"James Herbert - The Survivor" - читать интересную книгу автора (Herbert James)

'Oh, come on, Dave. You know it's all got to be collated then submitted to the
official inquiry. -And you know everything comes under the Official Secrets Act
until then.'

'I need to know, Harry.'

"Look,' Tewson began, not unkindly, 'it's nothing to do with you now, DaveтАж'

'Nothing to do with me?' Keller's voice was calm, but he fixed Tewson with a stare
that chilled the investigator. 'D'you know how I feel Harry? I feel like a freak. An
outcast. People resent the fact that I lived and all those others died. I feel like a
captain who's deserted a sinking ship, left his passengers to drown. They're
blaming me, Harry. The public, the airline, andтАж' He broke off and stared at his
drink.

After a brief, stunned silence, Tewson spoke. 'What's the matter with you, Dave?
Nobody's blaming you for this. Certainly not the airline. And the public will know
the cause of the crash just as soon as we publish our findings - not that I think
you're correct in your morbid assumption that they resent you being alive! As for
anythingтАж" he paused, 'or anyone else -well, you're just suffering from an
overdose of misguided guilt and melancholia. Now, get a grip on yourself and
drink your bloody beer !'

'Finished? Keller asked mildly.

Tewson lowered the glass again just before it reached his lips. "No, I'm not bloody
finished. I've known you a long time, Dave. You were a good pilot and you will be

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again - just as soon as you forget about all this and start to think of the future.' His
voice softened. 'I know you had your own personal loss in the crash, Dave, but she
wouldn't have wanted you to go on like this.'

Keller looked at him in surprise. 'You knew about Cathy?'

тАШYes, of course I knew. It was no big secret was it? It's not unusual for a pilot to
have a stewardess as a girlfriend.'

'It was a bit more than that.'

тАШI don't doubt it, Dave. Look mate, I don't mean to be rough on you, but the word
is going around that you're finished, you'll never be a good flyer now, and the way
I've heard you've been moping around, I'm not surprised. But I know you better.
You've got a lot in you, Dave, more than most, and I think within a few weeks
you'll be back to normal. Now, do you mind if I get on with my drink?'