"Jordan, Robert - Wheel of Time 03 - The Dragon Reborn" - читать интересную книгу автора (Jordan Robert) PROLOGUE Fortress of the Light Pedron
Niall’s aged gaze wandered about his private audience chamber, but dark eyes
hazed with thought saw nothing. Tattered wall hangings, once battle banners of
the enemies of his youth, faded into dark wood paneling laid over stone walls,
thick even here in the heart of the Fortress of the Light. The single chair in
the room - heavy, high‑backed, and almost a throne ‑ was as
invisible to him as the few scattered tables that completed the furnishings.
Even the white-cloaked man kneeling with barely restrained eagerness on the
great sunburst set in the wide planks of the floor had vanished from Niall’s
mind for the moment, though few would have dismissed him so lightly. Jaret
Byar had been given time to wash before being brought to Niall, but both his
helmet and his breastplate were dulled from travel and battered from use. Dark,
deep‑set eyes shone with a feverish, urgent light in a face that seemed
to have had every spare scrap of flesh boiled away. He wore no sword ‑
none was allowed in Niall’s presence ‑ but he seemed poised on the edge
of violence, like a hound awaiting the loosing of the leash. Twin
fires on long hearths at either end of the room held off the late winter cold.
It was a plain, soldier’s room, really, everything well made but nothing
extravagant ‑ except for the sunburst. Furnishings came to the audience
chamber of the Lord Captain Commander of the Children of the Light with the man
who rose to the office; the flaring sun of coin gold had been worn smooth by
generations of petitioners, replaced and worn smooth again. Gold enough to buy
any estate in Amadicia, and the patent of nobility to go with it. For ten years
Niall had walked across that gold and never thought of it twice, any more than
he thought of the sunburst embroidered across the chest of his white tunic.
Gold held little interest for Pedron Niall. Eventually
his eyes went back to the table next to him, covered with maps and scattered
letters and reports. Three loosely rolled drawings lay among the jumble. He
took one up reluctantly. It did not matter which; all depicted the same scene,
though by different hands. Niall’s
skin was as thin as scraped parchment, drawn tight by age over a body that
seemed all bone and sinew, but there was nothing of frailty about him. No man
held Niall’s office before his hair was white, nor did any man softer than the
stones of the Dome of Truth. Still, he was suddenly aware of the tendon‑ridged
back of the hand holding the drawing, aware of the need for haste. Time was
growing short. Hit time was growing short. It had to be enough. He had to make
it enough. He
made himself unroll the thick parchment halfway, just enough to see the face
that interested him. The chalks were a little smudged from travel in
saddlebags, but the face was clear. A gray‑eyed youth with reddish hair.
He looked tall, but it was hard to say for certain. Aside from the hair and the
eyes, he could have been set down in any town without exciting comment. “This
. . . this boy has proclaimed himself the Dragon Reborn?” Niall muttered. The
Dragon. The name made him feel the chills of winter and age. The name borne by
Lews Therin Telamon when he doomed every man who could channel the One Power,
then or ever after, to insanity and death, himself among them. It was more than
three thousand years since Aes Sedai pride and the War of the Shadow had
brought an end to the Age of Legends. Three thousand years, but prophecy and
legend helped men remember‑the heart of it, at least, if the details were
gone. Lews Therin Kinslayer. The man who had begun the Breaking of the World,
when madmen who could tap the power that drove the universe leveled mountains
and sank ancient lands beneath the seas, when the whole face of the earth had
been changed and all who survived fled like beasts before a wildfire. It had
not ended until the last male Aes Sedai lay dead, and a scattered human race
could begin trying to rebuild from the rubble ‑ where even rubble
remained. It was burned into memory by the stories mothers told children. And
prophecy said the Dragon would be born again. Niall
had not really meant it for a question, but Byar took it for one. “Yes, my Lord
Captain Commander, he has. It is a worse madness than any false Dragon I’ve
ever heard of. Thousands have declared for him already. Tarabon and Arad Doman
are in civil war, as well as at war with each other. There is fighting all
across Almoth Plain and Toman Head, Taraboner against Domani against
Darkfriends crying for the Dragon - or there was fighting until winter chilled
most of it. I’ve never seen it spread so quickly, my Lord Captain Commander.
Like throwing a lantern into a hay barn. The snow may have damped it down, but
come spring, the flames will burst out hotter than before.” Niall
cut him off with a raised finger. Twice already Niall had let him tell his
story through, his voice burning with anger and hate. Parts of it Niall knew
from other sources, and in some areas he knew more than Byar, but each time he
heard it, it goaded him anew. “Geofram Bornhald and a thousand of the Children
dead. And Aes Sedai did it. You have no doubts, Child Byar?” “None,
my Lord Captain Commander. After a skirmish on the way to Falme, I saw two of
the Tar Valon witches. They cost us more than fifty dead before we stuck them
full of arrows.” “You
are sure ‑ sure they were Aes Sedai?” “The ground erupted under our feet.” Byar’s voice was firm and full
of belief. He had little imagination, did Jaret Byar; death was part of a
soldier’s life, however it came. “Lightnings struck our ranks out of a clear
sky. My Lord Captain Commander, what else could they have been?” Niall
nodded grimly. There had been no male Aes Sedai since the Breaking of the
World, but the women who still claimed that title were bad enough. They prated
of their Three Oaths: to speak no word that was not true, to make no weapon for
one man to kill another, to use the One Power as a weapon only against
Darkfriends or Shadowspawn. But now they had showed those oaths for the lies
they were. He had always known no one could want the power they wielded except
to challenge the Creator, and that meant to serve the Dark One. “And
you know nothing of those who took Falme and killed half of one of my legions?” “Lord
Captain Bornhald said they called themselves Seanchan, my Lord Captain
Commander,” Byar said stolidly. “He said they were Darkfriends. And
his charge broke them, even if they killed him.” His voice gained intensity.
“There were many refugees from the city. Everyone I spoke to agreed the
strangers had broken and fled. Lord Captain Bornhald did that.” Niall
sighed softly. They were almost the same words Byar had used the first two
times about the army that had seemingly come out of nowhere to take Falme. A good soldier, Niall thought, so
Geofram Bornhald always said, but not a
man to think for himself. “My
Lord Captain Commander,” Byar said suddenly, “Lord Captain Bornhald did command me to stand aside from the
battle. I was to watch, and report to you. And tell his son, Lord Dain, how he
died.” “Yes,
yes,” Niall said impatiently. For a moment he studied Byar’s hollow‑cheeked
face, then added, “No one doubts your honesty or courage. It is exactly the
sort of thing Geofram Bornhald would do, facing a battle in which he feared his
entire command might die.” And not the
sort of thing you have imagination enough to think up. There
was nothing more to learn from the man. “You have done well, Child Byar. You
have my leave to carry word of Geofram Bornhald’s death to his son. Dain
Bornhald is with Eamon Valda ‑ near Tar Valon at last report. You may
join them.” “Thank
you, my Lord Captain Commander. Thank you.” Byar rose to his feet and bowed
deeply. Yet as he straightened, he hesitated. “My Lord Captain Commander, we were betrayed.” Hatred gave his voice a
saw‑toothed edge. “By
this one Darkfriend you spoke of, Child Byar?” He could not keep an edge out of
his own voice. A year’s planning lay in ruins amid the corpses of a thousand of
the Children, and Byar wanted to talk only of this one man. “This young
blacksmith you’ve only seen twice, this Perrin from the Two Rivers?” “Yes,
my Lord Captain Commander. I do not know how, but I know he is to blame. I know
it.” “I
will see what can be done about him, Child Byar.” Byar opened his mouth again,
but Niall raised a thin hand to forestall him. “You may leave me now.” The
gaunt‑faced man had no choice but to bow again and leave. As
the door closed behind him, Niall lowered himself into his high-backed chair.
What had brought on Byar’s hatred of this Perrin? There were far too many
Darkfriends to waste energy on hating any particular one. Too many Darkfriends,
high and low, hiding behind glib tongues and open smiles, serving the Dark One.
Still, one more name added to the lists would do no harm. He
shifted on the hard chair, trying to find comfort for his old bones. Not for
the first time he thought vaguely that perhaps a cushion would not be too much
luxury. And not for the first time, he pushed the thought away. The world
tumbled toward chaos, and he had no time to give in to age. He
let all the signs that foretold disaster swirl through his mind. War gripped
Tarabon and Arad Doman, civil war ripped at Cairhien, and war fever was rising
in Tear and Illian, old enemies as they were. Perhaps these wars meant nothing
in themselves ‑ men fought wars ‑ but they usually came one at a
time. And aside from the false Dragon somewhere on Almoth Plain, another tore
at Saldaea, and a third plagued Tear. Three at once. They must all be false Dragons. They must be! A
dozen small things besides, some perhaps only baseless rumors, but taken
together with the rest. . . . Sightings
of Aiel reported as far west as Murandy, and Kandor. Only two or three in one
place, but one or a thousand, Aiel had come out of the Waste just once in all
the years since the Breaking. Only in the Aiel War had they ever left that
desolate wilderness. The Atha’an Miere, the Sea Folk, were said to be ignoring
trade to seek signs and portents ‑ of what, exactly, they did not say -
sailing with ships half full or even empty. Illian had called the Great Hunt of
the Horn for the first time in almost four hundred years, had sent out the
Hunters to seek the fabled Horn of Valere, which prophecy said would summon
dead heroes from the grave to fight in Tarmon Gai’don, the Last Battle against
the Shadow. Rumor said the Ogier, always so reclusive that most common people
thought them only legend, had called meetings between their far‑flung stedding. Most
telling of all, to Niall, the Aes Sedai had apparently come into the open. It
was said they had sent some of their sisters to Saldaea to confront the false
Dragon Mazrim Taim. Rare as it was in men, Taim could channel the One Power.
That was a thing to fear and despise in itself, and few thought a man like that
could be defeated except with the aid of Aes Sedai. Better to allow Aes Sedai
help than to face the inevitable horrors when he went mad, as such men
inevitably did. But Tar Valon had apparently sent other Aes Sedai to support
the other false Dragon at Falme. Nothing else fit the facts. The
pattern chilled the marrow in his bones. Chaos multiplied; what was unheard of,
happening again and again. The whole world seemed to be milling, stirring near
the boil. It was clear to him. The Last Battle really was coming. All
his plans were destroyed, the plans that would have secured his name among the
Children of the Light for a hundred generations. But turmoil meant opportunity,
and he had new plans, with new objectives. If he could keep the strength and
will to carry them out. Light, let me
hold on to life long enough. A
deferential tap on the door brought him out of his dark thoughts. “Come!” he
snapped. A
servant in coat and breeches of white‑and‑gold bowed his way in.
Eyes to the floor, he announced that Jaichim Carridin, Anointed of the Light,
Inquisitor of the Hand of the Light, came at the command of the Lord Captain
Commander. Carridin appeared on the man’s heels, not waiting for Niall to
speak. Niall gestured the servant to leave. Before
the door was fully closed again, Carridin dropped to one knee with a flourish
of his snowy cloak. Behind the sunburst on the cloak’s breast lay the scarlet
shepherd’s crook of the Hand of the Light, called the Questioners by many,
though seldom to their faces. “As you have commanded my presence, my Lord
Captain Commander,” he said in a strong voice, “so have I returned from
Tarabon.” Niall
examined him for a moment. Carridin was tall, well into his middle years, with
a touch of gray in his hair, yet fit and hard. His dark, deep‑set eyes
had a knowing look about them, as always. And he did not blink under the silent
study of the Lord Captain Commander. Few men had consciences so clear or nerves
so steady. Carridin knelt there, waiting as calmly as if it were an everyday
matter to be ordered curtly to leave his command and return to Amador without
delay, no reasons given. But then, it was said Jaichim Carridin could outwait a
stone. “Rise,
Child Carridin.” As the other man straightened, Niall added, “I have had
disturbing news from Falme.” Carridin
straightened the folds of his cloak as he answered. His voice rode the edge of
suitable respect, almost as if he spoke to an equal rather than to the man he
had sworn to obey to the death. “My Lord Captain Commander refers to the news
brought by Child Jaret Byar, late second to Lord Captain Bornhald.” The
corner of Niall’s left eye fluttered, an old presage of anger. Supposedly only
three men knew Byar was in Amador, and none besides Niall knew from where he
came. “Do not be too clever, Carridin. Your desire to know everything may one
day lead you into the hands of your own Questioners.” Carridin
showed no reaction beyond a slight tightening of his mouth at the name. “My
Lord Captain Commander, the Hand seeks out truth everywhere, to serve the
Light.” To
serve the Light. Not to serve the Children of the Light. All the Children
served the Light, but Pedron Niall often wondered if the Questioners really
considered themselves part of the Children at all. “And what truth do you have
for me about what occurred in Falme?” “Darkfriends,
my Lord Captain Commander.” “Darkfriends?”
Niall’s chuckle held no amusement. “A few weeks gone I was receiving reports
from you that Geofram Bornhald was a servant of the Dark One because he moved
soldiers onto Toman Head against your orders.” His voice became dangerously
soft. “Do you now mean me to believe that Bornhald, as a Darkfriend, led a
thousand of the Children to their deaths fighting other Darkfriends?” “Whether
or not he was a Darkfriend will never be known,” Carridin said blandly, “since
he died before he could be put to the question. The Shadow’s plots are murky,
and often seem mad to those who walk in the Light. But that those who seized
Falme were Darkfriends,. I have no doubt. Darkfriends and Aes Sedai, in support
of a false Dragon. It was the One Power that destroyed Bornhald and his men, of
that I am sure, my Lord Captain Commander, just as it destroyed the armies that
Tarabon and Arad Doman sent against the Darkfriends in Falme.” “And
what of the stories that those who took Falme came from across the Aryth Ocean?” Carridin
shook his head. “My Lord Captain Commander, the people are full of rumors. Some
claim they were the armies Artur Hawkwing sent across the ocean a thousand
years ago, come back to claim the land. Why, some even claim to have seen
Hawkwing himself in Falme. And half the heroes of legend besides. The west is
boiling from Tarabon to Saldaea, and a hundred new rumors bubble to the surface
every day, each more outrageous than the last. These so‑called Seanchan
were no more than another rabble of Darkfriends gathered to support a false
Dragon, only this time with open Aes Sedai support.” “What
proof have you?” Niall made his voice sound as if he doubted the point. “You
have prisoners?” “No,
my Lord Captain Commander. As Child Byar no doubt told you, Bornhald managed to
hurt them badly enough that they dispersed. And certainly no one we’ve
questioned would admit to supporting a false Dragon. As for proof . . . it lies
in two parts. If my Lord Captain Commander will permit me?” Niall
gestured impatiently. “The
first part is negative. Few ships have tried to cross the Aryth Ocean, and most
never returned. Those that did, turned back before they ran out of food and
water. Even the Sea Folk will not cross the Aryth, and they sail wherever there
is trade, even to the lands beyond the Aiel Waste. My Lord Captain Commander,
if there are any lands across the
ocean, they are too far to reach, the ocean too wide. To carry an army across
it would be as impossible as flying.” “Perhaps,”
Niall said slowly. “It is certainly indicative. What is your second part?” “My
Lord Captain Commander, many of those we questioned spoke of monsters fighting
for the Darkfriends, and held to their claims even under the last degree of the
question. What could they be but Trollocs and other Shadowspawn, in some way
brought down from the Blight?” Carridin spread his hands as if that were
conclusive. “Most people think Trollocs are only travelers’ tales and lies, and
most of the rest think they were all killed in the Trolloc Wars. What other
name would they put to a Trolloc but monster?” “Yes.
Yes, you may be right, Child Carridin. May be, I say.” He would not give
Carridin the satisfaction of knowing he agreed. Let him work awhile. “But what of him?” He indicated the rolled
drawings. If he knew Carridin, the Inquisitor had copies in his own chambers.
“How dangerous is he? Can he channel the One Power?” The
Inquisitor merely shrugged. “Perhaps he can channel, perhaps not. Aes Sedai
could no doubt make people believe a cat could channel, if they wanted to. As
to how dangerous he is . . . . Any false Dragon is dangerous until he is put
down, and one with Tar Valon openly behind him is ten times dangerous. But he
is less dangerous now than he will be in half a year, unchecked. The captives I
questioned had never seen him, had no idea where he is now. His forces are
fragmented. I doubt there are more than two hundred gathered in any one place.
The Taraboners or the Domani, either one, could sweep them away if they
weren’t so busy fighting each other.” “Even
a false Dragon,” Niall said dryly, “is not enough to make them forget four
hundred years of squabbling over possession of Almoth Plain. As if either of
them ever had the strength to hold it.” Carridin’s face did not change, and
Niall wondered how he could keep so calm. You will not be calm much longer, Questioner. “It
is of no import, my Lord Captain Commander. Winter keeps them all in their
camps, except for scattered skirmishes and raids. When the weather warms enough
for troops to move . . . . Bornhald took only half his legion to their deaths
on Toman Head. With the other half, I will hunt this false Dragon to his death.
A corpse is not dangerous to anyone.” “And
if you face what it seems Bornhald faced? Aes Sedai channeling the Power to
kill?” “Their
witchery doesn’t protect them from arrows, or a knife in the dark. They die as
quickly as anyone else.” Carridin smiled. “I promise you, I will be successful
before summer.” Niall
nodded. The man was confident, now. Sure the dangerous questions would already
have come, if they were coming. You should
have remembered, Carridin, I was accounted a fine tactician. “Why,” he said
quietly, “did you not take your own forces to Falme? With Darkfriends on Toman
Head, an army of them holding Falme, why did you try to stop Bornhald?” Carridin
blinked, but his voice remained steady. “At first they were only rumors, my
Lord Captain Commander. Rumors so wild, no one could believe. By the time I
learned the truth, Bornhald had joined battle. He was dead, and the Darkfriends
scattered. Besides, my task was to bring the Light to Almoth Plain. I could not
disobey my orders to chase after rumors.” “Your
task?” Niall said, his voice rising as he stood. Carridin topped him by a head,
but the Inquisitor stepped back. “Your task? Your task was to seize Almoth
Plain! An empty bucket that no one holds except by words and claims, and all
you had to do was fill it. The nation of Almoth would have lived again, ruled
by the Children of the Light, with no need to pay lip service to a fool of a
king. Amadicia and Almoth, a vise gripping Tarabon. In five years we would have
held sway there as much as here in Amadicia. And you made a dog’s dinner of
it!” The
smile went at last. “My Lord Captain Commander,” Carridin protested. “How could
I foresee what happened? Yet another false Dragon. Tarabon and Arad Doman
finally going to war after so long merely growling at each other. And Aes Sedai
revealing their true selves after three thousand years of dissembling! Even
with that, though, all is not lost. I can find and destroy this false Dragon
before his followers unite. And once the Taraboners and Domani have weakened
themselves, they can be cleared from the plain without ‑ “ “No!”
Niall snapped. “Your plans are done with, Carridin. Perhaps I should hand you
over to your own Questioners right now. The High Inquisitor would not object.
He is gnashing his teeth to find someone to blame for what happened. He would
never put forward one of his own, but I doubt he’d quibble if I named you. A
few days under the question, and you would confess to anything. Name yourself
Darkfriend, even. You would go under the headsman’s axe inside a week.” There
was sweat beading on Carridin’s forehead. “My Lord Captain Commander . . . .”
He stopped to swallow. “My Lord Captain Commander seems to be saying there is
another way. If he will but speak it, I am sworn to obey.” Now, Niall thought. Now to toss the dice. Prickles ran across his skin, as if he were
in battle and had suddenly realized that every man for a hundred paces around
him was an enemy. Lord Captain Commanders did not go to the headsman, but more
than one had been known to die suddenly and unexpectedly, swiftly mourned and
swiftly replaced by men with less dangerous ideas. “Child
Carridin,” he said firmly, “you will make certain that this false Dragon does
not die. And if any Aes Sedai come to oppose rather than support him, you will
make use of your ‘knives in the dark.’ “ The
Inquisitor’s jaw dropped. Yet he recovered quickly, eyeing Niall in a speculative
fashion. “To kill Aes Sedai is a duty, but . . . . To allow a false Dragon to
roam free? That . . . that would be . . . treason. And blasphemy. “ Niall
drew a deep breath. He could sense the unseen knives waiting in the shadows.
But he was committed, now. “It is no treason to do what must be done. And even
blasphemy can be tolerated for a cause.” Those two sentences alone were enough
to kill him. “Do you know how to unite people behind you, Child Carridin? The
quickest way? No? Loose a lion ‑ a rabid lion ‑ in the streets. And
when panic grips the people, once it has turned their bowels to water, calmly
tell them you will deal with it. Then you kill it, and order them to hang the
carcass up where everyone can see. Before they have time to think, you give
another order, and it will be obeyed. And if you continue to give orders, they
will continue to obey, for you will be the one who saved them, and who better
to lead?” Carridin
moved his head uncertainly. “Do you mean to . . . take it all, my Lord Captain
Commander? Not just Almoth Plain, but Tarabon and Arad Doman as well?” “What
I mean is for me to know. It is for you to obey as you are sworn to do. I
expect to hear of messengers on fast horses leaving for the plain by tonight. I
am certain you know how to word the orders so no one suspects what they should
not. If you must harry someone, let it be the Taraboners and Domani. It would
not do to have them kill my lion. No, under the Light, we shall force peace
between them.” “As
my Lord Captain Commander commands,” Carridin said smoothly. “I hear and obey.”
Too smoothly. Niall
smiled a cold smile. “In case your oath is not strong enough, know this. If
this false Dragon dies before I command his death, or if he is taken by the Tar
Valon witches, you will be found one morning with a dagger in your heart. And
should any . . . accident . . . befall me - even if I should die of old age ‑
you will not survive me the month.” “My
Lord Captain Commander, I have sworn to obey ‑ “ “So
you have,” Niall cut him off. “See that you remember it. Now, go! “As
my Lord Captain Commander commands.” This time Carridin’s voice was not so
steady. The
door closed behind the Inquisitor. Niall rubbed his hands together. He felt
cold. The dice were spinning, with no way of telling what pips would show when
they stopped. The Last Battle truly was coming. Not the Tarmon Gai’don of
legend, with the Dark One breaking free to be faced by the Dragon Reborn. Not
that, he was sure. The Aes Sedai of the Age of Legends might have made a hole in
the Dark One’s prison at Shayol Ghul, but Lews Therin Kinslayer and his Hundred
Companions had sealed it up again. The counterstroke had tainted the male half
of the True Source forever and driven them mad, and so begun the Breaking, but
one of those ancient Aes Sedai could do what ten of the Tar Valon witches of
today could not. The seals they had made would hold. Pedron Niall was a man of cold logic, and he had reasoned out how
Tarmon Gai’don would be. Bestial Trolloc hordes rolling south out of the Great
Blight as they had in the Trolloc Wars, two thousand years before, with the
Myrddraal‑the Halfmen‑leading, and perhaps even new human
Dreadlords from among the Darkfriends. Humankind, split into nations squabbling
among themselves, could not stand against that. But he, Pedron Niall, would
unite humankind behind the banners of the Children of the Light. There would be
new legends, to tell how Pedron Niall had fought Tarmon Gai’don, and won. “First,”
he murmured, “loose a rabid lion in the streets.” “A
rabid lion?” Niall
spun on his heel as a bony little man with a huge beak of a nose slipped from
behind one of the hanging banners. There was just a glimpse of a panel swinging
shut as the banner fell back against the wall. “I
showed you that passage, Ordeith,” Niall snapped, “so you could come when I
summoned you without half the fortress knowing, not so you could listen to my
private conversation.” Ordeith
made a smooth bow as he crossed the room. “Listen, Great Lord? I would never do
such a thing. I only just arrived and could not avoid hearing your final words.
No more than that.” He wore a half-mocking smile, but it never left his face
that Niall had ever seen, even when the fellow had no reason to know anyone was
watching. A
month before, in the dead of winter, the gangly little man had arrived in
Amadicia, ragged and half‑frozen, and somehow managed to talk his way
through all the layers of guards to Pedron Niall himself. He seemed to know
things about events on Toman Head that were not in Carridin’s voluminous if
obscure reports, or in Byar’s tale, or in any other report or rumor that had
come to Niall. His name was a lie, of course. In the Old Tongue, Ordeith meant
“wormwood.” When Niall challenged him on it, though, all he said was, “Who we
were is lost to all men, and life is bitter.” But he was clever. It had been he
who helped Niall see the pattern emerging in events. Ordeith
moved to the table and took up one of the drawings. As he unrolled it enough to
reveal the young man’s face, his smile deepened to nearly a grimace. Niall
was still irritated that the man had come unsummoned. “You find a false Dragon
funny, Ordeith. Or does he frighten you?” “A
false Dragon?” Ordeith said softly. “Yes. Yes, of course, it must be. Who else
could it be.” And he barked a shrill laugh that grated on Niall’s nerves.
Sometimes Niall thought Ordeith was at least half‑mad. But he is clever,
mad or not. “What do you mean, Ordeith? You sound as if you know him.” Ordeith
gave a start, as though he had forgotten the Lord Captain Commander was there.
“Know him? Oh, yes, I know him. His name is Rand al’Thor. He comes from the Two
Rivers, in the backcountry of Andor, and he is a Darkfriend so deep in the
Shadow it would make your soul cringe to know the half.” “The
Two Rivers,” Niall mused. “Someone else mentioned another Darkfriend from
there, another youth. Strange to think of Darkfriends coming from a place like
that. But truly they are everywhere.” “Another,
Great Lord?” Ordeith said. “From the Two Rivers? Would that be Matrim Cauthon
or Perrin Aybara? They are of an age with him, and close behind in evil.” “His
name was given as Perrin,” Niall said, frowning. “Three of them, you say?
Nothing comes out of the Two Rivers but wool and tabac. I doubt if there is
another place men live that is more isolated from the rest of the world.” “In
a city, Darkfriends must hide their nature to one extent or another. They must
associate with others, with strangers come from other places and leaving to
take word of what they have seen. But in quiet villages, cut off from the
world, where few outsiders ever go . . . . What better places for all to be
Darkfriends?” “How
is it you know the names of three Darkfriends, Ordeith? Three Darkfriends from
the far end of forever. You keep too many secrets, Wormwood, and pull more
surprises from your sleeve than a gleeman.” “How
can any man tell all that he knows,
Great Lord,” the little man said smoothly. “It would be only prattle, until it
becomes useful. I will tell you this, Great Lord. This Rand al’Thor, this
Dragon, has deep roots in the Two Rivers.” “False
Dragon!” Niall said sharply, and the other man bowed. “Of
course, Great Lord. I misspoke myself.” Suddenly
Niall became aware of the drawing crumpled and torn in Ordeith’s hands. Even
while the man’s face remained smooth except for that sardonic smile, his hands
twitched convulsively around the parchment. “Stop that!” Niall commanded. He snatched the drawing away
from Ordeith and smoothed it as best he could. “I do not have so many
likenesses of this man that I can allow them to be destroyed.” Much of the
drawing was only a smudge, and a rip ran across the young man’s breast, but
miraculously the face was untouched. “Forgive
me, Great Lord.” Ordeith made a deep bow, his smile never slipping. “I hate
Darkfriends.” Niall
studied the face in chalks. Rand al’Thor,
of the Two Rivers. “Perhaps I must make plans for the Two Rivers. When the
snows clear. Perhaps.” “As
the Great Lord wishes,” Ordeith said blandly. The
grimace on Carridin’s face as he strode through the halls of the Fortress made
other men avoid him, though in truth few sought the company of Questioners.
Servants, hurrying about their tasks, tried to fade into the stone walls, and
even men with golden knots of rank on their white cloaks took side corridors
when they saw his face. He
flung open the door to his rooms and slammed it behind him, feeling none of the
usual satisfaction at the fine carpets from Tarabon and Tear in lush reds and
golds and blues, the beveled mirrors from Illian, the gold‑leaf work on
the long, intricately carved table in the middle of the floor. A master
craftsman from Lugard had worked nearly a year on that. This time he barely saw
it. “Sharbon!”
For once his body servant did not appear. The man was supposed to be readying
the rooms. “The Light burn you, Sharbon! Where are you?” A
movement caught the corner of his eye, and he turned ready to shrivel Sharbon
with his curses. The curses themselves shriveled as a Myrddraal took another
step toward him with the sinuous grace of a serpent. It
was a man in form, no larger than most, but there the resemblance ended. Dead
black clothes and cloak, hardly seeming to stir as it moved, made its maggot‑white
skin appear ever paler. And it had no eyes. That eyeless gaze filled Carridin
with fear, as it had filled thousands before. “Wha.
. . .” Carridin stopped to work moisture back into his mouth, to try bringing
his voice back down to its normal register. “What are you doing here?” It still
sounded shrill. The
Halfman’s bloodless lips quirked in a smile. “Where there is shadow, there may
I go.” Its voice sounded like a snake rustling through dead leaves. “I like to
keep a watch on all those who serve me.” “I
set. . . . “ It
was no use. With an effort Carridin jerked his eyes away from that smooth
expanse of pale, pasty face and turned his back. A shiver ran down his spine,
having his back to a Myrddraal. Everything was sharp in the mirror on the wall
in front of him. Everything but the Halfman. The Myrddraal was an indistinct
blur. Hardly soothing to look at, but better than meeting that stare. A little
strength returned to Carridin’s voice. “I
serve the. . . .” He cut off, suddenly aware of where he was. In the heart of
the Fortress of the Light. The rumor of a whisper of the words he was about to
say would have him given to the Hand of the Light. The lowest of the Children
would strike him down on the spot if he heard. He was alone except for the
Myrddraal, and perhaps Sharbon ‑ Where is that cursed man? It would be good to have someone to share the
Halfman’s stare, even if the other would have to be disposed of afterwards‑but
still he lowered his voice. “I serve the Great Lord of the Dark, as you do. We
both serve.” “If
you wish to see it so.” The Myrddraal laughed, a sound that made Carridin’s
bones shiver. “Still, I will know why you are here instead of on Almoth Plain.” “I
was commanded here by word of the Lord Captain Commander.” The
Myrddraal grated, “Your Lord Captain Commander’s words are dung! You were
commanded to find the human called Rand al’Thor and kill him. That before all
else. Above all else! Why are you not obeying?” Carridin
took a deep breath. That gaze on his back felt like a knife blade grating along
his spine. “Things . . . have changed. Some matters are not as much in my control
as they were.” A harsh, scraping noise jerked his head around. The
Myrddraal was drawing a hand across the tabletop, and thin tendrils of wood
curled away from its fingernails. “Nothing has changed, human. You foreswore
your oaths to the Light and swore new oaths, and those oaths you will obey.” Carridin
started at the gouges marring the polished wood and swallowed hard. “I don’t
understand. Why is it suddenly so important to kill him? I thought the Great
Lord of the Dark meant to use him.” “You
question me? I should take your tongue. It is not your part to question. Or to
understand. It is your part to obey! You will give dogs lessons in obedience.
Do you understand that? Heel, dog,
and obey your master. “ Anger
wormed its way through the fear, and Carridin’s hand groped at his side, but
his sword was not there. It lay in the next room now, where he had left it on
going to attend Pedron Niall. The
Myrddraal moved faster than a striking viper. Carridin opened his mouth to
scream as its hand closed on his wrist in a crushing grip; bones grated
together, sending jolts of agony up his arm. The scream never left his mouth,
though, for the Halfman’s other hand gripped his chin and forced his jaws shut.
His heels rose up, and then his toes left the floor. Grunting and gurgling, he
dangled in the Myrddraal’s grasp. “Hear
me, human. You will find this youth and kill him as quickly as possible. Do not
think you can dissemble. There are others of your children who will tell me if you turn aside in your
purpose. But I will give you this to encourage you. If this Rand al’Thor is not
dead in a month, I will take one of your blood. A son, a daughter, a sister, an
uncle. You will not know who until the chosen has died screaming. If he lives
another month, I will take another. And then another, and another. And when
there is no one of your blood living except yourself, if he still lives, I will
take you to Shayol Ghul itself.” It smiled. “You will be years in the dying,
human. Do you understand me, now?” Carridin
made a sound, half groan, half whimper. He thought his neck was going to break. With a snarl, the Myrddraal hurled him across the room. Carridin
slammed against the far wall and slid to the rug, stunned. Facedown, he lay
fighting for breath. “Do
you understand me, human?” “I .
. . I hear and obey,” Carridin managed into the carpet. There was no answer. He
turned his head, wincing at the pain in his neck. The room was empty except for
him. Halfmen rode shadows like horses, so the legends said, and when they
turned sideways, they disappeared. No wall could keep them out. Carridin wanted
to weep. He levered himself up, cursing the jolt of pain from his wrist. The
door opened, and Sharbon hurried in, a plump man with a basket in his arms. He
stopped to stare at Carridin. “Master, are you all right? Forgive me for not
being here, master, but I went to buy fruits for your – “ With
his good hand Carridin struck the basket from Sharbon’s hands, sending withered
winter apples rolling across the carpets, and backhanded the man across the
face. “Forgive
me, master,” Sharbon whispered. “Fetch
me paper and pen and ink,” Carridin snarled. “Hurry, fool! I must send orders.”
But which? Which? As Sharbon
scurried to obey, Carridin stared at the gouges in the tabletop and shivered. 1 Waiting The Wheel of Time turns, and Ages come and
pass, leaving memories that become legend. Legend fades to myth, and even myth
is long forgotten when the Age that gave it birth comes again. In one Age,
called the Third Age by some, an Age yet to come, an Age long past, a wind rose
in the Mountains of Mist. The wind was not the beginning. There are neither
beginnings nor endings to the turning of the Wheel of Time. But it was a
beginning. Down long valleys the wind swept, valleys blue
with morning mist hanging in the air, some forested with evergreens, some bare
where grasses and wildflowers would soon spring up. It howled across half‑buried
ruins and broken monuments, all as forgotten as those who had built them. It moaned
in the passes, weatherworn cuts between peaks capped with snow that never
melted. Thick clouds clung to the mountaintops so that snow and white billows
seemed one. In the lowlands winter was going or gone, yet
here in the heights it held awhile, quilting the mountainsides with broad,
white patches. Only evergreens clung to leaf or needle; all other branches
stood bare, brown or gray against the rock and not yet quickened ground. There
was no sound but the crisp rush of wind over snow and stone. The land seemed to
be waiting. Waiting for something to burst. Sitting his horse just inside a thicket of
leatherleaf and pine, Perrin Aybara shivered and tugged his fur‑lined
cloak closer, as close as he could with a longbow in one hand and a great, half‑moon
axe at his belt. It was a good axe of cold steel; Perrin had pumped the bellows
the day master Luhhan had made it. The wind jerked at his cloak, pulling the
hood back from his shaggy curls, and cut through his coat; he wiggled his toes
in his boots for warmth and shifted on his high‑cantled saddle, but his
mind was not really on the cold. Eyeing his five companions, he wondered if
they, too, felt it. Not the waiting they had been sent there for, but something
more. Stepper, his horse, shifted and tossed his
head. He had named the dun stallion for his quick feet, but now Stepper seemed
to feel his rider’s irritation and impatience. I am tired of all this waiting, all this sitting while Moiraine holds us
at tight as tongs. Burn the Aes Sedai! When will it end? He sniffed the wind without thinking. The smell
of horse predominated, and of men and men’s sweat. A rabbit had gone through
those trees not long since, fear powering its run, but the fox on its trail had
not killed there. He realized what he was doing, and stopped it. You’d think I would get a stuffed nose with all
this wind. He almost wished he did have one. And I wouldn’t let Moiraine do anything about it, either. Something tickled the back of his mind. He
refused to acknowledge it. He did not mention his feeling to his companions. The other five men sat their saddles, short
horsebows at the ready, eyes searching the sky above as well as the thinly
treed slopes below. They seemed unperturbed by the wind flaring their cloaks
out like banners. A two‑handed sword hilt stuck up above each man’s
shoulder through a slit in his cloak. The sight of their bare heads, shaven
except for topknots, made Perrin feel colder. For them, this weather was
already well into spring. All softness had been hammered out of them at a
harder forge than he had ever known. They were Shienarans, from the Borderlands
up along the Great Blight, where Trolloc raids could come in any night, and
even a merchant or a farmer might well have to take up sword or bow. And these
men were no farmers, but soldiers almost from birth. He sometimes wondered at the way they deferred
to him and followed his lead. It was as if they thought he had some special
right, some knowledge hidden from them. Or
maybe it’s just my friends, he thought wryly. They were not as tall as he,
nor as big - years as a blacksmith’s apprentice had given him arms and
shoulders to make two of most men’s ‑ but he had begun shaving every day
to stop their jokes about his youth. Friendly jokes, but still jokes. He would
not have them start again because he spoke of a feeling. With a start, Perrin reminded himself that he
was supposed to be keeping watch, too. Checking the arrow nocked to his
longbow, he peered down the valley running off to the west, widening as it fell
away, the ground streaked with broad, twisted ribbons of snow, remnants of
winter. Most of the scattered trees down there still clawed the sky with stark
winter branches, but enough evergreens‑pine and leatherleaf, fir and
mountain holly, even a few towering greenwoods‑stood on the slopes and
the valley floor to give cover for anyone who knew how to use it. But no one
would be there without a special purpose. The mines were all far to the south
or even further north; most people thought there was ill luck in the Mountains
of Mist, and few entered them who could avoid it. Perrin’s eyes glittered like
burnished gold. The tickling became an itch. No! He could push the itch aside, but the
expectation would not go. As if he teetered on a brink. As if everything
teetered. He wondered whether something unpleasant lay in the mountains around
them. There was a way to know, perhaps. In places like this, where men seldom
came, there were almost always wolves. He crushed the thought before it had a
chance to firm. Better to wonder. Better
than that. Their numbers were not many, but they had scouts. If there was
anything out there, the outriders would find it. This is my forge; I’ll tend it, and let them tend
theirs. He could see further than the others, so he was
first to spot the rider coming from the direction of Tarabon. Even to him the
rider was only a spot of bright colors on horseback winding its way through the
trees in the distance, now seen, now hidden. A piebald horse, he thought. And not before time! He opened his mouth
to announce her - it would be a woman; each rider before had been ‑ when
Masema suddenly muttered, “Raven!” like a curse. Perrin jerked his head up. A big black bird was
quartering over the treetops no more than a hundred paces away. Its quarry
might have been carrion dead in the snow or some small animal, yet Perrin could
not take the chance. It did not seem to have seen them, but the oncoming rider
would soon be in its sight. Even as he spotted the raven, his bow came up, and
he drew ‑ fletchings to cheek, to ear ‑ and loosed, all in one
smooth motion. He was dimly aware of the slap of bowstrings beside him, but his
attention was all on the black bird. Of a sudden it cartwheeled in a shower of
midnight feathers as his arrow found it, and tumbled from the sky as two more
arrows streaked through the place where it had been. Bows half‑drawn, the
other Shienarans searched the sky to see if it had a companion. “Does it have to report,” Perrin asked softly,
“or does . . . he . . . see what it
sees?” He had not meant anyone to hear, but Ragan, the youngest of the
Shienarans, less than ten years his elder, answered as he fitted another arrow
to his short bow. “It has to report. To a Halfman, usually.” In
the Borderlands there was a bounty on ravens; no one there ever dared assume
any raven was just a bird. “Light, if Heartsbane saw what the ravens saw, we
would all have been dead before we reached the mountains.” Ragan’s voice was
easy; it was a matter of every day to a Shienaran soldier. Perrin shivered, not from the cold, and in the
back of his head something snarled a challenge to the death. Heartsbane.
Different names in different lands ‑ Soulsbane and Heartfang, Lord of the
Grave and Lord of the Twilight ‑ and everywhere Father of Lies and the
Dark One, all to avoid giving him his true name and drawing his attention. The
Dark One often used ravens and crows, rats in the cities. Perrin drew another
broadhead arrow from the quiver on his hip that balanced the axe on the other
side. “That may be as big as a club,” Ragan said
admiringly, with a glance at Perrin’s bow, “but it can shoot. I would hate to
see what it could do to a man in armor.” The Shienarans wore only light mail,
now, under their plain coats, but usually they fought in armor, man and horse
alike. “Too long for horseback,” Masema sneered. The
triangular scar on his dark cheek twisted his contemptuous grin even more. “A
good breastplate will stop even a pile arrow except at close range, and if your
first shot fails, the man you’re shooting at will carve your guts out.” “That is just it, Masema.” Ragan relaxed a bit
as the sky remained empty. The raven must have been alone. “With this Two
Rivers bow, I’ll wager you don’t have to be so close.” Masema opened his mouth. “You two stop flapping your bloody tongues!”
Uno snapped. With a long scar down the left side of his face and that eye gone,
his features were hard, even for a Shienaran. He had acquired a painted
eyepatch on their way into the mountains during the autumn; a permanently
frowning eye in a fiery red did nothing to make his stare
easier to face. “If you can’t keep your bloody minds on the bloody task at
hand, I’ll see if extra flaming guard duty tonight will bloody settle you.”
Ragan and Masema subsided under his stare. He gave them a last scowl that faded
as he turned to Perrin. “Do you see anything yet?” His tone was a little
gruffer than he might have used with a commander put over him by the King of
Shienar, or the Lord of Fal Dara, yet there was something in it of readiness to
do whatever Perrin suggested. The Shienarans knew how far he could see, but
they seemed to take it as a matter of course, that and the color of his eyes,
as well. They did not know everything, not by half, but they accepted him as he
was. As they thought he was. They seemed to accept everything and anything. The
world was changing, they said. Everything spun on the wheels of chance and
change. If a man had eyes a color no man’s eyes had ever been, what did it
matter, now? “She’s coming,” Perrin said. “You should just
see her now. There.” He pointed, and Uno strained forward, his one real eye
squinting, then finally nodded doubtfully. “There’s bloody something moving down there.”
Some of the others nodded and murmured, too. Uno glared at them, and they went
back to studying the sky and the mountains. Suddenly Perrin realized what the bright colors
on the distant rider meant. A vivid green skirt peeking out beneath a bright
red cloak. “She’s one of the Traveling People,” he said, startled. No one else
he had ever heard of dressed in such brilliant colors and odd combinations, not
by choice. The women they had sometimes met and guided
even deeper into the mountains included every sort: a beggar woman in rags
struggling afoot through a snowstorm; a merchant by herself leading a string of
laden packhorses; a lady in silks and fine furs, with red‑tasseled reins
on her palfrey and gold worked on her saddle. The beggar departed with a purse
of silver‑more than Perrin thought they could afford to give, until the
lady left an even fatter purse of gold. Women from every station in life, all
alone, from Tarabon, and Ghealdan, and even Amadicia. But he had never expected
to see one of the Tuatha’an. “A bloody Tinker?” Uno exclaimed. The others
echoed his surprise. Ragan’s topknot waved as he shook his head. “A
Tinker wouldn’t be mixed in this. Either she’s not a Tinker, or she is not the
one we are supposed to meet.” “Tinkers,” Masema growled. “Useless Cowards.” Uno’s eye narrowed until it looked like the
pritchel hole of an anvil; with the red painted eye on his patch, it gave him a
villainous look. “Cowards, Masema?” he said softly. “If you were a woman, would
you have the flaming nerve to ride up here, alone and bloody unarmed?” There
was no doubt she would be unarmed if she was of the Tuatha’an. Masema kept his
mouth shut, but the scar on his cheek stood out tight and pale. “Burn me, if I would,” Ragan said. “And burn me
if you would either, Masema.” Masema hitched at his cloak and ostentatiously
searched the sky. Uno snorted. “The Light send that flaming
carrion eater was flaming alone,” he muttered. Slowly the shaggy brown‑and‑white
mare meandered closer, picking a way along the clear ground between broad
snowbanks. Once the brightly clad woman stopped to peer at something on the
ground, then tugged the cowl of her cloak further over her head and heeled her
mount forward in a slow walk. The raven, Perrin
thought. Stop looking at that bird
and come on, woman. Maybe you’ve brought the word that finally takes us out of
here. If Moiraine means to let us leave before spring. Burn her! For a
moment he was not sure whether he meant the Aes Sedai, or the Tinker woman who
seemed to be taking her own time. If she kept on as she was, the woman would pass
a good thirty paces to one side of the thicket. With her eyes fixed on where
her piebald stepped, she gave no sign that she had seen them among the trees. Perrin nudged the stallion’s flanks with his
heels, and the dun leaped ahead, sending up sprays of snow with his hooves.
Behind him, Uno quietly gave the command, “Forward!” Stepper was halfway to her before she seemed to
become aware of them, and then she jerked her mare to a halt with a start. She
watched as they formed an arc centered on her. Embroidery of eye‑wrenching
blue, in the pattern called a Tairen maze, made her red cloak even more garish.
She was not young ‑ gray showed thick in her hair where it was not hidden
by her cowl ‑ but her face had few lines, other than the disapproving
frown she ran over their weapons. If she was alarmed at meeting armed men in
the heart of mountain wilderness, though, she gave no sign. Her hands rested
easily on the high pommel of her worn but well‑kept saddle. And she did
not smell afraid. Stop that! Perrin told himself. He made his
voice soft so as not to frighten her. “My name is Perrin, good mistress. If you
need help, I will do what I can. If not, go with the Light. But unless the
Tuatha’an have changed their ways, you are far from your wagons.” She studied them a moment more before speaking.
There was a gentleness in her dark eyes, not surprising in one of the Traveling
People. “I seek an . . . a woman.” The skip was small, but it was there. She
sought not any woman, but an Aes Sedai. “Does she have a name, good mistress?”
Perrin asked. He had done this too many times in the last few months to need
her reply, but iron was spoiled for want of care. “She is called . . . . Sometimes, she is called
Moiraine. My name is Leya.” Perrin nodded. “We will take you to her,
Mistress Leya. We have warm fires, and with luck something hot to eat.” But he
did not lift his reins immediately. “How did you find us?” He had asked before,
each time Moiraine sent him out to wait at a spot she named, for a woman she
knew would come. The answer would be the same as it always was, but he had to
ask. Leya shrugged and answered hesitantly. “I . . .
knew that if I came this way, someone would find me and take me to her. I . . .
just . . . knew. I have news for her.” Perrin did not ask what news. The women gave
the information they brought only to Moiraine. And the Aes Sedai
tells us what she chooses. He thought. Aes Sedai never lied, but it was said that the truth an Aes
Sedai told you was not always the truth you thought it was. Too late for qualms, now. Isn’t it? “This way, Mistress Leya,” he said, gesturing
up the mountain. The Shienarans, with Uno at their head, fell in behind Perrin
and Leya as they began to climb. The Borderlanders still studied the sky as
much as the land, and the last two kept a special watch on their backtrail. For a time they rode in silence except for the sounds the
horses’ hooves made, sometimes crunching through old snowcrust, sometimes
sending rocks clattering as they crossed bare stretches. Now and again Leya
cast glances at Perrin, at his bow, his axe, his face, but she did not speak.
He shifted uncomfortably under the scrutiny, and avoided looking at her. He
always tried to give strangers as little chance to notice his eyes as he could
manage. Finally he said, “I was surprised to see one of
the Traveling People, believing as you do.” “It is possible to oppose evil without doing
violence.” Her voice held the simplicity of someone stating an obvious truth. Perrin grunted sourly, then immediately
muttered an apology. “Would it were as you say, Mistress Leya.” “Violence harms the doer as much as the
victim,” Leya said placidly. “That is why we flee those who harm us, to save
them from harm to themselves as much for our own safety. If we do violence to
oppose evil, soon we would be no different from what we struggle against. It is
with the strength of our belief that we fight the Shadow.” Perrin could not help snorting. “Mistress, I
hope you never have to face Trollocs with the strength of your belief. The
strength of their swords will cut you down where you stand.” “It is better to die than to ‑ “ she
began, but anger made him speak right over her. Anger that she just would not
see. Anger that she really would die rather than harm anyone, no matter how
evil. “If you run, they will hunt you, and kill you,
and eat your corpse. Or they might not wait till it is a corpse. Either way,
you are dead, and it’s evil that has won. And there are men just as cruel.
Darkfriends and others. More others than I would have believed even a year ago.
Let the Whitecloaks decide you Tinkers don’t walk in the Light and see how many
of you the strength of your belief can keep alive.” She gave him a penetrating look. “And yet you
are not happy with your weapons.” How did she know that? He shook his head
irritably, shaggy hair swaying. “The Creator made the world,” he muttered, “not
I. I must live the best I can in the world the way it is.” “So sad for one so young,” she said softly.
“Why so sad?” “I should be watching, not talking,” he said
curtly. “You won’t thank me if I get you lost.” He heeled Stepper forward
enough to cut off any further conversation, but he could feel her looking at
him. Sad? I’m not sad, just . . . .
Light, I don’t know. There ought to be a better way, that’s all. The
itching tickle came again at the back of his head, but absorbed in ignoring
Leya’s eyes on his back, he ignored that, too. Over the slope of the mountain and down they
rode, across a forested valley with a broad stream running cold along its
bottom, knee‑deep on the horses. In the distance, the side of a mountain
had been carved into the semblance of two towering forms. A man and a woman,
Perrin thought they might be, though wind and rain had long since made that
uncertain. Even Moiraine claimed to be unsure who they
were supposed to be, or when the granite had been cut. Pricklebacks and small trout
darted away from the horses’ hooves, silver flashes in the clearwater. A deer
raised its head from browsing, hesitated as the party rode up out of the
stream, then bounded off into the trees, and a large mountain cat, gray striped
and spotted with black, seemed to rise out of the ground, frustrated in its
stalk. It eyed the horses a moment, and with a lash of its tail vanished after
the deer. But there was little life visible in the mountains yet. Only a
handful of birds perched on limbs or pecked at the ground where the snow had
melted. More would return to the heights in a few weeks, but not yet. They saw
no other ravens. It was late afternoon by the time Perrin led
them between two steepsloped mountains, snowy peaks as ever wrapped in cloud,
and turned up a smaller stream that splashed downward over gray stones in a
series of tiny waterfalls. A bird called in the trees, and another answered it
from ahead. Perrin smiled. Bluefinch calls. A Borderland
bird. No one rode this way without being seen. He rubbed his nose, and did not
look at the tree the first “bird” had called from. Their path narrowed as they rode up through
scrubby leatherleaf and a few gnarled mountain oaks. The ground level enough to
ride beside the stream became barely wider than a man on horseback, and the
stream itself no more than a tall man could step across. Perrin heard Leya behind him, murmuring to
herself. When he looked over his shoulder, she was casting worried glances up
the steep slopes to either side. Scattered trees perched precariously above
them. It appeared impossible they would not fall. The Shienarans rode easily,
at last beginning to relax. Abruptly a deep, oval bowl between
the mountains opened out before them, its sides steep but not nearly so
precipitous as the narrow passage. The stream rose from a small spring at its
far end. Perrin’s sharp eyes picked out a man with the topknot of a Shienaran,
up in the limbs of an oak to his left. Had a redwinged jay called instead of a
bluefinch, he would not have been alone, and the way in would not have been so
easy. A handful of men could hold that passage against an army. If an army
came, a handful would have to. Among the trees around the bowl stood log huts,
not readily visible, so that those gathered around the cook fires at the bottom
of the bowl seemed at first to be without shelter. There were fewer than a
dozen in sight. And not many more out of sight, Perrin knew. Most of them
looked around at the sound of horses, and some waved. The bowl seemed filled
with the smells of men and horses, of cooking and burning wood. A long white
banner hung limply from a tall pole near them. One form, at least half again as
tall as anyone else, sat on a log engrossed in a book that was small in his
huge hands. That one’s attention never wavered, even when the only other person
without a topknot shouted, “So you found her, did you? I thought you’d be gone
the night, this time.” It was a young woman’s voice, but she wore a boy’s coat
and breeches and had her hair cut short. A burst of wind swirled into the bowl, making
cloaks flap and rippling the banner out to its full length. For a moment the
creature on it seemed to ride the wind. A four-legged serpent scaled in gold
and blue, golden maned like a lion, and its feet each tipped with five golden
claws. A banner of legend. A banner most men would not know if they saw it, but
would fear when they learned its name. Perrin waved a hand that took it all in as he
led the way down into the bowl. “Welcome to the camp of the Dragon Reborn,
Leya.” CHAPTER 2 Saidin Face expressionless, the Tuatha’an woman stared
at the banner as it drooped again, then turned her attention to those around
the fire. Especially the one reading, the one half again as tall as Perrin and
twice a big. “You have an Ogier with you. I would not have thought . . . .” She
shook her head. “Where is Moiraine Sedai?” It seemed the Dragon banner might as
well not exist as far as she was concerned. Perrin gestured coward the rough but that stood
furthest up the slope, at the far end of the bowl. With walls and sloping roof
of unpeeled logs, it was the largest, though not very big ac that. Perhaps just
barely large enough to be called a cabin rather than a hut. “That one is hers.
Hers and Lan’s. He is her Warder. When you have had something hot to drink ‑
“ “No. I must speak to Moiraine.” He was
not surprised. All the women who came insisted on speaking to Moiraine
immediately, and alone. The news that Moiraine chose to share with the rest of
them did not always seem very important, but the women held the intensity of a
hunter stalking the last rabbit in the world for his starving family. Leya slid from her saddle and handed the
reins up to Perrin. “Will you see that she is fed?” She patted the piebald mare’s
nose. “Piesa is not used to carrying me over such rugged country.” “Fodder is scarce,
still,” Perrin told her, “but she’ll have what we can give her.” Leya nodded, and went
hurrying away up the slope without another word, holding her bright green skirts
up, the blue‑embroidered red cloak swaying behind her. Perrin swung down from
his saddle, exchanging a few words with the men who came from the fires to take
the horses. He gave his bow to the one who took Stepper. No, except for one
raven, they had seen nothing but the mountains and the Tuatha’an woman. Yes,
the raven was dead. No, she had told them nothing of what was happening outside
the mountains. No, he had no idea whether they would be leaving soon. Or ever, he
added to himself. Moiraine had kept them there all winter. The Shienarans did
not think she gave the orders, not here, but Perrin knew that Aes Sedai somehow
always seemed to get their way. Especially Moiraine. Once the horses were led
away to the rude log stable, the riders went to warm themselves. Perrin tossed
his cloak back over his shoulders and held his hands out to the flames
gratefully. The big kettle, Baerlon work by the look of it, gave off smells
that had been making his mouth water for some time already. Someone had been
lucky hunting today, it seemed, and lumpy roots circled another fire close by,
giving off an aroma faintly like turnips as they roasted. He wrinkled his nose
and concentrated on the stew. More and more he wanted meat above anything else. The woman in men’s
clothes was peering toward Leya, who was just disappearing into Moiraine’s hut. “What do you see, Min?”
he asked. She came to stand beside
him, her dark eyes troubled. He did not understand why she insisted on breeches
instead of skirts. Perhaps it was because he knew her, but he could not see how
anyone could look at her and see a too‑handsome youth instead of a pretty
young woman. “The Tinker woman is
going to die,” she said softly, eyeing the others near the fires. None was
close enough to hear. He was still, thinking
of Leya’s gentle face. Ah, Light! Tinkers
never harm anyone! He felt cold despite the warmth of the fire. Burn me, I wish I’d never asked. Even
the few Aes Sedai who knew of it did not understand what Min did. Sometimes she
saw images and auras surrounding people, and sometimes she even knew what they
meant. Masuto came to stir the
stew with a long wood spoon. The Shienaran eyed them, then laid a finger
alongside his long nose and grinned widely before he left. “Blood and ashes!” Min
muttered. “He’s probably decided we are sweethearts murmuring to each other by
the fire.” “Are you sure?” Perrin
asked. She raised her eyebrows at him, and he hastily added, “About Leya.” “Is that her name? I
wish I didn’t know. It always makes it worse, knowing and not being able to . .
. . Perrin, I saw her own face floating over her shoulder, covered in blood,
eyes staring. It’s never any clearer than that.” She shivered and rubbed her
hands together briskly. “Light, but I wish I saw more happy things. All the
happy things seem to have gone away.” He opened his mouth to
suggest warning Leya, then closed it again. There was never any doubt about
what Min saw and knew, for good or bad. If she was certain, it happened. “Blood on her face,” he
muttered. “Does that mean she’ll die by violence?” He winced that he said it so
easily. But what can I do? If I tell
Leya, if I make her believe somehow, she’ll live her last days in fear, and it
will change nothing. Min gave a short nod. If she’s going to die by violence, it could mean an attack on the camp. But there were scouts out every day,
and guards set day and night. And Moiraine had the camp warded, so she said; no
creature of the Dark One would see it unless he walked right into it. He
thought of the wolves. No! The scouts would find anyone or anything trying to
approach the camp. “It’s a long way back to her people,” he said half to
himself. “Tinkers wouldn’t have brought their wagons any further than the
foothills. Anything could happen between here and there.” Min nodded sadly. “And
there aren’t enough of us to spare even one guard for her. Even if it would do
any good.” She had told him; she
had tried warning people about bad things when, at six or seven, she had first
realized not everyone could see what she saw. She would not say more, but he
had the impression that her warnings had only made matters worse, when they
were believed at all. It took some doing to believe in Min’s viewings until you
had proof. The half‑frozen
old beggar woman had refused blankets and a place of hot stew and tramped up to
Moiraine’s hut, barefoot in still‑falling snow. “When?” he said. The
word was cold in his ears, and hard as tool steel. I can’t do anything ahout Leya, but maybe I
can figure out whether we’re going to he attacked. As soon as the word was
out of his mouth, she threw up her hands. She kept her voice down, though. “It
isn’t like that. I can never tell when something
is going to happen. I only know it will, if I even know what I see means. You
don’t understand. The seeing doesn’t come when I want it to, and neither does
knowing. It just happens, and sometimes I know. Something. A little bit. It
just happens.” He tried to get a soothing word in, but she was letting it all
out in a flood he could not stem. “I can see things around a man one day and
not the next, or the other way ‘round. Most of the time, I don’t see anything
around anyone. Aes Sedai always have images around them, of course, and
Warders, though it’s always harder to say what it means with them than with
anyone else.” She gave Perrin a searching look, half squinting. “A few others
always do, too.” “Don’t tell me what you
see when you look at me,” he said harshly, then shrugged his heavy shoulders.
Even as a child he had been bigger than most of the others, and he had quickly
learned how easy it was to hurt people by accident when you were bigger than
they. It had made him cautious and careful, and regretful of his anger when he
let it show. “I am sorry, Min. I shouldn’t have snapped at you. I did not mean
to hurt you.” She gave him a surprised
look. “You didn’t hurt me. Blessed few people want to know what I see. The Light knows, I would not, if it were
someone else who could do it.” Even the Aes Sedai had never heard of anyone
else who had her gift. “Gift” was how they saw it, even if she did not. “It’s just that I wish
there were something I could do about Leya. I couldn’t stand it the way you do,
knowing and not able to do anything. “ “Strange,” she said
softly, “how you seem to care so much about the Tuatha’an. They are utterly
peaceful, and I always see violence around ‑ “ He turned his head away,
and she cut off abruptly. “Tuatha’an?” came a
rumbling voice, like a huge bumblebee. “What about the Tuatha’an?” The Ogier
came to join them at the fire, marking his place in his book with a finger the
size of a large sausage. A thin streamer of tabac smoke rose from the pipe in
his other hand. His high-necked coat of dark brown wool buttoned up to the
neck, and flared at the knee over turned‑down boot tops. Perrin stood
hardly as high as his chest. Loial’s face had
frightened more than one person, with his nose broad enough almost to be called
a snout and his too‑wide mouth. His eyes were the size of saucers, with
thick eyebrows that dangled like mustaches almost to his cheeks, and his ears
poked up through long hair in ruffed points. Some who had never seen an Ogier
took him for a Trolloc, though Trollocs were as much legend to most of them as
Ogier. Loial’s wide smile
wavered and his eyes blinked as he became aware of having interrupted them.
Perrin wondered how anyone could be frightened of the Ogier for long. Yet some of the old stories call them
fierce, and implacable as enemies. He could not believe it. Ogier were
enemies to no one. Min told Loial of Leya’s
arrival, but not of what she had seen. She was usually closemouthed about those
seeings, especially when they were bad. Instead, she added, “You should know
how I feel, Loial, suddenly caught up by Aes Sedai and these Two Rivers folk.” Loial made a
noncommittal sound, but Min seemed to take it for agreement. “Yes,” she said
emphatically. “There I was, living my life in Baerlon as I liked it, when
suddenly I was grabbed up by the scruff of the neck and jerked off to the Light
knows where. Well, I might as well have been. My life has not been my own since
I met Moiraine. And these Two Rivers farmboys. “ She rolled her eyes at Perrin,
a wry twist to her mouth. “All I wanted was to live as I pleased, fall in love
with a man I chose . . . .” Her cheeks reddened suddenly, and she cleared her
throat. “I mean to say, what is wrong with wanting to live your life without
all this upheaval?” “Ta’veren,”
Loial began. Perrin waved at him to stop, but the Ogier could seldom be slowed,
much less stopped, when one of his enthusiasms had him in its grip. He was
accounted extremely hasty, by the Ogier way of looking at things. Loial pushed
his book into a coat pocket and went on, gesturing with his pipe. “All of us,
all of our lives, affect the lives of others, Min. As the Wheel of Time weaves
us into the Pattern, the life‑thread of each of us pulls and tugs at the
life‑threads around us. Ta’veren are the same, only much, much
more so. They tug at the entire Pattern ‑ for a time, at least - forcing
it to shape around them. The closer you are to them, the more you are affected
personally. It’s said that if you were in the same room with Artur Hawkwing,
you could feel the Pattern rearranging itself. I don’t know how true that is,
but I’ve read that it was. But it doesn’t only work one way. Ta’veren
themselves are woven to a tighter line than the rest of us, with fewer choices.
“ Perrin grimaced. Bloody
few of the ones that matter. Min tossed, her head. “I just wish they didn’t have to be so
. . . so bloody ta’veren all the time. Ta’veren tugging on one side, and Aes
Sedai meddling on the other. What chance does a woman have?” Loial shrugged. “Very
little, I suppose, as long as she stays close to ta’veren.” “As if I had a choice,”
Min growled. “It was your good
fortune ‑ or misfortune, if you see it that way ‑ to fall in with
not one, but three ta’veren. Rand, Mat, and Perrin. I myself count it
very good fortune, and would even if they weren’t my friends. I think I might
even . . . .” The Ogier looked at them, suddenly shy, his ears twitching.
“Promise you will not laugh? I think I might write a book about it. I have been
taking notes.” Min smiled, a friendly
smile, and Loial’s ears pricked back up again. “That’s wonderful,” she told
him. “But some of us feel as if we’re being danced about like puppets by these ta’veren.” “I didn’t ask for it,”
Perrin burst out. “I did not ask for it.” She ignored him. “Is
that what happened to you, Loial? Is that why you travel with Moiraine? I know
you Ogier almost never leave your stedding. Did one of these ta’veren
tug you along with him?” Loial became engrossed
in a study of his pipe. “I just wanted to see the groves the Ogier planted,” he
muttered. “Just to see the groves.” He glanced at Perrin as if asking for help,
but Perrin only grinned. Let’s see how the
shoe nails onto your hoof. He did not know all of it, but he did know
Loial had run away. He was ninety years old, but not yet old enough by Ogier
standards to leave the stedding ‑ going Outside, they called it ‑
without the permission of the Elders. Ogier lived a very long time, as humans
saw things. Loial said the Elders would not be best pleased when they put their
hands on him again. He seemed intent on putting that moment off as long as
possible. There was a stir among
the Shienarans, men getting to their feet. Rand was coming out of Moiraine’s
hut. Even at that distance
Perrin could make him out clearly, a young man with reddish hair and gray eyes.
He was of an age with Perrin, and would stand half a head taller if they were
side by side, though Rand was more slender, if still broad across the
shoulders. Embroidered golden thorns ran up the sleeves of his high‑collared,
red coat, and on the breast of his dark cloak stood the same creature as on the
banner, the four‑legged serpent with the golden mane. Rand and he had
grown up together as friends. Are we still friends? Can we be? Now? The Shienarans bowed as
one, heads held up but hands to knees. “Lord Dragon,” Uno called, “we stand
ready. Honor to serve.” Uno, who could hardly
say a sentence without a curse, spoke now with the deepest respect. The others
echoed him. “Honor to serve.” Masema, who saw ill in everything, and whose eyes
now shone with utter devotion; Ragan; all of them, awaiting a command if it
were Rand’s pleasure to give one. From the slope Rand stared
down at them a moment, then turned and disappeared into the trees. “He has been arguing
with Moiraine again,” Min said quietly. “All day, this time.” Perrin was not
surprised, yet he still felt a small shock. Arguing with an Aes Sedai. All the
childhood tales came back to him. Aes Sedai, who made thrones and nations dance
to their hidden strings. Aes Sedai, whose gift always had a hook in it, whose
price was always smaller than you could believe, yet always turned out to be
greater than you could imagine. Aes Sedai, whose anger could break the ground
and summon lightning. Some of the stories were untrue, he knew now. And at the
same time, they did not tell the half. “I had better go to
him,” he said. “After they argue, he always needs someone to talk to.” And
aside from Moiraine and Lan, there were only the three of them‑Min,
Loial, and him‑who did not stare at Rand as if he stood above kings. And
of the three only Perrin knew him from before. He strode up the slope,
pausing only to glance at the closed door of Moiraine’s hut. Leya would be in
there, and Lan. The Warder seldom let himself get far from the Aes Sedai’s
side. Rand’s much smaller but
was a little lower down, well hidden in the trees, away from all the rest. He
had tried living down among the other men, but their constant awe drove him
off. He kept to himself, now. Too much to himself, to Perrin’s thinking. But he
knew Rand was not headed to his but now. Perrin hurried on to
where one side of the bowl‑shaped valley suddenly became sheer cliff,
fifty paces high and smooth except for tough brush clinging tenaciously here
and there. He knew exactly where a crack in the gray rock wall lay, an opening
hardly wider than his shoulders. With only a ribbon of late‑afternoon
light overhead, it was like walking down a tunnel. Half a mile the crack
ran, abruptly opening out into a narrow vale, less than a mile long, its floor
covered with rocks and boulders, and even the steep slopes were thickly
forested with tall leatherleaf and pine and fir. Long shadows stretched away
from the sun sitting on the mountaintops. The walls of this place were unbroken
save for the crack, and as steep as if a giant axe had buried itself in the
mountains. It could be even more easily defended by a few than the bowl, but it
had neither stream nor spring. No one went there. Except Rand, after he argued
with Moiraine. Rand stood not far from
the entrance, leaning against the rough trunk of a leatherleaf, staring at the
palms of his hands. Perrin knew that on each there was a heron, branded into
the flesh. Rand did not move when Perrin’s boot scraped on stone. Suddenly Rand began to
recite softly, never looking up from his hands. “Twice and twice shall
he be marked, twice to live, and twice
to die. Once the heron, to set
his path. Twice the heron, to name
him true. Once the Dragon, for
remembrance lost. Twice the Dragon, for
the price he must pay.” With a shudder he tucked
his hands under his arms. “But no Dragons, yet.” He chuckled roughly. “Not
yet.” For a moment Perrin
simply looked at him. A man who could channel the One Power. A man doomed to go
mad from the taint on saidin, the
male half of the True Source, and certain to destroy everything around him in
his madness. A man ‑ a thing! ‑ everyone was taught to loathe and
fear from childhood. Only . . . it was hard to stop seeing the boy he had grown
up with. How do you just stop being somebody’s friend? Perrin chose a
small boulder with a flat top, and sat, waiting. After a while Rand
turned his head to look at him. “Do you think Mat is all right? He looked so
sick, the last I saw him.” “He must be all right by
now.” He should be in Tar Valon, by now.
They’ll Heal him, there. And Nynaeve and Egwene will keep him out of trouble. Egwene and Nynaeve, Rand
and Mat and Perrin. All five from Emond’s Field in the Two Rivers. Few people
had come into the Two Rivers from outside, except for occasional peddlers, and
merchants once a year to buy wool and tabac. Almost no one had ever left. Until
the Wheel chose out its ta’veren, and
five simple country folk could stay where they were no longer. Could be what
they had been no longer. Rand nodded and was
silent. “Lately,” Perrin said,
“I find myself wishing I was still a blacksmith. Do you. . . . Do you wish you
were still just a shepherd?” “Duty,” Rand muttered.
“Death is lighter than a feather, duty heavier than a mountain. That’s what
they say in Shienar. ‘The Dark One is stirring. The Last Battle is coming. And
the Dragon Reborn has to face the Dark One in the Last Battle, or the Shadow
will cover everything. The Wheel of Time broken. Every Age remade in the Dark
One’s image.’ There’s only me.” He began to laugh mirthlessly, his shoulders
shaking. “I have the duty, because there isn’t anybody else, now is there?” Perrin shifted uneasily.
The laughter had a raw edge that made his skin crawl. “I understand you were
arguing with Moiraine again. The same thing?” Rand drew a deep, ragged
breath. “Don’t we always argue about the same thing? They’re down there, on
Almoth Plain, and the Light alone knows where else. Hundreds of them.
Thousands. They declared for the Dragon Reborn because I raised that banner.
Because I let myself be called the Dragon. Because I could see no other choice.
And they’re dying. Fighting, searching, and praying for the man who is supposed
to lead them. Dying. And I sit here safe in the mountains all winter. I . . . I
owe them . . . something.” “You think I like it?”
Perrin swung his head in irritation. “You take whatever she
says to you,” Rand grated. “You never stand up to her.” “Much good it has done
you, standing up to her. You have argued all winter, and we have sat here like
lumps all winter” “Because she is right.”
Rand laughed again, that chilling laugh. “The Light burn me, she is right. They
are all split up into little groups all over the plain, all across Tarabon and
Arad Doman. If I join any one of them, the Whitecloaks and the Domani army and
the Taraboners will be on top of them like a duck on a beetle.” Perrin almost laughed
himself, in confusion. “If you agree with her, why in the Light do you argue
all the time?” “Because I have to do
something. Or I’ll . . . I’ll ‑ burst like a rotted melon!” “Do what? If you listen
to what she says - ” Rand gave him no chance
to say they would sit there forever. “Moiraine says! Moiraine says!” Rand
jerked erect, squeezing his head between his hands. “Moiraine has something to
say about everything! Moiraine says I mustn’t go to the men who are dying in my
name. Moiraine says I’ll know what to do next because the Pattern will force me
to it. Moiraine says! But she never says how I’ll know. Oh, no! She doesn’t
know that.” His hands fell to his sides, and he turned toward Perrin, head
tilted and eyes narrowed. “Sometimes I feel as if Moiraine is putting me
through my paces like a fancy Tairen stallion doing his steps. Do you ever feel
that?” Perrin scrubbed a hand
through his shaggy hair. “I. . . . Whatever is pushing us, or pulling us, I
know who the enemy is, Rand.” “Ba’alzamon,” Rand said
softly. An ancient name for the Dark One. In the Trolloc tongue, it meant Heart
of the Dark. “And I must face him, Perrin.” His eyes closed in a grimace, half
smile, half pain. “Light help me, half the time I want it to happen now, to be
over and done with, and the other half . . . . How many times can I manage to .
. . . Light, it pulls at me so. What if I can’t . . . . What if I. . . .” The
ground trembled. “Rand?” Perrin said
worriedly. Rand shivered; despite
the chill, there was sweat on his face. His eyes were still shut tight. “Oh,
Light,” he groaned, “it pulls so.” Suddenly the ground
heaved beneath Perrin, and the valley echoed with a vast rumble. It seemed as
if the ground was jerked out from under his feet. He fell ‑ or the earth
leaped up to meet him. The valley shook as though a vast hand had reached down
from the sky to wrench it out of the land. He clung to the ground while it
tried to bounce him like a ball. Pebbles in front of his eyes leaped and
tumbled, and dust rose in waves. “Rand!” His bellow was
lost in the grumbling roar. Rand stood with his head
thrown back, his eyes still shut tight. He did not seem to feel the thrashing
of the ground that had him now at one angle, now at another. His balance never
shifted, no matter how he was tossed. Perrin could not be certain, being shaken
as he was, but he thought Rand wore a sad smile. The trees flailed about, and
the leatherleaf suddenly cracked in two, the greater part of its trunk crashing
down not three paces from Rand. He noticed it no more than he noticed any of
the rest. Perrin struggled to fill
his lungs. “Rand! For the love of the Light, Rand! Stop it!” As abruptly as it had
begun, it was done. A weakened branch cracked off of a stunted oak with a loud
snap. Perrin got to his feet slowly, coughing. Dust hung in the air, sparkling
motes in the rays of the setting sun. Rand was staring at
nothing, now, chest heaving as if he had run ten miles. This had never happened
before, nor anything remotely like it. “Rand,” Perrin said
carefully, “what ‑ ?” Rand still seemed to be
looking into a far distance. “It is always there. Calling to me. Pulling at me.
Saidin. The male half of the True
Source. Sometimes I can’t stop myself from reaching out for it.” He made a
motion of plucking something out of the air, and transferred his stare to his
closed fist. “I can feel the taint even before I touch it. The Dark One’s
taint, like a thin coat of vileness trying to hide the Light. It turns my
stomach, but I cannot help myself. I cannot! Only sometimes, I reach out, and
it’s like trying to catch air.” His empty hand sprang open, and he gave a
bitter laugh. “What if that happens when the Last Battle comes? What if I reach
out and catch nothing?” “Well, you caught
something that time,” Perrin said hoarsely. “What were you doing?” Rand looked around as if
seeing things for the first time. The fallen leatherleaf, and the broken
branches. There was, Perrin realized, surprisingly little damage. He had
expected gaping rents in the earth. The wall of trees looked almost whole. “I did not mean to do
this. It was as if I tried to open a tap, and instead pulled the whole tap out
of the barrel. It . . . filled me. I had to send it somewhere before it burned
me up, but I . . . I did not mean this. “ Perrin shook his head. What use to tell him to try not to do it
again? He barely knows more about what he’s doing than I do. He contented
himself with, “There are enough who want you dead ‑ and the rest of us ‑
without you doing the job for them.” Rand did not seem to be listening. “We had
best get on back to the camp. It will be dark soon, and I don’t know about you,
but I am hungry.” “What? Oh. You go on,
Perrin. I will be along. I want to be alone again a while.” Perrin hesitated, then
turned reluctantly toward the crack in the valley wall. He stopped when Rand
spoke again. “Do you have dreams when
you sleep? Good dreams?” “Sometimes,” Perrin said
warily. “I don’t remember much of what I dream.” He had learned to set guards
on his dreaming. “They’re always there,
dreams,” Rand said, so softly Perrin barely heard. “Maybe they tell us things.
True things.” He fell silent, brooding. “Supper’s waiting,”
Perrin said, but Rand was deep in his own thoughts. Finally Perrin turned and
left him standing there. CHAPTER 3 News from the Plain Darkness shrouded part of the crack, for in one
place the tremors had collapsed a part of the wall against the other side, high
up. He stared up at the blackness warily before hurrying underneath, but the
slab of stone seemed to be solidly wedged in place. The itch had returned to
the back of his head, stronger than before. No, burn me! No! It went
away. When he came out above the camp,
the bowl was filled with odd shadows from the sinking sun. Moiraine was
standing outside her hut, peering up at the crack. He stopped short. She was a
slender, dark‑haired woman no taller than his shoulder, and pretty, with
the ageless quality of all Aes Sedai who had worked with the One Power for a
time. He could not put any age at all to her, with her face too smooth for many
years and her dark eyes to wise for youth. Her dress of deep blue silk was
disarrayed and dusty, and wisps stuck out in her usually well‑ordered
hair. A smudge of dust lay across her face. He dropped his eyes. She knew about him‑she
and Lan alone, of those in the camp‑and he did not like the knowing in
her face when she looked into his eyes. Yellow eyes. Someday, perhaps, he could
bring himself to ask her what she knew. An Aes Sedai must know more of it than
he did. But this was not the time. There never seemed to be a time. “He. . . .
He didn’t mean . . . . It was an accident.” “An accident,” she said
in a flat voice, then shook her head and vanished back inside the hut. The door
banged shut a little loudly. Perrin drew a deep
breath and continued on down toward the cook fires. There would be another
argument between Rand and the Aes Sedai, in the morning if not tonight. Half a dozen trees lay
toppled on the slopes of the bowl, roots ripped out of the earth in arcs of
soil. A trail of scrapes and churned ground led down to the streamside and a
boulder that had not been there before. One of the huts up the opposite slope
had collapsed in the tremors, and most of the Shienarans were gathered around
it, rebuilding it. Loial was with them. The Ogier could pick up a log it would
take four men to lift. Uno’s curses occasionally drifted down. Min stood by the fires,
stirring a kettle with a disgruntled expression. There was a small bruise on
her cheek, and a faint smell of burned stew hung in the air. “I hate cooking,”
she announced, and peered doubtfully into the kettle. “If something goes wrong
with it, it isn’t my fault. Rand spilled half of it on the fire with his . . .
. What right does he have to bounce us around like sacks of grain?” She rubbed
the seat of her breeches and winced. “When I get my hands on him, I’ll thump
him so he never forgets.” She waved the wooden spoon at Perrin as if she
intended to start the thumping with him. “Was anyone hurt?” “Only if you count
bruises,” Min said grimly. “They were upset, all right, at first. Then they saw
Moiraine staring off toward Rand’s hidey-hole, and decided it was his work. If
the Dragon wants to shake the
mountain down on our heads, then the Dragon
must have a good reason for it. If he decided to make them take off their
skins and dance in their bones, they would think it all right.” She snorted and
rapped the spoon on the edge of the kettle. He looked back toward
Moiraine’s hut. If Leya had been hurt ‑ if she were dead ‑ the Aes
Sedai would not simply have gone back inside. The sense of waiting was still
there. Whatever it is, it hasn’t happened
yet. “Min, maybe you had better go. First thing in the morning. I have some
silver I can let you have, and I’m sure Moiraine would give you enough to take
passage with a merchant’s train out of Ghealdan. You could be back in Baerlon
before you know it.” She looked at him until
he began to wonder if he had said something wrong. Finally, she said, “That is
very sweet of you, Perrin. But, no.” “I thought you wanted to
go. You’re always carrying on about having to stay here.” “I knew an old Illianer
woman, once,” she said slowly. “When she was young, her mother arranged a
marriage for her with a man she had never even met. They do that down in
Illian, sometimes. She said she spent the first five years raging against him,
and the next five scheming to make his life miserable without his knowing who
was to blame. It was only years later, she said, when he died, that she
realized he really had been the love of her life.” “I don’t see what that
has to do with this.” Her look said he
obviously was not trying to understand, and her voice became overly patient.
“Just because fate has chosen something for you instead of you choosing it for
yourself doesn’t mean it has to be bad. Even if it’s something you are sure you
would never have chosen in a hundred years. ‘Better ten days of love than years
of regretting,’ “ she quoted. “I understand that even
less,” he told her. “You don’t have to stay if you don’t want to.” She hung the spoon on a
tall forked stick stuck in the ground, then surprised him by rising on tiptoe
to kiss his cheek. “You are a very nice man, Perrin Aybara. Even if you don’t
understand anything.” Perrin blinked at her
uncertainly. He wished that he could be certain Rand was in his right mind, or
that Mat were there. He was never sure of his ground with girls, but Rand
always seemed to know his way. So did Mat; most of the girls back home in
Emond’s Field had sniffed that Mat would never grow up, but he had seemed to
have a way with them. “What about you, Perrin?
Don’t you ever want to go home?” “All the time,” he said
fervently. “But I . . . I do not think I can. Not yet.” He looked off toward
Rand’s vale. We are tied together, it
seems, aren’t we, Rand? “Maybe not ever.” He thought he had said that too
softly for her to hear, but the look she gave him was full of sympathy. And
agreement. His ears caught faint
footsteps behind him, and he looked back up toward Moiraine’s hut. Two shapes
were making their way down through the deepening twilight, one a woman, slender
and graceful even on the rough, slanting ground. The man, head and shoulders
taller than his companion, turned off toward where the Shienarans were working.
Even to Perrin’s eyes he was indistinct, sometimes seeming to vanish
altogether, then reappear in midstride, parts of him fading into the night and
fading back as the wind gusted. Only a Warder’s shifting cloak could do that,
which made the larger figure Lan, just as the smaller was certainly Moiraine. Well behind them, another
shape, even dimmer, slipped between the trees. Rand, Perrin thought, going
back to his hut. Another night when he won’t eat because he can’t stand the way
everybody looks at him. “You must have eyes in
the back of your head,” Min said, frowning toward the approaching woman. “Or
else the sharpest ears I have ever heard of. Is that Moiraine?” Careless. He
had grown so used to the Shienarans knowing how well he could see ‑ in
daylight at least; they did not know about the night - that he was beginning to
slip about other things. Carelessness
might kill me yet. “Is the Tuatha’an woman
all right?” Min asked as Moiraine came to the fire. “She is resting.” The
Aes Sedai’s low voice had its usual musical quality, as if speaking were
halfway to singing, and, her hair and clothes were back in perfect order again.
She rubbed her hands over the fire. There was a golden ring on her left hand, a
serpent biting its own tail. The Great Serpent, an even older symbol for
eternity than the Wheel of Time. Every woman trained in Tar Valon wore such a
ring. For a moment Moiraine’s
gaze rested on Perrin, and seemed to penetrate too deeply. “She fell and split
her scalp when Rand . . . .” Her mouth tightened, but in the next instant her
face was utter calm again. “I Healed her, and she is sleeping. There is always
a good deal of blood with even a minor scalp wound, but it was not serious. Did
you see anything about her, Min?” Min looked uncertain. “I
saw. . . . I thought I saw her death. Her own face, all over blood. I was sure
I knew what it meant, but if she split her scalp . . . . Are you sure she is
all right?” It was a measure of her discomfort that she asked. An Aes Sedai did
not Heal and leave anything wrong that could be Healed. And Moiraine’s Talents
were particularly strong in that area. Min sounded so troubled
that Perrin was surprised for a moment. Then he nodded to himself. She did not
really like doing what she did, but it was a part of her; she thought she knew
how it worked, or some of it, at least. If she was wrong, it would almost be
like finding out she did not know how to use her own hands. Moiraine considered her
for a moment, serene and dispassionate. “You have never been wrong in any
reading for me, not one about which I had any way of knowing. Perhaps this is
the first time.” “When I know, I know,”
Min whispered obstinately. “Light help me, I do.” “Or perhaps it is yet to
come. She has a long way yet to travel, to return to her wagons, and she must
ride through unsettled lands.” The Aes Sedai’s voice
was a cool song, uncaring. Perrin made an involuntary sound in his throat. Light, did I sound like that? I won’t let a
death matter that little to me. As if he had spoken
aloud, Moiraine looked at him. “The Wheel weaves as the Wheel wills, Perrin. I
told you long ago that we were in a war. We cannot stop just because some of us
may die. Any of us may die before it is done. Leya’s weapons may not be the
same as yours, but she knew that when she became part of it.” Perrin dropped his eyes.
That’s as may be, Aes Sedai, but I will
never accept it the way you do. Lan joined them across
the fire, with Uno and Loial. The flames cast flickering shadows across the
Warder’s face, making it seem more carved from stone even than it normally did,
all hard planes and angles. His cloak was not much easier to look at in the
firelight. Sometimes it seemed only a dark gray cloak, or black, but the gray
and black appeared to crawl and change if you looked too closely, shades and
shadows sliding across it, soaking into it. Other times, it looked as if Lan
had somehow made a hole in the night and pulled darkness ‘round his shoulders.
Not at all an easy thing to watch, and not made any easier by the man who wore
it. Lan was tall and hard,
broad‑shouldered, with blue eyes like frozen mountain lakes, and he moved
with a deadly grace that made the sword on his hip seem a part of him. It was
not that he seemed merely capable of violence and death; this man had tamed
violence and death and kept them in his pocket, ready to be loosed in a heartbeat,
or embraced, should Moiraine give the word. Beside Lan, even Uno appeared less
dangerous. There was a touch of gray in the Warder’s long hair, held back by a
woven leather cord around his forehead, but younger men stepped back from
confronting Lan ‑ if they were wise. “Mistress Leya has the
usual news from Almoth Plain,” Moiraine said. “Everyone fighting everyone else.
Villages burned. People fleeing in every direction. And Hunters have appeared
on the plain, searching for the Horn of Valere.” Perrin shifted ‑ the
Horn was where no Hunter on Almoth Plain would find it; where he hoped no
Hunter ever would find it ‑ and she gave him a cool look before
continuing. She did not like any of them to speak of the Horn. Except when she
chose to, of course. “She brought different
news, as well. The Whitecloaks have perhaps five thousand men on Almoth Plain.” Uno grunted. “That’s
flamin’ ‑ uh, pardon, Aes Sedai. That must be half their strength.
They’ve never committed so much to one place before.” “Then I suppose all
those who declared for Rand are dead or scattered,” Perrin muttered. “Or they
soon will be. You were right, Moiraine.” He did not like the thought of
Whitecloaks. He did not like the Children of the Light at all. “That is what is odd,”
Moiraine said. “Or the first part of it. The Children have announced that their
purpose is to bring peace, which is not unusual for them. What is unusual is
that while they are trying to force the Taraboners and the Domani back across
their respective borders, they have not moved in any force against those who
have declared for the Dragon. “ Min gave an exclamation
of surprise. “Is she certain? That does not sound like any Whitecloaks I ever
heard of.” “There can’t be many
blood - uh ‑ many Tinkers left on the plain,” Uno said. His voice creaked
from the strain of watching his language in front of an Aes Sedai. His real eye
matched the frown of the painted one. “They don’t like to stay where there’s
any kind of trouble, especially fighting. There can’t be enough of them to see
everywhere.” “There are enough for my
purposes,” Moiraine said firmly. “Most have gone, but some few remained because
I asked them to. And Leya is quite certain. Oh, the Children have snapped up
some of the Dragonsworn, where there were only a handful gathered. But though
they proclaim they will bring down this false
Dragon, though they have a thousand men supposedly doing nothing but
hunting him, they avoid contact with any party of as many as fifty Dragonsworn.
Not openly, you understand, but there is always some delay, something that
allows those they chase to slip away. “ “Then Rand can go down
to them as he wants.” Loial blinked uncertainly at the Aes Sedai. The whole
camp knew of her arguments with Rand. “The Wheel weaves a way for him.” Uno and Lan opened their
mouths at the same time, but the Shienaran gave way with a small bow. “More
likely,” the Warder said, “it is some Whitecloak plot, though the Light burn me
if I can see what it is. But when the Whitecloaks give me a gift, I search for
the poisoned needle hidden in it.” Uno nodded grimly. “Besides which,” Lan
added, “the Domani and the Taraboners are still trying as hard to kill the
Dragonsworn as they are to kill each other.” “And there is another
thing,” Moiraine said. “Three young men have died in villages Mistress Leya’s
wagons passed near.” Perrin noticed a flicker of Lan’s eyelid; for the Warder,
it was as much a sign of surprise as a shout from another man. Lan had not
expected her to tell this. Moiraine went on. “One died by poison, two by the
knife. Each in circumstances where no one should have been able to come close
unseen, but that is how it happened.” She peered into the flames. “All three
young men were taller than most, and had light‑colored eyes. Light eyes
are uncommon on Almoth Plain, but I think it is very unlucky right now to be a
tall young man with light eyes there.” “How?” Perrin asked.
“How could they be killed if no one could get close to them?” “The Dark One has
killers you don’t notice until it is too late,” Lan said quietly. Uno gave a. shiver. “The
Soulless. I never heard of one south of the Borderlands before.” “Enough of such talk,”
Moiraine said firmly. Perrin had questions ‑
What in the Light are the
Soulless? Are they like a Trolloc, or a Fade? What? ‑ but he left them unasked. When
Moiraine decided enough had been said about something, she would not talk of it
anymore. And when she shut her mouth, you could not pry Lan’s open with an iron
bar. The Shienarans followed her lead, too. No one wanted to anger an Aes Sedai. “Light!” Min muttered,
uneasily eyeing the deepening darkness around them. “You don’t notice them? Light!” “So nothing has
changed,” Perrin said glumly. “Not really. We cannot go down to the plain, and
the Dark One wants us dead.” “Everything changes,”
Moiraine said calmly, “and the Pattern takes it all in. We must ride on the
Pattern, not on the changes of a moment.” She looked at them each in turn, then
said, “Uno, are you certain your scouts missed nothing suspicious? Even
something small?” “The Lord Dragon’s
Rebirth has loosed the bonds of certainty, Moiraine Sedai, and there is never
certainty if you fight Myrddraal, but I will stake my life that the scouts did
as good a job as any Warder.” It was one of the longest speeches Perrin had
ever heard out of Uno without any curses. There was sweat on the man’s forehead
from the effort. “We all may,” Moiraine
said. “What Rand did might as well have been a fire on the mountaintop for any
Myrddraal within ten miles.” “Maybe . . .” Min began
hesitantly. “Maybe you ought to set wards that will keep them out.” Lan gave
her a hard stare. He sometimes questioned Moiraine’s decisions himself, though
he seldom did so where anyone could overhear, but he did not approve of others
doing the same. Min frowned right back at him. “Well, Myrddraal and Trollocs
are bad enough, but at least I can see them. I don’t like the idea that one of
these . . . these Soulless might sneak in here and slit my throat before I even
noticed him.” “The wards I set will
hide us from the Soulless as well as from any other Shadowspawn,” Moiraine
said. “When you are weak, as we are, the best choice is often to hide. If there
it a Halfman close enough to have . . . . Well, to set wards that would kill
them if they tried to enter camp is beyond my abilities, and even if I could,
such a warding would only pen us here. Since it is not possible to set two
kinds of warding at once, I leave the scouts and the guards ‑ and Lan ‑
to defend us, and use the one warding that may do some good.” “I could make a circuit
around the camp,” Lan said. “If there is anything out there that the scouts
missed, I will find it.” It was not a boast, just a statement of fact. Uno even
nodded agreement. Moiraine shook her head.
“If you are needed tonight, my Gaidin, it will be here.” Her gaze rose toward
the dark mountains around them. “There is a feeling in the air.” “Waiting.” The word left
Perrin’s tongue before he could stop it. When Moiraine looked at him ‑
into him ‑ he wished he had it back. “Yes,” she said. “Waiting.
Make sure your guards are especially alert tonight, Uno.” There was no need to
suggest that the men sleep with their weapons close at hand; Shienarans always
did that. “Sleep well,” she added to them all, as if there were any chance of
that now, and started back for her hut. Lan stayed long enough to spoon up
three dishes of stew, then hurried after her, quickly swallowed by the night. Perrin’s eyes shone
golden as they followed the Warder through the darkness. “Sleep well,” he
muttered. The smell of cooked meat suddenly made him queasy. “I have the third
watch, Uno?” The Shienaran nodded. “Then I will try to take her advice.” Others
were coming to the fires, and murmurs of conversation followed him up the
slope. He had a hut to himself,
a small thing of logs barely tall enough to stand in, the chinks filled with
dried mud. A rough bed, padded with pine boughs beneath a blanket, took up
nearly half of it. Whoever had unsaddled his horse had also propped his bow
just inside the door. He hung up his belt, with axe and quiver, on a peg, then
stripped down to his smallclothes, shivering. The nights were cold still, but
cold kept him from sleeping too deeply. In deep sleep, dreams came that he
could not shake off. For a time, with a
single blanket over him, he lay staring at the log roof, shivering. Then sleep
came, and with it, dreams. CHAPTER 4 Shadows Sleeping Cold filled the common
room of the inn despite the fire blazing on the long, stone hearth. Perrin
rubbed his hands before the flames, but he could get no warmth in them. There
was an odd comfort in the cold, though, as if it were a shield. A shield
against what, he could not think. Something murmured in the back of his mind, a
dim sound only vaguely heard, scratching to get in. “So you will give it up,
then. It is the best thing for you. Come. Sit, and we will talk.” Perrin turned to look at
the speaker. The round tables scattered about the room were empty except for
the lone man seated in a corner, in the shadows. The rest of the room seemed in
some way hazy, almost an impression rather than a place, especially anything he
was not looking at directly. He glanced back at the fire; it burned on a brick
hearth, now. Somehow, none of it bothered him. It should. But he could not have
said why. The man beckoned, and
Perrin walked closer to his table. A square table. The tables were square.
Frowning, he reached out to finger the tabletop, but pulled his hand back.
There were no lamps in that corner of the room, and despite the light
elsewhere, the man and his table were almost hidden, nearly blended with the
dimness. Perrin had a feeling
that he knew the man, but it was as vague as what he saw out of the corner of
his eye. The fellow was in his middle years, handsome and too well dressed for
a country inn, in dark, nearly black, velvets with white lace falls at his
collar and cuffs. He sat stiffly, sometimes pressing a hand to his chest, as if
moving hurt him. His dark eyes were fixed on Perrin’s face; they appeared like
glistening points in the shadows. “Give up what?” Perrin
asked. “That, of course.” The
man nodded to the axe at Perrin’s waist. He sounded surprised, as if it were a
conversation they had had before, an old argument taken up again. Perrin had not realized
the axe was there, had not felt the weight of it pulling at his belt. He ran a
hand over the half‑moon blade and the chick spike that balanced it. The
steel felt ‑ solid. More solid than anything else there. Maybe even more
solid than he was himself. He kept his hand there, to hold onto something real. “I have thought of it,”
he said, “but I do not think I can. Not yet.” Not yet? The inn seemed to flicker, and the murmur sounded again in his
head. No! The murmur faded. “No?” The man smiled, a
cold smile. “You are a blacksmith, boy. And a good one, from what I hear. Your
hands were made for a hammer, not an axe. Made to make things, not to kill. Go
back to that before it is too late.” Perrin found himself
nodding. “Yes. But I’m ta’veren.” He
had never said that out loud before. But
he knows it already. He was sure of that, though he could not say why. For an instant the man’s
smile became a grimace, but then it returned in more strength than before. A
cold strength. “There are ways to change things, boy. Ways to avoid even fate.
Sit, and we will talk of them.” The shadows appeared to shift and thicken, to
reach out. Perrin took a step back,
keeping well in the light. “I don’t think so.” “At least have a drink
with me. To years past and years to come. Here, you will see things more
clearly after.” The cup the man pushed across the table had not been there a
moment before. It shone bright silver, and dark, blood‑red wine filled it
to the brim. Perrin peered at the
man’s face. Even to his sharp eyes, the shadows seemed to shroud the other
man’s features like a Warder’s cloak. Darkness molded the man like a caress.
There was something about the man’s eyes, something he thought he could
remember if he tried hard enough. The murmur returned. “No,” he said. He spoke
to the soft sound inside his head, but when the man’s mouth tightened in anger,
a flash of rage suppressed as soon as begun, he decided it would do for the
wine as well. “I am not thirsty.” He turned and started
for the door. The fireplace was rounded river stones; a few long tables lined
by benches filled the room. He suddenly wanted to be outside, anywhere away
from this man. “You will not have many
chances,” the man said behind him in a hard voice. “Three threads woven
together share one another’s doom. When one is cut, all are. Fate can kill you,
if it does not do worse.” Perrin felt a sudden
heat against his back, rising then fading just as quickly, as if the doors of a
huge smelting furnace had swung open and closed again. Startled, he turned back
to the room. It was empty. Only a dream, he
thought, shivering from the cold, and with that everything shifted. He stared into the
mirror, a part of him not comprehending what he saw, another part accepting. A
gilded helmet, worked like a lion’s head, sat on his head as if it belonged
there. Gold leaf covered his ornately hammered breastplate, and gold‑work
embellished the plate and mail on his arms and legs. Only the axe at his side
was plain. A voice ‑ his own ‑ whispered in his mind that he would
take it over any other weapon, had carried it a thousand times, in a hundred
battles. No! He wanted to take it off, throw it away. I can’t! There was a sound in his head,
louder than a murmur, almost at the level of understanding. “A man destined for
glory.” He spun away from the mirror
and found himself staring at the most beautiful woman he had ever seen. He
noticed nothing else about the room, cared to see nothing but her. Her eyes
were pools of midnight, her skin creamy pale and surely softer, more smooth
than her dress of white silk. When she moved toward him, his mouth went dry. He
realized that every other woman he had ever seen was clumsy and ill‑shaped.
He shivered, and wondered why he felt cold. “A man should grasp his
destiny with both hands,” she said, smiling. It was almost enough to warm him,
that smile. She was tall, less than a hand short of being able to look him in
the eyes. Silver combs held hair darker than a raven’s wing. A broad belt of
silver links banded a waist he could have encircled with his hands. “Yes,” he whispered.
Inside him, startlement fought with acceptance. He had no use for glory. But
when she said it, he wanted nothing else. “I mean. . . .” The murmuring sound
dug at his skull. “No!” It was gone, and for a moment, so was acceptance.
Almost. He put a hand to his head, touched the golden helmet, took it off. “I .
. . I don’t think I want this. It is not mine.” “Don’t want it?” She
laughed. “What man with blood in his veins would not want glory? As much glory
as if you had sounded the Horn of Valere. “ “I don’t,” he said,
though a piece of him shouted that he lied. The Horn of Valere. The Horn rang out, and the wild charge
began. Death rode at his shoulder, and yet she waited ahead, too. His lover.
His destroyer. “No! I am a blacksmith.” Her smile was pitying.
“Such a little thing to want. You must not listen to those who would try to
turn you from your destiny. They would demean you, debase you. Destroy you.
Fighting fate can only bring pain. Why choose pain, when you can have glory?
When your name can be remembered alongside all the heroes of legend?” “I am no hero.” “You don’t know the half
of what you are. Of what you can be. Come, share a cup with me, to destiny and
glory.” There was a shining silver cup in her hand, filled with blood‑red
wine. “Drink.” He stared at the cup,
frowning. There was something . . . familiar about it. A growling chewed at his
brain. “No!” He fought away from it, refusing to listen. “No!” She held out the golden
cup to him. “Drink.” Golden? I thought the cup was . . . . It was. . . . The rest of the
thought would not come. But in his confusion the sound came again, inside,
gnawing, demanding to be heard. “No,” he said. “No!” He looked at the golden
helmet in his hands and threw it aside. “I am a blacksmith. I am. . . .” The sound
within his head fought him, struggling toward being heard. He wrapped his arms
around his head to shut it out, and only shut it in. “I – am – a – man!” he
shouted. Darkness enfolded him,
but her voice followed, whispering. “The night is always there, and dreams come
to all men. Especially you, my wildling. And I will always be in your dreams.” Stillness. He lowered his arms. He
was back in his own coat and breeches again, sturdy and well made, if plain.
Suitable garb for a blacksmith, or any country man. Yet he barely noticed them. He stood on a low‑railed
bridge of stone, arching from one wide, flat-topped stone spire to another,
spires that rose from depths too far for even his eyes to penetrate. The light
would have been dim to any other eyes, and he could not make out from where it
came. It just was. Everywhere he looked, left and right, up or down, were more
bridges, more spires, and tailless ramps. There seemed no end to them, no
pattern. Worse, some of those ramps climbed to spire tops that had to be
directly above the ones they had left. Splashing water echoed, the sound
seeming to come from everywhere at once. He shivered with cold. Suddenly, from the
corner of his eye, he caught a motion, and without thinking, he crouched behind
the stone railing. There was danger in being seen. He did not know why, but he
knew it was true. He just knew. Cautiously peering over
the top of the rail, he sought what he had seen moving. A flash of white
flickered on a distant ramp. A woman, he was sure, though he could not quite
make her out. A woman in a white dress, hurrying somewhere. On a bridge slightly
below him, and much closer than the ramp where the woman had been, a man
suddenly appeared, tall and dark and slender, the silver in his black hair
giving him a distinguished look, his dark green coat thickly embroidered with
golden leaves. Gold‑work covered his belt and pouch, and gems sparkled on
his dagger sheath, and golden fringe encircled his boot tops. Where had he come
from? Another man started
across the bridge from the other side, his appearance as sudden as the first
man’s. Black stripes ran down the puffy sleeves of his red coat, and pale lace
hung thick at his collar and cuffs. His boots were so worked with silver that
it was hard to see the leather. He was shorter than the man he went to meet,
more stocky, with close-cropped hair as white as his lace. Age did not make
him frail, though. He strode with the same arrogant strength the other man
showed. The two of them
approached each other warily. Like two
horse traders who know the other fellow has a spavined mare to sell, Perrin
thought. The men began to talk.
Perrin strained his ears, but he could not hear so much as a murmur above the
splashing echoes. Frowns, and glares, and sharp motions as if half on the point
of striking. They did not trust one another. He thought they might even hate
each other. He glanced up, searching
for the woman, but she was gone. When he looked back down, another man had
joined the first two. And somehow, from somewhere, Perrin knew him with the
vagueness of an old memory. A handsome man in his middle years, wearing nearly
black velvet and white lace. An inn, Perrin
thought. And something before that. Something.
. . . Something a long time ago, it seemed. But the
memory would not come. The first two men stood
side by side, now, made uncomfortable allies by the presence of the newcomer.
He shouted at them and shook his fist, while they shifted uneasily, refusing to
meet his glares. If the two hated each other, they feared him more. His eyes, Perrin
thought. What is strange about his eyes? The tall, dark man began
to argue back, slowly at first, then with increasing fervor. The white‑haired
man joined in, and suddenly their temporary alliance broke. All three shouted
at once, each at both of the others in turn. Abruptly the man in dark velvets
threw his arms wide, as if demanding an end to it. And an expanding ball of
fire enveloped them, hid them, spreading out and out. Perrin threw his arms
around his head and dropped behind the stone railing, huddling there as wind
buffeted him and tore at his clothes, a wind as hot as fire. A wind that was
fire. Even with his eyes shut, he could see it, flame billowing across
everything, flame blowing through everything. The fiery gale roared
through him, too; he could feel it, burning, tugging, trying to consume him and
scatter the ashes. He yelled, trying to hang onto himself, knowing it was not
enough. And between one
heartbeat and the next, the wind was gone. There was no diminishing. One
instant a storm of flame pummeled him; the next, utter stillness. The echoes of
falling water were the only sound. Slowly, Perrin sat up,
examining himself. His clothes were unsinged and whole, his exposed skin
unburned. Only the memory of heat made him believe it had happened. A memory in
the mind alone; his body felt no memory of it. Cautiously he peeked
over the railing. Only a few paces of half‑melted footing at either end
remained of the bridge where the men had been standing. Of them, there was no sign. A prickling in the hair
on the back of his neck made him look up. On a ramp above him and to the right,
a shaggy gray wolf stood looking at him. “No!” He scrambled to
his feet and ran. “This is a dream! A nightmare! I want to wake up!” He
ran, and his vision blurred. The blurs shifted. A buzzing filled his ears, then
faded, and as it went, the shimmering in his eyes steadied. He shivered with the
cold and knew this for a dream, certain and sure, from the first moment. He was
dimly aware of some shadowy memory of dreams preceding this, but this one he
knew. He had been in this place before, on previous nights, and if he
understood nothing of it, he still knew it for a dream. For once, knowing
changed nothing. Huge columns of polished
redstone surrounded the open space where he stood, beneath a domed ceiling
fifty paces or more above his head. He and another man as big could not have
encircled one of those columns with their arms. The floor was paved with great
slabs of pale gray stone, hard yet worn by countless generations of feet. And centered beneath the
dome was the reason why all those feet had come to this chamber. A sword,
hanging hilt down in the air, apparently without support, seemingly where
anyone could reach out and take it. It revolved slowly, as if some breath of
air caught it. Yet it was not really a sword. It seemed made of glass, or
perhaps crystal, blade and hilt and crossguard, catching such light as there
was and shattering it into a thousand glitters and flashes. He walked toward it and
put out his hand, as he had done each time before. He clearly remembered doing
it. The hilt hung there in front of his face, within easy reach. A foot from
the shining sword, his hand splayed out against empty air as if it had touched
stone. As he had known it would. He pushed harder, but he might as well have
been shoving against a wall. The sword turned and sparkled, a foot away and as
far out of reach as if on the other side of an ocean. Callandor. He
was not certain whether the whisper came inside his head or out; it seemed to
echo ‘round the columns, as soft as the wind, everywhere at once, insistent. Callandor. Who wields me wields destiny.
Take me, and begin the final journey. He took a step back,
suddenly frightened. That whisper had never come before. Four times before he
had had this dream ‑ he could remember that even now; four nights, one
after the other ‑ and this was the first time anything had changed in it. The Twisted Ones come. It was a different
whisper, from a source he knew, and he jumped as if a Myrddraal had touched
him. A wolf stood there among the columns, a mountain wolf, almost waist‑high
and shaggy white and gray. It stared at him intently with eyes as yellow as his
own. The Twisted Ones come. “No,”
Perrin rasped. “No! I will not let you in! I – will – not!” He clawed his way
awake and sat up in his hut, shaking with fear and cold and anger. “I will
not,” he whispered hoarsely. The Twisted
Ones come. The thought was clear in his head, but the thought was not his
own. The Twisted Ones come, brother. CHAPTER 5 Nightmares Walking Leaping from his bed,
Perrin snatched his axe and ran outside, barefoot and wearing nothing but thin
linen, heedless of the cold. The moon bathed the clouds with pale white. More
than enough light for his eyes, more than enough to see the shapes slipping
through the trees from all sides, shapes almost as big as Loial, but with faces
distorted by muzzles and beaks, half‑human heads wearing horns and
feathered crests, stealthy forms stalking on hooves or paws as often as booted
feet. He opened his mouth to
shout warning, and suddenly the door of Moiraine’s but burst open and Lan
dashed out, sword in hand and shouting, “Trollocs! Wake, for your lives!
Trollocs!” Shouts answered him as men began to tumble from their huts, garbed
for sleep, which for most meant not at all, but with swords ready. With a
bestial roar, the Trollocs rushed forward to be met with steel and cries of
“Shienar!” and “The Dragon Reborn!” Lan was fully clothed ‑
Perrin would have bet the Warder had not slept ‑ and he flung himself
among the Trollocs as if his wool were armor. He seemed to dance from one to
another, man and sword flowing like water or wind, and where the Warder danced,
Trollocs screamed and died. Moiraine was out in the
night as well, dancing her own dance among the Trollocs. Her only apparent
weapon was a switch, but where she slashed a Trolloc, a line of flame grew on
its flesh. Her free hand threw fiery balls summoned from thin air, and Trollocs
howled as flames consumed them, thrashing on the ground. An entire tree burst
into flame from root to crown, then another, and another. Trollocs shrieked at
the sudden light, but they did not stop swinging their spiked axes and swords
curved like scythes. Abruptly Perrin saw Leya
step hesitantly out of Moiraine’s cabin, halfway around the bowl from him, and
all thought of anything else left him. The Tuatha’an woman pressed her back
against the log wall, a hand to her throat. The light from the burning trees
showed him the pain and horror, the loathing on her face as she watched the
carnage. “Hide!” Perrin shouted
at her. “Get back inside and hide!” The swelling roar of fighting and dying
swallowed his words. He ran toward her. “Hide, Leya! For the love of the Light,
hide!” A Trolloc loomed up over
him, a cruelly hooked beak where its mouth and nose should have been. Black
mail and spikes covered it from shoulders to knees, and it moved on a hawk’s
talons as it swung one of those strangely curved swords. It smelled of sweat
and dirt and blood. Perrin crouched under
the slash, shouting wordlessly as he struck out with his axe. He knew he should
have been afraid, but urgency suppressed fear. All that mattered was that he
had to reach Leya, had to get her to safety, and the Trolloc was in the way. The Trolloc fell,
roaring and kicking; Perrin did not know where he had hit it, or if it were
dying or merely hurt. He leaped over it, where it lay thrashing, and ran
scrambling up the slope. Burning trees cast lurid
shadows across the small valley. A flickering shadow beside Moiraine’s but
suddenly resolved into a Trolloc, goatsnouted and horned. Gripping a wildly
spiked axe with both hands, it seemed on the point of rushing down into the
fray when its eyes fell on Leya. “No!” Perrin shouted.
“Light, no!” Rocks skittered away under his bare feet; he did not feel the
bruises. The Trolloc’s axe rose. “Leyaaaaaaaa!” At the last instant the
Trolloc spun, axe flashing toward Perrin. He threw himself down, yelling as
steel scored his back. Desperately he flung out a hand, caught a goat hoof, and
pulled with all his strength. The Trolloc’s feet came out from under it, and it
fell with a crash, but as it slid down the slope, it seized Perrin in hands big
enough to make two of his, pulling him along to roll over and over. The stink
of it filled his nostrils, goat‑stench and sour man‑sweat. Massive
arms snaked around his chest, squeezing the air out; his ribs creaked on the
point of breaking. The Trolloc’s axe was gone in the fall, but blunt goat‑teeth
sank into Perrin’s shoulder, powerful jaws chewing. He groaned as pain jolted
down his left arm. His lungs labored for breath, and blackness crept in on the
edges of his vision, but dimly he was aware that his other arm was free, that
somehow he had held on to his own axe. He held it short on the handle, like a
hammer, with the spike foremost. With a roar that took the last of his air, he
drove the spike into the Trolloc’s temple. Soundlessly it convulsed, limbs
flinging wide, hurling him away. By instinct alone his hand tightened on the
axe, ripping it loose as the Trolloc slid further down the slope, still
twitching. For a moment Perrin lay
there, fighting for breach. The gash across his back burned, and he felt the
wetness of blood. His shoulder protested as he pushed himself up. “Leya?” She was still there,
huddled in front of the hut, not more than ten paces upslope. And watching him
with such a look on her face that he could barely meet her eyes. “Don’t pity me!” he
growled at her. “Don’t you ‑ !” The Myrddraal’s leap
from the roof of the hut seemed to take too long, and its dead black cloak hung
during the slow fall as if the Halfman were standing on the ground already. Its
eyeless gaze was fixed on Perrin. It smelled like death. Cold seeped through
Perrin’s arms and legs as the Myrddraal stared at him. His chest felt like a
lump of ice. “Leya,” he whispered. It was all he could do not to run. “Leya,
please hide. Please.” The Halfman started
toward him, slowly, confident that fear held him in a snare. It moved like a
snake, unlimbering a sword so black only the burning trees made it visible.
“Cut one leg of the tripod,” it said softly, “and all fall down.” Its voice
sounded like dryrotted leather crumbling. Suddenly Leya moved,
throwing herself forward, attempting to wrap her arms around the Myrddraal’s
legs. It gave an almost casual backwards swing of its dark sword, never even
looking around, and she crumpled. Tears started in the
corners of Perrin’s eyes. I should have
helped her . . . .saved her. I should have done . . . something! But so
long as the Myrddraal stared at him with its eyeless gaze, it was an effort
even to think. We come, brother. We come, Young Bull. The words inside his
mind made his head ring like a struck bell; the reverberations shivered through
him. With the words came the wolves, scores of them, flooding into his mind as
he was aware of them flooding into the bowl-shaped valley. Mountain wolves
almost as tall as a man’s waist, all white and gray, coming out of the night at
the run, aware of the two‑legs’ surprise as they darted in to cake on the
Twisted Ones. Wolves filled him till he could barely remember being a man. His
eyes gathered the light, shining golden yellow. And the Halfman stopped its
advance as if suddenly uncertain. “Fade,” Perrin said
roughly, but then a different name came to him, from the wolves. Trollocs, the
Twisted Ones, made during the War of the Shadow from melding men and animals,
were bad enough, but the Myrddraal ‑ “Neverborn!” Young Bull spat. Lip
curling back in a snarl, he threw himself at the Myrddraal. It moved like a viper,
sinuous and deadly, black sword quick as lightning, but he was Young Bull. That
was what the wolves called him. Young Bull, with horns of steel that he wielded
with his hands. He was one with the wolves. He was a wolf, and any wolf would
die a hundred times over to see one of the Neverborn go down. The Fade fell
back before him, its darting blade now trying to deflect his slashes. Hamstring and throat,
that was how wolves killed. Young Bull suddenly threw himself to one side and
dropped to a knee, axe slicing across the back of the Halfman’s knee. It
screamed ‑ a bone‑burrowing sound to raise his hair at any other
time ‑ and fell, catching itself with one hand. The Halfman ‑ the
Neverborn ‑ still held its sword firmly, but before it could set itself,
Young Bull’s axe struck again. Half severed, the Myrddraal’s head flopped over
to hang down its back; yet still leaning there on one hand, the Neverborn
slashed wildly with its sword. Neverborn were always long in dying. From the wolves as much
as his own eyes Young Bull received impressions of Trollocs thrashing on the
ground, shrieking, untouched by wolf or man. Those would have been linked to
this Myrddraal, and would die when it did ‑ if no one killed them first. The urge to rush down
the slope and join his brothers, join in killing the Twisted Ones, in hunting
the remaining Neverborn, was strong, but a buried fragment that was still man
remembered. Leya. He dropped his axe and
turned her over gently. Blood covered her face, and her eyes stared up ac him,
glazed with death. An accusing stare, it seemed to him. “I tried,” he told her.
“I tried to save you.” Her stare did not change. “What else could I have done?
It would have killed you if I hadn’t killed it!” Come, Young Bull. Come kill the Twisted Ones. Wolf rolled over him,
enveloped him. Letting Leya back down, Perrin took up his axe, blade gleaming
wetly. His eyes shone as he raced down the rocky slope. He was Young Bull. Trees scattered around
the bowl‑shaped valley burned like torches; a tall pine flared into flame
as Young Bull joined the battle. The night air flashed actinic blue, like sheet
lightning, as Lan engaged another Myrddraal, ancient Aes Sedai‑made steel
meeting black steel wrought in Thakan’dar, in the shadow of Shayol Ghul. Loial
wielded a quarterstaff the size of a fence rail, the whirling timber marking a
space no Trolloc entered without falling. Men fought desperately in the dancing
shadows, but Young Bull - Perrin ‑ noted in a distant way that too many
of the Shienaran two‑legs were down. The brothers and sisters
fought in small packs of three or four, dodging scythe‑like swords and
spiked axes, darting in with slashing teeth to sever hamstrings, lunging to bite
out throats as their prey fell. There was no honor in the way they fought, no
glory, no mercy. They had not come for battle, but to kill. Young Bull joined
one of the small packs, the blade of his axe serving for teeth. He no longer thought of
the greater battle. There was only the Trolloc he and the wolves‑the
brothers‑cut off from the rest and brought down. Then there would be
another, and another, and another, until none were left. None here, none
anywhere. He felt the urge to hurl the axe aside and use his teeth, to run on
all fours as his brothers did. Run through the high mountain passes. Run belly‑deep
in powdery snow pursuing deer. Run, with the cold wind ruffling his fur. He
snarled with his brothers, and Trollocs howled with fear at his yellow‑eyed
gaze even more than they did at the other wolves. Abruptly he realized
there were no more Trollocs standing anywhere in the bowl, though he could feel
his brothers pursuing others as they fled. A pack of seven had a different
prey, somewhere out there in the darkness. One of the Neverborn ran for its
hard‑footed four‑legs‑its horse, a distant part of him said‑and
his brothers followed, noses filled with its scent, its essence of death.
Inside his head, he was with them, seeing with their eyes. As they closed in,
the Neverborn turned, cursing, black blade and black‑clad Neverborn like
part of the night. But night was where his brothers and sisters hunted. Young Bull snarled as
the first brother died, its death pain lancing him, yet the others closed in and
more brothers and sisters died, but snapping jaws dragged the Neverborn down.
It fought back with its own teeth now, ripping out throats, slashing with
fingernails that sliced skin and flesh like the hard claws the two‑legs
carried, but brothers savaged it even as they died. Finally a lone sister
heaved herself out of the still-twitching pile and staggered to one side.
Morning Mist, she was called, but as with all their names, it was more than
that: a frosty morning with the bite of snows yet to come already in the air,
and the mist curling thick across the valley, swirling with the sharp breeze
that carried the promise of good hunting. Raising her head, Morning Mist howled
to the cloud‑hidden moon, mourning her dead. Young Bull threw back
his head and howled with her, mourned with her. When he lowered his
head, Min was staring at him. “Are you all right, Perrin?” she asked
hesitantly. There was a bruise on her cheek, and a sleeve half torn from her
coat. She had a cudgel in one hand and a dagger in the other, and there was
blood and hair on both. They were all staring at
him, he saw, all those who were still on their feet. Loial, leaning wearily on
his tall staff. Shienarans, who had been carrying their fallen down to where
Moiraine crouched over one of their number with Lan standing at her side. Even
the Aes Sedai was looking his way. The burning trees, like huge torches, cast a
wavering light. Dead Trollocs lay everywhere. There were more Shienarans down
than standing, and the bodies of his brothers were scattered among them. So
many. . . . Perrin realized he
wanted to howl again. Frantically he walled himself off from contact with the
wolves. Images seeped through, emotions, as he tried to stop them. Finally,
though, he could no longer feel them, feel their pain, or their anger, or the
desire to hunt the Twisted Ones, or to run . . . . He gave himself a shake. The
wound on his back burned like fire, and his torn shoulder felt as if it had
been hammered on an anvil. His bare feet, scraped and bruised, throbbed with
his pain. The smell of blood was everywhere. The smell of Trollocs, and death. “I. . . . I’m all right,
Min.” “You fought well,
blacksmith,” Lan said. The Warder raised his still-bloody sword above his head.
“Tai’shar Manetheren! Tai’shar Andor!” True
Blood of Manetheren. True Blood of Andor. The Shienarans still
standing‑so few‑lifted their blades and joined him. “Tai’shar Manetheren! Tai’shar Andor!” Loial nodded. “Ta’veren,” he added. Perrin lowered his eyes
in embarrassment. Lan had saved him from the questions he did not want to
answer, but had given him an honor he did not deserve. The others did not
understand. He wondered what they would say if they knew the truth. Min moved
closer, and he muttered, “Leya’s dead. I couldn’t. . . . I almost reached her
in time.” “It wouldn’t have made
any difference,” she said softly. “You know that.” She leaned to look at his
back, and winced. “Moiraine will take care of that for you. She’s Healing those
she can.” Perrin nodded. His back
felt sticky with drying blood all the way to his waist, but despite the pain he
hardly noticed it. Light, I almost didn’t
some back that time. I can’t let that happen again. I won’t. Never again! But when he was with the
wolves, it was all so different. He did not have to worry about strangers being
afraid of him just because he was big, then. There was no one thinking he was
slow‑witted just because he tried to be careful. Wolves knew each other
even if they had never met before, and with them he was just another wolf. No! His hands tightened
on the haft of his axe. No! He gave a start as Masema suddenly spoke up. “It was a sign,” the
Shienaran said, turning in a circle to address everyone. There was blood on his
arms and his chest‑he had fought in nothing but his breeches ‑ and
he moved with a limp, but the light in his eyes was as fervent as it had ever
been. More fervent. “A sign to confirm our faith. Even wolves came to fight for
the Dragon Reborn. In the Last Battle, the Lord Dragon will summon even the
beasts of the forest to fight at our sides. It is a sign for us to go forth.
Only Darkfriends will fail to join us.” Two of the Shienarans nodded. “You shut your bloody
mouth, Masema!” Uno snapped. He seemed untouched, but then Uno had been
fighting Trollocs since before Perrin was born. Yet he sagged with weariness;
only the painted eye on his eyepatch seemed fresh. “We’ll flaming go forth when
the Lord Dragon bloody well tells us, and not before! You sheep‑headed
farmers flaming remember that!” The one‑eyed man looked at the growing
row of men being tended by Moiraine ‑ few were able to as much as sit up,
even after she was done with them ‑ and shook his head. “At least we’ll
have plenty of flaming wolf hides to keep the wounded warm.” “No!” The
Shienarans seemed surprised at the vehemence in Perrin’s voice. “They fought
for us, and we’ll bury them with our dead.” Uno frowned, and opened
his mouth as if to argue, but Perrin fixed him with a steady, yellow‑eyed
stare. It was the Shienaran who dropped his gaze first, and nodded. Perrin cleared his
throat, embarrassed all over again as Uno gave orders for the Shienarans who
were fit to gather the dead wolves. Min was squinting at him the way she did
when she saw things. “Where’s Rand?” he asked her. “Out there in the dark,”
she said, nodding upslope without taking her eyes off him. “He will not talk to
anyone. He just sits there, snapping at anyone who comes near him.” “He will talk to me,”
Perrin said. She followed him, protesting all the while that he ought to wait
until Moiraine had seen to his injuries. Light,
what does she see when she looks at me? I don’t want to know. Rand was seated on the ground just beyond the light of the
burning trees, with his back against the trunk of a stunted oak. Staring at
nothing, he had his arms wrapped around himself, hands under his red coat, as
if feeling the cold. He did not appear to notice their approach. Min sat down
beside him, but he did not move even when she laid a hand on his arm. Even here
Perrin smelled blood, and not only his own. “Rand,” Perrin began,
but Rand cut him off. “Do you know what I did
during the fight?” Still staring into the distance, Rand addressed the night.
“Nothing! Nothing useful. At first, when I reached out for the True Source, I
couldn’t touch it, couldn’t grasp it. It kept sliding away. Then, when I
finally had hold of it, I was going to burn them all, burn all the Trollocs and
Fades. And all I could do was set fire to some trees.” He shook with silent
laughter, then stopped with a pained grimace. “Saidin filled me till I thought I’d explode like fireworks. I had
to channel it somewhere, get rid of it before it burned me up, and I found
myself thinking about pulling the mountain down and burying the Trollocs. I
almost tried. That was my fight. Not against the Trollocs. Against myself. To
keep from burying us all under the mountain. “ Min gave Perrin a pained
look, as if asking for help. “We . . . dealt with
them, Rand,” Perrin said. He shivered, thinking of all the wounded men down
below. And the dead. Better that than the
mountain down on top of us. “We didn’t need you.” Rand’s head fell back
against the tree and his eyes closed. “I felt them coming,” he said, nearly
whispering. “I didn’t know what it was, though. They feel like the taint on saidin. And saidin is always there, calling to me, singing to me. By the time I
knew the difference, Lan was already shouting his warning. If I could only
control it, I could have given warning before they were even close. But half
the time when I actually manage to touch saidin,
I don’t know what I am doing at all. The flow of it just sweeps me along. I
could have given warning, though.” Perrin shifted his
bruised feet uncomfortably. “We had warning enough.” He knew he sounded as if
he were trying to convince himself. I
could have given warning, too, if I’d talked with the wolves. They knew there
were Trollocs and Fades in the mountains. They were trying to tell me. But
he wondered: If he did not keep the wolves out of his mind, might he not be
running with them now? There had been a man, Elyas Machera, who also could talk
to wolves. Elyas ran with the wolves all the time, yet seemed able to remember
he was a man. But he had never told Perrin how he did it, and Perrin had not
seen him in a long time. The crunch of boots on
rock announced two people coming, and a swirl of air carried their scents to
Perrin. He was careful not to speak names, though, until Lan and Moiraine were
close enough for even ordinary eyes to make them out. The Warder had a hand
under the Aes Sedai’s arm, as if trying to support her without letting her know
it. Moiraine’s eyes were haggard, and she carried a small, age‑dark ivory
carving of a woman in one hand. Perrin knew it for an angreal, a remnant from the Age of Legends that allowed an Aes
Sedai to safely channel more of the Power than she could alone. It was a
measure of her tiredness that she was using it for Healing. Min got to her feet to
help Moiraine, but the Aes Sedai motioned her away. “Everyone else is seen to,”
she told Min. “When I am done here, I can rest.” She shook off Lan as well, and
a look of concentration appeared on her face as she traced a cool hand across
Perrin’s bleeding shoulder, then along the wound on his back. Her touch made
his skin tingle. “This is not too bad,” she said. “The bruising of your
shoulder goes deep, but the gashes are shallow. Brace yourself. This will not
hurt, but . . . .” He had never found it
easy being near someone he knew was channeling the One Power, and still less if
it actually involved him. Yet there had been one or two of those times, and he
thought he had some idea what the channeling entailed, but those Healings had
been minor, simply washing away tiredness when Moiraine could not afford to
have him weary. They had been nothing like this. The Aes Sedai’s eyes
suddenly seemed to be seeing inside him, seeing through him. He gasped and
almost dropped his axe. He could feel the skin on his back crawling, muscles
writhing as they knit back together. His shoulder quivered uncontrollably, and
everything blurred. Cold seared him to the bone, then deeper still. He had the
impression of moving, falling, flying; he could not tell which, but he felt as
if he were rushing somewhere, somehow at great speed, forever. After an
eternity the world came into focus again. Moiraine was stepping back, half
staggering until Lan caught her arm. Gaping, Perrin looked
down at his shoulder. The gashes and bruises were gone; not so much as a twinge
remained. He twisted carefully, but the pain in his back had vanished as well.
And his feet no longer hurt; he did not need to look to know all the bruises
and scrapes were gone. His stomach rumbled loudly. “You should eat as soon
as you can,” Moiraine told him. “A good bit of the strength for that came from
you. You need to replace it.” Hunger ‑ and
images of food ‑ were already filling Perrin’s head. Blood rare beef, and
venison, and mutton, and . . . . With an effort he made himself stop thinking
of meat. He would find some of those roots that smelled like turnips when they
were roasted. His stomach growled in protest. “There’s barely even a
scar, blacksmith,” Lan said behind him. “Most of the wolves who
were hurt made their own way to the forest,” Moiraine said, knuckling her back
and stretching, “but I Healed those I could find.” Perrin gave her a sharp
look, yet she seemed to be just making conversation. “Perhaps they came for
their own reasons, yet we would likely all be dead without them.” Perrin
shifted uneasily and dropped his eyes. The Aes Sedai reached
toward the bruise on Min’s cheek, but Min stepped back, saying, “I’m not really
hurt, and you’re tired. I’ve had worse falling over my own feet.” Moiraine smiled and let
her hand fall. Lan took her arm; she swayed in his grip. “Very well. And what
of you, Rand? Did you take any hurt? Even a nick from a Myrddraal’s blade can
be deadly., and some Trolloc blades are almost as bad.” Perrin noticed something
for the first time. “Rand, your coat is wet.” Rand pulled his right
hand from under his coat, a hand covered in blood. “Not a Myrddraal,” he said
absently, peering at his hand. “Not even a Trolloc. The wound I took at Falme
broke open.” Moiraine hissed and
jerked her arm free from Lan, half fell to her knees beside Rand. Pulling back
the side of his coat, she studied his wound. Perrin could not see it, for her
head was in the way, but the smell of blood was stronger, now. Moiraine’s hands
moved, and Rand grimaced in pain. “ ‘The blood of the Dragon Reborn on the
rocks of Shayol Ghul will free mankind from the Shadow.’ Isn’t that what the Prophecies
of the Dragon say?” “Who told you that?”
Moiraine said sharply. “If you could get me to
Shayol Ghul now,” Rand said drowsily, “by Waygate or Portal Stone, there could
be an end to it. No more dying. No more dreams. No more.” “If it were as simple as
that,” Moiraine said grimly, “I would, one way or another, but not all in The Karaethon Cycle can be taken at its
face. For everything it says straight out, there are ten that could mean a
hundred different things. Do not think you know anything at all of what must
be, even if someone has told you the whole of the Prophecies.” She paused, as
if gathering strength. Her grip tightened on the angreal, and her free hand slid along Rand’s side as if it were not
covered in blood. “Brace yourself.” Suddenly Rand’s eyes
opened wide, and he sat straight up, gasping and staring and shivering. Perrin
had thought, when she Healed him, that it went on forever, but in moments she
was easing Rand back against the oak. “I have . . . done as
much as I can,” she said faintly. “As much as I can. You must be careful. It
could break open again if . . . .” As her voice trailed off, she fell. Rand caught her, but Lan
was there in an instant to scoop her up. As the Warder did so, a look passed
across his face, a look as close to tenderness as Perrin ever expected to see
from Lan. “Exhausted,” the Warder
said. “She has cared for everyone else, but there’s no one to take her fatigue.
I will put her to bed.” “There’s Rand,” Min said
slowly, but the Warder shook his head. “It isn’t that I do not
think you would try, sheepherder,” he said, “but you know so little you might
as soon kill her as help her.” “That’s right,” Rand
said bitterly. “I’m not to be trusted. Lews Therin Kinslayer killed everyone
close to him. Maybe I’ll do the same before I am done.” “Pull yourself together,
sheepherder,” Lan said harshly. “The whole world rides on your shoulders.
Remember you’re a man, and do what needs to be done.” Rand looked up at the
Warder, and surprisingly, all of his bitterness seemed to be gone. “I will
fight the best I can,” he said. “Because there’s no one else, and it has to be
done, and the duty is mine. I’ll fight, but I do not have to like what I’ve
become.” He closed his eyes as if going to sleep. “I will fight. Dreams. . . .” Lan stared down at him a
moment, then nodded. He raised his head to look across Moiraine at Perrin and
Min. “Get him to his bed, then see to some sleep yourselves. We have plans to
make, and the Light alone knows what happens next.” CHAPTER 6 The Hunt Begins Perrin did not expect to sleep, but a stomach stuffed with
cold stew‑his resolve about the roots had lasted until the smells of
supper’s leftovers hit his nose ‑ and bone weariness pulled him down on
his bed. If he dreamed, he did not remember. He awoke to Lan shaking his
shoulders, dawn through the open door turning the Warder to a shadow haloed
with light. “Rand is gone,” was all
Lan said before he left at a run, but it was more than enough. Perrin dragged himself
up yawning and dressed quickly in the early chill. Outside, only a handful of
Shienarans were in sight, using their horses to drag Trolloc bodies into the
woods, and most of those moved as if they should be in a sickbed. A body took
time to build back the strength that being Healed took. Perrin’s stomach
muttered at him, and his nose tested the breeze in the hope that someone had
already started cooking. He was ready to eat those turnip‑like roots, raw
if need be. There were only the lingering stench of slain Myrddraal, the smells
of dead Trollocs and men, alive and dead, of horses and the trees. And dead
wolves. Moiraine’s hut, high on
the other side of the bowl, seemed a center of activity. Min hurried inside,
and moments later Masema came out, then Uno. At a trot the one‑eyed man
vanished into the trees, toward the sheer rock wall beyond the hut, while the
other Shienaran limped down the slope. Perrin started toward
the hut. As he splashed across the shallow stream, he met Masema. The
Shienaran’s face was haggard, the scar on his cheek prominent, and his eyes
even more sunken than usual. In the middle of the stream, he raised his head
suddenly and caught Perrin’s coat sleeve. “You’re from his
village,” Masema said hoarsely. “You must know. Why did the Lord Dragon abandon
us? What sin did we commit?” “Sin? What are you
talking about? Wherever Rand went, it was nothing you did or didn’t do.” Masema
did not appear satisfied; he kept his grip on Perrin’s sleeve, peering into his
face as if there were answers there. Icy water began to seep into Perrin’s left
boot. “Masema,” he said carefully, “whatever the Lord Dragon did, it was
according to his plan. The Lord Dragon would not abandon us.” Or would he? If I were in his place, would I? Masema nodded slowly.
“Yes. Yes, I see that, now. He has gone out alone to spread the word of his
coming. We must spread the word, too. Yes.” He limped on across the stream,
muttering to himself. Squelching at every
other step, Perrin climbed to Moiraine’s but and knocked. There was no answer. He
hesitated a moment, then went in. The outer room, where
Lan slept, was as stark and simple as Perrin’s own hut, with a rough bed built
against one wall, a few pegs for hanging possessions, and a single shelf. Not
much light entered through the open door, and the only other illumination came
from crude lamps on the shelf, slivers of oily fat‑wood wedged into
cracks in pieces of rock. They gave off thin streamers of smoke that made a
layer of haze under the roof. Perrin’s nose wrinkled at the smell. The low roof was only a
little higher than his head. Loial’s head actually brushed it, even seated as
he was on one end of Lan’s bed, with his knees drawn up to make himself small.
The Ogier’s tufted ears twitched uneasily. Min sat cross‑legged on the
dirt floor beside the door that led to Moiraine’s room, while the Aes Sedai
paced back and forth in thought. Dark thoughts, they must have been. Three
paces each way was all she had, but she made vigorous use of the space, the
calm on her face belied by the quickness of her step. “I think Masema is going
crazy,” Perrin said. Min sniffed. “With him,
how can you tell?” Moiraine rounded on him,
a tightness to her mouth. Her voice was soft. Too soft. “Is Masema the most
important thing on your mind this the morning, Perrin Aybara?” “No. I’d like to know
when Rand left, and why. Did anyone see him go? Does anyone know where he
went?” He made himself meet her look with one just as level and firm. It was
not easy. He loomed over her, but she was Aes Sedai. “Is this of your making
Moiraine? Did you rein him in until he was so impatient he’d go anywhere, do
anything, just to stop sitting still?” Loial’s ears went stiff, and he motioned
a surreptitious warning with one thick‑fingered hand. Moiraine studied Perrin
with her head tilted to one side, and it was all he could do not to drop his
eyes. “This is none of my doing,” she said. “He left sometime during the night.
When and how and why, I yet hope to learn.” Loial’s shoulders heaved
in a quiet sigh of relief. Quiet for an Ogier, it sounded like steam rushing
out from quenching red‑hot iron. “Never anger an Aes Sedai,” he said in a
whisper obviously meant just for himself, but audible to everyone. “ ‘Better to
embrace the sun than to anger an Aes Sedai.’ “ Min reached up enough to
hand Perrin a folded piece of paper. “Loial went to see him after we got him to
bed last night, and Rand asked to borrow pen and paper and ink.” The Ogier’s ears jerked,
and he frowned worriedly until his long eyebrows hung down on his cheeks. “I
did not know what he was planning. I didn’t.” “We know that,” Min
said. “No one is accusing you of anything, Loial. “ Moiraine frowned at the
paper, but she did not try to stop Perrin from reading. It was in Rand’s hand. What I do, I do because there is no other way. He is hunting me
again, and this time one of us has to die, I think. There is no need for those
around me to die, also. Too many have died for me already. I do not want to die
either, and will not, if I can manage it. There are lies in dreams, and death,
but dreams hold truth, too. That was all, with no
signature. There was no need for Perrin to wonder who Rand meant by “he.” For
Rand, for all of them, there could be only one. Ba’alzamon. “He left that tucked
under the door there,” Min said in a tight voice. “He took some old
clothes the Shienarans had hanging out to dry, and his flute, and a horse.
Nothing else but a little food, as far as we can tell. None of the guards saw
him go, and last night they would have seen a mouse creeping.” “And would it have done
any good if they had?” Moiraine said calmly. “Would any of them have stopped
the Lord Dragon, or even challenged
him? Some of them ‑ Masema for one ‑ would slit their own throats
if the Lord Dragon told them to.” It was Perrin’s turn to
study her. “Did you expect anything else? They swore to follow him. Light,
Moiraine, he’d never have named himself Dragon if not for you. What did you
expect of them?” She did not speak, and he went on more quietly. “Do you
believe, Moiraine? That he’s really the Dragon Reborn? Or do you just think
he’s someone you can use before the One Power kills him or drives him mad?” “Go easy, Perrin,” Loial
said. “Not so angry.” “I’ll go easy when she
answers me. Well, Moiraine?” “He is what he is,” she
said sharply. “You said the Pattern
would force him to the right path eventually. Is that what this is, or is he
just trying to get away from you?” For a moment he thought he had gone too far
- her dark eyes sparkled with anger ‑ but he refused to back down.
“Well?” Moiraine took a deep
breath. “This may well be what the Pattern has chosen, yet I did not mean for
him to go off alone. For all his power, he is as defenseless as a babe in many
ways, and as ignorant of the world. He channels, but he has no control over
whether or not the One Power comes when he reaches for it and almost as little
over what he does with it if it does come. The Power itself will kill him
before he has a chance to go mad if he does not learn that control. There is so
much he must learn, yet. He wants to run before he has learned to walk.” “You split hairs and lay
false trails, Moiraine.” Perrin snorted. “If he is what you say he is, did it
never occur to you that he might know what he has to do better than you?” “He is what he is,” she
repeated firmly, “but I must keep him alive if he is to do anything. He will
fulfill no prophecies dead, and even if he manages to avoid Darkfriends and
Shadowspawn, there are a thousand other hands ready to slay him. All it will
take is a hint of the hundredth part of what he is. Yet if that were all he
might face, I would not worry half so much as I do. There are the Forsaken to
be accounted for.” Perrin gave a start;
from the corner, Loial moaned. “ ‘The Dark One and all the Forsaken are bound
in Shayol Ghul,’ “ Perrin began by rote, but she gave him no time to finish. “The seals are
weakening, Perrin. Some are broken, though the world does not know that. Must
not know that. The Father of Lies is not free. Yet. But as the seals weaken,
more and more, which of the Forsaken may be loosed already? Lanfear? Sammael?
Asmodean, or Be’lal, or Ravhin? Ishamael himself, the Betrayer of Hope? They
were thirteen altogether, Perrin, and bound in the sealing, not in the prison
that holds the Dark One. Thirteen of the most powerful Aes Sedai of the Age of
Legends, the weakest of them stronger than the ten strongest Aes Sedai living
today, the most ignorant with all the knowledge of the Age of Legends. And
every man and woman of them gave up the Light and dedicated their souls to the
Shadow. What if they are free, and out there waiting for him? I will not let
them have him.” Perrin shivered, partly
from the icy iron in her last words, and partly from thought of the Forsaken.
He did not want to think of even one of the Forsaken loose in the world. His
mother had frightened him with those names when he was little. Ishamael comes for boys who do not tell
their mothers the truth. Lanfear waits in the night for boys who do not go to
bed when they are supposed to. Being older did not help, not when he knew
now they were all real. Not when Moiraine said they might be free. “Bound in Shayol Ghul,”
he whispered, and wished he still believed it. Troubled, he studied Rand’s
letter again. “Dreams. He was talking about dreams yesterday, too.” Moiraine stepped closer,
and peered up into his face. “Dreams?” Lan and Uno came in, but she waved them
to silence. The small room was more than crowded now, with five people in it
besides the Ogier. “What dreams have you had the last few days, Perrin?” She
ignored his protest that there was nothing wrong with his dreams. “Tell me,”
she insisted. “What dream have you had that was not ordinary? Tell me.” Her
gaze seized him like smithy tongs, willing him to speak. He looked at the others ‑
they were all watching him fixedly, even Min ‑ then hesitantly told of
the one dream that seemed unusual to him, the dream that came every night. The
dream of the sword he could not touch. He did not mention the wolf that had
appeared in the last. “Callandor,” Lan
breathed when he was done. Rock‑hard face or no, he looked stunned. “Yes,” Moiraine said,
“but we must be absolutely certain. Speak to the others.” As Lan hurried out,
she turned to Uno. “And what of your dreams? Did you dream of a sword, too?” The Shienaran shifted
his feet. The red eye painted on his patch stared straight at Moiraine, but his
real eye blinked and wavered. “I dream about flam ‑ uh, about swords all
the time, Moiraine Sedai,” he said stiffly. “I suppose I’ve dreamed about a
sword the last few nights. I don’t remember my dreams the way Lord Perrin here
does.” Moiraine said, “Loial?” “My dreams are always
the same, Moiraine Sedai. The groves, and the Great Trees, and the stedding. We Ogier always dream of the stedding when we are away from them.” The Aes Sedai turned
back to Perrin. “It was just a dream,”
he said. “Nothing but a dream.” “I doubt it,” she said.
“You describe the hall called the Heart of the Stone, in the fortress called
the Stone of Tear, as if you had stood in it. And the shining sword is Callandor, the Sword That Is Not a
Sword, the Sword That Cannot Be Touched.” Loial sat up straight,
bumping his head on the roof. He did not seem to notice. “The Prophecies of the
Dragon say the Stone of Tear will never fall till Callandor is wielded by the Dragon’s hand. The fall of the Stone of
Tear will be one of the greatest signs of the Dragon’s Rebirth. If Rand holds Callandor, the whole world must
acknowledge him as the Dragon.” “Perhaps.” The word
floated from the Aes Sedai’s lips like a shard of ice on still water. “Perhaps?” Perrin said.
“Perhaps? I thought that was the final sign, the last thing to fulfill your
Prophecies.” “Neither the first nor
the last,” Moiraine said. “Callandor will be but one fulfillment of The
Karaethon Cycle, as his birth on the slopes of Dragonmount was the first.
He has yet to break the nations, or shatter the world. Even scholars who have
studied the Prophecies for their entire lives do not know how to interpret them
all. What does it mean that he ‘shall slay his people with the sword of peace,
and destroy them with the leaf? What does it meant that he ‘shall bind the nine
moons to serve him’? Yet these are given equal weight with Callandor in the Cycle. There
are others. What ‘wounds of madness and cutting of hope’ has he healed? What
chains has he broken, and who put into chains? And some are so obscure that he
may already have fulfilled them, although I am not aware of it. But, no.
Callandor is far from the end of it.” Perrin shrugged
uneasily. He knew only bits and pieces of the Prophecies; he had liked hearing
them even less since Rand had let Moiraine put that banner in his hands. No, it
had been before that, even. Since a journey by Portal Stone had convinced him
his life was bound to Rand’s. Moiraine was continuing.
“If you think he has simply to put out his hand, Loial son of Arent son of
Halan, you are a fool, as is he if he thinks it. Even if he lives to reach
Tear, he may never attain the Stone. “Tairens have no love
for the One Power, and less for any man claiming to be the Dragon. Channeling
is outlawed, and Aes Sedai are tolerated at best, so long as they do not
channel. Telling the Prophecies of the Dragon, or even possessing a copy of
them, is enough to put you in prison, in Tear. And no one enters the Stone of
Tear without permission of the High Lords; none but the High Lords themselves
enter the Heart of the Stone. He is not ready for this. Not ready.” Perrin grunted softly.
The Stone would never fall till the Dragon Reborn held Callandor. How in the Light is he supposed to reach it ‑ inside a
bloody fortress! ‑ before the fortress falls? It is madness! “Why are we just sitting
here?” Min burst out. “If Rand is going to Tear, why aren’t we following him?
He could be killed, or . . . or. . . . Why are we sitting here?” Moiraine put a hand on
Min’s head. “Because I must be sure,” she said gently. “It is not comfortable
being chosen by the Wheel, to be great or to be near greatness. The chosen of
the Wheel can only take what comes.” “I am tired of taking
what comes.” Min scrubbed a hand across her eyes. Perrin thought he saw tears.
“Rand could be dying while we wait.” Moiraine smoothed Min’s hair; there was a
look almost of pity on the Aes Sedai’s face. Perrin sat down on the
end of Lan’s bed opposite Loial. The smell of people was thick in the room‑people
and worry and fear; Loial smelled of books and trees as well as worry. It felt
like a trap, with the walls around them, and all so close. The burning slivers
stank. “How can my dream tell where Rand is going?” he asked. “It was my
dream.” “Those who can channel
the One Power,” Moiraine said quietly, “those who are particularly strong in
Spirit, can sometimes force their dreams on others.” She did not stop her
soothing of Min. “Especially on those who are ‑ susceptible. I do not
believe Rand did it on purpose, but the dreams of those touching the True
Source can be powerful. For one as strong as he, they could possibly seize an
entire village, or perhaps even a city. He knows little of what he does, and
even less of how to control it.” “Then why didn’t you
have it, too?” he demanded. “Or Lan. “ Uno stared straight ahead, looking as if
he would rather be anywhere else, and Loial’s ears wilted. Perrin was too tired
and too hungry to care whether he showed proper respect for an Aes Sedai. And
too angry, as well, he realized. “Why?” Moiraine answered
calmly. “Aes Sedai learn to shield their dreams. I do it without thinking, when
I sleep. Warders are given something much the same in the bonding. The Gaidin
could not do what they must if the Shadow could steal into their dreams. We are
all vulnerable when we sleep, and the Shadow is strong in the night.” “There’s always
something new from you,” Perrin growled. “Can’t you tell us what to expect once
in a while, instead of explaining after it happens?” Uno looked as though he
was trying to think of a reason to leave. Moiraine gave Perrin a
flat look. “You want me to share a lifetime of knowledge with you in a single
afternoon? Or even a single year? I will tell you this. Be wary of dreams,
Perrin Aybara. Be very wary of dreams. “ He pulled his eyes away
from hers. “I am,” he murmured. “I am.” After that, silence, and
no one seemed to want to break it. Min sat staring at her crossed ankles, but
apparently taking some comfort from Moiraine’s presence. Uno stood against the
wall, not looking at anyone. Loial forgot himself enough to pull a book from
his coat pocket and try to read in the dim light. The wait was long, and far
from easy for Perrin. It’s not the Shadow
in my dreams I’m afraid of. It’s
wolves. I will not let them in. I won’t! Lan returned, and
Moiraine straightened eagerly. The Warder answered the question in her eyes.
“Half of them remember dreaming of swords the last four nights running. Some
remember a place with great columns, and five say the sword was crystal, or
glass. Masema says he saw Rand holding it last night.” “That one would,”
Moiraine said. She rubbed her hands together briskly; she seemed suddenly full
of energy. “Now I am certain. Though
I still wish I knew how he left here unseen. If he has rediscovered some Talent
from the Age of Legends. . .” Lan looked at Uno, and
the one‑eyed man shrugged in dismay. “I bloody forgot, with all this
flaming talk about bloc ‑ “ He cleared his throat, shooting a glance at
Moiraine. She looked back expectantly, and he went on. “I mean . . . uh . . .
that is, I followed the Lord Dragon’s tracks. There’s another way into that
closed valley, now. The . . . the earthquake brought down the far wall. It’s a
hard climb, but you can get a horse up it. I found more tracks at the top, and
there’s an easy way from there around the mountain.” He let out a long breath
when he was done. “Good,” Moiraine said.
“At least he has not rediscovered how to fly, or make himself invisible, or
something else out of legend. We must follow him without delay. Uno, I will
give you enough gold to take you and the others as far as Jehannah, and the
name of someone there who will see that you get more. The Ghealdanin are wary
of strangers, but if you keep to yourselves, they should not trouble you. Wait
there until I send word.” “But we will go with
you,” he protested. “We have all sworn to follow the Dragon Reborn. I do not
see how the few of us can take a fortress that has never fallen, but with the
Lord Dragon’s aid, we will do what must be done.” “So we are ‘the People
of the Dragon,’ now.” Perrin laughed mirthlessly. “ ‘The Stone of Tear will
never fall till the People of the Dragon come.’ Have you given us a new name,
Moiraine?” “Watch your tongue,
blacksmith,” Lan growled, all ice and stone. Moiraine gave them both
sharp looks, and they fell silent. “Forgive me, Uno,” she said, “but we must
travel quickly if we are to have a hope of overtaking him. You are the only
Shienaran fit enough for a hard ride, and we cannot afford the days the others
will need to regain full strength. I will send for you when I can.” Uno grimaced, but he
bowed in acquiescence. At her dismissal, he squared his shoulders and left to
tell the others. “Well, I am going along,
whatever you say,” Min put in firmly. “You are going to Tar
Valon,” Moiraine told her. “I am no such thing!” The Aes Sedai went on
smoothly as if the other woman had not spoken. “The Amyrlin Seat must be told
what has happened, and I cannot count on finding one I can trust who has
messenger pigeons. Or that the Amyrlin will see any message I send by pigeon.
It is a long journey, and hard. I would not send you alone if there were anyone
to send with you, but I will see you have money, and letters to those who might
help you on your way. You must ride quickly, though. When your horse tires, buy
another ‑ or steal one, if you must ‑ but ride quickly.” “Let Uno take your
message. He’s fit; you said so. I am going after Rand.” “Uno has his duties,
Min. And do you think a man could simply walk up to the gates of the White
Tower and demand an audience with the Amyrlin Seat? Even a king would be made
to wait days if he arrived unannounced, and I fear any of the Shienarans would
be left kicking their heels for weeks, if not forever. Not to mention that
something so unusual would be known to everyone in Tar Valon before the first
sunset. Few women seek audiences with the Amyrlin herself, but it does happen,
and it should occasion no great comment. No one must learn even as much as that
the Amyrlin Seat has received a message from me. Her life ‑ and ours ‑
could depend on it. You are the one who must go.” Min sat there opening
and closing her mouth, obviously searching for another argument, but Moiraine
had already gone on. “Lan, I very much fear we will find more evidence of his
passing than I would like, but I will rely on your tracking.” The Warder
nodded. “Perrin? Loial? Will you come with me after Rand?” From her place
against the wall, Min gave an indignant squawk, but the Aes Sedai ignored it. “I will come,” Loial
said quickly. “Rand is my friend. And I will admit it; I would not miss
anything. For my book, you see.” Perrin was slower to
answer. Rand was his friend, whatever he had become in the forging. And there
was that near certainty of their futures being linked, though he would have
avoided that part of it if he could. “It has to be done, doesn’t it?” he said
finally. “I will come.” “Good.” Moiraine rubbed
her hands together again, with the air of someone settling to work. “You must
all ready yourselves at once. Rand has hours on us. I mean to be well along his
trail before midday.” Slender as she was, the
force of her presence herded all of them but Lan toward the door, Loial walking
stooped over until he was through the doorway. Perrin thought of a goodwife
herding geese. Once outside, Min bung
back for a moment to address Lan with a too-sweet smile. “And is there any
message you want carried? To Nynaeve, perhaps?” The Warder blinked as if
caught off guard, like a horse on three legs. “Does everyone know ‑ ?” He
regained his balance almost immediately. “If there is anything else she needs
to hear from me, I will tell her myself. “ He closed the door nearly in her
face. “Men!” Min muttered at
the door. “Too blind to see what a stone could see, and too stubborn to be
trusted to think for themselves.” Perrin inhaled deeply.
Faint smells of death still hung in the valley air, but it was better than the
closeness inside. Some better. “Clean air,” Loial
sighed. “The smoke was beginning to bother me a little. “ They started down the
slope together. Beside the stream below, the Shienarans who could stand were
gathered around Uno. From his gestures the one‑eyed man was making up for
lost time with his cursing. “How did you two become
privileged?” Min demanded abruptly. “She asked you. She didn’t do me the
courtesy of asking.” Loial shook his head. “I
think she asked because she knew what we would answer, Min. Moiraine seems able
to read Perrin and me; she knows what we’ll do. But you are a closed book to
her.” Min appeared only a
little mollified. She looked up at them, Perrin head and shoulders taller on
one side and Loial towering even higher on the other. “Much good it does me. I
am still going where she wants as easily as you two little lambs. You were
doing well for a while, Perrin. Standing up to her like she’d sold you a coat
and the seams were popping open.” “I did stand up to her,
didn’t I,” Perrin said wonderingly. He had not really realized he had done
that. “It was not so bad as I’d have thought it would be.” “You were lucky,” Loial
rumbled. “ ‘To anger an Aes Sedai is to put your head in a hornet’s nest.’ “ “Loial,” Min said, “I
need to speak to Perrin. Alone. Would you mind?” “Oh. Of course not.” He
lengthened his stride to its normal span and quickly moved ahead of them,
pulling his pipe and tabac pouch from a coat pocket. Perrin eyed her warily.
She was biting her lip, as if considering what to say. “Do you ever see things
about him?” he asked, nodding after the Ogier. She shook her head. “I
think it only works with humans. But I’ve seen things around you that you ought
to know about.” “I’ve told you ‑ “ “Don’t be more
thickheaded than you have to be, Perrin. Back there, right after you said you’d
go. They were not there before. They must have to do with this journey. Or at
least with you deciding to go.” After a moment he said
reluctantly, “What did you see?” “An Aielman in a cage,”
she said promptly. “A Tuatha’an with a sword. A falcon and a hawk, perching on
your shoulders. Both female, I think. And all the rest, of course. What is
always there. Darkness swirling ‘round you, and – ” “None of that!” he said
quickly. When he was sure she had stopped, he scratched his head, thinking.
None of it made any sense to him. “Do you have any idea what it all means? The
new things, I mean.” “No, but they’re
important. The things I see always are. Turning points in people’s lives, or
what’s fated. It’s always important.” She hesitated for a moment, glancing at
him. “One more thing,” she said slowly. “If you meet a woman ‑ the most
beautiful woman you’ve ever seen ‑ run!” Perrin blinked. “You saw
a beautiful woman? Why should I run from a beautiful woman?” “Can’t you just take
advice?” she said irritably. She kicked at a stone and watched it roll down the
slope. Perrin did not like
jumping to conclusions ‑ it was one of the reasons some people thought
him slow‑witted ‑ but he totaled up a number of things Min had said
in the last few days and came to a startling conclusion. He stopped dead, hunting
for words. “Uh . . . Min, you know I like you. I like you, but . . . . Uh . . .
I never had a sister, but if I did, I . . . . I mean, you. . . . “ The flow
stumbled to a halt as she raised her head to look at him, eyebrows arched. She
wore a small smile. “Why, Perrin, you must
know that I love you.” She stood there, watching his mouth work, then spoke
slowly and carefully. “Like a brother, you great wooden‑headed lummox!
The arrogance of men never ceases to amaze me. You all think everything has to
do with you, and every woman has to desire you.” Perrin felt his face
growing hot. “I never.... I didn’t. . . .” He cleared his throat. “What did you
see about a woman?” “Just take my advice,”
she said, and started down toward the stream again, walking fast. “If you
forget all the rest,” she called over her shoulder, “heed that!” He frowned after her ‑
for once his thoughts seemed to arrange themselves quickly ‑ then caught
up in two strides. “It’s Rand, isn’t it?” She made a sound in her
throat and gave him a sidelong look. She did not slow down, though. “Maybe you
aren’t so boneheaded after all,” she muttered. After a moment she added, as if
to herself, “I’m bound to him as surely as a stave is bound to the barrel. But
I can’t see if he’ll ever love me in return. And I am not the only one.” “Does Egwene know?” he
asked. Rand and Egwene had been all but promised since childhood. Everything
but kneeling in front of the Women’s Circle of the village to speak the
betrothal. He was not sure how far they had drifted from that, if at all. “She knows,” Min said
curtly. “Much good it does either of us.” “What about Rand? Does
he know?” “Oh, of course,” she said
bitterly. “I told him, didn’t I? ‘Rand, I did a viewing of you, and it seems I
have to fall in love with you. I have to share you, too, and I don’t much like
that, but there it is.’ You’re a wooden‑headed wonder after all, Perrin
Aybara.” She dashed a hand across her eyes angrily. “If I could be with him, I
know I could help. Somehow. Light, if he dies, I don’t know if I can stand it.” Perrin shrugged
uncomfortably. “Listen, Min. I’ll do what I can to help him.” However much that is “I promise you
that. It really is best for you to go to Tar Valon. You’ll be safe there.” “Safe?” She tasted the
word as if wondering what it meant. “You think Tar Valon is safe?” “If there’s no safety in
Tar Valon, there’s no safety anywhere.” She sniffed loudly, and
in silence they went to join those preparing to leave. CHAPTER 7 The Way Out of the Mountains The way down out of the mountains was hard, but the lower
they went, the less Perrin needed his fur‑lined cloak. Hour by hour, they
rode out of the tailings of winter and into the first days of spring. The last
remnants of snow vanished, and grasses and wildflowers‑white maiden’s
hope and pink jump up‑began to cover the high meadows they crossed. Trees
appeared more often, with more leaves, and grasslarks and robins sang in the
branches. And there were wolves. Never in sight ‑ not even Lan mentioned
seeing one ‑ but Perrin knew. He kept his mind firmly closed to them, yet
now and again a feather‑light tickle at the back of his mind reminded him
they were there. Lan spent most of his
time scouting their path on his black warhorse, Mandarb, following Rand’s
tracks as the rest of them followed the signs the Warder left for them. An
arrow of stones laid out on the ground, or one lightly scratched in the rock
wall of a forking pass. Turn this way. Cross that saddlepass. Take this
switchback, this deer trail, this way through the trees and down along a narrow
stream, even though there is nothing to indicate anyone has ever gone that way
before. Nothing but Lan’s signs. A tuft of grass or weeds tied one way to say
bear left, another for bear right. A bent branch. A pile of pebbles for a rough
climb ahead, two leaves caught on a thorn for a steep descent. The Warder had a
hundred signs, it seemed to Perrin, and Moiraine knew them all. Lan rarely came
back except when they made camp, to confer with Moiraine quietly, away from the
fire. When the sun rose, most often he was hours gone already. Moiraine was always
first into the saddle after him, while the eastern sky was just turning pink.
The Aes Sedai would not have climbed down from Aldieb, her white mare, until
full dark or later, except that Lan refused to track further once the light
began to fail. “We’ll go even slower if
a horse breaks a leg,” the Warder would tell Moiraine when she complained. Her reply was always
very much the same. “If you cannot move any faster than this, perhaps I should
send you off to Myrelle before you get any older. Well, perhaps that can wait,
but you must move us faster.” She half sounded as if
the threat were irritated truth, half as if she were making a joke. There was
something of a threat in it, or maybe a warning, Perrin was sure, from the way
Lan’s mouth tightened even when she smiled afterwards and reached up to pat his
shoulder soothingly. “Who is Myrelle?” Perrin
asked suspiciously, the first time it happened. Loial shook his head, murmuring
something about unpleasant things happening to those who pried into Aes Sedai
affairs. The Ogier’s hairy-fetlocked horse was as tall and heavy as a Dhurran
stallion, but with Loial’s long legs dangling to either side, the animal looked
undersized, like a large pony. Moiraine gave an amused,
secretive smile. “Just a Green sister. Someone to whom Lan must one day deliver
a package for safekeeping.” “No day soon,” Lan said,
and surprisingly, there was open anger in his voice. “Never, if I can help it.
You will outlive me long, Moiraine Aes Sedai!” She has too many secrets, Perrin thought, but asked no more about a subject that could crack the
Warder’s iron self‑control. The Aes Sedai had a
blanket‑wrapped bundle tied behind her saddle: the Dragon banner. Perrin
was uneasy about having it with them, but Moiraine had neither asked his
opinion nor listened when he offered it. Not that anyone was likely to
recognize it if they saw it, yet he hoped she was as good at keeping secrets
from other people as she was at keeping them from him. In the beginning, at
least, it was a boring journey. One cloud‑capped mountain was very much
like another, one pass little different from the next. Supper was usually
rabbit, dropped by stones from Perrin’s sling. He did not have so many
arrows as to risk shooting at rabbits in that rocky country. Breakfast was cold
rabbit, more often than not, and the midday meal the same, eaten in the saddle. Sometimes when they
camped near a stream and there was still light enough to see, he and Loial
caught mountain trout, lying on their bellies, hands elbow‑deep in the
cold water, tickling the green‑backed fish out from under the rock ledges
where they hid. Loial’s fingers, big as they were, were even more deft at it
than Perrin’s. Once, three days after
setting out, Moiraine joined them, stretching herself out on the streamside and
undoing rows of pearl buttons to roll up her sleeves as she asked how the thing
was done. Perrin exchanged surprised looks with Loial. The Ogier shrugged. “It is not that hard,
really,” Perrin told her. “Just bring your hand up from behind the fish, and
underneath, as if you’re trying to tickle its belly. Then you pull it out. It
takes practice, though. You might not catch anything the first few times you
try.” “I tried for days before
I ever caught anything,” Loial added. He was already easing his huge hands into
the water, careful to keep his shadow from scaring the fish. “As difficult as that?”
Moiraine murmured. Her hands slipped into the water ‑ and a moment later
came out with a splash, holding a fat trout that thrashed the surface. She
laughed with delight as she tossed it up onto the bank. Perrin blinked at the
big fish flopping in the fading sunlight. It must have weighed at least five
pounds. “You were very lucky,” he said. “Trout that size don’t often shelter
under a ledge this small. We’ll have to move upstream a bit. It will be dark
before any of them settle under this ledge again. “ “Is that so?” Moiraine
said. “You two go ahead. I think I will just try here again.” Perrin hesitated a
moment before moving up the bank to another overhang. She was up to something,
but he could not imagine what. That troubled him. Belly down, and careful not
to let his shadow fall on the water, he peered over the edge. Half a dozen
slender shapes hung suspended in the water, barely moving a fin to hold their
places. All of them together would not weigh as much as Moiraine’s fish, he
decided with a sigh. If they were lucky, he and Loial might take two apiece,
but the shadows of trees on the far bank already stretched across the water.
Whatever they caught now would be it, and Loial’s appetite was big enough by
itself to swallow those four and most of the bigger fish, too. Loial’s hands
were already easing up behind one of the trout. Before Perrin could even
slide his hands into the water, Moiraine gave a shout. “Three should be enough,
I think. The last two are bigger than the first.” Perrin gave Loial a startled look. “She can’t have!” The Ogier straightened, sending
the small trout scattering. “She is Aes Sedai,” he said simply. Sure enough, when they
returned to Moiraine, three big trout lay on the bank. She was already
buttoning her sleeves up again. Perrin thought about
reminding her that whoever took the fish was supposed to clean them, too, but
just at that moment she caught his eye. There was no particular expression on
her smooth face, but her dark eyes did not waver, and they appeared to know
what he was going to say, and to have dismissed it out of hand already. When
she turned away, it seemed somehow too late to say anything. Muttering to himself,
Perrin pulled out his belt knife and set to the scaling and gutting. “All of a
sudden she’s forgotten about sharing the chores, it seems. I suppose she’ll want
us to do the cooking, as well, and the cleaning up after.” “No doubt she will,”
Loial said without pausing over the fish he was working on. “She is Aes Sedai.” “I seem to remember
hearing that somewhere.” Perrin’s knife made fish scales fly. “The Shienarans
might have been willing to run around fetching and carrying for her, but there
are only four of us now. We should keep on turn and turn about. It’s only
fair.” Loial gave a great snort
of laughter. “I doubt she sees it that way. First she had to put up with Rand
arguing with her all the time, and now you’re ready to take over for him. As a
rule, Aes Sedai do not let anyone argue with them. I expect she means to have
us back in the habit of doing what she says by the time we reach the first
village.” “A good habit to be in,”
Lan said, throwing back his cloak. In the fading light he had appeared out of
nowhere. Perrin nearly fell over
from surprise, and Loial’s ears went stiff with shock. Neither of them had
heard the Warder’s step. “A habit you should never
have lost,” Lan added, then strode off toward Moiraine and the horses. His
boots barely made a sound, even on that rocky ground, and once he was a few
paces away the cloak hanging down his back gave him the uneasy appearance of a
disembodied head and arms drifting up from the stream. “We need her to find
Rand,” Perrin said softly, “but I am not going to let her shape my life
anymore.” He went back to his scaling vigorously. He meant to keep that
promise ‑ he really did ‑ but during the days that followed, in
some way he did not quite understand, he found that he and Loial were doing the
cooking, and the cleaning up, and any other little chore that Moiraine thought
of. He even discovered that somehow or other he had taken over tending Aldieb
every night, unsaddling the mare and rubbing her down while Moiraine settled
herself, apparently deep in thought. Loial gave in to it as
inevitable, but not Perrin. He tried refusing, resisting, but it was hard to
resist when she made a reasonable suggestion, and a small one at that. Only
there was always another suggestion behind it, as reasonable and small as the
first, and then another. The simple force of her presence, the strength of her
gaze, made it difficult to protest. Her dark eyes would catch his at ‘the moment
he opened his mouth. A lift of her eyebrow to suggest he was being rude, a
surprised widening of her eyes that he could object to so small a request, a
level stare that held in it everything that was Aes Sedai, all these things
could make him hesitate, and once he hesitated there was never any recovering
lost ground. He accused her of using the One Power on him, though he did not
really think that was it, and she told him not to be a fool. He began to feel
like a piece of iron trying to stop a smith from hammering it into a scythe. The Mountains of Mist
gave way abruptly to the forested foothills of Ghealdan, to land that seemed
all up and down, but never very high. Deer, which in the mountains had often
watched them warily, as if uncertain what a man was, began to bound away, white
tails flickering, at the first sight of the horses. Even Perrin now caught only
the faintest glimpses of the gray‑striped mountain cats that seemed to
fade away like smoke. They were coming into the lands of men. Lan stopped wearing his
color‑shifting cloak and began riding back to the rest of them more
often, telling them what lay ahead. In many places the trees had all been cut
down. Soon, fields encircled by rough stone walls and farmers plowing ‘round
the sides of hills were common sights, if not exactly frequent, along with
lines of people moving across the plowed ground, sowing seed from sacks slung
from their shoulders. Scattered farmhouses and barns of gray stone sat on
hilltops and ridges. The wolves should not
have been there. Wolves avoided places where men were, but Perrin could still
sense them, an unseen screen and escort ringing the mounted party. Impatience
filled him; impatience to reach a village or a town, any place where there were
enough men to make the wolves go away. A day after sighting the first field, just as the sun touched the horizon behind them, they came to the
village of Jarra, not far north of the border with Amadicia. CHAPTER 8 Jarra Gray stone houses with
slate roofs lay clustered along the few narrow streets of Jarra, clinging to a
hillside above a little stream spanned by a low wooden bridge. The muddy
streets were empty, and so was the sloping village green, except for one man
sweeping the steps of the village’s only inn, standing beside its stone stable;
but it looked as if there had been a good many people on the green not long
before. Half a dozen arches, woven of green branches and dotted with such few
flowers as could be found this early in the year, stood in a circle in the
middle of the grass. The ground had a trampled look, and there were other signs
of a gathering; a woman’s red scarf lying tangled at the foot of one of the
arches, a child’s knitted cap, a pewter pitcher tumbled on its side, a few half-eaten
scraps of food. The aromas of sweet wine
and spiced cakes clung about the green, mixed in with smoke from dozens of
chimneys and evening meals cooking. For an instant Perrin’s nose caught another
odor, one he could not identify, a faint trail that raised the hair on the back
of his neck with its vileness. Then it was gone. But he was sure something had
passed that way, something ‑ wrong. He scrubbed at his nose as if to rub
away the memory of it. That can’t be
Rand. Light, even if he has gone mad,
that can’t be him. Can it? A painted sign hung
above the inn door, a man standing on one foot with his arms thrown in the air:
Hardin’s Leap. As they drew rein in front of the square stone building, the
sweeper straightened, yawning fiercely. He gave a start at Perrin’s eyes, but
his own already protruding eyes went wide when they fell on Loial. With his
wide mouth and no chin to speak of, he looked something like a frog. There was
an old smell of sour wine about him ‑ to Perrin, at least. The fellow had
certainly been part of the celebration. The man gave himself a
shake, and turned it into a bow with one hand resting on the double row of
wooden buttons running down his coat. His eyes flickered from one to another of
them, popping even more every time they rested on Loial. “Welcome, good
mistress, and the Light illumine your way. Welcome, good masters. You wish
food, rooms, baths? All to be had, here at the Leap. Master Harod, the
innkeeper, keeps a good house. I am called Simion. If you wish anything, ask for
Simion, and he will get it for you.” He yawned again, covering his mouth in
embarrassment and bowing to hide it. “I beg your pardon, good mistress. You
have come far? Have you word of the Great Hunt? The Hunt for the Horn of
Valere? Or the false Dragon? It’s said there’s a false Dragon in Tarabon. Or
maybe Arad Doman.” “We have not come that
far,” Lan said, swinging down from his saddle. “No doubt you know more than I”
They all began dismounting. “You have had a wedding
here?” Moiraine said. “A wedding, good
mistress? Why, we’ve had a lifetime of weddings. A plague of them. All in the
last two days. There isn’t a woman old enough to speak the betrothal remains
unmarried, not in the whole village, not for a mile in any direction. Why, even
Widow Jorath dragged old Banas through the arches, and they’d both sworn they’d
never marry again. It was like a whirlwind just snatched everybody up. Rilith,
the weaver’s daughter, she started it, asking Jon the blacksmith to marry her,
and him old enough to be her father and more. The old fool just took off his
apron and said yes, and she demanded the arches be put up right then and there.
Wouldn’t hear of a proper wait, and all the other women sided with her. Since
then we’ve had marriages day and night. Why, nobody’s had any sleep at all
hardly.” “That’s very
interesting,” Perrin said when Simion paused to yawn again, “but have you seen
a young ‑ “ “It is very
interesting,” Moiraine said, cutting him off, “and I would hear more of it
later, perhaps. For now, we would like rooms, and a meal.” Lan made a small
gesture toward Perrin, down low, as if telling him to hold his tongue. “Of course, good
mistress. A meal. Rooms.” Simion hesitated, eyeing Loial. “We’ll have to push
two beds together for‑“ He leaned closer to Moiraine and dropped his
voice. “Pardon, good mistress, but - uh ‑ what exactly - is he? Meaning
no disrespect,” he added hastily. He had not spoken softly
enough, for Loial’s ears twitched irritably. “I am an Ogier! What did you think
I was? A Trolloc?” Simion took a step back
at the booming voice. “Trolloc, good - uh ‑ master? Why, I’m a grown man.
I don’t believe in children’s tales. Utah, did you say Ogier? Why, Ogier are
childr ‑ I mean . . . that is. . . .” In desperation, he turned to bellow
toward the stable next to the inn. “Nico! Patrim! Visitors! Come see to their
horses!” After a moment two boys with hay in their hair tumbled out of the
stable, yawning and rubbing their eyes. Simion gestured to the steps, bowing,
as the boys gathered reins. Perrin slung his
saddlebags and blanketroll over his shoulder and carried his bow as he followed
Moiraine and Lan inside, with Simion bowing and bobbing ahead of them. Loial
had to duck low under the lintel, and the ceiling inside only cleared his head
by a foot. He kept rumbling to himself about not understanding why so few
humans remembered the Ogier. His voice was like distant thunder. Even Perrin,
right in front of him, could only understand half of his words. The inn smelled of ale
and wine, cheese and weariness, and the aroma of roasting mutton drifted from
somewhere in the back. The few men in the common room sagged over their mugs as
if they would really like to lie down on the benches and go to sleep. One plump
serving woman was drawing a mug of ale from one of the barrels at the end of
the room. The innkeeper himself, in a long white apron, sat on a tall stool in
the corner, leaning against the wall. As the newcomers entered, he lifted his
head, bleary-eyed. His jaw dropped at the sight of Loial. “Visitors, Master
Harod,” Simion announced. “They want rooms. Master Harod? He’s an Ogier, Master
Harod.” The serving woman turned and saw Loial, and dropped the mug with a
clatter. None of the weary men at the tables even looked up. One had put his
head down on the table and was snoring. Loial’s ears twitched
violently. Master Harod got to his
feet slowly, eyes fastened on Loial, smoothing his apron all the while. “At
least he isn’t a Whitecloak,” he said at last, then gave a start as if
surprised he had spoken aloud. “That is to say, welcome, good mistress. Good
masters. Forgive my lack of manners. I can only plead tiredness, good
mistress.” He darted another glance at Loial, and mouthed “Ogier?” with a look
of disbelief. Loial opened his mouth,
but Moiraine forestalled him. “As your man said, good innkeeper, I wish rooms
for my party for the night, and a meal. “ “Oh! Of course, good
mistress. Of course. Simion, show these good people to my best rooms, so they
can put down their belongings. I’ll have a fine meal laid out for you when you
return, good mistress. A fine meal. “ “If it pleases you to
follow me, good mistress,” Simion said. “Good masters.” He bowed the way to
stairs at one side of the common room. Behind them, one of the
men at the tables suddenly exclaimed, “What in the name of the Light is that?”
Master Harod began explaining about Ogier, making it sound as if he were quite
familiar with them. Most of what Perrin heard before they left the voices
behind was wrong. Loial’s ears twitched without stop. On the second floor, the
Ogier’s head came near to brushing along the ceiling. The narrow corridor was
growing dark, with only the sharp light of sunset through a window next to the
door at the far end. “Candles in the rooms,
good mistress,” Simion said. “I should have brought a lamp, but my head is
still spinning from all those weddings. I’ll send someone up to light the fire,
if you wish. And you’ll want wash water, of course. “ He pushed open a door.
“Our best room, good mistress. We don’t have many ‑ not many strangers,
you see ‑ but this is our best. “ “I’ll take the one next
to it,” Lan said. He had Moiraine’s blanketroll and saddlebags on his shoulder
as well as his own, and the bundle containing the Dragon banner, too. “Oh, good master, that’s
not a very good room at all. Narrow bed. Cramped. Meant for a servant, I
suspect, as if we’d ever have anybody here who had a servant. Begging your
pardon, good mistress.” “I will take it anyway,”
Lan said firmly. “Simion,” Moiraine said,
“does Master Harod dislike the Children of the Light?” “Well, he does, good
mistress. He didn’t, but he does. It isn’t good policy, disliking the Children,
not so close to the border as we are. They come through Jarra all the time,
like there wasn’t any border at all. But there was trouble, yesterday. A
fistful of trouble. And with the weddings going on, and all.” “What happened, Simion?” The man looked at her
sharply before answering. Perrin did not think anyone else saw how sharply, in
the dimness. “There was about twenty of them, come day before yesterday. No
trouble then. But yesterday . . . . Why, three of them up and announced they
weren’t Children of the Light anymore. They took off their cloaks and just rode
away.” Lan grunted.
“Whitecloaks swear for life. What did their commander do?” “Why, he would have done
something, you can be sure, good master, but another of them announced he was
off to find the Horn of Valere. Anyway, still another said they should be
hunting the Dragon. That one said he was going to Almoth Plain when he left.
Then some of them started saying things to women in the streets, things they
shouldn’t have, and grabbing at them. The women were screaming, and Children
yelling at the ones bothering the women. I never saw such commotion.” “Didn’t any of you try
to stop them?” Perrin said. “Good master, you carry
that axe like you know how to use it, but it isn’t so easy to face up to men
with swords and armor and all, when all you know how to use is a broom or a
hoe. The rest of the Whitecloaks, those as hadn’t gone off, put an end to it.
Almost came to drawing swords. And that wasn’t the worst. Two more just went
mad - if the others weren’t. Those two started raving that Jarra was full of
Darkfriends. They tried to burn the village down ‑ said they would! ‑
beginning with the Leap. You can see the burn marks out back, where they got it
started. Fought the other Whitecloaks when they tried to stop them. The
Whitecloaks that were left, they helped us put it out, tied those two up tight,
and rode out of here, back toward Amadicia. Good riddance, I say, and if they
never come back, it’ll be too soon.” “Rough behavior,” Lan
said, “even for Whitecloaks.” Simion bobbed his head
in agreement. “As you say, good master. They never acted like that before.
Swagger around, yes. Look at you like you were dirt, and poke their noses in
where they hadn’t any business. But they never caused trouble before. Not like
that, anyway.” “They are gone now,”
Moiraine said, “and troubles with them. I am sure we will pass a quiet night.” Perrin kept his mouth
shut, but he was not quiet inside. All these weddings and Whitecloaks are all very well, but I’d sooner know
if Rand stopped here, and which way he went when he left. That smell couldn’t
have been him. He let Simion guide him
on down the hall to another room, with two beds and a washstand, a pair of
stools and not much else. Loial stooped to put his head through the doorway.
Only a little light came in by the narrow windows. The beds were big enough,
with blankets and comforters folded at the foot, but the mattresses looked
lumpy. Simion fumbled on the mantel above the fireplace until he found a
candle, and a tinderbox to get it alight. “I’ll see about getting
some beds put together for you, good - uh ‑ Ogier. Yes, just a moment,
now.” He showed no sign of hurry to be about it, though, fussing with the
candlestick as if he had to place it just right. Perrin thought he looked
uneasy. Well, I’d be more than uneasy if Whitecloaks had been acting like that
in Emond’s Field. “Simion,
has another stranger passed through here in the last day or two? A young man,
tall, with gray eyes and reddish hair? He might have played the flute for a
meal or a bed.” “I remember him, good
master,” Simion said, still shifting the candlestick. “Came yesterday morning,
early. Looked hungry, he did. He played the flute for all the weddings,
yesterday. Good‑looking young fellow. Some of the women eyed him, at
first, but . . . .” He paused, looking at Perrin sideways. “Is he a friend of
yours, good master?” “I know him,” Perrin
said. “Why?” Simion hesitated. “No
reason, good master. He was an odd fellow, that’s all. He talked to himself,
sometimes, and sometimes he laughed when nobody had said anything. Slept in
this very room, last night, or part of it. Woke us all in the middle of the
night, yelling. It was just a nightmare, but he wouldn’t stay any longer.
Master Harod didn’t make much effort to talk him into it, after all that
noise.” Simion paused again. “He said something strange when he left.” “What?” Perrin demanded. “He said somebody was
after him. He said. . . .” The chinless man swallowed and went on more slowly.
“Said they’d kill him if he didn’t go. ‘One of us has to die, and I mean it to
be him.’ His very words.” “He did not mean us,”
Loial rumbled. “We are his friends.” “Of course, good ‑
uh ‑ good Ogier. Of course, he didn’t mean you. I ‑ uh ‑ I
don’t mean to say anything about a friend of yours, but I - uh - I - think he’s
sick. In the head, you know.” “We will take care of
him,” Perrin said. “That’s why we’re following him. Which way did he go?” “I knew it,” Simion
said, bouncing on his toes. “I knew she could help as soon as I saw you. Which
way? East, good master. East, like the Dark One himself was on his heels. Do
you think she’ll help me? Help my brother, that is? Noam’s bad sick, and Mother
Roon says she can’t do anything.” Perrin kept his face
expressionless, and bought a little time to think by propping his bow in the
corner and setting his blanketroll and saddlebags on one of the beds. The
problem was that thinking did not help much. He looked at Loial, but found no
help there; consternation had the Ogier’s ears drooping and his long eyebrows
hanging down on his cheeks. “What makes you think she can help your brother?” Stupid question! The right question is, what
does he mean to do about it? “Why, I traveled to
Jehannah, once, good master, and I saw two . . . two women like her. I couldn’t
mistake her after that.” His voice dropped to a whisper. “It’s said they can raise the dead, good master.” “Who else knows this?”
Perrin asked sharply, and at the same time Loial said, “If your brother is
dead, there is nothing anyone can do.” The frog‑faced man
looked from one to the other of them anxiously, and his words came in a babble.
“No one knows but me, good master. No isn’t dead, good Ogier, only sick. I
swear nobody else could recognize her. Even Master Harod’s never been more than
twenty miles from here in his life. He’s so bad sick. I’d ask her myself, only
my knees’d be shaking so hard she couldn’t hear me talk. What if she took
offense and called down lightning on me? And what if I’d been wrong? It isn’t
the kind of thing you accuse a woman of without . . . . I mean . . . ooh. . .
.” He raised his hands, half in pleading, half as if to defend himself. “I can make no
promises,” Perrin said, “but I’ll speak to her. Loial, why don’t you keep
Simion company till I’ve spoken to Moiraine?” “Of course,” the Ogier
boomed. Simion gave a start when Loial’s hand swallowed his shoulder. “He will
show me my room, and we will talk. Tell me, Simion, what do you know of trees?” “T‑t‑trees,
g‑good Ogier?” Perrin did not wait any
longer. He hurried back down the dark hall and knocked on Moiraine’s door,
barely waiting for her peremptory “Come!” before pushing in. Half a dozen candles
showed that the Leap’s best room was none too good, though the one bed had four
tall posts supporting a canopy, and the mattress looked less full of lumps than
Perrin’s. There was a scrap of carpet on the floor, and two cushioned chairs
instead of stools. Other than that, it looked no different from his room.
Moiraine and Lan stood in front of the cold hearth as if they had been
discussing something, and the Aes Sedai did not look pleased at being
interrupted. The Warder’s face was as imperturbable as a carving. “Rand’s been here, all
right,” Perrin started off. “That fellow Simion remembers him.” Moiraine hissed
through her teeth. “You were told to keep
your mouth shut,” Lan growled. Perrin squared his feet
to face the Warder. That was easier than facing Moiraine’s glare. “How could we
find out whether he had been here without asking questions? Tell me that. He
left last night, if you are interested, heading east. And he was carrying on
about somebody following him, trying to kill him.” “East.” Moiraine nodded.
The utter calm of her voice was at odds with her disapproving eyes. “That is
good to know, though it had to be so if he is going to Tear. But I was fairly
certain he had been here even before I heard about the Whitecloaks, and they
made it a certainty. Rand is almost surely right about one thing, Perrin. I
cannot believe we are the only ones trying to find him. And if they find out
about us, they may well try to stop us. We have enough to contend with trying
to catch up to Rand without that. You must learn to hold your tongue until I
tell you to speak.” “The Whitecloaks?”
Perrin said incredulously. Hold my
tongue? Burn me, if I will!
“How could they tell you ‑ ? Rand’s madness. It is catching?” “Not his madness,”
Moiraine said, “if he is far enough gone yet to be called mad. Perrin, he is
more strongly ta’veren than anyone
since the Age of Legends. Yesterday, in this village, the Pattern . . . moved,
shaped itself around him like clay shaped on a mold. The weddings, the
Whitecloaks, these were enough to say Rand had been here, for anyone who knew
to listen.” Perrin drew a long
breath. “And this is what we’ll find everywhere he’s been? Light, if there are
Shadowspawn after him, they can track him as easily as we can.” “Perhaps,” Moiraine
said. “Perhaps not. No one knows anything about ta’veren as strong as Rand.” For just a moment she sounded vexed at
not knowing. “Artur Hawkwing was the most strongly ta’veren of whom any writings remain. And Hawkwing was in no way as
strong as Rand.” “It is said,” Lan put
in, “that there were times when people in the same room with Hawkwing spoke
truth when they meant to lie, made decisions they had not even known they were
contemplating. Times when every toss of the dice, every turn of the cards, went
his way. But only times. “ “You mean you don’t
know,” Perrin said. “He could leave a trail of weddings and Whitecloaks gone
mad all the way to Tear.” “I mean I know as much
as there is to know,” Moiraine said sharply. Her dark‑eyed gaze chastised
Perrin like a whip. “The Pattern weaves finely around ta’veren, and others can follow the shape of those threads if they
know where to look. Be careful your tongue does not unravel more than you can
know.” In spite of himself
Perrin hunched his shoulders as if she were delivering real blows. “Well, you
had better be glad I opened my mouth this time. Simion knows you’re Aes Sedai.
He wants you to Heal his brother Noam of some sickness. If I hadn’t talked to
him, he would never have worked up nerve enough to ask, but he might have started
talking among his friends. “ Lan caught Moiraine’s
eye, and for a moment they stared at one another. The Warder had the air about
him of a wolf about to leap. Finally, Moiraine shook her head. “No,” she said. “As you wish. It is your
decision.” Lan sounded as if he thought she had made the wrong one, but the
tension left him. Perrin stared at them.
“You were thinking of . . . . Simion couldn’t tell anyone if he were dead,
could he?” “He will not die by my
actions,” Moiraine said. “But I cannot, and will not, promise that it will
always be so. We must find Rand, and I will not fail in that. Is that spoken
plainly enough for you?” Caught in her gaze, Perrin could make no answer. She
nodded as if his silence were answer enough. “Now take me to Simion. “ The door to Loial’s room
stood open, spilling a pool of candlelight into the hall. The two beds inside
had been pushed together, and Loial and Simion were seated on the edge of one.
The chinless man was staring up at Loial with his mouth open and an expression
of wonder on his face. “Oh, yes, the stedding are wonderful,” Loial was
saying. “There is such peace there, under the Great Trees. You humans may have
your wars and strife, but nothing ever troubles the stedding. We tend the trees and live in harmony . . . .” He trailed
off when he saw Moiraine, with Lan and Perrin behind her. Simion scrambled to his
feet, bowing and backing away until he came up against the far wall. “Uh . . .
good mistress .... Uh . . . uh. . .
.” Even then, he continued bobbing like a toy on a string. “Show me to your
brother,” Moiraine commanded, “and I will do what I can. Perrin, you will come,
too, since this good man spoke to you first.” Lan lifted an eyebrow, and she
shook her head. “If we all go, we might attract attention. Perrin can give me
what protection I need.” Lan nodded reluctantly,
then gave Perrin a hard look. “See that you do, blacksmith. If any harm befalls
her . . . .” His cold blue eyes finished the promise. Simion snatched one of
the candles and scurried into the hallway, still bowing so the candlelight made
their shadows dance. “This way ‑ uh - good mistress. This way.” Beyond the door at the
end of the hall, outside stairs led down to a cramped alleyway between inn and
stable. Night shrank the candle to a flickering pinpoint. The half moon was up
in a star‑flecked sky, giving more than enough light for Perrin’s eyes.
He wondered when Moiraine would tell Simion he did not have to keep bowing, but
she never did. The Aes Sedai glided along, clutching her skirts to keep them
out of the mud, as though the dark passage were a palace hall and she a queen.
The air was already cooling; nights still carried echoes of winter. “This way.” Simion led
them back to a small shed behind the stable and hurriedly unbarred the door.
“This way.” Simion pointed. “There, good mistress. There. My brother. Noam.” The far end of the shed
had been barred off with slats of wood; hastily, by the rough look of it. A
stout iron lock in a hasp held shut a crude door of wooden slats. Behind those
bars, a man lay sprawled on his stomach on the straw‑covered floor. He
was barefoot, his shirt and breeches ripped as if he had torn at them without
knowing how to take them off. There was an odor of unwashed flesh that Perrin
thought even Simion and Moiraine must smell. Noam lifted his head and
stared at them silently, without expression. There was nothing at all about him
to suggest he was Simion’s brother ‑ he had a chin, for one thing, and he
was a big man, with heavy shoulders ‑ but that was not what staggered
Perrin. Noam stared at them with burnished golden eyes. “He’d been talking crazy
almost a year, good mistress, saying he could . . . could talk with wolves. And
his eyes. . . .” Simion darted a glance at Perrin: “Well, he’d talk about it
when he’d drunk too much. Everybody laughed at him. Then a month or so ago, he
didn’t come to town. I went out to see what was the matter, and I found him ‑
like this.” Cautiously, unwillingly,
Perrin reached out toward Noam as he would have toward a wolf. Running through the woods with the cold wind
in his nose. Quick dash from cover, teeth snapping at hamstrings. Taste of
blood, rich on the tongue. Kill.
Perrin jerked back as he would have from a fire, sealed himself off. They were
not thoughts at all, really, just a chaotic jumble of desires and images, part
memory, part yearning. But there was more wolf there than anything else. He put
a hand to the wall to steady himself; his knees felt weak. Light help me! Moiraine put a hand on
the lock. “Master Harod has the
key, good mistress. I don’t know if he’ll - ” She gave a tug, and the lock sprang open.
Simion gaped at her. She lifted the lock free of the hasp, and the chinless man
turned to Perrin. “Is that safe, good
master? He’s my brother, but he bit Mother Roon when she tried to help, and he
. . . he killed a cow. With his teeth,” he finished faintly. “Moiraine,” Perrin said,
“the man is dangerous.” “All men are dangerous,”
she replied in a cool voice. “Now be quiet.” She opened the door and went in.
Perrin held his breath. At her first step,
Noam’s lips peeled back from his teeth, and he began to growl, a rumble that
deepened till his whole body quivered. Moiraine ignored it. Still growling,
Noam wriggled backwards in the straw as she came closer to him, until he had backed
himself into a corner. Or she had backed him. Slowly, calmly, the Aes
Sedai knelt and took his head between her hands. Noam’s growl heightened to a
snarl, then tailed off in a whimper before Perrin could move. For a long moment
Moiraine held Noam’s head, then just as calmly released it and rose.. Perrin’s
throat tightened as she turned her back on Noam and walked out of the cage, but
the man only stared after her. She pushed the slatted door to, slipped the lock
back through the hasp, not bothering to snap it shut‑and Noam hurled
himself snarling against the wooden bars. He bit at them, and battered them
with his shoulders, tried to force his head between them, all the while
snarling and snapping. Moiraine brushed straw
from her skirt with a steady hand and no expression. “You do take chances,”
Perrin breathed. She looked at him‑a steady, knowing gaze‑and he
dropped his eyes. His yellow eyes. Simion was staring at
his brother. “Can you help him, good mistress?” he asked hoarsely. “I am sorry, Simion,” she
said. “Can’t you do anything,
good mistress? Something? One of those - “ his voice fell to a whisper ‑
“Aes Sedai things?” “Healing is not a simple
matter, Simion, and it comes from within as much as from the Healer. There is
nothing here that remembers being Noam, nothing that remembers being a man.
There are no maps remaining to show him the path back, and nothing left to take
that path. Noam is gone, Simion.” “He ‑ he just used
to talk funny, good mistress, when he’d had too much to drink. He just. . . .”
Simion scrubbed a hand across his eyes and blinked. “Thank you, good mistress.
I know you’d have done something if you could. “ She put a hand on his
shoulder, murmured comforting words, and then she was gone from the shed. Perrin knew he should
follow her, but the man ‑ what bad once been a man ‑ snapping at
the wooden bars, held him. He took a quick step and surprised himself by
removing the dangling lock from the hasp. The lock was a good one, the work of
a master smith. “Good master?” Perrin stared at the
lock in his hand, at the man behind in the cage. Noam had stopped biting at the
slats; he stared back at Perrin warily, panting. Some of his teeth had broken
off jaggedly. “You can leave him in
here forever,” Perrin said, “but I ‑ I don’t think he’ll ever get any
better.” “If he gets out, good
master, he’ll die!” “He will die in here or
out there, Simion. Out there, at least he’ll be free, and as happy as he can
be. He is not your brother anymore, but you’re the one who has to decide. You
can leave him in here for people to stare at, leave him to stare at the bars of
his cage until he pines away. You cannot cage a wolf, Simion, not and expect it
to be happy. Or live long.” “Yes,” Simion said
slowly. “Yes, I see.” He hesitated, then nodded, and jerked his head toward the
shed door. That was all the answer
Perrin needed. He swung back the slatted door and stood aside. For a moment Noam stared
at the opening. Abruptly he darted out of the cage, running on all fours, but
with surprising agility. Out of the cage, out of the shed, and into the night. The Light help us both, Perrin thought. “I suppose it’s better
for him to be free.” Simion gave himself a shake. “But I don’t know what Master
Harod will say when he finds that door standing open and Noam gone.” Perrin shut the cage
door; the big lock made a sharp click as he refastened it. “Let him puzzle that
out.” Simion barked a quick
laugh, abruptly cut off. “He’ll make something out of it. They all will. Some
of them say Noam turned into a wolf - fur and all! ‑ when he bit Mother
Roon. It’s not true, but they say it.” Shivering, Perrin leaned
his head against the cage door. He may
not have fur, but he’s a wolf. He’s wolf, not man. Light, help me. “We didn’t keep him here
always,” Simion said suddenly. “He was at Mother Roon’s house, but she and I
got Master Harod to move him here after the Whitecloaks came. They always have
a list of names, Darkfriends they’re looking for. It was Noam’s eyes, you see.
One of the names the Whitecloaks had was a fellow named Perrin Aybara, a
blacksmith. They said he has yellow eyes, and runs with wolves. You can see why
I didn’t want them to know about Noam.” Perrin turned his head
enough to look at Simion over his shoulder. “Do you think this Perrin Aybara is
a Darkfriend?” “A Darkfriend wouldn’t
care if my brother died in a cage. I suppose she found you soon after it
happened. In time to help. I wish she’d come to Jarra a few months ago.” Perrin was ashamed that
he had ever compared the man to a frog. “And I wish she could have done
something for him.” Burn me, I wish she
could. Suddenly it burst on him that the whole village must know about
Noam. About his eyes. “Simion, would you bring me something to eat in my room?”
Master Harod and the rest might have been too taken with staring at Loial to
notice his eyes before, but they surely would if he ate in the common room. “Of course. And in the
morning, too. You don’t have to come down until you are ready to get on your
horse.” “You are a good man,
Simion. A good man.” Simion looked so pleased that Perrin felt ashamed all over
again. CHAPTER 9 Wolf Dreams Perrin returned to his
room by the back way, and after a time Simion came up with a covered tray. The
cloth did not hold in the smells of roasted mutton, sweetbeans, turnips, and
freshly baked bread, but Perrin lay on his bed, staring at the whitewashed
ceiling, until the aromas grew cold. Images of Noam ran through his head over
and over again. Noam chewing at the wooden slats. Noam running off into the darkness.
He tried to think of lock‑making, of the careful quenching and shaping of
the steel, but it did not work. Ignoring the tray, he
rose and made his way down the hall to Moiraine’s room. She answered his rap on
the door with, “Come in, Perrin.” For an instant all the
old stories about Aes Sedai stirred again, but he pushed them aside and opened
the door. Moiraine was alone ‑
for which he was grateful ‑ sitting with an ink bottle balanced on her
knee, writing in a small, leather‑bound book. She corked the bottle and
wiped the steel nib of her pen on a small scrap of parchment without looking at
him. There was a fire in the fireplace. “I have been expecting
you for some time,” she said. “I have not spoken about this before because it
was obvious you did not want me to. After tonight, though . . . . What do you
want to know?” “Is that what I can
expect?” he asked. “To end like that?” “Perhaps. “ He waited for more, but
she only put pen and ink away in their small case of polished rosewood and blew
on her writing to dry it. “Is that all? Moiraine, don’t give me slippery Aes
Sedai answers. If you know something, tell me. Please.” “I know very little,
Perrin. While searching for other answers among the books and manuscripts two
friends keep for their researches, I found a copied fragment of a book from the
Age of Legends. It spoke of . . . situations like yours. That may be the only
copy anywhere in the world, and it did not tell me much.” “What did it tell you? Anything at all is more
than I know now. Burn me, I’ve been worrying about Rand going mad, but I never
thought I had to worry about myself!” “Perrin, even in the Age
of Legends, they knew little of this. Whoever wrote it seemed uncertain whether
it was truth or legend. And I only saw a fragment, remember. She said that some
who talked to wolves lost themselves, that what was human was swallowed up by
wolf. Some. Whether she meant one in ten, or five, or nine, I do not know.” “I can shut them out. I
don’t know how I do it, but I can refuse to listen to them. I can refuse to
hear them. Will that help?” “It may.” She studied
him, seeming to choose her words carefully. “Mostly, she wrote of dreams.
Dreams can be dangerous for you, Perrin.’ “You said that once
before. What do you mean?” “According to her,
wolves live partly in this world, and partly in a world of dreams.” “A world of dreams?” he
said disbelievingly. Moiraine gave him a
sharp look. “That is what I said, and that is what she wrote. The way wolves
talk to one another, the way they talk to you, is in some way connected to this
world of dreams. I do not claim to understand how.” She paused, frowning
slightly. “From what I have read of Aes Sedai who had the Talent called
Dreaming, Dreamers sometimes spoke of encountering wolves in their dreams, even
wolves that acted as guides. I fear you must learn to be as careful sleeping as
waking, if you intend to avoid wolves. If that is what you decide to do.” “If that is what I
decide? Moiraine, I will not end up like Noam. I won’t!” She eyed him
quizzically, shaking her head slowly. “You speak as if you can make all your
own choices, Perrin. You are ta’veren, remember.” He turned his back on
her, staring at the night‑dark windows, but she continued: “Perhaps,
knowing what Rand is, knowing how strongly ta’veren
he is, I have paid too little attention to the other two ta’veren I found with him.
Three ta’veren in the same village,
all born within weeks of one another? That is unheard of. Perhaps you ‑
and Mat ‑ have larger purposes in the Pattern than you, or I, thought.” “I do not want any purpose in the Pattern,” Perrin
muttered. “I surely can’t have one if I forget I am a man. Will you help me,
Moiraine?” It was hard to say that. What
if it means her using the One Power? Would I rather forget I’m a man? “Help
me keep from ‑ losing myself?” “If I can keep you
whole, I will. I promise you that, Perrin. But I will not endanger the struggle
against the Shadow. You must know that, too.” When he turned to look
at her, she was regarding him unblinkingly. And if your struggle means putting me in my grave tomorrow, will you do
that, too? He was
icily sure that she would. “What have you not told me?” “Do not presume too far,
Perrin,” she said coldly. “Do not press me further than I think proper.” He hesitated before
asking the next question. “Can you do for me what you did for Lan? Can you
shield my dreams?” “I already have a
Warder, Perrin.” Her lips quirked almost into a smile. “And one is all I will
have. I am of the Blue Ajah, not the Green. “ “You know what I mean. I
don’t want to be a Warder. Light, bound to an Aes Sedai the rest of my life?
That’s as bad as the wolves. “It would not aid you, Perrin. The shielding is for dreams
from the outside. The danger in your dreams is within you.” She opened the
small book again. “You should sleep,” she said in dismissal. “Be wary of your
dreams, but you must sleep sometime.” She turned a page, and he left. Back in his own room, he
eased the hold he kept on himself, eased it just a trifle, let his senses
spread. The wolves were out there still, beyond the edges of the village,
ringing Jarra. Almost immediately he snapped back to rigid self‑control.
“What I need is a city,” he muttered. That would keep them at bay. After I find Rand. After I finish whatever
has to be finished with him. He was not sure how sorry he was that Moiraine
could not shield him. The One Power or the wolves; that was a choice no man
should have to make. He left the fire laid on
the hearthstone unlit, and threw open both windows. Cold night air rushed in.
Tossing blankets and comforter on the floor, he lay down fully clothed on the
lumpy bed, not bothering to try to find a comfortable position. His last
thought before sleep came was that if anything would keep him from deep sleep
and dangerous dreams, that mattress would. He was in a long
hallway, its high stone ceiling and walls glistening with damp and streaked by
odd shadows. They lay in contorted strips, stopping as abruptly as they began,
too dark for the light between them. He had no idea where the light came from. “No,” he said, then
louder, “No! This is a dream. I need to wake up. Wake up!” The hallway did not
change. Danger. It
was a wolfs thought, faint and distant. “I will wake up. I
will!” He pounded a fist against the wall. It hurt, but he did not wake. He
thought one of the sinuous shadows shifted away from his blow. Run, brother. Run. “Hopper?” he said
wonderingly. He was sure he knew the wolf whose thoughts he heard. Hopper, who
had envied the eagles. “Hopper is dead!” Run! Perrin lurched into a
run, one hand holding his axe to keep the haft from banging against his leg. He
had no idea where he was running, or why, but the urgency of Hopper’s sending
could not be ignored. Hopper’s dead, he
thought. He’s dead! But Perrin ran. Other hallways crossed
the one he ran along, at odd angles, sometimes descending, sometimes climbing.
None looked any different from the passage he was in, though. Damp stone walls
unbroken by doors, and strips of darkness. As he came on one of
those crossing halls, he skidded to a halt. A man stood there, blinking at him
uncertainly, in strangely cut coat and breeches, the coat flaring over his hips
as the bottoms of the breeches flared over his boots. Both were bright yellow,
and his boots were only a little paler. “This is more than I can
stand,” the man said, to himself, not Perrin. He had an odd accent, quick and
sharp. “Not only do I dream of peasants, now, but foreign peasants, from those
clothes. Begone from my dreams, fellow!” “Who are you?” Perrin
asked. The man’s eyebrows rose as if he were offended. The strips of shadow
around them writhed. One detached from the ceiling at one end and drifted down
to touch the strange man’s head. It appeared to tangle in his hair. The man’s
eyes widened, and everything seemed to happen at once. The shadow jerked back
to the ceiling, ten feet overhead, trailing something pale. Wet drops
splattered Perrin’s face. A bone‑rattling shriek shattered the air. Frozen, Perrin stared at
the bloody shape wearing the man’s clothes, screaming and thrashing on the
floor. Unbidden, his eyes rose to the pale thing like an empty sack that
dangled from the ceiling. Part of it was already absorbed by the black strip,
but he had no trouble recognizing a human skin, apparently whole and unbroken. The shadows around him
danced in agitation, and Perrin ran, pursued by dying screams. Ripples ran
along the shadow strips, pacing him. “Change, burn you!” he
shouted. “I know it’s a dream! Light burn you, change!” Colorful tapestries hung
along the walls between tall golden stands holding dozens of candles that
illuminated white floor tiles and a ceiling painted with fluffy clouds and
fanciful birds in flight. Nothing moved but the flickering candle flames along
the length of that hall, stretching as far as he could see, or in the pointed
arches of white stone that occasionally broke the walls. Danger. The
sending was even fainter than before. And more urgent, if that were possible. Axe in hand, Perrin
started warily down the hall, muttering to himself. “Wake up. Wake up, Perrin.
If you know it’s a dream, it changes or you wake up. Wake up, burn you!” The
hallway stayed as solid as any he had ever walked. He came abreast of the
first of the pointed white archways. It let into a huge room, apparently
windowless, but furnished as ornately as any palace, the furniture all carved
and gilded and inlaid with ivory. A woman stood in the middle of the room,
frowning at a tattered manuscript lying open on a table. A black‑haired,
black‑eyed, beautiful woman clothed in white and silver. Even as he recognized
her, she lifted her head and looked straight at him. Her eyes widened, in
shock, in anger. “You! What are you doing here? How did you ‑ ? You’ll
ruin things you could not begin to imagine!” Abruptly the space
seemed to flatten, as if he were suddenly staring at a picture of a room. The
flat image appeared to turn sideways, become only a bright vertical line down
the middle of blackness. The line flashed white, and was gone, leaving only the
dark, blacker than black. Just in front of Perrin’s boots, the floor tiles came to an
abrupt end. As he watched, the white edges dissolved into the black like sand
washed away by water. He stepped back hastily. Run. Perrin turned, and
Hopper was there, a big gray wolf, grizzled and scarred. “You are dead. I saw
you die. I felt you die!” A
sending flooded Perrin’s mind. Run now! You must not be here now.
Danger. Great danger. Worse than all the Neverborn. You must go. Go now! Now! “How?” Perrin shouted.
“I want to go, but how?” Go! Teeth
bared, Hopper leaped for Perrin’s throat. With a strangled cry,
Perrin sat up on the bed, hands going to his throat to hold in lifeblood. They
met unbroken skin. He swallowed with relief, but the next moment his fingers
touched a damp spot. Almost falling in his
haste, he scrambled off the bed, stumbled to the washstand and seized the
pitcher, splashed water everywhere as he filled the basin. The water turned
pink as he washed his face. Pink with the blood of that strangely dressed man. More dark spots dotted
his coat and breeches. He tore them off and tossed them into the furthest
corner. He meant to leave them there. Simion could burn them. A gust of wind whipped
in the open window. Shivering in shirt and smallclothes, he sat on the floor
and leaned back against the bed. This should be uncomfortable enough. Sourness tinged his thoughts, and
worry, and fear. And determination. I won’t give in to this. I won’t! He was still shivering
when sleep finally came, a shallow half sleep filled with vague awareness of
the room around him and thoughts of the cold. But the bad dreams that came were
better than some others. Rand huddled under the
trees in the night, watching the heavy‑shouldered black dog come nearer
his hiding place. His side ached, the wound Moiraine could not quite Heal, but
he ignored it. The moon gave barely enough light for him to make out the dog,
waisthigh, with its thick neck and massive head, and its teeth that seemed to
shine like wet silver in the night. It sniffed the air and trotted toward him. Closer, he thought.
Come closer. No warning for your master
this time. Closer. That’s it. The dog was only ten paces away, now, a deep growl rumbling in its chest
as it suddenly bounded forward. Straight at Rand. The Power filled him.
Something leaped from his outstretched hands; he was not sure what it was. A
bar of white light, solid as steel. Liquid fire. For an instant, in the middle
of that something, the dog seemed to become transparent, and then it was gone. The white light faded
except for the afterimage burned across Rand’s vision. He sagged against the
nearest tree trunk, the bark rough on his face. Relief and silent laughter
shook him. It worked. Light save me, it
worked this time. It had not always. There had been other dogs this night. The One Power pulsed in
him, and his stomach twisted with the Dark One’s taint on saidin, wanted to empty itself. Sweat beaded on his face despite
the cold night wind, and his mouth tasted full of sickness. He wanted to lie
down and die. He wanted Nynaeve to give him some of her medicines, or Moiraine
to Heal him, or . . . . Something, anything, to stop the sick feeling that was
suffocating him. But saidin flooded him with life, too, life and energy and awareness
larded through the illness. Life without saidin
was a pale copy. Anything else was a wan imitation. But they can find me if I hold on. Track me, find me. I have to reach
Tear. I’ll find out there. If I am the Dragon, there’ll be an end to it. And if
I am not. . . . If it’s all a lie, there will be an end to that, too. An end. Reluctantly, with
infinite slowness, he severed contact with saidin,
gave up its embrace as if giving up life’s breath. The night seemed drab.
The shadows lost their infinite sharp shadings and washed together. In the distance, to the
west, a dog howled, a shivering cry in the silent night. Rand’s head came up. He
peered in that direction as though he could see the dog if he tried hard
enough. A second dog answered
the first, then another, and two more together, all spread out somewhere west
of him. “Hunt me,” Rand snarled.
“Hunt me if you will. I’m no easy meat. No more!” Pushing himself away
from the tree, he waded a shallow, icy stream, then settled into a steady trot
eastward. Cold water filled his boots, and his side hurt, but he ignored both.
The night was quiet again behind him, but he ignored that, too. Hunt me. I can hunt, too. I am no easy meat. CHAPTER 10 Secrets Ignoring her companions
for a moment, Egwene al’Vere stood in her stirrups hoping for a glimpse of Tar
Valon in the distance, but all she could see was something indistinct, gleaming
white in the morning sunlight. It had to be the city on the island, though.
The lone, broken‑topped mountain called Dragonmount, rising out of the
rolling plain, had first appeared on the horizon late the afternoon before, and
that lay just this side of the River Erinin from Tar Valon. It was a landmark,
that mountain ‑ one jagged fang sticking up out of rolling flatlands ‑
easily seen for many miles, easy to avoid, as all did, even those who went to
Tar Valon. Dragonmount was where
Lews Therin Kinslayer had died, so it was said; and other words had been spoken
of the mountain, prophecy and warning. Rich reasons to stay away from its black
slopes. She had reason not to
stay away, and more than one. Only in Tar Valon could she find the training she
needed, the training she had to have. I will never be collared again! She pushed the thought away, but it
came back turned end about. I will
never lose my freedom again! In Tar Valon, Anaiya would resume testing her
dreams; the Aes Sedai would have to, though she had found no real evidence that
Egwene was a Dreamer, as Anaiya suspected. Egwene’s dreams had been troubling
since leaving Almoth Plain. Aside from dreams of the Seanchan ‑ and those
still made her wake sweating ‑ she dreamed more and more of Rand. Rand
running. Running toward something, but running away from something, too. She peered harder toward Tar Valon. Anaiya
would be there. And Galad, too, perhaps. She
blushed in spite of herself, and banished him from her mind entirely. Think about the weather. Think about
anything else. Light, but it feels warm. This early in the year, with winter only
yesterday’s memory, white still capped Dragonmount, but here below, the snows
were melted. Early shoots poked through the matted brown of last year’s
grasses, and where trees topped a low hill here and there, the first red of new
growth was showing. After a winter spent traveling, sometimes trapped in
village or camp for days by storms, sometimes covering less ground between
sunrise and sunset, with snowdrifts belly‑deep on the horses, than she
could have walked by noon in better weather, it was good to see signs of
spring. Sweeping her thick wool cloak back out of her
way, Egwene let herself drop down in the high‑cantled saddle, and
smoothed her skirts in a gesture of impatience. Her dark eyes filled with
distaste. She had worn the dress, divided for riding by her own skill with a
needle, for far too long, but the only other she had was even more grubby. And
the same color, the dark gray of the Leashed Ones. The choice all those weeks
ago, on beginning their ride to Tar Valon, had been dark gray or nothing. “I swear I will never wear gray again, Bela,”
she told her shaggy mount, patting the mare’s neck. Not that I’ll have much choice once we’re back in the
White Tower, she thought. In the Tower, all novices wore white. “Are you talking to yourself again?” Nynaeve
asked, pulling her bay gelding closer. The two women were of a height as well
as dressed alike, but the difference in their horses put the former Wisdom of
Emond’s Field a head taller. Nynaeve frowned now, and tugged at the thick braid
of dark hair hanging over her shoulder, the way she did when worried or
troubled, or sometimes when she was preparing to be particularly stubborn even
for her. A Great Serpent ring on her finger marked her as one of the Accepted,
not yet Aes Sedai, but a long step closer than Egwene. “Better you should be
keeping watch.” Egwene held her tongue on the retort that she
had been watching for Tar Valon. Did she
think I was standing in my stirrups because I do not like my saddle? Nynaeve
seemed to forget too often that she was not the Wisdom of Emond’s Field any
longer, and Egwene was no longer a child. But
she wears the ring and I do not ‑ yet! ‑ and for her, that means
nothing has changed! “Do you wonder how Moiraine is treating Lan?”
she asked sweetly, and had a moment of pleasure at the sharp jerk Nynaeve gave
her braid. The pleasure faded quickly, though. Wounding remarks did not come
naturally to her, and she knew Nynaeve’s emotions concerning the Warder were
like skeins of yarn after a kitten had gotten into the knitting basket. But Lan
was no kitten, and Nynaeve would have to do something about the man before his
stubborn‑stupid nobility made her mad enough to kill him. They were six altogether, all plainly dressed
enough not to stand out in the villages and small towns they had encountered,
yet perhaps as odd a party as had crossed the Caralain Grass anytime recently,
four of them women, and one of the men in a litter slung between two horses.
The litter horses carried light packs, as well, with supplies for the long
stretches between villages the way they had come. Six people, Egwene thought, and how many secrets? They all shared more than one, secrets that
would have to be kept, perhaps, even in the White Tower. Life was simpler back home. “Nynaeve, do you think Rand is all right? And
Perrin?” she added hastily. She could not afford to pretend any longer that one
day she would marry Rand; pretending would be all it was, now. She did not like
that ‑ she was not entirely reconciled to it ‑ but she knew it. “Your dreams? Have they been troubling you
again?” Nynaeve sounded concerned, but Egwene was in no mood to accept
sympathy. She made her voice sound as everyday as she
could manage. “From the rumors we heard, I can’t tell what might be going on.
They have everything I know about so twisted, so wrong.” “Everything has been wrong since Moiraine came
into our lives,” Nynaeve said brusquely. “Perrin and Rand . . . .” She
hesitated, grimacing. Egwene thought Nynaeve believed everything that Rand had
become was Moiraine’s doing. “They will have to take care of themselves for
now. I’m afraid we have something to worry about ourselves. Something is not
right. I can . . . feel it.” “Do you know what?” Egwene asked. “It feels almost like a storm.” Nynaeve’s dark
eyes studied the morning sky, clear and blue, with only a few scattered white
clouds, and she shook her head again. “Like a storm coming.” Nynaeve had always
been able to foretell the weather. Listening to the wind, it was called, and
the Wisdom of every village was expected to do it, though many really could
not. Yet since leaving Emond’s Field, Nynaeve’s ability had grown, or changed.
The storms she felt sometimes had to do with men rather than wind, now. Egwene bit her underlip, thinking. They could
not afford to be stopped or slowed, not after coming so far, not so close to
Tar Valon. For Mat’s sake, and for reasons that her mind. might tell her were
more important than the life of one village youth, one childhood friend, but
that her heart could not rate so high. She looked at the others, wondering if
any of them had noticed something. Verin Sedai, short and plump and all in shades
of brown, rode apparently lost in thought, the hood of her cloak pulled forward
till it all but hid her face, in the lead but letting her horse amble at its
own pace. She was of the Brown Ajah, and the Brown sisters usually cared more
for seeking out knowledge than for anything in the world around them. Egwene
was not so sure of Verin’s detachment, though. Verin had put herself hip‑deep
in the affairs of the world by being with them. Elayne, of an age with Egwene and also a
novice, but golden‑haired and blue‑eyed where Egwene was dark, rode
back beside the litter where Mat lay unconscious. In the same gray as Egwene
and Nynaeve, she was watching him with the worry they all felt. Mat had not
roused in three days, now. The lean, long‑haired man riding on the other
side of the litter seemed to be trying to look everywhere without anyone
noticing, and the lines of his face had deepened in concentration. “Hurin,” Egwene said, and Nynaeve nodded. They
slowed to let the litter catch up to them. Verin ambled on ahead. “Do you sense something, Hurin?” Nynaeve asked.
Elayne lifted her eyes, suddenly intent, from Mat’s litter. With the three of them looking at him, the lean
man shifted in his saddle and rubbed the side of his long nose. “Trouble,” he
said, curt and reluctant at the same time. “I think maybe . . . trouble. “ A thief‑taker for the King of Shienar, he
did not wear a Shienaran warrior’s topknot, yet the short sword and notched
sword‑breaker at his belt were worn with use. Years of experience seemed
to have given him some talent at sniffing out wrongdoers, especially those who
had done violence. Twice on the journey he had advised them to
leave a village after being there less than an hour. The first time, they had
all refused, saying they were too tired, but before the night was done the
innkeeper and two other men of the village had tried to murder them in their
beds. They were only simple thieves, not Darkfriends, just greedy for the
horses and whatever they had in their saddlebags and bundles. But the rest of
the village knew of it, and apparently considered strangers fair gleanings.
They had been forced to flee a mob waving axe handles and pitchforks. The
second time, Verin ordered them to ride on as soon as Hurin spoke. But the thief‑taker was always wary when
talking to any of his companions. Except Mat, back when Mat could talk; the two
of them had joked and played at dice, when the women were not too close at
hand. Egwene thought he might be uneasy at being alone, for all practical
purposes, with an Aes Sedai and three women in training for sisterhood. Some
men found facing a fight easier than facing Aes Sedai. “What kind of trouble?” Elayne said. She spoke easily, but with such a clear note of
expecting to be answered, immediately and in detail, that Hurin opened his
mouth. “I smell‑“ He cut himself short and blinked as if surprised, eyes
darting from one woman to another. “Just a feeling,” he said finally. “A . . .
a hunch. I’ve seen some tracks, yesterday, and today. A lot of horses. Twenty
or thirty going this way, twenty or thirty that. It makes me wonder. That’s
all. A feeling. But I say it’s trouble.” Tracks? Egwene had not noticed them. Nynaeve
said sharply, “I did not see anything worrisome in them.” Nynaeve prided
herself on being as good a tracker as any man. “They were days old. What makes
you think they are trouble?” “I just think they are,” Hurin said slowly, as
if he wanted to say more. He dropped his eyes, rubbing at his nose and inhaling
deeply. “It’s been a long time since we saw a village,” he muttered. “Who knows
what news from Falme has come before us? We might not find so good a welcome as
we expect. I’m thinking these men could be brigands, killers. We should be
wary, I’m thinking. If Mat was on his feet, I’d scout ahead, but maybe it’s
best I don’t leave you alone.” Nynaeve’s eyebrows lifted. “Do you believe we
cannot look after ourselves?” “The One Power won’t do you much good if
somebody kills you before you can use it,” Hurin said, addressing the tall
pommel of his saddle. “Begging your pardon, but I think I . . . . I’ll just
ride up with Verin Sedai for a time.” He dug in his heels and galloped forward
before any of them could speak again. “Now that is a surprise,” Elayne said as Hurin
slowed a little distance from the Brown sister. Verin did not seem to notice
him any more than she noticed anything else, and he appeared content to leave
it so. “He has been staying as far from Verin as he
could ever since we left Toman Head. He always looks at her as if he’s afraid
of what she might say.” “Respecting Aes Sedai doesn’t mean he is not
afraid of them,” Nynaeve said, then added, reluctantly, “Of us.” “If he thinks there might be
trouble, we ought to send him out scouting.” Egwene took a deep breath and gave
the other two women as level a look as she could manage. “If there is trouble,
we can defend ourselves better than he could with a hundred soldiers to help
him.” “He doesn’t know that,” Nynaeve said, flatly,
“and I am not about to tell him. Or anyone else.” “I can imagine what Verin would have to say
about it.” Elayne sounded anxious. “I wish I had some idea how much she does
know. Egwene, I don’t know if my mother could help me if the Amyrlin found out,
much less help the pair of you. Or even whether she would try.” Elayne’s mother
was Queen of Andor. “She was only able to learn a little of the Power before
she left the White Tower, for all she has lived as if she had been raised to
full sister.” “We cannot hope to rely on Morgase,” Nynaeve
said. “She is in Caemlyn, and we will be in Tar Valon. No, we may be in enough
trouble already for going off as we did, no matter what we’ve brought back. It
will be best if we stay low, behave humbly, and do nothing to attract more
attention than we already have.” Another time, Egwene would have laughed at the
idea of Nynaeve pretending to be humble. Even Elayne managed a better job of
it. But at present she did not feel like laughing. “And if Hurin is right? If
we are attacked? He cannot defend us against twenty or thirty men, and we might
be dead if we wait for Verin to do something. You said you sense a storm,
Nynaeve.” “You do?” Elayne said. Red‑gold curls
swung as she shook her head. “Verin will not like it if we . . . .” She trailed
off. “Whatever Verin likes or doesn’t like, we may have to.” “I will do what must be done,” Nynaeve said
sharply, “if there is anything to be done, and you two will run, if need be.
The White Tower may be all abuzz with your potential, but don’t think they will
not still you both if the Amyrlin Seat or the Hall of the Tower decides it is
necessary.” Elayne swallowed hard. “If they would still us
for it,” she said in a faint voice, “they would still you, too. We should all
run together; or act together. Hurin has been right before. If we want to live
to be in trouble in the Tower, we may have to . . . to do what we must.” Egwene shivered. Stilled. Cut off from saidar,
the female half of the True Source. Few Aes Sedai had ever incurred that
penalty, yet there were deeds for which the Tower demanded stilling. Novices
were required to learn the names of every Aes Sedai who had ever been stilled,
and their crimes. She could always feel the Source there, now,
just out of sight, like the sun at noon over her shoulder. If she often caught
nothing when she tried to touch saidar, she still wanted to touch it. The more
she touched it, the more she wanted to, all the time, no matter what Sheriam
Sedai, the Mistress of Novices, said about the dangers of growing too fond of
the feel of the One Power. To be cut off from it; still able to sense saidar,
but never to touch it again . . . . Neither of the others seemed to want to talk,
either. To cover her shaking, she bent from her saddle
to the gently swaying litter. Mat’s blankets had become disarrayed, exposing a
curved dagger in a golden sheath clutched in one hand, a ruby the size of a
pigeon’s egg capping the hilt. Careful not to touch the dagger, she eased the
blankets back over his hand. He was only a few years older than she, but gaunt
cheeks and sallow skin had aged him. His chest barely moved as he breathed
hoarsely. A lumpy leather sack lay at his feet. She shifted the blanket to
cover that, too. We have to get Mat to
the Tower, she thought. And the sack. Nynaeve leaned down as well, and felt Mat’s
forehead. “His fever is worse.” She sounded worried. “If only I had some
worrynot root or feverbane.” “Perhaps if Verin tried Healing again,” Elayne
said. Nynaeve shook her head. She smoothed Mat’s hair
back and sighed, then straightened before speaking. “She says it is all she can
do to keep him alive, now, and I believe her. I tried Healing last night
myself, but nothing happened.” Elayne gasped. “Sheriam Sedai says we mustn’t
try to Heal until we’ve been guided step by step a hundred times.” “You could have killed him,” Egwene said
sharply. Nynaeve sniffed loudly. “I was Healing before I
ever thought of going to Tar Valon, even if I didn’t know I was. But it seems I
need my medicines to make it work for me. If I only had some feverbane. I do
not think he has much time left. Hours, maybe.” Egwene thought she sounded almost as unhappy
about knowing, about how she knew, as she did about Mat. She wondered again why
Nynaeve had chosen to go to Tar Valon for training at all. She had learned to
channel unknowingly, even if she could not always control the act, and had
passed the crisis that killed three out of four women who learned without Aes
Sedai guidance. Nynaeve said she wanted to learn more, but often she was as
reluctant about it as a child being dosed with sheepstongue root. “We will have him in the White Tower soon,”
Egwene said. “They can Heal him there. The Amyrlin will take care of him. She
will take care of everything.” She did not look at where Mat’s blanket covered
the sack at his feet. The other two women were studiously not looking at it,
either. There were some secrets they would all be relieved to shed. “Riders,” Nynaeve said suddenly, but Egwene had
already seen them. Two dozen men appearing over a low rise ahead, white cloaks
flapping as they galloped, angling toward them. “Children of the Light,” Elayne said, like a
curse. “I think we have found your storm, and Hurin’s trouble.” Verin had pulled up, a hand on Hurin’s arm to
stop him drawing his sword. Egwene touched the lead litter horse to stop it
just behind the plump Aes Sedai. “Let me do all the talking, children,” the Aes
Sedai said placidly, pushing her cowl back to reveal gray in her hair. Egwene
was not sure how old Verin was; she thought old enough to be a grandmother, but
the gray streaks were the Aes Sedai’s only signs of age. “And whatever you do,
do not allow them to make you angry.” Verin’s face was as calm as her voice, but
Egwene thought she saw the Aes Sedai measuring the distance to Tat Valon. The
tops of the towers were visible now, and a high bridge arching over the river
to the island, tall enough for the trading ships that plied the river to sail
beneath. Close enough to see, Egwene thought, but too far to do any good. For a moment she was sure the oncoming
Whitecloaks meant to charge them, but their leader raised a hand and they
abruptly drew rein a scant forty paces off, scattering dust and dirt ahead of
them. Nynaeve muttered angrily under her breath, and Elayne sat
straight and full of pride, appearing likely to berate the Whitecloaks for ill
manners. Hurin still had a grip on his sword hilt; he looked ready to put
himself between the women and the Whitecloaks no matter what Verin said. Verin
mildly waved a hand in front of her face to dispel the dust. The white‑cloaked
riders spread out in an arc, blocking the way firmly. Their breastplates and conical helmets shone
from polishing, and even the mail on their arms gleamed brightly. Each man had
the flaring, golden sun on his breast. Some fitted arrows to bows, which they
did not raise, but held ready. Their leader was a young man, yet he wore two
golden knots of rank beneath the sunburst on his cloak. “Two Tar Valon witches, unless I miss my guess,
yes?” he said with a tight smile that pinched his narrow face. Arrogance
brightened his eyes, as if he knew some truth others were too stupid to see.
“And two nits, and a pair of lapdogs, one sick and one old.” Hurin bristled,
but Verin’s hand restrained him. “Where do you come from?” the Whitecloak demanded. “We come from the west,” Verin said placidly.
“Move out of our way, and let us continue. The Children of the Light have no
authority here.” “The Children have authority wherever the Light
is, witch, and where the Light is not, we bring it. Answer my questions! Or
must I take you to our camp and let the Questioners ask?” Mat could not afford any more delay in reaching
help in the White Tower. And more importantly ‑ Egwene winced to think of
it that way ‑ more importantly, they could not let the contents of that
sack fall into Whitecloak hands. “I have answered you,” Verin said, still calm,
“and more politely than you deserve. Do you really believe you can stop us?”
Some of the Whitecloaks raised their bows as if she had uttered a threat, but
she went on, her voice never rising. “In some lands you may hold sway by your
threats, but not here, in sight of Tar Valon. Can you truly believe that in
this place, you will be allowed to carry off Aes Sedai?” The officer shifted uneasily in his saddle, as
though suddenly doubting whether he could back up his words. Then he glanced
back at his men ‑ either to remind himself of their support or because he
had remembered they were watching ‑ and with that he took himself in
hand. “I have no fear of your Darkfriend ways, witch. Answer me, or answer the
Questioners.” He did not sound as forceful as he had. Verin opened her mouth as if for idle
conversation, but before she could speak, Elayne jumped in, voice ringing with
command. “I am Elayne, Daughter‑Heir of Andor. If you do not move aside
at once, you will have Queen Morgase to answer to, Whitecloak!” Verin hissed
with vexation. The Whitecloak looked taken aback for an
instant, but then he laughed. “You think it so, yes? Perhaps you will discover
Morgase no longer has so much love for witches, girl. If I take you from them
and return you to her side, she will thank me for it. Lord Captain Eamon Valda
would like very much to speak to you, Daughter‑Heir of Andor.” He raised
a hand, whether to gesture or signal his men, Egwene could not say. Some of the
Whitecloaks gathered their reins. There’s no more time
to wait, Egwene
thought. I will not be chained
again! She opened herself to the One Power. It was a simple exercise, and
after long practice, it went much more swiftly than the first time she had
tried. In a heartbeat her mind emptied of everything, everything but a single
rosebud, floating in emptiness. She was the rosebud, opening to the light,
opening to saidar, the female half of
the True Source. The Power flooded her, threatening to sweep her away. It was
like being filled with light, with the Light, like being one with the Light, a
glorious ecstasy. She fought to keep from being overwhelmed, and focused on the
ground in front of the Whitecloak officer’s horse. A small patch of ground; she
did not want to kill anyone. You will not take me! The man’s hand was still going up. With a roar the ground in
front of him erupted in a narrow fountain of dirt and rocks higher than his
head. Screaming, his horse reared, and he rolled out of his saddle like a sack. Before he hit the ground, Egwene shifted her
focus closer to the other Whitecloaks, and the ground threw up another small
explosion. Bela danced sideways, but she controlled the mare with reins and
knees without even thinking of it. Wrapped inside emptiness, she was still
surprised at a third eruption, not of her making, and a fourth. Distantly, she
was aware of Nynaeve and Elayne, both enveloped in the glow that said they,
too, had embraced saidar, had been
embraced by it. That aura would not be visible to any but another woman who
could channel, but the results were visible to all. Explosions harried the
Whitecloaks on every side, showering them with dirt, shaking them with noise,
sending their horses plunging wildly. Hurin stared around him, mouth open and obviously
as frightened as the Whitecloaks, as he tried to keep the litter horses and his
own mount from bolting. Verin was wide‑eyed with astonishment and anger.
Her mouth worked furiously, but whatever she might be saying was lost in the
thunder. And then the Whitecloaks were running away,
some dropping their bows in panic, galloping as if the Dark One himself were at
their backs. All but the young officer, who was picking himself up off the
ground. Shoulders hunched, he stared at Verin, the whites of his eyes showing
all the way ‘round. Dust stained his fine white cloak, and his face, but he did
not seem to notice. “Kill me, then, witch,” he said shakily. “Go ahead. Kill
me, as you killed my father!” The Aes Sedai ignored him. Her attention was
all on her companions. As if they, too, had forgotten their officer, the
fleeing Whitecloaks vanished over the same rise where they had first appeared,
all in a body and none looking back. The officer’s horse ran with them. Under Verin’s furious gaze, Egwene let go of saidar, slowly, unwillingly.
It was always hard, letting go. Even more slowly, the glow around Nynaeve
vanished. Nynaeve was frowning hard at the pinch‑faced Whitecloak before
them, as if he might still be capable of some sort of trickery. Elayne looked
shocked by what she had done. “What you have done,” Verin began, then stopped
to take a deep breath. Her stare took in all three of the younger women. “What
you have done is an abomination. An abomination! An Aes Sedai does not use the
Power as a weapon except against Shadowspawn, or in the last extreme to defend
her life. The Three Oaths ‑ “ “They were ready to kill us,” Nynaeve broke in
heatedly. “Kill us, or carry us off to be tortured. He was giving the order.” “It . . . it was not really using the Power as a weapon,
Verin Sedai.” Elayne held her chin high, but her voice shook. “We did not hurt
anyone, or even try to hurt anyone. Surely ‑ “ “Do not split hairs with me!” Verin snapped.
“When you become full Aes Sedai ‑ if you ever become full Aes Sedai! ‑
you will be bound to obey the Three Oaths, but even novices are expected to do
their best to live as if already bound.” “What about him?” Nynaeve gestured to the
Whitecloak officer, still standing there and looking stunned. Her face was as
tight as a drum; she seemed almost as angry as the Aes Sedai. “He was about to
take us prisoner. Mat will die if he doesn’t reach the Tower soon, and . . .
and. . . .” Egwene knew what Nynaeve was struggling not to
say aloud. And we can’t let that sack fall
into any hands but the Amyrlin’s. Verin regarded the Whitecloak wearily. “He was
only trying to bully us, child. He knew very well he could not make us go where
we did not want, not without more trouble than he was willing to accept. Not
here, not in sight of Tar Valon. I could have talked us past him, with a little
time and a little patience. Oh, he might well have tried to kill us if he could
have done it from hiding, but no Whitecloak with the brains of a goat will try
harming an Aes Sedai who knows he is there. See what you have done! What
stories will those men tell, and what harm will it do?” The officer’s face had reddened when she
mentioned hiding. “It is no cowardice not to charge the powers that Broke the
World,” he burst out. “You witches want to Break the World again, in the
service of the Dark One!” Verin shook her head in tired disbelief. Egwene wished she could mend some of the damage
she had done. “I am very sorry for what I did,” she told the officer. She was
glad she was not bound to speak no word that was not true, as full Aes Sedai
were, because what she had said was only half true at best. “I should not have,
and I apologize. I am sure Verin Sedai will Heal your bruises.” He stepped back
as if she had offered to have him skinned alive, and Verin sniffed loudly. “We
have come a long way,” Egwene went on, “all the way from Toman Head, and if I
weren’t so tired, I would never have ‑ “ “Be quiet, girl!” Verin shouted at the same
time the Whitecloak snarled, “Tornan Head? Falme! You were at Falme!” He stumbled
back another step and half drew his sword. From the look on his face, Egwene
did not know whether he meant to attack, or to defend himself. Hurin moved his
horse closer to the Whitecloak, a hand on his swordbreaker, but the narrow‑faced
man went on in a rant, spittle flying with his fury. “My father died at Falme!
Byar told me! You witches killed him for your false Dragon! I’ll see you dead
for it! I will see you burn!” “Impetuous children,” Verin sighed. “Almost as
bad as boys for letting your mouths run away with you. Go with the Light, my
son,” she told the Whitecloak. Without another word, she guided them around
the man, but his shouts followed after. “My name is Dain Bornhald! Remember it,
Darkfriends! I will make you fear my name! Remember my name!” As Bornhald’s shouts faded behind them, they
rode in silence for a time. Finally, Egwene said to no one in particular, “I
was only trying to make things better.” “Better!” Verin muttered. “You must learn there
is a time to speak all of the truth, and a time to govern your tongue. The
least of the lessons you must learn, but important, if you mean to live long
enough to wear the shawl of a full sister. Did it never occur to you that word
of Falme might have come ahead of us?” “Why should it have occurred to her?” Nynaeve
asked. “No one we’ve met before this had heard more than rumors, if that, and
we have outrun even rumor in the last month.” “And all word has to come along the same roads
we used?” Verin replied. “We have moved slowly. Rumor takes wing along a
hundred paths. Always plan for the worst, child; that way, all your surprises
will be pleasant ones.” “What did he mean about my mother?” Elayne said
suddenly. “He must have been lying. She would never turn against Tar Valon.” “The Queens of Andor have always been friends
to Tar Valon, but all things change.” Verin’s face was calm again, yet there
was a tightness in her voice. She turned in her saddle to look over them, the
three young women, Hurin, Mat in the litter. “The world is strange, and all things
change.” They capped the ridge; a village was in sight ahead of them now,
yellow tile roofs clustered around the great bridge that led to Tar Valon. “Now
you must truly be on your guard,” Verin told them. “Now the real danger
begins.” CHAPTER 11 Tar Valon The small village of Dairein had lain beside the River
Erinin almost as long as Tar Valon had occupied its island. Dairein’s small,
red and brown brick houses and shops, its stone‑paved streets, gave a
feel of permanence, but the village had been burned in the Trolloc Wars, sacked
when Artur Hawkwing’s armies besieged Tar Valon, looted more than once during
the War of the Hundred Years, and put to the torch again in the Aiel War, not
quite twenty years before. An unquiet history for a little village, but
Dairein’s place, at the foot of one of the bridges leading out to Tar Valon,
ensured it would always be rebuilt, however many times it was destroyed. So
long as Tar Valon stood, at least. At first it seemed to Egwene that Dairein was
expecting war again. A square of pikemen marched along the streets, ranks and
files bristling like a carding comb, followed by bowmen in flat, rimmed
helmets, with filled quivers riding at their hips and bows slanted across their
chests. A squadron of armored horsemen, faces hidden behind the steel bars of
their helmets, gave way to Verin and her party at a wave of their officer’s
gauntleted hand. All wore the White Flame of Tar Valon, like a snowy teardrop,
on their breasts. Yet townspeople went about their business with
apparent unconcern, the market throng dividing around the soldiers as if
marching men were obstructions they were long used to. A few men and women
carrying trays of fruit kept pace with the soldiers, trying to interest them in
wrinkled apples and pears pulled from winter cellars, but aside from those few,
shopkeepers and hawkers alike paid the soldiers no mind. Verin seemingly
ignored them, too, as she led Egwene and the others through the village to the
great bridge, arching over half a mile or more of water like lace woven from
stone. At the foot of the bridge more soldiers stood
guard, a dozen pikemen and half that many archers, checking everyone who wanted
to cross. Their officer, a balding man with his helmet hanging on his sword
hilt, looked harassed by the waiting line of people afoot and on horseback,
people with carts drawn by oxen or horses or the owner. The line was only a
hundred paces long, but every time one was let onto the bridge, another joined
the far end. Just the same, the balding man seemed to be taking his time about
making sure each one had a right to enter Tar Valon before he let them go. He opened his mouth angrily when Verin led her
party to the head of the line, then caught a good look at her face and
hurriedly stuffed his helmet onto his head. No one who really knew them needed
a Great Serpent ring to identify Aes Sedai. “Good morrow to you, Aes Sedai,” he
said, bowing with a hand to his heart. “Good morrow. Go right across, if it
please you.” Verin reined in beside him. A murmur rose from
the waiting line, but no one voiced a complaint aloud. “Trouble from the
Whitecloaks, guardsman?” Why are use stopping? Egwene wondered urgently.
“Has she forgotten about Mat?” “Not really, Aes Sedai,” the officer said. “No
fighting. They tried to move into Eldone Market, the other side of the river,
but we showed them better. The Amyrlin means to make sure they don’t try
again.” “Verin Sedai,” Egwene began carefully, “Mat ‑
“ “In a moment, child,” the Aes Sedai said,
sounding only halfway absent‑minded. “I have not forgotten him.” Her
attention went right back to the officer. “And the outlying villages?” The man shrugged uncomfortably. “We can’t keep
the Whitecloaks out, Aes Sedai, but they move off when our patrols ride in.
They seem to be trying to goad us.” Verin nodded, and would have ridden on, but
the officer spoke again. “Pardon, Aes Sedai, but you’ve obviously come from a
distance. Have you any news? Fresh rumors come upriver with every trading vessel.
They say there’s a new false Dragon out west somewhere. Why, they even say he
has Artur Hawkwing’s armies, back from the dead, following him, and that he
killed a lot of Whitecloaks and destroyed a city ‑ Falme, they call it ‑
in Tarabon, some say.” “They say Aes Sedai helped him!” a man’s voice
shouted from the waiting line. Hurin breathed deeply, and shifted himself as if
he expected violence. Egwene looked ‘round, but there was no sign of
whoever had shouted. Everyone appeared to be concerned only with waiting,
patiently or impatiently, for their turn to cross. Things had changed, and not
for the better. When she had left Tar Valon, any man who spoke against Aes
Sedai would have been lucky to escape with a punch in the nose from whoever
overheard. Red in the face, the officer was glaring down the line. “Rumors are seldom true,” Verin told him. “I
can tell you that Falme still stands. It isn’t even in Tarabon, guardsman.
Listen less to rumor, and more to the Amyrlin Seat. The Light shine on you.”
She lifted her reins, and he bowed as she led the others past him. The bridge struck Egwene with wonder, as the
bridges of Tar Valon always did. The openwork walls looked intricate enough to
tax the best craftswoman at her lace‑frame. It hardly seemed that such
could have been done with stone, or that it could stand even its own weight.
The river rolled, strong and steady, fifty paces or more below, and for all
that half mile the bridge flowed unsupported from riverbank to island. Even more wondrous, in its own way, was the
feeling that the bridge was taking her home. More wondrous, and shocking. Emond’s Field is my home. But it
was in Tar Valon that she would learn what she must to keep her alive, to keep
her free. It was in Tar Valon that she would learn ‑ must learn ‑
why her dreams disturbed her so, and why they sometimes seemed to have meanings
she could not puzzle out. Tar Valon was where her life was tied, now. If she
ever returned to Emond’s Field ‑ the ‘if’ hurt, but she had to be honest ‑
if she returned, it would be to visit, to see her parents. She had already gone
beyond being an innkeeper’s daughter. Those bonds would not hold her again,
either, not because she hated them, but because she had outgrown them. The bridge was only the beginning. It arched straight to the
walls that surrounded the island, high walls of gleaming white, silver‑streaked
stone, whose tops looked down on the bridge’s height. At intervals, guard
towers interrupted the walls, of the same white stone, their massive footings
washed by the river. But above the walls and beyond rose the true towers of Tar
Valon, the towers of story, pointed spires and flutes and spirals, some
connected by airy bridges a good hundred paces or more above the ground. And
still only the beginning. There were no guards on the bronze‑clad
gates, and they stood wide enough for twenty abreast to ride through, opening
onto one of the broad avenues that crisscrossed the island. Spring might barely
have come, but the air already smelled of flowers and perfumes and spices. The city took Egwene’s breath as if she had
never seen it before. Every square and street crossing had its fountain, or its
monument or statue, some atop great columns as high as towers, but it was the
city itself that dazzled the eye. What was plain in form might have so many
ornaments and carvings that it seemed an ornament itself, or, lacking
decoration, used its form alone for grandeur. Great buildings and small, in
stone of every color, looking like shells, or waves, or wind‑sculpted
cliffs, flowing and fanciful, captured from nature or the flights of men’s
minds. The dwellings, the inns, the very stables ‑ even the most
insignificant buildings in Tar Valon had been made for beauty. Ogier
stonemasons had built most of the city in the long years after the Breaking of
the World, and they maintained it had been their finest work. Men and women of every nation thronged the
streets. They were dark of skin, and pale, and everything in between, their
garments in bright colors and patterns, or drab, but decked with fringes and
braids and shining buttons, or stark and severe; showing more skin than Egwene
thought proper, or revealing nothing but eyes and fingertips. Sedan chairs and
litters wove through the crowds, the trotting bearers crying “Give way!” Closed
carriages inched along, liveried coachmen shouting “Hiya!” and “Ho!” as if they
believed they might achieve more than a walk. Street musicians played flute or
harp or pipes, sometimes accompanying a juggler or an acrobat, always with a
cap set out for coins. Wandering hawkers cried their wares, and shopkeepers
standing in front of their shops shouted the excellence of their goods. A hum
filled the city like the song of a thing alive. Verin had pulled her cowl back up, hiding her
face. No one seemed to be paying them any mind in these crowds, Egwene thought.
Not even Mat in his horse litter drew a second glance, though some folk did
edge away from it as they hurried past. People sometimes brought their sick to
the White Tower for Healing, and whatever he had might be catching. Egwene rode up beside Verin and leaned close.
“Do you really expect trouble now? We are in the city. We are almost there.”
The White Tower stood in plain sight now, the great building gleaming broad and
tall above the rooftops “I always expect trouble,” Verin replied
placidly, “and so should you. In the Tower most of all. You must all of you be
more careful than ever, now. Your . . . tricks” ‑ her mouth tightened for
an instant before serenity returned ‑ “frightened away the Whitecloaks,
but inside the Tower they may well bring you death or stilling.” “I would not do that in the Tower,” Egwene
protested. “None of us would.” Nynaeve and Elayne had joined them, leaving
Hurin to mind the litter horses. They nodded, Elayne fervently, and Nynaeve, it
seemed to Egwene, as if she had reservations. “You should not do it ever again, child. You
must not! Ever!” Verin eyed them sideways ‘round the edge of her cowl, and
shook her head. “And I truly hope you have learned the folly of speaking when
you should be silent.” Elayne’s face went crimson, and Egwene’s cheeks grew
hot. “Once we enter the Tower grounds, hold your tongues and accept whatever
happens. Whatever happens! You know nothing of what awaits us in the Tower, and
if you did, you would not know how to handle it. So be silent. “ “I will do as you say, Verin Sedai,” Egwene
said, and Elayne echoed her. Nynaeve sniffed. The Aes Sedai stared at her, and
she nodded reluctantly. The street opened into a vast square, centered
in the city, and in the middle of the square stood the White Tower, shining in
the sun, rising until it seemed to touch the sky from a palace of domes and
delicate spires and other shapes surrounded by the Tower grounds. There were
surprisingly few people in the square. No one intruded on the Tower unless they
had business there, Egwene reminded herself uneasily. Hurin led the horse litter forward as they
entered the square. “Verin Sedai, I must leave you now.” He eyed the Tower
once, then managed not to look at it again, though it was hard to look at
anything else. Hurin came from a land where Aes Sedai were respected, but it
was one thing to respect them and quite another to be surrounded by them. “You have been a great help on our journey,
Hurin,” Verin told him, “and a long journey it has been. There will be a place
in the Tower for you to rest before you travel on.” Hurin shook his head emphatically. “I cannot
waste a day, Verin Sedai. Not another hour. I must return to Shienar, to tell
King Easar, and Lord Agelmar, the truth of what happened at Falme. I must tell
them about ‑ “ He cut off abruptly and looked around. There was no one
close enough to overhear, but he still lowered his voice and said only, “About
Rand. That the Dragon is Reborn. There must be trading ships heading upriver,
and I mean to be on the next to sail.” “Go in the Light, then, Hurin of Shienar,”
Verin said. “The Light illumine all of you,” he replied,
gathering his reins. Yet he hesitated a moment, then added, “If you need me -
ever ‑ send word to Fal Dara, and I’ll find a way to come.” Clearing his
throat as if embarrassed, he turned his horse and trotted away, heading beyond
the Tower. All too soon he was lost to sight. Nynaeve gave an exasperated shake of her head.
“Men! They always say to send for them if you need them, but when you do need
one, you need him right then.” “No man can help where we are going now,” Verin
said dryly. “Remember. Be silent.” Egwene felt a sense of loss with Hurin’s going.
He would barely talk to any of them, except Mat, and Verin was right. He was
only a man, and helpless as a babe when it came to facing whatever might await
them in the Tower. Yet his leaving made their number one less, and she could
never help thinking that a man with a sword was useful to have around. And he
had been a link to Rand, and Perrin. I have my own troubles to worry about. Rand and Perrin would have to
make do with Moiraine to look after them. And
Min will certainly look after Rand, she thought with a flash of jealousy
that she tried to suppress. She almost succeeded. With a sigh, she took up the lead of the horse
litter. Mat lay bundled to his chin, his breathing was a dry rasp. Soon, she thought. You’ll be Healed soon, now. And we’ll find out what’s
waiting for us. She wished Verin would stop trying to frighten them. She
wished she did not think Verin had reason to frighten them. Verin took them around the Tower grounds to a
small side gate that stood open, with two guards. Pausing, the Aes Sedai pushed
back her cowl and leaned from her saddle to speak softly to one of the men. He
gave a start, and a surprised look at Egwene and the others. With a quick, “As
you command, Aes Sedai,” he took off into the grounds at a run. Verin was
already riding through the gates as he spoke. She rode as if there were no
hurry. Egwene followed with the litter, exchanging
glances with Nynaeve and Elayne, wondering what Verin had told the man. A gray stone guardhouse stood just inside the
gate, shaped like a six pointed star lying on its side. A small knot of guards
lounged in the doorway; the left off talking and bowed as Verin rode past. This part of the Tower grounds could have been
some lord’s park, with trees and pruned shrubs and wide graveled paths. Other
buildings were visible through the trees, and the Tower itself loomed over
everything. The path led them to a stableyard among the
trees, where grooms in leather vests came running to take their horses. At the
Aes Sedai’s direction, some of the grooms unfastened the litter and set it
gently off to one side. As the horses were led away into the stable, Verin took
the leather sack from Mat’s feet and tucked it carelessly under one arm. Nynaeve paused in knuckling her back and
frowned at the Aes Sedai. “You said he has hours, perhaps. Are you just going
to ‑ “ Verin held up a hand, but whether it was the
gesture that stopped Nynaeve or the crunch of feet approaching on gravel,
Egwene could not say. In a moment Sheriam Sedai appeared, followed by
three of the Accepted, their white dresses ringed at the hem with the colors of
all seven Ajahs from Blue to Red, and two husky men in rough, laborer’s coats.
The Mistress of Novices was a slightly plump woman, with the high cheekbones
that were common in Saldaea. Flame‑red hair and clear, tilted green eyes
made her smooth Aes Sedai features striking. She eyed Egwene and the others
calmly, but her mouth was tight. “So you have brought back our three runaways,
Verin. With everything that happened, I could almost wish you had not.” “We did not ‑ “ Egwene began, but Verin
cut her off with a sharp, “BE SILENT!” Verin stared at her ‑ at each of
the three of them ‑ as if the intensity of her look could hold their
mouths shut. Egwene was sure that, for her part, it could.
She had never seen Verin angry before. Nynaeve crossed her arms beneath her
breasts and muttered under her breath, but she said nothing. The three Accepted
behind Sheriam kept their silence, of course, but Egwene thought she could see
their ears grow from listening. When she was certain Egwene and the others
would remain still, Verin turned back to Sheriam. “The boy must be taken
somewhere away from everyone. He is ill, dangerously so. Dangerous to others as
well as to himself. “ “I was told you had a litter to be carried.”
Sheriam motioned the two men to the litter, spoke a quiet word to one, and as
quickly as that Mat was whisked away. Egwene opened her mouth to say he needed help
now, but at Verin’s stare, quick and furious, she closed it again. Nynaeve was
tugging her braid nearly hard enough to pull it out of her head. “I suppose,” Verin said, “that the whole Tower
knows we have returned by now?” “Those who do not know,” Sheriam told her,
“will know before much longer. Comings and goings have become the first topic
of conversation and gossip. Even before Falme, and far ahead of the war in
Cairhien. Did you think to keep it secret?” Verin gathered the leather sack in both arms.
“I must see the Amyrlin. Immediately. “ “And what of these three?” Verin considered Egwene and her friends,
frowning. “They must be closely held until the Amyrlin wishes to see them. If
she does wish to. Closely held, mind. Their own rooms will do, I think. No need
for cells. Not a word to anyone.” Verin was still speaking to Sheriam, but Egwene
knew the last had been meant as a reminder to her and the others. Nynaeve’s
brows were drawn down, and she jerked at her braid as if she wanted to hit
something. Elayne’s blue eyes were open wide, and her face was even paler than
usual. Egwene was not sure which feelings she shared, anger or fear or worry. Some
of all three, she thought. With a last, searching glance at her three
traveling companions, Verin hurried off, clutching the sack to her chest, cloak
flapping behind her. Sheriam put her fists on her hips and studied Egwene and
the other two. For a moment Egwene felt a lessening of tension. The Mistress of
Novices always kept a steady temper and a sympathetic sense of humor even when
she was giving you extra chores for breaking the rules. But Sheriam’s voice was grim when she spoke.
“Not a word, Verin Sedai said, and not a word shall it be. If one of you speaks
‑ except to answer an Aes Sedai, of course ‑ I’ll make you wish you
had nothing but a switching and a few hours scrubbing floors to worry about. Do
you understand me?” “Yes, Aes Sedai,” Egwene said, and heard the
other two say the same, although Nynaeve pronounced the words like a challenge. Sheriam made a disgusted sound in her throat,
almost a growl. “Fewer girls now come to the Tower to be trained than once did,
but they still come. Most leave never having learned to sense the True Source,
much less touch it. A few learn enough not to harm themselves before they go. A bare handful can aspire to be raised to the Accepted, and
fewer still to wear the shawl. It is a hard life, a hard discipline, yet every
novice fights to hold on, to attain the ring and the shawl. Even when they are
so afraid they cry themselves to sleep every night, they struggle to hold on.
And you three, who have more ability born in you than I ever hoped to see in my
lifetime, left the Tower without permission, ran away not even half‑trained,
like irresponsible children, stayed away for months. And now you ride back in
as if nothing has happened, as if you can take up your training again on the
morrow.” She let out a long breath as if she might explode otherwise.
“Faolain!” The three Accepted jumped as if they had been
caught eavesdropping, and one, a dark, curly‑haired woman, stepped
forward. They were all young women, but still older than Nynaeve. Nynaeve’s
rapid Acceptance had been extraordinary. In the normal course of things, it
took years as a novice to earn the Great Serpent rings they wore, and would
take years more before they could hope to be raised to full Aes Sedai. “Take them to their rooms,” Sheriam commanded,
“and keep them there. They may have bread, cold broth, and water until the
Amyrlin Seat says otherwise. And if one of them speaks even a word, you may
take her to the kitchens and set her to scrubbing pots.” She whirled and
stalked away, even her back expressing anger. Faolain eyed Egwene and the others with almost
a hopeful air, especially Nynaeve, who wore a glower like a mask. Faolain’s
round face held no love for those who broke the rules so extravagantly, and
less for one like Nynaeve, a wilder who had earned her ring without ever being
a novice, who had channeled power before she ever entered Tar Valon. When it
became obvious that Nynaeve meant to keep her anger to herself, Faolain
shrugged. “When the Amyrlin sends for you, you’ll probably be stilled.” “Give over, Faolain,” another of the Accepted
said. The oldest of the three, she had a willowy neck and coppery skin, and a
graceful way of moving. “I will take you,” she told Nynaeve. “I am called
Theodrin, and I, too, am a wilder. I will hold you to Sheriam Sedai’s order,
but I will not bait you. Come.” Nynaeve gave Egwene and Elayne a worried look,
then sighed and let Theodrin lead her away. “Wilders,” Faolain muttered. On her tongue, it
sounded like a curse. She turned her stare to Egwene. The third Accepted, a pretty, apple‑cheeked
young woman, stationed herself beside Elayne. Her mouth was turned up at the
corners as if she liked to smile, but the stern look she gave Elayne said she
would brook no nonsense now. Egwene returned Faolain’s stare with as much
calm as she could manage, and, she hoped, a measure of the haughty, silent
contempt that Elayne had adopted. Red
Ajah, she thought. This one
will definitely choose the Reds. But it was hard not to think of her own
troubles. Light, what are they going to
do to us? She meant the Aes Sedai, the Tower, not these women. “Well, come along,” Faolain snapped. “It’s bad
enough I have to stand guard on your door without standing here all day. Come
along.” Taking a deep breath, Egwene
gripped Elayne’s hand and followed. Light, let them be Healing Mat. CHAPTER 12 The Amyrlin Seat Siuan Sanche paced the
length of her study, pausing now and again to glance, with a blue-eyed gaze
that had made rulers stammer, at a carved nightwood box on a long table
centered in the room. She hoped she would not have to use any of the carefully
drawn documents within it. They had been prepared and sealed in secret, by her
own hand, to cover a dozen possible eventualities. She had laid a warding on the
box so that if any hand but hers opened it, the contents would flash to ash in
an instant; very likely the box itself would burst into flame. “And burn the thieving
fisher‑bird, whoever she might be, so she never forgets it, I hope,” she
muttered. For the hundredth time since being told that Verin had returned, she
readjusted her stole on her shoulders without realizing what she was doing. It
hung below her waist, broad and striped with the colors of the seven Ajahs. The
Amyrlin Seat was of all Ajahs and of none, no matter from which she had been
raised. The room was ornate, for
it had belonged to generations of women who had worn the stole. The tall
fireplace and broad, cold hearth were all carved golden marble from Kandor, and
the diamond‑shaped floor tiles, polished redstone from the Mountains of
Mist. The walls were panels of some pale striped wood, hard as iron and carved
in fantastic beasts and birds of unbelievable plumage, panels brought from the
lands beyond the Aiel Waste by the Sea Folk before Artur Hawkwing was born.
Tall, arched windows, open now to let in the new, green smells, let onto a
balcony overlooking her small private garden, where she seldom had time to
walk. All that grandeur was in
stark contrast to the furnishings Siuan Sanche had brought to the room. The one
table and the stout chair behind it were plain, if well polished with age and
beeswax, as was the only other chair in the room. That stood off to one side,
close enough to be drawn up if she wished a visitor to sit. A small Tairen rug
lay in front of the table, woven in simple patterns of blue and brown and gold.
A single drawing, tiny fishing boats among reeds, hung above the fireplace.
Half a dozen stands held open books about the floor. That was all. Even the
lamps would not have been out of place in a farmer’s house. Siuan Sanche had been
born poor in Tear, and had worked on her father’s fishing boat, one just like
the boats in the drawing, in the delta called the Fingers of the Dragon, before
ever she dreamed of coming to Tar Valon. Even the nearly ten years since she
had been raised to the Seat had not made her comfortable with too much luxury.
Her bedchamber was more simple still. Ten years with the stole, she thought. Nearly twenty since I
decided to sail there dangerous waters. And if I slip now, I’ll wish I were
back hauling nets. She spun at a sound.
Another Aes Sedai had slipped into the room, a copper‑skinned woman with
dark hair cut short. She caught herself in time to keep her voice steady and
say only what was expected. “Yes, Leane?” The Keeper of the
Chronicles bowed, just as deeply as she would had others been present. The tall
Aes Sedai, as tall as most men, was second only to the Amyrlin in the White
Tower, and though Siuan had known her since they were novices together,
sometimes Leane’s insistence on upholding the dignity of the Amyrlin Seat was
enough to make Siuan want to scream. “Verin is here, Mother,
asking leave to speak with you. I have told her you are busy, but she asks ‑
“ “Not too busy to speak
to her,” Siuan said. Too quickly, she knew, but she did not care. “Send her in.
There’s no need for you to remain, Leane. I will speak to her alone.” A twitch of her eyebrows
was the Keeper’s only sign of surprise. The Amyrlin seldom saw anyone, even a
queen, without the Keeper present. But the Amyrlin was the Amyrlin. Leane bowed
her way out, and in moments Verin took her place, kneeling to kiss the Great
Serpent ring on Siuan’s finger. The Brown sister had a good‑sized leather
sack under her arm. “Thank you for seeing
me, Mother,” Verin said as she straightened. “I have urgent news from Falme.
And more. I scarcely know where to begin.” “Begin where you will,”
Siuan said. “These rooms are warded, in case anyone thinks to use childhood
tricks of eavesdropping.” Verin’s eyebrows lifted in surprise, and the Amyrlin
added, “Much has changed since you left. Speak.” “Most importantly, then,
Rand al’Thor has proclaimed himself the Dragon Reborn.” Siuan felt a tightness
loosen in her chest. “I hoped it was he,” she said softly. “I have had reports
from women who could only tell what they had heard, and rumors by the score
come with every trader’s boat and merchant’s wagon, but I could not be sure.”
She took a deep breath. “Yet I think I can name the day it happened. Did you know
the two false Dragons no longer trouble the world?” “I had not heard,
Mother. That is good news.” “Yes. Mazrim Taim is in
the hands of our sisters in Saldaea, and the poor fellow in Haddon Mirk, the
Light have pity on his soul, was taken by the Tairens and executed on the spot.
No one even seems to know what his name was. Both were taken on the same day
and, according to rumor, under the same circumstances. They were in battle, and
winning, when suddenly a great light flashed in the sky, and a vision appeared,
just for an instant. There are a dozen different versions of what it was, but
in both cases the result was exactly the same. The false Dragon’s horse reared
up and threw him. He was knocked unconscious, and his followers cried out that
he was dead, and fled the field, and he was taken. Some of my reports speak of
visions in the sky at Falme. I’ll wager a gold mark to a week‑old delta
perch that was the instant Rand al’Thor proclaimed himself.” “The true Dragon has
been Reborn,” Verin said almost to herself, “and so the Pattern has no room for
false Dragons anymore. We have loosed the Dragon Reborn on the world. The Light
have mercy on us.” The Amyrlin shook her
head irritably. “We have done what must be done.” And if even the newest novice learns of it, I will be stilled before
the next sunrise, if I’m not torn to pieces fiat. Me, and Moiraine, and Verin,
and likely anyone thought to be a friend of ours, as well. It was not easy
to carry on so great a conspiracy when only three women knew of it, when even a
close friend would betray them and consider it a duty well done. Light, but I wish I could be sure they would
not be right to do it. “At least he is safely in Moiraine’s hands. She will
guide him, and do what must be done. What else have you to tell me, Daughter?” For answer, Verin placed
the leather sack on the table and took out a curled, gold horn, with silver
script inlaid around its flaring bell mouth. She laid the horn on the table,
then looked to the Amyrlin with quiet expectation. Siuan did not have to be
close enough to read the script to know what it said. Tia mi aven Moridin irainde vadin. “The grave is no bar to my
call.” “The Horn of Valere?” she gasped. “You brought chat all the way here,
across hundreds of leagues, with the Hunters looking everywhere for it? Light,
woman, it was to be left with Rand al’Thor.” “I know, Mother,” Verin
said calmly, “but the Hunters all expect to find the Horn in some great
adventure, not in a sack with four women escorting a sick youth. And it would
do Rand no good.” “What do you mean? He is
to fight Tarmon Gai’don. The Horn is to summon dead heroes from the grave to
fight in the Last Battle. Has Moiraine once again made some new plan without
consulting me?” “This is none of
Moiraine’s doing, Mother. We plan, but the Wheel weaves the Pattern as it
wills. Rand was not first to sound the Horn. Matrim Cauthon did that. And Mat
now lies below, dying of his ties to the Shadar Logoth dagger. Unless he can be
Healed here.” Siuan shivered. Shadar
Logoth, that dead city so tainted that even Trollocs feared to enter, and with
reason. By chance, a dagger from that place had come into young Mat’s hands,
twisting and tainting him with the evil that had killed the city long ago.
Killing him. By chance? Or by the
Pattern? He is ta’veren, too, after
all. But . . . Mat sounded the
Horn. Then “So long as Mat lives,” Verin went on, “the Horn of Valere is no
more than a horn to anyone else. If he dies, of course, another can sound it
and forge a new link between man and Horn.” Her gaze was steady and untroubled
by what she seemed to be suggesting. “Many will die before we
are done, Daughter.” And who else could I
use to sound it again? I’ll not take the risk of trying to return it to Moiraine, now. One of the Gaidin, perhaps.
Perhaps. “The Pattern has yet to make his fate clear. “ “Yes, Mother. And the
Horn?” “For the moment,” the
Amyrlin said finally, “we will find some place to hide this where no one but we
two know. I will consider what to do after that.” Verin nodded. “As you say,
Mother. Of course, a few hours will make one decision for you.” “Is that all you have
for me?” Siuan snapped. “If it is, I have those three runaways to deal with.” “There is the matter of
the Seanchan, Mother.” “What of them? All my
reports say they have fled back across the ocean, of to wherever they came
from.” “It seems so, Mother. But I fear we may have to deal with
them again.” Verin pulled a small leather notebook from behind her belt and
began leafing through it. “They spoke of themselves as the Forerunners, or
Those Who Come Before, and talked of the Return, and of reclaiming this land as
theirs. I’ve taken notes on everything I heard of them. Only from those who
actually saw them, of course, or had dealings with them.” “Verin, you are worrying
about a lionfish out in the Sea of Storms, while here and now the silverpike
are chewing our nets to shreds.” The Brown sister
continued turning pages. “An apt metaphor, Mother, the lionfish. Once I saw a
large shark that a lionfish had chased into the shallows, where it died.” She
tapped one page with a finger. “Yes. This is the worst. Mother, the Seanchan
use the One Power in battle. They use it as a weapon.” Siuan clasped her hands
tightly at her waist. The reports the pigeons had brought spoke of that, too.
Most had only secondhand knowledge, but a few women wrote of seeing for
themselves. The Power used as a weapon. Even dry ink on paper carried an edge
of hysteria when they wrote of that. “That is already causing us trouble,
Verin, and will cause more as the stories spread, and grow with the spreading.
But I can do nothing about that. I am told these people are gone, Daughter. Do
you have any evidence otherwise?” “Well, no, Mother, but ‑
“ “Until you do, let us
deal with getting the silverpike out of our nets before they start chewing
holes in the boat, too.” With reluctance, Verin
closed the notebook and tucked it back behind her belt. “As you say, Mother. If
I might ask, what do you intend to do to Nynaeve and the other two girls?” The Amyrlin hesitated,
considering. “Before I am done with them, they will wish they could go down to
the river and sell themselves for fishbait.” It was the simple truth, but it
could be taken in more than one way. “Now. Seat yourself, and tell me
everything those three have said and done in the time they were with you.
Everything.” CHAPTER 13 Punishments Lying on her narrow bed,
Egwene frowned up at the flickering shadows cast on the ceiling by her single
lamp. She wished she could form some plan of action, or reason out what to
expect next. Nothing came. The shadows had more pattern than her thoughts. She
could hardly even make herself worry about Mat, yet the shame she felt at that
was small, crushed by the walls around her. It was a stark,
windowless room, like all those in the novices’ quarters, small and square and
painted white, with pegs on one wall for hanging her belongings, the bed built
against a second, and a tiny shelf on a third, where in other days she had kept
a few books borrowed from the Tower library. A washstand and a three‑legged
stool completed the furnishings. The floorboards were almost white from
scrubbing. She had done that task, on hands and knees, every day she had lived
there, in addition to her other chores and lessons. Novices lived simply,
whether they were innkeepers’ daughters or the Daughter‑Heir of Andor. She wore the plain white
dress of a novice again ‑ even her belt and pouch were white - but she
felt no joy at having rid herself of the hated gray. Her room had become too
much of a prison cell. What if they
mean to keep me here. In this room.
Like a cell. Like a collar and . . . . She glanced at the door ‑
the dark Accepted would still be standing guard on the other side, she knew ‑
and rolled close to the white plastered wall. Just above the mattress was a
small hole, almost invisible unless you knew where to look, drilled through
into the next room by novices long ago. Egwene kept her voice to a whisper. “Elayne?” There was no
answer. “Elayne? Are you asleep?” “How could I sleep?”
came Elayne’s reply, a reedy whisper through the hole. “I thought we might be
in some trouble, but I did not expect this. Egwene, what are they going to do
to us?” Egwene had no answer,
and her guesses were not of the sort she wanted to voice aloud. She did not
even want to think of them. “I actually thought we might be heroes, Elayne. We
brought back the Horn of Valere safely. We discovered Liandrin is Black Ajah.”
Her voice skipped on that. Aes Sedai had always denied the existence of a Black
Ajah, an Ajah that served the Dark One, and were known to become angry with
anyone who even suggested it was real. But
we know it’s real. “We should be heroes, Elayne. “ “ ‘Should and would
build no bridges,’ “ Elayne said. “Light, I used to hate it when Mother said
that to me, but it’s true. Verin said we mustn’t speak of the Horn, or
Liandrin, to anyone but her or the Amyrlin Seat. I do not think any of this
will work out the way we thought. It is not fair. We’ve been through so much;
you’ve been through so much. It just is not fair.” “Verin says. Moiraine
says. I know why people think Aes Sedai are puppetmasters. I can almost feel
the strings on my arms and legs. Whatever they do, it will be what they decide
is good for the White Tower, not what is good or fair for us.” “But you still want to
be Aes Sedai. Don’t you?” Egwene hesitated, but
there was never any real question as to her answer. “Yes,” she said. “I still
do. It is the only way we will ever be safe. But I will tell you this. I’ll not
let myself be stilled.” That was a new thought, voiced as soon as it came to
her, but she realized she did not want to take it back. Give up touching the True Source? She could sense it there, even
now, the glow just over her shoulder, the shining just out of sight. She
resisted the desire to reach out to it. Give
up being filled with the One Power, feeling more alive than I ever have before?
I won’t! “Not without a fight.” There was a long silence
from the other side of the wall. “How could you stop it? You may be as strong
as any of them, now, but neither one of us knows enough yet to stop even one
Aes Sedai from shielding us from the Source, and there are dozens of them
here.” Egwene considered.
Finally she said, “I could run away. Really run away, this time.” “They would come after
us, Egwene. I’m sure they would. Once you show any ability at all, they don’t
let you go until you’ve learned enough not to kill yourself. Or just die from
it.” “I am not a simple village girl anymore. I have seen something
of the world. I can keep out of Aes Sedai hands if I want to.” She was trying
to convince herself as much as Elayne. And
what if I don’t know enough, yet? Enough about the world, enough about the
Power? What if just channeling can still kill me? She refused to think of
that. So much I have to learn yet.
I won’t let them stop me. “My mother might protect
us,” Elayne said, “if what that Whitecloak said is true. I never thought I
would hope something like that was the truth. But if it isn’t, Mother is just as
likely to send us both back in chains. Will you teach me how to live in a
village?” Egwene blinked at the
wall. “You will come with me? If it comes to that, I mean?” There was another long
silence, then a faint whisper. “I do not want to be stilled, Egwene. I will not
be. I will not be!” The door swung open,
crashing against the wall, and Egwene sat up with a start. She heard the bang
of a door from the other side of the wall. Faolain stepped into Egwene’s room,
smiling as her eyes went to the tiny hole. Similar holes joined most of the
novice rooms; any woman who had been a novice knew of them. “Whispering with your
friend, eh?” the curly‑haired Accepted said with surprising warmth.
“Well, it grows lonely, waiting by yourself. Did you have a nice chat?” Egwene opened her mouth,
then closed it again hastily. She could answer Aes Sedai, Sheriam had said. No
one else. She regarded the Accepted with a level expression and waited. The false sympathy slid
off Faolain’s face like water running off a roof. “On your feet. The Amyrlin’s
not to be kept waiting by the likes of you. You are lucky I did not come in in
time to hear you. Move!” Novices were supposed to
obey the Accepted almost as quickly as they obeyed Aes Sedai, but Egwene got to
her feet slowly, and took as much time as she dared in smoothing her dress. She
gave Faolain a small curtsy and a tiny smile. The scowl that rolled across the
Accepted’s face made Egwene’s smile grow before she remembered to rein it in;
there was no point in pushing Faolain too far. Holding herself straight,
pretending her knees were not shaking, she preceded the Accepted out of the
room. Elayne was already
waiting outside with the apple‑cheeked Accepted, looking fiercely
determined to be brave. Somehow, she managed to give the impression that the
Accepted was a handmaid carrying her gloves. Egwene hoped that she herself was
doing half so well. The railed galleries of
the novices’ quarters rose tier on tier above, in a hollow column, and fell as
many below, to the Novices’ Court. There were no other women in sight. Even if
every novice in the Tower had been there, though, less than a quarter of the
rooms would have been filled. The four of them walked ‘round the empty
galleries and down the spiraling ramps in silence; none could bear to have the
sounds of voices emphasize the emptiness. Egwene had never before
been into the part of the Tower where the Amyrlin had her rooms. The corridors
there were wide enough for a wagon to pass down easily, and taller than they
were wide. Colorful tapestries hung on the walls, tapestries in a dozen styles,
of floral designs and forest scenes, of heroic deeds and intricate patterns,
some so old they looked as if they might break if handled. Their shoes made
loud clicks on diamond-shaped floor tiles that repeated the colors of the
seven Ajahs. There were few other
women in evidence ‑ an Aes Sedai now and then, sweeping majestically
along with no time to notice Accepted or novices; five or six Accepted hurrying
self‑importantly about their tasks or studies; a sprinkling of serving
women with trays, or mops, or armfuls of sheets or towels; a few novices moving
on errands even more quickly than the servants. Nynaeve and her slim‑necked
escort, Theodrin, joined them. Neither spoke. Nynaeve wore an Accepted’s dress,
now, white with the seven colored bands at the hem, but her belt and pouch were
her own. She gave Egwene and Elayne each a reassuring smile and a hug ‑
Egwene was so relieved to see another friendly face that she returned the hug
with barely a thought that Nynaeve was behaving as if she were comforting
children ‑ but as they walked on, Nynaeve gave her thick braid a sharp
tug from time to time, too. Very few men came into
that part of the Tower, and Egwene saw only two: Warders walking side by side
in conversation, one with his sword on his hip, the other with his on his back.
One was short and slender, even slight, the other almost as wide as he was
tall, yet both moved with a dangerous grace. The color‑shifting Warder
cloaks made them queasy‑making to watch for long, parts of them sometimes
seeming to fade into the walls bond. She saw Nynaeve looking at them, and shook
her head. She has to do something about
Lan. If any of us can do anything about anyone after today. The antechamber of the
Amyrlin Seat’s study was grand enough for any palace, though the chairs
scattered about for those who might wait were plain, but Egwene had eyes only
for Leane Sedai. The Keeper wore her narrow stole of office, blue to show she
had been raised from the Blue Ajah, and her face could have been carved from
smooth, brownish stone. There was no one else there. “Did they give any
trouble?” The Keeper’s clipped way of talking gave no hint now of either anger
or sympathy. “No, Aes Sedai,”
Theodrin and the apple‑cheeked Accepted said together. “This one had to be
pulled by the scruff of her neck, Aes Sedai,” Faolain said, indicating Egwene.
The Accepted sounded indignant. “She balks as if she has forgotten what the
discipline of the White Tower is.” “To lead,” Leane said,
“is neither to push nor to pull. Go to Marris Sedai, Faolain, and ask her to
allow you to contemplate on this while raking the paths in the Spring Garden.”
She dismissed Faolain and the other two Accepted, and they dropped deep
curtsies. From the depth of hers, Faolain shot a furious look at Egwene. The Keeper paid no
attention to the Accepted’s leaving. Instead, she studied the remaining women,
tapping a forefinger against her lips, till Egwene had the feeling they had all
been measured to the inch and weighed to the ounce. Nynaeve’s eyes took on a
dangerous sparkle, and she had a tight grip on her braid. Finally Leane raised a
hand toward the doors to the Amyrlin’s study. The Great Serpent bit its own
tail, a pace across, on the dark wood of each. “Enter,” she said. Nynaeve stepped forward
promptly and opened one of the doors. That was enough to get Egwene moving.
Elayne held her hand tightly, and she gripped Elayne’s just as hard. Leane
followed them in and took a place to one side, .halfway between the three of
them and the table in the center of the room. The Amyrlin Seat sat
behind the table, examining papers. She did not look up. Once Nynaeve opened
her mouth, but closed it again, at a sharp look from the Keeper. The three of
them stood in a line in front of the Amyrlin’s table and waited. Egwene tried
not to fidget. Long minutes went by ‑ it seemed like hours ‑ before
the Amyrlin raised her head, but when those blue eyes fixed them each in turn,
Egwene decided she could have waited longer. The Amyrlin’s gaze was like two
icicles boring into her heart. The room was cool, but a trickle of sweat began
to run down her back. “So!” the Amyrlin said
finally. “Our runaways return.” “We did not run away,
Mother.” Nynaeve was obviously straining for calm, but her voice shook with
emotion. Anger, Egwene knew. That strong will was all too often accompanied by
anger. “Liandrin told us we were to go with her, and ‑ “ The loud crack
of the Amyrlin’s hand slapping the table cut her off. “Do not invoke
Liandrin’s name here, child!” the Amyrlin snapped. Leane watched them with a
stern serenity. “Mother, Liandrin is
Black Ajah,” Elayne burst out. “That is known, child.
Suspected, at least, and as good as known. Liandrin left the Tower some months
ago, and twelve other ‑ women - went with her. None has been seen since.
Before they left, they tried to break into the storeroom where the angreal and
sa’angreal are kept, and did manage to enter that where the smaller ter’angreal
are stored. They stole a number of those, including several we do not know the
use of.” Nynaeve stared at the
Amyrlin in horror, and Elayne suddenly rubbed her arms as if she were cold.
Egwene knew she was shivering, too. Many times she had imagined returning to
confront Liandrin and accuse her, to see her condemned to some punishment ‑
except that she had never managed to imagine any punishment strong enough to
suit that doll-faced Aes Sedai’s crimes. She had even pictured returning to
find Liandrin already fled ‑ in terror of her return, it was usually. But
she had never imagined anything like this. If Liandrin and the others ‑
she had not really wanted to believe there were others ‑ had stolen those
remnants of the Age of Legends, there was no telling what they could do with
them. Thank the Light they did not get
any sa’angreal, she thought. The other was bad enough. Sa’angreal were like
angreal, allowing an Aes Sedai to channel more of the Power than she safely
could unaided, but far more powerful than angreal, and rare. Ter’angreal were something different.
Existing in greater numbers than either angreal or sa’angreal, though still not
common, they used the One Power rather than helping to channel it, and no one
truly understood them. Many would work only for someone who could channel,
needing the actual channeling of the Power, while others did what they did for
anyone. Where all the angreal and sa’angreal Egwene had ever heard of were
small, ter’angreal could seemingly be any size. Each had apparently been made
for a specific purpose by those Aes Sedai of three thousand years ago, to do a
certain thing, and Aes Sedai since had died trying to learn what; died, or had
the ability to channel burned out of them. There were sisters of the Brown Ajah
who had made ter’angreal their life’s study. Some were in use, if
likely not for the purposes they had been made. The stout white rod that the
Accepted held while taking the Three Oaths on being raised to Aes Sedai was a
ter’angreal, binding them to the oaths as surely as if they had been bred in
the bone. Another ter’angreal was the site of the final test before a novice
was raised to the Accepted. There were others, including many no one could make
work at all, and many others that seemed to have no practical use. Why did they take things no one knows how to use? Egwene wondered. Or maybe the Black Ajah does know.
That possibility made her stomach churn. That might be as bad as sa’angreal
in Darkfriend hands. “Theft,” the Amyrlin
went on in tones as cold as her eyes, “was the least of what they did. Three
sisters died that night, as well as two Warders, seven guards, and nine of the
servants. Murder, done to hide their thieving and their flight. It may not be
proof they were ‑ Black Ajah” ‑ the words grated from her mouth ‑
“but few believe otherwise. Nor do I, in truth. When there are fish heads and
blood in the water, you don’t need to see the silverpike to know they are
there.” “Then why are we being
treated as criminals?” Nynaeve demanded. “We were tricked by a woman of the ‑
of the Black Ajah. That should be enough to clear us of any wrongdoing.” The Amyrlin barked a
mirthless laugh. “You think so, do you, child? It may be your salvation that no
one in the Tower but Verin, Leane, and I even suspects you had anything to do
with Liandrin. If that were known, much less the little demonstration you put
on for the Whitecloaks ‑ no need to look so surprised; Verin told me
everything ‑ if it were known you had gone off with Liandrin, the Hall
might very well vote for stilling the three of you before you could take a breath.” “That is not fair!”
Nynaeve said. Leane stirred, but Nynaeve went on. “It is not right! It ‑
!” The Amyrlin stood up.
That was all, but it cut Nynaeve short. Egwene thought she was
wise to keep quiet. She had always believed Nynaeve was as strong, as strong‑willed,
as anyone could be. Until she met the woman wearing the striped stole. Please keep your temper, Nynaeve. We might
as well be children ‑ babes facing our mother, and this Mother can do far
worse than beat us. It seemed to her a way
out was being offered in what the Amyrlin had said, but she was not sure what
way. “Mother, forgive me for speaking, but what do you intend to do to us?” “Do to you, child? I
intend to punish you and Elayne for leaving the Tower without permission, and
Nynaeve for leaving the city without permission. First, you will each be called
to Sheriam Sedai’s study, where I’ve told her to switch you till you wish you
had a cushion to sit on for the next week. I have already had this announced to
the novices and the Accepted. “ Egwene blinked in
surprise. Elayne gave an audible grunt, stiffened her back, and muttered
something under her breath. Nynaeve was the only one who seemed to take it
without shock. Punishment, whether extra labors or something else, was always
between the Mistress of Novices and whoever was called to her. Those were
usually novices, but included the Accepted who stepped far enough beyond the
bounds. Sheriam always keeps it between you and her, Egwene
thought bleakly. She can’t have told everyone. But better than being
imprisoned. Better than being stilled. “The announcement is
part of the punishment, of course,” the Amyrlin went on, as if she had read
Egwene’s mind. “I have also had it announced that you are all three assigned to
the kitchens, to work with the scullions, until further notice. And I have let
it be whispered about that ‘further notice’ might just mean the rest of your
natural lives. Do I hear objections to any of this?” “No, Mother,” Egwene
said quickly. Nynaeve would hate scrubbing pots even more than the other. It could be worse, Nynaeve. Light, it could
be so much worse. Nynaeve’s nostrils had flared, but she gave her head a
tight shake. “And you, Elayne?” the
Amyrlin said. “The Daughter‑Heir of Andor is used to gentler treatment.” “I want to be Aes Sedai,
Mother,” Elayne said in a firm voice. The Amyrlin fingered a
paper in front of her on the table and seemed to study it for a moment. When
she raised her head, her smile was not at all pleasant. “If any of you had been
silly enough to answer otherwise, I had something to add to your tally that
would have had you cursing your mother for ever letting your father steal that
first kiss. Letting yourselves be winkled out of the Tower like thoughtless
children. Even an infant would never have fallen into that trap. I will teach
you to think befog you act, or else I’ll use you to chink cracks in the water
gates!” Egwene found herself
offering silent thanks. A prickle ran over her skin as the Amyrlin continued. “Now, as to what else I
intend to do with you. It seems you have all increased your ability to channel
remarkably since you left the Tower. You have learned much. Including some
things,” she added sharply, “that I intend to see you unlearn!” Nynaeve surprised Egwene
by saying, “I know we have done . . . things . . . we should not have, Mother.
I assure you, we will do our best to live as if we had taken the Three Oaths.” The Amyrlin grunted.
“See that you do,” she said dryly. “If I could, I’d put the Oath Rod in your
hands tonight, but as that is reserved for being raised to Aes Sedai, I must
trust to your good sense ‑ if you have any ‑ to keep you whole. As
it is, you, Egwene, and you, Elayne, are to be raised to the Accepted.” Elayne gasped, and
Egwene stammered a shocked, “Thank you, Mother.” Leane shifted where she stood.
Egwene did not think the Keeper looked best pleased. Not surprised‑she
had obviously known it was coming‑but not pleased, either. “Do not thank me. Your
abilities have gone too far for you to remain novices. Some will think you
should not have the ring, not after what you’ve done, but the sight of you up
to your elbows in greasy pots should mute the criticism. And lest you start
thinking it’s some sort of reward, remember that the first few weeks as one of
the Accepted are used to pick the rotting fish out of the basket of good ones.
Your worst day as a novice will seem a fond dream compared to the least of your
studies over the next weeks. I suspect that some of the sisters who teach you
will make your trials even worse than they strictly must be, but I don’t
believe you will complain. Will you?” I can learn, Egwene
thought. Choose my own studies. I can
learn about the dreams, learn now to . . . The Amyrlin’s smile cut
off her train of thought. That smile said nothing the sisters could do to them
would be worse than it needed to be, if it left them alive. Nynaeve’s face was
a mixture of deep sympathy and horrified remembrance of her own first weeks as
one of the Accepted. The combination was enough to make Egwene swallow hard. “No,
Mother,” she said faintly. Elayne’s reply was a hoarse whisper. Then that’s done. Your
mother was not at all pleased by your disappearance, Elayne. “ “She knows?” Elayne
squeaked. Leane sniffed, and the
Amyrlin arched an eyebrow, saying, “I could hardly keep it from her. You missed
her by less than a month, which may be as well for you. You might not have
survived that meeting. She was mad enough to chew through an oar, at you, at
me, at the White Tower. “ “I can imagine, Mother,”
Elayne said faintly. “I don’t think you can,
child. You may have ended a tradition that began before there was an
Andor. A custom stronger than most laws. Morgase refused to take Elaida back
with her. For the first time ever, the Queen of Andor does not have an Aes
Sedai advisor. She demanded your immediate return to Caemlyn as soon as you
were found. I convinced her it would be safer for you to train here a little
longer. She was ready to remove your two brothers from their training with the
Warders, too. They talked their way out of that themselves. I still do not know
how.” Elayne seemed to be
looking inward, perhaps seeing Morgase in all her anger. She shivered. “Gawyn
is my brother,” she said absently. “Galad is not.” “Do not be childish,”
the Amyrlin told her. “Sharing the same father makes Galad your brother, too,
whether or not you like him. I will not allow childishness out of you, girl. A
measure of stupidity can be tolerated in a novice; it is not allowed in one of
the Accepted.” “Yes, Mother,” Elayne
said glumly. “The Queen left a letter
for you with Sheriam. Aside from giving you the rough side of her tongue, I
believe she states her intention of bringing you home as soon as it is safe for
you. She is sure that in a few more months at most you will be able to channel without
risking killing yourself. “ “But I want to learn,
Mother.” The iron had returned to Elayne’s voice. “I want to be Aes Sedai.” The Amyrlin’s smile was
even grimmer than her last. “As well that you do, child, because I have no
intention of letting Morgase have you. You have the potential to be stronger
than any Aes Sedai in a thousand years, and I will not let you go until you
achieve the shawl as well as the ring. Not if I have to grind you into sausage
to do it. I will not let you go.
Do I make myself clear?” “Yes, Mother.” Elayne
sounded uneasy, and Egwene did not blame her. Caught between Morgase and the
White Tower like a towel between two dogs; caught between the Queen of Andor
and the Amyrlin Seat. If Egwene had ever envied Elayne her wealth and the
throne she would one day occupy, at that moment she surely did not. The Amyrlin said
briskly, “Leane, take Elayne down to Sheriam’s study. I have a few words yet to
say to these other two. Words I do not think they will enjoy hearing.” Egwene exchanged
startled looks with Nynaeve; for a moment, worry dissolved the tension between
them. What does she have to say to us and
not to Elayne? she wondered. I do
not care, so long as she does not try to stop me learning. But why not Elayne,
too? Elayne grimaced at the
mention of the Mistress of Novices’s study, but she drew herself up as Leane
came to her side. “As you command, Mother,” she said formally, lowering herself
in a perfect curtsy, skirts sweeping wide, “so shall I obey.” She followed
Leane out with her head held high. CHAPTER 14 The Bite of the Thorns The Amyrlin Seat did not speak at once ‑ she walked to the tall,
arched windows and looked out across the balcony at the garden below, hands
clasped tightly behind her. Minutes went by before she spoke, still with her
back to the two of them. “I have kept the worst of it from getting out, but how long will that
last? The servants do not know of the stolen ter’angreal, and they do not connect the deaths with Liandrin and
the others leaving. It was not easy to manage that, gossip being what it is.
They believe the deaths were the work of Darkfriends. And so they were. Rumors
are reaching the city, too. That Darkfriends got into the Tower, that they did
murder. There was no way to stop that. It does our reputation no good, but at
least it is better than the truth. At least none outside the Tower, and few
inside, know Aes Sedai were killed. Darkfriends in the White Tower. Faugh! I’ve
spent my life denying that. I will not let them be here. I will hook them, and
gut them, and hang them out in the sun to dry.” Nynaeve gave Egwene an uncertain look ‑ half as uncertain as Egwene
felt ‑ then took a deep breath. “Mother, are we to be punished more?
Beyond what you’ve already sentenced us to?” The Amyrlin looked over her shoulder at them; her eyes were lost in
shadow. “Punished more? You might well say that. Some will say I’ve given you a
gift, raising you. Now feel the real bite of that rose’s thorns.” She strode briskly back to her chair and sat down, then seemed to lose
her urgency again. Or to gain uncertainty. To see the Amyrlin look uncertain made Egwene’s stomach clench. The
Amyrlin Seat was always sure, always serenely centered on her path. The Amyrlin
was strength personified. For all her own raw power, the woman on the other
side of the table had the knowledge and experience to wind her around a
spindle. To see her suddenly wavering ‑ like a girl who knew she had to
dive head first into a pond without any idea of how deep it was or whether
there were rocks or mud on the bottom ‑ to see that, chilled Egwene right
to her core. What does she mean, the real
bite of the thorns? Light, what does she mean to do to us? Fingering a carved black box on the table in front of her, the Amyrlin
peered at it as if looking at something beyond. “It is a question of who I can
trust,” she said softly. “I should be able to trust Leane and Sheriam, at
least. But do I dare? Verin?” Her shoulders shook with a quick, silent laugh.
“I already trust Verin with more than my life, but how far can I take it?
Moiraine?” She was silent for a moment. “I have always believed I could trust
Moiraine.” Egwene shifted uneasily. How much did the Amyrlin know? It was not the
kind of thing she could ask, not of the Amyrlin Seat. Do you know that a young man from my village, a man I used to think I’d
marry one day, is the Dragon Reborn? Do you know two of your Aes Sedai are
helping him? At least she was sure the Amyrlin did not know she had dreamed
of him last night, running from Moiraine. She thought she was sure. She kept
silent. “What are you talking about?” Nynaeve demanded. The Amyrlin looked up at
her, and she moderated her tone as she added, “Forgive me, Mother, but are we
to be punished more? I do not understand this talk of trust. If you want my
opinion, Moiraine is not to be trusted.” “That is your opinion, is it?” the Amyrlin said. “A year out of your
village, and you think you know enough of the world to choose which Aes Sedai
to trust, and which not? A master sailor who’s barely learned to hoist a sail!” “She did not mean anything, Mother,” Egwene said, but she knew Nynaeve
meant exactly what she had said. She shot a warning glance at Nynaeve. Nynaeve
gave her braid a sharp tug, but she kept her mouth shut. “Well, who is to say,” the Amyrlin mused. “Trust is as slippery as a
basket of eels, sometimes. The point is, you two are what I have to work with,
thin reeds though you may be.” Nynaeve’s mouth tightened, though her voice stayed level. “Thin reeds,
Mother?” The Amyrlin went on as if she had not spoken. “Liandrin tried to stuff
you head first into a weir, and it may well be she left because she learned you
were returning, and could unmask her, so I have to believe you aren’t ‑
Black Ajah. I would rather eat scales and entrails,” she muttered, “but I
suppose I’ll have to get used to saying that name.” Egwene gaped in shock ‑ Black Ajah? Us? Light! ‑ but Nynaeve barked, “We
certainly are not! How dare you say such a thing? How dare you even suggest
it?” “If you doubt me, child, go ahead!” the Amyrlin said in a hard voice.
“You may have an Aes Sedai’s power sometimes, but you are not yet Aes Sedai,
not by miles. Well? Speak, if you have more to say. I promise to leave you
weeping for forgiveness! ‘Thin reed’? I’ll break you like a reed! I’ve no
patience left.” Nynaeve’s mouth worked. Finally, though, she gave herself a shake, and
drew a calming breath. When she spoke her voice still had an edge, but a small
one. “Forgive me, Mother. But you should not ‑ We are not ‑ We
would not do such a thing.” With a compressed smile, the Amyrlin leaned back in her chair. “So you
can keep your temper, when you want to. I had to know that.” Egwene wondered
how much of it had been a test; there was a tightness around the Amyrlin’s eyes
that suggested her patience might well be exhausted. “I wish I could have found
a way to raise you to the shawl, Daughter. Verin says you are already as strong
as any woman in the Tower. “ “The shawl!” Nynaeve gasped. “Aes Sedai? Me?” The Amyrlin gestured slightly as if tossing something away, but she
looked regretful to lose it. “No point wishing for what can’t be. I could
hardly raise you to full sister and send you to scrub pots at the same time.
And Verin also says you still cannot channel consciously unless you are furious.
I was ready to sever you from the True Source if you even looked like embracing
saidar. The final tests for the shawl
require you to channel while maintaining utter calm under pressure. Extreme
pressure. Even I cannot ‑ and would not ‑ set that requirement
aside.” Nynaeve seemed stunned. She was staring at the Amyrlin with her mouth
hanging open. “I don’t understand, Mother,” Egwene said after a moment. “I suppose you don’t, at that. You are the only two in the Tower I can be
absolutely sure are not Black Ajah.” The Amyrlin’s mouth still twisted around
those words. “Liandrin and her twelve went, but did all of them go? Or did they
leave some of their number behind, like a stub in shallow water that you don’t
see till it puts a hole in your boat? It may be I’ll not find that out until it
is too late, but I will not let Liandrin and the others get away with what they
did. Not the theft, and especially not the murders. No one kills my people and
walks away unscathed. And I’ll not let thirteen trained Aes Sedai serve the
Shadow. I mean to find them, and still them!” “I don’t see what that has to do with us,” Nynaeve said slowly. She did
not look as if she liked what she was thinking. “Just this, child. You two are to be my hounds, hunting the Black Ajah.
No one will believe it of you, not a pair of half‑trained Accepted I
humiliated publicly.” “That is crazy!” Nynaeve’s eyes had opened wide by the time the Amyrlin
reached the words “Black Ajah,” and her knuckles were white from her grip on
her braid. She bit her words off and spat them: “They are all full Aes Sedai.
Egwene hasn’t even been raised to Accepted yet, and you know I cannot channel
enough to light a candle unless I am angry, not of my own free will. What
chance would we have?” Egwene nodded agreement. Her tongue had stuck to the roof of her mouth. Hunt the Black Ajah? I’d rather
hunt a bear with a switch! She’s just trying to scare us, to punish us more.
She has to he! If that was what the Amyrlin was trying, she was succeeding
all too well. The Amyrlin was nodding, too. “Every word you say is true. But each of
you is more than a match for Liandrin in sheer power, and she is the strongest
of them. Yet they are trained, and you are not, and you, Nynaeve, do have
limitations, as yet. But when you don’t have an oar, child, any plank will do
to paddle the boat ashore.” “But I would be useless,” Egwene blurted. Her voice came out as a squeak,
but she was too afraid to be ashamed. She
means it! Oh, Light, she means it! Liandrin gave me to the Seanchan, and now she
wants me to hunt thirteen like her? “My studies, my lessons,
working in the kitchens. Anaiya Sedai will surely want to continue testing me
to see if I am a Dreamer. I’ll barely have time left over to sleep and eat. How
can I hunt anything?” “You will have to find the time,” the Amyrlin said, cool and
serene once more, as if hunting the Black Ajah were no more than sweeping a
floor. “As one of the Accepted, you choose your own studies, within limits, and
the times for them. And the rules are a little easier for Accepted. A little
easier. They must be found, child.” Egwene looked to Nynaeve, but what Nynaeve said was, “Why is Elayne not
part of this? It can’t be because you think she is Black Ajah. Is it because
she is Daughter‑Heir of Andor?” “A full net on the first cast, child. I would make her one of you if I
could, but at the moment Morgase gives me enough problems as it is. When I have
her combed and curried and prodded back on the proper path, perhaps Elayne will
join you. Perhaps then.” “Then leave Egwene out, too,” Nynaeve said. “She is barely old enough to
be a woman. I will do your hunting for you.” Egwene made a sound of protest ‑
I am a woman! ‑ but the Amyrlin spoke before her. “I am not setting you out as bait, child. If I had a hundred of you, I
would still not be happy, but there are only you two, so two I will have.” “Nynaeve,” Egwene said, “I do not understand you. Do you mean you want to
do this?” “It isn’t that I want to,” Nynaeve said wearily, “but I’d rather hunt
them than sit wondering if the Aes Sedai teaching me is really a Darkfriend.
And whatever they are up to, I do not want to wait until they’re ready to find
out what it is.” The decision Egwene came to twisted her stomach. “Then I will do it, too.
I don’t want to sit wondering and waiting any more than you do.” Nynaeve opened
her mouth, and Egwene felt a flash of anger; it was such a relief after fear.
“And don’t you dare say I’m too young again. At least I can channel when I want
to. Most of the time. I am not a little girl anymore, Nynaeve.” Nynaeve stood there, jerking on her braid and not saying a word. Finally
the stiffness drained out of her. “You are not, are you? I have said myself you
are a woman, but I suppose I did not really believe it, inside. Girl, I ‑
No, woman. Woman, I hope you realize you’ve climbed into a pickling cauldron
with me, and the fire may be lit.” “I know it.” Egwene was proud that her voice hardly shook at all. The Amyrlin smiled as if pleased, but there was something in her blue
eyes that made Egwene suspect she had known what their decisions would be all
along. For an instant, she felt those puppeteer’s strings on her arms and legs
again. “Verin. . . .” The Amyrlin hesitated, then muttered half to herself. “If
I must trust someone, it might as well be her. She knows as much as I already,
and maybe more.” Her voice strengthened. “Verin will give you all that is known
of Liandrin and the others, and also a list of the ter’angreal that were
taken, and what they will do. Those that we know. As for any of the Black Ajah
still in the Tower . . . . Listen, watch, and be careful of your questions. Be
like mice. If you have even a suspicion, report it to me. I will keep an eye on
you myself. No one will think that strange, given what you’re being punished
for. You can make your reports when I look in on you. Remember, they have
killed before. They could easily kill again.” “That’s all very well,” Nynaeve said, “but we will still be Accepted, and
it is Aes Sedai we’re after. Any full sister can tell us to go about our
business, or send us off to do her laundry, and we will have no choice but to
obey. There are places Accepted are not supposed to go, things we’re not
supposed to do. Light, if we were sure a sister was Black Ajah, she could tell
the guards to lock us in our rooms and keep us there, and they would do it.
They certainly would not take the word of an Accepted over that of an Aes
Sedai.” “For the most part,” the Amyrlin said, “you must work within the
limitations of the Accepted. The idea is for no one to suspect you. But. . . .”
She opened the black box on her table, hesitated and looked at the other two
women as if still unsure she wanted to do this, then took out a number of
stiff, folded papers. Sorting through them carefully, she hesitated again, then
chose out two. The remainder she shoved back into the box, and handed those two
to Egwene and Nynaeve. “Keep these well hidden. They are for an emergency
only.” Egwene unfolded her thick paper. It held writing in a neat,
round hand, and was sealed at the bottom with the White Flame of Tar Valon. What the bearer does is done at my
order and by my authority. Obey, and keep silent, at my command. Siuan Sanche Watcher of the Seals Flame of Tar Valon The Amyrlin Seat “I could do anything with this,” Nynaeve said in a wondering voice.
“Order the guards to march. Command the Warders.” She gave a little laugh. “I
could make a Warder dance, with this.” “Until I found out about it,” the Amyrlin agreed dryly. “Unless you had a
very convincing reason, I’d make you wish Liandrin had caught you.” “I didn’t mean to do any of that,” Nynaeve said hastily. “I just meant
that it gives more authority than I had imagined.” “You may need every shred of it. But just you remember, child. A
Darkfriend won’t heed that any more than a Whitecloak would. They would both
likely kill you just for having it. If that paper is a shield . . . well, paper
shields are flimsy, and this one may have a target painted on it.” “Yes, Mother,” Egwene and Nynaeve said together. Egwene folded her paper up
and tucked it into her belt pouch, resolving not to take it out again unless
she absolutely had to. And how will I
know when that is? “What about Mat?” Nynaeve asked. “He’s very sick, Mother, and he does not
have much time left.” “I will send word to you,” the Amyrlin said curtly. “But, Mother ‑ “ “I will send word to you! Now, off with you, children. The hope of the
Tower rests in your hands. Go to your rooms and get some rest. Remember, you
have appointments with Sheriam, and with the pots.” CHAPTER 15 The Gray Man Outside the Amyrlin Seat’s study, Egwene and Nynaeve found
the corridors empty except for an occasional serving woman, hurrying about her
duties on soft‑slippered feet. Egwene was grateful for their presence.
The halls suddenly seemed like caverns, for all the tapestries and stonework.
Dangerous caverns. Nynaeve strode along purposefully, tugging at her braid fitfully again,
and Egwene hurried to keep up. She did not want to be left alone. “If
the Black Ajah it still here, Nynaeve, and if they even suspect what we’re
doing . . . . I hope you didn’t mean what you said about acting as if we are
already bound by the Three Oaths. I don’t intend to let them kill me, not if I
can stop it by channeling.” “If any of them are still here, Egwene, they will know what we are doing
as soon as they see us.” Despite what she was saying, Nynaeve sounded
preoccupied. “Or at least they will see us as a threat, and that’s much the
same thing as far as what they will do.” “How will they see us as a threat? Nobody is threatened by someone they
can order about. Nobody is threatened by someone who has to scrub pots and turn
the spits three times a day. That’s why the Amyrlin is putting us to work in
the kitchens. Part of the reason, anyway.” “Perhaps the Amyrlin did not think it through,” Nynaeve said absently. “Or perhaps she did, and
means something different for us than what she claims. Think, Egwene. Liandrin
would not have tried to put us out of the way unless she thought we were a
threat to her. I can’t imagine how, or to what, but I cannot see how it could
have changed, either. If there are any Black Ajah still here, they will surely
see us the same way, whether they suspect what we’re doing or not.” Egwene swallowed. “I hadn’t
thought of that. Light, I wish I were invisible. Nynaeve, if they are still
after us, I will risk being stilled before I let Darkfriends kill me, or maybe
worse. And I won’t believe you will let them take you, either, no matter what
you told the Amyrlin.” “I meant it.” For a
moment Nynaeve seemed to rouse from her thoughts. Her steps slowed. A pale‑haired
novice carrying a tray rushed past. “I meant every word, Egwene.” Nynaeve went
on when the novice was out of hearing. “There are other ways to defend
ourselves. If there were not, Aes Sedai would be killed every time they left
the Tower. We just have to reason those ways out, and use them.” “I know several ways
already, and so do you.” “They are dangerous.”
Egwene opened her mouth to say they were only dangerous to whoever attacked
her, but Nynaeve plowed on over her. “You can come to like them too much. When
I let out all my anger at those Whitecloaks this morning . . . . It felt too
good. It is too dangerous.” She shivered and quickened her pace again, and
Egwene had to step lively to catch up. “You sound like Sheriam.
You never have before. You have pushed every limit they’ve put on you. Why
would you accept limits now, when we might have to ignore them to stay alive?” “What good if it ends
with us being put out of the Tower? Stilled or not, what good then?” Nynaeve’s
voice dropped as if she were speaking to herself. “I can do it. I must, if I’m
to stay here long enough to learn, and I must learn if I’m to ‑ “
Suddenly she seemed to realize she was speaking aloud. She shot a hard look at
Egwene, and her voice firmed. “Let me think. Please, be quiet and let me
think.” Egwene held her tongue,
but inside she bubbled with unasked questions. What special reason did Nynaeve
have for wanting to learn more of what the White Tower could teach? What was it
she wanted to do? Why was Nynaeve keeping it secret from her? Secrets. We’ve learned to keep too many
secrets since coming to the Tower. The Amyrlin it keeping secrets from us, too. Light, what is she going to do about Mat?” Nynaeve accompanied her
all the way back to the novices’ quarters, not turning aside to the Accepted’s
quarters. The galleries were still empty, and they met no one as they climbed
the spiraling ramps. As they came up on
Elayne’s room, Nynaeve stopped, knocked once, and immediately opened the door
and put her head inside. Then she was letting the white door swing shut and
striding toward the next, Egwene’s room. “She isn’t here yet,” she said. “I
need to talk to both of you.” Egwene caught her
shoulders and pulled her to an abrupt halt. “What ‑ ?” Something tugged
at her hair, stung her ear. A black blur streaked in front of her face to clang
against the wall, and in the next breath Nynaeve was bearing her to the gallery
floor, behind the railing. Wide‑eyed and
sprawling, Egwene stared at what lay on the stone in front of her door, where
it had fallen. A bolt from a crossbow. A few dark strands from her hair were
tangled in the four heavy prongs, meant for punching through armor. She raised a
trembling hand to touch her ear, to touch the tiniest nick, damp with a bead of
blood. If I had not stopped just then . .
. . If I hadn’t. . . . The quarrel would have gone right through her head,
and would probably have killed Nynaeve, too. “Blood and ashes!” she gasped.
“Blood and bloody ashes!” “Watch your language,”
Nynaeve admonished, but her heart was not in it. She lay peering between the
white stone balusters toward the far side of the galleries. A glow surrounded
her, to Egwene’s eyes. She had embraced saidar. Hastily, Egwene tried to
reach out for the One Power, too, but at first haste defeated her. Haste, and
images that kept intruding on the emptiness, images of her head being ripped
apart like a rotten melon by a heavy quarrel that went on to bury itself in
Nynaeve. She took a deep breath and tried again, and finally the rose floated
in nothingness, opened to the True Source, and the Power filled her. She rolled onto her
stomach to peer through the railing beside Nynaeve. “Do you see anything? Do
you see him? I’ll put a lightning bolt through him!” She could feel it
building, pressing on her to loose it. “It is a man, isn’t it?” She could not
imagine a man coming into the novices’ quarters, but it was impossible to
picture a woman carrying a crossbow through the Tower. “I don’t know.” Quiet
anger filled Nynaeve’s voice; her anger was always at its worst when she grew
quiet with it. “I thought I saw ‑ Yes! There!” Egwene felt the Power
pulse in the other woman, and then Nynaeve was unhurriedly getting to her feet,
brushing at her dress as if there were nothing more to worry about. Egwene stared at her.
“What? What did you do? Nynaeve?” “ ‘Of the Five Powers,’
“ Nynaeve said in a lecturing tone, faintly mocking, “ ‘Air, sometimes called
Wind, is thought by many to be of the least use. This is far from true.’ “ She
finished with a tight laugh. “I told you there were other ways to defend
ourselves. I used Air, to hold him with air. If it is a he; I could not see him
clearly. A trick the Amyrlin showed me once, though I doubt she expected me to
see how it was done. Well, are you going to lie there all day?” Egwene scrambled up to
hurry after her around the gallery. Before long a man did come into sight
around the curve, dressed in plain brown breeches and coat. He stood facing the
other way, balanced on the ball of one foot, with the other hanging in midair
as if he had been caught in the middle of running. The man would feel as if he
were buried in thick jelly, yet it was nothing but air stiffened around him.
Egwene remembered the Amyrlin’s trick, too, but she did not think she could
duplicate it. Nynaeve only had to see a thing done once to know how to do it
herself. When she could manage to channel at all, of course. They came closer, and
Egwene’s melding with the Power vanished in shock. The hilt of a dagger stood
out from the man’s chest. His face sagged, and death had already filmed his
half‑closed eyes. He crumpled to the gallery floor as Nynaeve loosed the
trap that had held him. He was an average‑appearing
man, of average height and average build, with features so ordinary Egwene did
not think she would have noticed him in a group of three. She only studied him
a moment, though, before realizing that something was missing. A crossbow. She gave a start and
looked about wildly. “There had to be another one, Nynaeve. Somebody took the
crossbow. And somebody stabbed him. He could be out there ready to shoot at us
again.” “Calm yourself,” Nynaeve
said, but she peered both ways along the gallery, jerking at her braid. “Just
be calm, and we will figure out what to‑“ Her words cut off at the sound
of steps on the ramp leading up to their level. Egwene’s heart pounded,
seemingly in her throat. Eyes fastened on the head of the ramp, she desperately
strove to touch saidar again, but for her that required calm, and her
heartbeats shattered calm. Sheriam Sedai stopped at
the top of the ramp, frowning at what she saw. “What in the name of the Light
has happened here?” She hurried forward, her serenity gone for once. “We found him,” Nynaeve
said as the Mistress of Novices knelt beside the corps Sheriam put a hand to
the man’s chest, and jerked it back twice as fast, hissing. Steeling herself
visibly, she touched him again, and maintained the Touch longer. “Dead,” she
muttered. “As dead as it is possible to be, and more.” When she straightened,
she pulled a handkerchief from her sleeve and wiped her fingers. “You found
him? Here? Like this?” Egwene nodded, sure that
if she spoke, Sheriam would hear the lie in her voice. “We did,” Nynaeve said
firmly. Sheriam shook her head.
“A man ‑ a dead man, at that! ‑ in the novices’ quarters would be
scandal enough, but this . . . !” “What makes him
different?” Nynaeve asked. “And how could he be more than dead?” Sheriam took a deep
breath, and gave them each a searching look. “He is one of the Soulless. A Gray
Man.” Absently, she wiped her fingers again, her eyes going back to the body.
Worried eyes. “The Soulless?” Egwene
said, a tremor in her voice, at the same time that Nynaeve said, “A Gray Man?” Sheriam glanced at them,
a look as penetrating as it was brief. “Not a part of your studies, yet, but
you seem to have gone beyond the rules in a great many ways. And considering
you found this . . . . “ She gestured to the corpse. “The Soulless, the Gray
Men, give up their souls to serve the Dark One as assassins. They are not
really alive, after that. Not quite dead, but not truly alive. And despite the
name, some Gray Men are women. A very few. Even among Darkfriends, only a
handful of women are stupid enough to make that sacrifice. You can look right
at them and hardly notice them, until it is too late. He was as much as dead
while he walked. Now, only my eyes tell me that what is lying there ever lived
at all.” She gave them another long look. “No Gray Man has dared enter Tar
Valon since the Trolloc Wars.” “What will you do?”
Egwene asked. Sheriam’s brows rose, and she quickly added, “If I may ask,
Sheriam Sedai.” The Aes Sedai hesitated.
“I suppose you may, since you had the bad luck to find him. It will be up to
the Amyrlin Seat, but with everything that has happened, I believe she will
want to keep this as quiet as is possible. We do not need more rumors. You will
speak of this to none but me, or to the Amyrlin, should she mention it first.” “Yes, Aes Sedai,” Egwene
said fervently. Nynaeve’s voice was cooler. Sheriam appeared to take their
obedience for granted. She gave no sign of having heard them. Her attention was
all on the dead man. The Gray Man. The Soulless. “There will be no hiding the
fact that a man was killed here.” The glow of the One Power suddenly surrounded
her, and just as abruptly, a long, low dome covered the body on the floor,
grayish and so opaque that it was hard to see there was a body under it. “But
this will keep anyone else from touching him who can discover his nature. I
must have this removed before the novices come back.” Her tilted green eyes
regarded them as if she had just remembered their presence. “You two go, now.
To your room, I think, Nynaeve. Considering what you are already facing, if it
became known you were involved in this, even on the edge of it . . . . Go.” Egwene curtsied, and
tugged at Nynaeve’s sleeve, but Nynaeve said, “Why did you come up here,
Sheriam Sedai?” For a moment Sheriam
looked startled, but on the instant she frowned. Fists on her hips, she
regarded Nynaeve with all the firmness of her office. “Does the Mistress of
Novices now need an excuse for coming to the novices’ quarters, Accepted?” she
said softly. “Do Accepted now question Aes Sedai? The Amyrlin means to make
something of you two, but whether she does or not, I will teach you manners, at
least. Now, the pair of you, go, before I haul you both down to my study, and
not for the appointment the Amyrlin Seat has already set for you.” A sudden thought came to
Egwene. “Forgive me, Sheriam Sedai,” she said quickly, “but I must fetch my
cloak. I feel cold.” She rushed away, around the gallery before the Aes Sedai
could speak. If Sheriam found that
crossbow bolt in front of her door, there would be too many questions. No
pretending they had only found the man, that he had no connection to her, then.
But when she reached the door to her room, the heavy bolt was gone. Only the
jagged chip in the stone beside the door said it had ever been there. Egwene’s skin crawled.
How could anyone take it without one of
us seeing. . . . Another Gray Man! She had embraced saidar before she knew it, only the sweet flow of the Power inside
her telling her what she had done. Even so, it was one of the hardest things
she had ever done, opening that door and going into her room. There was no one
there. She snatched the white cloak off its peg and ran out, anyway, and she
did not release saidar until she was
halfway back to the others. Something more had passed
between the women while she was gone. Nynaeve was attempting
to appear meek, and succeeding only in looking as if she had a sour stomach.
Sheriam had her fists on her hips and was tapping her foot irritably, and the
stare she was giving Nynaeve, like green millstones ready to start grinding
barley flour, took in Egwene equally. “Forgive me, Sheriam
Sedai,” she said hastily, dropping a curtsy and settling her cloak on her
shoulders at the same time. “This . . . finding a dead man‑a . . . a Gray
Man! ‑ it made me cold. If we may go now?” At Sheriam’s tight nod
of dismissal, Nynaeve made a bare curtsy. Egwene seized her arm and hustled her
away. “Are you trying to make more trouble for us?” she demanded
when they were two levels down. And safely out of earshot of Sheriam, she
hoped. “What else did you say to her, to make her glare like that? More
questions, I suppose? I hope you learned something worth making her mad at us.” “She would not say
anything,” Nynaeve muttered. “We must ask questions if we are to do any good,
Egwene. We will have to take a few chances, or we’ll never learn anything.” Egwene sighed. “Well, be
a little more circumspect.” From the set of Nynaeve’s face, the other woman had
no intention of going easy or avoiding risks. Egwene sighed again. “The
crossbow bolt was gone, Nynaeve. It must have been another Gray Man who took
it.” “So that is why you . .
. . Light!” Nynaeve frowned and gave a sharp tug to her braid. After a time Egwene
said, “What was that she did to cover the . . . the body?” She did not want to
think of it as a Gray Man; that reminded her there was another one out there.
She did not want to think of anything at all, right then. “Air,” Nynaeve replied.
“She used Air. A neat trick, and I think I see how to make something useful
with it.” The use of the One Power
was divided into the Five Powers: Earth, Air, Fire, Water, and Spirit.
Different Talents required different combinations of the Five Powers. “I don’t
understand some of the ways the Five Powers are combined. Take Healing. I can
see why it requires Spirit, and maybe Air, but why Water?” Nynaeve rounded on her.
“What are you babbling about? Have you forgotten what we’re doing?” She looked
around. They had reached the Accepted’s quarters, a stack of galleries lower
than the novices’ quarters, surrounding a garden rather than a court. There was
no one in sight except for another Accepted, hurrying along on another level,
but she lowered her voice. “Have you forgotten the Black Ajah?” “I am trying to forget
it,” Egwene said fiercely. “For a little while, anyway. I am trying to forget
that we just left a dead man. I’m trying to forget that he almost killed me,
and that he has a companion who might try it again.” She touched her ear; the
drop of blood had dried, but the nick still hurt. “We are lucky we aren’t both
dead right now.” Nynaeve’s face softened,
but when she spoke her voice held something of the time when she had been the
Wisdom of Emond’s Field, saying words that had to be said for someone’s own
good. “Remember that body, Egwene. Remember that he tried to kill you. Kill us.
Remember the Black Ajah. Remember them all the time. Because if you forget,
just once, the next time, it may be you lying dead.” “I know,” Egwene sighed.
“But I do not have to like it.” “Did you notice what
Sheriam did not mention?” “No. What?” “She never wondered who
stabbed him. Now, come on. My room is just down here, and you can put your feet
up while we talk.” CHAPTER 16 Hunters Three Nynaeve’s room was
considerably larger than the novice rooms. She had a real bed, not one built
into the wall, two ladderback armchairs instead of a stool, and a wardrobe for
her clothes. The furnishings were all plain, suitable for a middling successful
farmer’s house, but compared to the novices, the Accepted lived in luxury.
There was even a small rug, woven with scrolls of yellow and red on blue. The
room was not empty when Egwene and Nynaeve entered. Elayne stood in front of
the fireplace, arms crossed beneath her breasts and eyes red at least partly from
anger. Two tall young men sprawled in the chairs, all arms and legs. One, with
his dark green coat undone to show a snowy shirt, shared Elayne’s blue eyes and
red‑gold hair, and his grinning face marked him plainly as her brother.
The other, Nynaeve’s age and with his gray coat neatly buttoned, was slender
and dark of hair and eye. He rose, all sure confidence and lithely muscled
grace, when Egwene and Nynaeve came in. He was, Egwene thought not for the
first time, the most handsome man she had ever seen. His name was Galad. “It is good to see you
again,” he said, taking her hand. “I have worried much over you. We have
worried much.” Her pulse quickened, and
she took back her hand before he should feel it. “Thank you, Galad,” she
murmured. Light, but he’s beautiful. She
told herself to stop thinking that way. It was not easy. She found herself
smoothing her dress, wishing he were seeing her in silk instead of this plain
white wool, perhaps even one of those Domani dresses Min had told her of, the
ones that clung and seemed so thin you thought they must be transparent even
though they were not. She flushed furiously and banished the image from her
mind, willed him to look away from her face. It did not help that half the
women in the Tower, from scullery maids to Aes Sedai themselves, looked at him
as if they had the same thoughts. It did not help that his smile seemed for her
alone. In fact, his smile made it worse. Light,
if he even suspected what I was thinking, I’d die! The golden‑haired
young man leaned forward in his chair. “The question is, where have you been?
Elayne dodges my questions as if she has a pocket full of figs and doesn’t want
me to have any.” “I have told you,
Gawyn,” Elayne said in a tight voice, “it is none of your affair. I came here,”
she added to Nynaeve, “because I did not want to be alone. They saw me, and
followed. They would not take no for an answer. “ “Wouldn’t they,” Nynaeve
said flatly. “But it is our affair,
sister,” Galad said. “Your safety is very much our affair.” He looked at
Egwene, and she felt her heart jump. “The safety of all of you is very
important to me. To us.” “I am not your sister,”
Elayne snapped. “If you want company,”
Gawyn told Elayne with a smile, “we can do as well as any. And after what we
went through just to be here, we deserve some explanation of where you’ve been.
I would rather let Galad thump me all over the practice yard all day than face
Mother again for a single minute. I’d rather have Coulin mad at me.” Coulin was
Master of Arms, and kept a tight discipline among the young men who came to
train at the White Tower whether they aspired to become Warders or just to
learn from them. “Deny the connection if
you will,” Galad told Elayne gravely, “but it is still there. And Mother put
your safety in our hands.” Gawyn grimaced. “She’ll
have our hides, Elayne, if anything happens to you. We had to talk fast, or
she’d have hauled us back home with her. I have never heard of a queen sending
her own sons to the headsman, but Mother sounded ready to make an exception if
we don’t bring you home safely.” “I am sure,” Elayne
said, “that your fast talk was all for me. None of it was meant to let you stay
here studying with the Warders.” Gawyn’s face reddened. “Your safety was our
first concern.” Galad sounded as if he meant it, and Egwene was sure he did.
“We managed to convince Mother that if you did return here, you would need
someone to look after you.” “Look after me!” Elayne
exclaimed, but Galad went on smoothly. “The White Tower has
become a dangerous place. There have been deaths - murders ‑ with no real
explanations. Even some Aes Sedai have been killed, though they have tried to
keep that quiet. And I have heard rumors of the Black Ajah, spoken in the Tower
itself. By Mother’s command, when it is safe for you to leave your training, we
are to return you to Caemlyn.” For answer, Elayne
lifted her chin and half turned away from him. Gawyn ran a hand through
his hair in frustration. “Light, Nynaeve, Galad and I are not villains. All we
want to do is help. We would do it anyway, but Mother commanded it, so there’s
no chance of you talking us out of it.” “Morgase’s commands
carry no weight in Tar Valon,” Nynaeve said in a level voice. “As for your
offer of help, I will remember it. Should we need help, you will be among the
first to hear of it. For now, I wish you to leave.” She gestured pointedly to
the door, but he ignored her. “That is all very well,
but Mother will want to know Elayne has come back. And why she ran off without
a word, and what she was doing these months. Light, Elayne! The whole Tower was
in a turmoil. Mother was half‑crazed with fear. I thought she’d tear the
Tower down with her bare hands.” Elayne’s face took on a measure of guilt, and
Gawyn pressed his advantage. “You owe her that much, Elayne. You owe me that
much. Burn me, you’re being as stubborn as stone. You’ve been gone for months,
and all I know about it is that you’ve run afoul of Sheriam. And the only
reasons I know that much are because you’ve been crying and you won’t sit
down.” Elayne’s indignant stare said he had squandered whatever momentary
advantage he might have had. “Enough,” Nynaeve said.
Galad and Gawyn opened their mouths. She raised her voice. “I said enough!” She
glared at them until it was clear their silence would hold, then went on.
“Elayne owes the two of you nothing. Since she chooses to tell you nothing,
that is that. Now, this is my room, not the common room of an inn, and I want
you out of it.” “But, Elayne ‑ “
Gawyn began at the same time that Galad said, “We only want - ” Nynaeve spoke loudly
enough to drown them out. “I doubt you asked permission to enter the Accepted’s
quarters.” They stared at her, looking surprised. “I thought not. You will be
out of my room, out of my sight, before I count three, or I will write a note
to the Master of Arms about this. Coulin Gaidin has a much stronger arm than
Sheriam Sedai, and you may be assured that I will be there to see he makes a
proper job of it.” “Nynaeve, you wouldn’t ‑
“ Gawyn began worriedly, but Galad motioned him to silence and stepped closer
to Nynaeve. Her face kept its stern
expression, but she unconsciously smoothed the front of her dress as he smiled
down at her. Egwene was not surprised. She did not think she had met a woman
outside the Red Ajah who would not be affected by Galad’s smile. “I apologize, Nynaeve,
for our forcing ourselves on you unwanted,” he said smoothly. “We will go, of
course. But remember that we are here if you need us. And whatever caused you
to run away, we can help with that, as well.” Nynaeve returned his
smile. “One,” she said. Galad blinked, his smile
fading. Calmly, he turned to Egwene. Gawyn got up and started for the door.
“Egwene,” Galad said, “you know that you, especially, can call on me at any
time, for anything. I hope you know that.” “Two,” Nynaeve said. Galad gave her an
irritated look. “We will talk again,” he told Egwene, bowing over her hand.
With a last smile, he took an unhurried step toward the door. “Thrrrrrrrrr” ‑
Gawyn darted through the door, and even Galad’s graceful stride quickened
markedly ‑ “ree,” Nynaeve finished as the door banged shut behind them. Elayne clapped her hands
delightedly. “Oh, well done,” she said. “Very well done. I did not even know
men were forbidden the Accepted’s quarters, too.” “They aren’t,” Nynaeve
said dryly, “but those louts did not know it, either.” Elayne clapped her hands
again and laughed. “I’d have let them just leave,” Nynaeve added, “if Galad had
not made such a show of taking his time about it. That young man has too fair a
face for his own good.” Egwene almost laughed at that; Galad was no more than a
year younger than Nynaeve, if that, and Nynaeve was straightening her dress
again. “Galad!” Elayne sniffed.
“He’ll bother us again, and I do not know whether your trick will work more
than once. He does what he sees as right no matter who it hurts, even himself.” “Then I will think of
something else,” Nynaeve said. “We can’t afford to have them looking over our
shoulders all the time. Elayne, if you wish, I can make a salve that will
soothe you.” Elayne shook her head,
then lay down across the bed with her chin in her hands. “If Sheriam found out,
we would no doubt both have yet another visit to her study to look forward to.
You have not said very much, Egwene. Cat caught your tongue?” Her expression
became grimmer. “Or perhaps Galad has?” Egwene blushed in spite
of herself. “I simply did not choose to argue with them,” she said in as
dignified a tone as she could manage. “Of course,” Elayne said
grudgingly. “I will admit that Galad is good-looking. But he is horrid, too.
He always does right, as he sees it. I know that does not sound horrid, but it
is. He has never disobeyed Mother, not in the smallest thing that I know of. He
will not tell a lie, even a small one, or break a rule. If he turns you in for
breaking one, there isn’t the slightest spite in it ‑ he seems sad you
could not live up to his standards, if anything ‑ but that doesn’t change
the fact that he will turn you in.” “That sounds ‑
uncomfortable,” ‑ Egwene said carefully, “but not horrid. I cannot
imagine Galad doing anything horrid.” Elayne shook her head,
as if in disbelief that Egwene found it so hard to see what was clear to her.
“If you want to pay attention to someone, try Gawyn. He is nice enough ‑
most of the time ‑ and he’s besotted with you.” “Gawyn! He has never
looked at me twice.” “Of course not, you fool, the way you stare at Galad until
your eyes look ready to fall out of your face.” Egwene’s cheeks felt hot, but
she was afraid it might well be true. “Galad saved his life when Gawyn was a
child,” Elayne went on. “Gawyn will never admit he is interested in a woman if
Galad is interested in her, but I have heard him talk about you, and I know. He
never could hide things from me.” “That is nice to know,”
Egwene said, then laughed at Elayne’s grin. “Perhaps I can get him to say some
of those things to me instead of you.” “You could choose Green
Ajah, you know. Green sisters sometimes marry. Gawyn truly is besotted, and you
would be good for him. Besides, I would like to have you for a sister.” “If you two are finished
with girlish chatter,” Nynaeve cut in, “there are important matters to talk
about.” “Yes,” Elayne said,
“such as what the Amyrlin Seat had to say to you after I left.” “I would rather not talk
about that,” Egwene said awkwardly. She did not like lying to Elayne. “She did
not say anything that was pleasant.” Elayne gave a sniff of
disbelief. “Most people think I get off easier than the others because I am
Daughter‑Heir of Andor. The truth is that if anything, I catch it harder
than the rest because I’m Daughter‑Heir. Neither of you did anything I
did not, and if the Amyrlin had harsh words for you, she would have twice as
harsh for me. Now, what did she say?” “You must keep this just
between us three,” Nynaeve said. “The Black Ajah ‑ “ “Nynaeve!” Egwene
exclaimed. “The Amyrlin said Elayne was to be left out of it!” “The Black Ajah!” Elayne
almost shouted, scrambling up to kneel in the middle of the bed. “You cannot
leave me out after telling me this much. I won’t be left out.” “I never meant for you
to be,” Nynaeve assured her. Egwene could only stare at her in amazement.
“Egwene, it was you and I who Liandrin saw as a threat. It was you and I who
were just nearly killed ‑ “ “Nearly killed?” Elayne
whispered. “ ‑ perhaps because we are still a threat, and perhaps
because they already know that we were closeted alone with the Amyrlin, and
even what she told us. We need someone with us who they do not know about, and
if she isn’t known to the Amyrlin, either, so much the better. I am not sure we
can trust the Amyrlin much further than the Black Ajah. She means to use us for
her own ends. I mean to see she doesn’t use us up. Can you understand that?” Egwene nodded
reluctantly. Just the same, she said, “It will be dangerous, Elayne, as
dangerous as anything we faced in Falme. Maybe more so. You do not have to be
part of it, this time.” “I know that,” Elayne
said quietly. She paused, then went on. “When Andor goes to war, the First
Prince of the Sword commands the army, but the Queen rides with them, too.
Seven hundred years ago, at the Battle of Cuallin Dhen, the Andormen were being
routed when Queen Modrellein rode, alone and unarmed, carrying the Lion banner
into the midst of the Tairen army. The Andormen rallied and attacked once more,
to save her, and won the battle. That is the kind of courage expected of the
Queen of Andor. If I have not learned to control my fear yet, I must before I
take my mother’s place on the Lion Throne.” Suddenly her somber mood vanished
in a giggle. “Besides, do you think I would pass up an adventure so I could
scrub pots?” “You will do that
anyway,” Nynaeve told her, “and hope that everyone thinks that is all you are
doing. Now listen carefully.” Elayne listened, and her
mouth slowly dropped open as Nynaeve unfolded what the Amyrlin Seat had told
them, and the task she had laid on them, and the attempt on their lives. She
shivered over the Gray Man, and read the document the Amyrlin had given Nynaeve
with a look of wonder, then returned it, murmuring, “I wish I could have that
when I face Mother next.” By the time Nynaeve finished, though, her face was a
picture of indignation. “Why, that’s like being
told to go up in the hills and find lions, only you do not know whether there
are any lions, but if there are, they may be hunting you, and they may be
disguised as bushes. Oh, and if you find any lions, try not to let them eat you
before you can tell where they are.” “If you are afraid,”
Nynaeve said, “you can still stand aside. It will be too late, once you’ve
begun.” Elayne tossed her head
back. “Of course I am afraid. I am not a fool. But not afraid enough to quit
before I have even started.” “There is something
else, too,” Nynaeve said. “I am afraid the Amyrlin may mean to let Mat die.” “But an Aes Sedai is
supposed to Heal anyone who asks.” The Daughter-Heir seemed caught between
indignation and disbelief. “Why would she let Mat die? I cannot believe it! I
will not!” “Nor can I!” Egwene
gasped. She could not have meant that!
The Amyrlin couldn’t let him die! “All
the way here Verin said that the Amyrlin would see he was Healed.” Nynaeve shook her head.
“Verin said the Amyrlin would ‘see to him.’ That is not the same thing. And the
Amyrlin avoided saying yes or no when I asked her. Maybe she has not made her
mind up.” “But why?” Elayne asked. “Because the White Tower
does what it does for its own reasons.” Nynaeve’s voice made Egwene shiver. “I
do not know why. Whether they help Mat live or let him die depends on what
serves their ends. None of the Three Oaths says they have to Heal him. Mat is
just a tool, in the Amyrlin’s eyes. So are we. She will use us to hunt the
Black Ajah, but if you break a tool so it cannot be fixed, you don’t weep over
it. You just get another one. Both of you had best remember that.” “What are we going to do
about him?” Egwene asked. “What can we do?” Nynaeve went to her
wardrobe and rummaged in the back of it. When she came out, she had a striped
cloth bag of herbs. “With my medicines ‑ and luck ‑ perhaps I can
Heal him myself.” “Verin could not,”
Elayne said. “Moiraine and Verin together could not, and Moiraine had an angreal. Nynaeve, if you draw too much
of the One Power, you could burn yourself to a cinder. Or just still yourself,
if you are lucky. If you can call that luck.” Nynaeve shrugged. “They
keep telling me I have the potential to be the most powerful Aes Sedai in a
thousand years. Perhaps it is time to find out whether they are right.” She
gave a tug to her braid. It was plain that
however brave Nynaeve’s words, she was afraid. But she won’t let Mat die even if it means risking death herself. “They
keep saying we’re all three so powerful ‑ or will be. Maybe, if we all
try together, we can divide the flow among us.” “We have never tried
working together,” Nynaeve said slowly. “I am not sure I know how to combine
our abilities. Trying could be almost as dangerous as drawing too much of the
Power.” “Oh, if we are going to
do it,” Elayne said, climbing off the bed, “let’s do it. The longer we talk of
it, the more frightened I will become. Mat is in the guest rooms. I do not know
which one, but Sheriam told me that much.” As if to put period to
her words, the door banged open, and an Aes Sedai entered as though it were her
room, and they the interlopers. Egwene made her curtsy
deep, to hide the dismay on her face. CHAPTER 17 The Red Sister Elaida was a handsome
woman rather than beautiful, and the sternness on her face added maturity to
her ageless Aes Sedai features. She did not look old, yet Egwene could never
imagine Elaida as having been young. Except for the most formal occasions, few
Aes Sedai wore the vine‑embroidered shawl with the white teardrop Flame
of Tar Valon large on the wearer’s back, but Elaida wore hers, the long red
fringe announcing her Ajah. Red slashed her dress of cream‑colored silk,
too, and red slippers peeked under the edge of her skirts as she moved into the
room. Her dark eyes watched them as a bird’s eyes watched worms. “So all of you are
together. Somehow, that does not surprise me.” Her voice made no more pretense
than her bearing did; she was a woman of power, and ready to wield it if she
decided it was necessary, a woman who knew more than those she spoke to. It was
much the same for a queen as for a novice. “Forgive me, Elaida
Sedai,” Nynaeve said, dropping another curtsy, “but I was about to go out. I
have much to catch up in my studies. If you will forgive ‑ “ “Your studies can wait,”
Elaida said. “They have waited long enough already, after all.” She plucked the
cloth bag out of Nynaeve’s hands and undid the strings, but after one glance
inside, she tossed it on the floor. “Herbs. You are not a
village Wisdom any longer, child. Trying to hold on to the past will only hold
you back.” “Elaida Sedai,” Elayne
said, “I - ” “Be silent, novice.”
Elaida’s voice was cold and soft, as silk wrapped around steel is soft. “You
may have broken a bond between Tar Valon and Caemlyn that has lasted three
thousand years. You will speak when spoken to.” Elayne’s eyes examined the
floor in front of her toes. Spots of color burned in her cheeks. Guilt, or
anger? Egwene was not sure. Ignoring them all,
Elaida sat down in one of the chairs, carefully arranging her skirts. She made
no gesture for the rest of them to sit. Nynaeve’s face tightened, and she began
giving sharp little tugs to her braid. Egwene hoped she would keep her temper
well enough not to take the other chair without permission. When Elaida had settled
herself to her own satisfaction, she studied them for a time in silence, her face
unreadable. At last she said, “Did you know that we have the Black Ajah among
us?” Egwene exchanged
startled glances with Nynaeve and Elayne. “We were told,” Nynaeve
said cautiously. “Elaida Sedai,” she added after a pause. Elaida arched an
eyebrow. “Yes. I thought that you might know of it.” Egwene gave a start at her
tone, implying so much more than it said, and Nynaeve opened her mouth angrily,
but the Aes Sedai’s flat stare stilled tongues. “The two of you,” Elaida went
on in a casual tone, “vanish, taking with you the Daughter‑Heir of Andor ‑
the girl who may become Queen of Andor one day, if I do not strip off her hide
and sell it to a glove maker ‑ vanish without permission, without a word,
without a trace.” “I was not carried off,”
Elayne said to the floor. “I went of my own will.” “Will you obey me,
child?” A glow surrounded Elaida. The Aes Sedai’s glare was fixed on Elayne.
“Must I teach you, here and now?” Elayne raised her head,
and there was no mistaking what was in her face. Anger. For a long moment she
met Elaida’s stare. Egwene’s fingernails dug
into her palms. It was maddening. She, or Elayne, or Nynaeve, could destroy
Elaida where she sat. If they caught Elaida by surprise, at least; she was
fully trained, after all. And if we do
anything but take whatever she wants to feed us, we throw away everything.
Don’t throw it away now, Elayne. Elayne’s head dropped.
“Forgive me, Elaida Sedai,” she mumbled. “I ‑ forgot myself “ The glow winked out of
existence, and Elaida sniffed audibly. “You have learned bad habits, wherever
these two took you. You cannot afford bad habits, child. You will be the first
Queen of Andor ever to be Aes Sedai. The first queen anywhere to be Aes Sedai
in over a thousand years. You will be one of the strongest of us since the
Breaking of the World, perhaps strong enough to be the first ruler since the
Breaking to openly tell the world she is Aes Sedai. Do not risk all of that,
child, because you can still lose it all. I have invested too much time to see
that. Do you understand me?” “I think so, Elaida
Sedai,” Elayne said. She sounded as if she did not understand at all. No more
did Egwene. Elaida abandoned the
subject. “You may be in grave danger. All three of you. You disappear and
return, and in the interval, Liandrin and her . . . companions leave us. There
will inevitably be comparisons. We are sure Liandrin and those who went with
her are Darkfriends. Black Ajah. I would not see the same charge leveled at
Elayne, and to protect her, it seems I must protect all of you. Tell me why you
ran away, and what you have been doing these months, and I will do what I can
for you.” Her eyes fastened on Egwene like grappling hooks. Egwene floundered for an
answer that the Aes Sedai would accept. It was said that Elaida could hear a
lie, sometimes. “It . . . it was Mat. He is very sick.” She tried to choose her
words carefully, to say nothing that was not true, yet give an impression far
from truth. Aes Sedai do it all
the time. “We went to. . . . We brought him back to be Healed. If we
hadn’t, he would die. The Amyrlin is going to Heal him.” I hope. She made herself continue to meet
the Red Aes Sedai’s gaze, willed herself not to shift her feet guiltily. From
Elaida’s face, there was no way to tell whether she believed a word. “That is enough,
Egwene,” Nynaeve said. Elaida’s penetrating look shifted to her, but she gave
no sign of being affected by it. She met the Aes Sedai’s eyes without blinking.
“Forgive me for interrupting, Elaida Sedai,” she said smoothly, “but the
Amyrlin Seat said our transgressions were to be put behind us and forgotten. As
part of making a new beginning, we are not even to speak of them. The Amyrlin
said it should be as if they never happened.” “She said that, did
she?” Still nothing in Elaida’s voice or on her face told whether she believed
or not. “Interesting. You can hardly forget entirely when your punishment has
been announced to the entire Tower. Unprecedented, that. Unheard of, for less
than stilling. I can see why you are eager to put it all behind you. I
understand you are to be raised to the Accepted, Elayne. And Egwene. That is
hardly punishment.” Elayne glanced at the
Aes Sedai as though for permission to speak. “The Mother said we were ready,”
she said. A touch of defiance entered her voice. “I have learned, Elaida Sedai,
and grown. She would not have named me to be raised if I had not.” “Learned,” Elaida said
musingly. “And grown. Perhaps you have.” There was no hint in her tone whether
she thought this was good. Her gaze shifted back to Egwene and Nynaeve,
searching. “You returned with this Mat, a youth from your village. There was
another young man from your village. Rand al’Thor.” Egwene felt as if an icy
hand had suddenly gripped her stomach. “I hope he is well,”
Nynaeve said levelly, but her hand was a fist gripping her braid. “We have not
seen him in some time.” “An interesting young
man.” Elaida studied them as she spoke. “I met him only once, but I found him ‑
most interesting. I believe he must be ta’veren.
Yes. The answers to many questions may rest in him. This Emond’s Field of
yours must be an unusual place to produce the two of you. And Rand al’Thor.” “It is just a village,”
Nynaeve said. “Just a village like any other.” “Yes. Of course.” Elaida
smiled, a cold quirk of her lips that twisted Egwene’s stomach. “Tell me about
him. The Amyrlin has not commanded you to be silent about him also, has she?” Nynaeve gave her braid a
tug. Elayne studied the carpet as if something important were hidden in it, and
Egwene wracked her brain for an answer. She
can hear lies, they say.
Light, if she can really hear a lie
.... The moment stretched on, until finally Nynaeve opened her mouth. At that instant the door
opened again. Sheriam regarded the room with a measure of surprise. “It is well
I find you here, Elayne. I want all three of you. I had not expected you,
Elaida.” Elaida stood, arranging
her shawl. “We are all curious about these girls. Why they ran away. What
adventures they had while gone. They say the Mother has commanded them not to
speak of it.” “As well not to,”
Sheriam said. “They are to be punished, and that should be an end to it. I have
always felt that when punishment is done, the fault that caused it should be
erased.” For a long moment the
two Aes Sedai stood looking at each other, no expression on either smooth face.
Then Elaida said, “Of course. Perhaps I will speak to them another time. About
other matters.” The look she gave to the three women in white seemed to Egwene
to carry a warning, and then she was slipping past Sheriam. Holding the door open,
the Mistress of Novices watched the other Aes Sedai go down the gallery. Her
face was still unreadable. Egwene let out a long
breath, and heard echoes from Nynaeve and Elayne. “She threatened me,”
Elayne said incredulously, and half to herself. “She threatened me with
stilling, if I don’t stop being ‑ willful!” “You mistook her,”
Sheriam said. “If being willful were a stilling offense, the list of the
stilled would have more names on it than you could learn. Few meek women ever
achieve the ring and the shawl. That is not to say, of course, that you must
not learn to act meekly when it is required.” “Yes, Sheriam Sedai,”
they all three said almost as one, and Sheriam smiled. “You see? You can give
the appearance of meekness, at least. And you will have plenty of opportunity
to practice before you earn your way back into the Amyrlin’s good graces. And
mine. Mine will be harder to achieve.” “Yes, Sheriam Sedai,”
Egwene said, but this time only Elayne spoke with her. Nynaeve said, “What of .
. . the body, Sheriam Sedai? The . . . the Soulless? Have you discovered who
killed him? Or why he entered the Tower?” Sheriam’s mouth
tightened. “You take one step forward, Nynaeve, and then a step back. Since
from Elayne’s lack of surprise, you have obviously told her of it ‑ after
I told you not to speak of the matter! ‑ then
there are exactly seven people in the Tower who know a man was killed today in
the novices’ quarters, and two of them are men who know no more than that.
Except that they are to keep their mouths shut. If an order from the Mistress
of Novices carries no weight with you ‑ and if that is so, I will correct
you ‑ perhaps you will obey one from the Amyrlin Seat. You are to speak
of this to no one except the Mother or me. The Amyrlin will not have more
rumors piled on those we must already contend with. Do I make myself clear?” The firmness of her
voice produced a chorus of “Yes, Sheriam Sedai” ‑ but Nynaeve refused to
stop at that. “Seven, you said, Sheriam Sedai. Plus whoever killed him. And
maybe they had help getting into the Tower.” “That is no concern of
yours.” Sheriam’s level gaze included them all. “I will ask whatever questions
must be asked about this man. You will forget you know anything at all about a
dead man. If I discover you are doing anything else . . . Well, there are worse
things than scrubbing pots to occupy your attention. And I will not accept any
excuses. Do I hear any more questions?” “No, Sheriam Sedai.”
This time, Nynaeve joined in, to Egwene’s relief. Not that she felt very much
relief. Sheriam’s watchful eye would make it doubly hard to carry out a search
for the Black Ajah. For a moment she felt like laughing hysterically. If
the Black Ajah doesn’t catch us, Sheriam will. The urge to laugh vanished.
If Sheriam isn’t Black Ajah
herself. She wished she could make that thought go away. Sheriam nodded. “Very
well, then. You will come with me.” “To where?” Nynaeve
asked, and added, “Sheriam Sedai,” only an instant before the Aes Sedai’s eyes
narrowed. “Have you forgotten,”
Sheriam said in a tight voice, “that in the Tower, Healing is always done in
the presence of those who bring their sick to us?” Egwene thought that the
Mistress of Novices’s stock of patience with them was about used up, but before
she could stop herself, she burst out, “Then she it going to Heal him!” “The Amyrlin Seat herself,
among others, will see to him.” Sheriam’s face held no more expression than her
voice. “Did you have reason to doubt it?” Egwene could only shake her head.
“Then you waste your friend’s life standing here. The Amyrlin Seat is not to be
kept waiting.” Yet despite her words, Egwene had the feeling the Aes Sedai was
in no hurry at all. CHAPTER 18 Healing Lamps on iron wall brackets lit the passages deep beneath the Tower,
where Sheriam took them. The few doors they passed were shut tight, some
locked, some so cunningly worked that they remained unseen until Egwene was
right on top of them. Dark openings marked most of the crossing hallways, while
down others she could only see the dim glow of distant lights spaced far apart.
She saw no other people. These were not places even Aes Sedai often came. The
air was neither cool nor warm, but she shivered anyway, and at the same time
felt sweat trickling down her back. It was down here, in the
depths of the White Tower, that novices went through their last test before
being raised to Accepted. Or put out of the Tower, if they failed. Down here,
Accepted took the Three Oaths after passing their final test. No one, she realized,
had ever told her what happened to an Accepted who failed. Down here,
somewhere, was the room where the Tower’s few angreal and sa’angreal were
kept, and the places where the ter’angreal
were stored. The Black Ajah had struck at those storerooms. And if some of
the Black Ajah were lying in wait in one of those dark side corridors, if
Sheriam were leading them not to Mat, but to . . . . She gave a squeak when
the Aes Sedai stopped suddenly, then colored when the others looked at her
curiously. “I was thinking about the Black Ajah,” she said weakly. “Do not think of it,”
Sheriam said, and for once she sounded like the Sheriam of old, kindly if firm.
“The Black Ajah will not be your worry for years to come. You have what the
rest of us do not: time before you must deal with it. Much time, yet. When we
enter, stay against the wall and keep silent. You are allowed here as a
benevolence, to attend, not to distract or interfere.” She opened a door
covered in gray metal worked to look like stone. The square room within
was spacious, its pale stone walls bare. The only furnishing was a long stone
table draped with a white cloth, in the middle of the room. Mat lay on that
table, fully clothed save for coat and boots, eyes closed and face so gaunt
that Egwene wanted to cry. His labored breathing made a hoarse whistle. The
Shadar Logoth dagger hung sheathed at his belt, the ruby capping its hilt
seeming to gather light, so it glowed like some fierce red eye despite the
illumination of a dozen lamps, magnified by the pale walls and white‑tiled
floor. The Amyrlin Seat stood
at Mat’s head, and Leane at his feet. Four Aes Sedai stood down one side of the
table, and three down the other. Sheriam joined the three. One of them was
Verin. Egwene recognized Serafelle, another Brown sister, and Alanna Mosvani,
of the Green Ajah, and Anaiya, of the Blue, which was Moiraine’s Ajah. Alanna and Anaiya had
each taught her some of her lessons in opening herself to the True Source, in
how to surrender to saidar in order
to control it. And between her first arrival in the White Tower and her
departure, Anaiya must have tested her fifty times to see if she was a Dreamer.
The tests had shown nothing one way or the other, but plain‑faced, kindly
Anaiya, with that warm smile that was her only beauty, had kept calling her
back for more tests, as implacable as a boulder rolling downhill. The rest were unknown to
her, except for one cool‑eyed woman she thought was a White. The Amyrlin
and the Keeper wore their stoles, of course, but none of the others had
anything to mark them out except Great Serpent rings and ageless Aes Sedai
faces. None of them acknowledged the presence of Egwene and the other two by so
much as a glance. Despite the outward calm
of the women around the table, Egwene thought she saw signs of uncertainty. A
tightness to Anaiya’s mouth. A slight frown on Alanna’s darkly beautiful face.
The cool‑eyed woman kept smoothing her pale blue dress over her thighs
without seeming to realize what she was doing. An Aes Sedai Egwene did
not know set a plain, polished wooden box, long and narrow, on the table and
opened it. From its nest in the red silk lining, the Amyrlin took out a white,
fluted wand the length of her forearm. It could have been bone, or ivory, but
was neither. No one alive knew what it was made of. Egwene had never seen
the wand before, but she recognized it from a lecture Anaiya had given the
novices. One of the few sa’angreal, and
perhaps the most powerful, that the Tower possessed. Sa’angreal had not power of their own, of course ‑ they were
merely devices for focusing and magnifying what an Aes Sedai could channel ‑
but with that wand, a strong Aes Sedai might be able to crumple the walls of
Tar Valon. Egwene clutched
Nynaeve’s hand on one side and Elayne’s on the other. Light! They’re not sure they can Heal him, even with a sa’angreal ‑
with that sa’angreal! What chance
would we have had? We’d probably have killed him, and ourselves,
too. Light! “I will meld the flows,” the Amyrlin said. “Be careful. The
Power needed to break the bond with the dagger and Heal its damage is very
close to what could kill him. I will focus. Attend.” She held the wand straight
out in front of her in both hands, above Mat’s face. Still unconscious, he
shook his head and tightened a fist on the dagger’s hilt, muttering something
that sounded like a denial. A glow appeared around
each Aes Sedai, that soft, white light that only a woman who could channel
could see. Slowly the lights spread, until that which seemed to emanate from
one woman touched that which came from the woman beside her, merged with it,
till there was only one light, a light that, to Egwene’s eyes, diminished the
lamps to nothing. And in that brightness was a stronger light still. A bar of
bone‑white fire. The sa’angreal. Egwene fought the urge
to open herself to saidar and add her
flow to the tide. It was a pull so strong she was about to be jerked off her
feet. Elayne tightened her hold on her hand. Nynaeve took a step toward the
table, then stopped with an angry shake of her head. Light, Egwene thought, I could do it. But she did not know what it was she could do. Light, it’s to strong. It’s to ‑
wonderful. Elayne’s hand was trembling. On the table, Mat
thrashed in the middle of the glow, jerking this way, then that, muttering incomprehensibly.
But he did not loosen his hold on the dagger, and his eyes remained closed.
Slowly, ever so slowly, he began to arch his back, muscles straining till he
shook. Still he fought and bucked, until finally only his heels and his
shoulders touched the table. His hand on the dagger sprang open and, quivering,
crept back from the hilt; was forced, fighting, from the hilt. His lips skinned
away from his teeth in a snarl, a grimace of pain, and his breath came in
forced grunts. “They are killing him,”
Egwene whispered. “The Amyrlin is killing him! We have to do something.” Just as softly, Nynaeve
said, “If we stop them ‑ if we could stop them ‑ he’ll die. I do
not think I could handle half that much of the Power.” She paused as if she had
just heard her own words ‑ that she could channel half of what ten full
Aes Sedai did with a sa’angreal ‑ and her voice grew even fainter.
“Light help me, I want to.” She fell silent
abruptly. Did she mean that she wanted to help Mat, or that she wanted to
channel that flow of Power? Egwene could feel that urge in herself, like a song
that compelled her to dance. “We must trust them,”
Nynaeve said in an intense whisper, finally. “He has no other chance.” Suddenly Mat shouted,
loud and strong. “Muad’drin tia dar allende caba’drin rhadiem!” Arched and struggling, eyes
squeezed shut, he bellowed the words clearly. “Los Valdar Cuebiyari! Los!
Carai an Caldazar! Al Caldazar!” Egwene frowned. She had
learned enough to recognize the Old Tongue, if not to understand more than a
few words. Carai an Caldazar! Al Caldazar! “For the honor of the Red
Eagle! For the Red Eagle!” Ancient battle cries of Manetheren, a nation that
had vanished during the Trolloc Wars. A nation that had stood where the Two
Rivers was now. That much, she knew; but in some way it seemed for a moment
that she should understand the rest, too, as if the meaning were just out of
sight, and all she had to do was turn her head to know. With a loud pop of
tearing leather, the golden‑sheathed dagger rose from Mat’s belt, hung a
foot above his straining body. The ruby glittered, seemed to send off crimson
sparks, as if it, too, fought the Healing. Mat’s eyes opened, and
he glared at the women standing around him. “Mia ayende, Aes Sedai!
Caballein mirain ye! Inde muagdhe Aes Sedai miaain ye! Mia ayende!” And
he began to scream, a roar of rage that went on and on, till Egwene
wondered that he had breath left in him. Hurriedly Anaiya bent to
lift a dark metal box from under the table, moving as if it were heavy. When
she set it beside Mat and opened the lid, only a small space was revealed
within sides at least two inches thick. Anaiya bent again for a set of tongs
such as a goodwife might use in her kitchen, and grasped the floating dagger in
them as carefully as if it were a poisonous snake. Mat’s scream grew
frantic. The ruby shone furiously, flashing bloodred. The Aes Sedai thrust the
dagger into the box and snapped the lid down, letting out a loud sigh as it
clicked shut. “A filthy thing,” she said. As soon as the dagger
was hidden, Mat’s shriek cut off, and he collapsed as if muscle and bone had
turned to water. An instant later the glow surrounding Aes Sedai and table
winked out. “Done,” the Amyrlin said
hoarsely, as if she had been the one screaming. “It is done.” Some of the Aes Sedai
sagged visibly, and sweat beaded on more than one brow. Anaiya pulled a plain
linen handkerchief from her sleeve and wiped her face openly. The cool‑eyed
White dabbed almost surreptitiously at her cheeks with a bit of Lugard lace. “Fascinating,” Verin
said. “That the Old Blood could flow so strongly in anyone today.” She and
Serafelle put their heads together, talking softly, but with many gestures. “Is he Healed?” Nynaeve
said. “Will he . . . live?” Mat lay as if sleeping,
but his face still had that hollow‑cheeked gauntness. Egwene had never
heard of a Healing that did not cure everything.
Unless just separating him from the
dagger took all of the Power they used. Light! “Brendan,” the Amyrlin said, “will you see that he is taken
back to his room?” “As you command,
Mother,” the cool‑eyed woman said, her curtsy as emotionless as she
herself seemed. When she left to summon bearers, several of the other Aes Sedai
left, too, including Anaiya. Verin and Serafelle followed, still talking to one
another too quietly for Egwene to make out what they said. “Is Mat all right?”
Nynaeve demanded. Sheriam raised her eyebrows. The Amyrlin Seat turned
toward them. “He is as well as he can be,” she said coldly. “Only time will
tell. Carrying something with Shadar Logoth’s taint for so long . . . who knows
what effect it will have on him? Perhaps none, perhaps much. We will see. But
the bond with the dagger is broken. Now he needs rest, and as much food as can
be gotten into him. He should live.” “What was that he was
shouting, Mother?” Elayne asked, then hastily added, “If I may ask.” “He was ordering
soldiers.” The Amyrlin gave the young man lying on the table a quizzical look.
He had not moved since collapsing, but Egwene thought his breathing seemed easier,
the rise and fall of his chest more rhythmic. “In a battle two thousand years
gone, I would say. The Old Blood comes again.” “It was not all about a
battle,” Nynaeve said. “I heard him say Aes Sedai. That was no battle. Mother,”
she added belatedly. For a moment the Amyrlin
seemed to consider, perhaps what to say, perhaps whether to say anything. “For
a time,” she said finally, “I believe the past and the present were one. He was
there, and he was here, and he knew who we were. He commanded us to release
him.” She paused again. “ ‘I am a free man, Aes Sedai. I am no Aes Sedai meat.’
That is what he said.” Leane sniffed loudly,
and some of the other Aes Sedai muttered angrily under their breath. “But, Mother,” Egwene
said, “he could not have meant it as it sounds. Manetheren was allied with Tar
Valon.” “Manetheren was an ally,
child,” the Amyrlin told her, “but who can know the heart of a man? Not even he
himself, I suspect. A man is the easiest animal to put on a leash, and the
hardest to keep leashed. Even when he chooses it himself.” “Mother,” Sheriam said,
“it is late. The cooks will be waiting for these helpers. “ “Mother,” Egwene asked
anxiously, “could we not stay with Mat? If he may still die . . . .” The Amyrlin’s look was
level, her face without expression. “You have chores to do, child.” It was not scrubbing pots she meant. Egwene was sure of
that. “Yes, Mother.” She curtsied, her skirts brushing Nynaeve’s and Elayne’s
as they made theirs. One last time she looked at Mat, then followed Sheriam
out. Mat had still not moved. CHAPTER 19 Awakening Mat opened his eyes
slowly and stared up at the white plaster ceiling, wondering where he was and
how he had come there. An intricate fringe of gilded leaves bordered the
ceiling, and the mattress under his back felt plumped full of feathers.
Somewhere rich, then. Somewhere with money. But his head was empty of the where
and the how, and a lot more besides. He had been dreaming,
and bits of those dreams still tumbled together with memories in his head. He
could not separate one from the other. Wild flights and fights, strange people
from across the ocean, Ways and Portal Stones and pieces of other lives, things
right out of a gleeman’s tales, these had to be dreams. At least, he thought they
must be. But Loial was no dream, and he was an Ogier. Chunks of conversations
drifted around in his thoughts, talks with his father, with friends, with
Moiraine, and a beautiful woman, and a ship captain, and a well‑dressed
man who spoke to him like a father giving sage advice. Those were probably
real. But it was all bits and fragments. Drifting. “Muad’drin tia dar allende caba’drin rhadiem,” he murmured. The words were only
sounds, yet they sparked ‑ something. The packed lines of spearmen stretched a mile or more to either side
below him, dotted with the pennants and banners of towns and cities and minor
Houses. The river secured his flank on the left, the bogs and mires on the
right. From the hillside he watched the spearmen struggle against the mass of
Trollocs trying to break through, ten times the humans’ number. Spears pierced
black Trolloc mail, and spiked axes carved bloody gaps in the human ranks.
Screams and bellows harried the air. The sun burned hot overhead in a cloudless
sky, and shimmers of heat rose above the battle line. Arrows still rained down
from the enemy, slaying Trolloc and human alike. He had called his archers
back, but the Dreadlords did not care so long as they broke his line. On the
ridge behind him, the Heart Guard awaited his command, horses stamping
impatiently. Armor on men and horses alike shone silver in the sunlight;
neither men nor animals could stand the heat much longer. They must win here or die. He was known as a gambler; it was time to
toss the dice. In a voice that carried over the tumult below, he gave the order
as he swung up into his saddle. “Footmen prepare to pass cavalry forward.” His
bannerman rode close beside him, the Red Eagle banner flapping over his head,
as the command was repeated up and down the line. Below, the spearmen suddenly moved, sidestepping with good discipline,
narrowing their formations, opening wide gaps between. Gaps into which the
Trollocs poured, roaring bestial cries, like a black, oozing tide of death. He drew his sword, raised it high. “Forward the Heart Guard!” He dug his
heels in, and his mount leaped down the slope. Behind him, hooves thundered in
the charge. “Forward.” He was first to strike into the Trollocs, his sword
rising and falling, his bannerman close behind. “For the honor of the Red
Eagle!” The Heart Guard pounded into the gaps between the spearmen, smashing
the tide, hurling it back. “The Red Eagle!” Half‑human faces snarled at
him, oddly curved swords sought him, but he cut his way ever deeper. Win or
die. “Manetheren!” Mat’s hand trembled as
he raised it to his forehead. “Los Valdar
Cuebiyari, “ he muttered. He was almost sure he knew what it meant -
“Forward the Heart Guard,” or maybe “The Heart Guard will advance” ‑ but
that could not be. Moiraine had told him a few words of the Old Tongue, and
those were all he knew of it. The rest might as well be magpie chatter. “Crazy,” he said
roughly. “It probably isn’t even the Old Tongue at all. Just gibberish. That
Aes Sedai is crazy. It was only a dream.” Aes Sedai. Moiraine. He
suddenly became aware of his too‑thin wrist and bony hand, and looked at
them. He had been sick. Something to do with a dagger. A dagger with a ruby in
the hilt, and a long‑dead, tainted city called Shadar Logoth. It was all
foggy and distant, and made no real sense, but he knew it was no dream. Egwene
and Nynaeve had been taking him to Tar Valon to be Healed. He remembered that
much. He tried to sit up, and
fell back, as weak as a newborn lamb. Laboriously, he pulled himself up and
shoved the single woolen blanket aside. His clothes were gone, perhaps into the
vine‑carved wardrobe standing against the wall. For the moment he did not
care about clothes. He struggled to his feet, tottered across the flowered
carpet to cling to a high‑backed armchair, and lurched from the chair to
the table, gilded scrolls on its legs and edges. Beeswax candles, four to
each tall stand and small mirrors behind the flames, lit the room brightly. A
larger mirror on the wall above the highly polished washstand threw his
reflection back at him, gaunt and wasted, cheeks hollow and dark eyes sunken,
hair sweat‑matted, bent like an old man and wavering like pasture grass
in a breeze. He made himself stand straight, but it was not much improvement. A large, covered tray
sat on the table in front of his hands, and his nose caught the smells of food.
He twitched aside the cloth, revealing two large silver pitchers and dishes of
thin green porcelain. He had heard that the Sea Folk charged its weight in
silver for that porcelain. He had expected beef tea, or sweetbreads, the kinds
of things invalids had pushed on them. Instead, one plate held slices of a beef
roast piled thickly, with brown mustard and horseradish. On others there were
roasted potatoes, sweetbeans with onions, cabbage, and butterpeas. Pickles, and
a wedge of yellow cheese. Thick slices of crusty bread, and a dish of butter.
One pitcher was filled with milk and still beaded with condensation on the
outside, the other with what smelled like spiced wine. There was enough of
everything for four men. His mouth watered, and his stomach growled at him. First I find out where I am. But he rolled up a slice of beef and dipped it
in the mustard before pushing himself away from the table toward the three
tall, narrow windows. Wooden shutters carved
in lacy patterns covered them, but through the holes he could see that it was
night outside. Lights from other windows made dots in the blackness. For a
moment he sagged against the white stone windowsill in frustration, but then he
began to think. You can turn the worst
that comes to your advantage if you only think, his father always said, and
certainly Abell Cauthon was the best horse trader in the Two Rivers. When it
seemed somebody had taken advantage of Mat’s father, it always turned out they
had gotten the greasy end of the stick. Not that Abell Cauthon ever did
anything dishonest, but even Taren Ferry folk never got the best of him, and
everybody knew how close to the bone they cut. All because he thought about
things from every side that there was. Tar Valon. It had to be
Tar Valon. This room belonged in a palace. The flowered Domani carpet alone
probably cost as much as a farm. More, he did not think he was sick any longer,
and from what he had been told, Tar Valon was his only chance to get well. He
had never actually felt sick, not that he remembered, not even when Verin ‑
another name swam out of the haze ‑ had told someone nearby that he was
dying. Now he felt weak as a babe and hungry as a starving wolf, but somehow,
he was sure the Healing had been done. I feel ‑ whole and well, that’s
all. I’ve been Healed.
He grimaced at the shutters. Healed. That meant they had used the One Power on him. The
notion sent goose bumps marching across his skin, but he had known it would be
done. “Better than dying,” he told himself. Some of the stories he had heard
about Aes Sedai came back. “It has to be better than dying. Even Nynaeve
thought I was going to die. Anyway, it’s done, and worrying about it now won’t
help anything.” He realized he had finished the slice of beef and was licking
its juice from his fingers. Unsteadily, he made his
way back to the table. There was a stool underneath. He pulled it out and sat
down. Not bothering with knife or fork, he made another roll of beef. How could
he turn being in Tar Valon ‑ In the White Tower. It has to be ‑
to his advantage? Tar Valon meant Aes
Sedai. That was certainly no reason to stay even an hour. Exactly the opposite.
What he remembered of his time with Moiraine, and later with Verin, was not
much to go on. He could not recall either of them doing anything really
terrible, but then he could not recall a great deal of that time at all.
Anyway, whatever Aes Sedai did, they did for their own reasons. “And those aren’t always
the reasons you think they are,” he mumbled around a mouthful of potato, then
swallowed. “An Aes Sedai never lies, but the truth an Aes Sedai tells you isn’t
always the truth you think it is. That’s one thing I have to remember: I can’t
be sure about them even when I think I know.” It was not a cheering conclusion.
He filled his mouth with butterpeas. Thinking about Aes Sedai
made him remember a little about them. The seven Ajahs: Blue,
Red, Brown, Green, Yellow, White, and Gray. The Reds were the worst. Except
for that Black Ajah they all claim doesn’t exist. But the Red
Ajah should be no threat to him. They were only interested in men who could
channel. Rand. Burn me, how could I forget that? Where is he? is he all right? He sighed regretfully, and spread
butter on a piece of still‑warm bread. I wonder if he’s gone mad yet. Even if he knew the
answers, he could do nothing to help Rand. He was not sure he would if he
could. Rand could channel, and Mat had grown up with stories of men channeling,
stories to frighten children. Stories that frightened adults, too, because some
of them were all too true. Discovering what Rand could do had been like finding
out his best friend tortured small animals and killed babies. Once you finally
made yourself believe it, it was hard to call him a friend any longer. “I have to look out for
myself,” he said angrily. He upended the wine pitcher over his silver cup and
was surprised to find it empty. He filled the cup with milk, instead. “Egwene
and Nynaeve want to be Aes Sedai.” He had not really remembered that until he
said it aloud. “Rand is following Moiraine around and calling himself the
Dragon Reborn. The Light knows what Perrin is up to. He’s been acting crazy
ever since his eyes turned funny. I have to look out for myself.” Burn me, I have to! I’m the last one of us
who’s still sane. There’s only me. Tar Valon. Well it was
supposed to be the wealthiest city in the world, and it was the center of trade
between the Borderlands and the south, the center of Aes Sedai power. He did
not think he could get an Aes Sedai to gamble with him. Or trust the fall of
the dice or the turn of the cards if he did. But there had to be merchants, and
others with silver and gold. The city itself would be worth a few days. He knew
he had traveled far since leaving the Two Rivers, but aside from a few vague
memories of Caemlyn and Cairhien, he could remember nothing of any great
cities. He had always wanted to see a great city. “But not one full of Aes
Sedai,” he muttered sourly, scraping up the last of the butterpeas. He gulped
them down and went back for another helping of beef. Idly, he wondered if the
Aes Sedai might let him have the ruby from the Shadar Logoth dagger. He
remembered the dagger in only the fuzziest way, but even that was like
remembering a terrible injury. His insides knotted tip, and sharp pain dug at
his temples. Yet the ruby was clear in his mind, as big as his thumbnail, dark
as a drop of blood, glittering like some crimson eye. Surely he had more claim
to it than they did, and it had to be worth as much as a dozen farms back home. They’ll probably say it is tainted, too. And likely it was. Still he spun a little fancy
of trading the ruby to some of the Coplins for their best land. Most of that
family‑troublemakers from the cradle, where they were not thieves and
liars as well‑deserved whatever happened to them and more. But he really
did not believe the Aes Sedai would give it back to him, did not relish the
notion of carrying it as far as Emond’s Field if they did. And the thought of
owning the largest farm in the Two Rivers was no longer as exciting as it once
had been. Once that had been his biggest ambition, that, and to be known as his
father’s equal as a horse trader. Now it seemed such a small thing to want. A
cramped thing, with the whole wide world just waiting out there. First off, he decided,
he would find Egwene and Nynaeve. Maybe
they’ve come to their senses. Maybe they’ve given up this foolishness about
becoming Aes Sedai. He did not think they would have, but he could not go without
seeing them. He would go; that was sure. A visit with them, a day to see the
city, perhaps a game with the dice to pad out his purse, and then he would be
off for somewhere where there were no Aes Sedai. Before he returned home - I
will go home one day. One day, I will
‑ he meant to see something of the world, and without any Aes Sedai
making him dance to her tune. Rummaging around the
tray for something more to eat, he was shocked to realize nothing was left but
smears and a few crumbs of bread and cheese. The pitchers were both empty. He
squinted down at his stomach in wonder. He should have been stuffed to the ears
with all that in him, but he felt as if he had hardly eaten at all. He scraped
the last bits of cheese together between thumb and forefinger. Halfway to his
mouth, his hand froze. I blew the Horn of Valere. Softly he whistled a bit of tune, then cut it short when the words came
to him: I’m down at the bottom
of the well. It’s night, and the rain
is coming down. The sides are falling
in, and there’s no rope to climb. I’m down at the bottom
of the well. “There had better be a
bloody rope to climb,” he whispered. He let the cheese and crumbs fall on the
tray. For the moment he felt sick again. Determinedly he tried to think, tried
to penetrate the fog that shrouded everything in his head. Verin had been bringing
the Horn to Tar Valon, but he could not remember if she knew he was the one who
had blown it. She had never said anything to make him think so. He was sure of
that. He thought he was. So what
if she does know? What if they all do? Unless Verin did something with it I
don’t know about, they have the Horn. They don’t need me. But who could say
what Aes Sedai thought they needed? “If they ask,” he said
grimly, “I never even touched it. If they know. . . . If they know, I’ll . . .
I’ll handle that when it comes. Burn me, they can’t want anything from me. They
can’t!” A soft knock on the door
brought him swaying to his feet, ready to run. If there had been any place to
run to, and if he could have managed more than three steps. But there was not,
and he could not. The door opened. CHAPTER 20 Visitations The woman who came in,
dressed all in white silk and silver, shut the door behind her and leaned back
against it to study him with the darkest eyes Mat had ever seen. She was so
beautiful he almost forgot to breathe, with hair as black as night held by a
finely woven silver band, and as graceful in repose as another woman would be
dancing. He halfway thought that he knew her, but he rejected the idea out of
hand. No man could ever forget a woman like her. “You may be passable, I
suppose, once you fill out again,” she said, “but for now, perhaps you could
put on something.” For an instant Mat
continued to stare at her, then suddenly he realized he was standing there
naked. Face scarlet, he shambled to the bed, pulled the blanket around himself
like a cloak, and more fell than sat down on the edge of the mattress. “I’m
sorry for . . . I mean, I . . . that is, I didn’t expect . . . I . . . I . . .
.” He drew a deep breath. “I apologize for your finding me this way.” He could still feel the
heat in his cheeks. For a moment he wished that Rand, whatever he had become,
or even Perrin were there to advise him. They always seemed to get on well with
women. Even girls who knew that Rand was all but promised to Egwene used to
stare at him, and they seemed to think Perrin’s slow ways were gentle and
attractive. However hard he tried,
he always managed to make a fool of himself in front of girls. As he had just
done. “I would not have
visited you in this way, Mat, except that I was here in the . . . in the White
Tower ‑ “ She smiled as if the name amused her ‑ “for another
purpose, and I wanted to see all of you.” Mat’s face reddened again, and he
tugged the blanket around him tighter, but she seemed not to have been teasing
him. More graceful than a swan, she glided to the table. “You are hungry.
That’s to be expected, the way they do things. Make sure you eat all they give
you. You will be surprised at how quickly you put weight back and regain
strength.” “Pardon,” Mat said
diffidently, “but do I know you? Meaning no offense, but you seem . . .
familiar.” She looked at him until he began to shift uneasily. A woman like her
would expect to be remembered. “You may have seen me,”
she said finally. “Somewhere. Call me Selene.” Her head tilted slightly; she
appeared to be waiting for him to recognize the name. It tugged at the edges
of memory. He thought he must have heard it before, but he could not say when
or where. “Are you an Aes Sedai, Selene?” “No.” The word was soft
but surprisingly emphatic. For the first time, he
studied her, able now to see more than her beauty. She was almost as tall as he
was, slender and, he suspected from the way she moved, strong. He was not sure
of her age‑a year or two older than he, or maybe as much as ten‑but
her cheeks were smooth. Her necklace of smooth white stones and woven silver
matched her wide belt, but she did not wear a Great Serpent ring. The absence
should not have surprised him ‑ no Aes Sedai would ever say right out
that she was not ‑ yet it did. There was an air about her ‑ a self‑confidence,
a surety in her own power to match any queen’s, and something more ‑ that
he associated with Aes Sedai. “You aren’t by any
chance a novice, are you?” He had heard that novices wore white, but he could
not really believe it of her. She makes
Elayne look like a cringer. Elayne. Another name drifting into his head. “Hardly that,” Selene
said with a wry twist to her mouth. “Let us just say that I am someone whose
interests coincide with yours. These . . . Aes Sedai mean to use you, but you
will like it, in the main, I think. And accept it. There is no need to convince
you to seek out glory.” “Use me?” The memory
returned to him of chinking that, but about Rand, that the Aes Sedai
meant to use Rand, not him. They’ve no
bloody use for me. Light, they can’t have! “What do you mean? I’m no one
important. I am no use to anyone but myself. What kind of glory?” “I knew that would pull
you. You, above all.” Her smile made his head
spin. He scrubbed a hand through his hair. The blanket slipped, and he caught
it hastily before it could fall. “Now listen, they are not interested in me.” What about me sounding the Horn? “I am
just a farmer.” Maybe they think I’m tied
to Rand in some way. No, Verin said . .
. . He was not sure what Verin had said, or Moiraine, but he thought most
Aes Sedai knew nothing at all about Rand. He wanted to keep it that way, at least
until he was a long way gone. “Just a simple country man. I only want to see a
little of the world and go back to my da’s farm. “ What does she mean, glory? Selene shook her head as
if she had heard his thoughts. “You are more important than you yet know.
Certainly more important than these so-called Aes Sedai know. You can have glory, if you know enough not
to trust them.” “You certainly sound as
if you don’t trust them.” So‑called?
A thought came to him, but he could not manage to say it. “Are you a . . .
? Are you . . . ?” It was not the kind of thing you accused someone of. “A Darkfriend?” Selene
said mockingly. She sounded amused, not angered. She sounded contemptuous. “One
of those pathetic followers of Ba’alzamon who think he will give them immortality
and power? I follow no one. There is one man I could stand beside, but I do not
follow.” Mat laughed nervously.
“Of course not.” Blood and ashes, a
Darkfriend wouldn’t name herself Darkfriend, Probably has a poisoned knife, if
she is. He had a vague memory of a woman dressed as one nobly born, a
Darkfriend with a deadly dagger in her slender hand. “That wasn’t what I meant
at all. You look. . . . You look like a queen. That’s what I meant. Are you a
Lady?” “Mat, Mat, you must
learn to trust me. Oh, I will use you, too ‑ you have too suspicious a
nature, especially since carrying that dagger, for me to deny it ‑ but my
use will gain you wealth, and power, and glory. I will not compel you. I have
always believed men perform better if convinced rather than forced. These Aes
Sedai do not even realize how important you are, and he will try to dissuade or
kill you, but I can give you what you desire.” “He?” Mat said sharply.
Kill me? Light, it’s Rand they were
after, not me. How does she know about the dagger? I suppose the whole Tower
knows. “Who wants to kill me?” Selene’s mouth tightened
as if she had said too much. “You know what you want, Mat, and I know it every
bit as well as you. You must choose who you will trust to gain it for you. I
admit I will use you. These Aes Sedai will never do that. I will lead you to
wealth and glory. They will keep you tied to a leash until you die.” “You say a lot,” Mat
said, “but how do I know any of it is true? How do I know I can trust you any
more than I can them?” “By listening to what
they tell you, and what they do not. Will they tell you your father came to Tar
Valon?” “My da was here?” “A man named Abell
Cauthon, and another named Tam al’Thor. They made nuisances of themselves until
they gained an audience, I have heard, wanting to know where you and your
friends were. And Siuan Sanche sent them back to the Two Rivers with empty
hands, not even letting them know you were alive. Will they tell you that,
unless you ask? Perhaps not even then, for you might try to run away back
home.” “My da thinks I am
dead?” Mat said slowly. “He can be told you
live. I can see to it. Think on who to trust, Mat Cauthon. Will they tell you
that even now Rand al’Thor is trying to escape, and the one called Moiraine is
hunting him? Will they tell you that the Black Ajah infests their precious
White Tower? Will they even tell you how they mean to use you?” “Rand is trying to
escape? But ‑ “ Maybe she knew Rand had proclaimed himself the Dragon
Reborn, and maybe she did not, but he would not tell her. The Black Ajah! Blood and bloody ashes! “Who are you, Selene? If
you’re not Aes Sedai, what are you?” Her smile hid secrets.
Just remember that there is another choice. You need not be a puppet for the
White Tower or prey for Ba’alzamon’s Darkfriends. The world is more complex
than you can imagine. Do as these Aes Sedai wish for the present, but remember
your choices. Will you do that?” “I don’t see that I have
much choice at all,” he said glumly. “I suppose I will.” Selene’s look sharpened.
Friendliness sloughed off her voice like an old snakeskin. “Suppose? I did not
come to you like this, talk in this way, for suppose, Matrim Cauthon.” She
stretched out a slim hand. Her hand was empty, and
she stood halfway across the room, but he leaned back, away from her hand, as
if she were right on top of him with a dagger. He did not know why, really,
except that there was a threat in her eyes, and he was sure it was real. His
skin began to tingle, and his headache returned. Suddenly tingle and pain
vanished together, and Selene’s head whipped around as if listening to
something beyond the walls. A tiny frown appeared on her face, and she lowered
her hand. The frown vanished. “We will talk again, Mat. I have much to say to
you. Remember your choices. Remember that there are many hands that would kill
you. I alone guarantee you life, and all you seek, if you do as I say.” She
slipped out of the door as silently and gracefully as she had entered. Mat let out a long
breath. Sweat ran down his face. Who in
the Light is she? A Darkfriend, perhaps. Except that she had sounded as
contemptuous of Ba’alzamon as she was of Aes Sedai. Darkfriends spoke of
Ba’alzamon the way anyone else might speak of the Creator. And she had not
asked him to conceal her visit from the Aes Sedai. Right, he
thought sourly. Pardon me, Aes Sedai, but
this woman came to see me. She wasn’t Aes Sedai, but I think maybe she started
to use the One Power on me, and she said she wasn’t a Darkfriend, but she did
say you mean to use me, and the Black Ajah’s in your Tower. Oh, and she said
I’m important. I don’t know how. You don’t mind if I leave now, do you? Going was beginning to
be a better idea by the minute. He slid awkwardly off the bed and made his way
unsteadily to the wardrobe, still clutching his blanket around him. His boots
were on the floor inside, and his cloak hung from a peg, under his belt, with
pouch and sheathed belt knife. It was just a country knife, with a stout blade,
but it could do as much as any fine dagger. The rest of his clothes ‑ two
sturdy wool coats, three pairs of breeches, half a dozen linen shirts and
smallclothes ‑ had been brushed or washed as required, and neatly folded
on the shelves that took up one side of the wardrobe. He felt the pouch hanging
from the belt, but it was empty. Its contents lay jumbled on a shelf with what
had been emptied from his pockets. He brushed aside a
redhawk’s feather, a smooth, striped rock he had liked the colors of, his
razor, and his bone‑handled pocketknife, and freed his wash‑leather
purse from some coils of spare bowstring. When he tugged it open, he found his
memory had been all too good in this instance. “Two silver marks and a
handful of copper,” he muttered. “I won’t get far on that.” Once it would have
seemed a small fortune to him, but that had been before he left Emond’s Field. He stooped to peer back
into the shelf. Where are they? He
began to be afraid the Aes Sedai might have thrown them out, the way his mother
would if she had ever found them. Where .
. . ? He felt a surge of relief. Way in the back, behind his tinderbox and ball
of twine for snares and the like, were his two leather dice cups. They rattled as he
pulled them out, but he still popped off the tight fitting round caps.
Everything was as it should be. Five dice carved with symbols, for crowns, and
five marked with spots. The spotted dice would do for a number of games, but
more men seemed to play crowns than anything else. With these, his two marks
would become enough to take him far away from Tar Valon. Away from Aes Sedai and Selene, both. A peremptory knock was
followed immediately by the door opening. He whirled around. The Amyrlin Seat
and the Keeper of the Chronicles were entering. He would have recognized them
even without the Amyrlin’s broad, striped stole, and the Keeper’s narrower blue
stole. He had seen them once and only once, a long way from Tar Valon, but he
could not forget the two most powerful women among the Aes Sedai. The Amyrlin’s eyebrows
rose at the sight of him standing there with the blanket hanging from his
shoulders and his purse and dice cups in his hands. “I don’t think you will
need those for a while yet, my son,” she said dryly. “Put them up and get back
to bed before you fall on your face.” He hesitated, his back
stiffening, but his knees chose that moment to wobble, and the two Aes Sedai
were looking at him, dark eyes and blue alike appearing to read his every
rebellious thought. He did as he was told, holding the blanket around him with
both hands. He lay down straight as a board, not sure what else he could do. “How are you feeling?”
the Amyrlin asked briskly as she put a hand on his head. Goose bumps covered
his skin. Had she done something with the One Power, or was it being touched by
an Aes Sedai that made him feel a chill? “I’m fine,” he told her.
“Why, I am ready to be on my way. Just let me say goodbye to Egwene and
Nynaeve, and I’ll be out of your hair. I mean, I will go . . . uh, Mother.”
Moiraine and Verin had not seemed to care much how he talked, but this was the
Amyrlin Seat, after all. “Nonsense,” the Amyrlin
said. She pulled the high‑backed chair around, closer to the bed, and
sat, addressing Leane. “Men always seem to refuse to admit they are sick until
they’re sick enough to make twice as much work for women. Then they claim
they’re well too soon, with the same result.” The Keeper glanced at
Mat and nodded. “Yes, Mother, yet this one cannot claim he is well when he can
barely stand up. At least he has eaten everything on his tray.” “I’d be surprised if he
had left enough crumbs to interest a finch. And still hungry, unless I miss my
guess.” ‘ “I could have someone
bring him a pie, Mother. Or some cakes.” “No, I think he has had
as much as he can hold for now. If he brings it all back up, it won’t do him
any good.” Mat scowled. It seemed
to him that when you got sick, you became invisible to women unless they were
actually talking to you. And then they took at least ten years off your age.
Nynaeve, his mother, his sisters, the Amyrlin Seat, they all did it. “I’m not hungry at all,”
he announced. “I am fine. If you will let me put my clothes on, I’ll show you
how well I am. I will be out of here before you know it.” They were both
looking at him, now. He cleared his throat. “Uh . . . Mother.” The Amyrlin snorted.
“You’ve eaten a meal for five, and you will eat three or four like it every day
for days yet, or else you will starve to death. You’ve just been Healed from a
link to the evil that killed every man, woman, and child in Aridhol, and no
less strong for near two thousand years waiting for you to pick it up. It was
killing you just as surely as it killed them. That is not like having a fish
spine stuck in your thumb, boy. We very nearly killed you ourselves trying to
save you.” “I am not hungry,” he
maintained. His stomach growled loudly to give him the lie. “I read you aright the
first time I saw you,” the Amyrlin said. “I knew right then you’d bolt like a
startled fisher‑bird if you ever thought someone was trying to hold you.
As well I took precautions.” He eyed them warily.
“Precautions?” They looked back, all serenity. He felt as if their eyes were
pinning him to the bed. “Your name and
description are on their way to the bridge guards,” the Amyrlin said, “and the
dockmasters. I’ll not try to hold you inside the Tower, but you will not leave
Tar Valon until you are well. Should you try to hide in the city, hunger will
drive you back here eventually, or if it doesn’t, we will find you before you
starve.” “Why do you want to keep
me here so badly?” he demanded. He heard Selene’s voice. They want to rule you. “Why should you care whether I starve or
not? I can feed myself.” The Amyrlin gave a small
laugh with little amusement in it. “With two silver marks and a handful of
copper, my son? Your dice would need to be very lucky indeed to buy all the
food you’ll need in the next few days. We do not Heal people, then let them
waste our efforts by dying while they still need care. In addition to which,
you may yet need more Healing. “ “More? You said you had
Healed me. Why should I need more?” “My son, you carried
that dagger for months. I believe we dug every trace of it out of you, but if
we missed even the smallest speck, it could still be fatal. And who knows what
effect your having it in your possession so long may have? Half a year from
now, a year, and you may wish you had an Aes Sedai to hand to Heal you again.” “You want me to stay
here a year?” he said incredulously, and loudly. Leane shifted her feet and
eyed him sharply, but the Amyrlin’s calm features were unruffled. “Perhaps not so long as
that, my son. Long enough to be certain, though. Surely you want as much. Would
you set sail in a boat when you didn’t know whether the caulking would hold, or
whether a plank might be rotten?” “I never had much to do
with boats,” Mat muttered. It might be true. Aes Sedai never lied, but there
were too many mights and mays in it for him. “I’ve been gone from home a long
time, Mother. My da and my mother probably think I am dead.” “If you wish to write a
letter to them, I will see that it is carried to Emond’s Field.” Mat waited for more, but
no more came. ‘Thank you, Mother.” He essayed a small laugh. “I’m half
surprised my da did not come looking for me. He’s the kind of man who would.”
He was not sure, but he thought there was a small hesitation before the Amyrlin
answered. “He did come. Leane
spoke to him.” The Keeper took it up
immediately. “We did not know where you were then, Mat. I told him so, and he
left before the heavy snows. I gave him some gold to make the journey home
easier.” “No doubt,” the Amyrlin said, “he will be pleased to hear
from you. And your mother will, certainly. Give me the letter when you have
written it, and I will see to it.” They had told him, but
he had had to ask. And they didn’t
mention Rand’s da. Maybe because they didn’t think I would care, and maybe
because . . . . Burn me, I don’t know. Who can tell with Aes Sedai? “I
was traveling with a friend, Mother. Rand al’Thor. You remember him. Do you
know if he is all right? I’ll bet his da is worried, too.” “As far as I know,” the
Amyrlin said smoothly, “the boy is well enough, but who can say? I have seen
him only once, the time I saw you, in Fal Dara.” She turned to the Keeper.
“Perhaps he could do with a small piece of pie, Leane. And something for his
throat, if he is going to do all this talking. Will you see that it is brought
to him?” The tall Aes Sedai left
with a murmured, “As you command, Mother.” When the Amyrlin turned
back to Mat, she was smiling, but her eyes were blue ice. “There are things it
would be dangerous for you to talk about, perhaps even in front of Leane. A
flapping tongue has killed more men than sudden storms ever did.” “Dangerous, Mother?” His
mouth felt suddenly parched, but he resisted the urge to lick his lips. Light, how much does she know about Rand? If
only Moiraine didn’t keep so many secrets. “Mother, I don’t know anything
dangerous. I can hardly remember half of what I do know.” “Do you remember the
Horn?” “What horn is that,
Mother?” She was on her feet and
looming over him so fast he hardly saw her move. “You play games with me, boy,
and I will make you weep for your mother to come running. I have no time for
games, and neither do you. Now, do‑you‑remember?” Clutching the blanket
tightly around him, he had to swallow before he could say, “I remember,
Mother.” She seemed to relax, just a little, and Mat shrugged his
shoulders queasily. He felt as if he had just been allowed to lift them off a
chopping block. “Good. That is good,
Mat.” She sat back down slowly, studying him. “Do you know that you are linked
to the Horn?” He mouthed the word “linked” silently, shocked, and she nodded.
“I did not think you knew. You were first to blow the Horn of Valere after it
was found. For you, it will summon dead heroes back from the grave. For anyone
else, it is only a horn ‑ so long as you live.” He took a deep breath.
“So long as I live,” he said in a dull voice, and the Amyrlin nodded. “You
could have let me die.” She nodded again. “Then you could have had anyone you
want blow it, and it would have worked for them.” Another nod. “Blood and
ashes! You mean me to blow it for you. When the Last Battle comes, you mean me
to call heroes back from the grave to fight the Dark One for you. Blood and
bloody ashes!” She put an elbow on the
arm of the chair and propped her chin on her hand. Her eyes never left him.
“Would you prefer the alternative?” He frowned, then
remembered what the alternative was. If someone else had to sound the Horn . .
. . “You want me to blow the Horn? Then I’ll blow the Horn. I never said I
would not, did I?” The Amyrlin gave an
exasperated sigh. “You remind me of my uncle Huan. No one could ever pin him
down. He liked to gamble, too, and he’d much rather have fun than work. He died
pulling children out of a burning house. He wouldn’t stop going back as long as
there was one left inside. Are you like him, Mat? Will you be there when the
flames are high?” He could not meet her
eyes. He studied his fingers as they plucked irritably at his blanket. “I’m no
hero. I do what I have to do, but I am no hero.” “Most of those we call
heroes only did what they had to do. I suppose it will have to be enough. For
now. You must not speak to anyone but me of the Horn, my son. Or of your link
to it.” For now? he
thought. It’s all you are going to bloody
get, now or ever. “I don’t mean to bloody tell everybo ‑
“ She arched an eyebrow, and he made his voice smooth again. “I do not want to
tell anyone. I wish nobody knew. Why do you want to keep it such a secret?
Don’t you trust your Aes Sedai?” For a long moment he
thought he had gone too far. Her face hardened, and her look could have carved
axe handles. “If I could make it so that
only you and I knew,” she said coldly, “I would. The more people know a thing,
the more the knowledge spreads, even with the best will. Most of the world
believes the Horn of Valere is only legend, and those who know better believe
one of the Hunters has yet to find it. But Shayol Ghul knows it has been found,
and that means at least some Darkfriends know. But they do not know where it
is, and, if the Light shines on us, they do not know you sounded it. Do you
really want Darkfriends coming after you? Halfmen, or other Shadowspawn? They
want the Horn. You must know that. It will work as well for the Shadow as for
the Light. But if it is to work for them, they must take you, or kill you. Do
you want to risk that?” Mat wished he had
another blanket, and maybe a goose‑down comforter. The room suddenly felt
very cold. “Are you telling me Darkfriends could come after me here? I thought
the White Tower could keep Darkfriends out.” He remembered what Selene had said
about the Black Ajah, and wondered what the Amyrlin would say to that. “A good reason to stay,
wouldn’t you say?” She got to her feet, smoothing her skirts. “Rest, my son.
Soon you will feel much better. Rest.” She closed the door softly behind her. For a long time Mat lay
staring up at the ceiling. He barely noticed when a serving woman came with his
piece of pie and another pitcher of milk, taking the tray of empty dishes when
she went. His stomach rumbled loudly at the warm smell of apples and spices,
but he paid that no mind either. The Amyrlin thought she held him like a sheep
in a pen. And Selene. . . . Who in
the Light is she? What does she want? Selene had been right about some
things; but the Amyrlin had told him she meant to use him, and how. In a way.
There were too many holes in what she had said to suit him, too many holes she
could slip something deadly through. The Amyrlin wanted something, and Selene
wanted something, and he was the rope they were tugging between them. He
thought he would rather face Trollocs than be caught between those two. There had to be a way
out of Tar Valon, a way out of both their grasps. Once he was beyond the river,
he could keep out of Aes Sedai hands, and Selene’s, and Darkfriends’, too. He
was sure of it. There had to be a way. All he had to do was think about it from
every angle. The pie grew cold on the
table. CHAPTER 21 A World of Dreams Egwene scrubbed her
hands with a hand towel as she hurried down the dimly lit corridor. She had
washed them twice, but they still felt greasy. She had not thought there could
be so many pots in the world. And today had been bake day, so buckets of ashes
had had to be hauled from the ovens. And the hearths cleaned. And the tables
rubbed bone‑white with fine sand, and the floors scrubbed on hands and
knees. Ash and grease stained her white dress. Her back ached, and she wanted
to be in her bed, but Verin had come to the kitchens, supposedly for a meal to
eat in her rooms, and whispered a summons to her in passing. Verin had her quarters
above the library, in corridors used only by. a few other Brown sisters. There
was a dusty air to the halls there, as if the women who lived along them were too
busy with other things to bother having the servants clean very often, and the
passages took odd turns and twists, sometimes dipping or rising unexpectedly.
The tapestries were few, their colorful weavings dulled, apparently cleaned as
seldom as everything else here. Many of the lamps were unlit, plunging much of
the hall into gloom. Egwene thought she had it to herself, except for a flash
of white ahead, perhaps a novice or a servant scurrying about some task. Her
shoes, clicking on bare black and white floor tiles, made echoes. It was not a
comforting place for one thinking of the Black Ajah. She found what Verin had
told her to look for. A dark paneled door at the top of a rise, beside a dusty
tapestry of a king on horseback receiving the surrender of another king. Verin
had named the pair of them ‑ men dead hundreds of years before Artur
Hawkwing was born; Verin always seemed to know such things ‑ but Egwene
could not remember their names, or the long‑vanished countries they had
ruled. It was the only wall hanging she had seen that matched Verin’s
description, though. Minus the sound of her
own footsteps, the hallway seemed even emptier than before, and more
threatening. She rapped on the door, and entered hurriedly on the heels of an
absentminded, “Who is it? Come in.” One step into the room,
she stopped and stared. Shelves lined the walls, except for one door that must
lead to inner rooms and except for where maps hung, often in layers, and what
seemed to be charts of the night sky. She recognized the names of some
constellations ‑ the Plowman and the Haywain, the Archer and the Five
Sisters ‑ but others were unfamiliar. Books and papers and scrolls
covered nearly every flat surface, with all sorts of odd things interspersed
among the piles, and sometimes on top of them. Strange shapes of glass or
metal, spheres and tubes interlinked, and circles held inside circles, stood
among bones and skulls of every shape and description. What appeared to be a
stuffed brown owl, not much bigger than Egwene’s hand, stood on what seemed to
be a bleached white lizard’s skull, but could not be, for the skull was longer
than her arm and had crooked teeth as big as her fingers. Candlesticks had been
stuck about in a haphazard fashion, giving good light here and shadows there,
although seeming in danger of setting fire to papers in some places. The owl
blinked at her, and she jumped. “Ah, yes,” Verin said.
She was seated behind a table as cluttered as everything else in the room, a
torn page held carefully in her hands. “It is you. Yes.” She noticed Egwene’s
sideways glance at the owl, and said absently, “He keeps down mice. They chew
paper.” Her gesture took in the entire room, and reminded her of the page she
held. “Fascinating, this. Rosel of Essam claimed more than a hundred pages
survived the Breaking, and she should have known, since she wrote barely two
hundred years afterwards, but only this one piece still exists, so far as I
know. Perhaps only this very copy. Rosel wrote that it held secrets the world
could not face, and she would not speak of them plainly. I have read this page
a thousand times, trying to decipher what she meant.” The tiny owl blinked at
Egwene again. She tried not to look at it. “What does it say, Verin Sedai?” Verin blinked, very much
as the owl had. “What does it say? It is a direct translation, mind, and reads
almost like a bard reciting in High Chant. Listen. ‘Heart of the Dark.
Ba’alzamon. Name hidden within name shrouded by name. Secret buried within
secret cloaked by secret. Betrayer of Hope. Ishamael betrays all hope. Truth
burns and sears. Hope fails ‘before truth. A lie is our shield. Who can stand
against the Heart of the Dark? Who can face the Betrayer of Hope? Soul of
shadow, Soul of the Shadow, he is ‑ “ She stopped with a sigh. “It ends
there. What do you make of it?” “I don’t know,” Egwene
said. “I do not like it.” “Well, why should you,
child? Like it, or understand it? I have studied it nearly forty years, and I
do neither.” Verin carefully placed the page inside a silk‑lined folder of
stiff leather, then casually stuffed the folder into a stack of papers. “But
you did not come for that.” She rummaged across the table, muttering to
herself, several times barely catching a pile of books or manuscripts before it
toppled. Finally she came up with a handful of pages covered in a thin, spidery
hand and tied with nubby string. “Here, child. Everything that is known about
Liandrin and the women who went with her. Names, ages, Ajahs, where they were
born. Everything I could find in the records. Even how they performed in their
studies. What we know of the ter’angreal they
took, too, which isn’t much. Only descriptions, for the most part. I do not
know whether any of this will help. I saw nothing of any use in this.” “Perhaps one of us will
see something.” A sudden wave of suspicion took Egwene by surprise. If she didn’t leave something out. The
Amyrlin seemed to trust Verin only because she had to. What if Verin was Black
Ajah herself? She gave herself a shake. She had traveled all the way from Toman
Head to Tar Valon with Verin, and she refused to believe this plump scholar
could be a Darkfriend. “I trust you, Verin Sedai.” Can I, really? The Aes Sedai blinked at
her again, then dismissed whatever thought had come to her with a shade of her
head. “That list I gave you may be important, or it may be so much waste of
paper, but it isn’t the only reason I summoned you.” She started moving things
on the table, making some shaky stacks taller to clear a space. “I understand
from Anaiya that you might become a Dreamer. The last was Corianin Nedeal, four
hundred and seventy‑three years ago, and from what I can make of the
records, she barely deserved the name. It would be quite interesting, if you
do.” “She tested me, Verin
Sedai, but she couldn’t be sure that any of my dreams foretold the future.” “That is only part of
what a Dreamer does, child. Perhaps the least part. Anaiya believes in bringing
girls along too slowly, in my opinion. Look here.” With one finger, Verin drew
a number of parallel lines across the area she had cleared, lines clear in dust
atop the old beeswax. “Let these represent worlds that might exist if different
choices had been made, if major turning points in the Pattern had gone another
way.” “The worlds reached by
the Portal Stones,” Egwene said, to show she had listened to Verin’s lectures
on the journey from Toman Head. What could this possibly have to do with
whether or not she was a Dreamer? “Very good. But the
Pattern may be even more complex than that, child. The Wheel weaves our lives
to make the Pattern of an Age, but the Ages themselves are woven into the Age
Lace, the Great Pattern. Who can know if this is even the tenth part of the
weaving, though? Some in the Age of Legends apparently believe that there were
still other worlds ‑ even harder to reach than the worlds of the Portal
Stones, if that can be believed ‑ lying like this.” She drew more lines,
cross‑hatching the first set. For a moment she stared at them. “The warp
and the woof of the weave. Perhaps the Wheel of Time weaves a still greater
Pattern from worlds.” Straightening, she dusted her hands. “Well, that is
neither here nor there. In all of these worlds, whatever their other
variations, a few things are constant. One is that the Dark One is imprisoned
in all of them.” In spite of herself,
Egwene stepped closer to peer at the lines Verin had drawn. “In all of them?
How can that be? Are you saying there is a Father of Lies for each world?” The
thought of so many Dark Ones made her shiver. “No, child. There is one
Creator, who exists everywhere at once for all of these worlds. In the same
way, there is only one Dark One, who also exists in all of these worlds at
once. If he is freed from the prison the Creator made in one world, he is freed
on all. So long as he is kept prisoner in one, he remains imprisoned on all.” “That does not seem to
make sense,” Egwene protested. “Paradox, child. The
Dark One is the embodiment of paradox and chaos, the destroyer of reason and
logic, the breaker of balance, the unmaker of order.” The owl suddenly took
flight on silent wings, landing atop a large white skull on a shelf behind the
Aes Sedai. It peered down at the two women, blinking. Egwene had noticed the
skull when she came in, with its curled horns and snout, and vaguely wondered
what sort of ram had so big a head. Now she took in the roundness of it, the
high forehead. Not a ram’s skull. A Trolloc. She drew a shuddering
breath. “Verin Sedai, what does this have to do with being a Dreamer? The Dark
One is bound in Shayol Ghul, and I do not want to even think of him escaping.” But the seals on his prison are weakening.
Even novices know that, now. “Do with being a
Dreamer? Why, nothing, child. Except that we must all confront the Dark One in
one way or another. He is prisoned now, but the Pattern did not bring Rand
al’Thor into the world for no purpose. The Dragon Reborn will face the Lord of
the Grave; that much is sure. If Rand survives that long, of course. The Dark
One will try to distort the Pattern, if he can. Well, we have gone rather far
afield, haven’t we?” “Forgive me, Verin
Sedai, but if this” ‑ Egwene indicated the lines drawn in the dust ‑
“has nothing to do with being a Dreamer, why are you telling me about it?” Verin stared at her as
if she were deliberately being dense. “Nothing? Of course it has something to
do with it, child. The point is that there is a third constant besides the
Creator and the Dark One. There is a world that lies within each of these others, inside all of them at the same time.
Or perhaps surrounding them. Writers in the Age of Legends called it Tel’aran’rhiod, “the Unseen World.”
Perhaps “the World of Dreams” is a better translation. Many people ‑
ordinary folk who could not think of channeling - sometimes glimpse Tel’aran’rhiod in their dreams, and even
catch glimmers of these other worlds through it. Think of some of the peculiar
things you have seen in your dreams. But a Dreamer, child ‑ a true
Dreamer ‑ can enter Tel’aran’rhiod.” Egwene tried to swallow,
but a lump in her throat stopped her. Enter
it? “I . . . I don’t think I am a Dreamer, Verin Sedai. Anaiya Sedai’s
tests - ” Verin cut her off. “ ‑ prove nothing one way or the other. And Anaiya still believes that you
may very tell be one.” “I suppose I will learn
whether I am or not eventually,” Egwene mumbled. Light, I want to be, don’t I? I want to learn! I want it all. “You have no time to
wait, child. The Amyrlin has entrusted a great task to you and Nynaeve. You
must reach out for any tool you might be able to use.” Verin dug a red wooden
box from under the welter on her table. The box was large enough to hold sheets
of paper, but when the Aes Sedai opened the lid a crack, all she pulled out was
a ring carved from stone, all flecks and stripes of blue and brown and red, and
too large to be a finger ring. “Here, child.” Egwene shifted the
papers to take it, and her eyes widened in surprise. The ring certainly looked
like stone, but it felt harder than steel and heavier than lead. And the circle
of it was twisted. If she ran a finger along one edge, it would go around
twice, inside as well as out; it only had one edge. She moved her finger along
that edge twice, just to convince herself. “Corianin Nedeal,” Verin
said, “had that ter’angreal in her
possession for most of her life. You will keep it, now.” Egwene almost dropped
the ring. A ter’angreal? I am
to keep a ter’angreal? Verin seemed not to
notice her shock. “According to her, it eases the passage to Tel’aran’rhiod. She claimed it would
work for those without Talent as well as for Aes Sedai, so long as you are
touching it when you sleep. There are dangers, of course. Tel’aran’rhiod is not like other dreams. What happens there is
real; you are actually there instead of just glimpsing it.” She pushed back the
sleeve of her dress, revealing a faded scar the length of her forearm. “I tried
it myself, once, some years ago. Anaiya’s Healing did not work as well as it
should have. Remember that.” The Aes Sedai let her sleeve cover the scar again. “I will be careful,
Verin Sedai.” Real? My dreams are bad
enough as they are. I want no dreams that leave scars! I’ll put it in a sack
and stick it in a dark corner and leave it there. I’ll ‑ But she wanted to learn. She wanted to be Aes
Sedai, and no Aes Sedai had been a Dreamer in nearly five hundred years. “I’ll
be very careful.” She slipped the ring into her pouch and tugged the
drawstrings tight, then picked up the papers Verin had given her. “Remember to keep it
hidden, child. No novice, or even an Accepted, should have a thing like that in
her possession. But it may prove useful to you. Keep it hidden.” “Yes, Verin Sedai.”
Remembering Verin’s scar, she almost wished another Aes Sedai would come along
and take it from her right then. “Good, child. Now, off
with you. It grows late, and you must be up early to help with breakfast. Sleep
well.” Verin sat looking at the
door for a time after it closed behind Egwene. The owl hooted softly behind
her. Pulling the red box to her, she opened the lid all the way and frowned at
what neatly filled the space. Page upon page, covered
with a precise hand, the black ink barely faded after nearly five hundred
years. Corianin Nedeal’s notes, everything she had learned in fifty years of
studying that peculiar ter’angreal. A
secretive woman, Corianin. She had kept by far the greater part of her
knowledge from everyone, trusting it only to these pages. Only chance and a
habit of rummaging through old papers in the library had led Verin to them. As
far as she could discover, no Aes Sedai besides herself knew of the ter’angreal; Corianin had managed to
erase its existence from the records. Once again she
considered burning the manuscript, just as she had considered giving it to
Egwene. But destroying knowledge, any knowledge, was anathema to her. And for
the other . . . . No. It is best
by far to leave things as they are. What will happen, will happen. She let
the lid drop shut. Now where did I
put that page? Frowning, she began to search the stacks of books and papers
for the leather folder. Egwene was already out of her mind. CHAPTER 22 The Price of The Ring Egwene had only gone a
short distance from Verin’s rooms when Sheriam met her. The Mistress of Novices
wore a preoccupied frown. “If someone hadn’t
remembered Verin speaking to you, I might not have found you.” The Aes Sedai
sounded mildly irritated. “Come along, child. You are holding everything up!
What are those papers?” Egwene clutched them a
little tighter. She tried to make her voice both meek and respectful. “Verin
Sedai thinks I should study them, Aes Sedai.” What would she do if Sheriam
asked to see them? What excuse could she give for refusing, what explanation
for pages telling all about thirteen women of the Black Ajah and the ter’angreal they had stolen? But Sheriam seemed to
have dismissed the papers from her mind as soon as she asked. “Never mind that.
You are wanted, and everyone is waiting.” She took Egwene’s arm and forced her
to walk faster. “Wanted, Sheriam Sedai?
Waiting for what?” Sheriam shook her head
with exasperation. “Did you forget that you are to be raised to the Accepted?
When you come to my study tomorrow, you will be wearing the ring, though I
doubt it will soothe you very much. “ Egwene tried to stop
short, but the Aes Sedai hurried her on, taking a narrow set of stairs that
curled down through the library walls. “Tonight? Already? But I am half‑asleep,
Aes Sedai, and dirty, and . . . . I thought I would ‑ have days yet. To
get ready. To prepare.” “The hour waits on no
woman,” Sheriam said. “The Wheel weaves as the Wheel wills, when the Wheel wills. Besides, how would
you prepare? You already know the things you must. More than your friend
Nynaeve did.” She pushed Egwene through a tiny door at the foot of the stairs
and hurried her across another hall to a ramp curving down and down. “I listened to the
lectures,” Egwene protested, “and I remember them, but . . . can’t I have a
night’s sleep first?” The winding ramp seemed to have no end. “The Amyrlin Seat
decided there was no point in waiting.” Sheriam gave Egwene a sidelong smile.
“Her exact words were, ‘Once you decide to gut a fish, there’s no use waiting
till it rots.’ Elayne has already been through the arches by this time, and the
Amyrlin means you to go through tonight as well. Not that I can see the point
of such a hurry,” she added, half to herself, “but when the Amyrlin commands,
we obey.” Egwene let herself be
pulled down the ramp in silence, a knot forming in her belly. Nynaeve had been
far from forthcoming about what had happened when she was raised to the
Accepted. She would not speak of it at all, except for a grimaced, ‘I hate Aes
Sedai!’ Egwene was trembling by the time the ramp finally ended at a broad
hallway, far below the Tower in the rock of the island. The hall was plain and
undecorated, the pale rock through which it had been hewn smoothed but left
otherwise untouched, and there was only one set of dark wooden doors, as tall
and wide as fortress gates and as plain, although of smoothly finished and
finely fitted planks, at the very end. Those great doors were so well balanced,
though, that Sheriam easily pushed one open, and pulled Egwene through after
her, into a great, domed chamber. “Not before time!”
Elaida snapped. She stood to one side in her red-fringed shawl, beside a table
on which sat three large silver chalices. Lamps on tall stands
illumined the chamber, and what sat centered under the dome. Three rounded,
silver arches, just tall enough to walk under, sitting on a thick silver ring
with their ends touching where they joined it. An Aes Sedai sat cross‑legged
on the bare rock before each of the spots where arches joined ring, all three
wearing their shawls. Alanna was the sister of the Green Ajah, but she did not
know the Yellow sister, or the White. Surrounded by the glow
of saidar embraced, the three Aes
Sedai stared fixedly at the arches, and within the silver structure an
answering glow flickered and grew. That structure was a ter’angreal, and whatever it had been made for in the Age of
Legends, now novices passed through it to become Accepted. Inside it, Egwene
would have to face her fears. Three times. The white light within the arches no
longer flickered; it stayed within them as if confined, but it filled the
space, made it opaque. “Be easy, Elaida,”
Sheriam said calmly. “We will be done soon.” She turned to Egwene. “Novices are
given three chances at this. You may refuse twice to enter, but at the third
refusal, you are sent away from the Tower forever. That is how it is done
usually, and you certainly have the right to refuse, but I do not think the
Amyrlin Seat will be pleased with you if you do.” “She should not be given
this chance.” There was iron in Elaida’s voice, and her face was scarcely
softer. “I do not care what her potential is. She should be put out of the
Tower. Or failing that, set to scrubbing floors for the next ten years.” Sheriam gave the Red
sister a sharp look. “You were not so adamant about Elayne. You demanded to be
part of this, Elaida ‑ perhaps because of Elayne ‑ and you will do
your part for this girl as well, as you are supposed to, or you will leave and
I will find another.” The two Aes Sedai stared
at one another until Egwene would not have been surprised to see the glow of
the One Power surround them. Finally Elaida gave a toss of her head and sniffed
loudly. “If it must be done, let
us do it. Give the miserable girl her chance to refuse and be done with it. It
is late.” “I won’t refuse.”
Egwene’s voice quavered, but she steadied it and held her head high. “I want to
go on.” “Good,” Sheriam said. “Good.
Now I will tell you two things no woman hears until she stands where you do.
Once you begin, you must go on to the end. Refuse at any point, and you will be
put out of the Tower just as if you had refused to begin for the third time.
Second. To seek, to strive, is to know danger.” She sounded as if she had said
this many times. There was a light of sympathy in her eyes, but her face was
almost as stern as Elaida’s. The sympathy frightened Egwene more than the
sternness. “Some women have entered, and never come out. When the ter’angreal was allowed to grow quiet,
they-were‑not‑there. And they were never seen again. If you will
survive, you must be steadfast. Falter, fail, and . . . .” Sheriam’s face drove
the unspoken words home; Egwene shivered. “This
is your last chance. Refuse now, and it counts only as the first. You may
still try twice more. If you accept now, there is no turning back. It is no
shame to refuse. I could not do it, my first time. Choose.” They never came out? Egwene swallowed hard. I want
to be Aes Sedai. And first I have to become Accepted. “I accept.” Sheriam nodded. “Then
ready yourself.” Egwene blinked, then
remembered. She had to enter unclothed. She bent to set down the tied bundle of
papers Verin had given her ‑ and hesitated. If she left them there,
Sheriam or Elaida either one could go through them while she was inside the ter’angreal. They could find that
smaller ter’angreal in her pouch. If
she refused to go on, she could hide them away, perhaps leave them with
Nynaeve. Her breath caught. I cannot
refuse now. I’ve already begun. “Have you already chosen
to refuse, child?” Sheriam asked, frowning. “Knowing what that will mean, now?” “No, Aes Sedai,” Egwene
said quickly. Hastily she undressed and folded her clothes, then set them on
top of the pouch and the papers. It would have to do. Beside the ter’angreal, Alanna suddenly spoke.
“There is some sort of ‑ resonance.” She never took her eyes from the
arches. “An echo, almost. I do not know from where.” “Is there a problem?”
Sheriam asked sharply. She sounded surprised, too. “I will not send a woman in
there if there is any problem.” Egwene looked yearningly
at her piled clothes. Please, yes, Light,
a problem. Something that will let me hide those papers without refusing to
enter. “No,” Alanna said. “It
is like having a biteme buzz ‘round your head when you’re trying to think, but
it does not interfere. I would not have mentioned it, only it has never
happened before that I ever heard.” She shook her head. “It is gone now.” “Perhaps,” Elaida said
dryly, “others thought such a small thing was not worth mentioning.” “Let us go on.”
Sheriam’s tone would not put up with any more distractions. “Come.” With a last glance at
her clothes and the hidden papers, Egwene followed her toward the arches. The
stone felt like ice under her bare feet. “Whom do you bring with
you, Sister?” Elaida intoned. Continuing her measured
pace, Sheriam replied, “One who comes as a candidate for Acceptance, Sister.”
The three Aes Sedai around the ter’angreal did not move. “Is she ready?” “She is ready to leave
behind what she was, and, passing through her fears, gain Acceptance.” “Does she know her
fears?” “She has never faced
them, but now is willing.” “Then let her face what
she fears.” Even in its formality, there was a note of satisfaction in Elaida’s
voice. “The first time,”
Sheriam said, “is for what was. The way back will come but once. Be steadfast.” Egwene took a deep
breath and stepped forward, through the arch and into the glow. Light swallowed
her whole. “Jaim Dawtry dropped by.
There’s odd news down from Baerlon with the peddler.” Egwene raised her head
from the cradle she was rocking. Rand was standing in the doorway. For an
instant her head spun. She looked from Rand ‑ my husband ‑ to the child in the cradle ‑ my daughter ‑
and back again, in wonder. The way back will come but once. Be steadfast. It was not her own thought, but a disembodied voice that
could have been inside her head or out, male or female, yet emotionless and
unknowable. Somehow, it did not seem strange to her. The moment of wonder
passed, and the only thing to wonder about was why she had thought anything
seemed out of round. Of course Rand was her husband ‑ her handsome,
loving husband ‑ and Joiya was her daughter ‑ the most beautiful,
sweetest little girl in the Two Rivers. Tam, Rand’s father, was out with the
sheep, supposedly so Rand could work on the barn but really so he could have
more time to play with Joiya. This afternoon Egwene’s mother and father would
come out from the village. And probably Nynaeve, to see if motherhood was
interfering with Egwene’s studies to replace Nynaeve as Wisdom one day. “What kind of news?” she
asked. She took up rocking the cradle again, and Rand came over to grin down at
the tiny child wrapped in swaddling cloches. Egwene laughed softly to herself.
He was so taken with his daughter that he did not hear what people said to him
half the time. “Rand ? What kind of news? Rand?” “What?” His grin faded.
“Strange news. War. There’s some big war, taking up most of the world, so Jaim
claims.” That was strange news; word of wars seldom reached the Two Rivers till
the wars were long done. “He says everybody is fighting some folk called the
Shawkin, or the Sanchan, or something like that. I never heard of them.” Egwene knew ‑ she
thought she knew ‑ Whatever it was, was gone. “Are you all right?” he
asked. “It’s nothing to upset us here, my heart. Wars never touch the Two
Rivers. We are too far from everywhere for anyone to care.” “I’m not upset. Did Jaim
say anything else?” “Nothing you can
believe. He sounded like a Coplin. He said the peddler told him these people
use Aes Sedai in battle, but then he claimed they offer a thousand gold marks
to anyone who turns an Aes Sedai over to them. And they kill anybody who hides
one. It makes no sense. Well, it’s nothing to trouble us. It is all a long way
from here.” Aes Sedai. Egwene
couched her head. The way back comes but once. Be steadfast. She noticed Rand had a
hand to his own head. “The headaches?” she asked. He nodded, his eyes
suddenly tight. “That powder Nynaeve gave me doesn’t seem to be working the
last few days.” She hesitated. These
headaches of his worried her. They grew worse every time they came, now. And
worst of all was something she had not noticed at first, something she almost
wished she never had noticed. When Rand’s head hurt, strange things happened
soon after. Lightning out of a clear sky, smashing to bits that huge oak stump
he had been working two days to root out where he and Tam were clearing new
field. Storms chat Nynaeve did not hear coming when she listened to the wind.
Wildfires in the forest. And the deeper his pain grew, the worse what followed.
No one else had connected these things to Rand, not even Nynaeve, and Egwene
was grateful for that. She did not want to think about what it might mean. That is plain stupid
foolish, she told herself. I must know if I am going to help him. Because
she had a secret of her own, one that frightened her even as she tried to
puzzle out what it meant. Nynaeve was teaching her the herbs, teaching Egwene
to follow her as Wisdom, one day. Nynaeve’s cures often worked in near
miraculous fashion, wounds healed with barely a scar, sick folk brought back
from the edge of the grave. But three times now, Egwene had cured someone
Nynaeve had given up for dead. Three times she had sat to hold a hand through
the last hour, and seen the person get up from a deathbed. Nynaeve had
questioned her closely on what she had done, what herbs she had used, in what
blending. Thus far, she had not found the courage to admit that she had done
nothing. I must have done something. Once
might be chance, but three times . . . . I have to figure it out. I have to
learn. That set off a buzz in her head, as though the words were echoing inside
her skull. If I could do something
for them, I can help my husband. “Let me try, Rand,” she
said. And as she stood, through the open door, she saw a silver arch standing
in front of the house, an arch filled with white light.The way back will
come but once. Be steadfast. She took two steps toward the door before she
could stop herself. . She halted, looked back
at Joiya gurgling in her cradle, at Rand still pressing hand to his head and
looking at her as if wondering where she was going. “No,” she said. “No, this
is what I want. This is what I want! Why can’t I have this, too?” She did not
understand her own words. Of course, this was what she wanted, and she had it. “What is it you want,
Egwene?” Rand asked. “If it’s anything I can get, you know I will. If I can’t
get it, I’ll make it.” The way back will come but once. Be steadfast. She took another step,
into the doorway. The silver arch beckoned her. Something waited on the other
side. Something she wanted more than anything else in the world. Something she
had to do. “Egwene, I - ” There was a thump behind
her. She looked over her shoulder to see Rand on his knees, bowed and head
cradled in his hands. The pain had never hit him so hard. What will come after this? “Ah, Light!” he panted.
“Light! Hurts! Light, it hurts worse than ever! Egwene?” Be steadfast. It was waiting.
Something she had to do. Had to. She took a step. It was hard, harder than
anything she had ever done in her life. Outside, toward the arch. Behind her,
Joiya was laughing. “Egwene? Egwene, I can’t
‑ “ He cut off with a loud groan. Steadfast. She stiffened her back
and kept walking, but she could not keep the tears from rolling down her
cheeks. Rand’s groans built to a scream, drowning Joiya’s laughter. From the
corner of her eye, Egwene saw Tam coming, running as hard as he could. He can’t help, she thought, and tears became wracking sobs. There is nothing he can do. But I could. I could. She stepped into the
light, and was consumed. Trembling and sobbing,
Egwene stepped out of the arch, the same by which she had entered, memory
cascading back with Sheriam’s face confronting her. Cold clear water washed
away her tears as Elaida slowly emptied a silver chalice over her head. Her
weeping went on; she did not think it would ever end. “You are washed clean,”
Elaida pronounced, “of what sin you may have done, and of those done against
you. You are washed clean of what crime you may have committed, and of those
committed against you. You come to us washed clean and pure, in heart and
soul.” Light, Egwene
thought as the water ran down her body, let
it be so. Can water wash away what I did? “Her name was Joiya,” she told
Sheriam between sobs. “Joiya. Nothing can be worth what I just . . . what I. .
. . “ “There is a price to
become Aes Sedai,” Sheriam replied, but the sympathy was back in her eyes,
stronger than before. “There is always a price. “ “Was it real? Did I
dream it?” Weeping swallowed what she wanted to say. Did I leave him to die? Did I leave my baby? Sheriam put an arm
around her shoulders, began guiding her around the circle of arches. “Every
woman I have ever watched come out of there has asked that question. The answer
is, no one knows. It has been speculated that perhaps some of those who do not
come back chose to stay because they found a happier place, and lived out their
lives there.” Her voice hardened. “If it is real, and they stayed from choice,
then I hope the lives they live are far from happy. I have no sympathy for any
who run from their responsibilities.” The edge on her tone softened slightly.
“Myself, I believe it is not real. But the danger is. Remember that.” She
stopped in front of the next glow‑filled arch. “Are you ready?” Shifting her feet,
Egwene nodded, and Sheriam took her arm away. “The second time is for
what is. The way back will come but once. Be steadfast.” Egwene trembled. Whatever happens, it cannot be worse than
the last. It cannot be. She stepped into the glow. She stared down at her
dress, blue silk sewn with pearls, all dusty and torn. Her head came up, and
she took in the ruins of a great palace around her. The Royal Palace of Andor,
in Caemlyn. She knew that, and wanted to scream. The way back will come but once. Be steadfast. The world was not the
way she wanted it, no way that she could think of without wanting to cry, but
all her tears had been cried away long ago, and the world was as it was. Ruin
was what she expected to see. Careless of making more
rips in her dress but as careful of sound as a mouse, she climbed one of the
piles of rubble and peered into the curving streets of the Inner City. As far
as she could see in every direction lay ruin and desolation, buildings that
looked as if they had been torn apart by madmen, thick plumes of smoke rising
from the fires still burning. There were people in the streets, bands of armed
men prowling, searching. And Trollocs. The men shied away from the Trollocs,
and the Trollocs snarled at them and laughed, harsh guttural laughter. But they
knew each other, worked together. A Myrddraal came
striding down the street, its black cloak swaying gently with its steps even
when the wind gusted to drive dust and rubbish past it. Men and Trollocs alike
cowered under its eyeless stare. “Hunt!” Its voice sounded like something long
dead crumbling. “Do not stand there shivering! Find him!” Egwene slipped back down
the pile of jumbled stones as silently as she could. The way back will come but once. Be steadfast. She stopped, afraid the
whisper had come from Shadowspawn. In some way, though, she was sure it had
not. Glancing back over her shoulder, half fearful of seeing the Myrddraal
standing where she had just been, she hurried onward and into the ruined
palace, climbing over fallen timbers, squeezing between heavy blocks of
collapsed masonry as she made her way. Once she stepped on a woman’s arm,
sticking out from under a mound of plaster and bricks that had been an interior
wall and perhaps part of the floor above. She noticed the arm as little as she
noticed the Great Serpent ring on one finger. She had trained herself not to
see the dead buried in the refuse heap Trollocs and Darkfriends had made of
Caemlyn. She could do nothing for the dead. Forcing ‘her way through
a narrow gap where part of the ceiling had fallen, she found herself in a room
half buried under what had stood above it. Rand lay with a heavy beam pinning
him across the waist, his legs hidden beneath the stone blocks that filled half
the room. Dust and sweat coated his face. He opened his eyes when she came near
him. “You came back.” He
forced the words out in a hoarse rasp. “I was afraid ‑ No matter. You
have to help me.” She sank wearily to the
floor. “I could lift that beam easily with Air, but as soon as it moves,
everything else will come down on top of you. On top of both of us. I cannot
manage all of it, Rand.” His laugh was bitter and
painful, and cut off almost as soon as it began. Fresh sweat glistened on his
face, and he spoke with an effort. “I could shift the beam myself. You know
that. I could shift that and the stones above, all of them. But I have to let
go of myself to do it, and I can’t trust that. I cannot trust ‑ “ He
stopped, wheezing for breath. “I do not understand,”
she said slowly. “Let go of yourself? What can’t you trust?” The way back will come but once. Be
steadfast. She rubbed her hands roughly over her ears. “The madness, Egwene. I
am - actually ‑ holding it ‑ at bay.” His gasping laugh made her
skin prickle. “But it takes everything I have just to do that. If I let go,
even a little, even for an instant, the madness will have me. I won’t care what
I do then. You have to help me.” “How, Rand! I’ve tried
everything I know. Tell me how, and I will do it.” His hand flopped out,
fell just short of a dagger lying in the dust barebladed. “The dagger,” he
whispered. His hand made a painful journey back to his chest. “Here. In the
heart. Kill me.” She stared at him, at
the dagger, as if they were both poisonous serpents. “No! Rand, I will not. I
cannot! How could you ask such a thing?” Slowly his hand crept
back toward the dagger. His fingers came short again. He strained, moaning,
brushed it with a fingertip. Before he could try again, she kicked it away from
him. He collapsed with a sob. “Tell me why,” she
demanded. “Why would you ask me to ‑ to murder you? I will Heal you, I
will do anything to get you out of there, but I cannot kill you. Why?” “They can turn me,
Egwene. “ His breathing was so tortured, she wished she could weep. “If they
take me ‑ the Myrddraal ‑ the Dread-lords - they can turn me to the
Shadow. If madness has me, I cannot fight them. I won’t know what they are
doing till it is too late. If there is even a spark of life left when they find
me, they can still do it. Please, Egwene. For the love of the Light. Kill me.” “I ‑ I can’t,
Rand. Light help me, I cannot!” The way back will come but once. Be steadfast. She looked over her
shoulder, and a silver arch filled with white light took up most of the open
space among the rubble. “Egwene, help me.” Be steadfast. She stood and took a
step toward the arch. It was right there in front of her. One more step, and .
. . . “Please, Egwene. Help
me. I can’t reach it. For the love of the Light, Egwene, help me!” “I cannot kill you,” she
whispered. “I can’t. Forgive me.” She stepped forward. “HELP ME, EGWENE!” Light burned her to ash. Staggering, she stepped
out of the arch, neither noticing her nakedness nor caring. A shudder ran
through her, and she covered her mouth with both hands. “I couldn’t, Rand,” she
whispered. “I couldn’t. Please forgive me.” Light
help him. Please, Light help Rand. Cold water poured over
her head. “You are washed clean of
false pride,” Elaida intoned. “You are washed clean of false ambition. You come
to us washed clean, in heart and soul.” As the Red sister turned
away, Sheriam gently took Egwene’s shoulders and guided her toward the last
arch. “One more, child. One more, and it is done.” “He said they could turn
him to the Shadow,” Egwene mumbled. “He said the Myrddraal and the Dreadlords
could force him.” Sheriam missed a step,
and looked around quickly. Elaida was almost back to the table. The Aes Sedai
surrounding the ter’angreal stared at it, seeming lost to anything else. “An
unpleasant thing to talk of, child,” Sheriam said finally, and softly. “Come.
One more.” “Can they?” Egwene
insisted. “Custom,” Sheriam said,
“is not to speak of what happens within the ter’angreal. A woman’s fears are
her own.” “Can they?” Sheriam sighed, glanced
at the other Aes Sedai again, then dropped her voice to a whisper and spoke
swiftly. “This is something known only to a few, child, even in the Tower. You
should not learn it now, if ever, but I will tell you. There is ‑ a
weakness in being able to channel. That we learn to open ourselves to the True
Source means that we can be opened to other things.” Egwene shuddered. “Calm
yourself, child. It is not so easily done. It is a thing not done, so far as I
know ‑ Light send it has not been done! - since the Trolloc Wars. It
took thirteen Dreadlords ‑ Darkfriends who could channel - weaving the
flows through thirteen Myrddraal. You see? Not easily done. There are no
Dreadlords today. This is a secret of the Tower, child. If others knew, we
could never convince them they were safe. Only one who can channel can be
turned in this way. The weakness of our strength. Everyone else is as safe as a
fortress; only their own deeds and will can turn them to the Shadow.” “Thirteen,” Egwene said
in a tiny voice. “The same number who left the Tower. Liandrin, and twelve
more.” Sheriam’s face hardened.
“That is nothing for you to dwell on. You will forget it.” Her voice climbed to
a normal volume. “The third time is for what will be. The way back will come
but once. Be steadfast.” Egwene stared at the
glowing arch, stared at some far distance beyond it. Liandrin and twelve others. Thirteen Darkfriends who can channel. Light
help us all. She stepped into the light. It filled her. It shone through
her. It burned her to the bone, seared her to the soul. She flashed
incandescent in the light. Light help me!
There was nothing but the light. And the pain. Egwene stared into the
standing mirror, and was not sure whether she was more surprised by the ageless
smoothness of her face or the striped stole that hung around her neck. The
stole of the Amyrlin Seat. The way back will come but once. Be steadfast. Thirteen. She swayed, caught at
the mirror and almost toppled it and herself to the blue‑tiled floor of
her dressing chamber. Something is wrong, she thought. The wrongness
had nothing to do with her sudden dizziness, or at least that was not what felt
wrong. It was something else. But she had no idea what. There was an Aes Sedai
at her elbow, a woman with Sheriam’s high cheekbones but dark hair and
concerned brown eyes, and the hand‑wide stole of the Keeper on her
shoulders. Not Sheriam, though. Egwene had never seen her before; she was sure
she knew her as well as she knew herself. Haltingly, she put a name to the
woman. Beldeine. “Are you ill, Mother?” Her stole is green. That means she was raised from the Green Ajah. The
Keeper always comes from the same Ajah as the Amyrlin she serves. Which means
if I’m the Amyrlin ‑ if? ‑ then I was Green Ajah, too. That thought shook her. Not that she
had been Green Ajah, but that she had to reason it out. Light, something is wrong with me. The way back will come bu . . . . The voice in her head trailed away to finish in a
buzz. Thirteen Darkfriends. “I am well, Beldeine,”
Egwene said. The name felt strange on her tongue; it felt as if she had been
saying it for years. “We mustn’t keep them waiting.” Keep who waiting? She did not know, except that she felt infinitely
sad about ending that wait, endlessly reluctant. “They will be growing
impatient, Mother.” There was a hesitation in Beldeine’s voice, as if she felt
the same reluctance as Egwene, but for a different reason. Unless Egwene missed
her guess, behind that outer calm, Beldeine was terrified. “In that case, we had
best be about it.” Beldeine nodded, then
took a deep breath before crossing the carpet to where her staff of office,
topped with the snowdrop White Flame of Tar Valon, stood propped beside the
door. “I suppose we must, Mother.” She took up the staff and opened the door
for Egwene, then hurried ahead so that they made a procession of two, Keeper of
the Chronicles leading the Amyrlin Seat. Egwene noticed little of
the corridors they took. All her attention was directed inward. What is the matter with me? Why can’t I
remember? Why is so much of what I . . . almost remember wrong? She touched
the seven striped stole on her shoulders. Why
am I half sure I’m still a novice? The way back will come but on ‑
This time it
ended abruptly. Thirteen of the Black Ajah. She stumbled at that. It
was a frightening thought, but it chilled her to the marrow beyond fear. It
felt‑personal. She wanted to scream, to run and hide. She felt as if they
were after her. Nonsense. The Black Ajah
has been destroyed. That seemed an odd thought, too. Part of her remembered
something called the Great Purge. Part of her was sure no such thing had
happened. Eyes fixed ahead,
Beldeine had not noticed her stumble. Egwene had to lengthen her stride to
catch up. This woman is scared to her
toenails. What in the Light is she taking me to? Beldeine stopped before
tall, paired doors, their dark wood each inlaid with a large silver Flame of
Tar Valon. She wiped her hands on her dress, as if they were suddenly sweaty,
before opening one door and leading Egwene up a straight ramp of the same
silver-streaked white stone that made Tar Valon’s walls. Even here it seemed
to shine. The ramp let into a large,
circular room under a domed ceiling at least thirty paces high. A raised
platform ran around the outer edge of the room, fronted by steps except where
this ramp and two others came out, spaced equally around the circle. The Flame
of Tar Valon lay centered in the floor, surrounded by widening spirals of
color, the colors of the seven Ajahs. At the opposite side of the room from
where the ramp entered, a high-backed chair stood, heavy and ornately carved
in vines and leaves, painted in the colors of all the Ajahs. Beldeine rapped her
staff sharply on the floor. There was a tremor in her voice. “She comes. The
Keeper of the Seals. The Flame of Tar Valon. The Amyrlin Seat. She comes.” With a rustle of skirts,
shawled women on the platform got up from their chairs. Twenty‑one chairs
in groupings of three, each triad painted and cushioned in the same color as
the fringe on the shawls of the women who stood before them. The Hall of the Tower, Egwene thought as she crossed the floor to her chair. The Amyrlin Seat’s
chair. That’s all it is. The Hall of the
Tower, and the Sitters for the Ajahs. I’ve been here thousands of times. But
she could not remember one of them. What
am I doing in the Hall of the Tower? Light, they’ll skin me alive when they see
. . . . She was not sure what it was they would see, only that she prayed
they did not. The way back will come but The way back will The way The Black Ajah waits. That, at least, was whole. It came from everywhere. Why did no one else
seem to hear it? Settling in the chair of
the Amyrlin Seat ‑ the chair that was also the Amyrlin Seat ‑ she
realized she had no idea what to do next. The other Aes Sedai had seated
themselves when she did, all but Beldeine, who stood beside her with the staff,
swallowing nervously. They all seemed to be waiting on her. “Begin,” she said
finally. It seemed to be enough.
One of the Red Sitters stood. Egwene was shocked to recognize Elaida. At the
same time she knew that Elaida was foremost of the Sitters for the Red, and her
own bitterest enemy. The look on Elaida’s face as she stared across the chamber
made Egwene shiver inside. It was stern and cold ‑ and triumphant. It promised things best not thought of. “Bring him in,” Elaida
said loudly. From one of the ramps ‑
not the one Egwene had entered by ‑ came the crunch of boots on stone.
People appeared. A dozen Aes Sedai surrounding three men, two of them burly
guards with the white teardrops of the Flame of Tar Valon on their chests,
tugging the chains in which the third stumbled as if dazed. Egwene jerked forward in
her chair. The chained man was Rand. Eyes half‑closed, head sagging, he
seemed nearly asleep, moving only as the chains directed. “This man,” Elaida proclaimed, “has named himself the Dragon
Reborn.” There was a buzz of distaste, not as if the listeners were surprised,
but as though it were not something they wanted to hear. “This man has
channeled the One Power.” The buzz was louder now, disgusted and tinged with
fear. “There is only one penalty for this, known and recognized in every
nation, but pronounced only here, in Tar Valon, in the Hall of the Tower. I
call on the Amyrlin Seat to pronounce the sentence of gentling on this man.” Elaida’s eyes glittered
at Egwene. Rand. What do I do? Light,
what do I do? “Why do you hesitate?”
Elaida demanded. “The sentence has been set down for three thousand years. Why
do you hesitate, Egwene al’Vere?” One of the Green Sitters
was on her feet, anger bright through her calm. “Shame, Elaida! Show respect
for the Amyrlin Seat! Show respect for the Mother!” “Respect,” Elaida
answered coldly, “can be lost as well as won. Well, Egwene? Can it be you show
your weakness, your unfitness for your office, at last? Can it be you will not
pronounce sentence on this man?” Rand tried to lift his
head and failed. Egwene struggled to her
feet, head spinning, trying to remember she was the Amyrlin Seat with the power
to command all these women, screaming that she was a novice, that she did not
belong here, that something was dreadfully wrong. “No,” she said shakily. “No,
I cannot! I will not ‑“ “She betrays herself?”
Elaida’s shout drowned out Egwene’s attempt to speak. “She condemns herself out
of her own mouth! Take her!” As Egwene opened her
mouth, Beldeine moved beside her. Then the Keeper’s staff struck her head. Blackness. First there was pain in
her head. There was something hard under her back, and cold. Next came the
voices. Murmurs. “Is she still
unconscious?” It was a rasp, a file on bone. “Do not worry,” a woman
said from far, far away. She sounded uneasy, afraid, and trying not to show
either. “She will be dealt with before she knows what is happening to her. Then
she is ours, to do with as we will. Perhaps we will give her to you for sport.” “After you make your own
use of her.” “Of course.” The distant voices moved
further away. Her hand brushed against
her leg, touched bare, pebbly flesh. She opened her eyes a crack. She was
naked, bruised, lying on a rough wooden table, in what seemed to be a disused
storeroom. Splinters stuck her back. There was a metallic taste of blood in her
mouth. A cluster of Aes Sedai
stood to one side of the room, talking among themselves, voices low yet urgent.
The pain in her head made thinking difficult, but it seemed important to count
them. Thirteen. Another group, black‑cloaked
and hooded men, joined the Aes Sedai, who seemed caught between cowering and
trying to dominate with their presence. One of the men turned his head to look
toward the table. The dead white face within the hood had no eyes. Egwene had no need to
count the Myrddraal. She knew. Thirteen Myrddraal, and thirteen Aes Sedai.
Without another thought, she screamed in pure terror. Yet even in the midst of
fear that tried to split her bones, she reached out for the True Source, clawed
desperately for saidar. “She’s awake!” “She cannot be! Not
yet!” “Shield her! Quickly!
Quickly! Cut her off from the Source!” “It’s too late! She is
too strong!” “Seize her! Hurry!” Hands reached for her
arms and legs. Pasty pale hands like slugs under rocks, ordered by minds behind
pale, eyeless faces. If those hands touched her flesh, she knew she would go
mad. The Power filled her. Flames burst from
Myrddraal skin, ripping through black cloth as if they were solid daggers of
fire. Shrieking Halfmen crisped and burned like oiled paper. Fist‑sized
chunks of stone tore themselves free of the walls and whizzed across the room,
producing shrieks and grunts as they thudded into flesh. The air stirred,
shifted, howled into a whirlwind. Slowly, painfully,
Egwene pushed herself off the table. The wind whipped her hair and made her
stagger, but she continued to drive it as she stumbled toward the door. An Aes
Sedai loomed in front of her, a woman bruised and bleeding, surrounded by the
glow of the Power. A woman with death in her dark eyes. Egwene’s mind put a name
to the face. Gyldan. Elaida’s closest confidante, always whispering together
in corners, closeting themselves in the night. Egwene’s mouth tightened.
Disdaining stones and wind, she balled up her fist and punched Gyldan between
the eyes as hard as she could. The Red sister ‑ the Black sister ‑ crumpled as if her bones had melted. Rubbing her knuckles,
Egwene staggered out into the hall. Thank
you, Perrin, she thought, for showing
me how to do that. But you didn’t tell me how much it hurts when you do. Shoving the door shut
against the wind, she channeled. Stones around the doorway shivered, cracked,
settled against the wood. It would not hold them for long, but anything that
slowed pursuit for even a minute was worth doing. Minutes might mean life.
Gathering her strength, she forced herself to break into a run. It wobbled, but
at least it was a run. She must find some
clothes, she decided. A woman clothed had more authority than the same woman
naked, and she was going to need every bit of authority. They would look for
her first in her rooms, but she had a spare dress and shoes in her study‑and
another stole‑and that lay not far off. It was unnerving,
trotting through empty hallways. The White Tower no longer held the numbers it once
had, but there was usually someone about. The loudest sound was the slap of her
bare soles on the tiles. She hurried through the
antechamber of her study to the inner room, and at last she found someone.
Beldeine was sitting on the floor, head in her hands weeping. Egwene stopped warily,
as Beldeine raised reddened eyes to meet hers. No glow of saidar surrounded the Keeper, but Egwene was still cautious. And
confident. She could not see her own glow, of course, but the power ‑ the
Power‑surging through her was enough. Especially when added to her
secret. Beldeine scrubbed a hand
across tearstained cheeks. “I had to. You must understand. I had to. They. . .
. They. . . .” She took a deep, shuddering breath; it all came out in a rush.
“Three nights ago they took me while I slept and stilled me.” Her voice rose to
a near shriek. “They stilled me! I
cannot channel any longer!” “Light,” Egwene
breathed. The rush of saidar cushioned
her against the shock. “The Light help and comfort you, my daughter. Why didn’t
you tell me? I would have . . . .” She let it trail away, knowing there was
nothing she could do. “What would you have
done? ‑ What? Nothing! There’s nothing you can do. But they said they
could give it back to me, with the power of . . . the power of the Dark One.”
Her eyes squeezed shut, leaking tears. “They hurt me, Mother, and they made me
. . . . Oh, Light, they hurt me! Elaida told me they would make me whole again,
make me able to channel again, if I obeyed. That’s why I. . . . I had to!” “So Elaida is Black
Ajah,” Egwene said grimly. A narrow wardrobe stood against the wall, and in it
hung a green silk dress, kept for when she had no time to return to her rooms.
A striped stole hung beside the dress. She began to dress herself, quickly.
“What have they done with Rand? Where have they taken him? Answer me, Beldeine!
Where is Rand al’Thor?” Beldeine huddled, lips
trembling, eyes turned bleakly inward, but finally she roused herself enough to
say, “The Traitor’s Court, Mother. They took him to the Traitor’s Court.” Shivers assaulted
Egwene. Shivers of fear. Shivers of rage. Elaida had not waited, not even an
hour. The Traitor’s Court was used for only three purposes: executions, the
stilling of an Aes Sedai, or the gentling of a man who could channel. But all
of the three took an order from the Amyrlin Seat. So who wears the stole out there? Elaida, she was
sure. But how could she make them accept
her so quickly, with me not tried, not sentenced? There cannot be another
Amyrlin until I’ve been stripped of stole and staff. And they’ll not
find that easy to do. Light! Rand! She started for the door. Beldeine huddled, lips
trembling, eyes turned bleakly inward, but finally she roused herself enough to
say, “The Traitor’s Court, Mother. They took him to the Traitor’s Court.” Shivers assaulted
Egwene. Shivers of fear. Shivers of rage. Elaida had not waited, not even an
hour. The Traitor’s Court was used for only three purposes: executions, the
stilling of an Aes Sedai, or the gentling of a man who could channel. But all
of the three took an order from the “What can you do, Mother?” Beldeine cried.
“What can you do?” It was not clear whether she meant for Rand or for herself. “More than anyone
suspects,” Egwene said. “I never held the Oath Rod, Beldeine.” Beldeine’s gasp
followed her from the room. Egwene’s memory still
played hide‑and‑seek with her. She knew no woman could achieve the
shawl and the ring without pledging the Three Oaths with the Oath Rod firmly in
hand, the ter’angreal sealing her to
keep those oaths as if they had been engraved on her bones at birth. No woman
became Aes Sedai without being bound to them. Yet she knew that somehow, in
some fashion she could not begin to dredge up, she had done just that. Her shoes clicked
swiftly as she ran. At least she knew now why the halls were empty. Every Aes
Sedai, except perhaps those she had left in the storeroom, every Accepted,
every novice, even all the servants, would be gathered in the Traitor’s Court,
according to custom, to watch the will of Tar Valon made fact. And the Warders would be
ringing the courtyard against the possibility that someone might try to free
the man to be gentled. The remnants of Guaire Amalasan’s armies had attempted
it, at the end of what some called the War of the Second Dragon, just before
Artur Hawkwing’s rise had given Tar Valon other things to worry it, and so had
Raolin Darksbane’s followers, long years earlier. Whether Rand had any
followers or not, she could not remember, but Warders remembered such things,
and guarded against them. If Elaida, or another,
truly did wear the stole of the Amyrlin, the Warders might well not admit her
to the Traitor’s Court. She knew she could‑ force a way in. It would need
to be done quickly; there was no point if Rand was gentled while she was still
wrapping Warders in Air. Even Warders would break if she loosed the lightnings
on them, and balefire, and broke the ground under their feet. Balefire? she wondered. But it would
also do no good if she broke Tar Valon’s power to save Rand. She had to save
both. Well short of the ways
that led to the Traitor’s Court, she turned aside and climbed, up stairs and
ramps that grew narrower and tighter the higher she went, until she thrust open
a trapdoor and climbed out onto a sloping tower top, a roof of nearly white
tiles. From there, she could see across other roofs, past other towers, into
the broad open well of the Traitor’s Court. The ~court was crowded
except for a cleared space in the middle. People filled the windows overlooking
it, crowded the balconies and even the rooftops, but she could make out the
lone man, small at that distance, swaying in his chains in the center of the
cleared space. Rand. Twelve Aes Sedai surrounded him, and another ‑ who
Egwene knew had to be wearing a seven‑striped stole, even though she
could not distinguish it ‑ stood before Rand. Elaida. The words she must be saying crept into Egwene’s head. This man, abandoned of the Light, has touched saidin, the male half of the True Source. Thus do we hold him. Most abominably
has this man channeled the One Power, knowing that saidin is tainted by the Dark One, tainted for men’s
pride, tainted for men’s sin. Thus do we chain him. Forcefully, Egwene
pushed the rest of it out of her thoughts. Thirteen
Aes Sedai. Twelve sisters and the Amyrlin, the traditional number for gentling.
The same number as for . . . . She rid herself of that, too. She had no
time for anything but what she was there to do. If she could only manage to
reason out how. At that distance, she
thought she could manage to lift him with Air. Pick him right out of the circle
of Aes Sedai and float him straight to her. Maybe. Even if she could find the
strength, even if she did not drop him to his death halfway, it would be a slow
process, with him a helpless target for archers, and the glow of saidar pointing out her own position for
any Aes Sedai who looked. Any Myrddraal, for that matter. “Light,” she muttered,
“there’s no other way short of starting a war inside the White Tower. And I may
do that anyway.” She gathered the Power, separated skeins, directed flows. The way back will come but once. Be steadfast. It had been so long
since she last heard those words that she gave a start, slipped on the smooth
tiles, barely caught herself short of the edge. The ground lay a hundred paces
down. She looked over her shoulder. There on the tower top,
tilted to sit flat against the sloping tiles, was a silver arch filled with a
glowing light. The arch flickered and wavered; streaks of angry red and yellow
darted through the white light. The way back will come but once. Be steadfast. The archway thinned to
transparency, grew solid again. Frantic, Egwene gazed
toward the Traitor’s Court. There had to be time. There had to be. All she
needed was a few minutes, perhaps ten, and luck. Voices bored into her head, not
the disembodied, unknowable voice that warned her to be steadfast, but women’s
voices she almost believed she knew. ‑ can’t hold
much longer. If she does not come out now ‑ Hold! Hold, burn you,
or I’ll gut you all like sturgeons! ‑ going wild,
Mother! We can’t ‑ The voices faded to a drone, the drone to
silence, but the unknowable spoke again. The way back will come
but once. Be steadfast. There it a price to be Aes Sedai. The Black Ajah waits. With a scream of rage, of loss, Egwene threw
herself at the arch as it shimmered like a heat haze. She almost wished she
would miss and plunge to her death. Light plucked her apart fiber by
fiber, sliced the fibers to hairs, split the hairs to wisps of nothing. All
drifted apart on the light. Forever. CHAPTER 23 Sealed Light pulled her apart fiber by fiber, sliced
the fibers to hairs that drifted apart, burning. Drifting and burning, forever.
Forever. Egwene stepped out of the silver arch cold and
stiff with anger. She wanted the iciness of anger to counter the searing of
memory. Her body remembered burning, but other memories scored and scorched
more deeply. Anger cold as death. “Is that all there is for me?” she demanded.
“To abandon him again and again. To betray him, fail him, again and again? Is
that what there is for me?” Suddenly she realized that all was not as it
should be. The Amyrlin was there now, as Egwene had been taught she would be,
and a shawled sister from each Ajah, but they all stared at her worriedly. Two
Aes Sedai now sat at each place around the ter’angreal,
sweat running down their faces. The ter’angreal
hummed, almost vibrated, and violent streaks of color tore the white light
inside the arches. The glow of saidar
briefly enveloped Sheriam as she put a hand on Egwene’s head, sending a new
chill through her. “She is well.” The Mistress of Novices sounded relieved.
“She is unharmed.” As if she had not expected it. Tension seemed to go out of the other Aes Sedai
facing Egwene. Elaida let out a long breath, then hurried away for the last
chalice. Only the Aes Sedai around the ter’angreal
did not relax. The hum had lessened, and the light began the flickering
that signaled the ter’angreal was
settling toward quiescence, but those Aes Sedai looked as if they were fighting
it every inch of the way. “What . . . ? What happened?” Egwene asked. “Be silent,” Sheriam said, but gently. “For
now, be silent. You are well ‑ that is the main thing ‑ and we must
complete the ceremony.” Elaida came, close to running, and handed the final
silver chalice to the Amyrlin. Egwene hesitated only a moment before kneeling.
What happened? The Amyrlin emptied the chalice slowly over
Egwene’s head. “You are washed clean of Egwene al’Vere from Emond’s Field. You
are washed clean of all ties that bind you to the world. You come to us washed
clean, in heart and soul. You are Egwene al’Vere, Accepted of the White Tower.”
The last drop splashed onto Egwene’s hair. “You are sealed to us, now.” The last words seemed to have a special
meaning, just between Egwene and the Amyrlin. The Amyrlin thrust the chalice at
one of the other Aes Sedai and produced a gold ring in the shape of a serpent
biting its own tail. Despite herself, Egwene trembled as she raised her left
hand, trembled again as the Amyrlin slipped the Great Serpent ring onto the
third finger. When she became Aes Sedai, she could wear the ring on the finger
she chose, or not at all if it was necessary to hide who she was, but the
Accepted wore it there. Unsmiling, the Amyrlin pulled her to her feet.
“Welcome, Daughter,” she said, kissing her cheek. Egwene was surprised to feel
a thrill. Not child, but daughter. Always before she had been child. The
Amyrlin kissed her other cheek. “Welcome.” Stepping back, the Amyrlin regarded her
critically, but spoke to Sheriam. “Get her dry and into some clothes, then be
certain she is well. Certain, you understand.” “I am certain, Mother.” Sheriam sounded
surprised. “You saw me delve her.” The Amyrlin grunted, and her eyes shifted to
the ter’angreal. “I mean to know what
went wrong tonight.” She strode away in the direction of her glare, skirts
swaying purposefully. Most of the other Aes Sedai joined her around the ter’angreal, now only a silver structure
of arches on a ring. “The Mother is worried about you,” Sheriam said
as she drew Egwene to one side, to where there was a thick towel for her hair,
and another for the rest of her. “How much reason did she have?” Egwene asked. The Amyrlin wants nothing to happen to her
hound till the deer is pulled down. Sheriam did not answer. She merely frowned
slightly, then waited until Egwene was dry before handing her a white dress
banded at the bottom with seven rings. She slipped into that dress with a flash of
disappointment. She was one of the Accepted, with the ring on her finger and
the bands on her dress. Why don’t I feel
any different? Elaida came over, her arms filled with Egwene’s
novice dress and shoes, her belt and pouch. And the papers Verin had given her.
In Elaida’s hands. Egwene made herself wait for the Aes Sedai to
hand the bundle to her rather than snatch them away. “Thank you, Aes Sedai.”
She tried to eye the papers surreptitiously; she could not tell if they had
been disturbed. The string was still tied. How would I know if she’s read all of them? Squeezing
her pouch under cover of the novice dress, she felt the peculiar ring, the ter’angreal, inside. At least that’s still here. Light, she could have taken that, and I don’t know that I would have minded. Yes, I
would. I think I would. Elaida’s face was as cold as her voice. “I did
not want you to be brought forward tonight. Not because I feared what happened;
no one could foresee that. But because of what you are. A wilder. “ Egwene
tried to protest, but Elaida kept on, as implacable as a mountain glacier. “Oh,
I know you learned to channel under Aes Sedai teaching, but you are still a
wilder. A wilder in spirit, a wilder in ways. You have vast potential, else you
would never have survived in there tonight, but potential changes nothing. I do
not believe you will ever be part of the White Tower, not in the way the rest
of us are, no matter on which finger you wear your ring. It would have been
better for you had you settled for learning enough to stay alive, and gone back
to your sleepy village. Fat better.” Turning on her heel, she stalked away, out
of the chamber. If she isn’t Black
Ajah, Egwene
thought sourly, she’s the next thing to
it. Aloud, she muttered to Sheriam, “You could have said something. You
could have helped me.” “I would have helped a novice, child,” Sheriam replied
calmly, and Egwene winced. She was back to “child” again. “I try to protect
novices where they need it, since they cannot protect themselves. You are
Accepted, now. It is time for you to learn to protect yourself.” Egwene studied Sheriam’s eyes, wondering if she
had imagined an emphasis on that last sentence. Sheriam had had as much
opportunity as Elaida to read the list of names, to decide that Egwene was
mixed in with the Black Ajah. Light,
you’re becoming suspicious of everybody. Better that than dead, or captured by
thirteen of them and . . . . Hastily, she stopped that line of thought; she
did not want is in her head. “Sheriam, what did happen tonight?” she asked.
“And don’t put me off.” Sheriam’s eyebrows rose almost to her scalp, it seemed,
and she hastily amended her question. “Sheriam Sedai, I mean. Forgive me,
Sheriam Sedai.” “Remember you aren’t Aes Sedai yet, child.”
Despite the steel in her voice, a smile touched Sheriam’s lips, yet it vanished
as she went on. “I do not know what happened. Except that I very much fear you
almost died.” “Who knows what happens to those who do not
come out of a ter’angreal?” Alanna
said as she joined them. The Green sister was known for her temper and her
sense of humor, and some said she could flash from one to the other and back
again before you could blink, but the look she gave Egwene was almost
diffident. “Child, I should have stopped this when I had the chance, when I
first noticed that ‑ reverberation. It came back. That is what happened.
It came back a thousandfold. Ten thousand. The ter’angreal almost seemed to be trying to shut off the flow from saidar
‑ or melt itself through the floor. You have my apologies, though words
are not enough. Not for what almost happened to you. I say this, and by the
First Oath you know it is true. To show my feelings, I will ask the Mother to
let me share your time in the kitchens. And, yes, your visit to Sheriam, too.
Had I done as I should, you would not have been in danger of your life, and I
will atone for it.” Sheriam’s laugh was scandalized. “She will
never allow that, Alanna. A sister in the kitchens, much less . . . . It is
unheard of. It’s impossible! You did what you believed right. There is no fault
to you.” “It was not your fault, Alanna Sedai,” Egwene
said. Why is Alanna doing this?
Unless maybe to convince me she didn’t have
anything to do with whatever went wrong. And maybe so she can keep an eye on me
all the time. It was that image, a proud Aes Sedai up to her elbows in
greasy pots three times a day just to watch someone, that convinced her she was
letting her imagination run away with her. But it was also unthinkable that
Alanna should do as she said she would. In any case, the Green sister certainly
had had no chance to see the list of names while tending the ter’angreal. But if Nynaeve is right, she wouldn’t need to see those names to want to kill me if she
is Black Ajah. Stop that! “Really, it wasn’t.” “Had I done as I should,” Alanna maintained,
“it would never have happened. The only time I have ever seen anything like it
was once years ago when we tried to use a ter’angreal
in the same room with another that may have been in some way related to it.
It is extremely rare to find two such as that. The pair of them melted, and
every sister within a hundred paces had such a headache for a week that she
couldn’t channel a spark. What’s the matter, child?” Egwene’s hand had tightened around her pouch
till the twisted stone ring impressed itself on her palm through the thick
cloth. Was it warm? Light, I did it
myself. “Nothing, Alanna Sedai. Aes Sedai, you did nothing wrong. You have
no reason to share my punishments. None at all. None!” “A bit vehement,” Sheriam observed, “but true.”
Alanna only shook her head. “Aes Sedai,” Egwene said slowly, “what does it
mean to be Green Ajah?” Sheriam’s eyes opened wider with amusement, and Alanna
grinned openly. “Just with the ring on your finger,” the Green
sister said, “and already trying to decide which Ajah to choose? First, you must
love men. I don’t mean be in love with them, but love them. Not like a Blue,
who merely likes men, so long as they share her causes and do not get in her
way. And certainly not like a Red, who despises them as if every one of them
were responsible for the Breaking.” Alviarin, the White sister who had come
with the Amyrlin gave them a cool look and moved on. “And not like a White,”
Alanna said with a laugh, “who has no room in her life for any passions at
all.” “That was not what I meant, Alanna Sedai. I
want to know what it means to be a
Green sister.” She was not sure Alanna would understand, because she was not
certain she herself understood what she wanted to know, but Alanna nodded
slowly as if she did. “Browns seek knowledge, Blues meddle in causes,
and Whites consider the questions of truth with implacable logic. We all do
some of it all, of course. But to be a Green means to stand ready.” A note of
pride entered Alanna’s voice. “In the Trolloc Wars, we were often called the
Battle Ajah. All Aes Sedai helped where and when they could, but the Green Ajah
alone was always with the armies, in almost every battle. We were the counter
to the Dreadlords. The Battle Ajah. And now we stand ready, for the Trollocs to
come south again, for Tarmon Gai’don, the Last Battle. We will be there. That
is what it means to be a Green.” “Thank you, Aes Sedai,” Egwene said. That is
what I want? Or what I will be?
Light, I wish I knew if it was real, if
it had anything at all to do with here and now. The Amyrlin joined them, and they swept deep curtsies to
her. “Are you well, Daughter?” she asked Egwene. Her eyes flicked to the corner
of the papers sticking out from under the novice dress in Egwene’s hands, then
back to Egwene’s face immediately. “I will know the why of what occurred
tonight before I am done.” Egwene’s cheeks reddened. “I am well, Mother.” Alanna surprised her by asking the Amyrlin just
what she had said she would. “I never heard of such a thing,” the Amyrlin
barked. “The owner doesn’t muck out with the bilge boys even if he has run the
boat on a mudflat.” She glanced at Egwene, and worry tightened her eyes. And
anger. “I share your concern, Alanna. Whatever this child has done, it did not
deserve that. Very well. If it will assuage your feelings, you may visit
Sheriam. But it is to be strictly between you two. I’ll not have Aes Sedai held
up to ridicule, even inside the Tower.” Egwene opened her mouth to confess all and let
them take the ring - I don’t want the
bloody thing, really ‑ but Alanna
forestalled her. “And the other, Mother? “Do not be ridiculous, Daughter.” The Amyrlin was angry, and
sounded more so by the word. “You’d be a laughingstock inside the day, except
for those who decided you were mad. And don’t think it would not follow you.
Tales like that have a way of traveling. You would find stories told of the
scullion Aes Sedai from Tear to Maradon. And that would reflect on every
sister. No. If you need to rid yourself of some feeling of guilt and cannot
handle it as a grown woman would, very well. I have told you that you may visit
Sheriam. Accompany her tonight, when you leave here. That will give you the
rest of the night to decide if it was of any help. And tomorrow you can start
finding out what went wrong here tonight!” “Yes, Mother.” Alanna’s voice was perfectly
neutral. The desire to confess had died in Egwene.
Alanna had shown only one brief flash of disappointment, when she realized the
Amyrlin would not allow her to join Egwene in the kitchens. She doesn’t want to be punished any more than
any sensible person does. She did want an excuse to be in my company. Light, she couldn’t have deliberately caused
the ter’angreal to go wild; I did that. Can she be Black Ajah? Wrapped in thought, Egwene heard a throat cleared, then
again, more roughly. Her eyes focused. The Amyrlin was staring right into her,
and when she spoke, she bit off each word. “Since you seem to be asleep standing up,
child, I suggest you go to bed.” For one instant her glance flashed to the
nearly concealed papers in Egwene’s hands. “You have much work to do tomorrow,
and for many days thereafter.” Her eyes held Egwene’s a moment longer, and then
she was striding away before any of them could curtsy. Sheriam rounded on Alanna as soon as the
Amyrlin was out of earshot. The Green Aes Sedai glowered and took it in
silence. “You are mad, Alanna! A fool, and doubly a fool if you think I will go
lightly on you just because we were novices together. Are you taken by the
Dragon, to ‑ ?” Suddenly Sheriam became aware of Egwene, and the target
of her anger shifted. “Did I not hear the Amyrlin Seat order you to your bed,
Accepted? If you breathe a word of this, you will wish I had buried you in a
field to manure the ground. And I will see you in my study in the morning, when
the bell rings First and not one breath later. Now, go!” Egwene went, her head spinning. Is there
anybody I can trust? The Amyrlin? She
sent us off chasing thirteen of the Black Ajah and forgot to mention that
thirteen is just the number needed to turn a woman who can channel to the
Shadow against her will. Who can I trust? She did not want to be alone, could not stand the thought of
it, and so she hurried to the Accepted’s quarters, thinking that tomorrow she
would be moving there herself, and immediately after knocking pushed open
Nynaeve’s door. She could trust her with anything. Her and Elayne. But Nynaeve was seated in one of the two
chairs, with Elayne’s head buried in her lap. Elayne’s shoulders shook to the
sound of weeping, the softer weeping that comes after no energy is left for
deeper sobs but the emotion still burns. Dampness shone on Nynaeve’s cheeks,
too. The Great Serpent gleaming on her hand, smoothing Elayne’s hair, matched
the ring on the hand Elayne used to clutch at Nynaeve’s skirt. Elayne lifted a face red and swollen from long
crying, sniffing through her sobs when she saw Egwene. “I could not be that
awful, Egwene. I just couldn’t!” The accident with the ter’angreal, Egwene’s fear that someone might have read the papers
Verin had given her, her suspicions of everyone in that chamber, all these had
been terrible, but they had buffered her in a rough, ungentle way from what had
happened inside the ter’angreal. They
had come from outside; the other was inside. Elayne’s words stripped the buffer
away, and what was inside hit Egwene as if the ceiling had collapsed. Rand her
husband, and Joiya her baby. Rand pinned and begging her to kill him. Rand
chained to be gentled. Before she was aware of moving, she was on her
knees beside Elayne, all the tears that should have fallen earlier coming out
in a flood. “I couldn’t help him, Nynaeve,” she sobbed. “I just left him
there.” Nynaeve flinched as if struck, but the next
moment her arms were around both Egwene and Elayne, hugging them, rocking them.
“Hush,” she crooned softly. “It eases with time. It eases, a little. One day we
will make them pay our price. Hush. Hush.” CHAPTER 24 Scouting and Discoveries Sunlight through the carved shutters, creeping across the
bed, woke Mat. For a moment, he only lay there, frowning. He had not reasoned
out any plan for escaping from Tar Valon before sleep had overtaken him, but
neither had he given up. Too much memory still lay covered with fog, but he
would not give up. Two serving women came bustling with hot water
and a tray heavy with food, laughing and telling him how much better he looked
already, and how soon he would be back on his feet if he did what the Aes Sedai
told him. He answered them curtly, trying not to sound bitter. Let them think I mean to go along. His
stomach rumbled at the smells from the tray. When they left, he tossed aside his blanket and
hopped out of bed, pausing only to stuff half a slice of ham into his mouth
before pouring out water to wash and shave. Staring into the mirror above the washstand,
he paused in lathering his face. He did look better. His cheeks were still hollow, but not quite as
hollow as they had been. The dark circles had vanished from under his eyes,
which no longer seemed set so deep in his head. It was as if every bite he had
eaten the night before had gone into putting meat on his bones. He even felt
stronger. “At this rate,” he muttered, “I will be gone
before they know it.” But he was still surprised when, after shaving, he sat
down and consumed every scrap of ham, turnip, and pear on the tray. He was sure they expected him to climb back
into bed once he had eaten, but instead, he dressed. Stamping his feet to
settle them in his boots, he eyed his spare clothes and decided to leave them,
for now. I have to know what I’m
doing, first. And if I have to leave them . . . . He tucked the dice cups
into his pouch. With those, he could get all the clothes he needed. Opening the door, he peeked out. More doors
paneled in pale, golden wood lined the hall, with colorful tapestries between,
and a runner of blue carpet ran down the white-tiled floor. But there was no
one out there. No guard. He tossed his cloak over one shoulder and hurried out.
Now to find a way outside. It took some little wandering, down stairs and
along corridors and across open courts, before he found what he wanted, a
doorway to the outside, and he saw people before then: serving women and white‑clad
novices hurrying about their chores, the novices running even harder than the
servants; a handful of roughly dressed male servants carrying large chests and
other heavy loads; Accepted in their banded dresses. Even a few Aes Sedai. The Aes Sedai did not seem to notice him as
they strode along, intent on whatever purpose, or else they gave him no more
than a passing glance. His were country clothes, but well made; he did not look
a vagabond, and the serving men showed that men were allowed in this part of
the Tower. He suspected they might take him for another servant, and that was
just as well with him, so long as no one asked him to lift anything. He did feel some regret that none of the women
he saw was Egwene or Nynaeve, or even Elayne. She’s a pretty one, even if she does have her nose in the air half the
time. And she could tell me how to find Egwene and the Wisdom. I cannot go
without raying goodbye. Light, I don’t suppose one of them would turn me in,
just because they are becoming Aes Sedai themselves? Burn me, for a fool!
They’d never do that. Anyway, I will risk it. But once out‑of‑doors, under a
bright morning sky with only a few drifting white clouds, he put the women from
his mind for the time. He was looking across a wide, flagstoned yard with a
plain stone fountain in the middle and a barracks on the other side that was
made of gray stone. It looked almost like a huge boulder among the few trees
growing out of rimmed holes in the flagstones close by. Guardsmen in their
shirtsleeves sat in front of the long, low building, tending weapons and armor
and harness. Guardsmen were what he wanted, now. He
sauntered across the yard and watched the soldiers as if he had nothing better
to do. As they worked they talked and laughed among themselves like men after
the harvest. Now and again one of them looked curiously at Mat as he strolled
among them, but none challenged his right to be there. From time to time he
asked a casual question. And finally he got the answer he sought. “Bridge guard?” said a stocky, dark‑haired
man no more than five years older than Mat. His words had a heavy Illianer
accent. Young he might have been, but a thin white scar crossed his left cheek,
and the hands oiling his sword moved with familiarity and competence. He
squinted up at Mat before returning to his task. “I do be on the bridge guard,
and back there again this even. Why do you ask?” “I was just wondering what conditions were like
on the other side of the river.” I might
as well find that out, too. “Good for traveling? It can’t be muddy, unless
you have had more rain than I know about.” “Which side of the river?” the guardsman asked
placidly. His eyes did not lift from the oiled rag he was running along his
blade. “Uh . . . east. The east side.” “No mud. Whitecloaks.” The man leaned to one
side to spit, but his voice did not change. “Whitecloaks do be poking their
noses into every village for ten miles. They have no hurt anyone yet, but them
just being there do upset the folk. Fortune prick me if I do no think they wish
to provoke us, for they do look as if they would attack if they could. No good
for anyone who do want to travel.” “What about west, then?” “The same.” The guardsman raised his eyes to
Mat’s. “But you will no be crossing, lad, east or west. Your name do be Matrim
Cauthon, or Fortune abandon me. Last night a sister, herself in person, did
come to the bridge where I did stand guard. She did drill your features at us
till each could speak them back to her. A guest, she did say, and no to be
harmed. But no to be allowed out of the city, either, if you must be tied hand
and foot to keep you from it.” His eyes narrowed. “Is it that you did steal
something from them?” he asked doubtfully. “You do no have the look of those
the sisters do guest.” “I didn’t steal anything!” Mat said
indignantly. Burn me, I didn’t even get a
chance to work around to it easy. They must all know me. “I’m no thief!” “No, it is no that I do see in your face. No thievery. But
you do have the look of the fellow who did try to sell me the Horn of Valere
three days gone. So he did claim it did be, all bent and battered as it did be.
Do you have a Horn of Valere to sell? Or mayhap it do be the Dragon’s sword?” Mat gave a jump at the mention of the Horn, but
he,managed to keep his voice level. “I was sick.” Others of the guardsmen were
looking at him now. Light, they’ll all
know I am not supposed to leave, now. He forced a laugh. “The sisters
Healed me.” Some of the guardsmen frowned at him. Perhaps they thought other
men should show more respect than to call the Aes Sedai sisters. “I guess the
Aes Sedai don’t want me to go before I have all my strength back.” He tried
willing the men, all of those watching him now, to accept that. Just a man who was Healed. Nothing more. No
reason to trouble yourself about him any further. The Illianer nodded. “You do have the look of
sickness in your face, too. Perhaps that do be the reason. But never did I hear
of so much effort to keep one sick man in the city.” “That’s the reason,” Mat said firmly. They were
all still looking at him. “Well, I need to be going. They said I have to take
walks. Lots of long walks. To build up strength, you know.” He felt their eyes following him as he left,
and he scowled. He had simply meant to find out how well his description had
been passed around. If only the officers among the bridge guards had had it, he
might have been able to slip by. He had always been good at slipping into
places unseen. And out. It was a talent you developed when your mother always
suspected you were up to some mischief and you had four sisters to tell on you.
And now I’ve made sure half a barracks
full of guardsmen will know me. Blood and bloody ashes! Much of the Tower grounds were gardens full of
trees, leatherleaf and paperbark and elms, and he soon found himself walking
along a wide, twisting graveled path. It could have led through countryside, if
not for the towers visible over the treetops. And the white bulk of the Tower
itself, behind him but pressing on him as if he carried it on his shoulders. If
there were ways out of the Tower grounds that were not watched, this seemed the
place to find them. If they existed. A girl in novice white appeared ahead on the
path, striding purposefully toward him. Wrapped in her own thoughts, she did
not see him at first. When she came close enough for him to make out her big,
dark eyes and the way her hair was braided, he grinned suddenly. He knew this
girl - memory drifting up from shrouded depths ‑ though he would never
have expected to find her here. He had never expected to see her again at all. He grinned to himself. Good luck to balance bad. As he remembered, she had quite an eye
for the boys. “Else,” he called to her. “Else Grinwell. You
remember me, don’t you? Mat Cauthon. A friend and I visited your father’s farm.
Remember? Have you decided to become Aes Sedai, then?” She stopped short, staring at him. “What are
you doing up and out?” she said coldly. “You know about that, do you?” He moved closer
to her, but she stepped back, keeping her distance. He stopped. “It’s not
catching. I was Healed, Else.” Those large, dark eyes seemed more knowing than
he remembered, and not nearly so warm, but he supposed studying to be an Aes
Sedai could do that. “What is the matter, Else? You look like you don’t know
me. “ “I know you,” she said. Her manner was not as
he remembered, either; he thought she could give Elayne lessons now. “I have .
. . work to be about. Let me by.” He grimaced. The path was broad enough for six
to walk abreast without crowding. “I told you it isn’t catching.” “Let me by!” Muttering to himself, he stepped to one edge of
the gravel. She went past him along the other side, watching to make sure he
did not come closer. Once by, she quickened her steps, glancing over her
shoulder at him until she was out of sight around a bend. Wanted to make sure I
didn’t follow her, he
thought sourly. First the guardsmen, and
now Else. My luck is not in, today. He started off again, and soon heard a
ferocious clatter from one side ahead, like dozens of sticks being beat
together. Curious, he turned off toward it, into the trees. A little way brought him to a large expanse of
bare ground, the earth beaten hard, at least fifty paces across and nearly
twice as long. At intervals around it under the trees stood wooden stands
holding quarterstaffs, and practice swords made of strips of wood bound loosely
together, and a few real swords and axes and spears. Spaced across the open ground, pairs of men,
most stripped to the waist, flailed at each other with more practice swords.
Some moved so smoothly it almost seemed they danced with one another, flowing
from stance to stance, stroke to counterstroke in continuous motion. There was
nothing quickly apparent aside from skill to mark them from the others, but Mat
was sure he was watching Warders. Those who did not move so smoothly were all
younger, each pair under the watchful eyes of an older man who seemed to
radiate a dangerous grace even standing still. Warders and students, Mat decided. He was not the only audience. Not ten paces
from him, half a dozen women with ageless Aes Sedai faces and as many more in
the banded white dresses of the Accepted stood watching one pair of students,
bare to the waist and slick with sweat, under the guidance of a Warder shaped
much like a block of stone. The Warder used a shortstemmed pipe in one hand,
trailing tabac smoke, to direct his pupils. Sitting down cross‑legged under a
leatherleaf, Mat rooted three large pebbles out of the ground and began to
juggle them idly. He did not feel weak, exactly, but it was good to sit. If
there was a way out of the Tower grounds, it would not go away while he took a
short rest. Before he had been there five minutes he knew
who it was the Aes Sedai and Accepted were watching. One of the blocky Warder’s
pupils was a tall, lithe young man who moved like a cat. And almost as pretty as a girl, Mat thought wryly. Every woman was
staring at the tall fellow with sparkling eyes, even the Aes Sedai. The tall man handled his practice sword almost
as deftly as the Warders, now and then earning an approving gravelly comment
from his teacher. It was not that his opponent, a youth more Mat’s age, with
red‑gold hair, was unskilled. Far from it, as much as Mat could see,
though he had never claimed to know anything about swords. The golden-haired
man met every lightning attack, turning it away before the bound strips could
strike him, and even launched an occasional attack of his own. But the handsome
fellow countered those attacks and flowed back into his own in the space of a
heartbeat. Mat shifted the pebbles to one hand, but kept
them spinning in the air. He did not think he would care to face either of
them. Certainly not with a sword. “Break!” The Warder’s voice sounded like rocks
emptying out of a bucket. Chests heaving, the two men let their practice swords
fall to their sides. Sweat matted their hair. “You can rest till I finish my pipe.
But rest fast; I am almost in the dottle.” Now that they had stopped dancing about, Mat
got a good look at the youth with the red‑gold hair and let the pebbles
drop. Burn me, I’ll bet my whole purse
that’s Elayne’s brother. And the other one’s Galad, or I’ll eat my boots. On
the journey from Toman Head it had seemed half of Elayne’s conversation had
been of Gawyn’s virtues and Galad’s vices. Oh, Gawyn had some vices according
to Elayne, but they were small; to Mat they sounded like the sort of things no
one but a sister would consider vices at all. As for Galad, once Elayne was
pinned down, he sounded like what every mother said she wanted her son to be.
Mat did not think he wanted to spend much time in Galad’s company. Egwene
blushed whenever Galad was mentioned, though she seemed to think no one
noticed. A ripple seemed to pass through the watching
women when Gawyn and Galad stopped, and they appeared on the point of stepping
forward almost as one. But Gawyn caught sight of Mat, said something quietly to
Galad, and the two of them walked by the women. The Aes Sedai and Accepted
turned to follow with their eyes. Mat scrambled to his feet as the pair
approached. “You are Mat Cauthon, are you not?” Gawyn said
with a grin. “I was sure I recognized you from Egwene’s description. And
Elayne’s. I understand you were sick. Are you better now?” “I’m fine,” Mat said. He wondered if he was
supposed to call Gawyn “my Lord” or something of the sort. He had refused to
call Elayne “my Lady” ‑ not that she had demanded it, actually ‑
and he decided he would not do her brother better. “Did you come to the practice yard to learn the
sword?” Galad asked. Mat shook his head. “I was only out walking. I
don’t know much about swords. I think I’ll put my trust in a good bow, or a
good quarterstaff. I know how to use those.” “If you spend much time around Nynaeve,” Galad
said, “you’ll need bow, quarterstaff, and
sword to protect yourself. And I don’t know whether that would be enough.” Gawyn looked at him wonderingly. “Galad, you
just very nearly made a joke.” “I do have a sense of humor, Gawyn,” Galad said
with a frown. “You only think I do not because I do not care to mock people.” With a shake of his head, Gawyn turned back to
Mat. “You should learn something of the sword. Everyone can do with that sort
of knowledge these days. Your friend ‑ Rand al’Thor ‑ carried a
most unusual sword. What do you hear of him?” “I haven’t seen Rand in a long time,” Mat said
quickly. Just for a moment, when he had mentioned Rand, Gawyn’s look had gained
intensity. Light, does he know about Rand? He couldn’t. If he did, he’d be denouncing me for a
Darkfriend just for being Rand’s friend. But he knows something. “Swords
aren’t the be‑all and end‑all, you know. I could do fairly well
against either of you, I think, if you had a sword and I had my quarterstaff.” Gawyn’s cough was obviously meant to swallow a
laugh. Much too politely, he said, “You must be very good.” Galad’s face was
frankly disbelieving. Perhaps it was that they both clearly thought he
was making a wild boast. Perhaps it was because he had mishandled questioning
the guardsman. Perhaps it was because Else, who had such an eye for the boys,
wanted nothing to do with him, and all those women were staring at Galad like
cats watching a jug of cream. Aes Sedai and Accepted or not, they were still
women. All these explanations ran through Mat’s head, but he rejected them
angrily, especially the last. He was going to do it because it would be fun.
And it might earn some coin. His luck would not even have to be back. “I will wager,” he said, “two silver marks to
two from each of you that I can beat both of you at once, just the way I said.
You can’t have fairer odds than that. There are two of you, and one of me, so
two to one are fair odds.” He almost laughed aloud at the consternation on
their faces. “Mat,” Gawyn said, “there’s no need to make
wagers. You have been sick. Perhaps we will try this some time when you are
stronger.” “It would be far from a fair wager,” Galad
said. “I’ll not take your wager, now or later. You are from the same village as
Egwene, are you not? I . . . I would not have her angry with me.” “What does she have to do with it? Thump me
once with one of your swords, and I will hand over a silver mark to each of
you. If I thump you till you quit, you give me two each. Don’t you think you
can do it?” “This is ridiculous,” Galad said. “You would
have no chance against one trained swordsman, let alone two. I’ll not take such
advantage.” “Do you think that?” asked a gravel voice. The
blocky Warder joined them, thick black eyebrows pulled down in a scowl. “You
think you two are good enough with your swords to take a boy with a stick?” “It would not be fair, Hammar Gaidin,” Galad
said. “He has been sick,” Gawyn added. “There is no
need for this.” “To the yard,” Hammar grated with a jerk of his
head back over his shoulder. Galad and Gawyn gave Mat regretful looks, then
obeyed. The Warder eyed Mat up and down doubtfully. “Are you sure you’re up to
this, lad? Now I take a close look at you, you ought to be in a sickbed.” “I am already out of one,” Mat said, “and I’m
up to it. I have to be. I don’t want to lose my two marks.” Hammer’s s heavy brows rose in surprise. “You
mean to hold to that wager, lad?” “I need the money.” Mat laughed. His laughter cut off abruptly as he turned
toward the nearest stand that held quarterstaffs and his knees almost buckled.
He stiffened them so quickly he thought anyone who noticed would think he had
just stumbled. At the stand he took his time choosing out a staff, nearly two
inches thick and almost a foot taller than he was. I have to win this. I opened my fool mouth,
and now I have to win. I can’t afford to lose those two marks. Without those to
build on, it will take forever to win the money I need. When he turned back, the quarterstaff in both
hands before him, Gawyn and Galad were already waiting out where they had been
practicing. I have to win. “Luck,”
he muttered. “Time to toss the dice.” Hammar gave him an odd look. “You speak the Old
Tongue, lad?” Mat stared back at him for a moment, not
speaking. He felt cold to the bone. With an effort, he made his feet start out
onto the practice yard. “Remember the wager,” he said loudly. “Two silver marks
from each of you against two from me.” A buzz rose from the Accepted as they realized
what was happening. The Aes Sedai watched in silence. Disapproving silence. Gawyn and Galad split apart, one to either side
of him, keeping their distance, neither with his sword more than half‑raised. “No wager,” Gawyn said. “There’s no wager.” At the same time, Galad said, “I’ll not take
your money like this.” “I mean to take yours,” Mat said. “Done!” Hammar roared. “If they have not the
nerve to cover your wager, lad, I’ll pay the score myself.” “Very well,” Gawyn said. “If you insist on it ‑
done!” Galad hesitated a moment more before growling,
“Done, then. Let us put an end to this farce.” The moment’s warning was all Mat needed. As
Galad rushed at him, he slid his hands along the quarterstaff and pivoted. The
end of the staff thudded into the tall man’s ribs, bringing a grunt and a
stumble. Mat let the staff bounce off Galad and spun, carrying it on around
just as Gawyn came within range. The staff dipped, darted under Gawyn’s
practice sword, and clipped his ankle out from under him. As Gawyn fell, Mat
completed the spin in time to catch Galad across his upraised wrist, sending
his practice sword flying. As if his wrist did not pain him at all, Galad threw
himself into a smooth, rolling dive and came up with his sword in both hands. Ignoring him for the moment, Mat half turned,
twisting his wrists to whip the length of the staff back beside him. Gawyn,
just starting to rise, took the blow on the side of his head with a loud thump
only partly softened by the padding of hair. He went down in a heap. Mat was only vaguely aware of an Aes Sedai
rushing out to tend Elayne’s fallen brother. I hope he’s all right. He should be. I’ve hit myself harder than that
falling off a fence. He still had Galad to deal with, and from the way
Galad was poised on the balls of his feet, sword raised precisely, he had begun
to take Mat seriously. Mat’s legs chose that moment to tremble. Light, I can’t weaken now. But he could
feel it creeping back in, the wobbly feeling, the hunger as if he had not eaten
for days. If I wait for him to
come to me, I’ll fall on my face. It was hard to keep his knees straight as
he started forward. Luck, stay with me. From the first blow, he knew that luck, or
skill, or whatever had brought him this far, was still there. Galad managed to
turn that one with a sharp clack, and the next, and the next, and the next, but
strain stiffened his face. That smooth swordsman, almost as good as the
Warders, fought with every ounce of his skill to keep Mat’s staff from him. He
did not attack; it was all he could do to defend. He moved continually to the
side, trying not to be forced back, and Mat pressed him, staff a blur. And
Galad stepped back, stepped back again, wooden blade a thin shield against the
quarterstaff. Hunger gnawed at Mat as if he had swallowed
weasels. Sweat rolled down into his eyes, and his strength began to fade as if
it leached out with the sweat. Not yet. I
can’t fall yet. I have to win. Now.
With a roar, he threw all his reserves into one last surge. The quarterstaff flickered past Galad’s sword
and in quick succession struck knee, wrist, and ribs and finally thrust into
Galad’s stomach like a spear. With a groan, Galad folded over, fighting not to
fall. The staff quivered in Mat’s hands, on the point of a final crushing
thrust to the throat. Galad sank to the ground. Mat almost dropped the
quarterstaff when he realized what he had been about to do. Win, not kill. Light, what was I thinking? Reflexively
he grounded the butt of the staff, and as soon he did, he had to clutch at it
to hold himself erect. Hunger hollowed him like a knife reaming marrow from a
bone. Suddenly he realized that not only the Aes Sedai and Accepted were
watching. All practice, all learning, had stopped. Warders and students alike
stood watching him. Hammar moved to stand beside Galad, still
groaning on the ground and trying to push himself up. The Warder raised his
voice to shout, “Who was the greatest blademaster of all time?” From the throats of dozens of students came a
massed bellow. “Jearom, Gaidin!” “Yes!” Hammar shouted, turning to make sure all
heard. “During his lifetime, Jearom fought over ten thousand times, in battle
and single combat. He was defeated once. By a farmer with a quarterstaff.
Remember that. Remember what you just saw.” He lowered his eyes to Galad, and
lowered his voice as well. “If you cannot get up by now, lad, it is finished. “
He raised a hand, and the Aes Sedai and Accepted rushed to surround Galad. Mat slid down the staff to his knees. None of
the Aes Sedai even glanced his way. One of the Accepted did, a plump girl he
might have liked to ask for a dance if she were not going to be an Aes Sedai.
She frowned at him, sniffed, and turned back to peering at what the Aes Sedai
were doing around Galad. Gawyn was on his feet, Mat noted with relief.
He pulled himself up as Gawyn came over. Mustn’t
let them know. I’ll never get out of here if they decide to nurse me from sunup
to sunup. Blood darkened the red‑gold hair on the side of Gawyn’s
head, but there was neither cut nor bruise apparent. He pushed two silver marks into Mat’s hand with
a dry, “I think I will listen next time.” He noticed Mat’s glance, touched his
head. “They Healed it, but it was not bad. Elayne has given me worse more than
once. You are good with that.” “Not as good as my da. He’s won the
quarterstaff at Bel Tine every year as long as I can remember, except once or
twice when Rand’s da did.” That interested look came back into Gawyn’s eyes,
and Mat wished he had never mentioned Tam al’Thor. The Aes Sedai and the
Accepted were all still clustered around Galad. “I . . . I must have hurt him
badly. I did not mean to do that.” Gawyn glanced that way‑there was nothing
to be seen but two rings of women’s backs, Accepted’s white dresses making the
outer ring as they peered over the shoulders of crouching Aes Sedai ‑ and
laughed. “You did not kill him ‑ I heard him groaning ‑ so he
should be on his feet by now, but they are not going to let this chance pass,
now they have their hands on him. Light, four of them are Green Ajah!” Mat gave
him a confused look - Green Ajah?
What does that have to do with
anything? - and Gawyn shook his head. “It doesn’t matter. Just rest
assured that the worst Galad has to worry about is finding himself Warder to a
Green Aes Sedai before his head clears.” He laughed. “No, they would not do
that. But I will wager you those two marks of mine in your hand that some of
them wish they could.” “Not your marks,” Mat said, shoving them in his
coat pocket, “mine.” The explanation had made little sense to him. Except that
Galad was well. All he knew of what passed between Warders and Aes Sedai were
the pieces he remembered of Lan and Moiraine, and there was nothing there like
what Gawyn seemed to be suggesting. “Do you think they’d mind if I collected my
wager from him?” “They very likely would,” Hammar said dryly as
he joined them. “You are not very popular with those particular Aes Sedai right
now.” He snorted. “You’d think even Green Aes Sedai would be better than girls
just loose from their mother’s apron strings. He isn’t that good‑looking.” “He is not,” Mat agreed. Gawyn grinned at both of them, until Hammar
glared at him. “Here,” the Warder said, pushing two more silver coins into
Mat’s hand. “I will collect from Galad later. Where are you from, lad?” “Manetheren.” Mat froze when he heard the name
come out of his mouth. “I mean, I’m from the Two Rivers. I have heard too many
old stories.” They just looked at him without saying anything. “I. . . . I
think I will go back and see if I can find something to eat.” Not even the
Midmorning bell had rung yet, but they nodded as if it made sense. He kept the quarterstaff ‑ no one had
told him to put it back ‑ and walked slowly until the trees hid him from
the practice yard. When they did, he leaned on the staff as though it were the
only thing holding him up. He was not sure it was not. He thought that if he parted his coat, he would
see a hole where his stomach should have been, a hole growing larger as it
pulled the rest of him in. But he hardly thought of hunger. He kept hearing
voices in his head. You speak the
Old Tongue, lad? Manetheren. It made
him shiver. Light help me, I keep
digging myself deeper. I have to get out of
here. But how? He hobbled back toward
the Tower proper like an old, old man. How? CHAPTER 25 Questions Egwene lay across Nynaeve’s bed, chin in her
hands, watching Nynaeve pace back and forth. Elayne sprawled in front of the
fireplace, which was still full of the ashes of last night’s fire. Yet again
Elayne was studying the list of names Verin had produced, patiently reading
every word one more time. The other pages, the list of ter’angreal, sat on the table; after one shocked reading they had
not discussed that one further, though they had talked of everything else. And
argued, too. Egwene stifled a yawn. It was only the middle
of the morning, but none of them had gotten much sleep. They had had to be up
early. For the kitchens, and breakfast. For other things that she refused to
think about. The little sleep she herself had managed had been filled with
unpleasant dreams. Maybe Anaiya could
help me understand them, those that
need understanding, but . . . . But what if she is Black Ajah? After
staring at every woman in that chamber last night, wondering which was Black
Ajah, she was finding trust for anyone but her two companions hard to come by.
But she did wish she had some way of interpreting those dreams. The nightmares about what had happened inside
the ter’angreal last night were easy
enough to understand, though they had made her wake up weeping. She had dreamed
of the Seanchan, too, of women in dresses with lightning bolts woven on their
breasts, collaring a long line of women who wore Great Serpent rings, forcing
them to call lightning against the White Tower. That had started her awake in a
cold sweat, but that had to be just a nightmare, too. And the dream about
Whitecloaks binding her father’s hands. A nightmare brought on by homesickness,
she supposed. But the others . . . . She glanced at the other two women again. Elayne
was still reading. Nynaeve still paced with that steady tread. There had been a dream of Rand, reaching for a
sword that seemed to be made of crystal, never seeing the fine net dropping
over him. And one of him kneeling in a chamber where a parched wind blew dust
across the. floor, and creatures like the one on the Dragon banner, but much
smaller, floated on that wind, and settled into his skin. There had been a
dream of him walking down into a great hole in a black mountain, a hole filled
with a reddish glare as from vast fires below, and even a dream of him
confronting Seanchan. About that last, she was uncertain, but she
knew the others had to mean something. Back when she had been sure she could
trust Anaiya, back before she had left the Tower, before she learned the
reality of the Black Ajah, a little cautious questioning of the Aes Sedai -
done, oh, so carefully, so Anaiya would think it no more than the curiosity she
showed about other things ‑ had revealed that a Dreamer’s dreams about ta’veren were almost always significant,
and the more strongly ta’veren, the
more “almost always” became “certainly.” But Mat and Perrin were ta’veren, too, and she had also dreamed of them. Odd dreams, even
more difficult to understand than the dreams of Rand. Perrin with a falcon on
his shoulder, and Perrin with a hawk. Only the hawk held a leash in her talons ‑
Egwene was somehow convinced both hawk and falcon were female ‑ and the
hawk was trying to fasten it around Perrin’s neck. That made her shiver even
now; she did not like dreams about leashes. And that dream of Perrin - with a
beard! ‑ leading a huge pack of wolves that stretched as far as the eye
could see. Those about Mat had been even nastier. Mat, placing his own left eye
on a balance scale. Mat, hanging by his neck from a tree limb. There had been a
dream of Mat and Seanchan, too, but she was willing to dismiss that as a
nightmare. It had to have been just a nightmare. Just like the one about Mat
speaking the Old Tongue. That had to come from what she had heard during his
Healing. She sighed, and the sigh turned into another
yawn. She and the others had gone to his room after breakfast to see how he
was, but he had not been there. He it probably well enough to go dancing. Light, now I will probably dream about
him dancing with Seanchan! No more dreams, she told herself firmly. Not now. I will think about them when I am
not so tired. She thought of the kitchens, of the midday meal soon to come,
and then supper, and breakfast again tomorrow, and pots and cleaning and
scrubbing going on forever. If I am ever
not tired again. Shifting her position on the bed, she looked at her
friends again. Elayne still had her eyes on the list of names. Nynaeve’s steps
had slowed. Any moment now, Nynaeve will
say it again. Any moment. Nynaeve came to a halt staring down at Elayne.
“Put those away. We have been over them twenty times, and there isn’t a word
that helps. Verin gave us rubbish. The question is, was it all she had, or did
she give us rubbish on purpose?” As expected. Maybe
half an hour till she says it again. Egwene frowned down at her hands, glad she
could not see them clearly. The Great Serpent ring looked out of place on
hands all wrinkled from long immersion in hot, soapy water. “Knowing their names helps,” Elayne said, still
reading. “Knowing what they look like helps.” “You know very well what I mean,” Nynaeve
snapped. Egwene sighed and folded her arms in front of
her, rested her chin on them. When she had come out of Sheriam’s study that
morning, with the sun still not even a glint on the horizon, Nynaeve had been
waiting with a candle in the cold, dark hall. She had not been seeing very
clearly, but she was sure Nynaeve had looked ready to chew stone. And knowing
chewing stones would not change anything in the next few minutes. That was why
she was so irritable. She’s as touchy
about her pride as any man I ever met. But she should not take it out on Elayne
and me. Light, if Elayne can stand it, she should be able to. She isn’t the
Wisdom anymore. Elayne hardly appeared to notice whether
Nynaeve was irritable or not. She frowned into the distance thoughtfully.
“Liandrin was the only Red. All the other Ajahs lost two each.” “Oh, do be quiet, child,” Nynaeve said. Elayne wiggled her left hand to display her
Great Serpent ring, gave Nynaeve a meaningful look, and went right on. “No two
were born in the same city, and no more than two in any one country. Amico
Nagoyin was the youngest, only four years older than Egwene and I. Joiya Byir
could be our grandmother.” Egwene did not like it that one of the Black
Ajah shared her daughter’s name. Fool girl! People sometimes have the same name, and you never had daughter.
It wasn’t real! “And what does that tell us?” Nynaeve’s voice
was too calm; she was ready to explode like a wagon full of fireworks. “What
secrets have you found in it that I missed? I am getting old and blind, after
all!” “It tells us it is all too neat,” Elayne said
calmly. “What chance that thirteen women chosen solely because they were
Darkfriends would be so neatly arrayed across age, across nations, across
Ajahs? Shouldn’t there be perhaps three Reds, or four born in Cairhien, or just
two the same age, if it was all chance? They had women to choose from or they
could not have chosen so random a pattern. There are still Black Ajah in the
Tower, or elsewhere we don’t know about. It must mean that.” Nynaeve gave her braid one ferocious tug.
“Light! I think you may be right. You did find secrets I couldn’t. Light, I was
hoping they all went with Liandrin.” “We do not even know that she is their leader,”
Elayne said. “She could have been ordered to . . . to dispose of us.” Her mouth twisted. “I am afraid I can only think of
one reason for them to go to such lengths to spread everything out so, to avoid
any pattern except a lack of pattern. I think it means there is a pattern of
some kind to the Black Ajah.” “If there’s a pattern,” Nynaeve said firmly,
“we will find it. Elayne, if watching your mother run her court taught you to
think like this, I’m glad you watched closely.” Elayne’s answering smile made a
dimple in her cheek. Egwene eyed the older woman carefully. It
seemed Nynaeve was finally ready to stop being a bear with a sore tooth. She
raised her head. “Unless they want us to think they’re hiding a pattern, so we
will waste our time hunting for it when there isn’t one. I am not saying there
isn’t; I am only saying we do not know yet. Let’s look for it, but I think we
ought to look at other things, too, don’t you?” “So you finally decided to rouse,” Nynaeve said.
“I thought you had gone to sleep.” But she was still smiling. “She is right,” Elayne said disgustedly. “I
have built a bridge out of straw. Worse than straw. Wishes. Maybe you are
right, too, Nynaeve. What use is this ‑ this rubbish?” She snatched one
paper out of the stack in front of her. “Rianna has black hair with a white
streak above her left ear. If I am close enough to see that, it’s closer than I
want to be.” She grabbed another page. “Chesmal Emry is one of the most
talented Healers anyone has seen in years. Light, could you imagine being
Healed by one of the Black Ajah?” A third sheet. “Marillin Gemalphin is fond of
cats and goes out of her way to help injured animals. Cats! Paah!” She
scrabbled all the pages together, crumpling them in her fists. “It is useless
rubbish.” Nynaeve knelt beside her and gently pried her
hands from around the papers. “Perhaps, and perhaps not.” She smoothed the
pages carefully on her breast. “You found in them something for us to look for.
Perhaps we will find more, if we are persistent. And there is the other list.”
Both her eyes and Elayne’s darted to Egwene, brown and blue alike frowning
worriedly. Egwene avoided looking at the table where the
other sheets lay. She did not want to think about them, but she could not avoid
it. The list of ter’angreal had
etched itself into her mind. Item. A rod of clear crystal, smooth and
perfectly clear, one foot long and one inch in diameter. Use unknown. Last
study made by Corianin Nedeal. Item. A figurine of an unclothed woman in
alabaster, one hand tall. Use unknown. Last study made by Corianin Nedeal.
Item. A disc, apparently of simple iron yet untouched by rust, three inches in
diameter, finely engraved on both sides with a tight spiral. Use unknown. Last
study made by Corianin Nedeal. Item. Too many items, and more than half the
“use unknowns” last studied by Corianin Nedeal. Thirteen of them, to be exact. Egwene shivered. It’s getting so I do not even like to think of that number. The knowns on the list were fewer, not all of any apparent
teal use, but hardly more comforting, as she saw it. A wooden carving of a
hedgehog, no bigger than the last joint of a man’s thumb. Such a simple thing,
and surely harmless. Any woman who tried to channel through it went to sleep.
Half a day of peaceful, dreamless sleep, but it was too close not to make her
skin crawl. Three more had to do with sleep in some way. It was almost a relief
to read of a fluted rod of black stone, a full pace in length, that produced
balefire, with the notation DANGEROUS AND ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE TO CONTROL writ so
strong in Verin’s hand that it tore the paper in two places. Egwene still had
no idea what balefire was, but though it surely sounded dangerous if anything
ever did, it just as surely had nothing to do Corianin Nedeal or dreams. Nynaeve carried the smoothed‑out pages to
the table and set them down. She hesitated before spreading the others out and
running her finger down one page, then the next. “Here’s one Mat would enjoy,”
she said in a voice much too light and airy. “Item. A carved cluster of six
spotted dice, joined at the corners, less than two inches across. Use unknown,
save that channeling through it seems to suspend chance in some way, or twist
it.” She began to read aloud. “ ‘Tossed coins presented the same face every
time, and in one test landed balanced on edge one hundred times in a row. One
thousand tosses of the dice produced five crowns one thousand times.’ “ She
gave a forced laugh. “Mat would love that. “ Egwene sighed and got to her feet, walked
stiffly to the fireplace. Elayne scrambled up, watching as silently as Nynaeve.
Pushing her sleeve as far up her arm as it would go, Egwene reached carefully
up the chimney. Her fingers touched wool on the smoke shelf, and she pulled out
a wadded, singed stocking with a hard lump in the toe. She brushed a smear of
soot from her arm, then took the stocking to the table and shook it out. The
twisted ring of striped, flecked stone spun across the tabletop and fell flat
atop a page of the ter’angreal list. For a few moments they just stared
at it. “Perhaps,” Nynaeve said finally, “Verin simply
missed the fact that so many of them were last studied by Corianin.” She did
not sound as if she really believed it. Elayne nodded, but doubtfully. “I saw her
walking in the rain once, soaking wet, and took a cloak to her. She was so
wrapped up in whatever she was thinking, I do not believe she knew it was
raining until I put the cloak around her shoulders. She could have missed it.” “Maybe,” Egwene said. “If she did not, she had
to know I’d notice as soon as I read the list. I do not know. Sometimes I think
Verin notices more than she lets on. I just do not know.” “So there’s Verin to suspect,” Elayne sighed.
“If she is Black Ajah, then they know exactly what we are doing. And Alanna. “
She gave Egwene an uncertain, sidelong look. Egwene had told them everything. Except what
happened inside the ter’angreal during her testing; she could not bring
herself to talk about that, any more than Nynaeve or Elayne could tell of their
testings. Everything that happened in the testing chamber, what Sheriam had
said about the terrible weakness conferred by the ability to channel, every
word Verin had said, whether it seemed important or not. The one part they had
had trouble accepting was Alanna; Aes Sedai just did not do things like that.
No one in her right mind did anything like that, but Aes Sedai least of all. Egwene glowered at them, almost hearing them
say it. “Aes Sedai are not supposed to lie, either, but Verin and the Mother
seem awfully close with what they tell us. They are not supposed to be Black
Ajah.” “I like Alanna.” Nynaeve tugged her braid, then shrugged.
“Oh, very well. Perha ‑ That is, she did behave oddly.” “Thank you,” Egwene said, and Nynaeve gave her
an acknowledging nod as if she had heard no sarcasm. “In any case, the Amyrlin knows of it, and she
can keep an eye on Alanna far more easily than we can.” “What about Elaida and Sheriam?” Egwene asked. “I have never been able to like Elaida,” Elayne
said, “but I cannot truly believe she is Black Ajah. And Sheriam? It’s
impossible.” Nynaeve snorted. “It should be impossible for
any of them. When we do find them, there is nothing says they’ll all be women
we do not like. But I don’t mean to put suspicion ‑ not this kind of
suspicion! ‑ on any woman. We need more to go on than that they might
have seen something they shouldn’t.” Egwene nodded agreement as quickly as
Elayne, and Nynaeve went on: “We will tell the Amyrlin that much, and put no
more weight to it than it deserves. If she ever looks in on us as she said she
would. If you are with us when she comes, Elayne, remember she does not know
about you.” “I am not likely to forget it,” Elayne said
fervently. “But we should have some other way to get word to her. My mother
would have planned it better.” “Not if she could not trust her messengers,”
Nynaeve said. “We will wait. Unless you two think one of us should have a talk
with Verin? No one would think that remarkable.” Elayne hesitated, then gave her head a small shake.
Egwene was quicker and more vigorous with hers; slip of the mind or not, Verin
had left out too much to be trusted. “Good.” Nynaeve sounded more than satisfied. “I
am just as pleased we cannot talk to the Amyrlin when we choose. This way we
make our own decisions, act when and as we decide, without her directing our
every step.” Her hand ran down the pages listing stolen ter’angreal as
if she were reading it again, then closed on the striped stone ring. “And the
first decision concerns this. It’s the first thing we have seen that has any
real connection to Liandrin and the others. “ She frowned at the ring, then
took a deep breath. “I am going to sleep with it tonight.” Egwene did not hesitate before taking the ring
out of Nynaeve’s hand. She wanted to hesitate ‑ she wanted to keep her
hands by her sides but she did not, and she was pleased. “I am the one they say
might be a Dreamer. I do not know whether that gives me any advantage, but
Verin said it’s dangerous using this. Whichever of us uses it, she needs any
advantage she can find.” Nynaeve gripped her braid and opened her mouth
as if to protest. When she finally spoke, though, it was to say, “Are you sure,
Egwene? We do not even know if you are a Dreamer, and I can channel more
strongly than you. I still think I ‑ “ Egwene cut her off. “You can channel more strongly if you are
angry. Can you be sure you’ll be angry in a dream? Will you have time to become
angry before you need to channel? Light, we don’t even know that anyone can
channel in a dream. If one of us has to do it ‑ and you are right; it is
the only connection we have ‑ it should be me. Maybe I really am a
Dreamer. Besides, Verin did give it to me.” Nynaeve looked as if she wanted to argue, but
at last she gave a grudging nod. “Very well. But Elayne and I will be there. I
do not know what we can do, but if anything goes wrong, perhaps we can wake you
up, or . . . . We will be there.” Elayne nodded, too. Now that she had their agreement, Egwene felt a
queasiness in the pit of her stomach. I talked them into it. I wish I did not want them to talk me out of
it. She became aware of a woman standing in the doorway, a woman in
novice white, with her hair in long braids. “Did no one ever teach you to knock, Else?”
Nynaeve said. Egwene hid the stone ring inside her fist. She
had the strangest feeling that Else had been staring at it. “I have a message for you,” Else said calmly.
Her eyes studied the table, with all the papers scattered on it, then the three
women around it. “From the Amyrlin.” Egwene exchanged wondering looks with Nynaeve
and Elayne. “Well, what is it?” Nynaeve demanded. Else arched an eyebrow in amusement. “The
belongings left behind by Liandrin and the others were put in the third
storeroom on the right from the main stairs in the second basement under the
library.” She glanced at the papers on the table again and left, neither
hurrying nor moving slowly. Egwene felt as if she could not breathe. We’re
afraid to trust anybody, and the Amyrlin decides to trust Else Grinwell of all
women? “That fool girl cannot be trusted not to blab
to anyone who’ll listen!” Nynaeve started for the door. Egwene grabbed up her skirts and darted past
her at a run. Her shoes skidded on the tiles of the gallery, but she caught a
glimpse of white vanishing down the nearest ramp and dashed after it. She must be running, too, to be so far ahead
already. Why it the running? The flash of white was already disappearing
down another ramp. Egwene followed. A woman turned to face her at the foot of the
ramp, and Egwene stopped in confusion. Whoever she was, this was certainly not
Else. All in silver and white silk, she sparked feelings Egwene had never had
before. She was taller, more beautiful by far, and the look in her black eyes
made Egwene feel small, scrawny, and none too clean. She can probably channel more of the Power than I can, too. Light, she
is probably smarter than all three of us put together on top of it. It
isn’t fair for one woman to ‑ Abruptly she realized the way her
thoughts were going. Her cheeks reddened, and she gave herself a shake. She had
never felt - less ‑ than any other woman before, and she was not about to
start now. “Bold,” the woman said. “You are bold to go
running about so, alone, where so many murders have been done.” She sounded
almost pleased. Egwene drew herself up and straightened her
dress hurriedly, hoping the other woman would not notice, knowing she did,
wishing the woman had not seen her running like a child. Stop that! “Pardon,
but I am looking for a novice who came this way, I think. She has large, dark
eyes and dark hair in braids. She’s plump, and pretty in a way. Did you see
which way she went?” The tall woman looked her up and down in an
amused way. Egwene could not be sure, but she thought the woman might have
glanced a moment at the clenched fist by her side, where she still held the
stone ring. “I do not think you will catch up to her. I saw her, and she was
running quite fast. I suspect she is far away from here by now.” “Aes Sedai,” Egwene began, but she was given no
chance to ask which way Else had gone. Something that might have been anger, or
annoyance, flashed through those black eyes. “I have taken up enough time with you for now.
I have more important matters to see to. Leave me. “ She gestured back the way
Egwene had come. So strong was the command in her voice that
Egwene turned and was three steps up the ramp before she realized what she was
doing. Bristling, she spun back. Aes Sedai or no, I - The gallery was empty. Frowning, she dismissed the nearest doors‑no
one lived in those rooms, except possibly mice ‑ and ran down the ramp,
peered both ways, followed the curve of the gallery with her eyes all the way
around. She even peered over the rail, down into the small Garden of the
Accepted, and studied the other galleries, higher as well as lower. She saw two
Accepted in their banded dresses, one Faolain and the other a woman she knew by
sight if not name. But there was no woman in silver and white anywhere. CHAPTER 26 Behind a Lock Shaking her head, Egwene walked back to the
doors she had dismissed. She had to go
somewhere. Inside the first, the few furnishings were shapeless mounds
under dusty cloths, and the air seemed stale, as if the door had not been
opened in some time. She grimaced; there were
mouse tracks in the dust on the floor. But no others. Two more doors,
opened hastily, showed the same thing. It was no surprise. There were many more
empty rooms than occupied in the Accepted’s galleries. When she pulled her head out of the third room,
Nynaeve and Elayne were coming down the ramp behind her with no particular
haste. “Is she hiding?” Nynaeve asked in surprise. “In
there?” “I lost her.” Egwene peered both ways along the
curving gallery again. Where did she go? She
did not mean Else. “If I had thought Else could outrun you,”
Elayne said with a smile, “I’d have chased her, too, but she has always looked
too plump for running to me.” Her smile was worried, though. “We will have to find her later,” Nynaeve said,
“and make sure she knows to keep her mouth shut. How could the Amyrlin trust
that girl?” “I thought I was right on top of her,” Egwene
said slowly, “but it was someone else. Nynaeve, I turned my back for a moment,
and she was gone. Not Else ‑ I never even saw her! ‑ the woman I
thought was Else at first. She was just ‑ gone, and I don’t know where.” Elayne’s
breath caught. “One of the Soulless?” She looked around hastily, but the
gallery was still empty except for the three of them. “Not
her,” Egwene said firmly. “She ‑ “ I am not going to tell them she
made me feel six years old, with a torn dress, a dirty face, and a runny nose.
“She was no Gray Man. She was tall and striking, with black eyes and black
hair. You’d notice her in a crowd of a thousand. I have never seen her before,
but I think she is Aes Sedai. She must be.” Nynaeve
waited, as though for more, then said impatiently, “If you see her again, point
her out to me. If you think there’s cause. We’ve no time to stand here talking.
I mean to see what is in that storeroom before Else has a chance to tell the
wrong person about it. Maybe they were careless. Let’s not give them a chance
to correct it, if they were.” As
she fell in beside Nynaeve, with Elayne on the other side, Egwene realized she
still had the stone ring ‑ Corianin Nedeal’s ter’angreal
- clutched in her fist. Reluctantly, she tucked it into her pouch and pulled
the drawstrings tight. As long as I don’t go to sleep with the bloody ‑
But that’s what I am planning, isn’t it? But
that was for tonight, and no use worrying about it now. As they made their way
through the Tower, she kept an eye out for the woman in silver and white. She
was not sure why she was relieved not to see her. I am a grown woman, and
quite capable, thank you. Still, she was just as glad that no one they
encountered looked even remotely like her. The more she thought of the woman,
the more she felt there was something - wrong - about her. Light, I am starting to see the Black Ajah
under my bed. Only, maybe they are under the bed. The
library stood a little apart from the tall, thick shaft of the White Tower
proper, its pale stone heavily streaked with blue, and it looked much like
crashing waves frozen at their climax. Those waves loomed as large as a palace
in the morning light, and Egwene knew they certainly contained as many rooms as
one, but all those rooms ‑ those below the odd corridors in the upper
levels, where Verin had her chambers ‑ were filled with shelves, and the
shelves filled with books, manuscripts, papers, scrolls, maps, and charts,
collected from every nation over the course of three thousand years. Not even
the great libraries in Tear and Cairhien held so many. The
librarians‑Brown sisters all‑guarded those shelves, and guarded the
doors as closely, to make sure not a scrap of paper left unless they knew who
took it and why. But it was not to one of the guarded entrances that Nynaeve
led Egwene and Elayne. Around
the foundations of the library, lying flat to the ground in the shade of tall
pecan trees, were other doors, both large and small. Laborers sometimes needed
access to the storerooms beneath, and the librarians did not approve of
sweating men tracking through their preserve. Nynaeve pulled up one of those,
no bigger than the front door of a farmhouse, and motioned the others down a
steep flight of stairs descending into darkness. When she let it down behind
them, all light vanished. Egwene
opened herself to saidar ‑ it came so smoothly that she barely realized
what she was doing ‑ and channeled a trickle of the Power that flooded
through her. For a moment the mere feel of that rush surging within her
threatened to overwhelm other sensations. A small ball of bluish‑white
light appeared, balanced in the air above her hand. She took a deep breath and
reminded herself of why she was walking stiffly. It was a link to the rest of
the world. The feel of her linen shift against her skin returned, of woolen
stockings, and her dress. With a small pang of regret, she banished the desire
to pull in more, to let saidar absorb her. Elayne
made a glowing sphere for herself at the same time, and the pair provided more
light than two lanterns would have. “It feels so - wonderful, doesn’t it?” she
murmured. “Be
careful,” Egwene said. “I
am.” Elayne sighed. “It just feels . . . . I will be careful.” “This
way,” Nynaeve told them sharply and brushed by to lead them down. She did not
go too far ahead. She was not angry, and had to use the light the other two
provided. The
dusty side corridor by which they had entered, lined with wooden doors set in
gray stone walls, took nearly a hundred paces to reach the much wider main hall
that ran the length of the library. Their lights showed footprints overlaying
footprints in the dust, most from the large boots men would wear and most
themselves faded by dust. The ceiling was higher here, and some of the doors
nearly large enough for a barn. The main stairs at the end, half the width of
the hall, were where large things were brought down. Another flight beside them
led deeper. Nynaeve took it without a pause. Egwene
followed quickly. The bluish light washed out Elayne’s face, but Egwene thought
it still looked paler than it should. We
could scream our lungs out down here, and no one would hear a whimper. She
felt a lightning bolt form, or the potential for one, and nearly stumbled. She
had never before channeled two flows at once; it did not seem difficult at all. The
main hall of the second basement was much like the first level, wide and dusty
but with a lower ceiling. Nynaeve hurried to the third door on the right and
stopped. The
door was not large, but its rough wooden planks somehow gave an impression of
thickness. A round iron lock hung from a length of stout chain that was drawn
tight through two thick staples, one in the door, the other cemented into the
wall. Lock and chain alike had the look of newness; there was almost no dust on
them. “A
lock!” Nynaeve jerked at it; the chain had no give, and neither did the lock.
“Did either of you see a lock anywhere else?” She pulled it again, then flung
it against the door hard enough to bounce. The bang echoed down the hall. “I
did not see one other locked door!” She pounded a fist on the rough wood. “Not
one!” “Calm
yourself,” Elayne said. “There is no need to throw a tantrum. I could open the
lock myself, if I could see how the inside of it works. We will open it some
way.” “I
do not want to calm myself,” Nynaeve snapped. “I want to be furious! I want . .
. !” Letting
the rest of the tirade fade from her awareness, Egwene touched the chain. She
had learned more things than how to make lightning bolts since leaving Tar
Valon. One was an affinity for metal. That came from Earth, one of the Five
Powers few women had much strength in ‑ the other was Fire ‑ but
she had it, and she could feel the chain, feel inside the chain, feel the tiniest
bits of the cold metal, the patterns they made. The Power within her quivered
in time to the vibrations of those patterns. “Move
out of my way, Egwene.” She
looked around and saw Nynaeve wrapped in the glow of saidar and holding a prybar so close in color to the blue‑white
of the light that it was nearly invisible. Nynaeve frowned at the chain,
muttered something about leverage, and the prybar was suddenly twice as long. “Move,
Egwene. “ Egwene
moved. Thrusting
the end of the prybar through the chain, Nynaeve braced it, then heaved with
all her strength. The chain snapped like thread, Nynaeve gasped and stumbled
halfway across the hall in surprise, and the prybar clattered to the floor.
Straightening, Nynaeve stared from the bar to the chain in amazement. The
prybar vanished. “I
think I did something to the chain,” Egwene said. And I with I knew what. “You
could have said something,” Nynaeve muttered. She pulled the rest of the chain
from the staples and threw open the door. “Well? Are you going to stand there
all day?” The
dusty room inside was perhaps ten paces square, but it held only a heap of
large bags made of heavy brown cloth, each stuffed full, tagged, and sealed
with the Flame of Tar Valon. Egwene did not have to count them to know there
were thirteen. She
moved her ball of light to the wall and fastened it there; she was not certain
how she did it, but when she took her hand away, the light remained. I keep learning how to do things without knowing what they are, she
thought nervously. Elayne
frowned at her as if considering, then hung her light on the wall, too.
Watching, Egwene thought she saw what it was she had done. She learned it from me, but I just learned it from her. She
shivered. Nynaeve
went straight to tumbling the bags apart and reading the tags. “Rianna. Joiya
Byir. These are what we are after.” She examined the seal on one bag, then
broke the wax and unwound the binding cords. “At least we know no one’s been
here before us.” Egwene
chose a bag and broke the seal without reading the name on the tag. She did not
really want to know whose possessions she was searching. When she upended them
onto the dusty floor, they proved to be mainly old clothes and shoes, with a
few ripped and crumpled papers of the sort that might hide under the wardrobe
of a woman who was not too assiduous in seeing her rooms cleaned. “I don’t see
anything useful here. A cloak that would not do for rags. A torn half of a map
of some city. Tear, it says in the corner. Three stockings that need darning.”
She stuck her finger through the hole in a velvet slipper that had no mate and
waggled it at the others. “This one left no clues behind.” “Amico
did not leave anything, either,” Elayne said glumly, tossing clothes aside with
both hands. “It might as well be rags. Wait, here’s a book. Whoever bundled
these up must have been in a hurry to toss in a book. Customs and Ceremonies of the Tairen Court. The cover is torn off,
but the librarians will want it anyway.” The librarians certainly would. No one
threw away books, no matter how badly damaged. “Tear,”
Nynaeve said in flat voice. Kneeling amid the clutter from the bag she was
searching, she retrieved a scrap of paper she had already thrown away. “A list
of trading ships on the Erinin, with the dates they sailed from Tar Valon and
the dates they were expected to arrive in Tear. “ “It
could be coincidence,” Egwene said slowly. “Perhaps,”
Nynaeve said. She folded the paper and tucked it up her sleeve, then broke the
seal on another bag. When
they finally finished, every bag searched twice and discarded rubbish heaped
around the edges of the room, Egwene sat down on one of the empty bags, so
engrossed that she barely noticed her own wince. Drawing up her knees, she
studied the little collection they had made, all laid in a row. “It
is too much,” Elayne said. “There is too much of it.” “Too
much,” Nynaeve agreed. There
was a second book, a tattered, leather‑bound volume entitled Observations on a Visit to Tear, with
half its pages falling out. Caught in the lining of a badly torn cloak in
Chesmal Emry’s bag, where it might have slipped through a rip in one of the
pockets of the cloak, had been another list of trading vessels. It said no more
than the names, but they were all on the other list, too, and according to
that, those vessels all had sailed in the early morning after the night
Liandrin and the others left the Tower. There was a hastily sketched plan of
some large building, with one room faintly noted as “Heart of the Stone,” and a
page with the names of five inns, the word “Tear” heading the page badly
smudged but barely readable. There was. . . . “There’s
something from everyone,” Egwene muttered. “Every one of them left something
pointing to a journey to Tear. How could anyone miss seeing it, if they looked?
Why did the Amyrlin say nothing of this?” “The
Amyrlin,” Nynaeve said bitterly, “keeps her own counsel, and what matter if we
burn for it!” She drew a deep breath, and sneezed from the dust they had
stirred up. “What worries me is that I am looking at bait. “ “Bait?”
Egwene said. But she saw it as soon as she spoke. Nynaeve
nodded. “Bait. A trap. Or maybe a diversion. But trap or diversion, it’s so
obvious no one could be taken in by it.” “Unless
they do not care whether whoever found this saw the trap or not.” Uncertainty
tinged Elayne’s voice. “Or perhaps they meant it to be so obvious that whoever
found it would dismiss Tear immediately.” Egwene wished she could not believe that the Black Ajah
could be as sure of themselves as that. She realized she was gripping her pouch
in her fingers, running her thumb along the twisted curve of the stone ring
inside. “Perhaps they meant to taunt whoever found it,” she said softly.
“Perhaps they thought whoever found this would rush headlong after them, in
anger and pride.” Did they know we would find it? Do they see us that way? “Burn me!” Nynaeve growled. It was a shock; Nynaeve never
used such language. For
a time they simply stared in silence at the array. “What
do we do now?” Elayne asked finally. Egwene
squeezed the ring hard. Dreaming was closely linked to Foretelling; the future,
and events in other places, could appear in a Dreamer’s dreams. “Maybe we will
know after tonight.” Nynaeve looked at her, silent and expressionless; then chose out a
dark skirt that seemed not to have too many holes and rips, and began bundling
in it the things they had found. “For now,” she said, “we will take this back
to my room and hide it. I think we just have time, if we don’t want to be late
to the kitchens.” Late, Egwene thought. The longer she held the ring
through her pouch, the greater the urgency she felt. We’re already a step behind, but maybe we won’t be too late. CHAPTER 27 Tel’aran’rhiod The
room Egwene had been given, on the same gallery with Nynaeve and Elayne, was
little different from Nynaeve’s. Her bed was a trifle wider, her table a little
smaller. Her bit of rug had flowers instead of scrolls. That was all.
After the novices’ quarters, it seemed like a room in a palace, but when the
three of them gathered there late that night, Egwene wished she were back on
the novice galleries, with no ring on her finger and no bands on her dress. The
others looked as nervous as she felt. They
had worked in the kitchens for two more meals, and in between tried to puzzle
out the meaning of what they had found in the storeroom. Was it a trap, or an
attempt to divert the search? Did the Amyrlin know of the things, and if she
did, why had she not mentioned them? Talking provided no answers, and the
Amyrlin never appeared so they could ask her. Verin
had come into the kitchens after the midday meal, blinking as if she were not
sure why she was there. When she saw Egwene and the other two on their knees
among the cauldrons and kettles, she looked surprised for a moment, then walked
over and asked, loud enough for anyone to hear, “Have you found anything?” Elayne,
with her head and shoulders inside a huge soup kettle, banged her head on the
rim backing out. Her blue eyes seemed to take up her entire face. “Nothing
but grease and sweat, Aes Sedai,” Nynaeve said. The tug she gave her braid left
a smear of greasy soap suds on her dark hair, and she grimaced. Verin
nodded as if that were the answer she had been seeking. “Well, keep looking.”
She peered around the kitchen again, frowning as though puzzled to find herself
there, and left. Alanna
came to the kitchens after midday, too, collecting a bowl of big green
gooseberries and a pitcher of wine, and Elaida, then Sheriam, appeared after
supper, and Anaiya, too. Alanna
had asked Egwene if she wanted to know more of the Green Ajah, inquired when
they were going to get on with their studies. Just because the Accepted chose
their own lessons and pace did not mean they were not supposed to do any at
all. The first few weeks would be bad, of course, but they had to choose, or
the choosing would be done for them. Elaida
merely stood for a time, stern‑faced and staring at them, hands on her
hips, and Sheriam did the same in almost the identical pose. Anaiya stood the
same way, but her look was more concerned. Until she saw them glancing at her.
Then her face became a match for Elaida’s and Sheriam’s before her. None
of those visits meant anything that Egwene could see. The Mistress of Novices
certainly had reason to check on them, as well as on the novices working in the
kitchens, and Elaida had reason to keep an eye on the Daughter‑Heir of
Andor. Egwene tried not to think of the Aes Sedai’s interest in Rand. As for
Alanna, she was not the only Aes Sedai who came for a tray to take back to her
rooms rather than eat with the others. Half the sisters in the Tower were too
busy for meals, too busy to take the time to summon a servant to fetch a tray.
And Anaiya . .? Anaiya could well be concerned for her Dreamer. Not that she
would do anything to ease a punishment set by the Amyrlin Seat herself. That
could have been Anaiya’s reason for coming. It could have been. Hanging
her dress in the wardrobe, Egwene told herself once again that even Verin’s
slip could have been perfectly ordinary; the Brown sister was often
absentminded. If it was a slip. Sitting on the edge of her bed, she pulled up
her shift and began rolling down her stockings. She was almost beginning to
dislike white as much as she did gray. Nynaeve
stood in front of the fireplace with Egwene’s pouch in one hand, tugging her
braid. Elayne sat by the table, making nervous conversation. “Green
Ajah,” the golden‑haired woman said for what Egwene thought must be the
twentieth time since midday. “I might choose Green Ajah myself, Egwene. Then I
can have three or four Warders, perhaps marry one of them. Who better for
Prince Consort of Andor than a Warder? Unless it is . . . .” She trailed off,
blushing. Egwene
felt a pang of jealousy she thought she had put down long ago, and sympathy
mixed with it. Light, how can I be
jealous when I cannot look at Galad without shivering and feeling as if I am
melting, both at the same time? Rand was mine, but no more. I wish I could give him to you, Elayne, but he is
not for either of us, I think. It may be all well and good for the
Daughter-Heir to marry a commoner, as long as he’s an Andorman, but not to
marry the Dragon Reborn. She let the stockings fall on the floor, telling
herself there were more important things to worry about tonight than neatness.
“I am ready, Nynaeve. “ Nynaeve
handed her the pouch, and a long, thin strip of leather. “Perhaps it will work
for more than one at once. I could . . . go with you, perhaps.” Emptying
the stone ring onto her palm, Egwene threaded the leather strip through it,
then tied it around her neck. The stripes and flecks of blue and brown and red
seemed more vivid against the white of her shift. “And leave Elayne to watch
over the both of us alone? When the Black Ajah may know us?” “I
can do it,” Elayne said stoutly. “Or let me go with you, and Nynaeve can keep
guard. She is the strongest of us, when she’s angry, and if there is need for a
guard, you can be sure she will be.” Egwene
shook her head. “What if it won’t work for two? What if two of us trying makes
it not work at all? We would not even know till we woke up, and then we’ve
wasted the night. We cannot waste even one if we are to catch up. We’re too far
behind them already.” They were valid reasons, and she believed them, but there
was another, closer to her heart. “Besides, I’ll feel better knowing both of
you are watching over me, in case . . . . “ She
did not want to say it. In case someone came while she was asleep. The Gray
Men. The Black Ajah. Any one of the things that had turned the White Tower from
a place of safety to a dark woods full of pits and snares. Something coming in
while she lay there helpless. Their faces showed they understood. As
she stretched herself out on the bed and plumped a feather pillow behind her
head, Elayne moved the chairs, one to either side of the bed. Nynaeve snuffed
the candles one by one, then, in the dark, sat in one of the chairs. Elayne
took the other. Egwene
closed her eyes and tried to think sleepy thoughts, but she was too conscious
of the thing lying between her breasts. Far more conscious than of any soreness
remaining from her visit to Sheriam’s study. The ring seemed to weigh as much
as a brick, now, and thoughts of home and quiet pools of water all slid apart
with remembrance of it. Of Tel’aran’rhiod.
The Unseen World. The World of Dreams. Waiting just the other side of
sleep. Nynaeve
began to hum softly. Egwene recognized a nameless, wordless tune her mother
used to hum to, her when she was little. When she was lying in bed, in her own
room, with a fluffy pillow, and warm blankets, and the mingled smells of rose
oil and baking from her mother, and . . . . Rand,
are you all right? Perrin? Who was .she? Sleep came. She
stood among rolling hills quilted with wildflowers and dotted with small
thickets of leafy trees in the hollows and on the crests. Butterflies floated
above the blossoms, wings flashing yellow and blue and green, and two larks
sang to each other nearby. Just enough fluffy white clouds drifted in a soft
blue sky, and the breeze held that delicate balance between cool and warm that
came only a few special days in spring. It was a day too perfect to be anything
but a dream. She
looked at her dress, and laughed delightedly. Exactly her favorite shade of sky‑blue
silk, slashed with white in the skirt ‑ that changed to green as she
frowned momentarily - sewn with rows of tiny pearls down the sleeves and
across the bosom. She stuck out a foot just to peek at the toe of a velvet
slipper. The only jarring note was the twisted ring of multicolored stone
hanging around her neck on a leather cord. She
took the ring in her hand and gasped. It felt as light as a feather. If she
tossed it up, she was sure it would drift away like thistle down. Somehow, she
did not feel afraid of it any longer. She tucked it inside the neck of her
dress to get it out of the way. “So
this is Verin’s Tel’aran’rhiod,” she
said. “Corianin Nedeal’s World of Dreams. It does not look dangerous to me.”
But Verin had said it was. Black Ajah or not, Egwene did not see how any Aes
Sedai could tell a lie right out. She
could be mistaken. But she did not believe Verin was. Just
to see if she could, she opened herself to the One Power. Saidar filled her. Even here, it was present. She channeled the
flow lightly, delicately, directed it into the breeze, swirling butterflies
into fluttering spirals of color, into circles linked with circles. Abruptly
she let it go. The butterflies settled back, unconcerned by their brief
adventure. Myrddraal and some other Shadowspawn could sense someone channeling.
Looking around, she could not imagine such things in that place, but just
because she could not imagine them did not mean they were not there. And the
Black Ajah had all those ter’angreal studied
by Corianin Nedeal. It was a sickening reminder of why she was there. “At
least I know I can channel,” she muttered. “I’m not learning anything standing
here. Perhaps if I look around . . . .” She took a step . . . . .
. and was standing in the dank, dark hallway of an inn. She was an innkeeper’s
daughter; she was sure it was an inn. There was not a sound, and all the doors
along the hall were shut tight. Just as she wondered who was behind the plain
wooden door in front of her, it swung silently open. The
room within was bare, and cold wind moaned through open windows, stirring old
ash on the hearth. A big dog lay curled up on the floor, shaggy tail across its
nose, between the door and a thick pillar of rough‑cut, black stone that
stood in the middle of the floor. A large, shaggy‑haired young man sat
leaning back against the pillar in only his smallclothes, head lolling as if
asleep. A massive black chain ran around the pillar and across his chest, the
ends gripped in his clenched hands. Asleep or not, his heavy muscles strained
to hold that chain tight, to prison himself against the pillar. “Perrin?”
she said wonderingly. She stepped into the room. “Perrin, what’s the matter
with you? Perrin!” The dog uncurled itself and stood. It
was not a dog, but a wolf, all black and gray, lips curling back from
glistening white teeth, yellow eyes regarding her as they might have a mouse. A
mouse it meant to eat. Egwene
stepped back hastily into the hall in spite of herself. “Perrin! Wake up!
There’s a wolf?” Verin had said what happened here was real, and showed the
scar to prove it. The wolf’s teeth looked as big as knives. “Perrin,
wake up! Tell it I’m a friend!” She embraced saidar. The wolf stalked nearer. Perrin’s
head came up; his eyes opened drowsily. Two sets of yellow eyes regarded her.
The wolf gathered himself. “Hopper,” Perrin shouted, “no! Egwene!” The
door swung shut before her face, and total darkness enveloped her. She
could not see, but she felt sweat beading on her forehead. Not from heat. Light, where am I? I don’t like this place.
I want to wake up! A
whirring sound, and she jumped before she recognized a cricket. A frog gave a
bass croak in the darkness, and a chorus answered it. As her eyes adapted, she
dimly made out trees all around her. Clouds blanketed the stars, and the moon
was a thin sliver. Off
to her right through the woods was another glow, flickering. A campfire. She
considered a moment before moving. Wanting to wake up had not been enough to
take her way from Tel’aran’rhiod, and
she still had not found out anything useful. And she had not been hurt in any
way. So far, she thought, shivering.
But she had no idea who ‑ or what ‑ was at that campfire. It could be Myrddraal. Besides, I’m not
dressed for running around in the forest. It was the last thought that
decided her; she prided herself on knowing when she was being foolish. Taking
a deep breath, she gathered up her silken skirts and crept closer. She might
not have Nynaeve’s skill at woodcraft, but she knew enough to avoid stepping on
dead twigs. At last she peered carefully around the trunk of an old oak at the
campfire. The
only one there was a tall young man, sitting and staring into the flames. Rand.
Those flames did not burn wood. They did not burn anything that she could see.
The fire danced above a bare patch of ground. She did not think they even
scorched the soil. Before
she could move, Rand raised his head. She was surprised to see he was smoking a
pipe, a thin ribbon of tabac smoke lifting from the bowl. He looked tired, so
very tired. “Who’s
out there?” he demanded loudly. “You’ve rustled enough leaves to wake the dead,
so you might as well show yourself.” Egwene’s
lips compressed, but she stepped out. I did not! “It’s me, Rand. Do not be afraid. It is a dream. I must be
in your dreams.” He
was on his feet so suddenly that she stopped dead. He seemed in some way larger
than she remembered. And a touch dangerous. Perhaps more than a touch. His blue‑gray
eyes seemed to burn like frozen fire. “Do
you think I don’t know it is a dream?” he sneered. “I know that makes it no
less real.” He stared angrily out into the darkness as if looking for someone.
“How long will you try?” he shouted at the night. “How many faces will you
send? My mother, my father, now her! Pretty girls won’t tempt me with a kiss,
not even one I know! I deny you, Father of Lies! I deny you!” “Rand,”
she said uncertainly. “It’s Egwene. I am Egwene.” There
was a sword in his hands, suddenly, out of nowhere. Its blade was worked out of
a single flame, slightly curved and graven with a heron. “My mother gave me
honeycake,” he said in a tight voice, “with the smell of poison rank on it. My
father had a knife for my ribs. She ‑ she offered kisses, and more.”
Sweat slicked his face; his stare seemed enough to set her afire. “What do you
bring?” “You
are going to listen to me, Rand al’Thor, if I have to sit on you.” She gathered
saidar, channeled the flows to make
the air hold him in a net. The
sword spun in his hands, roaring like an open furnace. She
grunted and staggered; it felt as if a rope stretched too tight had broken and
snapped back into her. Rand
laughed. “I learn, you see. When it works. . . .” He grimaced and started
toward her. “I could stand any face but that one. Not her face, burn you!” The
sword flashed out. Egwene
fled. She
was not sure what it was she did, or how, but she found herself back among the
rolling hills under a sunny sky, with larks singing and butterflies playing.
She drew a deep, shuddering breath. I’ve learned. . . . What? That the
Dark One is still after Rand? I knew that already. That
maybe the Dark One wants to kill him? That’s different. Unless maybe he’s gone
mad already, and does not know what he is saying. Light, why couldn’t I help
him? Oh, Light, Rand! She
took another long breath to calm herself. “The only way to help him is to
gentle him,” she muttered. “As well go ahead and kill him.” Her stomach twisted
and knotted. “I’ll never do that. Never!” A
redbird had perched on a cloudberry bush nearby, crest lifting as it tilted its
head to watch her cautiously. She addressed the bird. “Well, I am not helping
anything standing here talking to myself, am I? Or talking to you, either.” The
redbird took wing as she stepped toward the bush. It was still a flash of
crimson as she took the next step, vanished into a thicket she took a third. She
stopped and fished the stone ring on its cord out of the front of her dress.
Why was it not changing? Everything had changed so fast up till now that she
could hardly catch her breath. Why not now? Unless there was some answer right
here? She looked around uncertainly. The wildflowers taunted her, and the
larksong mocked her. This place seemed too much of her own making. Determined,
she tightened her hand around the ter’angreal.
“Take me where I need to be.” She shut her eyes and concentrated on the
ring. It was stone, after all; Earth should give her some feeling for it. “Do
it. Take me where I need to be.” Once again she embraced saidar, fed a trickle of the One Power into the ring. She knew it
did not need any flow of Power directed at it to work, and she did not try to
do anything to it. Only to give it more of the Power to use. “Take me to where
I can find an answer. I need to know what the Black Ajah wants. Take me to the
answer.” “Well,
you’ve found your way at last, child. All sorts of answers here.” Egwene’s
eyes snapped open. She stood in a great hall, its vast domed ceiling supported
by a forest of massive redstone columns. And hanging in midair was a sword of
crystal, gleaming and sparkling as it slowly revolved. She was not certain, but
she thought it might be the sword Rand had been reaching for in that dream.
That other dream. This all felt so real, she had to keep reminding herself it
was a dream, too. An
old woman stepped out of the shadows of the column, bent and hobbling with a
stick. Ugly did not begin to describe her. She had a bony, pointed chin, an
even bonier, sharper nose, and it seemed there were more warts growing hairs on
her face than there was face. “Who
are you?” Egwene said. The only people she had seen so far in Tel’aran’rhiod were those she already
knew, but she did not think she could have forgotten this poor old woman. “Just
poor old Silvie, my Lady,” the old woman cackled. At the same time she managed
a stoop that might have been meant for a curtsy, or possibly a cringe. “You
know poor old Silvie, my Lady. Served your family faithfully all these years.
Does this old face still frighten you? Don’t let it, my Lady. It serves me,
when I need it, as good as a prettier.” “Of
course, it does,” Egwene said. “It’s a strong face. A good face.” She hoped the
woman believed it. Whoever this Silvie was, she seemed to think she knew
Egwene. Perhaps she knew answers, too. “Silvie, you said something about
finding answers here.” “Oh,
you’ve come to the right place for answers, my Lady. The Heart of the Stone is
full of answers. And secrets. The High Lords would not be pleased to see us
here, my Lady. Oh, no. None but the High Lords enter here. And servants, of
course.” She gave a sly, screeching laugh. “The High Lords don’t sweep and mop.
But who sees a servant?” “What
kind of secrets?” But
Silvie was hobbling toward the crystal sword. “Plots,” she said as if to
herself. “All of them pretending to serve the Great Lord, and all the while
plotting and planning to regain what they lost. Each one thinking he or she is
the only one plotting. Ishamael is a fool!” “What?”
Egwene said sharply. “What did you say about Ishamael?” The
old woman turned to present a crooked, ingratiating smile. “Just a thing poor
folks say, my Lady. It turns the Forsaken’s power, calling them fools. Makes
you feel good, and safe. Even the Shadow can’t take being called a fool. Try
it, my Lady. Say, Ba’alzamon is a fool!” Egwene’s
lips twitched on the edge of a smile. “Ba’alzamon is a fool! You are right,
Silvie.” It actually did feel good, laughing at the Dark One. The old woman
chuckled. The sword revolved just beyond her shoulder. “Silvie, what is that?” “Callandor, my Lady. You know that, don’t you?
The Sword That Cannot Be Touched.” Abruptly she swung her stick behind her; a
foot from the sword, the stick stopped with a dull thwack and bounded back. Silvie grinned wider. “The Sword That Is
Not a Sword, though there’s precious few knows what it is. But none can touch
it save one. They saw to that, who put it here. The Dragon Reborn will hold Callandor one day, and prove to the
world he’s the Dragon by doing it. The first proof, anyway. Lews Therin come
back for all the world to see, and grovel before. Ah, the High Lords don’t like
having it here. They like nothing to do with the Power. They’d rid themselves
of it, if they could. If they could. I suppose there’s others would take it, if
they could. What wouldn’t one of the Forsaken give, to hold Callandor?” Egwene
stared at the sparkling sword. If the Prophecies of the Dragon were true, if
Rand was the Dragon as Moiraine claimed, he would wield it one day, though from
the rest of what she knew of the Prophecies concerning Callandor, she could not see how it could ever come to be. But if there’s a way to take it, maybe the
Black Ajah knows how. If they know it, I can figure it out. Cautiously,
she reached out with the Power, probing at whatever held and shielded the
sword. Her probe touched ‑ something ‑ and stopped. She could sense
which of the Five Powers had been used here. Air, and Fire, and Spirit. She
could trace the intricate weave made by saidar,
set with a strength that amazed her. There were gaps in that weave, spaces
where her probe should slide through. When she tried, it was like fighting the
strongest part of the weave head on. It hit her then, what she was trying to
force a way through, and she let her probe vanish. Half that wall had been
woven using saidar; the other half,
the part she could not sense or touch, had been made with saidin. That was not it, exactly - the wall was all of one piece ‑
but it was close enough. A stone wall
stops a blind woman as surely as one who can see it. Footsteps
echoed in the distance. Boots. Egwene could not tell how many
there were, or from which direction they were coming, but Silvie gave a start
and immediately stared off among the columns. “He’s coming to stare at it
again,” she muttered. “Awake or asleep, he wants . . . . “ She seemed to
remember Egwene, and put on a worried smile. “You must leave, now, my Lady. He
mustn’t find you here, or even know you’ve been.” Egwene
was already backing in among the columns, and Silvie followed, flapping her
hands and waving her stick. “I am going, Silvie. I just have to remember the
way.” She fingered the stone ring. “Take me back to the hills.” Nothing happened:
She channeled a hairlike flow to the ring. “Take me back to the hills.” The
redstone columns still surrounded her. The boots were closer, close enough not
to be swallowed in their own echoes anymore. “You
don’t know the way out,” Sylvie said flatly, then went on in a near whisper,
ingratiating and mocking at once, an old retainer who felt she could take
liberties. “Oh, my Lady, this is a dangerous place to come into, if you don’t
know the way out. Come, let poor old Silvie take you out. Poor old Silvie will
tuck you safe in your bed, my Lady.” She wrapped both arms around Egwene,
urging her further from the sword. Not that Egwene needed much urging. The
boots had stopped; he ‑ whoever he was ‑ was probably gazing at Callandor. “Just
show me the way,” Egwene whispered back. “Or tell me. There’s no need to push.”
The old woman’s fingers had somehow gotten tangled around the stone ring.
“Don’t touch that, Silvie.” “Safe
in your bed.” Pain
annihilated the world. *
* * With
a throat‑wrenching shriek, Egwene sat up in the dark, sweat rolling down
her face. For a moment she had no idea where she was, and did not care. “Oh,
Light,” she moaned, “that hurt. Oh, Light, that hurt!” She ran her hands over
herself, sure her skin must be scored or wealed to make such a burning, but she
could not find a mark. “We
are here,” Nynaeve’s voice said from the darkness. “We’re here, Egwene. “ Egwene
threw herself toward the voice and wrapped her arms around Nynaeve’s neck in
sheer relief. “Oh, Light, I’m back. Light, I’m back.” “Elayne,”
Nynaeve said. In a
few moments one of the candles was giving a small light. Elayne paused with the
candle in hand and the spill she had lit with flint and steel in the other.
Then she smiled, and every candle in the room burst into flame. She stopped at
the washstand and came back to the bed with a cool, damp cloth to wash Egwene’s
face. “Was
it bad?” she asked worriedly. “You never stirred. You never mumbled. We did not
know whether to wake you or not.” Hurriedly,
Egwene fumbled the leather cord from around her neck and hurled it and the
stone ring across the room. “Next time,” she panted, “we decide on a time, and
you wake me after it. Wake me if you have to stick my head in a basin of
water!” She had not realized that she had decided there would be a next time. Would
you put your head in a bear’s mouth
just to show you weren’t afraid? Would
you do it twice just because
you’d done it once and didn’t die? Yet
it was more than a matter of proving to herself that she was not afraid. She was afraid, and knew it. But so long as
the Black Ajah had those ter’angreal Corianin
had studied, she would have to keep going back. She was sure the answer to why
they wanted them lay in Tel’aran’rhiod. If
she could find answers about the Black Ajah there perhaps other answers, too,
if half what she had been told about Dreaming were true ‑ she had to go
back. “But not tonight,” she said softly. “Not yet.” “What
happened?” Nynaeve asked. “What did you . . . dream?” Egwene lay back on the bed and told them. Of it all, the
only thing she left out was about Perrin talking to the wolf. She left the wolf
out altogether. She felt a little guilty about keeping secrets from Elayne and
Nynaeve, but it was Perrin’s secret to tell, when and if he chose, not hers.
The rest she gave them word for word, describing everything ‑ then she
was done, she felt emptied. “Aside
from being tired,” Elayne said, “did he look hurt? Egwene, I cannot believe he
would ever hurt you. I cannot believe he would.” “Rand,”
Nynaeve said dryly, “will have to look after himself awhile longer.” Elayne
blushed; she looked pretty doing it. Egwene realized that Elayne looked pretty
doing anything, even crying, or scrubbing pots. “Callandor,” Nynaeve continued. “The Heart of the Stone. That was
marked on the plan. I think we know where the Black Ajah is.” Elayne
had regained her poise. “It does not change the trap,” she said. “If it is not
a diversion, it is a trap.” Nynaeve
smiled grimly. “The best way to catch whoever set a trap is to spring it and
wait for him to come. Or her, in this instance.” “You
mean go to Tear?” Egwene said, and Nynaeve nodded. “The
Amyrlin has cut us loose, it seems. We make our own decisions, remember? At
least we know the Black Ajah is in Tear, and we know who to look for there. Here,
all we can do is sit and stew in our own suspicions of everybody, wonder if
there is another Gray Man out there. I would rather be the hound than the
rabbit.” “I
have to write to my mother,” Elayne said. When she saw the looks they gave her,
her voice became defensive. “I have already vanished once without her knowing
where I was. If I do it again . . . . You do not know Mother’s temper. She
could send Gareth Bryne and the whole army against Tar Valon. Or hunting after
us.” “You
could stay here,” Egwene said. “No.
I will not let you two go alone. And I won’t stay here wondering if the sister
teaching me is a Darkfriend, or if the next Gray Man will come after me.” She
gave a small laugh. “I will not work in the kitchens while you two are off
adventuring, either. I just have to tell my mother than I am out of the Tower
on the Amyrlin’s orders, so she won’t become furious if she hears rumors. I do
not have to tell her where we are going, or why.” “You
surely had better not,” Nynaeve said. “She very likely would come after you if
she knew about the Black Ajah. For that matter, you can’t know how many hands
your letter will pass through before it reaches her, or what eyes might read
it. Best not to say anything you don’t mind anyone knowing.” “That’s
another thing.” Elayne sighed. “The Amyrlin does not know I am one of you. I
have to find some way to send it with no chance of her seeing it.” “I
will have to think on that.” Nynaeve’s brows furrowed. “Perhaps once we’re on
our way. You could leave it at Aringill on the way downriver, if we have time
to find someone there going to Caemlyn. A sight of one of those papers the
Amyrlin gave us might convince somebody. We will have to hope they work on ship
captains, too, unless one of you has more coin than I have.” Elayne shook her
head dolefully. Egwene
did not even bother. What money they had possessed had all gone on the journey
from Toman Head, except for a few coppers each. “When. . . .” She had to stop
and clear her throat. “When do we leave? Tonight?” Nynaeve
looked as if she were considering it for a moment, but then she shook her head.
“You need sleep, after . . . .” Her gesture took in the stone ring lying where
it had bounced off the wall. “We will give the Amyrlin one more chance to seek
us out. When we finish with breakfast, you both pack what you want to take, but
keep it light. We have to leave the Tower without anyone noticing, remember. If
the Amyrlin doesn’t reach us by midday, I mean to be on a trading ship, shoving
that paper down the captain’s throat if need be, before Prime sounds. How does
that sound to you two?” “It
sounds excellent,” Elayne said firmly, and Egwene said, “Tonight or tomorrow,
the sooner the better, as far as I can see.” She wished she sounded as
confident as Elayne. “Then
we had best get some sleep.” “Nynaeve,”
Egwene said in a small voice, “I . . . . I don’t want to be alone tonight.” It
pained her to make that admission. “I
don’t, either,” Elayne said. “I keep thinking about the Soulless. I do not know
why, but they frighten me even more than the Black Ajah.” “I
suppose,” Nynaeve said slowly, “I don’t really want to be alone, myself.” She
eyed the bed where Egwene lay. “That looks big enough for three, if everybody
keeps her elbows to herself.” Later,
when they were shifting about trying to find a way to lie that did not feel so
crowded, Nynaeve suddenly laughed. “What
is it?” Egwene asked. “You are not that ticklish.” “I just thought of someone who’d be happy to carry Elayne’s letter
for her. Happy to leave Tar Valon, too. In fact, I’d bet on it.” CHAPTER 28 A Way Out Clad
only in his breeches, Mat was just finishing a snack after breakfast ‑
some ham, three apples, bread, and butter ‑ when the door of his room
opened, and Nynaeve, Egwene, and Elayne filed in, all smiling at him brightly.
He got up for a shirt, then stubbornly sat down again. They could at least have
knocked. In any case, it was good to see their faces. At first, it was. “Well,
you do look better,” Egwene said. “As
if you had had a month of good food and rest,” Elayne said. Nynaeve
pressed a hand to his forehead. He flinched before he recalled that she had
done much the same for at least five years, back home. She was just the Wisdom then, he thought. She wasn’t wearing that ring. She
had noticed his flinch. She gave him a tight smile. “You look ready to be up
and about, to me. Are you tired of being cooped up, yet? You never could stand
two days in a row indoors.” He
eyed the last apple core reluctantly, then dropped it back on the plate.
Almost, he started to lick the juice off his fingers, but they were all three
looking at him. And still smiling. He realized he was trying to decide which of
them was prettiest, and could not. Had they been anybody but who ‑ and
what ‑ they were, he would have asked any and all of them to dance a jig
or a reel. He had danced with Egwene often enough, back home, and even once
with Nynaeve, but that seemed a long time ago. “
‘One pretty woman means fun at the dance. Two pretty women mean trouble in the
house. Three pretty women mean run for the hills.’ “ He gave Nynaeve an even
tighter smile than her own. “My da used to say that. You’re up to something,
Nynaeve. You are all smiling like cats staring at a finch caught in a
thornbush, and I think I am the finch.” The
smiles flickered and vanished. He noticed their hands and wondered why they all
looked as if they had been washing dishes. The Daughter-Heir of Andor surely
never washed a dish, and he had as hard a time imagining Nynaeve at it, even
knowing she had done her own back in Emond’s Field. They all three wore Great
Serpent rings, now. That was new. And not a particularly pleasant surprise. Light, it had to happen sometime. It’s none
of my business, and that is all there is to it. None of my business. It just
isn’t. Egwene
shook her head, but it seemed as much for the other two women as for him. “I
told you we should ask him straight out. He’s stubborn as any mule when he
wants to be, and tricksome as a cat. You are, Mat. You know it, so stop
frowning.” He
put his grin back quickly. “Hush,
Egwene,” Nynaeve said. “Mat, just because we want to ask you a favor does not
mean we don’t care how you feel. We do care, and you know that, unless you’re
being even more wool‑headed than usual. Are you well? You look remarkably
well compared to how I last saw you. It really does look more like a month than
two days.” “I’m
ready to run ten miles and dance a jig at the end of it.” His stomach growled,
reminding him how long it was to midday yet, but he ignored it, and hoped they
had not noticed. He almost did feel as if he had had a month of rest and food.
And had had one meal in the last day. “What favor?” he asked suspiciously.
Nynaeve did not ask favors, in his recollection; Nynaeve told people what to do
and expected to see it done. “I
want you to carry a letter for me,” Elayne said before Nynaeve could speak. “To
my mother, in Caemlyn.” She smiled, making a dimple in her cheek. “I would
appreciate it so very much, Mat.” The morning light through the windows seemed
to pick out highlights in her hair. I wonder if she likes to dance. He pushed the thought right out of
his head. “That does not sound too very hard, but it’s a long trip. What do I
get out of it?” From the look on her face, he did not think that dimple had
failed her very often. She
drew herself up, slim and proud. He could almost see a throne behind her. “Are
you a loyal subject of Andor? Do you not wish to serve the Lion Throne, and
your Daughter-Heir?” Mat
snickered. “I
told you that would not work either,” Egwene said. “Not with him. “ Elayne
had a wry twist to her mouth. “I thought it worth a try. It always works on the
Guards, in Caemlyn. You said if I smiled ‑ “ She cut off short, very
obviously not looking at him. What did you say, Egwene, he thought, furious. That I’m a fool for any girl who smiles at
me? He kept his outward calm, though, and managed to maintain his grin. “I
wish asking were enough,” Egwene said, “but you do not do favors, do you, Mat?
Have you ever done anything without being coaxed, wheedled, or bullied?” He
only smiled at her. “I will dance with both of you, Egwene, but I won’t run
errands.” For an instant he thought she was going to stick out her tongue at
him. “If
we can go back to what we planned in the first place,” Nynaeve said in a too‑calm
voice. The other two nodded, and she turned her attentions on him. For the
first time since coming in, she looked like the Wisdom of old, with a stare
that could pin you in your tracks and her braid ready to lash like a cat’s
tail. “You
are even ruder than I remembered, Matrim Cauthon. With you sick so long ‑
and Egwene, and Elayne, and I taking care of you like a babe in swaddling ‑I had almost forgotten. Even so, I
would think you’d have a little gratitude in you. You’ve talked about seeing
the world, seeing great cities. Well, what better city than Caemlyn? Do what
you want, show your gratitude, and help someone all at the same time.” She
produced a folded parchment from inside her cloak and set it on the table. It
was sealed with a lily, in golden yellow wax. “You cannot ask for more than
that.” He
eyed the paper regretfully. He barely remembered passing through Caemlyn, once,
with Rand. It was a shame to stop them now, but he thought it best. If you want the fun of the jig, you have to pay
the harper sooner or later. And the way Nynaeve was now, the longer he kept
from paying, the worse it would be. “Nynaeve, I can’t.” “What
do you mean, you cannot? Are you a fly on the wall, or a man? A chance to do a
favor for the Daughter‑Heir of Andor, to see Caemlyn, to meet Queen
Morgase herself in all probability, and you cannot? I really do not know what
more you could possibly want. Don’t you skitter away like grease on a griddle
this time, Matrim Cauthon! Or has your heart changed so you like seeing these
all around you?” She waved her left hand in his face, practically hitting him
in the nose with her ring. “Please,
Mat?” Elayne said, and Egwene was staring at him as if he had grown horns like
a Trolloc. He
squirmed on his chair. “It is not that I don’t want to. I cannot! The Amyrlin’s
made it so I can’t get off the bloo ‑ , the island. Change that, and I
will carry your letter in my teeth, Elayne.” Looks
passed between them. He sometimes wondered if women could read each other’s
minds. They certainly seemed to read his when he least wanted it. But this
time, whatever they had decided silently among themselves, they had not read
his thoughts. “Explain,”
Nynaeve said curtly. “Why would the Amyrlin want to keep you here?” He
shrugged, and looked her straight in the eye, and gave her his best rueful
grin. “It’s because I was sick. Because it went on so long. She said she would
not let me go until she was sure I wouldn’t go off somewhere and die. Not that
I’m going to, of course. Die, I mean.” Nynaeve
frowned, and jerked her braid, and suddenly took his head between her hands; a
chill ran through him. Light, the Power! Before
the thought was done, she had released him. “What
. . . ? What did you do to me, Nynaeve?” “Not
a tenth part of what you deserve, in all likelihood,” she said. “You are as
healthy as a bull. Weaker than you look, but healthy.” “I
told you I was,” he said uneasily. He tried to get his grin back. “Nynaeve, she
looked like you. The Amyrlin, I mean. Managing to loom even if she is a foot
too short for it, and bullying . . . . “ The way her eyebrows climbed, he
decided that was not a road to go down any further. As long as he kept them
away from the Horn. He wondered if they knew. “Well. Anyway, I think they want
to keep me here because of that dagger. I mean, until they figure out exactly
how it did what it did. You know how Aes Sedai are.” He gave a small laugh.
They all just looked at him. Maybe I
shouldn’t have said that. Burn me! They want to be bloody Aes Sedai. Burn me,
I’m going on too long. I wish Nynaeve would stop staring at me like that. Keep
it short. “The Amyrlin made it so I cannot cross a bridge or board a ship
without an order from her. You see? It’s not that I do not want to help. I just
can’t.” “But
you will if we can get you out of Tar Valon?” Nynaeve said intently. “You
get me out of Tar Valon, and I’ll carry Elayne to her mother on my back.” Elayne’s eyebrows went up, this time, and Egwene shook her
head, mouthing his name with a sharp look in her eyes. Women had no sense of
humor, sometimes. Nynaeve
motioned the two of them to follow her to the windows, where they turned their
backs to him and talked so softly he could catch only a murmur. He thought he
heard Egwene say something about only needing one if they stayed together.
Watching, he wondered if they really thought they could get around the
Amyrlin’s order. If they can do
that, I will carry their bloody letter. I really will carry it in my teeth. Without
thinking, he picked up an apple core and bit off the end. One chew, and he hastily
spit the mouthful of bitter seeds back onto the plate. When
they came back to the table, Egwene handed him a thick, folded paper. He eyed
them suspiciously before opening it out. As he read, he began humming to
himself without knowing it. What the bearer does is done at my order and by
my authority. Obey, and keep silent, at my command. Siuan Sanche Watcher of the Seals Flame of Tar Valon The Amyrlin Seat And
sealed at the bottom with the Flame of Tar Valon in a circle of white wax as
hard as stone. He
realized he was humming “A Pocket Full of Gold” and stopped. “Is this real? You
didn’t . . . ? How did you get this?” “She
did not forge it, if that is what you mean,” Elayne said. “Never
you mind how we got it,” Nynaeve said. “It is real. That is all that need
concern you. I would not show it around, were I you, or the Amyrlin will cake
it back, but it will get you past the guards and onto a ship. You said you’d
take the letter, if we did that.” “You
can consider it in Morgase’s hands tight now.” He did not want to stop reading
the paper, but he folded it back up anyway, and laid it on top of Elayne’s
letter. “You wouldn’t happen to have a little coin to go with this, would you?
Some silver? A gold mark or two? I have almost enough for my passage, but I
hear things are growing expensive downriver. “ Nynaeve
shook her head. “Don’t you have money? You gambled with Hurin almost every
night until you grew too sick to hold the dice. Why should things be more
expensive downriver?” “We
gambled for coppers, Nynaeve, and he would not even do that after a while. It
doesn’t matter. I will manage. Don’t you listen to what people say? There’s
civil war in Cairhien, and I hear it is bad in Tear, too. I’ve heard a room at
an inn in Aringill costs more than a good horse back home.” “We
have been busy,” she said sharply, and exchanged worried looks with Egwene and
Elayne that set him wondering again. “It
doesn’t matter. I can make out.” There had to be gaming in the inns near the
docks. A night with the dice would put him aboard a ship in the morning with a
full purse. “Just
you deliver that letter to Queen Morgase, Mat,” Nynaeve said. “And do not let
anyone know you have it.” “I’ll
take it to her. I said I would, didn’t I? You would think I didn’t keep my
promises.” The looks he got from Nynaeve and Egwene reminded him of a few he
had not kept. “I will do it. Blood and ‑ I will do it!” They
stayed awhile longer, talking of home for the most part. Egwene and Elayne sat
on the bed, and Nynaeve took the armchair, while he kept his stool. Talk of
Emond’s Field made him homesick, and it seemed to make Nynaeve and Egwene sad,
as if they were speaking of something they would never see again. He was sure
their eyes moistened, but when he tried to change the subject, they brought it
back again, to people they knew, to the festivals of Bel Tine and Sunday, to
harvest dances and picnic gatherings for the shearing. Elayne
talked to him of Caemlyn, of what to expect at the Royal Palace and who to
speak to, and a little of the city. Sometimes she held herself in a way that
made him all but see a crown on her head. A man would have to be a fool to let
himself get involved with a woman like her. When they rose to leave, he was
sorry to see them go. He
stood, suddenly feeling awkward. “Look, you have done me a favor here.” He
touched the Amyrlin’s paper, on the table. “A big favor. I know you’re all
going to be Aes Sedai” ‑ he stumbled a little on that, “and you will be a
queen one day, Elayne, but if you ever need help, if there is ever anything I
can do, I will come. You can count on it. Did I say something funny?” Elayne
had a hand over her mouth, and Egwene was struggling openly with a laugh. “No,
Mat,” Nynaeve said smoothly, but her lips twitched. “Just something I have
observed about men.” “You
would have to be a woman to understand,” Elayne said. “Journey
well and safely, Mat,” Egwene said. “And remember, if a woman does need a hero,
she needs him today, not tomorrow.” The laughter bubbled out of her. He
stared at the door closing behind them. Women, he decided for at least the
hundredth time, were odd. Then
his eye fell on Elayne’s letter, and the folded paper lying atop it. The
Amyrlin’s blessed, not‑to‑be‑understood, but welcome‑as‑a‑fire-in‑winter
paper. He danced a little caper in the middle of the flowered carpet. Caemlyn
to see, and a queen to meet. Your own
words will free me of you, Amyrlin. And get me away from Selene, too. “You’ll
never catch me,” he laughed, and meant it for both of them. “You’ll never catch
Mat Cauthon.” CHAPTER 29 A Trap To Spring In a
corner the spit dog was lying at its ease. Glaring at it, Nynaeve mopped sweat
from her forehead with her hand and leaned her back into doing the work he
should have done. I’d not have put it
part them to shove me in his wicker wheel instead of letting me turn this Light
forsaken handle! Aes Sedai! Burn them all! It was a measure of her upset
that she used such language, and another that she did not even notice she had
done it. She did not think the fire in the long, gray stone fireplace would
seem any hotter if she crawled into it. She was sure the brindle dog was
grinning at her. Elayne
was skimming grease out of the dripping pan under the roasts with a longhandled
wooden spoon, while Egwene used its twin to baste the meat. The great kitchen
went on about its midday routine around them. Even the novices had grown so
used to seeing Accepted there that they hardly even glanced at the three women.
Not that the cooks allowed the novices to dawdle for gawking. Work built
character, so the Aes Sedai said, and the cooks saw to it that the novices
built strong character. And the three Accepted, too. Laras,
the Mistress of the Kitchens ‑ she was really the chief cook, but so many
had used the other for so long that it might as well have been her title ‑
came over to examine the roasts. And the women sweating over them. She was more
than merely stout, with layers of chins, and a spotless white apron that could
have made three novice dresses. She carried her own long‑handled wooden
spoon like a scepter. It was not for stirring, that spoon. It was for directing
those under her, and smacking those who were not building character quickly
enough to suit her. She studied the roasts, sniffed disparagingly, and turned
her frown on the three Accepted. Nynaeve
met Laras’ look with a level look of her own and kept turning the spit. The
massive woman’s face never altered. Nynaeve had tried smiling, but that did
nothing to change Laras’ expression. Stopping work to speak to her, quite
civilly, had been a disaster. It was bad enough being bullied and chivied by
Aes Sedai. She had to put up with that, however much it rankled and burned, if
she was to learn how to use her abilities. Not that she liked what she could do
‑ it was one thing to know Aes Sedai were not Darkfriends for channeling
the Power, but quite another to know she herself could channel ‑ yet she
had to learn if she was to get back at Moiraine; hating Moiraine for what she
had done to Egwene and the other Emond’s Fielders, pulling their lives apart
and manipulating them all for Aes Sedai purposes, was nearly all that kept her
going. But to be treated as a lazy, none‑too‑bright child by this
Laras, to be forced to curtsy and scurry for this women she could have put in
her place with a few well‑chosen words back home‑that made her
grind her teeth almost as much as did the thought of Moiraine. Maybe if I just do not look at her . . . .
No! I will be burned if I’ll drop my eyes before this . . . this cow! Laras
sniffed more loudly and walked away. She rolled from side to side as she
crossed the freshly mopped gray tiles. Still
bending with spoon and greasepot, Elayne glowered after her. “If that woman
strikes me but once more, I shall have Gareth Bryne arrest her and ‑ “ “Be
quiet,” Egwene whispered. She did not stop basting the roasts, and she never
looked at Elayne. “She has ears like a - ” Laras
turned back as if she had indeed heard, her frown deepening, and her mouth
opened wide. Before a sound emerged, the Amyrlin Seat entered the kitchen like
a whirlwind. Even the striped stole on her shoulders seemed to bristle. For
once, Leane was nowhere to be seen. At last, Nynaeve thought grimly. And not beforetime, either! But
the Amyrlin did not glance her way. The Amyrlin did not say a word to anyone.
Running her hand across a tabletop scrubbed bone‑white, she looked at her
fingers and grimaced as if at filth. Laras was at her side in an instant, all
smiles, but the Amyrlin’s flat stare made her swallow them in silence. The
Amyrlin stalked about the kitchen. She stared at the women slicing oatcake. She
glared at the women peeling vegetables. She sneered into the soup kettles, then
at the women tending them; the women became engrossed in studying the surface
of the soup. Her frown set the girls carrying plates and bowls out to the
dining hall to a run. Her glower put the novices darting like mice sighting a
cat. By the time she had made her way half around the kitchen, every woman
there was working twice as fast as she had been. By the time she completed her
circuit, Laras was the only one even daring to glance at her. The
Amyrlin stopped in front of the roasting spit, fists on her hips, and looked at
Laras. She only looked, expressionless, blue eyes cold and hard. The
large woman gulped, and her chins wobbled as she smoothed her apron. The
Amyrlin did not blink. Laras’ eyes dropped, and she shifted heavily from foot
to foot. “If the Mother will pardon me,” she said in a faint voice. Making
something that might have been meant for a curtsy, she rushed away, so
forgetting herself that she joined the women at one of the soup kettles and
began stirring with her own spoon. Nynaeve
smiled, keeping her head down to hide it. Egwene and Elayne kept working, too,
but they also kept glancing at the Amyrlin, standing with her back to them not
two paces away. The
Amyrlin was spreading her stare across the entire kitchen from where she stood.
“If they are this easily cowed,” she muttered softly, “perhaps they really have
been getting away with too much for too long.” Easily cowed indeed, Nynaeve thought. Pitiful excuses for women. All she did was
look at them! The Amyrlin glanced over a stole‑covered shoulder,
caught her eye for an instant. Suddenly Nynaeve realized she was turning the spit
faster. She told herself she had to pretend to be cowed like everyone else. The
Amyrlin’s gaze fell on Elayne, and abruptly she spoke, nearly loud enough to
rattle the copper pots and pans hanging on the walls. “There are some words I
will not tolerate in a young woman’s mouth, Elayne of House Trakand. If you let
them in, I will see them scrubbed out!” Everyone in the kitchen jumped. Elayne
looked confused, and indignation crept across Egwene’s face. Nynaeve
shook her head, small frantic shakes. No, girl! Hold your tongue! Don’t you see what she is doing? But
Egwene did open her mouth, with a respectful if determined, “Mother, she did
not ‑ “ “Silence!”
The Amyrlin’s roar produced another ripple of jumps. “Laras! Can you find
something to teach two girls to speak when they should and say what they
should, Mistress of the Kitchens? Can
you manage that?” Lams
came waddling faster than Nynaeve had ever seen the woman move before, darting
at Elayne and Egwene to seize an ear of each, all the while repeating, “Yes,
Mother. Immediately, Mother. As you command, Mother.” She hurried the two young
women out of the kitchen as if eager to escape the Amyrlin’s
stare. The
Amyrlin was now close enough to Nynaeve to touch her, but still looking over
the kitchen. A young cook, turning with a mixing bowl in her hands, chanced to
catch the Amyrlin’s eye. She gave a great squeak as she scuttled away across
the floor. “I
did not mean for Egwene to be caught in that.” The Amyrlin barely moved her
lips. It looked as if she were
muttering to herself, and from the expression on her face, no one in the
kitchen wanted to hear what she was saying. Nynaeve could just make out the
words. “But perhaps it will teach her to think before she speaks.” Nynaeve
turned the spit and kept her head down, trying to look as if she were also
muttering under her breath if anyone looked. “I thought you were going to keep
a close eye on us. Mother. So we could report what we find.” “If
I come stare at you every day, Daughter, some would grow suspicious.” The
Amyrlin kept up her study of the kitchen. Most of the women seemed to be
avoiding even looking in her direction for fear of incurring her wrath. “I
planned to have you brought to my study after the midday meal. To scold you for
not choosing your studies, so I implied to Leane. But there is news that could
not wait. Sheriam found another Gray Man. A woman. Dead as last week’s fish,
and not a mark on her. She was laid out as if resting, right in the middle of
Sheriam’s bed. Not very pleasant for Sheriam.” Nynaeve
stiffened, and the spit halted for a moment before she put it back to
revolving. “Sheriam had a chance to see the lists Verin gave to Egwene. So did
Elaida. I make no accusations, but they had the chance. And Egwene said Alanna
. . . behaved oddly, too.” “She
told you of that, did she? Alanna is Arafellin. They have strange ideas about
honor and debts in Arafel.” She shrugged dismissively, but said, “I suppose I
can keep an eye on her. Have you learned anything useful yet, child?” “Some,”
Nynaeve muttered grimly. What about
keeping an eye on Sheriam? Maybe she didn’t just find that Gray Man. The
Amyrlin could watch Elaida, too, for that matter. So Alanna really did . . . . “I
do not understand why you trust Else Grinwell, but your message was helpful.” In
short, quick sentences, Nynaeve told of the things they had found in the
storeroom under the library, making it seem only she and Egwene had gone, and
added the conclusions they had reached concerning them. She did not mention
Egwene’s dream ‑ or whatever it had been; Egwene insisted it had been
real ‑ of Tel’aran’rhiod. Nor
did she speak of the ter’angreal Verin
had given Egwene. She could not make herself entirely trust the woman wearing
the seven‑striped stole ‑ or any woman who could wear the shawl,
for that matter ‑ and it seemed best to keep some things in reserve. When
she was done, the Amyrlin was silent so long that Nynaeve began to think the
woman had not heard. She was about to repeat herself, a little louder, when the
Amyrlin finally spoke, still hardly moving her lips. “I
sent no message, Daughter. The things Liandrin and the others left were
searched thoroughly, and burned after nothing was found. No one would use Black
Ajah leavings. As for Else Grinwell . . . . I remember the girl. She could have
learned, had she applied herself, but all she wanted was to smile at the men at
the Warders’ practice yard. Else Grinwell was put on a trading vessel and sent
back to her mother ten days ago.” Nynaeve
tried to swallow the lump that had formed in her throat. The Amyrlin’s words
made her think of bullies taunting smaller children. The bullies were always so
contemptuous of the littler children, always so sure the small ones were too
stupid to realize what was happening, that they made little effort to disguise
their snares. That the Black Ajah was so contemptuous of her made her blood
boil. That they could set this snare filled her stomach with ice. Light, if Else was sent away. . . . Light,
anybody I talk to could be Liandrin, or any of the others. Light! The
spit had stopped. Hastily she started it turning once more. No one seemed to
have noticed, though. They were all still doing their best not to look at the
Amyrlin. “And
what do you mean to do about this . . . so‑obvious trap?” the Amyrlin
said softly, still staring over the kitchen, away from Nynaeve. “Do you mean to
fall into this one, too?” Nynaeve’s
face reddened. “I know this trap for a trap. Mother. And the best way to catch
whoever set a trap is to spring it and wait for him ‑ or her ‑ to come.”
It sounded weaker than it had when she had said it to Egwene and Elayne, after
what the Amyrlin had just told her, but she still meant it. “Perhaps
so, child. Perhaps it is the way to find them. If they do not come and find you
held tightly in their net.” She gave a vexed sigh. “I will put gold in your
room for the journey. And I will let it be whispered about that I have sent you
out to a farm to hoe cabbages. Will Elayne be going with you?” Nynaeve
forgot herself enough to stare at the Amyrlin, then hurriedly put her eyes back
on her hands. Her knuckles were white on the spit handle. “You scheming old . .
. . Why all the pretense, if you knew? Your sly plots have had us squirming
nearly as much as the Black Ajah has. Why?” The Amyrlin’s face had tightened,
enough to make her force a more respectful tone. “If I may ask, Mother.” The
Amyrlin snorted. “Putting Morgase back on the proper path whether she wants to
go or not will be hard enough without her thinking I’ve sent her daughter to
sea in a leaky skiff. This way I can say straight out that it was none of my
doing. It may be a bit hard on Elayne, when she finally has to face her mother,
but I have three hounds, now, not two. I told you I’d have a hundred if I
could.” She adjusted her stole on her shoulders. “This has gone on long enough.
If I stay this close to you, it may be noticed. Have you anything more to tell
me? Or to ask? Make it quick, Daughter.” “What
is Callandor, Mother?” Nynaeve asked. This
time it was the Amyrlin who forgot herself, half turning toward Nynaeve before
jerking herself back. “They cannot be allowed to have that.” Her whisper was
barely audible, as if meant for her own ears alone. “They cannot possibly take
it, but . . . .” She took a deep breath, and her soft words firmed enough to be
clear to Nynaeve, if to no one two paces further away. “No more than a dozen
women in the Tower know what Callandor is,
and perhaps as many outside. The High Lords of Tear know, but they never
speak of it except when a Lord of the Land is told on being raised. The Sword
That Cannot Be Touched is a sa’angreal, girl. Only two more powerful
were ever made, and thank the Light, neither of those was ever used. With
Callandor in your hands, child, you could level a city at one blow. If you die
keeping that out of the Black Ajah’s hands ‑ you, and Egwene, and Elayne,
all three ‑ you’ll have done a service to the whole world, and cheap at
the price.” “How
could they take it?” Nynaeve asked. “I thought only the Dragon Reborn could
touch Callandor.” The
Amyrlin gave her a sideways look sharp enough to carve the roasts on the spit.
“They could be after something else,” she said after a moment. “They stole ter’angreal
here. The Stone of Tear holds nearly as many ter’angreal as the Tower.” “I thought the High Lords hated anything to do with the One
Power,” Nynaeve whispered incredulously. “Oh,
they do hate it, child. Hate it, and fear it. When they find a Tairen girl who
can channel, they bundle her onto a ship for Tar Valon before the day is done,
with hardly time to speak goodbyes to her family.” The Amyrlin’s murmur was
bitter with memory. “Yet they hold one of the most powerful focuses of the
Power the world has ever seen, inside their precious Stone. It is my belief
that is why they have collected so many ter’angreal ‑ and indeed,
anything to do with the Power ‑ over the years, as if by doing so they
can diminish the existence of the thing they cannot rid themselves of, the
thing that reminds them of their own doom every time they enter the Heart of
the Stone. Their fortress that has broken a hundred armies will fall as one of
the signs the Dragon is Reborn. Not even the only sign; just one. How that must
rankle their proud hearts. Their downfall will not even be the one great sign
of the world’s change. They cannot even ignore it by staying out of the Heart.
That is where Lords of the Land are raised to High Lords, and where they must
perform what they call the Rite of the Guarding four times a year, claiming
that they guard the whole world against the Dragon by holding Callandor. It
must bite at their souls like a bellyful of live silverpike, and no more than
they deserve.” She gave herself a shake, as if realizing she had said far more
than she had intended. “Is that all, child?” “Yes,
Mother,” Nynaeve said. Light, it always
comes back to Rand, doesn’t it? Always back to the Dragon Reborn. It was
still an effort to think of him that way. “That’s all.” The
Amyrlin shifted her stole again, frowning at the frenzied scurry in the
kitchen. “I’ll have to set this aright. I needed to speak to you without delay,
but Laras is a good woman, and she manages the kitchen and the larders well. “ Nynaeve
sniffed, and addressed her hands on the spit handle. “Laras is a sour lump of
lard, and too handy with that spoon by half.” She thought she had muttered it
under her breath, but she heard the Amyrlin chuckle wryly. “You
are a fine judge of character, child. You must have done well as the Wisdom of
your village. It was Laras who went to Sheriam and demanded to know how long you
three are to be kept to the dirtiest and hardest work, without a turn at
lighter. She said she would not be a party to breaking any woman’s health or
spirit, no matter what I said. A fine judge of character, child.” Laras
came back into the kitchen doorway then, hesitating to enter her own domain.
The Amyrlin went to meet her, smiles replacing her frowns and stares. “It
all looks very well to me, Laras.” The Amyrlin’s words came loud enough for the
entire kitchen to hear. “I see nothing out of place, and everything as it
should be. You are to be commended. I think I will make Mistress of the
Kitchens a formal title.” The
stout woman’s face fluttered from uneasiness to shock to beaming pleasure. By
the time the Amyrlin swept out of the kitchen, Laras was all smiles. Her frown
returned, though, as she looked from the Amyrlin’s departing back to her
workers. The kitchen seemed to leap into motion. Lams’ grim stare settled on
Nynaeve. Turning
the spit again, Nynaeve tried smiling at the big woman. Laras’
frown deepened, and she began tapping her spoon on her thigh, apparently
forgetting that for once it had been used for its intended purpose. It left
smears of soup on the white of her apron. I will smile at her if it kills me, Nynaeve thought, though she had to grit her
teeth to do it. Egwene
and Elayne appeared, twisting their faces and scrubbing their mouths with their
sleeves. At a stare from Laras, they dashed to the spit and resumed their
labors. “Soap,”
Elayne muttered thickly, “tastes horrid!” Egwene
trembled as she spooned juice from the dripping pan over the roasts. “Nynaeve,
if you tell me the Amyrlin told us to stay here, I will scream. I might run
away for real.” “We
leave after the washing up is done,” she told them, “just as quickly as we can
fetch our belongings from our rooms.” She wished she could share the eagerness
that flashed in their eyes. Light send we
aren’t walking into a trap we can’t get out of. Light send it so. CHAPTER 30 The First Toss After
Nynaeve and the others left him, Mat spent most of the day in his room, except
for one brief excursion. He was planning. And eating. He ate nearly everything
the serving women brought him, and asked for more. They were more than happy to
oblige. It was bread and cheese and fruit he asked for, and he piled
winter-wrinkled apples and pears, wedges of cheese and loaves of bread inside
the wardrobe, leaving empty trays for them to take away. At
midday he had to endure a visit from an Aes Sedai ‑ Anaiya, he seemed to
remember her name was. She put her hands on his head and sent cold chills
through him. It was the One Power, he decided, not simply being touched by an
Aes Sedai. She was a plain woman despite her smooth cheeks and Aes Sedai
serenity. “You
seem much better,” she told him, smiling. Her smile made him think of his
mother. “Even hungrier than I expected, so I hear, but better. I am informed
you are trying to eat the larders bare. Believe me when I say we will see you
have all the food you need. You do not have to worry that we’ll let you miss a
meal before you are fully well again.” He
gave the grin he used on his mother when he especially wanted her to believe
him. “I know you won’t. And I do feel better. I thought I might see some of the
city this afternoon. If you have no objections, of course. Maybe visit an inn
tonight. There’s nothing like a night of common‑room talk to pick one’s
spirits up.” He
thought her lips twitched on the edge of a bigger smile. “No one will try to
stop you, Mat. But do not try to leave the city. It will only upset the guards,
and bring you nothing but a trip back here under escort.” “I
would not do that, Aes Sedai. The Amyrlin Seat said I’d starve to death in a
few days if I left.” She
nodded as if she did not believe a word he said. “Of course.” As she turned
from him, her eyes fell on the quarterstaff he had brought from the practice
yard, propped in the corner of the room. “You do not need to protect yourself
from us, Mat. You are as safe here as you could be anywhere. Almost certainly
safer.” “Oh,
I know that, Aes Sedai. I do.” After she left he frowned at the door, wondering
if he had managed to convince her of anything. It
was more evening than afternoon when he left the room for what he hoped was the
final time. The sky was purpling, and the setting sun painted clouds to the
west in shades of red. Once he had his cloak around him, and the big leather
script he had found on his one earlier foray dangling from his shoulder and
bulging with the bread and cheese and fruit he had squirreled away, one look in
the mirror told him there was no hiding what he intended. He tied the rest of
his clothes up in a roll with the blanket from the bed and slung that across
his shoulders, too. The quarterstaff did for a walking staff. He left nothing
behind. His coat pockets held all his smaller belongings, and his belt pouch
held the most important. The Amyrlin Seat’s paper. Elayne’s letter. And his
dice cups. He
saw Aes Sedai as he made his way out of the Tower, and some of them noticed
him, though most merely flickered an eyebrow, and none spoke to him. Anaiya was
one. She gave him an amused smile and a rueful shake of her head. He returned a
shrug and the guiltiest grin he could manage, and she went silently on, still
shaking her head. The guards at the Tower gates simply looked at him. It
was not until he was across the big square and into the streets of the city
that relief finally surged up in him. And triumph. If you can’t hide what you are going to do, do
it so everybody thinks you are a fool. Then they stand around waiting to see
you fall on your face. Those Aes Sedai will be waiting for the guards to bring
me back. When I do not return by morning, then they’ll start a search. Not too
frantic at first, because they’ll think I have gone to ground somewhere in the
city. By the time they realize I haven’t, this rabbit will be a long way
downriver from the hounds. With
as light a heart as he could remember having in years, or so it seemed, he
began to hum “We’re Over the Border Again,” heading toward the harbor where
vessels would be sailing down to Tear and all the villages along the Erinin
between. He would not be going so far as that, of course. Aringill, where he
would take to land again for the rest of the trip to Caemlyn, was only halfway
downriver. I’ll deliver your bloody letter. The
nerve of her, thinking I’d day I would, then not. I will
deliver the bloody thing if it kills me. Twilight
was beginning to cover Tar Valon, but there was still enough light to grace the
fantastical buildings, and the oddly shaped towers connected by high bridges
spanning open air over hundred‑pace drops. People yet filled the streets,
in so many different kinds of clothing that he thought every nation must be
represented. Along the major avenues, pairs of lamplighters used their ladders
to light lanterns atop tall poles. But in the part of Tar Valon he sought, the
only light was what spilled from windows. Ogier
had built the great buildings and towers of Tar Valon, but other, newer parts
had grown under the hands of men. Newer meaning two thousand years in some
cases. Down near Southharbor, men’s hands had tried to match, if not duplicate,
the fanciful Ogier work. Inns where ships’ crews caroused bore enough stonework
for palaces. Statues in niches and cupolas on rooftops, ornately worked
cornices and intricately carved friezes, all decorated chandlers’ shops and
merchant houses. Bridges arched across the streets here, too, but the streets
were cobblestone, not great paving blocks, and many of the bridges were wood
instead of stone, sometimes as low as the second stories of the buildings they
joined, and never higher than four. The
dark streets hummed with as much life as any in Tar Valon. Traders off their
vessels and those who bought what the vessels carried, people who traveled the
River Erinin and people who worked it, all filled the taverns and the common
rooms of the inns, in company with those who sought the money such folk
carried, by fair means or murky. Raucous music filled the streets from bittern
and flute, harp and hammered dulcimer. The first inn Mat entered had three dice
games in progress, men crouched in circles near the common‑room walls and
shouting the wins and losses. He
only meant to gamble an hour or so before finding a ship, just long enough to
add a few coins to his purse, but he won. He had always won more than he lost,
as far as he could remember, and there had been times with Hurin, and in
Shienar, when six of eight tosses in a row won for him. Tonight, every toss
won. Every toss. From
the looks some of the men gave him, he was glad he had left his own dice in his
pouch. Those looks made him decide to move on. With surprise he realized that
he had nearly thirty silver marks in his purse now, but he had not won so much
from any one man that they would not all be glad to see him go. Except
for one dark sailor with tight curls ‑ one of the Sea Folk, someone had
said, though Mat wondered what one of the Atha’an Miere was doing so far from
the sea ‑ who followed him down the darkened street, arguing for a chance
to make good his losses. He wanted to reach the docks ‑ thirty silver
marks was more than enough ‑ but the sailor argued on, and he had only
used half his hour, so he gave in, and with the man entered the next tavern
they passed. He
won again, and it was as if a fever gripped him. He won every throw. From
tavern to inn to tavern he went, never staying long enough to anger anyone with
the amount of his winnings. And he still won every toss. He exchanged silver
for gold with a money changer. He played at crowns, and fives, and maiden’s
ruin. He played games with five dice, and with four, and three, and even only
two. He played games he did not know before he squatted in the circle, or took
a place at the table. And he won. Somewhere during the night, the dark sailor ‑
Raab, he had said his name was ‑ staggered away, exhausted but with a
full purse; he had decided to put his wagers on Mat. Mat visited another money
changer ‑ or perhaps two; the fever seemed to cloud his brain as badly as
his memories of the past were clouded‑and made his way to another game.
Winning. And
so he found himself, he did not know how many hours later, in a tavern filled
with tabac smoke ‑ The Tremalking Splice, he thought it was called ‑
staring down at five dice, each showing a deeply carved crown. Most of the
patrons here seemed interested only in drinking as much as they could, but the
rattle of dice and shouts of players from another game in the far corner were
almost submerged by a woman singing to a quick tune from a hammered dulcimer. “I’ll
dance with a girl with eyes of brown, or a girl
with eyes of green, I’ll
dance with a girl with any color eyes, but yours
are the prettiest I’ve seen. I’ll kiss
a girl with hair of black, or a girl
with hair of gold, I’ll kiss
a girl with any color hair, but it’s
you I want to hold.” The
singer had named the song as “What He Said to Me.” Mat remembered the tune as
“Will You Dance With Me,” with different words, but at that moment all he could
think of were those dice. “The
king again,” one of the men squatting with Mat muttered. It was the fifth time
in a row Mat had thrown the king. He
had won the bet of a gold mark, not even caring by this time that his Andoran
mark outweighed the other man’s Illianer coin, but he scooped the dice into the
leather cup, rattled it hard, and spun them across the floor again. Five
crowns. Light, it can’t be. Nobody ever
threw the king six times running. Nobody. “The
Dark One’s own luck,” another man growled. He was a bulky fellow, his dark hair
tied at the nape of his neck with a black ribbon, with heavy shoulders, scars
on his face, and a nose that had been broken more than once. Mat
was scarcely aware of moving before he had the bulky man by the collar, hauling
him to his feet, slamming him back against the wall. “Don’t you say that!” he
snarled. “Don’t you ever say that!” The man blinked down at him in
astonishment; he was a full head taller than Mat. “Just
a saying,” somebody behind him was muttering. “Light, it’s just a saying.” Mat
released his grip on the scar‑faced man’s coat and backed away. “I. . . .
I . . . I don’t like anybody saying things like that about me. I’m no
Darkfriend!” Burn me, not the Dark One’s
luck. Not that! Oh, Light, did that bloody dagger really do something to me? “Nobody
said you was,” the broken‑nosed man muttered. He seemed to be getting
over his surprise, and trying to decide whether to be angry. Gathering
his belongings from where he had piled them behind him, Mat walked out of the
tavern, leaving the coins where they lay. It was not that he was afraid of the
big man. He had forgotten the man, and the coins, too. All he wanted was to be
outside, in fresh air, where he could think. In
the street, he leaned against the wall of the tavern not far from the door,
breathing the coolness in. The dark streets of Southharbor were all but empty,
now. Music and laughter still floated from the inns and taverns, but few people
made their way through the night. Holding the quarterstaff upright in front of
him with both hands, he lowered his head to his fists and tried to think at the
puzzle from every side. He
knew he was lucky. He could remember always being lucky. But somehow, his
memories from Emond’s Field did not show him as lucky as he had been since
leaving. Certainly he had gotten away with a great deal, but he could remember
also being caught in pranks he had been sure would succeed. His mother had
always seemed to know what he was up to, and Nynaeve able to see through
whatever defenses he put up. But it was not just since leaving the Two Rivers
that he had become lucky. The luck had come once he took the dagger from Shadar
Logoth. He remembered playing at dice back home, with a sharp‑eyed,
skinny man who worked for a merchant come down from Baerlon to buy tabac. He
remembered the strapping his father had given him, too, on learning Mat owed
the man a silver mark and four pence. “But
I’m free of the bloody dagger,” he mumbled. “Those bloody Aes Sedai said I
was.” He wondered how much he had won tonight. When he dug into his coat pockets, he found them filled with
loose coins, crowns and marks, both silver and gold that glittered and glinted
in the light from nearby windows. He had two purses now, it seemed, and both
fat. He undid the strings, and found more gold. And still more stuffed into his
belt pouch between and around and on top of his dice cups, crumpling Elayne’s
letter and the Amyrlin’s paper. He had a memory of tossing silver pence to
serving girls because they had pretty smiles or pretty eyes or pretty ankles, and
because silver pence were not worth keeping. Not worth keeping? Maybe they
weren’t. Light, I’m rich! I am bloody rich! Maybe it was something the Aes
Sedai did. Something they did Healing me. By accident, maybe. That could be it.
Better that the other. Those bloody Aes Sedai must have done it to me. A
big man moved out from the tavern, the door already swinging shut to cut off
the light that might have shown his face. Mat
pressed his back close against the wall, stuffed the purses back into his coat,
and firmed his grip on the quarterstaff. Wherever his luck tonight had come
from, he did not mean to lose all that gold to a footpad. The
man turned toward him, peered, then gave a start. “C‑cool night,” he said
drunkenly. He staggered closer, and Mat saw that most of his size was fat. “I
have to. . . . I have to. . . .” Stumbling, the fat man moved on up the street,
talking to himself disjointedly. “Fool!”
Mat muttered, but he was not sure whether he meant it for the fat man or for
himself. “Time to find a ship to take me away from here.” He squinted at the
black sky, trying to estimate how long till dawn. Two, maybe three hours, he
thought. “Past time.” His stomach growled at him; he dimly recalled eating in
some of the inns, but he did not remember what. The fever of the dice had had
him by the throat. A hand pushed into the script found only crumbs. “Way past
time. Or one of them will come pick me up with her fingers and stick me in her
pouch. “ He pushed away from the wall and started for the docks, where the
ships would be. At
first he thought the faint sounds behind him were echoes of his boots on the
cobblestones. Then he realized someone was following him. And trying to be
stealthy. Well, these are footpads, for sure. Hefting
the quarterstaff, he briefly considered turning to confront them. But it was
dark, and the footing on cobblestones uncertain, and he had no idea how many
there were. Just because you did well
against Gawyn and Galad doesn’t make you a bloody hero out of a story. He
turned down a narrower, twisting side street, trying to walk on tiptoe and move
quickly at the same time. Every window was dark here, and most shuttered. He
was almost to the end when he saw movement ahead, two men peering into the side
street from where it let out onto another. And he heard slow footsteps behind
him, soft scrapes of boot leather on stone. In
an instant he ducked into the shadowy corner where one building stuck out
further than the next. It seemed the best he could do for the moment. Gripping
the quarterstaff nervously, he waited. A
man appeared from back the way he had come, crouching as he eased himself ahead
one slow step at a time, and then another man. Each carried a knife in his hand
and moved ‑ as if stalking. Mat
tensed. If they came just a few steps closer before they noticed him hiding in
the deeper shadows of the corner, he could take them by surprise. He wished his
stomach would stop fluttering. Those knives were a great deal shorter than the
practice swords, but they were steel, not wood. One
of the men squinted toward the far end of the narrow street and suddenly
straightened, shouting, “Didn’t he come your way, then?” “I
have seen nothing but the shadows,” came the answer in a heavy accent. “I wish
to be out of this. There are the strange things moving this night.” Not
four paces from Mat, the two men exchanged looks, sheathed their knives, and
trotted back the way they had come. He
let out a long, slow breath. Luck. Burn
me if it’s not good for more than dice. He
could no longer see the men at the mouth of the street, but he knew they were
still out on the next street somewhere. And more behind him the other way. One
of the buildings he was crouched against stood only a single story high here,
and the roof looked flat enough. And a white stone frieze carved in huge grape
leaves ran up the joining of the two buildings. Easing
his quarterstaff up till one end rested on the edge of the roof, he gave it a
hard shove. It landed with a clatter on the roof tiles. Not waiting to see if
anyone had heard, he scrambled up the frieze, the big leaves giving easy
toeholds even for a man in boots. In seconds he had the staff back in hand and
was trotting across the roof, trusting to luck for his footing. Three
more times he climbed, each time gaining one story. The slightly sloping, tiled
roofs ran some distance at that level, and there was a breeze at that height,
prickling the hair on the back of his neck with its chill and almost making him
think he was being followed. Stop that,
fool! They’re three streets away by now, looking for somebody else with a fat
purse, and bad luck to them. His
boots slipped on the tiles, and he decided it might be a good idea to think
about getting back down into the street himself. Cautiously, he moved to the
edge of the roof and peered down. An empty street lay a good forty feet or more
below him, with three taverns and an inn spilling light and music onto the
cobblestones. But off to his right was a stone bridge running from the top
floor of his building to the one on the other side. The
bridge looked awfully narrow, running through darkness untouched by the tavern
lights, arcing over a long fall to hard cobblestones, but he tossed the
quarterstaff down and made himself follow before he could think about it too
much. His boots thumped onto the bridge, and he let himself roll the way he had
as a boy falling out of a tree. He fetched up against the waist‑high
railing. “Bad
habits pay off in the long run,” he told himself as he got to his feet and
picked up the staff. The
window at the other end of the bridge was tightly shuttered and lightless. He
did not think whoever lived in there would appreciate a stranger appearing in
the middle of the night. He could see lots of stonework, but if there was as
much as a fingerhold in reach of the bridge, the night hid it. Well, stranger or no stranger, inside I go. He
turned from the railing and suddenly became aware of a man sharing the bridge
with him. A man with a dagger in his hand. Mat
grabbed at the hand as the knife darted toward his throat. He barely caught the
fellow’s wrist with his fingers, and then the quarterstaff between them tangled
itself in his legs, tripping him to fall back against the railing, to fall half
over it pulling the other man on top of him. Balanced there on the small of his
back, teetering with his assailant’s bared teeth in his face, he was as aware
of the long drop under his head as he was of the blade catching faint moonlight
as it edged toward his throat. His finger grip on the man’s wrist was slipping,
and his other hand was caught with the quarterstaff between their bodies. Only
seconds had passed since he first saw the man, and in seconds more, he was
going die with a knife in his throat. “Time
to toss the dice,” he said. He thought the other man looked confused for an
instant, but an instant was all he had. With a heave of his legs, Mat flipped
them both off into the empty air. For
a stretched‑out moment he seemed to have no weight. Air whistled past his
ears and ruffled his hair. He thought he heard the other man scream, or start
to. The impact knocked all the air out of his lungs and made silver‑black
flecks dance across his blurring vision. When
he could breathe again ‑ and see ‑ he realized he was lying on top
of the man who had attacked him, his fall cushioned by the other’s body.
“Luck,” he whispered. Slowly he climbed to his feet, cursing the bruise the
quarterstaff had put across his ribs. He
expected the other man to be dead ‑ not many could survive a thirty‑foot
fall to cobblestones with another’s weight on top of him - but what he had not
expected was to see the fellow’s dagger driven to the hilt into his own heart.
Such an ordinary‑looking man to have tried to kill him. Mat did not think
he would even have noticed him in a crowded room. “You
had bad luck, fellow,” he told the corpse shakily. Suddenly, everything that had happened rushed back in on
him. The footpads in the twisting street. The scramble over the rooftops. This
fellow. The fall. His eyes rose to the bridge overhead, and a fit of trembling
hit him. I must have been crazy. A
little adventure is one thing, but
Rogosh Eagle‑eye wouldn’t ask for this. He
realized he was standing over a dead man with a dagger in his chest, just
waiting for someone to come along and run shouting for city guards with the
Flame of Tar Valon on their chests. The Amyrlin’s paper might get him away from
them, but maybe not before she found out. He could still end up back in the
White Tower, without that paper, and possibly not even allowed outside the
Tower grounds. He
knew he should be on his way to the docks right then, and on the first vessel
sailing if it was a rotten tub full of old fish, but his knees were shaking
hard enough in reaction that he could hardly walk. What he wanted was to sit
down for just a minute. Just a minute to steady his knees, and then he was
headed for the docks. The taverns were closer, but he started toward the inn. The common room
of an inn was a friendly place, where a man could rest a minute and not worry
about who might be sneaking up behind him. Enough light came out through the
windows for him to make out the sign. A woman with her hair in braids, holding
what he thought was an olive branch, and the words “The Woman of Tanchico.” CHAPTER 31 The Woman of Tanchico The common room of the inn was brightly lit, the tables not
near a quarter full so late. A few white‑aproned serving women with mugs
of ale or wine passed among the men, and a low murmur of talk ran under the
sound of a harp being strummed and plucked. The patrons, some with pipes
clenched in their teeth and one pair hunched over a stones board, had the look
of ship’s officers and minor merchants from the smaller houses, their coats
well cut and of fine wool, but with none of the gold or silver or embroidery
that richer men might have had. And for once there was no clack and rattle of
dice to be heard. Fires blazed on the long hearths at the ends of the room, but
even without those there would have been a warm feeling about the place. The
harper stood on a tabletop, reciting “Mara and the Three Foolish Kings,” to the
music of his harp. His instrument, all worked in gold and silver, was fit for a
palace. Mat knew him. He had saved Mat’s life, once. The
harper was a lean man who would have been tall except for a stoop, and he moved
with a limp when he shifted his footing on the tabletop. Even here inside, he
wore his cloak, all covered with fluttering patches in a hundred colors. He
always wanted everyone to know he was a gleeman. His long mustaches and bushy
eyebrows were as snow‑white as the thick hair on his head, and his blue
eyes held a look of sorrow as he recited. The
look was as unexpected as the man. Mat had never known Thom Merrilin to be a
sorrowful man. He
took a table, setting his things on the floor by his stool, and ordered two
mugs. The pretty young serving girl’s big brown eyes twinkled at him. “Two,
young master? You do not look such a hard‑drinking man as that.” Her
voice held a mischievous edge of laughter. After
rummaging a bit, he brought out two silver pennies from his pocket. One more
than paid for the wine, but he slipped her another for her eyes. “My friend
will be joining me.” He
knew Thom had seen him. The old gleeman had nearly stopped the story dead when
Mat came in. That was new, too. Few things startled Thom enough for him to let
it show, and nothing short of Trollocs had ever made him stop a story in the
middle that Mat knew. When the girl brought the wine and his coppers in change,
he let the pewter mugs sit and listened to the end of the story. “
‘It was as we have said it should be,’ said King Madel, trying to untangle a
fish from his long beard.” Thom’s voice seemed almost to echo inside a great
hall, not an ordinary common room. His plucked harp sounded the three kings’
final foolishness. “ ‘It was as we said it would be,’ announced Grander. And,
feet slipping in the mud, he sat down with a great splash. ‘It was as we said
it must be,’ proclaimed Kadar as he searched, up to his elbows in the liver,
for his crown. ‘The woman knows not whereof she speaks. She is the fool!’ Madel
and Grander agreed with him loudly. And with that, Mara had had enough. ‘I’ve
given them all the chances they deserve and more,’ she murmured to herself.
Slipping Kadar’s crown into her bag with the first two, she climbed back onto
her cart, clucked to her mare, and drove straight back to her village. And when
Mara had told them all that happened, the people of Heape would have no king at
all.” He strummed the major theme of the kings’ foolishness once more, this
time sliding to a crescendo that sounded even more like laughter, made a
sweeping bow, and nearly fell off the table. Men
laughed and stamped their feet, though likely every one of them had heard the
story many times before, and called for more. The story of Mara was always well
received, except perhaps by kings. Thom
nearly fell again climbing down from the table, and he was more unsteady in his
walk than a somewhat stiff leg could account for as he came to where Mat was
sitting. Casually putting his harp on the table, he dropped onto a stool in
front of the second mug and gave Mat a flat stare. His eyes had always been
sharp as awls, but they seemed to be having trouble focusing. “Common,”
he muttered. His voice was still deep, but it no longer seemed to reverberate.
“The tale is a hundred times better in Plain Chant, and a thousand in High, but
they want Common.” Without another word, he buried his face in his wine. Mat
could not recall ever seeing Thom finish playing that harp without immediately putting
it away in its hard leather case. He had never seen him the worse for drink. It
was a relief to hear the gleeman complaining about his listeners; Thom never
thought their standards were as high as his. At least something of him had not
changed. The
serving girl was back, with no twinkle in her eyes. “Oh, Thom,” she said
softly, then rounded on Mat. “If I’d known he was the friend you awaited, I’d
not have brought you wine for him if you gave a hundred silver pence.” “I
did not know he was drunk,” Mat protested. But
her attention was back on Thom, her voice gentle again. “Thom, you need some
rest. They’ll keep you telling stories all night and all day, if you let them.” Another
woman appeared on Thom’s other side, lifting her apron off over her head. She
was older than the first, but no less pretty. The two might have been sisters.
“A beautiful story, I’ve always thought, Thom, and you tell it beautifully.
Come, I’ve slipped a warming pan into your bed, and you can tell me all about
the court in Caemlyn.” Thom
peered into the mug as if surprised to find it empty, then blew out his long
mustaches and looked from one woman to the other. “Pretty Mada. Pretty Saal.
Did I ever tell you that two pretty women have loved me in my life? That is
more than most men can claim.” “You’ve
told us all about it, Thom,” the older woman said sadly. The younger glared at
Mat as if this were all his fault. “Two,”
Thom murmured. “Morgase had a temper, but I thought I could ignore that, so it
ended with her wanting to kill me. Dena, I killed. As good as. Not much
difference. Two chances I’ve had, more than most, and I threw them both away.” “I
will take care of him,” Mat said. Mada and Saal were both glaring at him, now.
He gave them his best smile, but it did not work. His stomach muttered loudly.
“Don’t I smell chicken roasting? Bring me three or four.” The two women blinked
and exchanged startled looks when he added, “Do you want something to eat, too,
Thom?” “I
could do with more of this fine Andoran wine.” The gleeman raised his cup
hopefully. “No
more wine for you tonight, Thom.” The older woman would have taken his cup if
he had let her. Almost
on top of the first woman, the younger said, in a mixture of firmness and
pleading, “You’ll have some chicken, Thom. It is very good. “ Neither
would leave until the gleeman agreed to eat something, and when they did go,
they gave Mat such a combination of stares and sniffs that he could only shake
his head. Burn me, you would think I was
encouraging him to drink more! Women! But pretty eyes on the pair of them. “Rand
said you were alive,” he told Thom when Mada and Saal were out of hearing.
“Moiraine always said she thought you were. But I heard you were in Cairhien,
and meaning to go on to Tear.” “Rand
is still well, then?” Thom’s eyes sharpened to almost the keenness Mat
remembered. “I am not sure I expected that. Moiraine is still with him, is she?
A finelooking woman. A fine woman, if she were not Aes Sedai. Meddle with that
sort, and you get more than your fingers burned.” “Why
wouldn’t you expect Rand to be all right?” Mat asked carefully. “Do you know of
something that could harm him?” “Know?
I don’t know anything, boy. I suspect more than is healthy for me, but I know
nothing.” Mat
abandoned that line of talk. No use
firming his suspicions. No use letting him know I know more than’s healthy
myself. The
older woman ‑ Thom called her Mada ‑ came back with three chickens
with crisp, brown skins, giving the white‑haired man a worried look, and
Mat a warning one, before she left. Mat ripped off a leg and set to as he
talked. Thom frowned into his cup and never looked at the birds. “Why
are you here in Tar Valon, Thom? It’s the last place I’d have expected to see
you, the way you feel about Aes Sedai. I heard you were coining money in
Cairhien.” “Cairhien,”
the old gleeman muttered, the sharpness fading from his eyes again. “Such
trouble it causes killing a man, even when he deserves killing.” He made a
flourish with one hand and was holding a knife. Thom always had knives secreted
about him. Drunk he might have been, but he held the blade steady enough. “Kill
a man who needs killing, and sometimes others pay for it. The question is, was
it worth doing anyway? There’s always a balance, you know. Good and evil. Light
and Shadow. We would not be human if there wasn’t a balance.” “Put
that away,” Mat growled around a mouthful. “I don’t want to talk about
killing.” Light, that fellow is still
lying right out there in the street. Burn me, I ought to be on a ship by now. “I just asked why you’re in Tar
Valon. If you had to leave Cairhien because you killed someone, I do not want
to know about it. Blood and ashes, if you can’t pull your wits out of the wine
enough to talk straight, I’ll leave now.” With
a sour look, Thom made the knife disappear. “Why am I in Tar Valon? I’m here
because it is the worst place I could be, except maybe Caemlyn. It’s what I
deserve, boy. Some of the Red Ajah still remember me. I saw Elaida in the
street the other day. If she knew I was here, she would peel my hide off in
strips, and then she would stop being pleasant.” “I
never knew you to feel sorry for yourself,” Mat said disgustedly. “Do you mean
to drown yourself in wine?” “What
do you know of it, boy?” Thom snarled. “Put a few years on you, see something
of life, maybe love a woman or two, and then you’ll know. Perhaps you will, if
you have the brains to learn. Aaaah! You want to know why I’m in Tar Valon? Why
are you in Tar Valon? I remember you shivering when you found out Moiraine was
Aes Sedai. You nearly soiled yourself every time anybody even mentioned the
Power. What are you doing in Tar Valon, with Aes Sedai on every side?” “I
am leaving Tar Valon. That’s what I am doing here. Leaving!” Mat grimaced. The
gleeman had saved his life, and maybe more. A Fade had been involved. That was
why Thom’s right leg did not work as well as it should. There could not be enough wine on a ship to keep him this drunk. “I am going to Caemlyn, Thom. If you
need to risk your fool life for some reason, why not come with me?” “Caemlyn?”
Thom said musingly. “Caemlyn,
Thom. Elaida will likely be going back there sooner or later, so you’d have her
to worry about. And from what I remember, if Morgase puts her hands on you, you
will wish Elaida had you.” “Caemlyn.
Yes. Caemlyn would fit my mood like a glove. “ The gleeman glanced at the
chicken platter and gave a start. “What did you do, boy? Stuff them up your
sleeve?” There was nothing left of the three birds but bones and carcasses with
only a few strips of flesh remaining. “Sometimes
I get hungry,” Mat muttered. It was an effort not to lick his fingers. “Are you
coming with me, or not?” “Oh,
I will come, boy.” As Thom pushed himself to his feet, he did not seem as
unsteady as he had been. “You wait here ‑ and try not to eat the table ‑
while I get my things and say some goodbyes.” He limped away, not staggering
once. Mat
drank a little of his wine and stripped off a few shreds that were left on the
chicken carcasses, wondering if he had time to order another, but Thom was back
quickly. His harp and flute in their dark leather cases hung on his back with a
tied blanketroll. He carried a plain walking staff as tall as he was. The two
serving women followed on either side. Mat decided they were sisters. Identical
big brown eyes looked up at the gleeman with identical expressions. Thom was
kissing first Saal, then Mada, and patting cheeks as he headed for the door,
jerking his head for Mat to follow. He was outside before Mat could finish
collecting his own belongings and pick up his quarterstaff. The
younger of the two women, Saal, stopped Mat as he reached the door. “Whatever
you said to him, I forgive you for the wine, even if it is taking him away.
I’ve not seen him this alive in weeks.” She pressed something into his hand,
and when he glanced at it, his eyes widened in confusion. She had given him a
silver Tar Valon mark. “For whatever it was you said. Besides, whoever is
feeding you is not doing a good job of it, but you still have pretty eyes.” She
laughed at the expression on his face. Mat
was laughing, too, in spite of himself, as he went out into the street, rolling
the silver coin across the backs of his fingers. So I have pretty eyes, do
I? His laughter shut off like the last drip from a wine barrel: Thom was
there, but not the corpse. The windows of the taverns down the street put
enough light across the cobblestones for him to be sure of it. The city guard
would not have carried a dead man away without asking questions, at those
taverns and at The Woman of Tanchico, too. “What
are you staring at, boy?” Thom asked. “No Trollocs in those shadows. “ “Footpads,” Mat muttered. “I was thinking about footpads.” “No
street thieves or strong‑arms in Tar Valon, either, boy. When the guards
take a footpad ‑ not that many try that game here; the word spreads ‑
but when they do, they haul him to the Tower, and whatever it is the Aes Sedai
do to him, the fellow leaves Tar Valon the next day as wide‑eyed as a
goosed girl. I understand they’re even harder on women caught thieving. No, the
only way you’ll have your money stolen here is somebody selling you polished
brass for gold or using shaved dice. There are no footpads.” Mat
turned on his heel and strode past Thom, heading toward the docks,
quarterstaff thumping off the
cobblestones as if he could push himself ahead faster. “We’re going to be on
the first ship sailing, whatever it is. The first, Thom.” Thom’s stick clicked hurriedly after him. “Slow down, boy.
What’s your hurry? There are plenty of ships, sailing day and night. Slow down.
There aren’t any footpads.” “The
first bloody ship, Thom! If it’s sinking, we’ll be on it!” If they weren’t footpads, what were they? They
had to be thieves. What else could they he? CHAPTER 32 The First Ship Southharbor
itself, the great Ogier‑made basin, was huge and round, surrounded by
high walls of the same silver‑streaked white stone as the rest of Tar
Valon. One long wharf, most of it roofed, ran all the way around, except where
the wide water gates stood open to give access to the river. Vessels of every
size lined the wharf, most moored by the stern, and despite the hour dockmen in
coarse, sleeveless shirts hurried about loading and unloading bales and chests,
crates and barrels, with ropes and booms, or on their backs. Lamps hanging from
the roof beams lit the wharfs and made a band of light around the black water
in the middle of the harbor. Small open boats scuttled through the darkness,
the square lanterns atop their tall sternposts making it seem as if fireflies
skittered across the harbor. They were small only compared to the ships,
though; some had as many as six pairs of long oars. When
Mat led a still‑muttering Thom under an arch of polished redstone and
down broad steps to the wharf, crewmen on one three‑malted ship were
unfastening the mooring lines not twenty paces away. The vessel was larger than
most Mat could see, between fifteen and twenty spans from sharp bow to squared
stern, with a flat, railed deck almost level with the wharf. The important
thing was that it was casting off. The first ship that sails. A
gray‑haired man came up the wharf three lines of hemp rope sewn down the
sleeves of his dark coat marked him as a dockmaster. His wide shoulders
suggested that he might have begun as a dockman hauling rope instead of wearing
it. He glanced casually in Mat’s direction, and stopped, surprise on his
leathery face. “Your bundles say what you’re planning, lad, but you might as
well forget it. The sister showed me a drawing of you. You’ll board no ship in Southharbor,
lad. Go back up those stairs so I don’t have to tell a man off to watch you.” “What
under the Light . . . ?” Thom murmured. “That’s
all changed,” Mat said firmly. The ship was casting off the last mooring line;
the furled triangular sails still made thick, pale bundles on the long, slanted
booms, but men were readying the sweeps. He pulled the Amyrlin’s paper out of
his pouch and thrust it in the dockmaster’s face. “As you can see, I’m on the
business of the Tower, at the order of the Amyrlin Seat herself. And I have to
leave on that very vessel there.” The
dockmaster read the words, then read them again. “I never saw such a thing in
my life. Why would the Tower say you couldn’t go, then give you . . . that?” “Ask
the Amyrlin, if you want,” Mat told him in a weary voice that said he did not
think anyone could possibly be stupid enough to do that, “but she’ll have my
hide, and yours, if I do not sail on that ship.” “You’ll
never make it,” the dockmaster said, but he was already cupping his hands to his
mouth. “Aboard the Gray Gull there! Stop! The Light burn you, stop!” The
shirtless fellow at the tiller looked back, then spoke to a tall companion in a
dark coat with puffy sleeves. The tall man never took his eyes off the crewmen
just dipping the sweeps into the water. “Give way together,” he called, and
sweepblades curled up froth. “I’ll
make it,” Mat snapped. The first ship I
said, and the first ship I meant! “Come on, Thom!” Without
waiting to see if the gleeman followed, he ran down the wharf, dodging around
men and barrows stacked with cargo. The gap between the Gray Gull’s stern and
the wharf widened as the sweeps bit deeper. Hefting his quarterstaff, he hurled
it ahead of him toward the ship like a spear, took one more step, and jumped as
hard as he could. The
dark water passing beneath his feet looked icy, but in a heartbeat he had
cleared the ship’s rail and was rolling across the deck.. As he scrambled to
his feet, he heard a grunt and a curse behind him. Thom
Merrilin hoisted himself up on the railing with another curse, and climbed over
onto the deck. “I lost my stick,” he muttered. “I’ll want another. “ Rubbing
his right leg, he peered down at the still widening strip of water behind the
vessel and shivered. “I had a bath today already.” The shirtless steersman
stared wide-eyed from him to Mat and back again, clutching the tiller as if
wondering whether he could use it to defend himself from madmen. The
tall man seemed nearly as stunned. His pale blue eyes bulged, and his mouth
worked soundlessly for a moment. His dark beard, cut to a point, seemed to
quiver with rage, and his narrow face grew purple. “By the Stone!” he bellowed
finally. “What is the meaning of this? I’ve no room on this vessel for as much
as a ship’s cat, and I’d not take vagabonds who leap onto my decks if I did.
Sanor! Vasa! Heave this rubbish over the side!” Two extremely large men,
barefoot and stripped to the waist, straightened from coiling lines and started
toward the stern. The men at the sweeps continued their work, bending to lift
the blades, taking three long steps along the deck, then straightening and
walking backwards, hauling the ship ahead on their blades. Mat
waved the Amyrlin’s paper toward the bearded man ‑ the captain, he
supposed ‑ with one hand, and fished a gold crown out of his pouch with
the other, taking care even in his haste that the fellow saw there were more
where that came from. Tossing the heavy coin to the man, he spoke quickly,
still waving the paper. “For the inconvenience of our boarding as we did,
Captain. More to come for passage. On business of the White Tower. Personal
command of the Amyrlin Seat. Imperative we sail immediately. To Aringill, in
Andor. Utmost urgency. The blessings of the White Tower on all who aid us; the
Tower’s wrath on any who impede us.” Certain
the man had seen the Flame of Tar Valon seal by that time - and little more,
Mat hoped ‑ he folded the paper again and thrust it back out of sight.
Eyeing the two big men uneasily as they came up on either side of the captain ‑ Burn me, they both have arms like Perrin’s! ‑ he wished he had his quarterstaff in
hand. He could see it lying where it had landed, further down the deck. He
tried to look sure and confident, the sort of man others had better not trifle
with, a man with the power of the White Tower behind him. A long way behind me, I hope. The captain looked at Mat doubtfully, and even more so at
Thom in his gleeman’s cloak and none too steady afoot, but he motioned Sanor
and Vasa to stop where they were. “I would not anger the Tower. Burn my soul,
for the time being the river trade takes me from Tear to this den of . . . . I
come too often to anger . . . anyone.” A tight smile appeared on his face. “But
I spoke the truth. By the Stone, I did! Six cabins I have for passengers, and
all full. You can sleep on deck and eat with the crew for another gold crown.
Each.” “That
is ridiculous!” Thom snapped. “I don’t care what the war has done downriver,
that is ridiculous!” The two large sailors shifted their bare feet. “It
is the price,” the captain said firmly. “I do not want to anger anyone, but I’d
as soon not have any business you can be on aboard my vessel. Like letting a
man pay you so he can coat you with hot tar, mixing in that business. You pay the price, or you go over the side, and the
Amyrlin Seat herself can dry you off. And I’ll keep this for the trouble you’ve
given me, thank you.” He stuffed the gold crown Mat has tossed him into a
pocket of his puffy‑sleeved coat:’ “How
much for one of the cabins?” Mat asked. “To ourselves. You can put whoever is
in it now with someone else.” He did not want to sleep out in the cold night. And if you don’t overwhelm a fellow like
this, he’ll steal your breeches and say he is doing you a favor. His
stomach rumbled loudly. “And we eat what you eat, not with the crew. And plenty
of it!” “Mat,”
Thom said, “I’m the one who is supposed to be drunk here.” He turned to the
captain, flourishing his patch‑covered cloak as well as he could with
blanketroll and instrument cases hung about him. “As you may have noticed,
Captain, I am a gleeman.” Even in the open air, his voice suddenly seemed to
echo. “For the price of our passages, I would be more than glad to entertain
your passengers and your crew “My
crew is aboard to work, gleeman, not be entertained.” The captain stroked his
pointed beard; his pale eyes priced Mat’s plain coat to the copper. “So you
want a cabin, do you?” He barked a laugh. “And my meals? Well, you can have my
cabin and my meals. For five gold crowns from each of you! Andoran weight!”
Those were the heaviest. He began to laugh so hard his words came out in
wheezes. Flanking him, Sanor and Vasa grinned wide grins. “For ten crowns, you
can take my cabin, and my meals, and I’ll move in with the passengers and eat
with the crew. Burn my soul, I will! By the Stone, I swear it! For ten gold
crowns . . . . “ Laughter choked off anything else. He
was still laughing and gasping for breath and wiping tears from his eyes when
Mat pulled out one of his two purses, but laughter stopped by the time Mat had
counted five crowns into his hands. The captain blinked in disbelief; the two
big crewmen looked poleaxed. “Andoran
weight, you said?” Mat asked. It was hard to judge without scales, but he laid
seven more on the pile. Two actually were Andoran, and he thought the others
made up the weight. Close enough, for
this fellow. After a moment, he added another two gold Tairen crowns. “For
whoever you’ll be pushing out of the cabin they paid for.” He did not think the
passengers would see a copper of it, but it sometimes paid to appear generous.
“Unless you mean to share with them? No, of course not. They ought to have
something for having to crowd in with others. There’s no need for you to eat
with your crew, Captain. You are welcome to share Thom’s meals and mine in your
cabin.” Thom stared at him as hard as the others did. “Are
you . . . ?” The bearded man’s voice was a hoarse whisper. “Are you . . . by
any chance . . . a young lord in disguise?” “I
am no lord.” Mat laughed. He had reason to laugh. The Gray Gull was well out
into the darkness of the harbor, now, with the wharf a band of light pointing
up the black gap, not far ahead now, where the water gates let out onto the
river. The sweeps drove the vessel toward that gap quickly. Men were already swinging
the long, slanting booms around preparatory to unlashing the sails. And with
gold in his hands, the captain no longer seemed ready to throw anyone
overboard. “If you don’t mind, Captain, could we see our cabin? Your cabin, I
mean. It’s late, and I for one want a few hours sleep.” His stomach spoke to
him. “And supper!” As
the vessel put its bow into the blackness, the bearded man himself led the way
down a ladder to a short, narrow passage lined with doors set close together.
While the captain cleared his things from his cabin - it ran the width of the
stern, with its bed and all of its furnishings built into the walls except two
chairs and a few chests ‑ and saw that Mat and Thom were settled, Mat
learned a great deal, beginning with the fact that the man would not be pushing
any passengers out of their quarters. He had too much respect for the coin they
had paid, if not for them, to allow that. The captain would take his first’s
cabin, and that officer would take the second’s bed, pushing each lower man
down till the deckmaster would end sleeping up in the bow with the crew. Mat
did not think that information could be very useful, but he listened to
everything the man said. It was always best to know not only where you were
going, but who you were dealing with, or they might just take your coat and
boots and leave you to walk home through the rain in bare feet. The
captain was a Tairen named Huan Mallia, and he spoke with great volubility once
he had worked out Mat and Thom to his own satisfaction. He was not nobly born,
he said, not him, but he would not have anyone think he was a fool. A young man
with more gold than any young man should have by right might be a thief, if
everyone did not know thieves never escaped Tar Valon with their haul. A young
man dressed like a farmboy but with the air and confidence of the lord he
denied being “By the Stone, I’ll not say you are, if you say you are not.”
Mallia winked and chuckled and tugged the point of his beard. A young man
carrying a paper bearing the Amyrlin Seat’s seal and bound for Andor. There was
no secret that Queen Morgase had visited Tar Valon, though her reason certainly
was. It was obvious to Mallia something was afoot between Caemlyn and Tar
Valon. And Mat and Thom were messengers ‑ for Morgase, he thought, by
Mat’s accent. Anything he could do to help in so great an enterprise would be
his pleasure, not that he meant to poke where he was not wanted. Mat
exchanged startled looks with Thom, who was stowing his instrument cases under
a table built out from one wall. The room had two small windows on either side,
and a pair of lamps in jointed brackets for light. “That’s nonsense,” Mat said. “Of
course,” Mallia replied. He straightened from pulling clothes out of a chest at
the foot of the bed and smiled. “Of course.” A cupboard in the wall seemed to
hold charts of the river he would need. “I’ll say no more. “ But
he did mean to poke, though he attempted to disguise it, and he rambled while
he tried to pry. Mat listened, and answered the questions with grunts or shrugs
or a word or two, while Thom said less than that. The gleeman kept shaking his
head while unburdening himself of his possessions. Mallia
had been a river man all his life, though he dreamed of sailing on the sea. He
hardly spoke of a country beside Tear without contempt; Andor was the only one
to escape, and the praise he finally managed was grudging despite his obvious
efforts. “Good horses in Andor, I’ve heard. Not bad. Not as good as Tairen
stock, but good enough. You make good steel, and iron goods, bronze and copper ‑
I’ve traded for them often enough, though you charge a weighty price ‑
but then you have those mines in the Mountains of Mist. Gold mines, too. We
have to earn our gold, in Tear.” Mayene
received his greatest contempt. “Even less a country than Murandy is. One city
and a few leagues of land. They underprice the oil from our good Tairen olives
just because their ships know how to find the oilfish shoals. They’ve no right
to be a country at all.” He
hated Illian. “One day we’ll loot Illian bare, tear down every town and
village, and sow their filthy ground with salt.” Mallia’s beard almost bristled
with outrage at how filthy the Illian land was. “Even their olives are putrid!
One day we’ll carry every last Illianer pig off in chains! That is what the
High Lord Samon says.” Mat
wondered what the man thought Tear would do with all those people if they
actually fulfilled this scheme. The Illianers would have to be fed, and they
would surely do no work in chains. It made no sense to him, but Mallia’s eyes
shone when he spoke of it. Only
fools let themselves be ruled by a king or a queen, by one man or woman.
“Except Queen Morgase, of course,” he put in hastily. “She is a fine woman, so
I’ve heard. Beautiful, I’m told.” All those fools bowing to one fool. The High
Lords ruled Tear together, reaching decisions in concert, and that was how
things should be. The High Lords knew what was right and good and true.
Especially the High Lord Samon. No man could go wrong obeying the High Lords.
Especially the High Lord Samon. Beyond
kings and queens, beyond even Illian, lay a bigger hatred Mallia attempted to
keep hidden, but he talked so much in trying to find out what they were up to,
and grew so carried away by the sound of his own voice, that he let more slip
than he intended. They
must travel a great deal, serving a great Queen like Morgase. They must have
seen many lands. He dreamed of the sea because then he could see lands he had
only heard of, because then he could find the Mayener oilfish shoals, could out‑trade
the Sea Folk and the filthy Illianers. And the sea was far from Tar Valon. They
must understand that, forced as they were to travel among odd places and
people, places and people they could not have stomached if they were not serving
Queen Morgase. “I
never liked docking there, never knowing who might be using the Power.” He
almost spat the last word. Since he had heard the High Lord Samon speak, though
. . . . “Burn my soul, it makes me feel like hullworms are burrowing into my
belly just looking at their White Tower, now, knowing what they plan.” The
High Lord Samon said the Aes Sedai meant to rule the world. Samon said they
meant to crush every nation, put their foot on every man’s throat. Samon said
Tear could no longer hold the Power out of its own lands and believe that was
enough. Samon said Tear had its rightful day of glory coming, but Tar Valon
stood between Tear and glory. “There’s
no hope for it. Sooner or later they will have to be hunted down and killed,
every last Aes Sedai. The High Lord Samon says the others might be saved ‑
the young ones, the novices, the Accepted ‑ if they’re brought to the
Stone, but the rest must be eradicated. That’s what the High Lord Samon says.
The White Tower must be destroyed.” For
a moment Mallia stood in the middle of his cabin, arms full of clothes and
books and rolled charts, hair almost brushing the deck beams overhead, staring
at nothing with pale blue eyes while the White Tower tumbled into ruin. Then he
gave a start as if realizing what he had just said. His pointed beard waggled
uncertainly. “That
is . . . that’s what he says. I . . . I think that may be going too far,
myself. The High Lord Samon . . . . He speaks so that he carries a man beyond
his own beliefs. If Caemlyn can make covenants with the Tower, why, so can
Tear.” He shivered and did not seem to know it. “That is what I say.” “As
you say,” Mat told him, and felt mischief bubble inside. “I think your
suggestion is the right one, Captain. But don’t stop with a few Accepted,
though. Ask a dozen Aes Sedai to come, or two. Think what the Stone of Tear
would be like with two dozen Aes Sedai in it.” Mallia
shuddered. “I will send a man for my money chest,” he said stiffly, and stalked
out. Mat
frowned at the closed door. “I think I shouldn’t have said that.” “I
don’t know why you might think that,” Thom said dryly. “Next you could try
telling the Lord Captain Commander of the Whitecloaks he should marry the
Amyrlin Seat.” His brows drew down, like white caterpillars. “High Lord Samon.
I never heard of any High Lord Samon.” It
was Mat’s turn to be dry. “Well, even you cannot know everything about all the
kings and queens and nobles there are, Thom. One or two might just have escaped
your notice.” “I
know the names of the kings and queens, boy, and the names of all the High
Lords of Tear, too. I suppose they could have raised a Lord of the Land, but
I’d think I would have heard of the old High Lord dying. If you had settled for
booting some poor fellows out of their cabin instead of taking the captain’s,
we’d each have a bed to ourselves, narrow and hard as it might be. Now we have
to share Mallia’s. I hope you don’t snore, boy. I cannot abide snoring.” Mat
ground his teeth. As he recalled, Thom had a snore like a woodrasp working on
an oak knot. He had forgotten that. It
was one of the two large men ‑ Sanor or Vasa; he did not give his name ‑
who came to pull the captain’s iron‑bound money chest from under the bed.
He never said a word, only made sketchy bows, and frowned at them when he
thought they were not looking, and left. Mat
was beginning to wonder if the luck that had been with him all night had
deserted him at last. He was going to have to put up with Thom’s snoring, and
truth to tell, it might not have been the best luck in the world to jump onto
this particular ship waving a paper signed by the Amyrlin Seat and sealed with
the Flame of Tar Valon. On impulse he pulled out one of his cylindrical leather
dice cups, popped off the tight‑fitting lid, and upended the dice onto
the table. They
were spotted dice, and five single pips stared up at him. The Dark One’s Eyes,
that was called in some games. It was a losing toss in those, a winning in
other games. But what game am I
playing? He scooped the dice up, tossed them again. Five pips. Another
toss, and again the Dark One’s Eyes winked at him. “If
you used those dice to win all that gold,” Thom said quietly, “no wonder you
had to leave by the first ship sailing.” He had stripped down to his shirt, and
had that half over his head when he spoke. His knees were knobby and his legs
seemed all sinew and stringy muscle, the right a little shrunken. “Boy, a
twelve‑year‑old girl would cut your heart out if she knew you were
using dice like that against her.” “It
isn’t the dice,” Mat muttered. “It’s the luck.” Aes Sedai luck? Or the Dark One’s luck? He pushed the dice back into
the cup and capped it. “I
suppose,” Thom said, climbing into the bed, “you aren’t going to tell me where
all that gold came from, then.” “I
won it. Tonight. With their dice.” “Uh‑huh.
And I suppose you’re not going to explain that paper you were waving around ‑
I saw the seal, boy! ‑ or all that talk about White Tower business, or
why the dockmaster had your description from an Aes Sedai, either.” “I
am carrying a letter to Morgase for Elayne, Thom,” Mat said a good deal more
patiently than he felt. “Nynaeve gave me the paper. I don’t know where she got
it.” “Well,
if you are not going to tell me, I am going to sleep. Blow out the lamps, will
you?” Thom rolled on his side and pulled a pillow over his head. Even
after Mat had stripped off down to his smallclothes and crawled under the
blankets ‑ after blowing out the lamps ‑ he could not sleep, though
Mallia had done well by himself with a good feather mattress. He
had been right about Thom’s snoring, and that pillow muffled nothing. It
sounded as if Thom were cutting wood cross‑grain with a rusty saw. And he
could not stop thinking. How had Nynaeve
and Egwene, and Elayne, gotten that paper from the Amyrlin? They had to be involved
with the Amyrlin Seat herself ‑ in some plot, one of those White Tower
machinations ‑ but now that he thought about it, they had to be holding
something back from the Amyrlin, too. “ ‘Please carry a letter to my mother, Mat,’ “ he said
softly, in a highpitched, mocking voice. “Fool! The Amyrlin would have sent a
Warder with any letter from the Daughter-Heir to the Queen. Blind fool,
wanting to get out of the Tower so bad I couldn’t see it.” Thom’s snore seemed
to trumpet agreement. Most
of all, though, he thought about luck, and footpads. The
first bump of something against the stern barely registered on him. He paid no
attention to a thump and scuffle from the deck overhead, or the tread of boots.
The vessel itself made enough noises, and there had to be someone on deck for
the ship to make its way downriver. But stealthy footsteps in the passageway
leading to his door merged with thoughts of footpads and made his ears prick
up. He
nudged Thom in the ribs with an elbow. “Wake up,” he said softly. “There’s
somebody outside in the hall.” He was already easing himself off the bed,
hoping the cabin floor ‑ Deck, floor, whatever it bloody is! ‑
not creak under his feet. Thom grunted, smacked his lips, and resumed snoring. There
was no time to worry about Thom. The footsteps were right outside. Taking up
his quarterstaff, Mat placed himself in front of the door and waited. The
door swung open slowly, and two cloaked men, one behind the other, were faintly
outlined by dim moonlight through the hatch at the top of the ladder they had
crept down. The moonlight was enough to glint off bare knife blades. Both men
gasped; they obviously had not expected to find anyone waiting for them. Mat
thrust with the quarterstaff, catching the first man hard right under where his
ribs joined together. He heard his father’s voice as he struck. It’s a killing blow, Mat. Don’t ever use it
unless it’s your life. But
those knives made it for his life; there was no room in the cabin for swinging
a staff. Even
as the man made a choking sound and folded toward the deck, fighting vainly for
breath, Mat stepped forward and drove the end of the quarterstaff over him into
the second man’s throat with a loud crunch. That fellow dropped his knife to
clutch at his throat, and fell on top of his companion, both of them scraping
their boots across the deck, death rattles already sounding in their throats. Mat
stood there, staring down at them. Two men. No, burn me, three! I don’t think I ever hurt another human being
before, and now I’ve killed three men in one night. Light! Silence
filled the dark passageway, and he heard the thump of boots on the deck
overhead. The crewmen all went barefoot. Trying
not to think about what he was doing, Mat ripped the cloak from one of the dead
men and settled it around his shoulders, hiding the pale linen of his
smallclothes. On bare feet he padded down the passage and climbed the ladder,
barely sticking his eyes above the hatch coping. Pale
moonlight reflected off the taut sails, but night still covered the deck with
shadows, and there was no sound except the rush of water along the vessel’s
sides. Only one man at the tiller, the hood of his cloak pulled up against the
chill, seemed to be on deck. The man shifted, and boot leather scuffed on the
deck planks. Holding
the quarterstaff low and hoping it would not be noticed, Mat climbed on up.
“He’s dead,” he muttered in a low, rough whisper. “I
hope he squealed when you cut his throat.” The heavily accented voice was one
Mat remembered calling from the mouth of a twisting street in Tar Valon. “This
boy, he causes us too much of the trouble. Wait! Who are you?” Mat
swung the staff with all his strength. The thick wood smashed into the man’s
head, the hood of his cloak only partly muffling a sound like a melon hitting
the floor. The
man fell across the tiller, shoving it over, and the vessel lurched, staggering
Mat. Out of the corner of his eye he saw a shape rising out of the shadows by
the railing, and the gleam of a blade, and he knew he would never get his staff
around before it struck home. Something else that shone streaked through the
night and merged with the dim shape with a dull thunk. The rising motion became a fall, and a man sprawled almost
at Mat’s feet. A
babble of voices rose belowdecks as the ship swung again, the tiller shifting
with the first man’s weight. Thom
limped from the hatch in cloak and smallclothes, raising the shutter on a
bull’s‑eye lantern. “You were lucky, boy. One of those below had this
lantern. Could have set the ship on fire, lying there.” The light showed a
knife hilt sticking up from the chest of a man with dead, staring eyes. Mat had
never seen him before; he was sure he would have remembered someone with that
many scars on his face. Thom kicked a dagger away from the dead man’s outflung
hand, then bent to retrieve his own knife, wiping the blade on the corpse’s
cloak. “Very lucky, boy. Very lucky indeed.” There
was a rope tied to the stern rail. Thom stepped over to it, shining the light
down astern, and Mat joined him. At the other end of the rope was one of the
small boats from Southharbor, its square lantern extinguished. Two more men
stood among the pulled‑in oars. “The
Great Lord take me, it’s him!” one of them gasped. The other darted forward to
work frantically at the knot holding the rope. “You
want to kill these two as well?” Thom asked, his voice booming as it did when
he performed. “No,
Thom,” Mat said quietly. “No.” The
men in the boat must have heard the question and not the answer, for they
abandoned the attempt to free their boat and leaped over the side with great
splashes. The sound of them thrashing away across the river was loud. “Fools,”
Thom muttered. “The river narrows somewhat after Tar Valon, but it must still
be half a mile or more wide here. They’ll never make it in the dark.” “By
the Stone!” came a shout from the hatch. “What happens here? There are dead men
in the passageway! What’s Vasa doing lying on the tiller? He’ll run us onto a
mudbank!” Naked save for linen underbreeches, Mallia dashed to the tiller, hauling
the dead man off ,roughly as he pulled the long lever to put the course
straight again. “That isn’t Vasa! Burn my soul, who are all these dead men?”
Others were clambering on deck now, barefoot crewmen and frightened passengers
wrapped in cloaks and blankets. Shielding
his actions with his body, Thom slipped his knife under the rope and severed it
in one stroke. The small boat began falling back into the darkness. “River
brigands, Captain,” he said. “Young Mat and I have saved your vessel from river
brigands. They might have cut everyone’s throat if not for us. Perhaps you
should reconsider your passage fee.” “Brigands!”
Mallia exclaimed. “There are plenty of those down around Cairhien, but I never
heard of it this far north!” The huddled passengers began to mutter about
brigands and having their throats cut. Mat
walked stiffly to the hatch. Behind him, he heard Mallia. “He’s a cold one. I
never heard that Andor employed assassins, but burn my soul, he is a cold one.” Mat
stumbled down the ladder, stepped over the two bodies in the passage, and
slammed the door of the captain’s cabin behind him. He made it halfway to the
bed before the shaking hit him, and then all he could do was sink down on his
knees. Light, what game am I playing in?
I have to know the game if I’m going to win. Light, what game? Playing
“Rose of the Morning” softly on his flute, Rand peered into his campfire, where
a rabbit was roasting on a stick slanting over the flames. A night wind made
the flames flicker; he barely noticed the smell of the rabbit, though a vagrant
thought did come that he needed to find more salt in the next village or town.
“Rose of the Morning” was one of the tunes he had played at those weddings. How many days ago was that? Were
there really so many, or did I imagine it? Every woman in the village deciding
to marry at once? What was its name? Am I going mad already? Sweat
beaded on his face, but he played on, barely loud enough to be heard, staring
into the fire. Moiraine had told him he was ta’veren.
Everyone said he was ta’veren. Maybe
he really was. People like that - changed ‑ things around them. A ta’veren might have caused all those weddings. But that was too close to something he
did not want to think about. They say I’m the Dragon Reborn, too.
They all say it. The living say it, and the dead. That doesn’t make it true. I
had to let them proclaim me. Duty. I had no choice, but that does not make it
true. He
could not seem to stop playing that one tune. It made him think of Egwene. He
had thought once that he would marry Egwene. A long time ago, that seemed. That
was gone, now. She had come in his dreams, though. It might have been her. Her face. It was her face. Only,
there had been so many faces, faces he knew. Tam, and his mother, and Mat, and
Perrin. All trying to kill him. It had not really been them, of course. Only
their faces, on Shadowspawn. He thought it had not really been them. Even in
his dreams it seemed the Shadowspawn walked. Were they only dreams? Some dreams
were real, he knew. And others were only dreams, nightmares, or hopes. But how
to tell the difference? Min had walked his dreams one night ‑ and tried
to plant a knife in his back. He was still surprised at how much that had
pained him. He had been careless, let her come close, let down his guard.
Around Min, he had not felt any need to be on his guard in so long, despite the
things she saw when she looked at him. Being with her had been like having balm
soothed into his wounds. And then she tried to kill me! The music rose to a discordant
screech, but he pulled it back to softness. Not
her. Shadowspawn with her face. Least of them all would Min hurt me. He
could not understand why he thought that, but he was sure it was true. So
many faces in his dreams. Selene had come, cool and mysterious and so lovely
his mouth went dry just thinking of her, offering him glory as she had‑so
long ago, it seemed‑but now it was the sword she said he had to take. And
with the sword would come her. Callandor.
That was always in his dreams. Always. And taunting faces. Hands, pushing
Egwene, and Nynaeve, and Elayne into cages, snaring them in nets, hurting them.
Why should he weep more for Elayne than for the other two? His
head spun. His head hurt as much as his side, and sweat rolled down his face,
and he softly played “Rose of the Morning” through the night, fearing to sleep.
Fearing to dream. CHAPTER 33 Within the Weave From
his saddle, Perrin frowned down at the flat stone half hidden in weeds by the
roadside. This road of hard‑packed dirt, already called the Lugard Road
now that they were approaching the River Manetherendrelle and the border of
Lugard, had been paved once, long in the past, so Moiraine had said two days
earlier, and bits of paving stone still worked their way to the surface from time
to time. This one had an odd marking on it. If
dogs had been able to make footprints on stone, he would have said it was the
print of a large hound. There were no hound’s footprints in any of the bare
ground he could see, where softer dirt on the verge might take one, and no
smell of any dog’s trail. Just a faint trace in the air of something burned,
almost the sulphurous smell left by setting off fireworks. There was a town
ahead, where the road struck the river; maybe some children had sneaked out here
with some of the Illuminators’ handiwork. A long way yet for children to
sneak. But he had
seen farms. It could have been farm children. Whatever it is, it has nothing to do with that marking. Horses don’t fly, and dogs don’t make footprints on stone. I’m getting too tired to think
straight. Yawning,
he dug his heels into Stepper’s ribs, and the dun broke into gallop after the
others. Moiraine had been pushing them hard since leaving Jarra, and there was
no waiting for anyone who stopped for even a moment. When the Aes Sedai put her
mind on something, she was as hard as cold hammered iron. Loial had given up
reading as he rode six days earlier, after looking up to find himself left a
mile behind and everyone else almost out of sight over the next hill. Perrin
slowed Stepper alongside the Ogier’s big horse, behind Moiraine’s white mare,
and yawned again. Lan was up ahead somewhere, scouting. The sun behind them
stood no more than an hour above the treetops, but the Warder had said they
would reach a town called Remen, on the Manetherendrelle, before dark. Perrin
was not sure he wanted to see what awaited them there. He did not know what it
might be, but the days since Jarra had made him wary. “I
don’t see why you can’t sleep,” Loial told him. “I am so tired by the time she
lets us halt for the night, I fall asleep before I can lie down.” Perrin
only shook his head. There was no way to explain to Loial that he did not dare
sleep soundly, that even his lightest sleep was full of troubled dreams. Like
that odd one with Egwene and Hopper in it. Well,
no wonder I dream about her. Light, I wonder how she is. Safe in the Tower by
now, and learning how to be Aes Sedai. Verin will look after her, and after
Mat, too. He did not think anyone needed to look after Nynaeve; around
Nynaeve, to his mind, other people needed someone to look after them. He
did not want to think about Hopper. He was succeeding in keeping live wolves
out of his head, although at the price of feeling as if he had been hammered‑and‑drawn
by a hasty hand; he did not want to think a dead wolf might be creeping in. He
shook himself and forced his eyes wide open. Not even Hopper. There
were more reasons than bad dreams not to sleep well. They had found other signs
left by Rand’s passage. Between Jarra and the River Eldar there had been none
Perrin could see, but when they crossed the Eldar by a stone bridge arching
from one fifty‑foot river cliff to another, they had left behind a town
called Sidon all in ashes. Every building. Only a few stone‑ walls and chimneys
still stood among the ruins. Bedraggled
townspeople said a lantern dropped in a barn had started it, and then the fire
seemed to run wild, and everything went wrong. Half the buckets that could be
found had holes in them. Every last burning wall had fallen outward instead of
in, setting houses to either side alight. Flaming timbers from the inn had
somehow tumbled as far as the main well in the square, so no one could draw
more water from it to fight the fires, and houses had fallen right on top of three
other wells. Even the wind had seemed to shift, fanning the flames in every
direction. There
had been no need to ask Moiraine if Rand’s presence had caused it; her face,
like cold iron, was answer enough. The Pattern shaped itself around Rand, and
chance ran wild. Beyond
Sidon they had ridden through four small towns where only Lan’s tracking told
them Rand was still ahead. Rand was afoot, now, and had been for some time.
They had found his horse back beyond Jarra, dead, looking as if it had been
mauled by wolves, or dogs run wild. It had been hard for Perrin not to reach
out, then, especially when Moiraine looked up from the horse to frown at him.
Luckily, Lan had found the tracks of Rand’s boots, running from where the dead
horse lay. One boot heel had a three-cornered gouge from a rock; it made his
prints plain. But afoot or mounted, he seemed to be staying ahead of them. In
the four villages after Sidon, the biggest excitement anyone could remember was
seeing Loial ride in, and discovering that he was an Ogier, for real and for
true. They were so caught up with that, chat they barely even noticed Perrin’s
eyes, and when they did . . . . Well, if Ogier were real, then men could very
well have any color eyes at all. But
after those came a little place named Willar, and it was celebrating. The
spring on the village common was flowing again, after a year of hauling water a
mile from a stream when all efforts at digging wells had failed and half the
people had moved away. Willar would not die after all. Three more untouched
villages had been followed in quick succession, all in one day, by Samaha,
where every well in town had gone dry just the night before, and people were
muttering about the Dark One; then Tallan, where all the old arguments the
village had ever known had bubbled to the surface like overflowing cesspits a
morning earlier, and it had taken three murders to shock everyone back to their
senses; and finally Fyall, where the crops this spring looked to be the poorest
anyone could remember, but the Mayor, digging a new privy behind his house, had
found rotted leather sacks full of gold, so none would go hungry. No one in
Fyall recognized the fat coins, with a woman’s face on one side and an eagle on
the other; Moiraine said they had been minted in Manetheren. Perrin
had finally asked her about it, as they sat around their campfire one night.
“After Jarra, I thought . . . . They were all so happy, with their weddings.
Even the Whitecloaks were only made to look like fools. Fyall
was all right ‑ Rand couldn’t have had anything to do with their crops;
they were failing before he ever came, and that gold was surely good, with
their need‑but all this other . . . . That town burning, and the wells
failing, and . . . . That is evil, Moiraine. I can’t believe Rand is evil. The
Pattern may be shaping itself around him, but how can the Pattern be that evil?
It makes no sense, and things have to make sense. If you make a tool with no
sense to it, it’s wasted metal. The Pattern wouldn’t make waste.” Lan
gave him a wry look, and vanished into the darkness to make a circuit around
their campsite. Loial, already stretched out in his blankets, lifted his head
to listen, ears pricking forward. Moiraine
was silent for a time, warming her hands. Finally she spoke while staring into
the flames. “The Creator is good, Perrin. The Father of Lies is evil. The
Pattern of Age, the Age Lace itself, is neither. The Pattern is what is. The
Wheel of Time weaves all lives into the Pattern, all actions. A pattern that is
all one color is no pattern. For the Pattern of an Age, good and ill are the
warp and the woof.” Even
riding through late‑afternoon sunshine three days later, Perrin felt the
chill he had had on first hearing her say those words. He wanted to believe the
Pattern was good. He wanted to believe that when men did evil things, they were
going against the Pattern, distorting it. To him the Pattern was a fine and
intricate creation made by a master smith. That it mixed pot metal and worse in
with good steel with never a care was a cold thought. “I
care,” he muttered softly. “Light, I do care.” Moiraine glanced back at him,
and he fell silent. He was not sure what the Aes Sedai cared about, beyond
Rand. A
few minutes later Lan appeared from ahead and swung his black warhorse in
beside Moiraine’s mare. “Remen lies just over the next hill,” he said. “They
have had an eventful day or two, it seems.” Loial’s
ears twitched once. “Rand?” The
Warder shook his head. “I do not know. Perhaps Moiraine can say, when she
sees.” The Aes Sedai gave him a searching look, then heeled her white mare to a
quicker step. They
topped the hill, and Remen lay spread out below them, hard against the river.
The Manetherendrelle stretched more than half a mile wide here, and there was
no bridge, though two crowded, barge‑like by long oars, and one nearly
empty was returning. Three more shared long stone docks with nearly a dozen
river ferries crept across, propelled traders’ vessels, some with one mast,
some with two. A few bulky gray stone warehouses separated the docks from the
town itself, where the buildings seemed mostly of stone, as well, though roofed
in tiles of every color from yellow to red to purple, and the streets ran every
which way around a central square. Moiraine
pulled up the deep hood of her cloak to hide her face before they rode down. As
usual, the people in the streets stared at Loial, but this time Perrin heard
awed murmurs of “Ogier.” Loial sat straighter in his saddle than he had in some
time, and his ears stood straight, and a smile just curled the ends of his wide
mouth. He was obviously trying not to let on that he was pleased, but he looked
like a cat having its ears scratched. Remen
looked like any of a dozen towns to Perrin ‑ it was full of manmade
aromas and man smell; with a strong smell of the river, of course ‑ and
he was wondering what Lan could have meant when the hair on the back of his
neck stirred as he scented something wrong. As soon as his nose took it in, it
was gone like a horsehair dropped onto hot coals, but he remembered it. He had
smelled the same smell at Jarra, and it had vanished the same way, then. It was
not a Twisted One or a Neverborn ‑ Trolloc, burn me, not a Twisted One! Not a Neverborn! A Myrddraal, a Fade, a
Halfman, anything but a Neverborn! ‑ not a Trolloc or a Fade, yet the stench had been every bit as
sharp, every bit as vile. But whatever gave off that scent left no lasting
trail, it seemed. They
rode into the town square. One of the big paving blocks had been pried up,
right in the middle of the square, so a gibbet could be erected. A single thick
timber rose out of the dirt, supporting a braced crosspiece from which hung an
iron cage, the bottom of it four paces high. A tall man dressed all in grays
and browns sat in the cage, holding his knees under his chin. He had no room to
do otherwise. Three small boys were pitching stones at him. The man looked
straight ahead, not flinching when a stone made it between the bars. More than
one trickle of blood stained his face. The townspeople walking by paid no more
mind to what the boys were doing than the man did, though every last one of
them looked at the cage, most of them with approval, and some with fear. Moiraine
made a sound in her throat that might have been disgust. “There
is more,” Lan said. “Come. I’ve already arranged rooms at an inn. I think you
will find it interesting.” Perrin
looked back over his shoulder at the caged man as he rode after them. There was
something familiar about the man, but he could not place it. “They
shouldn’t do that.” Loial’s rumble sounded halfway to a snarl. “The children, I
mean. The grown‑ups should stop them.” “They
should,” Perrin agreed, barely paying attention. Why is he familiar? The
sign over the door of the inn Lan led them to, nearer the river, read Wayman’s
Forge, which Perrin took for a good omen, though there seemed to be nothing of
the smithy about the place except the leather-aproned man with a hammer painted
on the sign. It was a large, purple-roofed, three‑story building of
squared and polished gray stones, with large windows and scroll‑carved
doors, and it had a prosperous look. Stablemen came running to take the horses,
bowing even more deeply after Lan tossed them coins. Inside,
Perrin stared at the people. The men and women at the tables were all dressed
in their feastday clothes, it seemed to him, with more embroidered coats, more
lace on dresses, more colored ribbons and fringed scarves, than he had seen in
a long time. Only four men sitting at one table wore plain coats, and they were
the only ones who did not look up expectantly when Perrin and the others walked
in. The four men kept on talking softly. He could make out a little of what
they were saying, about the virtues of ice peppers over furs as cargo and what
the troubles in Saldaea might have done to prices. Captains of trading ships,
he decided. The others seemed to be local folk. Even the serving women appeared
to be wearing their best, their long aprons covering embroidered dresses with
bits of lace at the neck. The
kitchen was working heavily; he could smell mutton, lamb, chicken, and beef, as
well as some sort of vegetables. And a spicy cake that made him forget meat for
a moment. The
innkeeper himself met them just inside, a plump, bald‑headed man with
shining brown eyes in a smooth pink face, bowing and dry-washing his hands. If
he had not come to them, Perrin would never have taken him for the landlord,
for instead of the expected white apron, he wore a coat like everyone else, all
white‑and‑green embroidery on stout blue wool that had the man
sweating with its weight. Why are they all wearing clothes for
festival? Perrin
wondered. “Ah,
Master Andra,” the innkeeper said, addressing Lan. “And an Ogier, just as you
said. Not that I doubted, of course. Not with all that’s happened, and never
your word, master. Why not an Ogier? Ah, friend Ogier, to be having you in the
house gives me more pleasure than you can be knowing. ‘Tis a fine thing, and a
fitting cap to it all. Ah, and mistress . . . .” His eyes took in the deep blue
silk of her dress and the rich wool of her cloak, dusty from travel but still
fine. “Forgive me, Lady, please.” His bow bent him like a horseshoe. “Master
Andra did not make your station clear, Lady. I meant no disrespect. You are
even more welcome than friend Ogier here, of course, Lady. Please, take no
offense at Gainor Furlan’s poor tongue.” “I
take none.” Moiraine’s voice calmly accepted the title Furlan gave her. It was
far from the first time the Aes Sedai had gone under another name, or pretended
to be something she was not. It was not the first Perrin had heard Lan name
himself Andra, either. The deep hood still hid Moiraine’s smooth Aes Sedai
features, and she held her cloak around her with one hand as if taken with a
chill. Not the hand on which she wore her Great Serpent ring. “You have had
strange occurrences in the town, innkeeper, so I understand. Nothing to trouble
travelers, I trust.” “Ah,
Lady, you might be, calling them strange indeed. Your own radiant presence is
more than enough to honor this humble house, Lady, and bringing an Ogier with
you, but we have Hunters in Remen, too. Right here in Wayland’s Forge, they
are. Hunters for the Horn of Valere, set out from Illian for adventure. And
adventure they found, Lady, here in Remen, or just a mile or two upriver,
fighting wild Aielmen, of all things. Can you imagine black‑veiled Aiel
savages in Altara, Lady?” Aiel.
Now Perrin knew what was familiar about the man in the cage. He had seen an
Aiel, once, one of those fierce, nearly legendary denizens of the harsh land
called the Waste. The man had looked a good deal like Rand, taller than most,
with gray eyes and reddish hair, and he had been dressed like the man in the
cage, all in browns and grays that would fade into rock or brush, with soft
boots laced to his knees. Perrin could almost hear Min’s voice again. An Aielman in a cage. A turning point in
your life, or something important that will happen. “Why do you have . . . ?” He stopped to clear his throat so
he would not sound so hoarse. “How did an Aiel come to be caged in your town
square?” “Ah,
young master, that is a story to . . . .” Furlan trailed off, eyeing him up and
down, taking in his plain country clothes and the longbow in his hands, pausing
over the axe at his belt opposite his quiver. The plump man gave a start when
his study reached Perrin’s face, as if, with a Lady and an Ogier present, he
had just now noticed Perrin’s yellow eyes. “He would be your servant, Master
Andra?” he asked cautiously. “Answer
him,” was all Lan said. “Ah.
Ah, of course, Master Andra. But here’s who can tell it better than myself.
‘Tis Lord Orban, himself. ‘Tis he we have gathered to hear. “ A
dark‑haired, youngish man in a red coat, with a bandage wound around his
temples, was making his way down the stairs at the side of the common room
using padded crutches, the left leg of his breeches cut away so more bandages
could strap his calf from ankle to knee. The townspeople murmured as if seeing
something wondrous. The ship captains went on with their quiet talking; they
had come ‘round to furs. Furlan
might have thought the man in the red coat could tell the story better, but he
went ahead himself. “Lord Orban and Lord Gann faced twenty wild Aielmen with
only ten retainers. Ah, fierce was the fighting and hard, with many wounds
given and received. Six good retainers died, and every man took hurts, Lord
Orban and Lord Gann worst of all, but every Aiel they slew, save those who
fled, and one they took prisoner. ‘Tis that one you see out there in the
square, where he’ll not be troubling the countryside anymore with his savage
ways, no more than the dead ones will.” “You
have had trouble from Aiel in this district?” Moiraine asked. Perrin
was wondering the same thing, with no little consternation. If some people
still occasionally used “black‑veiled Aiel” as a term for someone
violent, it was testimony to the impression the Aiel War had left, but that was
twenty years in the past, now, and the Aiel had never come out of the Waste
before or since. But I saw one this side
of the Spine of the World, and now I’ve
seen two. The innkeeper rubbed at his bald head. “Ah. Ah, no, Lady,
not exactly. But we would have had, you can be sure, with twenty savages loose.
Why, everyone remembers how they killed and looted and burned their way across
Cairhien. Men from this very village marched to the Battle of the Shining
Walls, when the nations gathered to throw them back. I myself suffered from a
twisted back at the time and so could not go, but I remember well, as we all
do. How they came here, so far from their own land, or why, I do not know, but
Lord Orban and Lord Gann saved us from them. “ There was a murmur of agreement
from the folk in feastday clothes. Orban
himself came stumping across the common room, not seeming to see anyone but the
innkeeper. Perrin could smell stale wine before he was even close. “Where’s
that old woman taken herself off to with her herbs, Futlan?” Orban demanded
roughly. “Gann’s wounds are paining him, and my head feels about to split
open.” Furlan
almost bent his head to the floor. “Ah, Mother Leich will be back in the
morning, Lord Orban. A birthing, Lord. But she said she’d stitched and
poulticed your wounds, and Lord Gann’s, so there’d be no worrying. Ah, Lord
Orban, I’m sure she’ll be seeing to you first thing on the morrow.” The
bandaged man muttered something under his breath‑under his breath to any
ears but Perrin’s‑about waiting on a farmwife “throwing her litter” and
something else about being “sewn up like a sack of meal. “ He shifted sullen,
angry eyes, and for the first time appeared to see the newcomers. Perrin, he
dismissed immediately, which did not surprise Perrin at all. His eyes widened a
little at Loial ‑ He’s seen Ogier, Perrin
thought, but he never thought to see one here
‑ narrowed a bit at Lan ‑ He knows
a fighting man when he sees one, and he does not like seeing one ‑ and brightened as he
stooped to peer inside Moiraine’s hood, though he was not close enough to see
her face. Perrin
decided not to think anything at all about that, not concerning an Aes Sedai,
and he hoped neither Moiraine nor Lan thought anything of it, either. A light
in the Warder’s eyes told him he had missed on that hope, at least. “Twelve
of you fought twenty Aiel?” Lan asked in a flat voice. Orban
straightened, wincing. In an elaborately casual tone, he said, “Aye, you must
expect things such as that when you seek the Horn of Valere. It was not the
first such encounter for Gann and me, nor will it be the last before we find
the Horn. If the Light shines on us.” He sounded as if the Light could not
possibly do anything else. “Not all our fights have been with Aiel, of course,
but there are always those who would stop Hunters, if they could. Gann and I,
we do not stop easily.” Another approving murmur came from the townspeople. Orban
stood a little straighter. “You
lost six, and took one prisoner.” From Lan’s voice, it was not clear if that
was a good exchange or a poor one. “Aye,”
Orban said, “we slew the rest, save those who ran. No doubt they’re hiding
their dead now; I’ve heard they do that. The Whitecloaks are out searching for
them, but they’ll never find them.” “There
are Whitecloaks here?” Perrin asked sharply. Orban
glanced at him, and dismissed him once more. The man addressed Lan again.
“Whitecloaks always put their noses in where they are not wanted or needed.
Incompetent louts, all of them. Aye, they’ll ride all over the countryside for
days, but I doubt they’ll find as much as their own shadows.” “I
suppose they won’t,” Lan said. The
bandaged man frowned as if unsure exactly what Lan meant, then rounded on the
innkeeper again. “You find that old woman, hear! My head is splitting.” With a
last glance at Lan, he hobbled away, climbing back up the stairs one at a time,
followed by murmurs of admiration for a Hunter of the Horn who had slain
Aielmen. “This
is an eventful town.” Loial’s deep voice drew every eye to him. Except for the
ship captains, who seemed to be discussing rope, as near as Perrin could make
out. “Everywhere I go, you humans are doing things, hurrying and scurrying,
having things happen to you. How can you stand so much excitement?” “Ah,
friend Ogier,” Furlan said, “ ‘tis the way of us humans to want excitement. How
much I regret not being able to march to the Shining Walls. Why, let me tell
you ‑ “ “Our
rooms.” Moiraine did not raise her voice, but her words cut the innkeeper short
like a sharp knife. “Andra did arrange rooms, did he not?” “Ah,
Lady, forgive me. Yes, Master Andra did indeed hire rooms. Forgive me, please.
‘Tis all the excitement, makes my head empty itself. Please forgive me, Lady.
This way, if you please. If you’ll please to follow me.” Bowing and scraping,
apologizing and babbling without pause, Furlan led them up the stairs. At
the top, Perrin paused to look back. He heard the murmurs of “Lady” and “Ogier”
down there, could feel all those eyes, but it seemed to him that he felt one
pair of eyes in particular, someone staring not at Moiraine and Loial, but at
him. He
picked her out immediately. For one thing, she stood apart from the others, and
for another she was the only woman in the room not wearing at least a little
lace. Her dark gray, almost black, dress was as plain as the ship captains’
clothes, with wide sleeves and narrow skirts, and never a frill or stitch of
fancy‑work. The dress was divided for riding, he saw when she moved, and
she wore soft boots that peeked out under the hem. She was young ‑ no
older than he was, perhaps ‑ and tall for a woman, with black hair to her
shoulders. A nose that just missed being too large and too bold, a generous
mouth, high cheekbones, and dark, slightly tilted eyes. He could not quite
decide whether she was beautiful or not. As
soon as he looked down, she turned to address one of the serving women and did
not glance at the stairs again, but he was sure he had been right. She had been
staring at him. CHAPTER 34 A Different Dance Furlan burbled
on as he showed them to their rooms, though Perrin did not really listen. He
was too busy wondering if the black-haired girl knew what yellow eyes meant. Burn me, she was looking at me. Then he heard the innkeeper say the words
“proclaiming the Dragon in Ghealdan,” and he thought his ears would go to sharp
points like Loial’s. Moiraine
stopped dead in the doorway to her room. “There is another false Dragon,
innkeeper? In Ghealdan?” The hood of her cloak still hid her face, but she
sounded shaken to her toes. Even listening for the man’s reply, Perrin could
not help staring at her; he smelled something close to fear. “Ah, Lady,
never you fear. ‘Tis a hundred leagues to Ghealdan, and none will trouble you
here, not with Master Andra about, and Lord Orban and Lord Gann. Why – ” “Answer her!”
Lan said harshly. “Is there a false Dragon in Ghealdan?” “Ah. Ah, no,
Master Andra, not precisely. I said there’s a man proclaiming the Dragon in
Ghealdan, so we heard a few days gone. Preaching his coming, you might say.
Talking about that fellow over in Tarabon we’ve heard about. Though some do say
‘tis Arad Doman, not Tarabon. A long way from here, in any case. Why, any other
day, I expect we’d talk more of that than anything else, except maybe the wild
tales about Hawkwing’s army
come back ‑ ” Lan’s cold eyes might as well have been knife blades from
the way Furlan swallowed and scrubbed his hands faster. “I only know what I
hear, Master Andra. ‘Tis said the fellow has a stare can pin you where you
stand, and he talks all sorts of rubbish about the Dragon coming to save us,
and we all have to follow, and even the beasts will fight for the Dragon. I
don’t know whether they’ve arrested him yet or not. ‘Tis likely; the Ghealdanin
would not put up long with that kind of talk.” Masema, Perrin thought wonderingly. It’s bloody Masema. “You are right,
innkeeper,” Lan said. “This fellow isn’t likely to trouble us here. I knew a
fellow once who liked to make wild speeches. You remember him, Lady Alys, don’t
you? Masema?” Moiraine gave a
start. “Masema. Yes. Of course. I had put him out of my mind.” Her voice
firmed. “When next I see Masema, he will wish someone had peeled his hide to
make boots.” She slammed the door behind her so hard that the crash echoed down
the hallway. “Keep a quiet!”
came a muffled shout from the far end. “My head is splitting!” “Ah.” Furlan
washed his hands in one direction., then rubbed them in the other. “Ah. Forgive
me, Master Andra, but Lady Alys is a fierce sounding woman.” “Only with
those who displease her,” Lan said blandly. “Her bite is far worse than her
bark.” “Ah. Ah. Ah.
Your rooms are this way. Ah, friend Ogier, when Master Andra told me you were
coming, I had an old Ogier bed brought from the attic where it has been
gathering dust these three hundred years or more. Why, ‘tis. . . .” Perrin let the
words wash over him, hearing them no more than a river rock hears the water.
The black‑haired young woman worried him. And the caged Aiel. Once in his own
room ‑ a small one in the back; Lan had done nothing to disabuse the
innkeeper of the notion that Perrin was a servant ‑ he moved
mechanically, still wrapped in thought. He unstrung his bow and propped it in
the corner ‑ keeping it strung too long ruined bow and string alike ‑
set down his blanketroll and saddlebags beside the washstand and threw his
cloak across them. He hung his belts with quiver and axe from pegs on the wall,
and nearly lay down on the bed before a jaw‑cracking yawn reminded him
how dangerous that might be. The bed was narrow, and the mattress appeared to
be all lumps; it looked more inviting than any bed he could remember. He sat on
the three‑legged stool, instead, and thought. Always he liked to think
things through. After a time,
Loial rapped on the door and put his head in. The Ogier’s ears practically
quivered with excitement, and his grin very nearly split his broad face in two.
“Perrin, you will not believe it! My bed is sung wood! Why, it must be well
over a thousand years old. No Treesinger has sung a piece so large in at least
that long. I myself would not care to try it, and I have the talent more
strongly than most, now. Well, to be truthful, there are not many of us with
the talent at all, anymore. But I am
among the best of those who can sing wood.” “That is very
interesting,” Perrin said. An Aiel in a
cage. That is what Min said. Why was that girl staring at me? “I thought it
was.” Loial sounded a little put out that he did not share the Ogier’s
excitement, but all Perrin wanted to do was think. “Supper is ready below,
Perrin. They have prepared their finest in case the Hunters want anything, but
we can have some.” “You go on,
Loial. I’m not hungry.” The smells of cooking meat floating up from the kitchen
did not interest him. He hardly noticed Loial going. Hands on his
knees, yawning now and again, he tried to work it out. It seemed like one of
those puzzles Master Luhhan made, the metal pieces appearing to be linked
inextricably. But there was always a trick to make the iron loops and whirls
come apart, and there had to be here, too. The girl had
been looking at him. His eyes might explain that, except that the innkeeper had
ignored them, and no one else had even noticed. They had an Ogier to look at,
and Hunters of the Horn in the house, and a Lady visiting, and an Aiel caged in
the square. Nothing as small as the color of a man’s eyes could seize their
attention; nothing about a servant could compete with the rest. So why did she pick me to stare at? And the Aiel in
the cage. What Min saw was always important. But how? What was he supposed to
do? I could have stopped those
children throwing rocks. I should have. It was no use telling himself the
adults would certainly have told him to go on about his business, that he was a
stranger in Remen and the Aiel was none of his concern. I should have tried. No answers came to him, so he went back to the beginning and
patiently worked through it once more, then again, and again. Still he found
nothing except regret for what he had not done. It came to him
after a time that night had finally fallen. The room was dark except for a
little moonlight through the lone window. He thought about the tallow candle
and the tinderbox he had seen on the mantel over the narrow fireplace, but
there was more than enough light for his eyes. I have to do something, don’t I? He buckled on his axe, then paused. He had done it without
thinking; wearing the thing had become as natural as breathing. He did not like
that. But he left the belt around his waist, and went out. Light from the
stairs made the hallway seem almost bright after his room. Talk and laughter
drifted up from the common room, and cooking smells from the kitchen. He strode
toward the front of the inn, to Moiraine’s room, knocked once, and went in.
And stopped, his face burning. Moiraine pulled
the pale blue robe that hung from her shoulders around herself. “You wish
something?” she asked coolly. She had a silver‑backed hairbrush in one
hand, and her dark hair, spilling down her neck in dark waves, glistened as if
she had been brushing it. Her room was far finer than his, with polished wooden
paneling on the walls and silver‑chased lamps and a warm fire on the wide
brick hearth. The air smelled of rose-scented soap. “I. . . . I
thought Lan was here,” he managed to get out. “You two always have your heads
together, and I thought he’d . . . . I thought. . . . ” “What do you
want, Perrin?” He took a deep
breath. “Is this Rand’s doing? I know Lan followed him here, and it all seems
odd ‑ the Hunters, and Aiel ‑ but did he do it?” “I do not think
so. I will know more when Lan tells me what he discovers tonight. With luck,
what he finds will help with the choice I must make.” “A choice?” “Rand could
have crossed the river and be on his way to Tear cross-country. Or he could
have taken ship downriver to Illian, meaning to board another there for Tear.
The journey is leagues longer that way, but days faster.” “I don’t think
we are going to catch him, Moiraine. I don’t know how he’s doing it, but even
afoot he is staying ahead of us. If Lan is right, he is still half a day
ahead.” “I could almost
suspect he had learned to Travel,” Moiraine said with a small frown, “except
that if he had, he would have gone straight to Tear. No, he has the blood of
long walkers and strong runners in him. But we may take the river anyway. If I
cannot catch him, I will be in Tear close behind him. Or waiting for him.” Perrin shifted
his feet uneasily; there was cold promise in her voice. “You told me once that
you could sense a Darkfriend, one who was far gone into the Shadow, at least.
Lan, too. Have you sensed anything like that here?” She gave a loud
sniff and turned back to a tall standing mirror with finely made silver‑work
set in the legs. Holding her robe closed with one hand, she ran the brush
through her hair with the other. “Very few humans are so far gone as that,
Perrin, even among the worst Darkfriends.” The brush halted in midstroke. “Why
do you ask?” “There was a
girl down in the common room staring at me. Not at you and Loial, like
everybody else. At me.” The brush
resumed motion, and a smile briefly touched Moiraine’s lips. “You sometimes
forget, Perrin, that you are a good‑looking young man. Some girls admire
a pair of shoulders.” He grunted and shuffled his feet. “Was there something
else, Perrin?” “Uh . . . no.”
She could not help with Min’s viewing, not beyond telling him what he already
knew, that it was important. And he did not want to tell her what Min had seen.
Or that Min had seen anything, for that matter. Back out in the
hall with the door closed, he leaned against the wall for a moment. Light, just walking in on her like that, and
her . . . . She was a pretty woman.
And likely old enough to be my mother, or
more. He thought Mat would probably have asked her down to the common room
to dance. No, he wouldn’t. Even Mat isn’t
fool enough to try charming an Aes Sedai. Moiraine did dance. He had danced
with her once himself. And nearly fallen over his own feet with every other
step. Stop thinking about her like a
village girl just because you saw. . . . She’s bloody Aes Sedai! You have that
Aiel to worry about. He gave himself a shake and went downstairs. The common room
was full as it could be, with every chair taken, and stools and benches brought
in, and those who had nowhere to sit standing along the walls. He did not see
the black‑haired girl, and no one else looked at him twice as he
hurriedly crossed the room. Orban occupied
a table to himself, his bandaged leg propped up on a chair with a cushion, with
a soft slipper on that foot, a silver goblet in his hand, the serving women
keeping it filled with wine. “Aye,” he was saying to the whole room, “we knew
the Aiel for fierce fighters, Gann and I, but there was no time to hesitate. I
drew my sword, and dug my heels into Lion’s ribs . . . .” Perrin gave a
start before he realized the man meant his horse was named Lion. Wouldn’t put it past him to say he was
riding a lion. He felt a little ashamed; just because he did not like the
man was no reason to suppose the Hunter would take his boasting that far. He
hurried on outside without looking back. The street in
front of the inn was as crowded as inside, with people who could not find a
place in the common room peering in through the windows, and twice as many
huddling around the doors to listen to Orban’s tale. No one glanced at Perrin
twice, though his passage brought muttered complaints from those jostled a
little further from the door. Everyone who
was out in the night must have been at the inn, for he saw no one as he walked
to the square. Sometimes the shadow of a person moved across a lighted window,
but that was all. He had the feel of being watched, though, and looked around
uneasily. Nothing but night‑cloaked streets dotted with glowing windows.
Around the square, most of the windows were dark except a few on upper floors. The gibbet
stood as he remembered, the man ‑ the Aiel ‑ still in the cage,
hanging higher than he could reach. The Aiel seemed to be awake ‑ at
least his head was up ‑ but he never looked down at Perrin. The stones
the children had been throwing were scattered beneath the cage. The cage hung
from a thick rope tied to a ring on one of the upper bars and running through a
heavy pulley on the crosspiece down to a pair of stubs, waist‑high from
the bottom of the upright on either side. The excess rope lay in a careless
tangle of coils at the foot of the gibbet. Perrin looked
around again, searching the dark square. He still had the feel of being
watched, but he still saw nothing. He listened, and heard nothing. He smelled
chimney smoke and cooking from the houses, and man‑sweat and old blood
from the man in the cage. There was no fear scent from him. His weight, and then there’s the cage, he
thought as he moved closer to the gibbet. He did not know when he had decided
to do this, or even if he really had decided, but he knew he was going to do
it. Hooking a leg
around the heavy upright, he heaved on the rope, hoisting the cage enough to
gain a little slack. The way the rope jerked told him the man in the cage had
finally moved, but he was in too much of a hurry to stop and tell him what he
was doing. The slack let him unwind the rope from around the stubs. Still
bracing himself with his leg around the upright, he quickly lowered the cage
hand over hand to the paving blocks. The Aiel was
looking at him now, studying him silently. Perrin said nothing. When he got a
good look at the cage, his mouth tightened. If a thing was made, even a thing
like this, it should be made well. The entire front of the cage was a door, on
rude hinges made by a hasty hand, held by a good iron lock on a chain as badly
wrought as the cage. He fumbled the chain around until he found the worst link,
then jammed the thick spike on his axe through it. A sharp twist of his wrist
forced the link open. In seconds he separated the chain, rattled it free, and
swung open the front of the cage. The Aiel sat
there, knees yet under his chin, staring at him. “Well?” Perrin
whispered hoarsely. “I opened it, but I’m not going to bloody carry you.” He
looked hastily around the night‑dark square. Still nothing moved, but he
still had the feel of eyes watching. “You are
strong, wetlander.” The Aiel did not move beyond working his shoulders. “It
took three men to hoist me up there. And now you bring me down. Why?” “I don’t like
seeing people in cages,” Perrin whispered. He wanted to go. The cage was open,
and those eyes were watching. But the Aiel was not moving. If you do a thing, do it right. “Will you
get out of there before somebody comes?” The Aiel
grasped the frontmost overhead bar of the cage, heaved himself out and to his
feet in one motion, then half hung there, supporting himself with his grip on
the bar. He would have been nearly a head taller than Perrin, standing
straight. He glanced at Perrin’s eyes ‑ Perrin knew how they must shine,
burnished gold in the moonlight ‑ but he did not mention them. “I have
been in there since yesterday, wetlander.” He sounded like Lan. Not that their
voices or accents were anything alike, but the Aiel had that same unruffled
coolness, that same calm sureness. “It will take a moment for my legs to work.
I am Gaul, of the Imran sept of the Shaarad Aiel, wetlander. I am Shae’en M’taal, a Stone Dog. My water is yours.” “Well, I am Perrin Aybara. Of the Two Rivers. I’m a
blacksmith.” The man was out of the cage; he could go now. Only, if anyone came
along before Gaul could walk, he would be right back into the cage unless they
killed him, and either way would waste Perrin’s work. “If I had thought, I’d
have brought a waterbottle, or a skin. Why do you call me ‘wetlander’?” Gaul gestured
toward the river; even Perrin’s eyes could not be sure in the moonlight, but he
thought the Aiel looked uneasy for the first time. “Three days ago, I watched a
girl sporting in a huge pool of water. It must have been twenty paces across.
She . . . pulled herself out into it.” He made an awkward swimming gesture with
one hand. “A brave girl. Crossing these . . . rivers . . . has nearly unmanned
me. I never thought there could be such a thing as too much water, but I never
thought there was so much water in the world as you wetlanders have.” Perrin shook
his head. He knew the Aiel Waste held little water ‑ it was one of the
few things he knew about the Waste or the Aiel ‑ but he had not thought
it could be scarce enough to cause this reaction. “You’re a long way from home,
Gaul. Why are you here?” “We search,”
Gaul said slowly. “We look for He Who Comes With the Dawn. Perrin had
heard that name before, under circumstances that made him sure who it meant. Light, it always comes back to Rand. I am
tied to him like a mean horse for shoeing. “You are looking in the wrong direction, Gaul. I’m looking for
him, too, and he is on his way to Tear.” “Tear?” The
Aiel sounded surprised. “Why . . . ? But it must be. Prophecy says when the
Stone of Tear falls, we will leave the Three‑fold Land at last.” That was
the Aiel name for the Waste. “It says we will be changed, and find again what
was ours, and was lost.” “That may be. I
don’t know your prophecies, Gaul. Are you about ready to leave? Somebody could
come any minute.” “It is too late
to run,” Gaul said, and a deep voice shouted, “The savage is lose!” Ten or a
dozen white‑cloaked men came running across the square, drawing swords,
their conical helmets shining in the moonlight. Children of the Light. As if he had
all the time in the world, Gaul calmly lifted a dark cloth from his shoulders
and wrapped it around his head, finishing with a thick black veil that hid his
face except for his eyes. “Do you like to dance, Perrin Aybara?” he asked. With
that, he darted away from the cage. Straight at the oncoming Whitecloaks. For an instant
they were caught by surprise, but an instant was apparently all the Aiel
needed. He kicked the sword out of the grip of the first to reach him, then his
stiffened hand struck like a dagger at the Whitecloak’s throat, and he slid
around the soldier as he fell. The next man’s arm made a loud snap as Gaul
broke it. He pushed that man under the feet of a third, and kicked a fourth in
the face. It war like a dance, from one to the next without stopping or
slowing, though the tripped fellow was climbing back to his feet, and the one
with the broken arm had shifted his sword. Gaul danced on in the midst of them. Perrin had only
an amazed moment himself, for not all the Whitecloaks had put their attentions
on the Aiel. Barely in time, he gripped the axe haft with both hands to block a
sword thrust, swung . . . and wanted to cry out as the half‑moon blade
tore the man’s throat. But he had no time for crying out, none for regrets;
more Whitecloaks followed before the first fell. He hated the gaping wounds the
axe made, hated the way it chopped through mail to rend flesh beneath, split
helmet and skull with almost equal ease. He hated it all. But he did not want
to die. Time seemed to
compress and stretch out, both at once. His body felt as if he fought for
hours, and breath rasped raw in his throat. Men seemed to move as though
floating through jelly. They seemed to leap in an instant from where they
started to where they fell. Sweat rolled down his face, yet he felt as cold as
quenching water. He fought for his life, and he could not have said whether it
lasted seconds or all night. When he finally
stood, panting and nearly stunned, looking at a dozen white‑cloaked men
lying on the paving blocks of the square, the moon appeared not to have moved
at all. Some of the men groaned; others lay silent and still. Gaul stood among
them, still veiled, still empty‑handed. Most of the men down were his
work. Perrin wished they all were, and felt ashamed. The smell of blood and
death was sharp and bitter. “You do not
dance the spears badly, Perrin Aybara.” Head spinning,
Perrin muttered, “I don’t see how twelve men fought twenty of you and won, even
if two of them are Hunters.” “Is that what
they say?” Gaul laughed softly. “Sarien and I were careless, being so long in
these soft lands, and the wind was from the wrong direction, so we smelled
nothing. We walked into them before we knew it. Well, Sarien is dead, and I was
caged like a fool, so perhaps we paid enough. It is time for running now,
wetlander. Tear; I will remember it.” At last he lowered the black veil. “May
you always find water and shade, Perrin Aybara.” Turning, he ran into the
night. Perrin started
to run, too, then realized he had a bloody axe in his hand Hastily he wiped the
curved blade on a dead man’s cloak. He’s
dead, burn me, and there’s blood on it already. He made himself put the
haft back through the loop on his belt before he broke into a trot. At his second
step he saw her, a slim shape at the edge of the square, in dark, narrow
skirts. She turned to run; he could see they were divided for riding. She darted
back into the street and vanished. Lan met him
before he reached the place where she had been standing. The Warder took in the
cage sitting empty beneath the gibbet, the shadowed white mounds that caught
the moonlight, and he tossed his head as if he were about to erupt. In a voice
as tight and hard as a new wheel rim, he said, “Is this your work, blacksmith?
The Light burn me! Is there anyone who can connect it to you?” “A girl,”
Perrin said. “I think she saw. I don’t want you to hurt her, Lan! Plenty of
others could have seen, too. There are lighted windows all around. “ The Warder grabbed Perrin’s coat sleeve and gave him a push toward the
inn. “I saw a girl running, but I thought . . . . No matter. You dig the Ogier
out and haul him down to the stable. After this, we need to get our horses to
the docks as quickly as possible. The Light alone knows if there is a ship
sailing tonight, or what I’ll have to pay to hire one if there isn’t. Don’t ask
questions, blacksmith! Do it! Run!” CHAPTER 35 The Falcon The Warder’s
long legs outdistanced Perrin’s, and by the time he pushed through the throng
outside the inn doors, Lan was already striding up the stairs, not seeming in
any particular hurry. Perrin made himself walk as slowly. From the doorway
behind him came grumbles about people pushing ahead of other people. “Again?” Orban
was saying, holding his silver cup up to be refilled. “Aye, very well. They lay
in ambush close beside the road we traveled, and an ambush I did not expect so
close to Remen. Screaming, they rushed upon us from the crowding brush. In a
breath they were in our midst, their spears stabbing, slaying two of my best
men and one of Gann’s immediately. Aye, I knew Aiel when I saw them, and . . .
.” Perrin hurried
up the stairs. Well, Orban knows them
now. Voices came
from behind Moiraine’s door. He did not want to hear what she had to say about
this. He hurried past to stick his head into Loial’s room. The Ogier bed
was a low, massive thing, twice as long and half as wide as any human bed
Perrin had ever seen. It took up much of the room, and that was as large and as
fine as Moiraine’s. Perrin vaguely remembered Loial saying something about it
being sung wood, and at any other time he might have stopped to admire those
flowing curves that made it seem as if the bed had somehow grown where it
stood. Ogier really must have stopped in Remen at some time in the past, for
the innkeeper had also found a wooden armchair that fit Loial, and filled it
with cushions. The Ogier was comfortably sitting on them in his shirt and
breeches, idly scratching a bare ankle with a toenail as he wrote in a large,
cloth‑bound book on an arm of the chair. “We’re
leaving!” Perrin said. Loial gave a
jump, nearly upsetting his ink bottle and almost dropping the book. “Leaving?
We only just arrived,” he rumbled. “Yes, leaving.
Meet us at the stable as quickly as you can. And don’t let anyone see you go. I
think there’s a back stair that runs down by the kitchen.” The smell of food at
his end of the hall had been too strong for there not to be. The Ogier gave
one regretful look at the bed, then started tugging on his high boots. “But
why?” “The
Whitecloaks,” Perrin said. “I’ll tell you more later.” He ducked back out
before Loial could ask any more. He had not
unpacked. Once he had belted on his quiver, slung his cloak around him, tossed
blanketroll and saddlebags on his shoulder, and picked up his bow, there was no
sign he had ever been there. Not a wrinkle in the folded blankets at the foot
of the bed, not a splash of water in the cracked basin on the washstand. Even
the tallow candle still had a fresh wick, he realized. I must have known I would not be staying. I
don’t seem to leave any mark behind me, of late. As he has
suspected, a narrow stair at the back led down to a hall that ran out past the
kitchen. He peered cautiously into the kitchen. A spit dog trotted in his big
wicker wheel, turning a long spit that held a haunch of lamb, a large piece of
beef, five chickens, and a goose. Fragrant steam rose from a soup cauldron
hanging from a sturdy crane over a second hearth. But there was not a cook to
be seen, nor any living soul except the dog. Thankful for Orban’s lies he
hurried on into the night. The stable was
a large structure of the same stone as the inn, though only the stone faces
around the big doors had been polished. A single lantern hanging from a
stallpost gave a dim light. Stepper and the other horses stood in stalls near
the doors; Loial’s big mount nearly filled his. The smell of hay and horses was
familiar and comforting. Perrin was the first to arrive. There was only
one stableman on duty, a narrow‑faced fellow in a dirty shirt, with lanky
gray hair, who demanded to know who Perrin was to order four horses saddled,
and who was his master, and what he was doing all bundled up to travel in the
middle of the night, and did Master Furlan know he was sneaking off like this,
and what did he have hidden in those saddlebags, and what was wrong with his
eyes, was he sick? A coin flipped
through the air from behind Perrin, glinting gold in the lantern light. The
stableman snagged it with one hand and bit it. “Saddle them,”
Lan said. His voice was soft, as cold iron is soft, and the stableman bobbed a
bow and scurried to make the horses ready. Moiraine and
Loial came into the stable just as they could take up their reins, and then
they were all leading their horses behind Lan, off down a street that ran
behind the stable toward the river. The soft clop of the horses’ hooves on the
paving blocks attracted only a slat‑ribbed dog that barked once and ran
away as they went by. “This brings
back memories, doesn’t it, Perrin?” Loial said, quietly for him. “Keep your
voice down,” Perrin whispered. “What memories?” “Why, it is
like old times.” The Ogier had managed to mute his voice; he sounded like a
bumblebee only the size of a dog instead of a horse. “Sneaking away in the
night, with enemies behind us, and maybe enemies ahead, and danger in the air,
and the cold tang of adventure.” Perrin frowned
at Loial over Stepper’s saddle. It was easy enough; his eyes cleared the
saddle, and Loial stood head and shoulders and chest above it on the other
side. “What are you talking about? I believe you are coming to like danger!
Loial, you must be crazy!” “I am only
fixing the mood in my head,” Loial said, sounding formal. Or perhaps defensive.
“For my book. I have to put it all in. I believe I am coming to like it.
Adventuring. Of course, I am.” His ears gave two violent twitches. “I have to
like it if I wish to write of it.” Perrin shook
his head. At the stone
wharves the barge‑like ferries lay snugged for the night, still and dark,
as did most of the ships. Lantern lights and people moved around on the dock
alongside a two‑masted vessel, though, and on the deck as well. The main
smells were tar and rope, with strong hints of fish, though something back in
the nearest warehouse gave off sharp, spicy aromas that the others nearly
submerged. Lan located the
captain, a short, slight man with an odd way of holding his head tilted to one
side while he listened. The bargaining was over soon enough, and booms and
sling rigged to hoist the horses aboard. Perrin kept a close eye on the horses,
talking to them; horses had little tolerance for the unusual, such as being
lifted into the air, but even the Warder’s stallion seemed soothed by his
murmurs. Lan gave gold
to the captain, and silver to two sailors who ran barefoot to a warehouse for
sacks of oats. More crewmen tethered the horses between the masts in a sort of
small pen made of rope, all the while muttering about the mess they would have
to clean. Perrin did nor think anyone was supposed to overhear, but his ears
caught the words. The men were just not used to horses. In short order
the Snow Goose was ready to sail,
only a little ahead of what the captain ‑ his name was Jaim Adarra ‑
had intended. Lan led Moiraine below as the lines were cast off, and Loial
followed yawning. Perrin stayed at the railing near the bow, though the Ogier’s
every yawn had summoned one of his own. He wondered if the Snow Goose could outrun wolves down the river, outrun dreams. Men
began readying the sweeps to push the vessel away from the wharf. As the last
line was tossed ashore and seized by a dockman, a girl in narrow, divided skirts
burst out of the shadows between two warehouses, a bundle in her arms and a
dark cloak streaming behind her. She leaped onto the deck just as the men at
the sweeps began pushing off. Adarra bustled
from his place by the tiller, but she calmly set down her bundle and said
briskly, “I will take passage downriver . . . oh . . . say, as far as he is
going.” She nodded toward Perrin without looking at him. “I’ve no objections to
sleeping on deck. Cold and wet do not bother me.” A few minutes
of bargaining followed. She passed over three silver marks, frowned at the
coppers she got back, then stuffed them into her purse and came forward to
stand beside Perrin. She had an
herbal scent to her, light and fresh and clean. Those dark, tilted eyes
regarded him over high cheekbones, then turned to look back toward shore. She
was about his own age, he decided; he could not decide if her nose fit her
face, or dominated it. You are a
fool, Perrin Aybara. Why care what the looks like? The gap to the
wharf was a good twenty paces, now; the sweeps dug in, cutting white furrows in
black water. For a moment he considered tossing her over the side. “Well,” she
said after a moment, “I never expected my travels to take me back to Illian so
soon as this.” Her voice was high, and she had a flat way of speaking, but it
was not unpleasant. “You are going to Illian, are you not?” He tightened his
mouth. “Don’t sulk,” she said. “You left quite a mess back there, you and that
Aielman between you. The uproar was just beginning when I left.” “You did not
tell them?” he said in surprise. “The townsfolk
think the Aielman chewed through the chain, or broke it with his bare hands.
They had not decided which when I left.” She made a sound suspiciously like a
giggle. “Orban was quite loud in his disgust that his wounds would keep him
from hunting down the Aielman personally. “ Perrin snorted.
“If he ever sees an Aiel again, he’ll bloody soil himself.” He cleared his
throat and muttered, “Sorry.” “I do not know
about that,” she said, as if his remark had been nothing out of the way. “I saw
him in Jehannah during the winter. He fought four men together, killed two and
made the other two yield. Of course, he started the fight, so that takes
something away from it, but they knew what they were doing. He did not pick a
fight with men who could not defend themselves. Still, he is a fool. He has
these peculiar ideas about the Great Blackwood. What some call the Forest of
Shadows. Have you ever heard of it?” He eyed her
sideways. She spoke of fighting and killing as calmly as another woman might
speak of baking. He had never heard of any Great Blackwood, but the Forest of
Shadows lay just south of the Two Rivers. “Are you following me? You were
staring at me, back at the inn. Why? And why didn’t you tell them what you
saw?” “An Ogier,” she
said, staring at the river, “is obviously an Ogier, and the others were not
much more difficult to figure out. I managed a much better look inside Lady
Alys’s hood than Orban did, and her face makes that stone‑faced fellow a
Warder. The Light burn me if I’d want that one angry with me. Does he always
look like that, or did he eat a rock for his last meal? Anyway, that left only
you. I do not like things I cannot account for.” Once again he
considered tossing her over the side. Seriously, this time, But Remen was now
only a blotch of light well behind them in the darkness, and no telling how far
it was to shore. She seemed to
take his silence as an urging to go on. “So there I have an” ‑ she looked
around, then dropped her voice, though the closest crewman was working a sweep
ten feet away ‑ “an Aes Sedai, a Warder, an Ogier ‑ and you. A
countryman, by first look at you.” Her tilted eyes rose to study his yellow
ones intently ‑ he refused to look away ‑ and she smiled. “Only you
free a caged Aielman, hold a long talk with him, then help him chop a dozen
Whitecloaks into sausage. I assume you do this regularly; you certainly looked
as if it were nothing out of the ordinary for you. I scent something strange in
a party of travelers such as yours, and strange trails are what Hunters look
for.” He blinked;
there was no mistaking that emphasis. “A Hunter? You? You cannot be a Hunter.
You’re a girl.” Her smile
became so innocent that he almost walked away from her. She stepped back, made
a flourish with each hand, and was holding two knives as neatly as old Thom
Merrilin could have done it. One of the men at the sweeps made a choking sound,
and two others stumbled; sweeps thrashed and tangled, and the Snow Goose lurched a little before the
captain’s shouts set things right. By that time, the black‑haired girl
had made the knives disappear again. “Nimble fingers
and nimble wits will take you a good deal further than a sword and muscles.
Sharp eyes help, as well, but fortunately, I have these things.” “And modesty,
as well,” Perrin murmured. She did not seem to notice. “I took the
oath and received the blessing in the Great Square of Tammaz, in Illian.
Perhaps I war the youngest, but in that crowd, with all the trumpets and drums
and cymbals and shouting . . . . A six‑yearold could have taken the
oath, and none would have noticed. There were over a thousand of us, perhaps
two, and every one with an idea of where to find the Horn of Valere. I have
mine ‑ it still may be the right one ‑ but no Hunter can afford to
pass up a strange trail. The Horn will certainly lie at the end of a strange
trail, and I have never seen one any stranger than the trail you four make.
Where are you bound? Illian? Somewhere else?” “What was your
idea?” he asked. “About where the Horn is?” Safe
in Tar Valon, I hope, and the Light send I never see it again. “You think
it’s in Ghealdan?” She frowned at
him ‑ he had the feeling she did not give up a scent once she had raised
it, but he was ready to offer her as many side trails as she would take ‑
then said, “Have you ever heard of Manetheren?” He nearly
choked. “I have heard of it,” he said cautiously. “Every queen of
Manetheren was an Aes Sedai, and the king the Warder bound to her. I can’t
imagine a place like that, but that is what the books say. It was a large land ‑
most of Andor and Ghealdan and more besides ‑ but the capital, the city
itself, was in the Mountains of Mist. That is where I think the Horn is. Unless
you four lead me to it.” His hackles
stirred. She was lecturing him as if he were an untaught village lout. “You’ll
not find the Horn or Manetheren. The city was destroyed during the Trolloc
Wars, when the last queen drew too much of the One Power to destroy the
Dreadlords who had killed her husband.” Moiraine had told him the names of that
king and queen, but he did not remember them. “Not in
Manetheren, farmboy,” she said calmly, “though a land such as that would make a
good hiding place. But there were other nations, other cities, in the Mountains
of Mist, so old that not even Aes Sedai remember them. And think of all those
stories about it being bad luck to enter the mountains. What better place for
the Horn to be hidden than in one of those forgotten cities.” “I have heard
stories of something being hidden in the mountains.” Would she believe him? He
had never been good at lying. “The stories did not say what, but it’s supposed
to be the greatest treasure in the world, so maybe it is the Horn. But the
Mountains of Mist stretch for hundreds of leagues. If you are going to find it,
you should not waste time following us. You’ll need it all to find the Horn
before Orban and Gann. “ “I told you,
those two have some strange idea the Horn is hidden in the Great Blackwood.”
She smiled up at him. Her mouth was not too big at all, when she smiled. “And I
told you a Hunter has to follow strange trails. You are lucky Orban and Gann
were injured fighting all those Aielmen, or they might well be aboard, too. At
least I will not get in your way, or try to take over, or pick a fight with the
Warder.” He growled
disgustedly. “We are just travelers on our way to Illian, girl. What is your
name? If I have to share this ship with you for days yet, I can’t keep calling
you girl.” “I call myself
Mandarb.” He could not stop the guffaw that burst out of him. Those tilted eyes
regarded him with heat. “I will teach you something, farmboy.” Her voice
remained level. Barely. “In the Old Tongue, Mandarb means ‘blade.’ It is a name
worthy of a Hunter of the Horn!” He managed to
get his laughter under control, and hardly wheezed at all as he pointed to the
rope pen between the masts. “You see that black stallion? His name is Mandarb.” The heat went
out of her eyes, and spots of color bloomed on her cheeks. “Oh. I was born
Zarine Bashere, but Zarine is no name for a Hunter. In the stories, Hunters
have names like Rogosh Eagle‑eye.” She looked so
crestfallen that he hastened to say, “I like the name Zarine. It suits you.”
The heat flashed back into her eyes, and for a moment he thought she was about
to produce one of her knives again. “It is late, Zarine. I want some sleep.” He turned his
back to start for the hatch that led belowdeck, prickles running across his
shoulders. Crewmen still padded up the deck and back, working the sweeps. Fool.
A girl would not stick a knife in
me. Not with all these people watching. Would she? Just as he reached the
hatch, she called to him. “Farmboy!
Perhaps I will call myself Faile. My father used to call me that, when I was
little. It means ‘falcon.’ ” He stiffened
and almost missed the first step of the ladder. Coincidence. He made himself go down without looking back toward
her. It has to be. The passageway was
dark, but enough moonlight filtered down behind him for him to make his way.
Someone was snoring loudly in one of the cabins. Min, why did you have to go seeing
things? CHAPTER 36 Daughter of the Night Realizing that
he had no way of knowing which cabin was supposed to be his, he put his head
into several. They were dark, and all of them had two men asleep in the narrow
beds built against each side, all but one, which held Loial, sitting on the
floor between the beds ‑ and barely fitting ‑ scribbling in his
cloth‑bound book of notes by the light of a gimballed lantern. The Ogier
wanted to talk about the events of the day, but Perrin, jaws creaking with the
effort of holding his yawns in, thought the ship must have run far enough
downriver by now to make it safe to sleep. Safe to dream. Even if they tried,
wolves could not long keep pace with the sweeps and the current. Finally he
found a windowless cabin with no one in it at all, which suited him just as
well. He wanted to be alone. A
coincidence in the name, that’s all, he thought as he lit the lantern
mounted on the wall. Anyway, her real name
is Zarine. But the girl with the high cheekbones and dark, tilted eyes was
not uppermost in his thoughts. He put his bow and other belongings on one
cramped bed, tossed his cloak over them, and sat on the other to tug off his
boots. Elyas Machera
had found a way to live with what he was, a man somehow linked with wolves, and
he had not gone mad. Thinking back, Perrin was sure Elyas had been living that
way for years before he ever met the man. He
wants to be that way. He accepts it, anyway. That was no solution. Perrin
did not want to live that way, did not want to accept. But if you have the bar stock
to make a knife, you accept it and make a knife, even if you’d like a woodaxe.
No! My life is more than iron to be hammered into shape. Cautiously, he
reached out with his mind, feeling for wolves, and found ‑ nothing. Oh,
there was a dim impression of wolves somewhere in the distance, but it faded
even as he touched it. For the first time in so long, he was alone. Blessedly
alone. Blowing out the lantern, he lay down, for
the first time in days. How in the Light
will Loial manage in one of there? Those all but sleepless nights rolled
over his, exhaustion slacking his muscles. It came to him that he had managed
to put the Aiel out of his head. And the Whitecloaks. Light forsaken axe! Burn me, I wish I had never seen it, was his
last thought before sleep. Thick gray fog
surrounded him, dense enough low down that he could not see his own boots, and
so heavy on every side that he could not make out anything ten paces away.
There was surely nothing nearer. Anything at all might lie within it. The mist
did not feel right; there was no dampness to it. He put a hand to his belt,
seeking the comfort of knowing he could defend himself, and gave a start. His
axe was not there. Something moved
in the fog, a swirling in the grayness. Something coming his way. He tensed,
wondering if it was better to run or stand and fight with his bare hands,
wondering if there was anything to fight. The billowing
furrow boring through the fog resolved itself into a wolf, its shaggy form
almost one with the heavy mist. Hopper? The wolf
hesitated, then came to stand beside him. It was Hopper - he was certain ‑
but something about the wolf’s stance, something in the yellow eyes that looked
up briefly to meet his, demanded silence, in mind as well as body. Those eyes
demanded that he follow, too. He laid a hand
on the wolfs back, and as he did, Hopper started forward. He let himself be
led. The fur under his hand was thick and shaggy. It felt real. The fog began
to thicken, until only his hand told him Hopper was still there, until a glance
down did not even show him his own chest. Just gray mist. He might as well have
been wrapped in new‑sheared wool for all he could see. It struck him that
he had heard nothing, either. Not even the sound of his own footsteps. He
wiggled his toes, and was relieved to feel the boots on his feet. The gray became
darker, and he and the wolf walked through pitchblackness. He could not see
his hand when he touched his nose. He could not see his nose, for that matter.
He tried closing his eyes for a moment, and could not tell any difference.
There was still no sound. His hand felt the rough hair of Hopper’s back, but he
was not sure he could feel anything under his boots. Suddenly Hopper
stopped, forcing him to halt, too. He looked around . . . and snapped his eyes
shut. He could tell a difference, now. And feel something, too, a queasy
twisting of his stomach. He made himself open his eyes and look down. What he saw could
not have been there, not unless he and Hopper were standing in midair. He could
see nothing of the wolf or himself, as if neither had bodies at all‑that
thought nearly tied his stomach into knots‑but below him, as clear as if
lit by a thousand lamps, stretched a vast array of mirrors, seemingly hanging
in blackness though as level as if they stood on a vast floor. They stretched
as far as he could see in every direction, but right beneath his feet, there
was a clear space. And people in it. Suddenly he could hear their voices as
well as if he had been standing among them. “Great Lord,”
one of the men muttered, “where is this place?” He looked around once,
flinching at his image cast back at him many thousandfold, and held his eyes
forward after that. The others huddled around him seemed even more afraid. “I
was asleep in Tar Valon, Great Lord. I am asleep in Tar Valon! Where is this
place? Have I gone mad?” Some of the men
around him wore ornate coats full of embroidery, others plainer garb, while
some seemed to be naked, or in their smallclothes. “I, too,
sleep,” a naked man nearly screamed. “In Tear. I remember lying down with my
wife!” “And I do sleep
in Illian,” a man in red and gold said, sounding shaken. “I know that I do
sleep, but that cannot be. I know that I do dream, but that does be impossible.
Where does this be, Great Lord? Are you really come to me?” The dark‑haired
man who faced them was garbed in black, with silver lace at his throat and
wrists. Now and again he put a hand to his chest, as if it hurt him. There was
light everywhere down there, coming from nowhere, but this man below Perrin
seemed cloaked in shadow. Darkness rolled around him, caressed him. “Silence!” The
black‑clothed man did not speak loudly, but he had no need to. For the
space of that word, he had raised his head; his eyes and mouth were holes
boring into a raging forge‑fire, all flame and fiery glow. Perrin knew
him, then. Ba’alzamon. He was staring down at Ba’alzamon himself. Fear struck
through him like hammered spikes. He would have run, but he could not feel his
feet. Hopper shifted.
He felt the thick fur under his hand and gripped it hard. Something real.
Something more real, he hoped, than what he saw. But he knew that both were
real. The men
huddling together cowered. “You have been
given tasks,” Ba’alzamon said. “Some of these tasks you have carried out. At
others, you have failed.” Now and again his eyes and mouth vanished in flame
again, and the mirrors flashed with reflected fire. “Those who have been marked
for death must die. Those who have been marked for taking must bow to me. To
fail the Great Lord of the Dark cannot be forgiven.” Fire shone through his
eyes, and the darkness around him roiled and spun. “You.” His finger pointed
out the man who had spoken of Tar Valon, a fellow dressed like a merchant, in
plainly cut clothes of the finest cloth. The others shied away from him as if
he had blackbile fever, leaving him to cower alone. “You allowed the boy to
escape Tar Valon.” The man
screamed, and began to quiver like a file struck against an anvil. He seemed to
become less solid, and his scream thinned with him. “You all
dream,” Ba’alzamon said, “but what happens in this dream is real.” The
shrieking man was only a bundle of mist shaped like a man, his scream far
distant, and then even the mist was gone. “I fear he will never wake.” He
laughed, and his mouth roared flame. “The rest of you will not fail me again.
Begone! Wake, and obey!” The other men vanished. For a moment
Ba’alzamon stood alone, then suddenly there was a woman with him, clad all in
white and silver. Shock hit
Perrin. He could never forget a woman so beautiful. She was the woman from his
dream, the one who had urged him to glory. An ornate
silver throne appeared behind her, and she sat, carefully arranging her silken
skirts. “You make free use of my domain,” she said. “Your domain?”
Ba’alzamon said. “You claim it yours, then? Do you no longer serve the Great
Lord of the Dark?” The darkness around him thickened for an instant, seemed to
boil. “I serve,” she
said quickly. “I have served the Lord of the Twilight long. Long did I lie
imprisoned for my service, in an endless, dreamless sleep. Only Gray Men and
Myrddraal are denied dreams. Even Trollocs can dream. Dreams were always mine,
to use and walk. Now I am free again, and I will use what is mine.” “What is
yours,” Ba’alzamon said. The blackness swirling ‘round him seemed mirthful.
“You always thought yourself greater than you were, Lanfear. “ The name cut at
Perrin like a newly honed knife. One of the Forsaken had been in his dreams.
Moiraine had been right. Some of them were free. The woman in
white was on her feet, the throne gone. “I am as great as I am. What have your
plans come to? Three thousand years and more of whispering in ears and pulling
the strings of throned puppets like an Aes Sedai!” Her voice invested the name
with all scorn. “Three thousand years, and yet Lews Therin walks the world
again, and these Aes Sedai all but have him leashed. Can you control him? Can
you turn him? He was mine before ever that straw‑haired chit Ilyena saw
him! He will be mine again!” “Do you serve
yourself now, Lanfear?” Ba’alzamon’s voice was soft, but flame raged
continuously in his eyes and mouth. “Have you abandoned your oaths to the Great
Lord of the Dark?” For an instant the darkness nearly obliterated him, only the
glowing fires showing through. “They are not so easily broken as the oaths to
the Light you forsook, proclaiming your new master in the very Hall of the
Servants. Your master claims you forever, Lanfear. Will you serve, or do you
choose an eternity of pain, of endless dying without release?” “I serve.”
Despite her words, she stood tall and defiant. “I serve the Great Lord of the
Dark and none other. Forever!” The vast array
of mirror began to vanish as if black waves rolled in over it, ever closer to
the center. The tide rolled over Ba’alzamon and Lanfear. There was only
blackness. Perrin felt
Hopper move, and he was more than glad to follow, guided’ only by the feel of
fur under his head. It was not until he was moving that he realized he could.
He tried to puzzle out what he had seen, without any success. Ba’alzamon and
Lanfear. His tongue stuck to the roof of his mouth. For some reason, Lanfear
frightened him more than Ba’alzamon did. Perhaps because she had been in his
dreams in the mountains. Light! One of
the Forsaken in my dreams! Light! And unless he had missed something, she
had defied the Dark One. He had been told and taught that the Shadow could have
no power over you if you denied it; but how could a Darkfriend ‑ not just
a Darkfriend; one of the Forsaken! ‑ defy the Shadow? I must be mad, like Simion’s brother. These
dreams have driven me mad! Slowly the
blackness became fog again, and the fog gradually thinned until he walked out
of it with Hopper onto a grassy hillside bright with daylight. Birds began to
sing from a thicket at the foot of the hill. He looked back. A hilly plain
dotted with clumps of trees stretched to the horizon. There was no sign of fog
anywhere. The big, grizzled wolf stood watching him. “What was
that?” he demanded, struggling in his mind to turn the question to thoughts the
wolf could understand. “Why did you show it to me? What was it?” Emotions and
images flooded his thoughts, and his mind put words to them. What you must see. Be careful, Young Bull.
This place is dangerous. Be wary as a cub hunting porcupine. That came as
something closer to Small Thorny Back, but his mind named the animal the way he
knew it as a man. You are too young, too
new. “Was it real?” All is real, what is seen, and what is not
seen. That seemed to be all the answer Hopper was going to give. “Hopper, how
are you here? I saw you die. I felt you die!” All are here. All brothers and sisters that
are, all that were, all that will be. Perrin knew that wolves did not
smile, not the way humans did, but for an instant he had the impression that
Hopper was grinning. Here, I soar like
the eagle. The wolf gathered himself and leaped, up into the air. Up and up
it carried him, until he dwindled to a speck in the sky, and a last thought
came. To soar. Perrin stared
after him with his mouth hanging open. He
did it. His eyes burned suddenly, and he cleared his throat and scrubbed at
his nose. I will be crying like a
girl, next. Without thinking, he looked around to see if anyone had seen
him, and that quickly everything changed. He was standing
on a rise, with shadowy, indistinct dips and swells all around him. They seemed
to fade into the distance too soon. Rand stood below him. Rand, and a ragged circle
of Myrddraal and men and women his eyes seemed to slide right past. Dogs howled
somewhere in the distance, and Perrin knew they were hunting something.
Myrddraal scent and the stink of burned sulphur filled the air. Perrin’s
hackles rose. The circle of Myrddraal and people came closer to Rand, all
walking as if asleep. And Rand began to kill them. Balls of fire flew from his
hands and consumed two. Lightning flashed from above to shrivel others. Bars of
light like white‑hot steel flew from his fists to more. And the survivors
continued to walk slowly closer, as if none of them saw what was happening. One
by one they died, until none were left, and Rand sank down on his knees,
panting. Perrin was not sure whether he was laughing or crying; it seemed to be
some of each. Shapes appeared
over the rises, more people coming, more Myrddraal, all intent on Rand. Perrin cupped
his hands to his mouth. “Rand! Rand, there are More coming!” Rand looked up
at him from his crouch, snarling, sweat slicking his face. “Rand, they’re ‑
!” “Burn you!”
Rand howled. Light burned
Perrin’s eyes, and pain seared everything. Groaning, he
rolled into a ball on the narrow bed, the light still burning behind his
eyelids. His chest hurt. He raised a hand to it and winced when he felt a burn
under his shirt, a spot no bigger than a silver penny. Bit by bit he
forced his knotted muscles to let him straighten his legs and lie flat in the
dark cabin. Moiraine. I have to tell
Moiraine this time. Just have to wait till the pain goes away. But as the pain
began to fade, exhaustion took him. He barely had a thought that he must get up
before sleep pulled him down again. When he opened
his eyes again, he lay staring at the beams overhead. Light at the top and
bottom of the door told him morning had come. He put a hand to his chest to
convince himself he had imagined it, imagined it so well that he had actually
felt a burn . . . . His fingers
found the burn. I didn’t imagine
it, then. He had dim memories of a few other dreams, fading even as he
recalled them. Ordinary dreams. He even felt as if he had had a good night’s
sleep. And could use another one right
now. But it meant he could sleep. As
long as there are no wolves around, anyway. He remembered
making a decision in that brief waking after the dream with Hopper, and after a
moment he decided it had been a good one. It took
knocking on five doors and being cursed at twice ‑ the inhabitants of
two cabins had gone on deck ‑ before he found Moiraine. She was fully
dressed, but sitting on one of the narrow beds cross‑legged, reading in
her book of notes by lantern light. Back near the beginning, he saw, notes that
must have been made even before she had come to Emond’s Field. Lan’s things
were neatly placed on the other bed. “I had a
dream,” he told her, and proceeded to tell her of it. All of it. He even pulled
up his shirt to show her the small circle on his chest, red, with wavy red
lines radiating from it. He had kept things from her before, and he suspected
he would again, but this might be too important to hold back. The pin was the
smallest part of a pair of scissors, and the easiest made, but without it, the
scissors cut no cloth. When he was done, he stood there waiting. She had watched
him without expression, except that those dark eyes had examined every word as
it came out of his mouth, weighed it, measured it, held it up to the light. Now
she sat the same way, only it was he who was examined, weighed, and held up to
the light. “Well, is it
important?” he demanded finally. “I think it was one of those wolf dreams you
told me about ‑ I’m sure it was; it must have been! ‑ but that
doesn’t make what I saw real. Only, you said maybe some of the Forsaken are
free, and he called her Lanfear, and . . . . Is it important, or am I standing
here making a fool out of myself” “There are
women,” she said slowly, “who would do their best to gentle you if they heard
what I just did.” His lungs seemed to freeze; he could not breathe. “I am not
accusing you of being able to channel,” she went on, and the ice inside him
melted, “or even of being able to learn. An attempt at gentling would not harm
you, beyond the rough treatment the Red Ajah would give you before they
realized their error. Such men are so rare, even the Reds with all their
hunting have not found more than three in the last ten years. Before the
outbreak of false Dragons, at least. What I am trying to make clear to you is
that I do not think you will suddenly begin wielding the Power. You do not have
to be afraid of that.” “Well, thank
you very much for that,” he said bitterly. “You did not have to scare me to
death just so you could tell me there was no need to be frightened!” “Oh, you do
have reason to be frightened. Or at least careful, as the wolf suggested. Red
sisters, or others, might kill you before they discovered there was nothing to
gentle in you.” “Light! Light
burn me!” He stared at her with a frown. “You’re trying to lead me around by
the nose, Moiraine, but I am no calf, and there’s no ring in my nose. The Red
Ajah or any other would not think of gentling unless there was something real
in what I dreamed. Does it mean the Forsaken are loose?” “I told you
before that they might be. Some of them. Your . . . dreams are nothing I
expected, Perrin. Dreamers have written of wolves, but I did not expect this.” “Well, I think
it was real. I think I saw something that really happened, something I wasn’t
supposed to see.” What you must see. “I think Lanfear is loose at the very
least. What are you going to do?” “I am going to
Illian. And then I will go to Tear, and hope to reach it before Rand. We had
need to leave Remen too quickly for Lan to learn whether he crossed the river
or went down it. We should know before we reach Illian, though. We will find
sign if he has gone this way.” She glanced at her book as if she wanted to
resume her reading. “Is that all
you are going to do? With Lanfear loose, and the Light alone knows how many of
the others?” “Do not
question me,” she said coldly. “You do not know which questions to ask, and you
would comprehend less than half the answers if I gave them. Which I will not.” He shifted his
feet under her gaze until it became clear she would say no more on the matter.
His shirt rubbed painfully at the burn on his chest. It did not seem a bad hurt
‑ Not for being .struck by lightning it doesn’t! ‑ but how
he had come by it was another matter. “Uh. . . . Will you Heal this?” “Are you no
longer uneasy about the One Power being used on you, then, Perrin? No, I will
not Heal it. It is not serious, and it will remind you of the need to be
careful.” Careful about pressing her, he knew, as well as about dreams or
letting others know of them. “If there is nothing else, Perrin?” He started for
the door, then stopped. “There is one thing. If you knew a woman’s name was
Zarine, would you think it meant anything about her?” “Why under the
Light do you ask this question?” “A girl,” he
said awkwardly. “A young woman. I met her last night. She’s one of the other
passengers.” He would let her discover for herself that Zarine knew she was Aes
Sedai. And seemed to think following them would lead her to the Horn of Valere.
He would not keep back anything he thought was important, but if Moiraine could
be secretive, so could he. “Zarine. It is
a Saldaean name. No woman would name her daughter that unless she expected her
to be a great beauty. And a heartbreaker. One to lie on cushions in palaces,
surrounded by servants and suitors.” She smiled, briefly but with great
amusement. “Perhaps you have another reason to be careful, Perrin, if there is
a Zarine as a passenger with us.” “I intend to be
careful,” he told her. At least he knew why Zarine did not like her name.
Hardly fitting for a Hunter of the Horn. As long as she doesn’t call herself ‘falcon’.” When he went on
deck, Lan was there, looking over Mandarb. And Zarine was sitting on a coil of
rope near the railing, sharpening one of her knives and watching him. The big,
triangular sails were set and taut, and the Snow Goose flew downriver. Zarine’s eyes
followed Perrin as he walked by her to stand in the bow. The water curled to
either side of the prow like earth turning around a good plow. He wondered
about dreams and Aielmen, Min’s viewings and falcons. His chest hurt. Life had
never been as tangled as this. Rand sat up out
of his exhausted sleep, gasping, the cloak he had used as a blanket falling
away. His side ached, the old wound from Falme throbbing. His fire had burned
down to coals with only a few wavering flames, but it was still enough to make
the shadows move. That was Perrin.
It was! It was him, not a dream.
Somehow. I almost killed him! Light, I have to be careful! Shivering, he
picked up a length of oak branch and started to shove it into the coals. The
trees were scattered in these Murandian hills, still close to the Manetherendrelle,
but he had found just enough fallen branches for his fire, the wood just old
enough to be properly cured but not rotten. Before the wood touched the coals,
he stopped. There were horses coming, ten or a dozen of them, walking slowly. I
have to be careful. I cannot make
another mistake. The horses swung toward his failing fire, entered the dim
light, and stopped. The shadows obscured their riders, but most seemed to be
rough-faced men wearing round helmets and long leather jerkins sewn all over
with metal discs like fish scales. One was a woman with graying hair and a no‑nonsense
look on her face. Her dark dress was plain wool, but the finest weave, and
adorned with a silver pin in the shape of a lion. A merchant, she seemed to
him; he had seen her sort among those who came to buy tabac and wool in the Two
Rivers. A merchant and her guards. I have to be careful, he thought as he
stood. No mistakes. “You have chosen a good campsite, young man,” she said. “I
have often used it on my way to Remen. There is a small spring nearby. I trust
you have no objection to my sharing it?” Her guards were already dismounting,
hitching at their sword belts and loosening saddle girths. “None,” Rand
told her. Careful. Two steps brought him close enough,
and he leaped into the air, spinning ‑ Thistledown Floats on the
Whirlwind ‑ heron‑mark blade carved from fire coming into his hands
to take her head off before surprise could even form on her face. She was the most dangerous. He alighted as
the woman’s head rolled from the crupper of her horse. The guards yelled and
clawed for their swords, screamed as they realized his blade burned. He danced
among them in the forms Lan had taught him, and knew he could have killed all
ten with ordinary steel, but the blade he wielded was part of him. The last man
fell, and it had been so like practicing the forms that he had already begun
the sheathing called Folding the Fan before he remembered he wore no scabbard
and this blade would have turned it to ash at a touch if he had. Letting the
sword vanish, he turned to examine the horses. Most had run away, but some not
far, and the woman’s tall gelding stood with rolling eyes, whickering uneasily.
Her headless corpse, lying on the ground, had maintained its grip on the reins,
and held the animal’s head down. Rand pulled
them free, pausing only to gather his few belongings before swinging into the
saddle. I have to be careful, he
thought as he looked over the dead. No mistakes. The Power still
filled him, the flow from saidin sweeter
than honey, ranker than rotted meat. Abruptly he channeled ‑ not really
understanding what it was he did, or how, only that it seemed right; and it
worked, lifting the corpses. He set them in a line, facing him, kneeling, faces
in the dirt. For those who had faces left. Kneeling to him. “If I am the Dragon Reborn,” he told them,
“that is the way it is supposed to be, isn’t it?” Letting go of saidin was hard, but he did it. If I hold it too much, how will I keep the
madness away? He laughed bitterly. Or
is it too late for that? Frowning, he
peered at the line. He had been sure there were only ten men, but eleven men
knelt in that line, one of them without armor of any sort but with a dagger
still gripped in his hand. “You chose the
wrong company,” Rand told that man. Wheeling the
gelding, he dug in his heels and set the animal to a dead gallop into the
night. It was a long way to Tear, yet, but he meant to get there by the
straightest way, if he had to kill horses or steal them. I will put an end to it. The taunting. The
baiting. I will end it! Callandor. It called to him. CHAPTER 37 Fires in Cairhien Egwene returned a graceful nod to the respectful bow of the ship’s
crewman who padded past her, barefoot, on his way to pull a rope that already
seemed taut, possibly shifting a trifle the way one of the big square sails
set. As he trotted back toward where the round-faced captain stood by the
tillerman, he bowed again, and she nodded once more before returning her
attentions to the forested Cairhien shore, separated from the Blue Crane by less than twenty spans of
water. A village was sliding past, or what had been a village once. Half the
houses were only smoldering piles of rubble with chimneys sticking starkly out
of the ruins. On the other houses, doors swung with the wind, and pieces of
furniture, bits of clothing and houseware littered the dirt street, tumbled
about as if thrown. Nothing living moved in the village except for one half‑starved
dog that ignored the passing ship as it trotted out of sight behind the toppled
walls of what appeared to have been an inn. She could never see such a sight
without a queasiness settling in her belly, but she tried to maintain the
dispassionate serenity she thought an Aes Sedai might have. It did not help
much. Beyond the village, a thick plume of smoke was rising into the sky. Three
or four miles off, she estimated. This was not the first such plume of smoke she
had seen since the Erinin began to flow along the border of Cairhien, nor the
first such village. At least this time there were no bodies in sight. Captain
Ellisor sometimes had to sail close to the Cairhienin shore because of mudflats
‑ he said they shifted in this part of the river ‑ but however
close he came, she had not seen a single living person. The village and the smoke plume slipped away behind the ship, but already
another column of smoke was coming into view ahead, further from the river. The
forest was thinning, ash and leatherleaf and black elder giving way to willow and
whitewood and wateroak, and some she did not recognize. The wind caught her cloak, but she let it stream, feeling the cold
cleanness of the air, feeling the freedom of wearing brown instead of any sort
of white, though it had not been her first choice. Yet dress and cloak were of
the best wool, well cut and well sewn. Another sailor trotted by, bowing as he went. She vowed to learn at least
some of what it was they were doing; she did not like feeling ignorant. Wearing
her Great Serpent ring on her right hand made for a good deal of bowing with a
captain and crew born mainly in Tar Valon. She had won that argument with Nynaeve, though Nynaeve had been sure she
herself was the only one of the three of them old enough for people to believe
she was Aes Sedai. But Nynaeve had been wrong. Egwene was ready to admit that
both she and Elayne had received startled looks on boarding the Blue Crane that afternoon at
Southharbor, and Captain Ellisor’s eyebows had climbed almost to where his hair
would have begun had he had any, but he had been all smiles and bows. “An honor, Aes Sedai. Three Aes Sedai to travel on my vessel? An honor
indeed. I promise you a quick journey as far as you wish. And no trouble with
Cairhienin brigands. I no longer put in on that side of the river. Unless you
wish it, of course, Aes Sedai. Andoran soldiers do hold a few towns on the
Cairhienin side. An honor, Aes Sedai.” His eyebrows had shot up again when they asked for just one cabin among
them‑not even Nynaeve wanted to be alone at night if she did not have to
be. Each could have a cabin to herself at no extra charge, he told them; he had
no other passengers, his cargo was aboard, and if Aes Sedai had urgent business
downriver, he would not wait even an hour for anyone else who might want passage.
They said again that one cabin would be sufficient. He was startled, and it had been plain from his face that he did not
understand, but Chin Ellisor, born and bred in Tar Valon, was not one to
question Aes Sedai once they made their intentions clear. If two of them seemed
very young, well, some Aes Sedai were young. The abandoned ruins vanished behind Egwene. The column of smoke drew
closer, and there was a hint of another much further still from the riverbank.
The forest was turning to low, grassy hills dotted with thickets. Trees that
made flowers in the spring had them, tiny white blossoms on snowberry and
bright red sugarberry. One tree she did not know was covered in round white
flowers bigger than her two hands together. Occasionally a climbing wildrose
put swaths of yellow or white through branches thick with the green of leaves
and the red of new growth. It was all too sharp a contrast to the ashes and
rubble to be entirely pleasant. Egwene wished she had an Aes Sedai to question herself right then. One
she could trust. Brushing her pouch with her fingers, she could barely feel the
twisted stone ring of the ter’angreal inside. She had tried it every night but two since leaving Tar Valon, and it had
not worked the same way twice. Oh, she always found herself in Tel’aran’rhiod, but the only thing she
saw that might have been any use was the Heart of the Stone again, each time
without Silvie to tell her things. There was certainly nothing about the Black
Ajah. Her own dreams, without the ter’angreal,
had been filled with images that seemed almost like glimpses of the Unseen
World. Rand holding a sword that blazed like the sun, till she could hardly see
that it was a sword, could hardly make out that it was him at all. Rand
threatened in a dozen ways, none of them the least bit real. In one dream he
had been on a huge stones board, the black and white stones as big as boulders,
and him dodging the monstrous hands that moved them and seemed to try to crush
him under them. It could have meant something. It very probably did, but beyond
the fact that Rand was in danger from someone, or two someones ‑ she
thought that much was clear ‑ beyond that, she simply did not know. I cannot help him, now. I have my own duty. I
don’t even know where he is, except that it is probably five hundred leagues
from here. She had dreamed of Perrin with a wolf, and with a falcon, and a hawk ‑
and the falcon and the hawk fighting ‑ of Perrin running from someone
deadly, and Perrin stepping willingly over the edge of a towering cliff while
saying, “It must be done. I must learn to fly before I reach the bottom.” There
had been one dream of an Aiel, and she thought that had to do with Perrin, too,
but she was not sure. And a dream of Min, springing a steel trap but somehow
walking through it without so much as seeing it. There had been dreams of Mat, too. Of Mat with dice
spinning ‘round him ‑ she felt she knew where that one came from ‑
of Mat being followed by a man who was not there ‑ she still did not
understand that; there was a man following, or maybe more than one, but in some
way there was no one there ‑ of Mat riding desperately toward something
unseen in the distance that he had to reach, and Mat with a woman who seemed to
be tossing fireworks about. An Illuminator, she assumed, but that made no more
sense than anything else. She had had so many dreams that she was beginning to doubt them all.
Maybe it had to do with using the ter’angreal
so often, or maybe with just carrying it. Maybe she was finally learning
what a Dreamer did. Frantic dreams, hectic dreams. Men and women breaking out
of a cage, then putting on crowns. A woman playing with puppets, and another
dream where the strings on puppets led to the hands of larger puppets, and
their strings led to still greater puppets, on and on until the last strings
vanished into unimaginable heights. Kings dying, queens weeping, battles
raging. Whitecloaks ravaging the Two Rivers. She had even dreamed of the
Seanchan again. More than once. Those she shut away in a dark corner; she would
not let herself think of them. Her mother and father, every night. She was certain what that meant, at least, or thought she was. It means I’m off hunting the Black Ajah, and
I do not know what my dreams mean or how to make the fool ter’angreal do what it should, and I’m frightened, and .
. . . And homesick. For an instant she thought how good it would be to have
her mother send her up to bed knowing everything would be better in the
morning. Only mother can’t solve my
problems for me anymore, and father can’t promise to chase away monsters and
make me believe it. I have to do it myself now. How far in the past all that was, now. She did not want it back, not
really, but it had been a warm time, and it seemed so long ago. It would be
wonderful just to see them again, to hear their voices. When I wear this ring on the finger I choose by right. She had finally let Nynaeve and Elayne each try sleeping one night with
the stone ring ‑ surprised at how reluctant she had been to let it out of
her own hands ‑ and they had awakened to speak of what was surely Tel’aran’rhiod, but neither had seen
more than a glimpse of the Heart of the Stone, nothing that was of any use. The thick column of smoke now lay abreast of the Blue Crane. Perhaps five or six miles from the river, she thought.
The other was only a smudge on the horizon. It could almost have been a cloud,
but she was sure it was not. Small thickets grew tight along the riverbank in
some places, and between them the grass came right down to the water except
where an undercut bank had fallen in. Elayne came on deck and joined her at the rail, the wind whipping her
dark cloak as well. She wore sturdy wool, too. That had been one argument
Nynaeve won. Their clothes. Egwene had maintained that Aes Sedai always wore
the best, even when they traveled ‑ she had been thinking of the silks
she wore in Tel’aran’rhiod ‑ but Nynaeve pointed out that even
with as much gold as the Amyrlin had left in the back of her wardrobe, and it
was a fat purse, they still had no idea how much things would cost downriver.
The servants said Mat had been right about the civil war in Cairhien, and what
it had done to prices. To Egwene’s surprise, Elayne had pointed out that Brown
sisters wore wool more often than silk. Elayne had been so eager to be away
from the kitchen, Egwene thought, she would have worn rags. I wonder how Mat is doing? No doubt
trying to dice with the captain for whatever ship he’s raveling on. “Terrible,” Elayne murmured. “It is so terrible.” “What is?” Egwene said absently. I hope he isn’t showing that paper we gave him around too freely. Elayne gave her a startled look, and then a frown. “That!” She gestured
toward the distant smoke. “How can you ignore it?” “I can ignore it because I do not want to think of what the people are
going through, because I cannot do anything about it, and because we have to
reach Tear. Because what we’re hunting is in Tear.” She was surprised at her
own vehemence. I can’t do anything
about it. And the Black Ajah is in Tear The more she thought of it, the more certain she became that they would
have to find a way into the Heart of the Stone. Perhaps no one but the High
Lords of Tear were allowed into it, but she was becoming convinced that the key
to springing the Black Ajah’s trap and thwarting them lay in the Heart of the
Stone. “I know all of that, Egwene, but it does not stop me feeling for the
Cairhienin.” “I have heard lectures about the wars Andor fought with Cairhien,” Egwene
said dryly. “Bennae Sedai says you and Cairhien have fought more often than any
two nations except Tear and Illian.” The other woman gave her a sidelong look. Elayne had never gotten used to
Egwene’s refusal to admit she was Andoran herself. At least, lines on maps said
the Two Rivers was part of Andor, and Elayne believed the maps. “We have fought wars against them, Egwene, but since the damage they
suffered in the Aiel War, Andor has sold them nearly as much grain as Tear has.
The trade has stopped, now. With every Cairhienin House fighting every other
for the Sun Throne, who would buy the grain, or see it distributed to the
people? If the fighting is as bad as what we’ve seen on the banks . . . . Well.
You cannot feed a people for twenty years and feel nothing for them when they
must be starving.” “A Gray Man,” Egwene said, and Elayne jumped, trying to look in every
direction at once. The glow of saidar surrounded
her. “Where?” Egwene took a slower look around the decks, but to make sure no one was
close enough to overhear. Captain Ellisor still stood in the stern, by the
shirtless man holding the long tiller. Another sailor was up in the very bow,
scanning the waters ahead for signs of submerged mudbanks, and two more padded
about the deck, now and again adjusting a rope to the sails. The rest of the
crew were all below. One of the pair stopped to check the lashings on the
rowboat tied upside down on the deck; she waited for him to go on before
speaking. “Fool!” she muttered softly. “Me, Elayne, not you, so don’t glower at me
like that.” She continued in a whisper. “A Gray Man is after Mat, Elayne. That
must be what that dream meant, but I never saw it. I am a fool!” The glow around Elayne vanished. “Do not be so hard on yourself,” she
whispered back. “Perhaps it does mean that, but I did not see it, and neither did
Nynaeve. “ She paused; red‑gold curls swung as she shook her head. “But
it doesn’t make sense, Egwene. Why would a Gray Man be after Mat? There is
nothing in my letter to my mother that could harm us in the slightest.” “I do not know why.” Egwene frowned. “There has to be a reason. I am sure
that is what that dream means.” “Even if you are right, Egwene, there is nothing you can do about it.” “I know that,” Egwene said bitterly. She did not even know whether he was
ahead of them or behind. Ahead, she suspected; Mat would have left without any
delay. “Either way,” she muttered to herself, “it does no good. I finally know
what one of my dreams means, and it doesn’t help a hemstitch worth!” ”But if you know one meaning,” Elayne told her, “perhaps now you will
know others. If we sit down and talk them over, perhaps – ” The Blue Crane gave a
shuddering lurch, throwing Elayne to the deck and Egwene on top of her. When
Egwene struggled to her feet, the shoreline no longer slid by. The vessel had
halted, with the bow raised and the deck canted to one side. The sails flapped
noisily in the wind. Chin Ellisor pushed himself to his feet and ran for the bow, leaving the
tillerman to rise on his own. “You blind worm of a farmer!” he roared toward
the man in the bow, who was clinging to the rail to keep from falling the rest
of the way over. “You dirt‑grubbing get of a goat! Haven’t you been on
the river long enough yet to recognize how the water ruffles over a mudflat?”
He seized the man on the rail by the shoulders and pulled him back onto the
deck, but only to shove him out of the way so he could peer down over the bow
himself. “If you’ve put a hole in my hull, I will use your guts for caulking!” The other crewmen were clambering to their feet, now, and more came
scrambling up from below. They all ran to cluster around the captain. Nynaeve appeared at the head of the ladder that led down to the passenger
cabins, still straightening her skirts. With a sharp tug at her braid, she
frowned at the knot of men in the bow, then strode to Egwene and Elayne. “He
ran us onto something, did he? After all his talk of knowing the river as well
as he knows his wife. The woman probably never receives as much as a smile from
him.” She jerked the thick braid again and went forward, pushing her way
through the sailors to reach the captain. They were all intent on the water
below. There was no point in joining her. He
will have us off faster if he’s left to it. Nynaeve was probably telling
him how to do the work. Elayne seemed to feel the same way, from the rueful
shake of head she gave as she watched the captain and crewmen all turn their
attention respectfully from whatever was under the bow to Nynaeve. A ripple of agitation ran through the men, and grew stronger. For a
moment the captain’s hands could be seen, waving in protest over the other
men’s heads, and then Nynaeve was striding away from them - they made way,
bowing now ‑ with Ellisor hurrying beside her and mopping his round face
with a large red handkerchief. His anxious voice became audible as they drew
near. “. . . a good fifteen miles to the next village on the Andor side, Aes
Sedai, and at least five or six miles downriver on the Cairhien side! Andoran
soldiers hold it, it is true, but they do not hold the miles from here to there!”
He wiped at his face as if he were dripping sweat. “A sunken ship,” Nynaeve told the other two women. “The work of river
brigands, the captain thinks. He means to try backing off it with the sweeps,
but he does not seem to think that will work.” “We were running fast when we hit, Aes Sedai. I wanted to make good speed
for you.” Ellisor rubbed even harder at his face. He was afraid the Aes Sedai
would blame him, Egwene realized. “We are stuck hard. But I do not think we are
taking water, Aes Sedai. There is no need to worry. Another ship will be along.
Two sets of sweeps will surely get us free. There is no need for you to be put
ashore, Aes Sedai. I do swear it, by the Light.” “You were thinking of leaving the ship?” Egwene asked. “Do you think that
is wise?” “Of course, it’s‑!” Nynaeve stopped and frowned at her. Egwene
returned the frown with a level stare. Nynaeve went on in a calmer tone, if
still a tight one. “The captain says it may be an hour before another ship
comes along. One with enough sweeps to make a difference. Or a day. Or two,
maybe. I do not think we can afford to waste a day or two waiting. We can be in
this village ‑ what did you call it, Captain? Jurene? ‑ we can walk
to Jurene in two hours or less. If Captain Ellisor frees his vessel as quickly
as he hopes, we can reboard then. He says he will stop to see if we are there.
If he does not get free, though, we can take ship from Jurene. We may even find
a vessel waiting. The captain says traders do stop there, because of the
Andoran soldiers.” She drew a deep breath, but her voice grew tighter. “Have I
explained my reasoning fully enough? Do you need more?” “It is clear to me,” Elayne put in quickly before Egwene could speak.
“And it sounds a good idea. You think it is a good idea, too, don’t you,
Egwene?” Egwene gave a grudging nod. “I suppose it is.” “But, Aes Sedai,” Ellisor protested, “at least go to the Andor bank. The
war, Aes Sedai. Brigands, and every sort of ruffian, and the soldiers not much
better. The very wreck under our bow shows the sort of men they are.” “We have not seen a living soul on the Cairhien side,” Nynaeve said, “and
in any case, we are far from defenseless, Captain. And I will not walk fifteen
miles when I can walk six.” ”Of course, Aes Sedai.” Ellisor really was sweating, now. “I did not mean
to suggest . . . . Of course you are not defenseless, Aes Sedai. I did not mean
to suggest it.” He wiped his face furiously, but it still glistened. Nynaeve opened her mouth, glanced at Egwene, and seemed to change what
she had intended to say. “I am going below for my things,” she told the air
halfway between Egwene and Elayne, then turned on Ellison “Captain, make your
rowboat ready.” He bowed and scurried away even before she turned for the
hatch, and was shouting for men to put the boat over the side before she was
below. “If one of you says ‘up,’ “ Elayne murmured, “the other says ‘down.’ If
you do not stop it, we may not reach Tear.” “We will reach Tear,” Egwene said. “And sooner once Nynaeve realizes she
is not the Wisdom any longer. We are all” ‑ she did not say Accepted;
there were two many men hurrying about ‑ “on the same level, now.” Elayne
sighed. In short order the rowboat had ferried them ashore, and they were
standing on the bank with walking staffs in hand, their belongings in bundles
on their backs, and hung about them in pouches and scripts. Rolling grassland
and scattered copses surrounded them, though the hills were forested a few
miles in from the river. The sweeps on the Blue
Crane were cutting up froth, but failing to budge the vessel. Egwene turned
and started south without another glance. And before Nynaeve could take the
lead. When the others caught up to her,
Elayne gave her a reproving look. Nynaeve walked staring.straight ahead. Elayne
told Nynaeve what Egwene had said about Mat and a Gray Man, but the older woman
listened in silence and only said, “He’ll have to look after himself,” without
pausing in her stride. After a time, the Daughter‑Heir gave up trying to
make the other two talk, and they all walked in silence. Clumps of trees close along the riverbank soon hid the Blue Crane, thick growths of wateroak
and willow. They did not go through the copses, small as they were, for
anything at all might be hiding in the shadows under their branches. A few low
bushes grew scattered between the thickets here close to the river, but they
were too sparse to hide a child much less a brigand, and they were widely
spaced. “If we do see brigands,” Egwene announced, “I am going to defend myself.
There is no Amyrlin looking over our shoulders here.” Nynaeve’s mouth thinned. “If need be,” she told the air in front of her,
“we can frighten off any brigands the way we did those Whitecloaks. If we can
find no other way.” “I wish you would not talk of brigands,” Elayne said. “I would like to
reach this village without – ” A figure in brown and gray rose
from behind a bush standing by itself almost in front of them. CHAPTER 38 Maidens of the Spear Egwene embraced
saidar before the scream was well out
of her mouth, and she saw the glow around Elayne, too. For an instant she
wondered if Ellisor had heard their screams and would send help; the Blue Crane could not be more than a mile
upriver. Then she was dismissing the need for help, already weaving flows of
Air and Fire into lightning. She could almost still hear their yelling. Nynaeve was
simply standing there with her arms crossed beneath her breasts and a firm
expression on her face, but Egwene was not sure whether that was because she
was not angry enough to touch the True Source, or because she had already seen
what Egwene was just now seeing. The person facing them was a woman no older
than Egwene herself, if somewhat taller. She did not let
go of saidar. Men were sometimes
silly enough to think a woman was harmless merely because she was a woman;
Egwene had no such illusions. In a corner of her mind she noted that Elayne was
no longer surrounded by the glow. The Daughter‑Heir must still harbor
foolish notions. She was never a Seanchan
prisoner. Egwene did not
think many men would be stupid enough to think the woman in front of them was
not dangerous, even though her hands were empty and she wore no visible weapon.
Blue‑green eyes and reddish hair cut short except for a narrow tail that
hung to her shoulders; soft, laced knee‑boots and close‑fitting
coat and breeches all in the shades of earth and rock. Such coloring and
clothing had been described to her once; this woman was Aiel. Looking at her,
Egwene felt a sudden odd affinity for the woman. She could not understand it. She looks like Rand’s cousin, that’s why. Yet
even that feeling ‑ almost of kinship ‑ could not stifle her
curiosity. What under the Light are Aiel
doing here? They never leave the Waste; not since the Aiel War. She had
heard all of her life how deadly Aiel were ‑ these Maidens of the Spear
no less than the members of the male warrior societies ‑ but she felt no
particular fear and, indeed, some irritation at having been afraid. With saidar feeding the One Power into her,
she had no need to fear anyone. Except
maybe a fully trained sister, she admitted. But certainly not one woman, even if she is Aiel. “My name is
Aviendha,” the Aiel woman said, “of the Bitter Water sept of the Taardad Aiel.”
Her face was as flat and expressionless as her voice. “I am Far Dareis Mai, a Maiden of the Spear. “
She paused a moment, studying them. “You have not the look in your faces, but
we saw the rings. In your lands, you have women much like our Wise Ones, the
women called Aes Sedai. Are you women of the White Tower, or not?” For a moment
Egwene did feel unease. We? She
looked around them carefully, but saw no one behind any bush within twenty
paces. If there were
others, they had to be in the next thicket, more than two hundred paces ahead,
or in the last one, twice that distance behind. Too far to threaten. Unless they have bows. But they would
have to be good with them. Back home, in the competitions at Bel Tine and
Sunday, only the best bowmen shot at any distance much beyond two hundred
paces. But she still
felt better knowing she could hurl a lightning bolt at anyone who tried such a
shot. “We are women
of the White Tower,” Nynaeve said calmly. She was very obvious in not looking
around for other Aiel. Even Elayne was peering about. “Whether you would
consider any of us wise is another matter,” Nynaeve went on. “What do you want
of us?” Aviendha
smiled. She was really quite lovely, Egwene realized; the grim expression had
masked it. “You talk as the Wise Ones do. To the point, and small suffering of
fools.” Her smile faded, but her voice remained calm. “One of us lies gravely
hurt, perhaps dying. The Wise Ones often heal those who would surely die
without them, and I have heard Aes Sedan can do more. Will you aid her?” Egwene almost
shook her head in confusion. A friend of
hers is dying? She sounds as if she is asking if we’ll lend her a cup of barley
flour! “I will help
her if I can,” Nynaeve said slowly. “I cannot make promises, Aviendha. She may
die despite anything I can do.” “Death comes
for us all,” the Aiel said. “We can only choose how to face it when it comes. I
will take you to her.” Two women in
Aiel garb stood up no more than ten paces away, one out of a little fold in the
ground that Egwene would not have supposed could hide a dog, and the other in
grass that reached only halfway to her knees. They lowered their black veils as
they stood ‑ that gave her another jolt; she was sure Elayne had told her
the Aiel only hid their faces when they might have to do killing ‑ and
settled the cloth that had wrapped their heads about their shoulders. One had
the same reddish hair as Aviendha, with gray eyes, the other dark blue eyes and
hair like fire. Neither was any older than Egwene or Elayne, and both looked
ready to use the short spears in their hands. The woman with
fiery hair handed Aviendha weapons; a long, heavy-bladed knife to belt at her
waist, and a bristling quiver for the other side; a dark, curved bow that had
the dull shine of horn, in a case to fasten on her back; and four short spears
with long points to grip in her left hand along with a small, round hide
buckler. Aviendha wore them as naturally as a woman in Emond’s Field would wear
a scarf, just as her companions did. “Come,” she said, and started for the
thicket they had already passed. Egwene finally
released saidar. She suspected all
three of the Aiel could stab her with those spears before she could do anything
about it, if that was what they wanted, but though they were wary, she did not
think they would. And what if Nynaeve
can’t Heal their friend? I wish she would ask before she makes there decisions
that involve all of us! As they headed
for the trees, the Aiel scanned the land around them as if they expected the
empty landscape to hold enemies as adept at hiding as themselves. Aviendha
strode ahead, and Nynaeve kept up with her. “I am Elayne of
House Trakand,” Egwene’s friend said as if making conversation, “Daughter‑Heir
to Morgase, Queen of Andor.” Egwene
stumbled. Light, is she mad? I know Andor
fought them in the Aiel War. It might be twenty years, but they say Aiel have
long memories. But the flame‑haired
Aiel closest to her only said, “I am Bain, of the Black Rock sept of the
Shaarad Aiel.” “I am Chiad,”
the shorter, blonder woman on her other side said, “of the Stones River sept of
the Goshien Aiel.” Bain and Chiad
glanced at Egwene; their expressions did not change, but she had the feeling
they thought she was showing bad manners. “I am Egwene
al’Vere,” she told them. They seemed to expect more, so she added, “Daughter of
Marin al’Vere, of Emond’s Field, in the Two Rivers.” That seemed to satisfy
them, in a way, but she would have bet they understood it no more than she did
all these septs and clans. It must mean
families, in some way. “You are first‑sisters?”
Bain seemed to be taking in all three of them. . Egwene
thought they must mean sisters as it was used for Aes Sedai, and said “Yes,”
just as Elayne said “No.” Chiad and Bain
exchanged a very quick look that suggested they were talking to women who might
not be completely whole in their minds. “First‑sister,”
Elayne told Egwene as if she were lecturing, “means women who have the same
mother. Second‑sister means their mothers are sisters.” She turned her
words to the Aiel. “We neither of us know a great deal of your people. I ask
you to excuse our ignorance. I sometimes think of Egwene as a first‑sister,
but we are not blood kin.” “Then why do
you not speak the words before your Wise Ones?” Chiad asked. “Bain and I became
first‑sisters.” Egwene blinked.
“How can you become first‑sisters?
Either you have the same mother, or you do not. I do not mean to offend. Most
of what I know about the Maidens of the Spear comes from the little Elayne has
told me. I know you fight in battle and don’t care for men, but no more than
that.” Elayne nodded; the way she had described the Maidens to Egwene had
sounded much like a cross between female Warders and the Red Ajah. That look
flashed back across the Aiel’s faces, as if they were not certain how much
sense Egwene and Elayne had. “We do not
care for men?” Chiad murmured as if puzzled. Bain knotted
her brow in thought. “What you say comes near truth, yet misses it completely.
When we wed the spear, we pledge to be bound to no man or child. Some do give
up the spear, for a man or a child” - her expression said she herself did not
understand this ‑ “but once given up, the spear cannot be taken back.” “Or if she is
chosen to go to Rhuidean,” Chiad put in. “A Wise One cannot be wedded to the
spear.” Bain looked at
her as if she had announced the sky was blue, or that rain fell from clouds.
The glance she gave Egwene and Elayne said perhaps they did not know these
things. “Yes, that is true. Though some try to struggle against it.” “Yes, they do.”
Chiad sounded as though she and Bain were sharing something between them. “But I have
gone far from the trail of my explanation,” Bain went on. “The Maidens do not
dance the spears with one another even when our clans do, but the Shaarad Aiel
and the Goshien Aiel have held blood feud between them over four hundred years,
so Chiad and I felt our wedding pledge was not enough. We went to speak the
words before the Wise Ones of our clans ‑ she risking her life in my
hold, and I in hers ‑ to bond us as first‑sisters. As is proper for
first‑sisters who are Maidens, we guard each other’s backs, and neither
will let a man come to her without the other. I would not say we do not care
for men.” Chiad nodded, with just the hint of a smile. “Have I made the truth
clear to you, Egwene?” “Yes,” Egwene
said faintly. She glanced at Elayne and saw the bewilderment in her blue eyes
she knew must be in her own. Not Red
Ajah, Green, maybe. A cross between Warders and Green Ajah, and I do not
understand another thing out of that. “The truth is quite clear to me, now,
Bain. Thank you.” “If the two of
you feel you are first‑sisters,” Chiad said, “you should go to your Wise
Ones and speak the words. But you are Wise Ones, though young. I do not know
how it would be done in that case.” Egwene did not
know whether to laugh or blush. She kept having an image of her and Elayne
sharing the same man. No, that is only
for first-sisters who are Maidens of the Spear. Isn’t it? Elayne did have
spots of color in her cheeks, and Egwene was sure she was thinking of Rand. But we do not share him, Elayne. We can
neither of us have him. Elayne cleared
her throat. “I do not think there is a need for that, Chiad. Egwene and I
already guard each other’s backs.” “How can that
be?” Chiad asked slowly. “You are not wedded to the spear. And you are Wise
Ones. Who would lift a hand against a Wise One? This confuses me. What need
have you for guarding of backs?” Egwene was
spared having to come up with an answer by their arrival at the copse. There
were two more Aiel under the trees, deep into the thicket, but next to the river.
Jolien, of the Salt Flat sept of the Nakai Aiel, a blue‑eyed woman with
red‑gold hair nearly the color of Elayne’s, was watching over Dailin, of
Aviendha’s sept and clan. Sweat matted Dailin’s hair, making it a darker red,
and she only opened her gray eyes once, when they first came near, then closed
them again. Her coat and shirt lay beside her, and red stained the bandages
wrapped around her middle. “She took a
sword,” Aviendha said. “Some of those fools that the oath-breaking treekillers
call soldiers thought we were another handful of the bandits who infest this
land. We had to kill them to convince them otherwise, but Dailin . . . . Can
you heal her, Aes Sedai?” Nynaeve went to
her knees beside the injured woman and lifted the bandages enough to peer under
them. She winced at what she saw. “Have you moved her since she was hurt? There
is scabbing, but it has been broken.” “She wanted to
die near water,” Aviendha said. She glanced once at the river, then quickly
away again. Egwene thought she might have shivered, too. “Fools!”
Nynaeve began rummaging in her pouch of herbs. “You could have killed her
moving her with an injury like that. She wanted to die near water!” she said
disgustedly. “Just because you carry weapons like men doesn’t mean you have to
think like them.” She pulled a deep wooden cup out of the bag and pushed it at
Chiad. “Fill that. I need water to mix these so she can drink them.” Chiad and Bain
stepped to the river’s edge and returned together. Their faces never changed,
but Egwene thought they had almost expected the river to reach up and grab
them. “If we had not
brought her here to the . . . river, Aes Sedai,” Aviendha said, “we would never
have found you, and she would have died anyway.” Nynaeve snorted
and began sifting powdered herbs into the cup of water, muttering to herself.
“Corenroot helps make blood, and dogwort for knitting flesh, and healall, of
course, and . . . .” Her mutters trailed off into whispers too low to hear.
Aviendha was frowning at her. “The Wise Ones
use herbs, Aes Sedai, but I had not heard that Aes Sedai used them.” “I use what I
use!” Nynaeve snapped and went back to sorting through her powders and
whispering to herself. “She truly does
sound like a Wise One,” Chiad told Bain softly, and the other woman gave a
tight nod. Dailin was the
only Aiel without her weapons in hand, and they all looked ready to use them in
a heartbeat. Nynaeve surely isn’t
soothing anyone, Egwene thought. Get
them talking about something. Anything. Nobody feels like fighting if they’re
talking of something peaceful. “Do not be
offended,” she said carefully, “but I notice you are all uneasy about the
river. It does not grow violent unless there is a storm. You could swim in it
if you wanted, though the current is strong away from the banks.” Elayne shook
her head. The Aiel looked
blank; Aviendha said, “I saw a man ‑ a Shienaran - do this swimming . .
. once.” “I don’t
understand,” Egwene said. “I know there isn’t much water in the Waste, but you
said you were ‘Stones River sept,’ Jolien. Surely you have swum in the Stones
River?” Elayne looked at her as if she were mad. “Swim,” Jolien
said awkwardly. “It means . . . to get in the water? All that water? With
nothing to hold on to.” She shuddered. “Aes Sedai, before I crossed the Dragonwall,
I had never seen flowing water I could not step across. The Stones River . . .
. Some claim it had water in it once, but that is only boasting. There are only
the stones. The oldest records of the Wise Ones and the clan chief say there
was never anything but stones since the first day our sept broke off from the
High Plain sept and claimed that land. Swim!” She gripped her spears as if to
fight the very word. Chiad and Bain moved a pace further from the riverbank. Egwene sighed.
And colored when she met Elayne’s eye. Well,
I am not a Daughter‑Heir, to know all these things. I will learn them,
though. As she looked around at the Aiel women, she realized that far from
soothing them, she had put them even more on edge. If they try anything, I will hold them with
Air. She had no idea whether she could seize four people at once, but she
opened herself to saidar, wove the
flows in Air and held them ready. The Power pulsed in her with eagerness to be
used. No glow surrounded Elayne, and she wondered why. Elayne looked right at
her and shook her head. “I would never harm an Aes Sedai,” Aviendha said abruptly. “I would have
you know that. Whether Dailin lives or dies, it makes no difference in that. I
would never use this” ‑ she lifted one short spear a trifle – “against
any woman. And you are Aes Sedai.” Egwene had the sudden feeling that the woman
was trying to soothe them. “I knew that,” Elayne said, as if talking to Aviendha, but her eyes told
Egwene the words were for her. “No one knows much of your people, but I was
taught that Aiel never harm women unless they are ‑ what did you call it?
‑ wedded to the spear.” Bain seemed to
think Elayne was failing to see truth clearly again. “That is not
exactly the way of it, Elayne. If a woman not wedded came at me with weapons, I
would drub her until she knew better of it. A man. . . . A man might think a
woman of your lands was wedded if she bore weapons; I do not know. Men can be
strange.” “Of course,”
Elayne said. “But so long as we do not attack you with weapons, you will not
try to harm us.” All four Aiel looked shocked, and she gave Egwene a quick
significant look. Egwene held on
to sailor anyway. Just because Elayne
had been taught something did not mean it was true, even if the Aiel said the
same thing. And saidar felt . . .
good in her. Nynaeve lifted
up Dailin’s head and began pouring her mixture into the woman’s mouth. “Drink,”
she said firmly. “I know it tastes bad, but drink it all.” Dailin swallowed,
choked, and swallowed again. “Not even then,
Aes Sedai,” Aviendha told Elayne. She kept her eyes on Dailin and Nynaeve,
though. “It is said that once, before the Breaking of the World, we served the
Aes Sedai, though no story says how. We failed in that service. Perhaps that is
the sin that sent us to the Threefold Land; I do not know. No one knows what
the sin was, except maybe the Wise Ones, or the clan chiefs, and they do not
say. It is said if we fail the Aes Sedai again, they will destroy us.” “Drink it all,”
Nynaeve muttered. “Swords! Swords and muscles and no brains!” “We are not
going to destroy you,” Elayne said firmly, and Aviendha nodded. “As you say,
Aes Sedai. But the old stories are all clear on one point. We must never fight
Aes Sedai. If you bring your lightnings and your balefire against me, I will
dance with them, but I will not harm you.” “Stabbing
people,” Nynaeve growled. She lowered Dailin’s head, and laid a hand on the
woman’s brow. Dailin’s eyes had closed again. “Stabbing women!” Aviendha
shifted her feet and frowned again, and she was not alone among the Aiel. “Balefire,”
Egwene said. “Aviendha, what is balefire?” The Aiel woman
turned her frown on her. “Do you not know, Aes Sedai? In the old stories, Aes
Sedai wielded it. The stories make it a fearsome thing, but I know no more. It
is said we have forgotten much that we once knew.” “Perhaps the
White Tower has forgotten much, too,” Egwene said. I knew of it in that . . . dream, or whatever
it was. It was as real as Tel’aran’rhiod. I’d gamble with Mat on that. “No right!”
Nynaeve snapped. “No one has a right to tear bodies so! It is not right!” “Is she angry?”
Aviendha asked uneasily. Chiad and Bain and Jolien exchanged worried looks. “It is all right,” Elayne said. “It is better
than all right,” Egwene added. “She is getting angry, and it is much better
than all right.” The glow of
sailor surrounded Nynaeve suddenly ‑ Egwene leaned forward, trying to
see, and so did Elayne ‑ and Dailin started up with a scream, eyes wide
open. In an instant, Nynaeve was easing her back down, and the glow faded.
Dailin’s eyes slid shut, and she lay there panting. I saw it, Egwene thought. I . . .
think I did. She was not sure she
had even been able to make out all the many flows, much less the way Nynaeve
had woven them together. What Nynaeve had done in those few seconds had seemed
like weaving four carpets at once while blindfolded. Nynaeve used the bloody bandages to wipe Dailin’s stomach,
smearing away bright red new blood and black crusts of dried old. There was no
wound, no scar, only healthy skin considerably paler than Dailin’s face. With a grimace,
Nynaeve took the bloody cloths, stood up, and threw them into the river. “Wash
the rest of that off of her,” she said, “and put some clothes back on her.
She’s cold. And be ready to feed her. She will be hungry.” She knelt by the
water to wash her hands. CHAPTER 39 Threads in the Pattern Jolien put an
unsteady hand to where the wound had been in Dailin’s middle; when she touched
smooth skin, she gasped as if she had not believed her own eyes. Nynaeve
straightened, drying her hands on her cloak. Egwene had to admit that good wool
did better for a towel than silk or velvet. “I said wash her and get some
clothes on her,” Nynaeve snapped. “Yes, Wise
One,” Jolien said quickly, and she, Chiad, and Bain all leaped to obey. A short laugh
burst from Aviendha, a laugh almost at the edge of tears. “I have heard that a
Wise One in the Jagged Spire sept is said to be able to do this, and one in the
Four Holes sept, but I always thought it was boasting.” She drew a deep breath,
regaining her composure. “Aes Sedai, I owe you a debt. My water is yours, and
the shade of my septhold will welcome you. Dailin is my second‑sister.”
She saw Nynaeve’s uncomprehending look and added, “She is my mother’s sister’s
daughter. Close blood, Aes Sedai. I owe a blood debt.” “If I have any
blood to spill,” Nynaeve said dryly, “I will spill it myself. If you wish to
repay me, tell me if there is a ship at Jurene. The next village south of
here?” “The village
where the soldiers fly the White Lion banner?” Aviendha said. “There was a ship
there when I scouted yesterday. The old stories mention ships, but it was
strange to see one.” “The Light send
it is still there.” Nynaeve began putting away her folded papers of powdered
herbs. “I have done what I can for the girl, Aviendha, and we must go on. All
that she needs now is food and rest. And try not to let people stick swords in
her.” “What comes,
comes, Aes Sedai,” the Aiel woman replied. “Aviendha,”
Egwene said, “feeling as you do about rivers, how do you cross them? I am sure
there is at least one river nearly as big as the Erinin between here and the
Waste.” “The Alguenya,”
Elayne said. “Unless you went around it.” “You have many
rivers, but some have things called bridges where we had need to cross, and
others we could wade. For the rest, Jolien remembered that wood floats.” She
slapped the trunk of a tall whitewood. “These are big, but they float as well
as a branch. We found dead ones and made ourselves a . . . ship . . . a little
ship, of two or three lashed together to cross the big river.” She said it
matter‑of‑factly. Egwene stared
in wonder. If she were as afraid of something as the Aiel obviously were of
rivers, could she make herself face it the way they did? She did not think so. What about the Black Ajah, a small voice
asked. Have you stopped being afraid of
them? That is different, she told it. There’s
no bravery in that. I either hunt them, or else I sit like a rabbit waiting for
a hawk. She quoted the old saying to herself. “It is better to be the hammer than the nail.” “We had best be
on our way,” Nynaeve said. “In a moment,”
Elayne told her. “Aviendha, why have you come all this way and put up with such
hardship?” Aviendha shook
her head disgustedly. “We have not come far at all; we were among the last to
set out. The Wise Ones nipped at me like wild dogs circling a calf, saying I
had other duties.” Suddenly she grinned, gesturing to the other Aiel. “These
stayed back to taunt me in my misery, so they said, but I do not think the Wise
Ones would have let me go if they had not been there to companion me.” “We seek the
one foretold,” Bain said. She was holding a sleeping Dailin so Chiad could slip
a shirt of brown linen onto her. “He Who Comes With the Dawn.” “He will lead
us out of the Three‑fold Land,” Chiad added. “The prophecies say he was
born of Far Dareis Mai.” Elayne looked
startled. “I thought you said the Maidens of the Spear were not allowed to have
children. I am sure I was taught that.” Bain and Chiad exchanged those looks
again, as if Elayne had come near truth and yet missed it once more. “If a Maiden
bears a child,” Aviendha explained carefully, “she gives the child to the Wise
Ones of her sept, and they pass the child to another woman in such a way that
none knows whose child it is.” She, too, sounded as if she were explaining that
stone is hard. “Every woman wants to foster such a child in the hope she may
raise He Who Comes With the Dawn.” “Or she may
give up the spear and wed the man,” Chiad said, and Bain added, “There are
sometimes reasons one must give up the spear.” Aviendha gave
them a level look, but continued as if they had not spoken. “Except that now
the Wise Ones say he is to be found here, beyond the Dragonwall. ‘Blood of our
blood mixed with the old blood, raised by an ancient blood not ours.’ I do not
understand it, but the Wise Ones spoke in such a way as to leave no doubts.”
She paused, obviously choosing her words. “You have asked many questions, Aes
Sedai. I wish to ask one. You must understand that we look for omens and signs.
Why do three Aes Sedai walk a land where the only hand without a knife in it is
a hand too weak with hunger to grasp the hilt? Where do you go?” “Tear,” Nynaeve
said briskly, “unless we stay here talking until the Heart of the Stone
crumbles to dust.” Elayne began adjusting the cord of her bundle and the strap
of her script for walking, and after a moment Egwene did the same. The Aiel women
were looking at one another, Jolien frozen in the act of closing Dailin’s gray‑brown
coat. “Tear?” Aviendha said in a cautious tone. “Three Aes Sedai walking
through a troubled land on their way to Tear. This is a strange thing. Why do
you go to Tear, Aes Sedai?” Egwene glanced
at Nynaeve. Light, a moment ago they were
laughing, and now they’re as tense as they ever were. “We hunt some
evil women,” Nynaeve said carefully. “Darkfriends.” “Shadowrunners.”
Jolien twisted her mouth around the word as if she had bitten into a rotten
apple. “Shadowrunners
in Tear,” Bain said, and as if part of the same sentence Chiad added, “And
three Aes Sedai seeking the Heart of the Stone.” “I did not say
we were going to the Heart of the Stone,” Nynaeve said sharply. “I merely said
I did not want to stay here till it falls to dust. Egwene, Elayne,
are you ready?” She started out of the thicket without waiting for an answer,
walking staff thumping the ground and long strides carrying her south. Egwene and
Elayne made hasty goodbyes before following after her. The four Aiel on their
feet stood watching them go. When the two of
them were a little way beyond the trees, Egwene said, “My heart almost stopped
when you named yourself. Weren’t you afraid they might try to kill you, or to
take you prisoner? The Aiel War was not that
long ago, and whatever they said about not harming women who don’t carry
spears, they looked ready enough to use those spears on anything, to me.” Elayne shook
her head ruefully. “I have just learned how much I do not know about the Aiel,
but I was taught that they do not think of the Aiel War as a war at all. From
the way they behaved toward me, I think maybe that much of what I learned is
truth. Or maybe it was because they think I am Aes Sedai.” “I know they
are strange, Elayne, but no one can call three years of battles anything but a
war. I do not care how much they fight among themselves, a war is a war.” “Not to them.
Thousands of Aiel crossed the Spine of the World, but apparently they saw
themselves more like thief‑takers, or headsmen, come after King Laman of
Cairhien for the crime of cutting down Avendoraldera.
To the Aiel, it was not a war; it was an execution.” Avendoraldera, according to one of Verin’s lectures, had been an offshoot of
the Tree of Life itself, brought to Cairhien some four hundred years ago as an
unprecedented offer of peace from the Aiel, given along with the right to cross
the Waste, a right otherwise given to none but peddlers, gleemen, and the
Tuatha’an. Much of Cairhien’s wealth had been built on the trade in ivory and
perfumes and spices and, most of all, silk, from the lands beyond the Waste.
Not even Verin had any idea of how the Aiel had come by a sapling of Avendesora‑for
one thing, the old books were clear that it made no seed; for another, no one
knew where the Tree of Life was, except for a few stories that were clearly
wrong, but surely the Tree of Life could have nothing to do with the Aiel‑or
of why the Aiel had called the Cairhienin the Watersharers, or insisted their
trains of merchant wagons fly a banner bearing the trefoil leaf of Avendesora. Egwene supposed,
grudgingly, that she could understand why they had started a war ‑ even
if they did not think it was one ‑ after King Laman cut down their gift
to make a throne unlike any other in the world. Laman’s Sin, she had heard it
called. According to Verin, not only had Cairhien’s trade across the Waste
ended with the war, but those Cairhienin who ventured into the Waste now
vanished. Verin claimed they were said to be “sold as animals” in the lands
beyond the Waste, but not even she understood how a man or a woman could be
sold. “Egwene,”
Elayne said, “you know who He Who Comes With the Dawn must be, don’t you?” Staring at
Nynaeve’s back still well ahead of them, Egwene shook her head ‑ Does
she mean to race us to Jurene? ‑ then almost stopped walking. “You do not mean ‑ ?” Elayne nodded.
“I think so. I do not know much of the Prophecies of the Dragon, but I have
heard a few lines. One I remember is, ‘On the slopes of Dragonmount shall he be
born, born of a maiden wedded to no man.’ Egwene, Rand does look like an Aiel.
Well, he looks like the pictures I have seen of Tigraine, too, but she vanished
before he was born, and I hardly think she could have been his mother anyway. I
think Rand’s mother was a Maiden of the Spear.” Egwene frowned
in thought as she hurried along, running everything she knew of Rand’s birth
through her head. He had been raised by Tam al’Thor after Kari al’Thor died,
but if what Moiraine said was true, they could not be his real mother and
father. Nynaeve had sometimes seemed to know some secret about Rand’s birth. But I will bet I couldn’t pry it out of her
with a fork! They caught up to Nynaeve, Egwene glowering as she thought,
Nynaeve staring straight ahead toward Jurene and that ship, and Elayne
frowning at the pair of them as if they were two children sulking over who
should have the larger piece of cake. After a time of
silent strides, Elayne said, “You handled that very well, Nynaeve. The Healing,
and the rest, too. I do not think they ever doubted you were Aes Sedai. Or that
we all were, because of the way you bore yourself. “ “You did do a
good job,” Egwene said after a minute. “That was the first time I have ever
really watched what is done during a Healing. It makes making lightning look
like mixing oatcake.” A surprised
smile appeared on Nynaeve’s face. “Thank you,” she murmured, and reached over
to give Egwene’s hair a little tug the way she had when Egwene was a little
girl. I am not a little girl any longer. The
moment passed as quickly as it had come, and they went on in silence once more.
Elayne sighed loudly. They covered
another mile, or a little more, swiftly, despite swinging in from the river to
go around the thickets along the bank. Nynaeve insisted on staying well clear
of the trees. Egwene thought it was silly to think more Aiel would be hiding in
the copses, but the swing inland did not add much distance to what they had to
cover; none of the growths were very big. Elayne watched
the trees, though, and she was the one who suddenly screamed, “Look out!” Egwene jerked
her head around; men were stepping out from among the trees, slings whirling
‘round their heads. She reached for saidar,
and something struck her head, and darkness drank everything. Egwene could
feel herself swaying, feel something moving under her. Her head seemed to be
nothing but pain. She tried to raise a hand to her temples, but something dug
into her wrists, and her hands did not move. “ ‑
better than lying there all day waiting for dark,” a man’s rough voice said.
“Who knows if another ship would come by close in? And I don’t trust that boat.
It leaks.” “You do better
hope Adden does believe you did see those rings before you did decide,” another
man said. “He does want fat cargoes, not women, I think.” the first man
muttered something coarse about what Adden could do with his leaky boat, and
the cargoes, too. Her eyes
opened. Silver‑flecked spots danced across her vision; she thought she
might be going to throw up on the ground swaying past under her head. She was
tied across the back of a horse, her wrists and ankles joined by a rope running
under its belly, her hair hanging down. It was still
daylight. She craned her neck to look around. So many rough‑dressed men
on horses surrounded her that she could not see whether Nynaeve and Elayne had
been captured, as well. Some of the men wore bits of armor‑a battered
helmet, or a dented breastplate, or a jerkin sewn all over with metal scales‑but
most wore only coats that had not been cleaned in months, if ever. From the
smell, the men had not cleaned themselves in months, either. They all wore
swords, at their waists or on their backs. Rage hit her,
and fear, but most of all white‑hot anger. I won’t be a prisoner. I won’t be bound! I won’t! She reached for saidar and the pain nearly lifted the
top of her head; she barely stifled a moan. The horse
paused for a moment of shouts and the creak of rusty hinges, then went ahead a
little further, and the men began to dismount. As they moved apart, she could
see something of where they were. A log palisade surrounded them, built atop a
large, round earthen mound, and men with bows stood guard on a wooden walk
built just high enough for them to see over the rough‑hewn ends of the
logs. One low, windowless log house seemed to be built into the mounded dirt
under the wall. There was no other structure beyond a few lean‑to sheds.
Aside from the men and horses that had just entered, the rest of the open space
was filled with cook fires, and tethered horses, and more unwashed men. There
must have been at least a hundred. Caged goats and pigs and chickens filled the
air with squeals and grunts and clucks that blended with coarse shouts and
laughter to make a din that pierced her head. Her eyes found
Nynaeve and Elayne, bound head down across saddleless horses as she was. Neither
seemed to be stirring; the very end of Nynaeve’s braid dragged across the dirt
as her horse stirred. A small hope faded; that one of them might be free, to
help whoever was held escape. Light, I
cannot stand to be a prisoner again. Not again. Gingerly, she tried
reaching for saidar again. The pain
was not so bad this time ‑ merely as if someone had dropped a rock on her
head ‑ but it shattered the emptiness before she could even think of a
rose. “One of them’s
awake!” a man’s panicked voice shouted. Egwene tried to
hang limp and look unthreatening. How in the Light could I look threatening tied up like a sack of meal! Burn
me, I have to buy time. I have to! “I will not harm you,” she told the
sweaty‑faced fellow who came running toward her. Or she tried to tell
him. She was not sure how much she had actually said before something crashed
into her head again and darkness rolled over her in a wave of nausea. Waking was
easier the next time. Her head still hurt, but not as much as it had, though
her thoughts did seem to spin dizzily. At
least my stomach isn’t . . . . Light, I’d better not think of that. There
was a taste of sour wine and something bitter in her mouth. Strips of lamplight
showed through horizontal cracks in a crudely made wall, but she lay in
darkness, on her back. On dirt, she thought. The door did not seem to fit well
either, but it looked all too sturdy. She pushed
herself to her hands and knees, and was surprised to find she was not tied in
any way. Except for that one wall of unpeeled logs, the others all seemed to be
of rough stone. The light through the cracks was enough to show her Nynaeve and
Elayne lying sprawled on the dirt. There was blood on the Daughter‑Heir’s
face. Neither of them moved except for the rise and fall of their chests as
they breathed. Egwene hesitated between trying to wake them immediately and
seeing what lay on the other side of that wall. Just a peek, she told herself. I might as well see what we have guarding us before I wake them. She told
herself it was not because she was afraid she might be unable to waken them. As
she put her eye to one of the cracks near the door, she thought of the blood on
Elayne’s face and tried to remember exactly what it was Nynaeve had done for
Dailin. The next room
was large ‑ it had to be all the rest of the log building she had seen ‑
and windowless, but brightly lit with gold and silver lamps hanging from spikes
driven into the walls and the logs that made the high ceiling. There was no
fireplace. On the packed dirt floor farmhouse tables and chairs mingled with
chests covered in gilt‑work and inlaid with ivory. A carpet woven in
peacocks lay beside a huge canopied bed, piled deep with filthy blankets and
comforters, with elaborately carved and gilded posts. A dozen men
stood or sat around the room, but all eyes were on one large, fair‑haired
man who might have been handsome if his face were cleaner. He stood staring
down at the top of a table with fluted legs and gilded scrollwork, one hand on
his sword hilt, a finger of the other pushing something she could not make out
in small circles on the tabletop. The outer door
opened, revealing night outside, and a lanky man with his left ear gone came
in. “He has no come, yet,” he said roughly. He was missing two fingers on his
left hand, too. “I do no like dealing with that kind.” The big, fair‑haired
man paid him no mind, only kept moving whatever it was on the table. “Three Aes
Sedai,” he murmured, then laughed. “Good prices for Aes Sedai, if you have the
belly to deal with the right buyer. If you’re ready to risk having your belly
ripped out through your mouth should you try selling him a pig in a sack. Not
so safe as slitting the crew’s throats on a trader’s ship, eh, Coke? Not so
easy, wouldn’t you say?” There was a
nervous stir among the other men, and the one addressed, a stocky fellow with
shifty eyes, leaned forward anxiously. “They are Aes Sedai, Adden.” She recognized that voice; the man who had
made the coarse suggestions. “They must be, Adden. The rings prove it, I tell
you!” Adden picked up something from the table, a small circle that glinted
gold in the lamplight. Egwene gasped
and felt at her fingers. They took my
ring! “I do no like
it,” muttered the lanky man with the missing ear. “Aes Sedai. Any one of them
could kill us all. Fortune prick me! You do be a stone‑carved fool, Coke,
and I ought to carve your throat. What if one of them do wake before he does
come?” “They’ll not
wake for hours.” That was a fat man with hoarse voice and a gap‑toothed
sneer. “My granny taught me of that stuff we fed them. They’ll sleep till
sunrise, and he’ll come long afore then.” Egwene worked
her mouth around the sour wine taste and the bitterness. Whatever it was, your granny lied to you. She should have strangled you
in your cradle! Before this “he” came, this man who thought he could buy
Aes Sedai ‑ like a bloody
Seanchan! ‑ she would have
Nynaeve and Elayne on their feet. She crawled to Nynaeve. As near as she
could tell, Nynaeve seemed to be sleeping, so she began with the simple
expedient of shaking her. To her surprise, Nynaeve’s eyes shot open. “Wha ‑ ?” She got a hand
over Nynaeve’s mouth in time to stop the word. “We are being held prisoner,”
she whispered. “There are a dozen men on the other side of that wall, and more
outside. A great many more. They gave us something to make us sleep, but it
wasn’t very successful. Do you remember, yet?” Nynaeve pulled
Egwene’s hand aside. “I remember.” Her voice was soft and grim. She grimaced
and twisted her mouth, then suddenly barked a nearly silent laugh. “Sleepwell
root. The fools gave us sleepwell root mixed in wine. Wine near gone to
vinegar, it tastes like. Quick, do you remember anything of what I taught you?
What does sleepwell root do?” “It clears
headaches so you can sleep,” Egwene said just as softly. And nearly as grimly,
until she heard what she was saying. “It makes you a little drowsy, but that is
all.” The fat man had not listened well to what his granny told him. “All they
did was help clear the pain of being hit in the head.” “Exactly,”
Nynaeve said. “And once we wake Elayne, we’ll give them a thanking they won’t
forget.” She rose, only to crouch beside the golden-haired woman. “I think I saw
more than a hundred of them outside when they brought us in,” Egwene whispered
to Nynaeve’s back. “I am sure you won’t mind if I use the Power as a weapon
this time. And someone is apparently coming to buy us. I mean to do something
to that fellow that will make him walk in the Light till the day he dies!”
Nynaeve was still crouched over Elayne, but neither of them was moving. “What
is the matter?” “She is hurt
badly, Egwene. I think her skull is broken, and she is barely breathing.
Egwene, she is dying as surely as Dailin was.” “Can’t you do
something?” Egwene tried to remember all the flows Nynaeve had woven to Heal
the Aiel woman, but she could recall no more than every third thread. “You have
to!” “They took my
herbs,” Nynaeve muttered fiercely, her voice trembling. “I can’t! Not without
the herbs!” Egwene was shocked to realize Nynaeve was on the point of tears.
“Burn them all, I can’t do it without ‑ !” Suddenly she seized Elayne’s
shoulders as if she meant to lift the unconscious woman and shake her. “Burn
you, girl,” she rasped, “I did not bring you all this way to die! I should have
left you scrubbing pots! I should have tied you up in a sack for Mat to carry
to your mother! I will not let you die on me! Do you hear me? I won’t allow
it!” Saidar suddenly shone around her, and Elayne’s eyes and mouth
opened wide together. Egwene got her
hands over Elayne’s mouth just in time to muffle any sound, she thought, but as
she touched her, the eddies of Nynaeve’s Healing caught her like a straw on the
edge of a whirlpool. Cold froze her to the bone, meeting heat that seared
outward as if it meant to crisp her flesh; the world vanished in a sensation of
rushing, falling, flying, spinning. When it finally
ended, she was breathing hard and staring down at Elayne, who stared back over
the hands she still had pressed over her woman’s mouth. The last of Egwene’s
headache was gone. Even the backwash of what Nynaeve had done had apparently
been enough for that. The murmur of voices from the other room was no louder;
if Elayne had made any noise ‑ or if she had ‑ Adden and the others
had not noticed. Nynaeve was on
her hands and knees, head down and shaking. “Light!” she muttered. “Doing it
that way . . . was like peeling off . . . my own skin. Oh, Light!” She peered
at Elayne. “How do you feel, girl?” Egwene pulled her hands away. “Tired,” Elayne
murmured. “And hungry. Where are we? There were some men with slings . . . .” Hastily Egwene
told her what had happened. Elayne’s face began to darken a long way before she
was done. “And now,”
Nynaeve added in a voice like iron, “we are going to show these louts what it
means to meddle with us.” Saidar shone around her once more. Elayne was unsteady getting to her feet, but the glow
surrounded her, as well. Egwene reached out to the True Source almost
gleefully. When they
looked through the cracks again, to see exactly what they had to deal with,
there were three Myrddraal in the room. Dead‑black
garb hanging unnaturally still, they stood by the table, and every man but
Adden had moved as far from them as he could, till they all had their backs
against the walls and their eyes on the dirt floor. Across the table from the
Myrddraal, Adden faced those eyeless stares, but sweat made runnels in the dirt
on his face. The Fade picked
up a ring from the table. Egwene saw now that it was a much heavier circle of
gold than the Great Serpent rings. Face pressed
against the crack between two logs, Nynaeve gasped softly and fumbled at the
neck of her dress. “Three Aes
Sedai,” the Halfman hissed, its amusement sounding like dead things powdering
to dust, “and one carried this.” The ring made a heavy thud as the Myrddraal
tossed it back on the table. “They are the
ones I seek,” another of them rasped. “You will be well rewarded, human.” “We must take
them by surprise,” Nynaeve said softly. “What kind of lock holds this door?” Egwene could
just see the lock on the outside of the door, an iron thing on a chain heavy
enough to hold an enraged bull. “Be ready,” she said. She thinned one
flow of Earth to finer than a hair, hoping the Halfmen could not sense so small
a channeling, and wove it into the iron chain, into the tiniest bits of it. One of the
Myrddraal lifted its head. Another leaned across the table toward Adden. “I
itch, human. Are you sure they sleep?” Adden swallowed hard and nodded his
head. The third
Myrddraal turned to stare at the door to the room where Egwene and the others
crouched. The chain fell
to the floor, the Myrddraal staring at it snarled, and the outer door swung
open, black‑veiled death flowing in from the night. The room
erupted in screams and shouts as men clawed for their swords to fight stabbing
Aiel spears. The Myrddraal drew blades blacker than their garb and fought for
their lives, too. Egwene had once seen six cats all fighting each other; this
was that a hundredfold. And yet in seconds, silence reigned. Or almost silence. Every human not
wearing a black veil lay dead with a spear through him; one pinned Adden to the
wall. Two Aiel lay still, as well, amid the jumble of overturned furniture and
dead. The three Myrddraal stood back-to‑back in the center of the room,
black swords in their hands. One was clutching his side as if wounded, though
he gave no other sign of it. Another had a long gash down its pale face; it did
not bleed. Around them circled the five veiled Aiel still alive, crouching.
From outside came screams and clashes of metal that said more Aiel still fought
in the night, but in the room was a softer sound. As they
circled, the Aiel drummed their spears against their small hide bucklers. Thrum‑thrum‑THRUM‑thrum .
. . thrum‑thrum‑THRUM‑thrum . . . thrum‑thrum‑THRUM‑thrum.
The Myrddraal turned with them, and their eyeless faces seemed uncertain,
uneasy that the fear their gaze struck into every human heart did not seem to
touch these. “Dance with me,
Shadowman,” one of the Aiel called suddenly, tauntingly. He sounded like a
young man. “Dance with me,
Eyeless.” That was a woman. “Dance with
me.” “Dance with
me.” “I think,”
Nynaeve said, straightening, “that it is time.” She threw open the door, and
the three women wrapped in the glow of saidar stepped out. It seemed as
though, for the Myrddraal, the Aiel had ceased to exist, and for the Aiel, the
Myrddraal. The Aiel stared at Egwene and the others above their veils as if not
quite sure what they were seeing; she heard one of the women gasp loudly. The
Myrddraal’s eyeless stare was different. Egwene could almost feel the Halfmen’s
knowledge of their own deaths in it; Halfmen knew women embracing the True
Source when they saw them. She was sure she could feel a desire for her death,
too, if theirs could buy hers, and an even stronger desire to strip the soul
out of her flesh and make both playthings for the Shadow, a desire to . . . . She had just
stepped into the room, yet it seemed she had been meeting that stare for hours.
“I’ll take no more of this,” she growled, and unleashed a flow of Fire. Flames burst
out of all three Myrddraal, sprouting in every direction, and they shrieked
like splintered bones jamming a meatgrinder. Yet she had forgotten she was not
alone, that Elayne and Nynaeve were with her. Even as the flames consumed the
Halfmen, the very air seemed suddenly to push them together in midair, crushing
them into a ball of fire and blackness that grew smaller and smaller. Their
screams dug at Egwene’s spine, and something
shot out from Nynaeve’s hands ‑ a thin bar of white light that made
noonday sun seem dark, a bar of fire that made molten metal seem cold,
connecting her hands to the Myrddraal. And they ceased to exist as if they had
never been. Nynaeve gave a startled jump, and the glow around her vanished. “What . . .
what was that?” Elayne asked. Nynaeve shook
her head; she looked as stunned as Elayne sounded. “I don’t know. I . . . I was
so angry, so afraid, at what they wanted to . . . . I do not know what it was.” Balefire,
Egwene thought. She did not know how she knew, but she was certain of it.
Reluctantly, she made herself release saidar; made it release her. She did not
know which was harder. And I did not see
a thing of what she did! The Aiel
unveiled themselves, then. A trifle hastily, Egwene thought, as if to tell her
and the other two they were no longer ready to fight. Three of the Aiel were
male, one an older man with more than touches of gray in his dark red hair.
They were tall, these Aielmen, and young or old, they had that calm sureness in
their eyes, that dangerous grace of motion Egwene associated with Warders;
death rode on their shoulders, and they knew it was there and were not afraid.
One of the women was Aviendha. The screams and shouts outside were dying away. Nynaeve started
toward the fallen Aiel. “There is no
need, Aes Sedai,” the older man said. “They took Shadowman steel.” Nynaeve still
bent to check each, pulling their veils away so she could peel back eyelids and
feel throats for a pulse. When she straightened from the second, her face was
white. It was Dailin. “Burn you! Burn you!” It was not clear whether she meant
Dailin, or the man with gray in his hair, or Aviendha, or all Aiel. “I did not
Heal her so she could die like this!” “Death comes to
us all,” Aviendha began, but when Nynaeve rounded on her, she fell silent. The
Aiel exchanged glances, as if not certain whether Nynaeve might do to them what
had been done to the Myrddraal. It was not fear in their eyes, only awareness. ”Shadowman
steel kills,” Aviendha said, “it does not wound.” The older man looked at her,
a slight surprise in his eyes ‑ Egwene decided that, like Lan, for this
man that flicker of the eyelids was the equivalent of another man’s open
astonishment ‑ and Aviendha said, “They know little of some things,
Rhuarc.” “I am sorry,”
Elayne said in a clear voice, “that we interrupted your . . . dance. Perhaps we
should not have interfered.” Egwene gave her
a startled look, then saw what she was doing. Put them at ease, and give Nynaeve a chance to cool down. “You were
handling things quite well,” she said. “Perhaps we offended by putting our
noses in.” The graying man
- Rhuarc ‑ gave a deep chuckle. “Aes Sedai, I for one am glad of . . .
whatever it was you did.” For a moment he looked not entirely sure of that, but
in the next he had his good temper back. He had a good smile, and a strong,
square face; he was handsome, if a little old. “We could have killed them, but
three Shadowmen . . . . They would have killed two or three of us, certainly,
perhaps all, and I cannot say we would have finished them all. For the young,
death is an enemy they wish to try their strength against. For those of us a
little older, she is an old friend, an old lover, but one we are not eager to
meet again soon.” Nynaeve seemed
to relax with his speech, as if meeting an Aiel who did not seem anxious to die
had leached the tension out of her. “I should thank you,” she said, “and I do.
I will admit I am surprised to see you, though. Aviendha, did you expect to
find us here? How?” “I followed
you.” The Aiel woman seemed unembarrassed. “To see what you would do. I saw the
men take you, but I was too far back to help. I was sure you must see me if I
came too close, so I stayed a hundred paces behind. By the time I saw you could
not help yourselves, it was too late to try alone.” “I am sure you
did what you could,” Egwene said faintly. She
was just a hundred paces behind us? Light, the brigands never saw anything. Aviendha took
her words as urging to tell more. “I knew where Corarn must be, and he knew
where Dhael and Luaine were, and they knew . . . .” She paused, frowning at the
older man. “I did not expect to find any clan chief, much less my own, among
those who came. Who leads the Taardad Aiel, Rhuarc, with you here?” Rhuarc shrugged
as if it were of no account. “The sept chiefs will take their turns, and try to
decide if they truly wish to go Rhuidean when I die. I would
not have come, except that Amys and Bair and Melaine and Seana stalked me like
ridgecats after a wild goat. The dreams said I must go. They asked if I truly
wanted to die old and fat in a bed.” Aviendha
laughed as if at a great joke. “I have heard it said that a man caught between
his wife and a Wise One often wishes for a dozen old enemies to fight instead.
A man caught between a wife and three Wise Ones, and the wife a Wise One
herself, must consider trying to slay Sightblinder. “ “The thought
came to me.” He frowned down at something on the floor; three Great Serpent
rings, Egwene saw, and a much heavier golden ring made for a man’s large
finger. “It still does. All things must change, but I would not be a part of
that change if I could set myself aside from it. Three Aes Sedai, traveling to
Tear.” The other Aiel glanced at one another as if they did not want Egwene and
her companions to notice. “You spoke of
dreams,” Egwene said. “Do your Wise Ones know what their dreams mean?” “Some do. If
you would know more than that, you must speak to them. Perhaps they will tell
an Aes Sedai. They do not tell men, except what the dreams say we must do.” He
sounded tired, suddenly. “And that is usually what we would avoid, if we
could.” He stooped to
pick up the man’s ring. On it, a crane flew above a lance and crown; Egwene
knew it now. She had seen it often before, dangling about Nynaeve’s neck on a
leather cord. Nynaeve stepped on the other rings to snatch it out of his hand;
her face was flushed, with anger and too many other emotions for Egwene to
read. Rhuarc made no move to take it back, but went on in the same weary tone. “And one of
them carries a ring I have heard of as a boy. The ring of Malkieri kings. They
rode with the Shienarans against the Aiel in my father’s time. They were good
in the dance of the spears. But Malkier fell to the Blight. It is said only a
child king survived, and he courts the death that took his land as other men
court beautiful women. Truly, this is a strange thing, Aes Sedai. Of all the
strange sights I thought I might see when Melaine harried me out of my own hold
and over the Dragonwall, none has been so strange as this. The path you set me
is one I never thought my feet would follow.” “I set no paths
for you,” Nynaeve said sharply. “All I want is to continue my journey. These
men had horses. We will take three of them and be on our way.” ”In the night,
Aes Sedai?” Rhuarc said. “Is your journey so urgent that you would travel these
dangerous lands in the dark?” Nynaeve
struggled visibly before saying, “No.” In a firmer tone she added, “But I mean
to leave with the sunrise.” The Aiel
carried the dead outside the palisade, but neither Egwene nor her companions
wanted to use the filthy bed Adden had slept in. They picked up their rings and
slept under the sky in their cloaks and the blankets the Aiel gave them. When dawn
pearled the sky to the east, the Aiel produced a breakfast of tough, dried meat
‑ Egwene hesitated over that until Aviendha told her it was goat ‑
flatbread that was almost as difficult to chew as the stringy meat, and a blue‑veined
white cheese that had a tart taste and was hard enough to make Elayne murmur
that the Aiel must practice by chewing rocks. But the Daughter‑Heir ate
as much as Egwene and Nynaeve together. The Aiel turned the horses loose ‑
they did not ride unless they had to, Aviendha explained, sounding as if she
herself would as soon run on blistered feet‑after choosing out the three
best for Egwene and the others. They were all tall and nearly as big as
warhorses, with proud necks and fierce eyes. A black stallion for Nynaeve, a
roan mare for Elayne, and a gray mare for Egwene. She chose to
call the gray Mist, in the hope that a gentle name might soothe her, and
indeed, Mist did seem to step lightly as they rode south, just as the sun
lifted a red rim above the horizon. The Aiel
accompanied them afoot, all those who had survived the fight. Three more had
died aside from the two the Myrddraal killed. They were nineteen, altogether,
now. They loped along easily alongside the horses. At first, Egwene tried
holding Mist to a slow walk, but the Aiel thought this very funny. “I will race
you ten miles,” Aviendha said, “and we shall see who wins, your horse or I.” “I will race
you twenty!” Rhuarc called, laughing. Egwene thought
they might actually be serious, and when she and the others let their horses
walk at a quicker pace, the Aiel certainly showed no sign of falling back. When the
thatched rooftops of Jurene came in sight, Rhuarc said, “Fare you well, Aes
Sedai. May you always find water and shade. Perhaps we will meet again before
the change comes.” He sounded grim. As the Aiel curved away to the south,
Aviendha and Chiad and Bain each raised a hand in
farewell. They did not seem to be slowing down now that they no longer ran with
the horses; if anything, they ran a little faster. Egwene had a suspicion they
meant to maintain that pace until they reached wherever it was they were going. “What did he
mean by that?” she asked. “ ‘Perhaps we will meet again before the change’ ?”
Elayne shook her head. “It does not
matter what he meant,” Nynaeve said. “I am just as glad they came last night,
but I am glad to have them gone, too. I hope there is a ship here.” Jurene itself
was a small place, all wooden houses and none more than a single story, but the
White Lion banner of Andor flew over it on a tall staff, and fifty of the Queen’s
Guards held it, in red coats with long white collars beneath shining
breastplates. They had been placed there, their captain said, to make a safe
haven for refugees who wished to flee to Andor, but fewer such came every day.
Most went to villages further downriver, now, nearer Aringill. It was a good
thing the three women had come when they did, as he expected to receive orders
returning his company to Andor any day. The few inhabitants of Jurene would
likely go with them, leaving what remained for brigands and the Cairhienin
soldiers of warring Houses. Elayne kept her
face hidden in the hood of her sturdy wool cloak, but none of the soldiers
seemed to associate the girl with red‑gold hair with their Daughter‑Heir.
Some asked her to stay; Egwene was not sure whether Elayne was pleased or
shocked. She herself told the men who asked her that she had no time for them.
It was nice, in an odd way, to be asked; she certainly had no wish to kiss any
of these fellows, but it was pleasant to be reminded that some men, at least,
thought she was as pretty as Elayne. Nynaeve slapped one man’s face. That
almost made Egwene laugh, and Elayne smiled openly; Egwene thought Nynaeve had
been pinched, and despite the glare on her face, she did not look entirely
displeased, either. They were not
wearing their rings. It had not taken much effort on Nynaeve’s part to convince
them that one place they did not want to be taken for Aes Sedai was Tear,
especially if the Black Ajah was there. Egwene had hers in her pouch with the
stone ter’angreal; she touched it often to remind herself they were
still there. Nynaeve wore hers on the cord that held Lan’s heavy ring between
her breasts. There was a
ship in Jurene, tied to the single stone dock sticking into the Erinin. Not the
ship Aviendha had seen, it seemed, but still a ship. Egwene was dismayed when
she saw it. Twice as wide as the Blue
Crane, the Darter belied its name
with a bluff bow as round as its captain. That worthy
fellow blinked at Nynaeve and scratched his ear when she asked if his vessel
was fast. “Fast? I am full of fancy wood from Shienar and rugs from Kandor.
What need to be fast with a cargo like that? Prices only go up. Yes, I suppose
there are faster ships behind me, but they’ll not put in here. I would not have
stopped myself if I hadn’t found worms in the meat. Fool notion that they’d
have meat to sell in Cairhien. The Blue
Crane? Aye, I saw Ellisor hung up on something upriver this morning. He’ll
not get off soon, I’m thinking. That’s what a fast ship brings you.” Nynave paid
their fares ‑ and twice as much again for the horses - with such a look
on her face that neither Egwene nor Elayne spoke to her until long after the Darter had wallowed away from Jurene. CHAPTER 40 A Hero in the Night
Leaning on the
rail, Mat watched the walled town of Aringill come closer as the sweeps worked
the Gray Gull in toward the long,
tarred‑timber docks. Protected by high stone wingwalls that thrust out
into the river, those docks swarmed with people, and more were leaving the
ships of various sizes that lay tied all along them. Some of the people pushed
barrows, or pulled sledges or tall‑wheeled carts, all piled high with
furniture and chests lashed in place, but most carried bundles on their backs,
if that. Not everyone bustled. Many men and women huddled together uncertainly,
and children clung crying to their legs. Soldiers in red coats and shiny
breastplates kept trying to make them move off the docks into the town, but
most seemed too frightened to move. Mat turned and
shaded his eyes to peer at the river they were leaving. The Erinin was busier
here than he had seen it south of Tar Valon, with nearly a dozen vessels under
way in sight, ranging from a long, sharp-prowed splinter darting upriver against
the current, pushed by two triangular sails, to a wide, bluff‑bowed ship
with square sails, still wallowing along well to the north. Nearly half the
ships he could see had nothing to do with the river trade, though. Two broad‑beamed
craft with empty decks were lumbering across the river, toward a smaller town
on the far bank, while three others labored back toward Aringill, their decks packed with people like
barrels of fish. The setting sun, still its own height above the horizon,
shadowed a banner flying over that other town. That shore was Cairhien, but he
did not need to see the banner to know it was the White Lion of Andor. There
had been talk enough in the few Andoran villages where the Gray Gull had
stopped briefly. He shook his head. Politics did not
interest him. As long as they don’t try telling me again I’m an Andorman
just because of some map. Burn me, they might even try to make me fight in
their bloody army, if this Cairhien business spreads. Following orders. Light! With a shiver, he turned back to
Aringill. Barefoot men on the Gray Gull were readying ropes to toss to
others on the docks. Captain Mallia was eyeing him from
back by the tiller. The fellow had never given up his efforts to ingratiate
himself with them, his attempts to learn what their important mission was. Mat
had finally shown him the sealed letter and told him that he was carrying it
from the Daughter-Heir to the Queen. A personal message from a daughter to her
mother; no more. Mallia had only seemed to hear the words “Queen Morgase.” Mat grinned to himself. A deep coat
pocket held two purses fatter than when he had boarded the vessel; he had
enough loose coin to more than fill another two. His luck had not been quite so
good as on that first, strange night when the dice and everything else had
seemed to go crazy, but still it was good enough. After the third night, Mallia
had given up trying to show his friendliness by gambling, but his money chest
was already lighter by then. It would be lighter still after Aringill. Mallia
had need to restock his food ‑ Mat glanced at the people milling on the
docks ‑ if he could, here, at any price. The grin faded as his thoughts went
back to the letter. A little work with a hot knife blade, and the golden lily
seal had been lifted. He had found nothing: Elayne was studying hard and making
progress and eager to learn. She was a dutiful daughter, and the Amyrlin Seat
had punished her for running away and told her never to speak of it again, so
her mother would understand why she could not say more. She said she had been
raised to the Accepted, and was that not wonderful, so soon, and she was being
trusted with greater duties now, and would have to leave Tar Valon for just a
short time on the service of the Amyrlin herself. Her mother was not to worry. It was all very well for her to tell
Morgase not to worry. It was him she had landed in the soup kettle. This silly
letter had to be the reason those men had come after him, but even Thom had
been able to make nothing of it, though he muttered about “ciphers” and “codes”
and “the Game of Houses.” Mat had the letter safe in the
lining of his coat, now, its seal replaced, and he was willing to bet no one
would ever know. If someone wanted it badly enough to kill him for it, they
might try again. I told you I’d deliver it, Nynaeve, and I bloody will, no
matter who tries to stop me. Even
so, he would have words to say the next time he saw those three irritating
women ‑ If I ever do. Light, I
never thought of that ‑ words he did not think they would enjoy
hearing. As the crewmen hurled their lines
onto the dock, Thom came on deck, his instrument cases on his back and his
bundle in one hand. Even with a limp he strutted to the rail, giving the tail
of his cloak little flourishes to make the colored patches flutter, and blowing
out his long, white mustaches importantly. “Nobody is watching, Thom,” Mat
said. “I don’t think they would even see a gleeman unless he had food in his
hands.” Thom stared at the docks. “Light! I
had heard it was bad, but I did not expect this! Poor fools. Half of them look
as if they are starving. It may cost us one of your purses for a room tonight.
And the other for a meal, if you intend to keep on the way you’ve been going.
Nearly made me ill to watch you. You try eating that way where those people
down there can see you, and you may have your brains battered out.” Mat only smiled at him. Mallia came stumping down the deck, tugging the point of his
beard, as the Gray Gull was warped into her berth. Crewmen ran to set a
gangplank, and Sanor stood guard on it, heavy arms folded across his chest, in
case the throng on the docks tried to board. None of them did. “So you will be leaving me here,”
Mallia told Mat. The captain’s smile was not as ready as it might have been.
“Are you certain there is nothing I can do to help further? Burn my soul, I
never saw such a rabble! Those soldiers ought to clear the docks ‑ with
the sword, if need be! ‑ so decent traders can do business. Perhaps Sanor
can make a path through this scum to your inn for you.” So you’ll know where we are staying?
Not bloody likely.
“I had thought of eating before I went ashore, and maybe a game of dice to pass
the time.” Mallia’s face went white. “But I think I would like a steady floor
under me for my next meal. So we will leave you now, Captain. It has been an
enjoyable voyage.” While relief still battled
consternation on the captain’s face, Mat picked up his things from the deck
and, using the quarterstaff as a walking stick, made his way to the gangplank
with Thom. Mallia followed as far as the head of the plank, murmuring regrets
at their departure that jumped from real to insincere and back again. Mat was
certain the man hated losing a chance to ingratiate himself with his High Lord
Samon by learning details of a pact between Andor and Tar Valon. As Mat and the gleeman pushed
through the crowds, Thom muttered, “I know the man is far from likable, but why
do you have to keep taunting him? Wasn’t it enough that you ate every scrap of
what he thought would feed him all the way to Tear?” “I have not been eating it all for
nearly two days.” The hunger had simply been gone one morning, to his great
relief. It had been as if Tar Valon had loosed its last hold on him. “I’ve been
throwing most of it over the side, and a hard job it was making sure nobody
saw.” Among these drawn faces, many of them children’s, it did not seem so
funny anymore. “Mallia deserved taunting. What about that ship, yesterday? The
one that was stuck on a mudbank or something. He could have stopped to help,
but he would not go near it however much they shouted. “ There was a woman with
long, dark hair ahead who might have been pretty if she had not looked so bone
weary, peering into the face of every man who passed her as if looking for
someone; a boy little taller than her waist and two girls shorter clung to her,
all crying. “All that talk about river brigands and traps. It didn’t look like
any trap to me.” Thom dodged around a high‑wheeled
cart ‑ a cage holding two squealing pigs was lashed atop the canvas‑covered
mound ‑ and nearly tripped over a sledge being pulled by a man and a
woman. “And you go out of your way to help people, do you? Strange how that has
escaped my eye.” “I’ll help anyone who can pay,” Mat
said firmly. “Only fools in stories do something for nothing.” The two girls sobbed into their
mother’s skirts while the boy fought his tears. The woman’s deep‑set eyes
rested on Mat for a moment, studying his face, before drifting on; they looked
as if she wished she could weep, too. On impulse he dug a fistful of loose
coins out of his pocket without looking to see what they were and pressed them
into her hand. She gave a start of surprise, stared at the gold and silver in
her hand with incomprehension that quickly turned to a smile, and opened her
mouth, tears of gratitude filling her eyes. “Buy them something to eat,” he said
quickly, and hurried on before she could speak. He noticed Thom looking at him.
“What are you gawking at? Coin comes easily as long as I can find somebody who
likes to dice.” Thom nodded slowly, but Mat was not sure he had gotten his
point across. Bloody children’s crying
was getting on my nerves, that’s all. Fool gleeman will probably expect me to
give gold away to every waif that comes along, now. Fool! For an uncomfortable
moment, he was not certain whether the last had been meant for Thom or himself. Taking himself in hand, he avoided
looking at any face long enough to really see it until he found the one he
wanted, at the foot of the dock. The helmetless soldier in red coat and
breastplate, urging people into the town, had the grizzled look of a squadman,
an experienced leader of ten or so. Squinting into the setting sun, he reminded
Mat of Uno, though he had both his eyes. He looked almost as tired as the
people he was chivying. “Move along,” he was shouting in a hoarse voice. “You
can’t bloody stay here. Move along. Into the town with you.” Mat stationed himself squarely in
front of the soldier and put on a smile. “Your pardon, Captain, but can you
tell me where I might find a decent inn? And a stable with good horses to sell.
We have a long way to go, come morning.” The soldier eyed him up and down,
examined Thom and his gleeman’s cloak, then shifted back to Mat. “Captain, is
it? Well, boy, you’ll have the Dark One’s own luck if you find a stable to
sleep in. Most of this lot are sleeping under hedges. And if you find a horse
that hasn’t been slaughtered for cooking, you’ll likely have to fight the man
who owns it to make him sell.” “Eating horse!” Thom muttered disgustedly.
“Has it really become that bad on this side of the river? Isn’t the Queen
sending food?” “It is bad, gleeman.” The soldier
looked as if he wanted to spit. “They’re crossing over faster than the mills
can grind flour, or wagons carry foodstuffs from the farms. Well, it will not
last much longer. The order has come down. Tomorrow, we stop letting anyone
across, and if they try, we send there back.” He scowled at the people milling
on the dock as if it were all their fault, then brought the same hard look to
bear on Mat. “You are taking up space, traveler. Move along.” His voice rose to
a shout again, directed at everyone within hearing. “Move along! You cannot
bloody stay here! Move along!” Mat and Thom joined the thin stream
of people, carts, and sledges flowing toward the gates in the town wall, and
into Aringill. The main streets were paved with
flat gray stones, but they were crowded with so many people that it was
difficult to see the stones under your own boots. Most appeared to be moving
aimlessly, with nowhere to go, and those who had given up squatted dejectedly
along the sides of the street, the lucky ones with bundled belongings in front
of them or some cherished possession clutched in their arms. Mat saw three men
holding clocks, and a dozen or more with silver goblets or platters. The women
held children to their breasts, mainly. A babble filled the air, a low,
wordless hum of worry. He pushed through the crowd with a frown on his face,
searching for the sign that would mark an inn. The buildings were every sort,
wood and brick and stone all cheek by jowl, with roofs of tile, or slate, or
thatch. “It does not sound like Morgase,”
Thom said after a time, half to himself. His bushy eyebrows were pulled down
like a white arrow pointing to his nose. “What does not sound like her?” Mat
asked absently. “Stopping the crossings. Sending
people back. She always had a temper like lightning, but she always had a soft
heart, too, for anyone poor or hungry.” He shook his head. Mat saw a sign, then ‑ the Riverman,
it said, and showed a barefoot, shirtless fellow doing a jig ‑ and turned
that way, forcing an angle across the flow with the quarterstaff. “Well, it had
to be her. Who else could it be? Forget Morgase, Thom. We’ve a long way to
Caemlyn, yet. First let us see how much gold it takes to buy a bed for the
night.” The common room of The Riverman
looked as crowded as the street outside, and when the innkeeper heard what Mat
wanted, he laughed till his chins shook. “I am sleeping four to a bed, now. If
my own mother came to me, I could not give her a blanket by the fire.” “As you must have noticed,” Thom
said, his voice taking on that echoing quality, “I am a gleeman. Surely you can
find at least pallets in a corner in return for me entertaining your patrons
with stories and juggling, eating of fire, and sleight of hand.” The innkeeper
laughed in his face. As Mat pulled him back into the
street, Thom growled in his normal voice, “You never gave me a chance to ask
after his stable. Surely I could have gotten us a place in the hayloft, at
least.” “I have slept in enough stables and
barns since leaving Emond’s Field,” Mat told him, “and under enough bushes,
too. I want a bed.” But at the next four inns he found,
the innkeeper gave him the same answer as the first; the last two almost threw
him out bodily when he offered to dice for a bed. And when the owner of the
fifth told him he could not give a pallet to the Queen herself ‑ this at
a place called The Good Queen ‑ he sighed and asked, “What about your
stable, then? Surely we can bed down in the hayloft for a price.” “My stable is for horses,” the round‑faced
man said, “not that many are left in the city.” He had been polishing a silver
cup; now he opened one door of a shallow cupboard standing on top of a deep,
drawered chest and placed it inside with others; none of them matched. A tooled‑leather
dice cup sat atop the chest, just beyond the arc of the cupboard’s doors. “I do
not put people in there to frighten the horses, and perhaps make off with them.
Those who pay me for stabling their animals want them well tended, and I’ve two
of my own in there, besides. There are no beds in my stable for you.” Mat eyed the dice cup thoughtfully.
He pulled a gold Andoran crown out of his pocket and set it atop the chest. The
next coin was a silver Tar Valon mark, then a gold one, and a gold Tairen
crown. The innkeeper looked at the coins and licked his plump lips. Mat added
two silver Illianer marks and another gold Andoran crown, and looked at the
roundfaced man. The innkeeper hesitated. Mat reached for the coins. The
innkeeper’s hand reached them first. “Perhaps just the two of you would
not disturb the horses too greatly.” Mat smiled at him. “Speaking of
horses, what price for those two of yours? With saddles and bridles, of
course.” “I will not sell my horses,” the man
said, clutching the coins to his chest. Mat picked up the dice cup and
rattled it. “Twice as much again against the horses, saddles, and bridles.” He
shook his coat pocket to make the loose coins rattle, too, to show he had more
to cover the wager. “My one toss against the best of your two.” He almost
laughed as greed lit the innkeeper’s entire face. When Mat walked into the stable, the
first thing he did was check along the half‑dozen stalls with horses in
them for a pair of brown geldings. They were nondescript animals, but they were
his. They needed currying badly, but otherwise they seemed in good condition,
especially considering that all the stablemen but one had run off. The
innkeeper had been extremely disparaging of their complaints that they could no
longer live on what he paid them, and he seemed to think it a crime that the
one man who remained had actually had the audacity to say he was going home to
bed just because he was tired from doing three men’s work. ”Five sixes,” Thom muttered behind
him. The looks he cast around the stable did not seem as enthralled as they
might, seeing that he had suggested it in the first place. Dust motes shone in
the last light of the setting sun coming through the big doors, and the ropes
used to hoist hay bales hung like vines from pulleys in the roof beams. The
hayloft was dim in the gloom above; “When he threw four sixes and a five on his
second toss, he thought you’d lost for sure, and so did I. You have not been
winning every toss of late.” “I win enough.” Mat was just as
relieved not to be winning every throw. Luck was one thing, but remembering
that night still sent shivers down his back. Still, for one moment as he shook
that dice cup, he had all but known what the pips would be. As he tossed the
quarterstaff up into the loft, thunder crashed in the sky. He scrambled up the
ladder, calling back to Thom. “This was a good idea. I’d think you would be
happy to be in out of the rain tonight.” Most of the hay was in bales stacked
against the outer walls, but there was more than enough loose for him to make a
bed with his cloak over it. Thom appeared at the top of the ladder as he was
pulling two loaves of bread and a wedge of green‑veined cheese from his
leather script. The innkeeper ‑ his name was Jeral Florry ‑ had
parted with the food for merely enough coin to have bought one of those horses
in more peaceful days. They ate while rain began drumming on the roof, washing
the food down with water from their waterbottles ‑ Florry had had no wine
at any price ‑ and when they were done, Thom dug out his tinderbox and
thumbed his long‑stemmed pipe full of tabac and settled back for a smoke. Mat was lying on his back, staring
at the shadowed roof and wondering if the rain would break before morning‑he
wanted that letter out of his hands as quickly as possible‑when he heard
an axle creak into the stable. Rolling to the edge of the loft, he peered down.
There was enough dusk left for him to see. A slender woman was straightening
from the shafts of the high‑wheeled cart she had just dragged in out of
the rain, pulling off her cloak and muttering to herself as she shook the wet
from it. Her hair was plaited in a multitude of small braids, and her silk
dress‑he thought it was a pale green‑was elaborately embroidered
across her breasts. The dress had been fine, once, but now it was tattered and
stained. She knuckled her back, still talking to herself in a low voice, and
hurried to the stable doors to peer out into the rain. Just as hurriedly, she
ducked out to pull the big doors shut, enclosing the stable in darkness. There
was a rustling below, a clink and a slosh, and suddenly a small flare of light
bloomed into a lantern in her hands. She looked around, found a hook on a stall
post, hung the lantern, and went to dig under the roped canvas covering her
cart. “She did that quickly,” Thom said
softly around his pipe. “She could have set fire to the stable striking flint
and steel in the dark like that.” The woman came out with the end of a
loaf of bread, which she gnawed as if it were hard and her hunger did not care. “Is there any of that cheese left?”
Mat whispered. Thom shook his head. The woman began sniffing at the air,
and Mat realized she probably smelled Thom’s tabac smoke. He was about to stand
and announce their presence when one of the stable doors opened again. The woman crouched, ready to run, as
four men walked in out of the rain, doffing their wet cloaks to reveal pale
coats with wide sleeves and embroidery across the chest, and baggy breeches
embroidered down the legs. Their clothes might be fancy, but they were all big
men, and their faces were grim. “So, Aludra,” a man in a yellow coat
said, “you did not run so fast as you thought to, eh?” He had a strange accent,
to Mat’s ear. “Tammuz,” the woman said as if it
were a curse. “It is not enough that you cause me to be cast out of the Guild
with your blundering, you great ox‑brain you, but now you chase after me
as well.” She had the same odd way of speaking as the man. “Do you think that I
am glad to see you?” The one called Tammuz laughed. “You
are a very large fool, Aludra, which I always knew. Had you merely gone away,
you could have lived a long life in some quiet place. But you could not forget
the secrets in your head, eh? Did you believe we would not hear that you try to
earn your way making what it is the right of the Guild alone to make?” Suddenly
there was a knife in his hand. “It will be a great pleasure to cut your throat,
Aludra.” Mat was not even aware that he had
stood up until one of the doubled ropes dangling from the ceiling was in his
hands and he had launched himself out of the loft. Burn me for a bloody fool! He only had time for that one
frantic thought, and then he was plowing through the cloaked men, sending them
toppling like pins in a game of bowls. The ropes slipped through his hands, and
he fell, tumbling across the straw‑covered floor himself, coins spilling
from his pockets, to end up against a stall. When he scrambled to his feet, the
four men were already rising, too. And they all had knives in their hands, now.
Lightblind fool! Burn me! Burn me! “Mat!” He looked up, and Thom tossed his
quarterstaff down to him. He snagged it out of the air just in time to knock
the blade out of Tammuz’s fist and thump him a sharp crack on the side of the
head. The man crumpled, but the other three were right behind, and for a hectic
moment Mat had all he could do with a whirling staff to keep knife blades away
from him, rapping knees and ankles and ribs until he could land a good blow on
a head. When the last man fell, he stared at them a moment, then raised his
glare to the woman. “Did you have to choose this stable to be murdered in?” She slipped a slim‑bladed
dagger back into a sheath at her belt. “I would have helped you, but I feared
that you might mistake me for one of these great buffoons if I came near with
steel in my hand. And I chose this stable because the rain is wet and so am I,
and no one was watching this place.” She was older than he had thought,
at least ten or fifteen years older than he, but pretty still, with large, dark
eyes and a small, full mouth that seemed on the point of a pout. Or getting ready for a kiss. He gave a
small laugh and leaned on his staff. “Well, what is done is done. I suppose you
were not trying to bring us trouble.” Thom was climbing down from the
loft, awkwardly because of his leg, and Aludra looked from him to Mat. The
gleeman had put his cloak back on; he seldom let anyone see him without it,
especially for the first time. “This is like a story,” she said. “I am rescued
by a gleeman and a young hero” ‑ she frowned at the men sprawled on the
stable floor ‑ “from these whose mothers were pigs!” “Why did they want to kill you?” Mat
asked. “He said something about secrets.” “The secrets,” Thom said in very
nearly his performing voice, “of making fireworks, unless I miss my guess. You
are an Illuminator, are you not?” He made a courtly bow with an elaborate swirl
of his cloak. “I am Thom Merrilin, a gleeman, as you have seen.” Almost as an
afterthought, he added, “And this is Mat, a young man with a knack for finding
trouble.” “I was an Illuminator,” Aludra said
stiffly, “but this great pig Tammuz, he ruined a performance for the King of
Cairhien, and nearly he destroyed the chapter house, too. But me, I was
Mistress of the Chapter House, so it was me that the Guild held responsible.”
Her voice became defensive. “I do not tell the secrets of the Guild, no matter
what that Tammuz says, but I will not let myself starve while I can make
fireworks. I am no more in the Guild, so the laws of the Guild, they do not
apply to me now.” “Galldrian,” Thom said, sounding
almost as wooden as she had. “Well, he is a dead king now, and he’ll see no
more fireworks.” “The Guild,” she said, sounding
tired, “they all but blame me for this war in Cairhien, as if that one night of
disaster, it made Galldrian die.” Thom grimaced. “It seems I can no longer
remain here,” she went on. “Tammuz and these other oxen, they will wake soon.
Perhaps this time they will tell the soldiers that I stole what I have made.”
She eyed Thom and then Mat, frowning in thought, and seemed to reach a
decision. “I must reward you, but I have no money. However, I have something
that is perhaps as good as gold. Maybe better. We shall see what you think.” Mat exchanged glances with Thom as
she went to root under the canvas covering her cart. I’ll help anyone who can pay. He thought a
speculative light had appeared in Thom’s blue eyes. Aludra separated one bundle from a number like it, a short
roll of heavy, oiled cloth almost as fat as her arms, would go around. Setting
it down on the straw, she undid the binding cords and unrolled the cloth across
the floor. Four rows of pockets ran along the length of it, the pockets in each
row larger than those in the one before. Each pocket held a wax‑coated
cylinder of paper just large enough for its end, trailing a dark cord, to stick
out. “Fireworks,” Thom said. “I knew it.
Aludra, you must not do this. You can sell those for enough to live ten days or
more at a good inn, and eat well every day. Well, anywhere but here in
Aringill.” Kneeling beside the long strip of
oiled cloth, she sniffed at him. “Be quiet, you old one you.” She made it sound
not unkindly. “I am not allowed to show gratitude? You think I would give you
this if I had no more for selling? Attend me closely.” Mat squatted beside her, fascinated.
He had seen fireworks twice in his life. Peddlers had brought them to Emond’s
Field, at great expense to the Village Council. When he was ten, he had tried
to cut one open to see what was inside, and had caused an uproar. Bran al’Vere,
the Mayor, had cuffed him; Doral Barran, who had been the Wisdom then, had
switched him; and his father had strapped him when he got home. Nobody in the village
would talk to him for a month, except for Rand and Perrin, and they mostly told
him what a fool he had been. He reached out to touch one of the cylinders.
Aludra slapped his hand away. “Attend me first, I say! These
smallest, they will make a loud bang, but no more.” They were the size of his
little finger. “These next, they make a bang and a bright light. The next, they
make the bang, and the light, and many sparkles. The last”‑these were
fatter than his thumb ‑“make all of those things, but the sparkles, they
are many colors. Almost like a nightflower, but not up in the sky.” Nightflower? Mat
thought. “You must be especially careful of
these. You see, the fuse, it is very long.” She saw his blank look, and waggled
one of the long, dark cords at him. “This, this!” “Where you put the fire,” he
muttered. “I know that.” Thom made a sound in his throat and stroked his
mustaches with a knuckle as if covering a smile. Aludra grunted. “Where you put the
fire. Yes. Do not stay close to any of them, but these largest, you run away
from when you light the fuse. You comprehend me?” She briskly rolled up the
long cloth. “You may sell these if you wish, or use them. Remember, you must
never put this close to fire. Fire will make them all explode. So many as this at
once, it could destroy a house, maybe.” She hesitated over retying the cords,
then added, “And there is one last thing, which you may have heard. Do not cut
open any of these, as some great fools do to see what is inside. Sometimes when
what is inside touches air, it will explode without the need of fire. You can
lose fingers, or even a hand.” “I’ve heard that,” Mat said dryly. She frowned at him as if wondering
whether he meant to do it anyway, then finally pushed the rolled bundle toward
him. “Here. I must go now, before these sons of goats awaken.” Glancing at the
still open door, and the rain falling in the night beyond, she sighed. “Perhaps
I will find somewhere else dry. I think I will go toward Lugard, tomorrow.
These pigs, they will expect me to go to Caemlyn, yes?” It was even further to Lugard than
to Caemlyn, and Mat suddenly remembered that hard end of bread. And she had
said she had no money. The fireworks would buy no meals until she found someone
who could afford them. She had never even looked at the gold and silver that
had spilled from his pockets when he fell; it glittered and sparkled among the
straw in the lantern light. Ah, Light, I
cannot let her go hungry, I suppose. He scooped up as much as he could
reach quickly. “Uh . . . Aludra? I have plenty, you
can see. I thought perhaps . . . .” He held out the coins toward her. “I can
always win more.” She paused with her cloak half
around her shoulders, then smiled at Thom as she swept it the rest of the way
on. “He is young yet, eh?” “He is young,” Thom agreed. “And not
half so bad as he would like to think himself. Sometimes he is not.” Mat glowered at both of them and
lowered his hand. Lifting the shafts of her cart,
Aludra got it turned around and started for the door, giving Tammuz a kick in
the ribs as she passed. He groaned groggily. “I would like to know something,
Aludra,” Thom said. “How did you light that lantern so quickly in the dark?” Stopping short of the door, she
smiled over her shoulder at him. “You wish me to tell you all of my secrets? I
am grateful, but I am not in love. That secret, not even the Guild knows, for
it is my discovery alone. I will tell you this much. When I know how to make it
work properly, and work only when I want it to, sticks will make my fortune for
me.” Throwing her weight against the shafts, she pulled the cart into the rain,
and the night swallowed her. “Sticks?” Mat said. He wondered if
she might not be a little strange in the head. Tammuz groaned again. “Best we do the same as she, boy,”
Thom said. “Else it’s a choice between slitting four throats and maybe spending
the next few days explaining ourselves to the Queen’s Guards. These look the
sort who’d set them on us out of spite. And they have enough to be spiteful
for, I suppose.” One of Tammuz’s companions twitched as if coming to, and
muttered something incomprehensible. By the time they had gathered
everything and saddled the horses, Tammuz was up on his hands and knees with
his head hanging, and the others were stirring and groaning, too. Swinging into his saddle, Mat stared
at the rain outside the open door, falling harder than ever. “A bloody hero,”
he said. “Thom, if I ever look like acting the hero again, you kick me.” ”And
what would you have done differently?” Mat scowled at him, then pulled up
his hood and spread the tail of his cloak over the fat roll tied behind the
high cantle of his saddle. Even with oiled cloth, a little more protection from
the rain could not hurt. “Just kick me!” He booted his horse in the ribs and
galloped into the rainy night. CHAPTER 41 A Hunter’s Oath As the Snow Goose moved toward the long stone
docks of Illian, sails furled and propelled by its sweeps, Perrin stood near
the stern watching great numbers of long‑legged birds wading in the tall
marsh grass that all but encircled the great harbor. He recognized the small
white cranes, and could guess at their much larger blue brothers, but many of
the crested birds ‑ red‑feathered or rosy, some with flat bills
broader than a duck’s ‑ he did not know at all. A dozen sorts of gulls
swooped and soared above the harbor itself, and a black bird with a long, sharp
beak skimmed just above the water, its underbeak cutting a furrow. Ships three
and four times as long as the Snow Goose lay
anchored across the expanse of the harbor, waiting their turns at the docks, or
for the tides to shift so they could sail beyond the long breakwater. Small
fishing boats worked close to the marsh, and in the creeks winding through it,
two or three men in each dragging nets on long poles swung out from either side
of the boat. The wind
carried a sharp scent of salt, and did little to break the heat. The sun stood
well over halfway down to the horizon, but it seemed like noon. The air felt
damp; it was the only way he could think of it. Damp. His nose caught the smell
of fresh fish from the boats, of old fish and mud from the marsh, and the sour
stink of a large tanning yard that lay on a treeless island in the marsh grass. Captain Adarra
muttered something softly behind him, the tiller creaked, and the Snow Goose changed its course a trifle.
Barefoot men at the sweeps moved as if not wanting to make a sound. Perrin did
not glance at them beyond a flicker of his eye. He peered at
the tannery, instead, watching men scrape hides stretched on rows of wooden
frames, and other men lift hides out of huge, sunken vats with long sticks.
Sometimes they stacked the hides on barrows, wheeling them into the long, low
building at the edge of the yard; sometimes the hides went back into the vats,
with an addition of liquids poured from large stone crocks. They probably made
more leather in a day than was made in Emond’s Field in months, and he could
see another tannery on another island beyond the first. It was not that
he had any real interest in ships or fishing boats or tanning yards, or even
very much in the birds ‑ though he did wonder what those pale red ones
could be fishing for with their flat bills, and some of them looked good to eat
unless he watched himself ‑ but anything at all was better than watching
the scene behind him on the deck of the Snow
Goose. The axe at his belt was no defense against that. A stone wall wouldn’t be defense enough, he
thought. Moiraine had
been neither pleased nor displeased to discover that Zarine ‑ I’ll not call her Faile, whatever she wants to
name herself! She is no falcon! ‑ knew she was Aes Sedai, though she
had been perhaps a little upset with him for not telling her. A little upset. She called me a fool, but that
was all. Then. Moiraine did
not seem to care one way or another about Zarine being a Hunter of the Horn.
But once she learned the girl thought they would lead her to the Horn of
Valere, once she learned he had known that, too, and not told her ‑
Zarine had been more than forthcoming about both subjects with Moiraine, to his
mind ‑ then her cold blue stare had taken on a quality that made him feel
as if he had been packed in a barrel of snow in the dead of winter. The Aes
Sedai said nothing, but she stared too often and too hard for any comfort. He looked over
his shoulder and quickly returned to studying the shoreline. Zarine was sitting
cross‑legged on the deck near the horses tethered between the masts, her
bundle and dark cloak beside her, her narrow, divided skirts neatly arrayed,
pretending to study the rooftops and towers of the oncoming city. Moiraine was
studying Illian, too, from just ahead of the men working the sweeps, but now
and then she shot a hard look at the girl from under the deep hood of her fine
gray wool cloak. How can she stand
wearing that? His own coat was unbuttoned and his shirt unlaced at the
neck. Zarine met each
Aes Sedai look with a smile, but every time Moiraine turned away, she swallowed
and wiped her forehead. Perrin rather
admired her for managing that smile when Moiraine was watching. It was a good
deal more than he could do. He had never seen the Aes Sedai truly lose her
temper, but he himself was at the point of wishing she would shout, or rage, or
anything but stare at him. Light, maybe
not anything! Maybe the
stare was bearable. Lan sat further
toward the bow than Moiraine ‑ his color‑shifting cloak was still
in the saddlebags at his feet ‑ outwardly absorbed in examining his sword
blade, but making little effort to hide his amusement. Sometimes his lips
appeared to quirk very close to a smile. Perrin was not certain; at times he
thought it was only a shadow. Shadows could make a hammer seem to smile. Each
woman obviously thought she was the object of that amusement, but the Warder
did not appear to mind the tight‑lipped frowns he received from both of
them. A few days
earlier Perrin had heard Moiraine ask Lan, in a voice like ice, whether he saw
something to laugh at. “I would never laugh at you, Moiraine Sedai,” he had
replied calmly, “but if you truly intend to send me to Myrelle,.I must become
used to smiling. I hear that Myrelle tells her Warders jokes. Gaidin must smile
at their bond‑holder’s quips; you have often given me quips to laugh at,
have you not? Perhaps you would rather I stay with you after all.” She had
given him a look that would have nailed any other man to the mast, but the
Warder never blinked. Lan made cold steel seem like tin. The crew had
taken to padding about their work in utter silence when Moiraine and Zarine
were on deck together. Captain Adarra held his head tilted, and looked as if he
were listening for something he did not want to hear. He passed his orders in
whispers, instead of the shouts he had used at first. Everyone knew Moiraine
was Aes Sedai, now, and everyone knew she was displeased. Perrin had let
himself get into one shouting match with Zarine, and he was not sure which of
them had said the words “Aes Sedai,” but the whole crew knew. Bloody woman! He was uncertain whether he meant
Moiraine or Zarine. If she is the
falcon, what is the hawk supposed to be? Am I going to be stuck with two women like her? Light! No! She is not a
falcon, and that is an end to it! The only good thing he could find in all
this was that with an angry Aes Sedai to worry about, none of the crew looked
twice at his eyes. Loial was
nowhere in sight, at the moment. The Ogier stayed in his stifling cabin
whenever Moiraine and Zarine were topside together - working on his notes, he
said. He only came on deck at night, to smoke his pipe. Perrin did see how he
could take the heat; even Moiraine and Zarine were better than being
belowdecks. He sighed and
kept his eyes on Illian. The city the ship was approaching was large‑as
big as Cairhien or Caemlyn, the only two great cities he had ever seen ‑
and it reared out of a huge marsh that stretched for miles like a plain of
waving grass. Illian had no walls at all, but it seemed to be all towers and
palaces. The buildings were all pale stone, except for some that appeared
covered with white plaster, but the stone was white and gray and reddish and
even faint shades of green. Rooftops of tile sparkled under the sun with a
hundred different hues. The long docks held many ships, most dwarfing the Snow Goose, and bustled with the loading and
unloading of cargo. There were shipyards at the far end of the city, where
great ships stood in every stage from skeletons of thick wooden ribs to nearly
ready to slide into the harbor. Perhaps Illian
was large enough to keep wolves at bay. They surely would not hunt in those
marshes. The Snow Goose had outrun
the wolves that had followed him from the mountains. He reached out for them
gingerly, now, and felt‑nothing. A curiously empty feeling, given that
it was what he wanted. His dreams had been his own ‑ for the most part - since
that first night. Moiraine had asked about them in a cold voice, and he had
told the truth. Twice he had found himself in that odd sort of wolf dream, and
both times Hopper had appeared, chasing him away, telling him he was too young
yet, too new. What Moiraine made of that, he had no idea; she told him nothing,
except to say he had best be wary. “That’s as well
by me,” he growled. He was almost becoming used to Hopper being dead but not
dead, in the wolf dreams, at least. Behind him, he heard Captain Adarra scuff
his boots on the deck and mutter something, startled that anyone would speak
aloud. Lines were
hurled ashore from the ship. While they were still being made fast to stone
posts along the docks, the slightly built captain leaped into motion,
whispering fiercely to his crew. He had booms rigged to lift the horses onto
the wharf almost as quickly as the gangplank was laid in place. Lan’s black
warhorse kicked and nearly broke the boom hoisting him. Loial’s huge, hairy‑fetlocked
mount needed two. “An honor,”
Adarra whispered to Moiraine with a bow as she stepped onto the wide plank
leading to the dock. “An honor to have served you, Aes Sedai.” She
strode ashore without looking at him, her face hidden in her deep hood. Loial did not
appear until everyone else was on the dock, and the horses, too. The Ogier came
thumping up the gangplank trying to don his long coat while carrying his big
saddlebags and striped blanketroll, and his cloak over one arm. “I did not know
we had arrived,” he rumbled breathlessly. “I was rereading my . . . . “ He
trailed off with a glance at Moiraine. She appeared to be absorbed in watching
Lan saddle Aldieb, but the Ogier’s ears flickered like a nervous cat’s. His notes, Perrin thought. One of these days I have to see what he is
saying about all this. Something tickled the back of his neck, and he
jumped a foot before he realized he was smelling a clean, herbal scent through
the spices and tar and stinks of the docks. Zarine wiggled
her fingers, smiling at them. “If I can do that with just a brush of my
fingers, farmboy, I wonder how high you would jump if I ‑ ?” He was growing
a little tired of considering looks from those dark, tilted eyes. She may be pretty, but she looks at me the
way I’d look at a tool I’d never seen before, trying to puzzle out how it was
made, and what it is supposed to be used for. “Zarine.”
Moiraine’s voice was cool but unruffled. “I am called
Faile,” Zarine said firmly, and for a moment, with her bold nose, she did look
like a falcon. “Zarine,”
Moiraine said firmly, “It is time for our ways to part. You will find better
Hunting elsewhere, and safer.” “I think not,”
Zarine said just as firmly. “A Hunter must follow the trail she sees, and no
Hunter would ignore the trail you four leave. And I am Faile.” She spoiled it a
bit by swallowing, but she did not blink as she met Moiraine’s eyes. “Are you
certain?” Moiraine said softly. “Are you sure you will not change your mind . .
. Falcon?” “I will not.
There is nothing you or your stone‑faced Warder can do to stop me.”
Zarine hesitated, then added slowly, as if she had decided to be entirely
truthful, “At least, there is nothing that you will do that can stop me. I know
a little of Aes Sedai; I know, for all the stories, that there are things you
will not do. And I do not believe stone‑face would do what he must to
make me give over.” “Are you sure
enough of that to risk it?” Lan spoke quietly, and his face did not change, but
Zarine swallowed again. ”There is no
need to threaten her, Lan,” Perrin said. He was surprised to realize he was
glaring at the Warder. Moiraine’s
glance silenced him and the Warder both. “You believe you know what an Aes
Sedai will not do, do you?” she said more softly than before. Her smile was not
pleasant. “If you wish to go with us, this is what you must do.” Lan’s eyelids
flickered in surprise; the two women stared at each other like falcon and
mouse, but Zarine was not the falcon, now. “You will swear by your Hunter’s
oath to do as I say, to heed me, and not to leave us. Once you know more than
you should of what we do, I will not allow you to fall into the wrong hands.
Know that for truth, girl. You will swear to act as one of us, and do nothing
that will endanger our purpose. You will ask no questions of where we go or
why: you will be satisfied with what I choose to tell you. All of this you will
swear, or you will remain here in Illian. And you will not leave this marsh
until I return to release you, if it takes the rest of your life. That I
swear.” Zarine turned
her head uneasily, watching Moiraine out of one eye. “I may accompany you if I
swear?” The Aes Sedai nodded. “I will be one of you, the same as Loial or stone‑face.
But I can ask no questions. Are they allowed to ask questions?” Moiraine’s face
lost a little of its patience. Zarine stood up straighter and held her head
high. “Very well, then. I swear, by the oath I took as a Hunter. If I break
one, I will have broken both. I swear it!” “Done,”
Moiraine said, touching the younger woman’s forehead; Zarine shivered. “Since
you brought her to us, Perrin, she is your responsibility.” “Mine!” he
yelped. “I am no one’s
responsibility but my own!” Zarine nearly shouted. The Aes Sedai
went serenely on as if they had never opened their mouths. “It seems you have
found Min’s falcon, ta’veren. I have
tried to discourage her, but it appears she will perch on your shoulder
whatever I do. The Pattern weaves a future for you, it seems. Yet remember
this. If I must, I will snip your thread from the Pattern. And if the girl
endangers what must be, you will share her fate.” “I did not ask
for her to come along!” Perrin protested. Moiraine calmly mounted Aldieb,
adjusting her cloak over the white mare’s saddle. “I did not ask for her!”
Loial shrugged at him and silently mouthed something. No doubt a saying about
the dangers of angering Aes Sedai. “You are ta’veren?” Zarine said disbelievingly.
Her gaze ran over his sturdy country clothes and settled on his yellow eyes.
“Well, perhaps. Whatever you are, she threatens you as easily as she does me.
Who is Min? What does she mean, I will perch on your shoulder?” Her face
tightened. “If you try making me your responsibility, I will carve your ears.
Do you hear me?” Grimacing, he
slipped his unstrung bow under the saddle girths along Stepper’s flank, and
climbed into the saddle. Restive after days on the ship, the dun lived up to
his name until Perrin calmed him with a firm hand on the reins and pats to his
neck. “None of that
deserves an answer,” he growled. Min
bloody told her! Burn you, Min! Burn you, too, Moiraine! And Zarine! He
could never remember Rand or Mat being bullied by women on every side. Or
himself, before leaving Emond’s Field. Nynaeve had been the only one. And
Mistress Luhhan, of course; she ran him and Master Luhhan both, everywhere but
in the smithy. And Egwene had had a way about her, though mostly with Rand.
Mistress al’Vere, Egwene’s mother, always had a smile, but things seemed to end
up being done as she wanted, too. And the Women’s Circle had looked over
everybody’s shoulder. Grumbling to
himself, he reached down and took Zarine by an arm; she gave a squawk and
nearly dropped her bundle as he hoisted her up behind his saddle. Those divided
skirts of hers made it easy for her to straddle Stepper. “Moiraine will have to
buy you a horse,” he muttered. “You cannot walk the whole way.” “You are
strong, blacksmith,” Zarine said, rubbing her arm, “but I am not a piece of
iron.” She shifted around, stuffing her bundle and her cloak between them. “I
can buy my own horse, if I need one. The whole way where?” Lan was already
riding off the dock into the city, with Moiraine and Loial behind him. The
Ogier looked back at Perrin. “No questions,
remember? And my name is Perrin, Zarine. Not ‘big man,’ or ‘blacksmith,’ or
anything else. Perrin. Perrin Aybara.” “And mine is
Faile, shaggy‑hair.” With something
close to a snarl, he booted Stepper after the others. Zarine had to throw her
arms around his waist to keep from being tossed over the dun’s crupper. He
thought she was laughing. CHAPTER 42 Easing the Badger The hubbub of
the city quickly submerged Zarine’s laughter ‑ if that was what it was ‑
beneath all the clamor that Perrin remembered from Caemlyn‑and Cairhien.
The sounds were different here, slower, and pitched differently, but they were
the same, too. Boots and wheels and hooves on rough, uneven paving stones, cart
and wagon axles squealing, music and song and laughter drifting from inns and
taverns. Voices. A hum of voices like putting his head into a giant beehive. A
great city, living. From down a
side street he heard the clang of hammer on anvil, and shifted his shoulders
unconsciously. He missed the hammer and tongs in his hands, the white‑hot
metal giving off sparks as his blows shaped it. The smithy sounds faded behind,
buried under the rumble of carts and wagons, and the babble of shopkeepers and
people in the streets. Under all the smells of people and horses, cooking and
baking, and a hundred scents he had found peculiar to cities lay the smell of
marsh and salt water. He was
surprised the first time they came to a bridge inside the city ‑ a low
arch of stone over a waterway no more than thirty paces across ‑ but by
the third such bridge, he realized that Illian was crisscrossed by as many
canals as streets, with men poling laden barges as often as plying whips to
move heavy wagons. Sedan chairs wove through the crowds in the streets, and
occasionally the lacquered coach of some wealthy merchant or a noble, with
crest or House sign painted large on the doors. Many of the men wore peculiar
beards that left their upper lip bare, while the women seemed to favor hats
with wide brims and attached scarves that they wound around their necks. Once they
crossed a great square, many hides in extent, surrounded by huge columns of
white marble at least fifteen spans tall and two spans thick, supporting
nothing but a wreath of carved olive branches at the top of each. A huge, white
palace stood at either end of the square, each all columned walks and airy
balconies, slender towers and purple roofs. Each reflected the other exactly,
at first glance, but then Perrin realized that one was just a fraction smaller
in each dimension, its towers perhaps less than a pace shorter. “The King’s
Palace,” Zarine said against his back, “and the Great Hall of the Council. It
is said the first King of Illian said the Council of Nine could have any palace
they wished, just as long as they did not try to build one larger than his. So
the Council copied the King’s palace exactly, but two feet smaller in every
measurement. That has been the way of Illian ever since. The King and the
Council of Nine duel with each other, and the Assemblage struggles with both,
and so while they carry on their battles, the people live much as they wish,
with none to look over their shoulders too much. It is not a bad way to live,
if you must be tied to one city. You would also like to know, I think,
blacksmith, that this is the Square of Tammuz, where I took the Hunter’s Oath.
I think I will end up teaching you so much, no one will notice the hay in your
hair.” Perrin held his
tongue with an effort, resolving not to stare so openly again. No one seemed
to take Loial as anything much out of the ordinary. A few people looked at him
twice, and some small children scampered along in their wake for a time, but it
appeared that Ogier were not unknown in Illian. None of the folk seemed to
notice the heat or the damp,’ either. For once, Loial
did not appear pleased with the people’s acceptance. His long eyebrows drooped
down on his cheeks, and his ears had wilted, though Perrin was not sure that
was not just the air. His own shirt clung to him with a mixture of sweat and
the damp air. “Are you afraid
you’ll find other Ogier here, Loial?” he asked. He felt Zarine stir against his
back and cursed his tongue. He meant to let the woman know even less than
Moiraine apparently meant to tell her. That way, perhaps, she would grow bored
enough to leave. If Moiraine will let her
go, now. Burn me, I don’t want any bloody falcon perched on my shoulder, even
if she is pretty. Loial nodded.
“Our stonemasons sometimes come here.” He spoke in a whisper not only for an
Ogier, but for anyone. Even Perrin could barely hear. “From Stedding Shangtai,
I mean. It was masons from our stedding who
built part of Illian ‑ the Palace of the Assemblage, the Great Hall of
the Council, some of the others ‑ and they always send to us when repairs
need to be done. Perrin, if there are Ogier here, they will make me go back to
the stedding. I should have thought
of it before now. This place makes me uneasy, Perrin.” His ears shifted
nervously. Perrin moved
Stepper closer and reached up to pat Loial’s shoulder. It was a long reach,
above his head. Conscious of Zarine at his back, he chose his words carefully.
“Loial, I do not believe Moiraine would let them take you. You have been with
us a long time, and she seems to want you with us. She will not let them take
you, Loial.” Why not? he wondered
suddenly. She keeps me because she thinks
I may be important to Rand, and maybe because she doesn’t want me telling what
I know to anyone. Maybe that’s why she wants him to stay. “Of course, she
would not,” Loial said in a slightly stronger voice, and his ears perked up. “I
am very useful, after all. She may need to travel the Ways again, and she could
not without me.” Zarine shifted against Perrin’s back, and he shook his head,
trying to catch Loial’s eye. But Loial was not looking. He seemed to have just
heard what he had said, and the tufts on his ears had fallen a little. “I do hope
it’s not that, Perrin.” The Ogier looked at the city around them, and his ears
went all the way back down. “I do not like this place, Perrin.” Moiraine rode
closer to Lan and spoke softly, but Perrin managed to catch her words.
“Something is wrong in this city.” The Warder nodded. Perrin felt an
itch between his shoulders. The Aes Sedai had sounded grim. First Loial, and now her. What don’t I see? The sun shone down on the
sparkling roof tiles, made reflections from pale stone walls. Those buildings
looked as if they might be cool, inside. The buildings were clean and bright,
and so were the people. The people. At first he saw
nothing out of the ordinary. Men and women moving about their business,
purposeful, but slower than he was used to further north. He thought it might
be the heat, and the bright sun. Then he spotted a baker’s lad trotting down
the street with a big tray of fresh loaves balanced on his head; the young
fellow wore a grimace on his face that was nearly a snarl. A woman in front of
a weaver’s shop looked as if she might
bite the man holding up the bright‑colored bolts for her inspection. A
juggler on a corner ground his teeth and stared at the folk who tossed coins
into the cap lying in front of him as if he hated them. Not everyone looked so,
but it seemed to him that at least one face in five wore anger and hatred. And
he did not think they were even aware of it. “What is the
matter?” Zarine asked. “You are tensing. It is like holding on to a rock.” “Something is
wrong,” he told her. “I do not know what, but something is wrong.” Loial
nodded sadly, and murmured about how they would make him go back. The buildings
around them began to change as they rode, crossing more bridges as they crossed
Illian to its other side. The pale stone was often undressed as polished, now.
The towers and palaces vanished, to be replaced by inns and warehouses. Many of
the men in the streets, and some of the women, had an oddly rolling gait; they
all had the bare feet he associated with sailors. The smells of pitch and hemp
were strong in the air, and the scent of wood, both freshly cut and cured, with
sour mud overlying both. The canals’ odors changed, too, making his nose
wrinkle. Chamber pots, he thought. Chamber pots and old privies. It made
him feel queasy. “The Bridge of
Flowers,” Lan announced as they crossed yet another low bridge. He inhaled
deeply. “And now we are in the Perfumed Quarter. The Illianers are a poetic
people.” Zarine stifled
a laugh against Perrin’s back. As if he were
suddenly impatient with the slow pace of Illian, the Warder led them quickly
through the streets to an inn, two stories of rough, green‑veined stone
topped with pale green tiles. Evening was coming on, the light growing softer
as the sun settled. It gave a little relief from the heat, but not much. Boys
seated on mounting blocks in front of the inn hopped up to take their horses.
One black‑haired lad about ten asked Loial if he were an Ogier, and when
Loial said he was, the boy said, “I did think you did be,” with a self‑satisfied
nod. He led Loial’s big horse away, tossing the copper Loial had given him into
the air and catching it. Perrin frowned
up at the inn sign for a moment before following the others in. A white‑striped
badger danced on its hind legs with a man carrying what seemed to be a silver
shovel. Easing the Badger, it read. It
must be some story I never heard. The common room
had sawdust on the floor, and tabac smoke filled the air. It also smelled of
wine, and fish cooking in the kitchen, and a heavy, flowered perfume. The
exposed beams of the high ceiling were rough‑hewn and age‑dark.
This early in the evening, no more than a quarter of the stools and benches
were filled, by men in workmen’s plain coats and vests, some with the bare feet
of sailors. All of them sat clustered as close as they could manage around one
table where a pretty, dark‑eyed girl, the wearer of the perfume, sang to
the strumming of a twelve‑string bittern and danced on the tabletop with
swirls of her skirt. Her loose, white blouse had an extremely low neck. Perrin
recognized the tune - “The Dancing Lass” ‑ but the words the girl sang
were different from what he knew. “A Lugard girl,
she came to town, to see what she could see. With a wink of
her eye, and a smile on her lip, she snagged a
boy or three, or three. With an ankle
slim, and skin so pale, she caught the
owner of a ship, a ship. With a soft
little sigh, and a gay little laugh, she made her
way so free. So free.” She launched
into another verse, and when Perrin realized what she was singing, his face
grew hot. He had thought nothing could shock him after seeing Tinker girls
dance, but that had only hinted at things. This girl was singing them right
out. Zarine was
nodding in time to the music and grinning. Her grin widened when she looked at
him. “Why, farmboy, I do not think I ever knew a man your age who could still
blush.” He glared at
her and barely stopped himself from saying something he knew would be stupid. This
bloody woman has me jumping before I
can think. Light, I’ll wager she thinks I never even kissed a girl! He
tried not to listen to any more of what the girl was singing. If he could not
get the red out of his face, Zarine was sure to make more of it. A flash of
startlement had passed across the face of the proprietress when they entered. A
large, round woman with her hair in a thick roll at the back of her neck and a
smell of strong soap about her, she suppressed her surprise quickly, though,
and hurried to Moiraine. “Mistress
Mari,” she said, “I did never think to see you here today.” She hesitated,
eyeing Perrin and Zarine, glanced once at Loial, but not in the searching way
she looked at them. Her eyes actually brightened at the sight of the Ogier, but
her real attention was all on “Mistress Mari,” She lowered her voice, “Have my
pigeons no arrived safely?” Lan, she seemed to accept as a part of Moiraine. “I am sure they
have, Nieda,” Moiraine said. “I have been away, but I am sure Adine has noted
down everything you reported.” She eyed the girl singing on the table with no
outward disapproval, nor any other expression. “The Badger was considerably
quieter when last I was here.” “Aye, Mistress
Mari, it did be that. But the louts have no gotten over the winter yet, it does
seem. I have no had a fight in the Badger in ten years, till the tail of this
winter gone.” She nodded toward the one man not sitting near the singer, a
fellow even bigger than Perrin, standing against the wall with his thick arms
folded, tapping his foot to the music. “Even Bili did have a hard time keeping
them down, so I did hire the girl to take their minds from anger. From some
place in Altara, she does come.” She tilted her head, listening for a moment.
“A fair voice, but I did sing it better ‑ aye, and dance better, too ‑
when I did be her age.” Perrin gaped at
the thought of this huge woman capering on a table, singing that song ‑ a
bit of it came through; “I’ll wear no shift at all. At all” ‑ until
Zarine fisted him hard in the short ribs. He grunted. Nieda looked
his way. “I’ll mix you some honey and sulphur, lad, for that throat. You’ll no
want to take a chill before the weather warms, no with a pretty girl like that
one on your arm.” Moiraine gave
him a look that said he was interfering with her. “Strange that you should
suffer fights,” she said. “I well remember how your nephew stops such. Has
something occurred to make people more irritable?” Nieda mused for
a moment. “Perhaps. It do be hard to say. The young lordlings do always come
down to the docks for the wenching and carousing they can no get away with
where the air does smell fresher. Perhaps they do come more often, now, since
the hard of the winter. Perhaps. And others do snap at each other more, too. It
did be a hard winter. That does make men angrier, and women as well. All that rain,
and cold. Why, I did wake two mornings to find ice in my washbasin. No so hard
as the last winter, of course, but that did be a winter for a thousand years.
Almost enough to make me believe those travelers’ tales of frozen water falling
from the sky.” She giggled to show how little she believed that. It was an odd
sound from such a large woman. Perrin shook
his head. She doesn’t believe in snow? But
if she thought this weather was cool, he could believe it of her. Moiraine bent
her head in thought, her hood shadowing her face. The girl on the
table was beginning a new verse, and Perrin found himself listening in spite of
himself. He had never heard of any woman doing anything remotely like what, the
girl was singing about, but it did sound interesting. He noticed Zarine
watching him listen, and tried to pretend he had not been. “What has
occurred out of the ordinary in Illian of late?” Moiraine said finally. “I do suppose
you could call Lord Brend’s ascension to the Council of Nine unusual,” Nieda
said. “Fortune prick me, I can no remember ever hearing his name before the
winter, but he did come to the city ‑ from somewhere near the Murandian
border, it be rumored ‑ and did be raised inside a week. It do be said he
be a good man, and strongest of the Nine ‑ they all do follow his lead,
it be said, though he be newest and unknown ‑ but sometimes I do have
strange dreams of him.” Moiraine had
opened her mouth ‑ to tell Nieda she had meant in the last few nights,
Perrin was sure ‑ but she hesitated, and instead said, “What sort of
strange dreams, Nieda?” “Oh,
foolishness, Mistress Mari. Just foolishness. You do truly wish to hear it?
Dreams of Lord Brend in strange places, and walking bridges hanging in air. All
fogged, these dreams do be, but near every night they do come. Did you ever
hear of such? Foolishness, Fortune prick me! Yet, it do be odd. Bili does say
he does dream the same dreams. I do think he does hear my dreams and copy them.
Bili do be none too bright, sometimes, I do think.” “You may do him
an injustice,” Moiraine breathed. Perrin stared
at her dark hood. She had sounded shaken, even more shaken that when she
thought a new false Dragon had risen in Ghealdan. He could not smell fear, but
. . . . Moiraine was frightened. It was a far more terrifying thought than
Moiraine angry. He could imagine her angry; he could not begin to conceive of
her afraid. “How I do
maunder on,” Nieda said, patting the rolled hair at the back of her neck. “As
if my foolish dreams do be important.” She giggled again. A quick giggle; this
was not as foolish as believing in snow. “You do sound tired, Mistress Mari. I
will show you to your rooms. And then a good meal of fresh‑caught red‑stripe.” Red‑stripe? A fish, he thought it
must be; he could smell fish cooking. “Rooms,” Moiraine
said. “Yes. We will take rooms. The meal can wait. Ships. Nieda, what ships
sail for Tear? Early on the morrow. I have that which I must do tonight.” Lan
glanced at her, frowning. “For Tear,
Mistress Mari?” Nieda laughed. “Why, none for Tear. The Nine did forbid any
ship to sail for Tear a month gone now, nor any from Tear to call here, though
I do think the Sea Folk pay it no mind. But there do be no Sea Folk ship in the
harbor. It do be odd, that. The order of the Nine, I do mean, and the King silent
on it, when he does always raise his voice if they but take a step without his
lead. Or perhaps it be no that, exactly. All talk do be of war with Tear, but
the boatmen and wagoneers who do carry supplies to the army do say the soldiers
do all look north, to Murandy.” “The paths of
the Shadow are tangled,” Moiraine said in a tight voice. “We will do what we
must. The rooms, Nieda. And then we will eat that meal.” Perrin’s room
was more comfortable than he expected, given the look of the rest of the Badger.
The bed was wide, the mattress soft. The door was made of tilted slats, and
when he opened the windows, a breeze crossed the room carrying the smells of
the harbor. And something of the canals, too, but at least it was cooling. He
hung his cloak on a peg along with his quiver and axe, and propped his bow in
the corner. Everything else he left in the saddlebags and blanketroll. The
night might not be restful. If Moiraine had
sounded afraid before, it had been nothing to when she said that something must
be done tonight. For an instant then, fear scent had steamed from her as from a
woman announcing that she was going to stick her hand in a hornets’ nest and
crush them with her bare fingers. What in
the Light is she up to? If Moiraine is frightened, I should be terrified. He was not, he
realized. Not terrified, or even frightened. He felt . . . excited. Ready for
something to happen, almost eager. Determined. He recognized the feelings. They
were what wolves felt just before they fought. Burn me, I’d rather be afraid! He was first
back down to the common except for Loial. Nieda had arranged a large table for
them, with ladder‑back chairs instead of benches. She had even found a
chair big enough for Loial. The girl across the room was singing a song about a
rich merchant who, having just lost his team of horses in an improbable way,
had for some reason decided to pull his carriage himself. The men listening
around her roared with laughter. The windows showed darkness coming on more
quickly than he had expected; the air smelled as if it might be making up to
rain. “This inn has
an Ogier room,” Loial said as Perrin sat down. “Apparently, every inn in
Illian has one, in hopes of gaining Ogier custom when the stonemasons come.
Nieda claims it is lucky, having an Ogier under the roof. I cannot think they
get many. The masons always stay together when they go Outside to work. Humans
are so hasty, and the Elders are always afraid tempers will flare and someone
will put a long handle on his axe.” He eyed the men around the singer as if he
suspected them of it. His ears were drooping again. The rich
merchant was in the process of losing his, carriage, to more laughter. “Did you
find out whether any Ogier from Stedding Shangtai are in Illian?” “There were,
but Nieda said they left during the winter. She said they had not finished
their work. I do not understand it. The masons would not have left work undone
unless they were not paid, and Nieda said it was not that. One morning, they
were just gone, though someone saw them walking down the Maredo Causeway in the
night. Perrin, I do not like this city. I do not know why, but it makes me . .
. uneasy.” “Ogier,”
Moiraine said, “are sensitive to some things.” She still had her face hidden,
but Nieda had apparently sent someone to buy her a light cloak of dark blue
linen. The fear smell was gone from her, but her voice sounded under tight
control. Lan held her chair for her; his eyes looked worried. Zarine was the
last down, running her fingers through just‑washed hair. The herbal scent
was stronger around her than before. She stared at the platter Nieda placed on
the table and muttered under her breath. “I hate fish.” The stout woman
had brought all the food on a small cart with shelves; it was dusty in places,
as if it had been hastily brought out from the storeroom in Moiraine’s honor.
The dishes were Sea Folk porcelain, too, if chipped. “Eat,” Moiraine
said, looking straight at Zarine. “Remember that any meal can be your last. You
chose to travel with us, so tonight you will eat fish. Tomorrow, you may die.” Perrin did not
recognize the nearly round white fish with red stripes, but they smelled good.
He lifted two onto his plate with the serving fork, and grinned at Zarine
around a mouthful. They tasted good, too, lightly spiced. Eat your natty fish, falcon, he thought. He also thought that
Zarine looked as if she might bite him. “Do you wish me
to stop the girl singing, Mistress Mari?” Nieda asked. She was setting bowls of
peas and some sort of stiff yellow mush on the table. “So you can eat in
quiet?” Staring at her
plate, Moiraine did not seem to hear. Lan listened a
moment ‑ the merchant had already lost, in succession, his carriage, his
cloak, his boots, his gold, and the rest of his clothes, and was now reduced to
wrestling a pig for its dinner ‑ and shook his head. “She will not bother
us.” He looked close to smiling for a moment, before he glanced at Moiraine.
Then the worry returned to his eyes. “What is
wrong?” Zarine said. She was ignoring the fish. “I know something is. I have
not see that much expression on you, stone‑face, since I met you.” “No questions!”
Moiraine said sharply. “You will know what I tell you and no more!” “What will you
tell me?” Zarine demanded. The Aes Sedai
smiled. “Eat your fish.” The meal went
on in near silence after that, except for the songs drifting across the room.
There was one about a rich man whose wife and daughters made a fool of him time
and again without ever deflating his self‑importance, another that
concerned a young woman who decided to take a walk without any clothes, and one
that told of a blacksmith who managed to shoe himself instead of the horse.
Zarine nearly choked laughing at that one, forgot herself enough to take a bite
of fish, and suddenly grimaced as if she had put mud in her mouth. I won’t laugh at her, Perrin told
himself. However foolish she looks, I’ll
show her what manners are. “They taste good, don’t they,” he said. Zarine
gave him a bitter look, and Moiraine a frown for interrupting her thoughts, and
that was all the talk there was. Nieda was
clearing away the dishes and setting an array of cheeses on the table when a
stink of something vile lifted the hackles on the back of Perrin’s neck. It was
a smell of something that should not be, and he had smelled it twice before. He
peered about the common room uneasily. The girl still
sang to the knot of listeners, some men were strolling across the floor from
the door, and Bili still leaned on the wall tapping his foot to the sounds of
the bittern. Nieda patted her rolled hair, gave the room a quick glance, and
turned to push the cart away. He looked at
his companions. Loial, unsurprisingly, had pulled a book from his coat pocket
and seemed to have forgotten where he was. Zarine, absently tolling a piece of
white cheese into a ball, was eyeing first Perrin, then Moiraine, then him
again, while trying to pretend she was not. It was Lan and Moiraine he was
really interested in, though. They could sense a Myrddraal, or a Trolloc, or
any Shadowspawn, before it came closer than a few hundred paces, but the Aes
Sedai was staring distantly at the table in front of her, and the Warder was
cutting a chunk of yellow cheese and watching her. Yet the smell of wrongness
was there, as at Jarra and the edge of Remen, and this time it was not going
away. It seemed to be coming from something within the common room. He studied the
room again. Bili against the wall, some men crossing the floor, the girl
singing on the table, all the laughing men sitting around her. Men crossing the floor? He frowned at
them. Six men with ordinary faces, walking toward where he was sitting. Very
ordinary faces. He was just starting to re-inspect the men listening to the
girl when suddenly it came to him that the stink of wrongness was rolling from
the six. Abruptly they had daggers in their hands, as if they had realized he
had seen them. “They have
knives!” he roared, and threw the cheese platter at them. The common
erupted into confusion, men shouting, the singer screaming, Nieda shouting for
Bili, everything happening at once. Lan leaped to his feet, and a ball of fire
darted from Moiraine’s hand, and Loial snatched up his chair like a club, and
Zarine danced to one side, cursing. She had a knife in her hand, too, but
Perrin was too busy to notice much of what anyone else did. Those men seemed to
be looking straight at him, and his axe was hanging from a peg up in his room. Seizing a
chair, he ripped off a thick chair leg that ran up to make one side of the
ladder‑back, hurled the rest of the chair at the men, and set about him
with his long bludgeon. They were trying to reach him with their naked steel,
as if Lan and the others were only obstacles in their way. It was a tight
tangle where all he could manage was to knock blades away from him, and his
wilder swings threatened Lan and Loial and Zarine as much as any of his six
attackers. From the corner of his eye he saw Moiraine standing to one side,
frustration on her face; they were all so mixed together that she could do
nothing without endangering friend as well as foe. None of the knife wielders
as much as glanced at her; she was not between them and Perrin. Panting, he
managed to crack one of the ordinary‑looking men across the head so hard
that he heard bone splinter, and abruptly realized they were all down. It all
seemed to him to have gone on for a quarter of a hour or more, but he saw that
Bili was just halting, his large hands working as he stared at the six men
sprawled dead on the floor. Bili had not even had time to reach the fight
before it was done. Lan wore a face
even grimmer than usual; he began searching the bodies, thoroughly, but with a
quickness that spoke of distaste. Loial still had his chair raised to swing; he
gave a start and set it down with an embarrassed grin. Moiraine was staring at
Perrin, and so was Zarine as she retrieved her knife from the chest of one of
the dead men. That stench of wrongness was gone, as if it had died with them. “Gray Men,” the
Aes Sedai said softly, “and after you.” “Gray Men?”
Nieda laughed, both loud and nervously. “Why, Mistress Mari, next you’ll say
you do believe in boggles and bugbears and Fetches, and Old Grim riding with
the black dogs in the Wild Hunt.” Some of the men who had been listening to the
songs laughed, too, though they looked as uneasily at Moiraine as at the dead
men. The singer stared at Moiraine, as well, her eyes wide. Perrin remembered
that one ball of fire, before everything grew too jumbled. One of the Gray Men
had a somewhat charred look about him, and gave off a sickly sweet burned
smell. Moiraine turned
from Perrin to the stout woman. “A man may walk in the Shadow,” the Aes Sedai
said calmly, “without being Shadowspawn.” “Oh, aye,
Darkfriends.” Nieda put her hands on generous hips and frowned at the corpses.
Lan had finished his searching; he glanced at Moiraine and shook his head as if
he had not really expected to find anything. “More likely thieves, though I did
never hear of thieves bold enough to come right into an inn. I did never have
even one killing in the Badger before. Bili! Clear these out, into a canal, and
put down fresh sawdust. The back way, mind. I do no want the Watch putting
their long noses into the Badger.” Bili nodded as if eager to be useful after
failing to take a hand earlier. He grabbed a dead man by the belt in either
hand and carried them back toward the kitchen. “Aes Sedai?”
the dark‑eyed singer said. “I did not mean to offend with my common
songs.” She was covering the exposed part of her bosom, which was most of it,
with her hands. “I can sing others, if you would so like.” “Sing whatever
you wish, girl,” Moiraine told her. “The White Tower is not so isolated from
the world as you seem to think, and I have heard rougher songs than you would
sing.” Even so, she did not look pleased that the common now knew she was Aes
Sedai. She glanced at Lan, gathered the linen cloak around her, and started for
the door. The Warder
moved quickly to intercept her, and they spoke quietly in front of the door,
but Perrin could hear as well as if they whispered right next to him. “Do you mean to
go without me?” Lan said. “I pledged to keep you whole, Moiraine, when I took
your bond.” “You have
always known there were some dangers you are not equipped to handle, my Gaidin.
I must go alone.” “Moiraine - ” She cut him
off. “Heed me, Lan. Should I fail, you will know it, and you will be compelled
to return to the White Tower. I would not change that even if I had time. I do
not mean you to die in a vain attempt to avenge me. Take Perrin with you. It
seems the Shadow has made his importance in the Pattern known to me, if not
clear. I was a fool. Rand is so strongly ta’veren
that I ignored what it must mean that he had two others close by him. With
Perrin and Mat, the Amyrlin may still be able to affect the course of events.
With Rand loose, she will have to. Tell her what has happened, my Gaidin.” “You speak as
if you are already dead,” Lan said roughly. “The Wheel
weaves as the Wheel wills, and the Shadow darkens the world. Heed me, Lan, and
obey, as you swore to.” With that, she was gone. CHAPTER 43 Shadowbrothers The dark‑eyed
girl climbed back on her table and started singing again, in an unsteady
voice. The tune was one Perrin knew as “Mistress Aynora’s Rooster,” and though
the words were different once more, to his disappointment ‑ and
embarrassment that he was disappointed ‑ it actually was about a rooster.
Mistress Luhhan herself would not have disapproved. Light, I’m getting as bad as Mat. None of the
listeners complained; some of the men did look a bit disgruntled, but they
seemed to be as anxious about what Moiraine might approve as the singer was. No
one wished to offend an Aes Sedai, even with her gone. Bili came back and
hoisted two more Gray Men; a few of the men listening to the song glanced at
the corpses and shook their heads. One of them spat on the sawdust. Lan came to
stand in front of Perrin. “How did you know them, blacksmith?” he asked
quietly. “Their taint of evil is not strong enough for Moiraine or me to sense.
Gray Men have walked past a hundred guards without being noticed, and Warders
among them.” Very conscious
of Zarine’s eyes on him, Perrin tried to make his voice even softer than Lan’s.
“I . . . I smelled them. I’ve smelled them before, at Jarra and at Remen, but
it always vanished. They were gone before we got there, both times.” He was not
sure whether Zarine had overheard or not; she was leaning forward trying to
listen, and trying to appear not to at the same time. “Following
Rand, then. Following you, now, blacksmith.” The Warder gave no visible sign of
surprise. He raised his voice to a more normal level. “I am going to look
around outside, blacksmith. Your eyes might see something I miss.” Perrin
nodded; it was a measure of the Warder’s worry that he asked for help. “Ogier,
your folk see better than most, too. “ “Oh, ah,” Loial
said. “Well, I suppose I could take a look, too.” His big, round eyes rolled
sideways toward the two Gray Men still on the floor. “I would not think any
more of them were out there. Would you?” “What are we
looking for, stone‑face?” Zarine said. Lan eyed her a
moment, then shook his head as if he had decided not to say something.
“Whatever we find, girl. I will know it when I see it.” Perrin thought
about going upstairs for his axe, but the Warder made for the door, and he was
not wearing his sword. He hardly needs
it, Perrin thought grumpily. He is almost as dangerous without it as with. He held on to the chair leg
as he followed. It was a relief to see that Zarine still had her knife in her hand. Thick black
clouds were roiling overhead. The street was as dark as late twilight, and
empty of people who had apparently not waited to be caught in the rain. One
fellow was running across a bridge down the street; he was the only person
Perrin saw in any direction. The wind was picking up, blowing a rag along the
uneven paving stones; another, caught under the edge of one of the mounting
blocks, flapped with a small snapping sound. Thunder grumbled and rolled. Perrin wrinkled
his nose. There was a smell of fireworks on that wind. No, not fireworks, exactly. It was a burned sulphur sort of smell.
Almost. Zarine tapped
the chair leg in his hands with her knife blade. “You really are strong, big
man. You tore that chair apart as if it were made of twigs.” Perrin grunted.
He realized he was standing straighter, and deliberately made himself slouch. Fool girl! Zarine laughed softly, and
suddenly he did not know whether to straighten or stay as he was. Fool! This time he meant it for himself.
You’re supposed to be looking. For what? He
did not see anything but the street, did not smell anything but the almost
burned sulphur scent. And Zarine, of course. Loial appeared
to be wondering what it was he was looking for, too. He scratched a tufted ear,
peered one way down the street, then the other, then
scratched the other ear. Then he stared up at the roof of the inn. Lan appeared
from the alleyway beside the inn and moved out into the street, eyes studying
the darker shadows along the buildings. “Maybe he
missed seeing something,” Perrin muttered, though he found it hard to believe,
and turned toward the alley. I am
supposed to be looking, so I’ll look. Maybe he did miss something. Lan had stopped
a little way down the street, staring at the paving stones in front of his
feet. The Warder started back toward the inn, walking quickly, but peering at
the street ahead of him as if following something. Whatever it was led straight
to one of the mounting blocks, almost beside the inn door. He stopped there,
staring at the top of the gray stone block. Perrin decided
to abandon going down the alley ‑ it stank as much as the canals in this
part of Illian, for one thing ‑ and walked over to Lan, instead. He saw
what the Warder was staring at right away. Pressed into the top of the stone
mounting block were two prints, as if a huge hound had rested its forepaws
there. The smell that was almost burned sulphur was strongest here. Dogs don’t make footprints in stone. Light,
they don’t! He could make out the trail Lan had followed, too. The hound
had trotted up the street as far as the mounting block, then turned and gone
back the way it had come. Leaving tracks in the stone as if they had been a
plowed field. They just don’t! “Darkhound,”
Lan said, and Zarine gasped. Loial moaned softly. For an Ogier. “A Darkhound
leaves no mark on dirt, blacksmith, not even on mud, but stone is another
matter. There hasn’t been a Darkhound seen south of the Mountains of Dhoom
since the Trolloc Wars. This one was hunting for something, I’d say. And now
that it has found it, it has gone to tell its master.” Me? Perrin thought. Gray Men and Darkhounds hunting me? This is crazy! “Are you
telling me Nieda was right?” Zarine demanded in a shaky voice. “Old Grim is
really riding with the Wild Hunt? Light! I always thought it was just a story.” “Don’t be a
complete fool, girl,” Lan said harshly. “If the Dark One were free, we’d all be
worse than dead by now.” He peered off down the street, the way the tracks
went. “But Darkhounds are real enough. Almost as dangerous as Myrddraal, and
harder to kill.” “Now you bring
Fetches into it,” Zarine muttered. “Gray Men. Fetches. Darkhounds. You had
better lead me to the Horn of Valere, farmboy. What other surprises do you have
waiting for me?” “No questions,”
Lan told her. “You still know little enough that Moiraine will release you from
your oath, if you swear not to follow. I’ll take that oath myself, and you can
go now. You would be wise to give it.” “You will not
frighten me away, stone‑face,” Zarine said. “I do not frighten easily.”
But she sounded frightened. And smelled it, too. “I have a
question,” Perrin said, “and I want an answer. You didn’t sense this Darkhound,
Lan, and neither did Moiraine. Why not?” The Warder was
silent for a time. “The answer to that, blacksmith,” he said grimly at last,
“may be more than you or I, either one, want to know. I hope the answer does
not kill us all. You three get what sleep you can. I doubt we will stay the
night in Illian, and I fear we have hard riding ahead.” “What are you
going to do?” Perrin asked. “I am going
after Moiraine. To tell her about the Darkhound. She can’t be angry with me for
following for that, not when she would not know it was there until it took her
throat.” The first big
drops of rain splatted on the paving stones as they went back inside. Bili had
removed the last of the dead Gray Men and was sweeping up the sawdust where
they had bled. The dark‑eyed girl was singing a sad song about a boy
leaving his love. Mistress Luhhan would have enjoyed it greatly. Lan ran ahead
of them, across the common room and up the stairs, and by the time Perrin
reached the second floor, the Warder was already starting back down, buckling
his sword belt on, color‑shifting cloak hanging over his arm as if he
hardly cared who saw it. “If he is
wearing that in a city . . . .” Loial’s shaggy hair almost brushed the ceiling
as he shook his head. “I do not know if I can sleep, but I will try. Dreams
will be more pleasant than staying awake.” Not always,
Loial, Perrin thought as the Ogier went on down the hall. Zarine seemed
to want to stay with him, but he told her to go to sleep and firmly shut the
slatted door in her face. He stared at his own bed reluctantly as he stripped
down to his underbreeches. “I have to find
out,” he sighed, and crawled onto the bed. Rain drummed down outside, and
thunder boomed. The breeze across his bed carried some of the rain’s coolness,
but he did not think he would need any of the blankets at the foot of the
mattress. His last thought before sleep claimed him was that he had forgotten
to light a candle again, though the room was dark. Careless. Mustn’t be
careless. Carelessness ruins the work. Dreams tumbled
through his head. Darkhounds chasing him; he never saw them, but he could hear
their howling. Fades, and Gray Men. A tall, slender man flashed into them again
and again, in richly embroidered coat and boots with gold fringe; most of the
time he held what seemed to be a sword, shining like the sun, and laughed
triumphantly. Sometimes the man sat on a throne, and kings and queens groveled
before him. These felt strange, as if they were not really his dreams at all. Then the dreams
changed, and he knew he was in the wolf dream he sought. This time he had hoped
for it. He stood atop a
high, flat‑topped stone spire, the wind ruffling his hair, bringing a
thousand dry scents and a faint hint of water hidden in the far distance. For
an instant he thought he had the form of a wolf, and fumbled at his own body to
make sure what he saw was really him. He wore his own coat and breeches and
boots; he held his bow, and his quiver hung at his side. The axe was not there. “Hopper!
Hopper, where are you?” The wolf did not come. Rugged mountains surrounded him, and other tall spires
separated by arid flats and jumbled ridges, and sometimes a large plateau
rising with sheer sides. Things grew, but nothing lush. Tough, short grass.
Bushes wiry and covered with thorn, and other things that even seemed to have
thorns on their fat leaves. Scattered, stunted trees, twisted by the wind. Yet
wolves could find hunting even in this land. As he peered at
this rough land, a circle of darkness suddenly blanked out a part of the
mountains; he could not have said whether the darkness was right in front of
his face or halfway to the mountains, but he seemed to be seeing through it,
and beyond. Mat, rattling a dice cup. His opponent stared at Mat with eyes of
fire. Mat did not seem to see the man, but Perrin knew him. “Mat!” he
shouted. “It’s Ba’alzamon! Light, Mat, you’re dicing with Ba’alzamon!” Mat made his
toss, and as the dice spun, the vision faded, and the dark place was dry
mountains again. “Hopper!”
Perrin turned slowly, looking in every direction. He even looked up in the sky ‑
He can fly, now ‑ where clouds promised a rain the ground far
below the spire top would drink up as soon as it fell. “Hopper!” A darkness
formed among the clouds, a hole into somewhere else. Egwene and Nynaeve and
Elayne stood looking at a huge metal cage, with a raised door held on a heavy
spring. They stepped in and reached up together to loose the catch. The barred
door snapped down behind them. A woman with her hair all in braids laughed at
them, and another woman all in white laughed at her. The hole in the sky
closed, and there were only clouds. “Hopper, where
are you?” he called. “ I need you! Hopper!” And the
grizzled wolf was there, alighting on the spire top as if he had leaped from
somewhere higher. Dangerous.
You have been warned, Young Bull. Too young. Too new yet. “I need to
know, Hopper. You said there were things I must see. I need to see more, know
more.” He hesitated, thinking of Mat, of Egwene and Nynaeve and Elayne. “The
strange things I see here. Are they real?” Hopper’s sending seemed slow, as if
it were so simple the wolf could not understand the need to explain it, or how
to. Finally, though, something came. What is real
it not real. What is not real is real. Flesh it a dream, and dreams have flesh. “That doesn’t
tell me anything, Hopper. I do not understand.” The wolf looked at him, as if
he had said he did not understand that water was wet. “You said I had to see
something, and you showed me Ba’alzamon, and Lanfear.” Heartfang.
Moonhunter. “Why did you
show me, Hopper? Why did I have to see them?” The Last
Hunt comes. Sadness filled the sending, and a sense of inevitability. What
will be must be. “I do not
understand! The Last Hunt? What Last Hunt? Hopper, Gray Men came to kill me
tonight.” The Not-dead
hunt you? “Yes! Gray Men!
After me! And a Darkhound was right outside the inn! I want to know why they’re
after me.” Shadowbrothers!
Hopper crouched, looking to either side as if he almost expected an attack.
Long since we have seen the Shadowbrothers. You must go, Young Bull. Great
danger! Flee the Shadowbrothers! “Why are they
after me, Hopper? You do know. I know you do!” Flee, Young
Bull. Hopper leaped, forepaws hitting Perrin’s chest, knocking him back,
over the edge. Flee the Shadowbrothers. The wind rushed
in his ears as he fell. Hopper and the edge of the spire top dwindled above him.
“Why, Hopper?” he shouted. “I have to know why!” The Last
Hunt comes. He was going to
hit. He knew it. The ground below rushed up at him, and he tensed against the
crushing impact that . . . . He started
awake, staring at the candle flickering on the small table beside the bed.
Lightning flashes lit the window, and thunder rattled it. “What did he mean,
the Last Hunt?” he mumbled. I did not light any candle. “You talk to
yourself. And thrash in your sleep.” He jumped, and
cursed himself for not having noticed the herbal scent in the air. Zarine sat
on a stool at the edge of the candlelight, elbow on her knee, chin on her fist,
watching him. “You are ta’veren,”
she said as if ticking off a point. “Stone‑face thinks those odd eyes of
yours can see things his can’t. Gray Men want to kill you. You travel with an
Aes Sedai, a Warder, and an Ogier. You free caged Aiel and kill Whitecloaks.
Who are you, farmboy, the Dragon Reborn?” Her voice said that was the most
ridiculous thing she could think of, but he still shifted uneasily. “Whoever
you are, big man,” she added, “you could do with a little more hair on your
chest.” He twisted
around, cursing, and scrabbled one of the blankets over him to his neck. Light,
she keeps making me jump like a frog on a hot rock. Zarine’s face was at the
edge of shadows. He could not see her clearly except when lightning shone
through the window, the harsh illumination casting its own shadows across her
strong nose and high cheekbones. Suddenly he remembered Min saying he should run
from a beautiful woman. Once he had recognized Lanfear in that wolf dream, he
had thought Min must mean her‑he did not think it was possible for a
woman to be any more beautiful than Lanfear‑but she was just in a dream.
Zarine was sitting there staring at him with those dark, tilted eyes,
considering, weighing. “What are you
doing here?” he demanded. “What do you want? Who are you?” She threw back
her head and laughed. “I am Faile, farmboy, a Hunter of the Horn. Who do you
think I am, the woman of your dreams? Why did you jump that way? You would
think I had goosed you.” Before he could find words, the door crashed back against the wall, and
Moiraine stood in the doorway, her face as pale and grim as death. “Your wolf
dreams tell as truly as a Dreamer’s, Perrin. The Forsaken are loose, and one of
them rules in Illian.” CHAPTER 44 Hunted Perrin climbed
off the bed and started dressing, not caring whether Zarine was watching or
not. He knew what he intended to do, but he asked Moiraine anyway. “Do we
leave?” “Unless you
want to make closer acquaintance with Sammael,” she said dryly. Thunder crashed
overhead as if to punctuate her sentence, and lightning flashed. The Aes Sedai
barely glanced at Zarine. Stuffing his
shirttail into his breeches, he suddenly wished he had his coat and cloak on.
Naming which one of the Forsaken it was made the room seem cold. Ba’alzamon isn’t bad enough; we have to have
the Forsaken loose, too. Light, does it even matter if we find Rand, now? Is it
too late? But he kept dressing, stamping his feet into his boots. It was
that or give up, and Two Rivers folk were not known for giving up. “Sammael?”
Zarine said faintly. “One of the Forsaken rules . . . ? Light!” “Do you still
wish to follow?” Moiraine said softly. “I would not make you stay here, not
now, but I will give you one last chance to swear to go another way than I.” Zarine
hesitated, and Perrin paused with his coat half on. Surely no one would choose
.to go with people who had incurred the wrath of one of the Forsaken. Not now
that she knew something of what they faced. Not
unless she has a very good reason. For that matter, anyone who heard one of
the Forsaken was loose should already be running for a Sea Folk ship and asking
passage to the other side of the Aiel Waste, not sitting there thinking. “No,” Zarine
said finally, and he began to relax. “No, I will not swear to go another way.
Whether you lead me to the Horn of Valere or not, not even whoever does find
the Horn will have a story such as this. I think this story will be told for
the ages, Aes Sedai, and I will be part of it.” “No!” Perrin
snapped. “That is not good enough. What do you want?” “I have no time
for this bickering,” Moiraine broke in. “Any moment Lord Brend may learn that one of his Darkhounds is dead. You can be
sure he will know that means a Warder, and he will come looking for the
Gaidin’s Aes Sedai. Do you mean to sit here until he discovers where you are?
Move, you foolish children! Move!” She vanished down the hall before he could
open his mouth. Zarine did not
wait, either, running from the room without her candle. Perrin hastily gathered
his things and dashed for the back stairs still buckling his axe belt around
his waist. He caught up to Loial going down, the Ogier trying to stuff a wood‑bound
book into his saddlebags and put on his cloak at the same time. Perrin gave him
a hand with the cloak while they both ran down the stairs, and Zarine caught
the pair of them before they could dash out into the pouring rain. Perrin hunched
his shoulders against the wet and ran for the stable across the storm‑darkened
yard without waiting to pull up the hood of his cloak. She has to have a reason. Being in a bloody story isn’t reason enough
for any but a madwoman! The rain soaked his shaggy curls, laying them flat
around his head, before he darted through the stable door. Moiraine was
there before them, in an oiled cloak still beaded with rain, and Nieda holding
a lantern for Lan to finish saddling the horses. There was an extra, a bay
gelding with an even stronger nose than Zarine’s. “I will send
pigeons every day,” the stout woman was saying. “No one will suspect me.
Fortune prick me! Even Whitecloaks do speak well of me.” “Listen to me,
woman!” Moiraine snapped. “This is not a Whitecloak or a Darkfriend I speak of.
You will flee this city, and make anyone you care for flee with you. For a
dozen years you have obeyed me. Obey me now!” Nieda nodded, but reluctantly,
and Moiraine growled with exasperation. “The bay is
yours, girl,” Lan said to Zarine. “Get on his back. If you do not know how to
ride, you must learn by doing, or take my offer.” Putting one
hand on the high pommel, she vaulted easily into the saddle. “I was on a horse
once, stone‑face, now that I think of it.” She twisted around to tie her
bundle behind her. “What did you
mean, Moiraine?” Perrin demanded as he tossed his saddlebag across Stepper’s
back. “You said he would find out where I am. He knows. The Gray Men!” Nieda
giggled, and he wondered irritably how much she really knew or believed among
the things she said she did not believe in. “Sammael did
not send the Gray Men.” Moiraine mounted Aldieb with a cool, straight‑backed
precision, almost as if there were no hurry. “The Darkhound was his, however. I
believe it followed my trail. He would not have sent both. Someone wants you,
but I do not think Sammael even knows you exist. Yet.” Perrin stopped with one
foot in the stirrup, staring at her, but she seemed more concerned with patting
her mare’s arching neck than with the questions on his face. “As well I went
after you,” Lan said, and the Aes Sedai sniffed loudly. “I could wish
you were a woman, Gaidin. I would send you to the Tower as a novice to learn to
obey!” He raised an eyebrow and touched the hilt of his sword, then swung into
his saddle, and she sighed. “Perhaps it is as well you are disobedient.
Sometimes it is well. Besides, I do not think Sheriam and Siuan Sanche together
could teach you obedience.” “I do not
understand,” Perrin said. I seem to be
saying that a great deal, and I’m tired of it. I want some answers I can understand. He pulled
himself the rest of the way up so Moiraine would not be looking down at him;
she had enough advantage without that. “If he did not send the Gray Men, who
did? If a Myrddraal, or another Forsaken . . . .” He stopped to swallow. ANOTHER Forsaken! Light! “If somebody
else sent them, why did they not tell him? They’re all Darkfriends, aren’t
they? And why me, Moiraine? Why me? Rand is the bloody Dragon Reborn!” He heard the
gasps from Zarine and Nieda, and only then realized what he had said.
Moiraine’s stare seemed to skin him like the sharpest steel. Hasty bloody tongue. When did I stop
thinking before I speak? It seemed to him it had happened when he first
felt Zarine’s eyes watching him. She was watching him now, with her mouth
hanging open. “You are sealed
to us, now,” Moiraine told the bold‑faced woman. “There is no turning
back for you. Ever.” Zarine looked as if she wanted to say something and was
afraid to, but the Aes Sedai had already turned her attention elsewhere.
“Nieda, flee Illian tonight. In this hour! And hold your tongue even better
than you have held it all these years. There are those who would cut it out for
what you could say, before I could even find you.” Her hard tone left doubts as
to exactly how she meant that, and Nieda nodded vigorously as if she had heard
it both ways. “As for you,
Perrin.” The white mare moved closer, and he leaned back from the Aes Sedai
despite all he could do. “There are many threads woven in the Pattern, and some
are as black as the Shadow itself. Take care one of them does not strangle
you.” Her heels touched Aldieb’s flanks, and the mare darted into the rain,
Mandarb following close behind. Burn you, Moiraine, Perrin thought as he
rode after them. Sometimes I do
not know which side you are on. He glanced at Zarine, riding beside him as
if she had been born in a saddle. And
who’s side are you on? Rain kept
people off the streets and canals, so no visible eyes watched them go, but it
made the footing uncertain for the horses on the uneven paving stones. By the
time they reached the Maredo Causeway, a wide road of packed dirt stretching
north through the marsh, the downpour had begun to slacken. Thunder still
boomed, but the lightning flashed far behind them, perhaps out to sea. Perrin felt a
bit of luck was coming their way. The rain had stayed long enough to hide their
departure, but now it seemed they would have a clear night for riding. He said
as much, but Lan shook his head. “Darkhounds
like clear, moonlit nights best, blacksmith, rain the least. A good
thunderstorm can keep them away completely.” As if his words had bidden it, the
rain faded to a faint drizzle. Perrin heard Loial groan behind him. Causeway and
marsh ended together, some two miles or so from the city, but the road kept on,
slowly bearing a little eastward. Cloud‑dark evening faded into night,
and the misting rain continued. Moiraine and Lan kept a steady, ground‑eating
pace. The horses’ hooves splashed through puddles on the hard‑packed
dirt. The moon shone through gaps in the clouds. Low hills began to rise around
them, and trees to appear more and more often. Perrin thought there must be
forest ahead, but he was not sure how he liked the idea. Woods could hide them
from pursuit; woods could let pursuit come close before they saw. A thin howl
rose far behind them. For a moment he thought it was a wolf; he surprised
himself by nearly reaching out to the wolf before he could stop. The cry came
again, and he knew it was no wolf. Others answered it, all miles behind, eerie
wails holding blood and death, cries that spoke of nightmares. To his surprise,
Lan and Moiraine slowed, the Aes Sedai studying the hills around them in the
night. “They are a
long way,” he said. “They’ll not catch us if we keep on.” “The
Darkhounds?” Zarine muttered. “Those are the Darkhounds? Are you sure it isn’t
the Wild Hunt, Aes Sedai?” “But it is,”
Moiraine replied. “It is.” “You can never
outrun the Darkhounds, blacksmith,” Lan said, “not on the fastest horse. Always,
you must face them and defeat them, or they will pull you down.” “I could have
stayed in the stedding, you know,” Loial said. “My mother
would have had me married by now, but it would not have been a bad life. Plenty
of books. I did not have to come Outside.” “There,”
Moiraine said, pointing to a tall, treeless mound well off to their right.
There were no trees that Perrin could see for two hundred paces or more around
it, either, and they were still sparse beyond that. “We must see them coming to
have a chance.” The Darkhounds’
dire cries rose again, closer, yet still far. Lan quickened
Mandarb’s pace a little, now that Moiraine had chosen their ground. As they
climbed, the horses’ hooves clattered on rocks halfburied in the dirt and
slicked by the drizzle. To Perrin’s eyes, most of them had too many squared
corners to be natural. At the top, they dismounted around what seemed to be a
low, rounded boulder. The moon appeared through a gap in the clouds, and he
found himself looking at a weathered stone face two paces long. A woman’s face,
he thought from the length of the hair. The rain made her seem to be weeping. Moiraine
dismounted and stood looking off in the direction of the howls. She was a
shadowed, hooded shape, rain catching moonlight as it rolled down her oiled
cloak. Loial led his
horse over to peer at the carving, then bent closer and felt the features. “I
think she was an Ogier,” he said at last. “But this is not an old stedding; I would feel it. We all would.
And we would be safe from Shadowspawn.” “What are you
two staring at?” Zarine squinted at the rock. ‘What is it? Her? Who?” “Many nations
have risen and fallen since the Breaking,” Moiraine said without turning, “some
leaving no more than names on a yellowed page, or lines on a tattered map. Will
we leave as much behind?” The blood-drenched howls rose again, still closer.
Perrin tried to calculate their pace, and thought Lan had been right; the
horses could not have outrun them, after all. They would not have long to wait. “Ogier,” Lan
said, “you and the girl hold the horses.” Zarine protested, but he rode
straight over to her. “Your knives will not do much good here, girl.” His sword
blade gleamed in the moonlight as he drew it. “Even this is a last resort. It
sounds like ten out there, not one. Your work is to keep the horses from
running when they smell the Darkhounds. Even Mandarb does not like that smell.” If the Warder’s
sword was no good, then neither was the axe. Perrin felt something near to
relief at that, even if they were Shadowspawn; he would not have to use the
axe. He drew the length of his unstrung bow from under Stepper’s saddle girths.
“Maybe this will do some good.” “Try if you
wish, blacksmith,” Lan said. “They do not die easily. Perhaps you will kill
one.” Perrin drew a
fresh bowstring from his pouch, trying to shield it from the soft rain. The
beeswax coating was thin, and not much protection against prolonged damp.
Setting the bow slantwise between his legs, he bent it easily, fixing the loops
of the bowstring into the horn nocks at the ends of the bow. When he
straightened, he could see the Darkhounds. They ran like
horses at a gallop, and as he caught sight of them, they gathered speed. They
were only ten large shapes running in the night, sweeping through the scattered
trees, yet he pulled a broadhead arrow from his quiver, nocked it but did not
draw. He had been far from the best bowman in Emond’s Field, but among the
younger men, only Rand had been better. At three
hundred paces he would shoot, he decided. Fool! You’d have a hard time
hitting a target standing still at that distance. But if I wait, the way they
are moving . . . . Stepping up beside Moiraine, he raised his bow ‑ I
just have to imagine that moving shadow
is a big dog ‑ drew the goose‑feather fletchings to his
ear, and loosed. He was sure the Shaft merged with the nearest shadow, but the
only result was a snarl. It is not going to work. They’re coming too fast! He
was already drawing another arrow. Why aren’t you doing something, Moiraine? He could see their eyes, shining like
silver, their teeth gleaming like burnished steel. Black as the night itself
and as big as small ponies, they sped toward him, silent now, seeking the kill.
The wind carried a stink near to burned sulphur; the horses whickered fearfully,
even Lan’s warhorse. Burn you, Aes Sedai,
do something! He loosed again; the frontmost
Darkhound faltered and came on. They can
die! He shot once more, and the lead Darkhound tumbled, staggered to its
feet, then fell, yet even as it did he knew a moment of despair. One down, and
the other nine had covered two thirds of the distance already; they seemed to
be running even faster, like shadows flowing across the ground. One more arrow. Time for one more, maybe,
and then it’s the axe. Burn you, Aes Sedai! He drew again. “Now,” Moiraine
said as his arrow left the bow. The air between her hands caught fire and
streaked toward the Darkhounds, vanquishing night. The horses squealed and
leaped against being held. Perrin threw an
arm across his eyes to shield them from a white‑hot glare like burning,
heat like a forge cracking open; sudden noon flared in the darkness, and was
gone. When he uncovered his eyes, spots flickered across his vision, and the
faint, fading image of that line of fire. Where the Darkhounds had been was
nothing but night‑covered ground and the soft rain; the only shadows that
moved were cast by clouds crossing the moon. I thought she’d throw fire at them, or call
lightning, but this . . . . “What
was that?” he asked hoarsely. Moiraine was
peering off toward Illian again, as if she could see through all those miles of
darkness. “Perhaps he did not see,” she said, almost to herself. “It is far,
and if he was not watching, perhaps he did not notice.” “Who?” Zarine
demanded. “Sammael?” Her voice shook a little. “You said he was in Illian. How
could he see anything here? What did you do?” “Something
forbidden,” Moiraine said coolly. “Forbidden by vows almost as strong as the
Three Oaths.” She took Aldieb’s reins from the girl, and patted the mare’s
neck, calming her. “Something not used in nearly two thousand years. Something
I might be stilled just for knowing.” “Perhaps . . .
?” Loial’s voice was a faint boom. “Perhaps we should be going? There could be
more.” “I think not,”
the Aes Sedai said, mounting. “He would not loose two packs at once, even if he
has two; they would turn on each other instead of their prey. And I think we
are not his main quarry, or he would have come himself. We were . . . an
annoyance, I think” ‑ her tone was calm, but it was clear she did not
like being regarded so lightly ‑ “and perhaps a little something extra to
slip into his gamebag, if we were not too much trouble. Still, there is small
good in remaining any nearer him than we must. “ “Rand?” Perrin
asked. He could almost feel Zarine leaning forward to listen. “If we are not
what he hunts, is it Rand?” “Perhaps,”
Moiraine said. “Or perhaps Mat. Remember that he is ta’veren also, and he blew the Horn of Valere.” Zarine made a
strangled sound. “He blew it? Someone
has found it already?” The Aes Sedai
ignored her, leaning out of her saddle to stare closely into Perrin’s eyes,
dark gleaming into burnished gold. “Once again events outpace me. I do not like
that. And neither should you. If events outrun me, they may well trample you,
and the rest of the world with you.” “We have many
leagues to Tear yet,” Lan said. “The Ogier’s suggestion is a good one.” He was
already in his saddle. After a moment
Moiraine straightened and touched the mare’s ribs with her heels. She was halfway
down the side of the mound before he could get his bow unstrung and take
Stepper’s reins from Loial. Burn you,
Moiraine! I’ll find some answers somewhere! Leaning back
against a fallen log, Mat enjoyed the warmth of the campfire‑the rains
had drifted south three days earlier, but he still felt damp ‑ yet right
at that moment, he was hardly aware of the dancing flames. He peered
thoughtfully at the small, wax‑covered cylinder in his hand. Thom was
engrossed in tuning his harp, muttering to himself of rain and wet, never
glancing Mat’s way. Crickets chirped in the dark thicket around them. Caught
between villages by sunset, they had chosen this copse away from the road. Two
nights they had tried to buy a room for the night; twice a farmer had loosed his
dogs on them. Mat unsheathed
his belt knife, and hesitated. Luck. It
only explodes sometimes, she said. Luck. As carefully as he could, he slit
along the, length of the tube. It was a tube, and of paper, as he had thought ‑
he had found bits of paper on the ground after fireworks were set off, back
home ‑ layers of paper, but all that filled the inside was something that
looked like dirt, or maybe tiny gray‑black pebbles and dust. He stirred
them on his palm with one finger. How in the Light could pebbles explode? “The Light burn
me!” Thom roared. He thrust his harp into its case as if to protect it from
what was in Mat’s hand. “Are you trying to kill us, boy? Haven’t you ever heard
those things explode ten times as hard for air as for fire? Fireworks are the
next thing to Aes Sedai work, boy.” “Maybe,” Mat
said, “but Aludra did not look like any Aes Sedai to me. I used to think that
about Master al’Vere’s clock ‑ that it had to be Aes Sedai work ‑
but once I got the back of the cabinet open, I saw it was full of little pieces
of metal.” He shifted uncomfortably at the memory. Mistress al’Vere had been
the first to reach him that time, with the Wisdom and his father and the Mayor
all right behind her, and none believing he just meant to look. I could have put them all back together. “I think Perrin could make one, if he
saw those little wheels and springs and I don’t know what all.” “You would be
surprised, boy,” Thom said dryly. “Even a bad clockmaker is a fairly rich man,
and they earn it. But a clock does not explode in your face!” “Neither did
this. Well, it is useless, now.” He tossed the handful of paper and little
pebbles into the fire to a screech from Thom; the pebbles sparked and made tiny
flashes, and there was a smell of acrid smoke. “You
are trying to kill us.”
Thom’s voice was unsteady, and it rose in intensity and pitch as he spoke. “If
I decide I want to die, I will go to the Royal Palace when we reach Caemlyn,
and I’ll pinch Morgase!” His long mustaches flailed. “Do not do that again!” “It did not
explode,” Mat said, frowning at the fire. He fished into the oiled‑cloth
roll on the other side of the log and pulled out a firework of the next larger
size. “I wonder why there was no bang.” “I do not care
why there was no bang! Do not do it again!” Mat glanced at
him and laughed. “Stop shaking, Thom. There’s no need to be afraid. I know what
is inside them, now. At least, I know what it looks like, but . . . . Don’t say
it. I will not be cutting any more open, Thom. It is more fun to set them off,
anyway.” “I am not
afraid, you mud‑footed swineherd,” Thom said with elaborate dignity. “I
am shaking with rage because I’m traveling with a goat-brained lout who might
kill the pair of us because he cannot think past his own - ” “Ho, the fire!” Mat exchanged
glances with Thom as horses’ hooves approached. It was late for anyone honest
to be traveling. But the Queen’s Guards kept the roads safe this close to
Caemlyn, and the four who rode into the firelight certainly did not look like
robbers. One was a woman. The men all wore long cloaks and seemed to be her
retainers, while she was pretty and blue‑eyed, in gold necklace and a
gray silk dress and a velvet cloak with a wide hood. The men dismounted. One
held her reins and another her stirrup, and she smiled at Mat, doffing her
gloves as she came near the fire. “I fear we are
caught out late, young master,” she said, “and I would trouble you for
directions to an inn, if you know one.” He grinned and
started to rise. He had made it as far as a crouch when he heard one of the men
mutter something, and another produced a crossbow from under his cloak, already
drawn, with a clip holding the bolt. “Kill him,
fool!” the woman shouted, and Mat tossed the firework into the flames and threw
himself toward his quarterstaff. There was a loud bang and a flash of light ‑
“Aes Sedai!” a man cried. “Fireworks, fool!” the woman shouted ‑ and he
rolled to his feet with the staff in his hand to see the crossbow bolt sticking
out of the fallen log almost where he had been sitting, and the crossbowman
falling with the hilt of one of Thom’s knives adorning his chest. It was all he
had time to see, for the other two men darted past the fire at him, drawing
swords. One of them suddenly stumbled to his knees, dropping his sword to claw
at the knife in his back as he fell facedown. The last man did not see his
companion fall; he obviously expected to be one of a pair, dividing their
opponent’s attention, as he thrust his blade at Mat’s middle. Feeling almost
contemptuous, Mat cracked the fellow’s wrist with one end of his staff, sending
the sword flying, and cracked his forehead with the other. The man’s eyes
rolled up in his head as he collapsed. From the corner
of his eye, Mat saw the woman walking toward him, and he stuck a finger at her like
a knife. “Fine clothes you wear for a thief, woman! You sit down till I decide
what to do with you, or I’ll - ” She looked as
surprised as Mat at the .knife that suddenly bloomed in her throat, a red
flower of spreading blood. He took a half step, as if to catch her as she fell,
knowing it was no good. Her long cloak settled over her, covering everything
but her face, and the hilt of Thom’s knife. “Burn you,” Mat
muttered. “Burn you, Thom Merrilin! A woman! Light, we could have tied her up,
given her to the Queen’s Guards tomorrow in Caemlyn. Light, I might even have
let her go. She’d rob nobody without these three, and the only one that lives
will be days before he can see straight and months before he can hold a sword.
Burn you, Thom, there was no need to kill her!” The gleeman
limped to where the woman lay, and kicked back her cloak. The dagger had half
fallen from her hand, its blade as wide as Mat’s thumb and two hands long.
“Would you rather I had waited till she nested that in your ribs, boy?” He retrieved
his own knife, wiping the blade on her cloak. Mat realized he
was humming. “She Wore a Mask That Hid Her Face,” and stopped it. He bent down
and hid hers with the hood of her cloak. “Best we move on,” he said quietly. “I
do nor want to have to explain this if a patrol of the Guards happens by.” “With her in
those clothes?” Thom said. “I should say not! They must have robbed a
merchant’s wife, or some noblewoman’s carriage.” His voice became gentler. “If
we’re going, boy, you had best see to saddling your horse. “ Mat gave a
start and pulled his eyes from the dead woman. “Yes, I had better, hadn’t I?”
He did not look at her again. He had no such
compunction about the men. As far as he was concerned, a man who decided to rob
and kill deserved what he got when he lost the game. He did not dwell on them,
but neither did he jerk his eyes away if they fell on one of the robbers. It
was after he had saddled his gelding and tied his things on behind, while he
was kicking dirt onto the fire, that he found himself looking at the man who
had shot the crossbow. There was something familiar about those features, about
the way the smothering fire made shadows across them. Luck, he told himself. Always the luck. “The
crossbowman was a good swimmer, Thom,” he said as he climbed into the saddle. “What foolery
are you talking, now?” The gleeman was on his horse, too, and far more
concerned with how his instrument cases rode behind his saddle than he was in
the dead. “How could you know whether he could even swim at all?” “He made it
ashore from a small boat in the middle of the Erinin in the middle of the
night. I guess that used up all his luck.” He checked the lashings on the roll
of fireworks again. If that fool
thought one of these was Aes Sedai, I wonder what he’d have thought if they all
went off. “Are you sure, boy? The chances of it being the same man . .
. . Why, even you wouldn’t lay a wager against those odds.” “I am sure, Thom.” Elayne,
I will wring your neck when I put my hands on you. And Egwene’s and Nynaeve’s,
too. “And I am sure I intend to have this bloody letter out of my hands an
hour after we reach Caemlyn.” “I tell you,
there is nothing in that letter, boy. I played Daes Dae’mar when I was younger than you, and I can recognize a
code or a cipher even when I don’t know what it says.” “Well, I never
played your Great Game, Thom, your bloody Game of Houses, but I know when
someone is chasing me, and they’d not be chasing this hard or this far for the
gold in my pockets, not for less than a chest full of gold. It has to be the
letter.” Burn me, pretty girls always get
me in trouble. “Do you feel like sleeping tonight, after this?” “With the sleep
of an innocent babe, boy. But if you want to ride, I’ll ride.” The face of a
pretty woman floated into Mat’s head, with a dagger in her throat. You had no luck, pretty woman. “Then let’s
ride!” he said savagely. CHAPTER 45 Caemlyn Mat had vague
memories of Caemlyn, but when they approached it in the early hours after
sunrise, it seemed as if he had never been there before. They had not been
alone on the road since first light, and other riders surrounded them now, and
trains of merchants’ wagons and folk afoot, all streaming toward the great
city. Built on rising
hills, it was surely as large as Tar Valon, and outside the huge walls‑a
fifty‑foot height of pale, grayish stone streaked with white and silver
sparkling in the sun, spaced with tall, round towers with the Lion Banner of
Andor waving atop them, white on red‑outside those walls, it seemed as if
another great city had been placed, wrapping around the walled city, all red
brick and gray stone and white plastered walls, inns pushed in on houses of
three and four stories so fine they must belong to wealthy merchants, shops
with goods displayed on tables under awnings crowding against wide, windowless
warehouses. Open markets under red and purple roof tiles lined the road on both
sides, men and women already crying their wares, bargaining at the top of their
voices, while penned calves and sheep and goats and pigs, caged geese and
chickens and ducks, added to the din. He seemed to remember thinking Caemlyn
was too noisy when he was here before; now it sounded like a heartbeat, pumping
wealth. The road led to
arched gates twenty feet high, standing open under the watchful eye of red‑coated
Queen’s Guards in their shining breastplates‑they eyed Thom and him no
more than anyone else, not even the quarterstaff slanted across his saddle in
front of him; all they cared was that people keep moving, it seemed‑and
then they were within. Slender towers here rose even taller than those along
the walls, and gleaming domes shone white and gold above streets teeming with
people. Just inside the gates the road split into two parallel streets,
separated by a wide strip of grass and trees. The hills of the city rose like
steps toward a peak, which was surrounded by another wall, shining as white as
Tar Valon’s, with still more domes and towers within. That was the Inner City,
Mat recalled, and atop those highest hills stood the Royal Palace. “No point
waiting,” he told Thom. “I’ll take the letter straight on.” He looked at the
sedan chairs and carriages making their way through the crowds, the shops with
all their goods displayed. “A man could earn some gold in this city, Thom, once
he found a game of dice, or cards.” He was not quite so lucky at cards as at
dice, but few except nobles and the wealthy played those games anyway. Now
that’s who I should find a game with. Thom yawned at
him and hitched at his gleeman’s cloak as if it were a blanket. “We have ridden
all night, boy. Let’s at least find something to eat, first. The Queen’s
Blessing has good meals.” He yawned again. “And good beds.” “I remember
that,” Mat said slowly. He did, in a way. The innkeeper was a fat man with
graying hair, Master Gill. Moiraine had caught up to Rand and him there, when
he had thought they were finally free of her. She’s off playing her game with Rand, now. Nothing to do with me. Not
anymore. “I will meet you there, Thom. I said I’d have this letter out of
my hands an hour after I arrived, and I mean to. You go on.” Thom nodded and
turned his horse aside, calling over his shoulder through a yawn. “Do not
become lost, boy. It’s a big city, Caemlyn.” And a rich one. Mat heeled his mount on
up the crowded street. Lost! I can
find my bloody way. The sickness appeared to have erased parts of his
memory. He could look at an inn, its upper floors sticking out over the ground
floor all the way around and its sign creaking in the breeze, and remember
seeing it before, yet not recall another thing he could see from that spot. A
hundred paces of street might abruptly spark in his memory, while the parts
before and after remained as mysterious as dice still in the cup. Even with the
holes in his memory he was sure he had never been to the Inner City or the
Royal Palace ‑ I couldn’t forget that! ‑ yet he did not need
to remember the way. The streets of the New City ‑ he remembered that
name suddenly; it was the part of Caemlyn less than two thousand years old ‑
ran every which way, but the main boulevards all led to the Inner City. The
Guards at the gates made no effort to stop anyone. Within those
white walls were buildings that could almost have fit in Tar Valon. The curving
streets topped hills to reveal thin towers, their tiled walls sparkling with a
hundred colors in the sunlight, or to look down on parks laid out in patterns
made to be viewed from above, or to show sweeping vistas across the entire city
to the rolling plains and forests beyond. It did not really matter which
streets he took here. They all spiraled in on what he sought, the Royal Palace
of Andor. In no time, he
found himself crossing the huge oval plaza before the Palace, riding toward its
tall, gilded gates. The pure white Palace of Andor would certainly not have
been out of place among Tar Valon’s wonders, with its slender towers and golden
domes shining in the sun, its high balconies and intricate stonework. The gold
leaf on one of those domes could have kept him in luxury for a year. There were
fewer people in the plaza than elsewhere, as if it were reserved for great
occasions. A dozen of the Guards stood before the closed gates, bows slanted,
all at exactly the same angle, across their gleaming breastplates, faces hidden
by the steel bars of their burnished helmets’ face‑guards. A heavyset
officer, with his red cloak thrown back to reveal a knot of gold braid on his
shoulder, was walking up and down the line, eyeing each man as if he thought he
might find rust or dust. Mat drew rein
and put on a smile. “Good morning to you, Captain.” The officer
turned, staring at him through the bars of his face‑guard with deep,
beady eyes, like a pudgy rat in a cage. The man was older than he had expected ‑
surely old enough to have more than one knot of rank‑and fat rather than
stocky. “What do you want, farmer?” he demanded roughly. Mat drew a
breath. Make it good. Impress this fool
so he doesn’t keep me waiting all day. I don’t want to have to flash the
Amyrlin’s paper around to keep from kicking my heels. “I come from Tar
Valon, from the White Tower, bearing a letter from - ” “You come from
Tar Valon, farmer?” The fat officer’s stomach shook as he laughed, but then his
laughter cut off as if severed with a knife, and he glared. “We want no letters
from Tar Valon, rogue, if you have such a thing! Our good Queen ‑ may the
Light illumine her! ‑ will take no word from the White Tower until the
Daughter‑Heir is returned to her. I never heard of any messenger from the
Tower wearing a country man’s coat and breeches. It is plain to me you are up
to some trick, perhaps thinking you’ll find a few coins if you come claiming to
carry letters, but you will be lucky if you don’t end in a prison cell! If you
do come from Tar Valon, go back and tell the Tower to return the Daughter-Heir
before we come and take her! If you’re a trickster after silver, get out of my
sight before I have you beaten within an inch of your life! Either way, you
half‑wit looby, be gone!” Mat had been
trying to edge a word in from the beginning of the man’s speech. He said
quickly, “The letter is from her, man. It is from - ” “Did I not tell
you to be gone, ruffian?” the fat man bellowed. His face was growing nearly as
red as his coat. “Take yourself out of my sight, you gutter scum! If you are
not gone by the time I count ten, I will arrest you for littering the plaza
with your presence! One! Two!” “Can you count
so high, you fat fool?” Mat snapped. “I tell you, Elayne sent - ” “Guards!” The
officer’s face was purple now. “Seize this man for a Darkfriend!” Mat hesitated a
moment, sure no one could take such a charge seriously, but the red‑coated
Guards dashed toward him, all dozen men in breastplates and helmets, and he
wheeled his horse and galloped ahead of them, followed by the fat man’s shouts.
The gelding was no racer, but it outdistanced men afoot easily enough. People
dodged out of his way along the curving streets, shaking fists after him and
shouting as many curses as the officer had. Fool, he thought, meaning the fat officer,
then added another for himself. All I
had to do was say her bloody name in the beginning. “Elayne, the Daughter‑Heir
of Andor, sends this letter to her mother, Queen Morgase.” Light, who could
have thought they’d think that way about Tar Valon. From what he remembered
of his last visit, Aes Sedai and the White Tower had been close behind Queen
Morgase in the Guards’ affections. Burn
her, Elayne could have told me. Reluctantly, he added, I could have asked questions, too. Before he
reached the arched gates that let out into the New City, he slowed to a walk.
He did not think the Guards from the Palace could still be chasing him, and
there was no point in attracting the eyes of those at the gate by galloping
through, but they looked at him no more now than when he had first entered. As he rode
under the broad arch, he smiled and almost turned back. He had suddenly
remembered something, and had an idea that appealed to him a good deal more
than walking through the Palace gates. Even if that fat officer had not been
watching the gates, he thought he would like it better. He became lost
twice while searching for The Queen’s Blessing, but at last he found the sign
with a man kneeling before a woman with red-gold hair and a crown of golden
roses, her hand on his head. It was a broad stone building of three stories,
with tall windows even up under the red roof tiles. He rode around back to the
stableyard, where a horse-faced fellow, in a leather vest that could hardly be
any tougher than his skin, took his horse’s reins. He thought he remembered the
fellow. Yes. Ramey. “It has been a
long time, Ramey. “ Mat tossed him a silver mark. “You remember me, don’t
you?”, “Can’t say as I
. . .” Ramey began, then caught the shine of silver where he had expected
copper; he coughed, and his short nod turned into something that combined a
knuckled forehead with a jerky bow. “Why, of course I do, young master. Forgive
me. Slipped my mind. Mind no good for people. Good for horses. I know horses, I
do. A fine animal, young master. I’ll take good care of him, you can be sure.”
He delivered it all quickly, with no room for Mat to say a word, then hurried
the gelding into the stable before he might have to come up with Mat’s name. With a sour
grimace, Mat put the fat roll of fireworks under his arm and shouldered the
rest of his belongings. Fellow couldn’t
tell me from Hawkwing’s toenails. A bulky, muscular man was sitting on an
upturned barrel beside the door to the kitchen, gently scratching the ear of a
black-and‑white cat crouched on his knee. The man studied Mat with heavy-lidded
eyes, especially the quarterstaff across his shoulder, but he never stopped his
scratching. Mat thought he remembered him, but he could not bring up a name. He
said nothing as he went through the door, and neither did the man. No reason they should remember me. Probably
have bloody Aes Sedai coming for people every day. In the kitchen,
two undercooks and three scullions were darting between stoves and roasting
spits under the direction of a round woman with her hair in a bun and a long
wooden spoon that she used to point out what she wanted done. Mat was sure he
remembered the round woman. Coline, and
what a name for a woman that wide, but everybody called her Cook. “Well, Cook,”
he announced, “I am back, and not a year since I left.” She peered at
him a moment, then nodded. “I remember you.” He began to grin. “You were with
that young prince, weren’t you?” she went on. “The one who looked so like
Tigraine, the Light illumine her memory. You’re his serving man, aren’t you? Is
he coming back, then, the young prince?” “No,” he said
curtly. A prince! Light! “I do
not think he will be anytime soon, and I don’t think you would like it if he
did.” She protested, saying what a fine, handsome young man the prince was ‑ Burn me, it there a
woman anywhere who doesn’t moon over Rand and make calf‑eyes if you
mention his bloody name? She’d bloody scream if she knew what he is doing now ‑ but he refused to let
her get it out. “Is Master Gill about? And Thom Merrilin?” “In the
library,” she said with a tight sniff. “You tell Basel Gill when you see him
that I said those drains need cleaning. Today, mind.” She caught sight of
something one of the undercooks was doing to a beef roast and waddled over to
her. “Not so much, child. You will make the meat too sweet if you put so much
arrath on it.” She seemed to have forgotten Mat already. He shook his
head as he went in search of this library he could not remember. He could not
remember that Coline was married to Master Gill, either, but if he had ever
heard a goodwife send instructions to her husband, that had been it. A pretty
serving girl with big eyes giggled and directed him down a hall beside the
common room. When he stepped
into the library, he stopped and stared. There had to be more than three
hundred books on the shelves built on the walls, and more lying on tables; he
had never seen so many books in one place in his life. He noticed a leather‑bound
copy of The Travels of Jaim Farstrider on
a small table near the door. He had always meant to read that ‑ Rand and
Perrin had always been telling him things out of it ‑ but he never did
seem to get around to reading the books he meant to read. Pink‑faced
Basel Gill and Thom Merrilin were seated at one of the tables, facing each
other across a stones board, pipes in their teeth trailing thin blue streamers
of tabac smoke. A calico cat sat on the table beside a wooden dice cup, her
tail curled over her feet, watching them play. The gleeman’s cloak was nowhere
in sight, so Mat supposed he had already gotten a room. “You’re done
sooner than I expected, boy,” Thom said around his pipestem. He tugged one
long, white mustache as he considered where to place his
next stone on the board’s cross‑hatchings. “Basel, you remember Mat
Cauthon.” “I remember,”
the fat innkeeper said, peering at the board. “Sickly, the last time you were
here, I recall. I hope you are better now, lad.” “I am better,”
Mat said. “Is that all you remember? That I was sick?” Master Gill
winced at Thom’s move and took his pipe out of his mouth. “Considering who you
left with, lad, and considering the way things are now, maybe it’s best I
remember no more than that.” “Aes Sedai not
in such good odor now, are they?” Mat set his things in one big armchair, the
quarterstaff propped against the back, and himself in another with one leg
swinging over the arm. “The Guards at the Palace seemed to think the White
Tower had stolen Elayne.” Thom eyed the roll of fireworks uneasily, looked at
his smoking pipe, and muttered to himself before going back to his study of the
board. “Hardly that,”
Gill said, “but the whole city knows she disappeared from the Tower. Thom says
she’s returned, but we’ve heard none of that here. Perhaps Morgase knows, but
everyone down to a stableboy is stepping lightly so she doesn’t snap off his
head. Lord Gaebril has kept her from actually sending anyone to the headsman,
but I’d not say she would not do it. And he has certainly not soothed her
temper toward Tar Valon. If anything, I think he has made it worse.” “Morgase has a
new advisor,” Thom said in a dry voice. “Gareth Bryne did not like him, so
Bryne has been retired to his estate to watch his sheep grow wool. Basel, are
you going to place a stone or not?” “In a moment,
Thom. In a moment. I want to set it right.” Gill clamped his teeth around his
pipestem and frowned at the board, puffing up smoke. “So the Queen
has an advisor who doesn’t like Tar Valon,” Mat said. “Well, that explains the
way the Guards acted when I said I came from there.” “If you told
them that,” Gill said, “you might be lucky you escaped without any broken
bones. If it was any of the new men, at least. Gaebril has replaced half the
Guards in Caemlyn with men of his choosing, and that is no mean feat
considering how short a time he has been here. Some say Morgase may marry him.”
He started to put a stone on the board, then took it back with a shake of his
head. “Times change. People change. Too much change for me. I suppose I am
growing old.” “You seem to
mean us both to grow old before you place a stone,” Thom muttered. The cat
stretched and slinked across the table for him to stroke her back. “Talking all
day will not let you find a good move. Why don’t you just admit defeat, Basel?” “I never admit
defeat,” Gill said stoutly. “I’ll beat you yet, Thom.” He set a white stone on
the intersection of two lines. “You will see.” Thom snorted. . From what Mat
could see of the board, he did not think Gill had much chance. “I will just
have to avoid the Guards and put Elayne’s letter right into Morgase’s hands.” Especially if they’re all like that fat
fool. Light, I wonder if he’s told them all I’m a Darkfriend? “You did not
deliver it?” Thom barked. “I thought you were anxious to be rid of the thing.” “You have a
letter from the Daughter‑Heir?” Gill exclaimed. “Thom, why did you not
tell me?” “I am sorry,
Basel,” the gleeman muttered. He glared at Mat from under those bushy eyebrows
and blew out his mustaches. “The boy thinks someone is out to kill him over it,
so I thought I’d let him say what he wanted and no more. Seems he does not care
any longer.” “What kind of
letter?” Gill asked. “Is she coming home? And Lord Gawyn? I hope they are. I’ve
actually heard talk of war with Tar Valon, as if anyone could be fool enough to
go to war with Aes Sedai. If you ask me, it is all one with those mad rumors
we’ve heard about Aes Sedai supporting a false Dragon somewhere in the, west,
and using the Power as a weapon. Not that I can see why that would make anyone
want to go to war with them; just the opposite.” “Are you
married to Coline?” Mat asked, and Master Gill gave a start. “The Light
preserve me from that! You would think the inn was hers now. If she was my wife
. . . ! What does that have to do with the Daughter‑Heir’s letter?” “Nothing,” Mat
said, “but you went on so long, I thought you must have forgotten your own
questions.” Gill made a choking sound, and Thom barked a laugh. Mat hurried on
before the innkeeper could speak. “The letter is sealed; Elayne did not tell me
what it says.” Thom was eyeing him sideways and stroking his mustaches. Does he think I’ll admit we opened the
thing? “But I don’t think she is coming home. She means to be Aes Sedai, if
you ask me.” He told them about his attempt to deliver the letter, smoothing
over a few edges they had no need to know about. , “The new men,”
Gill said. “That officer sounds it, at least. I’ll wager on it. No better than
brigands, most of them, except the ones with a sly eye. You wait until this
afternoon, lad, when the Guards on the gate will have changed. Say the Daughter‑Heir’s
name right out, and just in case the new fellow is one of Gaebril’s men, too,
duck your head a little. A knuckle to your forehead, and you’ll have no
trouble.” “Burn me if I
will. I pull wool and scratch gravel for nobody. Not to Morgase herself. This
time, I’ll not go near the Guards at all.” I would just as soon not know what word that fat fellow has spread. They
stared at him as if he were mad. “How under the
Light,” Gill said, “do you mean to enter the Royal Palace without passing the
Guards?” His eyes widened as if he were remembering something. “Light, you
don’t mean to . . . . Lad, you’d need the Dark One’s own luck to escape with
your life!” “What are you
going on about now, Basel? Mat, what fool thing do you intend to try?” “I am lucky,
Master Gill,” Mat said. “You just have a good meal waiting when I come back.”
As he stood, he picked up the dice cup and spun the dice out beside the stones
board for luck. The calico cat leaped down, hissing at him with her back arched.
The five spotted dice came to rest, each showing a single pip. The Dark One’s Eyes. “That’s the
best toss or the worst,” Gill said. “It depends on the game you are playing,
doesn’t it. Lad, I think you mean to play a dangerous game. Why don’t you take
that cup out into the common room and lose a few coppers? You look to me like a
fellow who might like a little gamble. I will see the letter gets to the Palace
safely.” “Coline wants you to clean the drains,” Mat told him, and turned to Thom
while the innkeeper was still blinking and muttering to himself. “It doesn’t
seem to make any odds whether I get an arrow in me trying to deliver that
letter or a knife in my back waiting. It’s six up, and a half dozen down. Just
you have that meal waiting, Thom.” He tossed a gold mark on the table in front
of Gill. “Have my things put in a room, innkeeper. If it takes more coin, you
will have it. Be careful of the big roll; it frightens Thom something awful.”
As he stalked out, he heard Gill say to Thom, “I always thought that lad was a
rascal. How does he come by gold?” I always win, that’s how, he thought
grimly. I just have to win once
more, and I’m done with Elayne, and that’s the last of the White Tower for me.
Just once more. CHAPTER 46 A Message Out of the Shadow Even as he returned to the Inner City on foot, Mat was far
from certain that what he intended would actually work. It would, if what he
had been told was true, but it was the truth of that he was not sure of. He
avoided the oval plaza in front of the Palace, but wandered around the sides of
the huge structure and its grounds, along streets that curved with the contours
of the hills. The golden domes of the Palace glittered, mockingly out of reach.
He had made his way almost all the way around, nearly back to the plaza, when
he saw it. A steep slope thick with low flowers, rising from the street to a
white wall of rough stone. Several leafy tree limbs stuck over the top of the
wall, and he could see the tops of others beyond, in a garden of the Royal Palace. A wall made to look like a cliff, he
thought, and a garden on the other ride.
Maybe Rand was telling the truth. A casual look
both ways showed him he had the curving street to himself for the moment. He
would have to hurry; the curves did not allow him to see very far; someone
could come along any moment. He scrambled up the slope on all fours, careless
of how his boots ripped holes in the banks of red and white blossoms. The rough
stone of the wall gave plenty of fingerholds, and ridges and knobs provided
toeholds even for a man in boots. Careless of them to make it so easy, he
thought as he climbed. For a moment the climbing took him back home with Rand
and Perrin, to a journey they had made beyond the Sand Hills, into the edge of
the Mountains of Mist. When they returned to Emond’s Field, they had all caught
the fury from everyone who could lay hands on them ‑ him worst of all;
everyone assumed it had been his idea ‑ but for three days they had
climbed the cliffs, and slept under the sky, and eaten eggs filched from
redcrests’ nests, and plump, gray‑winged grouse fetched with an arrow, or
a stone from a sling, and rabbits caught with snares, all the while laughing
about how they were not afraid of the mountains’ bad luck and how they might
find a treasure. He had brought home an odd rock from that expedition, with the
skull of a good‑sized fish somehow pressed into it, and a long, white
tail feather dropped by a snow eagle, and a piece of white stone as big as his
hand that looked almost as if it had been carved into a man’s ear. He thought
it looked like an ear, even if Rand and Perrin did not, and Tam al’Thor had
said it might be. His fingers
slipped out of a shallow groove, his balance shifted and he lost the toehold
under his left foot. With a gasp, he barely caught hold of the top of the wall,
and pulled himself up the rest of the way. For a moment he lay there, breathing
hard. It would not have been that long a fall, but enough to break his head. Fool,
letting my mind wander like that. Nearly
killed myself on those cliffs that way. That was all a long time ago. His
mother had likely thrown all those things out already, anyway. With one last
look each way to make sure no one had seen him ‑ the curving length of
street below was still empty ‑ he dropped inside the Palace grounds. It was a large
garden, with flagstoned walks through expanses of grass among the trees, and
grapevines thick on arbors over the walks. And everywhere, flowers. White
blossoms covering the pear trees, and white and pink dotting the apple trees.
Roses in every color, and bright golden sunburst, and purple Emond’s Glory, and
many he could not identify. Some he was not sure could be real. One had odd
blossoms in scarlet and gold that looked almost like birds, and another seemed
no different from a sunflower except that its yellow flowers were two feet and
more across and stood on stalks as tall as an Ogier. Boots crunched
on flagstone, and he crouched low behind a bush against the wall as two
guardsmen marched past, their long, white collars hanging over their
breastplates. They never glanced his way, and he grinned to himself. Luck. With just a little luck, they’ll never
see me till I hand the bloody thing to Morgase. He slipped
through the garden like a shadow, as if stalking rabbits, freezing by a bush or
hard against a tree trunk when he heard boots. Two more pairs of soldiers
strode by along the paths, the second close enough for him to have taken two
steps and goosed them. As they vanished among the flowers and trees, he plucked
a deep red starblaze and stuck the wavy-petaled flower in his hair with a
grin. This was as much fun as stealing applecakes at Sunday, and easier. Women
always kept a sharp watch on their baking; the fool soldiers never took their
eyes off the flagstones. It was not long
before he found himself against the white wall of the Palace itself, and began
sliding along it behind a row of flowering white roses on slatted frames,
searching for a door. There were plenty of wide, arched windows just over his
head, but he thought it might be a bit harder to explain being found climbing
in through a window than walking down a hall. Two more soldiers appeared, and
he froze; they would pass within three paces of him. He could hear voices from
the window over his head, two men, just loud enough for him to make out the
words. “ ‑ on
their way to Tear, Great Master.” The man sounded frightened and obsequious. “Let them ruin
his plans, if they can.” This voice was deeper and stronger, a man used to
command. “It will serve him right if three untrained girls can foil him. He was
always a fool, and he is still a fool. Is there any word of the boy? He is the
one who can destroy us all.” “No, Great
Master. He has vanished. But, Great Master, one of the girls is Morgase’s nit.” Mat half
turned, then caught himself. The soldiers were coming closer; they did not
appear to have seen his start through the thickly woven rose stems. Move,
you fools! Get by so I can see who
this man bloody is! He had lost some of the conversation. “ ‑ has
been far too impatient since regaining his freedom,” the deep voice was saying.
“He never realized the best plans take time to mature. He wants the world in a
day, and Callandor besides. The Great
Lord take him! He may seize the girl and try to make some use of her. And that
might strain my own plans.” “As you say,
Great Master. Shall I order her brought out of Tear?” “No. The fool
would take it as a move against him, if he knew. And who can say what he
chooses to watch aside from the sword? See that she dies quietly, Comar. Let
her death attract no notice at all.” His laughter was a rich rumble. “Those
ignorant slatterns in their Tower will have a difficult time producing her
after this disappearance. This may all be just as well. Let it be done quickly.
Quickly, before he has time to take her himself.” The two
soldiers were almost abreast of him; Mat tried to will their feet to move
faster. “Great Master,”
the other man said uncertainly, “that may be difficult. We know she is on her
way to Tear, but the vessel she traveled on was found at Aringill, and all
three of them had left it earlier. We do not know whether she has taken another
ship, or is riding south. And it may not be easy to find her once she reaches
Tear, Great Master. Perhaps if you ‑ ” “Are there none
but fools in the world, now?” the deep voice said harshly. “Do you think I
could move in Tear without him knowing? I do not mean to fight him, not now,
not yet. Bring me the girl’s head, Comar. Bring me all three heads, or you will
pray for me to take yours!” “Yes, Great
Master. It shall be as you say. Yes. Yes.” The soldiers
crunched past, never looking to either side. Mat only waited for their backs to
pass before leaping up to catch the broad stone windowsill and pull himself
high enough to see through the window. He barely
noticed the fringed Tarabon carpet on the floor, worth a fat purse of silver.
One of the broad, carved doors was swinging shut. A tall man, with wide
shoulders and a deep chest straining the green silk of his silver‑embroidered
coat, was staring at the door with dark blue eyes. His black beard was close
cut, with a streak of white over his chin. All in all, he looked a hard man,
and one used to giving orders. , “Yes, Great
Master,” he said suddenly, and Mat almost lost his grip on the sill. He had
thought this must be the man with the deep voice, but it was the cringing voice
he heard. Not cringing now, but still the same. “It shall be as you say, Great
Master,” the man said bitterly. “I will cut the three wenches’ heads off myself.
As soon as I can find them!” He strode through the door, and Mat let himself
back down. For a moment he
crouched there behind the rose frames. Someone in the Palace wanted Elayne
dead, and had thrown in Egwene and Nynaeve as afterthoughts. What under the Light are they doing, going
to Tear? It had to be them. He pulled the
Daughter‑Heir’s letter out of the lining of his coat and frowned at it.
Maybe, with this in his hand, Morgase would believe him. He could describe one
of the men. But the time for skulking was past; the big fellow could be off to
Tear before he even found Morgase, and whatever she did then, there was no
guarantee it could stop him. Taking a deep
breath, Mat wiggled between two of the rose frames at the cost of only a few
pricks and snags from the thorns, and started down the flagstone path after the
soldiers. He held Elayne’s letter out in front of him so the golden lily seal
was plainly visible, and went over in his mind exactly what he meant to say.
When he had been sneaking about, guardsmen kept popping up like mushrooms after
rain, but now he walked almost the length of the garden without seeing even
one. He passed several doors. It would not be so good to enter the Palace
without permission ‑ the Guards might do nasty things first and listen
after - but he was beginning to think about going through a door when it
opened and a helmetless young officer with one golden knot on his shoulder
strode out. The man’s hand
immediately went to his sword hilt, and he had a foot of steel bared before Mat
could push the letter toward him. “Elayne, the Daughter‑Heir, sends this
letter to her mother, Queen Morgase, Captain.” He held the letter so the lily
seal was prominent. The officer’s
dark eyes flickered to either side, as if searching for other people, without
really ever leaving Mat. “How did you come into this garden?” He did not draw
his sword further, but he did not sheath it, either. “Elber is on the main
gates. He’s a fool, but he would never let anyone wander loose into the
Palace.” “A fat man with
eyes like a rat?” Mat cursed his tongue, but the officer gave a sharp nod; he
almost smiled, too, but it did not seem to lessen his vigilance, or his
suspicion. “He grew angry when he learned I had come from Tar Valon, and he
wouldn’t even give me a chance to show the letter or mention the Daughter‑Heir’s
name. He said he would arrest me if I did not go, so I climbed the wall. I
promised I would deliver this to Queen Morgase herself, you see, Captain. I
promised it, and I always keep my promises. You see the seal?” “That bloody
garden wall again,” the officer muttered. “It should be built three times so
high.” He eyed Mat. “Guardsman‑lieutenant, not captain. I am Guardsman‑lieutenant
Tallanvor. I recognize the Daughter-Heir’s seal.” His sword finally slid all
the way back into the sheath. He stretched out a hand; not his sword hand.
“Give me the letter, and I will take it to the Queen. After I show you out.
Some would not be so gentle at finding you walking about loose.” “I promised to
put it in her hands myself,” Mat said. Light,
I never thought they might not let me give it to her. “I did promise. To
the Daughter-Heir. “ Mat hardly
realized Tallanvor’s hand was moving before the officer’s sword was resting
against his neck. “I will take you to the Queen, countryman,” Tallanvor said
softly. “But know that I can take your head before you blink if you so much as
think of harming her.” Mat put on his
best grin. That slightly curved blade felt sharp on the side of his neck. “I am
a loyal Andorman,” he said, “and a faithful subject of the Queen, the Light
illumine her. Why, if I had been here during the winter, I’d have followed Lord
Gaebril for sure.” Tallanvor gave
him a tight‑mouthed stare, then finally took his sword away. Mat
swallowed and stopped himself from touching his throat to see if he had been
cut. “Take the
flower out of your hair,” Tallanvor said as he sheathed his blade. “Do you
think you came here courting?” Mat snatched
the starblaze blossom out of his hair and followed the officer. Bloody fool, putting a flower in my hair. I
have to stop playing the fool, now. It was not so
much following, really, for Tallanvor kept an eye on him even while he led the
way. The result was an odd sort of procession, with the officer to one side of
him and ahead, but half turned in case Mat tried anything. For his part, Mat
attempted to look as innocent as a babe splashing in his bathwater. The colorful
tapestries on the walls had earned their weavers silver, and so had the rugs on
the white tile floors, even here in the halls. Gold and silver stood
everywhere, plates and platters, bowls and cups, on chests and low cabinets of
polished wood, as fine as anything he had seen in the Tower. Servants darted
everywhere, in red livery with white collars and cuffs and the White Lion of
Andor on their breasts. He found himself wondering if Morgase played at dice. Wool‑headed thought. Queens don’t toss
dice. But when I give her this letter and tell her somebody in her Palace means
to kill Elayne, I’ll wager she gives me a fat purse. He indulged himself in
a small fancy of being made a lord; surely the man who revealed a plot to
murder the Daughter‑Heir could expect some such reward. Tallanvor led
him down so many corridors and across so many courtyards that he was beginning
to wonder if he could find his way out again without help, when suddenly one of
the courts had more than servants in it. A columned walk surrounded the court,
with a round pool in the middle with white and yellow fish swimming beneath
lilypads and floating white waterlilies. Men in colorful coats embroidered in
gold or silver, women with wide dresses worked even more elaborately, stood
attendance on a woman with red‑gold hair who sat on the raised rim of the
pool, trailing her fingers in the water and staring sadly at the fish that rose
to her fingertips in hopes of food. A Great Serpent ring encircled the third
finger of her left hand. A tall, dark man stood at her shoulder, the red silk
of his coat almost hidden by the gold leaves and scrolls worked on it, but it
was the woman who held Mat’s eye. He did not need
the wreath of finely made golden roses in her hair, or the stole hanging over
her dress of white slashed with red, the red length of the stole embroidered
with the Lions of Andor, to know he was looking at Morgase, by the Grace of the
Light, Queen of Andor, Defender of the Realm, Protector of the People, High
Seat of House Trakand. She had Elayne’s face and beauty, but it was what Elayne
would have when she had ripened. Every other woman in the courtyard faded into
the background by her very presence. I’d dance a jig with her, and steal a kiss
in the moonlight, too, no matter how old she is. He shook himself. Remember exactly who she is! Tallanvor went
to one knee, a fist pressed to the white stone of the courtyard. “My Queen, I
bring a messenger who bears a letter from the Lady Elayne.” Mat eyed the
man’s posture, then contented himself with a deep bow. “From the Daughter‑Heir
. . . uh . . . my Queen.” He held out the letter as he bowed, so the golden
yellow wax of the seal was visible. Once
she reads it, and knows Elayne is all right, I will tell her. Morgase
turned her deep blue eyes on him. Light!
As soon as she’s in a good mood. “You bring a
letter from my scapegrace child?” Her voice was cold, but with an edge that
spoke of heat ready to rise. “That must mean she is alive, at least! Where is
she?” “In Tar Valon,
my Queen,” he managed to get out. Light,
wouldn’t I like to see a staring match between her and the Amyrlin. On
second thought, he decided he would rather not. “At least, she was when I
left.” Morgase waved a
hand impatiently, and Tallanvor rose to take the letter from Mat and hand it to
her. For a moment she frowned at the lily seal, then broke it with a sharp
twist of her wrists. She murmured to herself as she read, shaking her head at
every other line. “She can say no more, can she?” she muttered. “We shall see
whether she holds to that . . . .” Abruptly her face brightened. “Gaebril, she
has been raised to the Accepted. Less than a year in the Tower, and raised
already.” The smile went as suddenly as it had come, and her mouth tightened.
“When I put my hands on the wretched child, she will wish she were still a
novice.” Light, Mat thought, will nothing put her in a good mood? He decided
he was just going to have to say it out, but he wished she did not look as if
she meant to cut someone’s head off. “My Queen, by chance I overheard - ” “Be silent,
boy,” the dark man in the gold‑encrusted coat said calmly. He was a
handsome man, almost as good‑looking as Galad and nearly as youthful‑seeming,
despite the white streaking his temples, but built on a bigger scale, with more
than Rand’s height and very nearly Perrin’s shoulders. “We will hear what you
have to say in a moment.” He reached over Morgase’s shoulder and plucked the
letter out of her hand. Her glare turned on him ‑ Mat could see her
temper heating ‑ but the dark man laid a strong hand on her shoulder,
never taking his eyes off what he was reading, and Morgase’s anger melted. “It
seems she has left the Tower again,” he said. “On the service of the Amyrlin
Seat. The woman oversteps herself again, Morgase.” Mat had no
trouble holding his tongue. Luck. It
was stuck to the roof of his mouth. Sometimes
I don’t know if it’s good or bad. The dark man was the owner of the deep
voice, the “Great Master” who wanted Elayne’s head. She called him Gaebril. Her advisor wants to murder Elayne? Light! And
Morgase was staring up at him like an adoring dog with her master’s hand on her
shoulder. Gaebril turned
nearly black eyes on Mat. The man had a forceful gaze, and a look of knowing.
“What can you tell us of this, boy?” “Nothing . . .
uh . . . my Lord.” Mat cleared his throat; the man’s stare was worse than the
Amyrlin’s. “I went to Tar Valon to see my sister. She’s a novice. Else
Grinwell. I’m Thom Grinwell, my Lord. The Lady Elayne learned I was meaning to
see Caemlyn on my way back home - I’m from Comfrey, my Lord; a little village
north of Baerlon; I’d never seen any place bigger than Baerlon before I went to
Tar Valon ‑ and she ‑ the Lady Elayne, I mean ‑ gave me that
letter to bring.” He thought Morgase had glanced at him when he said he came
from north of Baerlon, but he knew there was a village called Comfrey there; he
remembered hearing it mentioned. Gaebril nodded,
but he said, “Do you know where Elayne was going, boy? Or on what business?
Speak the truth, and you have nothing to fear. Lie, and you will be put to the
question.” Mat did not
have to pretend a worried frown. “My Lord, I only saw the Daughter‑Heir
the once. She gave me the letter ‑ and a gold mark! ‑ and told me
to bring it to the Queen. I know no more of what is in it than I’ve heard
here.” Gaebril appeared to consider it, with no sign on that dark face of
whether he believed a word or not. “No, Gaebril,”
Morgase said suddenly. “Too many have been put to the question. I can see the
need as you have shown it to me, but not for this. Not a boy who only brought a
letter whose contents he does not know. “ “As my Queen
commands, so shall it be,” the dark man said. The tone was respectful, but he
touched her cheek in a way that made color come to her face and her lips part
as if she expected a kiss. Morgase drew an
unsteady breath. “Tell me, Thom Grinwell, did my daughter look well when you
saw her?” “Yes, my Queen.
She smiled, and laughed, and showed a saucy tongue ‑ I mean . . . .” Morgase laughed
softly at the look on his face. “Do not be afraid, young man. Elayne does have
a saucy tongue, far too often for her own good. I am happy she is well.” Those
blue eyes studied him deeply. “A young man who has left his small village often
finds it difficult to return to it. I think you will travel far before you see
Comfrey again. Perhaps you will even return to Tar Valon. If you do, and if you
see my daughter, tell her that what is said in anger is often repented. I will
not remove her from the White Tower before time. Tell her that I often think of
my own time there, and miss the quiet talks with Sheriam in her study. Tell her
that I said that, Thom Grinwell.” Mat shrugged
uncomfortably. “Yes, my Queen. But . . . uh . . . I do not mean to go to Tar
Valon again. Once in any man’s life is enough. My da needs me to help work the
farm. My sisters will be stuck with the milking, with me gone.” Gaebril
laughed, a deep rumble of amusement. “Are you anxious then to milk cows, boy?
Perhaps you should see something of the world before it changes. Here!” He
produced a purse and tossed it; Mat felt coins through the wash‑leather
when he caught it. “If Elayne can give you a gold mark for carrying her letter,
I will give you ten for bringing it safely. See the world before you go back to
your cows.” “Yes, my Lord.”
Mat liked the purse and managed a weak grin. “Thank you, my Lord.” But the dark man had already waved him away and turned to Morgase with
his fists on his hips. “I think the time has come, Morgase, to lance that
festering sore on the border of Andor. By your marriage to Taringail Damodred,
you have a claim to the Sun Throne. The Queen’s Guards can make that claim as
strong as any. Perhaps I can even aid them, in some small way. Hear me.” Tallanvor
touched Mat on the arm, and they backed away, bowing. Mat did not think anyone
noticed. Gaebril was still speaking, and every lord and lady seemed to hang on
his words. Morgase was frowning as she listened, yet she nodded as much as any
other. CHAPTER 47 To Race the Shadow From the small
courtyard with its pool of fish, Tallanvor led Mat swiftly to the great court
at the front of the Palace, behind the tall, gilded gates gleaming in the sun.
It would be midday, soon. Mat felt an urge to be gone, a need to hurry. It was
hard keeping his pace to the young officer’s. Someone might wonder, if he
started running, and maybe - just maybe ‑ things had really been the way
they seemed back there. Maybe Gaebril really did not suspect that he knew. Maybe. He remembered those nearly black
eyes, seizing and holding like a pair of pitchfork tines through his head. Light, maybe. He forced himself to walk
as if he had all the time in the world Just
a haybrain country lout staring at the rugs and the gold. Just a mudfoot who’d
never think anyone might put a knife in his back ‑ until Tallanvor let him through a
sallyport in one of the gates, and followed him out. The fat officer
with the rat’s eyes was still there with the Guards, and when he saw Mat his
face went red again. Before he could open his mouth, though, Tallanvor spoke.
“He has delivered a letter to the Queen from the Daughter‑Heir. Be glad,
Elber, that neither Morgase nor Gaebril knows you tried to keep it from them.
Lord Gaebril was most interested in the Lady Elayne’s missive.” Elber’s face
went from red to as white as his collar. He glared once at Mat, and scuttled
back along the line of guardsmen, his beady eyes peering through the bars of
their face‑guards as if to determine whether any of them had seen his
fear. “Thank you,”
Mat told Tallanvor, and meant it. He had forgotten all about the fat man until
he was staring him in the face again. “Fare you well, Tallanvor.” He started
across the oval plaza, trying not to walk too fast, and was surprised when
Tallanvor walked along. Light, is he
Gaebril’s man, or Morgase’s? He was just beginning to feel an itch between
his shoulder blades, as if a knife might be about to go in ‑ He doesn’t
know, burn me! Gaebril doesn’t suspect I know! ‑ when the young
officer finally spoke. “Did you spend
long in Tar Valon? In the White Tower? Long enough to learn anything of it?” “I was only
there three days,” Mat said cautiously. He would have made the time less ‑
if he could have delivered the letter without admitting ever being in Tar
Valon, he would have ‑ but he did not think the man would believe he had
gone all that way to see his sister and left the same day. What under the Light is he after?
“I learned what I saw in that time. Nothing of any importance. They did not
guide me around and tell me things. I was only there to see Else.” “You must have
heard something, man. Who is Sheriam? Does talking to her in her study mean
anything?” Mat shook his
head vigorously to keep relief from showing on his face. “I don’t know who she
is,” he said truthfully. Perhaps he had heard Egwene, or perhaps Nynaeve,
mention the name. An Aes Sedai, maybe? “Why should it mean anything?” “I do not know,”
Tallanvor said softly. “There is too much I do not know. Sometimes I think she
is trying to say something . . . .” He gave Mat a sharp look. “Are you a loyal Andorman, Thom Grinwell?” “Of course I
am.” Light, if I say that much more
often, I may start believing it. “What about you? Do you serve Morgase and
Gaebril loyally?” Tallanvor gave
him a look as hard as the dice’s mercy. “I serve Morgase, Thom Grinwell. Her,
I serve to the death. Fare you well!” He turned and strode back toward the
Palace with a hand gripping his sword hilt. Watching him
go, Mat muttered to himself. “I will wager this” ‑ he gave Gaebril’s wash‑leather
purse a toss ‑ “that Gaebril says the same.” Whatever games they played
in the Palace, he wanted no place in any of them. And he meant to make sure
Egwene and the others were out of them, too. Fool women! Now I have to keep their bacon from burning instead of looking after my own! He did not
start to run until the streets hid him from the Palace. When he came
dashing into The Queen’s Blessing, nothing very much had changed in the
library. Thom and the innkeeper still sat over the stones board ‑ a
different game, he saw from the positions of the stones, but no better for Gill
‑ and the calico cat was back on the table, washing herself. A tray
holding their unlit pipes and the remains of a meal for two sat near the cat,
and his belongings were gone from the armchair. Each man had a wine cup at his
elbow. “I will be
leaving, Master Gill,” he said. “You can keep the coin and take a meal out of
it. I’ll stay long enough to eat, but then I am on the road to Tear.” “What is your
hurry, boy?” Thom seemed to be watching the cat more than the board. “We only
just arrived here.” “You delivered
the Lady Elayne’s letter, then?” the innkeeper said eagerly. “And kept your
skin whole, it seems. Did you really climb over that wall like the other young
man? No, that does not matter. Did the letter soothe Morgase? Do we still have
to keep tiptoeing on eggs, man?” “I suppose it
soothed her,” Mat said. “I think it did.” He hesitated a moment, bouncing
Gaebril’s purse on his hand. It made a clinking sound. He had not looked to see
if it really held ten gold marks; the weight was about right. “Master Gill,
what can you tell me of Gaebril? Aside from the fact that he does not like Aes
Sedai. You said he had not been in Caemlyn long?” “Why do you
want to know about him?” Thom asked. “Basel, are you going to place a stone or
not?” The innkeeper sighed and stuck a black stone on the board, and the
gleeman shook his head. “Well, lad,”
Gill said, “there is not much to tell. He came out of the west during the
winter. Somewhere out your way, I think. Maybe it was the Two Rivers. I’ve
heard the mountains mentioned.” “We have no
lords in the Two Rivers,” Mat said. “Maybe there are some up around Baerlon. I
do not know.” “That could be
it, lad. I had never even heard of him before, but I do not keep up with the
country lords. Came while Morgase was still in Tar Valon, he did, and half the
city was afraid the Tower was going to make her disappear, too. The other half
did not want her back. The riots started up again, the way they did last year
at the tail of winter.” Mat shook his
head. “I do not care about politics, Master Gill. It’s Gaebril I want to know
about.” Thom frowned at him, and began cleaning the dottle from his long‑stemmed
pipe with a straw. “It is Gaebril
I am telling you about, lad,” Gill said. “During the riots, he made himself
leader of the faction supporting Morgase ‑ got himself wounded in the
fighting, I hear ‑ and by the time she returned, he had it all
suppressed. Gareth Bryne didn’t like Gaebril’s methods - he can be a very hard
man ‑ but Morgase was so pleased to find order restored that she named
him to the post Elaida used to hold.” The innkeeper
stopped. Mat waited for him to go on, but he did not. Thom thumbed his pipe
full of tabac and walked over to light a spill at a small lamp kept for the
purpose on the mantel above the fireplace. “What else?”
Mat asked. “The man has to have a reason for what he does. If he marries
Morgase, would he be king when she dies? If Elayne were dead, too, I mean?” Thom choked
lighting his pipe, and Gill laughed. “Andor has a queen, lad. Always a queen.
If Morgase and Elayne both died ‑ the Light send it not so! ‑ then
Morgase’s nearest female relative would take the throne. At least there is no
question of who that is this time ‑ a cousin, the Lady Dyelin ‑ not
like the Succession, after Tigraine vanished. It took a year before Morgase sat
on the Lion Throne, then. Dyelin could keep Gaebril as her advisor, or marry
him to cement the line ‑ though she would not likely do that unless
Morgase had had a child by him ‑ but he would be the Prince Consort even
then. No more than that. Thank the Light, Morgase is a young woman, yet. And
Elayne is healthy. Light! The letter did not say she is ill, did it?” “She is well.”
For now, at least. “Isn’t there anything else you can tell me about him? You do
not seem to like him. Why?” The innkeeper
frowned in thought, and scratched his chin, and shook his head. “I suppose I
would not like him marrying Morgase, but I do not truly know why. He’s said to
be a fine man; the nobles all look to him. I do not like most of the men he’s
brought into the Guards. Too much has changed since he came, but I cannot lay
it all at his door. There just seem to be too many people muttering in corners
since he came. You would think we were all Cairhienin, the way they were before
this civil war, all plotting and trying to find advantage. I keep having bad
dreams since Gaebril came, and I am not the only one. Fool thing to worry
about, dreams. It is probably only worry about Elayne, and what Morgase means
to do concerning the White Tower, and people acting like Cairhienin. I just do
not know. Why are you asking all these questions about Lord Gaebril?” “Because he
wants to kill Elayne,” Mat said, “and Egwene and Nynaeve with her.” There was
nothing useful in what Gill had told him that he could see. Burn me, I don’t have to know why he wants
them dead. I just have to stop it. Both men were staring at him again. As
if he were mad. Again. “Are you coming
down sick again?” Gill said suspiciously. “I remember you staring crossways at
everyone the last time. It’s either that, or else you think this is some sort
of prank. You have the look of a prankster to me. If that is it, it’s a nasty
one!” Mat grimaced.
“It is no bloody prank. I overheard him telling some man called Comar to cut
Elayne’s head off. And Egwene’s and Nynaeve’s while he was about it. A big man,
with a white stripe in his beard.” “That does
sound like Lord Comar,” Gill said slowly. “He was a fine soldier, but it is
said he left the Guard over some matter of weighted dice. Not that anyone says
it to his face; Comar was one of the best blades in the Guards. You really mean
it, don’t you?” “I think he
does, Basel,” Thom said. “I very much think he does.” “The Light
shine on us! What did Morgase say? You did tell her, didn’t you? The Light burn
you, you did tell her!” “Of course, I
did,” Mat said bitterly. “With Gaebril standing right there, and her gazing at
him like a lovesick lapdog! I said, ‘I may be a simple village man who just
climbed over your wall half an hour past, but I already happen to know your
trusted advisor there, the one you seem to be in love with, intends to murder
your daughter.’ Light, man, she’d have cut my
head off!” “She might have
at that.” Thom stared into the elaborate carvings on the bowl of his pipe and
tugged one mustache. “Her temper was ever as sudden as lightning, and twice as
dangerous.” “You know it
better than most, Thom,” Gill said absently. Staring at nothing, he scrubbed
both hands through his graying hair. “There has to be something I can do. I
haven’t held a sword since the Aiel War, but . . . . Well, that would do no
good. Get myself killed and do nothing by it. But I must do something!” “Rumor.” Thom
rubbed the side of his nose; he seemed to be studying the stones board and
talking to himself. “No one can keep rumors from reaching Morgase’s ears, and
if she hears it strongly enough, she will start to wonder. Rumor is the voice
of the people, and the voice of the people often speaks truth. Morgase knows
that. There is not a man alive I would back against her in the Game. Love or no
love, once Morgase starts examining Gaebril closely, he’ll not be able to hide
as much as his childhood scars from her. And if she learns he means harm to
Elayne” - he placed a stone on the board; it seemed an odd placement at first
glance, but Mat saw that in three more moves, a third of Gill’s stones would be
trapped ‑ “Lord Gaebril will have a most elaborate funeral.” “You and your
Game of Houses,” Gill muttered. “Still, it might work. “A sudden smile appeared
on his face. “I even know who to tell to start it. All I need do is mention to
Gilda that I dreamed it, and in three days she’ll have told serving girls in
half the New City that it is a fact. She is the greatest gossip the Creator
ever made.” “Just be
certain it cannot be traced back to you, Basel.” “No fear of
that, Thom. Why a week ago, a man told me one of my own bad dreams as a thing
he’d heard from somebody who’d had it from someone else. Gilda must have
eavesdropped on me telling it to Coline, but when I asked, he gave me a string
of names that led all the way to the other side of Caemlyn and vanished. Why, I
actually went over there and found the last man, just out of curiosity to see
how many mouths had passed it, and he claimed it was his very own dream. No
fear, Thom.” Mat did not
really care what they did with their rumors ‑ no rumors would help Egwene
or the others ‑ but one thing puzzled him. “Thom, you seem to be taking
this all very calmly. I thought Morgase was the great love of your life.” The gleeman
stared into the bowl of his pipe again. “Mat, a very wise woman once told me that
time would heal my wounds, that time smoothed everything over. I didn’t believe
her. Only she was right.” “You mean you
do not love Morgase anymore.” “Boy, it has
been fifteen years since I left Caemlyn a half step ahead of the headsman’s
axe, with the ink of Morgase’s signature still wet on the warrant. Sitting here
listening to Basel natter on” ‑ Gill protested, and Thom raised his voice
‑ “natter on, I say, about Morgase and Gaebril, and how they might marry,
I realized the passion faded a long time gone. Oh, I suppose I am still fond of
her, perhaps I even love her a little, but it is not a grand passion anymore.” “And here I
half thought you’d go running up to the Palace to warn her.” He laughed, and
was surprised when Thom joined him. “I am not so
big a fool as that, boy. Any fool knows men and women think differently at
times, but the biggest difference is this. Men forget, but never forgive; women
forgive, but never forget. Morgase might kiss my cheek and give me a cup of
wine and say how she has missed me. And then she might just let the Guards haul
me off to prison and the headsman. No. Morgase is one of the most capable women
I’ve ever known, and that is saying something. I could almost pity Gaebril once
she learns what he is up to. Tear, you say? Is there any chance of you waiting
until tomorrow to leave? I could use a night’s sleep.” “I mean to be
as far toward Tear as I can before nightfall.” Mat blinked. “Do you mean to
come with me? I thought you meant to stay here.” “Did you not
just hear me say I had decided not to have my head cut off? Tear sounds a safer
place to me than Caemlyn, and suddenly that does not seem so bad. Besides, I
like those girls.” A knife appeared in his hand and was as suddenly gone again.
“I’d not like anything to happen to them. But if you mean to reach Tear
quickly, it’s Aringill you want. A fast boat will have us there days sooner
than horses, even if we rode them to death. And I don’t say it just because my
bottom has already taken on the shape of a saddle.” “Aringill,
then. As long as it’s fast.” “Well,” Gill
said, “I suppose if you are leaving, lad, I had better see about getting you
that meal.” He pushed back his chair and started for the door. “Hold this for
me, Master Gill,” Mat said, and tossed him the wash-leather purse. “What’s this,
lad? Coin?” “Stakes.
Gaebril doesn’t know it, but he and I have a wager.” The cat jumped down as Mat
picked up the wooden dice cup and spun the dice out on the table. Five sixes.
“And I always win.” CHAPTER 48 Following the Craft As the Darter wallowed toward the docks of
Tear, on the west bank of the River Erinin, Egwene did not see anything of the
oncoming city. Slumped head down at the rail, she stared down at the waters of
the Erinin rolling past the ship’s fat hull, and the frontmost sweep on her
side as it swung into her vision and back again, cutting white furrows in the
river. It made her queasy, but she knew raising her head would only make the
sickness worse. Looking at the shore would only make the slow, corkscrew motion
of the Darter more apparent. The vessel had
moved in that twisting roll ever since Jurene. She did not care how it had
sailed before then; she found herself wishing the Darter had sunk before reaching Jurene. She wished they had made
the captain put in at Aringill so they could find another ship. She wished they
had never gone near a ship. She wished a great many things, most of them just
to take her mind off where she was. The twisting
was less now, under sweeps, than it had been under sail, but it had gone on too
many days now for the change to make much difference to her. Her stomach seemed
to be sloshing about inside her like milk in a stone jug. She gulped and tried
to forget that image. They had not
done much in the way of planning on the Darter,
she and Elayne and Nynaeve. Nynaeve could seldom go ten minutes without
vomiting, and seeing that always made Egwene lose whatever food she had managed
to get down. The increasing warmth as they went further downriver did not help.
Nynaeve was below now, no doubt with Elayne holding a basin for her again. Oh, Light, no! Don’t think about that! Green
fields. Meadows. Light, meadow, do not heave like that. Hummingbirds. No, not
hummingbirds! Larks. Larks singing. “Mistress
Joslyn? Mistress Joslyn!” It took her a
moment to recognize the name she had chosen to give ‘Captain Canin, and the
captain’s voice. She raised her head slowly and fixed her eyes on his long
face. “We are
docking, Mistress Joslyn. You’ve kept saying how eager you were to be ashore.
Well, we’re there.” His voice did not hide his eagerness to be rid of his three
passengers, two of whom did little more than sick up, as he called it, and moan
all night. Barefoot,
shirtless sailors were tossing lines to men on the stone dock that thrust out
into the river; the dockmen seemed to be wearing long leather vests in place of
shirts. The sweeps had already been drawn in, except for a pair fending the
ship off from coming against the dock too hard. The flat stones of the dock were
wet; the air had a feel of rain not long gone, ‘and that was a little soothing.
The twisting motion had ceased some time since, she realized, but her stomach
remembered. The sun was falling toward the west. She tried not to think of
supper. “Very good, Captain
Canin,” she said with all the dignity she could summon. He’d not sound like that if I were wearing my ring, not even if I were
sick on his boots. She shuddered at the picture in her mind. Her Great
Serpent ring and the twisted ring of the ter’angreal
hung on a leather cord about her neck, now. The stone ring felt cool
against her skin ‑ almost enough to counteract the damp warmth of the air
‑ but aside from that, she had found that the more she used the ter’angreal, the more she wanted to
touch it, without pouch or cloth between it and her. Tel’aran’rhiod still showed her little
of immediate use. Sometimes there had been glimpses of Rand, or Mat, or Perrin,
and more in her own dreams without the ter’angreal,
but nothing of which she could make any sense. The Seanchan, who she
refused to think about. Nightmares of a Whitecloak putting Master Luhhan in the
middle of a huge, toothed trap for bait. Why should Perrin have a falcon on his
shoulder, and what was important about him choosing between that axe he wore
now and a blacksmith’s hammer? What did it mean that Mat was dicing with the
Dark One, and why did he keep shouting, “I am coming!” and why did she think in
the dream that he was shouting at her? And Rand. He had been sneaking through
utter darkness toward Callandor, while
all around him six men and five women walked, some hunting him and some
ignoring him, some trying to guide him toward the shining crystal sword and
some trying to stop him from reaching it, appearing not to know where he was,
or only to see him in flashes. One of the men had eyes of flame, and he wanted
Rand dead with a desperation she could nearly taste. She thought she knew him.
Ba’alzamon. But who were the others? Rand in that dry, dusty chamber again,
with those small creatures settling into his skin. Rand confronting a horde of
Seanchan. Rand confronting her, and the women with her, and one of them was a Seanchan. It was all too
confusing. She had to stop thinking about Rand and the others and put her mind
to what was right ahead of her. What is
the Black Ajah up to? Why don’t I dream
something about them? Light, why can’t I learn to make it do what I want? “Have the
horses put ashore, Captain,” she told Canin. “I will tell Mistress Maryim and
Mistress Caryla.” That was Nynaeve ‑ Maryim and Elayne ‑ Caryla. “I have sent a
man to tell them, Mistress Joslyn. And your animals will be on the dock as soon
as my men can rig a boom.” He sounded very
pleased to be rid of them. She thought about telling him not to hurry, but
rejected it immediately. The Darter’s corkscrewing
might have stopped, but she wanted dry land under her feet again. Now. Still,
she stopped to pat Mist’s nose and let the gray mare nuzzle her palm, to let
Canin see she was in no great rush. Nynaeve and
Elayne appeared at the ladder from the cabins, laden with their bundles and
saddlebags, and Elayne almost as laden with Nynaeve. When Nynaeve saw Egwene
watching, she pushed herself away from the Daughter‑Heir and walked
unaided the rest of the way to where men were setting a narrow gangplank to the
dock. Two crewmen came to fasten a wide canvas sling under Mist’s belly, and
Egwene hurried below for her own things. When she came back up, her mare was
already on the dock and Elayne’s roan dangled in the canvas sling halfway
there. For a moment
after her feet were on the dock, all she felt was relief. This would not pitch
and roll. Then she began to look at this city whose reaching had caused them
such pains. Stone
warehouses backed the long docks themselves, and there seemed to be a great
many ships, large and small, alongside the docks or anchored in the river.
Hastily she avoided looking at the ships. Tear had been built on fiat land,
with barely a bump. Down muddy dirt streets between the warehouses, she could
see houses and inns and taverns of wood and stone. Their roofs of slate or tile
had oddly sharp corners, and some rose to a point. Beyond these, she could make
out a high wall of dark gray stone, and behind it the tops of towers with
balconies high around them and white‑domed palaces. The domes had a
squared shape to them, and the tower tops looked pointed, like some of the
roofs outside the wall. All in all, Tear was easily as big as Caemlyn or Tar
Valon, and if not so beautiful as either, it was still one of the great cities.
Yet she found it hard to look at anything but the Stone of Tear. She had heard
of it in stories, heard that it was the greatest fortress in the world and the
oldest, the first built after the Breaking of the World, yet nothing had
prepared her for this sight. At first she thought it was a huge, gray stone
hill or a small, barren mountain covering hundreds of hides, its length
stretching from the Erinin west through the wall and into the city. Even after
she saw the huge banner flapping from its greatest height ‑ three white
crescent moons slanting across a field half red, half gold; a banner waving at
least three hundred paces above the river, yet large enough to be clearly seen
at that height ‑ even after she made out battlements and towers, it was
difficult to believe the Stone of Tear had been built rather than carved out of
a mountain already there. “Made with the
Power,” Elayne murmured. She was staring at the Stone, too. “Flows of Earth
woven to draw stone from the ground, Air to bring it from every corner of the
world, and Earth and Fire to make it all in one piece, without seam or joint or
mortar. Atuan Sedai says the Tower could not do it, today. Strange, given how
the High Lords feel concerning the Power now.” “I think,”
Nynaeve said softly, eyeing the dockmen moving around them, “that given that
very thing, we should not mention certain other things aloud.” Elayne appeared
torn between indignation ‑ she had spoken very softly ‑ and
agreement; the Daughter‑Heir agreed with Nynaeve too often and too
readily to suit Egwene. Only when Nynaeve is right, she admitted to herself
grudgingly. A woman who wore the ring, or was even associated with Tar Valon,
would be watched here. The barefoot, leather‑vested dockmen were not
paying the three of them any mind as they hurried about, carrying bales or
crates on their backs as often as on barrows. A strong odor of fish hung in the
air; the next three docks had dozens of small fishing boats clustered around
them, just like those in the drawing in the Amyrlin’s study. Shirtless men and
barefoot women were hoisting baskets of fish out of the boats, mounds of silver
and bronze and green, and colors she had never suspected fish might be, such as
bright red, and deep blue, and brilliant yellow, some with stripes or splotches
of white and other colors. She lowered her
voice for Elayne’s ear alone. “She is right. Caryla. Remember why you are
Caryla.” She did not want Nynaeve to hear such admissions. Her face did not
change when she heard, but Egwene could feel satisfaction radiating from her
like heat from a cook stove. Nynaeve’s black
stallion was just being lowered to the dock; sailors had already carried their
tack off the ship and simply dumped it on the wet stones of the dock. Nynaeve
glanced at the horses and opened her mouth ‑ Egwene was sure it was to
tell them to saddle their animals - then closed it again, tight‑lipped,
as if it had cost her an effort. She gave her braid one hard tug. Before the
sling was well out of the way, Nynaeve tossed the blue‑striped saddle
blanket across the black’s back and hoisted her high‑cantled saddle atop
it. She did not even look at the other two women. Egwene was not
anxious to ride at that moment ‑ the motion of a horse might be too close
to the motion of the Darter for her
stomach - but another look at those muddy streets convinced her. Her shoes
were sturdy, but she would not enjoy having to clean mud off them, or having to
hold her skirts up as she walked, either. She saddled Mist quickly and climbed
onto her back, settling her skirts, before she could decide the mud might not
be so bad after all. A little needlework on the Darter - Elayne had done it all, this time; the Daughter‑Heir
sewed a very fine stitch ‑ had divided all their dresses nicely for
riding astride. Nynaeve’s face
paled for a moment when she swung into her saddle and the stallion decided to
frisk. She kept a tight‑mouthed grip on herself and a firm hand on her
reins and soon had him under control. By the time they had ridden slowly past
the warehouses, she could speak. “We need to locate Liandrin and the others
without them learning we are asking after them. They surely know we are coming ‑
that someone is, at least ‑ but I would like them not to know we are here
until it is too late for them.” She drew a deep breath. “I confess I have not
thought of any way to do this. Yet. Do either of you have any suggestions?” “A thief‑taker,”
Elayne said without hesitation. Nynaeve frowned at her. “You mean like
Hurin?” Egwene said. “But Hurin was in the service of his king. Wouldn’t any
thief‑taker here serve the High Lords?” Elayne nodded,
and for a moment Egwene envied the Daughter‑Heir her stomach. “Yes, they
would. But thief‑takers are not like the Queen’s Guards, or the Tairen
Defenders of the Stone. They serve the ruler, but people who have been robbed
sometimes pay them to retrieve what was stolen. And they also sometimes take
money to find people. At least, they do in Caemlyn. I cannot think it is
different here in Tear.” “Then we take
rooms at an inn,” Egwene said, “and ask the innkeeper to find us a thief‑taker.” “Not an inn,”
Nynaeve said as firmly as she guided the stallion; she never seemed to let the
animal get out of her control. After a moment she moderated her tone a little.
“Liandrin, at least, knows us, and we have to assume the others do, too. They
will surely be watching the inns for whoever followed the trail they sprinkled
behind them. I mean to spring their trap in their faces, but not with us
inside. We’ll not stay at an inn.” Egwene refused
to give her the satisfaction of asking. “Where then?”
Elayne’s brow furrowed. “If I made myself known - and could make anyone
believe it, in these clothes and with no escort - we would be welcomed by most
of the noble Houses, and very likely in the Stone itself ‑ there are good
relations between Caemlyn and Tear but there would be no keeping it quiet. The
entire city would know before nightfall. I cannot think of anywhere else except
an inn, Nynaeve. Unless you mean to go out to a farm in the country, but we
will never find them from the country.” Nynaeve glanced
at Egwene. “I will know when I see it. Let me look. “ Elayne’s frown
swept from Nynaeve to Egwene and back again. “ ‘Do not cut off your ears
because you do not like your earrings,’ ”
she muttered. Egwene put her
attention firmly on the street they were riding along. I will be burned if I’ll let her think I am
even wondering! There were not
a great many people out, not compared to the streets of Tar Valon. Perhaps the
thick mud in the street discouraged them. Carts and wagons lurched past, most
pulled by oxen with wide horns, the carter or wagoneer walking alongside with a
long goad of some pale, ridged wood. No carriages or sedan chairs used these
streets. The odor of fish hung in the air here, too, and no few of the men who
hurried past carried huge baskets full of fish on their backs. The shops did
not look prosperous; none displayed wares outside, and Egwene seldom saw anyone
go in. The shops had signs ‑ the tailor’s needle and bolt of cloth, the cutler’s
knife and scissors, the weaver’s loom, and the like, ‑ but the paint on
most of them was peeling. The few inns had signs in as bad a state, and looked
no busier. The small houses crowded between inns and shops often had tiles or
slates missing from their roofs. This part of Tear, at least, was poor. And
from what she saw on the faces, few of the people here cared to try any longer.
They were moving, working, but most of them had given up. Few as much as
glanced at three women riding where everyone else walked. The men wore
baggy breeches, usually tied at the ankle. Only a handful wore coats, long,
dark garments that fit arms and chest tightly, then became looser below the
waist. There were more men in low shoes than in boots, but most went barefoot in
the mud. A good many wore no coat or shirt at all, and had their breeches held
up by a broad sash, sometimes colored and often dirty. Some had wide, conical
straw hats on their heads, and a few, cloth caps that sagged down one side of
the face. The women’s dresses had high necks, right up to their chins, and hems
that stopped at the ankle. Many had short aprons in pale colors, sometimes two
or three, each smaller than the one beneath it, and most wore the same straw
hats as the men, but dyed to complement the aprons. It was on a
woman that she first saw how those who wore shoes dealt with the mud. The woman
had small wooden platforms tied to the soles of her shoes, lifting them two
hands out of the mud; she walked along as if her feet were planted firmly on
the ground. Egwene saw others wearing the platforms after that, men as well as
women. Some of the women went barefoot, but not as many as the men. She was
wondering which shop might sell those platforms, when Nynaeve suddenly turned
her black down an alleyway between a long, narrow two‑story house and a
stone‑walled potter’s shop. Egwene exchanged glances with Elayne ‑
the Daughter‑Heir shrugged ‑ and then they followed. Egwene did not
know where Nynaeve was going or why ‑ and she meant to have words with
her about it ‑ but she did not mean to become separated, either. The alley
suddenly let into a small yard behind the house, fenced in by the buildings
around it. Nynaeve had already dismounted and tied her reins to a fig tree,
where the stallion could not reach the green things sprouting in a vegetable
patch that took up half the yard. A line of stones had been laid to make a path
to the back door. Nynaeve strode to the door and knocked. “What is it?”
Egwene demanded in spite of herself. “Why are we stopping here?” ”Did you not
see the herbs in the front windows?” Nynaeve knocked again. “Herbs?” Elayne
said. “A Wisdom,”
Egwene told her as she got down from her saddle and tied Mist alongside the
black. Gaidin is no good name for a
horse. Does she think I don’t know who she means it for? “Nynaeve has found
herself a Wisdom, or Seeker, or whatever they call her here.” A woman opened
the door just enough to look out suspiciously. At first Egwene thought she was
stout, but then the woman opened the door the rest of the way. She was
certainly well padded, but the way she moved spoke of muscle underneath. She
looked as strong as Mistress Luhhan, and some in Emond’s Field claimed Alsbet
Luhhan was almost as strong as her husband. It was not true, but it was not far
wrong. “How can I help
you?” the woman said in an accent like the Amyrlin’s. Her gray hair was
arranged in thick curls that hung down the sides of her head, and her three
aprons were in shades of green, each slightly darker than the one below, but
even the topmost pale. “Which one of you needs me?” “I do,” Nynaeve
said. “I need something for a queasy stomach. And perhaps one of my companions
does, too. That is, if we’ve come to the right place?” “You’re not
Tairen,” the woman said. “I should have known that by your clothes, before you
spoke. I’m called Mother Guenna. I am called a Wise Woman, too, but I’m old
enough not to trust that to caulk a seam. You come, and I will give you
something for your stomach.” It was a neat
kitchen, though not large, with copper pots hanging on the wall, and dried
herbs and sausages from the ceiling. Several tall cupboards of pale wood had
doors carved with some sort of tall grass. The table had been scrubbed almost
white, and the backs of the chairs were carved with flowers. A pot of fishy‑smelling
soup was simmering atop the stone stove, and a kettle with a spout, just
beginning to steam. There was no fire on the stone hearth, for which Egwene was
more than grateful; the stove added enough to the heat, though Mother Guenna seemed
not to notice it at all. Dishes lined the mantel, and more were stacked neatly
on shelves to either side. The floor looked as if it had just been swept. Mother Guenna
closed the door after them, and as she was crossing the kitchen to her
cupboards, Nynaeve said, “Which tea will you give me? Chainleaf? Or bluewort?” “I would if I
had any of either.” Mother Guenna rooted in the shelves a moment and came out
with a stone jar. “Since I’ve had no time to glean of late, I will give you a
brew of marshwhite leaves.” “I am not
familiar with that,” Nynaeve said slowly. “It works as
well as chainleaf, but it has a bite to the taste some don’t care for.” The big
woman sprinkled dried and broken leaves into a blue teapot and carried it over
to the fireplace to add hot water. “Do you follow the craft, then? Sit.” She
gestured to the table with a hand holding two blue‑glazed cups shed had
taken from the mantel. “Sit, and we’ll talk. Which one of you has the other
stomach?” “I am fine,”
Egwene said casually as she took a chair. “Are you queasy, Caryla?” The
Daughter‑Heir shook her head with perhaps a touch of exasperation. “No matter.”
The gray‑haired woman poured out a cup of dark liquid for Nynaeve, then
sat across the table from her. “I made enough for two, but marshwhite tea keeps
longer than salted fish. It works better the longer it sits, too, but it also
grows more bitter. Makes a race between how much you need your stomach settled
and what your tongue can stand. Drink, girl.” After a moment, she filled the
second cup and took a sip. “You see? It will not hurt you.” Nynaeve raised
her own cup, making a small sound of displeasure at the first taste. When she
lowered the cup again, though, her face was smooth. “It is just a little bitter
perhaps. Tell me, Mother Guenna, will we have to put up with this rain and mud
much longer?” The older woman
frowned, parceling displeasure among the three of them before she settled on
Nynaeve. “I am not a Sea Folk Windfinder, girl,” she said quietly. “If I could
tell the weather; I’d sooner stick live silverpike down my dress than admit it.
The Defenders take that sort of thing for next to Aes Sedai work. Now, do you
follow the craft or not? You look as if you have been traveling. What is good
for fatigue?” she barked suddenly. “Flatwort tea,”
Nynaeve said calmly, “or andilay root. Since you ask questions, what would you
do to ease birthing?” Mother Guenna
snorted. “Apply warm towels, child, and perhaps give her a little whitefennel
if it was an especially hard birth. A woman needs no more than that, and a
soothing hand. Can’t you think of a question any country farmwife could not
answer? What do you give for pains in the heart? The killing kind.” “Powdered
gheandin blossom on the tongue,” Nynaeve said crisply. “If a woman has
biting pains in her belly and spits up blood, what do you do?” They settled
down as if testing each other, tossing questions and answers back and forth
faster and faster. Sometimes the questioning lagged a moment when one spoke of
a plant the other knew only by another name, but they picked up speed again,
arguing the merits of tinctures against teas, salves against poultices, and
when one was better than another. Slowly, all the quick questions began
shifting toward the herbs and roots one knew that the other did not, digging
for knowledge. Egwene began to grow irritable listening. “After you give
him the boneknit,” Mother Guenna was saying, “you wrap the broken limb in
toweling soaked in water where you’ve boiled blue goatflowers ‑ only the
blue, mind!” ‑ Nynaeve nodded impatiently ‑“and as hot as he can
stand it. One part blue goatflowers to ten of water, no weaker. Replace the
towels as soon as they stop steaming, and keep it up all day. The bone will
knit twice as fast as with boneknit alone, and twice as strong.” “I will
remember that,” Nynaeve said. “You mentioned using sheepstongue root for eye
pain. I’ve never heard - ” Egwene could
stand it no longer. “Maryim,” she broke in, “do you really believe you’ll ever
need to know these things again? You are not a Wisdom any longer, or have you
forgotten?” “I have not
forgotten anything,” Nynaeve said sharply. “I remember a time when you were as
eager to learn new things as I am.” “Mother
Guenna,” Elayne said blandly, “what do you do for two women who cannot stop arguing?” The gray‑haired
woman pursed her lips and frowned at the table. “Usually, men or women, I tell
them to stay away from each other. That is the best thing, and the easiest.” “Usually?”
Elayne said. “What if there is a reason they cannot stay apart. Say they are
sisters.” “I do have a
way to make an arguer stop,” the big woman said slowly. “It is not something I
urge anyone to try, but some do come to me.” Egwene thought there was a
suspicion of a smile at the corners of her mouth. “I charge a silver mark each
for women. Two for men, because men make more fuss. There are some will buy
anything, if it costs enough.” “But what is
the cure?” Elayne asked. “I tell them
they have to bring the other one here with them, the one they argue with. Both
expect me to quiet the other’s tongue.” Despite herself, Egwene was listening.
She noticed Nynaeve seemed to be paying sharp attention, as well. “When they
have paid me,” Mother Guenna continued, flexing one hefty arm, “I take them out
back and stick their heads in my rain barrel till they agree to stop their
arguing.” Elayne burst
out laughing. “I think I may
have done something very like that myself,” Nynaeve said in a voice that was
much too light. Egwene hoped her own expression looked nothing like Nynaeve’s. “I’d not be
surprised if you have.” Mother Guenna was grinning openly now. “I tell them the
next time I hear they’ve been arguing, I will do it for free, but I’ll use the
river. It is remarkable how often the cure works, for men especially. And it is
remarkable what it has done for my reputation. For some reason, none of the
people I cure this way ever tells anyone else the details, so someone asks for
the cure every few months. If you’ve been fool enough to eat mudfish, you do
not go around telling people. I trust none of you have any wish to spend a
silver mark.” “I think not,”
Egwene said, and glared at Elayne when she went off in peals of laughter again. “Good,” the
gray‑haired woman said. “Those I cure of arguing have a tendency to avoid
me like stingweed caught in their nets, unless they actually take sick, and I
am enjoying your company. Most of those who come at present want something to
take away bad dreams, and they grow sour when I have nothing to give them.” For
a moment she slipped into a frown, rubbing her temples. “It is good to see
three faces that do not look as if there is nothing left but to jump over the
side and drown. If you are staying long in Tear, you must come see me again.
The girl called you Maryim? I am Ailhuin. The next time, we’ll talk over some
good Sea Folk tea instead of something that curdles your tongue. Light, but I
hate the taste of marshwhite; mudfish would taste sweeter. In fact, if you have
time to stay now, I’ll brew a pot of Tremalking black. Not long till supper,
either. It’s just bread and soup and cheese, but you are welcome. “ “That would be
very nice, Ailhuin,” Nynaeve said. “Actually. . . . Ailhuin, if you have a
spare bedroom, I’d like to hire it for the three of us.” The big woman
looked at each of them without saying anything. Getting to her feet, she tucked
the pot of marshwhite tea away in the herb cupboard, then fetched a red teapot
and a pouch from another. Only when she had brewed a pot of Tremalking black,
put four clean cups and a bowl of honeycomb on the table along with pewter
spoons, and reclaimed her chair did she speak. “I’ve three
empty bedrooms upstairs, now my daughters are all married. My husband, the
Light shine on him, was lost in a storm in the Fingers of the Dragon near
twenty years ago. There need be no talk of hiring, if I decide to let you have
the rooms. If, Maryim.” Stirring honey into her tea, she studied them again. “What will make
you decide?” Nynaeve asked quietly. Ailhuin
continued to stir, as if she had forgotten to drink. “Three young women, riding
fine horses. I don’t know much about horses, but those look as fine as what the
lords and ladies ride, to me. You, Maryim, know enough of the craft that you
ought to have hung herbs in your window already, or should be choosing where to
do it. I’ve never heard of a woman practicing the craft too far from where she
was born, but by your tongue, you are a long way.” She glanced at Elayne. “Not
many places with hair that color. Andor, I’d say, by your speech. Fool men are
always talking about finding a yellow‑haired Andor girl. What I want to
know is why? Running away from something? Or running after something? Only,
you don’t look like thieves to me, and I never heard of three women chasing
after a man together. So tell me why, and if I like it, the rooms are yours. If
you want to pay something, you buy a bit of meat now and then. Meat is dear
since the trade up to Cairhien fell away. But first the why, Maryim.” “We are chasing
after something, Ailhuin,” Nynaeve said. “Or rather, after some people.” Egwene
schooled herself to stillness and hoped she was doing as well as Elayne, who
was sipping her tea as if she were listening to talk about dresses. Egwene did
not believe Ailhuin Guenna’s dark eyes missed a great deal. “They stole some
things, Ailhuin,” Nynaeve went on. “From my mother. And they did murder. We are
here to see justice done.” “Burn my soul,”
the large woman said, “have you no menfolk? Men are not good for much beyond
heavy hauling and getting in the way, most of the time ‑ and kissing and
such ‑ but if there’s a battle to be fought or a thief to catch, I say
let them do it. Andor is as civilized as Tear. You are not Aiel.” “There was no
one else but us,” Nynaeve said. “Those who might have come in our place were
killed.” The three murdered Aes Sedai, Egwene
thought. They could not have been Black
Ajah. But if they had not been killed, the Amyrlin would not have been able to
trust them. She’s trying to keep to the bloody Three Oaths, but she is skirting
it close. “Aaah,” Ailhuin
said sadly. “They killed your men? Brothers, or husbands, or fathers?” Spots
of color bloomed in Nynaeve’s cheeks, and the older woman mistook the emotion.
“No, don’t tell me, girl. I’ll not pull up old grief. Let it lie on the bottom
till it melts away. There, there, you calm yourself.” It was an effort for
Egwene not to growl with disgust. “I must tell
you this,” Nynaeve said in a stiff voice. The red still colored her face.
“These murderers and thieves are Darkfriends. They are women, but they are as
dangerous as any swordsman, Ailhuin. If you wondered why we did not seek an
inn, that is why. They may know we follow, and they may be watching for us.” Ailhuin waved
it all away with a sniff. “Of the four most dangerous folk I know, two are
women who never carry as much as a knife, and only one of the men is a
swordsman. As for Darkfriends . . . . Maryim, when you are as old as I, you’ll
learn that false Dragons are dangerous, lionfish are dangerous, sharks are
dangerous, and sudden storms out of the south; but Darkfriends are fools.
Filthy fools, but fools. The Dark One is locked up where the Creator put him,
and no Fetches or fangfish to scare children will get him out. Fools don’t
frighten me unless they’re working the boat I’m riding. I suppose you don’t
have any proof you could take to the Defenders of the Stone? It would be just
your word against theirs?” What is a “Fetch”? Egwene wondered. Or a ‘fangfish,’ for that matter. “We will have
proof when we find them,” Nynaeve said. “They will have the things they stole,
and we can describe them. They are old things, and of little value to anyone
but us, and our friends.” “You would be
surprised what old things can be worth,” Ailhuin said dryly. “Old Leuese Mulan
pulled up three heartstone bowls and a cup in his nets last year, down in the
Fingers of the Dragon. Now, instead of a fishing smack, he owns a ship trading
up the river. Old fool did not even know what he had till I told him. Very
likely there’s more right where those came from, but Leuese couldn’t even remember
the exact spot. I do not know how he ever managed to get a fish into his net.
Half the fishing boats in Tear were down there for months afterwards, dragging
for cuendillar, not grunts or
flatfish, and some had lords saying where to pull the nets. That’s what old
things can be worth, if they are old enough. Now, I’ve decided you do need a
man in this, and I know just the one.” ”Who?” Nynaeve
said quickly. “If you mean a lord, one of the High Lords, remember we have no
proof to offer till we find them.” Ailhuin laughed
until she wheezed. “Girl, nobody from the Maule knows a High Lord, or any kind
of lord. Mudfish don’t school with silversides. I will bring you the dangerous
man I know who isn’t a swordsman, and the more dangerous of the two, at that.
Juilin Sandar is a thief‑catcher. The best of them. I do not know how it
is in Andor, but here a thief‑catcher will work for you or me as soon as
for a lord or a merchant, and charge less at that. Juilin can find these women
for you if they can be found, and bring
your things back without you having to go near these Darkfriends.” Nynaeve agreed
as if she were still not entirely sure, and Ailhuin tied those platforms to her
shoes ‑ clogs, she called them ‑ and hurried out. Egwene watched
her go, through one of the kitchen windows, past the horses and around the
corner up the alley. “You are
learning how to be Aes Sedai, Maryim,” she said as she turned from the window.
“You manipulate people as well as Moiraine.” Nynaeve’s face went white. Elayne stalked
across the floor and slapped Egwene’s face. Egwene was so shocked she could
only stare. “You go too far,” the golden‑haired woman said sharply. “Too
far. We must live together, or we will surely die together! Did you give
Ailhuin your true name? Nynaeve told her what we could, that we seek
Darkfriends, and that was risk enough, linking us with Darkfriends. She told
her they were dangerous, murderers. Would you have had her say they are Black
Ajah? In Tear? Would you risk everything on whether Ailhuin would keep that to herself” Egwene rubbed
her cheek gingerly. Elayne had a strong arm. “I do not have to like doing it.” “I know,”
Elayne sighed. “Neither do I. But we do have to.” Egwene turned
back to peering through the window at the horses. I know we do. But I do not have to like it. CHAPTER 49 A Storm in Tear Egwene finally
returned to the table and her tea. She thought perhaps Elayne was right, that
she had gone too far, but she could not bring herself to apologize, and they sat
in silence. When Ailhuin
returned, she had a man with her, a lean fellow in his middle years who looked
as if he had been carved from aged wood. Juilin Sandar took off his clogs by
the door and hung his flat, conical straw hat on a peg. A sword‑breaker,
much like Hurin’s but with short slots to either side of the long one, hung
from a belt over his brown coat, and he carried a staff exactly as tall as he
was, but not much thicker than his thumb and made of that pale wood, like
ridged joints, that the ox‑drivers used for their goads. His short‑cut
black hair lay flat on his head, and his quick, dark eyes seemed, to note and
record every detail of the room. And of everyone in it. Egwene would have bet
he examined Nynaeve twice, and to her, at least, Nynaeve’s lack of reaction was
blatant; it was obvious she knew it, too. Ailhuin
motioned him to a place at the table, where he turned back the cuffs of his
coat sleeves, bowed to each of them in turn, and sat with his staff propped
against his shoulder, not speaking until the gray‑haired woman had made a
fresh pot of tea and everyone had sipped from their cups. “Mother Guenna
has told me of your problem,” he said quietly as he set his cup down. “I will
help you if I can, but the High Lords may have their own business to put me to,
soon.” The big woman
snorted. “Juilin, when did you begin haggling like a shopkeeper trying to
charge silk prices for linen? Do not claim you know when the High Lords will
summon you before they do.” “I won’t claim
it,” Sandar told her with a smile, “but I know when I’ve seen men on the
rooftops in the night. Just out of the corner of my eye ‑ they can hide
like pipefish in reeds ‑ but I have seen the movement. No one has
reported a theft yet, but there are thieves working inside the walls, and you
can buy your supper with that. Mark me. Before another week, I’ll be summoned
to the Stone because a band of thieves is breaking into merchants’ houses, or
even lords’ manors. The Defenders may guard the streets, but when thieves need
tracking they send for a thief‑catcher, and me before any other. I am not
trying to drive up my price, but whatever I do for these pretty women, I must
do soon.” “I believe he
speaks the truth,” Ailhuin said reluctantly. “He’ll tell you the moon is green
and water white if he thinks it will bring him a kiss, but he lies less than
most men about other things. He may be the most honest man ever born in the
Maule.” Elayne put a hand over her mouth, and Egwene struggled not to laugh.
Nynaeve sat unmoved and obviously impatient. Sandar grimaced
at the gray‑haired woman, then apparently decided to ignore what she had
said. He smiled at Nynaeve. “I will admit that I’m curious about these thieves.
I’ve known women thieves, and bands of thieves, but I never heard of a band of
women thieves before. And I owe Mother Guenna favors.” His eyes seemed to
record Nynaeve all over again. “What do you
charge?” she asked sharply. “To recover
stolen goods,” he said briskly, “I ask the tenth part of the value of what I
recover. For finding someone, I ask a silver mark for each person. Mother
Guenna says the things stolen have little value except to you, mistress, so I
suggest you take that choice.” He smiled again; he had very white teeth. “I
would not take money from you at all, except that the brotherhood would frown
on it, but I will take as little as I can. A copper or two, no more.” “I know a thief‑taker,”
Elayne told him. “From Shienar. A very respectful man. He carries a sword as
well as a sword‑breaker. Why do you not?” Sandar looked
startled for a moment, and then upset with himself for being startled. He had
not caught her hint, or else had decided to ignore it. “You are not Tairen. I
have heard of Shienar, mistress, tales of Trollocs, and every man a warrior.”
His smile said these were tales for children. “True stories,”
Egwene said. “Or true enough. I have been to Shienar.” He blinked at
her, and went on. “I am not a lord, nor a wealthy merchant, nor even a soldier.
The Defenders do not trouble foreigners much for carrying swords ‑ unless
they mean to stay long, of course - but I would be thrust into a cell under
the Stone. There are laws, mistress. “ His hand rubbed along his staff, as if
unconsciously. “I do as well as may be, without a sword.” He focused his smile
on Nynaeve once more. “Now, if you will describe these things - ” He stopped as
she set her purse on the edge of the table and counted out thirteen silver
marks. Egwene thought she had chosen the lightest coins; most were Tairen, only
one Andoran. The Amyrlin had given them a great deal of gold, but even that
would not last forever. Nynaeve looked
into the purse thoughtfully before tightening the strings and putting it back
into her pouch. “There are thirteen women for you to find, Master Sandar, with
as much silver again when you do. Find them, and. we will recover our property
ourselves.” “I will do that
myself for less than this,” he protested. “And there’s no need for extra
rewards. I charge what I charge. Have no fear I’ll take a bribe.” “There is no
fear of that,” Ailhuin agreed. “I said he is honest. Just do not believe him if
he says he loves you.” Sandar glared at her. “I pay the
coin, Master Sandar,” Nynaeve said firmly, “so I choose what I am buying. Will
you find these women, and no more?” She waited for him to nod, reluctantly,
before going on. “They may be together, or not. The first is a Taraboner. She
is a little taller than I, with dark eyes and pale, honey‑colored hair
that she wears in many small braids after the Tarabon fashion. Some men might
think her pretty, but she would not consider it a compliment. She has a mean,
sulky mouth. The second is Kandori. She has long black hair with a white streak
above her left ear, and . . . . She gave no
names, and Sandar asked for none. Names were so easily changed. His smile was
gone now that the business was at hand. Thirteen women she described as he
listened intently, and when she was done, Egwene was sure he could have recited
them back word for word. “Mother Guenna
may have told you this,” Nynaeve finished, “but I will repeat it. These women
are more dangerous than you can believe. Over a dozen have died at their hands
already, that I know of, and I would not be surprised if that was only a drop
of the blood on their hands.” Sandar and Ailhuin both blinked at that. “If they
discover you are asking after them, you will die. If they take you, they will
make you tell where we are, and Mother Guenna will probably die with us.” The
gray‑haired woman looked disbelieving. “Believe it!” Nynaeve’s stare
demanded agreement. “Believe it, or I’ll take back the silver and find another
with more brains!” “When I was
young,” Sandar said, voice serious, “a cutpurse put her knife in my ribs
because I thought a pretty young girl wouldn’t be as quick to stab as a man. I
do not make that mistake anymore. I will behave as if these women are all Aes
Sedai, and Black Ajah.” Egwene almost choked, and he gave her a rueful grin as
he scooped the coins into his own purse and stuck it behind his sash. “I did
not mean to frighten you, mistress. There are no Aes Sedai in Tear. It may take
a few days, unless they are together. Thirteen women together will be easy to
find; apart, they will be harder. But either way, I will find them. And I will
not frighten them away before you learn where they are.” When he had
donned his straw hat and clogs and departed by the back door, Elayne said, “I
hope he is not overconfident. Ailhuin, I heard what he said but . . . . He does
understand that they are dangerous, does he not?” “He has never
been a fool except for a pair of eyes or a pretty ankle,” the gray‑haired
woman said, “and that is a failing of every man. He is the best thief‑catcher
in Tear. Have no worry. He will find these Darkfriends of yours.” “It will rain
again before morning.” Nynaeve shivered, despite the warmth of the room. “I
feel a storm gathering.” Ailhuin only shook her head and set about filling
bowls with fish soup for supper. After they ate and cleaned up, Nynaeve and
Ailhuin sat at the table talking of herbs and cures. Elayne worked on a small
patch of embroidery she had begun on the shoulder of her cloak, tiny blue and
white flowers, then read in a copy of The
Essays of Willim of Manaches that Ailhuin had on her small shelf of books.
Egwene tried reading, but neither the essays, nor The Travels of Jain
Farstrider, nor the humorous tales of Aleria Elffin could hold her interest
for more than a few pages. She fingered the stone ter’angreal through the bosom of her dress. Where are they? What do they want in the Heart? None but the Dragon ‑
none but Rand ‑ can touch Callandor, so what do they want? What? What? As night
deepened, Ailhuin showed them each to a bedroom on the second floor, but after
she had gone to her own, they gathered in Egwene’s by the light of a single
lamp.. Egwene had already undressed to her shift; the cord hung ‘round her neck
with the two rings. The striped stone felt far heavier than the gold. This was
what they had done every night since leaving Tar Valon, with the sole exception
of that night with the Aiel. “Wake me after
an hour,” she told them. Elayne frowned.
“So short, this time?” “Do you feel
uneasy?” Nynaeve said. “Perhaps you are using it too often. “ “We would still
be in Tar Valon scrubbing pots and hoping to find a Black sister before a Gray
Man found us if I had not,” Egwene said sharply. Light, Elayne’s right. I am snapping like a sulky child. She took a
deep breath. “Perhaps I am uneasy.
Maybe it is because we are so close to the Heart of the Stone, now. So close to
Callandor. So close to the trap, whatever
it is.” “Be careful,”
Elayne said, and Nynaeve said, more quietly, “Be very careful, Egwene. Please.”
She was tugging her braid in short jerks. As Egwene lay
down on the low‑posted bed, with them on stools to either side, thunder
rolled across the sky. Sleep came slowly. It was the
rolling hills again, as always at first, flowers and butterflies under spring
sunshine, soft breezes and birds singing. She wore green silk, this time, with
golden birds embroidered over her breasts, and green velvet slippers. The ter’angreal seemed light enough to drift
up out of her dress except for the weight of the Great Serpent ring holding it
down. By simple trial
and error she had learned a little of the rules of Tel’aran’rhiod ‑ even
this World of Dreams, this Unseen World, had its rules, if odd ones; she
was sure she did not know a tenth of them‑and one way to make herself go
where she wanted. Closing her eyes, she emptied her mind as she would have to
embrace saidar. It was not as easy,
because the rosebud kept trying to form, and she kept sensing the True Source,
kept aching to embrace it, but she had to fill the emptiness with something
else. She pictured the Heart of the Stone, as she had seen it in these dreams,
formed it in every detail, perfect within the void. The huge, polished redstone
columns. The age‑worn stones of the floor. The dome, far overhead. The
crystal sword, untouchable, slowly revolving hilt‑down in midair. When it
was so real she was sure she could reach out and touch it, she opened her eyes,
and she was there, in the Heart of the Stone. Or the Heart of the Stone as it
existed in Tel’aran’rhiod. The columns
were there, and Callandor. And around
the sparkling sword, almost as dim and insubstantial as shadows, thirteen women
sat cross‑legged, staring at Callandor
as it revolved. Honey‑haired Liandrin turned her head, looking
straight at Egwene with those big, dark eyes, and her rosebud mouth smiled. Gasping, Egwene
sat up in bed so fast she almost fell off the side. “What is the
matter?” Elayne demanded. “What happened? You look frightened.” “You only just
closed your eyes,” Nynaeve said softly. “This is the first time since the very
beginning that you’ve come back without us waking you. Something did happen,
didn’t it?” She tugged her braid sharply. “Are you all right?” How did I get back? Egwene wondered. Light, I do not even know what I did. She knew she was only trying
to put off what she had to say. Unfastening the cord around her neck, she held
the Great Serpent ring and the larger, twisted ter’angreal on her palm. “They are waiting for us,” she said
finally. There was no need to say who. “And I think they know we are in Tear.” Outside, the
storm broke over the city. Rain drumming
on the deck over his head, Mat stared at the stones board on the table between
him and Thom, but he could not really concentrate on the game, even with an
Andoran silver mark riding on the outcome. Thunder crashed, and lightning
flashed in the small windows. Four lamps lit the captain’s cabin of the Swift. Bloody ship may be as sleek as the
bird, but it’s still taking too bloody long. The vessel gave a small jolt,
then another; the motion seemed to change. He
had better not run us into the bloody mud! If he is not making the best time he
can wring out of this buttertub, I will stuff that gold down his throat! Yawning
‑ he had not slept well since leaving Caemlyn; he could not stop worrying
enough to sleep well‑yawning, he set a white stone on the intersection of
two lines; in three moves, he would capture nearly a fifth of Thom’s black
stones. “You could be a
good player, boy,” the gleeman said around his pipe, placing his next stone,
“if you put your mind to it.” His tabac smelled like leaves and nuts. Mat reached for
another stone from the, pile at his elbow, then blinked and let it lie. In the
same three moves, Thom’s stones would surround over a third of his. He had not
seen it coming, and he could see no escape. “Do you ever lose a game? Have you
ever lost a game?” Thom removed
his pipe and knuckled his mustaches. “Not in a long while. Morgase used to beat
me about half the time. It is said good commanders of soldiers and good players
of the Great Game are good at stones, as well. She is the one, and I’ve no
doubt she could command a battle, too.” “Wouldn’t you
rather dice some more? Stones take too much time.” “I like a
chance to win more than one toss in nine or ten,” the white-haired man said
dryly. Mat bounded to
his feet as the door banged open to admit Captain Derne. The square‑faced
man whipped his cloak from his shoulders, shaking the rain off and muttering
curses to himself. “The Light sear my bones, I do not know why I ever let you
hire Swift. You, demanding more
flaming speed in the blackest night or the heaviest rain. More speed. Always
more bloody speed! Could have run on a bloody mudflat a hundred times over by
now!” “You wanted the
gold,” Mat said harshly. “You said this heap of old boards was fast, Derne.
When do we reach Tear?” The captain
smiled a tight smile. “We are tying off to the dock, now. And burn me for a
bloody farmer if I carry anything that can flaming talk ever again! Now, where
is the rest of my gold?” Mat hurried to
one of the small windows and peered out. In the harsh glare of lightning
flashes he could see a wet stone dock, if not much else. He fished the second
purse of gold from his pocket and tossed it to Derne. Whoever heard of a riverman who didn’t dice! “About time,” he
growled. Light send I’m not too late. He had stuffed
all of his spare clothes and his blankets into the leather script, and he hung
that on one side of him and the roll of fireworks on the other, from the cord
he tied to it. His cloak covered it all, but gapped a little in the front.
Better he got wet than the fireworks. He could dry out and be as good as new; a
test with a bucket had shown fireworks could not. I guess Rand’s da was right. Mat had always thought the Village
Council would not set them off in the rain because they made a better show on
clear nights. “Aren’t you
about ready to sell those things?” Thom was settling his gleeman’s cloak on his
shoulders. It covered his leather‑cased harp and flute, but his bundle of
clothes and blankets he slung on his back outside the patch‑covered
cloak. “Not until I
figure out how they work, Thom. Besides, think what fun it will be when I set
them all off.” The gleeman
shuddered. “As long as you don’t do it all at once, boy. As long as you don’t
throw them in the fireplace at supper. I’d not put it past you, the way you’ve
been behaving with them. You’re lucky the captain here did not throw us off the
ship two days ago.” “He wouldn’t.”
Mat laughed. “Not while that purse was in the offing. Eh, Derne?” Derne was
tossing the purse of gold in his hand. “I have not asked before this, but
you’ve given me the gold, now, and you’ll not take it back. What is this all
about? All this flaming speed.” “A wager,
Derne.” Yawning, Mat picked up his quarterstaff, ready to go. “A wager.” “A wager!”
Derne stared at the heavy purse. The other just like it was locked in his money
chest. “There must be a flaming kingdom riding on it!” “More than
that,” Mat said. Rain bucketed
down on the deck so hard that he could not see the gangplank except when
lightning crackled above the city; the roar of the downpour barely let him hear
himself think. He could see lights in windows up a street, though. There would
be inns, up there. The captain had not come on deck to see them ashore, and
none of the crew had stayed out in the rain, either. Mat and Thom made their
way to the stone dock alone. Mat cursed when
his boots sank into the mud of the street, but there was nothing for it, so he
kept on, striding along as fast as he could with his boots and the butt of his
staff sticking at every step. The air smelled of fish, rank even with the rain.
“We’ll find an inn,” he said, loudly, so he could be heard, “and then I will go
out looking.” “In this
weather?” Thom shouted back. Rain was rolling down his face, but he was more
interested in keeping his instruments covered than his face. “Comas could
have left Caemlyn before us. if he had a good horse instead of the crowbaits we
were riding, he could have set out downriver from Aringill maybe a full day
ahead of us, and I don’t know how much of that we caught up with that idiot
Derne.” “It was a quick
passage,” Thom allowed. “Swift deserves
its name.” “Be that as it
may, Thom, rain or no rain, I have to find him before he finds Egwene and
Nynaeve, and Elayne.” “A few more
hours won’t make much difference, boy. There are hundreds of inns in a city the
size of Tear. There may be hundreds more outside the walls, some of them little
places with no more than a dozen rooms to let, so tiny you could walk right by
them and never know they were there.” The gleeman hitched the hood of his cloak
up more, muttering to himself. “It will take weeks to search them all. But it
will take Comar the same weeks. We can spend the night in out of the rain. You
can wager whatever coin you have left that Comar won’t be out in it.” Mat shook his
head. A tiny inn with a dozen
rooms. Before he left Emond’s Field, the biggest building he had ever seen
was the Winespring Inn. He doubted if Bran al’Vere had any more than a dozen
rooms to let. Egwene had lived with her parents and her sisters in the rooms at
the front of the second floor. Burn me,
sometimes I think we should never any of us have left Emond’s Field. But
Rand surely had had to, and Egwene would probably have died if she had not gone
to Tar Valon. Now she might die
because she did go. He did not think he could settle for the farm again;
the cows and the sheep certainly would not play dice. But Perrin still had a
chance to go home. Go home, Perrin, he
found himself thinking. Go home while
you still can. He gave himself a shake. Fool! Why would he want to? He thought of bed, but
pushed it away. Not yet. Lightning
streaked across the sky, three jagged bolts together, casting a stark light
over a narrow house that seemed to have bunches of herbs hanging in the
windows, and a shop, shut up tight, but a potter’s from the sign with its bowls
and plates. Yawning, he hunched his shoulders against the driving rain and
tried to pull his boots out of the clinging mud more quickly. “I think I can
forget about this part of the city, Thom,” he shouted. “All this mud, and that stink of fish. Can
you see Nynaeve or Egwene ‑ or Elayne! ‑ choosing to stay here?
Women like things neat and tidy, Thom, and smelling good.” “May be, boy,”
Thom muttered, then coughed. “You would be surprised what women will put up
with. But it may be.” Holding his
cloak to keep the roll of fireworks covered, Mat lengthened his stride. “Come
on, Thom. I want to find Comar or the girls tonight, one or the other.” Thom limped
after him, coughing now and again. They strode
through the wide gates in the city ‑ unguarded, in the rain ‑ and
Mat was relieved to feel paving stones under his feet again. And not more than
fifty paces up the street was an inn, the windows of the common room spilling
light onto the street, music drifting out into the night. Even Thom covered
that last fifty paces through the rain quickly, limp or no limp. The White
Crescent had a landlord whose girth made his long blue coat fit snugly below
the waist as well as above, unlike those of most of the men in the low‑backed
chairs at the tables. Mat thought the landlord’s baggy breeches, tied at the
ankle above low shoes, had to be big enough for two ordinary men to fit inside,
one in each leg. The serving women wore dark, high‑necked dresses and
short white aprons. There was a fellow playing a hammered dulcimer between the
two stone fireplaces. Thom eyed the fellow critically and shook his head. The rotund
innkeeper, Cavan Lopar by name, was more than glad to give them rooms. He
frowned at their muddy boots, but silver from Mat’s pocket ‑ the gold was
running low ‑ and Thom’s patch‑covered cloak smoothed his fat
forehead. When Thom said he would perform for a small fee some nights, Lopar’s
chins waggled with pleasure. Of a big man with a white streak in his beard, he
knew nothing, nor of three women meeting the descriptions Mat gave. Mat left
everything but his cloak and his quarterstaff in his room, barely looking to
see that it had a bed ‑ sleep was enticing, but he refused to let himself
think of it ‑ then wolfed down a spicy fish stew and rushed back out into
the rain. He was surprised that Thom came with him. “I thought you
wanted to be in where it’s dry, Thom.” The gleeman
patted the flute case he still had under his cloak. The rest of his things were
up in his room. “People talk to a gleeman, boy. I may learn something you would
not. I’d not like to see those girls harmed any more than you.” There was
another inn a hundred paces down the rain‑filled street on the other
side, and another two hundred beyond that, and then more. Mat took them as he
came to them, ducking in long enough for Thom to flourish his cloak and tell a
story, then let someone buy him a cup of wine afterwards while Mat asked around
after a tall man with a white streak in his close‑cut black beard and
three women. He won a few coins at dice, but he learned nothing, and neither
did Thom. He was just glad the gleeman seemed to be taking only a few sips of
wine at each inn; Thom had been close to abstemious on the boat, but Mat had
not been certain he would not dive back into the wine once they reached Tear.
By the time they had visited two dozen common rooms, Mat felt as if his eyelids
had weights. The rain had lessened a bit, but it still fell steadily in big
drops, and as the rain fell off the wind had freshened. The sky had the dark
gray look of coming dawn. “Boy,” Thom
muttered, “if we don’t go back to The White Crescent, I am going to go to sleep
here in the rain.” He stopped to cough. “Do you realize you’ve marched right
past three inns? Light, I am so tired I can’t think. Do you have a scheme of
where to go that you have not told me?” Mat stared
blearily up the street at a tall man in a cloak hurrying around a corner. Light,
I am tired. Rand it five hundred leagues from here, playing at
being the bloody Dragon. “What? Three inns?” They were standing almost in
front of another, The Golden Cup according to the sign creaking in the wind. It
looked nothing like a dice cup, but he decided to give it a try anyway. “One
more, Thom. If we don’t find them here, we’ll go back and go to bed.” Bed
sounded better than a dice game with a hundred gold marks riding on the toss,
but he made himself go in. Two steps into
the common room Mat saw him. The big man wore a green coat with blue stripes
down puffy sleeves, but it was Comar, close‑cut black beard with a white
streak over his chin and all. He sat in one of the strangely low‑backed
chairs, at a table on the far side of the room, rattling a leather dice cup and
smiling at the man across from him. That fellow wore a long coat and baggy
breeches, and he was not smiling. He stared at the coins on the table as if
wishing he had them back in his purse. Another dice cup sat at Comar’s elbow. Comar upended
the leather cup in his hand, and began laughing almost before the dice stopped
spinning. “Who is next?” he called loudly, pulling the wager to his side of the
table. There was already a considerable pile of silver in front of him. He
scooped the dice into the cup and rattled them. “Surely someone else wants to
try his luck?” It seemed that no one did, but he kept rattling the cup and
laughing. The innkeeper
was easy to pick out, though they did not seem to wear aprons in Tear. His coat
was the same shade of deep blue as that of every other innkeeper Mat had spoken
to. A plump man, though little more than half the size of Lopar and with half
that fellow’s number of chins, he was sitting at a table by himself, polishing
a pewter mug furiously and glaring across the room toward Comar, though not
when Comar was looking. Some of the other men gave the bearded man sidelong
frowns, too. But not when he was looking. Mat suppressed
his first urge, which was to rush over to Comar, drub him over the head with
his quarterstaff, and demand to know where Egwene and the others were.
Something was wrong here. Comar was the first man he had seen wearing a sword,
but the way the men looked at him was more than fear of a swordsman. Even the
serving woman who brought Comar a fresh cup of wine ‑ and was pinched for
her trouble ‑ had a nervous laugh for him. Look at it from every side, Mat thought
wearily. Half the trouble I get into is
from not doing that. I have to think. Tiredness seemed to have stuffed his
head with wool. He motioned to Thom, and they strolled over to the innkeeper’s
table, who eyed them suspiciously when they sat down. “Who is the man with the
stripe in his beard?” Mat asked. “Not from the
city, are you?” the innkeeper said. “He is a foreigner, too. I’ve never seen
him before tonight, but I know what he is. Some outlander who has come here and
made his fortune in trade. A merchant rich enough to wear a sword. That is no
reason for him to treat us like this.” “If you have
never seen him before,” Mat said, “how do you know he is a merchant?” The innkeeper
looked at him as if he were stupid. “His coat, man, and his sword. He cannot be
a lord or a soldier if he’s from off, so he has to be a rich merchant.” He
shook his head for the stupidity of foreigners. “They come to our places, to
look down their noses at us, and fondle the girls under our very eyes, but he
has no call to do this. If I go to the Maule, I don’t gamble for some
fisherman’s coins. If I go to the Tavar, I do not dice with the farmers come to
sell their crops.” His polishing gained in ferocity. “Such luck, the man has.
It must be how he made his fortune.” “He wins, does
he?” Yawning, Mat wondered how he would do dicing with another man who had
luck. “Sometimes he
loses,” the innkeeper muttered, “when the stake is a few silver pennies.
Sometimes. But let it reach a silver mark . . . . No less than a dozen times
tonight, I have seen him win at Crowns with three crowns and two roses. And
half again as often, at Top, it has been three sixes and two fives. He tosses
nothing but sixes at Threes, and three sixes and a five every throw at Compass.
If he has such luck, I say the Light shine on him, and well to him, but let him
use it with other merchants, as is proper. How can a man have such luck?” “Weighted
dice,” Thom said, then coughed. “When he wants to be sure of winning, he uses
dice that always show the same face. He is smart enough not to have made it the
highest toss ‑ folk become suspicious if you always throw the king” ‑
he raised an eyebrow at Mat ‑ “just one that’s all but impossible to
beat, but he cannot change that they always show the same face.” “I have heard
of such,” the innkeeper said slowly. “Illianers use them, I hear.” Then he
shook his head. “But both men use the same cup and dice. It cannot be.” “Bring me two
dice cups,” Thom said, “and two sets of dice. Crowns or spots, it makes no
difference, so long as they are the same.” The innkeeper
frowned at him, but left‑prudently taking the pewter cup with him‑and
came back with two leather cups. Thom rolled the five bone cubes from one onto
the table in front of Mat. Whether with spots or symbols, every set of dice Mat
had ever seen had been either bone or wood. These had spots. He picked them up,
frowning at Thom. “Am I supposed to see something?” Thom dumped the
dice from the other cup into his hand, then, almost too quickly to follow,
dropped them back in and twisted the cup over to rest upside down on the table
before the dice could fall out. He kept his hand on top of the cup. “Put a mark
on each of them, boy. Something small, but something you’ll know for your
mark.” Mat found
himself exchanging puzzled glances with the innkeeper. Then they both looked at
the cup upside down under Thom’s hand. He knew Thom was up to something tricky‑gleemen
were always doing things that were impossible, like eating fire and pulling
silk out of the air‑but he did not see how Thom could do anything with
him watching close. He unsheathed his belt knife and made a small scratch on
each die, right across the circle of six spots. ”All right,” he
said, setting them back on the table. “Show me your trick. “ Thom reached
over and picked up the dice, then set them down again a foot away. “Look for
your marks, boy.” Mat frowned.
Thom’s hand was still on the upended leather cup; the gleeman had not moved it
or taken Mat’s dice anywhere near it. He picked up the dice . . . and blinked.
There was not a scratch on them. The innkeeper gasped. Thom turned his
free hand over, revealing five dice. “Your marks are on these. That is what
Comar is doing. It is a child’s trick, simple, though I’d never have thought he
had the fingers for it.” “I do not think
I want to play dice with you after all,” Mat said slowly. The innkeeper was
staring at the dice, but not as if he saw any solution. “Call the Watch, or
whatever you call it here,” Mat told him. “Have him arrested.” He’ll kill nobody in a prison cell. Yet what
if they are already dead? He tried not to listen, but the thought
persisted. Then I’ll see him dead, and
Gaebril, whatever it takes! But they aren’t, burn me! They can’t be! The innkeeper
was shaking his head. “Me? Me, denounce a merchant to the Defenders? They would
not even look at his dice. He could say one word, and I would be in chains
working the channeldredges in the Fingers of the Dragon. He could cut me down
where I stood, and the Defenders would say I had earned it. Perhaps he will go
away after a while. “ Mat gave him a
wry grimace. “If I expose him, will that be good enough? Will you call the
Watch, or the Defenders or whoever, then?” “You do not
understand. You are a foreigner. Even if he is ‑ from off, he is a
wealthy man, important.” “Wait here,”
Mat told Thom. “I do not mean to let him reach Egwene and the others, whatever
it takes.” He yawned as he scraped back his chair. “Wait, boy,”
Thom called after him, soft yet urgent. The gleeman pushed himself up out of
his chair. “Burn you, you don’t know what you’re putting your foot into!” Mat waved for
him to stay there and walked over to Comar. No one else had taken up the
bearded man’s challenge, and he eyed Mat with interest as Mat leaned his
quarterstaff against the table and sat down. Comar studied
Mat’s coat and grinned nastily. “You want to wager coppers, farmer? I do not
waste my time with - ” He cut off as Mat set an Andoran gold crown on the table
and yawned at him, making no effort to cover his mouth. “You say little,
farmer, though your manners could use improving, but gold has a voice of its
own and no need of manners.” He shook the leather cup in his hand and spilled
the dice out. He was chuckling before they came to rest, showing three crowns
and two roses. “You’ll not beat that, farmer. Perhaps you have more gold hidden
in those rags that you want to lose? What did you do? Rob your master?” He reached for
the dice, but Mat scooped them up ahead of him. Comar glared, but let him have
the cup. If both tosses were the same, they would throw again until one man
won. Mat smiled as he rattled the dice. He did not mean to give Comar a chance
to change them. If they threw the same toss three or four times in a row ‑
exactly the same, every time ‑ even these Defenders would listen. The
whole common room would see; they would have to back his word. He spilled the
dice onto the tabletop. They bounced oddly. He felt something ‑
shifting. It was as if his luck had gone wild. The room seemed to be writhing
around him, tugging at the dice with threads. For some reason he wanted to look
at the door, but he kept his eyes on the dice. They came to rest. Five crowns.
Comar’s eyes looked ready to pop out of his head. “You lose,” Mat
said softly. If his luck was in to this extent, perhaps it was time to push it.
A voice in the back of his head told him to think, but he was too tired to
listen. “I think your luck is about used up, Comar. If you’ve harmed those
girls, it’s all gone.” “I have not
even found . . .” Comar began, still staring at the dice, then jerked his head
up. His face had gone white. “How do you know my name?” He had not
found them, yet. Luck, sweet luck, stay
with me. “Go back to Caemlyn, Comar. Tell Gaebril you could not find them.
Tell him they are dead. Tell him anything, but leave Tear tonight. If I see you
again, I’ll kill you.” “Who are you?”
the big man said unsteadily. “Who ‑ ?” The next instant his sword was out
and he was on his feet. Mat shoved the
table at him, overturning it, and grabbed for his quarterstaff. He had
forgotten how big Comar was. The bearded man pushed the table right back at
him. Mat fell over with his chair, holding a bare grasp on his staff, as Comar
heaved the table out of the way and stabbed at him. Mat threw his feet against
the man’s middle to stop his rush, swung the staff awkwardly, just enough to
deflect the sword. But the blow knocked the staff from his fingers, and he
found himself gripping Comar’s wrist, instead, with the man’s blade a hand from
his face. With a grunt he rolled backwards, heaving as hard as he could with
his legs. Comar’s eyes widened as he sailed over Mat to crash onto a table,
face up. Mat scrambled for his staff, but when he had it, Comar had not moved. The big man lay
with his hips and legs sprawled across the top of the table, the rest of him
hanging down with his head on the floor. The men who had been sitting at the
table were on their feet a safe distance away, wringing their hands and eyeing
each other nervously. A low, worried buzz filled the common room, not the noise
Mat expected. Comar’s sword
lay within easy reach of his hand. But he did not move. He stared at Mat,
though, as Mat kicked the sword away and went to one knee beside him. Light! I think his back is broken! “I
told you you should have gone, Comar. Your luck is all used up.” “Fool,” the big
man breathed. “Do you . . . think I . . . was the only . . . one hunting them?
They won’t . . . live till. . . .” His eyes stared at Mat, and his mouth was
open, but he said no more. Nor ever would again. Mat met the
glazing stare, trying to will more words out of the dead man. Who else, burn you? Who? Where are they? My
luck. Burn me, what happened to my luck? He became aware of the innkeeper
pulling frantically at his arm. “You must go.
You must. Before the Defenders come. I will show them the dice. I will tell
them it was an outlander, but a tall man. With red‑colored hair, and gray
eyes. No one will suffer. A man I dreamed of last night. No one real. No one
will contradict me. He took coin from everyone with his dice. But you must go.
You must!” Everyone else in the room was studiously looking another way. Mat let himself
be hauled away from the dead man and pushed outside. Thom was already waiting
in the rain. He seized Mat’s arm and limped down the street hurriedly, pulling
Mat stumbling behind him. Mat’s hood hung down his back; the rain soaked his
hair and poured down his face, down his neck, but he did not notice. The
gleeman kept looking over his shoulder, searching the street beyond Mat. “Are you
asleep, boy? You did not look asleep back there. Come on, boy. The Defenders
will arrest any outlander within two streets, no matter what description that
innkeeper gives.” “It’s the
luck,” Mat mumbled. “I’ve figured it out. The dice. My luck works best when
things are . . . random. Like dice. Not much good for cards. No good at stones.
Too much pattern. It has to be random. Even finding Comar. I’d stopped visiting
every inn. I walked into that one by chance. Thom, if I am going to find Egwene
and the others in time, I have to look without any pattern.” “What are you
talking about? The man is dead. If he already killed them . . . . Well, you’ve
avenged them. If he hasn’t, you saved them. Now will you bloody walk faster?
The Defenders won’t be long coming, and they are not so gentle as the Queen’s
Guards.” Mat shook his
arm free and picked up his pace unsteadily, dragging the quarterstaff. “He let
it slip that he hadn’t located them, yet. But he said he was not the only one.
Thom, I believe him. I was looking him in the eye, and he was telling the
truth. I still have to find them, Thom. And now I don’t even know who is after
them. I have to find them.” Stifling a huge
yawn with his fist, Thom pulled Mat’s hood up against the rain. “Not tonight,
boy. I need sleep, and so do you.” Wet. My hair’s dripping in my face. His
head seemed fuzzy. With a need for sleep, he realized after a moment. And he
realized how tired he was, if he had to think just to know it. “All right,
Thom. But I am going to look again as soon as it’s light.” Thom nodded and
coughed, and they made their way back to The White Crescent through the rain. Dawn was not
long in coming, but Mat rousted himself out of bed, and he and Thom set off
trying to search every inn inside the walls of Tear. Mat let himself wander
wherever the mood and the next turning took him, not looking for inns at all,
and tossing a coin to decide whether to go in. For three days and nights he did
this, and for three days and nights it rained without stopping, sometimes
thundering, sometimes quiet, but always pouring down. Thom’s cough
grew worse, so he had to stop playing the flute and telling stories, and he
would not carry his harp out in that weather; he insisted on going along,
however, and men still talked to a gleeman. Mat’s luck with the dice seemed
even better since he had begun this random wander, though he never stayed in
one inn or tavern long enough to win more than a few coins. Neither of them
heard anything useful. Rumors of war with Illian. Rumors of invading Mayene.
Rumors of invasion from Andor, of the Sea Folk shutting off trade, of Artur
Hawkwing’s armies returning from the dead. Rumors the Dragon was coming. The
men Mat gambled with were as gloomy about one rumor as the next; they seemed to
him to hunt for the darkest rumors they could find and half believe them all.
But he heard not a whisper that might lead him to Egwene and the others. Not
one innkeeper had seen women matching their descriptions. He began to
have bad dreams, no doubt from all his worrying. Egwene and Nynaeve and Elayne,
and some fellow with close‑cropped white hair, wearing a coat with puffy,
striped sleeves like Comar’s, laughing and weaving a net around them. Only
sometimes it was Moiraine he was weaving the net for, and sometimes he held a
crystal sword instead, a sword that blazed like the sun as soon as he touched
it. Sometimes it was Rand who held the sword. For some reason, he dreamed of
Rand a good deal. Mat was sure it was all because he was not getting enough sleep, not
eating except when he happened to remember, but he would not stop. He had a
wager to win, he told himself, and he meant to win this one if it killed him. CHAPTER 50 The Hammer The afternoon
sun was hot as the ferry docked in Tear; puddles stood on the steaming stones
of the dock, and the air seemed almost as damp to Perrin as Illian’s had. The
air smelled of pitch and wood and rope ‑ he could see shipyards further
south along the river ‑of spices
and iron and barley, of perfumes and wines and a hundred different aromas he
could not single out from the melange, most coming from the warehouses behind
the docks. When the wind swirled momentarily out of the north, he caught the
scents of fish, too, but those faded as the wind swung back. No smells of
anything to hunt. His mind reached out to feel for wolves before he realized
what he was doing and snapped his guards shut. He had done that too often of
late. There had been no wolves, of course. Not in a city like this. He wished
it did not feel so ‑ alone. As soon as the
ramp at the end of the barge was lowered, he led Stepper up to the dock after
Moiraine and Lan. The huge shape of the Stone of Tear lay off to their left,
shadowed so that it looked like a mountain despite the great banner at its
highest point. He did not want to look at the Stone, but it seemed impossible
to look at the city without seeing it. Is he here yet? Light, if he has already tried to get into that, he could he dead already. And then it
would all be for nothing. “What are we
meant to find here?” Zarine asked behind him. She had not stopped asking
questions; she just did not ask them of the Aes Sedai or the Warder. “Illian
showed us Gray Men and the Wild Hunt. What does Tear hold that ‑ that
someone wants to keep you from so badly?” Perrin glanced
around; none of the dockmen shuttling cargo about seemed to have heard. He was
sure he would have smelled fear if they had. He bit back the sharp remark that
hung on the end of his tongue. She had a quicker tongue, and a sharper. “I wish you did
not sound so eager,” Loial rumbled. “You seem to think it will all be as easy
as Illian, Faile.” “Easy?” Zarine
muttered. “Easy! Loial, we were nearly killed twice in one night. Illian was
enough for a Hunter’s song in itself. What makes you call it easy?” Perrin
grimaced. He wished Loial had not decided to call Zarine by that name she had
chosen; it was a constant reminder that Moiraine thought she was Min’s falcon.
And it did nothing to stop Perrin wondering if she was the beautiful woman Min
had warned him against, too. At least
I’ve not run up against the hawk. Or a Tuatha’an with a sword! Now that
would be the strangest of all, or I am a wool merchant! “Stop asking
questions, Zarine,” he said as he swung up into Stepper’s saddle. “You will
find out why we are here when Moiraine decides to tell you.” He tried not to
look at the Stone. She turned
those dark, tilted eyes on him. “I do not think you know why, blacksmith. I
think that is why you will not tell me, because you cannot. Admit it, farmboy.” With a small
sigh, he rode off the docks after Moiraine and Lan. Zarine did not dig at Loial
in that cutting way when the Ogier refused to answer her questions. He thought
she must be trying to browbeat him into using that name. He would not. Moiraine had
tied the oiled cloak behind her saddle, atop the innocuous looking bundle that
held the Dragon banner, and despite the heat had donned the blue linen cloak
from Illian. Its deep, wide hood hid her face. Her Great Serpent ring was on a
cord around her neck. Tear, she had said, did not forbid the presence of Aes
Sedai, only channeling, but the Defenders of the Stone kept a close eye on any
woman who wore the ring. She did not want to be watched on this visit to Tear. Lan had stuffed
his color‑shifting cloak into his saddlebags two days earlier, when it
had become apparent that whoever had sent the Darkhounds ‑ Sammael,
Perrin thought with a shiver, and tried not to think of the name at all ‑
whoever had sent them had not sent any more pursuit. The Warder had
made no concessions to the heat of Illian, and he made none to the lesser heat
of Tear. His gray‑green coat was buttoned up all the way. Perrin wore his
coat half undone, and the neck of his shirt untied. Tear might be a little
cooler than Illian, but it was still as hot as summer in the Two Rivers, and as
always after rain, the dampness of the air made the heat seem worse. His axe
belt hung looped around the tall pommel of his saddle. It was handy there, if
he needed it, and he felt better not wearing it. He was
surprised at the mud in the first streets they rode along. Only villages and
smaller towns had dirt streets, that he had seen, and Tear was one of the great
cities. But the people did not seem to mind, many going barefoot. A woman
walking on little wooden platforms caught his attention for a time, and he
wondered why they did not all wear them. Those baggy breeches on the men looked
as if they might be cooler than the snug ones he wore, but he was sure he would
feel a fool if he tried them. He made a picture in his head of himself wearing
those breeches and one of those round straw hats, and chuckled at it. “What do you
find funny, Perrin?” Loial asked. His ears were drooping till their tufts were
hidden in his hair, and he looked at the people in the street worriedly. “These
folk look . . . defeated, Perrin. They did not look this way when I was here
last. Even people who let their grove be cut down do not deserve to look like
this.” As Perrin began
to study faces instead of just looking at everything at once, he saw that Loial
was right. Something had gone out of too many of those faces. Hope, maybe.
Curiosity. They barely glanced at the party riding by, except to get out of the
way of the horses. The Ogier, mounted on an animal as big as a draft horse,
might as well have been Lan, or Perrin. The streets
changed, gaining wide stone paving, after they passed inside the gates of the
high, gray city wall, past the hard, dark eyes of soldiers in breastplates over
red coats with wide sleeves ending in narrow white cuffs, and rimmed, round
helmets with a ridge over the top. Instead of the baggy breeches other men
wore, theirs were tight, and tucked into knee‑high boots. The soldiers
frowned at Lan’s sword and fingered their own, stared sharply at Perrin’s axe
and his bow, but in a way, despite their frowns and sharp looks, there was
something beaten in their faces, too, as if nothing were really worth the
effort any longer. The buildings
were larger and taller inside the walls, though most were made no differently
from those outside. The roofs looked a bit odd to Perrin, especially those that
came to points, but he had seen so many different kinds of roof since leaving
home that he only wondered what kind of nails they used with their tiles. In
some places, the people did not use nails on their roof tiles at all. Palaces and
great buildings stood among the smaller and more ordinary, seemingly placed
haphazardly; a structure of towers and squarish, white domes, surrounded on all
sides by wide streets, might have shops and inns and houses on the other sides
of those streets. A huge hall fronted by squared columns of marble four paces
on a side, with fifty steps to climb to reach bronze doors five spans high, had
a bakery one side and a tailor on the other. More men wore
coats and breeches like the soldiers’ here, though in brighter colors and
without armor, and some even wore swords. None of them went barefoot, not even
those in baggy breeches. The women’s dresses were often longer, their necklines
lower to bare shoulders and even bosom, the cloth as likely to be silk as wool.
The Sea Folk traded a good deal of silk through Tear. As many sedan chairs and
carriages drawn by teams of horses moved through the streets as ox‑carts
and wagons. Yet too many of the faces had that same look of having given up. The inn Lan
chose, the Star, had a weaver’s shop on one side and a smithy on the other,
with narrow alleyways between. The smithy was of undressed gray stone, the
weaver’s and the inn of wood, though the Star stood four stories tall and had
small windows in its roof as well. The rattle of looms was hard‑pressed
to compete with the clang of the smith’s hammer. They handed their horses over
to stablemen, to be taken around back, and went inside the inn. There were fish
smells from the kitchen, baking and perhaps stewing, and the scent of roast
mutton. The men in the common room all wore the tight coats and loose breeches;
Perrin did not think richer men ‑ somehow he was sure the men in colorful
coats with puffy sleeves and the bare‑shouldered women in bright silk
were all rich, or nobles ‑ those folk would not put up with the noise.
Perhaps that was why Lan had chosen it. “How are we
supposed to sleep with this racketing?” Zarine muttered. “No questions?”
he said with a smile. For a moment he thought she was going to stick out her
tongue at him. The innkeeper
was a round‑faced, balding man in a long, deep blue coat and those loose
breeches, who bowed over hands clasped across his stout belly. His face had
that look, a weary resignation. “The Light shine on you, mistresses, and
welcome,” he sighed. “The Light shine on you, masters, and welcome.” He gave a
small start at Perrin’s yellow eyes, then passed wearily on to Loial. “The
Light shine on you, friend Ogier, and welcome. It is a year or more since I
have seen one of your kind in Tear. Some work or other at the Stone. They
stayed in the Stone, of course, but I saw them in the street one day.” He
finished with another sigh, seemingly unable to summon any curiosity as to why
another Ogier had come to Tear, or why any of them had come, for that matter. The balding
man, whose name was Jurah Haret, showed them to their rooms himself. Apparently
Moiraine’s silk dress and the way she kept her face hidden, taken with Lan’s
hard face and sword, made them a lady and her guard in his eyes, and so worthy
of his personal attention. Perrin he obviously took as some kind of retainer,
and Zarine he was plainly unsure of ‑ to her visible disgust ‑ and
Loial was, after all, an Ogier. He called men to push beds together for Loial,
and offered Moiraine a private room for her meals if she wished. She accepted
graciously. They kept
together through it all, making a small procession through the upper halls
until Hater bowed and sighed his way out of their presence, leaving them all
where they had begun, outside Moiraine’s room. The walls were white plaster,
and Loial’s head brushed the hall ceiling. “Odious
fellow,” Zarine muttered, brushing furiously at the dust on her narrow skirts
with both hands. “I believe he took me for your handmaid, Aes Sedai. I will
not stand for that!” “Watch your
tongue,” Lan said softly. “If you use that name where folk can hear, you will
regret it, girl.” She looked as if she were going to argue, but his icy blue
eyes stilled her tongue this time, if it did not cool her glare. Moiraine
ignored them. Staring off at nothing, she worked her cloak in her hands almost
as if wiping them. Unaware what she was doing, in Perrin’s opinion. “How do we go
about finding Rand?” he asked, but she did not appear to hear him. “Moiraine?” “Remain close
to the inn,” she said after a moment. “Tear can be a dangerous city for those
who do not know its ways. The Pattern can be torn, here.” That last was soft,
as if to herself. In a stronger voice she said, “Lan, let us see what we can
discover without attracting attention. The rest of you, stay close to the inn!” “ ‘Stay close
to the inn,’ “ Zarine mimicked as the Aes Sedai and the Warder disappeared down
the stairs. But she said it quietly enough that they would not hear. “This
Rand. He is the one you called the . . . .” If she looked like a falcon right
then, it was a very uneasy falcon. “And we are in Tear, where the Heart of the
Stone holds . . . . And the Prophecies say . . . . The Light burn me, ta’veren,
is this a story I want to be in?” “It is not a
story, Zarine.” For a moment Perrin felt almost as hopeless as the innkeeper
had sounded. “The Wheel weaves us into the Pattern. You chose to tangle your
thread with ours; it’s too late to untangle it, now. “ “Light!” she
growled. “Now you sound like her!” He left her
there with Loial and went to put his things in his room - it had a low bed,
comfortable but small, as city people seemed to think befitted a servant, a
washstand, a stool, and a few pegs on the cracked plaster wall ‑ and when
he came out, they were both gone. The ring of hammer on anvil called to him. So much in Tear
looked odd that it was a relief to walk into the smithy. The ground floor was
all one large room with no back wall except for two long doors that stood open
on a yard for shoeing horses and oxen, complete with an ox sling. Hammers stood
in their stands, tongs of various kinds and sizes hung on the exposed joists of
the walls, buttresses and hoof knives and other farrier’s tools lay neatly
arranged on wooden benches with chisels and beak irons and swages and all the
implements of the blacksmith’s craft. Bins held lengths of iron and steel in
various thicknesses. Five grinding wheels of different roughness stood about
the hard dirt floor, six anvils, and three stone‑sided forges with their
bellows, though only one held glowing coals. Quenching barrels stood ready to
hand. The smith was
plying his hammer on yellow‑hot iron gripped in heavy tongs. He wore
baggy breeches and had pale blue eyes, but the long leather vest over his bare
chest and apron were not much different from those Perrin and Master Luhhan had
worn back in Emond’s Field, and his thick arms and shoulders spoke of years
working metal. His dark hair had almost the same amount of gray that Perrin
remembered in Master Luhhan’s. More vests and aprons hung on the wall, as if
the man had apprentices, but they were not in evidence now. The forge‑fire
smelled like home. The hot iron smelled like home. The smith
turned to thrust the piece he was working back into the coals, and Perrin
stepped over to work the bellows for him. The man glanced at him, but said
nothing. Perrin pulled the bellows handle up and down with slow, steady, even
strokes, keeping the coals at the right heat. The smith went back to working
the hot iron, on the rounded horn of the anvil, this time. Perrin thought he
might be making a barrel scrape. The hammer rang with sharp, quick blows. The man spoke
without looking up from his work. “Apprentice?” was all he said. “Yes,” Perrin
replied just as simply. The smith
worked on for a time. It was a barrel scrape, for cleaning the insides of
wooden barrels. Now and again he eyed Perrin consideringly. Setting his hammer
down, just for a moment, the smith picked up a short length of thick, square
stock and pushed it into Perrin’s hand, then picked up his hammer again and
resumed work. “See what you can do with that,” he said. Without even
thinking about it, Perrin stepped over to an anvil on the other side of the
forge and tapped the stock against its edge. It made a nice ring. The steel had
not been left long enough in the slowfurnace to pick up a great deal of carbon
from the coal. He pushed it into the hot coals for almost its entire length,
tasted the two water barrels to see which had been salted ‑ the third was
olive oil ‑ then took off his coat and shirt and chose a leather vest
that would fit his chest. Most of these Tairen fellows were not as large as he,
but he found one that would do. Finding an apron was easier. When he turned
around, he saw the smith, still with his head down over his work, nodding and
smiling to himself. But just because he knew his way around a smithy did not
mean he had any skill at smithing. That was yet to be shown. When he came
back to the anvil with two hammers, a set of longhandled flat‑tongs, and
a sharp‑topped hardy, the steel bar had heated to a dark red except for a
small bit of what he had left out of the coals. He worked the bellows, watching
the color of the metal lighten, until it reached a yellow just short of white.
Then he pulled it out with the tongs, laid it on the anvil, and picked up the
heavier of the two hammers. About ten pounds, he estimated, and with a longer
handle than most people, who did not know metal working, thought was necessary.
He held it near the end; hot metal gave off sparks, sometimes, and he had seen
the scars on the hands of the smith from up at Roundhill, a careless fellow. He did not want
to make anything elaborate or fancy. Simple things seemed best at the moment.
He began by rounding the edges of the bar, then hammered the middle out into a
broad blade, almost as thick as the original at the butt, but a good hand and a
half long. From time to time he returned the metal to the coals, to keep it at
the pale yellow, and after a time he shifted to the lighter hammer, half the
weight of the first. The piece beyond the blade, he thinned down, then bent it
over the anvil horn in a curve down beside the blade. A wooden handle could be
fixed onto that, eventually. Setting the sharp‑chisel hardy in the
anvil’s hardyhole, he laid the glowing metal atop it. One sharp blow of the
hammer cut off the tool he had made. Or almost made. It would be a chamfer
knife, for smoothing and leveling the tops of barrel staves after they were
hopped together, among other things. When he was done. The other man’s barrel
scrape had made him think of it. As soon as he
had made the hot‑cut, he tossed the glowing metal into the salted
quenching barrel. Unsalted gave a harder quench, for the hardest metal, while
the oil gave the softest, for good knives. And swords, he had heard, but he had
never had any part in making anything like that. When the metal
had cooled enough, to a dull gray, he removed it from the water and took it to
the grinding wheels. A little slow work with the footpedals ground a polish
onto the blade. Carefully, he heated the blade portion again. This time the
colors deepened, to straw, to bronze. When the bronze color began to run up the
blade in waves, he set it aside to cool. The final edge could be sharpened
then. Quenching again would destroy the tempering he had just done. “A very neat
bit of work,” the smith said. “No wasted motion. You looking for work? My
apprentices just walked away, all three of them, the worthless fools, and I’ve
plenty you could do.” Perrin shook
his head. “I do not know how long I will be in Tear. I’d like to work a little
longer, if you do not mind. It has been a long time, and I miss it. Maybe I
could do some of the work your apprentices would have done.” The smith
snorted loudly. “You’re a deal better than any of those louts, moping around
and staring, muttering about their nightmares. As if everyone doesn’t have
nightmares, sometimes. Yes, you can work here, as long as you want. Light, I’ve
orders for a dozen drawknives and three cooper’s adzes, and a carpenter down
the street needs a mortise hammer, and . . . . Too much to list it. Start with
the drawknives, and we will see how far we get before night.” Perrin lost
himself in the work, for a time forgetting everything but the heat of the
metal, the ring of his hammer, and the smell of the forge, but there came a
time when he looked up and found the smith ‑ Dermid Ajala, he had said
his name was ‑ taking off his vest, and the shoeing yard dark. All the
light came from the forge and a pair of lamps. And Zarine was sitting on an
anvil by one of the cold forges, watching him. “So you really
are a blacksmith, blacksmith,” she said. “He is that,
mistress,” Ajala said. “Apprentice, he says, but the work he did today amounts
to his master’s piece as far as I am concerned. Fine stroking, and better than
steady.” Perrin shifted his feet at the compliments, and the smith grinned at
him. Zarine stared at both of them with a lack of comprehension. Perrin went to
replace the vest and apron on their peg, but once he had them off, he was
suddenly conscious of Zarine’s eyes on his back. It was if she were touching
him; for a moment, the herbal scent of her seemed overwhelming. He quickly
pulled his shirt over his head, stuffed it raggedly into his breeches, and
jerked on his coat. When he turned around, Zarine wore one of those small,
secretive smiles that had always made him nervous. “Is this what
you mean to do, then?” she asked. “Did you come all this way to be a blacksmith
again?” Ajala paused in the act of pulling the yard doors closed and listened. Perrin picked
up the heavy hammer he had used, a ten‑pound head with a handle as long
as his forearm. It felt good in his hands. It felt right. The smith had glanced
at his eyes once and never even blinked; it was the work that was important,
the skill with metal, not the color of a man’s eyes. “No,” he said sadly. “One
day, I hope. But not yet.” He started to hang the hammer back on the wall. “Take it.”
Ajala cleared his throat. “I do not usually give away good hammers, but . . . .
The work you’ve done today is worth more than the price of that hammer by far,
and maybe it will help you to that ‘one day.’ Man, if I have ever seen anyone
made to hold a smith’s hammer, it is you. So take it. Keep it.” Perrin closed
his hand around the haft. It did feel right. “Thank you,” he said. “I cannot
say what this means to me.” “Just remember
the ‘one day,’ man. Just you remember it.” As they left,
Zarine looked up at him and said, “Do you have any idea how strange men are,
blacksmith? No. I did not think you did.” She darted ahead, leaving him holding
the hammer in one hand and scratching his head with the other. No one in the
common room looked at him twice, a golden‑eyed man carrying a smith’s
hammer. He went up to his room, remembering for once to light a tallow candle.
His quiver and the axe hung from the same peg on the plaster wall. He hefted
the axe in one hand, the hammer in the other. By weight of metal, the axe, with
its half‑moon blade and thick spike, was a good five or six pounds
lighter than the hammer, but it felt ten times heavier. Replacing the axe in
the loop on its belt, he set the hammer on the floor beneath the peg, handle
against the wall. Axe haft and hammer haft almost touched, two pieces of wood
equally thick. Two pieces of metal, near enough the same weight. For a long
time he sat on the stool staring at them. He was still staring when Lan put his
head into the room. “Come,
blacksmith. We have things to talk over.” “I am a blacksmith,” Perrin said, and the Warder frowned at him. “Don’t go winter‑crazy on me now, blacksmith. If you
cannot carry your weight any longer, you may drag us all down the mountain.” “I’ll carry my
weight,” Perrin growled. “I will do what has to be done. What do you want?” “You,
blacksmith. Don’t you listen? Come on, farmboy.” That name that
Zarine so often called him pulled him to his feet angrily, now, but Lan was
already turning away. Perrin hurried into the hall and followed him toward the
front of the inn, meaning to tell the Warder he had had enough of this
“blacksmith” and “farmboy,” his name was Perrin Aybara. The Warder ducked into
the inn’s only private dining room, overlooking the street. Perrin followed
him. “Now listen, Warder, I -” “You listen,
Perrin,” Moiraine said. “Be quiet and listen.” Her face was smooth, but her
eyes looked as grim as her voice sounded. Perrin had not
realized anyone was in the room except for himself and the Warder, standing
with one arm up on the mantel of the unlit fireplace. Moiraine sat at the table
in the middle of the floor, a simple piece, of black oak. None of the other
chairs with their high, carved backs were occupied. Zarine was leaning against
the wall at the other end of the room from Lan, scowling, and Loial had chosen
to sit on the floor since none of the chairs really fit him. “I’m glad you
decided to join us, farmboy,” Zarine said sarcastically. “Moiraine would not
say anything till you came. She just looks at us as if she is deciding which of
us is going to die. I - ” “Be quiet,”
Moiraine told her sharply. “One of the Forsaken is in Tear. The High Lord Samon
is Be’lal.” Perrin shivered. Loial squeezed
his eyes shut and groaned. “I could have remained in the stedding. I would probably have been very happy, married, whoever
my mother chose. She is a fine woman, my mother, and she would not give me to a
bad wife.” His ears seemed to have hidden themselves completely in his shaggy
hair. “You can go
back to Stedding Shangtai,” Moiraine said. “Leave now, if you wish. I will not
stop you.” Loial opened
one eye. “I can go?” “If you wish,”
she said. “Oh. “ He
opened the other eye, and scratched his cheek with blunt fingers the size of
sausages. “I suppose. . . . I suppose . . . if I have a choice . . . that I
will stay with all of you. I have taken a great many notes, but not nearly
enough to complete my book, and I would not like to leave Perrin, and Rand ‑
” Moiraine cut
him off in a cold voice. “Good, Loial. I am glad that you are staying. I will
be glad to use any knowledge you have. But until this is done, I have no time
to listen to your complaints!” “I suppose,”
Zarine said in an unsteady voice, “that there is no chance of me leaving?” She
looked at Moiraine, and shivered. “I thought not. Blacksmith, if I live through
this, I will make you pay.” Perrin stared
at her. Me! The fool woman thinks it my
fault? Did I ask her to come? He opened his mouth, saw the look in
Moiraine’s eyes, and closed it again quickly. After a moment he said, “Is he
after Rand? To stop him, or kill him?” “I think not,”
she said quietly. Her voice was like cold steel. “I fear he means to let Rand
enter the Heart of the Stone and take Callandor,
then take it away from him. I fear he means to kill the Dragon Reborn with
the very weapon that is meant to herald him.” “Do we run
again?” Zarine said. “Like Illian? I never thought to run, but I never thought
to find the Forsaken when I took the Hunter’s oath.” “This time,”
Moiraine said, “we do not run. We dare not run. Worlds and time rest on Rand,
on the Dragon Reborn. This time, we fight.” Perrin took a
chair uneasily. “Moiraine, you are saying a lot of things right out that you
told us we must not even think about. You do
have this room warded against listening, don’t you?” When she shook her
head, he gripped the edge of the table hard enough to make the dark oak creak. “I do not speak
of a Myrddraal, Perrin. No one knows the strength of the Forsaken, except that
Ishamael and Lanfear were the strongest, but the weakest of them could sense
any warding I might set from a mile or more away. And rip all of us to shreds
in seconds. Possibly without stirring from where he stood.” “You’re saying
he can tie you in knots,” Perrin muttered. “Light! What are we supposed to do?
How can we do anything?” “Even the
Forsaken cannot stand up to balefire,” she said. He wondered if that was what
she had used on the Darkhounds; it still made him uneasy, what he had seen, and
what she had said then. “I have learned things in the last year, Perrin. I am .
. . more dangerous than when I came to Emond’s Field. If I can come close
enough to Be’lal, I can destroy him. But if he sees me first, he can destroy us
all, long before I have a chance.” She turned her attention to Loial. “What can
you tell me of Be’lal?” Perrin blinked
in confusion. Loial? “Why are you
asking him?” Zarine burst out angrily. “First you tell the blacksmith you mean
us to fight one of the Forsaken! ‑ who can kill us all before we can even
think! ‑ and now you ask Loial about him?” Loial murmured urgently, that
name she used ‑ “Faile! Faile!” ‑ but she did not even slow. “I
thought Aes Sedai knew everything. Light, at least I am smart enough not to say
I will fight someone unless I know everything I can of him! You . . . .” She
trailed off under Moiraine’s stare, muttering. “Ogier,” the
Aes Sedai said coolly, “have long memories, girl. It has been well over a
hundred generations since the Breaking for humans, but less than thirty for
Ogier. We still learn things from their stories that we did not know. Now tell
me, Loial. What do you know of Be’lal. And briefly, for once. I want your long
memory, not your long wind.” Loial cleared
his throat, a sound much like firewood tumbling down a chute. “Be’lal.” His
ears flickered out of his hair like hummingbird wings, then snapped down again.
“I do not know what can be in the stories about him you do not already know. He
is not much mentioned, except in the razing of the Hall of the Servants just
before Lews Therin Kinslayer and the Hundred Companions sealed him up with the
Dark One. Jalanda son of Aried son of Coiam wrote that he was called the
Envious, that he forsook the Light because he envied Lews Therin, and that he
envied Ishamael and Lanfear, too. In A Study of the War of the Shadow, Moilin daughter of Hamada daughter
of Juendan called Be’lal the Netweaver, but I do not know why. She mentioned
him playing a game of stones with Lews Therin and winning, and that he always
boasted of it.” He glanced at Moiraine and rumbled, “I am trying to be brief. I
do not know anything important about him. Several writers say Be’lal and
Sammael were both leaders in the fight against the Dark One before they forsook
the Light, and both were masters of the sword. That is truly all I know. He may
be mentioned in other books, other stories, but I have not read them. Be’lal is
just not spoken of very often. I am sorry I could not tell you anything
useful.” “Perhaps you
have,” Moiraine told him. “I did not know of the name, the Netweaver. Or that
he envied the Dragon as well as his companions in the Shadow. That strengthens
my belief that he wants Callandor. That
must be the reason he has chosen to make himself a High Lord of Tear. And the
Netweaver ‑ a name for a schemer, a patient and cunning planner. You
have done well, Loial.” For a moment the Ogier’s wide mouth curved up in a
pleased smile, but then it curved down again. “I will not
pretend I am not afraid,” Zarine said suddenly. “Only a fool would not be
afraid of the Forsaken. But I swore I would be one of you, and I will. That is
all that I wanted to say.” Perrin shook
his head. She must be crazy. I could wish I were not one of
this party. I could wish I were back home working Master Luhhan’s forge. Aloud,
he said, “If he is inside the Stone, if he is waiting there for Rand, we must
go inside to reach him. How do we do that? Everyone keeps saying no one enters
the Stone without the permission of the High Lords, and looking at it, I don’t
see any way but through the gates.” “You do not go
in,” Lan said. “Moiraine and I will be the only ones to enter. The more who go,
the harder it will be. Whatever way in I find, I cannot believe it will be easy
even for only two.” “Gaidin,”
Moiraine began in a firm voice, but the Warder cut her off with one just as
firm. “We go
together, Moiraine. I will not stand aside this time.” After a moment she
nodded. Perrin thought he saw Lan relax. “The rest of you had better get some
sleep,” the Warder went on. “I have to be out studying the Stone.” He paused.
“There is a thing that your news drove out of my head, Moiraine. A small thing,
and I cannot see what it might mean. There are Aiel in Tear.” “Aiel!” Loial
exclaimed. “Impossible! The entire city would be in a panic if one Aiel came
through the gates.” “I did not say
they were walking the streets, Ogier. The rooftops and chimneys of the city
make as good hiding as the Waste. I saw no less than three, though apparently
no one else in Tear has seen any of them. And if I saw three, you can be sure
there are many times that I did not see.” “It means
nothing to me,” Moiraine said slowly. “Perrin, why are you frowning in that
way?” He had not
known that he was frowning. “I was thinking about that Aiel in Remen. He said
that when the Stone falls, the Aiel will leave the Three‑fold Land.
That’s the Waste, isn’t it? He said it was a prophecy.” “I have read
every word of the Prophecies of the Dragon,” Moiraine said softly, “in every
translation, and there is no mention of the Aiel. We stagger blindly while
Be’lal weaves his nets, and the Wheel weaves the Pattern around us. But are the
Aiel the Wheel’s weaving, or Be’lal’s? Lan, you must find me the way into the
Stone quickly. Us. Find us a way in quickly.” “As you
command, Aes Sedai,” he said, but his tone was more warm than formal. He
vanished through the door. Moiraine frowned at the table, eyes clouded in
thought. Zarine came
over to look down at Perrin, her head tilted to one side. “And what are you
going .to do, blacksmith? It seems they mean us to wait and watch while they go
adventuring. Not that I will complain.” He doubted that
last. “First,” he told her, “I am going to have something to eat. And then I
am going to think about a hammer.” And
try to puzzle out how I feel about you. Falcon. CHAPTER 51 Bait for the Net From the corner
of her eye, Nynaeve thought she glimpsed a tall man with reddish hair, in a
swirling brown cloak, well down the sunlit street, but as she turned to peer
from under the wide brim of the blue straw hat Ailhuin had given her, an ox‑drawn
wagon was already lumbering between them. When it lurched on, the man was
nowhere to be seen. She was almost certain that had been a wooden flute case on
his back, and his clothes were certainly not Tairen. It couldn’t be Rand, Just because I keep dreaming about him does not
mean he is going to come all the way from Almoth Plain. One of the
barefoot men hurrying past, with the sickle‑shaped tails of a dozen large
fish sticking up from the basket on his back, suddenly tripped, catapulting
silver‑scaled fish over his head as he fell. He landed on hands and knees
in the mud, staring at the fish that had come out of his basket. Every one of
the long, sleek shapes stood upright, stuck nose down in the mud, forming a
neat circle. Even a few passersby gaped at that. Slowly the man got to his
feet, apparently unaware of the mud on him. Unslinging his basket, he began
gathering the fish back into it, shaking his head and muttering to himself. Nynaeve
blinked, but her business was with this cow‑faced brigand, facing her in
the doorway of his shop with bloody cuts of meat hanging from hooks behind him.
She gave her braid a tug and fixed the fellow with her eye. “Very well,”
she said sharply, “I will take it, but if this is what you charge for so poor a
cut, you’ll not have more business from me.” He shrugged
placidly as he took her coins, then wrapped the fatty mutton roast in a cloth
she produced from the basket on her arm. She glared at him as she put the
wrapped meat into the basket, but that did not affect him. She whirled to
stalk away ‑ and nearly fell. She was still not used to these clogs; they
kept sticking in the mud, and she could not see how the folk who wore them
managed. She hoped this sunshine dried the ground soon, but she had a feeling
that the mud was more or less permanent in the Maule. Stepping
gingerly, she started back toward Ailhuin’s house, muttering under her breath.
The prices were outrageous for everything, the quality inevitably poor, and
almost no one seemed to care, not the people buying or those selling. It was a
relief to pass a woman shouting at a shopkeeper, waving a bruised reddish‑yellow
fruit‑Nynaeve did not know what; they had a good many fruits and
vegetables she had never heard of, here‑in each hand and calling for
everyone to see what refuse the man sold, but the shopkeeper only stared at her
wearily, not even bothering to argue back. There was some
excuse for the prices, she knew ‑ Elayne had explained all about the
grain being eaten by rats in the granaries because no one in Cairhien could
buy, and how big the Cairhienin grain trade had become since the Aiel War ‑
but nothing excused the way everyone seemed ready to lie down and die. She had
seen hail ruin food crops in the Two Rivers, and grasshoppers eat them and
blacktongue kill the sheep and redspot wither the tabac so there was nothing to
sell wheh the merchants came down from Baerlon. She could remember two years in
a row when there had been little to eat except turnip soup and old barley, and
hunters had been lucky to bring home a scrawny rabbit, but Two Rivers folk
picked themselves up when they were knocked down and went back to work. These
people had had only one bad year, and their fisheries and their other trade
seemed to be flourishing. She had no patience with them. The trouble was, she
knew she should have a little patience. They were odd people with odd ways, and
things she took for cringing, they seemed to see as a matter of course, even
Ailhuin and Sandar. She should be able to summon up just a little patience. If for them, why not for Egwene? She put
that aside. The child behaved wretchedly, snapping at the most obvious
suggestions, objecting to the most sensible things. Even when it was plain what
they should do, Egwene wanted to be convinced. Nynaeve was not used to having
to convince people, especially not people she had changed swaddling clothes
for. The fact that she was only a matter of seven years older than Egwene was
of no account. It is all those bad dreams, she told
herself. I cannot understand what
they mean, and now Elayne and I are having them, too, and I do not know what
that means either, and Sandar won’t say anything except that he is still
looking, and I am so frustrated I . . . I could just spit! She jerked her
braid so hard it hurt. At least she had been able to convince Egwene not to use
the ter’angreal again, to put the
thing back in her pouch instead of wearing it next to her skin always. If the
Black Ajah was in Tel’aran’rhiod . . . . She did not want to think about that
possibility. We will find them! “I will bring
them down,” she muttered. “Trying to sell me like a sheep! Hunting me like an
animal! I am the hunter this time, not the rabbit! That Moiraine! If she had
never come to Emond’s Field, I could have taught Egwene enough. And Rand. . . .
I could have . . . I could have done something.” That she knew neither was true
did not help; it made it worse. She hated Moiraine almost as much as she hated
Liandrin and the Black Ajah, maybe as much as she hated the Seanchan. She rounded a
corner, and Juilin Sandar had to leap out of her way to keep from being
trampled. Even used to them as he was, he nearly tripped over his own clogs,
only his staff saving him from falling on his face in the mud. That pale,
ridged wood was called bamboo, she had learned, and it was stronger than it
looked. “Mistress - uh ‑
Mistress Maryim,” Sandar said, regaining his balance. “I was . . . looking for
you.” He flashed her a nervous smile. “Are you angry? Why are you frowning at
me that way?” She smoothed
her forehead. “I was not frowning at you, Master Sandar. The butcher. . . . It
does not matter. Why are you looking for me?” Her breath caught. “Have you
found them?” He looked
around as if he suspected the passersby of trying to listen. “Yes. Yes, you
must come back with me. The others are waiting. The others. And Mother Guenna.” “Why are you so
nervous? You did not let them discover your interest?” she said sharply. “What
has frightened you?” ”No! No,
mistress. I ‑ I did not reveal myself.” His eyes darted again, and he
stepped closer, his voice dropping to a breathy, urgent whisper. “These women
you seek, they are in the Stone! Guests of a High Lord! The High Lord Samon!
Why did you call them thieves? The High Lord Samon!” he almost squeaked. There
was sweat on his face. Inside the Stone! With a High Lord! Light,
how do we reach them now? She suppressed
her impatience with an effort. “Be easy,” she said soothingly. “Be at ease,
Master Sandar. We can explain everything to your satisfaction.” I hope we can. Light, if he goes running to
the Stone to tell this High Lord we are searching for them . . . . “Come with
me to Mother Guenna’s house. Joslyn, Caryla, and I will explain it all to you.
Truly. Come. “ He gave a
short, uneasy nod, and walked alongside her, keeping his pace to what she could
manage with the clogs. He looked as if he wanted to run. At the Wise
Woman’s house, she hurried around to the back. No one ever used the front door,
that she had seen, not even Mother Guenna herself. The horses were tied to a
bamboo hitching rail, now‑well away from Ailhuin’s new figs as well as
her vegetables‑with their saddles and bridles stored inside. For once she
did not stop to pat Gaidin’s nose and tell him he was a good boy, and more
sensible than his namesake. Sandar halted to scrape mud from his clogs with the
butt of his staff, but she hurried inside. Ailhuin Guenna
was sitting in one of her high‑backed chairs pulled out into the room,
her arms at her sides. The gray‑haired woman’s eyes were bulging with
anger and fear, and she struggled furiously without moving a muscle. Nynaeve
did not need to sense the subtle weaving of Air to know what had happened. Light, they’ve found us! Burn you, Sandar! Rage flooded
her, washed away the walls inside that usually kept her from the Power, and as
the basket fell from her hands, she was a white blossom on a blackthorn bush,
opening to embrace saidar, opening
. . . . It was as if she had run into another wall, a wall of clear glass; she
could feel the True Source, but the wall stopped everything except the ache to
be filled with the One Power. The basket hit
the floor, and as it bounced, the door behind her opened and Liandrin stepped
in, followed by a black‑haired woman with a white streak above her left
ear. They wore long, colorful silk dresses cut to bare their shoulders, and the
glow of saidar surrounded them. Liandrin
smoothed her red dress and smiled with that pouting rosebud mouth. Her doll’s
face was filled with amusement. “You see, do you not, wilder,” she began, “you
have no ‑ ” Nynaeve hit her
in the mouth as hard as she could. Light,
I have to get away. She backhanded Rianna so hard the black‑haired
woman fell on her silk‑covered rump with a grunt. They must have the others, but if I can make it out the door, if I can
get far enough away they can’t shield me, I can do something. She pushed Liandrin
hard, shoving her away from the door. Just
let me escape their shielding, and I’ll . . . . Blows hit her
from every side, like fists and sticks, pummeling her. Neither Liandrin, blood
trickling from a corner of her now‑grim mouth, nor Rianna, her hair as
disarrayed as her green dress, lifted a hand. Nynaeve could feel the flows of
Air weaving about her as well as she could feel the blows themselves. She still
struggled to reach the door, but she realized that she was on her knees, now,
and the unseen blows would not stop, invisible sticks and fists striking at her
back and her stomach, her head and her hips, her shoulders, her breasts, her
legs, her head. Groaning, she fell into her side and curled into a ball, trying
to protect herself. Oh, Light, I tried.
Egwene! Elayne! I tried! I will not cry out! Burn you, you can beat me to
death, but I won’t cry! The blows
stopped, but Nynaeve could not stop quivering. She felt bruised and battered
from crown to toe. Liandrin
crouched beside her, arms around her knees, silk rustling against silk. She had
wiped the blood away from her mouth. Her dark eyes were hard, and there was no
amusement on her face now. “Perhaps you are too stupid to know when you are
defeated, wilder. You fought almost as wildly as that other foolish girl, that
Egwene. She almost went mad. You must all learn to submit. You will learn to
submit.” Nynaeve
shivered and reached for saidar again.
It was not that she had any real hope, but she had to do something. Forcing
through her pain, she reached out . . . and struck that invisible shield.
Liandrin did have amusement back in her eyes, now, the grim mirth of a nasty
child who pulls the wings off flies. “We have no use
for this one, at least,” Rianna said, standing beside Ailhuin. “I will stop her
heart.” Ailhuin’s eyes nearly came out of her head. “No!”
Liandrin’s short, honey‑colored braids swung as her head snapped around.
“Always you kill too quickly, and only the Great Lord can make use of the
dead.” She smiled at the woman held to the chair by invisible bonds. “You saw
the soldiers who came with us, old woman. You know who waits for us in the
Stone. The High Lord Samon, he will not be pleased if you speak of what
happened inside your house today. If you hold your tongue, you will live, perhaps
to serve him again one day. If you speak, you will serve only the Great Lord of
the Dark, from beyond the grave. Which do you choose?” Suddenly
Ailhuin could move her head. She shook her gray curls, working her mouth. “I. .
. . I will hold my tongue,” she said dejectedly, then gave Nynaeve an
embarrassed, shamed look. “If I speak, what good will it do? A High Lord could
have my head by raising an eyebrow. What good can I do you, girl? What good?” “It is all
right,” Nynaeve said wearily. Who could
she tell? All she could do is
die. “I know you would help if you
could.” Rianna threw back her head and laughed. Ailhuin slumped, released
completely, but she only sat there, staring at her hands in her lap. Between them,
Liandrin and Rianna pulled Nynaeve to her feet and pushed her toward the front
of the house. “You give us any trouble,” the black‑haired woman said in a
hard voice, “and I will make you peel off your own skin and dance in your
bones.” Nynaeve almost
laughed. What trouble could I give? She was shielded from the
True Source. Her bruises ached so much she could barely stand. Anything she
might do, they could handle like a child’s tantrum. But my bruises will heal, burn you, and you’ll make a slip yet! And when you do . . . . There were
others in the front room of the house. Two big soldiers in rimmed, round
helmets and shiny breastplates over those puffy‑sleeved red coats. The
two men had sweat on their faces, and their dark eyes rolled as if they were as
afraid as she. Amico Nagoyin was there, slender and pretty with her long neck
and pale skin, locking as innocent as a girl gathering flowers. Joiya Byir had
a friendly face despite that smooth-cheeked calm of a woman who had worked
long with the Power, almost a grandmother’s face in its welcoming appearance,
though her age had put no touch of gray in her dark hair, any more than it had
wrinkled her skin. Her gray eyes looked more like those of the stepmother in
the stories, the one who murdered the children of her husband’s first wife.
Both women shone with the Power. Elayne stood
between the two Black sisters, with a bruised eye and a swollen cheek and a
split lip, one sleeve of her dress torn halfway off. “I am sorry, Nynaeve,” she
said thickly, as if her jaw hurt. “We never saw them until it was too late.” Egwene lay in a
crumpled heap on the floor, her face swollen with bruises, almost
unrecognizable. As Nynaeve and her escort came in, one of the big soldiers
hoisted Egwene over his shoulder. She dangled there as limply as a half‑empty
barley sack. “What did you
do to her?” Nynaeve demanded. “Burn you, what ‑ !” Something unseen
struck her across the mouth hard enough to make her eyes go blank for a moment. “Now, now,”
Joiya Byir said with a smile that her eyes belied. “I will not stand for demands,
or bad language. “ She sounded like a grandmother, too. “You speak when you are
spoken to.” “I told you the
girl, she would not stop fighting, yes?” Liandrin said. “Let it be a lesson to
you. If you try to cause any trouble, you will be treated no more gently.” Nynaeve ached
to do something for Egwene, but she let herself be pushed out into the street.
She made them push her; it was a small way of fighting back, refusing to
cooperate, but it was all she had at the moment. There were few
people in the muddy street, as if everyone had decided it was much better to be
somewhere else, and those few scurried by on the other side without a glance at
the shiny, black‑lacquered coach standing behind a team of six matched
whites with tall white plumes on their bridles. A coachman dressed like the
soldiers, but without armor or sword, sat on the seat, and another opened the
door as they appeared from the house. Before he did, Nynaeve saw the sigil
painted there. A silver-gauntleted fist clutching jagged lightning bolts. She supposed it
was High Lord Samon’s sign ‑ A Darkfriend,
he must be, if he deals with the
Black Ajah. The Light burn him! ‑
but she was more interested in the man who dropped to his knees in
the mud at their appearance. “Burn you, Sandar, why ‑ ?” She jumped as
something that felt like a stick of wood struck her across the shoulders. Joiya Byir
smiled chidingly and waggled a finger. “You will be respectful, child. Or you
might lose that tongue.” Liandrin
laughed. Tangling a hand in Sandar’s black hair, she wrenched his head back. He
stared up at her with the eyes of a faithful hound ‑ or of a cur
expecting a kick. “Do not be too hard on this man.” She even made “man” sound
like “dog.” “He had to be . . .persuaded . . . to serve. But I am very good at
persuading, no?” She laughed again. Sandar turned a
confused stare on Nynaeve. “I had to do it, Mistress Maryim. I . . . had to.”
Liandrin twisted his hair, and his eyes went back to her, the anxious hound’s
once more. Light! Nynaeve thought. What did they do to him? What are they going
to do to us? She and Elayne
were bundled roughly into the coach, with Egwene slumped between them, her head
lolling, and Liandrin and Rianna climbed in and took the seat facing forward.
The glow of saidar still surrounded
them. Where the others went, Nynaeve did not much care at that moment. She
wanted to reach Egwene, to touch her, to comfort her hurts, but she could not
move a muscle below her neck except to writhe. Flows of Air bound the three of
them like layers of tightly wrapped blankets. The coach lurched into motion,
swaying hard in the mud despite its leather springs. “If you have
hurt her . . . . ” Light, I can
see they’ve hurt her. Why don’t I say what I mean? But it was almost as
hard to force the words out as it would have been to lift a hand. “If you have
killed her, I won’t rest till you are all hunted down like wild dogs.” Rianna glared,
but Liandrin only sniffed. “Do not be a complete fool, wilder. You are wanted
alive. Dead bait will catch nothing.” Bait? For what? For who? “You are the fool, Liandrin! Do you
think we are here alone? Only three of us, and not even full Aes Sedai? We are
bait, Liandrin. And you have walked into the trap like a fat grouse.” “Do not tell
her that!” Elayne said sharply, and Nynaeve blinked before she realized Elayne
was helping her fabrication. “If you let your anger get the best of you, you
will tell them what they must not hear. They must take us inside the Stone.
They must - ” “Be quiet!”
Nynaeve snapped. “You are letting your tongue
run away with you!” Elayne managed to look abashed behind her bruises. Let them chew on that, Nynaeve thought. But Liandrin
only smiled. “Once your time as bait is done, you will tell us everything. You
will want to. They say you will be very strong one day, but I will make sure
you will always obey me, even before the Great Master Be’lal works his plans
for you. He is sending for Myrddraal. Thirteen of them.” Those rosebud lips
laughed the final words. Nynaeve felt
her stomach twist. One of the Forsaken! Her brain numbed with shock. The Dark One and all the Forsaken are bound
in Shayol Ghul, bound by the Creator in the moment of creation. But the
catechism did not help; she knew too well how much of it was false. Then the
rest of it came home to her. Thirteen Myrddraal. And thirteen sisters of the
Black Ajah. She heard Elayne screaming before she realized she was screaming
herself, jerking uselessly in those invisible bonds of Air. It was impossible
to say which was louder, their despairing screams, or the laughter from
Liandrin and Rianna. CHAPTER 52 In Search of a Remedy Slumped on the
stool in the gleeman’s room, Mat grimaced as Thom coughed again. How are we going to keep looking if he’s so
bloody sick he can’t walk? He was ashamed as soon as he thought it. Thom
had been as assiduous in searching as he had, pushing himself day and night,
when he had to know he was coming down sick. Mat had been so absorbed in his
‘hunt that he had paid too little attention to Thom’s coughing. The change from
constant rain to steamy heat had not helped it. “Come on,
Thom,” he said. “Lopar says there’s a Wise Woman not far. That is what they
call a Wisdom here ‑ a Wise Woman. Wouldn’t Nynaeve like that!” “I do not need
. . . any foul‑tasting . . . concoctions . . . poured down my throat,
boy.” Thom stuffed a fist through his mustaches in a vain attempt to stop his
hacking. “You go ahead looking. Just give me . . . a few hours . . . on my bed
. . . and I’ll join you.” The wracking wheezes doubled him over till his head
was almost on his knees. “So I am
supposed to do all the work while you take your ease?” Mat said lightly. “How
can I find anything without you? You learn most of what we hear.” That was not
exactly true; men talked as freely over dice as they did while buying a gleeman
a cup of wine. More freely than they did with a
gleeman hacking so hard they feared contagion. But he was beginning to think
that Thom’s cough was not going to go away by itself. If the old goat dies on me, who will I play stones with? he told
himself roughly. “Anyway, your bloody coughing keeps me awake even in the next
room.” Ignoring the
white‑haired man’s protests, he pulled Thom to his feet. He was shocked
at how much of the gleeman’s weight he had to support. Despite the damp heat,
Thom insisted on his patch‑covered cloak. Mat had his own coat unbuttoned
completely and all three ties of his shirt undone, but he let the old goat have
his way. No one in the common room even looked up as he half carried Thom out
into the muggy afternoon. The innkeeper
had given simple directions, but when they reached the gate, and faced the mud
of the Maule, Mat almost turned back to ask after another Wise Woman. There had
to be more than one in a city this size. Thom’s wheezing decided him. With a
grimace Mat stepped off into the mud, half carrying the gleeman. He had thought
from the directions that they must have passed the Wise Woman’s house on their
way up from the dock that first night, and when he saw the long, narrow house
with bunches of herbs hanging in the windows, right next to a potter’s shop, he
remembered it. Lopar had said something about going to the back door, but he
had had enough of mud. And the stink of fish, he thought,
frowning at the barefoot men squelching by with their baskets on their backs.
There were tracks of horses in the street, too, just beginning to be
obliterated by feet and ox‑carts. Horses pulling a wagon, or maybe a
carriage. He had seen nothing but oxen drawing carts or wagons either one in
Tear‑the nobles and the merchants were proud of their fine stock, and
never let one be put to anything like work‑but he had not seen any
carriages since leaving the walled city, either. Dismissing
horses and wheel tracks from his mind, he took Thom to the front door and
knocked. After a time he knocked
again. Then again. He was on the
point of giving up and returning to The White Crescent despite Thom coughing on
his shoulder when he heard shuffling footsteps inside. The door opened
barely more than a crack, and a stout, gray‑haired woman peered out.
“What do you want?” she asked in a tired voice. Mat put on his
best grin. Light, but I am getting sick
myself at all these people who sound like there’s no bloody hope. “Mother
Guenna? My name is Mat Cauthon. Cavan Lopar told me you might do something for
my friend’s cough. I can pay well.” She studied
them a moment, seemed to listen to Thom’s wheezes, then sighed. “I suppose I
can still do that, at least. You might as well come in.” She swung the door open
and was already plodding toward the back of the house before Mat moved. Her accent
sounded so much like the Amyrlin’s that he shivered, but he followed, all but
carrying Thom. “I don’t . . .
need this,” the gleeman wheezed. “Bloody mixtures . . . always taste like . . .
dung!” “Shut up,
Thom.” Leading them
all the way to the kitchen, the stout woman rummaged in one of the cupboards,
taking out small stone pots and packets of herbs while muttering to herself. Mat sat Thom
down in one of the high‑backed chairs, and glanced through the nearest
window. There were three good horses tied out back; he was surprised the Wise
Woman had more than one, or any for that matter. He had not seen anyone in Tear
riding except nobles and the wealthy, and these animals looked as if they had
cost more than a little silver. Horses
again. I don’t care about bloody horses now! Mother Guenna
brewed some sort of strong tea with a rank smell and forced it down Thom’s
throat, holding his nose when he tried to complain. Mat decided she had less
fat on her than he had thought, from the way she held the gleeman’s head steady
in the crook of one arm while she poured the black liquid into him no matter
how hard he tried to stop her. When she took
the cup away, Thom coughed and scrubbed at his mouth with equal vigor. “Gaaah!
Woman . . . I don’t know . . . whether you . . . mean to drown me . . . or kill
me . . . with the taste! You ought . . . to be a bloody . . . blacksmith!” “You will take
the same twice a day till that hacking is gone,” she said firmly. “And I have a
salve that you’ll rub on your chest every night.” Some of the weariness left
her voice as she confronted the gleeman, fists on her broad hips. “That salve
stinks as bad as this tea tastes, but you will rub it on ‑ thoroughly! ‑
or I’ll drag you upstairs like a scrawny carp in a net and tie you to a bed
with that cloak of yours! I never had a gleeman come to me before, and I’ll not
let the first one that does cough himself to death. “ Thom glowered
and blew out his mustaches with a cough, but he seemed to take her threat
seriously. At least, he did not say anything, but he looked as if he meant to
throw her tea and her salve right back at her. The more this
Mother Guenna talked, the more she sounded like the Amyrlin to Mat. From the
sour look on Thom’s face, and the steady stare on hers, he decided he had
better smooth matters over a little before the gleeman refused to take her
medicines. And she decided to make him. “I knew a woman once who talked like
you,” he said. “All fish and nets and things. Sounded like you, too. The same
accent, I mean. I suppose she’s Tairen.” “Perhaps.” The
gray‑haired woman suddenly sounded tired again, and she kept staring at
the floor. “I knew some girls with the sound of your speech on their tongues,
too. Two of them had it, anyway.” She sighed heavily. Mat felt his
scalp prickle. My luck can’t be
this good. But he would not bet a copper on two other women with Two Rivers
accents just happening to be in Tear. “Three girls? Young women? Named Egwene,
and Nynaeve, and Elayne? That one has hair like the sun, and blue eyes.” She frowned at
him. “Those were not the names they gave,” she said slowly, “yet I suspected
they did not give me their true names. But they had their reasons, I thought.
One of them was a pretty girl with bright blue eyes and red‑gold hair to
her shoulders.” She described Nynaeve with her braid to her waist and Egwene
with her big, dark eyes and ready smile, too. Three pretty women as different
from one another as they could be. “I see they are the ones you know,” she
finished. “I am sorry, boy.” “Why are you
sorry? I have been trying to find them for days!” Light, I walked right past this place the first night! Right past them!
I wanted random. What could be more random than where a ship docks on a rainy
night, and where you happen to look in a bloody lightning flash? Burn me! Burn
me! “Tell me where they are, Mother Guenna.” The gray‑haired woman stared wearily at the stove
where her spouted kettle was steaming. Her mouth worked, but she said nothing. “Where are
they?” Mat demanded. “It is important! They are in danger if I don’t find
them.” “You do not
understand,” she said softly. “You are an outlander. The High Lords . . . .” “I do not care
about any ‑ ” Mat blinked, and looked at Thom. The gleeman seemed to be
frowning, but he was coughing so hard, Mat could not be sure. “What do the High
Lords have to do with my friends?” “You just do
not ‑ ” “Don’t tell me
I do not understand! I will pay for the information!” Mother Guenna
glared at him. “I do not take money for . . . !” She grimaced fiercely. “You
ask me to tell you things I have been told not to speak of. Do you know what
will happen to me if I do and you breathe my name? I will lose my tongue, to
begin. Then I will lose other parts before the High Lords have what is left of
me hung up to scream its last hours as a reminder to others to obey. And it
will do those young women no good, not my telling or my dying!” “I promise I
will never mention your name to anyone. I swear it.” And I’ll keep that oath, old woman, if you only tell me where they bloody are! “Please? They are in
danger.” She studied him
for a long time; before she was done he had the feeling she knew every detail
of him. “On that oath, I will tell you. I . . . liked them. But you can do
nothing. You are too late, Matrim Cauthon. Too late by nearly three hours. They
have been taken to the Stone. The High Lord Samon sent for them.” She shook her
head in worried puzzlement. “He sent . . . women who . . . could channel. I
hold nothing against Aes Sedai myself, but that is against the law. The law the
High Lords made. If they break every other law, they would not break that one.
Why would a High Lord send Aes Sedai on his errands? Why would he want those
girls at all?” Mat almost
burst out laughing. “Aes Sedai? Mother Guenna, you had my heart in my throat,
and maybe my liver, too. If Aes Sedai came for them, there is nothing to worry
about. All three of them are going to be Aes Sedai themselves. Not that I like
it much, but that’s what they ‑ ” His grin faded at the heavy way she
shook her head. “Boy, those
girls fought like lionfish in a net. Whether they mean to be Aes Sedai or not,
those who took them treated. them like bilge pumpings. Friends do not give
bruises like that.” He felt his
face twisting. Aes Sedai hurt them? What
in the Light? The bloody Stone. It makes the Palace in Caemlyn look like
walking into a barnyard! Burn me! I stood right out there in the rain and
stared at this house! Burn me for a bloody Light‑blinded fool! “If you break
your hand,” Mother Guenna said, “I will splint and poultice it, but if you
damage my wall, I will strip your hide like a redfish!” He blinked,
then looked at his fist, at scraped knuckles. He did not even remember punching
the wall. The broad woman
took his hand in a strong grip, but the fingers she used to probe were
surprisingly gentle. “Nothing broken,” she grunted after a while. Her eyes were
just as gentle as she studied his face. “It seems you care for them. One of
them, at least, I suppose it is. I am sorry, Mat Cauthon. “ “Don’t be,” he
told her. “At least I know where they are, now. All I have to do is get them
out.” He fished out his last two Andoran gold crowns and pressed them into her
hand. “For Thom’s medicines, and for letting me know about the girls.” On
impulse, he gave her a quick kiss on the cheek and a grin. “And that’s for me.” Startled, she
touched her cheek, not seeming to know whether to look at the coins or at him.
“Get them out, you say. Just like that. Out of the Stone.” Abruptly she stabbed
him in the ribs with a finger as hard as a tree stub. “You remind me of my
husband, Mat Cauthon. He was a headstrong fool who would sail into the teeth of
a gale and laugh, too. I could almost think you’ll manage it.” Suddenly she saw
his muddy boots, apparently for the first time. “It took me six months to teach
him not to track mud into my house. If you do get those girls out, whichever of
them you have your eye on will have a hard time training you to make you fit to
be let inside.” “You are the
only woman who could do that,” he said with a grin that broadened at her glare.
Get them out. That’s all I have to do.
Bring them right out of the Stone of bloody Tear. Thom coughed again. He isn’t going into the Stone like that.
Only, how do I stop him? “Mother Guenna, can I leave my friend here? I
think he is too sick to go back to the inn.” “What?” Thom
barked. He tried to push himself out of the chair, coughing so he could hardly
speak. “I am no . . . such thing, boy! You think . . . walking into the Stone .
. . will be like . . . walking into your mother’s kitchen? You think you . . .
would make it . . . as far as the gates . . . without me?” He hung on the back
of the chair, his wheezing and hacking keeping him from rising more than
halfway to his feet. Mother Guenna
put a hand on his shoulder and pushed him back down as easily as a child. The
gleeman gave her a startled look. “I will take care of him, Mat Cauthon,” she
said. “No!” Thom
shouted. “You cannot . . . do this to me! You can’t . . . leave me . . . with
this old. . . .” Only her hand on his shoulder kept him from doubling over. Mat grinned at
the white‑haired man. “I have enjoyed knowing you, Thom.” As he hurried
out into the street, he found himself wondering why he had said that. He isn’t going to bloody die. That woman
will keep him alive if she has to drag him kicking and screaming out of his
grave by his mustaches. Yes, but who is going to keep me alive? Ahead of him,
the Stone of Tear loomed over the city, impregnable, a fortress besieged a
hundred times, a stone on which a hundred armies had broken their teeth. And he
had to get inside, somehow. And bring out three women. Somehow. With a laugh
that made even the sullen folk in the street look at him, he headed back for
The White Crescent, uncaring of mud or the damp heat. He could feel the dice
tumbling inside his head. CHAPTER 53 A Flow of the Spirit Perrin shrugged
into his coat as he walked back toward the Star through the evening shadows. A
good tiredness soaked through his arms and shoulders; along with more common
work, Master Ajala had had him make a large piece of ornamental work, all
elaborate curves and scrolls, to go on some country lord’s new gate. He had enjoyed
making something so pretty. “I thought his
eyes would come out of his face, blacksmith, when you said you would not make
that thing if it was for a High Lord.” He glanced
sideways at Zarine, walking beside him, the shadows masking her face. Even for
his eyes, the shadows were there, just fainter than they would have been for
another’s. They emphasized her high cheekbones, softened the strong curve of
her nose. He just could not make up his mind about her. Even if Moiraine and
Lan still insisted they stay close to the inn, he wished she could find
something else to do besides watch him work. For some reason, he had found
himself growing awkward whenever he thought of her tilted eyes on him. More
than once he had fumbled with his hammer till Master Ajala frowned at him
wonderingly. Girls had always been able to make him feel awkward especially
when they smiled at him, but Zarine did not have to smile. Only look. He
wondered again if she was the beautiful woman Min had warned him against. Better if she is the falcon. That
thought surprised him so much that he stumbled. “I did not want
anything I make to get into the hands of one of the Forsaken.” His eyes glowed
golden as he looked at her. “If it was for a High Lord, how could I tell where
it might end?” She shivered. “I did not mean to frighten you, Fai ‑ ,
Zarine.” She smiled
broadly, no doubt thinking he could not see her. “You will fall yet, farmboy.
Have you ever thought of wearing a beard?” It is bad enough she’s always mocking me, but half the time I do not even
understand her! As they reached
the front door of the inn, Moiraine and Lan met them, coming the other way.
Moiraine wore that linen cloak with the wide, deep hood that hid her face.
Light from the common‑room windows made yellow pools on the paving
stones. Two or three carriages rumbled past, and there were perhaps a dozen
people in sight, hurrying home for their suppers, but for the most part,
shadows populated the street. The weaver’s shop was closed tight. The silence
was deafening. “Rand is in
Tear.” The Aes Sedai’s cool voice issued from the depths of her hood as from a
cavern. “Are you sure?”
Perrin asked. “I have not heard of anything strange happening. No weddings, or
wells drying up.” He saw Zarine frown in confusion. Moiraine had not been
forthcoming with her, and neither had he. Keeping Loial’s tongue silent had
been more difficult. “Don’t you
listen to rumors, blacksmith?” the Warder said. “There have been marriages, as
many in the last four days as in half a year before. And as many murders as in
a whole year. A child fell from a tower balcony today. A hundred paces onto
stone paving. She got up and ran to her mother without a bruise. The First of
Mayene, a ‘guest’ in the Stone since before the winter, announced today that
she will submit to the will of the High Lords, after saying yesterday she would
see Mayene and all its ships burn before one Tairen country lord set foot in
the city. They had not brought themselves to torture her, and that young woman
has a will like iron, so you tell me if you think it might be Rand’s doing.
Blacksmith, from top to bottom, Tear bubbles like a cauldron.” “These things
were not needed to tell me,” Moiraine said. “Perrin, did you dream of Rand,
last night?” “Yes,” he
admitted. “He was in the Heart of the Stone, holding that sword” ‑ he
felt Zarine shift beside him ‑ “but I have been worrying about that so
much it is no wonder I dream of it. I had nothing but nightmares last night.” “A tall man?”
Zarine said. “With reddish hair and gray eyes? Holding something that shines so
brightly it hurts your eyes? In a place that is all great redstone columns?
Blacksmith, tell me that was not your dream. “ “You see,”
Moiraine said. “I have heard this dream spoken of a hundred times today. They
all speak of nightmares ‑ Be’lal apparently does not care to shield his
dreams ‑ but that one above all else.” She laughed suddenly, like low,
cool chimes. “People say he is the Dragon Reborn. They say he is coming. They
whisper it fearfully in corners, but they say it.” “And what of
Be’lal?” Perrin asked. Moiraine’s
reply was cold‑drawn steel. “I will deal with him tonight.” There was no
fear scent from her. “We will deal with him tonight,” Lan told her. “Yes, my
Gaidin. We will deal with him.” “And what do we
do? Sit here and wait? I had enough waiting to last me a lifetime in the
mountains, Moiraine.” “You and Loial ‑
and Zarine ‑ will go to Tar Valon,” she told him. “Until this is done. It
will be the safest place for you.” “Where is the
Ogier?” Lan said. “I want all three of you on your way north as soon as
possible.” “Upstairs, I
suppose,” Perrin said. “In his room, or maybe the dining room. There are lights
in the windows up there. He is always working on those notes of his. I suppose
he will have plenty to say in his book about us running away.” He was surprised
at the bitterness in his voice. Light,
fool, do you want to face one of the Forsaken? No. No, but I am tired of
running. I remember not running, once. I remember fighting back, and it was
better. Even if I thought I was going to die, it was better. “I will find
him,” Zarine announced. “I have no shame in admitting I will be glad enough to
run from this fight. Men fight when they should run, and fools fight when they
should run. But I had no need to say it twice.” She strode ahead of them, her
narrow, divided skirts making small whisking noises as they entered the inn. Perrin glanced
around the common room as they followed her toward the stairs in the back.
There were fewer men at the tables than he expected. Some sat alone, with dull
eyes, but where two or three sat together they talked in frightened whispers
his ears could barely catch. Even so, he heard “Dragon” three times. As he reached
the top of the stairs, he heard another soft sound, a thump as of something
falling in the private dining room. He peered that way along the hall.
“Zarine?” There was no answer. He felt the hair on the back of his neck shift,
and padded that way. “Zarine?” He pushed open the door. “Faile!” She was lying
on the floor near the table. As he started to rush into the room, Moiraine’s
commanding shout halted him. “Stop, you
fool! Stop, for your life!” She came along the hallway slowly, head turning as
if she were listening for something, or searching for something. Lan followed
with his hand on his sword ‑ and a look in his eye as if he already knew
steel would do no good. She came abreast of the door and stopped. “Move back,
Perrin. Move back!” In agony he
stared at Zarine. At Faile. She lay there as if lifeless. Finally he made
himself step back from the door, leaving it open, standing where he could see
her. She looked as if she were dead. He could not see her chest stir. He wanted
to howl. Frowning, he worked his hand, the one he had used to push the door
into the room, opening and closing his fingers. It tingled sharply, as if he
had struck his elbow. “Aren’t you going to do anything, Moiraine? If you will
not, I am going to her.” “Stand still or
you will go nowhere,” she said calmly. “What is that by her right hand? As if
it dropped from her grip when she fell. I cannot make it out.” He glared at
her, then peered into the room. “A hedgehog. It looks like a hedgehog carved
out of wood. Moiraine, tell me what is going on! What has happened? Tell me!” “A hedgehog,”
she murmured. “A hedgehog. Be silent, Perrin. I must think. I felt it trigger.
I can sense the residues of the flows woven to set it. Spirit. Pure Spirit, and
nothing else. Almost nothing uses pure flows of Spirit! Why does that hedgehog
make me think of Spirit?” “You felt what
trigger, Moiraine? What was set? A trap?” “Yes, a trap,”
she said, irritation making tiny cracks in her cool serenity. “A trap meant
for me. I would have been first into that room if Zarine had not rushed ahead.
Lan and I would surely have gone there to plan and wait for supper. I will not
wait on supper now. Be quiet, if you wish me to help the girl at all. Lan!
Bring me that innkeeper!” The Warder flowed away down the stairs. Moiraine paced
up and down in the hall, sometimes stopping to peer through the door from the
depths of her hood. Perrin could see no sign that Zarine lived. Her breast did
not stir. He tried listening for her heartbeat, but even for his ears it was
impossible. When Lan
returned, shoving a frightened Jurah Hater ahead of him by the scruff of his
fat neck, the Aes Sedai rounded on the balding man. “You promised to keep this
room for me, Master Haret.” Her voice was as hard, as precise, as a skinning
knife. “To allow not even a serving woman to enter to clean unless I was
present. Who did you let enter it, Master Haret? Tell me!” Haret shook
like a bowl of pudding. “O‑only the t‑two Ladies, mistress. T‑they
w‑wished to leave a surprise for you. I swear, mistress. T‑they
showed it t‑to me. A little h‑hedgehog. T‑they said you w‑would
be surprised. “ “I was
surprised, innkeeper,” she said softly. “Leave me! And if you whisper a word of
this, even in your sleep, I will pull this inn down and leave only a hole in
the ground.” “Y‑yes,
mistress,” he whispered. “I swear it! I do swear! “Go!” The innkeeper
fell to his knees in his haste to reach the stairs, and went scrambling down
with thumps that suggested he fell more than once as he ran. “He knows I am
here,” Moiraine told the Warder, “and he has found someone of the Black Ajah to
set his trap, yet perhaps he thinks I am caught in it. It was a tiny flash of
the Power, but perhaps he is strong enough to have sensed it.” “Then he will
not suspect we are coming,” Lan said quietly. He almost smiled. Perrin stared
at them, his teeth bared. “What about her?” he demanded. “What was done to
her, Moiraine? Is she alive? I cannot see her breathe!” “She is alive,”
Moiraine said slowly. “I cannot, I dare not, go close enough to her to tell
much beyond that, but she is alive. She . . . sleeps, in a way. As a bear
sleeps in the winter. Her heart beats so slowly you could count minutes
between. Her breathing is the same. She sleeps.” Even from within that hood, he
could feel her eyes on him. “I fear she is not there, Perrin. Not in her body
any longer.” “What do you
mean she is not in her body? Light! You don’t mean they . . . took her soul.
Like the Gray Men!” Moiraine shook her head, and he drew a relieved breath. His
chest hurt as if he had not breathed since she last spoke. “Then where is she,
Moiraine?” “I do not
know,” she said. “I have a suspicion, but I do not know.” “A suspicion, a
hint, anything! Burn me, where?” Lan shifted at the roughness in his voice, but
he knew he would try to break the Warder like iron over a hardy if the man
tried to stop him. “Where?” “I know very
little, Perrin.” Moiraine’s voice was like cold, unfeeling music. “I have
remembered the little I know of what connects a carved hedgehog with Spirit.
The carving is a ter’angreal last
studied by Corianin Nedeal, the last Dreamer the Tower had. The Talent called
Dreaming is a thing of Spirit, Perrin. It is not a thing I have ever studied;
my Talents lie in other ways. I believe that Zarine has been trapped inside a
dream, perhaps even the World of Dreams, Tel’aran’rhiod.
All that is her is inside that dream. All. A Dreamer sends only a part of
herself. If Zarine does not return soon, her body will die. Perhaps she will
live on in the dream. I do not know.” “There is too
much you don’t know,” Perrin muttered. He peered into the room and wanted to
cry. Zarine looked so small, lying there, so helpless. Faile. I swear I will only call you Faile, ever again. “Why don’t
you do something!” “The trap has
been sprung, Perrin, but it is a trap that will still catch anyone who steps
into that room. I would not reach her side before it took me. And I have work I
must do tonight.” “Burn you, Aes
Sedai! Burn your work! This World of Dreams? Is it like the wolf dreams? You
said these Dreamers sometimes saw wolves.” “I have told
you what I can,” she said sharply. “It is time for you to go. Lan and I must be
on our way to the Stone. There can be no waiting, now. “ “No.” He said
it quietly, but when Moiraine opened her mouth, he raised his voice. “No! I
will not leave her!” The Aes Sedai
took a deep breath. “Very well, Perrin. “ Her voice was ice; calm, smooth,
cold. “Remain if you wish. Perhaps you will survive this night. Lan!” She and the
Warder strode down the hall to their rooms. In moments they returned, Lan
wearing his color‑changing cloak, and vanished down the stairs without
another word to him. He stared
through the open door at Faile. I have to
do something. If it is like the wolf dreams . . . . “Perrin,” came
Loial’s deep rumble, “what is this about Faile?” The Ogier came striding down
the hall in his shirtsleeves, ink on his fingers and a pen in his hand. “Lan
told me I had to go, and then he said something about Faile, in a trap. What
did he mean?” Distractedly,
Perrin told him what Moiraine had said. It
might work. It might. It has to! He
was surprised when Loial growled. “No! Perrin, it
is not right! Faile was so free. It is not right to trap her!” Perrin peered
up at Loial’s face, and suddenly remembered the old stories that claimed Ogier
were implacable enemies. Loial’s ears had laid back along the sides of his
head, and his broad face was as hard as an anvil. “Loial, I am
going to try to help Faile. But I will be helpless myself while I do. Will you
guard my back?” Loial raised
those huge hands that held books so carefully, and his thick fingers curled as
if to crush stone. “None will pass me while I live, Perrin. Not Myrddraal or
the Dark One himself.” He said it like a simple statement of fact. Perrin nodded,
and looked through the door again. It has
to work. I don’t care if Min warned me against her or not! With a snarl he
leaped toward Faile, stretching out his hand. He thought he touched her ankle
before he was gone. Whether this
dream of the trap was Tel’aran’rhiod or
not, Perrin did not know, but he knew it for the wolf dream. Rolling, grassy
hills surrounded him, and scattered thickets. He saw deer browsing at the edges
of the trees, and a herd of some sort of running animal bounding across the
grass, like brown‑striped deer, but with long, straight horns. The smells
on the wind told him they were good to eat, and other scents spoke of more good
hunting all around him. This was the wolf dream. He was wearing
the blacksmith’s long leather vest, he realized, with his arms bare. And there
was a weight at his side. He touched the axe belt, but it was not the axe
hanging from its loop. He ran his fingers over the head of the heavy smith’s
hammer. It felt right. Hopper alighted
in front of him. Again you come, like a fool. The sending
was of a cub sticking its nose into a hollow tree trunk to lap honey despite
the bees stinging its muzzle and eyes. The
danger is greater than ever, Young Bull. Evil things walk the dream. The
brothers and sisters avoid the mountains of stone the two‑legs pile up,
and almost fear to dream to one another. You must go! “No,” Perrin said. “Faile is here, somewhere, trapped. I have to find
her, Hopper. I have to!” He felt a shifting inside him, something changing. He
looked down at his curly‑haired legs, his wide paws. He was an even
larger wolf than Hopper. You are here too strongly! Every sending
carried shock. You will die, Young
Bull! If I do not free the falcon, I do not care,
brother. Then we hunt, brother. Noses to the
wind, the two wolves ran across the plain, seeking the falcon. CHAPTER 54 Into the Stone The rooftops of
Tear were no place for a sensible man to be in the night, Mat decided as he
peered into the moon shadows. A little more than fifty paces of broad street,
or perhaps narrow plaza, separated the Stone from his tiled roof, itself three
stories above the paving stones. But when
was I ever sensible? The only people I ever met who were sensible all the time
were so boring that watching them could put you to sleep. Whether the thing
was a street or a plaza, he had followed it all the way around the Stone since
nightfall; the only place it did not go was on the river side, where the Erinin
ran right along the foot of the fortress, and nothing interrupted it except the
city wall. That wall was only two houses to his right. So far, the top of the wall
seemed the best path to the Stone, but not one he would be overjoyed to take. Picking up his
quarterstaff and a small, wire‑handled tin box, he moved carefully to a
brick chimney a little nearer the wall. The roll of fireworks ‑ what had
been the roll of fireworks before he worked on it back in his room ‑
shifted on his back. It was more of a bundle, now, all jammed together as tight
as he could make it, but still too big for carrying around rooftops in the
dark. Earlier, a slip of his foot because of the thing had sent a roof tile
skittering over the edge, and roused the man sleeping in a room below to bellow
“thief?” and send him running. He hitched the bundle back into position without
thinking about it, and crouched in the shadows of the chimney. After a moment
he set the tin box down; the wire handle was beginning to grow uncomfortably
warm. It felt a
little safer, studying the Stone from the shadows, but not much more
encouraging. The city wall was not nearly as thick as those he had seen in
other places, in Caemlyn or Tar Valon, no more than a pace wide, supported by
great stone buttresses cloaked in darkness, now. A pace was more than
sufficient width for walking, of course, except that the fall to either side
was nearly ten spans. Through the dark, to hard pavement. But some of these bloody houses back right up against it, I can make it
to the top easily enough, and it bloody runs straight to the bloody Stone! It did that,
but that was no particular comfort. The sides of the Stone looked like cliffs.
Eyeing the height again, he told himself he should be able to climb it. Of course, I can. Just like those cliffs in the
Mountains of Mist. Over a hundred paces straight up before there was a
battlement. There must be arrowslits lower down, but he could not make them out
in the night. And he could not squeeze through an arrowslit. A hundred bloody paces. Maybe a hundred and
twenty. Burn me, even Rand would not try to climb that. But it was the one
way in he had found. Every gate he had seen had been shut tight and looked
strong enough to stop a herd of bulls, not to mention the dozen or so soldiers
guarding very nearly every last one, in helmets and breastplates, and swords at
their belts. Suddenly he
blinked, and squinted at the side of the Stone. There was some fool climbing it, just visible as a moving shadow in the
moonlight, and over halfway up already, with a drop of seventy paces to the
pavement under his feet. Fool, is he?
Well, I’m as big a one, because I am going up, too. Burn me, he’ll probably raise
an alarm in there and get me caught. He could not see the climber anymore. Who
in the Light is he? What does it
matter who he is? Burn me, but this is a
bloody way to win a wager. I’m going to want a kiss from all of them, even
Nynaeve! He shifted to
peer toward the wall, trying to choose his spot to climb, and suddenly there
was steel across his throat. Without thinking, he knocked it away and swept the
man’s feet out from under him with his staff. Someone else kicked his own feet
away and he fell almost on top of the man he had knocked down. He rolled off
onto the roof tiles, loosing the bundle of fireworks ‑ If that falls into the street, I’ll break their
necks! ‑ staff whirling; he felt it strike flesh, and a second time,
heard grunts. Then there were two blades at his throat. He froze, arms
outflung. The points of short spears, dull so they hardly caught the faint
light of the moon at all, pressed into his flesh just short of bringing blood.
His eyes followed them up to the faces of whoever was holding them, but their
heads were shrouded, their faces veiled in black except for their eyes, staring
at him. Burn me, I have to run into real
thieves! What happened to my luck? He put on a
grin, with plenty of teeth so they could see it in the moonlight. “I do not
mean to trouble you in your work, so if you let me go my way, I’ll let you go
yours and say nothing.” The veiled men did not move, and neither did their
spears. “I want no more outcry than you. I’ll not betray you.” They stood like
statues, staring down at him. Burn me, I
do not have time for this. Time to toss the dice. For a chilling moment he
thought the words in his head had been strange. He tightened his grip on the
quarterstaff, lying out to one side of him ‑ and almost cried out when
someone stepped hard on his wrist. He rolled his
eyes to see who. Burn me for a fool, I
forgot the one I fell on. But he saw another shape moving behind the one
standing on his wrist, and decided maybe it was as well he had not managed to
bring the staff into use after all. It was a soft
boot, laced to the knee, that rested on his arm: It tugged at his memory.
Something about a man met in mountains. He eyed the night‑cloaked shape
the rest of the way up, trying to make out the cut and colors of his clothes ‑
they seemed all shadow, colors that blended with the darkness too well to see
them clearly ‑ past a long‑bladed knife at the fellow’s waist,
right up to the dark veil across his face. A blackveiled face. Black‑veiled. Aiel! Burn me, what are bloody Aiel doing here!
He had a sinking feeling in his stomach as he remembered hearing that Aiel
veiled themselves when they killed. “Yes,” said a
man’s voice, “we are Aiel.” Mat gave a start; he had not realized he had spoken
aloud. “You dance well
for one caught by surprise,” a young woman’s voice said. He thought she was the
one standing on his wrist. “Perhaps another day I will have time to dance with
you properly.” He started to
smile ‑ If she wants to dance, they can’t be going to kill me, at
least! ‑ then frowned instead. He seemed to remember Aiel sometimes
meant something different when they said that. The spears were
pulled back, and hands hauled him to his feet. He shook them away and brushed
himself off as if he were standing in a common room instead of on a night‑cloaked
rooftop with four Aiel. It always paid to let the other man know you had a
steady nerve. The Aiel had quivers at their waists as well as knives, and more
of those short spears on their backs with cased bows, the long spear points
sticking up above their shoulders. He heard himself humming “I’m Down at the
Bottom of the Well,” and stopped it. “What do you do
here?” the man’s voice asked. With the veils, Mat was not entirely sure which
one had spoken; the voice sounded older, confident, used to command. He thought
he could pick out the woman, at least; she was the only one shorter than he,
and that not by much. The others all stood a head taller than he or more. Bloody
Aiel, he thought. “We have watched you for some little time,” the
older man went on, “watched you watch the Stone. You have studied it from every
side. Why?” “I could ask
the same of all of you,” another voice said. Mat was the only one who gave a
start as a man in baggy breeches stepped out of the shadows. The fellow
appeared to be shoeless, for better footing on the tiles. “I expected to find
thieves, not Aiel,” the man went on, “but do not think your numbers frighten
me.” A slim staff no taller than his head made a blur and a hum as he whirled
it. “My name is Juilin Sandar, and I am a thief‑catcher, and I would know
why you are on the rooftops, staring at the Stone.” Mat shook his
head. How many bloody people are
on the roofs tonight? All that was needed was for Thom to appear and play
his harp, or someone to come looking for an inn. A bloody thief‑taker! He wondered why the Aid were just
standing there. “You stalk
well, for a city man,” the older man’s voice said. “But why do you follow us?
We have stolen nothing. Why have you looked so often at the Stone tonight
yourself?” “’ Even in the
moonlight this Sandar’s surprise was evident. He gave a start, opened his mouth
‑ and closed it again as four more Aiel rose out of the dimness behind
him. With a sigh, he leaned on his slender staff. “It seems I am caught
myself,” he muttered. “It seems I must answer your questions.” He peered toward the Stone, then shook his head.
“I . . . did a thing today that . . . troubles me.” He sounded almost as though
he were talking to himself, trying to puzzle it out. “Part of me says it was
right, what I did, that I must obey. Surely, it seemed right when I did it. But
a small voice tells me I . . . betrayed something. I am certain this voice is
wrong, and it is very small, but it will not stop.” He stopped then himself,
shaking his head again. One of the Aid
nodded, and spoke with the older man’s voice. “I am Rhuarc, of the Nine Valleys
sept of the Taardad Aid, and once I was Aethan
Dor, a Red Shield. Sometimes the Red Shields do as your thief-catchers do.
I say this so you will understand that I know what it is you do, and the kind
of man you must be. I mean no harm to you, Juilin Sandar of the thief‑catchers,
nor to the people of your city, but you will not be suffered to raise the
armcry. If you will keep silence, you will live; if not, not.” “You mean no
harm to the city,” Sandar said slowly. “Why are you here, then?” “The Stone.”
Rhuarc’s tone made it plain that was all he meant to say. After a moment
Sandar nodded, and muttered, “I could almost wish you had the power to harm the
Stone, Rhuarc. I will hold my tongue.” Rhuarc turned
his veiled face to Mat. “And you, nameless youngling? Will you tell me now why
you watch the Stone so closely?” “I just wanted
a walk in the moonlight,” Mat said lightly. The young woman put her spearpoint
to his throat again; he tried not to swallow. Well, maybe I can tell them something of it. He must not let them
know he was shaken; if you let the other fellow know that, you lost whatever
edge you might have. Very carefully, with two fingers, he moved her steel away
from him. It seemed to him that she laughed softly. “Some friends of mine are
inside the Stone,” he said, trying to sound casual. “Prisoners. I mean to bung
them out.” “Alone,
nameless one?” Rhuarc said. “Well, there
doesn’t seem to be anyone else,” Mat said dryly. “Unless you care to help? You
seem interested in the Stone yourself. If you mean to go into it, perhaps we
could go together. It is a tight roll of the dice any way you look at it, but
my luck runs good.” So far,
anyway. I’ve run into black‑veiled Aiel
and they have not cut my throat; luck
cannot get much better than that. Burn me, it would not be bad to have a few Aiel along with me in there. “You could do worse than betting on my
luck.” “We are not
here for prisoners, gambler,” Rhuarc said. “It is time,
Rhuarc.” Mat could not tell from which of the Aiel that came, but Rhuarc
nodded. “Yes, Gaul.” He
looked from Mat to Sandar and back. “Do not give the armcry.” He turned away,
and in two steps he had blended into the night. Mat gave a
start. The other Aid were gone, too, leaving him alone with the thief‑taker.
Unless they left somebody to watch us.
Burn me, how could I tell if they did? “I hope you don’t mean to try
stopping me, either,” he told Sandar as he slung the bundle of fireworks on his
back again and picked up his quarterstaff. “I mean to go inside, by you or
through you, one way or the other.” He went over to the chimney to pick up the
tin box; the wire handle was more than warm, now. “These friends
of yours,” Sandar said. “They are three women?” Mat frowned at
him, wishing there was enough light to show the man’s face clearly. The
fellow’s voice sounded odd. “What do you know of them?” “I know they
are inside the Stone. And I know a small gate near the river where a thief‑catcher
can gain entrance with a prisoner, to take him to the cells. The cells where
they must be. If you will trust me, gambler, I can take us that far. What
happens after that is up to chance. Perhaps your luck will bring us out again
alive.” “I have always
been lucky,” Mat said slowly. Do I feel
lucky enough to trust him? He did not much like the idea of pretending to
be a prisoner; it seemed too easy for pretense to become reality. But it seemed
no bigger risk than trying to climb three hundred feet or more straight up in
the dark. He glanced
toward the city wall, and stared. Shadows flowed along it; dim shapes trotting.
Aiel, he was sure. There must have been over a hundred. They vanished, but now
he could make out shadows moving on the cliff face that was the sheer side of
the Stone of Tear. So much for going up that way. That one fellow earlier might
have made it inside without raising an alarm ‑ Rhuarc’s armcry ‑
but a hundred or more Aiel would have to be like sounding bells. They might
make a diversion, though. If they caused a commotion somewhere up there, inside
the Stone, then whoever was guarding the cells might not pay as much attention
to a thief‑taker bringing a thief. I might as well add a little to the
confusion. I worked hard enough on it. “Very well,
thief‑taker. Just don’t decide I am a real prisoner at the last minute.
We can start for your gate as soon as I stir the anthill a bit.” He thought
Sandar frowned, but he did not mean to tell the man more than he had to. Sandar followed
him across the rooftops, climbing to higher levels as easily as he did. The
last roof was only a little lower than the top of the wall and ran right up to
it, a matter of pulling himself up rather than climbing. “What are you
doing?” Sandar whispered. “Wait here for
me.” With the tin
box dangling from one hand by its wire handle and his quarterstaff held
horizontally in front of him, Mat took a deep breath and started toward the
Stone. He tried not to think of how far it was to the pavement below. Light, the bloody thing is three feet wide!
I could walk it with a bloody blindfold, in my sleep! Three feet wide, in
the dark, and better than fifty feet to the pavement. He tried not to think
about Sandar not being there when he came back, either. He was all but
committed to this fool notion of pretending to be a thief caught by the man,
but it seemed all too probable that he would return to the roof to find Sandar
gone, maybe bringing more men to make him a prisoner in truth. Don’t think about it. just do the job at
hand. At least I’ll finally see what it is like. As he had
suspected, there was an arrowslit in the wall of the Stone right at the end of
the wall, a deep wedge cut into the rock holding a tall, narrow opening for an
archer to shoot through. If the Stone were attacked, the soldiers inside would
want some way to stop any trying to follow this path. The slit was dark, now.
There did not appear to be anyone watching. That was something he had tried not
to think about, too. Quickly he set
down the tin box at his feet, balanced his quarterstaff across the wall right
against the side of the Stone, and unslung the bundle from his back. Hurriedly
he wedged it into the slit, forcing it in as far as he could; he wanted as much
of the noise to be inside as he could manage. Pulling aside a corner of the
oiled cloth cover revealed knotted fuses. After a little thinking, back in his
room, he had cut the longer fuses to match the shortest, using the pieces to
help tie all the fuses together. It seemed they should all go off at once, and
a bang‑and‑flash like that should be enough to pull everyone who
was not completely deaf. The lid of the
tin box was hot enough that he had to blow on his fingers twice before he could
pry it off ‑ he wished he had whatever Aludra’s trick had been, lighting
that lantern so easily ‑ to expose the dark bit of charcoal inside, lying
on a bed of sand. The wire handle came off to make tongs, and a little blowing
had the coal glowing red again. He touched the hot coal to the knotted fuses,
let tongs and coal fall over the side of the wall as the fuses hissed into
flame, snatched up his quarterstaff and darted back along the wall. This is crazy,
he thought as he ran. I don’t care
how big a bang it makes. I could break my fool neck doing thi‑! The roar behind
him was louder than anything he had ever heard in his life; a monstrous fist
punched him in the back, knocking all the wind out of him even before he
landed, sprawled on his belly on the wall top, barely holding on to his staff
as it swung over the edge. For a moment he lay there, trying to make his lungs
work again, trying not to think how he must
have used up all his luck this time by not falling off the wall. His ears
rang like all the bells in Tar Valon. Pushing himself
up carefully, he looked back toward the Stone. A cloud of smoke hung around the
arrowslit. Behind the smoke, the shadowed shape of the arrowslit itself seemed
different. Larger. He did not understand how or why, but it did seem larger. He only thought
for a moment. At one end of the wall Sandar might be waiting, might be
intending to take him into the Stone as a pretend prisoner ‑ or might be
hurrying back with soldiers. At the other end of the wall, there might be a way
inside without any chance of Sandar betraying him. He darted back the way he
had just come, no longer worrying about the darkness or the drop to either
side. The arrowslit
was larger, most of the thinner stone at the middle simply gone, leaving a
rough hole as if someone had hammered at it with a sledge for hours. A hole
just big enough for a man. How in the
Light? There was no time for wondering. He pushed
through the jagged opening, coughing at the acrid smoke, jumped to the floor
inside, and had run a dozen steps before Defenders of the Stone appeared, at
least ten of them, all shouting in confusion. Most wore only their shirts, and
none had helmet or breastplate. Some carried lanterns. Some held bared swords. Fool! he
shouted inside his head. This is why you
set the bloody things off in the first place! Light‑blinded fool! He had no time
to make it back out onto the wall. Quarterstaff spinning, he threw himself at
the soldiers before they had a chance to do more than see he was there, hurled
himself into them, smashing at heads, swords, knees, whatever he could reach,
knowing they were too many for him to handle alone, knowing that his fool toss
of the dice had cost Egwene and the others whatever chance he might have had. Suddenly Sandar
was there beside him, in the light of lanterns dropped by men clawing for their
swords, his slender staff whirling even faster than Mat’s quarterstaff. Caught
between two staffmen, taken by surprise, the soldiers went down like pins in a
game of bowls. Sandar stared
at the fallen men, shaking his head. “Defenders of the Stone. I have attacked
Defenders! They will have my head for ‑ ! What was it that you did,
gambler? That flash of light, and thunder, breaking stone. Did you call
lightning?” His voice fell to a whisper. “Have I joined myself to a man who can
channel?” “Fireworks,”
Mat said curtly. His ears were still ringing, but he could hear more boots
coming, running boots thudding on stone. “The cells, man! Show me the way to
the cells before any more get here!” Sandar shook
himself. “This way!” He dashed down a side hall, away from the oncoming boots.
“We must hurry! They will kill us if they find us!” Somewhere above, gongs
began to sound an alarm, and more thundered echoes through the Stone. I’m coming, Mat thought as he ran after
the thief‑taker. I’ll get
you out or die! I promise it! The alarm gongs
sent echoes crashing through the Stone, but Rand paid no more attention to them
than he had to the roar that had come before, like muffled thunder from
somewhere below. His side ached; the old wound burned, strained almost to
tearing by the climb up the side of the fortress. He gave the pain no heed,
either. A crooked smile was fixed on his face, a smile of anticipation and
dread he could not have wiped away if he had wanted to. It was close, now. What
he had dreamed of. Callandor. I will finish it at last. One way or
another, it will be done with. The dreams, finished. The baiting, and the
taunting, and the hunting. I’ll finish it all! Laughing to
himself, he hurried through the dark corridors of the Stone of Tear. Egwene put a
hand to her face, wincing. Her mouth had a bitter taste, and she was thirsty. Rand? What? Why was I dreaming about Mat again, all mixed with
Rand, and shouting that he was coming? What? She opened her eyes, stared at the gray stone walls, one
smoky rush torch casting flickering shadows, and screamed as she remembered it
all. “No! I will not be chained again! I won’t be collared! No!” Nynaeve and
Elayne were beside her in an instant, their bruised faces too worried and
fearful for the soothing sounds they made to be believed. But just the
fact that they were there was enough to still her screams. She was not alone. A
prisoner, but not alone. And not collared. She tried to
sit up, and they helped her. They had to help her; she ached in every muscle.
She could remember every unseen blow during the frenzy that had all but driven
her mad when she realized . . . . I will not think about that. I have to think about how we are to escape. She
slid backwards until she could lean against a wall. Her pains fought with
weariness; that struggle when she had refused to give in had taken every last
scrap of her strength, and the bruises seemed to sap even more. The cell was
absolutely empty except for the three of them and the torch. The floor was
bare, and cold, and hard. The door of rough planks, splintered as if countless
futile fingers had clawed at it, was the only break in the walls. Messages had
been scratched in the stone, most by unsteady hands. The Light have mercy and
let me die, one read. She blanked that out of her head. “Are we still
shielded?” she mumbled. Even talking hurt. Even as Elayne nodded, she realized
she had not had to ask. The swollen cheek on the golden‑haired woman, her
split lip and black eye, were answer enough, even if her own pains had not
been. If Nynaeve had been able to reach the True Source, they surely would have
been Healed. “I have tried,”
Nynaeve said despairingly. “I have tried, and tried, and tried.” She gave her
braid a sharp tug, anger seeping through despite the hopeless fear in her
voice. “One of them is sitting outside. Amico, that milk‑faced chit, if
they have not changed since we were thrown in here. I suppose one is enough to
maintain the shielding once it has been woven.” She barked a bitter laugh. “For
all the pains they took‑and gave!‑to take us, you would think we
were of no importance at all. It has been hours since they slammed that door
behind us, and no one has come to ask a question, or look, or even bring a drop
of water. Perhaps they mean to leave us here until we die of thirst.” “Bait.”
Elayne’s voice quavered, though she was obviously trying to sound unafraid. And
failing miserably. “Liandrin said we are bait.” “Bait for
what?” Nynaeve asked shakily. “Bait for who? If I am bait, I’d like to shove
myself down their throats till they choke on me!” “Rand.” Egwene
stopped to swallow; even a drop of water would be welcome. “I dreamed about
Rand, and Callandor. I think he is
coming here.” But why did I dream of Mat?
And Perrin? It was a wolf, but I am sure it was him. “Do not be so afraid,”
she said, trying to sound confident. “We will escape
them somehow. If we could better the Seanchan, we can best Liandrin. “ Nynaeve and
Elayne exchanged looks over her. Nynaeve said, “Liandrin said thirteen
Myrddraal are coming, Egwene.” She found
herself staring at that message scratched on the stone wall again: The Light
have mercy and let me die. Her hands clenched into fists. Her jaws cramped with
the effort of not screaming those words. Better
to die. Better death than being turned to the Shadow, made to serve the Dark
One! She realized
that one of her hands had tightened around the pouch at her belt. She could
feel the two rings inside, the small circle of the Great Serpent and the
larger, twisted stone ring. “They did not
take the ter’angreal,” she said
wonderingly. She fumbled it out of her pouch. It lay heavily on her palm, all
stripes and flecks of color, a ring with only one edge. “We were not
even important enough to search,” Elayne sighed. “Egwene, are you certain Rand
is coming here? I would much rather free myself than wait for the chance of
him, but if there is anyone who can defeat Liandrin and the rest of them, it
must be him. The Dragon Reborn is meant to wield Callandor. He must be
able to defeat them.” “Not if we pull
him into a cage after us,” Nynaeve muttered. “Not if they have a trap set he
does not see. Why are you staring at that ring, Egwene? Tel’aran’rhiod will not help us now. Not unless you can
dream a way out of here.” “Perhaps I
can,” she said slowly. “I could channel in Tel’aran’rhiod.
Their shielding won’t stop me reaching it. All I need do is sleep, not
channel. And I am surely weary enough to sleep.” Elayne frowned,
wincing as it pulled her bruises. “I will take any chance, but how can you
channel even in a dream, cut off from the True Source? And if you can, how can
it help us here?” “I do not know,
Elayne. Just because I am shielded here does not mean I am shielded in the
World of Dreams. It is at least worth a try.” “Perhaps,”
Nynaeve said worriedly. “I will take any chance, too, but you saw Liandrin and
the others the last time you used that ring. And you said they saw you, too.
What if they are there again?” “I hope they
are,” Egwene said grimly. “I hope they are.” Clutching the
ter’angreal in her hand, she closed her eyes. She could feel Elayne smoothing
her hair, hear her murmuring softly. Nynaeve began to hum that wordless lullaby
from her childhood; for once, she felt no anger at it at all. The soft sounds
and touches soothed her, let her
surrender to her weariness, let sleep come. She wore blue
silk this time, but she barely noticed more than that. Soft breezes caressed
her unbruised face, and sent the butterflies swirling above the wildflowers.
Her thirst was gone, her aches. She reached out to embrace saidar and was filled with the One Power. Even the triumph she felt
at succeeding was small beside the surging of the Power through her.. Reluctantly she
made herself release it, closed her eyes, and filled the emptiness with a
perfect image of the Heart of the Stone. That was the one place in the Stone
she could picture aside from her cell, and how to distinguish one featureless
cubicle from another? When she opened her eyes, she was there. But she was not
alone. The form of
Joiya Byir stood before Callandor, her
shape so insubstantial that the surging light of the sword shone through her.
The crystal sword no longer merely glittered with refracted light. In pulses it
glowed, as if some light inside it were being uncovered, then covered and
uncovered again. The Black sister started with surprise and spun to face
Egwene. “How? You are shielded! Your Dreaming is at an end!” Before the
first words were out of the woman’s mouth, Egwene reached for saidar again, wove the complicated flow
of Spirit as she remembered it being used against her, and cut Joiya Byir off
from the Source. The Darkfriend’s eyes widened, those cruel eyes so incongruous
in that beautiful, kindly face, but Egwene was already weaving Air. The other
woman’s form might seem like mist, but the bonds held it. It seemed to Egwene
that there was no effort involved in holding both flows in their weaving. There
was sweat on Joiya Byir’s forehead as she walked closer. “You have a ter’angreal!” Fear was plain on the
woman’s face, but her voice fought to hide it. “That must be it. A ter’angreal that escaped us, and one
that does not require channeling. Do you think it will do you any good, girl?
Whatever you do here, it cannot affect what happens in the real world. Tel’aran’rhiod is a dream! When I wake,
I will take your ter’angreal from you
myself. Be careful what you do, lest I have reason to be angry when I come to
your cell.” Egwene smiled
at her. “Are you certain you will wake, Darkfriend? If your ter’angreal requires channeling, why did
you not wake as soon as I shielded you? Perhaps you cannot wake so long as you
are shielded here.” Her smile faded away; the effort of smiling at this woman
was more than she could bear. “A woman once showed me a scar she received in Tel’aran’rhiod, Darkfriend. What happens
here it still real when you wake. “ The sweat
rolled down the Black sister’s smooth, ageless face, now. Egwene wondered if
she thought she was about to die. She almost wished she were cruel enough to do
that. Most of the unseen blows she had received had come from this woman, like
a pounding of fists, for no reason more than that she had kept trying to crawl
away, no reason more than that she had refused to give up. “A woman who
can give such beatings,” she said, “should have no objections to a milder one.”
She wove another flow of Air quickly; Joiya Byir’s dark eyes bulged in
disbelief as the first blow landed across her hips. Egwene saw how to adjust
the weaving so she did not have to maintain it. “You will remember this, and
feel it, when you waken. When I allow you to waken. Remember this, too. If you
ever even try to beat me again, I will return you here and leave you for the
rest of your life!” The Black sister’s eyes stared hate at her, but there was a
suggestion of tears in them, too. Egwene felt a
moment of shame. Not at what she was doing to Joiya ‑the woman deserved every blow, if not for her own beating,
then for the deaths in the Tower ‑ not that, not really, but because she
had spent time on her own revenge while Nynaeve and Elayne were sitting in a
cell hoping against hope that she might be able to rescue them. She tied off
and set the flows of her weavings before she knew she had done it, then paused
to study what she had done. Three separate weavings, and not only had it been
no trouble to hold them all at once, but now she had done something so they
would maintain themselves. She thought she could remember how, too. And it
might be useful. After a moment,
she unraveled one of the weavings, and the Darkfriend sobbed as much from
relief as from pain. “I am not like you,” Egwene said. “This is the second time
I have done something like this, and I do not like it. I am going to have to
learn to cut throats instead.” From the Black sister’s face, she thought Egwene
meant to start learning with her. Making a
disgusted sound, Egwene left her standing there, trapped and shielded, and
hurried into the forest of polished redstone columns. There had to be a way
down to the cells somewhere. The stone
corridor fell silent as the final dying scream was cut off by Young Bull’s jaws
closing on the two‑legs’s throat, crushing it. The blood was bitter on
his tongue. He knew this
was the Stone of Tear, though he could not say how he knew. The two‑legs
lying around him, one kicking his last with Hopper’s teeth buried in his
throat, had smelled rank with fear as they fought. They had smelled confused.
He did not think they had known where they were - they certainly did not belong
in the wolf dream ‑ but they had been set to keep him from that tall door
ahead, with its iron lock. To guard it, at least. They had seemed startled to
see wolves. He thought they had been startled at being there themselves. He wiped his
mouth, then stared at his hand with a momentary lack of comprehension. He was a
man again. He was Perrin. Back in his own body, in the blacksmith’s vest, with
the heavy hammer at his side. We must hurry, Young Bull. There is something evil near. Perrin pulled
the hammer from his belt as he strode to the door. “Faile must be here.” One
sharp blow shattered the lock. He kicked open the door. The room was
empty except for a long stone block in the middle of the floor. Faile lay on
that block as if sleeping, her black hair spread out like a fan, her body so
wrapped in chains that it took him a moment to realize she was unclothed. Every
chain was held to the stone by a thick bolt. He was hardly
aware of crossing the space until his hand touched her face, tracing her
cheekbone with a finger. She opened her
eyes and smiled up at him. “I kept dreaming you would come, blacksmith.” “I will have
you free in a moment, Faile.” He raised his hammer, smashed one of the bolts as
if it were wood. “I was sure of
it. Perrin.” As his name
faded from her tongue, she faded, too. With a clatter, the chains dropped to
the stone where she had been. “No!” he cried.
“I found her!” The dream is not like the world of flesh,
Young Bull. Here, the same hunt can have many endings. He did not turn
to look at Hopper. He knew his teeth were bared in a snarl. Again he raised the
hammer, brought it down with all his strength against the chains that had held
Faile. The stone block cracked in two under his blow; the Stone itself rang
like a stuck bell. “Then I will
hunt again,” he growled. Hammer in hand,
Perrin strode out of the room with Hopper beside him. The Stone was a place of
men. And men, he knew, were crueler hunters than ever wolves were. Alarm gongs
somewhere above sent sonorous clangs down the corridor, not quite drowning out
the ring of metal on metal and the shouts of fighting men rather closer. The
Aiel and the Defenders, Mat suspected. Tall, golden lamp stands, each with four
golden lamps, lined the hall where Mat was, and silk tapestries of battle
scenes hung on the polished stone walls. There were even silk carpets on the
floor, dark red on dark blue, woven in the Tairen maze. For once, Mat was too
busy to put a price on anything. This bloody fellow is good, he thought
as he managed to sweep a sword thrust away from him, but the blow he aimed at
the man’s head with the other end of the staff had to turn into another block
of that darting blade. I wonder if
he is one of these bloody High Lords? He almost managed a solid blow at a
knee, but his opponent sprang back, his straight blade raised on guard. The blue‑eyed
man certainly wore the puffy‑sleeved coat, yellow with thread‑of‑gold
stripes, but it was all undone, his shirt only half tucked into his breeches,
and his feet bare. His short‑cropped, dark hair was tousled, like that of
a man roused hastily from sleep, but he did not fight like it. Five minutes ago
he had come darting out from one of the tall, carved doors that lined this
hall, a scabbardless sword in his hands, and Mat was only grateful the fellow
had appeared in front of them and not behind. He was not the first man dressed
so that Mat had faced already, but he was surely the best. “Can you make
it past me, thief‑catcher?” Mat called, careful not to take his eyes off
the man waiting for him with blade poised to strike. Sandar had insisted
irritably on “thief‑catcher,” not “thief‑taker,” though Mat could
not see any difference. “I cannot,”
Sandar called from behind him. “If you move to let me by, you will lose room to
swing that oar you call a staff, and he will spit you like a grunt.” Like a what? “Well, think of something,
Tairen. This ragamuffin is grating my nerves.” The man in the
gold‑striped coat sneered. “You will be honored to die on the blade of
the High Lord Darlin, peasant, if I allow it so.” It was the first time he had
deigned to speak. “Instead, I think I will have the pair of you hung by the
heels, and watch while the skin is stripped from your bodies ‑ ” “I do not think
I’d like that,” Mat said. The High Lord’s
face reddened with indignation at being interrupted, but Mat gave him no time
for any outraged comment. Quarterstaff whirling in a tight double‑loop
weave, so quick the staff blurred at the ends, he leaped forward. It was all a
snarling Darlin could do to keep the staff from him. For the moment. Mat knew
he could not keep this up very long, and if he was lucky then, it would all go
back to the strike and counterstrike. If he was lucky. But he had no intention
of counting on luck this time. As soon as the High Lord had a moment to set
himself in a pattern of defense, Mat altered his attack in mid-whirl. The end
of the staff Darlin had been expecting at his head dipped instead to sweep his
legs out from under him. The other end did strike at his head then, as he fell,
a sharp crack that rolled his eyes back up in his head. Panting, Mat
leaned on his staff over the unconscious High Lord. Burn me, if I have to fight one or two more like this, I’ll bloody well
fall over from exhaustion! The
stories do not tell you being a hero it such
hard work! Nynaeve always did find a way to make me work. Sandar came to
stand beside him, frowning down at the crumpled High Lord. “He does not look so
mighty lying there,” he said wonderingly. “He does not look so much greater
than me.” Mat gave a
start and peered down the hall, where a man had just gone trotting across along
a joining corridor. Burn me, if I did not
know it was crazy, I would swear that was Rand! “Sandar, you
find that ‑ ” he began, swinging his staff up onto his shoulder, and cut
off when it thudded into something. Spinning, he
found himself facing another half‑dressed High Lord, this one with his
sword on the floor, his knees buckling, and both hands to his head where Mat’s
staff had split his scalp. Hastily, Mat poked him hard in the stomach with the
butt of the staff to bring his hands down, then gave him another thump on the
head to put him down in a heap on top of his sword. “Luck, Sandar,”
he muttered. “You cannot beat bloody luck. Now, why don’t you find this bloody
private way the High Lords take down to the cells?” Sandar had insisted there
was such a stairway, and using it would avoid having to run through most of the
Stone. Mat did not think he liked men so eager to watch people put to the
question that they wanted a quick route to the prisoners from their apartments. “Just be glad
you were so lucky,” Sandar said unsteadily, “or this one would have
killed us both before we saw him. I know the door is here somewhere. Are you
coming? Or do you mean to wait for another High Lord to appear?” “Lead on.” Mat
stepped over the unconscious High Lord. “I am no bloody hero.” Trotting, he
followed the thief‑catcher, who peered at the tall doors they passed,
muttering that he knew it was here somewhere. CHAPTER 55 What Is Written in Prophecy Rand entered
the chamber slowly, walking among the great polished redstone columns he
remembered from his dreams. Silence filled the shadows, yet something called to
him. And something flashed ahead, a momentary light throwing back shadow, a
beacon. He stepped out beneath a great dome, and saw what he sought. Callandor,
hanging hilt down in midair, waiting for no hand but that of the Dragon Reborn.
As it revolved, it broke what little light there was into splinters, and now
and then it flared as if with a light of its own. Calling him. Waiting for him. If I am the
Dragon Reborn. If I am not just some half‑mad man cursed with the ability
to channel, a puppet dancing for Moiraine and the White Tower. “Take it, Lews
Therin. Take it, Kinslayer.” He spun to face
the voice. The tall man with close‑cropped white hair who stepped from
the shadows among the columns was familiar to him. Rand had no idea who he was,
this fellow in a red silk coat with black stripes down its puffy sleeves and
black breeches tucked into elaborately silver‑worked boots. He did not
know the man, but he had seen him in his dreams. “You put them in a cage,” he
said. “Egwene, and Nynaeve, and Elayne. In my dreams. You kept putting them in
a cage, and hurting them.” The man made a
dismissive gesture of his hand. “They are less than nothing. Perhaps one day,
when they have been trained, but not now. I confess surprise that you cared
enough to make them useful. But you were ever a fool, ever ready to follow your
heart before power. You came too soon, Lews Therin. Now you must do what you
are not yet ready for, or else die. Die, knowing you have left these women you
care for in my hands.” He seemed to be waiting for something, expectant. “I
mean to use them more, Kinslayer. They will serve me, serve my power. And that
will hurt them far more than anything they have suffered before.” Behind Rand,
Callandor flashed, throwing one pulse of warmth against his back. “Who are
you?” “You do not
remember me, do you?” The white‑haired man laughed suddenly. “I do not
remember you, either, looking this way. A country lad with a flute case on his back.
Did Ishamael speak the truth? He was ever one to lie when it gained him an inch
or a second. Do you remember nothing, Lews Therin?” “A name!” Rand
demanded. “What is your name?” “Call me
Be’lal.” The Forsaken scowled when Rand did not react to the name. “Take it!”
Be’lal snapped, throwing a hand toward the sword behind Rand. “Once we rode to
war side by side, and for that I give you a chance. A bare chance, but a chance
to save yourself, a chance to save those three I mean to make my pets. Take the
sword, country man. Perhaps it will be enough to help you survive me.” Rand laughed.
“Do you believe you can frighten me so easily, Forsaken? Ba’alzamon himself has
hunted me. Do you think I will cower now for you? Grovel before a Forsaken when
I have denied the Dark One to his face?” “Is that what
you think?” Be’lal said softly. “Truly, you know nothing.” Suddenly there was a
sword in his hands, a sword with a blade carved from black fire. “Take it! Take
Callandor! Three thousand years, while I lay imprisoned, it has waited there.
For you. One of the most powerful sa’angreal we ever made. Take it, and defend
yourself, if you can!” He moved toward
Rand as if to drive him back toward Callandor, but Rand raised his own hands‑saidin
filled him; sweet rushing flow of the Power; stomach‑wrenching vileness
of the taint‑and he held a sword wrought from red flame, a sword with a
heron‑mark on its fiery blade. He stepped into the forms Lan
had taught him till he flowed from one to the next as if in a dance. Parting
the Silk. Water Flows Downhill. Wind and Rain. Blade of black fire met blade of
red in showers of sparks, roars like white‑hot metal shattering. Rand came back
smoothly into a guard stance, trying not to let his sudden uncertainty show. A
heron stood on the black blade, too, a bird so dark as to be nearly invisible.
Once he had faced a man with a heronmark blade of steel, and barely survived.
He knew that he himself had no real right to the blademaster’s mark; it had
been on the sword his father had given him, and when he thought of a sword in
his hands, he thought of that sword. Once he had embraced death, as the Warder
had taught, but this time, he knew, his death would be final. Be’lal was better
than he with the sword. Stronger. Faster. A true blademaster. The Forsaken
laughed, amused, swinging his blade in quick flourishes to either side of him;
the black fire roared as if swift passage through the air quickened it. “You
were a greater swordsman, once, Lews Therin,” he said mockingly. “Do you
remember when we took that tame sport called swords and learned to kill with
it, as the old volumes said men once had? Do you remember even one of those
desperate battles, even one of our dire defeats? Of course not. You remember
nothing, do you? This time you have not learned enough. This time, Lews Therin,
I will kill you.” Be’lal’s mockery deepened. “Perhaps if you take Callandor, you might extend your life a little longer. A little longer.” He came forward
slowly, almost as if to give Rand time to do just that, turn and race to Callandor, to the Sword That Cannot Be
Touched, to take it. But the doubts were still strong in Rand. Callandor could only be touched by the
Dragon Reborn. He had allowed them to proclaim him so for a hundred reasons
that seemed to leave him no choice at the time. But was he truly the Dragon
Reborn? If he raced to touch Callandor in
truth, not in a dream, would his hand meet an invisible wall while Be’lal cut
him down from behind? He met the
Forsaken with the sword he knew, the blade of fire wrought with saidin. And was driven back. The Falling
Leaf met Watered Silk. The Cat Dances on the Wall met the Boar Rushes Downhill.
The River Undercuts the Bank nearly lost him his head, and he had to throw
himself inelegantly to one side with black flame brushing his hair, rolling to
his feet to confront the Stone Falls From the Mountain. Methodically, deliberately,
Be’lal drove him back in a spiral that slowly tightened on Callandor. Shouts echoed
among the columns, screams, the clash of steel, but Rand barely heard. He and
Be’lal were no longer alone in the Heart of the Stone. Men in breastplates and
rimmed helmets fought with swords against shadowy, veiled shapes that darted
among the columns with short spears stabbing. Some of the soldiers formed a rank;
arrows flashing out of the dimness took them in the throat, the face, and they
died in their line. Rand hardly noticed the fighting, even when men fell dead
within paces of him. His own fight was too desperate; it took all of his concentration.
Wet warmth trickled down his side. The old wound was breaking open. He stumbled
suddenly, not seeing the dead man at his feet until he was lying on his back
atop his flute case on the stone floor. Be’lal raised
his blade of black fire, snarling. “Take it! Take Callandor and defend yourself? Take it, or I will kill you now! If
you will not take it, I will slay you!” “No!” Even Be’lal
gave a start at the command in that woman’s voice. The Forsaken stepped back
out of the arc of Rand’s sword and turned his head to frown at Moiraine as she
came striding through the battle, her eyes fixed on him, ignoring the screaming
deaths around her. “I thought you were neatly out of the way, woman. No matter.
You are only an annoyance. A stinging fly. A biteme. I will cage you with the
others, and teach you to serve the Shadow with your puny powers,” he finished
with a contemptuous laugh, and raised his free hand. Moiraine had
not stopped or slowed while he spoke. She was no more than thirty paces from
him when he moved his hand, and she raised both of hers as well. There was an
instant of surprise on the Forsaken’s face, and he had time to scream “No!”
Then a bar of white fire hotter than the sun shot from the Aes Sedai’s hands, a
glaring rod that banished all shadows. Before it, Be’lal became a shape of
shimmering motes, specks dancing in the light for less than a heartbeat, flecks
consumed before his cry faded. There was
silence in the chamber as that bar of light vanished, silence except for the
moans of the wounded. The fighting had stopped dead, veiled men and men in
breastplates alike standing as if stunned. “He was right
concerning one thing,” Moiraine said, as coolly serene as if she were standing
in a meadow. “You must take Callandor. He
meant to slay you for it, but it is your birthright. Better by far that you
knew more before your hand held that hilt, yet you have come to the point now,
and there is no further time for learning. Take it, Rand.” Whips of black
lightning curled around her; she screamed as they lifted her, hurled her to
slide along the floor like a sack until she came up against one of the columns. Rand stared up
at where the lightning had come from. There was a deeper shadow up there, near
the top of the columns, a blackness that made all other shadows look like
noonday, and from it, two eyes of fire stared back at him. Slowly the
shadow descended, resolving into Ba’alzamon, clothed in dead black, like a
Myrddraal’s black. Yet even that was not so dark as the shadow that clung to
him. He hung in the air, two spans above the floor, glaring at Rand with a rage
as fierce as his eyes. “Twice in this life I have offered you the chance to
serve me living.” Flames leaped in his mouth as he spoke, and every word roared
like a furnace. “Twice you have refused, and wounded me. Now you will serve the
Lord of the Grave in death. Die, Lews Therin Kinslayer. Die, Rand al’Thor. It
is time for you to die! I take your soul!” As Ba’alzamon
put forth his hand, Rand pushed himself up, threw himself desperately toward Callandor, still glittering and flashing
in midair. He did not know whether he could reach it, or touch it if he did,
but he was sure it was his only chance. Ba’alzamon’s
blow struck him as he leapt, struck inside him, a ripping and crumpling,
tearing something loose, trying to pull a part of him away. Rand screamed. He
felt as if he were collapsing like an empty sack, as if he were being turned
inside out. The pain in his side, the wound taken at Falme, was almost welcome,
something to hang onto, a reminder of life.. His hand closed convulsively. On Callandor’s hilt. The One Power
surged through him, a torrent greater than he could believe, from saidin into the sword. The crystal blade
shone brighter than even Moiraine’s fire had. It was impossible to look at,
impossible any longer to see that it was a sword, only that light blazed in his
fist. He fought the flow, wrestled with the implacable tide that threatened to
carry him, all that was really him, into the sword with it. For a heartbeat
that took centuries he hung, wavering, balanced on the brink of being scoured
away like sand before a flash flood. With infinite slowness the balance firmed.
It was still as though he stood barefoot on a razor’s edge above a bottomless
drop, yet something told him this was the best that could be expected. To
channel this much of the Power, he must dance on that sharpness as he had
danced the forms of the sword. He turned to
face Ba’alzamon. The tearing within him had ceased as soon as his hand touched Callandor. Only an instant had passed,
yet it seemed to have lasted forever. “You will not take my soul,” he shouted.
“This time, I mean to finish it once and for all! I mean to finish it now!” Ba’alzamon
fled, man and shadow vanishing. For a moment
Rand stared, frowning. There had been a sense of folding ‑ as Ba’alzamon
left. A twisting, as if Ba’alzamon had in some way bent what was. Ignoring the men staring at him, ignoring Moiraine
crumpled at the column base, Rand reached out, through Callandor, and twisted reality to make a door to somewhere else. He
did not know to where, except that it was where Ba’alzamon had gone. “I am the
hunter now,” he said, and stepped through. The stone shook
under Egwene’s feet. The Stone shook; it rang. She caught her balance and
stopped, listening. There was no more sound, no other tremor. Whatever had
happened, it was over. She hurried on. A door of iron bars stood in her way,
with a lock as big as her head. She channeled Earth before she reached it, and
when she pushed against the bars, the lock tore in half. She walked
quickly across the chamber beyond it, trying not to look at the things hanging
on the walls. Whips and iron pincers were the most innocuous. With a small
shudder she pushed open a smaller iron gate and entered a corridor lined with
rough wooden doors, rush torches burning at intervals in iron brackets; she
felt almost as much relief at leaving those things behind as she did at finding
what she sought. But which cell? The wooden
doors opened easily. Some were unlocked, and the locks on the others lasted no
longer than that larger lock had earlier. But every cell was empty. Of course. No one would dream themselves in
this place. Any prisoner who managed to reach Tel’aran’rhiod would dream of a
pleasanter place. For a moment
she felt something close to despair. She had wanted to believe that finding the
right cell would make a difference. Even finding it could be impossible,
though. This first corridor stretched on and on, and others joined it. Suddenly she
saw something flicker just ahead of her. A shape even less substantial than
Joiya Byir had been. It had been a woman, though. She was sure of that. A woman
seated on a bench beside one of the cell doors. The image flickered into being
again, and was gone. There was no mistaking that slender neck and the pale,
innocent‑appearing face with its eyelids fluttering on the edge of sleep.
Amico Nagoyin was drifting toward sleep, dreaming of her guard duties. And
apparently toying drowsily with one of the stolen ter’angreal. Egwene could understand that; it had been a great
effort to stop using the one Verin had given her, even for a few days. She knew it was
possible to cut a woman off from the True Source even if she had already
embraced saidar, but severing a weave
already established had to be much harder than damming the flow before it began. She set the
patterns of the weaving, readied them, making the threads of Spirit much
stronger, this time, thicker and heavier, a denser weave with a cutting edge
like a knife. The wavering
shape of the Darkfriend appeared again, and Egwene struck out with the flows of Air and Spirit. For an
instant something seemed to resist the weaving of Spirit, and she forced it
with all of her might. It slid into place. Amico Nagoyin
screamed. It was a thin sound, barely heard, as faint as she herself was, and
she seemed almost like a shadow of what Joiya Byir had been. Yet the bonds
woven of Air held her; she did not vanish again. Terror twisted the
Darkfriend’s lovely face; she seemed to be babbling, but her shouts were whispers
too soft for Egwene to understand. Tying and
setting the weaves around the Black sister, Egwene turned her attentions to the
cell door. Impatiently, she let Earth flood into the iron lock. It fell away in
black dust, in a mist that dissolved completely before it struck the floor. She
swung open the door, and was not surprised to find the cell empty except for
one burning rush torch. But Amico
is bound, and the door is open. For a moment
she thought of what to do next. Then she stepped out of the dream . . . . . . and woke
to all her bruises and aches and thirst, to the wall of the cell against her
back, staring at the tightly shut cell door. Of course. What happens to living things there is real when they wake. What I did to stone or iron or wood has no effect
in the waking world. Nynaeve and
Elayne were still kneeling beside her. “Whoever is out
there,” Nynaeve said, “screamed a few moments ago, but nothing else has
happened. Did you find a way out?” “We should be
able to walk out,” Egwene said. “Help me to my feet, and I will get rid of the
lock. Amico will not trouble us. That scream was her.” Elayne shook
her head. “I have been trying to embrace saidar
ever since you left. It is different, now, but I am still cut off.” Egwene formed
the emptiness inside her, became the rosebud opening to saidar. The invisible wall was still there. It shimmered now. There
were moments when she almost thought she could feel the True Source beginning
to fill her with the Power. Almost. The shield wavered in and out of existence
too fast for her to detect. It might as well have still been solid. She stared at
the other two women. “I bound her. I shielded her. She is a living thing, not
lifeless iron. She must be shielded still.” “Something has
happened to the shield set on us,” Elayne said, “but Amico is still managing to
hold it.” Egwene let her
head sag back against the wall. “I will have to try again.” “Are you strong
enough?” Elayne grimaced. “To be blunt, you sound even weaker than you did
before. This try took something out of you, Egwene. “ “I am strong
enough there.” She did feel more weary, less strong, but it was their only
chance that she could see. She said as much, and their faces said they agreed
with her, however reluctantly. “Can you go to
sleep again so soon?” Nynaeve asked finally. “Sing to me.”
Egwene managed a smile. “Like when I was a little girl. Please?” Holding
Nynaeve’s hand with one of hers, the stone ring clasped in the other, she
closed her eyes and tried to find sleep in the wordless humming tune. ‘ The wide door
of iron bars stood open, and the room beyond seemed empty of life, but Mat
entered cautiously. Sandar was still out in the hall, trying to peer both ways
at once, certain that a High Lord, or maybe a hundred Defenders or so, would
appear at any moment. There were no
men in the room now ‑ and by the looks of the half-eaten meals on a long
table, they had left hurriedly; no doubt because of the fighting above ‑
and from the looks of the things on the walls, he was just as glad he did not
have to meet any of them. Whips in different sizes and lengths, different
thicknesses, with different numbers of tails. Pincers, and tongs, and clamps,
and irons. Things that looked like metal boots, and gauntlets, and helmets,
with great screws all over them as if to tighten them down. Things he could not
even begin to guess the use of. If he had met the men who used these things, he
thought he would surely have checked that they
were dead before he walked away. ”Sandar!” he
hissed. “Are you going to stay out there all bloody night!” He hurried to the
inner door ‑ barred like the outer, but smaller - without waiting for an
answer, and went through. The hall beyond
was lined by rough wooden doors, and lit by the same rush torches as the room
he had just left. No more than twenty paces from him, a woman sat on a bench
beside one of the doors, leaning back against the wall in a curiously stiff
fashion. She turned her head slowly toward him at the sound of his boots
grating on the stone. A pretty young woman. He wondered why she did not move
more than her head, and why even that moved as if she were half‑asleep. Was she a
prisoner? Out in the hall? But
nobody with a face like that could be one of the people who uses the things on
those walls. She did look almost asleep, with her eyes only partly open.
And the suffering on that lovely face surely made her one of the tortured, not
a torturer. “Stop!” Sandar
shouted behind him. “She is Aes Sedai! She is one of those who took the women
you seek!” Mat froze in
the middle of a step, staring at the woman. He remembered Moiraine hurling
balls of fire. He wondered if he could deflect a ball of fire with his
quarterstaff. He wondered if his luck extended to outrunning Aes Sedai. “Help me,” she
said faintly. Her eyes still looked nearly asleep, but the pleading in her
voice was fully awake. “Help me. Please!” Mat blinked.
She still had not moved a muscle below her neck. Cautiously, he stepped
closer, waving to Sandar to stop his groaning about her being Aes Sedai. She
moved her head to follow him. No more than that. A large iron
key hung at her belt. For a moment he hesitated. Aes Sedai, Sandar said. Why
doesn’t she move? Swallowing, he
eased the key free as carefully as if he were trying to take a piece of meat
from a wolfs jaws. She rolled her eyes toward the door beside her and made a
sound like a cat that had just seen a huge dog come snarling into the room and
knew there was no way out. He did not
understand it, but as long as she did not try to stop him opening that door, he
did not care why she just sat there like a stuffed scarecrow. On the other
hand, he wondered if there was something on the other side worth being afraid
of. If she it one of those who took Egwene and the others, it stands to reason she’s guarding them. Tears leaked from the woman’s eyes. Only she looks like it’s a bloody Halfman in
there. But there was only one way to find out. Propping his staff against
the wall, he turned the key in the lock and flung open the door, ready to run
if need be. Nynaeve and
Elayne were kneeling on the floor with Egwene apparently asleep between them.
He gasped at the sight of Egwene’s swollen face, and changed his mind about her
sleeping. The other two women turned toward him as he opened the door ‑
they were almost as battered as Egwene; Burn
me! Burn me! ‑ looked
at him, and gaped. “Matrim
Cauthon,” Nynaeve said, sounding shocked, “what under the Light are you doing
here?” “I came to
bloody rescue you,” he said. “Burn me if I expected to be greeted as if I had
come to steal a pie. You can tell me why you look as if you’d been fighting
bears later, if you want. If Egwene cannot walk, I’ll carry her on my back.
There are Aiel all over the Stone, or near enough, and either they are killing
the bloody Defenders or the bloody Defenders are killing them, but whichever
way it is, we had better get out of here while we bloody well can. If we can!” “Mind your
language,” Nynaeve told him, and Elayne gave him one of those disapproving
stares women were so good at. Neither one seemed to have her full attention in
it, though. They began shaking Egwene as if she were not covered with more
bruises than he had ever seen in his life. Egwene’s
eyelids fluttered open, and she groaned. “Why did you wake me? I must
understand it. If I loose the bonds on her, she will wake and I’ll never catch
her again. But if I do not, she cannot go all the way to sleep, and ‑
“Her eyes fell on him and widened. “Matrim Cauthon, what under the Light are
you doing here?” “You tell her,”
he told Nynaeve. “I am too busy trying to rescue you to watch my langu - ” They were all
staring beyond him, glaring as if they wished they had knives in their hands. He spun, but
all he saw was Juilin Sandar, looking as if he had swallowed a rotten plum
whole. “They have
cause,” he told Mat. “I. . . . I betrayed them. But I had to.” That was
addressed past Mat to the women. “The one with many honey‑colored braids
spoke to me, and I . . . . I had to do it.” For a long moment the three
continued to stare. “Liandrin has
vile tricks, Master Sandar,” Nynaeve said finally. “Perhaps you are not
entirely to blame. We can apportion guilt later.” “If that is all
cleared up,” Mat said, “could we go now?” It was as clear as mud to him, but he
was more interested in leaving right then. The three women
limped after him into the hall, but they stopped around the woman on the bench.
She rolled her eyes at them and whimpered. “Please. I will come back to the
Light. I will swear to obey you. With the Oath Rod in my hands I will swear.
Please do not ‑ ” Mat jumped as
Nynaeve suddenly reared back and swung a fist, knocking the woman completely
off the bench. She lay there, her eyes closed all the way finally, but even
lying on her side she was still in exactly the same position she had been in on
the bench. “It is gone,”
Elayne said excitedly. Egwene bent to
rummage in the unconscious woman’s pouch, transferring something Mat could not
make out to her own. “Yes. It feels wonderful. Something changed about her when
you hit her, Nynaeve. I do not know what, but I felt it.” Elayne nodded.
“I felt it, too.” “I would like
to change every last thing about her,” Nynaeve said grimly. She took Egwene’s
head in her hands; Egwene rose onto her toes, gasping. When Nynaeve took her
hands away to put them on Elayne, Egwene’s bruises were gone. Elayne’s vanished
as quickly. “Blood and
bloody ashes!” Mat growled. “What do you mean hitting a woman who was just
sitting there? I don’t think she could even move!” They all three turned to
look at him, and he made a strangled sound as the air seemed to turn to thick
jelly around him. He lifted into the air, until his boots dangled a good pace
above the floor. Oh, burn me, the Power!
Here I was afraid that Aes Sedai would use the bloody Power on me, and now the
bloody women I’m rescuing do it! Burn me! “You do not
understand anything, Matrim Cauthon,” Egwene said in a tight voice. “Until you do
understand,” Nynaeve said in an even tighter, “I suggest you keep your opinions
to yourself.” Elayne
contented herself with a glare that made him think of his mother going out to
cut a switch. For some reason
he found himself giving them the grin that had so often sent his mother after
that switch. Burn me, if they can do
this, I don’t see how anybody ever locked them in that cell in the first place!
“What I understand is that I got you out of something you couldn’t get
yourselves out of, and you all have as much gratitude as a bloody Taren Ferry
man with a toothache!” “You are
right,” Nynaeve said, and his boots suddenly hit the floor so hard his teeth
jarred. But he could move again. “As much as it pains me to say it, Mat, you
are right.” He was tempted
to answer something sarcastic, but there was barely enough apology in her voice
as it was. “Now can we go? With the fighting going on, Sandar thinks he and I
can take you out by a small gate near the river.” “I am not
leaving just yet, Mat,” Nynaeve said. “I mean to find
Liandrin and skin her,” Egwene said, sounding almost as if she meant it
literally. “All I want to
do,” Elayne said, “is pound Joiya Byir till she squeals, but I will settle for
any of them.” “Are you all
deaf?” he growled. “There is a battle going on out there! I came here to rescue
you, and I mean to rescue you.” Egwene patted his cheek as she walked by him,
and so did Elayne. Nynaeve merely sniffed. He stared after them with his mouth
hanging open. “Why didn’t you say something?” he growled at the thief‑catcher. “I saw what
speaking earned you,” Sandar said simply. “I am no fool.” “Well, I am not
staying in the middle of a battle!” he shouted at the women. They were just
disappearing through the small, barred door. “I am leaving, do you hear?” They
did not even look back. Probably get
themselves killed out there! Somebody will stick a sword in them while they’re
looking the other way! With a snarl, he put his quarterstaff across his
shoulder and started after. “Are you going to stand there?” he called to the
thief‑catcher. “I did not come this far to let them die now!” Sandar caught
up to him in the room with the whips. The three women were already gone, but
Mat had a feeling they would not be too hard to find. Just find the men bloody hanging in midair! Bloody women! He
quickened his pace to a trot. Perrin strode
down the halls of the Stone grimly, searching for some sign of Faile. He had
rescued her twice more, now, breaking her out of an iron cage once, much like
the one that had held the Aiel in Remen, and once breaking open a steel chest
with a falcon worked on its side. Both times she had melted into air after
saying his name. Hopper trotted by his side, sniffing the air. As sharp as
Perrin’s nose was, the wolfs was sharper; it had been Hopper who led them to
the chest. Perrin wondered
whether he was ever going to free her in truth. There had not been any sign in
a long time, it seemed. The halls of the Stone were empty, lamps burning,
tapestries and weapons hanging on the walls, but nothing moved except himself
and Hopper. Except I think that was
Rand. It had only been a glimpse, a man running as if chasing
someone. It could not be him. It couldn’t, but I think it was. Hopper quickened his steps suddenly, heading for another set
of tall doors, these clad in bronze. Perrin tried to match the pace, stumbled,
and fell to his knees, throwing out a hand to catch himself short of dropping
on his face. Weakness washed through him as if all his muscles had gone to
water. Even after the feeling receded, it took some of his strength with it. It
was an effort to struggle to his feet. Hopper had turned to look at him. You are here too strongly, Young Bull. The
flesh weakens. You do not care to hold on to it enough. Soon flesh and dream
will die together. “Find her,”
Perrin said. “That is all I ask. Find Faile.” Yellow eyes met
yellow eyes. The wolf turned and trotted to the doors. Beyond here, Young Bull. Perrin reached
the doors and pushed. They did not budge. There seemed to be no way to open
them, no handles, nothing to grip. There was a tiny pattern worked into the
metal, so fine his eyes almost did not see it. Falcons. Thousands of tiny
falcons. She has to be here. I do not think I can last much longer. With a shout, he
swung his hammer against the bronze. It rang like a great gong. Again he
struck, and the peal deepened. A third blow, and the bronze doors shattered
like glass. Within, a
hundred paces from the broken doors, a circle of light surrounded a falcon
chained to a perch. Darkness filled all the rest of that vast chamber, darkness
and faint rustlings as of hundreds of wings. He took a step
into the room, and a falcon stooped out of the murk, talons scoring his face as
it passed. He threw an arm across his eyes - talons tore at his forearm ‑
and staggered toward the perch. Again and again the birds came, falcons diving,
striking him, tearing him, but he lumbered on with blood pouring down his arms
and shoulders, that one arm protecting the eyes he had fixed on the falcon on
the perch. He had lost the hammer; he did not know where, but he knew that if
he went back to search, he would die before he found it. As he reached the perch, the slicing talons drove him to his
knees. He peered up under his arm at the falcon on the perch, and she stared
back with dark, unblinking eyes. The chain that held her leg was fastened to
the perch with a tiny lock shaped like a hedgehog. He seized the chain with
both hands, careless of the other falcons that now became a whirlwind of
cutting talons around him, and with his last strength snapped it. Pain and the
falcons brought darkness. He opened his
eyes to stinging agony, as if his face and arms and shoulders had been sliced
with a thousand knives. It did not matter. Faile was kneeling over him, those
dark, tilted eyes filled with worry, wiping his face with a cloth already
soaked in his blood. “My poor
Perrin,” she said softly. “My poor blacksmith. You are hurt so badly.” With an effort
that cost more pain, he turned his head. This was the private dining room in
the Star, and near one leg of the table lay a wooden carving of a hedgehog,
broken in half. “Faile,” he whispered to her. “My falcon. “ Rand was still
in the Heart of the Stone, but it was different. There were no men fighting
here, no dead men, no one at all but himself. Abruptly the sound of a great
gong rang through the Stone, then again, and the very stones beneath his feet
resonated. A third time the booming came, but cut off abruptly, as if the gong
had shattered. All was still. Where is this place? he wondered. More
important, where it Ba’alzamon? As if to answer
him, a blazing shaft like the one Moiraine had made shot out of the shadows among
the columns, straight toward his chest. His wrist twisted the sword
instinctively; it was instinct as much as anything else that made him loose
flows from saidin into Callandor, a
flood of the Power that made the sword blaze brighter even than that bar
streaking at him. His uncertain balance between existence and destruction
wavered. Surely that torrent would consume him. The shaft of
light struck the blade of Callandor ‑ and parted on its edge, forking to
stream past on either side. He felt his coat singe from its near passage,
smelled the wool beginning to burn. Behind him, the two prongs of frozen fire,
of liquid light, struck huge redstone columns; where they struck, stone ceased
to exist, and the burning bars bored through to other columns, serving those
instantaneously as well. The Heart of the Stone rumbled as columns fell and
shattered in clouds of dust, sprays of stone fragments. What fell into the
light, however, simply was not, anymore. A snarl of rage
came from the shadows, and the blazing shaft of pure white heat vanished. Rand swung
Callandor as if he were striking at something in front of him. The white light
obscuring the blade extended, blazed ahead, and sheared through the redstone
column that hid the snarl. The polished stone sliced like silk. The severed
column trembled; part of it tore loose and dropped from the ceiling, smashing
into huge, jagged chunks on the floor. As the rumbling faded, he heard beyond
it the sound of boots on stone. Running. Callandor at
the ready, Rand hurried after Ba’alzamon. The tall
archway leading out of the Heart collapsed as he reached it, the entire wall
falling in clouds of dust and rock as if to bury him, but he threw the Power at
it, and all became dust floating in the air. He ran on. He was not sure what he
had done, or how, but he had no time to think on it. He ran after Ba’alzamon’s
retreating footsteps, echoing down the halls of the Stone. Myrddraal and
Trollocs leaped out of thin air, huge bestial shapes and eyeless faces
distorted with a rage to kill, in hundreds, so they jammed the hall before him
and behind, scythe‑like swords and blades of deadly black steel seeking
his blood. Without knowing how, he turned them to vapor that parted before him ‑
and vanished. The air around him suddenly became choking soot, clogging his
nostrils, shutting off breath, but he made it fresh air again, a cool mist.
Flames leaped from the floor beneath his feet, spurted from the walls, the
ceiling, furious jets that flashed tapestries and rugs, tables and chests to wisps
of ash, flung ornaments and lamps ahead of them as drops of molten, burning
gold; he smashed the fires flat, hardened them into a red glaze on the rock. The stones
around him faded almost to mist; the Stone faded. Reality trembled; he could
feel it unraveling, feel himself unraveling. He was being pushed out of the
here, into some other place where nothing existed at all. Callandor blazed in
his hands like the sun till he thought it would melt. He thought he himself
would melt from the surge of the One Power through him, the flood that he
somehow directed into sealing up the hole that had opened around him, into
holding himself on the side of existence. The Stone became solid again. He could not
even begin to imagine what it was that he did. The One Power raged inside him
till he barely knew himself, till he barely was himself, till what was himself
almost did not exist. His precarious stability teetered. To either side lay the
endless fall, obliteration by the Power that coursed through him into the sword.
Only in the dance along the razor’s sharp edge was there even an uncertain
safety. Callandor shone in his fist until it seemed he carried the sun. Dimly
within him, fluttering like a candle flame in a storm, was the surety that
holding Callandor, he could do anything. Anything. Through endless
corridors he ran, dancing along the razor, chasing the one who would slay him,
the one he must slay. There could be no other end, this time. This time one of
them must die! That Ba’alzamon knew it as well was clear. Always he fled,
always staying ahead of sight so that only the sounds of his flight drew Rand
on, but even fleeing he turned this Stone of Tear that was not the Stone of
Tear against Rand, and Rand fought back with instinct and guesses and chance,
fought and ran down that knife edge in perfect balance with the Power, the tool
and weapon that would consume him utterly if he faltered. Water filled
the halls from top to bottom, thick and black as the bottom of the sea, choking
off breath. He made it air again, unknowingly, and ran on, and suddenly the air
gained weight until it seemed every inch of his skin supported a mountain,
squeezing in from all directions. In the instant before he was crushed to
nothingness he chose tides out of the flood of Power raging through him ‑
he did not know how or which or why; it was too fast for thought or knowing ‑
and the pressure vanished. He pursued Ba’alzamon, and the very air was abruptly
solid rock encasing him, then molten stone, then nothing at all to fill his
lungs. The ground beneath his boots pulled at him as if every pound suddenly
weighed a thousand, then all weight vanished so that a step left him spinning
in midair. Unseen maws gaped to rip his mind from his body, to tear away his
soul. He sprang each trap and ran on; what Ba’alzamon twisted to destroy him,
he made right without being aware of how. Vaguely he knew that in some way he
had brought things back into natural balance, forced them into line with his
own dance down that impossibly thin divide between existence and nothingness,
but that knowledge was distant. All his awareness lay in the pursuit, the
hunt, the death that must end it. And then he was
in the Heart of the Stone again, stalking through the rubbled gap that had been
a wall. Some of the columns hung like broken teeth, now. And Ba’alzamon backed
away from him, eyes burning, shadow cloaking him. Black lines like steel wires
seemed to run off from Ba’alzamon into the darkness mounding around him,
vanishing into unimaginable heights and distances within that blackness. “I will not be
undone!” Ba’alzamon cried. His mouth was fire; his shriek echoed among the
columns. “I cannot be defeated! Aid me!” Some of the darkness shrouding him
drifted into his hands, formed into a ball so black it seemed to soak up even
the light of Callandor. Sudden
triumph blazed in the flames of his eyes. “You are
destroyed!” Rand shouted. Callandor spun
in his hands. Its light roiled the darkness, severed the steel‑black
lines around Ba’alzamon, and Ba’alzamon convulsed. As if there were two of him
he seemed to dwindle and grow larger at the same time. “You are undone!” Rand
plunged the shining blade into Ba’alzamon’s chest. Ba’alzamon
screamed, and the fires of his face flared wildly. “Fool!” he howled. “The
Great Lord of the Dark can never be defeated!” Rand pulled Callandor’s blade free as Ba’alzamon’s
body sagged and began to fall, the shadow around him vanishing. And suddenly
Rand was in another Heart of the Stone, surrounded by columns still whole, and
fighting men screaming and dying, veiled men and men in breastplates and
helmets. Moiraine still lay crumpled at the base of a redstone column. And at
Rand’s feet lay the body of a man, sprawled on its back with a hole burned
through the chest. He might have been a handsome man in his middle years,
except that where his eyes and mouth should have been were only pits from which
rose tendrils of black smoke. I have done it, he thought. I have killed Ba’alzamon, killed Shai’tan! I
have won the Last Battle! Light, I AM the Dragon Reborn! The breaker of
nations, the Breaker of the World. No! I will END the breaking, end the
killing! I will MAKE it end! He raised Callandor above his head. Silver
lightning crackled from the blade, jagged streaks arching toward the great dome
above. “Stop!” he shouted. The fighting ceased; men stared at him in wonder,
over black veils, from beneath the rims of round helmets. “I am Rand al’Thor!”
he called, so his voice rang through the chamber. “I am the Dragon Reborn!” Callandor shone in his grasp. One by one, veiled men and helmeted, they knelt to him,
crying, “The Dragon is Reborn! The Dragon is Reborn!” CHAPTER 56 People of the Dragon Throughout the city of Tear people woke with the dawn,
speaking of the dreams they had had, dreams of the Dragon battling Ba’alzamon
in the Heart of the Stone, and when their eyes rose to the great fortress of
the Stone, they beheld a banner waving from its greatest height. Across a field
of white flowed a sinuous form like a great serpent scaled in scarlet and gold,
but with a golden lion’s mane and four legs, each tipped with five golden
claws. Men came, stunned and frightened, from the Stone to speak in hushed
tones of what had happened in the night, and men and women thronged the
streets, weeping as they shouted the fulfillment of Prophecy. “The Dragon!”
they shouted. “Al’Thor! The Dragon! Al’Thor!” Peering through
an arrowslit high on the side of the Stone, Mat shook his head as he listened
to the chorus rising out of the city in waves. Well, maybe be it. He was still
having a hard enough time coming to grips with Rand really being there. Everyone in the
Stone seemed to agree with the people below, or if they did not, they were not
letting on. He had seen Rand just once since the night before, striding along a
hall with Callandor in his hand, surrounded by a dozen veiled Aiel and
trailing a cloud of Tairens, a knot of Defenders of the Stone and most of the
few surviving High Lords. The High Lords, at least, seemed to think Rand would
need them to help him rule the world; the Aiel kept everyone back with sharp
looks, though, and spears if need be. They surely believed Rand was the Dragon,
though they called him He Who Comes With the Dawn. There were nearly two
hundred Aiel in the Stone. They had lost a third of their numbers in the fight,
but they had killed or captured ten times as many Defenders. As he turned
from the arrowslit, his eyes brushed across Rhuarc. There was a tall stand at
one end of the room, carved and polished upright wheels of some pale, dark‑striped
wood with shelves slung between them so all of the shelves would stay flat as
the wheels were revolved. Each shelf held a large book, bound in gold, covers
set with sparkling gems. The Aiel had one of the books open and was reading.
Some sort of essays, Mat thought. Who would have thought an Aiel would read
books? Who’d have thought an Aiel could bloody read? Rhuarc glanced
in his direction, all cold blue eyes and level stare. Mat looked away hastily,
before the Aiel could read his thoughts on his face. At least he is not veiled,
thank the Light! Burn me, that Aviendha nearly took my head off when I asked
her if she could do any dances without spears. Bain and Chiad presented another
problem. They were certainly pretty and more than friendly, but he could not
manage to talk to one without the other. The male Aiel seemed to think his
efforts to get one of them alone were funny, and for that matter, so did Bain
and Chiad. Women are odd, but Aiel women make odd seem normal! The great table
in the middle of the room, ornately carved and gilded on edges and thick legs,
had been meant for gatherings of the High Lords. Moiraine sat in one of the
throne‑like chairs, with the Crescent Banner of Tear worked into its
towering back in gilt and polished carnelian and pearlshell. Egwene, Nynaeve,
and Elayne sat close by her. “I still cannot
believe Perrin is here in Tear,” Nynaeve was saying. “Are you sure he is all
right?” Mat shook his
head. He would have expected Perrin to have been up in the Stone last night;
the blacksmith had always been braver than anyone with good sense. “He was well
when I left him.” Moiraine’s voice was serene. “Whether he still is, I do not
know. His . . . companion is in some considerable danger, and he may have put
himself into it, also.” “His
companion?” Egwene said sharply. “Wha ‑ . Who is Perrin’s companion?” “What sort of
danger?” Nynaeve demanded. “Nothing that
need concern you,” the Aes Sedai said calmly. “I will go and see to her as I
may, shortly. I have delayed only to show you this, which I found among the
ter’angreal and other things of the Power the High Lords collected over the
years.” She to6k something from her pouch and laid it on the table before her.
It was a disc the size of a man’s hand, seemingly made of two teardrops fitted
together, one black as pitch, the other white as snow. Mat seemed to
remember seeing others like it. Ancient, like this one, but broken, where this
was whole. Three of them, he had seen; not all together, but all in pieces. But
that could not be; he remembered that they were made of cuendillar, unbreakable
by any power, even the One Power. “One of the
seven seals Lews Therin Kinslayer and the Hundred Companions put on the Dark
One’s prison when they resealed it,” Elayne said, nodding as if confirming her
own memory. “More
precisely,” Moiraine told her, “a focus point for one of the seals. But in
essence, you are correct. During the Breaking of the World they were scattered
and hidden for safety; since the Trolloc Wars they have been lost in truth.”
She sniffed. “I begin to sound like Verin.” Egwene shook
her head. “I suppose I should have expected to find that here. Twice before
Rand faced Ba’alzamon, and both times at least one of the seals was present.” “And this time
unbroken,” Nynaeve said. “For the first time, the seal is unbroken. As if that
mattered, now.” “You think it
does not?” Moiraine’s voice was dangerous in its quiet, and the other women
frowned at her. Mat rolled his
eyes. They kept talking about unimportant things. He did not much like standing
not twenty feet from that disc now that he knew what it was, no matter the
value of cuendillar, but . . . . “Your pardon?” he said. They all turned
to stare at him as if he were interrupting something important. Burn me! Break
them out of a prison cell, save their lives half a dozen times between them
before the night is done, and they glower as hard as the bloody Aes Sedai!
Well, they did not thank me then, either, did they? You’d have thought I was
sticking my nose in where it wasn’t wanted then, too, instead of keeping some
bloody Defender from putting a sword through one of them. Aloud, he said
mildly, “You do not mind if I ask a question, do you? You have all been talking
this Aes Sedai . . . uh . . . business, and no one has bothered to tell me
anything.” ”Mat?” Nynaeve
said warningly, tugging her braid, but Moiraine said, in a calm only just
touched with impatience, “What is it that you wish to know?” “I want to know
how all of this can be.” He meant to keep his tone soft, but despite himself he
picked up intensity as he went along. “The Stone of Tear has fallen! The
Prophecies said that would never happen till the People of the Dragon came.
Does that mean we are the bloody People of the Dragon? You, me, Lan, and a few
hundred bloody Aiel?” He had seen the Warder during the night; there had not
seemed to be much edge between Lan and the Aiel as to who was the more deadly.
As Rhuarc straightened to stare at him, he hastily added, “Uh, sorry, Rhuarc.
Slip of the tongue.” “Perhaps,”
Moiraine said slowly. “I came to stop Be’lal from killing Rand. I did not
expect to see the Stone of Tear fall. Perhaps we are. Prophecies are fulfilled
as they are meant to be, not as we think they should be.” Be’lal. Mat
shivered. He had heard that name last night, and he did not like it any more in
daylight. If he had known one of the Forsaken was loose ‑ and inside the
Stone ‑ he would never have gone near the place. He glanced at Egwene,
and Nynaeve, and Elayne. Well, I’d have come in like a bloody mouse, anyway,
not thumping people left and right! Sandar had gone scurrying out of the
Stone at daybreak; to take the news to Mother Guenna, he claimed, but Mat
thought it was just to escape those stares from the three women, who looked as
if they had not yet quite decided what to do about him. Rhuarc cleared
his throat. “When a man wishes to become a clan chief, he must go to Rhuidean,
in the lands of the Jenn Aiel, the clan that is not.” He spoke slowly and
frowned often at the red‑fringed silk carpet under his soft boots, a man
trying to explain what he did not want to explain at all. “Women who wish to
become Wise Ones also make this journey, but their marking, if they are marked,
is kept secret among themselves. The men who are chosen at Rhuidean, those who
survive, return marked on the left arm. So.” He pushed back
the sleeves of his coat and shirt together to reveal his left forearm, the skin
much paler than that of his hands and face. Etched into the skin as if part of
it, wrapped twice around, marched the same gold‑and‑scarlet form as
rippled on the banner above the Stone. The Aiel let
his sleeve fall with a sigh. “It is a name not spoken except among the clan
chiefs and the Wise Ones. We are. . . .” He cleared his throat again, unable to
say it here. “The Aiel are
the People of the Dragon.” Moiraine spoke quietly, but she sounded as close to
startlement as Mat could remember ever hearing her. “That I did not know.” “Then it really
is all done,” Mat said, “just as the Prophecies said. We can all go on our way
with no more worries.” The Amyrlin won’t need me to blow that bloody Horn now! “How can you
say that?” Egwene demanded. “Don’t you understand the Forsaken are loose?” “Not to mention
the Black Ajah,” Nynaeve added grimly. “We took only Amico and Joiya here.
Eleven escaped ‑ and I would like to know how! ‑ and the Light
alone knows how many others there are we do not know. “ “Yes,” Elayne
said in a tone just as hard. “I may not be up to facing one of the Forsaken,
but I mean to take pieces out of Liandrin’s hide!” “Of course,”
Mat said smoothly. “Of course.” Are they crazy? They want to chase after the
Black Ajah and the Forsaken? “I only meant the hardest part is done. The
Stone has fallen to the People of the Dragon, Rand has Callandor, and
Shai’tan is dead. “ Moiraine’s stare was so hard that he thought the Stone
shook for a moment. “Be quiet, you
fool!” the Aes Sedai said in a voice like a knife. “Do you want to call his
attention to you, naming the Dark One?” “But he’s
dead!” Mat protested. “Rand killed him. I saw the body!” And a fine
stink that was, too. I never thought anything could rot that fast. “You saw ‘the
body,’ “ Moiraine said with a twist to her mouth. “A man’s body. Not the Dark
One, Mat.” He looked at
Egwene and the other two women; they appeared as confused as he. Rhuarc looked
to be thinking of a battle he had thought was won and now learned had not even
been fought. “Then who was it?” Mat demanded. “Moiraine, my memory has holes
big enough for a wagon and team, but I remember Ba’alzamon being in my dreams.
I remember! Burn me, I do not see how I can ever forget! And I recognized what
was left of that face.” “You recognized
Ba’alzamon,” Moiraine said. “Or rather, the man who called himself Ba’alzamon.
The Dark One yet lives, imprisoned at Shayol Ghul, and the Shadow yet lies
across the Pattern.” “The Light
illumine and protect us,” Elayne murmured in a faint voice. “I thought . .
. . I thought the Forsaken were the worst we had to worry about, now.” “Are you sure,
Moiraine?” Nynaeve said. “Rand was certain ‑ is certain ‑ that he
killed the Dark One. You seem to be saying Ba’alzamon was not the Dark One at
all. I don’t understand! How can you be so sure?. And if he was not the Dark
One, who was he?” “I can be sure
for the simplest of reasons, Nynaeve. However fast decay took it, that was a
man’s body. Can you believe that if the Dark One were killed he would leave a
human body? The man Rand killed was a man. Perhaps he was the first of the
Forsaken freed, or perhaps he was never entirely bound. We may never know
which.” “I . . . may
know who he was.” Egwene paused with an uncertain frown. “At least, I may have
a clue. Verin showed me a page from an old book that mentioned Ba’alzamon and
Ishamael together. It was almost High Chant and very nearly incomprehensible,
but I remember something about ‘a name hidden behind a name.’ Maybe Ba’alzamon
was Ishamael.” “Perhaps,”
Moiraine said. “Perhaps it was Ishamael. But if it was, at least nine of the
thirteen still live. Lanfear, and Sammael, and Ravhin, and . . . . Paah! Even
knowing that some of those nine at least are free is not the most important
thing.” She laid a hand atop the black‑and-white disc on the table.
“Three of the seals are broken. Only four still hold. Only those four seals
stand between the Dark One and the world, and it may be that even with those
whole he can touch the world after a fashion. Whatever battle we won here ‑
battle or skirmish ‑ it is far from the last.” Mat watched
their faces firm ‑ Egwene’s and Nynaeve’s and Elayne’s; slowly,
reluctantly, but determinedly, too ‑ and shook his head. Bloody women!
They’re all ready to go on with this, go on chasing the Black Ajah, trying to
fight the Forsaken and the bloody Dark One. Well, they needn’t think I am going
to come pull them out of the soup pot again. They just needn’t think it, that’s
all! One of the
tall, paired doors pushed open while he was trying to think of something to
say, and a tall young woman of regal bearing entered the room, wearing a
coronet with a golden hawk in flight above her brows. Her black hair swept to
pale shoulders, and her dress of the finest red silk left those shoulders bare,
along with a considerable expanse of what Mat noted as an admirable bosom. For
a moment she studied Rhuarc interestedly with large, dark eyes; then she turned
them on the women at the table, coolly imperious. Mat she appeared to ignore
completely. “I am not used
to being given messages to carry,” she announced, flourishing a folded
parchment in one slim hand. “And who are
you, child?” Moiraine asked. The young woman
drew herself up even more, which Mat would have thought was impossible. “I am
Berelain, First of Mayene.” She tossed the parchment down on the table in front
of Moiraine with a haughty gesture and turned back to the door. “A moment,
child,” Moiraine said, unfolding the parchment. “Who gave this to you? And why
did you bring it, if you are so unused to carrying messages?” “I . . . do not
know.” Berelain stood facing the door; she sounded puzzled. “She was . . .
impressive. “ She gave herself a shake and seemed to recover her opinion of
herself. For a moment she studied Rhuarc with a small smile. “You are the
leader of these Aielmen? Your fighting disturbed my sleep. Perhaps I will ask
you to dine with me. One day quite soon.” She looked over her shoulder at
Moiraine. “I am told the Dragon Reborn has taken the Stone. Inform the Lord
Dragon that the First of Mayene will dine with him tonight.” And she marched
out of the room; Mat could think of no other way to describe that stately, one-woman
procession. “I would like
to have her in the Tower as novice.” Egwene and Elayne said it almost like
echoes, then shared a tight smile. “Listen to
this,” Moiraine said. “ ‘Lews Therin was mine, he is mine, and he will be mine,
forever. I give him into your charge, to keep for me until I come.’ It is
signed ‘Lanfear.’ “The Aes Sedai turned that cool gaze on Mat. “And you thought
it was done? You are ta’veren, Mat, a thread more crucial to the Pattern
than most, and the sounder of the Horn of Valere. Nothing is done for you,
yet.” They were all
looking at him. Nynaeve sadly, Egwene as though she had never seen him before,
Elayne as if she expected him to change into someone else. Rhuarc had a certain
respect in his eyes, though Mat would just as soon have done without it, all
things considered. “Well, of
course,” he told them. Burn me! “I understand.” I wonder how soon
Thom will be fit to travel? Time to run. Maybe Perrin will come with us. “You
can count on me.” From outside, the cries still rose, unceasing. “The Dragon!
Al’Thor! The Dragon! Al’Thor! The Dragon! Al’Thor! The Dragon!” And it was written that no
hand but his should wield the Sword held in the Stone, but he did draw it out,
like fire in his hand, and his glory did burn the world. Thus did it begin.
Thus do we sing his Rebirth. Thus do we sing the beginning. ‑from
Do’in Toldara te, Songs of the Last Age, Quarto Nine: The Legend of the Dragon
Composed by Boanne, Songmistress at Taralan, the Fourth Age The End of the Third Book of The Wheel of Time |