaimari
anan. Why you need me put those keesas' shaimari back right." 'You'll
teach me?" Lhel looked
down at him and raised an eyebrow. "You keep pay?" Arkoniel
got up and straightened his own clothing. "By the Four, yes, if
that's your price. But can't you come to the keep?" Lhel shook
her head. "No, lya right in that. I seen your king, read his
heart. Nobody knows, is better." Sudden
doubt leeched up through Arkoniel's buoyant mood. "I saw you
speak to Tobin and Ki in the road. They know you." 'Keesas
knows not to say." 'You put Ki
in danger, you know, revealing too much." Lhel
shrugged. "You don't be worry about Ki. Goddess send him, too." This seemed
to be the foundation of her reasoning. "She's a busy lady, your
goddess." Lhel folded
her arms and stared at him until he felt uncomfortable, then turned
abruptly and motioned for him to follow. 'Where are
we going?" A chuckle
floated back to him as she melted into the shadow of the trees. "You
want have all lessons in the road, Oreska?" With a
resigned sigh, Arkoniel reached for his horse's lead rein and
followed her on foot. Wizards saw
well in the dark, and apparently so did witches. Lhel strode
confidently through the trees with no path to guide her. Humming to
herself, she seemed almost to dance ahead of him, brushing trees and
stones with her hands as she went. Without the stars to sight by,
Arkoniel soon lost track of the way and hurried to keep up with her. She stopped
at last under an enormous oak. "Cama!"
she said aloud, and a soft glow issued from an opening in its side. Following
her inside, he found himself in a comfortable shelter. A light
similar to the one he'd conjured glowed softly some twenty feet
overhead where the cleft in the oak ended. lya and he had found
shelters like this in their travels; ancient oaks often split without
dying. Lhel had made herself nicely at home here. A fur-covered
pallet lay against the far wall beside a rumpled pile of what might
be clothing; there were a few pots and baskets, and the fire pit and
upper walls of the tree were well blackened with smoke. Even so, he
could not imagine living all these years in such a place. Lhel pulled
a deer hide across the entrance, then squatted by the firepit to
strike a flame in the tinder stacked ready there. 'Here, a
gift." Arkoniel took a small pouch of firechips from his tunic
and showed her how to use them. Flames licked up and she fed the
little blaze from a pile of twigs and broken branches next to it. She looked
into the pouch and smiled. "Is good." 'How have
you survived here?" he asked, hunkering down beside her. In this
light he could see how chapped her face and hands were, and the thick
calluses and chilblains on her dirty bare feet under the wrappings. Lhel looked
at him over the fire. The flickering light sank deep shadows into the
lines around her mouth and struck reddish glints in the silver
streaks in her hair. As they'd rutted wildly in the road, she'd
seemed so young; here she looked ancient as a goddess herself. 'This good
place," she said, shrugging out of the cloak and letting the
torn top of her dress slide off her shoulders to hang loose about her
waist. Her full breasts glowed in the firelight, showing no sign of
the symbols he'd seen there before. She reached into a basket and
offered him a strip of dried meat. Arkoniel took it, still staring at
her body as she found more food and began to eat. She was as filthy
as ever, and had lost some teeth over the years. Those she had left
were stained and worn. Yet as she turned to grin at him, she was
still handsome, still deeply alluring… Without
thinking, he leaned forward to kiss her shoulder, inhaling her odor
and wanting her again. "How do you make me feel like this?"
he whispered, genuinely mystified. 'How many
year you be?" she asked around a mouthful of wizened
caneberries. Arkoniel
had to stop and think. "Thirty-one," he said at last. It
was nearly a life's span for some men; for a wizard he was hardly out
of his youth. Lhel raised
her eyebrows in mocking surprise. "Thirty-one year no woman and
now you don't know why you get hard?" She snorted and reached
under his tunic to cra die his genitals in her hand. "You got
power here!" Taking her hand away, she
touched his belly, chest, throat, and brow. "Got power all
places. Some can use. You can." 'And you'll
teach me?" 'Some. For
the keesa." Arkoniel
moved closer until his leg was pressed to hers. "That day at the
marsh I saw you do something that I want to learn. I was on the road,
and you appeared— Lhel smiled
slyly and made a pinching motion with thumb and forefinger. "I
see you with your krabol." Arkoniel
stared at her a moment, then grinned sheepishly as he interpreted the
hand gesture. "With the beans, you mean!" 'Beans."
She repeated the word. "You think you move them—"
Another less intelligible gesture, but he thought he understood. 'You've
seen me trying to move them about. But how?" Lhel held
up her left hand and made a circle with thumb and forefinger.
Rattling off a quick gabble of sounds that didn't quite seem to be
words, she pursed her lips and blew through her fingers. When she
took her hand away Arkoniel saw a small black hole in the air in
front of them, no bigger than a horse's eye. 'Look,"
she offered. Leaning
over, Arkoniel peered into the spy hole and found himself looking at
Tobin and Ki. They were sitting on the floor beside the toy city and
Tobin was trying to teach Ki to carve. "Incredible!" Lhel
elbowed him sharply and closed the hole with a wave of her hand, but
not before Arkoniel glimpsed two startled faces look up as one,
trying to find the source of the voice that must have come out of
thin air. 'I forgot
that I could hear you through it, too," Arkoniel exclaimed. "By
the Light, it is a. tunnel in the air!"
'What'tunnel'?" asked Lhel. When
Arkoniel tried to explain, she shook her head. 'No, it
is—" She mimed what he finally understood to be opening a
shuttered window. "Like that, with two side—" She
pressed her palms tightly together. Arkoniel
pondered this with growing excitement. If a voice could go through so
easily, then surely an object, or even a person, could as well? But
when he tried to explain this to Lhel her eyes widened in alarm. 'No!"
she warned, shaking his arm for emphasis. Placing her other hand on
his brow, she spoke in his mind, as she had that day at the marsh. No
solid thing that goes into a seeing window comes out again, on the
other side or anywhere else. They swallow up whatever is put into
them. 'Teach me,"
he said aloud. Lhel took
her hands away and shook her head. "Not yet. Other things more
needful. You don't be knowing enough." Arkoniel
sat back on his heels, trying to swallow his disappointment. It was
not the magic he'd hoped for, but one that would take him closer to
his goal than anything else he knew of. He would bide his time. "What
must I be knowing, then?" Lhel
produced a bone needle from somewhere in her skirts. She held it up
for him to see, then pricked the pad of her thumb and squeezed out a
bright red droplet. "First you learn the power of this, and
flesh, and bone, and the dead."
'Necromancy?" Was he so blinded by a single rut that he'd
forgotten the darker roots of her magic? Lhel gazed
at him with unfathomable black eyes, and again she looked ancient and
powerful. "This word I know. Your people call us this when you
drive us out of lands that be ours. You wrong." 'But it's
blood magic—" 'Yes, but
not evil. Necromancy is—" She
struggled with the language. "Most worse dirty thing."
'Abomination," Arkoniel offered. 'Yes,
abomination. But not this." She squeezed out another drop and
smeared it across her palm. "You have blood, flesh. I have. All
people. No evil. Power. Evil come from
heart, not blood." Arkoniel
stared at her palm, watching the thin smear dry into the lines of her
palm. What she'd said went against everything he'd ever been taught
as a Skalan in his father's house and as a wizard. Yet sitting here
with this woman, feeling the aura of power that surrounded her, he
sensed no evil in her. He thought of Tobin and the demon, and the
lengths to which Lhel had gone to make things as right as she could.
Grudgingly, fearfully, he listened to his heart and guessed that she
spoke the truth. Had he been
gifted with future sight, he would have seen the course of Skalan and
Oreska history shift ever so subtly in that moment of uneasy
realization. Arkoniel
found himself in the dual roles of teacher and pupil that winter,
instructing his reluctant young charges each morning, then seeking
out Lhel for his own lessons. Tharin
proved a stout ally in the former, for he refused to begin weapons
practice until both boys had made an acceptable effort at Arkoniel's
lessons. This system met with some resistance at first, but as Tobin
finally mastered his letters and could read a little, he suddenly
developed a taste for learning. His enthusiasm increased when
Arkoniel offered to teach him to draw. As far as Arkoniel could tell,
it was the only skill he possessed that impressed Tobin. Ki still
fidgeted and sighed a great deal, but Arkoniel saw improvements
there, too, though he knew better than to flatter himself as to the
reason. For Ki, the sun rose and set on Tobin and he would strive at
any task his companion set value on. Whatever the young prince chose
to apply himself to, Ki threw himself into with a will. There was
no arguing that he'd had the desired effect on Tobin, either. The
prince laughed more now, and the daily rambles on the mountainside
put color in his cheeks and lean muscle on his long bones. 'ispatch
riders arrived every few weeks, carrying letters from Rhius filled
with reports of the growing unrest across the sea. The
Plenimaran shipyards are too busy for comfort, he wrote in one
letter, and the king's spies send word of great
numbers of Plenimarans massing along Mycena's eastern border. I fear
they will not limit themselves to coastal raids, come spring. May
Illior and Sakor grant that we fight on other shores this time. Arkoniel,
who had no experience of war, found himself watching Tharin as these
letters were read out in the hall. Tharin
listened carefully, brow furrowed in thought, then questioned the
messenger in detail. How fared the garrisons at Atyion and Cirna? How
many ships were anchored in Ero's harbor? Had the king raised another
levy of soldiers, or provender from the countryside? 'I feel
very green, listening to you," Arkoniel admitted one evening as
he and Tharin sat up late over a game of bakshi. "For all my
travels, I've led a sheltered existence compared to you." 'Wizards
used to fight for Skala," Tharin mused, still focused on the
gaming stones in front of them. "Now it seems the king is only
willing to have you fight one another." 'I hope to
see that change one day." At such
moments Arkoniel was uncomfortably aware of the secret that divided
them. The more he grew to know the man, the more he regretted that
Tharin did not know the truth. 'I wouldn't
mind having you at my back," Tharin went on, gathering the
stones for another toss. Firelight struck the polished carnelians,
turning them to fire and blood in his fingers. "I'm no authority
on wizards, but I know men. You've got steel in your spine. And I
don't imagine old lya would've taken you on if she didn't believe it,
too. Or left that old bag of hers with you." He looked
up before Arkoniel could completely mask his surprise. "Oh, I'm
not asking. But I'm not blind, either. If she trusts you, that should
be good enough for anyone." Neither
said anything more about the matter, but Arkoniel was grateful to
have the respect of this man. He wished
he were as certain of Lhel's opinion of him. Arkoniel burned for her.
He dreamed of her body and awoke stiff and hot in the night with no
recourse but his own hand, a remedy far less satisfying than it had
once been. But she
remained obdurate; he was only allowed to find her at her whim. No
seeking spell could locate her and he was never able to find his way
to the oak on his own. When he wanted her, he rode into the forest
and, if she wished, she would reveal herself. If not, he came home
frustrated and fuming. Sometimes
when he did find her, the boys were with her. Then the four of them
would tramp through the snow, exploring the forest together like some
peasant family. It was pleasant and he smiled at the picture they
made, for in daylight Lhel showed her age and he felt more akin to
Tobin and Ki than he did to her. When he and
Lhel did manage to meet alone, however, it was quite another matter.
They coupled each time—he never did equate her "price"
with lovemaking, nor did she—and each time was as frenzied as
the first. She asked no tenderness of him and gave none in return,
only passion. Behind closed eyelids, Arkoniel saw visions of
whirlwinds, thunderstorms, and earthquakes. When he opened his eyes
he saw the power of Lhel's goddess blazing in her eyes and in the
dark whorls on her skin that she showed him only then. As they lay
naked together on her pallet afterward, she showed him whatever she
was moved to in the way of spellcraft. Much of it seemed designed to
overcome his natural aversion to blood magic. She began
by teaching him to "read the blood," as she put it. She
would hand him a bloodstained bit of cloth or bark; by touching it
with fingers and mind, he soon learned to identify the creature that
had shed it. As these lessons progressed, he learned to enter the
mind of the creature if it was still living, and to see through its
eyes. As a fox he padded through a meadow and dug sluggish mice from
their tunnels in the brown, ice-rimed grass. As an eagle, he circled
the keep in search of stray hens. In the strangest of these
explorations, he entered a trout swimming in the muted brown light
under the river ice and saw a woman's jeweled ring shining brightly
among the silky strands of slime that covered the rocks. As a final
test, Lhel gave him a bit of her own blood, and he found himself
inside her skin. The simple minds of the beasts had given him nothing
more than a few visual images, cast in shades of grey. Settling in
Lhel, however, he felt the intimate weight of her body around him, as
if he wore her flesh as a garment over his own. He could feel the sag
of her breasts beneath her ragged dress, the ache that plagued her
left ankle, the heavy warmth of their coupling between her thighs.
After a moment's dis-orientation, he realized that he was looking at
himself through her eyes. His body lay on the pallet next to the
fire, still as a corpse beneath the fur robe. With a mix of chagrin
and amusement he inspected his own long, bony limbs, the jut of ribs
under his white skin, the black pelt of hair that covered his chest
and back, arms and legs. The expression on his face was ecstatic,
like a temple Oracle's when touched by the god. For all
that, however, he could not hear Lhel's thoughts. That she would not
share. As his fear
of her magic lessened, she began to impart a few rudiments about
spirits and ghosts. 'How did
you make the change in Tobin?" he asked one day as the wind
moaned around the oak. 'You saw." 'I saw you
trade a piece of skin between them. Does it hold the magic?" 'It make
skin one skin," she replied, casting about for the right words.
"When Tobin is to be a girl again, that skin must come off."
was not always the student with her. He helped Lhel learn more of his
language, and showed her all the ways he knew to make fire. Comparing
magics, they discovered that they could both call wind, and pass
through any cover without leaving traces. He taught
her the Oreska method of wizard sighting, and in return she tried to
teach him her "tunnel in the air" magic. However, this
proved more difficult than he'd expected. It was not the whispered
incantation, or even the patterned hand movements it required, but
some odd twist of mind that he could not see and she did not have the
language to explain. 'It will
come to you," she assured him again and again. "It will
come." i Arkoniel's dismay, the one person at the keep whom he
seemed to make the least progress with was Tobin. The child was civil
and seemed determined to master what Arkoniel tried to teach him, but
there was always a distance between them that seemed unbridgeable. One thing
Tobin did choose to share, much to Arkoniel's surprise, was the spell
he used to summon Brother. Arkoniel attempted it, but with no result.
Brother answered only to Tobin. When he
asked Lhel about it later, she shrugged and said, "They joined
by flesh. That you cannot learn by magic." Arkoniel
was sorry to hear this, for the spirit often found its way into his
workroom. He had not seen it with his eyes since that day it had
fooled him and spooked his horse, but there was no mistaking its
cold, hostile presence. It seemed to enjoy tormenting him, and often
came close enough to raise the hairs on his neck. It did him no
physical harm, but more than once it drove him downstairs in search
of Tobin. G* ^7pring
came early with little rain. As expected, King Erius signed a pact
with Mycena and launched a campaign against the Plenimaran invaders
there, leaving his trusted minister, Lord Chancellor Hylus, to
oversee the court in his absence. One of lya's infrequent letters
mentioned seemingly in passing that the king's wizard, Lord Niryn,
had also remained behind. Rhius was
to accompany the king, of course, and Tharin could no longer be
spared. The duke
came in early Lithion to make his farewells, and brought a band of
minstrels and acrobats with him to perform. He stayed less than a
week, but rode with the boys each day, and sat up late in the hall,
gaming with Tharin and Arkoniel and listening to the minstrels. The
wizard was delighted to see him acting so much more like his old
self, and Tobin was ecstatic. The only
thing to mar the visit was the sudden passing of the old steward,
Mynir. He failed to come down for breakfast one morning and Nari
found the old man dead in his bed. The women drained and washed the
body, wrapped it with spices, and sewed it into a shroud to be
carried back to his people in Ero. The old man
had been beloved in the household and everyone wept around the body
as it lay before the shrine—everyone except Tobin. Even Ki shed
a few tears for the poor old fellow, but Tobin's eyes remained dry as
he made his solemn offerings to Astellus. The sight chilled Arkoniel,
though no one else seemed to remark on it. V,'he day
of parting came too soon, and the household gathered in the courtyard
to see Rhius and Tharin off. Arkoniel and Tharin had said their
good-byes over wine the night before, but all the same the wizard
felt a dull ache clutch his heart as he watched the tall swordsman
saddle his mount. Tobin and
Ki helped glumly with the preparation, looking more subdued than
Arkoniel had ever seen them. When
everything was ready and his father and Tharin were mounted to go,
Tobin stood by his father's stirrup and looked up. "Ki and I
will practice every day," he promised. "When can we come to
join you?" proudly. fly.
when my armor fits you, my child, and that day will come sooner
than you think. When it does—" The man's voice caught
roughly in his throat. "By the Four, then no general will be
prouder than I to have such a warrior at my back." He turned to
Ki then. "Do you have any message for your father, if I meet
with him?" Ki
shrugged. "If I've served well here, my lord, you might tell him
that. I can't think what else he'd want to know." 'I'll tell
him that no prince has a more loyal squire. You have my thanks,
Kirothius, son of Larenth." Arkoniel
would have been hard pressed to say whose eyes shone more brightly as
they watched Rhius out of sight, Tobin's or Ki's. For weeks
after his father left, Tobin watched for messengers on the Alestun
road, but none came. Arkoniel
found him standing at his window one morning and guessed his
thoughts. "Mycena's a long way off, you know. They may not even
be there yet." Tobin knew
he was right, but he couldn't help watching the road, all the same. When a
rider finally did appear one warm spring day a month or so later, it
was not with word of Rhius. Tobin and
Ki were fishing at the river bend when they heard the sound of hooves
on the road. Scrambling up the bank, they peered over the edge. The
horseman was a rough-looking character in leather with a mane of wild
brown hair flying about his shoulders. The rules
for strangers had not changed since Ki's arrival: keep your distance
and head for the keep. Ki knew this as well as Tobin did, but instead
of obeying, he let out a whoop and leapt up to meet the rider. 'Ki, no!"
Tobin snouted, catching at his ankle. But Ki
laughed. "Come on, it's only Ahra!" 'Ahra? Your
sister?" Tobin followed, but hung back shyly. Ahra was often a
rather formidable character in Ki's stories. The rider
saw them and reined in sharply. "That you, Ki?" It was a
woman after all, but not like any Tobin had ever seen. She wore the
same sort of leather armor over mail that his father's men did, and a
bow and longsword hung at her back. Her hair was dark brown like
Ki's, and worn braided in front, wild behind. She didn't look much
like him, otherwise, being only a half sister. She swung
down and grabbed her brother in a hug that lifted him off the ground.
"It is you, boy! Skinny as ever, but you've grown two spans!" 'What're
you doing here?" Ki demanded as she let him down. 'Come to
see how you was faring." Ahra spoke with the same flat, country
accent that Ki had had when he first came to the keep. "I met
that wizard woman of yours on the road a few weeks back and she asked
me to bring a letter to another wizard here—friend of hers.
Said you'd worked in here well enough, too." She grinned at
Tobin. "Who's this one with mud between his toes? lya didn't say
nothing about another boy sent to serve the prince." 'Mind your
mouth," Ki warned. "That is the
prince!" Tobin
stepped forward to greet her and the woman dropped to one knee before
him, head bent. "Forgive me, Your Highness. I didn't know you!" 'How would
you? Please, get up!" Tobin urged, embarrassed to have anyone
kneel to him. Ahra stood
and shot Ki a dark look. "You mighta said." 'Didn't
give me a chance, did you?" 'I'm glad
to meet you," Tobin said, clasping hands with her. Now that his
initial surprise had passed, he •was very curious about her and
delighted to finally meet one of Ki's kin. "My father's not
here, but you're welcome to guest with us." 'I'd be
most honored, Highness, but my captain only give me'til nightfall.
Rest of the company's back in Alestun buying supplies. We're bound
for Ylani to fend off the summer raiders." 'I figured
you'd be gone to Mycena with Jorvai and Father and all," said
Ki. She let out
a snort and Tobin got a glimpse of her famous temper. " They
went, all the boys right down to your mam's Amin, just year older'n
you. Gone for a runner. But the king still wants no women in the
ranks with him, by Sakor. Left us with the old men and cripples to
watch the coastline." Ahra gave
Ki news of home as the three of them walked up to the house. Their
fourth mother, who was only a year older than Ahra, had birthed twins
soon after Ki left home and was pregnant again. Five of the younger
children had been taken with fever, but only two had died. The house
was quieter with the seven eldest gone; the war had come in time to
save Alon from being taken up as a horse thief by a neighboring
knight. Even though this was old news, Ki vigorously defended his
brother's innocence in the matter all the same, outraged at the
charge. Tobin took
all this in with mounting delight; he knew all these people through
Ki's stories and here was one of them in the flesh. He liked Ahra,
too, and decided Ki had exaggerated her bad points a bit. Like him,
she was blunt and open, with no secrets behind her dark eyes. All the
same, it was strange to see a woman carrying a sword. H
lari met them as they came across the bridge, and her scowl
stopped all three in their tracks. "Prince Tobin, who's this and
what's she doing here?" 'Ki's
sister," he told her. "You know, the one who tried to leap
her horse over the hog pen and fell in." 'Ahra, is
it?" Nari softened at once. Ahra glared
at Ki. "You been telling tales on me, have you?" Nari
laughed. "That he has! You'll find you've no secrets with Ki
about. Come in, girl, and eat with us. Cook will be glad to see a
woman in armor again!" They were
listening to Cook trade stories with Ahra about her fighting days
when Arkoniel came in with that smug, comfortable look he always had
when he'd been with Lhel on his own. That
changed when he saw Ahra. He looked even less pleased than Nari until
Ahra handed him lya's letter. 'Well, if
she sent you," he muttered. "I suppose I should have had Ki
write to his mother before now." 'Wouldn't
do no good if he did," Ahra told him with stiff dignity. "Can't
none of us read." Ki colored
as if he'd been caught doing something shameful. 'What can
you tell us of the war?" Tobin asked. 'Last news
I had is a good month old. The king met up with the Mycenian Elders
at Nanta and a fleet went down the coast to engage the Plenimarans at
the frontier. I heard your father well spoken of, Prince Tobin. Word
is he's at the front of every battle, the king's right hand." 'Have you
been in the capital recently?" asked Arkoniel. Ahra
nodded. "We come through there a week back. Two ships were
burned at anchor when the harbormaster found plague aboard. When it
turned out that some of the sailors had got ashore already and gone
into a tavern, the deathbirds come and nailed it up with them in it
and burned 'em for plague bringers." 'What are
deathbirds?" Tobin asked. 'They're
something like a healer," Arkoniel told him, though his look of
distaste belied the explanation. "They go about the country
trying to keep plague from coming in at the ports. They wear masks
with long fronts on them that look like beaks. The beak part is
filled with herbs to keep off the plague. That's why people call them
deathbirds." 'There's
plenty of Harriers about making trouble, too," Ahra told him,
and again Tobin didn't know what she meant, except that she didn't
think much of them. "Have there been any more executions in the
city?" Ahra nodded. "Three more, one of them a priest.
People don't like it much, but no one dares speak against them, not
since the arrests a few months back." 'That's
enough about that," said Cook. "I think the boys might like
to see how a woman fights, don't you? You're the first Prince Tobin
has ever met still in armor." They
finished the visit with a bout of swordplay in the barracks yard.
Ahra fought hard and dirty, and showed the boys a few new ways of
tripping up and backhanding an opponent. 'That's no
way to be teaching the king's nephew!" Nari objected, watching
from a safe distance. 'No, let
them have at it," said Cook. "No one pays attention to
tides or birthrights in battle. A young warrior can do with a few
tricks up his sleeve." Lrkoniel
remained in the kitchen, committing lya's letter to memory so he
could burn it. To anyone else, it would appear to be nothing more
than a rambling account of people lya had met in her recent travels.
However, when Arkoniel muttered the correct words over it, the spell
silvered a few letters here and there, revealing the true message. It
was still cryptic, but clear enough to send a nasty jolt of dread
through him. Three
more friends lost to flames. The hounds still hunt but have not
struck a scent. Come White or Grey, flee. I keep my distance. Illior
watch over you. Grey or
White. Arkoniel imagined a column of such riders coming up through
the meadow and shivered. He tossed the letter into the fire and
watched until it was completely consumed. 'Illior
watch over you, too," he whispered, knocking the ashes to bits
with the poker. Messengers
from Mycena began to arrive by early Gorathin. From then on, all
through the summer and the long winter that followed, the boys lived
from dispatch to dispatch. The duke wrote infrequently; each letter
was read and reread until the parchment was limp and dog-eared. The
king returned to Ero for the winter, but left the bulk of his force
on the frontier. As one of his most valued commanders, Rhius
remained, camped with his armies on the western bank of the Eel
River. The Pleni-marans did the same on their side of the water and
when spring came the fighting broke out anew. The summer
that followed was hotter than any even Cook could recall. Arkoniel
kept the boys at their lessons as best he could while they fretted
that the war was passing them by. Ki turned
thirteen on the fourth of Shemin. His voice cracked wildly at odd
moments now and he proudly showed off a faint line of downy black
hair on his upper lip. Tobin would
soon be twelve, and though his cheeks and lip remained bare, he now
matched Ki in height. Both boys were still rangy and coltish in
build, but endless days of riding, chores, and arms practice had
given them a wiry strength no town-bred boy could match. Arkoniel
continued to marvel at their bond. No two brothers could have been
closer in love than these two. In fact, it seemed to the wizard that
they got on with each other better than most brothers did. Despite
the fact that they shared nearly every waking hour of the day and the
same bed at night, Arkoniel seldom heard a harsh word pass between
them. Instead, they challenged each other good-naturedly at all
pursuits and shamelessly supported one another when caught in some
prank around the house. Arkoniel suspected that Ki was behind most of
the mischief, but it would have taken magic or torture to get the
truth out of either of them. Two years
of careful tutelage had polished Ki up like a good gem. He spoke as
fair as any country lord and managed not to swear most of the time.
He still had a boy's unformed features, but he'd prove to be a comely
fellow in time and Arkoniel suspected he had the wit to go far at
court if he chose. Or at least
as far as a landless knight's middle son could go with the right
patronage. His father's tide was an empty one; it would be Rhius or
Tobin who sent him higher, and even then it would not be an easy
climb unless Rhius chose to adopt Ki—an unlikely prospect. Had this
been a normal household, the difference in the boys' stations might
have made itself felt by now, but this was not a normal house by any
measure. Tobin knew nothing of court life and treated everyone as his
equal. Nari fretted over this, but Arkoniel advised her to let the
boys be. Judged on his own merits, Ki was as worthy a companion as
any young prince could ask for and Tobin was happy at last—for
the most part, at least. His strange
bouts of foreknowing seemed to have passed, and with Lhel's help he'd
reached some accord with Brother. The spirit had grown so quiet that
Nari joked about missing its antics. Arkoniel asked Lhel if it was
possible that the spirit might go to rest at last, but the witch
shook her head and told him, "No, and you don't want for it to." If Tobin
thought at all of his mother's death, he said nothing. The only
indication that it still haunted him was his aversion to the tower. The only
apparent clouds on the boy's youthful horizon were his father's
absence and not being allowed to join him in Mycena. Since
Ahra's visit the previous summer, Tobin and Ki were painfully aware
that boys younger than themselves had gone off to war. Arkoniel's
assurances that no boy of Tobin's station, not even the Prince Royal
himself, would be allowed in battle did little to assuage his wounded
pride. At least
once a month since then, both boys tried on the armor Rhius had left
behind and swore it nearly fit, though in truth the sleeves of the
hauberk still hung well below their fingertips. They kept up their
arms practice with grim determination and splintered enough practice
blades to keep Cook in kindling through the winter. Tobin
capitalized on his hard-won writing skills and always had a thick
packet of letters ready for his father's couriers. Rhius replied
sporadically, and his letters made no mention of Tobin's pleas to
join him. However, he did send a swordsmith to the keep. The man took
their measure with his strings and calipers; within the month they
each had proper swords to practice with. Otherwise,
life went on as it always had until one summer day when Arkoniel
overheard them trying to guess the distance to Ero, and how they
might present themselves to strangers on the road. That night he
quietly fixed a small glyph on each of them as they slept, in case he
had to track them down later. and Tobin
didn't run away, but all through that long hot summer they grumbled
and fretted and talked of war, and Ero. In truth Ki
had been to the city only a handful of times, but he relived each
visit from memory for Tobin. Sitting by the dusty toy city at night,
he would point here and there, painting a picture with his words,
making a new section come alive in Tobin's imagination. 'Here's
where Goldsmith Street lies, or thereabouts, and the temple," Ki
would explain. "Remember I told you about the painted dragon on
the wall there?" Tobin
questioned him closely about Aurenfaie horses and traders he'd seen
at the Horse Fair, and repeatedly made him describe everything he
could recall of the ships in the harbor, with their colored sails and
banners. It was
Tobin, however, who taught Ki what lay inside the walls of the
Palatine Circle, for Ki had never been there. Tobin had only his
father and Tharin's stories to go by, but he'd learned them well. He
quizzed his friend on the royal lineage, as well, lining the little
kings and queens from the box up on the Palace roof. During the
day they roamed the woods and meadow wearing little more than short
linen kilts. It was too hot most days for more. Even Arkoniel adopted
their fashion and didn't seem to mind when they snickered at his pale
hairy body. Lhel
stripped for the heat, too. Tobin was shocked the first time she
stepped from the trees to greet them clad only in a short skirt. He'd
seen most of Nari often enough when she changed her shift or bathed,
but never any other woman. And Nari was small-breasted, soft and
pale. Lhel was nothing like that. She was brown all over, and her
body was almost as hard as a man's, but not flat and angular. Her
breasts hung like huge ripe plums and they swayed as she walked. Her
legs and flanks were firm, her hips wide and rounded, and her waist
slender. Her hands and feet were as dirty as ever, but the rest of
her looked as clean as if she'd just come from swimming. Tobin wanted
to reach out and touch her shoulder, just to see what it would feel
like, but the very thought made him blush. He saw Ki
blushing, too, that first time, though he didn't look all that
embarrassed. They both soon grew used to the sight of her, but Tobin
did sometimes wonder what her skirt might hide. Ki said a woman's
nether parts were nothing like a man's. Now and then he'd find Lhel
watching him as if she knew his thoughts and he'd have to look away,
coloring more hotly than ever. Do you
think Prince Korin has to fill the wash kettle at the Palace?"
Ki complained as he and Tobin toiled into the kitchen yard with their
buckets. The wooden horse carving he wore stuck against his sweaty
brown chest as he heaved his bucket up onto the edge of the steaming
wash cauldron. It wasn't even noon yet, but the Lenthin day was
already sweltering. Sweat ran
off Tobin's nose as he emptied his own bucket. Leaning over the
cauldron, he blew the steam out of the way and let out an exasperated
groan. "Bilairy's balls! Not even half full yet. Two more trips
and we're taking a swim. I don't care if Cook yells herself hoarse." 'Command
me, my prince," Ki chuckled, following Tobin back out the gate. The most
recent drought had lowered the river between its banks. They had to
pick their way over jumbled stones crusted with dead rockweed to
reach the water's edge. They were almost there when Ki stubbed his
toe badly. He let out a strangled groan as he bit back a forbidden
word; Nari had already clipped his ear once today for foul language.
"Damnation!" he hissed instead, gripping his bleeding toe. Tobin
dropped his buckets and helped him hobble down to the water. "Soak
it until it feels better." Ki sat down
and thrust both legs into the current up to the knees. Tobin did the
same and leaned back, resting on his elbows. He was even browner than
Ki this summer, he noted proudly, though Nari claimed it made him
look like a peasant. From his
current vantage point he could see the line of fine golden hairs that
ran down the muscled trough of Ki's spine, and the way his friend's
shoulder blades flared out beneath the smooth skin. Ki reminded Tobin
of the catamount they'd faced together in the mountains, tawny and
supple. The sight sent a warm glow through him that he couldn't quite
put words to. 'That
kettle won't fill itself!" Cook called from the gate behind
them. Tobin
craned his head back for an upside down look at the impatient woman.
"Ki hurt his foot." "Are your
legs broke?" 'Nothing
wrong that I can see," Ki said, throwing a handful of cold water
onto Tobin's belly. He yelped
and sat up. "Traitor! See if I help you…" Brother
stood watching him on the far bank. Tobin had called him earlier that
morning, then forgotten about him. Brother had matched Tobin in
growth, but stayed gaunt and fish-belly pale. No matter where Brother
appeared, the light never struck him the way it did a living person.
At this distance, his unnatural eyes looked like two black holes in
his face. His voice had grown fainter, too. It had been months since
Tobin had heard him speak at all. He stared at Tobin a moment longer,
then turned and gazed down the road. 'Someone's
coming," Tobin murmured. Ki glanced down the meadow, then back
at him. "I don't hear anything." A moment
later they both heard the first faint jingle of harness in the
distance. "Ah! Brother?" Tobin nodded. By now they
could both hear the riders clearly enough to know there were at least
a score. Tobin jumped to his feet. "Do you suppose that's
Father?" Ki grinned.
"Who else could it be, coming here with that many?" Tobin
scrambled back up the rocks and ran onto the bridge for a better
view. The
sun-baked planks burned his feet. He danced impatiently from foot to
foot for a minute, then set off along the grassy verge to meet the
riders. 'Tobin,
come back! You know we're not supposed to." 'I'll just
go part way!" Glancing over his shoulder, he saw Ki limping
toward the bridge. The other boy pointed at his hurt foot and
shrugged. Tobin's
heart beat faster as he caught the flash of sunlight off steel
through the trees. Why were they coming so slowly? His father always
took the last mile at a gallop, raising a cloud of dust that could be
seen above the trees long before the riders appeared. Tobin
stopped and shaded his eyes. There was no dust cloud today. Uneasy,
he stood poised to run if it proved to be strangers after all. When the
first riders came into sight at the bottom of the meadow, however, he
recognized Tharin in the lead on his roan, with old Laris and the
others close behind. There were two other lords with him, too. He
recognized Nyanis by his shining hair and Solari by his bushy black
beard and green-and-gold cloak. The
fighting must be over. He's brought guests for a feast! Tobin
let out a whoop and waved both arms at them, still searching for his
father among the press of riders. Tharin waved an answering salute
but didn't spur his horse. As they came up the hill Tobin saw that
the captain was leading a horse on a long rein—his father's
black palfrey. It was saddled but riderless. Only then did Tobin note
that all the horses' manes were shorn close to their necks. He knew
what that meant. The men had told him tales in the barracks yard— The air
beside Tobin darkened as Brother shimmered into view. His voice was
scarcely audible above the sound of the river but Tobin heard him
clearly enough. Our
father has come home. 'No."
Tobin marched on stubbornly to meet the riders. His heart was
pounding in his ears. He couldn't feel the road beneath his feet. Tharin and
the others reined in as he reached them. Tobin refused to look at
their faces. He looked only at his father's horse and the things
strapped across the saddle: hauberk, helm, bow. And a long clay jar
slung in a net. 'Where is
he?" Tobin demanded, staring now at one worn, empty stirrup. His
voice sounded almost as faint as Brother's in his ears. He heard
Tharin dismount, felt the man's big hands on his shoulders, but he
kept his eyes on the stirrup. Tharin
turned him gently and cupped his chin, making Tobin look at him. His
faded blue eyes were red-rimmed and full of sorrow. "Where is
Father?" Tharin took
something from his belt pouch, something that glinted black and gold
in the sunlight. It was his father's oak tree signet on its chain.
With shaking hands, Tharin placed it around Tobin's neck. 'Your
father died in battle, my prince, on the fifth day of Shemin. He fell
bravely, Tobin. I brought his ashes home to you." Tobin
looked back at the jar in the net and understood. The
fifth of Shemin? That was the day after Ki's name day. We went
swimming. I shot two grouse. We saw Lhel. We
didn't know. Brother
stood beside the horse now, one hand resting on the dusty jar. Their
father had been dead nearly a month. You once
told me about a fox dying, he thought, staring at Brother in
disbelief. And about lya coming. But not that our
father was dead? 'I was
there, too, Tobin. What Tharin says is true." That was Lord
Solari. He dismounted and came to stand by him. Tobin had always
liked the young lord but he couldn't look up at him now, either. When
he spoke again, it sounded as if the man was far away, even though
Tobin could see Solari's boots right there next to him in the road.
"He gave his war cry until the end and all his wounds were in
the front. I saw him kill at least four men before he fell. No
warrior could ask for a better death." Tobin felt
light, like his body was going to drift away on the breeze like a
milkweed seed. Perhaps I'll see Father's ghost.
He squinted, trying to make out his father's shade near the jar. But
Brother stood alone, his black eyes dark holes in his face as he
slowly faded from sight. 'Tobin?" Tharin's
hands were firm on his shoulders, holding him so he •wouldn't
blow away. Tobin didn't want to look at Tharin, didn't want to see
the tears slowly scouring twin trails through the dust on the man's
cheeks. He didn't want the other lords and soldiers to see Tharin
crying. Instead, he
looked past him and saw Ki running down the road. "His foot must
be better." Tharin
brought his face closer to Tobin's, looking at him with the oddest
expression. Tobin could hear some of the other men weeping softly
now, something he'd never heard before. Soldiers didn't weep. 'Ki,"
Tobin explained, as his gaze skittered back to his father's horse.
"He hurt his toe, but he's coming now." Tharin took
a scabbard from his back and placed the duke's sheathed sword in
Tobin's hands. "This is yours now, too." Tobin
clutched the heavy weapon, so much heavier than his own. Too
large for me. Just like the armor. One more thing to be saved
for later. Too late. He heard
Tharin talking, but it felt as if his head was stuffed with milkweed
fluff; it was hard to make sense of anything. "What do we do
with the ashes?" Tharin
hugged him closer. "When you're ready, we'll take them to Ero
and lay them with your mother in the royal tomb. They'll be together
again at last." 'In Ero?" Father had
always promised to take him to Ero. Instead, it
seemed that he must take his father. Tobin's
eyes felt hot and his chest burned as if he'd run all the way from
the town, but no tears would come. He felt as dry inside as the dust
beneath his feet. Tharin
mounted his horse again and someone helped Tobin up behind him, still
clutching his father's sword. Ki met them
halfway, breathless and limping. He seemed to know already what had
happened and burst into silent tears at the sight of the arms lashed
to the empty saddle. Going to Tobin, he clasped his friend's leg with
both hands and rested his forehead against his knee. Koni came and
gave Ki a hand up onto his horse. As they
rode the rest of the way up the hill, Tobin could feel his father's
gold signet swing heavily against his heart with every beat of the
horse's hooves. H
I ari and the others met them at the main gate and set up an
awful wailing before Tharin could even tell them what had happened.
Even Arkoniel wept. Nari caught
Tobin in a fierce embrace as he climbed down. "Oh, my poor
love," she sobbed. "What will we do?" 'Go to
Ero," he tried to tell her, but doubted whether she heard him. The arms
and ashes were carried into the hall and laid before the shrine.
Tharin helped Tobin cut off Gosi's mane and burn it with a lock of
his own hair in the barracks yard to honor his father. Then they
sang sad songs at the shrine that everyone except Tobin seemed to
know, and Tharin kept both hands on Tobin's shoulders as he said
prayers to Astellus and Dalna to take care of his father's spirit,
then to Sakor and Illior, asking them to protect the household. For Tobin
it was all a blur of words. When Brother appeared and placed one of
his dirty, twisted tree roots on the shelf of the shrine, Tobin was
too tired to sweep it away. No one else noticed. When the
prayers and songs were done, Tharin took Tobin aside and knelt beside
him, pulling him close again. "I was with your father as he
died," Tharin said softly, and he had that odd look in his eyes
again. "We spoke of you. He loved you more than anything in the
world and was so sad to be leaving you—" He wiped at his
eyes and cleared his throat. "He charged me to be your
protector, and so I shall for the rest of my life. You can always
depend on me." He drew his
sword and placed it point down before him. Taking Tobin's hand, he
placed it on the worn hilt and covered it with his own. "I
pledge by the Four and my honor to stand by you and serve you the
rest of my days. I gave the same oath to your father. Do you
understand, Tobin?" Tobin
nodded. "Thank you." Tharin
sheathed his sword and embraced him for a long moment. Pulling back,
he stood and shook his head. "By the Four, I wish it was my
ashes in that jar and not his. I'd give anything for it to be so." 'aylight
was failing by the time it was all finished. Mealtime came and went,
but no one lit a fire or cooked, and everyone spent the night in the
hall. A vigil, Tharin called it. As night fell, he lit a single lamp
in the shrine but the rest of the house was left dark. Some of the
servants lay down to sleep, but the warriors knelt in a half circle
around the shrine, their swords unsheathed before them. Nari made a
pallet for Tobin by the hearth, but he couldn't lie down. He joined
the men for a while, but their silence made him feel shut out and
alone. At last he crept away to the far end of the hall and slumped
down in the rushes near the staircase. Ki found
him there and sat down beside him. "You've never seen anything
like this, have you?" he whispered. Tobin shook
his head. 'They must
have done something when your mother died?" 'I don't
know." Thinking about that time still sent a shiver through him.
Ki must have noticed, for he shifted closer and put an arm around
him, just as Tharin had. Tobin slumped against him and rested his
head on Ki's shoulder, grateful for the solid, simple comfort. "I
don't remember. I saw her lying on the ice, then she was just gone." He'd never
asked what had happened to her. Nari had tried to speak of it once or
twice soon after, but Tobin hadn't wanted to hear it then. He'd put
his fingers in his ears and burrowed under the covers until she went
away. No one in the house had spoken of it since, and he'd never
asked. It had been bad enough, knowing that his mother's spirit still
walked in the tower; it hadn't mattered to him where her body was. Sitting
here in the dark now, though, he considered what Tharin had said. His
mother was in Ero. Little as
he recalled of that terrible day, he knew that the king had been gone
by the time he'd been let out of bed. And so had his mother. Like a tiny
seeding stone dropped into one of Arkoniel's alchemical solutions,
the thought crystallized years of half-realized memories into a
single sharp-edged conviction: the king had taken his mother away.
His grief-clouded mind worried at this like a bad tooth too painful
not to touch and prod. No,
Brother whispered in the dark. 'My mam
died when I was six," Ki said softly, drawing him back to the
present. 'How?"
For all their talking, they'd never spoken of this before. 'She cut
her foot on a scythe and the wound wouldn't heal." A hint of the
old upcountry accent crept back. "Her leg went all black and her
mouth locked shut and she died. The ground was froze, so Father left
her wrapped in the byre loft'til spring. I used to climb up and sit
by her sometimes, when I was lonesome. Sometimes I'd even pull back
the blanket, just to see her face again. We buried her in the spring
before the leaves came out. Father had brought Sekora home by then
and her belly was already big. I remember staring at it whilst we
sang the songs over my mam's grave." His voice broke high. 'You got a
new mother," Tobin murmured, suddenly feeling heavy and tired
beyond words. "Now I've got no mother or father at all." Ki's arm
tightened around him. "Don't suppose they'd let you come back
home with me, eh? We'd hardly notice one more underfoot." Still
dry-eyed and aching inside, Tobin drifted off and dreamt of sleeping
with Ki in a great pile of brown-haired children—all of them
snug together like a litter of pups while dead mothers lay frozen in
the byre outside. Chapter
Arkoniel woke with a stiff neck just after dawn. He'd propped himself
in a corner near the shrine, meaning to keep the vigil with the
others, but dozed off sometime in the night. At
least I wasn't the only one who fell asleep, he thought, looking
around the hall. The lamp in
the shrine still burned, and by its dim light he could see dark forms
sprawled on benches and in the rushes by the hearth. He could just
make out Ki and Tobin near the stairs, slumped together with their
backs to the wall. Only the
warriors had stayed awake, spending the night on their knees to honor
the man whom they'd followed for so long. Arkoniel
studied their worn faces. Nyanis and Solari were new to him; from
what he'd heard from Nari and Cook last night, both had been loyal
liegemen, and so perhaps future allies for Rhius' daughter. He looked
over at Tobin again; in this light he could have been any urchin from
the slums of Fro, sleeping against a wall. Arkoniel sighed, recalling
what lya had told him of her own visions. Too uneasy
to sleep again, Arkoniel went outside and wandered onto the bridge to
watch the sun come up. A few deer were grazing at the edge of the
meadow, and several others had picked their way over the river's
stony banks to the water's edge. A tall white heron stalked the
shallows, looking for its breakfast. Even at this hour the day
promised to be hot. He sat down
at the middle of the bridge and let his legs dangle over the edge.
"What now, Lightbearer?" he asked softly. "What are we
to do, if those who protect this child keep being taken away?" He waited
quietly, praying for some answering sign. All he could see, however,
was Sakor's fiery sun staring him in the face. He sighed and began
composing a letter to lya, trying to convince her to come back from
her long wandering and help him. He hadn't heard from her in months,
though, and wasn't even sure where to send it to reach her. He hadn't
gotten very far with this when he heard the gate open behind him.
Tharin strode out to join him on the bridge. Sitting down beside the
wizard, he stared out over the meadow, hands clasped between his
knees. His face was pale and deeply lined with grief. The morning
light leeched the color from his eyes. 'You're
exhausted," said Arkoniel. Tharin
nodded slowly. 'What do
you think will happen now?" 'That's
what I came out to talk to you about. The king spoke with me at
Rhius' pyre. He means to send for To-bin. He wants him in Ero with
Prince Korin and the Companions." It was
hardly a surprising turn of events, but Arkoniel's gut tightened all
the same. "When?" 'I'm not
certain. Soon. I asked him to give the boy some time, but he didn't
give me an answer on that. I don't imagine he wants Tobin out of his
reach for too long." 'What do
you mean?" Tharin
didn't answer at once, just stared out at the deer. At last he sighed
and said, "I knew you as a boy when you and lya guested in
Atyion. Since you've been here I've seen the man you've become. I've
always liked you and I believe I can trust you, especially where
Tobin is concerned. That's why I'm about to put my life in your
hands." He turned and looked Arkoniel in the eye. "But if
you prove me wrong, by the Four, you'll have to kill me to put me off
your trail. Do we understand one another?" Arkoniel
knew this was no idle threat. Yet behind the man's harsh words he
also heard fear, not for himself but for Tobin. Arkoniel
held up his right hand and pressed his left over his heart. "By
my hands, heart, and eyes, Sir Tharin, I swear to you I will lay down
my life to protect Rhius and Ariani's child. What is it you want to
say to me?" 'I have
your word you'll tell no one else?" 'lya and I
have no secrets, but I can vouch for her as I do myself." 'Very well.
I've no one else to turn to anyway. First of all, I believe the king
wanted Rhius dead. I think he may have even had a hand in getting him
killed." Arkoniel
had little experience of court, but even he realized that Tharin had
just placed his life in Arkoniel's hands twice over. Tharin must have
known it, too, but he didn't hesitate as he went on. "Ever since
the princess died Erius has pushed Rhius into the worst of any
battle. Rhius saw it, too, but he had too much honor to say so. But
some of the orders we followed were just foolhardy. There are
hundreds of good Skalan warriors who'd still be upright and drawing
breath in Atyion and Cirna if the king had shown a bit more sense in
his placement of attacks. 'The day
Rhius was killed, Erius ordered us into marshland on horseback. We
were ambushed as we tried to get out the other side." 'What makes
you think the king had anything to do with that?" Tharin gave
him a bitter smile. "You don't know much about cavalry, do you,
Wizard? You don't send horsemen into such ground in the summer, with
no decent footing and no cover. And not when there's a good chance of
the enemy being well entrenched on the other side and all ears for
your approach. An arrow took Rhius in the thigh before we got
anywhere near solid ground. I was struck in the shoulder, and another
shaft killed my horse under me. I fell and he charged on— It
was a damn massacre. There must have been two or three hundred foot
soldiers and archers, and if they weren't waiting just for us then
someone was making damn poor use of their forces. Even with the arrow
wound, Rhius fought like a wolf, but Laris told me a pikeman killed
the duke's horse and took him down. Rhius was pinned under the beast
and the enemy was on him with axes before— Before I could get
to him." A tear
rolled down and clung to the stubble on Tharin's cheek. "The
life was running out of him by the time I found him. We got him away,
but there was nothing we could do." More tears
fell, but Tharin didn't seem to notice. Something told Arkoniel that
he'd grown accustomed to weeping. "Rhius felt Bilairy coming for
him. He pulled me down close and spoke so only I could hear. His last
words in this life were, 'Protect my child with your life, by any
means. Tobin must rule Skala.'" Arkoniel's
breath caught in his chest. "He said that to you?" Tharin
looked him in the eye, holding his gaze. "I thought then that it
must be death addling his thoughts. But looking at your face right
now, I think I'm about to change my mind. Do you know what he meant?" Trust
your instincts, lya had counseled before she left. Those
instincts had always told him to trust Tharin. All the same, Arkoniel
felt like a man about to leap off a high cliff with only mist below.
The secret was a danger to whoever carried it. 'I do. It's
all lya and I have -worked for since before Tobin was born. But you
must tell me truthfully, can you still serve Tobin knowing no more
than you do right now?" 'Yes.
Only—" Arkoniel
studied Tharin's stricken face as the man groped for words. "You're
wondering why Rhius didn't tell you more… before?" Tharin
nodded, mouth pressed in a tight line. 'Because he
couldn't," Arkoniel said gently. "Rhius never doubted your
loyalty; you must believe that. One day I'll be able to explain
everything to you and you'll understand. But don't ever doubt the
duke's faith in you. He proved it with his last breath, Tharin. What
he passed to you was the most sacred trust of his life. 'What Tobin
needs now is protection, and allies later on. How many troops could
we summon today if we needed them?" Tharin
rubbed a hand over his beard. "Tobin's not quite twelve,
Arkoniel. That's too young to command, too young even to inspire much
of a following without a powerful lord to back him." He pointed
back at the keep. "Nyanis and Solari are good men, but Rhius was
the warlord who led. If Tobin were sixteen or seventeen, say—
perhaps even fifteen—it might be a different story, but as
things stand, the only close kin he has with any power is the king.
Still—" 'Yes?" 'Between
you and me, there are those among the nobles who won't stand by and
watch any child of the female line of Skala come to harm, and others
with good cause to remember who Tobin's father was." 'You know
who these nobles are? Whom Tobin can trust?" 'There are
few people I'd stake my life on, the court being what it is these
days, but I've spent my life at the duke's side and in his
confidence. I have a fair sense of how the wind blows." 'Tobin will
need your guidance there. What about the soldiers who owed their
loyalty to Rhius?" 'The common
men are tied to the lands they work. By right, they serve whoever
holds those. Until Tobin is of age to lead, I imagine that will be
whoever the king wants it to be." He shook his head. "A lot
can change between now and then, I'm afraid. Erius is sure to appoint
his own regents and stewards for the estates." 'Too much
has changed already for the child," murmured Arkoniel. "All
the same, he's fortunate to have a man as loyal as you to stand by
him." Tharin
clapped Arkoniel on the shoulder and stood up. "Some serve for
loyalty or glory, some for pay," he said gruffly. "I served
Rhius for love, and Tobin, too." 'Love."
Arkoniel looked up, struck by something in the man's tone. "I've
never thought to ask before. You have an estate somewhere. Do you
have a family of your own there?" 'No."
Before the wizard could read his face, Tharin turned and strode back
to the keep. 'That a
good man," Lhel whispered unseen, her voice mingling with the
rushing of the water below his dangling feet. 'I know,"
Arkoniel replied, comforted by her disembodied presence. "You
know about Lord Rhius?" 'Brother
tell me." 'What am I
going to do, Lhel? The king wants him to go to Ero." 'Keep Ki by
him." Arkoniel
let out a bitter chuckle. "Is that all? I'm glad to hear it.
Lhel?" But she was
already gone. '"phe
morning after the vigil Tobin woke filled with a A strange stillness.
Ki was still asleep against his shoulder, head pressed against
Tobin's cheek. Tobin sat very still, trying to fathom the strange
emptiness under his ribs. It wasn't the same as what he'd felt when
his mother died; his father had died a warrior's death, falling with
honor in battle. Ki was
heavy. Tobin shifted to ease his weight and Ki jerked awake. "Tob,
are you well?" 'Yes."
He could still speak, at least. But the sense of stillness inside him
felt like a lightless hole, or the cold deep spring by Lhel's house
oak. It was as if he was staring down into that dark water, waiting
for something. He just didn't know what it was. He got up
and went to the shrine to pray for his father. Tharin and the nobles
were gone, but Koni and some of the others were still there on their
knees. 'I should
have kept the vigil with you," he mumbled, ashamed at having
slept. 'No one
expected that, Tobin," Koni said kindly. "We shed blood
with him. You could make the offerings for the shrine, though.
Fifty-one wax horses, one for each year he lived." Koni saw
the root that Brother had left and moved to sweep it away. Tobin
stopped him. "Leave it." There was an acorn next to the
root now, too. He and Ki
spent the morning sitting on the toy room floor with his chunks of
beeswax. He'd never made so many figures at once and his hands were
soon sore, but he wouldn't stop. He let Ki knead the wax to soften it
for him, but insisted on shaping all the horses himself. He made them
as he always had, with arched necks and small pointed heads, like the
Aurenfaie horses he and his father rode, but this time his thumbnail
pinched out short strokes for the manes, making them cropped for
mourning. V,'hey were
still at work when Solari and Nyanis came to the door in their riding
cloaks. 'I've come
to take my leave, Prince Tobin," Nyanis said, coming to kneel
beside him. "When you come to Ero you must count me among your
friends." Tobin
looked up from his wax and nodded, wondering at how faded and dull
Nyanis' hair had become since he'd last seen the man. When he was
little he'd always liked to watch the firelight shining on it as they
played goose stones by the fire. 'You can
always depend on me, too, my prince," said Solari, touching his
fist to his breast. "For your father's sake, I shall always
consider myself the ally of Atyion." Liar,
Brother hissed, hovering just behind the man. He
told his captain he would be lord of Atyion himself in a year. Stunned,
Tobin gasped out, "In a year?" 'In a year,
and always I hope, my prince," Solari replied, but as Tobin
looked into the man's eyes, he knew Brother had spoken the truth. Tobin rose
and gave both men a bow, just as his father would have. As they
went off down the corridor Solari's loud whisper echoed back to him.
"I don't care what Tharin says. The boy's not—" Tobin
stared at Brother. Perhaps it was only a trick of the light, but the
ghost seemed to be smiling. K I ari
wanted to fuss over Tobin, even offering to sleep in the bed with him
again as she had when he was little, but he couldn't bear it and
pushed her away. Arkoniel and Tharin kept their distance, but always
seemed to be close by, quietly watching. The only
company Tobin could bear was Ki's, and over the next few days they
spent hours together outside the keep. Riding was forbidden during
the four days of official mourning, as were hot meals or fires after
sundown, so they walked the trails and the riverbanks instead. The feeling
of inner stillness persisted; Ki seemed to sense it and he stayed
uncommonly quiet. He never questioned Tobin's lack of tears for his
father, either, though he shed enough of his own. And he
wasn't the only one. During those first few days Tobin often caught
Nari and Tharin dabbing at their eyes, and a good many of the men
around the barracks, too. Clearly something was wrong with him. He
went to the shrine alone at night and stood with his hands on the jar
of ashes, trying to find tears, but they wouldn't come. The third
night after the vigil it was too hot to sleep. He lay awake for
hours, watching the moths flittering around the night lamp and
listening to the chorus of frogs and crickets in the meadow below. Ki
was fast asleep beside him, sprawled on his back with his mouth open,
bare skin dewed with sweat. His right hand lay a few inches from
Tobin's thigh and every so often the fingers would twitch in some
dream. Tobin watched him, envious of the ease with which his friend
slept. The more
Tobin longed for sleep, the more it eluded him. His eyes felt dry as
cold embers and the beating of his heart seemed to shake the bed. A
ray of moonlight fell on the suit of mail on its stand in the corner,
complete now with the sword that they said was his. Too soon for the
sword, he thought bitterly, and too late for the armor. His heart
was beating harder than ever now. Abandoning the bed, he pulled on a
wrinkled shirt and crept out into the corridor. There would be
servants sleeping in the hall, he knew, and if he went upstairs,
chances were Arkoniel would still be awake. Tobin didn't feel like
talking to him. Instead, he went into the toy room. The
shutters were open to the moon. In its glow the city looked almost
real. For a moment he imagined himself an owl, flying over Ero in the
night. He stepped closer and it was just a toy again, the wonderful
creation his father had made for him and spent so many happy hours
with, teaching him the streets and byways. And
the queens. Tobin
didn't need to stand on a chair anymore to reach the shelf that held
the box of figures. Taking it down, he sat beside the city and lined
the kings and queens up on the roof of the Old Palace: King
Thelatimos and his daughter, Gherilain the Founder stood together, as
always, then poor poisoned Tamir, victim of a brother's pride. Then
came the first Agnalain, Klia and all the others up to Grandmama
Agnalain, -who'd been as mad as her own daughter. Arkoniel's history
lessons had been far more detailed than any he'd had from his father
or Nari. He knew about Grandmama's crow cages and her gibbets, and
all her poisoned and beheaded consorts. No wonder the people had let
Uncle Erius put aside the Prophecy and take the throne after she
died. He took the
last battered, much-repaired wooden figure from the box: The King
Your Uncle. He was still hardly more than a name in a story, a face
glimpsed once out a window. He
took Mama away. Tobin
turned the little figure over in his hands, thinking of all the times
his father had brought out the glue pot and pieced it back together
after one of Brother's attacks. Brother hadn't bothered to break the
carving in years. A tiny
sound made him blink; looking down, Tobin found he'd snapped the
king's head off. He dropped the pieces into the shadows of the
citadel and listened to the brief clatter of their descent. His father
wouldn't come with the glue pot to mend it. This memory
brought others with it, image after image of his father laughing,
teaching, playing, riding. Yet he could not weep. Just then
Tobin heard a soft step behind him and smelled wood smoke and crushed
green shoots. Lhel's black hair tickled his cheek as she pulled his
head down on her breast. 'I tell you
a true thing now, keesa," she whispered. "Your
father, he make this city for you and you for this city." 'What do
you mean?" He pulled away and found himself alone in the
moonlight. 'What're
you doing in here?" Ki mumbled, leaning sleepily in the doorway.
When Tobin didn't reply, Ki shuffled over and led him back to bed.
Sprawling down beside him with a hand pressed over Tobin's heart, he
was asleep again as soon as his eyes closed. Tobin
wanted to puzzle out what Lhel could have meant, but the sure
pressure of Ki's hand and the witch's^ lingering scent lulled him to
sleep, free of dreams for now. Erius
didn't wait long. Less than two weeks after Tharin's return Arkoniel
glanced out his workroom window to see a cloud of dust rising on the
Alestun road. It would
take at least a squadron of riders to raise such a cloud, and
Arkoniel had no doubt who'd sent them. Cursing
himself for not being more vigilant, he was about to cast a sighting
for the boys when he spied them at the far end of the meadow. Half
naked as always in the heat, they crouched under a thick clump of
willow bay by the riverbank. 'Run!"
Arkoniel called out, knowing they couldn't see the dust rising from
there, or hear the horses over the river noise. They couldn't hear
him, either, of course, but something spooked them. They took off
through the long grass, making for the woods on the far side of the
meadow. 'Good
boys," he whispered. 'Riders!"
Tharin shouted in the yard below. He and the
others had been making repairs to the barracks roof. Tharin stood
there now, shading his eyes with one hand as he looked up at the
wizard. "Who is it?" he called. Arkoniel
covered his eyes and quickly cast the sighting. "Two score or so
armed men coming on at a gallop. They're led by a King's Herald, and
a nobleman—I don't know him." 'What
colors?" 'I'm not
sure, with the dust," Arkoniel replied. The tunics he could see
could easily be grey. When he opened his eyes again,
Tharin had already disappeared down the ladder. The
wizard's legs felt shaky as he locked up his rooms and dashed
downstairs. What if there was a Harrier wizard among those riders? He
had no idea what powers he was facing, or if he had the skill to best
them. He met Nari
coming out of Tobin's room. "I saw riders!" she exclaimed,
wringing her hands. "Oh Arkoniel, what if something's happened
at last? What if they know?" "Calm yourself. I think it's
only a herald," he told her, convincing neither of them.
Together, they ran down the stairs and found Tharin and the others
armed and ready in the hall. 'Quite an
escort for a messenger, wouldn't you say?" Tharin observed
grimly. 'It won't
do for them to see me here," Arkoniel told him. "You greet
them. I'll find the boys and keep them out of sight until we see
which way the wind is blowing. Send Koni down the meadow for us if
you think it's safe." "Let me come, too!" begged Nari.
"No. Stay here and welcome them." He slipped out the front
gate and ran for the woods. He could hear the riders clearly now.
They'd be in sight any moment. He was
halfway down to the river when Lhel's face and shoulders shimmered
into view in front of him. "Here!" she urged, pointing him
back to a spot he'd just passed. Arkoniel
dashed into the trees, then let out a startled cry as the ground went
out from under him. He tumbled down a small slope and found himself
at the bottom of a leaf-choked gully just inside the trees. He landed
with his feet uphill and one arm in a muddy runnel. Righting himself,
he climbed back up to join Lhel and the boys, keeping watch over the
edge of the gully. In their stained kilts, with dead leaves stuck to
their arms and legs, and knives at the ready, Tobin and Ki looked
like a pair of young forest bandits. 'Who's
coming?" Tobin asked, watching the mouth of the road. 'Just a
messenger from the king, I hope." 'Then why
did Brother tell Tobin to hide?" Ki demanded. 'Well, he
does have rather a lot— You say Brother told you?" He
glanced at the witch. "But I assumed—" 'I be
watching, too." Lhel waved toward the road. "Brother say
there's a wizard with them." 'Is it
those Harriers?" Ki asked. 'I don't
know." Arkoniel felt for the crystal wand in his belt pouch,
praying he and Lhel together could hold them off long enough for
Tharin to get Tobin away. "We must be very careful until we find
out." Tobin
nodded, showing no hint of fear. Ki left his side just long enough to
find a stout stick, then settled back beside the prince, ready to
face down a legion of wizards. The riders
emerged from the forest and thundered up the hill to the bridge.
Creeping to the edge of the trees for a better look, Arkoniel could
make out their leader speaking with someone at the gate. A dozen or
so of the newcomers went in, leaving the rest to water the horses at
the river. There was
nothing to do now but wait. The dust cloud hung over the road.
Cicadas sawed out a hot-weather warning. A murder of crows argued
loudly among themselves nearby, underscored by the mournful bell-like
calls of doves. A moment later they heard the single, unexpected hoot
of an owl. Arkoniel made a luck sign for reverence and mouthed
Lightbearer, keep your hand over this child! Time
dragged on. Tobin caught a shiny green beetle and let it crawl over
his fingers, but Ki remained watchful, eyes darting to follow every
sound. Tobin
looked up from his beetle suddenly and whispered, "The wizard is
a man with yellow hair." 'Are you
certain?" Arkoniel asked. This was the first time in months that
Tobin had shown any signs of foreknowing. 'That's
what Brother says," the boy replied, looking to the empty air
next to him for confirmation. So it
wasn't foreknowing after all, but forewarned. For once the wizard had
cause to be grateful to the ghost. At last
Koni came running along the verge of trees. Arkoniel turned to warn
Lhel, but she'd already disappeared. 'Here!"
Ki called, hailing the young soldier. Koni
skidded to a halt and bounded in to join them. 'The king—"
he panted. "The king's sent a lord with a message. Lord Orun." 'Orun?"
Arkoniel had heard the name but couldn't place it. Koni rolled
his eyes. "Old Lord High and Mighty. Knows Tobin's family from
way back. He's Chancellor of the Treasury now. A great pompous—
Well, never mind that. Tharin says you should come up now. We're to
go around the back if you can manage it. Nari will have clothes for
you in the kitchen, Tobin." He turned to Arkoniel. "There's
no sign of them white wizards with 'em, nor any others, but Tharin
says maybe you ought to lie low all the same." 'No
wizard?" Tobin had sounded very certain on the matter. Best not
to take chances. "Don't worry, Tobin. I won't be far away." Tobin
barely acknowledged the assurance. Squaring his bare shoulders, he
set off for the keep without a backward glance. Vrobin
wasn't afraid. Brother was still with him and would have said if it
were dangerous to go back. And Ki was there, too, faithful as any
squire in a ballad. Tobin glanced sidelong at his friend and smiled;
armed with a knife and a twisted branch, Ki looked as fearless as he
had charging that catamount. They
reached the kitchen without meeting any of the strangers. Nari and
Cook were waiting for them there. 'Hurry
along now, pet. Lord Orun won't speak to anyone but you, and he's in
an almighty hurry," Nari fussed as she hustled them into their
best tunics and combed the leaves from their hair. She didn't say so,
but Tobin could tell that she didn't like this Orun fellow any better
than Koni had. He could see that she was worried and trying not to
show it. Tobin leaned forward and kissed her soft cheek. "Don't
worry, Nari." She threw
her arms around him, hugging him tight. "What would I worry
about, pet?" Tobin freed
himself and turned for the hall, with Ki and Koni flanking him as if
he was the lord of the house. He faltered
a little at the sight of ranks of strange soldiers standing at
attention in the hall. Tharin and his men were there, too, but they
looked like a rabble by comparison. Most of them had on their dirty
work clothes instead of uniforms, and didn't look nearly as grand as
the others, who wore badges of red and gold on the breasts of their
black tunics. He quickly looked them over; there were plenty with
blond hair, but he saw no one in wizard's robes. No sooner
had the thought crossed his mind, however, then he spied Brother
peeping at him from behind one of the soldiers, a fair-haired man
with cheeks reddened with the sun. Brother didn't touch him, just
stared until the man shifted his feet and cast a nervous look around. Two men in
richer dress stood in front of the soldiers, flanked by several
servants and squires. The man in boots and dusty blue carried the
silver horn and white baton of a King's Herald. He stepped forward
and bowed very low to Tobin. "Prince Tobin, may I present an
emissary from your uncle, the king. Lord Orun, son of Makiar,
Chancellor of the Treasury and Protector of Atyion and Cirna." Tobin went
cold. Atyion and Cirna were his father's lands. Lord Orun
stepped forward and bowed. He wore a short robe of vermilion silk
with extravagantly cut sleeves edged with dangling gold beads. The
skirts were embroidered with scenes of battle, but Tobin doubted this
man had ever been a warrior. He was old and very tall, but soft and
pale as a woman, with deep lines bracketing a thick, moist-looking
mouth. He had no hair on his head at all; his wide hat of puffed silk
looked like a cushion balanced on a boiled egg. He smiled at Tobin
with his thick lips, but not his eyes. "How I have longed to
meet the son of Ariani and Rhius!" he exclaimed, coming forward
to clasp Tobin's hand. His huge hands were unpleasantly cool and
moist, like mushrooms. 'Welcome,"
Tobin managed, wanting to pull away and run back up the stairs. Orun's eyes
slid to Ki and he leaned toward him. "And who is this fellow, my
prince? Your huntsman's boy?" 'This is
Prince Tobin's squire, Kirothius, son of Sir Larenth, a knight in the
service of Lord Jorvai," Tharin put in gruffly. Orun's
smile slipped. "But I had thought— That is, the king was
not aware that a squire had been chosen for the prince." 'Duke Rhius
blessed the bond some time ago." Tharin
spoke respectfully, but Tobin sensed an unspoken tension behind the
exchange. Lord Orun
stared at Ki a moment longer, then motioned to the herald. The herald
laid his baton at Tobin's feet, bowed again, and produced a rolled
parchment heavy with seals and ribbons. "Prince Tobin, I bring
word from your uncle, King Erius." He broke
the seals and unrolled the parchment with a flourish. "From
Erius of Ero, King of Skala, Kouros, and the Northern Territories, to
Prince Tobin of Ero at Alestun Keep, 't'tvritten this the ninth day
of Shemin month. 'Nephew, it
is with a heavy heart that I write to you of the death of your
father, our beloved brother Rhius. Your father was my most valued
commander and while his death was a noble one, befitting a warrior,
words cannot convey my despair at his loss. 'In honor
of your mother's dear memory—may Astellus guide her spirit to
peace—and for the love I bear you, my nearest kin, I
acknowledge you as my ward until you attain the age to govern the
holdings left you by your esteemed parents and take your father's
place among my councilors. I appoint my trusted servant, Lord Orun,
to oversee the stewardship of your lands until you reach the age of
twenty-one years and I send him to act as your guardian until I
return to Skala. 'I have
instructed Lord Orun to escort you to Ero, where you shall take your
rightful place among my son's Royal Companions. It is my fondest wish
that you will be a beloved brother to Prince Korin and he to you. In
the Companions you will be trained to take your place at his side
when he comes to rule, just as your father served me. 'How I long
to embrace you again, as I did the night of your birth! Pray for our
victory in Mycena." The herald
looked up. "It is signed and sealed, 'Your most loving and
affectionate Uncle, Erius of Ero, King of Skala.' My prince, here
ends the message." Everyone
was looking at Tobin, expecting some response, but his tongue had
fixed itself to the roof of his mouth. When Tharin had said they'd go
to Ero, he'd pictured himself riding with his friends to the house of
his birth, or perhaps to grand Atyion. He looked
at his so-called guardian again, already hating the man. Anyone could
see that this was no warrior, just a fat, sweating pig with eyes like
two dried currants pressed into dough. The arrival of the soldiers
hadn't frightened him at all; the thought of this man taking him away
left him sick and cold all over. No! he
wanted to cry out, but he was struck dumb as a stone. Brother
answered for him. Moving more quickly than even Tobin could follow,
he snatched the scroll from the startled herald's hand and ripped it
in two, then knocked off Lord Orun's silly hat. His servants
scattered, some chasing the hat, others running for cover. A strong
wind swirled out of nowhere, whipping the soldiers' hair into their
eyes and snatching away badges and daggers. Some of the guardsmen
flinched and broke formation. Lord Orun let out an unmanly squeal and
dove for cover under a nearby table. Tharin's men laughed aloud and
Tobin nearly joined in, grateful for once for Brother's tricks.
Instead, he found his voice and shouted, "Enough!" Brother
ceased instantly and came to rest by the shrine, watching Tobin. The
spirit's face showed no emotion, but in that shared moment Tobin
sensed that Brother was ready to do murder for him. What
would he do to Orun if I asked? Tobin wondered, then hastily
pushed the unworthy thought away. Tharin's
men were still laughing. The chagrined guardsmen muttered among
themselves and made warding signs as they moved back into formation.
Among the few who'd stood fast was the blond man Brother had pointed
out to him. He was watching Tobin with a smile that showed only in
his eyes. Tobin didn't know what to make of that, except that he
already liked him better than Lord Orun, who was currently being
helped out from under the table by his servants. 'I welcome
you as guests in my house," Tobin began, trying to make himself
heard. 'Silence
for the prince!" Tharin roared in a battlefield voice, making
even Tobin jump. Silence fell and everyone turned their way. 'I welcome
you as guests in my house," Tobin said again. "Lord Orun, I
extend to you the courtesy of my hearth. My servants will bring you
water and wine. Your men can rest themselves in the meadow until a
meal is prepared." Orun
bristled visibly. "Young sir, the king's orders—" 'Have taken
Prince Tobin by surprise, my lord. He is still mourning the loss of
his father," Tharin interrupted. "I'm certain the king
would not wish his only nephew discomforted further." He leaned
his head close to Tobin, as if listening to some whispered order,
then turned back to Orun. "You must allow his highness to
withdraw for a time and meditate on his uncle's words. He will attend
you when he has rested." Orun
recovered enough to make a passable bow, though there was no
mistaking the suppressed outrage in his face. Tobin stifled another
laugh. Turning his back on the courtier and his men, he strolled up
the stairs as nonchalantly as he could manage. Ki and Tharin
followed. Behind him, he could hear Tharin's second in command, old
Laris, barking out orders for the visitors' accommodations. Arkoniel
was waiting for them in Tobin's bedchamber. 'I heard
most of it from the top of the stairs," he said, looking
uncommonly grim. "Tharin, it seems the time has come to call
upon your knowledge of court. Do you know Lord Orun?" Tharin
pulled a face like he'd eaten something bitter. "He's Royal Kin,
a distaff cousin of some degree. He's no use in the field, but I've
heard it said that he's an able enough chancellor, and the funnel
through which a great deal of information flows to the king's ear." 'I don't
like the looks of him," Ki growled. "He can say what he
likes about me, but he spoke to Tobin like he was a scullion. 'My
young sir'!" Tharin gave
him a wink. "Don't fret yourself. Orun's a painted bladder, more
wind than substance." 'Do I have
to go with him?" Tobin asked. 'I'm afraid
so," Tharin told him. "A king's summons can't be ignored,
not even by you. I'll be with you, though, and so will Ki." 'I—I
don't want to go," Tobin said, and was ashamed to hear the
quaver in his voice. Clearing his throat, he added, "But I
will." 'It won't
be so bad," Tharin said. "Your father and I served among
Erius' Companions when we were boys, you know. The Old Palace is a
fine place and you'll train with the best in the land. Not that
they'll have much to teach you, with all the training you've done
here. The pair of you may even show those city-bred dandies a thing
or two." He grinned at them, warm and sure as ever. "Prince
Korin is a good lad, too. You'll like him. So don't lose heart. You
show everyone who Princess Ariani's son is, and I'll keep an eye on
old Orun for you." Ajeaving
the boys to calm down, Arkoniel brought Tharin upstairs to his
workroom and locked the door. From here they had a clear view of the
soldiers waiting in the meadow. 'You and
Tobin snubbed the reins nicely down there." 'He did
well, didn't he, once he got started? A proper little princeling with
his back up. And I believe that's the first time I've ever been
pleased to have that demon of his show up." 'Indeed.
Tell me, when you were talking to the boys just now I had the
impression you knew more about Orun than you let on." Tharin
nodded. "The first time I met Lord Orun he was guesting with
Rhius' father at Atyion. I was about Ki's age at the time. Orun
stumbled out of the feast blind drunk and ran into me in a deserted
passageway. He backed me into a corner and offered me a cheap gilt
ring if I'd let him bugger me." Arkoniel
sat down heavily on his stool. "By the Four! What did you do?" Tharin gave
him a humorless smirk. "I told him if he had to pay he couldn't
be much good at it and legged it out of there. A day or two later I
saw that same ring on the hand of one of the kitchen girls. Guess she
was less particular." Arkoniel
gaped at him. "And this is who the king
sends for his nephew?" Tharin
shrugged. "Creatures like Orun don't prey on their own kind.
They stick to servants and peasants, those who won't complain or be
listened to if they do." 'I met with
a few of that kind in my day, too. lya taught me some choice spells
to deal -with them. But you were no peasant boy." 'No. As I
said, he was drunk. Luckily for him, I was too angry and shamed to
say anything when I should have, and he was too far gone at the time
to remember me later, so I let it pass. He'd never dare lay hands on
Tobin, I'm certain of it." 'But what
about Ki?" 'That would
be almost as foolish, given his station, but I'll have a word with
the boy. Don't worry, Arkoniel. I'll be with them every step of the
way until they're safely delivered to the companion's quarters. Arms
Master Porion is a good man and keeps a close eye on his boys.
They'll be safe with him. If Orun tries to get up to anything before
then, I'll be more than happy to reintroduce myself." He paused.
"Am I right in thinking you can't come with us?" 'lya wants
me here, unnumbered by the Harriers. But it's only a day's ride if
you need me." 'That it
should come to this." Tharin ran a hand wearily back though his
hair. "You know, I was right beside Rhius until that last bad
moment. If my horse hadn't been hit— If I'd been where I was
supposed to be, where I've always been—"
He pressed his hand over his eyes. 'You
couldn't control where the arrows went." 'I know
that! But by the Four, it should be Rhius here alive and talking to
you, and not me! Or both of us dead together." Arkoniel
studied the man's grief-stricken face, thinking again of their
conversation on the bridge after the vigil. "You loved him a
great deal." Tharin
looked up at Arkoniel and his expression softened a little. "No
more than he deserved. He was my friend, just like Tobin is with Ki—" A soft
knock came at the door. "Tharin, are you there?" Nari
called, sounding frantic. Arkoniel
let her in. The woman was in a terrible state, teary-eyed and
wringing her hands. "Lord Orun is raising a fuss downstairs!
He's frightened to death of the demon and says Tobin is to leave with
him within the hour. He says that the king's order gives him the
right to force the child. You mustn't allow it! Tobin doesn't even
have anything proper to wear to court. Ki has his sword drawn and
says he'll kill anyone who comes in the bedchamber!" Tharin was
halfway out the door before she'd finished. "Has anyone tried?"
"Not yet." He turned
to Arkoniel, eyes blazing. "What shall we do, Wizard? The
bastard sees an orphaned boy surrounded by servants and thinks he can
play the master in a dead man's house." 'Well,
bloodshed won't do." Arkoniel pondered the situation a moment,
then smiled. "I think it's time Prince Tobin set a few terms of
his own. Send Tobin up to me. Tharin, you go with Nari and calm Ki
down. I need to speak with the prince privately." Tobin
entered his chamber a few minutes later, looking pale but resigned. 'Ki hasn't
killed anyone yet, has he?" Arkoniel asked. Tobin didn't smile.
"Lord Orun says we must go at once." 'What do
you think of Lord Orun?" 'He's a
fat, pompous bastard the king left behind because he's not fit for
battle!" 'You're a
fine judge of character. And who are you?" 'Me? What
do you mean?" Arkoniel
folded his arms. "You're Prince Tobin, son of Princess Ariani,
who by right of Oracle should have been Queen of Skala. You are the
first-born son of Duke Rhius, Lord of Atyion and Cirna, the richest
lord and the greatest warrior in the land. You are the nephew of the
king and the cousin of his son, the future king. No matter how many
guardians and stewards they put between you and what is rightfully
yours, you mustn't forget one jot of that, or let anyone else forget
it, either. You're a true noble of the purest blood, Tobin, modest
and brave and forthright. I've seen it proven a hundred times over in
my time here. 'But now
you're going to court and must learn to wear a few masks besides.
People like Orun must be fought with their own weapons: pride,
arrogance, disdain, or whatever approximation you can summon from
that honest heart of yours. You mustn't imagine that your father
would treat a cur like that with respect when none is offered in
return. If someone slaps you in the face, you must slap him right
back, and harder. Do you understand?" 'But—but
he's a lord and my uncle's—" 'And you
are a prince and a warrior. Your uncle will
see that when he returns. In the meantime, you're going to have to
make your own reputation. Be gracious to those who respect you, but
have no mercy on those who don't." He could
see Tobin taking all this in and weighing it. At last he set his jaw
and nodded. "Then I don't have to be polite to Lord Orun, even
though he's a guest?" 'He's
behaved offensively. You owe him nothing more than the assurance of
safety beneath your roof. You've given him that already, calling off
Brother." Arkoniel smiled again. "That was nicely done, by
the way. Tell me, if you asked Brother to cause a stir, would he do
it?" 'I don't
know. I've never asked him to do anything, only to stop." 'Would you
like to find out?" Tobin
frowned. "I won't have him hurt anyone. Not even Orun." 'Of course
not. But Lord Orun doesn't need to know that, does he? You must go
downstairs now and inform our guest that you will need until tomorrow
to put your household in good order." 'What if he
says no?" 'Then I
hope that Brother will be good enough to convey your displeasure. Is
he here now? No? Why not call him?" Tobin still
looked faintly embarrassed as he spoke the summoning, although it
wasn't the first time the wizard had seen him do it. Arkoniel felt a
change in the air, and knew by the way Tobin turned his head slightly
that Brother had appeared behind him. The wizard shifted uneasily on
his stool, not liking the thought of an unseen guest at his back. 'Will you
help me?" Tobin asked. 'What does
he say?" 'Nothing.
But I think he will." Tobin thought of something and frowned.
"Where is Lord Orun to sleep, if he stays the night? The only
guest chamber we have is next to your room up here." Arkoniel
knew that Rhius and Ariani's bedchambers could be offered, but hated
the thought of that creature so close to the boys. "I suppose we
could put him in the tower." He'd meant it as a joke, but
Tobin's stricken look killed the smile on his lips. "It was only
a jest, Tobin, and a bad one. He can make do with the hall. Have the
servants set up a good bedstead with hangings for him, and a decent
one for the herald, as well. They can hardly complain about that in a
country house." Tobin
turned to go, but a sudden pang of fear and affection made Arkoniel
call him back. When Tobin stood before him, however, he hardly knew
where to begin. Laying a hand awkwardly on Tobin's shoulder, he said,
"You will have to go with him, you know. And life will be
different in the city. You've led such a quiet life here, with people
you could trust. It isn't that way at court." He groped for the
right words. "If anyone should—" Tobin's
face betrayed little, but his rigid stance and the darting glance he
stole at the hand on his shoulder made the wizard draw back in
confusion. "Well, you must have a care for strangers," he
finished lamely. "If anything confuses you, you should speak of
it to Tharin or Ki. They both have a wider experience of the world
than you." With a final burst of false heartiness, he waved
Tobin off to the door. "You'll soon find your feet." As soon as
the door closed behind the boy, Arkoniel sank his face into his
hands. "That was a fine send-off!" he berated himself,
wondering why the god's will and two years of good intentions had
gotten him no further into Tobin's good graces than this. He'd fought
lya to be here, to help Tobin see what a normal life might be. He
wanted nothing more than to protect him from treacherous men like
Orun, or at least to warn him. A fine attempt he'd made, too, just
now. He might just as well have summoned snakes from the walls and
grown himself a second head. Tobin
forgot all about Arkoniel's last cryptic advice, pondering instead
the revelation that he was within his rights to defy the unpleasant
man downstairs. By the time he reached his room, he was looking
forward to putting this newfound bit of knowledge to the test. Brother
still shadowed him silently. For years Tobin had been too scared of
the spirit to do anything but avoid him. Once they'd established
their uneasy truce Brother had sometimes offered information, like
the unexpected tattling on Lord Solari, but Tobin had never thought
to seek any from him. He paused
at the far end of the corridor and whispered, "Will you help me?
Will you scare Lord Orun if he insults me again?" Brother
gave him what might have been meant as the mocking semblance of a
smile. Your enemies are my enemies. At his own
door he could hear Nari weeping. Inside, he found her and Ki packing
their small collection of belongings into chests. His father's arms
and sword were lashed into a bundle in a corner. Tharin stood by the
foot of the bed, looking uncommonly dour. Everyone
looked to him as he came in. 'I've laid
out your best tunic," Nari told him, wiping her eyes on her
apron. "You'll be wanting your carving things, and your books. I
suppose we can always send along anything we miss." Tobin drew
himself up and announced, "I'm not going tonight. Our guests
should be made comfortable in the hall." 'But Lord
Orun ordered…" 'This is my
house and I give the orders in it." Seeing the way they stared
at him, he added sheepishly. "At least that's what Arkoniel
says. I have to go tell Lord Orun now. Will you come with me,
Tharin?" 'We're
yours to command, my prince," Tharin replied; then, aside to Ki,
"We wouldn't want to miss this." Grinning,
Ki followed them as far as the top of the grand staircase, where he
gave Tobin a wink of encouragement before hiding himself to watch. With Tharin
on his left and Brother before him, Tobin felt a bit bolder as he
descended into the great hall again. Orun was pacing around the
hearth, looking very put out. The herald and several soldiers were
sitting nearby at a wine table, the blond wizard among them. 'Well,
then, are you prepared to leave?" Orun demanded. 'No, my
lord," said Tobin, trying to sound like his father. "I must
put my household in order and see that my things are properly packed
for the journey. I'll go with you tomorrow as early as can be
arranged. Until then, you shall be my guest. A feast will be prepared
for the evening and a bed set up for you here by the hearth." Orun halted
and stared up at him, grey brows rising toward his hat. "You'll
what?" Brother
began to stalk the man, flowing down toward him smooth and low as fog
on the river. 'I did not
come all the way to this benighted backwater to be answered back to
by—" Lord Orun's
ill-fated hat flew off again. This time it landed in the middle of
the smoldering hearth behind him, where it blossomed into a
malodorous crimson burst of burnt silk and feathers. Orun's hands
flew to his bald pate, then curled into angry fists as he rounded on
Tobin. Brother
yanked at his sleeve, scattering golden beads, then crouched to
spring at him, teeth bared. 'Stop,"
Tobin whispered in alarm, hoping he didn't have to speak the command
spell in front of all these people. Brother subsided and faded from
view. 'Have a
care, my lord!" The blond wizard took Orun's arm, steadying him. Lord Orun
pulled away from him, then turned to give Tobin a false smile. "As
you wish, Your Highness. But I fear the spirit that haunts this hall!
Haven't you a more hospitable chamber to offer a guest?" 'No, my
lord, I do not. But I assure you by my honor that none who wish me
well will come to harm under my roof. Will you ride with me until the
feast is prepared?" it was frustrating to hide himself away at
the top of the house, but Arkoniel contented himself with keeping
watch. Since he'd seen no evidence of the wizard Brother had spoken
of, he allowed himself the occasional sighting, following Tobin as he
and his companions led Orun and a few of his escort a merry chase
over a torturous mountain trail. He was
drafting a letter to lya when Nari knocked on his door and stuck her
head in. "There's someone here I think you'd best speak to,
Arkoniel." To his
alarm, she ushered in one of Orun's armed escort. He was a
pleasant-looking young fellow, but all Arkoniel noticed at first
glance was the red-and-gold badge the man wore, and his sword.
Readying a killing spell, he slowly stood up and bowed. 'What is it
you want with me?" The
guardsman shut the door and bowed. "lya sends her greetings and
told me to give you this as a token of good faith." He held out
his hand. Arkoniel
approached cautiously, still expecting violence, and saw that his
visitor held a small pebble in the hollow of his palm. LYNN
FLEWELL1NG Arkoniel took it and closed his fist around it, feeling
lya's essence infused into the stone. It was one of her tokens, the
sort she left only with those she felt would be of use to Tobin's
cause later. How this man had come by it remained to be learned. When he
looked back at him, however, he let out a startled gasp. Instead of a
soldier, he found himself facing a man who only slightly resembled
the one he'd just been looking at. He was fair-skinned and blond, and
his features showed a strong strain of Aurenfaie blood. "You're
a shape-shifter?" 'No, just a
mind clouder. My name is Eyoli of Kes. I met your mistress last year
while passing myself off as a beggar and picking pockets. She caught
me at it and told me she had better work for me to do. I didn't know,
you see." 'You didn't
know you were wizard born?" Eyoli
shrugged. "I knew I could cloud minds and make ignorant people
do as I wished. She sent me to study with a woman named Virishan at
Hear. You remember her?" 'Yes, we
spent most of a winter with her, a few years back. I've met mind
clouders before, but this—" Arkoniel shook his head in
admiration as Eyoli resumed the form of the soldier. "And to
carry it off without detection. It's a rare gift." The young
man smiled shyly. "It's my only talent, I'm afraid, but Viri
does say I'm the best she's seen. I've had the dreams, Arkoniel.
That's what lya saw in me and she says that Ariani's son is part of
that vision somehow, and that he must be protected. She sent word to
me when she learned of the duke's death. I arrived in Ero just in
time to get myself in with Orun's lot— 'Wait."
Arkoniel held up a hand. "How do I know that this is the truth?
How do I know that you aren't clouding my mind now, pulling thoughts
from my own mind and telling them back to me?" Eyoli took
Arkoniel's hand and placed it against his own brow. "Touch my
mind. Read my heart. lya says you have the gift." 'It's not a
gentle magic." 'I know
that," he replied, and Arkoniel could tell that he'd been
subjected to such tests before. "Go on. I knew you'd need to." Arkoniel
did, not a gentle brush of the mind but a deep, direct delving into
the core of the man who stood so trustingly under his hand. It was
not a pleasant spell, and never suffered between wizards without
permission, but Eyoli allowed it, even as he groaned aloud and
clutched at Arkoniel's shoulder to keep his balance. Arkoniel
pulled the substance of the other man's life from his mind like juice
from a ripe grape. It was a brief life, and a sordid one in its
earliest details. Eyoli had been a harbor brat, orphaned early and
raised in filth, using his innate skills from an early age to keep
himself fed and cared for as best he could. His talent was a meager
one, and unpolished until lya found him, but once tapped, his
potential was amazing. He was right in thinking he'd never make a
true wizard, but as a spy, he was quite unique. Arkoniel
released him. "You say this is all you can do?" 'Yes. I
can't even make fire or light." 'Well, what
you can do is extremely useful. Are you sworn to watch over Tobin?" 'By my
hands, heart, and eyes, Master Arkoniel. The Harriers haven't
numbered me, so I can come and go in the city. Orun and the others
think I've been with them for years. They won't miss me when I'm
gone." 'Amazing.
Where is lya now?" 'I don't
know, Master." 'Well, I'm
glad to have your help. Keep a close eye on him, and Ki, too."
He held out his hand and Eyoli clasped it respectfully, wincing a
little at the older wizard's firm grip-When he was gone Arkoniel
inspected the corner of his little fingernail. Lhel had taught him
how to sharpen it, how to clasp a man's hand so that it would nick
without hurting, and just deep enough to draw a tiny "bitty of
the red." He squeezed
the blood out and rubbed the tiny smear into the whorls of his thumb.
Then, fixing the patterns in his mind's eye, he spoke the witching
words Lhel had taught him. "Into this skin I go, through these
eyes I see, into this heart I listen." In Eyoli's
heart he found a burning hatred of the Harriers, and a vision of
Virishan's school and a shining white city in the west filled with
wizards who welcomed her orphans. For that vision Eyoli would do
whatever was asked of him. Arkoniel also caught a glimpse of lya as
the young man remembered her. She looked older and more tired than
Arkoniel recalled. All the
same, he breathed a sigh of relief, feeling less alone than he had in
years. The Third Oreska had already truly begun. V,'harin's
story about Orun continued to worry Arkoniel, but the troublesome
noble went to bed early in a surly humor, settled his nerves with a
large pot of Cook's hip-pocras, and was soon snoring loudly. The
herald did the same on the other side of the hearth. Meanwhile,
Tharin saw to it that the men of the King's Guard were under close
watch in their makeshift encampment in the meadow below. As silence
settled over the house, Arkoniel sat quietly in his darkened
workroom, alert for any disturbance in the hall below. Intent as
he was on this task, he was taken quite by surprise by stealthy
footsteps just outside his own door. Sending out another sighting, he
saw Tobin stealing past in his rumpled nightshirt. The boy hesitated
briefly outside the wizard's door as if to knock, then turned away
and continued on. Arkoniel
went to the door and opened it a crack, knowing there was only one
place Tobin could be going in this part of the keep. Arkoniel
had almost let himself into the tower several times, wanting to see
the place Ariani had called her own, the place she'd chosen to die.
But something—honor, fear, respect for the duke's wishes,
perhaps—still held him back. Tobin stood
near the tower door now, arms wrapped tight around himself in spite
of the humid night. As Arkoniel watched, he took another hesitant
step, then stopped. Then another. It was painful to watch, and worse
to feel like a spy doing it. After a
moment he leaned out and whispered, "Tobin? What are you doing
up here?" The boy
whirled around, eyes huge. If not for what Arkoniel had already
witnessed, he might have thought he'd been sleepwalking. Tobin
hugged himself tighter as Arkoniel approached. 'Do you
need my help?" Another
agonized hesitation, a sidelong glance—at Brother, perhaps?
Then he sighed and fixed Arkoniel with those earnest blue eyes.
"You're Lhel's friend, aren't you?" 'Of course
I am. Does this have something to do with her?" Again that
sidelong glance. "There's something I have to fetch." 'From the
tower?" 'Yes." 'Whatever
it is, Tobin, I know Lhel would want me to help you. What can I do?" 'Come with
me." 'That
sounds easy enough. Do you have the key, or shall I use my magic to
open it?" As if in
answer, the tower door swung open for them. Tobin flinched and stared
at the open doorway as if expecting to see something there. Perhaps
he did. All the wizard could make out were a few worn stone steps
leading up into darkness. 'Did you
tell Brother to do that?" 'No."
Tobin edged forward and Arkoniel followed. The summer
night was heavy, but the moment they stepped into the tower a dank
chill wrapped itself around them like the air of a tomb. High
overhead the moon peered in through narrow slit windows. Tobin was
clearly frightened to be here, but he took the lead. Halfway up
Arkoniel heard a stifled sob, but when Tobin glanced back at him, his
face was dry. Another sob raised the hair on the back of the wizard's
neck. It was a woman's voice. A small,
square chamber lay at the top of the tower. The windows on each side
were tightly shuttered, so Arkoniel summoned a tiny point of light,
then let out a gasp of dismay. The place
was a shambles. The furniture had been smashed to bits and scattered
about the room. Mouldering bolts of cloth and tapestries covered the
floor. 'Mother
made her dolls here," Tobin whispered. Arkoniel
had heard of those later dolls; boys with no mouths. The sound
of weeping was more distinct here, but it was still faint, as if
heard from another room. If Tobin heard it, he said nothing. As he
crossed to a far corner, however, Arkoniel noted how he kept his face
turned away from the fatal western window. What had
the child witnessed that final day, when he'd received that crescent
scar on his chin? Closing his eyes, Arkoniel whispered a
blood-seeking spell. The magic made a few scattered spots of old
blood on the floor near the west window shine bright as moonlight on
silver. And there was one more trace, a tiny, much-weathered
half-moon smudge on the edge of the stone sill. The outer
edge, beyond the shutters. Tobin made
his way over the debris to a far corner and was shifting a small pile
of refuse there. The sobbing
grew suddenly louder and Arkoniel could hear the whisper of heavy
skirts, as if the weeper was pacing the room. Caught
between fear and grief, Arkoniel searched his mind for spirit spells,
but all that would come was her name. 'Ariani." It was
enough. The shutters of the west window flew open and there she
stood, a dark outline against the moonlight. Brother stood with her,
grown as tall as his sibling even in death. Arkoniel
took a step toward her and held out his hand, face to face with the
woman he'd helped wrong. She turned
to him and the light fell across her face. Black blood covered the
left side, but her eyes were bright and alive and fixed on him with a
terrible confusion that disturbed him more deeply than any show of
anger. "Forgive me, Lady." An echo a decade gone. He felt
Tobin beside him, clutching at his arm with trembling fingers. "Do
you see her?" he whispered. 'Yes. Oh,
yes." He stretched out his left hand to the pitiful apparition.
She tilted her head as if bemused by his gesture, then reached as if
they were partnered in a dance. As their hands met he felt a fleeting
sensation like the kiss of snow shaken from a branch. Then she was
gone, and Brother with her. Arkoniel
brought his hand to his nose and caught the faint scent of her
perfume mingled with blood. Then a deathly chill closed in around
him. It felt as if someone was reaching into his chest and squeezing
his heart to stop it. Another hand, this one hard and warm, found his
and dragged him from the room. Doors slammed shut behind them as he
and Tobin fled the tower. In his
workroom Arkoniel locked the door, latched r the
shutters, and lit a small lamp, then collapsed trembling on the floor
with his face in his hands. "By L Ligh™ You saw her,
didn't you." "Oh
yes. Maker forgive me, I did." 'Was she
angry?" Arkoniel
thought of the crushing sensation he'dfe,'cin M
Cmt ,'Mt&f been ner doing, or Baxter's? "She t looked
sad, Tobin. And lost." He looked up and only then noticed what
Tobin had brought back with him from the tower. "Is that what
you went up for?" 'Yes."
Tobin clutched an old cloth sack to his chest. "I—I'm glad
you caught me tonight. I don't think I could've done it alone again
and I'd never have been able to ask anyone to go—" "Again?
You mean you did that before? All by yourself?" 'When I put
it up there. That night Ki arrived." 'You saw
your mother then, didn't you?" Tobin knelt
beside him and began plucking at the knotted string that held the
sack closed. He was shivering. "Yes. She reached out for me,
like she was going to throw me out the window again." Arkoniel
searched for something to say, but words failed him. Tobin was
still busy with the sack. "You might as well see. This was my
mother's. She made it." The string came loose and he pulled out
a crude muslin rag doll with a badly drawn face. "She always
carried it." 'Your
father mentioned it in his letters." He thought
of the fine dolls she'd made in Ero. All the great ladies of Ero had
wanted one, and many of the lords, too. This thing that Tobin cradled
so carefully was a grotesque parody, the embodiment of her ruined
soul. This
thought was quickly replaced by another, however, and the hair rose
on his neck and arms for the second time that night. The doll wore a
necklace of hair 'houghr with n-c-n-
nof enough K, There
had to foe something more; a talisman of 't'tsontt-'sthat joined
the two. Something that had perhaps been passed from mother to child. 'Did your
mother give this to you?" Tobin
stared down at the doll. "Lhel helped my mother make this. Then
she made it mine." 'With your
hair?" Tobin
nodded. "And some blood." Of course.
"And this helps you call Brother?" 'Yes. I
wasn't supposed to show it to anyone, so I hid it in the tower. I
think maybe that's why Brother doesn't always stay away when I tell
him to. When Lord Orun said I must go to Ero I knew I had to get it…" 'But why
not leave it here? Leave him here?" 'No, I have
to take care of him. Lhel said so." 'If a
wizard put his mind to it, he might be able to smell it out." 'You
didn't." Arkoniel
let out a rueful chuckle. "I suppose not, but I wasn't looking.
All the same, there are plenty of wizards in Ero. You must be careful
of all of them, especially those who wear the white robes of the
King's Harriers." Tobin
looked up in alarm. "What about the one with Orun's men?" 'A blond
young man dressed as a soldier?" 'Yes,
that's the one." 'He's a
friend, Tobin. But you mustn't let on that you know about him. lya
sent him to keep watch over you, that's all. It's a secret." 'I'm glad
he's not a bad wizard. He has a kind face." 'You
mustn't only judge people on their faces—" Arkoniel caught
himself, not wanting to scare the boy, or give too much away for a
Harrier to find in Tobin's mind later, should one have cause to look.
"There are many kinds of people in the world, Tobin, and as many
kinds of wizards. Not all of them mean you well. By the Four, you
didn't trust me and I mean you nothing but good! Don't go lowering
your guard to someone just because they tip you a winning smile."
He looked down at the doll again. "Now, are you certain you must
take this with you? Couldn't you leave it here with me?" 'No, Lhel
says I have to keep it and care for Brother. No one else can do that.
He needs me and I need him." Him. Oh
dear, thought Arkoniel. Here was another plan that had worked
too well until now. Thanks to Lhel's magic, the king had been shown
the body of a dead girl child, and so the world had heard the story;
Tobin knew the truth. If someone saw Brother or heard Tobin speak of
"him," uncomfortable questions would be raised. Tobin was
watching him with those eyes that saw too much and Arkoniel felt the
terrible fragility of the new bond they'd created in the tower just
now. He thought
of lya's bag lying under his worktable; no wizard could see through
its magics to the bowl swathed in silk and spells inside. For an
instant he seized on the notion of making such a bag for the doll.
This, at least, he had the magic for, and the makings: dark silk and
silver thread, a crystal wand, needles and razors of iron, censers
for burning resins and gums. Everything lay in easy reach. With these
he could make a bag that would hold Brother in and keep out the
prying eyes of any Harrier. But the bag
itself would be seen. He or lya might carry such a thing with
impunity, but an ordinary eleven-year-old child of warrior birth
could not. He sighed
and picked up the discarded flour sack. 387 Ordinary.
As ordinary as an old doll left as a keepsake for an orphaned child. 'This
changes everything, you know," he mused, an idea already taking
form. "That little display we had Brother put on in the hall was
all well and good as the antics of a house spirit. At court no one,
especially you, can afford any taint of necromancy and there are
plenty who might assume just that if they think you can control
Brother. You mustn't speak of him except as the demon twin they know
of. It's an old story there." 'I know. Ki
told me some people even claim it was a girl child." Arkoniel
covered his surprise quickly; he supposed if rumors would come from
anyone, it would be Ki. It seemed his work was done for him after
all. "Let them go on thinking that. There's no use arguing. Say
nothing at all about it, and never let anyone see him. And you must
never let on that you know anyone like Lhel.
Her sort of magic isn't necromancy, but most think it is, and because
of that her kind are outlawed from Skala." He gave Tobin a
conspiratorial wink. "That makes us outlaws, you and I."
"But why would Father have dealings with her if— "That's
a question best left'til you're older, my prince. For now, trust in
your father's honor as you always have and promise me that you'll
keep Lhel and Brother your own secret." Tobin
fidgeted with one of the doll's mismatched legs. "I will, but
sometimes he just does what he wants to." 'Well, you
must try very, very hard for your sake. And Ki's, too." "Ki?" Arkoniel
rested his elbows on his knees. "Here at the keep you and Ki
have lived as brothers and friends. Equals, if you like. But once
you're at court, you'll soon learn that you're not. Until you're of
age, Ki has no protection but your friendship and your uncle's whim.
If you were accused of necromancy the king might save you, but Ki
would be executed very horribly and there'd be no saving him." Tobin went
pale. "But Brother's nothing to do with him!" 'It
wouldn't matter, Tobin. That's what I'm trying to make you
understand. It has nothing to do with truth. All it would take would
be a Harrier wizard's accusation. It happens often these days. Great
wizards who've never done harm to anyone have been burnt alive on
nothing more than a secondhand tale." "But why?" 'In their
zeal to serve the king, they have taken a different road than the
rest of us. I can't explain it because I don't understand it myself.
For now, promise me you'll be careful and make Ki be careful, too." Tobin
sighed. "I wish I didn't have to go away. Not like this. I
wanted to go with Father and see Ero and Atyion and go to war, but—"
He broke off and rubbed at his eyes. 'I know.
But Illior has a way of putting our feet on the right path without
shining the Light very far ahead. Put your trust in that, and in the
good friends the Lightbearer has sent to walk with you." 'Illior?"
Tobin gave him a doubtful look. "And Sakor, too," he added
quickly. "But look whose mark you wear on your chin." 'But what
about the doll? What do I do with it?" Arkoniel picked up the
flour sack. "This should do well enough." The boy
gave him an exasperated look. "You don't understand. What if the
prince sees it? Or the Arms Master? Or Ki?" 'What if he
did?" To his astonishment, Tobin blushed. "You think Ki
would think less of you for it?" "Why do you think I had it
up in the tower?" "Well, I've seen it, and I certainly
don't." Tobin
rolled his eyes. "You're a wizard." Arkoniel
laughed. "Has my manhood just been insulted?" 'You're not
a warrior!" Some strong emotion shook Tobin now, making his eyes
flash and his voice break. "Warriors don't want dolls. I only
have this one because Lhel says I must. For Brother." Arkoniel
watched him closely. The way Tobin still clasped the lopsided doll
belied every word he spoke. She
spoke, he amended. For the first time in a very long time,
Arkoniel allowed himself to make the correction, though he saw little
sign of the hidden princess in the angry youth before him—except
perhaps for the way the strong, callused hands neither crushed nor
threw away what they professed to be ashamed of. 'I believe
you misjudge your friend," he said quietly. "It's a
keepsake from your dead mother. Who would begrudge you that? But you
must manage that as you see best." 'But—"
Confusion warred with stubbornness on the boy's drawn face. 'What is
it?" 'The night
Ki came, Brother showed me. He showed me Ki
finding the doll, and how-disappointed and shamed everyone was that I
had it. Just like Father told me. And everything else he's shown me
has come true. At least I think so. You remember the fox with the
broken back? And I knew when lya was coming. And— And he told
me that Lord Solan wants to take Atyion away from me." 'Does he,
now? I'll pass that along to Tharin. As for the rest of it, I don't
know. It's possible that Brother could lie when he wants. Or that
what he shows you can change with time, or that perhaps you don't
always understand what he shows you." He reached to pat Tobin's
shoulder and this time the boy allowed it. "You're not wizard
born, but you've a bit of the sight in you. You should have shared
your visions with Lhel or me. It's our gift and our service." Tobin's
shoulders sagged. "Forgive me, Master Arkoniel. You've always
helped me and I've shown you poor courtesy." Arkoniel
waved aside the apology. For the first time since his arrival here he
felt that a true link had been forged between them. "I don't
expect you to understand it yet, but I've pledged my life to
protecting you. Perhaps one day you'll remember what we've shared
here tonight and know that I'm your friend. Even if I am only a
wizard." Grinning, he held out his hand in the warrior style. Tobin
clasped it. The old guarded look had not completely left him, but in
his eyes the wizard saw a respect that hadn't been there before. 'I'll
remember, Wizard." diausted
beyond words, Tobin crept back to his bedchamber and hid the doll
deep in one of the traveling chests. He tried to
slip into bed without disturbing Ki, but as he lay back he felt Ki's
hand on his arm. 'Are you
sick, Tob? You were gone a long time." 'No—"
Arkoniel thought he should tell Ki about the doll, and suddenly he
was badly tempted to. Maybe Ki wouldn't care, after all. He hated
having secrets between them and the doll was so close, just a few
feet away. But the memory of Brother's fury when he'd tried to show
it to Nari was still too clear. 'I just
wanted to say good-bye to Arkoniel," he mumbled. 'We're
going to miss him. I bet he has a few spells up his sleeve that would
shut Lord Orun up." It was too
hot for blankets or shirts. Sprawled on their backs, they stared up
into the shadows. 'It's been
a rotten few weeks, hasn't it?" Ki said after a while. "With
your father—" His voice choked off for a moment. "And
old Slack Guts downstairs? Not quite the way we meant to go east." A Jump
hardened in Tobin's throat and he shook his head. His father's death,
his mother's ghost, the summons to Ero, Arkoniel's warnings tonight,
and the business with Brother, the pack of strangers waiting for them
downstairs— All the
tears he hadn't been able to find over the years suddenly seemed to
find him and rolled silently down his cheeks into his ears. He didn't
dare sniff or wipe at them for fear Ki would know. ' 'Bout
time," Ki muttered huskily, and Tobin realized his friend was
weeping too. "I was starting to think you didn't know how.
You've got to mourn, Tobin. All warriors do." Is that
what this pain was? Tobin wondered. But it felt so big. If he let it
loose, it would sweep him away and he'd be lost. Easier to retreat
again into the numbing silence that had protected him for so long. He
imagined it flowing into him like liquid darkness, filling his lungs,
spreading out to his limbs and head until he was nothing more than a
black shape himself. 'That's not
good way, keesa." Tobin
looked over to find Lhel standing in the doorway. It was dawn. She
beckoned to him, then disappeared in the direction of the stairs. He
hurried after her, but caught only the sight of her ragged skirt as
she slipped out the door of the great hall. Lord Orun was snoring
loudly behind the curtains of his bed. Tobin hurried out through the
open gate in time to see Lhel disappearing into the forest across the
bridge. 'Wait!"
he called, then clamped a hand over his mouth in alarm. The
dew-soaked meadow below the keep was filled with Orun's escort. He'd
thought there were only two score or so yesterday, but now it looked
like there were at least a hundred. A few sentries were gathered
around the morning cook fire, but no one noticed him as he ran
barefoot into the woods. As soon as
he reached the shelter of the trees he understood. This wasn't the
real forest; it was the one he'd come to so often in visions after
his mother's death. This time
he didn't need Brother to guide him. He found the river path easily
and followed it to the clearing where the two gentle deer grazed by
the hole in the ground. When he entered the opening this time, he
found himself inside Lhel's oak. The -witch
and his mother sat by the fire. His mother was suckling an infant at
her breast. Lhel held the rag doll on her lap instead of the rabbit. 'This is a
seeing dream, keesa," Lhel told him. 'I know." Lhel gave
him the doll and shook her finger at him. "Don't you be
forgetting him." 'I won't!"
What else had he been worrying about all night? His mother
looked up from the baby, her blue eyes clear and sane, but full of
sadness. "I want to be there, too, Tobin. Don't leave me in the
tower!" She held up the baby. "He'll show you." Lhel
jumped, as if startled to find her here. "Keesa can't be worried
about that. Go!" Ariani and
the baby disappeared, and Lhel drew Tobin down onto the pallet beside
her. "Don't you be worried about her. That's not your burden
now. You look out for you and Brother. And Ki." She cast a
handful of herbs and bones into the fire and studied the pattern of
their burning. "This hairless man? I don't like him but you must
go. I see your path. It takes you to the stinking city of the king.
You don't know this king yet. You don't know his heart." She
threw in more herbs and rocked slowly back and forth, eyes narrowed
to slits. Then she sighed, and leaned close until all Tobin could see
was her face. "You see blood? Don't tell nobody. Nobody." 'Like the
doll." Tobin thought of his near slip with Ki. Lhel
nodded. "You love your friend, you don't tell him. You see
blood, you come here to me." 'What
blood, Lhel? I'm a warrior. I'm going to see blood!" 'Maybe you
will, maybe not. But if you do—" She touched her finger to
his heart. "You know here. And you come to Lhel." She poked
him in the chest again, harder this time, and Tobin woke in his own
bed in the hot darkness with Ki snoring softly beside him. Tobin
turned on his side, pondering the dream. He could still feel Lhel's
finger on his chest, and the softness of the furs he'd sat on. A
seeing dream, Lhel had told him. Wondering
if he should go ask Arkoniel if it had been a vision or just a
regular dream, he drifted back to sleep. porttJbree
From the memoirs of Queen Tamir II. Ero. When
I recall the city now, the actual place, so briefly known, is
overlaid in my mind by the image of the simple model my father built
for me. In my dreams wooden people, clay sheep, wax geese populate
the crooked streets. Flat-bottomed boats with parchment sails slide
whispering across a dusty painted harbor. Only
the Palatine survives in my memory as it was, and those who lived
within its walls and mazes. Tobin rode
out from the keep on the twenty-third day of Lenthin and didn't look
back. He'd said his farewells at dawn and let the women weep over
him. With Ki and Tharin beside him, his father's ashes at his
saddlebow, and a column of men at his back, he set his face for Ero,
determined to uphold the honor of his family as best he could. He'd been
surprised to learn from Lord Orun that the ride would take only a
day. With no heavy baggage to slow them, they rode for long stretches
at a gallop and soon left Alestun behind. Beyond it the familiar road
joined another that wound back into the dark forest. After several
hours the forest gave way to a vast rolling countryside netted with
rivers and dotted "with wide-flung farmsteads and estates. Lord Orun
insisted on courtly protocol, so that Tobin was forced to ride in
front beside him, with Tharin and Ki behind with the herald and
servants. The men from the keep, who were now to be called Prince
Tobin's Guard, rode in the column with the other soldiers. Tobin
looked for the disguised wizard among them, but hadn't caught sight
of him before he had to take his own position. At
midmorning they came to a broad lake that reflected the clouds
overhead and the fine stone manor house on the far side. A great
flock of wild geese was swimming and grazing along its shores. 'That
estate once belonged to an aunt of your mother's," Tharin
remarked as they rode past. 'Who does
it belong to now?" asked Tobin, marveling at the grandness of
the place. 'The king." 'Is Atyion
as large as that?" 'Put ten of
those together and you begin to match it. But Atyion has a town
around it, with fields and proper walls." Looking
back, Tobin saw that his mountains were already growing smaller
behind him. "How much longer until we reach Ero?" 'If we push
on, I should say before sunset, my prince," Lord Orun replied. Tobin
spurred Gosi on, wondering how Alestun could have seemed so far away
when the capital itself was only a day's ride. Suddenly the world
seemed a great deal smaller than it had. They passed
through a market town called Korma just after noon. It was larger
than Alestun and had the usual sort of traders and farmers crowding
the square, as well as a few Aurenfaie in elaborately wrapped purple
head cloths. Several were performing on lyres and flutes. Lord Orun
stopped at the largest inn to rest the horses and dine. The innkeeper
bowed low to him, and even lower to Tobin when he was introduced.
Their host made a great fuss over Tobin, bringing him all sorts of
foods to try and refusing to take any payment except Tobin's kind
remembrance. He wasn't used to such a commotion and was very glad to
set off again. Che icy
rode at a more leisurely pace through the heat of the day and Lord
Orun took it upon himself to keep Tobin entertained. He spoke of the
Prince Royal's Companions and their training and what Tobin could
look forward to in the way of entertainments. From him,
Tobin learned that he might purchase anything a boy could desire
simply by using his father's seal, which he still wore around his
neck. Koni had shortened the chain for him. 'Oh yes,"
Orun assured him. "Fine clothes, a proper sword, sweets, hounds,
gambling. A young man of your rank must have his pleasures. A new
sport, falconry, has recently been introduced from Aurenen, who had
it from the Zengati. Leave it to the faie to import such barbarian
decadence! Oh well, they breed good horses. But it's all the rage
among the young bloods." He paused
and his thick lips curved into a knowing smile. "Of course, any
transaction of substance—say, to sell land or raise a levy of
troops, the purchase of grain or iron, or the collection of rents
from your lands—for that you must also have the seal of your
uncle or myself until you are of age. But you're too young to trouble
yourself about such things! All will be managed for you." 'Thank you,
Lord Orun," Tobin replied, but only because good manners seemed
to demand it. He'd disliked the man on sight yesterday, and
familiarity had only strengthened the impression. There was something
greedy behind Orun's smile; it made Tobin think of something cold and
nasty stepped on in the dark. More
damning was the way he treated Ki and Tharin. Despite his fine
manners to Tobin, Orun treated them as if they were his own servants,
and managed to hint repeatedly that Tobin might consider finding a
more suitable squire once he was at court. If it hadn't been for
Arkoniel's warning, he might have summoned Brother again. Secretly,
he made up his mind to find out how to make his friends into such
rich lords that Orun would have to bow to them. K ^i could
tell that Tobin was miserable riding with Orun, but there didn't seem
to be any help for it. The long ride did give him the first
opportunity he'd had to speak with Tharin since he'd returned from
Mycena. Ki had seen
from the first that Tharin was suffering but hadn't known what to say
to him, though in his heart he guessed the cause. Tharin believed
he'd failed Rhius. A squire did not come home without his lord. Yet
from what Ki had been able to glean from the other men in the days
since their return, it had been no fault of Tharin's. Rhius had
fallen in battle and Tharin had tried to save him. Ki clung to that,
unable to believe anything less of his hero. Now they
had a new kettle of trouble to stir, and Tharin looked hollow-eyed
and exhausted. Riding a
respectful distance behind the nobles, he reined Dragon in close to
Tharin's horse and kept his voice low as he asked, "Are we going
to have to live with him now?" Tharin
grimaced. "No, you'll live in the Old Palace with the other
Companions. You'll only have to dine with Lord Orun now and then, so
he can make reports to the king." Ki had
glimpsed the Palace over the citadel walls. "It's so big! How
will we ever learn our way around?" 'The
Companions have their own apartments. And the others will help you." 'How many
are there?" 'Seven or
eight now, I think, and their squires." Ki fiddled
with his reins. "The other squires—are they like me?" Tharin
looked at him again. "How do you mean?" 'You know." Tharin gave
him a sad little smile. "I believe all of them are the sons of
highborn knights and lords." 'Oh." 'Yes."
The way Tharin said it let Ki know that he understood his fears.
"Don't let them bully you. Only one other of them can claim he's
squired to a prince. And I promise you, Ki, there's not another boy
there who surpasses you in honor." He nodded in Tobin's
direction. "Keep him uppermost in your heart and you'll always
do what's right." 'I don't
want to fail him. I couldn't bear it." Tharin
reached out and gripped his arm hard enough to make Ki wince. "You
won't," he said sternly. "You have to look after him for me
now. You swear on your honor to do that." The
challenge hurt more than the hold on his arm. Ki straightened in the
saddle and cast all his shameful doubts aside. "I swear it!" Tharin
released him with a satisfied nod. "We'll be his personal guard
in name, but you're the one who'll be at his side. You must be my
eyes and ears, Ki. If you smell any kind of trouble for him, you come
to me." 'I will,
Tharin!" For a
moment Ki feared he'd gone too far and angered the man, but Tharin
only chuckled. "I know you will." But Ki
could see that he was still worried, and that made him check the
lacings on his scabbard. He'd never imagined that going to the
capital would feel like riding into enemy territory. He only wished
he knew why. V,'he day
wore on. The road they followed took them into flat bottomland laid
out in long strips and farmed by tenants. Some of the strips lay
fallow, grown over with weeds. Others were planted, but sparsely
grown, or spoiled by disease. Great swaths of grain lay grey and
rotted and flat. In the
villages here Tobin saw children with skinny legs, big bellies, and
dark circles under their eyes. They reminded him of the way Brother
used to look. What few cattle remained were raw-boned, and there were
carcasses bloating in the ditches with ravens picking at their eyes.
Many of the cottages in the village were empty, and several had been
burnt. Most of those that remained had the crescent of Illior painted
or chalked on the front door. 'That's
odd," he said. "You'd think they'd be praying to Dalna for
healing or good crops." No one
replied. As the sun
began its slow descent behind them, a cool breeze freshened out of
the east, blowing their hair back and cooling the sweat on their
brows. It carried the first hint of a sweet new smell Tobin didn't
recognize. Orun
noticed him sniffing and smiled indulgently. "That's the sea, my
prince. We'll be in sight of it soon." A little
further on they met a cart piled with the strangest crop he'd ever
seen. A mass of some greenish brown plant quivered with every jounce
and bump of the cart's wheels. A queer odor rose from it, salty and
earthy. 'What is
that?" he asked, wrinkling his nose. 'Seaweed,
from the coast," Tharin explained. "Farmers manure their
fields with it." 'From the
sea!" Urging Gosi closer, Tobin leaned over and plunged his hand
into the smelly stuff. It was cold and wet underneath, and had a
leathery feel like the surface of Cook's calves' foot jelly after it
cooled. 'ry brown
hills like shoulders with no heads rose up against the sunset. The
thin sliver of Illior's moon climbed over them as Tobin watched. Orun
had said they'd be in Ero by sunset, yet it seemed they were in the
middle of nowhere instead. The road
was steep here. Leaning forward in the stirrups, he urged Gosi up the
last few yards to the top, then looked up to find a huge,
unimaginable expanse of sparkling water stretching out below him. The
glimpses he'd had in his vision journeys with Arkoniel hadn't
prepared him for this; they'd been fuzzy and bounded by darkness, and
he'd been focused on other things. Ki rode up
beside him. "What do you think of it?" 'It's—big!" From here
he could see how the water curved away to the horizon, broken in the
distance by islands of all sizes sticking up through the waves. Tobin
gaped, trying to take in the sheer size of it; beyond all that lay
the places his father and Arkoniel had told him of: Kouros, Plenimar,
Mycena, and the battlefield where his father had bravely fought and
died. 'Think of
it, Ki. Someday we'll be out there, you and I. We'll stand on the
deck of some ship and look back at this shore and we'll remember
standing here right now." He held up
his hand. Grinning,
Ki grasped it. "Warriors together. Just like—" He
stopped in time, but Tobin knew what he'd meant. Just
like Lhel had foreseen, the first time she'd met Ki on that snowy
forest road. Tobin
looked around again. "But where's the city?" "Couple
miles north, Your Highness." It was the blond wizard. He saluted
Tobin, then disappeared back into the milling ranks. V>hey
followed the road over the hills, and before the last light faded in
the west they crested a final rise and saw Ero shining like a gem
above her wide harbor. For a moment Tobin was disappointed; at first
glance it didn't look at all like the toy city his father had made
for him. There was a broad river flowing past it, for one thing, and
the city was spread out over several rolling hills that curved around
the bay. On closer inspection, however, he could make out the
undulating line of the city wall ringing the base of the largest one.
The Palatine crowned this hill and he thought he could make out the
roof of the Old Palace there, glowing like gold in the slanting
sunset light. For the first time he seemed to feel his father's
spirit beside him, smiling as he showed Tobin all the places he'd
taught him of. This was where his father had gone when he'd left the
keep, riding on this road, to that market, to that hill, to those
shining palaces and gardens. Tobin could almost hear his voice again,
telling him tales of the kings and queens who'd ruled here, and the
priest kings who'd ruled all the Three Lands before them from their
island capital, back when Ero was nothing but a fishing village beset
by raiders from the hills. 'What's
wrong, Tobin?" Tharin was looking at him with concern. 'Nothing. I
was just thinking of Father. I feel like I know the city a little
already—" Tharin
smiled. "He'd be pleased." 'There's a
lot more to it, though," Ki replied, ever practical. "He
couldn't make all the houses and slums and all. But he got the main
ways right." 'See that
the pair of you stay out of alleys and side lanes," Tharin
warned, giving him a sharp look. "You're still too young to be
roaming the streets on your own, day or night. I'm sure Master Porion
will keep you too busy to wander very much, but all the same, I want
your word that you'll behave yourselves." Tobin
nodded, still taken up with the wonders spread out before him. Setting off
at a gallop, they rode along the edge of the harbor and the salt air
cleared the dust from their throats. An enormous stone bridge spanned
the river, broad enough for the column to ride ten abreast. On the
far side they entered the outskirts of Ero, and here Tobin discovered
for himself why the capital was called Stinking Ero. Tobin had
never seen so many people crowded together, or smelled such a stench.
Accustomed as he was to nothing worse than cooking smoke, the mingled
reek of offal and human waste made him gag and clench his teeth. The
houses that lined the narrow streets here were rude hovels, worse
than any byre in Alestun. And it
seemed that everyone here was maimed somehow, too, with stumps where
hands or legs had been, or faces rotted with disease. Among the many
carts on the road, he was shocked to see one loaded with dead bodies.
They were stacked like firewood and their limbs shud THE B'ONE DOLL'S
TWIN dered with every bump. Some had black faces. Others were so thin
their bones showed through their skin. 'They're
headed there," Ki said, pointed to a column of black smoke in
the distance. "Burning ground." Tobin
looked down at the jar of ashes hanging against Gosi's side. Had his
father been hauled away in a dead cart? He shook his head, pushing
the thought away. Passing a
wayside tavern, he saw two filthy children huddled next to the body
of a woman. The bodice of her ragged gown was torn open to show her
slack breasts and the skirt was pushed up over her thighs. The
children held their hands up, crying for alms, but people simply
walked past them, paying them no mind. Tharin noticed him staring and
reined in long enough to flip a silver half sester their way. The
children pounced on the coin, spitting at each other like cats. The
woman settled it by rearing up and cuffing them both away. Grabbing
up the coin with one hand, she cupped a breast in the other and
flapped it at Tharin, then walked away with the children whining
after her. Tharin
looked at Tobin and shrugged. "People aren't always what they
seem, my prince. This is called Beggar's Way here. They come out to
fleece country folk coming to market." Even at
this hour the road to the south gate was crowded with carts and
riders, but the herald blew his silver trumpet and most of them gave
way. Tobin felt
embarrassed and important all at once when Tharin greeted the captain
of the guard at the city gate in his name, as if he were a grown man.
Looking up, he saw Illior's crescent and Sakor's flame carved on the
gate head and touched his heart and sword hilt reverently as they
passed beneath. Inside the
city walls the wider streets •were paved and provided with
gutters. This did little to improve the smell of the place, however,
as householders could be observed emptying their slop buckets out of
front doors and upper windows. The streets
leading up to the Palatine sloped steadily upward, but the city's
builders had cut terraces in the hillside for the larger
marketplaces, parks, and gardens. Otherwise, houses and shops were
stacked up the hillsides like the painted blocks of Tobin's city.
They were tall rather than broad, four or five stories some of them,
and built of timber over stone foundations, with roofs of baked tile. Despite all
his lessons, Tobin was seldom sure of just where they were. As Ki had
said, there were a thousand side ways off the main routes and no way
of knowing what street you were in without asking. Glad of his
escort, he let Orun take the lead and turned his attention to the
city as night fell around them. In the
lower markets the shops were already putting up their shutters for
the night, but higher up many were open and lit by torches. There were
still beggars and dead dogs, pigs and dirty children, but now they
also met with lords and ladies on horseback who carried hooded hawks
on their fists and had a dozen servants in livery at their heels.
There were Aurenfaie, too, and these must have been lords as well,
for they were dressed finer than the Skalans themselves and Lord Orun
bowed to many of them as they passed. Actors and
musicians in outlandish clothes performed by torchlight on little
platforms in the squares. There were maskers and pie sellers,
drysians and priests. He also saw a few robed figures wearing
strange, beaklike devices on their faces; these must be the
deathbirds Arkoniel had told him of. Merchants
sold their wares from poles and pushcarts and open-fronted shops.
Passing through one wide courtyard, Tobin saw carvers of all sorts at
work in booths there. He wanted to stop and watch but Orun hurried
him on. There were
wizards, too, in robes and silver symbols. He saw one in the white
robes Arkoniel had warned him about, but he looked no different to
Tobin than any of the others. 'Hurry on,"
Orun urged, pressing a golden pomander to his nose. They turned
to the left and followed a broad level way until they could see the
harbor below them, then turned again and climbed to the Palatine
Gate. The captain
of the guard spoke a moment with Orun, then raised his torch and
saluted Tobin. Inside the
walls of the Palatine it was dark and quiet. Tobin could make out
little more than a few lighted windows and the dark bulk of buildings
against the stars overhead, but he could tell by the way the air
moved that it was less crowded here. The breeze was stronger, and
carried the smells of fresh water, flowers, shrine incense, and the
sea. In that moment the kings and queens weren't just names in a
lesson anymore. They were his kin and they'd stood where he was
standing and seen all this. As if
hearing his thoughts, Tharin bowed in the saddle and said, "Welcome
home, Prince Tobin." Ki and the others did the same. 'The Prince
Royal will be most anxious to welcome you," Orun said. "Come,
he should still be at table with the Companions at this hour." 'What about
my father?" Tobin asked, laying his hand on the urn. His father
had walked here, too. He'd probably stood on this very spot. Suddenly
Tobin felt very tired and overwhelmed. Orun raised
an eyebrow. "Your father?" "Lord Rhius asked that his
ashes be laid with those of Princess Ariani in the royal tomb,"
Tharin told him. "Perhaps it would be best to see to the dead
before we attend the living. All the rites have been observed.
There's only this left to do. Prince Tobin's had the burden of it
long enough, I think." Orun made a
fair job of hiding his impatience. "Of course. Now that we're
safely arrived, however, I suppose we can do without our escort.
Captain Tharin, you and your men should go to your rest. Your old
billet has been maintained." Tobin shot
Tharin an unhappy look, dismayed at the idea of being left with Orun
in this strange place. 'Prince
Tobin, we accompanied your father where-ever he went," Tharin
said. "Will you permit us to see our lord to his final rest?" 'Certainly,
Sir Tharin," Tobin replied, relieved. 'Very well,
then," Orun sighed, dismissing his own guard. Tharin and
Koni borrowed torches from the soldiers at the gate and led the way
along a broad avenue lined with tall elms. The ancient trees arched
to form a rustling tunnel overhead, and through their trunks to his
right Tobin caught fleeting glimpses of firelight glowing between
pillars and high windows in the distance. Leaving the
tunnel of trees, they rode through an open park to a low-set building
with a flat tile roof supported by thick age-blackened wooden
pillars. At Tharin's command the men-at-arms formed a double line
flanking the entrance and knelt with their drawn swords point down
before them. Tobin
dismounted and took the jar in his arms. With Tharin and Ki beside
him, he carried his father's ashes between the kneeling soldiers and
entered the tomb. An altar
stood at the center of the stone platform inside, and a flame burned
on it in a large basin of oil. This flame illuminated the faces of
the life-size stone effigies that stood in a semicircle around the
altar. Tobin guessed that these were the queens of Skala. Those Who
Came Before. A priest of
Astellus appeared and led them down a stone stairway behind the altar
to the catacombs below. By the light of his torch Tobin saw dusty
jars like the one he carried stacked in shadowed niches, as well as
bundles of bones and skulls piled on shelves. 'These are
the oldest dead, my lord, your oldest ancestors who have been kept,"
the priest told him. "As each level fills, a new one is
excavated. Your noble mother lies in the newest crypt, deep below." They
descended five narrow flights to a cold, airless chamber. The walls
were carved floor to ceiling with niches and the floor was covered
with wooden biers. Here lay bodies tightly wrapped with bands of
thick white cloth. 'Your
father chose for your mother to be wrapped," Tharin said softly,
guiding Tobin to one of the niches on the far wall. An oval painting
of his mother's likeness covered her face, and her long black hair
hung free of the wrappings in a heavy braid coiled on her breast. She
looked very thin and small. Her hair
looked just as it had when she was alive, thick and shining in the
torchlight. He reached to touch it, then drew his hand back. The
painting of her face was well done, but she was smiling in a happy
way he'd never seen in life. 'Her eyes
were just like yours," whispered Ki, and Tobin recalled with
mild surprise that Ki had never known his mother. It seemed to him
now that Ki had always been with him. With
Tharin's help, he lifted the jar from the netting and laid it between
his mother's body and the wall. The priest stood mumbling prayers
beside him, but Tobin couldn't think of a thing to say. When they
were finished Ki looked around the crowded chamber and whistled. "Are
these all your kin?" 'If they're
here, then I suppose they must be." 'I wonder
why there are so many more women than men. You'd think with a war on
and all, it'd be just the other way around." Tobin saw
that Ki was right, though he'd taken no notice of it before. While
there were a number of jars like the one he held, there were many
more cloth-wrapped bodies with braids, and not all of them were grown
women, either; he counted at least a dozen girls and babes. 'Come on,"
he sighed, too weary of death to concern himself with strangers. 'Wait,"
said Tharin. "It's customary to take a lock of hair as a
remembrance. Would you like me to cut one for you?" Tobin
raised a hand absently to his lips as he considered this, and his
fingers lingered on the small faded scar on his chin. "Another
time, perhaps. Not now." After
leaving the tomb, Lord Orun led them back the way they'd come and
turned onto an avenue that took them past open riding grounds bounded
by more trees. The moon was high now and cast a pale glow over their
surroundings. This part
of the Palatine was a shadowed jumble of gardens and flat rooflines.
Tobin caught the shimmer of water in the distance; there was a large
artificial pond here, built by one of the queens. In front of them,
past more trees, he could see a rambling, uneven mass of roofs
bulking low on the eastern side of the walled citadel. 'That's the
New Palace there," Tharin explained, pointing to the longest
silhouette to their left, "and that directly in front of us is
the Old. All around them is a rabbit's warren of other palaces and
houses, but you won't have to concern yourself with those for now.
When you get settled in, I'll bring you to your mother's house." Tobin was
too exhausted to register more than an impression of gardens and
colonnades. "I wish I could live there." 'You will,
when you're grown." The
entrance of the Old Palace loomed before them out of the darkness,
flanked by huge columns, flaring torches, and a line of guards in
black and white tunics. Tobin
clasped hands with Tharin, fighting back tears. 'Be brave,
my prince," Tharin said softly. "Ki, make me proud." The moment
of parting couldn't be put off any longer. Tharin and the others
saluted him and rode off into the darkness. Strangers in livery
surged in around them, anxious to take charge of their baggage
and horses. Lord Orun
swooped in as soon as Tharin was out of the way. 'Come
along, Prince Tobin, Prince Korin mustn't be kept waiting any longer.
You, boy." This to Ki. "Fetch the prince's baggage!" Ki waited
until the man's back was turned and made him an obscene salute. Tobin
gave him a grateful grin. So did several of the palace servants. Orun
hurried them up the stairs, where more servants in long white and
gold livery met them at a huge set of bronze doors covered with
rampant dragons. Inside, a stiff-backed servant with a white beard
led them down a long corridor inside. Tobin
looked around, round-eyed. The walls were painted with wonderful
glowing patterns, and in the center of the broad stone corridor there
was a shallow pool where colorful fish swam among tinkling fountains.
He'd never imagined such grandeur. They passed
through a series of huge rooms with ceilings so high they were lost
in shadow. The walls were covered in more faded but wonderful murals
and the furnishings were wonders of carving and inlay work. There
were gold and jewels everywhere he looked. Bowed under a load of
bags, Ki appeared equally awed. After
several more turns, the old man opened a creaking black door and
ushered Tobin into an airy bedchamber half the size of the great hall
back at the keep. A tall bed with hangings of black and gold stood on
a raised platform in the center of the room. Past that, a balcony
overlooked the city beyond. The walls were painted with faded hunting
scenes. The room smelled nicely of the sea and the tall pines visible
outside the window. 'This is
your room, Prince Tobin," the man informed him. "Prince
Korin occupies the next chamber." Ki stood
gaping until the man showed him to a sec ond, smaller room at the
back where wardrobes and chests stood. Next to this was an alcove
containing a second bed built into the wall like a shelf. It was made
up with rich bedding, too, but reminded Tobin too much of the place
where his mother had been laid. Orun
hustled them out again and they followed the sound of music and
boisterous laughter to an even larger chamber filled with performers
of all sorts. There were minstrels, half-naked tumblers, jugglers
tossing balls, knives, burning torches—even hedgehogs—and
a girl in a silken shift dancing with a bear she led on a silver
chain. A glittering company of youths and girls sat on a raised dais
on a balcony at the far end of the room. The least of them was
dressed more finely than Tobin ever had been in his life. Suddenly he
was aware of the thick coating of dust on his clothes. The diners
didn't seem to be paying the entertainers much mind, but sat talking
and jesting among themselves over the wreckage of their feast.
Servants went among them with platters and pitchers. Tobin's
approach attracted their notice, however. A black-haired youth
sitting at the center of the table suddenly vaulted over and strode
across to meet him. He was a stocky lad of about fifteen, with short,
curling black hair and smiling dark eyes. His scarlet tunic was
embroidered with gold; rubies glowed on the gold hilt of a dagger at
his belt and in a small jewel dangling from one ear. Tobin and
Ki copied the low bows the others made him, guessing that this was
Prince Korin. The older
boy studied them a moment, looking uncertainly from Tobin to Ki.
"Cousin, is this you arrived at last?" Tobin
straightened first, realizing his mistake. "Greetings, Prince
Korin. I'm your cousin, Tobin." Korin
smiled and held out his hand. "They tell me I was at your
naming, but I don't remember it. I'm glad to meet you properly at
last." He glanced down at the back of Ki's bowed head. "And
who's this?" Tobin
touched Ki's arm and he stood up. Before he could answer, however,
Lord Orun thrust himself into the conversation. 'This is
Prince Tobin's squire, Your Highness, the son of one of Lord Jorvai's
minor knights. It seems Duke Rhius chose him without your father's
knowledge. I thought it best for you to explain— Ki dropped
to one knee before the prince, left hand on his sword hilt. "My
name is Kirothius, son of Sir Larenth of Oakmount Stead, a warrior in
your father's service in Mycena, my prince." 'And my
good friend," Tobin added. "Everyone calls him Ki." Tobin saw
the hint of a smile tug at the prince's mouth as he looked from Orun
to Ki. "Welcome, Ki. Let's find a place for you at the squire's
table. I'm sure you must be wanting your own bed after such a long
ride, Lord Orun. Good night to you." The
chancellor did not look pleased, but he could not argue with the
prince. With a last bow, he swept from the room. Korin
watched the man go, then motioned for Tobin and Ki to follow him to
the banquet table. Throwing an arm around Tobin's shoulders, he asked
softly, "What do you think of my father's choice of guardian?" Tobin gave
a cautious shrug. "He's discourteous." Korin
smelled strongly of wine and Tobin wondered if he was a little drunk.
But his eyes were clear and shrewd enough as he warned, "Yes,
but he's also powerful. Be careful." Following
just behind, Ki ducked his head nervously and asked, "Excuse me
for speaking out of turn, my prince, but am I right in thinking that
the king chose someone else to be Tob—Prince Tobin's squire?" Korin
nodded and Tobin's heart sank. "Since you've grown up so far
from court, Father felt it would be best for you to have someone
knowledgeable of the ways here. He left the choice to Lord Orun, who
chose Sir Moriel, third son of Lady Yria. See that fellow at the
lower table with the white eyebrows and a nose like a woodpecker's
beak? That's him." They'd
reached the balcony and Tobin could see the squire's table to the
right of the long feast table. Korin's description was an apt one.
Moriel was already striding over to present himself. He was about
Ki's age and height, with a plain face and white-blond hair. Tobin
started to object but Korin forestalled him with a smile. "I see
the way things are." He gave Tobin a wink and whispered, "Just
between us, I've always considered Moriel a bit of a toad. We'll
manage something." Moriel
distinguished himself immediately by bowing deeply to Ki. "Prince
Tobin, your servant and squire— 'No, that
is his squire." Korin hauled Moriel up by the arm and pointed
him at Tobin. "This is Prince Tobin. And since you can't
distinguish between a squire and a prince, we'd best leave the job to
someone who can." Moriel's
pale face went pink. Those at the table close enough to hear the
exchange burst out laughing. Moriel redirected his bow awkwardly to
Tobin. "My apologies, Prince Tobin, I— That is, I couldn't
tell— The others
were staring at them now, nobles and servants alike. Tobin smiled at
the mortified youth. "That's all right, Sir Moriel. My squire
and I are equally dusty." This earned
him another laugh from the others, but Moriel only colored more
deeply. 'My
Companions and friends," said Korin. "I present to you my
beloved cousin, Prince Tobin of Ero, who's come to join us at last."
Everyone rose and bowed. "And his squire, Sir Ki of—" 'Now, I
think you know better than that, my lord," a deep voice rumbled
behind them. A heavy-set man with a long grey mane of hair stepped
onto the balcony and gave Prince Korin a wry look. His short plain
robe and wide belt were not the clothes of a noble, but every boy
except Korin bowed to him. 'Your
father charged Lord Orun with the choice of a squire for Prince
Tobin, I believe," he said. 'But as you
see, Master Porion, Tobin already has a squire, and one bonded to him
by his father," Korin told him. This was
the royal arms master Tharin had spoken so well of. Korin may not
have bowed to him, Tobin noted, but he spoke to the man with a
respect he hadn't shown to Orun. 'So I've
heard. Lord Orun's just been round to my rooms with word of him."
Porion sized up Ki. "Country bred, are you?" 'Yes, sir." 'I don't
suppose you're familiar with court life, or the city?" 'I know
Ero. A bit." Some of the
Companions snickered at this and Moriel began to puff up again. Porion
addressed both boys. "Tell me, what is the highest duty of a
squire? Moriel?" The boy
hesitated. "To serve his lord in any fashion required." Porion
nodded approvingly. "Ki, your answer?" Ki set his
hand on his sword hilt. "To lay down his life for his lord, Arms
Master. To be his warrior." 'Both
worthy answers." Porion pulled a golden badge of office from the
neck of his robe and let it fall on his chest with a thump. Grasping
it, he stood a moment in thought. "As Master of the Royal
Companions, I have the right to judge this in the king's absence.
According to the ancient laws and customs, the bond contracted
between the fathers of Prince Tobin and Squire—" He leaned
over to Ki and whispered loudly, "What's your name again, boy? —and
his squire Kirothius, son of Larenth of Oak-mount, is a sacred one
before Sakor and must be recognized. Ki's place in the Companions
must stand until such time as the king says otherwise. Don't take it
hard, Moriel. No one knew when they chose you." 'May I
withdraw, Your Highness?" Moriel asked. Korin
nodded and the boy turned away. Tobin saw him cast a poisonous glance
in Ki's direction as he stalked from the chamber. 'Have you a
title, boy?" Porion asked Ki. 'No,
Swordmaster." 'No title!"
Korin exclaimed. "Well, that won't do for a prince of Skala, to
be served so! Tanil, my sword." One of the
young men at the squire's table hurried forward with a handsome
blade. "Kneel and be knighted," he ordered Ki. The other
squires cheered and pounded the table with their footed drinking
cups. Tobin was
delighted but Ki hesitated, shooting him a strange, questioning look. Tobin
nodded. "You'll be a knight." Ki bowed
his head and knelt. Korin touched him on the shoulders and both
cheeks with the flat of his blade. "Rise, Sir Ki—what was
it? Kirothius, Knight of Ero, Companion of the Prince Royal. There.
Done!" Korin tossed the sword back to his squire and the rest of
the table pounded their cups. Ki rose and
looked around uncertainly. "I'm a knight now?" 'You are."
Porion clapped him on the shoulders. "Welcome your little
brother, squires. Give him a full mazer and a good place among you."
This brought on another round of cup banging. With a last
doubtful look over his shoulder at Tobin, Ki went to join the others. Korin
brought Tobin to the long table and set him in a fine carved chair on
his right. The feast was long over, the cloth covered with rinds,
bones, and nutshells, but fresh trenchers and bowls had been set
ready for him. 'And now
you must meet your new brothers," Korin announced. "I won't
trouble you with everyone's lineage tonight. This is Caliel."
Korin ruffled the hair of the handsome fair-skinned youth on his
left. "This great red bear with the scruffy chin next to him is
our old man, Zusthra. Then we have Alben, Orneus, Urmanis, Quirion,
Nikides, and little Lutha, the baby until your arrival." Each boy
rose and clasped hands with Tobin, greeting him with varying degrees
of interest and warmth. There was something odd in their handclasps.
It took him a moment to realize that it was the smoothness of their
palms. Lutha's
smile was the broadest. "Welcome, Prince Tobin. You make our
number even again for drills." He had a sharp face that put
Tobin in mind of a mouse, and his brown eyes were friendly. The feast
resumed. Korin was lord of the table and everyone deferred to him as
if he were lord of the castle. With the exception of Zusthra, no one
at the table looked to be any older than Korin, but all went on as if
they ruled great estates of their own already, talking of horses,
crops, and battles. They drank wine like men, too. Prince Korin's
mazer was always in his hand and a butler always at his shoulder.
Master Porion had taken a place at the far end of the table and
seemed to be watching the prince without looking at him too often. The rest in
the company were the children of Skalan nobility and foreign
dignitaries. The young men and boys wore elaborate tunics and jeweled
daggers and rings. The dozen or so girls at the table wore gowns
decorated with wide bands of embroidery, and strands of ribbon or
jewels twisted into their hair under gauzy veils. Tobin couldn't keep
track of all the names and titles. He did sit forward and take note,
however, when a dark-haired boy was introduced as an Aurenfaie from
Gedre. Tobin had over looked him before, for he was dressed like the
rest, and wore no sen'gai. 'Gedre?
You're Aurenfaie?" 'Yes. I'm
Arengil i Maren Ortheil Solun Gedre, son of
the Gedre Khirnari. Welcome, Prince Tobin i
Rhius." One of the
older girls leaned in beside Tobin, resting an arm across the back of
his chair. She had thick auburn hair and a mix of freckles and
pimples across her sharp chin. Tobin struggled to recall her name.
Aliya something, a duke's daughter. Her green gown was embroidered
with pearls and showed the first hint of a womanly form. "The
'faie love their long, fancy names," she said with a smirk.
"I'll bet you a sester you can't guess Ari's age." Everyone
groaned, including Korin. "Aliya, let him be!" She pouted
at him. "Oh, let him guess. He's probably never even seen a
'faie before." The
Aurenfaie boy sighed and rested his chin on one hand. "Go on,"
he offered. Tobin had
seen a few 'faie, and learned a great deal more from his father and
Arkoniel. This boy looked to be about Ki's age. "Twenty-nine?"
he guessed. Ari's
eyebrows flew up. "Twenty-five, but that's closer than most get
it." Everyone
laughed as Aliya slapped a coin down in front of Tobin's trencher and
flounced away. 'Don't mind
her," chuckled Korin, quite drunk now. "She's gone sour
ever since her brother went to Mycena." He sighed and waved a
hand around at the company. "So have we all. All the older boys
are gone except for me and those unfortunate enough to be my
Companions. We'd all be in the field now if there were a second heir
to take my place. It would be different if my brothers and sisters
had lived." He took a long swig from his mazer, then scowled
unhappily at Tobin over the rim. "Why, if my sisters had lived,
Skala could have her queen back as the moon priests would have it,
but all they have is me. So I have to stay wrapped in silk here,
safely kept by to rule." Korin slumped back in his chair,
staring morosely into his cup. "An heir to spare, that's what
we're lacking. A spare heir—" 'We've all
heard that one, Korin," Caliel chided, nudging the prince.
"Maybe we should tell him about the palace ghosts instead?" 'Ghosts?"
Korin brightened at this. "By the Four, we have buckets of them!
Half of 'em are Grandmama Ag-nalain's old consorts she poisoned or
beheaded. Isn't that so, squires?" The squires
chorused their agreement and Tobin saw Ki's eyes widen a bit. 'And the
old mad queen herself," Zusthra added, scratching sagely at his
thin, coppery beard. "She wanders the corridors at night in her
armor. You can hear the drag of her bad leg as she goes up and down,
looking for traitors. She's been known to grab up grown men and carry
them to the torture chambers beneath the Palace, where she locks them
up in her rusty old cages to starve." 'What of
that ghost of yours, cousin—" Korin began, but Porion
cleared his throat. 'Your
Highness, Prince Tobin has had a weary journey today. You shouldn't
keep him so late, his first night here." Korin
leaned close to Tobin. His breath was sour with wine and his words
were slurred. "Poor coz! Would you? Would you like to find your
bed? You're in my dead brother's room, you know. There might be
ghosts, there, too, but you shouldn't mind that. Elarin was a sweet
lad—" Porion was
behind Korin's chair now, slipping a hand under his arm. "My
prince," he murmured. Korin
glanced up at him, then turned back to Tobin with a charming smile
that made him look almost sober. "Sleep well, then." Tobin rose
and took his leave, glad to escape this crowd of drunken strangers. The
stiff-backed servant appeared with Ki on his heels and conducted them
back to their room. Porion walked with them as far as their door. 'You
mustn't judge the prince by what you saw tonight, Prince Tobin,"
he said sadly. "He's a good lad and a great warrior. That's the
problem, you see. It weighs heavily on him, not being allowed to go
to war now that he's of age. As he said, it's a hard thing being the
sole heir to the throne when his father will declare no second. Such
feasts as these—" He cast a disgusted look back toward the
hall. "It's his father's absence. Well, when he's fresh tomorrow
he'll make you a better welcome. You're to be presented to Lord
Chancellor Hylus at the audience chamber in the morning. Come out to
the training grounds after that so I can have a look at your skills
and equipage. I understand you have no proper armor." 'No." 'I'll see
to that. Rest well, my prince, and welcome. I'd like to say, too,
that I remember your father as a fine man and a great warrior. I
mourn your loss." 'Thank you,
Arms Master," said Tobin. "And thank you for keeping Ki as
my squire." Porion gave
him a wink. "An old friend of yours had a word with me, just
after you arrived." Tobin gave
him a blank look, then laughed. "Tharin?" Porion held
a finger to his lips, but nodded. "I don't know what Orun was
thinking. A father's choice of squire can't be put aside like that." 'Then it
wasn't my answer?" asked Ki, a little crestfallen. 'You were
both right," Porion replied. "And you might try to smooth
Moriel's feathers if you get the chance. He knows the Palatine and
the city. Good night, boys, and welcome." Servants
had lit a dozen lamps around the room and carried in a copper tub
full of hot scented water. A young page stood by the bed and a young
man stood ready with brushes and sheets, apparently waiting to bathe
Tobin. He sent
both servants away, then stripped off and slid into the bath with a
happy groan. Hot baths had been a rare occurrence at the keep. He was
nearly asleep with his nose just above the water's surface when he
heard Ki let out a cackle across the room. 'No wonder
Model had his nose out of joint," he called, holding back the
curtains of the wall bed. All the fine bedding was gone. "He
must have had himself all moved in anticipation of your majesty's
arrival. All he's left me is a bare straw tick. And, by the smell, he
pissed on it as a parting remembrance, the little bastard!" Tobin sat
up and wrapped his arms around his knees. It hadn't occurred to him
that they'd sleep apart, much less in such a cavern of a room. 'Sure is a
big room," Ki muttered, looking around. Tobin
grinned, guessing his friend was having similar doubts. "Big
bed, too. Plenty of room for two." 'I'd say
so. I'll go unpack Your Highness' bags," Ki said, chuckling. Tobin was
about to settle back in the tub when he remembered the doll hidden in
the bottom of the chest. 'No!" Ki snorted.
"It's my duty, Tob. Let me do it." 'It can
wait. The water will get cold if you don't get in now. Come on, your
turn." Tobin
splashed out of the tub and wrapped himself in one of the sheets. Ki eyed him
suspiciously. "You're as fussy as Nari all of a sudden. Then
again—" He sniffed comically at his armpits. "I do
stink." As soon as
Ki had taken his place in the tub Tobin hurried into the dressing
room and flung open the chest. 'I said I'd
do that!" Ki hollered. 'I need a
shirt." Tobin pulled on a clean one, then dug out the flour sack
and looked around for a safe hiding place. A painted wardrobe and
several chests stood against one wall. On the other side was a tall
cupboard that reached almost to the ceiling. By opening the doors, he
could use the shelves inside as a creaking, cracking ladder. There
was just enough space at the top to hide the bag. That would do for
now. Climbing
back down, he had just time enough to shut the doors and brush the
cobwebs off his shirt before Ki sauntered in wrapped in a sheet. 'What are
you doing in here, taking the roof off?" 'Just
exploring." Ki eyed him
again, then looked nervously over his shoulder. "Do you think
there are really ghosts here?" Tobin
walked back into the bedchamber. "If there are, then they're my
kin, like Brother. You're not afraid of him anymore, are you?" Ki
shrugged, then thrust his arms up and yawned until his jaws creaked,
letting the sheet slide to the floor. "We better get some sleep.
Once Master Porion gets a hold of us tomorrow, I'm betting he doesn't
let us stand still long enough to cast a shadow." 'I like
him." Ki flung
back the black hangings on the bed and launched himself into a
somersault across the velvet counterpane. "I didn't say I
didn't. I just think he's going to work us as hard as Tharin ever
did. That's what the other squires say, anyway." Tobin did a
back flip of his own and landed beside his friend. 'What are
they like?" 'The other
squires? Hard to say yet. They were mostly drunk and they didn't say
much to me, except for Korin's squire, Tanil. He's a duke's first son
and seems a nice enough fellow. So does Barieus, squire to that
little fellow who looks like a rat." 'Lutha." 'That's the
one." 'But not
the others?" Ki
shrugged. "Too soon to say, I guess. All the others are the
second or third sons of high lords—" It was too
dark inside the hangings to make out his friend's expression, but
there was something troubling in his tone. 'Well,
you're a knight now. And I'm going to have you made a lord as soon as
I can and give you an estate," Tobin told him. "I've been
thinking about it all day. Arkoniel says I'll have to wait until I'm
of age, but I don't want to wait that long. When the king comes back
I'm going to ask him how I can do it." Ki rose up
on one elbow and stared down at him. "You'd do that, wouldn't
you? Just like that." 'Well, of
course!" Tobin grinned up at him. "Just try not to breed so
much that your grandchildren end up sleeping in a heap on the floor
again." Ki lay back
and folded his hands behind his head. "I don't know. From what I
saw back home, breeding is great fun. And I saw some pretty girls at
that banquet tonight! That one in the green dress? I wouldn't mind
having a look under her skirts, would you?" 'Ki!" Ki shrugged
and stroked his faint moustache, smiling to himself. He was soon
snoring, but Tobin lay awake for some time, listening to the ongoing
revels echoing outside the window. He'd never seen anyone drunk at
the keep. It made him nervous. This wasn't
what he'd looked for, all those years staring down the Alestun road.
He was a warrior, not a courtier, drinking wine half the night in
fancy clothes. With girls! He frowned
over at Ki's peaceful profile. The soft down covering his cheeks
caught the faint light coming in through the hangings. Tobin rubbed
at his own smooth cheeks and sighed.. He and Ki were the same height,
but his shoulders were still narrow and his skin still bare of the
spots and stray hairs that Ki was developing. He tossed a while
longer, then realized that he'd forgotten all about Brother. Barely
moving his lips, he whispered the words. Brother appeared crouching
on the end of the bed, face as inscrutable as ever. 'You
mustn't go wandering about," he told him. "Stay close and
do as I ask. It isn't safe here." To his
amazement, Brother nodded. Crawling slowly up the bed, he touched
Tobin's chest, then his own, and settled back at the end of the bed. Tobin lay
back and yawned. It was comforting having someone else from home
here, even if it was only a ghost. J't't't't.
the New Palace, in a wing adjoining the king's own now-empty rooms,
the wizard Niryn stirred in his sleep, disturbed by a half-formed
image that would not quite take shape. ,'"T"<obin
woke at sunrise and lay listening to the new -L morning sounds
outside. He could hear crowds of people laughing and talking and
whispering loudly just outside the door. From the open balcony came
the sounds of riders and birds, splashing water, and the distant
cacophony of the waking city. Even here, the scent of flowers and
pines could not mask the rising stink of the place carried in on the
warm sea breeze. Had it really only been a day ago that he'd woken in
his own bed? He sighed and shook off the wave of homesickness that
threatened to overwhelm him. Ki was a
softly snoring lump on the far side of the bed. Tobin tossed a pillow
at him, then rolled out between the heavy curtains and went to have a
look outside. It was
another clear summer day. From here he could see over the Palatine
wall to the southern city and the sea. It was incredible. With the
mist rising off the water and the sun slanting low as it rose, it was
hard to tell where the sky stopped and the sea began. In the wash of
dawn, Ero appeared to be made of fire, trees and all. Outside his
window, a colorful garden stretched away to the belt of elms he'd
ridden past the night before. There were already servants at work
with shears and baskets, like bees in the meadow at home. To either
side he could see other balconies, pillars, and the jut of tiled
roofs with fancy cornices and bits of sculpture on top. 'I bet we
could go all the way from the Old Palace to the New over the roofs,"
Ki said, coming up behind him. 'You can,"
a girl's voice agreed, seeming to come from the air over their heads. Both boys
whirled and looked up just in time to see a dark-haired blur of
motion disappear beyond the eaves above their balcony. Only the
rapidly fading scuffle of feet over tiles betrayed their visitor's
retreat. 'Who was
that?" laughed Ki, looking for a way to follow. Before they
could find an easy way up, a young manservant came in, followed by an
entourage of others laden with clothes and packages. He went to the
bed, then spied them on the balcony and bowed deeply. 'Good
morning, my prince. I am to be your manservant at the Palace. My name
is Molay. And these—" He indicated the line of laden
servants behind him. "They all come bearing gifts from your
noble kin and admirers." The
servants came forward in turn, presenting handsome robes and tunics,
under robes, fine shirts and trousers, soft velvet hats, jewels in
delicate caskets, ornate swords and knives, and colorful belts, two
matched hounds who cringed and growled at Tobin when he tried to pet
them, and a pretty falcon with golden ornaments on her plumed hood
and jesses from Prince Korin. There were boxes of sweets, caskets of
incense, even baskets of bread and flowers. Among the jewels he found
an earring from the prince similar to the one Korin wore and a ring
from Lord Orun. Best of all, however, were the two shirts of shining,
supple mail sent by Porion from the Royal Armory. 'At last,
one that fits!" Ki exclaimed, throwing one over his nightshirt. 'It is
customary when a new Companion arrives in the city," Molay
explained, seeing Tobin's consternation. "Perhaps I might assist
you in such matters?" 'Yes,
please!" 'Your
Highness must of course wear first the suit of clothes sent by Lord
Chancellor Hylus for your audience with him this morning. I see he
has had it done in black, out of respect for your loss— But I
see you have no mourning ring!" 'No. I
didn't know how to get one." "I shall call in a jeweler for
you, my prince. For now, you might wear this jewel from the Prince
Royal, and of course this ring from your guardian. And then each gift
in turn according to the rank of the giver." 'I thought
I heard voices!" Korin strode out of the dressing room with
Caliel. Both wore fighting leathers with fantastically elaborate
raised work and metal fittings. Tobin wondered how they could move
properly in such a costume, or how they'd dare risk damaging it. 'There's a
connecting door between our rooms," Korin explained, taking
Tobin to the back of the dressing room and showing him where a small
panel swung back on a short dusty passage. At the far end he had a
glimpse of gold and red hangings and a pack of hounds watching
expectantly for their master's return. "It only opens from my
side, but if you knock I can let you through." They went
back to Tobin's chamber to inspect the jumble of gifts. "Not a
bad haul, coz. I'm glad to see you've been shown the proper respect
even though no one knows you yet. Do you like my hawk?" 'Very
much!" Tobin exclaimed, though in truth he was a little afraid
of her. "Will you show me how to hunt with her?" 'Will he?
It's all he wants to do, besides sword fighting," Caliel
exclaimed, stroking the falcon's smooth wings. "Gladly, but
Caliel's our best falconer," Korin demurred modestly. "He
has some Aurenfaie blood, you know." 'Her name
is Erizhal," Caliel told Tobin. "It's 'faie for 'arrow of
the sun.' The royal falconer will keep her in good trim for you.
We'll have to bring Ari along, too. He's got a wizard's touch with
hawks." With the
help of the older boys, Tobin sorted through the gifts. Those sent by
lesser nobles were by custom passed to his squire, so Ki came out of
it quite well, too. Korin drew up a list of proper return gifts and
Tobin used his father's seal to authorize the deliveries. 'There, now
you're a true Ero noble," laughed Korin. "To be one, you
must spend exorbitant amounts of money and drink exorbitant amounts
of wine. We'll get to the wine later." The sun was
well up by the time they'd finished. Korin and Caliel went back the
way they'd come, promising to meet Tobin on the training field later. Molay
helped the boys dress, and by the time he'd finished they hardly
recognized each other. Tobin's robe from Chancellor Hylus was of fine
black wool split at the front, cut slim in the waist and embroidered
in red and golden silk with the Dragon of Skala on the breast and the
hems. The oversleeves were cut full to show off the sleeves of the
red under robe. When he'd put on shoes of soft red leather and the
first jewels he'd ever worn, he hardly felt like himself at all. As
for Ki, he looked like a dapper fox in russet and green. Standing at
the polished bronze mirror together, they both burst out laughing.
Molay offered them each a new sword, but they kept the plain,
serviceable blades Tobin's father had given them, accepting no other. Ctt folay
was very pleased with them, and fussed over the trimming of their
hair and nails as much as Nari ever had. When he was satisfied, he
sent the young page scampering off for their escort. To Tobin's
considerable disappointment, this proved to be not Tharin, but Lord
Orun. He was more resplendent than ever, in shimmering silken robes
of sunbird gold, with a black and gold hood of office over his
shoulders. A jeweled triangle of heavy black velvet covered his bald
head. He paused
in the doorway and raised an approving eyebrow. "Well, now you
do look like a young prince, Your
Highness. Ah, and I see you received my token. I hope it pleases
you?" 'Thank you,
my lord. It was most generous of you," Tobin said, holding out
his hand to show off the ring. After the incident with Moriel last
night, and what Korin had said, he was glad to be able to please his
guardian a little today. The
audience chamber was in the New Palace, far enough away that they
found their horses saddled and ready for them as they came out of the
palace gate. Ki made a show of checking the saddles before Tobin
mounted, and rode at Tobin's left as Tharin had taught him. The New
Palace dwarfed the Old in both size and grandeur. Many of its
pillared courtyards stood open to the sky and had splashing fountains
to make music through the corridors beyond. Windows with panes of
colored glass cast patterns on the marble floors, and shrines as tall
as the keep tower filled the palace with their incense. The
audience chamber was equal in scale to all the rest. The vaulted
white stone roof was held aloft by ranks of pillars carved with
twisting dragons. The huge
chamber was filled with people in clothing of every sort, from rags
to fine robes. There were Aurenfaie in white tunics and jewels and
sen'gai of every color, and other foreigners Tobin did not recognize
at all—people in blue tunics that billowed like tents around
them, and men in brightly striped robes with skin the color of dark
tea and curly black hair like Lhel's. Some stood
in intent knots, speaking in hushed, rapid voices. Others lounged at
their leisure on couches or on the edges of the great fountains,
toying with their hawks or the hounds and spotted cats they led on
chains. At the far
end of the chamber a beautiful golden throne stood on a wide dais,
but no one sat there. A cape bearing the king's crest was draped over
it and a crown had been placed on the seat. Two men sat
in lower chairs before it. The older of the pair was listening to
each petitioner in turn, just as Tobin's father had in the hall at
the keep. He had a short white beard, a number of heavy gold chains
and seals around his neck, and wore long black robes and a hat like a
red velvet pancake on his head. 'That is
Lord Chancellor Hylus, the King's Regent," Orun told him as they
approached. "He is a distant kinsman of yours." 'And the
other?" asked Tobin, though he'd already guessed. The other
man was much younger, with jasper-colored eyes and a forked beard
that shone coppery red in the sunlight. But all Tobin saw at first
were his robes. They were white as sunlit snow, with sweeping designs
over the shoulders and skirts picked out in glittering silver thread.
This was one of the Harriers that Arkoniel had warned him about. He'd
been sure to send Brother away last night, but he looked around
quickly just to be sure. 'That is
the King's Wizard, Lord Niryn," said Orun, and Tobin's heart
skipped a beat. This was not only a Harrier, but the
Harrier. He feared
that they'd spend the whole morning waiting their turn, but Lord Orun
led them right up to the front and bowed to Hylus. Tobin had
thought that the Lord Chancellor Hylus had a harsh face, for he'd
been dealing sternly with a baker accused of selling underweight
loaves when they approached. As soon as Orun introduced Tobin,
however, the old man's face softened into a warm smile. He held out
his hand and Tobin climbed the steps to join him. 'It's as if
I see your dear mother looking at me out of your eyes!" he
exclaimed, clasping Tobin's hand between ones that felt like they
were made of bones and thin leather. "And her grandmother, too.
Most extraordinary. You must dine with me soon, dear boy, and I will
tell you stories of them. You'll have met my grandson Nikides among
the Companions?" 'I'm sure,
my lord." Tobin thought he remembered the name, but couldn't
summon a face to go with it. There had been so many last night. The
chancellor appeared pleased. "I'm sure he'll be a good friend to
you. Have they given you a squire?" Tobin
introduced Ki, still standing with Orun below. Hylus squinted down at
him for a moment. "Sir Larenth? I don't know that name. This is
a fine-looking young fellow, though. Welcome to you both." He
looked at Tobin a moment longer, then turned to the man beside him.
"And allow me to present your uncle's wizard, Lord Niryn." Tobin's
heart knocked against his ribs again as he acknowledged Niryn's bow.
Yet it was Arkoniel's warning that made his heart race rather than
anything in the man's appearance, for Niryn was a perfectly ordinary
looking man. The wizard inquired politely about his journey and his
home, spoke kindly of his parents, then asked, "Do you enjoy
seeing magic, my prince?" 'No,"
Tobin said quickly. Arkoniel had done his best to interest him in
tricks and visions—Ki loved anything of the sort—but
Tobin still found most of it disconcerting. He didn't want to give
this stranger any encouragement. The wizard
didn't seem insulted. "I remember the night of your birth,
Prince Tobin. You did not have this mark on your chin then. But there
was another, I think?" 'It's a
scar. You're thinking of my wisdom mark." 'Ah yes.
Curious things, such- marks. May I see how it has developed? I have
made a study of such things." Tobin
pushed back his sleeve and showed Niryn and Hylus the red mark. Nari
called it a rosebud, but to him it looked like a grouse's heart. Niryn
covered it with the tips of two fingers. His expression did not
change, but Tobin felt an unpleasant tingle pass through his skin and
saw the man's jasper eyes go hard and distant for an instant, just
the way Arkoniel's did when he made magic. But Arkoniel had never
done any magic on him without first asking permission. Shocked,
Tobin pulled away. "Don't be rude, sir!" Niryn
bowed. "My apologies, my prince. I was merely reading the mark.
It does indeed denote great wisdom. You are most fortunate." 'He did say
he does not like tricks," murmured Hylus, looking displeased
with the wizard. "His mother was much the same at that age." 'My
apologies," Niryn said again. "I hope you will allow me to
redeem myself another day, Prince Tobin." 'If you
wish, my lord." For once Tobin was grateful when Orun loomed up
behind him to shepherd him away. When he was sure they were out of
sight of the dais he pushed his sleeve back and looked at his
birthmark, wondering if Niryn had done anything to it. But it seemed
just the same. at went
well enough, I suppose," Orun sniffed as he escorted them back
to their room. "You would do better to be civil to Niryn,
though. He's a powerful man." Tobin
wondered angrily if any of the powerful men in Ero were pleasant.
Orun left them with a promise to feast with Tobin in a few days and
went on his way. Ki made a
face at Orun's back, then turned to Tobin with concern. "Did the
wizard hurt you?" 'No. I just
don't like to be pawed at." Molay had
laid out a pair of fine leather jerkins for them, similar to those
Korin and Caliel had worn, but they were far too stiff and fancy for
Tobin's taste. Instead, he
sent Ki to find the worn leathers they'd brought with them from home.
Molay was clearly dismayed at the thought of Tobin wearing such plain
garb but Tobin happily ignored him, glad to be back in comfortable
old clothes again. Gathering up their swords, helms, and bows, he and
Ki followed the waiting page to the main entrance. So happy
was he to finally be doing something war-riorlike, he didn't notice
the odd looks they were attracting until Ki tugged on his sleeve and
tilted his chin at two robed noblemen staring at them disapprovingly. 'I should
be carrying your gear," Ki muttered. "They must think we're
a couple of peasant soldiers who wandered in from the street!" The page
heard him. Throwing his shoulders back, he cried out in a ringing
voice, "Make way for His Highness, Prince Tobin of Ero!" The words
worked like magic. All the muttering, glittering nobles parted and
bowed to Tobin and Ki as they strode past in their dusty shoes and
scarred leathers. Tobin tried to copy Lord Orun's haughty nod, but
Ki's smothered snort behind him probably spoiled the effect. At the
palace entrance the page stepped aside and bowed deeply, though not
quickly enough to hide his own grin. 'What's
your name?" asked Tobin. 'Baldus, my
prince." 'Well done,
Baldus." %,'he
Companions trained on a broad stretch of open land near the center of
the Palatine. There were riding grounds, sword fighting rings,
archery lists, stables, and a high stone Temple of the Four, which
the boys ran to each morning to make sacrifice to Sakor. The
Companions and their squires were shooting in the archery lists when
Tobin and Ki arrived. Even at a distance, Tobin could see that all of
them wore fine clothes like Korin's. There were scores of other
people around the field, as well. Tobin recognized some of the guests
from the banquet last night, though he could recall few names. Many
of the girls were there, too, in bright gowns and light capes of silk
that fluttered in the morning breeze like butterfly wings. Some rode
their palfreys around the perimeter. Others were shooting at targets
or flying their hawks. Ki's eyes followed them, and Tobin suspected
he was looking for auburn-haired Aliya. Master
Porion didn't seem to mind how they were dressed. 'From the
looks of your leathers, you've been practicing with bears and
wildcats!" he said. "The others are at their shooting, so
you may as well begin there." Korin might
be lord of the mess table, but Porion was master here. At his
approach all eighteen boys turned and made him a respectful salute,
fist to heart. A few also raised their hands to smother smirks at the
sight of Tobin and Ki's leathers. Someone in the crowd watching the
Companions laughed aloud and Tobin thought he caught a glimpse of
Moriel's pale head. The
Companions' practice jerkins were as ornate as their banquet garb,
worked with raised patterns and colors to show hunting or battle
scenes. Fancy gold and silver work glittered on scabbards and
quivers. Tobin felt dull as a cowbird by comparison. Even the squires
were better turned out than he was. Remember
whose son you are, he thought, and squared his shoulders. 'Today you
become a Royal Companion in earnest," Porion told him. "I
know I don't have to teach you of honor; I know whose son you are.
Here I charge you to add to it the Companion's Rule: Stand together.
We stand for the Prince Royal, and we stand with him for the king and
Skala. We don't fight among ourselves. If you have a grievance with
one of your fellows, you bring it to the circle." He pointed to
the stone outline of the sword fighting ground. "Words are met
with words and judged by me. Blows are exchanged only here. To strike
another Companion is a serious offense, punishable by flogging on the
Temple steps. A Companion who breaks the rule is punished by Korin, a
squire by his own lord. Isn't that so, Arms?" One of the
squires who'd smirked at Tobin's jerkin gave the arms master a
sheepish nod. 'But I
don't imagine that will be a problem with you two. Come on and let's
see how you shoot." As Tobin
stepped up to the lists, he began to feel a little steadier. After
all, these were the same sort of targets he'd trained on at home:
bulls and wands and straw-filled sacks for straight shots, and clouts
tossed out for arching. Tobin checked his string and the breeze as
he'd been taught, then set his feet well apart and nocked one of
Koni's fine new arrows to the string. The king vanes were made from
striped owl feathers he'd found in the forest one day. A puff of
wind across the field carried his first shaft wild, but the next four
found their marks on the bull, all striking close inside the center
ring. He shot five more at the sack, and then managed to hit three of
the five wands set in the ground. He'd shot better, but when he was
done the others cheered him and clapped him on the shoulders. Ki took his
place and pulled just as well. They moved
on to the sword ground next, and Tobin was paired with plump,
sandy-haired Nikides, the lord chancellor's kinsman. He was older
than Lutha, but closer to Tobin in height. His steel helm was
burnished like silver and had fancy bronze work around the rim and
down the nasal, but there was something unsure in his stance. Tobin
clapped on his own plain helmet and stepped into the circle to face
him. As they saluted each other with their wooden practice blades,
Tobin's first bout with Ki came back to him. A new opponent wouldn't
catch him off guard this time. Porion set
them no slow drills or forms, just raised his own sword, then dropped
it with the cry, "Have at it, boys!" Tobin
lunged forward and got past Nikides' guard with surprising ease. He
expected a swift reprisal, but Nikides proved to be clumsy and slow.
Within a few minutes Tobin had driven him to the edge of the circle, knocked his
sword from his hand, and scored a killing thrust to the belly. 'Well
fought, Prince Tobin," the boy mumbled, clasping hands with him.
Tobin noted again how soft his palm was, compared to the warriors
he'd grown up among. 'Let's try
you with someone a bit tougher," Porion said, and called Quirion
into the ring. He was fourteen, a hand taller than Nikides, and
leaner built. He was left-handed, too, but Tharin had made Tobin
practice with Ma-nies and Aladar back home so this didn't throw him.
He shifted his weight to accommodate the difference and met Quirion's
opening attack solidly. This boy was a better fighter than Nikides
and scored a bruising blow on Tobin's thigh. Tobin quickly recovered
and got his blade under Quirion's, forced it up, then gutted him. Ki
hooted triumphantly outside the circle. This time
Porion said nothing, just motioned Lutha into the ring. Lutha was
smaller than Tobin, but he was sharp-eyed, quick, and had the
advantage of having watched Tobin fight. Tobin soon found himself
being pushed, and had to turn to keep from being forced past the
stone perimeter. Lutha grinned as he fought, and Tobin could almost
hear Tharin's voice saying a real warrior, this
little one. Tobin
rallied and beat him back, raining blows down at his head that Lutha
had no choice but to fend off. Tobin was dimly aware of the cheering
around them, but all he could see was the bowed figure before him,
boldly facing him down. He was sure Lutha was about to fall back when
his own blade shattered. Lutha sprang at him and Tobin had to dodge
sideways to avoid a killing swing. Using one of the tricks Ki's
sister had shown them, he checked his own rush and took advantage of
Lutha's overbalanced stance to trip him up. Much to his surprise, it
worked, and Lutha went sprawling on his belly. Leaping on the boy's
back before he could recover, Tobin got an arm around his neck and
pretended to cut his throat with his broken sword. 'You can't
do that!" Caliel protested. 'You can if
you know how," said Porion. Tobin
climbed off Lutha and helped him up. 'Who taught
you that move?" the boy asked, dusting himself off. 'Ki's
sister." The
statement was met with resounding silence. Tobin saw a mix of
disbelief and derision in many of the faces of the onlookers outside
the circle. 'A girl?"
Alben sneered. 'She's a
warrior," Ki said, but no one seemed to hear him. Lutha
clasped hands with Tobin. "Well, it's a good one. You'll have to
teach it to me." 'Who's next
in the ring with our mountain wildcat?" asked Porion. "Come
on, he's whipped three of you. No, not you Zusthra. You know you're
too big for him. Same for you, Caliel. Alben, I haven't heard much
from you yet today." Alben was
fourteen, tall, and dark, with a sulky mouth and shining blue-black
hair that he wore in a long tail down his back. He made a show of
knotting this up behind his neck, then ambled into the ring to face
Tobin. Many of the girls in the crowd pushed forward to watch, Aliya
and her friends among them. 'None of
your tricks now, Prince Wildcat," he murmured, twirling his
wooden blade from hand to hand like a juggler's stick. Distrustful
of such showy moves, Tobin took a step back and assumed the salute
position. With a sly, knowing nod, Alben did the same. When they
fought, all the showiness disappeared. Alben fought like Lutha, hard
and skillfully, with more height and strength behind it. Already
tired from the previous bouts, Tobin was hard pressed to keep up his
guard, much less
press an attack. His arms ached and his leg hurt where Quirion had
struck him. If he'd been at practice with Tharin, he might have
given, or called truce. Instead, he thought of the sneering way this
boy had spoken of Ki's sister and threw himself into the fight. Alben
fought rough, butting him with his shoulders and head whenever he saw
an opening. But Tobin was no stranger to this sort of
rough-and-tumble, thanks to Ki, and responded in kind. He began to
think it might be in fun after all, that he and Alben had found a way
to make friends, but the look on the older boy's face told him
otherwise. He didn't like being matched by a younger boy, or at least
not by Tobin. Tobin gave rein to his own anger again. When Alben
caught him in the nose with his elbow, the pain only put the strength
back into him and he laughed aloud as he felt the shock of his blade
against the other boy's. Sakor's
luck was still with him, or maybe the gods hated a sneerer that day,
for he was able to trip up Alben with the very same trick he'd used
on Lutha. Alben went down on his back with the wind knocked out of
him. Tobin sprang on him and put his sword to his heart. 'Do you
yield?" Alben
glared up at him but saw that he had no choice. "I yield." Tobin
withdrew and walked out of the circle to where Korin and Ki stood
with Porion. 'Our new
Companion's been bloodied," the arms master observed. Tobin
looked at him, then at the cloth Ki was holding out to him. 'Your nose,
Tobin. He scored one hit on you, anyway." Tobin took
the cloth and wiped at his bloody nose and chin. The sight of the
stained cloth brought back the fleeting fragment of a dream. You
see blood, you come here. He shook
his head as Korin and some of the others thumped his back and told
him what a fine swordsman he •was. This was an honorable
bloodying. Why -would he go running home for that? It had just been a
silly dream. 'Look at
you! Scarce half-grown and you've already taken down half the Royal
Companions," said Korin. He was clear-eyed today, and Tobin
found himself basking in the older boy's praise. "Who taught you
to fight so well, coz? Not Ki's sister, surely?" 'My father
and Sir Tharin were my teachers," he told him. "And Ki. We
practice together." 'When
you've rested a bit, would you two fight for us?" asked Porion. 'Certainly,
Arms Master." Ki fetched
him a mug of cider from a barrel nearby, and they watched Korin and
Caliel fight a practice match while Tobin rested. Lutha and Nikides
joined them with their squires, Barieus and Ruan. The others kept
their distance and watched the prince. After the praise from the
prince and Porion, it felt awkward to be standing apart. 'Did I do
something wrong?" Tobin asked Lutha. The other
boy looked down at his feet and shrugged. "Alben doesn't like to
be beaten." 'Neither
did you two." Lutha
shrugged again. 'Lutha will
beat you next time, now that he knows how you fight," said
Nikides. "Or maybe not, but he'll have a chance and he's always
good-hearted about it. I won't, though." 'You
might," Tobin told him, though he guessed the boy was right. 'No, not
against you," Nikides insisted, apparently unconcerned. "But
that's no matter. Not all of us are here because we're great
warriors, Prince Tobin." Before
Tobin could ask what Nikides meant, the older boys had finished their
match and Porion was calling them into the ring. 'All right,
then. Let's give 'em a proper show," Ki whispered happily. Putting
aside their wooden swords, they drew steel and fought, no holds
barred, using elbows and knees and butting helmets. They yelled their
war cries and fought until the dust rolled higher than their heads
and sweat soaked through their mail and jerkins. Steel rang on steel
as they battered at each other's guards and Ki came close to smashing
Tobin's sword hand. Tobin caught him a flat-bladed smack on the
helmet in return, but neither would give. For the space of the battle
nothing else mattered and Tobin lost himself in the familiarity of
the fight. They'd done this so often and were so well matched that
they eventually fought each other to a standstill and Porion called a
draw. They
stepped apart, panting and winded, and found themselves in the center
of a crowd of spectators. Many of Alben's female admirers were
watching them now. Ki noticed and nearly tripped over his own feet.
Aliya turned and said something to a slender blond girl beside her
and they both laughed. Behind them, a brunette closer to Tobin's age
stood watching him with dark, serious eyes. He didn't remember seeing
her before. She caught him looking and disappeared into the
surrounding crowd. 'By the
Flame!" Korin exclaimed. "You weren't joking when you said
you did nothing else back in your mountains but fight!" Not even
proud Alben could hang back in the face of Korin's obvious approval.
The pair was allowed to rest again, but both were in demand for the
rest of the afternoon among the younger Companions and squires. But not
against Prince Korin, Tobin noted. Korin fought only against Caliel
and Porion, and defeated both of them most of the time. Tobin was
glad not to have been paired against him. Alben had been hard enough
to defeat. Of all of them, however, he'd already set Lutha as his
main challenger. He was as slippery as Alben, but Tobin liked him a
good deal better. Ki was glad
that there was no great feast on their second night in Ero. Instead,
he began his regular duties at table in the Companion's mess. This
meal, eaten in a smaller hall, was conducted like any noble table. A
few musicians entertained them, and couriers from the king read out
dispatches and descriptions of the latest battles. Each squire
had his appointed role. Tanil served as carver of the meats in each
course, and Caliel's squire Mylirin as panter, with his four knives
for the different breads. These were the services of highest
distinction. Carol had
the alchemist's task of butler, mixing the wines and spices with
water. It could be a dangerous task; the butler must always "prove
by the mouth" to test the wine's quality and therefore was
usually the first to be poisoned if someone meant to kill the host.
According to Squire Ruan, Carol was more likely to kill the rest of
them by mixing the wine too strong. Orneus'
squire, a quiet, graceful boy nicknamed Lynx, was the mazer, whose
task it was to keep the footed cups filled with the appropriate wines
during each course. Ruan served as almoner, in charge of collecting
scraps to be sent out to the beggars at the Palatine gates. Ki and
the rest were sent off as ushers to carry in food from the kitchens,
with Zusthra's squire, Chylnir, as their captain. Unfortunately, this
left Ki at the mercy of his least sympathetic companions in arms. Even with
friendly Squire Barieus to help him, Ki was always one step behind or
forgetting something. The other ushers, Mago and Arius, were too busy
looking down their long noses at him to give him any help. Chylnir
had little patience with any of them. It hurt
Ki's pride to make such a poor showing for Tobin in front of the
others. He managed to upset two sauce basins that first night, and
nearly dumped a steaming swan's-neck pudding on Korin's head when
Mago bumped his elbow. He ended the evening splattered with grease
and plum sauce, then had to endure the snickers and smirks of the
others during the evening's hearth entertainments. Korin passed it
off graciously with a joke and Tobin was happily oblivious, clearly
not feeling dishonored in the least. Ki sat outside the circle of
firelight, feeling low-spirited and out of place. Cot abin
guessed that something was bothering Ki, but couldn't guess what it
might be. Tobin had been proud of him at table; he'd even gotten
praise from Prince Korin. Ki's mood
didn't seem to lighten any when Porion and the older boys began
telling more tales of the palace ghosts around the hearth that night,
elaborating on where the different apparitions were most likely to be
found. There were weeping maids and headless lovers at every turn, if
all the stories were to be believed, but the most fearsome ghost was
that of Mad Agnalain herself. 'Our
grandmother wanders these very halls," Korin said, sitting close
beside Tobin as he imparted the tale. "She has a golden crown on
her head, and blood runs down from it into her face and over her
gown—the blood of all the innocents she sent to the torture
chambers and gibbet and crow cages. She has a bloody sword in her
hand, and a golden girdle hung with the pricks of all the consorts
and lovers she took." 'How many
are there?" asked someone, and it sounded like an old question. 'Hundreds!"
everyone chorused. Judging by
the grins being exchanged among the younger boys, Tobin guessed that
this was a test to see if the new Companions would show fear. Tobin
had been in enough haunted places in his life to know the feel of
one; so far he hadn't sensed anything at all here at the Palace, or
even in the royal tombs among the dead. He stole
another glance at Ki, sprawled on the rushes at the edge of the
fire-lit circle. He was maintaining a carefully bored expression, but
Tobin thought he saw some uneasiness in his friend's eyes. Perhaps
living around Brother for so long hadn't cured him of his fears,
after all. As the
tales went on of floating heads and ghostly hands and unseen lips
that blew out lamps in the night, Tobin found he wasn't feeling all
that brave himself. By the time they went back to their huge, shadowy
room he was more glad than usual of Ki's company and for little
Baldus on his pallet by their door. 'Have you
ever seen a ghost here?" he asked when the other servants had
gone away for the night. Molay slept on a pallet outside their door
to keep guard. 'Oh, yes!
Lots," the boy said, sounding quite cheerful about it. Tobin
pulled the bed curtains tight, then exchanged a troubled look with
Ki. The bed might be large enough for a whole family, but they
settled down close enough to touch shoulders all the same. V,'hey were
awakened sometime later by ominous scuffling and clacking sounds that
came from all directions at once. 'Baldus,
what is that?" Tobin called out. Someone had put out all the
lamps. He couldn't see a thing. The noises
grew louder and surrounded the bed. Both boys lurched up onto their
knees, back to back. The
unnatural glow of lightstones broke in on them as dead white hands
yanked back the bed curtains. Tobin
choked back a cry of alarm. The room was filled with shaggy humped
figures that moaned and clacked long white bones together in their
hands as they marched around the bed. The cry
quickly turned to a muffled laugh. Even in this light, he recognized
Korin and Caliel beneath the black and white paint that covered their
faces. They had on long black cloaks and what appeared to be wigs
made out of frayed rope. The light came from several lightstones set
on long poles that some of the others carried. There were too many
for this to be only the Companions; looking more closely, he made out
some of the young noble boys and girls who hung about the training
grounds. Tobin could smell the wine on them, too. Baldus was crouched
on his pallet by the door, both hands pressed over his mouth, but he
looked to be shaking with laughter rather than fear. 'Are you
ghosts?" Tobin asked, trying hard to keep a straight face. 'We are the
ghosts of the Old Palace!" Caliel wailed. "You must prove
your worth, New Companion. You and your squire must enter the
forbidden chamber and sit on the throne of the mad queen." 'Very well.
Come on, Ki." Tobin slid out of bed and pulled on his discarded
trousers. Their
ghostly escort blindfolded them, then hoisted them up and carried
them for what felt like a long way to a cold, quiet place that
smelled of rot and the sea. When Tobin
was set on his feet and the blindfold pulled away, he found himself
standing beside Ki in a corridor similar to most they'd seen in the
Old Palace, except that this one had gone to ruin. The fish pool down
its center was empty and choked with dead leaves, and stars showed
through holes in the roof overhead. What murals remained on the
rain-washed walls were flaking and faded. Before them was a set of
doors similar to those at the front of the Palace, but these were
sheathed in gold and sealed with great plugs of lead pounded in
around their edges and struck with official-looking imprints. His captors
didn't look quite so silly in their robes and wigs here. 'This is
the old throne room, the forbidden chamber," Korin intoned.
"Here Mad Agnalain had a hundred traitors executed in a single
day and sat drinking their blood. Here she took a dozen consorts,
then sent them to their dooms. On this very throne she commanded that
five hundred crow cages be set up on the high road, from here to
Ylani, and that every cage be filled. She still walks these halls,
and she still sits upon that throne." He raised a white hand and
pointed at Tobin. "Here, in the sight of these witnesses, you
and your squire must join her. You must enter this chamber and sit in
the mad queen's lap or you are not one with us, and no warriors!" Their
escort dragged them through a side door and into a long room where a
narrow window stood open. From here, they had to crawl onto a wide
ledge high above the gardens and climb into the audience chamber
beyond through a broken shutter. It was a
simple enough matter to get into the chamber, but once in, it was as
if they'd dropped into a black void. They could see nothing at first,
and the echo of every whisper and shuffling step seemed to be
swallowed up in endless space around them. Tobin could
hear the others on the ledge outside and knew they were being
listened to. Someone tossed in one of the glowing stones, a tiny one
that cast light no more than a few feet around. Still, it was better
than nothing. 'Tobin, son
of Rhius!" a woman's voice whispered from the darkness. Tobin
jumped as Ki clamped a hand around his wrist. 'Did you
hear that?" Ki whispered. 'Yes." 'Do you
think it's her? Queen Agnalain?" 'I don't
know." He tried to sense what he felt when Brother was around,
but the place just felt drafty and deserted. 'Come on,
they're just playing tricks on us. If there really was a ghost who'd
kill us, they wouldn't send us in, would they?" 'You don't
think so?" muttered Ki, but he followed when Tobin handed him
the lightstone and strode off into the darkness. At first it
felt like stepping off a cliff, but with the light-stone behind him
and the starlight that filtered in around the shuttered windows to
his right, Tobin soon made out the rows of pillars that marched away
into the darkness on either side of the long chamber. This had
been Queen Gherilain's audience chamber, her throne room. He paused,
visualizing the one at the New Palace. The throne there had been at
the end farthest from the doors. The doors here should be to his
right, so the throne would be to his far left. 'Prince
Tobin!" the ghostly voice called. It was coming from his right
instead. He stopped
again, recalling the toy palace his father had made for him. It had
been a simple box with a roof that lifted off, but inside had been
the queen's throne room. This room. And the throne had been in the
middle, not at the end, with the golden tablet of the Oracle beside
it. Squinting, he could just make out a dark shape to his right that
could be a dais. Suddenly he wanted very much to see that throne, and
touch that golden tablet for himself. Even if there was a ghost
there, she was his kin. He turned
and bumped into Ki, who jumped and grabbed for him again. "What
is it? Did you see something?" Tobin felt
for his friend's shoulder; sure enough, Ki was shivering. Putting his
mouth close to Ki's ear, he whispered, "There aren't any ghosts
here. Korin and the others were just trying to scare us with their
stories tonight so we'd be worked up for this. I mean, look what they
had on! Who knows better than 7 do what a real ghost looks like?" Ki grinned,
and for a fleeting moment Tobin considered turning Brother loose here
to show the others what a real spirit was capable of. Instead, he
raised his voice for the benefit of those listening behind them and
said, "Come on, Ki, the throne is just over here. Let's go visit
my grandmother." Their
footsteps echoed bravely in the unseen vaulting overhead, disturbing
some creatures that ruffled the night air with their soft wings.
Perhaps it was the spirits of the dead, but if so, they kept their
distance. Just as
he'd guessed, the throne stood on a broad platform in the middle of
the chamber. It was approached by two stairs and was shrouded in some
dark covering. 'We have to
sit on the throne," Ki reminded him. "After you, Your
Highness." Tobin
acknowledged Ki's mocking bow with a salute Nari would not have
approved of and climbed the steps to the throne. As he bent to draw
aside the cloth that shrouded it, the dark stuff gathered itself
together into a white-faced figure that leaped at him, brandishing a
sword and shrieking, "Traitor, traitor, execute him!" More
startled than frightened, Tobin would have tumbled backward down the
stairs if Ki hadn't been there to catch him and push him upright
again. Both of them recognized that voice, distorted as it was. It was
Aliya. 'Good —
good evening, Grandmother!" he managed, as the rest of the
supposed ghosts ran over with their lights to join them. He tried to
grasp her hand and kiss it, but she snatched it away. 'Oh, he's
no fun at all!" Aliya cried out, stamping her foot in
frustration. 'I told you
he'd stand fast!" Korin hugged Tobin off his feet. "You owe
me ten sesters, Alben. By the Flame, no blood of mine is a coward.
And you, too, Ki, though I saw you shaking when you went in. Don't
worry; you should have seen Carol." Korin reached out and pulled
off the other squire's wig. "He fell down the stairs and almost
dashed his own brains out." 'I
tripped," Carol grumbled. 'I nearly
did, too," Tobin admitted. "But only because Aliya
surprised me. She hides better than she haunts." 'I suppose
you'd know?" she shot back. 'Yes, I do.
Korin, may I see the golden tablet?" The prince
cocked his head. "The what?" 'The golden
tablet with the Prophecy of Afra on it. It's here somewhere beside
the throne—" 'There's
nothing like that here." Korin took Tobin's arm and walked him
around the dais. As he'd said, there was no sign of a tablet. "Come
on, you two, we've got to celebrate your great triumph here tonight." Pleased as
he was to have passed the test, Tobin was terribly disappointed not
to find the tablet. And how could Korin not know of it, growing up
here his whole life? Could his father have been mistaken? As they
walked back toward the window, he twisted around for a final look,
then pulled free of the prince and exclaimed, "Oh, look! Korin,
look!" There was a
ghost here, after all. The carved throne was undraped now and a woman
sat upon it. The jostling and noise of the other Companions seemed to
fade away around Tobin as he gazed at her. He didn't recognize her
but he knew who she was: one of Those Who Came Before—no longer
just a figure in a box, or a name in a tale, or one of Korin's silly
conjurings, either. This was a ghost as real and knowing as his own
twin. She wore a
golden crown and armor of ancient design. Staring at him with eyes as
dark and unblinking as Brother's, she rose and unsheathed the sword
that hung at her side, then held it out to him like an offering on
her open palms. And there
at the foot of the dais stood the golden tablet, as tall as Tobin was
himself. It caught the light like a mirror and the lines of lettering
on it shimmered and moved as though they were written in fire. He
couldn't read the script but he knew by heart what they said. He wanted
to walk back and speak to the queen, learn her name and touch the
sword she held, but he couldn't move. He looked around to find
everyone staring at him, their faces strange and wary behind their
paint. When Tobin looked back at the throne again he saw only
darkness. There was no throne, no queen, and no tablet. He was too
far away to see anything at all. Then Ki
grinned and said, "You fooled them well, my prince. You even had
me looking!" Korin burst
out laughing. "By the Four, cousin, you're a quick one! You've
turned our own joke back on us." 'The little
trickster!" Aliya
grabbed Tobin and kissed him on the lips. "You terrible child!
You even scared me!" Tobin
couldn't help stealing a last look back toward the throne as they
continued on. He wasn't the only one to do so. Ijis
victory celebration took place in the gardens below, with wine and
cakes the Companions had stolen from the kitchens. The old
audience chamber was forbidden ground, the seals on its door real,
though no one seemed to know quite why. Korin and Caliel had invented
the game years ago, and carried it on in defiance of the king and
Master Porion. Korin and
his marauders took Tobin and Ki to a sheltered bank under a tangled
overhang of rose hedge. Lying on the soft, damp grass, they passed
the wineskins and cakes. 'So you
weren't scared a bit?" Alben jeered. 'Were you
when you had to go?" Tobin shot back. "He was! Don't let
him tell you any differently," Aliya scoffed. Everyone
laughed except Alben, who sniffed and flipped his long, black hair
over his shoulder, looking offended. 'It's
because you know of ghosts already, isn't it?" Lynx asked, made
bold by the wine. "I don't mean any offense, Prince Tobin, but
we all know the story. They say your twin was stillborn with her eyes
open, or under a caul, and turned demon so that your family had to
leave the city. They say the ghost followed you all the way to the
mountains. Is it true? Do you really have a demon twin?" Tobin
shrugged. "It's nothing, really. Just a haunting spirit." Ki began to
sputter, but Tobin nudged his foot and he subsided. 'My father
says that's what comes of consorting with wizards," Zusthra put
in. "Go messing about with magic too much and you end up with
all sorts of creatures you don't care for lurking about." 'You
wouldn't want Lord Niryn to hear that opinion, I'm sure,"
someone said, and Tobin realized that the would-be squire, Moriel,
had been with them all along. He just hadn't noticed him under the
wig and paint until he spoke. "Lord Niryn believes that wizards
can help strengthen the throne of Skala. What do you say, Korin? You
see enough of the fellow." Korin took
a long pull from the wineskin and laid his head in Aliya's lap. "My
father's wizard has eyes like two brown stones polished by the sea
surf. I can't ever tell what's going on behind those cold hard orbs.
So long as he keeps us in lightstones and tricks, I've nothing
against the man, but when I'm king I won't need any wizards to win my
wars for me, or to guard my throne. Just give me you lot!" He
waved the wineskin, spraying its contents liberally over those lying
closest to him. "Skalan steel and a brave Skalan to wield it!" This toast
led to singing, and the singing to more drinking. Even Tobin let
himself get a little drunk before Ki hauled him off to bed in
disgust. '""T'obin
and Ki came off the training field a few days later J. to find Tharin
and half a dozen of his men waiting for them. Tobin hardly recognized
them at first. Koni and the others wore new uniforms similar to those
of the King's Guard, with silver badges instead of gold. Tharin was
dressed like a lord in somber brown edged with black, and wore a
silver chain. 'My
prince," said Tharin. "The steward sends word, asking if
your highness will inspect your house today. Everything has been made
ready for you." Tobin
strode up to hug him, he was so glad to see a familiar face, but
Tharin gently held him off and shook his head ever so slightly. Ki
hung back, looking like he wanted to do the same. They got
leave from the arms master and followed Tharin into the labyrinth of
noble dwellings that filled the grounds between the two great
palaces. The house
that had belonged to Tobin's mother was actually a small wing
attached to the outer wall of the Old Palace, surrounded by its own
walls and courts. The gardens inside the main courtyard had been well
tended, but once inside the house itself Tobin felt a strange
emptiness close in around him, even though the hall had fine carved
furnishings and brightly painted walls. Half a dozen servants in
livery bowed to him as he entered. The steward was a middle-aged man
Tharin introduced as Ulies, old Mynir's son. 'I grieve
for your loss," Tobin told him. Ulies bowed
again. "And I for yours, my prince. I am honored that he served
you and your family, and hope that I may do the same." Tobin
turned slowly, taking in the great hall, with its ancient sideboards,
hangings, and elegant carvings on the beams and walls. A broad
staircase led up to his left. 'Your
father carried you down those stairs the day you were named,"
Tharin told him. "You should have seen this room, filled with
all the great nobles of Skala. The king himself stood just there at
the bottom of the stairs with Prince Korin on his shoulders. By the
Four, how proud we all were!" Tobin
looked up at him. "Where was my mother? Was—was she well
then?" Tharin
sighed. "No, Tobin, she wasn't. From the night of your birth she
wasn't, but that's no fault of yours. She stayed up in her room." 'May I see
it?" 'Of course.
This is your house now and you can go anywhere you like. But the
upstairs rooms haven't been lived in since your mother left. Your
father and I used chambers on this floor when we were in Ero, and the
men have a barracks in the back court. Come on." Tobin
looked around for Ki. "Well, come on!" They were
halfway up the stairs when Brother appeared above them, waiting for
him at the top. He
shouldn't have been there. Tobin hadn't called him all day. Actually,
he hadn't called him since that first night, he realized guiltily.
There'd been so much to see and do here that he'd completely
forgotten. Yet Brother
was there all the same, staring at him with black, accusing eyes.
Tobin sighed inwardly and let him stay. 'Did you
see my twin, Tharin?" he asked. "The one who died?" 'No, I was
away at Atyion that night. By the time I returned all had been dealt
with." 'Why didn't
Father ever talk about that, and tell me what the demon really was?" 'I don't
know." Tharin paused at the top of the stairs, not realizing
that his hand brushed Brother's shoulder as he spoke. "Perhaps
out of respect for your mother? She couldn't bear the mention of it,
especially in the early days. It made her quite—wild. And then
there was all the gossip around the city of ghosts and hauntings.
After a while none of us spoke of it at all." He shook his head.
"I assumed he'd said something to you on his own. It wasn't my
place." He lifted
the latch of a door just across from the head of the staircase. "This
is it, Tobin, the room where you were born." The
corridor floor was freshly laid with rushes, and smelled of strewing
herbs and lamp oil. In the room beyond, however, Tobin recognized the
stale smell of disuse. The shutters were open but the room was dismal
and cold. Gooseflesh prickled up his arms as he stepped inside. It had been
a lady's bedchamber. A few tapestries still hung on the walls—faded
scenes of ocean creatures and forest hunts. There were fish of some
sort carved on the mantel, very pretty, but the hearth was cold and
full of soot, and there were no ornaments or dolls on the bare stone
mantel. Across the
room Brother stood at the foot of a high, tall-posted bed with a bare
mattress. He was naked now, and Tobin could see the line of
blood-crusted stitching on his chest again. As Tobin watched he
climbed onto the bed and lay down on his back. Then he was gone. 'Do you
know how my brother died?" asked Tobin softly, still staring at
the bed. Tharin
looked at him. "Stillborn, Nari said. Never drew breath. But it
wasn't a boy child, Tobin, it was a little girl." Ki gave him
a questioning look; surely he'd speak the truth to Tharin? But here
was Brother again, standing LYNN FLE WELLING between them with a
finger to his lips. Tobin shook his head at Ki and said nothing. Instead, he
turned away, seeking some sign of his mother in this empty room. If
she had changed so terribly the night he was born, then perhaps there
was some trace here of who she'd been before—something to help
him understand why she'd changed. But he
found nothing and suddenly he didn't want to be here anymore. The other
chambers along the corridor were the same: long since deserted and
emptied of all but the largest furnishings. The more he saw, the
lonelier he felt, like a stranger wandering somewhere he did not
belong. Tharin must
have sensed this. He put an arm around Tobin's shoulders and said,
"Come back downstairs. There's a place I think you'll like
better." They went
down through the hall and along a short corridor to a cozy,
dark-paneled bedchamber that Tobin recognized at once as having been
his father's. Rhius hadn't been here in months and would never
return, but there was still a feeling of life in this room. The heavy
dark red hangings around the bed were just like the ones at the keep.
A pair of familiar shoes stood on a chest. A half-finished letter in
a bold scrawl lay curling on the writing desk beside an ivory
portrait of Tobin. Tobin breathed in the familiar mix of scents:
sealing wax, oiled leather, rust, herbs, and his father's own warm,
manly smell. On a shelf by the writing desk Tobin found a collection
of his wax and wooden sculptures—gifts to his father over the
years—lined up and saved just as Tobin had saved the tokens his
father had sent to him. All at once
the ache of loss he'd managed to hold at bay returned full force. He
clenched his teeth against it, but the hot tears came anyway,
blinding him as he sank down. Strong arms caught him; not his father,
but Tharin holding him tight, patting his back as he had when Tobin
was very small. There was another hand on his shoulder, too, and
this time he was not ashamed at showing weakness in front of Ki. He
believed him now; even warriors had to grieve. He wept
until his chest hurt and his nose ran, but in the end he felt
lighter, freed of some of the burden of sorrow he'd carried so
deeply. He pulled away from them and wiped his nose on his sleeve.
"I'll honor my father," he said, looking around the room
again with gratitude. "I'll carry his name into battle and be as
great a warrior as he was." 'He knew
that," said Tharin. "He always spoke proudly of you." 'May I have
this room as mine, when I stay here?" "You don't have to
ask, Tobin. It all belongs to you." "Is that why Koni and
the others are wearing different uniforms now?" 'Yes. As
your parents' sole heir, you take the rank of your mother and all
your father's holdings fall to you." "My holdings,"
Tobin mused. "Can you show me?" Tharin opened a chest and
took out a map. On it Tobin recognized the outline of the Skalan
peninsula and the territories to the north of it. A tiny crown on the
eastern coast marked Ero. He'd seen maps like this before, but on
this one there were other places marked in red ink. Atyion lay to the
north, and Cirna was a dot on the thin bridge of land that connected
Skala to the mainland. There were red dots up there in the
territories, too, and across the mountains on the northwestern
coastline where there were almost no cities at all. Which ones would
Ki like best, he wondered? 'All these
belong to the Crown until you're of age, of course," Tharin
said, frowning down at the map. "That worries you." 'It's
nothing we have to think about for now." Tharin tried to smile
as he put the map away. "Come and see my room." They walked
to the next door along the passageway and Tharin showed them in. This
chamber was austere to the point of severity by comparison, with
plain hangings and few comforts. The only exceptions were a fine
collection of weapons hung on one wall, collected from many
battlefields, and more of Tobin's little creations on a table near
the window. Tobin went over and picked up a lopsided wax man with a
wood splinter sword in one round fist. He wrinkled his nose. "I
remember this one. I threw it out." Tharin
chuckled fondly. "And I saved it; it's the only portrait ever
done of me. These others were gifts from you, remember?" He
pulled a crude little wooden Sakor horse on a knotted bit of string
from the neck of his tunic. "This is the first one you ever made
for me. All the other men have them, too. We wear them for luck." 'You should
have him make you a new one," said Ki with a laugh. "He's
improved quite a lot since then." Tharin
shook his head. "It was a gift from the heart. I wouldn't trade
this little fellow for all the horses of Atyion." 'When can I
go to Atyion?" Tobin asked. "I've heard tales of it all my
life. Even Ki's seen it, but not me! And Cirna and all the other
estates and holdings?" There was
that hint of a frown again as Tharin replied, "You'll have to
speak to Lord Orun about that. He's the one who must arrange any
travel outside the city." 'Oh."
Tobin made no effort to hide his dislike here. "When do you
think the king will come back? I'm going to ask him to give me a new
guardian before he goes away next time. I don't care how rich or
powerful Orun is, I can't stand the sight of him!" 'Well, I've
been hoping to have a talk with you about that. That's one of the
reasons I brought you here today." Tharin closed the door and
leaned against it, rubbing a hand over his bearded chin. 'You're
young, Tobin, and you've no experience of court life. I can't say I'm
sorry about how you've turned out because of that, but now that
you're here, it may hurt you, not knowing how things are done. Illior
knows, there hasn't been much time to speak of all the changes—
It took us all by surprise when he showed up. But now that we're all
split up this way, there are some things you need to hear. I swore to
your father that I would watch over you, and I don't know of anyone
else who can tell you what I'm about to tell you. Ki, you listen
well, too, and don't you ever breathe a word of it to anyone." He sat the
boys on the edge of his bed and pulled up a chair. 'I don't
care much for Lord Orun, either, but you keep that to yourselves.
He's the king's friend, and one of his highest ministers, so it
wouldn't do you any good if that's the first thing your uncle hears
from you when you meet. Understand?" Tobin
nodded. "Prince Korin says I should be careful of him, because
he's a powerful man." 'That's
right. At court you must say less than you think and only speak as
much of the truth as will do you good. I'm afraid that's something we
didn't teach you before, but you always were a good one at keeping
quiet about things. As for you, Ki— Ki blushed.
"I know. I'll keep my mouth closed." 'It's for
Tobin's sake. Now, it costs me some pride to say it, but I want you
both to keep on Lord Orun's good side while you have to." 'You sound
like you're scared of him!" Ki blurted out. 'You could
say that. Orun was already a powerful lord at court when Rhius and I
were in the Companions. He was only the third son of a duke, but his
father was rich and had the mad queen's ear. I mean no disrespect to
your family, Tobin, but your grandmother Agnalain was mad as a cat in
a high wind by the end and Orun still managed to come out alive and
with power. Erius likes him, too, which is more than your father or I
could ever fathom. So crossing Orun is only fouling your own nest.
Keep peace between you. And…" He stopped, as if unsure
what to say next. 'Well, if
either of you has any trouble with him, you come to me. Promise me
that." 'You know
we will," Tobin replied, though it seemed to him that Tharin was
looking at Ki as he said this. A knock
came at the door and Tharin went to deal with a courier who'd
arrived. Tobin sat a moment, pondering all he'd been told, then rose
to go back to the hall. When he came out into the passage, however,
Ki tapped his shoulder and whispered, "I think our friend is
here. I've been feeling him since we were upstairs." Tobin
turned in surprise, realizing that Ki meant Brother. "You can
feel him?" he whispered back. He'd lost track of the spirit
upstairs and hadn't seen him since. 'Sometimes.
Am I right?" Tobin
looked around and, sure enough, there was Brother behind them,
beckoning for Tobin to follow him down the passage in the opposite
direction. "Yes. He's there. I didn't call him, though." 'Why should
he act any different here?" muttered Ki. Following
Brother, the boys passed through a succession of narrower passages
and out into a small disused courtyard surrounded by a high wall.
There was a summer kitchen here, but the mossy roof over the outdoor
oven had fallen in years ago and never been repaired. Near the center
of the yard stood a huge, dead chestnut tree. Its twisted branches
stretched their broken fingers over the yard like a netted roof, grey
and scabrous against the blue sky. Its knobby roots humped up out of
the packed earth like serpents writhing across the ground. 'Can you
still see him?" Ki •whispered. Tobin
nodded. Brother was sitting at the base of the tree between two big
roots. His legs were drawn up tight against his chest and his
forehead rested on his knees. Tangled black hair hung down, covering
his face. He looked so forlorn that Tobin slowly moved closer,
wondering what the matter could be. He was within a few feet of the
spirit when Brother raised a pale, tear-streaked face to him and
whispered in a dry, weary voice Tobin had never heard before, "This
is the place," and faded from sight again. Baffled,
Tobin stared up at the tree, wondering what was remarkable about this
spot. He'd understood about the bed; Brother had been stillborn upon
it and seemed to remember it. But why would he remember this yard, or
this tree? He looked back at where Brother had been sitting and spied
a small opening beneath one of the roots. Squatting down, he examined
it more closely. It was larger than it had looked at first glance;
eight or ten inches wide and a few inches high on the outside. It
reminded Tobin of the sort of place he used to look for in the forest
as a hiding place for the doll. The soil
here was sandy and hard, well sheltered by the tree. Curious, he
reached inside to see if the hole was as dry as it looked. 'There
could be snakes," Ki warned, hunkering down beside him. It was
larger inside than he'd have guessed, large enough for the doll if he
could get it through the opening. His fingers found no snakes, only a
few spiky chestnut husks among the dead leaves. As he moved to
withdraw his hand, however, his fingers brushed across a rounded
edge. He felt more closely, then got enough of a grip on it to
dislodge it from the soil. Drawing it out, he saw that it was a gold
ring set with a carved stone like the one Lord Orun had given him. He
rubbed it on his sleeve to clean it. The large flat stone was the
same deep purple as the throat of a river iris, and carved with the
intaglio profiles of a man and a woman, side by side with the woman's
foremost. 'By the
Flame, Tobin, isn't that your father?" asked Ki, peering over
his shoulder. 'And my
mother." Tobin turned the ring over in his hands and found an A
and an R engraved on the gold band behind
the stone. 'I'll be
damned. Brother must have wanted you to find it. See if there's
anything else." Tobin felt
again, but there was nothing more in the hole. 'Here you
are!" said Tharin, coming out into the yard. "What are you
doing down in the dirt?" 'Look what
Tobin found under this dead tree," said Ki. Tobin
showed him the ring and Tharin's eyes widened. "It's been years—
How did that get out here?" 'Was it my
mother's?" The tall
man sat down and took the ring from him, gazing at the two profiles
on the stone. "Oh, yes. It was her favorite among the betrothal
gifts your father gave her. It's Aurenfaie work. We sailed clear to
Viresse just so he could have the finest carvers make it for her. I
remember the look on her face— We never did know what happened
to it after she got sick, or some of her other things either."
He looked down at the hole. "How do you suppose it ended up out
here? Well, it's no matter. It's found now, and yours to keep. You
should wear it in their memory." It was too
large for Tobin's fingers so he hung it on the golden chain with his
father's seal, then looked at the carving again. His parents looked
young and handsome together, not at all like the troubled people he'd
known. Tharin
reached down and took the ring and seal together on his palm. "Now
you can carry something of both of them close to your heart." 'Tphe weeks
that followed passed in a glittering blur. Life -L at the keep hadn't
prepared either boy for such company, though neither wanted to
trouble the other with his doubts at first. Each
morning the Companions ran to the temple to make their offerings,
then worked hard on the training field until midafternoon under
Porion's demanding direction. Here, at
least, Ki and Tobin both excelled. Porion was a strict taskmaster,
but he was as quick to praise as to chastise. He taught the
Companions the fine points of buckler work and how to fight and shoot
on horseback, but they also learned to use the javelin and the axe,
and how to wrestle and fight with knives. 'You fine
nobles may start the day in the saddle, but only Sakor knows how long
you'll stay there," Porion was fond of telling them, and devised
a good many drills designed to unseat them in various jarring ways. After
practice the remainder of the day belonged to the boys to amuse
themselves as they pleased until mess time. Sometimes they rode about
the city to see players or visit their favorite artisans and tailors.
Other times they went to the hills to hunt and hawk, or to the
seaside to bathe, enjoying the last warm days of summer. In these
pastimes they usually were accompanied by a great crowd of young
nobles, and some not so young. Lord Orun frequently came along,
together with others of his ilk—men who wore ear bobs and scent
and hadn't gone off to fight. There were women and girls, too. Ki soon
realized that girls like pretty Aliya and her friends were beyond his
grasp, and that a pretty face didn't necessarily mean a pretty heart.
Aliya was Alben's cousin and proved to be as spiteful as her kinsman.
Prince Korin liked Aliya well enough, though, and through the gossip
of the squires Ki learned that she was one of several mistresses who
regularly visited the prince's bed, hoping to get him an heir so he
could go off to war. What the king would say to that no one cared to
speculate. Still,
there were plenty of other girls who found Ki good enough to flirt
with. One in particular, Mekhari, had given him several encouraging
looks while endeavoring to teach him to dance. Skilled as he and
Tobin might be at the arts of war, neither had a proper dance step
between them, nor played an instrument; and despite Arkoniel's best
efforts, they had the singing abilities of a pair of crows. Their ill
wishers took no end of delight in this lack of graces and made
certain to include them in any situation that would call attention to
these shortcomings. Tobin
managed to redeem himself quite by accident one night at dinner when,
in a fit of boredom, he whittled one of his little sculptures from a
block of cheese. Soon the girls were pestering him to carve charms
and toys for them, offering kisses and favors in return. Tobin
modestly refused payment as he hemmed and blushed and carved away
furiously for them, clearly not knowing what to do in the face of
such attentions. This
puzzled Ki. Tobin was nearly twelve and had heard enough of his tales
to know what girls were about. While he might not be old enough to
want one yet, it seemed odd that he'd be so standoffish about it. Two
in particular seemed to plague him. Pale Lilyan, Urmanis' sister, had
taken to flirting outrageously with him, though Ki was certain she
only did it because she knew it made Tobin squirm. But the
other one, a slim brunette named Una, was another matter. She was
skilled at hunting and riding, and had a quiet way about her that Ki
found both pleasant and unsettling; she looked at you like she could
read your thoughts and liked them fine. Yet Tobin was more
stum-ble-tongued around her than anyone else. He'd nearly sliced off
one of his fingers whittling her a cat. 'What in
Bilairy's name is the matter with you!" Ki had chided, bathing
the gash in a basin that night as they got ready for bed. "I bet
Una would let you kiss her if you tried, but you act like she's got
the plague!" 'I don't
want to kiss her!" Tobin snapped,
pulling his hand away before Ki could wrap the finger. Scrambling
across the bed, he burrowed under the blankets as far from Ki as he
could get and remained there, refusing to talk to him for the rest of
the night. That was
the first time Tobin had ever been truly angry with him. Ki laid
awake heartsick half the night and vowed never to tease Tobin about
girls again. He had enough to trouble him as it was. J| rince
Korin had thrown several more of his lavish banquets since their
arrival, ordering them up whenever the whim took him and he thought
he could brook Porion's disapproval. Although this meant a respite
from table service for the squires, Ki could have done without them.
Everyone drank more, especially Korin, and Ki liked the Prince Royal
a good deal better when he was sober. Tobin had
taken to his cousin in his usual good-hearted way, but Ki wasn't so
sure of his friend's judgment this time. Korin struck him as a weak
reed when drunk, too likely to take on the colors of those around him
instead of shining with his own. He was more likely to tease then,
and overlook the rudeness of others. And
rudeness abounded, though it was often thinly veiled in jest. Their
skill on the training field had sparked jealousy among the older
Companions, and Tobin's odd behavior that night in the old audience
chamber had set a few tongues wagging. But they'd probably wagged
before they ever arrived. Still,
seeing Tobin here brought back to Ki how strange the boy had seemed
to him when they'd first met: the way Tobin talked to ghosts and
witches and wizards as if it were the most natural thing in the
world, and how he could read people's faces like others read tracks
or weather, without even knowing he was doing it. He'd changed some
since Ki had known him, but Tobin still had the eyes of a man, and
still made little distinction in his manner toward noble or servant,
highborn or low. He treated them all well. Ki had grown accustomed to
that, too, during the slow, easy years at the keep. Here among these
young lords, it was quickly brought home to him how unusual that was,
and in ways that Tobin just didn't seem to understand. But Ki
understood, and so did the Companions—even the ones who were
kind. Tobin hadn't understood the shame Ki felt when a drunken prince
had slapped him so carelessly with a sword and dubbed him "Sir,"
bestowing on him a grass knight's hollow title—with its boon of
a warhorse and a yearly purse of money. For all the lessons and
proper speech he'd learned from Arkoniel, everyone here knew who his
father was and had seen how his "knighthood" had been
earned. No, Tobin
couldn't understand any of that, and Ki kept his promise to Tharin
and didn't tell him. Pride kept him from confiding even in Tharin,
though they visited him as often as they could. Still, it
wasn't all bad, he often reminded himself. Tobin was like a drink of
sweet water in a swamp, and there were those who knew how to
appreciate him. Korin did, when he was sober, and so did the better
ones among the Companions: Caliel, Orneus, Nikides, and little Lutha.
Their squires were courteous to Ki out of respect for that, and some
of them accepted him as a friend. On the
other side of the fence were Squire Mago and his faction; it hadn't
taken Ki long to peg them as trouble. They spared no effort to remind
him that he was a grass knight, and a poor man's son. Whenever they
could corner him out of earshot of the prince—at the stables,
in the baths, or even when they were sparring in the sword
circle—they hissed it at him like rock vipers: "Grass
knight!" To make
matters worse, Moriel, the boy whose place Ki had taken, was fast
friends with Mago and cousin to Quirion's squire, Arius. Evidently
Model's appointment was to have been his way into the Companions. There was
something wrong there, Ki thought. Korin didn't seem overly fond of
some of his own Companions, even though they were touted by all as a
closely bound elite, the future generals and councilors of a future
king. It seemed to Ki that Korin would do well to rid himself of a
good many of them when he was old enough to choose for himself. None
of that is my concern, he reminded himself. He was Tobin's
squire and in that he was content. Nothing the other squires could
say to him would interfere with that. Or so he
thought. the end of
Rhythin Ki was beginning to get his bearings at table. He could serve
any type of dish through a twelve-course banquet without spilling a
drop, knew all the right serving dishes, and was feeling rather proud
of himself. That night
at mess it was only the Companions and Porion at table. Tobin was
seated between the arms master and Zusthra. The older boy was still
hard to read; he seemed sullen, but Porion treated him with high
regard and Ki took that for a favorable sign. Tobin
seemed happy enough, if quiet. Korin was drinking and going on again
about the latest report from Mycena. Apparently the king had routed a
Plenimaran attack along some river and everyone was drinking to
celebrate the victory, and growing more morose as they grew drunker,
convinced the fighting would be over before they were allowed to go. Ki went out
for more platters, and by the time he came back Caliel and Korin were
arguing about why hounds didn't like Tobin and hawks did. Ki wished
them luck with that one; even Arkoniel had had no answer for the dog
question. They'd had to give Tobin's gift hounds away, but he'd
turned to out be a fine hand with falcons. Caliel spent a great deal
of time with him, teaching Tobin how to use the hoods, jesses, and
whistles. In return, Tobin had fashioned a beautiful ring for him
from wax, in the shape of a hawk with outstretched wings, and had a
goldsmith cast it. Caliel wore it proudly and was the envy of the
Companions. Thanks to that, Tobin had switched from wood carvings to
jewelry making and their room was littered with gobs of wax and
sketches. Tobin already knew half the goldsmiths near the Palatine,
and was making inroads among the gem carvers as that took his fancy.
Korin dubbed him the Artist Prince. Ki was
pleasantly lost in these happy thoughts as he balanced two half-empty
sauce basins back to the kitchen. He was nearly to the sideboard when
Mago and Arius cornered him. He glanced around quickly but Barieus
was nowhere in sight. The cooks and scullions were busy with their
own work. 'No, it's
just we three," said Arius, guessing his thought. He jostled Ki
on one side and Mago did the same on the other until they had him
backed into a corner. Ki barely managed to get the sauce basins down
onto a table before they spilled. 'Well done,
grass knight," snickered Arius. Ki sighed
and waited for them to back off now that they'd had their fun. But
they didn't. 'Well done,
for a horse thiefs son," sneered Mago, not even bothering to
lower his voice. Ki felt his
face go hot. "My father's no thief." 'He's not?"
Mago made round eyes of surprise at him. "Well, then you're the
cuckold's bastard I took you for all along. Old Larenth has been
stealing my uncle's horses for years and everyone knows it. He'd have
hanged your brother Alon if he hadn't run away to the war before the
bailiff caught him." Ki faced
him down, holding his clenched fists against his thighs. "He's
no thief! And neither is my father." 'Then he's
not your father," said Arius, pretending to reason with him.
"Come on now, which side of the blanket were you born on, Sir
Kirothius? Or do you even know?" It
doesn't matter. Ki clenched his fists so tightly he felt the
nails bite into his palms. Only honor matters.
Don't dishonor Tobin by losing your temper. 'What's a
prince doing with a grass knight like you for a squire, I wonder?"
said Mago. Arius
leaned in closer. "Well, you know what they say about him—" Ki could
hardly believe his ears. Were they daring to insult Tobin now? Both
boys turned and were gone before he could gather his wits to respond. 'Ki, don't
stand there dreaming. Fetch in the damson tart!" snapped
Chylnir, who'd just come in. Honor.
Ki summoned Tharin's voice in his mind as he hoisted the heavy pastry
dish. Whatever a squire does reflects on the lord
he serves. Keep that thought first in your heart, no matter what, and
you'll always do what's proper. Thinking of
Tharin calmed him. By the time he reached the dining room, he could
wish Mago and Arius dead without so much as frowning in their
direction. JLnstead,
he brought all his anger and resentment to the training fields the
next morning and every day after. Whenever he could, he paired off
with his enemies for swordplay or wrestling, and let his body speak
for him. The other boys were good fighters, too, and he didn't always
best them, but they soon learned to avoid him when they could. He and
Tobin were hailed as equals of all but the r oldest boys, and Ki
wasn't sure they couldn't have taken some of them on, but Porion
wouldn't allow it. Crowds gathered to watch the new prince fight.
Some of the squires and other blades, including Lutha, began to adopt
plainer garb on the training field, though nothing so worn as Tobin's
old jerkin. Ki had even sided with Molay and Lord Orun on this issue,
trying to talk Tobin into adopting better garb to suit his station,
but he wouldn't be moved. He'd wear any finery they wanted to feasts
and around the city, but remained stubborn on that point, even when
he overheard some of the onlookers joking that they couldn't tell him
from Ki in a match. In fact, it seemed to please him. It was only
much later that Ki realized that Tobin understood and resented the
petty meanness directed at them as well as Ki did, and chose his own
ways of fighting back. Autumn came
on in a series of terrible thunderstorms that swept in off the sea.
Lightning flashed down, striking buildings and sometimes even people.
Rain ran in torrents from rooftops and through the streets, washing
the year's refuse down to the sea. The foul
weather kept the Companions indoors for days. They practiced at
swords in the feasting hall and played wild games of chase through
the corridors, much to the despair of those nobles unfortunate enough
to encounter them. Several ended up in the fish pools. Korin held
court in his great hall, surrounded by jugglers and minstrels. He
brought in troupes of actors and badgered the heralds for news every
few hours. And he drank. Ki and
Tobin were sweating through another round of dancing lessons when a
page wearing the yellow livery of Lord Orun beneath his dripping
cloak appeared and approached Prince Korin. 'Cousin!"
Korin called to Tobin. "Your guardian requests our company this
afternoon. I suppose we must go. You too, Caliel. I'm sure Orun can
make room for you." 'Damn,"
sighed Ki. 'You'll
have a better time here than I will there," groused Tobin. "What
does he want with me now? I was just there three nights ago." Other
messengers appeared through the dreary afternoon, calling more of the
boys away. Chancellor Hylus called for his grandson, Nikides, who
took Ruan with him. Lutha was ill with a fever and Barieus was
tending him. Faced with
Mago and few allies, Ki decided to make himself scarce until Tobin
came back. He went
back to their room and cast about for something to do, but Molay had
put everything in order. Even Tobin's carving bench was tidy for a
change. Deciding to chance a ride in spite of the weather, Ki threw
on old shoes and a thick cloak and set off for the stables. 'Shall I
send for your horse, Sir Ki?" Baldus called after him. 'No,"
Ki replied, glad of the excuse for a walk after being shut up inside
for so long. The rain
had slackened but a strong wind whipped his cloak around his legs as
he left the shelter of the palace gardens. His shoes were soon soaked
through, but he didn't care. The pummeling of the wind and the cold,
sharp smell of the sea made his blood race and his heart feel
lighter. He turned his face up and let the wind scour it. There was
plenty of daylight left; perhaps he could get Tharin to go for a ride
by the shore. The stables
were deserted except for a few grooms, and ostlers. They knew him and
bowed as he walked through the sour darkness of the mews. A hundred
glossy rumps faced him on either side; Dragon and Gosi's stalls were
about halfway down on the left side. He hadn't
gone very far when he realized that he wasn't alone after all. Turning, he
found Mago and Arius almost on his heels. The sound of the storm must
have covered them as they followed him from the palace. That, and his
own inattention, he thought with sinking heart. There wasn't a groom
in sight now. These two probably had the sense to bribe them to stay
away. 'Why, fancy
meeting you here, grass knight," Mago exclaimed brightly. "And
how might you be this fine afternoon?" 'Well
enough, but for the company," Ki retorted. They wouldn't let him
pass; that much was clear. There was a door at the far end of the
stable, but it meant turning tail and running, and he'd be damned if
he'd do that. He'd rather take a beating. Then again, surely even
they wouldn't be that foolish. 'I wouldn't
think you'd be so particular about what company you keep," Arius
said, toying with a heavy ring on his hand. "Stuck in that rat
trap old keep of the duke's with a demon and Tharin's draggle-tailed
peasant soldiers? And I'm curious…" Arius went on
twisting the ring around and around. "Perhaps you can tell me,
since you lived there. Is it true what they say about Tharin and Lord
Rhius? With you being his son's squire and all, I thought maybe you'd
know." The blood
began to pound in Ki's ears. He had no idea what Arius was talking
about, but the way he said it was insult enough. 'Maybe it
runs in the family, like the madness," Mago put in with a
poisonous smile. "Do you and Tobin do it, too?" Ki began to
suspect what Mago was hinting at and went cold with anger. Not at the
implied act itself, but at the thought of these spotty-faced bastards
dragging two such men down with their filthy leering tones, and Tobin
with them. 'You take
that back," he growled, advancing on Mago. 'Why should
I? You share a bed, don't you? We all saw it the night we went to the
old throne room." 'Everyone
does where I'm from," Ki said. 'Well, we
all know where you're from, don't we, grass knight?" said Arius. 'Two in a
bed," Mago taunted. "Lord Orun told me that Tharin used to
take it up the ass. Do you? Or is it Tob—" Ki punched
Mago without even deciding to do it. He just didn't want to hear
those words, and, in the instant that his fist connected with the
older squire's nose, it felt good. Mago went down cursing and landed
on his back in the wet muck of a stall, blood spurting from his nose.
Arius got Ki by the arm and yelled for help, but Ki threw him off and
walked away. His elation
was short-lived. By the time he was out the door at the far end of
the stable he knew he'd made a serious error and started running,
knowing there was only one place to go. No one followed. I
failed him! he raged at himself as the enormity of the situation
crashed in on him. He'd failed Tobin and Tharin. And himself. In the
next instant he lashed out at his tor-menters. Korin was right; they
were all rotting here. Foul mouthed, soft-handed, backbiting little
sneak bitches like Mago wouldn't last a day among real warriors. But
that didn't change the fact that he'd dishonored Tobin. And now
there'd be worse to come. The clouds
opened, the rain lashed down, and Ki ran. Cob abin
hated the visits to Lord Orun's house. The rooms were too warm, the
food too sweet, and the attendants—a pack of droopy,
bare-chested youths—overly attentive. Orun always insisted that
Tobin sit next to him and share his dish. The sight of those greasy,
wrinkled fingers did little for his appetite. It was even
worse today. Tobin's head had been hurting since he woke up that
morning, and he'd had a dull pain in his side that was making him
tired and out of sorts. He'd hoped to sleep that afternoon, until the
summons came and spoiled his plans. Orun always
insisted on inviting Moriel, as well. Though Tobin still resented
this, he had to admit that the pale boy did do his best to be
pleasant when they were thrown together here. Then again, almost
anyone would seem pleasant company at Orun's table. There were
thirty nobles at the table today, and the king's wizard, Niryn,
occupied the place of honor on Tobin's left. Between courses he
entertained the company with silly tricks and illusions, like making
a stuffed capon dance, or floating sauceboats around like ships in
the harbor. Looking down the table, Tobin caught Korin and Caliel
rolling their eyes. He sat back
with a sigh. Niryn's magic was even more pointless than Arkoniel's. i managed
to keep himself under control as Ulies let him in and led him to the
hall. Tharin sat by the fire in his shirtsleeves. Koni and some of
the other men were with him, gambling and repairing bits of tack by
the hearth. They called out their usual greetings to Ki, but Tharin
frowned as soon as he saw him. 'What's
wrong?" he asked. 'Can we
speak alone?" Tharin
nodded and took him to his room. Shutting the door, he turned and
asked, "What happened?" Ki had
rehearsed half a dozen explanations on the way here but now his
tongue seemed to have glued itself to the roof of his mouth. There
was no fire and the room was cold. Shivering miserably, he listened
to the sound of his sodden cloak dripping on the floor as he searched
for the words. Tharin sat
down in the chair next to his bed and motioned for Ki to come to him.
"Come on, now. Tell me about it." Ki let his
cloak fall and knelt at Tharin's feet. "I've dishonored Tobin
and myself," he managed at last, fighting back tears of shame.
"I struck another squire. At the stables. Just now." Tharin's
pale eyes fixed on him in a most unnerving way. "Which one?" 'Mago." 'Why?" 'He's been
saying things to me." 'Insults?" 'Yes." 'Were there
witnesses?" 'Just
Arius." Tharin let
out a snort of disgust. "The arrogant little fool. Well, out
with it. What did he say that you couldn't walk away from?" Ki
bristled. "I did walk away from a lot! Ever since we came here
they've called me grass knight and bastard and a horse thief'sson.
And I walked away every time. But this time they got me alone in the
stables and they— They— He cringed inwardly at the
thought of repeating what they'd said about Tharin. "They
insulted Tobin. And Duke Rhius. And you. They said filthy lies and I
lost my temper and punched Mago. Then I ran here." He hung his
head, wishing he could die and be done with it. "What am I going
to do, Tharin?" 'You're
going to take your punishment tomorrow like any other squire. But
right now I want to hear what they said that made you angry enough to
do such a thing. And why being called those other things didn't.
Let's start with that, shall we?" Tharin
pulled Ki up by the shoulders and sat him on the bed, then poured him
a small cup of wine. Ki downed it and shivered as it burned his
belly. "I don't know. Maybe because I knew most of what he said
about my kin and me is true. I am a grass knight, but Tobin doesn't
care and neither do you or Porion, so I don't mind it so much. And I
know I'm no bastard. And that about my father? I don't know. Maybe he
is a horse thief, but Tobin doesn't care about that, either, so long
as I'm not one… And I'm not! So I can stand any of that." 'Then what
was it you couldn't stand?" Ki clutched
the cup in both hands. "Mago said that Lord Orun told him you
and Duke Rhius— That you—" He couldn't say it. 'That we
were bedmates when we were young? Lovers?" Ki stared
miserably down into the red depths of his cup. "He said he
thought Tobin and I did it, too. But that's not the way he put
it—what you said." Tharin
sighed, but Ki could tell he was angry. "I don't suppose it
was." 'Tobin and
I don't!" 'I didn't
imagine you did. But it is common enough among young warriors, and
lots of other folk besides. I could tell Mago a thing or two about
his own father that would shut him up for you. With some it's
something that passes. Others stay with men all their lives. For
Rhius, it passed." He reached
out and chucked Ki under the chin, making him look him in the eye.
"I'd have told you myself if you'd asked me. There's no dishonor
in it between friends, Ki, or half of Ero would be shamed, and some
of the other Companions too, from what I've seen." This
revelation left Ki speechless. 'So they
teased you all this time, and this is what broke you?" Ki nodded. 'They poked
around until they found the sore spot to goad you with. Well, here
you are. What interests me the most is that Mago said he had this
from Lord Orun, Tobin's own guardian. I think perhaps that was more
than Orun wanted said." 'But why
would he say it at all?" 'Use your
brains, boy. Who wanted Moriel as Tobin's squire? Who hasn't had use
for you since the day he laid eyes on you? Who got his nose put out
of joint when Porion put Moriel out of the Companions in favor of
you?" 'Orun." 'Whom Tobin
just happens to be dining with right now, I believe?" Ki dropped
the cup and jumped to his feet. "Oh gods! He can dismiss me?
I've done it, haven't I? Old Slack Guts is going to send me away!" 'He can't
dismiss you, not directly. But perhaps he thinks that Tobin won't be
able to discipline you as he must, and that will reflect badly on
both of you. Perhaps that's what he's hoping to put in his next
report to the king." 'But why?
Why does Orun give a damn who Tobin's squire is?" 'Who's
closer to Tobin than you? Who would be of more use to Orun if he
wanted Tobin spied on than the prince's own squire?" 'You think
Orun means to harm him?" 'No, I
think he means to control him. And who do you think controls Orun?" 'The king?"
Ki whispered. 'Yes.
You're too young for this, Ki, but since they've gone after you, you
need to know. It's all a great gaming board we're on, and the stake
over on the side is Atyion and all the other lands and riches that
Tobin holds. You and me? We're guard stones around Tobin, and we're
in their way." 'But
Tobin's loyal to the king. All he wants is to go and fight for him.
Why can't Erius just leave him alone?" 'That's
what I don't quite understand myself. But it's not for us to solve
that, only to stand by him. And to do that, you're going to have to
convince Tobin to flog you properly tomorrow. And you're going to
have to tell him what Mago said." 'No."
Ki set his jaw. "I know what you've told me is the true way of
it, but I don't ever want Tobin knowing that a squire was talking
about him and his kin that way." 'But you're
going to have to, Ki. You'll have to go before Porion to be judged,
and he's going to ask." 'But that
means saying it out in front of everyone. Then they'll all know what
he said, right?" 'Probably." 'I won't do
that, Tharin. I just won't! Some of the others already make fun of
him behind his back on account of me, and for seeing ghosts. I don't
know what Tobin would do if this all came out, too. He isn't like the
rest of us. You know that." Ki was trembling again. "And I
don't want him to be, either. I like him just the way he is. So let
me do this my way now and I promise you I won't give Lord Orun
anything more to write to the king. I'll say it was for the insults
to my father and take my flogging and that'll be the end of it. To
make me out a liar, Mago would have to tell what he really said, and
I don't think he's going to do that. Not in front of Porion." He stood
tensely as Tharin considered this, ready to argue all night if he had
to. But Tharin
nodded. "All right then. But be careful, my boy. Some mistakes
you can back out of; I think you can with this one. But others you
can't. Honor, Ki, always honor. I want you safe. Both of you." Ki clasped
his hand gratefully. "I won't forget again. I swear it." Lctors came
in after the feast was finished, but the play was a romance of some
sort, incomprehensible to Tobin. He was dozing with his chin on his
hand, trying to ignore the ache in his side, when a messenger entered
and whispered in Orun's ear. Orun
clucked his tongue, then leaned over to Tobin. "Dear me, there
seems to have been some unpleasantness involving that squire of
yours!" Those
closest to them turned to stare. Korin had heard, and Caliel, too. Tobin stood
and made a hasty bow. "With your permission, Lord Orun, may I be
excused?" 'If you
must. I shouldn't bother myself if I were you." 'I'd like
to, all the same." Tobin felt
every eye in the room on his back as he hurried out. His side hurt
worse than ever. ^aldus was
waiting for him at the Palace gate and burst into tears as soon as he
saw him. "Hurry, Prince Tobin! Master
Porion and the others are already in the Companion's hall. Ki hit
Mago!" 'O gods!
Why?" Tobin asked in alarm as they strode down the corridor. 'I don't
know, but I hope he knocked his teeth out!" the boy exclaimed
tearfully. "He's always been mean to the pages." A few lamps
at one end lit the hall. Ki sat on a bench, looking defiant. Porion
stood grimly beside him. On a second
bench Alben sat with Mago, looking no happier. The squire's nose was
swollen and his lip was split. Quirion and Arius stood with them. The
rest of the Companions stood at attention across the room. 'He did
this!" Alben shouted at Tobin, pointing an accusing finger at
Ki. 'That's
enough!" snapped Porion. 'What
happened?" Tobin asked, unable to believe what he was seeing. Ki
shrugged. "Mago insulted me." 'But why
didn't you say? Why didn't you tell me and bring it to the circle as
we're supposed to?" 'He
surprised me, my lord, and I lost my temper. I'm very sorry to have
dishonored you and I'm ready to take my punishment at your hand." Porion
sighed. "That's all he'll say, Prince Tobin. He won't even
repeat what Mago said." 'It doesn't
matter," Ki muttered. 'It does,"
snapped Porion. "If it's only you he insulted that's one thing.
If he said anything about your lord or some other—" He
cast a baleful look at Mago. "—then it's another matter
altogether. Prince Tobin, command him to speak." 'Ki,
please." Ki shot
Mago a disdainful glance. "He called me a bastard and a grass
knight. And he called my father a horse thief." Porion
stared at him in disbelief. "And for that you hit him?" 'I didn't
like the way he said it." Tobin
looked around at the others again, wondering why Ki seemed the
calmest of the lot. The arms
master gave Mago and Arius a hard look. "Is this so?" The two
boys quailed under that scrutiny. "Yes, Arms Master. It's as he
said." They're
lying, thought Tobin. But why would Ki protect them? Porion
threw up his hands. "Very well. Prince Tobin, I give Ki into
your charge. Alben, I give Mago over to you. Before the offering
tomorrow Prince Tobin will mete out Ki's punishment on the Sakor
steps. First offense is ten strokes of the lash, and a day and night
of fasting vigil. Mago, a fasting vigil might curb that unruly tongue
of yours, too, so the same for you. Now get out of my sight!" ^etreating
to their chamber, Tobin sent the servants out and rounded on Ki.
"What happened? How could you do such a thing?" 'Just being
a stupid grass knight, I guess." Tobin
grabbed him by the front of his damp tunic and shook him angrily.
"Don't you ever call yourself that! That's not what you are!" Ki covered
Tobin's hands with his own and eased them away. "I did what they
said, Tob. I lost my temper like a fool. But they wanted me to. I
think they did it on purpose to embarrass you. Don't give them the
satisfaction." 'What do
you mean?" Tobin demanded. "And how can I do that to you?
If I'd been there I'd have hit him myself, and then they could beat
the both of us together!" 'Yes, I'm
sure you would have. But that's no good. They forced my hand, made me
do something against my will, and now they think they've got the
laugh on me." He went to
the bed and sat down. "I didn't tell Porion everything. This
wasn't the first time, and Mago isn't the only one who's said things.
I don't even have to say who, do I? To them, I'm just a grass knight
who grew up sleeping in the dirt." He looked up and forced a
tired grin. "That's true enough I guess, but the lucky thing is,
it makes you strong. Stronger than they are. Ruan told me Arius cried
when he got his beating a while back. You don't have enough strength
in that arm of yours to make me bawl." Tobin
stared at him, aghast. "I won't hurt you!" Ki shook
his head. "You're going to have to try, though. We have to give
'em a good show, like we always do. If they think that you're too
soft to keep me in line, then the king may think again about letting
me stay on as your squire. That's what Tharin said. I asked him
already. So put your back into it tomorrow and show them that we're
tough as mountain oak." Tobin was
trembling now. Ki rose and gripped him by the shoulders. "This
is for us, Tob, so we can stay together. You don't want Moriel in
here, instead of me, do you?" 'No."
Tobin, trying hard not to cry. If Tharin said they could still send
Ki away, then it must be so. "But Ki, I don't want—" 'I know
that. This is all my fault." He knelt before Tobin as he
had with Tharin. "Can you forgive me?" Tobin
couldn't bear it. Weeping, he grabbed Ki and hugged him close. Ki hugged
him back, but his voice was hard as he said, "Listen to me,
Tobin, you can't act like this tomorrow, you hear? It's just what
they want, the bastards. Don't you give them the satisfaction!" Tobin
pulled back and looked down at Ki; the same warm brown eyes, golden
skin, and prominent teeth under the dark lip scruff, but Ki looked
almost man grown suddenly. "You're not scared?" Ki stood up
and grinned at him again. "I told you, you're not going to hurt
me. You should have seen the hidings my father used to give us.
Bilairy's balls, I'll probably doze off before you're finished.
Besides, it was worth it to finally shut Mago's foul mouth!" Tobin tried
to match that grin, but it wouldn't come. $ It was
still raining the next morning. They jogged to the temple under a
cold grey canopy of clouds. Tobin gripped the heavy whip in his hands
as he ran and tried to think of nothing but the solid feel of the wet
earth beneath his feet; not the hot stitch throbbing in his side, or
Ki running like a silent shadow beside him. Neither of
them had slept well and, when morning came, Tobin was dismayed to
find his friend curled up in a blanket on the alcove bed across the
room. Tobin had almost forgotten that it was there. Ki mumbled
something about being restless, and they'd dressed in silence. They were
among the first to appear that morning, and Porion took Tobin aside
as they waited in the portico for the rest of the Companions to
arrive. The arms
master placed a stiff leather lash in Tobin's hands. It was about
three feet long and as thick as his thumb, with a stiff core and a
hilt like that of a sword. 'This is no
toy," he warned. "Ki doesn't have a man's muscle on him
yet. Strike too hard or too often in the same place and you'll open
him to the bone and lay him up for days. No one wants that. Stand to
his left for five strokes and to his right for the other five, and
space them wide. Strike this hard—" Porion slapped the
base of the whip against Tobin's palm, "and the tip strikes ten
times as hard. When you're done he must kiss your hand, still
kneeling, and ask your pardon." Tobin's
stomach turned over at the thought. V.' he
Temple of the Four resolved from the curtain of rain ahead of them,
square and forbidding above its steep stairs. It stood at the center
of the Palatine and was a nexus for business as well as worship. At
this early hour, however, it was- frequented mostly by the devout
making their offerings at the altars inside. Broad
stairs led up each of the Temple's four sides. The Altar of Sakor
stood on the west, and it was on these stairs that the Companions
gathered for Ki's ordeal after making their offerings. The priest of
Sakor stood in the open doorway at the top of the stairs. "Who
has broken the Companions' peace and brought disgrace on his lord's
name?" he asked, attracting a small crowd of onlookers. Tobin
looked around. There were soldiers mostly, but Aliya and her friends
were there, too, muffled in veils and cloaks against the rain. So
were Lord Orun and Moriel. Any goodwill Tobin had had for the boy
evaporated as he recognized the gloating look in Moriel's eyes.
Tharin was not there, or anyone else from Tobin's household. 'I broke
the peace," Ki replied in a loud, steady voice. "I,
Kirothius, son of Larenth, unworthy squire of Prince Tobin, am guilty
of striking a fellow Companion. I stand ready to take my punishment." The other
Companions formed a box on the stairs around them as Ki stripped off
his jerkin and shirt. Kneeling, he leaned forward and braced his
hands on a step above him. Tobin took his place on Ki's right and
gripped the whip. 'I beg your
pardon, my prince," Ki said, his voice carrying clear and strong
on the morning air. Tobin
rested the whip across Ki's back, then froze, unable for a moment to
get any air into his lungs. He knew what was expected, that Ki would
hold no grudge, that there was no turning back. But looking down at
that familiar back, with its downy golden line down the spine and the
catamount shoulder blades motionless under the sun-browned skin, he
thought he wasn't going to be able to move at all. Then Ki whispered,
"Come on, Job, let's give 'em a show." Trying to
gauge as Porion had shown him, Tobin raised the whip and brought it
down across Ki's shoulders. Ki didn't flinch, but an angry red welt
burned where the whip had bitten. 'One,"
said Ki, quite clearly. 'No one
expects you to count the strokes," Porion said quietly. Tobin
brought the whip down again, a few inches lower. It was too hard; Ki
shuddered this time, and droplets of blood beaded the new welt. 'Two,"
Ki announced, just as clearly. Someone
murmured in the crowd. Tobin thought he recognized Orun's voice and
hated the man all the more. He brought
the whip down three more times on that side, ending just above Ki's
waist. They were both sweating, but Ki's voice stayed steady as he
counted off each stroke. Tobin
changed sides and began again at Ki's shoulders, crosshatching the
welts he'd already made. 'Six,"
said Ki, but this time it came out a hiss. Tobin had drawn blood
again. The whip cut into the swollen flesh where the two stripes met
and a trickle of blood inched away toward Ki's armpit. You
see blood Tobin's empty stomach lurched again. He made seven too
light, then eight and nine too fast so that Ki had to gasp out the
count. By "Ten" his voice was ragged but it was over. Ki sat back
on his heels and reached for Tobin's hand. "Forgive me, my
prince, for disgracing you." Before he
could kiss it, Tobin pulled him up onto his feet and clasped his hand
like a warrior. "I forgive you, Ki." Confused by
this break with ritual, Ki bent uncertainly to complete the ceremony,
pressing his lips to the back of Tobin's hand as they stood facing
each other. Another murmur went through the crowd. Tobin saw Prince
Korin and Porion both giving them curious but approving looks. The priest
was less happy about the breach. His voice was harsh as he called
out, "Come and be cleansed, Squire Kirothius." The
Companions parted silently and Ki climbed the remaining stairs with
his head held high, the ten uneven welts showing like fire on his
bloodied back. Mago followed to begin his punishment vigil, looking a
good deal less heroic. When they'd
disappeared inside Tobin looked down at the whip he still held, then
over at Alben, who stood with Quirion and Urmanis. Were they smirking
at him? At what he'd just done? He tossed the whip down. "I
challenge you, Alben. Meet me in the practice ring. Unless you're
afraid of getting your pretty clothes dirty." Gathering
up Ki's discarded jerkin and shirt, he turned on his heel and walked
away. i-lben had
little choice but to accept Tobin's challenge, though he didn't look
too happy about it. The rain
had slackened to a sullen drizzle by the time they squared off in the
stone circle. A crowd had followed them from the temple to watch what
was all too clearly a grudge match. Tobin had
practiced against Alben often since his arrival in Ero and hadn't
often bested the older boy, once Alben had learned to watch for
tricks. But today he was driven by pent-up fury, and his years of
rough practice with Ki served him well. He battered Alben down into
the cold mud again and again. As he swung the wooden sword, it felt
almost like the heavy whip in his hand and he wished he could bring
it down on Alben's back just once. Instead, he broke through the
older boy's guard and hit him across the nasal of his helmet hard
enough to bloody his nose. Alben went to his knees and yielded. Tobin bent
to help him up. As he leaned close, he whispered just loud enough for
Alben to hear. "I'm a prince, Alben, and I'll remember you when
I'm grown. Teach your squire to keep a civil tongue in his head. And
you can tell Lord Orun the same." Alben
pulled away angrily, then bowed and left the circle. 'You."
Tobin pointed his sword at Quirion. "Will you fight me?" 'I have no
quarrel with you. And no desire to catch the plague out here in the
rain." He helped Alben back toward the Palace and their friends
drifted off with them. 'I'll fight
you," said Korin, stepping into the ring. 'Korin,
no—" Porion warned, but Korin waved him off. 'It's all
right, Arms Master. Come on, Tobin. Give me your best." Tobin
hesitated. He wanted to fight someone he was angry with, not his
cousin. But Korin was already in the circle and saluting. He faced
Korin and raised his blade. Fighting
Korin was like fighting against a wall. Tobin threw himself into it,
wanting to give the prince his best, but Korin met every attack with
a block like an iron bar. But he didn't return the attacks, just let
Tobin wear himself out until he fell back panting and called a yield. 'There now,
do you feel any better?" 'Maybe a
little." Korin
leaned on his sword and grinned at him. "You two always have to
have things your own way, don't you?" 'What do
you mean?" 'Well, the
kiss, for one thing. You wouldn't let Ki kneel." Tobin
shrugged. He hadn't planned that. It had just seemed the thing to do
at the moment. "Only equals do that." 'Ki is my
equal." 'He's not,
you know. You're a prince." 'He's my
friend." Korin shook
his head. "What a funny little fellow you are. I think I'll have
you for my Lord Chancellor when I'm king. Come on. Let's go eat. Ki
and Mago must starve for their sins, but we don't have to." 'I'd rather
stay out for a while, if you don't mind, cousin." Korin
looked to Porion and laughed. "Stubborn as his father! Or mine.
Suit yourself, then, coz, but don't catch your death. I'll be needing
you, as I said before." Korin and the older Companions strode
away, followed by their squires. Lutha and
Nikides hung back. "Would you like company?" Lutha asked. Tobin shook
his head. All he wanted right now was to be left alone to miss Ki.
He'd have ridden down to the sea if he could, but it was forbidden
for Companions to leave the Palatine alone and he didn't have the
heart to face Tharin yet. Instead he spent the rest of the day
walking the citadel in the rain. It was a gloomy pastime and suited
his mood. He avoided
the Temple, telling himself he didn't want to embarrass Ki by
intruding on his vigil, but the truth was he wasn't ready to face his
friend, either. The memory of the red welts rising on that smooth
brown back was enough to make the bile rise in his throat. Instead, he
circled the banks of Queen Klia's great pool and watched the silvery
fish jump at raindrops, then made the long walk to the grove of Dalna
above the northern escarpment. It was only a few acres of trees, but
they were as ancient as the city itself, and for a little while he
could imagine himself back home again, on his way to Lhel's oak. He
missed the strange little witch terribly. He missed Nari and the
servants at the keep. He even missed Arkoniel. A hearth
shrine stood at the center of the grove; Tobin found a wooden carving
in his belt pouch and cast it and a few homesick tears into the
flames with a prayer to be at his home hearth soon. JLjamps
were being lit around the citadel when Tobin happened past the royal
tomb. He hadn't come here since the night of his arrival. Chilled and
footsore, he went inside to warm himself at the altar flame. 'Father, I
miss you!" he whispered, staring into the flame. Had it really
only been a few months since he'd died? It didn't seem possible.
Tobin felt like he'd been here for years already. He pulled
the chain from his neck and held the seal and his mother's ring in
his hand. Tears blurred his eyes as he looked down at the dual
profiles on the ring. He missed both of them. Right now he knew he'd
even be glad to see his mama in one of her bad spells, if only he
could be home again and everything as it had been. He had no
desire to visit the dead below. Instead, he said a long prayer for
their spirits. When he was finished he felt a little better. It was
raining harder now. He turned and studied the effigies of the Skalan
queens as he waited for it to pass, wondering if he could recognize
the ghost that he'd seen in the throne room. As an
artist, he noted with interest the differing styles of the statues.
The earliest, Gherilain the Founder, was a stiff, lifeless figure
with a flat face and all her clothes and accounterments molded close
to her body, as if the sculptor hadn't had the skill to quite free
her from the stone. All the same, he recognized the Sword of
Gherilain clutched in her gauntleted hands—the same sword that
all the other statues held. His uncle carried that sword now. Was it the
same sword, perhaps, that the ghost had held out to him? He turned
slowly where he stood, studying the stone faces. Which one had she
been? For she had certainly been a queen. And if it had been this
sword she'd held, why would she offer it to him? He checked
quickly to make certain that the altar priest "was nowhere
around, then whispered, "Blood my blood, flesh my flesh, bone my
bone." Brother
appeared, looking transparent in the firelight. How long had it been
since he'd last called him, Tobin wondered guiltily. Three days? A
week? Perhaps longer. There had been feasts and dances and practices,
then all the fuss with Ki. What would Lhel say? He didn't like to
think of that. 'I'm sorry
I forgot," he whispered. "Look, here are the great queens.
You remember the ones in the box at home? This is their tomb. I saw
one of them—her ghost. Do you know who it was?" Brother
began circling the effigies, looking up at each one in turn. He came
to rest at last in front of one and seemed content to remain there. 'Is that
her? Is she the one I saw at the Old Palace?" 'I beg your
pardon, Prince Tobin?" Tobin
turned to find the king's wizard standing beside the altar. "Lord
Niryn! You startled me." Niryn
bowed. "I might say the same, my prince. I heard you speak, yet
I see no one here to listen." 'I—I
thought I saw a ghost in the Old Palace once, and I was wondering if
it could have been one of the queens." 'But you
spoke aloud." If Niryn
could see Brother, he gave no sign. Tobin was careful not to look at
the ghost as he answered. "Don't you ever talk to yourself, my
lord?" Niryn
stepped closer. "Perhaps. So, do you recognize your ghost here?" 'I'm not
sure. They aren't very good for faces, are they? Perhaps that one."
He pointed to the one where Brother stood. "Do you know who she
is?" 'Queen
Tamir, daughter of Queen Gherilain the First, I believe." 'Then I
guess she'd have reason to haunt," Tobin said, trying to make
light of it all. "She was murdered by her brother," he went
on, nervously rattling off the lesson out of habit. "Pelis
contested the Oracle and seized the throne, but Illior Lightbearer
punished the land and killed him." 'Hush,
child!" Niryn exclaimed, making some sign on the air. "King
Pelis did not murder his sister. She died and he was the only heir.
No queen has ever been murdered in Skala, my prince. It's most
unlucky to even suggest such a thing. And assassins killed him, not
the gods. Your teachers were most misinformed. Perhaps a new tutor is
in order." 'My
apologies, Wizard," Tobin said quickly, taken aback by this
unexpected outburst. "I meant no offense in this holy place." The
wizard's stern expression softened. "I'm certain the shades of
your ancestors would make allowances for their youngest descendent.
You are, after all, the next in line for their throne after Prince
Korin." 'Me?"
This was even more surprising. 'But of
course. The king's brothers and sisters are dead, and their issue
with them. There is no one else of such close blood tie." 'But Korin
will have heirs of his own." Tobin had never once imagined
sitting on the throne of Skala, only that he would serve it. 'No doubt.
But he is a young spark yet, and none of his paramours have kindled.
Until then, you are next in the line of succession. Your parents
never spoke to you of such things?" Niryn
smiled in a way that did not reach his eyes, and Tobin felt a
strange, crawling feeling deep inside, like someone was stirring
around in his guts with a bony finger. 'No, my
lord. Father only said that I would be a great warrior and serve my
cousin as he served the king." 'An
admirable aspiration. You should always beware of anyone who tries to
draw you from the path ordained for you by Sakor." 'My lord?" 'We live in
uncertain times, my dear prince. There are forces at work disloyal to
the royal house, factions who would have someone other than
Agnalain's son rule. If anyone of that ilk should approach you, I
hope you will do your duty and speak to me at once. Such disloyalty
cannot be tolerated." 'Is that
what you and the Harriers do, my lord?" Tobin asked. "Hunt
down traitors?" 'Yes,
Prince Tobin." The wizard's voice seemed to take on a darker
timbre and fill the open space of the tomb. "As a servant of the
Lightbearer, I have sworn to see the children of Thelatimos safe on
the throne of Skala. Every true Skalan must serve. All falsehood must
be purged with the Flame of Sakor." Niryn
reached into the altar fire and drew out a handful of flame. It
rested in his palm like water. Tobin fell
back a step, disliking the reflection of this unnatural fire in the
man's jasper-colored eyes. Niryn let
the flame run away to nothingness through his fingers. "Forgive
me, Your Highness. I had forgotten that you do not enjoy displays of
magic. But I hope that you will remember my words. As I said, we live
in uncertain times and too often foul appears fair. It is difficult
for one so young as you to discern the difference. I pray that the
mark you bear on your arm proves a true sign, and that you will
always count me among your good councilors. Good night to you, my
prince." The
crawling, stirring feeling rippled through Tobin again, less strong
this time, then disappeared as Niryn left the tomb. Tobin
waited until the man was out of sight, then sat down at the foot of
the altar and wrapped his arms around his knees to fight the fresh
chill that had overtaken him. The
wizard's veiled allusions to traitors frightened him. It was as if he
was being accused of doing something, yet he knew that he'd done
nothing that the wizard could disapprove of. He was loyal to Korin
and the king with all his heart. Brother
squatted beside him. There is no Pelts here. Tobin
looked around at the effigies. After taking count and looking
carefully into their faces he saw that Brother was right. No effigy
of King Pelis stood among the royal dead. Niryn was wrong; the
lessons his father and Arkoniel had taught him were the truth. But
why would the wizard be so insistent? All the
same, Niryn had given him the name of the queen Brother had
chosen—the very one King Pelis had murdered. Tobin went
to stand in front of the second queen of Skala and placed his right
hand on the stone sword she held. "Hello, Grandmother Tamir." *
I %e sun came out the next day and Porion ordered J. them back to
outdoor practice. Tobin
hardly noticed the renewed ache in his side as they ran to the
Temple, wondering instead how Ki had fared. His heart swelled with
relief when Ki emerged, hungry but unbowed. Mago looked the worse for
wear of the two, and Ki confided later that he'd stared at the other
squire for hours in the dead of night without speaking, just to put
the wind up Mago's ass. Apparently it had worked. The priests
had put a salve on Ki's stripes and he joined in at practice without
complaint. He joked with his friends among the squires, ignored his
enemies, and served at table that night. Tobin decided that
everything was settled for the best until bedtime came and Ki pulled
back the curtains on the alcove bed. 'You're
sleeping there again?" Ki eased
himself down on the edge of the narrow bed and laced his fingers
together in his lap. Tobin could tell by the way Ki held himself that
he was in more pain than he'd let on. "Baldus?" The page
rose up on his pallet. "Yes, Prince Tobin?" 'Go to the
kitchens and see if the cook can make a sleeping draught for Sir Ki." Baldus
scampered out. Tobin barred the door after him and went back to Ki.
"What's all this about?" He
shrugged. "I hear that most of the other squires do and—well—
You know, people look at us strange enough as it is. I just thought
that maybe we ought to do a few things the Ero way." 'Korin
likes how we do things our own "way. He told me so. He was proud
of you yesterday." 'Was he?
Well, Korin isn't everybody. And I'm not a prince." 'You're
angry with me." 'With you?
Never. But—" For the
first time since the trouble began, Ki's brave front crumbled. Tobin
saw past it to the tired, beaten-down country boy slumped before him,
shoulders held awkwardly to ease the pain. Tobin sat
down beside him and inspected the back of Ki's shirt. It was stained
with spots of blood. 'You're
bleeding. That'll stick by morning if you leave it. Here, you better
let me help." He coaxed
Ki out of the shirt and threw it aside on the bed. The ache in his
side was worse tonight, but he ignored it. It was Ki who needed
tending now, not him. The welts
had changed from red to purple and black, and the scabs pulled and
bled when Ki moved. Tobin swallowed hard, thinking of all the times
he'd kept Nari from taking a switch to Ki. Now he'd done this. 'I don't
like it here," he said at last. Ki nodded
and a tear dripped off the end of his nose to land on the back of
Tobin's hand. 'I wish we
could have just gone with Father. Or that the Companions could ride
out tomorrow and go find the king. Mostly, I wish I was grown and had
my lands, so I could make you a lord. I promise I will, Ki. No one is
going to call you a grass knight again after that." Ki let out
a hiccuping laugh and painfully lifted an arm around Tobin's
shoulders. "I don't—" A loud
crash came from the direction of the dressing room, startling them
both. Tobin jumped to his feet and Ki flinched back, grabbing for his
discarded shirt. Korin and
half a dozen of the older Companions and squires came staggering in
by way of the hidden panel. 'Cousin,
we've come to issue an invitation!" Korin cried, and Tobin
guessed that he'd been drinking steadily since they'd parted after
supper. Urmanis and Zusthra were flushed and grinning, too. Orneus
had his arms around Lynx and was nuzzling his ear. Caliel looked a
bit clearer but Korin's squire, Tanil, was the only sober one. He
gave Tobin a bow, looking embarrassed. 'We're off
to the city to play and we've come to invite you," Korin went
on, staggering into the middle of the room. "And more
especially, the inestimable Ki. Get your clothes on, boy, and I'll
buy you a whore to take your mind off your back." Carol
staggered sideways from the group and vomited loudly as the others
berated him. 'Ah,
Urmanis, looks like you two are next for the temple steps,"
Korin said, shaking his head. "Your squire's dishonored you all
over my poor cousin's floor. Now, what was I saying—? Oh, yes.
Whores. You're old enough, aren't you, Ki? I've seen you eyeing the
girls! By the Flame, you're the best of this rotten lot. We'll get
drunk and kick that pimple Mago out of bed. Alben, too, the bugger!" 'No,
Cousin. Ki's tired." Tobin stood between the prince and his
friend, wondering what he was going to do if Korin decided to force
them to go. This was the drunkest he'd seen Korin since the night
they'd arrived. Fortunately
Tanil was his ally tonight. "They're too young for your revels,
your highness. Besides, Ki's so sore a whore would be wasted on him.
Let's get ourselves out before Master Porion catches you and sends
you back to bed." 'Damnation,
we don't want that! Everyone be quiet, for
hell's sake!" Korin roared. "Come, coz. Give us a kiss for
luck. You, too, imeshamable Kirothius. Good night! Good night!" Korin
wouldn't be satisfied until everyone had kissed Tobin and Ki on both
cheeks and been kissed for luck in return, but at last they stumbled
out the way they'd come. As soon as
Tobin was sure they were gone he dragged the heaviest chair in the
room into the dressing room and braced it against the panel, then
called Brother and set him to watch. He returned
to the bedchamber to find Ki washing his face at the basin. He'd let
Baldus and Molay in, and they were grumbling to each other as they
cleared away Carol's sour vomit. 'It's never
like this when the king's at home," Molay muttered. "When
Korin was younger Porion could keep him in line, but now—! I'll
burn some incense to cut the stink. Baldus, go and fetch some spiced
wine for the prince." 'No, no
wine," Tobin said wearily. When the
servants had finished, Tobin sent them away for the night, then
pulled Ki back to the large bed. "You saw what comes of doing
things the Ero way. Go to sleep." With a
sigh, Ki gave in and sprawled on his belly at the far edge of the
bed. Tobin lay
back against the bolsters and tried to ignore the smell still
noticeable through the roiling clouds of incense. "What was
Ornews doing to poor Lynx?" Ki snorted
into his pillow. "What did you do yesterday while I was
flattening my knees with Mago?" Tobin
thought back over the long grey day. "Nothing, really. But I met
Niryn at the tombs last night." 'Fox Beard?
What did he want?" 'He said
I'm the next heir after Korin until he gets an heir of his own." Ki turned
to regard him thoughtfully. "I guess you are, at that. The way
Korin was staggering tonight, you might just get your chance, too." 'Don't
joke!" Tobin warned. "If the Harriers heard you even
joking, I think maybe they'd come for you. Niryn scares me. Every
time he's near me I feel like he's looking for something, like he
thinks I'm hiding something." 'He looks
at everyone that way," Ki mumbled, slipping fast toward sleep.
"All those white wizards do. I wouldn't dare get around any of
them. But what have we got to worry about? No one is more loyal than
we…" He trailed off into a soft snore. Tobin lay
awake for a long time, remembering the strange feeling he'd had
around the wizard, and the secret enemies the man had spoken of. No
traitor had better approach him; as little as he might care for the
red-bearded wizard, he'd keep his promise to him if any man asked him
to betray the rightful ruler of Skala. 'TT'hink it
was worth it to them?" Ki whispered to Tobin -L as Korin and his
revelers straggled up for the morning run the next day. Porion was
watching them, too, looking like a thundercloud about to burst. Carol's
purging hadn't done him any good; he was as green as a leek and
swaying on his feet. The others were less wobbly but very quiet. Only
Korin, who'd seemed the drunkest, was his usual self. His morning
greeting to Tobin was contrite, however. 'I don't
suppose you spared any kind thoughts for us after we left you?"
he asked, giving Tobin a sheepish look. 'Did you
have fun in the city, Your Highness?" asked Ki. 'We got as
far as the gate this time before Porion caught us. We're all to do a
penance vigil after training, to cleanse the poisons from us, as he
put it. There's to be no wine at table for a month." He sighed.
"I don't know why I do it. You will forgive me, won't you, Tob?" Tobin
hadn't been angry in the first place, and Korin's pleading smile
would have melted river ice on Sakor's Day. "I'd rather you come
in my front door, that's all." Korin
clapped him on the shoulder. "Then it's peace between us? Good.
Come on, let's race these laggards to the temple!" Tobin and
Ki led the pack easily today, but Korin kept up with them, laughing
all the way. Tobin knew Ki had his doubts about the prince, but he
found himself liking the older boy almost as much for his faults as
in spite of them. Even drunk he was never gross or cruel the way some
of the others were, and it never seemed to affect him afterward.
Today he looked as fresh as if he'd spent the whole night sound
asleep. When they'd
finished with the temple devotions Porion ran them straight to the
archery lists. It was a clear, windless morning and Tobin was looking
forward to besting Urmanis, with whom he had a running rivalry. As he took
his place at the mark and drew the first shaft to his ear, however,
the belly pain that had plagued him over the past several days took
him again, this time with a sharp, sudden stitch that made him catch
his breath and release without aiming. The arrow flew wild over a
knot of girls watching nearby. They scattered like startled birds. 'Tobin,
have you got your eyes open?" shouted Porion, still in a foul
humor. Tobin
mumbled an apology. The pain passed, but left him tense and awkward. 'What's the
matter, Prince Wildcat?" Urmanis chuckled, stepping up for his
shot. "Snake crawl over your shadow?" His arrow sped true
to the center of the bull. Tobin
ignored the jibe and nocked another shaft. Before he could draw the
pain came again, gripping his bowels like hot claws. Tobin swallowed
hard and made himself go on as if nothing was wrong, not wanting to
show weakness before the other Companion. He took aim and released in
one smooth motion, only to find Brother standing there in front of
the bull as the shaft took flight. The spirit
hadn't come without being summoned since that day at his mother's
house. The day he'd found her ring. Brother was
mouthing something but Tobin couldn't make it out. Another cramp took
him, worse than the last. It was all Tobin could do to stay on his
feet until it passed. 'Tobin?"
Urmanis wasn't making fun anymore as he bent to look into Tobin's
face. "Master Porion, I think the prince is ill!" Ki and
Porion were at his side at once. 'It's just
a cramp," he gasped. "I ran hard—" Porion felt
his brow. "No sign of fever, but you're pale as milk. Were you
sick in the night?" Brother
stood close enough to touch now. "No. It just took me now, since
the run." 'Well then,
you'd better go back to your bed for a while. Ki, see that the prince
gets to his bed, then report to me." Brother
stayed with Tobin all the way back to their chamber, watching him
with unreadable black eyes. Molay
insisted on helping him into bed while little Baldus hovered just
behind. Tobin let them pull off his jerkin and shoes, then curled
into a tight ball as a new wave of pain struck. Ki shooed
the others back and climbed up beside him. Pressing the back of his
hand to Tobin's brow, he shook his head. "You're not feverish,
but you're in a sweat. Baldus, go fetch Sir Tharin." Tobin could
see Brother standing behind Ki now, shaking his head slowly. "No,
just let me rest," he gasped. "It's probably that pudding
we ate last night. I shouldn't eat figs." He gave Ki a rueful
grin. "Just leave me with the pot, all right? Go back and tell
them I'm all right. I don't want that pack of drunkards gloating over
me." 'Is that
all?" Ki let out a relieved laugh. "No wonder you ran out
of there so fast. All right, then. I'll carry your message and come
right back." 'No, stay
and practice. I'll be right soon. Porion has enough people to be
angry at today." Ki squeezed
his shoulder and then pulled the curtains around the bed. Tobin
listened to him go out. He lay very still, wondering at the strange
sensations in his belly. The pain was not so sharp now, and seemed to
come and go like waves that made him think of the tide on the beach.
As the pain receded, he was aware of another, more unsettling sensa
tion in its wake. He got up and made certain there was no one in the
chamber or dressing room. Then, with the curtain pulled tight all
around, he undid his trousers and pulled them down to find a small
wet stain where the two legs joined. He stared at it, puzzled. He was
certain he hadn't soiled himself. Brother was
with him again, staring. 'Go away,"
Tobin whispered, his voice faint and shaky, but Brother stayed.
"Blood my blood—" He stopped,
throat tight with fear as he gauged the position of that stain.
Reaching down with shaking fingers, he felt under his privates, still
so small and hairless compared to those of the other Companions. On
the wrinkled underside of the sac, he felt a patch of sticky wetness
on the skin. He stared at his fingertips in alarm; even in this light
he could see that it was blood. He could hardly breathe for fear as
he reached down again and felt desperately for some sore or wound. The skin
was unbroken. The blood was seeping through like dew. 'Oh, gods!"
He knew what this was. Plague. The
Red and Black Death. All the
street-corner mummeries he'd watched came back to him, and the tales
the boys shared around the hearth. First you bled through your skin,
then huge black sores swelled under your arms and in your groin. In
the end you thirsted so badly you'd crawl into a gutter to drink
filth before you died vomiting out what blood you had left. On the
heels of this came Lhel's words again. You see
blood? You come to me. It had been a vision after all. 'What do I
do?" he whispered to Brother. But he already knew. Don't
be tell nobody. You love your friend, you don't tell him, Lhel
had warned. He mustn't
tell Ki. Or Tharin. Or anyone else he loved. They'd want to help and
they'd catch it, too. He looked
around at the bed he and Ki had shared. Had he made his friend sick
already? You
love your friend, you don't tell him. Tobin tied
up his trousers and climbed out of the bed. Ki would never let him go
off alone. Neither would Lord Orun or Porion or Tharin or anyone
else. He found his tunic and got it on before pain pushed hot red
fingers through his belly again, making him grit his teeth and curl
forward. The seal and ring clinked against his chest inside his
shirt. He pulled them out and clutched them like talismans, feeling
very alone. He had to get to Lhel. When the
pain receded he went into the dressing room and buckled on his
father's blade. I'm nearly tall enough to carry
it, now that I'm dying, he thought bitterly. Let
me at least be burned with it. There's no one left to pass it to. He heard
servants talking out in the corridor; there was no escape that way
without being seen. Throwing on an old cloak, he knelt and felt at
the panel that led to his cousin's room. As Korin had warned, he
couldn't open it from his side, but Brother could and did. Korin's
room was similar to his own, but the hangings were richer and done in
red and gold. He also had a stairway from his balcony down to the
gardens, and Tobin made use of it to escape unseen. T't't
,''l-s Ki had feared, Porion kept him at practice half the
afternoon. The shadows of the thin pines were stretching into their
chamber by the time he finally returned to their room. 'Tobin, how
are you?" There was
no answer. He went to the bed and pulled back one of the heavy
hangings, thinking his friend must still be asleep, but found the bed
empty. Puzzled, Ki
looked around the room. There was the discarded jerkin; Tobin's sword
and bow still hung on the carved rack where he'd left them. There
were a dozen places his friend could be, and normally Ki would have
been content to wait for him to show up or to meet him at the nightly
feast, but Tobin's sudden illness had left him uneasy in his mind. Just then
he caught the scuffing of feet on the balcony and turned to see Tobin
framed in the brightness of the doorway. "There you are!"
he exclaimed, relieved. "You must be feeling better." Tobin
nodded and walked quickly into the dressing room, waving at him to
follow. 'How are
you feeling? You still look pale." Tobin said
nothing as he climbed to the top of the old cupboard that stood in
the dressing room. 'What are
you doing?" Tobin wasn't acting himself, Ki thought. Perhaps he
was really ill after all. Even the way he moved seemed odd, though Ki
couldn't quite say how. 'Tob,
what's wrong? What're you after up there?" Tobin
twisted around and dropped a dirty cloth bag into Ki's hands. The
move brought them face to face for the first time since Ki had come
back to the room. Ki looked
up into those black, staring eyes and began to tremble. This wasn't
Tobin. 'Brother?" In the
blink of an eye, the other stood just inches in front of him. The
spirit's face reminded him of a mask—it was as if some
ham-fisted carver had tried to model Tobin's face, but forgotten to
put in any kindness or warmth. Ki thought suddenly of his own dead
mother lying frozen in the loft all those years ago; he'd pulled back
the blanket and looked into her face, seeking in vain for the loving
presence he'd known. It was the same now, looking for Tobin in the
face of the demon. In spite of
his fear, he found his voice again. "You're Brother?" The spirit
nodded, and something like a smile twitched its thin lips. The effect
was not a pleasant one. 'Where's
Tobin?" Brother
pointed to the bag. His mouth didn't move, but Ki heard a faint
whisper like wind blowing over a frozen lake. He
goes to Lhel. Take this to him quickly! Brother
vanished, leaving Ki alone in the lengthening shadows holding a dirty
cloth sack that wasn't empty. Lhel? Tobin
had gone home? But why? And why would he leave without him? Ki's hand
found the carved horse hanging at his throat as he fought off the
hurt feelings that came with such questions. If Tobin had gone
without him, then something was terribly wrong and, if that was so,
then Ki's place was at his side. But
he left without me— 'Tharin. I
should go tell Tharin, perhaps even Porion—" No! Ki jumped
as Brother hissed at him from the shadows beside the doorway. It was
a sign, seeing Brother at last. Tobin must be in very great danger
indeed if the ghost was appearing to him. He'd better do as the thing
said. In this, at
least, he had luck on his side. In the hours between duty and mess,
the boys were free to do as they wished. No one would give a squire a
second glance as he went between Palace and stables carrying his
master's arms for repair. Taking only
their swords and the mysterious bag, he went out to the stables. Here
his fears were confirmed. Gosi was gone. If Tobin had left mounted,
there was no hope of catching up with him now. All he could do was
follow. 'You might
have shown yourself a bit earlier," he muttered as he saddled
Dragon, hoping Brother was lurking close enough to hear. tale of a
squire's errand in the city suited the Palatine guards, and another
got him past those at the harbor gate. Night was falling fast and
there was no sign of Brother to guide him now, but there was moon
enough to light his road. Turning Dragon's head to the west, he
kicked the roan into a gallop along the high road and prayed to
Astellus to guide his hooves safely in the dark. There were
few riders on the roads at night, and fewer yet slight enough to be
Tobin, but Ki couldn't help staring hard at every stranger he
overtook. Near
midnight he stopped to rest his horse at a stream. Only then did it
occur to him to look inside the bag. JLt was
near that same hour that Tharin found a very distraught Molay at his
door. >Tphe
crescent moon guided Tobin home. By its light he JL put the sea at
his back and retraced the rivers and roads that led west to the
mountains. Perhaps Gosi remembered the way, too, for they took no
wrong turning through the night. Tobin had
fear to keep him awake, and the strange pain that swelled and changed
as the moon pulled him onward. Sometimes it wasn't there at all and
he pushed the horse into a gallop for miles at a time. Then it would
close in on him again and Gosi would wander along the grassy verge
while Tobin carried a basin of dull red fire sloshing between his
hipbones. Eyes half closed against it, he thought of Niryn and his
handful of flame at the royal tomb. As the
night dragged on, the pain often rose through him, digging in under
his breastbone and spreading out beneath his skin, making his flesh
hot and cold by turns on his bones. The blood in his trousers had
dried, but near midnight his chest began to itch down low, between
his nipples. When he reached in to scratch, his fingers came away
dark and wet. Plague
plague plague. It thrummed with the beating of his heart. Plague
bringer. Lhel must
have some cure. That must be why he'd been given the vision telling
him to go to her. Perhaps hill witches knew of some healing that the
drysians and the royal healers of Skala did not. They'd all
heard the tales. In the port cities the death bird plague chasers
nailed plague bringers in their houses, along with anyone else
unlucky enough to be there when the first victim was discovered. If
anyone survived the illness, they could prove their health by
breaking free. He was a
plague bringer. Lhel had
foreseen it. Would they
nail the Old Palace shut? In the
darkness his imagination conjured an army of deathbirds settling like
carrion crows on the Palace with hammers and pouches of nails over
their shoulders, like the workmen who'd come to the keep. Would they
follow him and nail up the keep, too? They could
put him in the tower. He'd wear their mask and be a bird like the
ones who'd been his mother's only companions-All through the long
night his thoughts chased themselves round in an endless circle. He
was almost surprised when he saw the jagged teeth of the mountains
rising against the star-crusted sky so close ahead of him. Che le
first glow of dawn was warming the sky at his back when he rode
through sleeping Alestun. Gosi was stumbling and blowing under him.
Tobin had passed from weariness into a numbed, dreaming state and
began to wonder if he would suddenly open his eyes and find himself
back in Ero after all, nailed in his room by the death-birds. Or
perhaps he was really following the trail of his visions to that
underground room guarded by the deer. He left the
town behind and rode on along the familiar road between
autumn-colored trees. It had looked much the same the first time his
father took him to Alestun nearly half his life ago. He was glad to
be here again, even if it did prove to be for the last time. Better
to die here than in the city. He hoped they'd leave his body
somewhere in the forest. He didn't want to be on one of those stone
shelves under the stone queens. He belonged here. He'd just
caught a glimpse of the tower roof over the treetops when Lhel
stepped out of the trees ahead of him. Tears of relief burned his
eyes. 'Keesa, you
come," she said, walking out into the road to meet him. 'I saw the
blood, Lhel." His voice was as faint as Brother's. "I'm
sick. I've brought plague." She grasped
his ankle and squinted up into his face, then gave his foot a
reassuring pat. "No, keesa. No plague." Pulling his
foot out of the stirrup, she climbed up behind him and took the
reins. He
remembered little of the ride that followed except for the warmth of
her body against his back. It felt good. The next
thing he knew she was helping him down out of the saddle •with
hands as cool as river water. There was the house oak, with its
baskets and racks, and the round shining pool of the spring
glimmering like a green and gold mirror just beyond. A cheerful
fire crackled in front of the door. She guided him to a log seat
beside it, pulled a fur robe around him, and placed a wooden cup of
boiled herb tea in his hands. Tobin sipped it, grateful for the
warmth. The soft fur of the robe was tawny cream and brown—catamount
fur. Ki's catamount, he thought, wishing his friend was here. 'What's
wrong with me?" he rasped. 'Show
blood." Tobin
pulled down the neck of his tunic to show her the seeping patch on
his chest. "You say I'm not sick, but look! What else would do
this?" Lhel
touched the damp flesh and sighed. "We asked much of the Mother.
Too much, I think." 'My
mother?" 'Her, yes,
but Goddess mother is the one I speak. You have pains there?" 'Some, but
mostly in my belly." Lhel
nodded. "Blood other place?"
Embarrassed, Tobin pulled up his jerkin and showed her where the
first stain had soaked through his trousers. Lhel placed
her hands on his head and spoke softly in words he didn't understand. 'Ah, too
soon, keesa. Too soon," she said, sounding sad. "Perhaps I
did wrong, making Brother's hekkamari keeping you so close. I must
bring Arkoniel. You eat while I go." 'Can't I go
•with you? I want to see Nari!" Tobin begged. 'Later,
keesa." She brought
him warm porridge, berries, and bread, then strode away through the
trees. Tobin
huddled deeper into the robe and took a bite of the bread. Stolen
from Cook's kitchen, no doubt. The taste of it made him even more
homesick. He longed to run after Lhel and sit by the kitchen fire
with Cook and Nari. Being so close, dressed in his old clothes, it
was easy to pretend that he'd never left home at all. Except that
Ki "wasn't here. Tobin ran his fingers along the edge of the
catamount skin, wondering what he was going to say to him when he
went back. What must Ki and Tharin and the others be thinking by now? He pushed
that worry away for later and touched the blood on his chest again.
He wasn't a plague carrier after all, but something was wrong. Maybe
something even worse. JLt was
almost daylight when Ki reached the turning of the road for Alestun,
but he missed it all the same, only having been this way once before.
He was clear past it •when Brother suddenly appeared in the road
in front of him, startling his horse. 'So there
you are!" Ki muttered, snubbing the reins to calm Dragon as he
shied. The ghost
pointed back the way he'd come. Ki turned and saw the marker he'd
missed at the crossroads behind him. "Many thanks, Brother." He was
almost used to the ghost by now. Or maybe he was just too tired and
hungry and worried about what he was going to find at the end of this
night's long ride to have any fear to spare. Whatever the case, he
was glad enough when Brother stayed with him and led the way to
Alestun. It was a
warm morning for mid-Erasin. A mist rose off the dripping trees,
ghostly in the thin light of the false dawn. 'Is Tobin
well?" he asked, assuming Brother would know something of his
twin's condition. But Brother neither turned nor spoke, just moved on
ahead of him in that odd, not-walking way of his. Watching him for a
while, Ki began to think he'd been more comfortable alone after all. ^,'Vrkoniel
looked up from his washbasin to find Lhel's face floating before him. 'You come
now," she said, and there was no mistaking the urgency in her
voice. "Tobin is with me. Magic has broken." Arkoniel
hastily dried his face and ran out to the stable. He didn't bother
with a saddle, just grasped the bridle and clung on to his gelding's
back as he rode up the mountain road to meet the witch. She was
waiting for him at the forest's edge, as always. He left the horse
and followed her on foot through the trees by •what felt like a
shorter route than usual. For over two years he'd been her pupil, her
lover, yet she had still not entrusted him with the way to her home. At the
clearing he found Tobin sitting by the fire wrapped in a catamount
skin. The child's face was drawn and sallow, and there were dark
circles under his eyes. He'd been dozing, but looked up sharply at
their approach. 'Tobin, how
are you feeling?" Arkoniel asked, kneeling in front of him. Was
it his imagination, or had the familiar planes of that face shifted
already, ever so slightly? 'A little
better," Tobin replied, looking scared. "Lhel says I don't
have plague." 'No, of
course you don't!" 'But tell
me what is happening to me!" Tobin showed him a bloody smear on
his flat, smooth chest. "It just keeps leaking out and it's
starting to hurt again. It must be the Red and Black Death. What else
would do this?" 'Magic,"
said Arkoniel. "A magic worked on you long ago that's coming
undone before its time. I'm so sorry. You were never meant to find
out this way." As he'd
feared, Tobin only looked more frightened at this. "Magic? On
me?" 'Yes.
Lhel's magic." Tobin cast
a betrayed look at the witch. "But why? When did you do it? When
you put my blood on the doll?" 'No, keesa.
Much older time ago. When you is born. lya and Arkoniel came to me,
ask for it. Say your moon god want it. Your father want it. Part of
your warrior path. Come, it's better to show than to tell you."
i had planned to go straight to the keep and fetch Arkoniel, but
Brother would have none of it. Follow,
the spirit demanded in his hoarse whispery voice. Ki didn't dare
disobey. Brother
guided him to a game track that skirted the meadow and crossed the
river at a ford further upstream. Ki peeked
into the bag at the worn old doll as he rode, wondering how such a
thing could matter to a ghost. But clearly it did, for Brother was
suddenly at his stirrup and Ki felt cold all over. Not
for you! hissed Brother, gripping his leg with icy fingers. 'I don't
want it!" Ki snugged the bag shut and stuffed it between his leg
and the saddle. The way
quickly became steep on the other side of the ford and began to look
familiar. Ki recognized a large stone that they'd used for a table
one summer day, picnicking with Arkoniel and Lhel. It couldn't be
much farther now. Tired as he
was, and uneasy with Brother, Ki couldn't help smiling as he thought
how surprised everyone would be to see him. Cot abin
shivered as he bent over the spring's smooth surface. Lhel had made
him take off his tunic and shirt. Looking down, he could see his face
and the red smear on his chest. He wondered if he should wash it
away, but didn't dare. Lhel and Arkoniel were still looking at him so
strangely. 'Watch the
pool," Lhel told him again, rustling around with something
behind him. "Arkoniel, you tell." The wizard
knelt beside him. "It should have been your father who told you
this, or lya. And you should be older and ready to take your place.
But it seems the gods have other plans. 'You've
heard people say that your dead twin was a girl. Well, that's true,
in a way." Tobin
looked up at him and saw a deep sadness in the wizard's face. 'Your
mother bore two children that night: a boy and a girl. One died, as
you know. But you see, the child who lived was a girl. You, Tobin.
Lhel used a special kind of magic—" 'Skin
binding," said Lhel. 'Skin
binding, to make you appear to be a boy, and the dead
boy—Brother—appear to be a girl." For a
moment Tobin thought he'd lost his voice again, as he had when his
mother died. But he managed a rasping, "No!" 'It's true,
Tobin. You are a girl in boy's form. And there will come a time when
you must put aside that false form and take your place in the world
as a woman." Tobin was
shivering now, and not because of the cold. "But— But
why?" 'To protect
you until you can be queen." 'Protect
me? From who?" 'From your
uncle and his Harriers. They'd kill you if they knew. The king would
have killed you the night you were born if we hadn't done as we did.
He'd killed others already, many others, whom he feared would
challenge his right, and Korin's." 'Niryn
said— But he talked of traitors!" 'No, they
were innocents. And they had far less claim than you, his own
sister's child. You know the Prophecy of Afra. You're a true daughter
of Thelatimos, the last of the pure line. This skin binding—it
was the only way we could think of to protect you. And until now it
worked." Tobin
stared down at the face in the water—his eyes, his hair, the
scar on his pointed chin. "No! You're lying! I want to be who I
am! I'm a warrior!" 'You've
never been anything else," Arkoniel told him. "But you're
destined by Illior to be something more. Illior showed this to lya
while you were still in your mother's womb. Countless wizards and
priests have dreamed of you. You'll be a great warrior and a great
queen, like Gherilain herself." Tobin
pressed his hands to his ears and shook his head in fury. "No!
Women aren't warriors! I'm a warrior! I'm Tobin. ,' know
who I am.'" The scent
of musk and green herbs enveloped him as Lhel knelt on his other side
and wrapped strong arms around him. "You are who you are. Let me
show." She covered
the bloody place on his chest with her hand and the pain came back
for a moment on crawling centipede feet. When she took her hand away,
he saw a vertical line of stitching on his chest identical to the one
that Brother had once shown him, tiny and fine as spider silk. But
his wound had healed and the scar had faded pale. Only the lower end
of it was bloody, like Brother's wound. 'The magic
grow thin, the binding not hold. Must be new magic made," Lhel
said. "It's not your time to show the true face, keesa." Tobin
pressed against her gratefully. He didn't want to change. 'But how—"
Arkoniel began. Lhel
forestalled him with one upraised finger. "For later. Tobin, you
should know your true face." 'I don't
want to!" 'Yes. Is
good to know. Come, keesa, look." Lhel
pressed a finger to the stitching on his chest and when she spoke
again, he heard her voice inside his head; for the first time her
words were clear and unbroken. "Goddess Mother, I loosen these
stitches made in your name, sewn on the night of your waxing harvest
moon, that they may be made sound again in this moon to protect this
child with the binding of one form to another. Let this daughter
called Tobin see her true face in your mirror. Ease, red moon woven
strand, here." Saying this, she passed her hand across Tobin's
eyes and guided him to lean over the pool's glassy surface again. Fearfully,
unwillingly, he looked down to see what stranger would peer up at
him. She was not
so different. It was a
girl—there was no mistaking that—but she had his dark
blue eyes, his straight nose and pointed chin, even the same scar.
He'd feared to see someone soft and silly, like the girls at court,
but this one had nothing soft about her. Her cheekbones might be a
little higher set than his own, the lips a hint fuller, but she met
his gaze with the same wariness he'd so often seen in his mirror at
home—and the same determination. 'Not'she,'
Tobin," Arkoniel whispered. "You. You are
she. You've been looking at Brother in your mirror all these years.
But not all of him. Your eyes are your own." 'No binding
change that. And this." Tobin felt Lhel touch the wisdom mark
and heard the witch's voice inside his head again. "That did not
change from your birth. That has always been a part of you. And
this—" She touched the scar. "This was given to you,
and this you keep. All your life you have thought to follow Sakor,
but Illior marked you from birth. So it is with your memories, your
training, your art, your soul. All the things that you are you keep.
But you shall be more than that." Tobin
shivered, remembering the ghostly queen who'd offered him the sword.
Had she known, and given it as a blessing? 'You can
see me, Arkoniel?" 'Yes. Oh,
yes!" The wizard's voice was thick with joy. "I'm so glad
to see you at last, after all these years, my lady!" My
lady. Tobin
covered her ears against the word but could not take her gaze from
the reflection. 'I know
what you fear, Tobin," Arkoniel told her, speaking gently. "But
you know the histories. Before your uncle's time, the queens of Skala
were the greatest warriors of all, and there were women generals,
women captains and squires and arms masters." 'Like Ki's
sister." 'Yes, like
Ki's sister. And Cook, too, in her day. They're still out there in
the armies, as she is. You can bring them back to court, back to
honor. But only if you stay safe and hidden until the time is right.
To do that, you must go back to Ero and remain Tobin to the world.
Nari and lya are the only others who know the truth, besides we two.
No one else can know. Not even Ki or Tharin." 'But why?"
Tobin demanded. She'd had enough of secrets already. How was she to
bear this one alone? 'I gave my
word to your father and to lya that no one would learn of your true
identity until the sign is given." 'What
sign?" 'I don't
know that yet. Illior will reveal it. For now, we must be patient." V,'he
incident with the doll had ended any chance of Ki being at ease with
the spirit or demon or whatever the hell Brother was. Even so, he
wasn't prepared when it suddenly flew at him as they climbed a steep,
crumbling bank. It didn't touch him, but spooked Dragon, who reared
and threw him. He went tumbling ass over tippet down the bank.
Luckily the ground was soft with moss and ferns, but he still found a
few rocks and logs before he fetched up against a tree halfway back
down the slope. 'Damnation,
what did you do that for?" he gasped, trying to get his wind
back. He could see Brother at the top of the hill. The ghost had the
flour sack now, and he was smiling that unsettling smile of his as he
looked back at Ki. The horse was long gone. 'What do
you want?" Ki shouted at him. Brother
said nothing. Ki started
to scramble up after him. When he looked up again, Brother was gone. He climbed
to the top of the rise and found Brother watching him from the mouth
of a game track a few yards away. Ki took a step in his direction and
Brother faded back, leading him. Not knowing
what else to do, Ki set after him, letting the ghost lead him as it
would. After all, it had the doll now. Ajhel had
taken Arkoniel back behind the oak some time ago, leaving Tobin alone
at the spring. She knelt where they'd left her, staring down at the
face in the pool and feeling the world turning upside down around
her. My
face, she told herself. Girl.
Lady. Princess. The world
spun again. Queen. Me. She touched
her cheek to discover if it felt as different as it looked in the
water. Before she could decide, the image burst in a splash that wet
her from face to knees. A cloth
sack floated in the spring in front of her. A flour
sack. 'The doll!"
she cried, pulling it out before it could sink. She'd forgotten it in
Ero. Brother crouched on the far side of the pool, staring at her
with his head cocked to one side, almost as if he were surprised to
see her like this. 'Look
Lhel," she called. "Brother brought it all the way from the
city." Lhel and
Arkoniel ran to her and pulled her from the spring. The witch wrapped
the catamount robe around her like a cloak, pulling it forward over
her face. 'No,
Brother couldn't have done that. Not by himself," said Arkoniel,
scanning the edge of the clearing with frightened eyes. 'Then
Brother must have brought Ki," said Tobin, trying to pull away.
"I was so scared when I saw the blood that I just ran away and
forgot the doll. Brother must have shown it to Ki and told him to
bring it." 'Yes, the
spirit knows his way," Lhel said, but she was looking at
Arkoniel, not at the ghost. "And Ki knew the way to the keep—" V'he wizard
had disappeared into the trees before she could finish. She sent her
voice after him, finding his mind with ease. 'No, you
must not harm him." 'You know
what I have sworn, Lhel." Lhel almost
followed, but knew she couldn't leave Tobin alone like this. 'What's
wrong?" Tobin asked, gripping her arm. 'Nothing,
keesa. Arkoniel gone to find your friend. We start the healing while
he go." 'No, I want
to wait for Ki." Lhel smiled
and placed her hand on Tobin's head, then spoke the spell she'd
shaped in her mind. Tobin fell limp in her arms. Lhel caught
her and held her close as she stared into the trees. "Mother,
protect him." 'rother
kept just ahead of Ki all the way to Lhel's clearing, never close
enough to question but never quite out of sight. Then he disappeared,
and where he'd stood Ki could see what looked like Tobin through a
break in the trees. He opened
his mouth to hail him when Arkoniel suddenly stepped in front of him.
Sunlight flashed on something in the wizard's hand and everything
went black. bin woke on
a pallet inside the oak. It was hot and his bare skin streamed with
sweat. His head felt like it was filled with warm mud, too heavy to
lift. Lhel sat
cross-legged beside him, holding the rag doll on her lap. 'You 'wake,
keesa?" A twinge of
pain brought Tobin fully awake and he sat up with a cry of dismay.
"Ki? Where's Ki?" There was
something wrong with his voice. It was too high. It sounded like— 'No!" 'Yes,
daughter." 'Where's
Ki?" Tobin asked again. 'He be
outside. It's time for the teaching I tell you of all that time ago,
when you bring me this hekkamari." She held up the doll. "The
Skala moon god got path set for you. You a girl, but you got to be a
boy looking for a time again. We do another binding now." Tobin
looked down and saw that her naked body was still a boy's—lean
and angular with a little penis nestled like a mouse between her
thighs. But there were a few smears of fresh blood there, too. 'Why am I
bleeding there?" 'Binding
got weak when your moon time come on you. Fight with the magic." 'Moon
time?" Tobin realized uncomfortably that Lhel must mean the
monthly female bleeding Ki had told her about. 'Woman got
a tide in her womb like the sea, called by the moon," Lhel told
her. "Give you blood and pain. Give you magic to grow baby in
your belly. Some get other magic from it too, like me. And you, too.
It give you dreams, sometimes, and the eye. Strong magic. Break some
of my stitching." Lhel
clucked her tongue against her teeth as she took out a slender silver
blade and picked out a few of the stitches on the doll's side. "Never
do a binding for so long time. Maybe not meant to hold so long. Skin
strong, but bone stronger. We use bone this time." 'What
bone?" Lhel pulled
a handful of yellowed wool and crumbling dried herbs from the body of
the doll and felt through it until she found what she wanted. Holding
out her hand, she showed Tobin three ivory-colored fragments: a tiny
curved splinter of rib, a fragment of skull cupped and thin as
eggshell, and one whole bone small and fine as the wing bone of a
swallow. "Brother's bone," she said. Tobin's
eyes widened. "His bones are in the doll?" 'Most. Some
little bits still be in ground by your mama's house in the city.
Under a big tree there, near cooking place." Tobin
reached up for the chain around her neck and showed Lhel the ring. "I
found this in a hole under a dead tree by the old summer kitchen.
Tharin says it was my mother's. Is that where he was buried?" Lhel
nodded. "I call to bring up bones from earth and flesh. Your
mama—" She mimed digging into the earth, fingers bent like
claws. "She make them clean and sew into the doll so she can
care for the spirit." Tobin
looked at the doll with revulsion. "But why?" 'Brother
angry to be dead and still skin bind to you. His spirit
be demon worse than what you know if I didn't teach your mama to make
the hekkamari. We take up his little bones and put them in the doll.
I bind her to it, just as I bind you. You remember?" 'With the
hair and the blood." Lhel
nodded. "She his blood, too. His mama. When she die it pass to
you. You know the words. 'Blood my blood. Flesh my flesh. Bone my
bone.' That's a true thing." Lhel
snapped off a tiny sliver from the broken rib bone and held it up. "I
put this in you, you be bind again, have Brother's face until you cut
it out and be girl outside. But you know you girl inside now, keesa." Tobin
nodded miserably. "Yes, I know. Just make me look like my old
self again, please?" Lhel
pressed Tobin back down on the pallet and placed the doll beside her.
Then she began to sing softly under her breath. Tobin felt very
sleepy all at once, though her eyes stayed open. Brother came into
the oak and lay down where the doll was. His body felt as solid and
warm beside her as Ki's ever had. She looked over at him and smiled,
but he was staring straight up, his face as rigid as a mask. Lhel
dropped the rough dress from her shoulders. The firelight made the
tattoos on her hands, breasts, and belly seem to crawl across her
skin as she wove moon white patterns in the air with the silver blade
and a needle. A net of light hung over Tobin and Brother when she was
done. Tobin felt
the cold touch of metal between her thighs, and a sharp needle prick
under her boy sac. Then Lhel was painting red on the air, so that the
patterns looked like— —blood
on river ice Tobin wanted to look away but she couldn't move. Chanting
softly, Lhel balanced the tiny shard of infant bone on the tip of her
knife and waved it through the flames beside her until it glowed
blue-white. Brother floated up into the air and turned over, so that
he hung nose to nose above Tobin. Lhel reached through his luminous
body and plunged the hot bone shard into the seeping wound on Tobin's
breast. The flame
of the burning bone shot out under her skin, encasing her in heat.
She tried to cry out in pain and fear, certain the flesh would boil
off her bones, but she was still held tight by Lhel's voice. White
light blinded her for a moment, then the pain lifted her off the
ground and she and Brother floated together up the smoke hole of the
oak, and still higher above the trees. Like a hawk, she could see
everything for miles around. She saw Tharin and his men coming on at
a gallop from Alestun. She saw Nari and Cook doing the wash in the
kitchen yard at the keep. And she saw Arkoniel kneeling over Ki, who
lay on his back just outside Lhel's clearing, looking up at the sky
with unseeing eyes. The wizard had one hand pressed to Ki's brow, the
other over his own eyes as if he were weeping. Tobin
wanted to go closer, see what the matter was, but something lifted
her higher, until she was flying west over the mountains to a deep
harbor below a cliff. Long arms of rock embraced the mouth of the
harbor, and islands guarded it. She could hear the waves breaking
against their steep sides now, and the lonely cries of the
grey-winged gulls— Here,
a voice whispered to her. The white light swelled again, filling her
eyes. Then, You must go back, and she was
falling, falling back into the oak, into herself. She opened
her eyes. Brother was still hovering over her, but Lhel's chanting
had changed. She'd exchanged knife for needle and was stitching up
the bloody edges of the wound in Tobin's chest as deftly as Nari used
to mend the rents in her tunics. Nari
knew all along— But now
Tobin was the tunic and had to watch as the silver needle rose and
fell in the firelight, drawing a barely visible thread silvery as a
snail's trail through the air, through her skin. It didn't hurt,
though. With each successive flash and tug of the needle Tobin felt
herself being drawn together, made whole again. Patched,
she thought dizzily. With every
stitch Brother shook above her and his face twisted into a mask of
true pain. She could see the unhealed wound on his chest again, how
the blood fell from it drop by drop with every pass of the witch's
needle through Tobin's living flesh. His lips drew back from his
white teeth and bloody tears fell from his eyes. Tobin expected to
feel them on her face but they disappeared somewhere in the air
between them. Stop
it! she tried to cry out to Lhel. You're
hurting him. Can't you see you're hurting him? Brother's
eyes flew wide and he stared down at her. Let me
go! It was a scream inside her head. 'Be still,
keesa. Dead don't know pain," Lhel murmured. You're
wrong! Tobin cried out silently. Brother,
I'm sorry! Lhel pulled
the final stitch tight and Brother slowly sank down onto Tobin, then
through her, and for an instant she felt the coldness of his presence
in every inch of her frame. You
must go back— Then
Brother was gone and Tobin was free, curling away from Lhel's stained
hands, curling into the sweet-smelling softness of the catamount
skin, and sobbing aloud with the hoarse, ugly voice of a boy.
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