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for
George Jonas I
have a tale for you: winter pours The
wind is high, cold; its
course is short The
bracken is very red; The
cry of the barnacle goose Cold
has taken Season of ice;
a
stag bells; summer
has gone. the sun is low; the
sea is strong running. its shape has been hidden. has
become usual. the
wings of birds. this
is my tale. -FROM
THE LIBER HYMNORUM MANUSCRIPT
CHARACTERS (A
PARTIAL LlSTlNG) The Anglcyn Aeldred,
son of Gademar, King of the Anglcyn Elswith, his queen Athelbert Judit his children Kendra Gareth
Osbert,
son of Cuthwulf, Aeldred's chamberlain Burgred, Earl of Denferth The
Erlings Thorkell
Einarson, "Red Thorkell," exiled from Rabady Isle Frigga,
his wife, daughter of Skadi Bern
Thorkellson, his son Siv.
Athira, his daughters
Iord,
seer of Rabady, at the women's compound Anrid, a woman serving at the compound
Halldr
Thinshank, once governor of Rabady Isle, deceased Sturla
Ulfarson "Sturla One-hand," governor of Rabady
Gurd
Thollson Brand
Leofson Carsten Friddson Jormsvik
mercenaries Garr
Hoddson Guthrum Skallson
Thira,
a prostitute in Jormsvik Kjarten
Vidurson, ruling in Hlegest Siggur
Volganson, "the Volgan," deceased Mikkel
Ragnarson his grandsons Ivarr
Ragnarson
Ingemar
Svidrirson, of Erlond, paying tribute to King Aeldred Hakon Ingemarson, his son The
Cyngael Ceinion
of Llywerth, high cleric of the Cyngael, "Cingalus"
Dai
ab Owyn, heir to Prince Owyn of Cadyr Alun ab Owyn, his brother Gryffeth ap Ludh, their cousin
Brynn
ap Hywll, of Brynnfell in Arberth (and other residences), "Erling's
Bane" Enid,
his wife Rhiannon
mer Brynn, his daughter Helda,
Rania, Eirin, Rhiannon's women
Siawn,
leader of Brynn's fighting band Other Firaz
ibn Bakir, merchant of Fezana, in the Khalifate of Al-Rassan ONE A
horse, he came to understand, was missing. Until it was found nothing could
proceed. The island marketplace was crowded on this grey morning in spring.
Large, armed, bearded men were very much present, but they were not here for
trade. Not today. The market would not open, no matter how appealing the goods
on a ship from the south might be. He
had arrived, clearly, at the wrong time. Firaz
ibn Bakir, merchant of Fezana, deliberately embodying in his brightly coloured
silks (not nearly warm enough in the cutting wind) the glorious Khalifate of
Al-Rassan, could not help but see this delay as yet another trial imposed upon
him for transgressions in a less than virtuous life. It
was hard for a merchant to live virtuously. Partners demanded profit, and profit
was difficult to come by if one piously ignored the needs—and opportunities—of
the world of the flesh. The asceticism of a desert zealot was not, ibn Bakir
had long since decided, for him. At
the same time, it would be entirely unfair to suggest that he lived a life of
idleness and comfort. He had just endured (with such composure as Ashar and the
holy stars had granted him) three storms on the very long sea journey north and
then east, afflicted, as always at sea, by a stomach that heaved like the waves,
and with the roundship handled precariously by a continuously drunken captain.
Drinking was a profanation of the laws of Ashar, of course, but in this matter
ibn Bakir was not, lamentably, in a position to take a vigorous moral stand. Vigour
had been quite absent from him on the journey, in any case. It
was said among the Asharites, both in the eastern home-lands of Ammuz and
Soriyya, and in Al-Rassan, that the world of men could be divided into three
groups: those living, those dead, and those at sea. Ibn
Bakir had been awake before dawn this morning, praying to the last stars of the
night in thanks for his finally being numbered once more among those in the
blessed first group. Here
in the remote, pagan north, at this wind-scoured island market of Rabady, he
was anxious to begin trading his leather and cloth and spices and bladed
weapons for furs and amber and salt and heavy barrels of dried cod (to sell in
Ferrieres on the way home)—and to take immediate leave of these barbarian
Erlings, who stank of fish and beer and bear grease, who could kill a man In a
bargaining over prices, and who burned their leaders—savages that they were—on
ships among their belongings when they died. This
last, it was explained to him, was what the horse was all about. Why the
funeral rites of Halldr Thinshank, who had governed Rabady until three nights
ago, were currently suspended, to the visible consternation of an assembled
multitude of warriors and traders. The
offence to their gods of oak and thunder, and to the lingering shade of Halldr
(not a benign man in life, and unlikely to be so as a spirit), was
considerable, ibn Bakir was told. Ill omens of the gravest import were to be
assumed. No one wanted an angry, unhoused ghost lingering in a trading town.
The fur-clad, weapon-bearing men in the windy square were worried, angry, and
drunk, pretty much to a man. The
fellow doing the explaining, a bald-headed, ridiculously big Erling named
Ofnir, was known to ibn Bakir from two previous journeys. He had been useful
before, for a fee: the Erlings were ignorant, tree-worshipping pagans, but they
had firm ideas about what their services were worth. Ofnir
had spent some years in the east among the Emperor's Karchite Guard in
Sarantium. He had returned home with a little money, a curved sword in a
jewelled scabbard, two prominent scars (one on top of his head), and an
affliction contracted in a brothel near the Sarantine waterfront. Also, a
decent grasp of that difficult eastern tongue. In addition—usefully—he'd
mastered sufficient words in ibn Bakir's own Asharite to function as an
interpreter for the handful of southern merchants foolhardy enough to sail
along rocky coastlines fighting a lee shore, and then east into the frigid,
choppy waters of these northern seas to trade with the barbarians. The
Erlings were raiders and pirates, ravaging in their long-ships all through
these lands and waters and—increasinglydown south. But even pirates could be
seduced by the lure of trade, and Firaz ibn Bakir (and his partners) had reaped
profit from that truth. Enough so to have him back now for a third time,
standing in a knife-like wind on a bitter morning, waiting for them to get on
with burning Halldr Thinshank on a boat with his weapons and armour and his
best household goods and wooden images of the gods and one of his slave girls .
. . and a horse. A
pale grey horse, a beauty, Halldr's favourite, and missing. On a very small
island. Ibn
Bakir looked around. A sweeping gaze from the town square could almost
encompass Rabady. The harbour, a stony beach, with a score of Erling ships and
his own large roundship from the south—the first one in, which ought to
have been splendid news. This town, sheltering several hundred souls perhaps,
was deemed an important market in the northlands, a fact that brought private
amusement to the merchant from Fezana, a man who had been received by the
khalif in Cartada, who had walked in the gardens and heard the music of the
fountains there. No
fountains here. Beyond the stockade walls and the ditch surrounding them, a
quilting of stony farmland could be seen, then livestock grazing, then forest.
Beyond the pine woods, he knew, the sea swept round again, with the rocky
mainland of Vinmark across the strait. More farms there, fisher-villages along
the coast, then emptiness: mountains and trees for a very long way, to the
places where the reindeer ran (they said) in herds that could not be numbered,
and the men who lived among them wore antlers themselves to hunt, and practised
magics with blood in the winter nights. Ibn
Bakir had written these stories down during his last long journey home, had
told them to the khalif at an audience in Cartada, presented his writings along
with gifts of fur and amber. He'd been given gifts in return: a necklace, an
ornamental dagger. His name was known in Cartada now. It
occurred to him that it might be useful to observe and chronicle this
funeral—if the accursed rites ever began. He
shivered. It was cold in the blustering wind. An untidy dump of men made their
way towards him, tacking across the square as if they were on a ship together.
One man stumbled and bumped another; the second one swore, pushed back, put a
hand to his axe. A third intervened, and took a punch to the shoulder for his
pains. He ignored it like an insect bite. Another big man. They were all, ibn
Bakir thought sorrowfully, big men. It
came to him, belatedly, that this was not really a good time to be a stranger
on Rabady Isle, with the governor (they used an Erling word, but it meant, as
best ibn Bakir could tell, something very like a governor) dead and his funeral
rites marred by a mysteriously missing animal. Suspicions might fall. As
the group approached, he spread his hands, palms up, and brought them together
in front of him. He bowed formally. someone laughed. Someone stopped directly
in front of him, reached out, unsteadily, and fingered the pale yellow silk of
ibn Bakir's tunics, leaving a smear of grease. Ofnir, his interpreter, said
something in their language and the others laughed again. Ibn Bakir, alert now,
believed he detected an easing of tension. He had no idea what he'd do if he
was wrong. The
considerable profit you could make from trading with barbarians bore a direct
relation to the dangers of the journey—and the risks were not only at sea. He
was the youngest partner, investing less than the others, earning his share by
being the one who travelled . . . by allowing thick, rancid-smelling barbarian
fingers to tug at his clothing while he smiled and bowed and silently counted
the hours and days till the roundship might leave, its hold emptied and
refilled. "They
say," Ofnir spoke slowly, in the loud voice one used with the
simple-minded, "it is now known who take Halldr horse." His breath,
very close to ibn Bakir, smelled of herring and beer. His
tidings, however, were entirely sweet. It meant they didn't think the trader
from Al-Rassan, the stranger, had anything to do with it. Ibn Bakir had been
dubious about his ability, with two dozen words in their tongue and Ofnir's
tenuous skills, to make the obvious point that he'd just arrived the afternoon
before and had no earthly (or other) reason to impede local rites by stealing a
horse. These were not men currently in a condition to assess cogency of
argument. "Who
did it?" Ibn Bakir was only mildly curious. "Servant
to Halldr. Sold to him. Father make wrong killing. Sent away. Son have no right
family now." Lack
of family appeared to be an explanation for theft here, ibn Bakir thought
wryly. That seemed to be what Ofnir was conveying. He knew someone back home
who would find this diverting over a glass of good wine. "So
he took the horse? Where? Into the woods?" Ibn Bakir gestured at the pines
beyond the fields. Ofnir
shrugged. He pointed out into the square. Ibn Bakir saw that men were now
mounting horses there—not always smoothly—and riding towards the open town gate
and the plank bridge across the ditch. Others ran or walked beside them. He
heard shouts. Anger, yes, but also something else: zest, liveliness. The
promise of sport. "He
will soon found," Ofnir said, in what passed here in the northlands for
Asharite. Ibn
Bakir nodded. He watched two men gallop past. One screamed suddenly as he
passed and swung his axe in vicious, whistling circles over his head, for no
evident reason. "What
will they do to him?" he asked, not caring very much. Ofnir snorted. Spoke
quickly in Erling to the others, evidently repeating the question. There
was a burst of laughter. One of them, in an effusion of good humour, punched
ibn Bakir on the shoulder. The
merchant, regaining his balance, rubbing at his numbed arm, realized that he'd
asked a naive question. Blood-eagle
death, maybe," said Ofnir, flashing yellow teeth in a wide grin, making a
complex two-handed gesture the southern merchant was abruptly pleased not to understand.
"You see? her you see?" Firaz
ibn Bakir, a long way from home, shook his head.
+
He
could blame his father, and curse him, even go to the women at the compound
outside the walls and pay to have them evoke seithr. The volur might
then send a night-spirit to possess his father, wherever he was. But there was
something cowardly about that, and a warrior could not be a coward and still go
to the gods when he died. Besides which, he had no money. Riding
in darkness before the first moon rose, Bern Thorkellson thought bitterly about
the bonds of family. He could smell his own fear and laid a hand forward on the
horse's neck to gentle it. It was too black to go quickly on this rough ground
near the woods, and he could not—for obvious reasons—carry a torch. He
was entirely sober, which was useful. A man could die sober as well as drunken,
he supposed, but had a better chance of avoiding some kinds of death. Of course
it could also be said that no truly sober man would have done what he was doing
now unless claimed by a spirit himself, ghost-ridden, god-tormented. Bern
didn't think he was crazed, but he'd have acknowledged freely that what he was
doing—without having planned it at all—was not the wisest thing he'd ever done. He
concentrated on riding. There was no good reason for anyone to be abroad in
these fields at night—farmers would be asleep behind doors, the shepherds would
have their herds farther west—but there was always the chance of someone hoping
to find a cup of ale at some hut, or meeting a girl, or looking for some-thing
to steal. He
was stealing a dead man's horse, himself. A
warrior's vengeance would have had him kill Halldr Thinshank long ago and face
the blood feud after, beside whatever distant kin, if any, might come to his
aid. Instead, Halldr had died when the main crossbeam of the new house he was
having built (with money that didn't belong to him) fell on his back, breaking
it. And Bern had stolen the grey horse that was to be burned with the governor
tomorrow. It
would delay the rites, he knew, disquiet the ghost of the man who had exiled
Bern's father and taken his mother as a second wife. The man who had also, not
incidentally, ordered Bern himself bound for three years as a servant to Arni
Kjellson, recompense for his father's crime. A
young man named to servitude, with an exiled father, and so without any
supporting family or name, could not readily proclaim himself a warrior among
the Erlings unless he went so far from home that his history was unknown. His
father had probably done that, raiding overseas again. Red-bearded,
fierce-tempered, experienced. A perfect oarsman for some longship, if he didn't
kill a benchmate in a fury, Bern thought sourly. He knew his father's capacity
for rage. Arni Kjellson's brother Nikar was dead of it. Halldr
might fairly have exiled the murderer and given away half his land to stop a
feud, but marrying the exile's wife and claiming land for himself smacked too
much of reaping in pleasure what he'd sowed as a judge. Bern Thorkellson, an
only son with two sisters married and off the island, had found himself
changed—in a blur of time—from the heir of a celebrated raider-turned-farmer to
a landless servant without kin to protect him. Could any man wonder if there
was bitterness in him, and more than that? He'd loathed Rabady's governor with
cold passion. A hatred shared by more than a few, if words whispered in ale
were to be believed. Of
course no one else had ever done anything about Halldr. Bern was the one
now riding Thinshank's favourite stallion amid stones and boulders in cold
darkness on the night before the governor's pyre was to be lit on a ship by the
rocky beach. Not
the wisest action of his life, agreed. For
one thing, he hadn't anything even vaguely resembling a plan. He'd been lying
awake, listening to the snoring and snorting of the other two servants in the
shed behind Kjellson's house. Not unusual, that wakefulness: bitterness could
suck a man from sleep. But somehow he'd found himself on his feet this time,
dressing, pulling on boots and the bearskin vest he'd been able to keep so far,
though he'd had to fight for it. He'd gone outside, pissed against the shed
wall, and then walked through the silent blackness of the town to Halldr's
house (Frigga, his mother, lying somewhere inside, alone now, without a husband
for the second time in a year). He'd
slipped around the side, eased open the door to the stable, listened to the boy
there, snuffling in the dreams of a straw-covered sleep, and then led the big
grey horse called Gyllir quietly out under the watching stars. The
stableboy never stirred. No one appeared in the lane. Only the named shapes of
heroes and beasts in the gods' sky overhead. He'd been alone in Rabady with the
night-spirits. It had felt like a dream. The
town gate was locked when danger threatened but not otherwise. Rabady was an
island. Bern and the grey horse had walked right through the square by the
harbour, past the shuttered booths, down the middle of the empty street,
through the open gates, across the bridge over the ditch into the night fields. As
simple as that, as life-altering. Life-ending
was probably the better way to describe it, he decided, given that this was
not, in fact, a dream. He had no access to a boat that could carry the horse,
and come sunrise a goodly number of extremely angry men—appalled at his impiety
and their own exposure to an unhoused ghost—would begin looking for the horse.
When they found the son of exiled Thorkell also missing, the only challenging
decision would be how to kill him. This
did raise a possibility, given that he was sober and capable of thought. He could
change his mind and go back. Leave the horse out here to be found. A minor,
disturbing incident. They might blame it on ghosts or wood spirits. Bern could
be back in his shed, asleep behind Arni Kjellson's village house, before anyone
was the wiser. Could even join the morning search for the horse, if fat
Kjellson let him off wood-splitting to go. They'd
find the grey, bring it back, strangle and burn it on the drifting longship with
Halldr Thinshank and whichever girl had won her spirit a place among warriors
and gods by drawing the straw that freed her from the slow misery of her life. Bern
guided the horse across a stream. The grey was big, restive, but knew him.
Kjellson had been properly grateful to the governor when half of Red Thorkell's
farm and house were settled on him, and he had assigned his servants to labour
for Thinshank at regular times. Bern was one of those servants now, by the same
judgement that had given his family's lands to Kjellson. He had groomed the
grey stallion often, walked him, cleaned out his straw. A magnificent horse, better than Halldr had ever deserved. There
was nowhere to run this horse properly on Rabady; he was purely for display, an
affirmation of wealth. Another reason, probably, why the thought of taking it
away had come to him tonight in the dangerous space between dream and the
waking world. He
rode on in the chill night. Winter was over, but it still had Its hard fingers
in the earth. Their lives were defined by it here in the north. Bern was cold,
even with the vest. At
least he knew where he was going now; that much seemed to have come to him. The
land his father had bought with looted gold (mostly from the celebrated raid in
Ferrieres twenty-five years ago) was on the other side of the village, south
and west. He was aiming for the northern fringes of the trees. He
saw the shape of the marker boulder and guided the horse past it. They'd killed
and buried a girl there to bless the fields, so long ago the inscription on the
marker had faded away. It hadn't done much good. The land near the forest was
too stony to be properly tilled. Ploughs broke up behind oxen or horses, metal
rending, snapping off. Hard, ungiving soil. Sometimes the harvests
were adequate, but most of the food that fed Rabady came from the mainland. The
boulder cast a shadow. He looked up, saw the blue moon had risen from beyond the woods. Spirits'
moon. It occurred to him, rather too late, that the ghost of Halldr Thinshank
could not be unaware of what was happening to his horse. Halldr's lingering
soul would be set free only with the ship-burial and burning tomorrow. Tonight
it could be abroad in the dark—which was where Bern was. He
made the hammer sign, invoking both Ingavin and Thьnir. He shivered again. A
stubborn man he was. Too clever for his own good? His father's son in that?
He'd deny it, at a blade's end. This had nothing to do with Thorkell. He was
pursuing his own feud with Halldr and the town, not his father's. You exiled a
murderer (twice a murderer) if need be. You didn't condemn his freeborn son to
years of servitude and a landless fate for the father's crime—and expect him to
forgive. A man without land had nothing, could not marry, speak in the thringmoot,
claim honour or pride. His life and name were marred, broken as a plough by
stones. He
ought to have killed Halldr. Or Arni Kjellson. Or someone. He wondered,
sometimes, where his own rage lay. He didn't seem to have that fury, like a
berserkir in battle. Or like his father in drink. His
father had killed people, raiding with Siggur Volganson, and here at home. Bern
hadn't done anything so . . . direct. Instead, he'd stolen a horse secretly in
the dark and was now heading, for want of anything close to a better idea, to
see if woman's magic—the volur's—could offer him aid in the depths of a night.
Not a brilliant plan, but the only one that had come to him. The women would
probably scream, raise an alarm, turn him in. That
did make him think of something. A small measure of prudence. He turned east
towards the risen moon and the edge of the wood, dismounted, and led the horse
a short way in. He looped the rope to a tree trunk. He was not about to walk up
to the women's compound leading an obviously stolen horse. This called for some
trickery. It
was hard to be devious when you had no idea what you were doing. He
despised the bleak infliction of this life upon him. Was unable, it seemed, to
even consider two more years of servitude, with no assurance of a return to any
proper status afterwards. So, no, he wasn't going back, leaving the stallion to
be found, slipping into his straw in the freezing shed behind Kjellson's house.
That was over. The sagas told of moments when the hero's fate changed, when he
came to the axle-tree. He wasn't a hero, but he wasn't going back. Not by
choice. He
was likely to die tonight or tomorrow. No rites for him when that happened.
There would be an excited quarrel over how to kill a defiling horse thief, how
slowly, and who most deserved the pleasure of it. They would be drunk and
happy. Bern thought of the blood-eagle then; pushed the image from his mind. Even
the heroes died. Usually young. The brave went to Ingavin's halls. He wasn't
sure if he was brave. It
was dense and black in the trees. He felt the pine needles underfoot. Wood
smells: moss, pine, scent of a fox. Bern listened; heard nothing but his own
breathing, and the horse's. Gyllir seemed calm enough. He left him there,
turned north again, still in the woods, towards where he thought the volur's
compound was. He'd seen it a few times, a clearing carved out a little way
into the forest. If someone had magic, Bern thought, they could deal with
wolves. Or even make use of them. It was said that the women who lived here had
tamed some of the beasts, could speak their language. Bern didn't believe that.
He made the hammer sign again, however, with the thought. He'd
have missed the branching path in the blackness if it hadn't been for the
distant spill of lantern light. It was late for that, the bottom of a night,
but he had no idea what laws or rules women such as these would observe.
Perhaps the seer—the volur—stayed awake all night, sleeping by day like
the owls. The sense of being in a dream returned. He wasn't going to go back,
and he didn't want to die. Those
two things together could bring you out alone in night approaching a seer's
cabin through black trees. The lights—there were two of them—grew brighter as
he came nearer. He could see the path, and then the clearing, and the
structures beyond a fence: one large cabin, smaller ones flanking it,
evergreens in a circle around, as if held at bay. An
owl cried behind him. A moment later Bern realized that it wasn't an owl. No
going back now, even if his feet would carry him. He'd been seen, or heard. The
compound gate was closed and locked. He climbed over the fence. Saw a brewhouse
and a locked storeroom with a heavy door. Walked past them into the glow cast
by the lamplight in the windows of the largest cabin. The other buildings were
dark. He stopped and cleared his throat. It was very quiet. "Ingavin's
peace upon all dwelling here." He
hadn't said a word since rising from his bed. His voice sounded jarring and
abrupt. No response from within, no one to be seen. "I
come without weapons, seeking guidance." The
lanterns flickered as before in the windows on either side of the cabin door.
He saw smoke rising from the chimney. There was a small garden on the far side
of the building, mostly bare this early in the year, with the snow just gone. He
heard a noise behind him, wheeled. "It
is deep in the bowl of night," said the woman, who unlocked and closed the
outer gate behind her, entering the yard. She was hooded; in the darkness it
was impossible to see her face. Her voice was low. "Our visitors come by
daylight . . . bearing gifts." Bern
looked down at his empty hands. Of course. Seithr had a price.
Everything in the world did, it seemed. He shrugged, tried to appear
indifferent. After a moment, he took off his vest. Held it out. The woman stood
motionless, then came forward and took it, wordlessly. He saw that she limped,
favouring her right leg. When she came near, he realized that she was young, no
older than he was. She
walked to the door of the cabin, knocked. It opened, just a little. Bern
couldn't see who stood within. The young woman entered; the door closed. He was
alone again, in a clearing under stars and the one moon. It was colder now
without the vest. His
older sister had made it for him. Siv was in Vinmark, on he mainland, married,
two children, maybe another by now .. . they'd had no reply after sending word
of Thorkell's exile a year ago. He hoped her husband was kind, had not changed
with the news of her father's banishment. He might have: shame could come from
a wife's kin, bad blood for his own sons, a check to his ambitions. That could
alter a man. There
would be more shame when tidings of his own deeds crossed the water. Both his
sisters might pay for what he'd done tonight. He hadn't thought about that. He
hadn't thought very much at all. He'd only gotten up from bed and taken a horse
before the ghost moon rose, as in a dream. The
cabin door opened. The
woman with the limp came out, standing in the spill of light. She motioned to
him and so he walked forward. He felt afraid, didn't want to show it. He came
up to her and saw her make a slight gesture and realized she hadn't seen him
clearly before, in the darkness. She still had her hood up, hiding her face; he
registered yellow hair, quick eyes. She opened her mouth as if to say something
but didn't speak. Just motioned for him to enter. Bern went within and she
pulled the door shut behind him, from outside. He didn't know where she was
going. He didn't know what she'd been doing
outside, so late. He
really didn't know much at all. Why else come to ask of women's magic what a
man ought to do for himself? Taking
a deep breath he looked around by firelight, and the lamps at both windows, and
over against the far wall on a long table. It was warmer than he'd expected. He
saw his vest lying on a second table in the middle of the room, among a clutter
of objects: conjuring bones, a stone dagger, a small hammer, a carving of
Thьnir, a tree branch, twigs, soapstone pots of various sizes. There were herbs
strewn everywhere, lying on the table, others in pots and bags on the other
long surface against the wall. There was a chair on top of that table at the
back, and two blocks of wood in front of it, for steps. He had no idea what
that meant. He saw a skull on the nearer table. Kept his face impassive. "Why
take a dead man's horse, Bern Thorkellson?" Bern
jumped, no chance of concealing it. His heart hammered. The voice came from the
most shadowed corner of the room, near the back, to his right. Smoke drifted
from a candle, recently extinguished. A bed there, a woman sitting upon it.
They said she drank blood, the volur, that her spirit could leave her
body and converse with spirits. That her curse killed. That she was past a
hundred years old and knew where the Volgan's sword was. "How
. . . how do you know what I . . . ?" he stammered. Foolish question. She
even knew his name. She
laughed at him. A cold laughter. He could have been in his straw right now,
Bern thought, a little desperately. Sleeping. Not here. "What
power could I claim, Bern Thorkellson, if I didn't know that much of someone
come in the night?" He
swallowed. She
said, "You hated him so much? Thinshank?" Bern
nodded. What point denying? "I
had cause," he said. "Indeed,"
said the seer. "Many had cause. He married your mother, did he not?" "That
isn't why," Bern said. She
laughed again. "No? Do you hate your father also?" He swallowed
again. He felt himself beginning to sweat. "A clever man, Thorkell
Einarson." Bern
snorted bitterly, couldn't help it. "Oh, very. Exiled himself, ruined his
family, lost his land." "A
temper when he drank. But a shrewd man, as I recall. Is his son?" He
still couldn't see her clearly, a shadow on a bed. Had she been asleep? They
said she didn't sleep. "You
will be killed for this," she said. Her voice held a dry amusement more
than anything else. "They will fear an angry ghost." "I
know that," said Bern. "It is why I have come. I need .. .
counsel." He paused. "Is it clever to know that much, at least?" "Take
the horse back," she said, blunt as a hammer. He
shook his head. "I wouldn't need magic to do that. I need counsel for how
to live. And not go back." He
saw her shift on the bed then. She stood up. Came forward. The light fell upon
her, finally. She wasn't a hundred years old. She
was very tall, thin and bony, his mother's age, perhaps more. Her hair was long
and plaited and fell on either side of her head like a maiden's, but grey. Her
eyes were a bright, icy blue, her face lined, long, no beauty in it, a hard
authority. Cruelty. A raider's face, had she been a man. She wore a heavy robe,
dyed the colour of old blood. An expensive colour. He looked at her and was
afraid. Her fingers were very long. "You
think a bearskin vest, badly made, buys you access to seithr?" she
said. Her name was Iord, he suddenly remembered. Forgot who had told him that,
long ago. In daylight. Bern
cleared his throat. "It isn't badly made," he protested. She didn't
bother responding, stood waiting. He
said, "I have no other gifts to give. I am a servant to Arni Kjellson
now." He looked at her, standing as straight as he could. "You said .
. . many had reason to hate Halldr. Was he . . . generous to you and the women
here?" A
guess, a gamble, a throw of dice on a tavern table among beakers of ale. He
hadn't known he would say that. Had no idea whence the question had come. She
laughed again. A different tone this time. Then she was silent, looking at him
with those hard eyes. Bern waited, his heart still pounding. She
came abruptly forward, moved past him to the table in the middle of the room,
long-striding for a woman. He caught a scent about her as she went: pine resin,
something else, an animal smell. She picked up some of the herbs, threw them in
a bowl, took that and crossed to the back table for something beside the raised
chair, put that in the bowl, too. He couldn't see what. With the hammer she
began pounding and grinding, her back to him. Still
working, her movements decisive, she said suddenly, "You had no thought of
what you might do, son of Thorkell, son of Frigga? You just stole a horse. On
an island. Is that it?" Stung,
Bern said, "Shouldn't your magic tell you my thoughts—or lack of
them?" She
laughed again. Glanced at him briefly then, over her shoulder. The eyes were
bright. "If I could read a mind and future just from a man entering my
room, I'd not be by the woods on Rabady Isle in a cabin with a leaking roof.
I'd be at Kjarten Vidurson's hall in Hlegest, or in Ferrieres, or even with the
Emperor in Sarantium." "Jaddites?
They'd burn you for pagan magic." She
was still amused, still crushing herbs in the stone bowl. "Not if I told
their future truly," she said. "Sun god or no, kings want to know
what will be. Even Aeldred would welcome me, could I look at any man and know
all of him." "Aeldred?
No he wouldn't." She
glanced back at him again. "You are wrong. His hunger is for knowledge, as
much as for anything. Your father may even know that by now, if he's gone
raiding among the Anglcyn." "Has
he? Gone raiding there?" He asked before he could stop himself. He
heard her laughing; she didn't even look back at him this time. She
came again to the near table and took a flask of some-thing. Poured a thick,
pasty liquid into the bowl, stirred it, then poured it all back into the flask.
Bern felt afraid still, watching her. This was magic. He was entangling himself
with it. Witchery. Seithr. Dark as the night was, as the way of women in
the dark. His
own choice, though. He had come for this. And it seemed she was doing
something. There
was a movement, from over by the fire. He looked quickly. Took an involuntary
step backwards, an oath escaping him. Something slithered across the floor and
beneath the far table. It disappeared behind a chest against that wall. The
seer followed his gaze, smiled. "Ah. You see my new friend? They brought
me a serpent today, the ship from the south. They said his poison was gone. I
had him bite one of the girls, to be sure. I need a serpent. They change worlds
when they change skin, did you know that?" He
hadn't known that. Of course he hadn't known that. He kept his gaze on the
wooden chest. Nothing moved, but it was there, coiled, behind. He felt much too
warm now, smelled his own sweat. He
finally looked back at her. Her eyes were waiting, held his. "Drink,"
she said. No
one had made him come here. He took the flask from her hand. She had rings on
three fingers. He drank. The herbs were thick in the drink, hard to swallow. "Half
only," she said quickly. He stopped. She took the flask and drained it
herself. Put it down on the table. Said something in a low voice he couldn't
hear. Turned back to him. "Undress,"
she said. He stared at her. "A vest will not buy your future or the spirit
world's guidance, but a young man always has another offering to give." He
didn't understand at first, and then he did. A
glitter in her coldness. She had to be older than his mother, lined and seamed,
her breasts sunken on her chest beneath the dark red robe. Bern closed his
eyes. "I
must have your seed, Bern Thorkellson, if you wish seithr's power. You
require more than a seer's vision, and before daybreak, or they will find you
and cut you apart before they allow you to die." Her gaze was pitiless.
"You know it to be so." He
knew it. His mouth was dry. He looked at her. "You
hated him too?" "Undress,"
she said again. He
pulled his tunic over his head. It
ought to have been a dream, all of this. It wasn't. He removed his boots,
leaning against the table. She watched, her eyes never leaving him, very
bright, very blue. His hand on the table touched the skull. It wasn't human, he
saw, belatedly. A wolf, most likely. He wasn't reassured. She
wasn't here to reassure. He was inside another world, or in the doorway to it:
women's world, gateway to women's knowing. Shadows and blood. A serpent in the
room. On the ship from the south . . . they had traded during the banned time,
before the funeral rites. He didn't think, somehow, they would be troubled by
that here. They said his poison was gone. He felt whatever he had just
drunk in his veins now. "Go
on," said the seer. A woman ought not to watch like this, Bern thought,
tasting his fear again. He hesitated, then took off his trousers, was naked
before her. He squared his shoulders. He saw her smile, the thin mouth. He felt
light-headed. What had she given him to drink? She gestured; his feet carried
him across the room to her bed. "Lie
down," she said, watching him. "On your back." He
did what she told him. He had left the world where things were as they . . .
ought to be. He had left it when he took the dead man's horse. She walked about
the room and pinched shut or blew out the candles and lamps, so only the
firelight glowed, red on the farthest wall. In the near-dark it was easier. She
came back, stood over against her bed where he lay—an outline against the fire,
looking down upon him. She reached out, slowly—he saw her hand moving—and
touched his manhood. Bern
closed his eyes again. He'd thought her touch would be cold, like age, like
death, but it wasn't. She moved her fingers, down and back up, and then slowly
down again. He felt himself, even amid fear and a kind of horror, becoming
aroused. A roaring in his blood. The drink? This wasn't like a romp with Elli
or Anrida in the stubbled fields after harvesting, in the straw of their barn
by moonlight. This
wasn't like anything. "Good,"
whispered the volur, and repeated it, her hand moving. "It needs
your seed to be done, you see. You have a gift for me." Her
voice had changed again, deepened. She withdrew her hand. Bern trembled, kept
his eyes tightly closed, heard a rustling as she shed her own robe. He wondered
suddenly where the serpent was; pushed that thought away. The bed shifted, he
felt her hands on his shoulders, a knee by one hip, and then the other, smelled
her scent—and then she mounted him from above without hesitation and sheathed
him within her, hard. Bern
gasped, heard a sound torn from her. And with that, he understood—without
warning or expectation—that he had a power here, after all. Even in this place
of magic. She needed what was his to give. And it was that awareness, a kind of
surging, that took him over, more than any other shape desire might wear, as
the woman—the witch, volur, wise woman, seer, whatever she would be
named—began rocking upon him, breathing harder. Crying a name then (not his),
her hips moving as in a spasm. He made himself open his eyes, saw her head
thrown back, her mouth wide open, her own eyes closed now upon need as she rode
him wildly like a night horse of her own dark dreaming and claimed for herself—now,
with his own harsh, torn spasm—the seed she said she needed to work magic in
the night.
"Get
dressed." She
swung off his body and up from the bed. No lingering, no aftermath. The voice
brittle and cold again. She put on her robe and went to the near wall of the cabin,
rapped three times on it, hard. She looked back at him, her glance bleak as
before, as if the woman upon him moments ago, with her closed eyes and
shuddering breath, had never existed in the world. "Unless you'd prefer
the others see you like this when they come in?" Bern
moved. As he hurried into clothing and boots, she crossed to the fire, took a
taper, and began lighting the lamps again. Before they were all lit, before he
had his overshirt on, the outside door opened and four women came in, moving
quickly. He had a sense they'd been trying to catch him before he was dressed.
Which meant they had .. . He
took a breath. He didn't know what it meant. He was lost here, in this cabin,
in the night. One
of the women carried a dark blue cloak, he saw. She took this to the volur and
draped it about her, fastening it at one shoulder with a silver torque. Three
of the others, none of them young, took over dealing with the lamps. The last
one began preparing another mixture at the table, using a different bowl. No
one said a word. Bern didn't see the young girl who'd spoken to him outside. After
their entrance and quick glances at him, none of the women even seemed to
acknowledge his presence here. A man, meaningless. He hadn't been, just before,
though, had he? A part of him wanted to say that. Bern slipped his head and
arms into his shirt and stood near the rumpled bed. He felt oddly awake now,
alert—something in the drink she'd given him? The
one making the new mixture poured it into a beaker and carried it to the seer,
who drained it at once, making a face. She went over to the blocks of wood
before the back table. A woman on each side helped her step up and then seat
herself on the elevated chair. There were lights burning now, all through the
room. The volur nodded. The
four women began to chant in a tongue Bern didn't know. One of the lamps by the
bed suddenly went out. Bern felt the hairs on the back of his neck stand up.
This was seithr, magic, not just foretelling. The seer closed her eyes
and gripped the arms of her heavy chair, as if afraid she might be carried off.
One of the other women, still chanting, moved with a taper past Bern and relit
the extinguished lamp. Returning, she paused by him for a moment. She squeezed
his buttocks with one hand, saying nothing, not even looking at him. Then she
rejoined the others in front of the elevated chair. Her gesture, casual and
controlling, was exactly like a warrior's with a serving girl passing his bench
in a tavern. Bern's
face reddened. He clenched his fists. But just then the seer spoke from her
seat above them, her eyes still closed, hands clutching the chair arms, her
voice high—greatly altered—but saying words he could understand.
They'd
given him back his vest which was a blessing. The night felt even colder after
the warmth inside. He walked slowly, eyes not yet adjusted to blackness, moving
away from the compound lights through the trees on either side. He was
concentrating: on finding his way, and on remembering exactly what the volur
had told him. The instructions had been precise. Magic involved precision,
it seemed. A narrow path to walk, ruin on either side, a single misstep away.
He still felt the effects of the drink, a sharpening of perception. A part of
him was aware that what he was doing now could be seen as mad, but it didn't
feel that way. He felt . . . protected. He
heard the horse before he saw it. Wolves might eat the moons, heralding the end
of days and the death of gods, but they hadn't found Halldr's grey horse yet.
Bern spoke softly, that the animal might know his voice as he approached. He
rubbed Gyllir's mane, untied the rope from the tree, led him back out into the
field. The blue moon was high now, waning, the night past its deepest point,
turning towards dawn. He would have to move quickly. What
did she tell you to do?" Bern
wheeled. Sharpened perceptions or not, he hadn't heard anyone approach. If he'd
had a sword he'd have drawn it, but he didn't even have a dagger. It was a
woman's voice, though, and he recognized it. "What
are you doing here?" "Saving
your life," she said. "Perhaps. It may not be possible." She
limped forward from the trees. He hadn't heard her approach because she'd been
waiting for him, he realized. "What do you mean?" "Answer
my question. What did she tell you to do?" Bern
hesitated. Gyllir snorted, swung his head, restive now. "Do
this, tell me that, stand here, go there," Bern said. "Why do all
of you enjoy giving orders so much?" "I
can leave," the young woman said mildly. Though she was still hooded, he saw
her shrug. "And I certainly haven't ordered you to undress and get into
bed for me." Bern
went crimson. He was desperately glad of the darkness, suddenly. She waited. It
was true, he thought, she could walk away and he'd be . . . exactly where he'd
been a moment ago. He had no idea what she was doing here, but that ignorance
was of a piece with everything else tonight. He could almost have found it
amusing, if it hadn't been so thickly trammelled in . . . woman things. "She
made a spell," he said, finally, "up on that chair, in the blue
cloak. For magic." "I
know about the chair and cloak," the girl said impatiently. "Where is
she sending you?" "Back
to town. She's made me invisible to them. I can ride right down the street and
no one will see me." He heard the note of triumph enter his voice. Well,
why not? It was astonishing. "I'm to go onto the southerners'
ship—there's a ramp out, by law, it is open for inspection—and go straight down
into the hold." "With
a horse?" He
nodded. "They have animals. There's a ramp down, too." "And
then?" "Stay
there till they leave, and get off at their next port of call. Ferrieres,
probably." He
could see she was staring straight at him. "Invisible? With a horse? On a
ship?" He
nodded again. She
began to laugh. Bern felt himself flushing again. "You find this amusing?
Your own volur's power? Women's magic?" She
was trying to collect herself, a hand to her mouth. "Tell me," she
asked, finally, "if you can't be seen, how am I looking at you?" Bern's
heart knocked hard against his ribs. He rubbed a hand across his forehead.
Found that he couldn't speak for a moment. "You,
ah, are one of them. Part of, ah, the seithr?" She
took a step towards him. He saw her shake her head within the hooded robe. She
wasn't laughing now. "Bern Thorkellson, I see you because you aren't under
any spell. You will be taken as soon as you enter the town. Captured like a
child. She lied to you." He
took a deep breath. Looked up at the sky. Ghost moon, early spring stars. His
hands were trembling, holding the horse's reins. "Why
would ... she said she hated Halldr as much as I did!" "That's
true. He was no friend to us. Thinshank's dead, though. She can use the
goodwill of whoever becomes governor now. Her capturing you—and they will be
told before midday that she put you under a spell and forced you to ride back
to them—is a way to achieve that, isn't it?" He
didn't feel guarded any more. "We
need food and labour out here," she went on calmly. "We need the fear
and assistance of the town, both. All volurs require this, wherever they
are. You become her way of starting again after the long quarrel with Halldr.
Your coming here tonight was a gift to her." He
thought of the woman above him in the bed, lit only by the fire. "In
more ways than one," the girl added, as if reading his thoughts. "She
has no power, no seithr?" "I
didn't say that. Although I don't think she does." "There's no magic?
Nothing to make a man invisible?" She
laughed again. "If one spearman can't hit a target when he throws, do you
decide that spears are useless?" It was too dark to make out any
expression on her face. He realized something. "You
hate her," he said. "That's why you are here. Because .. . because
she had the snake bite you!" He
could see she was surprised, hesitating for the first time. "I don't love
her, no," she agreed. "But I wouldn't be here because of that." "Why
then?" Bern asked, a little desperately. Again
a pause. He wished, now, that there were light. He still hadn't seen her face. She
said, "We are kin, Bern Thorkellson. I'm here because of that." "What?"
He was stunned. "Your
sister married my brother, on the mainland." "Siv married . . .
?" "No,
Athira wedded my brother Gevin." He
felt abruptly angry, couldn't have said why. "That doesn't make us kin,
woman." Even
in darkness he could see that he had wounded her. The
horse moved again, whickered, impatient with standing. The woman said, "I
am a long way from home. Your family is
the closest I have on this island, I suppose. Forgive me for presuming." His
family was landless, his father exiled. He was a servant, compelled to sleep in
a barn on straw for two more years. "What
presumption?" Bern said roughly. "That isn't what I meant." He
wasn't sure what he'd meant. There
was a silence. He was thinking hard. "You were sent to the volur? They
reported you had a gift?" The
hood moved up and down. "Curious, how often unwed youngest daughters have
a gift, isn't it?" "Why
did I never hear of you?" "We
are meant to be unattached, to be the more dependent. That's why they bring
girls from distant villages and farms. All the seers do that. I've spoken to
your mother, though." "You
have? What? Why . . . ?" The
shrug again. "Frigga's a woman. Athira gave me a message for her." "You
all have your tricks, don't you?" He felt bitter, suddenly. "Swords
and axes are so much better, aren't they?" she said sharply. She was
staring at him again, though he knew the darkness hid his face, too.
"We're all trying to make ourselves a life, Bern Thorkellson. Men and
women both. Why else are you out here now?" Bitterness
still. "Because my father is a fool who killed a man." "And his
son is what?" "A
fool about to die before the next moon rises. A good way to . . . make a life,
isn't it? Useful kin for you to have." She
said nothing, looked away. He heard the horse again. Felt the wind, a change in
it, as though the night had indeed turned, moving now towards dawn. "The
snake," he said awkwardly. "Is it . . . ?" "I'm
not poisoned. It hurts." "You
... walked out here a long way." "There's
one of us out all night on watch. We take turns, the younger ones. People come
in the dark. That's how I saw you on the horse and told her." "No,
I meant . . . just now. To warn me." "Oh."
She paused. "You believe me, then?" For
the first time, a note of doubt, wistfulness. She was betraying the volur for
him. He
grinned crookedly. "You are looking right at me, as you said. I can't be
that hard to see. Even a piss-drunk raider falling off his horse will spot me
when the sun comes up. Yes, I believe you." She
let out a breath. "What
will they do to you?" he asked. It had just occurred to him. "If
they find out I was here? I don't want to think about it." She paused.
"Thank you for asking." He
felt suddenly shamed. Cleared his throat. "If I don't ride back into the
village, will they know you . . . warned me?" Her
laughter again, unexpected, bright and quick. "They could possibly decide
you were clever, by yourself." He
laughed too. Couldn't help it. Was aware that it could be seen as a madness
sent by the gods, laughter at the edge of dying one hideous death or another.
Not like the mindlessness of the water-disease--a man bitten by a sick fox—but
the madness where one has lost hold of the way things are. Laughter here,
another kind of strangeness in this dark by the wood among the spirits of the
dead, with the blue moon overhead, pursued by a wolf in the sky. The
world would end when that wolf caught the two moons. He had more immediate
problems, actually. "What
will you do?" she asked. The third time she'd seemed to track his
thoughts. Perhaps it was more than being a youngest daughter, this matter of
having a gift. He wished, again, he could see her clearly. But,
as it happened, he did know, finally, the answer to her question. Once,
years ago, his father had been in a genial mood one evening as they'd walked
out together to repair a loose door on their barn. Thorkell wasn't always
drunk, or even often so (being honest with his own memories). That summer
evening he was sober and easy, and the measure of that mood was that, after
finishing the work, the two of them went walking, towards the northern boundary
of their land, and Thorkell spoke of his raiding days to his only son,
something that rarely happened. Thorkell
Einarson had not been a man given to boasting, or to offering scraps of advice
from the table of his recollections. This made him unusual among the Erlings,
or those that Bern knew, at any rate. It wasn't always easy having an unusual
father, though a boy could take some dark pride in seeing Thorkell feared by
others as much as he was. They whispered about him, pointed him out, carefully,
to merchants visiting the isle. Bern, a watchful child, had seen it happen. Other
men had told the boy tales; he knew something of what his father had done.
Companion and friend to Siggur Volganson himself right to the end. Voyages in
storm, raids in the dark. Escaping the Cyngael after Siggur died and his sword
was lost. A journey alone across the Cyngael lands, then the width of the
Anglcyn kingdom to the eastern coast, and finally home across the sea to
Vinmark and this isle. "I
recollect a night like this, a long time ago," his father said, leaning
back against the boulder that marked the boundary of their land. "We went
too far from the boats and they cut us off—Cuthbert's'household guard, his best
men—between a wood and a stream." Cuthbert
had been king of the Anglcyn in the years when Thorkell was raiding with the
Volgan. Bern knew that much. He
remembered loving moments such as that one had been, the two of them together,
the sun setting, the air mild, his father mild, and talking to him. "Siggur
said something to us that night. He said there are times when all you can do to
survive is one single thing, however unlikely it may be, and so you act as if
it can be done. The only chance we had was that the enemy was too sure
of victory, and had not posted outliers against a night breakout." Thorkell
looked at his son. "You understand that everyone posts outlying
guards? It is the most basic thing an army does. It is mad not to. They had to
have them, there was no chance they didn't." Bern
nodded. "So
we spoke our prayers to Ingavin and broke out," Thorkell said,
matter-of-factly. "Maybe sixty men—two boats' worth of us—against two
hundred, at the least. A blind rush in the dark, some of us on stolen horses,
some running, no order to it, only speed. The whole thing being to get to their
camp, and through it—take some horses on the run if we could—cut back towards
the ships two days away." Thorkell
paused then, looking out over summer farmlands, towards the woods. "They
didn't have outliers. They were waiting for morning to smash us, were mostly
asleep, a few still singing and drinking. We killed thirty or forty of them,
got horses for some of our unmounted, took two thegns hostage, by blind
luck—couldn't tell who they were in the dark. And we sold them back to Cuthbert
the next day for our freedom to get to the boats and sail away." He'd
actually grinned, Bern remembered, behind the red beard. His father had rarely
smiled. "The
Anglcyn in the west rebelled against King Cuthbert after that, which is when
Athelbert became king, then Gademar, and Aeldred. Raiding got harder, and then
Siggur died in Llywerth. That's when I decided to become a landowner. Spend my
days fixing broken doors." He'd
had to escape first, alone and on foot, across the breadth of two different
countries. You
act as if it can be done. "I'm
crossing to the mainland," Bern said quietly to the girl in that darkness
by the wood. She
stood very still. "Steal a boat?" He
shook his head. "Couldn't take the horse on any boat I could manage
alone." "You
won't leave the horse?" "I
won't leave the horse." "Then?" "Swim,"
said Bern. "Clearly." He smiled, but she couldn't see it, he knew. She
was silent a moment. "You can swim?" He
shook his head. "Not that far." Heroes
came to thresholds, to moments that marked them, and they died young, too. Icy
water, end of winter, the stony shore of Vinmark a world away across the
strait, just visible by daylight qui f the mist didn't settle, but not now. What
was a hero, if he never had a chance to do anything? If he died at the first
threshold? "I
think the horse can carry me," he said. "I will . . . act as if it
can." He felt his mood changing, a strangeness overtaking him even as he spoke.
"Promise me no monsters in the sea?" "I
wish I could," said the girl. "Well,
that's honest," he said. He laughed again. She didn't, this time. "It
will be very cold." "Of
course it will." He hesitated. "Can you . . . see anything?" She
knew what he meant. "No." "Am
I underwater?" He tried to make it a joke. Shook
her head. "I can't tell. I'm sorry. I'm . . . more a youngest daughter
than a seer." Another
silence. It struck him that it would be appropriate to begin feeling afraid.
The sea at night, straight out into the black . . . "Shall
I . . . any word for your mother?" It
hadn't occurred to him. Nothing had, really. He thought about it now.
"Better you never saw me. That I was clever by myself. And died of it, in
the sea." You
may not." She
didn't sound as if she believed that. She would have been rowed across from
Vinmark, coming here. She knew the strait, the currents and the cold, even if
there were no monsters. Bern
shrugged. "That will be as Ingavin and Thьnir decide. Make some magic, if
you have any. Pray for me, if you haven't. Perhaps we'll meet again. I thank
you for coming out. You saved me from . . . one bad kind of death, at
least." It
was past the bottom of the night, and he had a distance to go to the beach
nearest the mainland. He said nothing more, and neither did she, though he
could see that she was still staring at him in the dark. He mounted up on the
horse he wouldn't leave for Halldr Thinshank's funeral rites, and rode away. Some
time before reaching the strand south-east of the forest, he realized he didn't
know her name, or have any clear idea what she looked like. Unlikely to matter;
if they met again it would probably be in the afterworld of souls. He
came around the looming dark of the pine woods to a stony place by the water:
rocky and wild, exposed, no boats here, no fishermen in the night. The pounding
of the sea, heavy sound of it, salt in his face, no shelter from the wind. The
blue moon west, behind him now, the white one not rising tonight until dawn. It
would be dark on the ocean water. Ingavin alone knew what creatures might be
waiting to pull him down. He wouldn't leave the horse. He wouldn't go back. You
did whatever was left, and acted as if it could be done. Bern cursed his father
aloud, then, for murdering another man, doing that to all of them, his sisters
and his mother and himself, and then he urged the grey horse into the surf,
which was white where it hit the stones, and black beyond, under the stars. TWO "Our
trouble," muttered Dai, looking down through green-gold leaves at the
farmyard, "is that we make good poems and bad siege weapons." A
siege, in fact, wasn't even remotely at issue. The comment was so
inconsequential, and so typical of Dai, that Alun laughed aloud. Not the wisest
thing to do, given where they were. Dai slapped a hand to his brother's mouth.
After a moment, Alun signalled he was under control and Dai moved his hand
away, grunting. "Anyone
in particular you'd like to besiege?" Alun asked, quietly enough. He
shifted his elbows carefully. The bushes didn't move. "One
poet I can think of," Dai said, unwisely. He was prone to jests, his
younger brother prone to laughing at them; they were moth prone under leaves,
gazing at penned cattle below. They'd come north to steal cattle. The Cyngael
did that to each other, frequently. Dai
moved a hand quickly, but Alun kept still this time. They couldn't afford to be
seen. There were just twelve of them—eleven, with Gryffeth now captured—and
they were a long way north into Arberth. No more than two or three days from
the sea, Dai reckoned, though he wasn't sure exactly where they were, or what
this very large farmhouse below them was. Twelve
had been a marginal number for a raiding party, but the brothers were confident
in their abilities, not without some cause. Besides, in Cadyr it was said that
any one of their own was worth two of the Arberthi, and at least three from
Llywerth. They might do the arithmetic differently in the other two provinces,
but that was just vanity and bluster. Or it
should have been. It was alarming that Gryffeth had been taken so easily,
scouting ahead. The good news was that he'd prudently carried Alun's harp with
him, to be taken for a bard on the road. The bad news was that
Gryffeth—notoriously—couldn't sing or play to save his life. If they tested him
down below, he was unmasked. And saving his life became an issue. So
the brothers had left nine men out of sight off the road and climbed this
overlook to devise a rescue plan. If they went home without cattle it was bad
but not humiliating. Not every raid succeeded; you could still do a few things
to make a story worth telling. But if their royal father or uncle had to pay a
ransom for a cousin taken on an unauthorized cattle raid into Arberth during a
herald's truce, well, that was . . . going to be quite bad. And
if Owyn of Cadyr's nephew died in Arberth it could mean war. "How
many, do you think?" Dai murmured. "Twenty,
give or take a few? It's a big farmhouse. Who lives here? Where are we?"
Alun was still watching the cows, Dai saw. "Forget the cattle," Dai
snapped. "Everything's changed." "Maybe not. We let them out of
the pen tonight, four of us scatter them north up the valley, the rest go in
after Gryffeth while they're rounding them up?" Dai
looked thoughtfully at his younger brother. "That's unexpectedly
clever," he said, finally. Alun
punched him on the shoulder, fairly hard. "Hump a goat," he added
mildly. "This was your idea, I'm getting us out of it. Don't be
superior. Which room's he in?" Dai
had been trying to sort that out. The farmhouse—whoever owned it was
wealthy—was long and sprawling, running east to west. He saw the outline of a
large hall beyond the double doors below them, wings bending back north at each
end of that main building. A house that had expanded in stages, some parts
stone, others wood. They hadn't seen Gryffeth taken in, had only come upon the
signs of struggle on the path. Two
cowherds were watching the cattle from the far side of the fenced enclosure
east of the house. Boys, their hands moving ceaselessly to wave at flies. None
of the armed men had emerged since a cluster of them had gone in through the
main doors, talking angrily, just as the brothers had arrived here in the
thicket above the farm. Once or twice they'd heard raised, distant voices within,
and a girl had come out for well water. Otherwise it was quiet and hot, a
sleepy afternoon, late spring, butterflies, the drone of bees, a hawk circling.
Dai watched it for a moment. What
neither brother said, though both of them knew it, was that it was extremely
unlikely they could get a man out of a guarded room, even at night and with a
diversion, without men dying on both sides. During a truce. This raid had gone
wrong before it had even begun. "Are
we even certain he's in there?" Dai said. "I
am," said Alun. "Nowhere else likely. Could he be a guest? Um, could
they have ... ?" Dai
looked at him. Gryffeth couldn't play the harp he carried, was wearing a sword
and leather armour, had a helmet in his saddle gear, looked exactly the sort of
young man—with a Cadyri accent, too—who'd be up to mischief, which he was. The
younger brother nodded, without Dai saying anything. It was too miserably
obvious. Alun swore briefly, then murmured, "All right, he's a prisoner.
We'll need to move fast, know exactly where we're going. Come on, Dai, figure
it out. In Jad's name, where have they got him?" "In
Jad's holy name, Brynn ap Hywll tends to use the room at the eastern end of the
main building for prisoners, when he has them here. If I remember
rightly." They
whipped around. Dai's knife was already out, Alun saw. The
world was a complex place sometimes, saturated with the unexpected. Especially
when you left home and the trappings of the known. Even so, there were
reasonable explanations for why someone might be up here now, right behind
them. One of their own men might have followed with news; one of the guards
from below could have intuited the presence of other Cadyri besides the
captured one and come looking; they might even have been observed on their way up. What
was implausible in the extreme was what they actually saw. The man who'd
answered Alun's question was smallish, grey-haired, cheeks and chin
smooth-shaven, smiling at the two of them. He was alone, hands out and open,
weaponless ... and he was wearing a faded, telltale yellow robe with a golden
disk of Jad about his neck. "I
might not actually be remembering rightly," he went on affably. "It
has been some time since I've been here, and memory slips as you get older, you
know." Dai
blinked, and shook his head as if to clear it after a blow. They'd been
completely surprised by an aging cleric. Alun
cleared his throat. One particular thing had registered, powerfully. "Did
you, er, say . . . Brynn ap Hywll?" Dai
was still speechless. The
cleric nodded benignly. "Ah. You know of him, do you?" Alun swore
again. He was fighting a rising panic. The
cleric made a reproving face, then chuckled. "You do know
him." Of
course they did. "We don't know you," Dai said, finally recovering
the capacity for speech. He'd lowered the knife. "How did you get up
here?" "Same
way you did, I imagine." "We
didn't hear you." "Evidently.
I do apologize. I was quiet. I've learned how to be. Not quite sure what I'd
find, you know." The
long yellow robes of a cleric were ill suited to silent climbing, and this man
was not young. Whoever he was, he was no ordinary religious. "Brynn!"
Alun muttered grimly to his brother. The name—and what it meant—reverberated
inside him. His heart was pounding. "I
heard." "What
evil, Jad-cursed luck!" "Yes,
well," said Dai. He was concentrating on the stranger for the moment.
"I did ask who you were. I'd count it a great courtesy if you favoured us
with your name." The
cleric smiled, pleased. "Good manners," he said, "were always a
mark of your father's family, whatever their other sins might have been. How is
Owyn? And your lady mother? Both well, I dare hope? It has been many
years." Dai
blinked again. You are a prince of Cadyr, he reminded himself. Your
royal father's heir. Born to lead men, to control situ.:ions. It became a
necessary reminder, suddenly. "You
have entirely the advantage of us," said his brother, "in all ways I
can imagine." Alun's mouth quirked. He found too many things amusing, Dai
thought. A younger brother's trait. Less responsibility. "All
ways? Well, one of you does have a knife," said the cleric, but he was
smiling as he said it. He lowered his hands. "I'm Ceinion of Llywerth,
servant of Jad." Alun
dropped to his knees. Dai's
jaw seemed to be hanging open. He snapped it shut, felt himself going red as a
boy caught idling by his tutor. He sheathed the knife hurriedly and sank down
beside his brother, head lowered, hands together in submission. He felt
overwhelmed. A saturation of the unexpected. The unprepossessing yellow-robed man
on this wooded slope was the high cleric of the three fractious provinces of
the Cyngael. He
calmly made the sign of Jad's disk in blessing over both of them. "Come
down with me," he said, "the way we came. Unless you have an
objection, you are now my personal escorts. We're stopping here at Brynnfell on
our way north to Amren's court at Beda." He paused. "Or did you
really want to try attacking Brynn's own house? I shouldn't advise it, you
know." I
shouldn't advise it. Alun didn't
know whether to laugh or curse again. Brynn ap Hywll was only the subject of
twenty-five years' worth of songs and stories. Erling's Bane they'd named him,
here in the west. He'd spent his youth battling the raiders from overseas with
his cousin Amren, now ruling in Arberth, of whom there were stories too. With
them in those days had been Dai and Alun's own father and uncle—and this man,
Ceinion of Llywerth. The generation that had beaten back Siggur Volganson—the
Volgan-and his longships. And Brynn was the one who'd killed him. Alun
drew a steadying breath. Their father, who liked to hold forth with a flask at
his elbow, had told tales of all of these men. Had fought with—and then
sometimes against—them. He and Dai and their friends were, Alun thought, as
they walked down and out of the wood behind the anointed high cleric of the
Cyngael, in waters far over their heads. Brynnfell. This was Brynnfell below
them. They
had been about to attack it. With eleven men. "This
is his stronghold?" he heard Dai asking. "I thought—" "Edrys
was? His castle? It is, of course, north-east by Rheden and the Wall. And there
are other farms. This is the largest one. He's here now, as it happens." "What?
Here? Himself? Brynn?" Alun
worked to breathe normally. Dai sounded stunned. His brother, who was always so
composed. This, too, could almost be funny, Alun thought. Almost. Ceinion
of Llywerth was nodding his head, still leading the way downwards. "He's
here to receive me, actually. Good of him, I must say. I sent word that I would
be passing through." He glanced back. "How many men do you have? I
saw you two climbing, but not the others." The
cleric's tone was precise, suddenly. Dai answered him. "And how many were
taken?" "Just
the one," Dai said. Alun kept quiet. Younger brother. "His name is
Gryffeth? That's Ludh's son?" Dai
nodded. He'd
simply overheard them, Alun told himself. This wasn't Jad's gift of sight, or
anything frightening. "Very
well," said the cleric crisply, turning to them as they came out of the
trees and onto the path. "I'd account it a waste to have good men killed
today. I will do penance for a deception in the name of Jad's peace. Hear me.
You and your fellows joined me by arrangement at a ford of the Llyfarch River
three days ago. You are escorting me north as a courtesy, and so that you might
visit Amren's court at Beda and offer prayers with him in his new-built
sanctuary during this time of truce. Do you understand all that?" They
nodded, two heads bobbing up and down. "Tell
me, is your cousin Gryffeth ap Ludh a clever man?" "No," said
Dai, truthfully. The
cleric made a face. "What will he have told them?" "I have no
idea," Dai said. "Nothing,"
Alun said. "He isn't quick, but he can keep silent." The
cleric shook his head. "But why would he keep silent when all he had to
say was that he was riding in advance to tell them I had arrived?" Dai
thought a moment, then he grinned. "If the Arberthi took him harshly,
he'll have been quiet just to embarrass them when you do show up, my
lord." The
cleric thought it through, then smiled back. "Owyn's sons would be
clever," he murmured. He seemed pleased. "One of you will explain
this to Ludh's boy when we are inside. Where are your other men?" "South
of here, hidden off the road," Dai said. "And yours, my lord?" "Have
none," said the high cleric of the Cyngael. "Or I didn't until now.
You are my men, remember." "You
rode alone from Llywerth?" "Walked.
But yes, alone. Some things to think about, and there's a truce in the land,
after all." "With
outlaws in half the forests." "Outlaws
who know a cleric has nothing worth the taking. I've said the dawn prayers with
many of them." He started walking. Dai
blinked again, and followed. Alun
wasn't sure how he felt. Curiously elated, in part. For one thing, this was the
figure of whom so many stories were told, some of them by his father and uncle,
though he knew there had been a falling-out, and a little part of why. For
another, the high cleric had just saved them from trying a mad attack on
another legend in his own house. A man
of Cadyr might be worth two Arberthi, but that did not—harp-boasting and
ale-born songs aside—apply to the warband of Brynn ap Hywll. These
were the men who had been fighting the Erlings before Dai and Alun were born,
when the Cyngael lived in terror of slavery and savage death three seasons of
every year, taking flight into the hills at the least rumour of the
dragon-prows. It was clear now why Gryffeth had been captured so easily. They'd
have had no chance trying to attack this farm tonight. They'd have been
humiliated, or dead. A truth to run back and forth through the mind like the
shuttling of a loom. Alun
ab Owyn was very young that day, a prince of Cadyr, and it was greenest
springtime in the provinces of the Cyngael, in the world. He'd no wish to die.
Something occurred to him. "My
cousin was only carrying the harp for me, by the way. If anyone asks, my
lord." The
cleric glanced back over his shoulder. "Gryffeth
can't sing," Dai explained. "Not that Alun's much good." A
joke, Alun thought. Good. Dai was feeling himself again, or starting to. "There
will be a feast, I expect," Ceinion of Llywerth said. "We'll find out
soon enough." "I'm
actually better with siege weapons," Alun said, not helpfully. He was
rewarded by hearing his older brother laugh, and quickly smother it.
"Your
royal father I knew very well. Fought against him, and beside him. A
disgraceful youth, if I may be blunt, and a brave man." "It
would be too much to hope that we might one day receive such a judgement from
you, my lord, but to that we will aspire." Dai bowed after he spoke. They
were in the great hall of Brynnfell, beyond the central doors. A long corridor
behind them ran east and west towards the wings. It was a very large house.
Gryffeth had already been released—from a room at the end of the eastern
corridor, as the cleric had guessed. Alun had had a whispered word with him,
and reclaimed his harp. Dai
straightened and smiled. "You will permit me to add, my lord, that
disgrace among the Arberthi is sometimes honour in Cadyr. We have not always
been favoured with the truce that brings us here, as you know." Alun
smiled inwardly, kept his expression sincere. Dai had had a lifetime shaping
this sort of speech, he thought. Words mattered among the Cyngael, nuance and
subtlety. So did cattle-raiding, mind you, but the day's game had changed. The
scarred older warrior—a head taller than the two brothers—beamed happily down
on them. Brynn ap Hywll was big in every way—hands, face, shoulders, girth.
Even his greying moustache was thick and full. He was red and fleshy and
balding. He wore no weapon in his own home, had rings on several thick fingers
and a massive golden torc around his throat. Erling work: the hammer of the
thunder god replaced by a suspended sun disk. Something he'd captured or been
offered as ransom, Alun guessed. If
Ceinion of Llywerth felt displeasure at seeing something made to hold pagan
symbols of Ingavin, he didn't show it. The high cleric was not at all what Alun
had expected him to be, though he couldn't have said what he had expected.
Certainly not the man who had been kissed so enthusiastically by the Lady Enid,
as her husband smiled approval. Alun
had a recollection that the cleric's own wife had died long ago, but he was
murky about the details. You couldn't remember everything a tutor dictated, or
a tale-spinning father by the fireside. "Well
spoken, young prince," Brynn boomed, bringing Alun back to the present.
Their host looked genuinely pleased with Dai's answer. He'd a voice for the
battlefield, Brynn, one that would carry. Their
arrival at Brynnfell had gone easily, after all. Alun had a sense that things
tended to go that way when Ceinion of Llywerth was involved. If there had been
something odd about the cleric arriving with a Cadyri escort when he usually
walked alone to his destinations, and was widely known not to have spoken to
Prince Owyn for a decade and more . . . well, sometimes odd things happened,
and this was the high cleric. Brynn
was prepared to play along, it seemed, whatever he might privately think. Alun
saw the big man's gaze slide to where Ceinion stood, smooth face benign and
attentive, slender hands folded in the sleeves of his robe. "Indeed, it
would seem you have set your feet on the path of virtue already, serving as
escorts to our beloved cleric, avoiding the scandalous conduct of your sire in
his own youth." Dai
kept a level expression. "His lordship the high cleric is persuasive in
his holiness. We are honoured and grateful to be with him." "I've
no doubt," said Brynn ap Hywll, just a little too dryly. Dai
was afraid Alun would laugh, but he didn't. Dai was fighting to control
exhilaration himself . . . this was the dance, the thrust and twist of words,
of meanings half-shown and then hidden, that underlay all the great songs and
deeds of courts. The
Erlings might choose to loot and burn their way to some glorious afterlife of .
. . more looting and burning, but the Cyngael saw the glory of the world Jad's
holy gift of it—as embodied in more than just swords and raiding. Though
that, perhaps, might explain why they were so often raided and looted—from
Vinmark overseas, and under pressure from the Anglcyn now, across the Rheden
Wall. He'd said it himself today: poems over siege engines. Words above
weapons, too often. He
wasn't dwelling upon that now. He was exulting in the presence of two of the
very great men of the west, as a springtime raid conjured out of boredom and
their father's absence, hunting without them (Owyn was meeting a mistress), had
turned into something quite otherwise. Young
Dai ab Owyn was, in other words, in that elevated state of mind and spirit
where what occurred that evening could almost have been anticipated. He was
alert, receptive, highly attuned . . . vulnerable. At such times, one can be
hammered hard by a variety of things, and the effect can last forever—though it
should be said that this did happen more often in tales, bard-spun in
meadhalls, than on an impulsive cattle raid gone strange. Just
before the meal began Alun had taken the musician's stool at the Lady Enid's
request. Brynn's wife was tall, dark-haired, dark-eyed, younger than her
husband. A handsome woman with no shyness among the men in the hall. None of
the women here seemed shy, come to think of it. He
was tuning his harp (his favourite crwth, made for him), trying not to
be distracted. They were playing the triad game in the hall, drinking the cup
of welcome after the invocation by Brynn's own cleric, before the food was
brought. Ceinion had predicted a feast and had been proven right. They were
drinking wine, not ale. Brynn ap Hywll was a wealthy man. Some
of the company were still standing, others had taken their seats; it was a
relaxed gathering, this was a farmhouse not a castle, large and handsome as it
might be. The room smelled of new rushes, freshly strewn herbs and flowers—and
hunting dogs. There were at least ten wolfhounds, grey, black, brindled.
Brynn's warband, those with him here, were not men to put great weight on
ceremony, it seemed. "Cold
as . . . ?" called out a woman near the head of the table. Alun hadn't
sorted the names yet. She was a family cousin, he guessed. Round-faced, light
brown hair. "Cold
as a winter lake," answered a man leaning against the wall halfway down
the room. Cold
was an easy start. They all knew
the jokes: women's hearts, or the space between the legs of some of them. Those
phrases wouldn't be offered now, before the drinking had properly begun, and
with the ladies present. "Cold
as a loveless hearth," said another. Worn phrases, too often heard. One
more to complete the triad. Alun kept silent, listening to his strings as he
tuned. There was always one song before the meal; he was being honoured with
it, wasn't sure what he wanted to sing. "Cold
as a world without Jad," said Gryffeth suddenly, which wasn't brilliant
but wasn't bad either, with the high cleric at the head table. It got him a
murmur of approval and a smile from Ceinion. Alun saw his brother, next to the
cleric, wink at their cousin. Mark one for Cadyr. "Sorrowful
as . . . ?" said another of the ladies, an older one. Trust
the Cyngael, Alun thought wryly, to conjure with sorrow at a spring banquet's
beginning. We are a strange, wonderful people, he thought. "Sorrowful
as a swan alone." A thin, satisfied-looking man sitting close to the high
table. The ap Hywll bard, his own crwth beside him. An important figure.
Accredited harpists always were. There was a rustle of approbation. Alun smiled
at the man, received no response. Bards could be prickly, jealous of privilege,
dangerous to offend. More than one prince had been humiliated by satires
written against him. And Alun had been asked to take the stool first tonight. A
guest indeed, but not a formally trained or licensed bard. Best to be cautious,
he thought. He wished he knew a song about siege engines. Dai would have
laughed. "Sorrowful
as a sword unused," said Brynn himself, leaning back in his chair, the big
voice. Predictable pounding of tables as the lord of the manor spoke. "Sorrowful,"
said Alun, surprising himself, since he'd just decided to be discreet, "as
a singer without a song." A
small silence as they considered it, then Brynn ap Hywll banged a meaty hand
down on the board in front of him, and the Lady Enid clapped her palms in
pleasure and then—of course—so did everyone else. Dai winked again quickly, and
then contrived to look indifferent, leaning back as well, fingering his wine
cup, as if they were always offering such original phrasings in the triad game
back home. Alun felt like laughing: in truth, the phrase had come to him
because he had no song yet and would be called upon in a moment. "Needful
as . . . ?" suggested the Lady Enid, looking along the table. A new
phrase this time. Alun looked at Brynn's wife. More than handsome, he corrected
himself: there was beauty there still, glittering with the jewellery of rank
upon her arms and about her throat. More people were seated now. Servants stood
by, awaiting a signal to bring the food. "Needful
as warmed wine in winter," someone Alun couldn't see offered from down the
room. Approval for that, a nicely phrased offering. Winter memory in midsummer,
the phrase near to poetry. Their hostess turned to Dai, politely, beyond her
husband and the cleric, to let the other Cadyri prince have a turn. "Needful
as night's end," Dai said gravely, without a pause, which was very good,
actually. An image of darkness, the fear of it, a dream of dawn, when the god
returned from his journey under the world. As
the real applause for this faded, as they waited for someone to throw the third
leg of the triad, a young woman entered the room. She
moved quietly, clad in green, belted in gold, with gold in the brooch at her
shoulder and on her fingers, to the empty place beside Enid at the high
table—which would have told Alun who this was, if the look and manner of her
hadn't immediately done so. He stared, knew he was doing so, didn't stop. As
she seated herself, aware—very obviously aware—that all eyes were upon her,
including those of an indulgent father, she looked down the table, taking in
the company, and Alun was made intensely conscious of dark eyes (like her
mother's), very black hair under the soft green cap, and skin whiter than . . .
any easy phrase that came to mind. And
then he heard her murmur, voice rich, husky for one so young, unsettling:
"Needful as night, I think many women would rather say." And
because this was Rhiannon mer Brynn, through that crowded hall men felt that
they knew exactly what she was saying, and wished that the words had been for
their ears alone, whispered close at candle-time, not in company at table. And
they thought that they could kill or do great deeds that it might be made so. Alun
could see his brother's face as this green-gold woman-girl turned to Dai, whose
phrase she had just echoed and challenged. And because he knew his brother better
than he knew anyone on the god's earth, Alun saw the world change for Dai in
that crossing of glances. A moment with a name to it, as the bards said. He
had an instant to feel sorrow, the awareness of something ending as something
else began, and then they asked him for a song, that the night might begin with
music, which was the way of the Cyngael. +
Brynnfell
was a spacious property, well run by a competent steward, showing the touch of
a mistress with taste, access to artisans, and a good deal of money. Still, it
was only a farm, and there were a dozen young men from Cadyr now staying with
them, over and above the thirty warriors and four women who'd accompanied ap
Hywll and his wife and oldest daughter here. Space
was at a premium. The
Lady Enid had worked with efficiency informed by experience, meeting with the
steward before the meal to arrange for the disposition of bodies at night. The
hall would hold fighting men on pallets and rushes; it had done so before. The
main barn was pressed into use, along with two outbuildings and the bake-house.
The brewhouse remained locked. Best not to put such temptation in men's way.
And there was another reason. The
two Cadyri princes and their cousin shared a room in the main house with a good
bed for the three of them—honour demanded the host offer as much to royal
guests. The
steward surrendered his own chamber to the high cleric. He himself would join
the cook and kitchen hands in the kitchen for the night. He was grimly prepared
to be as stoic as an eastern zealot on his crag, if not as serenely alone. The
cook was notorious for the magnificence of his snoring, and had once been found
walking about the kitchen, waving a blade and talking to himself, entirely
asleep. He'd ended up chopping vegetables in the middle of the night without
ever waking, as his helpers and a number of gathered household members watched
in rapt silence, peering through the darkness. The
steward had already determined to place all the knives out of reach before
closing his eyes. In
the pleasant chamber thus yielded to him, Ceinion of Llywerth finished the last
words of the day's office, offering at the end his customary silent prayer for
the sheltering in light of those he had lost, some of them long ago, and also
his gratitude, intensely felt, to holy Jad for all blessings given. The god had
purposes not to be clearly seen. What had happened today—the lives he had
likely saved, arriving when he did—was deserving of the humblest
acknowledgement. He
rose, showing no signs of a strenuous day, or his years, and formally blessed
the man kneeling beside him in prayer. He reclaimed his wine cup, subsiding
happily onto the stool nearest the window. It was generally believed that the
night air was noxious, carrying poisons and unholy spirits, but Ceinion had
spent too many years sleeping out of doors, on walks across the three provinces
and beyond. He found that he slept better by an open window, even in winter. It
was springtime now, the air fragrant, night flowers under his window. "I
feel badly for the man who yielded me his bed." His
companion shifted his considerable bulk up from the floor and grasped his own
cup, refilling it to the brim, without water. He took the other, sturdier
chair, keeping the flask close by. "And well you should," Brynn ap
Hywll said, smiling through his moustache. "Brynnfell's bursting. Since
when do you travel with an escort?" Ceinion
eyed him a moment, then sighed. "Since I found a Cadyri raiding party
looking at your farm." Brynn
laughed aloud. His laugh, like his voice, could overflow a room. "Well,
thank you for deciding I'd sort out that much." He drank thirstily,
refilled his cup again. "They seem good lads, mind you. Jad knows, I did
my share of raiding when young." "And
their father." "Jad
curse his eyes and hands," Brynn said, though without force. "My
royal cousin in Beda wants to know what to do about Owyn, you
know." "I
know. I'll tell him when I get to Beda. With Owyn's two sons beside me."
The cleric's turn to grin this time. He
leaned back against the cool stone wall beside the window. Earthly pleasures:
an old friend, food and wine, a day with some good unexpectedly done. There
were learned men who taught withdrawal from the traps and tangles of the world.
There was even a doctrinal movement afoot in Rhodias to deny marriage to
clerics now, following the eastern, Sarantine rule, making them ascetics,
detached from distractions of the flesh—and the complexities of having heirs to
provide for. Ceinion
of Llywerth had always thought—and had written the High Patriarch in Rhodias,
and others—that this was wrong thinking and even heresy, an outright denial of
Jad's full gift of life. Better to turn your love of the world into an
honouring of the god, and if a wife died, or children, your own knowledge of
sorrow might make you better able to counsel others, and comfort them. You
lived with loss as they did. And shared their pleasures, too. His
words, written and spoken, mattered to others, by Jad's holy grace. He was
skilled at this sort of argument but didn't know if he would be on the winning
side of this one. The three provinces of the Cyngael were a long way from
Rhodias, at the edge of the world, the misty borders of pagan belief. North of
the north wind, the phrase went. He
sipped his wine, looking at his friend. Brynn's expression was sly at the
moment, amusingly so. "Happen to see the way Dai ab Owyn looked at my
Rhiannon, did you?" Ceinion
took care that his own manner did not change. He had, in fact, seen it—and
something else. "She's a remarkable young woman," he murmured. "Her
mother's daughter. Same spirit to her. I'm an entirely beaten man, I tell
you." Brynn was smiling as he said this. "We solve a problem that
way? Owyn's heir handled by my girl?" Ceinion
kept his look noncommittal. "Certainly a useful match." "The
lad's already lost his head, I'd wager." He chuckled. "Not the first
to do so, with Rhiannon." "And
your daughter?" Ceinion asked, perhaps unwisely. Some
fathers would have been startled, or offered an oath—what mattered the girl's
wishes in these things? But Brynn ap Hywll didn't do that. Ceinion watched, and
by the lamplight saw the big man, his old friend, grow thoughtful. Too much so.
The cleric offered an inward, mildly blasphemous curse, and immediately
sought—also silently—the god's forgiveness for that. "Interesting
song the younger one sang before the meal, wasn't it?" There
it was. A shrewd man, Ceinion thought ruefully. Much more than a warrior with a
two-handed sword. "It
was," he said, still keeping his own counsel. This was all too soon. He
temporized. "Your bard was out of countenance." "Amund? It was
too good, you mean? The song?" "Not
that. Though it was impressive. No, Alun ab Owyn breached the laws for such
things. Only licensed bards are allowed to improvise in company. Your harper
will need appeasing." "Spiky man, Amund. Not easily softened, if you
are right." "I am right. Call it a word offered the wise." Brynn
looked at him. "And your other question? About Rhiannon? What sort of word
was that?" Ceinion
sighed. It had been a mistake. "I wish you weren't clever,
sometimes." "Have
to be. T o keep up in this family. She liked the ... song, you think?" "I
think everyone liked the song." He left it at that. Both men were still
awhile. "Well,"
Brynn said finally, "she's of age, but there's no great rush. Though Amren
wants to know what to do about Owyn and Cadyr, and this . . ." "Owyn
ap Glynn isn't the problem. Neither's Amren, or Ielan in Llywerth. Except if
they cling to these feuds that will end us." He'd spoken with more fire than
he'd intended. The
other man stretched out his legs and leaned back, unruffled. Brynn drank, wiped
his moustache with a sleeve, and grinned. "Still riding that horse?" "And
I will all my life." Ceinion didn't smile this time. He hesitated, then
shrugged. Wanted to change the subject, in any case. "I'll tell you
something before I tell it to Amren in Beda. But keep it close. Aeldred's
invited me to Esferth, to join his court." Brynn
sat up abruptly, scraping the chair along the floor. He swore, without apologizing,
then banged his cup down, spilling wine. "How dare he? Our high
cleric he wants to steal now?" "I
said he'd invited me. Not an abduction, Brynn." "Even
so, doesn't he have his own Jad-cursed holy men among the Anglcyn? Rot the
man!" "He
has a great many, and seeks more . . . not cursed, I hope." Ceinion left a
pointed little pause. "From here, from Ferrieres. Even from Rhodias. He is
. . . a different sort of king, my friend. I think he feels his lands are on
the way to being safe now, which means new ambitions, ways of thinking. He's
arranging to marry a daughter north, to Rheden." He looked steadily at the
other man. Brynn
sighed. "I'd heard that." "And
if so, there goes that rivalry on the other side of the Wall, which
we've relied upon. Our danger is if we remain . . . the old sort of
princes." There
were three oil lamps burning in the room, one set in the wall, two brought in
for a guest: extravagance and respect. In
the mingling of yellow lamplight, Brynn's gaze was direct now. Ceinion, accepting
it, felt a wave of memory crash over him from a terrible, glorious summer long
ago. This happened more and more as he grew older. Past and present colliding,
simultaneous visions, the present seen with the past. This same man, a
quarter-century ago, on a battlefield by the sea, the Volgan himself and the
Erling force they'd met by their boats. There had been three princes among the
Cyngael that day but Brynn had led the centre. A full head of dark hair on him
then, far less bulk, less of this easy humour. The same man, though. You
changed, and you did not change. "You
said he's after clerics from Ferrieres?" Picking up the other thing that
mattered. "So
he wrote me." "It
starts with clerics, doesn't it?" Ceinion
gazed affectionately at his old friend. "Sometimes. They are notoriously
aloof, my colleagues across the water." "But
if not? If it works, opens channels? If the Anglcyn and Ferrieres join to push
away the Erling raiders on both sides of the Strait? And mayhap a marriage that
way, too . . . ?" "Then
the Erlings come here again, I would think." Ceinion finished the thought.
"If we remain outside whatever is happening. That's my message to Beda,
when I get there." He paused, then added the thought he'd been travelling
with: "There are times when the world changes, Brynn." A
silence in the room. No noises from the corridor either, now; the household
abed, or most of them. Some of the warband likely dicing in the hall still,
perhaps with the young Cadyri, money changing hands by lantern light. He didn't
think there would be trouble; Brynn's men were extremely well trained, and they
were hosts tonight. The night breeze came through the window, sweetened with
the scent of flowers. Gifts of the god's offered world. Not to be spurned. "I
hate them, you know. The Erlings and the Anglcyn, both." Ceinion
nodded, said nothing. What was there to say? A homily about Jad, and love? The
big man sighed again. Drained his cup one more time. He showed no effects from
the unwatered wine. "Will
you go to him? To Aeldred?" he asked, as Ceinion had expected. "I
don't know," he said, which had the virtue of being honest.
Brynn
left, not down the corridor to his own bedchamber, but for one of the
outbuildings. A young serving lass waiting for him, no doubt, ready to slip out
wrapped in a cloak as soon as she saw him go through the door. Ceinion knew it
was his duty to chastise the other man for this. He didn't even consider it;
had known ap Hywll and his wife for too long. One of the things about living in
and of the world: you learned how complex it could be. He
doused two of the lamps, disliking the waste. A habit of frugality. He left the
door a little ajar, as a courtesy. With Brynn outside, the lord of the manor
would not be his own last visitor of the night. He'd been here, and in ap
Hywll's other homes, before. Somewhat
as an afterthought, while he waited, he went to his pack and drew from it the
letter he was carrying with him northwest to Beda on the sea. He took the same
seat as before, by the window. No moons tonight. The young Cadyri princes would
have had a good, black night for a cattle raid ... and they'd have been
slaughtered. Bad luck for them that Brynn and his men would have been here, but
you could die of bad luck. Jad
of the Sun had allowed him to save lives today, a different sort of gift, one
that might have meaning that went beyond what a man was permitted to see. His
own prayer, every morning, was that the god see fit to make use of him. There
was something—there had to be something—in his arriving when he did, looking up
the slope, seeing movement in the bushes. And following, for no very good
reason besides a knowing that sometimes came to him. More than he
deserved, that gift, flawed as he knew he was. Things he had done, in grief,
and otherwise. He turned his head and looked out, saw stars through rents in
moving clouds, caught the scent of the flowers again, just outside in the
night. Needful
as night's end. Needful as night. Two
subtle offerings in the triad game, then a song, improvised as they listened.
Three young people here, on the cusp of their real existence, the possible
importance of their lives. And two of them would very likely have been lying
dead tonight, if he'd been a day later on the road, or even a few moments. He
ought to kneel and give thanks again, feel a sense of blessing and hope. And
those things were there, truly, but they lay underneath something else, more
undefined, a heaviness. He felt tired suddenly. The years could creep up on
you, if a day lasted too long. He opened the letter again, the red, broken seal
crumbling a little. "Whereas
it has for some time been our belief that it is the proper duty of an anointed
king under jad to pursue wisdom and teach virtue by example, as much as it is
our task to strengthen and defend ..." With
the lamps doused, there wasn't enough light to read by, particularly for a man
no longer young, but he had this committed to memory and was communing with it
more than actually considering the contents again, the way one might kneel
before a familiar image of the god on one's own stone chapel wall. Or, the
thought came to him, the way one might contemplate the name and stone-carved
sun disk over a grave visited so many times it wasn't really seen, only
apprehended, as one lingered one more time until twilight fell, and then the
dark. In
the dark, from the corridor, she knocked softly then entered, taking the
partially open door for the invitation it was. "What?"
said Enid, setting down the tall candle she carried. "Still dressed and
not in the bed? I'd hoped you'd be waiting for me there." He
stood up, smiling. She came forward and they kissed, though she was kind enough
to let it be a kiss of peace on each cheek, and not more than that. She wore
some sort of perfume. He wasn't good at naming these woman-scents but it was
immediately distracting. He was suddenly aware of the bed. She'd intended that,
he knew. He knew her very well. Enid
looked at the wine cups and the wide-necked flask. "Did he leave any for
me?" "Not
much, I fear. There may be some, and water to mix." Enid shook her head.
"I don't really need." She
took the seat her husband had so recently vacated to go out with whichever girl
had been waiting for him. In the softer light she was a presence sitting near
to him, a scent, a memory of other nights—and other kisses of peace when peace
had not been what she'd left behind when she went away. His restraint, not
hers, or even Brynn's, for these two had their own rules in this long marriage
and Ceinion had, years ago, been made to under-stand that. His restraint. A
woman very dear. "You
are tired," she said after a moment's scrutiny. "He gets the best of
you, coming first, and then I arrive—always hoping—and find ..." "A
man not worthy of you?" "A
man not susceptible to my diminishing charms. I'm getting old, Ceinion. I think
my daughter fell in love tonight." He
took a breath. "I'll say, in sequence, no, and no, and .. . perhaps." "Let
me work that out." He could see she was amused. "You are finally
yielding to me, I am not yet old in your sight, Rhiannon might be in
love?" There
was something about Enid that always made him want to smile. "No, alas,
and yes, indeed, and perhaps she is, but the young always are." "And
those of us not young? Ceinion, will you not kiss me? It has been a year and more." He
did hesitate a moment, for all the old reasons, but then he stood up and came
forward to where she sat and kissed her full upon the lips as she lifted her
head, and despite his genuine fatigue he was aware of the beating of his heart
and the swift presence of desire. He stepped back. Read her mischievous
expression an instant before she moved a hand and touched his sex through the
robe. He
gasped, heard her laugh as she withdrew her touch. "Only
exploring, Ceinion. Fear me not. No matter what you say to be kind, there will
come a night when I can't excite you any longer. One of these visits . .
." "The
night I die," he said, and meant it. She
stopped laughing, made the sign of the sun disk, averting evil. Or
trying to. They heard a cry from outdoors. Through the window, as he quickly
turned, Ceinion saw the arc of a thrown and burning brand. Then
he saw horsemen in the farmyard and screaming began.
Alun
thought he'd seen his brother this way before, if not quite like this.
Dai was restless, irritable, and afraid. Gryffeth, staking out the left side of
the just-wide-enough bed, made the mistake of complaining about Dai's pacing in
the dark and received a blister-inducing torrent of profanity in return. "That
wasn't called for," Alun said. Dai
wheeled on him, and Alun, in the middle of the bed (having drawn the short
straw), stared back at his brother's straining, rigid outline through the
darkness. "Come to bed, get some sleep. She'll still be here in the
morning." "What
are you talking about?" Dai demanded. Gryffeth,
unwisely, snorted with laughter. Dai took a step towards him. Alun actually
thought his brother might strike their cousin. This anger was the part that
wasn't quite as it had been before, whenever Dai had been preoccupied with a
girl. That, and the fear. "Doesn't
matter," Alun said quickly. "Listen, if you can't sleep, there's sure
to be dicing in the hall. Just don't take all the money and don't drink too
much." "Why
are you telling me what to do?" "So
we can get some rest," Alun said mildly. "Go with Jad. Win
something." Dai
hesitated, a taut form across the room. Then, with another flung, distracted
curse, he jerked the door open and went out. "Wait,"
Alun said quietly to Gryffeth. They waited, side by side in the bed. The
door swung open again. Dai
strode back in, crossed to his pack, grabbed his purse, and went back out. "Now,"
said Alun, "you can call him an idiot." "He's
an idiot," Gryffeth said, with feeling, and turned over in bed. Alun
turned the other way, determined to try to sleep. It didn't happen. The tapping
at their door—and the woman's voice from the corridor—came only moments later.
It
was obvious from Helda's expression, and her darting glances at Without
a word spoken the three had resolved to humour her, Rania
had the purest voice, in chapel and banquet hall, and Eirin the best memory.
They'd gone off to the other room together, murmuring, and now returned through
the connecting doorway, Eirin smiling, Rania biting her lip, as she always did
before singing. "I
won't do very well," she said. "We only heard it once." "I
know," Rhiannon said, unusually mild, her voice at odds with her look.
"But try." They
had no harp here with them. Rania sang unaccompanied. It was well done, in
truth, a different tone given by a woman's voice in a quiet (too-bright) room,
late at night, as compared to the same song heard in the hall as the sun was
going down, when the younger son of Owyn ap Glynn had given it to them:
The
halls of Arberth are dark tonight, No moons ride above. I will sing a while and
be done.
The
night is a hidden stranger, An enemy with a sword, Beasts in field and wood.
The
stars look down on owl and wolf, All manner of living creature, While
men sleep safe behind their walls. The
halls of Arberth are dark tonight, No moons ride above. I will sing a while and
be done.
The
first star is a longed-for promise, The deep night a waking dream, Darkness is
a net for the heart's desire.
The
stars look down on lover and loved, All manner of delight, For some do not
sleep in the night. The
riddle of the darkest hours Has ever and always been thus, And so it is we can
say:
Needful
as night's end, Needful as night, By
the holy blessed god, they are both true.
The
halls of Arberth are dark tonight, No moons ride above. I have sung a while and
I am done. Rania
looked down shyly when she finished. Eirin clapped her hands, beaming. Helda,
older than the other three, sat quietly, a faraway look on her face. Rhiannon
said, after a moment, "By the holy blessed god." It
was unclear whether she was echoing the song, or speaking from the heart . . .
or whether both of these were true. They looked at her. "What
is happening to me?" Rhiannon said, in a small voice. The
others turned to Helda, who had been married and widowed. She said, gently,
"You want a man, and it is consuming you. It passes, my dear. It really
does." "Do
you think?" said Rhiannon. And
none of them would ever have matched this voice to the tones of the one who
normally controlled them all—the three of them, her sisters, all the young
women of household and kin—the way her father commanded his warband. It
might have been amusing, it should have been, but the change cut too
deeply, and she looked disturbingly unwell. "I'm going to get you wine."
Eirin rose. Rhiannon
shook her head. Her green cap slipped off. "I don't need wine." "Yes,
you do," said Helda. "Go, Eirin." "No,"
said the girl on the bed, again. "That isn't what I need." "You
can't have what you need," Helda said, walking over to the bed,
amusement in her voice, after all. "Eirin, a better thought. Go to the
kitchen and have them make an infusion, the one for when we can't sleep. We'll
all have some." She smiled at the other three, ten years younger than she
was. "Too many men in the house tonight." "Is
it too late? Could we have him come here?" "What?
The singer?" Helda lifted her eyebrows. Rhiannon
nodded, her eyes beseeching. It was astonishing. She was pleading, not giving a
command. Helda
considered it. She wasn't sleepy at all, herself. "Not alone," she
said finally. "With his brother and the other Cadyri." "But
I don't need the other two," Rhiannon said, a hint of herself again. "You
can't have what you need," Helda said again. Rania
took a candle and went for the infusion; Eirin, bolder, was sent to bring the
three men. Rhiannon sat up in the bed, felt her own cheeks with the backs of
her hands, then rose and went to the window and opened it—against all the best
counsel—to let the breeze cool her, if only a little. "Do
I look all right?" she asked. "It
doesn't matter," said Helda, maddeningly. "I
feel faint." "I
know." "I
never feel this way." "I
know," said Helda. "It passes." "Will
they be here soon?"
Alun
dressed at speed and went to find Dai in the banquet hall, leaving Gryffeth in
the corridor with the girl and the candle. Neither of them seemed to mind. They
could have gone to the women's rooms around the corner and waited there,
but they didn't seem inclined to do that. He
carried his harp in its leather case. The woman had specifically said that the
daughter of Brynn ap Hywll wanted the singer. The brown-haired girl, telling
him this at the door, before Gryffeth got out of bed, had smiled, her eyes
catching the candle-light she carried. So
Alun went to get Dai. Found him dicing at a table with two of their own friends
and three of the ap Hywll men. He was relieved to see that Dai had a pile of
coins in front of him already. His older brother was good at dice, decisive in
betting and calculating, and with a wrist flick that let him land the
bones—anyone's bones—on the short side more often than one might expect. If he
was winning, as usual, it meant he might not be too badly disturbed after all. Perhaps.
One of the others noticed Alun in the doorway, nudged Dai. His brother glanced
up, and Alun motioned him over. Dai hesitated, then saw the harp. He got up and
came across the room. It was dark except for lamps on the two tables where men
were awake and gaming. Most of those bedding down here were asleep by now, on
pallets along the walls, the dogs among them. "What
is it?" Dai said. His tone was curt. Alun
kept his own voice light. "Hate to take you from winning money from
Arberthi, but we've been invited to the Lady Rhiannon's rooms." "What?" "I
wouldn't make that up." Dai
had gone rigid, Alun could see it even in the shadows. "We? All of . . .
?" "All
three of us." He hesitated. Told truth, better here than there. "She,
um, asked for the harp, I gather." "Who
said that?" "The
girl who fetched us." A
short silence. Someone laughed loudly at the dicing table. someone else swore,
one of the sleepers along the wall. "Oh,
Jad. Oh, holy Jad. Alun, why did you sing that song?" Dai asked,
almost whispering. "What?"
said Alun, genuinely taken aback. "If
you hadn't . . ." Dai closed his eyes. "I don't suppose you could say
you were sleepy, didn't want to get out of bed?" Alun
cleared his throat. "I could." He was finding this difficult. Dai
shook his head. Opened his eyes again. "No, you're already out of bed,
carrying the harp. The girl saw you." He swore then, to himself, more like
a prayer than an oath, not at Alun or anyone else, really. Dai
lifted both his hands and laid his fists on Alun's shoulders, the way he
sometimes did. Lifted them up and brought them down, halfway between a blow and
an embrace. He left them there a moment, then he took his hands away. "You
go," he said. "I don't think I am equal to this. I'm going
outside." "Dai?" "Go,"
said his brother, at some limit of control, and turned away. Alun
watched him walk across the room, unbar the heavy front doors of Brynn ap
Hywll's house, open one of them, and go out alone into the night. Someone
got up from the gaming table and barred the doors behind him. Alun saw one of
their own band look over at him; he gestured, and their friend swept up Dai's
purse and winnings for him. Alun turned away. And
in that moment he heard his older brother scream an urgent, desperate warning
from the yard outside. The last word he ever heard him speak. Then
the hoofbeats of horses were out there, drumming the hard earth, and the war
cries of the Erlings, and fire, as the night went wild. THREE She
is curious and too bold. Always has been, from first awakening under the mound.
A lingering interest in the other world, less fear than the others, though
iron's presence can drain her as easily as any of them. Tonight
there are more mortals than she can remember in the house north of the wood;
the aura is inescapable. No moons to cast a shadow: she has come away to see.
Passed a green spruaugh on the way, seethed at him to stop his
chattering, knows he will go now, to tell the queen where she is. No matter,
she tells herself. They are not forbidden to look. The
cattle are restless in their pen. First thing she knows, an awareness of that.
The lights almost all doused in the house now; shining only in one chamber
window, two, and in the big room beyond the heavy doors. Iron on the doors.
Mortals sleep at night, fearfully. She
feels hooves on the earth, west of them. Her
own fear, before sight. Then riders leaping the fence, smashing through it into
the farmyard below and fire is thrown and iron is drawn, is everywhere, sharp
as death, heavy as death. She hasn't come for this, almost flees, to
tell the queen, the others. Mays, up above, unseen flicker in the dark-leaved
trees. Brighter
and lesser auras all around the farmyard. The doors bursting open, men running
out, from house, from barn, iron to hand in the dark. A great deal of noise,
screaming, though she can screen some of that away: mortals too loud, always.
They are fighting now. A feeling of hotness within her, dizziness, blood smell
in the yard. She feels her hair changing colour. Has seen this before, but not
here. Memories, long ago, trying to cross to where she is. She
feels ill, thinned by the iron below. Clings to a beech, draws sap-strength
from that. Keeps watching, cold and shivering now, afraid. No moons, she tells
herself again, no shadow or flicker of her to be seen, unless a mortal has
knowledge of her world. She
watches a black horse rear, strike a running man with hooves, sees him fall.
There is fire, one of the outbuildings ablaze now. A confusion of dark and
roiling mortal forms. Smoke. Too much blood, too much iron. Then
something else comes to her. And on the thought—quick and bright as a firefly
over water—between her shoulders, where they all had wings once, she feels a
spasm, a trembling of excitement, like desire. She shivers again, but
differently. She spies out more closely: the living and the dead in the chaos
of that farmyard below. And yes. Yes. She
knows who died first. She can tell. He is
face down on the churned, trampled earth. First dead of a moonless night. Could
be theirs, if she moves quickly enough. Has to be fast, though, his soul
fading already, very nearly gone, even as she watches. And such a long time
since a mortal in his prime has come to them. To the queen. Her own place in
the Ride forever changed if she can do this. It
means going down into that farmyard. Iron all around. Horses thundering,
sensing her, afraid. Their hooves. No
moons. The only time this can be done. Nothing of her to be seen. Tells herself
that, one more time. None
of them has wings any more or she could fly. She lets go of the tree, finger by
finger, and goes forward and down. She sees someone on the way. He is hurrying
up the slope, breathing hard. He never knows that she is there, a faerie
passing by. He
had to get to his sword. Dai screamed a warning, and then he did it again. Men
sprang from pallets, roaring, seizing weapons. The double doors were thrust
open, the first of their people hurtling into the night. Alun heard the cries
of the Erlings, Brynn's warband shouting in reply, saw their own men from Cadyr
rushing out. But his own room, and his sword, were back along the corridor the
other way. Terribly, the other way. Alun
ran for all he was worth, heart pounding, his brother's voice in his ears, a
fist of fear squeezing his heart. When
he got to the room, Gryffeth—who knew battle sounds as well as any of them—had already claimed his own blade and
leather helm. He came forward, handed Alun his, wordlessly. Alun dropped the
harp where they were; he unsheathed the sword, dropped the scabbard, too,
pushed the helmet down on his head. The
woman with Gryffeth was not wordless, and was terrified. "Dear
Jad! There are no guards where we are. Come! Hurry!" Alun
and Gryffeth looked at each other. Nothing to be said. The heart could crack.
They ran the other way, farther down the same dark hallway, the brown-haired
girl beside them, her hand somehow in Alun's, candle fallen away. Then north,
skidding at the hall's turning, up the far wing to the women's rooms. Away
from the double doors, from the fighting in the farmyard. From Dai. The
girl pointed, breathing in gasps. They burst in. A woman screamed, then saw it
was them. Covered her mouth with the back of a hand, backing up against a
table. Alun took a fast look, sword out. Three women here, one of them Brynn's
daughter. Two rooms, a connecting door. He went straight across to the eastern
window, which was, inexplicably, open. Moved to close the shutters, slide down
the wooden bar. The
Erling hammer, descending, splintered wood, shattered the sill, barely missed
breaking Alun's extended arm like so much kindling. A woman screamed. Alun
stabbed through the wreckage of the window, blindly into the dark. Heard a
grunt of pain. Someone shouted a high warning; he twisted hard, a wracking
movement, back and away. Horse hooves loomed, thrust for the splintered window frame,
smashed it in—and then a man hurtled through and into the room. Gryffeth
went for him, swearing, had his thrust taken by a round shield, barely dodged
the axe blow that followed. The women pressed back, screaming. Alun stepped up
beside his cousin—then had to wheel back the other way as a second man came
roaring through the window, hammer in hand. They'd figured it out, where the
women were. Erlings. Here. Nightmare on a moonless night; a night made for an
attack. But
what were they doing so far inland? Why here? It made no sense. This was not
where the raids came. Alun
swung at the second man, had his sword blocked, wrenchingly. He was bleeding
from the splintered wood, so was the Erling. He stepped back, shielding the
women. Heard a clattering noise, boots behind him, and then longed-for words. "Drop
weapons! There are two of you, five of us, more coming." Alun
threw a glance back, saw one of Brynn's captains, a man almost as big as the
Erlings. Jad be thanked for mercy, he thought. The captain had spoken
Anglcyn, but slowly. It was close to the Erling tongue; he'd be understood. "You
may be ransomed," Brynn's man went on, "if someone cares enough for
you. Touch the women and you die badly, and will wish you were dead before you
are." A
mistake, those words, Alun later thought. Because,
hearing them, the first man moved, cat-quick in a crowded room, and he seized
Rhiannon mer Brynn—whose warning had been the one that had drawn Alun back from
the window—and wrenched her away from the others. The Erling gripped her in
front of him as a shield, her arm behind her back, twisted high, his axe
gripped short, held to her throat. Alun caught his breath on a curse. One
of the other women dropped to her knees. The room was crowded with men now,
smell of sweat and blood, mud and muck from the yard. They could hear the
fighting outside, dogs barking frantically, the cattle lowing and shifting in
their pen. Someone cried out, and then stopped. "Ransom,
you say?" the Erling grunted. He was yellow-bearded, wearing armour. Eyes
beneath a metal helmet, the long nosepiece. "No. Not so. You drop weapons
now or this one's breast is cut off. You want to see? I don't know who she is,
but clothing is fine. Shall I cut?" Brynn's
captain stepped forward. "I
said drop weapons!" A silence,
taut, straining. Alun's mouth was dry, as if full of ashes. Dai was outside. Dai
was outside. Had been there alone. "Let
him do it," said Rhiannon, the daughter of Brynn ap Hywll. "Let him
do it, then kill him for me." "No!
Hear me," Alun said quickly. "There are better than fifty fighting
men here. You will not have so many for a raid. Your leader made a mistake. You
are losing out there. Listen! There is nowhere for you to go. Choose your fate
here." "Chose
it when we took ship," the man rasped. "Ingavin claims his
warriors." "And
his warriors kill women?" "Cyngael
whores, they do." One
of the men behind Alun made a strangled sound. Rhiannon stood, the one arm
twisted behind her back, the axe fretting at her throat. Fear in her eyes, Alun
saw; none in her words. "Then
die for this Cyngael whore. Kill him, Siawn! Do it!" The axe, gripped
close to the blade, moved. A tear in the high-necked green gown, blood at her
collarbone. "Dearest
Jad," said the woman on her knees. A
heartbeat without movement, without breath. And then the other Erling, the
second man in through the window, dropped his shield with a clatter. "Leave
her, Svein. I've been taken by them before." "Be
a woman for the Cyngael, if you want!" the man named Svein snarled.
"Ingavin waits for me! Drop weapons, or I cut her apart!" Alun,
looking at pale, wild eyes, hearing battle madness in the voice, laid down his
sword, slowly. There
was blood on the girl. He saw her staring back at him. He was thinking of Dai,
outside, that shouted warning before the hooves and fire. No weapon at all. His
heart was crying and there was a need to kill and he was trying to find a space
within himself to pray. "Do
the same," he said to Gryffeth, without turning his head. "Do
not!" Rhiannon said, whispering it, but very clear. Gryffeth looked at her
and then at Alun, and then he dropped his blade. "He
will kill her," said Alun to the men behind him, not looking back. His
eyes were on the girl's. "Let his fellows be defeated outside, and then we
will settle with these two. They have nowhere on Jad's earth to go from
here." "Then
he will kill her," said the man named Siawn, and he stepped
forward, still with his sword. Death in his voice, and an old rage. The
axe moved again, another rip in the green, a second ribbon of blood against
white skin. One of the women whimpered. Not the one being held, though she was
biting her lip now. They
stayed like that, a moment as long as the one before Jad made the world. Then a
hammer was thrown. The
yellow-bearded Erling was wearing his iron helmet or his head would have been
pulped like a fruit by that blow. Even so, the sound of the impact was
sickening at close range in a crowded room. The man crumpled like a child's
doll stuffed with straw; dead before his body, disjointed and splayed, hit the
floor. The axe fell, harmlessly. It
seemed to Alun that no one in the room breathed for several moments. Extreme
violence could do that, he thought. This wasn't a battlefield. They were too
close together. Such things should happen . . . outdoors, not in women's
chambers. The
woman in whose chambers they were standing remained where she'd been held,
motionless. The flying hammer had passed near enough to brush her hair. Both
arms were at her sides now, and no one was holding an axe to het Alun could see
two streams of blood on her gown, the cuts at throat and collarbone. He watched
her draw one slow breath. Her hands were shaking. No other sign. Death had
touched her, and turned away. One might tremble a little. He
turned away, to the Erling who had thrown that hammer. Reddish beard streaked
with grey; long hair spilling from the helmet bowl. Not a young man. His throw,
the slightest bit awry, would have killed Brynn's daughter, crushing her skull.
The man looked around at all of them, then held out empty hands. "All
men are fools," he said in Anglcyn. They could make it out. "The gods
gave us little wisdom, some less than others. That man, Svein, angered me, I
confess. We all go to our gods, one way or another. Little profit in hurrying
there. He'd have killed the girl, and both of us. Foolish. I will not bring a
great deal in ransom, but I do yield me, to you both and to the lady." He
looked from Alun to Siawn behind him, and then to Rhiannon mer Brynn. "Shall
I kill him, my lady?" said Siawn grimly. You could hear the wish in him. "Yes,"
said the brown-haired woman, still on her knees. The third woman, Alun saw, had
just been sick, on the far side of the room. "No,"
said Rhiannon. Her face was bone-white. She still hadn't moved. "He's
yielded. Saved my life." "And
what do you think he would have done if there'd been more of them here?"
the man named Siawn asked harshly. "Or fewer of us in the house tonight,
by Jad's mercy? Do you think you'd still be clothed, and standing?" Alun
had had the same thought. They
were speaking Cyngael. The Erling looked from one of them to the other, then he
chuckled, and answered in their own language, heavily accented. He had been
raiding here before; he'd said as much. "She
would have been claimed by Mikkel, who is the only reason we are so far from
the ships. Or by his brother, which would have been worse. They'd have stripped
her and taken her, in front of all of us, I imagine." He looked at Alun.
"Then they'd have found a bad way to kill her." "Why?
Why that? She's . . . just a woman." Alun needed to leave, but also needed
to understand. And another part of him was afraid to go. The world, his life,
might change forever when he went outside. As long as he was here, in this room
.. . "This
is the house of Brynn ap Hywll," said the Erling. "Our guide told us
that." "And
so?" Alun asked. They'd had a guide. He registered that. Knew the Arberthi
would, as well. Rhiannon
was breathing carefully, he saw. Not looking at anyone. Had never once
screamed, he thought, only that one warning to him, when the horse smashed the
window. The
Erling took off his iron helmet. His red hair was plastered to his skull, hung
limply to his shoulders. He had a battered, broken-nosed face. "Mikkel
Ragnarson leads this raid, with his brother. One purpose only, though I did try
to change his mind for those of us who came for our own sakes, not his. He is
the son of Ragnar Siggurson, and grandson of Siggur, the one we named the
Volgan. This is vengeance." "Oh,
Jad!" cried the man named Siawn.
"Oh, Jad and all the Blessed Victims! Brynn was outside when they came!
Let's go!" Alun
had already picked up his sword, had turned, twisted through the others, was
flying as fast as he could down the corridor for the double doors. Siawn's
desperate cry came from behind him. Brynn
ap Hywll hadn't been the only one outside. He
hadn't killed anyone yet, the thought came. A need was rising, with his terror.
Terror
went away like smoke on a wind as soon as he was out through the doors and saw
what there was to see. Its passing left behind a kind of hollowness: a space
not yet filled by anything. He had been quite certain, in fact, from the moment
he'd heard Dai's first cry, but there was knowing, and knowing. The
attack was over. There hadn't been enough of the Erlings to cope with Brynn's
warband here and their own Cadyri, even with the element of surprise. It was
obviously to have been a raid on an isolated farmhouse—a large, specifically
chosen farmhouse, but even so, this had been meant to kill Brynn ap Hywll, not
meet his gathered force. Someone had erred, or had very bad luck. He'd said
that himself, inside. Before he'd come running out into the yard to see the
body lying here not far from the open doors. Not far at all. He
stopped running. Others were moving, all around him. They seemed oddly distant,
vague, blurred somehow. He stood very still, and then, with an effort that took
a great deal out of him, as though his body had become extremely heavy, Alun
went forward again. Dai
hadn't had anything but the knife in his belt when he'd gone out, but there was
an Erling sword in his hand now. He was face down in the grass and mud, a dead
raider beside him. Alun went over to that place, where he lay, and he knelt in
the mud and put down his own blade, and took off his helmet and set it down, and
then, after another moment, he turned his brother over and looked at him. Not
cheap, the selling of his life, the
"Lament for Seisyth" went. The one the bards sang, at one point or
another, in the halls of all three provinces during those winter nights when
men longed for spring's quickening and the blood and souls of the younger ones
quickened at the thought of bright, known deeds. The
axe blow that killed Dai had fallen from behind and above, from horseback. Alun
saw that by the light of the torches moving through the yard now. His blood and
soul did not quicken. He held a maimed body, terribly loved. The soul was . . .
elsewhere. He ought to pray now, Alun thought, offer the known, proper words.
He couldn't even remember them. He felt old, weighted by grief, the need to
weep. But
not yet. It was not over yet. He heard shouting still. There was an armed
Erling in the yard some distance away, his back to the door of one of the
outbuildings, holding a sword to a nearly naked figure in a half-ring made by
the Arberthi warband and Alun's own companions. Still
on his knees, his brother's head in his lap now, blood soaking into his
leggings and tunic, Alun saw that the captive figure was Brynn ap Hywll, being
held—in the most savage irony he could imagine—exactly as his daughter had
been, moments before. The
clerics taught in chapel (and text, for those who could read) that Jad of the
Sun did battle in the night under the world for his children, that he was not
cruel or capricious as the gods of the pagans were, making sport of mortal men. You
would not have known it tonight. Riderless
horses moving in the yard among the dead; servants running after them, taking
their reins. Wounded men crying. The flames seemed to have been put out except
for one shed, burning down at the other end of the farmyard, nothing near it to
be claimed by fire. There
had been more than fifty fighting men sleeping here tonight, with weapons and
armour. The northmen could not have known or expected that, not in a farmhouse.
Bad luck for them. The
Erlings had fled or were taken, or were dead. Except one of them held Brynn
now, with nowhere to go. Alun wasn't sure what he wanted to do, but he was
about to do something. You
go. I don't think I am equal to this. Not
the voice, the brother, he'd known all his life. And for a very last word, a
command, torn from him: Go! Sending
Alun away, at the end. And how could that be their last shared moment in the
god's world? In a life Alun had lived with his brother from the time he was
born? He
set Dai's head gently down and rose from the mud and started over towards that
torchlit half-circle of men. Someone was speaking; he was too far away yet to
hear. He saw that Siawn and Gryffeth and the others had come out now, the big,
red-bearded Erling gripped between two of them. He looked over at his cousin,
and then away: Gryffeth had seen him kneeling beside Dai, so he knew. He was
using his sword for support, point down in the earth, looked as if he wanted to
sink into the dark, trampled grass. They had grown up together, the three of
them, from childhood. Not so long ago. Rhiannon
mer Brynn was in the yard as well now, beside her mother, who was standing
straight as a Rhodian marble column, not far from the arc of men, gazing at her
captive husband through the smoke and flames.
He
saw Owyn's younger son—Owyn's only son now, a sorrow under Jad—moving
too quickly towards the other men, sword in hand, and he understood what was
working in him. It could be like a poison, grief. Ceinion went forward swiftly,
at an angle, to intercept him. A necessary life was still in the balance. It
was too dark to read faces, but you could sometimes tell a man's intention from
the way he moved. There was death around them in the farmyard, and death in the
way the young Cadyri prince was going forward. Ceinion
spoke, almost running, calling his name. Alun kept going. Ceinion had to catch
him, lay a hand on the young man's arm—and received a look that chilled him,
for his pains. "Remember
who you are!" the cleric snapped, deliberately cold. "And what is
happening here." "I
know what happened here," said the boy—he was still something of that,
though his father's heir as of tonight. And there were ripples that might flow
from that, for all of them. Princes mattered, under Jad. "It
is still happening. Wait, and pray. That man with the sword is the Volgan's
grandson." "I
thought as much," said Alun ab Owyn, a bleakness in his voice that was a
sorrow of its own to the cleric hearing it. "We learned he was leading
them, inside." He drew a breath. "I need to kill him, my lord." There
were things you were supposed to say to that, in the teachings, and he knew
what they were, he had even written some of them. What Ceinion of Llywerth,
high cleric of the Cyngael, anchor and emblem of his people's faith in Jad,
murmured amid the orange flickering of torches and the black smoke was:
"Not yet, my dear. You can't kill him yet. Soon, I hope." Alun
looked at him, and after a stiff moment nodded his head, once. They went
forward together into that half-circle of men and were in time to see what
happened there. The
taken-away sword had struck the tumbled raider first, but a second Erling's axe
from behind and above had killed the Cyngael sooner. She
crouches by the fence until those first two bodies are left alone again—the one
who knelt beside one of them standing and walking away—and then, not allowing
any time for fear to take hold of her, she goes straight in, at speed, and
claims a soul for the queen. A
moonless night. Only on a moonless night. Once
it was otherwise and easier, but once, also, they were able to fly. She lays
hands on the body, and speaks the words they are all taught, says them for the
first time, and—yes, there!—she sees his soul rise from blood and earth
to her summoning. It
hovers, turning, drifting, in a stray breath of wind. She exults fiercely,
aroused, her hair changing colour, again and then again, body tingling with
excitement, even amid the fear of shod hooves and the presence of iron, which
is weakening and can kill her. She
watches the soul she's claimed for the Ride float above the sprawled, slain
mortal body and she sees it turn to go, uncertain, insubstantial, not entirely present
yet in her world, though that will come, it will come. She didn't expect to
feel so much desire. This isn't hers, though, this is for the queen. He
turns completely around in the air, moves upwards, then comes slowly back down,
touches ground, already gathering form again. He looks towards her, sees,
doesn't see—not quite yet—and then to the south he turns and begins to go,
pulled towards the wood . . . as if to a half-remembered home. He
will reach them in the forest soon, taking surer, stronger form as he goes, a
shape in their world now, and the queen will see him when he arrives,
and will love him, as a precious gift, shining by water and wood and in the
mound. And she herself, when she rejoins the others, will be touched by the
glory of doing this as silver moonlight touches and lights pools in the night. No moons
tonight. A gift she has been given, this mortal death in the dark, and so
beautiful. She
looks around, sees no one near, goes out then from that farmyard, from iron
and mortals, living and dead, springing over the fence, up the slope, stronger
as she leaves blades and armour behind. She pauses at the crest of the ridge to
look back down. She always looks when near to them. Drawn to this other, mortal
half of the world. It happens among the Ride, she isn't the only one. There are
stories told. The
auras below are brighter than torches for her: anger, grief, fear. She finds
all of these, takes them in, tries to distill them and comprehend. She looks
down from the same beech tree as before, fingers upon it, as before. Two very
big men in the midst of a ring; one holding iron to the other, who came
bursting out of the small structure, roaring for a weapon. It frightened her,
the red heat in that voice. But he was seen by the raider before his own men
could reach him, and pinned by a sword to the wall. Not killed. She was not
sure why, at first, but now she sees. Or thinks she does: other men arrive,
freeze like carvings, then more come, gather, and are there now, like stone,
torchlight around two men. One
of the two is afraid, but not the one she would have thought. She doesn't
understand mortals well at all. Another world, they live in. It is
quiet now, the battle over except for this, and one other thing they will not
know, down below. She listens. Has always liked to listen, and watch. Trying to
understand.
+
"Understand
me," the Erling said again, in his own tongue. "I kill him if anyone
moves!" "Then
do it!" snapped Brynn ap Hywll. He was barefoot in the grass, only a grey
undertunic covering his belly and heavy thighs. Another man would have looked
ridiculous, Ceinion thought. Not Brynn, even with a sword to him and the
Erling's left hand bunching his tunic tightly from behind. "I
want a horse and an oath to your god that I will be allowed passage to our
ships. Swear it or he dies!" The voice was high, almost shrill. "One
horse? Pahl A dozen men you led are standing here! You stain the earth with
your breathing." Brynn was quivering with rage. "Twelve
horses! I want twelve horses! Or he dies!" Brynn
roared again. "No one swear that oath! No one dare!" "I
will kill him!" the Erling screamed. His hands were shaking,
Ceinion saw. "I am the grandson of Siggur Volganson!" "Then
do it!" Brynn howled back.
"You castrate coward! Do it!" "No!"
said Ceinion. He stepped forward into the ring of light. 'No! My friend, be
silent, in Jad's name. You do not have permission to leave us!" "Ceinion!
Don't swear that oath! Do not!" "I
will swear it. You are
needed." "He
won't do it. He's a coward. Kill me and die with me, Erling! Go to your gods.
Your grandfather would have gutted me like a fish by now! He'd have ripped me
open." There was a white-hot, spitting fury in his voice, near to madness. "You
killed him!" the Erling snarled. "I
did! I did! I chopped off his arms and cut his chest open and ate his
bloody heart and laughed! So carve me now and let them do the same to
you!" Ceinion
closed his eyes. Opened them. "This must not be. Erling, hear me! I am
high cleric of the Cyngael. Hear me! I swear by holiest Jad of the
Sun—" "No!"
roared Brynn. "Ceinion, I forbid—" "—that
no harm will come to you when you release—" "No!" "—this
man, and that you will be allowed—" The
small door to the outbuilding—it was the brewhouse- banged open, right behind
the two men. The Erling startled like a nervous horse, looked frantically back
over his shoulder, swore. Died.
Brynn ap Hywll, in the moment his captor half turned, hammered an elbow
viciously backwards and up into the other man's unprotected face beneath the
nosepiece, smashing his mouth open. He twisted hard away from the sword thrust
that followed. It raked blood from his side, no more than that. He stepped back
quickly, turned .. . "Here!" Ceinion
saw a sword arcing through the torchlight. Something beautiful in that flight,
something terrible. Alun ab Owyn's blade was caught by Brynn at the hilt.
Ceinion saw his old friend smile then, a grey wolf in winter, at the Cadyri
prince who had thrown it. I ate his heart. He
hadn't. Might have done, though, the way he'd been that day. Ceinion remembered
that fight—against this one's grandfather. A meeting of giants, crashing
together on a blood-slick morning battlefield by the sea. In battle this fury
happened to Brynn, the way it did to the Erlings of Ingavin's bear cult: a
madness of war, claiming a soul. If you became what you fought, what were
you? Not the night for that thought. Not here, good men dead in the dark
farmyard. "He
swore an oath!" the Erling bubbled, spitting teeth. Blood in the broken
mouth. "Jad
curse you," said Brynn. "My people died here. And my guests. Rot your
ugly soul!" He moved, barefoot, half-naked. The Cadyri blade in his hand
flicked right. The Erling moved to block it. The younger man wore armour, was
big, rangy, in his prime. Had
been. The annihilating backhand blow swept down like a falling of rocks from a
mountain height, crashing through his late parry, biting so deeply into his
neck between helmet and breastplate that Brynn had to plant a foot on the
fallen man, after, to lever and jerk it out. He
stood back, looked around slowly, flexing his neck and shoulder muscles, a bear
in a circle of fire. No one moved, or said a word. Brynn shook his head, as if
to clear it, to release fury, come back to himself. He turned to the door of
the brewhouse. A girl stood there, in an unbelted tunic, flushing in the torchlight,
her dark hair loose, for bed. For being bedded. Brynn looked at her. "That
was bravely done," he said, quietly. "Let all men know it." She
bit at her lower lip, was trembling. Ceinion was careful not to look to where
Enid stood beside her daughter. Brynn turned around, took a step towards him,
then another. Stopped squarely in front of the cleric, feet planted wide on his
own soil. "I'd
never have forgiven you," he said, after a moment. Ceinion
met that gaze. "You'd have been alive to not forgive me. I spoke truth:
you do not have leave to go from us. You are needed still." Brynn
was breathing hard, the coursing rage not yet gone from him, the big chest
heaving, not from exertion but from the force of his anger. He looked at the
young Cadyri behind Ceinion. Gestured with the blade. "I
thank you for this," he said. "You were quicker than my own
men." Owyn's
son said, "No thanks need be. At least my sword is blooded, though by
another. I did nothing at all tonight but play a harp." Brynn
looked down at him a moment from his great height. He was bleeding from the
right side, Ceinion saw, the tunic ripped
open there; he didn't seem aware of it. Brynn glanced away into the shadows of
the farmyard, west of them. The cattle were still lowing on the other side in
their pen. "Your brother's dead?" Alun
nodded his head, stiffly. "Shame
upon my life," said Brynn ap Hywll. "This was a guest in my
house." Alun
made no reply. His own breathing was shallow, by contrast, constricted. Ceinion
thought that he needed to be given wine, urgently. Oblivion for a night. Prayer
could come after, in the morning with the god's light. Brynn
bent down, wiped both sides of the blade on the black grass, handed it back to
Alun. He turned towards the brewhouse. "I need clothing," he said.
"All of you, we will deal with ..." He
stopped, seeing his wife in front of him. "We
will deal with the dead, and do what we can for the wounded," Enid said
crisply. "There will be ale for the living, who were so valiant
here." She looked over her shoulder. "Rhiannon, have the kitchen heat
water and prepare cloths for wounds. Fetch all my herbs and medications, you
know where they are. All of the women are to come to the hall." She turned
back to her husband. "And you, my lord, will apologize tonight and tomorrow
and the next day to Kara, here. You likely gave her the fright of a young life,
more than any Erling would have, when she came to fetch ale for those still
dicing and found you sleeping in the brewhouse. If you want a night's sleep
outside the doors, my lord, choose another place next time, if we have
guests?" Ceinion
loved her even more, then, than he had before. Not
the only one, he saw. Brynn bent down and kissed his wife on the cheek.
"We hear and obey you, my lady," he said. "You
are bleeding like a fat, speared boar," she said. "Have yourself
attended to." "Am
I permitted the slight dignity of trousers and boots first?" he asked.
"Please?" Someone laughed, a release of strain. Someone else moved,
very fast. Siawn,
a little tardy, cried out, following. But the red-bearded Erling had torn free
of those holding him and, seizing a shield from one of them—not a sword—crashed
through the ring around Brynn and his wife. He
turned away from them, looking up and south, raised the shield. Siawn
hesitated, confused. Ceinion wheeled towards the slope and the trees. Saw
nothing at all, in the black night. Then
he heard an arrow strike the lifted shield. "There
he goes!" said the Erling,
speaking Cyngael very clearly. He was pointing. Ceinion, whose eyes were good,
saw nothing, but Alun ab Owyn shouted, "I see him. Same ridge we were on today!
Heading down the other way." "Don't
touch the arrow!" Ceinion heard. He spun back. The big Erling, not a young
man, grey in his hair and beard, set down the shield carefully. "Not even
the shaft, mind." "Poison?"
It was Brynn. "Always." "You
know who it was, then?" "Ivarr,
this one's brother." He jerked his head towards the one on the ground.
"Black-souled from birth, and a coward." "This one was
brave?" Brynn snarled it. "He
was here with a sword," said the Erling. "The other one uses arrows,
and poison." "And
Erlings should be much too brave to do that," Brynn said icily.
"Can't rape a woman with a bow and arrow." "Yes, you can,"
said the Erling quietly, meeting his gaze. Brynn took a step towards him. "He
saved your life!" Ceinion said quickly. "Or Enid's."
"Buying his own," Brynn snapped. The
Erling actually laughed. "There's that," he said. "Trying to, at
any rate. Ask someone what happened inside." But
before that could be done, they heard another sound. Drumming hooves. An Erling
horse thundered through the yard, leaped the fence. Ceinion, seeing the rider,
cried out after him, hopelessly. Alun
ab Owyn, pursuing a foe he was unlikely ever to see or find, disappeared almost
immediately on the dark path that curved around the ridge. "Siawn!"
said Brynn. "Six men. Follow him!" "A
horse for me," cried Ceinion. "That is the heir of Cadyr,
Brynn!" "I
know it is. He wants to kill someone." "Or
be killed," said the red-bearded Erling, watching with interest.
The
archer had a considerable start and poison on his arrows. It was pitch black on
the path among the trees. Alun had no knowledge of the Erling horse he'd seized
and mounted, and the horse wouldn't know the woods at all. He cleared
the fence, landed, kicked the animal ahead. They pounded up the path. He had a
sword, no helmet (on the ground, in mud, beside Dai), no torch, felt a degree
of unconcern he couldn't ever remember in himself before. A branch over the
path struck his left shoulder, rocked him in the saddle. He grunted with pain.
He was doing something entirely mad, knew it. He
was also thinking as fast as he could. The archer would come out and down from
the slope—almost certainly—at the place they had reached earlier today, with
Ceinion. The Erling was fleeing, would have a horse waiting for him. Would
anticipate pursuit and head back into the trees, not straight along the path to
the main trail west. Alan
lashed the horse around a curve. He was going too fast. It was entirely
possible that a stump or boulder would break the animal's leg, send Alun
flying, crack his neck. He flattened himself over the mane and felt the wind of
another branch pass over his head. There was a body behind him, on the
churned-up earth of a farmyard far from home. He thought of his mother and
father. Another blackness there, darker than this night. He rode. The
only good thing about the moonless sky was that the archer would have trouble
finding his way, too—and seeing Alun clearly, if he came close enough for a
bowshot. Alun reached the forking trail where the slope came out on the path
south-west. Remembered, only this afternoon, climbing up with Dai and then both
of them coming down with the high cleric. He
drew a breath and left the path right there, not hesitating, plunging into the
woods. It
was impossible, almost immediately. Swearing, he pulled the horse to a stop and
listened in blackness. Heard—blessed be Jad—a sound through leaves, not far
ahead. It could be an animal. He didn't think it was. He twitched the reins,
moved the horse forward, carefully now, picking his way, sword out. A semblance
of a trail, no more than that. His eyes were adjusting but there was no light
at all. An arrow would kill him, easily. He
dismounted on that thought. Looped the reins around a tree trunk. His hair was
slick with sweat. He heard sounds again—something ahead of him. It wasn't an
animal. Someone unused to being silent in a forest, an unknown wood, far from
the sea, amid the terror of pursuit, a raid having gone entirely wrong. Alun
gripped his sword and followed. He
came upon the four Erlings too quickly, before he was ready for them, stumbling
through beech trees into a sudden, small space, seeing them there, shadows—two
kneeling to catch their breath, one slumped against a tree, the fourth directly
in front of him, facing the other way. Alun
killed that one from behind, kept moving, slashed away the sword of the one
leaning by the tree, gripped him and turned him with an arm twisted behind his
back, snarled, "Drop blades, both of you!" to the kneeling pair. A
triad, he thought suddenly,
remembering Rhiannon held, then Brynn. Third time tonight. The thought
was urgent, sword-swift. He
remembered what had happened to the other two men who had held their captives
this way, and even as the thought came he broke the pattern. He killed the man
he was using as a shield, pushing him hard away to fall on the earth, and he
stood alone to face two Erlings in a clearing in a wood. He
had never actually killed before. Two now, in moments. "Come
on!" he screamed at the pair before him. Both bigger than him, hardened
sea-raiders. He saw the nearer one's head jerk suddenly, looking past Alun, and
without any actual thought Alun
dove to his right. The arrow from behind flew past him and hit the Erling in
the sword arm. "Ivarr,
no!" the man screamed. Alun
rolled, scrambled up, turned his back on the two of them, sprinting immediately
east into the thicket where the bowman would be. He heard him running through
to the other side, then mounting up. The horse was there! He
wheeled back, running hard, swearing savagely. The fourth of those he'd
surprised here was running the other way, towards the path. The wounded man was
on his knees, clutching the arrow in his arm, making small, queer sounds. He
was as good as dead, they both knew it: poison on the arrowhead, the shaft.
Alun ignored him, pushed through to his horse, clawed free the reins, mounted,
forced his way back through the trees and then the clearing again to the other
side. He could still hear the archer's horse ahead of them, that rider swearing
too, fighting to find a path through in thick, treed blackness. He felt a
surging in his blood, fury and hardness and pain. His sword was red, his own
doing this time. It didn't help. It didn't help. He
broke through, the horse thrashing into open space, saw water, a pool in the
wood, the other rider going around it to the south. Alun roared wordlessly;
galloped the Erling horse into the shallow water, splashing through at an angle
to shorten the way, cut off the other man. He
was almost thrown over the animal's head as it halted, stiff-legged. It
reared straight back up, neighing, clawing at the air in terror, and then it
came down and did not move at all, as if anchored so firmly it might never stir
again. The
entirely unexpected will elicit very different responses in people, and the
sudden intrusion of the numinous—the vision utterly outside one's range of
experience—will exaggerate this, of course. One person will be terrified into
denial, another will shiver in delight at a making manifest of dreams held
close for a lifetime. A third might assume himself intoxicated or bewitched.
Those who ground their lives in a firm set of beliefs about the nature of the
world are particularly vulnerable to such moments, though not without
exception. Someone
who—like Owyn's younger son that night—had already had his life broken into
shards, who was exposed and raw as a wound, might be said to have been ready
for confirmation that he'd never properly understood the world. We are not
constant, in our lives, or our responses to our lives. There are moments when
this becomes clear. Alun's
foot came out of one stirrup when the horse reared. He clutched at the animal's
neck, fought to stay in the saddle, barely did so as the hooves splashed down
hard. His sword fell into the shallow water. He swore again, tried to make the
horse move, could not. He heard music. Turned his head. Saw a
growing, inexplicable presence of light, pale as moon-rise, but there were no
moons tonight. Then, as the music grew louder, approaching, Alun ab Owyn saw
what was passing by him, walking and riding on the surface of that water, in
bright procession, the light a shimmering, around them and in them. And
everything about the night and the world changed then, was silvered, because
they were faeries and he could see them. He
closed his eyes, opened them again. They were still there. His heart was
pounding, as if trying to break free of his breast. He was trammelled, entangled
as in nets, between the desperate need to flee from the unholy Jad-cursed
demons these must beby all the teachings of his faith—and the impulse to
dismount and kneel in the water of this starlit pool before the very tall,
slender figure he saw on an open litter, borne in the midst of the dancing of
them all, with her pale garments and nearly white skin and her hair that kept
changing its colour in the silvered light that grew brighter as they passed,
the music louder now, wild as his heart's beating. There was a constriction in
his chest, he had to remind himself to breathe. If
these were evil spirits, iron would keep them at bay, so the old tales
promised. He'd dropped his sword in the water. It occurred to him that he ought
to make the sign of the sun disk, and with that thought he realized that he
couldn't. He
couldn't move. His hands on the horse's reins, the horse rooted in the shallows
of the pool, the two of them breathing statues watching what was passing by.
And in that growing, spirit-shaped brightness in the depths of a moonless wood
at night, Alun saw— for the first time—that the saddle cloth of the Erling
horse he rode bore the pagan hammer symbol of Ingavin. And
then, looking at that queen again—for who else could this possibly be, borne
across still waters, shining, beautiful as hope or memory?—Alun saw someone
next to her, riding a small, high-stepping mare with bells and bright ribbons
in its mane, and there came a harder pounding, like a killing hammer against
his wounded heart. He
opened his mouth—he could do that—and he began to shout against the music,
struggling more and more wildly to move arms or legs, to dismount, to go there.
He was unable to do anything at all, couldn't stir from where he and the horse
were rooted, as his brother rode past him, changed utterly and not changed at
all, dead in the farmyard below them, and riding across night waters here, not
seeing Alun, or hearing him, one hand extended, and claimed, laced in the long
white fingers of the faerie queen.
Siawn
and his men knew exactly where they were going, heading up the slope. They also
had torches. Ceinion, though he preferred to walk, had been riding all his
life. They came to the place where the trail from the ridge met the path,
stopped there, the horses stamping. The cleric, though much the oldest, was the
first to hear sounds. Pointed into the woods, Siawn led them there, cutting a
little north of where Alun had tried to force his way through. There were nine
of them. The other young Cadyri, Gryffeth ap Ludh, had joined them, fighting
sorrow. They found the two dead Erlings and a dying one almost immediately. Siawn
leaned over in his saddle and killed the wounded man with his sword. He'd
needed to do that, Ceinion thought: Brynn's captain had come into the yard too
late, after the fighting was done. The cleric said nothing. There were
teachings against this, but this wood tonight was not the place for them. By
the light of their smoking torches they saw signs of passage through the far
side of that small glade. They went straight through and out the other side,
and so came to the wider clearing, the pool of water under stars. Stopped then,
all of them, without words. It became very quiet, even the horses. The
man next to Ceinion made the sign of the sun disk. The cleric, a little
belatedly, did the same. Pools in the wood, wells, oak groves, mounds . . . the
half-world. The pagan places that had once been holy before the Cyngael had
come to Jad, or the god had come to them in their valleys and hills. These
forest pools were his enemies, and Ceinion knew it. The first clerics, arriving
from Batiara and Ferrieres, had chanted stern invocations, reading from the
liturgy beside such waters as this, casting out all presence of false spirits
and old magics. Or trying to. People might kneel today in stone chapels of the
god and go straight from them to seek their future from a wise woman using
mouse bones, or drop an offering in a well. Or into a pool by moonlight, or
under stars. "Let's
go," Ceinion said. "This is just water, just a wood." "No
it isn't, my lord," said the man beside him, respectfully but firmly. The
one who had made the sign. "He's here. Look." And only then did
Ceinion see the boy on his horse, motionless in the water, and understand. "Dear
Jad!" said one of the others. "He went into the pool." "No
moons," said another. "A moonless night—look at him." "Do
you hear music?" said Siawn abruptly. "Listen!" "We
do not," said Ceinion of Llywerth, fiercely, his heart beating fast
now. "Look
at him," Siawn repeated. "He's trapped. Can't even move!" The
horses were restive now, agitated by their riders, or by something else,
tossing their heads. "Of
course he can move," said the cleric, and swung down from his mount and
went forward, striding hard, a man used to woods and nights and swift, decisive
movement. "No!"
cried a voice from behind him. "My lord, do not—" That
he ignored. There were souls here, to save and defend. His entrusted task for
so long. He heard an owl cry, hunting. A normal sound, proper in a night
wood. Part of the order of things. Men feared the unknown, and so the dark. Jad
was Light in his being, an answer to demons and spirits, shelter for his
children. He
spoke a swift prayer and went straight into the pool, splashing through the
shallows, calling the young prince's name. The boy didn't even turn his head.
Ceinion came up beside him, and in the darkness he saw that Alun ab Owyn's
mouth was wide open, as though he was trying to speak—or shout. He caught his
breath. And
then, terribly, there was the sound of music. Very faint it seemed to
Ceinion, ahead of them and to the right. Horns and flutes, stringed
instruments, bells, moving across the unrippled stillness of the water. He
looked, saw nothing there. Ceinion spoke Jad's holy name. He signed the disk,
and seized the reins of the Erling horse. It wouldn't move. He
didn't want the others to see him struggling with the animal. Their souls,
their belief, were in danger here. He reached up with both arms and pulled
Owyn's son, unresisting, from the saddle. He threw the young man over one
shoulder and carried him, splashing and staggering, almost falling, out of the
pool, and he laid him down on the dark grass at the water's edge. Then he knelt
beside him, touched the disk about his throat, and prayed. After
a moment, Alun ab Owyn blinked. He shook his head. Drew a breath and then
closed his eyes, which was a curious relief, because what Ceinion saw in his
face, even in the darkness, was harrowing. Eyes
still closed, voice low, utterly uninflected, the young Cadyri said, "I
saw him. My brother. There were faeries, and he was there." "You
did not," Ceinion said firmly, clearly. "You are grieving, my child,
and in a strange place, and you have just killed someone, I believe. Your mind
was overswayed. It happens, son of Owyn. I know it happens. We long for those
we have lost, we see them . . . everywhere. Believe me, sunrise and the god
will set you right on this." "I
saw him," Alun repeated. No
emphasis, the quiet more unsettling than fervour or insistence would have been.
He opened his eyes, looking up at Ceinion. "You
know that is heresy, lad. I do not want—" "I
saw him." Ceinion
looked over his shoulder. The others had remained where they were, watching.
Too far away to hear. The pool was still as glass. No wind in the glade.
Nothing that could be taken for music now. He must have imagined it himself;
would never claim to be immune to the strangeness of a place like this. And he
had a memory of his own, pushed hard away, always, of . . . another place like
this. He was aware of the shapes of power, the weight of the past. He was a
fallible man, always had been, struggling to be virtuous in times that made it
hard. He
heard the owl again; far side of the water now. Ceinion looked up, stars
overhead in the bowl of sky between trees. The
Erling horse shook its head, snorted loudly, and walked placidly out of the
pond by itself. It lowered its head to crop the black grass beside them.
Ceinion watched it for a moment, the utter ordinariness. He looked back at the
boy, took a deep breath. "Come,
lad," he said. "Will you pray with me, at Brynn's chapel?" "Of
course," said Alun ab Owyn, almost too calmly. He sat up, and then stood,
without aid. Then he walked straight back into the pool. Ceinion
half lifted a hand in protest, then saw the boy bend down and pick up a sword
from the shallows. Alun walked back out. "They've
gone, you see," he said. They
returned to the others, leading the Erling horse. Two of Brynn's men made the
sign of the disk as they came up, eyeing the Cadyri prince warily. Gryffeth ap
Ludh dismounted and embraced his cousin. Alun returned the gesture, briefly.
Ceinion watched him, his brow knit. "The
two Cadyri and I will go back to Brynnfell," he said. "Two of them
escaped from me," Alun said, looking up at Siawn. "The one with the
bow. Ivarr." "We'll
catch him," said Siawn, quietly. "He
went south, around the water," Owyn's son said, pointing. "Probably
double back west." He seemed composed, grave even. Too much so, in fact.
The cousin was weeping. Ceinion felt a needle of fear. "We'll
catch him," Siawn repeated, and cantered off, giving the pool a wide
berth, his men following. Certainty
can be misplaced, even when there is fair cause for it. They didn't, in fact,
catch him: a man on a good-enough horse, in darkness, which made tracking hard.
Some days later, word would come to Brynnfell of two people killed, by arrows—a
farm labourer and a young girl—in the thinly populated valley between them and
the sea. Both the man and the girl had been blood-eagled, which was an
abomination. Nor would anyone ever find the Erling ships moored, Jad alone knew
where, along the wild and rocky coastline to the west. The god might indeed
know, but he didn't always confide such things to his mortal children, doing
what they could to serve him in a dark and savage world. FOUR Rhiannon
had known since childhood (not yet so far behind her) that her father's
importance did not emerge from court manners and courtly wit. Brynn ap Hywll
had achieved power and renown by killing men: Anglcyn and Erling and, on more
than one occasion, those from the provinces of Cadyr and Llywerth, in the
(lengthy) intervals between (brief) truces among the Cyngael. "Jad's
a warrior," was his blunt response to a sequence of clerics who'd joined
his household and then attempted to instill a gentler piety in the
battle-scarred leader of the Hywll line. Nonetheless,
whatever she might have known from harp song and meadhall tale, his daughter
had never seen her father kill until tonight. Until the moment when he had
slashed a thrown and caught sword deep into the Erling who'd been trying to
bargain his way to freedom. It
hadn't disturbed her, watching the man die. That
was a surprise. She had discovered it about herself: seeing the sword of Alun
ab Owyn in her father's thick hands come down on the Erling. She wondered if it
was a bad, even an impious thing that she didn't recoil from what she saw and
heard: strangled, bubbling cry, blood bursting, a man falling like a sack. It
gave her, in truth, a measure of satisfaction. She knew that she ought properly
to atone for that, in chapel. She had no intention of doing so. There were two
gashes on her throat and neck from an Erling axe. There was blood on her body,
and on her green gown. She had been expecting to die in her own chambers
tonight. Had told Siawn and his men to let the Erling kill her. She
could still hear herself speaking those words. Resolute then, she'd had to
conceal shaking hands after. Had,
accordingly, little sympathy to spare for Erling raiders when they were slain,
and that applied to the five her father ordered executed when it became evident
they were not going to bring any ransom. They
were dispatched where they stood in the torchlit yard. No words spoken, no
ceremony, pause for prayer. Five living men, five dead men. In the time one
might lift and drink a cup of wine. Brynn's men began walking around the yard
with torches, killing those Erlings who lay on the ground, wounded, not yet
dead. They had come to raid, take slaves, rape and kill, the way they always
came. A
message needed to be sent, endlessly: the Cyngael might not worship gods of
storm and sword, or believe in an afterworld of endless battle, but they could
be—some of them could be—as bloody and as ruthless as an Erling when need
was. She
was still outside when her father spoke to the older, red-bearded raider. Brynn
walked up to the man, held again between two of their people, more tightly than
before. He had broken free once—and saved Brynn from an arrow. Her father,
Rhiannon realized, was dealing with a great anger because of that. "How
many of you were here?" Brynn bit off the words, speaking quietly. He was
never quiet, she thought. "Thirty,
a few more." No hesitation. The man was almost as big as her father,
Rhiannon saw. And of an age. "As
many left behind?" "Forty,
to guard the ships. Take them off the coast, if necessary." "Two
ships?" "Three.
We had some horses, to come inland." Brynn
had dressed by now, was holding his own sword, though there was no need for it.
He began to pace as they spoke. The red-bearded Erling watched his movements,
standing between two men. They were gripping his arms tightly, Rhiannon saw.
She was certain her father was going to kill him. "You
rode straight for this farmhouse?" "Yes,
that was the idea. If we could find it." "How
did you find it?" "Captured
a shepherd." "And
he is?" "Dead,"
said the Erling. "I can take you to him, if you want." "You
expected this house to be undefended?" The
man smiled a little, then, and shook his head. "Not defended by your
warband, certainly. Young leaders. They made a mistake." "You
weren't one of them?" The
other man shook his head. "The
one who held me brought you here? Of the line of the Volgan?" The
Erling nodded. "Elder
grandson?" Brynn had stopped in front of him again. "Younger. Ivarr's
the elder." "But
he didn't lead." The
man shook his head. "Yes and no. It was his idea. But Ivarr's . . .
different." Brynn
was stabbing his blade into the earth now. "You
came to burn this farm?" "And
kill you, and any of your family here, yes." He
was so calm, Rhiannon thought. Had he made his peace with dying? She didn't
think that was it. He'd surrendered, said he didn't want to be killed, back in
her chamber. "Because
of the grandfather?" The
man nodded. "Your killing him. Taking the sword. These two decided they
were of an age to avenge it, since their father had not. They were wrong." "And
why are you here? You're as old as I am." First
hesitation. In the silence Rhiannon could hear the horses and the crackle of
torches. "Nothing to keep me in Vinmark. I made a mistake, too." Part
of an answer, Rhiannon thought, listening closely. Brynn was staring at him.
"Coming, or before you came?" Another pause. "Both." "There's
no ransom for you, is there." "No,"
the man said frankly. "Once there might have been." Brynn's gaze was
steady. "Maybe. Were you ransomed last time you were taken here, or did
you escape?" Again,
a silence. "Escaped," the Erling admitted. He
had decided, Rhiannon realized, that there was no hope in anything but honesty. Brynn
was nodding. "I thought so. I believe I remember you. The red hair. You did
raid with Volganson, didn't you? You escaped east, twenty-five years ago,
after he died. Through the hills. All the way to the Erling settlements on the
east coast. They chased you, didn't they? You used a cleric as hostage, if I
remember." A
murmur, from those listening. "I
did. I released him. He was a decent enough man." Brynn's voice altered
slightly. "That
was a long way to go." "By
Ingavin's blind eye, I wouldn't want to do it again," the Erling said
dryly. Another
silence. Brynn resumed his pacing. "There's no ransom for you. What can
you offer me?" "A
hammer, sworn loyalty." "Until
you escape again?" "I
said I wouldn't do it again, that journey. I was young then." He looked
down and away for the first time, then back up. "I have nothing to go home
to, and this place is as good as any for me to end my days. You can make me a
slave, to dig ditches or carry water, or use me more wisely, but I will not
escape again." "You
will take the oath and come to the faith of Jad?" Another
slight smile, torchlight upon him. "I did that last time." Brynn
didn't return the smile. "And recanted?" "Last
time. I was young. I'm not any more. Neither Ingavin nor your sun god are worth
dying for, in my judgement. I suppose I am a heretic to two faiths. Kill
me?" Brynn
was standing still again, in front of him. "Where
are the ships? You will guide us to them." The
Erling shook his head. "Not that." Rhiannon
saw her father's expression. He wasn't normally someone she feared. "Yes
that, Erling." "This
is the price of being allowed to live?" "It
is. You spoke of loyalty. Prove it." The
Erling was still a moment, considering. Torches moved in the yard around them.
Men were being carried inside, or helped if they could walk. "Best
kill me then," the red-bearded man said. "If
I must," said Brynn. "No,"
said someone else, stepping forward. "I will take him as a man of mine. My
own guard." Rhiannon
turned, her mouth falling open. "Let
me be clear on this," her mother went on, coming to stand beside her
husband, looking at the Erling. Rhiannon hadn't realized she was even with
them. "I believe I understand. You would fight an Erling band that came
upon us now, but will not reveal where your fellows are?" The
Erling looked at her. "Thank you, my lady," he said. "Certain
things done for life make the life unworthy. You become sick with them. They
poison you, your thoughts." He turned back to Brynn. "They were
shipmates," he said. Brynn's
gaze held that of the Erling another moment, then he looked to his wife.
"You trust him?" Enid
nodded her head. He
was still frowning. "He can easily be killed. I will do it myself." "I
know you will. You want to. Leave him to me. Let us get to our work. There are
wounded men here. Erling, what is your name?" "Whatever
name you give me," the man said. The
Lady Enid swore. It was startling. "What is your name?" she repeated. A
last hesitation, then that wry expression again. "Forgive me. My mother
named me Thorkell. I answer to it."
Rhiannon
watched the Erling go with her mother. He'd said before, in her rooms, that he
could be ransomed. A lie, it now emerged. From the look of him—an old man still
raiding—Helda had said she doubted it. Helda was older, knew more about these
things. She was the calmest of them, too, had helped Rhiannon simply by being
that way. They had almost died. They could have died tonight. The one
named Thorkell had saved her father and herself, both. Rhiannon,
hands steady as she gathered linens and carried heated water with Helda for the
wounded in the hall, remembered the wind of that hammer flying past her face.
Realized--already—that she would likely do so all her life, carrying the memory
like the two scars on her throat. Tonight
the world had altered, very greatly, because there was also the other thing,
which ought to have been pushed away or buried deep or lost in all the
bloodshed, but wasn't. Alun ab Owyn had ridden an Erling horse out of the yard,
pursuing the archer who'd shot at her father. He hadn't yet come back. Brynn
ordered a pit to be dug in the morning, beyond the cattle pen, and the bodies
of the slain raiders shovelled in. Their own dead—nine so far, including Dai ab
Owyn—had been taken into the room attached to the chapel, to be cleansed and
clothed, laid out for the rituals of burial. Woman's work after battle, when it
could be done. Rhiannon had never performed these rites before. They had never
been attacked at home before. Not in her lifetime. They didn't live near the sea. They
tended the wounded in the banquet hall, the dead in the room by the chapel,
lights burning through Brynnfell. Her mother stopped by her once, long enough
to look at her neck and then lay a salve—briskly, expressionlessly—and wrap the
two wounds with a linen cloth. "You
won't die," she said, and moved on. Rhiannon
knew that. She would never now be sung for a pure white, swan-like neck,
either. No matter. No matter at all. She carried on, following her mother. Enid
knew what to do here, as in so many things. Rhiannon
helped, as best she could. Bathing and wrapping wounds, speaking comfort and
praise, fetching ale with the servant girls for the thirsty. One man died on a
table in their hall, as they watched. A sword had taken off most of one leg, at
the thigh, they couldn't stop the bleeding. His name was Bregon. He'd liked
fishing, teasing the girls, had freckles on his nose and cheeks in summer.
Rhiannon found herself weeping, which she didn't want but couldn't seem to do
much about. Not very long ago, when tonight had begun, there had been a feast,
and music. If Jad had shaped the world differently, time could run backwards
and make it so the Erlings had never come. She kept moving a hand, touching the
cloth around her neck. She wanted to stop doing that, too, but couldn't. Four
men carried Bregon ap Moran from the hall on a table board, out the doors and
across the yard to the room by the chapel where the dead men were. She looked
at Helda and they followed. He used to make jokes about her hair, Rhiannon
remembered, called her Crow when she was younger. Brynn's men had not been shy
with his children, though that had changed when she came into womanhood, as did
much else. She
would lay him out for burial—with Helda's help, for she didn't know what to do.
There were half a dozen women in the room, working among the dead by lantern
light. The cleric, Cefan, was kneeling with a sun disk between his hands,
unsteadily intoning the ritual words of the Night Passage. He was young,
visibly shaken. How could he not be, Rhiannon thought. They
set Bregon's board down on the floor. The tables were covered with other bodies
already. There was water, and linen clothing. They had to wash the dead first,
everywhere, comb out their hair and beards, clean their fingernails, that they
might go to Jad fit to enter his halls if the god, in mercy, allowed. She knew
every man lying here. Helda
began removing Bregon's tunic. It was stiff with blood. Rhiannon went to get a
knife to help her cut it away, but then she saw that there was no one by Dai ab
Owyn, and she went and stood over the Cadyri prince where he lay. Time
didn't run backwards in the world they had. Rhiannon looked down at him, and
she knew it would be a lie to pretend she hadn't seen him staring at her when
she'd walked into the hall, and another lie to say it was the first time
something of that sort had happened. And a third one (a failing of the Cyngael,
threes all the time?) to deny that she'd enjoyed having that effect on men. The
passage from girl to woman being negotiated in pleasure, an awareness of
growing power. No
pleasure now, no power that meant anything at all. She knelt beside him on the
stone floor and reached out and brushed his brown hair back. A handsome, clever
man. Needful as night's end, he had said. No ending to night now, unless
the god allowed it for his soul. She looked at the wound in him, the dark blood
clotted there. It occurred to her that it was proper that Brynn's daughter be
the one to attend to a prince of Cadyr, their guest. Cefan, not far away, was
still chanting, his eyes closed, his voice wavering away from him like the
smoke from the candles, rising up. The women whispered or were silent, moving
back and forth, doing their tasks. Rhiannon swallowed hard, and began to
undress the dead man. "What
are you doing?" She'd
thought, actually, that she would know if he came into a room; that already she
would know when that happened. She turned and looked up. "My
lord prince," she said. Rose and stood before him. Saw the cousin,
Gryffeth, and the high priest behind, his face grave, uneasy. "What
are you doing?" Alun ab Owyn repeated. His expression was rigid, walled
off. "I
am . . . attending to his body, my lord. For . . . laying out?" She heard
herself stammering. She never did that. "Not
you," he said flatly. "Someone else." She
swallowed. Had never lacked courage, even as a child. "Why so?" she
said. "You
dare ask?" Behind, Ceinion made a small sound and a gesture, then stood
still. "I
must ask," Rhiannon said. "I know of nothing I might ever have done
to Owyn's house to cause this to be said. I grieve for our people, and for your
sorrow." He
stared at her. It was difficult, in this light, to see his eyes, but she had
seen them in the hall, before. "Do
you?" he said finally, blunt as a hammer. She couldn't stop thinking of
hammers. "Do you even begin to grieve? My brother went outside alone and
unarmed because of you. He died hating me because of you. I will live with that
the rest of my days. Do you realize this? At all?" There
was something hot, like a fever, coming off him now. She said, desperately,
"I believe I understand what you are saying. It is unjust. I didn't make
him feel—" "A
lie! You wanted to make every man love you, to play at it. A game." Her
heart was pounding now. "You are . . . unjust, my lord." Repeating
herself. "Unjust? You tested that power every time you entered
a room." "How do you know any such thing?" How did he
know? "Will you deny it?" She
was grieving, her heart twisting, because of who it was, saying these
words to her. But she was also Brynn's daughter, and Enid's, and not raised to
yield, or to cry. "And
you?" she asked, lifting her head. Her bandage chafed. "You, my lord?
Never tested yourself? Never went on . . . cattle raids, son of Owyn? Into
Arberth, perhaps? Never had someone hurt, or die, when you did that? You and
your brother?" She
saw him check, breathing hard. She was aware that he was, amazingly, near to
striking her. How had the world come to this? The cousin stepped forward, as if
to stop him. "It
is wrong!" was all Alun could manage to say, fighting for self-control. "No
more than the things a boy does, becoming a man. I cannot steal cattle or swing
a sword, ab Owyn!" "Then
go east to Sarantium!" he rasped, his voice altered. "If you want to
deal in power like that. Learn . . . learn how to poison like their empresses,
you'll kill so many more men." She
felt the colour leave her face. The others in the room had stopped moving, were
looking at them. "Do you . . . hate me so much, my lord?" He
didn't reply. She had thought, truly, he would say yes, had no idea what she'd
have done if he did so. She swallowed hard. Needed her mother, suddenly. Enid
was with the living, in the other room. She
said, "Would you wish the Erling hadn't thrown his hammer to save my
life?" Her voice was level, hands steady at her sides. Small blessings, he
wouldn't know how much this cost her. "Others died here, my lord prince.
Nine of us now. Likely more, before sunrise. Men we knew and loved. Are you
thinking only of your brother tonight? Like the Erling my father killed, who
demanded one horse when he had men taken with him?" His
head snapped back, as from a blow. He opened his mouth, closed it without
speaking. Their eyes locked. Then turning, blundering past the cleric and his
cousin, he rushed from the room. Ceinion called his name. Alun never broke
stride. Rhiannon
put a hand to her mouth. There was a need to weep, and a greater need not to do
so. She saw the cousin, Gryffeth, take two steps towards the door, then stop
and turn back. After a moment, he went and knelt beside the dead man. She saw
him extend a hand and touch the place where the blade had gone in. "Child,"
whispered the high cleric, her father's friend, her mother's. She
didn't look at him. She was staring, instead, at the open doorway. The
emptiness of it, where someone had gone out. Had walked into the night, hating
her—the way he'd said his brother had left him. A pattern? Set and sealed with
iron and blood? You
can't have what you want, Helda had
said, even before everything else. "How
did this happen?" she asked, of the cleric, of the world. Holy
men usually spoke of the mysterious ways of the god. "I
do not know," Ceinion of Llywerth murmured, instead. "You're
supposed to know," she said, turning to look at him. Heard her
voice break. Hated that. He stepped forward, drew her into his arms. She let
him, lowered her head. Didn't weep, at first, and then she did. Heard the
cousin praying over the body on the floor beside them.
+
Three
things not well or wisely done, the
triad went. Approaching a forest pool by night. Making wrathful a woman of
spirit. Drinking unwatered wine alone. They
did things by threes in this land, Alun thought savagely. Obviously it was time
for him to claim one of the wine jars and carry it off, drain it by himself
until oblivion came down. He
wished in that moment, striding through the empty farmyard without the least
idea where he meant to go, that the Erling arrow had killed him in the wood.
The world was unassuageably awry. His heart had a hollow inside it where Dai
had been. It was not going to fill; there was nothing to fill it with. He
saw a glimmering of light on the treed slope beyond the yard. Not a
torch. It was pale, motionless, no flickering. He
found himself breathing shallowly, as if he were hiding from searchers. He
squeezed shut his eyes. The glow was still there when he opened them. There was
no one else in the farmyard now. A spring night, the breeze mild, dawn a long
way off still. The stars brilliant overhead, in patterns that told their
stories of ancient glory and pain, figures from before the faith of Jad came
north. Mortals and animals, gods and demigods. The night seemed heavy and
endless, like something into which one fell. A
shining on the slope. Alun undid his belt, let fall his sword, walked through
the gate of the yard and up the hill.
She
sees him drop the iron. Knows what that means. He can see her now. He has been
in the pool with them. For some of them, after that, the faeries can be seen.
Her impulse, very strong, is to flee. It is one thing to hover near, to watch
them, unseen. This is something else. She
makes herself stay where she is, waiting. Has a sudden, fearful thought, scans
with her mind's eye: the spruaugh, who might tell of this, is curled asleep
in the hollow of a tree. The
man comes through the gate, closes it behind him, begins to climb the slope. He
can see her. She almost does fly away then, though they can't really
fly, not any more. She is trembling. Her hair shivers through its colours,
again and again.
She
was smaller than the queen, half a head smaller than he was. Alun stopped, just
below where she stood. They were beside the thicket, on the mostly open slope.
She'd been half hidden behind a sapling, came out when he stopped, but touching
it. Utterly still, poised for flight. A faerie, standing before him in the
world he'd thought he'd known. She
was slender, very long fingers, pale skin, wide-set eyes, a small face, though
not a child's. She was clad in something green that left her arms free and
showed her legs to the knee. A belt made of flowers, he saw. Flowers in her
hair—which kept changing colour as he looked, dizzyingly. The wonder of that,
even under stars. He could only see clearly by the light she cast. That, as
much as anything, telling him how far he'd come, walking up from the farmyard.
The half-world, they named it in the tales. Where he was now. Men were lost
here, in the stories. Never came back, or returned a hundred years after they'd
walked or ridden away, everyone they knew long dead. He could see her small
breasts through the thinness of what she wore. Did they feel the cold, faeries? There
was an ache in his throat. "How
. . . how am I seeing you?" He had no idea if she could even speak, use
words. His words. Her hair
went pale, nearly white, came back towards gold but not all the way. She said,
"You were in the pool. I . . . saved you there." Her voice, simply
speaking words, made him realize he had never, really, made music with his
harp, or sung a song the way it should be sung. He felt that he would weep if
he were not careful. "How?
Why?" He sounded harsh to his own ears, after her. A bruising of the
starlit air. "I
stopped your horse, in the shallows. They would have killed you, had you come
nearer the queen." She'd
answered one question, not the other. "My brother was there." It was
difficult to speak. "Your
brother is dead. His soul is with the Ride." "Why?" Reddened
hair now, crimson in summer dark. Her shining let him see. "I took it for
the queen. First dead of the battle tonight." Dai.
No weapon, when he had gone out. First dead. Whatever that meant. But she was
telling him. Alun knelt on the damp, cool grass. His legs were weak. "I
should hate you," he whispered. "I
do not know what that means," she said. Music. He
thought about that, and then of the girl, Brynn's daughter, in that room by the
chapel, where his brother's body lay. He wondered if he would ever play the
harp again. "What
. . . why does the queen ... ?" Saw
her smile, first time, a flashing of small, white teeth. "She loves them.
They excite her. Those who have been mortals. From your world." "Forever?" The
hair to violet. The slim, small body so white beneath the pale green garment.
"What could be forever?" That
hollow, in his heart. "But after? What happens . . . to him?" Grave
as a cleric, as a wise child, as something so much older than he was.
"They go from the Ride when she tires of them." "Go where?" So
sweet a music in this voice. "I am not wise. I do not know. I have never
asked." "He'll
be a ghost," Alun said then, with certainty, on his knees under stars.
"A spirit, wandering alone, a soul lost." "I
do not know. Would not your sun god take him?" He
placed his hands on the night grass beside him. The coolness, the needed ordinariness
of it. Jad was beneath the world now, they were taught; doing battle with
demons for his children's sake. He echoed her, without her music. "I do
not know. Tonight, I
don't know anything. Why did you . . . save me in the pool?" The question
she hadn't answered. She
moved her hands apart, a rippling, like water. "Why should you die?" "But
I am going to die." "Would
you rush to the dark?" she asked. He
said nothing. After a moment, she took a step nearer to him. He remained
motionless, kneeling, saw her hand reach out. He closed his eyes just before
she touched his face. He felt, almost overwhelmingly, the presence of desire. A
need: to be taken from himself, from the world. To never come back? She had the
scent of flowers all about her, in the night. Eyes
still closed, Alun said, "They tell us . . . they tell us there will be
Light." "Then
there will be, for your brother," she said. "If that is so." Her
fingers moved, touched his hair. He could feel them trembling, and understood,
only then, that she was as afraid, and as aroused as he was. Worlds that moved
beside each other, never touched. Almost
never. He opened his mouth, but before he could speak again he felt a
shockingly swift movement, an absence. Never said what he would have said,
never knew what he would have said. He looked up quickly. She was
already ten paces away. In no time at all. Standing against a sapling again,
half turned, to fly farther. Her hair was dark, raven black. He
looked back over his shoulder. Someone was coming up the slope. He didn't feel
surprise at all. It was as if the capacity to feel that had been drained from
him, like blood. He
was still very young that night, Alun ab Owyn. The thought that actually came
to him as he recognized who was climbing—and was gazing past him at the faerie—was
that nothing would ever surprise him again. Brynn
ap Hywll crested the ridge and crouched, grunting with the effort, beside Alun
on the grass. The big man plucked some blades of grass, keeping silent, looking
at the shimmering figure by the tree not far away. "How
do you see her?" Alun asked, softly. Brynn
rubbed the grass between his huge palms. "I was in that pool, most of a
lifetime ago, lad. A night when a girl refused me and I went walking my sorrow
into the wood. Did an unwise thing. Girls can make you do that, actually." "How
did you know I ... ?" "One
of the men Siawn sent to report. Said you killed two Erlings, and were mazed in
the pond till Ceinion took you out." "Does he . . . did Siawn . . .
?" "No.
My man just told me that much. Didn't understand any of it." "But
you did?" "I
did." "You've
. . . seen them all these years?" "I've
been able to. Hasn't happened often. They avoid us. This one . . . is
different, is often here. I think it's the same one. I see her up here
sometimes, when we're at Brynnfell." "Never
came up?" Brynn
looked over at him for the first time. "Afraid to," he said, simply. "I
don't think she'll hurt us." The
faerie was silent, still by the slender tree, still poised between lingering
and flight, listening to them. "She
can hurt you by drawing you here," Brynn said. "It gets hard to come
back. You know the tales as well as I do. I had .. . tasks in the world, lad.
So do you, now." Ceinion,
down below, before: You do not have leave to go from us. Alun
looked at the other man in the darkness, thought about the burden in those
words. A lifetime's worth. "You dropped your sword, to climb up
here." He
saw Brynn smile then. A little ruefully, the big man said, "How
could I let you be braver than me, lad?" He grunted again, and rose.
"I'm too old and fat to crouch all night in the dark." He stood
there, bulky against the sky. The
shimmering figure by the tree moved back, another half a dozen paces. "Iron,"
she said, softly. "Still. It is . . . pain." Brynn
was motionless. He'd never have heard her, Alun realized. Not ever have known
the music of this voice, through all the years. Most of a lifetime ago. He
wondered at someone with the will to know of this, and not speak of it, and
stay away. "But
I left my . . ." Brynn stopped. Swore, though quietly. Reached down into
his boot and pulled free the knife that was hidden there. "My
sorrow," he said. "It was not intended, spirit." He turned away,
and stepping forward strongly, hurled the blade, arcing it through the night
air, all the way down the hill and over the fence into the empty yard. A
very long throw. I couldn't have done that, Alun thought. He stared at
the figure beside him: the man who'd killed the Volgan long ago, in the days
when the Erlings were here every spring or summer, year after year. A harder,
darker time, before Alun had been born, or Dai. But if you were slain in a
small, failed raid today, you were just as dead as if it had been back then at
the hands of the Volgan's own host, weren't you? And your soul ... ? Brynn
turned to him. "We should go," he said. "We must go." Alun
didn't move from where he knelt on the cool grass. And your soul? He
said, "She isn't supposed to exist, is she?" "What
man would say that?" Brynn said. "Were they fools, our ancestors who
told of the faerie host? The glory and peril of them? Her kind have been here
longer than we have. What the holy men teach is that they endanger our hope of
Light." "Is
that what they teach?" Alun said. Heard
his own bitterness. Dark here, in the starry night, except for the light where
she was. He
turned his head again, almost against his will, looked at her, still backed
away from the tree. Her hair was pale again. Since the knife had gone, he
thought. She hadn't come nearer, however. He thought of her fingers, touching
him, the scent of flowers. He swallowed. He wanted to ask her again about Dai,
but he did not. Kept silent. "You
know it is true, what they teach us," said Brynn ap Hywll. He was looking
at Alun, not over at the figure that stood beyond the tree, shimmering, her
hair the colour now of the eastern sky before the morning sun. "You can
feel it, can you not? Even here? Come down, lad. We'll pray together. For your
brother and my men, and for ourselves." "You
can . . . just walk away from this?" Alun said. He was looking at the
faerie, who was looking back at him, not moving, not saying a word now. "I
have to," said the other man. "I have been doing it all my life. You
will begin doing it now, for your soul's sake, and all the things to be
done." Alun
heard something in the voice. Turned his head, looked up again. Brynn gazed
back at him, steadily, a looming figure in the dark of the night. Thirty years
with a sword, fighting. The things to be done. Had either of the moons
been shining tonight—if the old tales told true—none of this would have
happened. Dai
would still be dead, though. Among all the other dead. Brynn's daughter had
challenged him with that, driven him out of doors because there was . . . no
answer for her, and no release from this hollowness within. Alun
turned back to the faerie. Her wide-set eyes held his. Maybe, he thought, there
was a release. He drew a slow breath and let it out. He stood up. "Watch
over him," he said. Not more than that. She would know. She
came forward a few steps, to the tree again. One hand on it, as if embracing,
merging into it. Brynn turned his back and started resolutely down and Alun
followed him, not looking back, knowing she was there, was watching him from
the slope, from the other world. When
he reached the farmyard, Brynn had already reclaimed their swords. He handed
Alun his, and his belt. "I'll
get my knife in the morning," ap Hywll said. Alun
shook his head. "I saw where it fell, I think." He walked across the
yard. The lanterns inside did not cast their glow this far, only lit the
windows, showing where people were, the presence of life among the dying and
the dead. He found the knife almost immediately, though. Carried it back to
Brynn, who stood for a moment, holding it, looking at Alun. "Your
brother was our guest," he said at length. "My sorrow is great, and
for your mother and father." Alun
nodded his head. "My father is a ... hard man. I believe you know it. Our
mother ..." Their
mother.
Let
the light of the god be yours, my child, Let
it guide you through the world and home to me .. .
"My
mother will want to die," he said. "We
live in a hard world," Brynn said after a moment, reaching for words.
"They will surely find comfort in having a strong son yet, to take up the
burdens that will fall to you now." Alun
looked up at him in the darkness. The bulky presence. "Sometimes people .
. . don't take up their burdens, you know." Brynn shrugged.
"Sometimes, yes." No
more than that. Alun
sighed, felt a great weariness. He was the heir to Cadyr, with all that meant.
He shook his head. Brynn
bent down and slipped the dagger into the sheath in his boot. He straightened.
They stood there, the two of them in the yard, as in a halfway place between
the treed slope and the lights. Brynn
coughed. "Up there you said . . . you asked her to take care of him. Um,
what did . . . ?" Alun
shook his head again, didn't answer. Would never answer that question, he
decided. Brynn cleared his throat again. From inside the house, beyond the
double doors, they heard someone cry in pain. Neither
of them, Alun realized, was standing in such a way that they could see if there
was still a shimmering above them on the hill. If he turned his head . . . The
big man abruptly slapped his hand against his thigh, as if to break a mood, or
a spell. "I have a gift for you," he said brusquely, and whistled. Nothing
for a moment, then out of the blackness a shape appeared and came to them. The
dog—he was a wolfhound, and huge—rubbed its head against ap Hywll's thigh.
Brynn reached down, a hand in the dog's fur at its neck. "Cafall,"
he said calmly. "Hear me. You have a new master. Here he is. Go to
him." He let go and stepped away. Nothing again, at first, then the dog
tilted its head—a grey, Alun thought, though it was hard to be sure in the
darkness—looked at Brynn a moment, then at Alun. And
then he came quietly across the space between. Alun
looked down at him, held out one hand. The dog sniffed it for a moment, then
padded, with grace, to Alun's side. "You
gave him . . . that name?" Alun asked. This was unexpected, but ought to
have been trivial. It didn't feel that way. "Cafall,
yes. When he was a year old, in the usual way." "Then
he's your best dog." He
saw Brynn nod. "Best I've ever had." "Too
great a gift, my lord. I cannot—" "Yes,
you can," said Brynn. "For many reasons. Take a companion from me,
lad." That
was what the name meant, of course. Companion. Alun swallowed. There was
a constriction in his throat. Was this what would make him weep tonight,
after everything? He reached down and his hand rested on the warmth of the
dog's head. He rubbed back and forth, ruffling the fur. Cafall pushed against
his thigh. The ancient name, oldest stories. A very big dog, graceful and
strong. No ordinary wolfhound, to so calmly accept this change with a spoken
word in the night. It wasn't, he knew, a trivial gift at all. Not
to be refused. "My
thanks," he said. "My
sorrow," said Brynn again. "Let him . . . help keep you among us,
lad." So
that was it. Alun found himself blinking; the lights in the farmhouse windows
blurring for a moment. "Shall we go in?" he asked. Brynn
nodded. They
went in, to where lanterns were burning among the dead in the room beside the
chapel, and among all the wounded children of Jad—wounded in so many different
ways—within the house. The
dog followed, then lay down by the chapel door at Alun's murmured command.
Outside, on the slope to the south, something lingered for a time in the dark
and then went away, light as mist, before the morning came. FIVE It
had not been a good spring or summer for the traders of Rabady Isle, and there
were those quite certain they knew why. The list of grievances was long. Sturla
Ulfarson, who had succeeded Halldr Thinshank as governor of the island's
merchants and farmers and fisherfolk, might have only one hand but he possessed
two eyes and two ears and a nose for the mood of people, and he was aware that
men were comparing the (exaggerated) glories of Thinshank's days with the
troubles and ill omens that had marked the beginning of his own. Unfair,
perhaps, but no one had made him manoeuvre for this position, and
Ulfarson wasn't the self-pitying sort. Had he been so, he'd have been inclined
to point out that the notorious theft of Thinshank's grey horse and the marring
of his funeral rites last spring—the start of all their troubles—had happened
before the new governor had been acclaimed. He'd have noted that no man,
whatever kind of leader he might be, could have prevented the thunderstorm that
had killed two young people in the night fields shortly after that. And he
might also have bemoaned the fact that it was hardly within the power of a
local administrator to control events in the wider world: warfare among Karch
and Moskav and the Sarantines couldn't help but impact upon trade in the north. Sturla
One-hand did make these points decisively (he was a decisive man, for the most
part) when someone dared challenge him directly, but he also set about doing
what he could do on the isle, and as a result he discovered something. It
began with the families of the young man and woman killed in the storm.
Everyone knew Ingavin sent the thunder and all manner of storms, that there was
nothing accidental if people were killed or homes ruined by such things (a
world where the weather was utterly random was a world not to be endured). The
girl had been doing her year of service to the volur at the compound by
the edge of the forest. The young women of Rabady Isle took this duty, in turn,
before they wed. It was a ritual, an honourable one. Fulla, the corn goddess,
Ingavin's bride, needed attention and worship too, if children were to be born
healthy and the fields kept fertile. Iord, the seer, was an important figure
here on the isle: in her own way, as powerful as the governor was. Sturla
One-hand had paid a formal visit to the compound, bringing gifts, shortly after
his election by the thring. He hadn't liked the volur, but that
wasn't the point. If there was magic being used, you wanted it used for you,
not against you. Women could be dangerous. And
that, in fact, is what he discovered. The families of the young man and the
girl were elbowing each other towards a feud over their deaths, each blaming
the other's offspring for the two of them being out by the memorial cairn,
lying together when the lightning broke. Sturla had his own thoughts as to who
had inveigled whom, but it was important to be seen to be conducting an inquiry
first. His principal desire was to keep a blood feud from Rabady, or, at the
least, to limit the casualties. He
set about speaking with as many of the young ones as he could, and in this way
came to have a conversation with a yellow-haired girl from the mainland, the
newest member of the circle of women in the compound. She had come (properly)
in response to his summons and had knelt before him, shy, eyes suitably
downcast. She
had little assistance, however, to offer concerning the two lightning-charred
young ones, claiming to have seen Halli with the lad only once, "the
evening before Bern Thorkellson came to the seer with Thinshank's horse." The
new governor of Rabady Isle, who had been leaning back in his seat, an ale
flask in his one good hand, had leaned forward. The lightning storm, the two
dead youngsters, and a possible feud became less compelling. "Before
he what?" said Sturla One-hand. He
put the flask down, reached out with his hand and grabbed the girl by her
yellow hair, forcing her to look up at him. She paled, closed her eyes, as if
overwhelmed by his powerful nearness. She was pretty. "I
. . . I . . . should not have said that," she stammered. "And
why not?" growled Ulfarson, still gripping her by the hair. "She will
kill me!" "And
why?" the governor demanded. She
said nothing, obviously terrified. He tugged, hard. She whimpered. He did it
again. "She
. . . she did a magic-working on him." "She
what?" said Sturla, struggling, aware he was not sounding particularly
astute. The girl—he didn't know her name—suddenly rocked forward and threw her
arms around his legs, pressing her face to his thighs. It was not actually unpleasant. She
said, weeping, "She hated Thinshank . . . she will kill me ... but she
uses her power for ... for her own purposes. It is .. . wrong!" She spoke
with her mouth against him, arms clutching his legs. Sturla
One-hand let go of her hair and leaned back again. She remained where she was.
He said, "I will not hurt you, girl. Tell me what she did." In
this way, the governor—and later the people of Rabady—learned of how Iord the
seer had made a black seithr spell, rendering young Thorkellson her
helpless servant, forcing him to steal the horse, then making him invisible,
enabling him to board the southern ship that had been in the harbour—board it
with the grey horse—and sail away unseen. It was done by the volur to
spite Halldr Thinshank, of course, which was not an unreasonable desire, by any
means. But it was a treachery that had unleashed—obviously--malevolent auras
upon the isle (Halidr's, one had to assume), causing the calamities of the
season, including the lightning storm that killed two innocent youths. Erling
warriors were not, by collective disposition, inclined to nuanced debate when
resolving matters of this sort. Sturla One-hand might have been more thoughtful
than most, but he'd lost his hand (and achieved some wealth) raiding overseas.
You didn't ponder when attacking a village or sanctuary. You drank a lot
beforehand, prayed to Ingavin and Thьnir, and then fought and killed—and took
home what you found in the fury and ruin you shaped. An
axe and sword were perfectly good responses to treachery, in his view. And they
would serve the useful additional purpose of displaying Sturla's resolution,
early in what he hoped would be a prosperous tenure as governor of the isle. Iord
the seer and her five most senior companions were taken from the compound early
the next morning, stripped naked (bony and slack-breasted, all of them, hags
fit for no man), bound to hastily erected posts in the field near the cairn
stone where the two youngsters had died. When
they came for her, the seer tried—babbling in terror—to say that she'd deceived
young Thorkellson. That she'd only pretended to cast a spell for him, had
sent him back into town to be found. Sturla
One-hand had not lived so many years by being a fool. He pointed out that the
lad had not been found. So either the seer was lying, or the boy had
seen through her deception. And though young Thorkellson had been known to be
good with blade and hammer (Red Thorkell's son would be, wouldn't he?), he was
barely grown. And where was he? And the horse? She had her magic, what answer
would she give? She
never did answer. The
six women were stoned to death, the members of the two feuding families invited
to throw—standing together—the first volleys of stone and rock, as the most
immediately aggrieved. The wives and maidens joined the men, one of the times
they were permitted to do that. It took some time to kill six women (stoning
always did). The
ale was good that night and the next, and a second ship from Alrasan in the
south—where they worshipped the stars—appeared in the harbour two days later,
come to trade, a clear blessing of Ingavin. The
yellow-haired girl from the mainland had stood at the edges of the stoning
ground; they'd made the younger ones from the compound come watch. She'd had a
fearsome serpent coiled about her body, darting a venomous tongue. She was the
only one not terrified of it. No one stood near her as they watched the old
women die. The governor couldn't remember (he'd drunk a good deal that day and
night) just how he'd learned about her having been bitten back in the spring.
Perhaps she had told him herself. The
snake was noticed in the field. Not surprisingly. Serpents held the power of
the half-world within the skin they sloughed, rebuilding it anew. A snake would
devour the world at the end of days. It was much talked about that night. A
sign, it was agreed to be, a harbinger of power. The
girl was named by Sturla Ulfarson as the new volur of Rabady Isle a few
days later, after the southern ship had done its trading and gone. Normally the
men of Rabady didn't make this choice, but these weren't normal times. You
didn't stone a seer every year, did you? Maybe this change would prove to be
useful, bring the power of women, seithr and night magic, the compound
itself, more under control. Sturla
One-hand wasn't sure about that, and he couldn't actually have traced with
precision the thoughts or conversations that had led to any of these decisions.
Events had moved quickly, he had been . . . riding them . . . the way longships
rode a wave, or a leader on a battlefield rode the sweep of the fight, or a man
rode his woman after dark. She
was young. What of it? All the old ones were dead. They could have sent for a
woman across the water to Vinmark, even to Hlegest itself, but who knew what
that might have brought them, or when? Better not draw the attention of
increasingly ambitious men there, in any case. The girl had saved them from the
effects of an angry spirit and seemed to have been already chosen by the snake.
Men had been saying that, in the taverns. Sturla could read a rune-message if
it was spelled out for him. He
did know her name by then. Anrid. They called her "the Serpent,"
though, by summer's end. She hadn't come to him in the town again nor, in fact,
did it occur to him to ask her to do so. There were enough girls about for a
governor, no need to get entangled in that way with seers who kept
snakes by their beds in the dark or wrapped them around their bodies to watch
stones split flesh and crack bone in the morning light. Jormsvik
was more a fortress than a city. For
one thing, only the mercenaries themselves and their servants or slaves lived
within the walls. The rope-makers, sail-makers, armourers, tavern-keepers,
carpenters, metalsmiths, fishermen, bakers, fortune-tellers all lived in the
unruly town outside the walls. There were no women allowed inside Jormsvik,
though prostitutes were scattered through the twisting streets and alleys just
outside. There was money for a woman to make here, beside a large garrison. You
had to fight someone to become one of the men of Jormsvik, and fight steadily
to stay in. Until you became a leader, when your battles might reasonably be
expected to be all for hire and profit—if you stayed out of the tavern brawls. For
three generations the mercenaries of this fortress by the sea had been known
and feared—and employed—through the world. They had fought at the triple walls
of Sarantium (on both sides, at different times) and in Ferrieres and Moskav.
They had been hired (and hired away) by feuding lords vying for eminence here
in the Erling lands, as far north as the places where the sky flashed colours
in the cold nights and the reindeer herds ran in the tens of thousands. One
celebrated company had been in Batiara, joining a Karchite incursion towards fabled
Rhodias forty years ago. Only six of them had returned—wealthy. You received
your fee in advance, and shared it out beforehand, but then you divided the
spoils of war among the survivors. Survivors
could do well. First,
you had to survive getting in. There were young men desperate or reckless
enough to try each year, usually after the winter ended. Winter defined the
northlands: its imminent arrival; the white, fierce hardness of the season;
then the stirring of blood and rivers when it melted away. Spring
was busiest at the gates of Jormsvik. The procedure was known everywhere.
Goatherds and slaves knew it. You rode up or walked up to the walls. Shouted a
name—sometimes even your real one—to the watch, issued a challenge to let you
in. That same day, or the next morning, a man drawn by lot would come out to
fight you. The
winner went to bed inside the walls. The loser was usually dead. He didn't have
to be, you could yield and be spared, but it wasn't anything to count on.
The core of Jormsvik's reputation lay in being feared, and if you let farmboys
challenge you and walk away to tell of it by a winter's turf fire in some
bog-beset place, you weren't as fearsome as all that, were you? Besides
which, it made sense for those inside to deter challengers any way they could.
Sometimes the sword rune could be drawn from the barrel on a morning by a
fighter who'd been too enthusiastically engaged in the taverns all night, or
with the women, or both, and sometimes it wasn't just a farmboy at the gates. Sometimes,
someone came who knew what he was doing. They'd all gotten in that same way,
hadn't they? Sometimes you could die outside, and then the gate swung open and
a new mercenary was welcomed under whatever name he gave—they didn't care in
Jormsvik, everyone had a story in his past. He'd be told where his
pallet was, and his mess hall and captain. Same as the man he'd replaced, which
could be unpleasant if the dead man had friends, which was usually the case.
But this was a fortress for the hardest men in the world, not a warm meadhall
among family. You
got to the meadhalls of Ingavin by dying with a weapon to hand. Time then for
easiness, among ripe, sweet, willing maidens, and the gods. On this earth, you
fought.
Bern
was aware that he'd made a mistake, almost immediately after stooping through
the low door of the alehouse outside the walls. It wasn't a question of
thieves—the fighting men of Jormsvik were their own brutal deterrent to bandits
near their gates. It was the mercenaries themselves, and the way of things
here. A
stranger, he thought, a young man arriving alone in summer with a sword at his
side, could only be here for one reason. And if he was going to issue a
challenge in the morning, it made nothing but sense for any man in this ill-lit
room (which was nonetheless bright enough to expose him for what he was) to
protect himself and his fellows in obvious ways against what might happen on
the morrow. They
could kill him tonight, he realized, rather too late, though it didn't even
have to come to that. Those on the benches closest to where he'd sat down (too
far from the doorway, another mistake) smiled at him, asked after his health
and the weather and crops in the north. He answered, as briefly as he could.
They smiled again, bought him drinks. Many drinks. One leaned over and offered
him the dice cup. Bern
said he had no money to gamble, which was true. They said—laughing—he could
wager his horse and sword. He declined. At the table they laughed again. Big
men, almost all of them, one or two smaller than himself, but muscled and hard.
Bern coughed in the dense smoke of the room. They were cooking meat over two
open fires. He
was sweating; it was hot in here. He wasn't used to this. He'd been sleeping
outdoors for a fortnight now, riding south into Vinmark's summer, trees green
and the young grass, salmon leaping in the still-cold rivers. He'd been riding
quickly since he'd surprised and robbed a man for his sword and dagger and the
few coins in his purse. No point coming to Jormsvik without a weapon. He hadn't
killed the man, which might have been a mistake, but he'd never yet killed any
man. Would have to, tomorrow, or he'd very likely die here. Someone
banged down another tin cup of ale on the board in front of him, sloshing some
of it out. "Long life," the man said and moved on, didn't even bother
to stay to share the toast. They wanted him rendered senseless tonight, he
realized, slack-limbed and slow in the morning. Then
he thought about it again. He had no need to challenge tomorrow. Could
wake with a pounding head and spend the day clearing it, challenge the day
after, or the morning after that. And
they'd know it, he realized, every man in this room. They'd all done this
before. No, his first thought had been the wiser one: they wanted him drunk enough
to make a mistake tonight, get into a brawl, be crippled or killed when there
was nothing at stake—for them. Should he be flattered they thought he was worth
it? He wasn't fooled. These were the most experienced soldiers-for-hire in the
north: they didn't take chances when they didn't need to. There was no glory in
winning a wall-challenge when the sword rune was drawn, only risk. Why take it,
if you didn't have to? If the foolish traveller came into an ale room the night
before, showing his sword? At
least he'd hidden the horse, among the trees north of town. Gyllir was
accustomed to being tied in the woods now. He wondered if the stallion still
remembered Thinshank's barn. How long did horses remember things? He
was afraid. Trying not to let them see it. He thought of the water then, that
dead-black night, guiding the grey horse into the sea from the stony beach.
Expecting to die. Ice-cold, end of winter, whatever lay waiting in the straits,
under the water: what he'd survived. Was there a reason he'd lived? Did Ingavin
or Thьnir have a purpose in this? Probably not, actually. He wasn't . . .
important enough. But there was still no need to walk open-eyed into a
different death tonight. Not after coming out of the sea alive on a Vinmark
strand as a grey day dawned. He
lifted the new cup and drank, just a little. A bad mistake, coming in here. You
died of mistakes like that. But he'd been tired of solitude, nights alone. Had
thought to at least have a night among other men, hear human voices, laughter, before
he died in the morning fighting a mercenary. He hadn't thought it through. A
woman stood up, came over towards him, hips swaying. Men made way in the narrow
space between tables for her, though not without squeezing where she could be
reached. She smiled, ignored them, watched Bern watching her. He felt dizzy
already. Ale after not drinking for so long, the smoke, smells, the crowd. It
was so hot. The woman had been sitting with a burly, dark-bearded man clad in
animal skins. A bear-warrior. They had them here in Jormsvik, it seemed. He
remembered his father: Some say the berserkirs use magic. They don't,
but you never want to fight one if you can help it. Bern saw, through fire
smoke and lantern light, that the man was watching him as the woman approached. He
knew this game, too, suddenly. Stood up just as she stopped in front of him,
her heavy breasts swinging free beneath a loose tunic. "You're
a pretty man," she said. "Thank
you," Bern muttered. "Thank you. Need to piss. Right back." He
twisted past her. She grabbed deftly for his private parts. With an effort,
Bern refrained from glancing guiltily at the very big man she'd just left. "Hurry
back and make me happy," she called after him. Someone laughed.
Someone—big, blond, hard-eyed—looked up then, from the dicing. Bern
slapped a coin on the counter and ducked outside. He took a deep breath; salt
in the night air here, sound of sea, stars overhead, the white moon high. The
nearer ones in the room would have seen him pay. Would know he wasn't coming back. He
moved then, quickly. He could die here. It
was very dark, no lights to speak of outside the inns and the low, jumbled
wooden dwellings and the rooms where the whores took their men. A mixed
blessing, the darkness: he'd be harder to find, but might easily run headlong
into a group of people, trying to make his way north and out from this warren
of buildings. A fleeing stranger, Bern was certain, would be happily seized to
be questioned at leisure. He
ran up the first black alley he came to, smelled urine and offal, stumbled
through a pile of garbage, choking. Could he just walk, he wondered? Avoid
being seen to be running from something? He
heard noises behind him, from the alehouse door. No, he couldn't just walk.
Needed to move. It would be a sport for them. Something to enliven a night
outside the fortress walls, waiting for a new contract and a journey somewhere.
A way to keep in fighting trim. In
the blackness he bumped into a barrel lying on its side. Stooped, groped,
righted it. No top. Grunting, he turned it over, sweating now, and clambered
up, praying the bottom was solid enough. He stood, gauged distance as best he
could in the dark, and jumped for the slanting roof of the house above. Caught
a purchase, levered a knee up, awkward with the sword at his hip, and pulled
himself onto the roof. If there was someone inside they'd hear him, he knew.
Could raise an alarm. When
you had no obvious choices, you acted as if what you needed to do could be
done. Why
was he remembering so many of his father's words tonight? Prone
on the roof above the alley, he heard three or four men go by in the street. He
was being hunted. He was a fool, the son of a fool, deserved whatever fate he
met tonight. He didn't think they'd kill him. A broken leg or arm would
spare someone the need to fight him tomorrow with a risk involved. On the other
hand, they were drunk, and enjoying themselves. Wiser
to surrender? More
sounds, a second group. "Pretty-faced little shit-eater," he heard
someone say, at the entrance to the alley. "I didn't like him."
Someone laughed. "You don't like anyone, Gurd." "Do
yourself with a hammer," Gurd said. "Or do it to that little goatherd
who thinks he can join us." There came the unmistakable sound of a blade
being drawn from a scabbard. Bern decided
that surrender was not a promising option. Carefully,
holding his own sword out of the way, he backed along the roof. He needed to go
north, get beyond these houses and into the fields. He didn't think they'd care
enough to leave drinking and go looking for him out there in the night. And
come morning, once he rode up to the gates and issued a challenge, he'd be
safe. Although that probably wasn't the best way to describe what would follow
then. He
could have stayed at home, a servant for two more years. He could have hired
himself out on a farm somewhere on the mainland, invented a name for himself,
been a servant or a labourer there. That
wasn't what he'd ridden the grey horse into the sea to become. Everyone died.
If you died before the walls of Jormsvik, perhaps the sword in your hand would
get you to Ingavin's halls. He
didn't actually believe that, truth be told. If it were so, any farmhand could
get himself run through by a mercenary and drink mead forever with
smooth-skinned maidens among the gods, or until the Serpent devoured the
Worldtree and time came to a stop. It
couldn't be that easy. Neither
was moving on this roof, which slanted too much. They all slanted, to let the
snow slide in winter. Bern skidded sideways, dug in fingers and boots to stop
himself, heard the sword scrape. Had to hope, could only hope, no one
else heard it. He lay still again, sweat trickling down his sides. No sounds
below except for running feet. He slowly manoeuvred himself around to look the
other way. There
was a ramshackle, two-storey wooden house on the other side of another narrow
alley. Just the one, the others were all one-level, like the house he was on.
One of the new-style stone chimneys ran up an outside wall, set back from the
street, he saw. They didn't have these on the isle. It was meant to allow a
hearth, warmth and food, on a second floor. It looked as if it was going to
fall over. There was a window in that second storey, overlooking his rooftop.
The wooden shutters were open. One hung crookedly, needing repair. He saw a
candle burning on the ledge, illuminating a room—and the face of the girl
watching him. Bern's
heart lurched. Then he saw her put a finger to her lips. "Gurd,"
she called down, "you coming up?" A
laugh below. They had gone right around, were in the street on the other side
now. "Not to you. You hurt me last time, you're wild when I do you." Someone
else laughed. The girl across the way swore tiredly. "How 'bout you,
Holla?" "I
go with Katrin, you know that. She hurts me when I don't do her!" Gurd
laughed this time. "You see a stranger?" He was right below. If Bern
moved to the roof's edge he could look down on them. He heard the question and
closed his eyes. Everyone died. "Didn't,"
said the girl. "Why?" "Pretty
farmboy thinks he's going to be a mercenary." Her
voice was bored. "You find him, send him up. I need the money." "We
find him, he's no good to you. Trust me." The
girl laughed. The footsteps moved on. Bern opened his eyes, saw her turn her
head to watch the men below go down the lane. She turned back and looked at
him. Didn't smile now, nothing like that. She moved back, however, and gestured
for him to come across the way. Bern
looked. A small window in a flat wall, above his level. A slanting roof where
he was, no purchase to run and jump. He bit his lip. The heroes of the Days of
Giants would have made this jump. He
wasn't one of them. He'd end up clattering down the face of the wall to the
street below. Slowly
he shook his head, shrugged. "Can't," he mouthed, looking across at
her. She
came back into the window frame, looked left and right down the lane. Leaned
out. "They're around the alley. I'll get you at the door. Wait till I
open." She
hadn't given him up. She could have. He couldn't stay on this roof all night.
He had two choices, as he saw it. Jump down, keep to shadows and alleys, try to
get north and out of town with a number of fighting men—he didn't know how
many—prowling the streets for him. Or let her get him at the door. He
pulled himself nearer the edge. The sword scraped again. He swore under his
breath, looked over and down. Saw where the door was. The girl was still at the
window, waiting. He looked back at her and he nodded his head. A decision. You
came over into the world—crossed from an island on a stolen horse—you had
decisions to make, in the dark sometimes, and living until morning could turn
on them. She
disappeared from the window, leaving the candle there, so small and simple a
light. He
stayed where he was, watching it, this glimmer in darkness. There was a breeze.
Up here on the roof he could smell the sea again, hear the distant surge of
water beneath the voices and laughter of men. Always and ever beneath those
things. An
idea came to him, the beginnings of an idea. He
heard a sound. Looked down. She carried no light, was a shadow against the
shadows of opened door and house wall. No one in the laneway, at least not now.
He seemed to have decided to do this. Bern slid himself to the lowest point on
the pitched roof, held his scabbard with one hand, and dropped. He stumbled to
his knees, got up, went quickly to her, and in. She
closed the door behind him. It creaked. No bolt or bar, he saw. Two other doors
inside, off the narrow corridor: one beside them, one at the back. She
followed his glance. Whispered, "They're in the taverns. Upstairs is mine.
Step over the fourth stair, it's missing." In
the dark, Bern counted, stepped over the fourth stair. The stairs creaked, as
well. Each sound made him wince. Her door was ajar. He went in, she was right
behind him. This one she closed, slid down a bar to lock it. Bern looked at it.
A kick would splinter lock and door. He
turned, saw the candle in the window. A strangeness, to be looking at it now
from this side. Not a feeling he could explain. He crossed and looked out at
the roof across the lane, where he'd been moments before, the white moon above
it, and stars. He
turned back into the room and looked at her. She wore an undyed tunic belted at
the waist, no jewellery, paint on her lips and cheeks. She was thin, legs and
bones, brown hair, very large eyes, her face thin, too. Not really what a man
would want in a woman for the night, though some of the soldiers might like
them young, an illusion of innocence. Or like a boy. An illusion of something
else. She wasn't
innocent, not living here. There was no furniture to speak of. Her bed, where
she worked, was a pallet on the floor in a corner, the coverings spread over it
neatly enough. A bundle against the wall beside it would be her clothing,
another pile of cooking things, and food. That shouldn't be on the floor, he
thought. There'd be rats. A basin, a chamber pot, both on the floor as well.
Two wooden stools. A black pot hooked on an iron bar stretched across the
fireplace he'd seen from outside. Firewood by that wall. The candle on the
window ledge. She
went to the window, took the candle, put it on one of the stools. She sank down
on the bedding, crossed her legs, looked up at him. Said nothing, waiting. Bern
said, after a moment, "Why hasn't anyone fixed that stair?" She
shrugged. "We don't pay enough? I like it. If someone wants to come up
they need to know the hole's there. No surprises." He nodded. Cleared his
throat. "No one else in here?" "They
will be later. In and out. Told you. Both of 'em at the taverns." "Why
. . . aren't you?" The
same shrug. "I'm new. We go later, after the others start their night.
They don't like it if we get there too soon. Beat us up, make scars, you know .
. ." He
didn't, not really. "So . . . you'll go out soon?" She
raised her eyebrows. "Why? Got a man here, don't I?" He swallowed.
"I can't be found, you know that." "'Course
I know. Gurd'll kill you for fun of it." "Do
. . . any of them . . . just come up?" "Sometimes,"
she said, failing to reassure. "Why
did you help me?" He wasn't used to talking. Not since leaving the isle. She
shrugged again. "Don't know. You want me? What can you pay?" What
could he pay? Bern reached into his trousers and took the purse looped inside
them, around his waist. He tossed it to her. "All I have," he said. He'd
had it off the careless merchant north of here. Perhaps the gods would look
kindly on his giving it to her. That
vague, new-formed idea that had come to him on the roof was still teasing at
the edges of his mind. No use or meaning to it, unless he survived tonight. She
was opening the purse, emptied it on the bedding. Looked up at him. First
glimmering of youth, of surprise, in her. "This is too much," she
said. "All
I have," he repeated. "Hide me till morning." "Doing
it anyhow," she said. "Why'd I bring you?" Bern
grinned suddenly, a kind of light-headedness. "I don't know. You haven't
told me." She
was looking at the coins on her bed. "Too much," she said again. "Maybe
you're the best whore in Jormsvik," he said. She
looked up quickly. "I'm not," she said, defensively. "A
jest. I'm too afraid right now to take a woman, anyhow." He
doubted she was used to hearing that from the fighters in Jormsvik. She looked
at him. "You going to challenge in the morning?" He
nodded. "That's why I came. Made a mistake, going to an inn tonight." She
stared at him, didn't smile. "That's Ingavin's truest truth, it is. Why'd
you?" He
tilted the sword back, sat carefully on the stool. It held his weight.
"Wasn't thinking. Wanted a drink. A last drink?" She
appeared to be thinking about that. "They don't always kill, in the
challenges." "Me
they will," he said glumly. She
nodded. "That's a truth, I guess. After tonight, you mean?" He
nodded. "So you might as well have the purse." "Oh.
That's why?" He
shrugged. "I
should at least do you then, shouldn't I?" "Hide
me," Bern said. "It's enough." She
looked at him. "It's a long night. You hungry?" He shook his head. She
laughed, for the first time. A girl, somewhere in there with the Jormsvik
whore. "You want to sit and talk all night?" She grinned, and
began untying the knotted belt that held her tunic. "Come here," she
said. "You're pretty enough for me. I can earn some of this." Bern
had thought, actually, that fear would strip away desire. Watching her begin to
undress, seeing that unexpected, amused expression, he discovered that this was
wrong. It had been, he thought, a long time since he'd had a woman. And the
last one had been lord, the volur, in her cabin on the isle. The serpent
coiling somewhere in the room. Not a good memory. It's
a long night. After a moment, he
started to remove his sword-belt. He
was later to consider—sometimes soberly, sometimes not so—how a man's life
could turn on extremely small things. Had he turned up another alley when he'd
left that tavern, found a different roof to climb. Had they begun to disrobe
even a little sooner .. . "Thira!"
they heard, from downstairs. "You still up there?" He knew that voice
now. Gurd'll kill you for fun of it, she had said. "In
the fireplace!" she whispered urgently now. "Push up a ways.
Hurry!" "You
can turn me in," he said, surprising himself. "No
to that," she said, retying her belt quickly. "Get in there!"
Turning to the door, she shouted, "Gurd! Watch fourth step!" "I
know!" Bern heard. He
hurried to the chimney space, bending down and stepping over the rod that held
the black pot. Awkward, especially with the stolen sword. He scraped his
shoulder on the rough stone, swore. He straightened up inside, cautiously. It
was pitch black and very tight. He was sweating again, heart hammering. Should
he have stayed in the room, fought the man when he came up? Gurd would kill
him, or simply step back and call for friends. Bern would have nowhere to go. And
the girl would die, as well, if he was found here. A bad death, with these men.
Should he care about that, if he wanted to be a Jormsvik mercenary? No matter,
too late now. The
chimney widened a little, higher up, more than he'd thought. He reached
overhead with both hands, scrabbling at stone. Pebbles fell, rattling. He found
places to grip, levered himself, got his boots on either side of the bar that
stretched across, pushed the sword to hang straight down. He needed to get
higher but couldn't see a thing in the blackness of the chimney, no way to
check for footholds. He put his boots right to the edges, pressing against the
stone. The bar held. For how long, he didn't know, or want to think. Imagined
himself crashing down, unable to move in the chimney, spitted like a squealing
pig by the man in the room. A glorious death. Gurd
banged on the door; the girl crossed and opened it. He hoped—abruptly—that
she'd thought to hide the purse. He heard her voice. "Gurd, I didn't think
you'd—" "Out
of the way. I want your window, not your skinny bones." "What?" "No one's seen him in the streets, there's ten
of us looking. Shit-smeared goatboy may be on a roof." "I'd have seen him, Gurd." Bern heard her
footsteps cross behind the mercenary's to the window. "Come to
bed?" "You'd see nothing but one of us to screw.
Ingavin's blood, it pisses me to have a farmhand escape us!" "Let me make you feel better, then," the
girl named Thira said in a wheedling voice. "Long as you're here,
Gurd." "Slipped coins, all you want. Whore." "Not all I want slipped, Gurd," she
said. Bern heard her laugh softly and knew it wasn't real. "Not now. I might come back later if you're
dying for it. No money, though. I'd be doing you a favour." "No to that," said Thira sharply.
"I'll be down in Hrati's getting a man who takes care of a girl." Bern heard a blow, a gasp. "Decent tongue in
your head, whore. Remember it." There was a silence. Then, "Why would you cheat
me, Gurd? A man oughtn't do that. What I do bad to you? Do me and pay me for
it." Bern felt a cramping in his arms, held almost
straight over his head, clutching the stone wall. If the man in the room turned
to the fire and looked, he'd see two boots, one on either side of the cooking
pot. The man in the room said, to the woman, "Get
your tunic up, don't take it off. Turn over, on your knees." Thira made a small sound. "Two coins, Gurd. You
know it. Why cheat me for two coins? I need to eat." The mercenary swore. Bern heard money land on the
floor and roll. Thira said, "I knowed you was a good man, Gurd. I knowed
it. Who you want me be? A princess from Ferrieres? You captured me? Now
you got me?" "Cyngael," the man grunted. Bern heard a
sword drop. "Cyngael bitch, proud as a goddess. But not any more. Not now. Put your face down. You're in the mud. In the .
. . field. I got you. Like. This." He grunted, so did the girl. Bern heard
shifting sounds where the pallet was. "Ah!"
Thira cried. "Someone save me!" She screamed, but kept it soft. "All
dead, bitch!" Gurd growled. Bern heard the sounds of their movements, a
hard slap on skin, the man grunting again. He stayed where he was, eyes closed,
though it didn't matter in this blackness. Heard the mercenary again, breath
rasping now: "All carved up. Your men. Now you find . . . what an Erling's
like, cow! Then you die." Another slap. "No!"
cried Thira. "Save me!" Gurd
grunted again, then groaned loudly, then the sounds ceased. After a moment,
Bern heard him stand up again. "Worth
a coin, not more'n that, Ingavin knows," Gurd of Jormsvik, a captain
there, said. "I'll take the other back, whore." He laughed. Thira
said nothing. Bern heard the sword being picked up, boots crossing the floor
again to the door. "You see anyone on a roof, you shout. Hear?" Thira
made a muffled sound. The door opened, closed. Bern heard boots on the stairs,
then a clatter, and swearing. Gurd had forgotten the fourth stair. A brief,
necessary flicker of pleasure at that. Then gone. He
waited a few more moments, then stepped carefully down from the bar, stooped
almost double, and squeezed out from the chimney. He scraped his back this
time. The
girl was on the pallet, face down, hidden by her hair. The candle burned on the
stool. "He
hurt you?" Bern asked. She
didn't move, or turn. "He took a coin back. He oughtn't cheat me." Bern
shrugged, though she couldn't see him. "You have a full purse from me.
What's a coin matter?" She
still didn't turn. "I earned it. You can't understand that, can you?"
She said it into the rough blanket of the pallet. "No,"
said Bern, "I guess I can't." It was true, he didn't understand. But
why should he? She
turned then, sat up, and quickly put a hand to her mouth—a girl's gesture
again. Began to laugh. "Ingavin's eye! Look at you! You're
black as a southern desert man." Bern
looked down at his tunic. Ash and soot from the fireplace were all over him. He
turned up his hands. His palms were coal black from the fireplace walls. He
shook his head ruefully. "Maybe I'll scare them in the morning." She
was still laughing. "Not them, but sit down, I'll wash you." She got
up, arranged her tunic, and went to a basin by the other wall. It
was a long time since a woman had tended him. Not since they'd had servants,
before his father had killed his second man in an inn fight and been exiled,
ruining the world. Bern sat on the stool as she bade him, and a whore by the walls
of Jormsvik cleaned and groomed him the way the virgins in Ingavin's halls were
said to minister to the warriors there. Later,
without speaking, she lay down on the pallet again and took off her tunic and
he made love to her, distracted a little now by the noisy sounds of other
lovemaking in the two rooms below. With a memory of what he'd heard from within
the fireplace, he actually tried to be gentle with her, but afterwards he
didn't think it had mattered. He'd given her a purse, and she was earning it,
in the way she did that. She
fell asleep, after. The candle on the stool burned down. Bern lay in the
darkness of that small, high room, looking out the unshuttered window at the
summer night, waiting for first light. Before that came, he heard voices and
drunken laughter in the street below: the mercenaries going back to their
barracks. They slept there, always, whatever they did out here in the nights. Her
window faced east, away from the fortress and the sea. Watching, listening to
the girl breathe beside him, he caught the first hint of dawn. He rose and
dressed. Thira didn't move. He unbarred the door and went softly down the
stairs, stepping over the fourth one from the bottom, and came out into the
empty street. He
walked north—not running, on this morning that might be the last of his
unimportant life—and passed the final straggling wooden structures, out into
fields beyond. A chill, grey hour, before sunrise. He came to the wood. Gyllir
was where he'd left him. The horse would be as hungry as he was, but there was
nothing to be done about that. If they killed Bern they'd take the stallion,
treat him well: he was a magnificent creature. He rubbed the animal's muzzle,
whispered a greeting. More
light now. Sunrise, a bright day, it would be warm later. Bern mounted, left
the wood. He rode slowly through the fields towards the main gates of Jormsvik.
No reason to hurry now. He saw a hare at the edge of the trees, alert, watching
him. It crossed his mind to curse his father again, for what Thorkell had done
to bring him here, to this, but in the end he didn't do that, though he wasn't
sure why. It also occurred to him to pray, and that he did do. There
were guards on the ramparts above the gates, Bern saw. He reined the horse to a
halt. Sat silently a moment. The sun was up, to his left, the sea on the other
side, beyond a stony strand. There were boats—the dragon-headed ships—pulled up
on the shore, a long, long row of them. He looked at those, the brightly
painted prows, and at the grey, surging sea. Then he turned back to the walls
and issued a challenge to be admitted to the company of Jormsvik, offering to
prove his worth against any man sent out to him.
A
challenge could be entertaining, though usually only briefly so. The
mercenaries prided themselves on dealing briskly with country lads and their
delusions of being warriors. A trivial, routine aspect of their life. Draw the
rune with a sword on it, ride out, cut someone up, come back for food and ale.
If a man took too long to handle his lot-drawn task he could expect to be a
source of amusement to his fellows for a time. Indeed, the likeliest way to
ensure being killed—for a challenger—was to put up too much of a fight. But
why come all the way to Jormsvik-on-the-sea at the bottom of Vinmark just to
surrender easily, in the (probably vain) hope of having your life spared? There
might be some small measure of accomplishment back home for a farmer in having
fought before these walls and come away alive, but not that much, in
truth. Only
a few of the mercenaries would bother to climb the ramparts to watch, mostly
companions of the one who'd drawn the sword-lot. On the other hand, for the
artisans and fishermen and merchants of the town sprawling outside the walls,
daily life offered little enough in the way of recreation, so it was generally
the case that they'd suspend activity and come watch when a challenger was
reported. They
wagered, of course—Erlings always wagered—usually on how long it would take for
the newest victim to be unhorsed or disarmed, and whether he'd be killed or
allowed to limp away. If
the challenge came early in the morning—as today—the whores were usually
asleep, but with word shouted through the lanes and streets many of them would
drag themselves out to see a fight. You
could always go back to bed after watching a fool killed, maybe even win a coin
or two. You might even take a carpenter or sailmaker back with you before he
returned to his shop, make another coin that way. Fighting excited the men
sometimes. The
girl called Thira (at least partly Waleskan, by her colouring) was among those
who came down towards the gates and the strand when word ran round that a
challenge had been issued. She
was one of the newer whores, having arrived from the east with a trading party
in spring. She had taken one of the rickety, fire-prone upper-level rooms in
the town. She was too bony and too sharp-tongued (and inclined to use it) to
have any real reason to expect a rise in her fortunes, or enough money to lower
her bed to a ground-floor room. These
girls came and went, or died in winter. It was a waste of time feeling sorry
for them. Life was hard for everyone. If the girl was fool enough to put a
silver coin on the latest farmer who'd shown up to challenge, all you wanted to
do was bite the coin, ensure it was real, and be quick as you could to cover
part of the wager—even at the odds proposed. How
she got the coin was not at issue—all the girls stole. A silver piece was a
week's work on back or belly for a girl like Thira, and not much less than
that, at harder labour, for the craftsmen of the town. It took several of them,
mingling coins, to match the wager. The money was placed, as usual, with the
blacksmith, who had a reputation for honesty and a good memory, and who was
also a very large man. "Why
you doing this?" one of the other girls asked Thira. It
had created a stir. You didn't bet on challengers to win. "They
spent half last night trying to find him. Gurd and the others. He was in
Hrati's and they went for him. I figure if he can dodge a dozen of them for a
night, he might handle one in a fight." "Not
the same thing," said one of the older women. "You can't hide out
here." Thira
shrugged. "If he loses, take my money." "Well
aren't you the easy one with silver?" the other woman sniffed. "What
happens if Gurd come out his self, to finish what he couldn't?" "Won't.
Gurd's a captain. I ought to know. He comes to me now." "Hah!
He come up those broken stairs to you only when someone he wants is busy. Don't
get ideas, girl." "He
was with me last night," Thira said, defensively. "I know him. He
won't fight ... it's beneath him. As a captain and all." Someone laughed. "Is
it?" someone else said. The
gates had opened. A man was riding out. There were murmurs, and then more
laughter, at the girl's expense. People were fools sometimes. You couldn't pity
them. You tried to gain from it. Those who hadn't been quick enough to be part
of the wager were cursing themselves. "Give
over the money now," a pockmarked sailmaker named Stermi said to the
blacksmith, elbowing him. "This farmer's a dead man." Seabirds
wheeled, dove into the waves, rose again, crying. "Ingavin's
eye!" exclaimed the girl named Thira, shaken. The crowd eyed her with
raucous pleasure. "Why'd he do this?" "Oh?
Thought you said you knew him," the other whore said, cackling. They
watched, a largish, buzzing group of people, as Gurd Thollson—a captain for two
years now, excused from having to do this any more unless he chose to—rode out
in glorious chain mail from the open gates of Jormsvik and moved past them,
unsmiling, eyes hidden under helm and above bright yellow beard, towards the
farmboy waiting on the stony strand astride a grey horse.
He
had prayed. Had no farewells to make. There was no one who would lose anything
at all if he died. This was a choice. You made choices, in the sea and on land,
or somewhere between the two, on the margins. Bern
backed Gyllir up a little as the mercenary who had drawn the battle lot
approached. He knew what he wanted to do here, had no idea if he could. This
was a trained warrior. He wore an iron helm, chain-mail armour, a round shield
hooked on the saddle of his horse. Why would he take any kind of chance? Though
this was where Bern saw his own chance lying, small as it might be. The
Jormsvik fighter came nearer; Bern retreated a little more along the stony
beach, as if flinching backwards. Edge of the surf now, shallow water. "Where'd
you hide last night, goatboy?" This
time, the retreat back into the water was genuine, instinctive. He knew the
voice. Hadn't known which man in the alehouse last night was Gurd. Now he did:
the big, yellow-haired dice player at the next table over, who had seen him pay
and hurry out. "Answer
me, cowshit. You're dying here anyhow." Gurd drew his sword. There came a
sound from those watching outside the walls. Something
rare came into Bern Thorkellson in that moment, with the deriding, confident
voice and a memory of this man the night before. It actually took Bern a moment
to identify the feeling. Normally he was controlled, careful, only son of a man
too well known for his temper. But a shield wall broke inside him on that
strand before Jormsvik, with the sea lapping at the fetters of his horse. He
danced Gyllir a little farther backwards into the water—deliberately this time—and
he felt, within, the heat of an unexpected fury. "You're
a sorry excuse for an Erling, you know that?" he snapped. "If I'm
supposed to be a shit-smeared farmhand, why couldn't you find me last night,
Gurd? I didn't go far, you know. Why's it take a captain to kill a goatboy
today? Or be killed by one? I beat you last night, I'll beat you now. In fact,
I like that sword of yours. I'll enjoy using it." A
silence; a man stunned. Then a stream of obscenity. "You beat no one, you
lump of dung," the big man snarled, edging his horse forward in the water.
"You just hid, and wet yourself." "Not
hiding now, am I?" Bern raised his voice to be heard. "Come on,
little Gurd. Everyone's watching." Again
he backed up. His boots in the stirrups were in the water now. He could feel
the horse reach for footing. The shelf sloped here. Gyllir was calm. Gyllir was
a glory. Bern drew his stolen sword. Gurd
followed, farther into the sea. His horse danced and shifted. Most Erling
warriors fought on foot, riding to battle if they had a horse and dismounting
there. Bern was counting on that. For one thing, Gurd couldn't use the shield
and sword and control his mount. "Get
down and fight!" the captain rasped. "I'm
here, little Gurd. Not hiding. Or is this Erling afraid of the sea? Is that why
you're not raiding? Will they even let you back in when they see it? Come get
me, mighty captain!" Again
he shouted it, to let those watching on the grass hear him. Some of them had
begun drifting nearer the strand. He was surprised at how little fear he felt,
now that it had come to this. And the anger in him was fierce and warming, a
blaze. He thought of the girl last night: this massive, bearded captain
stealing a coin from her out of sheer malice. It shouldn't matter—he'd told her
that—but it did. He couldn't say why, didn't have time to decide why. Gurd
pointed with his blade. "I'm going to hurt you before I let you die,"
he said. "No
you aren't," said Bern, quietly this time, for no one else's ears but
their own—and the gods', if they were listening. "Ingavin and Thunir led
me through the sea on this horse in the dark of a night. They are watching over
me. You die here, little Gurd. You're in the way of my destiny." He
surprised himself, again—hadn't any idea he would say that, or what it meant. Gurd
rapped his helm down hard, roared something wordless, and charged. More or
less. It is
difficult to charge in surf at the best of times. Things are not as one
expects, or as one's horse expects. Movements slow, there is resistance,
footing shifts—and then, where sand and stones slide away, it disappears
entirely, and one is swimming, or the horse is, wild-eyed. One cannot charge at
all, swimming, wearing armour, heavy and unbalanced. But
this, on the other hand, was a Jormsvik fighter, a captain, and he was
not—taunting aside—afraid of the sea, after all. He was quick, and his horse
was good. The first angled blow was heavy as a battle-hammer and Bern barely
got his own blade across his body and in front of it. His entire right side was
jarred by the impact; Gyllir rocked with it, Bern gasped with the force, pulled
the horse back to his right in the sea, by reflex, more than anything. Gurd
pushed farther forward, still roaring, took another huge downward swing. This
one missed, badly. They were deeper now, both of them. Gurd nearly unhorsed
himself in the waves, rocking wildly as his mount, legs thrashing, struggled
beneath him. Bern
felt an improbable mixture of ice and fire within him: fury and a cold
precision. He thought of his father. Ten years of lessons with all the weapons
Thorkell knew. How to block a downward forearm slash. His inheritance? He
said, watching the other man struggle and then right himself, "If it makes
you feel better, dying here, I'm not a farmboy, little Gurd. My father rowed
with the Volgan for years. Thorkell Einarson. Siggur's companion. Know it.
Won't get you to Ingavin's halls this morning, though." He paused; locked
eyes with the other man. "The gods will have seen you steal that coin last
night." If he
died now, the girl did too, because he'd said that. He wasn't going to die. He
waited, saw awareness—of many things—flicker and ripple in the other man's blue
eyes. Then he steered Gyllir forward at an angle with his knees and he stabbed
Gurd's horse with a leaning, upward thrust just above the waterline. Gurd
cried out, pulled at reins uselessly, waved his sword—for balance more than
anything—slipped from the tilting saddle. Bern
saw him, weighted with chain mail, up to his chest in water, fighting to stand.
His dying horse thrashed again, kicked him. Bern actually had a moment to think
about pitying the man. He waited until Gurd, fighting the weight of his armour,
was almost upright in the waves, then he angled Gyllir again, smoothly in the
sea, and he drove his sword straight into the captain's handsome, bearded face
just below the nosepiece. The blade went through mouth and skull bone, banged
hard against the metal of the helm at the back. Bern jerked it out, saw blood,
sudden and vivid, in the water. He watched the other man topple into white,
foaming surf. Dead already. Another angry ghost. He
dismounted. Grabbed for the drifting sword, better by far than his own. He took
hold of Gurd by the ringed neckpiece of his armour and pulled him from the sea,
blood trailing from the smashed-in face. He threw the two swords ahead of him,
used both hands to drag the heavy body up on the strand. He stood above it,
dripping, breathing hard. Gyllir followed. The other horse did not, a carcass
now, in the shallow water. Bern looked at it a moment, then walked back into
the sea. He bent and claimed the dead man's shield from the saddle. Walked back
out onto the stones again. He
looked over at the crowd gathered between sea and walls, and then up at the
soldiers on the ramparts above the open gates. Many of them up there this
sunlit summer morning. A captain riding out, claiming the fight: worth
watching, to see what he did to the challenger who'd offended him. They'd seen. Two
men were walking out through the gates. One lifted a hand in greeting. Bern
felt the anger still within him, making a home, not ready to leave. "This
man's armour," he called, lifting his voice over the deeper voice of the
tumbling sea behind him, "is mine, in Ingavin's name." It
wouldn't fit him but could be altered, or sold. That's what mercenaries did.
That's what he was now. At
the margins of any tale there are lives that come into it only for a moment.
Or, put another way, there are those who run quickly through a story and then
out, along their paths. For these figures, living their own sagas, the tale
they intersect is the peripheral thing. A moment in the drama of their own
living and dying. The
metalsmith, Ralf Erlickson, elected to return to his birthplace on Rabady Isle
at the end of that same summer after ten years on the Vinmark mainland, the
last four of which had been spent in the town outside the walls of Jormsvik.
He'd made (and saved) a decent sum, because the mercenaries had needed his
services regularly. He'd finally decided it was time to go home, buy some land,
choose a wife, beget sons for his old age. His
parents were dead, his brothers gone elsewhere—he wasn't certain where any
more, after ten years. There were other changes on the isle, of course, but not
so many, really. Some taverns had closed, some opened, people dead, people
born. The harbour was bigger, room for more ships. Two governors had succeeded
each other since he'd left. The new one—Sturla One-hand, of all people—had just
begun serving. Ralf had a drink or three with One-hand just after arriving.
They traded stories of a shared childhood and divergent lives after. Ralf had
never gone raiding; Sturla had lost a hand overseas . . . and made a small
fortune. A
hand was a fair trade for a fortune, in Ralf's estimation. Sturla had a big
house, a wife, land, access to other women, and power. It was . . . unexpected.
He kept quiet about that thought, though, even after several cups. He was
coming home to live, and Sturla was the governor. You wanted to be careful. He
asked about unmarried women, smiled at the predictable jests, made a mental
note of the two names Sturla did mention. Next
morning he went out from the walls, walking through remembered fields to the
women's compound. There was an errand he'd promised to do. No need to ask directions.
The place wouldn't have moved. It
was in better repair than he recalled. Sturla had told him a bit about that:
the stoning of the old volur, emergence of a new one. Relations, the
governor had allowed, were good. The witch-women had even taken to bringing
food and ale for the harvesters at end of day. They never spoke, Sturla had
told him, shaking his head. Not a word. Just walked out, in procession, a line
of them, carrying cheese or meat and drink, then walked back. In procession. Ralf
Erlickson had spat into the rushes on the governor's floor. "Women,"
he'd said. "Just their games." One-hand
had shrugged. "Less than before, maybe." Ralf got the feeling he was
taking credit for it. The
details of the town's reciprocation were evident as he approached the compound.
The fence was in good condition; the buildings looked sturdy, doors hanging
properly; wood was stacked high already, well before winter. There were signs
of construction, a new outbuilding of some kind going up. A
woman in a grey, calf-length tunic watched him approach, standing by the gate. "Ingavin's
peace on all here," Ralf said, routinely. "I have a message for one
of you." "All
peace upon you," she replied, and waited. Didn't open the gate. Ralf
shifted his feet. He didn't like these women. He vaguely regretted accepting
the errand, but he'd been paid, and it wasn't a difficult task. "I
am to speak with someone whose name I don't know," he said. She
laughed, surprisingly. "Well, you don't know mine." He
wasn't used to laughter in the seer's compound. He'd come twice in his youth,
both times to offer support to friends seeking a seithr spell from the volur.
There'd been no amusement, on either occasion. "Were
you ever bit by a snake?" he asked, and was pleased to see her startle. "Is
that the one you need to see?" He
nodded. After a moment, she opened the gate. "Wait
here," she said, and left him in the yard as she went into one of the
buildings. He
looked around. A warm day, end of summer. He saw beehives, an herb garden, the
locked brewhouse. Heard birdsong from the trees. No sign of any other women. He
wondered, idly, where they were. A
door opened and someone else came out, alone: wearing blue. He knew what that
meant. Under his breath he cursed. He hadn't expected to deal with the volur
herself. She was young, he saw. One-hand had told him that, but it was
disconcerting. "You
have a message for me," she murmured. She was hooded, but he saw wide-set
blue eyes and pulled-back yellow hair. You might even have called her pretty,
though that was a dangerous thought with respect to a volur. "Ingavin's
peace," he said. "And
Fulla's upon you." She waited. "You
. . . the snake ... ?" "I
was bitten, yes. In the spring." She put a hand inside her robe and
withdrew it, gripping something. Erlickson stepped back quickly. She wrapped
the creature around her neck. It coiled there, head up, looking at him from
above her shoulder, then flicked an evil tongue. "We have made our peace,
the serpent and I." Ralf
Erlickson cleared his throat. Time, he thought, to be gone from here.
"Your kinsman sends greetings. From Jormsvik." He'd
surprised her greatly, he realized, had no idea why. She clasped her hands at
her waist. "That
is all? The message?" He
nodded. Cleared his throat again. "He . . . is well, I can say that." "And
working for the mercenaries?" Ralf
shook his head, pleased. They didn't know everything, these women. "He
killed a captain in a challenge, midsummer. He's
inside Jormsvik, one of them now. Well, in truth, he isn't inside, at the
moment." "Why?"
She was holding herself very still. "Off
raiding. Anglcyn coast. Five ships, near two hundred men. A big party, that.
Left just before I did." He'd seen them go. It was late in the season, but
they could winter over if they needed to. He had made and mended weapons and
armour for many of them. "Anglcyn
coast," she repeated. "Yes,"
he said. There
was a silence. He heard the bees. "Thank
you for your tidings. Ingavin and the goddesses shield you," she said,
turning away, the serpent still about her neck and shoulders. "Wait here.
Sigla will bring you something." Sigla
did. Generous enough. He spent some of it at an inn that night, on ale and a
girl. Went looking for property the next morning. Not that there was so much of
it on the isle. Rabady was small, everyone knew everyone. It might have helped
if his parents had still been living, instead of buried here, but that was a
waste of a wish. One of the names Sturla had given him was that of a widow, no
children, young enough to still bear, he'd been told, some land in her own
name, west end of the isle. He brushed his clothes and boots before going to
call. His
son was born the next summer. His wife died in the birthing. He buried her back
of the house, hired a wet nurse, went looking for another wife. Found one, and
younger this time: he was a man with a bit of land now. He felt fortunate, as
if he'd made good choices in life. There was an oak tree standing by itself
near the south end of his land. He left it untouched, consecrated it to
Ingavin, made offerings there, lit fires, midsummer, midwinter. His
son, fourteen years later, cut it down one night after a bad, drunken fight the
two of them had. Ralf Erlickson, still drunk in the morning, killed the boy in
his bed with a hammer when he found out, smashed in his skull. A father could
deal with his family as he chose, that was the way of it. Or it
had been once. Sturla One-hand, still governor, convened the island's thring.
They exiled Ralf Erlickson from Rabady for murder, because the lad had been
asleep when killed, or so the stepmother said. And since when had the word of a
woman been accepted by Erlings in a thring? No
matter. It was a done thing. He left, or they'd have killed him. Well on in
years by then, Ralf Erlickson found himself on a small boat heading back to the
mainland, landless (One-hand had claimed the exile's property for the town, of
course). Eventually,
he made his way back down to Jormsvik, for want of a better thought. Worked at
his old trade, but his hand and eye weren't what they had been. Not surprising,
really, it had been a long time. He died there a little while after. Was laid
in the earth outside the walls in the usual fashion. He wasn't a warrior, no
pyre. One friend and two of the whores saw him buried. Life,
for all men under the gods, was uncertain as weather or winter seas: the only
truth worth calling true, as the ending of one of the sagas had it. SlX When
the king's fever took him in the night there was not enough love—or mercy—in
the world to keep him from the fens and swamps again. Drenched
with sweat upon the royal bed (or pallet, if they were travelling), Aeldred of
the Anglcyn would cry out in the dark, not even aware he was doing it, so
piteously it hurt the hearts of those who loved him to know where he was going. They
all thought they knew where, and when, by now. He
was seeing his brother and his father die long years ago on Camburn Field by
Raedhill. He was riding in icy rain (a winter campaign, the Erlings had
surprised them), wounded, and shivering with the first of these fevers at the
end of a brutal day's fighting; and he was king, as of twilight's coming down
upon that headlong, fever-ravaged flight from the northmen who had broken them
at last. King
of the Anglcyn, fleeing like an outlaw to hide in the marshes, the fyrd broken,
lands overrun. His royal father hideously blood-eagled on the wet ground at
Camburn in blood and rain. His brother cut in pieces there. He
didn't know about them until later. He did know it now, a late-summer night in
Esferth so many years after, tossing in fever-dream, reliving the winter
twilight when Jad had abandoned them for their sins. The blades and axes of the
Erlings pursuing them in the wild dark, the northmen triumphantly crying the
accursed names of Ingavin and Thьnir like ravens on the rain wind .. .
+
It is
difficult to see with the rain lashing their faces, a heavy blanket of cloud,
night coming swiftly now. Both good and bad: they will be harder to hunt down,
but can easily miss their own way, not able to use torches. There are no roads
here across moor and tor. There are eight of them with Aeldred, riding west. It
is Osbert who is nearest the king (for he is the king now, last of his line),
as he always is, and Osbert who shouts them to a jostling halt by the pitiful
shelter of a handful of elms. They are soaked to the bone, chilled, most
wounded, all exhausted, the wind lashing. But
Aeldred is shivering with fever, slumped forward on his horse, and he cannot
speak in answer to his name. Osbert moves his mount nearer, reaches out,
touches the king's brow . . . and recoils, for Aeldred is burning hot. "He
cannot ride," he says, leader of the household troop. "He must!"
Burgred snaps, shouting it over the wind. "They will not be far behind
us." And
Aeldred lifts his head, with a great effort, mumbles something they cannot
hear. He points west with one hand, twitches his reins to move forward. He
slips in the saddle as he does so. Osbert is near enough to hold him, their
horses side by side. The
two thegns look at each other over the wracked body of the man who is now their
king. "He will die," Osbert says. Aeldred, son of Gademar, is twenty
years old, just. The
wind howls, rain slashes them like needles. It is very dark, they can hardly
see each other. After a long moment, Burgred of Denferth wipes water from his
face and nods. "Very well. The seven of us carry on, with the royal
banner. We will try to be seen, draw them west. You find a farmhouse somewhere,
and pray." Osbert
nods his head. "Meet in Beortferth, on the island itself, among the salt
fens. When we can." "The
marshes are dangerous. You can find your way through?" "Maybe not.
Have someone watch for us." Burgred
nods again, looks over at their boyhood friend, this other young man, slumped
on his horse. Aeldred in battle was deadly, commanding the left flank of the fyrd
with his house-hold guard. It was not the left flank that crumbled, not
that it mattered now. "Jad
curse this day," Burgred says. Then
he turns and six men follow him across an open field in the dark, one carrying
their banner, moving west again, but deliberately, not as quickly as before. Osbert,
son of Cuthwulf, left alone with his king, leans over and whispers, tenderly,
"Dear heart, have you even a little left? We ride for shelter now, and
should not have far to go." He
has no idea if this is true in fact, no clear sense of where they are, but if
there are farms or houses they should be north of here. And when Aeldred, with
another appalling effort, pushes himself upright and looks vaguely towards him
and nods—shivering, still unable to speak—it is northward that Osbert turns,
leaving the elms, heading into the wind. He
will remember the next hours all his life, though Aeldred, lost in that
first-ever fever, never will. It grows colder, begins to snow. They are both
wounded, sweat-drenched, inadequately clothed, and Aeldred is using the last
reserves of an iron will just to stay on his horse. Osbert hears wolves on the
wind; listens constantly for horses, knowing, if he hears them, that the
Erlings have come and it is over. There are no lights to be seen: no charcoal
burner by the woods, no farmers burning candles or a fire so late on a night
like this. He strains his eyes into the dark and prays, as Burgred had said he
should. The king's breathing is ragged. He can hear it, the rasp and draw.
There is nothing to see but falling snow, and black woods to the west, and the
bare, wintry fields through which they ride. A night fit for the world's end.
Wolves around, and the Erling wolves hunting them in the dark. And
then, still shivering uncontrollably, Aeldred lifts his head. A moment he stays
thus, looking at nothing, and then speaks his first clear words of the night's
flight. "To the left," he says. "West of us, Jad help me."
His head drops forward again. Snow falls, the wind blows, more a hammer than a
knife. Aeldred
will claim, ever after, to have no recollection of saying those words. Osbert
will say that when the king spoke he heard and felt the presence of the god. Unquestioningly,
he turns west, guiding Aeldred's horse with one hand now, to stay beside his
own. Wind on their right, pushing them south. Osbert's hands are frozen, he can
scarcely feel the reins he holds, his own or the king's. He sees blackness
ahead, a forest. They cannot ride into that. And
then there is the hut. Directly in front of them, close to the trees, in their
very path. He would have ridden north, right past it. It takes him a moment to understand
what he is seeing, for his weariness is great, and then Osbert begins to
weep, helplessly, and his hands tremble. Holy
Jad has not, after all, abandoned them to the dark.
They
dare not light a fire. The horses have been hidden out of sight in the woods,
tied to the same tree, to keep each other warm. The snow is shifting and
blowing; there will be no tracks. There can be no signs of their passage near
the house. The Erlings are no strangers to snow and icy winds. Their berserkirs
and wolf-raiders flourish in this weather, wrapped in their animal skins,
eyes not human until the fury leaves them. They will be out there, in
the wind, hunting, for the northmen know by now that one of the line of
Athelbert left Camburn Field alive. In some ways it ought not to matter. With a
land taken and overrun, an army shattered, what can a king matter, alone? But
in other ways, it means the world, it could mean the world, and they
will want Aeldred killed, in a manner as vicious as they can devise. So there
is no fire in the swineherd's house where a terrified man and his wife,
awakened by a pounding on their door in the wild night, have abandoned a narrow
bed to pile threadbare blankets and rags and straw upon the shivering, burning
man who—they have been told—is their king under holy Jad. Whether
it is the relative stillness within these thin walls, out of the howling wind,
or some portent-laden deepening of his sickness (Osbert is no leech, he does
not know), the king begins to cry out on the swineherd's bed, shouting names at
first, then a hoarse rallying cry, some words in ancient Trakesian, and then in
the Rhodian tongue of the holy books—for Aeldred is a learned man and has been
to Rhodias itself. But
his shouting might kill them tonight. So in
the darkness and the cold, Osbert, son of Cuthwulf, lies down beside his friend
and begins whispering to him as one might murmur to a lover or a child, and
each time the king draws a wracked breath to cry out in oblivious agony, his
friend clamps a bloodstained hand over his mouth and stifles the sound, again
and again, weeping as he does so, for the pity of it. Then
they do hear cries, from outside in the white night, and it seems to Osbert,
lying beside his king in that frigid hut (so cold the lice are probably dead),
that their ending has come indeed, the doom no man can escape forever. And he
reaches for the sword beside him on the earthen floor, and vows to his father's
spirit and the sun god that he will not let Aeldred be taken alive from here to
be ripped apart by Erlings. He
moves to rise, and there is a hand on his arm. "There
are going by," the swineherd whispers, toothless. "Hold, my
lord." Aeldred's
head shifts. He drags for breath again. Osbert turns quickly, grips the other
man's head with one hand (hot as a forge it is) and covers the king's mouth
with his other, and he murmurs a prayer for forgiveness, as Aeldred thrashes
beside him, trying to give utterance to whatever pain and fever are demanding
that he cry. And
whether because of prayer or a moon-shrouded night or the northmen's haste or
nothing more than chance, the Erlings do pass by, how many of them Osbert never
knew. And after that the night, too, passes, longer than any night of his life
had ever been. Eventually,
Osbert sees, through unstopped chinks in wall and door (wind slashing through),
that the flurries of snow have stopped. Looking out for a moment, he sees the
blue moon shining before clouds slide to cover it again. An owl cries, hunting
over the woods behind them. The wind has died down enough for that. Towards
dawn, the king's terrible shivering stops, he grows cooler to the touch, the
shallow breathing steadies, and then he sleeps.
Osbert
slips into the woods, feeds and waters the horses .. . precious little, in
truth, for the family's only nurture in winter is carefully rationed salted
pork from their swine and unflavoured, mealy oatcakes. Food for animals is an
impossible luxury. The pigs are in the forest, left to forage for themselves. Amazed,
he hears laughter from inside as he returns, ducking through the doorway.
Aeldred is taking a badly blackened cake for himself, leaving the others, less
charred. The swineherd's wife is blushing, the king smiling, nothing at all
like the man who'd shivered and moaned in the dark, or the one who'd screamed
like an Erling berserkir on the battlefield. He looks over at his friend
and smiles. "I
have just been told, gently enough, that I make a deficient servant, Osbert.
Did you know that?" The
woman wails in denial, covers her crimson face with both hands. Her husband is
looking back and forth, his face a blank, uncertain what to think. "It
is the only reason we let you claim rank," Osbert murmurs, closing the
door. "The fact that you can't even clean boots properly." Aeldred
laughs, then sobers, looking up at his friend. "You saved my life,"
he says, "and then these people saved ours." Osbert hesitates.
"You remember anything of the night?" The king shakes his head. "Just
as well," his friend says, eventually. "We
should pray," Aeldred says. They do, giving thanks on their knees, facing
east to the sun, for all known blessings. They
wait until sunset and then they leave, to hide among the marshes, besieged in
their own land.
Beortferth
is a low-lying, wet islet, lost amid dank, spreading salt fens. Only the
smaller rodents live there, and marsh birds, water snakes, biting insects in
summer. It was the bird-catchers who first found the place, long ago, making
their precarious way through the fens, on foot, or poling flat-bottomed skiffs. It is
almost always foggy here, tendrils of mist, the god's sun a distant, wan thing,
even on the clear days. You can see strange visions here, get hopelessly lost.
Horses and men have been sucked down in the stagnant bogs, which are deep in
places. Some say there are nameless creatures down there, alive since the days
of darkness. The safe paths are narrow, not remotely predictable, you must know
them exactly, ride or walk in single file, easy to ambush. Groves of gnarled
trees rise up in places, startling and strange in the greyness, roots in water,
leading the wanderer to stray and fall. In
winter it is always damp, unhealthy, there is desperately little in the way of
food, and that winter—when the Erlings won the Battle of Camburn Field—was a
cruelly harsh one. Endless
freezing rain and snow, thin, grey-yellow ice forming in the marsh, the wet
wind slashing. Almost every one of them has a cough, rheumy eyes, loose bowels.
All of them are hungry, and cold. It is
Aeldred's finest hour. It is this winter that will create and define him as
what he will become, and some will claim to have sensed this as it was
happening. Osbert
is not one of them, nor Burgred. Concealing their own coughs and fluxes as best
they can, flatly denying exhaustion, refusing to acknowledge hunger, Aeldred's
two commanders (as young as he was, that winter) will each say, long
afterwards, that they survived by not thinking ahead, addressing only
the demands of each day, each hour. Eyes lowered like a man pushing a plough
through a punishing, stony field. In
the first month they arrange and supervise the building of a primitive fort on
the isle, more a windbreak with a roof than anything else. When it is complete,
before he ever steps inside, Aeldred stands in a slanting rain before the
forty-seven men who are with him by then (a number never forgotten, all of them
named in the Chronicle) and formally declares the isle to be the seat of
his realm, heart of the Anglcyn in their land, in the name of Jad. His
realm. Forty-seven men. Ingemar Svidrirson and his Erlings are inside
Raedhill's walls, foraging unopposed through a beaten countryside. Not a swift
sea raid for slaves and glory and gold. Here to settle, and rule. Osbert
looks across sparse, patchy grass in rain towards Burgred of Denferth, and then
back at the man who leads them in this hunted, misty refuge, with salt in the
biting air, and for the first time since Camburn Field he allows himself the idea
of hope. Looking up from the plough. Aeldred kneels in prayer; they all do. That
same afternoon, having given thanks, in piety, their first raiding party rides
out from the swamps. Fifteen
of them, Burgred leading. They are gone two days, to make a wide loop away from
here. They surprise and kill eight Erlings foraging for winter provisions in a
depleted countryside, and bring their weapons and horses (and the provisions)
back. A triumph, a victory. While they are out, four men have come wandering in
through the fens, to join the king. Hope,
a licence to dream. The beginnings of these things. Men gather close around a
night fire in Beortferth Hall, walls and a roof between them and the rain at
last. There is one bard among them, his instrument damply out of tune. It
doesn't matter. He sings the old songs, and Aeldred joins in the singing, and
then all of them do. They take turns on watch outside, on the higher ground,
and farther out, at the entrances to the marshes, east and north. Sound carries
here; those on watch can hear the singing sometimes. It is a warming for them,
amazingly so. That
same night, Aeldred's fever comes again. They
have their one singer, and a single aged cleric with bad knees, some artisans,
masons, bird-catchers, fletchers, farmers, fighting men from the fyrd, with
and without weapons. No leech. No one with knives and cups to bleed him, or any
sure knowledge of herbs. The cleric prays, kneeling painfully, sun disk in his
hands, where the king lies by the fire and Osbert—for it is seen as his
task—tries, in anguish, to decide whether Aeldred, thrashing and crying out,
oblivious, lost to them and to Jad's created world, needs to be warmed or
cooled at any given moment, and his heart breaks again and again all the long
night.
By
springtime there are almost two hundred of them on the isle. The season has
brought other life: herons, otters, the loud croaking of frogs in the marsh.
There are more wooden structures now, even a small chapel, and they have
organized, of necessity, a network of food suppliers, hunting parties. The
hunters become more than that, if Erlings are seen. The
northmen have had a difficult winter of their own, it appears. Short of food,
not enough of them to safely extend their reach beyond the fastness of Raedhill
until others come—if they come—when the weather turns. And their own
foraging parties have been encountering, with disturbing frequency, horsed
Anglcyn fighters with murderous vengeance in their eyes and hands, emerging
from some base the Erlings cannot find in this too-wide, forested, hostile
countryside. It is one thing to beat a royal army in a field, another to hold
what you claim. The
mood on the isle is changing. Spring can do that, quickening season. They have
a routine now, shelter, birdsong, greater numbers each day. Amid
all this, those of the Beortferth leaders not taking parties out from the fens
are . . . learning how to read. It is
a direct order of the king's, an obsession. An idea he has about the kingdom he
would make. Aeldred himself, stealing time, labours at a rough-hewn wooden
table at a translation into Anglcyn of the single, charred Rhodian text someone
found amid the ruins of a chapel west and south of them. Burgred has not been
shy about teasing the king about this task. It is entirely uncertain, he
maintains, what ultimate good it will be to have a copy in their own tongue of
a classical text on the treatment of cataracts. The
consolations of learning, the king replies, airily enough, are profound, in and
of themselves. He swears a good deal, however, as he works, not seeming
especially consoled. It is a source of amusement to many of them, though not
necessarily to those engaged, at a given moment, in sounding out their letters
like children under the cleric's irritable instruction. Among
the new recruits making their way late in winter, through the fens to
Beortferth was a lean grey man claiming training in leechcraft. He has bled the
king by cup and blade, achieving little, if anything. There is also a woman
with them now, old, stooped like a hoop—and so safe among so many restless men. She
has wandered the marshes, gathered herbs (spikemarrow, wortfen), and spoken a
charm into them—when the pinch-mouthed cleric was not nearby to mutter of
heathenish magics—and has applied these, pounded into a green paste, to the
king's forehead and chest when his fever takes him. This,
too, as best Osbert can judge, does nothing beyond causing angry-looking
reddish weals. When Aeldred burns and shivers Osbert will take him in his arms
and whisper, endlessly, of summer sunlight and tended fields of rye, of
well-built town walls and even of learned men discoursing upon eye diseases and
philosophy, and the Erling wolves beaten back and back and away, oversea. In
the mornings, white and weak, but lucid, Aeldred remembers none of this. The
nights are harder, he says more than once, for his friend. Osbert denies that.
Of course he denies it. He leads raiding parties in search of game, and
northmen. He practises his letters with the cleric. And
then one day, the ice gone, birds around and above them, Aeldred son of
Gademar, who was the son of Athelbert, sends twenty men out in pairs, riding in
different directions, each pair with the image of a sword carved upon a block
of wood. Change
is upon them, with the change of season. The gambler's throw of a kingdom's
dice. If something is to happen it must be before the dragon-ships set sail
from the east to cross the sea for these shores. The king on his isle in the
marsh summons all that is left of the fyrd, and all other men, the host
of the Anglcyn, to meet him on the next night of the blue full moon (spirits'
moon, when the dead wake) at Ecbert's Stone, not far from Camburn Field. Not
far at all from Raedhill.
Osbert
and Burgred, comparing in whispers, have judged their number at a little under
eight hundred souls, the summoned men of the west. They have reported as much
to the king. There are more, in honesty, than any of them expected. Fewer than
they need. When
has any Anglcyn army had the men it needed against an Erling force? They are
aware, by starlight, of risk and limitation, not indifferent to these things,
but hardly affected by them. The
sun has not yet risen; it is dark and still here at the wood's edge. A clear
night, little wind. This is a forest once said to be haunted by spirits,
faeries, the presence of the dead. Not an inappropriate place to gather.
Aeldred steps forward, a shadow against the last stars. "We
will do the invocation now," he says, "then move before light, to
come upon them the sooner. We will pass in darkness, to end the darkness."
That phrase, among many, will be remembered, recorded. There
is an element of transgression in doing the god's rites before his sun rises,
but no man there demurs. Aeldred, his clerics beside him (three of them now),
leads that host in morning prayer before the morning comes. May we always be
found in the Light. He
rises, they move out, before ever the sun strikes the Stone. Some horsed,
mostly on foot, a wide array of weapons and experience. You could call them a
rabble if you wanted. But it is a rabble with a king in front of it, and a
knowledge that their world may turn on today's unfolding. There
is an Erling force south-east of them, having come out from Raedhill at the
(deliberately offered) rumour of a band of Anglcyn nearby, possibly led by
Gademar's last son, the one who could still dare call himself king of these
fields and forests, this land the northmen have claimed. Ingemar could not but
respond to this bait. Aeldred
rides at the front, his two friends and thegns on either side. The king turns
to look back on his people who have gathered here during the dark of a blue
moon night. He
smiles, though only those nearest can see this. Easy in the saddle, unhelmed,
long brown hair, blue eyes (his slain father's eyes), the light, clear voice
carrying when he speaks. "It
begins now, in Jad's holy name," he says. "Every man here, whatever
his birth, will be known for the whole of his life as having been at Ecbert's
Stone. Come with me, my darlings, to be wrapped in glory."
It is
glorious, in the event: as told by a myriad of chroniclers, sung so often
(and variously), woven into legend, or into tapestries hung on stone walls,
warming winter rooms. Osbert will live to hear his exploits of the day
celebrated—and unrecognizable. He is
at the king's side when they leave the wood and move south towards Camburn
where their outliers have reported the Erlings camped by a field they know.
Burgred, at Aeldred's command, takes one hundred and fifty men east, along the
black line of the trees, to angle south as well, between Camburn and the walls
of Raedhill. The
Erlings are not yet awakened under the raven banners, are not yet ready for a
day's promised hunting of an Anglcyn band when that band—and rather more than
that—appear from the north, moving at speed. The
northmen have their watchmen, of course, and some brief warning. They are not,
by any measure, cowards, and the numbers are near to even. Amid screamed orders
they scramble into armour, seizing hammers and spears and axes; their leaders
have swords. There is, however, much to the elements of surprise and speed in
any fight, and disarray can turn a battle before it starts, unless leaders can
master it. They
have not expected even numbers today, or the ferocity of the charge that roars
into their camp as the first hues of sunlight appear in the east. The northmen
form urgent ranks, stand, buckle, hold again for a time. But only for a time. There
is sometimes knowledge that can subvert men's ardour on a battlefield: the
Erlings here in Esferth know that they have walls not far away at Raedhill,
behind which they can shelter, deal with these Anglcyn at leisure, without the
chaos caused by this heavy, venomous, pre-dawn assault. Responding
to the unspoken, their leaders order a pull-back. Not an entirely wrong course.
There is some distance to cover to Ingemar and the others back in Raedhill, but
in the past the Anglcyn have been content to force the northmen to retreat.
After which they would regroup to consider a next step. There is reason,
therefore, to believe it will be so again as the sun comes up this bright
spring morning, lighting meadow flowers and young grass. Then
there is reason to understand that they are wrong. The men of the Anglcyn are
not stopping to debate among themselves, to consider options and alternatives.
They are following hard, some of them on horse, some with bows. The withdrawal
becomes, in the way of these things, all too often, a flat-out retreat. And
as the Erling escape from their abandoned camp and position becomes a clamorous
rout, a flight east towards distant Raedhill, just about at the moment when
fear will invest the body and soul of even a brave man, the northmen discover
another host of the Anglcyn between them and the walls of safety—and the world,
or that small corner of it, changes. Amid
cries of Aeldred and Jad, withdrawal, retreat, rout turn into slaughter,
very near the same wet, wintry plain that saw King Gademar blood-eagled as a
winter's wet, grey twilight came down. Less
than half a year ago. The time it took Aeldred of Esferth to evolve from a
fleeing refugee hiding in a swineherd's bed, shivering with fever, to a king in
the field, avenging his father and brother, cutting the northmen to pieces by
the blood-soaked field that saw their own defeat. They
even take the raven banner, which has never happened in these lands before.
They kill Erlings all the way to the walls of Raedhill and make camp there at
sunset, and there they pray with lifted voices at the long day's end. In
the morning the northmen send out emissaries, to offer hostages and sue for
peace.
In
the midst of the last of the seven days and nights of feasting in Raedhill that
accompany King Aeldred's conversion of the Erling leader, Ingemar Svidrirson,
into the most holy faith of Jad of the Sun, Burgred of Denferth, the king's
lifelong companion, finds that the black bile rising in his gorge is simply too
strong. He
leaves the banquet hall, walks alone into the beclouded night past the spearmen
on guard, away from the spill of torchlight in the hall and the sounds of
revelry, seeking a darkness to equal the one he finds within. He
hawks and spits into the street, trying to dispel the clawing sickness he
feels, which has nothing to do with too much ale or food and is, instead, about
the desire to commit murder and the need to refrain. The
noise is behind him now and he wants it there. He walks towards the town gates,
away from the feasting hall, finds himself in a muddy laneway. Leans against a
wooden wall there—a stable, from the sounds within—and draws a deep breath of
the night air. Looks up at the stars showing through rents in the swift clouds.
Aeldred told him once that there are those in distant lands who worship them.
So many ways for men to fall into error, he thinks. He
hears a cough, turns his head quickly. There is no danger here now, except,
perhaps, to their souls because of what is happening in the banquet hall. He
expects it to be a woman. There are many of them about, with all the soldiers
in Raedhill. There's money to be made by night, in rooms with a pallet, or even
in the lanes. It
isn't a woman, following. "Windy
out here. I brought us a flask," Osbert says mildly, leaning back against
the stable wall beside him. "The Raedhill brewhouse is run by a widow, it
seems. Learned all her husband had to teach. King's asked her to join his
court, brew for us. I approve." Burgred
doesn't want another drink but takes the flask. He has known Osbert as long as he's
known Aeldred, which is to say most of his life. The ale's strong and clean.
"Best ale I ever had was made by women," he murmurs. "Religious
house in the north, by Blencairn." "Never
been there," Osbert says. "Hold the flask a bit." He turns
around. Burgred hears his friend urinating against the wall. Absently he
drinks, looking up at the sky again. Blue moon over west, waning towards a
crescent above the gates. It was full the night they won the second battle of
Camburn Field and camped before these walls: not even a fourteen-night ago.
They had Ingemar and his remnant penned in here like sheep, and a dead,
unspeakably mutilated king to avenge. Burgred still wants to kill, an urge
deeper than desire. Instead
they are feasting that same Erling remnant, offering them gifts and safe
passage east across the rivers to that part of these Anglcyn lands that has
long been given over to the northmen. "He
doesn't think like we do," Osbert murmurs, as if reading his mind. He
takes back the flask. "Aeldred?" "No,
the miller upstream. Of course Aeldred. You understand that Ingemar knelt
before him, kissed his foot in homage, swore fealty, accepted Jad." Burgred
swears, viciously. "Carved his father open from the back, cracked his ribs
apart and draped his lungs out on his shoulders. Yes, I know all these
things." His hands are fists, just saying it. The
other man is silent for a time. The wind carries the sounds of the banquet to
them. Someone is singing. Osbert sighs. "We were less than seven hundred
men at the gates. They had two hundred left inside, and the season turning,
which could mean dragon-ships, soon. We had no easy way of smashing into a walled,
defended town. One day we might, but not now. My friend, you know all these things,
too." "So
instead of starving them out, we feast, and honour them?" "We
feast, and honour the god and their coming to his light." Burgred
swears again. "You speak that way, but in your heart you feel as I do. I
know it. You want the dead avenged." Sounds
carry to them from the distant hall. "I believe," says the other man,
"that it is tearing him apart to do this, and he is doing it nonetheless.
Be glad you are not a king." Burgred
looks over at him, the face hard to see in darkness. He sighs. "And these
foul Erlings will stay with Jad? You really think so?" "I
have no idea. Some of them have, before. Here's what I do think: the world will
know that Ingemar Svidrirson, who wanted to be a king here, has knelt and sworn
loyalty to Aeldred of Esferth and accepted a sun disk and royal gifts from him,
and will leave him eight hostages, including two sons—and we gave them nothing
in exchange. Nothing. And I know that has never happened since first the
Erlings came to these shores." "You
call the gifts nothing? Did you see the horses?" "I
saw them. They are the gifts of a great lord to a lesser. They will be seen as
such. Jad did defeat Ingavin here, and took the raven banners, too. My friend,
come back and drink with me. We have won something important here, and it is
just a beginning." Burgred
shakes his head. There is still pain, a congestion in his chest. "I would
. . . follow him under the world to battle demons. He knows that. But ..." "But
not if he makes peace with the demons?" Burgred
feels the heaviness, a weight like stones. "It was . . . easier on the
isle, in Beortferth. We knew what we had to do." "Aeldred
still knows. Sometimes . . . with power . . . you do things that fall against
your heart." "I
may not be suited for power, then." "You
have it, my dear. You will have to learn. Unless you leave us. Will you leave
us?" The
wind dies down, faint music fades. They hear horses through the stable wall. "You
know I won't," Burgred says, finally. "He knows I won't." "We
must trust him," Osbert says, softly. "If we can keep him healthy and
alive for long enough, they will not take us again. We will leave a kingdom to
our children, one they can defend." Burgred
looks at him. Osbert is a shadow in the blackness of the laneway, and a voice
forever known. Burgred sighs again, from the heart. "And they will learn
how to read Merovius on cataracts, in Trakesian, or he'll slaughter them
all." There
is a pause, and then Osbert's laughter in the darkness, rich as southern wine. +
Fevers
were tertian, quartan, daily, or hectic. They stemmed—almost always—from
imbalances in the four humours, the alignment of coldness, heat, moisture,
dryness in all men. (There were other concerns peculiar to women, each month,
or when they gave birth.) The
fevered could be bled, with knife and cup, with leeches, in locations and in
degrees according to the teachings followed by the physician. Sometimes the
patient died of this. Death walked near to the living at all times. It was
known. It was generally considered that a good physician was one who didn't
kill you sooner than whatever afflicted you would have. Those
suffering from acute fever might be comforted (or not) by prayer, eased by
poultices, wet sheets, warm bodies next to them, music, or silence. They were
treated with hydromel and oxymel (and physicians had divergent views as to
which sort of honey was best, in the mixing), or with aconite and wild celery
when it was thought that witchery lay at the root of their burning. Lemon balm
and vervain and willow would be compounded, or buckthorn to purge them inside,
sometimes violently. Coltsfoot and fenugreek, sage and wormwood, betony,
fennel, hock and melilot were all said to be efficacious, at times. Valerian
might help a sufferer sleep, easing pain. Fingernails
could be clipped and buried under an ash tree by blue moon's light, though not,
of course, if any cleric were about to know of it. And that same caution
applied to remedies involving gemstones and invocations in the night wood,
though it would be foolish to deny that these took place all over the kingdom
of the Anglcyn. At
one time or another, all of these remedies and more had been brought to bear in
the matter of King Aeldred's fevers, whether they were countenanced by the king
and his clergy or not. None
of them were able to reorder the marred world in such a way as to end the fires
that still seized him some nights, so many long years after that first one had.
"Why
is it dark?" It
was always predictable how the king would emerge, but, more recently, not how
long it would take. What was certain was that he would be pale, weak-voiced,
lucid, precise, and angry. Osbert
had been dozing on the pallet they always made for him. He woke to the voice. "It
is the middle of the night, my lord. Welcome back." "I
lost a whole day this time? Dear Jad. I haven't got days to lose!" Aeldred
was never profane, but the fury was manifest. "I
dealt with the reports as they came. Both new burhs on the coast are on
time, nearly complete, fully manned. The shipyard is at work. Be easy." "What
else?" Aeldred was not being easy. "The
taxation officers went out this morning." "The
tribute from Erlond—Svidrirson's? What word?" "Not
yet, but . . . promised." It was never wise to be less than direct with
the king when he returned from wherever the fever took him. "Promised?
How?" "A
messenger rode in after midday. The young one, Ingemar's son." Aeldred
scowled. "He only sends the boy when the tribute's late. Where is
he?" "Housed
properly, asleep, I'd imagine. It is late. Be at ease, my lord. Athelbert
received him formally in your stead, with his brother." "On
what excuse for my not being there?" Osbert
hesitated. "Your fevers are . . . known, my lord." The
king scowled again. "And where was Burgred, come to think of it?" Osbert
cleared his throat. "We had rumour of a ship sighted. He went with some of
the fyrd to find out more." "A
ship? Erling?" Osbert
nodded. "Or ships." Aeldred
closed his eyes. "That makes little sense." There was a silence.
"You have been beside me all the time, of course." "And
others. Your daughters were here tonight. Your lady wife sat with you before
going to chapel to pray for your health. She will be relieved to hear you are
well again." "Of
course she will." That
had nuances. Most of what Aeldred said had layers, and Osbert knew a great deal
about the royal marriage. The
king lay still on his pillow, eyes shut. After a moment, he said, "But you
never left, did you?" "I
. . . went to the audience chamber to take the reports." Aeldred
opened his eyes, turned his head slightly to look at the other man. After a
silence, he said, "Would you have had a better life had I driven you away,
do you think?" "I
find that hard to imagine, my lord. The better life and being driven
away." Aeldred
shook his head a little. "You might walk properly, at least." Osbert
brought a hand down to his marred leg. "A small price. We live a life of
battles." Aeldred
was looking at him. "I shall answer for you before the god one day,"
he said. "And
I shall speak in your defence. You were right, my lord, Burgred and I were
wrong. Today is proof, the boy coming, the tribute promised again. Ingemar has
kept his oath. It let us do what needed to be done." "And
here you are, unmarried, without kin or heir, on one leg, awake all night by
the side of the man who—" "Who
is king of the Anglcyn under Jad, and has kept us alive and together as a
people. We make our choices, my lord. And marriage is not for every man. I have
not lacked for companionship." "And
heirs?" Osbert
shrugged. "I'll leave my own name, linked—if the god allows—with yours, in
the shaping of this land. I have nephews for my own properties." They had
had this conversation before. Aeldred
shook his head again. There was more grey in his beard of late, Osbert saw. It
showed in the lamplight, as did the circles under his eyes, which were always
there after fever. "And I am, as ever when this passes, speaking to you as
a servant." "I
am a servant, my lord." Aeldred
smiled wanly. "Shall I say something profane to that?" "I
would be greatly alarmed." Osbert returned the smile. The
king stretched, rubbed at his face, sat up in the bed. "I surrender. And I
believe I will eat. Would you also send for . . . would you ask my lady wife to
come to me?" "It
is the middle of the night, my lord." "You
said that already." Aeldred's
gaze was mild but could not be misconstrued. Osbert cleared his throat. "I
will have someone send—" "Ask." "Ask
for her." "Would
you be so good as to do it yourself? It is the middle of the night." A
small, ironic movement of the mouth. The king was back among them, there was no
doubting it. Osbert bowed, took his cane, and went out.
He
looked at his hands in the lamplight after Osbert left. Steady enough. He
flexed his fingers. Could smell his own sweat in the bedsheets. A night and a
day and this much of another night. More time than he had to yield, the grave
closer every day. These fevers were a kind of dying. He felt light-headed now,
as always. That was understandable. Also physically aroused, as always, though
there was no easy way to explain that. The body's return to itself? The
body was a gift of Jad, a housing in this world for the mind and immortal soul,
therefore to be honoured and attended to—though not, on the other hand,
over-loved, because that was also a transgression. Men
were shaped, according to the liturgy, in a distant image of the god's own
most-chosen form, of all those infinite ones he could assume. Jad was rendered
by artists in his mortal guise—whether golden and glorious as the sun, or
dark-bearded and careworn—in wood carving, fresco, ivory, marble, bronze, on
parchment, in gold, in mosaic on domes or chapel walls. This truth (Livrenne of
Mesangues had argued in his Commentaries) only added to the deference
properly due to the physical form of man—opening the door to a clerical debate,
acrid at times, as to the implications for the form and status of woman. There
had been a period several hundred years ago when such visual renderings of the
god had been interdicted by the High Patriarch in Rhodias, under pressure from
Sarantium. That particular heresy was now a thing of the past. Aeldred
thought, often, about the works eradicated during that time. He'd been very
young when he'd made the journey over sea and land and mountain pass to Rhodias
with his father. He remembered some of the holy art they'd seen but also
(having been a particular sort of child) those places in sanctuary and palace
where the evidence of smashed or painted-over works could be observed. Waiting
now in the lamplit dark of a late-summer night for his wife to come, that he
might undress her and make love, the king found himself musing—not for the
first time—on the people of the south: people so ancient, so long established,
that they had works of art that had been destroyed hundreds of years
before these northlands even had towns or walls worthy of the name, let alone a
sanctuary of the god that deserved to be called as much. And
then, tracking that thought, you could walk even further back, to the Rhodians
of the era before Jad came, who had walked in these lands too, building their
walls and cities and arches and temples to pagan gods. Mostly rubble now, since
the long retreat, but still reminders of . . . unattainable glory. All around
them here, in this harsh near-wilderness that he was pleased to call a kingdom
under Jad. You could
be a proper child of the god, virtuous and devout, even in a wilderness.
This was taught, and he knew it in his heart. Indeed, many of the most pious
clerics had deliberately withdrawn from those same jaded southern civilizations
in Batiara, in Sarantium, to seek the essence of Jad in passionate solitude. Aeldred
wasn't a man like one of those. He knew what he'd found in Rhodias, however
ruined it was, and in the lesser Batiaran cities all the way down through the
peninsula (Padrino, Varena, Baiana—music in the names). The
king of the Anglcyn would not have denied that his soul (housed in a body that
wracked and betrayed him so often) had been marked from childhood during that
long-ago journey through the intricate seductions of the south. He
was king of a precarious, dispersed, unlettered people in a winter-shaped,
beleaguered land, and he wanted to be more. He wanted them to be more,
his Anglcyn of this island. And given three generations of peace, he thought it
possible. He had made decisions, for more than twenty-five years, denying his
heart and soul sometimes, with that in mind. He would answer to Jad for all of
it, not far in the future now. And
he didn't think three generations would be allowed them. Not
in these northern lands, this boneyard of war. He lived his life, fighting
through impediments, including these fevers, in defiance of that bitter
thought, as if to will it not to be so, envisaging the god, in his
chariot under the world, battling through evils every single night, to bring
back the sun to the world he had made.
Elswith
came before his meal arrived, which was unexpected. She entered without
knocking, closed the door behind her, moved forward into lamplight. "You
are recovered, by the god's grace?" He
nodded, looking at her. His wife was a large woman, big-boned, as her warrior
father had been, heavier now than when she'd come to marry him—but age and
eight confinements could do that to a woman. Her hair was as fair as it had
been, though, and unbound now—she had been asleep, after all. She wore a dark
green night robe, fastened all the way up the front, a sun disk (always) about
her neck, pillowed upon the robe between heavy breasts. No rings, no other
adornment. Adornments were a vanity, to be shunned. She
had been asking, for years now, to be released from their marriage and this
worldly life, to withdraw to a religious house, become one of the Daughters of
Jad, live out her days in holiness, praying for her soul, and his. He
didn't want her to go. "Thank
you for coming," he said. "You
sent," she said. "I
told Osbert to say—" "He
did." Her
expression was austere but not unfriendly. They weren't unfriendly with
each other, though both knew that was the talk. She
had not moved from where she'd stopped to look down at him in the bed. He
remembered his first sight of her, all those years ago. Tall, fair-haired,
well-made woman, not yet eighteen when they'd brought her south. He hadn't been
much older than that, a year from the battles of Camburn, swift to wed because
he needed heirs. There had been a time when they were both young. It seemed,
occasionally, a disconcerting recollection. "They
are bringing a meal," he said. "I
heard, outside. I told them to wait until I left." From any other woman,
that might have been innuendo, invitation. Elswith didn't smile. He
was aroused, even so, even after all these years. "Will you come to
me?" he asked. Made it a request. "I
have," she murmured dryly, but stepped forward nonetheless, a virtuous,
honourable woman, keeping a compact—but wanting with all her heart to leave
him, leave all of them behind. Had her reasons. She
stood by the bed, the light behind her now. Aeldred sat up, his pulse racing.
All these years. She wore no perfume, of course, but he knew the scent of her
body and that excited him. "You
are all right?" she asked. "You
know I am," he said, and began unfastening the front of her robe. Her
full, heavy breasts swung free, the disk between them. He looked, and then he
touched her. "Are
my hands cold?" She
shook her head. Her eyes were closed, he saw. The king watched her draw a slow
breath as his hands moved. It was not lack of pleasure in this, he knew, with a
measure of satisfaction. It was piety, conviction, fear for their souls, a
yearning towards the god. He
didn't want her to leave. His own piety: he had married this woman, sired
children with her, lived through the tentative reshaping of a realm. Wartime,
peacetime, winter, drought. Could not have claimed there was a fire that burned
between them, but there was life, a history. He didn't want another woman in
his bed. He
slipped the robe past her ample hips, drew his wife down beside him and then
beneath. They made love whenever he recovered from his sickness—and only on
those days or nights. A private arrangement, balancing needs. The body and the
soul. After,
unclothed beside each other, he looked at the marks of red flushing her very
white skin and knew that she would--again—be feeling guilt for her own
pleasure. The body housed the soul, for some; imprisoned it, for others. The
teachings varied; always had. He
drew a breath. "When Judit is married," he said, very softly, a hand
on her thigh. "What?" "I
will release you." He
felt her involuntary movement. She looked quickly at him, then closed her eyes
tightly. Had not expected this. Neither had he, in truth. A moment later, he
saw the tears on her cheeks. "Thank
you, my lord," she said, a catch in her throat. "Aeldred, I pray for
you always, to holy Jad. For mercy and forgiveness." "I
know," said the king. She
was weeping, silently, beside him, tears spilling, hands gripping her golden
disk. "Always. For you, your soul. And the children." "I
know," he said again. Had a
sudden, oddly vivid image of visiting one day at her retreat, Elswith garbed in
yellow, a holy woman among others. The two of them old, walking slowly in a
quiet place. Perhaps, he thought, she was to be his example, and a withdrawal
to the god was his own proper course before the end came and brought him either
light or dark through the spaces of forever. Perhaps
before the end. Not yet. He knew his sins, they burned in him, but he was in
this offered world, and of it, and still carried a dream. In
time, the king and queen of the Anglcyn rose from the royal bed and dressed
themselves. Food was sent for and brought in. She kept him company at table
while he ate and drank, ravenous, as always, after recovery. The body's
appetites. In and of the world. They
slept, later, in their separate bedchambers, parting with the formal kiss of
the god on cheeks and brow. Dawn came not long after, arriving in summer
mildness, ushering a bright day, enormous with implication. SEVEN Hakon
Ingemarson, by ten years his father's youngest son, enjoyed being called upon
to ride west across three rivers and the vague border as an emissary to King
Aeldred's court at Esferth (or wherever else it might be) from their own
settlements in the southern part of Erlond. Aside
from the pleasure he took in this very adult responsibility, he found the
Anglcyn royal children exhilarating, and was infatuated with the younger
daughter. He
was aware that his father was only disposed to send him west when their pledged
payments were late, or about to be, taking shrewd advantage of evidence of
friendship among the younger generation. He also knew that those at the Anglcyn
court were conscious of this, and amused by it. An
ongoing joke, started by Gareth, the younger son, was that if Hakon ever did
arrive with the annual tribute, they'd have Kendra sleep with him. Hakon always
struggled not to flush, hearing this. Kendra, predictably, ignored it each
time, not even bothering with the withering glance her older sister had
perfected. Hakon did ask his father to allow him to lead the actual tribute
west, when it eventually went, but Ingemar reserved that journey for others,
the money well guarded, saving Hakon for explaining—as best he could—their
too-frequent delays. They
were sprawled in the summer grass south of Esferth town, near the river, out of
sight of the wooden walls. Had eaten here out of doors, four of them, and were
idling in late-morning sunshine before returning to town to watch the
preparations for the fair continue. No
one spoke. Birdsong from the beech and oak woods to the west across the stream
and the rising and falling drone of bees among the meadow flowers were the only
sounds. It was warm in the sun, sleep-inducing. But Hakon, reclining on one
elbow, was too aware of Kendra beside him. Her golden hair kept coming free of
her hat as she concentrated on interweaving grasses into something or other.
Athelbert, king's heir of the Anglcyn, lay beyond his sister, on his back, his
own soft cap covering his face. Gareth was reading, of course. He wasn't
supposed to take parchments out of the city, but he did. Hakon,
lazily drifting in the light, became belatedly aware that he could be accused
of staring at Kendra, and probably would be with Athelbert around. He turned
away, abruptly self-conscious. And sat up quickly. "Jad
of the Thunder!" he exclaimed. His father's oath. Not an invocation anyone
but Erlings new to the sun god were likely to use. Gareth
snorted but didn't look up from his manuscript. Kendra did, at least, glance at
where Hakon was looking, briefly raised both eyebrows, and turned calmly back
to her whatever-it-was-going-to-be. "What?"
Athelbert said, evidently awake but not moving, or shifting the hat that
covered his eyes. "Judit,"
said Kendra. "She's angry." Athelbert
chuckled. "Aha! I know she is." "You're
in trouble," Kendra murmured, placidly plaiting. "Oh, probably,"
said her older brother, comfortably sprawled in deep grass. Hakon,
wide-eyed, cleared his throat. The approaching figure, moving with grim purpose
through the summer meadow, was quite close now. In fact .. . "She,
ah, has a sword," he ventured, since no one else seemed to be saying it. Gareth
did glance up at that, and then grinned with anticipation as his older sister
came towards them. Kendra merely shrugged. On the other hand, Prince Athelbert,
son of Aeldred, heir to the throne, heard Hakon's words, and moved. Extremely
swiftly, in point of fact. As a
consequence, the point of the equally swift sword, which would probably have
plunged into the earth between his spread legs a little below his groin,
stabbed into grass and soil just behind his desperately rolling form. Hakon
closed his eyes for an excruciating moment. An involuntary, protective hand
went below his own waist. Couldn't help it. He looked again, saw that Gareth
had done the very same thing, and was wincing now, biting his lip. No longer
amused. It
wasn't entirely certain the blade, thrust by someone moving fast on uneven
ground, would have missed impaling the older prince in an appalling location. Athelbert
rolled two or three more times, and scrambled to his feet, white as a spirit,
cap gone, eyes agape. "Are
you crazed?" he screamed. His
sister regarded him, breathing hard, her auburn hair seeming afire in the
sunlight, entirely free of any decent restraint. Restraint
was not the word for her at all. She looked murderous. Judit
jerked the sword free of the earth, levelled it, stepped forward. Hakon thought
it wisest to scramble aside. Athelbert withdrew rather farther than that. "Judit
..." he began. She
stopped, held up an imperious hand. A
silence in the meadow. Gareth had set down his reading, Kendra her
grass-plaiting. Their
red-headed sister said, controlling her breathing with an effort, "I sat
up with father, beside Osbert, for part of last night." "I
know," said Athelbert quickly. "It was a devout, devoted—"
"He is well now. He wishes to see Hakon Ingemarson today." "The
god be thanked for mercy," Athelbert said piously, still very white. Hakon
saw Judit glance at him. Ducked his head in an awkward half-bow. Said nothing.
He didn't trust his voice. "I
went," said the older daughter of Aeldred the king and his royal wife,
Elswith, "back to my own chambers in the middle of the night." She
paused. Hakon heard the birds, over by the woods. "It was dark,"
Judit added. Her self-control, Hakon judged, was precarious. Among
other things, the sword was quivering in her hand. Athelbert backed up another
small step. Had probably seen the same thing. "My
women were asleep," his sister said. "I did not wake them." She
glanced to one side, regarded Athelbert's bright red cap lying in the grass.
Went over to it. Pierced it with the sword, used her free hand to tear the cap
raggedly in two along the blade, dropped it back into the grass. A butterfly
flitted down, alighted on one fragment, flew away. "I
undressed and went to bed," Judit went on. She paused. Levelled the blade
at her brother again. "Jad rot your eyes and heart, Athelbert, there was a
dead man's skull in my bed, with the mud still on it!" "And
a rose!" her brother added hastily, backing up again. "He had a rose!
In his mouth!" "I
did not," Judit snarled through gritted teeth, "observe that detail
until after I had screamed and awakened all three of my women and a guard
outside!" "Most
skulls," said Gareth thoughtfully, from where he sat, "belong to dead
people. You didn't actually have to say that it was a—" He
stopped, swallowed, as his sister's lethal, green-eyed gaze fell upon him.
"Do not even think of being amusing. Were you," she asked, in
a voice suddenly so quiet it was frightening, "in any possible way, little
brother, a part of this?" "He
wasn't!" said Athelbert quickly, before Gareth could reply. And then made
the mistake of essaying a placating smile and gesture. "Good,"
said Judit. "I need only kill you." Kendra
held up her grass plaiting. "Tie him up with this, first?" she
murmured. "Be
careful, sister," Judit said. "Why did you not awaken when I
screamed?" "I'm
used to it?" Kendra said mildly. Gareth
snorted. Unwisely. Tried, urgently, to turn it into a cough. Judit took a step
towards both of them. "I'm
a . . . deep sleeper?" Kendra amended hastily. "And perhaps your
courage is such that what seemed a piercing scream to you was really
only—" "I
tore my throat raw," her sister said flatly. "It was the middle of
the Jad-cursed night. I was exhausted. I lay down upon a cold, hard, muddy
skull in my bed. I believe," she added, "the teeth bit me." Hearing
that last, ruminative observation, Hakon suddenly found himself in extreme
difficulty. He looked over at Gareth and took comfort in what he saw: the
thrashing desperation of the younger prince's suppressed hilarity. Gareth was
weeping with the effort of trying not to howl. Hakon found that he was no
longer able to stay upright. He sank to his knees. His shoulders were shaking.
He felt his nose beginning to run. Whimpering sounds came from his mouth. "Oh,
my, look at those two," said Kendra in a pitying voice. "All
right, this is what we will do. Judit, put down the sword." She was
displaying, Hakon thought, what was, under the circumstances, an otherworldy
composure. "Athelbert, stay exactly where you are. Close your eyes,
hands at your sides. That was a craven, despicable, unworthy, extremely amusing
thing to do and you must pay a price or Judit will make life intolerable for
all of us and I don't feel like suffering for you. Judit, go and hit him as
hard as you can, but not with the sword." "You
are judge here, little sister?" Judit said icily. "Someone
has to be. Gareth and Hakon are peeing in their hose," Kendra said.
"Father would be displeased if you killed his heir and you'd probably
regret it afterwards. A little." Hakon
wiped at his nose. These things did not happen back home. Gareth was
flat on his back, making strangled noises. "Teeth!" Hakon
thought he heard him moan. Judit
looked at him, then at Kendra, and finally over at Athelbert. After a long
moment, she nodded her head, once. "Do
it, fool," Kendra said promptly to her older brother. Athelbert
swallowed again. "She needs to drop the sword first," he said,
cautiously. He still looked ready to flee. "She
will. Judit?" Judit
dropped the sword. There remained an entirely forbid-ding bleakness to her
narrowed gaze. She pushed windblown hair back from her face. Her tunic was
green, belted with leather above the riding trousers she liked to wear. She
looked, Hakon thought suddenly, like Nikar the Huntress, swordbride of Thunir,
whom, of course, his family no longer worshipped at all, having come from
bloody sacrifices to the . . . less violent faith of Jad. Athelbert
took a breath, managed an almost indifferent shrug. He closed his eyes and
spread his legs, braced to absorb a blow. Gareth managed to lever himself into
a sitting position to watch. He wiped at his eyes with the back of one hand.
Kendra had an odd look to her ordinarily calm, fair features. Judit,
who would one day be saluted the length of the isle and across the seas as the
Lady of Rheden, be honoured through generations for courage, and mourned in
poets' laments long after the alignments and borders of the world had changed
and changed again, walked across the sunlit morning grass, not breaking stride,
and kicked her brother with a booted foot, hard (very hard) up between the legs
where the sword had almost gone. Athelbert
made a clogged, whistling sound and crumpled to the ground, clutching at
himself. Judit
gazed down at him for only a brief moment. Then she turned. Her eyes met
Hakon's. She smiled at him, regal, gracious and at ease in a summer-bright
meadow. "Did you four drink all the wine?" she asked, sweetly.
"I have a sudden thirst, for some reason." It
was while Hakon was kneeling, hastily filling a cup for her, splashing the
wine, that they saw the Cyngael come walking up from the south, on the other
side of the stream. Four
men and a dog. They stopped, looking towards the royal party on the grass.
Athelbert was lying very still, eyes squeezed shut, breathing thinly, both
hands between his legs. Looking across the river at the dog, Hakon suddenly
shivered as if chilled. He set down Judit's cup, without handing it to her, and
stood up. When
your hair rose like this, the old tale was that a goose was walking over the
ground where your bones would lie. He looked over at Kendra (he was always
doing that) and saw that she was standing very still, gazing across the river,
a curious expression on her face. Hakon wondered if she, too, was sensing a
strangeness about the animal, if this awareness might even be something the two
of them shared. You
might have called the wolfhound beside the youngest of the four men a dark
grey, if you'd wanted to. Or you could have said it was black, trees behind it,
sun briefly in cloud, the birds momentarily silenced by that.
Ceinion
of Llywerth squinted, looking east into sunlight. Then a cloud passed before
the sun and he saw Aeldred's older daughter recognize him first and, smiling
with swift, vivid pleasure, come quickly towards them across the grass. He made
his way through the stream, which was cool, waist-deep here, that she might not
have to enter the water herself. He knew Judit; she would have waded in. On the
riverbank, she came up to him and knelt. With
genuine happiness he made the sign of the disk over her red hair and offered no
comment at all on its unbound disarray. Judit, he had told her father the last
time he'd been here, ought to have been a Cyngael woman, so fiercely did she
shine. "She
doesn't shine," Aeldred had murmured wryly. "She burns." Looking
beyond her, he saw the younger sister and brother, and what appeared to be an
Erling, and belatedly noted the crumpled figure of Aeldred's heir in the grass.
He blinked. "Child, what happened here?" he asked. "Athelbert .
. . ?" His
companions had crossed the stream now, behind him. Judit looked up, still
kneeling, her face all calm serenity. "We were at play. He took a fall. I
am certain he will be all right, my lord. Eventually." She smiled. Even
as she was speaking, Alun ab Owyn, the dog at his heels, walked over towards
Aeldred's other children, before Ceinion had had a chance to introduce them
formally. The high cleric knew a brief but unmistakable moment of apprehension. Owyn's
son, brought east on impulse and instinct, had not been an easy companion on
the journey to the Anglcyn lands. There was no reason to believe he would
become one now that they'd arrived. A blow had fallen on him earlier this year,
almost as brutal as the one that had killed his brother. He had been direly
wounded within, riding home to tell his father and mother that their first-born
son and heir had been slain and was buried in Arberthi soil, then drifting
through a summer of blank, aimless days. There had been no healing for Owyn's
son. Not yet. He
had agreed, reluctantly and under pressure from his father, to be an escort to
the Anglcyn court for the high cleric on the path between the sea and the dense
forest that lay between the Cyngael and the Anglcyn lands. Ceinion,
watching him surreptitiously as they went, grieved for the living son almost as
much as for the dead. Surviving could be a weight that crushed the soul. He
knew something about that, thought about it every time he visited a grave
overlooking the sea, at home.
Kendra
watched the young Cyngael come over to them, the grey hound beside him. She
knew she ought to go to the cleric, as Judit had, receive his blessing, extend
her own glad greetings. She
found that she could not move, didn't understand, at all. A sense of . . . very
great strangeness. The
Cyngael reached them. She caught her breath. "Jad give you greeting,"
she said. He
went right past her. Not even glancing her way: straight brown hair to his
shoulders, brown eyes. Her own age, she guessed. Not a tall man, trimly made, a
sword at his side. He
knelt beside Athelbert, who lay motionless, curled up like a child, hands still
clutching between his legs. She was near enough, just, to hear her older
brother murmur, eyes closed, "Help me, Cyngael. A small jest. Tell Judit
I'm dead. Hakon will help you." The
Cyngael was still for a moment, then he stood. Looking down at the heir to the
Anglcyn throne, he said, contemptuously, "You have the wrong playmate. I
find nothing amusing about telling someone their brother is dead, and would lie
in torment eternally before I let an Erling ... help me . . . with
anything. You may choose to eat and drink with them, Anglcyn, but some of us
remember blood-eaglings. Tell me, where's your grandfather buried, son of
Aeldred?" Kendra
put a hand to her mouth, her heart thudding. Across the meadow, in morning
light, Judit was standing with Ceinion of Llywerth, out of earshot. They might
have been figures in a holy book, illuminated by clerics with loving care and
piety. Part of a different picture, a different text, not this one. This
one, where they were, was not holy. The lash of the Cyngael words was somehow
the worse for the music in his voice. Athelbert, who was, in fact, considerably
more than simply a jester, opened his eyes and looked up. Hakon
had gone red, as he was inclined to do when distressed. "I think you
insult both Prince Athelbert and myself, and in great ignorance," he said,
impressively enough. "Will you retract, or need I chastise you in Jad's
holy name?" He laid a hand on his sword hilt. Aeldred's
younger daughter was considerably milder of manner than her sister, and was
thought, therefore (though not by her siblings), to be softer. Something
peculiar seemed to be happening to her now, however. A feeling, a sensation within
.. . a presence. She didn't understand it, felt edgy, angry, threatened. A
darkness in the sunlight here, beside it. Fists
clenched at her sides, she walked towards her brother and their longtime friend
and this arrogant Cyngael, whoever he was, and, as the stranger turned at her
approach, she swung up her own booted foot to kick him in the selfsame way
Judit had kicked Athelbert. Without
the same result. This man did not have his eyes closed, and was in the state of
heightened awareness that cold fury and a journey into unknown country can both
instill. "Cafall!
Hold!" he rasped, and in the same moment, as the dog subsided, the
Cyngael twisted deftly to one side and caught Canard's foot as she kicked at
him. He gripped it, waist high. Then he pushed it higher. She
was falling. He wanted her to fall. She
would have, had the other, older man not arrived, moving quickly to support
her. She hadn't heard the cleric coming over. She stayed that way, her boot
gripped by one Cyngael, body held from behind by another. Outraged,
Hakon leaped forward. "You pigs!" he snarled. "Let her go!" The
younger one did so, with pleasing alacrity. Then, less pleasingly, he said,
"Forgive me. The proper behaviour here would be . . . what? To let an
Erling tutor me in courtesy? I was disinclined to cut her lungs out. What does
one do when a woman betrays her lineage in this fashion? Accept the offered
blow?" This
was difficult, as Hakon had no good answer, and even less of a notion why
Kendra had done what she'd done. "I
am entirely happy," the Cyngael went on, in the absurdly beautiful voice
they all seemed to have as a gift, "to kill you if you think there's
honour to defend here." "No!"
Kendra said quickly, in the same moment Ceinion of Llywerth released her elbows
and turned to his companion. "Prince
Alun," he said, in a voice like metal, "you are here as my companion
and guard. I am your charge. Remember that." "And
I will defend you with my life from pagan offal," the younger Cyngael
said. The words were ugly, the tone eerily mild, flat. He doesn't care, Kendra
thought suddenly. He wants to be dead. She had no least idea how she
knew that. Hakon
drew his sword and stepped back, for room. "I am weary of these
words," he said with dignity. "Do what you can, in Jad's name." "No.
Forgive me, both of you, but I forbid this." It
was Athelbert, on his feet, clearly in pain, but doing what needed to be done.
He stumbled between Hakon and the Cyngael, who had not yet drawn his own blade. "Ah.
Wonderful. You are not dead after all," the one who appeared to be named
Alun said, mockingly. "Let's blood-eagle someone in celebration." At
which point, in what might have been the most surprising moment of a profoundly
unsettling encounter, Ceinion of Llywerth stepped forward and hammered a short,
hard, punishing fist into the chest of his young companion. The high cleric of the
Cyngael was not of the soft, insular variety of holy men. The punch knocked the
younger man staggering; he almost fell. "Enough!"
said Ceinion. "In your father's name and mine. Do not make me regret my
love for you." Kendra
registered that last. And the fact that the dog did not even move despite this
attack on his master, and the pain in Ceinion's voice. Her senses seemed
unnaturally heightened, on alert, apprehending some threat. She watched the
young Cyngael straighten, bring a hand slowly to his chest then take it away.
He shook his head, as if to clear it. He
was looking at Ceinion, she saw, ignoring Hakon's blade and Athelbert's
intervention. Judit, uncharacteristically, had kept silent, beside Gareth,
whose watchful manner was normal, not unusual. The
two Cyngael servants had remained by the stream. It was still morning, Kendra
thought, late-summer, a bright day, just south and west of Esferth. No time had
passed in the world, really. "You
will note that my sword is still sheathed," Alun said at last, softly, to
Ceinion. "It will remain so." He turned to Kendra, surprising her.
"Are you injured, my lady?" She
managed to shake her head. "My apologies," she said. "I attacked
you. You insulted a friend." The
ghost of a smile. "So I gather. Evidently not wise, in your
presence." "Judit's
worse," Kendra said. "I
am not so! Only when—" Judit began. "Jad's
blood and grief!" Gareth
snarled. "Hakon! Sheathe your blade!" Hakon
immediately did so, then turned with the others and saw why. "Father!"
cried Judit, in a voice that might actually have made one believe she was
purely delighted, feeling nothing but pleasure as she stepped forward and made
a showy, elaborate, attention-claiming curtsy in the meadow grass. "Sorry,
sorry, sorry," Gareth muttered to the high cleric. "Language.
Profane. I know." "The
least of all transgressions here, I'd say," murmured Ceinion of Llywerth,
before going forward as well, smiling, to kneel before and rise to be embraced
by the king of the Anglcyn. And
then to offer the same hug, and his sun disk blessing, to scarred, limping,
large-souled Osbert, a little behind Aeldred and to one side, where he always
was. "Ceinion.
Dear friend. This," said the king, "is unlooked for so soon, and a
source of much joy." "You
do me, as before, too much honour, my lord," said the cleric. Kendra,
watching closely, saw him glance back over his shoulder. "I would present
a companion. This is Prince Alun ab Owyn of Cadyr, who has been good enough to
journey with me, bearing greetings from his royal father." The
younger Cyngael stepped forward and performed a flawless court bow. From where
she stood, Kendra couldn't see his expression. Hakon, on her right side, was
still flushed from the confrontation. His sword—thanks be to Gareth and the
god—was sheathed. Kendra
saw her father smiling. He seemed well, alert, very happy. He was often this
way after his fever passed. Returning to life, as from the grey gates to the
land of the dead where judgement was made. And she knew how highly he thought
of the Cyngael cleric. "Owyn's
son!" Aeldred murmured. "We are greatly pleased to welcome you to
Esferth. Your father and lady mother are well, I trust and hope, and your older
brother? Dai, I believe?" Her
father found it useful to let people realize, very early, how much he knew. He
also enjoyed it. Kendra had watched him for a long time now, and could see that
part, too. Alun
ab Owyn straightened. "My brother is dead," he said flatly. "My lord,
he was killed by an Erling raiding party in Arberth at the end of spring. The
same party blood-eagled two innocent people, one of them a girl, as they fled
to their ships after being defeated. If you have assigned any of your royal fyrd
to engage the Erlings anywhere in your lands this season, I should be
honoured to be made one of them." The
music, still there in his voice, clashed hard with the words. Kendra saw her
father absorbing all of this. He glanced at Ceinion. "I didn't know,"
he said. He hated
not knowing things. Saw it as a kind of assault, an insult, when events took
place anywhere on their island—in the far north, in Erlond to the east, even
west across the Rheden Wall among the black hills of the Cyngael—without his
own swift and sure awareness. A strength, a flaw. What he was. Aeldred
looked at the young man before him. "This is a grief," he said.
"My sorrow. Will you allow us to pray with you for his soul, which is
surely with Jad?" From
where she stood, Kendra saw the Cadyri stiffen, as if to offer a quick retort.
He didn't, though. Only bowed his head in what could have been taken for
acquiescence, if you didn't know better. That eerie, inexplicable sensation:
she did know better, but not how she knew it. Kendra felt an uneasy
prickling, a tremor within. She
became aware that Gareth was looking at her, and managed an almost indifferent
shrug. He was shrewd, her younger brother, and she had no way of explaining
what it was she was . . . responding to here. She
turned back and saw that her father was now gazing at her as well. She smiled,
uncertainly. Aeldred turned to study Judit, and then his sons. She saw him
register Athelbert's awkward stance and the sword on the grass. She
knew—they all knew—the expression he now assumed. Detached, amused, ironic. He
was a much-loved man, Aeldred of the Anglcyn, he had been from childhood, but
he dealt out his own affection thoughtfully, and given what he was, how could
he not? Their mother was an exception but that, all four children knew, was
also complex. Waiting,
anticipating, Kendra heard her father murmur, "Judit, dear heart, don't
forget to bring my longsword back." "Of
course, Father," said Judit, eyes downcast, her manner entirely
subdued, if not her hair. Aeldred
smiled at her. Added gently, "And when you chastise your older brother,
and there is no doubt in me he will have deserved it, try to ensure it doesn't
affect the likelihood of heirs for the kingdom. I'd be grateful." "Ah,
so would I, actually," Athelbert said, in something approaching his
customary voice. He
was not standing normally yet, there was a cramped tilt to his posture, but he
was getting closer to upright. Kendra was still in awe, often, at how precisely
her father could draw conclusions from limited information. It was something
that frightened Athelbert, she knew: a son entirely aware he was expected to be
able to follow this man to the throne. The burden of that. You could understand
much of what Athelbert did if you thought of it in this way. "Please
come," her father was saying to the two Cyngael. "I walked out to
greet Hakon Ingemarson, our young eastern friend, rather than wait for my
errant children to bring him back so that he might offer his father's latest
explanation for an unsent tribute." Aeldred turned and smiled at Hakon, to
take some of the sting from that. The young Erling managed a proper bow. The
king turned back to Ceinion. "This is a gift, your early arrival. We will
offer thanks in chapel for a safe journey, and our prayers for the soul of Dai
ab Owyn, and then—if you will—we shall feast and talk, and there will be music
in Esferth while you tell me you have answered my prayers and are come here to
stay." The
cleric made no reply to that last, Kendra saw. She didn't think her father had
expected one. Hakon, of course, was red-faced again. She felt sorry for him. A
likable, well-meaning boy. She ought to think of him as a man, but that was difficult.
It was curious: Athelbert was far more childish, but you always knew
there was a man there, playing at boy-games because he chose to. And she had
seen her brother riding with the fyrd. Aeldred
gestured. Ceinion and the younger Cyngael fell into stride with him, walking
towards the walls of the town, out of sight north of them. Kendra saw Judit
step quietly over and reclaim the sword. She hadn't recognized it as their
father's. Athelbert's mutilated cap was left where it had fallen, a redness in
the grass. Their own servants, who had hovered cautiously at a distance all
this time, now came to gather the remains of their meal. Kendra looked west,
saw the two Cyngael servants moving forward from the stream, leading a laden
donkey. It
was only then that she saw that one of them was an Erling. Ebor,
the son of Bordis, never minded being posted to night duty on the walls,
wherever the court happened to be. He'd even made some friends by taking
watches assigned to others, leaving them free for the taverns. A solitary sort
of man (much the same when a boy), he took a deep, hard-to-explain comfort from
being awake and alone while others feasted or drank or slept, or did the other
things one did in the night. Sometimes
a woman, walking near the walls, offering her song to the dark, would call up
to him from the bottom of the steps. Ebor would decline while on duty, though
not always afterwards. A man had his needs, and he'd never married. Youngest
son of a farmer, no land, no prospect of it. He'd joined the standing army of
the king. Younger sons did that, everywhere. The way the world was made, no
point brooding on it. The army gave you companions, shelter, enough money
(usually, not always) for ale and a girl and your weapon. Sometimes you fought
and some of you died, though less often of late, as the Erling raiders slowly took
the measure of Aeldred of the Anglcyn and the forts and fortified burhs he'd
been building. Some
of the Erlings were allies now, actually paying tribute to the king. Something
deep, passing strange in that, if one thought on it. Ebor wasn't a thinker,
exactly, but long nights on watch did give you time for reflection. Not
tonight, however. Tonight, under drifting clouds and the waning blue moon, had
been raddled with interruptions, and not from night-walkers offering interludes
of love—though one was a woman. If you forced a man to make two
decisions in haste, Ebor would later tell the king's chamberlain, humble and
contrite, chances were he'd make a bad one, or two. That,
Osbert, son of Cuthwulf, would say quietly, is why we have standing orders
about the gates at night. To remove the need to make a decision. And Ebor would
bow his head, knowing this was so, and that this was not the time to point out
that every guard on the wall disobeyed those orders in peacetime. He
would not be punished. The one death in the night was not initially thought to
be connected in any way with events at the gate. This was, as it happened,
another error, though not his.
The
women were beginning to leave the hall, led by Elswith, the queen. Ceinion of
Llywerth, placed at the king's right hand, had the distinct impression that the
older princess, the red-haired one, was disinclined to surrender the evening,
but Judit was going with her lady mother nonetheless. The younger daughter,
Kendra, seemed to have already left. He hadn't seen her go. The quiet one, she
was less vivid, more watchful. He liked them both. His
new Erling manservant, or guard (he still hadn't decided how to think of him),
had also gone out; he'd come and asked permission to do so, earlier. Not a
thing he'd really needed to do, under the circumstances, and Ceinion wasn't
sure what to make of it. A request for dispensation, in some way. It had felt
like that. He'd wanted to ask more about it, but there were others listening.
Thorkell Einarson was a complex man, he'd decided. Most men, past a certain
age, could be said to be. The young ones usually weren't, in his experience.
The youths in this hall would want nothing more than glory, any way they could
find it. There
were exceptions. The king, expansive and genial of mood, had already announced
that they would essay the Cyngael's well-known triad game later, in honour of
their visitors. Ceinion had glanced along the table at Alun then, wincing, and
had known, immediately, that he would not linger for that. Alun ab Owyn had
made his excuses, prettily, to the queen, asking leave to go to evening prayer,
just before she walked out herself. Elswith,
clearly impressed by the young prince's piety, had offered to bring him to the
royal sanctuary, but Alun had demurred. No music from him tonight, either,
then. He hadn't brought his harp east on the journey; hadn't touched it since
his brother had died, it appeared. Time needed to run further, Ceinion decided,
a memory tugging at him from that wood by Brynn's farm. He pushed that one
away. With
the food now being cleared and the restraining presence of the ladies gone,
serious drinking could be expected at the long table running down the room.
There were dice cups out, he saw. The older prince, Athelbert, had left his
seat at the high table and moved farther down to join some of the others.
Ceinion watched him set a purse in front of himself, smiling. Beside
Ceinion, King Aeldred leaned back in his cushioned chair, a pleased,
anticipatory expression on his face. Ceinion looked past the king and the
queen's now-empty seat to where a portly cleric from Ferrieres was brushing at
food on his yellow robe, visibly content with the meal and wine he'd been
offered in this remote northern place. Ferrieres prided itself, lately, on
being next only to Batiara itself, and Sarantium, in cultivating the elements
of civilization. They could afford to do so, Ceinion thought
without rancour. Things were different here in the northlands. Harsher, colder,
more . . . marginal. The edge of the world. Aeldred
turned to him, and Ceinion smiled back at the king, his hands clasped loosely
on the tabletop. Alun ab Owyn was ravaged by his brother's death. Aeldred, at
the same age, had seen his own brother and father killed on a battlefield, and
learned of unspeakable things done to them. And he had accepted homage, not
long after, from the man who had slain and butchered them, and let the man
live. That same Erling's son was at this table now, in an honoured place.
Ceinion wondered if he could talk to Alun about that, if it would mean
anything. And then he thought again of the forest pool north of Brynnfell, and
wished he'd never been there, or the boy. He
drank from his wine cup. This was the hour when, at a Cyngael feast, the
musicians would be summoned to claim and shape a mood. Among the Erlings in
Vinmark, too, for that matter, though the songs were not the same, or the mood.
There might be wrestlers now, among the Anglcyn, jugglers, knife-throwing
contests, drinking bouts. Or all of these at once, in a loud chaos to hold back
the night outside. Not
at this court. "I now wish," said Aeldred of the Anglcyn, turning to
one and then to the other of the clerics flanking him, "to discuss a
translation thought I have, to render into our own tongue the writings of
Kallimarchos, his meditations on the proper conduct of a good life. And then I
would hear your reasoned opinions on the question of images of Jad and suitable
decoration for a sanctuary. I hope you are not fatigued. Do you have a
sufficiency of wine, each of you?" A
different sort of king, this one. A different way of pushing back the dark. +
Thorkell
hadn't wanted to go south from Brynnfell with the cleric and the younger son of
Owyn ap Glynn and the dog. And he most emphatically hadn't wanted to continue
east with them later in the summer to the Anglcyn lands. But when you cast the
gambling bones (as he had) in the midst of a battle, and changed sides (as he
had), you lost a large measure of control over your own life. He
could have fled once the eastern journey started. He'd done that once before,
after surrendering to the Cyngael and converting to the sun god's faith. That
had been a young man's wild flight: on foot, with a hostage, to finally arrive,
wounded, bone-weary, among fellow Erlings in the north-east of this wide
island. A
long time ago. A different man, really. And without the history he'd accrued,
since. Thorkell Einarson would be known now to the survivors of that raiding
party as having turned on his companions to save a Cyngael woman—and her
father, the man who'd slain the Volgan, the man who was the reason they'd come
inland so dangerously far. He was, to put it delicately, unsure of a welcome
among his people in the east. Nor
did he feel like cutting alone across this country to find out. He had no
hearth to row towards—even if a ship would take him at an oar—having been
exiled from his own isle for a bad night's fit of temper after dice. The
young man who'd made that escape alone hadn't had a hip that ached when it
rained, or a left shoulder that didn't work well first thing of a morning. The
cleric had noticed the second of these on their way here. An observant man, too
much so for Thorkell's ease of mind. One morning Ceinion had disappeared into
the edge of the oak and alderwood forest that marched along north of them and
returned with leaves he'd steeped with herbs in the iron pot the donkey
carried. Without saying much, he'd told Thorkell to put the hot leaves on his
shoulder, wrap them with a cloth, and leave them there when they set off. He
did it the next day, too, even though the wood was known to be accursed,
haunted with spirits. He didn't go in far, but he did go far enough to get his
leaves. The
poultice helped, which was irritating, in a perverse way. The cleric was older
than Thorkell, showed no signs of any stiffness of his own at dawn, kneeling
during prayers or rising from them. On the other hand, this man wouldn't have
had years of fighting behind him, or manning a longship oar in storms. It
seemed to Thorkell that Jad or Ingavin or Thьnir-whatever god or gods you cared
to name—had caused him to save that girl, ap Hywll's daughter, and then cast
his lot with these Cyngael of the west, an oath-sworn servant to them. There
were better fates, but it could also be said there were worse. He'd
had a better one as a free man and a landowner on Rabady, a farm of his own
within sound of the sea. He'd ripped the skein of that destiny himself: killed
a man over dice in the tavern by the harbour (his second man, unfortunately),
taken with rage like a berserkir, using his fists. It had taken four men
to pull him off, they told him after. When
you did things like that, Thorkell had lived long enough to know, you
surrendered your life into the hands of others, even if the dead man had been
cheating you. He shouldn't have had so much to drink that night. Old story. He'd
left the isle, taken work here and there, survived a winter, then found a
raiding ship down south when springtime came. He ought to have considered more
carefully. Perhaps. Or else a god had been steering his path towards those western
valleys. The
lady, Brynn's wife, had claimed him as her own servant, then assigned him as a
guard to a reluctant cleric when she'd learned that Ceinion had changed his
plans, was journeying south to Cadyr to see Owyn, and from there to Aeldred's
court. There was something between the two of them, Thorkell had decided, but
he wasn't sure what. Didn't think the cleric was bedding Brynn's wife (amusing
as that would have been). He
did know the lady had almost certainly saved his own life after the botched
raid and the ensuing discovery that Ivarr Ragnarson
had blood-eagled two people during his own flight to the ships. He'd had no
business doing that: you used the blood-eagle only for a reason, to make a
point. You cheapened it, otherwise. There was no point to be made when you were
beaten and running home, and when you did it to a farmhand and a girl. Ivarr,
marked from birth, was strange and dangerous, cold as the black snake that
would crush the Worldtree at the end of days and destroy its roots with venom.
A coward, too, poison arrows and a bow, which didn't make him less threatening.
Not with his grandfather's name to wield. All
of which knowledge did leave open the question of why Thorkell had signed on to
that ship, joined a Volgan family raid in the first place. A blood feud two
generations down. Ancient history for him, long put behind, or it should have
been. Siggur Volganson's grandsons were, very clearly, not what Siggur had
been, and Thorkell was no longer what he had been, either. Was it sentiment?
Longing for youth? Or just the lack of a better thought in his head? No
good answer. A Cyngael farmhouse inland was a long way to go, and had been
unlikely to offer much in the way of plunder. The family's sworn vengeance
wasn't his own blood feud, though he'd been there all those years ago when
Siggur was killed and his sword taken. You
could say he hadn't seen anything else to do since leaving home, or you could
say that in some fashion the dark-hilled, mist-shrouded land of the Cyngael was
still entangled with his own destiny. You could say he'd missed the sea,
man-killer, fortunemaker. A part-truth, but only that. Thьnir
and Ingavin might know how it was, or the golden sun god, but Thorkell wouldn't
claim to have an answer himself. Men did what they did. Right
now, in the close, rank darkness of a foetid alley outside a tavern in Esferth,
what he was doing was waiting for a man he'd recognized earlier in the day to
come out and piss against the wall. He'd
been in the huge, slope-roofed great hall at the king's feast this evening,
without formal duties, since Aeldred's servants were attending to their guests.
He'd made his way to the high table during an interlude in the serving of
courses, to ask permission of the cleric to go outside. "Why
so?" Ceinion of Llywerth had asked him, softly though. The man was no
fool. And
Thorkell, who wasn't either, hadn't lied. Murmured, "Saw someone I don't
think should be here. Want to check what he's about." True,
as far as it went. Ceinion,
thick grey eyebrows very slightly arched, had hesitated, and then nodded his
head. People were looking at them, not a time or place to talk. Thorkell hadn't
been sure what he'd have done if the cleric hadn't given his consent, had acted
otherwise. He could have slipped out without asking permission in that crowded,
noisy hall, probably should have. Wasn't certain why he'd gone up to ask. His
hip was paining him. It sometimes did, at night, even though it hadn't been
raining of late. They'd covered a deal of rough ground the past few days, to
come out in a meadow this morning where the Anglcyn royal children were having
an outing on the grass. Thorkell had actually felt a change in the way of the
world, seeing that. It was not the sort of thing the Anglcyn would have even
considered, barely a day's ride from the sea, in the years when Thorkell
himself was young and he and Siggur and other raiders were beaching longships
wherever they pleased along this coast, or on the other side of the channel in
Ferrieres. Ingemar Svidrirson had even ruled these lands for a brief time. But
he'd failed to capture the youngest son of the king he'd blood-eagled. A
mistake. He'd paid for it, though not with his life, surprisingly. His own
youngest son was here now, it turned out, an envoy from a tribute-paying
Erling. The world had altered greatly in twenty-five years. All old men thought
that way, he supposed. Came with the bad hip and the shoulder. You could let
yourself be bitter. He
looked towards the mouth of the alley again. Couldn't see much. He'd seen
enough when they'd come through the gate today. A well-laid-out, built-up town,
Esferth. The court more often here now than in Raedhill. Aeldred was building
everywhere, word was. Walled burhs within a day's ride of each other,
garrisons within them. A standing army, the borders expanding, tribute from
Erlond, a marriage planned in Rheden. No easy raiding here. Not any more. Which
was why he was in this rat-skitter alley, instead of in the bright hall, for
those truths raised an important question about the man he'd recognized when
they had passed into town this afternoon with the king. The two men
he'd-recognized, actually. The
questions that came to you were sometimes (not always) answered, if you waited
patiently enough. Thorkell heard a noise from the street, saw a shadow, someone
entered the alley. He remained motionless. His eyes had adjusted by now and he
saw that this time the figure stumbling out of the tavern to unbutton himself
and piss into darkness among the strewn garbage was the man he'd rowed and
raided with, twenty-five years before. The one who'd gone off to join the
mercenaries at Jormsvik, around the same time Thorkell had escaped home and
bought his land on Rabady. Word had come with summer traders and gossip that
Stefa had killed his man in the challenge before the gates, which hadn't
surprised Thorkell. Stefa had known how to fight. It was all he knew how to do,
if you didn't count drinking. This
particular Erling in Esferth tonight was no peaceful trader from the settled
eastern end of this island. Not if he was still a Jormsvik mercenary. Stefa
was alone in the alley now. He might not have been—it was a blessing, perhaps.
Thorkell coughed, stepped forward, and spoke the man's name, calmly enough. Then
he twisted violently to his right, banging hard against the rough wall as Stefa
wheeled, piss spraying, and thrust for his gut with a swiftly drawn knife. A man
who knew how to fight. And drink. A long afternoon and evening's worth of ale,
most likely. Thorkell was entirely sober, and seeing better than Stefa in the
dark. It allowed him to avoid the knife, pull his own blade in the same motion,
and sheathe it between two ribs of the other man, up towards the heart. He,
too, knew how to fight, as it happened. It didn't leave you, that knowing. Your
body might slow down, but you knew what you needed to do. He'd no idea,
by now, how many souls he'd sent to whatever their afterworld might be. He
cursed, afterwards, because he was in some pain, having banged his hip against
the wall, dodging, and because he hadn't meant to kill the other man until he'd
learned a few things. Principally, what Stefa was doing here. A
mistake, to have used the name. The man had reacted like a frightened sentry to
a footfall in the dark. He'd probably changed his name when he got into
Jormsvik, Thorkell decided, rather too late. He swore again, at himself. He
dragged the dead man farther back into the alley, hearing the rats scuttle and
scurry and the sound of some larger animal moving. He'd just finished doing that—and
taking Stefa's purse from his belt—when he heard another man at the mouth of
the laneway. He stood still in the blackness and saw him enter, also, to
relieve himself. There was enough light at the entrance from the torch outside
the tavern for him to see that this was the other man he knew. He
said nothing this time, a lesson learned. Waited until this one was busy with
what he'd come out to do, and then moved silently forward. He clubbed the
second Erling hard on the back of the head with the bone haft of his knife.
Caught him as he slumped. Then
Thorkell Einarson stood for some moments, thinking hard, though not especially
clearly, supporting the unconscious body of the son he'd left behind when they
exiled him. Eventually
he made a decision, because he had to: perhaps not the best one, but he wasn't
sure what the best one would be, given that he'd already killed Stefa. He
propped Bern against the wall for a moment, braced him with his good shoulder,
and tied his trouser drawstrings, to let him be decent, at least. It was too
dark to see his son's face clearly. Bern had grown a beard, seemed bigger
across the chest. Ought
to have been more careful, his father thought. Should have known his companion
had come out before him, have been looking for Stefa, on the alert when he
didn't see him. Thorkell shook his head. In
some endeavours, the lessons you needed to learn might come over time and with
no greater risk than a master's reprimand. If you were going to raid on the
longships, you could die if you learned too slowly. On
the other hand, if he was understanding this rightly, Bern had managed to get
himself into Jormsvik, which said something for a lad who had been condemned to
a servant's life by what his father had done. He'd taken himself off the isle,
and more than that: you had to kill a fighter to join the mercenaries. He
didn't imagine Bern would feel kindly towards him now, or ever. He thought of
his wife, then, wondering about her, though not for long: there wasn't much
point. A shared life gone, that one, like the wake of a longship when it moved
on through the sea. You needed to steer clear of thoughts like that. They were
dangerous as the rocks of a lee shore. Heimthra, longing for home, could
kill a man from within. He'd seen it happen. Thorkell
hoisted his son's body over his shoulder and headed for the mouth of the alley
and the street. Men
passed out all the time near drinking places, everywhere in the world. Woke in
grey dawn with rat bites and purses clipped. He had reason to hope the two of
them would be seen as a tavern-goer carrying a drunken friend. He was limping
with the weight and the pain in his hip. That might help the deception, he
thought ruefully. It
didn't, in the event, happen that way. Someone spoke to him as soon as they
reached the street. "Are
you going to bring the other one, too? Or is he dead?" He
stopped where he was. A woman's voice. Across the way, from the shadows there.
Thorkell stood still, cursing fate and himself: in equal measure, as always. He
looked left and right. No one nearby, no one to have heard her, a small
blessing that might save him, and Bern. The tavern's wall torch guttered and
smoked in its iron bracket. He heard the steady noise from within. The same
sounds from any tavern, everywhere a man might go. But, shouldering the body of
his son, hearing a woman address him from the dark, Thorkell Einarson felt a
strangeness take hold: as if he'd entered a part of the world that wasn't quite
the royal city of Esferth in the Anglcyn lands of King Aeldred—a place for
which he could not properly have prepared himself, however experienced he might
be. Given
that unsettling thought, and being an Erling and direct by nature, he drew a
breath and crossed the roadway straight towards the sound of the voice. When he
drew near—she didn't back away from him—he saw who this was, and that stopped
him again. He
was silent, looking down at her, trying to make some sense of this. "You
shouldn't be here alone," he finally said. "I
have no one to fear in Esferth," said the woman. She was young. She was,
in fact, the younger daughter of King Aeldred, in a thin cloak, the hood thrown
back to reveal her face to him. "You
could fear me," he said slowly. She
shook her head. "You wouldn't murder me. It would make no sense." "Men
don't always do sensible things," Thorkell said. She
lifted her chin. "So you did kill the other one? The first man?" Not
at all sure why, he nodded his head. "Yes. So you see, I might do the same
again." She
ignored that, staring at him. "Who was he?" He
was in such a strange world right now. This entire conversation: Aeldred's
daughter, Bern on his shoulder, Stefa dead in the alley. A shipmate once. But
for the moment, he told himself, he had one goal and the rest had to follow, if
he could make it do so. "He was an Erling mercenary," he said.
"From Jormsvik, I am almost certain. Not a trader, pretending to be." "Jormsvik?
Surely not! Would they be so foolish? To try raiding here?" She
knew of them. He hadn't expected that, either, in a girl. He shook his head.
"I'd not have thought so. Depends who hired them." Her
composure was extraordinary. "And this one?" she asked, gesturing
towards the body he carried. "The one you didn't kill?" She was
keeping her voice low, not alerting anyone yet. He held to that, as to a spar. He
was going to need her. If only to have her not call the watch and have him
seized. He wasn't a man to kill her where she stood; it was true, and she'd
guessed it. Too sure of herself, but not wrong. Thorkell hesitated, then rolled
the dice again, with an inward shrug. "My
son," he said. "Though I have no idea why." "Why
he's your son?" He heard amusement, laughed himself, briefly. "Every
man wonders that. But no, why he's here." "He
was with the other?" "I
. . . believe so." He hesitated, threw dice again. There wasn't much time.
"My lady, will you help me get him outside the walls?" "He's
a raider," she said. "He's here to report on what he finds."
Which was almost certainly true. She was quick, among everything else. "And
he will tell his fellows that he was detected and his companion captured or
killed and that you will be ready for them, coming to find them, even. His
message will be that they must sail." "You
think?" He
nodded. It was plausible, might be true. The part he didn't tell her wouldn't
affect Esferth, only Bern's own life, and not for the better. But there was
only so much a father could do once a boy was grown, fledged, out in the world. The
woman looked at him. He heard the tavern behind him again, a rising and
subsiding noise. Someone shouted an oath, someone cursed back amid spilling
laughter. "I
will have to tell my father, tomorrow," she said finally. He
drew a breath, hadn't realized he'd been holding it. "But you will do that
. . . tomorrow?" She
nodded. "You
would really do this?" Thorkell asked, shifting his stance under the
weight he carried. "Because
you are going to do something for me," she said. And
so, with a sense that he was still treading some blurred border between known
things and mystery, Thorkell drew another breath, this time to ask her the
question he probably ought to have asked as soon as he'd seen her out here
alone. He
never did ask it; his answer came in another way. She laid a sudden hand on his
arm, holding him to silence, then pointed across the street. Not
to the tavern door or the alley, but towards a small, unlit chapel two doors
farther up. Someone had stepped outside, letting the chapel door swing shut
behind him. He stood a moment, looking up at the sky, the blue moon overhead,
and then began to walk away from them. As he did, a shape detached itself from
blackness and padded over to him. And with that, Thorkell knew who this was. "He
was praying," Aeldred's daughter murmured. "I'm not sure why, but
he'll be going outside now, beyond the walls." "What?"
Thorkell said, a little too loudly. "Why would he do that? He's going to
his rooms. Had enough of the celebration. His brother died." "I
know," she said, eyes still on the man and dog moving down the empty
street. "But your rooms are the other direction. He is going outside." Thorkell
cleared his throat. She was right about the rooms. "How do you know what
he's doing?" She
looked at him. "I'm not certain how, and I don't like it, but I do
know. So I need someone with me, and Jad seems to being saying it will be
you." Thorkell
stared at her. "With you? What is it you want to do?" "I want to
pray, actually, but there isn't time. I'm going to follow him," she said.
"And don't ask me why." "Why?"
he asked, involuntarily. She
shook her head. "That's
moon-mad. Alone?" "No.
With you, remember? It'll get your son out of Esferth." Her voice changed.
"You swear you think it will deter them? The raiders? Whoever they
are? Swear it." Thorkell
paused. "I'd say yes in any case, you know, but I do think so. I swear it by
Jad and Ingavin, both." "And
you won't run away to them? With your son?" That would
be a thought she'd have, he realized. He snorted. "My son will want
nothing to do with me. And I'd be killed by the raiders for certain, if these
are who I think they are." She
glanced down the street again. The man and dog were almost out of sight.
"Who are they?" "The
leader's name won't mean anything to you. It's someone who will want a
report that Esferth and the burhs are unassailable." "We
are. But same question back: how are you so sure?" He
was used to this kind of talk, though not with a woman. "Different answer:
I'm not certain. This is a raider's guess. My lady, we'd best move if you want
to follow that Cyngael." He
saw her take a breath this time, and then nod. She stepped into the street,
lifting her hood as she did so. He went with her, along an empty, moonlit lane
that seemed of the world and not entirely so. The tavern noises receded, became
sea murmur and then silence as they went.
The
man below was an honoured guest, a prince, companion of the Cyngael cleric the
king had been watching for all summer. Ebor, son of Bordis, up on the wall-walk
by the western gate, answered a quiet summons and came down the steps to that
lilting voice. The
gates loomed in the dark, seeming higher from down on the ground, newly
reinforced this past year. King Aeldred was a builder. Ebor saw a man with a
dog, greeted him, heard a courteously phrased request to be allowed outside for
a time, to walk under moonlight and stars, feel wind, away from the smoke and
noise of the great hall and the town. He
was country-born, Ebor, could understand such a need. It was why he was up here
so much of the time himself. It occurred to him, suddenly, to invite the
Cyngael up to the wall-walk with him, but that would be a great presumption,
and it wasn't what the man had asked of him. "It
isn't quiet out there tonight, all the tents, my lord" he said. "I'm
certain of that, but I wasn't intending to go that way." Some
of the others in the fyrd didn't like the Cyngael. Small, dark, devious.
Cattle thieves and murderers, they named them. Mostly that came from those
Anglcyn north of here, near the valleys or the hills where the ghost wood
ended, along which the Rheden Wall had been built to keep the Cyngael out.
Years of skirmishing and larger battles could shape such a feeling. But Ebor
was from the good farmland east of here, not north or west, and his own dark
childhood stories and memories were about Erlings coming up from the dangerous
sea. The people of the west were no real enemy compared to longship berserkirs
drunk on blood. Ebor
had nothing, himself, against the Cyngael. He liked the way they talked. The
night was quiet enough, little wind now. If he listened, he could hear the
sounds from outside, though. There were a great many men sleeping in tents
(around to the north) with the fyrd here and Esferth full to bursting in
the run-up to the fair. No danger presented itself to this royal guest out
there, unless he found a drunken dice game or took a woman with too-sharp
fingernails into a field or hollow, and it wasn't Ebor's task in life to save a
man from either of those. The Cyngael had spoken with dignity, no arrogance.
He'd offered Ebor a coin: not too much, not too little—a sum fitting the request. A
quiet man, something on his mind. Far from home just now. Ebor looked at him
and nodded his head. He took the iron key from his belt and unlocked the small
door beside the wide gate and he let them out, the man and the dark grey hound
at his side. A
minor encounter in the scheme of things, far from the first time someone had
had reason to go out after dark in peaceful times. Ebor turned to go back up to
his place on the wall. The
other two called to him before he reached the top. When
he came back down the steps and saw who it was this time, Ebor
understood—rather too late—that there was nothing minor unfolding here, after
all. The
man this time was an Erling, carrying someone over his shoulder, passed out in
drunkenness. That happened every night. The woman, however, was the king's
younger daughter, the princess Kendra, and it never even entered Ebor's head to
deny her anything she might ask of him. She
asked for the door to be unlocked again. Ebor
swallowed hard. "May ... may I summon an escort for you, my lady?" "I
have one," she said. "Thank you. Open it, please. Tell no one of
this, on pain of my displeasure. And watch for us: to let us back in when we
come." She
had an escort. An Erling carrying a drunken man. It didn't feel right. With a
sick feeling roiling his guts, Ebor opened the small door for the second time.
They went out. She turned back, thanked him gravely, walked on. He
closed the door behind them, locked it, hurried up the stairs, two at a time,
to the wall-walk. He leaned out, watching them for as long as he could as they
went into the night. He couldn't see very far. He didn't see when the Erling
turned south alone, limping, carrying his burden, and the princess went
north-west, also alone, in the direction the Cyngael and his dog had gone. It
occurred to Ebor, staring into night, that this might have been a tryst of some
kind, a lovers' meeting, the Cyngael prince and his own princess. Then he
decided that made no sense at all. They wouldn't have to go outside the walls
to bed each other. And the Erling? What was that about? And, rather belatedly,
the thought came to Ebor that he hadn't seen any weapon—no sword or even a
knife—carried by the young Cyngael who had spoken to him so softly, with music
in his voice. It was desperately unwise to go outside without iron to defend
yourself. Why would anyone do that? He
was sweating, he realized; could smell himself. He stayed where he was,
watching, staring out, as was his duty here, as the princess had told him to
do. And in the meantime he began to pray, which was a duty all men had in the
night while Jad did battle beneath the world on their behalf, against powers of
malign intent. + He
laid his son down by the bank of the stream. Not far from where they'd come
walking this morning and found the royal children idling on the grass. With
time now (a little) and a bit more light, with the blue moon reflecting off the
river, Thorkell looked down at the unconscious figure, reading what changes he
could, and what seemed to be unchanged. He
stayed like that for some moments. He was not a soft man in any possible way,
but this had to be a strange moment in a man's life, no one could deny it. He
hadn't thought to ever see his son again. His face was unrevealing in the muted
moonlight. He was thinking that there was danger for the boy (not a boy any
more) if he was left here in the dark, helpless. Beasts, or mortal predators,
might come. On
the other hand, there was only so much a father could do, and he'd made a
promise that mattered to the girl. He probably wouldn't have made it out
without her. Would have tried, of course, but it was unlikely. He looked at
Bern by moonlight and spent a moment working out how old his son was. The beard
aged him, but he remembered the day Bern was born and it didn't seem so long
ago, really. And now the boy was off Rabady, somehow, and raiding with the
Jormsvikings, though it made so little sense for them to be here. Thorkell
had his thoughts on that, on what was really happening. His son's breathing was
even and steady. If nothing came here before he woke, he'd be all right.
Thorkell knew he ought to leave, before Bern opened his eyes, but it was oddly
difficult to move away. The strangeness of this encounter, a sense of a god or
gods, or blind chance, working in this. It didn't even occur to him to run away
with Bern. Where would he go? For one thing, he was almost certain who had paid
for the Jormsvik ships, however many there turned out to be. He shouldn't have
been quite so sure, really, but he did know a few things, and they fit. Ivarr
Ragnarson had not been caught fleeing from Brynnfell. Two blood-eagled bodies
to the west had been the marks of his passage. The Cyngael had never found the
ships. Ivarr
had made it home. Stood to reason. Something
else did, too. No thinking man bought mercenaries to raid the Anglcyn coast any
more. A waste of money, of time, of lives. Not with what Aeldred had been
doing—and was still doing—with his standing army and his burhs, and even
a fleet of his own being built along this coastline now. Mercenaries
might risk it if you paid them enough, but it didn't make sense. You sailed
from Vinmark and raided east and south through Karch now, even down to the
trading stations of overstretched Sarantium. Or along the Ferrieres coast, or,
possibly, you went past here, west to the Cyngael lands. Not much to be gleaned
there these days, for the exposed treasurehouses of the sanctuaries had long
since been removed inland and inside walls, and the three Cyngael provinces had
never had overmuch in the way of gold in any case. But a man, a particular man,
might have his reasons for taking dragon-ships and fighting men back there. The
same reasons he'd had at the beginning of summer. And one more now. A brother
newly dead, to join a blood feud that had begun long ago. And
if this was so, if it was Ivarr, Thorkell Einarson had good reason to
expect nothing but a bad death were he to run away now with his son towards the
coast, looking for the ships that would be lying offshore or beached in a cove.
Ivarr, repellent and deadly as anyone he'd ever known, would remember the man
who had blocked the arrow he'd loosed at Brynn ap Hywll from the wooded slope. He
really oughtn't to have been so sure of all this, but he was. Something to do
with the night, the mood and strangeness of it. Ghost moon overhead. Nearness
to the spirit wood, beyond the margins of which men never went. That girl going
out, for no reason that made sense, just following the Cyngael prince. There
was something at work tonight. You raided and fought long enough, survived so
many different ways of dying, you learned to trust your senses, and this . . .
feeling. Bern
hadn't learned enough yet, else he'd not have been so easily taken in an alley.
Thorkell grimaced, an expression creasing his features for the first time. Fool
of a lad. It was a hard world they lived in. You couldn't afford to be a
fool. The
boy was making a start, though, had to acknowledge that. Everyone knew how you
joined the mercenaries in Jormsvik. The only way you could join them.
Thorkell looked down at the brown-haired, brown-bearded figure on the grass. A
different man might have acknowledged pride. Thorkell
didn't have time to linger, to ask how Bern had done any of this. Nor did he
presume that his only son, awakening, would smile in delight and cry his
father's name aloud, and Ingavin's in thankfulness. Bern
shouldn't be long from waking. He would have to hope that was so, that this
isolated place wouldn't draw wolves or thieves in the next while. The boy had
filled out across the chest, he saw. You could almost call him a big man. He
still remembered carrying him, years ago. Shook his head at that. Weak
thoughts, too soft. Men woke each morning, lay down each night, in a
blood-soaked world. You needed to remember that. And he needed to walk back to
the girl. Jaddite
now, or not, he murmured an ancient prayer, father's blessing. Habit, nothing
else: "Ingavin's hammer, between you and all harm." He
turned to go. Paused, and—berating himself even as he did—took from his belt-purse
something he'd removed when he surrendered to the Cyngael for the second time
in twenty-five years. He carried it now, instead of wearing it. The hammer on a
chain. You didn't wear the symbols of the thunder god when you took the faith
of Jad. It
was an entirely ordinary, unremarkable hammer. Thousands like it. Bern wouldn't
know it as anything unique, but he'd realize it was an Erling who had carried
him here, and he'd go back to the ships with the warning that implied. He'd
have some talking to do, to explain his survival when Stefa never came back,
but Thorkell couldn't help him with that. A boy became a man, had his own stony
way to make on land and sea, like everyone else—then you died where you died,
and found out what happened then. Thorkell
had killed an oar-companion tonight. Hadn't meant to do that. Not truly a
friend, Stefa, but they'd shared things, covered each other's back in battle,
slept on cold ground, close, for warmth in wind. You did that, raiding. Then
you died where you died. An alley in Esferth for Stefa, pissing in the dark. He
wondered if the dead man's spirit was out here. Probably was. Blue moon
shining. He
bent and looped the chain into his son's fingers and closed them over the
hammer, and then he went away along the stream, not looking back, covering
ground towards where he'd seen the princess walking in her own folly. There
was a snatch of verse in his head as he went. One his wife used to sing, to all
three children when they were young. He
put it out of his mind. Too soft for tonight, for any night. + He is
coming. She knows it. Is waiting within the trees, across the stream. He is
mortal and can see her. They have spoken under stars (no moons) on the
night she took a soul for the queen. He has watched the Ride go through their
pool in the wood. Then dropped his iron blade and very nearly touched her by
the trees on the slope above the farm. It has not left her, that moment, from
then until now. No quietude, in wood, in mound, crossing water under stars with
the music of the Ride all around. She
trembles, an aspen leaf, her hair violet, then a paler hue. She is far from
home, one moon in the sky. A glowing at the wood's edge, waiting. EIGHT Ingavin
and Thьnir were many things, but they were soul-reapers before all else, and the
ravens that followed them, the birds of the battlefield and the banners, were
emblems of that. So was the blood-eagle: a sacrifice and a message. A
vanquished king or war-leader stripped naked under the holy sky, thrown on the
ground, his face to the churned earth. If he wasn't dead he would be restrained
by strong warriors, or with ropes tied to pegs hammered into the earth, or
both. His
back would be carved vertically with a long knife or an axe, the bloody opening
pulled wide, his ribs cracked back on each side and his lungs drawn out through
the opening thus made. They would be draped upon the exposed cage of his ribs:
the folded wings of an eagle, blood-crimson, god offering. It
was said that Siggur Volganson, the Volgan, had been so precise and swift in
performing the ritual that some of his victims remained alive for a time with
their lungs exposed to the watching gods. Ivarr
had not yet been able to achieve this. In fairness, he'd had less opportunity
than his grandfather had enjoyed during the years and seasons of the great
raids. Times changed.
Times
changed. Burgred of Denferth, viciously cursing himself for carelessness,
nonetheless knew that none of the other leaders at court or of the fyrd would
have taken more than seven or eight riders to investigate the rumour of a ship,
or ships, seen along the coast. He'd had five men, two of them new—using the
ride south to assess them. Three
of those men were dead now. Assessment rendered meaningless. But no one was
raiding the Anglcyn coast these days. How could he have expected what he'd
found—or what had found his small party tonight? Aeldred had burhs all
along the coast, watchtowers between them, a standing army, and—as of this
summer—the beginnings of a proper fleet for the first time. The
Erlings themselves were different in this generation: settlers in the eastern
lands, half of them (or something like that) were Jaddite now, trimming their
sails to the winds of faith. Times changed, men changed. Those still roaming
the seas in dragon-ships pursuing sanctuary treasures and ransom and slaves
went to Ferrieres now, or east, where Burgred had no idea (and didn't care)
what they found. The
lands of King Aeldred were defended, that was what mattered. And if some
Erlings remembered this king as a hunted fugitive in wintry swamplands . . .
well, those same Erlings were humbly sending their household warriors or their
sons with tribute to Esferth these days, and fearing Aeldred's reprisals if
they were late. None
of which unassailable truths was of any help to Burgred now. It
was night. Summer stars, ocean breeze, a waning blue moon. They had camped on
open ground, less than a day's ride from Esferth, between the burh of
Drengest, where the new shipyard was, and the watchtower west of it. He could
have reached either place, but he was training men, testing them. It was a
mild, sweet night. Had been. The
two on guard had shouted their warnings properly. Thinking back, Burgred
decided that he and his men had surprised the Erling party as much as they'd
been surprised themselves. Unfortunately, there were at least twenty
Erlings—almost half a longship's worth—and they were skilled fighters.
Disturbingly so, in fact. Commands had been barked, registered, implemented in
a night skirmish. It hadn't taken him long to realize where these men were
from, and to accept what life and ill fortune had doled out tonight. He'd
ordered his men to drop their weapons, though not before the two guards and one
other of his company—Otho, who was a good man—lay dead. No great shame surrendering
to a score of Jormsvik mercenaries mad enough to be ashore this near to
Esferth. He had no idea why they were here: the mercenaries were far too
pragmatic to offer themselves for raids as foolhardy as this one would be. Who
would pay them enough to even consider it? And why? It
made too little sense. And it was not a puzzle worth having more men die while
he tried to solve it. Best surrender, much as it burned to do that, let them
sell him back to Aeldred for silver and safe passage to wherever they were
really going. "We
yield ourselves!" he cried loudly, and dropped his sword on the moonlit
grass. They would understand him. The two languages borrowed from each other,
and the older Jormsvik raiders would have been here many times in their youth.
"You have been foolish beyond all credit to come here, but sometimes folly
is rewarded, for Jad works in ways we do not understand." The
largest of the Erlings—eyes behind a helm—grinned and spat. "Jad, you say?
I think not. Your name?" he rasped. He already knew what this was about. No
reason to hide it. Indeed, the whole point was his name, and what it was worth.
It would save his life, and the lives of his three surviving men. These were
mercenaries. "I am Burgred, Earl of Denferth," he said. "Captain
of King Aeldred's fyrd and his Household Guard." "Hah!"
roared the big man in front of him. Laughter and shouts from the others,
raucous and triumphant, unable to believe their good fortune. They knew him. Of
course they knew him. And experienced men would also know that Aeldred would
pay to have him back. Burgred cursed again, under his breath. "What
are you doing here?" he asked, angrily. "Do you not know how little
you can win along this coast now? When did the men of Jormsvik begin selling
themselves for small coin and certain battle?" He
had spent his entire life, it seemed, fighting them and studying them. He was
aware of a hesitation. "We
were told Drengest could be taken," the man in front of him said, finally. Burgred
blinked. "Drengest? You are mocking me." There
was a silence. They weren't mocking him. Burgred laughed. "What fool told
you that? What fools listened to him? Have you seen Drengest yet? You
must have." The
Erling planted his sword in the earth, removed his helm. His long yellow hair
was plastered to his head. "We've seen it," he said. "You
understand there are nearly one hundred men of the fyrd in there, over
and above the rest of the people inside the walls? You've seen the walls?
You've seen the fleet being built? You were going to attack Drengest? You
know how close you are to Esferth here? What do you have, thirty longships?
Forty? Fifty? Is Jormsvik emptied for this folly? Are you all summer-mad?" "Five
ships," the Erling said at length, shifting his feet. A professional, not
a madman, aware of everything Burgred was saying, which made this even harder
to understand. Five
longships meant two hundred men. Fewer, if they had horses. A large raid, an
expensive one. But not nearly enough to come here. "You were led to
believe you could take that burh, where our fleet's being built and
guarded, with five ships? Someone lied to you," Burgred of Denferth said
flatly. Last
words spoken in a worthy life. He
had time to recall, bewildered again, that the Erlings had always seen bows as
the weapon of a coward, before the moonlight left his eyes and he went to seek
the god with an arrow in his chest.
Guthrum
Skallson blinked in the moonlight, not quite believing what he'd just seen.
Then he did believe it, and turned. He
wasn't a berserkir, had never been that wild on a battlefield, was happy
to wear armour, thank you, but the rage that filled him in that moment was very
great and he moved swiftly with it. Crossed to the man with the bow and swung
his arm in a full backhanded sweep, smashing it into the archer's face, sending
him sprawling in the blue-tinted grass. He
followed, still in a fury, swearing. Bent over the crumpled form, seized the
fallen bow, cracked it over his knee, then grabbed the belt-quiver and
scattered the arrows with one furious, wide, wheeling motion in an arc across
the summer field. He was breathing hard, at the edge of murder. "You'll
die for doing that," the man on the ground said, through a smashed mouth,
in his eerie voice. Guthrum
blinked again. He shook his head, as if stunned. It was not to be borne. He
lifted the man with one hand; he weighed less than any of them, by a good deal.
Holding him in the air by the bunched-up tunic, so his feet swung free, Guthrum
pulled the knife from his belt. "No!"
shouted Atli, behind him. Guthrum ignored that. "Say
it to me again," he grunted to the little man dangling in front of him. "I
will kill you for that blow," said the man he held at his mercy. The words
came out half a whistle, through bleeding lips. "Right, then," said
Guthrum. He
moved the knife, in a short, practised motion. And was brought up hard by a
heavy hand seizing his wrist, gripping fiercely, pulling it back. "We
won't get final payment if he dies," Atli grunted. "Hold!"
Guthrum swore at him. "Do you know how much silver he just cost us?" "Of
course I know!" "You
heard the white-faced coward threaten my life? Mine!" "You struck him
a blow." "Ingavin's
blood! He killed our ransom, you thick-headed fool!" Atli
nodded. "Right. He's also paying us. And he's a Volganson. The last one.
You want to go home with that blood on your blade? We'll settle this on the
ships. Best get out of here now, and off this coast. Aeldred'll be coming soon
as they find these bodies." "Of
course he will." "Then
let's go. We kill the last two?" Atli awaited orders. "Of
course we kill them," gasped the little man Guthrum was still holding in
the air. Guthrum threw him away, into the grass. He lay there, crumpled and
small, not moving. Guthrum
swore. What he wanted to do was send the last two Anglcyn back to
Esferth to explain, to say the killing was unintended. That they were leaving
these shores. There were a great many Erlings hereabouts, or living not far
east of here. The last thing Jormsvik needed was their own people enraged
because the Anglcyn had cut off trading rights, or raised the tribute tax, or
decided to kill a score of them and display the heads on pikes for the death of
Aeldred's earl and friend. It could happen. It had happened. But
he couldn't let them go back. There was no explanation that would achieve
anything useful. Living men would name the Jormsvik raiders as the men who'd
killed an earl of the Anglcyn with a coward's bow, after he'd surrendered. It
wouldn't do at all. He
sighed, glared at the figure in the grass again. "Kill
them," he said, reluctantly. "Then we move." It is
a truth hardly to be challenged that most men prefer not to have others decree
the manner and time of their dying. Jormsvik mercenaries, responsible on an
individual and collective basis for so many deaths, were not unaware of this.
At the same time, the engrossing and unsettling events in that moonlit meadow,
from the time the Anglcyn was shot to the moment Guthrum issued that last
order, had compelled attention—and diverted it. One
of the captive Anglcyn twisted, in the moment Guthrum spoke, grabbed a boot-top
knife, stabbed the nearest of the men guarding him, ripped free of the belated
clutch of another, and tore off into the night. Not, normally, a problem. There
were twenty of them here, they were swift and experienced fighters. They
did not, however, have horses. And a
moment later the fleeing Anglcyn did. Six mounts had been tethered nearby. They
ought to have been claimed already. They hadn't been. The arrow, the loss of an
earl's ransom, Guthrum's assault on the man paying them. There were reasons,
obviously, but it was a mistake. Running
hard, they reached the other horses. Five of them mounted up without an order
spoken. No need for orders here. They gave chase. They were not horsemen,
however, these Erlings, these dragon-ship raiders, scourges of the white wave,
sea foam. They could ride, but not as an Anglcyn did. And he had chosen the
best horse—the earl's, almost certainly. The dead earl's, their lost ransom. It
was all bad. Then it got worse. They
heard his horn sound, shattering the night. The
riders reined up hard. The others on foot behind them in the meadow looked at
each other, and then at Guthrum, who was leading this party. Every man there
knew they were in enormous peril suddenly. Inland. On foot, all but five of
them. A full day from the ships, at least, with a fortified burh and a
guard tower nearby, and Esferth itself just to the north. It would be day,
bright and deadly, long before they got back to the shore. Guthrum
swore again, viciously. He killed the last Anglcyn himself, almost absently, a
sword in the chest, ripped out as soon as it went in, wiped dry on the grass,
sheathed again. The riders came back. The accursed horn was still sounding,
shredding the dark. "You
five ride back," he rasped. "Tell Brand to land a ship's worth of
men, start this way. You guide them. Look for us. We'll be coming fast as we
can, the way we came. But if we're chased we might be caught, and we'll need
more men in a fight." "Forty
enough?" Atli asked. "No
idea, but I can't risk more. Let's go." "I
want a horse!" said the small, vicious man who'd caused all this, sitting
up now on the grass. "I'll lead them back." "Fuck
that forever!" said Guthrum savagely. "You wanted to come ashore with
us, you'll run back with us. And if you can't keep up we'll leave you for
Aeldred. They'd like a Volganson, I imagine. Get on your feet. Steady run, all
of you. Riders, go!" The
horn was still blowing, fading east as they started back west themselves. Ivarr
got up promptly enough, Guthrum saw. Ragnarson wiped at his mouth, spat blood,
then started running with them. He was light-boned, quick-footed. Kept spitting
blood for a time, but said nothing more. In the moonlight his features were
stranger than ever, the whiteness not entirely human. Ought to have been
exposed at birth, Guthrum thought grimly, looking like that as he came into the
middle-world. Would have been, in any other family. He'd been threatened with
death by this one, Siggur Volganson's heir. It didn't occur to him to be afraid
but he did regret not killing him. An
earl, he kept thinking, as they went. An earl! Aeldred's friend from
childhood. They could have taken the prodigious ransom for Burgred of Denferth,
turned straight around, and rowed home for a rich and easy winter in the
Jormsvik taverns. Instead, they had a hard, dangerous run ahead; the horn would
bring riders in the dark—riders who would learn what had happened, and who knew
the terrain far better than they did. They could die here. He
might have been a farmer by now, Guthrum thought. Repairing fences, eyeing
rainclouds before harvest time. He actually amused himself, briefly, with the
thought, running through night in Anglcyn lands. It had never been likely.
Farmers didn't go to Ingavin's halls, or drink from Thьnir's horn when they
were called from the middle-world. He'd chosen his life a long time ago. No
regrets, under the blue moon and the stars. +
The
moon was over the woods, Bern saw, awakening. Then he grasped that he was lying
on grass, looking up at trees, beside a river in the dark. He'd
been pissing in the alley and .. . He
sat up. Too quickly. The moon lurched, stars described arcs as if falling. He
gasped. Touched his head: a lump, the stickiness of blood. He cursed, confused,
his heart hammering. Looked around, too quickly again: the dizziness assaulted
him, blood loud in his ears. He seemed to be holding something. Looked down at
the object in his hand. Knew
his father's neck chain and hammer, immediately. No
doubt, no hesitation, even here, so far away from home, from childhood. Small
sons could be like that, memorizing each and every thing about the father, a
figure larger than anything in the world, filling the house, then emptying it
when he left, on the dragon-ships again. There were thousands of necklaces like
this one, and there was not one like it in the world the gods had made. He
was very still, listening to the river running over stones, the crickets and
frogs. There were fireflies above the water and the reeds. The forest was black
beyond the stream. Something had just happened that he could never even have
imagined. He
tried to think clearly, but his head was hurting. His father was here. Had been
in Esferth, had knocked him out—or rescued him?—and taken him outside the walls
and left . . . this. As a
sign of what? Bern swore again. His father had never been a man to make
anything clear or easy. But if he could take any idea from being here and
holding Thorkell's necklace, it was that his father wanted him out of Esferth. Suddenly,
belatedly, he thought about Ecca, who was—significantly—not here outside the
walls. Bern stood up then, wincing, unsteady. He couldn't stay where he was.
There were always people outside a city, especially now with the king present,
and all his household, and a late-summer fair beginning soon. There was a
second city's worth of tents around to the north. They'd seen them earlier,
when they'd come up. Finding
so many people here had been a large issue. Ecca had wrestled with considerable
anger as they'd come to understand what was happening in Esferth and near it.
That supposedly unfinished burh on the coast, Drengest, was entirely
complete, walls secure, defended, a number of ships already built in the
harbour. Not
even remotely a place where five ships' worth of men could raid and run, which
is what they'd been told they could do. And Esferth itself, which was supposed
to be half empty, exposed to an attack that would shape a legend, was thronged
with merchants and the Anglcyn fyrd, and Aeldred himself was here with
his household guard. It was not a mistake, not a misreading of signs, Ecca had
snarled. It appeared they had been lied to, by the man who'd paid them to come. Ivarr
Ragnarson, the Volgan's heir. The one everyone whispered ought surely to have
been killed when he came out of his mother's womb white as a spirit, hairless,
a malformed freak of nature, unworthy of life and his lineage. It
was that lineage that had saved him. Everyone knew the tale: how a volur in
her trance had spoken to his father and forbidden him to expose the child.
Ragnar Siggurson, hesitant by nature, too careful, never the strongest man
(following a father who had been the strongest of men), had let the
child live, to grow up strange and estranged, and vicious. Bern
had his own thoughts about volurs and their trances. Not that it
mattered. He was desperately unsure what to do. Ecca was a shipmate, his
companion on this scouting mission. A Jormsvik raider didn't leave companions
behind unless he had no choice at all; they were bound to each other, by oath
and history. But this was Bern's first raid, he didn't know enough yet, didn't
know if this was a time when you did leave to carry an urgent message
back. Should he return to Esferth when the gates opened at sunrise and look for
Ecca, or find Gyllir in the wood where they'd left the horses and hurry to the
ships with a warning? Was
that the meaning in Thorkell's necklace, in his being out here alone? Was Ecca
taken? Dead? And if not, what would happen if he returned to the ships after
Bern did and asked why his companion had left without him? And just how, in
fact, Bern had gotten outside the walls? How he'd explain that, Bern had no
idea. And what if Ecca rode back and the ships were gone because Bern had told
them it was wiser to cast off? Too
many conflicting needs, conjured thoughts. Hesitations of his own devising
(another son of a strong father?). He didn't know, standing unsteadily alone by
the water, if he was ... direct enough for this raiding life. He'd be
dealing more easily with all of this, he thought, if his head didn't hurt so
much. Something
caught his eye, south and east. A bonfire burning on a hill. He watched that
light in the darkness, saw it occluded, reappear, vanish again, return. He
realized, after a moment, that this was a message. Knew it could not possibly
be good for him, or for those waiting by the ships . . . or for Guthrum's party
ashore to the south. The
bonfire made his decision for him. He placed his father's necklace over his
head and slipped it inside his tunic. The
necklace was meant to tell him that it was a friend (his father a friend, the
irony in that) who'd taken him out of Esferth. If he was supposed to be
out of Esferth, that meant trouble inside. And he knew there was trouble,
they'd seen it this morning, passing through the gates amid the crowds for the
fair. They had planned to stay only tonight, learn what they could in the
taverns, ride back to the coast in the morning, carrying their message—and
warning. And
now a message in fire was lighting the night. This was, in no possible way, a
safe place to be coming ashore to raid. The burh was walled and
garrisoned, they already knew that, and Esferth was thronged to bursting. He
had that message to deliver, above anything else. He took a breath, put aside,
as best he could, the fierce, hard awareness that his father was out here
somewhere in the night not far away, and had, evidently, carried him to this
place like a child. Bern turned his back on torchlit Esferth and entered the
stream to cross it. He
was midway into the river, which wasn't cold, when he heard voices. He dropped
down instantly, silent amid reeds and lilies, only his head above water in the
dark, and listened to the voices and the pounding of his heart. + Alun
had seen the glimmering twice on the journey east, travelling here with
Ceinion. Once in the branches of a tree, when they'd camped by a stream running
out of the wood and he awoke in the night, and once on a hillside behind them,
when he looked back after dark: a shining at twilight, though the sun had set. He'd
known it was her. Wasn't sure if he'd been meant to see, or if she'd come
closer than she'd intended. Cafall had been rest-less all through that coastal
journey. The Erling had thought it was the nearness of the spirit wood. She
was following him. He ought, perhaps, to have been afraid, but that wasn't what
he felt. Alun had thought about Dai, the night he died, that pool in the wood,
souls lost and taken, and it had occurred to him that he might never make music
again. His
mother had taken to her chambers when he and Gryffeth and the cleric had
brought the tidings home. She had stayed there a fourteen-night, opening only
to her women. When she'd come out her hair had changed colour. Not as a
faerie's did, shimmering through hues, but as a mortal woman's did, when grief
has come too suddenly. Owyn
had covered his face with a hand, Alun remembered, and turned and walked away,
at first word of Dai's death. He had drunk a great deal for two days and
nights, then stopped. Had spoken after, privately, with Ceinion of Llywerth.
There was a history there, not entirely a benign one, but whatever lay behind
the two men seemed altered by this. Owyn ap Glynn was a hard man, everyone knew
that, and he was a prince with tasks in the world. Brynn had said that same
thing to Alun, too. He had a new role, himself. He was heir to Cadyr. His
brother was dead. More than that. Those who told him that time and faith would
assuage, meaning well, drawing on experience and wisdom—even his father, even
King Aeldred, here—were unaware, had to be unaware, of what Alun knew
about Dai. Armoured
in faith, as Ceinion and the Anglcyn king were, you could anneal the burning of
loss with a belief that the souls of those who had gone were with Jad and would
be until all the worlds ended and the god's purposes were revealed and
fulfilled. Faith
was no help at all when you knew your brother's soul had been stolen by faeries
on a moonless night. Alun
prayed, as required, morning and evening, with urgency. It seemed to him
sometimes that he heard his own voice echoing oddly as he chanted the responses
of the liturgy. He knew
things, had seen what he had seen. And heard the music in that forest
clearing, as the fairies passed him by, moving across the water. There
was a blue moon tonight, spirit moon, high above the woods, hanging over them
like some dark blue candle in a doorway. These were part of the same forest
they had skirted to the south. A valley sliced westward, pushing the trees back
halfway down to the sea, and the old tale was that the colder danger lay in the
south, but this was still named a ghost wood, whatever the clerics might say. He
stood a moment, looking at the trees. He needed to walk through this doorway.
Had known he would, from first sighting of her that night when he'd woken, and
again on the hill two days later, at twilight. Forbidden, heresy: words
that meant much, but so little to him now. He had seen her. And his brother.
Dai's hand in the faerie queen's, walking on water, after he died. Alun was
unmoored and knew it, a ship without rudder or sails, no charts by which to
navigate. He
had left the king's feast, made his excuses as courteously as he could, aware
that the Anglcyn court—alerted by Ceinion—would feel genuine compassion for
what they thought was his pain. They
had no idea. He'd
bowed to the king—a compact man, trimmed grey beard, bright blue eyes—and to
the queen, made his way from that crowded, loud, smoky room, dense with the
living and their concerns, and gone alone to the chapel he'd seen earlier in
the day. Not
the royal one. This one was small, dimly lit, almost an afterthought on a
street of taverns and inns, and empty this late at night. What he needed.
Silence, shadow, the sun disk above the altar barely visible in this still
space. He had knelt, and prayed for the god to lend him the power to resist
what was pulling him. But in the end, rising, he gave himself dispensation for
being mortal, and frail, and so not strong enough. There was a need in him, and
there was also fear. He
had a thought, a memory, and paused by the door of the chapel. In that gloom,
lit only by a handful of guttering lamps too far apart on the walls, Alun ab
Owyn unbuckled his dagger and belt and set them down on a stone ledge in the
half-darkness. He'd worn no sword tonight. Not to a royal feast, as an honoured
guest. He turned in the chapel doorway, looked back in the gloom a last time to
where the sun disk hung. Then
he went out into the night streets of Esferth. Cafall fell in beside him, as
always now. He spoke to a guard at the gates and was allowed to pass. He'd
known—with certainty—that it would be so. There were forces at work tonight,
beyond any adequate understanding. Alun
went into the meadow beyond the Esferth gates and walked steadily west. The
direction of home, but not really. Home was too far away. He came to the
stream, crossed through, water to his waist, Cafall splashing beside him, and
on the other side he stopped and looked at the woods and turned to Brynn's dog—his
dog—and said quietly, "No farther now. Wait here." Cafall
pushed his head against Alun's wet hip and thigh, but when he said it again,
"No farther," the dog obeyed, staying there beside the rushing water,
a grey shape, almost invisible, as Alun went alone into the trees.
She
knows the instant he enters among the first oaks and alders, apprehending his
aura before she sees him. She stands in a glade by a beech tree, as she did the
first time, a hand laid on it for sustenance, sap-strength. She is afraid. But
not only that. He
appears at the edge of the glade and stops. Her hair goes to silver. Purest
hue, essence of what she is, what they all are: silver around them in the first
mound, gleaming. Now lost, undersea. They sing to greet the white moon when it
rises. Only
the blue one tonight, hidden from where they stand within the wood. She knows
exactly where it is, however. They always know where both moons are. The blue
is different, more . . . inward; hues one does not always share with others.
Just as she has not shared her coming east, this journey. She took a soul for
the queen at the beginning of summer, will not suffer for this following. Or
not at the hands of the Ride. There are others in the wood, though, nearby and
south. To be feared. She
sees him step forward, approaching over grass, amid trees. A dark wood, far
from home (for both of them). There is a spruaugh somewhere about, which
had angered and surprised her, for she dislikes them all, their green hovering.
She'd shown her hair violet to him earlier, and seethed, and he'd retreated,
chattering, agitated. She scans with the eye of her mind, doesn't find his aura
now. Didn't think he would be anywhere near after seeing her. She
makes herself let go of the tree. Takes a step forward. He is near enough to
touch, to be touched. Her hair is shining. She is all the light in this glade,
the trees in summer leaf occluding stars and moon, shielding the two of them. A
shelter, between worlds, though there are dangers all around. She remembers
touching his face on the slope above the farm and the blood-soaked yard, as he
knelt before her. The
memory changes the colour of her hair again. It is not only fear she feels. He
does not kneel this time. No iron about him. He has left it behind, coming to
her, knowing. They
are silent, leaves and branches a canopy above, the grass of the glade
shimmering. A breeze, slight sound, it dies away. He
says, "I saw you, twice, coming here. Was I meant to?" She
can feel herself tremble. Wonders if he sees it. They are speaking to each
other. It is not to happen. It is a crossing-over, a transgressing. She doesn't
entirely understand his words. Meant to? Mortals: the world they live
within, time different for them. The speed of their dying. She
says, "You can see me. Since the pool." Isn't sure if that is what he
meant. They are speaking, and alone here. She reaches a hand backwards, after
all, touches the tree again. "I
should hate you," he says. Said that, also, the other time. She
answers, as before, "I don't know what that means. Hate." A
word they use . . . fire in how they live. A flame and then gone. That fire a
reason she has always been drawn. But unseen, until now. He
closes his eyes. "Why are you here?" "I
followed you." She lets go of the tree. He
looks at her again. "I know. I know that. Why?" They
think in this way. It has to do with time. One thing, then another thing from
it, and then a next. The way the world takes shape for them. She has a thought.
Alun
felt as if his mouth were dry as earth. Her voice, a handful of words, made him
despair again of the idea of making music, of ever hearing anything to match.
There was a woodland scent to her, night flowers, and the light—changing,
always—about her, in her hair, the only illumination here, where they were. She
was shining for him in a forest, and he knew all the tales. Mortals entangled
and ensnared within the half-world who never made their way back or were found
all changed when they did, companions and lovers dead, or aged, bent into
hoops. Dai
was with the faerie queen, walking upon water amid music, coupling in the
forested night. Dai was dead, his soul stolen away. "Why
are you here?" he managed. "I
followed you." Not
his answer. He looked at her. "I know. I know that. Why?" She said,
"Because you put away . . . your iron when you came up the slope to me?
Before?" A
question in it. She was asking him if this was good enough, as an answer. She
spoke Cyngael in the old fashion, the way his grandfather had talked. It
frightened him to think how old she might be. He didn't want to think of
that, or ask. How long did faeries live? He felt light-headed. It was difficult
to breathe. He said, a little desperately, "Will you do me harm?" Her
laughter then, first time, rippling. "What harm could I do?" She
lifted her arms, as if to show him how delicate she was, slender, her fingers
very long. He could not have named the colour of the tunic she wore, could see
the pale, sleek curve of her below it. She extended a hand towards him. He
closed his eyes just before she touched his face with her fingers for the
second time. He
was lost, knew he was, whatever the tales might say in warning. He had been
lost when he left the chapel to come out from behind mortal walls and enter
this wood where men did not go. He
took her fingers in his hand, and brought them to his mouth and kissed them,
then turned her palm to his lips. Felt her trembling, as leaves did in wind.
Heard her say, -very faintly, music, "Will you do me harm?" Alun
opened his eyes. She was a silver shining in the wood, beyond imagining. He saw
the trees around them and the summer grass. "Not
for all the light in all the worlds," he said, and took her in his arms. +
There
was very little light in the great hall now: amber pools spilling from the two
fires, or where a cluster of men continued to throw dice at one end of the
room, and another pair of lamps at the head table where two men remained awake
and talking and a third listened quietly, A fourth figure slept there, snoring
softly, his head on the board among the last uncleared platters. Aeldred
of the Anglcyn looked at the sleeping cleric from Ferrieres and then turned the
other way, smiling a little. "We
have exhausted him," he said. The
cleric on his other side set down his cup. "It is late." "Is
it? Sometimes sleep feels wrong. A surrendering of opportunity." The king
sipped his own wine. "He quoted Cingalus at you. You were very kind,
then." "No
need to embarrass him." Aeldred
snorted. "While he was citing you to yourself?" Ceinion of Llywerth
shrugged. "I was flattered." "He
didn't know you wrote it. He was patronizing you." "That wouldn't
have mattered if he'd been right in what he argued." A
small sound at that, from the third man. Both turned to him, both smiling. "Not
weary of us yet, my heart?" Aeldred asked. His
younger son shook his head. "Weary, but not of this." Gareth cleared
his throat. "Father's right. He . . . didn't even have the quotation
properly." "True
enough, my lord prince." Ceinion was still smiling, still cradling his
wine. "I'm honoured that you knew it. He was doing it from memory, in
fairness." "But
he turned the meaning. He argued against you with your own thought turned
backwards. You wrote the Patriarch that there was no error in images unless
they were made to be worshipped, and he—" "He
cited me as saying images would be worshipped." "So he was
wrong." "I
suppose, if you agree with what I wrote." Ceinion's expression was wry.
"It could have been worse. He might have cited me as saying clerics should
live chaste and unmarried." The
king laughed aloud. Young Gareth's brow remained furrowed. "Why didn't he
know it was you who wrote it?" The
subject of their conversation remained where he'd slumped, asleep with most of
the men in the darkened hall. Ceinion glanced from the son to the father. He
shrugged again. "Ferrieres
tends to look down on the Cyngael. Much of the world does, my lord. Even here,
if we are being honest. You call us horse thieves and eaters of oats, don't
you?" His tone was mild, unoffended. "He would find it alarming that
a scholar cited and endorsed by the Patriarch was from a place so . . .
marginal. They used a Rhodian name for me, after all, when they put my phrases
in the Pronouncement. An easy error for him to make, not knowing." "You
didn't sign it as Cingalus?" "I
sign everything I write," said the other man gravely, "as Ceinion of
Llywerth, cleric of the Cyngael." There
was a little silence. "He
wouldn't even have expected you to be able to write in Trakesian, I
imagine," Aeldred murmured. "Or you to read it, for that matter,
Gareth." "The
prince reads Trakesian? Wonderful," Ceinion said. "I'm beginning,
only," Gareth remonstrated. "There's
no `only' in that," the cleric said. "Perhaps we shall read together
while I am here?" "I'd
be honoured," Gareth said. His mouth quirked. "It'll keep you from
our horses." A
startled silence, then Ceinion burst out laughing and so did the king. The
cleric mimed a blow at the prince. "My
children are a great trial," Aeldred said, shaking his head. "All
four of them, but Gareth reminds me, I have new texts to show you." Ceinion
turned to him. "Indeed?" Aeldred
allowed himself a satisfied smile. "Indeed. In the morning after prayers
we shall go see what is being copied." "And
it is?" Ceinion was unable to mask eagerness. "Nothing
so very much," said the king, with a show of indifference. "Only a
physician's tract. One Rustem of Esperaсa, on the eye." "Collating
Galinus and adding his own remedies? Oh, glorious! My lord, how in the god's
name did you—?" "A
ship from Al-Rassan stopped at Drengest earlier this summer on its way back
from trading with the Erlings at Rabady. They know I am buying
manuscripts." "Rustem?
That's three hundred years old. A treasure!" Ceinion exclaimed, though
softly among the sleepers. "In Trakesian?" Aeldred
smiled again. "In two languages, friend. Trakesian .. . and his original
Bassanid." "Holy
Jad! But who reads Bassanid? The
language is gone, since the Asharites." "No
one yet, but with both texts now we will soon be able to. I have someone
working on that. The Trakesian text unlocks the other one." "This
is a glory and a wonder," Ceinion said. He made the sign of the disk. "I
know it is. You'll see it in the morning." "It
will give me great joy." There
was another silence. "That opens a doorway for me, actually," the king
said; his tone remained light. "The question I've been waiting to
ask." The
cleric looked at him, an exchange of glances in the island of light. Far down
the room someone laughed as dice rolled and stopped and fortune smiled, however
briefly. "My
lord, I cannot stay," Ceinion said quietly. "Ah.
And thus the door closes," Aeldred murmured. Ceinion
held his gaze in the lamplight. "You know I cannot, my lord. There are
people who need me. We were speaking of them, remember? The oat-eaters no one
respects? At the edge of the world?" "We're
as much at the edge, ourselves," Aeldred said. "No.
You aren't. Not at this court, my lord. All praise to you for that." "But
you won't help me take it further?" "I
am here now," Ceinion said simply. "And
you will come back?" "As
often as I may." Another small, rueful smile. "For the nourishing of
my own spirit. Unworthy as that might be. You know what I think of this court.
You are a light to us all, my lord." The
king did not move. "You would make us brighter, Ceinion." The
cleric sipped from his cup before answering. "It would nourish my own
desires to do so, to sit here and share learning as old age comes. Do not think
I am not tempted. But I have tasks in the west. We Cyngael live where the
farthest light of Jad falls. The last light of the sun. It needs attending to,
my lord, lest it fail." The
king shook his head. "It is all . . . marginal, here in the northlands,"
Aeldred said. "How do we build anything to last, when it might come down
at any time?" "That
is true of all men, my lord. Of everything we do, anywhere." "And
not more so here? Truly?" Ceinion
inclined his head. "You know I agree with you. I merely—" "Cite
text and doctrine. Yes. But if you refrain from doing that? If you answer
honestly? What happens here if the harvest fails in a year the Erlings decide
to come back in numbers, not just raiding? Do you think I have forgotten the
marshes? Do you think any of us who were there lie down at night, any night,
without remembering?" Ceinion
said nothing. Aeldred
went on, "What happens to us if Carloman or his sons in Ferrieres quell
the Karchites, as they likely will, and decide they want more land for
themselves?" He looked at the sleeping man on his other side. "You'll
beat them back," Ceinion said, "or your sons will. I do believe there
is that here which will endure. I am . . . less certain of my people, still
fighting each other, still seduced by pagan heresies." He paused, looked
away again, and then back. He
shrugged. "You spoke of the marsh. Tell me of your fevers, my lord." Aeldred
made an impatient gesture, one that served as a reminder—if one were
needed—that this was a king. "I have physicians, Ceinion." "Who
have done little enough to ease them. Osbert tells me—" "Osbert tells
you too much." "And
that, you know well, is untrue. I brought something with me. Do I give it to
you, or to him, or whichever physician you trust?" "I
trust none of them." This time it was the king who shrugged. "Give it
to Osbert, if you must. Jad will ease my affliction when it pleases him to do
so. I am reconciled to that." "Does
that mean we who love you must be?" Ceinion's voice carried just enough
amusement to make Aeldred look closely at him, and then shake his head. "I
am made to feel like a child sometimes, by these fevers." "And
why not? We are all still children in some fashion. I can remember skipping
stones into the sea as a boy. Then learning my letters. My wedding day . . .
there is no shame in that, my lord." "There
is in helplessness." That
stopped him. In the silence, young Gareth rose, took the flask—there were no
servants near them now—and poured for the cleric and his father. Ceinion
sipped at the wine. Changed the subject, again. "Tell me of the wedding,
my lord." "Judit's?" "Unless
there is another in the offing." The cleric smiled. "The
ceremonies will be there during the midwinter rites. She goes north to Rheden
to make babies and bind two peoples again, the way her mother did, marrying
me." "What
do we know of the prince?" "Calum?
He's young. Younger than she is." Ceinion
looked down the hall, back to the king. "It is a good union." "An
obvious one." Aeldred hesitated. His turn to look away. "Her mother
has asked me to let her go, after the wedding." It was news. A confiding.
"To Jad's house?" Aeldred
nodded. Took up his wine cup again. He was looking at his younger son, and
Ceinion realized this would be news for the prince, as well. A time chosen for
the telling, late night, by lamplight. "She has wanted this for a long
time." Ceinion
said, "And you have agreed now. Or you wouldn't be telling me." Aeldred
nodded again. It
was not uncommon for men or women, nearing their mortal ending, to seek out the
god, pulling back and away from the tumult of the world. It was rare for
royalty. The world not so easily left behind, for many reasons. "Where
will she go?" the cleric asked. "Retherly,
in the valley. Where our infants are buried. She's been endowing the Daughters
of Jad there for years." "A
well-known house." "Will
be better known, with a queen, I imagine." Ceinion
listened for, but did not hear, bitterness. He was thinking about the prince on
his other side, didn't look that way, giving Gareth time. "After
the wedding?" he said. "So
she intends." Carefully,
Ceinion said, "We are not supposed to grieve, if someone finds her way, or
his, to the god." "I
know that." Gareth
suddenly cleared his throat. "Do . . . the others know of this?" His
voice was rough. His
father, who had chosen his moment, said, "Athelbert? No. Your sisters
might. I'm not certain. You may tell them, if you like." Ceinion
looked from one to the other. Aeldred, it occurred to him, would not
necessarily be an easy man to have for a father. Not for a son, at any rate. He'd
had a good deal of wine, but his thinking was still clear, and the name had now
been spoken. A doorway of his own. Perhaps. They were as much alone as they
were likely to be, and the younger son, listening, had a thoughtful nature. He
drew breath and spoke. "I have," he said, "another wedding
thought, if you might entertain it." "You
want a wife again?" The king's smile was gentle. So
was the cleric's, responding. "Not this woman. I am too old, and
unworthy." He paused again, then said it: "I have in mind someone for
Prince Athelbert." Aeldred
grew still. The smile faded. "This is the heir of the Anglcyn,
friend." "I
know it, my lord, believe me. You want peace west of the Wall, and I want my
people drawn into the world, from their feuds and solitude." "It
can't be done." Aeldred shook his greying head decisively. "If I
choose a princess from any of your provinces, I declare war on the other two,
destroy the purpose of a union." The
other man smiled. "You have been thinking about this."
"Of course I have! It is what I do. But what answer is there, then?" And
so Ceinion of Llywerth said softly, with the voice-music the Cyngael carried
with them through the world, "There is this one answer, lord. Brynn ap
Hywll, who slew the Volgan by the sea and might have been our king had he
wanted it, has a daughter of an age to be wed. Her name is Rhiannon, and she is
the jewel of all women I know. Unless that be her mother. The father is known
to you, I dare say." Aeldred
stared at him without speaking for a long time. The Ferrieres cleric snored,
cheek to the wooden board. They heard laughter again and a muffled curse from
down the room. A sleepy servant prodded the nearer fire with an iron rod. A
door opened before the king spoke. Doors
opened and closed all the time, without consequence or weight. This one was
behind them, not the double doors at the far end of the hall. A small door, an
exit for the king and his family, should they wish one. A tall man had to stoop
to go through. A passage to inner quarters, privacy, the sleep one would have
assumed to be coming soon tonight. Not
so, in the event, for it is not given to men and women to know with any surety
what is to come. The
doorways of our lives take many shapes, and the arrivals that change us are not
always announced by thunderous pounding or horns at the gates. We may be
walking a known laneway, at prayer in a familiar chapel, entering a new one and
simply looking up, or we may be deep in quiet talk late of a summer's night,
and a door will open behind us. Ceinion
turned. Saw Osbert, son of Cuthwulf, Aeldred's life-long companion, and his
chamberlain. Cuthwulf, as it happened, had been a name cursed in the Cyngael
lands, a cattle-raider and worse than that, in more violent days. Another
reason (if more were needed) the Anglcyn were hated and feared west of the
Wall. The
Erlings had killed Cuthwulf by Raedhill, with his king. The
son, Osbert, was a man Ceinion had come to admire without stint or reservation
after two sojourns here. Fidelity and courage, judicious counsel, quiet faith
and manifest love: these held their message for those who could see. Osbert
moved forward with the limp he had carried away from a battlefield twenty years
ago. He came into the lamplight. Ceinion saw his face. And even by that muted
illumination he knew that something had come upon them through that door. He
set down his wine, carefully. Peace,
ease, leisure to build and teach, to plant and harvest, time to read ancient
texts and consider them . . . these were not the coinage of the north. In other
lands they might be, to the south, east in Sarantium, or perhaps in the god's
other worlds. Not here. "What
is it?" Aeldred said. His voice had altered. He stood, his chair scraping
back. "Osbert, tell me." Ceinion
would remember that voice, and the fact that the king had been on his feet
before he'd heard anything. Knowing already. And
so Osbert told them: of signal flares lit on hills towards the south by the
sea, running in their chain of telling fire along the ridges with a message.
Not a new tale, Ceinion thought, hearing it. Nothing new here at all, only the
old dark legacy of these northlands, which was blood. NINE "Will
my own world be there when I leave you?" "I don't know what you mean.
This is the world we have." She
was beside him, very near. The glade would have been dark were it not for the
light she cast. Her hair was all around him, copper-coloured now, thick and
warm; he could touch it, had been doing so, in a wood on a summer night. They
lay in deep grass, edge of a clearing. Sounds of the forest around them,
murmurous. These woods had been shunned for generations by his people and the
Anglcyn, both. His fear was beside him, however, not among the trees. "We
have stories. Those who went with faeries, and came home . . . a hundred years
later." Spirit wood, they named this forest. One of the names. Was this
what it meant? Her
voice was lazy, a slow music. She said, "I might enjoy lying here that
long." He
laughed softly, startled. Felt himself suspended, precariously, between too
many feelings, almost afraid to move, as if that might break something. She
turned onto an elbow in the grass, looked at him a moment. "You fear us
even more than we fear you." He
thought about that. "I think we fear what you might mean." "What
can I . . . mean? I am just here." He
shook his head. Reached for clarity. "But here for so much longer than we
are." Her
turn to be silent. He stared at her, drinking slender grace with his eyes, the otherness
of her. Her breasts were small, perfect. She had arched her body back above
him, before, in the light she made. He wondered, suddenly, how he would pray
from now on, what words he could use. Did he ask forgiveness of his god for
this? For something the clerics taught did not even exist? She
said, finally, "I think the . . . speed of things for you makes the world
more dear." "More
painful?" Her hair
had slipped, by invisible degrees, towards silver again. "More dear. You .
. . love more, because you lose so quickly. We don't know . . . that
feeling." She gestured, one hand, as if reaching. "You live in . . .
in the singleness of things. Because they go from you." "Well,
they do, don't they?" "But
you come into the world knowing that. It cannot be .. . unexpected. We
die, as well. It just takes ..." "Longer." "Longer,"
she agreed. "Unless there is iron." His belt and dagger were in the chapel in Esferth.
He felt a renewed grief: one of the
suspended feelings here. What she had just said. Loving more, because losing. He
said, "Is my brother still with the queen?" She
raised an eyebrow. "Of course." "But
he won't be, always." "Nothing
is always." Born
into the world, knowing that. She
saw he was distressed. "It takes a long time," she said, "before
she tires. He is honoured, much loved." "And
he will be lost forever, after. That is always." "Why
lost? Why see it so?" "Because
we are taught that. That there is a harbour for our souls, and his was taken
and will not find the god now. Maybe .. . that is what we fear. In you. That
you can do this to us. Perhaps long ago we knew it, about the faeries." "It
was different, once," she agreed. And then shyly, after a moment, "We
could fly, then." "What?
How?" She
turned, still shy, to show him her back. And so he saw the ridges clearly,
hard, smaller than breasts, inside her shoulder blades, and he understood that
these were all that now remained of what had been faerie wings. He
imagined it, creatures like her, flying under blue moon or silver, or at
sunset. An ache in his throat, the envisaged beauty of it. In the world, once. "I'm
sorry," he said. He reached out, brushed one with a hand. She shivered,
turned back to him. "There
it is again. The way you think. Sorrow. It is so much in you. I . . . we . . .
do not live with that. It comes with the speed, doesn't it?" He
thought about this, didn't want to even guess how old she was. She spoke
Cyngael the way his grandfather had. He
said it: "You speak my language so beautifully. What does your own sound
like?" She
looked surprised a moment, then amused, the hair flashing it. "But this is
my own tongue. How do you think your people learned it?" He
gaped, closed his mouth. "Our
home is in those woods and pools," she said. "West, towards where the
sun lies along the sea at day's end. There was not always so much . . .
distance between us." He
was thinking, as hard as he could. Men spoke of the music in the voices of the
Cyngael. Now he knew. A knowing, like this night, that shifted the world. How was
he going to pray? She was looking at him, still amused. He
said, "Is this, is tonight . . . forbidden to you?" She
took a moment to answer. Said, "The queen is pleased with me." He
understood, both answer and hesitation. She was protecting him. In her way, a
kindness. They could be kind, it seemed. The queen was pleased because of Dai.
The taken soul. He
said, looking at her, "But it is still . . . seen as wrong, isn't it? You
have some licence because of what you did, but it is still ..." "There
is to be distance, yes. Just as for you." He
laughed this time. "Distance? You don't exist! To say you are even
here is heresy. Our clerics would punish me, some would cast me out from chapel
and rites, if I even spoke of it." "The
one from the pool wouldn't," she said quietly. He
hadn't realized she'd seen the cleric that night. "Ceinion? He
might," Alun said. "He likes me, because of my father, I think, but
he wouldn't allow talk of faeries or the half-world." She
smiled again. "Half-world. I haven't heard that in so long." He
didn't want to know how far back in the past some-thing would have to be for
her to think that way. The slow uncoiling of time for them. She stretched,
feral and sleek as a cat. "But you are wrong about that one. He knows. He
came to the queen when his woman was dying." "What?" She
laughed aloud, quicksilver sound, flutter and ripple in the glade.
"Softly. I can hear you," she murmured. She touched him, idly, a hand
on his leg. He felt desire, again, was very nearly defined by it. She said,
"He came to the mound and asked if one of us might come with him, to help
her live. She was coughing blood. He brought silver for the queen, and he wept
among the trees outside. He couldn't see us, of course, but he came to ask. She
pitied him." Alun
said nothing. Couldn't speak. He knew, everyone knew, about Ceinion's young
wife and her death. "So
do not say to me," the faerie added, stretching again, "that that
one, of all of you, would deny us." "She
didn't send anything, did she?" he asked, whispering. Both
eyebrows arched, she regarded him. "Why think that? She sent eldritch
water from the pool and a charm. She is gracious, the queen, honours those who
honour her." "It
didn't . . . help?" She
shook her head. "We are only what we are. Death comes. I did what I
could." He
almost missed it. "She sent you?" Her
eyes on his, no distance between them, in one way. He needed only move a hand
to touch her breast again. "I
have always been . . . most curious." He
sighed. So great a strangeness, the world altering moment by moment as the
stars turned above them. Was it slow, or fast, that movement overhead? Did it
depend on who was asking? He
said, "And tonight is . . . being curious?" "And
for you, is it not? What else is there for it to be?" A different note in
her voice now, under the music. He
was gazing at her. Helpless to look away. Small, even teeth in the wide, thin
mouth, pale skin, achingly smooth, the changing hair. Dark eyes. And vestiges
of wings. Once, they could fly. "I
don't know," he said, swallowing. "I'm not wise enough. I feel as if
I could weep." "Sorrow,
again," she said. "Why does it always come to that, for you?" "Sometimes
we can weep for joy. Do you . . . can you understand that?" A
longer silence. Then she shook her head slowly. "No. I would like to, but
this is your cup, not ours." The .
. . otherness, again. This sense that he was both in and entirely outside the
world he knew. He said, "Tell me Esferth and the others will be there when
I go from here?" She
nodded, calmly. "Though some of them won't be." He
stared. A hard thumping of the heart. "What do you mean?" "They
are starting to ride out. There is anger, men taking horse, bearing iron." He
sat up. "Holy Jad. How do you know?" She
shrugged. The question, he realized, was foolish. How could he understand how
she knew things? How could she answer him? Even in the tongue they shared, the
language her people had taught his. He
stood up. Began putting on his clothes . She watched him. He was aware, might
always be aware now, of the haste of his doing this, seen through her eyes. The
way he and the others lived. "I must go," he said. "If
something has happened." "Someone
died," she said gravely. "There is sorrow. The aura of it." The
speed of their dying. He looked at her, holding his tunic in both hands. He
cleared his throat. "Don't envy us that," he said. "But
I do," she said simply; small, sleek, shining otherness in the grass.
"Will you come back into the wood?" He
hesitated, and then a thought came that could not have come a night before,
when he was younger. "Will
you sorrow if I do not?" Her
eyebrows lifted again, but in surprise this time. She moved a hand, same
gesture as before, as if reaching for something. Then, slowly, she smiled,
looking up at him. He
pulled on his tunic. No belt, because of the iron. He turned to leave. He
hadn't answered her question, either. He had no answer to give. He
looked back from the glade's dark edge. She was still sitting there on the
grass, unclothed, in her element, sorrowless. +
The
voices in the darkness began moving away to the north. Bern remained where he
was in the stream. He had a thought, broke off a reed; might need to submerge
himself. He heard shouting, men running. Someone rasped a curse, an obscenity
directed at Erlings everywhere, and the scabrous, pustulent whores who gave
them birth. Not a
good time for this Erling to be discovered. He'd
been right, then. The signal fire had meant nothing good at all. It was still
burning. More shouting now, farther away, towards Esferth, where the tents
were: the tents outside an over-flowing city on the eve of a fair. A city
they'd been told would be almost empty, one that they might even loot in a raid
that would give rise to songs for generations to their glory, and Jormsvik's. Glory,
Bern decided, was going to be hard to come by now. He
thought quickly, keeping his breathing shallow and slow. Skallson's party had
gone east from the ships. A waste of time, some had thought—and the same had
been said about Bern and Ecca going into Esferth, once they had learned about
the fair. But if they were to leave here—and it seemed evident they
were—without anything taken at all, at least learn something before they
went, it had been decided. Salvage
pride, a flagon's worth, by carrying home report of Aeldred's lands. They might
be mocked a little less by their fellows for returning empty-handed, swords
unreddened, no tales to tell. A wasted journey at raiding season's end. His own
first raid. Right
now, Bern thought, mockery might be the best they could hope for, not the
worst. There were worse things than fire-side jibes in winter. If that bonfire
was an alert, it most likely meant Guthrum Skallson's party had been found. And
from the fury in the Anglcyn voices (still heading away from him, Ingavin be
thanked) something had happened. And
then he remembered that Ivarr had been with Skallson's party. Bern shivered in
the water, couldn't help it. You shivered like that when a spirit passed,
someone newly dead, and angry. In that same instant he heard a soft splashing
as someone entered the stream. Bern
drew his dagger and prepared himself to die: in water again, third time now.
Third time was said to mark power, sacred to Nikar the Huntress, wife to
Thьnir. Three times was a gateway. He had expected death in the night waters
off Rabady. And again in the dawn surf outside Jormsvik. He tried to accept it
once more, now. An ending waited for all men, no one knew his fate, everything
lay in how you went to your dying. He gripped his blade. "Stay
where you are," he heard. The
voice low, terse, barely audible. Utterly and entirely known all the days of
his life. "Spare
me the knife," it went on softly. "I've been stabbed at already
tonight. And keep silent or they will find and kill you here," his father
added, moving, unerringly, towards where Bern was hidden, submerged to his
shoulders, invisible in darkness. Unless
you knew he was here. Not a mystery, then, this part at least. He'd gone
straight into the stream from the place on the bank where his father had left
him. Not magic, not some impossible night vision, brilliant raider's instinct. "I
didn't think they'd offer me wine," he murmured. No greeting offered.
Thorkell hadn't greeted him. His father
grunted, coming up. "How's your head?" "Hurts. Want your neck
chain back?" "I'd
have kept it if I wanted it. You made a mistake in that alley. You know the
saga: Have thine eyes about you / in hall or darkness. Be wary ever / be
watching always." Bern
said nothing. Felt his face redden. "Two
horses?" Thorkell asked calmly. His
father's dark bulk was beside him, Thorkell's voice close to his ear. The two
of them together in a stream at night in Anglcyn lands. How was this so? What
had the gods decided? And how did men take hold of their own lives when this
could happen? He realized his heart was thumping, hated that. "Two
horses," he replied, keeping his voice steady. "Where's Ecca?" Small
hesitation. "That what he was calling himself?" Was
calling. "Right," Bern
said bitterly. "Of course. He's dead. You know, the same poet says: No
good ever, whatever be thought / was mead or ale to any man. Are you
drunk?" The
backhanded blow caught him on the side of the head. "By
Ingavin's blind eye, show respect. I got you out of a walled city. Think on it.
I went to warn him, he drew a blade to kill when I used his real name. I made a
mistake. Is your horse a good one?" A
mistake. One could weep, or laugh. Killing the second man on the isle had been
the mistake, Bern wanted to say. He was still trying to wrap his mind around
what was happening here. "My horse is Gyllir," he said. Struggled to
keep anything out of his voice his father might read as youthful pride. Thorkell
grunted again. "Halldr's? He didn't come after you?" "Halldr's
dead. The horse was for his burning." That
silenced his father, for a moment, at least. Bern wondered if he was thinking
of his wife, who had become Halldr's, and was widowed now, alone and
unprotected on Rabady. "There's
a tale to that, I imagine," was all Thorkell said. His
voice had not changed at all. Why should it change, though all the world Bern
knew had been altered entirely? "Leave Stefa's mount," his father
said. "They'll need a horse to find, after they get his body." Stefa.
With an effort Bern kept his hand from going to his head. The stars had swung
again with the blow. His father was a strong man. "They'll
see the signs of two horses where we hid them," Bern said. "Won't
work." "It
will. I'll find his horse and bring it out. Go now, though, and quickly—some
fool killed Burgred of Denferth tonight. Aeldred's riding out himself, I
think." "What?"
said Bern, his jaw dropping. "The earl? Why didn't they—?" "Take
him for ransom? You tell me. You're the mercenary. He'd have been worth your
raid and more." But
that answer, in fact, he knew. "Ivarr," he said. "Ragnarson's
paying us." "Ingavin's
blind eye! I knew it," his father rasped. His old oath, remembered from
childhood, familiar as smells and the shape of hands. Thorkell swore again,
spat into the stream. He stood waist-deep in the water, thinking. Then:
"Listen. That one's going to want you to go west. Don't go. It isn't a
raid for Jormsvik." "West?
What's west of here? Just . . ." And then, as his father said nothing,
Bern finally thought it through. He swallowed, cleared his throat.
"Blood," he whispered. "Vengeance? For his grandfather? And that's
why he—" "That's
why he bought your ships and men, whatever else he told you, and that's why he
wouldn't want a hostage. He wants to go after the Cyngael. But with ransom paid
for an earl you'd turn and go home. He was with the shore party, wasn't
he?" Bern
nodded. It was sliding into place. "I'll
wager you land we don't own any more they'll find Burgred with an arrow in
him." "He
said the burh was still unwalled, that Esferth would be almost
empty." Thorkell
grunted, spat downstream again. "Empty? During a fair? Serpent-sly, that
one. Poisons his arrows." "How
do you know that?" No
answer. It occurred to Bern that he'd never spoken in this way with his father
in his life. Nothing remotely resembling this terse conversation. He didn't
have time, no time at all, to unwind his own held-in rage, the bitterness for
lives marred. Thorkell still hadn't asked about his wife. Or Gyllir. Or how Bern
had come to be in Jormsvik. Fireflies
darting around them. Bern heard bullfrogs and crickets. No human voices,
though; they'd gone north towards the walls and tents. And would be coming out,
back this way, heading for the coast. King Aeldred leading them, his father had
said. Guthrum's
party was on foot, would be running for the ships right now. If they weren't
dead. He had no idea where they'd been when they .. . "Where
are your horses?" "Just
west, in the woods." "In
those woods?" Thorkell's voice rose for the first time. "Are
there others?" "I'll
hit you again. Show respect. That's a spirit wood. No Anglcyn or Cyngael will
enter it. Stefa ought to have known, if you didn't." "Well,"
said Bern, attempting defiance, "maybe he did know. If they don't go in,
it's a good place for our mounts, isn't it?" His
father said nothing. Bern swallowed. He cleared his throat. "He only went
in a few steps, tethered them, got out right away." "He
did know." Thorkell sounded tired suddenly. "You'd best move,"
his father said. "Think the rest of it out while you ride." Bern
moved, climbing up the western bank. He said nothing but as he looked around,
crouching, Thorkell added, "Don't let Ivarr Ragnarson know you're my son.
He'll kill you for it." Bern
stopped, looking down at the dark figure of his father in the stream. A tale
there, too, obviously. He wasn't going to ask. He wanted to say something harsh
about how late it was for Thorkell to be showing signs of looking after his
family. He
turned. Heard his father come out of the water behind him. He walked south,
quickly, bent low, went in among the trees to get Gyllir. He shivered, doing
so. Spirit wood. He knew Thorkell was watching him, to mark the place. He
didn't look back. Offered no farewell and, Ingavin knew, no thanks. He'd die
before he did that. Gyllir
whickered at his approach. The horse seemed agitated, tossing his head. Bern
rubbed his muzzle, whispering, untied the reins. He left Ecca's horse tethered,
as instructed. It wouldn't be for long. Emerged from the woods, mounted, rode,
south under stars and the blue moon, pushing Gyllir. There would be mounted men
following soon. The
land stretched level, forest to the west, open to the east across the stream,
mostly empty at first, uninhabited, then some dark farms over that way, planted
barley, rye, the harvest coming soon. A line of low trees, cluster of houses,
the ground beginning to slope towards the sea, and their ships. A long way to
go. Men following. The bonfire still burning. After a time he saw another one,
far off, and then, later, a third, sending its signals, which he couldn't read.
The moon was gone by then, behind the woods. He
leaned forward over Gyllir's neck to make his weight easier to bear. There's
a tale, I imagine, his father had said, learning of the horse. He hadn't
asked, though. Hadn't asked. Heimthra
was the word used for longing: for
home, for the past, for things to be as they once had been. Even the gods were
said to know that yearning, from when the worlds were broken. Bern was grateful,
as he rode, that no one on the wide dark earth could see his face, and he had
to trust that Ingavin and Thьnir would not think the worse of him, if they were
watching in the night. +
It
was Hakon Ingemarson who had recognized Kendra by the stream. He'd called
out to her immediately as he passed with a torch amid a crowd of others heading
for the tents. She hadn't wanted to ask how he'd known her so quickly in the
dark. Was afraid of his answer. Knew his answer, really. She'd
cursed, silently, the sheer bad luck that had led him past this point, even as
she'd turned and achieved a tone of pleased welcome when he came hurrying over. "My
lady! How come you here, unattended?" "I'm
not unattended, Hakon. Ceinion of Llywerth kindly sent his own guard with
me." She had gestured, and Thorkell had stepped forward into the light.
The dog, thankfully, was across the stream, out of sight. She'd had no least
idea how she'd have adequately explained it. "But
there's nothing here at all!" Hakon had exclaimed. She'd realized that he
was drunk. They all were. That might make things easier, in fact. "The
gathering is over by the tents! Your royal sister and brother are there
already. May we escort you?" Kendra
had searched for and failed to find any way to decline. Cursing again, inside,
with a ferocity that would have surprised all three of her siblings and utterly
disconcerted the young man in front of her, she'd smiled and said, "Of
course. Thorkell, wait here for me. I'll likely just stay a short while, and I
wouldn't want these men to forgo their entertainment to take me back
inside." "Yes,
my lady," the older Erling had said, in the uninflected voice of a
servant. Hakon
had looked as if he might protest, but evidently decided to be pleased with
what he'd gained so unexpectedly. She'd fallen in with him and the others and
they'd made their way to the colourful village of tents that had sprung up
northwest of the walls. When
they arrived, they found a boisterous crowd gathered in a wide circle. Hakon
pushed through to the front. Inside were two people. It came as no great
surprise to Kendra to discover that these were her older brother and sister. She
looked around. To one side of the ring she saw a skull, resting on the grass, a
torch set beside it. Kendra winced. She had a fairly good idea, suddenly, what
had happened here. Athelbert simply did not know when to leave well
enough alone. Judit
had a long staff, held crosswise with both hands. She knew how to use it.
Athelbert carried a significantly smaller one, a thin switch. Nearly useless,
good for swatting at leaves or apples, not much more. Judit
was attempting, with grim purpose and no little skill, to club her brother
senseless. Finish the task she'd begun that morning. Athelbert—who had had a
great deal to drink, it was clear—was laughing far too much to be at all safe
from his sister's assault. Kendra,
eyeing them, listening to the hilarity around her, was thinking about the
Cyngael in the woods, and about his dog—the way it had stood on the far side of
the stream, rigid and attentive, listening. She didn't know for what. She
didn't really want to know. There
was nothing to be done now, in any case. No way to turn around and walk away
just yet. She had sighed again, fixed a smile on her face, and accepted a cup
of watered wine from Hakon, busy on her behalf. She watched her siblings amid a
rapturous, howling crowd and smoking torches. A late-summer night, the harvest
looking to be good, the fair soon to begin. A time of laughter and celebration. The
entertainment in the ring continued, marked by two pauses for wine on the part
of the combatants. Judit's hair was entirely and immodestly unconfined now. Not
that she would care, Kendra thought. Athelbert was dodging and ducking without
pause. He'd taken two or three blows, including one to the shin that had
knocked him sprawling, barely able to roll away from Judit's urgent follow-up.
Kendra thought about intervening. She was certainly the only person who could.
She wasn't actually sure how much self-control Judit had left. It was sometimes
hard to tell. Then
someone shouted loudly, in a different tone, and people were pointing to the
south, beyond the city. Kendra turned. A bonfire. They watched the signals
begin, and repeat. And then repeat again. It
was Athelbert who decoded the message aloud for all of them. Judit, listening,
dropped her staff, went over to stand next to her brother. She began to cry.
Athelbert put his arm around her. Amid
the chaos that ensued, Kendra shifted from where Hakon had been hovering at her
elbow. Then she slipped away into the dark. Torches were everywhere, shaping
patterns in the night. She made her way back to the river. The dog was still
there. It didn't seem to have moved, in fact. Thorkell was nowhere to be seen. Nor
was Alun ab Owyn. He ought not to matter now, she was thinking. Her mind
was in a whirl. One of their own had been slain tonight, if Athelbert had the
message right. She was certain that he had. Burgred.
He had been in the marshes with her father, had fought at Camburn, both times,
when they lost and when they won. And he had gone chasing a rumour of Erling
ships while the king lay wrapped in fever. Her
father, she thought, would be tortured by that knowledge. There was a movement
across the stream. The man she'd followed came out from the trees. He
stopped at the wood's edge, looking lost. Kendra,
heart pounding, saw the dog pad over to him, push his muzzle against the
Cyngael's hip. Alun ab Owyn reached down and touched the dog. It was too dark
to see his face, but there was something in the way he stood that frightened
her. She had been frightened, she realized, all night. All day long, really,
from the time the Cyngael party had come into the meadow. There
were noises, men shouting behind her, running towards the city gates, which
were open now. Kendra heard a different sound, a footfall, nearer: she looked
over, saw Thorkell. His clothes were wet. "Where
were you?" she whispered. "He's
come out," the Erling replied, not answering. Kendra
turned back to the woods. Alun still hadn't moved, except to touch the dog.
Uncertainly, she walked towards the river, stood on the bank amid reeds and
dragonflies. She saw him look up and see her. Too dark, too dark to know his
eyes. She
took a breath. She had no business being here, no understanding of how she knew
what she knew. "Come
back to us," she said, fighting fear. The
dog turned to her voice. Blue moon and stars overhead. She heard Thorkell come
up behind her. Was grateful for that. She was watching the other man by the.
trees. And
at length, she heard Alun ab Owyn say, in a voice you had to strain to hear,
"My lady, I have a long way to go. To do that." Kendra
shivered. Was close to tears, and afraid. She made herself take another deep
breath and said, with courage that perhaps only her father was aware that she
had, "I am only this fan" Thorkell,
behind her, made an odd sound. By
the trees, Alun ab Owyn lifted his head a little. And then, after a moment,
moved forward, walking as if through water even before he reached it. He
crossed the stream with the dog. His hair was disordered. He had no belt on his
tunic, carried no weapon. "What
... are you doing here?" he asked. Her
head high, feeling the breeze in her hair, she said, "I am truly not
certain. I felt . . . afraid, from when I saw you this morning. Something . .
." "You
were afraid of me?" His voice was drained of emotion. Again she hesitated.
"Afraid for you," she said. A
silence, then he nodded, as if unsurprised. I
am only this far, she'd said. Where
had that come from? But he'd crossed. He'd come across the water from the trees
to them. A little behind her, the Erling kept silent. "Did
someone die tonight?" Alun ab Owyn asked. "We
think so," she said. "My brother believes it was Earl Burgred,
leading a party south of here." "Erlings?"
he asked. "Raiders?" He
was looking past her now, at Thorkell. The dog was beside him, wet from the
river, standing very still. "It
appears so, my lord," said the big man behind her. And then, carefully,
"I believe . . . we both know the one who leads them." And
that made a change. Kendra saw it happen. The Cyngael seemed to be pulled back
to them, snapped like a leash or a whip, away from whatever had happened in the
trees. The thing she didn't want to think about. "Ragnarson?"
he asked. Not a
name Kendra knew; it meant nothing to her. The
Erling nodded. "I believe so." "How
do you know this?" ab Owyn asked. "My
lord prince, if it is Ragnarson, he will want to take their ships west from
here. King Aeldred is riding out now, after them." He
was very good, Kendra was realizing, at not replying to questions he didn't
want to answer. In
the darkness, she looked at the Cyngael prince. Alun was rigid, so taut he was
almost quivering. "He'll go for Brynnfell again. They won't be ready, not
so soon. I need a horse!" "I'll
get you one," said Thorkell calmly. "What?
I think not," came a slurred, angry voice. Kendra wheeled, white-faced.
Saw Athelbert coming across the grass. "A mount? So he can ride my sister
and then ride home to boast of it?" Kendra
felt her heart pound, with fury this time, not fear. Her fists were clenched at
her- sides. "Athelbert, you are drunk! And entirely—" He
went right past her. He might jest and tumble with Judit, letting her buffet
him about for the amusement of others, but her older brother was a hard,
trained, fighting man, king-to-be in these lands, and enraged right now, for
more than one reason. "Entirely
what, dear sister?" He didn't look back at her. He had stopped in front of
Alun ab Owyn. He was half a head taller than the Cyngael. "Look at his
hair, his tunic. Left his belt in the grass, I see. At least you made yourself
presentable before getting off your backside." Thorkell
Einarson took a step forward. "My lord prince," he began, "I can
tell you—" "You
can shut your loathsome Erling mouth before I kill you here," Athelbert
snapped. "Ab Owyn, draw your blade." "Have
none," said Alun, mildly. And launched himself, in a lithe, efficient
movement, at Athelbert. He feinted left, and then his right fist hammered hard
at her brother's heart. Kendra's hands flew to her mouth. Athelbert went
backwards in a heap, sprawled on the grass. He grunted, shifted to get up, and
froze. The
dog, Cafall, was directly above him, a large grey menace, growling in his
throat. "He
didn't touch me, you Jad-cursed clod!" Kendra screamed at her
brother. She was close to tears, in her fury. "I was over watching you and
Judit make fools of yourselves!" "You
were? You, er, saw that?" Athelbert said. He had a hand to his chest, was
careful to make no sudden movements. "I
saw that," she echoed. "Must you take such pains to be an
idiot?" There
was a silence. They heard the noises from behind them, towards the gates. "Less
difficult than you think," her brother murmured, finally. Wry, already
laughing at himself, a gift he had, in fact. "Where," he said looking
up at Alun ab Owyn, "did you learn to do that?" "My
brother taught me," said the Cyngael, shortly. "Cafall, hold!"
The dog had growled again as Athelbert shifted to a sitting position. "Hold
is a good idea," agreed Athelbert. "You might want to tell him again?
Make sure he heard you?" He looked over at his sister. "I appear to
have—" "Erred,"
said Kendra, bluntly. "How unusual." They
heard horns, from the city. "That's
Father," said Athelbert. A different tone. Alun
looked over. "We'll need to hurry. Thorkell, where's that horse?" The
big man turned to him. "Downstream. I killed an Erling raider in town
tonight. Tracked his horse to the wood just now. If you need a mount quickly
you can—" "I
need a mount quickly, and a sword." "Killed
an Erling raider?" Athelbert snapped in the same breath. "Man I used
to know. With Jormsvik now. I saw him in the—" "Later! Come
on!" said Alun. "Look!" He pointed. Kendra and the two men
turned. She gripped her hands together tightly. The fyrd
of King Aeldred was streaming out of the gates amid torches and banners.
She heard the sound of horses' harness and drumming hooves, men shouting, horns
blowing. The glorious and terrible panoply of war. "My
lady?" It was Thorkell. Asking leave of her. "Go,"
she said. He wasn't her servant. The
two men began running along the riverbank. The dog growled a last time at
Athelbert, then went after them. Kendra
looked down at her brother, still sitting on the grass. She watched him stand,
somewhat carefully. He'd had a painful day. Tall, fair-haired as an Erling,
graceful, handsome, reasonably near to sober, in fact. He
stood before her. His mouth quirked. "I'm an idiot," he said. "I
know, I know. Adore you, though. Remember it." Then
he went quickly away as well, towards the gates, to join the company riding
out, leaving her unexpectedly alone in darkness by the stream. That
didn't happen often, being left alone. It was not, in fact, unwelcome. She
needed some moments to compose herself, or try. What
are you doing here? he'd asked. The
too-obvious question. And how was she to answer? Speak of an aura almost seen, a
sound beyond hearing, something never before known but vivid as faith or
desire? The sense that he was marked, apart, and that she'd somehow known it,
from his first appearance in the meadow that morning? I
have a long way to go, he'd said,
across the stream. And she'd known, somehow, what he really meant, and it was a
thing she didn't want to know. Jad
shield me, Kendra thought. And
him. She looked towards the trees, unwillingly. Spirit wood. Saw nothing
there, nothing at all. She
lingered, reluctant to surrender this quiet. Then, like a blade sliding into
flesh, it came back to her that the tumult she was hearing was a response to
the death of someone she'd known from childhood. Burgred
of Denferth lifting her onto his horse, so far above the ground, for a canter
around the walls of Raedhill. She'd been three, perhaps four. Terror, then
pride, and a hiccoughing laughter, giddy breathlessness. Her father's softened,
amused face when Burgred brought her back and, leaning in the saddle, set her
down, red-faced, on chubby legs. Did
you remember things because they'd happened often, or because they were so
rare? That one had been rare. A stern man, Earl Burgred, more so than Osbert. A
figure of action, not thought. Carried the marks of the past in a different
way. Her father's fevers, Osbert's leg, Burgred's . . . anger. He'd been with
Aeldred, and had been loved, when they'd all been very young, even before
Beortferth. An
Erling had killed him tonight. How did one deal with that, if one was king of
the Anglcyn? Her
father was riding out. Could die tonight. They had no idea how many Erlings
were south of them. How many ships. Jormsvik, Thorkell Einarson had said. She
knew who they were: mercenaries from the tip of Vinmark. Hard men. The hardest
of all, it was said. Kendra
turned then, away from woods and stream and solitude, to go back. She saw her
younger brother, standing patiently, waiting for her. She
opened her mouth, closed it. Athelbert would have sent him, she realized. In
the midst of chasing down his horse and armour and joining the fyrd amid
chaos, he'd have done that. It
was too easy to underestimate Athelbert. "Father
wouldn't let you both go?" she asked quietly. Knew the answer before she
asked. Gareth
shook his head in the darkness. "No. What happened here? Are you all
right?" She
nodded. "I suppose. You?" He
hesitated. "I wouldn't mind killing someone." Kendra
sighed. Others had sorrows, too. You needed to remember that. She came forward,
took her brother's arm. Didn't squeeze it or anything like that; he'd bridle at
obvious sympathy. Gareth knew the Rhodian and Trakesian philosophers, had read
them aloud to her, modelled himself (or tried) on their teachings. Conduct
yourself in the sure knowledge that death comes to all men born. Be composed,
accordingly, in the face of adversity. He was seventeen years old. They
walked back together. She saw the guard at the gate, white-faced. The one who
had let her out. She nodded reassuringly at him, managed a smile. She
and Gareth went to the hall. Osbert was there, amid a blaze of lanterns, giving
instructions, men coming and going in front of him. Something he'd done all
Kendra's life. His face looked seamed and gaunt. None of them was young any
more, she thought: her father, Osbert, Burgred. Burgred was dead. Were the dead
old, or young? There
was nothing for her to do, but it was too late to go to bed. They went to
morning prayers when sunrise came. Her mother joined them, large, calm, a ship
with the wind behind her, sure in her faith. Kendra didn't see Judit in the
chapel, but her sister found them later, back in the hall, soberly garbed, hair
properly pinned but with a wild fury in her eyes. Judit did not subscribe to
the doctrines of composure advocated by Rhodian philosophers. She wanted a
sword right now, Kendra knew. Wanted to be on a horse, riding south. Would
never, ever, be reconciled to the fact that she couldn't do that. By
then, someone had found the dead Erling in the alley and had reported it to
Osbert. Kendra had expected that, had been thinking about it when she was
supposed to be praying. Waiting
for a pause in the flow of messages to and from, she went over and told Osbert,
quietly, what she knew. He listened, considered, said nothing by way of
reproach. That was not his way. He sent a messenger running for the guard who
had been on the wall, who came, and another one for the Erling servant of
Ceinion of Llywerth, who did not. Thorkell
Einarson, they discovered, had gone south with the fyrd. So had the
Cyngael cleric, though that had been known: a night ride beside Aeldred on a
horse they'd given him. A different sort of holy man, this one. And Kendra knew
Alun ab Owyn was also with them, and why. Someone
named Ragnarson. She remembered the way he'd looked, coming out of the wood.
She still didn't want to acknowledge what it was she seemed to know about
this, about him—without any idea how she knew. The world, Kendra
suddenly thought, heretically, was not as well-made as it might have been. She
pictured him riding, and the grey dog running beside the horses towards the
sea. + Earlier
that same night, a woman was making her way carefully across the fields of
Rabady Isle, not precisely sure of her direction in the dark, and more than a
little afraid to be abroad after moonrise alone. She could hear the sea and the
waving grain at the same time. Harvest was coming, the grain fields were high,
making it harder to see her way. A
little before, under the same waning blue moon, her exiled husband and only son
had spoken together in a stream near Esferth. A coming-together that could only
having been shaped—she would have said—by the gods for their own purposes,
which were not to be understood. The woman would have been grateful for tidings
of the son; would have denied interest in the father. Her
daughters were also away, across the strait on the Vinmark mainland. Neither
had sent word for some time. She understood. A family disgrace could make
ambitious husbands cautious about such things. There was a king in Hlegest now
with increasingly clear ambitions of his own to rule all the Erlings, not just
some of them in the north. Times were changing. It meant, among other things,
that young men had reason to think carefully, mind their tongues, be discreet
with family connections. Shame could come to a man through his wife. Frigga,
daughter of Skadi, once wife to Red Thorkell, then to Halldr Thinshank, now
bound to no man and therefore without protection, was not bitter about her
daughters. Women
had only so much control over their lives. She didn't know how it was
elsewhere. Much the same, she imagined. Bern, her son, ought to have stayed by
her when Halldr died instead of disappearing, but Bern had been turned from a
landowner's heir into a servant by his father's exile, and who could, truly,
blame a young man for rejecting that? She'd
assumed he was dead, after they'd gone looking for him and the horse in the
morning and found neither. Had spent nights mourning, not able to let anyone
see how much she grieved, because of what he'd obviously done, taking the dead
man's funeral horse. Then,
a short while ago, at summer's end, had come tidings that he hadn't died.
They'd stoned the volur for helping Bern Thorkellson get off the isle. Frigga
didn't believe it. It made no sense at all, that tale, but she wasn't about to
say that to anyone. There was no one to whom she could talk. She was alone
here, and still had no true idea if her son was alive. And then,
a few days ago, they had named the new volur. One-handed
Ulfarson, now governor, did the naming, which was a new thing. There were
always new things, weren't there? But the young volur was kin to her,
nearly, and Frigga had offered some small kindnesses when the girl had first
arrived to serve in the women's compound. It seemed now to have been a wise
thing to have done, though that wasn't why she'd done it. A woman's road was
hard, always, stony and bleak. You helped each other, if and when you could.
Her mother had taught her that. She
needed help herself now. It had brought her into the night (windy, not yet
cold) and these whispering fields. She was afraid of animals, and spirits, and
of living men doing what they were likely to do if they had been drinking and
came upon a woman alone. She feared the moment, and what the future held for
her in the world. Frigga
stopped, took a deep breath, looked around her by moonlight, and saw the
boulder. They had done the stoning here. She knew where she was. Another
breath, and a murmured thank-you to the gods. She had been to the women's
compound four times in her life, but the last visit had been twenty years ago,
and she had come by daylight, each time with an offering when she was carrying
a child, and three of her children had lived. Who understood these things? Who
dared say they did? It was Fulla, corn goddess, who decreed what happened to a
woman when her birth pangs came. It made sense to seek intercession. Frigga
moved to the stone. Touched it, murmured the proper words. She
didn't know if what she was doing now could be said to be sensible, but she
was, it seemed, no more willing to be a servant than her son had been—to be
ordered to bed any man-guest at the behest of Thinshank's first wife, the widow
who'd inherited, with her sons. Second
wives had little in the way of rights, unless they'd had time to establish
their ground in the house. Frigga hadn't. She wasn't far, in fact, from being
cast out, with winter coming. She had no property, thanks to Thorkell's second
murder. Nor was she young enough to readily persuade any proper man to take her
to wife. Her breasts were fallen, her hair grey, there were no children left
waiting in her womb. She
had lingered through a spring and summer, endured what she'd known would come
from the day Halldr died, followed by that disastrous funeral: burning him
without the horse, the omen of it, the unquiet spirit. She had hoped troubles
would pass her by, seen they would not, and finally decided to come out
tonight. Much the same path—though she did not know this—her son had taken with
a dead man's horse in the spring. A roll of the gambling dice. Women
were not actually allowed to touch the dice, of course, for fear of putting a
curse on them. She
saw the first trees, and the light, at the same time.
Anrid
wasn't asleep. She hadn't been sleeping since the stoning. The images that came
when she closed her eyes. It was wearing her away. Her elevation to volur hadn't
changed this; it hadn't even been a surprise. She'd seen the unfolding of
events in her mind, as if played out on some raised platform, from the time
she'd gone to the governor. In truth, from the time she'd devised her course of
action after he'd summoned her to come to him. It
had happened as she'd seen it, including the stoning, when she'd worn the
serpent about her body for all of them to see. She
hadn't known this about herself: that anger could make her cause people to die.
But the volur had had the snake bite her before knowing if its
poison was gone. Anrid had been the newest girl, and alone here. Her dying
wouldn't have mattered to anyone in the world. They had made her stand still,
eyes closed in sick terror, and had goaded the released serpent with sticks,
and it had bitten her. Then they'd sent her back out on watch duty, waiting
curiously to see if she died. Anrid had been sick to her stomach in the yard,
and then limped out through the gate to where she was supposed to watch. What
else had there been for her to do? And
that night Bern had come. She'd seen him tie the horse and walk into the
compound, and the volur had arranged to send him to a savage death. No
uncertainty about that one, no testing of poison. He'd enter the town at
sunrise, thinking he was safe, and would be taken and killed. A man who'd come
to the seer for help. She had sheathed him in her wrinkled, dried-out flesh,
deceiving him entirely. Laughed about it after. The crude jibes of the other
old ones, peering through cracks in the wall, complaining they hadn't had their
turn. Anrid,
turning away in disgust to the darkness again, limping, had taken her own first
steps towards the stonings (savage death) later that same night when she spoke
to the man, warning him. Bern Thorkellson was kin to her, almost. She told
herself that now, over and again. You stood by kin in this world because there
was no one else to stand by, or who might ever stand by you. A rule of the
northlands. You died if you were too much alone. But
she saw stones striking flesh whenever she closed her eyes now. When
they knocked at her door and she rose and opened it and they told her a woman
had come, she knew—they would think it was her power—who this had to be, even
before her brother's wife's mother was led to her chamber. It wasn't power, it
was a quick mind. A different sort of mystery; women weren't ever credited with
that. While
she waited, Anrid let the snake coil around her; she did that all the time now.
The serpent had been her doorway to this. It was important that the others see
her handling it, confront their own fear of doing the same. She was still the
newest, still the youngest, and now volur. She needed to find a way to
survive. Volurs could be killed. She knew it. A
knock, the door opened. She gestured for Frigga to enter, closed the door
herself, letting no one else in. She had already blocked up the holes through
which she and the others used to peek. She put the serpent in the basket they'd
made for it. She
hated the snake. Anrid
turned to the older woman, looked at her a moment, opened her mouth to speak,
and began to cry. The tears stunned her with how desperately they fell. Her
hands were shaking. "Oh,
child," said Frigga. Anrid
couldn't stop weeping. You'd have had to kill her to make her stop. "Will
you . . . ?" she began. Choked on her words, tears in her throat. Hands in
trembling fists to her mouth. A shuddering of breath. Tried again. "Will
you stay with me? Please stay?" "Oh,
child. Have you a place for me?" Anrid
could only nod, again and again, a spasm of the head. The older woman, nearly
kin, closest thing she had, came forward and they wrapped each other in arms
that had not known or given comfort for so long. Only
the younger one wept, however. Then, later that night, she slept. TEN Brogan
the miller, awake as usual before dawn, was thinking, as he pissed into the
stream before beginning the day, about some of the things he disliked. It
was a long list. He was a sour, solitary man. Had been drawn to the mill
because it gave him a house at the edge of the village, a place removed from
(and a stature above) the others. He'd murdered someone to get this mill, but
that was an old story and he didn't think or even dream about it often any
more. Brogan didn't really like people. They talked too much, most of them. His
servant was, usefully, a mute. He'd been very happy (briefly) when he'd learned
that Ord, a farmer with fields east of the village, was looking for work for
his youngest son who didn't talk. Brogan had made arrangements to bring the boy
to the mill. He was old enough, a broad-shouldered lad. A straw pallet, food, a
day a week to help his father. Milk and cheese for Brogan in exchange for that
last. And a
decent worker who didn't prattle on when feeding the animals or standing
waist-deep in the stream mending the wheel. Brogan, who had come to the mill as
a worker himself thirty years ago—and taken certain measures a little later to
ensure he'd stay—couldn't understand why people would mar an easy silence with
wasted words. There
were still stars in the west. First hint of greyness east. Dawn wind ruffling
the reeds in the river. Brogan scratched himself and went to unbolt the mill. A
warm day coming. Still summertime, though late in the season, with what that
meant. Brogan
didn't like the new end-of-summer fair, third year now. The road west of their
hamlet towards the river (of which the millstream was a tributary) became too
busy. Steady traffic from coast to Esferth and then back, afterwards. People
on roads signified trouble for Brogan the miller. Nothing good about them at
all. Strangers stole things, came looking for women or drink, or just mischief
to make or find. Brogan had coins buried in three places around the mill. Would
have spent some of them by now, but he'd never wanted anything enough to spend
good money on it. A woman, now and again, but you could buy one of those for
grain, and many of the farmers paid him with flour and wheels of bread. More
than he needed. He left his money buried, but worried about it. Long ago, he'd
lain awake wondering if someone would find the old miller in his grave, dig him
up, see the crushed skull. Now it was the coins that woke him sometimes in the
dark. All over the world men knew that millers made money. He
had three dogs. Didn't like them, their barking, but they offered protection.
And Modig, the mute, was a good-sized lad, handy with a cudgel. Brogan himself
wasn't a big man, but he'd survived a fight or two in his day. He'd
considered taking a wife, some time ago. Children to do the work as he grew
older. The idea had come, lingered a while, and passed: women changed things,
and Brogan the miller didn't like change. That was the principal reason he
didn't like the king. Even after all these years, Aeldred was always changing
things. You had to make bows and arrows for yourself now, or buy them, and you
were supposed to practise every week, and be tested by someone from the fyrd
each spring. Didn't they have other things to do, the fyrd? Farmers
with bows: that was a stupid, dangerous thought. They'd kill each other before
the Erlings had a chance. It
was dark in the mill, but after so many years he knew his way blind. He opened
the shutters over the stream, to let in some light and air. Went down the
steps, heard the mice skitter from his footfall. He lifted the lock to the
sluice, gripped with both hands, put his back to it, and pulled back the chute
gate. The water started pouring in. Soon the familiar sounds of the turning
wheel and millstones grinding above began. He went back up, took the first
sack, opened it, dumped it into the hopper above the turning stones. Through
the open window the eastern sky showed brighter. The first women and children
would be coming for their flour after sunrise, most of them straight from the
dawn prayers in the small chapel. Brogan
was still thinking about changes as he checked the millstones, which were
turning easily. A new cleric in the village now. This one could read and write,
was supposed to be teaching people. There were new rules for military service,
new taxes for the building of the burhs. Yes, the burhs were
supposed to protect them, but Brogan doubted a walled fort at Drengest south
and east on the coast, or the other one inland two days east, would do much
good for their hamlet or his mill if trouble came. And reading? Reading? What
in the name of Jad's toes and fingers did that have to do with anything? Might
be well enough for a soft man at court where they ate with ale-soddened
musicians piping and warbling to spoil good meat. But here? In a farming
village? Modig would do so much better mending the fence or the water-wheel
once he could spell his name! Brogan turned his head to spit expertly out the
window into the stream. The
new cleric had called shortly after arriving. Fair enough: the mill was owned
by the chapel and the miller together. That was why Brogan was miller, really.
When the old one had come to his unexpected end (a sudden fever in midsummer,
taken in the one night, buried sadly by his servant at dawn), it had made sense
for the cleric to strike a bargain with the dour young man after the funeral
rites. The miller's assistant, Brogan by name, had seemed to know what he was
doing, and the village couldn't afford to have the mill idle while they
considered who should have the position. It was a stroke of good fortune for
the young fellow, obviously, but Jad could sometimes bestow generously where
you might not have expected it. Thirty
years later, this newest cleric (fifth one Brogan had worked with) had looked
around the mill in a cursory sort of way, clearly uninterested in what he saw,
and then, growing enthusiastic, had asked Brogan about installing one of the
newer-styled vertical wheels. He'd read a letter from a fellow cleric in
Ferrieres about them, he said. More power, a better use of the river. Changes,
again. Ferrieres. Brogan, wasting more words than he'd wanted to, had explained
about the flow of their small stream, the limited needs of the hamlet, and the
cost of having a vertical wheel built and attached. It
was that last, he was sure, that had induced the cleric to nod sagely, stroke a
weak, beardless chin, and agree that the simpler ways were often best,
fulfilling the god's purposes entirely well. They
left the horizontal wheel alone. Brogan took the chapel's share of the mill's
earnings (in coin or kind) to them every second week. He was prompt about that
sort of thing; it kept people from coming round and talking. He
did hold back a slightly higher portion for himself. If you set that up from
the outset, they were unlikely to have questions. He'd been through this before.
The cleric had asked about written records on that first visit, Brogan had
explained he didn't know how to write. He'd declined an offer of reading
lessons. Leave it to the young ones, he'd said. People
were always wanting to change things. Brogan couldn't understand it. Change was
going to come, why hurry it along? The king had even sent around new
instructions for farmers at the end of this past winter, with the archers from
the fyrd, on how to properly handle their fields. Alternating crops.
What to grow. As if anyone at court knew anything about farming. Brogan had
never been near the king's court (only twice up to Esferth town, which was
twice more than enough) but he knew what he thought of it. You didn't need to
eat dung to know you wouldn't like the taste. He
leaned out the window and looked upstream to his right. Modig had fed the
chickens, was at work in the herb and vegetable garden. A virtue to having a
farmer's son here: the garden was looking better than it had in years. Brogan
wasn't fussy about what he ate, but he liked turnips and parsnips with his
bread and broth and fish, and a decent seasoning as much as the next man, and
Modig had a way with the garden. Of course, thought the miller sourly, if he'd
had counsel from the courtiers on what seedlings and how much dung to use, it
would doubtless be far better. He
spat again into the stream below, saw the pale harbinger of sunrise in the
east, and muttered his customary two-sentence version of the rites. His own
idea of Jad was not of a god who needed a lot of words. You acknowledged him,
gave thanks, and got on with what you had to do. And it didn't need to be done
in a chapel. You could pray in a mill over water, gazing out at the fields. Gazing
out at the fields, Brogan the miller saw—in the last near-darkness of a summer
night—twenty men or more downstream from him, kneeling beside the water or
knee-deep in it, drinking and filling flasks. He
drew his head back quickly, because he saw that they carried weapons. Weapons
meant—since they were being quiet and were nowhere near the north-south
road—that these were outlaws, or even Erlings, and not simply passing by on
their way to trade peacefully at the Esferth fair. Brogan swallowed, his palms
suddenly sweaty, scalp prickling. He thought of his coins buried in the yard
and just outside it. He thought of death. Armed men across the stream. A large
number of men. Not,
in the event, large enough. From
the north, Brogan suddenly heard a dog. His heart lurched. It was a deep,
fierce, triumphant howl; not one of his own dogs, though they immediately
started their own wild barking in the fenced yard. He looked out, carefully.
The men in the stream had begun scrambling from the water, splashing,
stumbling, unsheathing swords. They formed, at a shouted string of commands, a
tight, disciplined order and began running south. They were
Erlings, then. The language gave it away, and no outlaws would be nearly so
precise in their formation and movements. Brogan leaned out, looking past where
Modig had now stopped working in the garden and was standing rigid, also
watching. That howling came again, a sound he would remember. Wouldn't ever
want to be hunted by that. Brogan heard hoofbeats and shouting over the barking
of his own dogs, and into his field of vision, streaming down from the north,
came a galloping company, swords drawn, spears out, hurtling through the
stream. In
the pre-dawn light he saw a banner, and Brogan the miller understood that this
was the king's fyrd, and that they had seen the Erlings and were going
to catch up to them just across the water from his mill. His heart was pounding
as if he, too, were running or riding. He had been expecting, moments ago, to
be killed here, fingers broken one by one—or worse things—until he told where
his money was. The nightmare that came in his sleep. Leaning
out, he saw the Erlings turn to face the horsemen bearing swiftly down upon
them. He didn't like King Aeldred, all his changes, the new taxes levied to
support fyrd and forts, but at this particular moment, watching those
horsemen surround the Erlings, such feelings were . . . suspended. Brogan
left the mill, went out the door, walked down to the stream. Modig, holding a
spade, opened the garden gate and came over, stood beside him. The dogs were
still barking. Brogan snapped a command over his shoulder and they stopped. There
was a grey mist on the millstream, rising. Through it, as the pale sun came up,
they watched what happened in the meadow on the other side. The millwheel
turned. + It
occurred to Alun at some point during the night ride south that he was
surrounded now by Anglcyn warriors, who had traditionally been his enemies,
racing to intercept Erlings, who were enemies as well. One of Athelbert's
archers had given him a sword and belt, at the prince's command. You could name
it a friend's gesture. You had to, really. For
the Cyngael, he thought, friends were hard to come by in the world. And that,
if you stopped to think about it, really did make the feuds between Arberth and
Cadyr and Llywerth harder to justify. That wasn't something people did think
about, though, west of the Rheden Wall. Their endless internal warring was .. .
the way things were. The three provinces raided and goaded each other, fought
for primacy, always had. His father, Alun knew, would have preferred stealing a
herd of cattle from an arrogant Arberthi and hearing his bard sing about it
after, to any foray across the Wall into Rheden, or even mauling Erling
raiders. Though
that last might not be true any more, not since Dai was killed. He couldn't be
sure, but he thought his father had changed through the spring and summer. Alun
was aware of changes within himself, shaped around loss and what he'd seen in
that pool by Brynnfell. He didn't know where the changes had taken him, but he
knew they were there. He
wasn't sure exactly where he was right now, galloping south-east between copses
of trees, but he did know—or believe—that the man who'd led the raid that
killed his brother was somewhere ahead of them. Ivarr Ragnarson had eluded pursuit
near Brynnfell, fled to his ships and away—and had now killed a good man here.
He needed to die. It was . . . important he be killed. If
you stopped to think about it. There
was no time to stop tonight—two short rests allowed by the king, no more than a
pause to drink at streams, fill flasks, then riding again—but he had plenty of
time to think under the summer stars as the blue moon westered through clouds
and went down behind the woods. There were riders all around him, but their
faces—and his—were shielded from scrutiny. The shelter of darkness, the .. .
need for it. And with that, the memory came back to him, inescapable, who had
said exactly that, and when: Needful as night. Rhiannon
mer Brynn, clad in green at her father's table, the night his brother had died
and had his soul stolen away. He realized he hadn't let himself think about
her, those words, his own song, since then, as if flinching from too fiercely
bright a fire. Do you hate me so much, my lord? Alun
looked over towards the woods. More darkness, blurred in distance, the river
somewhere between. He thought of the faerie, her hair changing colour, the
light she'd made, and he began to wonder, riding, exactly what the world was,
how it was crafted, how he'd make his own peace with Jad . . . and the high
cleric on the horse ahead of him, beside King Aeldred. He
didn't know if he felt older now, or younger because less sure of things, but
he did understand that everything had altered and could not be remade as it had
been before. The speed of things for you, the faerie had said. He didn't
even have a name for her. Did they have names? He hadn't thought to ask before
stumbling out of the wood. He had been afraid, as he'd left the trees,
wondering if he would come out into different moonlight and find his world
gone. Instead,
he'd found an Anglcyn princess, inexplicably, waiting there for him. I
am only this far. As if she'd known
of his fear, what he was feeling. No distance at all, just across a quiet
stream. The world still his, not altered, yet changed in every way. Her being
there another thing to think about, try to understand. He shook his head. There
were only so many images, memories, you could deal with at once, Alun decided,
before you had to look away. And
then, as the night ended, all changed again. Thinking
back, afterwards, he realized he oughtn't to have been so surprised that they
found the Erlings. For one thing, the fyrd knew this land as well as he
and his brother had known the valleys and fells of Cadyr, every tuck and fold
of their province recorded on a mental map, down to the shepherds' huts and the
farms where daughters might be willing to rise from their beds, wrapped in a
shawl, and come out into the dark, soft and warm, to a known whisper at a night
window. They
had been riding along the route that made sense for intercepting a party on
foot. The Erlings would be running towards where their ships would have
anchored, between the burh at Drengest and the steep coastline farther
west where they couldn't come ashore. You could figure these things out if you
knew where you were and the land around you. Copses and rivers, slopes and
hamlets. Aeldred and his fyrd would know them all: the places where the
Erlings who'd killed Burgred of Denforth would be unable to pass, and the ones
they'd try to avoid. They might miss the Erlings in darkness or mist, but
they'd find their path. And
they had Cafall with them. The
dog was the part of this night that neither Alun nor Ceinion, and certainly
none of the Anglcyns, had thought about. But it was Cafall—hunting dog, Brynn's
gift—who howled, a wild sound that could terrify and appall, as they approached
a stream in the grey before sunrise. Alun's heart began pounding. Someone near
the front raised an arm and pointed, shouting. It was Athelbert, he saw. They
had been intending to pray here, dismount long enough to perform the dawn rites
on the riverbank. Instead, they thundered across, west of a village mill,
splashing through water, weapons out, and they came up to the Erlings, who were
on foot, and surrounded them in a green meadow as the sun came up. + There
were too many people living here now, too many towns, too many burhs with
fighting men inside them. Guthrum Skallson, running with fewer than twenty men
(five had taken the horses to the ships with a warning, to bring forty of them
back), had seen a hill fire burning, and then another to the north, a little
later, and had realized that they were in even more danger than he'd thought.
They'd run all through the night. He
couldn't say he was surprised when they were found. They'd have taken a
different route if the woods and treed slopes had allowed. But they didn't know
these lands, and the best he could do was go back west along the same path
they'd taken and hope they met their reinforcements before they were
intercepted. It
hadn't happened. He hadn't expected those hilltop flares in the dark, the speed
of the Anglcyn response. He'd thought they had a decent chance, that he'd been
in worse trouble over the years. Then a dog howled as dawn broke, and the fyrd
was there. He
had the men circle in the meadow as the Anglcyn riders thundered across the
stream. No point running, these were mounted men. He saw the banners in the
pale light and under-stood that King Aeldred hadn't just sent his warriors, he
had come himself. They were taken. It
had happened before. There were resources in Jormsvik, Ingavin knew. They could
be bought back, for a price and promises. Likely some of them would be hostages
for a time. Likely Guthrum would be one of those. He cursed, under his breath. He
had eighteen men; there appeared to be close to two hundred surrounding them,
mounted. He wasn't a berserkir, he was a mercenary, hired. This wasn't
war. He let fall his sword, held up open hands. Stepped forward, that the
Anglcyn king might know who led this party. "How
many men did Burgred take south with him?" A man
with a grey beard spoke, in Anglcyn, but not to Guthrum. He understood the
words, though; the languages were near enough. "Six,
including himself," said a younger man on a brown horse beside the
speaker. "Shoot
six," said the bearded man, who would be Aeldred of the Anglcyn. "Not
that one." He pointed to Guthrum. The
younger one spoke. Six arrows flew. Six of Guthrum's men—who had lain down
their weapons when he had—fell into the grass. Guthrum
did not fear death. No mercenary could fight as many battles as he had over so
many years and live with fear. He didn't want to die, however. He liked
ale and women, battle and comrades, peril and hardship and ease after. The
trappings of a warrior in this middle-world. He
said, "None of them killed your earl. None of them would have." "Indeed,"
said the king on the horse in front of him. "So Burgred lives, is coming
home even now?" Guthrum
met that gaze. No Erling ought to cower before these people. "We do not
use arrows in Jormsvik." "Ah.
So no arrow killed him. Our tidings are false? Good. None will have killed your
fellows, if so." Thought
he was clever, this king. Guthrum had heard that of him. Problem was, he was
clever. In too many ways. Raiding had become impossible here. This journey
had been a mistake from the moment they took Ivarr's money and set sail. Ivarr.
Guthrum looked around. Someone—a
younger man, smaller, sitting an Erling horse—had come forward beside the king.
He looked down at Guthrum. "Ragnarson was with you?" Spoke
Anglcyn, but you could tell a Cyngael the moment he opened his mouth. How could
he know about Ivarr, though? Guthrum considered for a moment, thinking fast,
keeping silent. "Shoot
another, Athelbert," said the king. They
shot another. Atli, this time. Guthrum
had come to Jormsvik's walls with Atli Bjarkson fifteen years ago. Walking to
the fortress together from homes in the north, meeting on the road, winning
their fights on the same morning, joining the same company. A never-forgotten
day. The day that split your life into before and after. Guthrum looked down
into the grass now in a morning's first light, far from Vinmark, and he spoke
the farewell aloud, invoking Ingavin's welcome for a friend in the warriors'
halls. Then he turned back to the mounted men surrounding them. "You
were asked a question," said King Aeldred. His voice was calm, flat, but
there was no way to mistake the rage in him. This might not be a hostage and
ransom circumstance, after all. And Guthrum had men here for whom he was
responsible. "We
have surrendered our arms," he said. "And
will you tell me Burgred did not when you found them? When you put an arrow in
him?" "How
do you know about that?" "Athelbert.
One more, please." "Wait!"
Guthrum lifted an urgent hand. The
prince named Athelbert, more slowly, did the same. No arrow was loosed. Guthrum
swallowed, looking up at the Anglcyn, a black rage in his own heart. He could
crush any of these in battle, any two of them; he and Atli could have handled
half a dozen. "However
you know this," he said, "you are right. Ivarr Ragnarson paid for
this raid, and killed the earl. Against my orders and wishes. Do you think we
are fools?" He heard the passion in his own voice, moved to master it. "I
think you are, yes, but would not have thought so in that way. Mercenaries
killing a nobleman taken. Where is he, then? This Ragnarson?" There was
contempt in the voice. Guthrum could hear it. He
would have said he despised Ivarr Ragnarson at least as much as those
surrounding them did. He felt no loyalty to him at all. Had been on the edge of
killing the man himself. And had that last Anglcyn bowshot taken any man there
but Atli, he would likely have pointed back to the stream where Ivarr had
obviously remained hidden when they fled. One life surrendered, to save those
in his charge. A fair and proper deed. The
flow of time and events is a large river; men and women are usually no more
than pebbles in that, carried along. But sometimes, at some moments, they are
more. Sometimes the course of the stream is changed, not just for a few people
but for many. They
shouldn't have killed Atli, Guthrum
Skallson thought, standing in a meadow surrounded by his enemies. Our
weapons were in the grass. We had yielded ourselves. "We
took five horses," he said. "I sent riders back to the ships." Aeldred
stared down at him for a long time. The arrogance of it was as wormwood, gall,
bitterest taste he knew: as if a woman were looking at him this way. Scarcely
to be borne. "Yes,"
the king said, finally, "you will have done that. And asked for
reinforcements to meet you. A ship's worth? Very well. They will be dealt with
next. You have all made a terrible mistake. Jad knows, I have no need or desire
of ransom for any of you at all. My need, just now, is otherwise.
Athelbert." "My
lord!" began another, older
man. Another Cyngael. "They have laid down—" "No
words, Ceinion!" said the king of the Anglcyn. He
had spared the life of the man who'd blood-eagled his father. Everyone in the
northlands knew the tale. He wasn't doing so now. Aeldred turned away,
indifferently, as arrows were notched. Guthrum
nearly got to him. You
didn't let yourself die helplessly in a morning field like a target set up for
womanish Anglcyn who dared not fight you properly. Not if you were an Erling
and a warrior. He was actually at the king's reins, reaching up, when the sword
took him in the throat. It was the young Cyngael who had moved fastest, Guthrum
saw with his last sight. He
was dying on his feet, though, in battle, as was proper. The gods loved their
warriors, their blood, the dragon-ships, red blades, ravens and eagles called
you home to halls where mead flowed freely and forever. The
sun was up, but he couldn't see it, suddenly. There was a long white wave. He
named Ingavin and Thьnir, and went to them. + Expressionless,
though with his heart beating fast, Brogan the miller stood by the stream and
watched his king and warriors kill the Erlings in the meadow. Fifteen
or twenty of them. No hostages, none spared. There was no ferocity or passion
in the dispatch of the raiders. They were just . . . dealt with. For more than
a hundred years the Anglcyn had lived in terror of these raiders from the sea
in their dragon-ships. Now the Erlings were being killed like so many ragged
outlaws. He
decided, just then, that he liked King Aeldred after all. And watching the
arrows fly, he came also to a reconsideration of his views on the subject of
archery. Beside him, Modig stood gripping his spade, his mouth hanging open. The fyrd
turned to ride south. As they did, one rider peeled off from the others and
came over towards the mill and stream where the two men were. Brogan felt a
flicker of apprehension, made himself be calm. These were his defenders, his
king. "You
live here?" the mounted man snapped, reining his mount on the other side
of the river. "You are the miller?" Brogan
touched a hand to his forehead and nodded. "Yes, my lord." "Find
villagers, farmers, whatever you can. Have these bodies burned before sundown.
You yourself are in charge of collecting weapons and armour. Keep them in the
mill. There are eighteen Erlings. All were armed in the usual ways. We have a
good idea of what should be here when we come back. If anyone steals, there
will be executions. We won't stop to ask questions. Understood?" Brogan
nodded again, and swallowed hard. "Make
certain the others here do." The
rider wheeled and set off, galloping now, to catch up with the fyrd. Brogan
watched him go, a graceful figure in morning light. In the meadow, not far
away, lay a number of dead men. Eighteen, the rider had said. His burden now.
He cursed himself for coming out to watch. Spat into the stream. It was going
to be very hard to stop poor men from stealing knives or rings. Surely
the fyrd wouldn't begrudge—or be able to track—a stray torc or necklace,
would they? It
occurred to him that he and Modig might be able to gather most of the arms and
store them before anyone else No,
that wouldn't work. The women would be here soon, for their flour. They would
see what had happened. It was impossible to miss: Brogan saw birds already
gathering where the bodies lay. He grimaced. This was going to be difficult. He
suffered a reversion of his thoughts about king and fyrd. The lords were
trouble, whenever they came, whenever they noticed you. He ought to have stayed
inside. He was turning to Modig, to tell him to make a start, at least, but
found his right arm gripped fiercely by his servant. Modig
pointed. Brogan saw a man emerge from the stream to their left—a pale, small
figure for an Erling, he would say, later—and begin to run south. He was well
behind the fyrd, which was almost out of sight. Certainly they were too
far away for any call or cry to summon them back to take this last Erling,
who'd kept himself hidden, apart from the rest. They'd have to let him go,
Brogan thought. Not that he'd get far, alone. Modig
made a sound deep in his chest. He plunged into the stream, splashing through
it, then began running, spade in hand. "Stop!" cried Brogan.
"Don't be a fool!" The
Erling was moving fast, but so was young Modig, chasing him. Far away, the dust
of the king's men could be seen. Brogan watched the two running men till they
were out of sight. Later
that morning he assembled the villagers to gather the weapons and armour—and
the rings and arm torcs and belts and boots and brooches and necklaces—of the
Erlings. The children ran about, chasing away the birds. Brogan made it very
clear, talking more than anyone could remember, that the fyrd was coming
back, and that death had been promised to anyone known to have taken anything. The
presence of eighteen dead raiders, the shock of them, meant that no one did try
to palm or pocket a thing, so far as Brogan could tell. They carried the gear
in relays across the water to the mill, piled it in his smaller storeroom.
Brogan locked the door, hung the key on his belt. He
picked out only two rings for himself, and a golden torc in the shape of a
dragon devouring its own tail. Added three other pieces of jewellery after,
when most of the others had gone to bring wood and the two who had stayed
behind with him, as guards, were drowsing under the willow by the stream. It
was a warm day. Across the water boys were throwing stones at birds and wild
dogs near the eighteen dead men. It
was two of the boys who found the body of Modig, the son of Ord, shortly after
midday, a little distance to the south. His ears and nose had been hacked off,
and his tongue. That last, Brogan the miller thought, was a sad and vicious
thing. He was angry. He'd found a perfect servant, finally, and the young fool
had gone and gotten himself killed. Life
was an ambush, Brogan thought bitterly, a series of them. Over and over till
you died. Later
in the day the villagers began streaming back with armloads and carts of wood,
and the cleric. Their women came, too, and all but the youngest children. This
was a great event, something unimaginable, never to be forgotten. The king had
been here himself, had saved them from Erling raiders, slain them all, right
beside the millstream. Their millstream. A tale for the colder nights to come
and the long years. Babies not yet born would hear this story, be led to the
place where it had happened. The
new cleric spoke under the open sky, invoking Jad's power and mercy, then they
lit the pyre, using wood that had been gathered for winter hearths, and they
burned the Erlings in the field where they'd died. After,
they dug a grave and buried Modig by the stream and prayed that he might go
home to the god, in light. +
In a
mist before dawn, some distance west, Bern Thorkellson dismounted to relieve
himself in a gully. His first halt since leaving his father outside Esferth. He
had spent what remained of the night riding very fast, trying to take his mind
from that impossible encounter. What was it the gods were doing with their
mortal children? You took a horse across black, frozen waters and lived, fought
your way into Jormsvik, went on a raid in Anglcyn lands . . . and were rescued
by your father. Twice. Your
accursed father, whose murders were the reason for all of this. For everything
that had happened. And he simply showed up where you were—on the other side of
the sea—and knocked you out in an alley and somehow carried you outside the
walls and then came back to warn you, and order you on your way. It was all . .
. hugely difficult. Bern could not have said that much about the world seemed
clear to him that night. He
had just finished retying his trousers when a man and woman sat up from a hollow
in the ground and stared at him, a handful of paces away. This,
at least, was clear enough. They
stood. It was still quite dark, mist around them, rising off the fields. Their
clothing and hair were disordered; it was evident what they'd been doing. The
same thing young men and women did in meadows all over the world on a summer
night. Bern had done it on the isle, in better days. He
drew his sword. "Lie down again," he said quietly. His own language,
but they'd understand him. "And no one is hurt." "You're
an Erling!" the young man said, too loudly. "What are you doing here
with a blade?" "My
own business. Attend to yours. Lie down again with her." "Rot
that," said the man, who was broad-shouldered, long-limbed. "My
father's the reeve here. Strangers declare themselves when they come by." "Are
you a fool?" Bern asked, calmly enough, he'd have thought. It
was because he was with his girl, Bern later decided, that the Anglcyn did what
he did. He reached down, grabbed a thick staff he'd have carried out with him
for protection from animals, and stepped forward, swinging it at Bern's head. The
woman cried out. Bern dropped to a knee, heard the whistle of the staff. He
rose and levelled a short backhand slash with his sword to the man's right arm,
at the elbow. He felt it hit hard, but not bite. He'd
used the flat of his blade. Couldn't
have said why. A memory of summer fields with a girl? Stupidity such as this
man's didn't deserve to be indulged or rewarded. The Anglcyn ought to have lost
an arm, his life. Didn't the fool know how the world worked? You met a mounted
man with a sword, you did what he instructed you, and prayed, urgently, that
you'd live to tell about it. The
staff had fallen to the grass. The Anglcyn's good hand clutched at his elbow.
Bern couldn't see his eyes in the darkness. "Don't kill us!" the girl
said, her first words. Bern
looked at her. "I hadn't intended to," he said. She had fair hair,
was tall. It was hard to make out more. "I told you to lie down. Do it
now. Though if you let this idiot between your legs again you're as much a fool
as he is." The
girl's mouth opened. She stared at him, for longer than he'd have expected.
Then she reached out and pulled the man down beside her into the hollow again,
where they'd been warm together moments ago, young and in summertime. "Honour
your god in the morning," Bern said, looking down at them. He wasn't sure
why he'd said that, either. He
went back to Gyllir and rode away. In
the hollow behind him, Druce, the son of Finan who was indeed king's reeve of
the lands thereabouts, began swearing viciously, though under his breath, in
case. Cwene,
the baker's daughter, put a hand to his mouth. "Hush. Does it hurt?"
she whispered. "Of
course it hurts," he snarled. "He broke my arm." She
was clever, understood that his pride was wounded as well, after being so
easily subdued in front of her. "He
had a sword," she said. "There was naught you could do. I thought you
were very brave." She
thought he'd been a reckless imbecile. She was aware that they ought to have
died here. Druce's arm should have been severed, not bruised or broken, by that
sword. The Erling could have done anything he wanted to her, after, anything at
all, then left them dead in the tall grass with no one ever to know exactly
what had happened. She said nothing more, lay there beside Druce,
looking up at the last stars as blackness became grey, feeling the breeze that
blew. Eventually
they made their way back towards the village, separated in the usual way, went
to their homes. Cwene slipped into the house the way she'd come out, through
the door that connected to the animal shed. Familiar smells, sounds, everything
changed, forever. She should have died in the field. Each breath she took now,
for the rest of her days .. . She
got into bed beside her sister, who stirred but did not wake. Cwene didn't
sleep. It was too near to morning. She lay there thinking, revisiting what had
happened. Her heart was pounding, though she was in bed at home now. She began
to weep, silently. Three
months later, in autumn, the baker beat her until she named the reeve's son as
the father of the child she was carrying. At that point her father became
mightily pleased (it was a very good match) and carried his anger across the
village to the reeve's door. The
baker was a large man himself, and not inconsequential. She and Druce were wed
before winter. They had two more children before he was killed by someone who
didn't want to pay his taxes, or lose his farm. Cwene married twice more;
outlived them both. Five children survived childhood, including the daughter
conceived in the meadow that summer night. Cwene
had dreams, all her life, of the moment in darkness when an Erling had come
upon them, a creature out of nightmare, and had gone away, leaving them their
lives as a gift to use or throw away. We
like to believe we can know the moments we'll remember of our own days and
nights, but it isn't really so. The future is an uncertain shape (in the dark)
and men and women know that. What is less surely understood is that this is
true of the past as well. What lingers, or comes back unsummoned, is not always
what we would expect, or desire to keep with us. It
was late in a long life, and three husbands had been laid in the earth, before
Cwene realized—and acknowledged to herself—that what she had wanted to do, more
than anything before or since, was ride away from her home and everyone she
knew in the world with that Erling on his grey horse that night long ago. The
clever girl had become a wise woman through the turning years; she forgave
herself for that longing before she died.
Riding
south, Bern was increasingly aware of hunger—he hadn't eaten since late the day
before—but he was also conscious of a cold, steady fear in his gut, and he
didn't let Gyllir slow as the sun rose, climbing the summer sky. He felt
appallingly exposed here in these flat lands running to the sea, knowing the fyrd
was abroad and looking for Erlings with vengeance in mind. The
Anglcyn worshipped a god of the sun: would that make a difference? Would it
help them, under so much summer light? He had never thought such a thing
before, and he didn't much like thinking about it now, but he'd never been
among Jaddites, either. Rabady Isle seemed very far away; their farm at the
village edge, even the straw in the barn behind Arni Kjellson's house. He kept
glancing around as he rode, an unceasing sweep of the wide lands to his left. The
signal flares had been farther east, and Aeldred's course had lain on the far
side of the river—to begin with. There was nothing to say the king hadn't split
his riders in the night, sending some of them this way. Bern, feeling more
alone than he had since the night he'd left the isle with Halldr's horse, had a
painful sense that the king's men would be very good at knowing where the
Jormsvik ships might be. Gyllir
was tired, but there was no help for that. He leaned forward, slapped the
horse's neck, spoke to it as a friend. They had to keep moving. For one thing,
his might be the only alert the others could get. They had to have five ships
offshore before two hundred men came sweeping down upon them. The gods knew, the
men of Jormsvik could fight. It might be a close battle if the fyrd came.
They could easily win it, but if enough of them died, or if the ships were
damaged, there was no meaning to such a victory. Glorious or not, they'd die in
these Anglcyn lands when Esferth and the accursed burhs Aeldred had
built sent out the next waves of men. He wasn't quite ready, Bern realized, to
go to Ingavin's halls. He
looked east again, no longer into the too-bright sun. Past midday now, the mist
had long since burnt away. No hilltop signal fires in this bright daylight. A
beautiful afternoon. Birdsong from the forest west, a hawk overhead, circling. He
had no idea what was happening elsewhere. Could only hasten to the sea. His
father had done this too, Bern thought suddenly. Had done more, in fact; that
journey alone across the Wall and the breadth of the Anglcyn lands, when he'd
escaped from the Cyngael after the Volgan died. And now Thorkell was back here.
Had even been among the Cyngael again, taken by them a second time. Bern wanted
to think of something derisive but couldn't. I
got you out of a walled city. Think on it. The
quiet, assured voice. And a blow to the head when he'd spoken too fast, as if
Bern were still a boy on Rabady. But his father had known about Ivarr, had
guessed what Ragnarson would say. How did he always know? He cursed Thorkell,
as he had so many times since his father's exile, but without fever or fire now.
He was too tired, had too many things to think about. He was hungry and afraid.
He looked left again, and behind him. Nothing there, a shimmer of heat coming
off the ripening fields. Gyllir would have to drink soon. He needed water
himself. Not quite yet, he decided. It was too exposed where they were right
now. He
didn't recognize the landscape nearly well enough, couldn't tell how far he had
yet to ride, though they'd come this way going north to Esferth, he and Ecca,
on the other side of the river. There had been a number of people on that road,
heading for a royal fair the Erlings hadn't known about. Third year of the
fair, someone told them. They hadn't been hiding on the way north, had
pretended to be traders. They'd carried sacks on the horses, purporting to hold
the goods they'd trade. Ecca's anger had begun on the road, with what they'd
heard. If this was the third year of a summer fair, then any tale they'd been
told about Esferth being empty was hollow as an emptied ale cask. Ivarr
Ragnarson, he'd said to Bern, was either a fool or a serpent, and he suspected
the latter. Bern
hadn't paid enough attention on that ride and was suffering for it now; all the
endless shallow dips and folds, up and down, up and down, looked exactly the
same. The farmland across the river seemed an unimaginable expanse of fertile
soil to someone raised on Rabady Isle's stony ground. He
turned in the saddle to look back again. A constant fear of pursuers behind
him. The farms began just across the river; anyone in the near fields could see
him, a single horseman passing between river and wood. Not alarming in itself,
unless they were close enough to see what he was. The
trees on his right were dark, no tracks or paths into them. Sunlight would fail
here. There were woods like this in Vinmark. Untamed, unbroken, stretching
forever; gods and beasts within them. This forest would be pretty much
impenetrable, he guessed, wild and dangerous, an unbroken density of oak and
ash, alder and thorn, marching west to the Cyngael lands. Ecca had said that on
the way. A better wall than the Wall was the saying. And the woods went
right down to cliffs above the strait. They'd seen those cliffs from the ships. The
Anglcyn would know all this far better than he did. They'd know the Erling ships
had to be east of those sheer bluffs, in one shallow bay or another. They
were. There weren't so many choices and they hadn't been overly subtle about
choosing one. Too many mistakes on this end-of-summer raid. Ivarr Ragnarson's
raid. They'd anchored, taken hasty counsel, sent Bern and Ecca north to look at
Esferth. Ecca had done this many times, knew what he was about, and Bern had a
young, reassuring countenance. Brand Leofson had also agreed to let Guthrum and
Atli lead a small sweep east, to see what they could find or take while they
waited for the report from Esferth, and Ivarr had gone with them. Bern
was the report from Esferth now. Ivarr
Ragnarson would kill him, Thorkell had said, if he learned who Bern's father
was. Suddenly, and much too late, Bern understood. Think the rest of it out
while you ride, he'd been told. And, He wants to go back west. Back
west. Ivarr had just been there, then. In the Cyngael lands. And
Thorkell had been with him. That was how his father knew what had
happened. And about poisoned arrows. Something had happened there . . .
Thorkell had been taken again. Or else .. . There
was never enough time to think things through. The world didn't seem to work
that way. Maybe for women weaving and spinning, maybe for Jaddite clerics in
their isolated retreats, waking in the night to pray for the sun. But not for a
bound servant on Rabady Isle, or a Jormsvik mercenary, either. Riding towards
another gentle, grassy rise, almost identical to the one before and the one
before that, Bern heard the sounds of battle ahead of him, across the river.
The
riders Guthrum Skallson had sent made it back to the ships early in the
morning. The help Guthrum requested was dispatched without hesitation by Brand,
who was commanding the raid. You didn't leave men behind. It was one of the
things that marked Jormsvik. The
riders had spoken feverishly, interrupting each other, more unsettled than
raiders ought to be. They told of a clash between Guthrum and Ivarr Ragnarson
over the death of an Anglcyn earl. Brand shrugged, hearing of it. These things
happened. He'd have sided with Guthrum--earls were worth a great deal, unless
out of favour—but sometimes, he had to admit, you just needed to kill someone,
especially if it hadn't happened in a long time. That came with the way they
lived, with the dragon-ships, with the eagles of Ingavin. And he knew for a
fact that Guthrum Skallson had done his share of killing prisoners over the
years. They'd sort this when everyone got back. Forty
mercenaries ought to have been more than enough to meet and protect Guthrum and
Atli's small party from any likely Anglcyn response, fight their way back to
the ships if they did encounter anyone. Brand ordered three ships offshore, to
be safe, left two anchored in the shallows, lightly manned, for the returning
parties to board and row. He
was being prudent, but was not alarmed. Shore parties met people, incidents
happened, sometimes deaths. This was a raid, wasn't it? What did people expect?
Jormsvik had been doing this, over the known world, for a long time. Erlings
had been coming in longships to these shores for more than a hundred years.
Yes, the Anglcyn lands had become harder to raid over the last while, but that
had happened at times, too. There were always other places. Three ships had
gone last spring out through the straits and down the sea lanes to Al-Rassan,
to raid and run before the khalif's men could be there with their curved swords
and bows. That would have been a fight to be part of, Brand had thought,
hearing the tale. He wanted to go there, see for himself. There was, word had
it, wealth beyond description among those desert-born star-worshippers. He
wanted to see their women, behind the veils they wore. It
was the life he knew, raiding. The northlands offered no refuge for anyone.
Vinmark was a hard place, sent forth hard men. And how else could a man of
spirit make his fortune, claim a place by winter hearths and in the skalds'
songs, and then the gods' meadhalls? It wasn't as if every man could fish, or
find land to farm, or make ale or barrels for ale. It wasn't as if every man
wanted to. You
hoped that if you killed someone on a raid you gained something from it, and if
some of your own died, that you'd taken even more, to compensate. Then you
sacrificed to Ingavin and Thьnir, and rowed back out to sea if you had to, or
pushed forward inland, depending on where you were and what you were facing.
Brand had lost count of the number of times he'd had decisions like this to
make. They
had five fully manned ships here, allowing room for horses. Five ships was a
large group. This incident might even be useful before it ended, Brand
thought. Forty Jormsvik fighters could overwhelm any hasty Anglcyn pursuit of
Guthrum from a burh; take the leaders hostage—for security first, then
gold. Safety and a reward. The oldest tactics of all, just about. Some things
never changed, he thought. He kept his own ship as one of the two on shore. He
was wrong, in fact, about a number of things, but had no real way of knowing
it. From the bay where the ships were hidden, they hadn't seen the signal
fires. A great deal had changed in these lands in the twenty-five years since
Aeldred, son of Gademar, had come out from Beortferth and reclaimed his
father's throne. The
party dispatched from the ships, guided by two of the (by now exhausted) riders
Guthrum had sent back, did find a group of men. Not their returning companions.
By then Guthrum and his men were lying dead beside the pyre that would burn
them, across a stream from a village mill. Nor
did Brand's relief contingent meet some overextended, too-quick pursuit from
Drengest on the coast. Instead, forty Erlings from the ships, most of them on
foot, encountered the mounted fyrd of King Aeldred in a field east of
the River Thorne, a little past midday.
From
the moment he'd heard the name again—Ivarr Ragnarson—spoken by the Jormsvik
leader just before he was killed at the king's saddle, Ceinion of Llywerth had
felt a terrifying surmise taking shape within him. He
was not a man inclined to flinch from thoughts, or truths, whether of spirit
and faith or having to do with the earthly world in which men lived and died.
But this growing awareness, as the sun rose and the day wore on, caused him an
almost physical pain, a constriction of the heart. The
last of the Volgans had hired this company. Hired them, it seemed, for a raid
near Esferth, at the very end of the season. But that made no sense. Aeldred
had these lands far too well defended, especially with the fair about to begin.
But what if you hadn't really meant to stay here? If you'd lied to the
mercenaries about your purpose? What if you'd killed a lucrative hostage to
stop them from claiming a vast ransom and happily turning home? There
were compelling reasons why Ivarr Ragnarson might want to lead mercenaries to
Cyngael shores, and to a particular farmhouse. The
Jormsvik leaders would regard it as a waste of time, too far to go this time of
year. They'd have to be tricked, persuaded. This was a man, Ceinion remembered,
who had blood-eagled a girl and a farmhand during his flight last spring. He
was said to be deformed in body and spirit, for the two went together, always. Ceinion
had led the dawn prayers south of the meadow where they'd killed the Erlings,
had kept them brisk for there was need for haste. He'd mounted with the others
and rode again beside the king with the god's sun rising behind them. Aeldred
said nothing as they went. Only rasped quick orders to some riders who peeled
away from the company and headed east. It was difficult to see this grim-faced,
death-dealing figure as the man who'd talked about translated manuscripts and
ancient learning in the night just past. Ceinion
kept his distance from Alun ab Owyn as they went. He didn't even want to
exchange a glance with the prince, fearful that he might give his thoughts
away. If Owyn's son learned what the cleric was thinking he might go wild with
helpless panic. Which
was not, in truth, far from a good description of what Ceinion was feeling
himself as the morning passed and the countryside rolled beneath horses'
hooves. The sun was overhead now. If the dragon-ships of Jormsvik were not
found, if they had already cast off with Ragnarson aboard and gone west . . .
there would be nothing he or anyone else could do but pray. Ceinion
of Llywerth, high cleric of the Cyngael, believed in his god of light and in
the power of holy prayer for almost everything that could be, except the most
potent matter of all: the life and death of those he loved. There was a woman
lying in a sanctuary graveyard by the sea, within sound of the surf, beneath a
pale grey stone with a simple sun disk carved upon it, and her dying had taken
that belief from him. A wound, a rip in the fabric of the world. He had gone a
little mad as she died, had done things that still kept him awake some nights.
This was not a matter of which he'd written in his long correspondence with
Rhodias and the Patriarch. He
was also thinking, in this bright sunlight, of another woman, loved, and her
husband, loved, and their daughter, coming into her glory, all of whom might or
might not be at Brynnfell now, and he had no way of knowing, and no way of
helping them. Unless
they got to the ships in time: "Can
we not go faster?" he asked the king of the Anglcyn. "No
need. He said he sent for help, remember? They will be coming this way,"
Aeldred said, looking briefly at him. "I am sure of it. We'll stop soon to
rest and eat. The river's ahead. I want the fyrd fresh for a
fight." "Some
of them will be coming," said
Ceinion. "But we must reach the longships before they get them off from
shore." "They've
done that already. Jormsvik knows how to do these things. We'll try to block
their way home with the fleet in Drengest. I have six ships. I sent riders to
them—they'll be in the water before sundown. Fishing boats out, too, to watch
for them. If we find this rescue party, the Erlings will be undermanned at sea.
They have horses, which means the wide, slow boats, not the fighting ones. I
mean to take them all, Ceinion." "If
they go home, my lord," Ceinion said quietly. Aeldred
threw him a glance. "What
is it I don't know?" the king asked. The
cleric was about to tell him when the horns blew. Then the great grey dog,
Alun's dog, sounded his own warning, and ahead of them Ceinion saw the Erlings,
with the river just beyond. One
of the outriders was galloping back; he reined hard beside them. "Forty or
fifty, my lord! Mostly on foot." "We
have them, then. Get the mounted ones first," the king ordered. "No
messages back. Athelbert!" "Going,
my lord!" his son shouted over his shoulder, already moving, calling for
archers as he went. Ceinion
watched the prince ride, readying his bow, easy in the saddle, his archers
swift and smooth to respond to commands: precisely trained, his own contingent
here. A very different man than his brother. The sons of Aeldred, he thought,
might have divided their father's nature between themselves. That could happen;
he had seen it before. He also had a thought, as battle began, about the way
Aeldred's men were fighting today: from the saddle, with arrows as well as
spears, which was new, and immensely difficult. And even more difficult to
counter, if they had mastered it. It looked very much as though Athelbert and
his archers had done that. His
own people, Ceinion thought, had even more reason to try—to at least try—to come
together now, and find some way to join the world beyond their hidden valleys.
There might be a certain pride in being the last light of the god's sun, where
it set in the west, but there were dangers as well. Such
thoughts were for later. Right now he watched a good-sized party of Jormsvik
mercenaries form another desperate circle as Athelbert's archers and the others
came up to them. The raiders had already crossed the river; bad for them. They
couldn't have retreated in any case, outnumbered and facing horsemen in hostile
country. They
were brave men. No one on earth could deny or refute that. No swords or axes
were thrown down, not even when the command to surrender was given by one of
Athelbert's thegns. Ceinion saw two Erling riders racing back west for the
river: not cowards, messengers. Athelbert and five of his archers were pursuing
them. Arrows
flew from moving horses—and missed. The Jormsvik raiders splashed into the
river, which was deeper and wider here than by Esferth. They began fording it.
Athelbert came up to the bank of the Thorne. Ceinion watched as the prince took
steadier aim and fired. Twice. He
was too far to see what happened in the water, but a moment later Athelbert and
his riders turned back. The prince lifted an arm to signal his father. Then he
rode calmly to rejoin the fyrd surrounding the Erling force. Men had
just died here, Ceinion knew, as they had this morning and in the night. What
did you make of that? What words and reflections? It was the fate of men and
women to die, often before what should have been their time. Should have been. Too much presumption in the thought.
All rested with Jad, but survivors carried memories. He
moved forward when the king did. "Have
care, my lord," cried a red-haired thegn. "They haven't
yielded." "Shoot
ten," said Aeldred. "My
lord!" Ceinion protested. Ten
men were shot where they stood, even as he spoke. Athelbert's archers were
really very good. You watched them and you learned something important about
the prince, frivolous as he might seem when at play in a meadow. "You
said you want us to get to the ships," the king said tersely, watching the
deaths, not looking at him. "If they can send forty in a rescue party,
they'll have five, maybe six ships. Might even be seven, depending on how many
horses. I'll need my whole company. And good men will die in that fight, if we
get to them in time. Don't ask me to linger here, or be merciful. Not this day,
cleric." Cleric.
No more than that. A king celebrated
for courtesy, suing eloquently for Ceinion's presence at his court. But there
was a rage in Aeldred now, Ceinion saw, and the king was hard-pressed to
contain it. In fact, he couldn't; it was spilling over. Burgred of Denferth had
been a friend from childhood. And beyond that truth, this was a large raid on
the eve of the fair in Esferth—threatening to undermine the very idea of the
fair. What merchants would come to these shores from abroad, or even overland
from north or east, if they had cause to fear attacks from Vinmark? "Hear
me. I am Aeldred of the Anglcyn," the king said, moving his bay horse
forward. Two of the fyrd shifted to stay between him and the Erlings.
Axes could be thrown. "Whichever man leads here, order your men to lay
down their arms." Aeldred
waited. Athelbert, Ceinion saw, was looking at his father, bow still to hand.
No one moved in the Erling circle, or spoke. Swords and short axes remained
levelled outwards. About thirty of them now. If they charged, they'd die; so
would some of the Anglcyn. The king is too close, he thought. Aeldred
shifted his horse sideways, and even nearer. "Do it now, Erlings. Unless
you wish ten more of you executed. The men you were sent to meet are dead
behind us. All of them. If you fight you will be killed here without mercy.
There are two hundred of us." "Better
die sword in hand than cut down as cowards." A very big man,
yellow-bearded to the chest, stepped forward. "You give sworn oath to
ransom if we yield ourselves?" Aeldred
opened his mouth. He was rigid again. The idea of a demand . . . He looked at
his son. "No,
my lord!" Ceinion cried. "No! They will yield!" Aeldred's
mouth snapped shut. His jaw was clenched, his gloved hands fists on his reins.
Ceinion saw him close his eyes. After a long moment, the king loosened the
fingers of one hand and made the sign of the sun disk. Ceinion drew a ragged
breath. His palms were sweating. "Drop
all weapons and tell us where the ships are. You will not be killed." The
yellow-bearded Erling stared at him. It was remarkable, Ceinion thought, the
absence of fear in his eyes. "No. We yield ourselves to you, but cannot
betray shipmates." Aeldred
shrugged. "Athelbert," he said, before Ceinion could speak. The
Erling leader died, falling backwards, three arrows in his chest, through the
leather armour. A fourth went into his cheekbone, below the helmet, quivered
there, where he lay in the grass. "Who
is it," Aeldred said after a moment, "who will now speak for you? You
have no more time. Weapons down, guides to the longships." "My
lord," Ceinion said again, desperately. "In the holy name of Jad and
by all the blessed—" Aeldred
wheeled on him. "Heed your own words! Do you want these ships stopped
before they go west and not east? Do you?" "In
Jad's name, we do!" came a third, urgent voice. Ceinion
looked over quickly. Alun ab Owyn was moving his horse towards them. "We
do, my lord king! Kill them and ride! Surely you know where they might be! High
cleric, you heard: Ivarr Ragnarson bought these men. They will be going for
Brynnfell, not home! We can't get back in time!" He'd
figured it out, after all. It
seemed he wasn't too young. And he was right, of course, about the timing.
Ships from Drengest, out to sea by sundown, ordered to block sea lanes east,
would not catch up to trained Erling seamen by the time new orders reached
them. Even if they followed them west—and Aeldred had no reason to give such a
command—they'd be more than half a day behind, and they wouldn't be as skilled
on the water. "Athelbert,
please proceed, if you will be so good," said the king of the Anglcyn. He
might have been asking his elder son to comment, in his turn, on a liturgical
passage being considered. Ceinion,
in great pain, watched ten more Erlings die. They'd refused to surrender, he
told himself. Aeldred had given them that chance. The pain did not lessen. Even
after the arrows flew, no one came forward from the now-shrunken circle to
yield. Instead, the last twenty of them screamed together, terrifyingly,
distilling childhood nightmares for Ceinion in that sound, as they cried the
names of their gods to the blue sky and the white clouds. They charged straight
into the arrows and blades of two hundred mounted men. Could
childhood fears be expunged in this way, Ceinion wondered, remembering how many
chapels and sanctuaries and good, holy men had burned amid those same cries to
Ingavin and Thьnir. He
watched the first Erlings fall, and then the last, swords and axes gripped,
never betraying their fellows. They died in battle, weapons to hand, and so
promised a place among eagles in halls of undying glory. It
appalled him, and he never forgot the unspeakable courage of it. Hating every
one of those men, and what they made him think. There
was a silence, after, in the field. It all took remarkably little time. "Very
well. Let us go," said the king, after a long moment. "We will leave
instructions farther south for men to come gather their weapons and burn them
here." He
twitched his reins, turned his horse. Alun ab Owyn, Ceinion saw, was already ahead
of them all, desperately impatient. The grey dog was beside him. "My
lord!" said the red-haired thegn. "Look there." He
was pointing back south and east, to where oaks between them and the sea were
broken by a valley. Ceinion turned, with Aeldred. "Oh,
my," said Prince Athelbert. A
group of men, eight or ten of them, some mounted, some on foot, with other
horses pulling a cart, were coming towards them, waving and calling, voices
carrying faintly in the summer air, and then more clearly as they neared. No
one moved. The small party approached. It took some time. Their leader was
riding in the cart; he appeared to have a wound, was holding his side. He was
also the one most vigorously shouting, gesticulating with his free hand,
visibly agitated. Visibly
from the south, as well, Ceinion saw. And speaking a foreign tongue. "Jad's
holy light," said King Aeldred, softly. "They are Asharite. From
Al-Rassan. What is he saying? Someone?" Ceinion
knew fragments of Esperaсan, not Asharite. He tried it. Called a greeting. Without
missing a beat in his tirade, the merchant in the cart switched languages. The
king turned to Ceinion, expectantly. Forty dead men lay on the grass around
them. Two of Athelbert's men had dismounted, were efficiently collecting
arrows. "He
is outraged, my lord, and unhappy. They declare themselves to have been
assaulted, injured, and robbed on their way to Esferth Fair. By one man, if I
understand properly. An Erling. He took a horse. A good horse, I gather. Meant
for you, in Esferth. They are . . . they are displeased with the protection
being offered to visitors." Aeldred
looked from the cleric to the man in the cart. His eyes had widened. "Ibn
Bakir?" he said, looking at the merchant. "My stud horse? My
manuscripts?" Ceinion
translated as best he could. Then, somewhat belatedly, told the visitors who
the man on the bay horse was. The
Asharite merchant straightened, too quickly. The cart was a precarious place to
stand. He bowed, almost fell. One of his fellows steadied him. The merchant had
a wound in his right side; blood welled through what appeared to be green silk.
He had a dark bruise on the side of his head. He nodded energetically, however.
Turned, reached down, still being steadied, and pulled some parchment scrolls
from a trunk behind him. He waved them in the air, the way he'd waved his hand
before, calling for aid. Someone laughed, then controlled himself. "Ask
him," said Alun ab Owyn, his voice strained, "if the Erling was
unusual in his appearance." They hadn't heard him come back. The
king glanced over at Alun. Ceinion asked the question. He didn't know the word
for "unusual" but managed "strange." The merchant's
effusive manner grew calmer. With the overexcited manner fading, he seemed more
impressive, notwithstanding the fluttering green garment. This was a man who
had, after all, travelled a long way. He answered gravely, standing on his
cart. Ceinion
heard him; felt a wind in his soul. "He
says the Erling was white as a dead spirit, his face, his hair. Not natural. He
surprised them rushing out from the trees, took only the horse." "Ragnarson,"
said Alun, unnecessarily. He was looking at Aeldred. "My lord king, we
must ride. We can beat him there—they lied to you this morning, back in the
meadow. He wasn't with their messengers to the ships. He's just ahead of
us!" "I
believe," said the king of the Anglcyn, "that this is so. I agree
with you. We should ride." Five
men were detailed to escort the merchants to Esferth and lodge them with
honour. The rest of the fyrd turned west and south. They paused only to
fill their flasks and let the horses drink. It was Alun ab Owyn who led them
splashing into the River Thorne and across, and it was Alun who set the pace
after, alongside the woods, until some of those who actually knew where they
were going caught up with him. The
king, his bay horse galloping beside Ceinion's, asked only one question on the
long ride that followed. "Ragnarson
is the man who led the raid last spring? Brynnfell? When the Cadyri prince was
killed?" Ceinion
nodded. There was nothing more to say and a great need for speed. They
never caught up with him, never saw more than the sign of tracks ahead, alone
at first, then merging with those of another horse—following it, not side by
side. The tracks ran back southeast a little as the river curved between ridges
of hills. Both sets, cutting at precisely the place where the Anglcyn outsiders
had thought they might. They followed, galloping, between stream and forest,
and they came at length to a sheltered strand of stones, and the sea. Westering
sun on the water by then. White clouds on the breeze. Tang of salt. Clear
evidence of ships having been beached here, and a large company of men, very
recently. Nothing more than those signs; empty the wide sea, in all directions.
No way to know, none at all, which way the ships had gone. But Ceinion knew. He
knew. The
king ordered the fyrd to dismount to let tired horses graze along the
beach, up a little way where there was grass. He gave time for riders to rest
as well, eat and drink. After which, he called his thegns to council. Invited
Ceinion to come, and Alun ab Owyn, a generous gesture. At
which time it was discovered that Alun and his dog and his Erling servant were
nowhere to be found. No
man had seen them leave the strand. Half a dozen outriders were dispatched. It
wasn't long before they returned. One of them shook his head. Ceinion, standing
beside the king, took a step towards them and stopped, without speaking. Owyn
of Cadyr, he was thinking, had only the one son living now. He might lose them
both. One
of the riders dismounted. "They have gone, my lord." That much was
obvious. "Where?"
said Aeldred. The
rider cleared his throat. "Into the forest, I fear." A
stir, then silence among those gathered. Ceinion saw men making the sign of the
sun disk. He had just done the same, a habit as old as he was. What, he
thought, am I going to say to the father? A wind was blowing now, from
the east. The sun was going down. "Their
horses' tracks go in there," the outrider added. "Into the
woods." Of
course they do, Ceinion thought. It
was madness, entirely so, what Alun wanted to do. Coming here they'd followed
the coastal path all the way, skirting the wood. Of course they had. That was
how you went: from the south you travelled along the coast; if you were
starting north you went through the watchtower gates of the Wall. But not the
forest. No one went through the woods. But
the coastal path would only take you back to Cadyr in the south, and
Arberth—and Brynnfell—would be four days beyond that, up the river valleys.
Retracing the coast road would be a wasted, meaningless journey. It wouldn't
do. Not if you had decided that the Erlings were heading for Brynn ap Hywll's
farm again. If you had decided that, and you knew Ivarr Ragnarson was aboard,
then you could do something shaped by madness .. . Ceinion
felt old again. That seemed to be happening to him more and more. The man's
voice had sounded genuinely regretful just now, reporting the tidings. The
young Cyngael prince had saved King Aeldred's life this morning, they had all
seen it. They would be sorry to see a young life end in this way. Someone
swore, savagely, breaking the mood. Athelbert. He strode angrily away up the
strand. Stones there, some grass, grazing horses, light glittering on the
water. It would be dark in the woods, and they stretched all the way to the
Cyngael lands, and no one went through them. Ceinion closed his eyes. It was
growing cooler, late in the day, edge of the sea, the sun going down. He
would die in there, Owyn's younger son. I
am too old, Ceinion thought again.
He was remembering—so vividly—the father as a young man, equally reckless, even
more impulsive. And now that man was an aging prince, and his son was about to
find his own end trying to go through the untracked woods carrying a warning
all the long way home. A desperate, glorious folly. The way of the Cyngael. ELEVEN Bern
backed down on hands and knees from the ridge when he saw the Anglcyn archers
begin to shoot. There was a disaster happening, crisp and bright in the
sunlight: blue river, green grass, deeper green of trees beyond, the
many-coloured horses, the arrows caught by light as they flew. He felt ill,
watching. You
didn't abandon shipmates, but he knew what he was seeing. His task was to get back
to the coast alive with his warning and these tidings of catastrophe. The
Anglcyn were riding for the sea. Breathing
deeply, struggling to calm himself, he led Gyllir away from the battle, to the
very edge of the forest. Even in daylight the trees felt oppressive, menacing.
Spirits and powers, not to mention hunting cats and wolves and wild boars were
in such woods. The volurs who put themselves into trances to see along
the dark pathways of the dead said that there were animals that housed the
spirits of the old gods, and wanted blood. Looking
at the darkness on his right, he could half believe in such creatures. But for
all that, a more certain death lay in the other direction with the fyrd. They'd
ridden at least as fast as he had to get to this place, which was unsettling.
Back home, the old women said, An Erling on a horse of the sea, an Anglcyn
on a horse ... still, he'd not have
thought Gyllir could be matched. Aeldred's
riders were here, though. He couldn't linger. Waiting would bring them across
the river. Bern
used the trees as a backdrop, riding right alongside them, so as not to appear
clearly against the sky. Even so, in the moments when he passed up and then
down along the ridge and had to be in view, his heart felt painful and loud, as
if his chest were a drum. He leaned low over Gyllir's neck and he whispered a
prayer to Ingavin, who knew the ways of secrecy. No
cry went up. Just as Bern Thorkellson crested that ridge, an agitated party of
merchants from Al-Rassan was hailing the Fyrd, coming towards them, loud
with indignation. They saved his life, for the outriders turned to see. It
happens this way. Small things, accidents of timing and congruence: and then
all that flows in our lives from such moments owes its unfolding course, for
good or ill, to them. We walk (or stumble) along paths laid down by events of
which we remain forever ignorant. The road someone else never took, or
travelled too late, or soon, means an encounter, a piece of information, a
memorable night, or death, or life. Bern
stayed low in the saddle, his neck hairs prickling, till he was sure he was out
of sight. Only then did he straighten and give Gyllir his head, galloping
towards the sea. He saw gentle, rolling country, rich land. The sort of soil
that made a soft, easy people. Not like Vinmark, where cliffs crashed jaggedly
down in places where the sea gouged the land like a blade. Where rock-strewn
slopes and icebound winters made farming a wounding aspiration on farms never
large enough. Where younger sons took to the sea roads with helm and blade, or
starved. The
Erlings were hard with cause, reasons deep and cold as the black, still waters
knifing between cliffs. These people over here, with their loamy, generous soil
and their god of light, were . . . well, in fact, these people were smashing
the best raiders Vinmark had right now. The story didn't seem to hold. Not any
more. The
shape and balance of the world had changed. His father (he didn't want to think
about his father) had said that more than once on the isle, after he'd decided
his raiding days were over. Thorkell
really shouldn't be here, Bern thought. Riding south at speed, he felt too
young to sort it through, but not too young to be aware that the changes were
happening, had already happened. There
was a distance still to go, but not so much now, as he finally began to
recognize where he was. Gyllir was labouring, but so, surely, would be the
mounts of Aeldred's fyrd behind him. They'd be coming, he knew it.
And—sudden thought—they'd see his tracks and realize he was ahead of them. He
had to outrace them to the water with enough time to get the ships offshore. He
was dripping with sweat in the sunlight, could smell his own fear. When
he saw the valley he remembered it. Gave thanks for that. He followed it south-east
and, almost as soon as he did, smelled salt on the wind. The valley opened out.
He saw their strand. Only two ships still anchored; the other three already out
in the straits beyond. He
began to shout as he galloped up, continued shouting as he leaped from Gyllir's
back, stumbling into the midst of the encampment. He tried to be coherent,
wasn't sure if he succeeded. These
were Jormsvik men, however. They moved with a speed he'd not have believed
possible before he'd joined them. The camp was struck, and the last two ships
(undermanned, but no help for that) had oars in place and were pulling to sea
before the sun had swung much farther west. This was their life, salt and
hardship, dragon-prows. An Erling on a horse of the sea . . . Brand's
own ship was last. They were rowing after the others when someone called out to
them from shore. Another of those moments when so much may turn one way or
another, for they might have been just a little quicker from shore, and so too
far out to hear. Bern did hear it, though, looked back from where he stood
beside the one-eyed leader of their raid. "Who
is it?" Brand Leofson rasped, squinting. A
rider in the water, waving one arm, forcing a reluctant horse into the sea
after them. "Leave
him," said Bern, whose eyes were very good. "Let him be killed by
Aeldred. He lied to us. From the start. Ecca kept saying so." He felt
fear, and a cold anger. "Where
is Ecca?" Brand asked, turning his good eye to Bern. "Killed in
Esferth. Their king was there. Hundreds of men. There's
an accursed fair going on. I told you—Ragnarson lied." The man
beside him, captain, raid leader, veteran of half a hundred battles across the
world, chewed one side of his moustache. "That's him in the water?"
Brand said. Bern
nodded. "I
want to talk to that misbegotten bastard," Brand said. "If he's to
die, I'll do it myself and report it at home. Back oars!" he cried.
"Ramp out! Sling for the horse!" Precise
movements began. This is a mistake, Bern was thinking. Couldn't escape
the thought as he watched the strange, deadly man on a magnificent,
inexplicable horse come closer through the waves. It seemed to him, feeling
helpless as a child, that this was a moment in which his life—and not only his
own—might be hanging, as in a merchant's balance. In the
afternoon light, under swift, indifferent clouds, Ivarr Ragnarson was taken
aboard. "That,"
said Brand One-eye, gazing into the sea, "is an Asharite horse." Bern
had no idea if this was true or not, couldn't see why it mattered. The horse
was pulled up, a sling drawn under its belly by a man who knew how to swim.
They all threw their weight to the far side, to keep the ship in balance as it
happened. A difficult exercise, done with ease. The
balance seemed to tilt in Bern's mind as he turned from watching the horse
lifted aboard to regarding the twist-mouthed, dripping wet, white-faced,
white-haired, pale-eyed grandson of Siggur Volganson, last surviving heir of
the greatest of all their warriors. Ivarr
strode to stand directly in front of Leofson. "How
dare you leave shore without me, you worm-eaten lump of dung!" he said.
You couldn't get used to his voice. No one else talked like that. It was icy,
and it cut. Brand
Leofson, so addressed, looked at Ivarr with what seemed genuine perplexity.
This was his ship, he was leader of a Jormsvik raid, a captain of many years'
standing, surrounded by his fellows. He shook his head slowly, as if to clear
it, then he knocked Ivarr to-the deck with a backhanded blow to the face. "Pull
away!" he called over his shoulder. "Hard on the benches, all of you!
Out of sight of shore, sail up, whichever way the wind takes us. We'll have a
lantern council at darkfall. Signal the others. And you," he said, turning
back to Ragnarson, "will stay where you are, on the deck. If you stand up
I will knock you down again. If you do it twice I swear by Ingavin's eye and my
own I will throw you into the sea." Ivarr
Ragnarson stared up at him but didn't move. The too-pale eyes, Bern decided,
held more black rage than he'd have ever thought to see in a man. He looked
away. His father (he didn't want to think about his father) had warned him.
The
youngest of the mercenaries turned away. Ivarr saw fear in his face. Ivarr was
used to both: people avoided looking at him all the time, after furtive glances
of horror and fascination, and there was often fear. Ivarr Ragnarson was white
as a bone, malformed at one shoulder, his eyes were strange (and not good in
bright sunlight)—and men were riddled with fears of the unknown, of spirits, of
angry, unassuaged gods. This
young one—he couldn't remember names, people didn't matter enough—had a
different quality to his apprehension, though. Something more than the obvious.
Ivarr couldn't say what it was, but he could sense it. He had a skill that way. To be
considered later. As was the fact that he was going to kill Brand Leofson. He'd
been struck twice today by mongrels from Jormsvik. One of them, Skallson, had
already been slain by the Anglcyn, denying Ivarr the pleasure. This one here
would have to be allowed to live a little longer: Leofson was needed, if this
raid was still going to work. Sometimes pleasures had to be deferred. Lying
on the deck of a ship, salt-soaked, bruised and exhausted and bleeding, Ivarr
Ragnarson felt sure of his control of events, even now. It helped that almost
everyone you dealt with was a fool, weak, though they might think themselves
hard, undermined by needs and desires, friendships and ambitions. Ivarr
had no such weaknesses. He was cut off by his appearance from any possibility
of leadership and acceptance. That disposed of ambition. Friendship, as well.
And his desires were .. . other than those of most men. His
brother Mikkel—dead in a Cyngael farmyard, one of Ingavin's great hulking fools
in life—had actually thought he could be a leader of the Erling people, the way
their grandfather was. That was why Mikkel had wanted to go to
Brynnfell. Revenge, and the sword. With the Volgan's sword in hand, he'd said,
ale cup sloshing about, he could rally people around him, to the family's name. He
might have, if he hadn't been thick in the head like a plough ox, and if
Kjarten Vidurson—a man Ivarr had to admit he wondered about—hadn't clearly been
readying himself for a claim of kingship in Hlegest, with infinitely more
weight than Mikkel would ever have had. Ivarr
hadn't said anything about that. He'd wanted Mikkel's raid to happen. His own
reasons for going were so much simpler than his brother's: he was bored, and he
liked killing people. Vengeance
and a raid made killing all right in the eyes of the world. With nothing to
aspire to, no status to seek or favour to attain, Ivarr's was an uncomplicated
existence, in some ways. When
you looked only to yourself, decisions came more easily. People who harmed or
crossed you were to be dealt with without exception. That now included those
Cyngael at Brynnfell who had sent him fleeing through a night wood, then
desperately back to the ships last spring. That also meant this maggot, Brand
One-eye, right here, but only after he'd done what Ivarr needed him to do,
which was get him back west. There
were deaths to be accomplished there first. And he still wanted to see if he
could grasp and spread someone's lungs out on the red, cracked-open cage of
their ribs while they remained alive, bubbling, blood-soaked. It was a hard thing
to do. You needed opportunities to practise before you could do something so
delicate. When
your needs were uncomplicated, it was easy enough to spend a good part of the
resources you had (last of the Volgans, heir to all they possessed) buying two
hundred mercenaries at the end of a summer. If
people had trouble looking at your face for long it was hardly difficult to lie
to them. The Jormsvikings were smug, complacent, full of self-love, beefy and
drunken, amusingly easy to deceive, for all their celebrated prowess on ship
and in battle. They were what they were, Ivarr thought: tools. He
had dropped gold and silver onto a trestle table in a Jormsvik barracks hall,
and told them that Aeldred's coastal burh at Drengest was unfinished,
under-defended, with ships they might seize for themselves and a newly
dedicated sanctuary with too much gold. He'd
seen this, he said, when he and his brother went west in spring. And a watchman
they'd taken and killed for information, along the coast, had told them before
he died that the king and fyrd were spending the summer at Raedhill,
hunting north of it, leaving Esferth exposed. Another lie, but Ivarr was good
at lying. Ale
went round a smoke-filled room, then round again, and songs were sung about
Jormsvik glories in days gone by. And then came another predictable song (Ivarr
had heard it too many times, but made himself smile, as if in rue and
remembrance) about Siggur Volganson and the great summer of twin assaults on
Ferrieres and Karch, and the famous raid on the hidden sanctuary at Champieres,
where he'd -claimed his sword. More drinking during that, and after. Men asleep
at the tables, heads down among spilled ale and guttered candles: In
the morning Ivarr formally paid the mercenaries to make it worth their while to
sail, even if they should find little enough for the taking in the Anglcyn
lands. He stung their pride—so easily—pointing out how long it had been since
they'd challenged Aeldred on his own soil. There
was glory to be won, swords to be reddened, Ivarr said, before dark winter came
to the northlands again and closed the wild sea. Make it sound like music, he'd
found, and listeners would dance to your song—while not looking at your face. Simple,
really. Men were easy to deceive. You needed only to be clear in your mind
about what you wanted them to do. Ivarr always had been, was even more so now.
Brynn ap Hywll and any of his family found were to be staked out naked, alive,
in the slop and mud of their own farmyard while Ivarr carved them one by one.
Ap Hywll was fat as a summer hog, he'd need to cut deep. That was all right, it
was not a difficulty. The
blood-eagle rite was a final act of vengeance for his slain brother and
grandfather, he would say, sadly. A ritual done in honour of Ingavin's ravens
and eagles and in memory of the Volgan line, of which he was the last. After
him, they would be no more. And men would hear it and look sorrowful. Would
even honour him for it around winter fires. Amusing.
But to make it happen he had to get these ships to Cyngael shores. That was the
only uncertain part, if you excepted the fortune that underlay his finding
those merchants with a horse earlier today. That, he didn't actually want to
think about right now. He'd have missed the ships, otherwise, been left on a
hostile coast alone. Perhaps he should think about it. Perhaps Ingavin
or Thьnir was showing his lordly countenance to a pale, small, crooked figure
after all. And what could that mean, after so many years? A
distraction. For later. They had to go west, first. That had always been the
delicate task. It would have made no sense for Brand Leofson or any other
leader to take five ships so late in the year for the feeble returns a Cyngael
raid offered these days. Ivarr had known that. So you worked it another way:
you told them they were going after Aeldred where he was rich and vulnerable.
And when that proved—as you knew it would prove—not to be so after all, you
relied on your tongue and their stupid hunger for Ingavin-glory to lure them a
little farther west . . . since they'd already come this far, and it would be such
a terrible loss of face to go back empty-handed. It
was a good plan. Would have been easy, in fact, if Burgred of Denferth hadn't
been with the accursed party they'd surprised in the night. The earl had been
worth a ransom the raiders could grow fat upon, and they'd known it.
Thick-witted and ale-sodden or not, they'd understood who this man was. Aeldred
would have paid the taxes from ten cities and a hundred households to have his
companion back. And then five Jormsvik ships would have turned around and rowed
happily home into the wind, every man singing all the way. It
would have driven him mad. He'd
had no choice but to shoot the man. An
unsatisfying killing, done in haste, no pain involved—except his own when
Skallson came near to killing him for it. Ivarr hadn't actually been afraid—he
couldn't remember ever being afraid—but he hadn't been ready to die, either. For
one thing, he didn't expect eagles or ravens to escort his spirit to shining
halls when death came for him. Ingavin and Thьnir
loved their tall warriors with bright axes and swords, not twisted, wry-mouthed
misfits with death-white skin and eyes that saw better at twilight than in the
day's bright sun. It
was less bright now, in fact. They had been pulling steadily from the coast and
now the sail was up. The sun was over west. Ivarr waited, as ever, for the
evening shadows to come, changing the colour of the sea and sky. He was happier
then, happier in winter. Cold and darkness didn't distress him; they felt like
his proper place. Men
thought he was weak. Men were wrong, almost without exception fools beyond the
telling. He wondered, sometimes, if his mighty grandfather—never seen or known,
killed in Llywerth before Ivarr was born—might have thought the same way,
crashing like a wave again and again upon peoples who could do nothing against
him for year upon year, until it ended by that western sea. The
gods knew, he had reasons enough to kill Brynn ap Hywll. He would do the women
first, Ivarr thought, let the fat man watch, bound and helpless, naked amidst
the shit of his yard. It was a pleasing thought. You needed to hold it in mind,
point towards it, let nothing distract or divert. "You
will stand up now," said Brand Leofson. A bulky shape above him, suddenly.
"Before the council begins you will explain your lies." He'd
expected that. Men were easy to anticipate. All he ever needed was a
chance to speak. Ivarr
rose slowly to his feet. Rubbed at his jaw where he'd been struck, though there
wasn't any pain to speak of now. It was good to look small, though, frail, no
danger to anyone. "I
didn't think you'd do what I needed done," he mumbled. Kept his eyes down.
Turned his head away, submissive as a beaten wolf. He'd watched wolves in
winter snow, learned from them. "What?
You admit you lied?" Gods!
What had the ox-brain expected him to do? Deny it? They'd seen the
finished walls and readied ships in Drengest, which he'd said was empty and
exposed. Sixty of them in two parties had been slaughtered today by Aeldred and
the fyrd out from Esferth—where he'd told them the king would not be. He
hadn't expected those deaths—there was nothing good about losing so many
men—but you couldn't let such things affect what you'd had in mind for so long.
This entire end-of-summer journey with the Jormsvikings was, after all, a
second plan. He was supposed to have taken Brynnfell and the sword in spring,
not had his sodden, stupid brother die with almost every man in that yard.
Ivarr was all alone in the world now. Shouldn't there be mournful music with
that thought? All alone. He'd killed their sister when he was nine; now dear
Mikkel had been cut down in an Arberthi farmyard. Let
the skalds make bad songs of it. Sorrow for Siggur's strong scions / Valour
and vaunt among the Volgans .. . He
didn't feel sorry for himself. What he felt was fury, endlessly, from first
awareness of himself, a bent child in a warrior world. "I
lied because we have fallen so far in twenty-five years that even with the
warriors of Jormsvik, I was unsure of us." "We? Us?" "The
Erlings of Vinmark, friend. Ingavin's children of the middle-world." "What
the one-eyed god does that drivel mean, you drip-nosed gutter
spawn?" He
needed to kill this man. Had to be careful not to let it show. No distractions.
Ivarr looked up, then ducked his head again, as if ashamed. Wiped at his nose,
placatingly. "My
father died a coward, his own great father unavenged. My brother fell as a
hero, trying to do so. I am the only one left. The only one. And Ingavin has
seen fit to have me misshapen, unworthy in my poor self to take vengeance for
our line and our people." Brand
One-eye spat over the railing of his ship. "I still don't know what
raven-shit rubbish you are spewing. Speak plain and—" "He
means he planned to go to Arberth all along, Brand. Never had any thought of
Anglcyn lands. He means he tricked us with lies about Aeldred to get us to
sea." Ivarr
was careful to keep his eyes lowered. He felt a pulsing in his head, however.
This young one, whoever he was, had just become an irritant, and you needed to
avoid showing that. "That
the truth?" Brand turned to him. He was a very big man. Ivarr
hadn't wanted things to move this quickly, but part of the skill of these
moments was adapting. "Jormsvik has its share of wisdom, even from the
young ones who might not be expected to know so much. It is as the boy
says." "Boy's
older than you think, maggot, and killed a Jormsvik captain in single
combat," said Leofson pompously. A beefy, thick-brained warrior. All he
was. Ivarr held back a grimace: he'd made a mistake, these men were famously
bound to each other. "I
didn't mean—" "Shut
up, rodent. I'm thinking." The
very halls of Ingavin tremble at such tidings was what Ivarr wanted to say. He kept silent.
Composed himself with an image of what he wanted, what he needed: the
family of Brynn ap Hywll in their own yard—or maybe on a table in their hall
under torches, for better light?—naked, all of them, the women soiling
themselves with terror, exposed to his red, carving blade. Wife and daughters
and the fat man himself. The goal. All else could come later. "Why
you want to get to Arberth so bad?" They
heard sounds across the water; the other ships, moving nearer for the council.
They were out of sight of shore, darkness falling soon. Needed to be careful:
ships could ram and gouge each other in the sea, riding so nearly. They would
rope them together, create a platform of ships, even in open water, in
twilight. Jormsvik seamen. They knew how to do such things better than any men
alive. A thought, there. Ivarr
took a breath, as if summoning courage. "Why Arberth? Because Kjarten
Vidurson in Hlegest seems ready to be a king, and he should have the Volgan's
sword again. Or someone should." He
let that last phrase linger, emphasized it just enough. He hadn't planned to
mention Vidurson, but it worked, it worked. He could feel it. There was a
rhythm to these things as ideas came, a dance, as much as any single combat
with weapons ever was. "The
sword?" repeated Brand, stupidly. "My
grandfather's blade, taken when ap Hywll killed him. The death never avenged,
to my shame—and our people's." "That
was twenty-five years ago! We're mercenaries, for the great gods' sake!" Ivarr
lifted his head, let his pale eyes seem to blaze in the torchlight. "How
much glory do you think you'd gain, Brand Leofson, you and every man here, all
of Jormsvik, if you were the ones to regain that sword?" A
satisfying silence on the deck, and across the water. He'd spoken loudly,
ringing it out, that the other boats, approaching, might also hear. He pushed
on, next part of the song. "And more: do you not think it might even give
you, give all of us, some power and protection from Vidurson should he prove .
. . other than some think he is?" He
hadn't planned this, either. He was very happy with it. "What does that
mean?" Leofson snarled, now pacing like a bear on the deck. Ivarr
allowed himself to straighten, an equal speaking to an equal. It was necessary
to have that status back. "What does it mean? Tell me, men of Jormsvik,
how joyously will a northern man who sets himself as king over all the
Erlings—the first in four generations—look upon a walled fortress of fighting
men in the south who answer only to themselves?" It was like music, a
poem, he was shaping a "If
this is so," interrupted a voice again, "you might have raised it
with us, and let us take counsel at home. You said no single word about Kjarten
Vidurson. Or about Arberth, or the Volgan's
sword. Instead, tricked to sea with outright lies, sixty good men are
dead." It was the boy, the scarcely bearded one. He snorted. "Didn't
that watchman you say you captured in spring tell you about the new fair
starting this year?" Ivarr's
flaring anger calmed quickly. So easy, it was. They made it so easy. He wanted
to laugh. They were fools, even when they weren't. "He
did say that," he replied, keeping his voice mild. The second
question had so nicely taken him off the harder first one. "But he said
that because the fair was just beginning—as you say—the king was leaving it to
his stewards. That's why I thought there'd be merchants to raid, with few to
guard them, rich takings for brave men." "Just
beginning?" "As
you said," Ivarr murmured. The
young one, not as big a man as Leofson but well-enough made, began to laugh.
Laughing at Ivarr. With others watching and listening. This was not permitted.
He'd killed his sister for laughing like that, when she was twelve and he was
nine. "I
will not be made mock of," Ivarr snapped, a hotness in his brain. "No?"
said the other man. His amusement subsided. He had looked away before; he
wasn't doing so now. Lights had been hung on the ships' railings, all five of
them, and at prow and stern. They were aglow, these ships on the water, marking
the presence of mortal men on the wide, darkening sea. "I don't think I'm
mocking you, actually. Or not only that." "What
are you saying, Bern?" asked Leofson, quietly. Bern. The name. To be
remembered. "He's
still lying. Even now. You know the peasants' saying. To trap a
fox, you let him trap himself. He just did. Listen: this is the third year
of the Esferth Fair, not the first. Every man we met on the road knew it. The
city was thronged, Brand, overflowing. Tents in the fields. Guards everywhere,
and the fyrd. I said `first year' to see what this fox would do with it.
And you heard. Don't call him a maggot. He's too dangerous." Ivarr
cleared his throat. "So the ignorant peasant we captured was wrong
about—" "No,"
said the one called Bern. "I planted that thought in your head, Ragnarson.
You captured no watchman. You never put ashore here. You went straight to
Brynnfell in Arberth, and failed. So you wanted to go back—there, nowhere
else—for your own blood-hunger. Ingavin's blind eye, sixty men are dead because
you lied to us." "And
he killed an earl we took," someone shouted from the ship nearest to them.
"An earl!" Voices echoed that. Greed,
thought Ivarr. They were driven by greed. And vanity. Both could be used,
always. The hotness was making it harder to think clearly, though, to take back
control of this. If the one named Bern would only shut his mouth. If he'd been
on one of the other ships . . . such a small change in the world. Ivarr
looked at the man more closely. A ship on either side of theirs now, men
lashing them together, practised ease. It had grown darker. His eyes worked
better in this twilight with lanterns. Ingavin's blind eye. Something
slid into place with that phrase. "Who
is your father?" he said sharply, anger cracking through, with awareness.
"I think I know—" "He's
a Jormsviking!" snapped Brand, his voice crashing in, heavy as a smith's
hammer. "We are born when we pass through the walls into
brotherhood. Our histories do not matter, we shed them. Even maggots like you
know that of us." "Yes,
yes! But I think I know . . . The way he speaks . . . I think his father was
with—" Brand
struck him, a second time, harder than before, on the mouth. Ivarr went down on
his back, spat blood, then a tooth. Someone laughed. The hotness went red. He
reached towards the dagger in his boot, then stopped, controlling himself to
control men. He could be killed here, going for a weapon. Sprawled on his back,
he looked up at the big man over him, spat red again, to the side. Spread his
hands, to show they were empty. Saw a
sword, then another one, both bright, as if flaming, torchlight upon them. He
died there—astonished, it could be said—as Leofson's heavy blade spitted him,
biting deep into the deck beneath his body.
Bern
reminded himself to breathe. His arm, holding a sword, was at his side. Brand
had knocked it away with his own before killing Ivarr with a thrust that had
the full force of his body behind it. Leofson
levered his weapon free, with difficulty. There was a silence amid the
lanterns, under the first stars. Brand turned to Bern, a curious expression on
his scarred countenance. "You're
too young," he said unexpectedly. "Whatever else he was, this was the
last of the Volgans. Too heavy a weight to carry all your life. Better it was
me." Bern
found it difficult to speak. He managed a nod, though he wasn't sure he really
understood what the older man was saying. There was a stillness, a sense of
weight all about them, though. This was not an ordinary death. "Put
him overboard at the stern," Brand said. "Attor, do the `Last Song,'
and properly. We don't need any god angry tonight." Men
moved to do his bidding. You put Erlings into the sea if they died on the
water. Last of the Volgans, Bern thought. The phrase in his head kept
repeating itself. "He
. . . he killed sixty men today. As if he'd done it himself." "True
enough," said Brand, almost indifferently. He
was moving on already, Bern realized. Leader of a raid, other things to
consider, decisions to be made. He heard a splash. Attor's voice rose. They
would be able to hear it on the other boats. Bern
found that his hands were shaking. He looked at his sword, which he was still
holding, and sheathed it. He went to the side of the ship, by his own oar, next
to the roped ship beside them, and stood there listening as Attar sang,
deepvoiced in the dark.
Hard the journey heavy the waves, Brief our lingering on land or sea. Ingavin ever mind his Erling-folk, Thunir remember who
honour you. Let no angry
spirit still be here, No soul be
lost without a home. Salt the sea-foam by
ship's prow, White the waves before us and behind.
Bern
looked down at the water and then away to the emerging stars, trying to keep
his mind empty, to just listen. But then it seemed he was thinking—found
himself unable not to think—of his father again. In a stream with him under
these same stars last night. He
had felt such anger moments ago, looking down at Ivarr Ragnarson,
watching—knowing--what the man was doing. The need to kill had crashed over him
like nothing in his life before; he'd had his sword out, and driving, before
he'd realized what he was doing. Was
this the way it had happened for Thorkell—twice, ten years apart, in two
taverns? Was this his father's fury awakening inside him? And Bern was sober as
death right now; light-headed with fatigue, but not so much as a beaker of ale
since the tavern in Esferth the evening before. Yet even with that, rage had
taken him. If
Brand had not been quicker, Bern would have killed the man on the deck and he
knew it. His father had done that, twice, exiled for it the second time. Ruining
their lives was what Bern had always thought, and his heart had been cold
as a winter sea, bitter as winter foraging. Ruining
his father's own life was more true, he thought now: Thorkell had turned
himself, in a moment, from a settled landowner in a place where he had real
stature into an exile, no longer young, without hearth or family. How had he
felt that day, leaving the isle? And the next day, and in the nights that had
followed, sleeping among strangers, or alone? Did he lie down and rise up with heimthra,
the heart's hard longing for home? Bern had never even put his mind to
this. Are
you drunk? he had said to Thorkell
in the river. And been struck a blow for that. Open hand, he remembered; a father's
admonition. The
wind had died, but now a breeze came again from the east. The lashed ships
swayed with it, lanterns bobbing. Jormsvik mariners, best in all the world. He
was one of them. A new home, for him. The sky was dark now. The
song came to an end. His hands weren't trembling any more. Thorkell was
somewhere north in the night, having crossed the sea again, long past when he'd
have thought himself done with raiding. It was a time for home and hearth, wood
chopped and piled up for winter winds and snow. Land of his own, fences and
tilled fields, tavern fires in town, companionship at night. Gone with one
moment's ale-soaked fury. And his youth long gone as well. Not a time of life
to be starting again. What was a son—a grown son—to think about all of this? No
soul be lost without a home. Bern
reached into his tunic and touched the hammer on its silver chain. He shook his
head slowly. Thorkell had actually saved all of the men here, sending
Bern south at speed, with that added warning about Ivarr. You
needed to be strong enough to say these things to yourself, acknowledge them,
even through bitterness. And there was more, another thing sliding into
awareness now, the way the fainter stars slipped into sight against the
darkened sky. Don't let Ivarr Ragnarson know you're my son. He
hadn't understood that. He'd asked; his father hadn't answered. Not an
answering sort of man. But Ragnarson's pale eyes had seen something here on the
deck, in Bern's face by torchlight, or in something he'd said. Some kind of
resemblance. He had thought through—fox's mind—to a truth about Bern, and about
Thorkell. He'd been about to say it, an accusation, when swords came out and he
died. I think his father was with "Brand!
We've rowing to do, best set a course." It was Isolf, at the helm of the
ship tied to their starboard side. "I
say south first, head for Ferrieres coast, or Karch coast, whoever holds it
this year." That was Carsten, from the other side. "Ferrieres,"
said Brand absently. He walked past Bern towards the helm. Attor followed him. "Aeldred'll
have ships in the water by now, certain as Ingavin carries a hammer."
Isolf again. Someone
laughed derisively. "They don't know what they're doing. Anglcyn, at
sea?" Other voices joining in. "He'll
use Erlings," Brand said. The amusement subsided. "Believe it.
Ingemar Svidrirson's his ally here in Erlond, remember? Pays him tribute." "Fuck
him, then!" someone shouted. A
sentiment that found much endorsement, even more crude. Bern stayed where he
was, listening. He was too new, had no idea what their best course was. They'd
lost almost a third of their company, could manage five ships, but if they
ended up in a fight at sea .. . "We'll
do that another time," called Carsten Friddson. "Right now let's just
get home with all ships and bodies left. South's best, say I, to the other
coast, then we beat back east along it. Aeldred won't venture so far from his
own shore just on a chance of finding us at sea." It
did make sense, Bern thought. The new Anglcyn ships at Drengest might be ready,
but they wouldn't have had any experience with them yet. And those ships—if
they were even on the water—were all that lay between them and home. Surely
they could slip past them? He
had a sudden, unexpectedly vivid image of Jormsvik. The walls, gate, barracks,
the stony, wave-battered strand, the crooked town beside the fortress where
he'd almost died the night before he won his way inside. He thought of Thira.
His whore now. He'd killed Gurd, who'd laid claim to her before. That
was how it worked in Jormsvik. You bought your warmth in winter, one way or
another. Whores, not wives, was the order of things. But there was warmth
to be found, a fireside, companionship: he wasn't alone, wasn't a servant,
might have a chance, if he was good enough at killing and staying alive, to
shape a name for himself in the world. Thorkell had done that. And
it was on that thought of his father that Bern heard Brand Leofson say, with
what seemed an unnaturally precise, carrying clarity, "We're not going
home yet." A
silence again, then, "What in Thьnir's name does that mean?" Garr
Hoddson, shouting from the fourth ship. Brand
looked towards him across the other deck. They were all shapes in darkness now,
voices, unless standing beside one of the lanterns. Bern had taken a step away
from the rail. "Means
the snake said one thing true. Listen. This raid's the worst we've had in
years, any of us. It's a bad time for that, with Vidurson making plans up
north." "Vidurson?
What of it?" Garr shouted. "Brand, we've lost a full boat of—" "I
know what we've lost! I want to find, now. We need to. Listen to me.
We're going to go west to get the Volgan's sword back. Or to kill the man who
took it. Or both. We're going to that farm, whatever it's called." "Brynnfell,"
Bern heard himself saying. His voice sounded hollow. "That's
it," Brand Leofson said, nodding his head. "Ap Hywll's farm. We run
enough of us ashore, leave some to the ships, find the place, burn it down,
there should be hostages." "How
do we get home, after?" Carsten asking. Bern
could hear a new note in his voice: he was interested, engaged. This had been a
disastrous raid, nothing to show for it but their own deaths. No man here
wanted to spend a winter hearing about that. "Decide
that when we're done. Back this way, or we go the north route—" "Too
late in the year," Garr Hoddson said. He had stepped across to Carsten's
ship, Bern saw. "Then
back this way. Aeldred'll be ashore by then. Or we overwinter west if need be.
We've done that before, too. But we'll do something before we show our
faces home. And if we get that blade back, we have something to show Kjarten
Vidurson, too, if that northerner gets ideas we don't like. Anyone here
actually decided we need a king, by the way?" A
shout of anger. Jormsvik had its views on this. Kings put limits on you, set
taxes, liked to tear down walls that weren't their own. "Carsten?"
Brand lifted his voice over the shouting. "I'm for it." "Garr?" "Do
it. We've shipmates to avenge." But
not in the west, Bern thought. Not
there. It didn't matter. He felt, with genuine surprise, a quickening of
his own heartbeat. His father hadn't wanted them to go west, but Ivarr was
dead, they weren't listening to his tune, they didn't have to listen to
Thorkell's, either. To
get the Volgan's lost sword back from the Cyngael. On his first raid. That
would be remembered, it would always be remembered. Bern touched Ingavin's
hammer, his father's hammer, at his throat. There
was another part of the verse he'd spoken to his father in the stream; they all
knew it, throughout the Erling lands:
Cattle
die kinsmen die. Every
man born will die. Fierce hearth fires end in ash. Fame
once won endures ever.
The
ships were being unlashed. Bern moved to help. The risen wind was from the
east, a message in that. Ingavin's wind, carrying them in the night,
dragon-prows on a summer sea. TWELVE Jadwina
was never quite clear, looking back, whether they received the tidings of the
earl's death (she always got his name wrong, but it was difficult to remember
things from so long ago) and the slaughtered Erling raiders before or after the
evening her life changed—or even that same night, though she didn't think so.
It felt as though it had come afterwards. It had been a bad time for her, but
she was fairly certain she'd have remembered if it had been that same night. The
troubles had begun a fourteen-night earlier, when Eadyn lost his hand. An
accident, an entirely stupid accident, clearing trees with his father, bending
a branch for Osca's axe. A clean severing, at the wrist. His life marred, all
hope of good fortune spurting from him with his blood. The hand on the grass,
fingers still flexed, a thing of its own now. Discarded. A young man,
broad-shouldered, fair-haired, picked to marry her, and her own inward choice
for that (by Jad's pure grace), turned cripple in a moment's inattention at the
edge of wood and scrubland. He
lived. Their cleric, summoned, knew more than most about leechcraft. Eadyn lay
in fever for days, his wrist wrapped in a poultice his mother changed at
sunrise and sunset. Osca wasn't at the bedside or even at home. He spent those
days drinking, swearing, weeping, cursing the god, abusing those who tried to
comfort him. What comfort was there under the heavens? He had only the one
living son, and a farm that needed Eadyn's strength as his own began to fail. It
was a calamity. Lives turned, lives ended, with such moments. The
cleric, wisely, kept his distance until Osca had drunk himself into a vomiting
stupor and awoke, a day and night later, ashen and heart-scalded. The god had
made the world this way, in his unknowable wisdom, the cleric said to the
villagers in their small chapel. But it was hard, he conceded. It could be
intolerably hard. Jadwina
thought so too. Her own father had shaken his head grimly when he heard the
tale. He had politely waited to see if Eadyn would conveniently die, before
calling off the proposed match. What else could he do? A cripple was no
marriage. He could never swing an axe properly, handle a plough, mend a fence
alone, kill a wolf or wild dog. Couldn't even practise with a bow as they were
ordered by the king to do now. It
was a sorrow for Eadyn and his family, a lesson for every-one else, as the
cleric said, but you didn't have to make it your sorrow, too. There were
healthy lads in the village, or near enough. You needed to marry daughters
usefully. It was a matter of survival. The world, here in the north, or
anywhere else probably, wasn't going to make life easy for you. At
some point during that time—it blurred for Jadwina, looking back—Bevin, the
smith, had appeared at their door and asked to speak with her father. Gryn had
gone walking with him and returned to say that he'd accepted an offer for her. The
younger son of the village smith wasn't the match Eadyn, son of Osca, had
been—land was land, after all—but he was better than a one-handed cripple.
Jadwina received the tidings and—as best she remembered—she dropped a pitcher
on the floor. It might have been on purpose; she couldn't recall. Her father
beat her about the back and shoulders, with her mother calling approval. It had
been a new-bought pitcher. Raud,
the smith's son, now plighted to her, never even spoke with Jadwina. Not then,
at any rate. Some
days later, however, towards twilight, as she was bringing the cow back from
the northernmost field, Raud stepped out from a copse by the path. He stood
before her. He had come from the forge; there was soot in his clothing and on
his face. "Be
wed come harvest," he said, grinning. He had poxed cheeks and long, skinny
shanks. "Not
by my will," Jadwina replied, tossing her head. He
laughed. "Wha' matters that? You'll spread legs by will or wi'out." "Eadyn
is two men to your one!" she said. "And you knows it." He
laughed again. "He's one hand to my two. Can't even do this now." He
grabbed at her. Before she could twist away, he had a hand twisted in her hair,
spilling her kerchief, and another over her mouth, too tightly for her to bite,
or scream. He smelled of ash and smoke. He pulled the hand away quickly and hit
her on the side of the head, hard enough for the world to rock and sway. Then
he hit her again. The
sun was going down. End of summer. She remembered that. No one on the path,
home a long walk from where they were. She couldn't even see the nearest houses
of the village. "Take
what's mine now," Raud said. "Get a baby in you, they'll just make me
wed you, won' they? What matters that?" She was on the ground by the path,
beneath him. He straddled her, a boot on either side, started untying the rope
around his trousers, fumbling in his haste. She drew breath to shout. He kicked
her in the ribs. Jadwina
gasped, began to weep. It hurt to breathe. He dragged his leggings down around
his muddy boots. Lowered himself to his knees then forward onto her. Began
pushing, clumsily, at her lower clothes. She hit him, scratching at his face.
He swore, then laughed, his hand groped hard at her, down there. Then
his whole body lurched crazily to one side, his head most of all. Jadwina had a
confused, frightening sense of wetness. She was in pain, dizzy and terrified.
It took her a moment to understand what had happened. Raud's blood was all over
her. He'd been hit in the neck from above, behind, by an axe. She looked up. An
axe swung one-handed. Raud's
body, his sex exposed, still erect, his trousers around his ankles, lay
sprawled on one side, next to her in the shallow ditch where he'd thrown her
down. Instinctively, she shifted away from him. He was, Jadwina saw, already
dead. She was afraid she was going to be sick. She put a hand to her side where
the worst pain was, then brought it to her face. It came away wet with Raud's
blood. Eadyn,
his face ghost-pale, stood above her. She struggled to sit up. Her side felt as
if a blade were in it, as if something were broken and sliding within. He
stepped back a little. Her cow was behind him, in the grass on the other side
of the path, cropping. No sound but that, and the birds flying to branches at
end of day; fields and trees, dark green grass, the sun almost down. "Was
out here trying," Eadyn said, finally, gesturing with the axe. "See
if I can chop. You know? Saw you." She
seemed able to nod her head. "Can't
do it rightly," he said, lifting the axe a little again, letting it fall.
"No good." Jadwina
drew a careful breath, a hand to her side again. She was covered in blood.
"Just started, though. You'll get better at it." He
shook his head. "Useless man." She tried not to look at the bandaged
stump of his right hand. His good hand, it had been. "You
. . . you were man enough to save me," she said. He
shrugged. "From behind him." "What
matters that?" she said. Her capacity to speak, to think, was coming back.
And she had a thought. It frightened her, so she spoke quickly, before fear
could take hold. "Lie with me now," she said. "Give me a child.
No one else will want me then. You'll have to." What
she saw in him, that moment, in the last fading of the summer daylight, and
remembered ever after, was fear, and defeat. It could be read, the way some
clerics read words in books. He
shook his head again. "Na, that'll not do. I'm cripple, girl. They'll not
wed you to me. And how could I fend for a wife and little ones now?" "We'll
fend the both of us together," she said. He
was silent. The axe—dark with Raud's blood—held in his left hand. "Jad rot
it forever," he said finally. "I'm done." He looked at the dead
man. "His brothers'll kill me now." "They'll
not that. I'll tell the cleric and reeve what happened here." "And
that'll matter to them?" He laughed, bitterly. "No. I'm away this
night, girl. You clean yourself, say nothing. Maybe take a bit of time before
they find this. Give me a chance to be gone." Her
heart was aching by then, more than her side, a dull, hard pain, but there
was—even in that moment—a part of her that had begun despising him. It was like
a death, actually, feeling that. "Where
. . . where will you go?" "As
if I have the least idea," he said. "Jad be with you, girl." He
said that over his shoulder, had already turned away. He
left her there, walked north, back up the grassy path the way that she had
come, and then on, beyond the pasture. Jadwina watched until she couldn't see
him any more in the twilight. She got herself up, reclaimed her hazel switch,
and began leading the cow back home, moving slowly, a hand to her side, leaving
a dead man in the grass. She
decided, before she'd reached the first houses, that she wasn't going to listen
to Eadyn. He had left her lying there without a backwards glance. They had been
pledged to be married. She
went home exactly as she was, Raud's blood on her face and hair and hands, all
over her clothing. She saw horror—and curiosity—in people's faces as she took
the cow through the village. She kept her head high. Said nothing. They
followed her. Of course they followed her. At her door, she told her father and
mother, and then the cleric and reeve when they were brought, what had
happened, and where. She'd thought she'd be beaten again, but she wasn't. Too
many people about. Men
(and boys, and dogs) went running to look. It was well after nightfall that
they brought back Raud's body. It was reported how he had been when they'd
found him, trousers down, exposed. Two of the older women were instructed by
the reeve to examine Jadwina. Behind a door they made her lift her skirts and
both of them poked at her and came out, cackling, to report that she was
intact. Her
father owned land; the smith was only a smith. There was no one to gainsay her
tale. Right there, under torches in front of their door, the reeve declared the
matter closed to the king's justice, named the killing a just one. Two of
Raud's brothers went north in the morning after Eadyn. They came back without
having found any sign of him. Raud was buried in the ground behind the chapel. And
it had been some time during those warm, end-of-summer days that they had
learned of the Erling raid and the death of the earl, the king's good friend. Jadwina
hadn't been inclined to care, or listen very much, which is why she was never
certain about the course and timing of events. She remembered agitation and
excitement, the cleric talking and talking, the reeve riding out and then back.
And on one of the days there had been a black billowing of smoke west of them.
It turned out to be, they learned, a burning of slain Erlings. The
king himself, it seemed, had been right there, just beyond the trees and the
ridges. A battle almost within sight of where they lived. A victory. For those
whose lives had not been utterly undone, as Jadwina's had been, it counted as
entirely memorable. Later
that same year the smith's wife died, an autumn fever. Two others of the
village went to the god as well. Within a fourteen-night of burying his wife,
Gryn came to Jadwina's father again, this time for himself. This was the father
of the man who had been pledged to her and had assaulted her and been slain for
it. It
didn't seem to matter to anyone, certainly not her father. There was a kind of
cloud, a stain over Jadwina by then. She was sent to him that same week, to the
smithy and the house behind it. The cleric spoke new blessings over them in
chapel; they had a cleric who liked to keep abreast of new things. Too much
haste, some said of the marriage. Others jested that, with Jadwina's history,
her father didn't want to see a third man maimed or killed before getting her
off his hands. No
one ever saw Eadyn again, or heard tell of him. Gryn, the smith, as it turned
out, was a mild-humoured man. She hadn't expected that in someone so red-faced,
and with the sons he had. How could she have expected kindness? They had two children
who survived. Jadwina's memories of the year she was wed softened and blurred,
overlaid with others as the seasons passed. In
time, she buried her husband; took no other mate. Her sons shared the smithy,
after, with their older half-brothers, and she lived with one of them and his
wife, tolerably well. As well as such things can ever be, two women in a small
house. She was buried herself, when the god called her home, laid in the
growing chapel graveyard, next to Gryn, not far from Raud, under a sun disk and
her name. + Three
things, Alun was thinking,
remembering the well-worn triad, will gladden the heart of a man. Riding to
a woman under two moons. Riding to battle, companions at his side. Riding home,
after long away. He
was doing the third, possibly the second. Hadn't thought about the first since
his brother died. His heart was not glad. He
saw a sudden branch and ducked. The overgrown path they'd chosen could barely
be called such. These woods had no formal name in either tongue, Cyngael or Anglcyn.
Men did not enter here, save for the edgings, and only by daylight. He
heard his unwanted companion following. Without turning, Alun said, "There
will be wolves in here." "Or
course there will be wolves," Thorkell Einarson said mildly. "Bears,
still, this time of year. Hunting cats. Boars." "With autumn coming,
boars for certain. Snakes." "Yes.
Two kinds, I believe. The green ones are harmless." They
were a fair distance into the forest already, the light entirely gone, even if
it might still be twilight outside. Cafall was a shadow ahead of Alun's horse. "The
green ones," Thorkell repeated. Then he laughed—genuine laughter, despite
where they were. "How do we tell in the dark?" "If
they bite us and we don't die," Alun replied. "I didn't ask you to
come. I told you—" "You
told me to go back. I know. I can't." This
time Alun stopped his horse, the Erling horse Thorkell had found for him. He
still hadn't asked about that. They had reached a very small clearing, a little
space to face each other. The leaves overhead let a hint of the last evening
light come down. It was time for the invocation. He wondered if it had been
done before in these woods, if Jad's word had ever reached so far. It seemed to
him he felt a humming, just below hearing, but he was aware that that was
almost certainly apprehension and no more. There were so many tales. "Why?"
he asked. "Why can't you?" The
other man had also reined his horse. There was just enough light to see his
face. He shrugged. "I am neither your servant, nor the cleric's. My life
was saved by Lady Enid at Brynnfell and she claimed me as hers. If you are
correct, and I believe you are, Ivarr Ragnarson is leading the Jormsvik ships
there. I value my life as much as any man, but I gave her my oath. I will try
to get back before they do." "For
an oath?" "For
that oath." There
was more, Alun was sure of it. "You understand this is mad? That we have
five days, maybe six to survive in these woods?" "I
understand the folly of it better than you do, I suspect. I'm an old man, lad.
Trust me, I'm not happy being here." "Then
why—?" "I
answered you. Will you leave it." The
first hint of a temper, strain. Alun's turn to shrug. "I'm not about to
fight you, or try to hide. We'll forget rank, though. I think you know more
than I do about surviving here." It was easier to say that to this man
than to most others, he thought. "Perhaps
a little more. I did bring food." Alun
blinked, and realized, with the words, that his hunger was extreme. He tried to
work out the timing. They'd had bread and ale after killing the first Erling
party by the stream. Nothing since then. And the fyrd had been in the
saddle since the middle of the night before. "Come.
Get down," said Thorkell Einarson, as if tracking that thought. "As
good a place as any. I need to stretch. I'm old." Alun
dismounted. He'd been a horseman all his life, but his legs were aching. The
other man was groping in a saddle pack. "Can
you see my hand?" "Yes." "Wedge
of cheese. Cold meat coming. I've ale in a flask." "Jad's blood and
grace. When did you ... ?" "When
we got to the water and saw the ships were gone." Alun considered this a
moment, chewing. "You knew I'd do this?" The
other man hesitated. "I knew that I would." This,
too, needed thought. "You were going to come in here alone?" "Not
happily, I promise you." Alun
tore at the chunk of meat the other man passed him, drank thirstily from the
offered flask. "May
I ask a question?" The Erling took the ale back. "Told you, not a
servant in here. We need to survive." "Tell the snakes, the ones that
aren't green." "What's
the question?" "Is
this the same wood as north, by Esferth and past it?" "What? You
think I'd be here if there was a break in the trees? Am I a fool?" "In
here? Of course you are a fool. But help me with the question, nonetheless." A
moment, both men silent, then Alun heard his own laughter in that black,
ancient wood where the tales he'd known all his life said there were spirits
that sought blood and were endlessly angry. Something small skittered, startled
by the noise. The dog had gone ahead, now came back to them. Alun gave him some
of the meat. He took the ale flask back. It
occurred to Thorkell Einarson, squatting on his haunches beside the young
Cyngael, that he hadn't heard the other man laugh before, not once in all their
time together, since the night of a spring raid. Alun
said, "You aren't very good at a servant's role, are you? It is the same
forest. There's a small valley on this side, I think there's a sanctuary
there." Thorkell
nodded. "That's how I remember it, yes." And then, quietly, he added,
"So whatever spirit you were with last night might be here as well?" Alun
imagined he felt a wind in his face, though there was none blowing. He was
briefly glad of the darkness. He cleared his throat. "I have no idea,"
he said. "How did you . . . ?" "I
watched you come out of the trees last night. I'm an Erling. My grandmother
could see spirits on the roofs of half the homes in our village, summoned them
to blight the fields and wells of those she hated. There were enough of those,
Ingavin knows. Lad, we can swear an oath to honour the sun god, and wear his
disk, but what happens after darkfall? When the sun is down and Jad is under
the world, battling?" "I
don't know," Alun said. He still seemed to feel that wind, sense the
wood's vibration, so nearly a sound. Five days' journey, maybe more. They were
going to die here, he thought. Three things a brave man remembers at his end
. . . "None
of us knows," Thorkell Einarson said, "but we still have to live
through the nights. It is . . . unwise to be so sure we're alone here, whatever
the clerics teach. You believe that spirit is kindly disposed?" Alun
took a breath. It was difficult to believe they were speaking of this. He
thought of the faerie, shimmering, a light where there was none. "I
believe so." The
other man's turn to hesitate. "You realize that where there is one such
power, there may be others?" "I
told you you didn't have to come." "Yes,
you did. Pass the flask. My throat's dry. A sorrow to die with ale to hand and
undrunk." Alun
reached the flask across. His calves were sore, the long ride, crouching now.
He sat on the grass, wrapped his arms about his knees. "We can't ride all
night." "No.
How did you propose to guide yourself, alone?" "That one I can answer.
Think on it." The
other man did. "Ah. The dog." "He
came from Brynnfell. Can find his way home. How were you going to do it,
alone?" Thorkell
shook his head. "No idea." "And
you thought I was being a fool?" "You
are. So am I. Let us drink to ourselves." Thorkell lifted the flask again,
cleared his throat. "Consider sending him ahead? The dog? Ap Hywll would
know ..." "I
did think about it. It seems to make sense to have him with us, and to let him
run on alone if we ..." "Find
a not-green snake or one of the things that are stronger than your spirit and
don't like us." "Should
we rest here?" Alun asked. Fatigue was washing over him. There
was an answer given to that question, though not from the man beside him. They
heard a sound, movement in the trees. Larger
than a boar, Alun thought, rising, unsheathing his blade. Thorkell was also on
his feet, holding his hammer. They stood a moment, listening. Then they heard a
different kind of sound. "Holy
Jad," said Alun, a moment later, with considerable feeling. "I
think not, actually," said Thorkell Einarson. He sounded amused. "Not
the god. I believe this would be—" "Be
quiet!" said Alun. The
two of them listened, in bemused silence, to a voice, behind them and a little
south, moving through the trees where no moonlight could fall. Someone—however
improbably—was singing in these woods.
The
girl for me at the end of the day Is the one who'd rather kiss than pray, And
the girl for me in the morning light Is the one who takes and gives delight,
And the girl for me in the blaze of noon Is the one
"Stuff
the wailing. We're over here," Thorkell called. "And who knows what
else's coming now, the noise you make." Both
men put back their weapons. Crackling
sounds came nearer, branches and leaves, twigs on the forest floor. An oath, as
someone collided with something. "Noise?
Wailing?" said Athelbert, son of Aeldred, heir to the Anglcyn throne. He
edged his horse into their small clearing. Straining his eyes, Alun saw that he
was rubbing at his forehead. "I hit a branch. Really hard. I also believe
I have been insulted. I was singing." "That
what it was?" Alun said. Athelbert
had a sword at his hip, a bow across his back. He dismounted, stood facing the
two of them, holding the reins of his horse. "Sorry,"
he said ruefully. "To be frank, my sisters and my brother take that same
view of my voice. I've decided to leave home, out of shame." "This,"
Alun said, "was a bad idea." "I'm
a bad singer," Athelbert replied lightly. "My
lord prince, this is—" "My
lord prince, I know what this is." Both
of them stopped. A moment later, Athelbert was the one who went on. "I
know what you are doing. Two men are unlikely to get through this wood
alive." "And
three are likely?" It
was Thorkell. He still had that amused tone, Alun realized. "I didn't
actually say that," Athelbert replied. "You do realize where we are?
Likelihood? We'll all be killed." "This
is not your concern," Alun said. He forced himself to be gracious.
"Generous as the thought might be, my lord, I daresay your royal
father—" "My
royal father will have sent outriders after me, as soon as they realized I was
gone. They are almost certainly in the trees already, and terrified witless. My
father thinks I am . . . irresponsible. There are reasons why he might hold
such a view. We'd best move on or they'll find us and say they have to bring me
back, and I'll say I won't go, and they'll have to draw weapons against their
prince on the orders of their king, which isn't a proper thing to force any man
to do, because I'm not going back." A
silence followed this. "Why?"
Thorkell asked finally, the amused tone gone. "Prince Alun is right: this
is no Anglcyn quarrel, Erlings raiding west of the Wall." Alun
could see clearly enough to observe Athelbert shaking his head. "That
man—Ragnarson?—killed my father's lifelong friend, one of our leaders, a man I
knew from childhood. They led a raid into our lands during a summer fair. Word
of that will spread. If they get away and—" Alun's
turn to interrupt. "They didn't get away. You killed fifty or sixty of
them. A ship's worth. Drove the rest from your shores, running from you. Word
of that will spread, to the glory of King Aeldred and his people. Why
are you here, Prince Athelbert?" It
was almost impenetrably black now, even in the clearing, the trees in summer
leaf blocking the stars. Cafall had stood up too, the dark grey dog virtually
invisible, a presence at Alun's knee. After
a long time, Athelbert spoke. "I heard what you said, before, by the
river. What you believe they intend to do. The farmhouse, women there, ap
Hywll, the sword ..." "And
so? It is still not your—" "Listen
to me, Cyngael! Is your father the haven and home of all virtues in the
world? Does he rise from a fevered sickbed to make a slaughter of his enemies?
Does he translate medical texts from Jad-cursed Trakesian? By the time
he was my age," said Athelbert of the Anglcyn, speaking with great
clarity, "my father had survived a winter hiding in a swamp, had broken
out, rallied our scattered people, and retaken his own slain father's realm. To
the undying glory of King Aeldred and our land." He
stopped, breathing hard, as if he'd been exerting himself. They heard wings
overhead, flapping from one tree to another. "You
are unhappy with him for being a good man?" Thorkell said. "That
is not what I am saying." "No?
Perhaps not. Help me then, my lord. You want some of that same glory,"
said Einarson. "That is it? Well, that is fairly sought. What young man
with a beating heart does not?" "This
one!" said Alun sharply. "You both listen to me. I have no
interest in any of that. I need to get to Brynnfell before the Erlings. That is
all. The coastal path goes to Arberth and it takes almost four days, at speed,
then four or five more to get north to Brynn's farm. I did that journey
this spring, with my brother. The Erlings know exactly where they are going
because Ragnarson's with them. No warning we send along the coast will beat
them to Brynnfell. I'm here because I have no choice. I'll say it again: I
didn't even want you to come," he said, turning to Thorkell. "And
I'll say it again, though I shouldn't have to: I am the servant of Lady Enid,
wife to Brynn ap Hywll," the Erling replied calmly. "If Ivarr gets to
that farm she'll die in the muck of her own yard, hacked apart, and so will any
others there, including her daughters. I have done such raids. I know
what happens. She saved my life. I swore an oath. Ingavin and jad both know I
have not kept every promise I made, but this time I will try." He
was silent. After a moment Alun nodded. "That's you. But this prince is
just . . . chasing his father. He's—" "This
prince," said Thorkell, "is entitled to make his own choices in life,
reckless or otherwise, as much as we are. A third blade is welcome as a woman
in a cold bed. But if he is right and outriders are following him, we need to
move." "He
should go back," Alun repeated, stubbornly. "This is not his—" "Talk
to me if you have anything to say. You've said that three times,"
Athelbert snapped. "Make a triad of it, why don't you? Set it to music! I
heard you each time. I am not turning back. Will you really refuse aid? Even if
it might save lives? Is it so certain you aren't thinking of glory?" Alun
blinked at that. "I swear by Jad's name, it is certain. Don't you see? I
do not believe it is possible to do this. I expect to die here. We have
no idea where water is, or food, what path we might find, or not find. Or what
will find us. There are tales of this place going back four hundred years, my
lord Athelbert. I have a reason to risk death. You do not." "I
know those stories. The same tales are told on this side. If you go back far
enough, we used to sacrifice animals in the valley north of here, to whatever
was in the wood." "If
you go back far enough, it wasn't animals," Alun said. Athelbert
nodded his head, unruffled. "I know that, too. It is not for you to judge
my reasons. Say that you are here because of your brother, and I because of my
father. Leave it and let's go." Alun
still hesitated. Then he shrugged. He'd done what he could. With a hint of
wryness in his tone, one that a dead brother would have recognized, he said,
"If that is so, this one here breaks the pattern." He nodded towards
Thorkell. "Not
really," said the Erling. They heard his amusement. "I'm of a piece
with you, in truth. Tell you about it later. Let's move, before we're found and
it gets difficult." "Truly.
Some of the outriders sing worse than I do," Athelbert said. "Jad
defend us, if so," said Alun. He reached a hand down, into the fur of the
dog's neck. "Cafall, will you lead us home, my heart?" And
with those words Athelbert realized that they weren't as completely without
resources as he'd thought, riding into the spirit wood after the two of them,
panic and determination warring within him. They
had the dog. Amazingly, it might matter. The
three of them remounted and carefully picked their way out of the small glade,
bent low over the horses' necks to stay under branches if they could. They
heard sounds as they went. The noises of a wood at night. Owls calling, wingflap
of another bird overhead, wood snapping to left and right, sometimes loudly, a
scrabbling along branches, scurry, wind. What else each of them heard, or
thought he heard, he kept to himself. + Men
were avoiding the king, Ceinion saw. He could understand that. Aeldred,
philosopher, seeker after the learning of the old schools, shaper of calm
devices and stratagems, a man controlled enough to have feasted the Erling
who'd blood-eagled his father, was in a rage like a forest fire. As
he'd stalked away across the stones of the beach where the boats had been, his
fury had been so intense, it had been as if there were a wave of heat coming
off his body. If you were a physician, you feared for a man in such condition;
if you were his subject, you feared for yourself. The
king was still down the strand in the gathering dark. Standing close to the
crashing surf in the wind, as if together wind and waves might cool him,
Ceinion thought. He knew that wasn't going to happen. They had heard from the
outriders sent out. Prince Athelbert had gone into the woods. Fear
plainly visible in those reporting this; four exhausted men astride their
horses, waiting for the command they would not dare refuse, and could hardly
bear to imagine. It never came. Instead,
Aeldred had stood, fighting for control, and then had turned on his heel and
gone off to where he was now, his back to all of them, facing the darkening sea
under the first stars in the vault of the sky. The blue moon was rising. Ceinion
went after him. No
one else would do it, and the cleric was aware of terrors clinging to what
remained of this day, building within himself. He felt trammelled, as in a
fisherman's net of sorrows. Deliberately,
he let his approach be heard, scuffling at stones. Aeldred did not turn, stayed
as he had been, gazing out at the water. Far off, beyond sight but not sailing,
were the shores of Ferrieres. Carloman had taken the coast back from the
Karchites in the spring, after two years of campaigning. A disputed, precarious
shoreline, that one. It always had been. Everything was precarious, he thought.
He was remembering fires in the farmyard at Brynnfell. "Did
you know," said Aeldred, not turning around, "that in Rhodias in the
days of its glory there were baths where three hundred men could be bathing in
cool water, and as many in the heated pool, and as many again lying at their
ease with wine and food?" Ceinion
blinked. The king's voice was conversational, informative. They might have
been, themselves, reclining at their ease somewhere. He said, carefully,
"My lord. I did hear of such. I have never been there, of course. Did you
see this yourself, when you went with your royal father?" "The
ruins of them. The Antae sacked Rhodias four hundred years ago. The baths
didn't survive. But you could see . . . what they had been able to make. There
are ruins here, too, of course, from when the Rhodians came this far. Perhaps I
will show you, some day." Ceinion
thought he could discern the shape of what this was about. Men responded so
differently to grief. "Life
was . . . otherwise, then," he agreed, being cautious. It was difficult;
he was seeing fires in his mind. The breeze was strong here, but it was
pleasant, not cold. It was from the east. "I
was eight years old when my father took me on pilgrimage," Aeldred went
on. The same even, casual tone. He still hadn't turned around. It occurred to
Ceinion to wonder how the king had known who it was who'd come walking over to
him. His particular footfall? Or a simpler awareness that no one else would approach,
just then? "I
was excited and impatient, of course," Aeldred went on, "but what you
just said . . . that life was otherwise for them .. . that was clear to me,
even when I was young. On the way, in one of the cities in the north of
Batiara, where the Antae had their own court, we saw a chapel complex. Four or
five buildings. In one of them there was a mosaic of the court of Sarantium.
The Strategos-Emperor. Leontes." "Valerius
III. They called him `the Golden.'" Aeldred
nodded. "There was a king," he said. A wave crashed and
withdrew, grating along stones. "You could see it on that wall. His court
around him. The clothing they wore, the jewellery, the . . . room they
were in. The room they had. In their lives. To make things. I've never
forgotten it." "He
was a great leader, by all accounts," Ceinion agreed. He
was letting this unfold. At the back of his mind, his pulse rapid with it, was
the awareness of ships, and the east wind. "I've
read one or two chronicles, yes. Pertennius, Colodias. On the other wall I
remember another mosaic, less good, I think. An earlier emperor, the one before
him. He rebuilt the sanctuary, I think. He was there too, the opposite wall. I
remember I wasn't as taken. It looked different." "Different
artisans, very likely," the cleric said. "Kings
depend on that, do you think? The quality of their artisans." "Not
while they live, my lord. After, perhaps, for how they are remembered." "And
what will men remember about—?" Aeldred broke off, resumed again, a
different tone. "We shouldn't be forgetting his name," he murmured.
"He built Jad's Sanctuary in Sarantium, Ceinion. How are we forgetting?" "Forgetting
is part of our lives, my lord. Sometimes it is a blessing, or we could never
move beyond loss." "This
is different." "Yes,
my lord." "What
I was saying . . . about the baths. We have no space, no time to make
such things." He
had been saying this, Ceinion remembered, at the high table after the banquet
last night. Only last night. He said, "Baths and mosaics are not allowed
to all of us, my lord." "I
know that. Of course I know. Is it . . . unworthy to feel their absence?" This
was not the conversation he'd been expecting to have. Ceinion thought about it.
"I think . . . it is necessary to feel that. Or we will not desire
a world that lets us have them." Aeldred
was silent, then, "Do you know, I always intended to take Athelbert, his
brother, too, to Rhodias. The same journey. To see it again myself, kiss the
ring of the Patriarch. Offer my prayers in the Great Sanctuary. I wanted my sons
to see it and remember, as I do." "You
were fighting wars, my lord." "My
father took me." "My
lord, I am of an age with you, and have lived through the same times. I do not
believe you have anything for which to reproach yourself." Aeldred
turned then. Ceinion saw his face in the twilight. "Alas,
but you are wrong, my lord cleric. I have so much in the way of reproach for
myself. My wife wishes to leave me, and my son has gone." They
had arrived. Every man had his own path to such places. Ceinion said, "The
queen is seeking to go home to the god, my lord. Not to leave you." Aeldred's
mouth crooked a little. "Unworthy, good cleric. Clever without being wise.
Cyngael wordplay, I'd call it." Ceinion
flushed, which didn't happen often. He bowed his head. "We cannot always
be wise, my lord. I am the first to say that I am not." Aeldred's
back was to the sea now. He said, "I could have let Athelbert lead the fyrd
last night. He could have done it. I didn't need to be here." "Did
he ask for it?" "That
is not his way. But he could have dealt with this. I had just come back from my
fever. I had no need to ride. I should have left it to him." His hands
were fists, Ceinion saw. "I was so angry. Burgred ..." "My
lord—" "Do
you not understand? My son is dead. Because I did not let—" "It
is not for us to say what will be, my lord! We do not have that wisdom.
This much I do know." "In
that wood? Ceinion, Ceinion, you know where he went! No man has
ever—" "Perhaps
no man has tried. Perhaps it was time to lay to rest old fears, in Jad's name.
Perhaps a great good will come of this. Perhaps . . ." He trailed off.
There was no great good that he could see coming. His words were false in his
own ears. There was that image of burning in him, here by the cool sea, as the
moon rose. Aeldred
was looking closely at him now. He said, "I have been greatly unjust. You
are my friend and guest. These are my own concerns, and you have a grief here.
There is a reason Prince Owyn's son went into the spirit wood. My sorrow,
cleric. We were too slow, riding. We needed to be here before the ships cast
off." Ceinion
was silent. Then he said, as he ought to have said at the beginning, with the
dark coming on, "Pray with me, my lord. It is time for the rites." "There
is no piety in my heart," said Aeldred. "I am not in a state to
address the god." "We
are never in a state to do so. It is the way of our lives in his world. One of
the things for which we ask mercy is that inadequacy." He was on familiar
ground, now, but it didn't feel that way. "And
our anger?" "That
too, my lord." "Bitterness?" "That
too." The
king turned back to the sea. He was still as a monolith, as a standing stone
planted on the strand by those who lived here long ago, and believed in darker
gods and powers than Jad or the Rhodian pantheon: in sea, in sky, in the black
woods behind them. Ceinion
said, again, "We must not presume to know what will come." "My
heart is dark. He ... should not have done what he did, Athelbert. He is not
without . . . duties." They
were back to the son. Not a child any more. "My
lord, the son of a great father might need to shape his own way in the world.
If he is to follow you and be more than only Aeldred's child." The
king turned again. He said, "Dying allows no way in the world. They cannot
go through that wood." The
cleric let his own voice gain force. A lifetime of experience. So many
conversations with the bereaved and the afraid. "My lord, I can tell you
that Alun ab Owyn is as capable a man as I know. The Erling . . . is far more
than a servant. And I watched Prince Athelbert this past night and day, and
marvelled at him. Now I will honour his courage." "Ah!
And you will say this to his mother, when we come back to Esferth? How
comforting she will find it!" Ceinion
winced. Behind them, men were gathering wood, lighting night fires on the
beach. They would stay until morning. The fyrd would be exhausted,
ravenous, but they would be feeling pride, deep satisfaction at what they had
done. The Erlings were driven off, fleeing them, and threescore of the raiders
were dead on Anglcyn soil. The tale would run, would cross these dark waters to
Ferrieres, Karch, east to Vinmark itself, and beyond. For
Aeldred and the Anglcyn this could be called a triumphant day, worthy of harp
song and celebration after the mourning for an earl. For the Cyngael, it might
be otherwise. "Pray
with me," he said again. There
must have been something in his voice, an edge of need. Aeldred stared at him
in the last of the light. The wind blew. It
could carry the Erlings tonight. Ceinion could see them in the eye of his mind,
dragon-prows knifing black water, rising and falling. Vengeful men aboard. He
had lived through such raids, so many times, so many years. He could see Enid,
fire at the edges of his vision, pushing inward, as Brynnfell burned and she
died. Always,
since his wife had been laid in the ground behind his own sanctuary in
Llywerth, there had been that one thing for which he never prayed: the lives of
those he loved. He could see her, though—all of them at Brynnfell—and
the ships in the water like blades, approaching. Aeldred's
gaze was unsettling, as if his thoughts were open to the king. He wasn't ready
for that. His role was to offer comfort here. Aeldred
said, "I cannot send the Drengest ships to catch them, friend. They will
be too far behind by the time word reaches the burh, and if we are
wrong, and the Erlings do not go west ..." "I
know it," Ceinion said. Of course he knew. "We aren't even allies,
lord. Your soldiers on the Rheden Wall are there against Cyngael raids . .
." "To
keep you out, yes. But that isn't it. I would do this, after last night. But my
ships are too new, our seamen learning each other and the boats. They might be
able to block the lanes if the Erlings turn home tonight, but—" "But
they cannot catch them going west. I know it." No
words for a time. Ships in his mind, out there somewhere. The beat and withdraw
of surf, sound of it, sound of men behind them up the strand, noises of a camp,
wind in the gathering night. Three
things the wise man ever fears: a woman's fury, a fool's tongue, dragon-prows. "Brynn
ap Hywll killed the Volgan, Ceinion. He and his band are very great
fighters." "Brynn
is old," Ceinion said. "So are most of his band. That battle was
twenty-five years ago. They will have no warning. They may not even be there
now. Your men say there were five ships beached here. You know how many men
that means, even without those you killed." "What
shall I say?" Somehow
it had been turned around. He had walked over to give comfort. Perhaps he had;
perhaps for some men this was the only access they had to being eased. "Nothing,"
he said. "Then
we'll pray." Aeldred hesitated, a thinking pause, not an uncertain one.
"Ceinion, we will do what we can. A ship to Owyn in Cadyr. They'll sail to
him under a truce flag with a letter from me and one from you. Tell him what
his son is doing. He might cut off an Erling party on its way back to their
ships, if they do go to your shores. And I'll send word north to the Rheden
Wall. They can get a message across, if someone is there to receive it
..." "I
have no idea," Ceinion said. He
didn't. What happened in those lands around the Wall was murky and
fog-shrouded, beyond the power and grasp of princes. The valleys and the black
hills kept their secrets. He was thinking about something else. On their way
back to the ships. If
they were doing that, the Erlings, it would be over at Brynnfell. And here he
was, knowing it, seeing it, unable to do more than . . . unable to do
anything. He knew why Alun had gone into the forest. Standing still was very
nearly intolerable, it could shatter the heart. He
would pray for Athelbert, and for Owyn's son in the wood, but not for those he
most dearly loved. He'd done that once, prayed for her with all the gathered
force of his being, holding her in his arms, and she had died. He
was aware of Aeldred's gaze. Told himself to be worthy of his office. The king
had lost a lifelong friend and his son was gone. "They
may get through . . . in the forest," he said, again. Aeldred
shook his head, but calmly now. "By the mercy and grace of Jad, I have
another son. I was a younger son as well, and my brothers died." Ceinion
looked at the other man, then beyond him at the sea. On that windblown strand
he made the sun disk gesture that began the rites. The king knelt before him.
Down along the beach where the fires were, the men of the fyrd saw this
and, one by one, sank to their knees to share the evening invocation, spoken in
that hour when Jad of the Sun began his frozen journey under the world to
battle dark powers and malign spirits, keeping as many of them as possible away
from his mortal children until the light could come to them again, at dawn. Keeping
most of them away. Not all. It
was not the way of things in the world that men and women could ever be
entirely shielded from what might seek and find them in the dark. THIRTEEN Given
what followed, it might have been a mistake to stop for what remained of the
night, but at the time there hadn't seemed to be much choice. All
three men were hardened and fit and two of them were young, but they'd been
awake for two days and nights and in the saddle. In this forest, Thorkell had
judged it more dangerous to keep moving in exhaustion, tired horses stumbling,
than to stop. They could be attacked as easily while moving, in any case. He
made it easier for the others, asking a respite for himself, though he
undermined that somewhat by offering to take the first watch by the pool they
found. They filled their flasks. Water was important. Food would become a
problem when his small supply ran out. They hadn't decided if they would hunt
here; probably they'd have to, though Thorkell knew what his grandmother would
have said about killing in a spirit wood. All
three of them drank deeply; the horses did the same. The water was cool and
sweet. There was no thought of making a fire. Athelbert hadn't eaten at all;
Thorkell gave him bread in the darkness, some of the cold meat. They tethered
the horses. Then both princes, Anglcyn and Cyngael, fell asleep almost
immediately. Thorkell approved. You needed to be able to do that; it was a
skill, a task, your turn on watch would come soon enough. He
stretched out his legs, leaned back against a tree, his hammer across his lap.
He was weary but not sleepy. It was very black, sight was next to useless. He
would have to listen, mostly. The dog came over, sank down beside him, head on
paws. He could see the faint gleam of its eyes. He didn't actually like this
dog, but he had a sense that there would be no hope of achieving this journey
without Alun ab Owyn's hound. He
made his muscles relax. Shifted his neck from side to side, to ease the pain
there. So many years, so many times he'd done this: night watch in a dangerous
place. He'd thought he was through with it. No need to be on guard behind an
oak door on Rabady Isle. Life twisted on you—or you twisted it for yourself. No
man knew his ending, or even the next branching of his path. Branching
paths. In the quiet of the wood, his mind went back. That often happened when
you were awake alone at night. Once,
in fog, on a raid in Ferrieres, he and Siggur and a small band of others had
found themselves separated from the main party on a retreat to the coast.
They'd gone too far inland for safety, but Siggur had been drinking steadily on
that raid (so had Thorkell, truth be told) and they'd been reckless with it.
They'd also been young. They
literally stumbled upon a sanctuary they hadn't even known about: a chapel and
outbuildings hidden in a knife of a valley east of Champieres. They saw the
chapel lights through mist. A sanctuary of the Sleepless Ones, at their endless
vigil. There'd have been no lights to see them by, otherwise. They
attacked, screaming Ingavin's name, in the dense, blurred dark. Foolish beyond
any words it was, for they were being pursued by the young Prince Carloman,
who'd already proven himself a warrior, and it was not a time to be staying to
raid, let alone with a dozen men. But
that branching path that had separated them from the body of their company made
Thorkell Einarson's fortune. They killed twenty clerics and their
cudgel-bearing servants in that isolated valley, seeing terror flare whitely in
men's eyes before they fled from the northmen. Laughing,
blood-soaked and blood-drunk, they set fire to the outbuildings and took away
all the sanctuary treasure they could carry. Those treasures were astonishing.
That hidden complex turned out to be a burial place of royalty, and what they
discovered in the recesses of side chapels and surrounding tombs was dazzling. Siggur
had found his sword there. Being
Siggur, he decreed, when they made their way back to the ships and found the
others, that this portion of the raid's plunder belonged only to those who had
been there. And being Siggur, he had no trouble enforcing his will. Every young
man in Vinmark wanted to be one of the Volgan's shipmates in those days. They'd
already begun using that name for him. Thorkell
supposed, sitting in darkness, entirely sober, that it could be fairly said
that that friendship had shaped his life. Siggur had been very young when
they'd started raiding, and Thorkell had been even younger, in awe that such a
man seemed to consider him a companion, want him at his side, on a battlefield
or tavern bench. Siggur
had never been a thoughtful, considering sort. He'd led by leading, by being at
the front of every assault: faster, stronger, a little bit wilder than anyone
else—except perhaps for the occasional berserkir who'd join them at
times. He'd drunk more than any of them, awake and upright after the rest were
snoring at benches or sprawled among the rushes of an ale-room floor. Thorkell
remembered—it was a well-known tale—the morning Siggur had come out of an inn
with another raider, a man named Leif, after a full night of drinking, and
challenged the other to a race—along the oars of their ships, moored side by
each in the harbour. Nothing
like it had ever been done before. No one had ever thought of such a
thing. Amid laughter and wagers flying, they roused and assembled their bleary-eyed
men, had them take their places on board and level their oars straight out.
Then, as the sun came up, the two leaders began a race, up one side of their
ships, leaping from oar to oar, and back down the other side, swinging across
by using the dragon-prows. Leif
Fenrikson didn't even make it to the prow. Siggur
went around his ship twice, at speed. That was Siggur at his best: blazoning
his own prowess, and also showing that of his chosen companions, for a wobbling
or uneven oar would have made him fall, no doubting it. Twice around he ran
that course, with Thorkell and every other man on board holding steady for him
as he raced alone, bare-chested, around and around them, laughing for the joy
of being young and what he was, in morning's first light. It
changed over the years, for so much of youth cannot linger, and ale can bring
rage and bitterness as easily as laughter and fellowship. Thorkell realized at
some point that Siggur Volganson was never going to stop drinking and raiding,
that he couldn't. That there was nothing in Ingavin's offered middle-world for
him but cresting white foam waves in sunlight or storm, appearing out of the
sea to beach the ships and ride or run inland to burn and kill. It was the doing
that mattered. Gold, silver, gems, women, the slaves they took—these were
only the world's reasons. Access to glory. Salt
spray and lit fires and testing himself again and again, endlessly, those were
the things that drove him all his too-short life. Never
saying a word about these thoughts, Thorkell rowed and fought beside him until
the end, which came in Llywerth, as everyone knew. Siggur had heard that the
Cyngael were gathering a force to meet his ships, and had led them ashore
regardless, for the joy of battling what might be there. They were
outnumbered there by the sea, a host assembled from each of the Cyngael's
warring provinces. He offered single combat to them, a challenge hurled at all
three princes of the Cyngael but taken up by a young man who was no prince at
all. And Brynn ap Hywll, big and hard and sober as a Jad-mad cleric on a
fasting retreat, had altered the northlands entirely by killing Siggur
Volganson on that strand—and taking the sword he'd carried since the raid by
Champieres. It
was the death Siggur had always sought. Thorkell knew it, even then, that same
day. The only ending Siggur could have imagined. The infirmities of age, sober
governing, kingship .. . could not even be conceived. But by then Thorkell
already knew it was not his own idea of a life and its iron-swift ending. He'd
yielded to the Cyngael, in a sudden stunned emptiness. In time he made his
escape, for servitude wasn't his vision of existence either. He crossed the
Wall and the Anglcyn lands and then autumn seas home. And then he made a home.
It was his share of the gems and gold carried away from that chanced-upon
valley in Ferrieres that bought him land and a farm on Rabady, in the year he
decided it was time. Rabady
Isle was as good a place as any, and better than most, to shape a second life.
He found a wife (and no man, living or dead, ever heard him say a word against
her), had the two daughters, then his boy. Married the girls off when they were
of age, and well enough, across on the mainland. Watched the boy—clever and
with some spirit—as he grew. He did some more raiding in those years, chose
ships and companions and landings. Salt got in the blood, the Erlings said. The
sea was hard to leave behind you. But no wintering over for him, no grand
designs of conquest. Sober captains, neatly planned journeys. Siggur
was dead; Thorkell wasn't going back to that time. He crossed the seas for what
there was in it, for what he could bring home. No man would have said he was
other than prosperous, Thorkell Einarson of Rabady Isle, once a companion of
the Volgan
himself. A good-enough life, with a hearth and a bed at the end, it seemed, not
a blade-death on a distant shore. No man living knew his end. Here
he was, overseas again, in a wood where no man should be. And how had that come
to pass? The oath sworn to ap Hywll's wife, yes, but he'd broken oaths over the
years. He'd done so when he first escaped the Cyngael, hadn't he, after
surrendering? He
could have found a way to do the same thing here. Could do it right now. Kill
these two sleeping princes—in a place where they'd be expected to die,
where no one would ever find them—make his way back out of the wood, wait for
the fyrd to go north, as they surely would, start across country to
Erlond, where his own people had settled. In a still-forming colony like that
one there would be many men with stories they didn't want told. That was how a
people's boundaries expanded, how they moved on from starting points. Questions
didn't get asked. You could make a new life. Again. He
shook his head, to clear it, order his mind. He was tired, not thinking well.
He didn't have to kill the other two. Could just rise up now, while they
slept, start back east. He snorted softly, amused at himself. That still wasn't
right. He didn't even need to sneak away. Could wake them, bid farewell, invoke
Jad's blessing on the two of them (and Ingavin's, inwardly). Alun ab Owyn had told
him to leave. He didn't have to be here at all. Except for the one thing.
The awareness that lay under the folly of this night like a seed in hard spring
ground. His
son was on those dragon-ships, and he was there because He
didn't carry many memories of the two of them together as the boy grew up. Some
men liked to talk, spin tales at their own hearth or a tavern's—spin them so
far from truth you could laugh. His first tavern killing had come about because
he had laughed at someone doing that. Thorkell wasn't a tale-spinner,
never had been. A man's tongue could bring him trouble more quickly than
anything else. He kept his counsel, guarded memories. If others in Rabady told
the boy tales about his father—truth or lies—well, Bern would learn to sort
those for himself, or he wouldn't. No one had taken Thorkell in hand as a boy
and taught him how you handled yourself when you came ashore in a thunderstorm
on rocks and found armed men waiting for you. Sitting
in that wood that lay like a locked barrier between Cyngael lands and Anglcyn,
awake while two young men slept, he did find himself recalling—unexpectedly—an
evening long ago. A summer's twilight, mild as a maiden. The boy—eight summers
old, ten?—had come out with him while he repaired a door on the barn. Bern had
carried his father's tools, Thorkell seemed to remember, had been amusingly
proud to do so. He'd fixed the door then they'd walked somewhere—he didn't
remember where, the boundaries of their land—and for some reason he'd told Bern
the story of the raid when the Anglcyn royal guard had trapped them too far from
the sea. He
really didn't tell many of the old tales. Maybe that's why the evening was with
him. The scent of the summer flowers, a breeze, the rock—he remembered now,
he'd been leaning against the rock at their northern boundary, the boy looking
up at him as he listened, so intent it could make you smile. One evening, one
story. They'd walked back to the house, after. No more to it than that. Bern
wouldn't even recall the evening, he knew. Nothing of any meaning had taken
place. Bern
was bearded and grown. Their land was gone; an exile's house always went to
someone else. You could say the boy had made his own choice, but you could also
say Thorkell had taken choices away from him, put him in a circumstance where a
poisonous serpent like Ivarr Ragnarson might think through whose son this was
and take vengeance for what had happened at Brynnfell. You could say his father
had put him on that branching path. Even
so, you might even find a reason to chuckle about all of this tonight, if that
was the way your humour worked. All you needed to do was think about it.
Consider the three of them in this wood. Alun ab Owyn was really here, more
than a little maddened, because of a dead brother. Athelbert had come because
of his father—the need to make proof of himself in Aeldred's eyes and
his own. And Thorkell Einarson, exiled from Rabady, was-truthfully—in this
forest for his son. Someone
should make a song of it, he thought, shaking his head. He spat into the
darkness. He was too tired to laugh, but felt like it, a little. A
small sound. The grey dog had lifted his head, seemed to be watching him. He
really was weary, but it almost seemed as if the dog were tracking his
thoughts. An unsettling animal, more to it than you'd expect. He
had no idea which way the Jormsvik ships were going, none of them did. This
desperate, foolish journey might be entirely unnecessary. You had to come to
terms with that. You could be dying for no reason at all. Well, what of that?
Reason or no reason, you were just as dead. He'd already lived longer than he'd
expected to. He
heard a different sound. The
dog again; Cafall had risen, was standing rigidly, head lifted. Thorkell
blinked in surprise. Then the animal whimpered. And
that sound, from that source, frightened him beyond words. He scrambled to his
feet. His heart was pounding even before he, too, caught the smell. That
smell first, then sounds, he never saw a thing. The other two men rose, jerked
from sleep at the first loud crashing, as if pulled upright like toys on a
string. Athelbert began swearing; both unsheathed their swords. None
of them could see anything at all. It was black beyond power of sight to
penetrate, stars and moon blocked by the encircling trees and their green-black
summer leaves. The pool beside them dark, utterly still. Such
pools, Thorkell thought, rather too late, were where the creatures that ruled
the night came to drink, or hunt. "Jad's
holy blood," whispered Athelbert, "was is that?" Thorkell,
had he been less afraid, might have made the easy, profane jest. Because it was
blood they smelled. And flesh: pungent, rotting, like a kill left in the
sun. A smell of earth, too, underneath, heavy, loamy, an animal odour with all
of these. Another
sound, sharp in the black, something cracking: a small tree, a branch.
Athelbert swore again. Alun had not yet spoken. The dog whimpered again, and
Thorkell's hand on his hammer began to shake. One of the horses tossed its head
and whinnied loudly. No secret to their presence now, if ever there had been. "Stand
close," he snapped, under his breath, though there was hardly a reason to
be quiet now. The
other two came over. Alun still had his sword out. Athelbert sheathed his now,
took his bow, notched an arrow. There was nothing to be seen, nowhere to shoot.
Something fell heavily, north of them. Whatever this was, it was large enough
to knock over trees. And
it was in that moment that Thorkell had an image burst within his mind and
lodge there, as if rooted. His jaw clenched, to stop himself from crying out. He
had been a fighter almost all his life, had seen brain matter and entrails
spilled to lie slippery on sodden ground, had watched a woman's face burn away,
melting to bone. He'd seen blood-eaglings, a Karchite hostage torn apart
between whipped horses, and never flinched, even when he was sober. These were
the northlands, life was what it was. Hard things happened. But his hands were
trembling now like an old man's. He actually wondered if he was going to fall.
He thought of his grandmother, these long years dead, who had known of such
things as the creature out there in the night must be, perhaps even its name. "Ingavin's
blind eye! Kneel!" he rasped, the words forming themselves, forced from
him. But when he looked over he saw that the other two were already kneeling on
that dark ground by the pool. The smell from beyond the glade was overpowering,
you could gag or retch; Thorkell apprehended something hideous and immense,
ancient, not to be in any way confronted by three men, frail with mortality, in
a place where they should not be. In
terror then, weariness entirely gone, Thorkell looked at the shapes of the two
men kneeling beside him, and he made a decision, a choice, took a path. The
gods called you to themselves—wherever and whatever the gods might be—as it
pleased them to do so. Men lived and died, knowing this. He
stayed on his feet.
In
all of us, fear and memory interweave in complex, changing ways. Sometimes it
is the thing unseen that will linger and appall long afterwards. Sliding into
dreams from the blurred borders of awareness, or emerging, perhaps, when we
stand alone, on first waking, at the fence of a farmyard or the perimeter of an
encampment in that misty hour when the idea of morning is not quite incarnate
in the east. Or it can assail us like a blow in the bright shimmer of a crowded
market at midday. We do not ever move entirely beyond what has brought us
mortal terror. Alun
would never know it, for it was not a thing that could be shared in words, but
the image, the aura he had in his mind as he sank to his knees, was
exactly what Thorkell Einarson apprehended within himself, and Athelbert was
aware of the same thing in the blackness of that glade. The
smell, to Alun, was death. Decay, corruption, that which had been living and
was no longer so, not for a long time, and yet was moving as it rotted,
crashing in some vast bulk through trees. He had a sense of a creature larger
than the woods should, by rights, have held. His heart hammered. Blessed Jad of
Light, the god behind the sun: was he not to defend his children from terrors
such as this, whatever it was? He
was drenched in sweat. "I'm . . . I'm sorry," he stammered to
Athelbert beside him. "This is my doing, my mistake."
"Pray," was all the Anglcyn said. Alun
did so, choking on the rotting stench that filled the grove. He saw Cafall
trembling, ahead of him. The horses were steadier, strangely. One had whinnied;
now they stood transfixed, statues, as if unable to move or make a sound. And
he remembered how he and a different horse had been immobilized like that
inside another pool in another wood when the queen of the faeries had passed
by. This
was, he knew, another creature from that spirit world. What else could it be?
Massive, carrying the odour of decaying animal and death. Not like the faeries.
This was . . . something beyond them. "Get down!" he said to
Thorkell. The
Erling had not knelt, didn't turn his head. Afterwards, Alun would have a
thought about that, but in that moment whatever it was that bulked beyond the
clearing roared aloud. The trees
shook. It seemed to Alun, ears and mind blasted by immensity of sound, that the
stars above the forest had to be swinging in their courses like carried censers
in a wind. Almost
deafened, his hands in helpless spasm, he stared into the blank night and
waited for this death to claim them. Cafall was on his belly, flat to the
ground. Beside the dog, still on his feet, Thorkell Einarson took his hammer
and—moving slowly, as if in some dream Alun was having, or pushing into a
gale—he laid the shaft across both his palms and he stepped towards the
sound, and then he set the hammer down, carefully, an offering upon the grass. Alun
didn't understand. He didn't understand anything beyond terror and the
awareness of their transgression and the engulfing power just out of sight. Thorkell
spoke then, in the Erling tongue and, his ears still ringing, Alun yet
understood enough to hear him say, "We seek only passage, lord. Only that.
Will harm no living creature of the wood, if it be thy will to grant us
leave." And then there was something else, spoken more softly, and Alun
did not hear it. There
came a second roaring, even louder than the first, whether in reply or entirely
oblivious to the feeble words of a mortal man, and it seemed to those in the
glade as if that noise could flatten trees. It
was Athelbert, of the three of them, who thought he heard another thing within
that sound, woven into it. He never put it into words, then or after, but what
he sensed while he cowered, stuttering prayers in the gut-harrowing certainty
of dying, was pain. Something older than he could even attempt to fathom. The
downward reach of his soul didn't go deep enough for that. He heard it, though,
and had no idea why this was allowed. There
was no third roaring. Alun
had been waiting for it, instinctively, but then, in the silence, it occurred
to him that triads, things in threes, were a shaping of bards, a mortal
conceit, a way of the Cyngael, not a grounded truth of the spirit world. He
would take that, with some other things, away from that glade. For it seemed
they were going to be allowed to leave. The silence continued. It grew,
rippled, reclaimed the woods around. None of them moved. The stars did,
ceaselessly, far above, and the blue moon was still rising, climbing the long
track laid out for it in the sky. Time does not pause, for men or beasts,
though it might seem to us to have stopped at some moments, or we might wish it
to do so at others, to suspend a shining, call back a gesture or a blow, or
someone lost. The
dog stood up.
Thorkell
was still shivering. The odour was gone, that smell of maggot-eaten meat and
fur and old blood. He felt sweat drying on his skin, cold in the night. He
found himself eerily calm. He was thinking, in fact, of how many people he had
killed in his raiding years. Another in an alley last night, once a shipmate.
And of all of them, named or nameless, known, or seen only in the red moment
his hammer or axe blade slew them, the one he so much wanted back, the moment
he'd reclaim from time if he could, was Nikar Kjellson's killing in the tavern
at home a year ago. In
the otherworldly stillness of this glade, he could very nearly see himself
going out through the low tavern door, stooping under the beam into a soft
night, walking home under stars through a quiet town to his wife and son,
instead of accepting one more flask of ale and a last round of wagering on the
tumbled dice. He'd
have that one back, if the world were a different place. It was
different now, he thought, after what had just happened, but not in the way
he needed it to be. It occurred to him, with something bordering astonishment,
that he might weep. He rubbed a hand through his beard, drew it across his
eyes, felt time grip him again, carrying them, small boats on a too-wide sea. "Why
are we alive?" Alun ab Owyn asked. His voice was rough. It was, Thorkell
thought, the right question, the only one worth asking, and he had no answer. "We
didn't matter enough to kill," Athelbert said, surprising the other two.
Thorkell looked over at him. They were shapes here, only, all of them.
"What did you say to it, at the end? When you put down the hammer?" Thorkell
was trying to decide what to answer when the dog growled, deep in its throat. "Dear
Jad," Alun said. Thorkell
saw where he was pointing. He caught his breath. Something green was shimmering
at the edge of their glade, beyond the pool; a human form, or nearly so. He
looked the other way, quickly. A second one on their right, then a third,
beside that one. No sound at all this time, just the pale green glowing of
these figures. He turned back to the Cyngael prince. "Do
you know ... ? Is this what you ... ?" he began. "No,"
said Alun. And again, "No." Flatly, no hope offered. "Cafall,
hold!" The
dog was still growling, straining forward. The horses, Thorkell saw, were
agitated now; there was a risk they might break free of their tethers, or hurt
themselves trying. The
shapes, whatever they were, were about the height of a man, but the shimmer and
glow of them, wavering, made their appearance hard to determine. He wouldn't
have seen anything if they hadn't cast that faint green illumination.
There were at least six of them, perhaps one or two more behind those ringing
the glade. His hammer was on the grass, where he'd laid it down. "Do
I shoot?" said Athelbert. "No!"
Thorkell said quickly. "I swore that we'd harm no living thing." "So
we wait till they . . . ?" "We
don't know what this is," Alun said. "You
imagine they're bringing pillows for our weary heads?" Athelbert snapped. "I
have no idea what to imagine. I can only—" A
never-finished thought, that one. Speech can be rendered meaningless sometimes,
the sought-after clarity of words. The fierce white light that burst from the
pond, shattering darkness like glass, made all three of them throw hands before
their eyes and cry aloud. They
were blinded, as unable to see as they had been in the blackness. Too much
light, too little light: the same consequence. They were men in a place where
they ought not to have been. The sounds in the glade were their own cries,
fading in the charged air, the horses' neighing, thrashing of hooves. Nothing
from the dog now, no noise at all from the green creatures that had encircled
them, or from whatever had made that annihilating flare of light, which was
also gone now. It was black again. Alun,
standing rigid and afraid, eyes clenched shut in pain, caught a scent, heard a
rustling. A hand claimed his. Then a voice at his ear, music, scarcely a
breath, "Drop your iron. Please. Come. I must get away from it. The spruaugh
are gone." Fumbling,
he let fall his sword and belt, let her lead him, his senses dazzled, eyes
useless, heart painful, too large for his chest. "Wait!
I . . . can't leave the others," he stammered, after they'd gone a little
distance from the glade. "Why?"
she said, but she did stop. He'd
known she would say that. They were impossibly different, the two of them,
beyond his power to even nearly comprehend. The scent of her was intoxicating.
His knees felt weak, her touch conjured a kind of madness. She had come for
him. "I
won't leave the others," he corrected. There were flashes and
spirals of light in his field of vision. It was painful when he opened his
eyes. He still couldn't see. "What . . . what were . . . ?" "Spruaugh."
He could hear disgust in her voice,
could imagine her hair changing colour as she spoke, but he still couldn't see.
It occurred to him to be afraid again, to wonder if he would be forever blinded
by that shattering flash, but even with the thought came the first hints of
returning vision. She was a spilling light beside him. "What
are . . . ?" "We
don't know. Or I don't. The queen might. They are mostly in this forest. A few
come into our small one, linger near us, but not often. They are cold and ugly,
soulless, without grace. They
try, sometimes, to make the queen attend to them, flying to her with tales when
we do wrong. But mostly they stay away from where we are, in here." "Are
they dangerous?" "For
you? Everything is dangerous here. You should not have come." "I
know that. There was no choice." He could almost see her. Her hair was an
amber glow. "No
choice?" She laughed, rippling. He
said, "Did you feel you had a choice when you rescued me?" It was as
if they had to teach each other how the world was made, or seen. A
silence, as she considered. "Is that . . . what you meant?" He
nodded. She was still holding his hand. Her fingers were cool. He brought them
to his lips. She traced the outline of his mouth. Amid everything, after
everything, here was desire. And wonder. She had come. "What
was it? Before them. The thing that—" Fingers
flat against his mouth, pressing. "We do not name it, for fear it will
answer to the name. There is a reason why your people do not come here, why we
almost never do. That one, not the spruaugh. It is older than we
are." He
was silent for a time. Her hand was moving again, tracing his face. "I
don't know why we're alive," he said. "Nor
do I." Matter-of-factly, a simple truth. "One of you did make an
offering." "The
Erling. Thorkell. His hammer, yes." She
said nothing, though he thought she was about to. Instead, she stepped nearer,
rose upon her toes, and kissed him on the lips, tasting of moonlight, though it
was dark where they stood, except for her. The blue moon outside, above,
shining over his own lands, hers, over the seas. He brought his hands up,
touched her hair. He could see the small, shining impossibility of her. A
faerie in his arms. He
said, "Will we die here?" "You
think I can know what will come?" "I
know that I can't." She
smiled. "I can keep the spruaugh from you." "Can
you guide us? To Brynnfell?" "That
is where you are going?" "The
Erlings are, we think. Another raid." She
made a face, distaste more than anything else. Offended rather than fearful or
dismayed. Iron and blood, near to their small wood and pool. And, truly, why
should the deaths of mortal men cause a spirit such as this dismay, Alun
thought. Then
he had another thought. Before he could back away from it he said, "You
could go ahead? Warn them? Brynn has seen you. He might . . . come up the
slope, if you were there again." Brynn
had been there with him after the battle. And in that pool in the wood when he
was young. He might fight his visions of the spirit world, but surely, surely
he would not deny her if she came to him. She
stepped back. Her hair amber again, soft light among tall trees. "I cannot
do that and guard you." "I
know," Alun said. "Or
guide." He
nodded. "I know. We are hoping that Cafall can." "The dog? He
might. It is many days for you." "Five
or six, we thought." "Perhaps." "And
you can be there ..." "Sooner
than that." "Will
you?" She
was so small, delicate as spray from a waterfall. He could see her chasing a
thought, her hair altering as she did, dark, then bright again. She smiled.
"I might grieve for you. The way mortals do. I may start to
understand." He
swallowed, with sudden difficulty. "I . . . we will hope not to die here.
But there are many people at risk. You saw what happened the last time they
came." She
nodded, gravely. "This is what you wish?" It
was what he needed. Wishes were another thing. He said, "It will be a
gift, if you do this." So
still a place, where they were. There ought to have been more noises in a wood
at night, the pad of the animals that hunted now, scurry of those that moved along
branches, between roots, fleeing. It was silent. Perhaps the light of her, he
thought . . . steering the creatures of the forest away. She
said, serious as children could sometimes be, "You will have taught me
sorrow." "Will
you call it a gift?" He remembered what she'd said the night before. She
bit her lip. "I do not know. But I will go home to the hill above
Brynnfell and try to tell him there are men coming, from the sea. How do you .
. . how do mortals say farewell?" He
cleared his throat. "Many different ways." He bent, with all the
grace he could command, and kissed her on each cheek, and then upon the mouth.
"I would not have thought my life would offer such a gift as you." She
looked, he thought, surprised. After a moment, she said, "Stay with the
dog." She
turned, was moving away, carrying brightness and music. He said, in a panic,
sudden and too loud, startling them both, "Wait. I don't know your
name." She
smiled. "Neither do I," she said, and went. Darkness
rushed back in her wake. The glade and pond were not far away. Alun made his
way there. Called out as he approached, so as not to startle them. Cafall met
him at the clearing's edge. Both
men were standing. "Do
we know what that was?" Thorkell asked. "The light?" "Another
spirit," Alun said. "This one a friend. She drove them away with it.
I don't think . . . we can't stay here. I believe we need to keep moving." "Tsk.
And here I was, imagining you'd gone to fetch those pillows for our
heads," said Athelbert. "Sorry.
Dropped them on the way back," Alun replied. "Dropped
your sword and belt, too," said the Anglcyn prince. "Here they
are." Alun took both, buckled the belt, adjusted the hang of his sword. "Thorkell,
your weapon?" asked Athelbert. "It
stays here," said the Erling. Alun
saw Athelbert nod his head. "I thought as much. Take my sword. I'll use
the bow." "Cafall?"
said Alun. The dog padded over. "Take us home." They
untied and mounted their horses, left glade and silent pond behind, though
never the memory of them, pushing westward in the dark on a narrow, subtle
track, following the dog, a hammer left behind them in the grass. + Kendra
would have liked to say that it was because of concern for her brother, an
awareness of him, that she knew what she knew that night, but it wasn't so. Word,
or a first word, came to Esferth very late. The king's messengers sent from the
sea strand to Drengest had carried orders that one ship should go to the
Cyngael—to Prince Owyn in Cadyr, who was closest—with word of a possible Erling
raid upon Brynnfell. On
the way to Drengest, the three outriders had divided, on orders, one of them
racing his tidings to the nearest of the hilltop beacons. From there the
message had come north in signal fires. The Erlings were routed, many of them
slain. The rest had fled. Prince Athelbert had gone away on a journey. His
brother was to be
kept safe. The king and fyrd would be home in two days' time. Further
orders would follow. Osbert
dispatched runners to carry word of victory to the queen and to the city and
the tents outside. There was a fair about to begin, men needed reassurance,
urgently. The rest of the message was not for others to hear. It
wasn't actually difficult, Kendra thought, as the meaning of the words sank in,
to realize what lay beneath the tidings of her brother. You didn't have to be
wise, or old. There
were a dozen of them in the hall. She had found it impossible to sleep, and
equally difficult to stay all night in chapel praying. This hall, with Osbert,
seemed the best place. Gareth had obviously felt the same way; Judit had been
here earlier, was somewhere else now. She
looked over at Gareth, saw how pale he had become. Her heart went out to him.
Younger son, the quiet one. Had never wanted more than the role life seemed to
be offering him. You might even have said what he really wanted was less of
a role. But
the very specific instructions—kept safe—said a great deal about what sort of
journey their older brother was taking, though not where. If King Aeldred and
the Anglcyn ended up with only one male heir left, life was about to change for
Gareth. For all of them, Kendra thought. She looked around. She had no idea
where Judit was; their mother was at chapel still, of course. "Athelbert.
In the name of Jad, what is . . . what has he done now?" Osbert asked, of
no one in particular. The
chamberlain seemed to have aged tonight, Kendra thought. Burgred's death would
be part of it. He'd be moving through memories right now, even as he struggled
to deal with unfolding events. The past always came back. In a way you could
say that none of those who'd lived through that winter in Beortferth had ever
left the marshes behind. Her father's fevers were only the most obvious form of
that. "I
have no idea," someone said, from down the table. "Gone chasing
them?" "They
have ships," Gareth protested. "He can't chase them."
"Some of them might not have made it back to the sea." "Then
he'd have the fyrd, they'd all go, and this message wouldn't say—" "We
will learn more soon," Osbert said quietly. "I shouldn't have asked.
There's little point in guessing like children at a riddle game." And
that was true enough, as most things Osbert said were. But it was then, in
precisely that moment, looking at her father's crippled, beloved chamberlain,
that Kendra realized that she knew what was happening. She
knew. As simple and appalling as that. And it was because of the Cyngael prince
who had come to them, not her brother. Something had changed in her life the
moment the Cyngael had crossed the stream the day before, towards where she and
the others were lying on summer grass, idling a morning away. Just
as she had the night before, she knew where Alun ab Owyn had gone. And
Athelbert was with him. As
simple as that. As impossible. Had she asked for this? Done something that had
brought it upon her as a curse? Am I a witch? the thought came,
intrusive. Her hand closed, a little desperately, on the sun disk about her
neck. Witches sold love potions, ground up herbs for ailments, blighted crops
and cattle for a fee, held converse with the dead. Could go safely into
enchanted places. She
took her hand from the disk. Closed her eyes a moment. It is
in the nature of things that when we judge actions to be memorably courageous,
they are invariably those that have an impact that resonates: saving other
lives at great risk, winning a battle, losing one's life in a valiant attempt
to do one or the other. A death of that sort can lead to songs and memories at
least as much—sometimes more—than a triumph. We celebrate our losses, knowing
how they are woven into the gift of our being here. Sometimes,
however, an action that might be considered as gallant as any of these will
take its shape and pass unknown. No singer to observe and mourn, or celebrate,
no vivid, world-changing consequence to spur the harpist's fingers. Kendra
rose quietly, as she always did, murmured her excuses, and left the hall. She
didn't think anyone noticed. Men were coming and going, despite the hour. The
beacon fire's tidings were running through the city. Outside, in the torchlit
corridor, she found herself walking a little more quickly than usual, as though
she needed to keep moving or she would falter. The guard at the doors, someone
she knew, smiled at her and opened to the street outside. "An
escort, my lady?" "None
needed. My thanks. I'm going only back to chapel and my lady mother." The
chapel was to the left so she had to turn that way at the first meeting of
lanes. She paused, out of sight, long enough for him to close the door again.
Then she went back the other way, heading towards the wall and gates for the
second time in as many nights. Footsteps,
a known voice. "You
lied to him. Where are you going?" She
turned. Felt a swift, unworthy flowering of relief, offered thanks to the god.
She would be stopped now, would not have to do this after all. Gareth, his face
taut with concern, came up to her. She had no idea what to say. So
offered truth. "Gareth. Listen. I can't tell you how, and it frightens me,
but I am quite certain Athelbert is in the spirit wood." He
had taken a blow this evening with the tidings, harder than hers. He was still
adjusting to it. She saw him step back a little. A witch! Unclean! she
thought. Couldn't help but think. Unworthy,
that thought. This was her brother. After a moment, he said, carefully,
"You feel a . . . sense of him?" He
was close to truth. It wasn't Athelbert, in fact, but that much she wasn't
ready to divulge. She swallowed hard, and nodded. "I think he . . . and
some others are trying to get west." "Through
that forest? No one . . . Kendra, that's . . . folly." "That's
Athelbert," she said, but it didn't come out lightly. Not tonight. "I
think they feel a need to go very fast, or even he wouldn't do this." Gareth's
brow had knitted the way it did when he was thinking hard. "A warning? The
Erlings going that way by sea?" She nodded. "I think that must be
it." "But
why would Athelbert care?" This
became difficult. "He might be joining others, making one with them." "The
Cyngael prince?" He
was clever, her little brother. He might also be the kingdom's heir by now. She
nodded her head again. "But
how ... Kendra, how would you know?" She
shrugged. "You said it . . . a sense of him." A lie, but not too far
from truth. He
was visibly struggling with this. And how should he not? She was struggling,
and it was inside her. He
took a breath. "Very well. What is it you want to do?" There
it was. She wasn't going to be stopped unless she stopped herself. She
swallowed. "Only one thing," she said. "A small thing. Take me
outside the walls. It will be easier if I'm with you." He
loved her. His life was altered forever if Athelbert died. And in a different
way, she supposed, if she died. Gareth looked at her a moment, then nodded his
head. They went to the gate together in the blue moonlight. A
different man on watch, which was good; the last one would have been stricken
with fear to see her, after what had happened the night before. There were
still hundreds of men (and not a few women, she knew) outside by the tents.
They'd have heard glorious tidings by now, a celebration would be beginning. Gareth
had no trouble persuading the guard that they were going out to join in that.
Suggested that their sister, the princess Judit, would likely be not far
behind, which happened to be—very probably—the case. If she wasn't ahead of
them, having gone out another way. Outside,
walking quickly west, not north towards the lights and the tents, Kendra had a
tardy thought. She stopped again. "You . . . the message said you were to
be kept safe." Gareth,
uncharacteristically, swore. It would have been more impressive if he hadn't
sounded as though he were imitating Judit. She might have been amused at any
other time. He glared at her. She lowered her gaze. They
moved on, came at length to the river. It all felt oddly like a dream now, a
repeating of something done. She had been here last night. She'd
stopped on this side, then, waited for someone to come out of the trees. Kendra
hesitated now, looked up at her brother. "You
are going in, aren't you," he said. "The forest. To .. . spirits
there." Not
really a question. She
nodded her head. "Stay for me? Please?" "I
can come." She
touched his hand. That was brave, very much Gareth, would bring her to tears if
she wasn't careful. "If you do, I will not go. You may curse all you like
at instructions, but I will not lead you into the spirit wood. I won't be long,
or go far. Say you'll stay here, or we both go back now." "That
last sounds perfectly good to me." She
didn't smile, though she could see he wanted her to. She waited. He
said, finally, "You are sure of this?" She
nodded again. Another lie, of course, but at least not a spoken one this time. He
leaned forward, kissed her on the forehead. "You are so much better than
all the rest of us," he said. "Jad defend you. I'll be here." Moonlight
on the water, reflecting from the stream. Very little breeze, the night mild,
late summer. She went quickly, wading in and across, before she could lose what
felt like a too-small store of courage, or he could see that she was crying,
after all. The
forest here began only a little way beyond the water. It slanted west farther
south, and then there was the long knife of the valley half a day's ride that
way—and the holy house at Retherly where her mother was going to go after Judit
was wed. She knew about that and Judit did. She didn't think her brothers had
been told yet. Marriages
and retreats. Kendra couldn't say she'd spent any great amount of time thinking
about either, or about boys and men. Perhaps she ought to have. Perhaps this
had been a sister's reaction to Judit, whose lifelong defiance of any imposed
order or protocol had led her far from the norms of a proper young woman's
behaviour. Kendra
was, she supposed, the proper young woman of the family. (An alarming thought,
at that particular moment.) It hadn't ever felt as though she was, it
was more a matter of not enough inclination to pursue such matters, and no
one—in truth—alluring or engaging enough to change her mind on the vague but
undeniably important subject of men. Her brothers and sisters made jokes about
Hakon's interest in her (they weren't kind to him about it), but Kendra
considered him a friend, and . . . a boy, really. There wasn't much point
thinking about it, in any case. Her father would decide where she wed, just as
he had with Judit. Her
sister's fiery recklessness hadn't done much to alter the fact that she was
marrying a thirteen-year-old Rheden prince this winter. As far as Kendra was
concerned, defiance needed to get you somewhere, or it was just . . .
being noisy. She
wasn't sure whether what she was doing now was defiant, or mad, or—most
alarmingly—if it was something dark and complex and having to do with a man,
after all. There was nothing ordinary about it, she knew. She
also knew, very near the trees now, that if she even slowed, let alone broke
stride here at the wood's edge, fear would take hold of her entirely, so she
kept walking—into the darkness of branches and leaves where Alun ab Owyn had
gone the night before. The
strangeness, this terrible, unsettling inward strangeness, grew stronger. He
was in these woods. She knew it. And she even seemed to know exactly where she
needed to go now, where he had been last night. This is unholy, she
thought, and bit her lip. I could burn for this. It
wasn't far, which was a blessing of the god upon her life, and might mean she
was not yet entirely cast out from Jad's countenance and protection. She had no
time to try to think that through. Where
she stopped was less a clearing than an easing of the press of trees around,
where grass might grow. She thought about wolves, then snakes, made herself
stop that. She stood very still, because this was the place. She waited. And
nothing happened. A sense of foolishness assailed her. That, too, she pushed
away. She might not understand this awareness within, but it would be the worst
sort of lie to the self to deny it was in her, and she would not do that. She
cleared her throat, too loudly, almost made herself jump. In
the darkness of the spirit wood, Kendra said, very clearly, "If you are
here, whatever it is you are, whatever was here last night, that he came to
meet . . . you need to know that he's in the woods again now, to the south,
which is . . . very dangerous. And with him is my brother, Athelbert. Maybe
others. If you mean him well, and I pray to ... my god that you do, will you
help them? Please?" Silence.
Her voice, words spoken, then nothing, as if the sounds had been simply
swallowed, absorbed, sinking away into never-having-been. That feeling of
foolishness again, hard to push back. They would name her mad or a witch, or
both. That Ferrieres cleric visiting had spoken in the royal chapel four days
ago of the heresies and pagan rites that still flourished in corners of the
Jaddite world, and his voice had hardened when he'd told how such things needed
to be burned away, that the light of the god might not be dimmed by them. This
was, she supposed, a corner of the world. She
saw a light, where none had been. Kendra cried out, then covered her mouth
quickly. She had come here to be heard. Trembling, groping for courage
she really wasn't sure she possessed, she saw something green appear in front
of her, beside a tree trunk. A little taller than she was. Slender, hairless;
it was hard to discern features, or eyes, for the glow was strange, obscuring
as much as it illuminated. So this, she thought, was what Alun ab Owyn had come
to meet. In
the oddest, almost inexplicable way, seeing this vague, sexless, indeterminate
shape, she suddenly felt better—couldn't sort out why that might be. It didn't
seem malevolent. Nor should it be, she thought, if Alun had been here to meet
it. "Thank
... thank you," she managed. "For co . . . coming to me. Did you
hear? They are south. Near the coast, I believe. They . . . they are trying to
get through the wood. Do . . . do you understand anything I say?" No
response, no movement, no eyes to see or read. A green shape, a muted glow in
the wood. It was real, however. The spirits were real. She was speaking
to one. Fear, and wonder, and a sense of . . . very great urgency. "Can
you help them? Will you?" Nothing
at all. The creature was motionless, as if carved. Only a slight shimmer of the
green aura suggested it was a living thing. But fire glowed and shimmered and
was not alive. She
might be wrong. She might not understand any of this properly. And
that last thought, in fact, was nearest to the truth. Why
should she have understood what was happening? How could she do so? The spruaugh
stayed another moment and then withdrew, leaving darkness behind it again,
deeper for the lost light. Kendra
sensed immediately that this was all she was going to see, all that would
happen. The space among the trees felt .. . emptied out. Fear had gone, she
realized, replaced by wonder, a kind of awe. The world, she thought, was never
going to seem the same again. Going back, she wouldn't be returning to the same
stream or moonlight or the city she had left. There
were green shimmering creatures in the woods beside Esferth, whatever the
clerics might say. And people had always known this was so. Why else the
centuries-long fear of this forest? The stories told to frighten children, or
around night fires? She stayed where she was another moment, a pause before
returning, breathing in the darkness, alone, as she had been last night, but
not quite the same. And
so a difficult truth about human courage was played out among those trees. A
truth we resist for what it suggests about our lives. But sometimes the most
gallant actions, those requiring a summoning of all our will, access to bravery
beyond easy understanding or description . . . have no consequence that
matters. They leave no ripples upon the surface of succeeding events, cause
nothing, achieve nothing. Are trivial, marginal. This can be hard to accept. Aeldred's
younger daughter did something almost unspeakably brave, going alone at night
into the blackness of a wood believed to be haunted, intending to
confront the spirit world—which was the most appalling heresy according to
every tenet she had ever learned. And she did do that and spoke a message, the
warning she'd come to give—and it signified nothing at all, in the wheel and
turn of that night. The
faerie had gone already, long before. She
had, in fact, been tracking Aeldred's fyrd all the previous night and
through this day and into evening from within the wood. Almost all of the spruaugh
in the forest were south as well by now, and this one, hearing (and, yes,
understanding) Kendra's words, set itself to quickly go that way also, but
pursuing its own desires: such desires as those creatures still possessed,
which had nothing to do with guarding three mortal men in a forest that had
once been named a godwood, in the days when men dissembled less about such
things. A
hard truth: that courage can be without meaning or impact, need not be
rewarded, or even known. The world has not been made in that way. Perhaps,
however, within the self there might come a resonance, the awareness of having
done something difficult, of having done . . . something. That can ripple,
might do so, though in a different way. Mostly,
walking as quickly now as she dared in the root-and-branch darkness, what
Kendra felt was relief. A rush of it, like blood to the head when you stand up
too quickly. She had no idea what that green spirit had been, but it had come
to her. Spirit world, half-world. She had seen it, a glowing in the
night. Everything altered with that. She
came to the edge of the trees, saw moonlight through the last screening leaves,
then unmediated, with stars, as she came out. The stream, the summer grass, her
brother on the far bank. And what she felt, emerging, was near to joy. The
world had changed, in ways she couldn't sort through, but it was still, in the
main, the place she'd always known. The water, as she waded through, was cool,
pleasantly so on a summer night. She could hear music and laughter to her left,
north of the city. She could see the walls in the distance, torches for the
guards on the ramparts. She
could see her brother, solid and familiar and reassuring. She stopped in front
of him. He seemed taller, Kendra thought: somewhere over the summer Gareth had
grown. Or was that a sense that came from what she knew about Athelbert? Gareth
touched her shoulder. "I'm
me," she said. "Not spirit-claimed. Shall I kick you to prove it?" He
shook his head. "I'd think Judit's soul had claimed you. Do you want to go
to the tents? Be with people?" He
hadn't probed or pressed her at all. She shook her head. "My clothing and
boots are wet. I want to change. Then I think I need to go to chapel, if that's
all right? You can go over to the—" "I'll
stay with you." The
guard said nothing (what was he going to say?) when they called to come back in
so soon after going out. Kendra went to her rooms, woke her women, had two of
them help her change (they raised eyebrows but said nothing either—and what
were they going to say?). Then she went back out to where Gareth had
waited (again) and they went to chapel together. The
streets were busy for so late an hour, but Esferth was crowded and jubilant.
They could hear the noise from the taverns as they went. Walked past the one
where she'd stood across the street last night when Alun ab Owyn had come out
with his dog, and she'd called the Erling over to her. Gareth
broke their silence. "Is he all right?" "Who?" "Athelbert.
Of course." She
blinked. Had made an error there. She managed a shrug. "I think he'll be
all right. After all, Judit is nowhere near him." Gareth
stopped for a second, then burst out laughing. He dropped an arm around her
shoulder and they continued that way, turning right at the next junction of
streets towards the chapel. "Where
is Judit, do you think?" she asked. "I
imagine at the tents." He
was probably right, Kendra thought: there was cause for wine and
celebration with the Erlings slaughtered and driven away. In
the event, however, they were wrong. Entering the royal chapel they saw their
sister beside the queen, at prayer. Kendra stopped for a moment in the side
aisle, surprised. She found herself gazing at two profiles, candlelight upon
them. The queen's face round, fleshy, though still smooth, hints of a nearly
lost beauty; Judit in the bright flush of red-haired, fair-skinned glory, on
the cusp of her journey north to Rheden and marriage. Kendra
knew she had been avoiding the thought of that. So much would change. Their
mother would leave for Retherly, and once Judit was married it would be her
turn next. There might be green spirits in the wood, but the way of the world
was not going to change for an Anglcyn princess because of them. Aeldred's
two younger children went over and knelt beside their mother and sister,
looking towards the sun disk and the altar and the cleric standing there,
leading the prayers. After a moment they added their voices to the incantations
and responses. Some things at least still seemed clear enough, and needful: in
the nighttime you prayed for light. FOURTEEN Sometimes,
as events in a given saga or idyll or tale move towards what may be seen as a
resolution, those in the midst of what is unfolding will have a sense—even at
the time—of acceleration, a breathlessness, urgency, speed. Often,
however, this emerges only in looking back, an awareness long after the fact
(sometimes accompanied by belated fear) as to how many strands and lives had
been coming together—or breaking apart—at the same time. Men and women will
wonder at how they did not perceive these things, and be left with a
sense that chance, accident, or miraculous intervention (for good or ill) lay
at the heart of the time. It is
the humbling, daunting nature of this truth that can lead us to our gods, when
pace and press subside. But it also needs to be remembered that sagas and
idylls are constructed, that someone has composed their elements, selected and
balanced them, bringing what art and inclination they have, as an offering. The
tale of the Volgan's raid with a handful of men on a sanctuary of the Sleepless
Ones in Ferrieres will be very differently told by a cleric surviving the
attack, chronicling the round of a dismal year, and an Erling skald celebrating
a triumph. Those inside a story do not usually think of themselves that way,
though some may have an eye to fame and those who come after. Mostly,
we are engaged in living. Riding
back from the coast in bright summer daylight on the main road by the River
Thorne, birdsong above, harvest-ready fields to the east and the forest
receding for a time as a valley cut it away, Ceinion of Llywerth watched the
Anglcyn fyrd struggle to define a collective state of mind, and he understood
their difficulty. The
victory was magnificent, memorable, complete. A considerable Erling force had
been shattered, driven away with major losses on the raiders' side and next to
none on theirs. No deaths, in fact, after the initial night killings that had
sparked the king's ride. It
was a time of glory. There were traders from abroad in Esferth for the fair—the
story of Aeldred's riding out at night would be in Ferrieres and Batiara before
autumn changed the leaves. It would reach Al-Rassan when the silk-clad horse
traders went home. Glory
then, more than enough to share. But the death that had begun it mattered. They
all mattered, of course, Ceinion told himself, but it was idle—even for a
cleric dispensing pieties—to pretend that some lives did not signify more for
their people than others, and Burgred of Denferth had been one of the three
great men in these lands. So
there was that, to dim the joy of this homeward ride. There was also the
prince, gone into the spirit wood. The madness of that, the death at the heart
of it. And so those of the fyrd who wished to let their spirits soar
kept a distance from King Aeldred and the mask that had become his face this
morning. And
so again it seemed to Ceinion, as it had by the sea at twilight, that they were
waiting on him. In a way it was an irony. He was only a visitor here, and the
Cyngael were far from allies of the Anglcyn. In another sense, the reason
Prince Athelbert was in the wood was that Alun ab Owyn had gone there, and
Ceinion knew it, and so did the king. You
could say that it properly fell to a Cyngael, to their high cleric, to provide
consolation and hope right now. Ceinion didn't know if it was possible. He was
very tired. Unused to so much riding, with a body that didn't ease and loosen
as it once had in the mornings. He was also heartsick and afraid, picturing the
dragon-ships that might even now be cleaving seas to the west. There were blue
skies overhead. He had prayed for storms in the night. These
inward sorrows didn't matter, or couldn't be permitted to matter, if you
accepted the duties of your office. Ceinion twitched his reins and cantered his
horse over beside Aeldred's. The king glanced at him, nodded, no more than
that. No one was near them. Ceinion took a breath. "Do
you know," he said coldly, "if I were cleric of your royal chapel, I
would be ordering you to do penance now." "And
why would this be?" Aeldred's voice was equally cold. Within, Ceinion
quailed at what he heard, but forced himself to push on. "For the thoughts
that are written in your face." "Ah. Thinking now is cause for
chastisement?" "It
always has been. Certain kinds of thought." "How
illuminating. And what unspoken reflections of mine amount to transgressions,
cleric?" The
title again, not his name. Ceinion looked over at the king, trying not to be
obvious about his scrutiny. He wondered if Aeldred were succumbing to one of
his fevers. If that might explain .. . "I
am perfectly well," said other man bluntly. "Please answer my
question." Ceinion
said, as briskly as he could, "Heresy, a breaking from holy
doctrine." He lowered his voice. "You are easily wise enough to know
what I am saying. I am glad you are well, my lord." "Pretend,
if you will, that I am not wise at all, that you ride beside a fool, deficient
in sense. Explain." The king's face had flushed. Fever, or anger? They
said he still denied when his illness was coming on, after twenty-five years. A
refusal to accept. That gave Ceinion a thought. "Let
me ask a question. Do you truly believe two royal princes and an Erling who
rowed with Siggur Volganson are incapable of contending with wolves and snakes
in a wood?" He
saw what he was looking for. The flicker in the other man's eyes, swift
awareness of where this was going. "I
would imagine," said King Aeldred, "they ought to be able to defend
themselves against such." "But
you decided, even before we set out this morning, that your son is now dead.
You have . . . accepted his death. You said as much on the strand last night,
my lord." No
reply for a time. The horses cantered, a ground-covering pace, without urgency.
It was warm in the sunlight, the weather accursedly benign, a scattering of
soft clouds. He needed black storms, the howl of wind, obliterating seas. Aeldred
said, "You are upbraiding me for beliefs about the forest. Tell me,
Ceinion, did you come here through the wood? Or did you and your
companions avoid it?" "And
why," said the cleric, deliberately sounding surprised, "would I
choose to risk getting lost in a wood when the coastal path from Cadyr lay open
before us?" "Ah.
Good. And it has always been from Cadyr that you set out? It is from that coast
that all of the Cyngael coming east have departed? Tell me, high cleric, who it
is has made a journey through that wood in living memory, or in your chronicles
and songs? Or do not the songs of the Cyngael tell something different,
entirely?" Ceinion
felt equal to this, by training and disposition and necessity. He said firmly,
"It is my task, and yours, my lord, to steer the people—our people in both
lands, where we share the blessing of Jad—away from such pagan fears. If you
think your son and his companions equal to wild animals and to not losing their
way, you must not surrender hope that they will come out in the west. And there
is a chance they will save lives doing so." Birdsong,
horses' hooves, men's voices, laughter, though not near to them. Aeldred had
turned his head, was looking directly at him, the eyes bright, clear, no fever,
only knowledge. After a moment, he said, "Ceinion, dear friend, forgive me
or do not, as you will or must, but I saw spirits close on twenty-five years
ago, the night of the battle we lost at Camburn, and then in Beortferth that
winter. Lights in the swamp at twilight and at night, moving, taking shape. Not
marsh fires, not fever, not dream, though the fevers did begin the night of the
battle. High cleric, Ceinion, hear me. I know there are powers in that
wood who do not mean us well and are not to be mastered by men." It
had taken so little time to say, and to hear. But how much time did a sword
stroke take? An arrow's flight? How long was there between the last breath of
someone you loved when they were dying, and the breath they did not take? Ceinion's
heart was pounding. An easy ride, their battles over, talking on a summer's
day. Even so, he felt himself assaulted, under siege. He was not necessarily
equal to this, after all. You
brought your own memories and ghosts to these exchanges, however much you
fought to keep them out, to be simply a holy man, a distilled voice for the
teachings of the god you served. He
knew what he should say to this, what he was required to say. He murmured,
"My lord, surely, you just gave yourself answer: it was the very night
your kingdom was lost, after the battle, your father and brother slain . . .
the worst night of your life. Is it any wonder that—" "Ceinion,
do me enough courtesy to believe I have thought of this. They were . . .
present for me before, long before. From childhood, I have since come to
understand. I denied them, avoided, would not accept . . . until the night of
Camburn. And in the marshes after." What
had he expected? That his words would shed a dazzling illumination upon a
confused soul? He knew what this man was. He tried another way, because
he had to: "Do you . . . do you not know how arrogant it is to trust our
mortal vision over the teachings of faith?" "I
do. But I am not able to deny what I do know. Call it a flaw and a sin, if you
will. Could you do that denying?" The
question he hadn't wanted. An arrow, flying. "Yes,"
he said, finally, "though not easily." Aeldred
looked at him. Opened his mouth. "No
questions, I beg of you," Ceinion said. Raw as an open wound, all these
years after. The
king gazed at him a long moment, then looked away and was silent. They rode for
a time, through the mild, sweet glory of late summer. Ceinion was thinking as
hard he could; careful thought, his refuge. "The
fevers," he said. "My lord, could you not see that they—?" "That
I conceived visions in my fevered state? No. Not so." Two
very clever men, long-lived, and subtle. Ceinion considered this a moment, then
realized that he understood something else, as well. He gripped his reins
tightly. "You
believe that the fevers are . . . that they come to you as . . ." He
reached for words. This was difficult, for many reasons. "As
punishment. Yes, I do," said the king of the Anglcyn, his voice flat. "For
your . . . heresy? This belief?" "For
this belief. My fall from the teachings of Jad, in whose name I live and rule.
Do not believe that what I am telling you has come kindly to me." He
couldn't imagine believing that. "Who knows of this?" "Osbert.
Burgred did. And the queen." "And
they believed you? What you saw?" "The
two men did." "They
. . . saw these things as well?" "No."
He said it quickly. "They did not." "But
they were with you." Aeldred
looked at him again. "You know what the old tales tell. Yours and ours,
both. That a man who enters the sacred places of the half-world may see spirits
there, and if he survives he may see them after, all his days. But it is also
told that some are born with this gift. This, I came to believe, was so with
me. Not Burgred, not Osbert, though they stood by me in the marsh, and rode
with me from Camburn that night." The
sacred places of the half-world. Uttermost
heresy. A mound not far from Brynnfell, another summer, long ago. A woman with
red-gold hair dying by the sea. He had left her with her sister, taken horse,
gone riding in a frenzy, in a madness of sorrow beyond words. No memory, at
all, of that ride. Had come to Brynnfell at twilight two days later, bypassed
it, entered the small wood He
made himself—as always—twist his mind away from that moon-shaped memory. It was
not to be looked upon. You trusted and believed in the words of Jad, not in
your own frail pretense of knowing the truth of things. "And
the queen?" he asked, clearing his throat. "What does the queen
say?" It
was the hesitation, Aeldred's delay in replying. A lifetime of listening to men
and women tell what was in their hearts, in words, in pauses, in the things not
quite said. The
man beside him murmured, gravely, "She believes I will lose my soul when I
die, because of this." It
was clear now, Ceinion thought. It was achingly clear. "And so she will go
to Retherly." Aeldred
was looking at him. He nodded his head. "To pray each day and night for me
until one of us dies. She sees it as her first duty, in love and in
faith." A
burst of laughter, off to their right, somewhere behind. Men riding home in
triumph, knowing songs and feasting awaited them. "She
might be right, of course," said the king, his tone light now, as if
discussing the coming barley harvest or the quality of wine at table. "You
should be denouncing me, Ceinion. Is that not your duty?" Ceinion
shook his head. "You seem to have done that to yourself, for twenty-five
years." "I
suppose. But then came what I did last night." Ceinion
looked quickly over. He blinked; then this, too, slipped into understanding. "My
lord! You did not send Athelbert into that wood. His going there is no
punishment of you!" "No?
Why not? Is it not sheerest arrogance to imagine we understand the workings of
the god? Did you not tell me that? Think! Wherein lies my transgression,
and where has my son now gone?" Wolves
and snakes, Ceinion had said,
foolishly, moments ago. To this man who was bearing more than two decades of
guilt. Trying to serve the god, and his people, and carrying these .. .
memories. "I
believe," Aeldred was saying, "that sometimes we are given messages,
if we are able to read them. After I taught myself Trakesian, and sent out word
I was buying texts, a Waleskan came to Raedhill—this was long ago—with a
scroll, not more than that. He said he'd bought it on the borders of Sarantium.
I'm sure he looted it." "One
of the plays?" The
king shook his head. "Songs of their liturgy. Fragments. The horned god
and the maiden. It was badly torn, stained. It was the first Trakesian writing
I ever bought, Ceinion. And all this morning I have been hearing this in my
head:
When
the sound of roaring is heard in the wood The
children of earth will cry. When
the beast that was roaring comes into the fields The
children of blood must die. Ceinion
shivered in sunlight. He made the sign of the disk. "I
believe," Aeldred went on, "if you will forgive me, and it is not an
intrusion, that you did not denounce what I have just said because . . . you
also have some knowledge of these things. If I am right in this, please tell
me, how do you . . . carry that? How do you find peace?" He
was still half in the spell of the verse. The children of earth will cry. Ceinion
said, slowly, choosing words, "I believe that what doctrine tells us, is .
. . becoming truth. That by teaching it we help it become the nature of Jad's
world. If there are spirits, powers, a half-world beside ours, it is .. .
coming to an end. What we teach will be true, partly because we teach
it." "Believing
makes it so?" Aeldred's voice was wry. "Yes,"
said Ceinion quietly. He looked at the other man. "With the power we know
lies in the god. We are his children, spreading across his earth, pushing back
forests to build our cities and houses and our ships and water mills. You know
what is said in The Book of the Sons of Jad." "That
is new. Not canonical." He
managed a smile. "A little more so than a song of the horned god and the
maiden." He saw Aeldred's mouth quirk. "They use it as liturgy in
Esperaсa where it was written, have begun to do so in Batiara and Ferrieres
now. Clerics carrying the word of Jad to Karch and Moskav have been told by the
Patriarch to cite that book, carry it with them—it is a powerful tool for
bringing pagans to the light." "Because
it teaches that the world is ours. Is it, Ceinion? Is it ours?" Ceinion
shrugged. "I do not know. You cannot imagine how much I do not know. But
you asked how I make my peace and I am telling you. It is a frail peace, but
that is how I do it." He
met the other man's gaze. He hadn't denied what Aeldred had guessed. He wasn't
going to deny it. Not to him. The
king's eyes were clear now, his flush had receded. "The beast dies,
roaring, not the children?" "Rhodias
succeeded Trakesia, and Sarantium, Rhodias, under Jad. We are at the edge of
the world here, but we are children of the god, not just ... of blood." Silence
again, slightly altered. Then the king said, "I did not expect to be able
to speak of this." The
cleric nodded. "I can believe that." "Ceinion,
Ceinion, I will need you with me. Surely you can see that? Even more,
now." The
other man tried to smile but failed. "We will talk of that. But before, we
must pray, with all piety we may command, that the Erling ships sailed for
home. Or, if not, that your son and his companions pass through the woods, and
in time." "I
can do that," said the king. +
Rhiannon
wondered, often, why everyone still looked at her the way they did, concern
written large, vivid as a manuscript's initial capital, in their eyes. It
wasn't as if she spent her days wan and weeping, refusing to rise from her bed
(her mother wouldn't have allowed that, in any case), or drifting aimlessly
about the farmhouse and yard. She
had been working as hard as anyone else all summer. Helping to bring Brynnfell
back from fire and ruin, tending to the wounded in the early weeks, riding out
with her mother to the families of those who'd suffered death and loss and
taking what steps needed to be taken there. She devised activities for herself
and Helda and Eirin, ate at table with the others, smiled when Amund the harper
offered a song, or when someone said anything witty or wry. And still those furtive,
searching looks came her way. By
contrast, Rania had been allowed to leave. The youngest of her women (with the
sweetest voice) had been so terrified in the aftermath of the raid that Enid
and Rhiannon had decided to let her go. The farmhouse had too many images of
burning and blood for Rania just now. She
had left them early in the summer, weeping, visibly shamed despite their
reassurances, with the contingent of men who would spend the summer by their
castle towards the wall. The land there needed defending in summertime; there
was little love lost between the men of Rheden and the Cyngael of the hills and
valleys north of the woods; cattle and horses had been stolen on both sides,
sometimes the same ones back and forth, for as long as anyone could remember.
That was why Rheden had built the wall, why Brynn (and others) had castles
there, not farmhouses. Her parents were here, though, attending to Brynnfell
and its people. So
Rania had gone away, and everyone seemed to understand why she had been so distressed,
to accept it as natural. But Rhiannon was right here, doing whatever needed to
be done, undeterred by night-memories of an Erling hammer smashing her window,
or a blade held to her throat in her own rooms by a screaming, blood-smeared
man vowing to kill her. She
made her morning visits to the labourers' huts, carried food to the men
repairing the farmyard structures, offered a smile and a word of encouragement
with their cheese and ale. She attended at chapel twice a day, spoke the
antiphonal responses in her clearest voice. She shirked nothing, avoided
nothing. She
just wasn't sleeping at night. And surely that was her own affair, not shared,
not proper cause for all those thoughtful glances from Helda and her mother? Besides,
these past few days, as the rebuilding drew to a close and preparations for the
harvest began, her father seemed to be afflicted in the same way. Rhiannon,
rising quietly—as she had been doing all summer—stepping past her sleeping
women to go out into the yard, wrapped in a blanket or shawl, to pace along the
fence and think about the nature of a person's life (and was there something
wrong in that?), had found her father out there before her for three nights
now. The
first two times she'd avoided him, turning back another way, for wasn't he to
be allowed his own solitude and thoughts? The third night, tonight, she
gathered her green shawl about her shoulders and walked across the yard to
where he stood, gazing up at the slope south of them under the stars. The blue
moon, a crescent, was over west, almost down. It was very late. "A
breeze tonight," she said, coming to stand beside him at the gate. Her
father grunted, glanced over and down at her. He was clad only in his long
nightshirt, and barefoot, as she was. He looked away into the darkness. A
nightingale was singing beyond the cattle pen. It had been with them all
summer. "Your
mother's troubled about you," Brynn said at length, a finger going to his
moustache. He had trouble with these conversations, she knew. Rhiannon
frowned. "I can see she is. I'm beginning to get angry about it." "Don't.
You know she leaves you alone, usually." He glanced at her briefly, then
away. "It isn't . . . right for a young girl to be unable to sleep, you
know." She
gripped her elbows with both hands. "Why a young girl only? Why me? What
about you, then?" "Just
the last few days for me, girl. It's different." "Why?
Because I'm supposed to go singing through the day?" Brynn chuckled.
"You'd terrify everyone if you did." She
didn't smile. Smiles, she'd admit, tended to be forced now, and in the darkness
she didn't feel she had to. "So,
why are you awake?" she asked. "It's
different," he repeated. It
was possible he was coming out to meet one of the girls, but Rhiannon didn't
think so. For one thing, he obviously knew she was in the yard at night,
everyone seemed to know. She didn't like it, being watched that way. "Too
easy an answer," she said. A
long silence this time, longer than she was happy with. She looked over at her
father: the bulky figure, more paunch and flesh than muscle now, hair
silver-grey, what was left of it. An arrow had been loosed from this slope
above them, to kill him that night. She wondered if that was why he kept
looking up at the shrubs and trees on the rise. "You
see anything?" he asked abruptly. She
blinked. "What do you mean?" "Up
there. See anything?" Rhiannon
looked. It was the middle of the night. "The trees. What? You think
someone's spying on . . . ?" She was unable to keep fear from her voice. Her
father said quickly, "No, no. Not that. Nothing like that."
"What, then?" He
was silent again. Rhiannon stared up. Shapes of trunk and branch, bushes, black
gorse, stars above them. "There's
a light," Brynn said. He sighed. "I've seen a Jad-cursed light for
three nights now." He pointed. His hand was steady enough. A
different kind of fear, now, because there was nothing at all to be seen. The
nightingale was still singing. She
shook her head. "What . . . what kind of light?" "Changes. It's
there now." He was still pointing. "Blue." She swallowed.
"And you think ... ?" "I
don't think anything," he said quickly. "I just see it. Third
night." "Have
you told . . . ?" "Who?
Your mother? The cleric?" He was angry. Not with her, she knew. She
stared into emptiness and dark. Cleared her throat. "You ... you know what
some of the farmers say. About the, our woods over up there?" "I
know what they say," her father said. Only
that. No swearing. It frightened her, actually. She was gazing up the slope and
there was nothing there. For her. She
saw her father's large, capable hands gripping the top rail of the fence,
twisting, as if to break the bar off, make it a weapon. Against what? He turned
his head the other way and spat into the darkness. Then he unlatched the gate. "Can't
keep doing this," he said. "Not every night. Stay and watch me. You
can pray if you like. If I don't come back down, tell Siawn and your
mother." "Tell
them what?" He
looked at her. Shrugged, in the way that he had. "Whatever seems
right." What
was she going to do? Forbid him? He swung open the gate, went through, closed
it behind him—habits of a farmyard. She watched him begin to climb. Lost sight
of him halfway up the slope. He was in his nightshirt, she was thinking,
carried no weapon. No iron. She knew that that was supposed to matter .. . if
this was what they were so carefully not saying it might be. She
wondered suddenly, though not unexpectedly, since it happened every night,
where Alun ab Owyn was now in the world, and if he hated her still. She
stayed by the gate a long time, looking up, and she did pray, like one of the
Sleepless Ones in the dark, for her father's life, and the lives of all those
in the house, and the souls of all their dead. She
was still there when Brynn came back down. Something
had changed. Rhiannon could see it, even in darkness. She was afraid, before he
spoke. "Come, girl," her father said, re-entering through the gate,
moving past her towards the house. "What?"
she cried, turning to follow.
"What is it?" "We
have much to do," said Brynn ap Hywll, who had slain Siggur Volganson long
ago. "I cost us three days, not going up before tonight. They may be
coming back." She
never asked who they might be. Or how he knew. But with the words she
felt a seizure, a roiling spasm within herself. She stopped, clutching at her
waist, and bent over to throw up what was in her stomach. Shaking, she wiped at
her mouth, forced herself to straighten. She followed her father into the
house. His voice could be heard, roaring an alarm like some half-beast come down
from the trees, rousing everyone from sleep. Everyone,
but not enough of them. Too many of his men were north and east. Days
away. Even as she re-entered, tasting bile, that thought was in her head. Then
another one: swift, blessedly so, for it gave her a pulse-beat of time to
anticipate. "Rhiannon!"
her father said, wheeling to look at her. "Get the stablehands to saddle
your horses. You and your mother—" "Must
ride out to alert the labourers. I know. Then we'll begin preparing to deal
with any wounded. What else?" She
stared at him as calmly as she could, which was not easy. She had just been
physically sick, her heart was pounding, there was sweat cold on her skin. "No,"
he said. "That is not it. You and your mother—" "Will ride to
the farm workers, then begin preparations here. As Rhiannon said." Brynn
turned and confronted his wife's steady gaze. A man stood behind her holding a
torch. Enid
wore a blue night robe. Her hair was down, almost to her waist. No one ever saw
it that way. Rhiannon, seeing the look exchanged between her parents, felt
unsettled by the intimacy of it. The hallway was filled with people, and light.
She felt herself flush, as if caught in the act of reading or hearing words
meant for another. It occurred to her, even in that moment, to wonder if she
would ever exchange such a glance with anyone before she died. "Enid,"
she heard her father say. "Erlings come for the women. You make us . . .
weaker." "Not
this time. They are coming for you, husband. Erling's Bane. Volgan's slayer.
The rest of us are ordinary fare. If anyone leaves, we should all leave.
Including you." Brynn
drew himself up. "Abandon Brynnfell to Erlings? At this point in my life?
Are you seriously—?" "No,"
said his wife, "I am not. That is why we stay. How many are coming? How
much time do we have?" For a
long moment he looked as if he were going to hold his ground, but then,
"More than last time, I think. Say eighty of them. Time, I'm not sure.
They'll come from Llywerth again, through the hills." "We
need more men." "I
know. Castle's too far. I'll send, but they won't get back in time." "What
do we have here? Forty?" "A
little less than that, if you mean trained to weapons." There
were two lines on her mother's forehead. Rhiannon knew them, they came when she
was thinking. Enid said, "We'll get as many of the farm workers as we can,
Rhiannon and I, and their women and children for shelter. We can't leave them
out there." "Not
the women. Send them north to Cwynerth with the young ones. They'll be safer
away. As you said—Brynnfell is what they want. And me." "And
the sword," his wife said quietly. Rhiannon
blinked. She hadn't thought of that. "Likely
so," her father was saying, nodding his head. "I'll send riders to
Prydllen and Cwynerth. There should be a dozen men at each, for the
harvest." "Will
they come?" "Against
Erlings? They'll come. In time, I don't know." "And we defend the
farm?" He
was shaking his head. "Not enough men. Too difficult. No. They won't
expect us to have a warning. If we're quick enough, we can meet them west, at a
place we choose. Better ground than here." "And
if you are wrong?" Brynn
smiled, for the first time that night. "I'm not wrong." Rhiannon,
listening, realized that her mother, too, had not asked about the warning, how
Brynn knew what he seemed to know. She wouldn't ask, unless perhaps at night
when the two of them were alone. Some things were not for the light. Jad ruled
the heavens and earth and all the seas, but the Cyngael lived at the edge of
the world where the sun went down. They had always needed access to knowledge
that went beneath, not to be spoken. They
weren't speaking of it. Her
mother was looking at her. Frowning again, doing so, that expression everyone
had been giving her since the end of spring. "Let's go," Rhiannon
said, ignoring it. "Enid,"
her father said, as the two women turned away. They both looked back at
him. His face was grim. "Bring every lad over twelve summers. With
anything at all that might do for a weapon." That
was too young, surely. Her mother would refuse, Rhiannon thought. She
was wrong. + Brand
Leofson, commanding five Jormsvik ships as they made their way west, knew where
he was going. He'd rowed his first dragon-ships in the final years of the
Volgan's raids, though never with Siggur's men. Had lost his eye in one of
those, had been recovering at home when the last of the Volgan's journeys had
ended in disaster in Llywerth. Hadn't been there. Depending
on his mood, in the intervening years, and on how much he'd been drinking, he
either felt fortunate to have missed that catastrophe, or cursed not to have
been one of those—their names were known—who'd been with Siggur in the glory
years, at the end. You
could say, if your mind worked that way, that his failure to be in Llywerth was
a reason he was taking five undermanned ships west now. The past, what we have
done or not done, slips and flows, like a stream to a carved-out channel, into
the things we do years after. It is never safe, or wise, to say that anything
is over. They
were at risk, he knew it, and so would the other captains, all the more
experienced men here. They still had all their ships but they'd lost sixty men.
If the weather turned, it would get bad at sea. So far, it hadn't. On the
second night the wind switched to southerly, which pushed them closer than he
liked to the rocky coast of Cadyr. But they were Erlings, mariners, knew how to
stay clear of a lee shore, and when they reached the western end of the Cyngael
coastline and turned north, that wind held with them. Your
danger could become your gift. Ingavin's storms could drown you at sea—or
terrify your foe on land, adding fire and the flash of lightning to your own
war cries. And the god, too, Brand was always telling himself, his private
thought, had only one eye, after his nights on the tree where the world began. Salt
in the air, sail full on each ship now, stars fading above them as the sun
rose, Brand thought of the Volgan and his sword—for the first time in years, if
truth be told. He felt a bone-deep stirring within. Ivarr Ragnarson had been
malformed, evil and devious, had deserved to die. But he'd had a clever-enough
thought or two in his head, that one, and Brand wouldn't be the one to deny it. To
have turned home with sixty dead and nothing to show for their loss would have
been a disaster. To come back and report the Volgan's slayer slain and the
sword found and reclaimed .. . That
would be something different. It could make up for the deaths, and more. For
not having been one of that company, twenty-five years ago.
It
had occurred to Bern, rowing west, that there was something unsettling about
what he was and how the world saw them all. They were Erlings, riders of the
waves, laughing at wind and rain, knifing through roiling seas. Yet he himself
was one of them, and he had no idea what to do in rough weather, could only
follow directions as best he could and pray the seas did not, in fact, roil. More:
they were Jormsvikings, feared through the world as the deadliest fighters
under sun and stars and the two moons. But Bern had never fought a battle in
his life, only one single combat on the beach below the walls. That wasn't a
battle. It was nothing like a battle. What,
came the thought, as they turned north and wind took the sails, if all of the
others were—more or less—like him? Ordinary men, no better or worse than
others. What if it was fear that made men believe the Jormsvik
mercenaries were deadly? They could be beaten, after all; they had just
been beaten. Aeldred's
fyrd had used signal fires and archers. Brand, and Garr Hoddson, had
called it cowardly, womanish, making mock of the Anglcyn king and his warriors,
spitting contempt into the sea. Bern
thought that it would be better to consider learning to use bows themselves, if
their enemies did. Then he thought, even more privately, almost hiding the
notion from himself, that he really wasn't sure raiding in this way was the
life for him. He
could curse his father again, easily enough, for it was Thorkell's exile that
had thrust Bern into servitude, and then off the isle without an inheritance.
But—in sunlit truth—that channel of the thought-stream wasn't so easy any more.
The farm, his inheritance, was only theirs because of raiding, wasn't it? His
father's long-sung adventure with Siggur in Ferrieres, a cluster of men burning
a royal sanctuary. And
no one had made Bern take Halldr Thinshank's horse to Jormsvik. He
thought of his mother, his sisters on the mainland, and then of the young woman
at the woman's compound—he'd never learned her name—who'd been bitten by the volur's
snake, and saved his life because of it. Partly because of it. Women,
he thought, would probably see this differently. He
rowed when ordered, rested when the wind allowed, took food to Gyllir among the
other horses standing tethered in the central aisle of the wide ship, shovelled
horse dung overboard. Felt
a surge of excitement, despite everything, when they reached the harbour that
Garr and Brand both knew, in Llywerth. No one in sight, all along the coast
coming north, or here. They pulled the ships ashore in the hour before dawn and
spoke their thanks to Ingavin on the beach. They'd
leave the boats here, men to guard them—he might be one of those, had no clear
sense of how he'd feel about that. Then the others would head inland to find
Brynnfell and kill a man and claim a sword again. You
couldn't deny it was matter for skald song, through a winter and beyond. In the
northlands, that mattered. Perhaps everyone shared these doubts he was having,
Bern thought. He didn't think so, actually, looking at his shipmates, but it
would have been good to have someone to ask. He wondered where his father was.
Thorkell had told him not to let them come this way. He'd
tried. You couldn't say he hadn't tried. He wasn't leading this raid, was he?
And if your life steered you to the dragon-ships, well . . . it steered you
there. Ingavin and Thьnir chose their warriors. And maybe—maybe—he'd come out
of this with a share of glory. His own. A name to be remembered. Men
lived and died pursuing that, didn't they? Fair fame dies never. Was
Bern Thorkellson of Rabady Isle the one to say they were wrong? Was he that
arrogant? Bern shook his head, drawing a glance from the man next to him on the
beach. Bern
looked the other way, embarrassed. Saw, beyond the strand, the darkly outlined
hills of the Cyngael, knew that the Anglcyn lands lay beyond, far beyond. And
farther east, across the seas, where the sun would rise, was home. No
one, he thought, travelled as the Erlings did. No people were so far-faring, so
brave. The world knew it. He drew a breath, pushed the dark thoughts away from
him. Sunrise came. Brand Leofson picked his men for the raid. Bern
started east with the other chosen ones. + They
had been living for three days on nuts and berries, like peasants foraging in a
dry season or during a too-long winter with the storeroom empty. Cafall led
them to water, so there was that, for themselves and the horses. It
was oppressively dark in the forest, even in daytime. On occasion a square of
sky could be seen through the trees, light spilling down, a reminder of a world
beyond the wood. Sometimes at night they caught a glimpse of stars. Once they
saw the blue moon, and paused in a glade without a word spoken, looking up.
Then they went on. They were following the dog north and west towards
Arberth—or they had to assume that was so. None of them could do more than
hazard a guess at where they were, how far they'd come, how far yet there was
to go. Five days, Alun had said the passage through the forest might be: that,
too, had been a guess. No
one had ever done this. They
pushed themselves and the animals hard: an awareness of urgency and the equally
strong feeling that it was better to keep moving than be still in one place for
too long. They never again heard or sensed the beast-god that had come the
first night, or the green creatures of the half-world that had followed. They
knew they were here, however. And when they slept, or tried to (one always
awake, on watch), the memory of that unseen creature would come back. They were
intruders here, alive only on sufferance. It was frightening, and wearying. One
had to work to avoid startling shamefully at sounds in the wood—and all forests
were full of sounds. They
knew they had been three nights here, but in another way this had become for
them a time outside of time. Athelbert had a vision once, almost asleep in the
saddle, of the three of them coming out to a world entirely changed. He didn't
know, for he didn't speak of this, that Alun had had that same fear, meeting a
faerie outside Esferth, before the fyrd had ridden south. Through
the first two days they'd talked, mostly to hear voices, human sounds.
Athelbert had amused the others, or tried to, singing tavern songs, invariably
bawdy. Thorkell, after extended urging, had offered one of the Erling
saga-verses, but the younger men became aware he was doing it only to indulge
them. By the fourth day they were riding in silence, following the grey dog in
the gloom. Near
sundown, they came to another stream. Cafall
was doing this without urging. Each one of them was aware that they'd have been
lost days ago without Alun's dog. They didn't speak of this, either. They
dismounted, bone-tired, to let the horses drink. Dim, filtered twilight. Clink
of harness, creak of saddle leather, crunch and snap of twigs and small
branches by the stream, and they nearly died again. The
snake wasn't green. It was Alun who trod too close, Athelbert who saw it,
whipping out his dagger, gripping it to throw. It was Thorkell Einarson who
snapped a command: "Hold! Alun, don't move!" The
black snakes were poisonous, their bite tended to be lethal. "I
swore an oath," Thorkell said urgently. "Our lives depend—" In
that same moment Alun ab Owyn murmured, very clearly, "Holy Jad defend my
soul," and sprang into the air. He
landed in the water with a splash. The stream was shallow; he came down hard,
knees and hands on stone, and cursed. The snake, affronted, disappeared with a
slither and glide into underbrush. The
bear cub, which none of them had seen, looked up from the far side of the water
where it had been drinking, backed away a few steps, and essayed a provisional
growl in the direction of the man in the stream. "Oh,
no!" said Athelbert. He
wheeled. Cafall barked a high, furious warning and streaked past him. The
mother bear had entered the clearing already, roaring, her head swinging
heavily back and forth. She rose on her hind legs, huge against the black
backdrop of trees, spittle and foam at her gaping mouth. They were between her
and the cub. Of course they were. The
horses went wild—and they were untethered. Alun's plunged through the stream.
Thorkell seized the reins of the other two and hung on. Alun scrambled to his
feet, splashed over, and claimed his trembling horse on the far bank—it was
blocked there by trees, had nowhere to go. Frantically, it tried to rear,
nearly pulled him off the ground. The cub, equally frightened, backed farther
away, but was much too close to him. Athelbert sprinted over to Thorkell and
the horses, fumbling for his bow at the saddle. "Mount
up!" Thorkell shouted,
fighting his way into his own saddle. Athelbert looked at him. "Do
it!" the Erling screamed. "We are dead if we kill here. You know it!" Athelbert
swore savagely, hooked a leg into a swinging stirrup. The horse skittered
sideways; he almost fell, but levered himself up. On the far bank, Alun ab
Owyn, also a horseman, clambered on his mount. It wheeled and bucked, eyes
white and staring. The bear came forward, still roaring. It was enormous. They
had to move past it to get out. "I'll shoot to wound!" Athelbert
cried. "Are
you mad? You'll make it wild!" "What
is it now?" the Anglcyn prince screamed back. "Jad's
blood," he added very quickly, and with extreme, necessary skill, mastered
his rearing mount and, leaning far over to one side, lashed it past the bear,
which was almost on top of them. Thorkell
Einarson was an Erling. His people lived for longships, white foam, a moonlit
sea, surf on stony strands. Not for horses. He was still struggling to control
his spinning, terrified steed. "Move!"
Alun screamed from the far bank,
not helpfully. There
wasn't enough time in the world, or room in the glade, to move. Or there
wouldn't have been, if a lean, blur-fast, grey creature hadn't knifed over and
sunk its teeth into the hind leg of the bear. The animal roared, in rage and
pain, turned with shocking speed on the dog. Thorkell kicked his horse in that
same moment, sawed at his reins, and moved, following Athelbert out. Alun
joined them in that same instant of reprieve, splashing across the water,
cutting out of the glade. It
was very hard to see. A bear was roaring behind them, a noise that shook the
woods. And entangled with it back there was a wolfhound with unspeakable
courage and something more than that. They
were out, though, all three of them. It was far too black and tangled to
gallop. They moved as quickly as they could along the twisting, almost-path. A
little distance farther they stopped, of one accord, turned to look back,
staring—ready to move if anything remotely bear-like should appear. "Why
in the name of everything holy did we keep our weapons if you won't let
us use them?" Athelbert was breathing in gasps. So
was Thorkell, gripping his reins too tightly in a big fist. He turned his head.
"You think . . . you think . . . if we get out of this Ingavin-cursed
forest they'll be dancing to greet us?" "What?" The
big man wiped at his face, which was dripping with sweat. "Think it! I'm
an Erling enemy, you're an Anglcyn enemy, that one is the prince of Cadyr, and
we're heading for Arberth. Which of us do you think any men we meet will
want to kill first?" There
was a silence. "Oh," said Athelbert. He cleared his throat. "Um.
Indeed. Not dancing. Ah, you, I'd wager. You'd be first. What, er, shall we
bet?" They
heard a sound along the path; both men turned. "Dear Jad," said Alun
ab Owyn quietly. He
slipped down off his horse, walked a few steps back along the way they had
come, crunching twigs and leaves again. Then he knelt on the path. He was
crying, although the other two couldn't see that. He hadn't cried since the
beginning of summer. Out
of shadow and tree the dog limped towards them, head low, moving with effort.
It stopped, a short distance from Alun, and lifted its head to look at him.
There was blood everywhere, he saw, and in the near-black he thought an ear was
ripped away. He closed his eyes a moment, swallowed hard. "Come,"
he said. A
whisper, really. All he could manage. His heart was aching. This was his dog,
and it wasn't. It was Brynn's wolfhound. A gift. He'd accepted it, been
accepted after a fashion, never allowed himself a deeper bond, something
shared. Companionship. "Please
come," he said again. And
the dog stepped forward, slowly, the left front paw favoured. The right ear was
indeed missing, Alun saw, as it drew near and he put an arm around it, gently,
and laid his face carefully against that of the creature which had come to him
the night his brother's life and soul were lost. Thorkell
was aware that the dog had saved their lives. He wasn't about to get drunk on
the thought. He and Siggur had saved each other at least half a dozen times,
each way, years ago, and other companions had guarded him or been saved by him.
It happened if you went into battle, or at sea when storms came. Once a spear
thrust he'd not seen had missed him only because he'd stumbled over a fallen
shipmate's body in a field. The spear had gone behind him, and above. He'd
turned and cut through the spearman's leg from below. That one, as it happened,
he remembered. The blind chance of it. He'd never been saved by a dog before,
he had to acknowledge that. The
animal was badly hurt, which might be a difficulty, since they had no hope of
getting through the wood without it. Ab Owyn was still on his knees, cradling
his dog. He'd known men who treated their hounds like brothers, even sleeping
with them; hadn't thought the Cyngael prince was one such. On the other hand,
something extraordinary had happened here. He owed his life to it. It wasn't
quite the same as Siggur covering his left side on a raid. He
looked away, feeling unexpectedly awkward watching the man and dog. And doing
so, he saw the green figure among the trees. It wasn't far away. Out of the
corner of his eye he registered that Athelbert had also seen it, was staring in
the same direction. The
curious thing was that this time, he didn't feel afraid. The Anglcyn didn't
seem frightened either, sitting his horse, looking into the trees at a green,
softly glowing figure. It was too far away for details of face or form to be
clear. The thing looked human, or near to being so, but a mortal didn't shine,
couldn't hover over water as these things had done. Thorkell looked into the
darkness at that muted glow. After a moment it simply went away, leaving the
night behind. He
turned to Athelbert. "I
have no least idea what that is," the prince said softly. Thorkell
shrugged. "Why should we have an idea," he said. "Let's
go," said Alun ab Owyn. They looked back at him. He was on his feet, a
hand still touching the dog, as though reluctant to be parted now. "Can
he lead us?" Thorkell asked. The dog had at least one bad leg. There
seemed to be blood, not as much as there might have been. "He
can," Alun said, and in the same moment the dog moved ahead of them. He
turned back and waited for ab Owyn to mount up and then started forward,
limping, not going quickly, but taking them through the spirit wood towards his
home. They
rode through that night, dozing at times in the saddle, the horses following
the dog. They stopped once more for water, cautiously. Alun bathed the dog by
that pool, washing away blood. The animal's ear was gone. The wound seemed
strangely clean to Thorkell, but how could you say what was strange and what
was proper in this place? How could you dream of doing so? They
reached the end of the forest at sunrise. It
was too soon, all three of them knew it. They ought not to have been able to
get through nearly so quickly. Athelbert, seeing meadow grass through the last
of the oaks, cried aloud. He remembered his thoughts about time passing
differently, everyone dead, the world changed. It
was a thought, but not an actual fear. He was aware (they all were, though they
never spoke of it) that something out of the ordinary had happened. It felt
like a blessing. He touched the sun disk around his neck. Why
should we have an idea? the Erling
had said. It
was true. They lived in a world they could not possibly comprehend. The belief
that they did understand was illusion, vanity. Athelbert of the Anglcyn
carried that as a truth within himself from that time onward. There
is something—there is always something—about morning, dawn's mild light, end of
darkness and the night. They rode out of the trees into Arberth and saw the
morning sky above green grass and Athelbert knew—he knew—that this was their
own world, and time, and that they had come through the godwood alive in four
nights. "We
should pray," he said. A
woman screamed.
It
really should have been possible, Meghan thought indignantly, for a girl to
crouch and relieve herself in the bushes outside the shepherd hut without
having a man on a horse appear right beside to her. Three
men. Coming from the spirit wood. She'd
screamed at the voice, but now a colder fear came as she realized that they'd
ridden out of the forest. No one went into the wood. Not even the older
boys of their village and farms, daring each other, drunk, would go farther
than the first trees, in daylight. Three
men, a dog with them, had just emerged on horses from the woods. Which meant
that they were dead, spirits themselves. And had come for her. Meghan
stood up, adjusting her clothing. She would have run, but they were on horses.
They looked back at her oddly, as if they hadn't seen a girl before. Which
might be true of ghosts, perhaps. They looked
ordinary enough. Or, if not ordinary, at least .. . alive, human.
Then—third shock of a morning—Meghan realized that one of them was an Erling.
The riders from Brynnfell that had come and taken all the men away with them
had spoken of an Erling raid. There
was an Erling here, looking down at her from his horse, because—of course—her
scream had revealed to them where she was, peeing in the bushes before seeing
to the sheep. She
was alone. Bevin had gone with the others to Brynnfell yesterday at sunrise.
Her brother would have laughed at her for screaming. Maybe. Maybe not, with men
coming out of the wood, armed, one of them an Erling. The first man had spoken
in a tongue she didn't know. The
dog's fur, she saw, was torn, streaked with blood. They
were still looking at her strangely, as though she were someone important. The
Erlings had blood-eagled a girl named Elyn—another farm girl, only that—to the
west after the Brynnfell fight. Meghan would have screamed again, thinking of
that, but there was no point. No one near them, the farmhouses too far and the
sheep wouldn't help her. "Child,"
said one of them. "Child, we mean you no harm in all the god's sweet
world." He
spoke Cyngael. Meghan
drew a breath. A Cadyri accent. They stole cattle and pigs, scorned Arberth in
their songs, but they didn't kill farm girls. He dismounted, stood in front of
her. Not a big man, but young, handsome, actually. Meghan, whose brother said
she would get herself in trouble if she wasn't careful, decided she didn't
really like it that he'd called her "child." She was fourteen, wasn't
she? You could have a child at fourteen. That was what her brother
meant, of course. He wasn't here. No one was. The
Cadyri said, "How far are we from Brynnfell? We must go to them. There is
trouble coming." Feeling
extremely knowledgeable, and not as shy as she probably should have been,
Meghan said, "We know all about it. Erlings. Riders came from Brynnfell
and took our men with them." The
three men exchanged glances. Meghan felt even more important. "How
far is it?" It was the Erling, speaking Cyngael. She
looked dubiously at the one standing beside his horse. "He's
a friend," he said. "We must get there. How far?" She
thought about it. They had horses. "You can be there before dark,"
she said. "Up the swale and back down and pretty much west." "Point
us to the path," the Erling said. "Cafall
will know," said the Cyngael quietly. The third one hadn't spoken since
his voice had made her scream. His eyes were closed. Meghan realized he was
praying. "Did
you really come out of the forest?" She
had to ask. It was the wonder at the heart of this. It .. . made the world
different. Bevin and the others would not believe her when she told them. The
one standing in front of her nodded. "How long ago did your menfolk
leave?" "Yesterday
morning," she said. "You might almost catch them up, on horse." The
one who seemed to be praying opened his eyes. The one on the ground swung back
into the saddle, pulled at his reins. They left without another word, the three
of them, the dog, not looking back at her. Meghan
watched until they were out of sight. After, she had no idea what to do with
herself. She wasn't used to being here alone—yesterday had been the first time,
ever. The sun rose, as if declaring it was just another day. Meghan felt
tingly, though, all strange. Eventually, she went back to the hut and built up
the fire. She made and ate her morning pottage and then went to count the
sheep. All morning, all day, she kept seeing them in her mind, those three
riders, hearing what they'd said. Already it was beginning to feel too much
like a dream, which she didn't like. She felt as if she needed to . . . root it
in herself like a tree, make it real. Meghan
mer Gower told the story all her life, only not the part about how she'd been
squatting to pee when they came out of the trees. Given what followed, who the
three of them had turned out to be, even Bevin had to believe her, which was
very satisfying. Half
a century later, it was Gweith, her grandson—having heard his grandmother's
story all his days—who took thought one autumn morning after a fire had
destroyed half the houses in the village. After,
he walked south, cap in hand, to the sanctuary at Ynant and spoke with the
clerics there, asking their blessing for what he was of a mind to do. It was
not the sort of thing you did without a blessing. He
received more than that. Fifteen clerics from Ynant, yellow-robed, most of them
unhandy in the extreme, came walking with him back to the village. The
next morning they offered the dawn invocation and then, with all the villagers
gathered to watch, in awe and wonder, the clerics began to help—after a
fashion—as Gweith set about cutting down the first trees at the edge of the
spirit wood. Some of the other young men joined them. They were more useful. Gweith
didn't die, nor did anyone else. No one was stricken with palsy or dropsy or
fever in the days that followed. Neither were the clerics, though many of them
did complain of blistered hands and muscle pains. Men
began taking axes to the wood. At
about that same time, in the way of such things, where an idea, a notion,
reaches the world in many places at once, the same forest in the Anglcyn lands
was entered into by men in search of urgently needed wood. They
brought their axes to the trees west of Esferth and farther south, beyond
Retherly, towards where the young king had ordered a new shipyard and burh to
be built. A growing kingdom needed lumber, there was no getting around it. At a
certain point, in the name of Jad, you couldn't let old women's tales stop you
from doing what had to be done. None
of the first woodcutters on that side of the wood died either, except for those
suffering the usual accidents attendant upon sharp blades and falling trees and
carelessness. It began, it continued. The world does not stay the way it was,
ever. Years
after all of this, a great many years, actually, an Anglcyn charcoal burner at
what had become the south-eastern edge of a considerably reduced forest came
upon something curious. It was a hammer—an Erling battle hammer—lying in the
grass by a small pond. The
odd thing was that the hammer's head, clearly ancient, gleamed as if newly
forged, unrusted, and the wood of the shaft was smooth. When the charcoal
burner picked it up he swore he heard a sound, something between a note of
music and a cry. Actions
ripple, in so many ways, and for so long. FIFTEEN Kendra
would remember the days before and during the fair that year as the most
disconnected she'd known. Intensity of joy, intensity of fear. The fyrd
had been home for two nights, after riding in loud triumph through the
wide-open gates of Esferth amid shouts and cheering and music playing. The city
was thronged with merchants. There could not have been a better time for
Aeldred to achieve such a victory over the Erlings. Slain in numbers, driven
away, no losses at all for the Anglcyn. If
you didn't count a prince, gone into the godwood. Riding
up the main street from the gates, a screaming, colourful crowd on either side,
her father had waved, smiled gravely, let the people see a king calmly aware of
achievement, and as calmly set on repeating it as often as necessary. Let his
subjects know this, and let all who were here from abroad carry word back to
their homes. Kendra,
with her mother and sister and brother (the one brother here), in front of the
great hall, had looked at her father as he'd dismounted, and she'd known—right
then—that he was dissembling. Athelbert
outweighed sixty Erlings killed, by so much. There
had been sea-raids for a hundred years, and they would not stop with this one.
But the king of the Anglcyn had only two sons who'd survived infancy, and the
older was gone now into a deadly place, and the younger (they all knew) had
never wanted to be a king. Truth
be told, it was Judit, thought Kendra, beside her red-haired sister on the
steps, who ought to have been a boy at birth, and now a man. Judit could have
sat a throne, incisive and confident in the fierce brightness of her spirit.
She could have wielded a sword (she did wield swords!), commanded the fyrd,
drunk ale and wine and mead all night and walked steadily away from a
trestle table at dawn when all those who had been with her lay snoring amid
cups. Judit knew this, too, Kendra thought; she knew she could have done
these things. Instead,
she was going off this winter, escorted by most of the court, to marry a
thirteen-year-old boy and live among the people of Rheden to bind them close:
for that is what young women in royal families were born to do. Things
went awry sometimes, Kendra thought, and there was no one to give her a good
answer why Jad had made the world that way. They'd
feasted that night, heard music, watched jugglers and tumblers perform. The
rituals of victory. Theirs were lives on display, to be seen. More
of the same at sunrise. At chapel to pray, then she and Judit (dutiful just
now, more shaken than she'd want to admit by what Athelbert had done) had made
a point of walking through the thronged, roped-off marketplace three separate
times (to be seen), fingering fabrics and brooches. They'd made Gareth come
with them the third time. He'd been quiet, extremely so. Judit bought a
jewelled knife and a gelding from Al-Rassan. Kendra
bought some fabrics. She made her way through the duties of the day with
difficulty, then after the evening rites she went looking for someone. She had
questions that needed answering. Ceinion
of Llywerth had not been at the royal chapel for the sundown services. There
were a small number of Cyngael merchants here for the fair (they'd come along
the same coastal path he had, or been granted passage through the Rheden Wall).
She found the cleric with his own people at a chapel on the eastern side of
Esferth, leading the rites there. He
had just finished when Aeldred's younger daughter arrived, with one of her
women in attendance. They waited until the cleric was done talking with some of
the merchants, and then Kendra had her woman withdraw and she sat down with the
grey-haired cleric towards the front of the old chapel, near the disk. It
needed polishing, she noticed. She'd tell someone tomorrow. Ceinion's
eyes, she thought, were curiously like her father's. Alert, and just as
unsettling when you had something you wanted to hide. She wasn't here to hide.
She wouldn't be here if she were hiding. "Princess?"
he said calmly, and waited. "I
am afraid," she said. He
nodded. His face was kind, smooth-shaven, less lined than was usual for a man
his age. He was small and trimly formed, not a laden-table, wine-cup cleric
like the other one here, from Ferrieres. Her father had told them some time
ago, before the first visit, that this man was one of the most learned scholars
in the world, that the Patriarch in Rhodias sought his views on clashes of
doctrine. In some ways it was hard to credit—the Cyngael lived so cut off from
the world. "Many
of my people are greatly afraid just now," he said. "You are generous
to share it with us. Your father has been very good, sending a ship to Arberth,
messengers to the Rheden Wall. We can only hope—" "No,"
she said. "That isn't it." She looked at him. "I knew when
Alun ab Owyn entered the wood with my brother and the Erling." A
silence. She had shaken him, she saw. He made the sign of the disk. That was
all right; she'd have done the same. "You . . . you see spirits?" He
was very direct. She shook her head. "Well, once I did. One of them. A few
nights ago. That isn't what I . . . from the time you came across the river,
the other morning? When we were lying on the grass?" She heard herself
sounding like a child. This was so difficult. He
nodded. "Well,
from that time, I . . . I can't explain this well, but I knew ... ab
Owyn. The prince. I could . . . read things in him? Know where he was." "Dear
Jad," whispered the high cleric of the Cyngael. "What is it that is
coming among us?" "What
do you mean?" she asked. He
was looking at her, but not with eyes that spoke denunciation or disbelief.
"Strange things are happening," he said. "Not
just . . . to me?" She was extremely determined not to cry. "Not just
to you, child. To him. And . . . others." "Others?" He
nodded. Hesitated, then moved a hand sideways, back and forth. He wasn't going
to say. Clerics, she thought, were good at not telling what they didn't want to
tell. But he'd already said something, and she'd needed to know it, so much.
She wasn't alone, or going mad. He
swallowed, and now she did see a hint of fear, which frightened her, in turn.
She knew what he was going to ask, before he spoke. "Do
you . . . see him now? Where they are?" She
shook her head. "Not since they went in. I've been having dreams, though.
I thought maybe you could help me." "Oh,
child, I have so little help to give in this. I am . . . enmeshed in
fears." "You're
the only person I can think of." Her
father's eyes, very nearly. "Ask me, then," he said. It
was quiet here. Everyone had gone, except the aged cleric of the chapel,
straightening candles at a side-altar near the door, and her own woman in a far
row, waiting. This chapel was one of the oldest in Esferth, the wood of the
benches and flooring worn smooth with years. It was dark where the lamps didn't
reach, softly lit where they did. A feeling of calm. Or there ought to have
been, Kendra thought. "What
can you tell me," she asked, "about the Volgan's sword?" + The
ambit of a woman's life could not be said to be very wide. But how wide might
it be for the majority of men alive on the god's earth, struggling to feed
themselves and their families, to be warm in winter (or sheltered from the
sandstorms in the south), safe from war and disease, sea-raiders and creatures
in the night? The
Book of the Sons of Jad, more and
more widely used in chapels now, even here in the Cyngael lands, taught that
the world belonged to the mortal children of the god, saying so in words that
were incantation: eloquent and triumphant. It
was difficult for Meirion mer Ryce to believe this to be true. If
they were all the glorious children of a generous god, why did some of them end
up blood-eagled, soaked in blood, ripped apart, though they had only been a
girl walking back from pasture with brimming pails after milking the two cows
on a morning at the end of spring? It
was wrong, thought Meirion, defiantly, remembering her sister, as she
did every single time coming back from the milking in the mist before dawn.
Elyn was not a person who ought to have died that way. It wasn't what life
should have held for someone like her. Meiri knew she wasn't wise enough to
understand such things, and she knew what the cleric in the village had been
telling them over and again since summer began, but Cyngael women were not
particularly submissive or deferential, and if Meirion had been asked by
someone she trusted to describe what she really felt, she would have said she
was enraged. No
one ever asked (no one was trusted so much), but the anger was there, each day,
every night, listening for sounds that never came now from the empty pallet
along the adjacent wall. And it was with her when she rose in darkness to dress
and go past the bed where Elyn wasn't any more, to do the milking her sister
used to do. Her
mother had wanted to take the pallet apart, make more space in the small hut.
Meiri hadn't let her, though lately, as summer had turned towards harvest and
autumn, a chill now some nights, she'd begun thinking she might do it herself
one afternoon after work was done. She'd
choose a clear day, when flame and smoke could be seen a long way, and she'd
burn the bedding on the sun-browned tor above the fields as a memorial. Not
enough, no remotely adequate answer to loss and helpless fury, but what else
was there? Elyn
hadn't been a noblewoman or a princess. There was no consecrated place in the
vault of a sanctuary for her bones, no carved words above or image on stone, no
harp songs. She wasn't Heledd or Arianrhod, lost and lamented. She'd been only
a farmer's daughter in the wrong place one too-dark pre-dawn hour, raped and
carved open by an Erling. And
what was there that a sister could make for her remembering? A song? Meiri
didn't know music, or even how to write her own name. She was a girl, unmarried
(no man to fight for her), living with her parents near the border between
Llywerth and Arberth. What was she going to do? Take fierce and fell revenge?
Intervene in some battle, strike a blow against Erlings? In
the event, she did do that. Sometimes, despite all the weight of likelihood, we
can. It is a part of the mystery of the world and needs to be understood that
way. In an
hour before sunrise at the end of that summer Meirion heard sounds, muffled in
mist, to her right, as she made her way home along the worn, grassy path from
the summer pasture. The
path ran parallel to the road from Llywerth, though to call it a road was
somewhat to overstate. Roads weren't much a part of the Cyngael provinces. They
cost a great deal in resources and labour, and if you made a road it was easier
to be attacked along it. Better, times being what they were, to live with some
difficulty of travel and not smooth the way for those who meant you ill. The
rough path south of her, running past their farm and the hamlet, was one of the
main routes to and from the sea, however, cutting through a gap in the Dinfawr
Hills to the west and continuing east below the woods along the north bank of
the Aber. That's
why Elyn had died. People passed too near them all the time, going east and
west. That's why Meirion stopped now and carefully, quietly, set down her neck
yoke with the brimming pails on either side. She left it in the grass, stood a
moment, listening. Horse
hooves, harness, creak of leather. Clink of iron. There was no good reason for
armed horsemen to be on this path before sunrise. Her first thought was a
cattle raid: Llywerth outlaws (or noblemen) crossing into Arberth. Her village
tried to stay out of these affairs; they didn't have enough cattle (enough of
anything) to be a target for raiders. Better to let them go by, both ways, know
nothing or as little as possible if pursuit came after (either way) with
questions asked. She'd
have gone quietly back along her own path, walking home with the morning milk,
if she hadn't heard voices. She didn't understand the words—which was the
point, of course. She would have, if these men had been from Llywerth. They
weren't. They were speaking Erling, and Meiri's sister, fiercely loved, had
been slain and defiled by one of them at the beginning of summer. She
didn't go home. Anger can channel fear sometimes, master it. Meiri knew this
land as she knew the tangles of her own brown hair. She crouched down, leaving
the milk behind in the path (a fox found it later in the day, drank its fill).
In the greyness she moved towards the voices and the trail. After a bit she
went on her belly among the grass and scrub and wriggled closer. She didn't
know anything about how Erlings (or anyone else) arranged themselves on a
march-and-ride, so it was good fortune more than anything else that no
outriders were sweeping the scrub-land north of the trail. Much of what happens
in a life turns on good fortune or bad, which unsettles as much as it does
anything else. What
she saw, peering through brambles, was a company of Erlings, some horsed, more
of them afoot, stopped to talk, barely visible in the darkness and not-yet-lifted
fog. What she heard was "Brynnfell," twice, unmistakably, the name
springing at her from snapped and snarled words that made no sense at all, over
the hammering of her blood. She
knew what she needed to know. She started to wriggle backwards on knees and
elbows. Heard something behind her. Froze where she was, not breathing. She
didn't pray. Ought to have, of course, but was too bone-frightened. The
lone horseman continued moving, passing just behind where she lay. She heard
him cut down beyond the bushes she'd been peering through and rejoin the
company on the road. Any raiding party had outriders, especially in hostile
country where you weren't sure of your way. A dog would have found her, but the
Erlings had no dogs. Meirion
fought a desire to stay where she was, motionless, forever, or until they went
away. She heard the riders dismount. The river was close here, just to the
south. They might be stopping for water and food. She
wanted that. Listening
carefully, behind her as well now, she crawled backwards, regained her own
path. Left the milk where it was and began to run. She knew where these raiders
were going and what needed to be done. She wasn't certain if the men in the
fields would listen to her. She was prepared to kill someone to make them do
so. She
didn't have to. Sixteen farmers and farmhands, and ten-year-old Derwyn ap
Hwyth, who never let himself be left behind, set off before the sun was fully
up, running east to Brynnfell, taking the old track. That one stopped at their
forest. It was a known and tamed wood, though, source of kindling and building
logs, and there was a trail that would bring them out, eventually, near Brynn
ap Hywll's farm. Meirion's
father, whose bad leg meant he couldn't keep up, took the one horse in the
village and went north to Penavy. Found twelve men working by there. Said what
needed to be said. They, too, went running, straight from the harvest fields,
seizing whatever came to hand that was sharp and could be carried for a day and
a night at speed. Almost
thirty men. Meirion's response. Not trained fighters, but hardy, knowing the
land, and filled—each one of them—with anger bright and cold as a winter sun.
This wasn't a vast invading fleet of dragon-prows from Erling lands. This was a
raid, skulking through their land. They would fear the northmen, always, but
they would not run from them. It
was crippled Ryce's daughter, his surviving daughter, who had come upon the
raiders and carried—like a queen of legend—needful tidings back of where they
were bound. A woman of the Cyngael, worthy of song. And they all knew, in the
lands and villages around, what had been done to her sister. They
would reach Brynnfell half a day before the Erlings did. The
afternoon of the day she saw the raiders, Meirion—in a frenzy born of
waiting—took Elyn's pallet apart. She began to carry the straw and bedding up
the tor. Her mother and the other women saw what she was doing and set
themselves to help, gathering wood, arranging it on the flat summit. All of
them working, women walking up and down the hill. Late in the day, the sun
westering and the last crescent of the blue moon rising (no moons at all
tomorrow), they lit a bonfire there for Elyn. Only a girl. No one important at
all, by any measure you might ever think to use. + Bern could
not shake a premonition, death hovering like some dark bird, one of Ingavin's
ravens, waiting. Fog
among encroaching hills. Sounds muffled, vision limited. Even when day broke
and the mist lifted, that sense of oppression, of a waiting stillness in the
land, lingered. He felt they were being watched. They probably were, though
they saw no one. This was a strange land, Bern thought, different from any he'd
known, and they were moving away from the sea. He had no illusions of being
prophetic, of any kind of truesight or knowing. He told himself this was no
more than apprehension. He'd never been in a battle, and they were heading
towards one. But
it wasn't fear. It really wasn't. He had memories of fear. The night before his
Jormsvik fight he'd lain beside a prostitute, hadn't slept at all, listened to
her untroubled breathing. He'd been quite certain it was the last night he'd
know. Fear had been within him then; there was something different now. He was
wrapped in a sense of strangeness, something unknown. Fog in these hills and
the nature of the lives men lived. His father entangled in it, much as he might
want to deny that. Denial
would be a lie, simple as that. Thorkell had told him not to let them
sail to the Cyngael lands. Brand had killed the last of the Volgans for
his deception, yet here they were now, on the quest Ivarr had tried to deceive
them into taking on. Brand
One-eye and the other leaders had seized upon Ivarr's idea: vengeance and the
Volgan's sword. A way out of humiliation. So they were doing what he'd wanted
them to do, even though they'd killed him for it and tossed him to the sea. It
could make you feel things had gone awry. Brand
had spoken of it calmly enough, sailing west and then north with the wind to
where they'd beached. How this was a bad time for them to suffer defeat. (Was
there a good time, Bern had wondered.) How claiming the sword would be a
triumph, hewn brilliantly out of failure and defeat. A talisman against
ambitious men in the north who thought they could be king and impose their will
upon the Jormsvikings. Bern
wasn't so sure. It seemed to him that these named reasons were covering
something else. That Brand Leofson was wishing he'd thought of Ivarr's quest
himself, that what the one-eyed man was seeing, in his mind, was glory. That
would be fair enough, ordinarily. What else, as the skalds sang to harp by
hearth fire all winter, was there for the brave to seek? Wealth dies with a
man, his name lives ever. Ingavin's
halls were for warriors. Ripe, pliant maidens with red lips and yellow hair did
not offer mead (and themselves) to farmers and smiths at the golden tables of
the gods. But
his father had told them not to come this way. They
weren't even certain where they were going in these hills and narrow valleys.
Brand and Carsten had known the harbour from years before, but neither of them,
nor Garr Hoddson, had ever been as far inland as Brynnfell. They'd started
east, thirty riders, sixty on foot, fifty left to the ships to get them
offshore if they were found. Scarcely enough for that, Bern had thought, but he
was one of the youngest here, what did he know? Carsten
had urged a fast out-and-back raid with just the horsemen, since they were only
going to kill one man and find one thing. Brand and Garr had disagreed. Ap
Hywll's farm would be defended. They'd have to go more slowly, with men on
foot, a larger force. Bern, on Gyllir, was one of the horsemen sweeping both
sides of the path (just a track, really) as they went. They
saw no one. A good thing, you might have said, preserving their secrecy—but
Bern couldn't shake the feeling that others were seeing them. They
didn't belong here—somehow the land would know it—and the sea, their real
haven, was farther away every moment. On
the second day, going through a range of hills in a drizzle of rain, one of the
outriders had found a woodcutter and brought him back, hands tied behind him,
running before the horse at sword-point. The
man was small, dark, raggedly clothed. His teeth were rotting. He didn't speak
Erling; none of them spoke Cyngael. They hadn't expected to be here,
hadn't chosen any of those who did know the tongue. This was supposed to have
been a raid on undefended Anglcyn burhs. That's what Ivarr had paid them
for. They
tried talking to the woodcutter in Anglcyn, which should have been close
enough. The man didn't know that language either. He'd soiled himself in
terror, Bern saw. Brand,
impatient, edgy, angry now, had drawn his sword, seized the man's left arm and
sliced his hand off at the wrist. The woodcutter, hair plastered with rain,
drenched in his sweat and stink, had stared blankly at the stump of his wrist. "Brynnfell!"
Brand had roared in the falling rain. "Brynnfell! Where?" The
woodcutter had looked up at him a moment, vacant-eyed, then fainted dead away.
Brand had sworn savagely, spat, looked around as if for someone to blame. Garr,
scowling, put a sword through the Cyngael where he lay. They'd moved on. The
rain continued to fall. Bern's
feeling of oppression had begun to grow then. They'd travelled through the
evening, stopping only briefly at night. They heard animals moving, owls
overhead and in the trees on the slopes around, saw nothing at all. Before
morning they'd come out of the hills into more open lowlands though the mist
was still there. There
would be farms here, but Brand thought Brynn's was another day away, at least.
He was going by half-remembered stories. They made a stop before dawn, doled
out provisions, drank at the river just south of them, moved on as the sun came
up. Bern
thought of his father, mending a barn door on Rabady, a sunset hour. Glory, it
occurred to him, might come at a heavy price. It might not be the thing for
every man. He
leaned forward, patted Gyllir on the neck. They continued east, a forest
appearing north of them, the river murmuring south, running beside their path
and then turning away. Bern didn't like the secretive, green-grey closeness of
this land. The sun went down, the last crescent of the blue moon was in front
of them, and then overhead, and then behind. They stopped for another meal,
continued through the night. They were mercenaries of Jormsvik, could do
without sleep for a night or two to gain the advantages of surprise and fear.
Speed was the essence of a raid: you landed, struck, left death and terror,
took what you wanted and were gone. If you couldn't do that you didn't belong,
you shouldn't be on the dragon-ships, you were as soft as those you came to
kill. You
might as well be a farmer or a smith. It
was a brighter morning, at least. They seemed to have left the mists behind.
They went on. Late
in the day, with a breeze and white clouds overhead, they were met by Brynn ap
Hywll and a company of men at a place where they were moving up a slope and the
Cyngael were waiting above them. Not soft, not surprised, or afraid. Looking
up, Bern saw his father there.
Alun
didn't see Ivarr Ragnarson. The sun was behind the Erlings, forcing him to
squint. Brynn had taken the higher ground, but the light might become a
problem. The numbers were close, and they had twenty men in reserve, hidden on
either side of the slope. The Erlings had horsemen, twenty-five or so, he
guessed. They weren't the best riders in the world, but horses made a
difference. And these were Jormsvikings they were about to face, with a company
that was mostly farm labourers. It
was better than it might have been, but it wasn't good. The
Erlings had stopped at first sight of them. Alun's instinct would have been to
charge while the horses were halted, use the downslope to effect, but Brynn had
given orders to wait. Alun wasn't sure why. He
found out, soon enough. Ap Hywll called out, the big voice carrying down the
slope, "Hear me! You have made a mistake. You will not get home. Your
ships will be taken before you return to them. We had warning of your
coming." He was speaking in Anglcyn. "That
is a lie!" A one-eyed man, easily as big as Brynn, moved his horse
forward. Battles began this way in the tales, Alun thought. Challenge,
counter-challenge. Speeches for the harpers. This wasn't a tale. He was still
scanning the Erlings for the man he needed to kill. Brynn
had the same thought, it seemed. "You know it is true, or we wouldn't be
here with more men than you have. Surrender Ivarr Ragnarson and give hostages
and you'll sail alive from these shores." "I
shit upon that!" the big man shouted. And then, "Ragnarson's dead,
anyhow." Alun
blinked. He looked at Thorkell Einarson, beside him. The red-bearded Erling was
staring at the opposing forces. His own people. "How
so?" Brynn cried. "How is he dead?" "By
my blade at sea, for deceiving us." Amazingly,
Brynn ap Hywll threw his head back and laughed. The sound was startling,
utterly unexpected. No one spoke, or moved. Brynn controlled himself.
"Then what in Jad's name are you doing here?" "Come
to kill you," the other man said. His face had reddened at the laughter.
"Are you ready to find your god?" A
silence. Late afternoon, late summer. Late in life, really, for both of the men
speaking now. "I've
been ready a long time," said Brynn, gravely. "I don't need a hundred
men to go with me. Tell me your name." "Brand Leofson, of
Jormsvik." "You
lead this company?" "I
do." "They
accept that?" "What
does that mean?" "They
will follow orders you give?" "Kill
any man who doesn't." "Of
course you will. Very well. You leave two ships to us, twenty hostages of our
choosing, and all your weapons. The rest of you will be allowed to go. I will
send a rider to Llywerth and another to Prince Owyn in Cadyr—they will let you
leave. I cannot speak to what will happen when you sail past the Anglcyn
coast." "Two
ships!" The Erling's voice was incredulous. "We never leave
hostages, you shit-smeared fool! We never leave our ships!" "Then
the ships will be taken when you die in these lands. You will never leave, any
of you. Decide. I am not of a mind to talk." His voice was cold now. One
of the Erlings came forward on foot, stood by the stirrup of the one-eyed man.
They whispered together. Alun looked at Thorkell again. Saw that the other man
was gazing over at Brynn. "How
do we know you aren't lying about Llywerth and Cadyr? How would they know about
us?" It was the second Erling, standing by the one named Leofson. A
horseman twitched his reins and moved forward to sit his mount beside Brynn.
"You know because I tell you it is true. We rode through the spirit wood,
three of us, to bring warning of your coming here." "Through
the spirit—! That will be a lie! Who are . . . ?" The
Erling fell silent. He'd sorted the answer to his own question. It was the
accent, Alun realized. The flawless, courtly Anglcyn tones. "My
name is Athelbert, son of Aeldred," said the young man beside Brynn, who
had ridden with them through the godwood to serve a cause that wasn't his own.
"Our fyrd killed sixty of you. I will be unspeakably happy to add
to that number here. My father has sent a ship from Drengest, right behind
yours, with a warning for Cadyr. They will have had it days ago, while you were
coming here. Ap Hywll speaks truth. If we do not send to stop them, the Cyngael
will take your ships or drive them offshore, and you will have nowhere to go.
You are dead men, where you stand. Jormsvik will never be the same. They will
mock your names forever. You cannot possibly imagine the pleasure it gives me
to say these words." A
murmuring among the Erling host below them. Alun heard anger but no fear. He
hadn't expected to. He saw some of them begin to draw blades and axes. With a
hard, fierce sense of need, he unsheathed his sword. It had come, it had
finally come. "Wait,"
said Thorkell quietly beside him. "They're
drawing weapons!" Alun rasped. "I
see it. Wait. They will win this fight." "They
will not!" "Trust
me. They will. Ap Hywll knows it too. Numbers are close, but they have horsemen
and fighters. Brynn has his thirty men but the rest are farmers with scythes
and sticks. Think!" His
voice carried towards the front. Later, Alun decided he had meant it to do so.
Brynn turned his head slightly. "They
know they cannot leave these shores alive," he said, softly. "I
think they do," Thorkell Einarson said, still quietly, speaking Cyngael.
"It won't matter. They cannot give you hostages or ships and go back to
Jormsvik. They will die first." "So
we fight. Kill enough of them so that tomorrow or the next—" "And
what will your wives and mothers say, and the fathers of these two
princes?" Thorkell never raised his voice. Brynn
turned around. Alun saw his eyes in the late-afternoon light. "They will
say that the Erlings, accursed of Jad and the world, slew yet more good men
before their time. They will say what they have always said." "There
is a way out." Brynn
stared at him. "I am listening," he said. Alun felt the breeze
blowing, making their banners snap. "We
challenge him," Thorkell said. "He wins, they are allowed to leave.
He loses, they yield the two ships and hostages." "You just
said—" "They
cannot surrender ships. They can lose a fight. Honour requires they deal
fairly then. They will. This is Jormsvik." "That difference matters
enough?" Thorkell
nodded. "Always has." "Good,"
said Brynn, after a moment, smiling. "Good. I fight him. If he will do
it." Looking
back, Alun remembered that four people said No at the same moment, and he was
one of them. But
the voice that continued, when the others stopped in surprise, was a woman's.
"No!" she said again. Alun
turned, they all did. On the side slope, quite close in fact, on horseback,
were the lady wife and the daughter of Brynn ap Hywll. He saw Rhiannon, saw her
looking at him, and his heart thumped, a barrage of memories and images falling
like arrows from the bright sky. It
was the mother who had spoken. Brynn was gazing at her. She shifted her mount
to come forward among them. "I
told you to stay at home," he said, mildly enough. "I
know you did, my lord. Chastise me after. But hear me first. The challenge is
proper. I heard what he said. But it is not yours this time." "It
has to be mine. Enid, they came to kill me." "And
must not be allowed the pleasure. My dear, you are the summit and glory of all
men living." "I
like the sound of that," said Brynn ap Hywll. "I
imagine you do," said the lady Enid. "You are vain. It is a sin. You
are also, I grieve to tell you, old and short-winded, and fat." "I
am not fat! I am—" "You
are, and your left knee is aching as we speak, and your back is stiff each day
by this hour." "He's
old too! That one-eyed captain carries his years—" "He's
a raider, my lord." It was Thorkell. "I know the name. He is still a
fighting man, my lord. What she says is truth." "Are
you here to shame me, wife? Are you saying I cannot defeat—?" "My
love. Three princes and their sons stood aside for you twenty-five years
ago." "I
see no reason why—" "Do
not leave me," said Enid. "Not this way." Alun
heard birdsong. The doings of men here, the wrack and storm of them, hardly
mattering at all. It was a summer's day. The birds would be here when this was
over, one way or another. Brynn was gazing at his wife. She dismounted, without
assistance, and knelt on the grass before her husband. Brynn cleared his
throat. It
was Athelbert who broke the stillness. He twitched his reins and moved towards
the Erlings, down the slope a little way. "Hear me. We are told that you
cannot surrender the ships. You must understand you are going to die, if so. A
challenge is now offered you. Choose a man, we do the same. If you are
victorious, you will be permitted to sail from here." "And
if we lose?" They
were going to accept. Alun knew it, before they'd even heard the terms. It was
in the quickened voice of the one-eyed captain. These were mercenaries, bought
to fight, not berserkirs lusting after death. He was feeling something
strange, a circling of time. Three
princes and their sons. His father
had been one of those sons, twenty-five years ago. Alun's age, very nearly.
Brynn had been, too. What was unfolding here felt as if it were part of a skein
spun back to that strand in Llywerth. Athelbert
was speaking again. "You forfeit two ships, your weapons, including those
on the ships, and ten hostages as surety, to be released in the spring. Not a
surrender. A challenge lost." "How
do we get home without weapons? If we meet anyone at all—" "Then
you had best win, hadn't you? And hope you don't encounter my father's ships.
Accept now, or fight us here." "Accepted,"
said Brand Leofson, even faster than Alun had thought he would. Alun's
heart was beating hard now. It had come. He was thinking of Dai, of course.
Ragnarson was dead, but there was an Erling raider below them with a sword. The
skein was spun. He drew a steadying breath. His turn to twitch reins, move his
horse forward towards the destiny that had been shaped for him at the end of
spring. "I'll
do it," said Thorkell
Einarson. Alun
pulled up his horse, looked quickly back. "I
know you will," said Brynn, very softly. "I suppose that's why Jad
led you here." Alun
opened his mouth to protest, found he had no words. Reached for them, urgently.
Thorkell was looking at him, an unexpected expression in his eyes. "Think
of your father," he said. And then, turning away, "Prince Athelbert,
have I leave to use the sword you gave me in the wood?" Athelbert
nodded, did not speak. Alun wondered if he looked as young as the Anglcyn did
just now. He felt that way, a child again, allowed passage among the
men, like the ten-year-old who had joined them with the farmers from the west. Thorkell
swung down from his horse. "Not
a hammer?" Brynn asked, brisk now. "Not
in single combat. This is a good blade." "Will
you suffer a Cyngael helm?" "If
it doesn't split because of cheap workmanship." Brynn
ap Hywll didn't return the smile. "It's my own." He took it off,
handed it across. "I
am honoured," said the other man. He put it on. "Armour?" Thorkell
looked down the slope. "We're both in leather. Leave it be." He
turned to the woman, still kneeling on the grass. "I thank you for my
life, my lady. I have not lived a life deserving of gifts." "After
this, you will have," said Brynn, gruffly. His wife looked at the
red-bearded Erling, made no reply. Brynn added, "You see his eye? How to
use that? Kill him for me." Thorkell
looked at him. Shook his head ruefully. "The world does strange things to
a man if he lives long enough." "I
suppose," said Brynn. "Because you are fighting for us? For me?" Thorkell
nodded. "I loved him. Nothing was ever the same, after he died." Alun
looked at Athelbert, who was looking back at him. Neither said a word. The
birds were singing, all around them. "Who
fights for you?" shouted the big Erling down the slope. He had dismounted
and come up alone, halfway to where they were. He'd put on his helmet. "I
do," said Thorkell. He started down. A murmur rose from below, when they
saw it was an Erling. Alun
saw that Enid was wiping at tears with the back of one hand. Rhiannon had come
up beside her mother. He still didn't have his own heart's beating under
anything like control. Think of your father. How
had he known to say that?
Bern
watched his father coming down. He had been staring in disbelief from the
moment they saw the Cyngael. Thorkell was easy to see, he always had been, half
a head taller than most men, with the red banner of his beard. So
the son had known, without hearing a word spoken but watching the telltale
gestures of the men above them, that it had been Thorkell who had spoken of
single combat when battle had been upon them. So many of the stories told and
sung—all the way back to Siferth and Ingeld in the snow—were of single combat.
Glory and death: what brighter way to find either of them? He'd
heard others beside him, calculating swiftly, trying to decide if there were
Cyngael hidden behind the slopes either side, and if so, how many. Bern had no
sense of such things, could only register what he'd heard: they could win this
fight, it was judged, but would take losses, especially if there were arrows
among those in reserve. And
they wouldn't leave these lands. They had understood that from the moment the
Anglcyn prince—impossibly here among them—said what he did. Bern
had had those premonitions of disaster, on the longship coming here and all the
way through the black hills east. It seemed he might have more claim to
foresight than he'd ever thought. Not the best time to discover that. Then
the Anglcyn prince came forward a second time and offered the challenge. It
would be easy to hate that voice, that man, Bern thought. Terse muttering
beside him, experienced men: if they gave up their weapons they might as well
be naked, one said, heading back through a hostile land, then trying to get
home, rowing into the wind, desperately vulnerable to anyone they met, with
Aeldred's ships waiting for them. Without weapons, they couldn't winter over,
either. It
was a challenge that offered the illusion of survival if they lost; not more
than that. But they were dead if they did battle here, win or lose. "Brand,
you can slice the fat man apart," he heard Garr Hoddson rasp. "Do it,
we get home. And you'll have killed Brynn ap Hywll. Why we came!" Brynn
ap Hywll. Bern looked up at the Volgan's slayer. Erling's Bane. He was an old
man. Brand could do it, he thought, remembering the speed of Leofson's
blade, looking at the hard, scarred tautness of him. He would save them, as a
leader should. There was a window opening, Bern thought. Brand
shouted, "Accepted!" and drew his sword. Then
he cried, "Who fights for you?" And the window closed. Bern heard his
father say, "I do," and saw him start down towards where Brand was
waiting. The
setting sun made a firebrand of Thorkell's beard and hair. They were so far,
Bern thought, looking up at him, from the barn and field on Rabady. But the
light—the light now was the same as on evenings he remembered.
Neither
man was young. Both had done this before. Combat could start a battle or avert
it, and there was fame for the winning, even if this was a skirmish, a raid,
not a war. They
approached each other, both eyeing the ground, in no obvious haste to begin.
Brand Leofson smiled thinly. "We're on a slope. Want to move to flatter
ground?" The
other man—Brand had a vague sense he ought to know him—shrugged. "Same for
both. Might as well be here." The
two swords were the same length, though Brand's was heavier than the other's
Anglcyn blade. They were both big men, of a height, pretty much. Brand judged
he had several years' advantage. Still, he was disconcerted to be facing
another Erling. It was unexpected. Just about everything on this Ingavin-cursed
raid had been. "What
did they do? Promise to free you if you won?" The
other was still looking around at the grass, gauging it. He shrugged a second
time, indifferently. "I imagine they might do that, but it didn't come up.
I suggested this, actually." "Hungry
for death?" The
other man met his gaze for the first time. He
was still higher up, looking down. Brand didn't like it, resolved to do
something about that as soon as they started. "It comes for us. No need to
be hungry, is there?" One
of those, it seemed. Not the sort of man Brand liked. Good. Made this even
easier. He took a few more moments to do what the other was doing; noted a
fallen branch to his left, a depression in the ground behind it. He
looked at the other man again. "You suggested it? Did me a service, then.
This has been the worst voyage." "I
know. I was with Aeldred when they butchered you. It's because of Ragnarson.
Ill luck in the man. You really killed him?" "On my ship." "Should
have turned home, then. Didn't someone tell you to? A good leader cuts losses
before they grow." Brand
blinked, then swore. "Who in Thьnir's name are you to tell me what a
leader does? I'm a Jormsvik captain. Who are you?" "Thorkell
Einarson." Only
that, and Brand knew. Of course he knew. Strangeness piled on strangeness. Red
Thorkell. This one was in the songs; had rowed with Siggur, his companion, one
of those on the Ferrieres raid when they'd found the sword. The sword Brand had
come to regain. Well,
that wasn't about to happen. A
weaker man, he told himself, would have been disturbed by this revelation.
Brand wasn't. He refused to make too much of it. All that history just meant
the other man was older than he'd guessed. Good, again. "Will
they honour the terms?" he asked, not commenting on the name or showing
any reaction. It was on his mind, though: how could it not be? "The
Cyngael? They're angry. Have been since the raid here. You kill anyone on the
way?" "No
one. Oh. Well, one. Woodcutter." The
red-beard shrugged again. "One isn't so much." Brand
spat, cleared his throat. "We didn't know how to get here. I told you, a
terrible raid. Worst since a time in Karch." That
was deliberately told. Let this one know Brand Leofson had been about, too.
Something occurred to him. "You were the Volgan's oarmate. What are you
doing fighting for the pig who killed him?" "A
good question. Not the place to answer it." Brand
snorted. "You think we'll find a better place?" "No." Einarson
had courteously moved down and to one side, so they stood level on the slope,
facing each other. He lifted his blade, pointing to the sky in salute. The
conversation, evidently, was over. An arrogant bastard. A pleasure to kill him. "I'm
going to slice you apart," Brand said—Hoddson's words a moment ago, he
liked the ring of them. He returned the salute. Einarson
seemed unruffled. Brand needed more from him. He was trying to work himself
into anger, the fury that had him fighting his best. "You
aren't good enough," Thorkell Einarson said. That
would help. "Oh? Want to see,
old man?" "I
suppose I'm about to. You've charged your companions with what you want done
with your body? Have you a request of me?" Courtesy
again, Erling ritual. He was doing everything properly, and Brand was beginning
to hate him. It was useful. He shook his head. "I am ready for what comes.
Ingavin watch now and watch over me. Who guards your soul, Einarson? The
Jaddite god?" "Another
good question." The red-haired man hesitated for the first time, then
smiled, a curious expression. "No. Habits die hard, after all." With
that same odd look on his face he said, exactly as Brand had done, "I am
ready for what comes. Ingavin watch now and watch over me." And
whatever all that meant, Brand didn't know, nor did he care. Someone had to
start. You could kill a man at the start. They were only wearing leather. He
feinted a thrust and cut low on his backhand. If you took someone in the leg he
was finished. A favourite attack, done with power. Blocked. It began.
What
he knew of fighting he knew from his father. A handful of lessons as he'd grown
through boyhood, offered irregularly, without notice or warning. At least twice
when Thorkell had been suffering the after-effects of stumbling at dawn out of
a tavern. He'd grab swords, helms, gloves, order his son to follow him outside.
Something in the way of a father's duty, was the sense of it. There were things
Bern needed to know. Thorkell told them, or showed them, briskly, not lingering
to amplify, then had Bern take the weapons and armour back in while he carried
on himself with whatever else needed tending to on a given day. A son's
footwork as important—not necessarily more so—as a milk goat's bad foot. You
noted your opponent's weapon, looked to see if he had more than one, studied
the ground, the sun, kept your own blade clean, had at least one knife on you
always, because there were times when weapons could clash and shatter. If you
were very strong you could use a hammer or an axe, but they were better in
battle, not individual combat, and Bern was unlikely to grow big enough for them.
He'd do better to be aware of that, work at being quick. You kept your feet
moving, always, his father had said. Nothing
ever in the tone, Bern remembered, beyond simple observation. And observation,
simple or otherwise, was the underlying note to all the terse words spoken.
Bern had killed a Jormsvik captain with these injunctions in his head: judging
the other man to be hot-tempered, overconfident, too full of himself for
caution, riding a less-sure horse than Gyllir. Bern was a rider, Gyllir his advantage.
You watched the other, his father had said, learned what you could, either
before or while you fought. Bern
watched. The late-day light was uncannily clear after the mist of the mornings
through which they'd come to this ending. The
two men circling each other, engaging, breaking to circle again, were etched by
brilliant light. Nothing shrouded now. You could see every movement, every
gesture and flex. His
father was years removed from fighting days, had the bad shoulder (his mother
used to rub liniment into it at night) and a hip that nothing really helped in
wet weather. Brand was harder, still a raider, quicker than such a big man
ought to be, but had the bad, covered eye. He
also, Bern realized, after the two men had exchanged half a dozen clashes and
withdrawals, did something when he tried a certain attack. Bern was watching;
saw it. His father had taught him how. His father was fighting for his life.
Bern felt unsteady, light-headed. Couldn't do anything about that.
"Jad's
blood! He's too old to keep parrying. He needs to win quickly!" Brynn
was at Alun's side, swearing and exclaiming in a steady, ferocious undertone,
his own body twisting with the two men fighting below. Alun didn't see either
man faltering yet, or any obvious opportunities to end it quickly. Thorkell was
mostly retreating, trying to keep from being forced below the other man on the
slope. The Jormsvik leader was very fast, and Alun was putting real effort into
resisting a deeply private, shaming awareness of relief: he wasn't at all sure
he could have matched this man. In fact "Hah!
Again! See it? See? Because of the eye!" "What?"
Alun glanced quickly at Brynn. "Turns
his head left before he cuts on the backhand. To follow his line. He gives it
away! Holy god of the sun, Thorkell has to see that!" Alun
hadn't noticed it. He narrowed his gaze to concentrate, watch for what Brynn
had said, but in that same moment he began to feel something strange: a
pulsing, a presence, inexplicable, even painful, inside his head. He tried to
thrust it away, attend to the fight, the details of it. Green kept
impinging, though, the colour green; and it wasn't the grass or the leaves.
Rhiannon,
watching two men fight, was dealing with something so new to her she couldn't
identify it at first. It took her some moments to understand that what she was
contending with was rage. A fury white as waves in storm, black as a piled-up
thundercloud, no shading to it, no nuance at all. Anger, consuming her. Her
hands were clenched. She could kill. It was in her: she wanted to kill someone
right now. "We
should not have come," her mother said, softly. "We make them
weaker." Not
what she wanted to hear. "He'd
have taken the fight himself if you hadn't been here." "They'd
have stopped him," Enid said. "They'd
have tried. You're the only one who could. You know it." Her
mother looked at her, seemed about to say something, but did not. They watched
the men below. It was eerily clear and bright just now. The
men below. What, Rhiannon mer Brynn thought savagely, was a woman? What was her
life? Even here in the Cyngael lands, celebrated—or notorious—for their
womenfolk, what, really, could they ever hope to be or do at a time like this?
A time that mattered. Easy
enough, she thought bitterly, as swords clashed. They could watch, and wring
their delicate hands, her mother and herself, but only if they first disobeyed
clear and specific instructions to stay away and hide. Hide, hide! Or they
could be targets for an attack, be violated, killed, or taken and sold as
slaves, then mourned and exalted in song. Song, Rhiannon thought savagely. She
could kill a singer, too. Women
were children till they first bled, then married to make children, and—if Jad
was kind—their children would be boys who could farm and defend their land or
go off to fight one day. There was a ten-year-old boy here with a small scythe.
A ten-year-old. She
stood by her mother, aware that Enid was still trembling (uncharacteristically)
because she'd been so sure Brynn would fight and die here. There might be some
pattern or purpose at work, that her mother had saved a red-bearded Erling's
life in the farmyard that night, claiming him, and now that man had taken
Brynn's fight upon himself. There
might be a pattern. Rhiannon didn't care. Not right now. She wanted them all
dead, these Erlings, here simply because they could come, in their
longships with their swords and axes, because they exulted in killing and blood
and death in battle so their gods would grant them yellow-haired maidens for
eternity. Rhiannon
wished she had the powers of the Cyngael goddesses of old, the ones they were
forbidden even to name since they'd embraced Jad here in the west. She wished
she could invoke stone and oak, kill the raiders herself, leave bodies hacked
in pieces on this grass. Let those yellow-haired maidens put them back
together. If they wanted to. She'd
blood-eagle them. See if the so-fierce raiders of the sea came back here after that.
Her mood of the long summer was entirely gone, swept like fog before wind:
that wistful, aching, sleepless sense that things had gone awry. They had, they
had. But there was a lesson to be learned: love and longing were not what life
in the northlands was about. She knew it now. She was seeing it. The world was
too hard. You needed to become harder yourself. She
stood beside her mother, her face expressionless, showing no least hint of what
was raging within her. You could look at Rhiannon, limned in that brilliant
light, and see her as a dark-haired maiden of sorrows. She would kill you, if
she could, for thinking that.
Another
young woman, in Esferth far to the east, would have entirely understood these
thoughts, sharing many, though with a different fire in her, and one she'd
lived with all her life, no sudden discovery. The
bitterness of a woman's lot, the helplessness with which you watched brothers
and other men ride out to glory with iron at their sides, was nothing new for
her. Judit, daughter of Aeldred, wanted battle and lordship and hardship as
much as any Erling raider cresting waves in a dragon-ship, coming ashore in
surf. Instead,
she was readying herself for her wedding this winter to a boy in Rheden. She
was working, this day, with her mother and her ladies, embroidering. There were
skills a highborn lady was expected to bring to her marriage house. By
contrast to both of these, King Aeldred's younger daughter saw the world in a
very different way, although this, too, had been suffering change, moment by
moment, through these last, late days of summer. Right
now, with a pulsing pain behind her eyes and images impinging, erratic and
uncontrollable like sparks from a fire, Kendra knew only that she needed to
find the Cyngael cleric again, to tell him something important. He
wasn't at the royal chapel or the smaller one where he'd been before. She was
in real distress. The sunlight, late in the day, forced her to screen her eyes.
It occurred to her to wonder if this was what happened to her father when his
fever took him, but she wasn't warm or faint. Only hurting, and with a terrifying,
impossible awareness of fighting in the west, and a sword in her mind, flashing
and going, and coming again, over and over. It
was her brother who found Ceinion for her. Gareth, summoned by a messenger, had
taken one frightened look at Kendra sitting on a bench in the small chapel
(unable to go back into the light, just yet) and had gone running, shouting for
others to join him in the search. He came back (she wasn't sure how much time
had passed) and led her by the elbow through the streets to the bright (too
bright), airy room her father had had made for the clerics who were
transcribing manuscripts for him. She'd kept her eyes closed, let Gareth guide
her. The
king was there, among the working scribes, and Ceinion was with him, blessedly.
Kendra walked in, one hand held by her brother, the other to her eyes, and she
stopped, desperately unsure of how to proceed with her father here. "Father.
My lord high cleric." She managed that much, then stopped. Ceinion
looked at her, stood quickly. Could be seen to make a decision of his own.
"Prince Gareth, of a kindness will you have a servant bring the brown
leather purse from my rooms? Your sister needs a remedy I can offer her." "I'll
get it myself," said Gareth, and hurried out the door. Ceinion spoke a
quiet word. The three scribes stood up at their desks, bowed to the king, and
went out past Kendra. Her
father was still here. "My
lady," said Ceinion, "is this more of that matter of which we spoke
before?" She
hesitated, in pain, in something more than pain. They burned witches, for
heresy. She looked at her father. And heard Ceinion of Llywerth say, gravely,
changing the way of things one more time, "There is no transgression here.
Your royal father also knows the world of which you speak." Kendra's
mouth fell open. Aeldred had also stood, looking from one to the other of them.
He was pale, but thoughtful, calm. Kendra felt as if she were going to fall
down. "Child,"
said her father, "it is all right. Tell me what you are seeing from the
half-world now." She
didn't fall. She was spared that shame. They helped her to a high stool where a
cleric had been working. The manuscript in front of her on the tilted surface
of the desk had a gloriously coloured initial capital, half a page in height:
the letter "G" with a griffin arched along its curve. The word it
began, Kendra saw, was Glory. She
said, as clearly, as carefully as she could, "They are through the spirit
wood. Or the Cyngael prince, Alun ab Owyn, is. He's the one I can . . . see.
There are blades drawn, there is fighting." "Where?" "I
don't know." "Athelbert?" She
shook her head. The movement hurt. "I don't . . . see him, but I never
did. Only the Cyngael, and I don't know why." "Why
should we understand?" her father said after a moment, gentle as rain. He
looked at Ceinion, and then back at her. "Child, forgive me. This comes to
you from me, I believe. You have the gift or curse I carry, to see that which
most of us are spared. Kendra, there is no sin or failing in you." "Nor
in you, then, my lord," said Ceinion firmly, "if that is true,
and I believe it is. Nor need you punish yourself for it. There are purposes we
do not understand, as you say. Good, and the will of the god, are served in
different guises." She
saw her father look at the grey-haired cleric, in his pale yellow robe of the
god. The brightness of the robe hurt her eyes. "They are fighting?"
her father said, turning back to her. "Someone is. I see swords and . . .
and another sword." "Close your eyes," said Ceinion. "You are
loved here and will be guarded. Do not hide from what you are being given. I do
not believe there is evil in it. Trust to Jad." "To
Jad? But how? How can I—" "Trust.
Do not hide." His
voice held the music of the Cyngael. Kendra closed her eyes. Dizziness,
disorientation, unrelenting pain. Do not hide. She was trying not to.
She saw the sword again, the one she'd asked the cleric about before, small,
silver, shining in darkness, though there were no moons. She
saw green again, green, didn't understand, and then she remembered something,
though she still did not understand. Green
was wrapped around this, as a
forest wrapped a glade. She cried out then, real pain, grief, in a bright room
in Esferth. And on a slope in Arberth above where two men were fighting to the
death, someone heard her cry, in his mind, and saw what she saw, what she gave
him, and knew more than she knew. She heard
him say her name, in fear, and wonder, then another name. And then, with
exquisite courtesy, given what she'd just done to him and what he had understood
from it, he paused long enough to offer clearly to her, mind to mind, across
river and valley and forest, what she surely needed to be told, so far away. Who
can know, who can ever know for certain, how the instruments are chosen? Kendra
opened her eyes. Looked at her father's hand which was holding hers the way he
hadn't done since she was small, and she gazed up at him, crying, first time
that day, and said, "Athelbert is there. He came alive through the
wood." "Oh,
Jad," said her father. "Oh, my children." + If
you wanted to defeat a man like this you had a narrow path to tread (and you
kept your feet moving). Brand Leofson wasn't going to fall to some reckless
thrust or slash and he was too big to overpower. You needed enough time to mark
him, discover inclinations, the way he responded to what you tried, how he
initiated his own attacks, what he said. (Some men talked too much.) But the
time passing cut both ways as it slashed by: the Jormsviking was fast, and
younger than you were. You'd be lying to yourself, fatally, if you thought you
could linger to sort things out, or wear him down. You
had to do your watching quickly, draw conclusions, if there were any to be
drawn, set him up for whatever it was you found. Such as, for example, a
habit—clearly never pointed out to him—of turning his head to the left before
he slashed on the backhand, to let the good right eye follow his blade. And he
liked to slash low, sea-raider's attack: a man with a wounded leg was out of a
fight, you could move right past him. So
you knew two things, quite soon in fact, and if you wanted to defeat a man like
this you had an idea what needed to be done. You were also, a quarter-century
past your own best years, still more than good enough to do it. And
no lying to the self in that. Thorkell Einarson hadn't been prone to that vice
for a long time. There was a hard expression on his face as he retreated again
and read the backhand cut one more time. He blocked it, didn't let it seem too
easy. Circled right around again, below and then back to level, denying the
other man the upslope he wanted. Not hard, not really hard yet. Knew
what he was doing still. Could be worn down, would grow tired, but not too soon
if Leofson kept signalling half his blows like that. There was a sequence you
could use when you knew the other man had committed to a backhand slash. The
light was really very bright, an element in this combat, the westering sun
shining along their slope, striking the two of them, the trees, the grass, the
watchers above and below. No clouds west, dark ones piled up east—and those,
underlit, made the late-day sky seem even more intense. He'd known evenings
like this among the Cyngael, perhaps more valued because of the rain and mist
that usually wrapped these hills and silent valleys. A
land some men could grow accustomed to, but he didn't think he was the sort,
unless in Llywerth by the sea. He needed the sea, always had; salt in the blood
didn't leave you. He parried a downward blow (heavy, that one) then feinted a
first low, forehand blow to see what Leofson would do. Overreacted—he would
worry more on that side because of his eye. Hard on the hip, though, slashing
that way. Ap Hywll's wife had named her husband's ailments. It might have been
amusing, somewhere else. Thorkell's could have done the same with his. He briefly
wondered where Frigga was now, how the two girls were faring, the grandsons he
hadn't seen. Bern was here. His son was here. It
had been, thought Thorkell Einarson, a long-enough life. Not
without its share of rewards. Jad—or Ingavin and Thьnir, whatever was waiting
for him—hadn't been unkind to him. He wouldn't say it. You made your own
fortune, and your own mistakes. If
you wanted to defeat a man like this . . . He smiled then, and began. It was
time. The raider
facing him would remember that smile. Thorkell feinted again, as before, to
draw the too-wide response. Followed, quickly, with a downward blow that Brand
blocked, jarringly. Then
he let himself seem to hesitate, as if tired, unsure, his right leg still
forward, exposed. ("Watch!"
said ap Hywll sharply, higher up
the slope.) (Bern, below them, caught his breath.) Brand
Leofson went for the deception, signalling his backhand again with a turned
head. And once he'd committed himself—Thorkell's blade moved high, to his own
backhand. Too
soon. Before
Leofson had fully shifted his weight. A terrible mistake. Right side and chest
wide open to a man still balanced. A fighting man with time (It was time) to
change from a sweeping backhand slash to a short, straight-ahead thrust with a
heavy sword. Heavy enough to pierce leather and flesh to the beating, offered
heart. Watching,
Bern sank to his knees, a roaring in his ears. A sound like the surf on stones,
so far inland. Leofson
pulled free his blade, not easily. It had gone a long way in. He had an odd
expression on his face, as though he wasn't sure what had just happened.
Thorkell Einarson was still standing, and smiling at him. "Watch the
backhand," the red-haired man said to him, very low, no one else in the
world to hear it. "You're giving it away, every time." Brand
lowered his bloodied sword, brow furrowing. You weren't supposed to . . . you
didn't say things like that. Thorkell
swayed another moment, as if held up by the light, in the light. Then he turned
his head. Not towards ap Hywll, for whom he'd taken this fight, or the two
young princes with whom he'd gone through a wood and out of time, but to the
Erlings on the slope below them, led here to what would have been their dying. Or to
one of them, really, at the end. And
he had enough strength left, before he toppled like a tree cut down, to speak,
not very clearly, a single word. "Champieres,"
he seemed to say, though it could have been something else. Then he fell into
the green grass, face to the far sky, and whichever god or gods might be
looking down, or might not be. A
long-enough life. Not without gifts. Taken, and given. All mistakes his own.
Ingavin knew. SIXTEEN Kendra
had been keeping her eyes closed. The light entering the room was still too
bright, making the pain in her head worse, and when she looked around, the
sense of disorientation—of being in two different places—only grew. With eyes
closed, the inner sight, vision, whatever it was, didn't have to fight against
anything. Except
her, and all she'd thought she knew about the world. But now she made herself
look up, and open her eyes. Her father and Ceinion with her, no one else.
Gareth had come with the herbs, and had gone back out. She'd heard her father
giving him another task to do. They
were really just sending him from the room, that he not be burdened, as they
were, with the awareness that King Aeldred's younger daughter seemed to be
having the sort of visions that had you condemned for trafficking with the
half-world. The world the clerics said—by turns—either did not exist at all, or
must be absolutely shunned by all who followed the rites and paths of holy Jad. Well
and good to say, but what did you do when you saw what you did see, within?
Kendra said, her voice thin and difficult, "Someone has died. I think . .
. I think it is over." "Athelbert?"
Her father had to ask that, couldn't help himself. "I
don't think so. There is distress but not . . . not fear or pain right now. In
him." "In
Alun? Ab Owyn?" That was Ceinion. She had to close her eyes again. It
really was difficult, seeing and . . . seeing. "Yes.
I think . . . I don't think either of them was fighting." "Single
combat, then," her father said. Shrewdest man in the world. All her life.
A gift for her and Judit, a burden at times for his sons. She had no certain
idea he was right, but he almost always was. "If
two men fought, someone has lost. There is . . . Alun is heavy with
sorrow." "Dearest
Jad. It will be Brynn, then," said Ceinion. She heard him sit heavily at
one of the other stools. Made herself look, squinting, in pain. "I
don't think so," she said. "This is not so . . . sharp a grief?" They
looked at her. The most frightening thing of all, in some ways, was that these
two men believed every impossible thing she was telling them. Then
she had to close her eyes once more, for the images were in her again, imposed,
pushing through her towards the other one, so far away. Same as before,
stronger now: green, green, green, and something shining in the dark. "I
need this to stop," Kendra whispered, but knew it wasn't going to. Not
yet. Brynn
was the first one down the hill, but not the first to reach the two of them,
one standing with a red sword, the other lying in the grass. Brand Leofson,
still caught in strangeness, not sure yet what had happened, saw—another
mystery—his young shipmate come up to them and kneel on the grass beside the
dead man. Brand
heard a sound from above, saw ap Hywll coming down. "You
will honour the fight?" he asked. Heard
Brynn ap Hywll say, bitter and blunt, "He let you win." "He
did not!" Brand said, not as forcefully as he wanted to. The
young one, Bern, looked up. "Why do you say that?" he asked, speaking
to the Cyngael, not to his own leader, the hero who had saved them all. Brynn
was swearing, a stream of profanity, as he looked down at the dead man.
"We were deceived," he said, in Anglcyn. "He took the fight on
himself, intending to lose." "He
did not!" Leofson said again. Brynn's voice had been loud enough
for others to hear. "Don't
be a fool! You know it," snapped the Cyngael. Men were coming over now,
from below and above. "You show your backhand every time, he set you up
for that." Bern
was still kneeling, for some reason, beside the dead man. "I saw
that," he said, looking again at ap Hywll. Brand
swallowed hard. Watch the backhand. You're giving it away . . . What
kind of a fool ... ? He
stared at the boy beside the fallen man. The late light fell on both of them. "Why
are you there?" he said. But he wasn't a stupid man, and he knew his answer
before it came. "My
father," said Bern. No
more than that, but much came all too clear. Brynn ap Hywll gazed down at the
two of them, the living one and the dead, and began to swear again, with a
ferocity that was unsettling. Brand
One-eye, hearing him, and with duties here, said, again, loudly, "You will
honour the fight?" Within,
he was badly shaken. What kind of a fool did something like this? Now he
knew. Brynn
ignored him, insultingly. The force of his fury slowed. He was looking at Bern.
"You understand that he prepared all of this?" Still speaking
Anglcyn, the shared tongue. Bern
nodded. "I . . . think I do." "He
did." It was a new voice. "He came through the godwood with us to do
this, I think. Or make it possible." Bern
looked over. Aeldred's son, the Anglcyn prince. There was a smaller young man,
Cyngael, beside him. "He . . . almost told us that," Prince Athelbert
went on. "I said I was in the wood because of my father, and Alun was for
his brother, and .. . Thorkell said he was a fit with us and would explain
later how. He never did." "Yes,
he did," said Brynn ap Hywll. "Just now." Leofson
cleared his throat. This was all blowing much too far in a bad direction. You
had to be careful when the rocks got close. "I killed this man in fair
combat," he said. "He was old, he grew tired. If you want to try
to—" "Be
silent," said ap Hywll, not loudly, but with no respect in his voice, none
of what should come to a man who'd just saved his entire company. "We
will honour your fight, because I would be shamed not to, but the world will
know what happened here. Would you really have gone home and claimed glory for
this?" And
to that, Brand Leofson had no reply. "Leave
now," Brynn continued bluntly. "Siawn, we do this properly. There is
a dead man to be honoured. Send two riders to the coast to bring word to those
of Cadyr who might be looking for the ships. Here's my ring, for them. No one
is to attack. Tell them why. And take an Erling, their best rider, to explain
to the ones left there." He
looked at Brand again, the way one looked at a low-ranking member of his
household. "Which of your men can handle a horse?" "I
can," said the one kneeling beside the dead man, looking up. "I've
the best horse. I'll go." He hadn't stood up yet. "Are
you certain? We will bury your father with all proper rites. If you wish to
stay for ..." "No.
Give him to us," Brand said, assertive for the first time. "He
entrusted his soul to Ingavin, before we fought. This is truth." Brynn's
mood seemed to change again. Sorrow in his face, anger spent. The Cyngael, it
was said, were never far from sadness. Rain and mist, dark valleys, music in
their voices. Ap
Hywll nodded his head. "That seems fitting, I have to say. Very well. Take
him with you. You will do him honour?" "We
will do him honour," Brand said, with dignity. "He was the Volgan's
shipmate once."
Her
own anger, Rhiannon realized, had also gone. It was more than a little
unsettling: how one could be consumed, defined by rage, the desire—the need—to
kill, and then have it simply disappear, drift away, leaving such a
different feeling behind. She hadn't cried earlier; she was weeping now for a
treacherous Erling servant of her mother's. She shouldn't be doing this, she
thought. She shouldn't. Her
mother put an arm about her shoulders. Enid was calm again, thoughtful, holding
her child. It
is over, Rhiannon told herself. At
least it is over now.
In
the sagas, Bern thought, when the hero died, to the monster's claws and teeth
or the assembled might of deceitful foes, he always lay alive for some last
moments so those who loved him could come and say that, and hear the last words
he would speak, and carry them away. Siferth
had died that way, years after killing Ingeld on the ice, and so had Hargest in
his brother's arms, speaking the words at the heart of all the sagas:
Cattle
die kinsmen die. Every
man born must die. Fierce hearth fires end in ash. Fame
once won endures ever. It
made for good verse. It might even be true. But not all of us are granted final
words with those we are losing, not all of us are equal to the task of the
last, memorable thing to say, or allowed it even if we are. You
were supposed to have that moment, Bern thought bitterly. In the Jaddite
songs, too, there were such exchanges. The king speaking to his servant words
to be remembered, to echo down the ages. The dying high cleric telling a
wavering acolyte that which confirms him in faith and mission and changes his
life—and the lives of others, after. It
wasn't right that there was nothing here but this . . . kneeling beside a death
among so many strangers, enemies, in a distant land far from the sea. It wasn't
right that your own last encounter had been so harsh. His father had saved him
there, too, carrying him out of Esferth to his horse, sending him away, with
instructions not to come to Brynnfell. If
they'd listened, if they'd gone home, this wouldn't have .. . It
wasn't his fault. Not his doing. He'd taken heed. A good son. Ivarr Ragnarson
was dead because Bern had exposed him, as his father had wanted. He'd
done what he'd been told. He'd .. . he'd honoured his father's words. His
father had killed two men, been exiled, cost his family home and freedom, the
shape and pattern of their lives. Had
given one life back, here, bought with his own. They
were speaking above him of needing an Erling to ride to the ships with the
Cyngael. Bern looked up, hoping they couldn't see how blurred and unmoored he
felt, and said he'd go. He
heard Brand say, quietly, that Thorkell had chosen Ingavin for his soul at the
end. He wasn't surprised. How could that be a surprise? But it did give him a
thought. He slipped the hammer from about his neck and lifted his father's
head, still warm in the late-day sunlight, and he gave Thorkell back his gift
to carry up to the god's halls, where mead was surely (surely) being poured for
him now, with Siggur Volganson there to lead the cries of welcome after waiting
for so long. He
stood up carefully. Looked down at his father. It had been dark in the river
the last time, nothing clearly to be discerned. It was bright here now. Some
grey in the hair and beard, but really very little for a man of his years. Red
Thorkell, still, at the end. He
looked over, met the gaze of Brynn ap Hywll. Hadn't expected what he saw there.
They'd come to kill this man. Neither of them spoke. It crossed Bern's mind to
say that he was sorry, but an Erling didn't say that to a Cyngael. He just
nodded his head. The other man did the same. Bern turned away and went down the
slope, to get Gyllir and ride. It was over. In
the great stories there were last words from the dying, and for them from those
left behind. In life, it seemed, you galloped away, and the dead were borne
after you towards a burning by the sea.
It is
over, Bern thought, riding away, and Rhiannon mer Brynn had told herself the
same thing, a little higher up the hill. Both were wrong, though young enough
to be forgiven for it. It
does not end. A story finishes—or does for some, not for others—and there are
other tales, intersecting, parallel, or sharing nothing but the time. There is
always something more. Alun
ab Owyn, so pale that it was noted by all who looked at him, walked over
towards Brynn. He was breathing carefully, holding himself very still. "Lad.
What is it?" Brynn's gaze narrowed. "I
need . . . I must ask something of you." "After
coming through that wood for us? Jad's blood, there is nothing you could ask
that—" "Don't
say it. This is large." The
older man stared at him. "Let us walk away, then, and you will ask me, and
I will say if I can do what you need." They
walked away, and Alun asked. Only the dog, Cafall, whom both of them had called
theirs, was near to them, following. There
was a breeze from the north, sliding the clouds away. A clear night coming,
late-summer stars soon, no moons. "It
is very large," Brynn agreed, when Alun had done. He, too, was pale now.
"And this is from . . ." "This
is from the half-world. The one that we . . . both know." "Are you
certain you understand ... ?" "No.
No, I'm not. But I think . . . I have been caused to see something. And I am
being . . . besought to do this." "From
when you were in the godwood?" "Before.
It began here." Brynn
looked at him. He wished Ceinion were with them. He wished he were a wiser,
better, holier man. The sun was low. The Erlings, he saw, glancing down the
slope, had taken the body of the dead man. Siawn had detailed men to go with
them, escorts. Brynn didn't think there would be trouble. Something had changed
with Einarson's death. He was still trying to sort that through, if he'd have
done the same thing to save his own son, or daughters. He
thought so, but didn't know. He honestly didn't know. Owyn's
son was waiting, staring at him, his mouth pinched, clearly in great distress.
He was the musician, Brynn remembered. Had sung for them the night the Erlings
came. His brother had died here. This one had come through the spirit wood to
warn them, and sent a faerie ahead to Brynn. Three nights she had waited above
the yard for him to come to her. Failing that, the farm would have burned
tonight. And Enid, Rhiannon .. . He
nodded his head. "I'll take you to Siggur Volganson's sword, where I
buried it. Jad defend us both from whatever may befall." It does not end.
There is always more.
She
is watching. Of course she is watching. How could she not have followed here?
She is trying, from a distance, away from all the iron, to understand
movements, gestures. She is not skilled at this (how could she be?). She sees
him walk away with the other one, with whom she'd spoken on the slope, who is
afraid of her, of what she is. They
do not see her. She is in the trees, muted, trying to understand, but
distracted by the aura of other presences gathering as sundown nears: the Ride
is close by, of course, and spruaugh, many of them, whom she has always
disliked. One of those, she thinks, will have flitted to tell the queen
already: about what she's done, what she is doing now. There
was one dead man, taken up by the others now. Only one. She has seen this
before, years ago and years ago. It is ... a game men play at war, though
something more than that, perhaps. They die so swiftly. She
sees the two of them turn and go to their horses and start back east, alone.
She follows. Of course she follows, among the trees. But just then, watching
the two of them, she feels—inexplicably strange, at first, then not
so—something she has never felt before, in all the years since wakening. And
then she realizes what it is. She is feeling sorrow, seeing him take horse and
ride. A gift. Never before. She
enters the small wood above Brynnfell with the two of them and the grey dog.
The Ride is waiting by the pool. She feels the queen's summons and goes to her,
as she must.
It
grew darker as they rode, both carrying torches now. The first stars out,
clouds chased south by the wind. Cafall loped beside the horses. No one else
was with them. Alun looked at the sky. "No
moons tonight?" Brynn
simply shook his head. The big man had been silent on the ride. Alun was aware
that this particular journey would be laden with memory for him, like a weight.
This is very large, he had said. It was. No
moons. That, Alun thought, but did not say—for Brynn was carrying enough—was
the other reason time had altered for the three of them in the spirit wood,
coming here. Allowed
to come here. He was remembering Thorkell's hammer, laid upon the grass where
they'd heard the creature roaring. An offering, and perhaps not the only thing
offered. He, too, had ended up lying on grass. This
was a different wood. The insistent images, painfully imposed, coming from an
Anglcyn princess in Esferth, were green and shining still, as they entered
among the trees carrying their flames. He'd
chased Ivarr Ragnarson here, and his Erling horse had entered the pool and been
frozen there, and he'd seen faeries, heard their music, seen Dai with the
queen. Never
found Ivarr. That one was dead, it seemed. Not by Alun's hand. Not his revenge.
Something else, a larger thing, to be done now. He was afraid. The
images in his mind had stopped. They were gone, as if the girl had been worn
out sending them—or wasn't needed any more, now that he was here. He was
supposed to know, by now, why he was in this wood. He was almost certain he
did. That sense of something pushing into awareness was replaced by
something else, more difficult to name. He
dismounted when Brynn did, and he followed him through the darkness; a twisting
path through high summer trees (a small wood, this, but an old one, surely so,
with faeries here). They were cautious with the torches. A forest could burn. He
saw the pool. His heart was beating fast. He glanced at Brynn, who had stopped,
saw that the other man's face was rigid with strain. Brynn looked around,
aligning himself. The sky was clear above the pool, they could see stars. The
water was still, a mirror. No wind here. No sound in the leaves. Brynn
turned to him. "Hold this," he said, handing Alun his torch. He
set off around the edge of the pool, towards the south. Long-striding, almost
hurrying, now that they were here. He would be tangled in memories, Alun
thought. He followed, carrying light. Again Brynn stopped, again took his
bearings. Then he turned his back on the water and walked over to a tree, a
large ash. He touched it and went past. Three more trees, then he turned to his
left. There
was a boulder, moss-covered (green), massive. Here, too, Brynn rested his hand
a moment. He looked back at Alun. It was too hard to read his thoughts by
torchlight. Alun could guess, though. "Why
didn't you destroy it?" he asked softly, his first words in the wood. "I
don't know," the other man said. "I felt as if it should stay with
us. Lie here. It was . . . very beautiful." He
stayed that way a moment, then he turned his back on Alun, drew a breath, put a
shoulder to that huge rock, and pushed, an enormously strong man. Nothing
happened. Brynn straightened, wiped at his face with one hand. "I
can—" Alun began. "No,"
said the other. "I did it myself, then." Twenty-five
years ago. A young man in his glory, a life ahead of him, the greatest deed of
his days already done. What he'd be remembered for. He'd taken that fight for
his own, over those whose rank should have made it theirs. Today, he had let a
man take another combat, for him. This
was a proud man. Alun stood with the torches, Cafall beside him, and watched as
Brynn turned back to the rock, spat on both his hands, and put them and his
shoulder to it again, driving with body and legs, churning, grunting with
exertion, then crying aloud Jad's name, the god, even here. And
the boulder rolled with that cry, just enough to reveal, by the light of Alun's
torches, a hollow beneath where it had been, and something wrapped in cloth,
lying there. Brynn
straightened, wiped at his dripping face again with one sleeve then the other.
He swore, though softly, without force. Alun remained where he was, waiting.
His heart was still pounding. The other man knelt, claimed the cloth, and what
lay inside it. He stood up and carried it back before him the few steps out of
those trees, past the ash to the grassy space by the starlit pool. He
cried aloud, raised a quick, warding hand. Alun, following, looked past him.
They were here. Waiting. Not the faeries. The green, hovering figures he'd seen
with the others in the spirit wood. They
were here, and they were the reason he was here. He knew what these were now,
finally, and what they needed from him. Besought.
He was being pleaded with. To
intervene. A mortal who could see the half-world, who had been in the Ride's
pool here, had lain with a faerie in the northern reaches of the spirit wood.
They would know this. When he'd entered the wood again with Thorkell and then
Athelbert, they had come for him. His
heart was twisted, entangled, holding a weight that felt like centuries. He
didn't know how the girl in Esferth was part of this (didn't know she'd been in
the wood that same night) but she had given him the images they needed him to
see. She had . . . a different kind of access to this. And
had brought him here, a second time. "They
will not harm us," he said quietly to Brynn. "You
know what these are?" "Yes,"
said Alun. "I do now." Brynn
didn't ask the next question. Either he didn't want to know or, more probably,
he was leaving this, in courtesy, to Alun. Alun
said, "If you will give me the sword, I think you should take Cafall and
go. You do not need to stay with me." "Yes
I do," said the other man. Hugely
proud, all his days. A man had died, taking his fight this afternoon. Brynn
unwrapped the cloth from around what it had held for so many years and Alun,
coming nearer with both torches, saw the Volgan's small, jewel-hiked sword,
taken from the raid on Champieres, and carried as a talisman until the day he
died in Llywerth, by the sea. The
man who'd killed him held it out towards Alun. Alun handed him a torch, took
the sword, gave Brynn the other flame. He unsheathed the blade, to look upon
it. It was silver, Siggur Volganson's sword. Not iron. He'd known it would be,
from the girl. There
came a sound from the green shapes gathered there—twenty of them, or nearly so,
he judged. A keening noise, wind in leaves but higher. Sorrow was in him. The
way of the Cyngael. "You
are . . . certain you wish to stay?" Brynn
nodded. "You don't want to be alone here." He
didn't. It was true. But still. "I don't think I have . . . permission to
do this. I don't expect to live. Your wife asked you—" "I
know what she said. I will not leave you alone. Do what you must. We will bear
witness, Cafall and I." Alun
looked beyond him. One of the green shapes had come nearer. They were almost
human, as if twisted by time and circumstance a little away. He knew what they
were, now. What they had been. Brynn
stepped away, back towards the encircling trees, carrying the torches. The dog
was silent when it might have growled. It had done so in the spirit wood, Alun
remembered. Something had changed. He set the scabbard down. "You
wish this, truly?" he said. Not to the other man this time. Brynn was
behind him now. He was holding a silver sword and speaking to the green
creatures that had come. They were in a clearing by the faerie queen's pool
under stars on a night when neither moon would rise. Souls walked on such
nights, so the old tales told. No
reply, or none spoken aloud. He had no idea if they could speak any tongue he
might know. But the figure before him came nearer yet (slowly, so as not to
startle him or cause fear, was the thought that came) and it knelt upon the
dark grass before him. He
heard Brynn make a sound (the beginning of a prayer) and then stop himself. The
other man had just realized, Alun thought, what was about to happen, though he
wouldn't know why. Alun knew why. He
had not asked for this. He'd only ridden north from home one bright morning at
the end of spring with his brother and favourite cousin and their friends on a
cattle raid, as young men of the Cyngael had done since all songs began. He had
ridden into a different, older story, it seemed. Much
older. These green things, and he still didn't know what they were called, had
been human once. Like Brynn, like Alun himself, like Dai. Entirely
like Dai. These, he understood, heart aching, were the souls of the faerie
queen's mortal lovers after she tired of them and sent them from her side. This
is what became of them, after who could know how many years. And he was here
(in a tale he had never known he was in) to set them free with silver, under
stars. His
eyes were dry, his hand steady, holding the small sword. He touched the point
and still-sharp edges. Not a warrior's blade this one, a slender, ceremonial
sword. This was a ceremony, as much as anything else. He
drew a breath. There was no reason to wait, or linger. He'd been brought here
for this. He stepped forward. "Let
there be light for you," he said. And thrust the Volgan's blade into the
kneeling, shimmering creature, below what would have been its collarbone, long
ago. He
was ready this time for the sound that came, and so did not flinch or startle
when he heard that cry of release, or the deeper sound that came from the
others gathered here. No wind, the water utterly still. Stars would be
reflected in it. There
was nothing kneeling before him now, where the blade (too smoothly, almost no
resistance) had gone. Alun understood. It
was a soul, not a mortal body. It had died long ago. He was stabbing hearth
smoke and memory. He
told himself that, again and again, as he besought light (besought) for
each of them, one by one, as they came and knelt and he did what they had drawn
him here to do for them. He became aware of how grateful he was that Brynn had
stayed, after all, that he wasn't here alone to do this in the dark, wrapped in
sorrow, hearing that aching joy in each of them at their release, the sound
they made. His
hand was steady, each time, over and again. He owed them that, having been
chosen for this. Exchanges in spirit woods, he was thinking. A hammer laid down
in one forest that a sword might be lifted from under a boulder in another.
Thorkell's life for his and Athelbert's, and so many others on that slope today
(mortals, all). He
had no idea how much time had passed or if, indeed, it had. He
looked down upon the last of these kneeling souls taken once, and discarded, by
the faerie queen. He offered his prayer for it and plunged the sword and heard
the cry, and saw this last one flicker and drift from sight as the others had done.
Nothing green left glimmering in the glade. And so this, Alun thought, was the
last exchange, final balancing, an ending. He,
too, was young. To be forgiven this error, as the others were. He
heard music. Looked up. Behind him, Brynn began, quietly, to pray. Light
upon the water, pale, as if moonlight were falling. And then the light (which
was not moonlight) took shape, attained form, and Alun saw, for a second time,
faeries coming across the surface of the pool, to the sound of flutes and bells
and instruments he did not know. He saw the queen (again), borne in her open
litter, very tall, slim, clothed in what would be silk or something finer,
silver-hued (like his sword). Faeries, passing by. Or
not, in fact, passing. Not this time. The music stopped. He heard Brynn behind
him, ceaselessly speaking the invocation of light, the first, the simplest
prayer. The dog was silent, still. Alun looked at the queen, and then made
himself look beside her. Dai
was there, as he had been before (so little time would have passed for them, he
thought). He was riding a white mare with ribbons in her mane, and the queen
was reaching out and holding him by the hand. Silence
upon the water. Brynn's murmuring the only sound in the glade. Alun looked at
that shining company, and at his brother (his brother's taken soul). Without
having intended to, he knelt then on the grass. His turn to kneel. They were so
far inside the half-world; only with mercy would they ever come out, and
faeries were never known for mercy, in the tales. They
did make bargains, though, with mortals they favoured, and there can be
a final balancing, though we might not expect it or know when it has come. Kneeling,
looking upon that tall, pale, exquisite queen in her silvered light upon water,
he saw her gesture, a movement of one hand, and he saw who came forward,
obedient, dutiful, from among those in her train, to her side. No sound. Brynn,
he realized, had fallen silent. Grave,
unsmiling, achingly beautiful, the faerie queen gestured again, twice, looking
straight at Alun, and so he understood—finally--that there could be indulgence,
mercy, a blessing, even, entangled with all sorrows (the cup from which we
drink). She reached out one arm and laid it like a barrier before the small,
slim figure of the one who had come forward. The one he knew, had spoken to,
had lain with in a forest, on the grass. Will
you come back into the wood? Will
you sorrow if I do not? he had
asked. Her
hair was changing hues, as he watched, golden to dark violet, to silver, like
the queen's. He knew these changes, knew this about her. From behind the
barrier of that arm, that banning, she looked at him, and then she turned her
head away and gazed at the figure on the other side of the queen, and Alun
followed her glance, and began, now, to weep. Final
balancing. The queen of the faeries released his brother's hand. And with those
fingers, a gesture smooth as water falling, she motioned for Dai to go forward,
if he wished. If he
wished. He was still wrapped (like a raiment) in his mortal shape, not green
and twisted away from it as the others had been. He was too new, still her
favoured one, riding the white mare at her side, holding her hand amid their
music, upon water, in the night woods, within the faerie mounds. If he
wished. How did one leave this? Go from that shining? Alun wanted (so much) to
call to him, but tears were pouring down his face and his throat was blocked
with grief, so he could only watch as his brother (his brother's soul) turned
to look at the queen in her litter beside him. He was too far away for Alun to
see what expression was on his face: sorrow, anger, fear, yearning, puzzlement?
Release? It
is, as has long been said, the nature of the Cyngael that in the midst of
brightest, shining joy, they carry an awareness of sorrows to come, an ending
that waits, the curving of the arc. It is their way, the source of music in
their voices, and-perhaps—what allows them to leave the shining behind, in due
time, when others cannot do so. Gifts are treasured, known not to be forever. Dai
twitched the reins of his mare and moved forward, alone, across the water. Alun
heard Brynn again, praying behind him. He looked, for one brief moment (that
could be made to last a lifetime if held clearly enough in memory) upon the
faerie that had come to him, his own gift, a shining left behind, and saw her
raise a hand to him from behind the arm of the queen. Final balancing. Dai
reached the water's edge, dismounted. Walked across the grass. Not hovering as
the others had, not yet, still clothed in the form his brother had known. Alun
made himself stand still. He held the Volgan's sword. Dai
stopped in front of him. He did not smile, or speak (no words spoken, across
that divide). Nor did he kneel, Owyn of Cadyr's older, slain son. Not before a
younger brother. One could even smile at that perhaps, later. Dai spread his
feet a little, as if to steady himself. Alun was remembering the morning they
had ridden north from home, coming here. Other memories followed, in waves.
How could they not, here? He looked into his brother's eyes and saw that they
had changed (were still changing). It seemed to him there were stars to be seen
there, a strangeness so great. "Let
there be light for you," he murmured, scarcely able to speak. "Let
it be done with love," said Brynn behind him, soft as a benison, words
that seemed to be from some ancient liturgy Alun didn't know. "How
not?" he said. To Brynn, to Dai, to the bright queen and all her faeries
(and the one he was losing now), to the dark night and the stars. He drew back
the sword a last time and drove it into his brother's chest, to accept the
queen's gift of his soul, the balancing, and set it free to find its harbour, after
all. When
he looked up again, Dai was gone (was gone) and the faeries had disappeared,
all that shining. It was dark upon the water and in the glade. He drew a ragged
breath, felt himself shivering. There
was a sound. The dog, come up to nuzzle him at the hip. Alun put a trembling
hand down, touched its fur between the ears. Another sound. He turned towards
it wordlessly, and he let Brynn ap Hywll gather him in his arms as a father
would, with his own father so far away. They
stood so for a long time before they moved. Brynn claimed the scabbard, wrapped
the sword in its cloth again, as before, and they walked over and he laid it in
the hollow where it had been. Then he looked up. It was dark. The torches had
burned out. "Will
you help me, lad?" he asked. "This accursed boulder has grown. It is
heavier than it used to be, I swear." "I've
heard they do that," said Alun quietly. He knew what the other man was
doing. A different kind of gift. Together, shoulders to the great rock, they
rolled it back and covered the Volgan's sword again. Then they left the wood,
Cafall beside them, and came out under stars, above Brynnfell. Lanterns were
burning down there, to guide them back. There
was another torch, as well, nearer to them.
She
had waited by the gate the last time, when her father went up. This time
Rhiannon slipped out of the yard amidst the chaos of returning. Her mother was
arranging for a meal to be served to all those who had come to their aid,
invited, and unexpectedly from the farms west, where someone—a girl, it
seemed—had seen the Erlings passing and run a warning home. You honoured
such people. Rhiannon knew she was needed, ought to be with her mother, but she
also knew that her father and Alun ab Owyn were in the wood again. Brynn had
told his wife where he was going, though not why. Rhiannon was unable to attend
to whatever duties were hers until they came out from the trees. Standing
on the slope above their farmyard, she listened to the bustling sounds below
and thought about what it was a woman could do, and could not. Waiting, she
thought, was so much a part of their lives. Her mother, giving swift, incisive
orders down below, might call that nonsense, but Rhiannon didn't think it was.
There was no anger in her any more, or any real feeling of defiance, though she
knew she shouldn't be up here. Needful
as night she had said in the hall
at the end of spring, entirely aware of the effect it would have. She'd been
younger then, Rhiannon thought. Here she was, after nightfall, and she couldn't
have said what it was she needed. An ending, she'd decided, to whatever had
begun that other night. She
heard a noise. The two men came out from the trees and stood there, the grey
dog beside Alun. She saw them both look down upon the farmhouse and the lights.
Then her father turned to her. "Jad
be thanked," Rhiannon said. "Truly,"
he replied. He
came over and brushed her forehead with his lips, as was his habit. He
hesitated, looked over his shoulder. Alun ab Owyn had stayed where he was, just
clear of the last trees. "I need to drink and drink," Brynn said.
"Both at once. I'll see you below." He went over and took both
horses' reins and led them down. She
was unexpectedly calm. The springtime seemed so long ago. The wind had died
down, the smoke from her torch rose up nearly straight. "Did
you—?" "I
have so much—" They
both stopped. Rhiannon laughed a little. He did not. She waited. He cleared his
throat. "I have so much need of your forgiveness," he said. "After
what you did?" she said. "Coming here again?" He shook his head.
"What I said to you—" This,
she could address. "You said some things in grief and loss, on the night
your brother died." He
shook his head. "It was . . . more than that." She
had stood by the gate, seen her father go up. The two of them had just come out
of the wood. She knew something of this. She said, "Then it was more. And
you are the more to be forgiven." "You
are gracious too. I have no right . . ." "None
of us has a right to grace," Rhiannon said. "It comes sometimes. That
night . . . I asked you to come to me. To sing." "I know. I remember.
Of course." "Will
you sing for me tonight?" He
hesitated. "I . . . I am not certain that I . . ." "For
all of us," she amended carefully. "In the hall. We are honouring
those who came to help us." He
rubbed at his chin. He was very tired, she saw. "That would be
better," he said quietly. That
would be better. Some paths, some
doorways, some people were not to be yours, though the slightest difference in
the rippling of time might have made them so. A tossed pebble landing a little
sooner, a little later. She looked at him, standing this near, the two of them
alone in darkness, and she knew she would never entirely move beyond what had
happened to her that night at the end of spring, but it was all right. It would
have to be all right. You could live with this, with much worse. "Will
you come down, my lord?" she said. "I
will follow you, my lady, if I may. I am not . . . entirely ready. I will do
better after some moments alone." "I
can understand that," Rhiannon said. She could. He'd been in the
half-world, would have a long way back to travel. She turned away from him and
started down. Just
outside the gate to the yard, a shadow moved away from the fence. "My
lady," said the shadow. "Your mother said you would be up that slope
and unlikely to welcome someone following. I thought I would risk coming this
far." Her torchlight fell upon Athelbert as he bowed. He
had come through the spirit wood to bring them a warning. They were not even
allies of his people. He was the king's heir of the Anglcyn. He had come out to
wait for her. Rhiannon
had a vision then of her life to come, the burdens and the opportunities of it,
and it was not unacceptable to her. There would be joys and sorrows, as there
always were, the taste of the latter present in the wine of such happiness as
mortals were allowed. She could do much for her people, she thought, and life
was not without its duties. "My
mother," she said, looking up at him by the light of his lifted torch,
"is generally right, but not always so." "It
is," said Athelbert, smiling, "a terrible thing when a parent is
always right. You'd have to meet my father to see what I mean." They
walked into the yard together. Rhiannon closed and latched the gate behind her,
the way they had all been taught to do, against what might be out there in the
night.
He
wasn't alone. He had said that he needed to be, but it was a dissembling. Sitting
on the grass above Brynnfell, not far from where he'd first walked up to the
faerie (he could see the sapling to his left), Alun set about shaping and
sending a thought, again and again in his mind. It
is over. It begins. It is over. It begins. He
had no idea what the boundary markers of this might be, if she could sense
anything from him, the way he'd been so painfully open to the images she'd
sent. But he stayed there, his dog beside him, and he shaped those words,
wondering. Then
wonder ceased and a greater wonder began, for he felt her presence again, and
caught (soundlessly, within) a note of laughter. It is over. If you are very
fortunate, and I am feeling generous, it begins. Alun
laughed aloud in the darkness. He would never be entirely alone again, he
realized. It might not have been a blessing, but it was, because of what she
was, and he knew it from the beginning, that same night, looking down upon the
farm. He stood
up, and so did the dog. There were lights below, food and wine, companionship
against the night, people waiting for him, with their needs. He could make
music for them. Come
back to me, he heard. Joy.
The other taste in sorrow's cup. SEVENTEEN Nine
nights after leaving Brynnfell, as they rowed into the wind back east, skirting
close to Ferrieres to be as far from Aeldred's ships as they could, Bern
realized that his father had spoken a last word to him. It
was a bright night, both moons in the sky, a little more light than was
entirely safe for them. He remained thinking for some time longer, hands to his
oar in the night. He rocked his body back and forth, pulling through the sea,
tasting salt spray and memories. Then he lifted his voice and called out to
Brand. They
were treating him differently now. Brand came directly over. He listened as
Thorkell Einarson's son shared a thought which seemed to Leofson to come, under
the two moons, as guidance from a spirit (burned with all proper rites on a
strand in Llywerth) benevolently mindful of their fate. At
dawn they lashed the ships together on choppy seas and took counsel. They were
Jormsvik mercenaries, feared through the north, and they'd had humiliations
beyond endurance on this journey. Here was a chance to come home with honour,
not trammelled in shame. There were reasons to roll these dice. It was past the
end of raiding season; they'd be entirely unexpected. They could still land
nearly a hundred men, and Carloman of Ferrieres
had his hands full (Garr Hoddson pointed out) farther east with the Karchites,
who were being pushed towards him by the horsemen of Waleska. And
most of them had heard—and each now believed he understood—the last cry of
Thorkell Einarson, who'd lost a single combat deliberately, to save their
lives. Brand One-eye had stopped even trying to proclaim it otherwise. There
was no dissent. They
put the ships ashore in a shallow cove west of the Brienne River mouth. They
knew roughly where Champieres was, though not with certainty. Since the
Volgan's raid, no one had been back to that hidden valley where kings of
Ferrieres were laid to rest, chanted over by holy men. In the early years,
they'd known it would be guarded after what had happened. And later, it was as
though Champieres had become sacred to the Erlings too, in Siggur's memory. Well,
there were limits to that, weren't there? A new generation had its needs. They
did, in the event, know enough to find it: beyond the river, an east-west
valley, entered from the east. It wasn't hugely difficult for trained,
experienced men. What
followed, three nights later, was what tended to follow when the Erlings came.
They sacked the royal sanctuary of the Sleepless Ones, set it afire, killed
three dozen clerics and guards (not enough fighting men any more, Garr had been
right about the Karchites). They lost only eight of their own. Carried—loading
the horses, burdened like beasts themselves—sacks of silver and gold artifacts,
coins, candlesticks, censers and sun disks, royal gems, jewel-hilted blades
(none silver, not this time), ivory caskets, coffers of sandalwood and ebony,
spices and manuscripts (men paid for those), and a score of slaves, whipped
towards the ships, to serve them in Jormsvik or be sold in a market town. A
raid as gloriously triumphant as anyone could remember. An
echo, even, of what the Volgan had done. Enough looted to leave each one of
them wealthy, even after the share given over to the treasury when they came
home. A
hearth fire story, too. You could hear the skalds already! The dying hero's
last word, Volgan's friend, understood only by his son one night at sea,
sending them to Champieres, where the father had been twenty-five years and
more ago. In the name of Ingavin, it made a saga by itself! There
were storm winds in their faces for two days and nights as they continued home.
Lightning cracked the sky. Waves high as masts roared over the decks, drenching
them, sweeping some of the horses screaming overboard. They were Erlings,
though, lords of the sea roads, however wild they might become. This was their
element. Ingavin and Thьnir sent storms as a trial for men, a test of
worthiness. They wiped streaming water from eyes and beards and fought through
rain and gale, defying them, as no other men alive dared do. They
came into Jormsvik harbour on a bright, cold afternoon, singing at their oars.
They'd lost one ship, Hoddson's, and thirty-two men. To be lamented and
honoured, each one of them, but the sea and the gods claim their due, and where
was glory, after all, when the task was easily done? It
was a very good winter in Jormsvik.
It
was judged the same way in Esferth and Raedhill and elsewhere in the Anglcyn
lands. King Aeldred and his wife and court travelled north to Rheden to
celebrate the marriage of their daughter Judit to Prince Calum there. The
red-haired princess was fiercely beautiful, even more fiercely strong-willed,
and clearly terrified her younger husband. That, her siblings agreed privately,
had been predictable. Why should the prince be different from anyone else? Not
remotely overlooked in the ceremonies and entertainments of that fortnight was
the moment in the Midwinter Rites when Withgar of Rheden knelt before King
Aeldred, kissed his ring, and accepted a disk of Jad from him, while clerics
chanted praise of the living sun. You
paid a price to join your line to a greater one, and Rheden was not unaware
that Esferth was increasingly secure from the Erlings. It wasn't difficult to
guess in which direction Aeldred's eyes might turn. Better to marry, turn risk
to advantage. They were all one people in the end, weren't they? Not like the
dark, little, cattle-thieving Cyngael on the other side of the Wall. As it
happened, some time before leaving Esferth for the north, the Anglcyn king had
put his mind (and his clerics) to work on the formal terms of another marriage,
west, with those same Cyngael. Withgar of Rheden hadn't been told about these
plans, as yet, but there'd been no reason to inform him. Many a marriage
negotiation had broken down. This
one, however, seemed unlikely to do so. His daughter Kendra, normally the
gentle, compliant one of his four children (and best loved, as it happened),
had spoken with her father and the Cyngael cleric in privacy shortly after
certain events that had taken place at summer's end by a farm called Brynnfell
in Arberth. Events they knew altogether too much about because of her and the
young prince of Cadyr, Owyn's surviving son and heir, the man she intended to
wed. She told her father as much. Aeldred,
notoriously said to anticipate almost all possible events and plan for them,
was not remotely ready for this. Nor could he furnish any immediate reply to
his daughter's firm indication that she would follow her mother straight to the
sanctuary at Retherly if the union—so clearly a suitable one—were not approved. "It
is marginally acceptable, I grant you. But do you even know he wants this? Or
that Prince Owyn will approve?" Aeldred asked. "He
wants this," Kendra replied placidly. "And you've been thinking about
a union west for a long time." This,
of course, happened to be true. His children knew too much. The
king looked to Ceinion for help. The cleric's manner had greatly changed over
the course of a few days, with word of events at Brynnfell. He bore a genial,
amused manner through the days and evenings. It was difficult to provoke an
enjoyable argument on doctrine with him. He
smiled at Aeldred. "My delight, my lord, is extreme. You know I hoped for
such a union. Owyn will be honoured, after I finish speaking with him, which I
will do." So
much for help from that quarter. "It
doesn't matter," Kendra said, with alarming complacency. "Alun will
deal with it." Both
men blinked, looking closely at her. This, Aeldred thought, was his shy,
dutiful daughter. She
closed her eyes. They thought it was self-consciousness, under the doubled
scrutiny. She
looked at them again. "I was right," she said. "He'll be coming
here, with my brother. They'll be taking the coastal road. They are on the way
to Cadyr now, to speak with his father." She smiled gently at the two of
them. "We've agreed not to do this too much, before the wedding, so don't
worry. He says to tell Ceinion he's making music again." There
wasn't a great deal one could do about this, though prayer was clearly
indicated. Kendra was diligent about attendance at chapel, morning and evening.
The marriage did make sense. There had been some brief discussion, the
king remembered, about Athelbert and Brynn ap Hywll's daughter. Well, that
wouldn't need to be continued, now. You didn't marry two children to
achieve the same result. Ceinion
of Llywerth offered his own two wedding gifts to the king. The first was his
long-sought promise to spend part of each year with Aeldred at his court. The
second was quite different. It emerged after a conversation between the high
cleric of the Cyngael
and the extremely devout queen of the Anglcyn. In the wake of this frank and
illuminating exchange, and after two all-night vigils in her chapel, Queen
Elswith arrived at her husband's bedchamber one night and was admitted. The
queen placidly informed her royal spouse that—upon reflection and religious
counsel—his soul was not so very gravely in danger as to require her to
withdraw to a sanctuary immediately after Judit was married, after all. She was
content to wait until Kendra, in turn, was wed to this prince in the west.
Perhaps in late spring? Aeldred and Osbert, in her view, would be incapable of
properly dealing with this second celebration without guidance. Further, it now
struck the queen as reasonable to spend some of her time at court even
after she retired to the sanctuary. These matters could be addressed in a . . .
balanced fashion, as the teachings of faith suggested for all things. On the
subject of balance, the king's earthly state was, certainly, part of her
charge. His
diet, for example, with the winter feasting season approaching (Judit's wedding
in Rheden ahead of them), was excessive. He was gaining weight, at risk of
gout, and worse. He would need her with him, at intervals, to observe and
assess his needs. The
king, who had not suffered another of his fevers since a certain conversation
with Ceinion on the ride back from chasing the Erlings to the coast (and would
not endure one again, ever), happily proposed she begin such assessing right
where they were. The queen declared the suggestion indecent at their age but
allowed herself to be overmastered, in this.
You're
taking a long time. You
know why. I had to go to my father first, couldn't rush away. I'm almost with
you. Three more days. There are emissaries with us. We'll present the marriage proposal to your father. I'll ask
Ceinion to help. I think he will. Doesn't
matter. My father's going to consent. How
do you know? This is a very— I
spoke with him. And
he just said yes? Right
now I think he'll say yes to anything I ask of him. A small silence in the shared channel of two minds. So
will I, you know. Oh,
good. She'd
done her first harvest-time sacrifice, two lambs and a kid. Anrid had added the
goat to the ceremony, naming it as Fulla's offering, mostly to be seen to be
doing things the old volur had not done. Changes, setting her own
imprint upon rituals, as a seal marked a letter. She'd worn the accursed snake
about her neck. It was growing heavier. It had crossed her mind that if the
ship from the south came back in spring, it would be prudent to arrange for
another serpent. Or perhaps they'd have one on board, perhaps arrangements had
already been made. Frigga,
when consulted, thought this might be so. The
harvest turned out to be a good one, and the winter was mild on Rabady. The new
governor and volur were both toasted in the taverns, and the women's
compound saw its share of after-harvest gifts. Anrid claimed only a dark blue
cloak for herself, let the others divide the rest—they needed to be kept happy.
And a little bit afraid. The
serpent helped with that. The wound on her leg had become a small pair of
scars. She let the others see them now and again, as if by chance. Serpents
were a power of earth, and Anrid had been given some of that power. It
was mild enough through winter that some of the younger men took their boats
across to Vinmark for the adventure of it. In a hard winter the straits might
freeze, though not safely so, and Rabady could be entirely cut off. This year they
did learn things, although in winter there wasn't much to know. A blood feud in
Halek, six men dead after a woman had been stolen. It appeared the woman had
consented, so she was killed as well when reclaimed by her family. People were
too close to each other when the snow came. In spring the roads and sea opened
again and pent-up violence could be sent away. It had always been like that.
They were shaped by the cold season; preparing for winter, needing it to end,
preparing again. One
day, with spring not yet arrived, a small boat was rowed across to the isle.
Three mariners aboard, heavily armed, spears and round shields. They came
ashore with a chest and a key, spoke courteously enough to the men sent down to
meet them. They were looking for a woman. From the town they were sent through
the walls and across the ditch to trudge snow-clad fields to the women's
compound. A half-dozen boys, glad of the diversion, escorted them. The
chest was for Frigga. It revealed, when opened in Anrid's chamber (only the two
of them there for the turning of the key), silver enough to buy any property on
the isle, with a good deal left over. There was a note. Anrid
was the one who could read. Frigga's
son Bern sent his respects to his mother and hoped she remained in health. He
was alive himself, and well. He was sorry to have to tell her that her husband
(her first husband) had died, in Cyngael lands, at summer's end. His passing
was honourable, he had saved other men with his death. He had been given rites
and burning there, done properly. The silver was to make a new beginning for
her. In a hard way to explain, the note said, it was really from Thorkell. Bern
would send word again when he could, but would probably not risk coming back to
Rabady. Anrid
had expected the other woman to weep. She did not—or not when Anrid was near.
The chest and silver were hidden (there were places to hide things here).
Frigga had already made her new beginning. Her son could not have known that. She
wasn't at all certain she wished to leave the compound and the women, go back
to a house in or near the town, and she wouldn't go to her daughters in
Vinmark, even with wealth of her own. That wasn't a life, growing old in a
strange place. It
was a great deal of money, you couldn't just leave it in the ground. She'd
think on it, she told Anrid. Anrid had memorized the note (a quick mind) before
they put it back in the chest. Probably
not, was what he had said. She
took thought, and invited the governor to visit her. Another
new thing, Sturla's coming here, but the two of them were at ease with each
other now. She'd gone into town to speak with him as well, formally garbed,
surrounded by (always) several of the women. Iord,
the old volur, had believed in the mystery that came with being unseen,
removed. Anrid (and Frigga, when they talked) thought power also came from
people knowing you were there, bearing you in mind. She always had the serpent
when she went to the town, or met with Ulfarson at the compound, as now. He'd
deny it, of course, but he was afraid of her, which was useful. They
discussed adding buildings to the compound when the last snow melted and the
men could work again. This had been mentioned before. Anrid wanted room for
more women, and a brewhouse. She had thoughts of a place for childbirth. People
gave generously at such times (if the child was a boy, and lived). It would be
good to become known as the place to come when a birth drew near. The governor
would want a share, but that, too, she'd anticipated. He
wasn't difficult to deal with, Sturla. As he was leaving, after ale and easy
talk (about the feud, over on the mainland), she mentioned, casually, something
she'd learned from the three men with the chest, about events a year ago, when
Halldr Thinshank's horse had gone missing. It
made a great deal of sense, what she told the governor: everyone had known
there was no love lost between the old volur and Thinshank. Ulfarson had
nodded owlishly (he had a tendency to look that way after ale) and asked,
shrewdly, why the boy hadn't come home by now, if this was so. The
boy, she told him, had gone to Jormsvik. Choosing the world of fighting men to
put behind him the dark woman-magic that had brought him shame. How did she
know? The chest was from him. He'd written to his mother here. He was greatly
honoured, it seemed, on the mainland now. His prowess reflected well on Rabady.
His father, Thorkell Einarson, the exile, was dead (it was good to let a man
have tidings he could share in a tavern), and even more of a hero. The boy was
wealthy from raiding, had sent his mother silver, to buy any home on the isle
she wished. Ulfarson
leaned forward. Not a stupid man, though narrow in the paths of his thought.
Which house? he asked, as she had expected he would. Anrid,
smiling, said they could probably guess which house Thorkell Einarson's widow
would want, though buying it might be difficult, given that it was owned by
Halldr's widow who hated her. It
might be possible, she said, as if struck by a thought, for someone else to buy
the house and land first, turn a profit for himself selling to Frigga when she
came looking. Sturla Ulfarson stroked his pale moustache. She could see him
thinking this through. It was an entirely proper thing, she added gravely, if
the two leaders of the isle helped each other in these various ways. Construction
of her three new buildings, Sturla Ulfarson said, when he rose to leave, would
commence as soon as the snows were gone and the ground soft enough. She invoked
Fulla's blessing upon him when he left. When
the weather began to change, the days to grow longer, first green-gold leaves
returning, Anrid set the younger women to watch at night, farther from the
compound than was customary, and in a different direction. There was no
spirit-guidance, no half-world sight involved. She was simply . . . skilled at
thinking. She'd had to become that way. It could be seen as magic or power, she
knew, mistaken for a gift of prescience. She
had another long conversation with Frigga, doing most of the talking, and this
time the other woman had wept, and then agreed. Anrid,
who was very young, after all, began having restless nights around that time. A
different kind of disturbance than before, when she hadn't been able to sleep.
This time it was her dreams, and what she did in them.
He
was doing what his father had done long ago. Bern kept telling himself that
through the winter, waiting for spring. And if this was so, it was important
not to be soft about it. The north was no place for that. Being soft could
destroy you, even if you left raiding for a different life, as Thorkell had
done. He
would leave with honour. Everyone in Jormsvik knew by now all that had happened
on what had come to be called Ragnarson's Raid. They knew what Red Thorkell had
done to keep them from going to Arberth, and what Bern had done, and how the
two of them (the skalds were singing it) had shaped destiny together, after,
leading five ships to Champieres. Two
of the most experienced captains had spoken with Bern on separate occasions,
urging him to stay. No coercion Jormsvik was a company of free and willing men.
They'd pointed out that he'd entered among them by killing a powerful man,
which boded well for his future, as did his lineage and the way he had begun on
his first raid. They hadn't known his lineage when he'd entered; they did now. Bern
had expressed gratitude, awareness of honour. Kept private the thought that he
really didn't agree with this vision of his prospects. He'd been fortunate, had
received aid beyond measure from Thorkell, and even though the idea of the
attack in Ferrieres had been his by way of his father, he'd discovered no battle
frenzy in himself, no joy in the flames, or when he'd spitted a Jaddite cleric
on his blade. You
didn't have to tell people that, but you did need to be honest with
yourself, he thought. His father had left the sea road, eventually. Bern was
doing it earlier, that was all, and would ask Ingavin and Thunir not to pull
him back, as Thorkell had been pulled back. He
set about balancing accounts through the winter. When
you changed your life you were supposed to leave the old one behind cleanly.
Ingavin observed such things, cunning and wise, watching with his one eye. Bern
had wealth now. A fortune beyond his deserts: the Champieres raid was being
talked about, word spreading, even on the snowbound paths of winter. It would
be in Hlegest by now, Brand had told him in a tavern one night, icicles hanging
like spears on the eaves outside. Kjarten Vidurson (rot his scarred face) would
know that Jormsvik was still no fortress to set himself against, though he was
likely going to try, sooner or later, that one. Bern
had begun making his reckoning that same night. Had left the tavern for the
rooms (the three rooms) in which he'd kept Thira since returning. He'd offered
her a sum of money that would set her up back home with property and the
choosing (or rejecting) of any man in her village. Women could own land, of
course, they just needed a husband to deal with it. And keep it. She'd
surprised him, but women were—Bern thought—harder than men to anticipate. He
was good, he'd discovered, at understanding men, but he'd not have
expected, for example, that Thira would burst into tears, and swear at him, and
throw a boot, and then say, snapping the words like a ship's captain to
an oarsman out of rhythm, that she'd left home of her own choice for her own
reasons and no man-boy like Bern Thorkellson was going to make her go back. She'd
accepted the silver and the three rooms, though. Not
long after, she bought herself a tavern. Hrati's, in fact. (Hrati was old,
tired of the life, said he was ready for the table by the fire and an upstairs
room. She gave him that. He didn't, as it happened, last long. Started drinking
too much, became quarrelsome. They buried him the next winter. Thira changed
the name of the tavern. Bern was long gone by then.) He'd
had to wait until spring, when challengers began coming again. In the meantime,
he paid three of the newer, younger ones to carry a chest to Rabady as soon as
the weather made that possible. These were Jormsvikings, they weren't going to
cheat him, and mercenaries could take a paying task from a companion as easily
as from anyone else. More
balancing in that chest. His mother would surely be locked into a grim life, a
second husband dead (and she only a second wife in Thinshank's house), no
rights to speak of, no sure home. Bern had left her to that, taking Gyllir into
the sea. Silver
didn't make redress for everything, but if you didn't let yourself get soft you
could say it went a long-enough way in the world. He
couldn't safely return to Rabady: he'd almost certainly be known (even changed
in his appearance), taken as a horse thief, and more. The horse had been named
and marked for a funeral burning, after all. The
horse, in fact, he sold to Brand Leofson, a good price, too. Gyllir was
magnificent, a warrior's ride. Had been wasted on the isle with Halldr
Thinshank, bought by him merely because he could buy such a creature.
The pride and show of it. Leofson wanted the stallion, and wasn't about to
bargain with Bern, not after all that had happened. Bern hadn't hesitated or
let himself regret it. You couldn't allow yourself to be soft about your
animals, either. You
could get irritated, mind you, and swear at them, and at yourself for not choosing
more carefully. He'd picked a placid bay from the stables for his new mount,
discovering too late its awkward trot and a disinclination to sustain a gallop.
A landowner's horse, good for walking sedately to town and tavern and back. He
wasn't going to need more, he kept telling himself, but he was
accustomed to Gyllir. Was that softness? Remembering a horse you'd had? Maybe
you didn't talk or boast about what you'd done, where you'd been, but surely
you could remember it? What else was your life, except what you recalled? And
perhaps what you wanted next. He
waited, as he had to, for spring to unlock the roads and the challengers to
begin arriving at the gates. He was letting Brand advise him. Leofson had been
taking a protective attitude towards Bern since they'd returned, as if killing
Thorkell (being allowed by Thorkell to kill him) gave him responsibilities to
the son. Bern didn't feel he needed it, but he didn't really mind, and he knew
it wouldn't last long. It was useful, too: Brand would take care of Bern's
money, send it where he needed it, as he needed it. Once
he'd figured out where that was. They
watched the first few men arrive before the walls and issue their challenges
and Brand shook his head. They were farmhands, stableboys, with outsized dreams
and no possible claim to being Jormsvik men. It would be unjust to his fellows
to claim their challenges and ride away and let them in. They drew the
runepieces inside the walls and the challenges were randomly taken. Two of the
boys were killed (one by accident, it appeared to those watching, and Elkin
confirmed that when he came back in), two were disarmed and allowed to go, with
the usual promise that if they returned and tried again they'd be cut apart. The
fifth challenger was big-boned, older than the others. He had a serviceable
sword and a battered helmet with the nose-guard intact. Brand and Bern looked
at each other. Bern signalled to those on duty at the gate that he was taking
this one by choice. It had come. You waited for things, and then they were upon
you. He and Leofson embraced. He did the same with a number of the others, who
knew what was happening. Shipmates, drinking companions. It had only been a
year, but warriors could die any time, and forming bonds here didn't take long,
he'd discovered. Bonds could be cut, though, Bern thought. Sometimes they needed
to be. Thira,
hard little one, only waved to him from behind the counter of her new tavern
when he went to bid her farewell before going out. Her life was the opposite of
his, he thought. You took care not to form any links. Men sailed from
you and died, different men climbed your stairs every night. She'd saved his
life, though. He lingered in the doorway watching her a moment. He was
remembering the fourth stair, the one missing on the way up to her room.
Important, he reminded himself, not to be soft. He
took his new horse from the stable, and the gear he'd carry north, and his
sword and helm (roads were dangerous, always, for a lone man). They opened the
gates for him and he went out to the challenger. He saw relief and wonder in
the man's blue eyes when Bern lifted an open hand in the gesture of yielding.
He motioned to the gates behind him. "Ingavin be mindful of you," he
said to the stranger. "Honour yourself and those you are joining." Then
he rode away along the path he'd taken coming here. He heard a clashing sound
behind him: spears and swords being banged on shields. His companions on the
walls. He looked back and lifted a hand. His father wouldn't have, he thought. No
one troubled him going north. He didn't avoid the villages or inns this time.
He passed the place where he'd ambushed a single traveller himself because he'd
needed a sword for the challenge. Hadn't killed the man, or didn't think he
had. It
wasn't as if he'd lingered to be sure. Eventually,
after what felt like a long, slow journey, he caught his first glimpse of
Rabady in the distance on his left as the road dropped near to the coast.
(Inland, the mountains rose, and then the endless pines beyond, and no roads
ran.) He
came to the fishing village they all knew on Rabady, the one they usually went
to and from. He might even be known here, but he didn't think so. He'd grown
his beard and hair, was bigger now across shoulders and chest. He waited for
twilight to fall and the night to deepen and even begin its wheeling towards
dawn before he offered the prayer all seamen spoke before going upon the water. He
prepared to push the small boat out into the strait. The fisherman, roused from
sleep in his hut, came to help; Bern's payment for borrowing it had been
generous, far more than a day's lost catch. He left the horse with the man to
mind. He wouldn't be cheated here. He'd said he was from Jormsvik, and he
looked it. It
was black on the water as he rowed towards the isle. He looked at the stars and
the sea and the trees ahead of him. Spring. Full circle of a year, and here he
was again. He dipped a hand in the water. Bitterly, killingly cold. He
remembered. He'd thought he was going to die here. He missed Gyllir then,
thinking back. Shook his head. You couldn't be this way in the north. It could
kill you. He
was stronger now, steady and easy at the oars. It wasn't a difficult pull, in
any case. He'd done it as a boy, summers he remembered. He
beached the small craft on the same strand from which he'd left. He didn't
think that was an indulgence, or weak. It felt proper. An acknowledging. He
gave thanks to Ingavin, touching the hammer about his neck. He'd bought it in
autumn, nothing elaborate, much like the one that had burned with his father in
Llywerth. He
moved inland, cautiously. He really didn't want to meet anyone. People here had
known him all his life; there was a better-than-decent chance he'd be
recognized. That was why he'd come at night, most of the way towards dawn, why
he hadn't been sure he would come at all. He was here for three reasons, last
of the balancings before he changed his life. All three could be done in a
night, if the gods were good to him. He
wanted to bid farewell to his mother. She was in the women's compound now,
those who'd brought the chest had told him. A surprise, a good decision for
her, though with his silver she could change that. After,
in the same place, he intended to find the old volur. He wouldn't need
long with her but he'd probably have to leave quickly, after. Though he also
wanted to speak, if possible, perhaps only for a moment, depending how events
unfolded, to a girl with a snakebite scar on her leg. He might not actually be
able to do so. It was unlikely he could linger after killing the volur, and
he wasn't sure he could find a girl he wouldn't recognize. The women kept watch
at night, even in the cold. He remembered that. Remembered
these fields, too. He'd ridden Gyllir the last time, had a long walk now. He
kept close to the woods, screened by them, though it was unlikely any lovers
would be out this early in spring. The ground was cold. You'd need to be wild
with desire to come out here with a girl, and not find a barn or shed with
straw. He
had two farewells to make, he told himself, and someone to kill, then he could
leave with his past squared away, as much as that was ever really possible. He
was going to Erlond, he'd decided, where his people had settled in the Anglcyn
lands. It was far enough away, there was land to be claimed, room to settle and
thrive. He'd had a winter to think about possibilities. This one made the most
sense. He
heard a twig snap. Not his own footfall. He
froze, drew his sword. He had no desire to kill yet, but "The
peace of Fulla be upon you, Bern Thorkellson." When
all you have to remember, through the circle of an eventful year, is a voice
in the dark, and the voice is that of someone saving your life, you remember
it. He
stayed where he was. She came forward from the trees. Carried no torch. He
swallowed. "How
is the snakebite?" he said. "Only
a scar now. My thanks for asking." "She
is . . . still sending you out on cold nights?" "Iord?
No. Iord is dead." His
heart thumped. He still couldn't see her, but the voice was embedded in him. He
hadn't realized until this moment how much so. "How?
What . . . ?" "I
had her killed. For both of us." Matter-of-fact,
no hint of emotion in her voice. One less task for him tonight, it seemed. He
struggled for words. "How did you ... ?" "Do
that? One of the young women in the compound told the new governor how the volur
had used magic to force an innocent young man to steal a horse from someone
she'd always hated." He
was still holding his sword. It seemed silly to be doing that. He sheathed it.
Was thinking hard. He was good at thinking. "And the young
man?" "Went
to Jormsvik after the spell left him. Wanting to win glory, efface his shame.
And did so." He
was fighting an entirely unexpected urge to smile. "And the young
woman?" She
hesitated for the first time. "She became the volur of Rabady
Isle." The
desire to smile seemed to have gone, as suddenly as it had come. He couldn't
quite have put into words why this was so. He cleared his throat. Said, "A
great and glorious destiny for her, then." After
another pause, a stillness in the dark, he heard her say, just a shape, still,
an outline in the night, "It isn't, in truth, the destiny she would
choose, had she . . . another path." Bern
found it necessary to draw a breath before he could speak again. His heart was
pounding, they way it had at Champieres. "Indeed. Would she . . . have any
willingness to leave the isle, make a different life?" The
other voice grew softer, not as assured. Like mine, he thought. "She
might do that. If someone wished her to. It . . . it could also be here. That
different life. Here on the isle." He
shook his head. Tried to make himself breathe normally. He knew a little more
of the world than she did, it appeared. In this matter, at least. "I don't
think so. Once she's been volur it would be too hard to live an . . .
ordinary life here. There's too much power in what she's been. This is too
small a place. Whoever became volur after wouldn't even want her
here." "The
next volur might give permission, a release from power," she said.
"It has happened." He
didn't know about that, had to assume she did. "Why would she do
that?" She
waited a moment. Then said, "Think about it." He
did, and it came to him. He felt a prickling at his neck. That sometimes meant
the half-world, spirits, were nearby. Sometimes it meant something else.
"Oh," said Bern. "I see." She
realized, with a kind of thrill, that he really did. She wasn't used to men
being so quick. She said, still carefully, "Your mother asked me to
welcome you home, to say that she is waiting, at the compound, if you wish to
see her now. And to tell you that the door on the barn needs fixing
again." He
was silent, absorbing all of this. "I know how to do that," Bern
said. "How do you know it is broken?" "We've
been to the farmhouse together," the girl said. "Your father's. It .
. . can be bought again. If you want." He
looked at her. Only a shape. You were not to be soft. It was dangerous in
these lands. But you were allowed, surely, to feel wonder, weren't you? A man
went through the world carrying only his name. Some left that after them when
they died, lingering, like a burning on a hill or by the sea. Most men did not,
could not. There were other ways to live through the days the gods allowed you.
In his mind, he spoke his father's name. "I've
never even seen you," he said to the girl. "I
know. There are lights in the compound," she said. "She's waiting.
Will you come?" They
walked that way, the two of them. It wasn't very far. He saw the marker stone
in the field, a greyness beyond. Dawn, he realized, would be breaking soon,
over Vinmark and the water, upon the isle.
A
greyer, windier dawn would also come, a little later, farther west. He
still liked to keep a window open at night, despite what wisdom held to be the
folly of doing so. Ceinion of Llywerth sometimes thought that if something was
offered too readily as wisdom, it needed to be challenged. That
wasn't why he opened the window, however. There was no deep thinking here. He
was simply too accustomed to the taste of the night air after so many years
moving from place to place. On the other hand, he thought, awake and alone in a
comfortable room in Esferth, the year gone by had made one change in him. He
was entirely happy to be lying on this goose-feather bed and not outside on the
ground in a windy night. Others would deny it, some of them fiercely (with
their own reasons for doing so), but he knew he'd aged between the last spring
and this one. He might be awake, sleep eluding, but he was comfortable in this
bed and guardedly (always guardedly) pleased with the unfolding of events in
Jad's northlands. He
had wintered here, as promised, would be going home to his people, now that
spring was upon them again. He would not travel alone. The Anglcyn king and
queen would be sailing west to Cadyr (showing their new fleet to the world),
bringing their younger daughter to the Cyngael. He
had wanted this—something like this—so much and for so long. Alun ab Owyn, to
whom she would be wed in what could only be named joy, was the heir to his
province, and a hero now in
Arberth, and Ceinion could deal with his own Llywerth, easily. There was so
much that might come of this. The
god had been good to them, beyond any deserving. That was the heart of all
teachings, wasn't it? You aspired to live a good and pious life, but Jad's
mercy could be extended, as wings over you, for reasons no man could
understand. In
the same way, he thought, as the night outside began to turn (a ruffle of wind
entering the room) towards morning and whatever it might bring—in the selfsame
way no man could ever hope to understand why losses came, heart's grief, what
was taken away. Waiting
for sunrise, lying alone as he had these long years, he remembered love and
remembered her dying, and could see, in the eye of his mind, the grave
overlooking the western sea behind his chapel and his home. You lived in the
world, you tasted sorrow and joy, and it was the way of the Cyngael to be aware
of both. Another
breeze, entering the room. Dawn wind. He would be going home soon. He would sit
with her, and look out upon the sea. Morning was coming, the god's return.
Almost time to rise and go to prayer. The bed was very soft. Almost time, but
the darkness not quite lifted, light still to come, he could linger a little
with memory. It was necessary, it was allowed.
End
it with the ending of a night. I
know not, I, What
the men together say, How lovers, lovers die And
youth passes away.
Cannot
understand Love
that mortal bears For native, native land —All
lands are theirs.
Why
at grave they grieve For
one voice and face, And
not, and not receive Another in its place.
I,
above the cone Of
the circling night Flying, never have known More or lesser light.
Sorrow
it is they call This
cup: whence my lip, Woe's me, never in all My
endless days must sip.
-C.
S. LEWIS ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS Laura,
as always: calmly confident from the days when I was first charting the sea
lanes of this journey, and remaining so when I cast off and shoals (and
monsters) appeared that hadn't been on the charts. Charts
can take one only so far in a novel, but in a work of this sort, drawing upon
very specific periods and motifs of the past, it is folly to embark without
them, and I have had the benefit of some exceptional cartographers (if I may be
indulged in a continuing metaphor). There are too many to be named here, but
some must surely be noted. On
the Vikings, I owe much to the elegant and stylish synthesis of Gwyn Jones, and
to the work of Peter Sawyer, R. I. Page, Jenny Jochens, and Thomas A. Dubois. I
have drawn upon many different commentaries on and translations of the Sagas,
but my admiration for the epic renderings of Lee M. Hollander is very great. Histories
of the North are caught up in agendas today (as is so much of the past), and
clear thinking and personal notes became a necessary aid. I am grateful to Paul
Bibire for answers, suggestions, and steering me to sources. Kristen Pederson
provided a score of articles and essays, principally on the role of women in
the Viking world, and offered glosses on many of them. Max Vinner of the Viking
Ship Museum at Roskald kindly answered my questions. For
the Anglo-Saxons, I found Richard Abels invaluable on Alfred the Great. Peter
Hunter Blair, Stephen Pollington (on leechcraft and warcraft), Michael
Swanton's version of the Chronicles, and the splendidly detailed work of
Anne Hagen on Anglo-Saxon food and drink were variously and considerably of
use. So were works written or edited by Richard Fletcher, Ronald Hutton, James
Campbell, Simon Keynes, and Michael Lapidge, and the verse translations of
Michael Alexander. With
respect to the Welsh, and the Celtic spirit more generally, I must mention
Wendy Davies, John Davies, Alwyn and Brinley Rees, Charles Thomas, John T.
Koch, Peter Beresford Ellis (on the role of women), the verse translations and
notes of Joseph P. Clancy, and the classic, unruffled overview of Nora
Chadwick. I am deeply grateful to Jeffrey Huntsman for permission to use his
translation of the epigraph, and for generously sending me alternative variants
and commentary. The poem that concludes the book is from The Pilgrim's
Regress, copyright C.S. Lewis Pte. Ltd., 1933, and is used here with their
kind permission. On a
more personal level, I owe gratitude to Darren Nash, Tim Binding, Laura Anne
Gilman, Jennifer Heddle, and Barbara Berson—a panoply of editors—for enthusiam
en route and when I was done. Catherine Marjoribanks brings more wit and
sensitivity to the role of copy editor than an author has a right to expect. My
brother Rex is still the first and perhaps the most acute of my readers. Linda
McKnight, Anthea Morton-Saner, and Nicole Winstanley remain friends as much as
agents, greatly valued in both regards. For
many years, when asked where my website was, I would paraphrase Cato the Elder,
the Roman statesman. "I would rather people asked," I'd reply,
"where Kay's website is, than why Kay has a website." Cato,
famously, said that about the absence of statues honouring him in Rome. A while
ago the markedly intelligent and insistent Deborah Meghnagi persuaded me that
it was time for a statue online (as it were), and I gave her permission to
devise and launch brightweavings.com. I am deeply grateful for all she's done
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for
George Jonas I
have a tale for you: winter pours The
wind is high, cold; its
course is short The
bracken is very red; The
cry of the barnacle goose Cold
has taken Season of ice;
a
stag bells; summer
has gone. the sun is low; the
sea is strong running. its shape has been hidden. has
become usual. the
wings of birds. this
is my tale. -FROM
THE LIBER HYMNORUM MANUSCRIPT
CHARACTERS (A
PARTIAL LlSTlNG) The Anglcyn Aeldred,
son of Gademar, King of the Anglcyn Elswith, his queen Athelbert Judit his children Kendra Gareth
Osbert,
son of Cuthwulf, Aeldred's chamberlain Burgred, Earl of Denferth The
Erlings Thorkell
Einarson, "Red Thorkell," exiled from Rabady Isle Frigga,
his wife, daughter of Skadi Bern
Thorkellson, his son Siv.
Athira, his daughters
Iord,
seer of Rabady, at the women's compound Anrid, a woman serving at the compound
Halldr
Thinshank, once governor of Rabady Isle, deceased Sturla
Ulfarson "Sturla One-hand," governor of Rabady
Gurd
Thollson Brand
Leofson Carsten Friddson Jormsvik
mercenaries Garr
Hoddson Guthrum Skallson
Thira,
a prostitute in Jormsvik Kjarten
Vidurson, ruling in Hlegest Siggur
Volganson, "the Volgan," deceased Mikkel
Ragnarson his grandsons Ivarr
Ragnarson
Ingemar
Svidrirson, of Erlond, paying tribute to King Aeldred Hakon Ingemarson, his son The
Cyngael Ceinion
of Llywerth, high cleric of the Cyngael, "Cingalus"
Dai
ab Owyn, heir to Prince Owyn of Cadyr Alun ab Owyn, his brother Gryffeth ap Ludh, their cousin
Brynn
ap Hywll, of Brynnfell in Arberth (and other residences), "Erling's
Bane" Enid,
his wife Rhiannon
mer Brynn, his daughter Helda,
Rania, Eirin, Rhiannon's women
Siawn,
leader of Brynn's fighting band Other Firaz
ibn Bakir, merchant of Fezana, in the Khalifate of Al-Rassan ONE A
horse, he came to understand, was missing. Until it was found nothing could
proceed. The island marketplace was crowded on this grey morning in spring.
Large, armed, bearded men were very much present, but they were not here for
trade. Not today. The market would not open, no matter how appealing the goods
on a ship from the south might be. He
had arrived, clearly, at the wrong time. Firaz
ibn Bakir, merchant of Fezana, deliberately embodying in his brightly coloured
silks (not nearly warm enough in the cutting wind) the glorious Khalifate of
Al-Rassan, could not help but see this delay as yet another trial imposed upon
him for transgressions in a less than virtuous life. It
was hard for a merchant to live virtuously. Partners demanded profit, and profit
was difficult to come by if one piously ignored the needs—and opportunities—of
the world of the flesh. The asceticism of a desert zealot was not, ibn Bakir
had long since decided, for him. At
the same time, it would be entirely unfair to suggest that he lived a life of
idleness and comfort. He had just endured (with such composure as Ashar and the
holy stars had granted him) three storms on the very long sea journey north and
then east, afflicted, as always at sea, by a stomach that heaved like the waves,
and with the roundship handled precariously by a continuously drunken captain.
Drinking was a profanation of the laws of Ashar, of course, but in this matter
ibn Bakir was not, lamentably, in a position to take a vigorous moral stand. Vigour
had been quite absent from him on the journey, in any case. It
was said among the Asharites, both in the eastern home-lands of Ammuz and
Soriyya, and in Al-Rassan, that the world of men could be divided into three
groups: those living, those dead, and those at sea. Ibn
Bakir had been awake before dawn this morning, praying to the last stars of the
night in thanks for his finally being numbered once more among those in the
blessed first group. Here
in the remote, pagan north, at this wind-scoured island market of Rabady, he
was anxious to begin trading his leather and cloth and spices and bladed
weapons for furs and amber and salt and heavy barrels of dried cod (to sell in
Ferrieres on the way home)—and to take immediate leave of these barbarian
Erlings, who stank of fish and beer and bear grease, who could kill a man In a
bargaining over prices, and who burned their leaders—savages that they were—on
ships among their belongings when they died. This
last, it was explained to him, was what the horse was all about. Why the
funeral rites of Halldr Thinshank, who had governed Rabady until three nights
ago, were currently suspended, to the visible consternation of an assembled
multitude of warriors and traders. The
offence to their gods of oak and thunder, and to the lingering shade of Halldr
(not a benign man in life, and unlikely to be so as a spirit), was
considerable, ibn Bakir was told. Ill omens of the gravest import were to be
assumed. No one wanted an angry, unhoused ghost lingering in a trading town.
The fur-clad, weapon-bearing men in the windy square were worried, angry, and
drunk, pretty much to a man. The
fellow doing the explaining, a bald-headed, ridiculously big Erling named
Ofnir, was known to ibn Bakir from two previous journeys. He had been useful
before, for a fee: the Erlings were ignorant, tree-worshipping pagans, but they
had firm ideas about what their services were worth. Ofnir
had spent some years in the east among the Emperor's Karchite Guard in
Sarantium. He had returned home with a little money, a curved sword in a
jewelled scabbard, two prominent scars (one on top of his head), and an
affliction contracted in a brothel near the Sarantine waterfront. Also, a
decent grasp of that difficult eastern tongue. In addition—usefully—he'd
mastered sufficient words in ibn Bakir's own Asharite to function as an
interpreter for the handful of southern merchants foolhardy enough to sail
along rocky coastlines fighting a lee shore, and then east into the frigid,
choppy waters of these northern seas to trade with the barbarians. The
Erlings were raiders and pirates, ravaging in their long-ships all through
these lands and waters and—increasinglydown south. But even pirates could be
seduced by the lure of trade, and Firaz ibn Bakir (and his partners) had reaped
profit from that truth. Enough so to have him back now for a third time,
standing in a knife-like wind on a bitter morning, waiting for them to get on
with burning Halldr Thinshank on a boat with his weapons and armour and his
best household goods and wooden images of the gods and one of his slave girls .
. . and a horse. A
pale grey horse, a beauty, Halldr's favourite, and missing. On a very small
island. Ibn
Bakir looked around. A sweeping gaze from the town square could almost
encompass Rabady. The harbour, a stony beach, with a score of Erling ships and
his own large roundship from the south—the first one in, which ought to
have been splendid news. This town, sheltering several hundred souls perhaps,
was deemed an important market in the northlands, a fact that brought private
amusement to the merchant from Fezana, a man who had been received by the
khalif in Cartada, who had walked in the gardens and heard the music of the
fountains there. No
fountains here. Beyond the stockade walls and the ditch surrounding them, a
quilting of stony farmland could be seen, then livestock grazing, then forest.
Beyond the pine woods, he knew, the sea swept round again, with the rocky
mainland of Vinmark across the strait. More farms there, fisher-villages along
the coast, then emptiness: mountains and trees for a very long way, to the
places where the reindeer ran (they said) in herds that could not be numbered,
and the men who lived among them wore antlers themselves to hunt, and practised
magics with blood in the winter nights. Ibn
Bakir had written these stories down during his last long journey home, had
told them to the khalif at an audience in Cartada, presented his writings along
with gifts of fur and amber. He'd been given gifts in return: a necklace, an
ornamental dagger. His name was known in Cartada now. It
occurred to him that it might be useful to observe and chronicle this
funeral—if the accursed rites ever began. He
shivered. It was cold in the blustering wind. An untidy dump of men made their
way towards him, tacking across the square as if they were on a ship together.
One man stumbled and bumped another; the second one swore, pushed back, put a
hand to his axe. A third intervened, and took a punch to the shoulder for his
pains. He ignored it like an insect bite. Another big man. They were all, ibn
Bakir thought sorrowfully, big men. It
came to him, belatedly, that this was not really a good time to be a stranger
on Rabady Isle, with the governor (they used an Erling word, but it meant, as
best ibn Bakir could tell, something very like a governor) dead and his funeral
rites marred by a mysteriously missing animal. Suspicions might fall. As
the group approached, he spread his hands, palms up, and brought them together
in front of him. He bowed formally. someone laughed. Someone stopped directly
in front of him, reached out, unsteadily, and fingered the pale yellow silk of
ibn Bakir's tunics, leaving a smear of grease. Ofnir, his interpreter, said
something in their language and the others laughed again. Ibn Bakir, alert now,
believed he detected an easing of tension. He had no idea what he'd do if he
was wrong. The
considerable profit you could make from trading with barbarians bore a direct
relation to the dangers of the journey—and the risks were not only at sea. He
was the youngest partner, investing less than the others, earning his share by
being the one who travelled . . . by allowing thick, rancid-smelling barbarian
fingers to tug at his clothing while he smiled and bowed and silently counted
the hours and days till the roundship might leave, its hold emptied and
refilled. "They
say," Ofnir spoke slowly, in the loud voice one used with the
simple-minded, "it is now known who take Halldr horse." His breath,
very close to ibn Bakir, smelled of herring and beer. His
tidings, however, were entirely sweet. It meant they didn't think the trader
from Al-Rassan, the stranger, had anything to do with it. Ibn Bakir had been
dubious about his ability, with two dozen words in their tongue and Ofnir's
tenuous skills, to make the obvious point that he'd just arrived the afternoon
before and had no earthly (or other) reason to impede local rites by stealing a
horse. These were not men currently in a condition to assess cogency of
argument. "Who
did it?" Ibn Bakir was only mildly curious. "Servant
to Halldr. Sold to him. Father make wrong killing. Sent away. Son have no right
family now." Lack
of family appeared to be an explanation for theft here, ibn Bakir thought
wryly. That seemed to be what Ofnir was conveying. He knew someone back home
who would find this diverting over a glass of good wine. "So
he took the horse? Where? Into the woods?" Ibn Bakir gestured at the pines
beyond the fields. Ofnir
shrugged. He pointed out into the square. Ibn Bakir saw that men were now
mounting horses there—not always smoothly—and riding towards the open town gate
and the plank bridge across the ditch. Others ran or walked beside them. He
heard shouts. Anger, yes, but also something else: zest, liveliness. The
promise of sport. "He
will soon found," Ofnir said, in what passed here in the northlands for
Asharite. Ibn
Bakir nodded. He watched two men gallop past. One screamed suddenly as he
passed and swung his axe in vicious, whistling circles over his head, for no
evident reason. "What
will they do to him?" he asked, not caring very much. Ofnir snorted. Spoke
quickly in Erling to the others, evidently repeating the question. There
was a burst of laughter. One of them, in an effusion of good humour, punched
ibn Bakir on the shoulder. The
merchant, regaining his balance, rubbing at his numbed arm, realized that he'd
asked a naive question. Blood-eagle
death, maybe," said Ofnir, flashing yellow teeth in a wide grin, making a
complex two-handed gesture the southern merchant was abruptly pleased not to understand.
"You see? her you see?" Firaz
ibn Bakir, a long way from home, shook his head.
+
He
could blame his father, and curse him, even go to the women at the compound
outside the walls and pay to have them evoke seithr. The volur might
then send a night-spirit to possess his father, wherever he was. But there was
something cowardly about that, and a warrior could not be a coward and still go
to the gods when he died. Besides which, he had no money. Riding
in darkness before the first moon rose, Bern Thorkellson thought bitterly about
the bonds of family. He could smell his own fear and laid a hand forward on the
horse's neck to gentle it. It was too black to go quickly on this rough ground
near the woods, and he could not—for obvious reasons—carry a torch. He
was entirely sober, which was useful. A man could die sober as well as drunken,
he supposed, but had a better chance of avoiding some kinds of death. Of course
it could also be said that no truly sober man would have done what he was doing
now unless claimed by a spirit himself, ghost-ridden, god-tormented. Bern
didn't think he was crazed, but he'd have acknowledged freely that what he was
doing—without having planned it at all—was not the wisest thing he'd ever done. He
concentrated on riding. There was no good reason for anyone to be abroad in
these fields at night—farmers would be asleep behind doors, the shepherds would
have their herds farther west—but there was always the chance of someone hoping
to find a cup of ale at some hut, or meeting a girl, or looking for some-thing
to steal. He
was stealing a dead man's horse, himself. A
warrior's vengeance would have had him kill Halldr Thinshank long ago and face
the blood feud after, beside whatever distant kin, if any, might come to his
aid. Instead, Halldr had died when the main crossbeam of the new house he was
having built (with money that didn't belong to him) fell on his back, breaking
it. And Bern had stolen the grey horse that was to be burned with the governor
tomorrow. It
would delay the rites, he knew, disquiet the ghost of the man who had exiled
Bern's father and taken his mother as a second wife. The man who had also, not
incidentally, ordered Bern himself bound for three years as a servant to Arni
Kjellson, recompense for his father's crime. A
young man named to servitude, with an exiled father, and so without any
supporting family or name, could not readily proclaim himself a warrior among
the Erlings unless he went so far from home that his history was unknown. His
father had probably done that, raiding overseas again. Red-bearded,
fierce-tempered, experienced. A perfect oarsman for some longship, if he didn't
kill a benchmate in a fury, Bern thought sourly. He knew his father's capacity
for rage. Arni Kjellson's brother Nikar was dead of it. Halldr
might fairly have exiled the murderer and given away half his land to stop a
feud, but marrying the exile's wife and claiming land for himself smacked too
much of reaping in pleasure what he'd sowed as a judge. Bern Thorkellson, an
only son with two sisters married and off the island, had found himself
changed—in a blur of time—from the heir of a celebrated raider-turned-farmer to
a landless servant without kin to protect him. Could any man wonder if there
was bitterness in him, and more than that? He'd loathed Rabady's governor with
cold passion. A hatred shared by more than a few, if words whispered in ale
were to be believed. Of
course no one else had ever done anything about Halldr. Bern was the one
now riding Thinshank's favourite stallion amid stones and boulders in cold
darkness on the night before the governor's pyre was to be lit on a ship by the
rocky beach. Not
the wisest action of his life, agreed. For
one thing, he hadn't anything even vaguely resembling a plan. He'd been lying
awake, listening to the snoring and snorting of the other two servants in the
shed behind Kjellson's house. Not unusual, that wakefulness: bitterness could
suck a man from sleep. But somehow he'd found himself on his feet this time,
dressing, pulling on boots and the bearskin vest he'd been able to keep so far,
though he'd had to fight for it. He'd gone outside, pissed against the shed
wall, and then walked through the silent blackness of the town to Halldr's
house (Frigga, his mother, lying somewhere inside, alone now, without a husband
for the second time in a year). He'd
slipped around the side, eased open the door to the stable, listened to the boy
there, snuffling in the dreams of a straw-covered sleep, and then led the big
grey horse called Gyllir quietly out under the watching stars. The
stableboy never stirred. No one appeared in the lane. Only the named shapes of
heroes and beasts in the gods' sky overhead. He'd been alone in Rabady with the
night-spirits. It had felt like a dream. The
town gate was locked when danger threatened but not otherwise. Rabady was an
island. Bern and the grey horse had walked right through the square by the
harbour, past the shuttered booths, down the middle of the empty street,
through the open gates, across the bridge over the ditch into the night fields. As
simple as that, as life-altering. Life-ending
was probably the better way to describe it, he decided, given that this was
not, in fact, a dream. He had no access to a boat that could carry the horse,
and come sunrise a goodly number of extremely angry men—appalled at his impiety
and their own exposure to an unhoused ghost—would begin looking for the horse.
When they found the son of exiled Thorkell also missing, the only challenging
decision would be how to kill him. This
did raise a possibility, given that he was sober and capable of thought. He could
change his mind and go back. Leave the horse out here to be found. A minor,
disturbing incident. They might blame it on ghosts or wood spirits. Bern could
be back in his shed, asleep behind Arni Kjellson's village house, before anyone
was the wiser. Could even join the morning search for the horse, if fat
Kjellson let him off wood-splitting to go. They'd
find the grey, bring it back, strangle and burn it on the drifting longship with
Halldr Thinshank and whichever girl had won her spirit a place among warriors
and gods by drawing the straw that freed her from the slow misery of her life. Bern
guided the horse across a stream. The grey was big, restive, but knew him.
Kjellson had been properly grateful to the governor when half of Red Thorkell's
farm and house were settled on him, and he had assigned his servants to labour
for Thinshank at regular times. Bern was one of those servants now, by the same
judgement that had given his family's lands to Kjellson. He had groomed the
grey stallion often, walked him, cleaned out his straw. A magnificent horse, better than Halldr had ever deserved. There
was nowhere to run this horse properly on Rabady; he was purely for display, an
affirmation of wealth. Another reason, probably, why the thought of taking it
away had come to him tonight in the dangerous space between dream and the
waking world. He
rode on in the chill night. Winter was over, but it still had Its hard fingers
in the earth. Their lives were defined by it here in the north. Bern was cold,
even with the vest. At
least he knew where he was going now; that much seemed to have come to him. The
land his father had bought with looted gold (mostly from the celebrated raid in
Ferrieres twenty-five years ago) was on the other side of the village, south
and west. He was aiming for the northern fringes of the trees. He
saw the shape of the marker boulder and guided the horse past it. They'd killed
and buried a girl there to bless the fields, so long ago the inscription on the
marker had faded away. It hadn't done much good. The land near the forest was
too stony to be properly tilled. Ploughs broke up behind oxen or horses, metal
rending, snapping off. Hard, ungiving soil. Sometimes the harvests
were adequate, but most of the food that fed Rabady came from the mainland. The
boulder cast a shadow. He looked up, saw the blue moon had risen from beyond the woods. Spirits'
moon. It occurred to him, rather too late, that the ghost of Halldr Thinshank
could not be unaware of what was happening to his horse. Halldr's lingering
soul would be set free only with the ship-burial and burning tomorrow. Tonight
it could be abroad in the dark—which was where Bern was. He
made the hammer sign, invoking both Ingavin and Thьnir. He shivered again. A
stubborn man he was. Too clever for his own good? His father's son in that?
He'd deny it, at a blade's end. This had nothing to do with Thorkell. He was
pursuing his own feud with Halldr and the town, not his father's. You exiled a
murderer (twice a murderer) if need be. You didn't condemn his freeborn son to
years of servitude and a landless fate for the father's crime—and expect him to
forgive. A man without land had nothing, could not marry, speak in the thringmoot,
claim honour or pride. His life and name were marred, broken as a plough by
stones. He
ought to have killed Halldr. Or Arni Kjellson. Or someone. He wondered,
sometimes, where his own rage lay. He didn't seem to have that fury, like a
berserkir in battle. Or like his father in drink. His
father had killed people, raiding with Siggur Volganson, and here at home. Bern
hadn't done anything so . . . direct. Instead, he'd stolen a horse secretly in
the dark and was now heading, for want of anything close to a better idea, to
see if woman's magic—the volur's—could offer him aid in the depths of a night.
Not a brilliant plan, but the only one that had come to him. The women would
probably scream, raise an alarm, turn him in. That
did make him think of something. A small measure of prudence. He turned east
towards the risen moon and the edge of the wood, dismounted, and led the horse
a short way in. He looped the rope to a tree trunk. He was not about to walk up
to the women's compound leading an obviously stolen horse. This called for some
trickery. It
was hard to be devious when you had no idea what you were doing. He
despised the bleak infliction of this life upon him. Was unable, it seemed, to
even consider two more years of servitude, with no assurance of a return to any
proper status afterwards. So, no, he wasn't going back, leaving the stallion to
be found, slipping into his straw in the freezing shed behind Kjellson's house.
That was over. The sagas told of moments when the hero's fate changed, when he
came to the axle-tree. He wasn't a hero, but he wasn't going back. Not by
choice. He
was likely to die tonight or tomorrow. No rites for him when that happened.
There would be an excited quarrel over how to kill a defiling horse thief, how
slowly, and who most deserved the pleasure of it. They would be drunk and
happy. Bern thought of the blood-eagle then; pushed the image from his mind. Even
the heroes died. Usually young. The brave went to Ingavin's halls. He wasn't
sure if he was brave. It
was dense and black in the trees. He felt the pine needles underfoot. Wood
smells: moss, pine, scent of a fox. Bern listened; heard nothing but his own
breathing, and the horse's. Gyllir seemed calm enough. He left him there,
turned north again, still in the woods, towards where he thought the volur's
compound was. He'd seen it a few times, a clearing carved out a little way
into the forest. If someone had magic, Bern thought, they could deal with
wolves. Or even make use of them. It was said that the women who lived here had
tamed some of the beasts, could speak their language. Bern didn't believe that.
He made the hammer sign again, however, with the thought. He'd
have missed the branching path in the blackness if it hadn't been for the
distant spill of lantern light. It was late for that, the bottom of a night,
but he had no idea what laws or rules women such as these would observe.
Perhaps the seer—the volur—stayed awake all night, sleeping by day like
the owls. The sense of being in a dream returned. He wasn't going to go back,
and he didn't want to die. Those
two things together could bring you out alone in night approaching a seer's
cabin through black trees. The lights—there were two of them—grew brighter as
he came nearer. He could see the path, and then the clearing, and the
structures beyond a fence: one large cabin, smaller ones flanking it,
evergreens in a circle around, as if held at bay. An
owl cried behind him. A moment later Bern realized that it wasn't an owl. No
going back now, even if his feet would carry him. He'd been seen, or heard. The
compound gate was closed and locked. He climbed over the fence. Saw a brewhouse
and a locked storeroom with a heavy door. Walked past them into the glow cast
by the lamplight in the windows of the largest cabin. The other buildings were
dark. He stopped and cleared his throat. It was very quiet. "Ingavin's
peace upon all dwelling here." He
hadn't said a word since rising from his bed. His voice sounded jarring and
abrupt. No response from within, no one to be seen. "I
come without weapons, seeking guidance." The
lanterns flickered as before in the windows on either side of the cabin door.
He saw smoke rising from the chimney. There was a small garden on the far side
of the building, mostly bare this early in the year, with the snow just gone. He
heard a noise behind him, wheeled. "It
is deep in the bowl of night," said the woman, who unlocked and closed the
outer gate behind her, entering the yard. She was hooded; in the darkness it
was impossible to see her face. Her voice was low. "Our visitors come by
daylight . . . bearing gifts." Bern
looked down at his empty hands. Of course. Seithr had a price.
Everything in the world did, it seemed. He shrugged, tried to appear
indifferent. After a moment, he took off his vest. Held it out. The woman stood
motionless, then came forward and took it, wordlessly. He saw that she limped,
favouring her right leg. When she came near, he realized that she was young, no
older than he was. She
walked to the door of the cabin, knocked. It opened, just a little. Bern
couldn't see who stood within. The young woman entered; the door closed. He was
alone again, in a clearing under stars and the one moon. It was colder now
without the vest. His
older sister had made it for him. Siv was in Vinmark, on he mainland, married,
two children, maybe another by now .. . they'd had no reply after sending word
of Thorkell's exile a year ago. He hoped her husband was kind, had not changed
with the news of her father's banishment. He might have: shame could come from
a wife's kin, bad blood for his own sons, a check to his ambitions. That could
alter a man. There
would be more shame when tidings of his own deeds crossed the water. Both his
sisters might pay for what he'd done tonight. He hadn't thought about that. He
hadn't thought very much at all. He'd only gotten up from bed and taken a horse
before the ghost moon rose, as in a dream. The
cabin door opened. The
woman with the limp came out, standing in the spill of light. She motioned to
him and so he walked forward. He felt afraid, didn't want to show it. He came
up to her and saw her make a slight gesture and realized she hadn't seen him
clearly before, in the darkness. She still had her hood up, hiding her face; he
registered yellow hair, quick eyes. She opened her mouth as if to say something
but didn't speak. Just motioned for him to enter. Bern went within and she
pulled the door shut behind him, from outside. He didn't know where she was
going. He didn't know what she'd been doing
outside, so late. He
really didn't know much at all. Why else come to ask of women's magic what a
man ought to do for himself? Taking
a deep breath he looked around by firelight, and the lamps at both windows, and
over against the far wall on a long table. It was warmer than he'd expected. He
saw his vest lying on a second table in the middle of the room, among a clutter
of objects: conjuring bones, a stone dagger, a small hammer, a carving of
Thьnir, a tree branch, twigs, soapstone pots of various sizes. There were herbs
strewn everywhere, lying on the table, others in pots and bags on the other
long surface against the wall. There was a chair on top of that table at the
back, and two blocks of wood in front of it, for steps. He had no idea what
that meant. He saw a skull on the nearer table. Kept his face impassive. "Why
take a dead man's horse, Bern Thorkellson?" Bern
jumped, no chance of concealing it. His heart hammered. The voice came from the
most shadowed corner of the room, near the back, to his right. Smoke drifted
from a candle, recently extinguished. A bed there, a woman sitting upon it.
They said she drank blood, the volur, that her spirit could leave her
body and converse with spirits. That her curse killed. That she was past a
hundred years old and knew where the Volgan's sword was. "How
. . . how do you know what I . . . ?" he stammered. Foolish question. She
even knew his name. She
laughed at him. A cold laughter. He could have been in his straw right now,
Bern thought, a little desperately. Sleeping. Not here. "What
power could I claim, Bern Thorkellson, if I didn't know that much of someone
come in the night?" He
swallowed. She
said, "You hated him so much? Thinshank?" Bern
nodded. What point denying? "I
had cause," he said. "Indeed,"
said the seer. "Many had cause. He married your mother, did he not?" "That
isn't why," Bern said. She
laughed again. "No? Do you hate your father also?" He swallowed
again. He felt himself beginning to sweat. "A clever man, Thorkell
Einarson." Bern
snorted bitterly, couldn't help it. "Oh, very. Exiled himself, ruined his
family, lost his land." "A
temper when he drank. But a shrewd man, as I recall. Is his son?" He
still couldn't see her clearly, a shadow on a bed. Had she been asleep? They
said she didn't sleep. "You
will be killed for this," she said. Her voice held a dry amusement more
than anything else. "They will fear an angry ghost." "I
know that," said Bern. "It is why I have come. I need .. .
counsel." He paused. "Is it clever to know that much, at least?" "Take
the horse back," she said, blunt as a hammer. He
shook his head. "I wouldn't need magic to do that. I need counsel for how
to live. And not go back." He
saw her shift on the bed then. She stood up. Came forward. The light fell upon
her, finally. She wasn't a hundred years old. She
was very tall, thin and bony, his mother's age, perhaps more. Her hair was long
and plaited and fell on either side of her head like a maiden's, but grey. Her
eyes were a bright, icy blue, her face lined, long, no beauty in it, a hard
authority. Cruelty. A raider's face, had she been a man. She wore a heavy robe,
dyed the colour of old blood. An expensive colour. He looked at her and was
afraid. Her fingers were very long. "You
think a bearskin vest, badly made, buys you access to seithr?" she
said. Her name was Iord, he suddenly remembered. Forgot who had told him that,
long ago. In daylight. Bern
cleared his throat. "It isn't badly made," he protested. She didn't
bother responding, stood waiting. He
said, "I have no other gifts to give. I am a servant to Arni Kjellson
now." He looked at her, standing as straight as he could. "You said .
. . many had reason to hate Halldr. Was he . . . generous to you and the women
here?" A
guess, a gamble, a throw of dice on a tavern table among beakers of ale. He
hadn't known he would say that. Had no idea whence the question had come. She
laughed again. A different tone this time. Then she was silent, looking at him
with those hard eyes. Bern waited, his heart still pounding. She
came abruptly forward, moved past him to the table in the middle of the room,
long-striding for a woman. He caught a scent about her as she went: pine resin,
something else, an animal smell. She picked up some of the herbs, threw them in
a bowl, took that and crossed to the back table for something beside the raised
chair, put that in the bowl, too. He couldn't see what. With the hammer she
began pounding and grinding, her back to him. Still
working, her movements decisive, she said suddenly, "You had no thought of
what you might do, son of Thorkell, son of Frigga? You just stole a horse. On
an island. Is that it?" Stung,
Bern said, "Shouldn't your magic tell you my thoughts—or lack of
them?" She
laughed again. Glanced at him briefly then, over her shoulder. The eyes were
bright. "If I could read a mind and future just from a man entering my
room, I'd not be by the woods on Rabady Isle in a cabin with a leaking roof.
I'd be at Kjarten Vidurson's hall in Hlegest, or in Ferrieres, or even with the
Emperor in Sarantium." "Jaddites?
They'd burn you for pagan magic." She
was still amused, still crushing herbs in the stone bowl. "Not if I told
their future truly," she said. "Sun god or no, kings want to know
what will be. Even Aeldred would welcome me, could I look at any man and know
all of him." "Aeldred?
No he wouldn't." She
glanced back at him again. "You are wrong. His hunger is for knowledge, as
much as for anything. Your father may even know that by now, if he's gone
raiding among the Anglcyn." "Has
he? Gone raiding there?" He asked before he could stop himself. He
heard her laughing; she didn't even look back at him this time. She
came again to the near table and took a flask of some-thing. Poured a thick,
pasty liquid into the bowl, stirred it, then poured it all back into the flask.
Bern felt afraid still, watching her. This was magic. He was entangling himself
with it. Witchery. Seithr. Dark as the night was, as the way of women in
the dark. His
own choice, though. He had come for this. And it seemed she was doing
something. There
was a movement, from over by the fire. He looked quickly. Took an involuntary
step backwards, an oath escaping him. Something slithered across the floor and
beneath the far table. It disappeared behind a chest against that wall. The
seer followed his gaze, smiled. "Ah. You see my new friend? They brought
me a serpent today, the ship from the south. They said his poison was gone. I
had him bite one of the girls, to be sure. I need a serpent. They change worlds
when they change skin, did you know that?" He
hadn't known that. Of course he hadn't known that. He kept his gaze on the
wooden chest. Nothing moved, but it was there, coiled, behind. He felt much too
warm now, smelled his own sweat. He
finally looked back at her. Her eyes were waiting, held his. "Drink,"
she said. No
one had made him come here. He took the flask from her hand. She had rings on
three fingers. He drank. The herbs were thick in the drink, hard to swallow. "Half
only," she said quickly. He stopped. She took the flask and drained it
herself. Put it down on the table. Said something in a low voice he couldn't
hear. Turned back to him. "Undress,"
she said. He stared at her. "A vest will not buy your future or the spirit
world's guidance, but a young man always has another offering to give." He
didn't understand at first, and then he did. A
glitter in her coldness. She had to be older than his mother, lined and seamed,
her breasts sunken on her chest beneath the dark red robe. Bern closed his
eyes. "I
must have your seed, Bern Thorkellson, if you wish seithr's power. You
require more than a seer's vision, and before daybreak, or they will find you
and cut you apart before they allow you to die." Her gaze was pitiless.
"You know it to be so." He
knew it. His mouth was dry. He looked at her. "You
hated him too?" "Undress,"
she said again. He
pulled his tunic over his head. It
ought to have been a dream, all of this. It wasn't. He removed his boots,
leaning against the table. She watched, her eyes never leaving him, very
bright, very blue. His hand on the table touched the skull. It wasn't human, he
saw, belatedly. A wolf, most likely. He wasn't reassured. She
wasn't here to reassure. He was inside another world, or in the doorway to it:
women's world, gateway to women's knowing. Shadows and blood. A serpent in the
room. On the ship from the south . . . they had traded during the banned time,
before the funeral rites. He didn't think, somehow, they would be troubled by
that here. They said his poison was gone. He felt whatever he had just
drunk in his veins now. "Go
on," said the seer. A woman ought not to watch like this, Bern thought,
tasting his fear again. He hesitated, then took off his trousers, was naked
before her. He squared his shoulders. He saw her smile, the thin mouth. He felt
light-headed. What had she given him to drink? She gestured; his feet carried
him across the room to her bed. "Lie
down," she said, watching him. "On your back." He
did what she told him. He had left the world where things were as they . . .
ought to be. He had left it when he took the dead man's horse. She walked about
the room and pinched shut or blew out the candles and lamps, so only the
firelight glowed, red on the farthest wall. In the near-dark it was easier. She
came back, stood over against her bed where he lay—an outline against the fire,
looking down upon him. She reached out, slowly—he saw her hand moving—and
touched his manhood. Bern
closed his eyes again. He'd thought her touch would be cold, like age, like
death, but it wasn't. She moved her fingers, down and back up, and then slowly
down again. He felt himself, even amid fear and a kind of horror, becoming
aroused. A roaring in his blood. The drink? This wasn't like a romp with Elli
or Anrida in the stubbled fields after harvesting, in the straw of their barn
by moonlight. This
wasn't like anything. "Good,"
whispered the volur, and repeated it, her hand moving. "It needs
your seed to be done, you see. You have a gift for me." Her
voice had changed again, deepened. She withdrew her hand. Bern trembled, kept
his eyes tightly closed, heard a rustling as she shed her own robe. He wondered
suddenly where the serpent was; pushed that thought away. The bed shifted, he
felt her hands on his shoulders, a knee by one hip, and then the other, smelled
her scent—and then she mounted him from above without hesitation and sheathed
him within her, hard. Bern
gasped, heard a sound torn from her. And with that, he understood—without
warning or expectation—that he had a power here, after all. Even in this place
of magic. She needed what was his to give. And it was that awareness, a kind of
surging, that took him over, more than any other shape desire might wear, as
the woman—the witch, volur, wise woman, seer, whatever she would be
named—began rocking upon him, breathing harder. Crying a name then (not his),
her hips moving as in a spasm. He made himself open his eyes, saw her head
thrown back, her mouth wide open, her own eyes closed now upon need as she rode
him wildly like a night horse of her own dark dreaming and claimed for herself—now,
with his own harsh, torn spasm—the seed she said she needed to work magic in
the night.
"Get
dressed." She
swung off his body and up from the bed. No lingering, no aftermath. The voice
brittle and cold again. She put on her robe and went to the near wall of the cabin,
rapped three times on it, hard. She looked back at him, her glance bleak as
before, as if the woman upon him moments ago, with her closed eyes and
shuddering breath, had never existed in the world. "Unless you'd prefer
the others see you like this when they come in?" Bern
moved. As he hurried into clothing and boots, she crossed to the fire, took a
taper, and began lighting the lamps again. Before they were all lit, before he
had his overshirt on, the outside door opened and four women came in, moving
quickly. He had a sense they'd been trying to catch him before he was dressed.
Which meant they had .. . He
took a breath. He didn't know what it meant. He was lost here, in this cabin,
in the night. One
of the women carried a dark blue cloak, he saw. She took this to the volur and
draped it about her, fastening it at one shoulder with a silver torque. Three
of the others, none of them young, took over dealing with the lamps. The last
one began preparing another mixture at the table, using a different bowl. No
one said a word. Bern didn't see the young girl who'd spoken to him outside. After
their entrance and quick glances at him, none of the women even seemed to
acknowledge his presence here. A man, meaningless. He hadn't been, just before,
though, had he? A part of him wanted to say that. Bern slipped his head and
arms into his shirt and stood near the rumpled bed. He felt oddly awake now,
alert—something in the drink she'd given him? The
one making the new mixture poured it into a beaker and carried it to the seer,
who drained it at once, making a face. She went over to the blocks of wood
before the back table. A woman on each side helped her step up and then seat
herself on the elevated chair. There were lights burning now, all through the
room. The volur nodded. The
four women began to chant in a tongue Bern didn't know. One of the lamps by the
bed suddenly went out. Bern felt the hairs on the back of his neck stand up.
This was seithr, magic, not just foretelling. The seer closed her eyes
and gripped the arms of her heavy chair, as if afraid she might be carried off.
One of the other women, still chanting, moved with a taper past Bern and relit
the extinguished lamp. Returning, she paused by him for a moment. She squeezed
his buttocks with one hand, saying nothing, not even looking at him. Then she
rejoined the others in front of the elevated chair. Her gesture, casual and
controlling, was exactly like a warrior's with a serving girl passing his bench
in a tavern. Bern's
face reddened. He clenched his fists. But just then the seer spoke from her
seat above them, her eyes still closed, hands clutching the chair arms, her
voice high—greatly altered—but saying words he could understand.
They'd
given him back his vest which was a blessing. The night felt even colder after
the warmth inside. He walked slowly, eyes not yet adjusted to blackness, moving
away from the compound lights through the trees on either side. He was
concentrating: on finding his way, and on remembering exactly what the volur
had told him. The instructions had been precise. Magic involved precision,
it seemed. A narrow path to walk, ruin on either side, a single misstep away.
He still felt the effects of the drink, a sharpening of perception. A part of
him was aware that what he was doing now could be seen as mad, but it didn't
feel that way. He felt . . . protected. He
heard the horse before he saw it. Wolves might eat the moons, heralding the end
of days and the death of gods, but they hadn't found Halldr's grey horse yet.
Bern spoke softly, that the animal might know his voice as he approached. He
rubbed Gyllir's mane, untied the rope from the tree, led him back out into the
field. The blue moon was high now, waning, the night past its deepest point,
turning towards dawn. He would have to move quickly. What
did she tell you to do?" Bern
wheeled. Sharpened perceptions or not, he hadn't heard anyone approach. If he'd
had a sword he'd have drawn it, but he didn't even have a dagger. It was a
woman's voice, though, and he recognized it. "What
are you doing here?" "Saving
your life," she said. "Perhaps. It may not be possible." She
limped forward from the trees. He hadn't heard her approach because she'd been
waiting for him, he realized. "What do you mean?" "Answer
my question. What did she tell you to do?" Bern
hesitated. Gyllir snorted, swung his head, restive now. "Do
this, tell me that, stand here, go there," Bern said. "Why do all
of you enjoy giving orders so much?" "I
can leave," the young woman said mildly. Though she was still hooded, he saw
her shrug. "And I certainly haven't ordered you to undress and get into
bed for me." Bern
went crimson. He was desperately glad of the darkness, suddenly. She waited. It
was true, he thought, she could walk away and he'd be . . . exactly where he'd
been a moment ago. He had no idea what she was doing here, but that ignorance
was of a piece with everything else tonight. He could almost have found it
amusing, if it hadn't been so thickly trammelled in . . . woman things. "She
made a spell," he said, finally, "up on that chair, in the blue
cloak. For magic." "I
know about the chair and cloak," the girl said impatiently. "Where is
she sending you?" "Back
to town. She's made me invisible to them. I can ride right down the street and
no one will see me." He heard the note of triumph enter his voice. Well,
why not? It was astonishing. "I'm to go onto the southerners'
ship—there's a ramp out, by law, it is open for inspection—and go straight down
into the hold." "With
a horse?" He
nodded. "They have animals. There's a ramp down, too." "And
then?" "Stay
there till they leave, and get off at their next port of call. Ferrieres,
probably." He
could see she was staring straight at him. "Invisible? With a horse? On a
ship?" He
nodded again. She
began to laugh. Bern felt himself flushing again. "You find this amusing?
Your own volur's power? Women's magic?" She
was trying to collect herself, a hand to her mouth. "Tell me," she
asked, finally, "if you can't be seen, how am I looking at you?" Bern's
heart knocked hard against his ribs. He rubbed a hand across his forehead.
Found that he couldn't speak for a moment. "You,
ah, are one of them. Part of, ah, the seithr?" She
took a step towards him. He saw her shake her head within the hooded robe. She
wasn't laughing now. "Bern Thorkellson, I see you because you aren't under
any spell. You will be taken as soon as you enter the town. Captured like a
child. She lied to you." He
took a deep breath. Looked up at the sky. Ghost moon, early spring stars. His
hands were trembling, holding the horse's reins. "Why
would ... she said she hated Halldr as much as I did!" "That's
true. He was no friend to us. Thinshank's dead, though. She can use the
goodwill of whoever becomes governor now. Her capturing you—and they will be
told before midday that she put you under a spell and forced you to ride back
to them—is a way to achieve that, isn't it?" He
didn't feel guarded any more. "We
need food and labour out here," she went on calmly. "We need the fear
and assistance of the town, both. All volurs require this, wherever they
are. You become her way of starting again after the long quarrel with Halldr.
Your coming here tonight was a gift to her." He
thought of the woman above him in the bed, lit only by the fire. "In
more ways than one," the girl added, as if reading his thoughts. "She
has no power, no seithr?" "I
didn't say that. Although I don't think she does." "There's no magic?
Nothing to make a man invisible?" She
laughed again. "If one spearman can't hit a target when he throws, do you
decide that spears are useless?" It was too dark to make out any
expression on her face. He realized something. "You
hate her," he said. "That's why you are here. Because .. . because
she had the snake bite you!" He
could see she was surprised, hesitating for the first time. "I don't love
her, no," she agreed. "But I wouldn't be here because of that." "Why
then?" Bern asked, a little desperately. Again
a pause. He wished, now, that there were light. He still hadn't seen her face. She
said, "We are kin, Bern Thorkellson. I'm here because of that." "What?"
He was stunned. "Your
sister married my brother, on the mainland." "Siv married . . .
?" "No,
Athira wedded my brother Gevin." He
felt abruptly angry, couldn't have said why. "That doesn't make us kin,
woman." Even
in darkness he could see that he had wounded her. The
horse moved again, whickered, impatient with standing. The woman said, "I
am a long way from home. Your family is
the closest I have on this island, I suppose. Forgive me for presuming." His
family was landless, his father exiled. He was a servant, compelled to sleep in
a barn on straw for two more years. "What
presumption?" Bern said roughly. "That isn't what I meant." He
wasn't sure what he'd meant. There
was a silence. He was thinking hard. "You were sent to the volur? They
reported you had a gift?" The
hood moved up and down. "Curious, how often unwed youngest daughters have
a gift, isn't it?" "Why
did I never hear of you?" "We
are meant to be unattached, to be the more dependent. That's why they bring
girls from distant villages and farms. All the seers do that. I've spoken to
your mother, though." "You
have? What? Why . . . ?" The
shrug again. "Frigga's a woman. Athira gave me a message for her." "You
all have your tricks, don't you?" He felt bitter, suddenly. "Swords
and axes are so much better, aren't they?" she said sharply. She was
staring at him again, though he knew the darkness hid his face, too.
"We're all trying to make ourselves a life, Bern Thorkellson. Men and
women both. Why else are you out here now?" Bitterness
still. "Because my father is a fool who killed a man." "And his
son is what?" "A
fool about to die before the next moon rises. A good way to . . . make a life,
isn't it? Useful kin for you to have." She
said nothing, looked away. He heard the horse again. Felt the wind, a change in
it, as though the night had indeed turned, moving now towards dawn. "The
snake," he said awkwardly. "Is it . . . ?" "I'm
not poisoned. It hurts." "You
... walked out here a long way." "There's
one of us out all night on watch. We take turns, the younger ones. People come
in the dark. That's how I saw you on the horse and told her." "No,
I meant . . . just now. To warn me." "Oh."
She paused. "You believe me, then?" For
the first time, a note of doubt, wistfulness. She was betraying the volur for
him. He
grinned crookedly. "You are looking right at me, as you said. I can't be
that hard to see. Even a piss-drunk raider falling off his horse will spot me
when the sun comes up. Yes, I believe you." She
let out a breath. "What
will they do to you?" he asked. It had just occurred to him. "If
they find out I was here? I don't want to think about it." She paused.
"Thank you for asking." He
felt suddenly shamed. Cleared his throat. "If I don't ride back into the
village, will they know you . . . warned me?" Her
laughter again, unexpected, bright and quick. "They could possibly decide
you were clever, by yourself." He
laughed too. Couldn't help it. Was aware that it could be seen as a madness
sent by the gods, laughter at the edge of dying one hideous death or another.
Not like the mindlessness of the water-disease--a man bitten by a sick fox—but
the madness where one has lost hold of the way things are. Laughter here,
another kind of strangeness in this dark by the wood among the spirits of the
dead, with the blue moon overhead, pursued by a wolf in the sky. The
world would end when that wolf caught the two moons. He had more immediate
problems, actually. "What
will you do?" she asked. The third time she'd seemed to track his
thoughts. Perhaps it was more than being a youngest daughter, this matter of
having a gift. He wished, again, he could see her clearly. But,
as it happened, he did know, finally, the answer to her question. Once,
years ago, his father had been in a genial mood one evening as they'd walked
out together to repair a loose door on their barn. Thorkell wasn't always
drunk, or even often so (being honest with his own memories). That summer
evening he was sober and easy, and the measure of that mood was that, after
finishing the work, the two of them went walking, towards the northern boundary
of their land, and Thorkell spoke of his raiding days to his only son,
something that rarely happened. Thorkell
Einarson had not been a man given to boasting, or to offering scraps of advice
from the table of his recollections. This made him unusual among the Erlings,
or those that Bern knew, at any rate. It wasn't always easy having an unusual
father, though a boy could take some dark pride in seeing Thorkell feared by
others as much as he was. They whispered about him, pointed him out, carefully,
to merchants visiting the isle. Bern, a watchful child, had seen it happen. Other
men had told the boy tales; he knew something of what his father had done.
Companion and friend to Siggur Volganson himself right to the end. Voyages in
storm, raids in the dark. Escaping the Cyngael after Siggur died and his sword
was lost. A journey alone across the Cyngael lands, then the width of the
Anglcyn kingdom to the eastern coast, and finally home across the sea to
Vinmark and this isle. "I
recollect a night like this, a long time ago," his father said, leaning
back against the boulder that marked the boundary of their land. "We went
too far from the boats and they cut us off—Cuthbert's'household guard, his best
men—between a wood and a stream." Cuthbert
had been king of the Anglcyn in the years when Thorkell was raiding with the
Volgan. Bern knew that much. He
remembered loving moments such as that one had been, the two of them together,
the sun setting, the air mild, his father mild, and talking to him. "Siggur
said something to us that night. He said there are times when all you can do to
survive is one single thing, however unlikely it may be, and so you act as if
it can be done. The only chance we had was that the enemy was too sure
of victory, and had not posted outliers against a night breakout." Thorkell
looked at his son. "You understand that everyone posts outlying
guards? It is the most basic thing an army does. It is mad not to. They had to
have them, there was no chance they didn't." Bern
nodded. "So
we spoke our prayers to Ingavin and broke out," Thorkell said,
matter-of-factly. "Maybe sixty men—two boats' worth of us—against two
hundred, at the least. A blind rush in the dark, some of us on stolen horses,
some running, no order to it, only speed. The whole thing being to get to their
camp, and through it—take some horses on the run if we could—cut back towards
the ships two days away." Thorkell
paused then, looking out over summer farmlands, towards the woods. "They
didn't have outliers. They were waiting for morning to smash us, were mostly
asleep, a few still singing and drinking. We killed thirty or forty of them,
got horses for some of our unmounted, took two thegns hostage, by blind
luck—couldn't tell who they were in the dark. And we sold them back to Cuthbert
the next day for our freedom to get to the boats and sail away." He'd
actually grinned, Bern remembered, behind the red beard. His father had rarely
smiled. "The
Anglcyn in the west rebelled against King Cuthbert after that, which is when
Athelbert became king, then Gademar, and Aeldred. Raiding got harder, and then
Siggur died in Llywerth. That's when I decided to become a landowner. Spend my
days fixing broken doors." He'd
had to escape first, alone and on foot, across the breadth of two different
countries. You
act as if it can be done. "I'm
crossing to the mainland," Bern said quietly to the girl in that darkness
by the wood. She
stood very still. "Steal a boat?" He
shook his head. "Couldn't take the horse on any boat I could manage
alone." "You
won't leave the horse?" "I
won't leave the horse." "Then?" "Swim,"
said Bern. "Clearly." He smiled, but she couldn't see it, he knew. She
was silent a moment. "You can swim?" He
shook his head. "Not that far." Heroes
came to thresholds, to moments that marked them, and they died young, too. Icy
water, end of winter, the stony shore of Vinmark a world away across the
strait, just visible by daylight qui f the mist didn't settle, but not now. What
was a hero, if he never had a chance to do anything? If he died at the first
threshold? "I
think the horse can carry me," he said. "I will . . . act as if it
can." He felt his mood changing, a strangeness overtaking him even as he spoke.
"Promise me no monsters in the sea?" "I
wish I could," said the girl. "Well,
that's honest," he said. He laughed again. She didn't, this time. "It
will be very cold." "Of
course it will." He hesitated. "Can you . . . see anything?" She
knew what he meant. "No." "Am
I underwater?" He tried to make it a joke. Shook
her head. "I can't tell. I'm sorry. I'm . . . more a youngest daughter
than a seer." Another
silence. It struck him that it would be appropriate to begin feeling afraid.
The sea at night, straight out into the black . . . "Shall
I . . . any word for your mother?" It
hadn't occurred to him. Nothing had, really. He thought about it now.
"Better you never saw me. That I was clever by myself. And died of it, in
the sea." You
may not." She
didn't sound as if she believed that. She would have been rowed across from
Vinmark, coming here. She knew the strait, the currents and the cold, even if
there were no monsters. Bern
shrugged. "That will be as Ingavin and Thьnir decide. Make some magic, if
you have any. Pray for me, if you haven't. Perhaps we'll meet again. I thank
you for coming out. You saved me from . . . one bad kind of death, at
least." It
was past the bottom of the night, and he had a distance to go to the beach
nearest the mainland. He said nothing more, and neither did she, though he
could see that she was still staring at him in the dark. He mounted up on the
horse he wouldn't leave for Halldr Thinshank's funeral rites, and rode away. Some
time before reaching the strand south-east of the forest, he realized he didn't
know her name, or have any clear idea what she looked like. Unlikely to matter;
if they met again it would probably be in the afterworld of souls. He
came around the looming dark of the pine woods to a stony place by the water:
rocky and wild, exposed, no boats here, no fishermen in the night. The pounding
of the sea, heavy sound of it, salt in his face, no shelter from the wind. The
blue moon west, behind him now, the white one not rising tonight until dawn. It
would be dark on the ocean water. Ingavin alone knew what creatures might be
waiting to pull him down. He wouldn't leave the horse. He wouldn't go back. You
did whatever was left, and acted as if it could be done. Bern cursed his father
aloud, then, for murdering another man, doing that to all of them, his sisters
and his mother and himself, and then he urged the grey horse into the surf,
which was white where it hit the stones, and black beyond, under the stars. TWO "Our
trouble," muttered Dai, looking down through green-gold leaves at the
farmyard, "is that we make good poems and bad siege weapons." A
siege, in fact, wasn't even remotely at issue. The comment was so
inconsequential, and so typical of Dai, that Alun laughed aloud. Not the wisest
thing to do, given where they were. Dai slapped a hand to his brother's mouth.
After a moment, Alun signalled he was under control and Dai moved his hand
away, grunting. "Anyone
in particular you'd like to besiege?" Alun asked, quietly enough. He
shifted his elbows carefully. The bushes didn't move. "One
poet I can think of," Dai said, unwisely. He was prone to jests, his
younger brother prone to laughing at them; they were moth prone under leaves,
gazing at penned cattle below. They'd come north to steal cattle. The Cyngael
did that to each other, frequently. Dai
moved a hand quickly, but Alun kept still this time. They couldn't afford to be
seen. There were just twelve of them—eleven, with Gryffeth now captured—and
they were a long way north into Arberth. No more than two or three days from
the sea, Dai reckoned, though he wasn't sure exactly where they were, or what
this very large farmhouse below them was. Twelve
had been a marginal number for a raiding party, but the brothers were confident
in their abilities, not without some cause. Besides, in Cadyr it was said that
any one of their own was worth two of the Arberthi, and at least three from
Llywerth. They might do the arithmetic differently in the other two provinces,
but that was just vanity and bluster. Or it
should have been. It was alarming that Gryffeth had been taken so easily,
scouting ahead. The good news was that he'd prudently carried Alun's harp with
him, to be taken for a bard on the road. The bad news was that
Gryffeth—notoriously—couldn't sing or play to save his life. If they tested him
down below, he was unmasked. And saving his life became an issue. So
the brothers had left nine men out of sight off the road and climbed this
overlook to devise a rescue plan. If they went home without cattle it was bad
but not humiliating. Not every raid succeeded; you could still do a few things
to make a story worth telling. But if their royal father or uncle had to pay a
ransom for a cousin taken on an unauthorized cattle raid into Arberth during a
herald's truce, well, that was . . . going to be quite bad. And
if Owyn of Cadyr's nephew died in Arberth it could mean war. "How
many, do you think?" Dai murmured. "Twenty,
give or take a few? It's a big farmhouse. Who lives here? Where are we?"
Alun was still watching the cows, Dai saw. "Forget the cattle," Dai
snapped. "Everything's changed." "Maybe not. We let them out of
the pen tonight, four of us scatter them north up the valley, the rest go in
after Gryffeth while they're rounding them up?" Dai
looked thoughtfully at his younger brother. "That's unexpectedly
clever," he said, finally. Alun
punched him on the shoulder, fairly hard. "Hump a goat," he added
mildly. "This was your idea, I'm getting us out of it. Don't be
superior. Which room's he in?" Dai
had been trying to sort that out. The farmhouse—whoever owned it was
wealthy—was long and sprawling, running east to west. He saw the outline of a
large hall beyond the double doors below them, wings bending back north at each
end of that main building. A house that had expanded in stages, some parts
stone, others wood. They hadn't seen Gryffeth taken in, had only come upon the
signs of struggle on the path. Two
cowherds were watching the cattle from the far side of the fenced enclosure
east of the house. Boys, their hands moving ceaselessly to wave at flies. None
of the armed men had emerged since a cluster of them had gone in through the
main doors, talking angrily, just as the brothers had arrived here in the
thicket above the farm. Once or twice they'd heard raised, distant voices within,
and a girl had come out for well water. Otherwise it was quiet and hot, a
sleepy afternoon, late spring, butterflies, the drone of bees, a hawk circling.
Dai watched it for a moment. What
neither brother said, though both of them knew it, was that it was extremely
unlikely they could get a man out of a guarded room, even at night and with a
diversion, without men dying on both sides. During a truce. This raid had gone
wrong before it had even begun. "Are
we even certain he's in there?" Dai said. "I
am," said Alun. "Nowhere else likely. Could he be a guest? Um, could
they have ... ?" Dai
looked at him. Gryffeth couldn't play the harp he carried, was wearing a sword
and leather armour, had a helmet in his saddle gear, looked exactly the sort of
young man—with a Cadyri accent, too—who'd be up to mischief, which he was. The
younger brother nodded, without Dai saying anything. It was too miserably
obvious. Alun swore briefly, then murmured, "All right, he's a prisoner.
We'll need to move fast, know exactly where we're going. Come on, Dai, figure
it out. In Jad's name, where have they got him?" "In
Jad's holy name, Brynn ap Hywll tends to use the room at the eastern end of the
main building for prisoners, when he has them here. If I remember
rightly." They
whipped around. Dai's knife was already out, Alun saw. The
world was a complex place sometimes, saturated with the unexpected. Especially
when you left home and the trappings of the known. Even so, there were
reasonable explanations for why someone might be up here now, right behind
them. One of their own men might have followed with news; one of the guards
from below could have intuited the presence of other Cadyri besides the
captured one and come looking; they might even have been observed on their way up. What
was implausible in the extreme was what they actually saw. The man who'd
answered Alun's question was smallish, grey-haired, cheeks and chin
smooth-shaven, smiling at the two of them. He was alone, hands out and open,
weaponless ... and he was wearing a faded, telltale yellow robe with a golden
disk of Jad about his neck. "I
might not actually be remembering rightly," he went on affably. "It
has been some time since I've been here, and memory slips as you get older, you
know." Dai
blinked, and shook his head as if to clear it after a blow. They'd been
completely surprised by an aging cleric. Alun
cleared his throat. One particular thing had registered, powerfully. "Did
you, er, say . . . Brynn ap Hywll?" Dai
was still speechless. The
cleric nodded benignly. "Ah. You know of him, do you?" Alun swore
again. He was fighting a rising panic. The
cleric made a reproving face, then chuckled. "You do know
him." Of
course they did. "We don't know you," Dai said, finally recovering
the capacity for speech. He'd lowered the knife. "How did you get up
here?" "Same
way you did, I imagine." "We
didn't hear you." "Evidently.
I do apologize. I was quiet. I've learned how to be. Not quite sure what I'd
find, you know." The
long yellow robes of a cleric were ill suited to silent climbing, and this man
was not young. Whoever he was, he was no ordinary religious. "Brynn!"
Alun muttered grimly to his brother. The name—and what it meant—reverberated
inside him. His heart was pounding. "I
heard." "What
evil, Jad-cursed luck!" "Yes,
well," said Dai. He was concentrating on the stranger for the moment.
"I did ask who you were. I'd count it a great courtesy if you favoured us
with your name." The
cleric smiled, pleased. "Good manners," he said, "were always a
mark of your father's family, whatever their other sins might have been. How is
Owyn? And your lady mother? Both well, I dare hope? It has been many
years." Dai
blinked again. You are a prince of Cadyr, he reminded himself. Your
royal father's heir. Born to lead men, to control situ.:ions. It became a
necessary reminder, suddenly. "You
have entirely the advantage of us," said his brother, "in all ways I
can imagine." Alun's mouth quirked. He found too many things amusing, Dai
thought. A younger brother's trait. Less responsibility. "All
ways? Well, one of you does have a knife," said the cleric, but he was
smiling as he said it. He lowered his hands. "I'm Ceinion of Llywerth,
servant of Jad." Alun
dropped to his knees. Dai's
jaw seemed to be hanging open. He snapped it shut, felt himself going red as a
boy caught idling by his tutor. He sheathed the knife hurriedly and sank down
beside his brother, head lowered, hands together in submission. He felt
overwhelmed. A saturation of the unexpected. The unprepossessing yellow-robed man
on this wooded slope was the high cleric of the three fractious provinces of
the Cyngael. He
calmly made the sign of Jad's disk in blessing over both of them. "Come
down with me," he said, "the way we came. Unless you have an
objection, you are now my personal escorts. We're stopping here at Brynnfell on
our way north to Amren's court at Beda." He paused. "Or did you
really want to try attacking Brynn's own house? I shouldn't advise it, you
know." I
shouldn't advise it. Alun didn't
know whether to laugh or curse again. Brynn ap Hywll was only the subject of
twenty-five years' worth of songs and stories. Erling's Bane they'd named him,
here in the west. He'd spent his youth battling the raiders from overseas with
his cousin Amren, now ruling in Arberth, of whom there were stories too. With
them in those days had been Dai and Alun's own father and uncle—and this man,
Ceinion of Llywerth. The generation that had beaten back Siggur Volganson—the
Volgan-and his longships. And Brynn was the one who'd killed him. Alun
drew a steadying breath. Their father, who liked to hold forth with a flask at
his elbow, had told tales of all of these men. Had fought with—and then
sometimes against—them. He and Dai and their friends were, Alun thought, as
they walked down and out of the wood behind the anointed high cleric of the
Cyngael, in waters far over their heads. Brynnfell. This was Brynnfell below
them. They
had been about to attack it. With eleven men. "This
is his stronghold?" he heard Dai asking. "I thought—" "Edrys
was? His castle? It is, of course, north-east by Rheden and the Wall. And there
are other farms. This is the largest one. He's here now, as it happens." "What?
Here? Himself? Brynn?" Alun
worked to breathe normally. Dai sounded stunned. His brother, who was always so
composed. This, too, could almost be funny, Alun thought. Almost. Ceinion
of Llywerth was nodding his head, still leading the way downwards. "He's
here to receive me, actually. Good of him, I must say. I sent word that I would
be passing through." He glanced back. "How many men do you have? I
saw you two climbing, but not the others." The
cleric's tone was precise, suddenly. Dai answered him. "And how many were
taken?" "Just
the one," Dai said. Alun kept quiet. Younger brother. "His name is
Gryffeth? That's Ludh's son?" Dai
nodded. He'd
simply overheard them, Alun told himself. This wasn't Jad's gift of sight, or
anything frightening. "Very
well," said the cleric crisply, turning to them as they came out of the
trees and onto the path. "I'd account it a waste to have good men killed
today. I will do penance for a deception in the name of Jad's peace. Hear me.
You and your fellows joined me by arrangement at a ford of the Llyfarch River
three days ago. You are escorting me north as a courtesy, and so that you might
visit Amren's court at Beda and offer prayers with him in his new-built
sanctuary during this time of truce. Do you understand all that?" They
nodded, two heads bobbing up and down. "Tell
me, is your cousin Gryffeth ap Ludh a clever man?" "No," said
Dai, truthfully. The
cleric made a face. "What will he have told them?" "I have no
idea," Dai said. "Nothing,"
Alun said. "He isn't quick, but he can keep silent." The
cleric shook his head. "But why would he keep silent when all he had to
say was that he was riding in advance to tell them I had arrived?" Dai
thought a moment, then he grinned. "If the Arberthi took him harshly,
he'll have been quiet just to embarrass them when you do show up, my
lord." The
cleric thought it through, then smiled back. "Owyn's sons would be
clever," he murmured. He seemed pleased. "One of you will explain
this to Ludh's boy when we are inside. Where are your other men?" "South
of here, hidden off the road," Dai said. "And yours, my lord?" "Have
none," said the high cleric of the Cyngael. "Or I didn't until now.
You are my men, remember." "You
rode alone from Llywerth?" "Walked.
But yes, alone. Some things to think about, and there's a truce in the land,
after all." "With
outlaws in half the forests." "Outlaws
who know a cleric has nothing worth the taking. I've said the dawn prayers with
many of them." He started walking. Dai
blinked again, and followed. Alun
wasn't sure how he felt. Curiously elated, in part. For one thing, this was the
figure of whom so many stories were told, some of them by his father and uncle,
though he knew there had been a falling-out, and a little part of why. For
another, the high cleric had just saved them from trying a mad attack on
another legend in his own house. A man
of Cadyr might be worth two Arberthi, but that did not—harp-boasting and
ale-born songs aside—apply to the warband of Brynn ap Hywll. These
were the men who had been fighting the Erlings before Dai and Alun were born,
when the Cyngael lived in terror of slavery and savage death three seasons of
every year, taking flight into the hills at the least rumour of the
dragon-prows. It was clear now why Gryffeth had been captured so easily. They'd
have had no chance trying to attack this farm tonight. They'd have been
humiliated, or dead. A truth to run back and forth through the mind like the
shuttling of a loom. Alun
ab Owyn was very young that day, a prince of Cadyr, and it was greenest
springtime in the provinces of the Cyngael, in the world. He'd no wish to die.
Something occurred to him. "My
cousin was only carrying the harp for me, by the way. If anyone asks, my
lord." The
cleric glanced back over his shoulder. "Gryffeth
can't sing," Dai explained. "Not that Alun's much good." A
joke, Alun thought. Good. Dai was feeling himself again, or starting to. "There
will be a feast, I expect," Ceinion of Llywerth said. "We'll find out
soon enough." "I'm
actually better with siege weapons," Alun said, not helpfully. He was
rewarded by hearing his older brother laugh, and quickly smother it.
"Your
royal father I knew very well. Fought against him, and beside him. A
disgraceful youth, if I may be blunt, and a brave man." "It
would be too much to hope that we might one day receive such a judgement from
you, my lord, but to that we will aspire." Dai bowed after he spoke. They
were in the great hall of Brynnfell, beyond the central doors. A long corridor
behind them ran east and west towards the wings. It was a very large house.
Gryffeth had already been released—from a room at the end of the eastern
corridor, as the cleric had guessed. Alun had had a whispered word with him,
and reclaimed his harp. Dai
straightened and smiled. "You will permit me to add, my lord, that
disgrace among the Arberthi is sometimes honour in Cadyr. We have not always
been favoured with the truce that brings us here, as you know." Alun
smiled inwardly, kept his expression sincere. Dai had had a lifetime shaping
this sort of speech, he thought. Words mattered among the Cyngael, nuance and
subtlety. So did cattle-raiding, mind you, but the day's game had changed. The
scarred older warrior—a head taller than the two brothers—beamed happily down
on them. Brynn ap Hywll was big in every way—hands, face, shoulders, girth.
Even his greying moustache was thick and full. He was red and fleshy and
balding. He wore no weapon in his own home, had rings on several thick fingers
and a massive golden torc around his throat. Erling work: the hammer of the
thunder god replaced by a suspended sun disk. Something he'd captured or been
offered as ransom, Alun guessed. If
Ceinion of Llywerth felt displeasure at seeing something made to hold pagan
symbols of Ingavin, he didn't show it. The high cleric was not at all what Alun
had expected him to be, though he couldn't have said what he had expected.
Certainly not the man who had been kissed so enthusiastically by the Lady Enid,
as her husband smiled approval. Alun
had a recollection that the cleric's own wife had died long ago, but he was
murky about the details. You couldn't remember everything a tutor dictated, or
a tale-spinning father by the fireside. "Well
spoken, young prince," Brynn boomed, bringing Alun back to the present.
Their host looked genuinely pleased with Dai's answer. He'd a voice for the
battlefield, Brynn, one that would carry. Their
arrival at Brynnfell had gone easily, after all. Alun had a sense that things
tended to go that way when Ceinion of Llywerth was involved. If there had been
something odd about the cleric arriving with a Cadyri escort when he usually
walked alone to his destinations, and was widely known not to have spoken to
Prince Owyn for a decade and more . . . well, sometimes odd things happened,
and this was the high cleric. Brynn
was prepared to play along, it seemed, whatever he might privately think. Alun
saw the big man's gaze slide to where Ceinion stood, smooth face benign and
attentive, slender hands folded in the sleeves of his robe. "Indeed, it
would seem you have set your feet on the path of virtue already, serving as
escorts to our beloved cleric, avoiding the scandalous conduct of your sire in
his own youth." Dai
kept a level expression. "His lordship the high cleric is persuasive in
his holiness. We are honoured and grateful to be with him." "I've
no doubt," said Brynn ap Hywll, just a little too dryly. Dai
was afraid Alun would laugh, but he didn't. Dai was fighting to control
exhilaration himself . . . this was the dance, the thrust and twist of words,
of meanings half-shown and then hidden, that underlay all the great songs and
deeds of courts. The
Erlings might choose to loot and burn their way to some glorious afterlife of .
. . more looting and burning, but the Cyngael saw the glory of the world Jad's
holy gift of it—as embodied in more than just swords and raiding. Though
that, perhaps, might explain why they were so often raided and looted—from
Vinmark overseas, and under pressure from the Anglcyn now, across the Rheden
Wall. He'd said it himself today: poems over siege engines. Words above
weapons, too often. He
wasn't dwelling upon that now. He was exulting in the presence of two of the
very great men of the west, as a springtime raid conjured out of boredom and
their father's absence, hunting without them (Owyn was meeting a mistress), had
turned into something quite otherwise. Young
Dai ab Owyn was, in other words, in that elevated state of mind and spirit
where what occurred that evening could almost have been anticipated. He was
alert, receptive, highly attuned . . . vulnerable. At such times, one can be
hammered hard by a variety of things, and the effect can last forever—though it
should be said that this did happen more often in tales, bard-spun in
meadhalls, than on an impulsive cattle raid gone strange. Just
before the meal began Alun had taken the musician's stool at the Lady Enid's
request. Brynn's wife was tall, dark-haired, dark-eyed, younger than her
husband. A handsome woman with no shyness among the men in the hall. None of
the women here seemed shy, come to think of it. He
was tuning his harp (his favourite crwth, made for him), trying not to
be distracted. They were playing the triad game in the hall, drinking the cup
of welcome after the invocation by Brynn's own cleric, before the food was
brought. Ceinion had predicted a feast and had been proven right. They were
drinking wine, not ale. Brynn ap Hywll was a wealthy man. Some
of the company were still standing, others had taken their seats; it was a
relaxed gathering, this was a farmhouse not a castle, large and handsome as it
might be. The room smelled of new rushes, freshly strewn herbs and flowers—and
hunting dogs. There were at least ten wolfhounds, grey, black, brindled.
Brynn's warband, those with him here, were not men to put great weight on
ceremony, it seemed. "Cold
as . . . ?" called out a woman near the head of the table. Alun hadn't
sorted the names yet. She was a family cousin, he guessed. Round-faced, light
brown hair. "Cold
as a winter lake," answered a man leaning against the wall halfway down
the room. Cold
was an easy start. They all knew
the jokes: women's hearts, or the space between the legs of some of them. Those
phrases wouldn't be offered now, before the drinking had properly begun, and
with the ladies present. "Cold
as a loveless hearth," said another. Worn phrases, too often heard. One
more to complete the triad. Alun kept silent, listening to his strings as he
tuned. There was always one song before the meal; he was being honoured with
it, wasn't sure what he wanted to sing. "Cold
as a world without Jad," said Gryffeth suddenly, which wasn't brilliant
but wasn't bad either, with the high cleric at the head table. It got him a
murmur of approval and a smile from Ceinion. Alun saw his brother, next to the
cleric, wink at their cousin. Mark one for Cadyr. "Sorrowful
as . . . ?" said another of the ladies, an older one. Trust
the Cyngael, Alun thought wryly, to conjure with sorrow at a spring banquet's
beginning. We are a strange, wonderful people, he thought. "Sorrowful
as a swan alone." A thin, satisfied-looking man sitting close to the high
table. The ap Hywll bard, his own crwth beside him. An important figure.
Accredited harpists always were. There was a rustle of approbation. Alun smiled
at the man, received no response. Bards could be prickly, jealous of privilege,
dangerous to offend. More than one prince had been humiliated by satires
written against him. And Alun had been asked to take the stool first tonight. A
guest indeed, but not a formally trained or licensed bard. Best to be cautious,
he thought. He wished he knew a song about siege engines. Dai would have
laughed. "Sorrowful
as a sword unused," said Brynn himself, leaning back in his chair, the big
voice. Predictable pounding of tables as the lord of the manor spoke. "Sorrowful,"
said Alun, surprising himself, since he'd just decided to be discreet, "as
a singer without a song." A
small silence as they considered it, then Brynn ap Hywll banged a meaty hand
down on the board in front of him, and the Lady Enid clapped her palms in
pleasure and then—of course—so did everyone else. Dai winked again quickly, and
then contrived to look indifferent, leaning back as well, fingering his wine
cup, as if they were always offering such original phrasings in the triad game
back home. Alun felt like laughing: in truth, the phrase had come to him
because he had no song yet and would be called upon in a moment. "Needful
as . . . ?" suggested the Lady Enid, looking along the table. A new
phrase this time. Alun looked at Brynn's wife. More than handsome, he corrected
himself: there was beauty there still, glittering with the jewellery of rank
upon her arms and about her throat. More people were seated now. Servants stood
by, awaiting a signal to bring the food. "Needful
as warmed wine in winter," someone Alun couldn't see offered from down the
room. Approval for that, a nicely phrased offering. Winter memory in midsummer,
the phrase near to poetry. Their hostess turned to Dai, politely, beyond her
husband and the cleric, to let the other Cadyri prince have a turn. "Needful
as night's end," Dai said gravely, without a pause, which was very good,
actually. An image of darkness, the fear of it, a dream of dawn, when the god
returned from his journey under the world. As
the real applause for this faded, as they waited for someone to throw the third
leg of the triad, a young woman entered the room. She
moved quietly, clad in green, belted in gold, with gold in the brooch at her
shoulder and on her fingers, to the empty place beside Enid at the high
table—which would have told Alun who this was, if the look and manner of her
hadn't immediately done so. He stared, knew he was doing so, didn't stop. As
she seated herself, aware—very obviously aware—that all eyes were upon her,
including those of an indulgent father, she looked down the table, taking in
the company, and Alun was made intensely conscious of dark eyes (like her
mother's), very black hair under the soft green cap, and skin whiter than . . .
any easy phrase that came to mind. And
then he heard her murmur, voice rich, husky for one so young, unsettling:
"Needful as night, I think many women would rather say." And
because this was Rhiannon mer Brynn, through that crowded hall men felt that
they knew exactly what she was saying, and wished that the words had been for
their ears alone, whispered close at candle-time, not in company at table. And
they thought that they could kill or do great deeds that it might be made so. Alun
could see his brother's face as this green-gold woman-girl turned to Dai, whose
phrase she had just echoed and challenged. And because he knew his brother better
than he knew anyone on the god's earth, Alun saw the world change for Dai in
that crossing of glances. A moment with a name to it, as the bards said. He
had an instant to feel sorrow, the awareness of something ending as something
else began, and then they asked him for a song, that the night might begin with
music, which was the way of the Cyngael. +
Brynnfell
was a spacious property, well run by a competent steward, showing the touch of
a mistress with taste, access to artisans, and a good deal of money. Still, it
was only a farm, and there were a dozen young men from Cadyr now staying with
them, over and above the thirty warriors and four women who'd accompanied ap
Hywll and his wife and oldest daughter here. Space
was at a premium. The
Lady Enid had worked with efficiency informed by experience, meeting with the
steward before the meal to arrange for the disposition of bodies at night. The
hall would hold fighting men on pallets and rushes; it had done so before. The
main barn was pressed into use, along with two outbuildings and the bake-house.
The brewhouse remained locked. Best not to put such temptation in men's way.
And there was another reason. The
two Cadyri princes and their cousin shared a room in the main house with a good
bed for the three of them—honour demanded the host offer as much to royal
guests. The
steward surrendered his own chamber to the high cleric. He himself would join
the cook and kitchen hands in the kitchen for the night. He was grimly prepared
to be as stoic as an eastern zealot on his crag, if not as serenely alone. The
cook was notorious for the magnificence of his snoring, and had once been found
walking about the kitchen, waving a blade and talking to himself, entirely
asleep. He'd ended up chopping vegetables in the middle of the night without
ever waking, as his helpers and a number of gathered household members watched
in rapt silence, peering through the darkness. The
steward had already determined to place all the knives out of reach before
closing his eyes. In
the pleasant chamber thus yielded to him, Ceinion of Llywerth finished the last
words of the day's office, offering at the end his customary silent prayer for
the sheltering in light of those he had lost, some of them long ago, and also
his gratitude, intensely felt, to holy Jad for all blessings given. The god had
purposes not to be clearly seen. What had happened today—the lives he had
likely saved, arriving when he did—was deserving of the humblest
acknowledgement. He
rose, showing no signs of a strenuous day, or his years, and formally blessed
the man kneeling beside him in prayer. He reclaimed his wine cup, subsiding
happily onto the stool nearest the window. It was generally believed that the
night air was noxious, carrying poisons and unholy spirits, but Ceinion had
spent too many years sleeping out of doors, on walks across the three provinces
and beyond. He found that he slept better by an open window, even in winter. It
was springtime now, the air fragrant, night flowers under his window. "I
feel badly for the man who yielded me his bed." His
companion shifted his considerable bulk up from the floor and grasped his own
cup, refilling it to the brim, without water. He took the other, sturdier
chair, keeping the flask close by. "And well you should," Brynn ap
Hywll said, smiling through his moustache. "Brynnfell's bursting. Since
when do you travel with an escort?" Ceinion
eyed him a moment, then sighed. "Since I found a Cadyri raiding party
looking at your farm." Brynn
laughed aloud. His laugh, like his voice, could overflow a room. "Well,
thank you for deciding I'd sort out that much." He drank thirstily,
refilled his cup again. "They seem good lads, mind you. Jad knows, I did
my share of raiding when young." "And
their father." "Jad
curse his eyes and hands," Brynn said, though without force. "My
royal cousin in Beda wants to know what to do about Owyn, you
know." "I
know. I'll tell him when I get to Beda. With Owyn's two sons beside me."
The cleric's turn to grin this time. He
leaned back against the cool stone wall beside the window. Earthly pleasures:
an old friend, food and wine, a day with some good unexpectedly done. There
were learned men who taught withdrawal from the traps and tangles of the world.
There was even a doctrinal movement afoot in Rhodias to deny marriage to
clerics now, following the eastern, Sarantine rule, making them ascetics,
detached from distractions of the flesh—and the complexities of having heirs to
provide for. Ceinion
of Llywerth had always thought—and had written the High Patriarch in Rhodias,
and others—that this was wrong thinking and even heresy, an outright denial of
Jad's full gift of life. Better to turn your love of the world into an
honouring of the god, and if a wife died, or children, your own knowledge of
sorrow might make you better able to counsel others, and comfort them. You
lived with loss as they did. And shared their pleasures, too. His
words, written and spoken, mattered to others, by Jad's holy grace. He was
skilled at this sort of argument but didn't know if he would be on the winning
side of this one. The three provinces of the Cyngael were a long way from
Rhodias, at the edge of the world, the misty borders of pagan belief. North of
the north wind, the phrase went. He
sipped his wine, looking at his friend. Brynn's expression was sly at the
moment, amusingly so. "Happen to see the way Dai ab Owyn looked at my
Rhiannon, did you?" Ceinion
took care that his own manner did not change. He had, in fact, seen it—and
something else. "She's a remarkable young woman," he murmured. "Her
mother's daughter. Same spirit to her. I'm an entirely beaten man, I tell
you." Brynn was smiling as he said this. "We solve a problem that
way? Owyn's heir handled by my girl?" Ceinion
kept his look noncommittal. "Certainly a useful match." "The
lad's already lost his head, I'd wager." He chuckled. "Not the first
to do so, with Rhiannon." "And
your daughter?" Ceinion asked, perhaps unwisely. Some
fathers would have been startled, or offered an oath—what mattered the girl's
wishes in these things? But Brynn ap Hywll didn't do that. Ceinion watched, and
by the lamplight saw the big man, his old friend, grow thoughtful. Too much so.
The cleric offered an inward, mildly blasphemous curse, and immediately
sought—also silently—the god's forgiveness for that. "Interesting
song the younger one sang before the meal, wasn't it?" There
it was. A shrewd man, Ceinion thought ruefully. Much more than a warrior with a
two-handed sword. "It
was," he said, still keeping his own counsel. This was all too soon. He
temporized. "Your bard was out of countenance." "Amund? It was
too good, you mean? The song?" "Not
that. Though it was impressive. No, Alun ab Owyn breached the laws for such
things. Only licensed bards are allowed to improvise in company. Your harper
will need appeasing." "Spiky man, Amund. Not easily softened, if you
are right." "I am right. Call it a word offered the wise." Brynn
looked at him. "And your other question? About Rhiannon? What sort of word
was that?" Ceinion
sighed. It had been a mistake. "I wish you weren't clever,
sometimes." "Have
to be. T o keep up in this family. She liked the ... song, you think?" "I
think everyone liked the song." He left it at that. Both men were still
awhile. "Well,"
Brynn said finally, "she's of age, but there's no great rush. Though Amren
wants to know what to do about Owyn and Cadyr, and this . . ." "Owyn
ap Glynn isn't the problem. Neither's Amren, or Ielan in Llywerth. Except if
they cling to these feuds that will end us." He'd spoken with more fire than
he'd intended. The
other man stretched out his legs and leaned back, unruffled. Brynn drank, wiped
his moustache with a sleeve, and grinned. "Still riding that horse?" "And
I will all my life." Ceinion didn't smile this time. He hesitated, then
shrugged. Wanted to change the subject, in any case. "I'll tell you
something before I tell it to Amren in Beda. But keep it close. Aeldred's
invited me to Esferth, to join his court." Brynn
sat up abruptly, scraping the chair along the floor. He swore, without apologizing,
then banged his cup down, spilling wine. "How dare he? Our high
cleric he wants to steal now?" "I
said he'd invited me. Not an abduction, Brynn." "Even
so, doesn't he have his own Jad-cursed holy men among the Anglcyn? Rot the
man!" "He
has a great many, and seeks more . . . not cursed, I hope." Ceinion left a
pointed little pause. "From here, from Ferrieres. Even from Rhodias. He is
. . . a different sort of king, my friend. I think he feels his lands are on
the way to being safe now, which means new ambitions, ways of thinking. He's
arranging to marry a daughter north, to Rheden." He looked steadily at the
other man. Brynn
sighed. "I'd heard that." "And
if so, there goes that rivalry on the other side of the Wall, which
we've relied upon. Our danger is if we remain . . . the old sort of
princes." There
were three oil lamps burning in the room, one set in the wall, two brought in
for a guest: extravagance and respect. In
the mingling of yellow lamplight, Brynn's gaze was direct now. Ceinion, accepting
it, felt a wave of memory crash over him from a terrible, glorious summer long
ago. This happened more and more as he grew older. Past and present colliding,
simultaneous visions, the present seen with the past. This same man, a
quarter-century ago, on a battlefield by the sea, the Volgan himself and the
Erling force they'd met by their boats. There had been three princes among the
Cyngael that day but Brynn had led the centre. A full head of dark hair on him
then, far less bulk, less of this easy humour. The same man, though. You
changed, and you did not change. "You
said he's after clerics from Ferrieres?" Picking up the other thing that
mattered. "So
he wrote me." "It
starts with clerics, doesn't it?" Ceinion
gazed affectionately at his old friend. "Sometimes. They are notoriously
aloof, my colleagues across the water." "But
if not? If it works, opens channels? If the Anglcyn and Ferrieres join to push
away the Erling raiders on both sides of the Strait? And mayhap a marriage that
way, too . . . ?" "Then
the Erlings come here again, I would think." Ceinion finished the thought.
"If we remain outside whatever is happening. That's my message to Beda,
when I get there." He paused, then added the thought he'd been travelling
with: "There are times when the world changes, Brynn." A
silence in the room. No noises from the corridor either, now; the household
abed, or most of them. Some of the warband likely dicing in the hall still,
perhaps with the young Cadyri, money changing hands by lantern light. He didn't
think there would be trouble; Brynn's men were extremely well trained, and they
were hosts tonight. The night breeze came through the window, sweetened with
the scent of flowers. Gifts of the god's offered world. Not to be spurned. "I
hate them, you know. The Erlings and the Anglcyn, both." Ceinion
nodded, said nothing. What was there to say? A homily about Jad, and love? The
big man sighed again. Drained his cup one more time. He showed no effects from
the unwatered wine. "Will
you go to him? To Aeldred?" he asked, as Ceinion had expected. "I
don't know," he said, which had the virtue of being honest.
Brynn
left, not down the corridor to his own bedchamber, but for one of the
outbuildings. A young serving lass waiting for him, no doubt, ready to slip out
wrapped in a cloak as soon as she saw him go through the door. Ceinion knew it
was his duty to chastise the other man for this. He didn't even consider it;
had known ap Hywll and his wife for too long. One of the things about living in
and of the world: you learned how complex it could be. He
doused two of the lamps, disliking the waste. A habit of frugality. He left the
door a little ajar, as a courtesy. With Brynn outside, the lord of the manor
would not be his own last visitor of the night. He'd been here, and in ap
Hywll's other homes, before. Somewhat
as an afterthought, while he waited, he went to his pack and drew from it the
letter he was carrying with him northwest to Beda on the sea. He took the same
seat as before, by the window. No moons tonight. The young Cadyri princes would
have had a good, black night for a cattle raid ... and they'd have been
slaughtered. Bad luck for them that Brynn and his men would have been here, but
you could die of bad luck. Jad
of the Sun had allowed him to save lives today, a different sort of gift, one
that might have meaning that went beyond what a man was permitted to see. His
own prayer, every morning, was that the god see fit to make use of him. There
was something—there had to be something—in his arriving when he did, looking up
the slope, seeing movement in the bushes. And following, for no very good
reason besides a knowing that sometimes came to him. More than he
deserved, that gift, flawed as he knew he was. Things he had done, in grief,
and otherwise. He turned his head and looked out, saw stars through rents in
moving clouds, caught the scent of the flowers again, just outside in the
night. Needful
as night's end. Needful as night. Two
subtle offerings in the triad game, then a song, improvised as they listened.
Three young people here, on the cusp of their real existence, the possible
importance of their lives. And two of them would very likely have been lying
dead tonight, if he'd been a day later on the road, or even a few moments. He
ought to kneel and give thanks again, feel a sense of blessing and hope. And
those things were there, truly, but they lay underneath something else, more
undefined, a heaviness. He felt tired suddenly. The years could creep up on
you, if a day lasted too long. He opened the letter again, the red, broken seal
crumbling a little. "Whereas
it has for some time been our belief that it is the proper duty of an anointed
king under jad to pursue wisdom and teach virtue by example, as much as it is
our task to strengthen and defend ..." With
the lamps doused, there wasn't enough light to read by, particularly for a man
no longer young, but he had this committed to memory and was communing with it
more than actually considering the contents again, the way one might kneel
before a familiar image of the god on one's own stone chapel wall. Or, the
thought came to him, the way one might contemplate the name and stone-carved
sun disk over a grave visited so many times it wasn't really seen, only
apprehended, as one lingered one more time until twilight fell, and then the
dark. In
the dark, from the corridor, she knocked softly then entered, taking the
partially open door for the invitation it was. "What?"
said Enid, setting down the tall candle she carried. "Still dressed and
not in the bed? I'd hoped you'd be waiting for me there." He
stood up, smiling. She came forward and they kissed, though she was kind enough
to let it be a kiss of peace on each cheek, and not more than that. She wore
some sort of perfume. He wasn't good at naming these woman-scents but it was
immediately distracting. He was suddenly aware of the bed. She'd intended that,
he knew. He knew her very well. Enid
looked at the wine cups and the wide-necked flask. "Did he leave any for
me?" "Not
much, I fear. There may be some, and water to mix." Enid shook her head.
"I don't really need." She
took the seat her husband had so recently vacated to go out with whichever girl
had been waiting for him. In the softer light she was a presence sitting near
to him, a scent, a memory of other nights—and other kisses of peace when peace
had not been what she'd left behind when she went away. His restraint, not
hers, or even Brynn's, for these two had their own rules in this long marriage
and Ceinion had, years ago, been made to under-stand that. His restraint. A
woman very dear. "You
are tired," she said after a moment's scrutiny. "He gets the best of
you, coming first, and then I arrive—always hoping—and find ..." "A
man not worthy of you?" "A
man not susceptible to my diminishing charms. I'm getting old, Ceinion. I think
my daughter fell in love tonight." He
took a breath. "I'll say, in sequence, no, and no, and .. . perhaps." "Let
me work that out." He could see she was amused. "You are finally
yielding to me, I am not yet old in your sight, Rhiannon might be in
love?" There
was something about Enid that always made him want to smile. "No, alas,
and yes, indeed, and perhaps she is, but the young always are." "And
those of us not young? Ceinion, will you not kiss me? It has been a year and more." He
did hesitate a moment, for all the old reasons, but then he stood up and came
forward to where she sat and kissed her full upon the lips as she lifted her
head, and despite his genuine fatigue he was aware of the beating of his heart
and the swift presence of desire. He stepped back. Read her mischievous
expression an instant before she moved a hand and touched his sex through the
robe. He
gasped, heard her laugh as she withdrew her touch. "Only
exploring, Ceinion. Fear me not. No matter what you say to be kind, there will
come a night when I can't excite you any longer. One of these visits . .
." "The
night I die," he said, and meant it. She
stopped laughing, made the sign of the sun disk, averting evil. Or
trying to. They heard a cry from outdoors. Through the window, as he quickly
turned, Ceinion saw the arc of a thrown and burning brand. Then
he saw horsemen in the farmyard and screaming began.
Alun
thought he'd seen his brother this way before, if not quite like this.
Dai was restless, irritable, and afraid. Gryffeth, staking out the left side of
the just-wide-enough bed, made the mistake of complaining about Dai's pacing in
the dark and received a blister-inducing torrent of profanity in return. "That
wasn't called for," Alun said. Dai
wheeled on him, and Alun, in the middle of the bed (having drawn the short
straw), stared back at his brother's straining, rigid outline through the
darkness. "Come to bed, get some sleep. She'll still be here in the
morning." "What
are you talking about?" Dai demanded. Gryffeth,
unwisely, snorted with laughter. Dai took a step towards him. Alun actually
thought his brother might strike their cousin. This anger was the part that
wasn't quite as it had been before, whenever Dai had been preoccupied with a
girl. That, and the fear. "Doesn't
matter," Alun said quickly. "Listen, if you can't sleep, there's sure
to be dicing in the hall. Just don't take all the money and don't drink too
much." "Why
are you telling me what to do?" "So
we can get some rest," Alun said mildly. "Go with Jad. Win
something." Dai
hesitated, a taut form across the room. Then, with another flung, distracted
curse, he jerked the door open and went out. "Wait,"
Alun said quietly to Gryffeth. They waited, side by side in the bed. The
door swung open again. Dai
strode back in, crossed to his pack, grabbed his purse, and went back out. "Now,"
said Alun, "you can call him an idiot." "He's
an idiot," Gryffeth said, with feeling, and turned over in bed. Alun
turned the other way, determined to try to sleep. It didn't happen. The tapping
at their door—and the woman's voice from the corridor—came only moments later.
It
was obvious from Helda's expression, and her darting glances at Without
a word spoken the three had resolved to humour her, Rania
had the purest voice, in chapel and banquet hall, and Eirin the best memory.
They'd gone off to the other room together, murmuring, and now returned through
the connecting doorway, Eirin smiling, Rania biting her lip, as she always did
before singing. "I
won't do very well," she said. "We only heard it once." "I
know," Rhiannon said, unusually mild, her voice at odds with her look.
"But try." They
had no harp here with them. Rania sang unaccompanied. It was well done, in
truth, a different tone given by a woman's voice in a quiet (too-bright) room,
late at night, as compared to the same song heard in the hall as the sun was
going down, when the younger son of Owyn ap Glynn had given it to them:
The
halls of Arberth are dark tonight, No moons ride above. I will sing a while and
be done.
The
night is a hidden stranger, An enemy with a sword, Beasts in field and wood.
The
stars look down on owl and wolf, All manner of living creature, While
men sleep safe behind their walls. The
halls of Arberth are dark tonight, No moons ride above. I will sing a while and
be done.
The
first star is a longed-for promise, The deep night a waking dream, Darkness is
a net for the heart's desire.
The
stars look down on lover and loved, All manner of delight, For some do not
sleep in the night. The
riddle of the darkest hours Has ever and always been thus, And so it is we can
say:
Needful
as night's end, Needful as night, By
the holy blessed god, they are both true.
The
halls of Arberth are dark tonight, No moons ride above. I have sung a while and
I am done. Rania
looked down shyly when she finished. Eirin clapped her hands, beaming. Helda,
older than the other three, sat quietly, a faraway look on her face. Rhiannon
said, after a moment, "By the holy blessed god." It
was unclear whether she was echoing the song, or speaking from the heart . . .
or whether both of these were true. They looked at her. "What
is happening to me?" Rhiannon said, in a small voice. The
others turned to Helda, who had been married and widowed. She said, gently,
"You want a man, and it is consuming you. It passes, my dear. It really
does." "Do
you think?" said Rhiannon. And
none of them would ever have matched this voice to the tones of the one who
normally controlled them all—the three of them, her sisters, all the young
women of household and kin—the way her father commanded his warband. It
might have been amusing, it should have been, but the change cut too
deeply, and she looked disturbingly unwell. "I'm going to get you wine."
Eirin rose. Rhiannon
shook her head. Her green cap slipped off. "I don't need wine." "Yes,
you do," said Helda. "Go, Eirin." "No,"
said the girl on the bed, again. "That isn't what I need." "You
can't have what you need," Helda said, walking over to the bed,
amusement in her voice, after all. "Eirin, a better thought. Go to the
kitchen and have them make an infusion, the one for when we can't sleep. We'll
all have some." She smiled at the other three, ten years younger than she
was. "Too many men in the house tonight." "Is
it too late? Could we have him come here?" "What?
The singer?" Helda lifted her eyebrows. Rhiannon
nodded, her eyes beseeching. It was astonishing. She was pleading, not giving a
command. Helda
considered it. She wasn't sleepy at all, herself. "Not alone," she
said finally. "With his brother and the other Cadyri." "But
I don't need the other two," Rhiannon said, a hint of herself again. "You
can't have what you need," Helda said again. Rania
took a candle and went for the infusion; Eirin, bolder, was sent to bring the
three men. Rhiannon sat up in the bed, felt her own cheeks with the backs of
her hands, then rose and went to the window and opened it—against all the best
counsel—to let the breeze cool her, if only a little. "Do
I look all right?" she asked. "It
doesn't matter," said Helda, maddeningly. "I
feel faint." "I
know." "I
never feel this way." "I
know," said Helda. "It passes." "Will
they be here soon?"
Alun
dressed at speed and went to find Dai in the banquet hall, leaving Gryffeth in
the corridor with the girl and the candle. Neither of them seemed to mind. They
could have gone to the women's rooms around the corner and waited there,
but they didn't seem inclined to do that. He
carried his harp in its leather case. The woman had specifically said that the
daughter of Brynn ap Hywll wanted the singer. The brown-haired girl, telling
him this at the door, before Gryffeth got out of bed, had smiled, her eyes
catching the candle-light she carried. So
Alun went to get Dai. Found him dicing at a table with two of their own friends
and three of the ap Hywll men. He was relieved to see that Dai had a pile of
coins in front of him already. His older brother was good at dice, decisive in
betting and calculating, and with a wrist flick that let him land the
bones—anyone's bones—on the short side more often than one might expect. If he
was winning, as usual, it meant he might not be too badly disturbed after all. Perhaps.
One of the others noticed Alun in the doorway, nudged Dai. His brother glanced
up, and Alun motioned him over. Dai hesitated, then saw the harp. He got up and
came across the room. It was dark except for lamps on the two tables where men
were awake and gaming. Most of those bedding down here were asleep by now, on
pallets along the walls, the dogs among them. "What
is it?" Dai said. His tone was curt. Alun
kept his own voice light. "Hate to take you from winning money from
Arberthi, but we've been invited to the Lady Rhiannon's rooms." "What?" "I
wouldn't make that up." Dai
had gone rigid, Alun could see it even in the shadows. "We? All of . . .
?" "All
three of us." He hesitated. Told truth, better here than there. "She,
um, asked for the harp, I gather." "Who
said that?" "The
girl who fetched us." A
short silence. Someone laughed loudly at the dicing table. someone else swore,
one of the sleepers along the wall. "Oh,
Jad. Oh, holy Jad. Alun, why did you sing that song?" Dai asked,
almost whispering. "What?"
said Alun, genuinely taken aback. "If
you hadn't . . ." Dai closed his eyes. "I don't suppose you could say
you were sleepy, didn't want to get out of bed?" Alun
cleared his throat. "I could." He was finding this difficult. Dai
shook his head. Opened his eyes again. "No, you're already out of bed,
carrying the harp. The girl saw you." He swore then, to himself, more like
a prayer than an oath, not at Alun or anyone else, really. Dai
lifted both his hands and laid his fists on Alun's shoulders, the way he
sometimes did. Lifted them up and brought them down, halfway between a blow and
an embrace. He left them there a moment, then he took his hands away. "You
go," he said. "I don't think I am equal to this. I'm going
outside." "Dai?" "Go,"
said his brother, at some limit of control, and turned away. Alun
watched him walk across the room, unbar the heavy front doors of Brynn ap
Hywll's house, open one of them, and go out alone into the night. Someone
got up from the gaming table and barred the doors behind him. Alun saw one of
their own band look over at him; he gestured, and their friend swept up Dai's
purse and winnings for him. Alun turned away. And
in that moment he heard his older brother scream an urgent, desperate warning
from the yard outside. The last word he ever heard him speak. Then
the hoofbeats of horses were out there, drumming the hard earth, and the war
cries of the Erlings, and fire, as the night went wild. THREE She
is curious and too bold. Always has been, from first awakening under the mound.
A lingering interest in the other world, less fear than the others, though
iron's presence can drain her as easily as any of them. Tonight
there are more mortals than she can remember in the house north of the wood;
the aura is inescapable. No moons to cast a shadow: she has come away to see.
Passed a green spruaugh on the way, seethed at him to stop his
chattering, knows he will go now, to tell the queen where she is. No matter,
she tells herself. They are not forbidden to look. The
cattle are restless in their pen. First thing she knows, an awareness of that.
The lights almost all doused in the house now; shining only in one chamber
window, two, and in the big room beyond the heavy doors. Iron on the doors.
Mortals sleep at night, fearfully. She
feels hooves on the earth, west of them. Her
own fear, before sight. Then riders leaping the fence, smashing through it into
the farmyard below and fire is thrown and iron is drawn, is everywhere, sharp
as death, heavy as death. She hasn't come for this, almost flees, to
tell the queen, the others. Mays, up above, unseen flicker in the dark-leaved
trees. Brighter
and lesser auras all around the farmyard. The doors bursting open, men running
out, from house, from barn, iron to hand in the dark. A great deal of noise,
screaming, though she can screen some of that away: mortals too loud, always.
They are fighting now. A feeling of hotness within her, dizziness, blood smell
in the yard. She feels her hair changing colour. Has seen this before, but not
here. Memories, long ago, trying to cross to where she is. She
feels ill, thinned by the iron below. Clings to a beech, draws sap-strength
from that. Keeps watching, cold and shivering now, afraid. No moons, she tells
herself again, no shadow or flicker of her to be seen, unless a mortal has
knowledge of her world. She
watches a black horse rear, strike a running man with hooves, sees him fall.
There is fire, one of the outbuildings ablaze now. A confusion of dark and
roiling mortal forms. Smoke. Too much blood, too much iron. Then
something else comes to her. And on the thought—quick and bright as a firefly
over water—between her shoulders, where they all had wings once, she feels a
spasm, a trembling of excitement, like desire. She shivers again, but
differently. She spies out more closely: the living and the dead in the chaos
of that farmyard below. And yes. Yes. She
knows who died first. She can tell. He is
face down on the churned, trampled earth. First dead of a moonless night. Could
be theirs, if she moves quickly enough. Has to be fast, though, his soul
fading already, very nearly gone, even as she watches. And such a long time
since a mortal in his prime has come to them. To the queen. Her own place in
the Ride forever changed if she can do this. It
means going down into that farmyard. Iron all around. Horses thundering,
sensing her, afraid. Their hooves. No
moons. The only time this can be done. Nothing of her to be seen. Tells herself
that, one more time. None
of them has wings any more or she could fly. She lets go of the tree, finger by
finger, and goes forward and down. She sees someone on the way. He is hurrying
up the slope, breathing hard. He never knows that she is there, a faerie
passing by. He
had to get to his sword. Dai screamed a warning, and then he did it again. Men
sprang from pallets, roaring, seizing weapons. The double doors were thrust
open, the first of their people hurtling into the night. Alun heard the cries
of the Erlings, Brynn's warband shouting in reply, saw their own men from Cadyr
rushing out. But his own room, and his sword, were back along the corridor the
other way. Terribly, the other way. Alun
ran for all he was worth, heart pounding, his brother's voice in his ears, a
fist of fear squeezing his heart. When
he got to the room, Gryffeth—who knew battle sounds as well as any of them—had already claimed his own blade and
leather helm. He came forward, handed Alun his, wordlessly. Alun dropped the
harp where they were; he unsheathed the sword, dropped the scabbard, too,
pushed the helmet down on his head. The
woman with Gryffeth was not wordless, and was terrified. "Dear
Jad! There are no guards where we are. Come! Hurry!" Alun
and Gryffeth looked at each other. Nothing to be said. The heart could crack.
They ran the other way, farther down the same dark hallway, the brown-haired
girl beside them, her hand somehow in Alun's, candle fallen away. Then north,
skidding at the hall's turning, up the far wing to the women's rooms. Away
from the double doors, from the fighting in the farmyard. From Dai. The
girl pointed, breathing in gasps. They burst in. A woman screamed, then saw it
was them. Covered her mouth with the back of a hand, backing up against a
table. Alun took a fast look, sword out. Three women here, one of them Brynn's
daughter. Two rooms, a connecting door. He went straight across to the eastern
window, which was, inexplicably, open. Moved to close the shutters, slide down
the wooden bar. The
Erling hammer, descending, splintered wood, shattered the sill, barely missed
breaking Alun's extended arm like so much kindling. A woman screamed. Alun
stabbed through the wreckage of the window, blindly into the dark. Heard a
grunt of pain. Someone shouted a high warning; he twisted hard, a wracking
movement, back and away. Horse hooves loomed, thrust for the splintered window frame,
smashed it in—and then a man hurtled through and into the room. Gryffeth
went for him, swearing, had his thrust taken by a round shield, barely dodged
the axe blow that followed. The women pressed back, screaming. Alun stepped up
beside his cousin—then had to wheel back the other way as a second man came
roaring through the window, hammer in hand. They'd figured it out, where the
women were. Erlings. Here. Nightmare on a moonless night; a night made for an
attack. But
what were they doing so far inland? Why here? It made no sense. This was not
where the raids came. Alun
swung at the second man, had his sword blocked, wrenchingly. He was bleeding
from the splintered wood, so was the Erling. He stepped back, shielding the
women. Heard a clattering noise, boots behind him, and then longed-for words. "Drop
weapons! There are two of you, five of us, more coming." Alun
threw a glance back, saw one of Brynn's captains, a man almost as big as the
Erlings. Jad be thanked for mercy, he thought. The captain had spoken
Anglcyn, but slowly. It was close to the Erling tongue; he'd be understood. "You
may be ransomed," Brynn's man went on, "if someone cares enough for
you. Touch the women and you die badly, and will wish you were dead before you
are." A
mistake, those words, Alun later thought. Because,
hearing them, the first man moved, cat-quick in a crowded room, and he seized
Rhiannon mer Brynn—whose warning had been the one that had drawn Alun back from
the window—and wrenched her away from the others. The Erling gripped her in
front of him as a shield, her arm behind her back, twisted high, his axe
gripped short, held to her throat. Alun caught his breath on a curse. One
of the other women dropped to her knees. The room was crowded with men now,
smell of sweat and blood, mud and muck from the yard. They could hear the
fighting outside, dogs barking frantically, the cattle lowing and shifting in
their pen. Someone cried out, and then stopped. "Ransom,
you say?" the Erling grunted. He was yellow-bearded, wearing armour. Eyes
beneath a metal helmet, the long nosepiece. "No. Not so. You drop weapons
now or this one's breast is cut off. You want to see? I don't know who she is,
but clothing is fine. Shall I cut?" Brynn's
captain stepped forward. "I
said drop weapons!" A silence,
taut, straining. Alun's mouth was dry, as if full of ashes. Dai was outside. Dai
was outside. Had been there alone. "Let
him do it," said Rhiannon, the daughter of Brynn ap Hywll. "Let him
do it, then kill him for me." "No!
Hear me," Alun said quickly. "There are better than fifty fighting
men here. You will not have so many for a raid. Your leader made a mistake. You
are losing out there. Listen! There is nowhere for you to go. Choose your fate
here." "Chose
it when we took ship," the man rasped. "Ingavin claims his
warriors." "And
his warriors kill women?" "Cyngael
whores, they do." One
of the men behind Alun made a strangled sound. Rhiannon stood, the one arm
twisted behind her back, the axe fretting at her throat. Fear in her eyes, Alun
saw; none in her words. "Then
die for this Cyngael whore. Kill him, Siawn! Do it!" The axe, gripped
close to the blade, moved. A tear in the high-necked green gown, blood at her
collarbone. "Dearest
Jad," said the woman on her knees. A
heartbeat without movement, without breath. And then the other Erling, the
second man in through the window, dropped his shield with a clatter. "Leave
her, Svein. I've been taken by them before." "Be
a woman for the Cyngael, if you want!" the man named Svein snarled.
"Ingavin waits for me! Drop weapons, or I cut her apart!" Alun,
looking at pale, wild eyes, hearing battle madness in the voice, laid down his
sword, slowly. There
was blood on the girl. He saw her staring back at him. He was thinking of Dai,
outside, that shouted warning before the hooves and fire. No weapon at all. His
heart was crying and there was a need to kill and he was trying to find a space
within himself to pray. "Do
the same," he said to Gryffeth, without turning his head. "Do
not!" Rhiannon said, whispering it, but very clear. Gryffeth looked at her
and then at Alun, and then he dropped his blade. "He
will kill her," said Alun to the men behind him, not looking back. His
eyes were on the girl's. "Let his fellows be defeated outside, and then we
will settle with these two. They have nowhere on Jad's earth to go from
here." "Then
he will kill her," said the man named Siawn, and he stepped
forward, still with his sword. Death in his voice, and an old rage. The
axe moved again, another rip in the green, a second ribbon of blood against
white skin. One of the women whimpered. Not the one being held, though she was
biting her lip now. They
stayed like that, a moment as long as the one before Jad made the world. Then a
hammer was thrown. The
yellow-bearded Erling was wearing his iron helmet or his head would have been
pulped like a fruit by that blow. Even so, the sound of the impact was
sickening at close range in a crowded room. The man crumpled like a child's
doll stuffed with straw; dead before his body, disjointed and splayed, hit the
floor. The axe fell, harmlessly. It
seemed to Alun that no one in the room breathed for several moments. Extreme
violence could do that, he thought. This wasn't a battlefield. They were too
close together. Such things should happen . . . outdoors, not in women's
chambers. The
woman in whose chambers they were standing remained where she'd been held,
motionless. The flying hammer had passed near enough to brush her hair. Both
arms were at her sides now, and no one was holding an axe to het Alun could see
two streams of blood on her gown, the cuts at throat and collarbone. He watched
her draw one slow breath. Her hands were shaking. No other sign. Death had
touched her, and turned away. One might tremble a little. He
turned away, to the Erling who had thrown that hammer. Reddish beard streaked
with grey; long hair spilling from the helmet bowl. Not a young man. His throw,
the slightest bit awry, would have killed Brynn's daughter, crushing her skull.
The man looked around at all of them, then held out empty hands. "All
men are fools," he said in Anglcyn. They could make it out. "The gods
gave us little wisdom, some less than others. That man, Svein, angered me, I
confess. We all go to our gods, one way or another. Little profit in hurrying
there. He'd have killed the girl, and both of us. Foolish. I will not bring a
great deal in ransom, but I do yield me, to you both and to the lady." He
looked from Alun to Siawn behind him, and then to Rhiannon mer Brynn. "Shall
I kill him, my lady?" said Siawn grimly. You could hear the wish in him. "Yes,"
said the brown-haired woman, still on her knees. The third woman, Alun saw, had
just been sick, on the far side of the room. "No,"
said Rhiannon. Her face was bone-white. She still hadn't moved. "He's
yielded. Saved my life." "And
what do you think he would have done if there'd been more of them here?"
the man named Siawn asked harshly. "Or fewer of us in the house tonight,
by Jad's mercy? Do you think you'd still be clothed, and standing?" Alun
had had the same thought. They
were speaking Cyngael. The Erling looked from one of them to the other, then he
chuckled, and answered in their own language, heavily accented. He had been
raiding here before; he'd said as much. "She
would have been claimed by Mikkel, who is the only reason we are so far from
the ships. Or by his brother, which would have been worse. They'd have stripped
her and taken her, in front of all of us, I imagine." He looked at Alun.
"Then they'd have found a bad way to kill her." "Why?
Why that? She's . . . just a woman." Alun needed to leave, but also needed
to understand. And another part of him was afraid to go. The world, his life,
might change forever when he went outside. As long as he was here, in this room
.. . "This
is the house of Brynn ap Hywll," said the Erling. "Our guide told us
that." "And
so?" Alun asked. They'd had a guide. He registered that. Knew the Arberthi
would, as well. Rhiannon
was breathing carefully, he saw. Not looking at anyone. Had never once
screamed, he thought, only that one warning to him, when the horse smashed the
window. The
Erling took off his iron helmet. His red hair was plastered to his skull, hung
limply to his shoulders. He had a battered, broken-nosed face. "Mikkel
Ragnarson leads this raid, with his brother. One purpose only, though I did try
to change his mind for those of us who came for our own sakes, not his. He is
the son of Ragnar Siggurson, and grandson of Siggur, the one we named the
Volgan. This is vengeance." "Oh,
Jad!" cried the man named Siawn.
"Oh, Jad and all the Blessed Victims! Brynn was outside when they came!
Let's go!" Alun
had already picked up his sword, had turned, twisted through the others, was
flying as fast as he could down the corridor for the double doors. Siawn's
desperate cry came from behind him. Brynn
ap Hywll hadn't been the only one outside. He
hadn't killed anyone yet, the thought came. A need was rising, with his terror.
Terror
went away like smoke on a wind as soon as he was out through the doors and saw
what there was to see. Its passing left behind a kind of hollowness: a space
not yet filled by anything. He had been quite certain, in fact, from the moment
he'd heard Dai's first cry, but there was knowing, and knowing. The
attack was over. There hadn't been enough of the Erlings to cope with Brynn's
warband here and their own Cadyri, even with the element of surprise. It was
obviously to have been a raid on an isolated farmhouse—a large, specifically
chosen farmhouse, but even so, this had been meant to kill Brynn ap Hywll, not
meet his gathered force. Someone had erred, or had very bad luck. He'd said
that himself, inside. Before he'd come running out into the yard to see the
body lying here not far from the open doors. Not far at all. He
stopped running. Others were moving, all around him. They seemed oddly distant,
vague, blurred somehow. He stood very still, and then, with an effort that took
a great deal out of him, as though his body had become extremely heavy, Alun
went forward again. Dai
hadn't had anything but the knife in his belt when he'd gone out, but there was
an Erling sword in his hand now. He was face down in the grass and mud, a dead
raider beside him. Alun went over to that place, where he lay, and he knelt in
the mud and put down his own blade, and took off his helmet and set it down, and
then, after another moment, he turned his brother over and looked at him. Not
cheap, the selling of his life, the
"Lament for Seisyth" went. The one the bards sang, at one point or
another, in the halls of all three provinces during those winter nights when
men longed for spring's quickening and the blood and souls of the younger ones
quickened at the thought of bright, known deeds. The
axe blow that killed Dai had fallen from behind and above, from horseback. Alun
saw that by the light of the torches moving through the yard now. His blood and
soul did not quicken. He held a maimed body, terribly loved. The soul was . . .
elsewhere. He ought to pray now, Alun thought, offer the known, proper words.
He couldn't even remember them. He felt old, weighted by grief, the need to
weep. But
not yet. It was not over yet. He heard shouting still. There was an armed
Erling in the yard some distance away, his back to the door of one of the
outbuildings, holding a sword to a nearly naked figure in a half-ring made by
the Arberthi warband and Alun's own companions. Still
on his knees, his brother's head in his lap now, blood soaking into his
leggings and tunic, Alun saw that the captive figure was Brynn ap Hywll, being
held—in the most savage irony he could imagine—exactly as his daughter had
been, moments before. The
clerics taught in chapel (and text, for those who could read) that Jad of the
Sun did battle in the night under the world for his children, that he was not
cruel or capricious as the gods of the pagans were, making sport of mortal men. You
would not have known it tonight. Riderless
horses moving in the yard among the dead; servants running after them, taking
their reins. Wounded men crying. The flames seemed to have been put out except
for one shed, burning down at the other end of the farmyard, nothing near it to
be claimed by fire. There
had been more than fifty fighting men sleeping here tonight, with weapons and
armour. The northmen could not have known or expected that, not in a farmhouse.
Bad luck for them. The
Erlings had fled or were taken, or were dead. Except one of them held Brynn
now, with nowhere to go. Alun wasn't sure what he wanted to do, but he was
about to do something. You
go. I don't think I am equal to this. Not
the voice, the brother, he'd known all his life. And for a very last word, a
command, torn from him: Go! Sending
Alun away, at the end. And how could that be their last shared moment in the
god's world? In a life Alun had lived with his brother from the time he was
born? He
set Dai's head gently down and rose from the mud and started over towards that
torchlit half-circle of men. Someone was speaking; he was too far away yet to
hear. He saw that Siawn and Gryffeth and the others had come out now, the big,
red-bearded Erling gripped between two of them. He looked over at his cousin,
and then away: Gryffeth had seen him kneeling beside Dai, so he knew. He was
using his sword for support, point down in the earth, looked as if he wanted to
sink into the dark, trampled grass. They had grown up together, the three of
them, from childhood. Not so long ago. Rhiannon
mer Brynn was in the yard as well now, beside her mother, who was standing
straight as a Rhodian marble column, not far from the arc of men, gazing at her
captive husband through the smoke and flames.
He
saw Owyn's younger son—Owyn's only son now, a sorrow under Jad—moving
too quickly towards the other men, sword in hand, and he understood what was
working in him. It could be like a poison, grief. Ceinion went forward swiftly,
at an angle, to intercept him. A necessary life was still in the balance. It
was too dark to read faces, but you could sometimes tell a man's intention from
the way he moved. There was death around them in the farmyard, and death in the
way the young Cadyri prince was going forward. Ceinion
spoke, almost running, calling his name. Alun kept going. Ceinion had to catch
him, lay a hand on the young man's arm—and received a look that chilled him,
for his pains. "Remember
who you are!" the cleric snapped, deliberately cold. "And what is
happening here." "I
know what happened here," said the boy—he was still something of that,
though his father's heir as of tonight. And there were ripples that might flow
from that, for all of them. Princes mattered, under Jad. "It
is still happening. Wait, and pray. That man with the sword is the Volgan's
grandson." "I
thought as much," said Alun ab Owyn, a bleakness in his voice that was a
sorrow of its own to the cleric hearing it. "We learned he was leading
them, inside." He drew a breath. "I need to kill him, my lord." There
were things you were supposed to say to that, in the teachings, and he knew
what they were, he had even written some of them. What Ceinion of Llywerth,
high cleric of the Cyngael, anchor and emblem of his people's faith in Jad,
murmured amid the orange flickering of torches and the black smoke was:
"Not yet, my dear. You can't kill him yet. Soon, I hope." Alun
looked at him, and after a stiff moment nodded his head, once. They went
forward together into that half-circle of men and were in time to see what
happened there. The
taken-away sword had struck the tumbled raider first, but a second Erling's axe
from behind and above had killed the Cyngael sooner. She
crouches by the fence until those first two bodies are left alone again—the one
who knelt beside one of them standing and walking away—and then, not allowing
any time for fear to take hold of her, she goes straight in, at speed, and
claims a soul for the queen. A
moonless night. Only on a moonless night. Once
it was otherwise and easier, but once, also, they were able to fly. She lays
hands on the body, and speaks the words they are all taught, says them for the
first time, and—yes, there!—she sees his soul rise from blood and earth
to her summoning. It
hovers, turning, drifting, in a stray breath of wind. She exults fiercely,
aroused, her hair changing colour, again and then again, body tingling with
excitement, even amid the fear of shod hooves and the presence of iron, which
is weakening and can kill her. She
watches the soul she's claimed for the Ride float above the sprawled, slain
mortal body and she sees it turn to go, uncertain, insubstantial, not entirely present
yet in her world, though that will come, it will come. She didn't expect to
feel so much desire. This isn't hers, though, this is for the queen. He
turns completely around in the air, moves upwards, then comes slowly back down,
touches ground, already gathering form again. He looks towards her, sees,
doesn't see—not quite yet—and then to the south he turns and begins to go,
pulled towards the wood . . . as if to a half-remembered home. He
will reach them in the forest soon, taking surer, stronger form as he goes, a
shape in their world now, and the queen will see him when he arrives,
and will love him, as a precious gift, shining by water and wood and in the
mound. And she herself, when she rejoins the others, will be touched by the
glory of doing this as silver moonlight touches and lights pools in the night. No moons
tonight. A gift she has been given, this mortal death in the dark, and so
beautiful. She
looks around, sees no one near, goes out then from that farmyard, from iron
and mortals, living and dead, springing over the fence, up the slope, stronger
as she leaves blades and armour behind. She pauses at the crest of the ridge to
look back down. She always looks when near to them. Drawn to this other, mortal
half of the world. It happens among the Ride, she isn't the only one. There are
stories told. The
auras below are brighter than torches for her: anger, grief, fear. She finds
all of these, takes them in, tries to distill them and comprehend. She looks
down from the same beech tree as before, fingers upon it, as before. Two very
big men in the midst of a ring; one holding iron to the other, who came
bursting out of the small structure, roaring for a weapon. It frightened her,
the red heat in that voice. But he was seen by the raider before his own men
could reach him, and pinned by a sword to the wall. Not killed. She was not
sure why, at first, but now she sees. Or thinks she does: other men arrive,
freeze like carvings, then more come, gather, and are there now, like stone,
torchlight around two men. One
of the two is afraid, but not the one she would have thought. She doesn't
understand mortals well at all. Another world, they live in. It is
quiet now, the battle over except for this, and one other thing they will not
know, down below. She listens. Has always liked to listen, and watch. Trying to
understand.
+
"Understand
me," the Erling said again, in his own tongue. "I kill him if anyone
moves!" "Then
do it!" snapped Brynn ap Hywll. He was barefoot in the grass, only a grey
undertunic covering his belly and heavy thighs. Another man would have looked
ridiculous, Ceinion thought. Not Brynn, even with a sword to him and the
Erling's left hand bunching his tunic tightly from behind. "I
want a horse and an oath to your god that I will be allowed passage to our
ships. Swear it or he dies!" The voice was high, almost shrill. "One
horse? Pahl A dozen men you led are standing here! You stain the earth with
your breathing." Brynn was quivering with rage. "Twelve
horses! I want twelve horses! Or he dies!" Brynn
roared again. "No one swear that oath! No one dare!" "I
will kill him!" the Erling screamed. His hands were shaking,
Ceinion saw. "I am the grandson of Siggur Volganson!" "Then
do it!" Brynn howled back.
"You castrate coward! Do it!" "No!"
said Ceinion. He stepped forward into the ring of light. 'No! My friend, be
silent, in Jad's name. You do not have permission to leave us!" "Ceinion!
Don't swear that oath! Do not!" "I
will swear it. You are
needed." "He
won't do it. He's a coward. Kill me and die with me, Erling! Go to your gods.
Your grandfather would have gutted me like a fish by now! He'd have ripped me
open." There was a white-hot, spitting fury in his voice, near to madness. "You
killed him!" the Erling snarled. "I
did! I did! I chopped off his arms and cut his chest open and ate his
bloody heart and laughed! So carve me now and let them do the same to
you!" Ceinion
closed his eyes. Opened them. "This must not be. Erling, hear me! I am
high cleric of the Cyngael. Hear me! I swear by holiest Jad of the
Sun—" "No!"
roared Brynn. "Ceinion, I forbid—" "—that
no harm will come to you when you release—" "No!" "—this
man, and that you will be allowed—" The
small door to the outbuilding—it was the brewhouse- banged open, right behind
the two men. The Erling startled like a nervous horse, looked frantically back
over his shoulder, swore. Died.
Brynn ap Hywll, in the moment his captor half turned, hammered an elbow
viciously backwards and up into the other man's unprotected face beneath the
nosepiece, smashing his mouth open. He twisted hard away from the sword thrust
that followed. It raked blood from his side, no more than that. He stepped back
quickly, turned .. . "Here!" Ceinion
saw a sword arcing through the torchlight. Something beautiful in that flight,
something terrible. Alun ab Owyn's blade was caught by Brynn at the hilt.
Ceinion saw his old friend smile then, a grey wolf in winter, at the Cadyri
prince who had thrown it. I ate his heart. He
hadn't. Might have done, though, the way he'd been that day. Ceinion remembered
that fight—against this one's grandfather. A meeting of giants, crashing
together on a blood-slick morning battlefield by the sea. In battle this fury
happened to Brynn, the way it did to the Erlings of Ingavin's bear cult: a
madness of war, claiming a soul. If you became what you fought, what were
you? Not the night for that thought. Not here, good men dead in the dark
farmyard. "He
swore an oath!" the Erling bubbled, spitting teeth. Blood in the broken
mouth. "Jad
curse you," said Brynn. "My people died here. And my guests. Rot your
ugly soul!" He moved, barefoot, half-naked. The Cadyri blade in his hand
flicked right. The Erling moved to block it. The younger man wore armour, was
big, rangy, in his prime. Had
been. The annihilating backhand blow swept down like a falling of rocks from a
mountain height, crashing through his late parry, biting so deeply into his
neck between helmet and breastplate that Brynn had to plant a foot on the
fallen man, after, to lever and jerk it out. He
stood back, looked around slowly, flexing his neck and shoulder muscles, a bear
in a circle of fire. No one moved, or said a word. Brynn shook his head, as if
to clear it, to release fury, come back to himself. He turned to the door of
the brewhouse. A girl stood there, in an unbelted tunic, flushing in the torchlight,
her dark hair loose, for bed. For being bedded. Brynn looked at her. "That
was bravely done," he said, quietly. "Let all men know it." She
bit at her lower lip, was trembling. Ceinion was careful not to look to where
Enid stood beside her daughter. Brynn turned around, took a step towards him,
then another. Stopped squarely in front of the cleric, feet planted wide on his
own soil. "I'd
never have forgiven you," he said, after a moment. Ceinion
met that gaze. "You'd have been alive to not forgive me. I spoke truth:
you do not have leave to go from us. You are needed still." Brynn
was breathing hard, the coursing rage not yet gone from him, the big chest
heaving, not from exertion but from the force of his anger. He looked at the
young Cadyri behind Ceinion. Gestured with the blade. "I
thank you for this," he said. "You were quicker than my own
men." Owyn's
son said, "No thanks need be. At least my sword is blooded, though by
another. I did nothing at all tonight but play a harp." Brynn
looked down at him a moment from his great height. He was bleeding from the
right side, Ceinion saw, the tunic ripped
open there; he didn't seem aware of it. Brynn glanced away into the shadows of
the farmyard, west of them. The cattle were still lowing on the other side in
their pen. "Your brother's dead?" Alun
nodded his head, stiffly. "Shame
upon my life," said Brynn ap Hywll. "This was a guest in my
house." Alun
made no reply. His own breathing was shallow, by contrast, constricted. Ceinion
thought that he needed to be given wine, urgently. Oblivion for a night. Prayer
could come after, in the morning with the god's light. Brynn
bent down, wiped both sides of the blade on the black grass, handed it back to
Alun. He turned towards the brewhouse. "I need clothing," he said.
"All of you, we will deal with ..." He
stopped, seeing his wife in front of him. "We
will deal with the dead, and do what we can for the wounded," Enid said
crisply. "There will be ale for the living, who were so valiant
here." She looked over her shoulder. "Rhiannon, have the kitchen heat
water and prepare cloths for wounds. Fetch all my herbs and medications, you
know where they are. All of the women are to come to the hall." She turned
back to her husband. "And you, my lord, will apologize tonight and tomorrow
and the next day to Kara, here. You likely gave her the fright of a young life,
more than any Erling would have, when she came to fetch ale for those still
dicing and found you sleeping in the brewhouse. If you want a night's sleep
outside the doors, my lord, choose another place next time, if we have
guests?" Ceinion
loved her even more, then, than he had before. Not
the only one, he saw. Brynn bent down and kissed his wife on the cheek.
"We hear and obey you, my lady," he said. "You
are bleeding like a fat, speared boar," she said. "Have yourself
attended to." "Am
I permitted the slight dignity of trousers and boots first?" he asked.
"Please?" Someone laughed, a release of strain. Someone else moved,
very fast. Siawn,
a little tardy, cried out, following. But the red-bearded Erling had torn free
of those holding him and, seizing a shield from one of them—not a sword—crashed
through the ring around Brynn and his wife. He
turned away from them, looking up and south, raised the shield. Siawn
hesitated, confused. Ceinion wheeled towards the slope and the trees. Saw
nothing at all, in the black night. Then
he heard an arrow strike the lifted shield. "There
he goes!" said the Erling,
speaking Cyngael very clearly. He was pointing. Ceinion, whose eyes were good,
saw nothing, but Alun ab Owyn shouted, "I see him. Same ridge we were on today!
Heading down the other way." "Don't
touch the arrow!" Ceinion heard. He spun back. The big Erling, not a young
man, grey in his hair and beard, set down the shield carefully. "Not even
the shaft, mind." "Poison?"
It was Brynn. "Always." "You
know who it was, then?" "Ivarr,
this one's brother." He jerked his head towards the one on the ground.
"Black-souled from birth, and a coward." "This one was
brave?" Brynn snarled it. "He
was here with a sword," said the Erling. "The other one uses arrows,
and poison." "And
Erlings should be much too brave to do that," Brynn said icily.
"Can't rape a woman with a bow and arrow." "Yes, you can,"
said the Erling quietly, meeting his gaze. Brynn took a step towards him. "He
saved your life!" Ceinion said quickly. "Or Enid's."
"Buying his own," Brynn snapped. The
Erling actually laughed. "There's that," he said. "Trying to, at
any rate. Ask someone what happened inside." But
before that could be done, they heard another sound. Drumming hooves. An Erling
horse thundered through the yard, leaped the fence. Ceinion, seeing the rider,
cried out after him, hopelessly. Alun
ab Owyn, pursuing a foe he was unlikely ever to see or find, disappeared almost
immediately on the dark path that curved around the ridge. "Siawn!"
said Brynn. "Six men. Follow him!" "A
horse for me," cried Ceinion. "That is the heir of Cadyr,
Brynn!" "I
know it is. He wants to kill someone." "Or
be killed," said the red-bearded Erling, watching with interest.
The
archer had a considerable start and poison on his arrows. It was pitch black on
the path among the trees. Alun had no knowledge of the Erling horse he'd seized
and mounted, and the horse wouldn't know the woods at all. He cleared
the fence, landed, kicked the animal ahead. They pounded up the path. He had a
sword, no helmet (on the ground, in mud, beside Dai), no torch, felt a degree
of unconcern he couldn't ever remember in himself before. A branch over the
path struck his left shoulder, rocked him in the saddle. He grunted with pain.
He was doing something entirely mad, knew it. He
was also thinking as fast as he could. The archer would come out and down from
the slope—almost certainly—at the place they had reached earlier today, with
Ceinion. The Erling was fleeing, would have a horse waiting for him. Would
anticipate pursuit and head back into the trees, not straight along the path to
the main trail west. Alan
lashed the horse around a curve. He was going too fast. It was entirely
possible that a stump or boulder would break the animal's leg, send Alun
flying, crack his neck. He flattened himself over the mane and felt the wind of
another branch pass over his head. There was a body behind him, on the
churned-up earth of a farmyard far from home. He thought of his mother and
father. Another blackness there, darker than this night. He rode. The
only good thing about the moonless sky was that the archer would have trouble
finding his way, too—and seeing Alun clearly, if he came close enough for a
bowshot. Alun reached the forking trail where the slope came out on the path
south-west. Remembered, only this afternoon, climbing up with Dai and then both
of them coming down with the high cleric. He
drew a breath and left the path right there, not hesitating, plunging into the
woods. It
was impossible, almost immediately. Swearing, he pulled the horse to a stop and
listened in blackness. Heard—blessed be Jad—a sound through leaves, not far
ahead. It could be an animal. He didn't think it was. He twitched the reins,
moved the horse forward, carefully now, picking his way, sword out. A semblance
of a trail, no more than that. His eyes were adjusting but there was no light
at all. An arrow would kill him, easily. He
dismounted on that thought. Looped the reins around a tree trunk. His hair was
slick with sweat. He heard sounds again—something ahead of him. It wasn't an
animal. Someone unused to being silent in a forest, an unknown wood, far from
the sea, amid the terror of pursuit, a raid having gone entirely wrong. Alun
gripped his sword and followed. He
came upon the four Erlings too quickly, before he was ready for them, stumbling
through beech trees into a sudden, small space, seeing them there, shadows—two
kneeling to catch their breath, one slumped against a tree, the fourth directly
in front of him, facing the other way. Alun
killed that one from behind, kept moving, slashed away the sword of the one
leaning by the tree, gripped him and turned him with an arm twisted behind his
back, snarled, "Drop blades, both of you!" to the kneeling pair. A
triad, he thought suddenly,
remembering Rhiannon held, then Brynn. Third time tonight. The thought
was urgent, sword-swift. He
remembered what had happened to the other two men who had held their captives
this way, and even as the thought came he broke the pattern. He killed the man
he was using as a shield, pushing him hard away to fall on the earth, and he
stood alone to face two Erlings in a clearing in a wood. He
had never actually killed before. Two now, in moments. "Come
on!" he screamed at the pair before him. Both bigger than him, hardened
sea-raiders. He saw the nearer one's head jerk suddenly, looking past Alun, and
without any actual thought Alun
dove to his right. The arrow from behind flew past him and hit the Erling in
the sword arm. "Ivarr,
no!" the man screamed. Alun
rolled, scrambled up, turned his back on the two of them, sprinting immediately
east into the thicket where the bowman would be. He heard him running through
to the other side, then mounting up. The horse was there! He
wheeled back, running hard, swearing savagely. The fourth of those he'd
surprised here was running the other way, towards the path. The wounded man was
on his knees, clutching the arrow in his arm, making small, queer sounds. He
was as good as dead, they both knew it: poison on the arrowhead, the shaft.
Alun ignored him, pushed through to his horse, clawed free the reins, mounted,
forced his way back through the trees and then the clearing again to the other
side. He could still hear the archer's horse ahead of them, that rider swearing
too, fighting to find a path through in thick, treed blackness. He felt a
surging in his blood, fury and hardness and pain. His sword was red, his own
doing this time. It didn't help. It didn't help. He
broke through, the horse thrashing into open space, saw water, a pool in the
wood, the other rider going around it to the south. Alun roared wordlessly;
galloped the Erling horse into the shallow water, splashing through at an angle
to shorten the way, cut off the other man. He
was almost thrown over the animal's head as it halted, stiff-legged. It
reared straight back up, neighing, clawing at the air in terror, and then it
came down and did not move at all, as if anchored so firmly it might never stir
again. The
entirely unexpected will elicit very different responses in people, and the
sudden intrusion of the numinous—the vision utterly outside one's range of
experience—will exaggerate this, of course. One person will be terrified into
denial, another will shiver in delight at a making manifest of dreams held
close for a lifetime. A third might assume himself intoxicated or bewitched.
Those who ground their lives in a firm set of beliefs about the nature of the
world are particularly vulnerable to such moments, though not without
exception. Someone
who—like Owyn's younger son that night—had already had his life broken into
shards, who was exposed and raw as a wound, might be said to have been ready
for confirmation that he'd never properly understood the world. We are not
constant, in our lives, or our responses to our lives. There are moments when
this becomes clear. Alun's
foot came out of one stirrup when the horse reared. He clutched at the animal's
neck, fought to stay in the saddle, barely did so as the hooves splashed down
hard. His sword fell into the shallow water. He swore again, tried to make the
horse move, could not. He heard music. Turned his head. Saw a
growing, inexplicable presence of light, pale as moon-rise, but there were no
moons tonight. Then, as the music grew louder, approaching, Alun ab Owyn saw
what was passing by him, walking and riding on the surface of that water, in
bright procession, the light a shimmering, around them and in them. And
everything about the night and the world changed then, was silvered, because
they were faeries and he could see them. He
closed his eyes, opened them again. They were still there. His heart was
pounding, as if trying to break free of his breast. He was trammelled, entangled
as in nets, between the desperate need to flee from the unholy Jad-cursed
demons these must beby all the teachings of his faith—and the impulse to
dismount and kneel in the water of this starlit pool before the very tall,
slender figure he saw on an open litter, borne in the midst of the dancing of
them all, with her pale garments and nearly white skin and her hair that kept
changing its colour in the silvered light that grew brighter as they passed,
the music louder now, wild as his heart's beating. There was a constriction in
his chest, he had to remind himself to breathe. If
these were evil spirits, iron would keep them at bay, so the old tales
promised. He'd dropped his sword in the water. It occurred to him that he ought
to make the sign of the sun disk, and with that thought he realized that he
couldn't. He
couldn't move. His hands on the horse's reins, the horse rooted in the shallows
of the pool, the two of them breathing statues watching what was passing by.
And in that growing, spirit-shaped brightness in the depths of a moonless wood
at night, Alun saw— for the first time—that the saddle cloth of the Erling
horse he rode bore the pagan hammer symbol of Ingavin. And
then, looking at that queen again—for who else could this possibly be, borne
across still waters, shining, beautiful as hope or memory?—Alun saw someone
next to her, riding a small, high-stepping mare with bells and bright ribbons
in its mane, and there came a harder pounding, like a killing hammer against
his wounded heart. He
opened his mouth—he could do that—and he began to shout against the music,
struggling more and more wildly to move arms or legs, to dismount, to go there.
He was unable to do anything at all, couldn't stir from where he and the horse
were rooted, as his brother rode past him, changed utterly and not changed at
all, dead in the farmyard below them, and riding across night waters here, not
seeing Alun, or hearing him, one hand extended, and claimed, laced in the long
white fingers of the faerie queen.
Siawn
and his men knew exactly where they were going, heading up the slope. They also
had torches. Ceinion, though he preferred to walk, had been riding all his
life. They came to the place where the trail from the ridge met the path,
stopped there, the horses stamping. The cleric, though much the oldest, was the
first to hear sounds. Pointed into the woods, Siawn led them there, cutting a
little north of where Alun had tried to force his way through. There were nine
of them. The other young Cadyri, Gryffeth ap Ludh, had joined them, fighting
sorrow. They found the two dead Erlings and a dying one almost immediately. Siawn
leaned over in his saddle and killed the wounded man with his sword. He'd
needed to do that, Ceinion thought: Brynn's captain had come into the yard too
late, after the fighting was done. The cleric said nothing. There were
teachings against this, but this wood tonight was not the place for them. By
the light of their smoking torches they saw signs of passage through the far
side of that small glade. They went straight through and out the other side,
and so came to the wider clearing, the pool of water under stars. Stopped then,
all of them, without words. It became very quiet, even the horses. The
man next to Ceinion made the sign of the sun disk. The cleric, a little
belatedly, did the same. Pools in the wood, wells, oak groves, mounds . . . the
half-world. The pagan places that had once been holy before the Cyngael had
come to Jad, or the god had come to them in their valleys and hills. These
forest pools were his enemies, and Ceinion knew it. The first clerics, arriving
from Batiara and Ferrieres, had chanted stern invocations, reading from the
liturgy beside such waters as this, casting out all presence of false spirits
and old magics. Or trying to. People might kneel today in stone chapels of the
god and go straight from them to seek their future from a wise woman using
mouse bones, or drop an offering in a well. Or into a pool by moonlight, or
under stars. "Let's
go," Ceinion said. "This is just water, just a wood." "No
it isn't, my lord," said the man beside him, respectfully but firmly. The
one who had made the sign. "He's here. Look." And only then did
Ceinion see the boy on his horse, motionless in the water, and understand. "Dear
Jad!" said one of the others. "He went into the pool." "No
moons," said another. "A moonless night—look at him." "Do
you hear music?" said Siawn abruptly. "Listen!" "We
do not," said Ceinion of Llywerth, fiercely, his heart beating fast
now. "Look
at him," Siawn repeated. "He's trapped. Can't even move!" The
horses were restive now, agitated by their riders, or by something else,
tossing their heads. "Of
course he can move," said the cleric, and swung down from his mount and
went forward, striding hard, a man used to woods and nights and swift, decisive
movement. "No!"
cried a voice from behind him. "My lord, do not—" That
he ignored. There were souls here, to save and defend. His entrusted task for
so long. He heard an owl cry, hunting. A normal sound, proper in a night
wood. Part of the order of things. Men feared the unknown, and so the dark. Jad
was Light in his being, an answer to demons and spirits, shelter for his
children. He
spoke a swift prayer and went straight into the pool, splashing through the
shallows, calling the young prince's name. The boy didn't even turn his head.
Ceinion came up beside him, and in the darkness he saw that Alun ab Owyn's
mouth was wide open, as though he was trying to speak—or shout. He caught his
breath. And
then, terribly, there was the sound of music. Very faint it seemed to
Ceinion, ahead of them and to the right. Horns and flutes, stringed
instruments, bells, moving across the unrippled stillness of the water. He
looked, saw nothing there. Ceinion spoke Jad's holy name. He signed the disk,
and seized the reins of the Erling horse. It wouldn't move. He
didn't want the others to see him struggling with the animal. Their souls,
their belief, were in danger here. He reached up with both arms and pulled
Owyn's son, unresisting, from the saddle. He threw the young man over one
shoulder and carried him, splashing and staggering, almost falling, out of the
pool, and he laid him down on the dark grass at the water's edge. Then he knelt
beside him, touched the disk about his throat, and prayed. After
a moment, Alun ab Owyn blinked. He shook his head. Drew a breath and then
closed his eyes, which was a curious relief, because what Ceinion saw in his
face, even in the darkness, was harrowing. Eyes
still closed, voice low, utterly uninflected, the young Cadyri said, "I
saw him. My brother. There were faeries, and he was there." "You
did not," Ceinion said firmly, clearly. "You are grieving, my child,
and in a strange place, and you have just killed someone, I believe. Your mind
was overswayed. It happens, son of Owyn. I know it happens. We long for those
we have lost, we see them . . . everywhere. Believe me, sunrise and the god
will set you right on this." "I
saw him," Alun repeated. No
emphasis, the quiet more unsettling than fervour or insistence would have been.
He opened his eyes, looking up at Ceinion. "You
know that is heresy, lad. I do not want—" "I
saw him." Ceinion
looked over his shoulder. The others had remained where they were, watching.
Too far away to hear. The pool was still as glass. No wind in the glade.
Nothing that could be taken for music now. He must have imagined it himself;
would never claim to be immune to the strangeness of a place like this. And he
had a memory of his own, pushed hard away, always, of . . . another place like
this. He was aware of the shapes of power, the weight of the past. He was a
fallible man, always had been, struggling to be virtuous in times that made it
hard. He
heard the owl again; far side of the water now. Ceinion looked up, stars
overhead in the bowl of sky between trees. The
Erling horse shook its head, snorted loudly, and walked placidly out of the
pond by itself. It lowered its head to crop the black grass beside them.
Ceinion watched it for a moment, the utter ordinariness. He looked back at the
boy, took a deep breath. "Come,
lad," he said. "Will you pray with me, at Brynn's chapel?" "Of
course," said Alun ab Owyn, almost too calmly. He sat up, and then stood,
without aid. Then he walked straight back into the pool. Ceinion
half lifted a hand in protest, then saw the boy bend down and pick up a sword
from the shallows. Alun walked back out. "They've
gone, you see," he said. They
returned to the others, leading the Erling horse. Two of Brynn's men made the
sign of the disk as they came up, eyeing the Cadyri prince warily. Gryffeth ap
Ludh dismounted and embraced his cousin. Alun returned the gesture, briefly.
Ceinion watched him, his brow knit. "The
two Cadyri and I will go back to Brynnfell," he said. "Two of them
escaped from me," Alun said, looking up at Siawn. "The one with the
bow. Ivarr." "We'll
catch him," said Siawn, quietly. "He
went south, around the water," Owyn's son said, pointing. "Probably
double back west." He seemed composed, grave even. Too much so, in fact.
The cousin was weeping. Ceinion felt a needle of fear. "We'll
catch him," Siawn repeated, and cantered off, giving the pool a wide
berth, his men following. Certainty
can be misplaced, even when there is fair cause for it. They didn't, in fact,
catch him: a man on a good-enough horse, in darkness, which made tracking hard.
Some days later, word would come to Brynnfell of two people killed, by arrows—a
farm labourer and a young girl—in the thinly populated valley between them and
the sea. Both the man and the girl had been blood-eagled, which was an
abomination. Nor would anyone ever find the Erling ships moored, Jad alone knew
where, along the wild and rocky coastline to the west. The god might indeed
know, but he didn't always confide such things to his mortal children, doing
what they could to serve him in a dark and savage world. FOUR Rhiannon
had known since childhood (not yet so far behind her) that her father's
importance did not emerge from court manners and courtly wit. Brynn ap Hywll
had achieved power and renown by killing men: Anglcyn and Erling and, on more
than one occasion, those from the provinces of Cadyr and Llywerth, in the
(lengthy) intervals between (brief) truces among the Cyngael. "Jad's
a warrior," was his blunt response to a sequence of clerics who'd joined
his household and then attempted to instill a gentler piety in the
battle-scarred leader of the Hywll line. Nonetheless,
whatever she might have known from harp song and meadhall tale, his daughter
had never seen her father kill until tonight. Until the moment when he had
slashed a thrown and caught sword deep into the Erling who'd been trying to
bargain his way to freedom. It
hadn't disturbed her, watching the man die. That
was a surprise. She had discovered it about herself: seeing the sword of Alun
ab Owyn in her father's thick hands come down on the Erling. She wondered if it
was a bad, even an impious thing that she didn't recoil from what she saw and
heard: strangled, bubbling cry, blood bursting, a man falling like a sack. It
gave her, in truth, a measure of satisfaction. She knew that she ought properly
to atone for that, in chapel. She had no intention of doing so. There were two
gashes on her throat and neck from an Erling axe. There was blood on her body,
and on her green gown. She had been expecting to die in her own chambers
tonight. Had told Siawn and his men to let the Erling kill her. She
could still hear herself speaking those words. Resolute then, she'd had to
conceal shaking hands after. Had,
accordingly, little sympathy to spare for Erling raiders when they were slain,
and that applied to the five her father ordered executed when it became evident
they were not going to bring any ransom. They
were dispatched where they stood in the torchlit yard. No words spoken, no
ceremony, pause for prayer. Five living men, five dead men. In the time one
might lift and drink a cup of wine. Brynn's men began walking around the yard
with torches, killing those Erlings who lay on the ground, wounded, not yet
dead. They had come to raid, take slaves, rape and kill, the way they always
came. A
message needed to be sent, endlessly: the Cyngael might not worship gods of
storm and sword, or believe in an afterworld of endless battle, but they could
be—some of them could be—as bloody and as ruthless as an Erling when need
was. She
was still outside when her father spoke to the older, red-bearded raider. Brynn
walked up to the man, held again between two of their people, more tightly than
before. He had broken free once—and saved Brynn from an arrow. Her father,
Rhiannon realized, was dealing with a great anger because of that. "How
many of you were here?" Brynn bit off the words, speaking quietly. He was
never quiet, she thought. "Thirty,
a few more." No hesitation. The man was almost as big as her father,
Rhiannon saw. And of an age. "As
many left behind?" "Forty,
to guard the ships. Take them off the coast, if necessary." "Two
ships?" "Three.
We had some horses, to come inland." Brynn
had dressed by now, was holding his own sword, though there was no need for it.
He began to pace as they spoke. The red-bearded Erling watched his movements,
standing between two men. They were gripping his arms tightly, Rhiannon saw.
She was certain her father was going to kill him. "You
rode straight for this farmhouse?" "Yes,
that was the idea. If we could find it." "How
did you find it?" "Captured
a shepherd." "And
he is?" "Dead,"
said the Erling. "I can take you to him, if you want." "You
expected this house to be undefended?" The
man smiled a little, then, and shook his head. "Not defended by your
warband, certainly. Young leaders. They made a mistake." "You
weren't one of them?" The
other man shook his head. "The
one who held me brought you here? Of the line of the Volgan?" The
Erling nodded. "Elder
grandson?" Brynn had stopped in front of him again. "Younger. Ivarr's
the elder." "But
he didn't lead." The
man shook his head. "Yes and no. It was his idea. But Ivarr's . . .
different." Brynn
was stabbing his blade into the earth now. "You
came to burn this farm?" "And
kill you, and any of your family here, yes." He
was so calm, Rhiannon thought. Had he made his peace with dying? She didn't
think that was it. He'd surrendered, said he didn't want to be killed, back in
her chamber. "Because
of the grandfather?" The
man nodded. "Your killing him. Taking the sword. These two decided they
were of an age to avenge it, since their father had not. They were wrong." "And
why are you here? You're as old as I am." First
hesitation. In the silence Rhiannon could hear the horses and the crackle of
torches. "Nothing to keep me in Vinmark. I made a mistake, too." Part
of an answer, Rhiannon thought, listening closely. Brynn was staring at him.
"Coming, or before you came?" Another pause. "Both." "There's
no ransom for you, is there." "No,"
the man said frankly. "Once there might have been." Brynn's gaze was
steady. "Maybe. Were you ransomed last time you were taken here, or did
you escape?" Again,
a silence. "Escaped," the Erling admitted. He
had decided, Rhiannon realized, that there was no hope in anything but honesty. Brynn
was nodding. "I thought so. I believe I remember you. The red hair. You did
raid with Volganson, didn't you? You escaped east, twenty-five years ago,
after he died. Through the hills. All the way to the Erling settlements on the
east coast. They chased you, didn't they? You used a cleric as hostage, if I
remember." A
murmur, from those listening. "I
did. I released him. He was a decent enough man." Brynn's voice altered
slightly. "That
was a long way to go." "By
Ingavin's blind eye, I wouldn't want to do it again," the Erling said
dryly. Another
silence. Brynn resumed his pacing. "There's no ransom for you. What can
you offer me?" "A
hammer, sworn loyalty." "Until
you escape again?" "I
said I wouldn't do it again, that journey. I was young then." He looked
down and away for the first time, then back up. "I have nothing to go home
to, and this place is as good as any for me to end my days. You can make me a
slave, to dig ditches or carry water, or use me more wisely, but I will not
escape again." "You
will take the oath and come to the faith of Jad?" Another
slight smile, torchlight upon him. "I did that last time." Brynn
didn't return the smile. "And recanted?" "Last
time. I was young. I'm not any more. Neither Ingavin nor your sun god are worth
dying for, in my judgement. I suppose I am a heretic to two faiths. Kill
me?" Brynn
was standing still again, in front of him. "Where
are the ships? You will guide us to them." The
Erling shook his head. "Not that." Rhiannon
saw her father's expression. He wasn't normally someone she feared. "Yes
that, Erling." "This
is the price of being allowed to live?" "It
is. You spoke of loyalty. Prove it." The
Erling was still a moment, considering. Torches moved in the yard around them.
Men were being carried inside, or helped if they could walk. "Best
kill me then," the red-bearded man said. "If
I must," said Brynn. "No,"
said someone else, stepping forward. "I will take him as a man of mine. My
own guard." Rhiannon
turned, her mouth falling open. "Let
me be clear on this," her mother went on, coming to stand beside her
husband, looking at the Erling. Rhiannon hadn't realized she was even with
them. "I believe I understand. You would fight an Erling band that came
upon us now, but will not reveal where your fellows are?" The
Erling looked at her. "Thank you, my lady," he said. "Certain
things done for life make the life unworthy. You become sick with them. They
poison you, your thoughts." He turned back to Brynn. "They were
shipmates," he said. Brynn's
gaze held that of the Erling another moment, then he looked to his wife.
"You trust him?" Enid
nodded her head. He
was still frowning. "He can easily be killed. I will do it myself." "I
know you will. You want to. Leave him to me. Let us get to our work. There are
wounded men here. Erling, what is your name?" "Whatever
name you give me," the man said. The
Lady Enid swore. It was startling. "What is your name?" she repeated. A
last hesitation, then that wry expression again. "Forgive me. My mother
named me Thorkell. I answer to it."
Rhiannon
watched the Erling go with her mother. He'd said before, in her rooms, that he
could be ransomed. A lie, it now emerged. From the look of him—an old man still
raiding—Helda had said she doubted it. Helda was older, knew more about these
things. She was the calmest of them, too, had helped Rhiannon simply by being
that way. They had almost died. They could have died tonight. The one
named Thorkell had saved her father and herself, both. Rhiannon,
hands steady as she gathered linens and carried heated water with Helda for the
wounded in the hall, remembered the wind of that hammer flying past her face.
Realized--already—that she would likely do so all her life, carrying the memory
like the two scars on her throat. Tonight
the world had altered, very greatly, because there was also the other thing,
which ought to have been pushed away or buried deep or lost in all the
bloodshed, but wasn't. Alun ab Owyn had ridden an Erling horse out of the yard,
pursuing the archer who'd shot at her father. He hadn't yet come back. Brynn
ordered a pit to be dug in the morning, beyond the cattle pen, and the bodies
of the slain raiders shovelled in. Their own dead—nine so far, including Dai ab
Owyn—had been taken into the room attached to the chapel, to be cleansed and
clothed, laid out for the rituals of burial. Woman's work after battle, when it
could be done. Rhiannon had never performed these rites before. They had never
been attacked at home before. Not in her lifetime. They didn't live near the sea. They
tended the wounded in the banquet hall, the dead in the room by the chapel,
lights burning through Brynnfell. Her mother stopped by her once, long enough
to look at her neck and then lay a salve—briskly, expressionlessly—and wrap the
two wounds with a linen cloth. "You
won't die," she said, and moved on. Rhiannon
knew that. She would never now be sung for a pure white, swan-like neck,
either. No matter. No matter at all. She carried on, following her mother. Enid
knew what to do here, as in so many things. Rhiannon
helped, as best she could. Bathing and wrapping wounds, speaking comfort and
praise, fetching ale with the servant girls for the thirsty. One man died on a
table in their hall, as they watched. A sword had taken off most of one leg, at
the thigh, they couldn't stop the bleeding. His name was Bregon. He'd liked
fishing, teasing the girls, had freckles on his nose and cheeks in summer.
Rhiannon found herself weeping, which she didn't want but couldn't seem to do
much about. Not very long ago, when tonight had begun, there had been a feast,
and music. If Jad had shaped the world differently, time could run backwards
and make it so the Erlings had never come. She kept moving a hand, touching the
cloth around her neck. She wanted to stop doing that, too, but couldn't. Four
men carried Bregon ap Moran from the hall on a table board, out the doors and
across the yard to the room by the chapel where the dead men were. She looked
at Helda and they followed. He used to make jokes about her hair, Rhiannon
remembered, called her Crow when she was younger. Brynn's men had not been shy
with his children, though that had changed when she came into womanhood, as did
much else. She
would lay him out for burial—with Helda's help, for she didn't know what to do.
There were half a dozen women in the room, working among the dead by lantern
light. The cleric, Cefan, was kneeling with a sun disk between his hands,
unsteadily intoning the ritual words of the Night Passage. He was young,
visibly shaken. How could he not be, Rhiannon thought. They
set Bregon's board down on the floor. The tables were covered with other bodies
already. There was water, and linen clothing. They had to wash the dead first,
everywhere, comb out their hair and beards, clean their fingernails, that they
might go to Jad fit to enter his halls if the god, in mercy, allowed. She knew
every man lying here. Helda
began removing Bregon's tunic. It was stiff with blood. Rhiannon went to get a
knife to help her cut it away, but then she saw that there was no one by Dai ab
Owyn, and she went and stood over the Cadyri prince where he lay. Time
didn't run backwards in the world they had. Rhiannon looked down at him, and
she knew it would be a lie to pretend she hadn't seen him staring at her when
she'd walked into the hall, and another lie to say it was the first time
something of that sort had happened. And a third one (a failing of the Cyngael,
threes all the time?) to deny that she'd enjoyed having that effect on men. The
passage from girl to woman being negotiated in pleasure, an awareness of
growing power. No
pleasure now, no power that meant anything at all. She knelt beside him on the
stone floor and reached out and brushed his brown hair back. A handsome, clever
man. Needful as night's end, he had said. No ending to night now, unless
the god allowed it for his soul. She looked at the wound in him, the dark blood
clotted there. It occurred to her that it was proper that Brynn's daughter be
the one to attend to a prince of Cadyr, their guest. Cefan, not far away, was
still chanting, his eyes closed, his voice wavering away from him like the
smoke from the candles, rising up. The women whispered or were silent, moving
back and forth, doing their tasks. Rhiannon swallowed hard, and began to
undress the dead man. "What
are you doing?" She'd
thought, actually, that she would know if he came into a room; that already she
would know when that happened. She turned and looked up. "My
lord prince," she said. Rose and stood before him. Saw the cousin,
Gryffeth, and the high priest behind, his face grave, uneasy. "What
are you doing?" Alun ab Owyn repeated. His expression was rigid, walled
off. "I
am . . . attending to his body, my lord. For . . . laying out?" She heard
herself stammering. She never did that. "Not
you," he said flatly. "Someone else." She
swallowed. Had never lacked courage, even as a child. "Why so?" she
said. "You
dare ask?" Behind, Ceinion made a small sound and a gesture, then stood
still. "I
must ask," Rhiannon said. "I know of nothing I might ever have done
to Owyn's house to cause this to be said. I grieve for our people, and for your
sorrow." He
stared at her. It was difficult, in this light, to see his eyes, but she had
seen them in the hall, before. "Do
you?" he said finally, blunt as a hammer. She couldn't stop thinking of
hammers. "Do you even begin to grieve? My brother went outside alone and
unarmed because of you. He died hating me because of you. I will live with that
the rest of my days. Do you realize this? At all?" There
was something hot, like a fever, coming off him now. She said, desperately,
"I believe I understand what you are saying. It is unjust. I didn't make
him feel—" "A
lie! You wanted to make every man love you, to play at it. A game." Her
heart was pounding now. "You are . . . unjust, my lord." Repeating
herself. "Unjust? You tested that power every time you entered
a room." "How do you know any such thing?" How did he
know? "Will you deny it?" She
was grieving, her heart twisting, because of who it was, saying these
words to her. But she was also Brynn's daughter, and Enid's, and not raised to
yield, or to cry. "And
you?" she asked, lifting her head. Her bandage chafed. "You, my lord?
Never tested yourself? Never went on . . . cattle raids, son of Owyn? Into
Arberth, perhaps? Never had someone hurt, or die, when you did that? You and
your brother?" She
saw him check, breathing hard. She was aware that he was, amazingly, near to
striking her. How had the world come to this? The cousin stepped forward, as if
to stop him. "It
is wrong!" was all Alun could manage to say, fighting for self-control. "No
more than the things a boy does, becoming a man. I cannot steal cattle or swing
a sword, ab Owyn!" "Then
go east to Sarantium!" he rasped, his voice altered. "If you want to
deal in power like that. Learn . . . learn how to poison like their empresses,
you'll kill so many more men." She
felt the colour leave her face. The others in the room had stopped moving, were
looking at them. "Do you . . . hate me so much, my lord?" He
didn't reply. She had thought, truly, he would say yes, had no idea what she'd
have done if he did so. She swallowed hard. Needed her mother, suddenly. Enid
was with the living, in the other room. She
said, "Would you wish the Erling hadn't thrown his hammer to save my
life?" Her voice was level, hands steady at her sides. Small blessings, he
wouldn't know how much this cost her. "Others died here, my lord prince.
Nine of us now. Likely more, before sunrise. Men we knew and loved. Are you
thinking only of your brother tonight? Like the Erling my father killed, who
demanded one horse when he had men taken with him?" His
head snapped back, as from a blow. He opened his mouth, closed it without
speaking. Their eyes locked. Then turning, blundering past the cleric and his
cousin, he rushed from the room. Ceinion called his name. Alun never broke
stride. Rhiannon
put a hand to her mouth. There was a need to weep, and a greater need not to do
so. She saw the cousin, Gryffeth, take two steps towards the door, then stop
and turn back. After a moment, he went and knelt beside the dead man. She saw
him extend a hand and touch the place where the blade had gone in. "Child,"
whispered the high cleric, her father's friend, her mother's. She
didn't look at him. She was staring, instead, at the open doorway. The
emptiness of it, where someone had gone out. Had walked into the night, hating
her—the way he'd said his brother had left him. A pattern? Set and sealed with
iron and blood? You
can't have what you want, Helda had
said, even before everything else. "How
did this happen?" she asked, of the cleric, of the world. Holy
men usually spoke of the mysterious ways of the god. "I
do not know," Ceinion of Llywerth murmured, instead. "You're
supposed to know," she said, turning to look at him. Heard her
voice break. Hated that. He stepped forward, drew her into his arms. She let
him, lowered her head. Didn't weep, at first, and then she did. Heard the
cousin praying over the body on the floor beside them.
+
Three
things not well or wisely done, the
triad went. Approaching a forest pool by night. Making wrathful a woman of
spirit. Drinking unwatered wine alone. They
did things by threes in this land, Alun thought savagely. Obviously it was time
for him to claim one of the wine jars and carry it off, drain it by himself
until oblivion came down. He
wished in that moment, striding through the empty farmyard without the least
idea where he meant to go, that the Erling arrow had killed him in the wood.
The world was unassuageably awry. His heart had a hollow inside it where Dai
had been. It was not going to fill; there was nothing to fill it with. He
saw a glimmering of light on the treed slope beyond the yard. Not a
torch. It was pale, motionless, no flickering. He
found himself breathing shallowly, as if he were hiding from searchers. He
squeezed shut his eyes. The glow was still there when he opened them. There was
no one else in the farmyard now. A spring night, the breeze mild, dawn a long
way off still. The stars brilliant overhead, in patterns that told their
stories of ancient glory and pain, figures from before the faith of Jad came
north. Mortals and animals, gods and demigods. The night seemed heavy and
endless, like something into which one fell. A
shining on the slope. Alun undid his belt, let fall his sword, walked through
the gate of the yard and up the hill.
She
sees him drop the iron. Knows what that means. He can see her now. He has been
in the pool with them. For some of them, after that, the faeries can be seen.
Her impulse, very strong, is to flee. It is one thing to hover near, to watch
them, unseen. This is something else. She
makes herself stay where she is, waiting. Has a sudden, fearful thought, scans
with her mind's eye: the spruaugh, who might tell of this, is curled asleep
in the hollow of a tree. The
man comes through the gate, closes it behind him, begins to climb the slope. He
can see her. She almost does fly away then, though they can't really
fly, not any more. She is trembling. Her hair shivers through its colours,
again and again.
She
was smaller than the queen, half a head smaller than he was. Alun stopped, just
below where she stood. They were beside the thicket, on the mostly open slope.
She'd been half hidden behind a sapling, came out when he stopped, but touching
it. Utterly still, poised for flight. A faerie, standing before him in the
world he'd thought he'd known. She
was slender, very long fingers, pale skin, wide-set eyes, a small face, though
not a child's. She was clad in something green that left her arms free and
showed her legs to the knee. A belt made of flowers, he saw. Flowers in her
hair—which kept changing colour as he looked, dizzyingly. The wonder of that,
even under stars. He could only see clearly by the light she cast. That, as
much as anything, telling him how far he'd come, walking up from the farmyard.
The half-world, they named it in the tales. Where he was now. Men were lost
here, in the stories. Never came back, or returned a hundred years after they'd
walked or ridden away, everyone they knew long dead. He could see her small
breasts through the thinness of what she wore. Did they feel the cold, faeries? There
was an ache in his throat. "How
. . . how am I seeing you?" He had no idea if she could even speak, use
words. His words. Her hair
went pale, nearly white, came back towards gold but not all the way. She said,
"You were in the pool. I . . . saved you there." Her voice, simply
speaking words, made him realize he had never, really, made music with his
harp, or sung a song the way it should be sung. He felt that he would weep if
he were not careful. "How?
Why?" He sounded harsh to his own ears, after her. A bruising of the
starlit air. "I
stopped your horse, in the shallows. They would have killed you, had you come
nearer the queen." She'd
answered one question, not the other. "My brother was there." It was
difficult to speak. "Your
brother is dead. His soul is with the Ride." "Why?" Reddened
hair now, crimson in summer dark. Her shining let him see. "I took it for
the queen. First dead of the battle tonight." Dai.
No weapon, when he had gone out. First dead. Whatever that meant. But she was
telling him. Alun knelt on the damp, cool grass. His legs were weak. "I
should hate you," he whispered. "I
do not know what that means," she said. Music. He
thought about that, and then of the girl, Brynn's daughter, in that room by the
chapel, where his brother's body lay. He wondered if he would ever play the
harp again. "What
. . . why does the queen ... ?" Saw
her smile, first time, a flashing of small, white teeth. "She loves them.
They excite her. Those who have been mortals. From your world." "Forever?" The
hair to violet. The slim, small body so white beneath the pale green garment.
"What could be forever?" That
hollow, in his heart. "But after? What happens . . . to him?" Grave
as a cleric, as a wise child, as something so much older than he was.
"They go from the Ride when she tires of them." "Go where?" So
sweet a music in this voice. "I am not wise. I do not know. I have never
asked." "He'll
be a ghost," Alun said then, with certainty, on his knees under stars.
"A spirit, wandering alone, a soul lost." "I
do not know. Would not your sun god take him?" He
placed his hands on the night grass beside him. The coolness, the needed ordinariness
of it. Jad was beneath the world now, they were taught; doing battle with
demons for his children's sake. He echoed her, without her music. "I do
not know. Tonight, I
don't know anything. Why did you . . . save me in the pool?" The question
she hadn't answered. She
moved her hands apart, a rippling, like water. "Why should you die?" "But
I am going to die." "Would
you rush to the dark?" she asked. He
said nothing. After a moment, she took a step nearer to him. He remained
motionless, kneeling, saw her hand reach out. He closed his eyes just before
she touched his face. He felt, almost overwhelmingly, the presence of desire. A
need: to be taken from himself, from the world. To never come back? She had the
scent of flowers all about her, in the night. Eyes
still closed, Alun said, "They tell us . . . they tell us there will be
Light." "Then
there will be, for your brother," she said. "If that is so." Her
fingers moved, touched his hair. He could feel them trembling, and understood,
only then, that she was as afraid, and as aroused as he was. Worlds that moved
beside each other, never touched. Almost
never. He opened his mouth, but before he could speak again he felt a
shockingly swift movement, an absence. Never said what he would have said,
never knew what he would have said. He looked up quickly. She was
already ten paces away. In no time at all. Standing against a sapling again,
half turned, to fly farther. Her hair was dark, raven black. He
looked back over his shoulder. Someone was coming up the slope. He didn't feel
surprise at all. It was as if the capacity to feel that had been drained from
him, like blood. He
was still very young that night, Alun ab Owyn. The thought that actually came
to him as he recognized who was climbing—and was gazing past him at the faerie—was
that nothing would ever surprise him again. Brynn
ap Hywll crested the ridge and crouched, grunting with the effort, beside Alun
on the grass. The big man plucked some blades of grass, keeping silent, looking
at the shimmering figure by the tree not far away. "How
do you see her?" Alun asked, softly. Brynn
rubbed the grass between his huge palms. "I was in that pool, most of a
lifetime ago, lad. A night when a girl refused me and I went walking my sorrow
into the wood. Did an unwise thing. Girls can make you do that, actually." "How
did you know I ... ?" "One
of the men Siawn sent to report. Said you killed two Erlings, and were mazed in
the pond till Ceinion took you out." "Does he . . . did Siawn . . .
?" "No.
My man just told me that much. Didn't understand any of it." "But
you did?" "I
did." "You've
. . . seen them all these years?" "I've
been able to. Hasn't happened often. They avoid us. This one . . . is
different, is often here. I think it's the same one. I see her up here
sometimes, when we're at Brynnfell." "Never
came up?" Brynn
looked over at him for the first time. "Afraid to," he said, simply. "I
don't think she'll hurt us." The
faerie was silent, still by the slender tree, still poised between lingering
and flight, listening to them. "She
can hurt you by drawing you here," Brynn said. "It gets hard to come
back. You know the tales as well as I do. I had .. . tasks in the world, lad.
So do you, now." Ceinion,
down below, before: You do not have leave to go from us. Alun
looked at the other man in the darkness, thought about the burden in those
words. A lifetime's worth. "You dropped your sword, to climb up
here." He
saw Brynn smile then. A little ruefully, the big man said, "How
could I let you be braver than me, lad?" He grunted again, and rose.
"I'm too old and fat to crouch all night in the dark." He stood
there, bulky against the sky. The
shimmering figure by the tree moved back, another half a dozen paces. "Iron,"
she said, softly. "Still. It is . . . pain." Brynn
was motionless. He'd never have heard her, Alun realized. Not ever have known
the music of this voice, through all the years. Most of a lifetime ago. He
wondered at someone with the will to know of this, and not speak of it, and
stay away. "But
I left my . . ." Brynn stopped. Swore, though quietly. Reached down into
his boot and pulled free the knife that was hidden there. "My
sorrow," he said. "It was not intended, spirit." He turned away,
and stepping forward strongly, hurled the blade, arcing it through the night
air, all the way down the hill and over the fence into the empty yard. A
very long throw. I couldn't have done that, Alun thought. He stared at
the figure beside him: the man who'd killed the Volgan long ago, in the days
when the Erlings were here every spring or summer, year after year. A harder,
darker time, before Alun had been born, or Dai. But if you were slain in a
small, failed raid today, you were just as dead as if it had been back then at
the hands of the Volgan's own host, weren't you? And your soul ... ? Brynn
turned to him. "We should go," he said. "We must go." Alun
didn't move from where he knelt on the cool grass. And your soul? He
said, "She isn't supposed to exist, is she?" "What
man would say that?" Brynn said. "Were they fools, our ancestors who
told of the faerie host? The glory and peril of them? Her kind have been here
longer than we have. What the holy men teach is that they endanger our hope of
Light." "Is
that what they teach?" Alun said. Heard
his own bitterness. Dark here, in the starry night, except for the light where
she was. He
turned his head again, almost against his will, looked at her, still backed
away from the tree. Her hair was pale again. Since the knife had gone, he
thought. She hadn't come nearer, however. He thought of her fingers, touching
him, the scent of flowers. He swallowed. He wanted to ask her again about Dai,
but he did not. Kept silent. "You
know it is true, what they teach us," said Brynn ap Hywll. He was looking
at Alun, not over at the figure that stood beyond the tree, shimmering, her
hair the colour now of the eastern sky before the morning sun. "You can
feel it, can you not? Even here? Come down, lad. We'll pray together. For your
brother and my men, and for ourselves." "You
can . . . just walk away from this?" Alun said. He was looking at the
faerie, who was looking back at him, not moving, not saying a word now. "I
have to," said the other man. "I have been doing it all my life. You
will begin doing it now, for your soul's sake, and all the things to be
done." Alun
heard something in the voice. Turned his head, looked up again. Brynn gazed
back at him, steadily, a looming figure in the dark of the night. Thirty years
with a sword, fighting. The things to be done. Had either of the moons
been shining tonight—if the old tales told true—none of this would have
happened. Dai
would still be dead, though. Among all the other dead. Brynn's daughter had
challenged him with that, driven him out of doors because there was . . . no
answer for her, and no release from this hollowness within. Alun
turned back to the faerie. Her wide-set eyes held his. Maybe, he thought, there
was a release. He drew a slow breath and let it out. He stood up. "Watch
over him," he said. Not more than that. She would know. She
came forward a few steps, to the tree again. One hand on it, as if embracing,
merging into it. Brynn turned his back and started resolutely down and Alun
followed him, not looking back, knowing she was there, was watching him from
the slope, from the other world. When
he reached the farmyard, Brynn had already reclaimed their swords. He handed
Alun his, and his belt. "I'll
get my knife in the morning," ap Hywll said. Alun
shook his head. "I saw where it fell, I think." He walked across the
yard. The lanterns inside did not cast their glow this far, only lit the
windows, showing where people were, the presence of life among the dying and
the dead. He found the knife almost immediately, though. Carried it back to
Brynn, who stood for a moment, holding it, looking at Alun. "Your
brother was our guest," he said at length. "My sorrow is great, and
for your mother and father." Alun
nodded his head. "My father is a ... hard man. I believe you know it. Our
mother ..." Their
mother.
Let
the light of the god be yours, my child, Let
it guide you through the world and home to me .. .
"My
mother will want to die," he said. "We
live in a hard world," Brynn said after a moment, reaching for words.
"They will surely find comfort in having a strong son yet, to take up the
burdens that will fall to you now." Alun
looked up at him in the darkness. The bulky presence. "Sometimes people .
. . don't take up their burdens, you know." Brynn shrugged.
"Sometimes, yes." No
more than that. Alun
sighed, felt a great weariness. He was the heir to Cadyr, with all that meant.
He shook his head. Brynn
bent down and slipped the dagger into the sheath in his boot. He straightened.
They stood there, the two of them in the yard, as in a halfway place between
the treed slope and the lights. Brynn
coughed. "Up there you said . . . you asked her to take care of him. Um,
what did . . . ?" Alun
shook his head again, didn't answer. Would never answer that question, he
decided. Brynn cleared his throat again. From inside the house, beyond the
double doors, they heard someone cry in pain. Neither
of them, Alun realized, was standing in such a way that they could see if there
was still a shimmering above them on the hill. If he turned his head . . . The
big man abruptly slapped his hand against his thigh, as if to break a mood, or
a spell. "I have a gift for you," he said brusquely, and whistled. Nothing
for a moment, then out of the blackness a shape appeared and came to them. The
dog—he was a wolfhound, and huge—rubbed its head against ap Hywll's thigh.
Brynn reached down, a hand in the dog's fur at its neck. "Cafall,"
he said calmly. "Hear me. You have a new master. Here he is. Go to
him." He let go and stepped away. Nothing again, at first, then the dog
tilted its head—a grey, Alun thought, though it was hard to be sure in the
darkness—looked at Brynn a moment, then at Alun. And
then he came quietly across the space between. Alun
looked down at him, held out one hand. The dog sniffed it for a moment, then
padded, with grace, to Alun's side. "You
gave him . . . that name?" Alun asked. This was unexpected, but ought to
have been trivial. It didn't feel that way. "Cafall,
yes. When he was a year old, in the usual way." "Then
he's your best dog." He
saw Brynn nod. "Best I've ever had." "Too
great a gift, my lord. I cannot—" "Yes,
you can," said Brynn. "For many reasons. Take a companion from me,
lad." That
was what the name meant, of course. Companion. Alun swallowed. There was
a constriction in his throat. Was this what would make him weep tonight,
after everything? He reached down and his hand rested on the warmth of the
dog's head. He rubbed back and forth, ruffling the fur. Cafall pushed against
his thigh. The ancient name, oldest stories. A very big dog, graceful and
strong. No ordinary wolfhound, to so calmly accept this change with a spoken
word in the night. It wasn't, he knew, a trivial gift at all. Not
to be refused. "My
thanks," he said. "My
sorrow," said Brynn again. "Let him . . . help keep you among us,
lad." So
that was it. Alun found himself blinking; the lights in the farmhouse windows
blurring for a moment. "Shall we go in?" he asked. Brynn
nodded. They
went in, to where lanterns were burning among the dead in the room beside the
chapel, and among all the wounded children of Jad—wounded in so many different
ways—within the house. The
dog followed, then lay down by the chapel door at Alun's murmured command.
Outside, on the slope to the south, something lingered for a time in the dark
and then went away, light as mist, before the morning came. FIVE It
had not been a good spring or summer for the traders of Rabady Isle, and there
were those quite certain they knew why. The list of grievances was long. Sturla
Ulfarson, who had succeeded Halldr Thinshank as governor of the island's
merchants and farmers and fisherfolk, might have only one hand but he possessed
two eyes and two ears and a nose for the mood of people, and he was aware that
men were comparing the (exaggerated) glories of Thinshank's days with the
troubles and ill omens that had marked the beginning of his own. Unfair,
perhaps, but no one had made him manoeuvre for this position, and
Ulfarson wasn't the self-pitying sort. Had he been so, he'd have been inclined
to point out that the notorious theft of Thinshank's grey horse and the marring
of his funeral rites last spring—the start of all their troubles—had happened
before the new governor had been acclaimed. He'd have noted that no man,
whatever kind of leader he might be, could have prevented the thunderstorm that
had killed two young people in the night fields shortly after that. And he
might also have bemoaned the fact that it was hardly within the power of a
local administrator to control events in the wider world: warfare among Karch
and Moskav and the Sarantines couldn't help but impact upon trade in the north. Sturla
One-hand did make these points decisively (he was a decisive man, for the most
part) when someone dared challenge him directly, but he also set about doing
what he could do on the isle, and as a result he discovered something. It
began with the families of the young man and woman killed in the storm.
Everyone knew Ingavin sent the thunder and all manner of storms, that there was
nothing accidental if people were killed or homes ruined by such things (a
world where the weather was utterly random was a world not to be endured). The
girl had been doing her year of service to the volur at the compound by
the edge of the forest. The young women of Rabady Isle took this duty, in turn,
before they wed. It was a ritual, an honourable one. Fulla, the corn goddess,
Ingavin's bride, needed attention and worship too, if children were to be born
healthy and the fields kept fertile. Iord, the seer, was an important figure
here on the isle: in her own way, as powerful as the governor was. Sturla
One-hand had paid a formal visit to the compound, bringing gifts, shortly after
his election by the thring. He hadn't liked the volur, but that
wasn't the point. If there was magic being used, you wanted it used for you,
not against you. Women could be dangerous. And
that, in fact, is what he discovered. The families of the young man and the
girl were elbowing each other towards a feud over their deaths, each blaming
the other's offspring for the two of them being out by the memorial cairn,
lying together when the lightning broke. Sturla had his own thoughts as to who
had inveigled whom, but it was important to be seen to be conducting an inquiry
first. His principal desire was to keep a blood feud from Rabady, or, at the
least, to limit the casualties. He
set about speaking with as many of the young ones as he could, and in this way
came to have a conversation with a yellow-haired girl from the mainland, the
newest member of the circle of women in the compound. She had come (properly)
in response to his summons and had knelt before him, shy, eyes suitably
downcast. She
had little assistance, however, to offer concerning the two lightning-charred
young ones, claiming to have seen Halli with the lad only once, "the
evening before Bern Thorkellson came to the seer with Thinshank's horse." The
new governor of Rabady Isle, who had been leaning back in his seat, an ale
flask in his one good hand, had leaned forward. The lightning storm, the two
dead youngsters, and a possible feud became less compelling. "Before
he what?" said Sturla One-hand. He
put the flask down, reached out with his hand and grabbed the girl by her
yellow hair, forcing her to look up at him. She paled, closed her eyes, as if
overwhelmed by his powerful nearness. She was pretty. "I
. . . I . . . should not have said that," she stammered. "And
why not?" growled Ulfarson, still gripping her by the hair. "She will
kill me!" "And
why?" the governor demanded. She
said nothing, obviously terrified. He tugged, hard. She whimpered. He did it
again. "She
. . . she did a magic-working on him." "She
what?" said Sturla, struggling, aware he was not sounding particularly
astute. The girl—he didn't know her name—suddenly rocked forward and threw her
arms around his legs, pressing her face to his thighs. It was not actually unpleasant. She
said, weeping, "She hated Thinshank . . . she will kill me ... but she
uses her power for ... for her own purposes. It is .. . wrong!" She spoke
with her mouth against him, arms clutching his legs. Sturla
One-hand let go of her hair and leaned back again. She remained where she was.
He said, "I will not hurt you, girl. Tell me what she did." In
this way, the governor—and later the people of Rabady—learned of how Iord the
seer had made a black seithr spell, rendering young Thorkellson her
helpless servant, forcing him to steal the horse, then making him invisible,
enabling him to board the southern ship that had been in the harbour—board it
with the grey horse—and sail away unseen. It was done by the volur to
spite Halldr Thinshank, of course, which was not an unreasonable desire, by any
means. But it was a treachery that had unleashed—obviously--malevolent auras
upon the isle (Halidr's, one had to assume), causing the calamities of the
season, including the lightning storm that killed two innocent youths. Erling
warriors were not, by collective disposition, inclined to nuanced debate when
resolving matters of this sort. Sturla One-hand might have been more thoughtful
than most, but he'd lost his hand (and achieved some wealth) raiding overseas.
You didn't ponder when attacking a village or sanctuary. You drank a lot
beforehand, prayed to Ingavin and Thьnir, and then fought and killed—and took
home what you found in the fury and ruin you shaped. An
axe and sword were perfectly good responses to treachery, in his view. And they
would serve the useful additional purpose of displaying Sturla's resolution,
early in what he hoped would be a prosperous tenure as governor of the isle. Iord
the seer and her five most senior companions were taken from the compound early
the next morning, stripped naked (bony and slack-breasted, all of them, hags
fit for no man), bound to hastily erected posts in the field near the cairn
stone where the two youngsters had died. When
they came for her, the seer tried—babbling in terror—to say that she'd deceived
young Thorkellson. That she'd only pretended to cast a spell for him, had
sent him back into town to be found. Sturla
One-hand had not lived so many years by being a fool. He pointed out that the
lad had not been found. So either the seer was lying, or the boy had
seen through her deception. And though young Thorkellson had been known to be
good with blade and hammer (Red Thorkell's son would be, wouldn't he?), he was
barely grown. And where was he? And the horse? She had her magic, what answer
would she give? She
never did answer. The
six women were stoned to death, the members of the two feuding families invited
to throw—standing together—the first volleys of stone and rock, as the most
immediately aggrieved. The wives and maidens joined the men, one of the times
they were permitted to do that. It took some time to kill six women (stoning
always did). The
ale was good that night and the next, and a second ship from Alrasan in the
south—where they worshipped the stars—appeared in the harbour two days later,
come to trade, a clear blessing of Ingavin. The
yellow-haired girl from the mainland had stood at the edges of the stoning
ground; they'd made the younger ones from the compound come watch. She'd had a
fearsome serpent coiled about her body, darting a venomous tongue. She was the
only one not terrified of it. No one stood near her as they watched the old
women die. The governor couldn't remember (he'd drunk a good deal that day and
night) just how he'd learned about her having been bitten back in the spring.
Perhaps she had told him herself. The
snake was noticed in the field. Not surprisingly. Serpents held the power of
the half-world within the skin they sloughed, rebuilding it anew. A snake would
devour the world at the end of days. It was much talked about that night. A
sign, it was agreed to be, a harbinger of power. The
girl was named by Sturla Ulfarson as the new volur of Rabady Isle a few
days later, after the southern ship had done its trading and gone. Normally the
men of Rabady didn't make this choice, but these weren't normal times. You
didn't stone a seer every year, did you? Maybe this change would prove to be
useful, bring the power of women, seithr and night magic, the compound
itself, more under control. Sturla
One-hand wasn't sure about that, and he couldn't actually have traced with
precision the thoughts or conversations that had led to any of these decisions.
Events had moved quickly, he had been . . . riding them . . . the way longships
rode a wave, or a leader on a battlefield rode the sweep of the fight, or a man
rode his woman after dark. She
was young. What of it? All the old ones were dead. They could have sent for a
woman across the water to Vinmark, even to Hlegest itself, but who knew what
that might have brought them, or when? Better not draw the attention of
increasingly ambitious men there, in any case. The girl had saved them from the
effects of an angry spirit and seemed to have been already chosen by the snake.
Men had been saying that, in the taverns. Sturla could read a rune-message if
it was spelled out for him. He
did know her name by then. Anrid. They called her "the Serpent,"
though, by summer's end. She hadn't come to him in the town again nor, in fact,
did it occur to him to ask her to do so. There were enough girls about for a
governor, no need to get entangled in that way with seers who kept
snakes by their beds in the dark or wrapped them around their bodies to watch
stones split flesh and crack bone in the morning light. Jormsvik
was more a fortress than a city. For
one thing, only the mercenaries themselves and their servants or slaves lived
within the walls. The rope-makers, sail-makers, armourers, tavern-keepers,
carpenters, metalsmiths, fishermen, bakers, fortune-tellers all lived in the
unruly town outside the walls. There were no women allowed inside Jormsvik,
though prostitutes were scattered through the twisting streets and alleys just
outside. There was money for a woman to make here, beside a large garrison. You
had to fight someone to become one of the men of Jormsvik, and fight steadily
to stay in. Until you became a leader, when your battles might reasonably be
expected to be all for hire and profit—if you stayed out of the tavern brawls. For
three generations the mercenaries of this fortress by the sea had been known
and feared—and employed—through the world. They had fought at the triple walls
of Sarantium (on both sides, at different times) and in Ferrieres and Moskav.
They had been hired (and hired away) by feuding lords vying for eminence here
in the Erling lands, as far north as the places where the sky flashed colours
in the cold nights and the reindeer herds ran in the tens of thousands. One
celebrated company had been in Batiara, joining a Karchite incursion towards fabled
Rhodias forty years ago. Only six of them had returned—wealthy. You received
your fee in advance, and shared it out beforehand, but then you divided the
spoils of war among the survivors. Survivors
could do well. First,
you had to survive getting in. There were young men desperate or reckless
enough to try each year, usually after the winter ended. Winter defined the
northlands: its imminent arrival; the white, fierce hardness of the season;
then the stirring of blood and rivers when it melted away. Spring
was busiest at the gates of Jormsvik. The procedure was known everywhere.
Goatherds and slaves knew it. You rode up or walked up to the walls. Shouted a
name—sometimes even your real one—to the watch, issued a challenge to let you
in. That same day, or the next morning, a man drawn by lot would come out to
fight you. The
winner went to bed inside the walls. The loser was usually dead. He didn't have
to be, you could yield and be spared, but it wasn't anything to count on.
The core of Jormsvik's reputation lay in being feared, and if you let farmboys
challenge you and walk away to tell of it by a winter's turf fire in some
bog-beset place, you weren't as fearsome as all that, were you? Besides
which, it made sense for those inside to deter challengers any way they could.
Sometimes the sword rune could be drawn from the barrel on a morning by a
fighter who'd been too enthusiastically engaged in the taverns all night, or
with the women, or both, and sometimes it wasn't just a farmboy at the gates. Sometimes,
someone came who knew what he was doing. They'd all gotten in that same way,
hadn't they? Sometimes you could die outside, and then the gate swung open and
a new mercenary was welcomed under whatever name he gave—they didn't care in
Jormsvik, everyone had a story in his past. He'd be told where his
pallet was, and his mess hall and captain. Same as the man he'd replaced, which
could be unpleasant if the dead man had friends, which was usually the case.
But this was a fortress for the hardest men in the world, not a warm meadhall
among family. You
got to the meadhalls of Ingavin by dying with a weapon to hand. Time then for
easiness, among ripe, sweet, willing maidens, and the gods. On this earth, you
fought.
Bern
was aware that he'd made a mistake, almost immediately after stooping through
the low door of the alehouse outside the walls. It wasn't a question of
thieves—the fighting men of Jormsvik were their own brutal deterrent to bandits
near their gates. It was the mercenaries themselves, and the way of things
here. A
stranger, he thought, a young man arriving alone in summer with a sword at his
side, could only be here for one reason. And if he was going to issue a
challenge in the morning, it made nothing but sense for any man in this ill-lit
room (which was nonetheless bright enough to expose him for what he was) to
protect himself and his fellows in obvious ways against what might happen on
the morrow. They
could kill him tonight, he realized, rather too late, though it didn't even
have to come to that. Those on the benches closest to where he'd sat down (too
far from the doorway, another mistake) smiled at him, asked after his health
and the weather and crops in the north. He answered, as briefly as he could.
They smiled again, bought him drinks. Many drinks. One leaned over and offered
him the dice cup. Bern
said he had no money to gamble, which was true. They said—laughing—he could
wager his horse and sword. He declined. At the table they laughed again. Big
men, almost all of them, one or two smaller than himself, but muscled and hard.
Bern coughed in the dense smoke of the room. They were cooking meat over two
open fires. He
was sweating; it was hot in here. He wasn't used to this. He'd been sleeping
outdoors for a fortnight now, riding south into Vinmark's summer, trees green
and the young grass, salmon leaping in the still-cold rivers. He'd been riding
quickly since he'd surprised and robbed a man for his sword and dagger and the
few coins in his purse. No point coming to Jormsvik without a weapon. He hadn't
killed the man, which might have been a mistake, but he'd never yet killed any
man. Would have to, tomorrow, or he'd very likely die here. Someone
banged down another tin cup of ale on the board in front of him, sloshing some
of it out. "Long life," the man said and moved on, didn't even bother
to stay to share the toast. They wanted him rendered senseless tonight, he
realized, slack-limbed and slow in the morning. Then
he thought about it again. He had no need to challenge tomorrow. Could
wake with a pounding head and spend the day clearing it, challenge the day
after, or the morning after that. And
they'd know it, he realized, every man in this room. They'd all done this
before. No, his first thought had been the wiser one: they wanted him drunk enough
to make a mistake tonight, get into a brawl, be crippled or killed when there
was nothing at stake—for them. Should he be flattered they thought he was worth
it? He wasn't fooled. These were the most experienced soldiers-for-hire in the
north: they didn't take chances when they didn't need to. There was no glory in
winning a wall-challenge when the sword rune was drawn, only risk. Why take it,
if you didn't have to? If the foolish traveller came into an ale room the night
before, showing his sword? At
least he'd hidden the horse, among the trees north of town. Gyllir was
accustomed to being tied in the woods now. He wondered if the stallion still
remembered Thinshank's barn. How long did horses remember things? He
was afraid. Trying not to let them see it. He thought of the water then, that
dead-black night, guiding the grey horse into the sea from the stony beach.
Expecting to die. Ice-cold, end of winter, whatever lay waiting in the straits,
under the water: what he'd survived. Was there a reason he'd lived? Did Ingavin
or Thьnir have a purpose in this? Probably not, actually. He wasn't . . .
important enough. But there was still no need to walk open-eyed into a
different death tonight. Not after coming out of the sea alive on a Vinmark
strand as a grey day dawned. He
lifted the new cup and drank, just a little. A bad mistake, coming in here. You
died of mistakes like that. But he'd been tired of solitude, nights alone. Had
thought to at least have a night among other men, hear human voices, laughter, before
he died in the morning fighting a mercenary. He hadn't thought it through. A
woman stood up, came over towards him, hips swaying. Men made way in the narrow
space between tables for her, though not without squeezing where she could be
reached. She smiled, ignored them, watched Bern watching her. He felt dizzy
already. Ale after not drinking for so long, the smoke, smells, the crowd. It
was so hot. The woman had been sitting with a burly, dark-bearded man clad in
animal skins. A bear-warrior. They had them here in Jormsvik, it seemed. He
remembered his father: Some say the berserkirs use magic. They don't,
but you never want to fight one if you can help it. Bern saw, through fire
smoke and lantern light, that the man was watching him as the woman approached. He
knew this game, too, suddenly. Stood up just as she stopped in front of him,
her heavy breasts swinging free beneath a loose tunic. "You're
a pretty man," she said. "Thank
you," Bern muttered. "Thank you. Need to piss. Right back." He
twisted past her. She grabbed deftly for his private parts. With an effort,
Bern refrained from glancing guiltily at the very big man she'd just left. "Hurry
back and make me happy," she called after him. Someone laughed.
Someone—big, blond, hard-eyed—looked up then, from the dicing. Bern
slapped a coin on the counter and ducked outside. He took a deep breath; salt
in the night air here, sound of sea, stars overhead, the white moon high. The
nearer ones in the room would have seen him pay. Would know he wasn't coming back. He
moved then, quickly. He could die here. It
was very dark, no lights to speak of outside the inns and the low, jumbled
wooden dwellings and the rooms where the whores took their men. A mixed
blessing, the darkness: he'd be harder to find, but might easily run headlong
into a group of people, trying to make his way north and out from this warren
of buildings. A fleeing stranger, Bern was certain, would be happily seized to
be questioned at leisure. He
ran up the first black alley he came to, smelled urine and offal, stumbled
through a pile of garbage, choking. Could he just walk, he wondered? Avoid
being seen to be running from something? He
heard noises behind him, from the alehouse door. No, he couldn't just walk.
Needed to move. It would be a sport for them. Something to enliven a night
outside the fortress walls, waiting for a new contract and a journey somewhere.
A way to keep in fighting trim. In
the blackness he bumped into a barrel lying on its side. Stooped, groped,
righted it. No top. Grunting, he turned it over, sweating now, and clambered
up, praying the bottom was solid enough. He stood, gauged distance as best he
could in the dark, and jumped for the slanting roof of the house above. Caught
a purchase, levered a knee up, awkward with the sword at his hip, and pulled
himself onto the roof. If there was someone inside they'd hear him, he knew.
Could raise an alarm. When
you had no obvious choices, you acted as if what you needed to do could be
done. Why
was he remembering so many of his father's words tonight? Prone
on the roof above the alley, he heard three or four men go by in the street. He
was being hunted. He was a fool, the son of a fool, deserved whatever fate he
met tonight. He didn't think they'd kill him. A broken leg or arm would
spare someone the need to fight him tomorrow with a risk involved. On the other
hand, they were drunk, and enjoying themselves. Wiser
to surrender? More
sounds, a second group. "Pretty-faced little shit-eater," he heard
someone say, at the entrance to the alley. "I didn't like him."
Someone laughed. "You don't like anyone, Gurd." "Do
yourself with a hammer," Gurd said. "Or do it to that little goatherd
who thinks he can join us." There came the unmistakable sound of a blade
being drawn from a scabbard. Bern decided
that surrender was not a promising option. Carefully,
holding his own sword out of the way, he backed along the roof. He needed to go
north, get beyond these houses and into the fields. He didn't think they'd care
enough to leave drinking and go looking for him out there in the night. And
come morning, once he rode up to the gates and issued a challenge, he'd be
safe. Although that probably wasn't the best way to describe what would follow
then. He
could have stayed at home, a servant for two more years. He could have hired
himself out on a farm somewhere on the mainland, invented a name for himself,
been a servant or a labourer there. That
wasn't what he'd ridden the grey horse into the sea to become. Everyone died.
If you died before the walls of Jormsvik, perhaps the sword in your hand would
get you to Ingavin's halls. He
didn't actually believe that, truth be told. If it were so, any farmhand could
get himself run through by a mercenary and drink mead forever with
smooth-skinned maidens among the gods, or until the Serpent devoured the
Worldtree and time came to a stop. It
couldn't be that easy. Neither
was moving on this roof, which slanted too much. They all slanted, to let the
snow slide in winter. Bern skidded sideways, dug in fingers and boots to stop
himself, heard the sword scrape. Had to hope, could only hope, no one
else heard it. He lay still again, sweat trickling down his sides. No sounds
below except for running feet. He slowly manoeuvred himself around to look the
other way. There
was a ramshackle, two-storey wooden house on the other side of another narrow
alley. Just the one, the others were all one-level, like the house he was on.
One of the new-style stone chimneys ran up an outside wall, set back from the
street, he saw. They didn't have these on the isle. It was meant to allow a
hearth, warmth and food, on a second floor. It looked as if it was going to
fall over. There was a window in that second storey, overlooking his rooftop.
The wooden shutters were open. One hung crookedly, needing repair. He saw a
candle burning on the ledge, illuminating a room—and the face of the girl
watching him. Bern's
heart lurched. Then he saw her put a finger to her lips. "Gurd,"
she called down, "you coming up?" A
laugh below. They had gone right around, were in the street on the other side
now. "Not to you. You hurt me last time, you're wild when I do you." Someone
else laughed. The girl across the way swore tiredly. "How 'bout you,
Holla?" "I
go with Katrin, you know that. She hurts me when I don't do her!" Gurd
laughed this time. "You see a stranger?" He was right below. If Bern
moved to the roof's edge he could look down on them. He heard the question and
closed his eyes. Everyone died. "Didn't,"
said the girl. "Why?" "Pretty
farmboy thinks he's going to be a mercenary." Her
voice was bored. "You find him, send him up. I need the money." "We
find him, he's no good to you. Trust me." The
girl laughed. The footsteps moved on. Bern opened his eyes, saw her turn her
head to watch the men below go down the lane. She turned back and looked at
him. Didn't smile now, nothing like that. She moved back, however, and gestured
for him to come across the way. Bern
looked. A small window in a flat wall, above his level. A slanting roof where
he was, no purchase to run and jump. He bit his lip. The heroes of the Days of
Giants would have made this jump. He
wasn't one of them. He'd end up clattering down the face of the wall to the
street below. Slowly
he shook his head, shrugged. "Can't," he mouthed, looking across at
her. She
came back into the window frame, looked left and right down the lane. Leaned
out. "They're around the alley. I'll get you at the door. Wait till I
open." She
hadn't given him up. She could have. He couldn't stay on this roof all night.
He had two choices, as he saw it. Jump down, keep to shadows and alleys, try to
get north and out of town with a number of fighting men—he didn't know how
many—prowling the streets for him. Or let her get him at the door. He
pulled himself nearer the edge. The sword scraped again. He swore under his
breath, looked over and down. Saw where the door was. The girl was still at the
window, waiting. He looked back at her and he nodded his head. A decision. You
came over into the world—crossed from an island on a stolen horse—you had
decisions to make, in the dark sometimes, and living until morning could turn
on them. She
disappeared from the window, leaving the candle there, so small and simple a
light. He
stayed where he was, watching it, this glimmer in darkness. There was a breeze.
Up here on the roof he could smell the sea again, hear the distant surge of
water beneath the voices and laughter of men. Always and ever beneath those
things. An
idea came to him, the beginnings of an idea. He
heard a sound. Looked down. She carried no light, was a shadow against the
shadows of opened door and house wall. No one in the laneway, at least not now.
He seemed to have decided to do this. Bern slid himself to the lowest point on
the pitched roof, held his scabbard with one hand, and dropped. He stumbled to
his knees, got up, went quickly to her, and in. She
closed the door behind him. It creaked. No bolt or bar, he saw. Two other doors
inside, off the narrow corridor: one beside them, one at the back. She
followed his glance. Whispered, "They're in the taverns. Upstairs is mine.
Step over the fourth stair, it's missing." In
the dark, Bern counted, stepped over the fourth stair. The stairs creaked, as
well. Each sound made him wince. Her door was ajar. He went in, she was right
behind him. This one she closed, slid down a bar to lock it. Bern looked at it.
A kick would splinter lock and door. He
turned, saw the candle in the window. A strangeness, to be looking at it now
from this side. Not a feeling he could explain. He crossed and looked out at
the roof across the lane, where he'd been moments before, the white moon above
it, and stars. He
turned back into the room and looked at her. She wore an undyed tunic belted at
the waist, no jewellery, paint on her lips and cheeks. She was thin, legs and
bones, brown hair, very large eyes, her face thin, too. Not really what a man
would want in a woman for the night, though some of the soldiers might like
them young, an illusion of innocence. Or like a boy. An illusion of something
else. She wasn't
innocent, not living here. There was no furniture to speak of. Her bed, where
she worked, was a pallet on the floor in a corner, the coverings spread over it
neatly enough. A bundle against the wall beside it would be her clothing,
another pile of cooking things, and food. That shouldn't be on the floor, he
thought. There'd be rats. A basin, a chamber pot, both on the floor as well.
Two wooden stools. A black pot hooked on an iron bar stretched across the
fireplace he'd seen from outside. Firewood by that wall. The candle on the
window ledge. She
went to the window, took the candle, put it on one of the stools. She sank down
on the bedding, crossed her legs, looked up at him. Said nothing, waiting. Bern
said, after a moment, "Why hasn't anyone fixed that stair?" She
shrugged. "We don't pay enough? I like it. If someone wants to come up
they need to know the hole's there. No surprises." He nodded. Cleared his
throat. "No one else in here?" "They
will be later. In and out. Told you. Both of 'em at the taverns." "Why
. . . aren't you?" The
same shrug. "I'm new. We go later, after the others start their night.
They don't like it if we get there too soon. Beat us up, make scars, you know .
. ." He
didn't, not really. "So . . . you'll go out soon?" She
raised her eyebrows. "Why? Got a man here, don't I?" He swallowed.
"I can't be found, you know that." "'Course
I know. Gurd'll kill you for fun of it." "Do
. . . any of them . . . just come up?" "Sometimes,"
she said, failing to reassure. "Why
did you help me?" He wasn't used to talking. Not since leaving the isle. She
shrugged again. "Don't know. You want me? What can you pay?" What
could he pay? Bern reached into his trousers and took the purse looped inside
them, around his waist. He tossed it to her. "All I have," he said. He'd
had it off the careless merchant north of here. Perhaps the gods would look
kindly on his giving it to her. That
vague, new-formed idea that had come to him on the roof was still teasing at
the edges of his mind. No use or meaning to it, unless he survived tonight. She
was opening the purse, emptied it on the bedding. Looked up at him. First
glimmering of youth, of surprise, in her. "This is too much," she
said. "All
I have," he repeated. "Hide me till morning." "Doing
it anyhow," she said. "Why'd I bring you?" Bern
grinned suddenly, a kind of light-headedness. "I don't know. You haven't
told me." She
was looking at the coins on her bed. "Too much," she said again. "Maybe
you're the best whore in Jormsvik," he said. She
looked up quickly. "I'm not," she said, defensively. "A
jest. I'm too afraid right now to take a woman, anyhow." He
doubted she was used to hearing that from the fighters in Jormsvik. She looked
at him. "You going to challenge in the morning?" He
nodded. "That's why I came. Made a mistake, going to an inn tonight." She
stared at him, didn't smile. "That's Ingavin's truest truth, it is. Why'd
you?" He
tilted the sword back, sat carefully on the stool. It held his weight.
"Wasn't thinking. Wanted a drink. A last drink?" She
appeared to be thinking about that. "They don't always kill, in the
challenges." "Me
they will," he said glumly. She
nodded. "That's a truth, I guess. After tonight, you mean?" He
nodded. "So you might as well have the purse." "Oh.
That's why?" He
shrugged. "I
should at least do you then, shouldn't I?" "Hide
me," Bern said. "It's enough." She
looked at him. "It's a long night. You hungry?" He shook his head. She
laughed, for the first time. A girl, somewhere in there with the Jormsvik
whore. "You want to sit and talk all night?" She grinned, and
began untying the knotted belt that held her tunic. "Come here," she
said. "You're pretty enough for me. I can earn some of this." Bern
had thought, actually, that fear would strip away desire. Watching her begin to
undress, seeing that unexpected, amused expression, he discovered that this was
wrong. It had been, he thought, a long time since he'd had a woman. And the
last one had been lord, the volur, in her cabin on the isle. The serpent
coiling somewhere in the room. Not a good memory. It's
a long night. After a moment, he
started to remove his sword-belt. He
was later to consider—sometimes soberly, sometimes not so—how a man's life
could turn on extremely small things. Had he turned up another alley when he'd
left that tavern, found a different roof to climb. Had they begun to disrobe
even a little sooner .. . "Thira!"
they heard, from downstairs. "You still up there?" He knew that voice
now. Gurd'll kill you for fun of it, she had said. "In
the fireplace!" she whispered urgently now. "Push up a ways.
Hurry!" "You
can turn me in," he said, surprising himself. "No
to that," she said, retying her belt quickly. "Get in there!"
Turning to the door, she shouted, "Gurd! Watch fourth step!" "I
know!" Bern heard. He
hurried to the chimney space, bending down and stepping over the rod that held
the black pot. Awkward, especially with the stolen sword. He scraped his
shoulder on the rough stone, swore. He straightened up inside, cautiously. It
was pitch black and very tight. He was sweating again, heart hammering. Should
he have stayed in the room, fought the man when he came up? Gurd would kill
him, or simply step back and call for friends. Bern would have nowhere to go. And
the girl would die, as well, if he was found here. A bad death, with these men.
Should he care about that, if he wanted to be a Jormsvik mercenary? No matter,
too late now. The
chimney widened a little, higher up, more than he'd thought. He reached
overhead with both hands, scrabbling at stone. Pebbles fell, rattling. He found
places to grip, levered himself, got his boots on either side of the bar that
stretched across, pushed the sword to hang straight down. He needed to get
higher but couldn't see a thing in the blackness of the chimney, no way to
check for footholds. He put his boots right to the edges, pressing against the
stone. The bar held. For how long, he didn't know, or want to think. Imagined
himself crashing down, unable to move in the chimney, spitted like a squealing
pig by the man in the room. A glorious death. Gurd
banged on the door; the girl crossed and opened it. He hoped—abruptly—that
she'd thought to hide the purse. He heard her voice. "Gurd, I didn't think
you'd—" "Out
of the way. I want your window, not your skinny bones." "What?" "No one's seen him in the streets, there's ten
of us looking. Shit-smeared goatboy may be on a roof." "I'd have seen him, Gurd." Bern heard her
footsteps cross behind the mercenary's to the window. "Come to
bed?" "You'd see nothing but one of us to screw.
Ingavin's blood, it pisses me to have a farmhand escape us!" "Let me make you feel better, then," the
girl named Thira said in a wheedling voice. "Long as you're here,
Gurd." "Slipped coins, all you want. Whore." "Not all I want slipped, Gurd," she
said. Bern heard her laugh softly and knew it wasn't real. "Not now. I might come back later if you're
dying for it. No money, though. I'd be doing you a favour." "No to that," said Thira sharply.
"I'll be down in Hrati's getting a man who takes care of a girl." Bern heard a blow, a gasp. "Decent tongue in
your head, whore. Remember it." There was a silence. Then, "Why would you cheat
me, Gurd? A man oughtn't do that. What I do bad to you? Do me and pay me for
it." Bern felt a cramping in his arms, held almost
straight over his head, clutching the stone wall. If the man in the room turned
to the fire and looked, he'd see two boots, one on either side of the cooking
pot. The man in the room said, to the woman, "Get
your tunic up, don't take it off. Turn over, on your knees." Thira made a small sound. "Two coins, Gurd. You
know it. Why cheat me for two coins? I need to eat." The mercenary swore. Bern heard money land on the
floor and roll. Thira said, "I knowed you was a good man, Gurd. I knowed
it. Who you want me be? A princess from Ferrieres? You captured me? Now
you got me?" "Cyngael," the man grunted. Bern heard a
sword drop. "Cyngael bitch, proud as a goddess. But not any more. Not now. Put your face down. You're in the mud. In the .
. . field. I got you. Like. This." He grunted, so did the girl. Bern heard
shifting sounds where the pallet was. "Ah!"
Thira cried. "Someone save me!" She screamed, but kept it soft. "All
dead, bitch!" Gurd growled. Bern heard the sounds of their movements, a
hard slap on skin, the man grunting again. He stayed where he was, eyes closed,
though it didn't matter in this blackness. Heard the mercenary again, breath
rasping now: "All carved up. Your men. Now you find . . . what an Erling's
like, cow! Then you die." Another slap. "No!"
cried Thira. "Save me!" Gurd
grunted again, then groaned loudly, then the sounds ceased. After a moment,
Bern heard him stand up again. "Worth
a coin, not more'n that, Ingavin knows," Gurd of Jormsvik, a captain
there, said. "I'll take the other back, whore." He laughed. Thira
said nothing. Bern heard the sword being picked up, boots crossing the floor
again to the door. "You see anyone on a roof, you shout. Hear?" Thira
made a muffled sound. The door opened, closed. Bern heard boots on the stairs,
then a clatter, and swearing. Gurd had forgotten the fourth stair. A brief,
necessary flicker of pleasure at that. Then gone. He
waited a few more moments, then stepped carefully down from the bar, stooped
almost double, and squeezed out from the chimney. He scraped his back this
time. The
girl was on the pallet, face down, hidden by her hair. The candle burned on the
stool. "He
hurt you?" Bern asked. She
didn't move, or turn. "He took a coin back. He oughtn't cheat me." Bern
shrugged, though she couldn't see him. "You have a full purse from me.
What's a coin matter?" She
still didn't turn. "I earned it. You can't understand that, can you?"
She said it into the rough blanket of the pallet. "No,"
said Bern, "I guess I can't." It was true, he didn't understand. But
why should he? She
turned then, sat up, and quickly put a hand to her mouth—a girl's gesture
again. Began to laugh. "Ingavin's eye! Look at you! You're
black as a southern desert man." Bern
looked down at his tunic. Ash and soot from the fireplace were all over him. He
turned up his hands. His palms were coal black from the fireplace walls. He
shook his head ruefully. "Maybe I'll scare them in the morning." She
was still laughing. "Not them, but sit down, I'll wash you." She got
up, arranged her tunic, and went to a basin by the other wall. It
was a long time since a woman had tended him. Not since they'd had servants,
before his father had killed his second man in an inn fight and been exiled,
ruining the world. Bern sat on the stool as she bade him, and a whore by the walls
of Jormsvik cleaned and groomed him the way the virgins in Ingavin's halls were
said to minister to the warriors there. Later,
without speaking, she lay down on the pallet again and took off her tunic and
he made love to her, distracted a little now by the noisy sounds of other
lovemaking in the two rooms below. With a memory of what he'd heard from within
the fireplace, he actually tried to be gentle with her, but afterwards he
didn't think it had mattered. He'd given her a purse, and she was earning it,
in the way she did that. She
fell asleep, after. The candle on the stool burned down. Bern lay in the
darkness of that small, high room, looking out the unshuttered window at the
summer night, waiting for first light. Before that came, he heard voices and
drunken laughter in the street below: the mercenaries going back to their
barracks. They slept there, always, whatever they did out here in the nights. Her
window faced east, away from the fortress and the sea. Watching, listening to
the girl breathe beside him, he caught the first hint of dawn. He rose and
dressed. Thira didn't move. He unbarred the door and went softly down the
stairs, stepping over the fourth one from the bottom, and came out into the
empty street. He
walked north—not running, on this morning that might be the last of his
unimportant life—and passed the final straggling wooden structures, out into
fields beyond. A chill, grey hour, before sunrise. He came to the wood. Gyllir
was where he'd left him. The horse would be as hungry as he was, but there was
nothing to be done about that. If they killed Bern they'd take the stallion,
treat him well: he was a magnificent creature. He rubbed the animal's muzzle,
whispered a greeting. More
light now. Sunrise, a bright day, it would be warm later. Bern mounted, left
the wood. He rode slowly through the fields towards the main gates of Jormsvik.
No reason to hurry now. He saw a hare at the edge of the trees, alert, watching
him. It crossed his mind to curse his father again, for what Thorkell had done
to bring him here, to this, but in the end he didn't do that, though he wasn't
sure why. It also occurred to him to pray, and that he did do. There
were guards on the ramparts above the gates, Bern saw. He reined the horse to a
halt. Sat silently a moment. The sun was up, to his left, the sea on the other
side, beyond a stony strand. There were boats—the dragon-headed ships—pulled up
on the shore, a long, long row of them. He looked at those, the brightly
painted prows, and at the grey, surging sea. Then he turned back to the walls
and issued a challenge to be admitted to the company of Jormsvik, offering to
prove his worth against any man sent out to him.
A
challenge could be entertaining, though usually only briefly so. The
mercenaries prided themselves on dealing briskly with country lads and their
delusions of being warriors. A trivial, routine aspect of their life. Draw the
rune with a sword on it, ride out, cut someone up, come back for food and ale.
If a man took too long to handle his lot-drawn task he could expect to be a
source of amusement to his fellows for a time. Indeed, the likeliest way to
ensure being killed—for a challenger—was to put up too much of a fight. But
why come all the way to Jormsvik-on-the-sea at the bottom of Vinmark just to
surrender easily, in the (probably vain) hope of having your life spared? There
might be some small measure of accomplishment back home for a farmer in having
fought before these walls and come away alive, but not that much, in
truth. Only
a few of the mercenaries would bother to climb the ramparts to watch, mostly
companions of the one who'd drawn the sword-lot. On the other hand, for the
artisans and fishermen and merchants of the town sprawling outside the walls,
daily life offered little enough in the way of recreation, so it was generally
the case that they'd suspend activity and come watch when a challenger was
reported. They
wagered, of course—Erlings always wagered—usually on how long it would take for
the newest victim to be unhorsed or disarmed, and whether he'd be killed or
allowed to limp away. If
the challenge came early in the morning—as today—the whores were usually
asleep, but with word shouted through the lanes and streets many of them would
drag themselves out to see a fight. You
could always go back to bed after watching a fool killed, maybe even win a coin
or two. You might even take a carpenter or sailmaker back with you before he
returned to his shop, make another coin that way. Fighting excited the men
sometimes. The
girl called Thira (at least partly Waleskan, by her colouring) was among those
who came down towards the gates and the strand when word ran round that a
challenge had been issued. She
was one of the newer whores, having arrived from the east with a trading party
in spring. She had taken one of the rickety, fire-prone upper-level rooms in
the town. She was too bony and too sharp-tongued (and inclined to use it) to
have any real reason to expect a rise in her fortunes, or enough money to lower
her bed to a ground-floor room. These
girls came and went, or died in winter. It was a waste of time feeling sorry
for them. Life was hard for everyone. If the girl was fool enough to put a
silver coin on the latest farmer who'd shown up to challenge, all you wanted to
do was bite the coin, ensure it was real, and be quick as you could to cover
part of the wager—even at the odds proposed. How
she got the coin was not at issue—all the girls stole. A silver piece was a
week's work on back or belly for a girl like Thira, and not much less than
that, at harder labour, for the craftsmen of the town. It took several of them,
mingling coins, to match the wager. The money was placed, as usual, with the
blacksmith, who had a reputation for honesty and a good memory, and who was
also a very large man. "Why
you doing this?" one of the other girls asked Thira. It
had created a stir. You didn't bet on challengers to win. "They
spent half last night trying to find him. Gurd and the others. He was in
Hrati's and they went for him. I figure if he can dodge a dozen of them for a
night, he might handle one in a fight." "Not
the same thing," said one of the older women. "You can't hide out
here." Thira
shrugged. "If he loses, take my money." "Well
aren't you the easy one with silver?" the other woman sniffed. "What
happens if Gurd come out his self, to finish what he couldn't?" "Won't.
Gurd's a captain. I ought to know. He comes to me now." "Hah!
He come up those broken stairs to you only when someone he wants is busy. Don't
get ideas, girl." "He
was with me last night," Thira said, defensively. "I know him. He
won't fight ... it's beneath him. As a captain and all." Someone laughed. "Is
it?" someone else said. The
gates had opened. A man was riding out. There were murmurs, and then more
laughter, at the girl's expense. People were fools sometimes. You couldn't pity
them. You tried to gain from it. Those who hadn't been quick enough to be part
of the wager were cursing themselves. "Give
over the money now," a pockmarked sailmaker named Stermi said to the
blacksmith, elbowing him. "This farmer's a dead man." Seabirds
wheeled, dove into the waves, rose again, crying. "Ingavin's
eye!" exclaimed the girl named Thira, shaken. The crowd eyed her with
raucous pleasure. "Why'd he do this?" "Oh?
Thought you said you knew him," the other whore said, cackling. They
watched, a largish, buzzing group of people, as Gurd Thollson—a captain for two
years now, excused from having to do this any more unless he chose to—rode out
in glorious chain mail from the open gates of Jormsvik and moved past them,
unsmiling, eyes hidden under helm and above bright yellow beard, towards the
farmboy waiting on the stony strand astride a grey horse.
He
had prayed. Had no farewells to make. There was no one who would lose anything
at all if he died. This was a choice. You made choices, in the sea and on land,
or somewhere between the two, on the margins. Bern
backed Gyllir up a little as the mercenary who had drawn the battle lot
approached. He knew what he wanted to do here, had no idea if he could. This
was a trained warrior. He wore an iron helm, chain-mail armour, a round shield
hooked on the saddle of his horse. Why would he take any kind of chance? Though
this was where Bern saw his own chance lying, small as it might be. The
Jormsvik fighter came nearer; Bern retreated a little more along the stony
beach, as if flinching backwards. Edge of the surf now, shallow water. "Where'd
you hide last night, goatboy?" This
time, the retreat back into the water was genuine, instinctive. He knew the
voice. Hadn't known which man in the alehouse last night was Gurd. Now he did:
the big, yellow-haired dice player at the next table over, who had seen him pay
and hurry out. "Answer
me, cowshit. You're dying here anyhow." Gurd drew his sword. There came a
sound from those watching outside the walls. Something
rare came into Bern Thorkellson in that moment, with the deriding, confident
voice and a memory of this man the night before. It actually took Bern a moment
to identify the feeling. Normally he was controlled, careful, only son of a man
too well known for his temper. But a shield wall broke inside him on that
strand before Jormsvik, with the sea lapping at the fetters of his horse. He
danced Gyllir a little farther backwards into the water—deliberately this time—and
he felt, within, the heat of an unexpected fury. "You're
a sorry excuse for an Erling, you know that?" he snapped. "If I'm
supposed to be a shit-smeared farmhand, why couldn't you find me last night,
Gurd? I didn't go far, you know. Why's it take a captain to kill a goatboy
today? Or be killed by one? I beat you last night, I'll beat you now. In fact,
I like that sword of yours. I'll enjoy using it." A
silence; a man stunned. Then a stream of obscenity. "You beat no one, you
lump of dung," the big man snarled, edging his horse forward in the water.
"You just hid, and wet yourself." "Not
hiding now, am I?" Bern raised his voice to be heard. "Come on,
little Gurd. Everyone's watching." Again
he backed up. His boots in the stirrups were in the water now. He could feel
the horse reach for footing. The shelf sloped here. Gyllir was calm. Gyllir was
a glory. Bern drew his stolen sword. Gurd
followed, farther into the sea. His horse danced and shifted. Most Erling
warriors fought on foot, riding to battle if they had a horse and dismounting
there. Bern was counting on that. For one thing, Gurd couldn't use the shield
and sword and control his mount. "Get
down and fight!" the captain rasped. "I'm
here, little Gurd. Not hiding. Or is this Erling afraid of the sea? Is that why
you're not raiding? Will they even let you back in when they see it? Come get
me, mighty captain!" Again
he shouted it, to let those watching on the grass hear him. Some of them had
begun drifting nearer the strand. He was surprised at how little fear he felt,
now that it had come to this. And the anger in him was fierce and warming, a
blaze. He thought of the girl last night: this massive, bearded captain
stealing a coin from her out of sheer malice. It shouldn't matter—he'd told her
that—but it did. He couldn't say why, didn't have time to decide why. Gurd
pointed with his blade. "I'm going to hurt you before I let you die,"
he said. "No
you aren't," said Bern, quietly this time, for no one else's ears but
their own—and the gods', if they were listening. "Ingavin and Thunir led
me through the sea on this horse in the dark of a night. They are watching over
me. You die here, little Gurd. You're in the way of my destiny." He
surprised himself, again—hadn't any idea he would say that, or what it meant. Gurd
rapped his helm down hard, roared something wordless, and charged. More or
less. It is
difficult to charge in surf at the best of times. Things are not as one
expects, or as one's horse expects. Movements slow, there is resistance,
footing shifts—and then, where sand and stones slide away, it disappears
entirely, and one is swimming, or the horse is, wild-eyed. One cannot charge at
all, swimming, wearing armour, heavy and unbalanced. But
this, on the other hand, was a Jormsvik fighter, a captain, and he was
not—taunting aside—afraid of the sea, after all. He was quick, and his horse
was good. The first angled blow was heavy as a battle-hammer and Bern barely
got his own blade across his body and in front of it. His entire right side was
jarred by the impact; Gyllir rocked with it, Bern gasped with the force, pulled
the horse back to his right in the sea, by reflex, more than anything. Gurd
pushed farther forward, still roaring, took another huge downward swing. This
one missed, badly. They were deeper now, both of them. Gurd nearly unhorsed
himself in the waves, rocking wildly as his mount, legs thrashing, struggled
beneath him. Bern
felt an improbable mixture of ice and fire within him: fury and a cold
precision. He thought of his father. Ten years of lessons with all the weapons
Thorkell knew. How to block a downward forearm slash. His inheritance? He
said, watching the other man struggle and then right himself, "If it makes
you feel better, dying here, I'm not a farmboy, little Gurd. My father rowed
with the Volgan for years. Thorkell Einarson. Siggur's companion. Know it.
Won't get you to Ingavin's halls this morning, though." He paused; locked
eyes with the other man. "The gods will have seen you steal that coin last
night." If he
died now, the girl did too, because he'd said that. He wasn't going to die. He
waited, saw awareness—of many things—flicker and ripple in the other man's blue
eyes. Then he steered Gyllir forward at an angle with his knees and he stabbed
Gurd's horse with a leaning, upward thrust just above the waterline. Gurd
cried out, pulled at reins uselessly, waved his sword—for balance more than
anything—slipped from the tilting saddle. Bern
saw him, weighted with chain mail, up to his chest in water, fighting to stand.
His dying horse thrashed again, kicked him. Bern actually had a moment to think
about pitying the man. He waited until Gurd, fighting the weight of his armour,
was almost upright in the waves, then he angled Gyllir again, smoothly in the
sea, and he drove his sword straight into the captain's handsome, bearded face
just below the nosepiece. The blade went through mouth and skull bone, banged
hard against the metal of the helm at the back. Bern jerked it out, saw blood,
sudden and vivid, in the water. He watched the other man topple into white,
foaming surf. Dead already. Another angry ghost. He
dismounted. Grabbed for the drifting sword, better by far than his own. He took
hold of Gurd by the ringed neckpiece of his armour and pulled him from the sea,
blood trailing from the smashed-in face. He threw the two swords ahead of him,
used both hands to drag the heavy body up on the strand. He stood above it,
dripping, breathing hard. Gyllir followed. The other horse did not, a carcass
now, in the shallow water. Bern looked at it a moment, then walked back into
the sea. He bent and claimed the dead man's shield from the saddle. Walked back
out onto the stones again. He
looked over at the crowd gathered between sea and walls, and then up at the
soldiers on the ramparts above the open gates. Many of them up there this
sunlit summer morning. A captain riding out, claiming the fight: worth
watching, to see what he did to the challenger who'd offended him. They'd seen. Two
men were walking out through the gates. One lifted a hand in greeting. Bern
felt the anger still within him, making a home, not ready to leave. "This
man's armour," he called, lifting his voice over the deeper voice of the
tumbling sea behind him, "is mine, in Ingavin's name." It
wouldn't fit him but could be altered, or sold. That's what mercenaries did.
That's what he was now. At
the margins of any tale there are lives that come into it only for a moment.
Or, put another way, there are those who run quickly through a story and then
out, along their paths. For these figures, living their own sagas, the tale
they intersect is the peripheral thing. A moment in the drama of their own
living and dying. The
metalsmith, Ralf Erlickson, elected to return to his birthplace on Rabady Isle
at the end of that same summer after ten years on the Vinmark mainland, the
last four of which had been spent in the town outside the walls of Jormsvik.
He'd made (and saved) a decent sum, because the mercenaries had needed his
services regularly. He'd finally decided it was time to go home, buy some land,
choose a wife, beget sons for his old age. His
parents were dead, his brothers gone elsewhere—he wasn't certain where any
more, after ten years. There were other changes on the isle, of course, but not
so many, really. Some taverns had closed, some opened, people dead, people
born. The harbour was bigger, room for more ships. Two governors had succeeded
each other since he'd left. The new one—Sturla One-hand, of all people—had just
begun serving. Ralf had a drink or three with One-hand just after arriving.
They traded stories of a shared childhood and divergent lives after. Ralf had
never gone raiding; Sturla had lost a hand overseas . . . and made a small
fortune. A
hand was a fair trade for a fortune, in Ralf's estimation. Sturla had a big
house, a wife, land, access to other women, and power. It was . . . unexpected.
He kept quiet about that thought, though, even after several cups. He was
coming home to live, and Sturla was the governor. You wanted to be careful. He
asked about unmarried women, smiled at the predictable jests, made a mental
note of the two names Sturla did mention. Next
morning he went out from the walls, walking through remembered fields to the
women's compound. There was an errand he'd promised to do. No need to ask directions.
The place wouldn't have moved. It
was in better repair than he recalled. Sturla had told him a bit about that:
the stoning of the old volur, emergence of a new one. Relations, the
governor had allowed, were good. The witch-women had even taken to bringing
food and ale for the harvesters at end of day. They never spoke, Sturla had
told him, shaking his head. Not a word. Just walked out, in procession, a line
of them, carrying cheese or meat and drink, then walked back. In procession. Ralf
Erlickson had spat into the rushes on the governor's floor. "Women,"
he'd said. "Just their games." One-hand
had shrugged. "Less than before, maybe." Ralf got the feeling he was
taking credit for it. The
details of the town's reciprocation were evident as he approached the compound.
The fence was in good condition; the buildings looked sturdy, doors hanging
properly; wood was stacked high already, well before winter. There were signs
of construction, a new outbuilding of some kind going up. A
woman in a grey, calf-length tunic watched him approach, standing by the gate. "Ingavin's
peace on all here," Ralf said, routinely. "I have a message for one
of you." "All
peace upon you," she replied, and waited. Didn't open the gate. Ralf
shifted his feet. He didn't like these women. He vaguely regretted accepting
the errand, but he'd been paid, and it wasn't a difficult task. "I
am to speak with someone whose name I don't know," he said. She
laughed, surprisingly. "Well, you don't know mine." He
wasn't used to laughter in the seer's compound. He'd come twice in his youth,
both times to offer support to friends seeking a seithr spell from the volur.
There'd been no amusement, on either occasion. "Were
you ever bit by a snake?" he asked, and was pleased to see her startle. "Is
that the one you need to see?" He
nodded. After a moment, she opened the gate. "Wait
here," she said, and left him in the yard as she went into one of the
buildings. He
looked around. A warm day, end of summer. He saw beehives, an herb garden, the
locked brewhouse. Heard birdsong from the trees. No sign of any other women. He
wondered, idly, where they were. A
door opened and someone else came out, alone: wearing blue. He knew what that
meant. Under his breath he cursed. He hadn't expected to deal with the volur
herself. She was young, he saw. One-hand had told him that, but it was
disconcerting. "You
have a message for me," she murmured. She was hooded, but he saw wide-set
blue eyes and pulled-back yellow hair. You might even have called her pretty,
though that was a dangerous thought with respect to a volur. "Ingavin's
peace," he said. "And
Fulla's upon you." She waited. "You
. . . the snake ... ?" "I
was bitten, yes. In the spring." She put a hand inside her robe and
withdrew it, gripping something. Erlickson stepped back quickly. She wrapped
the creature around her neck. It coiled there, head up, looking at him from
above her shoulder, then flicked an evil tongue. "We have made our peace,
the serpent and I." Ralf
Erlickson cleared his throat. Time, he thought, to be gone from here.
"Your kinsman sends greetings. From Jormsvik." He'd
surprised her greatly, he realized, had no idea why. She clasped her hands at
her waist. "That
is all? The message?" He
nodded. Cleared his throat again. "He . . . is well, I can say that." "And
working for the mercenaries?" Ralf
shook his head, pleased. They didn't know everything, these women. "He
killed a captain in a challenge, midsummer. He's
inside Jormsvik, one of them now. Well, in truth, he isn't inside, at the
moment." "Why?"
She was holding herself very still. "Off
raiding. Anglcyn coast. Five ships, near two hundred men. A big party, that.
Left just before I did." He'd seen them go. It was late in the season, but
they could winter over if they needed to. He had made and mended weapons and
armour for many of them. "Anglcyn
coast," she repeated. "Yes,"
he said. There
was a silence. He heard the bees. "Thank
you for your tidings. Ingavin and the goddesses shield you," she said,
turning away, the serpent still about her neck and shoulders. "Wait here.
Sigla will bring you something." Sigla
did. Generous enough. He spent some of it at an inn that night, on ale and a
girl. Went looking for property the next morning. Not that there was so much of
it on the isle. Rabady was small, everyone knew everyone. It might have helped
if his parents had still been living, instead of buried here, but that was a
waste of a wish. One of the names Sturla had given him was that of a widow, no
children, young enough to still bear, he'd been told, some land in her own
name, west end of the isle. He brushed his clothes and boots before going to
call. His
son was born the next summer. His wife died in the birthing. He buried her back
of the house, hired a wet nurse, went looking for another wife. Found one, and
younger this time: he was a man with a bit of land now. He felt fortunate, as
if he'd made good choices in life. There was an oak tree standing by itself
near the south end of his land. He left it untouched, consecrated it to
Ingavin, made offerings there, lit fires, midsummer, midwinter. His
son, fourteen years later, cut it down one night after a bad, drunken fight the
two of them had. Ralf Erlickson, still drunk in the morning, killed the boy in
his bed with a hammer when he found out, smashed in his skull. A father could
deal with his family as he chose, that was the way of it. Or it
had been once. Sturla One-hand, still governor, convened the island's thring.
They exiled Ralf Erlickson from Rabady for murder, because the lad had been
asleep when killed, or so the stepmother said. And since when had the word of a
woman been accepted by Erlings in a thring? No
matter. It was a done thing. He left, or they'd have killed him. Well on in
years by then, Ralf Erlickson found himself on a small boat heading back to the
mainland, landless (One-hand had claimed the exile's property for the town, of
course). Eventually,
he made his way back down to Jormsvik, for want of a better thought. Worked at
his old trade, but his hand and eye weren't what they had been. Not surprising,
really, it had been a long time. He died there a little while after. Was laid
in the earth outside the walls in the usual fashion. He wasn't a warrior, no
pyre. One friend and two of the whores saw him buried. Life,
for all men under the gods, was uncertain as weather or winter seas: the only
truth worth calling true, as the ending of one of the sagas had it. SlX When
the king's fever took him in the night there was not enough love—or mercy—in
the world to keep him from the fens and swamps again. Drenched
with sweat upon the royal bed (or pallet, if they were travelling), Aeldred of
the Anglcyn would cry out in the dark, not even aware he was doing it, so
piteously it hurt the hearts of those who loved him to know where he was going. They
all thought they knew where, and when, by now. He
was seeing his brother and his father die long years ago on Camburn Field by
Raedhill. He was riding in icy rain (a winter campaign, the Erlings had
surprised them), wounded, and shivering with the first of these fevers at the
end of a brutal day's fighting; and he was king, as of twilight's coming down
upon that headlong, fever-ravaged flight from the northmen who had broken them
at last. King
of the Anglcyn, fleeing like an outlaw to hide in the marshes, the fyrd broken,
lands overrun. His royal father hideously blood-eagled on the wet ground at
Camburn in blood and rain. His brother cut in pieces there. He
didn't know about them until later. He did know it now, a late-summer night in
Esferth so many years after, tossing in fever-dream, reliving the winter
twilight when Jad had abandoned them for their sins. The blades and axes of the
Erlings pursuing them in the wild dark, the northmen triumphantly crying the
accursed names of Ingavin and Thьnir like ravens on the rain wind .. .
+
It is
difficult to see with the rain lashing their faces, a heavy blanket of cloud,
night coming swiftly now. Both good and bad: they will be harder to hunt down,
but can easily miss their own way, not able to use torches. There are no roads
here across moor and tor. There are eight of them with Aeldred, riding west. It
is Osbert who is nearest the king (for he is the king now, last of his line),
as he always is, and Osbert who shouts them to a jostling halt by the pitiful
shelter of a handful of elms. They are soaked to the bone, chilled, most
wounded, all exhausted, the wind lashing. But
Aeldred is shivering with fever, slumped forward on his horse, and he cannot
speak in answer to his name. Osbert moves his mount nearer, reaches out,
touches the king's brow . . . and recoils, for Aeldred is burning hot. "He
cannot ride," he says, leader of the household troop. "He must!"
Burgred snaps, shouting it over the wind. "They will not be far behind
us." And
Aeldred lifts his head, with a great effort, mumbles something they cannot
hear. He points west with one hand, twitches his reins to move forward. He
slips in the saddle as he does so. Osbert is near enough to hold him, their
horses side by side. The
two thegns look at each other over the wracked body of the man who is now their
king. "He will die," Osbert says. Aeldred, son of Gademar, is twenty
years old, just. The
wind howls, rain slashes them like needles. It is very dark, they can hardly
see each other. After a long moment, Burgred of Denferth wipes water from his
face and nods. "Very well. The seven of us carry on, with the royal
banner. We will try to be seen, draw them west. You find a farmhouse somewhere,
and pray." Osbert
nods his head. "Meet in Beortferth, on the island itself, among the salt
fens. When we can." "The
marshes are dangerous. You can find your way through?" "Maybe not.
Have someone watch for us." Burgred
nods again, looks over at their boyhood friend, this other young man, slumped
on his horse. Aeldred in battle was deadly, commanding the left flank of the fyrd
with his house-hold guard. It was not the left flank that crumbled, not
that it mattered now. "Jad
curse this day," Burgred says. Then
he turns and six men follow him across an open field in the dark, one carrying
their banner, moving west again, but deliberately, not as quickly as before. Osbert,
son of Cuthwulf, left alone with his king, leans over and whispers, tenderly,
"Dear heart, have you even a little left? We ride for shelter now, and
should not have far to go." He
has no idea if this is true in fact, no clear sense of where they are, but if
there are farms or houses they should be north of here. And when Aeldred, with
another appalling effort, pushes himself upright and looks vaguely towards him
and nods—shivering, still unable to speak—it is northward that Osbert turns,
leaving the elms, heading into the wind. He
will remember the next hours all his life, though Aeldred, lost in that
first-ever fever, never will. It grows colder, begins to snow. They are both
wounded, sweat-drenched, inadequately clothed, and Aeldred is using the last
reserves of an iron will just to stay on his horse. Osbert hears wolves on the
wind; listens constantly for horses, knowing, if he hears them, that the
Erlings have come and it is over. There are no lights to be seen: no charcoal
burner by the woods, no farmers burning candles or a fire so late on a night
like this. He strains his eyes into the dark and prays, as Burgred had said he
should. The king's breathing is ragged. He can hear it, the rasp and draw.
There is nothing to see but falling snow, and black woods to the west, and the
bare, wintry fields through which they ride. A night fit for the world's end.
Wolves around, and the Erling wolves hunting them in the dark. And
then, still shivering uncontrollably, Aeldred lifts his head. A moment he stays
thus, looking at nothing, and then speaks his first clear words of the night's
flight. "To the left," he says. "West of us, Jad help me."
His head drops forward again. Snow falls, the wind blows, more a hammer than a
knife. Aeldred
will claim, ever after, to have no recollection of saying those words. Osbert
will say that when the king spoke he heard and felt the presence of the god. Unquestioningly,
he turns west, guiding Aeldred's horse with one hand now, to stay beside his
own. Wind on their right, pushing them south. Osbert's hands are frozen, he can
scarcely feel the reins he holds, his own or the king's. He sees blackness
ahead, a forest. They cannot ride into that. And
then there is the hut. Directly in front of them, close to the trees, in their
very path. He would have ridden north, right past it. It takes him a moment to understand
what he is seeing, for his weariness is great, and then Osbert begins to
weep, helplessly, and his hands tremble. Holy
Jad has not, after all, abandoned them to the dark.
They
dare not light a fire. The horses have been hidden out of sight in the woods,
tied to the same tree, to keep each other warm. The snow is shifting and
blowing; there will be no tracks. There can be no signs of their passage near
the house. The Erlings are no strangers to snow and icy winds. Their berserkirs
and wolf-raiders flourish in this weather, wrapped in their animal skins,
eyes not human until the fury leaves them. They will be out there, in
the wind, hunting, for the northmen know by now that one of the line of
Athelbert left Camburn Field alive. In some ways it ought not to matter. With a
land taken and overrun, an army shattered, what can a king matter, alone? But
in other ways, it means the world, it could mean the world, and they
will want Aeldred killed, in a manner as vicious as they can devise. So there
is no fire in the swineherd's house where a terrified man and his wife,
awakened by a pounding on their door in the wild night, have abandoned a narrow
bed to pile threadbare blankets and rags and straw upon the shivering, burning
man who—they have been told—is their king under holy Jad. Whether
it is the relative stillness within these thin walls, out of the howling wind,
or some portent-laden deepening of his sickness (Osbert is no leech, he does
not know), the king begins to cry out on the swineherd's bed, shouting names at
first, then a hoarse rallying cry, some words in ancient Trakesian, and then in
the Rhodian tongue of the holy books—for Aeldred is a learned man and has been
to Rhodias itself. But
his shouting might kill them tonight. So in
the darkness and the cold, Osbert, son of Cuthwulf, lies down beside his friend
and begins whispering to him as one might murmur to a lover or a child, and
each time the king draws a wracked breath to cry out in oblivious agony, his
friend clamps a bloodstained hand over his mouth and stifles the sound, again
and again, weeping as he does so, for the pity of it. Then
they do hear cries, from outside in the white night, and it seems to Osbert,
lying beside his king in that frigid hut (so cold the lice are probably dead),
that their ending has come indeed, the doom no man can escape forever. And he
reaches for the sword beside him on the earthen floor, and vows to his father's
spirit and the sun god that he will not let Aeldred be taken alive from here to
be ripped apart by Erlings. He
moves to rise, and there is a hand on his arm. "There
are going by," the swineherd whispers, toothless. "Hold, my
lord." Aeldred's
head shifts. He drags for breath again. Osbert turns quickly, grips the other
man's head with one hand (hot as a forge it is) and covers the king's mouth
with his other, and he murmurs a prayer for forgiveness, as Aeldred thrashes
beside him, trying to give utterance to whatever pain and fever are demanding
that he cry. And
whether because of prayer or a moon-shrouded night or the northmen's haste or
nothing more than chance, the Erlings do pass by, how many of them Osbert never
knew. And after that the night, too, passes, longer than any night of his life
had ever been. Eventually,
Osbert sees, through unstopped chinks in wall and door (wind slashing through),
that the flurries of snow have stopped. Looking out for a moment, he sees the
blue moon shining before clouds slide to cover it again. An owl cries, hunting
over the woods behind them. The wind has died down enough for that. Towards
dawn, the king's terrible shivering stops, he grows cooler to the touch, the
shallow breathing steadies, and then he sleeps.
Osbert
slips into the woods, feeds and waters the horses .. . precious little, in
truth, for the family's only nurture in winter is carefully rationed salted
pork from their swine and unflavoured, mealy oatcakes. Food for animals is an
impossible luxury. The pigs are in the forest, left to forage for themselves. Amazed,
he hears laughter from inside as he returns, ducking through the doorway.
Aeldred is taking a badly blackened cake for himself, leaving the others, less
charred. The swineherd's wife is blushing, the king smiling, nothing at all
like the man who'd shivered and moaned in the dark, or the one who'd screamed
like an Erling berserkir on the battlefield. He looks over at his friend
and smiles. "I
have just been told, gently enough, that I make a deficient servant, Osbert.
Did you know that?" The
woman wails in denial, covers her crimson face with both hands. Her husband is
looking back and forth, his face a blank, uncertain what to think. "It
is the only reason we let you claim rank," Osbert murmurs, closing the
door. "The fact that you can't even clean boots properly." Aeldred
laughs, then sobers, looking up at his friend. "You saved my life,"
he says, "and then these people saved ours." Osbert hesitates.
"You remember anything of the night?" The king shakes his head. "Just
as well," his friend says, eventually. "We
should pray," Aeldred says. They do, giving thanks on their knees, facing
east to the sun, for all known blessings. They
wait until sunset and then they leave, to hide among the marshes, besieged in
their own land.
Beortferth
is a low-lying, wet islet, lost amid dank, spreading salt fens. Only the
smaller rodents live there, and marsh birds, water snakes, biting insects in
summer. It was the bird-catchers who first found the place, long ago, making
their precarious way through the fens, on foot, or poling flat-bottomed skiffs. It is
almost always foggy here, tendrils of mist, the god's sun a distant, wan thing,
even on the clear days. You can see strange visions here, get hopelessly lost.
Horses and men have been sucked down in the stagnant bogs, which are deep in
places. Some say there are nameless creatures down there, alive since the days
of darkness. The safe paths are narrow, not remotely predictable, you must know
them exactly, ride or walk in single file, easy to ambush. Groves of gnarled
trees rise up in places, startling and strange in the greyness, roots in water,
leading the wanderer to stray and fall. In
winter it is always damp, unhealthy, there is desperately little in the way of
food, and that winter—when the Erlings won the Battle of Camburn Field—was a
cruelly harsh one. Endless
freezing rain and snow, thin, grey-yellow ice forming in the marsh, the wet
wind slashing. Almost every one of them has a cough, rheumy eyes, loose bowels.
All of them are hungry, and cold. It is
Aeldred's finest hour. It is this winter that will create and define him as
what he will become, and some will claim to have sensed this as it was
happening. Osbert
is not one of them, nor Burgred. Concealing their own coughs and fluxes as best
they can, flatly denying exhaustion, refusing to acknowledge hunger, Aeldred's
two commanders (as young as he was, that winter) will each say, long
afterwards, that they survived by not thinking ahead, addressing only
the demands of each day, each hour. Eyes lowered like a man pushing a plough
through a punishing, stony field. In
the first month they arrange and supervise the building of a primitive fort on
the isle, more a windbreak with a roof than anything else. When it is complete,
before he ever steps inside, Aeldred stands in a slanting rain before the
forty-seven men who are with him by then (a number never forgotten, all of them
named in the Chronicle) and formally declares the isle to be the seat of
his realm, heart of the Anglcyn in their land, in the name of Jad. His
realm. Forty-seven men. Ingemar Svidrirson and his Erlings are inside
Raedhill's walls, foraging unopposed through a beaten countryside. Not a swift
sea raid for slaves and glory and gold. Here to settle, and rule. Osbert
looks across sparse, patchy grass in rain towards Burgred of Denferth, and then
back at the man who leads them in this hunted, misty refuge, with salt in the
biting air, and for the first time since Camburn Field he allows himself the idea
of hope. Looking up from the plough. Aeldred kneels in prayer; they all do. That
same afternoon, having given thanks, in piety, their first raiding party rides
out from the swamps. Fifteen
of them, Burgred leading. They are gone two days, to make a wide loop away from
here. They surprise and kill eight Erlings foraging for winter provisions in a
depleted countryside, and bring their weapons and horses (and the provisions)
back. A triumph, a victory. While they are out, four men have come wandering in
through the fens, to join the king. Hope,
a licence to dream. The beginnings of these things. Men gather close around a
night fire in Beortferth Hall, walls and a roof between them and the rain at
last. There is one bard among them, his instrument damply out of tune. It
doesn't matter. He sings the old songs, and Aeldred joins in the singing, and
then all of them do. They take turns on watch outside, on the higher ground,
and farther out, at the entrances to the marshes, east and north. Sound carries
here; those on watch can hear the singing sometimes. It is a warming for them,
amazingly so. That
same night, Aeldred's fever comes again. They
have their one singer, and a single aged cleric with bad knees, some artisans,
masons, bird-catchers, fletchers, farmers, fighting men from the fyrd, with
and without weapons. No leech. No one with knives and cups to bleed him, or any
sure knowledge of herbs. The cleric prays, kneeling painfully, sun disk in his
hands, where the king lies by the fire and Osbert—for it is seen as his
task—tries, in anguish, to decide whether Aeldred, thrashing and crying out,
oblivious, lost to them and to Jad's created world, needs to be warmed or
cooled at any given moment, and his heart breaks again and again all the long
night.
By
springtime there are almost two hundred of them on the isle. The season has
brought other life: herons, otters, the loud croaking of frogs in the marsh.
There are more wooden structures now, even a small chapel, and they have
organized, of necessity, a network of food suppliers, hunting parties. The
hunters become more than that, if Erlings are seen. The
northmen have had a difficult winter of their own, it appears. Short of food,
not enough of them to safely extend their reach beyond the fastness of Raedhill
until others come—if they come—when the weather turns. And their own
foraging parties have been encountering, with disturbing frequency, horsed
Anglcyn fighters with murderous vengeance in their eyes and hands, emerging
from some base the Erlings cannot find in this too-wide, forested, hostile
countryside. It is one thing to beat a royal army in a field, another to hold
what you claim. The
mood on the isle is changing. Spring can do that, quickening season. They have
a routine now, shelter, birdsong, greater numbers each day. Amid
all this, those of the Beortferth leaders not taking parties out from the fens
are . . . learning how to read. It is
a direct order of the king's, an obsession. An idea he has about the kingdom he
would make. Aeldred himself, stealing time, labours at a rough-hewn wooden
table at a translation into Anglcyn of the single, charred Rhodian text someone
found amid the ruins of a chapel west and south of them. Burgred has not been
shy about teasing the king about this task. It is entirely uncertain, he
maintains, what ultimate good it will be to have a copy in their own tongue of
a classical text on the treatment of cataracts. The
consolations of learning, the king replies, airily enough, are profound, in and
of themselves. He swears a good deal, however, as he works, not seeming
especially consoled. It is a source of amusement to many of them, though not
necessarily to those engaged, at a given moment, in sounding out their letters
like children under the cleric's irritable instruction. Among
the new recruits making their way late in winter, through the fens to
Beortferth was a lean grey man claiming training in leechcraft. He has bled the
king by cup and blade, achieving little, if anything. There is also a woman
with them now, old, stooped like a hoop—and so safe among so many restless men. She
has wandered the marshes, gathered herbs (spikemarrow, wortfen), and spoken a
charm into them—when the pinch-mouthed cleric was not nearby to mutter of
heathenish magics—and has applied these, pounded into a green paste, to the
king's forehead and chest when his fever takes him. This,
too, as best Osbert can judge, does nothing beyond causing angry-looking
reddish weals. When Aeldred burns and shivers Osbert will take him in his arms
and whisper, endlessly, of summer sunlight and tended fields of rye, of
well-built town walls and even of learned men discoursing upon eye diseases and
philosophy, and the Erling wolves beaten back and back and away, oversea. In
the mornings, white and weak, but lucid, Aeldred remembers none of this. The
nights are harder, he says more than once, for his friend. Osbert denies that.
Of course he denies it. He leads raiding parties in search of game, and
northmen. He practises his letters with the cleric. And
then one day, the ice gone, birds around and above them, Aeldred son of
Gademar, who was the son of Athelbert, sends twenty men out in pairs, riding in
different directions, each pair with the image of a sword carved upon a block
of wood. Change
is upon them, with the change of season. The gambler's throw of a kingdom's
dice. If something is to happen it must be before the dragon-ships set sail
from the east to cross the sea for these shores. The king on his isle in the
marsh summons all that is left of the fyrd, and all other men, the host
of the Anglcyn, to meet him on the next night of the blue full moon (spirits'
moon, when the dead wake) at Ecbert's Stone, not far from Camburn Field. Not
far at all from Raedhill.
Osbert
and Burgred, comparing in whispers, have judged their number at a little under
eight hundred souls, the summoned men of the west. They have reported as much
to the king. There are more, in honesty, than any of them expected. Fewer than
they need. When
has any Anglcyn army had the men it needed against an Erling force? They are
aware, by starlight, of risk and limitation, not indifferent to these things,
but hardly affected by them. The
sun has not yet risen; it is dark and still here at the wood's edge. A clear
night, little wind. This is a forest once said to be haunted by spirits,
faeries, the presence of the dead. Not an inappropriate place to gather.
Aeldred steps forward, a shadow against the last stars. "We
will do the invocation now," he says, "then move before light, to
come upon them the sooner. We will pass in darkness, to end the darkness."
That phrase, among many, will be remembered, recorded. There
is an element of transgression in doing the god's rites before his sun rises,
but no man there demurs. Aeldred, his clerics beside him (three of them now),
leads that host in morning prayer before the morning comes. May we always be
found in the Light. He
rises, they move out, before ever the sun strikes the Stone. Some horsed,
mostly on foot, a wide array of weapons and experience. You could call them a
rabble if you wanted. But it is a rabble with a king in front of it, and a
knowledge that their world may turn on today's unfolding. There
is an Erling force south-east of them, having come out from Raedhill at the
(deliberately offered) rumour of a band of Anglcyn nearby, possibly led by
Gademar's last son, the one who could still dare call himself king of these
fields and forests, this land the northmen have claimed. Ingemar could not but
respond to this bait. Aeldred
rides at the front, his two friends and thegns on either side. The king turns
to look back on his people who have gathered here during the dark of a blue
moon night. He
smiles, though only those nearest can see this. Easy in the saddle, unhelmed,
long brown hair, blue eyes (his slain father's eyes), the light, clear voice
carrying when he speaks. "It
begins now, in Jad's holy name," he says. "Every man here, whatever
his birth, will be known for the whole of his life as having been at Ecbert's
Stone. Come with me, my darlings, to be wrapped in glory."
It is
glorious, in the event: as told by a myriad of chroniclers, sung so often
(and variously), woven into legend, or into tapestries hung on stone walls,
warming winter rooms. Osbert will live to hear his exploits of the day
celebrated—and unrecognizable. He is
at the king's side when they leave the wood and move south towards Camburn
where their outliers have reported the Erlings camped by a field they know.
Burgred, at Aeldred's command, takes one hundred and fifty men east, along the
black line of the trees, to angle south as well, between Camburn and the walls
of Raedhill. The
Erlings are not yet awakened under the raven banners, are not yet ready for a
day's promised hunting of an Anglcyn band when that band—and rather more than
that—appear from the north, moving at speed. The
northmen have their watchmen, of course, and some brief warning. They are not,
by any measure, cowards, and the numbers are near to even. Amid screamed orders
they scramble into armour, seizing hammers and spears and axes; their leaders
have swords. There is, however, much to the elements of surprise and speed in
any fight, and disarray can turn a battle before it starts, unless leaders can
master it. They
have not expected even numbers today, or the ferocity of the charge that roars
into their camp as the first hues of sunlight appear in the east. The northmen
form urgent ranks, stand, buckle, hold again for a time. But only for a time. There
is sometimes knowledge that can subvert men's ardour on a battlefield: the
Erlings here in Esferth know that they have walls not far away at Raedhill,
behind which they can shelter, deal with these Anglcyn at leisure, without the
chaos caused by this heavy, venomous, pre-dawn assault. Responding
to the unspoken, their leaders order a pull-back. Not an entirely wrong course.
There is some distance to cover to Ingemar and the others back in Raedhill, but
in the past the Anglcyn have been content to force the northmen to retreat.
After which they would regroup to consider a next step. There is reason,
therefore, to believe it will be so again as the sun comes up this bright
spring morning, lighting meadow flowers and young grass. Then
there is reason to understand that they are wrong. The men of the Anglcyn are
not stopping to debate among themselves, to consider options and alternatives.
They are following hard, some of them on horse, some with bows. The withdrawal
becomes, in the way of these things, all too often, a flat-out retreat. And
as the Erling escape from their abandoned camp and position becomes a clamorous
rout, a flight east towards distant Raedhill, just about at the moment when
fear will invest the body and soul of even a brave man, the northmen discover
another host of the Anglcyn between them and the walls of safety—and the world,
or that small corner of it, changes. Amid
cries of Aeldred and Jad, withdrawal, retreat, rout turn into slaughter,
very near the same wet, wintry plain that saw King Gademar blood-eagled as a
winter's wet, grey twilight came down. Less
than half a year ago. The time it took Aeldred of Esferth to evolve from a
fleeing refugee hiding in a swineherd's bed, shivering with fever, to a king in
the field, avenging his father and brother, cutting the northmen to pieces by
the blood-soaked field that saw their own defeat. They
even take the raven banner, which has never happened in these lands before.
They kill Erlings all the way to the walls of Raedhill and make camp there at
sunset, and there they pray with lifted voices at the long day's end. In
the morning the northmen send out emissaries, to offer hostages and sue for
peace.
In
the midst of the last of the seven days and nights of feasting in Raedhill that
accompany King Aeldred's conversion of the Erling leader, Ingemar Svidrirson,
into the most holy faith of Jad of the Sun, Burgred of Denferth, the king's
lifelong companion, finds that the black bile rising in his gorge is simply too
strong. He
leaves the banquet hall, walks alone into the beclouded night past the spearmen
on guard, away from the spill of torchlight in the hall and the sounds of
revelry, seeking a darkness to equal the one he finds within. He
hawks and spits into the street, trying to dispel the clawing sickness he
feels, which has nothing to do with too much ale or food and is, instead, about
the desire to commit murder and the need to refrain. The
noise is behind him now and he wants it there. He walks towards the town gates,
away from the feasting hall, finds himself in a muddy laneway. Leans against a
wooden wall there—a stable, from the sounds within—and draws a deep breath of
the night air. Looks up at the stars showing through rents in the swift clouds.
Aeldred told him once that there are those in distant lands who worship them.
So many ways for men to fall into error, he thinks. He
hears a cough, turns his head quickly. There is no danger here now, except,
perhaps, to their souls because of what is happening in the banquet hall. He
expects it to be a woman. There are many of them about, with all the soldiers
in Raedhill. There's money to be made by night, in rooms with a pallet, or even
in the lanes. It
isn't a woman, following. "Windy
out here. I brought us a flask," Osbert says mildly, leaning back against
the stable wall beside him. "The Raedhill brewhouse is run by a widow, it
seems. Learned all her husband had to teach. King's asked her to join his
court, brew for us. I approve." Burgred
doesn't want another drink but takes the flask. He has known Osbert as long as he's
known Aeldred, which is to say most of his life. The ale's strong and clean.
"Best ale I ever had was made by women," he murmurs. "Religious
house in the north, by Blencairn." "Never
been there," Osbert says. "Hold the flask a bit." He turns
around. Burgred hears his friend urinating against the wall. Absently he
drinks, looking up at the sky again. Blue moon over west, waning towards a
crescent above the gates. It was full the night they won the second battle of
Camburn Field and camped before these walls: not even a fourteen-night ago.
They had Ingemar and his remnant penned in here like sheep, and a dead,
unspeakably mutilated king to avenge. Burgred still wants to kill, an urge
deeper than desire. Instead
they are feasting that same Erling remnant, offering them gifts and safe
passage east across the rivers to that part of these Anglcyn lands that has
long been given over to the northmen. "He
doesn't think like we do," Osbert murmurs, as if reading his mind. He
takes back the flask. "Aeldred?" "No,
the miller upstream. Of course Aeldred. You understand that Ingemar knelt
before him, kissed his foot in homage, swore fealty, accepted Jad." Burgred
swears, viciously. "Carved his father open from the back, cracked his ribs
apart and draped his lungs out on his shoulders. Yes, I know all these
things." His hands are fists, just saying it. The
other man is silent for a time. The wind carries the sounds of the banquet to
them. Someone is singing. Osbert sighs. "We were less than seven hundred
men at the gates. They had two hundred left inside, and the season turning,
which could mean dragon-ships, soon. We had no easy way of smashing into a walled,
defended town. One day we might, but not now. My friend, you know all these things,
too." "So
instead of starving them out, we feast, and honour them?" "We
feast, and honour the god and their coming to his light." Burgred
swears again. "You speak that way, but in your heart you feel as I do. I
know it. You want the dead avenged." Sounds
carry to them from the distant hall. "I believe," says the other man,
"that it is tearing him apart to do this, and he is doing it nonetheless.
Be glad you are not a king." Burgred
looks over at him, the face hard to see in darkness. He sighs. "And these
foul Erlings will stay with Jad? You really think so?" "I
have no idea. Some of them have, before. Here's what I do think: the world will
know that Ingemar Svidrirson, who wanted to be a king here, has knelt and sworn
loyalty to Aeldred of Esferth and accepted a sun disk and royal gifts from him,
and will leave him eight hostages, including two sons—and we gave them nothing
in exchange. Nothing. And I know that has never happened since first the
Erlings came to these shores." "You
call the gifts nothing? Did you see the horses?" "I
saw them. They are the gifts of a great lord to a lesser. They will be seen as
such. Jad did defeat Ingavin here, and took the raven banners, too. My friend,
come back and drink with me. We have won something important here, and it is
just a beginning." Burgred
shakes his head. There is still pain, a congestion in his chest. "I would
. . . follow him under the world to battle demons. He knows that. But ..." "But
not if he makes peace with the demons?" Burgred
feels the heaviness, a weight like stones. "It was . . . easier on the
isle, in Beortferth. We knew what we had to do." "Aeldred
still knows. Sometimes . . . with power . . . you do things that fall against
your heart." "I
may not be suited for power, then." "You
have it, my dear. You will have to learn. Unless you leave us. Will you leave
us?" The
wind dies down, faint music fades. They hear horses through the stable wall. "You
know I won't," Burgred says, finally. "He knows I won't." "We
must trust him," Osbert says, softly. "If we can keep him healthy and
alive for long enough, they will not take us again. We will leave a kingdom to
our children, one they can defend." Burgred
looks at him. Osbert is a shadow in the blackness of the laneway, and a voice
forever known. Burgred sighs again, from the heart. "And they will learn
how to read Merovius on cataracts, in Trakesian, or he'll slaughter them
all." There
is a pause, and then Osbert's laughter in the darkness, rich as southern wine. +
Fevers
were tertian, quartan, daily, or hectic. They stemmed—almost always—from
imbalances in the four humours, the alignment of coldness, heat, moisture,
dryness in all men. (There were other concerns peculiar to women, each month,
or when they gave birth.) The
fevered could be bled, with knife and cup, with leeches, in locations and in
degrees according to the teachings followed by the physician. Sometimes the
patient died of this. Death walked near to the living at all times. It was
known. It was generally considered that a good physician was one who didn't
kill you sooner than whatever afflicted you would have. Those
suffering from acute fever might be comforted (or not) by prayer, eased by
poultices, wet sheets, warm bodies next to them, music, or silence. They were
treated with hydromel and oxymel (and physicians had divergent views as to
which sort of honey was best, in the mixing), or with aconite and wild celery
when it was thought that witchery lay at the root of their burning. Lemon balm
and vervain and willow would be compounded, or buckthorn to purge them inside,
sometimes violently. Coltsfoot and fenugreek, sage and wormwood, betony,
fennel, hock and melilot were all said to be efficacious, at times. Valerian
might help a sufferer sleep, easing pain. Fingernails
could be clipped and buried under an ash tree by blue moon's light, though not,
of course, if any cleric were about to know of it. And that same caution
applied to remedies involving gemstones and invocations in the night wood,
though it would be foolish to deny that these took place all over the kingdom
of the Anglcyn. At
one time or another, all of these remedies and more had been brought to bear in
the matter of King Aeldred's fevers, whether they were countenanced by the king
and his clergy or not. None
of them were able to reorder the marred world in such a way as to end the fires
that still seized him some nights, so many long years after that first one had.
"Why
is it dark?" It
was always predictable how the king would emerge, but, more recently, not how
long it would take. What was certain was that he would be pale, weak-voiced,
lucid, precise, and angry. Osbert
had been dozing on the pallet they always made for him. He woke to the voice. "It
is the middle of the night, my lord. Welcome back." "I
lost a whole day this time? Dear Jad. I haven't got days to lose!" Aeldred
was never profane, but the fury was manifest. "I
dealt with the reports as they came. Both new burhs on the coast are on
time, nearly complete, fully manned. The shipyard is at work. Be easy." "What
else?" Aeldred was not being easy. "The
taxation officers went out this morning." "The
tribute from Erlond—Svidrirson's? What word?" "Not
yet, but . . . promised." It was never wise to be less than direct with
the king when he returned from wherever the fever took him. "Promised?
How?" "A
messenger rode in after midday. The young one, Ingemar's son." Aeldred
scowled. "He only sends the boy when the tribute's late. Where is
he?" "Housed
properly, asleep, I'd imagine. It is late. Be at ease, my lord. Athelbert
received him formally in your stead, with his brother." "On
what excuse for my not being there?" Osbert
hesitated. "Your fevers are . . . known, my lord." The
king scowled again. "And where was Burgred, come to think of it?" Osbert
cleared his throat. "We had rumour of a ship sighted. He went with some of
the fyrd to find out more." "A
ship? Erling?" Osbert
nodded. "Or ships." Aeldred
closed his eyes. "That makes little sense." There was a silence.
"You have been beside me all the time, of course." "And
others. Your daughters were here tonight. Your lady wife sat with you before
going to chapel to pray for your health. She will be relieved to hear you are
well again." "Of
course she will." That
had nuances. Most of what Aeldred said had layers, and Osbert knew a great deal
about the royal marriage. The
king lay still on his pillow, eyes shut. After a moment, he said, "But you
never left, did you?" "I
. . . went to the audience chamber to take the reports." Aeldred
opened his eyes, turned his head slightly to look at the other man. After a
silence, he said, "Would you have had a better life had I driven you away,
do you think?" "I
find that hard to imagine, my lord. The better life and being driven
away." Aeldred
shook his head a little. "You might walk properly, at least." Osbert
brought a hand down to his marred leg. "A small price. We live a life of
battles." Aeldred
was looking at him. "I shall answer for you before the god one day,"
he said. "And
I shall speak in your defence. You were right, my lord, Burgred and I were
wrong. Today is proof, the boy coming, the tribute promised again. Ingemar has
kept his oath. It let us do what needed to be done." "And
here you are, unmarried, without kin or heir, on one leg, awake all night by
the side of the man who—" "Who
is king of the Anglcyn under Jad, and has kept us alive and together as a
people. We make our choices, my lord. And marriage is not for every man. I have
not lacked for companionship." "And
heirs?" Osbert
shrugged. "I'll leave my own name, linked—if the god allows—with yours, in
the shaping of this land. I have nephews for my own properties." They had
had this conversation before. Aeldred
shook his head again. There was more grey in his beard of late, Osbert saw. It
showed in the lamplight, as did the circles under his eyes, which were always
there after fever. "And I am, as ever when this passes, speaking to you as
a servant." "I
am a servant, my lord." Aeldred
smiled wanly. "Shall I say something profane to that?" "I
would be greatly alarmed." Osbert returned the smile. The
king stretched, rubbed at his face, sat up in the bed. "I surrender. And I
believe I will eat. Would you also send for . . . would you ask my lady wife to
come to me?" "It
is the middle of the night, my lord." "You
said that already." Aeldred's
gaze was mild but could not be misconstrued. Osbert cleared his throat. "I
will have someone send—" "Ask." "Ask
for her." "Would
you be so good as to do it yourself? It is the middle of the night." A
small, ironic movement of the mouth. The king was back among them, there was no
doubting it. Osbert bowed, took his cane, and went out.
He
looked at his hands in the lamplight after Osbert left. Steady enough. He
flexed his fingers. Could smell his own sweat in the bedsheets. A night and a
day and this much of another night. More time than he had to yield, the grave
closer every day. These fevers were a kind of dying. He felt light-headed now,
as always. That was understandable. Also physically aroused, as always, though
there was no easy way to explain that. The body's return to itself? The
body was a gift of Jad, a housing in this world for the mind and immortal soul,
therefore to be honoured and attended to—though not, on the other hand,
over-loved, because that was also a transgression. Men
were shaped, according to the liturgy, in a distant image of the god's own
most-chosen form, of all those infinite ones he could assume. Jad was rendered
by artists in his mortal guise—whether golden and glorious as the sun, or
dark-bearded and careworn—in wood carving, fresco, ivory, marble, bronze, on
parchment, in gold, in mosaic on domes or chapel walls. This truth (Livrenne of
Mesangues had argued in his Commentaries) only added to the deference
properly due to the physical form of man—opening the door to a clerical debate,
acrid at times, as to the implications for the form and status of woman. There
had been a period several hundred years ago when such visual renderings of the
god had been interdicted by the High Patriarch in Rhodias, under pressure from
Sarantium. That particular heresy was now a thing of the past. Aeldred
thought, often, about the works eradicated during that time. He'd been very
young when he'd made the journey over sea and land and mountain pass to Rhodias
with his father. He remembered some of the holy art they'd seen but also
(having been a particular sort of child) those places in sanctuary and palace
where the evidence of smashed or painted-over works could be observed. Waiting
now in the lamplit dark of a late-summer night for his wife to come, that he
might undress her and make love, the king found himself musing—not for the
first time—on the people of the south: people so ancient, so long established,
that they had works of art that had been destroyed hundreds of years
before these northlands even had towns or walls worthy of the name, let alone a
sanctuary of the god that deserved to be called as much. And
then, tracking that thought, you could walk even further back, to the Rhodians
of the era before Jad came, who had walked in these lands too, building their
walls and cities and arches and temples to pagan gods. Mostly rubble now, since
the long retreat, but still reminders of . . . unattainable glory. All around
them here, in this harsh near-wilderness that he was pleased to call a kingdom
under Jad. You could
be a proper child of the god, virtuous and devout, even in a wilderness.
This was taught, and he knew it in his heart. Indeed, many of the most pious
clerics had deliberately withdrawn from those same jaded southern civilizations
in Batiara, in Sarantium, to seek the essence of Jad in passionate solitude. Aeldred
wasn't a man like one of those. He knew what he'd found in Rhodias, however
ruined it was, and in the lesser Batiaran cities all the way down through the
peninsula (Padrino, Varena, Baiana—music in the names). The
king of the Anglcyn would not have denied that his soul (housed in a body that
wracked and betrayed him so often) had been marked from childhood during that
long-ago journey through the intricate seductions of the south. He
was king of a precarious, dispersed, unlettered people in a winter-shaped,
beleaguered land, and he wanted to be more. He wanted them to be more,
his Anglcyn of this island. And given three generations of peace, he thought it
possible. He had made decisions, for more than twenty-five years, denying his
heart and soul sometimes, with that in mind. He would answer to Jad for all of
it, not far in the future now. And
he didn't think three generations would be allowed them. Not
in these northern lands, this boneyard of war. He lived his life, fighting
through impediments, including these fevers, in defiance of that bitter
thought, as if to will it not to be so, envisaging the god, in his
chariot under the world, battling through evils every single night, to bring
back the sun to the world he had made.
Elswith
came before his meal arrived, which was unexpected. She entered without
knocking, closed the door behind her, moved forward into lamplight. "You
are recovered, by the god's grace?" He
nodded, looking at her. His wife was a large woman, big-boned, as her warrior
father had been, heavier now than when she'd come to marry him—but age and
eight confinements could do that to a woman. Her hair was as fair as it had
been, though, and unbound now—she had been asleep, after all. She wore a dark
green night robe, fastened all the way up the front, a sun disk (always) about
her neck, pillowed upon the robe between heavy breasts. No rings, no other
adornment. Adornments were a vanity, to be shunned. She
had been asking, for years now, to be released from their marriage and this
worldly life, to withdraw to a religious house, become one of the Daughters of
Jad, live out her days in holiness, praying for her soul, and his. He
didn't want her to go. "Thank
you for coming," he said. "You
sent," she said. "I
told Osbert to say—" "He
did." Her
expression was austere but not unfriendly. They weren't unfriendly with
each other, though both knew that was the talk. She
had not moved from where she'd stopped to look down at him in the bed. He
remembered his first sight of her, all those years ago. Tall, fair-haired,
well-made woman, not yet eighteen when they'd brought her south. He hadn't been
much older than that, a year from the battles of Camburn, swift to wed because
he needed heirs. There had been a time when they were both young. It seemed,
occasionally, a disconcerting recollection. "They
are bringing a meal," he said. "I
heard, outside. I told them to wait until I left." From any other woman,
that might have been innuendo, invitation. Elswith didn't smile. He
was aroused, even so, even after all these years. "Will you come to
me?" he asked. Made it a request. "I
have," she murmured dryly, but stepped forward nonetheless, a virtuous,
honourable woman, keeping a compact—but wanting with all her heart to leave
him, leave all of them behind. Had her reasons. She
stood by the bed, the light behind her now. Aeldred sat up, his pulse racing.
All these years. She wore no perfume, of course, but he knew the scent of her
body and that excited him. "You
are all right?" she asked. "You
know I am," he said, and began unfastening the front of her robe. Her
full, heavy breasts swung free, the disk between them. He looked, and then he
touched her. "Are
my hands cold?" She
shook her head. Her eyes were closed, he saw. The king watched her draw a slow
breath as his hands moved. It was not lack of pleasure in this, he knew, with a
measure of satisfaction. It was piety, conviction, fear for their souls, a
yearning towards the god. He
didn't want her to leave. His own piety: he had married this woman, sired
children with her, lived through the tentative reshaping of a realm. Wartime,
peacetime, winter, drought. Could not have claimed there was a fire that burned
between them, but there was life, a history. He didn't want another woman in
his bed. He
slipped the robe past her ample hips, drew his wife down beside him and then
beneath. They made love whenever he recovered from his sickness—and only on
those days or nights. A private arrangement, balancing needs. The body and the
soul. After,
unclothed beside each other, he looked at the marks of red flushing her very
white skin and knew that she would--again—be feeling guilt for her own
pleasure. The body housed the soul, for some; imprisoned it, for others. The
teachings varied; always had. He
drew a breath. "When Judit is married," he said, very softly, a hand
on her thigh. "What?" "I
will release you." He
felt her involuntary movement. She looked quickly at him, then closed her eyes
tightly. Had not expected this. Neither had he, in truth. A moment later, he
saw the tears on her cheeks. "Thank
you, my lord," she said, a catch in her throat. "Aeldred, I pray for
you always, to holy Jad. For mercy and forgiveness." "I
know," said the king. She
was weeping, silently, beside him, tears spilling, hands gripping her golden
disk. "Always. For you, your soul. And the children." "I
know," he said again. Had a
sudden, oddly vivid image of visiting one day at her retreat, Elswith garbed in
yellow, a holy woman among others. The two of them old, walking slowly in a
quiet place. Perhaps, he thought, she was to be his example, and a withdrawal
to the god was his own proper course before the end came and brought him either
light or dark through the spaces of forever. Perhaps
before the end. Not yet. He knew his sins, they burned in him, but he was in
this offered world, and of it, and still carried a dream. In
time, the king and queen of the Anglcyn rose from the royal bed and dressed
themselves. Food was sent for and brought in. She kept him company at table
while he ate and drank, ravenous, as always, after recovery. The body's
appetites. In and of the world. They
slept, later, in their separate bedchambers, parting with the formal kiss of
the god on cheeks and brow. Dawn came not long after, arriving in summer
mildness, ushering a bright day, enormous with implication. SEVEN Hakon
Ingemarson, by ten years his father's youngest son, enjoyed being called upon
to ride west across three rivers and the vague border as an emissary to King
Aeldred's court at Esferth (or wherever else it might be) from their own
settlements in the southern part of Erlond. Aside
from the pleasure he took in this very adult responsibility, he found the
Anglcyn royal children exhilarating, and was infatuated with the younger
daughter. He
was aware that his father was only disposed to send him west when their pledged
payments were late, or about to be, taking shrewd advantage of evidence of
friendship among the younger generation. He also knew that those at the Anglcyn
court were conscious of this, and amused by it. An
ongoing joke, started by Gareth, the younger son, was that if Hakon ever did
arrive with the annual tribute, they'd have Kendra sleep with him. Hakon always
struggled not to flush, hearing this. Kendra, predictably, ignored it each
time, not even bothering with the withering glance her older sister had
perfected. Hakon did ask his father to allow him to lead the actual tribute
west, when it eventually went, but Ingemar reserved that journey for others,
the money well guarded, saving Hakon for explaining—as best he could—their
too-frequent delays. They
were sprawled in the summer grass south of Esferth town, near the river, out of
sight of the wooden walls. Had eaten here out of doors, four of them, and were
idling in late-morning sunshine before returning to town to watch the
preparations for the fair continue. No
one spoke. Birdsong from the beech and oak woods to the west across the stream
and the rising and falling drone of bees among the meadow flowers were the only
sounds. It was warm in the sun, sleep-inducing. But Hakon, reclining on one
elbow, was too aware of Kendra beside him. Her golden hair kept coming free of
her hat as she concentrated on interweaving grasses into something or other.
Athelbert, king's heir of the Anglcyn, lay beyond his sister, on his back, his
own soft cap covering his face. Gareth was reading, of course. He wasn't
supposed to take parchments out of the city, but he did. Hakon,
lazily drifting in the light, became belatedly aware that he could be accused
of staring at Kendra, and probably would be with Athelbert around. He turned
away, abruptly self-conscious. And sat up quickly. "Jad
of the Thunder!" he exclaimed. His father's oath. Not an invocation anyone
but Erlings new to the sun god were likely to use. Gareth
snorted but didn't look up from his manuscript. Kendra did, at least, glance at
where Hakon was looking, briefly raised both eyebrows, and turned calmly back
to her whatever-it-was-going-to-be. "What?"
Athelbert said, evidently awake but not moving, or shifting the hat that
covered his eyes. "Judit,"
said Kendra. "She's angry." Athelbert
chuckled. "Aha! I know she is." "You're
in trouble," Kendra murmured, placidly plaiting. "Oh, probably,"
said her older brother, comfortably sprawled in deep grass. Hakon,
wide-eyed, cleared his throat. The approaching figure, moving with grim purpose
through the summer meadow, was quite close now. In fact .. . "She,
ah, has a sword," he ventured, since no one else seemed to be saying it. Gareth
did glance up at that, and then grinned with anticipation as his older sister
came towards them. Kendra merely shrugged. On the other hand, Prince Athelbert,
son of Aeldred, heir to the throne, heard Hakon's words, and moved. Extremely
swiftly, in point of fact. As a
consequence, the point of the equally swift sword, which would probably have
plunged into the earth between his spread legs a little below his groin,
stabbed into grass and soil just behind his desperately rolling form. Hakon
closed his eyes for an excruciating moment. An involuntary, protective hand
went below his own waist. Couldn't help it. He looked again, saw that Gareth
had done the very same thing, and was wincing now, biting his lip. No longer
amused. It
wasn't entirely certain the blade, thrust by someone moving fast on uneven
ground, would have missed impaling the older prince in an appalling location. Athelbert
rolled two or three more times, and scrambled to his feet, white as a spirit,
cap gone, eyes agape. "Are
you crazed?" he screamed. His
sister regarded him, breathing hard, her auburn hair seeming afire in the
sunlight, entirely free of any decent restraint. Restraint
was not the word for her at all. She looked murderous. Judit
jerked the sword free of the earth, levelled it, stepped forward. Hakon thought
it wisest to scramble aside. Athelbert withdrew rather farther than that. "Judit
..." he began. She
stopped, held up an imperious hand. A
silence in the meadow. Gareth had set down his reading, Kendra her
grass-plaiting. Their
red-headed sister said, controlling her breathing with an effort, "I sat
up with father, beside Osbert, for part of last night." "I
know," said Athelbert quickly. "It was a devout, devoted—"
"He is well now. He wishes to see Hakon Ingemarson today." "The
god be thanked for mercy," Athelbert said piously, still very white. Hakon
saw Judit glance at him. Ducked his head in an awkward half-bow. Said nothing.
He didn't trust his voice. "I
went," said the older daughter of Aeldred the king and his royal wife,
Elswith, "back to my own chambers in the middle of the night." She
paused. Hakon heard the birds, over by the woods. "It was dark,"
Judit added. Her self-control, Hakon judged, was precarious. Among
other things, the sword was quivering in her hand. Athelbert backed up another
small step. Had probably seen the same thing. "My
women were asleep," his sister said. "I did not wake them." She
glanced to one side, regarded Athelbert's bright red cap lying in the grass.
Went over to it. Pierced it with the sword, used her free hand to tear the cap
raggedly in two along the blade, dropped it back into the grass. A butterfly
flitted down, alighted on one fragment, flew away. "I
undressed and went to bed," Judit went on. She paused. Levelled the blade
at her brother again. "Jad rot your eyes and heart, Athelbert, there was a
dead man's skull in my bed, with the mud still on it!" "And
a rose!" her brother added hastily, backing up again. "He had a rose!
In his mouth!" "I
did not," Judit snarled through gritted teeth, "observe that detail
until after I had screamed and awakened all three of my women and a guard
outside!" "Most
skulls," said Gareth thoughtfully, from where he sat, "belong to dead
people. You didn't actually have to say that it was a—" He
stopped, swallowed, as his sister's lethal, green-eyed gaze fell upon him.
"Do not even think of being amusing. Were you," she asked, in
a voice suddenly so quiet it was frightening, "in any possible way, little
brother, a part of this?" "He
wasn't!" said Athelbert quickly, before Gareth could reply. And then made
the mistake of essaying a placating smile and gesture. "Good,"
said Judit. "I need only kill you." Kendra
held up her grass plaiting. "Tie him up with this, first?" she
murmured. "Be
careful, sister," Judit said. "Why did you not awaken when I
screamed?" "I'm
used to it?" Kendra said mildly. Gareth
snorted. Unwisely. Tried, urgently, to turn it into a cough. Judit took a step
towards both of them. "I'm
a . . . deep sleeper?" Kendra amended hastily. "And perhaps your
courage is such that what seemed a piercing scream to you was really
only—" "I
tore my throat raw," her sister said flatly. "It was the middle of
the Jad-cursed night. I was exhausted. I lay down upon a cold, hard, muddy
skull in my bed. I believe," she added, "the teeth bit me." Hearing
that last, ruminative observation, Hakon suddenly found himself in extreme
difficulty. He looked over at Gareth and took comfort in what he saw: the
thrashing desperation of the younger prince's suppressed hilarity. Gareth was
weeping with the effort of trying not to howl. Hakon found that he was no
longer able to stay upright. He sank to his knees. His shoulders were shaking.
He felt his nose beginning to run. Whimpering sounds came from his mouth. "Oh,
my, look at those two," said Kendra in a pitying voice. "All
right, this is what we will do. Judit, put down the sword." She was
displaying, Hakon thought, what was, under the circumstances, an otherworldy
composure. "Athelbert, stay exactly where you are. Close your eyes,
hands at your sides. That was a craven, despicable, unworthy, extremely amusing
thing to do and you must pay a price or Judit will make life intolerable for
all of us and I don't feel like suffering for you. Judit, go and hit him as
hard as you can, but not with the sword." "You
are judge here, little sister?" Judit said icily. "Someone
has to be. Gareth and Hakon are peeing in their hose," Kendra said.
"Father would be displeased if you killed his heir and you'd probably
regret it afterwards. A little." Hakon
wiped at his nose. These things did not happen back home. Gareth was
flat on his back, making strangled noises. "Teeth!" Hakon
thought he heard him moan. Judit
looked at him, then at Kendra, and finally over at Athelbert. After a long
moment, she nodded her head, once. "Do
it, fool," Kendra said promptly to her older brother. Athelbert
swallowed again. "She needs to drop the sword first," he said,
cautiously. He still looked ready to flee. "She
will. Judit?" Judit
dropped the sword. There remained an entirely forbid-ding bleakness to her
narrowed gaze. She pushed windblown hair back from her face. Her tunic was
green, belted with leather above the riding trousers she liked to wear. She
looked, Hakon thought suddenly, like Nikar the Huntress, swordbride of Thunir,
whom, of course, his family no longer worshipped at all, having come from
bloody sacrifices to the . . . less violent faith of Jad. Athelbert
took a breath, managed an almost indifferent shrug. He closed his eyes and
spread his legs, braced to absorb a blow. Gareth managed to lever himself into
a sitting position to watch. He wiped at his eyes with the back of one hand.
Kendra had an odd look to her ordinarily calm, fair features. Judit,
who would one day be saluted the length of the isle and across the seas as the
Lady of Rheden, be honoured through generations for courage, and mourned in
poets' laments long after the alignments and borders of the world had changed
and changed again, walked across the sunlit morning grass, not breaking stride,
and kicked her brother with a booted foot, hard (very hard) up between the legs
where the sword had almost gone. Athelbert
made a clogged, whistling sound and crumpled to the ground, clutching at
himself. Judit
gazed down at him for only a brief moment. Then she turned. Her eyes met
Hakon's. She smiled at him, regal, gracious and at ease in a summer-bright
meadow. "Did you four drink all the wine?" she asked, sweetly.
"I have a sudden thirst, for some reason." It
was while Hakon was kneeling, hastily filling a cup for her, splashing the
wine, that they saw the Cyngael come walking up from the south, on the other
side of the stream. Four
men and a dog. They stopped, looking towards the royal party on the grass.
Athelbert was lying very still, eyes squeezed shut, breathing thinly, both
hands between his legs. Looking across the river at the dog, Hakon suddenly
shivered as if chilled. He set down Judit's cup, without handing it to her, and
stood up. When
your hair rose like this, the old tale was that a goose was walking over the
ground where your bones would lie. He looked over at Kendra (he was always
doing that) and saw that she was standing very still, gazing across the river,
a curious expression on her face. Hakon wondered if she, too, was sensing a
strangeness about the animal, if this awareness might even be something the two
of them shared. You
might have called the wolfhound beside the youngest of the four men a dark
grey, if you'd wanted to. Or you could have said it was black, trees behind it,
sun briefly in cloud, the birds momentarily silenced by that.
Ceinion
of Llywerth squinted, looking east into sunlight. Then a cloud passed before
the sun and he saw Aeldred's older daughter recognize him first and, smiling
with swift, vivid pleasure, come quickly towards them across the grass. He made
his way through the stream, which was cool, waist-deep here, that she might not
have to enter the water herself. He knew Judit; she would have waded in. On the
riverbank, she came up to him and knelt. With
genuine happiness he made the sign of the disk over her red hair and offered no
comment at all on its unbound disarray. Judit, he had told her father the last
time he'd been here, ought to have been a Cyngael woman, so fiercely did she
shine. "She
doesn't shine," Aeldred had murmured wryly. "She burns." Looking
beyond her, he saw the younger sister and brother, and what appeared to be an
Erling, and belatedly noted the crumpled figure of Aeldred's heir in the grass.
He blinked. "Child, what happened here?" he asked. "Athelbert .
. . ?" His
companions had crossed the stream now, behind him. Judit looked up, still
kneeling, her face all calm serenity. "We were at play. He took a fall. I
am certain he will be all right, my lord. Eventually." She smiled. Even
as she was speaking, Alun ab Owyn, the dog at his heels, walked over towards
Aeldred's other children, before Ceinion had had a chance to introduce them
formally. The high cleric knew a brief but unmistakable moment of apprehension. Owyn's
son, brought east on impulse and instinct, had not been an easy companion on
the journey to the Anglcyn lands. There was no reason to believe he would
become one now that they'd arrived. A blow had fallen on him earlier this year,
almost as brutal as the one that had killed his brother. He had been direly
wounded within, riding home to tell his father and mother that their first-born
son and heir had been slain and was buried in Arberthi soil, then drifting
through a summer of blank, aimless days. There had been no healing for Owyn's
son. Not yet. He
had agreed, reluctantly and under pressure from his father, to be an escort to
the Anglcyn court for the high cleric on the path between the sea and the dense
forest that lay between the Cyngael and the Anglcyn lands. Ceinion,
watching him surreptitiously as they went, grieved for the living son almost as
much as for the dead. Surviving could be a weight that crushed the soul. He
knew something about that, thought about it every time he visited a grave
overlooking the sea, at home.
Kendra
watched the young Cyngael come over to them, the grey hound beside him. She
knew she ought to go to the cleric, as Judit had, receive his blessing, extend
her own glad greetings. She
found that she could not move, didn't understand, at all. A sense of . . . very
great strangeness. The
Cyngael reached them. She caught her breath. "Jad give you greeting,"
she said. He
went right past her. Not even glancing her way: straight brown hair to his
shoulders, brown eyes. Her own age, she guessed. Not a tall man, trimly made, a
sword at his side. He
knelt beside Athelbert, who lay motionless, curled up like a child, hands still
clutching between his legs. She was near enough, just, to hear her older
brother murmur, eyes closed, "Help me, Cyngael. A small jest. Tell Judit
I'm dead. Hakon will help you." The
Cyngael was still for a moment, then he stood. Looking down at the heir to the
Anglcyn throne, he said, contemptuously, "You have the wrong playmate. I
find nothing amusing about telling someone their brother is dead, and would lie
in torment eternally before I let an Erling ... help me . . . with
anything. You may choose to eat and drink with them, Anglcyn, but some of us
remember blood-eaglings. Tell me, where's your grandfather buried, son of
Aeldred?" Kendra
put a hand to her mouth, her heart thudding. Across the meadow, in morning
light, Judit was standing with Ceinion of Llywerth, out of earshot. They might
have been figures in a holy book, illuminated by clerics with loving care and
piety. Part of a different picture, a different text, not this one. This
one, where they were, was not holy. The lash of the Cyngael words was somehow
the worse for the music in his voice. Athelbert, who was, in fact, considerably
more than simply a jester, opened his eyes and looked up. Hakon
had gone red, as he was inclined to do when distressed. "I think you
insult both Prince Athelbert and myself, and in great ignorance," he said,
impressively enough. "Will you retract, or need I chastise you in Jad's
holy name?" He laid a hand on his sword hilt. Aeldred's
younger daughter was considerably milder of manner than her sister, and was
thought, therefore (though not by her siblings), to be softer. Something
peculiar seemed to be happening to her now, however. A feeling, a sensation within
.. . a presence. She didn't understand it, felt edgy, angry, threatened. A
darkness in the sunlight here, beside it. Fists
clenched at her sides, she walked towards her brother and their longtime friend
and this arrogant Cyngael, whoever he was, and, as the stranger turned at her
approach, she swung up her own booted foot to kick him in the selfsame way
Judit had kicked Athelbert. Without
the same result. This man did not have his eyes closed, and was in the state of
heightened awareness that cold fury and a journey into unknown country can both
instill. "Cafall!
Hold!" he rasped, and in the same moment, as the dog subsided, the
Cyngael twisted deftly to one side and caught Canard's foot as she kicked at
him. He gripped it, waist high. Then he pushed it higher. She
was falling. He wanted her to fall. She
would have, had the other, older man not arrived, moving quickly to support
her. She hadn't heard the cleric coming over. She stayed that way, her boot
gripped by one Cyngael, body held from behind by another. Outraged,
Hakon leaped forward. "You pigs!" he snarled. "Let her go!" The
younger one did so, with pleasing alacrity. Then, less pleasingly, he said,
"Forgive me. The proper behaviour here would be . . . what? To let an
Erling tutor me in courtesy? I was disinclined to cut her lungs out. What does
one do when a woman betrays her lineage in this fashion? Accept the offered
blow?" This
was difficult, as Hakon had no good answer, and even less of a notion why
Kendra had done what she'd done. "I
am entirely happy," the Cyngael went on, in the absurdly beautiful voice
they all seemed to have as a gift, "to kill you if you think there's
honour to defend here." "No!"
Kendra said quickly, in the same moment Ceinion of Llywerth released her elbows
and turned to his companion. "Prince
Alun," he said, in a voice like metal, "you are here as my companion
and guard. I am your charge. Remember that." "And
I will defend you with my life from pagan offal," the younger Cyngael
said. The words were ugly, the tone eerily mild, flat. He doesn't care, Kendra
thought suddenly. He wants to be dead. She had no least idea how she
knew that. Hakon
drew his sword and stepped back, for room. "I am weary of these
words," he said with dignity. "Do what you can, in Jad's name." "No.
Forgive me, both of you, but I forbid this." It
was Athelbert, on his feet, clearly in pain, but doing what needed to be done.
He stumbled between Hakon and the Cyngael, who had not yet drawn his own blade. "Ah.
Wonderful. You are not dead after all," the one who appeared to be named
Alun said, mockingly. "Let's blood-eagle someone in celebration." At
which point, in what might have been the most surprising moment of a profoundly
unsettling encounter, Ceinion of Llywerth stepped forward and hammered a short,
hard, punishing fist into the chest of his young companion. The high cleric of the
Cyngael was not of the soft, insular variety of holy men. The punch knocked the
younger man staggering; he almost fell. "Enough!"
said Ceinion. "In your father's name and mine. Do not make me regret my
love for you." Kendra
registered that last. And the fact that the dog did not even move despite this
attack on his master, and the pain in Ceinion's voice. Her senses seemed
unnaturally heightened, on alert, apprehending some threat. She watched the
young Cyngael straighten, bring a hand slowly to his chest then take it away.
He shook his head, as if to clear it. He
was looking at Ceinion, she saw, ignoring Hakon's blade and Athelbert's
intervention. Judit, uncharacteristically, had kept silent, beside Gareth,
whose watchful manner was normal, not unusual. The
two Cyngael servants had remained by the stream. It was still morning, Kendra
thought, late-summer, a bright day, just south and west of Esferth. No time had
passed in the world, really. "You
will note that my sword is still sheathed," Alun said at last, softly, to
Ceinion. "It will remain so." He turned to Kendra, surprising her.
"Are you injured, my lady?" She
managed to shake her head. "My apologies," she said. "I attacked
you. You insulted a friend." The
ghost of a smile. "So I gather. Evidently not wise, in your
presence." "Judit's
worse," Kendra said. "I
am not so! Only when—" Judit began. "Jad's
blood and grief!" Gareth
snarled. "Hakon! Sheathe your blade!" Hakon
immediately did so, then turned with the others and saw why. "Father!"
cried Judit, in a voice that might actually have made one believe she was
purely delighted, feeling nothing but pleasure as she stepped forward and made
a showy, elaborate, attention-claiming curtsy in the meadow grass. "Sorry,
sorry, sorry," Gareth muttered to the high cleric. "Language.
Profane. I know." "The
least of all transgressions here, I'd say," murmured Ceinion of Llywerth,
before going forward as well, smiling, to kneel before and rise to be embraced
by the king of the Anglcyn. And
then to offer the same hug, and his sun disk blessing, to scarred, limping,
large-souled Osbert, a little behind Aeldred and to one side, where he always
was. "Ceinion.
Dear friend. This," said the king, "is unlooked for so soon, and a
source of much joy." "You
do me, as before, too much honour, my lord," said the cleric. Kendra,
watching closely, saw him glance back over his shoulder. "I would present
a companion. This is Prince Alun ab Owyn of Cadyr, who has been good enough to
journey with me, bearing greetings from his royal father." The
younger Cyngael stepped forward and performed a flawless court bow. From where
she stood, Kendra couldn't see his expression. Hakon, on her right side, was
still flushed from the confrontation. His sword—thanks be to Gareth and the
god—was sheathed. Kendra
saw her father smiling. He seemed well, alert, very happy. He was often this
way after his fever passed. Returning to life, as from the grey gates to the
land of the dead where judgement was made. And she knew how highly he thought
of the Cyngael cleric. "Owyn's
son!" Aeldred murmured. "We are greatly pleased to welcome you to
Esferth. Your father and lady mother are well, I trust and hope, and your older
brother? Dai, I believe?" Her
father found it useful to let people realize, very early, how much he knew. He
also enjoyed it. Kendra had watched him for a long time now, and could see that
part, too. Alun
ab Owyn straightened. "My brother is dead," he said flatly. "My lord,
he was killed by an Erling raiding party in Arberth at the end of spring. The
same party blood-eagled two innocent people, one of them a girl, as they fled
to their ships after being defeated. If you have assigned any of your royal fyrd
to engage the Erlings anywhere in your lands this season, I should be
honoured to be made one of them." The
music, still there in his voice, clashed hard with the words. Kendra saw her
father absorbing all of this. He glanced at Ceinion. "I didn't know,"
he said. He hated
not knowing things. Saw it as a kind of assault, an insult, when events took
place anywhere on their island—in the far north, in Erlond to the east, even
west across the Rheden Wall among the black hills of the Cyngael—without his
own swift and sure awareness. A strength, a flaw. What he was. Aeldred
looked at the young man before him. "This is a grief," he said.
"My sorrow. Will you allow us to pray with you for his soul, which is
surely with Jad?" From
where she stood, Kendra saw the Cadyri stiffen, as if to offer a quick retort.
He didn't, though. Only bowed his head in what could have been taken for
acquiescence, if you didn't know better. That eerie, inexplicable sensation:
she did know better, but not how she knew it. Kendra felt an uneasy
prickling, a tremor within. She
became aware that Gareth was looking at her, and managed an almost indifferent
shrug. He was shrewd, her younger brother, and she had no way of explaining
what it was she was . . . responding to here. She
turned back and saw that her father was now gazing at her as well. She smiled,
uncertainly. Aeldred turned to study Judit, and then his sons. She saw him
register Athelbert's awkward stance and the sword on the grass. She
knew—they all knew—the expression he now assumed. Detached, amused, ironic. He
was a much-loved man, Aeldred of the Anglcyn, he had been from childhood, but
he dealt out his own affection thoughtfully, and given what he was, how could
he not? Their mother was an exception but that, all four children knew, was
also complex. Waiting,
anticipating, Kendra heard her father murmur, "Judit, dear heart, don't
forget to bring my longsword back." "Of
course, Father," said Judit, eyes downcast, her manner entirely
subdued, if not her hair. Aeldred
smiled at her. Added gently, "And when you chastise your older brother,
and there is no doubt in me he will have deserved it, try to ensure it doesn't
affect the likelihood of heirs for the kingdom. I'd be grateful." "Ah,
so would I, actually," Athelbert said, in something approaching his
customary voice. He
was not standing normally yet, there was a cramped tilt to his posture, but he
was getting closer to upright. Kendra was still in awe, often, at how precisely
her father could draw conclusions from limited information. It was something
that frightened Athelbert, she knew: a son entirely aware he was expected to be
able to follow this man to the throne. The burden of that. You could understand
much of what Athelbert did if you thought of it in this way. "Please
come," her father was saying to the two Cyngael. "I walked out to
greet Hakon Ingemarson, our young eastern friend, rather than wait for my
errant children to bring him back so that he might offer his father's latest
explanation for an unsent tribute." Aeldred turned and smiled at Hakon, to
take some of the sting from that. The young Erling managed a proper bow. The
king turned back to Ceinion. "This is a gift, your early arrival. We will
offer thanks in chapel for a safe journey, and our prayers for the soul of Dai
ab Owyn, and then—if you will—we shall feast and talk, and there will be music
in Esferth while you tell me you have answered my prayers and are come here to
stay." The
cleric made no reply to that last, Kendra saw. She didn't think her father had
expected one. Hakon, of course, was red-faced again. She felt sorry for him. A
likable, well-meaning boy. She ought to think of him as a man, but that was difficult.
It was curious: Athelbert was far more childish, but you always knew
there was a man there, playing at boy-games because he chose to. And she had
seen her brother riding with the fyrd. Aeldred
gestured. Ceinion and the younger Cyngael fell into stride with him, walking
towards the walls of the town, out of sight north of them. Kendra saw Judit
step quietly over and reclaim the sword. She hadn't recognized it as their
father's. Athelbert's mutilated cap was left where it had fallen, a redness in
the grass. Their own servants, who had hovered cautiously at a distance all
this time, now came to gather the remains of their meal. Kendra looked west,
saw the two Cyngael servants moving forward from the stream, leading a laden
donkey. It
was only then that she saw that one of them was an Erling. Ebor,
the son of Bordis, never minded being posted to night duty on the walls,
wherever the court happened to be. He'd even made some friends by taking
watches assigned to others, leaving them free for the taverns. A solitary sort
of man (much the same when a boy), he took a deep, hard-to-explain comfort from
being awake and alone while others feasted or drank or slept, or did the other
things one did in the night. Sometimes
a woman, walking near the walls, offering her song to the dark, would call up
to him from the bottom of the steps. Ebor would decline while on duty, though
not always afterwards. A man had his needs, and he'd never married. Youngest
son of a farmer, no land, no prospect of it. He'd joined the standing army of
the king. Younger sons did that, everywhere. The way the world was made, no
point brooding on it. The army gave you companions, shelter, enough money
(usually, not always) for ale and a girl and your weapon. Sometimes you fought
and some of you died, though less often of late, as the Erling raiders slowly took
the measure of Aeldred of the Anglcyn and the forts and fortified burhs he'd
been building. Some
of the Erlings were allies now, actually paying tribute to the king. Something
deep, passing strange in that, if one thought on it. Ebor wasn't a thinker,
exactly, but long nights on watch did give you time for reflection. Not
tonight, however. Tonight, under drifting clouds and the waning blue moon, had
been raddled with interruptions, and not from night-walkers offering interludes
of love—though one was a woman. If you forced a man to make two
decisions in haste, Ebor would later tell the king's chamberlain, humble and
contrite, chances were he'd make a bad one, or two. That,
Osbert, son of Cuthwulf, would say quietly, is why we have standing orders
about the gates at night. To remove the need to make a decision. And Ebor would
bow his head, knowing this was so, and that this was not the time to point out
that every guard on the wall disobeyed those orders in peacetime. He
would not be punished. The one death in the night was not initially thought to
be connected in any way with events at the gate. This was, as it happened,
another error, though not his.
The
women were beginning to leave the hall, led by Elswith, the queen. Ceinion of
Llywerth, placed at the king's right hand, had the distinct impression that the
older princess, the red-haired one, was disinclined to surrender the evening,
but Judit was going with her lady mother nonetheless. The younger daughter,
Kendra, seemed to have already left. He hadn't seen her go. The quiet one, she
was less vivid, more watchful. He liked them both. His
new Erling manservant, or guard (he still hadn't decided how to think of him),
had also gone out; he'd come and asked permission to do so, earlier. Not a
thing he'd really needed to do, under the circumstances, and Ceinion wasn't
sure what to make of it. A request for dispensation, in some way. It had felt
like that. He'd wanted to ask more about it, but there were others listening.
Thorkell Einarson was a complex man, he'd decided. Most men, past a certain
age, could be said to be. The young ones usually weren't, in his experience.
The youths in this hall would want nothing more than glory, any way they could
find it. There
were exceptions. The king, expansive and genial of mood, had already announced
that they would essay the Cyngael's well-known triad game later, in honour of
their visitors. Ceinion had glanced along the table at Alun then, wincing, and
had known, immediately, that he would not linger for that. Alun ab Owyn had
made his excuses, prettily, to the queen, asking leave to go to evening prayer,
just before she walked out herself. Elswith,
clearly impressed by the young prince's piety, had offered to bring him to the
royal sanctuary, but Alun had demurred. No music from him tonight, either,
then. He hadn't brought his harp east on the journey; hadn't touched it since
his brother had died, it appeared. Time needed to run further, Ceinion decided,
a memory tugging at him from that wood by Brynn's farm. He pushed that one
away. With
the food now being cleared and the restraining presence of the ladies gone,
serious drinking could be expected at the long table running down the room.
There were dice cups out, he saw. The older prince, Athelbert, had left his
seat at the high table and moved farther down to join some of the others.
Ceinion watched him set a purse in front of himself, smiling. Beside
Ceinion, King Aeldred leaned back in his cushioned chair, a pleased,
anticipatory expression on his face. Ceinion looked past the king and the
queen's now-empty seat to where a portly cleric from Ferrieres was brushing at
food on his yellow robe, visibly content with the meal and wine he'd been
offered in this remote northern place. Ferrieres prided itself, lately, on
being next only to Batiara itself, and Sarantium, in cultivating the elements
of civilization. They could afford to do so, Ceinion thought
without rancour. Things were different here in the northlands. Harsher, colder,
more . . . marginal. The edge of the world. Aeldred
turned to him, and Ceinion smiled back at the king, his hands clasped loosely
on the tabletop. Alun ab Owyn was ravaged by his brother's death. Aeldred, at
the same age, had seen his own brother and father killed on a battlefield, and
learned of unspeakable things done to them. And he had accepted homage, not
long after, from the man who had slain and butchered them, and let the man
live. That same Erling's son was at this table now, in an honoured place.
Ceinion wondered if he could talk to Alun about that, if it would mean
anything. And then he thought again of the forest pool north of Brynnfell, and
wished he'd never been there, or the boy. He
drank from his wine cup. This was the hour when, at a Cyngael feast, the
musicians would be summoned to claim and shape a mood. Among the Erlings in
Vinmark, too, for that matter, though the songs were not the same, or the mood.
There might be wrestlers now, among the Anglcyn, jugglers, knife-throwing
contests, drinking bouts. Or all of these at once, in a loud chaos to hold back
the night outside. Not
at this court. "I now wish," said Aeldred of the Anglcyn, turning to
one and then to the other of the clerics flanking him, "to discuss a
translation thought I have, to render into our own tongue the writings of
Kallimarchos, his meditations on the proper conduct of a good life. And then I
would hear your reasoned opinions on the question of images of Jad and suitable
decoration for a sanctuary. I hope you are not fatigued. Do you have a
sufficiency of wine, each of you?" A
different sort of king, this one. A different way of pushing back the dark. +
Thorkell
hadn't wanted to go south from Brynnfell with the cleric and the younger son of
Owyn ap Glynn and the dog. And he most emphatically hadn't wanted to continue
east with them later in the summer to the Anglcyn lands. But when you cast the
gambling bones (as he had) in the midst of a battle, and changed sides (as he
had), you lost a large measure of control over your own life. He
could have fled once the eastern journey started. He'd done that once before,
after surrendering to the Cyngael and converting to the sun god's faith. That
had been a young man's wild flight: on foot, with a hostage, to finally arrive,
wounded, bone-weary, among fellow Erlings in the north-east of this wide
island. A
long time ago. A different man, really. And without the history he'd accrued,
since. Thorkell Einarson would be known now to the survivors of that raiding
party as having turned on his companions to save a Cyngael woman—and her
father, the man who'd slain the Volgan, the man who was the reason they'd come
inland so dangerously far. He was, to put it delicately, unsure of a welcome
among his people in the east. Nor
did he feel like cutting alone across this country to find out. He had no
hearth to row towards—even if a ship would take him at an oar—having been
exiled from his own isle for a bad night's fit of temper after dice. The
young man who'd made that escape alone hadn't had a hip that ached when it
rained, or a left shoulder that didn't work well first thing of a morning. The
cleric had noticed the second of these on their way here. An observant man, too
much so for Thorkell's ease of mind. One morning Ceinion had disappeared into
the edge of the oak and alderwood forest that marched along north of them and
returned with leaves he'd steeped with herbs in the iron pot the donkey
carried. Without saying much, he'd told Thorkell to put the hot leaves on his
shoulder, wrap them with a cloth, and leave them there when they set off. He
did it the next day, too, even though the wood was known to be accursed,
haunted with spirits. He didn't go in far, but he did go far enough to get his
leaves. The
poultice helped, which was irritating, in a perverse way. The cleric was older
than Thorkell, showed no signs of any stiffness of his own at dawn, kneeling
during prayers or rising from them. On the other hand, this man wouldn't have
had years of fighting behind him, or manning a longship oar in storms. It
seemed to Thorkell that Jad or Ingavin or Thьnir-whatever god or gods you cared
to name—had caused him to save that girl, ap Hywll's daughter, and then cast
his lot with these Cyngael of the west, an oath-sworn servant to them. There
were better fates, but it could also be said there were worse. He'd
had a better one as a free man and a landowner on Rabady, a farm of his own
within sound of the sea. He'd ripped the skein of that destiny himself: killed
a man over dice in the tavern by the harbour (his second man, unfortunately),
taken with rage like a berserkir, using his fists. It had taken four men
to pull him off, they told him after. When
you did things like that, Thorkell had lived long enough to know, you
surrendered your life into the hands of others, even if the dead man had been
cheating you. He shouldn't have had so much to drink that night. Old story. He'd
left the isle, taken work here and there, survived a winter, then found a
raiding ship down south when springtime came. He ought to have considered more
carefully. Perhaps. Or else a god had been steering his path towards those western
valleys. The
lady, Brynn's wife, had claimed him as her own servant, then assigned him as a
guard to a reluctant cleric when she'd learned that Ceinion had changed his
plans, was journeying south to Cadyr to see Owyn, and from there to Aeldred's
court. There was something between the two of them, Thorkell had decided, but
he wasn't sure what. Didn't think the cleric was bedding Brynn's wife (amusing
as that would have been). He
did know the lady had almost certainly saved his own life after the botched
raid and the ensuing discovery that Ivarr Ragnarson
had blood-eagled two people during his own flight to the ships. He'd had no
business doing that: you used the blood-eagle only for a reason, to make a
point. You cheapened it, otherwise. There was no point to be made when you were
beaten and running home, and when you did it to a farmhand and a girl. Ivarr,
marked from birth, was strange and dangerous, cold as the black snake that
would crush the Worldtree at the end of days and destroy its roots with venom.
A coward, too, poison arrows and a bow, which didn't make him less threatening.
Not with his grandfather's name to wield. All
of which knowledge did leave open the question of why Thorkell had signed on to
that ship, joined a Volgan family raid in the first place. A blood feud two
generations down. Ancient history for him, long put behind, or it should have
been. Siggur Volganson's grandsons were, very clearly, not what Siggur had
been, and Thorkell was no longer what he had been, either. Was it sentiment?
Longing for youth? Or just the lack of a better thought in his head? No
good answer. A Cyngael farmhouse inland was a long way to go, and had been
unlikely to offer much in the way of plunder. The family's sworn vengeance
wasn't his own blood feud, though he'd been there all those years ago when
Siggur was killed and his sword taken. You
could say he hadn't seen anything else to do since leaving home, or you could
say that in some fashion the dark-hilled, mist-shrouded land of the Cyngael was
still entangled with his own destiny. You could say he'd missed the sea,
man-killer, fortunemaker. A part-truth, but only that. Thьnir
and Ingavin might know how it was, or the golden sun god, but Thorkell wouldn't
claim to have an answer himself. Men did what they did. Right
now, in the close, rank darkness of a foetid alley outside a tavern in Esferth,
what he was doing was waiting for a man he'd recognized earlier in the day to
come out and piss against the wall. He'd
been in the huge, slope-roofed great hall at the king's feast this evening,
without formal duties, since Aeldred's servants were attending to their guests.
He'd made his way to the high table during an interlude in the serving of
courses, to ask permission of the cleric to go outside. "Why
so?" Ceinion of Llywerth had asked him, softly though. The man was no
fool. And
Thorkell, who wasn't either, hadn't lied. Murmured, "Saw someone I don't
think should be here. Want to check what he's about." True,
as far as it went. Ceinion,
thick grey eyebrows very slightly arched, had hesitated, and then nodded his
head. People were looking at them, not a time or place to talk. Thorkell hadn't
been sure what he'd have done if the cleric hadn't given his consent, had acted
otherwise. He could have slipped out without asking permission in that crowded,
noisy hall, probably should have. Wasn't certain why he'd gone up to ask. His
hip was paining him. It sometimes did, at night, even though it hadn't been
raining of late. They'd covered a deal of rough ground the past few days, to
come out in a meadow this morning where the Anglcyn royal children were having
an outing on the grass. Thorkell had actually felt a change in the way of the
world, seeing that. It was not the sort of thing the Anglcyn would have even
considered, barely a day's ride from the sea, in the years when Thorkell
himself was young and he and Siggur and other raiders were beaching longships
wherever they pleased along this coast, or on the other side of the channel in
Ferrieres. Ingemar Svidrirson had even ruled these lands for a brief time. But
he'd failed to capture the youngest son of the king he'd blood-eagled. A
mistake. He'd paid for it, though not with his life, surprisingly. His own
youngest son was here now, it turned out, an envoy from a tribute-paying
Erling. The world had altered greatly in twenty-five years. All old men thought
that way, he supposed. Came with the bad hip and the shoulder. You could let
yourself be bitter. He
looked towards the mouth of the alley again. Couldn't see much. He'd seen
enough when they'd come through the gate today. A well-laid-out, built-up town,
Esferth. The court more often here now than in Raedhill. Aeldred was building
everywhere, word was. Walled burhs within a day's ride of each other,
garrisons within them. A standing army, the borders expanding, tribute from
Erlond, a marriage planned in Rheden. No easy raiding here. Not any more. Which
was why he was in this rat-skitter alley, instead of in the bright hall, for
those truths raised an important question about the man he'd recognized when
they had passed into town this afternoon with the king. The two men
he'd-recognized, actually. The
questions that came to you were sometimes (not always) answered, if you waited
patiently enough. Thorkell heard a noise from the street, saw a shadow, someone
entered the alley. He remained motionless. His eyes had adjusted by now and he
saw that this time the figure stumbling out of the tavern to unbutton himself
and piss into darkness among the strewn garbage was the man he'd rowed and
raided with, twenty-five years before. The one who'd gone off to join the
mercenaries at Jormsvik, around the same time Thorkell had escaped home and
bought his land on Rabady. Word had come with summer traders and gossip that
Stefa had killed his man in the challenge before the gates, which hadn't
surprised Thorkell. Stefa had known how to fight. It was all he knew how to do,
if you didn't count drinking. This
particular Erling in Esferth tonight was no peaceful trader from the settled
eastern end of this island. Not if he was still a Jormsvik mercenary. Stefa
was alone in the alley now. He might not have been—it was a blessing, perhaps.
Thorkell coughed, stepped forward, and spoke the man's name, calmly enough. Then
he twisted violently to his right, banging hard against the rough wall as Stefa
wheeled, piss spraying, and thrust for his gut with a swiftly drawn knife. A man
who knew how to fight. And drink. A long afternoon and evening's worth of ale,
most likely. Thorkell was entirely sober, and seeing better than Stefa in the
dark. It allowed him to avoid the knife, pull his own blade in the same motion,
and sheathe it between two ribs of the other man, up towards the heart. He,
too, knew how to fight, as it happened. It didn't leave you, that knowing. Your
body might slow down, but you knew what you needed to do. He'd no idea,
by now, how many souls he'd sent to whatever their afterworld might be. He
cursed, afterwards, because he was in some pain, having banged his hip against
the wall, dodging, and because he hadn't meant to kill the other man until he'd
learned a few things. Principally, what Stefa was doing here. A
mistake, to have used the name. The man had reacted like a frightened sentry to
a footfall in the dark. He'd probably changed his name when he got into
Jormsvik, Thorkell decided, rather too late. He swore again, at himself. He
dragged the dead man farther back into the alley, hearing the rats scuttle and
scurry and the sound of some larger animal moving. He'd just finished doing that—and
taking Stefa's purse from his belt—when he heard another man at the mouth of
the laneway. He stood still in the blackness and saw him enter, also, to
relieve himself. There was enough light at the entrance from the torch outside
the tavern for him to see that this was the other man he knew. He
said nothing this time, a lesson learned. Waited until this one was busy with
what he'd come out to do, and then moved silently forward. He clubbed the
second Erling hard on the back of the head with the bone haft of his knife.
Caught him as he slumped. Then
Thorkell Einarson stood for some moments, thinking hard, though not especially
clearly, supporting the unconscious body of the son he'd left behind when they
exiled him. Eventually
he made a decision, because he had to: perhaps not the best one, but he wasn't
sure what the best one would be, given that he'd already killed Stefa. He
propped Bern against the wall for a moment, braced him with his good shoulder,
and tied his trouser drawstrings, to let him be decent, at least. It was too
dark to see his son's face clearly. Bern had grown a beard, seemed bigger
across the chest. Ought
to have been more careful, his father thought. Should have known his companion
had come out before him, have been looking for Stefa, on the alert when he
didn't see him. Thorkell shook his head. In
some endeavours, the lessons you needed to learn might come over time and with
no greater risk than a master's reprimand. If you were going to raid on the
longships, you could die if you learned too slowly. On
the other hand, if he was understanding this rightly, Bern had managed to get
himself into Jormsvik, which said something for a lad who had been condemned to
a servant's life by what his father had done. He'd taken himself off the isle,
and more than that: you had to kill a fighter to join the mercenaries. He
didn't imagine Bern would feel kindly towards him now, or ever. He thought of
his wife, then, wondering about her, though not for long: there wasn't much
point. A shared life gone, that one, like the wake of a longship when it moved
on through the sea. You needed to steer clear of thoughts like that. They were
dangerous as the rocks of a lee shore. Heimthra, longing for home, could
kill a man from within. He'd seen it happen. Thorkell
hoisted his son's body over his shoulder and headed for the mouth of the alley
and the street. Men
passed out all the time near drinking places, everywhere in the world. Woke in
grey dawn with rat bites and purses clipped. He had reason to hope the two of
them would be seen as a tavern-goer carrying a drunken friend. He was limping
with the weight and the pain in his hip. That might help the deception, he
thought ruefully. It
didn't, in the event, happen that way. Someone spoke to him as soon as they
reached the street. "Are
you going to bring the other one, too? Or is he dead?" He
stopped where he was. A woman's voice. Across the way, from the shadows there.
Thorkell stood still, cursing fate and himself: in equal measure, as always. He
looked left and right. No one nearby, no one to have heard her, a small
blessing that might save him, and Bern. The tavern's wall torch guttered and
smoked in its iron bracket. He heard the steady noise from within. The same
sounds from any tavern, everywhere a man might go. But, shouldering the body of
his son, hearing a woman address him from the dark, Thorkell Einarson felt a
strangeness take hold: as if he'd entered a part of the world that wasn't quite
the royal city of Esferth in the Anglcyn lands of King Aeldred—a place for
which he could not properly have prepared himself, however experienced he might
be. Given
that unsettling thought, and being an Erling and direct by nature, he drew a
breath and crossed the roadway straight towards the sound of the voice. When he
drew near—she didn't back away from him—he saw who this was, and that stopped
him again. He
was silent, looking down at her, trying to make some sense of this. "You
shouldn't be here alone," he finally said. "I
have no one to fear in Esferth," said the woman. She was young. She was,
in fact, the younger daughter of King Aeldred, in a thin cloak, the hood thrown
back to reveal her face to him. "You
could fear me," he said slowly. She
shook her head. "You wouldn't murder me. It would make no sense." "Men
don't always do sensible things," Thorkell said. She
lifted her chin. "So you did kill the other one? The first man?" Not
at all sure why, he nodded his head. "Yes. So you see, I might do the same
again." She
ignored that, staring at him. "Who was he?" He
was in such a strange world right now. This entire conversation: Aeldred's
daughter, Bern on his shoulder, Stefa dead in the alley. A shipmate once. But
for the moment, he told himself, he had one goal and the rest had to follow, if
he could make it do so. "He was an Erling mercenary," he said.
"From Jormsvik, I am almost certain. Not a trader, pretending to be." "Jormsvik?
Surely not! Would they be so foolish? To try raiding here?" She
knew of them. He hadn't expected that, either, in a girl. He shook his head.
"I'd not have thought so. Depends who hired them." Her
composure was extraordinary. "And this one?" she asked, gesturing
towards the body he carried. "The one you didn't kill?" She was
keeping her voice low, not alerting anyone yet. He held to that, as to a spar. He
was going to need her. If only to have her not call the watch and have him
seized. He wasn't a man to kill her where she stood; it was true, and she'd
guessed it. Too sure of herself, but not wrong. Thorkell hesitated, then rolled
the dice again, with an inward shrug. "My
son," he said. "Though I have no idea why." "Why
he's your son?" He heard amusement, laughed himself, briefly. "Every
man wonders that. But no, why he's here." "He
was with the other?" "I
. . . believe so." He hesitated, threw dice again. There wasn't much time.
"My lady, will you help me get him outside the walls?" "He's
a raider," she said. "He's here to report on what he finds."
Which was almost certainly true. She was quick, among everything else. "And
he will tell his fellows that he was detected and his companion captured or
killed and that you will be ready for them, coming to find them, even. His
message will be that they must sail." "You
think?" He
nodded. It was plausible, might be true. The part he didn't tell her wouldn't
affect Esferth, only Bern's own life, and not for the better. But there was
only so much a father could do once a boy was grown, fledged, out in the world. The
woman looked at him. He heard the tavern behind him again, a rising and
subsiding noise. Someone shouted an oath, someone cursed back amid spilling
laughter. "I
will have to tell my father, tomorrow," she said finally. He
drew a breath, hadn't realized he'd been holding it. "But you will do that
. . . tomorrow?" She
nodded. "You
would really do this?" Thorkell asked, shifting his stance under the
weight he carried. "Because
you are going to do something for me," she said. And
so, with a sense that he was still treading some blurred border between known
things and mystery, Thorkell drew another breath, this time to ask her the
question he probably ought to have asked as soon as he'd seen her out here
alone. He
never did ask it; his answer came in another way. She laid a sudden hand on his
arm, holding him to silence, then pointed across the street. Not
to the tavern door or the alley, but towards a small, unlit chapel two doors
farther up. Someone had stepped outside, letting the chapel door swing shut
behind him. He stood a moment, looking up at the sky, the blue moon overhead,
and then began to walk away from them. As he did, a shape detached itself from
blackness and padded over to him. And with that, Thorkell knew who this was. "He
was praying," Aeldred's daughter murmured. "I'm not sure why, but
he'll be going outside now, beyond the walls." "What?"
Thorkell said, a little too loudly. "Why would he do that? He's going to
his rooms. Had enough of the celebration. His brother died." "I
know," she said, eyes still on the man and dog moving down the empty
street. "But your rooms are the other direction. He is going outside." Thorkell
cleared his throat. She was right about the rooms. "How do you know what
he's doing?" She
looked at him. "I'm not certain how, and I don't like it, but I do
know. So I need someone with me, and Jad seems to being saying it will be
you." Thorkell
stared at her. "With you? What is it you want to do?" "I want to
pray, actually, but there isn't time. I'm going to follow him," she said.
"And don't ask me why." "Why?"
he asked, involuntarily. She
shook her head. "That's
moon-mad. Alone?" "No.
With you, remember? It'll get your son out of Esferth." Her voice changed.
"You swear you think it will deter them? The raiders? Whoever they
are? Swear it." Thorkell
paused. "I'd say yes in any case, you know, but I do think so. I swear it by
Jad and Ingavin, both." "And
you won't run away to them? With your son?" That would
be a thought she'd have, he realized. He snorted. "My son will want
nothing to do with me. And I'd be killed by the raiders for certain, if these
are who I think they are." She
glanced down the street again. The man and dog were almost out of sight.
"Who are they?" "The
leader's name won't mean anything to you. It's someone who will want a
report that Esferth and the burhs are unassailable." "We
are. But same question back: how are you so sure?" He
was used to this kind of talk, though not with a woman. "Different answer:
I'm not certain. This is a raider's guess. My lady, we'd best move if you want
to follow that Cyngael." He
saw her take a breath this time, and then nod. She stepped into the street,
lifting her hood as she did so. He went with her, along an empty, moonlit lane
that seemed of the world and not entirely so. The tavern noises receded, became
sea murmur and then silence as they went.
The
man below was an honoured guest, a prince, companion of the Cyngael cleric the
king had been watching for all summer. Ebor, son of Bordis, up on the wall-walk
by the western gate, answered a quiet summons and came down the steps to that
lilting voice. The
gates loomed in the dark, seeming higher from down on the ground, newly
reinforced this past year. King Aeldred was a builder. Ebor saw a man with a
dog, greeted him, heard a courteously phrased request to be allowed outside for
a time, to walk under moonlight and stars, feel wind, away from the smoke and
noise of the great hall and the town. He
was country-born, Ebor, could understand such a need. It was why he was up here
so much of the time himself. It occurred to him, suddenly, to invite the
Cyngael up to the wall-walk with him, but that would be a great presumption,
and it wasn't what the man had asked of him. "It
isn't quiet out there tonight, all the tents, my lord" he said. "I'm
certain of that, but I wasn't intending to go that way." Some
of the others in the fyrd didn't like the Cyngael. Small, dark, devious.
Cattle thieves and murderers, they named them. Mostly that came from those
Anglcyn north of here, near the valleys or the hills where the ghost wood
ended, along which the Rheden Wall had been built to keep the Cyngael out.
Years of skirmishing and larger battles could shape such a feeling. But Ebor
was from the good farmland east of here, not north or west, and his own dark
childhood stories and memories were about Erlings coming up from the dangerous
sea. The people of the west were no real enemy compared to longship berserkirs
drunk on blood. Ebor
had nothing, himself, against the Cyngael. He liked the way they talked. The
night was quiet enough, little wind now. If he listened, he could hear the
sounds from outside, though. There were a great many men sleeping in tents
(around to the north) with the fyrd here and Esferth full to bursting in
the run-up to the fair. No danger presented itself to this royal guest out
there, unless he found a drunken dice game or took a woman with too-sharp
fingernails into a field or hollow, and it wasn't Ebor's task in life to save a
man from either of those. The Cyngael had spoken with dignity, no arrogance.
He'd offered Ebor a coin: not too much, not too little—a sum fitting the request. A
quiet man, something on his mind. Far from home just now. Ebor looked at him
and nodded his head. He took the iron key from his belt and unlocked the small
door beside the wide gate and he let them out, the man and the dark grey hound
at his side. A
minor encounter in the scheme of things, far from the first time someone had
had reason to go out after dark in peaceful times. Ebor turned to go back up to
his place on the wall. The
other two called to him before he reached the top. When
he came back down the steps and saw who it was this time, Ebor
understood—rather too late—that there was nothing minor unfolding here, after
all. The
man this time was an Erling, carrying someone over his shoulder, passed out in
drunkenness. That happened every night. The woman, however, was the king's
younger daughter, the princess Kendra, and it never even entered Ebor's head to
deny her anything she might ask of him. She
asked for the door to be unlocked again. Ebor
swallowed hard. "May ... may I summon an escort for you, my lady?" "I
have one," she said. "Thank you. Open it, please. Tell no one of
this, on pain of my displeasure. And watch for us: to let us back in when we
come." She
had an escort. An Erling carrying a drunken man. It didn't feel right. With a
sick feeling roiling his guts, Ebor opened the small door for the second time.
They went out. She turned back, thanked him gravely, walked on. He
closed the door behind them, locked it, hurried up the stairs, two at a time,
to the wall-walk. He leaned out, watching them for as long as he could as they
went into the night. He couldn't see very far. He didn't see when the Erling
turned south alone, limping, carrying his burden, and the princess went
north-west, also alone, in the direction the Cyngael and his dog had gone. It
occurred to Ebor, staring into night, that this might have been a tryst of some
kind, a lovers' meeting, the Cyngael prince and his own princess. Then he
decided that made no sense at all. They wouldn't have to go outside the walls
to bed each other. And the Erling? What was that about? And, rather belatedly,
the thought came to Ebor that he hadn't seen any weapon—no sword or even a
knife—carried by the young Cyngael who had spoken to him so softly, with music
in his voice. It was desperately unwise to go outside without iron to defend
yourself. Why would anyone do that? He
was sweating, he realized; could smell himself. He stayed where he was,
watching, staring out, as was his duty here, as the princess had told him to
do. And in the meantime he began to pray, which was a duty all men had in the
night while Jad did battle beneath the world on their behalf, against powers of
malign intent. + He
laid his son down by the bank of the stream. Not far from where they'd come
walking this morning and found the royal children idling on the grass. With
time now (a little) and a bit more light, with the blue moon reflecting off the
river, Thorkell looked down at the unconscious figure, reading what changes he
could, and what seemed to be unchanged. He
stayed like that for some moments. He was not a soft man in any possible way,
but this had to be a strange moment in a man's life, no one could deny it. He
hadn't thought to ever see his son again. His face was unrevealing in the muted
moonlight. He was thinking that there was danger for the boy (not a boy any
more) if he was left here in the dark, helpless. Beasts, or mortal predators,
might come. On
the other hand, there was only so much a father could do, and he'd made a
promise that mattered to the girl. He probably wouldn't have made it out
without her. Would have tried, of course, but it was unlikely. He looked at
Bern by moonlight and spent a moment working out how old his son was. The beard
aged him, but he remembered the day Bern was born and it didn't seem so long
ago, really. And now the boy was off Rabady, somehow, and raiding with the
Jormsvikings, though it made so little sense for them to be here. Thorkell
had his thoughts on that, on what was really happening. His son's breathing was
even and steady. If nothing came here before he woke, he'd be all right.
Thorkell knew he ought to leave, before Bern opened his eyes, but it was oddly
difficult to move away. The strangeness of this encounter, a sense of a god or
gods, or blind chance, working in this. It didn't even occur to him to run away
with Bern. Where would he go? For one thing, he was almost certain who had paid
for the Jormsvik ships, however many there turned out to be. He shouldn't have
been quite so sure, really, but he did know a few things, and they fit. Ivarr
Ragnarson had not been caught fleeing from Brynnfell. Two blood-eagled bodies
to the west had been the marks of his passage. The Cyngael had never found the
ships. Ivarr
had made it home. Stood to reason. Something
else did, too. No thinking man bought mercenaries to raid the Anglcyn coast any
more. A waste of money, of time, of lives. Not with what Aeldred had been
doing—and was still doing—with his standing army and his burhs, and even
a fleet of his own being built along this coastline now. Mercenaries
might risk it if you paid them enough, but it didn't make sense. You sailed
from Vinmark and raided east and south through Karch now, even down to the
trading stations of overstretched Sarantium. Or along the Ferrieres coast, or,
possibly, you went past here, west to the Cyngael lands. Not much to be gleaned
there these days, for the exposed treasurehouses of the sanctuaries had long
since been removed inland and inside walls, and the three Cyngael provinces had
never had overmuch in the way of gold in any case. But a man, a particular man,
might have his reasons for taking dragon-ships and fighting men back there. The
same reasons he'd had at the beginning of summer. And one more now. A brother
newly dead, to join a blood feud that had begun long ago. And
if this was so, if it was Ivarr, Thorkell Einarson had good reason to
expect nothing but a bad death were he to run away now with his son towards the
coast, looking for the ships that would be lying offshore or beached in a cove.
Ivarr, repellent and deadly as anyone he'd ever known, would remember the man
who had blocked the arrow he'd loosed at Brynn ap Hywll from the wooded slope. He
really oughtn't to have been so sure of all this, but he was. Something to do
with the night, the mood and strangeness of it. Ghost moon overhead. Nearness
to the spirit wood, beyond the margins of which men never went. That girl going
out, for no reason that made sense, just following the Cyngael prince. There
was something at work tonight. You raided and fought long enough, survived so
many different ways of dying, you learned to trust your senses, and this . . .
feeling. Bern
hadn't learned enough yet, else he'd not have been so easily taken in an alley.
Thorkell grimaced, an expression creasing his features for the first time. Fool
of a lad. It was a hard world they lived in. You couldn't afford to be a
fool. The
boy was making a start, though, had to acknowledge that. Everyone knew how you
joined the mercenaries in Jormsvik. The only way you could join them.
Thorkell looked down at the brown-haired, brown-bearded figure on the grass. A
different man might have acknowledged pride. Thorkell
didn't have time to linger, to ask how Bern had done any of this. Nor did he
presume that his only son, awakening, would smile in delight and cry his
father's name aloud, and Ingavin's in thankfulness. Bern
shouldn't be long from waking. He would have to hope that was so, that this
isolated place wouldn't draw wolves or thieves in the next while. The boy had
filled out across the chest, he saw. You could almost call him a big man. He
still remembered carrying him, years ago. Shook his head at that. Weak
thoughts, too soft. Men woke each morning, lay down each night, in a
blood-soaked world. You needed to remember that. And he needed to walk back to
the girl. Jaddite
now, or not, he murmured an ancient prayer, father's blessing. Habit, nothing
else: "Ingavin's hammer, between you and all harm." He
turned to go. Paused, and—berating himself even as he did—took from his belt-purse
something he'd removed when he surrendered to the Cyngael for the second time
in twenty-five years. He carried it now, instead of wearing it. The hammer on a
chain. You didn't wear the symbols of the thunder god when you took the faith
of Jad. It
was an entirely ordinary, unremarkable hammer. Thousands like it. Bern wouldn't
know it as anything unique, but he'd realize it was an Erling who had carried
him here, and he'd go back to the ships with the warning that implied. He'd
have some talking to do, to explain his survival when Stefa never came back,
but Thorkell couldn't help him with that. A boy became a man, had his own stony
way to make on land and sea, like everyone else—then you died where you died,
and found out what happened then. Thorkell
had killed an oar-companion tonight. Hadn't meant to do that. Not truly a
friend, Stefa, but they'd shared things, covered each other's back in battle,
slept on cold ground, close, for warmth in wind. You did that, raiding. Then
you died where you died. An alley in Esferth for Stefa, pissing in the dark. He
wondered if the dead man's spirit was out here. Probably was. Blue moon
shining. He
bent and looped the chain into his son's fingers and closed them over the
hammer, and then he went away along the stream, not looking back, covering
ground towards where he'd seen the princess walking in her own folly. There
was a snatch of verse in his head as he went. One his wife used to sing, to all
three children when they were young. He
put it out of his mind. Too soft for tonight, for any night. + He is
coming. She knows it. Is waiting within the trees, across the stream. He is
mortal and can see her. They have spoken under stars (no moons) on the
night she took a soul for the queen. He has watched the Ride go through their
pool in the wood. Then dropped his iron blade and very nearly touched her by
the trees on the slope above the farm. It has not left her, that moment, from
then until now. No quietude, in wood, in mound, crossing water under stars with
the music of the Ride all around. She
trembles, an aspen leaf, her hair violet, then a paler hue. She is far from
home, one moon in the sky. A glowing at the wood's edge, waiting. EIGHT Ingavin
and Thьnir were many things, but they were soul-reapers before all else, and the
ravens that followed them, the birds of the battlefield and the banners, were
emblems of that. So was the blood-eagle: a sacrifice and a message. A
vanquished king or war-leader stripped naked under the holy sky, thrown on the
ground, his face to the churned earth. If he wasn't dead he would be restrained
by strong warriors, or with ropes tied to pegs hammered into the earth, or
both. His
back would be carved vertically with a long knife or an axe, the bloody opening
pulled wide, his ribs cracked back on each side and his lungs drawn out through
the opening thus made. They would be draped upon the exposed cage of his ribs:
the folded wings of an eagle, blood-crimson, god offering. It
was said that Siggur Volganson, the Volgan, had been so precise and swift in
performing the ritual that some of his victims remained alive for a time with
their lungs exposed to the watching gods. Ivarr
had not yet been able to achieve this. In fairness, he'd had less opportunity
than his grandfather had enjoyed during the years and seasons of the great
raids. Times changed.
Times
changed. Burgred of Denferth, viciously cursing himself for carelessness,
nonetheless knew that none of the other leaders at court or of the fyrd would
have taken more than seven or eight riders to investigate the rumour of a ship,
or ships, seen along the coast. He'd had five men, two of them new—using the
ride south to assess them. Three
of those men were dead now. Assessment rendered meaningless. But no one was
raiding the Anglcyn coast these days. How could he have expected what he'd
found—or what had found his small party tonight? Aeldred had burhs all
along the coast, watchtowers between them, a standing army, and—as of this
summer—the beginnings of a proper fleet for the first time. The
Erlings themselves were different in this generation: settlers in the eastern
lands, half of them (or something like that) were Jaddite now, trimming their
sails to the winds of faith. Times changed, men changed. Those still roaming
the seas in dragon-ships pursuing sanctuary treasures and ransom and slaves
went to Ferrieres now, or east, where Burgred had no idea (and didn't care)
what they found. The
lands of King Aeldred were defended, that was what mattered. And if some
Erlings remembered this king as a hunted fugitive in wintry swamplands . . .
well, those same Erlings were humbly sending their household warriors or their
sons with tribute to Esferth these days, and fearing Aeldred's reprisals if
they were late. None
of which unassailable truths was of any help to Burgred now. It
was night. Summer stars, ocean breeze, a waning blue moon. They had camped on
open ground, less than a day's ride from Esferth, between the burh of
Drengest, where the new shipyard was, and the watchtower west of it. He could
have reached either place, but he was training men, testing them. It was a
mild, sweet night. Had been. The
two on guard had shouted their warnings properly. Thinking back, Burgred
decided that he and his men had surprised the Erling party as much as they'd
been surprised themselves. Unfortunately, there were at least twenty
Erlings—almost half a longship's worth—and they were skilled fighters.
Disturbingly so, in fact. Commands had been barked, registered, implemented in
a night skirmish. It hadn't taken him long to realize where these men were
from, and to accept what life and ill fortune had doled out tonight. He'd
ordered his men to drop their weapons, though not before the two guards and one
other of his company—Otho, who was a good man—lay dead. No great shame surrendering
to a score of Jormsvik mercenaries mad enough to be ashore this near to
Esferth. He had no idea why they were here: the mercenaries were far too
pragmatic to offer themselves for raids as foolhardy as this one would be. Who
would pay them enough to even consider it? And why? It
made too little sense. And it was not a puzzle worth having more men die while
he tried to solve it. Best surrender, much as it burned to do that, let them
sell him back to Aeldred for silver and safe passage to wherever they were
really going. "We
yield ourselves!" he cried loudly, and dropped his sword on the moonlit
grass. They would understand him. The two languages borrowed from each other,
and the older Jormsvik raiders would have been here many times in their youth.
"You have been foolish beyond all credit to come here, but sometimes folly
is rewarded, for Jad works in ways we do not understand." The
largest of the Erlings—eyes behind a helm—grinned and spat. "Jad, you say?
I think not. Your name?" he rasped. He already knew what this was about. No
reason to hide it. Indeed, the whole point was his name, and what it was worth.
It would save his life, and the lives of his three surviving men. These were
mercenaries. "I am Burgred, Earl of Denferth," he said. "Captain
of King Aeldred's fyrd and his Household Guard." "Hah!"
roared the big man in front of him. Laughter and shouts from the others,
raucous and triumphant, unable to believe their good fortune. They knew him. Of
course they knew him. And experienced men would also know that Aeldred would
pay to have him back. Burgred cursed again, under his breath. "What
are you doing here?" he asked, angrily. "Do you not know how little
you can win along this coast now? When did the men of Jormsvik begin selling
themselves for small coin and certain battle?" He
had spent his entire life, it seemed, fighting them and studying them. He was
aware of a hesitation. "We
were told Drengest could be taken," the man in front of him said, finally. Burgred
blinked. "Drengest? You are mocking me." There
was a silence. They weren't mocking him. Burgred laughed. "What fool told
you that? What fools listened to him? Have you seen Drengest yet? You
must have." The
Erling planted his sword in the earth, removed his helm. His long yellow hair
was plastered to his head. "We've seen it," he said. "You
understand there are nearly one hundred men of the fyrd in there, over
and above the rest of the people inside the walls? You've seen the walls?
You've seen the fleet being built? You were going to attack Drengest? You
know how close you are to Esferth here? What do you have, thirty longships?
Forty? Fifty? Is Jormsvik emptied for this folly? Are you all summer-mad?" "Five
ships," the Erling said at length, shifting his feet. A professional, not
a madman, aware of everything Burgred was saying, which made this even harder
to understand. Five
longships meant two hundred men. Fewer, if they had horses. A large raid, an
expensive one. But not nearly enough to come here. "You were led to
believe you could take that burh, where our fleet's being built and
guarded, with five ships? Someone lied to you," Burgred of Denferth said
flatly. Last
words spoken in a worthy life. He
had time to recall, bewildered again, that the Erlings had always seen bows as
the weapon of a coward, before the moonlight left his eyes and he went to seek
the god with an arrow in his chest.
Guthrum
Skallson blinked in the moonlight, not quite believing what he'd just seen.
Then he did believe it, and turned. He
wasn't a berserkir, had never been that wild on a battlefield, was happy
to wear armour, thank you, but the rage that filled him in that moment was very
great and he moved swiftly with it. Crossed to the man with the bow and swung
his arm in a full backhanded sweep, smashing it into the archer's face, sending
him sprawling in the blue-tinted grass. He
followed, still in a fury, swearing. Bent over the crumpled form, seized the
fallen bow, cracked it over his knee, then grabbed the belt-quiver and
scattered the arrows with one furious, wide, wheeling motion in an arc across
the summer field. He was breathing hard, at the edge of murder. "You'll
die for doing that," the man on the ground said, through a smashed mouth,
in his eerie voice. Guthrum
blinked again. He shook his head, as if stunned. It was not to be borne. He
lifted the man with one hand; he weighed less than any of them, by a good deal.
Holding him in the air by the bunched-up tunic, so his feet swung free, Guthrum
pulled the knife from his belt. "No!"
shouted Atli, behind him. Guthrum ignored that. "Say
it to me again," he grunted to the little man dangling in front of him. "I
will kill you for that blow," said the man he held at his mercy. The words
came out half a whistle, through bleeding lips. "Right, then," said
Guthrum. He
moved the knife, in a short, practised motion. And was brought up hard by a
heavy hand seizing his wrist, gripping fiercely, pulling it back. "We
won't get final payment if he dies," Atli grunted. "Hold!"
Guthrum swore at him. "Do you know how much silver he just cost us?" "Of
course I know!" "You
heard the white-faced coward threaten my life? Mine!" "You struck him
a blow." "Ingavin's
blood! He killed our ransom, you thick-headed fool!" Atli
nodded. "Right. He's also paying us. And he's a Volganson. The last one.
You want to go home with that blood on your blade? We'll settle this on the
ships. Best get out of here now, and off this coast. Aeldred'll be coming soon
as they find these bodies." "Of
course he will." "Then
let's go. We kill the last two?" Atli awaited orders. "Of
course we kill them," gasped the little man Guthrum was still holding in
the air. Guthrum threw him away, into the grass. He lay there, crumpled and
small, not moving. Guthrum
swore. What he wanted to do was send the last two Anglcyn back to
Esferth to explain, to say the killing was unintended. That they were leaving
these shores. There were a great many Erlings hereabouts, or living not far
east of here. The last thing Jormsvik needed was their own people enraged
because the Anglcyn had cut off trading rights, or raised the tribute tax, or
decided to kill a score of them and display the heads on pikes for the death of
Aeldred's earl and friend. It could happen. It had happened. But
he couldn't let them go back. There was no explanation that would achieve
anything useful. Living men would name the Jormsvik raiders as the men who'd
killed an earl of the Anglcyn with a coward's bow, after he'd surrendered. It
wouldn't do at all. He
sighed, glared at the figure in the grass again. "Kill
them," he said, reluctantly. "Then we move." It is
a truth hardly to be challenged that most men prefer not to have others decree
the manner and time of their dying. Jormsvik mercenaries, responsible on an
individual and collective basis for so many deaths, were not unaware of this.
At the same time, the engrossing and unsettling events in that moonlit meadow,
from the time the Anglcyn was shot to the moment Guthrum issued that last
order, had compelled attention—and diverted it. One
of the captive Anglcyn twisted, in the moment Guthrum spoke, grabbed a boot-top
knife, stabbed the nearest of the men guarding him, ripped free of the belated
clutch of another, and tore off into the night. Not, normally, a problem. There
were twenty of them here, they were swift and experienced fighters. They
did not, however, have horses. And a
moment later the fleeing Anglcyn did. Six mounts had been tethered nearby. They
ought to have been claimed already. They hadn't been. The arrow, the loss of an
earl's ransom, Guthrum's assault on the man paying them. There were reasons,
obviously, but it was a mistake. Running
hard, they reached the other horses. Five of them mounted up without an order
spoken. No need for orders here. They gave chase. They were not horsemen,
however, these Erlings, these dragon-ship raiders, scourges of the white wave,
sea foam. They could ride, but not as an Anglcyn did. And he had chosen the
best horse—the earl's, almost certainly. The dead earl's, their lost ransom. It
was all bad. Then it got worse. They
heard his horn sound, shattering the night. The
riders reined up hard. The others on foot behind them in the meadow looked at
each other, and then at Guthrum, who was leading this party. Every man there
knew they were in enormous peril suddenly. Inland. On foot, all but five of
them. A full day from the ships, at least, with a fortified burh and a
guard tower nearby, and Esferth itself just to the north. It would be day,
bright and deadly, long before they got back to the shore. Guthrum
swore again, viciously. He killed the last Anglcyn himself, almost absently, a
sword in the chest, ripped out as soon as it went in, wiped dry on the grass,
sheathed again. The riders came back. The accursed horn was still sounding,
shredding the dark. "You
five ride back," he rasped. "Tell Brand to land a ship's worth of
men, start this way. You guide them. Look for us. We'll be coming fast as we
can, the way we came. But if we're chased we might be caught, and we'll need
more men in a fight." "Forty
enough?" Atli asked. "No
idea, but I can't risk more. Let's go." "I
want a horse!" said the small, vicious man who'd caused all this, sitting
up now on the grass. "I'll lead them back." "Fuck
that forever!" said Guthrum savagely. "You wanted to come ashore with
us, you'll run back with us. And if you can't keep up we'll leave you for
Aeldred. They'd like a Volganson, I imagine. Get on your feet. Steady run, all
of you. Riders, go!" The
horn was still blowing, fading east as they started back west themselves. Ivarr
got up promptly enough, Guthrum saw. Ragnarson wiped at his mouth, spat blood,
then started running with them. He was light-boned, quick-footed. Kept spitting
blood for a time, but said nothing more. In the moonlight his features were
stranger than ever, the whiteness not entirely human. Ought to have been
exposed at birth, Guthrum thought grimly, looking like that as he came into the
middle-world. Would have been, in any other family. He'd been threatened with
death by this one, Siggur Volganson's heir. It didn't occur to him to be afraid
but he did regret not killing him. An
earl, he kept thinking, as they went. An earl! Aeldred's friend from
childhood. They could have taken the prodigious ransom for Burgred of Denferth,
turned straight around, and rowed home for a rich and easy winter in the
Jormsvik taverns. Instead, they had a hard, dangerous run ahead; the horn would
bring riders in the dark—riders who would learn what had happened, and who knew
the terrain far better than they did. They could die here. He
might have been a farmer by now, Guthrum thought. Repairing fences, eyeing
rainclouds before harvest time. He actually amused himself, briefly, with the
thought, running through night in Anglcyn lands. It had never been likely.
Farmers didn't go to Ingavin's halls, or drink from Thьnir's horn when they
were called from the middle-world. He'd chosen his life a long time ago. No
regrets, under the blue moon and the stars. +
The
moon was over the woods, Bern saw, awakening. Then he grasped that he was lying
on grass, looking up at trees, beside a river in the dark. He'd
been pissing in the alley and .. . He
sat up. Too quickly. The moon lurched, stars described arcs as if falling. He
gasped. Touched his head: a lump, the stickiness of blood. He cursed, confused,
his heart hammering. Looked around, too quickly again: the dizziness assaulted
him, blood loud in his ears. He seemed to be holding something. Looked down at
the object in his hand. Knew
his father's neck chain and hammer, immediately. No
doubt, no hesitation, even here, so far away from home, from childhood. Small
sons could be like that, memorizing each and every thing about the father, a
figure larger than anything in the world, filling the house, then emptying it
when he left, on the dragon-ships again. There were thousands of necklaces like
this one, and there was not one like it in the world the gods had made. He
was very still, listening to the river running over stones, the crickets and
frogs. There were fireflies above the water and the reeds. The forest was black
beyond the stream. Something had just happened that he could never even have
imagined. He
tried to think clearly, but his head was hurting. His father was here. Had been
in Esferth, had knocked him out—or rescued him?—and taken him outside the walls
and left . . . this. As a
sign of what? Bern swore again. His father had never been a man to make
anything clear or easy. But if he could take any idea from being here and
holding Thorkell's necklace, it was that his father wanted him out of Esferth. Suddenly,
belatedly, he thought about Ecca, who was—significantly—not here outside the
walls. Bern stood up then, wincing, unsteady. He couldn't stay where he was.
There were always people outside a city, especially now with the king present,
and all his household, and a late-summer fair beginning soon. There was a
second city's worth of tents around to the north. They'd seen them earlier,
when they'd come up. Finding
so many people here had been a large issue. Ecca had wrestled with considerable
anger as they'd come to understand what was happening in Esferth and near it.
That supposedly unfinished burh on the coast, Drengest, was entirely
complete, walls secure, defended, a number of ships already built in the
harbour. Not
even remotely a place where five ships' worth of men could raid and run, which
is what they'd been told they could do. And Esferth itself, which was supposed
to be half empty, exposed to an attack that would shape a legend, was thronged
with merchants and the Anglcyn fyrd, and Aeldred himself was here with
his household guard. It was not a mistake, not a misreading of signs, Ecca had
snarled. It appeared they had been lied to, by the man who'd paid them to come. Ivarr
Ragnarson, the Volgan's heir. The one everyone whispered ought surely to have
been killed when he came out of his mother's womb white as a spirit, hairless,
a malformed freak of nature, unworthy of life and his lineage. It
was that lineage that had saved him. Everyone knew the tale: how a volur in
her trance had spoken to his father and forbidden him to expose the child.
Ragnar Siggurson, hesitant by nature, too careful, never the strongest man
(following a father who had been the strongest of men), had let the
child live, to grow up strange and estranged, and vicious. Bern
had his own thoughts about volurs and their trances. Not that it
mattered. He was desperately unsure what to do. Ecca was a shipmate, his
companion on this scouting mission. A Jormsvik raider didn't leave companions
behind unless he had no choice at all; they were bound to each other, by oath
and history. But this was Bern's first raid, he didn't know enough yet, didn't
know if this was a time when you did leave to carry an urgent message
back. Should he return to Esferth when the gates opened at sunrise and look for
Ecca, or find Gyllir in the wood where they'd left the horses and hurry to the
ships with a warning? Was
that the meaning in Thorkell's necklace, in his being out here alone? Was Ecca
taken? Dead? And if not, what would happen if he returned to the ships after
Bern did and asked why his companion had left without him? And just how, in
fact, Bern had gotten outside the walls? How he'd explain that, Bern had no
idea. And what if Ecca rode back and the ships were gone because Bern had told
them it was wiser to cast off? Too
many conflicting needs, conjured thoughts. Hesitations of his own devising
(another son of a strong father?). He didn't know, standing unsteadily alone by
the water, if he was ... direct enough for this raiding life. He'd be
dealing more easily with all of this, he thought, if his head didn't hurt so
much. Something
caught his eye, south and east. A bonfire burning on a hill. He watched that
light in the darkness, saw it occluded, reappear, vanish again, return. He
realized, after a moment, that this was a message. Knew it could not possibly
be good for him, or for those waiting by the ships . . . or for Guthrum's party
ashore to the south. The
bonfire made his decision for him. He placed his father's necklace over his
head and slipped it inside his tunic. The
necklace was meant to tell him that it was a friend (his father a friend, the
irony in that) who'd taken him out of Esferth. If he was supposed to be
out of Esferth, that meant trouble inside. And he knew there was trouble,
they'd seen it this morning, passing through the gates amid the crowds for the
fair. They had planned to stay only tonight, learn what they could in the
taverns, ride back to the coast in the morning, carrying their message—and
warning. And
now a message in fire was lighting the night. This was, in no possible way, a
safe place to be coming ashore to raid. The burh was walled and
garrisoned, they already knew that, and Esferth was thronged to bursting. He
had that message to deliver, above anything else. He took a breath, put aside,
as best he could, the fierce, hard awareness that his father was out here
somewhere in the night not far away, and had, evidently, carried him to this
place like a child. Bern turned his back on torchlit Esferth and entered the
stream to cross it. He
was midway into the river, which wasn't cold, when he heard voices. He dropped
down instantly, silent amid reeds and lilies, only his head above water in the
dark, and listened to the voices and the pounding of his heart. + Alun
had seen the glimmering twice on the journey east, travelling here with
Ceinion. Once in the branches of a tree, when they'd camped by a stream running
out of the wood and he awoke in the night, and once on a hillside behind them,
when he looked back after dark: a shining at twilight, though the sun had set. He'd
known it was her. Wasn't sure if he'd been meant to see, or if she'd come
closer than she'd intended. Cafall had been rest-less all through that coastal
journey. The Erling had thought it was the nearness of the spirit wood. She
was following him. He ought, perhaps, to have been afraid, but that wasn't what
he felt. Alun had thought about Dai, the night he died, that pool in the wood,
souls lost and taken, and it had occurred to him that he might never make music
again. His
mother had taken to her chambers when he and Gryffeth and the cleric had
brought the tidings home. She had stayed there a fourteen-night, opening only
to her women. When she'd come out her hair had changed colour. Not as a
faerie's did, shimmering through hues, but as a mortal woman's did, when grief
has come too suddenly. Owyn
had covered his face with a hand, Alun remembered, and turned and walked away,
at first word of Dai's death. He had drunk a great deal for two days and
nights, then stopped. Had spoken after, privately, with Ceinion of Llywerth.
There was a history there, not entirely a benign one, but whatever lay behind
the two men seemed altered by this. Owyn ap Glynn was a hard man, everyone knew
that, and he was a prince with tasks in the world. Brynn had said that same
thing to Alun, too. He had a new role, himself. He was heir to Cadyr. His
brother was dead. More than that. Those who told him that time and faith would
assuage, meaning well, drawing on experience and wisdom—even his father, even
King Aeldred, here—were unaware, had to be unaware, of what Alun knew
about Dai. Armoured
in faith, as Ceinion and the Anglcyn king were, you could anneal the burning of
loss with a belief that the souls of those who had gone were with Jad and would
be until all the worlds ended and the god's purposes were revealed and
fulfilled. Faith
was no help at all when you knew your brother's soul had been stolen by faeries
on a moonless night. Alun
prayed, as required, morning and evening, with urgency. It seemed to him
sometimes that he heard his own voice echoing oddly as he chanted the responses
of the liturgy. He knew
things, had seen what he had seen. And heard the music in that forest
clearing, as the fairies passed him by, moving across the water. There
was a blue moon tonight, spirit moon, high above the woods, hanging over them
like some dark blue candle in a doorway. These were part of the same forest
they had skirted to the south. A valley sliced westward, pushing the trees back
halfway down to the sea, and the old tale was that the colder danger lay in the
south, but this was still named a ghost wood, whatever the clerics might say. He
stood a moment, looking at the trees. He needed to walk through this doorway.
Had known he would, from first sighting of her that night when he'd woken, and
again on the hill two days later, at twilight. Forbidden, heresy: words
that meant much, but so little to him now. He had seen her. And his brother.
Dai's hand in the faerie queen's, walking on water, after he died. Alun was
unmoored and knew it, a ship without rudder or sails, no charts by which to
navigate. He
had left the king's feast, made his excuses as courteously as he could, aware
that the Anglcyn court—alerted by Ceinion—would feel genuine compassion for
what they thought was his pain. They
had no idea. He'd
bowed to the king—a compact man, trimmed grey beard, bright blue eyes—and to
the queen, made his way from that crowded, loud, smoky room, dense with the
living and their concerns, and gone alone to the chapel he'd seen earlier in
the day. Not
the royal one. This one was small, dimly lit, almost an afterthought on a
street of taverns and inns, and empty this late at night. What he needed.
Silence, shadow, the sun disk above the altar barely visible in this still
space. He had knelt, and prayed for the god to lend him the power to resist
what was pulling him. But in the end, rising, he gave himself dispensation for
being mortal, and frail, and so not strong enough. There was a need in him, and
there was also fear. He
had a thought, a memory, and paused by the door of the chapel. In that gloom,
lit only by a handful of guttering lamps too far apart on the walls, Alun ab
Owyn unbuckled his dagger and belt and set them down on a stone ledge in the
half-darkness. He'd worn no sword tonight. Not to a royal feast, as an honoured
guest. He turned in the chapel doorway, looked back in the gloom a last time to
where the sun disk hung. Then
he went out into the night streets of Esferth. Cafall fell in beside him, as
always now. He spoke to a guard at the gates and was allowed to pass. He'd
known—with certainty—that it would be so. There were forces at work tonight,
beyond any adequate understanding. Alun
went into the meadow beyond the Esferth gates and walked steadily west. The
direction of home, but not really. Home was too far away. He came to the
stream, crossed through, water to his waist, Cafall splashing beside him, and
on the other side he stopped and looked at the woods and turned to Brynn's dog—his
dog—and said quietly, "No farther now. Wait here." Cafall
pushed his head against Alun's wet hip and thigh, but when he said it again,
"No farther," the dog obeyed, staying there beside the rushing water,
a grey shape, almost invisible, as Alun went alone into the trees.
She
knows the instant he enters among the first oaks and alders, apprehending his
aura before she sees him. She stands in a glade by a beech tree, as she did the
first time, a hand laid on it for sustenance, sap-strength. She is afraid. But
not only that. He
appears at the edge of the glade and stops. Her hair goes to silver. Purest
hue, essence of what she is, what they all are: silver around them in the first
mound, gleaming. Now lost, undersea. They sing to greet the white moon when it
rises. Only
the blue one tonight, hidden from where they stand within the wood. She knows
exactly where it is, however. They always know where both moons are. The blue
is different, more . . . inward; hues one does not always share with others.
Just as she has not shared her coming east, this journey. She took a soul for
the queen at the beginning of summer, will not suffer for this following. Or
not at the hands of the Ride. There are others in the wood, though, nearby and
south. To be feared. She
sees him step forward, approaching over grass, amid trees. A dark wood, far
from home (for both of them). There is a spruaugh somewhere about, which
had angered and surprised her, for she dislikes them all, their green hovering.
She'd shown her hair violet to him earlier, and seethed, and he'd retreated,
chattering, agitated. She scans with the eye of her mind, doesn't find his aura
now. Didn't think he would be anywhere near after seeing her. She
makes herself let go of the tree. Takes a step forward. He is near enough to
touch, to be touched. Her hair is shining. She is all the light in this glade,
the trees in summer leaf occluding stars and moon, shielding the two of them. A
shelter, between worlds, though there are dangers all around. She remembers
touching his face on the slope above the farm and the blood-soaked yard, as he
knelt before her. The
memory changes the colour of her hair again. It is not only fear she feels. He
does not kneel this time. No iron about him. He has left it behind, coming to
her, knowing. They
are silent, leaves and branches a canopy above, the grass of the glade
shimmering. A breeze, slight sound, it dies away. He
says, "I saw you, twice, coming here. Was I meant to?" She
can feel herself tremble. Wonders if he sees it. They are speaking to each
other. It is not to happen. It is a crossing-over, a transgressing. She doesn't
entirely understand his words. Meant to? Mortals: the world they live
within, time different for them. The speed of their dying. She
says, "You can see me. Since the pool." Isn't sure if that is what he
meant. They are speaking, and alone here. She reaches a hand backwards, after
all, touches the tree again. "I
should hate you," he says. Said that, also, the other time. She
answers, as before, "I don't know what that means. Hate." A
word they use . . . fire in how they live. A flame and then gone. That fire a
reason she has always been drawn. But unseen, until now. He
closes his eyes. "Why are you here?" "I
followed you." She lets go of the tree. He
looks at her again. "I know. I know that. Why?" They
think in this way. It has to do with time. One thing, then another thing from
it, and then a next. The way the world takes shape for them. She has a thought.
Alun
felt as if his mouth were dry as earth. Her voice, a handful of words, made him
despair again of the idea of making music, of ever hearing anything to match.
There was a woodland scent to her, night flowers, and the light—changing,
always—about her, in her hair, the only illumination here, where they were. She
was shining for him in a forest, and he knew all the tales. Mortals entangled
and ensnared within the half-world who never made their way back or were found
all changed when they did, companions and lovers dead, or aged, bent into
hoops. Dai
was with the faerie queen, walking upon water amid music, coupling in the
forested night. Dai was dead, his soul stolen away. "Why
are you here?" he managed. "I
followed you." Not
his answer. He looked at her. "I know. I know that. Why?" She said,
"Because you put away . . . your iron when you came up the slope to me?
Before?" A
question in it. She was asking him if this was good enough, as an answer. She
spoke Cyngael in the old fashion, the way his grandfather had talked. It
frightened him to think how old she might be. He didn't want to think of
that, or ask. How long did faeries live? He felt light-headed. It was difficult
to breathe. He said, a little desperately, "Will you do me harm?" Her
laughter then, first time, rippling. "What harm could I do?" She
lifted her arms, as if to show him how delicate she was, slender, her fingers
very long. He could not have named the colour of the tunic she wore, could see
the pale, sleek curve of her below it. She extended a hand towards him. He
closed his eyes just before she touched his face with her fingers for the
second time. He
was lost, knew he was, whatever the tales might say in warning. He had been
lost when he left the chapel to come out from behind mortal walls and enter
this wood where men did not go. He
took her fingers in his hand, and brought them to his mouth and kissed them,
then turned her palm to his lips. Felt her trembling, as leaves did in wind.
Heard her say, -very faintly, music, "Will you do me harm?" Alun
opened his eyes. She was a silver shining in the wood, beyond imagining. He saw
the trees around them and the summer grass. "Not
for all the light in all the worlds," he said, and took her in his arms. +
There
was very little light in the great hall now: amber pools spilling from the two
fires, or where a cluster of men continued to throw dice at one end of the
room, and another pair of lamps at the head table where two men remained awake
and talking and a third listened quietly, A fourth figure slept there, snoring
softly, his head on the board among the last uncleared platters. Aeldred
of the Anglcyn looked at the sleeping cleric from Ferrieres and then turned the
other way, smiling a little. "We
have exhausted him," he said. The
cleric on his other side set down his cup. "It is late." "Is
it? Sometimes sleep feels wrong. A surrendering of opportunity." The king
sipped his own wine. "He quoted Cingalus at you. You were very kind,
then." "No
need to embarrass him." Aeldred
snorted. "While he was citing you to yourself?" Ceinion of Llywerth
shrugged. "I was flattered." "He
didn't know you wrote it. He was patronizing you." "That wouldn't
have mattered if he'd been right in what he argued." A
small sound at that, from the third man. Both turned to him, both smiling. "Not
weary of us yet, my heart?" Aeldred asked. His
younger son shook his head. "Weary, but not of this." Gareth cleared
his throat. "Father's right. He . . . didn't even have the quotation
properly." "True
enough, my lord prince." Ceinion was still smiling, still cradling his
wine. "I'm honoured that you knew it. He was doing it from memory, in
fairness." "But
he turned the meaning. He argued against you with your own thought turned
backwards. You wrote the Patriarch that there was no error in images unless
they were made to be worshipped, and he—" "He
cited me as saying images would be worshipped." "So he was
wrong." "I
suppose, if you agree with what I wrote." Ceinion's expression was wry.
"It could have been worse. He might have cited me as saying clerics should
live chaste and unmarried." The
king laughed aloud. Young Gareth's brow remained furrowed. "Why didn't he
know it was you who wrote it?" The
subject of their conversation remained where he'd slumped, asleep with most of
the men in the darkened hall. Ceinion glanced from the son to the father. He
shrugged again. "Ferrieres
tends to look down on the Cyngael. Much of the world does, my lord. Even here,
if we are being honest. You call us horse thieves and eaters of oats, don't
you?" His tone was mild, unoffended. "He would find it alarming that
a scholar cited and endorsed by the Patriarch was from a place so . . .
marginal. They used a Rhodian name for me, after all, when they put my phrases
in the Pronouncement. An easy error for him to make, not knowing." "You
didn't sign it as Cingalus?" "I
sign everything I write," said the other man gravely, "as Ceinion of
Llywerth, cleric of the Cyngael." There
was a little silence. "He
wouldn't even have expected you to be able to write in Trakesian, I
imagine," Aeldred murmured. "Or you to read it, for that matter,
Gareth." "The
prince reads Trakesian? Wonderful," Ceinion said. "I'm beginning,
only," Gareth remonstrated. "There's
no `only' in that," the cleric said. "Perhaps we shall read together
while I am here?" "I'd
be honoured," Gareth said. His mouth quirked. "It'll keep you from
our horses." A
startled silence, then Ceinion burst out laughing and so did the king. The
cleric mimed a blow at the prince. "My
children are a great trial," Aeldred said, shaking his head. "All
four of them, but Gareth reminds me, I have new texts to show you." Ceinion
turned to him. "Indeed?" Aeldred
allowed himself a satisfied smile. "Indeed. In the morning after prayers
we shall go see what is being copied." "And
it is?" Ceinion was unable to mask eagerness. "Nothing
so very much," said the king, with a show of indifference. "Only a
physician's tract. One Rustem of Esperaсa, on the eye." "Collating
Galinus and adding his own remedies? Oh, glorious! My lord, how in the god's
name did you—?" "A
ship from Al-Rassan stopped at Drengest earlier this summer on its way back
from trading with the Erlings at Rabady. They know I am buying
manuscripts." "Rustem?
That's three hundred years old. A treasure!" Ceinion exclaimed, though
softly among the sleepers. "In Trakesian?" Aeldred
smiled again. "In two languages, friend. Trakesian .. . and his original
Bassanid." "Holy
Jad! But who reads Bassanid? The
language is gone, since the Asharites." "No
one yet, but with both texts now we will soon be able to. I have someone
working on that. The Trakesian text unlocks the other one." "This
is a glory and a wonder," Ceinion said. He made the sign of the disk. "I
know it is. You'll see it in the morning." "It
will give me great joy." There
was another silence. "That opens a doorway for me, actually," the king
said; his tone remained light. "The question I've been waiting to
ask." The
cleric looked at him, an exchange of glances in the island of light. Far down
the room someone laughed as dice rolled and stopped and fortune smiled, however
briefly. "My
lord, I cannot stay," Ceinion said quietly. "Ah.
And thus the door closes," Aeldred murmured. Ceinion
held his gaze in the lamplight. "You know I cannot, my lord. There are
people who need me. We were speaking of them, remember? The oat-eaters no one
respects? At the edge of the world?" "We're
as much at the edge, ourselves," Aeldred said. "No.
You aren't. Not at this court, my lord. All praise to you for that." "But
you won't help me take it further?" "I
am here now," Ceinion said simply. "And
you will come back?" "As
often as I may." Another small, rueful smile. "For the nourishing of
my own spirit. Unworthy as that might be. You know what I think of this court.
You are a light to us all, my lord." The
king did not move. "You would make us brighter, Ceinion." The
cleric sipped from his cup before answering. "It would nourish my own
desires to do so, to sit here and share learning as old age comes. Do not think
I am not tempted. But I have tasks in the west. We Cyngael live where the
farthest light of Jad falls. The last light of the sun. It needs attending to,
my lord, lest it fail." The
king shook his head. "It is all . . . marginal, here in the northlands,"
Aeldred said. "How do we build anything to last, when it might come down
at any time?" "That
is true of all men, my lord. Of everything we do, anywhere." "And
not more so here? Truly?" Ceinion
inclined his head. "You know I agree with you. I merely—" "Cite
text and doctrine. Yes. But if you refrain from doing that? If you answer
honestly? What happens here if the harvest fails in a year the Erlings decide
to come back in numbers, not just raiding? Do you think I have forgotten the
marshes? Do you think any of us who were there lie down at night, any night,
without remembering?" Ceinion
said nothing. Aeldred
went on, "What happens to us if Carloman or his sons in Ferrieres quell
the Karchites, as they likely will, and decide they want more land for
themselves?" He looked at the sleeping man on his other side. "You'll
beat them back," Ceinion said, "or your sons will. I do believe there
is that here which will endure. I am . . . less certain of my people, still
fighting each other, still seduced by pagan heresies." He paused, looked
away again, and then back. He
shrugged. "You spoke of the marsh. Tell me of your fevers, my lord." Aeldred
made an impatient gesture, one that served as a reminder—if one were
needed—that this was a king. "I have physicians, Ceinion." "Who
have done little enough to ease them. Osbert tells me—" "Osbert tells
you too much." "And
that, you know well, is untrue. I brought something with me. Do I give it to
you, or to him, or whichever physician you trust?" "I
trust none of them." This time it was the king who shrugged. "Give it
to Osbert, if you must. Jad will ease my affliction when it pleases him to do
so. I am reconciled to that." "Does
that mean we who love you must be?" Ceinion's voice carried just enough
amusement to make Aeldred look closely at him, and then shake his head. "I
am made to feel like a child sometimes, by these fevers." "And
why not? We are all still children in some fashion. I can remember skipping
stones into the sea as a boy. Then learning my letters. My wedding day . . .
there is no shame in that, my lord." "There
is in helplessness." That
stopped him. In the silence, young Gareth rose, took the flask—there were no
servants near them now—and poured for the cleric and his father. Ceinion
sipped at the wine. Changed the subject, again. "Tell me of the wedding,
my lord." "Judit's?" "Unless
there is another in the offing." The cleric smiled. "The
ceremonies will be there during the midwinter rites. She goes north to Rheden
to make babies and bind two peoples again, the way her mother did, marrying
me." "What
do we know of the prince?" "Calum?
He's young. Younger than she is." Ceinion
looked down the hall, back to the king. "It is a good union." "An
obvious one." Aeldred hesitated. His turn to look away. "Her mother
has asked me to let her go, after the wedding." It was news. A confiding.
"To Jad's house?" Aeldred
nodded. Took up his wine cup again. He was looking at his younger son, and
Ceinion realized this would be news for the prince, as well. A time chosen for
the telling, late night, by lamplight. "She has wanted this for a long
time." Ceinion
said, "And you have agreed now. Or you wouldn't be telling me." Aeldred
nodded again. It
was not uncommon for men or women, nearing their mortal ending, to seek out the
god, pulling back and away from the tumult of the world. It was rare for
royalty. The world not so easily left behind, for many reasons. "Where
will she go?" the cleric asked. "Retherly,
in the valley. Where our infants are buried. She's been endowing the Daughters
of Jad there for years." "A
well-known house." "Will
be better known, with a queen, I imagine." Ceinion
listened for, but did not hear, bitterness. He was thinking about the prince on
his other side, didn't look that way, giving Gareth time. "After
the wedding?" he said. "So
she intends." Carefully,
Ceinion said, "We are not supposed to grieve, if someone finds her way, or
his, to the god." "I
know that." Gareth
suddenly cleared his throat. "Do . . . the others know of this?" His
voice was rough. His
father, who had chosen his moment, said, "Athelbert? No. Your sisters
might. I'm not certain. You may tell them, if you like." Ceinion
looked from one to the other. Aeldred, it occurred to him, would not
necessarily be an easy man to have for a father. Not for a son, at any rate. He'd
had a good deal of wine, but his thinking was still clear, and the name had now
been spoken. A doorway of his own. Perhaps. They were as much alone as they
were likely to be, and the younger son, listening, had a thoughtful nature. He
drew breath and spoke. "I have," he said, "another wedding
thought, if you might entertain it." "You
want a wife again?" The king's smile was gentle. So
was the cleric's, responding. "Not this woman. I am too old, and
unworthy." He paused again, then said it: "I have in mind someone for
Prince Athelbert." Aeldred
grew still. The smile faded. "This is the heir of the Anglcyn,
friend." "I
know it, my lord, believe me. You want peace west of the Wall, and I want my
people drawn into the world, from their feuds and solitude." "It
can't be done." Aeldred shook his greying head decisively. "If I
choose a princess from any of your provinces, I declare war on the other two,
destroy the purpose of a union." The
other man smiled. "You have been thinking about this."
"Of course I have! It is what I do. But what answer is there, then?" And
so Ceinion of Llywerth said softly, with the voice-music the Cyngael carried
with them through the world, "There is this one answer, lord. Brynn ap
Hywll, who slew the Volgan by the sea and might have been our king had he
wanted it, has a daughter of an age to be wed. Her name is Rhiannon, and she is
the jewel of all women I know. Unless that be her mother. The father is known
to you, I dare say." Aeldred
stared at him without speaking for a long time. The Ferrieres cleric snored,
cheek to the wooden board. They heard laughter again and a muffled curse from
down the room. A sleepy servant prodded the nearer fire with an iron rod. A
door opened before the king spoke. Doors
opened and closed all the time, without consequence or weight. This one was
behind them, not the double doors at the far end of the hall. A small door, an
exit for the king and his family, should they wish one. A tall man had to stoop
to go through. A passage to inner quarters, privacy, the sleep one would have
assumed to be coming soon tonight. Not
so, in the event, for it is not given to men and women to know with any surety
what is to come. The
doorways of our lives take many shapes, and the arrivals that change us are not
always announced by thunderous pounding or horns at the gates. We may be
walking a known laneway, at prayer in a familiar chapel, entering a new one and
simply looking up, or we may be deep in quiet talk late of a summer's night,
and a door will open behind us. Ceinion
turned. Saw Osbert, son of Cuthwulf, Aeldred's life-long companion, and his
chamberlain. Cuthwulf, as it happened, had been a name cursed in the Cyngael
lands, a cattle-raider and worse than that, in more violent days. Another
reason (if more were needed) the Anglcyn were hated and feared west of the
Wall. The
Erlings had killed Cuthwulf by Raedhill, with his king. The
son, Osbert, was a man Ceinion had come to admire without stint or reservation
after two sojourns here. Fidelity and courage, judicious counsel, quiet faith
and manifest love: these held their message for those who could see. Osbert
moved forward with the limp he had carried away from a battlefield twenty years
ago. He came into the lamplight. Ceinion saw his face. And even by that muted
illumination he knew that something had come upon them through that door. He
set down his wine, carefully. Peace,
ease, leisure to build and teach, to plant and harvest, time to read ancient
texts and consider them . . . these were not the coinage of the north. In other
lands they might be, to the south, east in Sarantium, or perhaps in the god's
other worlds. Not here. "What
is it?" Aeldred said. His voice had altered. He stood, his chair scraping
back. "Osbert, tell me." Ceinion
would remember that voice, and the fact that the king had been on his feet
before he'd heard anything. Knowing already. And
so Osbert told them: of signal flares lit on hills towards the south by the
sea, running in their chain of telling fire along the ridges with a message.
Not a new tale, Ceinion thought, hearing it. Nothing new here at all, only the
old dark legacy of these northlands, which was blood. NINE "Will
my own world be there when I leave you?" "I don't know what you mean.
This is the world we have." She
was beside him, very near. The glade would have been dark were it not for the
light she cast. Her hair was all around him, copper-coloured now, thick and
warm; he could touch it, had been doing so, in a wood on a summer night. They
lay in deep grass, edge of a clearing. Sounds of the forest around them,
murmurous. These woods had been shunned for generations by his people and the
Anglcyn, both. His fear was beside him, however, not among the trees. "We
have stories. Those who went with faeries, and came home . . . a hundred years
later." Spirit wood, they named this forest. One of the names. Was this
what it meant? Her
voice was lazy, a slow music. She said, "I might enjoy lying here that
long." He
laughed softly, startled. Felt himself suspended, precariously, between too
many feelings, almost afraid to move, as if that might break something. She
turned onto an elbow in the grass, looked at him a moment. "You fear us
even more than we fear you." He
thought about that. "I think we fear what you might mean." "What
can I . . . mean? I am just here." He
shook his head. Reached for clarity. "But here for so much longer than we
are." Her
turn to be silent. He stared at her, drinking slender grace with his eyes, the otherness
of her. Her breasts were small, perfect. She had arched her body back above
him, before, in the light she made. He wondered, suddenly, how he would pray
from now on, what words he could use. Did he ask forgiveness of his god for
this? For something the clerics taught did not even exist? She
said, finally, "I think the . . . speed of things for you makes the world
more dear." "More
painful?" Her hair
had slipped, by invisible degrees, towards silver again. "More dear. You .
. . love more, because you lose so quickly. We don't know . . . that
feeling." She gestured, one hand, as if reaching. "You live in . . .
in the singleness of things. Because they go from you." "Well,
they do, don't they?" "But
you come into the world knowing that. It cannot be .. . unexpected. We
die, as well. It just takes ..." "Longer." "Longer,"
she agreed. "Unless there is iron." His belt and dagger were in the chapel in Esferth.
He felt a renewed grief: one of the
suspended feelings here. What she had just said. Loving more, because losing. He
said, "Is my brother still with the queen?" She
raised an eyebrow. "Of course." "But
he won't be, always." "Nothing
is always." Born
into the world, knowing that. She
saw he was distressed. "It takes a long time," she said, "before
she tires. He is honoured, much loved." "And
he will be lost forever, after. That is always." "Why
lost? Why see it so?" "Because
we are taught that. That there is a harbour for our souls, and his was taken
and will not find the god now. Maybe .. . that is what we fear. In you. That
you can do this to us. Perhaps long ago we knew it, about the faeries." "It
was different, once," she agreed. And then shyly, after a moment, "We
could fly, then." "What?
How?" She
turned, still shy, to show him her back. And so he saw the ridges clearly,
hard, smaller than breasts, inside her shoulder blades, and he understood that
these were all that now remained of what had been faerie wings. He
imagined it, creatures like her, flying under blue moon or silver, or at
sunset. An ache in his throat, the envisaged beauty of it. In the world, once. "I'm
sorry," he said. He reached out, brushed one with a hand. She shivered,
turned back to him. "There
it is again. The way you think. Sorrow. It is so much in you. I . . . we . . .
do not live with that. It comes with the speed, doesn't it?" He
thought about this, didn't want to even guess how old she was. She spoke
Cyngael the way his grandfather had. He
said it: "You speak my language so beautifully. What does your own sound
like?" She
looked surprised a moment, then amused, the hair flashing it. "But this is
my own tongue. How do you think your people learned it?" He
gaped, closed his mouth. "Our
home is in those woods and pools," she said. "West, towards where the
sun lies along the sea at day's end. There was not always so much . . .
distance between us." He
was thinking, as hard as he could. Men spoke of the music in the voices of the
Cyngael. Now he knew. A knowing, like this night, that shifted the world. How was
he going to pray? She was looking at him, still amused. He
said, "Is this, is tonight . . . forbidden to you?" She
took a moment to answer. Said, "The queen is pleased with me." He
understood, both answer and hesitation. She was protecting him. In her way, a
kindness. They could be kind, it seemed. The queen was pleased because of Dai.
The taken soul. He
said, looking at her, "But it is still . . . seen as wrong, isn't it? You
have some licence because of what you did, but it is still ..." "There
is to be distance, yes. Just as for you." He
laughed this time. "Distance? You don't exist! To say you are even
here is heresy. Our clerics would punish me, some would cast me out from chapel
and rites, if I even spoke of it." "The
one from the pool wouldn't," she said quietly. He
hadn't realized she'd seen the cleric that night. "Ceinion? He
might," Alun said. "He likes me, because of my father, I think, but
he wouldn't allow talk of faeries or the half-world." She
smiled again. "Half-world. I haven't heard that in so long." He
didn't want to know how far back in the past some-thing would have to be for
her to think that way. The slow uncoiling of time for them. She stretched,
feral and sleek as a cat. "But you are wrong about that one. He knows. He
came to the queen when his woman was dying." "What?" She
laughed aloud, quicksilver sound, flutter and ripple in the glade.
"Softly. I can hear you," she murmured. She touched him, idly, a hand
on his leg. He felt desire, again, was very nearly defined by it. She said,
"He came to the mound and asked if one of us might come with him, to help
her live. She was coughing blood. He brought silver for the queen, and he wept
among the trees outside. He couldn't see us, of course, but he came to ask. She
pitied him." Alun
said nothing. Couldn't speak. He knew, everyone knew, about Ceinion's young
wife and her death. "So
do not say to me," the faerie added, stretching again, "that that
one, of all of you, would deny us." "She
didn't send anything, did she?" he asked, whispering. Both
eyebrows arched, she regarded him. "Why think that? She sent eldritch
water from the pool and a charm. She is gracious, the queen, honours those who
honour her." "It
didn't . . . help?" She
shook her head. "We are only what we are. Death comes. I did what I
could." He
almost missed it. "She sent you?" Her
eyes on his, no distance between them, in one way. He needed only move a hand
to touch her breast again. "I
have always been . . . most curious." He
sighed. So great a strangeness, the world altering moment by moment as the
stars turned above them. Was it slow, or fast, that movement overhead? Did it
depend on who was asking? He
said, "And tonight is . . . being curious?" "And
for you, is it not? What else is there for it to be?" A different note in
her voice now, under the music. He
was gazing at her. Helpless to look away. Small, even teeth in the wide, thin
mouth, pale skin, achingly smooth, the changing hair. Dark eyes. And vestiges
of wings. Once, they could fly. "I
don't know," he said, swallowing. "I'm not wise enough. I feel as if
I could weep." "Sorrow,
again," she said. "Why does it always come to that, for you?" "Sometimes
we can weep for joy. Do you . . . can you understand that?" A
longer silence. Then she shook her head slowly. "No. I would like to, but
this is your cup, not ours." The .
. . otherness, again. This sense that he was both in and entirely outside the
world he knew. He said, "Tell me Esferth and the others will be there when
I go from here?" She
nodded, calmly. "Though some of them won't be." He
stared. A hard thumping of the heart. "What do you mean?" "They
are starting to ride out. There is anger, men taking horse, bearing iron." He
sat up. "Holy Jad. How do you know?" She
shrugged. The question, he realized, was foolish. How could he understand how
she knew things? How could she answer him? Even in the tongue they shared, the
language her people had taught his. He
stood up. Began putting on his clothes . She watched him. He was aware, might
always be aware now, of the haste of his doing this, seen through her eyes. The
way he and the others lived. "I must go," he said. "If
something has happened." "Someone
died," she said gravely. "There is sorrow. The aura of it." The
speed of their dying. He looked at her, holding his tunic in both hands. He
cleared his throat. "Don't envy us that," he said. "But
I do," she said simply; small, sleek, shining otherness in the grass.
"Will you come back into the wood?" He
hesitated, and then a thought came that could not have come a night before,
when he was younger. "Will
you sorrow if I do not?" Her
eyebrows lifted again, but in surprise this time. She moved a hand, same
gesture as before, as if reaching for something. Then, slowly, she smiled,
looking up at him. He
pulled on his tunic. No belt, because of the iron. He turned to leave. He
hadn't answered her question, either. He had no answer to give. He
looked back from the glade's dark edge. She was still sitting there on the
grass, unclothed, in her element, sorrowless. +
The
voices in the darkness began moving away to the north. Bern remained where he
was in the stream. He had a thought, broke off a reed; might need to submerge
himself. He heard shouting, men running. Someone rasped a curse, an obscenity
directed at Erlings everywhere, and the scabrous, pustulent whores who gave
them birth. Not a
good time for this Erling to be discovered. He'd
been right, then. The signal fire had meant nothing good at all. It was still
burning. More shouting now, farther away, towards Esferth, where the tents
were: the tents outside an over-flowing city on the eve of a fair. A city
they'd been told would be almost empty, one that they might even loot in a raid
that would give rise to songs for generations to their glory, and Jormsvik's. Glory,
Bern decided, was going to be hard to come by now. He
thought quickly, keeping his breathing shallow and slow. Skallson's party had
gone east from the ships. A waste of time, some had thought—and the same had
been said about Bern and Ecca going into Esferth, once they had learned about
the fair. But if they were to leave here—and it seemed evident they
were—without anything taken at all, at least learn something before they
went, it had been decided. Salvage
pride, a flagon's worth, by carrying home report of Aeldred's lands. They might
be mocked a little less by their fellows for returning empty-handed, swords
unreddened, no tales to tell. A wasted journey at raiding season's end. His own
first raid. Right
now, Bern thought, mockery might be the best they could hope for, not the
worst. There were worse things than fire-side jibes in winter. If that bonfire
was an alert, it most likely meant Guthrum Skallson's party had been found. And
from the fury in the Anglcyn voices (still heading away from him, Ingavin be
thanked) something had happened. And
then he remembered that Ivarr had been with Skallson's party. Bern shivered in
the water, couldn't help it. You shivered like that when a spirit passed,
someone newly dead, and angry. In that same instant he heard a soft splashing
as someone entered the stream. Bern
drew his dagger and prepared himself to die: in water again, third time now.
Third time was said to mark power, sacred to Nikar the Huntress, wife to
Thьnir. Three times was a gateway. He had expected death in the night waters
off Rabady. And again in the dawn surf outside Jormsvik. He tried to accept it
once more, now. An ending waited for all men, no one knew his fate, everything
lay in how you went to your dying. He gripped his blade. "Stay
where you are," he heard. The
voice low, terse, barely audible. Utterly and entirely known all the days of
his life. "Spare
me the knife," it went on softly. "I've been stabbed at already
tonight. And keep silent or they will find and kill you here," his father
added, moving, unerringly, towards where Bern was hidden, submerged to his
shoulders, invisible in darkness. Unless
you knew he was here. Not a mystery, then, this part at least. He'd gone
straight into the stream from the place on the bank where his father had left
him. Not magic, not some impossible night vision, brilliant raider's instinct. "I
didn't think they'd offer me wine," he murmured. No greeting offered.
Thorkell hadn't greeted him. His father
grunted, coming up. "How's your head?" "Hurts. Want your neck
chain back?" "I'd
have kept it if I wanted it. You made a mistake in that alley. You know the
saga: Have thine eyes about you / in hall or darkness. Be wary ever / be
watching always." Bern
said nothing. Felt his face redden. "Two
horses?" Thorkell asked calmly. His
father's dark bulk was beside him, Thorkell's voice close to his ear. The two
of them together in a stream at night in Anglcyn lands. How was this so? What
had the gods decided? And how did men take hold of their own lives when this
could happen? He realized his heart was thumping, hated that. "Two
horses," he replied, keeping his voice steady. "Where's Ecca?" Small
hesitation. "That what he was calling himself?" Was
calling. "Right," Bern
said bitterly. "Of course. He's dead. You know, the same poet says: No
good ever, whatever be thought / was mead or ale to any man. Are you
drunk?" The
backhanded blow caught him on the side of the head. "By
Ingavin's blind eye, show respect. I got you out of a walled city. Think on it.
I went to warn him, he drew a blade to kill when I used his real name. I made a
mistake. Is your horse a good one?" A
mistake. One could weep, or laugh. Killing the second man on the isle had been
the mistake, Bern wanted to say. He was still trying to wrap his mind around
what was happening here. "My horse is Gyllir," he said. Struggled to
keep anything out of his voice his father might read as youthful pride. Thorkell
grunted again. "Halldr's? He didn't come after you?" "Halldr's
dead. The horse was for his burning." That
silenced his father, for a moment, at least. Bern wondered if he was thinking
of his wife, who had become Halldr's, and was widowed now, alone and
unprotected on Rabady. "There's
a tale to that, I imagine," was all Thorkell said. His
voice had not changed at all. Why should it change, though all the world Bern
knew had been altered entirely? "Leave Stefa's mount," his father
said. "They'll need a horse to find, after they get his body." Stefa.
With an effort Bern kept his hand from going to his head. The stars had swung
again with the blow. His father was a strong man. "They'll
see the signs of two horses where we hid them," Bern said. "Won't
work." "It
will. I'll find his horse and bring it out. Go now, though, and quickly—some
fool killed Burgred of Denferth tonight. Aeldred's riding out himself, I
think." "What?"
said Bern, his jaw dropping. "The earl? Why didn't they—?" "Take
him for ransom? You tell me. You're the mercenary. He'd have been worth your
raid and more." But
that answer, in fact, he knew. "Ivarr," he said. "Ragnarson's
paying us." "Ingavin's
blind eye! I knew it," his father rasped. His old oath, remembered from
childhood, familiar as smells and the shape of hands. Thorkell swore again,
spat into the stream. He stood waist-deep in the water, thinking. Then:
"Listen. That one's going to want you to go west. Don't go. It isn't a
raid for Jormsvik." "West?
What's west of here? Just . . ." And then, as his father said nothing,
Bern finally thought it through. He swallowed, cleared his throat.
"Blood," he whispered. "Vengeance? For his grandfather? And that's
why he—" "That's
why he bought your ships and men, whatever else he told you, and that's why he
wouldn't want a hostage. He wants to go after the Cyngael. But with ransom paid
for an earl you'd turn and go home. He was with the shore party, wasn't
he?" Bern
nodded. It was sliding into place. "I'll
wager you land we don't own any more they'll find Burgred with an arrow in
him." "He
said the burh was still unwalled, that Esferth would be almost
empty." Thorkell
grunted, spat downstream again. "Empty? During a fair? Serpent-sly, that
one. Poisons his arrows." "How
do you know that?" No
answer. It occurred to Bern that he'd never spoken in this way with his father
in his life. Nothing remotely resembling this terse conversation. He didn't
have time, no time at all, to unwind his own held-in rage, the bitterness for
lives marred. Thorkell still hadn't asked about his wife. Or Gyllir. Or how Bern
had come to be in Jormsvik. Fireflies
darting around them. Bern heard bullfrogs and crickets. No human voices,
though; they'd gone north towards the walls and tents. And would be coming out,
back this way, heading for the coast. King Aeldred leading them, his father had
said. Guthrum's
party was on foot, would be running for the ships right now. If they weren't
dead. He had no idea where they'd been when they .. . "Where
are your horses?" "Just
west, in the woods." "In
those woods?" Thorkell's voice rose for the first time. "Are
there others?" "I'll
hit you again. Show respect. That's a spirit wood. No Anglcyn or Cyngael will
enter it. Stefa ought to have known, if you didn't." "Well,"
said Bern, attempting defiance, "maybe he did know. If they don't go in,
it's a good place for our mounts, isn't it?" His
father said nothing. Bern swallowed. He cleared his throat. "He only went
in a few steps, tethered them, got out right away." "He
did know." Thorkell sounded tired suddenly. "You'd best move,"
his father said. "Think the rest of it out while you ride." Bern
moved, climbing up the western bank. He said nothing but as he looked around,
crouching, Thorkell added, "Don't let Ivarr Ragnarson know you're my son.
He'll kill you for it." Bern
stopped, looking down at the dark figure of his father in the stream. A tale
there, too, obviously. He wasn't going to ask. He wanted to say something harsh
about how late it was for Thorkell to be showing signs of looking after his
family. He
turned. Heard his father come out of the water behind him. He walked south,
quickly, bent low, went in among the trees to get Gyllir. He shivered, doing
so. Spirit wood. He knew Thorkell was watching him, to mark the place. He
didn't look back. Offered no farewell and, Ingavin knew, no thanks. He'd die
before he did that. Gyllir
whickered at his approach. The horse seemed agitated, tossing his head. Bern
rubbed his muzzle, whispering, untied the reins. He left Ecca's horse tethered,
as instructed. It wouldn't be for long. Emerged from the woods, mounted, rode,
south under stars and the blue moon, pushing Gyllir. There would be mounted men
following soon. The
land stretched level, forest to the west, open to the east across the stream,
mostly empty at first, uninhabited, then some dark farms over that way, planted
barley, rye, the harvest coming soon. A line of low trees, cluster of houses,
the ground beginning to slope towards the sea, and their ships. A long way to
go. Men following. The bonfire still burning. After a time he saw another one,
far off, and then, later, a third, sending its signals, which he couldn't read.
The moon was gone by then, behind the woods. He
leaned forward over Gyllir's neck to make his weight easier to bear. There's
a tale, I imagine, his father had said, learning of the horse. He hadn't
asked, though. Hadn't asked. Heimthra
was the word used for longing: for
home, for the past, for things to be as they once had been. Even the gods were
said to know that yearning, from when the worlds were broken. Bern was grateful,
as he rode, that no one on the wide dark earth could see his face, and he had
to trust that Ingavin and Thьnir would not think the worse of him, if they were
watching in the night. +
It
was Hakon Ingemarson who had recognized Kendra by the stream. He'd called
out to her immediately as he passed with a torch amid a crowd of others heading
for the tents. She hadn't wanted to ask how he'd known her so quickly in the
dark. Was afraid of his answer. Knew his answer, really. She'd
cursed, silently, the sheer bad luck that had led him past this point, even as
she'd turned and achieved a tone of pleased welcome when he came hurrying over. "My
lady! How come you here, unattended?" "I'm
not unattended, Hakon. Ceinion of Llywerth kindly sent his own guard with
me." She had gestured, and Thorkell had stepped forward into the light.
The dog, thankfully, was across the stream, out of sight. She'd had no least
idea how she'd have adequately explained it. "But
there's nothing here at all!" Hakon had exclaimed. She'd realized that he
was drunk. They all were. That might make things easier, in fact. "The
gathering is over by the tents! Your royal sister and brother are there
already. May we escort you?" Kendra
had searched for and failed to find any way to decline. Cursing again, inside,
with a ferocity that would have surprised all three of her siblings and utterly
disconcerted the young man in front of her, she'd smiled and said, "Of
course. Thorkell, wait here for me. I'll likely just stay a short while, and I
wouldn't want these men to forgo their entertainment to take me back
inside." "Yes,
my lady," the older Erling had said, in the uninflected voice of a
servant. Hakon
had looked as if he might protest, but evidently decided to be pleased with
what he'd gained so unexpectedly. She'd fallen in with him and the others and
they'd made their way to the colourful village of tents that had sprung up
northwest of the walls. When
they arrived, they found a boisterous crowd gathered in a wide circle. Hakon
pushed through to the front. Inside were two people. It came as no great
surprise to Kendra to discover that these were her older brother and sister. She
looked around. To one side of the ring she saw a skull, resting on the grass, a
torch set beside it. Kendra winced. She had a fairly good idea, suddenly, what
had happened here. Athelbert simply did not know when to leave well
enough alone. Judit
had a long staff, held crosswise with both hands. She knew how to use it.
Athelbert carried a significantly smaller one, a thin switch. Nearly useless,
good for swatting at leaves or apples, not much more. Judit
was attempting, with grim purpose and no little skill, to club her brother
senseless. Finish the task she'd begun that morning. Athelbert—who had had a
great deal to drink, it was clear—was laughing far too much to be at all safe
from his sister's assault. Kendra,
eyeing them, listening to the hilarity around her, was thinking about the
Cyngael in the woods, and about his dog—the way it had stood on the far side of
the stream, rigid and attentive, listening. She didn't know for what. She
didn't really want to know. There
was nothing to be done now, in any case. No way to turn around and walk away
just yet. She had sighed again, fixed a smile on her face, and accepted a cup
of watered wine from Hakon, busy on her behalf. She watched her siblings amid a
rapturous, howling crowd and smoking torches. A late-summer night, the harvest
looking to be good, the fair soon to begin. A time of laughter and celebration. The
entertainment in the ring continued, marked by two pauses for wine on the part
of the combatants. Judit's hair was entirely and immodestly unconfined now. Not
that she would care, Kendra thought. Athelbert was dodging and ducking without
pause. He'd taken two or three blows, including one to the shin that had
knocked him sprawling, barely able to roll away from Judit's urgent follow-up.
Kendra thought about intervening. She was certainly the only person who could.
She wasn't actually sure how much self-control Judit had left. It was sometimes
hard to tell. Then
someone shouted loudly, in a different tone, and people were pointing to the
south, beyond the city. Kendra turned. A bonfire. They watched the signals
begin, and repeat. And then repeat again. It
was Athelbert who decoded the message aloud for all of them. Judit, listening,
dropped her staff, went over to stand next to her brother. She began to cry.
Athelbert put his arm around her. Amid
the chaos that ensued, Kendra shifted from where Hakon had been hovering at her
elbow. Then she slipped away into the dark. Torches were everywhere, shaping
patterns in the night. She made her way back to the river. The dog was still
there. It didn't seem to have moved, in fact. Thorkell was nowhere to be seen. Nor
was Alun ab Owyn. He ought not to matter now, she was thinking. Her mind
was in a whirl. One of their own had been slain tonight, if Athelbert had the
message right. She was certain that he had. Burgred.
He had been in the marshes with her father, had fought at Camburn, both times,
when they lost and when they won. And he had gone chasing a rumour of Erling
ships while the king lay wrapped in fever. Her
father, she thought, would be tortured by that knowledge. There was a movement
across the stream. The man she'd followed came out from the trees. He
stopped at the wood's edge, looking lost. Kendra,
heart pounding, saw the dog pad over to him, push his muzzle against the
Cyngael's hip. Alun ab Owyn reached down and touched the dog. It was too dark
to see his face, but there was something in the way he stood that frightened
her. She had been frightened, she realized, all night. All day long, really,
from the time the Cyngael party had come into the meadow. There
were noises, men shouting behind her, running towards the city gates, which
were open now. Kendra heard a different sound, a footfall, nearer: she looked
over, saw Thorkell. His clothes were wet. "Where
were you?" she whispered. "He's
come out," the Erling replied, not answering. Kendra
turned back to the woods. Alun still hadn't moved, except to touch the dog.
Uncertainly, she walked towards the river, stood on the bank amid reeds and
dragonflies. She saw him look up and see her. Too dark, too dark to know his
eyes. She
took a breath. She had no business being here, no understanding of how she knew
what she knew. "Come
back to us," she said, fighting fear. The
dog turned to her voice. Blue moon and stars overhead. She heard Thorkell come
up behind her. Was grateful for that. She was watching the other man by the.
trees. And
at length, she heard Alun ab Owyn say, in a voice you had to strain to hear,
"My lady, I have a long way to go. To do that." Kendra
shivered. Was close to tears, and afraid. She made herself take another deep
breath and said, with courage that perhaps only her father was aware that she
had, "I am only this fan" Thorkell,
behind her, made an odd sound. By
the trees, Alun ab Owyn lifted his head a little. And then, after a moment,
moved forward, walking as if through water even before he reached it. He
crossed the stream with the dog. His hair was disordered. He had no belt on his
tunic, carried no weapon. "What
... are you doing here?" he asked. Her
head high, feeling the breeze in her hair, she said, "I am truly not
certain. I felt . . . afraid, from when I saw you this morning. Something . .
." "You
were afraid of me?" His voice was drained of emotion. Again she hesitated.
"Afraid for you," she said. A
silence, then he nodded, as if unsurprised. I
am only this far, she'd said. Where
had that come from? But he'd crossed. He'd come across the water from the trees
to them. A little behind her, the Erling kept silent. "Did
someone die tonight?" Alun ab Owyn asked. "We
think so," she said. "My brother believes it was Earl Burgred,
leading a party south of here." "Erlings?"
he asked. "Raiders?" He
was looking past her now, at Thorkell. The dog was beside him, wet from the
river, standing very still. "It
appears so, my lord," said the big man behind her. And then, carefully,
"I believe . . . we both know the one who leads them." And
that made a change. Kendra saw it happen. The Cyngael seemed to be pulled back
to them, snapped like a leash or a whip, away from whatever had happened in the
trees. The thing she didn't want to think about. "Ragnarson?"
he asked. Not a
name Kendra knew; it meant nothing to her. The
Erling nodded. "I believe so." "How
do you know this?" ab Owyn asked. "My
lord prince, if it is Ragnarson, he will want to take their ships west from
here. King Aeldred is riding out now, after them." He
was very good, Kendra was realizing, at not replying to questions he didn't
want to answer. In
the darkness, she looked at the Cyngael prince. Alun was rigid, so taut he was
almost quivering. "He'll go for Brynnfell again. They won't be ready, not
so soon. I need a horse!" "I'll
get you one," said Thorkell calmly. "What?
I think not," came a slurred, angry voice. Kendra wheeled, white-faced.
Saw Athelbert coming across the grass. "A mount? So he can ride my sister
and then ride home to boast of it?" Kendra
felt her heart pound, with fury this time, not fear. Her fists were clenched at
her- sides. "Athelbert, you are drunk! And entirely—" He
went right past her. He might jest and tumble with Judit, letting her buffet
him about for the amusement of others, but her older brother was a hard,
trained, fighting man, king-to-be in these lands, and enraged right now, for
more than one reason. "Entirely
what, dear sister?" He didn't look back at her. He had stopped in front of
Alun ab Owyn. He was half a head taller than the Cyngael. "Look at his
hair, his tunic. Left his belt in the grass, I see. At least you made yourself
presentable before getting off your backside." Thorkell
Einarson took a step forward. "My lord prince," he began, "I can
tell you—" "You
can shut your loathsome Erling mouth before I kill you here," Athelbert
snapped. "Ab Owyn, draw your blade." "Have
none," said Alun, mildly. And launched himself, in a lithe, efficient
movement, at Athelbert. He feinted left, and then his right fist hammered hard
at her brother's heart. Kendra's hands flew to her mouth. Athelbert went
backwards in a heap, sprawled on the grass. He grunted, shifted to get up, and
froze. The
dog, Cafall, was directly above him, a large grey menace, growling in his
throat. "He
didn't touch me, you Jad-cursed clod!" Kendra screamed at her
brother. She was close to tears, in her fury. "I was over watching you and
Judit make fools of yourselves!" "You
were? You, er, saw that?" Athelbert said. He had a hand to his chest, was
careful to make no sudden movements. "I
saw that," she echoed. "Must you take such pains to be an
idiot?" There
was a silence. They heard the noises from behind them, towards the gates. "Less
difficult than you think," her brother murmured, finally. Wry, already
laughing at himself, a gift he had, in fact. "Where," he said looking
up at Alun ab Owyn, "did you learn to do that?" "My
brother taught me," said the Cyngael, shortly. "Cafall, hold!"
The dog had growled again as Athelbert shifted to a sitting position. "Hold
is a good idea," agreed Athelbert. "You might want to tell him again?
Make sure he heard you?" He looked over at his sister. "I appear to
have—" "Erred,"
said Kendra, bluntly. "How unusual." They
heard horns, from the city. "That's
Father," said Athelbert. A different tone. Alun
looked over. "We'll need to hurry. Thorkell, where's that horse?" The
big man turned to him. "Downstream. I killed an Erling raider in town
tonight. Tracked his horse to the wood just now. If you need a mount quickly
you can—" "I
need a mount quickly, and a sword." "Killed
an Erling raider?" Athelbert snapped in the same breath. "Man I used
to know. With Jormsvik now. I saw him in the—" "Later! Come
on!" said Alun. "Look!" He pointed. Kendra and the two men
turned. She gripped her hands together tightly. The fyrd
of King Aeldred was streaming out of the gates amid torches and banners.
She heard the sound of horses' harness and drumming hooves, men shouting, horns
blowing. The glorious and terrible panoply of war. "My
lady?" It was Thorkell. Asking leave of her. "Go,"
she said. He wasn't her servant. The
two men began running along the riverbank. The dog growled a last time at
Athelbert, then went after them. Kendra
looked down at her brother, still sitting on the grass. She watched him stand,
somewhat carefully. He'd had a painful day. Tall, fair-haired as an Erling,
graceful, handsome, reasonably near to sober, in fact. He
stood before her. His mouth quirked. "I'm an idiot," he said. "I
know, I know. Adore you, though. Remember it." Then
he went quickly away as well, towards the gates, to join the company riding
out, leaving her unexpectedly alone in darkness by the stream. That
didn't happen often, being left alone. It was not, in fact, unwelcome. She
needed some moments to compose herself, or try. What
are you doing here? he'd asked. The
too-obvious question. And how was she to answer? Speak of an aura almost seen, a
sound beyond hearing, something never before known but vivid as faith or
desire? The sense that he was marked, apart, and that she'd somehow known it,
from his first appearance in the meadow that morning? I
have a long way to go, he'd said,
across the stream. And she'd known, somehow, what he really meant, and it was a
thing she didn't want to know. Jad
shield me, Kendra thought. And
him. She looked towards the trees, unwillingly. Spirit wood. Saw nothing
there, nothing at all. She
lingered, reluctant to surrender this quiet. Then, like a blade sliding into
flesh, it came back to her that the tumult she was hearing was a response to
the death of someone she'd known from childhood. Burgred
of Denferth lifting her onto his horse, so far above the ground, for a canter
around the walls of Raedhill. She'd been three, perhaps four. Terror, then
pride, and a hiccoughing laughter, giddy breathlessness. Her father's softened,
amused face when Burgred brought her back and, leaning in the saddle, set her
down, red-faced, on chubby legs. Did
you remember things because they'd happened often, or because they were so
rare? That one had been rare. A stern man, Earl Burgred, more so than Osbert. A
figure of action, not thought. Carried the marks of the past in a different
way. Her father's fevers, Osbert's leg, Burgred's . . . anger. He'd been with
Aeldred, and had been loved, when they'd all been very young, even before
Beortferth. An
Erling had killed him tonight. How did one deal with that, if one was king of
the Anglcyn? Her
father was riding out. Could die tonight. They had no idea how many Erlings
were south of them. How many ships. Jormsvik, Thorkell Einarson had said. She
knew who they were: mercenaries from the tip of Vinmark. Hard men. The hardest
of all, it was said. Kendra
turned then, away from woods and stream and solitude, to go back. She saw her
younger brother, standing patiently, waiting for her. She
opened her mouth, closed it. Athelbert would have sent him, she realized. In
the midst of chasing down his horse and armour and joining the fyrd amid
chaos, he'd have done that. It
was too easy to underestimate Athelbert. "Father
wouldn't let you both go?" she asked quietly. Knew the answer before she
asked. Gareth
shook his head in the darkness. "No. What happened here? Are you all
right?" She
nodded. "I suppose. You?" He
hesitated. "I wouldn't mind killing someone." Kendra
sighed. Others had sorrows, too. You needed to remember that. She came forward,
took her brother's arm. Didn't squeeze it or anything like that; he'd bridle at
obvious sympathy. Gareth knew the Rhodian and Trakesian philosophers, had read
them aloud to her, modelled himself (or tried) on their teachings. Conduct
yourself in the sure knowledge that death comes to all men born. Be composed,
accordingly, in the face of adversity. He was seventeen years old. They
walked back together. She saw the guard at the gate, white-faced. The one who
had let her out. She nodded reassuringly at him, managed a smile. She
and Gareth went to the hall. Osbert was there, amid a blaze of lanterns, giving
instructions, men coming and going in front of him. Something he'd done all
Kendra's life. His face looked seamed and gaunt. None of them was young any
more, she thought: her father, Osbert, Burgred. Burgred was dead. Were the dead
old, or young? There
was nothing for her to do, but it was too late to go to bed. They went to
morning prayers when sunrise came. Her mother joined them, large, calm, a ship
with the wind behind her, sure in her faith. Kendra didn't see Judit in the
chapel, but her sister found them later, back in the hall, soberly garbed, hair
properly pinned but with a wild fury in her eyes. Judit did not subscribe to
the doctrines of composure advocated by Rhodian philosophers. She wanted a
sword right now, Kendra knew. Wanted to be on a horse, riding south. Would
never, ever, be reconciled to the fact that she couldn't do that. By
then, someone had found the dead Erling in the alley and had reported it to
Osbert. Kendra had expected that, had been thinking about it when she was
supposed to be praying. Waiting
for a pause in the flow of messages to and from, she went over and told Osbert,
quietly, what she knew. He listened, considered, said nothing by way of
reproach. That was not his way. He sent a messenger running for the guard who
had been on the wall, who came, and another one for the Erling servant of
Ceinion of Llywerth, who did not. Thorkell
Einarson, they discovered, had gone south with the fyrd. So had the
Cyngael cleric, though that had been known: a night ride beside Aeldred on a
horse they'd given him. A different sort of holy man, this one. And Kendra knew
Alun ab Owyn was also with them, and why. Someone
named Ragnarson. She remembered the way he'd looked, coming out of the wood.
She still didn't want to acknowledge what it was she seemed to know about
this, about him—without any idea how she knew. The world, Kendra
suddenly thought, heretically, was not as well-made as it might have been. She
pictured him riding, and the grey dog running beside the horses towards the
sea. + Earlier
that same night, a woman was making her way carefully across the fields of
Rabady Isle, not precisely sure of her direction in the dark, and more than a
little afraid to be abroad after moonrise alone. She could hear the sea and the
waving grain at the same time. Harvest was coming, the grain fields were high,
making it harder to see her way. A
little before, under the same waning blue moon, her exiled husband and only son
had spoken together in a stream near Esferth. A coming-together that could only
having been shaped—she would have said—by the gods for their own purposes,
which were not to be understood. The woman would have been grateful for tidings
of the son; would have denied interest in the father. Her
daughters were also away, across the strait on the Vinmark mainland. Neither
had sent word for some time. She understood. A family disgrace could make
ambitious husbands cautious about such things. There was a king in Hlegest now
with increasingly clear ambitions of his own to rule all the Erlings, not just
some of them in the north. Times were changing. It meant, among other things,
that young men had reason to think carefully, mind their tongues, be discreet
with family connections. Shame could come to a man through his wife. Frigga,
daughter of Skadi, once wife to Red Thorkell, then to Halldr Thinshank, now
bound to no man and therefore without protection, was not bitter about her
daughters. Women
had only so much control over their lives. She didn't know how it was
elsewhere. Much the same, she imagined. Bern, her son, ought to have stayed by
her when Halldr died instead of disappearing, but Bern had been turned from a
landowner's heir into a servant by his father's exile, and who could, truly,
blame a young man for rejecting that? She'd
assumed he was dead, after they'd gone looking for him and the horse in the
morning and found neither. Had spent nights mourning, not able to let anyone
see how much she grieved, because of what he'd obviously done, taking the dead
man's funeral horse. Then,
a short while ago, at summer's end, had come tidings that he hadn't died.
They'd stoned the volur for helping Bern Thorkellson get off the isle. Frigga
didn't believe it. It made no sense at all, that tale, but she wasn't about to
say that to anyone. There was no one to whom she could talk. She was alone
here, and still had no true idea if her son was alive. And then,
a few days ago, they had named the new volur. One-handed
Ulfarson, now governor, did the naming, which was a new thing. There were
always new things, weren't there? But the young volur was kin to her,
nearly, and Frigga had offered some small kindnesses when the girl had first
arrived to serve in the women's compound. It seemed now to have been a wise
thing to have done, though that wasn't why she'd done it. A woman's road was
hard, always, stony and bleak. You helped each other, if and when you could.
Her mother had taught her that. She
needed help herself now. It had brought her into the night (windy, not yet
cold) and these whispering fields. She was afraid of animals, and spirits, and
of living men doing what they were likely to do if they had been drinking and
came upon a woman alone. She feared the moment, and what the future held for
her in the world. Frigga
stopped, took a deep breath, looked around her by moonlight, and saw the
boulder. They had done the stoning here. She knew where she was. Another
breath, and a murmured thank-you to the gods. She had been to the women's
compound four times in her life, but the last visit had been twenty years ago,
and she had come by daylight, each time with an offering when she was carrying
a child, and three of her children had lived. Who understood these things? Who
dared say they did? It was Fulla, corn goddess, who decreed what happened to a
woman when her birth pangs came. It made sense to seek intercession. Frigga
moved to the stone. Touched it, murmured the proper words. She
didn't know if what she was doing now could be said to be sensible, but she
was, it seemed, no more willing to be a servant than her son had been—to be
ordered to bed any man-guest at the behest of Thinshank's first wife, the widow
who'd inherited, with her sons. Second
wives had little in the way of rights, unless they'd had time to establish
their ground in the house. Frigga hadn't. She wasn't far, in fact, from being
cast out, with winter coming. She had no property, thanks to Thorkell's second
murder. Nor was she young enough to readily persuade any proper man to take her
to wife. Her breasts were fallen, her hair grey, there were no children left
waiting in her womb. She
had lingered through a spring and summer, endured what she'd known would come
from the day Halldr died, followed by that disastrous funeral: burning him
without the horse, the omen of it, the unquiet spirit. She had hoped troubles
would pass her by, seen they would not, and finally decided to come out
tonight. Much the same path—though she did not know this—her son had taken with
a dead man's horse in the spring. A roll of the gambling dice. Women
were not actually allowed to touch the dice, of course, for fear of putting a
curse on them. She
saw the first trees, and the light, at the same time.
Anrid
wasn't asleep. She hadn't been sleeping since the stoning. The images that came
when she closed her eyes. It was wearing her away. Her elevation to volur hadn't
changed this; it hadn't even been a surprise. She'd seen the unfolding of
events in her mind, as if played out on some raised platform, from the time
she'd gone to the governor. In truth, from the time she'd devised her course of
action after he'd summoned her to come to him. It
had happened as she'd seen it, including the stoning, when she'd worn the
serpent about her body for all of them to see. She
hadn't known this about herself: that anger could make her cause people to die.
But the volur had had the snake bite her before knowing if its
poison was gone. Anrid had been the newest girl, and alone here. Her dying
wouldn't have mattered to anyone in the world. They had made her stand still,
eyes closed in sick terror, and had goaded the released serpent with sticks,
and it had bitten her. Then they'd sent her back out on watch duty, waiting
curiously to see if she died. Anrid had been sick to her stomach in the yard,
and then limped out through the gate to where she was supposed to watch. What
else had there been for her to do? And
that night Bern had come. She'd seen him tie the horse and walk into the
compound, and the volur had arranged to send him to a savage death. No
uncertainty about that one, no testing of poison. He'd enter the town at
sunrise, thinking he was safe, and would be taken and killed. A man who'd come
to the seer for help. She had sheathed him in her wrinkled, dried-out flesh,
deceiving him entirely. Laughed about it after. The crude jibes of the other
old ones, peering through cracks in the wall, complaining they hadn't had their
turn. Anrid,
turning away in disgust to the darkness again, limping, had taken her own first
steps towards the stonings (savage death) later that same night when she spoke
to the man, warning him. Bern Thorkellson was kin to her, almost. She told
herself that now, over and again. You stood by kin in this world because there
was no one else to stand by, or who might ever stand by you. A rule of the
northlands. You died if you were too much alone. But
she saw stones striking flesh whenever she closed her eyes now. When
they knocked at her door and she rose and opened it and they told her a woman
had come, she knew—they would think it was her power—who this had to be, even
before her brother's wife's mother was led to her chamber. It wasn't power, it
was a quick mind. A different sort of mystery; women weren't ever credited with
that. While
she waited, Anrid let the snake coil around her; she did that all the time now.
The serpent had been her doorway to this. It was important that the others see
her handling it, confront their own fear of doing the same. She was still the
newest, still the youngest, and now volur. She needed to find a way to
survive. Volurs could be killed. She knew it. A
knock, the door opened. She gestured for Frigga to enter, closed the door
herself, letting no one else in. She had already blocked up the holes through
which she and the others used to peek. She put the serpent in the basket they'd
made for it. She
hated the snake. Anrid
turned to the older woman, looked at her a moment, opened her mouth to speak,
and began to cry. The tears stunned her with how desperately they fell. Her
hands were shaking. "Oh,
child," said Frigga. Anrid
couldn't stop weeping. You'd have had to kill her to make her stop. "Will
you . . . ?" she began. Choked on her words, tears in her throat. Hands in
trembling fists to her mouth. A shuddering of breath. Tried again. "Will
you stay with me? Please stay?" "Oh,
child. Have you a place for me?" Anrid
could only nod, again and again, a spasm of the head. The older woman, nearly
kin, closest thing she had, came forward and they wrapped each other in arms
that had not known or given comfort for so long. Only
the younger one wept, however. Then, later that night, she slept. TEN Brogan
the miller, awake as usual before dawn, was thinking, as he pissed into the
stream before beginning the day, about some of the things he disliked. It
was a long list. He was a sour, solitary man. Had been drawn to the mill
because it gave him a house at the edge of the village, a place removed from
(and a stature above) the others. He'd murdered someone to get this mill, but
that was an old story and he didn't think or even dream about it often any
more. Brogan didn't really like people. They talked too much, most of them. His
servant was, usefully, a mute. He'd been very happy (briefly) when he'd learned
that Ord, a farmer with fields east of the village, was looking for work for
his youngest son who didn't talk. Brogan had made arrangements to bring the boy
to the mill. He was old enough, a broad-shouldered lad. A straw pallet, food, a
day a week to help his father. Milk and cheese for Brogan in exchange for that
last. And a
decent worker who didn't prattle on when feeding the animals or standing
waist-deep in the stream mending the wheel. Brogan, who had come to the mill as
a worker himself thirty years ago—and taken certain measures a little later to
ensure he'd stay—couldn't understand why people would mar an easy silence with
wasted words. There
were still stars in the west. First hint of greyness east. Dawn wind ruffling
the reeds in the river. Brogan scratched himself and went to unbolt the mill. A
warm day coming. Still summertime, though late in the season, with what that
meant. Brogan
didn't like the new end-of-summer fair, third year now. The road west of their
hamlet towards the river (of which the millstream was a tributary) became too
busy. Steady traffic from coast to Esferth and then back, afterwards. People
on roads signified trouble for Brogan the miller. Nothing good about them at
all. Strangers stole things, came looking for women or drink, or just mischief
to make or find. Brogan had coins buried in three places around the mill. Would
have spent some of them by now, but he'd never wanted anything enough to spend
good money on it. A woman, now and again, but you could buy one of those for
grain, and many of the farmers paid him with flour and wheels of bread. More
than he needed. He left his money buried, but worried about it. Long ago, he'd
lain awake wondering if someone would find the old miller in his grave, dig him
up, see the crushed skull. Now it was the coins that woke him sometimes in the
dark. All over the world men knew that millers made money. He
had three dogs. Didn't like them, their barking, but they offered protection.
And Modig, the mute, was a good-sized lad, handy with a cudgel. Brogan himself
wasn't a big man, but he'd survived a fight or two in his day. He'd
considered taking a wife, some time ago. Children to do the work as he grew
older. The idea had come, lingered a while, and passed: women changed things,
and Brogan the miller didn't like change. That was the principal reason he
didn't like the king. Even after all these years, Aeldred was always changing
things. You had to make bows and arrows for yourself now, or buy them, and you
were supposed to practise every week, and be tested by someone from the fyrd
each spring. Didn't they have other things to do, the fyrd? Farmers
with bows: that was a stupid, dangerous thought. They'd kill each other before
the Erlings had a chance. It
was dark in the mill, but after so many years he knew his way blind. He opened
the shutters over the stream, to let in some light and air. Went down the
steps, heard the mice skitter from his footfall. He lifted the lock to the
sluice, gripped with both hands, put his back to it, and pulled back the chute
gate. The water started pouring in. Soon the familiar sounds of the turning
wheel and millstones grinding above began. He went back up, took the first
sack, opened it, dumped it into the hopper above the turning stones. Through
the open window the eastern sky showed brighter. The first women and children
would be coming for their flour after sunrise, most of them straight from the
dawn prayers in the small chapel. Brogan
was still thinking about changes as he checked the millstones, which were
turning easily. A new cleric in the village now. This one could read and write,
was supposed to be teaching people. There were new rules for military service,
new taxes for the building of the burhs. Yes, the burhs were
supposed to protect them, but Brogan doubted a walled fort at Drengest south
and east on the coast, or the other one inland two days east, would do much
good for their hamlet or his mill if trouble came. And reading? Reading? What
in the name of Jad's toes and fingers did that have to do with anything? Might
be well enough for a soft man at court where they ate with ale-soddened
musicians piping and warbling to spoil good meat. But here? In a farming
village? Modig would do so much better mending the fence or the water-wheel
once he could spell his name! Brogan turned his head to spit expertly out the
window into the stream. The
new cleric had called shortly after arriving. Fair enough: the mill was owned
by the chapel and the miller together. That was why Brogan was miller, really.
When the old one had come to his unexpected end (a sudden fever in midsummer,
taken in the one night, buried sadly by his servant at dawn), it had made sense
for the cleric to strike a bargain with the dour young man after the funeral
rites. The miller's assistant, Brogan by name, had seemed to know what he was
doing, and the village couldn't afford to have the mill idle while they
considered who should have the position. It was a stroke of good fortune for
the young fellow, obviously, but Jad could sometimes bestow generously where
you might not have expected it. Thirty
years later, this newest cleric (fifth one Brogan had worked with) had looked
around the mill in a cursory sort of way, clearly uninterested in what he saw,
and then, growing enthusiastic, had asked Brogan about installing one of the
newer-styled vertical wheels. He'd read a letter from a fellow cleric in
Ferrieres about them, he said. More power, a better use of the river. Changes,
again. Ferrieres. Brogan, wasting more words than he'd wanted to, had explained
about the flow of their small stream, the limited needs of the hamlet, and the
cost of having a vertical wheel built and attached. It
was that last, he was sure, that had induced the cleric to nod sagely, stroke a
weak, beardless chin, and agree that the simpler ways were often best,
fulfilling the god's purposes entirely well. They
left the horizontal wheel alone. Brogan took the chapel's share of the mill's
earnings (in coin or kind) to them every second week. He was prompt about that
sort of thing; it kept people from coming round and talking. He
did hold back a slightly higher portion for himself. If you set that up from
the outset, they were unlikely to have questions. He'd been through this before.
The cleric had asked about written records on that first visit, Brogan had
explained he didn't know how to write. He'd declined an offer of reading
lessons. Leave it to the young ones, he'd said. People
were always wanting to change things. Brogan couldn't understand it. Change was
going to come, why hurry it along? The king had even sent around new
instructions for farmers at the end of this past winter, with the archers from
the fyrd, on how to properly handle their fields. Alternating crops.
What to grow. As if anyone at court knew anything about farming. Brogan had
never been near the king's court (only twice up to Esferth town, which was
twice more than enough) but he knew what he thought of it. You didn't need to
eat dung to know you wouldn't like the taste. He
leaned out the window and looked upstream to his right. Modig had fed the
chickens, was at work in the herb and vegetable garden. A virtue to having a
farmer's son here: the garden was looking better than it had in years. Brogan
wasn't fussy about what he ate, but he liked turnips and parsnips with his
bread and broth and fish, and a decent seasoning as much as the next man, and
Modig had a way with the garden. Of course, thought the miller sourly, if he'd
had counsel from the courtiers on what seedlings and how much dung to use, it
would doubtless be far better. He
spat again into the stream below, saw the pale harbinger of sunrise in the
east, and muttered his customary two-sentence version of the rites. His own
idea of Jad was not of a god who needed a lot of words. You acknowledged him,
gave thanks, and got on with what you had to do. And it didn't need to be done
in a chapel. You could pray in a mill over water, gazing out at the fields. Gazing
out at the fields, Brogan the miller saw—in the last near-darkness of a summer
night—twenty men or more downstream from him, kneeling beside the water or
knee-deep in it, drinking and filling flasks. He
drew his head back quickly, because he saw that they carried weapons. Weapons
meant—since they were being quiet and were nowhere near the north-south
road—that these were outlaws, or even Erlings, and not simply passing by on
their way to trade peacefully at the Esferth fair. Brogan swallowed, his palms
suddenly sweaty, scalp prickling. He thought of his coins buried in the yard
and just outside it. He thought of death. Armed men across the stream. A large
number of men. Not,
in the event, large enough. From
the north, Brogan suddenly heard a dog. His heart lurched. It was a deep,
fierce, triumphant howl; not one of his own dogs, though they immediately
started their own wild barking in the fenced yard. He looked out, carefully.
The men in the stream had begun scrambling from the water, splashing,
stumbling, unsheathing swords. They formed, at a shouted string of commands, a
tight, disciplined order and began running south. They were
Erlings, then. The language gave it away, and no outlaws would be nearly so
precise in their formation and movements. Brogan leaned out, looking past where
Modig had now stopped working in the garden and was standing rigid, also
watching. That howling came again, a sound he would remember. Wouldn't ever
want to be hunted by that. Brogan heard hoofbeats and shouting over the barking
of his own dogs, and into his field of vision, streaming down from the north,
came a galloping company, swords drawn, spears out, hurtling through the
stream. In
the pre-dawn light he saw a banner, and Brogan the miller understood that this
was the king's fyrd, and that they had seen the Erlings and were going
to catch up to them just across the water from his mill. His heart was pounding
as if he, too, were running or riding. He had been expecting, moments ago, to
be killed here, fingers broken one by one—or worse things—until he told where
his money was. The nightmare that came in his sleep. Leaning
out, he saw the Erlings turn to face the horsemen bearing swiftly down upon
them. He didn't like King Aeldred, all his changes, the new taxes levied to
support fyrd and forts, but at this particular moment, watching those
horsemen surround the Erlings, such feelings were . . . suspended. Brogan
left the mill, went out the door, walked down to the stream. Modig, holding a
spade, opened the garden gate and came over, stood beside him. The dogs were
still barking. Brogan snapped a command over his shoulder and they stopped. There
was a grey mist on the millstream, rising. Through it, as the pale sun came up,
they watched what happened in the meadow on the other side. The millwheel
turned. + It
occurred to Alun at some point during the night ride south that he was
surrounded now by Anglcyn warriors, who had traditionally been his enemies,
racing to intercept Erlings, who were enemies as well. One of Athelbert's
archers had given him a sword and belt, at the prince's command. You could name
it a friend's gesture. You had to, really. For
the Cyngael, he thought, friends were hard to come by in the world. And that,
if you stopped to think about it, really did make the feuds between Arberth and
Cadyr and Llywerth harder to justify. That wasn't something people did think
about, though, west of the Rheden Wall. Their endless internal warring was .. .
the way things were. The three provinces raided and goaded each other, fought
for primacy, always had. His father, Alun knew, would have preferred stealing a
herd of cattle from an arrogant Arberthi and hearing his bard sing about it
after, to any foray across the Wall into Rheden, or even mauling Erling
raiders. Though
that last might not be true any more, not since Dai was killed. He couldn't be
sure, but he thought his father had changed through the spring and summer. Alun
was aware of changes within himself, shaped around loss and what he'd seen in
that pool by Brynnfell. He didn't know where the changes had taken him, but he
knew they were there. He
wasn't sure exactly where he was right now, galloping south-east between copses
of trees, but he did know—or believe—that the man who'd led the raid that
killed his brother was somewhere ahead of them. Ivarr Ragnarson had eluded pursuit
near Brynnfell, fled to his ships and away—and had now killed a good man here.
He needed to die. It was . . . important he be killed. If
you stopped to think about it. There
was no time to stop tonight—two short rests allowed by the king, no more than a
pause to drink at streams, fill flasks, then riding again—but he had plenty of
time to think under the summer stars as the blue moon westered through clouds
and went down behind the woods. There were riders all around him, but their
faces—and his—were shielded from scrutiny. The shelter of darkness, the .. .
need for it. And with that, the memory came back to him, inescapable, who had
said exactly that, and when: Needful as night. Rhiannon
mer Brynn, clad in green at her father's table, the night his brother had died
and had his soul stolen away. He realized he hadn't let himself think about
her, those words, his own song, since then, as if flinching from too fiercely
bright a fire. Do you hate me so much, my lord? Alun
looked over towards the woods. More darkness, blurred in distance, the river
somewhere between. He thought of the faerie, her hair changing colour, the
light she'd made, and he began to wonder, riding, exactly what the world was,
how it was crafted, how he'd make his own peace with Jad . . . and the high
cleric on the horse ahead of him, beside King Aeldred. He
didn't know if he felt older now, or younger because less sure of things, but
he did understand that everything had altered and could not be remade as it had
been before. The speed of things for you, the faerie had said. He didn't
even have a name for her. Did they have names? He hadn't thought to ask before
stumbling out of the wood. He had been afraid, as he'd left the trees,
wondering if he would come out into different moonlight and find his world
gone. Instead,
he'd found an Anglcyn princess, inexplicably, waiting there for him. I
am only this far. As if she'd known
of his fear, what he was feeling. No distance at all, just across a quiet
stream. The world still his, not altered, yet changed in every way. Her being
there another thing to think about, try to understand. He shook his head. There
were only so many images, memories, you could deal with at once, Alun decided,
before you had to look away. And
then, as the night ended, all changed again. Thinking
back, afterwards, he realized he oughtn't to have been so surprised that they
found the Erlings. For one thing, the fyrd knew this land as well as he
and his brother had known the valleys and fells of Cadyr, every tuck and fold
of their province recorded on a mental map, down to the shepherds' huts and the
farms where daughters might be willing to rise from their beds, wrapped in a
shawl, and come out into the dark, soft and warm, to a known whisper at a night
window. They
had been riding along the route that made sense for intercepting a party on
foot. The Erlings would be running towards where their ships would have
anchored, between the burh at Drengest and the steep coastline farther
west where they couldn't come ashore. You could figure these things out if you
knew where you were and the land around you. Copses and rivers, slopes and
hamlets. Aeldred and his fyrd would know them all: the places where the
Erlings who'd killed Burgred of Denforth would be unable to pass, and the ones
they'd try to avoid. They might miss the Erlings in darkness or mist, but
they'd find their path. And
they had Cafall with them. The
dog was the part of this night that neither Alun nor Ceinion, and certainly
none of the Anglcyns, had thought about. But it was Cafall—hunting dog, Brynn's
gift—who howled, a wild sound that could terrify and appall, as they approached
a stream in the grey before sunrise. Alun's heart began pounding. Someone near
the front raised an arm and pointed, shouting. It was Athelbert, he saw. They
had been intending to pray here, dismount long enough to perform the dawn rites
on the riverbank. Instead, they thundered across, west of a village mill,
splashing through water, weapons out, and they came up to the Erlings, who were
on foot, and surrounded them in a green meadow as the sun came up. + There
were too many people living here now, too many towns, too many burhs with
fighting men inside them. Guthrum Skallson, running with fewer than twenty men
(five had taken the horses to the ships with a warning, to bring forty of them
back), had seen a hill fire burning, and then another to the north, a little
later, and had realized that they were in even more danger than he'd thought.
They'd run all through the night. He
couldn't say he was surprised when they were found. They'd have taken a
different route if the woods and treed slopes had allowed. But they didn't know
these lands, and the best he could do was go back west along the same path
they'd taken and hope they met their reinforcements before they were
intercepted. It
hadn't happened. He hadn't expected those hilltop flares in the dark, the speed
of the Anglcyn response. He'd thought they had a decent chance, that he'd been
in worse trouble over the years. Then a dog howled as dawn broke, and the fyrd
was there. He
had the men circle in the meadow as the Anglcyn riders thundered across the
stream. No point running, these were mounted men. He saw the banners in the
pale light and under-stood that King Aeldred hadn't just sent his warriors, he
had come himself. They were taken. It
had happened before. There were resources in Jormsvik, Ingavin knew. They could
be bought back, for a price and promises. Likely some of them would be hostages
for a time. Likely Guthrum would be one of those. He cursed, under his breath. He
had eighteen men; there appeared to be close to two hundred surrounding them,
mounted. He wasn't a berserkir, he was a mercenary, hired. This wasn't
war. He let fall his sword, held up open hands. Stepped forward, that the
Anglcyn king might know who led this party. "How
many men did Burgred take south with him?" A man
with a grey beard spoke, in Anglcyn, but not to Guthrum. He understood the
words, though; the languages were near enough. "Six,
including himself," said a younger man on a brown horse beside the
speaker. "Shoot
six," said the bearded man, who would be Aeldred of the Anglcyn. "Not
that one." He pointed to Guthrum. The
younger one spoke. Six arrows flew. Six of Guthrum's men—who had lain down
their weapons when he had—fell into the grass. Guthrum
did not fear death. No mercenary could fight as many battles as he had over so
many years and live with fear. He didn't want to die, however. He liked
ale and women, battle and comrades, peril and hardship and ease after. The
trappings of a warrior in this middle-world. He
said, "None of them killed your earl. None of them would have." "Indeed,"
said the king on the horse in front of him. "So Burgred lives, is coming
home even now?" Guthrum
met that gaze. No Erling ought to cower before these people. "We do not
use arrows in Jormsvik." "Ah.
So no arrow killed him. Our tidings are false? Good. None will have killed your
fellows, if so." Thought
he was clever, this king. Guthrum had heard that of him. Problem was, he was
clever. In too many ways. Raiding had become impossible here. This journey
had been a mistake from the moment they took Ivarr's money and set sail. Ivarr.
Guthrum looked around. Someone—a
younger man, smaller, sitting an Erling horse—had come forward beside the king.
He looked down at Guthrum. "Ragnarson was with you?" Spoke
Anglcyn, but you could tell a Cyngael the moment he opened his mouth. How could
he know about Ivarr, though? Guthrum considered for a moment, thinking fast,
keeping silent. "Shoot
another, Athelbert," said the king. They
shot another. Atli, this time. Guthrum
had come to Jormsvik's walls with Atli Bjarkson fifteen years ago. Walking to
the fortress together from homes in the north, meeting on the road, winning
their fights on the same morning, joining the same company. A never-forgotten
day. The day that split your life into before and after. Guthrum looked down
into the grass now in a morning's first light, far from Vinmark, and he spoke
the farewell aloud, invoking Ingavin's welcome for a friend in the warriors'
halls. Then he turned back to the mounted men surrounding them. "You
were asked a question," said King Aeldred. His voice was calm, flat, but
there was no way to mistake the rage in him. This might not be a hostage and
ransom circumstance, after all. And Guthrum had men here for whom he was
responsible. "We
have surrendered our arms," he said. "And
will you tell me Burgred did not when you found them? When you put an arrow in
him?" "How
do you know about that?" "Athelbert.
One more, please." "Wait!"
Guthrum lifted an urgent hand. The
prince named Athelbert, more slowly, did the same. No arrow was loosed. Guthrum
swallowed, looking up at the Anglcyn, a black rage in his own heart. He could
crush any of these in battle, any two of them; he and Atli could have handled
half a dozen. "However
you know this," he said, "you are right. Ivarr Ragnarson paid for
this raid, and killed the earl. Against my orders and wishes. Do you think we
are fools?" He heard the passion in his own voice, moved to master it. "I
think you are, yes, but would not have thought so in that way. Mercenaries
killing a nobleman taken. Where is he, then? This Ragnarson?" There was
contempt in the voice. Guthrum could hear it. He
would have said he despised Ivarr Ragnarson at least as much as those
surrounding them did. He felt no loyalty to him at all. Had been on the edge of
killing the man himself. And had that last Anglcyn bowshot taken any man there
but Atli, he would likely have pointed back to the stream where Ivarr had
obviously remained hidden when they fled. One life surrendered, to save those
in his charge. A fair and proper deed. The
flow of time and events is a large river; men and women are usually no more
than pebbles in that, carried along. But sometimes, at some moments, they are
more. Sometimes the course of the stream is changed, not just for a few people
but for many. They
shouldn't have killed Atli, Guthrum
Skallson thought, standing in a meadow surrounded by his enemies. Our
weapons were in the grass. We had yielded ourselves. "We
took five horses," he said. "I sent riders back to the ships." Aeldred
stared down at him for a long time. The arrogance of it was as wormwood, gall,
bitterest taste he knew: as if a woman were looking at him this way. Scarcely
to be borne. "Yes,"
the king said, finally, "you will have done that. And asked for
reinforcements to meet you. A ship's worth? Very well. They will be dealt with
next. You have all made a terrible mistake. Jad knows, I have no need or desire
of ransom for any of you at all. My need, just now, is otherwise.
Athelbert." "My
lord!" began another, older
man. Another Cyngael. "They have laid down—" "No
words, Ceinion!" said the king of the Anglcyn. He
had spared the life of the man who'd blood-eagled his father. Everyone in the
northlands knew the tale. He wasn't doing so now. Aeldred turned away,
indifferently, as arrows were notched. Guthrum
nearly got to him. You
didn't let yourself die helplessly in a morning field like a target set up for
womanish Anglcyn who dared not fight you properly. Not if you were an Erling
and a warrior. He was actually at the king's reins, reaching up, when the sword
took him in the throat. It was the young Cyngael who had moved fastest, Guthrum
saw with his last sight. He
was dying on his feet, though, in battle, as was proper. The gods loved their
warriors, their blood, the dragon-ships, red blades, ravens and eagles called
you home to halls where mead flowed freely and forever. The
sun was up, but he couldn't see it, suddenly. There was a long white wave. He
named Ingavin and Thьnir, and went to them. + Expressionless,
though with his heart beating fast, Brogan the miller stood by the stream and
watched his king and warriors kill the Erlings in the meadow. Fifteen
or twenty of them. No hostages, none spared. There was no ferocity or passion
in the dispatch of the raiders. They were just . . . dealt with. For more than
a hundred years the Anglcyn had lived in terror of these raiders from the sea
in their dragon-ships. Now the Erlings were being killed like so many ragged
outlaws. He
decided, just then, that he liked King Aeldred after all. And watching the
arrows fly, he came also to a reconsideration of his views on the subject of
archery. Beside him, Modig stood gripping his spade, his mouth hanging open. The fyrd
turned to ride south. As they did, one rider peeled off from the others and
came over towards the mill and stream where the two men were. Brogan felt a
flicker of apprehension, made himself be calm. These were his defenders, his
king. "You
live here?" the mounted man snapped, reining his mount on the other side
of the river. "You are the miller?" Brogan
touched a hand to his forehead and nodded. "Yes, my lord." "Find
villagers, farmers, whatever you can. Have these bodies burned before sundown.
You yourself are in charge of collecting weapons and armour. Keep them in the
mill. There are eighteen Erlings. All were armed in the usual ways. We have a
good idea of what should be here when we come back. If anyone steals, there
will be executions. We won't stop to ask questions. Understood?" Brogan
nodded again, and swallowed hard. "Make
certain the others here do." The
rider wheeled and set off, galloping now, to catch up with the fyrd. Brogan
watched him go, a graceful figure in morning light. In the meadow, not far
away, lay a number of dead men. Eighteen, the rider had said. His burden now.
He cursed himself for coming out to watch. Spat into the stream. It was going
to be very hard to stop poor men from stealing knives or rings. Surely
the fyrd wouldn't begrudge—or be able to track—a stray torc or necklace,
would they? It
occurred to him that he and Modig might be able to gather most of the arms and
store them before anyone else No,
that wouldn't work. The women would be here soon, for their flour. They would
see what had happened. It was impossible to miss: Brogan saw birds already
gathering where the bodies lay. He grimaced. This was going to be difficult. He
suffered a reversion of his thoughts about king and fyrd. The lords were
trouble, whenever they came, whenever they noticed you. He ought to have stayed
inside. He was turning to Modig, to tell him to make a start, at least, but
found his right arm gripped fiercely by his servant. Modig
pointed. Brogan saw a man emerge from the stream to their left—a pale, small
figure for an Erling, he would say, later—and begin to run south. He was well
behind the fyrd, which was almost out of sight. Certainly they were too
far away for any call or cry to summon them back to take this last Erling,
who'd kept himself hidden, apart from the rest. They'd have to let him go,
Brogan thought. Not that he'd get far, alone. Modig
made a sound deep in his chest. He plunged into the stream, splashing through
it, then began running, spade in hand. "Stop!" cried Brogan.
"Don't be a fool!" The
Erling was moving fast, but so was young Modig, chasing him. Far away, the dust
of the king's men could be seen. Brogan watched the two running men till they
were out of sight. Later
that morning he assembled the villagers to gather the weapons and armour—and
the rings and arm torcs and belts and boots and brooches and necklaces—of the
Erlings. The children ran about, chasing away the birds. Brogan made it very
clear, talking more than anyone could remember, that the fyrd was coming
back, and that death had been promised to anyone known to have taken anything. The
presence of eighteen dead raiders, the shock of them, meant that no one did try
to palm or pocket a thing, so far as Brogan could tell. They carried the gear
in relays across the water to the mill, piled it in his smaller storeroom.
Brogan locked the door, hung the key on his belt. He
picked out only two rings for himself, and a golden torc in the shape of a
dragon devouring its own tail. Added three other pieces of jewellery after,
when most of the others had gone to bring wood and the two who had stayed
behind with him, as guards, were drowsing under the willow by the stream. It
was a warm day. Across the water boys were throwing stones at birds and wild
dogs near the eighteen dead men. It
was two of the boys who found the body of Modig, the son of Ord, shortly after
midday, a little distance to the south. His ears and nose had been hacked off,
and his tongue. That last, Brogan the miller thought, was a sad and vicious
thing. He was angry. He'd found a perfect servant, finally, and the young fool
had gone and gotten himself killed. Life
was an ambush, Brogan thought bitterly, a series of them. Over and over till
you died. Later
in the day the villagers began streaming back with armloads and carts of wood,
and the cleric. Their women came, too, and all but the youngest children. This
was a great event, something unimaginable, never to be forgotten. The king had
been here himself, had saved them from Erling raiders, slain them all, right
beside the millstream. Their millstream. A tale for the colder nights to come
and the long years. Babies not yet born would hear this story, be led to the
place where it had happened. The
new cleric spoke under the open sky, invoking Jad's power and mercy, then they
lit the pyre, using wood that had been gathered for winter hearths, and they
burned the Erlings in the field where they'd died. After,
they dug a grave and buried Modig by the stream and prayed that he might go
home to the god, in light. +
In a
mist before dawn, some distance west, Bern Thorkellson dismounted to relieve
himself in a gully. His first halt since leaving his father outside Esferth. He
had spent what remained of the night riding very fast, trying to take his mind
from that impossible encounter. What was it the gods were doing with their
mortal children? You took a horse across black, frozen waters and lived, fought
your way into Jormsvik, went on a raid in Anglcyn lands . . . and were rescued
by your father. Twice. Your
accursed father, whose murders were the reason for all of this. For everything
that had happened. And he simply showed up where you were—on the other side of
the sea—and knocked you out in an alley and somehow carried you outside the
walls and then came back to warn you, and order you on your way. It was all . .
. hugely difficult. Bern could not have said that much about the world seemed
clear to him that night. He
had just finished retying his trousers when a man and woman sat up from a hollow
in the ground and stared at him, a handful of paces away. This,
at least, was clear enough. They
stood. It was still quite dark, mist around them, rising off the fields. Their
clothing and hair were disordered; it was evident what they'd been doing. The
same thing young men and women did in meadows all over the world on a summer
night. Bern had done it on the isle, in better days. He
drew his sword. "Lie down again," he said quietly. His own language,
but they'd understand him. "And no one is hurt." "You're
an Erling!" the young man said, too loudly. "What are you doing here
with a blade?" "My
own business. Attend to yours. Lie down again with her." "Rot
that," said the man, who was broad-shouldered, long-limbed. "My
father's the reeve here. Strangers declare themselves when they come by." "Are
you a fool?" Bern asked, calmly enough, he'd have thought. It
was because he was with his girl, Bern later decided, that the Anglcyn did what
he did. He reached down, grabbed a thick staff he'd have carried out with him
for protection from animals, and stepped forward, swinging it at Bern's head. The
woman cried out. Bern dropped to a knee, heard the whistle of the staff. He
rose and levelled a short backhand slash with his sword to the man's right arm,
at the elbow. He felt it hit hard, but not bite. He'd
used the flat of his blade. Couldn't
have said why. A memory of summer fields with a girl? Stupidity such as this
man's didn't deserve to be indulged or rewarded. The Anglcyn ought to have lost
an arm, his life. Didn't the fool know how the world worked? You met a mounted
man with a sword, you did what he instructed you, and prayed, urgently, that
you'd live to tell about it. The
staff had fallen to the grass. The Anglcyn's good hand clutched at his elbow.
Bern couldn't see his eyes in the darkness. "Don't kill us!" the girl
said, her first words. Bern
looked at her. "I hadn't intended to," he said. She had fair hair,
was tall. It was hard to make out more. "I told you to lie down. Do it
now. Though if you let this idiot between your legs again you're as much a fool
as he is." The
girl's mouth opened. She stared at him, for longer than he'd have expected.
Then she reached out and pulled the man down beside her into the hollow again,
where they'd been warm together moments ago, young and in summertime. "Honour
your god in the morning," Bern said, looking down at them. He wasn't sure
why he'd said that, either. He
went back to Gyllir and rode away. In
the hollow behind him, Druce, the son of Finan who was indeed king's reeve of
the lands thereabouts, began swearing viciously, though under his breath, in
case. Cwene,
the baker's daughter, put a hand to his mouth. "Hush. Does it hurt?"
she whispered. "Of
course it hurts," he snarled. "He broke my arm." She
was clever, understood that his pride was wounded as well, after being so
easily subdued in front of her. "He
had a sword," she said. "There was naught you could do. I thought you
were very brave." She
thought he'd been a reckless imbecile. She was aware that they ought to have
died here. Druce's arm should have been severed, not bruised or broken, by that
sword. The Erling could have done anything he wanted to her, after, anything at
all, then left them dead in the tall grass with no one ever to know exactly
what had happened. She said nothing more, lay there beside Druce,
looking up at the last stars as blackness became grey, feeling the breeze that
blew. Eventually
they made their way back towards the village, separated in the usual way, went
to their homes. Cwene slipped into the house the way she'd come out, through
the door that connected to the animal shed. Familiar smells, sounds, everything
changed, forever. She should have died in the field. Each breath she took now,
for the rest of her days .. . She
got into bed beside her sister, who stirred but did not wake. Cwene didn't
sleep. It was too near to morning. She lay there thinking, revisiting what had
happened. Her heart was pounding, though she was in bed at home now. She began
to weep, silently. Three
months later, in autumn, the baker beat her until she named the reeve's son as
the father of the child she was carrying. At that point her father became
mightily pleased (it was a very good match) and carried his anger across the
village to the reeve's door. The
baker was a large man himself, and not inconsequential. She and Druce were wed
before winter. They had two more children before he was killed by someone who
didn't want to pay his taxes, or lose his farm. Cwene married twice more;
outlived them both. Five children survived childhood, including the daughter
conceived in the meadow that summer night. Cwene
had dreams, all her life, of the moment in darkness when an Erling had come
upon them, a creature out of nightmare, and had gone away, leaving them their
lives as a gift to use or throw away. We
like to believe we can know the moments we'll remember of our own days and
nights, but it isn't really so. The future is an uncertain shape (in the dark)
and men and women know that. What is less surely understood is that this is
true of the past as well. What lingers, or comes back unsummoned, is not always
what we would expect, or desire to keep with us. It
was late in a long life, and three husbands had been laid in the earth, before
Cwene realized—and acknowledged to herself—that what she had wanted to do, more
than anything before or since, was ride away from her home and everyone she
knew in the world with that Erling on his grey horse that night long ago. The
clever girl had become a wise woman through the turning years; she forgave
herself for that longing before she died.
Riding
south, Bern was increasingly aware of hunger—he hadn't eaten since late the day
before—but he was also conscious of a cold, steady fear in his gut, and he
didn't let Gyllir slow as the sun rose, climbing the summer sky. He felt
appallingly exposed here in these flat lands running to the sea, knowing the fyrd
was abroad and looking for Erlings with vengeance in mind. The
Anglcyn worshipped a god of the sun: would that make a difference? Would it
help them, under so much summer light? He had never thought such a thing
before, and he didn't much like thinking about it now, but he'd never been
among Jaddites, either. Rabady Isle seemed very far away; their farm at the
village edge, even the straw in the barn behind Arni Kjellson's house. He kept
glancing around as he rode, an unceasing sweep of the wide lands to his left. The
signal flares had been farther east, and Aeldred's course had lain on the far
side of the river—to begin with. There was nothing to say the king hadn't split
his riders in the night, sending some of them this way. Bern, feeling more
alone than he had since the night he'd left the isle with Halldr's horse, had a
painful sense that the king's men would be very good at knowing where the
Jormsvik ships might be. Gyllir
was tired, but there was no help for that. He leaned forward, slapped the
horse's neck, spoke to it as a friend. They had to keep moving. For one thing,
his might be the only alert the others could get. They had to have five ships
offshore before two hundred men came sweeping down upon them. The gods knew, the
men of Jormsvik could fight. It might be a close battle if the fyrd came.
They could easily win it, but if enough of them died, or if the ships were
damaged, there was no meaning to such a victory. Glorious or not, they'd die in
these Anglcyn lands when Esferth and the accursed burhs Aeldred had
built sent out the next waves of men. He wasn't quite ready, Bern realized, to
go to Ingavin's halls. He
looked east again, no longer into the too-bright sun. Past midday now, the mist
had long since burnt away. No hilltop signal fires in this bright daylight. A
beautiful afternoon. Birdsong from the forest west, a hawk overhead, circling. He
had no idea what was happening elsewhere. Could only hasten to the sea. His
father had done this too, Bern thought suddenly. Had done more, in fact; that
journey alone across the Wall and the breadth of the Anglcyn lands, when he'd
escaped from the Cyngael after the Volgan died. And now Thorkell was back here.
Had even been among the Cyngael again, taken by them a second time. Bern wanted
to think of something derisive but couldn't. I
got you out of a walled city. Think on it. The
quiet, assured voice. And a blow to the head when he'd spoken too fast, as if
Bern were still a boy on Rabady. But his father had known about Ivarr, had
guessed what Ragnarson would say. How did he always know? He cursed Thorkell,
as he had so many times since his father's exile, but without fever or fire now.
He was too tired, had too many things to think about. He was hungry and afraid.
He looked left again, and behind him. Nothing there, a shimmer of heat coming
off the ripening fields. Gyllir would have to drink soon. He needed water
himself. Not quite yet, he decided. It was too exposed where they were right
now. He
didn't recognize the landscape nearly well enough, couldn't tell how far he had
yet to ride, though they'd come this way going north to Esferth, he and Ecca,
on the other side of the river. There had been a number of people on that road,
heading for a royal fair the Erlings hadn't known about. Third year of the
fair, someone told them. They hadn't been hiding on the way north, had
pretended to be traders. They'd carried sacks on the horses, purporting to hold
the goods they'd trade. Ecca's anger had begun on the road, with what they'd
heard. If this was the third year of a summer fair, then any tale they'd been
told about Esferth being empty was hollow as an emptied ale cask. Ivarr
Ragnarson, he'd said to Bern, was either a fool or a serpent, and he suspected
the latter. Bern
hadn't paid enough attention on that ride and was suffering for it now; all the
endless shallow dips and folds, up and down, up and down, looked exactly the
same. The farmland across the river seemed an unimaginable expanse of fertile
soil to someone raised on Rabady Isle's stony ground. He
turned in the saddle to look back again. A constant fear of pursuers behind
him. The farms began just across the river; anyone in the near fields could see
him, a single horseman passing between river and wood. Not alarming in itself,
unless they were close enough to see what he was. The
trees on his right were dark, no tracks or paths into them. Sunlight would fail
here. There were woods like this in Vinmark. Untamed, unbroken, stretching
forever; gods and beasts within them. This forest would be pretty much
impenetrable, he guessed, wild and dangerous, an unbroken density of oak and
ash, alder and thorn, marching west to the Cyngael lands. Ecca had said that on
the way. A better wall than the Wall was the saying. And the woods went
right down to cliffs above the strait. They'd seen those cliffs from the ships. The
Anglcyn would know all this far better than he did. They'd know the Erling ships
had to be east of those sheer bluffs, in one shallow bay or another. They
were. There weren't so many choices and they hadn't been overly subtle about
choosing one. Too many mistakes on this end-of-summer raid. Ivarr Ragnarson's
raid. They'd anchored, taken hasty counsel, sent Bern and Ecca north to look at
Esferth. Ecca had done this many times, knew what he was about, and Bern had a
young, reassuring countenance. Brand Leofson had also agreed to let Guthrum and
Atli lead a small sweep east, to see what they could find or take while they
waited for the report from Esferth, and Ivarr had gone with them. Bern
was the report from Esferth now. Ivarr
Ragnarson would kill him, Thorkell had said, if he learned who Bern's father
was. Suddenly, and much too late, Bern understood. Think the rest of it out
while you ride, he'd been told. And, He wants to go back west. Back
west. Ivarr had just been there, then. In the Cyngael lands. And
Thorkell had been with him. That was how his father knew what had
happened. And about poisoned arrows. Something had happened there . . .
Thorkell had been taken again. Or else .. . There
was never enough time to think things through. The world didn't seem to work
that way. Maybe for women weaving and spinning, maybe for Jaddite clerics in
their isolated retreats, waking in the night to pray for the sun. But not for a
bound servant on Rabady Isle, or a Jormsvik mercenary, either. Riding towards
another gentle, grassy rise, almost identical to the one before and the one
before that, Bern heard the sounds of battle ahead of him, across the river.
The
riders Guthrum Skallson had sent made it back to the ships early in the
morning. The help Guthrum requested was dispatched without hesitation by Brand,
who was commanding the raid. You didn't leave men behind. It was one of the
things that marked Jormsvik. The
riders had spoken feverishly, interrupting each other, more unsettled than
raiders ought to be. They told of a clash between Guthrum and Ivarr Ragnarson
over the death of an Anglcyn earl. Brand shrugged, hearing of it. These things
happened. He'd have sided with Guthrum--earls were worth a great deal, unless
out of favour—but sometimes, he had to admit, you just needed to kill someone,
especially if it hadn't happened in a long time. That came with the way they
lived, with the dragon-ships, with the eagles of Ingavin. And he knew for a
fact that Guthrum Skallson had done his share of killing prisoners over the
years. They'd sort this when everyone got back. Forty
mercenaries ought to have been more than enough to meet and protect Guthrum and
Atli's small party from any likely Anglcyn response, fight their way back to
the ships if they did encounter anyone. Brand ordered three ships offshore, to
be safe, left two anchored in the shallows, lightly manned, for the returning
parties to board and row. He
was being prudent, but was not alarmed. Shore parties met people, incidents
happened, sometimes deaths. This was a raid, wasn't it? What did people expect?
Jormsvik had been doing this, over the known world, for a long time. Erlings
had been coming in longships to these shores for more than a hundred years.
Yes, the Anglcyn lands had become harder to raid over the last while, but that
had happened at times, too. There were always other places. Three ships had
gone last spring out through the straits and down the sea lanes to Al-Rassan,
to raid and run before the khalif's men could be there with their curved swords
and bows. That would have been a fight to be part of, Brand had thought,
hearing the tale. He wanted to go there, see for himself. There was, word had
it, wealth beyond description among those desert-born star-worshippers. He
wanted to see their women, behind the veils they wore. It
was the life he knew, raiding. The northlands offered no refuge for anyone.
Vinmark was a hard place, sent forth hard men. And how else could a man of
spirit make his fortune, claim a place by winter hearths and in the skalds'
songs, and then the gods' meadhalls? It wasn't as if every man could fish, or
find land to farm, or make ale or barrels for ale. It wasn't as if every man
wanted to. You
hoped that if you killed someone on a raid you gained something from it, and if
some of your own died, that you'd taken even more, to compensate. Then you
sacrificed to Ingavin and Thьnir, and rowed back out to sea if you had to, or
pushed forward inland, depending on where you were and what you were facing.
Brand had lost count of the number of times he'd had decisions like this to
make. They
had five fully manned ships here, allowing room for horses. Five ships was a
large group. This incident might even be useful before it ended, Brand
thought. Forty Jormsvik fighters could overwhelm any hasty Anglcyn pursuit of
Guthrum from a burh; take the leaders hostage—for security first, then
gold. Safety and a reward. The oldest tactics of all, just about. Some things
never changed, he thought. He kept his own ship as one of the two on shore. He
was wrong, in fact, about a number of things, but had no real way of knowing
it. From the bay where the ships were hidden, they hadn't seen the signal
fires. A great deal had changed in these lands in the twenty-five years since
Aeldred, son of Gademar, had come out from Beortferth and reclaimed his
father's throne. The
party dispatched from the ships, guided by two of the (by now exhausted) riders
Guthrum had sent back, did find a group of men. Not their returning companions.
By then Guthrum and his men were lying dead beside the pyre that would burn
them, across a stream from a village mill. Nor
did Brand's relief contingent meet some overextended, too-quick pursuit from
Drengest on the coast. Instead, forty Erlings from the ships, most of them on
foot, encountered the mounted fyrd of King Aeldred in a field east of
the River Thorne, a little past midday.
From
the moment he'd heard the name again—Ivarr Ragnarson—spoken by the Jormsvik
leader just before he was killed at the king's saddle, Ceinion of Llywerth had
felt a terrifying surmise taking shape within him. He
was not a man inclined to flinch from thoughts, or truths, whether of spirit
and faith or having to do with the earthly world in which men lived and died.
But this growing awareness, as the sun rose and the day wore on, caused him an
almost physical pain, a constriction of the heart. The
last of the Volgans had hired this company. Hired them, it seemed, for a raid
near Esferth, at the very end of the season. But that made no sense. Aeldred
had these lands far too well defended, especially with the fair about to begin.
But what if you hadn't really meant to stay here? If you'd lied to the
mercenaries about your purpose? What if you'd killed a lucrative hostage to
stop them from claiming a vast ransom and happily turning home? There
were compelling reasons why Ivarr Ragnarson might want to lead mercenaries to
Cyngael shores, and to a particular farmhouse. The
Jormsvik leaders would regard it as a waste of time, too far to go this time of
year. They'd have to be tricked, persuaded. This was a man, Ceinion remembered,
who had blood-eagled a girl and a farmhand during his flight last spring. He
was said to be deformed in body and spirit, for the two went together, always. Ceinion
had led the dawn prayers south of the meadow where they'd killed the Erlings,
had kept them brisk for there was need for haste. He'd mounted with the others
and rode again beside the king with the god's sun rising behind them. Aeldred
said nothing as they went. Only rasped quick orders to some riders who peeled
away from the company and headed east. It was difficult to see this grim-faced,
death-dealing figure as the man who'd talked about translated manuscripts and
ancient learning in the night just past. Ceinion
kept his distance from Alun ab Owyn as they went. He didn't even want to
exchange a glance with the prince, fearful that he might give his thoughts
away. If Owyn's son learned what the cleric was thinking he might go wild with
helpless panic. Which
was not, in truth, far from a good description of what Ceinion was feeling
himself as the morning passed and the countryside rolled beneath horses'
hooves. The sun was overhead now. If the dragon-ships of Jormsvik were not
found, if they had already cast off with Ragnarson aboard and gone west . . .
there would be nothing he or anyone else could do but pray. Ceinion
of Llywerth, high cleric of the Cyngael, believed in his god of light and in
the power of holy prayer for almost everything that could be, except the most
potent matter of all: the life and death of those he loved. There was a woman
lying in a sanctuary graveyard by the sea, within sound of the surf, beneath a
pale grey stone with a simple sun disk carved upon it, and her dying had taken
that belief from him. A wound, a rip in the fabric of the world. He had gone a
little mad as she died, had done things that still kept him awake some nights.
This was not a matter of which he'd written in his long correspondence with
Rhodias and the Patriarch. He
was also thinking, in this bright sunlight, of another woman, loved, and her
husband, loved, and their daughter, coming into her glory, all of whom might or
might not be at Brynnfell now, and he had no way of knowing, and no way of
helping them. Unless
they got to the ships in time: "Can
we not go faster?" he asked the king of the Anglcyn. "No
need. He said he sent for help, remember? They will be coming this way,"
Aeldred said, looking briefly at him. "I am sure of it. We'll stop soon to
rest and eat. The river's ahead. I want the fyrd fresh for a
fight." "Some
of them will be coming," said
Ceinion. "But we must reach the longships before they get them off from
shore." "They've
done that already. Jormsvik knows how to do these things. We'll try to block
their way home with the fleet in Drengest. I have six ships. I sent riders to
them—they'll be in the water before sundown. Fishing boats out, too, to watch
for them. If we find this rescue party, the Erlings will be undermanned at sea.
They have horses, which means the wide, slow boats, not the fighting ones. I
mean to take them all, Ceinion." "If
they go home, my lord," Ceinion said quietly. Aeldred
threw him a glance. "What
is it I don't know?" the king asked. The
cleric was about to tell him when the horns blew. Then the great grey dog,
Alun's dog, sounded his own warning, and ahead of them Ceinion saw the Erlings,
with the river just beyond. One
of the outriders was galloping back; he reined hard beside them. "Forty or
fifty, my lord! Mostly on foot." "We
have them, then. Get the mounted ones first," the king ordered. "No
messages back. Athelbert!" "Going,
my lord!" his son shouted over his shoulder, already moving, calling for
archers as he went. Ceinion
watched the prince ride, readying his bow, easy in the saddle, his archers
swift and smooth to respond to commands: precisely trained, his own contingent
here. A very different man than his brother. The sons of Aeldred, he thought,
might have divided their father's nature between themselves. That could happen;
he had seen it before. He also had a thought, as battle began, about the way
Aeldred's men were fighting today: from the saddle, with arrows as well as
spears, which was new, and immensely difficult. And even more difficult to
counter, if they had mastered it. It looked very much as though Athelbert and
his archers had done that. His
own people, Ceinion thought, had even more reason to try—to at least try—to come
together now, and find some way to join the world beyond their hidden valleys.
There might be a certain pride in being the last light of the god's sun, where
it set in the west, but there were dangers as well. Such
thoughts were for later. Right now he watched a good-sized party of Jormsvik
mercenaries form another desperate circle as Athelbert's archers and the others
came up to them. The raiders had already crossed the river; bad for them. They
couldn't have retreated in any case, outnumbered and facing horsemen in hostile
country. They
were brave men. No one on earth could deny or refute that. No swords or axes
were thrown down, not even when the command to surrender was given by one of
Athelbert's thegns. Ceinion saw two Erling riders racing back west for the
river: not cowards, messengers. Athelbert and five of his archers were pursuing
them. Arrows
flew from moving horses—and missed. The Jormsvik raiders splashed into the
river, which was deeper and wider here than by Esferth. They began fording it.
Athelbert came up to the bank of the Thorne. Ceinion watched as the prince took
steadier aim and fired. Twice. He
was too far to see what happened in the water, but a moment later Athelbert and
his riders turned back. The prince lifted an arm to signal his father. Then he
rode calmly to rejoin the fyrd surrounding the Erling force. Men had
just died here, Ceinion knew, as they had this morning and in the night. What
did you make of that? What words and reflections? It was the fate of men and
women to die, often before what should have been their time. Should have been. Too much presumption in the thought.
All rested with Jad, but survivors carried memories. He
moved forward when the king did. "Have
care, my lord," cried a red-haired thegn. "They haven't
yielded." "Shoot
ten," said Aeldred. "My
lord!" Ceinion protested. Ten
men were shot where they stood, even as he spoke. Athelbert's archers were
really very good. You watched them and you learned something important about
the prince, frivolous as he might seem when at play in a meadow. "You
said you want us to get to the ships," the king said tersely, watching the
deaths, not looking at him. "If they can send forty in a rescue party,
they'll have five, maybe six ships. Might even be seven, depending on how many
horses. I'll need my whole company. And good men will die in that fight, if we
get to them in time. Don't ask me to linger here, or be merciful. Not this day,
cleric." Cleric.
No more than that. A king celebrated
for courtesy, suing eloquently for Ceinion's presence at his court. But there
was a rage in Aeldred now, Ceinion saw, and the king was hard-pressed to
contain it. In fact, he couldn't; it was spilling over. Burgred of Denferth had
been a friend from childhood. And beyond that truth, this was a large raid on
the eve of the fair in Esferth—threatening to undermine the very idea of the
fair. What merchants would come to these shores from abroad, or even overland
from north or east, if they had cause to fear attacks from Vinmark? "Hear
me. I am Aeldred of the Anglcyn," the king said, moving his bay horse
forward. Two of the fyrd shifted to stay between him and the Erlings.
Axes could be thrown. "Whichever man leads here, order your men to lay
down their arms." Aeldred
waited. Athelbert, Ceinion saw, was looking at his father, bow still to hand.
No one moved in the Erling circle, or spoke. Swords and short axes remained
levelled outwards. About thirty of them now. If they charged, they'd die; so
would some of the Anglcyn. The king is too close, he thought. Aeldred
shifted his horse sideways, and even nearer. "Do it now, Erlings. Unless
you wish ten more of you executed. The men you were sent to meet are dead
behind us. All of them. If you fight you will be killed here without mercy.
There are two hundred of us." "Better
die sword in hand than cut down as cowards." A very big man,
yellow-bearded to the chest, stepped forward. "You give sworn oath to
ransom if we yield ourselves?" Aeldred
opened his mouth. He was rigid again. The idea of a demand . . . He looked at
his son. "No,
my lord!" Ceinion cried. "No! They will yield!" Aeldred's
mouth snapped shut. His jaw was clenched, his gloved hands fists on his reins.
Ceinion saw him close his eyes. After a long moment, the king loosened the
fingers of one hand and made the sign of the sun disk. Ceinion drew a ragged
breath. His palms were sweating. "Drop
all weapons and tell us where the ships are. You will not be killed." The
yellow-bearded Erling stared at him. It was remarkable, Ceinion thought, the
absence of fear in his eyes. "No. We yield ourselves to you, but cannot
betray shipmates." Aeldred
shrugged. "Athelbert," he said, before Ceinion could speak. The
Erling leader died, falling backwards, three arrows in his chest, through the
leather armour. A fourth went into his cheekbone, below the helmet, quivered
there, where he lay in the grass. "Who
is it," Aeldred said after a moment, "who will now speak for you? You
have no more time. Weapons down, guides to the longships." "My
lord," Ceinion said again, desperately. "In the holy name of Jad and
by all the blessed—" Aeldred
wheeled on him. "Heed your own words! Do you want these ships stopped
before they go west and not east? Do you?" "In
Jad's name, we do!" came a third, urgent voice. Ceinion
looked over quickly. Alun ab Owyn was moving his horse towards them. "We
do, my lord king! Kill them and ride! Surely you know where they might be! High
cleric, you heard: Ivarr Ragnarson bought these men. They will be going for
Brynnfell, not home! We can't get back in time!" He'd
figured it out, after all. It
seemed he wasn't too young. And he was right, of course, about the timing.
Ships from Drengest, out to sea by sundown, ordered to block sea lanes east,
would not catch up to trained Erling seamen by the time new orders reached
them. Even if they followed them west—and Aeldred had no reason to give such a
command—they'd be more than half a day behind, and they wouldn't be as skilled
on the water. "Athelbert,
please proceed, if you will be so good," said the king of the Anglcyn. He
might have been asking his elder son to comment, in his turn, on a liturgical
passage being considered. Ceinion,
in great pain, watched ten more Erlings die. They'd refused to surrender, he
told himself. Aeldred had given them that chance. The pain did not lessen. Even
after the arrows flew, no one came forward from the now-shrunken circle to
yield. Instead, the last twenty of them screamed together, terrifyingly,
distilling childhood nightmares for Ceinion in that sound, as they cried the
names of their gods to the blue sky and the white clouds. They charged straight
into the arrows and blades of two hundred mounted men. Could
childhood fears be expunged in this way, Ceinion wondered, remembering how many
chapels and sanctuaries and good, holy men had burned amid those same cries to
Ingavin and Thьnir. He
watched the first Erlings fall, and then the last, swords and axes gripped,
never betraying their fellows. They died in battle, weapons to hand, and so
promised a place among eagles in halls of undying glory. It
appalled him, and he never forgot the unspeakable courage of it. Hating every
one of those men, and what they made him think. There
was a silence, after, in the field. It all took remarkably little time. "Very
well. Let us go," said the king, after a long moment. "We will leave
instructions farther south for men to come gather their weapons and burn them
here." He
twitched his reins, turned his horse. Alun ab Owyn, Ceinion saw, was already ahead
of them all, desperately impatient. The grey dog was beside him. "My
lord!" said the red-haired thegn. "Look there." He
was pointing back south and east, to where oaks between them and the sea were
broken by a valley. Ceinion turned, with Aeldred. "Oh,
my," said Prince Athelbert. A
group of men, eight or ten of them, some mounted, some on foot, with other
horses pulling a cart, were coming towards them, waving and calling, voices
carrying faintly in the summer air, and then more clearly as they neared. No
one moved. The small party approached. It took some time. Their leader was
riding in the cart; he appeared to have a wound, was holding his side. He was
also the one most vigorously shouting, gesticulating with his free hand,
visibly agitated. Visibly
from the south, as well, Ceinion saw. And speaking a foreign tongue. "Jad's
holy light," said King Aeldred, softly. "They are Asharite. From
Al-Rassan. What is he saying? Someone?" Ceinion
knew fragments of Esperaсan, not Asharite. He tried it. Called a greeting. Without
missing a beat in his tirade, the merchant in the cart switched languages. The
king turned to Ceinion, expectantly. Forty dead men lay on the grass around
them. Two of Athelbert's men had dismounted, were efficiently collecting
arrows. "He
is outraged, my lord, and unhappy. They declare themselves to have been
assaulted, injured, and robbed on their way to Esferth Fair. By one man, if I
understand properly. An Erling. He took a horse. A good horse, I gather. Meant
for you, in Esferth. They are . . . they are displeased with the protection
being offered to visitors." Aeldred
looked from the cleric to the man in the cart. His eyes had widened. "Ibn
Bakir?" he said, looking at the merchant. "My stud horse? My
manuscripts?" Ceinion
translated as best he could. Then, somewhat belatedly, told the visitors who
the man on the bay horse was. The
Asharite merchant straightened, too quickly. The cart was a precarious place to
stand. He bowed, almost fell. One of his fellows steadied him. The merchant had
a wound in his right side; blood welled through what appeared to be green silk.
He had a dark bruise on the side of his head. He nodded energetically, however.
Turned, reached down, still being steadied, and pulled some parchment scrolls
from a trunk behind him. He waved them in the air, the way he'd waved his hand
before, calling for aid. Someone laughed, then controlled himself. "Ask
him," said Alun ab Owyn, his voice strained, "if the Erling was
unusual in his appearance." They hadn't heard him come back. The
king glanced over at Alun. Ceinion asked the question. He didn't know the word
for "unusual" but managed "strange." The merchant's
effusive manner grew calmer. With the overexcited manner fading, he seemed more
impressive, notwithstanding the fluttering green garment. This was a man who
had, after all, travelled a long way. He answered gravely, standing on his
cart. Ceinion
heard him; felt a wind in his soul. "He
says the Erling was white as a dead spirit, his face, his hair. Not natural. He
surprised them rushing out from the trees, took only the horse." "Ragnarson,"
said Alun, unnecessarily. He was looking at Aeldred. "My lord king, we
must ride. We can beat him there—they lied to you this morning, back in the
meadow. He wasn't with their messengers to the ships. He's just ahead of
us!" "I
believe," said the king of the Anglcyn, "that this is so. I agree
with you. We should ride." Five
men were detailed to escort the merchants to Esferth and lodge them with
honour. The rest of the fyrd turned west and south. They paused only to
fill their flasks and let the horses drink. It was Alun ab Owyn who led them
splashing into the River Thorne and across, and it was Alun who set the pace
after, alongside the woods, until some of those who actually knew where they
were going caught up with him. The
king, his bay horse galloping beside Ceinion's, asked only one question on the
long ride that followed. "Ragnarson
is the man who led the raid last spring? Brynnfell? When the Cadyri prince was
killed?" Ceinion
nodded. There was nothing more to say and a great need for speed. They
never caught up with him, never saw more than the sign of tracks ahead, alone
at first, then merging with those of another horse—following it, not side by
side. The tracks ran back southeast a little as the river curved between ridges
of hills. Both sets, cutting at precisely the place where the Anglcyn outsiders
had thought they might. They followed, galloping, between stream and forest,
and they came at length to a sheltered strand of stones, and the sea. Westering
sun on the water by then. White clouds on the breeze. Tang of salt. Clear
evidence of ships having been beached here, and a large company of men, very
recently. Nothing more than those signs; empty the wide sea, in all directions.
No way to know, none at all, which way the ships had gone. But Ceinion knew. He
knew. The
king ordered the fyrd to dismount to let tired horses graze along the
beach, up a little way where there was grass. He gave time for riders to rest
as well, eat and drink. After which, he called his thegns to council. Invited
Ceinion to come, and Alun ab Owyn, a generous gesture. At
which time it was discovered that Alun and his dog and his Erling servant were
nowhere to be found. No
man had seen them leave the strand. Half a dozen outriders were dispatched. It
wasn't long before they returned. One of them shook his head. Ceinion, standing
beside the king, took a step towards them and stopped, without speaking. Owyn
of Cadyr, he was thinking, had only the one son living now. He might lose them
both. One
of the riders dismounted. "They have gone, my lord." That much was
obvious. "Where?"
said Aeldred. The
rider cleared his throat. "Into the forest, I fear." A
stir, then silence among those gathered. Ceinion saw men making the sign of the
sun disk. He had just done the same, a habit as old as he was. What, he
thought, am I going to say to the father? A wind was blowing now, from
the east. The sun was going down. "Their
horses' tracks go in there," the outrider added. "Into the
woods." Of
course they do, Ceinion thought. It
was madness, entirely so, what Alun wanted to do. Coming here they'd followed
the coastal path all the way, skirting the wood. Of course they had. That was
how you went: from the south you travelled along the coast; if you were
starting north you went through the watchtower gates of the Wall. But not the
forest. No one went through the woods. But
the coastal path would only take you back to Cadyr in the south, and
Arberth—and Brynnfell—would be four days beyond that, up the river valleys.
Retracing the coast road would be a wasted, meaningless journey. It wouldn't
do. Not if you had decided that the Erlings were heading for Brynn ap Hywll's
farm again. If you had decided that, and you knew Ivarr Ragnarson was aboard,
then you could do something shaped by madness .. . Ceinion
felt old again. That seemed to be happening to him more and more. The man's
voice had sounded genuinely regretful just now, reporting the tidings. The
young Cyngael prince had saved King Aeldred's life this morning, they had all
seen it. They would be sorry to see a young life end in this way. Someone
swore, savagely, breaking the mood. Athelbert. He strode angrily away up the
strand. Stones there, some grass, grazing horses, light glittering on the
water. It would be dark in the woods, and they stretched all the way to the
Cyngael lands, and no one went through them. Ceinion closed his eyes. It was
growing cooler, late in the day, edge of the sea, the sun going down. He
would die in there, Owyn's younger son. I
am too old, Ceinion thought again.
He was remembering—so vividly—the father as a young man, equally reckless, even
more impulsive. And now that man was an aging prince, and his son was about to
find his own end trying to go through the untracked woods carrying a warning
all the long way home. A desperate, glorious folly. The way of the Cyngael. ELEVEN Bern
backed down on hands and knees from the ridge when he saw the Anglcyn archers
begin to shoot. There was a disaster happening, crisp and bright in the
sunlight: blue river, green grass, deeper green of trees beyond, the
many-coloured horses, the arrows caught by light as they flew. He felt ill,
watching. You
didn't abandon shipmates, but he knew what he was seeing. His task was to get back
to the coast alive with his warning and these tidings of catastrophe. The
Anglcyn were riding for the sea. Breathing
deeply, struggling to calm himself, he led Gyllir away from the battle, to the
very edge of the forest. Even in daylight the trees felt oppressive, menacing.
Spirits and powers, not to mention hunting cats and wolves and wild boars were
in such woods. The volurs who put themselves into trances to see along
the dark pathways of the dead said that there were animals that housed the
spirits of the old gods, and wanted blood. Looking
at the darkness on his right, he could half believe in such creatures. But for
all that, a more certain death lay in the other direction with the fyrd. They'd
ridden at least as fast as he had to get to this place, which was unsettling.
Back home, the old women said, An Erling on a horse of the sea, an Anglcyn
on a horse ... still, he'd not have
thought Gyllir could be matched. Aeldred's
riders were here, though. He couldn't linger. Waiting would bring them across
the river. Bern
used the trees as a backdrop, riding right alongside them, so as not to appear
clearly against the sky. Even so, in the moments when he passed up and then
down along the ridge and had to be in view, his heart felt painful and loud, as
if his chest were a drum. He leaned low over Gyllir's neck and he whispered a
prayer to Ingavin, who knew the ways of secrecy. No
cry went up. Just as Bern Thorkellson crested that ridge, an agitated party of
merchants from Al-Rassan was hailing the Fyrd, coming towards them, loud
with indignation. They saved his life, for the outriders turned to see. It
happens this way. Small things, accidents of timing and congruence: and then
all that flows in our lives from such moments owes its unfolding course, for
good or ill, to them. We walk (or stumble) along paths laid down by events of
which we remain forever ignorant. The road someone else never took, or
travelled too late, or soon, means an encounter, a piece of information, a
memorable night, or death, or life. Bern
stayed low in the saddle, his neck hairs prickling, till he was sure he was out
of sight. Only then did he straighten and give Gyllir his head, galloping
towards the sea. He saw gentle, rolling country, rich land. The sort of soil
that made a soft, easy people. Not like Vinmark, where cliffs crashed jaggedly
down in places where the sea gouged the land like a blade. Where rock-strewn
slopes and icebound winters made farming a wounding aspiration on farms never
large enough. Where younger sons took to the sea roads with helm and blade, or
starved. The
Erlings were hard with cause, reasons deep and cold as the black, still waters
knifing between cliffs. These people over here, with their loamy, generous soil
and their god of light, were . . . well, in fact, these people were smashing
the best raiders Vinmark had right now. The story didn't seem to hold. Not any
more. The
shape and balance of the world had changed. His father (he didn't want to think
about his father) had said that more than once on the isle, after he'd decided
his raiding days were over. Thorkell
really shouldn't be here, Bern thought. Riding south at speed, he felt too
young to sort it through, but not too young to be aware that the changes were
happening, had already happened. There
was a distance still to go, but not so much now, as he finally began to
recognize where he was. Gyllir was labouring, but so, surely, would be the
mounts of Aeldred's fyrd behind him. They'd be coming, he knew it.
And—sudden thought—they'd see his tracks and realize he was ahead of them. He
had to outrace them to the water with enough time to get the ships offshore. He
was dripping with sweat in the sunlight, could smell his own fear. When
he saw the valley he remembered it. Gave thanks for that. He followed it south-east
and, almost as soon as he did, smelled salt on the wind. The valley opened out.
He saw their strand. Only two ships still anchored; the other three already out
in the straits beyond. He
began to shout as he galloped up, continued shouting as he leaped from Gyllir's
back, stumbling into the midst of the encampment. He tried to be coherent,
wasn't sure if he succeeded. These
were Jormsvik men, however. They moved with a speed he'd not have believed
possible before he'd joined them. The camp was struck, and the last two ships
(undermanned, but no help for that) had oars in place and were pulling to sea
before the sun had swung much farther west. This was their life, salt and
hardship, dragon-prows. An Erling on a horse of the sea . . . Brand's
own ship was last. They were rowing after the others when someone called out to
them from shore. Another of those moments when so much may turn one way or
another, for they might have been just a little quicker from shore, and so too
far out to hear. Bern did hear it, though, looked back from where he stood
beside the one-eyed leader of their raid. "Who
is it?" Brand Leofson rasped, squinting. A
rider in the water, waving one arm, forcing a reluctant horse into the sea
after them. "Leave
him," said Bern, whose eyes were very good. "Let him be killed by
Aeldred. He lied to us. From the start. Ecca kept saying so." He felt
fear, and a cold anger. "Where
is Ecca?" Brand asked, turning his good eye to Bern. "Killed in
Esferth. Their king was there. Hundreds of men. There's
an accursed fair going on. I told you—Ragnarson lied." The man
beside him, captain, raid leader, veteran of half a hundred battles across the
world, chewed one side of his moustache. "That's him in the water?"
Brand said. Bern
nodded. "I
want to talk to that misbegotten bastard," Brand said. "If he's to
die, I'll do it myself and report it at home. Back oars!" he cried.
"Ramp out! Sling for the horse!" Precise
movements began. This is a mistake, Bern was thinking. Couldn't escape
the thought as he watched the strange, deadly man on a magnificent,
inexplicable horse come closer through the waves. It seemed to him, feeling
helpless as a child, that this was a moment in which his life—and not only his
own—might be hanging, as in a merchant's balance. In the
afternoon light, under swift, indifferent clouds, Ivarr Ragnarson was taken
aboard. "That,"
said Brand One-eye, gazing into the sea, "is an Asharite horse." Bern
had no idea if this was true or not, couldn't see why it mattered. The horse
was pulled up, a sling drawn under its belly by a man who knew how to swim.
They all threw their weight to the far side, to keep the ship in balance as it
happened. A difficult exercise, done with ease. The
balance seemed to tilt in Bern's mind as he turned from watching the horse
lifted aboard to regarding the twist-mouthed, dripping wet, white-faced,
white-haired, pale-eyed grandson of Siggur Volganson, last surviving heir of
the greatest of all their warriors. Ivarr
strode to stand directly in front of Leofson. "How
dare you leave shore without me, you worm-eaten lump of dung!" he said.
You couldn't get used to his voice. No one else talked like that. It was icy,
and it cut. Brand
Leofson, so addressed, looked at Ivarr with what seemed genuine perplexity.
This was his ship, he was leader of a Jormsvik raid, a captain of many years'
standing, surrounded by his fellows. He shook his head slowly, as if to clear
it, then he knocked Ivarr to-the deck with a backhanded blow to the face. "Pull
away!" he called over his shoulder. "Hard on the benches, all of you!
Out of sight of shore, sail up, whichever way the wind takes us. We'll have a
lantern council at darkfall. Signal the others. And you," he said, turning
back to Ragnarson, "will stay where you are, on the deck. If you stand up
I will knock you down again. If you do it twice I swear by Ingavin's eye and my
own I will throw you into the sea." Ivarr
Ragnarson stared up at him but didn't move. The too-pale eyes, Bern decided,
held more black rage than he'd have ever thought to see in a man. He looked
away. His father (he didn't want to think about his father) had warned him.
The
youngest of the mercenaries turned away. Ivarr saw fear in his face. Ivarr was
used to both: people avoided looking at him all the time, after furtive glances
of horror and fascination, and there was often fear. Ivarr Ragnarson was white
as a bone, malformed at one shoulder, his eyes were strange (and not good in
bright sunlight)—and men were riddled with fears of the unknown, of spirits, of
angry, unassuaged gods. This
young one—he couldn't remember names, people didn't matter enough—had a
different quality to his apprehension, though. Something more than the obvious.
Ivarr couldn't say what it was, but he could sense it. He had a skill that way. To be
considered later. As was the fact that he was going to kill Brand Leofson. He'd
been struck twice today by mongrels from Jormsvik. One of them, Skallson, had
already been slain by the Anglcyn, denying Ivarr the pleasure. This one here
would have to be allowed to live a little longer: Leofson was needed, if this
raid was still going to work. Sometimes pleasures had to be deferred. Lying
on the deck of a ship, salt-soaked, bruised and exhausted and bleeding, Ivarr
Ragnarson felt sure of his control of events, even now. It helped that almost
everyone you dealt with was a fool, weak, though they might think themselves
hard, undermined by needs and desires, friendships and ambitions. Ivarr
had no such weaknesses. He was cut off by his appearance from any possibility
of leadership and acceptance. That disposed of ambition. Friendship, as well.
And his desires were .. . other than those of most men. His
brother Mikkel—dead in a Cyngael farmyard, one of Ingavin's great hulking fools
in life—had actually thought he could be a leader of the Erling people, the way
their grandfather was. That was why Mikkel had wanted to go to
Brynnfell. Revenge, and the sword. With the Volgan's sword in hand, he'd said,
ale cup sloshing about, he could rally people around him, to the family's name. He
might have, if he hadn't been thick in the head like a plough ox, and if
Kjarten Vidurson—a man Ivarr had to admit he wondered about—hadn't clearly been
readying himself for a claim of kingship in Hlegest, with infinitely more
weight than Mikkel would ever have had. Ivarr
hadn't said anything about that. He'd wanted Mikkel's raid to happen. His own
reasons for going were so much simpler than his brother's: he was bored, and he
liked killing people. Vengeance
and a raid made killing all right in the eyes of the world. With nothing to
aspire to, no status to seek or favour to attain, Ivarr's was an uncomplicated
existence, in some ways. When
you looked only to yourself, decisions came more easily. People who harmed or
crossed you were to be dealt with without exception. That now included those
Cyngael at Brynnfell who had sent him fleeing through a night wood, then
desperately back to the ships last spring. That also meant this maggot, Brand
One-eye, right here, but only after he'd done what Ivarr needed him to do,
which was get him back west. There
were deaths to be accomplished there first. And he still wanted to see if he
could grasp and spread someone's lungs out on the red, cracked-open cage of
their ribs while they remained alive, bubbling, blood-soaked. It was a hard thing
to do. You needed opportunities to practise before you could do something so
delicate. When
your needs were uncomplicated, it was easy enough to spend a good part of the
resources you had (last of the Volgans, heir to all they possessed) buying two
hundred mercenaries at the end of a summer. If
people had trouble looking at your face for long it was hardly difficult to lie
to them. The Jormsvikings were smug, complacent, full of self-love, beefy and
drunken, amusingly easy to deceive, for all their celebrated prowess on ship
and in battle. They were what they were, Ivarr thought: tools. He
had dropped gold and silver onto a trestle table in a Jormsvik barracks hall,
and told them that Aeldred's coastal burh at Drengest was unfinished,
under-defended, with ships they might seize for themselves and a newly
dedicated sanctuary with too much gold. He'd
seen this, he said, when he and his brother went west in spring. And a watchman
they'd taken and killed for information, along the coast, had told them before
he died that the king and fyrd were spending the summer at Raedhill,
hunting north of it, leaving Esferth exposed. Another lie, but Ivarr was good
at lying. Ale
went round a smoke-filled room, then round again, and songs were sung about
Jormsvik glories in days gone by. And then came another predictable song (Ivarr
had heard it too many times, but made himself smile, as if in rue and
remembrance) about Siggur Volganson and the great summer of twin assaults on
Ferrieres and Karch, and the famous raid on the hidden sanctuary at Champieres,
where he'd -claimed his sword. More drinking during that, and after. Men asleep
at the tables, heads down among spilled ale and guttered candles: In
the morning Ivarr formally paid the mercenaries to make it worth their while to
sail, even if they should find little enough for the taking in the Anglcyn
lands. He stung their pride—so easily—pointing out how long it had been since
they'd challenged Aeldred on his own soil. There
was glory to be won, swords to be reddened, Ivarr said, before dark winter came
to the northlands again and closed the wild sea. Make it sound like music, he'd
found, and listeners would dance to your song—while not looking at your face. Simple,
really. Men were easy to deceive. You needed only to be clear in your mind
about what you wanted them to do. Ivarr always had been, was even more so now.
Brynn ap Hywll and any of his family found were to be staked out naked, alive,
in the slop and mud of their own farmyard while Ivarr carved them one by one.
Ap Hywll was fat as a summer hog, he'd need to cut deep. That was all right, it
was not a difficulty. The
blood-eagle rite was a final act of vengeance for his slain brother and
grandfather, he would say, sadly. A ritual done in honour of Ingavin's ravens
and eagles and in memory of the Volgan line, of which he was the last. After
him, they would be no more. And men would hear it and look sorrowful. Would
even honour him for it around winter fires. Amusing.
But to make it happen he had to get these ships to Cyngael shores. That was the
only uncertain part, if you excepted the fortune that underlay his finding
those merchants with a horse earlier today. That, he didn't actually want to
think about right now. He'd have missed the ships, otherwise, been left on a
hostile coast alone. Perhaps he should think about it. Perhaps Ingavin
or Thьnir was showing his lordly countenance to a pale, small, crooked figure
after all. And what could that mean, after so many years? A
distraction. For later. They had to go west, first. That had always been the
delicate task. It would have made no sense for Brand Leofson or any other
leader to take five ships so late in the year for the feeble returns a Cyngael
raid offered these days. Ivarr had known that. So you worked it another way:
you told them they were going after Aeldred where he was rich and vulnerable.
And when that proved—as you knew it would prove—not to be so after all, you
relied on your tongue and their stupid hunger for Ingavin-glory to lure them a
little farther west . . . since they'd already come this far, and it would be such
a terrible loss of face to go back empty-handed. It
was a good plan. Would have been easy, in fact, if Burgred of Denferth hadn't
been with the accursed party they'd surprised in the night. The earl had been
worth a ransom the raiders could grow fat upon, and they'd known it.
Thick-witted and ale-sodden or not, they'd understood who this man was. Aeldred
would have paid the taxes from ten cities and a hundred households to have his
companion back. And then five Jormsvik ships would have turned around and rowed
happily home into the wind, every man singing all the way. It
would have driven him mad. He'd
had no choice but to shoot the man. An
unsatisfying killing, done in haste, no pain involved—except his own when
Skallson came near to killing him for it. Ivarr hadn't actually been afraid—he
couldn't remember ever being afraid—but he hadn't been ready to die, either. For
one thing, he didn't expect eagles or ravens to escort his spirit to shining
halls when death came for him. Ingavin and Thьnir
loved their tall warriors with bright axes and swords, not twisted, wry-mouthed
misfits with death-white skin and eyes that saw better at twilight than in the
day's bright sun. It
was less bright now, in fact. They had been pulling steadily from the coast and
now the sail was up. The sun was over west. Ivarr waited, as ever, for the
evening shadows to come, changing the colour of the sea and sky. He was happier
then, happier in winter. Cold and darkness didn't distress him; they felt like
his proper place. Men
thought he was weak. Men were wrong, almost without exception fools beyond the
telling. He wondered, sometimes, if his mighty grandfather—never seen or known,
killed in Llywerth before Ivarr was born—might have thought the same way,
crashing like a wave again and again upon peoples who could do nothing against
him for year upon year, until it ended by that western sea. The
gods knew, he had reasons enough to kill Brynn ap Hywll. He would do the women
first, Ivarr thought, let the fat man watch, bound and helpless, naked amidst
the shit of his yard. It was a pleasing thought. You needed to hold it in mind,
point towards it, let nothing distract or divert. "You
will stand up now," said Brand Leofson. A bulky shape above him, suddenly.
"Before the council begins you will explain your lies." He'd
expected that. Men were easy to anticipate. All he ever needed was a
chance to speak. Ivarr
rose slowly to his feet. Rubbed at his jaw where he'd been struck, though there
wasn't any pain to speak of now. It was good to look small, though, frail, no
danger to anyone. "I
didn't think you'd do what I needed done," he mumbled. Kept his eyes down.
Turned his head away, submissive as a beaten wolf. He'd watched wolves in
winter snow, learned from them. "What?
You admit you lied?" Gods!
What had the ox-brain expected him to do? Deny it? They'd seen the
finished walls and readied ships in Drengest, which he'd said was empty and
exposed. Sixty of them in two parties had been slaughtered today by Aeldred and
the fyrd out from Esferth—where he'd told them the king would not be. He
hadn't expected those deaths—there was nothing good about losing so many
men—but you couldn't let such things affect what you'd had in mind for so long.
This entire end-of-summer journey with the Jormsvikings was, after all, a
second plan. He was supposed to have taken Brynnfell and the sword in spring,
not had his sodden, stupid brother die with almost every man in that yard.
Ivarr was all alone in the world now. Shouldn't there be mournful music with
that thought? All alone. He'd killed their sister when he was nine; now dear
Mikkel had been cut down in an Arberthi farmyard. Let
the skalds make bad songs of it. Sorrow for Siggur's strong scions / Valour
and vaunt among the Volgans .. . He
didn't feel sorry for himself. What he felt was fury, endlessly, from first
awareness of himself, a bent child in a warrior world. "I
lied because we have fallen so far in twenty-five years that even with the
warriors of Jormsvik, I was unsure of us." "We? Us?" "The
Erlings of Vinmark, friend. Ingavin's children of the middle-world." "What
the one-eyed god does that drivel mean, you drip-nosed gutter
spawn?" He
needed to kill this man. Had to be careful not to let it show. No distractions.
Ivarr looked up, then ducked his head again, as if ashamed. Wiped at his nose,
placatingly. "My
father died a coward, his own great father unavenged. My brother fell as a
hero, trying to do so. I am the only one left. The only one. And Ingavin has
seen fit to have me misshapen, unworthy in my poor self to take vengeance for
our line and our people." Brand
One-eye spat over the railing of his ship. "I still don't know what
raven-shit rubbish you are spewing. Speak plain and—" "He
means he planned to go to Arberth all along, Brand. Never had any thought of
Anglcyn lands. He means he tricked us with lies about Aeldred to get us to
sea." Ivarr
was careful to keep his eyes lowered. He felt a pulsing in his head, however.
This young one, whoever he was, had just become an irritant, and you needed to
avoid showing that. "That
the truth?" Brand turned to him. He was a very big man. Ivarr
hadn't wanted things to move this quickly, but part of the skill of these
moments was adapting. "Jormsvik has its share of wisdom, even from the
young ones who might not be expected to know so much. It is as the boy
says." "Boy's
older than you think, maggot, and killed a Jormsvik captain in single
combat," said Leofson pompously. A beefy, thick-brained warrior. All he
was. Ivarr held back a grimace: he'd made a mistake, these men were famously
bound to each other. "I
didn't mean—" "Shut
up, rodent. I'm thinking." The
very halls of Ingavin tremble at such tidings was what Ivarr wanted to say. He kept silent.
Composed himself with an image of what he wanted, what he needed: the
family of Brynn ap Hywll in their own yard—or maybe on a table in their hall
under torches, for better light?—naked, all of them, the women soiling
themselves with terror, exposed to his red, carving blade. Wife and daughters
and the fat man himself. The goal. All else could come later. "Why
you want to get to Arberth so bad?" They
heard sounds across the water; the other ships, moving nearer for the council.
They were out of sight of shore, darkness falling soon. Needed to be careful:
ships could ram and gouge each other in the sea, riding so nearly. They would
rope them together, create a platform of ships, even in open water, in
twilight. Jormsvik seamen. They knew how to do such things better than any men
alive. A thought, there. Ivarr
took a breath, as if summoning courage. "Why Arberth? Because Kjarten
Vidurson in Hlegest seems ready to be a king, and he should have the Volgan's
sword again. Or someone should." He
let that last phrase linger, emphasized it just enough. He hadn't planned to
mention Vidurson, but it worked, it worked. He could feel it. There was a
rhythm to these things as ideas came, a dance, as much as any single combat
with weapons ever was. "The
sword?" repeated Brand, stupidly. "My
grandfather's blade, taken when ap Hywll killed him. The death never avenged,
to my shame—and our people's." "That
was twenty-five years ago! We're mercenaries, for the great gods' sake!" Ivarr
lifted his head, let his pale eyes seem to blaze in the torchlight. "How
much glory do you think you'd gain, Brand Leofson, you and every man here, all
of Jormsvik, if you were the ones to regain that sword?" A
satisfying silence on the deck, and across the water. He'd spoken loudly,
ringing it out, that the other boats, approaching, might also hear. He pushed
on, next part of the song. "And more: do you not think it might even give
you, give all of us, some power and protection from Vidurson should he prove .
. . other than some think he is?" He
hadn't planned this, either. He was very happy with it. "What does that
mean?" Leofson snarled, now pacing like a bear on the deck. Ivarr
allowed himself to straighten, an equal speaking to an equal. It was necessary
to have that status back. "What does it mean? Tell me, men of Jormsvik,
how joyously will a northern man who sets himself as king over all the
Erlings—the first in four generations—look upon a walled fortress of fighting
men in the south who answer only to themselves?" It was like music, a
poem, he was shaping a "If
this is so," interrupted a voice again, "you might have raised it
with us, and let us take counsel at home. You said no single word about Kjarten
Vidurson. Or about Arberth, or the Volgan's
sword. Instead, tricked to sea with outright lies, sixty good men are
dead." It was the boy, the scarcely bearded one. He snorted. "Didn't
that watchman you say you captured in spring tell you about the new fair
starting this year?" Ivarr's
flaring anger calmed quickly. So easy, it was. They made it so easy. He wanted
to laugh. They were fools, even when they weren't. "He
did say that," he replied, keeping his voice mild. The second
question had so nicely taken him off the harder first one. "But he said
that because the fair was just beginning—as you say—the king was leaving it to
his stewards. That's why I thought there'd be merchants to raid, with few to
guard them, rich takings for brave men." "Just
beginning?" "As
you said," Ivarr murmured. The
young one, not as big a man as Leofson but well-enough made, began to laugh.
Laughing at Ivarr. With others watching and listening. This was not permitted.
He'd killed his sister for laughing like that, when she was twelve and he was
nine. "I
will not be made mock of," Ivarr snapped, a hotness in his brain. "No?"
said the other man. His amusement subsided. He had looked away before; he
wasn't doing so now. Lights had been hung on the ships' railings, all five of
them, and at prow and stern. They were aglow, these ships on the water, marking
the presence of mortal men on the wide, darkening sea. "I don't think I'm
mocking you, actually. Or not only that." "What
are you saying, Bern?" asked Leofson, quietly. Bern. The name. To be
remembered. "He's
still lying. Even now. You know the peasants' saying. To trap a
fox, you let him trap himself. He just did. Listen: this is the third year
of the Esferth Fair, not the first. Every man we met on the road knew it. The
city was thronged, Brand, overflowing. Tents in the fields. Guards everywhere,
and the fyrd. I said `first year' to see what this fox would do with it.
And you heard. Don't call him a maggot. He's too dangerous." Ivarr
cleared his throat. "So the ignorant peasant we captured was wrong
about—" "No,"
said the one called Bern. "I planted that thought in your head, Ragnarson.
You captured no watchman. You never put ashore here. You went straight to
Brynnfell in Arberth, and failed. So you wanted to go back—there, nowhere
else—for your own blood-hunger. Ingavin's blind eye, sixty men are dead because
you lied to us." "And
he killed an earl we took," someone shouted from the ship nearest to them.
"An earl!" Voices echoed that. Greed,
thought Ivarr. They were driven by greed. And vanity. Both could be used,
always. The hotness was making it harder to think clearly, though, to take back
control of this. If the one named Bern would only shut his mouth. If he'd been
on one of the other ships . . . such a small change in the world. Ivarr
looked at the man more closely. A ship on either side of theirs now, men
lashing them together, practised ease. It had grown darker. His eyes worked
better in this twilight with lanterns. Ingavin's blind eye. Something
slid into place with that phrase. "Who
is your father?" he said sharply, anger cracking through, with awareness.
"I think I know—" "He's
a Jormsviking!" snapped Brand, his voice crashing in, heavy as a smith's
hammer. "We are born when we pass through the walls into
brotherhood. Our histories do not matter, we shed them. Even maggots like you
know that of us." "Yes,
yes! But I think I know . . . The way he speaks . . . I think his father was
with—" Brand
struck him, a second time, harder than before, on the mouth. Ivarr went down on
his back, spat blood, then a tooth. Someone laughed. The hotness went red. He
reached towards the dagger in his boot, then stopped, controlling himself to
control men. He could be killed here, going for a weapon. Sprawled on his back,
he looked up at the big man over him, spat red again, to the side. Spread his
hands, to show they were empty. Saw a
sword, then another one, both bright, as if flaming, torchlight upon them. He
died there—astonished, it could be said—as Leofson's heavy blade spitted him,
biting deep into the deck beneath his body.
Bern
reminded himself to breathe. His arm, holding a sword, was at his side. Brand
had knocked it away with his own before killing Ivarr with a thrust that had
the full force of his body behind it. Leofson
levered his weapon free, with difficulty. There was a silence amid the
lanterns, under the first stars. Brand turned to Bern, a curious expression on
his scarred countenance. "You're
too young," he said unexpectedly. "Whatever else he was, this was the
last of the Volgans. Too heavy a weight to carry all your life. Better it was
me." Bern
found it difficult to speak. He managed a nod, though he wasn't sure he really
understood what the older man was saying. There was a stillness, a sense of
weight all about them, though. This was not an ordinary death. "Put
him overboard at the stern," Brand said. "Attor, do the `Last Song,'
and properly. We don't need any god angry tonight." Men
moved to do his bidding. You put Erlings into the sea if they died on the
water. Last of the Volgans, Bern thought. The phrase in his head kept
repeating itself. "He
. . . he killed sixty men today. As if he'd done it himself." "True
enough," said Brand, almost indifferently. He
was moving on already, Bern realized. Leader of a raid, other things to
consider, decisions to be made. He heard a splash. Attor's voice rose. They
would be able to hear it on the other boats. Bern
found that his hands were shaking. He looked at his sword, which he was still
holding, and sheathed it. He went to the side of the ship, by his own oar, next
to the roped ship beside them, and stood there listening as Attar sang,
deepvoiced in the dark.
Hard the journey heavy the waves, Brief our lingering on land or sea. Ingavin ever mind his Erling-folk, Thunir remember who
honour you. Let no angry
spirit still be here, No soul be
lost without a home. Salt the sea-foam by
ship's prow, White the waves before us and behind.
Bern
looked down at the water and then away to the emerging stars, trying to keep
his mind empty, to just listen. But then it seemed he was thinking—found
himself unable not to think—of his father again. In a stream with him under
these same stars last night. He
had felt such anger moments ago, looking down at Ivarr Ragnarson,
watching—knowing--what the man was doing. The need to kill had crashed over him
like nothing in his life before; he'd had his sword out, and driving, before
he'd realized what he was doing. Was
this the way it had happened for Thorkell—twice, ten years apart, in two
taverns? Was this his father's fury awakening inside him? And Bern was sober as
death right now; light-headed with fatigue, but not so much as a beaker of ale
since the tavern in Esferth the evening before. Yet even with that, rage had
taken him. If
Brand had not been quicker, Bern would have killed the man on the deck and he
knew it. His father had done that, twice, exiled for it the second time. Ruining
their lives was what Bern had always thought, and his heart had been cold
as a winter sea, bitter as winter foraging. Ruining
his father's own life was more true, he thought now: Thorkell had turned
himself, in a moment, from a settled landowner in a place where he had real
stature into an exile, no longer young, without hearth or family. How had he
felt that day, leaving the isle? And the next day, and in the nights that had
followed, sleeping among strangers, or alone? Did he lie down and rise up with heimthra,
the heart's hard longing for home? Bern had never even put his mind to
this. Are
you drunk? he had said to Thorkell
in the river. And been struck a blow for that. Open hand, he remembered; a father's
admonition. The
wind had died, but now a breeze came again from the east. The lashed ships
swayed with it, lanterns bobbing. Jormsvik mariners, best in all the world. He
was one of them. A new home, for him. The sky was dark now. The
song came to an end. His hands weren't trembling any more. Thorkell was
somewhere north in the night, having crossed the sea again, long past when he'd
have thought himself done with raiding. It was a time for home and hearth, wood
chopped and piled up for winter winds and snow. Land of his own, fences and
tilled fields, tavern fires in town, companionship at night. Gone with one
moment's ale-soaked fury. And his youth long gone as well. Not a time of life
to be starting again. What was a son—a grown son—to think about all of this? No
soul be lost without a home. Bern
reached into his tunic and touched the hammer on its silver chain. He shook his
head slowly. Thorkell had actually saved all of the men here, sending
Bern south at speed, with that added warning about Ivarr. You
needed to be strong enough to say these things to yourself, acknowledge them,
even through bitterness. And there was more, another thing sliding into
awareness now, the way the fainter stars slipped into sight against the
darkened sky. Don't let Ivarr Ragnarson know you're my son. He
hadn't understood that. He'd asked; his father hadn't answered. Not an
answering sort of man. But Ragnarson's pale eyes had seen something here on the
deck, in Bern's face by torchlight, or in something he'd said. Some kind of
resemblance. He had thought through—fox's mind—to a truth about Bern, and about
Thorkell. He'd been about to say it, an accusation, when swords came out and he
died. I think his father was with "Brand!
We've rowing to do, best set a course." It was Isolf, at the helm of the
ship tied to their starboard side. "I
say south first, head for Ferrieres coast, or Karch coast, whoever holds it
this year." That was Carsten, from the other side. "Ferrieres,"
said Brand absently. He walked past Bern towards the helm. Attor followed him. "Aeldred'll
have ships in the water by now, certain as Ingavin carries a hammer."
Isolf again. Someone
laughed derisively. "They don't know what they're doing. Anglcyn, at
sea?" Other voices joining in. "He'll
use Erlings," Brand said. The amusement subsided. "Believe it.
Ingemar Svidrirson's his ally here in Erlond, remember? Pays him tribute." "Fuck
him, then!" someone shouted. A
sentiment that found much endorsement, even more crude. Bern stayed where he
was, listening. He was too new, had no idea what their best course was. They'd
lost almost a third of their company, could manage five ships, but if they
ended up in a fight at sea .. . "We'll
do that another time," called Carsten Friddson. "Right now let's just
get home with all ships and bodies left. South's best, say I, to the other
coast, then we beat back east along it. Aeldred won't venture so far from his
own shore just on a chance of finding us at sea." It
did make sense, Bern thought. The new Anglcyn ships at Drengest might be ready,
but they wouldn't have had any experience with them yet. And those ships—if
they were even on the water—were all that lay between them and home. Surely
they could slip past them? He
had a sudden, unexpectedly vivid image of Jormsvik. The walls, gate, barracks,
the stony, wave-battered strand, the crooked town beside the fortress where
he'd almost died the night before he won his way inside. He thought of Thira.
His whore now. He'd killed Gurd, who'd laid claim to her before. That
was how it worked in Jormsvik. You bought your warmth in winter, one way or
another. Whores, not wives, was the order of things. But there was warmth
to be found, a fireside, companionship: he wasn't alone, wasn't a servant,
might have a chance, if he was good enough at killing and staying alive, to
shape a name for himself in the world. Thorkell had done that. And
it was on that thought of his father that Bern heard Brand Leofson say, with
what seemed an unnaturally precise, carrying clarity, "We're not going
home yet." A
silence again, then, "What in Thьnir's name does that mean?" Garr
Hoddson, shouting from the fourth ship. Brand
looked towards him across the other deck. They were all shapes in darkness now,
voices, unless standing beside one of the lanterns. Bern had taken a step away
from the rail. "Means
the snake said one thing true. Listen. This raid's the worst we've had in
years, any of us. It's a bad time for that, with Vidurson making plans up
north." "Vidurson?
What of it?" Garr shouted. "Brand, we've lost a full boat of—" "I
know what we've lost! I want to find, now. We need to. Listen to me.
We're going to go west to get the Volgan's sword back. Or to kill the man who
took it. Or both. We're going to that farm, whatever it's called." "Brynnfell,"
Bern heard himself saying. His voice sounded hollow. "That's
it," Brand Leofson said, nodding his head. "Ap Hywll's farm. We run
enough of us ashore, leave some to the ships, find the place, burn it down,
there should be hostages." "How
do we get home, after?" Carsten asking. Bern
could hear a new note in his voice: he was interested, engaged. This had been a
disastrous raid, nothing to show for it but their own deaths. No man here
wanted to spend a winter hearing about that. "Decide
that when we're done. Back this way, or we go the north route—" "Too
late in the year," Garr Hoddson said. He had stepped across to Carsten's
ship, Bern saw. "Then
back this way. Aeldred'll be ashore by then. Or we overwinter west if need be.
We've done that before, too. But we'll do something before we show our
faces home. And if we get that blade back, we have something to show Kjarten
Vidurson, too, if that northerner gets ideas we don't like. Anyone here
actually decided we need a king, by the way?" A
shout of anger. Jormsvik had its views on this. Kings put limits on you, set
taxes, liked to tear down walls that weren't their own. "Carsten?"
Brand lifted his voice over the shouting. "I'm for it." "Garr?" "Do
it. We've shipmates to avenge." But
not in the west, Bern thought. Not
there. It didn't matter. He felt, with genuine surprise, a quickening of
his own heartbeat. His father hadn't wanted them to go west, but Ivarr was
dead, they weren't listening to his tune, they didn't have to listen to
Thorkell's, either. To
get the Volgan's lost sword back from the Cyngael. On his first raid. That
would be remembered, it would always be remembered. Bern touched Ingavin's
hammer, his father's hammer, at his throat. There
was another part of the verse he'd spoken to his father in the stream; they all
knew it, throughout the Erling lands:
Cattle
die kinsmen die. Every
man born will die. Fierce hearth fires end in ash. Fame
once won endures ever.
The
ships were being unlashed. Bern moved to help. The risen wind was from the
east, a message in that. Ingavin's wind, carrying them in the night,
dragon-prows on a summer sea. TWELVE Jadwina
was never quite clear, looking back, whether they received the tidings of the
earl's death (she always got his name wrong, but it was difficult to remember
things from so long ago) and the slaughtered Erling raiders before or after the
evening her life changed—or even that same night, though she didn't think so.
It felt as though it had come afterwards. It had been a bad time for her, but
she was fairly certain she'd have remembered if it had been that same night. The
troubles had begun a fourteen-night earlier, when Eadyn lost his hand. An
accident, an entirely stupid accident, clearing trees with his father, bending
a branch for Osca's axe. A clean severing, at the wrist. His life marred, all
hope of good fortune spurting from him with his blood. The hand on the grass,
fingers still flexed, a thing of its own now. Discarded. A young man,
broad-shouldered, fair-haired, picked to marry her, and her own inward choice
for that (by Jad's pure grace), turned cripple in a moment's inattention at the
edge of wood and scrubland. He
lived. Their cleric, summoned, knew more than most about leechcraft. Eadyn lay
in fever for days, his wrist wrapped in a poultice his mother changed at
sunrise and sunset. Osca wasn't at the bedside or even at home. He spent those
days drinking, swearing, weeping, cursing the god, abusing those who tried to
comfort him. What comfort was there under the heavens? He had only the one
living son, and a farm that needed Eadyn's strength as his own began to fail. It
was a calamity. Lives turned, lives ended, with such moments. The
cleric, wisely, kept his distance until Osca had drunk himself into a vomiting
stupor and awoke, a day and night later, ashen and heart-scalded. The god had
made the world this way, in his unknowable wisdom, the cleric said to the
villagers in their small chapel. But it was hard, he conceded. It could be
intolerably hard. Jadwina
thought so too. Her own father had shaken his head grimly when he heard the
tale. He had politely waited to see if Eadyn would conveniently die, before
calling off the proposed match. What else could he do? A cripple was no
marriage. He could never swing an axe properly, handle a plough, mend a fence
alone, kill a wolf or wild dog. Couldn't even practise with a bow as they were
ordered by the king to do now. It
was a sorrow for Eadyn and his family, a lesson for every-one else, as the
cleric said, but you didn't have to make it your sorrow, too. There were
healthy lads in the village, or near enough. You needed to marry daughters
usefully. It was a matter of survival. The world, here in the north, or
anywhere else probably, wasn't going to make life easy for you. At
some point during that time—it blurred for Jadwina, looking back—Bevin, the
smith, had appeared at their door and asked to speak with her father. Gryn had
gone walking with him and returned to say that he'd accepted an offer for her. The
younger son of the village smith wasn't the match Eadyn, son of Osca, had
been—land was land, after all—but he was better than a one-handed cripple.
Jadwina received the tidings and—as best she remembered—she dropped a pitcher
on the floor. It might have been on purpose; she couldn't recall. Her father
beat her about the back and shoulders, with her mother calling approval. It had
been a new-bought pitcher. Raud,
the smith's son, now plighted to her, never even spoke with Jadwina. Not then,
at any rate. Some
days later, however, towards twilight, as she was bringing the cow back from
the northernmost field, Raud stepped out from a copse by the path. He stood
before her. He had come from the forge; there was soot in his clothing and on
his face. "Be
wed come harvest," he said, grinning. He had poxed cheeks and long, skinny
shanks. "Not
by my will," Jadwina replied, tossing her head. He
laughed. "Wha' matters that? You'll spread legs by will or wi'out." "Eadyn
is two men to your one!" she said. "And you knows it." He
laughed again. "He's one hand to my two. Can't even do this now." He
grabbed at her. Before she could twist away, he had a hand twisted in her hair,
spilling her kerchief, and another over her mouth, too tightly for her to bite,
or scream. He smelled of ash and smoke. He pulled the hand away quickly and hit
her on the side of the head, hard enough for the world to rock and sway. Then
he hit her again. The
sun was going down. End of summer. She remembered that. No one on the path,
home a long walk from where they were. She couldn't even see the nearest houses
of the village. "Take
what's mine now," Raud said. "Get a baby in you, they'll just make me
wed you, won' they? What matters that?" She was on the ground by the path,
beneath him. He straddled her, a boot on either side, started untying the rope
around his trousers, fumbling in his haste. She drew breath to shout. He kicked
her in the ribs. Jadwina
gasped, began to weep. It hurt to breathe. He dragged his leggings down around
his muddy boots. Lowered himself to his knees then forward onto her. Began
pushing, clumsily, at her lower clothes. She hit him, scratching at his face.
He swore, then laughed, his hand groped hard at her, down there. Then
his whole body lurched crazily to one side, his head most of all. Jadwina had a
confused, frightening sense of wetness. She was in pain, dizzy and terrified.
It took her a moment to understand what had happened. Raud's blood was all over
her. He'd been hit in the neck from above, behind, by an axe. She looked up. An
axe swung one-handed. Raud's
body, his sex exposed, still erect, his trousers around his ankles, lay
sprawled on one side, next to her in the shallow ditch where he'd thrown her
down. Instinctively, she shifted away from him. He was, Jadwina saw, already
dead. She was afraid she was going to be sick. She put a hand to her side where
the worst pain was, then brought it to her face. It came away wet with Raud's
blood. Eadyn,
his face ghost-pale, stood above her. She struggled to sit up. Her side felt as
if a blade were in it, as if something were broken and sliding within. He
stepped back a little. Her cow was behind him, in the grass on the other side
of the path, cropping. No sound but that, and the birds flying to branches at
end of day; fields and trees, dark green grass, the sun almost down. "Was
out here trying," Eadyn said, finally, gesturing with the axe. "See
if I can chop. You know? Saw you." She
seemed able to nod her head. "Can't
do it rightly," he said, lifting the axe a little again, letting it fall.
"No good." Jadwina
drew a careful breath, a hand to her side again. She was covered in blood.
"Just started, though. You'll get better at it." He
shook his head. "Useless man." She tried not to look at the bandaged
stump of his right hand. His good hand, it had been. "You
. . . you were man enough to save me," she said. He
shrugged. "From behind him." "What
matters that?" she said. Her capacity to speak, to think, was coming back.
And she had a thought. It frightened her, so she spoke quickly, before fear
could take hold. "Lie with me now," she said. "Give me a child.
No one else will want me then. You'll have to." What
she saw in him, that moment, in the last fading of the summer daylight, and
remembered ever after, was fear, and defeat. It could be read, the way some
clerics read words in books. He
shook his head again. "Na, that'll not do. I'm cripple, girl. They'll not
wed you to me. And how could I fend for a wife and little ones now?" "We'll
fend the both of us together," she said. He
was silent. The axe—dark with Raud's blood—held in his left hand. "Jad rot
it forever," he said finally. "I'm done." He looked at the dead
man. "His brothers'll kill me now." "They'll
not that. I'll tell the cleric and reeve what happened here." "And
that'll matter to them?" He laughed, bitterly. "No. I'm away this
night, girl. You clean yourself, say nothing. Maybe take a bit of time before
they find this. Give me a chance to be gone." Her
heart was aching by then, more than her side, a dull, hard pain, but there
was—even in that moment—a part of her that had begun despising him. It was like
a death, actually, feeling that. "Where
. . . where will you go?" "As
if I have the least idea," he said. "Jad be with you, girl." He
said that over his shoulder, had already turned away. He
left her there, walked north, back up the grassy path the way that she had
come, and then on, beyond the pasture. Jadwina watched until she couldn't see
him any more in the twilight. She got herself up, reclaimed her hazel switch,
and began leading the cow back home, moving slowly, a hand to her side, leaving
a dead man in the grass. She
decided, before she'd reached the first houses, that she wasn't going to listen
to Eadyn. He had left her lying there without a backwards glance. They had been
pledged to be married. She
went home exactly as she was, Raud's blood on her face and hair and hands, all
over her clothing. She saw horror—and curiosity—in people's faces as she took
the cow through the village. She kept her head high. Said nothing. They
followed her. Of course they followed her. At her door, she told her father and
mother, and then the cleric and reeve when they were brought, what had
happened, and where. She'd thought she'd be beaten again, but she wasn't. Too
many people about. Men
(and boys, and dogs) went running to look. It was well after nightfall that
they brought back Raud's body. It was reported how he had been when they'd
found him, trousers down, exposed. Two of the older women were instructed by
the reeve to examine Jadwina. Behind a door they made her lift her skirts and
both of them poked at her and came out, cackling, to report that she was
intact. Her
father owned land; the smith was only a smith. There was no one to gainsay her
tale. Right there, under torches in front of their door, the reeve declared the
matter closed to the king's justice, named the killing a just one. Two of
Raud's brothers went north in the morning after Eadyn. They came back without
having found any sign of him. Raud was buried in the ground behind the chapel. And
it had been some time during those warm, end-of-summer days that they had
learned of the Erling raid and the death of the earl, the king's good friend. Jadwina
hadn't been inclined to care, or listen very much, which is why she was never
certain about the course and timing of events. She remembered agitation and
excitement, the cleric talking and talking, the reeve riding out and then back.
And on one of the days there had been a black billowing of smoke west of them.
It turned out to be, they learned, a burning of slain Erlings. The
king himself, it seemed, had been right there, just beyond the trees and the
ridges. A battle almost within sight of where they lived. A victory. For those
whose lives had not been utterly undone, as Jadwina's had been, it counted as
entirely memorable. Later
that same year the smith's wife died, an autumn fever. Two others of the
village went to the god as well. Within a fourteen-night of burying his wife,
Gryn came to Jadwina's father again, this time for himself. This was the father
of the man who had been pledged to her and had assaulted her and been slain for
it. It
didn't seem to matter to anyone, certainly not her father. There was a kind of
cloud, a stain over Jadwina by then. She was sent to him that same week, to the
smithy and the house behind it. The cleric spoke new blessings over them in
chapel; they had a cleric who liked to keep abreast of new things. Too much
haste, some said of the marriage. Others jested that, with Jadwina's history,
her father didn't want to see a third man maimed or killed before getting her
off his hands. No
one ever saw Eadyn again, or heard tell of him. Gryn, the smith, as it turned
out, was a mild-humoured man. She hadn't expected that in someone so red-faced,
and with the sons he had. How could she have expected kindness? They had two children
who survived. Jadwina's memories of the year she was wed softened and blurred,
overlaid with others as the seasons passed. In
time, she buried her husband; took no other mate. Her sons shared the smithy,
after, with their older half-brothers, and she lived with one of them and his
wife, tolerably well. As well as such things can ever be, two women in a small
house. She was buried herself, when the god called her home, laid in the
growing chapel graveyard, next to Gryn, not far from Raud, under a sun disk and
her name. + Three
things, Alun was thinking,
remembering the well-worn triad, will gladden the heart of a man. Riding to
a woman under two moons. Riding to battle, companions at his side. Riding home,
after long away. He
was doing the third, possibly the second. Hadn't thought about the first since
his brother died. His heart was not glad. He
saw a sudden branch and ducked. The overgrown path they'd chosen could barely
be called such. These woods had no formal name in either tongue, Cyngael or Anglcyn.
Men did not enter here, save for the edgings, and only by daylight. He
heard his unwanted companion following. Without turning, Alun said, "There
will be wolves in here." "Or
course there will be wolves," Thorkell Einarson said mildly. "Bears,
still, this time of year. Hunting cats. Boars." "With autumn coming,
boars for certain. Snakes." "Yes.
Two kinds, I believe. The green ones are harmless." They
were a fair distance into the forest already, the light entirely gone, even if
it might still be twilight outside. Cafall was a shadow ahead of Alun's horse. "The
green ones," Thorkell repeated. Then he laughed—genuine laughter, despite
where they were. "How do we tell in the dark?" "If
they bite us and we don't die," Alun replied. "I didn't ask you to
come. I told you—" "You
told me to go back. I know. I can't." This
time Alun stopped his horse, the Erling horse Thorkell had found for him. He
still hadn't asked about that. They had reached a very small clearing, a little
space to face each other. The leaves overhead let a hint of the last evening
light come down. It was time for the invocation. He wondered if it had been
done before in these woods, if Jad's word had ever reached so far. It seemed to
him he felt a humming, just below hearing, but he was aware that that was
almost certainly apprehension and no more. There were so many tales. "Why?"
he asked. "Why can't you?" The
other man had also reined his horse. There was just enough light to see his
face. He shrugged. "I am neither your servant, nor the cleric's. My life
was saved by Lady Enid at Brynnfell and she claimed me as hers. If you are
correct, and I believe you are, Ivarr Ragnarson is leading the Jormsvik ships
there. I value my life as much as any man, but I gave her my oath. I will try
to get back before they do." "For
an oath?" "For
that oath." There
was more, Alun was sure of it. "You understand this is mad? That we have
five days, maybe six to survive in these woods?" "I
understand the folly of it better than you do, I suspect. I'm an old man, lad.
Trust me, I'm not happy being here." "Then
why—?" "I
answered you. Will you leave it." The
first hint of a temper, strain. Alun's turn to shrug. "I'm not about to
fight you, or try to hide. We'll forget rank, though. I think you know more
than I do about surviving here." It was easier to say that to this man
than to most others, he thought. "Perhaps
a little more. I did bring food." Alun
blinked, and realized, with the words, that his hunger was extreme. He tried to
work out the timing. They'd had bread and ale after killing the first Erling
party by the stream. Nothing since then. And the fyrd had been in the
saddle since the middle of the night before. "Come.
Get down," said Thorkell Einarson, as if tracking that thought. "As
good a place as any. I need to stretch. I'm old." Alun
dismounted. He'd been a horseman all his life, but his legs were aching. The
other man was groping in a saddle pack. "Can
you see my hand?" "Yes." "Wedge
of cheese. Cold meat coming. I've ale in a flask." "Jad's blood and
grace. When did you ... ?" "When
we got to the water and saw the ships were gone." Alun considered this a
moment, chewing. "You knew I'd do this?" The
other man hesitated. "I knew that I would." This,
too, needed thought. "You were going to come in here alone?" "Not
happily, I promise you." Alun
tore at the chunk of meat the other man passed him, drank thirstily from the
offered flask. "May
I ask a question?" The Erling took the ale back. "Told you, not a
servant in here. We need to survive." "Tell the snakes, the ones that
aren't green." "What's
the question?" "Is
this the same wood as north, by Esferth and past it?" "What? You
think I'd be here if there was a break in the trees? Am I a fool?" "In
here? Of course you are a fool. But help me with the question, nonetheless." A
moment, both men silent, then Alun heard his own laughter in that black,
ancient wood where the tales he'd known all his life said there were spirits
that sought blood and were endlessly angry. Something small skittered, startled
by the noise. The dog had gone ahead, now came back to them. Alun gave him some
of the meat. He took the ale flask back. It
occurred to Thorkell Einarson, squatting on his haunches beside the young
Cyngael, that he hadn't heard the other man laugh before, not once in all their
time together, since the night of a spring raid. Alun
said, "You aren't very good at a servant's role, are you? It is the same
forest. There's a small valley on this side, I think there's a sanctuary
there." Thorkell
nodded. "That's how I remember it, yes." And then, quietly, he added,
"So whatever spirit you were with last night might be here as well?" Alun
imagined he felt a wind in his face, though there was none blowing. He was
briefly glad of the darkness. He cleared his throat. "I have no idea,"
he said. "How did you . . . ?" "I
watched you come out of the trees last night. I'm an Erling. My grandmother
could see spirits on the roofs of half the homes in our village, summoned them
to blight the fields and wells of those she hated. There were enough of those,
Ingavin knows. Lad, we can swear an oath to honour the sun god, and wear his
disk, but what happens after darkfall? When the sun is down and Jad is under
the world, battling?" "I
don't know," Alun said. He still seemed to feel that wind, sense the
wood's vibration, so nearly a sound. Five days' journey, maybe more. They were
going to die here, he thought. Three things a brave man remembers at his end
. . . "None
of us knows," Thorkell Einarson said, "but we still have to live
through the nights. It is . . . unwise to be so sure we're alone here, whatever
the clerics teach. You believe that spirit is kindly disposed?" Alun
took a breath. It was difficult to believe they were speaking of this. He
thought of the faerie, shimmering, a light where there was none. "I
believe so." The
other man's turn to hesitate. "You realize that where there is one such
power, there may be others?" "I
told you you didn't have to come." "Yes,
you did. Pass the flask. My throat's dry. A sorrow to die with ale to hand and
undrunk." Alun
reached the flask across. His calves were sore, the long ride, crouching now.
He sat on the grass, wrapped his arms about his knees. "We can't ride all
night." "No.
How did you propose to guide yourself, alone?" "That one I can answer.
Think on it." The
other man did. "Ah. The dog." "He
came from Brynnfell. Can find his way home. How were you going to do it,
alone?" Thorkell
shook his head. "No idea." "And
you thought I was being a fool?" "You
are. So am I. Let us drink to ourselves." Thorkell lifted the flask again,
cleared his throat. "Consider sending him ahead? The dog? Ap Hywll would
know ..." "I
did think about it. It seems to make sense to have him with us, and to let him
run on alone if we ..." "Find
a not-green snake or one of the things that are stronger than your spirit and
don't like us." "Should
we rest here?" Alun asked. Fatigue was washing over him. There
was an answer given to that question, though not from the man beside him. They
heard a sound, movement in the trees. Larger
than a boar, Alun thought, rising, unsheathing his blade. Thorkell was also on
his feet, holding his hammer. They stood a moment, listening. Then they heard a
different kind of sound. "Holy
Jad," said Alun, a moment later, with considerable feeling. "I
think not, actually," said Thorkell Einarson. He sounded amused. "Not
the god. I believe this would be—" "Be
quiet!" said Alun. The
two of them listened, in bemused silence, to a voice, behind them and a little
south, moving through the trees where no moonlight could fall. Someone—however
improbably—was singing in these woods.
The
girl for me at the end of the day Is the one who'd rather kiss than pray, And
the girl for me in the morning light Is the one who takes and gives delight,
And the girl for me in the blaze of noon Is the one
"Stuff
the wailing. We're over here," Thorkell called. "And who knows what
else's coming now, the noise you make." Both
men put back their weapons. Crackling
sounds came nearer, branches and leaves, twigs on the forest floor. An oath, as
someone collided with something. "Noise?
Wailing?" said Athelbert, son of Aeldred, heir to the Anglcyn throne. He
edged his horse into their small clearing. Straining his eyes, Alun saw that he
was rubbing at his forehead. "I hit a branch. Really hard. I also believe
I have been insulted. I was singing." "That
what it was?" Alun said. Athelbert
had a sword at his hip, a bow across his back. He dismounted, stood facing the
two of them, holding the reins of his horse. "Sorry,"
he said ruefully. "To be frank, my sisters and my brother take that same
view of my voice. I've decided to leave home, out of shame." "This,"
Alun said, "was a bad idea." "I'm
a bad singer," Athelbert replied lightly. "My
lord prince, this is—" "My
lord prince, I know what this is." Both
of them stopped. A moment later, Athelbert was the one who went on. "I
know what you are doing. Two men are unlikely to get through this wood
alive." "And
three are likely?" It
was Thorkell. He still had that amused tone, Alun realized. "I didn't
actually say that," Athelbert replied. "You do realize where we are?
Likelihood? We'll all be killed." "This
is not your concern," Alun said. He forced himself to be gracious.
"Generous as the thought might be, my lord, I daresay your royal
father—" "My
royal father will have sent outriders after me, as soon as they realized I was
gone. They are almost certainly in the trees already, and terrified witless. My
father thinks I am . . . irresponsible. There are reasons why he might hold
such a view. We'd best move on or they'll find us and say they have to bring me
back, and I'll say I won't go, and they'll have to draw weapons against their
prince on the orders of their king, which isn't a proper thing to force any man
to do, because I'm not going back." A
silence followed this. "Why?"
Thorkell asked finally, the amused tone gone. "Prince Alun is right: this
is no Anglcyn quarrel, Erlings raiding west of the Wall." Alun
could see clearly enough to observe Athelbert shaking his head. "That
man—Ragnarson?—killed my father's lifelong friend, one of our leaders, a man I
knew from childhood. They led a raid into our lands during a summer fair. Word
of that will spread. If they get away and—" Alun's
turn to interrupt. "They didn't get away. You killed fifty or sixty of
them. A ship's worth. Drove the rest from your shores, running from you. Word
of that will spread, to the glory of King Aeldred and his people. Why
are you here, Prince Athelbert?" It
was almost impenetrably black now, even in the clearing, the trees in summer
leaf blocking the stars. Cafall had stood up too, the dark grey dog virtually
invisible, a presence at Alun's knee. After
a long time, Athelbert spoke. "I heard what you said, before, by the
river. What you believe they intend to do. The farmhouse, women there, ap
Hywll, the sword ..." "And
so? It is still not your—" "Listen
to me, Cyngael! Is your father the haven and home of all virtues in the
world? Does he rise from a fevered sickbed to make a slaughter of his enemies?
Does he translate medical texts from Jad-cursed Trakesian? By the time
he was my age," said Athelbert of the Anglcyn, speaking with great
clarity, "my father had survived a winter hiding in a swamp, had broken
out, rallied our scattered people, and retaken his own slain father's realm. To
the undying glory of King Aeldred and our land." He
stopped, breathing hard, as if he'd been exerting himself. They heard wings
overhead, flapping from one tree to another. "You
are unhappy with him for being a good man?" Thorkell said. "That
is not what I am saying." "No?
Perhaps not. Help me then, my lord. You want some of that same glory,"
said Einarson. "That is it? Well, that is fairly sought. What young man
with a beating heart does not?" "This
one!" said Alun sharply. "You both listen to me. I have no
interest in any of that. I need to get to Brynnfell before the Erlings. That is
all. The coastal path goes to Arberth and it takes almost four days, at speed,
then four or five more to get north to Brynn's farm. I did that journey
this spring, with my brother. The Erlings know exactly where they are going
because Ragnarson's with them. No warning we send along the coast will beat
them to Brynnfell. I'm here because I have no choice. I'll say it again: I
didn't even want you to come," he said, turning to Thorkell. "And
I'll say it again, though I shouldn't have to: I am the servant of Lady Enid,
wife to Brynn ap Hywll," the Erling replied calmly. "If Ivarr gets to
that farm she'll die in the muck of her own yard, hacked apart, and so will any
others there, including her daughters. I have done such raids. I know
what happens. She saved my life. I swore an oath. Ingavin and jad both know I
have not kept every promise I made, but this time I will try." He
was silent. After a moment Alun nodded. "That's you. But this prince is
just . . . chasing his father. He's—" "This
prince," said Thorkell, "is entitled to make his own choices in life,
reckless or otherwise, as much as we are. A third blade is welcome as a woman
in a cold bed. But if he is right and outriders are following him, we need to
move." "He
should go back," Alun repeated, stubbornly. "This is not his—" "Talk
to me if you have anything to say. You've said that three times,"
Athelbert snapped. "Make a triad of it, why don't you? Set it to music! I
heard you each time. I am not turning back. Will you really refuse aid? Even if
it might save lives? Is it so certain you aren't thinking of glory?" Alun
blinked at that. "I swear by Jad's name, it is certain. Don't you see? I
do not believe it is possible to do this. I expect to die here. We have
no idea where water is, or food, what path we might find, or not find. Or what
will find us. There are tales of this place going back four hundred years, my
lord Athelbert. I have a reason to risk death. You do not." "I
know those stories. The same tales are told on this side. If you go back far
enough, we used to sacrifice animals in the valley north of here, to whatever
was in the wood." "If
you go back far enough, it wasn't animals," Alun said. Athelbert
nodded his head, unruffled. "I know that, too. It is not for you to judge
my reasons. Say that you are here because of your brother, and I because of my
father. Leave it and let's go." Alun
still hesitated. Then he shrugged. He'd done what he could. With a hint of
wryness in his tone, one that a dead brother would have recognized, he said,
"If that is so, this one here breaks the pattern." He nodded towards
Thorkell. "Not
really," said the Erling. They heard his amusement. "I'm of a piece
with you, in truth. Tell you about it later. Let's move, before we're found and
it gets difficult." "Truly.
Some of the outriders sing worse than I do," Athelbert said. "Jad
defend us, if so," said Alun. He reached a hand down, into the fur of the
dog's neck. "Cafall, will you lead us home, my heart?" And
with those words Athelbert realized that they weren't as completely without
resources as he'd thought, riding into the spirit wood after the two of them,
panic and determination warring within him. They
had the dog. Amazingly, it might matter. The
three of them remounted and carefully picked their way out of the small glade,
bent low over the horses' necks to stay under branches if they could. They
heard sounds as they went. The noises of a wood at night. Owls calling, wingflap
of another bird overhead, wood snapping to left and right, sometimes loudly, a
scrabbling along branches, scurry, wind. What else each of them heard, or
thought he heard, he kept to himself. + Men
were avoiding the king, Ceinion saw. He could understand that. Aeldred,
philosopher, seeker after the learning of the old schools, shaper of calm
devices and stratagems, a man controlled enough to have feasted the Erling
who'd blood-eagled his father, was in a rage like a forest fire. As
he'd stalked away across the stones of the beach where the boats had been, his
fury had been so intense, it had been as if there were a wave of heat coming
off his body. If you were a physician, you feared for a man in such condition;
if you were his subject, you feared for yourself. The
king was still down the strand in the gathering dark. Standing close to the
crashing surf in the wind, as if together wind and waves might cool him,
Ceinion thought. He knew that wasn't going to happen. They had heard from the
outriders sent out. Prince Athelbert had gone into the woods. Fear
plainly visible in those reporting this; four exhausted men astride their
horses, waiting for the command they would not dare refuse, and could hardly
bear to imagine. It never came. Instead,
Aeldred had stood, fighting for control, and then had turned on his heel and
gone off to where he was now, his back to all of them, facing the darkening sea
under the first stars in the vault of the sky. The blue moon was rising. Ceinion
went after him. No
one else would do it, and the cleric was aware of terrors clinging to what
remained of this day, building within himself. He felt trammelled, as in a
fisherman's net of sorrows. Deliberately,
he let his approach be heard, scuffling at stones. Aeldred did not turn, stayed
as he had been, gazing out at the water. Far off, beyond sight but not sailing,
were the shores of Ferrieres. Carloman had taken the coast back from the
Karchites in the spring, after two years of campaigning. A disputed, precarious
shoreline, that one. It always had been. Everything was precarious, he thought.
He was remembering fires in the farmyard at Brynnfell. "Did
you know," said Aeldred, not turning around, "that in Rhodias in the
days of its glory there were baths where three hundred men could be bathing in
cool water, and as many in the heated pool, and as many again lying at their
ease with wine and food?" Ceinion
blinked. The king's voice was conversational, informative. They might have
been, themselves, reclining at their ease somewhere. He said, carefully,
"My lord. I did hear of such. I have never been there, of course. Did you
see this yourself, when you went with your royal father?" "The
ruins of them. The Antae sacked Rhodias four hundred years ago. The baths
didn't survive. But you could see . . . what they had been able to make. There
are ruins here, too, of course, from when the Rhodians came this far. Perhaps I
will show you, some day." Ceinion
thought he could discern the shape of what this was about. Men responded so
differently to grief. "Life
was . . . otherwise, then," he agreed, being cautious. It was difficult;
he was seeing fires in his mind. The breeze was strong here, but it was
pleasant, not cold. It was from the east. "I
was eight years old when my father took me on pilgrimage," Aeldred went
on. The same even, casual tone. He still hadn't turned around. It occurred to
Ceinion to wonder how the king had known who it was who'd come walking over to
him. His particular footfall? Or a simpler awareness that no one else would approach,
just then? "I
was excited and impatient, of course," Aeldred went on, "but what you
just said . . . that life was otherwise for them .. . that was clear to me,
even when I was young. On the way, in one of the cities in the north of
Batiara, where the Antae had their own court, we saw a chapel complex. Four or
five buildings. In one of them there was a mosaic of the court of Sarantium.
The Strategos-Emperor. Leontes." "Valerius
III. They called him `the Golden.'" Aeldred
nodded. "There was a king," he said. A wave crashed and
withdrew, grating along stones. "You could see it on that wall. His court
around him. The clothing they wore, the jewellery, the . . . room they
were in. The room they had. In their lives. To make things. I've never
forgotten it." "He
was a great leader, by all accounts," Ceinion agreed. He
was letting this unfold. At the back of his mind, his pulse rapid with it, was
the awareness of ships, and the east wind. "I've
read one or two chronicles, yes. Pertennius, Colodias. On the other wall I
remember another mosaic, less good, I think. An earlier emperor, the one before
him. He rebuilt the sanctuary, I think. He was there too, the opposite wall. I
remember I wasn't as taken. It looked different." "Different
artisans, very likely," the cleric said. "Kings
depend on that, do you think? The quality of their artisans." "Not
while they live, my lord. After, perhaps, for how they are remembered." "And
what will men remember about—?" Aeldred broke off, resumed again, a
different tone. "We shouldn't be forgetting his name," he murmured.
"He built Jad's Sanctuary in Sarantium, Ceinion. How are we forgetting?" "Forgetting
is part of our lives, my lord. Sometimes it is a blessing, or we could never
move beyond loss." "This
is different." "Yes,
my lord." "What
I was saying . . . about the baths. We have no space, no time to make
such things." He
had been saying this, Ceinion remembered, at the high table after the banquet
last night. Only last night. He said, "Baths and mosaics are not allowed
to all of us, my lord." "I
know that. Of course I know. Is it . . . unworthy to feel their absence?" This
was not the conversation he'd been expecting to have. Ceinion thought about it.
"I think . . . it is necessary to feel that. Or we will not desire
a world that lets us have them." Aeldred
was silent, then, "Do you know, I always intended to take Athelbert, his
brother, too, to Rhodias. The same journey. To see it again myself, kiss the
ring of the Patriarch. Offer my prayers in the Great Sanctuary. I wanted my sons
to see it and remember, as I do." "You
were fighting wars, my lord." "My
father took me." "My
lord, I am of an age with you, and have lived through the same times. I do not
believe you have anything for which to reproach yourself." Aeldred
turned then. Ceinion saw his face in the twilight. "Alas,
but you are wrong, my lord cleric. I have so much in the way of reproach for
myself. My wife wishes to leave me, and my son has gone." They
had arrived. Every man had his own path to such places. Ceinion said, "The
queen is seeking to go home to the god, my lord. Not to leave you." Aeldred's
mouth crooked a little. "Unworthy, good cleric. Clever without being wise.
Cyngael wordplay, I'd call it." Ceinion
flushed, which didn't happen often. He bowed his head. "We cannot always
be wise, my lord. I am the first to say that I am not." Aeldred's
back was to the sea now. He said, "I could have let Athelbert lead the fyrd
last night. He could have done it. I didn't need to be here." "Did
he ask for it?" "That
is not his way. But he could have dealt with this. I had just come back from my
fever. I had no need to ride. I should have left it to him." His hands
were fists, Ceinion saw. "I was so angry. Burgred ..." "My
lord—" "Do
you not understand? My son is dead. Because I did not let—" "It
is not for us to say what will be, my lord! We do not have that wisdom.
This much I do know." "In
that wood? Ceinion, Ceinion, you know where he went! No man has
ever—" "Perhaps
no man has tried. Perhaps it was time to lay to rest old fears, in Jad's name.
Perhaps a great good will come of this. Perhaps . . ." He trailed off.
There was no great good that he could see coming. His words were false in his
own ears. There was that image of burning in him, here by the cool sea, as the
moon rose. Aeldred
was looking closely at him now. He said, "I have been greatly unjust. You
are my friend and guest. These are my own concerns, and you have a grief here.
There is a reason Prince Owyn's son went into the spirit wood. My sorrow,
cleric. We were too slow, riding. We needed to be here before the ships cast
off." Ceinion
was silent. Then he said, as he ought to have said at the beginning, with the
dark coming on, "Pray with me, my lord. It is time for the rites." "There
is no piety in my heart," said Aeldred. "I am not in a state to
address the god." "We
are never in a state to do so. It is the way of our lives in his world. One of
the things for which we ask mercy is that inadequacy." He was on familiar
ground, now, but it didn't feel that way. "And
our anger?" "That
too, my lord." "Bitterness?" "That
too." The
king turned back to the sea. He was still as a monolith, as a standing stone
planted on the strand by those who lived here long ago, and believed in darker
gods and powers than Jad or the Rhodian pantheon: in sea, in sky, in the black
woods behind them. Ceinion
said, again, "We must not presume to know what will come." "My
heart is dark. He ... should not have done what he did, Athelbert. He is not
without . . . duties." They
were back to the son. Not a child any more. "My
lord, the son of a great father might need to shape his own way in the world.
If he is to follow you and be more than only Aeldred's child." The
king turned again. He said, "Dying allows no way in the world. They cannot
go through that wood." The
cleric let his own voice gain force. A lifetime of experience. So many
conversations with the bereaved and the afraid. "My lord, I can tell you
that Alun ab Owyn is as capable a man as I know. The Erling . . . is far more
than a servant. And I watched Prince Athelbert this past night and day, and
marvelled at him. Now I will honour his courage." "Ah!
And you will say this to his mother, when we come back to Esferth? How
comforting she will find it!" Ceinion
winced. Behind them, men were gathering wood, lighting night fires on the
beach. They would stay until morning. The fyrd would be exhausted,
ravenous, but they would be feeling pride, deep satisfaction at what they had
done. The Erlings were driven off, fleeing them, and threescore of the raiders
were dead on Anglcyn soil. The tale would run, would cross these dark waters to
Ferrieres, Karch, east to Vinmark itself, and beyond. For
Aeldred and the Anglcyn this could be called a triumphant day, worthy of harp
song and celebration after the mourning for an earl. For the Cyngael, it might
be otherwise. "Pray
with me," he said again. There
must have been something in his voice, an edge of need. Aeldred stared at him
in the last of the light. The wind blew. It
could carry the Erlings tonight. Ceinion could see them in the eye of his mind,
dragon-prows knifing black water, rising and falling. Vengeful men aboard. He
had lived through such raids, so many times, so many years. He could see Enid,
fire at the edges of his vision, pushing inward, as Brynnfell burned and she
died. Always,
since his wife had been laid in the ground behind his own sanctuary in
Llywerth, there had been that one thing for which he never prayed: the lives of
those he loved. He could see her, though—all of them at Brynnfell—and
the ships in the water like blades, approaching. Aeldred's
gaze was unsettling, as if his thoughts were open to the king. He wasn't ready
for that. His role was to offer comfort here. Aeldred
said, "I cannot send the Drengest ships to catch them, friend. They will
be too far behind by the time word reaches the burh, and if we are
wrong, and the Erlings do not go west ..." "I
know it," Ceinion said. Of course he knew. "We aren't even allies,
lord. Your soldiers on the Rheden Wall are there against Cyngael raids . .
." "To
keep you out, yes. But that isn't it. I would do this, after last night. But my
ships are too new, our seamen learning each other and the boats. They might be
able to block the lanes if the Erlings turn home tonight, but—" "But
they cannot catch them going west. I know it." No
words for a time. Ships in his mind, out there somewhere. The beat and withdraw
of surf, sound of it, sound of men behind them up the strand, noises of a camp,
wind in the gathering night. Three
things the wise man ever fears: a woman's fury, a fool's tongue, dragon-prows. "Brynn
ap Hywll killed the Volgan, Ceinion. He and his band are very great
fighters." "Brynn
is old," Ceinion said. "So are most of his band. That battle was
twenty-five years ago. They will have no warning. They may not even be there
now. Your men say there were five ships beached here. You know how many men
that means, even without those you killed." "What
shall I say?" Somehow
it had been turned around. He had walked over to give comfort. Perhaps he had;
perhaps for some men this was the only access they had to being eased. "Nothing,"
he said. "Then
we'll pray." Aeldred hesitated, a thinking pause, not an uncertain one.
"Ceinion, we will do what we can. A ship to Owyn in Cadyr. They'll sail to
him under a truce flag with a letter from me and one from you. Tell him what
his son is doing. He might cut off an Erling party on its way back to their
ships, if they do go to your shores. And I'll send word north to the Rheden
Wall. They can get a message across, if someone is there to receive it
..." "I
have no idea," Ceinion said. He
didn't. What happened in those lands around the Wall was murky and
fog-shrouded, beyond the power and grasp of princes. The valleys and the black
hills kept their secrets. He was thinking about something else. On their way
back to the ships. If
they were doing that, the Erlings, it would be over at Brynnfell. And here he
was, knowing it, seeing it, unable to do more than . . . unable to do
anything. He knew why Alun had gone into the forest. Standing still was very
nearly intolerable, it could shatter the heart. He
would pray for Athelbert, and for Owyn's son in the wood, but not for those he
most dearly loved. He'd done that once, prayed for her with all the gathered
force of his being, holding her in his arms, and she had died. He
was aware of Aeldred's gaze. Told himself to be worthy of his office. The king
had lost a lifelong friend and his son was gone. "They
may get through . . . in the forest," he said, again. Aeldred
shook his head, but calmly now. "By the mercy and grace of Jad, I have
another son. I was a younger son as well, and my brothers died." Ceinion
looked at the other man, then beyond him at the sea. On that windblown strand
he made the sun disk gesture that began the rites. The king knelt before him.
Down along the beach where the fires were, the men of the fyrd saw this
and, one by one, sank to their knees to share the evening invocation, spoken in
that hour when Jad of the Sun began his frozen journey under the world to
battle dark powers and malign spirits, keeping as many of them as possible away
from his mortal children until the light could come to them again, at dawn. Keeping
most of them away. Not all. It
was not the way of things in the world that men and women could ever be
entirely shielded from what might seek and find them in the dark. THIRTEEN Given
what followed, it might have been a mistake to stop for what remained of the
night, but at the time there hadn't seemed to be much choice. All
three men were hardened and fit and two of them were young, but they'd been
awake for two days and nights and in the saddle. In this forest, Thorkell had
judged it more dangerous to keep moving in exhaustion, tired horses stumbling,
than to stop. They could be attacked as easily while moving, in any case. He
made it easier for the others, asking a respite for himself, though he
undermined that somewhat by offering to take the first watch by the pool they
found. They filled their flasks. Water was important. Food would become a
problem when his small supply ran out. They hadn't decided if they would hunt
here; probably they'd have to, though Thorkell knew what his grandmother would
have said about killing in a spirit wood. All
three of them drank deeply; the horses did the same. The water was cool and
sweet. There was no thought of making a fire. Athelbert hadn't eaten at all;
Thorkell gave him bread in the darkness, some of the cold meat. They tethered
the horses. Then both princes, Anglcyn and Cyngael, fell asleep almost
immediately. Thorkell approved. You needed to be able to do that; it was a
skill, a task, your turn on watch would come soon enough. He
stretched out his legs, leaned back against a tree, his hammer across his lap.
He was weary but not sleepy. It was very black, sight was next to useless. He
would have to listen, mostly. The dog came over, sank down beside him, head on
paws. He could see the faint gleam of its eyes. He didn't actually like this
dog, but he had a sense that there would be no hope of achieving this journey
without Alun ab Owyn's hound. He
made his muscles relax. Shifted his neck from side to side, to ease the pain
there. So many years, so many times he'd done this: night watch in a dangerous
place. He'd thought he was through with it. No need to be on guard behind an
oak door on Rabady Isle. Life twisted on you—or you twisted it for yourself. No
man knew his ending, or even the next branching of his path. Branching
paths. In the quiet of the wood, his mind went back. That often happened when
you were awake alone at night. Once,
in fog, on a raid in Ferrieres, he and Siggur and a small band of others had
found themselves separated from the main party on a retreat to the coast.
They'd gone too far inland for safety, but Siggur had been drinking steadily on
that raid (so had Thorkell, truth be told) and they'd been reckless with it.
They'd also been young. They
literally stumbled upon a sanctuary they hadn't even known about: a chapel and
outbuildings hidden in a knife of a valley east of Champieres. They saw the
chapel lights through mist. A sanctuary of the Sleepless Ones, at their endless
vigil. There'd have been no lights to see them by, otherwise. They
attacked, screaming Ingavin's name, in the dense, blurred dark. Foolish beyond
any words it was, for they were being pursued by the young Prince Carloman,
who'd already proven himself a warrior, and it was not a time to be staying to
raid, let alone with a dozen men. But
that branching path that had separated them from the body of their company made
Thorkell Einarson's fortune. They killed twenty clerics and their
cudgel-bearing servants in that isolated valley, seeing terror flare whitely in
men's eyes before they fled from the northmen. Laughing,
blood-soaked and blood-drunk, they set fire to the outbuildings and took away
all the sanctuary treasure they could carry. Those treasures were astonishing.
That hidden complex turned out to be a burial place of royalty, and what they
discovered in the recesses of side chapels and surrounding tombs was dazzling. Siggur
had found his sword there. Being
Siggur, he decreed, when they made their way back to the ships and found the
others, that this portion of the raid's plunder belonged only to those who had
been there. And being Siggur, he had no trouble enforcing his will. Every young
man in Vinmark wanted to be one of the Volgan's shipmates in those days. They'd
already begun using that name for him. Thorkell
supposed, sitting in darkness, entirely sober, that it could be fairly said
that that friendship had shaped his life. Siggur had been very young when
they'd started raiding, and Thorkell had been even younger, in awe that such a
man seemed to consider him a companion, want him at his side, on a battlefield
or tavern bench. Siggur
had never been a thoughtful, considering sort. He'd led by leading, by being at
the front of every assault: faster, stronger, a little bit wilder than anyone
else—except perhaps for the occasional berserkir who'd join them at
times. He'd drunk more than any of them, awake and upright after the rest were
snoring at benches or sprawled among the rushes of an ale-room floor. Thorkell
remembered—it was a well-known tale—the morning Siggur had come out of an inn
with another raider, a man named Leif, after a full night of drinking, and
challenged the other to a race—along the oars of their ships, moored side by
each in the harbour. Nothing
like it had ever been done before. No one had ever thought of such a
thing. Amid laughter and wagers flying, they roused and assembled their bleary-eyed
men, had them take their places on board and level their oars straight out.
Then, as the sun came up, the two leaders began a race, up one side of their
ships, leaping from oar to oar, and back down the other side, swinging across
by using the dragon-prows. Leif
Fenrikson didn't even make it to the prow. Siggur
went around his ship twice, at speed. That was Siggur at his best: blazoning
his own prowess, and also showing that of his chosen companions, for a wobbling
or uneven oar would have made him fall, no doubting it. Twice around he ran
that course, with Thorkell and every other man on board holding steady for him
as he raced alone, bare-chested, around and around them, laughing for the joy
of being young and what he was, in morning's first light. It
changed over the years, for so much of youth cannot linger, and ale can bring
rage and bitterness as easily as laughter and fellowship. Thorkell realized at
some point that Siggur Volganson was never going to stop drinking and raiding,
that he couldn't. That there was nothing in Ingavin's offered middle-world for
him but cresting white foam waves in sunlight or storm, appearing out of the
sea to beach the ships and ride or run inland to burn and kill. It was the doing
that mattered. Gold, silver, gems, women, the slaves they took—these were
only the world's reasons. Access to glory. Salt
spray and lit fires and testing himself again and again, endlessly, those were
the things that drove him all his too-short life. Never
saying a word about these thoughts, Thorkell rowed and fought beside him until
the end, which came in Llywerth, as everyone knew. Siggur had heard that the
Cyngael were gathering a force to meet his ships, and had led them ashore
regardless, for the joy of battling what might be there. They were
outnumbered there by the sea, a host assembled from each of the Cyngael's
warring provinces. He offered single combat to them, a challenge hurled at all
three princes of the Cyngael but taken up by a young man who was no prince at
all. And Brynn ap Hywll, big and hard and sober as a Jad-mad cleric on a
fasting retreat, had altered the northlands entirely by killing Siggur
Volganson on that strand—and taking the sword he'd carried since the raid by
Champieres. It
was the death Siggur had always sought. Thorkell knew it, even then, that same
day. The only ending Siggur could have imagined. The infirmities of age, sober
governing, kingship .. . could not even be conceived. But by then Thorkell
already knew it was not his own idea of a life and its iron-swift ending. He'd
yielded to the Cyngael, in a sudden stunned emptiness. In time he made his
escape, for servitude wasn't his vision of existence either. He crossed the
Wall and the Anglcyn lands and then autumn seas home. And then he made a home.
It was his share of the gems and gold carried away from that chanced-upon
valley in Ferrieres that bought him land and a farm on Rabady, in the year he
decided it was time. Rabady
Isle was as good a place as any, and better than most, to shape a second life.
He found a wife (and no man, living or dead, ever heard him say a word against
her), had the two daughters, then his boy. Married the girls off when they were
of age, and well enough, across on the mainland. Watched the boy—clever and
with some spirit—as he grew. He did some more raiding in those years, chose
ships and companions and landings. Salt got in the blood, the Erlings said. The
sea was hard to leave behind you. But no wintering over for him, no grand
designs of conquest. Sober captains, neatly planned journeys. Siggur
was dead; Thorkell wasn't going back to that time. He crossed the seas for what
there was in it, for what he could bring home. No man would have said he was
other than prosperous, Thorkell Einarson of Rabady Isle, once a companion of
the Volgan
himself. A good-enough life, with a hearth and a bed at the end, it seemed, not
a blade-death on a distant shore. No man living knew his end. Here
he was, overseas again, in a wood where no man should be. And how had that come
to pass? The oath sworn to ap Hywll's wife, yes, but he'd broken oaths over the
years. He'd done so when he first escaped the Cyngael, hadn't he, after
surrendering? He
could have found a way to do the same thing here. Could do it right now. Kill
these two sleeping princes—in a place where they'd be expected to die,
where no one would ever find them—make his way back out of the wood, wait for
the fyrd to go north, as they surely would, start across country to
Erlond, where his own people had settled. In a still-forming colony like that
one there would be many men with stories they didn't want told. That was how a
people's boundaries expanded, how they moved on from starting points. Questions
didn't get asked. You could make a new life. Again. He
shook his head, to clear it, order his mind. He was tired, not thinking well.
He didn't have to kill the other two. Could just rise up now, while they
slept, start back east. He snorted softly, amused at himself. That still wasn't
right. He didn't even need to sneak away. Could wake them, bid farewell, invoke
Jad's blessing on the two of them (and Ingavin's, inwardly). Alun ab Owyn had told
him to leave. He didn't have to be here at all. Except for the one thing.
The awareness that lay under the folly of this night like a seed in hard spring
ground. His
son was on those dragon-ships, and he was there because He
didn't carry many memories of the two of them together as the boy grew up. Some
men liked to talk, spin tales at their own hearth or a tavern's—spin them so
far from truth you could laugh. His first tavern killing had come about because
he had laughed at someone doing that. Thorkell wasn't a tale-spinner,
never had been. A man's tongue could bring him trouble more quickly than
anything else. He kept his counsel, guarded memories. If others in Rabady told
the boy tales about his father—truth or lies—well, Bern would learn to sort
those for himself, or he wouldn't. No one had taken Thorkell in hand as a boy
and taught him how you handled yourself when you came ashore in a thunderstorm
on rocks and found armed men waiting for you. Sitting
in that wood that lay like a locked barrier between Cyngael lands and Anglcyn,
awake while two young men slept, he did find himself recalling—unexpectedly—an
evening long ago. A summer's twilight, mild as a maiden. The boy—eight summers
old, ten?—had come out with him while he repaired a door on the barn. Bern had
carried his father's tools, Thorkell seemed to remember, had been amusingly
proud to do so. He'd fixed the door then they'd walked somewhere—he didn't
remember where, the boundaries of their land—and for some reason he'd told Bern
the story of the raid when the Anglcyn royal guard had trapped them too far from
the sea. He
really didn't tell many of the old tales. Maybe that's why the evening was with
him. The scent of the summer flowers, a breeze, the rock—he remembered now,
he'd been leaning against the rock at their northern boundary, the boy looking
up at him as he listened, so intent it could make you smile. One evening, one
story. They'd walked back to the house, after. No more to it than that. Bern
wouldn't even recall the evening, he knew. Nothing of any meaning had taken
place. Bern
was bearded and grown. Their land was gone; an exile's house always went to
someone else. You could say the boy had made his own choice, but you could also
say Thorkell had taken choices away from him, put him in a circumstance where a
poisonous serpent like Ivarr Ragnarson might think through whose son this was
and take vengeance for what had happened at Brynnfell. You could say his father
had put him on that branching path. Even
so, you might even find a reason to chuckle about all of this tonight, if that
was the way your humour worked. All you needed to do was think about it.
Consider the three of them in this wood. Alun ab Owyn was really here, more
than a little maddened, because of a dead brother. Athelbert had come because
of his father—the need to make proof of himself in Aeldred's eyes and
his own. And Thorkell Einarson, exiled from Rabady, was-truthfully—in this
forest for his son. Someone
should make a song of it, he thought, shaking his head. He spat into the
darkness. He was too tired to laugh, but felt like it, a little. A
small sound. The grey dog had lifted his head, seemed to be watching him. He
really was weary, but it almost seemed as if the dog were tracking his
thoughts. An unsettling animal, more to it than you'd expect. He
had no idea which way the Jormsvik ships were going, none of them did. This
desperate, foolish journey might be entirely unnecessary. You had to come to
terms with that. You could be dying for no reason at all. Well, what of that?
Reason or no reason, you were just as dead. He'd already lived longer than he'd
expected to. He
heard a different sound. The
dog again; Cafall had risen, was standing rigidly, head lifted. Thorkell
blinked in surprise. Then the animal whimpered. And
that sound, from that source, frightened him beyond words. He scrambled to his
feet. His heart was pounding even before he, too, caught the smell. That
smell first, then sounds, he never saw a thing. The other two men rose, jerked
from sleep at the first loud crashing, as if pulled upright like toys on a
string. Athelbert began swearing; both unsheathed their swords. None
of them could see anything at all. It was black beyond power of sight to
penetrate, stars and moon blocked by the encircling trees and their green-black
summer leaves. The pool beside them dark, utterly still. Such
pools, Thorkell thought, rather too late, were where the creatures that ruled
the night came to drink, or hunt. "Jad's
holy blood," whispered Athelbert, "was is that?" Thorkell,
had he been less afraid, might have made the easy, profane jest. Because it was
blood they smelled. And flesh: pungent, rotting, like a kill left in the
sun. A smell of earth, too, underneath, heavy, loamy, an animal odour with all
of these. Another
sound, sharp in the black, something cracking: a small tree, a branch.
Athelbert swore again. Alun had not yet spoken. The dog whimpered again, and
Thorkell's hand on his hammer began to shake. One of the horses tossed its head
and whinnied loudly. No secret to their presence now, if ever there had been. "Stand
close," he snapped, under his breath, though there was hardly a reason to
be quiet now. The
other two came over. Alun still had his sword out. Athelbert sheathed his now,
took his bow, notched an arrow. There was nothing to be seen, nowhere to shoot.
Something fell heavily, north of them. Whatever this was, it was large enough
to knock over trees. And
it was in that moment that Thorkell had an image burst within his mind and
lodge there, as if rooted. His jaw clenched, to stop himself from crying out. He
had been a fighter almost all his life, had seen brain matter and entrails
spilled to lie slippery on sodden ground, had watched a woman's face burn away,
melting to bone. He'd seen blood-eaglings, a Karchite hostage torn apart
between whipped horses, and never flinched, even when he was sober. These were
the northlands, life was what it was. Hard things happened. But his hands were
trembling now like an old man's. He actually wondered if he was going to fall.
He thought of his grandmother, these long years dead, who had known of such
things as the creature out there in the night must be, perhaps even its name. "Ingavin's
blind eye! Kneel!" he rasped, the words forming themselves, forced from
him. But when he looked over he saw that the other two were already kneeling on
that dark ground by the pool. The smell from beyond the glade was overpowering,
you could gag or retch; Thorkell apprehended something hideous and immense,
ancient, not to be in any way confronted by three men, frail with mortality, in
a place where they should not be. In
terror then, weariness entirely gone, Thorkell looked at the shapes of the two
men kneeling beside him, and he made a decision, a choice, took a path. The
gods called you to themselves—wherever and whatever the gods might be—as it
pleased them to do so. Men lived and died, knowing this. He
stayed on his feet.
In
all of us, fear and memory interweave in complex, changing ways. Sometimes it
is the thing unseen that will linger and appall long afterwards. Sliding into
dreams from the blurred borders of awareness, or emerging, perhaps, when we
stand alone, on first waking, at the fence of a farmyard or the perimeter of an
encampment in that misty hour when the idea of morning is not quite incarnate
in the east. Or it can assail us like a blow in the bright shimmer of a crowded
market at midday. We do not ever move entirely beyond what has brought us
mortal terror. Alun
would never know it, for it was not a thing that could be shared in words, but
the image, the aura he had in his mind as he sank to his knees, was
exactly what Thorkell Einarson apprehended within himself, and Athelbert was
aware of the same thing in the blackness of that glade. The
smell, to Alun, was death. Decay, corruption, that which had been living and
was no longer so, not for a long time, and yet was moving as it rotted,
crashing in some vast bulk through trees. He had a sense of a creature larger
than the woods should, by rights, have held. His heart hammered. Blessed Jad of
Light, the god behind the sun: was he not to defend his children from terrors
such as this, whatever it was? He
was drenched in sweat. "I'm . . . I'm sorry," he stammered to
Athelbert beside him. "This is my doing, my mistake."
"Pray," was all the Anglcyn said. Alun
did so, choking on the rotting stench that filled the grove. He saw Cafall
trembling, ahead of him. The horses were steadier, strangely. One had whinnied;
now they stood transfixed, statues, as if unable to move or make a sound. And
he remembered how he and a different horse had been immobilized like that
inside another pool in another wood when the queen of the faeries had passed
by. This
was, he knew, another creature from that spirit world. What else could it be?
Massive, carrying the odour of decaying animal and death. Not like the faeries.
This was . . . something beyond them. "Get down!" he said to
Thorkell. The
Erling had not knelt, didn't turn his head. Afterwards, Alun would have a
thought about that, but in that moment whatever it was that bulked beyond the
clearing roared aloud. The trees
shook. It seemed to Alun, ears and mind blasted by immensity of sound, that the
stars above the forest had to be swinging in their courses like carried censers
in a wind. Almost
deafened, his hands in helpless spasm, he stared into the blank night and
waited for this death to claim them. Cafall was on his belly, flat to the
ground. Beside the dog, still on his feet, Thorkell Einarson took his hammer
and—moving slowly, as if in some dream Alun was having, or pushing into a
gale—he laid the shaft across both his palms and he stepped towards the
sound, and then he set the hammer down, carefully, an offering upon the grass. Alun
didn't understand. He didn't understand anything beyond terror and the
awareness of their transgression and the engulfing power just out of sight. Thorkell
spoke then, in the Erling tongue and, his ears still ringing, Alun yet
understood enough to hear him say, "We seek only passage, lord. Only that.
Will harm no living creature of the wood, if it be thy will to grant us
leave." And then there was something else, spoken more softly, and Alun
did not hear it. There
came a second roaring, even louder than the first, whether in reply or entirely
oblivious to the feeble words of a mortal man, and it seemed to those in the
glade as if that noise could flatten trees. It
was Athelbert, of the three of them, who thought he heard another thing within
that sound, woven into it. He never put it into words, then or after, but what
he sensed while he cowered, stuttering prayers in the gut-harrowing certainty
of dying, was pain. Something older than he could even attempt to fathom. The
downward reach of his soul didn't go deep enough for that. He heard it, though,
and had no idea why this was allowed. There
was no third roaring. Alun
had been waiting for it, instinctively, but then, in the silence, it occurred
to him that triads, things in threes, were a shaping of bards, a mortal
conceit, a way of the Cyngael, not a grounded truth of the spirit world. He
would take that, with some other things, away from that glade. For it seemed
they were going to be allowed to leave. The silence continued. It grew,
rippled, reclaimed the woods around. None of them moved. The stars did,
ceaselessly, far above, and the blue moon was still rising, climbing the long
track laid out for it in the sky. Time does not pause, for men or beasts,
though it might seem to us to have stopped at some moments, or we might wish it
to do so at others, to suspend a shining, call back a gesture or a blow, or
someone lost. The
dog stood up.
Thorkell
was still shivering. The odour was gone, that smell of maggot-eaten meat and
fur and old blood. He felt sweat drying on his skin, cold in the night. He
found himself eerily calm. He was thinking, in fact, of how many people he had
killed in his raiding years. Another in an alley last night, once a shipmate.
And of all of them, named or nameless, known, or seen only in the red moment
his hammer or axe blade slew them, the one he so much wanted back, the moment
he'd reclaim from time if he could, was Nikar Kjellson's killing in the tavern
at home a year ago. In
the otherworldly stillness of this glade, he could very nearly see himself
going out through the low tavern door, stooping under the beam into a soft
night, walking home under stars through a quiet town to his wife and son,
instead of accepting one more flask of ale and a last round of wagering on the
tumbled dice. He'd
have that one back, if the world were a different place. It was
different now, he thought, after what had just happened, but not in the way
he needed it to be. It occurred to him, with something bordering astonishment,
that he might weep. He rubbed a hand through his beard, drew it across his
eyes, felt time grip him again, carrying them, small boats on a too-wide sea. "Why
are we alive?" Alun ab Owyn asked. His voice was rough. It was, Thorkell
thought, the right question, the only one worth asking, and he had no answer. "We
didn't matter enough to kill," Athelbert said, surprising the other two.
Thorkell looked over at him. They were shapes here, only, all of them.
"What did you say to it, at the end? When you put down the hammer?" Thorkell
was trying to decide what to answer when the dog growled, deep in its throat. "Dear
Jad," Alun said. Thorkell
saw where he was pointing. He caught his breath. Something green was shimmering
at the edge of their glade, beyond the pool; a human form, or nearly so. He
looked the other way, quickly. A second one on their right, then a third,
beside that one. No sound at all this time, just the pale green glowing of
these figures. He turned back to the Cyngael prince. "Do
you know ... ? Is this what you ... ?" he began. "No,"
said Alun. And again, "No." Flatly, no hope offered. "Cafall,
hold!" The
dog was still growling, straining forward. The horses, Thorkell saw, were
agitated now; there was a risk they might break free of their tethers, or hurt
themselves trying. The
shapes, whatever they were, were about the height of a man, but the shimmer and
glow of them, wavering, made their appearance hard to determine. He wouldn't
have seen anything if they hadn't cast that faint green illumination.
There were at least six of them, perhaps one or two more behind those ringing
the glade. His hammer was on the grass, where he'd laid it down. "Do
I shoot?" said Athelbert. "No!"
Thorkell said quickly. "I swore that we'd harm no living thing." "So
we wait till they . . . ?" "We
don't know what this is," Alun said. "You
imagine they're bringing pillows for our weary heads?" Athelbert snapped. "I
have no idea what to imagine. I can only—" A
never-finished thought, that one. Speech can be rendered meaningless sometimes,
the sought-after clarity of words. The fierce white light that burst from the
pond, shattering darkness like glass, made all three of them throw hands before
their eyes and cry aloud. They
were blinded, as unable to see as they had been in the blackness. Too much
light, too little light: the same consequence. They were men in a place where
they ought not to have been. The sounds in the glade were their own cries,
fading in the charged air, the horses' neighing, thrashing of hooves. Nothing
from the dog now, no noise at all from the green creatures that had encircled
them, or from whatever had made that annihilating flare of light, which was
also gone now. It was black again. Alun,
standing rigid and afraid, eyes clenched shut in pain, caught a scent, heard a
rustling. A hand claimed his. Then a voice at his ear, music, scarcely a
breath, "Drop your iron. Please. Come. I must get away from it. The spruaugh
are gone." Fumbling,
he let fall his sword and belt, let her lead him, his senses dazzled, eyes
useless, heart painful, too large for his chest. "Wait!
I . . . can't leave the others," he stammered, after they'd gone a little
distance from the glade. "Why?"
she said, but she did stop. He'd
known she would say that. They were impossibly different, the two of them,
beyond his power to even nearly comprehend. The scent of her was intoxicating.
His knees felt weak, her touch conjured a kind of madness. She had come for
him. "I
won't leave the others," he corrected. There were flashes and
spirals of light in his field of vision. It was painful when he opened his
eyes. He still couldn't see. "What . . . what were . . . ?" "Spruaugh."
He could hear disgust in her voice,
could imagine her hair changing colour as she spoke, but he still couldn't see.
It occurred to him to be afraid again, to wonder if he would be forever blinded
by that shattering flash, but even with the thought came the first hints of
returning vision. She was a spilling light beside him. "What
are . . . ?" "We
don't know. Or I don't. The queen might. They are mostly in this forest. A few
come into our small one, linger near us, but not often. They are cold and ugly,
soulless, without grace. They
try, sometimes, to make the queen attend to them, flying to her with tales when
we do wrong. But mostly they stay away from where we are, in here." "Are
they dangerous?" "For
you? Everything is dangerous here. You should not have come." "I
know that. There was no choice." He could almost see her. Her hair was an
amber glow. "No
choice?" She laughed, rippling. He
said, "Did you feel you had a choice when you rescued me?" It was as
if they had to teach each other how the world was made, or seen. A
silence, as she considered. "Is that . . . what you meant?" He
nodded. She was still holding his hand. Her fingers were cool. He brought them
to his lips. She traced the outline of his mouth. Amid everything, after
everything, here was desire. And wonder. She had come. "What
was it? Before them. The thing that—" Fingers
flat against his mouth, pressing. "We do not name it, for fear it will
answer to the name. There is a reason why your people do not come here, why we
almost never do. That one, not the spruaugh. It is older than we
are." He
was silent for a time. Her hand was moving again, tracing his face. "I
don't know why we're alive," he said. "Nor
do I." Matter-of-factly, a simple truth. "One of you did make an
offering." "The
Erling. Thorkell. His hammer, yes." She
said nothing, though he thought she was about to. Instead, she stepped nearer,
rose upon her toes, and kissed him on the lips, tasting of moonlight, though it
was dark where they stood, except for her. The blue moon outside, above,
shining over his own lands, hers, over the seas. He brought his hands up,
touched her hair. He could see the small, shining impossibility of her. A
faerie in his arms. He
said, "Will we die here?" "You
think I can know what will come?" "I
know that I can't." She
smiled. "I can keep the spruaugh from you." "Can
you guide us? To Brynnfell?" "That
is where you are going?" "The
Erlings are, we think. Another raid." She
made a face, distaste more than anything else. Offended rather than fearful or
dismayed. Iron and blood, near to their small wood and pool. And, truly, why
should the deaths of mortal men cause a spirit such as this dismay, Alun
thought. Then
he had another thought. Before he could back away from it he said, "You
could go ahead? Warn them? Brynn has seen you. He might . . . come up the
slope, if you were there again." Brynn
had been there with him after the battle. And in that pool in the wood when he
was young. He might fight his visions of the spirit world, but surely, surely
he would not deny her if she came to him. She
stepped back. Her hair amber again, soft light among tall trees. "I cannot
do that and guard you." "I
know," Alun said. "Or
guide." He
nodded. "I know. We are hoping that Cafall can." "The dog? He
might. It is many days for you." "Five
or six, we thought." "Perhaps." "And
you can be there ..." "Sooner
than that." "Will
you?" She
was so small, delicate as spray from a waterfall. He could see her chasing a
thought, her hair altering as she did, dark, then bright again. She smiled.
"I might grieve for you. The way mortals do. I may start to
understand." He
swallowed, with sudden difficulty. "I . . . we will hope not to die here.
But there are many people at risk. You saw what happened the last time they
came." She
nodded, gravely. "This is what you wish?" It
was what he needed. Wishes were another thing. He said, "It will be a
gift, if you do this." So
still a place, where they were. There ought to have been more noises in a wood
at night, the pad of the animals that hunted now, scurry of those that moved along
branches, between roots, fleeing. It was silent. Perhaps the light of her, he
thought . . . steering the creatures of the forest away. She
said, serious as children could sometimes be, "You will have taught me
sorrow." "Will
you call it a gift?" He remembered what she'd said the night before. She
bit her lip. "I do not know. But I will go home to the hill above
Brynnfell and try to tell him there are men coming, from the sea. How do you .
. . how do mortals say farewell?" He
cleared his throat. "Many different ways." He bent, with all the
grace he could command, and kissed her on each cheek, and then upon the mouth.
"I would not have thought my life would offer such a gift as you." She
looked, he thought, surprised. After a moment, she said, "Stay with the
dog." She
turned, was moving away, carrying brightness and music. He said, in a panic,
sudden and too loud, startling them both, "Wait. I don't know your
name." She
smiled. "Neither do I," she said, and went. Darkness
rushed back in her wake. The glade and pond were not far away. Alun made his
way there. Called out as he approached, so as not to startle them. Cafall met
him at the clearing's edge. Both
men were standing. "Do
we know what that was?" Thorkell asked. "The light?" "Another
spirit," Alun said. "This one a friend. She drove them away with it.
I don't think . . . we can't stay here. I believe we need to keep moving." "Tsk.
And here I was, imagining you'd gone to fetch those pillows for our
heads," said Athelbert. "Sorry.
Dropped them on the way back," Alun replied. "Dropped
your sword and belt, too," said the Anglcyn prince. "Here they
are." Alun took both, buckled the belt, adjusted the hang of his sword. "Thorkell,
your weapon?" asked Athelbert. "It
stays here," said the Erling. Alun
saw Athelbert nod his head. "I thought as much. Take my sword. I'll use
the bow." "Cafall?"
said Alun. The dog padded over. "Take us home." They
untied and mounted their horses, left glade and silent pond behind, though
never the memory of them, pushing westward in the dark on a narrow, subtle
track, following the dog, a hammer left behind them in the grass. + Kendra
would have liked to say that it was because of concern for her brother, an
awareness of him, that she knew what she knew that night, but it wasn't so. Word,
or a first word, came to Esferth very late. The king's messengers sent from the
sea strand to Drengest had carried orders that one ship should go to the
Cyngael—to Prince Owyn in Cadyr, who was closest—with word of a possible Erling
raid upon Brynnfell. On
the way to Drengest, the three outriders had divided, on orders, one of them
racing his tidings to the nearest of the hilltop beacons. From there the
message had come north in signal fires. The Erlings were routed, many of them
slain. The rest had fled. Prince Athelbert had gone away on a journey. His
brother was to be
kept safe. The king and fyrd would be home in two days' time. Further
orders would follow. Osbert
dispatched runners to carry word of victory to the queen and to the city and
the tents outside. There was a fair about to begin, men needed reassurance,
urgently. The rest of the message was not for others to hear. It
wasn't actually difficult, Kendra thought, as the meaning of the words sank in,
to realize what lay beneath the tidings of her brother. You didn't have to be
wise, or old. There
were a dozen of them in the hall. She had found it impossible to sleep, and
equally difficult to stay all night in chapel praying. This hall, with Osbert,
seemed the best place. Gareth had obviously felt the same way; Judit had been
here earlier, was somewhere else now. She
looked over at Gareth, saw how pale he had become. Her heart went out to him.
Younger son, the quiet one. Had never wanted more than the role life seemed to
be offering him. You might even have said what he really wanted was less of
a role. But
the very specific instructions—kept safe—said a great deal about what sort of
journey their older brother was taking, though not where. If King Aeldred and
the Anglcyn ended up with only one male heir left, life was about to change for
Gareth. For all of them, Kendra thought. She looked around. She had no idea
where Judit was; their mother was at chapel still, of course. "Athelbert.
In the name of Jad, what is . . . what has he done now?" Osbert asked, of
no one in particular. The
chamberlain seemed to have aged tonight, Kendra thought. Burgred's death would
be part of it. He'd be moving through memories right now, even as he struggled
to deal with unfolding events. The past always came back. In a way you could
say that none of those who'd lived through that winter in Beortferth had ever
left the marshes behind. Her father's fevers were only the most obvious form of
that. "I
have no idea," someone said, from down the table. "Gone chasing
them?" "They
have ships," Gareth protested. "He can't chase them."
"Some of them might not have made it back to the sea." "Then
he'd have the fyrd, they'd all go, and this message wouldn't say—" "We
will learn more soon," Osbert said quietly. "I shouldn't have asked.
There's little point in guessing like children at a riddle game." And
that was true enough, as most things Osbert said were. But it was then, in
precisely that moment, looking at her father's crippled, beloved chamberlain,
that Kendra realized that she knew what was happening. She
knew. As simple and appalling as that. And it was because of the Cyngael prince
who had come to them, not her brother. Something had changed in her life the
moment the Cyngael had crossed the stream the day before, towards where she and
the others were lying on summer grass, idling a morning away. Just
as she had the night before, she knew where Alun ab Owyn had gone. And
Athelbert was with him. As
simple as that. As impossible. Had she asked for this? Done something that had
brought it upon her as a curse? Am I a witch? the thought came,
intrusive. Her hand closed, a little desperately, on the sun disk about her
neck. Witches sold love potions, ground up herbs for ailments, blighted crops
and cattle for a fee, held converse with the dead. Could go safely into
enchanted places. She
took her hand from the disk. Closed her eyes a moment. It is
in the nature of things that when we judge actions to be memorably courageous,
they are invariably those that have an impact that resonates: saving other
lives at great risk, winning a battle, losing one's life in a valiant attempt
to do one or the other. A death of that sort can lead to songs and memories at
least as much—sometimes more—than a triumph. We celebrate our losses, knowing
how they are woven into the gift of our being here. Sometimes,
however, an action that might be considered as gallant as any of these will
take its shape and pass unknown. No singer to observe and mourn, or celebrate,
no vivid, world-changing consequence to spur the harpist's fingers. Kendra
rose quietly, as she always did, murmured her excuses, and left the hall. She
didn't think anyone noticed. Men were coming and going, despite the hour. The
beacon fire's tidings were running through the city. Outside, in the torchlit
corridor, she found herself walking a little more quickly than usual, as though
she needed to keep moving or she would falter. The guard at the doors, someone
she knew, smiled at her and opened to the street outside. "An
escort, my lady?" "None
needed. My thanks. I'm going only back to chapel and my lady mother." The
chapel was to the left so she had to turn that way at the first meeting of
lanes. She paused, out of sight, long enough for him to close the door again.
Then she went back the other way, heading towards the wall and gates for the
second time in as many nights. Footsteps,
a known voice. "You
lied to him. Where are you going?" She
turned. Felt a swift, unworthy flowering of relief, offered thanks to the god.
She would be stopped now, would not have to do this after all. Gareth, his face
taut with concern, came up to her. She had no idea what to say. So
offered truth. "Gareth. Listen. I can't tell you how, and it frightens me,
but I am quite certain Athelbert is in the spirit wood." He
had taken a blow this evening with the tidings, harder than hers. He was still
adjusting to it. She saw him step back a little. A witch! Unclean! she
thought. Couldn't help but think. Unworthy,
that thought. This was her brother. After a moment, he said, carefully,
"You feel a . . . sense of him?" He
was close to truth. It wasn't Athelbert, in fact, but that much she wasn't
ready to divulge. She swallowed hard, and nodded. "I think he . . . and
some others are trying to get west." "Through
that forest? No one . . . Kendra, that's . . . folly." "That's
Athelbert," she said, but it didn't come out lightly. Not tonight. "I
think they feel a need to go very fast, or even he wouldn't do this." Gareth's
brow had knitted the way it did when he was thinking hard. "A warning? The
Erlings going that way by sea?" She nodded. "I think that must be
it." "But
why would Athelbert care?" This
became difficult. "He might be joining others, making one with them." "The
Cyngael prince?" He
was clever, her little brother. He might also be the kingdom's heir by now. She
nodded her head again. "But
how ... Kendra, how would you know?" She
shrugged. "You said it . . . a sense of him." A lie, but not too far
from truth. He
was visibly struggling with this. And how should he not? She was struggling,
and it was inside her. He
took a breath. "Very well. What is it you want to do?" There
it was. She wasn't going to be stopped unless she stopped herself. She
swallowed. "Only one thing," she said. "A small thing. Take me
outside the walls. It will be easier if I'm with you." He
loved her. His life was altered forever if Athelbert died. And in a different
way, she supposed, if she died. Gareth looked at her a moment, then nodded his
head. They went to the gate together in the blue moonlight. A
different man on watch, which was good; the last one would have been stricken
with fear to see her, after what had happened the night before. There were
still hundreds of men (and not a few women, she knew) outside by the tents.
They'd have heard glorious tidings by now, a celebration would be beginning. Gareth
had no trouble persuading the guard that they were going out to join in that.
Suggested that their sister, the princess Judit, would likely be not far
behind, which happened to be—very probably—the case. If she wasn't ahead of
them, having gone out another way. Outside,
walking quickly west, not north towards the lights and the tents, Kendra had a
tardy thought. She stopped again. "You . . . the message said you were to
be kept safe." Gareth,
uncharacteristically, swore. It would have been more impressive if he hadn't
sounded as though he were imitating Judit. She might have been amused at any
other time. He glared at her. She lowered her gaze. They
moved on, came at length to the river. It all felt oddly like a dream now, a
repeating of something done. She had been here last night. She'd
stopped on this side, then, waited for someone to come out of the trees. Kendra
hesitated now, looked up at her brother. "You
are going in, aren't you," he said. "The forest. To .. . spirits
there." Not
really a question. She
nodded her head. "Stay for me? Please?" "I
can come." She
touched his hand. That was brave, very much Gareth, would bring her to tears if
she wasn't careful. "If you do, I will not go. You may curse all you like
at instructions, but I will not lead you into the spirit wood. I won't be long,
or go far. Say you'll stay here, or we both go back now." "That
last sounds perfectly good to me." She
didn't smile, though she could see he wanted her to. She waited. He
said, finally, "You are sure of this?" She
nodded again. Another lie, of course, but at least not a spoken one this time. He
leaned forward, kissed her on the forehead. "You are so much better than
all the rest of us," he said. "Jad defend you. I'll be here." Moonlight
on the water, reflecting from the stream. Very little breeze, the night mild,
late summer. She went quickly, wading in and across, before she could lose what
felt like a too-small store of courage, or he could see that she was crying,
after all. The
forest here began only a little way beyond the water. It slanted west farther
south, and then there was the long knife of the valley half a day's ride that
way—and the holy house at Retherly where her mother was going to go after Judit
was wed. She knew about that and Judit did. She didn't think her brothers had
been told yet. Marriages
and retreats. Kendra couldn't say she'd spent any great amount of time thinking
about either, or about boys and men. Perhaps she ought to have. Perhaps this
had been a sister's reaction to Judit, whose lifelong defiance of any imposed
order or protocol had led her far from the norms of a proper young woman's
behaviour. Kendra
was, she supposed, the proper young woman of the family. (An alarming thought,
at that particular moment.) It hadn't ever felt as though she was, it
was more a matter of not enough inclination to pursue such matters, and no
one—in truth—alluring or engaging enough to change her mind on the vague but
undeniably important subject of men. Her brothers and sisters made jokes about
Hakon's interest in her (they weren't kind to him about it), but Kendra
considered him a friend, and . . . a boy, really. There wasn't much point
thinking about it, in any case. Her father would decide where she wed, just as
he had with Judit. Her
sister's fiery recklessness hadn't done much to alter the fact that she was
marrying a thirteen-year-old Rheden prince this winter. As far as Kendra was
concerned, defiance needed to get you somewhere, or it was just . . .
being noisy. She
wasn't sure whether what she was doing now was defiant, or mad, or—most
alarmingly—if it was something dark and complex and having to do with a man,
after all. There was nothing ordinary about it, she knew. She
also knew, very near the trees now, that if she even slowed, let alone broke
stride here at the wood's edge, fear would take hold of her entirely, so she
kept walking—into the darkness of branches and leaves where Alun ab Owyn had
gone the night before. The
strangeness, this terrible, unsettling inward strangeness, grew stronger. He
was in these woods. She knew it. And she even seemed to know exactly where she
needed to go now, where he had been last night. This is unholy, she
thought, and bit her lip. I could burn for this. It
wasn't far, which was a blessing of the god upon her life, and might mean she
was not yet entirely cast out from Jad's countenance and protection. She had no
time to try to think that through. Where
she stopped was less a clearing than an easing of the press of trees around,
where grass might grow. She thought about wolves, then snakes, made herself
stop that. She stood very still, because this was the place. She waited. And
nothing happened. A sense of foolishness assailed her. That, too, she pushed
away. She might not understand this awareness within, but it would be the worst
sort of lie to the self to deny it was in her, and she would not do that. She
cleared her throat, too loudly, almost made herself jump. In
the darkness of the spirit wood, Kendra said, very clearly, "If you are
here, whatever it is you are, whatever was here last night, that he came to
meet . . . you need to know that he's in the woods again now, to the south,
which is . . . very dangerous. And with him is my brother, Athelbert. Maybe
others. If you mean him well, and I pray to ... my god that you do, will you
help them? Please?" Silence.
Her voice, words spoken, then nothing, as if the sounds had been simply
swallowed, absorbed, sinking away into never-having-been. That feeling of
foolishness again, hard to push back. They would name her mad or a witch, or
both. That Ferrieres cleric visiting had spoken in the royal chapel four days
ago of the heresies and pagan rites that still flourished in corners of the
Jaddite world, and his voice had hardened when he'd told how such things needed
to be burned away, that the light of the god might not be dimmed by them. This
was, she supposed, a corner of the world. She
saw a light, where none had been. Kendra cried out, then covered her mouth
quickly. She had come here to be heard. Trembling, groping for courage
she really wasn't sure she possessed, she saw something green appear in front
of her, beside a tree trunk. A little taller than she was. Slender, hairless;
it was hard to discern features, or eyes, for the glow was strange, obscuring
as much as it illuminated. So this, she thought, was what Alun ab Owyn had come
to meet. In
the oddest, almost inexplicable way, seeing this vague, sexless, indeterminate
shape, she suddenly felt better—couldn't sort out why that might be. It didn't
seem malevolent. Nor should it be, she thought, if Alun had been here to meet
it. "Thank
... thank you," she managed. "For co . . . coming to me. Did you
hear? They are south. Near the coast, I believe. They . . . they are trying to
get through the wood. Do . . . do you understand anything I say?" No
response, no movement, no eyes to see or read. A green shape, a muted glow in
the wood. It was real, however. The spirits were real. She was speaking
to one. Fear, and wonder, and a sense of . . . very great urgency. "Can
you help them? Will you?" Nothing
at all. The creature was motionless, as if carved. Only a slight shimmer of the
green aura suggested it was a living thing. But fire glowed and shimmered and
was not alive. She
might be wrong. She might not understand any of this properly. And
that last thought, in fact, was nearest to the truth. Why
should she have understood what was happening? How could she do so? The spruaugh
stayed another moment and then withdrew, leaving darkness behind it again,
deeper for the lost light. Kendra
sensed immediately that this was all she was going to see, all that would
happen. The space among the trees felt .. . emptied out. Fear had gone, she
realized, replaced by wonder, a kind of awe. The world, she thought, was never
going to seem the same again. Going back, she wouldn't be returning to the same
stream or moonlight or the city she had left. There
were green shimmering creatures in the woods beside Esferth, whatever the
clerics might say. And people had always known this was so. Why else the
centuries-long fear of this forest? The stories told to frighten children, or
around night fires? She stayed where she was another moment, a pause before
returning, breathing in the darkness, alone, as she had been last night, but
not quite the same. And
so a difficult truth about human courage was played out among those trees. A
truth we resist for what it suggests about our lives. But sometimes the most
gallant actions, those requiring a summoning of all our will, access to bravery
beyond easy understanding or description . . . have no consequence that
matters. They leave no ripples upon the surface of succeeding events, cause
nothing, achieve nothing. Are trivial, marginal. This can be hard to accept. Aeldred's
younger daughter did something almost unspeakably brave, going alone at night
into the blackness of a wood believed to be haunted, intending to
confront the spirit world—which was the most appalling heresy according to
every tenet she had ever learned. And she did do that and spoke a message, the
warning she'd come to give—and it signified nothing at all, in the wheel and
turn of that night. The
faerie had gone already, long before. She
had, in fact, been tracking Aeldred's fyrd all the previous night and
through this day and into evening from within the wood. Almost all of the spruaugh
in the forest were south as well by now, and this one, hearing (and, yes,
understanding) Kendra's words, set itself to quickly go that way also, but
pursuing its own desires: such desires as those creatures still possessed,
which had nothing to do with guarding three mortal men in a forest that had
once been named a godwood, in the days when men dissembled less about such
things. A
hard truth: that courage can be without meaning or impact, need not be
rewarded, or even known. The world has not been made in that way. Perhaps,
however, within the self there might come a resonance, the awareness of having
done something difficult, of having done . . . something. That can ripple,
might do so, though in a different way. Mostly,
walking as quickly now as she dared in the root-and-branch darkness, what
Kendra felt was relief. A rush of it, like blood to the head when you stand up
too quickly. She had no idea what that green spirit had been, but it had come
to her. Spirit world, half-world. She had seen it, a glowing in the
night. Everything altered with that. She
came to the edge of the trees, saw moonlight through the last screening leaves,
then unmediated, with stars, as she came out. The stream, the summer grass, her
brother on the far bank. And what she felt, emerging, was near to joy. The
world had changed, in ways she couldn't sort through, but it was still, in the
main, the place she'd always known. The water, as she waded through, was cool,
pleasantly so on a summer night. She could hear music and laughter to her left,
north of the city. She could see the walls in the distance, torches for the
guards on the ramparts. She
could see her brother, solid and familiar and reassuring. She stopped in front
of him. He seemed taller, Kendra thought: somewhere over the summer Gareth had
grown. Or was that a sense that came from what she knew about Athelbert? Gareth
touched her shoulder. "I'm
me," she said. "Not spirit-claimed. Shall I kick you to prove it?" He
shook his head. "I'd think Judit's soul had claimed you. Do you want to go
to the tents? Be with people?" He
hadn't probed or pressed her at all. She shook her head. "My clothing and
boots are wet. I want to change. Then I think I need to go to chapel, if that's
all right? You can go over to the—" "I'll
stay with you." The
guard said nothing (what was he going to say?) when they called to come back in
so soon after going out. Kendra went to her rooms, woke her women, had two of
them help her change (they raised eyebrows but said nothing either—and what
were they going to say?). Then she went back out to where Gareth had
waited (again) and they went to chapel together. The
streets were busy for so late an hour, but Esferth was crowded and jubilant.
They could hear the noise from the taverns as they went. Walked past the one
where she'd stood across the street last night when Alun ab Owyn had come out
with his dog, and she'd called the Erling over to her. Gareth
broke their silence. "Is he all right?" "Who?" "Athelbert.
Of course." She
blinked. Had made an error there. She managed a shrug. "I think he'll be
all right. After all, Judit is nowhere near him." Gareth
stopped for a second, then burst out laughing. He dropped an arm around her
shoulder and they continued that way, turning right at the next junction of
streets towards the chapel. "Where
is Judit, do you think?" she asked. "I
imagine at the tents." He
was probably right, Kendra thought: there was cause for wine and
celebration with the Erlings slaughtered and driven away. In
the event, however, they were wrong. Entering the royal chapel they saw their
sister beside the queen, at prayer. Kendra stopped for a moment in the side
aisle, surprised. She found herself gazing at two profiles, candlelight upon
them. The queen's face round, fleshy, though still smooth, hints of a nearly
lost beauty; Judit in the bright flush of red-haired, fair-skinned glory, on
the cusp of her journey north to Rheden and marriage. Kendra
knew she had been avoiding the thought of that. So much would change. Their
mother would leave for Retherly, and once Judit was married it would be her
turn next. There might be green spirits in the wood, but the way of the world
was not going to change for an Anglcyn princess because of them. Aeldred's
two younger children went over and knelt beside their mother and sister,
looking towards the sun disk and the altar and the cleric standing there,
leading the prayers. After a moment they added their voices to the incantations
and responses. Some things at least still seemed clear enough, and needful: in
the nighttime you prayed for light. FOURTEEN Sometimes,
as events in a given saga or idyll or tale move towards what may be seen as a
resolution, those in the midst of what is unfolding will have a sense—even at
the time—of acceleration, a breathlessness, urgency, speed. Often,
however, this emerges only in looking back, an awareness long after the fact
(sometimes accompanied by belated fear) as to how many strands and lives had
been coming together—or breaking apart—at the same time. Men and women will
wonder at how they did not perceive these things, and be left with a
sense that chance, accident, or miraculous intervention (for good or ill) lay
at the heart of the time. It is
the humbling, daunting nature of this truth that can lead us to our gods, when
pace and press subside. But it also needs to be remembered that sagas and
idylls are constructed, that someone has composed their elements, selected and
balanced them, bringing what art and inclination they have, as an offering. The
tale of the Volgan's raid with a handful of men on a sanctuary of the Sleepless
Ones in Ferrieres will be very differently told by a cleric surviving the
attack, chronicling the round of a dismal year, and an Erling skald celebrating
a triumph. Those inside a story do not usually think of themselves that way,
though some may have an eye to fame and those who come after. Mostly,
we are engaged in living. Riding
back from the coast in bright summer daylight on the main road by the River
Thorne, birdsong above, harvest-ready fields to the east and the forest
receding for a time as a valley cut it away, Ceinion of Llywerth watched the
Anglcyn fyrd struggle to define a collective state of mind, and he understood
their difficulty. The
victory was magnificent, memorable, complete. A considerable Erling force had
been shattered, driven away with major losses on the raiders' side and next to
none on theirs. No deaths, in fact, after the initial night killings that had
sparked the king's ride. It
was a time of glory. There were traders from abroad in Esferth for the fair—the
story of Aeldred's riding out at night would be in Ferrieres and Batiara before
autumn changed the leaves. It would reach Al-Rassan when the silk-clad horse
traders went home. Glory
then, more than enough to share. But the death that had begun it mattered. They
all mattered, of course, Ceinion told himself, but it was idle—even for a
cleric dispensing pieties—to pretend that some lives did not signify more for
their people than others, and Burgred of Denferth had been one of the three
great men in these lands. So
there was that, to dim the joy of this homeward ride. There was also the
prince, gone into the spirit wood. The madness of that, the death at the heart
of it. And so those of the fyrd who wished to let their spirits soar
kept a distance from King Aeldred and the mask that had become his face this
morning. And
so again it seemed to Ceinion, as it had by the sea at twilight, that they were
waiting on him. In a way it was an irony. He was only a visitor here, and the
Cyngael were far from allies of the Anglcyn. In another sense, the reason
Prince Athelbert was in the wood was that Alun ab Owyn had gone there, and
Ceinion knew it, and so did the king. You
could say that it properly fell to a Cyngael, to their high cleric, to provide
consolation and hope right now. Ceinion didn't know if it was possible. He was
very tired. Unused to so much riding, with a body that didn't ease and loosen
as it once had in the mornings. He was also heartsick and afraid, picturing the
dragon-ships that might even now be cleaving seas to the west. There were blue
skies overhead. He had prayed for storms in the night. These
inward sorrows didn't matter, or couldn't be permitted to matter, if you
accepted the duties of your office. Ceinion twitched his reins and cantered his
horse over beside Aeldred's. The king glanced at him, nodded, no more than
that. No one was near them. Ceinion took a breath. "Do
you know," he said coldly, "if I were cleric of your royal chapel, I
would be ordering you to do penance now." "And
why would this be?" Aeldred's voice was equally cold. Within, Ceinion
quailed at what he heard, but forced himself to push on. "For the thoughts
that are written in your face." "Ah. Thinking now is cause for
chastisement?" "It
always has been. Certain kinds of thought." "How
illuminating. And what unspoken reflections of mine amount to transgressions,
cleric?" The
title again, not his name. Ceinion looked over at the king, trying not to be
obvious about his scrutiny. He wondered if Aeldred were succumbing to one of
his fevers. If that might explain .. . "I
am perfectly well," said other man bluntly. "Please answer my
question." Ceinion
said, as briskly as he could, "Heresy, a breaking from holy
doctrine." He lowered his voice. "You are easily wise enough to know
what I am saying. I am glad you are well, my lord." "Pretend,
if you will, that I am not wise at all, that you ride beside a fool, deficient
in sense. Explain." The king's face had flushed. Fever, or anger? They
said he still denied when his illness was coming on, after twenty-five years. A
refusal to accept. That gave Ceinion a thought. "Let
me ask a question. Do you truly believe two royal princes and an Erling who
rowed with Siggur Volganson are incapable of contending with wolves and snakes
in a wood?" He
saw what he was looking for. The flicker in the other man's eyes, swift
awareness of where this was going. "I
would imagine," said King Aeldred, "they ought to be able to defend
themselves against such." "But
you decided, even before we set out this morning, that your son is now dead.
You have . . . accepted his death. You said as much on the strand last night,
my lord." No
reply for a time. The horses cantered, a ground-covering pace, without urgency.
It was warm in the sunlight, the weather accursedly benign, a scattering of
soft clouds. He needed black storms, the howl of wind, obliterating seas. Aeldred
said, "You are upbraiding me for beliefs about the forest. Tell me,
Ceinion, did you come here through the wood? Or did you and your
companions avoid it?" "And
why," said the cleric, deliberately sounding surprised, "would I
choose to risk getting lost in a wood when the coastal path from Cadyr lay open
before us?" "Ah.
Good. And it has always been from Cadyr that you set out? It is from that coast
that all of the Cyngael coming east have departed? Tell me, high cleric, who it
is has made a journey through that wood in living memory, or in your chronicles
and songs? Or do not the songs of the Cyngael tell something different,
entirely?" Ceinion
felt equal to this, by training and disposition and necessity. He said firmly,
"It is my task, and yours, my lord, to steer the people—our people in both
lands, where we share the blessing of Jad—away from such pagan fears. If you
think your son and his companions equal to wild animals and to not losing their
way, you must not surrender hope that they will come out in the west. And there
is a chance they will save lives doing so." Birdsong,
horses' hooves, men's voices, laughter, though not near to them. Aeldred had
turned his head, was looking directly at him, the eyes bright, clear, no fever,
only knowledge. After a moment, he said, "Ceinion, dear friend, forgive me
or do not, as you will or must, but I saw spirits close on twenty-five years
ago, the night of the battle we lost at Camburn, and then in Beortferth that
winter. Lights in the swamp at twilight and at night, moving, taking shape. Not
marsh fires, not fever, not dream, though the fevers did begin the night of the
battle. High cleric, Ceinion, hear me. I know there are powers in that
wood who do not mean us well and are not to be mastered by men." It
had taken so little time to say, and to hear. But how much time did a sword
stroke take? An arrow's flight? How long was there between the last breath of
someone you loved when they were dying, and the breath they did not take? Ceinion's
heart was pounding. An easy ride, their battles over, talking on a summer's
day. Even so, he felt himself assaulted, under siege. He was not necessarily
equal to this, after all. You
brought your own memories and ghosts to these exchanges, however much you
fought to keep them out, to be simply a holy man, a distilled voice for the
teachings of the god you served. He
knew what he should say to this, what he was required to say. He murmured,
"My lord, surely, you just gave yourself answer: it was the very night
your kingdom was lost, after the battle, your father and brother slain . . .
the worst night of your life. Is it any wonder that—" "Ceinion,
do me enough courtesy to believe I have thought of this. They were . . .
present for me before, long before. From childhood, I have since come to
understand. I denied them, avoided, would not accept . . . until the night of
Camburn. And in the marshes after." What
had he expected? That his words would shed a dazzling illumination upon a
confused soul? He knew what this man was. He tried another way, because
he had to: "Do you . . . do you not know how arrogant it is to trust our
mortal vision over the teachings of faith?" "I
do. But I am not able to deny what I do know. Call it a flaw and a sin, if you
will. Could you do that denying?" The
question he hadn't wanted. An arrow, flying. "Yes,"
he said, finally, "though not easily." Aeldred
looked at him. Opened his mouth. "No
questions, I beg of you," Ceinion said. Raw as an open wound, all these
years after. The
king gazed at him a long moment, then looked away and was silent. They rode for
a time, through the mild, sweet glory of late summer. Ceinion was thinking as
hard he could; careful thought, his refuge. "The
fevers," he said. "My lord, could you not see that they—?" "That
I conceived visions in my fevered state? No. Not so." Two
very clever men, long-lived, and subtle. Ceinion considered this a moment, then
realized that he understood something else, as well. He gripped his reins
tightly. "You
believe that the fevers are . . . that they come to you as . . ." He
reached for words. This was difficult, for many reasons. "As
punishment. Yes, I do," said the king of the Anglcyn, his voice flat. "For
your . . . heresy? This belief?" "For
this belief. My fall from the teachings of Jad, in whose name I live and rule.
Do not believe that what I am telling you has come kindly to me." He
couldn't imagine believing that. "Who knows of this?" "Osbert.
Burgred did. And the queen." "And
they believed you? What you saw?" "The
two men did." "They
. . . saw these things as well?" "No."
He said it quickly. "They did not." "But
they were with you." Aeldred
looked at him again. "You know what the old tales tell. Yours and ours,
both. That a man who enters the sacred places of the half-world may see spirits
there, and if he survives he may see them after, all his days. But it is also
told that some are born with this gift. This, I came to believe, was so with
me. Not Burgred, not Osbert, though they stood by me in the marsh, and rode
with me from Camburn that night." The
sacred places of the half-world. Uttermost
heresy. A mound not far from Brynnfell, another summer, long ago. A woman with
red-gold hair dying by the sea. He had left her with her sister, taken horse,
gone riding in a frenzy, in a madness of sorrow beyond words. No memory, at
all, of that ride. Had come to Brynnfell at twilight two days later, bypassed
it, entered the small wood He
made himself—as always—twist his mind away from that moon-shaped memory. It was
not to be looked upon. You trusted and believed in the words of Jad, not in
your own frail pretense of knowing the truth of things. "And
the queen?" he asked, clearing his throat. "What does the queen
say?" It
was the hesitation, Aeldred's delay in replying. A lifetime of listening to men
and women tell what was in their hearts, in words, in pauses, in the things not
quite said. The
man beside him murmured, gravely, "She believes I will lose my soul when I
die, because of this." It
was clear now, Ceinion thought. It was achingly clear. "And so she will go
to Retherly." Aeldred
was looking at him. He nodded his head. "To pray each day and night for me
until one of us dies. She sees it as her first duty, in love and in
faith." A
burst of laughter, off to their right, somewhere behind. Men riding home in
triumph, knowing songs and feasting awaited them. "She
might be right, of course," said the king, his tone light now, as if
discussing the coming barley harvest or the quality of wine at table. "You
should be denouncing me, Ceinion. Is that not your duty?" Ceinion
shook his head. "You seem to have done that to yourself, for twenty-five
years." "I
suppose. But then came what I did last night." Ceinion
looked quickly over. He blinked; then this, too, slipped into understanding. "My
lord! You did not send Athelbert into that wood. His going there is no
punishment of you!" "No?
Why not? Is it not sheerest arrogance to imagine we understand the workings of
the god? Did you not tell me that? Think! Wherein lies my transgression,
and where has my son now gone?" Wolves
and snakes, Ceinion had said,
foolishly, moments ago. To this man who was bearing more than two decades of
guilt. Trying to serve the god, and his people, and carrying these .. .
memories. "I
believe," Aeldred was saying, "that sometimes we are given messages,
if we are able to read them. After I taught myself Trakesian, and sent out word
I was buying texts, a Waleskan came to Raedhill—this was long ago—with a
scroll, not more than that. He said he'd bought it on the borders of Sarantium.
I'm sure he looted it." "One
of the plays?" The
king shook his head. "Songs of their liturgy. Fragments. The horned god
and the maiden. It was badly torn, stained. It was the first Trakesian writing
I ever bought, Ceinion. And all this morning I have been hearing this in my
head:
When
the sound of roaring is heard in the wood The
children of earth will cry. When
the beast that was roaring comes into the fields The
children of blood must die. Ceinion
shivered in sunlight. He made the sign of the disk. "I
believe," Aeldred went on, "if you will forgive me, and it is not an
intrusion, that you did not denounce what I have just said because . . . you
also have some knowledge of these things. If I am right in this, please tell
me, how do you . . . carry that? How do you find peace?" He
was still half in the spell of the verse. The children of earth will cry. Ceinion
said, slowly, choosing words, "I believe that what doctrine tells us, is .
. . becoming truth. That by teaching it we help it become the nature of Jad's
world. If there are spirits, powers, a half-world beside ours, it is .. .
coming to an end. What we teach will be true, partly because we teach
it." "Believing
makes it so?" Aeldred's voice was wry. "Yes,"
said Ceinion quietly. He looked at the other man. "With the power we know
lies in the god. We are his children, spreading across his earth, pushing back
forests to build our cities and houses and our ships and water mills. You know
what is said in The Book of the Sons of Jad." "That
is new. Not canonical." He
managed a smile. "A little more so than a song of the horned god and the
maiden." He saw Aeldred's mouth quirk. "They use it as liturgy in
Esperaсa where it was written, have begun to do so in Batiara and Ferrieres
now. Clerics carrying the word of Jad to Karch and Moskav have been told by the
Patriarch to cite that book, carry it with them—it is a powerful tool for
bringing pagans to the light." "Because
it teaches that the world is ours. Is it, Ceinion? Is it ours?" Ceinion
shrugged. "I do not know. You cannot imagine how much I do not know. But
you asked how I make my peace and I am telling you. It is a frail peace, but
that is how I do it." He
met the other man's gaze. He hadn't denied what Aeldred had guessed. He wasn't
going to deny it. Not to him. The
king's eyes were clear now, his flush had receded. "The beast dies,
roaring, not the children?" "Rhodias
succeeded Trakesia, and Sarantium, Rhodias, under Jad. We are at the edge of
the world here, but we are children of the god, not just ... of blood." Silence
again, slightly altered. Then the king said, "I did not expect to be able
to speak of this." The
cleric nodded. "I can believe that." "Ceinion,
Ceinion, I will need you with me. Surely you can see that? Even more,
now." The
other man tried to smile but failed. "We will talk of that. But before, we
must pray, with all piety we may command, that the Erling ships sailed for
home. Or, if not, that your son and his companions pass through the woods, and
in time." "I
can do that," said the king. +
Rhiannon
wondered, often, why everyone still looked at her the way they did, concern
written large, vivid as a manuscript's initial capital, in their eyes. It
wasn't as if she spent her days wan and weeping, refusing to rise from her bed
(her mother wouldn't have allowed that, in any case), or drifting aimlessly
about the farmhouse and yard. She
had been working as hard as anyone else all summer. Helping to bring Brynnfell
back from fire and ruin, tending to the wounded in the early weeks, riding out
with her mother to the families of those who'd suffered death and loss and
taking what steps needed to be taken there. She devised activities for herself
and Helda and Eirin, ate at table with the others, smiled when Amund the harper
offered a song, or when someone said anything witty or wry. And still those furtive,
searching looks came her way. By
contrast, Rania had been allowed to leave. The youngest of her women (with the
sweetest voice) had been so terrified in the aftermath of the raid that Enid
and Rhiannon had decided to let her go. The farmhouse had too many images of
burning and blood for Rania just now. She
had left them early in the summer, weeping, visibly shamed despite their
reassurances, with the contingent of men who would spend the summer by their
castle towards the wall. The land there needed defending in summertime; there
was little love lost between the men of Rheden and the Cyngael of the hills and
valleys north of the woods; cattle and horses had been stolen on both sides,
sometimes the same ones back and forth, for as long as anyone could remember.
That was why Rheden had built the wall, why Brynn (and others) had castles
there, not farmhouses. Her parents were here, though, attending to Brynnfell
and its people. So
Rania had gone away, and everyone seemed to understand why she had been so distressed,
to accept it as natural. But Rhiannon was right here, doing whatever needed to
be done, undeterred by night-memories of an Erling hammer smashing her window,
or a blade held to her throat in her own rooms by a screaming, blood-smeared
man vowing to kill her. She
made her morning visits to the labourers' huts, carried food to the men
repairing the farmyard structures, offered a smile and a word of encouragement
with their cheese and ale. She attended at chapel twice a day, spoke the
antiphonal responses in her clearest voice. She shirked nothing, avoided
nothing. She
just wasn't sleeping at night. And surely that was her own affair, not shared,
not proper cause for all those thoughtful glances from Helda and her mother? Besides,
these past few days, as the rebuilding drew to a close and preparations for the
harvest began, her father seemed to be afflicted in the same way. Rhiannon,
rising quietly—as she had been doing all summer—stepping past her sleeping
women to go out into the yard, wrapped in a blanket or shawl, to pace along the
fence and think about the nature of a person's life (and was there something
wrong in that?), had found her father out there before her for three nights
now. The
first two times she'd avoided him, turning back another way, for wasn't he to
be allowed his own solitude and thoughts? The third night, tonight, she
gathered her green shawl about her shoulders and walked across the yard to
where he stood, gazing up at the slope south of them under the stars. The blue
moon, a crescent, was over west, almost down. It was very late. "A
breeze tonight," she said, coming to stand beside him at the gate. Her
father grunted, glanced over and down at her. He was clad only in his long
nightshirt, and barefoot, as she was. He looked away into the darkness. A
nightingale was singing beyond the cattle pen. It had been with them all
summer. "Your
mother's troubled about you," Brynn said at length, a finger going to his
moustache. He had trouble with these conversations, she knew. Rhiannon
frowned. "I can see she is. I'm beginning to get angry about it." "Don't.
You know she leaves you alone, usually." He glanced at her briefly, then
away. "It isn't . . . right for a young girl to be unable to sleep, you
know." She
gripped her elbows with both hands. "Why a young girl only? Why me? What
about you, then?" "Just
the last few days for me, girl. It's different." "Why?
Because I'm supposed to go singing through the day?" Brynn chuckled.
"You'd terrify everyone if you did." She
didn't smile. Smiles, she'd admit, tended to be forced now, and in the darkness
she didn't feel she had to. "So,
why are you awake?" she asked. "It's
different," he repeated. It
was possible he was coming out to meet one of the girls, but Rhiannon didn't
think so. For one thing, he obviously knew she was in the yard at night,
everyone seemed to know. She didn't like it, being watched that way. "Too
easy an answer," she said. A
long silence this time, longer than she was happy with. She looked over at her
father: the bulky figure, more paunch and flesh than muscle now, hair
silver-grey, what was left of it. An arrow had been loosed from this slope
above them, to kill him that night. She wondered if that was why he kept
looking up at the shrubs and trees on the rise. "You
see anything?" he asked abruptly. She
blinked. "What do you mean?" "Up
there. See anything?" Rhiannon
looked. It was the middle of the night. "The trees. What? You think
someone's spying on . . . ?" She was unable to keep fear from her voice. Her
father said quickly, "No, no. Not that. Nothing like that."
"What, then?" He
was silent again. Rhiannon stared up. Shapes of trunk and branch, bushes, black
gorse, stars above them. "There's
a light," Brynn said. He sighed. "I've seen a Jad-cursed light for
three nights now." He pointed. His hand was steady enough. A
different kind of fear, now, because there was nothing at all to be seen. The
nightingale was still singing. She
shook her head. "What . . . what kind of light?" "Changes. It's
there now." He was still pointing. "Blue." She swallowed.
"And you think ... ?" "I
don't think anything," he said quickly. "I just see it. Third
night." "Have
you told . . . ?" "Who?
Your mother? The cleric?" He was angry. Not with her, she knew. She
stared into emptiness and dark. Cleared her throat. "You ... you know what
some of the farmers say. About the, our woods over up there?" "I
know what they say," her father said. Only
that. No swearing. It frightened her, actually. She was gazing up the slope and
there was nothing there. For her. She
saw her father's large, capable hands gripping the top rail of the fence,
twisting, as if to break the bar off, make it a weapon. Against what? He turned
his head the other way and spat into the darkness. Then he unlatched the gate. "Can't
keep doing this," he said. "Not every night. Stay and watch me. You
can pray if you like. If I don't come back down, tell Siawn and your
mother." "Tell
them what?" He
looked at her. Shrugged, in the way that he had. "Whatever seems
right." What
was she going to do? Forbid him? He swung open the gate, went through, closed
it behind him—habits of a farmyard. She watched him begin to climb. Lost sight
of him halfway up the slope. He was in his nightshirt, she was thinking,
carried no weapon. No iron. She knew that that was supposed to matter .. . if
this was what they were so carefully not saying it might be. She
wondered suddenly, though not unexpectedly, since it happened every night,
where Alun ab Owyn was now in the world, and if he hated her still. She
stayed by the gate a long time, looking up, and she did pray, like one of the
Sleepless Ones in the dark, for her father's life, and the lives of all those
in the house, and the souls of all their dead. She
was still there when Brynn came back down. Something
had changed. Rhiannon could see it, even in darkness. She was afraid, before he
spoke. "Come, girl," her father said, re-entering through the gate,
moving past her towards the house. "What?"
she cried, turning to follow.
"What is it?" "We
have much to do," said Brynn ap Hywll, who had slain Siggur Volganson long
ago. "I cost us three days, not going up before tonight. They may be
coming back." She
never asked who they might be. Or how he knew. But with the words she
felt a seizure, a roiling spasm within herself. She stopped, clutching at her
waist, and bent over to throw up what was in her stomach. Shaking, she wiped at
her mouth, forced herself to straighten. She followed her father into the
house. His voice could be heard, roaring an alarm like some half-beast come down
from the trees, rousing everyone from sleep. Everyone,
but not enough of them. Too many of his men were north and east. Days
away. Even as she re-entered, tasting bile, that thought was in her head. Then
another one: swift, blessedly so, for it gave her a pulse-beat of time to
anticipate. "Rhiannon!"
her father said, wheeling to look at her. "Get the stablehands to saddle
your horses. You and your mother—" "Must
ride out to alert the labourers. I know. Then we'll begin preparing to deal
with any wounded. What else?" She
stared at him as calmly as she could, which was not easy. She had just been
physically sick, her heart was pounding, there was sweat cold on her skin. "No,"
he said. "That is not it. You and your mother—" "Will ride to
the farm workers, then begin preparations here. As Rhiannon said." Brynn
turned and confronted his wife's steady gaze. A man stood behind her holding a
torch. Enid
wore a blue night robe. Her hair was down, almost to her waist. No one ever saw
it that way. Rhiannon, seeing the look exchanged between her parents, felt
unsettled by the intimacy of it. The hallway was filled with people, and light.
She felt herself flush, as if caught in the act of reading or hearing words
meant for another. It occurred to her, even in that moment, to wonder if she
would ever exchange such a glance with anyone before she died. "Enid,"
she heard her father say. "Erlings come for the women. You make us . . .
weaker." "Not
this time. They are coming for you, husband. Erling's Bane. Volgan's slayer.
The rest of us are ordinary fare. If anyone leaves, we should all leave.
Including you." Brynn
drew himself up. "Abandon Brynnfell to Erlings? At this point in my life?
Are you seriously—?" "No,"
said his wife, "I am not. That is why we stay. How many are coming? How
much time do we have?" For a
long moment he looked as if he were going to hold his ground, but then,
"More than last time, I think. Say eighty of them. Time, I'm not sure.
They'll come from Llywerth again, through the hills." "We
need more men." "I
know. Castle's too far. I'll send, but they won't get back in time." "What
do we have here? Forty?" "A
little less than that, if you mean trained to weapons." There
were two lines on her mother's forehead. Rhiannon knew them, they came when she
was thinking. Enid said, "We'll get as many of the farm workers as we can,
Rhiannon and I, and their women and children for shelter. We can't leave them
out there." "Not
the women. Send them north to Cwynerth with the young ones. They'll be safer
away. As you said—Brynnfell is what they want. And me." "And
the sword," his wife said quietly. Rhiannon
blinked. She hadn't thought of that. "Likely
so," her father was saying, nodding his head. "I'll send riders to
Prydllen and Cwynerth. There should be a dozen men at each, for the
harvest." "Will
they come?" "Against
Erlings? They'll come. In time, I don't know." "And we defend the
farm?" He
was shaking his head. "Not enough men. Too difficult. No. They won't
expect us to have a warning. If we're quick enough, we can meet them west, at a
place we choose. Better ground than here." "And
if you are wrong?" Brynn
smiled, for the first time that night. "I'm not wrong." Rhiannon,
listening, realized that her mother, too, had not asked about the warning, how
Brynn knew what he seemed to know. She wouldn't ask, unless perhaps at night
when the two of them were alone. Some things were not for the light. Jad ruled
the heavens and earth and all the seas, but the Cyngael lived at the edge of
the world where the sun went down. They had always needed access to knowledge
that went beneath, not to be spoken. They
weren't speaking of it. Her
mother was looking at her. Frowning again, doing so, that expression everyone
had been giving her since the end of spring. "Let's go," Rhiannon
said, ignoring it. "Enid,"
her father said, as the two women turned away. They both looked back at
him. His face was grim. "Bring every lad over twelve summers. With
anything at all that might do for a weapon." That
was too young, surely. Her mother would refuse, Rhiannon thought. She
was wrong. + Brand
Leofson, commanding five Jormsvik ships as they made their way west, knew where
he was going. He'd rowed his first dragon-ships in the final years of the
Volgan's raids, though never with Siggur's men. Had lost his eye in one of
those, had been recovering at home when the last of the Volgan's journeys had
ended in disaster in Llywerth. Hadn't been there. Depending
on his mood, in the intervening years, and on how much he'd been drinking, he
either felt fortunate to have missed that catastrophe, or cursed not to have
been one of those—their names were known—who'd been with Siggur in the glory
years, at the end. You
could say, if your mind worked that way, that his failure to be in Llywerth was
a reason he was taking five undermanned ships west now. The past, what we have
done or not done, slips and flows, like a stream to a carved-out channel, into
the things we do years after. It is never safe, or wise, to say that anything
is over. They
were at risk, he knew it, and so would the other captains, all the more
experienced men here. They still had all their ships but they'd lost sixty men.
If the weather turned, it would get bad at sea. So far, it hadn't. On the
second night the wind switched to southerly, which pushed them closer than he
liked to the rocky coast of Cadyr. But they were Erlings, mariners, knew how to
stay clear of a lee shore, and when they reached the western end of the Cyngael
coastline and turned north, that wind held with them. Your
danger could become your gift. Ingavin's storms could drown you at sea—or
terrify your foe on land, adding fire and the flash of lightning to your own
war cries. And the god, too, Brand was always telling himself, his private
thought, had only one eye, after his nights on the tree where the world began. Salt
in the air, sail full on each ship now, stars fading above them as the sun
rose, Brand thought of the Volgan and his sword—for the first time in years, if
truth be told. He felt a bone-deep stirring within. Ivarr Ragnarson had been
malformed, evil and devious, had deserved to die. But he'd had a clever-enough
thought or two in his head, that one, and Brand wouldn't be the one to deny it. To
have turned home with sixty dead and nothing to show for their loss would have
been a disaster. To come back and report the Volgan's slayer slain and the
sword found and reclaimed .. . That
would be something different. It could make up for the deaths, and more. For
not having been one of that company, twenty-five years ago.
It
had occurred to Bern, rowing west, that there was something unsettling about
what he was and how the world saw them all. They were Erlings, riders of the
waves, laughing at wind and rain, knifing through roiling seas. Yet he himself
was one of them, and he had no idea what to do in rough weather, could only
follow directions as best he could and pray the seas did not, in fact, roil. More:
they were Jormsvikings, feared through the world as the deadliest fighters
under sun and stars and the two moons. But Bern had never fought a battle in
his life, only one single combat on the beach below the walls. That wasn't a
battle. It was nothing like a battle. What,
came the thought, as they turned north and wind took the sails, if all of the
others were—more or less—like him? Ordinary men, no better or worse than
others. What if it was fear that made men believe the Jormsvik
mercenaries were deadly? They could be beaten, after all; they had just
been beaten. Aeldred's
fyrd had used signal fires and archers. Brand, and Garr Hoddson, had
called it cowardly, womanish, making mock of the Anglcyn king and his warriors,
spitting contempt into the sea. Bern
thought that it would be better to consider learning to use bows themselves, if
their enemies did. Then he thought, even more privately, almost hiding the
notion from himself, that he really wasn't sure raiding in this way was the
life for him. He
could curse his father again, easily enough, for it was Thorkell's exile that
had thrust Bern into servitude, and then off the isle without an inheritance.
But—in sunlit truth—that channel of the thought-stream wasn't so easy any more.
The farm, his inheritance, was only theirs because of raiding, wasn't it? His
father's long-sung adventure with Siggur in Ferrieres, a cluster of men burning
a royal sanctuary. And
no one had made Bern take Halldr Thinshank's horse to Jormsvik. He
thought of his mother, his sisters on the mainland, and then of the young woman
at the woman's compound—he'd never learned her name—who'd been bitten by the volur's
snake, and saved his life because of it. Partly because of it. Women,
he thought, would probably see this differently. He
rowed when ordered, rested when the wind allowed, took food to Gyllir among the
other horses standing tethered in the central aisle of the wide ship, shovelled
horse dung overboard. Felt
a surge of excitement, despite everything, when they reached the harbour that
Garr and Brand both knew, in Llywerth. No one in sight, all along the coast
coming north, or here. They pulled the ships ashore in the hour before dawn and
spoke their thanks to Ingavin on the beach. They'd
leave the boats here, men to guard them—he might be one of those, had no clear
sense of how he'd feel about that. Then the others would head inland to find
Brynnfell and kill a man and claim a sword again. You
couldn't deny it was matter for skald song, through a winter and beyond. In the
northlands, that mattered. Perhaps everyone shared these doubts he was having,
Bern thought. He didn't think so, actually, looking at his shipmates, but it
would have been good to have someone to ask. He wondered where his father was.
Thorkell had told him not to let them come this way. He'd
tried. You couldn't say he hadn't tried. He wasn't leading this raid, was he?
And if your life steered you to the dragon-ships, well . . . it steered you
there. Ingavin and Thьnir chose their warriors. And maybe—maybe—he'd come out
of this with a share of glory. His own. A name to be remembered. Men
lived and died pursuing that, didn't they? Fair fame dies never. Was
Bern Thorkellson of Rabady Isle the one to say they were wrong? Was he that
arrogant? Bern shook his head, drawing a glance from the man next to him on the
beach. Bern
looked the other way, embarrassed. Saw, beyond the strand, the darkly outlined
hills of the Cyngael, knew that the Anglcyn lands lay beyond, far beyond. And
farther east, across the seas, where the sun would rise, was home. No
one, he thought, travelled as the Erlings did. No people were so far-faring, so
brave. The world knew it. He drew a breath, pushed the dark thoughts away from
him. Sunrise came. Brand Leofson picked his men for the raid. Bern
started east with the other chosen ones. + They
had been living for three days on nuts and berries, like peasants foraging in a
dry season or during a too-long winter with the storeroom empty. Cafall led
them to water, so there was that, for themselves and the horses. It
was oppressively dark in the forest, even in daytime. On occasion a square of
sky could be seen through the trees, light spilling down, a reminder of a world
beyond the wood. Sometimes at night they caught a glimpse of stars. Once they
saw the blue moon, and paused in a glade without a word spoken, looking up.
Then they went on. They were following the dog north and west towards
Arberth—or they had to assume that was so. None of them could do more than
hazard a guess at where they were, how far they'd come, how far yet there was
to go. Five days, Alun had said the passage through the forest might be: that,
too, had been a guess. No
one had ever done this. They
pushed themselves and the animals hard: an awareness of urgency and the equally
strong feeling that it was better to keep moving than be still in one place for
too long. They never again heard or sensed the beast-god that had come the
first night, or the green creatures of the half-world that had followed. They
knew they were here, however. And when they slept, or tried to (one always
awake, on watch), the memory of that unseen creature would come back. They were
intruders here, alive only on sufferance. It was frightening, and wearying. One
had to work to avoid startling shamefully at sounds in the wood—and all forests
were full of sounds. They
knew they had been three nights here, but in another way this had become for
them a time outside of time. Athelbert had a vision once, almost asleep in the
saddle, of the three of them coming out to a world entirely changed. He didn't
know, for he didn't speak of this, that Alun had had that same fear, meeting a
faerie outside Esferth, before the fyrd had ridden south. Through
the first two days they'd talked, mostly to hear voices, human sounds.
Athelbert had amused the others, or tried to, singing tavern songs, invariably
bawdy. Thorkell, after extended urging, had offered one of the Erling
saga-verses, but the younger men became aware he was doing it only to indulge
them. By the fourth day they were riding in silence, following the grey dog in
the gloom. Near
sundown, they came to another stream. Cafall
was doing this without urging. Each one of them was aware that they'd have been
lost days ago without Alun's dog. They didn't speak of this, either. They
dismounted, bone-tired, to let the horses drink. Dim, filtered twilight. Clink
of harness, creak of saddle leather, crunch and snap of twigs and small
branches by the stream, and they nearly died again. The
snake wasn't green. It was Alun who trod too close, Athelbert who saw it,
whipping out his dagger, gripping it to throw. It was Thorkell Einarson who
snapped a command: "Hold! Alun, don't move!" The
black snakes were poisonous, their bite tended to be lethal. "I
swore an oath," Thorkell said urgently. "Our lives depend—" In
that same moment Alun ab Owyn murmured, very clearly, "Holy Jad defend my
soul," and sprang into the air. He
landed in the water with a splash. The stream was shallow; he came down hard,
knees and hands on stone, and cursed. The snake, affronted, disappeared with a
slither and glide into underbrush. The
bear cub, which none of them had seen, looked up from the far side of the water
where it had been drinking, backed away a few steps, and essayed a provisional
growl in the direction of the man in the stream. "Oh,
no!" said Athelbert. He
wheeled. Cafall barked a high, furious warning and streaked past him. The
mother bear had entered the clearing already, roaring, her head swinging
heavily back and forth. She rose on her hind legs, huge against the black
backdrop of trees, spittle and foam at her gaping mouth. They were between her
and the cub. Of course they were. The
horses went wild—and they were untethered. Alun's plunged through the stream.
Thorkell seized the reins of the other two and hung on. Alun scrambled to his
feet, splashed over, and claimed his trembling horse on the far bank—it was
blocked there by trees, had nowhere to go. Frantically, it tried to rear,
nearly pulled him off the ground. The cub, equally frightened, backed farther
away, but was much too close to him. Athelbert sprinted over to Thorkell and
the horses, fumbling for his bow at the saddle. "Mount
up!" Thorkell shouted,
fighting his way into his own saddle. Athelbert looked at him. "Do
it!" the Erling screamed. "We are dead if we kill here. You know it!" Athelbert
swore savagely, hooked a leg into a swinging stirrup. The horse skittered
sideways; he almost fell, but levered himself up. On the far bank, Alun ab
Owyn, also a horseman, clambered on his mount. It wheeled and bucked, eyes
white and staring. The bear came forward, still roaring. It was enormous. They
had to move past it to get out. "I'll shoot to wound!" Athelbert
cried. "Are
you mad? You'll make it wild!" "What
is it now?" the Anglcyn prince screamed back. "Jad's
blood," he added very quickly, and with extreme, necessary skill, mastered
his rearing mount and, leaning far over to one side, lashed it past the bear,
which was almost on top of them. Thorkell
Einarson was an Erling. His people lived for longships, white foam, a moonlit
sea, surf on stony strands. Not for horses. He was still struggling to control
his spinning, terrified steed. "Move!"
Alun screamed from the far bank,
not helpfully. There
wasn't enough time in the world, or room in the glade, to move. Or there
wouldn't have been, if a lean, blur-fast, grey creature hadn't knifed over and
sunk its teeth into the hind leg of the bear. The animal roared, in rage and
pain, turned with shocking speed on the dog. Thorkell kicked his horse in that
same moment, sawed at his reins, and moved, following Athelbert out. Alun
joined them in that same instant of reprieve, splashing across the water,
cutting out of the glade. It
was very hard to see. A bear was roaring behind them, a noise that shook the
woods. And entangled with it back there was a wolfhound with unspeakable
courage and something more than that. They
were out, though, all three of them. It was far too black and tangled to
gallop. They moved as quickly as they could along the twisting, almost-path. A
little distance farther they stopped, of one accord, turned to look back,
staring—ready to move if anything remotely bear-like should appear. "Why
in the name of everything holy did we keep our weapons if you won't let
us use them?" Athelbert was breathing in gasps. So
was Thorkell, gripping his reins too tightly in a big fist. He turned his head.
"You think . . . you think . . . if we get out of this Ingavin-cursed
forest they'll be dancing to greet us?" "What?" The
big man wiped at his face, which was dripping with sweat. "Think it! I'm
an Erling enemy, you're an Anglcyn enemy, that one is the prince of Cadyr, and
we're heading for Arberth. Which of us do you think any men we meet will
want to kill first?" There
was a silence. "Oh," said Athelbert. He cleared his throat. "Um.
Indeed. Not dancing. Ah, you, I'd wager. You'd be first. What, er, shall we
bet?" They
heard a sound along the path; both men turned. "Dear Jad," said Alun
ab Owyn quietly. He
slipped down off his horse, walked a few steps back along the way they had
come, crunching twigs and leaves again. Then he knelt on the path. He was
crying, although the other two couldn't see that. He hadn't cried since the
beginning of summer. Out
of shadow and tree the dog limped towards them, head low, moving with effort.
It stopped, a short distance from Alun, and lifted its head to look at him.
There was blood everywhere, he saw, and in the near-black he thought an ear was
ripped away. He closed his eyes a moment, swallowed hard. "Come,"
he said. A
whisper, really. All he could manage. His heart was aching. This was his dog,
and it wasn't. It was Brynn's wolfhound. A gift. He'd accepted it, been
accepted after a fashion, never allowed himself a deeper bond, something
shared. Companionship. "Please
come," he said again. And
the dog stepped forward, slowly, the left front paw favoured. The right ear was
indeed missing, Alun saw, as it drew near and he put an arm around it, gently,
and laid his face carefully against that of the creature which had come to him
the night his brother's life and soul were lost. Thorkell
was aware that the dog had saved their lives. He wasn't about to get drunk on
the thought. He and Siggur had saved each other at least half a dozen times,
each way, years ago, and other companions had guarded him or been saved by him.
It happened if you went into battle, or at sea when storms came. Once a spear
thrust he'd not seen had missed him only because he'd stumbled over a fallen
shipmate's body in a field. The spear had gone behind him, and above. He'd
turned and cut through the spearman's leg from below. That one, as it happened,
he remembered. The blind chance of it. He'd never been saved by a dog before,
he had to acknowledge that. The
animal was badly hurt, which might be a difficulty, since they had no hope of
getting through the wood without it. Ab Owyn was still on his knees, cradling
his dog. He'd known men who treated their hounds like brothers, even sleeping
with them; hadn't thought the Cyngael prince was one such. On the other hand,
something extraordinary had happened here. He owed his life to it. It wasn't
quite the same as Siggur covering his left side on a raid. He
looked away, feeling unexpectedly awkward watching the man and dog. And doing
so, he saw the green figure among the trees. It wasn't far away. Out of the
corner of his eye he registered that Athelbert had also seen it, was staring in
the same direction. The
curious thing was that this time, he didn't feel afraid. The Anglcyn didn't
seem frightened either, sitting his horse, looking into the trees at a green,
softly glowing figure. It was too far away for details of face or form to be
clear. The thing looked human, or near to being so, but a mortal didn't shine,
couldn't hover over water as these things had done. Thorkell looked into the
darkness at that muted glow. After a moment it simply went away, leaving the
night behind. He
turned to Athelbert. "I
have no least idea what that is," the prince said softly. Thorkell
shrugged. "Why should we have an idea," he said. "Let's
go," said Alun ab Owyn. They looked back at him. He was on his feet, a
hand still touching the dog, as though reluctant to be parted now. "Can
he lead us?" Thorkell asked. The dog had at least one bad leg. There
seemed to be blood, not as much as there might have been. "He
can," Alun said, and in the same moment the dog moved ahead of them. He
turned back and waited for ab Owyn to mount up and then started forward,
limping, not going quickly, but taking them through the spirit wood towards his
home. They
rode through that night, dozing at times in the saddle, the horses following
the dog. They stopped once more for water, cautiously. Alun bathed the dog by
that pool, washing away blood. The animal's ear was gone. The wound seemed
strangely clean to Thorkell, but how could you say what was strange and what
was proper in this place? How could you dream of doing so? They
reached the end of the forest at sunrise. It
was too soon, all three of them knew it. They ought not to have been able to
get through nearly so quickly. Athelbert, seeing meadow grass through the last
of the oaks, cried aloud. He remembered his thoughts about time passing
differently, everyone dead, the world changed. It
was a thought, but not an actual fear. He was aware (they all were, though they
never spoke of it) that something out of the ordinary had happened. It felt
like a blessing. He touched the sun disk around his neck. Why
should we have an idea? the Erling
had said. It
was true. They lived in a world they could not possibly comprehend. The belief
that they did understand was illusion, vanity. Athelbert of the Anglcyn
carried that as a truth within himself from that time onward. There
is something—there is always something—about morning, dawn's mild light, end of
darkness and the night. They rode out of the trees into Arberth and saw the
morning sky above green grass and Athelbert knew—he knew—that this was their
own world, and time, and that they had come through the godwood alive in four
nights. "We
should pray," he said. A
woman screamed.
It
really should have been possible, Meghan thought indignantly, for a girl to
crouch and relieve herself in the bushes outside the shepherd hut without
having a man on a horse appear right beside to her. Three
men. Coming from the spirit wood. She'd
screamed at the voice, but now a colder fear came as she realized that they'd
ridden out of the forest. No one went into the wood. Not even the older
boys of their village and farms, daring each other, drunk, would go farther
than the first trees, in daylight. Three
men, a dog with them, had just emerged on horses from the woods. Which meant
that they were dead, spirits themselves. And had come for her. Meghan
stood up, adjusting her clothing. She would have run, but they were on horses.
They looked back at her oddly, as if they hadn't seen a girl before. Which
might be true of ghosts, perhaps. They looked
ordinary enough. Or, if not ordinary, at least .. . alive, human.
Then—third shock of a morning—Meghan realized that one of them was an Erling.
The riders from Brynnfell that had come and taken all the men away with them
had spoken of an Erling raid. There
was an Erling here, looking down at her from his horse, because—of course—her
scream had revealed to them where she was, peeing in the bushes before seeing
to the sheep. She
was alone. Bevin had gone with the others to Brynnfell yesterday at sunrise.
Her brother would have laughed at her for screaming. Maybe. Maybe not, with men
coming out of the wood, armed, one of them an Erling. The first man had spoken
in a tongue she didn't know. The
dog's fur, she saw, was torn, streaked with blood. They
were still looking at her strangely, as though she were someone important. The
Erlings had blood-eagled a girl named Elyn—another farm girl, only that—to the
west after the Brynnfell fight. Meghan would have screamed again, thinking of
that, but there was no point. No one near them, the farmhouses too far and the
sheep wouldn't help her. "Child,"
said one of them. "Child, we mean you no harm in all the god's sweet
world." He
spoke Cyngael. Meghan
drew a breath. A Cadyri accent. They stole cattle and pigs, scorned Arberth in
their songs, but they didn't kill farm girls. He dismounted, stood in front of
her. Not a big man, but young, handsome, actually. Meghan, whose brother said
she would get herself in trouble if she wasn't careful, decided she didn't
really like it that he'd called her "child." She was fourteen, wasn't
she? You could have a child at fourteen. That was what her brother
meant, of course. He wasn't here. No one was. The
Cadyri said, "How far are we from Brynnfell? We must go to them. There is
trouble coming." Feeling
extremely knowledgeable, and not as shy as she probably should have been,
Meghan said, "We know all about it. Erlings. Riders came from Brynnfell
and took our men with them." The
three men exchanged glances. Meghan felt even more important. "How
far is it?" It was the Erling, speaking Cyngael. She
looked dubiously at the one standing beside his horse. "He's
a friend," he said. "We must get there. How far?" She
thought about it. They had horses. "You can be there before dark,"
she said. "Up the swale and back down and pretty much west." "Point
us to the path," the Erling said. "Cafall
will know," said the Cyngael quietly. The third one hadn't spoken since
his voice had made her scream. His eyes were closed. Meghan realized he was
praying. "Did
you really come out of the forest?" She
had to ask. It was the wonder at the heart of this. It .. . made the world
different. Bevin and the others would not believe her when she told them. The
one standing in front of her nodded. "How long ago did your menfolk
leave?" "Yesterday
morning," she said. "You might almost catch them up, on horse." The
one who seemed to be praying opened his eyes. The one on the ground swung back
into the saddle, pulled at his reins. They left without another word, the three
of them, the dog, not looking back at her. Meghan
watched until they were out of sight. After, she had no idea what to do with
herself. She wasn't used to being here alone—yesterday had been the first time,
ever. The sun rose, as if declaring it was just another day. Meghan felt
tingly, though, all strange. Eventually, she went back to the hut and built up
the fire. She made and ate her morning pottage and then went to count the
sheep. All morning, all day, she kept seeing them in her mind, those three
riders, hearing what they'd said. Already it was beginning to feel too much
like a dream, which she didn't like. She felt as if she needed to . . . root it
in herself like a tree, make it real. Meghan
mer Gower told the story all her life, only not the part about how she'd been
squatting to pee when they came out of the trees. Given what followed, who the
three of them had turned out to be, even Bevin had to believe her, which was
very satisfying. Half
a century later, it was Gweith, her grandson—having heard his grandmother's
story all his days—who took thought one autumn morning after a fire had
destroyed half the houses in the village. After,
he walked south, cap in hand, to the sanctuary at Ynant and spoke with the
clerics there, asking their blessing for what he was of a mind to do. It was
not the sort of thing you did without a blessing. He
received more than that. Fifteen clerics from Ynant, yellow-robed, most of them
unhandy in the extreme, came walking with him back to the village. The
next morning they offered the dawn invocation and then, with all the villagers
gathered to watch, in awe and wonder, the clerics began to help—after a
fashion—as Gweith set about cutting down the first trees at the edge of the
spirit wood. Some of the other young men joined them. They were more useful. Gweith
didn't die, nor did anyone else. No one was stricken with palsy or dropsy or
fever in the days that followed. Neither were the clerics, though many of them
did complain of blistered hands and muscle pains. Men
began taking axes to the wood. At
about that same time, in the way of such things, where an idea, a notion,
reaches the world in many places at once, the same forest in the Anglcyn lands
was entered into by men in search of urgently needed wood. They
brought their axes to the trees west of Esferth and farther south, beyond
Retherly, towards where the young king had ordered a new shipyard and burh to
be built. A growing kingdom needed lumber, there was no getting around it. At a
certain point, in the name of Jad, you couldn't let old women's tales stop you
from doing what had to be done. None
of the first woodcutters on that side of the wood died either, except for those
suffering the usual accidents attendant upon sharp blades and falling trees and
carelessness. It began, it continued. The world does not stay the way it was,
ever. Years
after all of this, a great many years, actually, an Anglcyn charcoal burner at
what had become the south-eastern edge of a considerably reduced forest came
upon something curious. It was a hammer—an Erling battle hammer—lying in the
grass by a small pond. The
odd thing was that the hammer's head, clearly ancient, gleamed as if newly
forged, unrusted, and the wood of the shaft was smooth. When the charcoal
burner picked it up he swore he heard a sound, something between a note of
music and a cry. Actions
ripple, in so many ways, and for so long. FIFTEEN Kendra
would remember the days before and during the fair that year as the most
disconnected she'd known. Intensity of joy, intensity of fear. The fyrd
had been home for two nights, after riding in loud triumph through the
wide-open gates of Esferth amid shouts and cheering and music playing. The city
was thronged with merchants. There could not have been a better time for
Aeldred to achieve such a victory over the Erlings. Slain in numbers, driven
away, no losses at all for the Anglcyn. If
you didn't count a prince, gone into the godwood. Riding
up the main street from the gates, a screaming, colourful crowd on either side,
her father had waved, smiled gravely, let the people see a king calmly aware of
achievement, and as calmly set on repeating it as often as necessary. Let his
subjects know this, and let all who were here from abroad carry word back to
their homes. Kendra,
with her mother and sister and brother (the one brother here), in front of the
great hall, had looked at her father as he'd dismounted, and she'd known—right
then—that he was dissembling. Athelbert
outweighed sixty Erlings killed, by so much. There
had been sea-raids for a hundred years, and they would not stop with this one.
But the king of the Anglcyn had only two sons who'd survived infancy, and the
older was gone now into a deadly place, and the younger (they all knew) had
never wanted to be a king. Truth
be told, it was Judit, thought Kendra, beside her red-haired sister on the
steps, who ought to have been a boy at birth, and now a man. Judit could have
sat a throne, incisive and confident in the fierce brightness of her spirit.
She could have wielded a sword (she did wield swords!), commanded the fyrd,
drunk ale and wine and mead all night and walked steadily away from a
trestle table at dawn when all those who had been with her lay snoring amid
cups. Judit knew this, too, Kendra thought; she knew she could have done
these things. Instead,
she was going off this winter, escorted by most of the court, to marry a
thirteen-year-old boy and live among the people of Rheden to bind them close:
for that is what young women in royal families were born to do. Things
went awry sometimes, Kendra thought, and there was no one to give her a good
answer why Jad had made the world that way. They'd
feasted that night, heard music, watched jugglers and tumblers perform. The
rituals of victory. Theirs were lives on display, to be seen. More
of the same at sunrise. At chapel to pray, then she and Judit (dutiful just
now, more shaken than she'd want to admit by what Athelbert had done) had made
a point of walking through the thronged, roped-off marketplace three separate
times (to be seen), fingering fabrics and brooches. They'd made Gareth come
with them the third time. He'd been quiet, extremely so. Judit bought a
jewelled knife and a gelding from Al-Rassan. Kendra
bought some fabrics. She made her way through the duties of the day with
difficulty, then after the evening rites she went looking for someone. She had
questions that needed answering. Ceinion
of Llywerth had not been at the royal chapel for the sundown services. There
were a small number of Cyngael merchants here for the fair (they'd come along
the same coastal path he had, or been granted passage through the Rheden Wall).
She found the cleric with his own people at a chapel on the eastern side of
Esferth, leading the rites there. He
had just finished when Aeldred's younger daughter arrived, with one of her
women in attendance. They waited until the cleric was done talking with some of
the merchants, and then Kendra had her woman withdraw and she sat down with the
grey-haired cleric towards the front of the old chapel, near the disk. It
needed polishing, she noticed. She'd tell someone tomorrow. Ceinion's
eyes, she thought, were curiously like her father's. Alert, and just as
unsettling when you had something you wanted to hide. She wasn't here to hide.
She wouldn't be here if she were hiding. "Princess?"
he said calmly, and waited. "I
am afraid," she said. He
nodded. His face was kind, smooth-shaven, less lined than was usual for a man
his age. He was small and trimly formed, not a laden-table, wine-cup cleric
like the other one here, from Ferrieres. Her father had told them some time
ago, before the first visit, that this man was one of the most learned scholars
in the world, that the Patriarch in Rhodias sought his views on clashes of
doctrine. In some ways it was hard to credit—the Cyngael lived so cut off from
the world. "Many
of my people are greatly afraid just now," he said. "You are generous
to share it with us. Your father has been very good, sending a ship to Arberth,
messengers to the Rheden Wall. We can only hope—" "No,"
she said. "That isn't it." She looked at him. "I knew when
Alun ab Owyn entered the wood with my brother and the Erling." A
silence. She had shaken him, she saw. He made the sign of the disk. That was
all right; she'd have done the same. "You . . . you see spirits?" He
was very direct. She shook her head. "Well, once I did. One of them. A few
nights ago. That isn't what I . . . from the time you came across the river,
the other morning? When we were lying on the grass?" She heard herself
sounding like a child. This was so difficult. He
nodded. "Well,
from that time, I . . . I can't explain this well, but I knew ... ab
Owyn. The prince. I could . . . read things in him? Know where he was." "Dear
Jad," whispered the high cleric of the Cyngael. "What is it that is
coming among us?" "What
do you mean?" she asked. He
was looking at her, but not with eyes that spoke denunciation or disbelief.
"Strange things are happening," he said. "Not
just . . . to me?" She was extremely determined not to cry. "Not just
to you, child. To him. And . . . others." "Others?" He
nodded. Hesitated, then moved a hand sideways, back and forth. He wasn't going
to say. Clerics, she thought, were good at not telling what they didn't want to
tell. But he'd already said something, and she'd needed to know it, so much.
She wasn't alone, or going mad. He
swallowed, and now she did see a hint of fear, which frightened her, in turn.
She knew what he was going to ask, before he spoke. "Do
you . . . see him now? Where they are?" She
shook her head. "Not since they went in. I've been having dreams, though.
I thought maybe you could help me." "Oh,
child, I have so little help to give in this. I am . . . enmeshed in
fears." "You're
the only person I can think of." Her
father's eyes, very nearly. "Ask me, then," he said. It
was quiet here. Everyone had gone, except the aged cleric of the chapel,
straightening candles at a side-altar near the door, and her own woman in a far
row, waiting. This chapel was one of the oldest in Esferth, the wood of the
benches and flooring worn smooth with years. It was dark where the lamps didn't
reach, softly lit where they did. A feeling of calm. Or there ought to have
been, Kendra thought. "What
can you tell me," she asked, "about the Volgan's sword?" + The
ambit of a woman's life could not be said to be very wide. But how wide might
it be for the majority of men alive on the god's earth, struggling to feed
themselves and their families, to be warm in winter (or sheltered from the
sandstorms in the south), safe from war and disease, sea-raiders and creatures
in the night? The
Book of the Sons of Jad, more and
more widely used in chapels now, even here in the Cyngael lands, taught that
the world belonged to the mortal children of the god, saying so in words that
were incantation: eloquent and triumphant. It
was difficult for Meirion mer Ryce to believe this to be true. If
they were all the glorious children of a generous god, why did some of them end
up blood-eagled, soaked in blood, ripped apart, though they had only been a
girl walking back from pasture with brimming pails after milking the two cows
on a morning at the end of spring? It
was wrong, thought Meirion, defiantly, remembering her sister, as she
did every single time coming back from the milking in the mist before dawn.
Elyn was not a person who ought to have died that way. It wasn't what life
should have held for someone like her. Meiri knew she wasn't wise enough to
understand such things, and she knew what the cleric in the village had been
telling them over and again since summer began, but Cyngael women were not
particularly submissive or deferential, and if Meirion had been asked by
someone she trusted to describe what she really felt, she would have said she
was enraged. No
one ever asked (no one was trusted so much), but the anger was there, each day,
every night, listening for sounds that never came now from the empty pallet
along the adjacent wall. And it was with her when she rose in darkness to dress
and go past the bed where Elyn wasn't any more, to do the milking her sister
used to do. Her
mother had wanted to take the pallet apart, make more space in the small hut.
Meiri hadn't let her, though lately, as summer had turned towards harvest and
autumn, a chill now some nights, she'd begun thinking she might do it herself
one afternoon after work was done. She'd
choose a clear day, when flame and smoke could be seen a long way, and she'd
burn the bedding on the sun-browned tor above the fields as a memorial. Not
enough, no remotely adequate answer to loss and helpless fury, but what else
was there? Elyn
hadn't been a noblewoman or a princess. There was no consecrated place in the
vault of a sanctuary for her bones, no carved words above or image on stone, no
harp songs. She wasn't Heledd or Arianrhod, lost and lamented. She'd been only
a farmer's daughter in the wrong place one too-dark pre-dawn hour, raped and
carved open by an Erling. And
what was there that a sister could make for her remembering? A song? Meiri
didn't know music, or even how to write her own name. She was a girl, unmarried
(no man to fight for her), living with her parents near the border between
Llywerth and Arberth. What was she going to do? Take fierce and fell revenge?
Intervene in some battle, strike a blow against Erlings? In
the event, she did do that. Sometimes, despite all the weight of likelihood, we
can. It is a part of the mystery of the world and needs to be understood that
way. In an
hour before sunrise at the end of that summer Meirion heard sounds, muffled in
mist, to her right, as she made her way home along the worn, grassy path from
the summer pasture. The
path ran parallel to the road from Llywerth, though to call it a road was
somewhat to overstate. Roads weren't much a part of the Cyngael provinces. They
cost a great deal in resources and labour, and if you made a road it was easier
to be attacked along it. Better, times being what they were, to live with some
difficulty of travel and not smooth the way for those who meant you ill. The
rough path south of her, running past their farm and the hamlet, was one of the
main routes to and from the sea, however, cutting through a gap in the Dinfawr
Hills to the west and continuing east below the woods along the north bank of
the Aber. That's
why Elyn had died. People passed too near them all the time, going east and
west. That's why Meirion stopped now and carefully, quietly, set down her neck
yoke with the brimming pails on either side. She left it in the grass, stood a
moment, listening. Horse
hooves, harness, creak of leather. Clink of iron. There was no good reason for
armed horsemen to be on this path before sunrise. Her first thought was a
cattle raid: Llywerth outlaws (or noblemen) crossing into Arberth. Her village
tried to stay out of these affairs; they didn't have enough cattle (enough of
anything) to be a target for raiders. Better to let them go by, both ways, know
nothing or as little as possible if pursuit came after (either way) with
questions asked. She'd
have gone quietly back along her own path, walking home with the morning milk,
if she hadn't heard voices. She didn't understand the words—which was the
point, of course. She would have, if these men had been from Llywerth. They
weren't. They were speaking Erling, and Meiri's sister, fiercely loved, had
been slain and defiled by one of them at the beginning of summer. She
didn't go home. Anger can channel fear sometimes, master it. Meiri knew this
land as she knew the tangles of her own brown hair. She crouched down, leaving
the milk behind in the path (a fox found it later in the day, drank its fill).
In the greyness she moved towards the voices and the trail. After a bit she
went on her belly among the grass and scrub and wriggled closer. She didn't
know anything about how Erlings (or anyone else) arranged themselves on a
march-and-ride, so it was good fortune more than anything else that no
outriders were sweeping the scrub-land north of the trail. Much of what happens
in a life turns on good fortune or bad, which unsettles as much as it does
anything else. What
she saw, peering through brambles, was a company of Erlings, some horsed, more
of them afoot, stopped to talk, barely visible in the darkness and not-yet-lifted
fog. What she heard was "Brynnfell," twice, unmistakably, the name
springing at her from snapped and snarled words that made no sense at all, over
the hammering of her blood. She
knew what she needed to know. She started to wriggle backwards on knees and
elbows. Heard something behind her. Froze where she was, not breathing. She
didn't pray. Ought to have, of course, but was too bone-frightened. The
lone horseman continued moving, passing just behind where she lay. She heard
him cut down beyond the bushes she'd been peering through and rejoin the
company on the road. Any raiding party had outriders, especially in hostile
country where you weren't sure of your way. A dog would have found her, but the
Erlings had no dogs. Meirion
fought a desire to stay where she was, motionless, forever, or until they went
away. She heard the riders dismount. The river was close here, just to the
south. They might be stopping for water and food. She
wanted that. Listening
carefully, behind her as well now, she crawled backwards, regained her own
path. Left the milk where it was and began to run. She knew where these raiders
were going and what needed to be done. She wasn't certain if the men in the
fields would listen to her. She was prepared to kill someone to make them do
so. She
didn't have to. Sixteen farmers and farmhands, and ten-year-old Derwyn ap
Hwyth, who never let himself be left behind, set off before the sun was fully
up, running east to Brynnfell, taking the old track. That one stopped at their
forest. It was a known and tamed wood, though, source of kindling and building
logs, and there was a trail that would bring them out, eventually, near Brynn
ap Hywll's farm. Meirion's
father, whose bad leg meant he couldn't keep up, took the one horse in the
village and went north to Penavy. Found twelve men working by there. Said what
needed to be said. They, too, went running, straight from the harvest fields,
seizing whatever came to hand that was sharp and could be carried for a day and
a night at speed. Almost
thirty men. Meirion's response. Not trained fighters, but hardy, knowing the
land, and filled—each one of them—with anger bright and cold as a winter sun.
This wasn't a vast invading fleet of dragon-prows from Erling lands. This was a
raid, skulking through their land. They would fear the northmen, always, but
they would not run from them. It
was crippled Ryce's daughter, his surviving daughter, who had come upon the
raiders and carried—like a queen of legend—needful tidings back of where they
were bound. A woman of the Cyngael, worthy of song. And they all knew, in the
lands and villages around, what had been done to her sister. They
would reach Brynnfell half a day before the Erlings did. The
afternoon of the day she saw the raiders, Meirion—in a frenzy born of
waiting—took Elyn's pallet apart. She began to carry the straw and bedding up
the tor. Her mother and the other women saw what she was doing and set
themselves to help, gathering wood, arranging it on the flat summit. All of
them working, women walking up and down the hill. Late in the day, the sun
westering and the last crescent of the blue moon rising (no moons at all
tomorrow), they lit a bonfire there for Elyn. Only a girl. No one important at
all, by any measure you might ever think to use. + Bern could
not shake a premonition, death hovering like some dark bird, one of Ingavin's
ravens, waiting. Fog
among encroaching hills. Sounds muffled, vision limited. Even when day broke
and the mist lifted, that sense of oppression, of a waiting stillness in the
land, lingered. He felt they were being watched. They probably were, though
they saw no one. This was a strange land, Bern thought, different from any he'd
known, and they were moving away from the sea. He had no illusions of being
prophetic, of any kind of truesight or knowing. He told himself this was no
more than apprehension. He'd never been in a battle, and they were heading
towards one. But
it wasn't fear. It really wasn't. He had memories of fear. The night before his
Jormsvik fight he'd lain beside a prostitute, hadn't slept at all, listened to
her untroubled breathing. He'd been quite certain it was the last night he'd
know. Fear had been within him then; there was something different now. He was
wrapped in a sense of strangeness, something unknown. Fog in these hills and
the nature of the lives men lived. His father entangled in it, much as he might
want to deny that. Denial
would be a lie, simple as that. Thorkell had told him not to let them
sail to the Cyngael lands. Brand had killed the last of the Volgans for
his deception, yet here they were now, on the quest Ivarr had tried to deceive
them into taking on. Brand
One-eye and the other leaders had seized upon Ivarr's idea: vengeance and the
Volgan's sword. A way out of humiliation. So they were doing what he'd wanted
them to do, even though they'd killed him for it and tossed him to the sea. It
could make you feel things had gone awry. Brand
had spoken of it calmly enough, sailing west and then north with the wind to
where they'd beached. How this was a bad time for them to suffer defeat. (Was
there a good time, Bern had wondered.) How claiming the sword would be a
triumph, hewn brilliantly out of failure and defeat. A talisman against
ambitious men in the north who thought they could be king and impose their will
upon the Jormsvikings. Bern
wasn't so sure. It seemed to him that these named reasons were covering
something else. That Brand Leofson was wishing he'd thought of Ivarr's quest
himself, that what the one-eyed man was seeing, in his mind, was glory. That
would be fair enough, ordinarily. What else, as the skalds sang to harp by
hearth fire all winter, was there for the brave to seek? Wealth dies with a
man, his name lives ever. Ingavin's
halls were for warriors. Ripe, pliant maidens with red lips and yellow hair did
not offer mead (and themselves) to farmers and smiths at the golden tables of
the gods. But
his father had told them not to come this way. They
weren't even certain where they were going in these hills and narrow valleys.
Brand and Carsten had known the harbour from years before, but neither of them,
nor Garr Hoddson, had ever been as far inland as Brynnfell. They'd started
east, thirty riders, sixty on foot, fifty left to the ships to get them
offshore if they were found. Scarcely enough for that, Bern had thought, but he
was one of the youngest here, what did he know? Carsten
had urged a fast out-and-back raid with just the horsemen, since they were only
going to kill one man and find one thing. Brand and Garr had disagreed. Ap
Hywll's farm would be defended. They'd have to go more slowly, with men on
foot, a larger force. Bern, on Gyllir, was one of the horsemen sweeping both
sides of the path (just a track, really) as they went. They
saw no one. A good thing, you might have said, preserving their secrecy—but
Bern couldn't shake the feeling that others were seeing them. They
didn't belong here—somehow the land would know it—and the sea, their real
haven, was farther away every moment. On
the second day, going through a range of hills in a drizzle of rain, one of the
outriders had found a woodcutter and brought him back, hands tied behind him,
running before the horse at sword-point. The
man was small, dark, raggedly clothed. His teeth were rotting. He didn't speak
Erling; none of them spoke Cyngael. They hadn't expected to be here,
hadn't chosen any of those who did know the tongue. This was supposed to have
been a raid on undefended Anglcyn burhs. That's what Ivarr had paid them
for. They
tried talking to the woodcutter in Anglcyn, which should have been close
enough. The man didn't know that language either. He'd soiled himself in
terror, Bern saw. Brand,
impatient, edgy, angry now, had drawn his sword, seized the man's left arm and
sliced his hand off at the wrist. The woodcutter, hair plastered with rain,
drenched in his sweat and stink, had stared blankly at the stump of his wrist. "Brynnfell!"
Brand had roared in the falling rain. "Brynnfell! Where?" The
woodcutter had looked up at him a moment, vacant-eyed, then fainted dead away.
Brand had sworn savagely, spat, looked around as if for someone to blame. Garr,
scowling, put a sword through the Cyngael where he lay. They'd moved on. The
rain continued to fall. Bern's
feeling of oppression had begun to grow then. They'd travelled through the
evening, stopping only briefly at night. They heard animals moving, owls
overhead and in the trees on the slopes around, saw nothing at all. Before
morning they'd come out of the hills into more open lowlands though the mist
was still there. There
would be farms here, but Brand thought Brynn's was another day away, at least.
He was going by half-remembered stories. They made a stop before dawn, doled
out provisions, drank at the river just south of them, moved on as the sun came
up. Bern
thought of his father, mending a barn door on Rabady, a sunset hour. Glory, it
occurred to him, might come at a heavy price. It might not be the thing for
every man. He
leaned forward, patted Gyllir on the neck. They continued east, a forest
appearing north of them, the river murmuring south, running beside their path
and then turning away. Bern didn't like the secretive, green-grey closeness of
this land. The sun went down, the last crescent of the blue moon was in front
of them, and then overhead, and then behind. They stopped for another meal,
continued through the night. They were mercenaries of Jormsvik, could do
without sleep for a night or two to gain the advantages of surprise and fear.
Speed was the essence of a raid: you landed, struck, left death and terror,
took what you wanted and were gone. If you couldn't do that you didn't belong,
you shouldn't be on the dragon-ships, you were as soft as those you came to
kill. You
might as well be a farmer or a smith. It
was a brighter morning, at least. They seemed to have left the mists behind.
They went on. Late
in the day, with a breeze and white clouds overhead, they were met by Brynn ap
Hywll and a company of men at a place where they were moving up a slope and the
Cyngael were waiting above them. Not soft, not surprised, or afraid. Looking
up, Bern saw his father there.
Alun
didn't see Ivarr Ragnarson. The sun was behind the Erlings, forcing him to
squint. Brynn had taken the higher ground, but the light might become a
problem. The numbers were close, and they had twenty men in reserve, hidden on
either side of the slope. The Erlings had horsemen, twenty-five or so, he
guessed. They weren't the best riders in the world, but horses made a
difference. And these were Jormsvikings they were about to face, with a company
that was mostly farm labourers. It
was better than it might have been, but it wasn't good. The
Erlings had stopped at first sight of them. Alun's instinct would have been to
charge while the horses were halted, use the downslope to effect, but Brynn had
given orders to wait. Alun wasn't sure why. He
found out, soon enough. Ap Hywll called out, the big voice carrying down the
slope, "Hear me! You have made a mistake. You will not get home. Your
ships will be taken before you return to them. We had warning of your
coming." He was speaking in Anglcyn. "That
is a lie!" A one-eyed man, easily as big as Brynn, moved his horse
forward. Battles began this way in the tales, Alun thought. Challenge,
counter-challenge. Speeches for the harpers. This wasn't a tale. He was still
scanning the Erlings for the man he needed to kill. Brynn
had the same thought, it seemed. "You know it is true, or we wouldn't be
here with more men than you have. Surrender Ivarr Ragnarson and give hostages
and you'll sail alive from these shores." "I
shit upon that!" the big man shouted. And then, "Ragnarson's dead,
anyhow." Alun
blinked. He looked at Thorkell Einarson, beside him. The red-bearded Erling was
staring at the opposing forces. His own people. "How
so?" Brynn cried. "How is he dead?" "By
my blade at sea, for deceiving us." Amazingly,
Brynn ap Hywll threw his head back and laughed. The sound was startling,
utterly unexpected. No one spoke, or moved. Brynn controlled himself.
"Then what in Jad's name are you doing here?" "Come
to kill you," the other man said. His face had reddened at the laughter.
"Are you ready to find your god?" A
silence. Late afternoon, late summer. Late in life, really, for both of the men
speaking now. "I've
been ready a long time," said Brynn, gravely. "I don't need a hundred
men to go with me. Tell me your name." "Brand Leofson, of
Jormsvik." "You
lead this company?" "I
do." "They
accept that?" "What
does that mean?" "They
will follow orders you give?" "Kill
any man who doesn't." "Of
course you will. Very well. You leave two ships to us, twenty hostages of our
choosing, and all your weapons. The rest of you will be allowed to go. I will
send a rider to Llywerth and another to Prince Owyn in Cadyr—they will let you
leave. I cannot speak to what will happen when you sail past the Anglcyn
coast." "Two
ships!" The Erling's voice was incredulous. "We never leave
hostages, you shit-smeared fool! We never leave our ships!" "Then
the ships will be taken when you die in these lands. You will never leave, any
of you. Decide. I am not of a mind to talk." His voice was cold now. One
of the Erlings came forward on foot, stood by the stirrup of the one-eyed man.
They whispered together. Alun looked at Thorkell again. Saw that the other man
was gazing over at Brynn. "How
do we know you aren't lying about Llywerth and Cadyr? How would they know about
us?" It was the second Erling, standing by the one named Leofson. A
horseman twitched his reins and moved forward to sit his mount beside Brynn.
"You know because I tell you it is true. We rode through the spirit wood,
three of us, to bring warning of your coming here." "Through
the spirit—! That will be a lie! Who are . . . ?" The
Erling fell silent. He'd sorted the answer to his own question. It was the
accent, Alun realized. The flawless, courtly Anglcyn tones. "My
name is Athelbert, son of Aeldred," said the young man beside Brynn, who
had ridden with them through the godwood to serve a cause that wasn't his own.
"Our fyrd killed sixty of you. I will be unspeakably happy to add
to that number here. My father has sent a ship from Drengest, right behind
yours, with a warning for Cadyr. They will have had it days ago, while you were
coming here. Ap Hywll speaks truth. If we do not send to stop them, the Cyngael
will take your ships or drive them offshore, and you will have nowhere to go.
You are dead men, where you stand. Jormsvik will never be the same. They will
mock your names forever. You cannot possibly imagine the pleasure it gives me
to say these words." A
murmuring among the Erling host below them. Alun heard anger but no fear. He
hadn't expected to. He saw some of them begin to draw blades and axes. With a
hard, fierce sense of need, he unsheathed his sword. It had come, it had
finally come. "Wait,"
said Thorkell quietly beside him. "They're
drawing weapons!" Alun rasped. "I
see it. Wait. They will win this fight." "They
will not!" "Trust
me. They will. Ap Hywll knows it too. Numbers are close, but they have horsemen
and fighters. Brynn has his thirty men but the rest are farmers with scythes
and sticks. Think!" His
voice carried towards the front. Later, Alun decided he had meant it to do so.
Brynn turned his head slightly. "They
know they cannot leave these shores alive," he said, softly. "I
think they do," Thorkell Einarson said, still quietly, speaking Cyngael.
"It won't matter. They cannot give you hostages or ships and go back to
Jormsvik. They will die first." "So
we fight. Kill enough of them so that tomorrow or the next—" "And
what will your wives and mothers say, and the fathers of these two
princes?" Thorkell never raised his voice. Brynn
turned around. Alun saw his eyes in the late-afternoon light. "They will
say that the Erlings, accursed of Jad and the world, slew yet more good men
before their time. They will say what they have always said." "There
is a way out." Brynn
stared at him. "I am listening," he said. Alun felt the breeze
blowing, making their banners snap. "We
challenge him," Thorkell said. "He wins, they are allowed to leave.
He loses, they yield the two ships and hostages." "You just
said—" "They
cannot surrender ships. They can lose a fight. Honour requires they deal
fairly then. They will. This is Jormsvik." "That difference matters
enough?" Thorkell
nodded. "Always has." "Good,"
said Brynn, after a moment, smiling. "Good. I fight him. If he will do
it." Looking
back, Alun remembered that four people said No at the same moment, and he was
one of them. But
the voice that continued, when the others stopped in surprise, was a woman's.
"No!" she said again. Alun
turned, they all did. On the side slope, quite close in fact, on horseback,
were the lady wife and the daughter of Brynn ap Hywll. He saw Rhiannon, saw her
looking at him, and his heart thumped, a barrage of memories and images falling
like arrows from the bright sky. It
was the mother who had spoken. Brynn was gazing at her. She shifted her mount
to come forward among them. "I
told you to stay at home," he said, mildly enough. "I
know you did, my lord. Chastise me after. But hear me first. The challenge is
proper. I heard what he said. But it is not yours this time." "It
has to be mine. Enid, they came to kill me." "And
must not be allowed the pleasure. My dear, you are the summit and glory of all
men living." "I
like the sound of that," said Brynn ap Hywll. "I
imagine you do," said the lady Enid. "You are vain. It is a sin. You
are also, I grieve to tell you, old and short-winded, and fat." "I
am not fat! I am—" "You
are, and your left knee is aching as we speak, and your back is stiff each day
by this hour." "He's
old too! That one-eyed captain carries his years—" "He's
a raider, my lord." It was Thorkell. "I know the name. He is still a
fighting man, my lord. What she says is truth." "Are
you here to shame me, wife? Are you saying I cannot defeat—?" "My
love. Three princes and their sons stood aside for you twenty-five years
ago." "I
see no reason why—" "Do
not leave me," said Enid. "Not this way." Alun
heard birdsong. The doings of men here, the wrack and storm of them, hardly
mattering at all. It was a summer's day. The birds would be here when this was
over, one way or another. Brynn was gazing at his wife. She dismounted, without
assistance, and knelt on the grass before her husband. Brynn cleared his
throat. It
was Athelbert who broke the stillness. He twitched his reins and moved towards
the Erlings, down the slope a little way. "Hear me. We are told that you
cannot surrender the ships. You must understand you are going to die, if so. A
challenge is now offered you. Choose a man, we do the same. If you are
victorious, you will be permitted to sail from here." "And
if we lose?" They
were going to accept. Alun knew it, before they'd even heard the terms. It was
in the quickened voice of the one-eyed captain. These were mercenaries, bought
to fight, not berserkirs lusting after death. He was feeling something
strange, a circling of time. Three
princes and their sons. His father
had been one of those sons, twenty-five years ago. Alun's age, very nearly.
Brynn had been, too. What was unfolding here felt as if it were part of a skein
spun back to that strand in Llywerth. Athelbert
was speaking again. "You forfeit two ships, your weapons, including those
on the ships, and ten hostages as surety, to be released in the spring. Not a
surrender. A challenge lost." "How
do we get home without weapons? If we meet anyone at all—" "Then
you had best win, hadn't you? And hope you don't encounter my father's ships.
Accept now, or fight us here." "Accepted,"
said Brand Leofson, even faster than Alun had thought he would. Alun's
heart was beating hard now. It had come. He was thinking of Dai, of course.
Ragnarson was dead, but there was an Erling raider below them with a sword. The
skein was spun. He drew a steadying breath. His turn to twitch reins, move his
horse forward towards the destiny that had been shaped for him at the end of
spring. "I'll
do it," said Thorkell
Einarson. Alun
pulled up his horse, looked quickly back. "I
know you will," said Brynn, very softly. "I suppose that's why Jad
led you here." Alun
opened his mouth to protest, found he had no words. Reached for them, urgently.
Thorkell was looking at him, an unexpected expression in his eyes. "Think
of your father," he said. And then, turning away, "Prince Athelbert,
have I leave to use the sword you gave me in the wood?" Athelbert
nodded, did not speak. Alun wondered if he looked as young as the Anglcyn did
just now. He felt that way, a child again, allowed passage among the
men, like the ten-year-old who had joined them with the farmers from the west. Thorkell
swung down from his horse. "Not
a hammer?" Brynn asked, brisk now. "Not
in single combat. This is a good blade." "Will
you suffer a Cyngael helm?" "If
it doesn't split because of cheap workmanship." Brynn
ap Hywll didn't return the smile. "It's my own." He took it off,
handed it across. "I
am honoured," said the other man. He put it on. "Armour?" Thorkell
looked down the slope. "We're both in leather. Leave it be." He
turned to the woman, still kneeling on the grass. "I thank you for my
life, my lady. I have not lived a life deserving of gifts." "After
this, you will have," said Brynn, gruffly. His wife looked at the
red-bearded Erling, made no reply. Brynn added, "You see his eye? How to
use that? Kill him for me." Thorkell
looked at him. Shook his head ruefully. "The world does strange things to
a man if he lives long enough." "I
suppose," said Brynn. "Because you are fighting for us? For me?" Thorkell
nodded. "I loved him. Nothing was ever the same, after he died." Alun
looked at Athelbert, who was looking back at him. Neither said a word. The
birds were singing, all around them. "Who
fights for you?" shouted the big Erling down the slope. He had dismounted
and come up alone, halfway to where they were. He'd put on his helmet. "I
do," said Thorkell. He started down. A murmur rose from below, when they
saw it was an Erling. Alun
saw that Enid was wiping at tears with the back of one hand. Rhiannon had come
up beside her mother. He still didn't have his own heart's beating under
anything like control. Think of your father. How
had he known to say that?
Bern
watched his father coming down. He had been staring in disbelief from the
moment they saw the Cyngael. Thorkell was easy to see, he always had been, half
a head taller than most men, with the red banner of his beard. So
the son had known, without hearing a word spoken but watching the telltale
gestures of the men above them, that it had been Thorkell who had spoken of
single combat when battle had been upon them. So many of the stories told and
sung—all the way back to Siferth and Ingeld in the snow—were of single combat.
Glory and death: what brighter way to find either of them? He'd
heard others beside him, calculating swiftly, trying to decide if there were
Cyngael hidden behind the slopes either side, and if so, how many. Bern had no
sense of such things, could only register what he'd heard: they could win this
fight, it was judged, but would take losses, especially if there were arrows
among those in reserve. And
they wouldn't leave these lands. They had understood that from the moment the
Anglcyn prince—impossibly here among them—said what he did. Bern
had had those premonitions of disaster, on the longship coming here and all the
way through the black hills east. It seemed he might have more claim to
foresight than he'd ever thought. Not the best time to discover that. Then
the Anglcyn prince came forward a second time and offered the challenge. It
would be easy to hate that voice, that man, Bern thought. Terse muttering
beside him, experienced men: if they gave up their weapons they might as well
be naked, one said, heading back through a hostile land, then trying to get
home, rowing into the wind, desperately vulnerable to anyone they met, with
Aeldred's ships waiting for them. Without weapons, they couldn't winter over,
either. It
was a challenge that offered the illusion of survival if they lost; not more
than that. But they were dead if they did battle here, win or lose. "Brand,
you can slice the fat man apart," he heard Garr Hoddson rasp. "Do it,
we get home. And you'll have killed Brynn ap Hywll. Why we came!" Brynn
ap Hywll. Bern looked up at the Volgan's slayer. Erling's Bane. He was an old
man. Brand could do it, he thought, remembering the speed of Leofson's
blade, looking at the hard, scarred tautness of him. He would save them, as a
leader should. There was a window opening, Bern thought. Brand
shouted, "Accepted!" and drew his sword. Then
he cried, "Who fights for you?" And the window closed. Bern heard his
father say, "I do," and saw him start down towards where Brand was
waiting. The
setting sun made a firebrand of Thorkell's beard and hair. They were so far,
Bern thought, looking up at him, from the barn and field on Rabady. But the
light—the light now was the same as on evenings he remembered.
Neither
man was young. Both had done this before. Combat could start a battle or avert
it, and there was fame for the winning, even if this was a skirmish, a raid,
not a war. They
approached each other, both eyeing the ground, in no obvious haste to begin.
Brand Leofson smiled thinly. "We're on a slope. Want to move to flatter
ground?" The
other man—Brand had a vague sense he ought to know him—shrugged. "Same for
both. Might as well be here." The
two swords were the same length, though Brand's was heavier than the other's
Anglcyn blade. They were both big men, of a height, pretty much. Brand judged
he had several years' advantage. Still, he was disconcerted to be facing
another Erling. It was unexpected. Just about everything on this Ingavin-cursed
raid had been. "What
did they do? Promise to free you if you won?" The
other was still looking around at the grass, gauging it. He shrugged a second
time, indifferently. "I imagine they might do that, but it didn't come up.
I suggested this, actually." "Hungry
for death?" The
other man met his gaze for the first time. He
was still higher up, looking down. Brand didn't like it, resolved to do
something about that as soon as they started. "It comes for us. No need to
be hungry, is there?" One
of those, it seemed. Not the sort of man Brand liked. Good. Made this even
easier. He took a few more moments to do what the other was doing; noted a
fallen branch to his left, a depression in the ground behind it. He
looked at the other man again. "You suggested it? Did me a service, then.
This has been the worst voyage." "I
know. I was with Aeldred when they butchered you. It's because of Ragnarson.
Ill luck in the man. You really killed him?" "On my ship." "Should
have turned home, then. Didn't someone tell you to? A good leader cuts losses
before they grow." Brand
blinked, then swore. "Who in Thьnir's name are you to tell me what a
leader does? I'm a Jormsvik captain. Who are you?" "Thorkell
Einarson." Only
that, and Brand knew. Of course he knew. Strangeness piled on strangeness. Red
Thorkell. This one was in the songs; had rowed with Siggur, his companion, one
of those on the Ferrieres raid when they'd found the sword. The sword Brand had
come to regain. Well,
that wasn't about to happen. A
weaker man, he told himself, would have been disturbed by this revelation.
Brand wasn't. He refused to make too much of it. All that history just meant
the other man was older than he'd guessed. Good, again. "Will
they honour the terms?" he asked, not commenting on the name or showing
any reaction. It was on his mind, though: how could it not be? "The
Cyngael? They're angry. Have been since the raid here. You kill anyone on the
way?" "No
one. Oh. Well, one. Woodcutter." The
red-beard shrugged again. "One isn't so much." Brand
spat, cleared his throat. "We didn't know how to get here. I told you, a
terrible raid. Worst since a time in Karch." That
was deliberately told. Let this one know Brand Leofson had been about, too.
Something occurred to him. "You were the Volgan's oarmate. What are you
doing fighting for the pig who killed him?" "A
good question. Not the place to answer it." Brand
snorted. "You think we'll find a better place?" "No." Einarson
had courteously moved down and to one side, so they stood level on the slope,
facing each other. He lifted his blade, pointing to the sky in salute. The
conversation, evidently, was over. An arrogant bastard. A pleasure to kill him. "I'm
going to slice you apart," Brand said—Hoddson's words a moment ago, he
liked the ring of them. He returned the salute. Einarson
seemed unruffled. Brand needed more from him. He was trying to work himself
into anger, the fury that had him fighting his best. "You
aren't good enough," Thorkell Einarson said. That
would help. "Oh? Want to see,
old man?" "I
suppose I'm about to. You've charged your companions with what you want done
with your body? Have you a request of me?" Courtesy
again, Erling ritual. He was doing everything properly, and Brand was beginning
to hate him. It was useful. He shook his head. "I am ready for what comes.
Ingavin watch now and watch over me. Who guards your soul, Einarson? The
Jaddite god?" "Another
good question." The red-haired man hesitated for the first time, then
smiled, a curious expression. "No. Habits die hard, after all." With
that same odd look on his face he said, exactly as Brand had done, "I am
ready for what comes. Ingavin watch now and watch over me." And
whatever all that meant, Brand didn't know, nor did he care. Someone had to
start. You could kill a man at the start. They were only wearing leather. He
feinted a thrust and cut low on his backhand. If you took someone in the leg he
was finished. A favourite attack, done with power. Blocked. It began.
What
he knew of fighting he knew from his father. A handful of lessons as he'd grown
through boyhood, offered irregularly, without notice or warning. At least twice
when Thorkell had been suffering the after-effects of stumbling at dawn out of
a tavern. He'd grab swords, helms, gloves, order his son to follow him outside.
Something in the way of a father's duty, was the sense of it. There were things
Bern needed to know. Thorkell told them, or showed them, briskly, not lingering
to amplify, then had Bern take the weapons and armour back in while he carried
on himself with whatever else needed tending to on a given day. A son's
footwork as important—not necessarily more so—as a milk goat's bad foot. You
noted your opponent's weapon, looked to see if he had more than one, studied
the ground, the sun, kept your own blade clean, had at least one knife on you
always, because there were times when weapons could clash and shatter. If you
were very strong you could use a hammer or an axe, but they were better in
battle, not individual combat, and Bern was unlikely to grow big enough for them.
He'd do better to be aware of that, work at being quick. You kept your feet
moving, always, his father had said. Nothing
ever in the tone, Bern remembered, beyond simple observation. And observation,
simple or otherwise, was the underlying note to all the terse words spoken.
Bern had killed a Jormsvik captain with these injunctions in his head: judging
the other man to be hot-tempered, overconfident, too full of himself for
caution, riding a less-sure horse than Gyllir. Bern was a rider, Gyllir his advantage.
You watched the other, his father had said, learned what you could, either
before or while you fought. Bern
watched. The late-day light was uncannily clear after the mist of the mornings
through which they'd come to this ending. The
two men circling each other, engaging, breaking to circle again, were etched by
brilliant light. Nothing shrouded now. You could see every movement, every
gesture and flex. His
father was years removed from fighting days, had the bad shoulder (his mother
used to rub liniment into it at night) and a hip that nothing really helped in
wet weather. Brand was harder, still a raider, quicker than such a big man
ought to be, but had the bad, covered eye. He
also, Bern realized, after the two men had exchanged half a dozen clashes and
withdrawals, did something when he tried a certain attack. Bern was watching;
saw it. His father had taught him how. His father was fighting for his life.
Bern felt unsteady, light-headed. Couldn't do anything about that.
"Jad's
blood! He's too old to keep parrying. He needs to win quickly!" Brynn
was at Alun's side, swearing and exclaiming in a steady, ferocious undertone,
his own body twisting with the two men fighting below. Alun didn't see either
man faltering yet, or any obvious opportunities to end it quickly. Thorkell was
mostly retreating, trying to keep from being forced below the other man on the
slope. The Jormsvik leader was very fast, and Alun was putting real effort into
resisting a deeply private, shaming awareness of relief: he wasn't at all sure
he could have matched this man. In fact "Hah!
Again! See it? See? Because of the eye!" "What?"
Alun glanced quickly at Brynn. "Turns
his head left before he cuts on the backhand. To follow his line. He gives it
away! Holy god of the sun, Thorkell has to see that!" Alun
hadn't noticed it. He narrowed his gaze to concentrate, watch for what Brynn
had said, but in that same moment he began to feel something strange: a
pulsing, a presence, inexplicable, even painful, inside his head. He tried to
thrust it away, attend to the fight, the details of it. Green kept
impinging, though, the colour green; and it wasn't the grass or the leaves.
Rhiannon,
watching two men fight, was dealing with something so new to her she couldn't
identify it at first. It took her some moments to understand that what she was
contending with was rage. A fury white as waves in storm, black as a piled-up
thundercloud, no shading to it, no nuance at all. Anger, consuming her. Her
hands were clenched. She could kill. It was in her: she wanted to kill someone
right now. "We
should not have come," her mother said, softly. "We make them
weaker." Not
what she wanted to hear. "He'd
have taken the fight himself if you hadn't been here." "They'd
have stopped him," Enid said. "They'd
have tried. You're the only one who could. You know it." Her
mother looked at her, seemed about to say something, but did not. They watched
the men below. It was eerily clear and bright just now. The
men below. What, Rhiannon mer Brynn thought savagely, was a woman? What was her
life? Even here in the Cyngael lands, celebrated—or notorious—for their
womenfolk, what, really, could they ever hope to be or do at a time like this?
A time that mattered. Easy
enough, she thought bitterly, as swords clashed. They could watch, and wring
their delicate hands, her mother and herself, but only if they first disobeyed
clear and specific instructions to stay away and hide. Hide, hide! Or they
could be targets for an attack, be violated, killed, or taken and sold as
slaves, then mourned and exalted in song. Song, Rhiannon thought savagely. She
could kill a singer, too. Women
were children till they first bled, then married to make children, and—if Jad
was kind—their children would be boys who could farm and defend their land or
go off to fight one day. There was a ten-year-old boy here with a small scythe.
A ten-year-old. She
stood by her mother, aware that Enid was still trembling (uncharacteristically)
because she'd been so sure Brynn would fight and die here. There might be some
pattern or purpose at work, that her mother had saved a red-bearded Erling's
life in the farmyard that night, claiming him, and now that man had taken
Brynn's fight upon himself. There
might be a pattern. Rhiannon didn't care. Not right now. She wanted them all
dead, these Erlings, here simply because they could come, in their
longships with their swords and axes, because they exulted in killing and blood
and death in battle so their gods would grant them yellow-haired maidens for
eternity. Rhiannon
wished she had the powers of the Cyngael goddesses of old, the ones they were
forbidden even to name since they'd embraced Jad here in the west. She wished
she could invoke stone and oak, kill the raiders herself, leave bodies hacked
in pieces on this grass. Let those yellow-haired maidens put them back
together. If they wanted to. She'd
blood-eagle them. See if the so-fierce raiders of the sea came back here after that.
Her mood of the long summer was entirely gone, swept like fog before wind:
that wistful, aching, sleepless sense that things had gone awry. They had, they
had. But there was a lesson to be learned: love and longing were not what life
in the northlands was about. She knew it now. She was seeing it. The world was
too hard. You needed to become harder yourself. She
stood beside her mother, her face expressionless, showing no least hint of what
was raging within her. You could look at Rhiannon, limned in that brilliant
light, and see her as a dark-haired maiden of sorrows. She would kill you, if
she could, for thinking that.
Another
young woman, in Esferth far to the east, would have entirely understood these
thoughts, sharing many, though with a different fire in her, and one she'd
lived with all her life, no sudden discovery. The
bitterness of a woman's lot, the helplessness with which you watched brothers
and other men ride out to glory with iron at their sides, was nothing new for
her. Judit, daughter of Aeldred, wanted battle and lordship and hardship as
much as any Erling raider cresting waves in a dragon-ship, coming ashore in
surf. Instead,
she was readying herself for her wedding this winter to a boy in Rheden. She
was working, this day, with her mother and her ladies, embroidering. There were
skills a highborn lady was expected to bring to her marriage house. By
contrast to both of these, King Aeldred's younger daughter saw the world in a
very different way, although this, too, had been suffering change, moment by
moment, through these last, late days of summer. Right
now, with a pulsing pain behind her eyes and images impinging, erratic and
uncontrollable like sparks from a fire, Kendra knew only that she needed to
find the Cyngael cleric again, to tell him something important. He
wasn't at the royal chapel or the smaller one where he'd been before. She was
in real distress. The sunlight, late in the day, forced her to screen her eyes.
It occurred to her to wonder if this was what happened to her father when his
fever took him, but she wasn't warm or faint. Only hurting, and with a terrifying,
impossible awareness of fighting in the west, and a sword in her mind, flashing
and going, and coming again, over and over. It
was her brother who found Ceinion for her. Gareth, summoned by a messenger, had
taken one frightened look at Kendra sitting on a bench in the small chapel
(unable to go back into the light, just yet) and had gone running, shouting for
others to join him in the search. He came back (she wasn't sure how much time
had passed) and led her by the elbow through the streets to the bright (too
bright), airy room her father had had made for the clerics who were
transcribing manuscripts for him. She'd kept her eyes closed, let Gareth guide
her. The
king was there, among the working scribes, and Ceinion was with him, blessedly.
Kendra walked in, one hand held by her brother, the other to her eyes, and she
stopped, desperately unsure of how to proceed with her father here. "Father.
My lord high cleric." She managed that much, then stopped. Ceinion
looked at her, stood quickly. Could be seen to make a decision of his own.
"Prince Gareth, of a kindness will you have a servant bring the brown
leather purse from my rooms? Your sister needs a remedy I can offer her." "I'll
get it myself," said Gareth, and hurried out the door. Ceinion spoke a
quiet word. The three scribes stood up at their desks, bowed to the king, and
went out past Kendra. Her
father was still here. "My
lady," said Ceinion, "is this more of that matter of which we spoke
before?" She
hesitated, in pain, in something more than pain. They burned witches, for
heresy. She looked at her father. And heard Ceinion of Llywerth say, gravely,
changing the way of things one more time, "There is no transgression here.
Your royal father also knows the world of which you speak." Kendra's
mouth fell open. Aeldred had also stood, looking from one to the other of them.
He was pale, but thoughtful, calm. Kendra felt as if she were going to fall
down. "Child,"
said her father, "it is all right. Tell me what you are seeing from the
half-world now." She
didn't fall. She was spared that shame. They helped her to a high stool where a
cleric had been working. The manuscript in front of her on the tilted surface
of the desk had a gloriously coloured initial capital, half a page in height:
the letter "G" with a griffin arched along its curve. The word it
began, Kendra saw, was Glory. She
said, as clearly, as carefully as she could, "They are through the spirit
wood. Or the Cyngael prince, Alun ab Owyn, is. He's the one I can . . . see.
There are blades drawn, there is fighting." "Where?" "I
don't know." "Athelbert?" She
shook her head. The movement hurt. "I don't . . . see him, but I never
did. Only the Cyngael, and I don't know why." "Why
should we understand?" her father said after a moment, gentle as rain. He
looked at Ceinion, and then back at her. "Child, forgive me. This comes to
you from me, I believe. You have the gift or curse I carry, to see that which
most of us are spared. Kendra, there is no sin or failing in you." "Nor
in you, then, my lord," said Ceinion firmly, "if that is true,
and I believe it is. Nor need you punish yourself for it. There are purposes we
do not understand, as you say. Good, and the will of the god, are served in
different guises." She
saw her father look at the grey-haired cleric, in his pale yellow robe of the
god. The brightness of the robe hurt her eyes. "They are fighting?"
her father said, turning back to her. "Someone is. I see swords and . . .
and another sword." "Close your eyes," said Ceinion. "You are
loved here and will be guarded. Do not hide from what you are being given. I do
not believe there is evil in it. Trust to Jad." "To
Jad? But how? How can I—" "Trust.
Do not hide." His
voice held the music of the Cyngael. Kendra closed her eyes. Dizziness,
disorientation, unrelenting pain. Do not hide. She was trying not to.
She saw the sword again, the one she'd asked the cleric about before, small,
silver, shining in darkness, though there were no moons. She
saw green again, green, didn't understand, and then she remembered something,
though she still did not understand. Green
was wrapped around this, as a
forest wrapped a glade. She cried out then, real pain, grief, in a bright room
in Esferth. And on a slope in Arberth above where two men were fighting to the
death, someone heard her cry, in his mind, and saw what she saw, what she gave
him, and knew more than she knew. She heard
him say her name, in fear, and wonder, then another name. And then, with
exquisite courtesy, given what she'd just done to him and what he had understood
from it, he paused long enough to offer clearly to her, mind to mind, across
river and valley and forest, what she surely needed to be told, so far away. Who
can know, who can ever know for certain, how the instruments are chosen? Kendra
opened her eyes. Looked at her father's hand which was holding hers the way he
hadn't done since she was small, and she gazed up at him, crying, first time
that day, and said, "Athelbert is there. He came alive through the
wood." "Oh,
Jad," said her father. "Oh, my children." + If
you wanted to defeat a man like this you had a narrow path to tread (and you
kept your feet moving). Brand Leofson wasn't going to fall to some reckless
thrust or slash and he was too big to overpower. You needed enough time to mark
him, discover inclinations, the way he responded to what you tried, how he
initiated his own attacks, what he said. (Some men talked too much.) But the
time passing cut both ways as it slashed by: the Jormsviking was fast, and
younger than you were. You'd be lying to yourself, fatally, if you thought you
could linger to sort things out, or wear him down. You
had to do your watching quickly, draw conclusions, if there were any to be
drawn, set him up for whatever it was you found. Such as, for example, a
habit—clearly never pointed out to him—of turning his head to the left before
he slashed on the backhand, to let the good right eye follow his blade. And he
liked to slash low, sea-raider's attack: a man with a wounded leg was out of a
fight, you could move right past him. So
you knew two things, quite soon in fact, and if you wanted to defeat a man like
this you had an idea what needed to be done. You were also, a quarter-century
past your own best years, still more than good enough to do it. And
no lying to the self in that. Thorkell Einarson hadn't been prone to that vice
for a long time. There was a hard expression on his face as he retreated again
and read the backhand cut one more time. He blocked it, didn't let it seem too
easy. Circled right around again, below and then back to level, denying the
other man the upslope he wanted. Not hard, not really hard yet. Knew
what he was doing still. Could be worn down, would grow tired, but not too soon
if Leofson kept signalling half his blows like that. There was a sequence you
could use when you knew the other man had committed to a backhand slash. The
light was really very bright, an element in this combat, the westering sun
shining along their slope, striking the two of them, the trees, the grass, the
watchers above and below. No clouds west, dark ones piled up east—and those,
underlit, made the late-day sky seem even more intense. He'd known evenings
like this among the Cyngael, perhaps more valued because of the rain and mist
that usually wrapped these hills and silent valleys. A
land some men could grow accustomed to, but he didn't think he was the sort,
unless in Llywerth by the sea. He needed the sea, always had; salt in the blood
didn't leave you. He parried a downward blow (heavy, that one) then feinted a
first low, forehand blow to see what Leofson would do. Overreacted—he would
worry more on that side because of his eye. Hard on the hip, though, slashing
that way. Ap Hywll's wife had named her husband's ailments. It might have been
amusing, somewhere else. Thorkell's could have done the same with his. He briefly
wondered where Frigga was now, how the two girls were faring, the grandsons he
hadn't seen. Bern was here. His son was here. It
had been, thought Thorkell Einarson, a long-enough life. Not
without its share of rewards. Jad—or Ingavin and Thьnir, whatever was waiting
for him—hadn't been unkind to him. He wouldn't say it. You made your own
fortune, and your own mistakes. If
you wanted to defeat a man like this . . . He smiled then, and began. It was
time. The raider
facing him would remember that smile. Thorkell feinted again, as before, to
draw the too-wide response. Followed, quickly, with a downward blow that Brand
blocked, jarringly. Then
he let himself seem to hesitate, as if tired, unsure, his right leg still
forward, exposed. ("Watch!"
said ap Hywll sharply, higher up
the slope.) (Bern, below them, caught his breath.) Brand
Leofson went for the deception, signalling his backhand again with a turned
head. And once he'd committed himself—Thorkell's blade moved high, to his own
backhand. Too
soon. Before
Leofson had fully shifted his weight. A terrible mistake. Right side and chest
wide open to a man still balanced. A fighting man with time (It was time) to
change from a sweeping backhand slash to a short, straight-ahead thrust with a
heavy sword. Heavy enough to pierce leather and flesh to the beating, offered
heart. Watching,
Bern sank to his knees, a roaring in his ears. A sound like the surf on stones,
so far inland. Leofson
pulled free his blade, not easily. It had gone a long way in. He had an odd
expression on his face, as though he wasn't sure what had just happened.
Thorkell Einarson was still standing, and smiling at him. "Watch the
backhand," the red-haired man said to him, very low, no one else in the
world to hear it. "You're giving it away, every time." Brand
lowered his bloodied sword, brow furrowing. You weren't supposed to . . . you
didn't say things like that. Thorkell
swayed another moment, as if held up by the light, in the light. Then he turned
his head. Not towards ap Hywll, for whom he'd taken this fight, or the two
young princes with whom he'd gone through a wood and out of time, but to the
Erlings on the slope below them, led here to what would have been their dying. Or to
one of them, really, at the end. And
he had enough strength left, before he toppled like a tree cut down, to speak,
not very clearly, a single word. "Champieres,"
he seemed to say, though it could have been something else. Then he fell into
the green grass, face to the far sky, and whichever god or gods might be
looking down, or might not be. A
long-enough life. Not without gifts. Taken, and given. All mistakes his own.
Ingavin knew. SIXTEEN Kendra
had been keeping her eyes closed. The light entering the room was still too
bright, making the pain in her head worse, and when she looked around, the
sense of disorientation—of being in two different places—only grew. With eyes
closed, the inner sight, vision, whatever it was, didn't have to fight against
anything. Except
her, and all she'd thought she knew about the world. But now she made herself
look up, and open her eyes. Her father and Ceinion with her, no one else.
Gareth had come with the herbs, and had gone back out. She'd heard her father
giving him another task to do. They
were really just sending him from the room, that he not be burdened, as they
were, with the awareness that King Aeldred's younger daughter seemed to be
having the sort of visions that had you condemned for trafficking with the
half-world. The world the clerics said—by turns—either did not exist at all, or
must be absolutely shunned by all who followed the rites and paths of holy Jad. Well
and good to say, but what did you do when you saw what you did see, within?
Kendra said, her voice thin and difficult, "Someone has died. I think . .
. I think it is over." "Athelbert?"
Her father had to ask that, couldn't help himself. "I
don't think so. There is distress but not . . . not fear or pain right now. In
him." "In
Alun? Ab Owyn?" That was Ceinion. She had to close her eyes again. It
really was difficult, seeing and . . . seeing. "Yes.
I think . . . I don't think either of them was fighting." "Single
combat, then," her father said. Shrewdest man in the world. All her life.
A gift for her and Judit, a burden at times for his sons. She had no certain
idea he was right, but he almost always was. "If
two men fought, someone has lost. There is . . . Alun is heavy with
sorrow." "Dearest
Jad. It will be Brynn, then," said Ceinion. She heard him sit heavily at
one of the other stools. Made herself look, squinting, in pain. "I
don't think so," she said. "This is not so . . . sharp a grief?" They
looked at her. The most frightening thing of all, in some ways, was that these
two men believed every impossible thing she was telling them. Then
she had to close her eyes once more, for the images were in her again, imposed,
pushing through her towards the other one, so far away. Same as before,
stronger now: green, green, green, and something shining in the dark. "I
need this to stop," Kendra whispered, but knew it wasn't going to. Not
yet. Brynn
was the first one down the hill, but not the first to reach the two of them,
one standing with a red sword, the other lying in the grass. Brand Leofson,
still caught in strangeness, not sure yet what had happened, saw—another
mystery—his young shipmate come up to them and kneel on the grass beside the
dead man. Brand
heard a sound from above, saw ap Hywll coming down. "You
will honour the fight?" he asked. Heard
Brynn ap Hywll say, bitter and blunt, "He let you win." "He
did not!" Brand said, not as forcefully as he wanted to. The
young one, Bern, looked up. "Why do you say that?" he asked, speaking
to the Cyngael, not to his own leader, the hero who had saved them all. Brynn
was swearing, a stream of profanity, as he looked down at the dead man.
"We were deceived," he said, in Anglcyn. "He took the fight on
himself, intending to lose." "He
did not!" Leofson said again. Brynn's voice had been loud enough
for others to hear. "Don't
be a fool! You know it," snapped the Cyngael. Men were coming over now,
from below and above. "You show your backhand every time, he set you up
for that." Bern
was still kneeling, for some reason, beside the dead man. "I saw
that," he said, looking again at ap Hywll. Brand
swallowed hard. Watch the backhand. You're giving it away . . . What
kind of a fool ... ? He
stared at the boy beside the fallen man. The late light fell on both of them. "Why
are you there?" he said. But he wasn't a stupid man, and he knew his answer
before it came. "My
father," said Bern. No
more than that, but much came all too clear. Brynn ap Hywll gazed down at the
two of them, the living one and the dead, and began to swear again, with a
ferocity that was unsettling. Brand
One-eye, hearing him, and with duties here, said, again, loudly, "You will
honour the fight?" Within,
he was badly shaken. What kind of a fool did something like this? Now he
knew. Brynn
ignored him, insultingly. The force of his fury slowed. He was looking at Bern.
"You understand that he prepared all of this?" Still speaking
Anglcyn, the shared tongue. Bern
nodded. "I . . . think I do." "He
did." It was a new voice. "He came through the godwood with us to do
this, I think. Or make it possible." Bern
looked over. Aeldred's son, the Anglcyn prince. There was a smaller young man,
Cyngael, beside him. "He . . . almost told us that," Prince Athelbert
went on. "I said I was in the wood because of my father, and Alun was for
his brother, and .. . Thorkell said he was a fit with us and would explain
later how. He never did." "Yes,
he did," said Brynn ap Hywll. "Just now." Leofson
cleared his throat. This was all blowing much too far in a bad direction. You
had to be careful when the rocks got close. "I killed this man in fair
combat," he said. "He was old, he grew tired. If you want to try
to—" "Be
silent," said ap Hywll, not loudly, but with no respect in his voice, none
of what should come to a man who'd just saved his entire company. "We
will honour your fight, because I would be shamed not to, but the world will
know what happened here. Would you really have gone home and claimed glory for
this?" And
to that, Brand Leofson had no reply. "Leave
now," Brynn continued bluntly. "Siawn, we do this properly. There is
a dead man to be honoured. Send two riders to the coast to bring word to those
of Cadyr who might be looking for the ships. Here's my ring, for them. No one
is to attack. Tell them why. And take an Erling, their best rider, to explain
to the ones left there." He
looked at Brand again, the way one looked at a low-ranking member of his
household. "Which of your men can handle a horse?" "I
can," said the one kneeling beside the dead man, looking up. "I've
the best horse. I'll go." He hadn't stood up yet. "Are
you certain? We will bury your father with all proper rites. If you wish to
stay for ..." "No.
Give him to us," Brand said, assertive for the first time. "He
entrusted his soul to Ingavin, before we fought. This is truth." Brynn's
mood seemed to change again. Sorrow in his face, anger spent. The Cyngael, it
was said, were never far from sadness. Rain and mist, dark valleys, music in
their voices. Ap
Hywll nodded his head. "That seems fitting, I have to say. Very well. Take
him with you. You will do him honour?" "We
will do him honour," Brand said, with dignity. "He was the Volgan's
shipmate once."
Her
own anger, Rhiannon realized, had also gone. It was more than a little
unsettling: how one could be consumed, defined by rage, the desire—the need—to
kill, and then have it simply disappear, drift away, leaving such a
different feeling behind. She hadn't cried earlier; she was weeping now for a
treacherous Erling servant of her mother's. She shouldn't be doing this, she
thought. She shouldn't. Her
mother put an arm about her shoulders. Enid was calm again, thoughtful, holding
her child. It
is over, Rhiannon told herself. At
least it is over now.
In
the sagas, Bern thought, when the hero died, to the monster's claws and teeth
or the assembled might of deceitful foes, he always lay alive for some last
moments so those who loved him could come and say that, and hear the last words
he would speak, and carry them away. Siferth
had died that way, years after killing Ingeld on the ice, and so had Hargest in
his brother's arms, speaking the words at the heart of all the sagas:
Cattle
die kinsmen die. Every
man born must die. Fierce hearth fires end in ash. Fame
once won endures ever. It
made for good verse. It might even be true. But not all of us are granted final
words with those we are losing, not all of us are equal to the task of the
last, memorable thing to say, or allowed it even if we are. You
were supposed to have that moment, Bern thought bitterly. In the Jaddite
songs, too, there were such exchanges. The king speaking to his servant words
to be remembered, to echo down the ages. The dying high cleric telling a
wavering acolyte that which confirms him in faith and mission and changes his
life—and the lives of others, after. It
wasn't right that there was nothing here but this . . . kneeling beside a death
among so many strangers, enemies, in a distant land far from the sea. It wasn't
right that your own last encounter had been so harsh. His father had saved him
there, too, carrying him out of Esferth to his horse, sending him away, with
instructions not to come to Brynnfell. If
they'd listened, if they'd gone home, this wouldn't have .. . It
wasn't his fault. Not his doing. He'd taken heed. A good son. Ivarr Ragnarson
was dead because Bern had exposed him, as his father had wanted. He'd
done what he'd been told. He'd .. . he'd honoured his father's words. His
father had killed two men, been exiled, cost his family home and freedom, the
shape and pattern of their lives. Had
given one life back, here, bought with his own. They
were speaking above him of needing an Erling to ride to the ships with the
Cyngael. Bern looked up, hoping they couldn't see how blurred and unmoored he
felt, and said he'd go. He
heard Brand say, quietly, that Thorkell had chosen Ingavin for his soul at the
end. He wasn't surprised. How could that be a surprise? But it did give him a
thought. He slipped the hammer from about his neck and lifted his father's
head, still warm in the late-day sunlight, and he gave Thorkell back his gift
to carry up to the god's halls, where mead was surely (surely) being poured for
him now, with Siggur Volganson there to lead the cries of welcome after waiting
for so long. He
stood up carefully. Looked down at his father. It had been dark in the river
the last time, nothing clearly to be discerned. It was bright here now. Some
grey in the hair and beard, but really very little for a man of his years. Red
Thorkell, still, at the end. He
looked over, met the gaze of Brynn ap Hywll. Hadn't expected what he saw there.
They'd come to kill this man. Neither of them spoke. It crossed Bern's mind to
say that he was sorry, but an Erling didn't say that to a Cyngael. He just
nodded his head. The other man did the same. Bern turned away and went down the
slope, to get Gyllir and ride. It was over. In
the great stories there were last words from the dying, and for them from those
left behind. In life, it seemed, you galloped away, and the dead were borne
after you towards a burning by the sea.
It is
over, Bern thought, riding away, and Rhiannon mer Brynn had told herself the
same thing, a little higher up the hill. Both were wrong, though young enough
to be forgiven for it. It
does not end. A story finishes—or does for some, not for others—and there are
other tales, intersecting, parallel, or sharing nothing but the time. There is
always something more. Alun
ab Owyn, so pale that it was noted by all who looked at him, walked over
towards Brynn. He was breathing carefully, holding himself very still. "Lad.
What is it?" Brynn's gaze narrowed. "I
need . . . I must ask something of you." "After
coming through that wood for us? Jad's blood, there is nothing you could ask
that—" "Don't
say it. This is large." The
older man stared at him. "Let us walk away, then, and you will ask me, and
I will say if I can do what you need." They
walked away, and Alun asked. Only the dog, Cafall, whom both of them had called
theirs, was near to them, following. There
was a breeze from the north, sliding the clouds away. A clear night coming,
late-summer stars soon, no moons. "It
is very large," Brynn agreed, when Alun had done. He, too, was pale now.
"And this is from . . ." "This
is from the half-world. The one that we . . . both know." "Are you
certain you understand ... ?" "No.
No, I'm not. But I think . . . I have been caused to see something. And I am
being . . . besought to do this." "From
when you were in the godwood?" "Before.
It began here." Brynn
looked at him. He wished Ceinion were with them. He wished he were a wiser,
better, holier man. The sun was low. The Erlings, he saw, glancing down the
slope, had taken the body of the dead man. Siawn had detailed men to go with
them, escorts. Brynn didn't think there would be trouble. Something had changed
with Einarson's death. He was still trying to sort that through, if he'd have
done the same thing to save his own son, or daughters. He
thought so, but didn't know. He honestly didn't know. Owyn's
son was waiting, staring at him, his mouth pinched, clearly in great distress.
He was the musician, Brynn remembered. Had sung for them the night the Erlings
came. His brother had died here. This one had come through the spirit wood to
warn them, and sent a faerie ahead to Brynn. Three nights she had waited above
the yard for him to come to her. Failing that, the farm would have burned
tonight. And Enid, Rhiannon .. . He
nodded his head. "I'll take you to Siggur Volganson's sword, where I
buried it. Jad defend us both from whatever may befall." It does not end.
There is always more.
She
is watching. Of course she is watching. How could she not have followed here?
She is trying, from a distance, away from all the iron, to understand
movements, gestures. She is not skilled at this (how could she be?). She sees
him walk away with the other one, with whom she'd spoken on the slope, who is
afraid of her, of what she is. They
do not see her. She is in the trees, muted, trying to understand, but
distracted by the aura of other presences gathering as sundown nears: the Ride
is close by, of course, and spruaugh, many of them, whom she has always
disliked. One of those, she thinks, will have flitted to tell the queen
already: about what she's done, what she is doing now. There
was one dead man, taken up by the others now. Only one. She has seen this
before, years ago and years ago. It is ... a game men play at war, though
something more than that, perhaps. They die so swiftly. She
sees the two of them turn and go to their horses and start back east, alone.
She follows. Of course she follows, among the trees. But just then, watching
the two of them, she feels—inexplicably strange, at first, then not
so—something she has never felt before, in all the years since wakening. And
then she realizes what it is. She is feeling sorrow, seeing him take horse and
ride. A gift. Never before. She
enters the small wood above Brynnfell with the two of them and the grey dog.
The Ride is waiting by the pool. She feels the queen's summons and goes to her,
as she must.
It
grew darker as they rode, both carrying torches now. The first stars out,
clouds chased south by the wind. Cafall loped beside the horses. No one else
was with them. Alun looked at the sky. "No
moons tonight?" Brynn
simply shook his head. The big man had been silent on the ride. Alun was aware
that this particular journey would be laden with memory for him, like a weight.
This is very large, he had said. It was. No
moons. That, Alun thought, but did not say—for Brynn was carrying enough—was
the other reason time had altered for the three of them in the spirit wood,
coming here. Allowed
to come here. He was remembering Thorkell's hammer, laid upon the grass where
they'd heard the creature roaring. An offering, and perhaps not the only thing
offered. He, too, had ended up lying on grass. This
was a different wood. The insistent images, painfully imposed, coming from an
Anglcyn princess in Esferth, were green and shining still, as they entered
among the trees carrying their flames. He'd
chased Ivarr Ragnarson here, and his Erling horse had entered the pool and been
frozen there, and he'd seen faeries, heard their music, seen Dai with the
queen. Never
found Ivarr. That one was dead, it seemed. Not by Alun's hand. Not his revenge.
Something else, a larger thing, to be done now. He was afraid. The
images in his mind had stopped. They were gone, as if the girl had been worn
out sending them—or wasn't needed any more, now that he was here. He was
supposed to know, by now, why he was in this wood. He was almost certain he
did. That sense of something pushing into awareness was replaced by
something else, more difficult to name. He
dismounted when Brynn did, and he followed him through the darkness; a twisting
path through high summer trees (a small wood, this, but an old one, surely so,
with faeries here). They were cautious with the torches. A forest could burn. He
saw the pool. His heart was beating fast. He glanced at Brynn, who had stopped,
saw that the other man's face was rigid with strain. Brynn looked around,
aligning himself. The sky was clear above the pool, they could see stars. The
water was still, a mirror. No wind here. No sound in the leaves. Brynn
turned to him. "Hold this," he said, handing Alun his torch. He
set off around the edge of the pool, towards the south. Long-striding, almost
hurrying, now that they were here. He would be tangled in memories, Alun
thought. He followed, carrying light. Again Brynn stopped, again took his
bearings. Then he turned his back on the water and walked over to a tree, a
large ash. He touched it and went past. Three more trees, then he turned to his
left. There
was a boulder, moss-covered (green), massive. Here, too, Brynn rested his hand
a moment. He looked back at Alun. It was too hard to read his thoughts by
torchlight. Alun could guess, though. "Why
didn't you destroy it?" he asked softly, his first words in the wood. "I
don't know," the other man said. "I felt as if it should stay with
us. Lie here. It was . . . very beautiful." He
stayed that way a moment, then he turned his back on Alun, drew a breath, put a
shoulder to that huge rock, and pushed, an enormously strong man. Nothing
happened. Brynn straightened, wiped at his face with one hand. "I
can—" Alun began. "No,"
said the other. "I did it myself, then." Twenty-five
years ago. A young man in his glory, a life ahead of him, the greatest deed of
his days already done. What he'd be remembered for. He'd taken that fight for
his own, over those whose rank should have made it theirs. Today, he had let a
man take another combat, for him. This
was a proud man. Alun stood with the torches, Cafall beside him, and watched as
Brynn turned back to the rock, spat on both his hands, and put them and his
shoulder to it again, driving with body and legs, churning, grunting with
exertion, then crying aloud Jad's name, the god, even here. And
the boulder rolled with that cry, just enough to reveal, by the light of Alun's
torches, a hollow beneath where it had been, and something wrapped in cloth,
lying there. Brynn
straightened, wiped at his dripping face again with one sleeve then the other.
He swore, though softly, without force. Alun remained where he was, waiting.
His heart was still pounding. The other man knelt, claimed the cloth, and what
lay inside it. He stood up and carried it back before him the few steps out of
those trees, past the ash to the grassy space by the starlit pool. He
cried aloud, raised a quick, warding hand. Alun, following, looked past him.
They were here. Waiting. Not the faeries. The green, hovering figures he'd seen
with the others in the spirit wood. They
were here, and they were the reason he was here. He knew what these were now,
finally, and what they needed from him. Besought.
He was being pleaded with. To
intervene. A mortal who could see the half-world, who had been in the Ride's
pool here, had lain with a faerie in the northern reaches of the spirit wood.
They would know this. When he'd entered the wood again with Thorkell and then
Athelbert, they had come for him. His
heart was twisted, entangled, holding a weight that felt like centuries. He
didn't know how the girl in Esferth was part of this (didn't know she'd been in
the wood that same night) but she had given him the images they needed him to
see. She had . . . a different kind of access to this. And
had brought him here, a second time. "They
will not harm us," he said quietly to Brynn. "You
know what these are?" "Yes,"
said Alun. "I do now." Brynn
didn't ask the next question. Either he didn't want to know or, more probably,
he was leaving this, in courtesy, to Alun. Alun
said, "If you will give me the sword, I think you should take Cafall and
go. You do not need to stay with me." "Yes
I do," said the other man. Hugely
proud, all his days. A man had died, taking his fight this afternoon. Brynn
unwrapped the cloth from around what it had held for so many years and Alun,
coming nearer with both torches, saw the Volgan's small, jewel-hiked sword,
taken from the raid on Champieres, and carried as a talisman until the day he
died in Llywerth, by the sea. The
man who'd killed him held it out towards Alun. Alun handed him a torch, took
the sword, gave Brynn the other flame. He unsheathed the blade, to look upon
it. It was silver, Siggur Volganson's sword. Not iron. He'd known it would be,
from the girl. There
came a sound from the green shapes gathered there—twenty of them, or nearly so,
he judged. A keening noise, wind in leaves but higher. Sorrow was in him. The
way of the Cyngael. "You
are . . . certain you wish to stay?" Brynn
nodded. "You don't want to be alone here." He
didn't. It was true. But still. "I don't think I have . . . permission to
do this. I don't expect to live. Your wife asked you—" "I
know what she said. I will not leave you alone. Do what you must. We will bear
witness, Cafall and I." Alun
looked beyond him. One of the green shapes had come nearer. They were almost
human, as if twisted by time and circumstance a little away. He knew what they
were, now. What they had been. Brynn
stepped away, back towards the encircling trees, carrying the torches. The dog
was silent when it might have growled. It had done so in the spirit wood, Alun
remembered. Something had changed. He set the scabbard down. "You
wish this, truly?" he said. Not to the other man this time. Brynn was
behind him now. He was holding a silver sword and speaking to the green
creatures that had come. They were in a clearing by the faerie queen's pool
under stars on a night when neither moon would rise. Souls walked on such
nights, so the old tales told. No
reply, or none spoken aloud. He had no idea if they could speak any tongue he
might know. But the figure before him came nearer yet (slowly, so as not to
startle him or cause fear, was the thought that came) and it knelt upon the
dark grass before him. He
heard Brynn make a sound (the beginning of a prayer) and then stop himself. The
other man had just realized, Alun thought, what was about to happen, though he
wouldn't know why. Alun knew why. He
had not asked for this. He'd only ridden north from home one bright morning at
the end of spring with his brother and favourite cousin and their friends on a
cattle raid, as young men of the Cyngael had done since all songs began. He had
ridden into a different, older story, it seemed. Much
older. These green things, and he still didn't know what they were called, had
been human once. Like Brynn, like Alun himself, like Dai. Entirely
like Dai. These, he understood, heart aching, were the souls of the faerie
queen's mortal lovers after she tired of them and sent them from her side. This
is what became of them, after who could know how many years. And he was here
(in a tale he had never known he was in) to set them free with silver, under
stars. His
eyes were dry, his hand steady, holding the small sword. He touched the point
and still-sharp edges. Not a warrior's blade this one, a slender, ceremonial
sword. This was a ceremony, as much as anything else. He
drew a breath. There was no reason to wait, or linger. He'd been brought here
for this. He stepped forward. "Let
there be light for you," he said. And thrust the Volgan's blade into the
kneeling, shimmering creature, below what would have been its collarbone, long
ago. He
was ready this time for the sound that came, and so did not flinch or startle
when he heard that cry of release, or the deeper sound that came from the
others gathered here. No wind, the water utterly still. Stars would be
reflected in it. There
was nothing kneeling before him now, where the blade (too smoothly, almost no
resistance) had gone. Alun understood. It
was a soul, not a mortal body. It had died long ago. He was stabbing hearth
smoke and memory. He
told himself that, again and again, as he besought light (besought) for
each of them, one by one, as they came and knelt and he did what they had drawn
him here to do for them. He became aware of how grateful he was that Brynn had
stayed, after all, that he wasn't here alone to do this in the dark, wrapped in
sorrow, hearing that aching joy in each of them at their release, the sound
they made. His
hand was steady, each time, over and again. He owed them that, having been
chosen for this. Exchanges in spirit woods, he was thinking. A hammer laid down
in one forest that a sword might be lifted from under a boulder in another.
Thorkell's life for his and Athelbert's, and so many others on that slope today
(mortals, all). He
had no idea how much time had passed or if, indeed, it had. He
looked down upon the last of these kneeling souls taken once, and discarded, by
the faerie queen. He offered his prayer for it and plunged the sword and heard
the cry, and saw this last one flicker and drift from sight as the others had done.
Nothing green left glimmering in the glade. And so this, Alun thought, was the
last exchange, final balancing, an ending. He,
too, was young. To be forgiven this error, as the others were. He
heard music. Looked up. Behind him, Brynn began, quietly, to pray. Light
upon the water, pale, as if moonlight were falling. And then the light (which
was not moonlight) took shape, attained form, and Alun saw, for a second time,
faeries coming across the surface of the pool, to the sound of flutes and bells
and instruments he did not know. He saw the queen (again), borne in her open
litter, very tall, slim, clothed in what would be silk or something finer,
silver-hued (like his sword). Faeries, passing by. Or
not, in fact, passing. Not this time. The music stopped. He heard Brynn behind
him, ceaselessly speaking the invocation of light, the first, the simplest
prayer. The dog was silent, still. Alun looked at the queen, and then made
himself look beside her. Dai
was there, as he had been before (so little time would have passed for them, he
thought). He was riding a white mare with ribbons in her mane, and the queen
was reaching out and holding him by the hand. Silence
upon the water. Brynn's murmuring the only sound in the glade. Alun looked at
that shining company, and at his brother (his brother's taken soul). Without
having intended to, he knelt then on the grass. His turn to kneel. They were so
far inside the half-world; only with mercy would they ever come out, and
faeries were never known for mercy, in the tales. They
did make bargains, though, with mortals they favoured, and there can be
a final balancing, though we might not expect it or know when it has come. Kneeling,
looking upon that tall, pale, exquisite queen in her silvered light upon water,
he saw her gesture, a movement of one hand, and he saw who came forward,
obedient, dutiful, from among those in her train, to her side. No sound. Brynn,
he realized, had fallen silent. Grave,
unsmiling, achingly beautiful, the faerie queen gestured again, twice, looking
straight at Alun, and so he understood—finally--that there could be indulgence,
mercy, a blessing, even, entangled with all sorrows (the cup from which we
drink). She reached out one arm and laid it like a barrier before the small,
slim figure of the one who had come forward. The one he knew, had spoken to,
had lain with in a forest, on the grass. Will
you come back into the wood? Will
you sorrow if I do not? he had
asked. Her
hair was changing hues, as he watched, golden to dark violet, to silver, like
the queen's. He knew these changes, knew this about her. From behind the
barrier of that arm, that banning, she looked at him, and then she turned her
head away and gazed at the figure on the other side of the queen, and Alun
followed her glance, and began, now, to weep. Final
balancing. The queen of the faeries released his brother's hand. And with those
fingers, a gesture smooth as water falling, she motioned for Dai to go forward,
if he wished. If he
wished. He was still wrapped (like a raiment) in his mortal shape, not green
and twisted away from it as the others had been. He was too new, still her
favoured one, riding the white mare at her side, holding her hand amid their
music, upon water, in the night woods, within the faerie mounds. If he
wished. How did one leave this? Go from that shining? Alun wanted (so much) to
call to him, but tears were pouring down his face and his throat was blocked
with grief, so he could only watch as his brother (his brother's soul) turned
to look at the queen in her litter beside him. He was too far away for Alun to
see what expression was on his face: sorrow, anger, fear, yearning, puzzlement?
Release? It
is, as has long been said, the nature of the Cyngael that in the midst of
brightest, shining joy, they carry an awareness of sorrows to come, an ending
that waits, the curving of the arc. It is their way, the source of music in
their voices, and-perhaps—what allows them to leave the shining behind, in due
time, when others cannot do so. Gifts are treasured, known not to be forever. Dai
twitched the reins of his mare and moved forward, alone, across the water. Alun
heard Brynn again, praying behind him. He looked, for one brief moment (that
could be made to last a lifetime if held clearly enough in memory) upon the
faerie that had come to him, his own gift, a shining left behind, and saw her
raise a hand to him from behind the arm of the queen. Final balancing. Dai
reached the water's edge, dismounted. Walked across the grass. Not hovering as
the others had, not yet, still clothed in the form his brother had known. Alun
made himself stand still. He held the Volgan's sword. Dai
stopped in front of him. He did not smile, or speak (no words spoken, across
that divide). Nor did he kneel, Owyn of Cadyr's older, slain son. Not before a
younger brother. One could even smile at that perhaps, later. Dai spread his
feet a little, as if to steady himself. Alun was remembering the morning they
had ridden north from home, coming here. Other memories followed, in waves.
How could they not, here? He looked into his brother's eyes and saw that they
had changed (were still changing). It seemed to him there were stars to be seen
there, a strangeness so great. "Let
there be light for you," he murmured, scarcely able to speak. "Let
it be done with love," said Brynn behind him, soft as a benison, words
that seemed to be from some ancient liturgy Alun didn't know. "How
not?" he said. To Brynn, to Dai, to the bright queen and all her faeries
(and the one he was losing now), to the dark night and the stars. He drew back
the sword a last time and drove it into his brother's chest, to accept the
queen's gift of his soul, the balancing, and set it free to find its harbour, after
all. When
he looked up again, Dai was gone (was gone) and the faeries had disappeared,
all that shining. It was dark upon the water and in the glade. He drew a ragged
breath, felt himself shivering. There
was a sound. The dog, come up to nuzzle him at the hip. Alun put a trembling
hand down, touched its fur between the ears. Another sound. He turned towards
it wordlessly, and he let Brynn ap Hywll gather him in his arms as a father
would, with his own father so far away. They
stood so for a long time before they moved. Brynn claimed the scabbard, wrapped
the sword in its cloth again, as before, and they walked over and he laid it in
the hollow where it had been. Then he looked up. It was dark. The torches had
burned out. "Will
you help me, lad?" he asked. "This accursed boulder has grown. It is
heavier than it used to be, I swear." "I've
heard they do that," said Alun quietly. He knew what the other man was
doing. A different kind of gift. Together, shoulders to the great rock, they
rolled it back and covered the Volgan's sword again. Then they left the wood,
Cafall beside them, and came out under stars, above Brynnfell. Lanterns were
burning down there, to guide them back. There
was another torch, as well, nearer to them.
She
had waited by the gate the last time, when her father went up. This time
Rhiannon slipped out of the yard amidst the chaos of returning. Her mother was
arranging for a meal to be served to all those who had come to their aid,
invited, and unexpectedly from the farms west, where someone—a girl, it
seemed—had seen the Erlings passing and run a warning home. You honoured
such people. Rhiannon knew she was needed, ought to be with her mother, but she
also knew that her father and Alun ab Owyn were in the wood again. Brynn had
told his wife where he was going, though not why. Rhiannon was unable to attend
to whatever duties were hers until they came out from the trees. Standing
on the slope above their farmyard, she listened to the bustling sounds below
and thought about what it was a woman could do, and could not. Waiting, she
thought, was so much a part of their lives. Her mother, giving swift, incisive
orders down below, might call that nonsense, but Rhiannon didn't think it was.
There was no anger in her any more, or any real feeling of defiance, though she
knew she shouldn't be up here. Needful
as night she had said in the hall
at the end of spring, entirely aware of the effect it would have. She'd been
younger then, Rhiannon thought. Here she was, after nightfall, and she couldn't
have said what it was she needed. An ending, she'd decided, to whatever had
begun that other night. She
heard a noise. The two men came out from the trees and stood there, the grey
dog beside Alun. She saw them both look down upon the farmhouse and the lights.
Then her father turned to her. "Jad
be thanked," Rhiannon said. "Truly,"
he replied. He
came over and brushed her forehead with his lips, as was his habit. He
hesitated, looked over his shoulder. Alun ab Owyn had stayed where he was, just
clear of the last trees. "I need to drink and drink," Brynn said.
"Both at once. I'll see you below." He went over and took both
horses' reins and led them down. She
was unexpectedly calm. The springtime seemed so long ago. The wind had died
down, the smoke from her torch rose up nearly straight. "Did
you—?" "I
have so much—" They
both stopped. Rhiannon laughed a little. He did not. She waited. He cleared his
throat. "I have so much need of your forgiveness," he said. "After
what you did?" she said. "Coming here again?" He shook his head.
"What I said to you—" This,
she could address. "You said some things in grief and loss, on the night
your brother died." He
shook his head. "It was . . . more than that." She
had stood by the gate, seen her father go up. The two of them had just come out
of the wood. She knew something of this. She said, "Then it was more. And
you are the more to be forgiven." "You
are gracious too. I have no right . . ." "None
of us has a right to grace," Rhiannon said. "It comes sometimes. That
night . . . I asked you to come to me. To sing." "I know. I remember.
Of course." "Will
you sing for me tonight?" He
hesitated. "I . . . I am not certain that I . . ." "For
all of us," she amended carefully. "In the hall. We are honouring
those who came to help us." He
rubbed at his chin. He was very tired, she saw. "That would be
better," he said quietly. That
would be better. Some paths, some
doorways, some people were not to be yours, though the slightest difference in
the rippling of time might have made them so. A tossed pebble landing a little
sooner, a little later. She looked at him, standing this near, the two of them
alone in darkness, and she knew she would never entirely move beyond what had
happened to her that night at the end of spring, but it was all right. It would
have to be all right. You could live with this, with much worse. "Will
you come down, my lord?" she said. "I
will follow you, my lady, if I may. I am not . . . entirely ready. I will do
better after some moments alone." "I
can understand that," Rhiannon said. She could. He'd been in the
half-world, would have a long way back to travel. She turned away from him and
started down. Just
outside the gate to the yard, a shadow moved away from the fence. "My
lady," said the shadow. "Your mother said you would be up that slope
and unlikely to welcome someone following. I thought I would risk coming this
far." Her torchlight fell upon Athelbert as he bowed. He
had come through the spirit wood to bring them a warning. They were not even
allies of his people. He was the king's heir of the Anglcyn. He had come out to
wait for her. Rhiannon
had a vision then of her life to come, the burdens and the opportunities of it,
and it was not unacceptable to her. There would be joys and sorrows, as there
always were, the taste of the latter present in the wine of such happiness as
mortals were allowed. She could do much for her people, she thought, and life
was not without its duties. "My
mother," she said, looking up at him by the light of his lifted torch,
"is generally right, but not always so." "It
is," said Athelbert, smiling, "a terrible thing when a parent is
always right. You'd have to meet my father to see what I mean." They
walked into the yard together. Rhiannon closed and latched the gate behind her,
the way they had all been taught to do, against what might be out there in the
night.
He
wasn't alone. He had said that he needed to be, but it was a dissembling. Sitting
on the grass above Brynnfell, not far from where he'd first walked up to the
faerie (he could see the sapling to his left), Alun set about shaping and
sending a thought, again and again in his mind. It
is over. It begins. It is over. It begins. He
had no idea what the boundary markers of this might be, if she could sense
anything from him, the way he'd been so painfully open to the images she'd
sent. But he stayed there, his dog beside him, and he shaped those words,
wondering. Then
wonder ceased and a greater wonder began, for he felt her presence again, and
caught (soundlessly, within) a note of laughter. It is over. If you are very
fortunate, and I am feeling generous, it begins. Alun
laughed aloud in the darkness. He would never be entirely alone again, he
realized. It might not have been a blessing, but it was, because of what she
was, and he knew it from the beginning, that same night, looking down upon the
farm. He stood
up, and so did the dog. There were lights below, food and wine, companionship
against the night, people waiting for him, with their needs. He could make
music for them. Come
back to me, he heard. Joy.
The other taste in sorrow's cup. SEVENTEEN Nine
nights after leaving Brynnfell, as they rowed into the wind back east, skirting
close to Ferrieres to be as far from Aeldred's ships as they could, Bern
realized that his father had spoken a last word to him. It
was a bright night, both moons in the sky, a little more light than was
entirely safe for them. He remained thinking for some time longer, hands to his
oar in the night. He rocked his body back and forth, pulling through the sea,
tasting salt spray and memories. Then he lifted his voice and called out to
Brand. They
were treating him differently now. Brand came directly over. He listened as
Thorkell Einarson's son shared a thought which seemed to Leofson to come, under
the two moons, as guidance from a spirit (burned with all proper rites on a
strand in Llywerth) benevolently mindful of their fate. At
dawn they lashed the ships together on choppy seas and took counsel. They were
Jormsvik mercenaries, feared through the north, and they'd had humiliations
beyond endurance on this journey. Here was a chance to come home with honour,
not trammelled in shame. There were reasons to roll these dice. It was past the
end of raiding season; they'd be entirely unexpected. They could still land
nearly a hundred men, and Carloman of Ferrieres
had his hands full (Garr Hoddson pointed out) farther east with the Karchites,
who were being pushed towards him by the horsemen of Waleska. And
most of them had heard—and each now believed he understood—the last cry of
Thorkell Einarson, who'd lost a single combat deliberately, to save their
lives. Brand One-eye had stopped even trying to proclaim it otherwise. There
was no dissent. They
put the ships ashore in a shallow cove west of the Brienne River mouth. They
knew roughly where Champieres was, though not with certainty. Since the
Volgan's raid, no one had been back to that hidden valley where kings of
Ferrieres were laid to rest, chanted over by holy men. In the early years,
they'd known it would be guarded after what had happened. And later, it was as
though Champieres had become sacred to the Erlings too, in Siggur's memory. Well,
there were limits to that, weren't there? A new generation had its needs. They
did, in the event, know enough to find it: beyond the river, an east-west
valley, entered from the east. It wasn't hugely difficult for trained,
experienced men. What
followed, three nights later, was what tended to follow when the Erlings came.
They sacked the royal sanctuary of the Sleepless Ones, set it afire, killed
three dozen clerics and guards (not enough fighting men any more, Garr had been
right about the Karchites). They lost only eight of their own. Carried—loading
the horses, burdened like beasts themselves—sacks of silver and gold artifacts,
coins, candlesticks, censers and sun disks, royal gems, jewel-hilted blades
(none silver, not this time), ivory caskets, coffers of sandalwood and ebony,
spices and manuscripts (men paid for those), and a score of slaves, whipped
towards the ships, to serve them in Jormsvik or be sold in a market town. A
raid as gloriously triumphant as anyone could remember. An
echo, even, of what the Volgan had done. Enough looted to leave each one of
them wealthy, even after the share given over to the treasury when they came
home. A
hearth fire story, too. You could hear the skalds already! The dying hero's
last word, Volgan's friend, understood only by his son one night at sea,
sending them to Champieres, where the father had been twenty-five years and
more ago. In the name of Ingavin, it made a saga by itself! There
were storm winds in their faces for two days and nights as they continued home.
Lightning cracked the sky. Waves high as masts roared over the decks, drenching
them, sweeping some of the horses screaming overboard. They were Erlings,
though, lords of the sea roads, however wild they might become. This was their
element. Ingavin and Thьnir sent storms as a trial for men, a test of
worthiness. They wiped streaming water from eyes and beards and fought through
rain and gale, defying them, as no other men alive dared do. They
came into Jormsvik harbour on a bright, cold afternoon, singing at their oars.
They'd lost one ship, Hoddson's, and thirty-two men. To be lamented and
honoured, each one of them, but the sea and the gods claim their due, and where
was glory, after all, when the task was easily done? It
was a very good winter in Jormsvik.
It
was judged the same way in Esferth and Raedhill and elsewhere in the Anglcyn
lands. King Aeldred and his wife and court travelled north to Rheden to
celebrate the marriage of their daughter Judit to Prince Calum there. The
red-haired princess was fiercely beautiful, even more fiercely strong-willed,
and clearly terrified her younger husband. That, her siblings agreed privately,
had been predictable. Why should the prince be different from anyone else? Not
remotely overlooked in the ceremonies and entertainments of that fortnight was
the moment in the Midwinter Rites when Withgar of Rheden knelt before King
Aeldred, kissed his ring, and accepted a disk of Jad from him, while clerics
chanted praise of the living sun. You
paid a price to join your line to a greater one, and Rheden was not unaware
that Esferth was increasingly secure from the Erlings. It wasn't difficult to
guess in which direction Aeldred's eyes might turn. Better to marry, turn risk
to advantage. They were all one people in the end, weren't they? Not like the
dark, little, cattle-thieving Cyngael on the other side of the Wall. As it
happened, some time before leaving Esferth for the north, the Anglcyn king had
put his mind (and his clerics) to work on the formal terms of another marriage,
west, with those same Cyngael. Withgar of Rheden hadn't been told about these
plans, as yet, but there'd been no reason to inform him. Many a marriage
negotiation had broken down. This
one, however, seemed unlikely to do so. His daughter Kendra, normally the
gentle, compliant one of his four children (and best loved, as it happened),
had spoken with her father and the Cyngael cleric in privacy shortly after
certain events that had taken place at summer's end by a farm called Brynnfell
in Arberth. Events they knew altogether too much about because of her and the
young prince of Cadyr, Owyn's surviving son and heir, the man she intended to
wed. She told her father as much. Aeldred,
notoriously said to anticipate almost all possible events and plan for them,
was not remotely ready for this. Nor could he furnish any immediate reply to
his daughter's firm indication that she would follow her mother straight to the
sanctuary at Retherly if the union—so clearly a suitable one—were not approved. "It
is marginally acceptable, I grant you. But do you even know he wants this? Or
that Prince Owyn will approve?" Aeldred asked. "He
wants this," Kendra replied placidly. "And you've been thinking about
a union west for a long time." This,
of course, happened to be true. His children knew too much. The
king looked to Ceinion for help. The cleric's manner had greatly changed over
the course of a few days, with word of events at Brynnfell. He bore a genial,
amused manner through the days and evenings. It was difficult to provoke an
enjoyable argument on doctrine with him. He
smiled at Aeldred. "My delight, my lord, is extreme. You know I hoped for
such a union. Owyn will be honoured, after I finish speaking with him, which I
will do." So
much for help from that quarter. "It
doesn't matter," Kendra said, with alarming complacency. "Alun will
deal with it." Both
men blinked, looking closely at her. This, Aeldred thought, was his shy,
dutiful daughter. She
closed her eyes. They thought it was self-consciousness, under the doubled
scrutiny. She
looked at them again. "I was right," she said. "He'll be coming
here, with my brother. They'll be taking the coastal road. They are on the way
to Cadyr now, to speak with his father." She smiled gently at the two of
them. "We've agreed not to do this too much, before the wedding, so don't
worry. He says to tell Ceinion he's making music again." There
wasn't a great deal one could do about this, though prayer was clearly
indicated. Kendra was diligent about attendance at chapel, morning and evening.
The marriage did make sense. There had been some brief discussion, the
king remembered, about Athelbert and Brynn ap Hywll's daughter. Well, that
wouldn't need to be continued, now. You didn't marry two children to
achieve the same result. Ceinion
of Llywerth offered his own two wedding gifts to the king. The first was his
long-sought promise to spend part of each year with Aeldred at his court. The
second was quite different. It emerged after a conversation between the high
cleric of the Cyngael
and the extremely devout queen of the Anglcyn. In the wake of this frank and
illuminating exchange, and after two all-night vigils in her chapel, Queen
Elswith arrived at her husband's bedchamber one night and was admitted. The
queen placidly informed her royal spouse that—upon reflection and religious
counsel—his soul was not so very gravely in danger as to require her to
withdraw to a sanctuary immediately after Judit was married, after all. She was
content to wait until Kendra, in turn, was wed to this prince in the west.
Perhaps in late spring? Aeldred and Osbert, in her view, would be incapable of
properly dealing with this second celebration without guidance. Further, it now
struck the queen as reasonable to spend some of her time at court even
after she retired to the sanctuary. These matters could be addressed in a . . .
balanced fashion, as the teachings of faith suggested for all things. On the
subject of balance, the king's earthly state was, certainly, part of her
charge. His
diet, for example, with the winter feasting season approaching (Judit's wedding
in Rheden ahead of them), was excessive. He was gaining weight, at risk of
gout, and worse. He would need her with him, at intervals, to observe and
assess his needs. The
king, who had not suffered another of his fevers since a certain conversation
with Ceinion on the ride back from chasing the Erlings to the coast (and would
not endure one again, ever), happily proposed she begin such assessing right
where they were. The queen declared the suggestion indecent at their age but
allowed herself to be overmastered, in this.
You're
taking a long time. You
know why. I had to go to my father first, couldn't rush away. I'm almost with
you. Three more days. There are emissaries with us. We'll present the marriage proposal to your father. I'll ask
Ceinion to help. I think he will. Doesn't
matter. My father's going to consent. How
do you know? This is a very— I
spoke with him. And
he just said yes? Right
now I think he'll say yes to anything I ask of him. A small silence in the shared channel of two minds. So
will I, you know. Oh,
good. She'd
done her first harvest-time sacrifice, two lambs and a kid. Anrid had added the
goat to the ceremony, naming it as Fulla's offering, mostly to be seen to be
doing things the old volur had not done. Changes, setting her own
imprint upon rituals, as a seal marked a letter. She'd worn the accursed snake
about her neck. It was growing heavier. It had crossed her mind that if the
ship from the south came back in spring, it would be prudent to arrange for
another serpent. Or perhaps they'd have one on board, perhaps arrangements had
already been made. Frigga,
when consulted, thought this might be so. The
harvest turned out to be a good one, and the winter was mild on Rabady. The new
governor and volur were both toasted in the taverns, and the women's
compound saw its share of after-harvest gifts. Anrid claimed only a dark blue
cloak for herself, let the others divide the rest—they needed to be kept happy.
And a little bit afraid. The
serpent helped with that. The wound on her leg had become a small pair of
scars. She let the others see them now and again, as if by chance. Serpents
were a power of earth, and Anrid had been given some of that power. It
was mild enough through winter that some of the younger men took their boats
across to Vinmark for the adventure of it. In a hard winter the straits might
freeze, though not safely so, and Rabady could be entirely cut off. This year they
did learn things, although in winter there wasn't much to know. A blood feud in
Halek, six men dead after a woman had been stolen. It appeared the woman had
consented, so she was killed as well when reclaimed by her family. People were
too close to each other when the snow came. In spring the roads and sea opened
again and pent-up violence could be sent away. It had always been like that.
They were shaped by the cold season; preparing for winter, needing it to end,
preparing again. One
day, with spring not yet arrived, a small boat was rowed across to the isle.
Three mariners aboard, heavily armed, spears and round shields. They came
ashore with a chest and a key, spoke courteously enough to the men sent down to
meet them. They were looking for a woman. From the town they were sent through
the walls and across the ditch to trudge snow-clad fields to the women's
compound. A half-dozen boys, glad of the diversion, escorted them. The
chest was for Frigga. It revealed, when opened in Anrid's chamber (only the two
of them there for the turning of the key), silver enough to buy any property on
the isle, with a good deal left over. There was a note. Anrid
was the one who could read. Frigga's
son Bern sent his respects to his mother and hoped she remained in health. He
was alive himself, and well. He was sorry to have to tell her that her husband
(her first husband) had died, in Cyngael lands, at summer's end. His passing
was honourable, he had saved other men with his death. He had been given rites
and burning there, done properly. The silver was to make a new beginning for
her. In a hard way to explain, the note said, it was really from Thorkell. Bern
would send word again when he could, but would probably not risk coming back to
Rabady. Anrid
had expected the other woman to weep. She did not—or not when Anrid was near.
The chest and silver were hidden (there were places to hide things here).
Frigga had already made her new beginning. Her son could not have known that. She
wasn't at all certain she wished to leave the compound and the women, go back
to a house in or near the town, and she wouldn't go to her daughters in
Vinmark, even with wealth of her own. That wasn't a life, growing old in a
strange place. It
was a great deal of money, you couldn't just leave it in the ground. She'd
think on it, she told Anrid. Anrid had memorized the note (a quick mind) before
they put it back in the chest. Probably
not, was what he had said. She
took thought, and invited the governor to visit her. Another
new thing, Sturla's coming here, but the two of them were at ease with each
other now. She'd gone into town to speak with him as well, formally garbed,
surrounded by (always) several of the women. Iord,
the old volur, had believed in the mystery that came with being unseen,
removed. Anrid (and Frigga, when they talked) thought power also came from
people knowing you were there, bearing you in mind. She always had the serpent
when she went to the town, or met with Ulfarson at the compound, as now. He'd
deny it, of course, but he was afraid of her, which was useful. They
discussed adding buildings to the compound when the last snow melted and the
men could work again. This had been mentioned before. Anrid wanted room for
more women, and a brewhouse. She had thoughts of a place for childbirth. People
gave generously at such times (if the child was a boy, and lived). It would be
good to become known as the place to come when a birth drew near. The governor
would want a share, but that, too, she'd anticipated. He
wasn't difficult to deal with, Sturla. As he was leaving, after ale and easy
talk (about the feud, over on the mainland), she mentioned, casually, something
she'd learned from the three men with the chest, about events a year ago, when
Halldr Thinshank's horse had gone missing. It
made a great deal of sense, what she told the governor: everyone had known
there was no love lost between the old volur and Thinshank. Ulfarson had
nodded owlishly (he had a tendency to look that way after ale) and asked,
shrewdly, why the boy hadn't come home by now, if this was so. The
boy, she told him, had gone to Jormsvik. Choosing the world of fighting men to
put behind him the dark woman-magic that had brought him shame. How did she
know? The chest was from him. He'd written to his mother here. He was greatly
honoured, it seemed, on the mainland now. His prowess reflected well on Rabady.
His father, Thorkell Einarson, the exile, was dead (it was good to let a man
have tidings he could share in a tavern), and even more of a hero. The boy was
wealthy from raiding, had sent his mother silver, to buy any home on the isle
she wished. Ulfarson
leaned forward. Not a stupid man, though narrow in the paths of his thought.
Which house? he asked, as she had expected he would. Anrid,
smiling, said they could probably guess which house Thorkell Einarson's widow
would want, though buying it might be difficult, given that it was owned by
Halldr's widow who hated her. It
might be possible, she said, as if struck by a thought, for someone else to buy
the house and land first, turn a profit for himself selling to Frigga when she
came looking. Sturla Ulfarson stroked his pale moustache. She could see him
thinking this through. It was an entirely proper thing, she added gravely, if
the two leaders of the isle helped each other in these various ways. Construction
of her three new buildings, Sturla Ulfarson said, when he rose to leave, would
commence as soon as the snows were gone and the ground soft enough. She invoked
Fulla's blessing upon him when he left. When
the weather began to change, the days to grow longer, first green-gold leaves
returning, Anrid set the younger women to watch at night, farther from the
compound than was customary, and in a different direction. There was no
spirit-guidance, no half-world sight involved. She was simply . . . skilled at
thinking. She'd had to become that way. It could be seen as magic or power, she
knew, mistaken for a gift of prescience. She
had another long conversation with Frigga, doing most of the talking, and this
time the other woman had wept, and then agreed. Anrid,
who was very young, after all, began having restless nights around that time. A
different kind of disturbance than before, when she hadn't been able to sleep.
This time it was her dreams, and what she did in them.
He
was doing what his father had done long ago. Bern kept telling himself that
through the winter, waiting for spring. And if this was so, it was important
not to be soft about it. The north was no place for that. Being soft could
destroy you, even if you left raiding for a different life, as Thorkell had
done. He
would leave with honour. Everyone in Jormsvik knew by now all that had happened
on what had come to be called Ragnarson's Raid. They knew what Red Thorkell had
done to keep them from going to Arberth, and what Bern had done, and how the
two of them (the skalds were singing it) had shaped destiny together, after,
leading five ships to Champieres. Two
of the most experienced captains had spoken with Bern on separate occasions,
urging him to stay. No coercion Jormsvik was a company of free and willing men.
They'd pointed out that he'd entered among them by killing a powerful man,
which boded well for his future, as did his lineage and the way he had begun on
his first raid. They hadn't known his lineage when he'd entered; they did now. Bern
had expressed gratitude, awareness of honour. Kept private the thought that he
really didn't agree with this vision of his prospects. He'd been fortunate, had
received aid beyond measure from Thorkell, and even though the idea of the
attack in Ferrieres had been his by way of his father, he'd discovered no battle
frenzy in himself, no joy in the flames, or when he'd spitted a Jaddite cleric
on his blade. You
didn't have to tell people that, but you did need to be honest with
yourself, he thought. His father had left the sea road, eventually. Bern was
doing it earlier, that was all, and would ask Ingavin and Thunir not to pull
him back, as Thorkell had been pulled back. He
set about balancing accounts through the winter. When
you changed your life you were supposed to leave the old one behind cleanly.
Ingavin observed such things, cunning and wise, watching with his one eye. Bern
had wealth now. A fortune beyond his deserts: the Champieres raid was being
talked about, word spreading, even on the snowbound paths of winter. It would
be in Hlegest by now, Brand had told him in a tavern one night, icicles hanging
like spears on the eaves outside. Kjarten Vidurson (rot his scarred face) would
know that Jormsvik was still no fortress to set himself against, though he was
likely going to try, sooner or later, that one. Bern
had begun making his reckoning that same night. Had left the tavern for the
rooms (the three rooms) in which he'd kept Thira since returning. He'd offered
her a sum of money that would set her up back home with property and the
choosing (or rejecting) of any man in her village. Women could own land, of
course, they just needed a husband to deal with it. And keep it. She'd
surprised him, but women were—Bern thought—harder than men to anticipate. He
was good, he'd discovered, at understanding men, but he'd not have
expected, for example, that Thira would burst into tears, and swear at him, and
throw a boot, and then say, snapping the words like a ship's captain to
an oarsman out of rhythm, that she'd left home of her own choice for her own
reasons and no man-boy like Bern Thorkellson was going to make her go back. She'd
accepted the silver and the three rooms, though. Not
long after, she bought herself a tavern. Hrati's, in fact. (Hrati was old,
tired of the life, said he was ready for the table by the fire and an upstairs
room. She gave him that. He didn't, as it happened, last long. Started drinking
too much, became quarrelsome. They buried him the next winter. Thira changed
the name of the tavern. Bern was long gone by then.) He'd
had to wait until spring, when challengers began coming again. In the meantime,
he paid three of the newer, younger ones to carry a chest to Rabady as soon as
the weather made that possible. These were Jormsvikings, they weren't going to
cheat him, and mercenaries could take a paying task from a companion as easily
as from anyone else. More
balancing in that chest. His mother would surely be locked into a grim life, a
second husband dead (and she only a second wife in Thinshank's house), no
rights to speak of, no sure home. Bern had left her to that, taking Gyllir into
the sea. Silver
didn't make redress for everything, but if you didn't let yourself get soft you
could say it went a long-enough way in the world. He
couldn't safely return to Rabady: he'd almost certainly be known (even changed
in his appearance), taken as a horse thief, and more. The horse had been named
and marked for a funeral burning, after all. The
horse, in fact, he sold to Brand Leofson, a good price, too. Gyllir was
magnificent, a warrior's ride. Had been wasted on the isle with Halldr
Thinshank, bought by him merely because he could buy such a creature.
The pride and show of it. Leofson wanted the stallion, and wasn't about to
bargain with Bern, not after all that had happened. Bern hadn't hesitated or
let himself regret it. You couldn't allow yourself to be soft about your
animals, either. You
could get irritated, mind you, and swear at them, and at yourself for not choosing
more carefully. He'd picked a placid bay from the stables for his new mount,
discovering too late its awkward trot and a disinclination to sustain a gallop.
A landowner's horse, good for walking sedately to town and tavern and back. He
wasn't going to need more, he kept telling himself, but he was
accustomed to Gyllir. Was that softness? Remembering a horse you'd had? Maybe
you didn't talk or boast about what you'd done, where you'd been, but surely
you could remember it? What else was your life, except what you recalled? And
perhaps what you wanted next. He
waited, as he had to, for spring to unlock the roads and the challengers to
begin arriving at the gates. He was letting Brand advise him. Leofson had been
taking a protective attitude towards Bern since they'd returned, as if killing
Thorkell (being allowed by Thorkell to kill him) gave him responsibilities to
the son. Bern didn't feel he needed it, but he didn't really mind, and he knew
it wouldn't last long. It was useful, too: Brand would take care of Bern's
money, send it where he needed it, as he needed it. Once
he'd figured out where that was. They
watched the first few men arrive before the walls and issue their challenges
and Brand shook his head. They were farmhands, stableboys, with outsized dreams
and no possible claim to being Jormsvik men. It would be unjust to his fellows
to claim their challenges and ride away and let them in. They drew the
runepieces inside the walls and the challenges were randomly taken. Two of the
boys were killed (one by accident, it appeared to those watching, and Elkin
confirmed that when he came back in), two were disarmed and allowed to go, with
the usual promise that if they returned and tried again they'd be cut apart. The
fifth challenger was big-boned, older than the others. He had a serviceable
sword and a battered helmet with the nose-guard intact. Brand and Bern looked
at each other. Bern signalled to those on duty at the gate that he was taking
this one by choice. It had come. You waited for things, and then they were upon
you. He and Leofson embraced. He did the same with a number of the others, who
knew what was happening. Shipmates, drinking companions. It had only been a
year, but warriors could die any time, and forming bonds here didn't take long,
he'd discovered. Bonds could be cut, though, Bern thought. Sometimes they needed
to be. Thira,
hard little one, only waved to him from behind the counter of her new tavern
when he went to bid her farewell before going out. Her life was the opposite of
his, he thought. You took care not to form any links. Men sailed from
you and died, different men climbed your stairs every night. She'd saved his
life, though. He lingered in the doorway watching her a moment. He was
remembering the fourth stair, the one missing on the way up to her room.
Important, he reminded himself, not to be soft. He
took his new horse from the stable, and the gear he'd carry north, and his
sword and helm (roads were dangerous, always, for a lone man). They opened the
gates for him and he went out to the challenger. He saw relief and wonder in
the man's blue eyes when Bern lifted an open hand in the gesture of yielding.
He motioned to the gates behind him. "Ingavin be mindful of you," he
said to the stranger. "Honour yourself and those you are joining." Then
he rode away along the path he'd taken coming here. He heard a clashing sound
behind him: spears and swords being banged on shields. His companions on the
walls. He looked back and lifted a hand. His father wouldn't have, he thought. No
one troubled him going north. He didn't avoid the villages or inns this time.
He passed the place where he'd ambushed a single traveller himself because he'd
needed a sword for the challenge. Hadn't killed the man, or didn't think he
had. It
wasn't as if he'd lingered to be sure. Eventually,
after what felt like a long, slow journey, he caught his first glimpse of
Rabady in the distance on his left as the road dropped near to the coast.
(Inland, the mountains rose, and then the endless pines beyond, and no roads
ran.) He
came to the fishing village they all knew on Rabady, the one they usually went
to and from. He might even be known here, but he didn't think so. He'd grown
his beard and hair, was bigger now across shoulders and chest. He waited for
twilight to fall and the night to deepen and even begin its wheeling towards
dawn before he offered the prayer all seamen spoke before going upon the water. He
prepared to push the small boat out into the strait. The fisherman, roused from
sleep in his hut, came to help; Bern's payment for borrowing it had been
generous, far more than a day's lost catch. He left the horse with the man to
mind. He wouldn't be cheated here. He'd said he was from Jormsvik, and he
looked it. It
was black on the water as he rowed towards the isle. He looked at the stars and
the sea and the trees ahead of him. Spring. Full circle of a year, and here he
was again. He dipped a hand in the water. Bitterly, killingly cold. He
remembered. He'd thought he was going to die here. He missed Gyllir then,
thinking back. Shook his head. You couldn't be this way in the north. It could
kill you. He
was stronger now, steady and easy at the oars. It wasn't a difficult pull, in
any case. He'd done it as a boy, summers he remembered. He
beached the small craft on the same strand from which he'd left. He didn't
think that was an indulgence, or weak. It felt proper. An acknowledging. He
gave thanks to Ingavin, touching the hammer about his neck. He'd bought it in
autumn, nothing elaborate, much like the one that had burned with his father in
Llywerth. He
moved inland, cautiously. He really didn't want to meet anyone. People here had
known him all his life; there was a better-than-decent chance he'd be
recognized. That was why he'd come at night, most of the way towards dawn, why
he hadn't been sure he would come at all. He was here for three reasons, last
of the balancings before he changed his life. All three could be done in a
night, if the gods were good to him. He
wanted to bid farewell to his mother. She was in the women's compound now,
those who'd brought the chest had told him. A surprise, a good decision for
her, though with his silver she could change that. After,
in the same place, he intended to find the old volur. He wouldn't need
long with her but he'd probably have to leave quickly, after. Though he also
wanted to speak, if possible, perhaps only for a moment, depending how events
unfolded, to a girl with a snakebite scar on her leg. He might not actually be
able to do so. It was unlikely he could linger after killing the volur, and
he wasn't sure he could find a girl he wouldn't recognize. The women kept watch
at night, even in the cold. He remembered that. Remembered
these fields, too. He'd ridden Gyllir the last time, had a long walk now. He
kept close to the woods, screened by them, though it was unlikely any lovers
would be out this early in spring. The ground was cold. You'd need to be wild
with desire to come out here with a girl, and not find a barn or shed with
straw. He
had two farewells to make, he told himself, and someone to kill, then he could
leave with his past squared away, as much as that was ever really possible. He
was going to Erlond, he'd decided, where his people had settled in the Anglcyn
lands. It was far enough away, there was land to be claimed, room to settle and
thrive. He'd had a winter to think about possibilities. This one made the most
sense. He
heard a twig snap. Not his own footfall. He
froze, drew his sword. He had no desire to kill yet, but "The
peace of Fulla be upon you, Bern Thorkellson." When
all you have to remember, through the circle of an eventful year, is a voice
in the dark, and the voice is that of someone saving your life, you remember
it. He
stayed where he was. She came forward from the trees. Carried no torch. He
swallowed. "How
is the snakebite?" he said. "Only
a scar now. My thanks for asking." "She
is . . . still sending you out on cold nights?" "Iord?
No. Iord is dead." His
heart thumped. He still couldn't see her, but the voice was embedded in him. He
hadn't realized until this moment how much so. "How?
What . . . ?" "I
had her killed. For both of us." Matter-of-fact,
no hint of emotion in her voice. One less task for him tonight, it seemed. He
struggled for words. "How did you ... ?" "Do
that? One of the young women in the compound told the new governor how the volur
had used magic to force an innocent young man to steal a horse from someone
she'd always hated." He
was still holding his sword. It seemed silly to be doing that. He sheathed it.
Was thinking hard. He was good at thinking. "And the young
man?" "Went
to Jormsvik after the spell left him. Wanting to win glory, efface his shame.
And did so." He
was fighting an entirely unexpected urge to smile. "And the young
woman?" She
hesitated for the first time. "She became the volur of Rabady
Isle." The
desire to smile seemed to have gone, as suddenly as it had come. He couldn't
quite have put into words why this was so. He cleared his throat. Said, "A
great and glorious destiny for her, then." After
another pause, a stillness in the dark, he heard her say, just a shape, still,
an outline in the night, "It isn't, in truth, the destiny she would
choose, had she . . . another path." Bern
found it necessary to draw a breath before he could speak again. His heart was
pounding, they way it had at Champieres. "Indeed. Would she . . . have any
willingness to leave the isle, make a different life?" The
other voice grew softer, not as assured. Like mine, he thought. "She
might do that. If someone wished her to. It . . . it could also be here. That
different life. Here on the isle." He
shook his head. Tried to make himself breathe normally. He knew a little more
of the world than she did, it appeared. In this matter, at least. "I don't
think so. Once she's been volur it would be too hard to live an . . .
ordinary life here. There's too much power in what she's been. This is too
small a place. Whoever became volur after wouldn't even want her
here." "The
next volur might give permission, a release from power," she said.
"It has happened." He
didn't know about that, had to assume she did. "Why would she do
that?" She
waited a moment. Then said, "Think about it." He
did, and it came to him. He felt a prickling at his neck. That sometimes meant
the half-world, spirits, were nearby. Sometimes it meant something else.
"Oh," said Bern. "I see." She
realized, with a kind of thrill, that he really did. She wasn't used to men
being so quick. She said, still carefully, "Your mother asked me to
welcome you home, to say that she is waiting, at the compound, if you wish to
see her now. And to tell you that the door on the barn needs fixing
again." He
was silent, absorbing all of this. "I know how to do that," Bern
said. "How do you know it is broken?" "We've
been to the farmhouse together," the girl said. "Your father's. It .
. . can be bought again. If you want." He
looked at her. Only a shape. You were not to be soft. It was dangerous in
these lands. But you were allowed, surely, to feel wonder, weren't you? A man
went through the world carrying only his name. Some left that after them when
they died, lingering, like a burning on a hill or by the sea. Most men did not,
could not. There were other ways to live through the days the gods allowed you.
In his mind, he spoke his father's name. "I've
never even seen you," he said to the girl. "I
know. There are lights in the compound," she said. "She's waiting.
Will you come?" They
walked that way, the two of them. It wasn't very far. He saw the marker stone
in the field, a greyness beyond. Dawn, he realized, would be breaking soon,
over Vinmark and the water, upon the isle.
A
greyer, windier dawn would also come, a little later, farther west. He
still liked to keep a window open at night, despite what wisdom held to be the
folly of doing so. Ceinion of Llywerth sometimes thought that if something was
offered too readily as wisdom, it needed to be challenged. That
wasn't why he opened the window, however. There was no deep thinking here. He
was simply too accustomed to the taste of the night air after so many years
moving from place to place. On the other hand, he thought, awake and alone in a
comfortable room in Esferth, the year gone by had made one change in him. He
was entirely happy to be lying on this goose-feather bed and not outside on the
ground in a windy night. Others would deny it, some of them fiercely (with
their own reasons for doing so), but he knew he'd aged between the last spring
and this one. He might be awake, sleep eluding, but he was comfortable in this
bed and guardedly (always guardedly) pleased with the unfolding of events in
Jad's northlands. He
had wintered here, as promised, would be going home to his people, now that
spring was upon them again. He would not travel alone. The Anglcyn king and
queen would be sailing west to Cadyr (showing their new fleet to the world),
bringing their younger daughter to the Cyngael. He
had wanted this—something like this—so much and for so long. Alun ab Owyn, to
whom she would be wed in what could only be named joy, was the heir to his
province, and a hero now in
Arberth, and Ceinion could deal with his own Llywerth, easily. There was so
much that might come of this. The
god had been good to them, beyond any deserving. That was the heart of all
teachings, wasn't it? You aspired to live a good and pious life, but Jad's
mercy could be extended, as wings over you, for reasons no man could
understand. In
the same way, he thought, as the night outside began to turn (a ruffle of wind
entering the room) towards morning and whatever it might bring—in the selfsame
way no man could ever hope to understand why losses came, heart's grief, what
was taken away. Waiting
for sunrise, lying alone as he had these long years, he remembered love and
remembered her dying, and could see, in the eye of his mind, the grave
overlooking the western sea behind his chapel and his home. You lived in the
world, you tasted sorrow and joy, and it was the way of the Cyngael to be aware
of both. Another
breeze, entering the room. Dawn wind. He would be going home soon. He would sit
with her, and look out upon the sea. Morning was coming, the god's return.
Almost time to rise and go to prayer. The bed was very soft. Almost time, but
the darkness not quite lifted, light still to come, he could linger a little
with memory. It was necessary, it was allowed.
End
it with the ending of a night. I
know not, I, What
the men together say, How lovers, lovers die And
youth passes away.
Cannot
understand Love
that mortal bears For native, native land —All
lands are theirs.
Why
at grave they grieve For
one voice and face, And
not, and not receive Another in its place.
I,
above the cone Of
the circling night Flying, never have known More or lesser light.
Sorrow
it is they call This
cup: whence my lip, Woe's me, never in all My
endless days must sip.
-C.
S. LEWIS ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS Laura,
as always: calmly confident from the days when I was first charting the sea
lanes of this journey, and remaining so when I cast off and shoals (and
monsters) appeared that hadn't been on the charts. Charts
can take one only so far in a novel, but in a work of this sort, drawing upon
very specific periods and motifs of the past, it is folly to embark without
them, and I have had the benefit of some exceptional cartographers (if I may be
indulged in a continuing metaphor). There are too many to be named here, but
some must surely be noted. On
the Vikings, I owe much to the elegant and stylish synthesis of Gwyn Jones, and
to the work of Peter Sawyer, R. I. Page, Jenny Jochens, and Thomas A. Dubois. I
have drawn upon many different commentaries on and translations of the Sagas,
but my admiration for the epic renderings of Lee M. Hollander is very great. Histories
of the North are caught up in agendas today (as is so much of the past), and
clear thinking and personal notes became a necessary aid. I am grateful to Paul
Bibire for answers, suggestions, and steering me to sources. Kristen Pederson
provided a score of articles and essays, principally on the role of women in
the Viking world, and offered glosses on many of them. Max Vinner of the Viking
Ship Museum at Roskald kindly answered my questions. For
the Anglo-Saxons, I found Richard Abels invaluable on Alfred the Great. Peter
Hunter Blair, Stephen Pollington (on leechcraft and warcraft), Michael
Swanton's version of the Chronicles, and the splendidly detailed work of
Anne Hagen on Anglo-Saxon food and drink were variously and considerably of
use. So were works written or edited by Richard Fletcher, Ronald Hutton, James
Campbell, Simon Keynes, and Michael Lapidge, and the verse translations of
Michael Alexander. With
respect to the Welsh, and the Celtic spirit more generally, I must mention
Wendy Davies, John Davies, Alwyn and Brinley Rees, Charles Thomas, John T.
Koch, Peter Beresford Ellis (on the role of women), the verse translations and
notes of Joseph P. Clancy, and the classic, unruffled overview of Nora
Chadwick. I am deeply grateful to Jeffrey Huntsman for permission to use his
translation of the epigraph, and for generously sending me alternative variants
and commentary. The poem that concludes the book is from The Pilgrim's
Regress, copyright C.S. Lewis Pte. Ltd., 1933, and is used here with their
kind permission. On a
more personal level, I owe gratitude to Darren Nash, Tim Binding, Laura Anne
Gilman, Jennifer Heddle, and Barbara Berson—a panoply of editors—for enthusiam
en route and when I was done. Catherine Marjoribanks brings more wit and
sensitivity to the role of copy editor than an author has a right to expect. My
brother Rex is still the first and perhaps the most acute of my readers. Linda
McKnight, Anthea Morton-Saner, and Nicole Winstanley remain friends as much as
agents, greatly valued in both regards. For
many years, when asked where my website was, I would paraphrase Cato the Elder,
the Roman statesman. "I would rather people asked," I'd reply,
"where Kay's website is, than why Kay has a website." Cato,
famously, said that about the absence of statues honouring him in Rome. A while
ago the markedly intelligent and insistent Deborah Meghnagi persuaded me that
it was time for a statue online (as it were), and I gave her permission to
devise and launch brightweavings.com. I am deeply grateful for all she's done
(and continues to do) with that site, and I remain impressed and touched by the
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