High,” Syrio Forel called out, slashing at
her head. The stick swords clacked as Arya parried.
“Left,” he shouted, and his blade came whistling.
Hers darted to meet it. The clack made him click his teeth
together.
“Right,” he said, and “Low,” and
“Left,” and “Left” again, faster and
faster, moving forward. Arya retreated before him, checking each
blow.
“Lunge,” he warned, and when he thrust she
sidestepped, swept his blade away, and slashed at his shoulder. She
almost touched him, almost, so close it made her grin. A strand of
hair dangled in her eyes, limp with sweat. She pushed it away with
the back of her hand.
“Left,” Syrio sang out. “Low.” His sword
was a blur, and the Small Hall echoed to the clack clack clack.
“Left. Left. High. Left. Right. Left. Low. Left!”
The wooden blade caught her high in the breast, a sudden
stinging blow that hurt all the more because it came from the wrong
side. “Ow,” she cried out. She would have a fresh
bruise there by the time she went to sleep, somewhere out at sea. A
bruise is a lesson, she told herself, and each lesson makes us
better.
Syrio stepped back. “You are dead now.”
Arya made a face. “You cheated,” she said hotly.
“You said left and you went right.”
“Just so. And now you are a dead girl.”
“But you lied!”
“My words lied. My eyes and my arm shouted out the truth,
but you were not seeing.”
“I was so,” Arya said. “I watched you every
second!”
“Watching is not seeing, dead girl. The water dancer sees.
Come, put down the sword, it is time for listening now.”
She followed him over to the wall, where he settled onto a
bench. “Syrio Forel was first sword to the Sealord of
Braavos, and are you knowing how that came to pass?”
“You were the finest swordsman in the city.”
“Just so, but why? Other men were stronger, faster,
younger, why was Syrio Forel the best? I will tell you now.”
He touched the tip of his little finger lightly to his eyelid.
“The seeing, the true seeing, that is the heart of it.
“Hear me. The ships of Braavos sail as far as the winds
blow, to lands strange and wonderful, and when they return their
captains fetch queer animals to the Sealord’s menagerie. Such
animals as you have never seen, striped horses, great spotted
things with necks as long as stilts, hairy mouse-pigs as big as
cows, stinging manticores, tigers that carry their cubs in a pouch,
terrible walking lizards with scythes for claws. Syrio Forel has
seen these things.
“On the day I am speaking of, the first sword was newly
dead, and the Sealord sent for me. Many bravos had come to him, and
as many had been sent away, none could say why. When I came into
his presence, he was seated, and in his lap was a fat yellow cat.
He told me that one of his captains had brought the beast to him,
from an island beyond the sunrise. ‘Have you ever seen her
like?’ he asked of me.
“And to him I said, ‘Each night in the alleys of
Braavos I see a thousand like him,’ and the Sealord laughed,
and that day I was named the first sword.”
Arya screwed up her face. “I don’t
understand.”
Syrio clicked his teeth together. “The cat was an ordinary
cat, no more. The others expected a fabulous beast, so that is what
they saw. How large it was, they said. It was no larger than any
other cat, only fat from indolence, for the Sealord fed it from his
own table. What curious small ears, they said. Its ears had been
chewed away in kitten fights. And it was plainly a tomcat, yet the
Sealord said ‘her,’ and that is what the others saw.
Are you hearing?”
Arya thought about it. “You saw what was there.”
“Just so. Opening your eyes is all that is needing. The
heart lies and the head plays tricks with us, but the eyes see
true. Look with your eyes. Hear with your ears. Taste with your
mouth. Smell with your nose. Feel with your skin. Then comes the
thinking, afterward, and in that way knowing the truth.”
“Just so,” said Arya, grinning.
Syrio Forel allowed himself a smile. “I am thinking that
when we are reaching this Winterfell of yours, it will be time to
put this needle in your hand.”
“Yes!” Arya said eagerly. “Wait till I show
Jon—”
Behind her the great wooden doors of the Small Hall flew open
with a resounding crash. Arya whirled.
A knight of the Kingsguard stood beneath the arch of the door
with five Lannister guardsmen arrayed behind him. He was in full
armor, but his visor was up. Arya remembered his droopy eyes and
rustcolored whiskers from when he had come to Winterfell with the
king: Ser Meryn Trant. The red cloaks wore mail shirts over boiled
leather and steel caps with lion crests. “Arya Stark,”
the knight said, “come with us, child.”
Arya chewed her lip uncertainly. “What do you
want?”
“Your father wants to see you.”
Arya took a step forward, but Syrio Forel held her by the arm.
“And why is it that Lord Eddard is sending Lannister men in
the place of his own? I am wondering.”
“Mind your place, dancing master,” Ser Meryn said.
“This is no concern of yours.”
“My father wouldn’t send you,” Arya said. She
snatched up her stick sword. The Lannisters laughed.
“Put down the stick, girl,” Ser Meryn told her.
“I am a Sworn Brother of the Kingsguard, the White
Swords.”
“So was the Kingslayer when he killed the old king,”
Arya said. “I don’t have to go with you if I
don’t want.”
Ser Meryn Trant ran out of patience. “Take her,” he
said to his men. He lowered the visor of his helm.
Three of them started forward, chainmail clinking softly with
each step. Arya was suddenly afraid. Fear cuts deeper than swords,
she told herself, to slow the racing of her heart.
Syrio Forel stepped between them, tapping his wooden sword
lightly against his boot. “You will be stopping there. Are
you men or dogs that you would threaten a child?”
“Out of the way, old man,” one of the red cloaks
said.
Syrio’s stick came whistling up and rang against his helm.
“I am Syrio Forel, and you will now be speaking to me with
more respect.”
“Bald bastard.” The man yanked free his longsword.
The stick moved again, blindingly fast. Arya heard a loud crack as
the sword went clattering to the stone floor. “My
hand,” the guardsman yelped, cradling his broken fingers.
“You are quick, for a dancing master,” said Ser
Meryn.
“You are slow, for a knight,” Syrio replied.
“Kill the Braavosi and bring me the girl,” the
knight in the white armor commanded.
Four Lannister guardsmen unsheathed their swords. The fifth,
with the broken fingers, spat and pulled free a dagger with his
left hand.
Syrio Forel clicked his teeth together, sliding into his water
dancer’s stance, presenting only his side to the foe.
“Arya child,” he called out, never looking, never
taking his eyes off the Lannisters, “we are done with dancing
for the day. Best you are going now. Run to your father.”
Arya did not want to leave him, but he had taught her to do as
he said. “Swift as a deer,” she whispered.
“Just so,” said Syrio Forel as the Lannisters
closed.
Arya retreated, her own sword stick clutched tightly in her
hand. Watching him now, she realized that Syrio had only been
toying with her when they dueled. The red cloaks came at him from
three sides with steel in their hands. They had chainmail over
their chest and arms, and steel codpieces sewn into their pants,
but only leather on their legs. Their hands were bare, and the caps
they wore had noseguards, but no visor over the eyes.
Syrio did not wait for them to reach him, but spun to his left.
Arya had never seen a man move as fast. He checked one sword with
his stick and whirled away from a second. Off balance, the second
man lurched into the first. Syrio put a boot to his back and the
red cloaks went down together. The third guard came leaping over
them, slashing at the water dancer’s head. Syrio ducked under
his blade and thrust upward. The guardsman fell screaming as blood
welled from the wet red hole where his left eye had been.
The fallen men were getting up. Syrio kicked one in the face and
snatched the steel cap off the other’s head. The dagger man
stabbed at him. Syrio caught the thrust in the helmet and shattered
the man’s kneecap with his stick. The last red cloak shouted
a curse and charged, hacking down with both hands on his sword.
Syrio rolled right, and the butcher’s cut caught the
helmetless man between neck and shoulder as he struggled to his
knees. The longsword crunched through mail and leather and flesh.
The man on his knees shrieked. Before his killer could wrench free
his blade, Syrio jabbed him in the apple of his throat. The
guardsman gave a choked cry and staggered back, clutching at his
neck, his face blackening.
Five men were down, dead, or dying by the time Arya reached the
back door that opened on the kitchen. She heard Ser Meryn Trant
curse. “Bloody oafs,” he swore, drawing his longsword
from its scabbard.
Syrio Forel resumed his stance and clicked his teeth together.
“Arya child,” he called out, never looking at her,
“be gone now.” Look with your eyes, he had said. She saw: the knight in his
pale armor head to foot, legs, throat, and hands sheathed in metal,
eyes hidden behind his high white helm, and in his hand cruel
steel. Against that: Syrio, in a leather vest, with a wooden sword
in his hand. “Syrio, run,” she screamed.
“The first sword of Braavos does not run,” he sang
as Ser Meryn slashed at him. Syrio danced away from his cut, his
stick a blur. In a heartbeat, he had bounced blows off the
knight’s temple, elbow, and throat, the wood ringing against
the metal of helm, gauntlet, and gorget. Arya stood frozen. Ser
Meryn advanced; Syrio backed away. He checked the next blow, spun
away from the second, deflected the third.
The fourth sliced his stick in two, splintering the wood and
shearing through the lead core.
Sobbing, Arya spun and ran.
She plunged through the kitchens and buttery, blind with panic,
weaving between cooks and potboys. A baker’s helper stepped
in front of her, holding a wooden tray. Arya bowled her over,
scattering fragrant loaves of fresh-baked bread on the floor. She
heard shouting behind her as she spun around a portly butcher who
stood gaping at her with a cleaver in his hands. His arms were red
to the elbow.
All that Syrio Forel had taught her went racing through her
head. Swift as a deer. Quiet as a shadow. Fear cuts deeper than
swords. Quick as a snake. Calm as still water. Fear cuts deeper
than swords. Strong as a bear. Fierce as a wolverine. Fear cuts
deeper than swords. The man who fears losing has already lost. Fear
cuts deeper than swords. Fear cuts deeper than swords. Fear cuts
deeper than swords. The grip of her wooden sword was slick with
sweat, and Arya was breathing hard when she reached the turret
stair. For an instant she froze. Up or down? Up would take her to
the covered bridge that spanned the small court to the Tower of the
Hand, but that would be the way they’d expect her to go, for
certain. Never do what they expect, Syrio once said. Arya went
down, around and around, leaping over the narrow stone steps two
and three at a time. She emerged in a cavernous vaulted cellar,
surrounded by casks of ale stacked twenty feet tall. The only light
came through narrow slanting windows high in the wall.
The cellar was a dead end. There was no way out but the way she
had come in. She dare not go back up those steps, but she
couldn’t stay here, either. She had to find her father and
tell him what had happened. Her father would protect her.
Arya thrust her wooden sword through her belt and began to
climb, leaping from cask to cask until she could reach the window.
Grasping the stone with both hands, she pulled herself up. The wall
was three feet thick, the window a tunnel slanting up and out. Arya
wriggled toward daylight. When her head reached ground level, she
peered across the bailey to the Tower of the Hand.
The stout wooden door hung splintered and broken, as if by axes.
A dead man sprawled facedown on the steps, his cloak tangled
beneath him, the back of his mailed shirt soaked red. The
corpse’s cloak was grey wool trimmed with white satin, she
saw with sudden terror. She could not tell who he was.
“No,” she whispered. What was happening? Where was
her father? Why had the red cloaks come for her? She remembered
what the man with the yellow beard had said, the day she had found
the monsters. If one Hand can die, why not a second? Arya felt
tears in her eyes. She held her breath to listen. She heard the
sounds of fighting, shouts, screams, the clang of steel on steel,
coming through the windows of the Tower of the Hand.
She could not go back. Her father . . .
Arya closed her eyes. For a moment she was too frightened to
move. They had killed Jory and Wyl and Heward, and that guardsman
on the step, whoever he had been. They could kill her father too,
and her if they caught her. “Fear cuts deeper than swords,” she said aloud, but it was no good pretending to be a water
dancer, Syrio had been a water dancer and the white knight had
probably killed him, and anyhow she was only a little girl with a
wooden stick, alone and afraid.
She squirmed out into the yard, glancing around warily as she
climbed to her feet. The castle seemed deserted. The Red Keep was
never deserted. All the people must be hiding inside, their doors
barred. Arya glanced up longingly at her bedchamber, then moved
away from the Tower of the Hand, keeping close to the wall as she
slid from shadow to shadow. She pretended she was chasing cats . . . except she was the cat now, and if they caught her, they would
kill her.
Moving between buildings and over walls, keeping stone to her
back wherever possible so no one could surprise her, Arya reached
the stables almost without incident. A dozen gold cloaks in mail
and plate ran past as she was edging across the inner bailey, but
without knowing whose side they were on, she hunched down low in
the shadows and let them pass.
Hullen, who had been master of horse at Winterfell as long as
Arya could remember, was slumped on the ground by the stable door.
He had been stabbed so many times it looked as if his tunic was
patterned with scarlet flowers. Arya was certain he was dead, but
when she crept closer, his eyes opened. “Arya
Underfoot,” he whispered. “You must . . . warn your . . . your lord father . . . ” Frothy red spittle bubbled from his
mouth. The master of horse closed his eyes again and said no
more.
Inside were more bodies; a groom she had played with, and three
of her father’s household guard. A wagon, laden with crates
and chests, stood abandoned near the door of the stable. The dead
men must have been loading it for the trip to the docks when they
were attacked. Arya snuck closer. One of the corpses was Desmond,
who’d shown her his longsword and promised to protect her
father. He lay on his back, staring blindly at the ceiling as flies
crawled across his eyes. Close to him was a dead man in the red
cloak and lion-crest helm of the Lannisters. Only one, though.
Every northerner is worth ten of these southron swords, Desmond had
told her. “You liar!” she said, kicking his body in a
sudden fury.
The animals were restless in their stalls, whickering and
snorting at the scent of blood. Arya’s only plan was to
saddle a horse and flee, away from the castle and the city. All she
had to do was stay on the kingsroad and it would take her back to
Winterfell. She took a bridle and harness off the wall.
As she crossed in back of the wagon, a fallen chest caught her
eye. It must have been knocked down in the fight or dropped as it
was being loaded. The wood had split, the lid opening to spill the
chest’s contents across the ground. Arya recognized silks and
satins and velvets she never wore. She might need warm clothes on
the kingsroad, though . . . and besides . . .
Arya knelt in the dirt among the scattered clothes. She found a
heavy woolen cloak, a velvet skirt and a silk tunic and some
smallclothes, a dress her mother had embroidered for her, a silver
baby bracelet she might sell. Shoving the broken lid out of the
way, she groped inside the chest for Needle. She had hidden it way
down at the bottom, under everything, but her stuff had all been
jumbled around when the chest was dropped. For a moment Arya was
afraid someone had found the sword and stolen it. Then her fingers
felt the hardness of metal under a satin gown.
“There she is,” a voice hissed close behind her.
Startled, Arya whirled. A stableboy stood behind her, a smirk on
his face, his filthy white undertunic peeking out from beneath a
soiled jerkin. His boots were covered with manure, and he had a
pitchfork in one hand. “Who are you?” she asked.
“She don’t know me,” he said, “but I
knows her, oh, yes. The wolf girl.”
“Help me saddle a horse,” Arya pleaded, reaching
back into the chest, groping for Needle. “My father’s
the Hand of the King, he’ll reward you.”
“Father’s dead,” the boy said. He shuffled
toward her. “It’s the queen who’ll be rewarding
me. Come here, girl.”
“Stay away!” Her fingers closed around
Needle’s hilt.
“I says, come.” He grabbed her arm, hard.
Everything Syrio Forel had ever taught her vanished in a
heartbeat. In that instant of sudden terror, the only lesson Arya
could remember was the one Jon Snow had given her, the very
first.
She stuck him with the pointy end, driving the blade upward with
a wild, hysterical strength.
Needle went through his leather jerkin and the white flesh of
his belly and came out between his shoulder blades. The boy dropped
the pitchfork and made a soft noise, something between a gasp and a
sigh. His hands closed around the blade. “Oh, gods,” he
moaned, as his undertunic began to redden. “Take it
out.”
When she took it out, he died.
The horses were screaming. Arya stood over the body, still and
frightened in the face of death. Blood had gushed from the
boy’s mouth as he collapsed, and more was seeping from the
slit in his belly, pooling beneath his body. His palms were cut
where he’d grabbed at the blade. She backed away slowly,
Needle red in her hand. She had to get away, someplace far from
here, someplace safe away from the stableboy’s accusing
eyes.
She snatched up the bridle and harness again and ran to her
mare, but as she lifted the saddle to the horse’s back, Arya
realized with a sudden sick dread that the castle gates would be
closed. Even the postern doors would likely be guarded. Maybe the
guards wouldn’t recognize her. If they thought she was a boy,
perhaps they’d let her . . . no, they’d have orders not
to let anyone out, it wouldn’t matter whether they knew her
or not.
But there was another way out of the castle . . .
The saddle slipped from Arya’s fingers and fell to the
dirt with a thump and a puff of dust. Could she find the room with
the monsters again? She wasn’t certain, yet she knew she had
to try.
She found the clothing she’d gathered and slipped into the
cloak, concealing Needle beneath its folds. The rest of her things
she tied in a roll. With the bundle under her arm, she crept to the
far end of the stable. Unlatching the back door, she peeked out
anxiously. She could hear the distant sound of swordplay, and the
shivery wail of a man screaming in pain across the bailey. She
would need to go down the serpentine steps, past the small kitchen
and the pig yard, that was how she’d gone last time, chasing
the black tomcat . . . only that would take her right past the
barracks of the gold cloaks. She couldn’t go that way. Arya
tried to think of another way. If she crossed to the other side of
the castle, she could creep along the river wall and through the
little godswood . . . but first she’d have to cross the yard,
in the plain view of the guards on the walls.
She had never seen so many men on the walls. Gold cloaks, most
of them, armed with spears. Some of them knew her by sight. What
would they do if they saw her running across the yard? She’d
look so small from up there, would they be able to tell who she
was? Would they care?
She had to leave now, she told herself, but when the moment
came, she was too frightened to move. Calm as still water, a small voice whispered in her ear. Arya
was so startled she almost dropped her bundle. She looked around
wildly, but there was no one in the stable but her, and the horses,
and the dead men. Quiet as a shadow, she heard. Was it her own voice, or
Syrio’s? She could not tell, yet somehow it calmed her
fears.
She stepped out of the stable.
It was the scariest thing she’d ever done. She wanted to
run and hide, but she made herself walk across the yard, slowly,
putting one foot in front of the other as if she had all the time
in the world and no reason to be afraid of anyone. She thought she
could feel their eyes, like bugs crawling on her skin under her
clothes. Arya never looked up. If she saw them watching, all her
courage would desert her, she knew, and she would drop the bundle
of clothes and run and cry like a baby, and then they would have
her. She kept her gaze on the ground. By the time she reached the
shadow of the royal sept on the far side of the yard, Arya was cold
with sweat, but no one had raised the hue and cry.
The sept was open and empty. Inside, half a hundred prayer
candles burned in a fragrant silence. Arya figured the gods would
never miss two. She stuffed them up her sleeves, and left by a back
window. Sneaking back to the alley where she had cornered the
one-eared tom was easy, but after that she got lost. She crawled in
and out of windows, hopped over walls, and felt her way through
dark cellars, quiet as a shadow. Once she heard a woman weeping. It
took her more than an hour to find the low narrow window that
slanted down to the dungeon where the monsters waited.
She tossed her bundle through and doubled back to light her
candle. That was chancy; the fire she’d remembered seeing had
burnt down to embers, and she heard voices as she was blowing on
the coals. Cupping her fingers around the flickering candle, she
went out the window as they were coming in the door, without ever
getting a glimpse of who it was.
This time the monsters did not frighten her. They seemed almost
old friends. Arya held the candle over her head. With each step she
took, the shadows moved against the walls, as if they were turning
to watch her pass. “Dragons,” she whispered. She slid
Needle out from under her cloak. The slender blade seemed very
small and the dragons very big, yet somehow Arya felt better with
steel in her hand.
The long windowless hall beyond the door was as black as she
remembered. She held Needle in her left hand, her sword hand, the
candle in her right fist. Hot wax ran down across her knuckles. The
entrance to the well had been to the left, so Arya went right. Part
of her wanted to run, but she was afraid of snuffing out her
candle. She heard the faint squeaking of rats and glimpsed a pair
of tiny glowing eyes on the edge of the light, but rats did not
scare her. Other things did. It would be so easy to hide here, as
she had hidden from the wizard and the man with the forked beard.
She could almost see the stableboy standing against the wall, his
hands curled into claws with the blood still dripping from the deep
gashes in his palms where Needle had cut him. He might be waiting
to grab her as she passed. He would see her candle coming a long
way off. Maybe she would be better off without the light . . . Fear cuts deeper than swords, the quiet voice inside her
whispered. Suddenly Arya remembered the crypts at Winterfell. They
were a lot scarier than this place, she told herself. She’d
been just a little girl the first time she saw them. Her brother
Robb had taken them down, her and Sansa and baby Bran, who’d
been no bigger than Rickon was now. They’d only had one
candle between them, and Bran’s eyes had gotten as big as
saucers as he stared at the stone faces of the Kings of Winter,
with their wolves at their feet and their iron swords across their
laps.
Robb took them all the way down to the end, past Grandfather and
Brandon and Lyanna, to show them their own tombs. Sansa kept
looking at the stubby little candle, anxious that it might go out.
Old Nan had told her there were spiders down here, and rats as big
as dogs. Robb smiled when she said that. “There are worse
things than spiders and rats,” he whispered. “This is
where the dead walk.” That was when they heard the sound, low
and deep and shivery. Baby Bran had clutched at Arya’s
hand.
When the spirit stepped out of the open tomb, pale white and
moaning for blood, Sansa ran shrieking for the stairs, and Bran
wrapped himself around Robb’s leg, sobbing. Arya stood her
ground and gave the spirit a punch. It was only Jon, covered with
flour. “You stupid,” she told him, “you scared
the baby,” but Jon and Robb just laughed and laughed, and
pretty soon Bran and Arya were laughing too.
The memory made Arya smile, and after that the darkness held no
more terrors for her. The stableboy was dead, she’d killed
him, and if he jumped out at her she’d kill him again. She
was going home. Everything would be better once she was home again,
safe behind Winterfell’s grey granite walls.
Her footsteps sent soft echoes hurrying ahead of her as Arya
plunged deeper into the darkness.
High,” Syrio Forel called out, slashing at
her head. The stick swords clacked as Arya parried.
“Left,” he shouted, and his blade came whistling.
Hers darted to meet it. The clack made him click his teeth
together.
“Right,” he said, and “Low,” and
“Left,” and “Left” again, faster and
faster, moving forward. Arya retreated before him, checking each
blow.
“Lunge,” he warned, and when he thrust she
sidestepped, swept his blade away, and slashed at his shoulder. She
almost touched him, almost, so close it made her grin. A strand of
hair dangled in her eyes, limp with sweat. She pushed it away with
the back of her hand.
“Left,” Syrio sang out. “Low.” His sword
was a blur, and the Small Hall echoed to the clack clack clack.
“Left. Left. High. Left. Right. Left. Low. Left!”
The wooden blade caught her high in the breast, a sudden
stinging blow that hurt all the more because it came from the wrong
side. “Ow,” she cried out. She would have a fresh
bruise there by the time she went to sleep, somewhere out at sea. A
bruise is a lesson, she told herself, and each lesson makes us
better.
Syrio stepped back. “You are dead now.”
Arya made a face. “You cheated,” she said hotly.
“You said left and you went right.”
“Just so. And now you are a dead girl.”
“But you lied!”
“My words lied. My eyes and my arm shouted out the truth,
but you were not seeing.”
“I was so,” Arya said. “I watched you every
second!”
“Watching is not seeing, dead girl. The water dancer sees.
Come, put down the sword, it is time for listening now.”
She followed him over to the wall, where he settled onto a
bench. “Syrio Forel was first sword to the Sealord of
Braavos, and are you knowing how that came to pass?”
“You were the finest swordsman in the city.”
“Just so, but why? Other men were stronger, faster,
younger, why was Syrio Forel the best? I will tell you now.”
He touched the tip of his little finger lightly to his eyelid.
“The seeing, the true seeing, that is the heart of it.
“Hear me. The ships of Braavos sail as far as the winds
blow, to lands strange and wonderful, and when they return their
captains fetch queer animals to the Sealord’s menagerie. Such
animals as you have never seen, striped horses, great spotted
things with necks as long as stilts, hairy mouse-pigs as big as
cows, stinging manticores, tigers that carry their cubs in a pouch,
terrible walking lizards with scythes for claws. Syrio Forel has
seen these things.
“On the day I am speaking of, the first sword was newly
dead, and the Sealord sent for me. Many bravos had come to him, and
as many had been sent away, none could say why. When I came into
his presence, he was seated, and in his lap was a fat yellow cat.
He told me that one of his captains had brought the beast to him,
from an island beyond the sunrise. ‘Have you ever seen her
like?’ he asked of me.
“And to him I said, ‘Each night in the alleys of
Braavos I see a thousand like him,’ and the Sealord laughed,
and that day I was named the first sword.”
Arya screwed up her face. “I don’t
understand.”
Syrio clicked his teeth together. “The cat was an ordinary
cat, no more. The others expected a fabulous beast, so that is what
they saw. How large it was, they said. It was no larger than any
other cat, only fat from indolence, for the Sealord fed it from his
own table. What curious small ears, they said. Its ears had been
chewed away in kitten fights. And it was plainly a tomcat, yet the
Sealord said ‘her,’ and that is what the others saw.
Are you hearing?”
Arya thought about it. “You saw what was there.”
“Just so. Opening your eyes is all that is needing. The
heart lies and the head plays tricks with us, but the eyes see
true. Look with your eyes. Hear with your ears. Taste with your
mouth. Smell with your nose. Feel with your skin. Then comes the
thinking, afterward, and in that way knowing the truth.”
“Just so,” said Arya, grinning.
Syrio Forel allowed himself a smile. “I am thinking that
when we are reaching this Winterfell of yours, it will be time to
put this needle in your hand.”
“Yes!” Arya said eagerly. “Wait till I show
Jon—”
Behind her the great wooden doors of the Small Hall flew open
with a resounding crash. Arya whirled.
A knight of the Kingsguard stood beneath the arch of the door
with five Lannister guardsmen arrayed behind him. He was in full
armor, but his visor was up. Arya remembered his droopy eyes and
rustcolored whiskers from when he had come to Winterfell with the
king: Ser Meryn Trant. The red cloaks wore mail shirts over boiled
leather and steel caps with lion crests. “Arya Stark,”
the knight said, “come with us, child.”
Arya chewed her lip uncertainly. “What do you
want?”
“Your father wants to see you.”
Arya took a step forward, but Syrio Forel held her by the arm.
“And why is it that Lord Eddard is sending Lannister men in
the place of his own? I am wondering.”
“Mind your place, dancing master,” Ser Meryn said.
“This is no concern of yours.”
“My father wouldn’t send you,” Arya said. She
snatched up her stick sword. The Lannisters laughed.
“Put down the stick, girl,” Ser Meryn told her.
“I am a Sworn Brother of the Kingsguard, the White
Swords.”
“So was the Kingslayer when he killed the old king,”
Arya said. “I don’t have to go with you if I
don’t want.”
Ser Meryn Trant ran out of patience. “Take her,” he
said to his men. He lowered the visor of his helm.
Three of them started forward, chainmail clinking softly with
each step. Arya was suddenly afraid. Fear cuts deeper than swords,
she told herself, to slow the racing of her heart.
Syrio Forel stepped between them, tapping his wooden sword
lightly against his boot. “You will be stopping there. Are
you men or dogs that you would threaten a child?”
“Out of the way, old man,” one of the red cloaks
said.
Syrio’s stick came whistling up and rang against his helm.
“I am Syrio Forel, and you will now be speaking to me with
more respect.”
“Bald bastard.” The man yanked free his longsword.
The stick moved again, blindingly fast. Arya heard a loud crack as
the sword went clattering to the stone floor. “My
hand,” the guardsman yelped, cradling his broken fingers.
“You are quick, for a dancing master,” said Ser
Meryn.
“You are slow, for a knight,” Syrio replied.
“Kill the Braavosi and bring me the girl,” the
knight in the white armor commanded.
Four Lannister guardsmen unsheathed their swords. The fifth,
with the broken fingers, spat and pulled free a dagger with his
left hand.
Syrio Forel clicked his teeth together, sliding into his water
dancer’s stance, presenting only his side to the foe.
“Arya child,” he called out, never looking, never
taking his eyes off the Lannisters, “we are done with dancing
for the day. Best you are going now. Run to your father.”
Arya did not want to leave him, but he had taught her to do as
he said. “Swift as a deer,” she whispered.
“Just so,” said Syrio Forel as the Lannisters
closed.
Arya retreated, her own sword stick clutched tightly in her
hand. Watching him now, she realized that Syrio had only been
toying with her when they dueled. The red cloaks came at him from
three sides with steel in their hands. They had chainmail over
their chest and arms, and steel codpieces sewn into their pants,
but only leather on their legs. Their hands were bare, and the caps
they wore had noseguards, but no visor over the eyes.
Syrio did not wait for them to reach him, but spun to his left.
Arya had never seen a man move as fast. He checked one sword with
his stick and whirled away from a second. Off balance, the second
man lurched into the first. Syrio put a boot to his back and the
red cloaks went down together. The third guard came leaping over
them, slashing at the water dancer’s head. Syrio ducked under
his blade and thrust upward. The guardsman fell screaming as blood
welled from the wet red hole where his left eye had been.
The fallen men were getting up. Syrio kicked one in the face and
snatched the steel cap off the other’s head. The dagger man
stabbed at him. Syrio caught the thrust in the helmet and shattered
the man’s kneecap with his stick. The last red cloak shouted
a curse and charged, hacking down with both hands on his sword.
Syrio rolled right, and the butcher’s cut caught the
helmetless man between neck and shoulder as he struggled to his
knees. The longsword crunched through mail and leather and flesh.
The man on his knees shrieked. Before his killer could wrench free
his blade, Syrio jabbed him in the apple of his throat. The
guardsman gave a choked cry and staggered back, clutching at his
neck, his face blackening.
Five men were down, dead, or dying by the time Arya reached the
back door that opened on the kitchen. She heard Ser Meryn Trant
curse. “Bloody oafs,” he swore, drawing his longsword
from its scabbard.
Syrio Forel resumed his stance and clicked his teeth together.
“Arya child,” he called out, never looking at her,
“be gone now.” Look with your eyes, he had said. She saw: the knight in his
pale armor head to foot, legs, throat, and hands sheathed in metal,
eyes hidden behind his high white helm, and in his hand cruel
steel. Against that: Syrio, in a leather vest, with a wooden sword
in his hand. “Syrio, run,” she screamed.
“The first sword of Braavos does not run,” he sang
as Ser Meryn slashed at him. Syrio danced away from his cut, his
stick a blur. In a heartbeat, he had bounced blows off the
knight’s temple, elbow, and throat, the wood ringing against
the metal of helm, gauntlet, and gorget. Arya stood frozen. Ser
Meryn advanced; Syrio backed away. He checked the next blow, spun
away from the second, deflected the third.
The fourth sliced his stick in two, splintering the wood and
shearing through the lead core.
Sobbing, Arya spun and ran.
She plunged through the kitchens and buttery, blind with panic,
weaving between cooks and potboys. A baker’s helper stepped
in front of her, holding a wooden tray. Arya bowled her over,
scattering fragrant loaves of fresh-baked bread on the floor. She
heard shouting behind her as she spun around a portly butcher who
stood gaping at her with a cleaver in his hands. His arms were red
to the elbow.
All that Syrio Forel had taught her went racing through her
head. Swift as a deer. Quiet as a shadow. Fear cuts deeper than
swords. Quick as a snake. Calm as still water. Fear cuts deeper
than swords. Strong as a bear. Fierce as a wolverine. Fear cuts
deeper than swords. The man who fears losing has already lost. Fear
cuts deeper than swords. Fear cuts deeper than swords. Fear cuts
deeper than swords. The grip of her wooden sword was slick with
sweat, and Arya was breathing hard when she reached the turret
stair. For an instant she froze. Up or down? Up would take her to
the covered bridge that spanned the small court to the Tower of the
Hand, but that would be the way they’d expect her to go, for
certain. Never do what they expect, Syrio once said. Arya went
down, around and around, leaping over the narrow stone steps two
and three at a time. She emerged in a cavernous vaulted cellar,
surrounded by casks of ale stacked twenty feet tall. The only light
came through narrow slanting windows high in the wall.
The cellar was a dead end. There was no way out but the way she
had come in. She dare not go back up those steps, but she
couldn’t stay here, either. She had to find her father and
tell him what had happened. Her father would protect her.
Arya thrust her wooden sword through her belt and began to
climb, leaping from cask to cask until she could reach the window.
Grasping the stone with both hands, she pulled herself up. The wall
was three feet thick, the window a tunnel slanting up and out. Arya
wriggled toward daylight. When her head reached ground level, she
peered across the bailey to the Tower of the Hand.
The stout wooden door hung splintered and broken, as if by axes.
A dead man sprawled facedown on the steps, his cloak tangled
beneath him, the back of his mailed shirt soaked red. The
corpse’s cloak was grey wool trimmed with white satin, she
saw with sudden terror. She could not tell who he was.
“No,” she whispered. What was happening? Where was
her father? Why had the red cloaks come for her? She remembered
what the man with the yellow beard had said, the day she had found
the monsters. If one Hand can die, why not a second? Arya felt
tears in her eyes. She held her breath to listen. She heard the
sounds of fighting, shouts, screams, the clang of steel on steel,
coming through the windows of the Tower of the Hand.
She could not go back. Her father . . .
Arya closed her eyes. For a moment she was too frightened to
move. They had killed Jory and Wyl and Heward, and that guardsman
on the step, whoever he had been. They could kill her father too,
and her if they caught her. “Fear cuts deeper than swords,” she said aloud, but it was no good pretending to be a water
dancer, Syrio had been a water dancer and the white knight had
probably killed him, and anyhow she was only a little girl with a
wooden stick, alone and afraid.
She squirmed out into the yard, glancing around warily as she
climbed to her feet. The castle seemed deserted. The Red Keep was
never deserted. All the people must be hiding inside, their doors
barred. Arya glanced up longingly at her bedchamber, then moved
away from the Tower of the Hand, keeping close to the wall as she
slid from shadow to shadow. She pretended she was chasing cats . . . except she was the cat now, and if they caught her, they would
kill her.
Moving between buildings and over walls, keeping stone to her
back wherever possible so no one could surprise her, Arya reached
the stables almost without incident. A dozen gold cloaks in mail
and plate ran past as she was edging across the inner bailey, but
without knowing whose side they were on, she hunched down low in
the shadows and let them pass.
Hullen, who had been master of horse at Winterfell as long as
Arya could remember, was slumped on the ground by the stable door.
He had been stabbed so many times it looked as if his tunic was
patterned with scarlet flowers. Arya was certain he was dead, but
when she crept closer, his eyes opened. “Arya
Underfoot,” he whispered. “You must . . . warn your . . . your lord father . . . ” Frothy red spittle bubbled from his
mouth. The master of horse closed his eyes again and said no
more.
Inside were more bodies; a groom she had played with, and three
of her father’s household guard. A wagon, laden with crates
and chests, stood abandoned near the door of the stable. The dead
men must have been loading it for the trip to the docks when they
were attacked. Arya snuck closer. One of the corpses was Desmond,
who’d shown her his longsword and promised to protect her
father. He lay on his back, staring blindly at the ceiling as flies
crawled across his eyes. Close to him was a dead man in the red
cloak and lion-crest helm of the Lannisters. Only one, though.
Every northerner is worth ten of these southron swords, Desmond had
told her. “You liar!” she said, kicking his body in a
sudden fury.
The animals were restless in their stalls, whickering and
snorting at the scent of blood. Arya’s only plan was to
saddle a horse and flee, away from the castle and the city. All she
had to do was stay on the kingsroad and it would take her back to
Winterfell. She took a bridle and harness off the wall.
As she crossed in back of the wagon, a fallen chest caught her
eye. It must have been knocked down in the fight or dropped as it
was being loaded. The wood had split, the lid opening to spill the
chest’s contents across the ground. Arya recognized silks and
satins and velvets she never wore. She might need warm clothes on
the kingsroad, though . . . and besides . . .
Arya knelt in the dirt among the scattered clothes. She found a
heavy woolen cloak, a velvet skirt and a silk tunic and some
smallclothes, a dress her mother had embroidered for her, a silver
baby bracelet she might sell. Shoving the broken lid out of the
way, she groped inside the chest for Needle. She had hidden it way
down at the bottom, under everything, but her stuff had all been
jumbled around when the chest was dropped. For a moment Arya was
afraid someone had found the sword and stolen it. Then her fingers
felt the hardness of metal under a satin gown.
“There she is,” a voice hissed close behind her.
Startled, Arya whirled. A stableboy stood behind her, a smirk on
his face, his filthy white undertunic peeking out from beneath a
soiled jerkin. His boots were covered with manure, and he had a
pitchfork in one hand. “Who are you?” she asked.
“She don’t know me,” he said, “but I
knows her, oh, yes. The wolf girl.”
“Help me saddle a horse,” Arya pleaded, reaching
back into the chest, groping for Needle. “My father’s
the Hand of the King, he’ll reward you.”
“Father’s dead,” the boy said. He shuffled
toward her. “It’s the queen who’ll be rewarding
me. Come here, girl.”
“Stay away!” Her fingers closed around
Needle’s hilt.
“I says, come.” He grabbed her arm, hard.
Everything Syrio Forel had ever taught her vanished in a
heartbeat. In that instant of sudden terror, the only lesson Arya
could remember was the one Jon Snow had given her, the very
first.
She stuck him with the pointy end, driving the blade upward with
a wild, hysterical strength.
Needle went through his leather jerkin and the white flesh of
his belly and came out between his shoulder blades. The boy dropped
the pitchfork and made a soft noise, something between a gasp and a
sigh. His hands closed around the blade. “Oh, gods,” he
moaned, as his undertunic began to redden. “Take it
out.”
When she took it out, he died.
The horses were screaming. Arya stood over the body, still and
frightened in the face of death. Blood had gushed from the
boy’s mouth as he collapsed, and more was seeping from the
slit in his belly, pooling beneath his body. His palms were cut
where he’d grabbed at the blade. She backed away slowly,
Needle red in her hand. She had to get away, someplace far from
here, someplace safe away from the stableboy’s accusing
eyes.
She snatched up the bridle and harness again and ran to her
mare, but as she lifted the saddle to the horse’s back, Arya
realized with a sudden sick dread that the castle gates would be
closed. Even the postern doors would likely be guarded. Maybe the
guards wouldn’t recognize her. If they thought she was a boy,
perhaps they’d let her . . . no, they’d have orders not
to let anyone out, it wouldn’t matter whether they knew her
or not.
But there was another way out of the castle . . .
The saddle slipped from Arya’s fingers and fell to the
dirt with a thump and a puff of dust. Could she find the room with
the monsters again? She wasn’t certain, yet she knew she had
to try.
She found the clothing she’d gathered and slipped into the
cloak, concealing Needle beneath its folds. The rest of her things
she tied in a roll. With the bundle under her arm, she crept to the
far end of the stable. Unlatching the back door, she peeked out
anxiously. She could hear the distant sound of swordplay, and the
shivery wail of a man screaming in pain across the bailey. She
would need to go down the serpentine steps, past the small kitchen
and the pig yard, that was how she’d gone last time, chasing
the black tomcat . . . only that would take her right past the
barracks of the gold cloaks. She couldn’t go that way. Arya
tried to think of another way. If she crossed to the other side of
the castle, she could creep along the river wall and through the
little godswood . . . but first she’d have to cross the yard,
in the plain view of the guards on the walls.
She had never seen so many men on the walls. Gold cloaks, most
of them, armed with spears. Some of them knew her by sight. What
would they do if they saw her running across the yard? She’d
look so small from up there, would they be able to tell who she
was? Would they care?
She had to leave now, she told herself, but when the moment
came, she was too frightened to move. Calm as still water, a small voice whispered in her ear. Arya
was so startled she almost dropped her bundle. She looked around
wildly, but there was no one in the stable but her, and the horses,
and the dead men. Quiet as a shadow, she heard. Was it her own voice, or
Syrio’s? She could not tell, yet somehow it calmed her
fears.
She stepped out of the stable.
It was the scariest thing she’d ever done. She wanted to
run and hide, but she made herself walk across the yard, slowly,
putting one foot in front of the other as if she had all the time
in the world and no reason to be afraid of anyone. She thought she
could feel their eyes, like bugs crawling on her skin under her
clothes. Arya never looked up. If she saw them watching, all her
courage would desert her, she knew, and she would drop the bundle
of clothes and run and cry like a baby, and then they would have
her. She kept her gaze on the ground. By the time she reached the
shadow of the royal sept on the far side of the yard, Arya was cold
with sweat, but no one had raised the hue and cry.
The sept was open and empty. Inside, half a hundred prayer
candles burned in a fragrant silence. Arya figured the gods would
never miss two. She stuffed them up her sleeves, and left by a back
window. Sneaking back to the alley where she had cornered the
one-eared tom was easy, but after that she got lost. She crawled in
and out of windows, hopped over walls, and felt her way through
dark cellars, quiet as a shadow. Once she heard a woman weeping. It
took her more than an hour to find the low narrow window that
slanted down to the dungeon where the monsters waited.
She tossed her bundle through and doubled back to light her
candle. That was chancy; the fire she’d remembered seeing had
burnt down to embers, and she heard voices as she was blowing on
the coals. Cupping her fingers around the flickering candle, she
went out the window as they were coming in the door, without ever
getting a glimpse of who it was.
This time the monsters did not frighten her. They seemed almost
old friends. Arya held the candle over her head. With each step she
took, the shadows moved against the walls, as if they were turning
to watch her pass. “Dragons,” she whispered. She slid
Needle out from under her cloak. The slender blade seemed very
small and the dragons very big, yet somehow Arya felt better with
steel in her hand.
The long windowless hall beyond the door was as black as she
remembered. She held Needle in her left hand, her sword hand, the
candle in her right fist. Hot wax ran down across her knuckles. The
entrance to the well had been to the left, so Arya went right. Part
of her wanted to run, but she was afraid of snuffing out her
candle. She heard the faint squeaking of rats and glimpsed a pair
of tiny glowing eyes on the edge of the light, but rats did not
scare her. Other things did. It would be so easy to hide here, as
she had hidden from the wizard and the man with the forked beard.
She could almost see the stableboy standing against the wall, his
hands curled into claws with the blood still dripping from the deep
gashes in his palms where Needle had cut him. He might be waiting
to grab her as she passed. He would see her candle coming a long
way off. Maybe she would be better off without the light . . . Fear cuts deeper than swords, the quiet voice inside her
whispered. Suddenly Arya remembered the crypts at Winterfell. They
were a lot scarier than this place, she told herself. She’d
been just a little girl the first time she saw them. Her brother
Robb had taken them down, her and Sansa and baby Bran, who’d
been no bigger than Rickon was now. They’d only had one
candle between them, and Bran’s eyes had gotten as big as
saucers as he stared at the stone faces of the Kings of Winter,
with their wolves at their feet and their iron swords across their
laps.
Robb took them all the way down to the end, past Grandfather and
Brandon and Lyanna, to show them their own tombs. Sansa kept
looking at the stubby little candle, anxious that it might go out.
Old Nan had told her there were spiders down here, and rats as big
as dogs. Robb smiled when she said that. “There are worse
things than spiders and rats,” he whispered. “This is
where the dead walk.” That was when they heard the sound, low
and deep and shivery. Baby Bran had clutched at Arya’s
hand.
When the spirit stepped out of the open tomb, pale white and
moaning for blood, Sansa ran shrieking for the stairs, and Bran
wrapped himself around Robb’s leg, sobbing. Arya stood her
ground and gave the spirit a punch. It was only Jon, covered with
flour. “You stupid,” she told him, “you scared
the baby,” but Jon and Robb just laughed and laughed, and
pretty soon Bran and Arya were laughing too.
The memory made Arya smile, and after that the darkness held no
more terrors for her. The stableboy was dead, she’d killed
him, and if he jumped out at her she’d kill him again. She
was going home. Everything would be better once she was home again,
safe behind Winterfell’s grey granite walls.
Her footsteps sent soft echoes hurrying ahead of her as Arya
plunged deeper into the darkness.