"Maxwell, Ann - [Concord 03] - Name of a Shadow (v1.0) htm" - читать интересную книгу автора (Maxwell Ann)Name of a ShadowConcord, Book 3 Ann Maxwell 1980 ISBN: 0-380-75390-1 Spell-checked. Read. A STRANGE ALLIANCE UNDER DIAMOND SKIES Kayle—the Concord advisor with the power to link minds, he
is torn between his oath of obedience and a loathing for all things Malian. Ryth—representative of a legendary and complex race with astounding
powers of perception, he falls hopelessly into a forbidden love. Faen—a proud and bitter aristocrat known for her beauty and
vengeance, she is the reluctant key to the secrets hidden in the shadows. IT CAN BE DEADLY TO DISTURB THE SHADOWS Malia’s prismatic atmosphere transformed sunlight into a vibrant
fall of energy; on Malia, everything was more vivid, more varied, more vital.
Even the shadows seemed alive. Some of them were ... I“are you the sharnn?” “Yes.” “Come in.” Ryth entered the room with the lithe grace of a dancer or a
Malian assassin. Kayle watched, orange eyes hooded; few people had ever seen a
Sharnn in the flesh. “I didn’t know that Sharnn ever left their planet,” said
Kayle, gesturing to a sling for Ryth to sit in. “Not much is known about Sharnn,” said Ryth, his face changing
with what could have been a smile. Kayle’s glance flicked over the tall man whose silver-green
eyes compelled attention. Though Ryth was standing motionless, his floor-length
cape seemed to stir subtly, twisting light into new shapes. “That’s why you interest the Carifil,” said Kayle. “You’re
the first person from Sharn who has asked anything of the Concord.” Kayle’s
dark face fell into the many creases of a Nendleti frown. “And what you’ve
asked is—” Kayle’s arm snapped out.”—difficult. Probably impossible.” “But the Carifil will consider it.” “Yes. And in return, you will use your pattern skills to
help us understand Malia.” “Before the Concord destroys it.” “If we destroy it,” corrected Kayle. Then he laughed, a
thick and husky sound. “If I didn’t know the Carifil, I’d not waste another
moment with you. Tell me, Sharnn, how a man from one of the Concord’s most
simple cultures can help the Carifil to understand one of the Concord’s most
complex and secretive cultures?” This time, Ryth’s smile was unmistakable. He flowed into the
sling without taking his eyes off Kayle. “May a simple Sharnn ask why you call
the Malians secretive?” “They’ve been Concord members for nine hundred years, yet we
know nothing about them that the First Contact team didn’t teach us.” “Perhaps,” said Ryth blandly. “But a secretive culture would
never have allowed Maran’s Song to be heard by any but Malian ears.” Kayle made a gesture of dismissal. “Maran’s Song is a great
work of the mind, perhaps one of the greatest the Concord knows. It is the summation
of crystal music. Any race would be proud to display such an achievement. And,”
added Kayle dryly, “Malians are nothing if not proud. Arrogant beyond belief.” “Little is beyond a Sharnn’s belief.” Kayle stared at the alien who sat so easily in the resilient
sling. Ryth’s eyes shone greenly, lit by inner knowledge or amusement or
strength; Kayle did not know which. He did know that Sharn’s culture was less
primitive than it appeared, if Ryth was a product of it. And the Carifil had
been so eager to study Ryth that they had promised him what was denied to every
person in the Concord—entry to Malia. “Do all Sharnn have your ability to find patterns where
others find only chaos?” asked Kayle abruptly. “Sometimes.” “When? And how many?” demanded Kayle. Ryth’s smile would have made anyone but a Nendleti uneasy.
“A few,” said Ryth. “When they must.” “There’s a saying in the Concord,” muttered Kayle. “As
stupid as a Sharnn.” Ryth’s smile increased until Kayle almost heard the Sharnn’s
inner laughter. “But the Carifil have a different saying,” continued Kayle.
“As elusive as a Sharnn.” “Are there similar phrases to describe Malians?” asked Ryth. “You’re a hard man to insult,” said Kayle softly. Ryth simply smiled like a Sharnn. Kayle gestured in amused defeat. “The Carifil told me that
you would ask seemingly random questions, but that I should answer in spite of
confusion.” Kayle frowned again, disliking the elliptical conversation, sensing
that the Sharnn was at least three questions—and answers—ahead of him. “The
First Contact team agreed that Malia was beautiful beyond imagining; that
Malians as a race and Malian aristocrats in particular had a primal allure that
transcended cultural prejudices; that Malian culture was obsessed with sensual
experience.” Kayle waited, but Ryth did not comment. “The First Contact team,” continued Kayle, “also had a
saying about Malians.” Kayle stopped, apparently finished. “And that was?” said Ryth softly. “‘Trust a Malian to betray you.’” Kayle’s orange eyes
brooded over the Sharnn’s muscular frame. “Do you still want to go to Malia?” “Yes.” “Why?” said Kayle bluntly. “Many reasons, none of which you would understand.” Kayle’s eyes narrowed. “I suppose I earned that one, Sharnn.
Now tell me why you want to go to Malia.” “I want to hear Maran’s Song played on the Sandoliki sarsa.” “Impossible. That song is never played on Malia.” Ryth became absolutely still, savagely intent; for an
instant nothing existed but the ramifications of that single fact, as his
Sharnn instinct for patterns focused his mind. Then the moment passed and he
was once again just a tall man resting in a sling. “Are you sure?” asked Ryth mildly. Kayle’s fingers stroked the multi-textured surface of his
robe as he tried to convince himself that no man could be as dangerous as Ryth
had appeared to be for a single instant. “Yes, Sharnn. It’s one of the few things I am sure of about
that accursed planet.” “Why is the song forbidden?” “I don’t know,” snapped Kayle. Then, less harshly, “I once
asked a Malian.” Kayle flipped back the sleeve of his robe to reveal a long
scar down his forearm. “F’n’een almost killed me. I never mentioned the song
again.” “But not out of fear,” said Ryth, looking at the Nendleti
with an intensity that should have been frightening. “You respected the Malian
F’n’een, in spite of your hatred for Malians as a race. Perhaps you even loved
her.” “The Carifil told you more than I would have.” “No one told me anything. Except where to find you.” “Am I that easy for you to read?” said Kayle, sparks of
anger leaping deep within his eyes. “Easy? Not at all. But she was Malian, and an aristocrat.” “She was F’n’een,” said Kayle simply, as though no other explanation
was required. “But that doesn’t help you, does it?” Kayle made an abrupt
gesture. “Just what is it that you want, pattern-man?” “Maran’s Song.” “Why?” “A Sharnn game. I doubt if you would understand it. I don’t.” “Teach me.” Ryth’s green gaze turned inward, and when he spoke, it was
in the tones of a man choosing words from a language that was impossibly limited. “I might have ... lost ... something. If I did, it probably
can be discovered on Malia.” Ryth hesitated, then shrugged, a muscular movement
of his torso that made his cape ripple like water. “Until I know just what I’ve
lost—if I’ve lost anything at all—I can’t explain more clearly.” “You’ll have to do better than that, pattern-man.” The edge of Ryth’s cape lifted restlessly, moving over
itself with a sound like silk rubbing over amber. “My pattern instinct works best when I’m not personally involved,”
said Ryth. “But I am involved in this ... game.” Kayle smiled, showing two rows of small, bright teeth.
“You’re human, then. I’m relieved.” Ryth smiled ironically. “The Carifil said the same thing.
Then they told me what they knew about Malia and Malians. It wasn’t enough.” “For what?” “For a Sharnn conception.” Kayle made a frustrated noise. “The more you talk, the less
you say.” He stared narrowly at the supple man whose cape still moved
restlessly, “Can you prove that you’re more than a mouthful of baffling
phrases?” “Yes—if you let me go to Malia.” “You know that Malia is under secondary proscription?” “Yes.” “You know that primary will begin in no less than seven Centrex
days and could begin sooner, without warning?” “Yes.” “You’ll risk your life for a Sharnn game—a concept?” “What are Carifil and Concord if not aspects of a concept?”
countered Ryth. Kayle looked at Ryth for a long moment. Both men were so
still that the sound of Ryth’s restive Sharnn cape seemed loud in the room. “You irritate me, Sharnn,” Kayle said finally. “But not
enough to let you die. I can’t recommend opening Malia to you. The Carifil
can’t play a game where neither the rules nor the stakes are known to us.” “If,” said Ryth slowly, “I told you that I could lead you to
a finder whose gift was not limited by time or space, would that be a stake
worth Carifil risk?” “Is this person Sharnn?” “No.” Kayle smiled, but his eyes were lit by something close to anger.
“Is this another Sharnn game? The Carifil sift and resift races, looking for
mental gifts, and then a Sharnn who has never been off-planet offers us the
rarest gift of all. A finder. But this finder is not Sharnn.” Kayle swore in
the hissing phrases of his native tongue. “My patience is gone, pattern-man,”
he said disdainfully, turning away. “When I next look, you would do well to be
gone, too. I speak now as a Nendleti, not a Carifil.” Ryth did not move. Even his cape was still. “And I speak as a Sharnn. F’n’een did not die on Skemole.” Though Kayle’s muscles bunched beneath his orange robe, his
voice was calm. “Every member of the Second Contact team died on Skemole.” “F’n’een survived.” “Impossible. The Carifil searched—and mindsearched—for
survivors. Only two bodies were found. We found those who had assassinated the
team. All dead. Very dead. Suicides. They knew the Concord penalty for
murdering a Second Contact team.” “F’n’een survived.” “No. I knew her mind. I was the union for the Carifil mindsearch.
I balanced the minds that searched, held them together. They did not sense
F’n’een, She is dead.” “F’n’een’s mind rolled back upon itself. Regressive shock.
Her mind became unrecognizable and/or unreachable. The Carifil even have a name
for that state. Q-consciousness.” Kayle, his back still turned, said nothing. “When she emerged from q,” continued Ryth, “she had changed,
a change forced by hatred and the need to survive.” “Go on,” said Kayle, his voice husky. “Was F’n’een capable of killing?” Kayle laughed shortly. “She was Malian. Raised in the code
of darg vire—vendetta to the death.” “A team member who died was her husband/mate/lover,” said
Ryth, his voice as soft as the liquid movements of his Sharnn cape. “If F’n’een
survived, what would she do?” “Darg vire,” said Kayle, his husky voice clipped again. “Yes. And twenty-three Skemoleans died. Not suicides. She is
on Malia now. She is the Sandoliki Ti.” Kayle’s body jerked subtly, but he did not turn to face the
soft-voiced Sharnn who had become his tormenter. “Are you telling me this so that I may die again when my
mind-daughter dies again?” asked Kayle angrily. “The Sandoliki woman is a finder.” Kayle’s hand flexed in a gesture of negation. “Then she is
not F’n’een. A gift as rare as that would have been discovered during her
Contact training.” “F’n’een—the Sandoliki woman—had not even entered her first
maturity when you knew her. Some gifts develop only with time. Or severe stress.” Kayle said nothing, but his bright robe moved in sudden
jerks. “Whoever the Sandoliki woman is or is not,” said Kayle
harshly, “she can’t be allowed to die when Malia dies. Her gift and her genes
are too valuable.” “Yes ...” Something in the quality of Ryth’s simple agreement brought
Kayle slowly around. His orange glance flicked over to a wall where various
times on the planet Vintra were coded in light. “You interest me, Sharnn,” said Kayle at last. “If I survive
tonight, I’ll take you to Malia.” “If it’s a question of survival,” said Ryth, “perhaps I
should come with you.” Kayle smiled like a predator. “Yes, Sharnn, perhaps you
should.” Kayle stripped off his outer robe, reversed it so that
orange was replaced by somber tones of purple, and pulled the robe back on.
Ryth noted the three curved knives strapped to various parts of Kayle’s heavily
muscled body, then the weapons vanished beneath the loose clothes. Out of
sight, but not out of reach; the robe had conveniently placed slits. With a rolling movement, Kayle settled the robe around his
body. He glanced at Ryth’s cape. The cape seemed dulled, as though light no
longer made any impact on the material’s drab surface. Ryth pulled up a loose
hood that concealed everything but his silver-green eyes. “Can you fight?” asked Kayle matter-of-factly. “Yes.” “Just yes? No elaborations, no tales of epic brawls?” “No.” Kayle half-smiled. “Good enough, Sharnn. Hand-held or projectile
weapons?” “Whatever is necessary. Though,” Ryth added, “I prefer
faal-hnim,” “Faal-hnim!” Kayle turned to face Ryth so quickly that his
robe belled into rolling shades of purple. “How did a Sharnn learn that lethal
discipline?” “People come to Sharn,” said Ryth. “Some of them talk to the
children. I was a child, once.” Kayle made a sound that was half admiration, half
frustration, but did not doubt that Ryth was a practitioner of faal-hnim’s difficult
and deadly dances. It explained the Sharnn’s extraordinary grace. “I suppose,” said Kayle dryly, “you once talked to a psi master.” Ryth’s lips moved in silent laughter. “What little I know of
the mental arts was taught to me by the Carifil. Very difficult concepts. And
for a Sharnn of the Seventh Dawn, not particularly useful.” “Oh?” “The Seventh Dawn is a solitary discipline.” Kayle’s mind reached out and deftly touched the fringes of
Ryth’s awareness. For an instant Kayle sensed a savage radiance that was stunning,
then the incandescence thinned to an apparently inexperienced mindtouch that
concealed immense depths and distances and raw power. *Is mindspeech uncomfortable for you, Sharnn?* *Just ... unexpected ... but each time it happens, I learn.* Kayle sensed their contact strengthening, stabilizing as the
Sharnn’s protean mind found patterns in Kayle’s skill and learned from those
patterns. Ryth learned with shattering speed. Between one breath and the next,
his mind-speech clarified. *You learn very quickly, pattern-man.* *I am Sharnn.* Kayle turned abruptly and walked to the door. Ryth followed,
wondering if he had insulted the Nendleti—Nendleti pride was legendary. But as
they descended the winding stairs of one of Vintra’s older kels, Kayle spoke in
a husky whisper. “Don’t you want to know where you might die tonight? And
why?” “I can guess,” said Ryth, unsmiling. “We are in Sima,
capital city of the planet Vintra. We are probably going to Old Sima; it is the
center of Vintran discontent. And danger.” While he spoke, Ryth’s eyes took in
the shabby lilac walls and faded rose and cream murals that decorated the Access
room between the street and the kel’s sleeping rooms. “As for why—” Ryth turned
suddenly, but saw nothing more than a shadow slipping down the wall. “Someone
must have promised you information about Malia.” Kayle stopped. “Keep talking, pattern-man. What information?” Ryth’s cape flared, then snuggled around his soft leather
boots. “I don’t know,” said Ryth. Kayle blinked slowly. “You surprise me, pattern-man. I
thought you knew everything.” The Nendleti turned and walked around the Access platform.
Blue energy blazed across the Access, and for an instant, Kayle’s eyes were as
purple as Vintra’s smoldering moon. When the energy died, four people stepped
off the platform. Their tight leggings and elaborately jeweled armbands
proclaimed them buyers of the sort who flocked to the scene of the latest human
disaster, purchasing the wreckage of dreams at bargain rates. *Scavengers.* Kayle’s scathing thought echoed in Ryth’s mind, along with
the implications of such people appearing on Vintra. *How do they know?* mused Ryth. *They have the instincts of carrion eaters.* Kayle twitched
the hem of his robe aside as though to avoid contamination. *They must be going
to the kla’rre district. There was an outbreak of pekh there ten days ago. The
survivors will need money to mourn their dead.* Kayle’s lips thinned in a
silent snarl. *Malia has much to answer for.* Ryth watched the scavengers vanish into Sima’s seething lavender
brick streets. “Why Malia?” asked Ryth. “Maia is the cause of Vintra’s drastic decline. Vintra never
recovered from the Undeclared War. Worse, Malia is sabotaging Vintra even as we
walk these streets.” “Why?” “If I knew, my work would be over. The Carifil asked me to
study Malia and Malians before they are destroyed by the Concord.
Unfortunately, Malia forbids alien visitors and Malians rarely leave their
planet.” “Some aliens must be permitted,” said Ryth. “No pattern is
perfect.” Kayle laughed. “Maybe, pattern-man. But the Carifil never
found the exception. That’s why I’m here on Vintra, Malia’s colony, learning by
inference and extrapolation about the Malian mind.” “What have you learned?” “That Malians have earned their extinction.” Yet Ryth sensed an echo of anguish that was the name
F’n’een. “If Malia’s pattern is so obvious and so guilty, why do you
need my skills?” said Ryth softly. Kayle looked casually around the street. There were many people
out and they walked too close for privacy. *The Carifil want to know why Malians could not adapt to the
Concord’s Sole Restraint. When we know that, the First Contact teams can look
for the Malian syndrome in newly discovered cultures. Then we can simply proscribe
that type of culture, rather than admitting it to Concord and then eventually being
forced to eradicate an entire genepool.* Kayle’s mindspeech slipped beyond the conversational level
and became information wrapped in a rich complex of emotions. *Malians are too beautiful to destroy—yet we must, for they
have twice ignored the Sole Restraint.* Then the emotions vanished, leaving echoes of sadness. *Yesterday, a Vintran spoke to me from behind a door, whispering
about a strong man and a black-haired woman with eyes like ice. He said they
were Malians who came to Vintra often. He said that when they were here, death
followed Like the long shadow of night. *He said they would be in Old Sima tonight, on the Street of
the Purple Blossom, in a cellar called Regret.* Kayle glanced sideways, but whatever reaction Ryth might
have had was concealed within the folds of his Sharnn cape. *If what the Vintran said is true,” continued Kayle, *the Concord
will have all the proof it needs to destroy Malia.* There was weariness rather
than triumph in Kayle’s thought, resonances of regret that tore at Ryth’s mind.
*And I pray,* added Kayle, *that the Allgod forgives my part in Malia’s annihilation.* Kayle’s mind withdrew. Ryth walked soundlessly, his green
eyes noting and naming and correlating a range of details that would have
astonished Kayle if he had known. Finally, Kayle emerged from his dark
thoughts. *This Vintran,* began Ryth slowly,
feeling his way through a maze of pattern possibilities. *Where is he now?* Kayle’s ironic laughter was almost painful. *Exactly,
pattern-man. He was supposed to come to my h’kel tonight. But you came instead.
I wonder if that is an even trade?* Ryth had no response for Kayle’s laughter. Restless Sharnn
eyes measured the subtle signs of disrepair in the black stone building facades
and despair in the subdued faces lining Sima’s sunbrick streets. Vintra was tone on tone of purple, from lavender day to amethyst
evening and dense violet-black night ruled by a huge purple moon. Even Vintra’s
sun did not banish the thousand shades of purple, for Vintra wore a thick atmospheric
shell that absorbed almost all but the longer wavelengths of light. Because Malia,
the Vintrans’ first world, turned beneath a sky of incredible clarity, colonists
had had difficulty adjusting to Vintra’s light. Everywhere on Vintra, noon and
midnight, artificial illumination glowed, but not enough, never enough to
bleach Vintra’s purple sky. If the colonists had difficulty enjoying Vintra’s
extraordinary light, others did not. Vintra became famous for her eerie violet
skies. People from all over the Concord came to be transformed by lavender light.
They swam in lilac seas, climbed magenta mountains and ate heliotrope fruit
whose sweet core was yet another shade of purple. In a high window above Ryth and Kayle, a suncaller preened
and sang a few notes, as though preparing its pre-dawn song. Ryth glanced up,
but did not really see the bird. His mind had finally put into words an anomaly
that had been nagging at him: colonists invariably brought native flora and
fauna to their new homes, but nowhere in Sima had Ryth seen anything that did
not fit seamlessly into Vintra’s environment. *Where are the Malian plants, the animals, the living links
with Vintrans’ first home?* asked Ryth. *Dead. The disparity in environments killed most. The few
survivors were destroyed after the Undeclared War, when all things Malian
became anathema.* Kayle sidestepped a group of revelers whose frayed robes displayed
fuchsia slogans proclaiming the joys of chemical psychosis. Though the five
people were too uncoordinated to be dangerous, other such groups had triggered
twelve lethal riots and numberless street brawls in the few months Kayle had
lived in Sima. The groups were both symbol and accelerator of Vintra’s decline. The streets narrowed when Ryth and Kayle approached the
boundaries of Old Sima. Tourists rarely came here, for there was neither
entertainment nor beauty nor commerce within the crumbling sunbrick structures.
Most residents had abandoned the huddled kels after the third earthquake in the
Year of the Suncaller. Only the human debris of a failing society remained, as
dangerous as venomous fruit. The Street of the Purple Blossom was little more than an
alley twisting between sagging rows of lifeless kels. Only a few faded, cracked
lightstrips alleviated the purple moonglow. Ryth and Kayle walked carefully, twisting as the alley
twisted, turning three-quarters of the way around old buildings, spilling out
onto two brightly lighted streets and then setting off in another direction
entirely, back into darkness. Further ahead, at the end of a long, shadowed
tunnel, there was a glowing sign in the shape of a whirlpool. Though most of
the letters were shattered or dimmed by a crust of dirt, enough remained to
make out the word “Regret.” No one could be seen in the pooling shadows beneath the
sign, yet the street suggested hidden life, breath held in anticipation of a
moment that was long past. *Wait for a twenty-count, then follow,* instructed Kayle. *If
my shy Vintran is here, I don’t want you to frighten him.* Kayle closed out Ryth’s unspoken objections with a deft mental
twist, then moved down the rubble-strewn path with a speed and silence that
belied the apparent clumsiness of his rolling Nendleti gait. After a rapid
count, Ryth moved lightly through the darkness, avoiding clots of debris. Once
again he tried mindspeech with Kayle, but the Nendleti’s mind was as closed as
a stone. The Sharnn’s pattern instinct clamored of danger. He looked
at the alley ahead through narrowed eyes. The incandescent violet moon made
everything appear gigantic, menacing, but that was not what had roused his instinct.
There was something about the placement of debris that was no longer random.
Ahead, Kayle was pursuing a zigzag course, seeking clear ground where he could
walk without sending trash clattering. Ryth tried mindspeech again, but it was as futile as shouting
at the moon. Unease gnawed at him as Kayle slowed, picking his way among piles
of trash that nearly overlapped each other. Abruptly, Ryth decided that silence
presented the greater risk. “Danger,” called Ryth softly. Kayle flattened into a recessed doorway and effectively vanished.
Ryth felt the Nendleti’s mental query sweep through him. *Where?* *Six kels ahead, just by the cellar. See how the trash
closes in? There’s only one way to walk. Cover your ears and eyes—and don’t
move.* Ryth picked up a stone that was bigger than three clenched
fists. He weighed the stone in his hand, learning its balance, then he closed
his eyes and brought his arm around in a powerful throw. The stone shot through
the gloom and landed in front of the Regret on the only piece of ground
not covered by trash. The alley fractured into noise and light and jagged
fragments of trash sent flying by the force of the bomb. With a long rumble,
the cellar called Regret collapsed in upon itself. *Kayle?* *I owe you a life, Sharnn.* *If you want to enjoy it,* returned Ryth dryly, *I’d suggest
we leave this wretched trap to its shadows.* *Agreed,* came Kayle’s thought after a long hesitation. *Nothing
waited here for me but death.* Ryth sensed Kayle’s mind leaping out in search of something,
but could not guess what. At Kayle’s silent command, Ryth turned and ran back
up the choked street, his dulled Sharnn cape invisible in the dense shadows. In
the distance, Sima’s inhabited streets glowed with Mac light. *Ambush ahead!* Kayle’s thought sent Ryth diving behind the nearest pile of
rubbish. He heard a knife hiss past his ear and clatter against a sunbrick
wall. As he rolled to a new position, he pulled a long-bladed hunter’s knife
from beneath his cape. Then he sensed the attackers closing in and rolled
again, just avoiding a steel-toed kick. With superb timing, the Sharnn brought his knife up in a
thrust that met flesh. A man’s pain echoed through the narrow street. Ryth
sprang up, fighting in darkness, blind but for a sure sense of Kayle’s presence
slicing at the attackers. *Alive, if possible,* requested Kayle. Ryth’s answer was to drop and roll through the attackers, hamstringing
two who did not move quickly enough. When he rose to his feet, he felt Kayle at
his back. Ryth’s foot shot out, connecting with a man’s chin. The man was unconscious
before he fell to the ground. For a few seconds the narrow alley was silent,
then there was a shadowy rush. Kayle and Ryth lashed out, blows meant to stun
rather than kill. One man remained on his feet, circling them, dodging among
the bodies of his fallen comrades in an apparently random dance. His face
glowed as he feinted toward Kayle, bent over another man—and vanished. *Can you see him?* demanded Kayle. *No.* Ryth strained into the darkness. *He must have hidden his face in his robes!* Kayle’s frustration
seared across the Sharnn. *I can’t even sense his mind!* Simultaneously, they dove and rolled in opposite directions.
Ryth felt the edge of a robe on his knife and slashed upward. His knife slid
away, deflected. The man leaped into darkness and was gone. Ryth held his breath, listening. At first he heard nothing
but his own blood pumping, then came the faintest sounds of a light-footed man
running away. Ryth rolled to his feet and sprinted down the street, leaping
over bodies and rubbish. Ahead the street twisted, then branched at right
angles as it emptied onto two larger streets lit by lilac lights. He saw a
glimpse of a dark shadow sliding into throngs of walkers and knew it would be
useless to follow. Ryth ran back to Kayle, and found the Nendleti studying the
attackers by the thin beam of a light pencil. “Quickly,” said Ryth. “He might be back with better fighters.” “Questioning won’t take long,” said Kayle dryly. A narrow beam of light moved over the bodies of eight men.
Each man’s throat had been cut. Ryth swore in the twisting phrases of Sharn,
then took out his own light pencil and began searching among the trash. “Why?” asked Kayle. “Flexible plastic. As many pieces as you can find.” When he had enough plastic, Ryth rolled the attackers’ weapons
into clumsy packages. Kayle watched, then gathered weapons with as much care as
Ryth; at no time did either man touch the weapons. When all the weapons were
wrapped, Ryth piled them in the center of a large sheet of plastic and knotted
the sheet into a rude bundle. While Ryth worked, Kayle examined the bodies
again. “Anything?” asked Ryth, picking up the bundle. “No. They are either Vintrans or Malians.” “Malians?” said Ryth sharply. “It’s possible, after what I heard yesterday about the two
Malians.” Kayle swept the light over the corpses one last time. “Vintra was
colonized less than ten centuries ago. Neither phenotype nor genotype has
changed from Malia.” “Do you think Malians would leave Malia to hunt you?” “Why not? In a way, I’m hunting them. And apparently, I’m
getting too close.” Kayle’s light slid from face to face, illuminating death.
Then he switched off the beam. “You fight well, Sharnn, but I must insist on
leading the way or carrying the burden.” Ryth laughed silently and said in Malian, “I can think of no
one I’d rather follow into danger.” “So you know the Malian language—and Malian codes.” “A little of both,” Ryth said. “Maran’s Song teaches a
thousand patterns.” “You interest me, Ryth,” said Kayle, his husky voice
floating back from the purple darkness. “Just enough to let you try for Malia.
If you find your exception to Malian rules, I’ll give you an exception to
Concord proscription.” Ryth and Kayle were the only passengers on the shuttle from
Malia’s inner moon. Kayle was not surprised; even before the Concord had
proscribed Malia, the planet was classified as xenophobic to a high degree. Malians
had permitted no direct Access route for travelers to Malia’s surface, though
almost all other Concord planets had several major Accesses and hundreds of
minor ones on their surfaces. Malia had one personnel Access located on the
inner moon. There were only ten freight Accesses for each continent on Malia.
And that was all. The scarcity of Accesses was not due to physical law or to recent
proscription or to lack of potential trade and tourists. Rather, Malia simply
forbade visitors and ignored the possibilities of commerce. Nor had
proscription bothered Malians. Even when citizens had been permitted to leave
Malia whenever they wished, few did. Except for those destined for Vintra, only
three Malians had been recorded off-world in any century since Malia had joined
the Concord. But the Sharnn had found a crack in Malia’s apparent xenophobia.
By Malian rule, people of any race who wanted to ask help from the Sandoliki Ti
were permitted to spend one day on Malia. Just one. And just once. But that was a crack large enough for a Sharnn and a
Nendleti to slide through. Ryth sat quietly, listening to Kayle and correlating new
information while Malia’s silver and turquoise sphere grew rapidly on the
shuttle’s screen. “Also,” continued Kayle, “you will receive no exemption from
Malian customs. Be prepared for personal combat at any moment. And be prepared
to kill. Although,” added Kayle, rubbing the textures of his bright blue robe between
his palms, “I believe Malians usually ignore off-worlders so long as they are
wholly discreet.” “Usually,” murmured Ryth, “is hardly comforting, given Malians’
reputation as assassins. Did you know Carifil Cryl?” Kayle’s face tightened into bleak lines. “Yes. I warned him.
The Carifil still don’t know how he got on the planet.” “The same way we did,” said Ryth. “No other possibility
fits.” “He was obsessed by Malia’s crystal music,” said Kayle. “And Maran’s Song?” asked Ryth softly. “And Maran’s Song,” agreed Kayle, his voice heavy. “He had a
theory about Malian culture that depended on a certain interpretation of
Maran’s Song. Until he heard that song played on the Sandoliki sarsa, he could
not test his idea.” “Yes,” said Ryth. “Concepts can only be tested at their
sources.” “Cryl died at the hands of k’m’n Sandoliki Lekel.” “Did he hear Maran’s Song before he died?” asked Ryth, his
silver-green eyes suddenly hard with intensity. But Kayle did not notice, for
he was remembering a dead Carifil. “No.” “Are you sure?” demanded Ryth. “Does it matter, pattern-man?” said Kayle irritably. Ryth waited with the intense patience of a predator. “Yes,” Kayle said, voice rasping in the empty shuttle. “I’m
sure he died without hearing Maran’s Song. The death-cry of his mind was
singularly unfulfilled.” Ryth sat back and resumed his meticulous visual inspection
of each aspect of the shuttle. Kayle watched, then probed lightly at the edges
of Ryth’s mind. A cataract of savage energy nearly stunned the Nendleti. He
withdrew, and only then did he realize that the Sharnn was using the shuttle,
and whatever other facts/theories/ guesses he had garnered, to analyze,
correlate and extrapolate patterns of Malian culture. For the first time, Kayle began to believe that the Sharnn
might have a truly extraordinary gift, worthy of Carifil interest. Kayle
watched covertly, fascinated, all through the long fall to Malia’s surface.
When the shuttle bounced and sideslipped on entering Malia’s atmosphere, Ryth
finally became aware of Kayle’s concentrated interest. “Nendleti philosophers,” Kayle said quietly, “believe that
the past, present, and future of a culture can be intuited from a single
object.” He smiled slightly. “Do you find this shuttle educational, sri Ryth?” Ryth noted the Nendleti honorific “sri,” but said only, “The
shuttle is overwhelming. The lights alone,” he gestured to an instrument panel
whose information was displayed in colors rather than numbers, “tell me as much
as the First Contact tapes.” Kayle eyed the panel, but saw only a rainbow of colors. To
him, the panel was beautiful but essentially meaningless. To the Sharnn it was
a revelation. “Teach me,” said Kayle. Ryth’s hands spread in a gesture of helplessness, but after
a long silence, he spoke. “I’ll try.” His words were slow as he picked his way through
the limitations and pitfalls of the Galactic language. “How many colors do you
see?” “Perhaps fifty.” “How many colors are repeated? A few? Many? All?” Kayle looked at the panel carefully. “Almost all. Especially
the lighter colors.” “None are repeated,” said Ryth softly. Kayle started to protest, then decided against it. “Go on,
Sharnn. I asked to be taught.” “I see what might be a few repeats, but the pattern tells me
that my eyes are at fault. Otherwise, the instrument readouts would be repetitious
or useless or both. So Malian eyes must see distinct color separations, receive
distinct information. Therefore Malian eyes are capable of exquisite
discrimination among the wavelengths of light. “Malians don’t care that other races might be confused
rather than enlightened by the instruments. In fact, Malians don’t care about
other races at all. Not one aspect of this shuttle was designed for any but a Malian. “Which tells me that Malians are indeed arrogant.” Kayle snorted. “Is that all? I could have told—” “No. There is a preference for curves over angles, textures
over blandness, light over dark, space over enclosures, warmth over chill,
comfort over safety, sensuality over personal distance—” The Sharnn gestured in
frustration. “Galactic has no words to describe what this shuttle teaches me
about the Malian culture, the Malian mind.” He looked around, his silver-green
eyes lit by excitement. “Now I know—I know!—that Maran’s Song is more exquisite
than I had realized, more seminal than anything but a Sharnn conception.” Kayle sensed Ryth’s electric excitement; mental/emotional currents
came from the Sharnn in waves that were almost painful in their intensity.
Sensed, but did not understand. Kayle did not attempt to talk anymore until
they landed at a small pad in C’Varial, Malia’s capital—and only—city. The
shuttle area was surrounded by an immense park where plants from all over Malia
grew in exquisitely arranged profusion. There were no written signs directing visitors to various
major compounds, kels or even the S’kel of the Sandolikis. Instead, there were
“signatures,” patterns in flower and wood and stone, at the beginning of every
path that radiated out from the landing area. Ryth and Kayle stood just beyond their shuttle, transfixed
by the pouring beauty that was Malia. The turquoise bell of the sky rang with
pure light, light that defined and caressed each living color, each slow
scented breath of flowers open in silky invitation, their fertile throats
calling to insects quivering on diamond wings, humming promise of consummation
deep within petal softness. And in the distance a fall of crystal music more
pure than Malian light. After a long time, Kayle roused himself, but still felt
as though he were folded within the soft body of a lover. “Even the Allgod must envy Malians,” he said to Ryth, his
voice husky with many emotions. But Ryth did not hear. He was lost in a compelling sensual
paradise. His fingers reached out in sudden knowledge, touched the tall singing
flowers, stroked their turquoise throats with gentle fingertips. Flower throats
stretched and pulsed slowly, deeply, until a cloud of silver pollen spilled
out, covering his hand with perfumed softness. Faint crystal music called
again, echo of flowers, pure sound, haunting, and he suddenly understood that
he was hearing the fragmentary signature of a Malian mind. Ryth turned toward the crystal notes with a questing intelligence
that was almost palpable. Humming zamay flowers brushed their silken faces
across his hands, humming, asking, but he neither saw nor felt their sliding caresses.
Only music existed for him now, flawless notes calling, crystal longing, a song
both superbly whole and crying for harmony, for an equal song to join with it
against the loneliness of crystal echoes returning always the same, always
diminished. Ryth walked through ranks of flowers until his Sharnn cape
was fragrant and bright with m’zamay, the aphrodisiac pollen of the turquoise
zamay. Then singing flowers gave way to ebony nightvine, twined around itself
and the powerful trunk of a huge tere tree. Beneath the tere’s high canopy of
scarlet leaves, suspended from an invisibly fine wire frame, a miniature sarsa
chimed its lonely call into every breeze. Ryth stood beneath the fall of crystal music, his
pollen-bright cape lifting on the wind, his mind totally caught by the
possibilities of the sarsa’s song. Kayle stopped several paces away, half-stunned by Malia’s
sensual assault. Just when he felt as though he must scream to break Malia’s
hold on himself and the Sharnn, Ryth turned toward him. “Do you recognize her?” said the Sharnn. “Her?” Kayle held his knuckles against his temples until
pain brought a sense of sanity. “Her?” “F’n’een.” Ryth’s eyes focused on Kayle with an intensity
that made Kayle step back. “The pattern of her mind,” said Ryth impatiently, as
though five words explained everything. And when he saw they did not, he spoke
quickly, words and thoughts tumbling. “In the sarsa’s notes. The music. Don’t
you hear? Her song, enigmatic and powerful, graceful and deadly swift and
sensual, yes, sensual beyond all knowing. And so alone.” Kayle listened to the Sharnn and to the wind-stirred
crystals and almost heard, but not quite, yet he ached with a grief that was
not his nor yet the Sharnn’s. “That can’t be F’n’een,” said Kayle hoarsely. “She was young
and her laughter leaped.” “Laughter is in her past and future—hear its echoes turning
and returning?—but her present is this song.” Kayle looked at the Sharnn with something close to fear.
“No. The song is not F’n’een.” “It’s not your memory. But it is F’n’een as she became, as
she is now. Magnificent.” Ryth turned in a swift movement that flared his cape,
scattering m’zamay’s potent dust. “I will show you.” Kayle followed Ryth and a winding path through night-vine
and scarlet drifts of fallen tere leaves. Crystal notes pursued, driven by a
fitful wind until Kayle wanted to run but could not because the Sharnn ahead
walked with consummate grace and ease, unburdened by memories of laughter. “Where are we going?” demanded Kayle finally, wondering if
he could find his way back through the maze of branching and coiling paths. And
wondering how the Sharnn had found his way at all. “Wherever the Sandoliki Ti’s pattern leads us.” “What pattern?” Kayle snapped, seeing more paths open out in
a way he could only describe as random. The Sharnn stopped and turned back toward Kayle.
“That pattern,” said Ryth, pointing toward a single zamay humming against the
polished strength of a black tere trunk. “Sensuality and power and separation.
The Sandoliki Ti’s signature.” Kayle looked and now saw the pattern repeated with
variations in composition but not in theme. Sometimes the signature was so
subtle that it was only after Ryth chose the path that Kayle recognized the
pattern. “How do people without Sharnn guides find their way to her?”
said Kayle dryly. “Malian aristocrats are trained in signature mazes. As for
the others—the maze isn’t large. Sooner or later, those who really want to will
find a way. Those who don’t,” Ryth’s hands spread and turned palm down, “must
have had needs that were less than compelling.” The path wound up a small hill, leading to a view of the
glinting crystal domes and arches that was C’Varial. In Malia’s pure light each
color was unique, flawless and the city was almost blindingly beautiful. It was
as though the maze’s designer made one final attempt to deflect people away
from the Sandoliki Ti by showing them the brilliant possibilities of C’Varial,
wrapped in all the colors of life. But the Sharnn barely paused. A sidelong glance was his only
acknowledgment of C’Varial’s siren call. “Wait ...” began Kayle. Ryth’s backward look was a compound of amusement and impatience. “You have no soul, Sharnn!” snapped Kayle, walking faster. Still smiling, Ryth turned away, but he could not help
looking again, stealing a second moment of C’Varial’s beauty. He would have
killed his Sharnn cape for the chance to sit forever on this small Malian hill,
savoring and solving C’Varial’s complex mysteries stated in patterns of clear
color that shifted with the sun. But all of Malia’s forevers were past, and he would need his
cape to survive the few Malian moments that remained. Silently, the Sharnn led Kayle to a landing area only large
enough for a few three-flyers. The machines were silver, devoid of any status
marks, and unlocked. With an assurance Kayle did not share, Ryth mounted a
flyer’s ramp. Kayle followed, his orange eyes sliding from side to side as
though searching for ambush. In silence, both men sat, fixed their crashnets
firmly, and waited. Within moments, the three-flyer quivered to life. It leaped
off the pad, climbing straight into Malia’s turquoise sky while the land below
fell away with staggering speed until everything ran together in a watercolor
blur that was yet another form of beauty. When the details of C’Varial were subsumed by height and the
larger geographical patterns of river and valley, lake and hills and the
distant portent of blue-black mountains, Ryth turned his attention to the
interior of the three-flyer. Kayle waited, watching, but finally he had to ask. “Are you sure that this will take us to the Sandoliki
woman?” “Yes.” “How long?” pressed Kayle, glancing down, far down, to a surface
that distance and speed had robbed of meaning. “I don’t know.” “Thank the Allgod,” muttered Kayle. “There’s something in
the galaxy that a Sharnn doesn’t know.” Ryth almost smiled, but too much of his mind was focused on
the rhythmic play of lights along the instrument panel. Their pattern was
direct, almost boring, but it was information and Malian, and he needed every
hint he could gather. The flyer bucked and sideslipped through unseen turbulence. “Could you fly this if you had to?” asked Kayle uneasily. “It’s programmed. But if I had to. Yes. The pattern is very
direct.” For a long time, both men were silent, caught up in their
own thoughts. After Malia’s overwhelming sensuality, the almost astringent interior
of the three-flyer was refreshing. Finally the flyer entered a steep slide that brought it down
very close to the land on the far side of the mountains. Simultaneously, the
flyer slowed, as though to provide its occupants with a detailed view of the
devastation beyond the blue-black mountains. Where they expected zamay and beauty, they saw a tenuous
brown haze creeping up from the land, rock particles harried by a nameless
wind. A ragged carpet of gold trees thinned into pale yellow, then became
sand-colored skeletons with leafless branches stabbing the wind. Soon even the
shorn trunks vanished and the land became a monotony of grey-brown stone and
shallow grey-brown rivers thick with grit. After tasting consuming sensuality, the land below was jarringly
ugly. It was obscene. It was Darg Vintra, Vintra’s Revenge, legacy of the brutal
Undeclared War between Vintra and Malia, colony and home world, daughter and
mother. Vintran death raiders had destroyed, utterly and finally, the vast
estates of the two strategists who had nearly brought Vintra to defeat. Tare
and Jomen Sandoliki had died defending their home against an overwhelming
force. An honorable death for the two generals, and an inevitable beginning for
a bitter darg vire. But Tare had borne only two children for Jomen and those
children were also ashes drifting in the wind. Formerly fertile and thick with life, the Sandoliki Estates
now were a monochrome wasteland cratered by old hatreds and furrowed by remorseless
winds. “If death had a face ...” murmured the Sharnn. “Yes, it would look like that.” Kayle’s voice was thin,
tight. His face wore bleak lines that matched the orange light in his eyes.
“You’re wrong about F’n’een. You won’t find her living in this desolation. She
loved green water and laughter. She would rather be dead. And is.” But the Sharnn said only, “Check your harness. we’ll be landing
soon.” Kayle peered out through the dusty canopy. “I don’t see anything
but bare rock.” “Nor do I, but the lights tell me that—wait. The bench
between mountains. The molecular fire passed over it. See? That blue-green
streak below with a scarlet center.” “There’s not much of it, is there?” “The Vintran raiders were thorough,” agreed Ryth as the
flyer lost altitude rapidly. The flyer circled the landing area twice, giving sliding glimpses
of ruined goldstone kels and abandoned gardens and one small wedge still intact,
shining with colors. The flyer dropped at the edge of the fertile area, in a
cleared spot marked by other landings. Kayle left his seat before the engine
was entirely silent. With open impatience, he swept down the silver ramp. Ryth followed more slowly, pausing on the ramp to taste the
odd, almost rusty flavor of the wind blowing off Darg Vintra. But he soon
forgot the wind, for the pad was surrounded by a circle of shattered crystal
monoliths in every tint and tone of turquoise. One monolith remained upright,
whole, carved in the image of a forgotten god with faceted eyes staring,
waiting for a future to sweep closed the circle and begin anew, renewing
rituals only the past could remember. A random wind surged, belling Kayle’s robes, revealing the intricate
design of Nendleti boots. Part of the curving motif was repeated by a deadly
double-edged knife strapped to Kayle’s calf. Ryth walked away from the ramp, felt the rust-tasting wind
tug at his cape. The air was neither warm nor cold, merely dry, terribly dry. “No,” said Kayle as Ryth approached. “Not F’n’een. Not
here.” The Sharnn made no reply. “She was so beautiful,” sighed Kayle. “A living beauty like
nothing I’d seen before or even imagined.” “She was a child. Two maturities have passed. Vintra and
Skemole have passed. Even the most beautiful children grow. And change.” Kayle’s orange eyes brooded over the horizon where nothing
lived, nothing moved but wind sifting the remains of dust enemies, old death. “My people are sometimes violent,” said Kayle slowly. “Many
Nendletis die for reasons few aliens ever comprehend. But never have we
destroyed our enemy’s land. Honor cringes from the thought. The soul cringes
from the deed.” His eyes closed. “How much hatred can one race hold?” “Darg vire,” murmured the Sharnn. “What?” “Darg vire. Death vendetta. And then the Ti Vire, the Great
Death, a seven-year vendetta waged by one woman against the entire race of Vintrans.
But she did not die.” Ryth walked slowly to a powdery path where wind snatched at
the dust puffing away from his feet. After a few seconds, Kayle followed. As
they walked, patches of faded blue grass appeared, then low cream-colored shrubs
whose lacy fronds were heavy with dust. Finally the path twisted through a tere
grove, just seventeen trees, all that had survived the molecular fire. Scarlet
leaves rustled overhead and the subtle scent and sound of water drifted on the
breeze. Kayle inhaled deeply, grateful for even this frail barrier against
devastation. “Think what it must have been,” said Ryth, low-voiced,
haunted by the memory of a dead god’s eyes. “Flawless air and tere groves
burning scarlet. Silver insects drifting like music over immense flower seas.” For an instant Kayle saw with Sharnn vision, then he blinked
and it was gone, leaving an anger that was as deep as it was unexpected.
Blindly, Kayle walked toward a tiny clearing where an artesian pool breathed
moisture into the sterile air. Sunlight spilled into the water, making the pool
incandescent with silver light, silver-green currents sliding through enigmatic
depths. With a shudder, Kayle threw off the last of his unbidden vision. “A good omen at last,” Kayle said, an echo of anger still in
his voice. “The pool is exactly like your eyes.” He glanced at Ryth and was
satisfied that the Sharnn did not understand. “No matter,” said Kayle softly.
“You’ll discover my symbols soon enough.” “And you’ll make it as difficult for me as you can,” said
Ryth, not adding that he understood Kayle’s anger because it was the echo of
his own. So much lost ... Kayle clapped his hands in sarcastic comment. “Already
you’re unraveling me. But how shall I unravel you?” “I’m as simple as that pool,” said Ryth softly. Kayle’s orange eyes raked over the Sharnn. Ryth felt a lash
of mindtouch before Kayle withdrew far more gently than he had come. “My error,” said Kayle. “I took your words as a slight to my
intelligence, and thereby missed your profound irony. Like a Malian, you understand
that the only true complexity is found in exquisite simplicity.” Kayle let the last
of his own anger slide away as he looked again at the deceptively transparent
pool. “I’m ready to see her now. Even,” he whispered, “if she is F’n’een.” They turned away from the slowly seething pool and followed
the path out of the grove, through waist-high shrubs hung with fading bronze
flowers and a vague scent of mint. Blue-black vines crawled over ruined walls,
choked old rooms and gardens, hissed over Ryth’s cape when the path narrowed.
Then the vines ended as though at an unspoken command. Beige rock walls rose
abruptly, topped by a dome that shone like a mirror. An arched gate, or
doorway, stood open. “Invitation,” asked Kayle, “or Malian insult?” “Think of it as a gesture of trust,” said Ryth, knowing as
he spoke it was a lie. “Or contempt. Is that possible, pattern-man?” asked Kayle
dryly. “Her dargs vire are legend.” “Then I’ll be wary rather than insulted.” Kayle sent a faint
thread of awareness seeking through the area. “Three,” murmured Kayle. “One psi.
Hers, I assume. Unusual aura ... incoherent to me, yet very powerful. Fascinating.
And,” sad triumph, “not F’n’een.” Kayle stepped through the open gate with a speed that belied
his chunky stature. He stood and listened intently, yet heard nothing more than
wind rearranging dead leaves in the shadow of the wall. Just ahead, a mosaic
walkway of carved stones wound among flowering plants and the murmurs of a tiny
stream. Small animals ghosted through trees and shadows. A bird, scarlet as the
leaves it lived among, called a liquid warning. “Malian?” said Kayle softly, listening to the pure song. “Everything here is Malian.” “Then she, like most Malians, so fears alien life that she refuses
to have any of it near her?” When his question brought no answer, Kayle’s glance flicked
briefly over the Sharnn, but Ryth seemed lost in the scarlet bird’s call. As
the last note faded, the inner garden’s silence took on the quality of an absolute.
With hushed steps, they followed the path, noting subtle changes as it
approached the boundary of the inner garden. The colors of the carved stones
merged into umber unity and took on the form of an oval. In the center of the
oval was a polished silver frame, taller than a man. Varying lengths of clear
native crystal hung motionless, suspended on fine silver wires. Crystal facets
silently split sunlight into all the colors of desire. “The Sandoliki sarsa,” breathed Kayle, approaching the instrument
reverently, not even glancing through a small arch that opened into the Sandoliki
Ti’s kel. Nor did Ryth spare the arch more than a glance before he
gave himself to the subtle patterns of crystal and light. “The sarsa is old, very old,” said Kayle’s voice, near Ryth
again. “The Sandoliki name is older than the stones we stand on,”
said Ryth absently. “Tell me how such beauty can be created by such destroyers?” “Most people believe it’s compensation.” “You aren’t most people, Sharnn.” Reluctantly, Ryth abandoned the fascination of the sarsa’s
changing patterns. “Sometimes,” he said slowly, “people who know death
intimately best appreciate the textures of life. Nendletis are justly famed for
their esthetic nuances, as well as for their ferocity. Malians are known for their
incomparable sensuality, as well as for their ruthless dargs vire. Paradox,”
murmured the Sharnn. “Always paradox. And irony.” Ryth turned and faced Kayle fully. The Sharnn cape whipped
as a sudden gust of wind stripped the last bright motes of m’zamay from the
cape’s peculiar folds. “Ti Kayle—” began Ryth softly. “‘Ti’, is it?” said Kayle. “And just what unpleasant bit of
information are you planning to oil by using the Malian honorific?” Ryth’s smile was a flash more sensed than seen. “Would you
prefer to be called sri?” The Nendleti snapped his fingers in a gesture of indifference/irritation/impatience. “You hate the people called Malians,” Ryth said softly. “You
have a full measure of Nendleti pride. You are a deadly fighter.” The Sharnn paused, clearly disliking what he felt compelled
to say. Kayle waited impassively, poised and curious and dangerous. “Unless your Carifil conditioning curbs your Nendleti temperament,
you’ll try to kill the Sandoliki Ti.” Kayle moved suddenly, a quick flowing step that made his
heavy purple robe lift on the wind. Again Ryth sensed uninvited mindtouch, but
this time Kayle was gentle. With a hiss that was pure Nendleti, Kayle withdrew,
no longer able to penetrate the Sharnn’s mind without hurting both of them. “Teach me, pattern-man,” demanded Kayle. “The Allgod knows
that you learn quickly enough!” Ryth ignored the reference to his now impenetrable mind and
said, “The Sandoliki will be conspicuously unarmed. Her robes will be so sheer
that you will have no way of comforting your pride with the idea that she is
wearing concealed weapons. To underline that fact, she will also wear empty
weapon holders. On Malia that is a deadly insult.” Kayle hissed a Nendleti phrase. “Is there more?” “Her servant will wear only one small knife.” “And you claim her insults should be ignored?” said Kayle incredulously.
“Teach me, pattern-man.” “Her actions are not aimed at offending you, sri y’Kayle Menta
Losu, Nendleti aristocrat. Her actions are a gesture of total contempt for the
armed Vintrans who seek her aid, and for the Malian ruler who permits living Vintrans
to walk this planet.” Kayle frowned and Ryth listened to wind-harried leaves and
waited for the Nendleti’s decision. Methodically, Kayle began stripping off his
weapons. “Do you approve, Sharnn? Not that it would affect me either
way. I won’t wear more weapons than a servant!” Kayle stacked his three knives in a large, deep wall niche
made by a missing stone. Wordlessly, Ryth removed his knife and his Sharnn cape
and placed both in the niche. Kayle studied the cape with new interest, realizing
that Ryth classed it as a weapon. But the Nendleti said nothing, not even when
Ryth slipped a thin silver m’sarsa from a loop on the sarsa frame and prepared
to touch an instrument that was sacred to Malians. Sunlight washed incandescent over the age-worn rod as the
Sharnn raised the m’sarsa to the suspended crystals. The rod touched a long
crystal and a deep, dear note sounded. Even as the crystal vibrated, Ryth
touched the m’sarsa to other crystals, creating a ripple of music that evoked
first a brook, then a tumbling stream, and finally a river, swift and potent,
seeking an unnamed sea. The song was both whole and unfulfilled an echo of a
cry for harmony that had first been heard near a hill overlooking C’Varial. While the last notes resonated into silence, Kayle spread
his hands in a gesture of respect. “You are a man of two gifts, sri Ryth.” “Pattern is the essence of music,” said Ryth softly, his
mind still savoring the perfection of the ancient Sandoliki sarsa. He replaced
the m’sarsa carefully, then stroked the frame and m’sarsa with his fingertips.
“A superb creation, superbly conceived.” “And superbly played.” Her voice was as low and resonant as sarsa crystal Ryth
turned slowly toward the gate where she had appeared. “I did not recognize your song,” she said as the wind
rippled through her head veils and fragile mesh clothing, “yet I came. The
sarsa has waited long for a man’s tempered touch.” Though the wind flared through her scarlet veils, the planes
of her face were never fully revealed. The lithe female lines of her body
showed clearly beneath the loose scarlet mesh, yet the effect lacked
invitation. “I am called Ryth,” he said, bowing in the Malian style with
hands clasped in front. “And my companion is called Kayle.” Without seeming to,
Ryth watched for a reaction to Kayle’s name. “What shall we call you?” “F’n’een,” said Kayle, before she could answer. Her head moved sharply and the veil leaped. For an instant
her pale eyes studied Kayle. Then the veil floated back in place as she turned
toward the Sharnn. “Do you also wish to call me that name?” “It is a graceful name.” “But it is not mine,” she said distinctly. “Call me Faen or
call me nothing at all!” “We regret offending you,” said Ryth, eyes narrowed, weighing
her anger. “We all take our names from the dead,” said Faen,
controlling her anger. “But that name offends you,” the Sharnn said, pressing
gently. “You are not Malians. Your ignorance cannot offend me. I
will teach you a single Malian custom—and then you will never say that name to
me again.” Faen moved closer with a speed and grace that was almost
shocking. In that instant both men remembered that she was famed for her
killing skills ... and that Sandoliki translated as “Deathbringer.” But she stopped well short of touching either Ryth or Kayle. “When you are mentally and emotionally and sensually tied
with a person,” she said slowly, spacing each word as though they were
children, “and you see that person die in violence and hatred, you never again
speak the dead person’s name.” “May I ask why?” said Ryth, voice low and eyes alive with an
intensity that was uniquely Sharnn. She turned to him, scarlet veils floating like firelight and
her eyes the color of ice. “The dead person’s shadow still lingers, for a time,
following those who saw its substance die, following and seeking true life. If
you call the name of a shadow, it steals some of your life.” Her silver eyes
closed, then opened again, opaque with something beyond Sharnn concept. “You
can die naming shadows.” The wind gusted, Lifting veils and dead leaves, shifting
robes and shadows with a dry rustling sound. The woman who was no longer called
F’n’een saw a look of anguish and rejection twist deep within Sharnn eyes and
heard him whisper what could have been a name, but he used the language of
Sharnn and she could not be certain if his words fed a shadow or a dream. “I was there when that child died,” said Faen in measured
tones of certainty. *She is F’n’een,* insisted Kayle inside Ryth’s seething
mind. *The aura may be a stranger’s, but the hands, the eyes, the voice.
F’n’een.* *Did she recognize you?* *Yes.* “My companion meant no offense,” said Ryth in a thin voice.
“He once loved a beautiful child called—her loss is an emptiness in him.” “Accepted,” she snapped. “But you did not come to Malia to
discuss death and the naming of shadows.” Then she sensed his anguish and flinched in the instant
before she controlled herself. Kayle, too, sensed Sharnn pain, and knew no more
than she what was its source. “We are seekers, Ti Faen,” said Kayle into the uneasy
silence. “I am considering a ... partnership ... with another person. I would
like to know if this person can be trusted. Can you help me?” Faen’s pale eyes did not leave Ryth’s handsome, closed face,
but she answered as though she spoke only to Kayle. “Normally, I have a time
and a h’kel for such—but he played the sarsa like a Sandoliki reborn.” She
stepped back with the swift grace that was still surprising, would always be
surprising, and looked at Kayle for the first time since he had called her
shadow. “Do you have some object that the person wore or held
often?” Kayle reached into a fold of his robe and withdrew a worn
leather sheath. An equally worn, beautifully crafted knife handle gleamed above
the leather. Kayle had not been able to touch the Sharnn cape, but the Sharnn
knife held no awe for him. The bright flash of metal brought stillness back to the
depths of Ryth’s eyes. Kayle wanted to ask what pattern had so hurt a Sharnn,
but before he could form the words, Ryth spoke in his mind with an ironic
amusement that made Kayle ache. *You would have made a galactic class thief, Ti Kayle. Did
you steal my knife while I touched the sarsa?* Kayle’s only answer was a silent rush of compassion, a beginning
of affection unfolding, for he had seen the Sharnn hurt and knew he was vulnerable.
Human. Faen hesitated before she touched the sheath with a single
fingertip. A small sound of surprise escaped her, and her slim fingers curled
around the sheath. When her eyes opened, they were focused on an infinity few
people ever saw. “Male. Unique. Enormously alive. Whatever he touches will
hold his energy, radiant warmth like a vast sun.” She closed her eyes and
breathed deeply. “He can be trusted with your weapons, your honor, your life,
your dreams. But do not betray him. He is relentless.” At an expert movement of
her wrist, the knife flicked out of its sheath. Her fingers felt the blade as
delicately as a sigh. “This knife has not enjoyed death, but has accomplished
it more than once.” She stood very still, eyes open yet impenetrable, fingertips
poised on the honed edge while the wind stirred her scarlet veils. Then the
knife whispered back into its sheath and her eyes focused on Kayle. “Does that help you?” “Yes ...” “But you wish more?” “Do you know more?” Her hand reached out to the m’sarsa Ryth had used. As she
touched it her lips curved in an unconscious smile of pleasure. “Should I tell him?” she asked Ryth. “He believes it is necessary,” said the Sharnn neutrally. “And what do you believer?” “I believe our ... partnership ... is necessary.” Faen stood for a long moment with her eyes half-closed, fingertips
caressing the silver m’sarsa, listening to the dry wind. “You have a primal, savage energy,” she said, her voice an
echo of music he had never heard, yet always known. “But that energy is
controlled by a powerful mind. You are intensely private. Alone. Like a spring
murmuring only to itself, yet bringing life to those who can find and drink
from its deep waters.” Her fingers slid away from the m’sarsa, lingered over
the supple leather sheath. *There are so few things I can touch with pleasure.* Her lips had moved, but Ryth knew he had heard her more in
his mind than in speech. “Keep the knife.” Her face showed surprise, then anger that she had revealed
anything to him of herself. “You don’t know what you say,” she said harshly. Then she
turned toward Kayle and her voice changed once again to music. “Does that
answer your needs?” “My questions, yes. My needs are more clamorous than before.
Why do you hide from me, F’n’een?” Ryth moved to stop Kayle with a fierce speed that was like
Faen’s. Then the Sharnn realized it was too late; if Faen wanted to kill Kayle,
she had her excuse. Faen stood with electric tension. Then her hand moved in a
blur that swept off her veils. “A child loved you once,” she said, her voice strained. “But
do not trade upon that again.” Her eyes searched his face. “Look carefully. Do
you see the child whose shadow you called?” Kayle studied her face in silence. She stood under his scrutiny
with no more self-consciousness than a statue. Her face had a perfection that
was chilling, and her eyes were like ice caves, silver and turquoise and
shadows and numbing cold. “I hear her voice,” said Kayle finally, avoiding the name
that enraged her. “I see her hands. The color of her eyes has not changed.” Kayle’s words hung in the stillness. “The child you remember is dead,” she said quietly. “And only the Sandoliki woman survives?” asked Ryth. “A
woman called Faen?” The Sharnn’s questions were a subtle challenge that she ignored. “I regret Kayle’s memories, but I can’t assuage them,” she
said. “The child he loved is dead.” “How did she die?” pressed Kayle. “Was it on Skemole, or on
Malia, after the Undeclared War?” “Does it matter enough to rake over old fires—and burn your
fingers on hidden coals?” “The child doesn’t matter,” said Ryth roughly. “The woman
Faen is crucial to Malia’s future.” She stared at him while silence stretched into danger, then
her hand slipped up to the m’sarsa he had touched and danger thinned to
invisibility. “Come,” she said simply, turning away from both of them. The scarlet mesh rippled around her legs, slid off smooth
curves of flesh and empty leather sheaths bound to her thigh and ankle. The two
men followed her into the huge impersonal mirror dome and up a winding black
metal ramp. At the top, a large room commanded a circular vista of devastation.
Kayle swore very softly at the naked ugliness of the land. After a glance, Ryth ignored the view and concentrated on
learning all he could from the contents of the room. No clear pattern emerged.
Searching for one was like trying to hold a heavy, oiled ball on his fingertip;
each time he sensed balance forming, the reality of it slid away from his
touch. “You wear the scarlet clothes of a Malian bride,” said Ryth,
as he sat cross-legged on a cushion. “Who is the woman Faen bound to?” “I am the last Sandoliki. When I die, there will be no one
to call my soul on the ancient sarsa.” Her perfect lips framed a cold smile and
her pale eyes searched Darg Vintra. “I am bound to the nameless wind that blows
over the face of death.” She looked into Kayle’s orange eyes. “And I was once a
child you loved. But that does not ease your grief, Kayle. The one you loved is
truly dead.” “But the woman Faen lives,” said Kayle carefully. “And
hides.” Faen looked again at the wasteland outside the room. “Yes, I
live, as Darg Vintra lives. Do I hide?” Her hands went out to the curving
window where the fallen sun turned stone to blood. “No. No more than the ruined
land hides. We are both known, both avoided. Justly so. No one seeks reminders
of defeat.” She laughed. “How they hate me as they sweat their fear and ask my
help. They taste Darg Vintra’s bitter wind and know their own impotence. They
remember my dargs vire and know themselves for bloodless cowards.” Ryth felt his skin stirring as silence sifted through the
room. The force of her hatred for Vintrans was as palpable as stone. “What do you live for?” said the Sharnn finally, his eyes
searching hers for the pattern he had not yet found. “An honorable death,” said Kayle’s husky voice. “She is the
last Sandoliki.” Faen faced Kayle and bowed in the Malian style. “Yes, Ti Kayle.
An honorable death for the last Sandoliki.” *Do you still think she can help you find whatever you lost?*
Kayle’s thought was a mixture of anger and sorrow. *Yes. And in helping me, she might save her own people.* *How?* *The pattern is still beginning,* returned Ryth, his Sharnn
eyes half-open. Ryth rose with a fluid motion that echoed her grace. He
stood behind her, watching the red-gold light glow on her skin, listening to
the slow beat of her breaths. So great was her confidence in her lethal skills
that she made no move to change her seemingly vulnerable position. “What are your pleasures, Faen?” asked the Sharnn, his voice
as muted as the falling light. “This is one. Evening is kind to Darg Vintra. That long
shadow could be a tere forest breathing strength into the twilight, and the
river could be sweet and green again.” Scarlet mesh whispered over the smooth muscles of her back
as she half-turned toward him, revealing a profile as delicately curved as
zamay petals. “Another pleasure is touching a life force like yours—bright
and rich and fiercely burning, yet not painful to me. Not painful.” “I would be complimented, but you enjoy my ... energy ... as
impersonally as you enjoy the evening light.” She looked at him, a flash of clear silver in her slanted
eyes. Then she faced away from him for long moments while brooding red-brown
light flowed through the room. “Sometimes,” she said quietly, “I touch the sarsa skillfully
and live again in a land not ruined, laugh with people not dead. “Even the Great Destroyer’s gift sometimes brings me pleasure.
I have lost so much,” she continued calmly, “that it pleases me to find what
others cannot. I have found their living children and their lovers. Triumphs as
sweet as my garden spring. “And I’ve found their dead. Too often. Always the dead and
the rusty wind shifting shadows.” Ryth watched evening sliding over the clean lines of her face,
softening lips that had been full before they were narrowed by death. “You’re a prisoner,” he said, unspoken emotion tightening
his voice. When she turned toward him, scarlet mesh flared around her
as though angry at his body so close to hers. “Am I?” “Can you walk with us through that garden without someone
warning Lekel the moment we step into the flyer?” “So you know of Lekel, too,” she murmured. “Have you any way of crossing Darg Vintra alone?” “No. Nor do I want to go out among people. I am here. It is
enough.” “A prisoner’s contentment.” “Believe what comforts you,” she said coldly. “Then what I was afraid of is true,” whispered Ryth, a
Sharnn’s sadness lining his full ups. “You can’t touch without agony, because
your gift touches the timeshadow of minds and so few minds fit without tearing
pain ....” Kayle stared first at the Sharnn, then at the woman whose
childhood he had loved. “Is that true?” he asked her hoarsely. “Are you, a
Malian, unable to touch without pain?” “Yes,” she said, voice torn between defiance and pain. “Yes!
That, as much as Lekel’s jealousy, keeps me here, alone.” “But why haven’t you killed Lekel?” said Kayle. “Then at
least you would have the comforts of power.” Faen smiled but there was no laughter in the line of her
lips. “Lekel is a skavern, but there are worse to take his place.” “She doesn’t want to rule Malia,” said the Sharnn before
Kayle could speak “You understand much, Ti Ryth,” she said. “Tell me why I
don’t want to rule.” Ryth hesitated, wondering at the limits to her pride.
“Because you don’t trust yourself, Ti Faen.” “Ryth—” began Kayle, warning. “Because,” said the Sharnn relentlessly, “there is still
enough hatred in you that you would enjoy having Vintra beneath your blade.
Because you know that the only way to defeat Vintra would be a devastating
surprise attack. Undeclared war. And if that happened, the Concord would reduce
Malia to smoking slag. A dishonorable death for your people. Ultimate victory
for your enemy. “So you avoid the temptations of power and recall the past
with crystal music and wait for an honorable death,” Ryth watched Faen intently as the silence stretched between
them. He was prepared to defend himself if he must, but hoped that time and
death had given her control over her Malian reflexes. “You understand too much. And not enough.” Faen turned toward the darkness welling out of Darg Vintra’s
seamed face. Then, with incredible speed, she spun and her hand locked around
his wrist, numbing. His other hand shot out and curled around her throat, but before
his fingers tightened he saw that her face was relaxed, and so beautiful that
it made him ache. *She’s not trying to kill you!* Kayle’s silent warning came to Ryth at the same instant his
fingers loosened and caressed her throat where they could have crushed it. “Not trying to kill you,” she murmured, silver eyes closed,
smiling beneath his touch. When he realized that she had caught Kayle’s carefully directed
mindspeech, Ryth closed his mind with a finality that amazed the Nendleti. “Yes,” whispered Faen, speaking as Ryth’s thoughts formed,
“I am as dangerous as I am beautiful.” And the Sharnn understood that he had no barriers against
her; she had repeated his thoughts as he looked at her, smiling and deadly. A
surge of revulsion swept through him, a primal sense of violation. With an
inarticulate cry she snatched her fingers from his wrist They faced each other,
equally controlled, equally dangerous. “My regrets, Ti Ryth,” she said tightly. “I believed it was
necessary.” “Accepted, Ti Faen. Did you find what you sought?” Emotions crossed her face too swiftly for even a Sharnn to
read, and, when she spoke, her voice was resonant with grief and anger. “Just what have you lost, Sharnn? What is the anguish dimming
the core of your radiance? Is it the shadow you are afraid to name even in the
safety of your mind?” “I don’t know the name of whatever I lost,” Ryth said, voice
divided between anger and unease. “Perhaps it had no name at all.” “All shadows have names,” she said. “Learn your shadow’s
name, Sharnn, or you will call it, unknowing, again and yet again until it becomes
half-alive and you half-dead, for a shadow’s strength is a terrible thing. “I know,” she said, leaning so close that he tasted her
breath. “I know because I have been driven to naming shadows, touching them
half-alive and me half-dead but still touching because I must. Touch.” Ryth knew there was a pattern in her words, a pattern that
would show him what he had lost, but he was too close and the pattern slid into
darkness as she shivered and her eyes changed, pale turquoise in the dying
light. Faen stepped back soundlessly. “There was one name in your
mind,” she said, voice calm, as though she had never spoken of shadows. “No
fear tainted that name. Curiosity/affection/respect. Carifil.” At Kayle’s involuntary breath, she smiled and faced him. “As I guessed. A secret.” “Neither secret nor often known,” said Kayle carefully. “I wait,” she said, her voice cool, “to find out how a
Sharnn discovered me, who the Carifil are, and how my finding whatever a Sharnn
lost—if he lost anything—could affect the future of my people.” Kayle smiled to himself, for he was learning more about Ryth
with each breath he drew on Malia. “Tell her, Sharnn,” he urged. “If you can.” Faen waited and watched the Sharnn’s changing eyes. “The Carifil,” Ryth said finally, “are a group of unusually
skilled people whose work and pleasure is solving Concord problems.” “Group? Who rules them?” “No one.” “Unlikely.” “But true,” said the Sharnn curtly. “What planet do they belong to?” “None.” Faen’s fingers moved as though she were tempted to test the
truth of Ryth’s words by touch. Instead, she brushed a raised area along the
low wall. A hidden relay closed and the room glowed with warm light. She moved
slowly, perfectly, conscious of his silver-green eyes. She turned toward him,
smooth and graceful as a tall zamay, asking. “Teach me.” Ryth felt her sensual grace like a blow, but a Sharnn is
nothing if not controlled. His expression did not change while he explained to
her. “Carifil loyalty is to the idea of Concord, but they hold no
formal position in the Concord hierarchy.” “What kind of problems do they solve?” she asked, her voice
an echo of tall flowers singing, asking. “All kinds of problems. Whatever fits individual skills.” “Example.” And he had none to give, for even a Sharnn’s control is not
infinite. “The Singers,” said Kayle into the electric silence. “Their
problem was one that should interest a Malian.” Neither Ryth nor Faen looked at Kayle. “You know of the Singers?” pressed Kayle. She turned toward him. “Rumor. Myth.” Her hand moved in an
ambivalent gesture. “None of it comforting.” “They sang on many planets,” Kayle said, his voice husky and
his eyes alert. “Many people died. The Singers who had sung vanished. The
problem was to discover whether the Singers had planned the deaths and thereby
broken the Sole Restraint.” “Undeclared War,” said Faen, low-voiced, waiting. “Yes. The Concord made little progress. The few available
facts conflicted. Many Carifil worked on the Singer enigma. The time of primary
proscription was nearly gone. Because there were so many bizarre, even
frightening aspects to the Singers, the Concord Council voted extinction for
the Singers. Thus, if the enigma were not resolved before the proscription
expired, a possibly innocent, certainly unique race would die in the ashes of
their once-beautiful planet.” “Grotesque,” said Faen, and her hands moved restively across
the cool mesh of her garment. “War is an honorable way to test—” “I’m not here to debate cultural mores,” said Kayle coldly.
“The Concord neither forbids nor encourages war among mutually eager enemies; the
Concord’s only request is that off-planet personnel have an opportunity to
leave before the killing begins.” Faen’s eyes gleamed like ice in the tanned planes of her
face. “You were telling me about the Singers.” Kayle shifted his weight and the many textures of his heavy
robe caught and held light. “There is little left to tell. Carifil unraveled
much of the enigma, but it was the Singers who resolved it ... in a way we
still don’t fully understand.” His keen orange eyes probed Ryth. “Someday, pattern-man,
I’d like to have you work on that. But now we have more urgent knives to hone.”
Kayle clapped his hands together once, softly. “The truth is this, Faen.
Carifil prevented the Concord from destroying what it did not understand.” “And you are a Carifil.” “Yes.” “What is your special talent?” “Communications,” said Kayle blandly. “And you?” asked Faen, facing toward Ryth again. “I am not Carifil.” “Brevity,” said Kayle, “but little information.” He leaned toward
Faen. “Patterns. He found you by the patterns your gift made.” Faen murmured something too low for them to hear. Then, more
clearly, “I dislike being read like a black signature on white matrix.” The Sharnn smiled without warmth. “So do I. But I know less
about your pattern than you know about mine. I don’t know whether you’ll agree
to help the Carifil understand Malia and Malians. Nor if you will help me find
something that has no name, something that could prevent the extinction of your
own people.” Faen was too shocked by the word “extinction” to respond.
Kayle was also shocked, but not by the impending death of a race. “How,” demanded Kayle, “could a Sharnn have lost Malia’s
innocence? For Malia is guilty of destroying Vintra—Malia has twice broken the
Sole Restraint. Make no mistake about that, Sharnn. Malia is guilty!” “Is that a Nendleti or a Carifil talking?” asked Ryth, his
voice lazy and his eyes hard. Faen looked from one to the other and remembered the pleasure
and pain she had touched in Ryth, a Sharnn’s compelling presence. Her hand
stretched out, palm up. “I would ask this of Kayle if I could,” she said slowly.
“But probably the process would be so destructive to me that I would gain no
information.” She looked at Kayle with regret shadowing her silver eyes. “No
offense intended, Ti Kayle. It is an impersonal fact.” “Like sunset light,” Kayle said. “I’m not offended. I regret
that anyone should have to shrink from simple touch. Especially a Malian.” Faen’s face twisted, then became expressionless as she
turned to Ryth. “Touch me when you answer my question. Does anything in the
Carifil pattern suggest that they prefer any planet or race above any other?” It was an easy question, one Ryth had answered for himself.
Yet the thought of touching her brought warring emotions that he could not—did
not want to—name. But he touched her, palm warm over her warmth. “No.” “You have my respect, Ti Ryth,” she whispered, letting her
palm slide away from his. “Touching me is repellent to you—” and when he moved
as though to disagree she stepped back and her voice was weary. “No. No polite
words of galactic Courtesy. Touching me gives you a feeling of violation.
Disgust. Yet you went against your deepest personal prejudice and touched me because
you believed it was necessary. “You must need me very badly.” “As does Malia,” said Ryth, his voice controlled, uninflected. “Malia could survive even primary proscription,” said Faen indifferently.
“Except for shortened lives, Malians won’t even notice the absence of Concord.”
Her words were arrogant. And true. Kayle muttered about pride and bravado, and
the Sharnn pointed out another possibility. “What if the Concord decides to annihilate Malians?” Ryth
said softly. “And you know they will, Sandoliki Ti. You know but refuse to know
that Malians will die among the ashes of their once-beautiful planet.” “We have not earned such a death.” “Some believe you have. Ask Kayle.” “No one who knows Malians could believe that,” Faen
insisted, pride and scorn and the beginning of horror in her voice. “But no one knows Malians,” said the Sharnn, eyes and body
compelling her attention. “Teach us, Sandoliki Ti Faen. Find the essence of
your people for us.” “How?” she whispered. “No one not born and grown Malian can
know our thousand moments, our essential soul.” “I’m not sure how,” said Ryth, a difficult truth for a
Sharnn. “But I’m sure there is a pattern. I have conceived of it. What I ask is
possible, given time. But Malia has no time. You must come with us, Faen.” “Leave Malia?” Her eyes searched the planes of his face for
clues to the urgency that radiated from him, touching her though she did not
touch him, “Do you mean that primary proscription will be enforced, all Accesses
shut down?” “Yes.” “When?” “Too soon. No more than seven Malian days. Then it will be
too late, for all Malian Accesses will be shut down.” Her face closed beyond even a Sharnn’s reading. Silence grew
in the room until Kayle felt it choking him, but neither Faen nor Ryth moved so
he did not move, merely waited until she turned away, scarlet mesh clashing
softly. “You’ll have my answer in the morning,” she said, and the
mesh whispered across the floor. “Unless you’re afraid to wait that long?” She walked off without waiting for their answer. Wordlessly,
Kayle and Ryth followed the slow swinging of her scarlet mesh down the long
stairway, through a wide curving hallway and into a circular h’kel. Compared to
the h’kel they had just left, this suite was heavy with luxury. Finely wrought
furniture and ancient tapestries, a miniature sarsa, delicate silver sculptures
and two large beds burnished by age and care. Tiny metal tracks shone in the
wood floor; at a touch partitions would slide out to provide privacy according
to individual desires. When Ryth turned to speak to Faen she was gone. “I want to touch those tapestries,” said Kayle wistfully,
“but I don’t want to ruin them for her pleasure.” “Touch anything you want in this room,” said the Sharnn, admiring
the ancient bed-frame with his fingertips. “She never uses this room or touches
anything in it.” “Are you sure?” said Kayle, hand outstretched to a vivid
tapestry. “Would you walk willingly into a room where clashing colors
crawled off the walls and iron drums were beaten by madmen and gutted animals
littered the floor?” Kayle shuddered, his Nendleti esthetics outraged. “That’s how this room must be to her. Too many people have
lived and died among the furnishings. The dome, and everything in it, is
machine-made, new. Untouched.” “Ahhhh, Faen,” sighed Kayle. “No wonder you believe your
gift is from the Great Destroyer.” He stroked the supple tapestry, a cool
textured delight to his sensitive fingertips. “Malian objects are made as much
to please the touch as the eyes. Magnificent.” He lifted his hand at a sudden
thought. “But then why does she receive visitors in her untouched h’kel?” Ryth tapped the miniature sarsa gently. A single high note,
pure and haunting, hung in the stillness. He listened raptly, then replaced the
tiny m’sarsa in its loop. “She doesn’t. Usually.” “Usually? Oh, your ... energy.” Kayle released the fold of
tapestry and it sighed into place. “You should be honored.” “Is the sarsa honored when we touch it?” “A question to tease even a Sharnn.” Ryth spun toward Kayle, but the Nendleti’s orange eyes held
compassion rather than mockery. “My error,” sighed the Sharnn. “There is something unsettling—if
I had pursued her, invited her pleasure, then I would enjoy it too. But is it
pleasure Faen feels when she touches me? Or merely relief at a lack of painful
stimulus? Or—” He made a sound of frustration. “I’m far better with group
patterns than individual ones. Especially hers.” Kayle stroked the tapestry lightly, letting the subtly
shifting textures feed his fingertips. “Will she come with us?” Ryth looked broodingly at the tiny sarsa. “The scarlet
dress. No, I’m afraid she won’t.” Kayle hissed and shifted to the privacy of mindspeech. *Then
I must force her.* *Without insult, Ti Kayle, I give you less than even odds of
taking her alive.* *If you help me?* *Three in five she lives. She is too quick, Kayle. I’ve never
seen reflexes to match hers.* *Have you looked in a mirror? No, I won’t argue. I’ll just
use less than honorable means.* *And make a deadly enemy of her.* *I have many enemies. If any of her Contact training survives,
she might come without hatred.* Ryth waited, sensing indecipherable fragments of
thought/memory beneath the surface of Kayle’s mind-speech. *There is a word,* continued Kayle, *a mental override implanted
in all Contact trainees. Only the Contact leader knows each trainee’s word. After
their first mission is complete, the trainees are integrated. At the end of successful
integration, the word is removed.* *You know her word.* *I was leader of the Skemole Contact team until an accident,*
Kayle lifted his sleeve to show the long knife scar, *prevented me from leaving
with them.* Kayle smiled reminiscently. *Even as a child, Faen’s reflexes were
superb.* *Are you enemies now?* Kayle’s soundless laughter rang in Ryth’s mind. *Not at all. The wound sealed our friendship as equals.
Knife friends, as they say on Malia.* Kayle let his sleeve fall into place. *Two
maturities is a long time. I hope her training holds.* *So do I. I’d hate to provide the honorable death she seeks.* When they were asleep, she slipped out to the garden where
the sarsa waited, moonlight gleaming over each facet until it seemed that
crystal woke and breathed, beckoning. She lifted the m’sarsa a Sharnn had held
and her lips moved in what could have been pleasure or pain or a feeling so
intense it transcended either. And light rippled off crystal, waiting. Murmuring wordlessly, she replaced his m’sarsa and took two
others from leather loops. She held the thin silver rods high over her head,
offering them to the three soaring moons, receiving their benediction, triple
light incandescent in her hands. She brought the m’sarsas down, touching
crystal in a torrent of notes that released shapes of light called by ancient
songs, timeshadows of former minds recalled by crystal music. Just beyond, in the small tere grove heavy with silence and
time, a shadow watched, waiting to be named, concealed among shadows that were
no more than simple shapes pressed out of tere trees. She did not sense hatred waiting, for she lived again in a
land not ruined, touched again a man not dead, crystal music soaring. In a room heavy with tapestries and time, a Sharnn turned
restlessly, dreaming of light twisted into half-life, timeshadows of minds condensing,
turning and returning with each perfect crystal note. His half-moaned protest
rose no further than his lips, for crystal music pulsed in consuming moment and
slid into half-fulfilled silence. He slept again, dreaming only Sharnn dreams. While she sank exhausted onto worn stones. And a shadow wept. IIFaen found them in the garden, standing near the sarsa in
the pearl light of early morning. The scarlet metal mesh of her long dress was
very fine, hardly more revealing than loosely woven cloth; the metal was the
color of new tere leaves, the color of new blood. Though her expression was
remote, her silver eyes were aware of every nuance of their bodies. “I owe you pleasure,” said Kayle formally. “Never have I
slept in such magnificence.” “Nendlet,” said Faen, “has one of the few cultures in the Concord
capable of appreciating the tactile complexities of Sandoliki Lere’s tapestries.” “An artistry your own gift precludes you from enjoying,”
said Kayle sadly. Faen made no response. Her eyes flicked over the garden,
paused at the base of a huge tere tree, and settled on the sliding colored
shadows thrown out of the sarsa. “I can’t leave Malia,” she said abruptly. “Why?” asked Ryth. “I am the last Sandoliki.” She looked at Ryth for a long moment,
then her eyes slid back to the prismatic sarsa shadows. “My duty is here.” “Your duty?” countered the Sharnn. “Or your desire to die?” Faen’s lips drew back very slightly, hinting at her perfect,
hard teeth without revealing them. “Malians do not hide from death. Sandolikis
do not hide from dying. Neither do we leave Malia.” “Not even to save your people?” said Ryth, then saw her eyes
change as her lips had and he bowed smoothly. “Your pleasure, Ti Faen. I was
slow to appreciate the depth of your needs.” “My—needs!” “Your needs,” repeated Ryth in the even tones of
agreement. “Sentience has needs. We need you. You need the sarsa. The sarsa
needs nothing, for it is not alive.” Faen gestured graceful agreement, but he sensed sliding laughter
as dream fragments turned and returned in white light, telling him something he
could not or would not grasp. Kayle spoke one word, hissing syllables peculiar to the language
of Nendlet. Faen’s body went rigid. Her eyes deepened into pale pools of cold
turquoise light. “Why would you refuse me the honor of combat?” she said
tonelessly. “You fight too well, daughter.” “Is your life so precious to you?” “Your life is,” said the Sharnn, cutting across Kayle’s
gentleness. “You are no use to me dead. You—” Faen’s servant appeared beneath the arch. He walked over toward
them, ignoring the sudden silence. Faen made no move to acknowledge him. *Did he hear?* asked Kayle. *Probably.* A man stopped a few feet from Faen. “Ti Memned calls, Sandoliki Ti.” He backed away several steps, turned and vanished with the
same muscular ease that had marked his arrival. *That one is a fighter,* mused Kayle. *And the other one is either cook or poisoner,* agreed Ryth. *Probably both. Hungry?* Kayle’s ironic laughter was heard only in Ryth’s mind—as was
the seductive rustle of scarlet mesh rubbing over itself and Faen’s smooth
flesh as she walked away from them. “Who is Ti Memned?” asked Ryth when Faen was no longer in
sight. “Lekel’s first mate.” “Faen’s friend? Equal? Enemy?” “Enemy. Faen has no equals. Lekel took Memned only after
Faen refused him publicly.” “People have died for less overt insults,” said Ryth.
“Second choices are usually unhappy ones.” “According to rumor, Memned’s father was Vintran and her
mother was a traitor.” “Proof?” demanded the Sharnn, urgency coiled in his abrupt
question. “None. The people who passed the rumor died under Lekel’s
knife,” said Kayle. “And Memned’s, of course. Only Faen escaped, and she is the
last true Sandoliki.” The Sharnn stood motionless, turning over each new fact in
his mind, looking for patterns, or even possibilities. The stillness was
disturbed by the thin whine of a flyer landing. Ryth made a sudden gesture of
completion as the outline of a pattern condensed in his mind. “I’ll bet that Faen is about to receive more servants or
official visitors,” said Ryth softly. “When we stayed last night and made no
move to leave this morning, Lekel must have become nervous.” “We have until sunset—one full Malian day. But I’d be a fool
to wager against you, Sharnn.” Kayle sighed. “I’ll need quiet for a time. The
Carifil should know what we know, just in case.” Ryth smiled wryly but said nothing. “I’ll be in our room,” murmured Kayle, turning away. Then he
stopped, as though remembering something. “Have you ever participated in a
group mesh?” “Not even a simple group link.” “Is it tabu on Sharnn?” “Only one thing is tabu on Sharnn.” “Oh?” Ryth smiled like a Sharnn. And said nothing. The Sharnn’s smile faded as he faced the sarsa. A scarlet
bird’s warning rang through the silence, but no answering call came. A second
searching call ended in trilling unease. Ryth noted the calls absently while he
stood before the changing, changeless crystals, absorbed in the play of light
and color and motionless crystal facets, elusive patterns and promises, uneasy
ripples of color, running together, running, warning— The Sharnn threw his body aside with flashing speed, turning
a death-blow into a thin line of red across his shoulder. His hand swept back,
twisted suddenly. He heard the sound of wristbones snapping. A high scream tore
the attacker’s throat as Ryth spun to face a man in Malian dress. Ryth bent and
caught the assassin’s ankle. The man kicked with his free foot, driving rigid
toes toward Ryth’s throat. But the Sharnn’s arm flicked sideways, the Malian’s
knee snapped and the lethal kick found only air as the man sprawled on stone. “I’ll kill you if I must,” said Ryth in Malian. The man’s good hand clawed out, but pain made him
over-eager. Ryth’s hard fingers twisted across the flailing arm. The result was
a swelling wrist for the Malian; both men knew Ryth could as easily have broken
the arm. Ryth watched as the Malian tried to gather himself for
another attempt. Then the man’s body relaxed subtly, and triumph flashed in his
eyes as he looked over Ryth’s shoulder. Ryth threw himself down and to one
side, at the same time pulling the injured man after him as a shield. Metal
screeched as two star-shaped weapons ground lethal points across the stone
courtyard. A third m’vire buried itself in the first assailant’s back. The man
gasped and went slack. Ryth’s eyes searched the grove where his mind told him two
people waited, but he saw nothing. He gauged the distance to a nearby stone
bench, threw off the assassin’s body, and rolled toward the shelter of the
solid stone. A m’vire hummed past his shoulder, slicing fabric as easily as it
sliced air. Ryth neither saw nor heard movement, yet a fifth m’vire
flashed in a long, low curve designed to take it behind the bench. The curve
was too shallow, but the meaning was clear; if Ryth moved away from the bench a
m’vire would find him. And he was certain that one of the assassins was
circling behind while the other kept him pinned down. The Sharnn waited. Soon the person approaching would be
within range of the other’s m’vire. Ryth knew that he had to move in the
instant before the person circling around was able to see him. Without giving
an outward sign, Ryth gathered his body, then he sprang from behind the bench
like a man diving into water. At the last instant he curled his body and rolled
into a shoulder-high growth of shrubs and nightvines. He did not stop rolling
until there was a wall of plants between him and the attackers. He listened for
the space of two breaths, then soundlessly pulled himself along on his stomach
until he was deep into the nightvine tangle, where bell-shaped flowers were
half-open in the gloom and their creamy fragrance drenched his body. He heard the hissing whispers of the two who searched for
him. With exquisite care he gathered himself into a crouch and waited for the
closer person to come within reach, A woman, knife ready, pushed slowly through
the tough vines. The instant that she was hidden from her partner, the Sharnn
brought her down with a single well-placed blow. He silently eased her body
into the vines, then just as silently slipped through the vegetation, pausing
only to listen for the remaining attacker. A m’vire slashed through the vines, then, nearly spent, dug
into Ryth’s thigh. Even as his mind retraced the m’vire’s trajectory, his hand
reached, pulled the weapon free and sent it spinning back to its source. A
startled grunt of pain broke the silence. Before the assassin could recover,
Ryth was too close for a m’vire to be effective. The man cursed and unsheathed a long, heavy knife. With his
first lunge, the attacker proved that he was not as skilled with the knife as
he was with the m’vire. Ryth’s fingers locked around the knife wrist and
yanked. At the same instant the Sharnn’s heel smashed across the man’s knee. Between
one breath and the next, Ryth’s assailant was helpless. The man crumpled into
unconsciousness. Ryth slipped back into the cover of the black vines,
listening with mind and body. When he sensed no further attackers, he relaxed
with a long sigh. And thought of Kayle. *Danger!* *Kayle’s answer was a silent chuckle, *Danger? In a lone, lamentably
inept assassin?* *There are three in the garden,* returned Ryth tiredly. *And
none of them lamentably inept.* *Am I permitted to play?* *I doubt if they feel like playing any more.* *Greedy of you.* Ryth laughed aloud, a startling sound in the hushed garden. *If
they object to being questioned, I’ll turn them over to you,* he promised. *Then you didn’t kill all of them? Excellent! I was sloppy
with mine,* added Kayle, a tangible sense of regret in his thought. *Don’t
start without me.* *Bloodthirsty Nendleti,* muttered Ryth to himself, divided between
amusement and respect. *Thank you,* returned Kayle serenely. Hastily, Ryth opaqued his thoughts. Ryth pushed through the fragrant vine flowers to the area
where the third assassin lay. He prodded the man in a particularly sensitive
area; no response. The man was truly unconscious. With a swift motion, Ryth
pulled the man up and over his shoulders. And swore when the knife-cut across
his shoulder opened painfully. He walked across the courtyard toward the sarsa and dropped
his burden next to the slack body of the first attacker. He returned to the
tangle of vines for the woman. She was barely conscious. He carried her out of
the vines and dumped her next to the two men. “Skillfully played, Ti Ryth.” Faen’s soft voice was totally unexpected, close. He spun to
face her, fingers rigid with fighting reflexes. But she had moved as quickly as
he and was out of reach. “You are soft-footed, Faen,” he said, and deliberately
turned his back on her. “Thank you, Ti Ryth. May I approach you?” “As you wish,” he said indifferently. Careful not to make any quick motions, Faen moved as close
as she could without touching him. Her pale eyes flicked over the blood
staining his shoulders, his hands, darkening the back of his leg. There was no
way to distinguish his blood from that of the assassins. “I cannot tell the extent of your injuries, Ti Ryth. Can you
remove your clothes without help?” “Small cuts.” He faced her, his voice roughened by fatigue.
“Nothing worse.” “There is the possibility of poison ...” She waited, her
stillness underlining her deference. Without further argument, the Sharnn pulled off his clothes.
In addition to the slash across his shoulder and the puncture on his leg, he
was surprised to find other cuts among the various scrapes and bruises. “M’vire,” said Faen briefly. “Coward’s weapon. May I approach
more closely?” “Whatever is necessary,” She stood very close, not quite touching, yet he could feel
her breath warm on his skin and he could count the dark lashes framing her
intent, silver eyes. An involuntary response to her nearness shivered through
him, a response that was quickly chilled by the memory of personal violation.
He breathed deeply, and the scent of sunshine and blood and Faen swept over his
senses. “The knife cuts are clean, as are most of the m’vire cuts.
This wound, though,” she knelt to look at the puncture mark high on the back of
his leg, “has dark edges. Does it hurt?” “No.” “Twice coward,” she said, glancing at the unconscious m’vire
thrower, “to use the paralytic poison.” When she turned back to re-examine the
puncture, her hair fanned across his leg. “The vines absorbed most of the
poison,” she said, reaching into a narrow pocket at the side of her clothes. “This
salve will neutralize the rest. Pull the lips of the wound apart, insert the
tip of the tube all the way to the healthy flesh and squeeze very gently. No
more than a drop. Quickly. The poison must not spread.” He gingerly lifted the small, needle-nosed tube from her
palm. He tried to follow her directions, but the wound was too high on the back
of his thigh. “I will apply it if you wish,” said Faen, her voice expressionless. He hesitated for a revealing moment, then dropped the tube
into her open hand. She also hesitated and her fingers trembled slightly. “This will not be pleasant for either one of us,” she said
hurriedly, low-voiced. “You can no more curb your revulsion than I can curb my
knowledge of it. You can help both of us by concentrating on something that
pleases you.” She took a deep breath. “Ready?” “Yes.” And unbidden came the memory of her warm breath over his
skin and the cool caress of her hair across his thigh. Faen’s breath caught
raggedly, but her hands were swift and sure. “Done.” She stood hastily. “The other cuts should be
washed—a drop of this salve to a basin of water. Your shoulder will require
closing tape. If you have no skill with tape, I’ll apply it.” “I’m in your debt,” he said uneasily, wondering if she had
caught his thoughts. She turned away, then stiffened; Kayle stood nearby. The breeze moved fitfully and dead leaves swirled across the
stones. Ryth shivered and pulled on his loose, warm shirt. “The cuts can wait until we’ve questioned the assassins,”
said the Sharnn, half-expecting Faen to object. When she remained silent, he leaned over and grabbed the
closest of the three attackers. The man hung limply in his grasp. Ryth checked
for signs of life, then dropped the man. “Dead,” said Ryth, his voice heavy with disgust. “Not surprising, Ti Ryth,” said Faen. “Broken wrist, smashed
knee, the long finger of a m’vire buried in his spine.” Ryth glanced sideways at her for an instant and suddenly
knew that she had seen the attack from the first move. Seen and done nothing to
prevent his probable death. But then, she was Malian, and owed him nothing at
all. Certainly not his life. His fingers locked in the clothing of the m’vire thrower.
The man was alive. Ryth pulled him upright and methodically began slapping him
into consciousness. “Why not the woman?” said Kayle. “She’s awake.” “She’s the least important.” Slap. “This one knows who wants
us dead. And why.” Slap. “He hired the others, planned the attack.” “You knew of this before?” “No.” Slap. “Pattern.” Ryth paused long enough to glance at the woman. She was fully
conscious, and could not have been more terrified if the Sharnn had been peeling
flesh from her living body. The man groaned and his eyes focused. The fear he
displayed surpassed that of the woman. A strangled word, a convulsion of muscles,
and the man was dead. Ryth dropped the corpse and grabbed the woman. He wrenched
her jaws apart, but it was too late. Her body stiffened, then slid bonelessly
from his grasp. Faen bent over the woman and sniffed warily. “Sel.” She
straightened. “Leave them for a hundred count. The poison will be harmless
then.” Ryth studied the three bodies, his face expressionless.
Bronze hair lifting in a vagrant breeze, he counted silently. When he reached
one hundred, he stripped the bodies, refusing Kayle’s offer of help. Each assassin’s
clothing was removed, examined, and stacked neatly beside the body. Ryth
examined the corpses with equal care, noting as he worked that all three had
the subtle skin shadings of Malians—darker at the spine, lighter at the
fingertips. The skin showed no trace of dye. Both men had the multicolored hair
characteristic of Far Island Talian. Ryth studied their hair closely, but found no sign of dye in
any of the various patches of color. Whether pale gold, chestnut, or darkest
brown, their hair was natural. Ryth let the last cool strand of hair slide
through his fingers. Without appearing to, he watched Faen as he asked, “Is Ti
Memned well?” “The call was broken before I could speak.” “Unfortunate,” said the Sharnn blandly. Faen made a dismissing gesture. “If it was important to her,
she’ll call again.” The Sharnn’s smile made Kayle move restlessly. *Was Faen part of it?* demanded the Nendleti. *I would take bets on either side. She saw, and neither
warned nor fought.* *She is Malian. Did you ask?* *I didn’t know she was nearby.* *She treated your poisoned leg.* *And if I had known about the poison without her warning?* *Yes,* agreed Kayle reluctantly. *Innocent or not, she had
to tell you about the poison.* *The broken call was improbably convenient.* *Sucking zarfs!* Ryth’s smile thinned even further as he watched Faen. “Do
Malian assassins routinely commit suicide?” “Few have the choice,” said Faen. “In their profession the
price of failure is death. It is a rare victim who has the skill to survive
without killing.” “Thank you, Ti Faen. But my question is not yet answered.” When she understood the implied accusation of conspiracy,
Faen’s body became very still. “The assassin’s code is intricate. Too intricate
for easy answers.” “I await your instruction.” “On which aspect?” “Sel.” “A potent, volatile poison derived from the roots of—” “Did you know that I wanted to question the assassins?” “I assumed as much.” “Did you also assume that they might be carrying sel?” “No.” “Oh?” said the Sharnn, his voice lazy. “Yet you knew just
what to look for when—” “I do not buy my deaths.” “Ti Faen,” said Kayle hurriedly, “no one suggested that
you—” Faen saw only Ryth, heard only the Sharnn’s unfinished sentence.
“After a battle,” she said distinctly, “we allow fighters the thirteenth part
of a day before we hold them responsible for the niceties of civilized conduct.
A matter of common sense and body chemistry.” She inhaled slowly and her eyes
lost their flat silver sheen. “Assassins who are sent after persons of very high
wealth, power, or birth carry sel. A precaution. If the assassins fail, if they
are captured alive, they cannot embarrass the person who stooped to buy death. “If they had attacked me I would have examined their mouths
for sel. But I was not attacked.” “What if the assassins fail to use their sel?” said Kayle. “There are worse ways to die. They know it.” “Interesting,” murmured Kayle. “Then assassins never survive
a failure?” “Did yours?” she asked curtly. “How did you know?” demanded Kayle. The metallic mesh in Faen’s garment hissed with her
impatient movement. “The middle knuckle of your left hand is slightly swollen.
Your robe is torn on the right sleeve. Your body smells of recent danger.” “You miss nothing,” said Kayle, admiringly. “I’m Malian,” she said curtly, looking back to Ryth. “Are
you through with the bodies?” “Can you tell us anything more about them?” “More?” “I examined them. I know they are Malian,” said Ryth, showing
the effort it cost him to be patient. “The men have a Far Island Talian phenotype.
The men are used to working together. The woman is new to their operation. All
four came in one flyer. Either they already knew the people of your household
or they were given excellent descriptions of Kayle and me. Or both.” “The woman,” said Faen. “Look at her left hand.” Ryth moved over to the woman and examined her hand carefully.
It had the callouses he expected of a knife fighter, a few thin knife scars,
and two barely healed cuts at the base of the palm. Nothing unexpected. He said
as much to Faen. “The fresh cuts.” “Yes?” said Ryth. “Oath cuts.” “Teach me.” Faen hesitated. When she spoke, her voice was a savage mixture
of pride and hatred and anger, but hatred most of all, for the subject was
Vintrans. “The inverted vee shape means ‘death to Vintrans.’ I was the first to
use it. It was during the Ti Vire.” Wordlessly, Ryth examined the hands of the other assassins.
If he looked carefully he could discern faded vee scars beneath more recent, random
lines. He looked at Kayle. “Mine wore gloves,” said Kayle. “A strangler,” said Faen, eyes opaque with old memories.
“Wire?” “Yes,” Kayle sighed. “Shall I go check him?” “He’ll be the same,” said Ryth. “But we’re not Vintrans.” “So you say. Yet you used a word to take my honor, something
Vintran armies tried and failed to do.” Faen turned away abruptly and walked to the sarsa. She
lifted the m’sarsa and the longest crystal, called vire, belled deeply four
times. A servant appeared, the man who walked like a fighter. Or an assassin.
Faen turned her head toward Ryth. “Do you want hands and hair?” “No.” Faen gestured to the servant. “Their weapons, n’Qen, to Ti
Ryth. A fourth,” she glanced at Kayle, “in your h’kel?” “Yes.” “That one belongs to Kayle.” “No hair or hands,” said Kayle. “Just the weapon will do.” N’Qen bent to gather the weapons. His posture was subtly
awkward—and the Sharnn’s hands flashed out, fingers digging into n’Qen’s flesh.
N’Qen remained bent, not breathing, paralyzed by the pain of Ryth’s fingers
grinding nerves against bone. Kayle’s boot sent a black-bladed knife spinning
out of n’Qen’s numbed fingers. The Sharnn’s hand moved slightly and n’Qen
gasped with returning breath. Kayle hooked his thumb over n’Qen’s lower jaw,
holding it open. “If you would be so kind as to examine him for sel,” said
Ryth blandly. Faen’s eyes were as pale as the shimmering vire crystal. She
stepped forward to examine n’Qen’s mouth. “Upper left, inside,” she said, stepping back. “Remove it,” snapped Ryth, watching each movement of her
body. “I touch no one.” Ryth increased the pressure until n’Qen passed out. Kayle removed
the flesh-colored sel capsule. He placed the knife and capsule carefully aside,
beyond either Faen’s or n’Qen’s reach. “May I?” said Kayle as n’Qen stirred sluggishly in Ryth’s
grasp. The Sharnn moved his hand In curt agreement. Then, “Wait.”
He stared coldly at Faen. “Do you know of any other means for an assassin to
defeat questioning?” Faen smiled humorlessly. “He can refuse to answer. Or he can
lie.” N’Qen’s eyes opened, dark with fear and hate. “He’ll talk,” said Kayle, “one way or another. Who hired you
to kill us?” N’Qen said nothing. Kayle’s fingertips flicked over n’Qen’s eyes. The touch was
too light to bring real pain. A warning. “Who hired you to kill us?” N’Qen said nothing, then screamed. “Who hired you to kill us?” Silence, a high scream, then silence again as n’Qen fainted. Faen’s lips thinned into parallel lines of distaste.
“Useless. Unless you enjoy it, of course.” She turned away to replace the m’sarsa in its holder. She
did not turn back. “What do you say, pattern-man?” asked Kayle. “He’s yours, after
all.” Ryth shifted his grip on n’Qen’s sagging weight. “He might
break before he died,” said Ryth after a thoughtful pause. “But I doubt it.
Even if he did, by that time he would swear to anything to stop the pain.” “I agree. I’m afraid I’ll have to rummage about in his mind.
Not my specialty. Rather uncomfortable for both of us.” Kayle moved so that his
back was not turned toward Faen. *I’m not going to bet my life on old training.
Watch her.* *Always.* Kayle effectively vanished as far as Ryth’s mind could discern.
N’Qen’s weight seemed to increase with each breath, and the extended silence
was a pressure behind Ryth’s eyes. He became aware of the stillness of dry tere
leaves hanging on wasted stems, waiting for wind and freedom. But the breeze
was frail, barely strong enough to stir unattached leaves, and the hanging
leaves must wait as Ryth waited, motionless. “Faen and Lekel.” Kayle’s voice was no stronger than a fallen leaf, thin with
exhaustion. Faen turned and her skirt flared urgently. Ryth let n’Qen
slide onto the stones and stepped forward to support Kayle. “Over here,” said the Sharnn, guiding Kayle to a bench
carved out of smooth golden stone. Kayle sighed and his body sagged against the cool surface.
“Not my ... specialty,” he repeated, his voice barely a whisper. “You should have let me help.” Kayle’s hand moved in a limp gesture of negation. “No training.
Would have ... killed him. Injured you. So few minds fit together at all.” “Did you find any answers?” said Ryth, staring intently at
Kayle’s exhausted face. “Your eyes ...” Kayle’s mouth twisted into a smile. “Glad I
won’t have to fight ... Sharnn.” Ryth’s hand gently squeezed Kayle’s shoulder. “No, you won’t
have to fight me.” He examined Kayle closely; the Nendleti’s eyes were focused
again and his muscles looked less slack “Better?” “Better,” said Kayle, but his voice was still too thin. A leaf scratched across stone, moved by the swinging scarlet
hem of Faen’s long dress. Ryth’s body leaped with readiness as he spun to face
her fully. But she was not within reach. “Ti Kayle?” she asked Ryth. “Tired. Just tired.” “Then let him rest.” “He’s not tired enough to welcome death.” Faen’s hand reached out as though she would have comforted
Kayle, then dropped back to her side even as Ryth moved protectively between
Faen and Kayle. N’Qen groaned. Ryth looked over at him, then at Faen, too
close to Kayle. “Stand by the sarsa,” Ryth said to Faen. “Request or order?” “Whichever moves you.” “The thirteenth part of a day,” said Faen, turning away. She
did not turn back until she reached the sarsa. “Are you sure this is far
enough?” “No, Ti Faen, I’m not sure. I’ve seen you move.” “Then I shall sit.” Faen smiled slowly, a smile that mocked
his caution. “A child could control me from this position.” Ryth looked at the dead assassins, at n’Qen struggling
against pain, felt Kayle’s exhaustion and the subtle agony of his mind. The
Sharnn strode toward Faen and crouched over her. When he spoke he sensed Kayle
flinching. With a surge of impatience the Sharnn shut out Kayle’s mind. “I’m neither Malian nor Nendleti,” said Ryth harshly. “I
take no pride in the people I have killed.” His eyes searched hers but found
nothing beyond a sense of waiting. “I am Sharnn. I have more interesting things
to do than fight fanatics. But,” he added, each word hard and distinct, “to
save Kayle I will fight you if I must, kill you if I must.” “If you can,” she murmured, undisturbed. “Ah yes ... your famous dargs vire.” “They don’t worry you.” Statement, not question. “They do worry me. You are always in my mind, Sandoliki Ti,
and my mind is needed for other matters.” “I am not the same as my dargs vire.” The Sharnn looked at her changing silver eyes, at her hair
burnished and sleek and black and her skin glowing through the cool metal mesh
of her dress. “Aren’t you?” he asked softly, “Then I need not worry about
Kayle, too weak right now to defend himself against your killing skills.” N’Qen groaned again, but both ignored him. “I no longer kill for hatred,” she said, her eyes almost
white with suppressed emotion. “And I never killed for pleasure. If you are
half what Kayle said you were, pattern-man,, you already know that.” “Yes,” the Sharnn said distinctly. “Pattern-man. But you
have no pattern. Except death. Shall we fight each other now? Your choice, Sandoliki
Ti.” “I have no reason to kill you.” “When did a Malian need a reason?” “You tire me, Sharnn. But that is no reason to kill you.” “And no reason to let me live. Not good enough, Sandoliki
Ti.” Faen’s lips twisted scornfully. “Do you want me to guarantee
your safety?” “I would prefer friendship, but that is alien to you. I’ll
settle for your guarantee that you won’t attack Kayle or me without warning.” “The word he spoke was meant to guarantee that. Will that
guarantee work both ways?” The Sharnn’s face showed his surprise. “Of course.” “Of course? That’s not what your eyes told me.” Her face was
unreadable. “A truce, then. For today?” “For every day.” She measured him for a long moment, until her eyes changed,
drawn by Sharnn eyebrows arched beneath thick bronze hair, intense green eyes
slanting above the strong planes of his face and his mouth, as perfect as a
Malian’s. A mouth she could not touch, even lightly, even once, for he despised
her. Again she heard the Great Destroyer’s laughter and again she asked why,
but there was no answer, nor would there be. Faen’s eyes closed and she made a slow gesture with her
hands that meant both agreement and dismissal. Then she laughed, echo of the
hard laughter she had heard in her mind. “I’m glad I amuse you, Sandoliki Ti.” The Sharnn
straightened with a fluid movement and walked over to the groaning n’Qen. “Are
you finished with him, Kayle?” “Yes. He knew nothing of the other assassins.” The Sharnn dragged n’Qen to his feet. “Walk. It will ease
the pain. Move your arms like this. Yes. Now your shoulders. Good. Walk.” N’Qen stumbled around the courtyard, supported by the Sharnn
when necessary. After a few minutes n’Qen could walk by himself, though he
lacked his former grace. “What will you do with him?” said Faen when the Sharnn
passed near the sarsa. “Nothing.” N’Qen lurched and would have fallen if Ryth had not caught
him. “Do you hate n’Qen that much?” she asked. “Hate? I’m giving him his freedom.” “Then you are more cruel than a Malian. Far more cruel.” The Sharnn looked at Faen and knew she meant each word. “Lekel’s skill is legendary,” said Faen, her voice soft and
chilling. “What does Lekel have to do with this?” “N’Qen is Lekel’s vire son; Lekel could do no less for him
than he did for the most important of his prisoners.” Ryth looked at n’Qen’s young face, blank with fear, and felt
the horror that shook the assassin’s body. “Did Lekel put him here to kill your guests?” Faen made a gesture of total indifference. “Whether his vire
father knew or not is of no importance. N’Qen has failed as an assassin; he
must redeem that failure by honorable death. Death by torture is honorable, if
he does not die too quickly. Death at your hands is also honorable—and hopefully
swift.” “No,” whispered the Sharnn. “There must be another way.” His mind raced, seeking a pattern that did not end in death.
“If I take him off-planet?” Faen sighed “N’Qen!” Her voice cracked with command. N’Qen’s eyes focused on her
reluctantly. “Did you leave hostages with Lekel when you came to Darg
Vintra?” “My wife ... my daughter and son.” Faen’s pale eyes moved back to Ryth. “If he lives and you
live, his family dies. It is the Malian way to ensure cowardice is not passed
on.” The Sharnn looked questioningly toward Kayle, who was
walking slowly toward them. “N’Qen is yours,” said Kayle hoarsely, “but if you won’t
kill him, I will fight you for the right.” “N’Qen,” said Ryth harshly. “N’Qen!” N’Qen’s eyes focused in response to the commanding voice.
“Kill me.” He read the decision in Ryth’s eyes and smiled as the edge
of Ryth’s hand descended in a blur of power. Ryth lowered n’Qen’s body to the stones. For a long time he
looked at the man he had not wanted to kill. When he looked up, shadows moved
in his eyes, cold and empty. He saw the sudden fear in her eyes and he ignored
it. Nothing seemed important but the corpse of the man who had smiled at death
descending, a pattern ugly to a Sharnn. Without speaking, the Sharnn retrieved n’Qen’s knife and put
it in the simple leather sheath at n’Qen’s thigh. The sel capsule he ground
into the stones with casual indifference to the poison’s potency. He shifted
n’Qen’s dead weight across his shoulders and set off toward the flyer strip. He
made the trip four more times; four more bodies. Neither Faen nor Kayle spoke,
only watched, for the Sharnn’s eyes were those of a man not quite sane. When Ryth completed his last trip, he came and stood before
them. His clothes were dark with others’ blood and bright with his own. He
stood within reach of Faen. “Release her from the word.” “So you can kill her?” said Kayle. “Sorry, my friend. No.” “Release her,” repeated Ryth, his shadowed eyes fastened on
Faen’s emotionless face. “We need her.” The Sharnn waited, unmoved. His body was both relaxed and
poised, a predator crouching. “Release her.” “There is no need to release me,” said Faen. “The word’s
hold died on Skemole.” Faen and Ryth measured each other, tension rising between
them like the tide of an invisible wild sea. “At this instant you would like to kill all things Malian,”
she said, her soft voice riding on the waves of tension. “I know. I have felt
like you. And I have learned that though I kill and kill and kill I cannot
bring back one smile, one tear, one brief touch from the past. Only the sarsa
can do that. “Go to the sarsa. Go and call back the soul that was you
before n’Qen died.” The tide surged, broke ... and drained away until it became
only blood dripping from Ryth’s fingertips, a Sharnn’s blood falling on ancient
Malian stones. As he watched the vivid drops, his eyes slowly changed back to
silver-green, clear and without shadows. “Release her,” he sighed, and felt Kayle’s mind in his,
uncertain. “Trust me,” said the Sharnn, closing his mind. He felt Faen’s fingertips brush his face, breathed the
fragrance of her hair, sensed compassion like a cool caress through his ragged
emotions. An instant, and the presence was gone. “Take him away from here,” she said to Kayle. “Malia will destroy
him.” “I doubt it,” said Kayle. Faen turned on him so swiftly that her robes flared out,
scattering fragrance as well as scarlet light. “You don’t understand! Four assassins and sel and hostages.
Lekel’s vire son can only be avenged by Ryth’s death.” Kayle smiled coldly. “The Sharnn has proved difficult to
kill.” “Ryth is strong, yes, and fierce and skillful, but anyone
can be killed, Kayle. Anyone! The next flyer could carry ten assassins, twenty,
fifty. Do you think so little of Ryth that you want him to die on Malia?” “Why do you care?” asked Ryth softly. “Malia is too strong for aliens.” “I’ll survive,” said the Sharnn curtly. “Release her.” Faen turned to leave and a hissing word followed her. “You are released,” said Kayle simply. Faen turned slowly around. “I was never held, Ti Kayle. But
thank you for your trust.” She hesitated, then looked at Ryth. “Quickly.
Whoever sent those assassins will be expecting a report.” “Probably,” said the Sharnn, unconcerned. “I may have to wear
my cape before our day is up.” “This isn’t a matter of honor,” said Faen scathingly.
“Nor are you Malians to care if it were!” Ryth shrugged, and pain raced as his shoulder wound bled
again. “We need you. We’re staying.” Faen’s eyes burned with suppressed anger. She moved toward
him, her crimson clothes restless in the wind. The thin whine of flyers
descending disturbed the garden again. A scarlet bird called once, twice, then
silence spread uneasily. The Sharnn looked only at Faen, walking toward him with
the gliding ease of an assassin. She stopped just beyond his reach and looked
at him for a suspended moment. “Your shoulder,” she said. “It’s not the first injury I’ve ever had,” said Ryth, “nor the
worst.” “But you will fight better with it taped.” She tilted her
head up to him and her flawless lips were pale. “For you will fight, Sharnn.
And die. What can I possibly tell you before sunset that is worth dying for?” “Ask me just before I die.” Faen’s eyes changed, silver tarnished by certainty of his death
and her fingers moved swiftly over his lips, light pressures and sliding
caresses that were phrases in t’sil’ne, Malia’s tactile language. He flinched away, more in surprise at his own leaping
response than in fear of whatever she might find in his mind. But she knew only
that he flinched. She stepped back, eyes like white flame burning against the
night of her unbound hair. The scarlet bird’s warning trilled through the grove as yet
another flyer whined onto the pad. Then the bird called again, high and urgent,
a song as exquisite as sarsa music. Faen closed her eyes and for an instant the clean lines of
her face seemed to blur. “My error,” she said, her voice flattened of all music, all
echoes. “My regret. T’sil’ne is a Malian experience and to you my touch is—” Her hand moved abruptly and she stepped further back, unseeing,
wanting only to forget the last few moments. Her bare foot came down where an
assassin had died, blood half-dry on ancient stones. She screamed, voice raw
with pain, and threw herself aside, landing with a balance that was reflex
only, for her mind was reliving the searing instant of death by sel. Kayle reached out, unthinking, barely touched her before he
remembered, and she would have screamed again at his touch but she bit her lip
until blood flowed the color of new tere leaves, bridal scarlet, and she
swayed, fighting for control. Kayle turned on Ryth. “Hold her,” he snapped. “Your touch
pleases—” “No!” Faen’s voice was a ragged cry of pain and memory of
revulsion she needed to forget. She must forget. “No.” “But—” “No,” she said hoarsely. “You don’t understand what you ask
of me. Of him.” Her slim fingers trembled through her hair. But when she spoke,
her voice was calm again, and toneless. “Shall I touch you, Kayle. Shall I rape
your private mind? Would you enjoy that? Would you stroke my lips and whisper
loving thanks?” Kayle’s eyes closed; he had no comfort for her truth. “Tell me, Kayle. Tell me how much you would like touching
me.” Then she laughed, a sound worse to hear than her scream. “Stop it!” snapped the Sharnn, angered by her pain, not understanding
her pattern, for it was too close to his. And he did not understand that, either. “Think about it, Kayle,” she said. “Then send the Sharnn
away. Out of reach.” “What about Malia’s future?” asked Kayle. She leaned toward the Nendleti, her face unsmiling and serene.
“We let the poison fruit grow. If it must be eaten, we will eat it to the
core.” Her pale eyes cleared, now more crystal than silver, more turquoise than
either. “The dead can only destroy the living. Send the Sharnn away, where his
radiance can shine forever, fierce and alive. Forever.” Kayle turned away from the truth in her eyes, and the
beauty. He looked over at the tall Sharnn whose shoulders and hands and chest wore
blood both bright and black. Malia had nearly killed him once. Would he survive
the next time? Ryth saw Kayle’s face change. “No,” the Sharnn said, moving abruptly back from both of
them, his body flexed in subtle warning. “I need Faen’s skill. She and I can
work together. Without touching each other. At all.” He stared at Kayle, then
back into the transcendent stillness of her eyes. “Agreed?” Something moved deep within Faen’s stillness, grief or laughter
or both in harmony. “Pattern-man. Life is so easy for you.” At the Sharnn’s
abrupt gesture, she added negligently, “Oh, I agree. Yes. So wonderfully easy.” And she laughed in sad amusement while he pulled on his
bloody shirt. The scarlet bird’s warning rose and fell in superb urgency
as another flyer landed. Faen tilted her head, eyes closed, listening. Then her
lips shaped an answer that was inhumanly beautiful. The Sharnn leaned toward
her, his every sense absorbed. Another call came from the grove, a pure rill of
music that she answered, soft lips gleaming, alive, throat pulsing and he
swayed closer, bending over her, almost touching, wanting only to drink from
her lips the tere bird’s song, until he remembered and his face twisted. There
was nothing personal in her allure, no special invitation to him. She was
simply a Malian aristocrat, sensual and compelling in the extreme. She was
Faen. And he was a fool. He shuddered, awakening the slash across his shoulder, but
both fresh pain and blood were welcome. In control again, he stepped back, away
from her. When the last exquisite note soared beyond hearing and her eyes
opened once more, neither his face nor his body showed his desire for her. One day only. Once only. But the Sharnn rebelled and then understood how deeply Malia
had rooted in his senses. And Faen. *No!* He did not realize he had linked with her, mind touching
mind, telling her that he would not leave. “You must,” she said, hands spread in mute pleading. “There
are too many. They will kill you.” But even as she spoke, her mind called to him, inarticulate
with joy at hearing an echo return changed, stronger. Then she realized what
had happened and closed down her mind with a skill that exceeded his ability. “Kayle,” she said, turning to the Nendleti with an urgency
that flared her long dress. “Tell him he must leave.” Kayle’s acute ears caught both the accents of desperation in
her voice and the sounds of people approaching through the tere grove. “He must leave,” she repeated. “He must live.” “No time,” sighed Kayle. “He has chosen.” Faen looked from one to the other and realized the futility
of argument. With startling speed she moved to the wall. Her fist smacked a
hidden relay and the outer gate snapped shut, creating an apparently seamless
wall. Her hand moved again, hovering over a hidden comnet relay. Once activated,
everything said or done on either side of the wall would be amplified and
transmitted to every point on the surface of Malia. “The moment I activate the comnet, you are my servants.” “Servants?” said Kayle. “Yes. As such, you might be allowed to stay. Or at least to
leave alive.” Her eyes raked over Ryth and she said, mind and voice, “Agreed,
Sharnn?” He shrugged and bled again. “Agreed.” And both knew the agreement held only so long as he was
permitted to stay; he had no intention of leaving without what he had come for,
though to remain was death. “Follow my lead in everything, pattern-man. Everything!” Faen’s hand swept over the relay. The atmosphere changed
subtly, so subtly that only a Malian would have noticed. Or a Sharnn who had
begun to conceive of being Malian. They heard the sounds of people approaching the outer gate.
There were low murmurs of surprise when the men realized that the wall was
sealed against them. Faen called out, her voice hard with the certainty of imperial
power. “I am the Sandoliki Ti. By what right do you crowd my space?” There was a long hush while the men on the other side of the
wall digested the implications of her demand. “Apologies and regrets, Ti, May we inquire if you are ...
alone?” “You may not.” Silence. Then, “We are honored by your voice. We have told
Sandoliki Ti Lekel of our honor. He has instructed us to honor your presence
with our bodies.” Faen’s mind snarled a Malian curse. But when she spoke, it
was in the incisive tones of the imperial voice. “Honor me at a greater distance or my servants will have
your hair and hands.” Ryth heard the shuffle of people withdrawing, but not very
far. Faen’s teeth flashed in a cold smile as she blanked the comnet. “They won’t fight?” asked Kayle softly, incredulous. “I am a problem for the k’m’n Sandoliki’s Imperial Guards,”
said Faen, satisfaction brittle in her voice and smile. “I am the last true
Sandoliki. There is only one death price to equal killing the last of a family;
if I die at Lekel’s command, everyone related to him by blood or marriage would
be slaughtered within hours. Lekel himself would die very slowly, ministered to
by all the skills of the First Assassin.” Kayle turned to the silent Sharnn whose blood welled and ran
down to drip slowly onto dry Malian stone. With an angry gesture, Kayle
indicated the wound. “Let’s see it.” Ryth began to object, but something in the Nendleti’s hard orange
eyes stopped him. With a smooth movement that mocked the very idea of injury,
Ryth pulled off his loose outer shirt. Beneath a veneer of blood his muscles
slid and coiled with undiminished strength. He turned his back to Kayle and
stood motionless beneath Malia’s pouring light. Before Kayle could step forward, Faen was there, standing between
him and the Sharnn, close enough to Ryth to sense the warmth of his body but
not touching him. Her silver eyes measured both his strength and his wound. “Twist toward Kayle,” she said, and flinched subtly when the
long cut pulled apart in a travesty of a smile. But Ryth did not flinch, for pain was not a new concept to a
Sharnn of the Seventh Dawn. Faen spoke, looking back at Kayle. “Deep, but not crippling.
No muscle or major blood vessel completely severed. With healing powder and
tape—” “—he will live to be killed by Imperial Guards,” finished
Kayle bitterly. “Thank you, Ti Faen.” The powerful hum of a nine-flyer filled all the silences of
courtyard and garden. Kayle looked at Ryth as the flyer vanished beyond the
tere grove. Sudden quiet told them the flyer had landed. “Well, pattern-man, what now?” “All things are equally probable.” With a dissatisfied grunt, Kayle turned to Faen, but she
merely stood, watching the Sharnn. Pain moved like lightning through her eyes
and her fingers traced a t’sil’ne phrase near his back, but not touching. Not
touching. “Strap on your knife, Sharnn,” she said, her voice devoid of
the emotions that burned behind her silver eyes. He turned to face her but she would not meet his eyes as she
gestured to the niche where his knife lay. He went to the niche and strapped on
the knife. His hand stroked the restless, shimmering Sharnn cape, but did not
remove it; she had only mentioned the knife. He pulled on his bloody shirt and
turned to face her. She neither spoke nor looked at him, and into the hush came
the tere bird’s warning. Faen did not answer. The call came again, only to be answered by silence. The scarlet
bird called yet again, flawless song rising and falling as though perfect
beauty would compel an answer. But Faen’s lips did not move, and the tere bird’s answer
came from beyond the wall, crystal music from a small sarsa, a man’s song
composed of passion and pain and unexpected silences. The song’s impatience was
surpassed only by its strength, its pain only by its silences. And through all
was woven sensual power, skilled consummation. The core of melody was as
seductive as the trembling throat of a ripe zamay. “Lekel,” murmured Faen, and she whispered a Malian phrase
too low for Ryth to hear. Then she turned to him and spoke as clearly as the
tere bird’s final call. “Listen to me, laseyss.” Though the word was unfamiliar to Ryth, the urgency of her
beautiful voice riveted his attention. “I listen,” he said with equal softness. “There are many ways this day might end, and I will try each
one of them—do you believe me?—I will try each one before I try the last. But
if I must,” she leaned toward him, face tilted up and her eyes holding his, “if
I must try the last, you must help me. If I lift my arms, then you must come to
me, kneel beneath my hands and think of the most delightful thing you know.” The Sharnn’s body tightened subtly, but she continued as if
she had not noticed, low-voiced, relentless. “If we come to that last ending, then remember—remember and
believe—that whatever I do is honorable. You must not show revulsion. You must
not! Then you will live to call my song on the sarsa. Just once, laseyss. Once
is not too much to ask, even of a Sharnn.” She turned her face away, but he saw sadness pooling in her
eyes and thought he heard her say again the word that he did not understand. “Laseyss?” he said, his voice a harsh whisper. “What is that
word?” Faen’s only answer was a variation of the tere bird’s song,
an eerie threnody that went no further than him. Then she changed as he
watched, withdrawing, eyes more dark than silver, body poised, deadly as sel
and far more potent. With a blur of speed she activated both comnet and gate. K’m’n Sandoliki Lekel’s entourage waited just beyond, where
nightvine and cream flowers coiled, their scented strength and patience pervading
the rust-tasting wind. A tall woman dressed in the burnt orange of Lekel’s
guards walked forward with the confident stride of a fighter. With, dazzling
skill she slipped two long knives out of their sheaths and presented the
weapons, hilt forward, to Faen. “Sandoliki Ti Lekel honors Sandoliki Ti Faen,” said the
woman formally. “How pleasant for the k’m’n Sandoliki,” said Faen, giving
Lekel the lesser title as she waved the knives away with a negligent fingertip. A man’s indulgent laughter leaped above the suddenly motionless
guards. Then they divided to allow a man’s passage. Tall and lean, fair-haired
and supple, Lekel came forward with a stride that made his orange robe shift
like wind-driven flame. He stopped only when another step would have caused a
collision with Faen. Then he stood so near to her that the edges of his robes
slid over the scarlet mesh of her hem. Only Ryth sensed the pain/anger that
sprayed through her at the contact, yet she did not retreat. “Your tongue was always your most interesting weapon,” said
Lekel, his brown eyes moving over her with tangible hunger. “It’s the only one you’ve dared to test,” Faen said coldly. Lekel laughed and lifted his hands as though to hold her
face between his palms, but again he stopped just short of actual touch. “Your hatred is sweeter than any woman’s love,” he murmured. Lekel’s lips were so close to Faen’s that she could feel his
breath, but she could not move back without touching his hands curved around
her face. Ryth felt her pain and pride and something deeper than either that
would have responded if it could, for she was Malian and must touch and could
not, so she stood proud and helpless and angry between Lekel’s hands almost
touching her rage. Ryth became absolutely still, savoring the death that awoke
inside him, stretching as it had not stretched since Sharn until the garden
quiet became absolute, a slow revolving of the moment around the renaissance of
Sharnn anger. “Little sister,” breathed Lekel, “when I taste your—” But Faen was gone in a sinuous blur of speed that took her beyond
Lekel’s reach and close to the Sharnn’s stillness. She pulled Ryth’s savage
radiance around her like an invisible cape. Lekel’s dark eyes raked over the Sharnn who was as beautiful
as a Malian and as deadly, but no Malian had eyes like that, silver and green,
rage turning. Lekel forced his attention back to Faen, but before he could pursue
her, another woman walked forward and stood just behind his arm. She was as
tall as Faen, but nothing more of her could be seen, for she wore robes in
every shade of maroon, and head veils so thick that they masked all but her
grace. “I am honored to hear the Sandoliki Ti Faen’s voice,” said
the woman, her own voice totally lacking intonation. “When our call was cut
off, I worried that something might have gone ill with you.” “Disappointed, Memned?” said Faen, an expression of contempt
arching her lips. Her eyes flicked back to Lekel. “And why do you accompany
that thin copy you call your wife? Have you lost some of your loving Vintrans?” The loathing in Faen’s voice when she said “Vintrans” was
enough to make Ryth’s skin tighten. “Not lately,” said Lekel with a cold smile. “But I see
you’ve found two for yourself.” Faen’s eyes went white. “Apologies and regrets, de f’mi ti,” Lekel said, with a
slight bow. “I know you would not permit Vintrans so close to your warmth.” Ryth watched the two Sandolikis, sensed the long-flowing currents
of rage and humiliation, desire and revenge that colored every word spoken
between them. And the Sharnn wondered why she had not killed Lekel long ago. “De f’mi ti?” repeated Faen, her lips curving in a cruel
smile. “And just how would you know that I am a great sensualist? The one time
you touched me was scarcely a pleasure for either of us, n’ies?” Lekel’s eyes darkened to black as old pain twisted in them.
She saw, and smiled. “Condolences, Memned,” she murmured to the woman hidden
behind maroon veils. “Even a Vintran deserves better than a rapist.” The garden became absolutely still as everyone waited to see
if Memned or Lekel would challenge Faen. Then the rustle of Memned’s heavy
veils broke the moment. Lekel’s fingers moved beneath her veils in quick
t’sil’ne phrases and she leaned toward him, fingertips on his lips, answering. “I’ll have to accept your word for that, Sandoliki,” said
Lekel coldly. “Yours is the greater experience with Vintrans.” Faen merely smiled, though her eyes were still white. And
Lekel stared at her with real need, torn among anger and hunger and regret
until he sighed very softly. “There are two here,” said Lekel, looking only at Faen’s perfect
lips, “who have stayed longer than—” “Not so,” interrupted Faen. “They have until the moment of
sunset. And their need is great. One of them I owe from the past when another
lived in my skin. I would help him, but it needs more than a day.” “No.” “But—” “The Sandoliki Ti Faen remembers our agreement?” From the change in her eyes, Ryth knew that at least one
possibility had just been destroyed. “The Sandoliki Ti remembers,” she said. “No seeker may stay
with me for more than one day, and only once in three hundred. Including the
k’m’n Sandoliki Lekel,” she added with a coldness that was worse than a knife. “As for sunset,” began Lekel, “they have murdered five—” “Not murder,” said Faen, her voice an imperial whip. “One
for one and one for four.” “Four?” “The Sandoliki Ti Faen witnessed it,” said Faen formally.
“The Sandoliki Ti Faen celebrates a Sharnn called Ryth.” Lekel’s eyes narrowed darkly; but he did not look at Ryth. “I am keeping him to guard the privacy of my spaces,” said
Faen. “As my servant, he is free to stay.” Wind surged out of the tere grove, flapped robes and veils. “You have just killed him,” said Lekel. Three of his guards leaped outwards, forming a triangle
around Ryth, two in back and one in front. So great was their haste that they
miscalculated their distance from Faen. The wind lifted a fighter’s robes,
snapped it across the back of Faen’s legs. When she sensed the other’s aura,
she cried out with pain. Before Lekel could speak, Ryth’s foot caught the
offending guard on the temple. As the man crumpled, Ryth spun, body and hands
blurring with the speed of his movements. Two blows landed as one and the
Sharnn stood alone. No more than an instant had passed since Faen cried out. He
sensed a flash of triumph from her and knew that she had permitted that painful
touch and cried out for a reason he did not yet know. “They are alive,” said Ryth coldly, “because the Sandoliki
Ti Faen doesn’t need their miserable deaths. But if they impinge upon her space
again—” “I’ll kill them myself,” said Lekel. Ryth knew that Lekel meant it; that Faen’s pain was Lekel’s
pain; that Lekel would have killed to avoid the slightest discomfort for Faen. “He fights like a Malian,” said Lekel, turning to Faen. “He fights for me.” “No.” There was regret in Lekel’s voice almost equal to his
jealousy. Almost, but not quite. “No, my Faen. No man for you but one I
choose.” “Then remember,” she said, voice bittersweet with triumph,
“that it is you who have chosen!” Faen turned toward Ryth, lifting her arms in a gesture that
was both imperious and disturbingly sensual. Slowly, like a wild animal drawn
against his deepest instincts, the Sharnn came to her and knelt beneath her
hands. “Your knife, de f’mi Ryth.” Like her gesture, her voice was both commanding and smoky
with desire. Ryth drew his knife from beneath his shirt with startling
speed. The worn metal flashed in the sun as he turned the knife so that the
blade pointed away from Faen. Her slim hand grasped the hilt. With a movement
as swift as his, she cut away the shoulder of his shirt with the tip of the
blade. The long, slightly curved wound showed red in the sun. Just beyond the
major slash were two shorter cuts, signature of a m’vire. Blood welled slowly
from deep within the longest wound. He thought he heard Lekel call her name, but it was too
late, had been too late from the moment she had first known Ryth’s seething radiance.
She knelt in front of him and her proud head bent until her lips were close to
his ear and only he could hear her words. “Life is never easy, pattern-man,” Faen said softly. “By
Malian rituals I may either kill you now ... or touch you. Your choice.” Ryth stared into the silver eyes so close to his, but saw
neither triumph nor malice, only the immense compassion he had sensed once
before. She knew what her touch cost him. And her. He closed his eyes,
answering her so softly that she could have imagined rather than heard the
words. “Touch me.” “Give yourself to the ritual, Ti Ryth,” she breathed into
his ear as she laid his knife on the stone between their bodies. “Lose yourself
in its inevitable pattern. And help me, Sharnn. It will be the last time.” She sensed the power within him surge to meet whatever came.
His eyes opened green and deep and calm. Her hands trembled slightly, but only
he was close enough to see. Her fingertips brushed his forehead and her voice
echoed zamay and night and desire. While she spoke, her fingers moved over his
flesh in the light touches and subtle pressures of t’sil’ne, making him come
alive with an awareness that was beyond words. “You have thought of me ... seen me ... heard me ... spoken
to the core of my life,” she said, her voice like a song. “Now I speak to
yours.” She bent over his shoulder in a cool cascade of black hair.
Her lips on his wound sent shockwaves of conflicting emotions through him, as
did her soft apology for such intimacy. When she straightened, her eyes were
tarnished but her fingers continued to stroke in ancient ritual. “Blood shed for me, deaths brought to me—” He saw that her mouth was no longer narrow, but full and
red, his blood on her lips that spoke sweetly, relentlessly, and suddenly he
understood the ritual, was aware of a deadly pattern. “—life giving life to me. I cannot fight him who brings
life.” Her hand dove between them, raised his knife in a flashing
arc meant to open her own throat, but his hand was moving before her fingers
touched the hilt. He tried to deflect the blade entirely, but her skill and
speed were too great. The knife hissed across her shoulder and blood flowed
down her scarlet robes. Faen’s angry cry was lost in the collective gasp of the
watching men. Before she could fight, she found her face held in the gentle
vise of his fingertips speaking to her flesh while his resonant voice compelled
a different end to the ritual. “You have thought of me ... seen me ... heard me ... spoken
to the core of my life. “Now I speak to yours.” His hands tore the mesh of her robes, revealing the red line
of blood. She moaned softly when his lips touched her wound, but when she tried
to fight him she found herself helpless in the grip of his mind. His mental
presence shocked her more than his touch. When he lifted his head, she saw her
blood on his lips and knew she was defeated. His fingertips touched her with
the incandescent skill of a Malian lover. “Blood shed for me, deaths brought to me—” Her eyes closed and she would have escaped into unconsciousness
but he did not allow her even that. “—life giving life to me. I cannot fight her who brings
life.” His fierce presence swept away her half-formed protests.
When his lips again touched her wound, the knife slid from her hand and fell
onto the stones. Her head bent over his wounded shoulder, then lifted to him.
Their lips met, their blood mingled. Her whole body trembled, but her voice was
that of the Sandoliki Ti. “Blood of my blood, there is only life between us now.” The savage ritual was complete. Ryth pulled Faen to her feet, then released her. He sensed
her weakness in the faint swaying of her body, yet her head was high and proud
as she looked at Lekel. Ryth followed her glance, and saw that Lekel was a man
who would gladly kill. “The Sandoliki Ti has spoken,” said Lekel harshly. “Malia rejoices.”
He stared at the Sharnn with palpable hatred. “And you—” “He is Sandoliki Ti Ryth,” said Faen, coldly, and only Ryth
sensed the effort it cost her. Lekel paused and his lips jerked. “Sandoliki Ti ... Ryth!” The Sharnn bent to pick up his knife, but Faen was faster. “This is mine, now.” She rose and faced Lekel again, Ryth’s knife in her hand and
her mind flat with exhaustion, but not her voice. “Near-sister,” began Lekel. “No,” she said gently, implacably. “I am no longer your potential
mate.” Lekel’s face changed and the possibility of death bloomed
like an invisible flower. “No insult,” she said formally. “Merely fact. The Sandoliki
Ti may have only one mate.” “De f’mi—” he said, voice rich with emotion. “No.” Her eyes looked through him. “Never.” If Lekel had sensed her exhaustion, he would have challenged
her, but Lekel heard only her unyielding words, saw only her remorseless eyes.
He wanted her more than he had since the day he inadvertently drove her off
Malia, but he had learned much since that day. He bowed to her and to Malian
tradition, but his eyes were like hands touching the warmth of her flesh. Faen could not look away, for to do so would shout her weakness.
“Though you are only distant kin,” she said, “I will permit you kin question.
Has Sandoliki Ti Ryth insulted you or your family’s honor in any way?” Faen’s words were a traditional invitation to challenge Ryth
for any past slights. Lekel’s desire to make that challenge burned behind his
eyes. “And when I win?” Lekel said softly. Faen’s smile was more cruel than any words. “I will kill
you.” “I won’t fight you, Faen. For if I win ...” Lekel sighed and
controlled his voice as he addressed Ryth. “No past insults have been noted.” “Witnessed and completed,” said Faen; then she blanked the
comnet. Without a word, she turned and walked through the small arch
into the sanctuary of her machine-made kel. Kayle and Ryth were only a
half-step behind. The arch door hissed closed behind diem. Without looking at either man, Faen opened a door to a long,
narrow room with curving walls and ceiling. While Ryth and Kayle hesitated on
the threshold, Faen’s fingers danced over a panel made of textured strips and
glowing lights. In response to her touch the room seemed to change, walls and ceiling
receding and sunset light slanting through a sky that had never known
rust-tasting wind, where the smell of ancient tere groves drifted above scarlet
leaves and a river flowed swift and sweet and green through a land not yet
ruined. Kayle moved as though to follow her. *No,* ordered the Sharnn curtly. *Give her space.* She seemed to walk into the distance, swallowed by the
tricks of light and scent and space, and the Sharnn’s thoughts were a compound
of respect and regret and a desire so pervasive that it was as omnipresent and
unnoticed as the air they breathed. *Marvelous,* thought Kayle, eyes wide as he examined the
seamless illusion created by the h’kel. *Like our omni-synth.* The room was a valley edged by jagged blue-black mountains
wearing crowns of ice. The wind from their summits was pure and bright, rich
with the promise of sanctuary. Tere leaves stirred in the wind with a sound
like water flowing, a sound that was echoed by the river itself, blue-green
pools and silver rapids linked by transparent shallows gliding over smooth
black stones. There was a flash of red as Faen stripped off her clothes
and spread her fingers to the clean, sun-swept air. Her hair burned blackly in
the embrace of sunset light. Ryth swayed unknowing as Faen knelt by the river. Silver
drops of water sprayed from her fingertips and he thought he heard her laugh or
cry but he could not be sure which, for a cloud of unbound hair concealed her
face like a baffling pattern. Her pattern. “Do you know her pattern yet?” asked Kayle, echoing the
Sharnn’s thoughts. “What does laseyss mean?” countered Ryth. Kayle hesitated, shocked. Then he smiled. *Will you play a
child’s game with me, Ti Ryth?* returned Kayle, riding out the storm of demand
from the Sharnn until Ryth shrugged, accepting. *Yes.* *The rules are simple. Imagine something of great value to
you. Something rare and unique and absolutely compelling. No—don’t tell me what
you have imagined. Just imagine it. Ready?* *Yes,* thought Ryth, and the single word crackled painfully
in Kayle’s mind. *Now imagine that you have two choices. I will give you what
you have imagined, your laseyss. You may keep it for a few moments of time,
after which it will be destroyed utterly; or you may release your laseyss untouched
with the full knowledge that though the laseyss remains intact, you might never
hold it. Which do you choose?* *Release.* *A quick answer. Too quick? Remember, if you held your
laseyss, you would at least have memories.* *I’d have the memory of destroying it.* Ryth’s impatience
seethed painfully. *Bitter comfort. I prefer to let go of my ... laseyss ...
and have the knowledge that somewhere in the universe something precious to me
survives.* Even as the Sharnn’s thought formed, his face changed. *You
have taught me, Ti Kayle. I am grateful.* *I’ve only taught that which you previously taught me—where
your own pattern is involved, your skill is erratic.* Kayle weighed Ryth’s expression,
but could not be sure. With an inward sigh, he risked Sharnn anger. *What happened
in the courtyard?* Only Kayle’s six maturities of discipline kept him from
crying out at the force of Ryth’s mind, flaring just an instant before the
Sharnn’s control solidified again. *Faen almost found her honorable death.* The light in the room deepened to ancient gold as the sun nestled
against the shoulder of a black mountain. As though their meeting set the world
afire, the sky became streaked with scarlet incandescence. *She called me laseyss.* And so perfect was the Sharnn’s control that Kayle wondered if
Ryth was human after all. *She could not leave Malia,* continued the Sharnn. *I could
not stay. But I would stay, and die. She refused my death and insured her own.
Lekel could not force Sandoliki Ti Ryth to leave Malia.* Light ran like fire over Ryth’s features, making the mask of
Sharnn control even more formidable. But Kayle was Nendleti, and Carifil. *Perhaps she saw her death as the only possible solution ...
?* But the Sharnn did not respond, unless shadows twisting deep
within the green of his eyes was an answer. *What happened, Ryth? I understood only the result.* Kayle waited for an answer, and only his restrained
breathing revealed his unease as he watched a Sharnn test the edges of his own
control. Then Ryth’s bleak eyes searched the spreading shadows by the river,
but could not find her. “The pattern,” said Ryth aloud, yet somehow as quietly as a
thought, “is quite simple. Malia has a tabu against the extinction of family
lines. Malia also has an absolute requirement for total revenge. Given the paradox,
there has to be a means of neutralizing dargs vire.” “Marriage,” murmured Kayle. “Simple, but not easy. What if one or the other partner is unwilling
to end the darg vire? Can you think of a way to force a Malian to consummate
what is perceived as a dishonorable act?” “No. If the Malian can’t kill you, he’ll kill himself.” “Exactly. Lekel forced Faen into a dishonorable position. I
prevented her from killing herself.” And though the Sharnn did not speak, his
thought scored Kayle’s mind. *I did not know myself or her or the moment that
we faced each other or that I should have held her sooner ...* “Teach me,” urged Kayle softly. The sun was like a great eye, blinding, and all the colors
of incandescence poured over the room, making even shadows seem alive. A part
of himself that Ryth had never known reached out to her, but she was beyond
even that, hiding in the incandescent illusion until the moment passed and
every shade of red claimed the sky while shadows pooled, again lifeless. “Faen is the last Sandoliki,” whispered the Sharnn. “Lekel
loves her, wants her, but he is no fool. Her reflexes are quicker than his. If
the marriage knife were laid between them, one of them would die.” The Sharnn’s eyes never left the place where he knew Faen to
be, though little could be seen as light drained from the illusory sky. “Then we came and asked to stay and she wanted us ... me.
Lekel cannot, will not, fight her. But he could have me killed.” Ryth’s body
moved, a ripple that hinted at strength that he had not yet used. “Faen knew,
as surely as any Sharnn, the many ways the pattern could end. She tried every
pattern that would let me live and failed but one, the one that would take her
life by her own swift hand. “And that was the last one left. There are two honorable
ways for a Malian to evade a marriage ritual,” said Ryth between his teeth.
“Kill the other. Or kill yourself. She would not kill me. I stopped her from
killing herself. “And then I held her, a Malian ...” In silence he watched the last scarlet streaks drain into a
darkness that was as impenetrable as his mind. Later, surrounded by true night, the sarsa sang with sensuality,
half-life and half-death mingling, disturbing shadows and Sharnn dreams alike. IIIStone kels, mostly ruined, fanned out from the dome,
separated from it and each other by gardens and walls that were also mostly
ruined. Only a wedge-shaped piece of the compound was reasonably intact. Faen’s
dome occupied the narrow part of the wedge; the flyer pad was on the flared
edge. Between were the courtyard, garden and tere grove. In the immensity of the goldstone ruins, the living wedge
seemed pitifully small, the dome even smaller. But Malian maze artistry had
made the interior of the dome into a whole world that was complex enough to tease
even a Sharnn’s pattern skills. Ryth paused when the hallway he was following curved against
a woven arras that probably concealed the entrance to another hall. Ryth turned
away, then turned back as he solved the maze’s mystery. He slid the heavy arras
aside and stepped into a h’kel that took up almost an entire floor of the
multi-level dome. Off to one side of the room was a transparent column surrounding
an interior garden bright with turquoise zamay. When Ryth walked near, the tall
flowers trembled and hummed and stroked their soft petals across the unfeeling
column wall, asking. Ryth stopped, fingertips reaching and remembering a
smoldering fall of m’zamay across his hands. But before he could find the
entrance to the garden, he saw Kayle sitting just beyond the reach of sunlight,
staring at the zamay with unseeing eyes. He was wearing a Carifil psitran
around his forehead, but his mind was no further away than a rainbow insect
flitting inside the clear column. Tactfully, Ryth allowed his cape to make a small noise, just
enough to capture Kayle’s attention without startling him. Kayle looked toward
the noise, but did not see Ryth. The Sharnn walked forward until sunlight
blazed over his bronze hair. Kayle’s mouth twitched in surprise. “Incredible,” murmured the Nendleti. “If you wore your hood,
you would be invisible. Why would a solitary Sharnn need such a cape?” When Ryth glanced down at his Sharnn cape, his face echoed
Kayle’s surprise. For the first time, Ryth realized that his mind must be very
much on edge; the cape was in its fighting mode. As he walked toward Kayle, the
cape swept around Ryth’s bare feet, concealing, curling, twisting light into
shapes that eyes could not comprehend, so the mind registered nothing. “When I was young,” said Ryth, “I lived in the wild places
of Sharn.” The cape surged and flowed as though casting for a scent of danger.
“This cape confuses scent as well as sight. Claws and thorns and other weapons
slide off it. It is warm when ice shatters in the high reaches, cool when rock
smokes in the white desert.” “May I?” asked Kayle, his sensitive fingers stretched toward
the cape. “Of course.” With a fluid motion, Ryth released the cape and laid it
across Kayle’s lap. Kayle’s eyes measured Ryth’s tall, hard figure, the liquid
ease of movement and muscle, and the new knife strapped against his abdomen. In
no way did Ryth show recent injury, for Sharnn capes healed as well as
concealed. “Unusual textures,” murmured Kayle as he turned his
attention to the object across his lap. “Neither smooth nor rough, but never
the same.” His fingers paused. “Dense without being heavy, fine without being
flimsy.” Sensitive fingertips probed, then stroked, enjoying. “Remarkable and
elusive, like everything else I have seen from Sharn.” Then, sharply, “Are you
expecting trouble? Is that why you wear a cape you consider a weapon?” “A Sharnn cape becomes ... restive ... unless it’s worn from
time to time.” “Oh?” Kayle’s eyes probed the luminous folds of the cape.
“Then it’s an animal? Or perhaps a plant?” “Both. And neither.” Kayle snorted. “Is it alive?” “Sometimes.” “Parasite?” “Symbiot. Sometimes. And sometimes it is merely a cape that
likes to lie in the sun.” Kayle laughed softly. “And sometimes it’s a weapon, n’ies?”
added Kayle, using the Malian interrogative. “N’ies,” agreed Ryth. Delicately, Kayle savored the unique feel of the Sharnn
cape. For a few moments the cape was passive, pliant. Polite. Then it flared
out and settled around Ryth’s shoulders with a rustling sigh. “It was ... limited ... in the niche,” said Ryth, as though
apologizing for the cape’s abrupt departure from Kayle’s touch. “And it ...
knows ... it has only a small time before I return it to the niche.” Kayle seemed not to have heard. Even as Ryth spoke, the
Nendleti’s eyes flattened with sudden rage. Ryth waited, sensing that Kayle’s
mind was elsewhere. Then the Nendleti’s broad lips twisted around silent
curses. Ryth tried to catch the edges of the thoughts that Kayle was receiving,
but the psitran was a pattern he did not yet understand. Finally, Kayle jerked the psitran off. His blunt fingertips massaged
his forehead, though the psitran had left no visible marks. Quietly, passionately,
Kayle reviled all things Malian. Ryth waited, listening with mounting unease,
trying to reconcile Kayle’s barely controlled hatred of Malians with Faen’s
luminous reality. But the reconciliation was beyond Ryth’s ability to
conceive, for if Kayle were right, Malians were inevitably, irrevocably evil.
And if Kayle were wrong, Malia would be destroyed out of blind prejudice. Kayle could not be right, for Faen was Malian. Kayle could not be wrong, for the Carifil were not blind. “Tell me,” demanded the Sharnn finally, his voice harsh with
the futile circling of his own thoughts. “Four more of my people died on Vintra.” “How?” “I don’t know. All I know is that five mind-linked Carifil
couldn’t contact either one.” “Why do you blame Malians?” Kayle’s eyes went opaque and he weighed Ryth as though he
were a stranger. “Why shouldn’t I, Sharnn? I told my people to learn all they
could about Malia and Malians. The longer they were on Vintra, the closer they
came to proving that Malia was behind Vintra’s troubles. “My people followed rumors and hints and found bits of truth
condemning Malia.” “I listen,” said Ryth with an intensity that stilled even
his Sharnn cape, as he waited for Kayle to tell him that Malians were evil and
Faen was Malian. “Explosives,” Kayle said succinctly. “A compound peculiar to
Malia. Malians use it in mining the core crystal found deep in Malia’s granitic
rocks. The explosive leaves a unique stress signature on the granite that is
too distant from the center of the explosion to crumble.” “Go on.” “Vintra’s major aqueducts all pass through blackstone
granite at some point in their lengths. Wherever aqueduct and blackstone meet,
aqueducts have shattered beyond hope of repair.” Kayle’s knuckles dug into his
knees, massaging muscles coiled to attack, but there was nothing to fight,
except himself. “Because blackstone is always found in heavily faulted areas,
it was assumed that crustal movements had destroyed the aqueducts.” “But the crust didn’t move?” Kayle gestured abruptly. “Oh, it moved, Sharnn. Many times.
It might even have shattered an aqueduct or two. But it did not leave behind a
cone-shaped stress pattern in Vintra’s blackstone highlands!” The Sharnn’s eyes became more dark than green, unfathomable.
“Is there anything else?” “Isn’t that enough?” “There are other possible explanations. Vintrans were
Malians once. The explosives could have been exported to Vintra.” “Vintra and Malia have no trade.” “There are other ways.” Kayle made a sound of disgust. “Explain pekh, then. A
disease endemic to Malia, a disease that somehow ravages whole districts of
Vintra.” “Again, Kayle, Vintrans were Malians once. The colonists
probably brought the disease with them.” “Then why did it only appear recently—and only in the wake
of a ‘dark-haired woman with eyes like ice.’” Though neither spoke, they both thought of Faen, and of the
Concord saying: Trust a Malian to betray you. “There are other incidents,” continued Kayle, his husky
voice as hard as a file. “Each follows the same pattern. Disaster for Vintra;
Concord investigation and discovery; death for the Concord agents who did the
discovering. Their deaths—as much as the evidence they gathered—brought
proscription down on Malia.” Ryth closed his eyes, thinking fiercely of what he had just
heard, grabbing its pattern and shaking it until the weakest elements sheared
off. “Not one agent survived?” he asked abruptly. “None.” “The odds against all of them dying accidentally are—” “Practically infinite,” Kayle said grimly. “Then we must assume that your agents were discovered and
watched.” “Yes.” “Then,” asked the Sharnn reasonably, “why weren’t they
killed before they discovered evidence damning to Malia?” “Concord agents aren’t stupid, Sharnn,” snapped Kayle. “They
simply outwitted their pursuers long enough to do what was required.” “Every time? Without fail? Every agent?” Ryth paused,
letting his questions hang in the silent h’kel. “Malians aren’t stupid, either,
Kayle.” “What are you trying to say?” demanded Kayle. He stood up
with a savage motion that was as threatening as an unsheathed knife. “Are you
telling me that Malia is innocent?” The Sharnn’s cape snapped out invisibly, but stopped short
of touching the enraged Nendleti. Ryth shrugged and the cape rippled back
around his feet. “I’m merely saying that nothing you have told me irrevocably
condemns Malia. Also,” added the Sharnn softly, “you are blaming yourself for
deaths you could not have prevented.” Kayle turned away with a soundless snarl. His muscles bunched
beneath his flowered robes, but Carifil conditioning overrode the Nendleti’s innate
ferocity. “You’re probably right, pattern-man,” said Kayle tightly.
“But by the Allgod’s orange eyes, I wish you would tell me something useful!” “Isn’t Malia’s possible innocence useful? Or do you wish
Faen and her people dead?” “No,” Kayle said, his voice hoarse. “Not again ... F’n’een.
But think, Sharnn. Think! Malians can no more help their primal allure than you
can help responding to it. Does that make them innocent?” “No. Nor does it make them guilty.” Kayle groaned softly. “That’s what they said, but—” “They?” “The Carifil.” Kayle sighed deeply and was silent for long
moments while he disciplined his seething emotions. When he spoke again, he was
more Carifil than Nendleti. “Perhaps if we knew exactly how these last four
died. The others simply vanished.” Ryth’s eyes snapped with questions that Kayle did not see,
but answered anyway. “When an agent disappears in a district that collapsed in
seismic heaves or succumbed to a devastating epidemic or flood or—” Kayle made
a savage gesture, but his voice was controlled. “It is reasonable to assume that
the missing agent died in the same way and at the same time that the native
population died. N’ies?” Ryth hesitated, then agreed. “N’ies. But the agents’ bodies
were not found?” “Under the circumstances of mass death,” said Kayle dryly,
“it isn’t surprising.” Ryth frowned and his Sharnn cape hissed across the smooth
floor. “Reasonable, yes,” he murmured. “But inevitable?” The cape shimmered, no
longer invisible, brilliant with sliding colors, a thousand possibilities. “Did
the agents leave anything behind before they went to die on Vintra? Something
personal—jewelry or weapons or touchstones.” Kayle pulled on his psitran and disciplined his thoughts,
reaching out to distant Carifil minds. Very quickly, he had an answer for Ryth. “Whatever the Carifil can find will be sent here, wrapped in
misa silk to limit contamination by other auras.” Kayle fixed his impenetrable
orange eyes on Ryth. “Anything else?” Before Ryth could answer, Faen stepped noiselessly into the
sunlight radiating through the garden column. “Send their bodies to me,” she said, “if you find them.” Neither man answered, but simply watched her. She was no
longer dressed in the scarlet of a Malian bride, A cape the color of zamay
petals fell from her shoulders to brush the floor. Beneath the cape she wore a
matching fabric that fitted as well as her own skin. Her black hair was coiled
on top of her head. At her ears and ankles hung tiny, blue-green crystal bells
that chimed softly as she approached the column. Kayle watched and marveled at the control that had kept the
bells silent when she entered the room. Ryth noticed neither the sound nor its
absence; he sensed that the bells were symbolic, and wondered what new pattern
was emerging. “Their bodies?” repeated Kayle slowly, watching the weaponless
woman who approached him wrapped in turquoise and crystal sound and deadly
grace. He wondered how long she had stood in silence, listening, and how much
she had understood. “What are bodies but the temporary repository of life energies?”
she asked. “When the energy has gone, the body becomes merely an object like a
touchstone or a knife. But better for our purposes than either one. On the
body, the patterns of life are deeply, intimately engraved. I can learn more
from a corpse than a knife.” Kayle closed his eyes and sent the macabre request out to
waiting Carifil. And almost hoped that the bodies would not be found. “I prefer not to work where I sleep,” said Faen to Ryth.
“The conflicting energies are unpleasant.” “Of course.” “We’ll use the fourth h’kel.” Ryth turned and walked toward the arras, following the tiny
whisper of crystal bells. Faen glided ahead, down the hallway to a lower level
where the freight Access glowed. She indicated the area surrounding the Access
with her hand. Her fingers brushed a panel and the outer walls became translucent,
then glowed with a medley of muted colors that were soothing without being
monotonous. One-third of the oval h’kel was marked off by an abrupt change in
the pattern of the soft floor covering. “Mine,” said Faen briefly, pointing to the smaller area.
“There are misa-lined cupboards along the wall. Whatever you bring should be
stored there.” “I know.” He watched her and his eyes were caught by the delicate
beauty of crystal bells trembling at the ends of fine gold chains. From her
coiled black hair rose a rain-sweet scent. “Is your private h’kel satisfactory? Untouched?” she asked. Something in the quality of his silence made her turn
sharply toward him; bells swung and chanted against the curve of her neck. She
searched his silver-green eyes. “Those bells,” he said sharply. “Aren’t they usually worn by
the dead?” “Bells are also worn by the injured, the ill, pregnant
women, and unwilling mates.” “Why?” Faen smiled slightly. “An ancient custom, Ti Ryth. The dead are
hung with iron bells to prevent their shadows from stalking the living. For the
injured, ill, or pregnant, crystal bells warn everyone that the wearer is temporarily
removed from the ranks of fighters. An unwilling mate wears crystal bells—and
fights—until the willing mate removes the bells.” “Then the bells are meant to warn of hostile presence?” “Yes.” “Take them off whenever you want,” said Ryth dryly. “I noticed
that you can move in perfect silence with or without bells.” Faen moved her head and tiny bells swung, ringing. “They are
symbol only. You know that I’ll not kill you. Laseyss.” “It sounds more like hatred when you say it.” “Does it?” She smiled without warmth. “The price you pay for
an unwilling mate.” “We’re not mates.” She looked at him out of enigmatic silver eyes. Her earrings
trembled with small crystal stirrings. “By your rules, Sharnn, we are not married. By Malian rules
we are bound until death.” “You almost fainted when I touched you in the garden,” said
Ryth slowly, his eyes noting each nuance of her body, “yet you insist we are
mates. Do you want to be my wife in fact as well as in ritual?” He waited for her response with an intensity that would have
surprised him if he had been aware of it, but he was aware only of perfect,
expressionless lips and blue-green crystal bells brilliant on gold chains. “How could I want that?” she said with double-edged amusement
in her voice. “You’ve made it clear that I repel you. My touch would destroy
you more surely than any knife. That’s the secret of the warning bells, Sandoliki
Ti Ryth. A crystal certainty warning you to stay beyond the reach of my Malian
sensuality.” Faen turned her back on him and walked to her part of the
room, leaving behind the haunting sound of crystal He watched her consummate
grace and his eyes were narrowed as though he looked into the core of blazing
white light. Her pattern was as elusive to him as dream-fragments, as
frustrating as trying to catch a shadow. But at the thought of catching shadows, his mind spun away,
refusing a pattern condensing, because he did not want to conceive of shadows
as another Sharnn once might have. “Many of these cupboards are full,” said Faen, her surprise
jarring him out of his unwelcome reverie. “Weapons,” he said curtly. “Kayle and I took them from men
who attacked us on Vintra. In the red cupboards are the weapons we took from
the men who attacked us here.” “You learned my kel’s maze very quickly, pattern-man. But
that’s just as well, for surely you would not want to follow me everywhere.” She glided down the row of cupboards, barely touching them,
knowing they were full of death. “It won’t be pleasant for you,” began Ryth. “Little is, Sharnn.” She looked at him, then resumed her
walk past the cupboards. “I’ve touched violent death many times,” she said
carelessly. But the subtle tightness of Faen’s body belied her
indifferent tone. As many times as she had touched it, violent death was still
a fresh agony to her. “I’m sorry,” he said, voice and eyes lit by a depth of
feeling that surprised both of them. She turned so swiftly that her earrings chimed. “You have
done nothing to me that requires apology, Sandoliki Ti. My gift comes from the
Great Destroyer, not you.” She turned back toward the cupboards. “Shall I begin
now?” “Has he told you what we want?” asked Kayle, walking noiselessly
into the room. “No, but I can easily guess,” said Faen. “I doubt that I’ll
be much aid.” Kayle’s eyes asked a silent question as he joined Ryth. Faen’s hand waved toward the waiting cupboards. “You know
they’re dead, because you killed them. You know they’re assassins, because they
tried to kill you. And you know where and how they died.” Her fingers moved and
the blue-green gem flashed. “I could probably tell you more by looking at the
weapons than by touching them.” “Names?” prompted Kayle. Even as Faen answered, Ryth moved his head in the negative
gesture of Sharnn. “Names mean little,” said Faen slowly. “Our only real name
is discovered each time we die and forgotten each time we are born. We’ve had
many shadow names; we’ll have many more. Only shadows are owned by names.” She walked toward the cupboards, allowing her bells to sigh
and chime. “Are there any living relics here?” “No,” said Kayle regretfully. Faen said nothing. “Can you distinguish between Malian and Vintran?” asked
Ryth. Faen’s lips twisted into the lines of loathing that appeared
whenever she thought of Vintra. But her answer was honest, though very reluctant. “I doubt it,” she said curtly. “Vintrans are animals, but
they once were men.” “Can you distinguish between Malians and most other races?” “Yes.” When Faen approached the first cabinet, Ryth crossed to a recorder
panel set with clear control studs. His fingers swept over the controls. Shades
of rose and gold and silver bloomed among the studs. Ryth watched the changing
light; within seconds he could predict the next pattern. He turned away and
watched Faen, exquisite and unpredictable. *If she doesn’t speak aloud,* cautioned Kayle, *be ready to
enter her mind. I can’t.* Faen touched the first blue cupboard. A tongue of
silk-covered wood slid out; on it was a blue steel, double-edged knife that
gleamed against the pale misa silk. “Malian made, probably from the Snow Continent. No guild
marks. The owner was either not an assassin or had yet to complete meega.” “Meega?” said Ryth. “Professional death contract,” said Faen curtly. Her fingers
moved above the knife, not touching. “Very little energy. Difficult to read.”
She traced the blade with a fingertip lightly touching. “No deaths here.” Her fingers
came to rest on the hilt. She grimaced, but did not lift her hand as a dead
man’s thoughts/emotions poured into her. “Young,” she continued. “Male. First meega.” Faen’s lips and
voice thinned. “Impatience, then ... shock. Exploding shock, numbing. So quick
he is so quick I can’t—” Faen’s eyelids flickered. “Darkness and peace and” her
breath caught “slicing pain, blood warm and pouring, pouring ... trickling,
seeping ... gone ...” She lifted her hand and wiped her fingers on her cape. “Someone cut his throat while he was unconscious,” she said
tonelessly, and nudged the wooden tongue with her finger until the cupboard
folded up, concealing the blue knife but not the memories. The next cupboard contained another knife. It, too, was
double-edged blue steel. But unlike the first knife, it looked old, much worn
by the honing rod and scarred by other blades. On the hilt three words were
engraved. “Malian made. Ice Continent. Red Dawn assassin’s guild.” Her hand hovered just above the weapon. “Little energy.” Fingertip
touched blade. “No deaths here.” She frowned, puzzled, and touched the blade more firmly. “Perhaps he favored other weapons,” said Kayle, “and used
this knife only in emergency.” “Perhaps,” said Faen dubiously. “But the knife appears old.” “Just appears?” said Ryth. “Doesn’t it feel old to you?” Faen laid her palm on the blade. “No. There is but a light
smear of minor emotions, superficial, overlaid by a single fear of pain. None
of the energies have penetrated deeply. The knife has been casually handled by
several people. The last one to hold it either had a very negligible aura or
held it only long enough to die.” Kayle’s brown face puckered with surprise. “You’re sure?” With a swift, impatient movement, Faen pressed the hilt of
the knife against her forehead. Her eyes were wide and pale, fixed on past
death and her lips spoke a dead man’s words. “Waiting, waiting—the knife has no balance—coming alone,
ready—throw!” Faen took the hilt away from her forehead and flipped the
knife end over end in her hand. “He was right; the knife is badly balanced. In
spite of its scars, the weapon is newly—and badly—made.” She tossed it back
onto the cupboard, which promptly folded and vanished. She stared at the cupboard
and murmured, “Curious. Few assassins would knowingly take a bad weapon on
meega.” “How did that one die?” said Kayle. “The same. His throat was slit while he was unconscious.”
She moved her head suddenly, sending crystal sounds into the stillness. “There
is one benefit to the puzzling matter of new knives. The less energy the
objects have, the less they affect me.” “And the less you learn?” asked Kayle. “Yes. But if the energy is too great,” she said, “I’m overwhelmed
and it takes much time and endurance to learn anything.” Ryth watched as Faen opened the third cupboard. The third
weapon was a blue steel knife that had no deaths on its blade and only a few
shallow emotions on its hilt. Faen worked her way rapidly down the blue cupboards.
All the knives were similar—new, largely untouched, no deaths on the blades,
owners died with a second smile carved beneath their chins. The last blue cupboard unfolded noiselessly. As expected,
the knife was Malian blue steel, Ice Continent. But the guild marks were those
of the White Dawn. Faen reached out to touch it casually, then stopped, fingers
well above the blade. “This one is different. Very strong.” She scrutinized the hilt more carefully. There were other
ideographs running around the hilt. Her swift intake of breath made earrings
jangle. “What is it?” said Kayle, staring toward the knife,
impatient to be closer but respecting her need for space. “The owner of this weapon was a warrior of the Ninth
Circle.” Kayle hummed appreciatively and made a sign of respect. Faen’s
finger moved closer to the blade, but did not touch the smoky metal. “Many,
many deaths. Many years, hard years, war years, Malia and white dawns streaked
with blood.” Faen lifted her finger and took a slow breath. “No recent deaths.” “How long?” asked Ryth. Her head jerked and crystal rang painfully. “One year ...
maybe more. She was old, many maturities.” “She?” snapped Kayle. “No woman attacked us on Vintra!” Faen did not hear. She stood very still, eyes shut,
gathering herself to touch the seething emotions permeating the old knife. With
a silent sigh, she touched a single fingertip to the hilt of the knife. Her
breath hissed through her teeth and her body jerked, but her voice was
controlled, emotionless. “Discipline and blood and desire. Give or receive death. And
at last she received. Death by wire, splintering the Topaz Arcade.” Faen lifted
her finger and let out her breath. “The Topaz Arcade is part of the Trembling
Mountain y’Kel, part of the Sandoliki Compound. She died on Malia, not Vintra,” “No women attacked us in that back alley on Vintra,”
repeated Kayle slowly. “At least, I believe there were no women. It was dark,
and we fought quickly.” “But,” said the Sharnn, “we are certain that none of the
assassins died by wire.” Faen brushed the hilt again and her body swayed like zamay.
“There is something,” she said, frowning. “A dark tide boiling, powerful. More
powerful than any aura I’ve ever felt, except—did you handle this knife, Ryth?” “May I?” said Ryth, gesturing to her area of the room. “My husband need never ask to enter my space.” Ryth said nothing while he inspected the knife. Its tip had
a backward curve ending in a needle point that had been broken off. “No,” said Ryth, not recognizing the broken tip. “Kayle must
have picked up this one. But very carefully.” Ryth looked back to Kayle, who
gestured confirmation. “No flesh met blade.” Faen watched the knife as though it might come alive at any
moment. “If Kayle did not touch it, and you did not touch it, some other man
did. A man of stillness and stealth and ... power. Yes, power rising and
writhing like a shadow ... hungry ...” Her eyes were opaque, seeing an ugliness
her voice refused to describe. The Sharnn felt coldness move through him, unwanted pattern,
but his voice was calm as he asked, “Malian?” Faen shuddered. “I don’t know. I hope not.” “Was the knife obtained on Malia?” asked Kayle. “Probably,” said Ryth. “Few Malians ever leave the planet.” “And fewer assassins,” added Faen. “If Lekel sent them?” prodded Kayle. Faen looked at both men, wrapped the knife and moved to return
it to the cupboard. “Wait,” said Ryth, his voice oddly strained. “How did the
man die?” Faen’s lips thinned at the urgency she sensed beneath his
calm. “He is alive—as much as any shadow is. If I haven’t imagined him
entirely.” She snapped her fingers with impatience. “The woman’s death blankets
everything. I’ll have to get beyond it to the few instants he held the knife.
If he held it at all. What I sensed may simply be her knowledge that a man
killed her.” “But then how did the knife end up on Vintra?” asked Kayle
reasonably. Slowly, Faen approached the knife again and curled her
fingers around the hilt. Her body cringed, then stiffened. Her fingers tightened
until her hand trembled, but still she said nothing. Ryth touched her mind with incredible delicacy. The
trembling of her hand stopped and he sensed fatigue like an enormous tide
rising in her mind. He realized then that she should never have been allowed to
touch and live so many deaths at once. “There is only one way,” she said coolly. “Faen—” But even as he spoke, she raised the hilt to her forehead,
pressed the metal into her flesh as though to force a joining. Her slender body
went rigid and her blue-green ring burned with a clear, hard light. “Waiting—” she whispered hoarsely. “Waiting, old hands, are
they still fast? Soon, soon, soonsoon NOW and THRUST and—” Faen screamed horribly, a shriek that gurgled into choking silence
while her straining body arced backward and a thin red line blazed across her
throat as though an invisible wire tightened lethally. Ryth drove his mind into hers as he knocked the knife away
from her forehead. He wrenched her mind out of the knife’s lethal past with a
bolt of thought/emotion/demand that was a force as stunning as the death she
had unlocked. Caught between the two conflicting imperatives, her mind tried to
shake itself apart. Instinctively, the Sharnn reinforced his call with the compelling
resonances of t’sil’ne. Mind and voice and body united in persuasion, gentle
fingertips and palms and lips and thighs compelling her attention, holding her
in a soft net of undemanding pleasure. Slowly, slowly, the death scream faded to a jagged memory.
He traced the wire mark on her throat with the tip of his tongue, transforming
the brand of agony into spreading pleasure. Her mind stopped fighting and relaxed,
barely conscious, focused entirely on the superb beauty of his touch. He sensed the fragile link growing between them. He moved
delicately, lips and tongue and fingertips strengthening the bond. She stirred,
warm sigh and luminous eyes, fingertips stroking lines of fire on his throat,
sliding across his chest, tangling softly in the breath from his lips. Her
scent and taste swept across him like a blow, releasing a hunger for her that
was overwhelming. The depth of his response shocked him into stillness, his
mind closed as a stone. She sensed only a massive emotional surge, then
complete withdrawal. She felt the tears on her face but could no more stop them
than she could forget being touched with such haunting skill. “Next time,” she whispered raggedly, “don’t.” She sensed his surprise and sudden anger and some other emotion
that he was barely holding in check. Disgust, she assumed. In rage and humiliation,
she spoke directly into his mind. *Do you think I like feeling your revulsion? Do you think it
pleases me to feel like bird slime to be scraped off your sleeve?* Then Faen realized that she had used mindspeech. Her eyes
slitted. “Some day I will be able to kill you, Sharnn. I look forward
to it!” “Faen,” he said, his voice thick with restraint, fingers
reaching for her sweet skin. “I wasn’t—” The edge of her hand flashed and only his Sharnn reflexes
saved a smashed wrist. “No more of your lying fingertips!” The Sharnn’s own frustration blazed until his eyes were
green stone and shadows. “As you wish, Sandoliki Ti.” He turned his back on her
and went to stand next to Kayle on the other side of the boundary line. “Did you learn anything, Faen?” said Kayle. “From the
knife,” he added when she turned on him with feral swiftness. Faen stared at Kayle for a long moment, then the flat white
of her eyes deepened into pale blue crystal. “I think a man killed her,” she
said evenly. “He is still alive.” “The throat-cutter?” said Kayle to Ryth. “Yes.” Ryth glanced sideways at Faen. “Could the White Dawn
Guild identify that knife, tell us who the owner was and when she died?” “Yes ...” “But?” “If she died during meega, no one will talk.” “Not even for the Sandoliki Ti?” “For no one.” Faen glanced at the coded light display around
the bottom of the freight Access platform. “It’s late on the Ice Continent,”
she said, reading the shifting color codes off the display. “Tomorrow?” Kayle curbed his impatience and agreed reluctantly. Ryth
said nothing, merely waited, but he did not know for what. Faen ignored them
and stretched with an odd rippling movement that was part of the ritual dances
of faal-hnim. Her muscles flexed and relaxed in counterpoint to her chiming
anklets. With a small sigh she finished stretching and walked toward the red
cupboards. Ryth grappled with the impulse to tell her of her beauty,
black hair and gold skin flowing to crystal murmurs, but all he said was,
“Shouldn’t you rest?” “Only the last weapon was difficult.” But for all her outward calm, Ryth sensed the strain that pervaded
her body, the reluctance to touch yet more ugliness and violent death. The first weapon she found was n’Qen’s. “Malian,” said Faen tonelessly. “Made on the Copper Coast.
Assassin of the Green Rain Guild.” Her fingertips traced the blade without touching it. “Few
deaths. None recent. Good energy.” One finger touched the hilt. Her hand shook,
then steadied and her voice took on the tones of one reciting a lesson. “Fear
and despair and shame,” she murmured, eyes closed, lips pale. “I’m too young to
fight him he is so quick too-quick-caught. Must die NO KILL ME I CANT PLEASE
ahhhh ... so quick.” Faen withdrew her hand and looked at the Sharnn. “He died
thanking you.” Ryth’s expression was bleak, closed. The remaining weapons told little, in spite of their
consistently high energy levels. When the cupboard folded around the last
m’vire, Faen staggered slightly, then stood with arms braced against the
cupboard, head down, fighting off the sensory overload that was pushing her
into unconsciousness. “She uses herself too hard,” said Kayle. “That is the only way to learn the limits of her talent,”
said Ryth. “She has neither equals nor superiors to teach her.” He went to Faen and lifted her in his arms. Her earrings and
anklets chimed among the folds of her cape as he carried her to a nearby
pallet. Dazed, she turned her head toward his warmth, murmuring against his
hand; crystal bells caught in her hair, chiming in tangled black. Gently he
freed the earrings, curling his fingers around the cool bells until they were
captive, silent. He reached out to smooth away the lines that death had etched
in her face, then remembered her flashing hatred at his touch. He opened his
hands and let the earrings chime against her soft skin. “It appears that my touch destroys you, Faen, rather than
yours destroying me,” he murmured. Though her eyes showed a silver rim beneath black lashes,
she neither heard nor spoke. “Well?” demanded Kayle. Ryth stood up with barely controlled ferocity. “Give her
space!” Kayle stepped back hastily. “Regrets, Sharnn. Is she all
right?” “She needs a few moments. Alone.” “Tell me something I don’t know,” snapped Kayle. “You’re more familiar with psi talents than I—you teach me,”
said Ryth coldly. “But you know more about Faen than anyone does.” Ryth looked quizzically at Kayle. “You’ve touched her mind,” said Kayle. “I can’t even listen
to the edges of it.” Ryth shifted uneasily, preferring to remember the textures
of her flesh rather than the sliding depth of mind-touch. Then he tried to
remember nothing at all. “We’ll have to watch her,” Ryth said. “The demands of her talent
are many and complex; more than I had conceived of, perhaps more than I can
conceive of. But this I know—the rewards of her talent are meager.” His lips thinned
and the clean planes of his face hardened. “Do you know what we’re asking her
to do, Kayle? Do you really know?” “Teach me.” “She died vicariously many times today. The first knives
weren’t bad, too little energy to carry the full emotions of violent death. But
the White Dawn knife ...” Ryth’s body flexed, rejecting the agony he had sensed
as Faen choked on cold wire tightening. “Don’t permit her to read objects
alone. Ever.” “You struck her, then held her like a lover,” said Kayle
bluntly. “Why?” “The knife’s energies were strong, too strong, so strong
that when she pressed the hilt to her forehead the past overrode reality and
she became the White Dawn assassin at the moment of dying. “Faen would have died if the knife had stayed against her
forehead. She would have died with a crushed throat and a bleeding wire mark
around her neck.” Kayle shuddered. “I won’t let her read objects alone.” He
blinked and his orange eyes fastened on Ryth. “Did she want to die? Is that why
she lashed out at you?” “No.” Kayle waited, but the Sharnn said nothing further. “Are you
sure?” pressed Kayle. “Yes.” “Teach me.” “No.” Kayle’s body became perfectly still, a predator crouching,
then he let his breath out to fill the silence. “I would help you if I could,” said Kayle softly. “Remember
that, Sharnn,” “And her?” “If I could.” “Then pray to your Allgod that we don’t kill each other
before you learn what the Carifil wish to know.” Ryth turned abruptly and strode to another part of the dome,
the fifth floor, which had a large h’kel with neither tapestries nor
furnishings. In other cultures, such a room might have been used for
conversations, art arrangements, games, meals or meditation. In Malia, it was
used for faal-hnim. Ryth spread his cape in a sunny niche, then walked to the
exact center of the room. He stood, flexing large and small muscles. Kayle
watched from the door, riveted by the sight of a Sharnn poised in the opening
moments of faal-hnim, the dance that contained every lethal movement known to
three hundred races of man. The intensely disciplined flexing warmed and stretched every
muscle in Ryth’s lean body, preparing him for the strenuous dance. He had
chosen the slowest, most demanding mode of faal-hnim. He moved as though wading
against a viscous force. Each muscle stood out with separate strain and his
skin shone with sweat. The Sharnn did not notice Kayle’s rapt attention, nor Faen’s
later appearance. He had given himself over to the stylized imperatives of
faal-hnim, lost himself in the flowing leaps, sudden kicks, and intense stillnesses
of the dance. His concentration was a force as savage as the controlled surge
of his strength, his power and grace like deep water bending over rock. Faen and Kayle watched wordlessly while Ryth executed a difficult
series of moves known as Falling Leaves. When the last gesture was complete,
the Sharnn flowed directly into another demanding series known as the Viper and
the Bird. “He has rare stamina,” said Kayle softly, though he knew
that mere words could not break Ryth’s concentration. “And beauty,” said Faen, silver eyes measuring his
disciplined body. “I’ve watched many people dance the Viper and the Bird, but
never with his ease. I’ve seen only one movement more graceful.” “What was that?” “Ryth’s diving roll to avoid the m’vire.” Faen watched the Sharnn with singular concentration, her own
body unconsciously flexing in echo of his. When he began the extremely difficult
moves known as h’Nym Unfolding, she smiled and her body shivered in subdued
excitement. “He should dance with crystal music,” she whispered. “He should stop,” said Kayle curtly. “He asks too much of
himself.” “No,” said Faen. “He must ask, for who else can? You’ll
never see his equal.” Kayle’s eyes brooded like coals over the Sharnn, still
moving with the inevitable grace of water. “Some people could better him in
individual moves.” Faen’s hands clapped once, hard, contempt and dismissal. “No
single person could surpass him move for move. He understands the imperatives
of faal-hnim; he knows that if you give yourself to the dance, it will give you
perfect balance and strength. You become faal-hnim, the poised infinite.” “He knows the patterns,” agreed Kayle. “Yes,” said Faen, bitterness thinning her lips. “To the
Sharnn it is all black letters on white walls. Perhaps that’s why he feels so
few emotions.” “Not every pattern is easy for him,” said Kayle. “His own
eludes him. And yours.” “My pattern repels him.” “He has an unusual way of showing it,” muttered Kayle, vividly
remembering Ryth’s body speaking to her flesh. Faen’s breath hissed as she, too, remembered. “Malia’s
tactile language is simply another pattern,” she said coldly. “He lies very
skillfully with his body. Better than a Malian whore.” Kayle measured her closed expression and changed the subject.
“Did you feel that there was anything unusual about the first weapons you
touched?” “The Ice Continent knives?” “Yes.” “The weapons didn’t fit,” she said indifferently, still
consumed by the Sharnn’s beauty. “Teach me.” Faen sighed and looked away from Ryth. “Ask the Sharnn what
chance there is that a group of Vintran—or even Malian—assassins would all
carry new knives from Malia’s Ice Continent.” Kayle grunted. “Very small, I’m sure. What about the mixture
of guild marks?” “Irrelevant. Assassins work together, no matter what their
guild.” Kayle rocked thoughtfully up on the balls of his feet, apparently
lost in watching Ryth. Then he said softly, “May I ask the Sandoliki Ti a few
questions?” Without looking away from Ryth’s supple body, Faen said, “So
long as the topic is not Ryth.” Kayle’s smile flickered briefly. “It isn’t. What happens
when you touch something? Do you receive sounds? Pictures? Emotions?” “What do you receive when you remember something?” countered
Faen. “It varies with the type of memory.” “Exactly. And the type of mind remembering.” Faen sighed and
flexed her body, feeling the call of faal-hnim. “Sometimes I receive emotions,
which I try to name. Sometimes it’s a vivid picture/name, like the Topaz
Arcade. Sometimes it’s symbols—very difficult. Sometimes it’s phrases spoken or
thought under extreme stress.” Her hands met and fingers twisted together.
“When the person is dead, what I invariably receive are the moments leading up
to death. The dying.” “And the death?” “No. Simply the process of dying. At death, their energies
stop disturbing the flow of time.” “Is vicarious death painful or frightening to you?” “Death is a sweet release. Dying, though ... so many
unpleasant ways to die. I’ve experienced most of them.” “How many sessions like today can you take?” Faen’s body moved restively. The crystal earrings stirred
and rang. “I don’t know.” She hesitated. “I think I knew the White Dawn
assassin. Or the killer. The aura was ... intimate, familiar,” “Is that why her death affected you so deeply?” “No. She could have been a stranger. It was the wholeness of
her energies—” Faen’s fingers moved in a swift gesture of dislike. “Like
sinking sand along the riverbed, her energies could swallow unsuspecting
lives.” Faen’s fingers unconsciously rubbed the faint red welt that circled her
throat. “Next time,” she said slowly, “I’ll limit touch to fingers, not forehead.” “Does it make that much a difference?” “Yes.” “Why?” “I don’t know.” She tossed her head impatiently and bells
clashed. “It is enough that it does.” As though called by crystal, Ryth awoke from faal-hnim and
focused on the two waiting people. Before he could speak, Faen walked forward
and gave him three energy tablets. “They aren’t the traditional z’khm,” she murmured, silver
eyes measuring energy spent in the sweat shining and flowing over his skin,
“but they’re far more effective.” “Thank you.” “It is small payment,” she said, turning away, “for the
pleasure of watching power and sensuality dance the faal-hnim.” The Sharnn stared at Faen’s back and chewed the tablets
slowly, but when the last particle was dissolved, he was no closer to
understanding her than he had been before. He was tempted—very tempted—to
caress her and test the depth of her desire to kill him. Just as his muscles
coiled with unspoken impulse, the freight Access warning sounded. As one, Faen
and Ryth and Kayle ran toward the Access room. Ryth read the message in the
coded lights and activated the receiver switch. An opaque sheet of electric
blue energy flared across the Access platform. When the light died, thirty
misa-wrapped bundles decorated the platform. To Ryth’s relief, none of them was
large enough to be a corpse. He reached out toward a package. “No,” said Faen quickly, “Don’t handle anything unless you
must.” She gathered up the packages into neat piles and carried
them into the workroom. *Is it possible that she learned so little from the weapons
we took on Vintra?* asked Kayle while they followed her. *The weapons were not what they seemed,* Ryth returned. *Practically
untouched.* *So she said ....* Kayle’s thoughts turned uneasily. *But
why would anyone trouble with such a ruse?* *Malian weapons used on Vintra. Malia gets blamed for whatever
happened.* *You evade the point, pattern-man. Why would anyone bother
to insure that the weapons were barren of auras—unless our throat-slitter knew
in advance about Faen’s talent.* Ryth’s negation was too quick, too thoughtless; the Sharnn
asked a blunt question, as much to distract himself as to gain information. *Don’t you trust her?* *Should I?* countered Kayle. *She is Malian. And I remember
a Vintran whispering about a black-haired woman with eyes like ice.* Ryth closed his eyes and Sharnn emotions stretched. A
pattern turned deep inside his mind, an instant of shadows at the core of
incandescence; then his radiance shredded darkness beyond recall of memory. He
spoke in Kayle’s mind with the precision of a machine. *Possibility: she is working to destroy Vintra; therefore,
she deliberately misled us with the knives. Possibility: she is not working to
destroy Vintra; therefore, the knives were a million-chance accident. Or; the
knives were gathered by someone who hoped the mere fact of Malian manufacture
would be enough to condemn Malia. Or—* *Enough!* interrupted Kayle curtly, wondering if the Sharnn
was hiding behind the pouring thoughts. *I want to be sure she isn’t lying to
us. Stay in her mind.* *No.* *Why?* *Mindtouch with Faen, even the lightest touch, is a very intimate
experience. Not something for the uninvited.* *Does mindtouch with me bother you?* pressed Kayle. *We don’t touch each other’s mind—not really.* *What do you mean?* *When I touch her mind, I feel her breath and heartbeat and
blood moving in mine, and her memories sing in my own.* Kayle was too shocked to answer; he carefully thought about
nothing at all. Until, finally, he sighed. *What you describe is the beginning
of fusion, Ryth. It’s a process that’s far deeper, far more complex, than mere
mindspeech or even mindlink.* He paused and the Sharnn sensed a turmoil of
unformed thought. *Be wary, Ryth. Fusion can be dangerous, especially when one
person is unwilling.* *How is it dangerous?* *I don’t know. I’ve never been able to fuse.* *But your talent—* Ryth grappled with his elusive thoughts. *If
you can’t, how can I?* *It requires two to fuse,* returned Kayle dryly. *I’ve never
found the second.* Ryth’s response was shock, then a shuttering of all thought
while he examined what he had learned to see if it belonged to any known patterns.
But even when his mind opened again, the Sharnn asked nothing more about
mindspeech, mindtouch, mindlink or fusion. Nor did Kayle press, for Faen had
stored the last package safely and was ready to begin again. Ryth reached for her mind—and touched a blaze of
fear/anger/pain that made him reel. At the core of her feelings was an explosive
demand for privacy, a demand she reinforced by shutting down her mind and
refusing to work. *My error,* murmured Ryth into her closing mind. “My regret.* *What’s wrong?* demanded Kayle, sending with his thought a
picture of Ryth’s face suddenly lined by pain. *Faen requires mental privacy. She now has it.* Kayle hissed a Nendleti curse. Faen did not look at either man. She walked over to the wall
of cupboards, touched the first one in the pale green section. A tongue
extruded. On it gleamed a small silver chain. Slowly Faen moved her hand above
the necklace. “Vivid energy. Intensely female. Neither Malian nor Vintran.
Brilliant and quicksilver and—” Faen stopped. Puzzlement flickered over her
face. Then she continued. “Young, very young—” Ryth glanced at Kayle, saw the Nendleti’s brown face creased
by sorrow that deepened with each word Faen spoke. “—and dead.” There was a stroke of anguish from Kayle. Ryth touched Kayle
in the Malian way, fingers speaking of loss and memories. “She died to save another,” said Faen as her fingertip
warmed the cold chain, “a man whose touch was her last memory. She died with a
poisoned m’vire buried in her throat and screams splintering around her, not
her screams but others screaming and running while he held her blood flowing
between his fingers too fast and she smiled and others ran, trampling and
yelling and she died, blood overflowing his hands.” Without looking up, Faen said, “Her energy pleases me. What
was her name?” “Concord Agent Limaire.” “Did her man survive?” “No,” said Kayle briefly. “How did he die?” “I hope that you can verify what we guessed,” said Kayle.
“We never found Lsite’s body.” “Then maybe he lives,” said Faen with sudden fierceness.
“Maybe—” “No.” With a long breath, Faen released the second cupboard. In it
was a headband of indestructible narhide. Bits of precious metal were woven into
the leather, making a sly design that hinted of something marvelous hovering
just beyond reach. She smiled without knowing why. Ryth stared intently at the headband, trying to decipher its
teasing pattern. Then his lips twitched with silent laughter. *I would have liked him, Kayle.* *How do you know that belonged to a man?* *I hear his laughter in the pattern.* *In the pattern? Or in her thoughts?* Before Ryth could answer, Faen spoke. “Male,” she said softly. “I wish you could hear his
laughter. He loved life.” The smile drained from her face when she touched the headband.
Again, puzzlement flickered. The Sharnn brushed her thoughts so lightly that
neither one of them realized it. He sensed a haunting aura of familiarity
calling out from the headband—as it had from the necklace. “Neither Vintra nor Malia. He died—” Her fingers curled
around the headband, tightened convulsively and she gasped, “—died by poison—at
the foot—of the Blue—Shrine!” She dropped the headband just as Ryth grabbed for it. Slowly,
she regained control of her voice and breathing. “Are you sure it was poison?” asked Kayle. “Yes. L’shu.” She shuddered away from what she had felt. “L’shu
on an ice dart. Cowards! I weep that my enemy breeds such cowards!” Kayle waited, then asked, “What is the effect of l’shu?” “It causes restricted breathing followed by paralysis,” Faen
said evenly. “Unless an antidote is given, death comes. Very slowly.” “Is the drug easy to detect?” “Nearly impossible. At normal temperatures, 1’shu
volatilizes in less than a ten-count.” “Thus the ice dart,” said Ryth. “Yes.” “Where and what is the Blue Shrine?” said Kayle. “Blue Shrine?” repeated Faen, puzzled. “You mentioned a Blue Shrine just before you dropped the
headband.” Faen rubbed fingertips against her forehead. “Blue Shrine.
Blue. I don’t remember saying it.” “Do you always remember?” asked the Sharnn. “Yes, unless I’m too tired to—” She cursed and grabbed the
headband with a speed that defeated Ryth’s restraining hand. “Blue—yes—” She
gasped hoarsely and her body jerked. “Too steep—too—HELP—ahhh Limaire—” Faen’s
head jerked and her earrings jangled harshly. “Close and so blue—falling—”
laughter, sudden and bitter “at the Blue—God’s—feet.” The headband slipped from her fingers. “Blue God,” she murmured
in confusion, “Blue God.” “Was he Ribollian?” asked the Sharnn suddenly. Kayle blinked. “Yes.” “Isn’t their Blue God the symbol of sky, of space, of
freedom?” “Yes,” said Kayle, eyes intent on the Sharnn. “The Blue God’s shrines are placed at the entrance to all
Ribollian Accesses.” “But he didn’t die on Ribolli,” said Kayle heavily. “Vintra,” interrupted Faen, her eyes dazed with sudden memories.
“He died on Vintra at the foot of the blue ramp leading to Sima’s third Access.”
She closed her eyes and her shoulders sagged. “Yes, the third Access, the
freight Access. Ahhh, Great Destroyer, what did you do to make him attempt that
way out?” “Freight Access?” Kayle grimaced. “That’s certain death.” “I thought that, once,” said Faen with a thin smile. “I
survived it.” “So that’s how you escaped from Vintra,” said Ryth. “Yes.” She gestured to the headband. “He hoped to escape
with precious knowledge, but the ice dart found his back.” “What did he know?” demanded Kayle. Faen made a frustrated, negative gesture. “The headband
isn’t enough. Bring me his corpse,” “I can’t. We never found Lsite’s body.” She rubbed her fingertips over her drawn face in an unconscious
gesture of awakening. With a sigh she tapped the next cupboard. It unfolded
around a worn gold ring. Faen’s fingers approached the ring tentatively, and
again a haunted expression crossed her face. “What is it?” asked the Sharnn gently. “I don’t know. Each of the objects—” Earrings cried as she
shook her head. “I don’t know!” She touched the edge of the ring. “Female.
Bright energy. Sensual and quick.” The fingers lifted and Faen frowned. “Malian?” asked Ryth. “Vintran? Other?” “That’s it!” she cried, eyes narrowed as she looked back on
her past. “That’s what I was asked each time!” She turned to Ryth and her eyes
burned like silver flame. “I’ve touched these people before.” “I thought you touched no—” began Kayle. “Not physically,” she snapped, her eyes never leaving the
Sharnn’s attentive face. “I touched something of theirs. I’ve sensed them
before.” “For whom? And why?” “People come to me,” she said, with a dismissing gesture. “Do you remember who brought—” “No,” she said impatiently. “Only the objects I touch are
real. The people who bring them are less than shadows.” “What questions did you answer?” said Ryth, green eyes compelling
her to look deeply into her memory. “The same question you asked—were the people Vintran, Malian,
or alien.” The Sharnn’s eyes stared through her for a long moment, then
his full lips twisted in a bitter smile. “Tell me, Kayle,” he said softly. “Did your agents pose as
Vintrans?” “Of course,” snapped Kayle. “That was the only way to get
freedom of movement on Vintra. But their cover was as perfect as Concord
talents could make. The agents knew the language and the land and the traditions
as well as any native!” “And their minds?” prodded the Sharnn gently. “Could their
minds fool a finder?” Kayle made a sound deep in his throat, a sound that was both
answer and apology to the dead. Faen looked at him, then back to Ryth. Her eyes
were dull beneath black lashes; she knew she had been used to condemn people to
death. She looked away and touched the ring. “Poison,” she gasped, controlling a throat spasm with difficulty.
She snatched her finger back. “Symptoms?” snapped Kayle. “Convulsions that broke the neck and spine.” “Does the poison resemble the effects of a native disease?” “It is a poison first, then a disease,” answered Faen. “Teach me,” Kayle said harshly. “I can’t I don’t know the structure of pekh,” she said
dully. “I only know it is endemic to Malia.” Faen put her finger through the ring. Her breath caught in
her throat; she cried out hoarsely and tore the ring off her finger.
“She—agony. Glass on floor. Cut. And later, between convulsions, she wondered
how they knew.” Faen’s fingers squeezed together and she whispered to the gold
ring, “A horrible way to die.” When Faen reached for the next cupboard, Ryth wanted to stop
her, wanted her to rest until the hard white lines left her face, but he knew
she would refuse. Someone had used her; she would find out who. And then she
would kill the person who had so little respect for the Sandoliki Ti. As object followed object, death followed death, Faen seemed
to thin before their eyes. Her voice became ragged and her hands trembled constantly,
but when the Sharnn argued she snapped her fingers in contempt and reached for
yet another cupboard. The object inside was a hammered gold armband set with five
Mivayli firestones. Faen’s eyes widened as though she recognized the band. Her
finger brushed it, then retreated. She squeezed her eyes shut and her body quivered.
Every aspect of her cried out with a need not to touch again. The two white
lines on either side of her mouth deepened and sweat shone on her face. She
raised her hands to her lips and moaned very softly. “Faen,” said Ryth. “Faen?” Her only answer was a single tear that supped from an
eyelash to the corner of her mouth. *Faen?* Gently, then with growing power, the Sharnn asked to
know what was wrong. *Faen!* She sought him with the same reflex that drove a freezing
animal toward warmth. He went to her quickly, hands reaching, skill and
strength and warmth touching. She shivered at the warmth of his palm on her forehead.
For the space of a breath she accepted, then she withdrew. “The band belongs to Sandoliki Ti,” she said. “He—” Her
voice broke, but no more tears escaped from her dark lashes. Ryth felt the waves of her grief sweep through him and
wanted to cry out but could only bow beneath the knowledge that she wept mind
and body for a man. *Who is he?* Ryth demanded of Kayle. *Relle, her dead husband.* *Dead? She spoke as though he lived.* *He does—in her mind.* “I’m sorry, Faen,* Kayle said. *If I had known, I would
never—” “Accepted,” said Faen, her voice low and colorless. There
was no way you could have known. Did that armband belong to a man named Ino?” “Yes.” “Relle and Ino exchanged armbands. A ritual from Ino’s culture.”
Her voice squeezed to a whisper. Then her head came up and her voice
strengthened. “When Relle ... died ... he wore Ino’s armband. A woman tore it
from Relle’s arm and gouged out the five unsleeping eyes of friendship.” Ryth looked at the five gems, unwinking in the gold band. “I killed that woman. Very slowly. She died cursing her
greed for firestones. But Relle ...” Faen closed her eyes. “Ino is dead,
wearing Relle’s armband. More than that I can’t tell you, unless I hold the
armband until I am free from the shockwaves of Relle’s death. And from the
memory of our life.” The Sharnn sensed that Faen did not want to be free, for in
her memories she lived again in the world of tactile sensuality, a world her
talent had closed to her. The more he examined this new aspect of her pattern
the more angry he became, but the pattern of his own anger puzzled him, so he
said nothing and showed nothing, closed and silent as only a Sharnn can be. A whistling sigh from Kayle pulled Ryth out of his thoughts.
In unspoken agreement, all three of them turned toward the next cupboard, wondering
if any cupboard held more for them than a futile reliving of past death. No cupboard did. By darkness Faen was brittle and worn,
knowing only that she had been an unwitting tool for a coward, a murderer. Nor
were Ryth and Kayle much calmer; they ate in silence, went to separate h’kels
in silence and struggled for sleep in silence, each knowing that every agent
had died a murderer’s victim. No accidents. Just murder by stealth and shadow. When Faen was sure that both men slept, she took off her crystal
bells, pulled on her scarlet bridal robes and slipped silently out into the
night. The breeze whispered around her, stirring dead leaves into a semblance
of life. Three moons curved across the night, moons as brilliant as her eyes
and the sarsa bathed in silver mystery. With barely subdued excitement, she
freed two m’sarsas from their loops and drew the rods across her lips, hot
breath flowing across silver. “Call him back,” she whispered, lips brushing metal “Bring
him back to me!” The m’sarsas glowed in triple moonlight and struck music
from waiting crystal. Notes became a song, a man’s song created every day of
his life, summation and soul; she called to him with all her need and sarsa
skill. And he answered. The Sharnn woke instantly, completely. He held himself
utterly still while mind and body searched for whatever had awakened him.
Moonlight flowed into his h’kel, bringing silver across the room, lighting each
curve of wall and pillow. No one else was near. He let his breath out slowly,
but could not return to sleep. With a stifled curse, he swept off the sleeping robe.
Moonlight poured silver down his naked flesh. The wall opened at a touch,
bringing to him the smell of rust and ancient stone and hidden midnight
flowers. He lifted his arms to the cool beauty of the night, felt the lazy
stirring of his body. He smiled, then the smile faded. Faint music shivered
through the silky darkness, ghost chimes from a sensual past. A breeze sighed over him, music through his hair. But the
breeze was replaced by crystal desire singing to his blood, whispering to his
mind. He pulled the music fiercely to him, demanding its pattern. Then fire
raced through him and he ran out into the night. He slipped through abandoned
gardens, eyes blinded by a vision of the sarsa, silver and black and diamond
bright, three moons pressing out triple shadows, triple life, black velvet
warmth of her breath. He threw his head back and laughed and moonlight ran like
water over his awakened flesh. Across the compound, Faen stood in front of the hanging crystals,
arms spread. In her hands two slender m’sarsas burned with sensual heat. She
swept the wands across the waiting crystals and music leaped, a firestorm of
pure desire. The exultation that shook her came to him like lightning and he
knew he must find her, be with her. Touch her. The Sharnn took a stone pathway gleaming under the moons. He
ran on the path inside the circular compound, past abandoned kels and ghost gardens,
seeking a way to the living outer garden where sensuality trembled like a field
of zamay unfolding. Tantalizing crystal sighs fired his body, but the path
shied away, bending back toward ruins and darkness and a maze that had no exit. He stopped, breathing lightly, feeling the patterns of maze
and compound and three-faced moonlight. Six circular walls, now little more
than tall rubble heaps overrun by war and nightvines’ embrace; two inner
circles, walls nearly intact, surrounding emptiness but for the wedge of land
leading from the green spring to the sarsa and ending at the dome. He was
opposite that wedge. Crystal notes mocked pattern skills and licked tongues of
fire through his mind. His green eyes raked the remnant garden until he found a
choked side-path that twisted among trees holding withered leaves up to the
three moons and the taste of rust and he was running again, running through
Sandoliki ruins, brittle gardens and stone mazes, running and never retracing a
step, never hesitating, for he might have placed each stone himself, might have
known every turning, might have been born solely for this night, this garden,
this unfolding moment. The path was a faded ribbon curving past dry fountains and dying
trees until a pale scent of water sweetened his throat and a living stand of ancient
tere trees bloomed ebony against the silver light. The dense moon-shade of the
grove folded the Sharnn in subtle beauty, slow caress, held him though he
wanted to reach her, held him though he writhed to be in the clearing with her
where moonlight poured over the sarsa like pale fire, making each crystal a
jewel carved but of living light. Crystal chimes resonant with time and the
passage of lives called to him, but he could not penetrate the shadow pattern;
he was pushed back by moonlight and a barrier made before he knew her, scarlet
mesh flowing black beneath three moons and her body an echo of lightning. The m’sarsas burned with motion, beauty that defied pattern
just as she did. With an inarticulate cry he sagged against the thick shadows
and ached to touch her, ached to understand, and finally succumbed to the
unmeant seduction of slow chords drifting over him, harmonies older than tere
or garden, older than ruined lives, ancient notes telling of the binding of man
to woman. Then he knew the pattern and could not even cry out his
rage. Too late to flee, strength tangled in shadow while night poised,
spinning in a vortex of moonlight held between gentle hands, pouring past and
present together, and she laughed deep in her body and wept deep in her body
and stroked the sarsa with tireless skill so that she lived again in a land not
ruined, laughed again with people not maimed, lay again in the arms of a man
not dead ... touched him, touched Relle condensing beside her, tall and vivid,
passionate strength bending over her and strong hands singing ecstasy to her
flesh, her warm lips speaking against his cool silver skin, her life pouring
out so that shadow became substance and Relle bending—come closer can’t you
come closer to me RELLE CANT YOU— And Ryth’s wrenching mental cry. Relle’s silver shape twisted, black light shook and the
longest crystal boomed, vire crystal, death crystal shaking apart. Relle’s
song, song and death and death and song and death, screams raging in her mind
and in Ryth’s closed throat as her fury scourged them and he knew the beating
heart of loss and darg vire. M’sarsas swept like lightning across one hundred crystal
faces. Violence exploded, searing, until both Faen and Ryth were subsumed by
the vire crystal’s tolling death, death tolling until moonlight shattered into
Faen swaying while the smallest crystals wept of former lives, living shadows,
life pouring into darkness that shadows might condense into life until a Sharnn
screamed beneath three moons. And silence like a ragged sigh. With shaking hands Faen hung the m’sarsas in their loops and
sank to the ground, weeping in a seething mix of frustration and grief and
rage. The Sharnn sagged to his knees, mind reeling in the sudden release of
compulsion, too shaken by what had happened to do more than stare at her. Slowly he realized that she once again wore bridal scarlet.
She wore scarlet for a shadow called by the sarsa, ghostly synergy of life and
non-life bound by the compelling near-life neither alone could create. Hidden
somewhere in those hundred sightless crystals was uncanny vision, consummation
of all desires, all patterns, all. Relle was not dead. Not always. Nor was Faen always alive. Anger replaced weakness in Ryth’s body. He went to her, contempt
and rage growing with each step. Hearing his approach, she pulled herself to
her feet, silver eyes as blank as sarsa crystal. She pushed waves of black hair
out of her face and stared defiance at him. “Think, Sharnn,” she said, voice streaked with rage. “Think
what it means to be Malian and be barred from touch!” The hard edges of his contempt broke and his anger
flickered, for he knew that she lived every instant in a unique, pervasive agony. “Yes,” she whispered, measuring the change in his lips and
eyes. “Yes. Yet you drove him back. Even the Great Destroyer does not hate me
that much. Sarsa memories may be a shadow, but when you are thirsty, the shadow
of water is better than real sand.” “If Relle lived—truly lived—you could not touch him without
agony,” said Ryth, his voice hard with a certainty that she could not deny, pattern-man
and Sharnn. Faen made an involuntary noise and put up her hands as
though to attack—or ward off an attack. “Relle is lost to you,” said Ryth brutally. “You can’t even
touch the timeshadow of his mind without agony, can you? Can you!” Faen stared at his face, hard in the triple moonlight and
his eyes a fierce green. And knew he was right. What she called with the sarsa
was her own creation wearing Relle’s face. “Why?” said Faen raggedly. “What have I done to you?” “Relle is dead,” said the Sharnn, his voice cruel. “What you
do is obscene.” A sudden stillness transformed Faen’s body, a warning as
clear as a shout. “How easy for you to say,” she hissed. “How easy for the
Sharnn who has never known emotion, much less consummation.” Her left hand
moved up as though to push her hair aside again and she whispered, “How very
easy.” Her hands slowly brushed the back of her neck. A throwing
knife leaped to her fingertips. Her hand snapped down and the knife hissed
through moonlight, but Ryth had begun to move the instant her hand passed beyond
her hair. Even so, the knife scored his neck as he dove toward her. His arm
lashed out, sweeping her feet off the ground. With a sudden twist in midair,
she righted herself and landed just beyond his reach. She laughed, throat taut
in the moonlight, scarlet mesh black and hissing around her knees. “I’m free of you, laseyss. I’m free!” “Are you?” he said, eyes never leaving Faen’s poised body,
for even though she was at the edge of exhaustion, she was speed and death waiting.
“And what of your truce word?” “I promised only a warning,” she said, breathing quickly, circling
him with flashing moves, eyes and lips too pale for life. “I moved at
half-speed, warning you. You’re very quick, my almost husband.” The Sharnn’s answer was to move with blurring speed, hands
reaching for the woman, who cried aloud her anger when she realized she was too
tired to break away. Her eyes darkened as he held her pinned between his body
and his arms. “Tell me,” he said angrily, lips tasting her face, “isn’t
this better than Relle’s cold touch?” The impulse to kill convulsed Faen, but Ryth only laughed
and tightened his arms. “That’s not what your fingertips told me this morning,” he
said. His lips caught hers and she coiled against his arms, testing the
strength of his hold, searching for a weakness. “You’re too tired to fight me effectively,” Ryth said
huskily. “And I’m too smart to try you when you’re rested. I’ll let you go
soon,” he said, smiling, his teeth a slash of light below his eyes. “But first
I want you to know something. Use your talent, my dangerous wife. When you responded
to my touch this morning—” Faen’s back arched with the force of her fear. Every fiber
of her screamed to be free, not to have to hear that she was repulsive to him,
not to have to feel his crushing withdrawal from her touch. She shook with fear
of him and the night tripled with moons swimming in black and her tired body
falling. “—my own response shocked me.” He laughed, lips warm against
her throat, arms painfully tight to contain her disciplined struggles. Her muscles convulsed again, straining against his presence,
against the fire that burned across her nerves wherever their bodies met, and
it seemed that their bodies met everywhere. “I’m going to let myself feel just what I felt this morning
when your body came alive beneath my hands,” he said, pinning her head so that
she must look at him. “Are you ready to read me, m’zamay?” “No,” she gasped, trying to shut down her mind and her
senses, but she was Malian and he was skilled. “Please don’t! I know that you
loathe me. I felt it the first time. I don’t need to feel it again. Please
don’t make me. My error! My regret!” Faen closed her eyes and tears of humiliation and anger
glowed silver in her black lashes. In her desperation she reached out with her
mind, trying to make him understand, believe. *Please! I regret!* *Read me!* His demand sliced through her exhausted defenses at the same
instant that his hands and tongue spoke intimately to her flesh. Half in
despair, half in rage, she answered his sensual assault with a supple movement
of her body that was a slow, twisting pressure against the center of his
desire. She had expected revulsion against the caress, had tried to
brace herself for his annihilating disgust. But what she found in his response
was passion, pure and overwhelming, exploding through her. For a white instant
she came fully alive, mind and body unfolding, reaching for him and
touching—then with a strangled cry she fainted between his hands. He held her while moonlight bled back into garden night,
held her and fought to control feelings he had never conceived of. The moment
of total sensuality had been shattering; neither one of them had been prepared
for such sharing. The Sharnn lifted Faen and carried her into her h’kel, murmuring
apologies against her hair. He lowered her to her sleeping pallet, gently
smoothed the night robe around her and rose to leave. After a few steps he went
back, gathered her against his body and buried his face in her night-scented
hair. His mind delicately touched hers, found only relaxation and
a deep sense of anticipation. Reluctantly, he subdued his body; She needed rest,
not lust. Ryth’s thumb traced the seam of her heavy scarlet clothes.
The mesh hissed apart. Gently, he pulled the cold metal cloth away from her
golden skin. He longed to let lips and tongue trace curves on her flesh, probe
different textures, greatest warmth, but he allowed himself only three lingering
kisses before he covered her softness with a robe. Lips smiling with the taste of her, he knelt to breathe once
more the moonlight tangled in her hair while he tucked the sleep robe around
her. But the robe fell away and her arms slid around his hips. “Don’t leave,” she whispered. “At least let me touch you as
you just touched me.” She rubbed her cheek against the hard strength of his leg in
a gesture of pure sensual pleasure. “No, m’zamay,” he said gently, stroking her neck and
shoulder. “My kisses were promise, not demand. Sleep. I don’t want to push—” He forgot what he had been saying as her teeth nibbled delicately.
She laughed with delight at his response. “It is said,” she murmured, “that a Malian faints only once,
and only for a lover’s skill. Do not worry, my Sharnn. I won’t leave you
again.” He felt the cool fall of her hair across his thighs and the
soft heat of her mouth as she opened to him all the moments of Malian ecstasy. IVFaen stretched with a slow smile. In the instant between
sleeping and waking she searched for an explanation of her pervasive sense of
well-being. Then Ryth stirred, tightening his hold on her and drawing her
against the length of his body. Her fingers moved on the inside of his arm in
slow pressures that told of pleasure and peace. Reassured, Ryth relaxed his
grip. Faen rubbed her palm down his chest and abdomen and thigh with
undemanding intimacy and was answered by a sleepy caress across her breast. “Sleep,” she whispered in his mind, touching his eyelids
with light fingertips and sending feelings of warmth and ease. She slipped out of the shared sleeprobe and dressed in a
brief green pull-up. She hesitated over the crystal anklets and earrings, then
put them on; it was Ryth’s prerogative to remove the bells. She stretched her
body in rippling prelude to faal-hnim. As she did every morning, she went to
the empty h’kel. But this morning she smiled. A few minutes later, Ryth found her there, black hair and
golden body shining as she went through the fluid movements of Sliding Water.
To execute that particular series without sound was difficult; it was nearly
impossible while wearing crystal bells. The sight of the bells gave him a sharp feeling of
displeasure. Then he remembered that the willing mate must remove the crystal
warnings. In his mind he removed the irritating jewelry and gathered her
skilled sensuality against his body. Smiling, the Sharnn admired Faen’s beauty and always-surprising
strength—and was grateful that he had caught her on the edge of exhaustion the
night before. Her timing, poise and balance were extraordinary today. Only once
did he hear the faintest whisper of crystal bells, and that might have been an
echo of his memory. Then he sensed Kayle standing nearby, watching Faen. “You look serious,” said Ryth softly. *I am,* returned Kayle, his mindspeech deft, almost
secretive. *If you ever fight her, go in close, where your strength can counter
her coordination.* Ryth’s answer was a feeling of lazy amusement. *Don’t be so confident, Sharnn,* returned Kayle with a
crackle. *Were it not for her throttled sensuality, she would match you cut for
slice! Although,* he added, *today she certainly is not moving tightly.* *Yes,* agreed Ryth, watching her and remembering the feel of
midnight hair and warm fingers, a knife scoring his neck ... fingertips and
tongue and body calling flesh to flesh with shattering sensuality, and her
ecstasy as he lived and died and was reborn inside her searing softness. Faen’s head fell back, her body arched, and Ryth remembered
her unconscious between his hands, moonlight pearling her lips and eyelashes
and his own strength stunned by what they had revealed to each other. Kayle’s breath whistled as he sensed just a vivid fragment
of Ryth’s memory. *I envy you as a candle must envy the sun. Every Galactic’s
dream is to know the white instant of full Malian sensuality.* Then at Ryth’s
swift apology for accidental broadcasting, Kayle added, *You have shown me the
edge of the dream, the living consummation of all Malian arts. Are all Sharnn
so sensual?* *People of Sharn are whatever they can conceive of being.
That is our gift, our joy, and our despair.* Ryth’s mind closed and he moved lithely into the h’kel, matching
Faen’s grace. Kayle watched them with the intensity of a connoisseur,
memorizing every detail so that one day he could share their disciplined beauty
with them mind to mind, his gift to their mutual discovery. Intensity became
fascination when he realized that they were transforming the lethal motions of
faal-hnim into the slow rhythms of sensual play. When they had finished the Sliding Water series, they stood
facing each other, breaths mingling. Ryth’s hands lifted to her face and his fingertips
wove gently through her hair. When he removed his hands, the earrings were gone.
He lowered his body, fingertips tracing down until he found the anklets. His
fingers flexed, gold chains snapped. Crystal cried once, then no more. When he
stood again, turquoise bells glittered mutely in his palms. “I would like to grind these to dust,” he said slowly, eyes
searching hers. “But I’ll keep them to remind me that there are patterns I
can’t conceive, even when they are closer than my own lips. Especially then.”
One long finger traced her smile. “In fact, there are some things I never even
suspected.” He felt the sensation that began at his fingertip and raced
throughout her body, felt it as though he lived inside her smooth golden skin.
To feel the depth of pleasure his touch gave her was almost as shattering to
him as the instant she had fainted. He laughed shakily and held her at arm’s length. *You must
help me, my Malian bride and teacher. I don’t know how to control what you—what
we—* He smiled and tried again. *How do Malians cope with this?* Faen shivered and he knew as certainly as if she had shouted
that she wanted to kiss the hands holding her. *Malians don’t control
sensuality. We worship it. But this is more. It’s mindtouch. The kind of
mindtouch that penetrates more deeply than any lover, and I become you, you become
me, and we—* She shivered again and gently, very gently, stepped back
from his hands. Both felt the heat of his palms sliding down her arms. With a
fleeting mental caress, Faen turned away and spoke quickly to Kayle. “Will you join us for breakfast? Ryth promised to make me
something from Sharn.” “Delighted,” said Kayle. As he followed them out of the
room, he added casually, “Ti Memned called while you were asleep.” “Did she,” murmured Faen, watching Ryth sort through her
provisions with the speed of a professional thief. Deftly, he combined several
ingredients. “She wanted,” continued Kayle, “to know if the most
seductive Sandoliki Ti Faen’s recent ban on visitors included those who had
dire and immediate need of her most precious, most unique—” “Enough,” said Faen dryly. “Give me the meat and leave the
fat for scavengers like her.” Kayle smiled. “She wants to know if you’ll resume reading objects.” Faen said nothing as she watched Ryth’s sure movements. With
a broad, heavy knife he sliced and flattened several strips of dough. “I
trust,” she said finally, “that you told her to go suck zarfs.” Ryth wrapped the resilient dough around fruit slices and
poured a clear orange sauce over. “I told her that, among other things. She was rather shrill
when she disconnected.” Ryth picked up the fruit rolls and tucked them into a heat
niche. “Call Memned back,” he said, “and tell her that the Sandoliki Ti Faen is
always pleased to aid people who need her talent.” Kayle’s head jerked toward Ryth. “Nonsense! We can’t have
Faen wasting her strength on others, no matter how worthy their needs.” “Or unworthy?” asked Ryth with a feral smile. Kayle’s orange eyes slitted. “Teach me.” “I want you to send at least eight Concord assassins to
Vintra,” said Ryth. “Give them the best backgrounds you can, but get them in
place within two Centrex days.” “Impossible. A decent reality takes more time.” “As long as there are finders like Faen, there is no such thing
as a decent background.” With a quick movement, Ryth skimmed the food out of the
niche. “There should be little danger,” added the Sharnn. “As soon
as someone brings an agent’s object for Faen to read, you’ll warn the agent to
get off-planet.” “What if ‘someone’ murders first and questions later?” Ryth divided the fragrant, steaming food into three
turquoise crystal bowls. “That’s why I want the agents to be assassins.” He
handed out the bowls. “They should be harder to kill.” “Not for a Malian assassin,” said Faen, sniffing her food
appreciatively. “Or even for a Vintran, animals though they are.” “Concord assassins aren’t flowers,” said Kayle dryly. Then
he fell silent for a long moment. “All right. I’ll send out the assassins. Then
I’ll follow whoever comes here asking about—” “I’ll follow,” corrected Ryth. “My pattern awareness will
keep me out of most traps.” “But—” began Kayle, then stopped. The Sharnn was right. “Fine,”
said Kayle in a clipped voice. “We’ll both follow.” “And leave Faen’s back unguarded?” “Just because you caught me when I was exhausted—” began
Faen heatedly. “Not at all,” said Ryth, kissing the inside of her wrist. “But
now that you are no longer the last Sandoliki, you are vulnerable to Lekel’s
ambitions.” His fingertips remained on her wrist, savoring the smooth pulse
just beneath her skin. “I don’t want to lose what I have just found.” “Nor do I,” she shot back. “Who guards you?” The Sharnn said nothing, for there was nothing to say. “Ryth is right,” said Kayle heavily. “If he fails, you are
still our best hope of finding the next person to follow. You must stay here
and help the Carifil who will replace us.” Faen made a disdainful noise and looked over at Ryth. “Kayle
is a good fighter, husband. But he can’t keep me from doing what I must.” Kayle smiled triumphantly. “Just so. I don’t plan on staying
behind, either,” The Sharnn looked from one to the other, started to argue,
then appeared to give in. “Eat your vrri,” he said to her mildly. Then call Memned.”
And to Kayle he added, “When you’re through, get those assassins in place.” For seven days a slow stream of seekers came to Darg Vintra
holding hope in their hands—scarves or rings or rubbing stones—anything that
might tell Faen that what they had lost could be regained. A few sought
treasure, but most wanted only to find a special person. No one brought anything belonging to a Concord agent. In his role as body servant to the two Sandolikis, Kayle’s eyes
swept the public h’kel, searching each person for an assassin’s reflexes. Of
the four seekers who waited, none seemed dangerous. But a good assassin would
be as inconspicuous as dust. *I wish Carifil were here,* grumbled Kayle as Ryth entered
and gestured to the next seeker. *Lekel would never permit it.* *Lekel can suck zarfs!* *He has the mouth for it,* agreed Ryth. *He also controls
the Access.* Kayle vented a surge of frustration. Three Carifil were
sitting on Malia’s inner moon, waiting for Lekel’s permission to come down to
the planet. In an emergency, they would simply take over the shuttle, but until
then they were obeying native regulations. *Mim is lashing me,* thought Kayle, rubbing his temples.
*She wants to try coming in as a seeker.* *With a one-day limit?* asked Ryth as he indicated a sliding
door and followed the seeker inside. *Remember what happened to us?* He added
dryly, *Sandoliki Ti Faen is only permitted one mate.* Kayle sighed as Ryth closed the door. “Sit there,” said the Sharnn quietly, indicating a floor
cushion. “I’ll take your package to her.” The seeker, a woman old before Ryth was born, reluctantly released
the package. At the narrow end of the long, wedge-shaped room, Faen sat on
another cushion. Ryth put the package in front of her and unwrapped it. Gold
bells—earrings and wristlets and anklets—rang with piercing sweetness. They
were the personal jewelry of an aristocratic child, worn before the child was
trained for combat. Ryth watched intently as Faen bent over the bells. Sometimes
what the objects told her was cruel and sickening; then he would snatch her
hand away and hold her until his presence neutralized the gruesome reality she
had touched. Most often, the objects were merely unpleasant. Faen’s slender hand hovered over the gold before descending
with the delicacy of a falling petal She shuddered lightly, then relaxed. The
Sharnn let out his breath; this was not one of the bad ones. “Child-woman,” murmured Faen. “Clear energy. Gone away, far
away.” The old woman whimpered. “Frightened and ... blurred ... triple lives.” Faen’s
fingers curled and bells sang in the silence as they rolled across her palm.
“Ahhhh ... yes ... three. She carries two in her womb and is the third.” Faen’s eyes opened, brilliant with interior distance. “She is alive and pregnant and healthy,” said Faen. “Do you
need more?” “Where?” said the woman in a dry voice that was barely above
a whisper. With a sigh, Faen reached out, scooped, bells in both hands
ringing as she swayed with conflicting energies. “Empty ... ahhh, Great Destroyer, I did not know you made
land so empty and charcoal dark plants crackling, purple sky and clear stones
so silver blinding under amber sun huge so cold ...” Faen released the bells in a rush of sound. The old woman
sobbed dryly while Ryth’s fingertips fed information into the subtly textured
nodes of a Malian computer. “There was a feeling of heaviness,” said Faen tiredly. “I
think it was due to gravity rather than pregnancy; the sense of blurred lives
was very faint this time. It was the moment she first saw her new planet, so
the impressions were vivid.” The Sharnn tapped two more nodes, then waited. Planet maps
slid out of a slit into Ryth’s hands. “Fifteen known planets match your reading.” One of the maps whispered into place in front of Faen. She
picked up gold bells in one hand and touched the map with the other. Nothing.
Ryth took that map away and put down the second. Nothing, The third. The
fourth. Fifth. Eighth. Eleventh—and her finger zigzagged over the map, eyeless
seeking and finding. Faen’s fingertip jerked and held and bells fell from her
other hand. Ryth marked the map. Gently he gathered her hands in his and
smoothed away the residue of antagonistic energy. Her face relaxed into a smile
as her lips brushed across the back of his hand. Then Ryth gathered up the bells and the map and turned
toward the old woman. “She is on Scitleint, third continent.” At her look of
confusion he explained. “The Access code is in the left quadrant, the galactic
map code is in the right. N’ies?” “N’ies,” said the woman slowly. The Sharnn helped her to her feet, handed her the jewelry
and map, and led her back to the public kel. “She always loved her brother too much,” muttered the old
woman to herself. “Too much ...” Ryth watched her leave, then looked at the next seeker, a
tall man who could have been in his second or sixth maturity. He wore the tight
leggings and hip-length cape of a Malian farmer, but his face was masked,
except for his forehead. There flashed gint marks, the tattoo of a
non-combatant, despised by all, even those who also wore gint. Gints were
considered less than alive; in Malian, gint meant shadow. At Ryth’s gesture, the Gint got up and strode across the
room. When he—or it, as gints were called on Malia—came closer, Ryth stiffened
as though the man were truly a shadow, cold and black and thin as a blade. The
Gint’s bearing was at odds with the avowed meekness of the tattoo. And there
was something else, an impossible flash of familiarity in the Gint’s
black-green eyes. “Sit there,” said Ryth curtly, staring past the Gint as
Malian custom demanded. Faen looked up, saw the slash marks of gint and that the man
was neither ill nor crippled nor otherwise incapacitated. Distaste tightened
her lips. “Its presence degrades the very meaning of Sandoliki,” she
said curtly. “Take what it brought so we can get it out of here quickly.” Ryth disliked turning his back on the Gint, but he did so
with apparent indifference as he put the Gint’s package in front of Faen. The
plastic wrapping came off easily. Beneath it was misa silk. Beneath the silk
was a leather headband made on a planet six million light years from Malia. *There are many other possibilities,* cautioned Ryth at the
surge of excitement he sensed from Faen. Faen’s only answer was impatience. Her hand shot out—and she
gasped as agony lanced through her. Quickly she reduced contact to a single fingertip. “Female. Strong energy. Alive ... ? Yes. But unconscious.
She is—not—on Malia.” Faen lifted her hand and looked through the Gint sitting
at the far end of the room. “Does it hope for further information?” Ryth sensed the Gint’s leaping hatred at Faen’s scornful use
of the impersonal pronoun. For a moment the Gint was utterly quiet, the
stillness of a predator. Then a very rough voice asked, “Is the woman Malian or
Vintran or some other race?” Triumph flashed from Faen’s mind to Ryth’s, but she showed
no outward sign as she barely touched the headband again. “She’s one of Kayle’s people?” asked Ryth. *Yes, Telelell, I think. What should I tell it?* *They probably have been questioning her under torture or
drugs.* *They have. Pain was the first thing I sensed.* *Tell the Gint the truth. They may know anyway. This could
be a test for you. After Vintra, they sure as zarfs suspect Kayle and me!* With a show of lingering over the headband, Faen said, “Neither
Vintra nor Malia. If it wishes a particular planet—” “No,” said the Gint, interrupting her rudely and turning
away from her to leave. The insult could not be ignored. With incredible speed, Ryth
caught the Gint, flipped it, and held a wrist over its throat until the Gint
passed out. When he was certain that the Gint was unconscious, Ryth pulled out
his knife. Faen watched with real indifference, then observed, “The
insult wasn’t worth death.” “Agreed,” said the Sharnn. The knife flashed as Ryth began shaving the Gint’s head with
short, vicious strokes. Dark gold curls fell next to dull black ones. He did
not disturb the mask. “Should I try to read it?” she asked, sitting on her heels
close to him, watching. Ryth had been asking himself the same question. And had no
answer. “What will happen?” Faen made a curt gesture of dismissal. “M’zamay,” he said, fingers stroking her arm, “what will
touching it do to you?” “I don’t know,” she said tightly. “Since the time of the Ti
Vire I have touched no living person—except you.” She began methodically folding
the misa square that the headband had been wrapped in. “And the others I
touched only with a sharp knife.” She placed the thick misa square on the Gint’s chest,
carefully put her fingertip on the silk—and collapsed with a blinding mental
scream. Ryth caught Faen at the same moment he drove his mind into
hers. He found only the stillness of absolute negation; something she had
sensed was so abhorrent to her that she was wiping the memory from her mind. It
would be as though she never had touched the Gint at all. With gentle hands the Sharnn eased her onto the floor, murmuring
praise and love to her indrawn, tightly curled mind. Outside of her mind he
cursed in the twisting epithets of Sharn. When he looked up, Kayle was there,
radiating a desire to kill whatever had caused such pain. *Faen?* demanded Kayle. *Healing herself.* *What happened?* *She touched it.* *Stupid!* The force of Ryth’s snarling explanation made Kayle grimace.
*Not stupid,* amended Kayle. *Necessary. Will she sleep long?* *A sixth part, maybe longer.* Ryth picked up Faen. *Keep the
Gint unconscious until I get back. It’s waking now.* *Is it?* Kayle’s predatory satisfaction made Ryth smile. He left the
Gint to Kayle’s skilled hands. Quickly he took Faen to her h’kel and placed her
on a sleeping pallet. With a lingering caress he wrapped the sleep robe around
her, then ran back to Kayle. The Gint lay slackly on the floor. “You must have leaned rather hard on its throat,” observed
Ryth. “Not so hard as I wanted.” Ryth knelt and finished shaving half the Gint’s head. “The black is dyed,” said Ryth as he wrapped a few dull
black coils in misa silk, then added a few of the deep gold curls. He gave the silk to Kayle, scattered the remaining hair over
the Gint and then dug his fingers into the Gint’s abdomen, twisting hard. Pain
brought sudden consciousness. The Gint stared at Ryth with eyes that echoed
agony and something more, black-green shadows sliding in familiar depths,
familiar in the instant before negation wiped recognition from memory. Gone,
but not without a trace. The Sharnn sensed a haunting need, consuming hunger,
as though a shadow called for life from the other side of hope. For a moment, the Sharnn felt Malia spinning beneath him,
then he wrenched his mind and forgot, totally, every instant but the one before
him, staring into the shadow depths of the Gint’s hopeless eyes. “If the Sandoliki Ti Ryth sees it before its hair grows out,
it will die. N’ies?” “N’ies,” said the Gint hoarsely. The Sharnn stood and turned his back on the intimacy of the
Gint’s knowing eyes. He sensed a cry deep within his mind, core deep, and he
reached out to Faen but she was still coiled in upon herself, unknowing, unable
even to cry out. “It is gone,” said Kayle after a moment. “Good,” said Ryth, allowing his eyes to focus on Kayle. Kayle looked at the square of misa Ryth had given him. “Why
didn’t you just twist the information out of it?” said Kayle. “Wouldn’t have worked. Assassin trained. I could feel it in
the muscles.” “That gint?” said Kayle incredulously. “An assassin?” Ryth shrugged impatiently. “The tattoo was painted.” “But—” “Can you think of a better disguise?” snapped Ryth. “No Malian
ever looked deeper than the tattoo. A gint is nothing. A shadow of life.” “Yes,” said Kayle doubtfully, “but no Malian or even Vintran
could bring himself to wear a coward’s mark. Not for any reason. In fact—” Kayle stopped at a gesture from the Sharnn. Both men stood
and listened to the thin sigh of a speeding flyer. “Did you put a follow-me on that flyer?” “On every flyer,” said Kayle dryly. “Tell Faen—” The Sharnn made a slicing gesture and swore in
his native tongue; what he had to say to Faen could not be said by another. “Wait,” said Kayle quickly. “When Faen wakes up—” “The Gint will be long vanished. The follow-me will only
broadcast for a tenth part of a day.” The Sharnn turned away. Kayle stretched out his arm. Ryth
went far beyond his reach in a single fluid leap. “I wasn’t—” began Kayle. “I know.” The Sharnn turned and ran with long, rapid strides. “At least protect yourself with your cape!” called Kayle,
but Ryth did not hear. The Sharnn ran swiftly to a waiting eight-flyer. The machine
was Lekel’s acknowledgment that Faen was beyond his sensual reach and therefore
no longer needed to be kept a virtual prisoner. The flyer leaped into the rusty wind. Red-brown land, deeply
seamed and shadowed, blurred beneath the speeding machine. Ryth had little to
do; the flyer was programmed to lock onto the follow-me signal and the scanner
was automatically monitoring any communications. To prevent discovery, Ryth’s
larger eight-flyer moved at a greater altitude. The dry stone of Darg Vintra gave way to the fertile flower
belt of Malia’s temperate zone. From high up, the land was a watercolor blur of
cream and turquoise and gold with the velvet black of nightvines like a net
holding the flowers away from crimson fires that were tere groves reaching for
the pale turquoise sky. Small towns and settlements appeared and vanished, their
creamstone and russet brick buildings blending with the grain and flower land.
Eventually the towns seemed to run together until Ryth was flying over the
fifty-one clan compounds whose creamstone heights were the nucleus of C’Varial,
Malia’s greatest—and only—city. Ryth stared at the apparently random, yet subtly patterned,
city below. In the center of the compounds, crouched on a high hill, was the y’Kel
of the Sandoliki Clan. By law, it should have been Faen’s home, but the immense
weight of history/emotion that the y’Kel bore made it virtually uninhabitable
to Faen. The follow-me’s signal shifted in pitch, indicating that the
flyer had landed. Ryth’s grip on the controls tightened as he realized a
compelling reluctance to confront the Gint again, perhaps this time to find out
more than even a Sharnn could conceive. Ryth realized that the one-flyer had passed the shuttle pad
and gone on to the Sandoliki Compound. The one-flyer had landed at the center
of Malian government. Ryth set the flyer down close to the follow-me’s signal. He
flipped a lever, sending a beam of energy that reduced the follow-me to dust.
Then, using the same beam at a much lower energy, he carefully scanned the
one-flyer for signs of life. The Gint—or someone—was still inside. Ryth smiled grimly,
guessing that he/it did not want to be seen with a half-shaved head. Soon the one-flyer opened and a man climbed out. His cape
swirled with wind and movement and Ryth had an instant of familiarity, a sense
of having seen before. Then the instant passed and the man became someone
wearing an elaborate headdress that had formerly been a hip-length shirt. The
man’s forehead was innocent of any blazing gint marks, yet Ryth had no doubt
that the man was his quarry; the stride was longer, more open, but it was permeated
by the same subtle arrogance that had sent a warning tingle through Ryth at
Darg Vintra. Unnoticed, Ryth followed the man through the wide, flying
arches of translucent creamstone that marked the boundaries of the Sandoliki Compound.
With each step closer to the Topaz Kel, the creamstone changed subtly, becoming
nearer and nearer in hue to the brilliant gold-brown that blazed from the
transparent crystal walls of the famed Topaz Arcade. Ryth’s pattern instinct automatically appreciated the
artistry of Sandoliki construction; without touching, he knew that the textures
changed as subtly as the hues. Nearby, zamay lifted petal throats, singing,
asking. The man Ryth followed stopped and looked around casually; his
black-green eyes dismissed Ryth bending over a trembling zamay as pollen poured
silver-bright over Ryth’s palms. With a glance, the man stepped sideways and
vanished through a hedge of nightvine and moonflowers. Ryth counted ten before he slipped through the hedge at a different
spot. He found himself in an intricate garden maze of the type used to train
aristocratic children in textural nuances. There were no true paths, nothing
but an almost subliminal sequence of colors and textures that led to a single
exit. For a Malian child, the garden was a difficult, yet delightful experience.
For the Sharnn, it was an exercise in pattern skills that taxed his patience.
Yet Ryth could not help but savor the exquisite progression of textures as he
came closer and closer to the maze’s exit. Once out, he found himself in the
Topaz Arcade, a section of the y’kel reserved for Lekel’s family and intimates.
The man he followed had vanished. Ryth searched the soaring arches and curving
tiers of windows for an exit or an opening or anything that would give him a
clue to the man’s direction, but the windows looked down on him with seamless
brilliance and the tangle of nightvine and scarlet tere that separated arch
from wall had no openings. The Sharnn could see no one, yet a thousand people might see
him. He remembered a skilled White Dawn assassin whose last sight was the Topaz
Arcade. He sensed someone approaching from behind and turned swiftly. The speed and poise of the Sharnn’s turn acted as a warning
to the four who approached. They slowed and watched his hands very carefully.
Ryth returned their scrutiny while facts fell into a deadly pattern: the four
had expected to find someone here; they did not recognize him as a Sandoliki;
they would attack him; and they probably had other warriors nearby. The Sharnn’s mind raced through probabilities, but none gave
much hope of escape. With a mental shrug, Ryth faced the four. One of them
spoke to him in the round tones of a respectful stranger. Ryth would have been
pleased had he not guessed that the man was stalling for time. “We are unknown to each other—” “Of course!” returned Ryth in the icy tones reserved for
highest aristocracy. Then the Sharnn flipped open his metal-cloth cape, showing
that he was weaponless. As a gesture of contempt it had few peers. Now the four
people facing him must decide whether Ryth was of a status that made his
insults not only palatable, but pleasurable. The insult was a gamble, an
attempt to disconcert the would-be attackers. Perhaps even to dissuade them. But even as he moved, the Sharnn read decision on the other
man’s face. They would attack him as soon as they were ready. “Our error,” said the tall one coldly. “Possibly our
regret.” “Not possibly, Gint,” Ryth said in deadly insult. “Certainly.” Even as he spoke, the Sharnn leaped and lashed out with his
foot. Heel met head with an audible snap. The tall man flew backwards into his
friends, spoiling the balance of their attack. Ryth dove and rolled to avoid a
knife. Still rolling, he lacked twice and sent one of the men into screaming
retreat with arm and leg broken; strangler’s wire fell from nerveless fingers
and coiled on the stone walk. The remaining two retreated slowly. Ryth feinted in their direction, then spun around—only to
see five people advancing on him. Three of them carried strangler’s wire and in
the Sharnn’s mind a White Dawn assassin looked at the Topaz Arcade for the last
time before she died with a bleeding wire mark on her throat. The hedge quivered in accidental warning. Ryth dove and
rolled away just as three more men slid into the Arcade. Now there were ten
assassins closing in on three sides. Whoever the Gint was, he took few chances;
the Topaz Arcade was a well-designed deathtrap. With all the discipline and power he had, Ryth sent to Faen
a warning of the Topaz Arcade. As he sent, he carefully backed away in the only
direction open to him. He knew that someone would be closing in from behind,
but every instant he remained alive increased the chance that Faen would
receive his message. *Where are you now! Exactly!* The clarity of Faen’s demand surprised the Sharnn, but he responded
with a vivid mental picture of his location. Then Ryth’s time was gone. A
m’vire hummed by his diving body. The metal star sliced through a wrist-sized
vine and quivered in a tere trunk. Ryth rolled to his feet and yanked out the
m’vire. With split-instant aim, he sent the m’vire humming into an enemy’s
throat. Three knives leaped for the Sharnn. He threw himself aside, but could
not evade all three. One missed, one tangled in the metal threads of his cape,
and the last made a painful arc across his thigh. He bent and grabbed the two
knives within reach. Even as he straightened, one of the knives leaped out of
his hand and sped toward the closest assassin. She sensed the danger and
jumped; the knife went into her abdomen instead of her heart. Ryth’s second
knife turned over and over in the sunlight, a long throw at the person Ryth
sensed sneaking up behind him, hidden by one of the many hedges twisting
through the Arcade. A cry of pain told Ryth that his aim was accurate but not
deadly. No more knives or m’vires came toward the Sharnn. The attackers
had learned that Ryth was too deadly to give any weapons. At an unseen signal,
the seven remaining assassins spread out until they had surrounded him. The
hedge quivered and vomited more people, more weapons, too many for one man no
matter what his skill. Without realizing it, Ryth called out to Faen, pouring images/emotions
of laughter and peace and sensuality and sorrow and raw rage at the end of
love, a sending as richly textured as their joining had been. Then his mind
closed totally and he focused himself on killing as many as he could in the
time he had left. The hedge jerked again, but Ryth was too busy to look. He
waited until the circle around him had shrunk, waited until the sudden tensing
of bodies told him they were getting ready to rush, then he threw himself up
and backwards in one of faal-hnim’s most difficult and deadly moves. When his
body reached the peak of its upward arc, Ryth tucked himself into a ball,
turned, then snapped open at the instant that his spinning force was the
greatest. His feet descended on two assassins. Between one instant and the
next, two men died. Three other assassins leaped on the Sharnn before he could
roll completely clear of the crumpled bodies. Knives and knees struck, seeking
the soft parts of Ryth’s body. In a haze of pain, Ryth drove rigid fingers
against a woman’s throat, killing her and throwing her at the man whose knife
had broken on stone between Ryth’s legs. The Sharnn’s body was slippery with sweat and blood from
cuts he had never felt. He threw himself aside as yet another man leaped, knife
and knees and sudden death. The man hit Ryth’s arm with numbing force, but the
knife missed Ryth’s throat. The Sharnn raised his uninjured arm for a lethal
chop. Before he could bring me edge of his palm down, the man grunted and fell
slackly forward. A knife glittered in his back. Ryth yanked the weapon free and
silently thanked the over-eager assassin who had killed one of his own. Nearby a man screamed, a sound of intolerable pain. Out of
the corner of his eye, Ryth saw a short, powerful figure leap into the air and
lash out with both feet. Ryth recognized Kayle in the instant that both blows
connected, breaking two necks. Then Ryth realized that the knife he held was a
Nendleti knife, curved and serrated. Two assassins leaped for Kayle as a third drew her arm back
to throw a knife. Even while Ryth’s mind called a warning, a turquoise blur
somersaulted past the knife-thrower. The exquisite timing of the strike was as
much Faen as the fact that the assassin died before she touched the ground. The Sharnn rolled to his feet, left arm hanging uselessly,
right arm lashing out with a heavy Nendleti knife that cut through bone. He
stood wide-legged, shouting at the remaining assassins in the corkscrew phrases
of a Sharnn poet, celebrating Faen’s lethal beauty as she leaped and kicked and
spun and kicked. Then he was in her mind and she in his. He threw the heavy
knife with utter certainty, metal hissing past her motionless body. The knife
drove into the shoulder of a strangler whose wire had just slipped over Kayle’s
throat. With a running leap, Faen flipped her body in a deadly cartwheel that
ended with an assassin’s broken back. The Topaz Arcade was suddenly very quiet. Automatically,
Ryth and Kayle and Faen drew together, backs to each other, eyes searching for
more attackers. But the only assassins they saw already lay on the ground, dead
or nearly so. Ryth felt a soaring moment that Faen could have named, one
of a thousand, but he knew only that he was alive in a place littered with
death. He threw back his head and crystal arches rang with the wild laughter of
Sharn. Faen moved close to him, warming mind and body with his
laughter, his arm a hard strength holding her close. Only the sliding darkness
deep in her eyes showed what touching those others had cost, that and standing
in a place crowded with past and present emotions. But as he held her, her eyes
cleared to a pale turquoise that matched the shimmering metallic pull-up she
wore. Then her clothes shimmered, lifted and became his Sharnn cape, drifting
around his shoulders, healing. *How—?* he asked in her mind. “Kayle gave me a stimulant that would have made a tere grove
dance the faal-hnim,” she responded, eyes pale, reflecting the pearl longshirt
that she had worn beneath the Sharon cape. As Ryth’s anger scorched through Kayle’s mind, the Nendleti
involuntarily raised his hands. *Carifil suggestion, not mine! She’s all right.
Ask her.* Ryth touched Faen’s mind and felt the familiar
sliding-soaring sensation as their minds met and melted one into the other.
Deep within he sensed the echoes of earlier horror, but nowhere did he find or
feel the jaggedness of true injury. “How did you know where I was?” Faen’s laughter was as sudden and clear as a desert spring.
*Have you forgotten my talent? You’ll never escape me, laseyss. I can follow
you with the ease of an iron needle following a magnet.* Ryth bent over her and tasted her beauty for a long moment.
Not far from their feet, a woman groaned and jerked. Reluctantly, Ryth released
Faen and went over to the woman. When she saw him, she said hoarsely, “G’el
n’si!” The words meant “Mercy, warrior!” and at one time had been a
call for a clean death. Time and changing customs had transformed the phrase
into a statement of neutrality; the person who called out declared that he or
she was not fighting at that moment. The fact that the woman used the words
told Ryth that his death had not been bought by name; the people he fought were
more warriors than assassins. “N’si g’el,” agreed Ryth, feeling better with each moment
that he wore the cape. Though she had a broken arm and a dislocated knee, the woman
managed to pull herself upright. Ryth ignored her, instead bending over a tall
man who was only an arm’s length from her. The Sharnn probed with rigid fingers
and was answered by a reflexive twitch. “Your clumsy friend is still alive,” said Ryth to the woman.
“Get him back to your guild. He is our gift to the fools who believe many
indifferent fighters equal one good one.” The Sharnn stood smoothly. “And tell
the person in the hedge that he will die very slowly if he moves at all.” “G’el n’si,” said a man’s voice, resonant with power and
ease. “N’si g’el, Lekel.” The hedge shivered and Lekel strode into the Topaz Arcade.
His black eyes dismissed Kayle, slid away from Ryth—and devoured Faen. “You fight more beautifully than I remembered, m’zamay.” Faen’s lips thinned at the intimate endearment. With
exquisite deliberation, she turned her back on Lekel. Her skilled fingers moved
over Ryth’s face and chest and lips, speaking clearly of invitation and
response. Smiling, the Sharnn smoothed his palm down her body in a lingering
touch that left no doubt of their mutual desire. His cape shimmered like
m’zamay, caressing her ankles. Lekel was very still while he fought the jealousy twisting
through him. Fought and won; when he spoke, he made no further claim to an
intimate relationship with Faen. “The Sandoliki Ti Faen’s visit is as unexpected as it is
pleasing.” Faen made a gesture of such indifference as to border on
insult. “You guard yourself well, Lekel. Are the knives of Power and Discretion
weighing too heavily in your sheaths?” Unconsciously, Lekel’s hands went to the two knives strapped
one to each thigh, symbols of his rule as well as two of the most ancient
artifacts known on Malia. The carved gold hilts had a luster that came from
centuries of use. At the center of each hilt was a large blue-green gemstone,
shaped like a sleepless, transparent eye. A slightly larger, more deeply carved
stone was worn by Faen. “The knives are perfectly balanced when I wear them,” said
Lekel. “But you wouldn’t know about such balance and power, would you?” “Sometimes,” said Faen idly, “you remind me of a
skavern—nothing alive would deign to live in the slime pit that is a skavern’s
nest, yet he guards that pit as though it were the most delectable home in the
known universe.” The insult was too clear to ignore; Lekel’s face became an expressionless
warning. *Gently,* urged Ryth. *Why?* shot back Faen. *He’s none too careful of my preferences!* *He’s carrying a rather obvious intent for you.* Faen’s only response to Lekel’s visible desire for her was
contempt. *Because he wants you?* asked Ryth, puzzled by the depth of
her rejection. *Surely that’s no insult.* *Because he never wanted me enough to risk his life fighting
me!* *Did Relle?* *We were bound to each other before we were combat trained.* *Be polite anyway,* suggested the Sharnn. *I need Lekel in
an agreeable mood.* *Then kill him.* Faen turned toward Lekel. “How is your
first wife, Memned?” “My only wife is well,” said Lekel, obviously surprised by
Faen’s courtesy in asking. “My error. I forgot that you imitated the Sandoliki customs
by having only one wife. But then,” she added, “you have little choice. Few
women would be second to a Vintran.” Lekel’s body shifted into a subtle crouch. “You go too far
with your contempt, Faen.” “Are you challenging the truth—or me?” She cocked her head
hopefully. “Both, perhaps?” Lekel struggled with his anger, and the pain her contempt
gave him. His handsome face settled into grim lines. “I will settle for your
apology.” “You’re too generous,” said Faen softly, her eyes clear as
ice. And that was all she said. “The thirteenth part of a day,” hissed Lekel, giving Faen
the license granted to one who has just fought—and biting off each word as
though it tasted of skavern. Faen turned and leaned against Ryth in sensual invitation.
“Was there something you wanted here, de f’mi ti?” she said in a husky voice.
“You have only to ask.” *You can be a hooked thorn, m’zamay,* answered Ryth, tracing
her lips with the tip of his tongue. *Will Lekel help us now?* Her tongue answered his as she stretched against him. *He
can help us or die. His choice.* Smiling with a sensuality that matched hers, the Sharnn loosened
her braided hair. “What I want, m’zamay, is a man one hand shorter than I, two
hands less broad in the shoulders, black-green eyes, and—” his fingers gently
rubbed against her scalp “—half his black and gold hair shaved off.” He lifted
a coil of her perfumed hair to his lips and inhaled appreciatively. “When I
last saw this false gint—” At the word “gint,” Lekel jerked. “—he was fast-walking down this very—” “No,” said Lekel, voice flat and urgent. “Not here. The acoustics
of the Arcade are part of its fame.” Lekel turned away abruptly, but his obvious agitation
removed any taint of insult. They hesitated, then followed him carefully, eyes
searching for ambush. Lekel led them beneath transparent golden-brown arches
carved by ancient masters, through twisting black hedges of nightvine laced
with scarlet from fallen tere leaves, through breezes dense with zamay’s
aphrodisiac pollen and paths soft with myriad drifting petals and fragrances. No one spoke; no one made any noise at all. They moved like
thoughts along the perimeter of the Arcade and deep into the Abandoned Gardens
of the Ninth Sandoliki. As they threaded through a maze of trembling, singing
flowers, a cloud of silver insects rose and glittered around their hands like a
jeweled rain before settling again on the silver centers of the blue-green
flowers. A clean, sweet scent filled the air. Petals gave way to the hushed
beauty of a tere grove, trunks black and polished with age, leaves blood red
with youth. Deep in the grove a scarlet bird called and was answered by Lekel’s
rippling whistle. The bird called again, a sweet descending note of peace.
Suddenly Ryth sensed that this grove had been the favorite place of Faen’s
childhood, that she chose her perfume after its special blend of fragrances—and
that she was disturbed by Lekel’s intimacy with a place that was part of her. Lekel turned toward them. “What do you know about the Gint?”
he demanded. “Is that what you call him?” said Ryth lazily, but his mind
was working on new patterns with a speed only Faen could appreciate. “He’s not
a true gint. He has the abdominal muscles of a highly trained assassin and the
stealth of a shadow.” “Where did you see him?” Lekel’s black eyes shone with hidden
emotions. “How did you get close enough to touch him? And why didn’t you kill
him when you had the chance? Tell me!” Faen swayed closer to Ryth, touched him unconsciously. He
had a fleeting, blurred sense of a Ninth Circle symbol overlaid by the slash
marks of gint, but when he tried to focus in her mind, the thought disappeared
into the shield Faen had built against what she had discovered the moment she
touched the Gint’s body. Without knowing why, the Sharnn moved uneasily,
rejecting what he had not yet discovered. “I’m not at your command,” observed Ryth in a carefully neutral
tone. Lekel’s eyes became as polished and opaque as old tere bark,
but in the end he bowed to the simple truth of Ryth’s words. “My error.” Lekel paused, then added ruefully, “Very much my
regret. You are the Great Destroyer’s own fighter.” His eyes went speculatively
to Faen. “Yes,” she said, smiling. “He fought me—and then I fainted
at the beauty of his touch.” Lekel was Malian, and proud. But he was also a realist. They
saw his eyes change as he began to accept the finality of his loss; Faen was as
much beyond his reach as though she were dead. “The man you call the Gint,” said Ryth into the silence,
“came to Darg Vintra this morning. He asked for a moment of Faen’s talent, and
received it in spite of the slash marks on his forehead.” Lekel smiled sardonically. “Were you gracious to the Gint,
Sandoliki Ti Faen?” Oddly, Faen did not rise to his teasing. Something close to
sorrow moved over her lips, as though she at last had realized that Lekel
wanted her as much as she wanted the Sharnn. She could not add to the pain she
saw turning deep within the k’m’n Sandoliki’s clear black eyes. Ryth spoke, sensing that Faen might inadvertently make a gesture
of compassion that would only anger the proud Malian ruler. “Instead of being grateful that she expended her energy for
a mere gint,” said Ryth quickly, “it insulted the Ti Faen. As the insult was
small, I merely shaved half its head.” “Did it offer to fight you?” asked Lekel curiously. “It didn’t have the chance,” Faen said. Lekel moved his shoulders in the unconscious reflex of a man
who has an intolerable burden dragging at his back. “What do you know of this gint?” asked Ryth with deceptive
softness. Lekel’s face closed and he said nothing. The Sharnn waited
with outward indifference, knowing that somehow the Gint must have offended
Lekel and escaped unpunished. Such things were difficult for a Malian to speak
of. “Ti Lekel is a fighter and a sensualist of great fame,”
Kayle said delicately. “But even a Sandoliki is sometimes unlucky ...” For the first time, Lekel really noticed Kayle. “I don’t know you, alien,” said Lekel. The bluntness of his
statement was an invitation for acquaintance rather than an insult. “Ti Kayle,” Faen said dryly, “taught me faal-hnim when I was
training to become a Concord agent.” Lekel made a graceful gesture of respect. “May Malia please
you, Ti Kayle.” “As well as I please her,” said Kayle smoothly. “He knows our customs better than any outsider except Ryth,”
Faen said, examining the pattern of light splintering deep in her blue-green
ring. Though she said no more, her tone clearly implied that Lekel
would insult either man at his own peril, no matter how subtle the attempt. Lekel smiled ironically at Faen, then said to Kayle, “You
honor us with your presence, Nendleti warrior.” He made no reference to the
esthetic aspect of Nendleti culture, an omission that was as much test as
insult. “Ti k’m’n Sandoliki Lekel is most kind,” murmured Kayle,
deftly reminding Lekel that he was only a Sandoliki by k’m’n—courtesy. Lekel smiled slightly. “As I expected—the men who walk near
Faen have sharp knives.” He dropped his hands abruptly, ending with a gesture
that could have been an appeal. “As the Destroyer wills. I’ll tell you what I
can. But if I find out that you are knife friends with the Gint; I will help
the two of you die very slowly.” Lekel looked over their heads at the red tere leaves licking
against the turquoise sky. Then, with a suddenness that made his yellow cape
flare, he turned to look behind his back. Nothing was there but the
rain-scented breeze ... yet he stared for a long moment, analyzing shadows as
though he did not believe there were only four people listening beneath the
huge tere tree. Faen snapped her fingers impatiently. “Unless your gint is
truly a shadow, we are alone here.” The Sharnn’s body tightened, but he said nothing and no one
noticed. There are many who believe he is just that,” Lekel said.
“The shadow of Malia’s dead pride, slain by Vintrans and now stalking across
the land while we call its name.” Lekel’s disturbingly handsome face twisted,
then smoothed into uncanny expressionlessness. “I do not share that belief. But
too many rally around the inverted vees.” He gave Faen a sidelong look out of
brilliant black eyes. “Far-cousin, it was a bleak day when you began the Ti
Vire.” “It was a bleak day when I ended it!” she snapped, Jabbing
two fingers of her left hand downward in the sign of Ti Vire. “Vintrans are
alive today to spread stupidities about gints and shadows.” “Must it be Vintrans?” asked Ryth. Faen spun on him, pale eyes blazing. “Malians do not use
shadows. Or gints!” Without responding, the Sharnn looked back at Lekel. “I wish I had Faen’s faith,” was all that Lekel said. “Silence!” she hissed. “You don’t know what is at risk!” But when Lekel asked for an explanation, she turned away, unable
to speak about Malia’s threatened destruction. Lekel made a cutting gesture of dismissal. “The Gint has
killed six of my knife-friends.” Faen turned back and compassion transformed her face. “I regret.
Do you know why they died?” “Ask the Great Destroyer,” said Lekel bitterly. “All six
were necessary to my rule. Two were D’corl, advisors for whole continents.
Three were Listeners and the last—” Lekel’s eyes became narrow and very black
“—the last was my f’mi. She was more than a sensual companion, though. She was
a Listener of rare skill. From the oddest rumors she could glean the most
useful facts. Vintra was her specialty.” Lekel’s hands cupped, then parted as
though he poured something out. “I am empty.” “May I know her name?” said Ryth. “Cy’mari’ne, White Dawn Assassin of the Ninth Circle.” Ryth spoke into the sudden silence, his voice casual in
spite of his leaping pulse. “Did her killer take anything?” “Hands, hair and knife,” said Lekel with outward calm. “You’re sure that the Gint—” “Yes. Three witnessed her death. The Gint’s black and gold
hair,” added Lekel dryly, “is distinctive. Most Malians have one or three hair
colors, not two.” “Vintrans?” asked Kayle. “The same. Physically, we have diverged very little in the
centuries since Separation.” “Do you believe,” said the Sharnn slowly, “that someone on
Malia is trying to end your rule, using the Gint?” “Yes. Until today, I was nearly certain that it was the Ti
Faen.” “Why?” “I knew of no one else who could kill a Ninth Circle
assassin. One attacker, alone.” “But the Gint is a man,” said Kayle. Lekel made a subtle gesture of ambivalence. “Is it?” “Yes,” said Ryth. “I threw him, held him, twisted him,”
added the Sharnn. “He was undoubtedly male.” Lekel snapped his fingers. “Then there is an unknown man,”
and he looked harshly at Ryth, then Kayle, “who fights at least in the Ninth
Circle and who kills my knife-friends and then vanishes into the shadows.” “We’re the wrong size,” said Kayle, smiling blandly. “There are moments when I suspect myself!” snapped Lekel.
“Even with more guards in the y’kel than zamay, the Gint managed to slip
through and strangle Cy in the Topaz Arcade.” Lekel stared over their heads, seeing the death of his f’mi
beneath the splintered bronze light of ancient arches. *By wire,* Faen’s thought tumbled into the Sharnn’s mind. *By
wire and her knife jerking down, knife-tip breaking on carved stone and death.* Ryth shook his head at the force of the images that came
with her thought. *I felt the wire. He kills on two planets. False gint indeed.* *Two?* asked Ryth. *Pattern-man,* dryly, *who else could have evaded both you
and Kayle while cutting his companions’ throats? He was the last one to touch
her knife before you found it in one of Vintra’s garbage alleys.* *No ...!* *There’s no doubt,* began Faen, then sensed Ryth’s mind sliding
out of reach. “What if the man is Vintran,” Ryth said tightly, “rather
than Malian?” “It’s possible,” conceded Lekel with barely veiled
impatience. “Would it also be possible for the man to move freely
between the two planets?” “You have a particular person in mind?” Ryth’s lips thinned into silence. Lekel’s knife hand made a slicing gesture. “I know every man
who uses Malia’s Access.” The Sharnn waited. “What day were you thinking of?” Lekel asked, his tone
telling Ryth of displeasure at information withheld. “The last four days.” Lekel smiled sourly. “Too easy, Ti Ryth. No one has used the
Access in that time. Surprised? Or don’t you believe? No matter. Ask your
friends on the inner moon if anyone has been through while they sat and drew
designs in the air.” Lekel stopped, suddenly remembering something. “You say
you followed the Gint here? What was his flyer like?” “One-flyer, silver, no status designs.” “There are thousands like that.” Ryth shrugged; there was nothing he could do about that. And
he was becoming more impatient and suspicious with each moment that Lekel
failed to do the obvious thing. Finally, Ryth forced the matter. “Shouldn’t we be searching the compound for this man? We’ve
wasted—” “Nothing,” cut in Lekel, smiling sardonically. “Since the
first chime of the hidden bells, my guards have been combing the gardens and Arcade.”
He touched a disc on the end of a heavy gold chain. Ryth recognized a transceiver
beneath the delicate filigree design. “So far, they’ve found only you and Kayle
and Faen. And death, of course. A lot of that.” “Have they searched Memned’s h’kel?” said Faen coolly. Lekel hissed a curse and ignored her. “Every h’kel is
searched every time that gint is seen. But he vanishes like a shadow in a
moonless moment.” *What now?* asked Kayle, sending an image of a blind man
dodging lightning. *Did you bring the false gint’s hair?* *Yes.* “If we can’t be of further use to you,” said Ryth, “we would
like to rest. I assume we have the freedom of the city and the y’kel?” “Of course we do,” said Faen before Lekel could answer. “We
are Sandolikis Ti. If we wished to shatter each arch, all he could do is praise
our strokes and strength!” She turned to Lekel, her face expressionless.
“N’ies, my most distant cousin?” “N’ies,” said Lekel coldly. “The Ti Faen, her husband and
her servant are welcome in any h’kel in C’Varial or the whole of Malia.” “I am honored,” murmured Ryth. Lekel said nothing. In silence they walked back to the Topaz Kel. No one, alive
or dead, was in the Arcade garden where they had recently fought. Only a few broken
plants and the scent of crushed flowers told of violence. Lekel walked swiftly,
yellow cape lifting in the breeze of his passage. With his tight black pull-up,
his gold knives of office, and his lean, hard body, he looked every bit the warrior/ruler
he was. Ryth watched narrowly, and wondered why Lekel had never
fought Faen. The Sharnn doubted that it was a matter of courage; Lekel was a formidable
man. The k’m’n Sandoliki made a fluid gesture with his arm, indicating
a scimitar-shaped cluster of buildings. “If you wish my kel, Ti Faen, you may have it. Otherwise,
the Turquoise Kel is yours. No one has stayed there since Relle died. No one
but you ever will.” Ryth sensed horror coiling around the proud woman beside
him. He knew that she would rather die than enter that kel—and that she would
suffer agonies before she showed weakness to Lekel. The barest hint of a smile curved Lekel’s perfect Malian
mouth; he knew, and was looking forward to making Faen ask him for something. “In my culture,” said Ryth easily, “the home of the first husband
is tabu to the second. Although this is Malia rather than Sharn, there are some
tabus I am not comfortable ignoring.” Lekel smiled slightly, appreciating the speed and tact of
what was probably a lie. “Of course,” murmured Lekel. “The Creamstone and Gold Kel is
also unoccupied. It is not as intricately carved—” “Thank you,” said the Sharnn quickly, then added, “the y’kel
fascinates me. I intend to explore every finger of it. I’d dislike doing it
over the dead bodies of your guards.” This time, Lekel’s smile was as thin as a blade. “N’ies, Ti
Ryth. I will warn them.” With a swirl of sun-bright cape, Lekel strode off, leaving
them in a garden smelling of bruised flowers. When Kayle began to speak, Ryth’s
mental warning silenced him. “If Lekel has the area wired against intruders, he might
also have it wired to pick up speech.” At Ryth’s gesture, Faen led them to the Creamstone and Gold
Kel. It was a series of rooms strung like beads on a creamstone necklace circling
an inner garden. In the center of the garden was a mutated tere tree with rich
brown bark and bright bronze leaves. Everywhere in the h’kel, colors ranged
from translucent cream through gold and bronze to darkest brown. The variety of
tones and textures would have tested the subtlety of a Malian master. Or a
Sharnn. *What of this place?* asked Kayle. *Is it wired?* The Sharnn looked at the myriad patterns of light, spirals
and circles, cones and spheres and every simple curve known to man. *Any one of those designs could hide an amplifier or a funnel
or a Taranarkan energy sponge,* pointed out Ryth. “Make appropriate verbal
comments and limit real discussion to mindspeech.* The Sharnn passed similar instructions on to Faen. While
they traded esthetic observations concerning the stunning simplicity of the
kel, Kayle and Ryth looked for traps. But the beauty of the rooms kept
distracting them. With a mental curse, Ryth turned to Faen for help. She was
pale and tight; sweat sheened lightly on her golden skin. *Old auras?* he asked. *I’m handling it,* she returned curtly, matching strides
with him. *Would you rather work outside?* *Little difference. The kel has been continuously occupied
for many thousand years. The very stones of the gardens—* Faen’s thought ended abruptly. She shuddered and moved
lithely aside. *A woman died. Long ago. Ambush.* Faen turned and walked to the
h’kel they had just left, a room composed entirely of a single shade and
texture of goldstone sculpted into shallow curves and subtle hollows. Even for
a Malian aristocrat, the h’kel was very difficult to appreciate, much less comprehend.
Thus it had been occupied less often than the others. *I can work here.* *Can you work using only mindspeech?* asked the Sharnn. *I don’t know. As soon as I touch, I am ...
taken over.* She held her hand out. At Ryth’s silent prompting, Kayle put
a small, misa-wrapped package in her palm. Faen sat cross-legged on the cool
stone floor and peeled back the silk until curls of gold and dull black hair
were revealed. In no way did she show her absolute abhorrence of touching
something of the Gint. *What do you want?* she asked. *Location?* *Yes. M’zamay, are you sure? I remember what happened when—* *Hair is less than flesh,* Faen returned crisply, but her
eyes were haunted and she sensed that he was as reluctant as she. With a
feeling of conflicting imperatives, she reached out and barely touched a tight,
dark gold curl. *No. No! It can’t—* Faen’s left hand wrapped around Ryth’s wrist in a punishing
grip, but he did not protest. *What can’t be, m’zamay?* he asked gently, but her ability
to answer was gone, for she had wiped out the second touch of the Gint as
quickly as the first. But not as completely; she retained enough contact to
receive information. “Male. Black violence. Cold death.” She shuddered. “I did
not know such existed. A shadow. Consuming and so hungry only a world could
feed it.” *Where is he?* demanded Ryth silently. *Turquoise kel?
C’Varial? Malia?* “No and no and no.” She shuddered again and again and he did not know whether
she was replying to his questions or to the information that seethed within the
dark shine of the Gint’s hair. “Gone away. Gone—to—blue light and falling—Vintra.” Ryth took the curl away from her and smoothed the fingers
that had held it. Though he was comforting her, her face was bleak with negation.
Then her expression cleared as she forgot what she had sensed, just as she had
forgotten the instant her finger touched the Gint’s chest. *Blue light and falling,* mused Ryth. *Kayle, ask the
Carifil at the moon station whether the Access has been used.* *I just did. The Access hasn’t flared since they arrived.* The Sharnn’s negation was more forceful than Faen’s had
been. *No. Not Malia!* *What do you mean?* demanded Kayle. There was no answer. For a spinning instant, it was as
though they saw a pattern condensing around them like a shadow sucking light
into chill darkness. Both Faen and Kayle cried out at the agony and rage and
rejection they tasted in the Sharnn’s mind before it closed so completely that
even Faen could sense only his presence, not his thoughts or even his emotions.
She looked at him, saw only the hard face of a stranger whose eyes were more
black than green. *What is it, laseyss?* Faen whispered at the edge of
his mind. A stranger’s eyes looked at her, Sharnn eyes with neither comfort
nor compassion lighting their shadowed depths. “Kayle,” she breathed. “Can you reach him?” “No,” he said, very softly. “Wholly opaque.” “Why?” “I don’t know.” Kayle sighed, then shifted positions so that
he was within reach of Faen and Ryth and had a clear view of the doorway. “Can
you make yourself sleep?” he asked in a normal tone. “If I must.” “Good. Rest while I watch.” “What about—” “I don’t know,” said Kayle curtly. Then he softened his
words with a gentle gesture that would have touched her if he could. “Don’t
worry, little daughter. Give him time.” Faen’s dark eyebrows rose in skeptical curves, but she
curled up along Ryth’s thigh and sent herself into sleep. As soon as Kayle was
certain that she truly slept, his eyes showed a fear he had denied to her. Eventually, Kayle became aware of the Sharnn’s hard green
gaze. *You’re back.* Kayle looked at him intently. *And what pattern
did you find?* Shadows coiled and slid at the bottom of Ryth’s eyes and his
full lips flattened. But he answered, aware of Faen’s trusting warmth along his
thigh. *Someone is accelerating Vintra’s decline and placing the
blame on Malia.* *Decline?* Ryth moved his head in Sharnn’s gesture of assent. As he
did, light struck sparks out of his bright bronze hair. *Not unusual for a colony on a world without endemic intelligent
life,* explained Ryth. “Often, the lack of such life proves that certain
aspects of the planet are hostile to intelligence.* Kayle grunted. *Malia’s Concord representative already tried
that argument. We found it unimpressive.* The Sharnn smiled thinly. *Does that make the argument
false?* *Give me proof,* demanded Kayle. *Proof that even a Vintran
could accept.* *Or a Nendleti who hates Malians? Regrets, Kayle, but I have
only my Sharnn pattern skills.* *And a Malian lover. Not good enough, Sharnn. Nendletis
aren’t the only people who have little use and less love for Malians!* Ryth thought nothing for a long moment while his sensitive
fingers stroked the cool blackness of Faen’s hair. She stirred, rubbing her
cheek against his thigh, half-smiling, and her beauty was like a knife inside
him. *You would destroy this?* asked the Sharnn, wonder and anger
struggling in his thought. *You would murder—* *Stop it! I, too, have loved a Malian. But that isn’t
enough. Vintra is dying, strangled by Malia.* *Prove it,* returned Ryth, an echo of Kayle’s earlier anger.
*Prove it so that even a Sharnn can accept.* Kayle’s hands moved in a slow gesture of sorrow and compassion. *You are all too human, Sharnn. When your flesh is involved,
you overlook the obvious.* Ryth waited, motionless but for his fingers tasting the
smooth perfection of Faen’s hair. *The Gint enters and leaves Malia with impunity.* Kayle’s
compassion fought with the harsh truth he was trying to give to the Sharnn. *Only
Malians are permitted such freedom.* *But a secret Access—* *Which must be in Lekel’s y’kel,* responded Kayle pointedly.
*It would seem that not only is the Gint Malian, he has friends in very potent
positions. Perhaps even the k’m’n Sandoliki himself.* Though the Sharnn’s thoughts were neutral, his rejection of
the argument was apparent in the very set of his shoulders and lips. Kayle was
closed completely out of Ryth’s mind. “Then teach me, pattern-man,” said Kayle aloud, cuttingly.
“If not my way, then how? And who? And why?” But the Sharnn’s eyes were dark again, inward-looking, and
what they saw displeased Ryth more than Kayle’s sarcasm. The Sharnn shuddered,
evading a pattern whose persistence was matched only by its ugliness. His cape
flared, twisting light into invisibility. “What is it?” asked Kayle, his husky voice both gentle and
compelling. “What won’t—or can’t—you tell me?” Ryth’s eyes were opaque, attention receding to an interior
vanishing point as though he had not or could not hear. *Vintra.* Ryth’s thought, devoid of emotion, slid into
Kayle’s mind. *My gint is there.* *Your gint?* asked Kayle gently, afraid to disturb the
seething emotions he sensed gathering in the Sharnn. *Why is he your gint?* The Sharnn did not answer and Kayle found himself alone in a
room with a sleeping Malian and a Sharnn who was invisible inside his cape. Except
for his eyes, Sharnn eyes more black than green, where shadows pooled more
thickly than patterns. VLight flared over their faces, limning each in a harsh blue
blaze that recalled myths of star demons. When the Access energy ebbed,
Faen and Kayle emerged in all the warm tones of humanity. Only Ryth remained
apart, as enigmatic as a Sharnn god ... and more dangerous. His Sharnn cape
wrapped around his body, clinging, then fanned as though in a breeze, but there
was no breeze. The three of them stepped off the Access platform into the receiving
room of their luxurious Vintran h’kel. “Do you think Lekel believed we were going to Sharn?” asked
Kayle. The Sharnn made a gesture of complete indifference. Faen glanced sideways at him, then answered Kayle. “Probably.
I told him that I would be on t’kirl.” “T’kirl?” asked Kayle. “An ancient custom,” explained Faen. “A way to heal wounds
between the families of newly bound couples. Each goes to the other’s family
and asks if there are any unpaid insults between them. If so, there is ritual
recompense. When everyone is satisfied, we breathe m’zamay and move with crystal
music and laugh while moonlight pours through the black lace of tere groves.” Kayle smiled at her longing tone. “It sounds like a custom
Sharn would appreciate.” Faen looked narrowly at Ryth. His face was composed of forbidding
planes and angles, dark and baffling. “I doubt that Sharn cares about Malia’s customs,” she said
coolly. “But t’kirl gave us the only reason to leave Malia that Lekel could not
question.” She glanced at Ryth again. “How long do you suppose the Sharnn will
go on acting like a castrated zarf?” Before Kayle could frame a reply, Ryth’s long fingers traced
apologies down Faen’s body. Her senses leaped in answer, though her talent
warned her that the Sharnn stranger was still there, waiting beneath the warmth
of his smile. Yet she could not help replying, fingertips kneading the muscular
curves of his neck and shoulders. “Where are the Carifil?” asked Ryth, rubbing his lips
against her skin as though he had forgotten her special textures and fragrance. “They came before us,” she replied while her fingers paid extravagant
compliments to his hair and lips. “I never got closer to them than the room
where they had waited.” “Very bad for you?” said the Sharnn. “Not exactly bad,” she said, nibbling on his fingertips.
“Just very strong. Very distracting.” “Don’t I distract you?” Her answer was a lithe Malian movement that made his breath
catch. The last of the cold stranger evaporated in a flash of sensual heat. Yet
even then she sensed an aching shadow of pain deep inside him. *What is it, laseyss?* she asked again. *A pattern. A pattern that kills Malia. Or—* His mind
closed. *Or what?* *No. Not until it is the only possible pattern. And even
your Great Destroyer wouldn’t be that cruel.* The Sharnn held her with a strength that would have been punishing,
had it not been a pale reflection of his inner turmoil. Her lips gentled him
until his arms loosened slightly. With a silent apology he released her and
looked at their surroundings, seeing them for the first time. He sang through
his teeth in Sharn’s expression of admiration for sheer excess. “Is that really a pool I see?” Kayle smiled while his fingers stroked a tapestry that had a
hundred textures and a few bold colors. “Vintrans have clay eyes,” Faen said scornfully, dismissing
the obvious colors with a glance. The Sharnn’s jade green eyes cataloged the room’s patterns
in swift, consuming glances while he walked across ankle deep fieldfur to the
transparent expanse of pool that occupied one large h’kel. The water’s alluring
warmth made him smile. *Do you like water, m’zamay?* he asked silently, sending a
swirl of sensual possibilities with his question. Faen laughed low in her
throat and started toward the Sharnn. “Later, children,” said Kayle, accurately reading their intentions. “Just a few moments,” asked Faen, voice and body swaying
toward Ryth. “Malian moments are legend in the Concord—and Sharn’s ought
to be,” said Kayle dryly. With a rueful smile, Ryth took Faen’s hand and led her away
from the fluid temptations of the pool. “The rooms don’t seem to bother you.” “No, they don’t!” She frowned and Ryth sensed her reaching
out. “These rooms have hardly been touched. It doesn’t feel like Vintra at all.
No ... purple.” Kayle made a gesture of mock submission. “You were right,
Sharnn. As always.” “It wasn’t a difficult calculation,” said Ryth. “Less than
one millionth of one percent of the Concord population could afford to stay
here. Total privacy is expensive.” Faen laughed and stretched as though to embrace the h’kel.
“The Great Destroyer’s smiles are few, but appreciated. I am reluctant to bring
others here.” Kayle’s eyes deepened into orange embers as he listened to
an inner dialog. Then he smiled sadly and spoke. “Carifil—profound sorrow—that
their auras disturb the magnificent Ti Faen.” “I share their sorrow. In time—” she gestured ambiguously.
“In time I may be able to enjoy them. I’m beginning to enjoy you, Kayle. You
are very distinctive, strong textures and deep silences. Difficult, but rewarding.” A look of surprised pleasure softened Kayle’s normally blunt
features. “I have rarely been so praised.” Then, smiling wryly, “I assume that
I’m something of an acquired taste?” Faen clapped her hands together once, approval and respect.
Then her smile faded as she gathered herself for what she must do. She looked
over at the Sharnn and made a gesture of assent. “Are you sure?” he said slowly. “You had a shock this morning
with the Gint and the assassins, plus you’re not used to the Access shifts. And
the shuttle ...” For a moment they both remembered the shuttle ride to
Malia’s inner moon. The Sharnn’s self-absorption had been so great that he had
not been aware what it was costing Faen to lie on a shuttle couch permeated by
hundreds of conflicting auras. By the time he had noticed, she was sweating
with the effort of holding off the hammering energies. He had pulled her onto
his couch without a word from either his mind or his lips, but even that uneasy
silence could not diminish her relief. *I’m sorry, m’zamay. It was cold comfort I gave you.* *Much better than none at all. Believe me. I know.* Kayle waited until he sensed their mindspeech end, then
said, “Carifil Mim would like to see both of you personally. She would also
like to share mindtouch with both of you, but realizes that is possible only
with Ryth.” Faen’s smile was too quick, too brittle. “Invite her in,
Kayle. I’ll be glad to meet more Carifil.” But for all the civility of her words, Faen stepped back
until a gentle pressure from Ryth’s arm made her realize her retreat. He caught
the edge of her wry thought that meeting Mim could not be worse than fighting assassins
in Lekel’s gardens. Mim must have been waiting nearby, for she appeared at the
h’kel’s entrance almost immediately. Kayle greeted her, mind and body, with the
affection of one who had known Mim intimately for many maturities. Though she
was dressed in the concealing purple robes of Vintra, Ryth knew immediately
that she was Nendleti; that powerful rolling gait could not be disguised. Her
dark skin, bronze hair and pale orange eyes, coupled with the strength of her
face, made Mim attractive to both Ryth and Faen. She acknowledged the Sharnn’s
mental compliment with a swift mindtouch that was as decisive as her walk. “Thrice-wife,” murmured Kayle, touching her bright hair with
both his palms, “these are the two friends you have picked over my mind to
know.” “Thrice-wife?” said Faen. Mim answered in a voice that was intriguingly soft and
husky. “Nendleti aristocrats marry once for political imperatives, once for
sensual pleasures, and once for mental stimulation. Thus most Nendleti have
three wives or three husbands. My thrice-husband and I found all three needs answered
in each other.” Even as she explained, she weighed Faen’s physical appearance
with eyes that missed nothing. When it seemed that Faen would ask another question,
Mim said, “I would be honored to tell the Ti Faen whatever she desires, but ask
that such telling be delayed.” She glanced doubtfully at Kayle. “Are you sure?” “Faen is very resilient,” said Kayle. “And—we need her.” Mim noted the dark shadows and lines of stress on the
elegant Malian profile, and wondered if Faen should work at all. But though the
tall, powerful Sharnn beside Faen plainly wanted to object, he said nothing.
Mim looked a question at Kayle, who signaled for silence in their private
language. “I dislike using anyone as harshly as Faen has been used,”
said Mim bluntly. “But because the need is great, I’ll condone this unaesthetic
rush.” With a speed that made them blink, Mim pulled a string of
misa-wrapped articles out of her robe. “These fifteen things belong to Carifil. Would you arrange
these objects in order of least displeasing to most displeasing?” With a reluctance she could not conceal, Faen took the
string and began unwrapping the packets. She glanced once at Ryth, and he immediately
knelt beside her. “Do they understand,” Faen said, fingers hovering above the
objects, “that my preferences are as involuntary as the color of my eyes?” Mim smiled wryly. “Child, not everyone loves the taste of
bgli or the smell of nyko or the feel of misa or the sound of crystal music.
Others would kill for the chance to experience any one of those things. No
Carifil will be offended if he or she does not suit your particular senses.” Pale eyes weighed the sincerity of Mim’s words for a moment,
then Faen began touching the objects quickly, biting her lip in an attempt not
to reveal what she learned. In spite of that, words rumbled out. “Smooth and cool and lethal,” as she brushed a platinum
hair-band. “Gentle. Hidden,” as her fingers barely touched a lock of silver-blue
hair. “Ahhh, yes, this one! A knife spinning, brilliant and deadly and warm, so
warm.” Ryth took the object—an earring made of three blue metal
chains, set with brilliant blue-white gems—and put it to one side. As Faen
murmured directions, he arranged the other objects. Within a very short time,
it was finished. Only one object had made her flinch; three had pleased her and
all had displayed rich, bright energies that were clean and easy to read. “Done,” said Faen, rubbing her fingertips delicately over
Ryth’s palm, more out of new habit than old need. Kayle bent over the row of objects, picked up the earring
that had so pleased Faen, and flipped it to Mim. “When I saw you without it,” he said gruffly, “I thought you
had negated all three of our marriages.” Mim responded with a Nendleti phrase that made Kayle laugh
softly. “That was for the Vintran alley where you nearly negated all
our marriages,” said Mim, fastening her nuptial earring in place. “I owe you
three lives,” she said to the Sharnn. “He repaid them all in the Topaz Arcade,” Ryth said, giving
her a vivid mental picture of Kayle’s knife appearing in the back of an
assassin and Kayle’s powerful arms sweeping much larger assassins into oblivion. “Thank you,” she said huskily. “We’ve been apart physically
so much that I rarely have the pleasure of seeing him fight.” She smiled. “But
that will probably be remedied on Vintra.” She eyed the line of objects. “How
many of them were unacceptable, even for short periods?” “That one,” said Ryth, knowing Faen would be reluctant to answer.
His finger flicked a green scarf. “Only in an emergency.” “Unnecessary,” said Kayle. “We expected all of them to be unacceptable.”
He looked at Faen speculatively. “Perhaps if you touched more people who had
undergone Carifil integration ... ?” Faen shrugged in excellent imitation of Ryth. “Is this
getting us closer to that gint? I keep remembering the Concord agent who was
tortured into unconsciousness.” She made a frustrated gesture. “I should have
brought something of hers when I followed Ryth, but I only thought of his cape.
I didn’t know we’d go to Vintra.” Her lips flattened over the word Vintra and
she made a disdainful gesture. “Could you find her if you had something to touch?” said
Mim, looking intently at Faen.’ “Perhaps. It would depend on my stamina,” she said
matter-of-factly. “I could at least narrow the geographical possibilities.” “You followed and found Ryth easily,” said Kayle. “Ryth is laseyss.” There was nothing Kayle could say to her flat statement. In
silence, he watched Mim hand yet another misa-wrapped package to Faen. “Jsyl’s favorite river stone,” said Mim. “She used it for
meditation.” “Jsyl?” Faen asked. “Is she the one? Was it her headband the
Gint brought?” “Yes.” “Maps?” asked Faen, looking from Ryth to Kayle. “No,” said Ryth ruefully. “I was so wrapped up in my discovery
that I forgot to tell Kayle.” “Discovery?” asked Mim. The Sharnn said nothing, and his eyes refused questions. “Maps,” said Kayle, going to an antique, chest-high desk and
tapping open the center slit. “Maps of the Ten Continents, Myriad Isles and
Fifteen Seas. Also, section-by-section maps of any area can be ordered through
the room computer.” “Privacy coded?” said Ryth. “Automatic erase unless otherwise instructed.” “Good,” Ryth looked at Faen. Her eyes were pale and her skin
drawn; yet when she sensed his attention, she gave him a smile of breathtaking
promise. “Are you sure?” he asked. “Jsyl must be enduring far worse,” said Faen, resuming her
cross-legged position on the floor. “Why didn’t she call out to us?” wondered Mim aloud. “She was taken by surprise,” said Faen. “The others?” asked Kayle. “Off-planet,” said Mim crisply. Ryth put the river stone within reach of Faen’s right hand
and the map beneath her left. “Remember,” he said urgently. “Location only. Try to block
out all other information.” “Of course,” she said, but her eyes told him that nothing obstructed
the flow of information, ever. “Location,” he said again, touching her cheek and lips
gently with his knuckles. She rubbed her cheek across his hand, then put one fingertip
lightly on the green river rock. “Female—barely conscious—they’re coming again, oh don’t—” “Location only!” Ryth commanded, shaking the grip the stone
had on her mind. “Not—there,” she whispered, brushing aside the map beneath
her left hand. Ryth yanked the map away and slid a second one under her
hand. He continued, demanding focus on location and changing maps until her
body jerked. “Yes—” “Nimar’k’n continent,” said Ryth, holding out his hands for
the series of maps that covered the fifth continent, quadrant by quadrant. “At least it is not on the other side of the world,” said
Mim. Ryth ignored Faen’s stumbling words of pain and terror by
continuing to place new maps beneath her fingers as quickly as she rejected the
old. “Yes!” “Fifteenth quadrant,” snapped Ryth. Kayle put that series of maps in Ryth’s hands. “Program section maps of Sima,” said Ryth quietly, easing a
map beneath Faen’s shaking hand. “This city?” said Mim. “But Jsyl entered through the Klylmi
Access.” Ryth put another map under Faen’s hand and tried to batter encouragement
through her monolog of agony. “Just do it!” he snapped. “Pattern.” “Error and regret,” Mim said, turning away quickly, but
Kayle was already punching instructions into the standard Concord room
terminal. “Scale?” she said tersely. “Begin at 1,000:1, then 500:1, then 100:1, then 50:1,” answered
Ryth, shifting maps in a hiss of plastic sheets. Faen made a sound as though she were fighting for breath.
Without hesitating, Ryth forced in beyond the edges of her mind, and found his
own body convulsed in pain, slippery with sweat and agony. “Quickly,” gasped the Sharnn, wrenching his mind free. “She
can’t last much longer. I won’t let her!” “She?” asked Mim. “Do you mean Faen?” “Both!” Faen’s low cry, followed by a hoarse word brought Ryth’s
concentration totally back to her. “Sima,” he hissed. “Begin with section eighty-nine.” “But you’ll miss—” A look from Ryth silenced Mim’s objection
to taking maps out of order; she quickly decided she would not care to cross
wills with the Sharnn where Faen was concerned. “Eighty-nine,” she agreed
briskly. “City center.” Faen’s voice had fallen to a hoarse mutter of words distinguishable
only to Ryth. Her body jerked, trembled, and her breath came out in a long
sigh. She relaxed and her words became more distinct. Ryth delicately merged
with the edges of her mind. “Praise the Twelve Hawks of the Seventh Dawn,” murmured the
Sharnn, making a strange gesture with his right hand. Then, “Jsyl has escaped
into mirva—what you call q-consciousness.” “You’re sure?” said Mim, skeptical in spite of herself; it
was too convenient, just when Faen’s difficulties seemed to be at their greatest. “Faen cannot fake her responses,” said the Sharnn grimly.
“Look at her.” The pale fire of Mim’s eyes measured Faen. Sweat was drying
on Faen’s body and the twisting tension of her muscles had almost vanished. Her
breathing was slow and deep and regular. Ryth switched sector maps in the sudden silence. “Jsyl no
longer hurts,” said Ryth, moving maps again after a negative gesture from Faen.
“She no longer fears.” New map. “Her body and mind have let go of all but the
most enduring need—survival.” Another map. “But we don’t have much time. Q can
be lethal.” “Yes. Here.” Faen’s calm assertion echoed in the suddenly voiceless room,
Ryth picked up the map. “Give me the ninety-sixth section, 500:1. Begin with the
green code area.” Mim’s blunt hands flew over the computer studs. Plastic maps
began whiffing into the receiving tray. As fast as they came, Ryth put them under
Faen’s hand, but it was still an agonizingly slow process. “Yes. Here. Right here.” Ryth snatched up the map, scanning the area where Faen’s finger
had pointed. “Now give me green code, 100:1. Begin with—No. Give me 50:1,
c-sub-d. Then work in a left-circle around that center. N’ies?” Then, realizing
he had used a Malian word, he added, “Do you understand?” “Yes,” said Mim, fingers a blur of instructions over the
studs. Seven maps later, in the b-sub-c area of the city Sima,
Faen’s finger came down on a series of circles that indicated a large cluster
of vertical kels that had been popular with Vintra’s first, nervous colonists. “There.” Her hand covered an area called Old Sima, with a population
of perhaps 30,000. It was a cluttered, seething place, crammed with the oldest
buildings in the oldest city on the planet. Kayle looked at it with a deep
frown. “An unaesthetic area,” he said with a mildness that was
belied by the distinct quiver of his nostrils. “Built out of flarebrick and
blackstone. Home of most of the disease and random violence in Sima.” His voice
dropped into pure contempt. “They should burn it down to the decaying granite
that supports it.” Mim frowned at the irregular circle Kayle had drawn on the
map. “I had hoped—” She stopped and snapped her fingers restlessly. “If we take
you there, Faen, could you narrow the area further?” * “That’s too—” began the Sharnn angrily, but Faen cut across
him. “I received a few clear impressions of her surroundings. I
will try.” The urgency in Faen’s voice aroused Ryth. *What is it, m’zamay?* Her only reply was an evasive sliding away from mindtouch.
He pursued. *Faen, what did you see through Jsyl’s eyes?* He held the contact, demanding and finally getting a cool
reply. *It was too quick. Not focused. Something even a pattern-man
might mistake or misunderstand.* *Try me.* The mildness of his thought was inviting, as was the warmth
curling out to her from him. And with the warmth, the cape sliding over her
skin in a caress that was as sweet as it was surprising. Faen stroked the cape,
almost smiling, but her mind was still withheld. *Give me time, laseyss. For now we must each hold our
secrets until they’re proved true or false beyond all doubt or error. N’ies?* *... n’ies ... But tell me this. Did you see a shadow?* Fear was her only answer. The Sharnn looked up and found
Kayle and Mim watching intently. “Fascinating,” murmured Mim. Then, to Kayle, “Apologies,
sri. I didn’t believe there was a mind I couldn’t force, but you were right.
Faen and Ryth are impenetrable when they want to be.” She looked at both of
them. “Are you finished?” “For the moment,” said Ryth. “Regrets, Ti Faen,” said Mim. “I would have left you here to
rest, but we still need your skill.” “We may need more than that,” said the Sharnn dryly. He went to the baggage chute, pulled out a soft leather
rollup and rummaged through it. He removed several knives. Kayle watched for a
moment, then began sorting through his own luggage and strapping on weapons.
Mini’s look went from one man to the other, then to Faen. “When a Sharnn wearing a cape starts arming himself,” said
Faen, “so do I.” “Without insult, thrice-wife,” Kayle said, “I would be
pleased if you would wear weapons. Many weapons.” At Mim’s baffled look, Ryth explained. “The Gint seems to arrange
odds of at least fifteen to one in his favor. His assassins aren’t unskilled,
as Kayle can tell you.” “I thought those guards belonged to Lekel?” “Perhaps. But they fought to the Gint’s benefit.” The Sharnn said nothing more, letting Mim conclude what she
wished as to Lekel’s guilt or innocence in the question of guards. With a very
thin smile, Mim caught the weapons Kayle threw to her. When they stepped out of the hotel, they stepped into a
world composed solely of different tints, tones, shades and intensities of
purple. It was as though neither blue nor red were allowed to exist in an uncombined
state. Faen shuddered when the brooding light washed over her, making
her eyes white as ice and her hair darker than the space between the stars, She
hesitated for a long moment, fighting not to show her loathing for the very
light that spread over Vintra’s surface. The Sharnn’s hand touched her, smoothing her robe that no
longer was clear turquoise. *M’zamay?* Ryth’s soft question went through the tightness of her mind.
Though Vintra ruined all colors for her, his presence was still a savage
radiance that even a mauve sun could not diminish. *Is it the people?* he asked, pulling her hand beneath his
Cape until her fingers spread against the muscles of his chest. *No.* *Memories of Ti Vire?* *No.* She laughed raggedly. *It’s the light! Can you understand
that, Sharnn?* Ryth’s cape flared restlessly. *So that’s why your Ti Vire
lasted only seven years.* *I had to escape ... all the colors of hell ... there’s no
honor in dying insane.* The Sharnn cape licked out, comforting. Faen almost smiled
as she caught a soft fold between her hands. Then she realized that Kayle and
Mim were waiting with little patience. The cape drifted from Faen’s fingers
when she gestured curtly for Kayle to proceed. The four of them rode the city shuttles as far as they could
and used lavender slidewalks until those fell into disrepair. Then the Sharnn
led them deep into Old Sima, twisting through trash drifts and around garbage
heaps slimed with age. The kels surrounding them grew higher, older, more
ramshackle. The crowds that they had seen in the newer part of Sima gradually
dwindled to nothing; only the furtive shadows of native scavengers spoke of
other life. Occasionally a cry would echo among the leaning kels, but no one
could be sure whether the sound was human or animal. “Is this the same place you were ambushed?” murmured Mim in
a voice that went no further than their ears. “No,” said Kayle with an equally muted voice. “It looked
much like this, though. Vintra must have lost a lot of people in the Undeclared
War, to have abandoned so many large kels to howls and slinkers.” “But the maps,” said Mim, “showed this area as densely populated.” “The maps must have been very old.” The Sharnn halted, staring at the canted kels as though
seeing them for the first time. “Not old maps,” said Ryth softly. “Most of these kels
haven’t been abandoned that long; The garbage is not yet dust. But even so,
this area could easily have held twice the population the map gave. Perhaps the
war did cost Vintra too much.” “Not war,” Faen said, her voice soft yet rasping with inner
strain. “Disease. Pekh. Many died here, heat and coma. Many, manymanyMANY—” Ryth grabbed Faen and held her until she stopped shivering. “It just came in a wave—all those deaths,” she whispered.
“Thousands and more thousands. Didn’t you feel it?” “Just a distant sense of many small patterns ending and a
great one continuing. It didn’t tear at my emotions as it did at yours.” Faen laughed shakily. “The wave is past, now. I’m whole
again.” Ryth let go of her slowly and turned to Kayle. “Epidemic,
not war.” The Sharnn turned and led off down an alley that seemed
gloomy in spite of Vintra’s huge lavender sun hanging directly overhead. As
Faen followed, her eyes searched every purple shadow for life. Kayle and Mim
stayed close to the ripple of sickly turquoise that was Faen’s robe. Even as
Ryth walked, his cape changed into a semblance of the loose two-color robe of a
Vintran city dweller. A few of the tall kels surrounding them took on an air of
habitation. Leashed suncallers preened in open windows, fragments of
conversation glittered through the brooding lavender silence, less garbage
slumped in the shadows, and there was an occasional flutter from a ragged robe.
Once, footsteps followed them. They turned, saw a pale flash of eyes, then nothing
except the sound of footsteps running away, fading, gone. As one, Faen and Kayle and Mim turned their robes inside
out, a trick used by poor Vintrans to keep one side of their robes unstained
for special occasions. The inside of the robes was much less bright; should
anyone see Faen or the others from a distance, they would look like faded
residents of the ramshackle kels. Ryth hesitated, then reached out to Kayle’s mind. *One-way link.* The Sharnn’s blunt invitation/demand was surprising; he had
always displayed a disinclination to anything more intimate than simple mindspeech. *You want me to ride your mind?* asked Kayle, still
uncertain. *Yes. Faen will take all my attention soon. I don’t want the
distraction of separate mindspeech with three people. Keep Mim informed. Ask
her to be our eyes and ears. And please be very small in my mind, Kayle.
Otherwise, it could be impossible for Faen.* Kayle’s mental presence seemed to thin and dissolve among
the interstices of Ryth’s mind. With growing surprise, the Sharnn realized that
this was how Kayle linked disparate minds, sliding among energies until he had
woven new connections of incredible subtlety. *My greatest respect, Ti Kayle.* Kayle’s answer was a distinct sense of smiling ease deep
within the Sharnn’s mind. Tentatively, Ryth reached out for Faen. *We’re approaching b-sub-c.* There was a feeling of confusion and discomfort, followed by
surprise. *Kayle?* asked Faen. Ryth swore silently, and sensed distant consternation. *Can
you tolerate it?* he asked. *It—it’s like a veil over your radiance. Not painful, just
... dimming. It won’t hurt me.* *Good. Do you sense anything else?* *Nothing.* Ryth unwrapped Jsyl’s river stone and held it out to Faen.
She touched it, closed her eyes and concentrated. Ryth watched her muscles cord
with effort, but when he urged her to use herself less harshly, she ignored
him. “She’s still—” Faen’s body swayed like a compass needle,
turning between kels, “—there. That way!” Faen’s blindly pointing finger indicated a huge kel,
half-full of people and alive with the iridescent purple wings of suncallers. *Inside?* asked Ryth, doubting that Jsyl would be hidden in
an inhabited building. Faen’s answer was a biting need to be moving. Ryth pulled
her around the building at a near-run. *Again!* he demanded. A small hand closed over the rock Ryth held. Faen swayed,
her upraised arm pointed down a long, unappetizing alley between leaning rows
of very tall kels with sagging blacktree facades. The Sharnn’s pattern talent washed through him like adrenaline;
a thousand traps waited in the too carefully piled rubbish heaps. Nor would any
of the other approaches be any better. The Gint liked odds heavily in his
favor. “Flarebrick and purple suncallers,” murmured Faen, voice rising,
“running down walls faded and cracking and quiet so quiet—Help me!” Faen’s scream died against Ryth’s hard hand. He snatched the
stone away from her and called to her mind. *Faen. Faen! Which kel?* With a long shudder, Faen opened her eyes, surprised to see
she was at the mouth of an alley instead of on a cold floor with someone
approaching, someone familiar and hated, a woman who wielded power with a
vengeful hand. Then Faen realized that the Sharnn was deep inside her mind.
She banished the mental picture before the woman’s face could be more than a
suggestion of shape and color. “No!” said Faen, wrenching away from him. “No!” Then she
controlled herself and pulled his arms around her, breathing apologies against
the hard muscles of his neck and pouring warmth into his mind. The picture of a woman approaching did not appear between
them again, yet Ryth sensed a fear growing in Faen, a fear unlike any he had
sensed in her before. A fear like his own for Malia and for the loss that had
brought him to her, a finder. Suddenly he had to know if Faen had seen the shadow
that had haunted him off Sharn. The Sharnn spread through Faen’s mind like a golden net,
gathering up every vagrant thought, but he could not make the link any deeper,
could not touch her memory of a shadow/woman approaching, could not touch the
core of her fear. She told him it was Kayle’s presence that separated their
minds, but the Sharnn sensed it was a reflex born of terror and survival. When
he truly pressed her, driving himself against her evasions, Faen fought back
with deadly potential. *G’el n’si,* came Ryth’s careful thought as he retreated.
Then, *M’zamay, I need what you’re hiding.* *Not yet,* she responded, both plea and command. *Not yet!* *Trust me.* Ryth sensed two Faens locked in combat; one calling to him
as to her second self, and the other seeing him as a dark-eyed executioner. And he could press her no further, for she could be right.
He could be the death of her people. Ryth gathered Faen beneath the folds of his cape. For a moment
her body remained rigid, then she melted against him until her sensual presence
sent waves of pleasure through him. With a slow twist, she stepped out of his
arms; her movement was promise and regret and apology. *Give me the stone, laseyss.* For an instant the Sharnn wanted to refuse, wanted to hurl
the stone into a rubbish heap and turn his back on everything but her warmth.
But he put the cool stone in her palm. Deep in her mind and his, below even
Kayle’s reach, they shared the inarticulate hope that they would not find their
separate fears. When Faen’s hand closed around the stone, she was torn out
of his mind. She stumbled forward. Ryth’s arm went out to support her and to hold her back
until he checked the narrowing alley for traps. But there were no bombs this
time, only pits lined with ragged shards of glass and mounds of rubbish oozing
poisonous gases. To Ryth’s eye and mind, each carefully placed danger was
another sign pointing to the Gint. Faen turned toward the front of a building where a long-dead
artist had painted purple suncallers flying against Vintra’s moon. Some of the
birds appeared to be running down the flarebrick walls where the heavy
black-wood facade faded and cracked and sagged. Without hesitation, Faen stepped forward into the kel—and
tripped over a strategically placed bit of rubble. With a bone-deep rumble,
part of the facade sheared free and hurtled to the entrance floor. Only Ryth’s
reflexes saved Faen from being crushed beneath the heavy fall of stone and
wood. He wrenched Jsyl’s talisman out of Faen’s hands. *The kel is a trap!* he called in her mind. *Trap! N’ies?
You stumbled over a trigger that brought down half of the facade. Do you really
need this stone any more?* Slowly, sanity replaced agony in her silver eyes. *She’s out of q-consciousness. Dying.* *I know. Her dying sucked you into the stone. It’s too dangerous
for you!* *Hold on to me,* demanded Faen, grabbing the stone before he
could stop her. The Sharnn picked up Faen and his cape wrapped around her so
that it was impossible for her to move or cry out. Her body convulsed in death
throes until the edge of his hand smacked against hers. The stone dropped from
her fingers and crashed to the floor. *We’re standing—on top of her!* groaned Faen. Then she succumbed
to the strain of touching a dying mind. Her body went limp as she retreated
into a form of q-consciousness. The Sharnn glanced around, hoping to see ramp or stairs, anything
but a downshaft; he would trust the kel’s creaking machinery only if the alternative
was immediate death. Along one curve of the elliptical kel was a shadow
suggestive of an arch or door. He shifted Faen’s weight across his shoulders
and ran toward the shadow. Before he reached it, Mim passed him. *She felt it would be better,* came Kayle’s bland
explanation. *I agreed.* *But the traps—!* Kayle’s response was an image of Ryth carrying Faen as he
tried to fight off an ambush. Ryth knew Kayle was right. The falling facade had
surely warned any guards who were present. *Tell Mim not to go through any doors or down any narrow
paths until I’ve checked.* *Done.* Mim waited near the top of a narrow ramp that twisted Into
the purple gloom below. The ramp was steep and studded with tread latches; it
was meant for machines rather than men. Ryth, Kayle and Mim stood on the brink,
barely breathing, listening with mind and body. *Mim senses nothing.* *Jsyl?* *Just once. A flash of agony when q-consciousness ended.* *Is she dead?* asked the Sharnn angrily. *Perhaps. Or perhaps she just went back into q.* As though Faen were no more burden than an extra knife, the
Sharnn bent and picked up several fist-sized chunks of flarebrick nibble. With
a snap of his wrist he sent one chunk ricocheting down the ramp. Before the
first piece completed the spiral descent, the second and third were caroming
after it. There was no response. When the bits of rubble stopped rolling, Mim looked up at
Ryth. He gestured caution. Mim dropped lightly into the gloom. Kayle counted
three and leaped after. Ryth waited for a five count. To his relief, there was
nothing more dangerous than shifting rubble the whole twisting length of the
ramp. He quickly picked his way down, balancing Faen across his shoulders. The sub-surface room stretched away on all sides, huge, unpartitioned,
and cluttered with defunct service machinery. Yellow-white lightstrips burned
in tepid imitation of a sun the colonists would never see again. Kayle and Mim stood with their backs to each other,
watching. Faen’s head moved restlessly against the Sharnn and she
moaned. Her eyes opened nearly opaque, dulled by something that was nearly
death. Ryth eased her into a standing position, holding on to her until he felt
her strength and awareness return. With a motion that was almost awkward, Faen
pulled free of his support. “Jsyl is dead.” Her thought was thin and distant. *Did that faceless woman kill her?* demanded Ryth, sending
with his question the blurred female form that he had taken from Faen’s mind. Faen’s flesh of panic was so quickly smothered that the
Sharnn could not be certain he had sensed it at all. *I don’t know who killed Jsyl,* answered Faen calmly. “She
died without thought.* *How did she die?* *She was strangled.* Deep in his mind Ryth felt Kayle’s sudden feral alertness;
if Jsyl had been strangled, her killer had to be nearby. Yet Mim had sensed
nothing, no one, and Mim was highly skilled at sensing and forcing entry into
minds. They all heard the faint rattle of debris slithering over
the floor above their heads. Mim and Kayle spun back toward the ramp,
scrambling through rubble in an attempt to catch whoever was fleeing. An
attempt the Sharnn knew would be futile. He leaped, caught a heavy metal conduit,
and swung up to an air-exchange. Through the dull plastic mesh he saw nothing;
yet the faintest sounds of a man running came back to him. An instant later Kayle and Mim appeared, running with a
speed that surprised the Sharnn. He watched, though he was certain that all
their speed would be useless. He had been the fastest runner of the Seventh
Dawn, but the shadow they were chasing had eluded him. Ryth swung down and landed lightly beside Faen. “Let’s find Jsyl’s body.” Faen hesitated. Her eyes dimmed as she remembered things she
would rather forget. “Yes, I suppose I must touch her, if only to find out—”
Faen’s voice dried up. She swallowed and began again. “Jsyl was kept near a
tall, black machine with rust running down its sides. Very old. As old as the
lightship that brought Malians here. She—” Faen closed her eyes. “She watched
that machine until she went blind. And the floor—the floor was cold and uneven
and had splinters of white glass like shattered eyes watching her die.” Faen looked at the smooth floor beneath her feet. “Poor
Jsyl,” she murmured. “The Carifil told her nothing. She didn’t know why she
died.” “Do any of us?” Faen glanced at Ryth, startled by the bitterness in his
tone, but his back was to her and he was running between mounds of rubble and
rusting metal, looking for a single black machine. He found several before he
found the one Jsyl had known. The floor here was broken, crumpled by the same
seismic shudders that had tilted the tall kels of Old Sima. The Sharnn looked around carefully. His hard green eyes
missed nothing, but he learned nothing new. Concord Agent Jsyl had been
tortured and strangled by an expert—or experts, if what he believed was true. Except
for the places where Jsyl’s thrashings had disturbed old patterns of grime and
debris, nothing showed that the area was at all different from any other part
of the kel. Nor was there a body for Faen to touch and learn from. The Sharnn’s mind closed while he struggled against the pattern
that was becoming more clear and more ugly with every moment. Facts and
questions he had never wanted to know or ask clawed at his unwillingness.
Either the Gint had a pattern gift to equal a Sharnn’s, or someone had warned
him about Faen’s presence on Vintra. Was that someone Lekel? Or did Faen
already have proof of Malia’s guilt? Was she playing a game too subtle for a
Sharnn who had succumbed to the white moment of Malian sensuality? Could he
trust her with Vintra’s future? Could he trust himself? “You have a stranger’s mind,” said Faen. “Closed and cold.” “At this moment, I would not share my thoughts with an enemy,
much less you.” “Then I’m not your enemy?” “No.” He held out his arms in spite of the uncertainty
cutting at his mind. “And you’re not Malia’s executioner?” she asked faintly. “No,” he whispered against her rain-scented hair. “No.” Faen did not fight the grip that held her painfully close,
filling her senses with his strength and his breath warm in her hair. She moved
bonelessly against him until their bodies drove away Jsyl’s tortured cries,
drove away death and fear and agony. They held each other with aching force, as
though if they held hard enough, nothing could ever divide them. But when they finally released one another, they were
further apart than before, separated by unspoken fears, shadows haunting their
eyes. Mim and Kayle found them standing silently, fingertips touching
and moving in t’sil’ne. The Sharnn turned to face Kayle, but said nothing, for
there was nothing he wanted Kayle to hear. “What did Faen learn from Jsyl’s body?” said Kayle, his
voice harsh with the frustration of a failed hunter. “The killer took Jsyl’s body with him.” Kayle swore explosively. “He must have known about Faen.” He
looked at her, but Faen’s white eyes stared through him. “Perhaps,” said the Sharnn. “And perhaps he merely took
Jsyl’s body to increase the mystery of her disappearance.” Kayle started to ask a silent question, but found Ryth’s
mind totally unapproachable; if the Nendleti had not been looking at Ryth,
Kayle would have sworn no one was there. Mim’s efforts brought the same result;
Ryth was as impervious to her as a stone. “You’ve changed,” said Kayle in blunt displeasure. “Sharnn can become whatever they can understand, whatever
they can conceive.” “What made you ... conceive ... of such mental defenses?”
asked Kayle. “It was time,” said Ryth, his eyes green and deep with the
infinite possibilities of Sharn. “Is it time for you to become a finder like Faen?” asked
Kayle sardonically. “Sharnn can be anything, but not everything.” Ryth turned
his face to Mim. “You did not sense the killer’s presence?” She moved abruptly. “Malians are a frustrating race. Above a
certain level of potential their minds are an enigma to me. The whole time I
waited on Malia’s inner moon, the only Malian minds available to me were of the
dullest sort.” “So the Gint is Malian,” said Kayle. “That’s why Mim didn’t
sense him earlier.” Faen stiffened, then forced herself to relax, but her whole
body radiated subtle protest. “Perhaps,” said the Sharnn blandly. “Or perhaps he is
Vintran. Or perhaps he is something else entirely.” “Are Vintrans difficult for you?” Kayle asked Mim. “Not as often.” “Perhaps,” said Ryth, “Vintrans don’t have as many minds of
the requisite complexity to inhibit—” Kayle interrupted the Sharnn with a rude noise. “From
pattern-man to perhaps-man. It’s clear to me that Malia is guilty.” “There are alternate possibilities for everything that has
happened,” said Ryth without heat. “Tell me, perhaps-man, what the chances are that Malia is
not guilty.” Ryth ignored Kayle’s sarcasm. “Even if there were only seven
chances in one hundred—” “That few!” “If,” repeated Ryth emphatically, “if the chances were only
seven in one hundred that Malia were innocent, that is not certain enough to
condemn a race of intelligent beings to extinction.” “The kind of certainty you’re looking for doesn’t exist,” “But it does, Kayle. It must. I have conceived of it,
understood its necessity, and I am Sharnn. I shall find that certainty.” *What will Faen do if Malia is guilty?* asked Kayle, and his
mindspeech carried too many emotions to name. Then Kayle felt a hollow falling
away, as though he had slipped into a downshaft. The Sharnn’s mind was again
closed and cold. Ryth knitted the fingers of his right hand through Faen’s left
and brought her palm to his lips. “The Ti Faen needs rest,” he said, his voice
as smooth and polished as the exterior of his mind. “We can learn nothing further
here.” His enigmatic eyes watched Mim and Kayle, but neither one
objected, for neither one wanted to fight him. The four of them scrambled up
the ramp, and out into the ground floor of the leaning kel. Faen stumbled in the gloom and rubble; though she caught herself
with surprising grace, the Sharnn reached out and lifted her off her feet. She
protested, low-voiced, then let her forehead rest against the slow pulse in his
neck. Her hair rippled down his arm like black water as he carried her through
the dull sunlight and slanting purple shadows of Old Sima. “We must talk, m’zamay,” said Ryth, mopping up the last
drops of their meal with a small piece of lavender bread. Faen, still sleep-drugged, began absently cleaning her
sticky fingers with a damp cloth. Ryth took the cloth from her. “On Sharn,” he said,
delicately licking her smallest finger clean, “this is the best part of the
meal.” Faen shivered with pleasure as his tongue moved between her
fingers. “You should have been born a Malian,” she said, her low voice like
another tone of the twilight glowing in the room. “Perhaps I once was.” His teeth slid across her palm and
pressed together gently at the base of her thumb; then his tongue moved again
over her fingers. “But it does not matter how I was born, m’zamay, for I will
surely die a Malian.” “No—!” “No?” asked the Sharnn, pretending confusion. “Does it
tickle?” His tongue flicked around her fingertip. “I should take all my food
from your hands,” he said, voice low. “It tastes so much sweeter.” “Don’t,” said Faen, as much moan as word. “You are Sharnn,
not Malian. Sharnn! Whether Malia lives or ...” her voice faded to a lightless
whisper. “Dies,” he finished, kissing the soft golden pulse inside
her wrist. “Shall we talk now, m’zamay?” “You call me m’zamay,” she said with a ragged laugh, “yet
you are far more seductive than the silver dust in the center of the zamay
flowers. M’zamay.” She shivered as he sucked lightly on her finger, tongue
caressing in a way that promised other pleasures. “I can’t think with you so
close.” “You don’t need to think, my Faen,” he said, his breath soft
on her breast as his hand parted her robe, “Just tell me—” his tongue made slow
small circles, “who Jsyl saw before she died.” His body moved swiftly, holding
her sudden struggles in a vise of skill and power. “And I shall tell you—” his
teeth closed with melting gentleness “—why you spent such a lonely shuttle
ride. And then we—” his fingers moved surely beneath her robe “—will undress
each other and I will teach my beautiful Ti Faen how Sharnn use a warm pool. “Talk to me,” he whispered. “It’s not equal,” she cried. “I’m helpless between your
hands and you—” “And I,” he interrupted hoarsely, “am helpless when I so
much as think of you. Shall we die because of it?” he asked, fingers warm with
her warmth. “Or shall we talk to each other?” “And say death to Malia.” Her words hung in the room like the ringing of a vire
crystal. “Are you so certain?” he asked, drawing her close,
comforting and seeking comfort. “Aren’t you?” she asked, her silver eyes dark and her
fingers warm inside his cape, touching. “Weren’t you sure—” the back of her
hand rubbed lightly against his hard strength “—when we left Malia?” Her teeth
closed over the Sharnn cape, impatient with the half-life dividing her skin
from his. “What did you discover on Malia, laseyss?” Faen’s whisper was as soft as her tongue between his lips
and beneath his robe her hands kneaded down his back, counting and caressing
each sliding muscle. Ryth groaned and gave himself up to her gliding tongue and
for long moments they lived only where they touched one another. “I—” they said simultaneously, then smiled. But their smiles faded as they watched each other and the amethyst
dusk streaming through flawless glass. “I’m afraid,” Faen said simply. Her eyes were molten silver
and her voice was thick. “If I condemn Malia with my words, no death could be
painful enough for me, not even Ti Kiirey-g’ii, redemption by agony.” When she
looked down, her black lashes made ragged shadow arcs across her cheeks: “There
is no possible redemption for such a traitor as I would be, a Sandoliki Ti who
delivered her people to kh’vire’ni, death without honor or vengeance.” Wordlessly, the Sharnn put his knife in her hands and lifted
until sharp metal creased the pulse swelling in his neck. It was the ultimate
Malian gesture of trust. “Unless you, the Sandoliki Ti, have planned and executed Vintra’s
decline, nothing you say can irrevocably condemn Malia.” The knife dropped from her fingers and fell soundlessly onto
the velvet floor. “That proves nothing,” she whispered. “You know I could not
kill you.” “Even to save your planet?” The agony that wrenched her made him curse the question, and
its necessity. “Listen to me,” said the Sharnn, his voice rich with shared
pain. “What I said was the truth. Unless you are guilty—” “I’m not,” she said, then added sadly, “and I am.” At his
stricken look, she tried to explain. “If Memned is guilty, every Malian is
equally guilty.” “But—” “No. Let me finish while I have the courage.” Faen’s fingers
clamped together until the skin around her knuckles turned pale gold. “Jsyl saw
Memned.” “Many people have seen Lekel’s wife,” said Ryth gently. “Not as torturer.” Faen’s fingers loosened and lay slackly
against her thighs. Her voice was a thin tumble of words. “She’s very skilled.
Even Lekel is not better and he has known much torture, both in the giving and
the receiving. That’s how he became k’m’n Sandoliki while I fought Ti Vire. “Oh Vintra,” she moaned, “why were you ever hung in Malia’s
future? Why did Maran sing?” The Sharnn looked at her eyes staring sightlessly into a
past he had never known and did not comprehend. Yet he must comprehend or they
both were lost. “I do not understand.” Ryth stroked her fingers until the clammy
feel of fear dissolved into the warmth of their skins sharing textures. “Talk
to me, my Faen. Teach me.” “I am—I was—the last Sandoliki. Have you never wondered why
Lekel rules?” “It was enough for me to know why you did not rule.” “Lekel was Relle’s vire brother,” said Faen, her voice a monotone.
“Though Relle and I were bound with the first words we spoke, Lekel wanted me.
If not as wife, then as f’mi. He was determined to be my first lover. I was not
yet fourteen, below the age of full combat training. Or passion. He was twice
my age, and highly trained. But he was vulnerable, as a hungry man is always
vulnerable. He did not truly believe I would refuse him. “He’ll not forget that instant. He took no woman, willing or
otherwise, for many days. By the time he recovered, Relle and I were husband
and wife. “We were also off-planet, training to become Concord
Agents.” “Ti Lekel must be a formidable fighter,” said Ryth, more to
himself than to her, “to have driven you off Malia.” “Yes,” she said unflinchingly. “Even then, five assassins
could not hold him. Children such as Relle and I wouldn’t have made Lekel take
a second breath. I knew that and ran, but I did not want Relle to know. For in
spite of lust, Lekel and Relle were true knife-friends as well as vire brothers.” Her hands stirred, slim and strong, and her fingers curled
around his wrists. “When I first saw Kayle move, I knew I had met a warrior to
give even Lekel pause. Kayle taught me many things, deadly things. And I
learned. Great Destroyer, how well I learned!” “I know,” said Ryth, kissing the fingers wrapped like
choking vines around his wrists. “I know, m’zamay.” “Not everything. Not yet.” Her fingers loosened, leaving
arcs where nails had scored flesh, and neither noticed, for they were focused
in each other’s eyes. “When Skemole murdered Relle, I was carrying his
children. I felt a hatred such as I’d never imagined. I screamed death oaths to
the Great Destroyer. And was answered.” She closed her eyes and then opened
them, blind silver suspended in purple twilight. “I initiated darg vire on
Skemoleans. They were murderers, not warriors. Sly and malicious and foul. I
killed them all.” Faen looked at her hands. “It was so easy. The room where
Relle died in pieces was filled with their raw energies. A black explosion of
knowledge and then I knew where each murderer was. I knew! So easy. Easy. Ah
yes, the Great Destroyer had answered my oaths.” Her laughter thinned into an eerie echo of descending night. “I stole gems enough to lose myself among the Accesses of a
thousand planets. When my time was near, I returned to the Sandoliki
Estates to bring life to Relle’s children among the thousand moments of Malia
that were their heritage. The Sandolikis had thought me dead with Relle; they
feared the Concord would demand me to punish my darg vire. Sandoliki Jomen hid
me in the most remote part of the Estates, the part where the sacred sarsa was
kept. The part that became Darg Vintra. “It was there that I began to learn the price asked by the
Great Destroyer for the death of Relle’s murderers. I could touch only my children.
I could speak only to my children’s minds. I turned to the sarsa ... and sensed
something I still do not understand. But the m’sarsas were like
white-hot metal, energies that seared me. I could not play for long.” She sighed so deeply that her hair slid forward, veiling her
face until her hand pushed the heavy mass away. “Lekel did not believe that I could not endure touch. He
came to me, testing. I was too impatient. My reflexes gave away my deadly
skills. He fought only long enough for me to touch him.” Faen’s memory lived in Ryth’s mind. Lekel, lithe and swift,
weaponless, facing her, and their feints and counter-feints were blurs of speed
and power until his arm deflected a death blow and she screamed, a scream of
agony such as even Lekel had never before heard, and the scream dulled his eyes
with a pain like hers as he began to believe that she would never faint with
pleasure at his touch. “He believed, then,” said Faen. “He knew that the price I
had paid for avenging Relle was to be forever barred from touch. “Lekel’s plan to become a true Sandoliki by marrying me was
ended. His ambition choked him. He was pale when he turned his back and walked
away from me.” “Not just ambition,” said Ryth, smoothing the back of her
hand with his cheek and remembering Lekel, tall and potent, hard with passion
and jealousy. “He wanted you, Faen. Even now. The Great Destroyer must smile to
see Lekel’s hunger for you.” Faen’s fingertips slid along Ryth’s thighs, gentle pressures
and promises. “Perhaps. But he killed seven men whose only transgression
was to amuse me. They did not touch me. No one touched me except my children,
but the older they grew the less I could touch even them. And Lekel there,
always, until I demanded that he leave or fight me.” Her lips curled. “He
left.” “Not from fear,” said Ryth, shifting his weight to his side
without taking his eyes from hers. “He did not want to see his touch give you
agony. I believe he loves you. I know he wants you.” And Ryth gasped
involuntarily as her fingers surrounded him like gentle flames. “He wanted to rule Malia,” Faen said, releasing him slowly
and trailing her fingertips across his stomach. “After Darg Vintra, I was the
last Sandoliki—and I wanted only Ti Vire. Malia needed a leader, so a k’te
kiirey was called.” The Sharnn watched while night folded around Faen like a
dark dream. He did not know where her words were leading, nor did he care; for
this instant it was enough that he felt her alive between his hands. “Do you know what k’te kiirey is?” “Teach me,” he murmured as his palms savored the soft skin
at her waist. “When a ruler dies and there is no true heir, the people who
believe they should rule Malia challenge each other. Survivors challenge
survivors until only seven remain. Then it begins. Malia’s most renowned
torturer, the Kiirey Ti, uses his skill on each of the seven. The last person
to break becomes Malia’s ruler.” “And Lekel was last?” ^Yes.” “I saw no scars, no signs that he was ever maimed.” “The Kiirey Ti would never be so crude.” Faen sighed as her
eyes watched Vintra’s moon rise and breathe tainted light through the darkness.
“More than seven years after k’te kiirey, I returned to Malia. Though no Sandoliki,
Lekel was a strong ruler. I wanted solitude, not a Sandoliki’s duties. We
agreed that Darg Vintra would be my home. “So I went back there to my memories, back to the sarsa and
back to the thing that I had sensed in its music, the thing that I had to have.
I wore the m’sarsas strapped to my skin like weapons until their searing energies
no longer made me grind my tongue between my teeth. Only then could I play
crystal music. Only then could I hear my children’s laughter, see their blue
eyes, and have Relle around me silver and warm.” Defiance rippled through her stillness, but Ryth was undisturbed.
He held the woman now; whatever the sarsa had held was past. “Today,” Faen said, “I can call them shadows of my imagination
and need, and theirs. Whether they were real or not ...” She waited, but he did
not speak. “Were they?” she demanded, suddenly fierce. “I don’t know.” Then, “I don’t want to know. Unless it
affects Malia’s guilt or innocence.” “How could it?” she asked, then laughed bitterly. “How could
it not? The sarsa is Malia’s soul. If Memned is guilty, we are all guilty, even
the shadow songs of Malia’s past Maran’s Song.” “Even if Memned is partnered with the Gint, does that make
Malia guilty? I have heard you say that Memned is Vintran.” Faen sat up suddenly, ignoring the robe that slid off her
shoulders onto the floor. With tangible intensity she thought about what he had
said, but after a moment she rejected it. “Lekel could not marry a Vintran,” she said with a finality
in her tone that left no room for doubt. “Memned is merely a woman to lie in my
place, a shadow of me with dark hair and light eyes. Humiliating for her, but
she accepted the position with sheathed weapons.” “Why?” “She desires power the way most Malians desire touch. As
Lekel’s wife, she has it. Especially now that his advisors are dead.” “Where did she come from?” “The Ice Continent, I think.” Faen made a dismissing
gesture, “Does it matter? All that matters is that Jsyl saw Memned as the enemy
who tortured her into q-consciousness. Not even a pattern-man can wriggle off
the point of that truth!” Ryth’s skin gleamed in the wine-tinted night as he sat up beside
Faen. His eyes held her motionless, the eyes of a man who had called a shadow’s
name. Then he put both name and shadow from his mind with a finality he had
learned from her. “Tell me, laseyss,” Faen whispered. “What did you discover
on Malia?” “I don’t know.” The Sharnn sat unmoving, a statue carved out
of descending night. “Because I don’t want to know.” “What could be worse than Malia’s death?” “Knowing I had caused it.” “But that’s impossible.” “Is it?” Mauve shadows slid across the Sharnn’s shoulders as
he leaned toward her. “I hope so, m’zamay,” he murmured, tongue between her
lips. “But I dream of a shadow, hungry. He has my eyes, my face, my—” Faen’s skillful mouth blurred his words. After a long moment
she relented, a last caress, then she moved away. “When Vintra orders Malia’s death,” began Faen. “No! Even now the pattern is not inevitable. There 1s still
room for an innocent Malia. There is still time to catch a shadow.” Silence
congealed and he reached blindly for her. “There must be time!” Faen’s throat tightened as she held his face between her
palms. “You share none of our guilt.” “Malia is not guilty.” “The Concord disagrees. You must leave me, laseyss. You are
not a Malian, to die when Malia dies.” “I became a Malian when I kissed my blood on your lips.” The Sharnn stood, lifting Faen with him. Her body moved,
slow and supple, sliding down his body, sinking to her knees while his breath
thickened in his throat. “There is time to teach me about Sharn and pools,” she murmured,
touching him with her tongue. The Sharnn’s fingers rubbed through her hair, holding her so
close that her breath became another land of caress. “There is nothing I can teach
you,” he said hoarsely. But he was wrong. In the sliding warmth of the pool, he
taught Faen that a Malian can faint twice for a Sharnn lover. VI“Malia,” said Kayle, orange eyes brilliant in the early
light, “is guilty.” “Perhaps,” said the Sharnn. His tone showed his utter weariness
with the argument. “Nothing I’ve told you irrevocably condemns Malia. We don’t
know much more than we did before.” “But we do,” countered Mim, her voice quick and husky. “We
know that the Gint kills Concord agents for a Malian master.” “Do we?” said Ryth. “We only know that the Gint uses a minor
Malian Access. Not the same thing at all.” “Ryth,” said Kayle gently. “If Faen were not Malian, would
your arguments be the same?” The Sharnn turned on Kayle so quickly that the Nendleti took
an involuntary step backward. “Were Vintra the condemned planet,” said Ryth coldly, “would
you be so eager to close the circuit?” An uneasy silence filled the room while the three of them examined
each other and their own private prejudices. Malia’s unpopularity among Concord
planets was a fact. Ryth’s fusion with Faen was also a fact. Somewhere between
the two facts was truth, but not even the Sharnn knew where it lay. “This doesn’t have to separate you and Faen,” said Kayle,
carefully. “Faen’s talent is unique, and uniquely useful to the Carifil. We
need her and her genes, no matter what her people’s fate. The Carifil will
insure that—” Soft, bitter Sharnn laughter overrode Kayle’s words. “Do you
really believe that the Sandoliki Ti Faen would let her people die alone?” “She didn’t care enough to rule them,” snapped Mim. “She could not rule them.” Ryth spaced each word with icy
precision. “Malian state rituals are tactile.” He looked from one to the other
while silence expanded in uneasy ripples. “Yes, you finally begin to see the
pattern. In spite of her isolation, Faen is every breath the Sandoliki Ti. She
lived in virtual exile, in the center of a land destroyed by hatred, so that
she would be available to those of her people who needed her talent. She loves
her people and planet as few rulers do.” Kayle sagged with a weariness as deep as Ryth’s. “With each
word you make it harder to believe her innocence, much less Malia’s. You would
do anything to keep Faen alive. Anything. And I can’t condemn you for that,
though I should.” The Sharnn’s hand went out until his fingertips pressed
Kayle’s arm in slow t’sil’ne. “Do not worry about your honor or Faen’s or mine,
Ti Kayle. I will find my shadow, my gint. Then, if Malia must die,” Ryth spread
his hands in a gesture of emptiness, “she must die.” Faen appeared in the opening to Kayle’s h’kel. Her body and
voice were rich with the aftermath of sensuality and sleep. “Laseyss,” she
said, her eyes brilliant with compassion and premonition, “you cannot find what
someone has so carefully hidden. No one but you and I want the truth about
Malia. And even I can’t find it.” Her beautiful face turned toward Kayle. “How
soon will my planet be under proscription?” “Malia is under secondary proscription now.” Faen closed her eyes. When they opened, they were as dull as
mercury. “I must go back.” Kayle’s hand reached for her until he remembered, then he
let his arm drop. “It is merely a warning to non-Malians that the planet is
dangerous.” “Vintra has been put under tertiary proscription,” Mim
pointed out. “For good reason,” said the Sharnn angrily. “Too many people
die here!” “And who is to blame for that?” countered Kayle. “Prove it!” said the Sharnn, his face hard and dangerous. “Ryth, we don’t have to prove anything any longer,” said
Kayle. “The odds against Malia’s innocence have climbed to the point that the
Concord has no choice. We can’t wait for Vintra to die before Malia is stopped.
And punished.” “‘Malia,” quoted Mim, “is a disease that must not spread any
further among the healthy planets of the Concord.’” “That sounds like a Vintran,” said Faen, her voice perfectly
controlled. “It was.” “Do you really believe that Malia is evil?” asked Ryth. “What Mim believes does not matter.” Kayle’s voice was thick
with a mixture of emotions too complex to easily name. “It’s over, Ryth. It was
over the moment I told them Jsyl was dead.” “What of the Carifil?” demanded Ryth. “Will they sit on each
others’ fingers while a possibly innocent race is murdered? A race they could have
saved?” “We don’t rule the Concord,” said Mim when Kayle was silent.
“We are merely specialists who help when asked.” “Or when you insist?” said the Sharnn sarcastically. “Sometimes,” she said. “But we do not rule, Sharnn. We do
not rule.” “I’m sure that is a great comfort to Malians.” “Would you have us subvert the idea of Concord?” demanded
Mim. “Would you have us poison the possibilities of many races because you are
complement to a woman born of a doomed race?” “I don’t ask for Faen’s life or mine or Malia’s! I simply
ask the Concord to be certain that Malia’s guilt is the only possible pattern.
Possible, Ti Mim, not probable. Possible! Is that too much to ask?” “I’m sorry,” said Kayle, voice so changed as to sound like a
stranger. “Malia is too well hated. Vintra has outgrown xenophobia, especially
since the Undeclared War. Today, Vintra is an integral part of the Concord,
economically and culturally. And Malia—is not.” “A pattern of prejudice that would embarrass a child,” said
Ryth icily. “No system is perfect.” The Sharnn laughed in cold agreement. “When,” said Faen, “will primary proscription begin for Malia?” Kayle’s eyes went to a wall display where flickering numbers
divided time according to Centrex and Vintran customs. He hesitated, then decided
it was too late for Faen to do anything. “In the next Centrex unit.” But Kayle had forgotten Faen’s incredible speed. Before the
last word left Kayle’s lips, the edge of Faen’s hand descended on Ryth in a totally
unexpected blow. He fell soundlessly to the lush floor, unconscious at the
instant he knew he had been hit. She leaned over the Sharnn with swift grace,
touching her fingertips to his lips in silent goodbye. Kayle leaped for her, foot lashing out in a blow meant to
stun. But Faen was no longer there. The instant Kayle’s muscles bunched, she
somersaulted backwards, out of reach. Before Mim could move, Faen was out of
the room. They ran after her, but came no closer than the fierce blue flash of
the Access. Kayle stood and looked at the empty platform, swearing bitterly
as the afterimage of Faen’s leaping body, burned behind his eyes. Mim touched
the back of his hand. “I should have known,” said Kayle thickly. “You couldn’t have stopped her,” Mim said. “I’ve never seen
such speed.” The lights around the platform blinked and switched to a different
code, beginning a new Centrex unit. Eyes dull, Kayle stared blindly at Faen’s
death sentence. “Malia just began primary proscription.” Kayle’s lips
twisted bitterly. “The Carifil just lost their finder. The Sharnn just lost
his—we’ve all lost, Mim. Shlan t’e riu, F’n’een, Faen. Breathe the white wind.” “What of the Sharnn?” Mim said softly. “Faen’s blow was precise. It merely stunned him.” Mim hissed. “Don’t pretend thickness, thrice-husband. What
will the Sharnn do now?” Flame leaped suddenly in Kayle’s orange eyes. “Be grateful
he isn’t Malian, Sri Mim, or he and Faen would give the Concord Ti Vire such as
it had never known nor wanted to know!” The flame died and Kayle seemed to
shrink. “But he is Sharnn, and there is kerdin little he can do. Malia’s
personnel Access is cut off from the rest of the Concord now. Even in a
lightship—if he could find one on Vintra—it would take months to reach Malia. By
then, Malians will be no more than a raw smear across the Concord’s
self-esteem.” Kayle’s body jerked as though it wanted to move in all directions
and found none open. Mim’s blunt hand rubbed firmly down his spine. “It isn’t your fault that Malia is doomed,” she said. “It
isn’t your fault that Malians could not abide by the Sole Restraint of the
Concord.” “I know, Sri Mim,” said Kayle in a haunted voice. “But what
if Malians are not guilty? What if we allow Vintrans to rain fire on an
innocent people?” Though the Sharnn did not make even the smallest sound, the
two Nendletis turned swiftly. Ryth made no move toward them, simply leaned
against the wall, eyes almost black with fury. “I tried to—” began Kayle. “I know.” Ryth’s voice was strangely calm. His too-dark eyes flicked
over the empty platform and changed time code. For an instant his mind leaped
with deadly energy. Mim cried out, as much in pain as fear. Then the energy
ebbed. Except for an eerie aura of violence licking around him, the Sharnn
seemed to be no more than a tall man leaning against a wall of mauve crystal.
Yet Mim clung to Kayle, half-stunned by what she had barely sensed. “Carifil own and control the Accesses, don’t they?” asked
the Sharnn, but his tone made it clear that he already knew. Kayle looked at Ryth closely; the Sharnn seemed as calm as a
sunrise lake. “Why do you ask?” At Kayle’s blunt question, stillness seemed to gather around
the Sharnn, flowing into him, sucking light out of the room. “Yes,” grated Kayle, stepping between the Sharnn and Mim.
“Carifil control the Accesses. But we cannot break primary proscription.” “Cannot or will not?” Ryth laughed over Kayle’s sudden
anger. “Ti Kayle, sri Kayle—I’m not asking any more from the Carifil than the
freight Access codes of C’Varial and Darg Vintra.” “That’s suicide.” “Faen survived it.” “Faen is Malian. A Sharnn genotype might not.” “My risk. The codes, Kayle. I haven’t much time. Vintra will
be eager to destroy the prey it ran to ground.” “Take the Access to Nirenslf,” Kayle said quickly. “Then a
fast lightship to Malia. It would take—” “—more time than Malia has,” Ryth said in the tones of a
Sharnn who has considered and rejected all patterns but one. “The codes.” “I won’t give you the means to kill yourself.” Again stillness flowed. The Sharnn’s hooded eyes watched
Kayle with a stranger’s disinterest. “I am Sharnn,” said an utterly calm voice. “I know how cultures
are built—or destroyed.” He smiled as his mind knifed into Kayle’s with
frightening ease. *Give me the codes.* *Or you’ll kill me?* shot back Kayle, his thought wrapped in
contempt. *No.* Gently. *No, sri. I won’t even hurt you. Or Mim.* *Then what will you—* Mindtouch fractured into fear as Kayle caught just a vague
outline of what a Sharnn’s stillness could become. *You don’t want to know,* answered Ryth. *Nor do I!* With a wrench, the Sharnn ended mindtouch. Only then did
Kayle realize that the Sharnn had also held Mim within the coils of his uncanny
mind. “I can get the codes without you or Mim. But you could save
me time.” With pointedly careful movements, Mim shaped a psitran from
the intricate wire mesh that had restrained her thick bronze hair. “Mim—” said Kayle, reaching for her. She deflected his hand with the gentle touch of a mother shooing
away a child. “The Sharnn has found his white wind,” she said, placing the
psitran around her temples. “Who are we to say he may not breathe it?” With a slow gesture of resignation, Kayle turned his back on
both of them. “Are you dying simply because Faen must?” said Kayle in a
grey voice. The Sharnn’s laughter made Kayle turn back in surprise. “Sri Kayle, do you really think that Faen returned to Malia
merely to die like a tame zred?” Kayle turned fully around, legs spread as though to take whatever
blows might come. “Yes, my new-old Nendleti brother,” said Ryth, “she will get
many hands and heads on her way to Memned’s mind.” Ryth smiled at the knowledge
dawning in Kayle’s luminous eyes. “And I—I will help Faen conceive of new ways
to make Memned speak and regret that she shortened the most satisfying pattern
of all. Memned will scream to hurry the moment of Malia’s death. And her own.” In the spreading stillness the Sharnn’s slow, even breathing
was the only sound or movement. Mim was lost to her distant communications and
Kayle was lost to his own bitter thoughts. Then Ryth’s hand moved over Kayle in
the slow pressures of t’sil’ne, again calling Kayle his brother. “The pattern is not burned in stone,” said Ryth in an
attempt to comfort him. “Memned might break before she dies.” “Would that prove Malia’s innocence?” said Kayle sadly. “Or guilt,” said the Sharnn indifferently. “Either way, the
pattern would be complete, knowable. Isn’t that what the Carifil wanted?” “Not at the cost of your death!” “Each pattern has a price.” “Is Memned’s slow death the price of your life pattern?” snapped
Kayle. “It could be,” said the Sharnn, but his tone said that it
was not. “Then why do you return to Malia?” The Sharnn’s green eyes were unreadable in the slanting shadows
and shifting light. When Ryth smiled, Kayle looked away. “Sharn could be responsible for Malia,” said Ryth softly.
“So if Faen must die, it will be with me inside her, kissing my blood on her
lips.” Kayle flinched, but could not conceal the light that stirred
deep in his orange eyes. The Sharnn saw, laughed softly and again touched Kayle
like a brother. “You’re more Malian than Sharnn, now,” said Kayle in a
strained voice. “Am I? How little you know Sharnn, brother.” Kayle grabbed Ryth’s arm with bruising force. “You said, ‘If
Faen must die!’ If!” “There are seven chances, seven patterns left to live. Malia
only needs one.” Kayle looked deep into the Sharnn’s eyes and sensed wildness
reaching and expanding, while stillness flowed, pouring into primal green eyes.
He sensed the Sharnn’s lazy, almost amused, indifference to the power awakening
in his mind. It was merely a single aspect of what a Sharnn could be. *Ryth—* began Kayle, a final gasp of uneasy sanity that was
washed away in reckless laughter. Kayle succumbed to the savage power that he
sensed in his new-old brother. In intimate, elastic silence they waited for Mim to get the
codes to Malia’s freight Accesses. Finally, Mim lifted the psitran off her
broad forehead and sighed wearily. When she opened her pale orange eyes, a
single look at Kayle told her of his decision. She folded her hands into round
fists and said, “C’Varial or Darg Vintra? The Carifil will reactivate them,
keyed to my psitran.” “C’Varial,” Ryth answered. “As close to the Turquoise Kel as
possible.” “Will the food h’kel be close enough?” purred Mim. Ryth laughed with delight. Together they rolled up their luggage
and set off for the nearest large freight Access. Faen would have recognized
it; she had seen this Access through the timeshadow of a dead man’s mind. The
Sharnn, too, sensed something that made him check each dense purple shadow with
unusual care. But today nothing dangerous waited for them except the Access
itself. The Sharnn cape flared and rippled, as though stretching. Then it
settled like soft cloth around his powerful legs. “Darg Vintra’s code first,” said Ryth, throwing their
luggage onto a square. Mim’s quick, blunt fingers sent the luggage on its way. Then
she stroked in the Turquoise h’kel’s code, added a brief hold count and leaped
to the platform with the two men. The three of them joined minds, reinforcing
each other. And they waited. The universe peeled away in a climbing blue explosion. Blue
lightning raked across senses and centuries, eons of blue more brilliant than a
god’s eyes, blazing blue violence that consumed them, churned them, spat them
out bruised and sick on a small square platform far away from Vintra. The Sharnn’s body jerked and rolled as he fought for control
of himself. His mind was a mass of shattered blue energy; a universe had poured
through him and he through it. With a final spasm, he caught the pattern of his
sickness, twisted it and forced the wheeling blue out of his mind. Groaning, Ryth flopped off the platform and onto the carved
crystal floor. He stared at the winking patterns, wondering if it would have
been easier if he had begun closer to Malia. Then he realized that it would
have made no difference; all distances were equal to the force that made the Access
possible. A small sound from the platform told him that Kayle or Mim
was fighting into consciousness. Ryth forced himself to his knees, reached out
and dragged first Mim, then Kayle, off the platform. He helped them to breathe
until the last of the sickness left their knotted bodies and they slept. Though
he tried to stay alert, he too slid into unconsciousness. The Sharnn was the first to wake. He leaped up, horrified at
the wasted time and wondering why they had not been discovered. Then he remembered
that the Turquoise Kel was tabu to all but the Sandoliki Ti Faen. He looked around, grimacing at the pain that lanced through
his mind and body with each movement. He half-fell, half-knelt, by the
Nendletis. Both were unconscious, but seemed otherwise normal. By the time he
had cleaned himself and them and the h’kel, Mim was moaning her way into
consciousness. Elegant and obscene epithets tumbled off her broad lips as she
rolled to her knees, head hanging. She tried mindspeech, but it was incoherent. “Kayle?” she said hoarsely. “He’ll come out of it soon,” said the Sharnn, lifting his
hand from the pulse in Kayle’s thick neck. “I can’t use mindspeech.” “That will pass. I barely remembered where I was at first.
Now I remember more than I want to.” Mim’s lips twisted in sardonic agreement. “Travel not fit
for a zarf.” She shook her head hard, as though to fling off the last
shards of cutting blue energy. Blood oozed from her lip as she fought not to
cry out her pain. Watching her, Ryth realized that the trip had been worse for
her than for him; and he guessed it had been worst of all for Kayle. “Faen?” asked Mim, wiping blood off of her lips. “Not here.” “Malia?” Mim’s husky voice grated. “Is Faen on Malia?” “She must be. My mind’s just too shaken to find her.” Experimentally, Ryth tried mindtouch with Mim. He winced
away at the moment of touch; her pain was excruciating. “Better than it was,” she said curtly. “Can you remember yet?” “The fool that I was?” Mim laughed harshly, then bit her lip
against the pain. “Too clearly, Sharnn. Too clearly. I hope your plan is worth
our payment.” “Plan?” The Sharnn’s smile was lopsided. “Faen’s plan is the
only one that matters now. And I don’t know what it is.” “Guess.” Kayle groaned. “Memned,” said Ryth. “If I were Faen, I would very much desire
a talk with that skavern.” Kayle groaned and gagged until expert pressures from Mim’s
fingers short-circuited the nerves sending messages of pain and nausea. “What is your status here?” Mim asked Ryth while she gently
rolled Kayle’s head to loosen his rigid spine. “Can you go wherever you want
without difficulty, and we with you?” “When Faen was with me, yes. But since proscription—I don’t
know.” Mim grunted and massaged down Kayle’s spine. “You don’t know
much, Sharnn. Yet my thrice-husband trusted his life to your skill. Sri Kayle,”
she added, “has a genius for dangerous impulse.” “He’s not alone in that,” said the Sharnn wryly. Kayle’s orange eyes opened slowly. His broad face creased
with pain, yet he smiled to see Mim safe and well, smiling at him in return. He
swallowed with difficulty and glanced around; intricately carved crystal walls
splintered light into every possible shade of turquoise. “We’re here,” said Kayle weakly. “Surprised?” asked the Sharnn. Kayle smiled slightly. The smile died as he pulled himself
into a sitting position; even Mim’s fingers could not vanquish the slicing
pain. The Sharnn watched him uneasily, not liking the yellow hue of Kayle’s
skin. “I’m all right,” snapped Kayle, correctly interpreting
Ryth’s look. “I’ve felt worse the morning after too much chaay.” He rolled to his hands and knees, head hanging. In spite of
Mim’s knowing fingers pressed against key nerves, Kayle cried out at the pain behind
his eyes. Abruptly, the Sharnn decided. He stood and went to the h’kel’s
computer. As though he had handled its subtly textured surfaces all his life,
he stroked in his request. “That will probably register in Lekel’s kel,” commented Mim. “I know.” The Sharnn’s intent green eyes never left the
pulsing lights that answered his sure fingertips. “Darg Vintra’s computer has
not been activated since Faen returned to Malia. She’s not there.” He worked
over the machine’s changing surfaces again. “Nor has the Creamstone and Gold
Kel—” “Then where is she?” hissed Mim. There was no answer. The Sharnn’s face was lined with effort
as he reached out with his mind for Faen. It was like building a bridge of
straw; just when he sensed something, a far side to aim at, the bridge
collapsed. He kept trying, fighting what he assumed was the after effect of a
coarsely focused Access shift, fighting until sweat gathered and rolled down
his rigid body. He could not find her. The Sharnn opened his eyes. Mim was watching him, hope and
resignation reflected in her pale orange eyes. “Nothing,” Ryth said. “Then she’s not on Malia.” “My mind is still—” “No,” said Mim flatly. “Your mindcall was as loud and clean
as any I’ve ever heard. She is gone, somewhere out In the Concord. Free. And we
are captive on a doomed planet.” Mim’s smile twisted in bitter humor. “Trust a
Malian to deceive you, Sharnn. You have just joined the group of otherwise
intelligent beings who have succumbed to Malian sensuality. Malians’ primal
allure is the real reason they are so well-despised by the rest of the Concord.
For Malians are immune—and we are not!” The Sharnn turned inward and did not answer. Kayle said something soft and low and hurried to Mim. The
hissing Nendleti phrases piled up like dry leaves in the room, shifting and rustling
with each gesture. The Sharnn ignored the heaped phrases, focusing instead on
the ugly pattern Mim had pointed out to him. Yes, it was possible. More possible than Malian innocence.
He had never known fusion with another, never known what it was to be
complemented by another mind; he could have mistaken transcendent physical
pleasure for something else. Stillness surged in the room, a whirlpool of darkness, and
Ryth suspended in the still center of lethal possibilities—a Sharnn conceiving
of absolute evil. A Sharnn who could become whatever he could conceive. The spinning moment passed, but the dark stillness remained
in the Sharnn’s eyes. “Call out to the Carifil,” he said harshly to Kayle. “Tell
them to activate the freight Access and get you off this planet. Quickly!” Though Ryth said no more, they knew that the Sharnn was
thinking of molecular fire. Kayle silently pulled his psitran into shape and placed it
on his forehead. Long moments passed while he struggled to communicate. Wordlessly,
Mim put on her psitran and joined her mind with his. But the expression on
their faces told Ryth that something was wrong. “Neither Kayle nor I can control our psitrans,” said Mim,
her voice hoarse with exhaustion. “They will have to be re-focused.” “How long will it take?” Kayle smiled wryly. “An instant. All we need is an
omni-synth.” “The closest omnisynth is on Centrex,” said Mim bitterly. The Sharnn held out his hand “Give me a psitran. I was less
affected by the transit.” Mim turned aside disdainfully, “You of all people should
know that you can’t use another person’s pattern. Don’t be more of a fool than
she made you!” The Sharnn’s cape writhed darkly, but all he said was, “How
much time before Vintra will be permitted to burn Malia?” “We should have at least three Centrex days,” said Kayle,
but neither his mind nor his voice displayed much confidence. The Sharnn began to speak, then stopped, shaking his head
sharply, haunted by a piercing memory of Faen that was so immediate it was
similar to mindtouch. He reached out, felt an instant of falling away, like dying,
and then it was gone. “Are you well enough to fight?” demanded the Sharnn
abruptly. “We’re breathing, aren’t we?” snapped Mim. “Somewhere in the Topaz Kel is a personnel Access. Unregistered.
So long as the freight Accesses are activated, I’ll bet that this secret one
also is.” “It would be untraceable, with the freight energies going,”
mused Kayle. “It probably siphons those energies for its own secret operation.” “Let’s hope it’s doing just that,” the Sharnn said, turning
toward the doorway. The Sharnn led them across a pale courtyard of turquoise
stone, then beneath a translucent creamstone arch. Beyond that was a garden,
zamay alive with wind and trembling song, asking. When he stepped among the
zamay blooms, a feeling of Faen’s presence sliced through him, a feeling as
compelling as her touch. He stumbled and choked off her name before it left his
lips, changing its soft sound into a curse as he crushed zamay throats beneath
his feet. The sensual scents and textures and colors of Malia nearly
overwhelmed the Sharnn. In every radiant black shadow he saw her hair swaying
with its own secret life; in every flash of crystal light her eyes watched him;
in every silken breath of wind she slid around him with a sigh. “Ryth?” said Kayle, touching his arm. The Sharnn flinched away, unable to bear a touch that was
not hers. “Nothing,” he said tonelessly, brushing aside flowers as
soft as her lips. The feeling of dying came again, then left as suddenly as a
thought. The insistent sense of her presence was gone. The path Ryth followed turned in a graceful curve and vanished
into the twisting embrace of nightvine. The thicket made a murmuring tunnel
overhead, sibilant with wind and life. The air became fragrant and humid, as
intimate as two joined bodies. The tunnel widened and lifted to form a secret
bower with a ceiling of tere leaves spreading scarlet benediction over the
ground. In the center of the space, a pool pulsed with the rhythms of a hidden
spring. And zamay trembled with hope. With a sudden movement, the Sharnn knelt and thrust his hand
into the living pool. Warm water slid up his fingers and palm, lapped gently at
his wrist. Even as his senses responded, understanding crystallized in his
mind, and he knew that this secret place was consummately Malian. The garden
and pool and perhaps the very earth had been designed to expand sensual possibilities. To be alive on Malia was to finally understand the essential
sensuality of life. And to glory in it. Slowly, the Sharnn lifted his hand out of the water, feeling
the pool’s nearly sentient reluctance to release him. Each soft drop clinging
to his fingers shone like a separate world, heavy and round with life. “She is here,” the Sharnn whispered, almost blinded by the
gleaming drops. “There is no other planet like this, no other place to live. Or
die.” He raised each finger to his tongue and licked off the sweet warmth of
water. “Yes,” he said, smiling. “Yes.” He lifted his arms as though to embrace the silent trees and
he laughed softly. Kayle and Mim looked at each other, trading silent worries.
The Sharnn saw and smiled but did not explain; the pattern was so new and pure
he could not describe it, only feel. With long, supple strides Ryth led them out of the Turquoise
Kel’s beauties and into the sudden flawless light of Malian noon. When they
emerged from the ebony embrace of nightvine, a guard straightened in surprise. “Take us to Lekel,” Ryth said, with the casual arrogance of
a true Malian aristocrat. The guard struggled with her desire to ask Ryth’s name, then
she recognized the tall Sharnn. “Apologies and regrets, Sandoliki Ti Ryth.” Ryth made a dismissing gesture, not in the least showing his
relief that Lekel had kept his promise and warned his guards of the new Ti’s
right to go anywhere he wished. “If the Sandoliki Ti Ryth would be so gracious as to wait in
the garden,” said the guard in the rising tone of one who requests without a
hint of demand. “Send food and drink,” said Ryth by way of agreement. While they ate, the honey light of Malia’s late afternoon
poured over the hushed gardens of the Topaz Kel. In silence, they let the
exquisitely prepared food work its simple magic on their bodies. By the time
the guard returned, they felt as though the freight Access were no more than a
distant, fading nightmare. Lekel was in the listening h’kel. Formerly, the room had
been used for meetings between Sandolikis and their advisors. Now, ancient
crystal ikons shimmered next to ultramodern communications devices. Beneath the
silence was a hum of power that was less heard than felt in the bones. Ryth
looked around appreciatively; only a Malian could integrate such disparate
elements into a pleasing esthetic whole. “I’m honored,” murmured Lekel, his black eyes and voice
quick with curiosity. “And surprised. Ti Faen thought she would be the last one
in before primary proscription began.” Ryth sensed the others’ relief that Faen was on the planet.
But the Sharnn was not relieved. Not only could he not sense her, Lekel’s
subtle hostility crackled like distant heat lightning. “My equipment,” continued Lekel, “didn’t register anyone
other than Ti Faen arriving on the inner moon.” Lekel paused, inviting explanation. “We came to be with Faen,” said the Sharnn, ignoring Lekel’s
invitation. “Oh?” Lekel’s eyes became even colder. “I didn’t know Ti
Faen was in C’Varial, much less in my h’kel.” Ryth gestured with a negligence he did not feel. “She’s not
at Darg Vintra. Nor is she in the Creamstone and Gold Kel. Naturally we assumed
she had come here. You may be only k’m’n Sandoliki, but you are nonetheless her
closest blood kin.” “Closest—then it is deathtime,” Lekel turned away abruptly. Ryth was not insulted by the view of k’m’n Sandoliki’s powerful
shoulders; he knew that Lekel was working to control himself. “What Faen told me is true?” said Lekel, his voice strained.
“Vintra will be allowed to destroy us with molecular fire?” “Yes.” The Sharnn hesitated, then walked over to Lekel and
carefully touched him as he would an equal who is not yet friend or enemy.
Lekel stiffened at the Sharnn’s tangible sympathy, then relaxed as Ryth’s
skilled t’sil’ne subtly reassured. “What has Malia done to deserve the Concord’s wrath?” There was neither plea nor self-pity in Lekel’s question,
only the timeless cry of sentience baffled by unearned death. At that instant
the Sharnn was nearly certain that Lekel was not the architect of Vintra’s
decline, but that certainty did Malia no good. “The Concord,” said Ryth softly, “believes that Malia twice
has broken the Sole Restraint against undeclared war.” Rage flickered deep in Lekel’s eyes. “Vintra’s problems
can’t be excreted in Malia’s scented gardens. Vintra’s problems are her own—and
inevitable.” “Why?” “Look around you,” demanded Lekel, wide-spread hands gesturing
to every part of the shimmering crystal h’kel, to the gardens beyond, and to
the glowing moment when time was suspended in the flawless cinnamon sky of Malia’s
evening. “Each Malian life is divided into one hundred aspects, one thousand
moments. To a Malian, the names of those aspects and moments are purest song.”
Lekel’s caressing voice soared and fell, whispered and resounded as he named
just a few of Malia’s moments. “N’amari, ss’iel’ma, f’m’oir’li ... I can’t
translate those names or those Malian moments into the Galactic language or
experience. No one can. “And if simple language eludes translation, what of the
minds that shape and are shaped by Malian moments? Can those minds be
translated? Can they be wrenched out of one context, thrust into another and
expected to blossom like zamay? “No and No and No,” Lekel said, his voice tolling like a
vire crystal. “Impossible. Yet Malia is being blamed because transplanted
Malians are dying on their ugly purple planet.” “Vintra,” said Mim’s husky, yet biting, voice, “is hardly
ugly. It has thousands of purple islands floating on lavender seas, magenta
mountains as potent as viero wine, amethyst clouds and a moon as pink as a
child’s laughter. Vintra is one of the most beautiful planets yet discovered.” “Not to a Malian.” “Not to you, perhaps,” she snapped, “Other Malians were not
so blind.” “A Malian,” countered Lekel, “would have to be blind to live
in Vintra’s gloom.” “Clay eyes,” muttered Mim. Lekel laughed with arrogant certainty, “I’ll match Malian
color discrimination against any race in the Concord. Especially Vintrans.” “Lekel would win,” said the Sharnn before Mim could respond,
“Vintrans have difficulty with the shorter wavelengths of light. It’s probably
more a cultural than a physiological trait; by Malian standards, Vintra has a
somber sun. Never having seen sixty shades of cream, Vintrans would have
difficulty distinguishing among them. Think about it, Mim—Vintra’s evolving
language has far fewer words for light colors than Malia’s language; And no
more for the dark colors.” “Vintra,” said Kayle. “Means purple.” Lekel smiled sardonically. “It also connotes gloom and madness,
among other things.” The Sharnn’s green eyes narrowed in sudden speculation.
Planet names were like the air everyone breathed—so often used as to be taken
for granted, yet containing items of crucial import. “What other things?” asked the Sharnn in a deceptively bland
voice. “Depression, disease, debility, and dishonor,” said Lekel succinctly.
“When we say that a person lives in a vintran kel, we mean that he is dead to
the radiant possibilities of the senses.” “Isn’t that a recent saying—just since the Undeclared War?”
asked Ryth. “Darg Vintra,” corrected Lekel automatically, giving the war
its Malian name. “No, the saying is as old as Malians’ aversion to purple.” “Does Darg Vintra have any meaning beyond its obvious
one—Vintra’s Revenge?” Lekel made a curt gesture. “The Sandoliki Estates. Or what
remains of them,” he added with sudden, palpable hatred. “Nothing more?” prodded the Sharnn, his pattern instincts
aroused. “The subject is distasteful.” Ryth ignored the Malian phrase signaling an end to a topic.
“Death neutralizes all distaste.” “And we are about to die?” Lekel’s smile would have been
cruel, had it not been directed as much at his own mortality as it was at
theirs. “Since you have come here to die, de f’mi ti, I will tell you.
But only because you are de f’mi ti, and here.” “Supreme sensualist,” translated the Sharnn with a
half-smile. “I am supremely complimented.” Lekel’s elegant bow reinforced the compliment. “Any man who
can make the Sandoliki Ti Faen faint twice deserves whatever wretched ornaments
I can hang on his penetrating truth.” Ryth returned the bow with equal elegance and ease, but his
eyes were intent on more than courtesy. “Darg Vintra,” said Lekel, then stopped. After a sigh he
began again. “When the Concord discovered Malia, we were a race whose only
dream was a life long enough to discover and savor each of Malia’s thousand
moments. The Concord’s extender drugs gave us our dream without diminishing our
fertility. Though we limited ourselves to two children, we foolishly overlooked
the fact that we would still be alive when our children’s children had their
own children, and on and on, more and more, generation piling on generation until
we were breathing each other’s air like lovers. “We developed new disciplines, new harmonies. We tried to
appreciate and even prefer the nuances of tiny gardens, circumscribed vistas,
shrinking personal space. Malians died in duels or ambushes brought on by incidents
that were as simple and complex as fertilized ova. Many, many died. But not
nearly enough to make room for the relentless generations. “We call that time Vintra Morata.” “Strangling purple,” said Ryth. “I’ve heard that phrase, in
a song. Maran’s Song.” “Yes.” Lekel’s lips flattened and he made a gesture of
abiding shame. “By the time the Malian rogue Tikleli discovered Vintra in a
stolen lightship, Malian society was disintegrating, We birthed more rogues
than f’mis, raised more criminals than de f’mis ti.” “Each race,” said the Sharnn carefully, “had a difficult
time adjusting to extended lives. That is no requirement for shame.” “For lesser races, no. But we were Malians. And we were out
of control, a purple storm destroying zamay and mountains alike. There is,”
Lekel added in a strained whisper, “no greater shame for a Malian than to destroy
randomly, with neither plan nor purpose nor finesse.” Beyond the translucent topaz wall, a scarlet bird called and
a shower of silver insects descended into the singing throats of zamay flowers.
Petals folded in, protecting. Unmated insects ticked against the windows,
ticked and ticked again, then flew into the condensing night in search of
singing flowers. Lekel watched the brittle silver wings, his eyes reflecting
darkness and silence and the possibility of death. Every line in his body spoke
of control, of long discipline. His nostrils flared minutely in response to a
wisp of fragrance that few non-Malians would have noticed. When he moved, it
was with a liquid grace that recalled the hidden spring of the Turquoise Kel. “A Sandoliki was born, Sandoliki Ti Maran,” said Lekel, his
voice low. “She grew and saw and knew that slaughter or another planet were our
only options. As Vintra had no sentient life, the planet was ours by right of
discovery. We desperately needed its land and food and space. We had lightships
to take us there. We had the resources to begin a second world. “We had everything but the desire to leave Malia.” Lekel looked blindly at the garden while it receded into
night. “I thought,” said Kayle, “that Malians eagerly colonized Vintra.” A bleak smile divided Lekel’s face. “Few descend willingly
into gloom and madness.” “Then how—” began Mim. “A lie,” said Lekel harshly. “A lie of such infinite beauty
that it became more compelling than truth. A lie expressed in sarsa music, the
most brilliant composition of our entire esthetic history.” “Maran’s Song,” hissed the Sharnn, his body suddenly fully
alert. The Sharnn’s words spread through the h’kel. Slowly, Lekel
turned and focused on the Sharnn’s uncanny eyes. “Yes. That song. It was only played once on Malia. It
divided us into Malians and Vintrans. So that all might live. Maran’s Song.”
Lekel’s voice jerked. The subject was not one that pleased a proud Sandoliki.
“Summation and exhortation. Maran’s Song.” The name was a curse. “Maran’s Song.
A lie. All a lie. Vintra offered nothing more to Malians than a slow death far
from their exquisite moments. “Maran knew this, knew it as surely as she knew that she
would die on Vintra because she was too much a Sandoliki to let her people die
alone.” “Was there something lacking in Vintra’s atmosphere or
soil?” asked Mim. “Or a slow poison that caused the decline?” Lekel’s unpleasant smile became equally unpleasant laughter. “Vintra was one of the Great Destroyer’s better creations,”
said the k’m’n Sandoliki. “There was nothing wrong with the planet—for anyone
but a Malian. And millions of Malians were going there, compelled by sweet lies
sung on the Sandoliki sarsa, and all minds listening, deciding, and some
dying.” “If Vintra were that lethal,” said Mim, confused, “the
Concord would have proscribed the planet.” Lekel looked at Mim pityingly, for she could not understand.
She was not Malian. “There was nothing wrong with Vintra,” repeated Lekel
calmly. “And everything wrong with Malians,” the Sharnn said, his
voice clear and hard. “Now, de f’mi ti,” murmured Lekel, “you know why Maran’s
Song is not sung on Malia. And you know the real meaning of Darg Vintra.” “The revenge of madness,” said Ryth softly. “The Undeclared.
War—Darg Vintra—was an act of madness. It was madness for Vintra to attack
Malia.” Lekel bowed again and said nothing, for there was nothing
left to say. “Vintra attacked Malia?” said Mim skeptically. “But—” A look from the Sharnn silenced her. Kayle waited, sighed,
and tried a different approach. “What is wrong with Malians, that they can’t live on
Vintra?” asked Kayle. “Malian culture is too integrated to be excerpted
successfully,” said Ryth, “too satisfying to be abandoned, and too dependent on
the physical attributes of Malia to be transplanted.” “Too rigid,” said Mim. The Sharnn smiled. “Is the sun too rigid because it burns
for us every day?” His smile faded. “Malians are alluring to us because they
are sensually integrated. They seem arrogant to us because they don’t need us
to complete their lives. But we long for their thousand moments, and we hate them
for what we cannot be.” “Do you mean that Malians have everything they want or need
on their own planet?” demanded Kayle. “Is the Concord truly extraneous to Malians?” “Culturally, intellectually, sensually—yes,” said the
Sharnn. Kayle glanced at Lekel for confirmation. The tall k’m’n Sandoliki
made a gesture of respect toward Ryth. “The Sandoliki Ti was born a Malian, no
matter what the planet of his parents. Except for the dubious blessing of extender
drugs, Malia has neither need nor desire for Concord.” Ryth watched Kayle closely, measuring the effect of each
word. “You once asked me why the Malians were xenophobic,” said Ryth to Kayle.
“You wanted to know what the Malians thought the Concord would do to harm them.
The answer is that Malians aren’t afraid of the Concord—they ignore us because
they don’t need us. They don’t think about us at all.” The Sharnn glided closer to Mim, looming over her powerful
Nendleti body. “That’s why you hate Malians, isn’t it? They don’t care
about Concord or Carifil, mankind’s future or lack of it. We simply don’t exist
for them. That is Malia’s unforgivable sin. And that is why we will destroy
them.” “You’re forgetting Vintra,” said Mim coldly. “Kayle,” said the Sharnn, without looking away from Mim’s
pale orange eyes, “which planet do you now believe had better reason for
initiating the Undeclared War?” “Vintra.” “Which planet has more reason to exterminate the other
planet?” “Vintra.” “Which planet—” “Vintra!” interrupted Mim, her husky voice grating. “Vintra,
Vintra, Vintra! Now prove it, pattern-man. Prove it!” “Are you sure you want me to?” The Sharnn’s soft question brought a wry smile to Mim’s
face. “I’m not a fool, sri Ryth. But someone has to take the unpalatable viewpoint
or the three of us might overlook a crucial argument. I’m glad my presentation
is convincing.” Ryth bowed. “Apologies and regrets, Ti Mim.” “Unnecessary.” She turned on Lekel and asked bluntly, “What
proof do you have of anything you have told us? Particularly, what proof do you
have that Vintra initiated the Undeclared War? And why didn’t you accuse Vintra
at the time?” “A Malian wouldn’t have to ask.” “We aren’t Malians,” said Kayle, his voice calm and cold.
“Teach us.” After a long silence, Lekel made a dismissing gesture. But
he explained. “We could not accuse colonists who had no future, because we
had tricked them into emigrating to insure our own future.” Lekel stared at Mim
with pitiless proud eyes. “Such an accusation would have been a dishonor
greater than Maran’s Song. And if we did lower ourselves to accuse, who would
have believed us? The Concord would have laughed as we pleaded, but they would
not have helped. They wanted Malia to be guilty. “And we are, but not of that crime. We are guilty of a much
more subtle wrong than violating the Sole Restraint against undeclared war. We
are guilty of dooming half our people so that the remainder might enjoy the
entire spectrum of Malian moments.” “Are you so sure of your guilt?” asked the Sharnn softly.
“I’ve heard some of Maran’s Song. Its pattern is not that of deliberate
deception.” Lekel’s arm moved in a sweeping gesture of indifference.
“You have not heard it on Malia! And would it matter if you had, if you were
right? The result is the same, de f’mi ti. We live among our thousand colors of
ecstasy and they die among their thousand shades of madness. Naturally they
want revenge. The Concord will see that they get it.” Mim shook her head like an animal emerging from water. “Wait,” she said, palms pressed to her temples. “That
freight Access scrambled our brains. What about the proven incidents of
sabotage? What about the Gint? And Memned? If Vintra is dying of inner decay,
why—” “Memned?” said Lekel, his voice suddenly hard. “What does my
wife have to do with Vintra?” “Excellent question,” Ryth said, pointedly moving between
Lekel and Mim. “Concord agents have been murdered on Vintra. One of them died
looking at Memned.” “Are you suggesting—” “Nothing. We’re hoping that where there are questions there
are also answers,” said the Sharnn. Lekel’s eyes closed and he stroked his textured sleeves with
sensitive fingertips as though nothing were more important than touching each
thickness of thread in the order of its weaving; and perhaps nothing was more
important, for Lekel was Malian and Sandoliki and the cloth’s textures were as
riveting as sarsa music. A dying silver insect ticked against a transparent pane
while Malia’s night descended with icy stealth. Relays closed, sending warmth
and golden light blushing through crystal walls. The hundred subtle shades of
orange in Lekel’s robe seemed to leap like tiny flames, consuming his fingertips.
He sighed and murmured what might have been one of a thousand names. But his
eyes when they opened were remorseless. “Most Malians know nothing of Vintra. Memned does. Vintra’s
doom is always with her. Therefore, she is more thoughtful of Vintrans than
most Malians. By some, this is taken as an aberration that can only be explained
by”—Lekel’s lips twisted in distaste “—calling her a Vintran.” “You would never knowingly marry a Vintran,” said the
Sharnn. “So you understand even that?” Lekel asked, ignoring Ryth’s
slight emphasis on the word “knowingly.” “You pity and abhor Vintrans. It would be like marrying a
skavern.” The Sharnn paused, listening, but heard nothing; not even one insect
remained to tick futilely against glowing walls. “Yet, such knowledge as Memned
has might bring guilt and then hatred. Isn’t it possible that she so hates
Vintrans that she decided to hasten their inevitable extinction?” Lekel’s silence was long and considering. “My wife,” he said
slowly, “is ... limited ... for a Malian. I did not choose her for what she is;
rather, for who she appeared to be.” Lekel’s full lips thinned into a bleak
line. “But she is Malian nonetheless. Vintrans have so pitifully few moments.
No Malian could reduce those moments by even one.” Mim moved with restless urgency. “Yet we are almost certain
she is involved with the Gint.” Ryth’s mental warning, coupled with Mim’s own training,
saved her from Lekel’s blow. “G’el n’si!” Ryth reinforced his shout with a mental stroke that brought
Lekel up short. The k’m’n Sandoliki put his hands to his forehead, fighting unexpected
pain. Then he staggered as the pain vanished. “N’si g’el,” said Lekel hoarsely. “Apologies and regrets,” murmured the Sharnn, but his cape
lashed. Lekel looked at him warily and said nothing about the
lightning presence he had almost sensed in his mind. “Accepted.” “Mim spoke only what we believe to be the truth,” said
Kayle. “No Malian aristocrat could abide a man who flaunted gint,”
said Lekel coldly. “To even hint that—” Rage rippled along his muscles, but he
did not move. “It is impossible.” “Then we have a problem,” said the Sharnn, and the very softness
of his voice increased Lekel’s wariness. “Either your understanding of Malian capabilities
is in error, or Memned is not—” “No!” Lekel’s voice grated across the glow of light. “Don’t
say it, Sandoliki Ti Ryth. Don’t force me to kill Faen’s joy.” Stillness flowed into the Sharnn, a slow spiral turning in
utter silence. “Play a child’s game with me,” invited the Sharnn, his voice
gentle in spite of the force radiating around him. “Yes.” Lekel’s voice was ragged and his eyes never left the
dangerous presence that had become Ryth. “Teach me, de f’mi ti.” “Accept as true what you have said about Malians and what I
have said about Vintra.” “Accepted.” “Accept as true that there is a black-haired, pale-eyed
woman involved with the Gint.” “... accepted.” “Accept as true that the woman is either Faen or Memned.” “Impossible!” exploded Lekel. “That’s—” “A child’s game.” Ryth watched as Lekel slowly relaxed, accepting
the unpalatable game he had agreed to play. “Knowing both women as you do,”
continued Ryth, “which one would be more likely to abide the Gint?” Silence stretched until it trembled like zamay, but still Lekel
did not answer, could not, until finally logic and his own honesty forced him
into reluctant choice. “Memned.” He sighed, and repeated his wife’s name. “Memned.
Not Faen. Never. The leader of Ti Vire wouldn’t be able to partner with a
gint.” Lekel made a gesture of baffled helplessness. “Yet—Memned?” “Perhaps there is a third explanation,” said the Sharnn. “Perhaps
she can teach it to us.” “Perhaps,” said Lekel, black eyes dazed as he tried to focus
on the impossible. “We can only ask.” Lekel took the shortest route to Memned’s h’kel, leading
them through an elliptical inner garden surrounded by luminous crystal arches
carved with ancient gods. The compelling scent of Malian night swept over them,
telling of folded zamay and swaying tere, secret warmths hidden within piercing
chill. A sound escaped the Sharnn as Faen seemed to condense around him,
perfect lips speaking urgent, soundless imperatives. His mind called to her
with tearing force, and was answered by a flash of dark agony such as he had
never imagined. His eyes opened blind to the black-silver beauty of Malian
night, blind to the three people staring at him, blind to everything but Faen’s
image writhing and fading around him until only simple moonlight remained to
mock the agony echoing through his mind. He did not call to her again. “Are you well, Sandoliki Ti?” Lekel’s respectful question recalled the Sharnn to a different
reality. “Yes,” said Ryth raggedly, his mind still grappling with a
pattern he was afraid to pursue to conclusion. But the pattern became clear,
too clear, and his throttled cry burned in his throat. “Ryth,” said Kayle urgently, “what’s wrong?” The Sharnn’s eyes shone hard with reflected moonlight. He
looked at each of his three companions as though weighing them in a secret balance.
While they watched, the Sharnn changed. It was as though he had coiled back
upon himself to become darker, thicker, stronger, more deadly. At that instant,
all three were ready to fight for their lives, and none expected to win. Then the coils loosened, allowing them to breathe once more. “Faen,” said the Sharnn softly, as though she stood next to
him. Lekel and Kayle and Mim waited, wanting to know more, but
afraid to ask and risk a Sharnn’s anger. “Something has driven Faen into q-consciousness. Yet even
there she is not at peace.” They stared, but could not see Ryth’s features. His cape was
a darkness surrounding him like dense smoke and inside the darkness violence
waited. “Where is she?” said Kayle. “Near.” The Sharnn’s voice held such certainty that Lekel
involuntarily looked around, expecting to see Faen walk into the night garden. Slowly, the Sharnn’s eyes focused on the k’m’n Sandoliki.
“Perhaps Memned’s explanation will include what has happened to the Sandoliki
Ti Faen.” Lekel’s body tightened until muscles coiled, “Is Faen in danger?” “Yes.” Lekel spun and strode toward a glowing arch. “Is Memned the cause?” demanded Kayle of Ryth. “Memned. Or my gint, my shadow, my—” Violence seethed around the Sharnn, a depth of violence that
shocked Kayle. Ryth’s eyes waited, deceptively clear, like a spring in the center
of an ancient tere grove. “She should be safe in q,” said Kayle quickly. “Q is a desperate retreat, barely one breath from death,”
said Ryth coldly. “Q is total flight from stimulation. How much of that do you
think someone like Faen can tolerate before she goes mad, or takes that next
breath?” Kayle’s mind closed as he tried to imagine the silent, monochrome
infinity of sensory deprivation, where an instant and an eternity were equal
because time is measured by the senses and no senses existed in q. And Faen was
Malian. “Hurry,” muttered Kayle. The pervasive scent of zamay thinned as they hurried into
the warmth of the Joxsha Kel. Like Lekel’s robe, the crystal and creamstone
walls of the kel were made of more shades of orange than anyone but a Malian
could discern. While they walked, shades of orange leaped and flickered and
burned in a symphony of silent fire. “It’s like living in the Allgod’s eye,” murmured Mim, the orange
of her own eyes intensified by the sliding shades of the kel. But Lekel did not hear. He turned abruptly and left the kel
for a narrow side garden. There was a brief scent of blooming nightvine, a
brief bite of chill air, and then Lekel led them into a large kel where a
thousand tints and tones of blue arched overhead. From the elliptical room,
corridors led away like spokes; each corridor presented a gradation from
lightest to darkest blue. Lekel gave them no time to appreciate the subtleties of
Malian color artistry. He led them at a near-run down a corridor that began
more pale than Faen’s eyes and ended as darkest midnight blue. So perfectly
were the blues graduated that in no place could a change of hue be discerned. With an unconscious flourish, Lekel pulled aside a
translucent tapestry and strode into a hidden room. The somber blues surrounding
him swayed in currents of candlelight. The tall candles were almost black;
their bodies were scented with nightvine and their flames burned more mauve
than gold. Except for scattered cushions, the room was empty. The Sharnn stared beyond Lekel, trying to guess the function
of the room, but his pattern sense was baffled by the shifting, scented flames.
After the clean chill of the garden, he found Memned’s room stifling. Lekel crossed the room and yanked aside a monochrome blue
wall hanging with textures that shimmered and spoke in the changing light. Beyond
the fabric was an indoor garden. In the center of the garden stood a sarsa, gathering
and concentrating moonlight over its thousand crystal surfaces. Ryth stared at the sightless facets and wondered whether the
sarsa answered Memned’s touch with silver ghosts and silent ecstasies. Then he
realized that only a finder like Faen—or Maran—would have the mind and skill to
combine with the sarsa in unguessed linkage, probing self and past alike. Lekel crossed to the sarsa in two strides. Every motion spoke
of impatience, yet his fingers held the m’sarsa delicately. The wand flashed in
the moonlight and six descending notes summoned Memned as clearly as if Lekel
had called her name. The last low note trembled in the silver light, then
dissipated like a sigh. There was no answer, though they could hear the summons
resonating through every crystal wall in the kel. The Sharnn had only to look
at Lekel to know that Memned’s absence was unexpected. “Where is the Vintra Kel?” said Ryth abruptly. “We call it the Kemir Kel.” Lekel’s voice was strained, but
insistent. “Kemir.” “Purple or blue-red, call it what you will,” snapped the
Sharnn. “Where is it?” “No one lives there. It was built only to complete the
spectrum. No sane Malian could be expected to live in it.” “But Memned uses it occasionally, doesn’t she?” “Opposites refresh,” said Lekel. “It proves nothing.” “No one said that it did.” Lekel turned away from the Sharnn’s too-knowing eyes. The
k’m’n Sandoliki crossed two connecting gardens at a pace that was nearly a run.
The second garden was oddly ragged, almost abandoned, as though even servants
felt uneasy among the unfolding purple foliage. But under the silver and white
moons, the plants were merely black on black without even a shadow of purple madness. At the end of the garden rose an arch, its faceted curves
refracting moonlight into countless violet flashes. Lekel stopped and turned to Ryth. “Whatever happens,” Lekel
said, his voice low but clear, “Memned’s flesh is mine.” The Sharnn hesitated only an instant. “Her flesh is yours.” Without another word, Lekel vanished beneath an amethyst
arch. The Sharnn leaped to follow, running silently beneath ancient arches and
moonlight until the Kemir Kel rose out of darkness, its twin-peaked roof like
the wings of a great bird. Even in the flawless light of Malian day, the kel’s myriad
purples would have suggested a burden of secrets and regrets; in the attenuated
light of moons, the Kemir Kel’s brooding atmosphere was almost malevolent.
Strokes of magenta light fell like blows across the lavender floors and each
shadow was a sluggish condensation of purple. The air was thick, barely stirred
by slow maroon currents. Yet the Kemir Kel was also compelling, the very heart of mystery
illuminated by random shards of pure violet light. The heavy scent of nightvine coiled around Ryth as he followed
the fading rustle of Lekel’s robe brushing over the floor. The smell of nightvine
became stronger, darker, almost palpable. Lekel pulled aside a tapestry and for
a moment was silhouetted against tiers of tall candles that burned with clear
purple flames. The room was furnished with cushions, low lounges, and amethyst
sculptures in arrangements that were not quite random. Everywhere, tall candles
burned until their eerie light and scent became as much a part of the kel as
its rolling tones of purple. In the center of the room stood Lekel, head bent as he spoke
to a woman whose golden skin was transformed to deepest rose by the alchemy of
dark candlelight. When she turned toward Lekel, her black hair billowed out,
alive with purple lights. She lifted a small, beautifully formed hand and
stroked Lekel’s face in skilled t’sil’ne. Her eyes as they watched him were as
white as ice. The Sharnn fought to breathe air that had congealed in his
throat, fought not to call out Faen’s name, but most of all he fought not to
kill them both as they stood in the warmth of each other’s breath. His cape
whipped soundlessly, twisting and writhing, seeking. She turned again and walked closer to Ryth, moving with the
silent grace of a shadow. Vague light washed over her face, concealing its
lines in shifting magenta tones. When she looked into his eyes she stepped
back, afraid. “You agreed,” said Lekel to the Sharnn. As she turned to look at Lekel, a sudden draft outlined her
profile with a flare of candlelight. In the heightened illumination, the lines
of her face were subtly blurred, wrong. Not Faen. The Sharnn stepped back. “You didn’t mention that your wife
so resembled mine,” he said harshly. “Especially by candlelight.” “I assumed you knew,” said Lekel, releasing his grip on his
knife, “It’s hardly a secret.” “Yes,” said Memned, her voice toneless. “It’s common knowledge
that I am less beautiful than Lekel’s first choice.” “Beauty varies with desire and custom,” said the Sharnn. “You are very tactful, Sandoliki Ti Ryth,” said Memned, her
voice as expressionless as still water. The Sharnn glanced around the h’kel, making sure that Memned
was never out of his sight. For all the information he gained from her unreadable
face, she might as well have been heavily veiled. “I’m unfamiliar with the
pattern of the kel,” he said casually. “Where are you keeping Faen?” Memned’s moment of surprise passed so quickly that the
Sharnn could not be sure he had seen it. “Keeping? No one keeps the Ti Faen. The Ti Faen does precisely
as she pleases.” The Sharnn gave Memned a long, considering look while he
sent lightning mental directions to Kayle. *Tell Mim to try Memned’s mind.
Force it if possible, but don’t damage her memory. Be ready to fight Lekel.* Ryth looked from Memned to the powerful k’m’n Sandoliki. “I
agreed that her flesh was yours, but her answers belong to me. N’ies?” Lekel hesitated, then spread his hands. “N’ies. If she knows
any answers.” Memned turned toward her husband, her beautiful face expressionless.
“You give way to a man who is not Malian simply because your Faen might be in
danger? The more she scorns you, the more you—” “Enough,” said Lekel, cutting across what was obviously an
argument so often chewed over that all juice was gone. “Do you know where Faen
is?” Memned almost smiled. And said nothing. “I’m not asking for myself,” said Lekel, his voice a mixture
of anger and gentleness and regret. “I’m asking for the Sandoliki Ti Ryth.” “And I am refusing. I—ohhhh!” Lekel supported Memned, preventing her from tumbling to the
hard crystal floor. “What is it, Memned?” asked Lekel, lips close to her black
hair. But her limp body did not respond to his whisper. His fingers found the
pulse on her slender throat. “A simple faint ... but why?” “Good reason,” said the Sharnn quietly. Only then did Lekel notice that the two Nendletis were standing
close together, orange eyes burning as though they could see beyond Memned’s
controlled exterior to the truth inside. Lekel remembered the instant of pain
that had staggered him when he attacked Mim and he guessed that something
similar had happened to his wife. But he could not fight back, trapped as he
was by the warm weight of Memned lying across his arms. “You fight like skaverns,” he said bitterly. The Sharnn said nothing. He watched the Nendletis intently,
sensing that something was wrong. At last Kayle blinked and his round orange
eyes slowly focused on Ryth. “Mim can penetrate, which is more than we had hoped for, given
her difficulty with Malian minds. “But?” prompted the Sharnn, trying to curb his impatience. “But I can’t join their minds, because Mim can’t get beyond
Memned’s outer consciousness. It’s like being on a huge oiled ball. No place to
grab and hold, no traction. You just slide and lunge and slip until you’re sick
with dizziness and you’re no closer than you were when you started.” “You get no information?” “We get too much! All of it, one huge seamless ball and no
way to sort it out. No reference points, no—” “Pattern?” suggested the Sharnn. Kayle’s eyes narrowed. “Too dangerous. You might end up
worse than I was with n’Qen.” “And I might not. One way Faen dies, we die, Malia dies. The
other way—anything is possible. Everything.” Suddenly the Sharnn swung around and crouched in a single
motion that was both beautiful and deadly. Lekel stopped his attack in
mid-stride. “You’re too close, k’m’n Sandoliki. Back up.” Lekel shifted Memned’s weight and carefully walked backwards. “Drop the knife,” said Ryth. “Yes, that one. It shines so
beautifully beneath her black hair.” The knife dropped loudly in the silence. “Listen well, Lekel. I will find my answers if I have to
tear your wife’s memories into single instant shreds.” The Sharnn’s words were
as distinct as the muscles corded in his neck. “You may fight me, if you must,
after I have my answers. If you move one step before that, I will force your
mind and kill you where you stand. N’ies?” Lekel’s black eyes searched the Sharnn’s face and found neither
uncertainty nor weakness. With a long breath, Lekel agreed. “N’ies.” Then, coldly. “May I sit?” The Sharnn made a cutting gesture of indifference. Slowly,
Lekel sat, holding Memned across his folded legs. For an instant, candlelight
shifted and spun over her still face; it was like seeing Faen through deep
water, blurred and unattainable. In spite of his control, Ryth must have made a
noise, for Lekel looked up from Memned’s shadowed face. Something oddly like
pity crossed the k’m’n Sandoliki’s hard features. “Do what you must, de f’mi ti,” Lekel said, looking away.
“Your loss is greater than mine.” Ryth closed his eyes, blotting out the woman’s face that was
both strange and too familiar. “Ready?” asked Kayle. The Sharnn took several slow, deep breaths, then responded
with curt mindspeech. *Ready. What do I do?* *Absolutely nothing.* The Sharnn laughed bitterly. *I should be able to manage
that.* *It’s the hardest thing of all,* responded Kayle, and put a
warmth into his thought that radiated through Ryth’s ragged nerves. *Very good,*
encouraged Kayle. *Very, very good, just keep—ahhh, don’t fight me. You’re too
strong, Sharnn.* *I’m not fighting,* insisted Ryth, then realized that he was
indeed waging a reflexive struggle against the presence seeping toward the center
of his mind. With a silent apology, the Sharnn concentrated on his need to link
with Mim. *Better ... better.* There was a moment of vague vertigo, tiny pains. *You’ve changed, Sharnn. Amazing—truly amazing. Powerful,
still, and vastly patient.* *The last thing I feel is patient,* returned the Sharnn,
with a lash of restlessness that made his cape seethe. Kayle’s only answer was a vanishing chuckle. A feeling of
crisp air and crackling coolness grew in Ryth’s mind, accompanied by tangy,
spicy scents. The total effect was as invigorating as diving into cool water. Thank you. You are like ghostsailing the edge of a nova, The
intimacy of Mim’s response shocked Ryth. She was behind his eyes, whispering
through his brain and her body lived by his rhythms. Nowhere did he sense
Kayle. You won’t, as long as the link goes well. He is bridging
all our differences. Without him such intimacy would be impossible. We’re too
different, you and I. You are as powerful and flexible as life itself. You
change even as I breathe. Always becoming. I am Sharnn. I begin to fear what that means ... Don’t. I am human. I’ll hold on to that, sri Ryth. You do the same! With no more warning than that, the Sharnn found himself
hurled into Memned’s mind. He could not sense Mim, except in the speed with
which he oriented himself in the uncharted territory of an alien mind. He knew
he was looking for something in particular, but he could not visualize what he
sought. The difficulty did not disturb him; he correctly assumed that Mim would
guide him whether he sensed it or not. He concentrated on Memned. What Kayle and Mim had perceived as an oily ball, the Sharnn
perceived as a grey sea troubled by conflicting currents and random winds.
Waves came tall and narrow, wide and short, wedge-shaped and no shape at all.
He both hovered above and floated on top of the sea, simultaneously aloof and a
part of the unbalanced forces that made Memned what she was. He stayed there, feeling/seeing/sensing. He was not aware of
Kayle or Mim or time or even himself. His whole being was focused on learning
the pattern that created the impenetrable grey surface that heaved below and
around him. Slowly, patiently, he discovered similarities and opposites,
catalogued conflicts and accords, endings and beginnings. The waves seemed no
longer restless, but energetic, no longer amorphous, but inevitable. The very
next wave would be a long wedge that— The sea exploded and he tumbled headlong into a maelstrom of
voices and motions and scenes/memories shouting/requiring that he
see/hear/touch/know/be NOW until he felt himself fracturing into a hundred
selves trying to meet a thousand impossible demands. I can’t! I can. Let me. How? Let go. With a soundless cry, the Sharnn stopped trying to conceive
of and thereby become everything at once. There was a time of spinning nausea
that seemed endless. When it was over, his body beat with Mim’s rhythms and he
watched through Mim’s eyes. He tried to communicate with her, but lacked the
necessary skill. Vertigo returned, overwhelming. Don’t try to talk to me, unless I miss something vital. Wisely, the Sharnn made no attempt to respond to Mim’s
command. He willed himself into passivity and watched, fascinated, while Mim
deftly slid down through the storm of Memned’s mind, always down, further and
further, until voices faded and memories thinned into raw energy, force and
counterforce in the changing yet changeless dance of life. Something moved toward the play of energy. A tenuous veil
spread across it, surrounding, melting, then combining with a fierce crackle of
pain that was gone so quickly that it did not even make a memory. The Sharnn’s
impatience leaped, for he guessed that Mim’s mind had finally joined with
Memned’s. Be very still. She is difficult. The Sharnn sensed will gathering, shaping into an
unavoidable command to remember— FAEN And Memned remembered. Midnight and white moon racing, tere trees bending in a
black wind, moaning and he was waiting
for Memned, there, cape fanned in the black wind, bending down and touching
her, murmuring Faen’s name in tones of hatred darker than wind or night or tere
trees bending down. The memory slid away before they could see the man’s face.
Ryth controlled his impatience with difficulty; he sensed that he had seen that
man before, in darkness, cape billowing like black laughter. FAEN For an instant the three-way intimacy heaved and tossed like
an unruly animal while Memned fought Mim’s implacable command to focus her flow
of memories on Faen. But Mim’s greater skill kept Memned under tight control
and the restless surges of energy condensed into FAEN A scarlet form more graceful than water, swaying,
transforming the simple act of walking into a dance as beautiful as faal-hnim,
black eyes watching with hopeless longing and a shadow dragging behind, dark
imitation carefully trained but never equal never FAEN Ebony and silver night, warm as a lover’s breath and the
sarsa brilliant beneath pouring moons while Faen touched it with a skill that
made her shadow weep and flee until he stepped out, black-green eyes blazing,
the core of night consuming Memned until she no longer regretted shadow-life
lived for him. Even shadows find something like passion. Shadows, like
gints, can be more than they seem. FAEN Creamstone and Gold oddly drained, flattened, monotonous,
and Faen waiting, brilliant blue-white eyes accusing her, Faen saying its name
with disgust curling her perfect lips until they were separate condemnations
and Faen’s hair like a summer night sweet and warm and as black as Faen’s contempt
for Memned’s shadow life and shadow lover. But shadows can conceal more than they outline. Light and
brilliance drained from Faen’s eyes and her features slackened, all but the
perfect lips that somehow still shaped contempt for shadow Memned who finally
stood above, looking down on her unconscious image like looking in a mirror,
only better, much better. Laughing as she dropped the tiny dart pistol next to
Faen’s unconscious beauty. And later FAEN a scream that shattered all hope. WHERE A sickening swirl of purples IS condensed into FAEN lying in deep violet light where tall candles guttered
thickly, a room of purple shadows where one shadow lived and laughed and
gloried in her superior image screaming just once before the stubborn retreat
into self, frustrating all attempts to force a return to consciousness and
agony. A single scream. Too thin a revenge, even for a shadow. There would be more deaths later, of course. Vast deaths.
A whole planet. But Faen’s death was special; it must be as perfect as a flawed
imitation could make it. Then the shadow would become substance and Faen would be
nothing at all. Reality shifted with a sickening lurch. The Sharnn found himself
breathing with his own rhythms, seeing with his own eyes. Do you have enough, pattern-man? Yes. There was a feeling of breathless acceleration, then a sense
of being totally alone. Hollow. Conflicting emotions shook him until he slowly
expanded into all the abandoned spaces of his mind. And realized that Kayle’s
hoarse voice was drumming in his ears. “—hear me? Do you know me? What is your name? Do you know
where you are? Can you hear me? Are you—” “Yes, yes,” interrupted the Sharnn, his voice ragged, as
though it had not been used for a long time. He shook his head, flinging off
the last of his sensory daze. “I’m all right.” Ryth turned on Lekel, who had
not moved during the long, long interrogation. “Where is the violet room?” Lekel eased Memned onto some cushions and stood without the
least sign of stiffness. “It will be easier if I take you there.” Ryth looked at Kayle. “Memned?” “She’ll sleep, as will Mim. And as you should. Let me go to
find Faen. Joining minds is far less exhausting than what you did.” “Can you bring Faen out of q?” “No one can, Ryth. Not even you.” Without a word, the Sharnn turned and started after Lekel.
At the first step, the room began to slide into darkness. Ryth caught himself
and straightened before Kayle could reach him. The Nendleti said nothing, but his
knowing eyes did not miss one sign of the exhaustion that had turned Ryth’s
muscles to sand. *You would be easy game for Lekel right now, Ryth. Even with
your cape.* *Which is why he won’t touch me.* Kayle watched doubtfully as the Sharnn walked out of the h’kel
with uneven strides. But by the time he caught up with Lekel, Ryth’s powerful
body had restored rhythm, if not grace, to his movements. The two men walked side by side, saying nothing, not
noticing brooding lavender corridors, pools of magenta light framed by amethyst
columns wearing the faces of long dead gods. Nor did either man notice
startling silver eyes, Maran’s eyes, a maroon ikon brooding over the slow dance
of violet tapestries turning in the minor wind of two men’s passage. “May I ask?” Lekel’s soft question penetrated the Sharnn’s concentration
as no loud demand could have. “You may.” “Did she—my wife—tell you why?” “Jealousy,” said the Sharnn, “and something more. I’m not
sure yet. The pattern is still forming.” “I would not have believed Memned capable of taking Faen.” “She wasn’t. She shot Faen with a projectile weapon.” Lekel’s stride broke and his handsome face settled into
lines of darkness. “K’m’n Sandoliki Memned used a projectile weapon?” asked
Lekel carefully. “Yes.” The flatness of Ryth’s tone left no room for comfort.
“Anesthetic or poison darts. Then torture.” “I can’t believe—no Malian aristocrat would use—” Lekel bit
off his thoughts abruptly. “Is Faen alive?” “Probably, Memned had planned an elaborate ritual of
revenge. She hasn’t had time to carry it out.” “K’te kiirey. Ordeal by torture. In that, at least, Memned
honors her Malian ancestry.” Ryth said nothing, but the sudden violence that radiated
from him made Lekel walk very softly until the end of the corridor was reached. There,” said Lekel, indicating a dark triangular opening to
Ryth’s right. “There is a special room at the end of the hall. H’kel n’ma sey.
The room with no exit.” The Sharnn turned and walked silently into a purple hall. At
random intervals lights bloomed behind crystal panels, casting mauve shadows
across the way. Exhaustion congealed in the Sharnn, slowing him until only will
drove his body toward the flickering maroon light at the end of the triangular
hall. She lay in the center of the small, six-walled room. Her bed
was a dais draped with utterly smooth fabric. Candlelight flowed over the drape
until it shimmered and pulsed in imitation of life. She looked too pale, too attenuated
to be alive, but he sensed the tiny breaths that were too far apart and too
shallow to disturb the stillness of her body. Remembering her single scream, he
expected to find a ghastly injury, but her skin was as flawless and
fine-textured as the drape she lay on. Beside Faen’s head was a small glass table holding delicate
instruments whose purpose the Sharnn immediately guessed. His hand lashed out,
smashing the table and its contents and opening a long cut across his
palm. He quickly looked away from the debris, not wanting to know the
instruments’ exact patterns, not wanting to conceive of their precise use, for
he had promised Memned’s flesh to Lekel. Though the Sharnn knew it was futile and probably dangerous,
he could not help calling once to Faen’s hidden mind. There was no answer,
unless it came as a subtle tightening of her muscles that passed as quickly as
a sigh. The exhaustion Ryth had held at bay finally claimed him; he
moved toward her like a man walking under water. Only a Sharnn’s will could
have forced his cut hand to lift until blood fell like black tears onto
her lips. Then the room began to melt and run into impossible purple shapes.
With infinite care the Sharnn lay down beside Faen and gathered her against his
body. When the sweet scent of her filled his senses, he let everything else
spin away into a darkness that knew no shades of purple. VIIThe Sharnn stirred and woke, tangled in Faen’s warmth. She
murmured against his skin and stretched languidly. For a startled moment she
realized that she was in the torture room of the Kemir Kel, but then she felt
him next to her and relaxed beneath lavender shadows. Though Ryth felt weakness
like water in his veins, he pulled her closer. Over his shoulder she saw the
shattered table and smashed implements of k’te kiirey. The roughness of his
palm and his blood dry on her lips told her what he had done. And then she
remembered why she had returned alone to Malia. “I wanted you to live forever,” she whispered. “Laseyss.” He said a Sharnn phrase that had no translation, and she was
comforted. With a long sigh she accepted their deaths. Both heard the tapestry
slither aside, but neither moved. “You look like easy meat,” Kayle said, letting the tapestry
fall back into place. The Sharnn smiled. “Try me.” Kayle laughed shortly. “You’ve taught me two things, Ryth.
It is fatal to underestimate a Sharnn; and it is impossible to overestimate a
Sharnn.” Ryth pulled himself upright. The h’kel became a kaleidoscope
of purple tones, spinning and running together. “I’ve taught you wrong,” said Ryth, laughing weakly. “I doubt it.” Kayle walked across the room. His rolling, powerful gait was
oddly suited to the pale violet light that radiated through the room’s mosaic
of colored crystal panes. Kayle set the tray he carried within reach of both of
them. “You brought a psi out of terminal q. The Carifil want to
know how.” Ryth frowned, trying to remember the moments since be had
emerged from Memned’s mind. Then he saw Faen’s lips and knew. “His method,” said Faen, “would only work between Malian
lovers.” “Is that true?” “Not quite,” said the Sharnn. “If the lovers were
complements, their race would not matter.” Kayle sighed. “We were afraid it was something like that.”
His sharp orange eyes went from Ryth’s hand to her lips. “Was the blood necessary?” “We are Malian,” said Ryth. “Are you? Or is she becoming Sharnn?” Kayle smiled at Ryth’s
startled glance. “Think about it while you eat, pattern-man.” Ryth looked warily at the triangles of food and tall glasses
of viscous liquid that Kayle had brought. But when Faen reached for both with a
delighted sound, the Sharnn began to eat. “Lekel said that these were the most concentrated forms of
food known to Malians,” said Kayle, watching Ryth eat with growing greed. “You’ll
need your strength. We’ve got to pry Memned loose from some answers. Without
you, we can’t really penetrate her indifference.” Ryth grimaced at the thought of re-entering the maelstrom of
Memned’s mind. “I don’t think we’ll have to go all the way in again, Ryth.
It’s just that we don’t know which answers we’ve found. That is, which
questions. Or—” Kayle hissed a selection of Nendleti phrases that the Sharnn
winced to translate. “You mean,” said the Sharnn, “that you don’t understand what
Memned told us last night.” “Precisely.” Kayle waited impatiently while Faen and the
Sharnn licked each other’s fingers clean, then drank the last drop of pale
turquoise liquid. “Ready?” Ryth slid off the dais, prepared to catch himself, but the
room did not spin away from him. Surprised, he looked at the empty tray with
new respect. Faen saw and smiled and said nothing. He curled her hand across
his as he took her into his mind and gave her exact memories of what had
happened in Memned’s mind. “How much,” he asked Kayle, “did you see/hear/feel of what
Mim and I found in Memned’s mind?” “All of it.” “The man Memned met beneath the moon and tere trees?” “Yes.” “I believe that was the Gint.” Faen’s hand tightened in his. and she stirred uneasily
within his mind. “There were no marks on his forehead.” “The light concealed more than it revealed,” said Ryth. “But,” protested Faen, “even in moonlight, gint flashes like
crystal.” “Two possibilities,” countered the Sharnn. “Either he wore
no gint that night, or she does not think of him as gint and therefore
literally did not see his marks. Remember, we saw only with her eyes and knew
only with her mind. Probably, he was not wearing gint. The alternative requires
an integrated act of will that is almost certainly beyond Memned’s capacity.” “Gint marks are tattooed. Permanent,” insisted Faen. The Sharnn spoke gently to her, knowing that even to think
about gint was disgusting for a Malian. Especially a Sandoliki Ti. “They are supposed to be, yes. But gint can be painted on
and oiled off, n’ies?” Faen’s shudder of distaste was involuntary and total.
“N’ies. But what kind of Malian warrior—no! What kind of creature could endure
gint for even a moment?” Faen’s face twisted at the thought of a Malian who could overcome
a cultural trait that was as ingrained as sensuality. “If that man was the Gint—” prompted Kayle. “Then he was using Memned,” said Ryth. “For what?” “Destroying Malians.” “But Vintrans are the ones dying.” “All living things are dying,” the Sharnn said dryly. “Some
more quickly than others. As of this moment, all Malians will die before a few
Vintrans.” Faen’s nails pressed against his arm, leaving crescents of
pain that she felt the instant he did, as though it were her own arm, not his.
She rubbed the marks away, but could not so easily erase the thought of a
despised Gint bringing down a proud race of warriors. “Then you believe the Gint is Vintran?” said Kayle. “Does it matter?” said Ryth. “Can you prove that he’s not Malian?” snapped Kayle, impatient
with Sharnn evasions. “Only by inference. Pattern.” “Not good enough.” “No.” The three of them walked silently into a room where Lekel
and Mim waited with Memned. Cushions in every tint of purple were scattered
through the room and black candles rose like gaunt shadows. As one, both
Nendletis withdrew to the cushions nearest the entrance. There they could hear
and see everything, as well as guard against intrusions. The Sharnn looked from Memned to Faen and back again. Even
in the brighter light of day, their resemblance was uncanny. “Come to me,” said the Sharnn. Not until Memned walked toward them was the difference apparent;
she lacked Faen’s perfect grace. When Memned came very close, other differences
came into focus. Her profile was slightly less sharp, her eyes were slightly
less slanted, more white, and her lips lacked the fullness of Faen’s. Memned’s
hair was black, but less brilliant than Faen’s, lacking both the blue and
blue-white lights that slid endlessly through Faen’s hair. Wordlessly, Ryth compared the two women, always to Memned’s
detriment. It was not simple prejudice that shaped the Sharnn’s conclusions.
Memned was like a master forgery; though superbly executed, she lacked the resonance
of the original. It was as though a forger’s skill had stretched her essence
beyond its elastic limit. Something about her was subtly wrong. With a smothered exclamation, the Sharnn stared at Memned
even more closely. His intensity was such that she pulled back. “No,” he said. “Closer.” With a barely perceptible tremor, Memned obeyed. “Stand there.” The Sharnn’s gesture indicated an octagonal window where
pale lavender light was so bright that it almost had no color at all. “Lekel.” “Yes?” “I’m going to touch my prisoner, your wife. I will not—” “I know, Ti. You won’t hurt her flesh, for it was promised
to me.” Gently, Ryth lifted Faen’s hand out of his. She made no objection;
like Ryth, she feared what even vicarious touching of Memned would do. If Memned objected to being touched, she did not show it. Not
once did her lovely, expressionless face change; not once did her lips shift,
not even when his finger traced their lines with an almost sensual delicacy. “Incredible,” he murmured, pushing a mass of black hair
aside and lightly kneading his fingertips over her scalp. “Nearly perfect. I
didn’t know that such skill—” He stopped abruptly, fingertips pressing against
the lower curve of her ears where they met her skull, then just above her
hairline again. “Close your eyes.” Though the Sharnn used no courtesies, his voice was not
harsh. Memned closed her eyes and stood without flinching while he tipped her
head back and his fingertips traced every aspect of her eyes. “Yes,” said Lekel as he walked up and stood next to the
Sharnn. “She’s undergone reconstructive growth. There were many firestorms in
the war. She was in one of them,” “Is that what she told you?” asked Ryth, his fingertips as
light as breath over her skin. Lekel made a careless gesture. “Perhaps there was an
accident, perhaps not. She would not be the first Malian to enhance her beauty;
It is a matter of neither great pride nor great shame.” He nearly smiled. “And
it was well worth it, n’ies?” “Such skill,” murmured Ryth, stroking the seamless
perfection of Memned’s face. “I didn’t know Malia had such skilled regrowers.” “Malia doesn’t.” Memned’s flat voice was as deliberately expressionless
as her face. The effect, paradoxically, was one of barely restrained violence.
“I went to Lirnkleml.” “You must have been badly injured,” said the Sharnn. “Or very
wealthy.” “Neither.” “What did you look like before you went to Lirnkleml? Were
you simply ugly?” “No.” Something flickered deep in her white eyes, a swift
change that was gone before it was fully perceived. “I was the most beautiful
woman on ... in my country.” “What did you look like before you went to Lirnkleml?” repeated
the Sharnn softly, relentlessly. Darkness flickered like a shadow turning in the center of
her eyes. “The same. No real change. The same.” “No,” said the Sharnn softly, and his fingertips traced each
point as he named it. “Your eyes did not tilt quite so much, nor were they so
wide. Your ears were slightly larger, set higher. Your chin was less triangular.
Your hair was less full and probably another color.” His fingertips stroked her
neck and shoulders and breasts. “Shall I go on, Memned?” The shadow condensed, a point of darkness in her too-pale
eyes. But she said nothing. “Your neck was slightly fuller, and your breasts much
fuller.” “My hips,” she said, interrupting, “were as round as zamay
seeds and my back—” She stopped. “Does it matter?” “What color was your hair?” “As blue-white as Malia’s sun. And my skin ... my skin was
darker than amber and more smooth. My eyes changed color like sarsa crystal.”
Her words continued, at odds with her indifferent tone. “When I walked, women
envied and men followed. All but one woman and one man.” “Faen and Lekel.” “Yes,” said Memned, looking at the Sharnn for the first
time. “And he was the one I wanted.” “So you had yourself regrown in the image of Lekel’s
desire.” Something like pity crossed Faen’s face. She found she could
no longer look at Memned or Lekel. The Sharnn’s touch comforted Faen briefly,
then was withdrawn. “I had myself regrown in her image,” repeated Memned. But her voice was subtly hollow now, wrong. “Was it your idea?” Memned said nothing. Lekel’s hand slowly stroked her arm, an
expression like Faen’s softening his perfect Malian features. Memned did not
acknowledge the gesture with as much as a glance. It was as though Lekel did
not exist, the h’kel did not exist, nothing existed but the soft-voiced Sharnn
and his compelling eyes as green as hers were white. “Was regrowth your idea?” repeated Ryth. “Yes.” “No.” The Sharnn smiled sadly. “No, Memned. You loved
yourself then. Who asked you to die and be reborn a shadow of Faen?” Memned’s lips turned down briefly, then straightened into
their former expressionless line. “It was necessary.” “For whom? Who sent you to Lirnkleml?” “No one. Myself.” “A man?” “No one.” “The Gint.” “No.” “You died for a shadow, Memned, a shadow who could not
conceive of—” Memned laughed suddenly, an eerie rising sound that stopped
his words. “You are wrong,” she whispered. “So wrong. He is more than a
shadow.” “Who,” said Ryth, a flick of scorn in his voice, “is this
nameless paragon wearing the marks of cowardice?” “You’ll know his name just before you die!” “I won’t care then,” said Ryth. “You’ve told me what I
already knew. The man who made you a shadow of life is the same man who flaunts
gint.” Malevolence suddenly radiated from Memned with the clarity
of a scream. “That’s a small victory, dead man!” Her eyes changed, and her self-control broke between one
breath and the next. Lekel’s hands tightened on her arms, for he sensed she
would spring on the Sharnn and force her own destruction. She seethed at the
strength restraining her, twisted in his grip, then became very still, only her
shattered white eyes alive, moving. “But why?” said Faen. “Why Vintra? I can understand that you
would enjoy peeling me from life one scream at a time—but Vintra?” “You ask?” Memned said, with a sideways glance at Lekel that
was more chilling than her smile. “You, who declared Ti Vire on an entire
planet?” She smiled again, but refused to look at Faen; had refused
to look at her from the moment Faen had entered the room. The Sharnn had an
eerie feeling that Memned really did not see Faen at all, for shadows could not
see substance. “The Ti Vire,” said Faen carefully, “was not the same as
what you have done to Vintra.” “No,” agreed Memned, smiling blindly at the purple fall of
light beyond Lekel’s strong hands. “My Ti Vire is better. Mine will be a total
success. My name,” she said, her voice thinning and climbing, “will live longer
than yours, longer than Maran’s, longer than any Malian name or any—” She
stopped abruptly and began to hum to herself. “Not the same at all,” said Lekel hoarsely, beginning at
last to understand what his obsession with Faen had cost Memned, himself,
Malia. “Faen and Maran fought for the thousand moments of their people. You—”
His voice hesitated and they watched him change, withdraw, recede before their
eyes. “You have killed your people, Memned. All but a few of our moments are
gone. Only one sra ti, one great moment is left to us.” “Death,” hummed Memned, more to herself than in answer to
the man she no longer saw. “That pleases you?” asked the Sharnn. Memned looked at him in a restless movement of white. “Death pleases every shadow.” “Just death? Any death?” “The enemy’s death,” she murmured, then hummed and looked at
her fingertips as though they were fascinating new growths. “Who is the enemy?” The Sharnn’s question went through Memned like a shockwave.
When it passed, so did the shattered look in her eyes. They were clouded now,
nearly opaque. “Who is the enemy?” repeated Ryth softly. She looked at him as though he were an apparition. “Enemy?”
she inquired politely, tonelessly. “I have no enemies. Merely friends who left
before I was born. And after.” The Sharnn balanced her enigmatic answer in his mind for a
long moment. He sensed something vital buried in her hauntingly irrational response,
but the core of meaning eluded him. Memned hummed softly to herself, sending uneasy chills
through everyone who heard. Ryth looked at Kayle and both silently thanked
their separate gods that she had not gone insane while they were in her mind.
Faen listened, flesh stirring, to Memned’s distorted yet familiar melody, a
tune she recognized but could not name. “It’s time for you to leave,” suggested Ryth softly. “You
don’t want to be here when Malia dies.” “Leave?” Memned said, tilting her head as though listening
to a distant voice. “Yes,” murmured the Sharnn, leaning closer to her until his
lips nearly touched hers. “He’s waiting for you on Vintra.” “Do you know him?” she asked, looking vaguely around, never
quite seeing any of the people who stood near her. “He isn’t here now. He told
me I was more beautiful than ... I believed him once ...” Memned made an oddly
hopeless gesture. “Didn’t I? Did I believe?” She looked imploringly at a spot
just over Ryth’s shoulder where nothing but purple light moved. “Do shadows
believe?” The Sharnn’s face twisted but his voice remained steady, compelling.
“Ask him. He’ll remember.” Memned’s face cleared. She smiled with a child’s uncomplicated
delight. “Oh, yes! He’s so good. He knows everything.” Memned tried to walk forward, but was stopped by Lekel’s
grip. She neither turned nor spoke, just waited. With a small sound, Lekel released
his wife. She stepped out from between his hands as though nothing had ever
held her. Lekel stood and watched her graceful back for a long moment. Then he
slowly lowered his hands. Ryth thought he heard Lekel call out, but the
Malian’s handsome face never changed and Ryth could not be sure. They followed Memned’s progress through shifting purple
tones; a shadow in billowing pink robes, soundless and swift, hurrying toward a
child’s answers, answers that would irrevocably condemn the adult, for if she
led them to a secret Access, Lekel could no longer doubt that she had conspired
to kill a planet. Memned paused only once, to push against a mauve wall until a
section turned on a concealed pivot. She all but ran down a narrow passageway
into a circular h’kel. Such hidden rooms were common in all kels, for Malians
understood the rewards of seclusion. But Lekel looked at the wall with a
startled expression on his face; it was obvious that he had known nothing of
this h’kel, much less the Access which shed such clear blue light over the
center of the room. He watched his wife with dark intensity, but neither his
face nor his body revealed what he was thinking. Then Lekel leaped toward Memned. His hand snaked out and
wrapped around her wrist with a force that made her body jerk. She pulled away
once, hard, then stood as passively as a tethered animal. After a moment, she
began to hum again, a tune that Faen could name now, a song it was forbidden to
sing on Malia. Maran’s Song. Ryth went immediately to the Access controls, never
forgetting that Malia’s life might be as short as their next breath. The
controls were a combination of standard Concord and hastily-rigged Malian
textures that baffled him. “Have you further need of her answers, Sandoliki Ti Ryth?”
asked Lekel with a respectful gesture. “No,” muttered the Sharnn absently, his mind focused on the
puzzle of the controls. “I’ll let the Concord Council question her.” He looked
up, beyond Lekel’s shoulder. “Faen, have you ever used controls like—No!” The Sharnn leaped, but too late. The edge of Lekel’s hand
met Memned’s neck with a clean snap; she was dead before she fell across her husband’s
outstretched arm. Sharnn curses grated like sand between Ryth’s teeth, but he
made no move against Lekel. In Malian terms, Lekel’s action was both inevitable
and admirable. “No,” snapped the Sharnn, gesturing curtly to Kayle. “My carelessness
killed her as surely as Lekel’s blow. I was too concerned with the Access to
realize that I was speaking her death sentence.” A bitter phrase twisted his
mouth. “Lekel owes nothing to the Council. Certainly not Memned’s life.” Kayle stepped back, breathing slowly until the tension oozed
out of his body. A look of defeat settled onto his lined face. “I understand,” he said, gesturing toward the dead woman, “but
will the Council? Everything we’ve seen and heard only hangs Malia higher,
tighter. We can’t prove even now that she was a—“ *Quiet!* The Sharnn’s mental command scored across Kayle’s
mind. Then, much more gently, *Lekel will try to kill you if you call Memned a
Vintran.* *But he killed her himself! He knows she was at least the
most despicable kind of traitor, if not an enemy born and schooled.* *Lekel is Sandoliki. It is his duty to kill anyone—anyone—who
calls questions upon the Sandoliki name.* *Even when the questions are answered by irrefutable truth?* *Especially then.* *I don’t understand.* Kayle looked at Memned; her sightless
white eyes reflected a different reality. *And I don’t want to.* “She earned her death,” said Faen, guessing what lay behind
Kayle’s unwinking orange eyes. “But she died too soon!” Kayle gestured abruptly to Mim. “We
have a Council to convince, sri Mim.” Mim’s whole body registered doubt, but she stepped onto the
Access platform next to him. “They have already decided.” “Yes.” The Nendletis waited with outward patience while Faen deciphered
the hybrid controls. “Two-way,” she said, looking up. “Vintra only.” “To a major Access?” asked Kayle. “Yes.” “Praise gaimo,” muttered Kayle, “Ready!” Faen’s hand swept down and the two Nendletis vanished in a
blaze of pure blue energy. She turned and looked at Lekel. He stood unmoving,
Memned’s dead weight unnoticed in his arms, his dark eyes as unseeing as hers.
Then Faen realized that Lekel had almost loved his shadow wife. She reached out
in impulsive t’sil’ne before she remembered what it would cost. Her hand fell
to her side. “You are blessed,” Faen said gently. “You had no children to
die between your hands.” Lekel’s eyes slowly focused on Faen. “Yes. I am blessed.”
With a weary gesture he closed Memned’s white eyes. The Sharnn looked from Faen to Lekel and knew a moment of
horror when he understood the meaning of Faen’s words: Memned’s crime against
her people was so great that the punishment would not end with her; it would extend
to her blood kin of the first degree. Lekel must kill them all. Memned, her
parents, her sisters and brothers, her children. His own. “Blessed,” Lekel whispered as he kissed Memned’s eyelids,
lips and hands in ceremonial farewell. Then he let her slide away to lie floor,
a huddle of rose cloth surrounded by shades of purple. “She told me her parents
died in the war and she had neither sisters nor brothers. Doubly blessed.” The k’m’n Sandoliki stood motionless for a long moment,
drawing himself inward, concentrating on what had to be done. “Will they,” Lekel said finally, indicating the empty
platform, “be able to help Malia?” The Sharnn’s body moved in a gesture of ambivalence that
needed no words. “I see.” Lekel turned toward Faen. I have no right to ask anything
of you, Ti, but I do.” Faen waited, pale eyes unreadable, body poised as though for
battle or flight. “Find the Gint for me, Ti. His flesh is mine.” Faen looked away from Lekel to where Ryth stood, dark and
silent, waiting for something only a Sharnn could name. “The Gint’s flesh is yours,” agreed Ryth slowly, “but his answers
belong to Sharn. To me.” Lekel made a swift motion that seemed to cast away Memned’s
body, the alien Access, the twisting purple shadows. “Why?” he asked, his voice
shadowed by pain in spite of his Malian control “Why?” “No,” said Faen quickly, cutting across what could have been
a Sharnn’s answer. “Ti Lekel, I will speak with the truth of your own pulse ...
if you let me.” “You have never called me Ti.” His dark eyes searched her
face, but what he sought was not there, could never be there. He accepted her
compassion with a wisdom that was born when Memned’s neck broke beneath his
hand. “Speak as my pulse would, Ti Faen. I will not challenge the beat of
truth.” “Ryth was in her mind,” said Faen, not using Memned’s name,
for to do so would be to call her shadow. “Mindlink is a moment rarely known by
Malians, but it exists nonetheless. Do you believe my words?” Unconsciously, Lekel touched his forehead where pain had exploded
at a single look from a Sharnn. “I believe.” “The Sharnn saw her memories with her own eyes—tere and
zamay, night and wind, Creamstone and Gold.” “I believe.” “Tere leaves were the scarlet of flowing blood, zamay like
my eyes at dawn and the night wind tasted of desire.” “I believe.” “All that and more she saw, felt, tasted. But in the
crescent room, she saw only four of the thirty-nine shades of cream.” Lekel stared off into a distance that existed only in his mind.
There, memories and desires and regrets locked in painful battle. Not once did
he look at the dead woman lying at his feet, for she existed now only in his
mind and in those few of the thousand moments they had shared. “As blind as a Vintran,” Lekel whispered to himself. “She
and I together. Blind.” His eyes focused again on the living woman who had cast a living
shadow. The resemblance was so great that his throat closed around feelings he
could never acknowledge, for his dead wife was surely a Vintran. “I believe.” For many moments, only purple shadows moved, coiling and
reforming with each shift of tapestry and light. Lekel watched without seeing,
watched as though he would never see again. Then his eyes focused on the
Sharnn. “The Gint’s answers are yours, Ti. They have always been
yours, haven’t they? May they comfort you more than my answers comforted me.” “I am honored,” said the Sharnn. Lekel laughed curtly. “By a Malian without eyes?” Faen flinched and looked away from the ruins of a pride she
could have loved and once had hated and now would have to remember until she
saw his moment of death and he became a shadow whose name she could never call. The Sharnn heard her call Lekel’s name in her mind and took
one step that brought him closer to both of them. “Vintrans were Malian once,” Ryth said over Faen’s silent
cry. His eyes, strangely luminous against the shadows, compelled Lekel’s
attention, as did the cape swirling, alive with light. “What shame is there in
marrying a woman who once was a Malian?” Anger hardened the k’m’n Sandoliki’s face, then anger
drained into humility. “I’ve earned your mockery.” “I am not mocking you.” The Sharnn’s eyes were like
shattered green crystal in the thick light. “It is your guilt toward Vintrans
that makes you despise them. Vintrans are no less than Malians. Had your dead
wife been raised under this culture, this sun, she would have learned minute discriminations
among tints and tones. But she was not, did not and so you who have been
blessed count your thousand moments and despise her few. “You hate Vintrans because you know that you, too, could be
twisted and flattened into Vintra’s limited mold.” “Never! Malians are—” “No different!” The Sharnn leaned forward, poised, and his
cape hissed, underlining each word. “There is no irrevocable genetic difference
between Vintrans and Malians. They are the same!” Faen looked from one to the other, trying not to think about
the truth of Ryth’s words, for she was Malian, and the best she could feel for
Vintrans was pity. Yet she knew the Sharnn was right, there was no real difference,
none, and part of her wept for the shadow lives of all Vintrans. Lekel stood braced as though to receive more blows. He
turned to Faen almost imploringly, but there was no comfort in her pale turquoise
eyes, no shelter from the truth. She sketched a t’sil’ne phrase in the air
between them. “The Sharnn is right,” she said softly. Only Ryth sensed the cost of those four words, only he knew
of the silent tearing deep within her as she acknowledged blood kinship with a
people she loathed. Lekel had no response to her truth. He had learned too much,
too quickly, and none of it pleasing. The present had more cutting edges than a
m’vire, and the future promised worse, but the past—the past was his, always, unchanged
and unchanging, charged with the Malian imperative of darg vire. “You will lead me to the Gint, n’ies?” Faen stretched out her hand, stopped just short of touching.
“N’ies. I will lead you.” It was the only comfort she had to offer, for the k’m’n
Sandoliki had lost more today than even she could find. “N’ies, Ti Lekel.” The Sharnn’s body jerked and his hands flew to his temple.
“His hair,” grated Ryth. “Do you still have the Gint’s hair?” “Yes,” answered Faen. “Why—” “The Access. Both of you. Now!” “But—” began Lekel. The Sharnn swept both of them onto the platform. Blue energy
leaped up to meet them, surrounding them with cold light. Deep inside their bodies
something lurched once, twice, and they fell/soared for an endless instant
until the galaxy shimmered and spat them out on a distant Access platform. “Regrets, k’m’n Sandoliki,” said the Sharnn, releasing
Lekel. “We had little time.” “And you used every bit of it,” said Kayle, walking into the
room. His mahogany skin glowed richly in the pale tangerine light of an alien
sun. “You’re a hard man to reach, Sharnn. Seven mindlinked Carifil barely
dented your awareness.” He looked at Faen and Lekel disapprovingly. “Ryth
insisted that you finish your discussion/argument/realization without being disturbed.” The Sharnn smiled slightly, but his eyes were cold. “The moment
was Malian. They either understood Memned’s nature then or not at all.” He
glanced around the room, assessing its shape, the style of its furnishings,
and, most of all, the distinctive quality of its light. “Centrex.” Kayle stared at the Sharnn, wondering how Ryth could recognize
a planet he had never seen before. “And that,” Ryth added, looking at a transparent cube that
was taller than he, “must be the Carifil omnisynth.” “One of them,” agreed Kayle. “How did you know?” “There’s no other way Faen can track the Gint.” “Your logic eludes me,” sighed Kayle. “The omnisynth’s major
function is information synthesis. Its minor function is coordinating the Accesses.” “I know.” Ryth glanced around once more, then asked, “The
Council?” “Fighting Vintra’s representative. Even now, molecular fire
is poised.” Kayle looked uneasily at Lekel. “If the Council knew that both
Malian Sandolikis were off-planet—” “If the Council knew anything at all,” said Ryth coldly, “it
would not matter where the Sandolikis were.” Kayle snapped his fingers. “It would have been easier with
Memned alive. Once she admitted to them that she was—” He stopped and looked warily
at Lekel. Lekel gestured curtly. “She was Vintran.” “You knew?” hissed Kayle. “You knew and didn’t suspect that
she was undermining Malia by seeming to destroy Vintra?” “I knew nothing, then,” Lekel said with deadly quiet. “I
refused to see beyond her resemblance to Faen. I was a willing fool.” Kayle’s skepticism was plain. “Is it possible for a Malian
to make such a mistake in discrimination?” The Sharnn laughed softly. “Possible? It’s inevitable. If
you believe that every Vintran is somehow as clearly marked as gint in
sunlight, then you will certainly fail to identify Vintrans when you meet them
on Malia, without marks.” “I wish the Council believed that. But they believe Malia’s
representative and she insists that a Malian could not marry a Vintran.” “Not knowingly,” agreed the Sharnn. Kayle’s body rippled in an expressive gesture of angry
frustration. “Nor can the Council believe that a Malian can’t recognize a
Vintran?” “Would they believe me?” asked Faen. “Or Lekel?” Kayle’s eyes deepened into burnt orange. “No, sri Faen. They
assume you will say anything to survive.” Faen radiated sudden danger, like a beast crouching and
switching its tail. But her voice was uninflected and smooth. “I do not lie or cringe or lick dirty fingers for a few more
moments of life. Nor does Ti Lekel. We are Sandolikis.” “The Concord Council,” said Kayle tiredly, “won’t believe—”
He stopped, appalled at what he saw leap inside her pale eyes. “ “The Concord Council will believe whatever comforts them,”
said Ryth, touching Faen with a sliding caress that stilled the wildness behind
her eyes. “But I ... suggest ... that Malia not be destroyed before we find the
Gint.” Though the Sharnn did not say or do anything, Kayle felt suddenly
chilled. “Is that a threat?” he asked bluntly. Ryth smiled like a Sharnn and said nothing. Faen’s thin question separated the uneasy silence. “How much
time does Malia have?” Reluctantly, Kayle looked away from the Sharnn. “No one
knows. Carifil—and a few Council members—are fighting against Vintran demands.” “And losing,” Ryth added coolly. With a motion that belled his umber robes, Kayle swung back
to face the Sharnn. “Yes. Primary proscription was enforced earlier than we had
expected.” “But you’re not surprised,” said Lekel, contempt lacing his
voice. “Malia is not well liked among Concord planets.” Kayle turned so that he faced both the Sharnn and the k’m’n
Sandoliki. “If Malia had not been so closed to the Concord, you would have been
given much more tolerance. And time! It is easier to kill strangers than to
kill a people you have lived among, shared laughter and salt and children—” “Galactics,” interrupted Lekel calmly, “have no moments
worth a Malian’s time.” “A matter of opinion,” said Kayle curtly. “Only to a Galactic.” Kayle hissed his anger. “Has nothing penetrated your arrogance?
Don’t you know that—” “Enough,” said Faen coldly, remembering when purple shadows
had coiled and choked Lekel with unwanted knowledge. “By what right do you
demand a Sandoliki’s moment of humility?” “I am trying to help.” “Then get your foot off his throat!” “I never thought to live the moment,” murmured Lekel,
turning to her, “when the Sandoliki Ti Faen stood with her back to mine,
fighting my attacker.” He made a flowing gesture of gratitude that was as
graceful as his tone was bitter. “The moment was almost worth the discoveries
that preceded it, Faen. Almost.” “I regret,” said Faen softly, her voice husky with
then-futile past, “much that has happened between us, Ti Lekel.” “But,” Lekel said, without accusation, “you would change
none of it.” “I am what I am. Even now, I cannot touch you.” Lekel closed his eyes; his handsome face seemed to blur,
then settled into new planes of acceptance. “And I regret—ah, little sister,
how much I regret!—that moment when I tried to force you. Had I not driven you
off Malia—” Lekel held out his hands, palms up, mutely asking
forgiveness. Without hesitation, Faen stretched out her hands, palms down over
his, so close but not touching the warmth of his flesh. “I once blamed you for what I had become,” Faen said, “for
cutting me off from my shared Malian moments. But a Sharnn taught me that what
I became was as inevitable as dawn.” She searched Lekel’s perfect Malian face
with eyes that were ice blue in the alien light. “I will give you the Gint,
older brother. It’s all that I can give you.” Ryth felt the regret in her voice and would have touched
her, but the only touch that could have eased her sorrow was Lekel’s, and that
touch was beyond bearing. He watched her slim hands hover just over the long
fingers and hard wrists of a man she had almost hated and nearly loved. As though at an unseen signal, their hands slowly moved
apart. At the last instant, Faen allowed one fingertip to brush the pulse
beating beneath the skin of Lekel’s wrist. So great was her control that only
Ryth knew the anguish that exploded through her at the touch. Then, as though
she had done nothing extraordinary, Faen turned and spoke calmly to the Sharnn. “I’ll need maps.” Ryth indicated the tall cube with a glance. “That’s the
known galaxy in three dimensions. All you need is a guide.” “That’s not a room computer,” said Kayle dryly. “It is
incredibly complex. Five linked Carifil—” Kayle stopped, then snapped, “Have
you used an omnisynth before?” “No,” said the Sharnn. Then, smiling. “All my life.” “Sharnn is another word for impossible!” Kayle said with a
sound of disgust. “All right, pattern-man, I won’t even give you a single suggestion
about the ways to use an omnisynth.” “And you hope it scrambles my brains.” “It can’t scramble what isn’t there. When you’ve failed,
I’ll link you to the five who might be able to help you.” Ryth laughed softly. “Be ready to shut down Accesses, my
skeptical friend.” Faen waited, apparently not hearing, showing neither fear
nor anticipation in her pale eyes, merely the patience of a predator. In her
hands was the misa bag she had taken from a pocket in her turquoise robe. The
crimson bag seemed to shimmer and burn in the alien light of Centrex. She
watched, slowly turning the bag on its cord, as the Sharnn went to a small,
sharply curved alcove close to the transparent cube. The alcove walls were
translucent and absolutely flawless. Behind them was part of the omnisynth’s
machinery, only a small part, for the omnisynth ran beneath the planet’s crust
like a tideless sea. There were neither wires nor attachments in the alcove,
simply an allform chair covered by totally light-absorbent cloth. All of the
Sharnn’s contact with, and all of his control over, the omnisynth would come
from an energy net created between himself and the machine. Ryth sat in the chair and waited until it adjusted into a
semi-reclining position that did not inhibit his view of the cube. When he was
so comfortable that he no longer was aware of his body, light began seeping
into the alcove. First came the long wavelengths, colors so dark they were
heard as much as seen. Yet Kayle knew by the rapid progression through the spectrum
that the omnisynth was satisfied that Ryth’s eyes were discriminating among
colors that did not exist for any but the Malian race of man. Kayle glanced at
Faen, at her rapt face and motionless body, and he realized that she was inside
the Sharnn, seeing with his eyes ... or he with hers. Or even both, a fusion of
complements that created new abilities and insights. “They’re together, aren’t they?” said Lekel quietly. “Such a small word for what—yes, they’re together.” “That’s a moment I’ll never know.” “Not with Faen,” agreed Kayle softly. “Not with any woman.” “You have many maturities to search.” “Many maturities.” Lekel’s lips twisted in what could have
been a smile. “And no more moments.” The cube blazed with a soundless tumult of colors, colors
sleeting across all visible squares and shards of light that had no name in any
language. Kayle started for the alcove, then realized that whatever he could do
was too late. He looked from Ryth to Faen, but saw nothing on their faces,
neither agony nor pleasure nor even the least awareness that the silent
explosion of colors had been unusual. The only difference he saw was that the
Gint’s hair now was out of the silk bag and tangled between Faen’s fingers. Kayle muttered the eighteen names of a Nendleti god, and
stared intently at the cube. After many long minutes of watching colors run and
leap and pour over shapes half-melted, barely revealed, Kayle quit trying to
make sense of the omnisynth’s display. At that moment a man’s masked face shimmered in the cube.
Gint marks flashed and black-green eyes seemed to see through the universe into
a single room lit by the radiance of a Malian fused with a Sharnn. Both Lekel
and Kayle unconsciously assumed a fighting stance in response to the message in
the Gint’s restless eyes. Then the Gint faded, leaving only a nebulous glow of
gint marks and the memory of malevolence condensed into two staring eyes. Kayle could not control a primal shudder, but Lekel leaned
forward, fingers outstretched and curving, yearning for his enemy with a desire
greater than any lover’s. “Not Vintra,” said Faen, her voice oddly changed, almost doubled,
as though she spoke through two throats to make a sound like the echo of
harmony. “Not Malia. He is—” The colors in the cube pulsed and twisted, impressionistic,
suggestive, surreal, evoking desiccation and brittle cold and black sky ablaze
with a billion perfect stars. Along the side of the cube closest to the Sharnn,
numbers appeared, more densely packed than stars, each number a Concord planet
code. “Magenta sun ... like a sea lapping horizons ... sunrise at
the end of time.” Even as magenta light washed through the cube, numbers vanished,
planets whose sun was not the exact color seen by Faen/Ryth and the timeshadow
memory of the Gint. Kayle watched numbers vanish with each impression/evocation
of temperature and wind and gravity and pressure. Without looking away, he
unwrapped his re-focused psitran and smoothed it into place. When the numbers diminished
to thirty, he silently alerted the Carifil who were going to pursue the Gint
with Faen/Ryth’s unwitting help. Through Kayle’s eyes the Carifil watched,
poised, waiting for a single number to remain on the face of the omnisynth. Eight numbers. “—black ice streaked by the crushed bones of long dead animals
and sand like powdered tere in moonlight—” Seven numbers. “—small, so small, and perfect. Like silk and zamay petals
soft-slippery, growing low—” Five. “—and smelling of sunlight trapped millennia ago, a whole living
floor tight with spines—” Even as a number faded, the cube convulsed with colors. “Gone. Away. So far, agggh!” Faen jerked and staggered. “Heavy!” she groaned. “Too—” Numbers flashed, only to be lost in another convulsion of colors.
Faen muttered and forms condensed, exploded and condensed again. Kayle swore in
the hissing phrases of Nendlet. “He’s jumping all over the kerdin galaxy,” snapped Kayle in
answer to Lekel’s fierce question. “How could he know? How?” But no one answered, for the only Sharnn in the room was immersed
in the omnisynth and had not heard. “Four,” murmured Kayle. “Five.” Colors pulsed, slowed, began to condense into forms. Then
the forms shattered into yet more colors. “Six.” Kayle’s muscles bunched. “He’s got to be near his
limit.” The light in the room flared through every possible mutation
of yellow. “Seven.” And every manifestation of green. “Eight I don’t—” And blue. “Incredible!” Slowly, other colors seeped into the cube, other sensory impressions.
Lekel glanced impatiently at Kayle. “What—” “The Gint went through nine Access shifts,” interrupted
Kayle without looking away from the cube. “Now his synapses are overloaded.
He’s resting on some planet.” Lekel smiled slowly. “Soon his flesh will be mine.” “Maybe. If his recovery time is fast, he’ll jump before we
identify the planet.” “And then?” Broken rainbows bled thickly over the half-shape,
half-shadow of a man. “We wait until he clogs his synapses again—and hope we’re
faster than his recovery.” “How long?” demanded Lekel. Slowly, two dark ellipses condensed In the cube, two
black-green shapes almost like eyes. “I don’t know,” hissed Kayle impatiently. “It depends on his
strength. And theirs!” For the first time since Faen had touched him, Lekel looked
at her. His Malian glance detected fine lines of strain around her blue-white
eyes and perfect lips, but he could not see if Ryth was similarly affected; the
Sharnn was all but concealed by the radiance that twisted through the alcove.
With a last long look at Faen, Lekel turned back to the cube. “How,” said Lekel, low-voiced, “did the Gint know he was being
followed?” Irritation and strain made Kayle’s naturally husky voice
almost raw. “I don’t know. I don’t seem to know anything important, least of
all how Ryth or Faen or Ryth/Faen have turned that omnisynth into a magic window!”
Kayle made a sharp sound of frustration. “Regrets, Ti Lekel. You aren’t the
only one asking me questions.” Eyes, wholly black now, restlessly searching, sliding over
the people in the room as though they were invisible. “—hot-orange dust—and cinnamon-tasting-oily air, sticking,
rolling—” Colors jerked and ran together as the Gint made yet another
Access shift. “We think,” said Kayle slowly, sorting through the many
voices in his mind, “that the Gint has enough psi to know that he is being
followed, but not enough to know that the pursuit is mental.” “So?” “So the Gint is wearing himself out with multiple Access
shifts—” Silver bubbled up and shattered into lime triangles streaked
with ice. “—when one shift at a time, then a rest—” Pale sand with golden spheres melting into crescents that
drained into mocha .. “—would work just as well.” Like pictures snapping through a child’s learning wheel,
colors flickered and changed. “Seven,” Kayle said. “Remarkable stamina.” “He’ll wear out his reflexes.” “All the easier for us.” “I don’t want him weakened,” hissed Lekel. “I wouldn’t touch
an enemy who was less than whole.” “Don’t worry,” interrupted Kayle angrily when colors whirled
yet again. “His recovery time is as extraordinary as his stamina. By the moment
they corner him, if they corner him, the Gint will be rested and ready to fight.” What Kayle did not say was that nine Carifil would reach the
Gint first. Lekel murmured a Malian phrase and smiled. “It will be satisfying
to carve permanent gint marks on his forehead.” Reds surged, peaked and washed back in a slow fountain of
pulsing color. Drops flew away, darkened, ran into viscous pools of black, two
pools, eyes straining outwards toward an enemy sensed but never seen. “Light,” said Faen/Ryth’s voice, speaking another man’s perceptions,
“so light floating and-my-head-so-light!” A masked face appeared, blurred; neither alien backdrop nor
numbers identifying planets accompanied it. “What’s wrong?” said Lekel. “Probably his nervous system is too overloaded to respond to
anything less than an extreme environment. And what he doesn’t sense, she can’t
relay. Or,” added Kayle grudgingly, “Faen could be tiring. Or Ryth.” He stared
as though he could will the cube into focus. “No one has ever used the
omnisynth this long, or with such excruciating finesse. If only—” “Yes?” urged Lekel softly. “If only she could tolerate a mesh,” said Kayle with a harshness
that surprised Lekel. “We have Carifil who could pour strength into her. Into
them.” “She is a Sandoliki. She will endure until the enemy is
dead.” Kayle made a cutting gesture. “They both already have
endured more than either of us could guess.” “Of course,” said Lekel calmly. “They are the Sandolikis
Ti.” Suddenly, gint slashes radiated out from the center of the
cube. His tightly masked face focused into rectangles and squares dominated by
penetrating eyes. “—blue.” Colors jerked once, twice, three times; his eyes appeared
again, glazed, unable to see beyond half-open lids, the eyes of a man exhausted
or utterly mad. For long minutes there were only those eyes and spinning colors
that slowly congealed into outlines suggesting clouds or ocean waves. “Thin and dry,” Faen/Ryth said, echo of harmony, haunting.
“Moonstones and wind calling through white amber vines.” The cube became tone on tone of white and near-white, beige
and cream and sand and the Gint standing like a shadow against the pale land.
Down one face of the cube, numbers appeared, as thick as the sensations
flooding over the Gint. *—sweet-musk-and-lightning-smoke—* No numbers vanished, for even an omnisynth and a Sharnn
could not penetrate with any certainty the truth inside the Gint’s sensory
storm. The voice of Faen/Ryth became ragged, dissonance instead of harmony,
eerie and oddly moving. “Tired. Rest. Just one moment. Smell sun-smoke hurts.” Half the numbers vanished. Kayle’s breath hissed with expectation
and Lekel’s body flexed, but neither spoke, for neither wanted to miss the
words spoken by her/his frayed and lovely voice. Blue-white light sleeted through the cube as the unknown
planet’s sun appeared from behind a passing ice cloud. The Gint’s eyes winced
shut, but Faen/Ryth had already seen more than either could put into words. “Sun. So potent. To live flattened beneath that brutal light.” More numbers winked out. The face of the cube was not
crowded anymore. “And the smell of lightning over a city made of glass.” All but fifteen numbers vanished. “Sliding wind song, higher, always higher, keening while
white birds soar with black beaks open to the sky.” Thirteen numbers. “Cold and thin like high mountain air, but the glass city is
low, crouched between plain and white-rolling sea.” Six numbers. “Saffron river, rigid above and coiling below, fanning through
pale tundra and the sweet-musk-lightning smell of crushed vine, a perfume like
no other—” The cube went black as all but a single number faded. With a
ragged sigh, Faen let the Gint’s golden hair drift to the floor. As though she
were wading through syrup, she went to the alcove, where iridescent light no
longer played. She knelt and laid her forehead against Ryth’s arm. He neither
moved nor spoke. Nor did he have to; their minds were still one. Silently, Kayle demanded to know what had happened. He met a
wall of resistance that he knew could not be breached. “Sharnn!” he cried. “Do
you have him?” “Yes ...” “Where?” demanded Kayle. “Where they make the most exquisite perfume in the galaxy.” “Zamir!” The Sharnn laughed hoarsely, as though his body had
had all the humor squeezed out of it. But his voice spoke of strength returning.
“Zamir,” he agreed. Ryth and Faen flexed their bodies, restoring circulation
with the subtle rhythms of faal-hnim. To Kayle’s critical eye, it was clear
that both of them were drained by their manipulation of the omnisynth and the
timeshadow of the Gint’s mind. But even as Kayle watched, their movements
became more integrated, more fluid. “How long,” asked Kayle quietly, “before you’ll both be able
to identify the exact location of the Gint on Zamir? The Carifil tell me that
there are at least twelve personnel Accesses on the planet, as well as
excellent surface transportation. The longer we wait, the further from an
Access he can run.” The Sharnn seemed unconcerned. With no haste, he and Faen
and Lekel walked to the Access platform. While Kayle waited for them to mount,
a feeling of unease grew in him. Then he realized that they were standing together,
and he guessed the truth. “You aren’t going to let me come, are you?” Kayle asked
tightly. “No one and no thing can get off Zamir by Access,” said the
Sharnn calmly. “And only three people can get on. Regrets, Ti Kayle.” “Why?” Kayle said angrily. “Why won’t you let us help?” “You have. You will again,” said the Sharnn. “But first,
Lekel must have his moment.” “You’re insane. If Lekel should miscalculate and kill the
Gint before he talks to the Council, Malia is lost! You’re betting an entire
planet on one man’s skill.” “I know.” The Sharnn’s voice was hard. He made a gesture of
odd helplessness and said too softly, “But not the man you think.” “And you do it anyway,” hissed Kayle. “Why?” Faen turned with a suddenness that fanned her turquoise
robes. For the hundredth time, Kayle realized that she was a Malian—and even
more dangerous than that, a Sandoliki. “It is Ryth’s kirl gift to me.” Kayle stared at her, unbelieving. “A marriage present? You asked a planet for a
marriage present?” He turned back to Ryth. “I can believe the arrogance of a
Malian Sandoliki in asking, but I can’t believe the arrogance of a Sharnn in
giving! What right do you have to risk a planet as a gift?” Lekel’s voice, cool and amused, cut across the silence. “Why
should it matter to you who risks Malia? Or why? Your beloved Concord condemns
Malia to kh’vire’ni, death without honor, and you spread your hands in acceptance.
Yet when the Sandoliki Ti Ryth offers Malia kh’vire, you wail like a gutted
skavern.” Kayle’s orange eyes moved over the three of them, then centered
angrily on Ryth. “Are you sure, Sharnn? Is there a pattern in this beyond
disaster?” “There are always patterns, even beyond disaster.” But the flatness of Ryth’s voice gave Kayle no comfort. Faen
touched the Sharnn’s wrist with a delicate fingertip. “Kayle cannot understand,
laseyss. Malia is ours to risk, not the Concord’s. Ours to destroy. Ours to
create. That is the meaning of each Malian moment.” Her fingers lifted and moved in liquid t’sil’ne that almost
caressed the Malian perfection of Lekel’s body. “If I could accept your seed, Sandoliki Ti Lekel,” she said
softly, her voice resonant with echoes of ancient ritual, “I would, duty and
pleasure combined that your greatness not be lost to generations unknown.” Lekel’s face changed as he tried to conceal what her words
gave back to him. And then he smiled as though for the first time, or the last,
and Kayle stared unbelieving; he had not known that a man could be so beautiful “I release you from all duties, little sister,” said Lekel,
his voice like zamay. “All our moments are numbered, all named. When we meet
again, it will be for the first time.” Lekel’s fingers flickered through a t’sil’ne phrase that
almost touched her. The motion was too fast for Ryth to read, but not for Faen.
Though her eyes darkened, her smile matched Lekel’s in beauty. Before anyone could move, Lekel leaped onto the platform and
vanished in blue fire. Kayle made a futile motion, then accepted what he could
not change. “How will he find the Gint?” asked Kayle with a calm that
did not conceal his rage. “The Gint is waiting for him where the river joins the
white-rolling sea,” Faen said, her eyes focused inward on a shadow memory. “You warned the Gint,” said Kayle, statement rather than question. The Sharnn seemed abstracted, as though absorbed by an inner
argument. “Warned?” said the Sharnn, “Yes, a long time ago, before I
knew Faen.” “Make sense, Sharnn!” hissed Kayle. “Will the Gint run?” “He chose to fight, though he did not know it then, nor whom
he would face.” The tangible grief in Ryth’s voice only angered Kayle more.
“Spare your Sharnn tears. The Gint does not deserve them!” “Are you sure of that?” asked the Sharnn, his voice soft,
deadly. Kayle’s rage evaporated. “Teach me.” “There’s no more time.” Faen and Ryth leaped onto the platform. Just as blue energy
surged, Faen’s fingers moved in a t’sil’ne phrase that comforted Kayle, though
he did not know why or how. Zamir’s air had the keen edge of a fighting knife, but neither
Faen nor Ryth was bothered by it. Ryth’s cape protected him; her senses were so
overwhelmed by the smell of white amber vineyards that she could feel nothing
else for a moment. The Sharnn oriented himself with a glance. The solar
extraction factories glittered to his left, the ice-rimmed sea to his right,
and the vineyards all around, but for one coiling line where a yellow river
gnawed through ice to the sea. Though it was midday, the sky overhead was
blue-black with bleak stars glinting down. Faen shivered, drawing her robes more closely around her. In
the nearly monochrome landscape, she stood out like a turquoise exclamation
point. Ryth, however, was nearly invisible in his baffling Sharnn cape. The
cape stretched out, surrounding Faen and pulling her close, warming her, while
Ryth’s eyes searched. Then he saw a vivid stroke of orange along the margin of
the river. Lekel was running lightly, rapidly, though scarlet streaked his
orange shirt. “I don’t see the Gint,” said Faen, straining forward. “Did
he run from us after all?” “No,” said Ryth, remembering a twilight Vintran alley where
an invisible shadow had moved, slitting throats. “Sometimes he’s very hard to
see.” There was pain in the Sharnn’s voice, a bleakness to equal
the sky. It was as though a pattern that had begun with many possibilities had
narrowed into a single grotesque strand. Faen turned to him but though she was
standing within his arms, he was almost invisible to her. Only his eyes escaped
the muffling, changing cape, his eyes so like a Malian spring, with shadow currents
sliding deep within. “I lost,” he whispered bitterly. “I conceived too late, and
lost your planet.” With an abruptness that startled her, Ryth pulled away and
leaped off the open platform. He ran down the curving river path so quickly
that she could not close the distance between them, only keep it from growing
any greater. He did not answer her mindcalls. All around, white amber vines
writhed, taking hard light and air and ice and transforming them into a single
overwhelming perfume. The compelling smell of white amber permeated their
clothes, their skin, their flesh, as inescapable as a Malian’s revenge. Or a
Sharnn concept. A cry tore through the vines, a scream that slid up the
scale in one long ululation. Lekel’s orange shirt swung and jerked as though he
were fighting his own shadow. Faen could not see the Gint, though Lekel’s vire
cry told her the prey must be near. *Ryth—!* The urgency of her need penetrated his shields. She was too
focused on Lekel’s cry to realize that the Sharnn’s mind was raw and cold and
deadly to anyone but her; she only knew he had finally heard her. *Can we reach him in time?* she demanded. Though the Sharnn knew that Lekel would never ask for help,
he ran faster, until the neat rows of vines blurred. Ahead, Lekel spun and
leaped high, incredibly high, and his foot lashed out with lethal potential *I can’t see the Gint!* Faen’s frustrated cry went no further than her own mind
before she realized that she could not see Ryth, either, though she could hear
the staccato of his running feet. The shifting, flaring Sharnn cape perfectly
blended Ryth’s body into the writhing vines. *Can you see the Gint?* she demanded. *Sometimes,* he answered, the contact so thin that she wondered
if she had imagined it. *Show him to me,* she said, touching her knife. *Just once.* And in her thought was the knowledge and agony of Lekel’s
dying and the certainty of her own revenge. *No.* The Sharnn’s refusal shocked Faen. *His flesh is mine!* *No.* As they closed with the molten orange of Lekel’s clothes,
they could see half of the battle. Lekel’s half. A dance like wildfire in a
high wind, each surge capable of burning to the bone, but never making contact
before the invisible wind twisted away. Blood streaked Lekel’s clothes, slowed
his leaps, slurred the superb hues of his strength. Only his knife was
untouched. Unblooded. Instinctively, Faen watched the ground for unattached shadows.
She saw—or almost saw—the shadow, but knew that it would be nearly impossible
for one man to fight. And Lekel would not ask for help. Faen wondered how he had survived the uneven contest for
longer than its first instant. Unknowing, she cried encouragement to Lekel,
praising the brutal beauty of his skill. The shadow thinned, then fattened, and dust puffed up behind
Lekel. He staggered, turned with shocking speed and the pale sun burned on his
blade. He lunged, speed and grace and death, but the knife slid away. Lekel
sagged as blood poured down his body, warm and heavy and far too much. Two eyes shone darkly as the Malian and the Gint looked at
one another, killed and killer, bound in the terrible intimacy of death.
Silently Lekel slid to the frozen ground. A cold breeze parted the vines and then even the shadow vanished. But Ryth was there, bending over Lekel. “Where is the Gint!” Faen screamed. “Gone. As we agreed. Free.” Faen shuddered but did not protest; a Sandoliki keeps a bargain,
even with a gint. “What is he, Ryth?” The Sharnn’s eyes were green-black and as bleak as the grinding
sea. “I have conceived too much,” he said harshly, turning his back on her and
looking again at Lekel. The k’m’n Sandoliki was motionless beneath the red folds of
his clothes. Ryth looked at the blood congealing beneath the blue-black sky,
then he bent and picked up Lekel’s body with as much care as though the Sandoliki
could still feel pain or pleasure. When he passed Faen she reached out, but her
fingers touched only air, for she preferred the painful memory of Lekel’s
living beauty beating for just one moment beneath her fingertip. Around them white amber vines writhed silently, showering
their fragrance on substance and shadow alike. VIIIKayle looked from Faen to the Sharnn. Both had refused to
talk after their return from Zamir. Food and stimulants had restored their
strength, but the Sharnn’s eyes were darker, as though light moved less easily
through their green depths. “You lost your gamble,” Kayle said bluntly. Neither one answered. Nor was it necessary. They had
returned without the Gint’s answers. Vintra had won. Tomorrow Malia would die. Killed by a Sharnn. “You once told me,” said Kayle, staring at Ryth, “that there
were patterns even beyond disaster. Was that truth or merely a Sharnn evasion?” “It was true,” said Ryth wearily, “but Sharnn truth is not
the same as Sharnn concept.” “Then make it the same!” The Sharnn’s eyes became almost opaque with inner argument,
silent calculations that spun and leaped until all but he felt time passing on
the shadow wings of Malia’s approaching death. Suddenly the Sharnn’s whole body stretched until he stood
with legs and arms spread, fingers wide as though to grasp the impossible. The
room seemed to shift and slide, light wheeling around him, braided radiance
twisting until he stood as a still focus of spinning energies. Then he laughed, and they sensed echoes of light more beautiful
than light itself. A blink, and the room was normal, neither pouring light nor
transcendent echoes and each person again cast a shadow. Ryth spoke slowly, as though the need for urgency had
passed. “With Carifil help, how many minds can you mesh?” Kayle’s orange eyes sparked as they searched the Sharnn’s
strangely compelling face. “I don’t know,” said Kayle, his constricted voice
reflecting his bafflement at Ryth’s transformation. “Then talk to me about variables.” Kayle paused, looking into Ryth’s brilliant green eyes with
a feeling he could not describe. “Training and receptivity are the two
greatest. Given those, I could even join Faen with a Vintran.” Ryth ignored Faen’s shudder. “Good,” he murmured, and Kayle
felt absurdly pleased. Then, as though it were unimportant, the Sharnn added,
“Can Mim penetrate the Malian mindset now?” “Yes, with Carifil help. You taught us how, Sharnn, though
Memned was mostly a Vintran. What we learned enabled us to reach even you on
Malia.” Under Ryth’s calm, encouraging glance, Kayle expanded. “It’s a matter
of immense delicacy, of exquisite timing, of weaving among the intricate
rhythms, of ... of ...” Kayle stopped, spreading his hands. “There are no words
to describe it.” Ryth’s smiling lips moved and Sharnn phrases burned for an
instant behind Kayle’s eyes. “Yes,” said Kayle excitedly. “Yes! That’s exactly what happened!”
Then excitement oozed out of his voice as the phrases faded, leaving behind not
even an echo. “Just get them in the right mood, Sharnn, and I’ll mesh them.” “Hundreds?” said Ryth quietly. “Thousands? And more, many
more?” “No. Too dangerous. If we pass a certain threshold—and we
don’t know what the threshold is—we get Unity. No one can control Unity. It’s
the kind of chain reaction that is the fear of every psi.” “How is uncontrolled Unity dangerous?” “If it doesn’t disintegrate spontaneously, it bums out every
mind in the mesh.” Kayle’s eyes looked haunted. “Only a few people are unlucky
enough to survive.” Kayle’s eyes slid away from the Sharnn’s knowing gaze. The
fear of Unity was built into every psi at the level of survival reflexes, as
basic as pain. But the Sharnn was not every psi. “What are you planning, Sharnn?” asked Kayle, a curious mixture
of reluctance and excitement in his voice. “A Sharnn moment,” said Ryth softly. “The moment when we
either conceive of the impossible, or we die.” The Sharnn stood silently, waiting, as mysterious and compelling
as life itself. Faen’s fingers moved intimately, tingled with his response and
a shared moment that only a Malian could name. He smiled for her alone, but his
words were for Kayle. “We must convince the Council of what we know is true: Vintra
is sabotaging itself and blaming Malia.” “Only someone who understood—really understood—both cultures
could believe that. And,” the Nendleti added bluntly, “no one but a Malian understands
Malian culture.” “I do,” said the Sharnn. “So do you ... sometimes. So will
they. We’ll teach them, Kayle, you and I and Faen. And they will learn.” “Mindlink,” whispered Faen, guessing, disbelieving, appalled
at the very thought of such intimacy with anyone but the Sharnn. “Impossible,” said Kayle flatly. “Even with your pattern
skills, Malian culture is far too intricate to be taught in a gulp. The psi who
tried it would die raving like a zarf. Impossible.” “I have conceived it,” said the Sharnn simply. “And Faen
will help me.” Ryth leaned over her until his lips brushed hers, murmuring
Sharnn phrases that she suddenly understood. She cried out once, then his radiance
healed the pain of his words. “The sarsa,” she said slowly. Kayle’s eyes narrowed with uneasy speculation. “Teach me.” The Sharnn waited for Faen to speak, but she was lost within
herself and what he had asked her to do. “I conceived,” said Ryth hesitantly, searching for Galactic
words to equal Sharnn concept, “that the sarsa, touched by a supremely skilled
musician who has certain mental energies ... affinities with the sarsa’s
resonance spectrum and timeshadows ...” The Sharnn’s voice faded and he gestured
abruptly, frustrated by the limitations of a language that viewed reality very
differently than a Sharnn. He began again, simplifying to the point of insult. “The
sarsa can link minds, even mesh minds, below the level of awareness. It draws
energy through the link/mesh and uses that energy to create ... images. These
visual/aural/ mental resonances act as a force that meshes present minds with
the timeshadows of former minds, former ...” Ryth made an exasperated sound.
“Galactic is a very limited language,” he observed sourly. “Galactic alone is more complex than any nine languages together,”
said Kayle. “Only one language ever surpassed Galactic in complexity—the
language of the Singers.” “Did you understand anything I described?” asked the Sharnn
impatiently. “You plan to use the sarsa as an aid to linking/meshing the
untrained, probably unwilling, minds of the Council. You’re insane, of course.” Ryth shrugged, a muscular movement that was distinctively
Sharnn. “I suppose your understanding is complete enough for our purposes. Faen
will bear the brunt of the assault.” “I won’t be alone,” she said, her fingertips stroking the
sliding muscles of Ryth’s arm. “You will be with me, closer than my own blood.” “When?” said Kayle. “As soon as we can get the Council on Malia,” Ryth answered. “That will be difficult. The planet is under primary proscription.” “Tell the Council,” said Faen, “that they will hear Maran’s
Song played on the Sandoliki sarsa, Malia’s soul.” Ryth almost heard the questions hammering at Kayle, but all
the Nendleti said was, “The Carifil will convince the Council.” He fixed his
eyes on the Sharnn. “Do you know—really know—what you’re going to do to Faen?” The Sharnn’s face changed and it was as though he had never
conceived of laughter. Faen’s soft voice slid between their anger. “He has not hidden any patterns from me, Kayle. We have already
forgiven each other and ourselves. We are ready.” “To die,” sighed Kayle. His eyes brooded over Faen’s deceptively
fragile face and pale glowing eyes. “Are you sure, daughter? There is no need
for either you or Ryth to suffer and die.” When Faen finally spoke, her voice was husky with memories
and regret. “For many years I had the privilege of being Sandoliki Ti. Yet I
did nothing. I drank from Malia’s well and gave nothing in return. Not love,
not duty, not even gratitude. I owe my people a last chance, however small.” “If they knew the danger to you,” said Kayle, “if they knew
that we would allow you to survive Malia’s death, they would release you with
blessings.” “Yes. And that is why I must return to Malia.” Kayle’s eyes closed and the sense of hammering questions
ended. “As you will. It will.” When he opened his eyes and looked at Ryth, he
could not help but wonder how a man felt who asked his complement to undergo a
terrible dying. Then he saw darkness twisting deep within Sharnn eyes and
wondered no more. Kayle touched Ryth with gentle hands. “How can I help?” Ryth accepted the touch, returned it. “Teach my Sharnn curiosity
about Unity. Can the Carifil control it?” Kayle moved minutely, as though uncomfortable deep within
his mind. “Once, on a planet called Tal-Lith, Carifil ... guided ... a Unity
for a very short moment. But the people were uniquely focused. Their world was
melting around them and they thought they had seen their God.” Kayle shook off
the reservoir of Carifil memories that even now could make him shudder. “It’s
not an experience that Carifil want to repeat,” said Kayle. “But, as only the Councilors
will be involved, there’s no risk of Unity.” Faen looked at Ryth and knew ... and said nothing, for measured
against certain extinction, no risk was too great, not even Unity. The seamed face of Darg Vintra raced below the flyers. In
the lead flyer, Kayle and Mim sat silently, unmoving, appalled by the ruined
landscape and the rusty wind. “Now I believe,” said Mim, her low voice husky with unspoken
emotions. “A people who could do this could do anything.” “Vintrans were Malians once,” Faen said hollowly. Her
fingers clenched on Ryth’s thigh. “Once and always.” The thought of Vintrans still repelled Faen, an ingrained cultural
aversion nearly as strong as a survival reflex; Ryth lifted her hand and rubbed
her knuckles across his lips until her fingers relaxed. The land grimaced and bled shallow streams thick with rock
dust. Long shadow fingers crept out of blast furrows, a dark, soundless welling
that joined fingers to hands and hands to arms until the body of night
materialized over the destroyed land. In the distance, lit by the last direct light of Malia’s
incomparable sun, the ancient tere grove of the Sandoliki Estates leaped out of
darkness, a red flame burning against the blind welling of shadows. Faen leaned
forward, silver eyes drinking the silent cry of color. When the last ray faded
from the highest scarlet tree, she breathed the name of a moment. With new tranquility,
she leaned back, eyes closed, lips like two tere leaves curving around a white
flower. Neither Faen nor Ryth looked behind, where Carifil and Councilors
filled nine flyers. Since the flyers had sliced through the final high pass and
skimmed low over the face of Darg Vintra, none of the Carifil had spoken. After
seeing galaxies of silver insects glittering over blue-green zamay seas, after
being caressed by winds fragrant with desire and moist with promise, the
blasted face of Darg Vintra was shocking to the point of obscenity. While the flyers circled the living remnants of the
Sandoliki Estates, Councilors’ comments began to filter through the listener in
Ryth’s flyer. “—never believed—” “—after such beauty, too. Malia is the most beautiful—” “Did you say there was no warning before the molecular
fire?” “—died. Except for her, of course. I wonder if they were as
cold as she is, or half so beautiful. But then, all Malians are beautiful. Too
beautiful for—” “Darg Vintra? Vintra’s Revenge. It’s taken from the Malian
darg vire, meaning death vendetta. Remember her Ti Vire—” The Sharnn listened to summations of Malia and Malians, accurate
and inaccurate, but did not use his flyer’s override to comment; he wanted the
hideous contrast between Darg Vintra and Malia’s living beauty to seep into the
center of the Councilors’ minds. Only then could they begin to appreciate the
tenacious hold Malia had on the psyches of its people; only then could they
take the first minute step toward a grasp of Malian esthetics, a grasp that
would normally take several maturities—if it were possible at all. A grasp that he was going to attempt to teach them in the
space of moments. He would have help, of course. Faen and the sarsa, and Malia
itself, all her people, all of them seeing/hearing their Sandoliki sarsa. He
only hoped that Faen was correct, that the comnet built into the sarsa garden
would carry subtleties as well as tones, nuances as well as chords. And that
the Gint would hear and be held, a shadow caught in the intangible vise of
Unity. But that was only Sharnn hope. Not conception. Ryth rubbed his lips over the soft skin of Faen’s hand,
unaware that his grip had tightened. Even without that pressure she would have
known his mental unease, but other than a gentle return pressure on his lips,
she did nothing to disturb him. She knew that he had a separate peace to make,
a peace that included a shadow that he did not permit himself to name, much
less conceive, in the center of his mind. The flyer sideslipped down, down, until it was below the sudden
thrust of the Western Wall. The flyer knifed between ridges until it burst over
the tilted bench of land where Faen’s metal shelter crouched among golden
stones buffed by ages of sun and wind. The ten flyers landed as one. At the edge of the landing
site, shattered crystal made heaps of blue-black shadows that were shot through
with secret glimmerings. In the radiant twilight, a surviving crystal god
smoldered with turquoise mystery, wind-pitted eyes staring into a future that
never came. When Ryth and Faen stepped out of their flyer, the scarlet
bird called, high and sweet, piercing the gathering night. Faen paused, and her
lips shaped a flawless answer, a rising trill more haunting than twilight and
tere and shattered gods. The Sharnn bent over her, held her as though she were
twilight sliding through his fingers. Kayle led the Councilors down a path glowing with the phosphorescent
bells of blooming nightvine. The flowers’ subtle fragrance strengthened with
each step until the crushed petals underfoot were overpowering, almost narcotic;
no matter how penetrating the smell, the Councilors could not get enough of it.
Then the scent vanished, absorbed by living tere bark. The sudden change
brought both relief and regret, one of the myriad sensual paradoxes that was
the core of Malia’s unique appeal. Kayle led the Councilors into a towering
tere grove where dry leaves whispered underfoot and living leaves swept the sky
with separate fans opened against the first brittle stars. He stopped when he
reached the deserted courtyard where the sarsa waited. Wordlessly he gestured
to stone benches and gnarled tere roots carved into inviting curves. “The Ti Faen will not approach the sarsa until the third
moon rises.” The Councilors looked around the garden, eyes sliding off a
sarsa made nearly invisible by twilight. Tere leaves drifted down, still velvet
with recent life, a soft benediction with a fragrance like dawn. Though the Councilors
represented thirty-five planets ranging from the blue seas of Lirl to the fused
deserts of Verlael, each person was silenced, wordless, because no one had
words to describe the unique beauty of tere leaves and wind and twilight sliding
into night. The Councilors moved little, and then softly, as though the moment
and the night were exquisitely fragile. And then they moved not at all, for Malia could only be described
or felt in superlatives, excesses of hyperbole that finally left the mind
stunned and quiescent until another moment subsumed the first and surfeit
became wonder once more. Kayle watched them, measured their awe in their unnatural
stillness and the brilliance of their eyes. Nor did he disturb their
meditations, for he remembered his own first moments on Malia, his certainty
that he had been reborn into a world of infinite sensual possibilities. The
newness had faded with time, but not the fine edge of anticipation; that never
dulled, for Malia renewed wonder with each breath. C’Varial Ti rose, the first moon, a clear turquoise crescent
that towed behind it a second moon, a pearl half-circle whose rich glow equaled
that of the larger moon. As light from the two moons mingled and filtered
through tere leaves, the sarsa seemed to stir. Tiny glints, echoes of light,
movement unexplained yet certain, subliminal presence too tenuous to be known. As one, the Councilors turned and faced the sarsa. They
watched, unblinking, waiting for something they sensed but could not name. The third moon rose, a silver disc called C’Sarsa Ti, full
and flawless, pouring silver light down until a thousand silent facets blazed
and the sarsa split its husk of darkness. The soundless explosion of light was received by sighs of
pleasure and pain mingled. As though satisfied, the sarsa’s radiance dimmed
subtly, becoming a silent symphony in all the tones of silver. At that moment,
like a memory of a dream, the exquisite voices of tiny crystal bells chimed in
the tere grove. Faen walked into the moonlight, her feet soundless on worn
stones, her graceful body swaying just enough to make carved crystal earrings
cry softly. Kayle heard the tiny chimes and knew why she wore them, and
knowing, wept. Others wept, knowing only that the bells also cried. Ryth moved
behind the soft-ringing bells, his Sharnn cape rippling with a half-light
half-life that answered the sarsa’s gleaming silver. His fathomless Sharnn eyes
searched the courtyard, a single green glance that dismissed even as it
recognized that the enemy was not here, for he had heard chimes grieve for her
child, his child, the child who could die without knowing the moment of birth. He did not know if even Malia was worth the life of their unborn
child. Faen stopped in front of the sarsa and a pulse of light lit
her face. She stood unmoving, moonlight and sarsa glow tangled in her hair and
robes until both seemed alive with silver energy and her earrings burned with
light so pure it had no color, only presence. When she finally spoke, her voice
was an echo of that light and her earrings clashed and sparked, marking her
words. “You are not Malians, yet you will soon know Malia as few
ever have. You will know all our secrets, and the secrets of our deadly shadow,
Vintra.” The Vintran representative stirred and would have protested,
but the Sharnn looked at her and her words died unspoken. Faen’s arms lifted in a gesture almost like worship and her
fingers touched the sarsa’s shining crystal surfaces. Then fingertips sought
and found four slender m’sarsas. “In Malian, sarsa means soul, and souls always precede the
life that grows to recognize it. “This sarsa is older than the Sandoliki name we give it,
older than the Malian who named and numbered our first moment, older than the
stones worn smooth beneath your feet.” Faen breathed deeply and light shimmered. “What the sarsa gives to us, we give to it in return, and
then it returns to us In a cycle ever new, ever renewing. Each Sandoliki
creates changing yet changeless song, the echo of an individual being, an
individual soul realized in music. This song we give to the sarsa while
we live. This song the sarsa returns to our children when we die.” Ryth remembered a man’s song and a man’s shape condensing
out of moonlight. Remembering, he stirred, and the Sharnn cape curled around
his calves like liquid light. For the first time, Faen looked beyond the sarsa
to the waiting Councilors. Her eyes paused over Wys, the Vintran representative,
then moved on, searching for something she did not find. “You don’t understand, do you? Only Wys, and her
fifth-parents were Malian, once.” Tiny bells rang, fierce, impatient. “Some cultures have monuments to recall their past; some
have teachers or dreamers or machines; some even have gods. Malia has the Sandoliki
sarsa. It is the repository of Sandoliki memories, Sandoliki minds. “Tomorrow you will take all Malian lives. But tonight I will
give you Malia’s soul!” Faen’s arms dropped, sweeping the four m’sarsas across
crystal faces. Music shimmered in the clearing, complex resonances older than
tere or garden, older than sun-worn stones, ancient notes recalling the first
Sandoliki. It was a woman’s song, supple and savage with the certainty
of life. The, sound swelled, divided into separate harmonies,
children unfolding, growing and then a new song slowly consuming all others.
The longest crystal hummed with ominous resonance, dark harmonies shivered. The
clash of battle shook the sarsa and moonlight ran down long crystals like
ghostly blood. Cacophony faded into a new song, oddly thinned but still powerful:
a child, old beyond reason, strength and cunning of a savage mountain beast. Other
melodies flowed into the child’s swift rhythm and were consumed by his enormous
power. The longest crystal, the vire, shimmered vengeance and death. A
fully-grown man led lightning armies across the moonlight night. The song ended
in a crystalline shriek of agony. The vire crystal tolled the death of the
second Sandoliki ruler, then trembled into silence. High notes sighed into
separate songs, slowly forming, melody coalescing into a new generation. Ancient songs poured out, each different, each created by a
separate Sandoliki, summation of individual souls flowing in ghostly pageant. Some
songs were brief, cut off in first harmony, and for them the vire crystal
tolled and tiny crystals wept. But always there were more, sisters and
brothers, man and woman, children swelling into separate songs, fading beneath
the surer rhythms of the strongest of their generation as a new Sandoliki rose
to power and fought and lived and died while three moons arced across the outer
darkness. The songs subtly shifted range, quivered in eerie harmonics,
as Malians discovered other races could cross the darkness to new worlds, to
Malia. Concord scouts rode lightships to Malia, bringing seven more lives for
each living Malian, until children stood next to parents seven times removed. Until Malians were too many and moments were too few. A rogue Sandoliki rode a stolen lightship to other worlds
and found one, unnamed, a shadow of Malia where purple coiled and flowed. But to him, it was beautiful. But for him, it would have remained a shadow with no name. The vire crystal boomed as Malians killed each other in
endless duels, rolling thunder while crystals cried and sensuality sank into a
mire of flesh, t’sil’ne replaced by knives, too many people and too few
moments, shadow esthetics crowding out the thousand names of transcendence. Then a woman was born in a shower of perfect tones, a lilting
hope that began Maran’s Song, the forbidden song of Malia. Sandoliki Ti Maran, leader of the old race, mother of the
new, creator of a song that was known throughout the Concord for its torrential
power and exquisite nuance. Known, but not understood, for only Malians understood the
meaning of Maran’s Song, Malian secret, Malian shame, Malian flaw at the core
of perfection. Few artists could play Maran’s Song adequately on any instrument.
None but Maran had ever played it on the Sandoliki sarsa. And Maran had shared
her song only once, for all her people, an entire race focused in unknowing
Unity so that it might divide itself into substance and shadow, Malian and
Vintran, thereby saving one and perhaps the other. But the Councilors knew nothing except that for the first
time in Concord history aliens listened while the Sandoliki sarsa spoke. They
were completely caught, suspended in the space between notes as her four
m’sarsas called intricate music out of triple moonlight, each movement a sure
touch, each note a flawless aspect of the sweeping whole, Maran’s Song
cascading until their breaths sighed out unknowing and their blood surged with
Maran’s rhythms, Maran’s hopes, Maran’s triumphs, Maran living again in her
song and in them, timeshadow of her mind touching and links forming, deepening,
a mesh balanced by a Nendleti whose skill was as great as his fear. At the first breath of the Councilors’ linkage, the Sharnn
fused with Faen, saturating her mind with his presence as he saturated her
senses with his touch, protecting her from minds outside his own. He discovered more than just her mind held in the net of his
radiance. Each crystal note called another timeshadow, touched a past mind,
shadows and music and moonlight twisting, condensing, glowing woman-shape turning,
silver-eyed Maran, laughter and a timeless murmur of greeting as other shapes
shimmered, returning, called by Faen and the Sandoliki sarsa. It was then that Ryth realized that the sarsa braided
present and past, mind and timeshadow, drained a little life from one and a little
death from the other, eerie synthesis of energy and time. Maran’s Song soared on the wings of a thousand past minds,
ten thousand, and Malians again gathered in ghostly concourse, murmuring of
moments known only in legend, whispering of solutions known only in hope, addressing
everything but the name of a shadow found by a rogue Sandoliki. Maran stood and named the shadow, ignored its vices, called
each of its virtues with piercing notes, sang of uncrowded futures for all who
followed her to Vintra, moments beyond numbering, beyond naming. Half of the Malians came to her, half-Malians followed her
to half-life on a planet that contained every shade of madness known to Malian
senses. But Maran believed that a shadow could have substance, if only its name
were sung superbly, its shadow moments discovered and cherished, named, for,
once named, those moments would change perceptions until Vintra became more
real, Malia less so. Maran was almost correct, almost as great as her song. But
the new Vintrans lived too long; they remembered too well; they taught their
children too much about the planet they had left behind, the culture they could
not achieve, the perceptions that had become unattainable ... and the haunting
resonance of one thousand names, Malian moments Vintrans would never know. Maran died among the shards of her dream, pouring her life
over their merciless edges, but not enough life, not enough death, for the
shadow had been named and once named, became half-alive, half-aware, wholly craving. The vire crystal shuddered, shapes twisted, moonlight shook
with hatred as the sarsa exploded with undeclared war. Darg Vintra. Separate
songs leaped and shattered, songs truncated by the vire’s awful toll, genealogy
of song and Sandoliki death, death and hatred, hatred and black light blooming,
molecular fire and Ti Vire, Sandoliki song and death and hatred and death until
throttled screams tore each throat and the clearing felt the consuming pulse of
darg vire, hatred shared in common, Malian and Galactic alike. Too late Kayle realized that, just as Mim had learned from
the Sharnn the key to Malian mind patterns, the Sharnn had learned from her the
way to force minds into linkage. Now the Sharnn reached out in expanding concept,
sweeping up minds all over the planet, minds already focused on Maran’s Song,
Malia’s song, the song of their past and their only possible future. *Too many!*
screamed Kayle’s mind. *Too fast!* There was no response from the Sharnn’s driving mind, unless
it was the sarsa’s atonal cry as Faen’s hands jerked and m’sarsas chattered
across crystal faces. Shadows seethed. The fabric of reality tore.
Instinctively, Kayle poured himself into the dissolving mesh, mending rents
through which shadows leaped, craving. Faen steadied and the sarsa’s moonlit notes drove shadows
back, triple moonlight poured silver chords over smooth stone, harmony soaring,
binding mind to mind in triple intimacy of past and present and future. FUTURE ... ? Evolving Unity’s question echoed through the velvet night,
Unity shaped by sarsa’s clear energy, held by sarsa’s clear focus until Unity
stirred just once and Faen screamed and the scarlet bird shrieked with
Sandoliki agony as Faen withered beneath the consuming energy of Unity awakening. (Losing her.) (No!) (Let us help.) (Carifil?) (Yes.) (Take the Councilors. They blur us.) The impossible weight of Councilors vanished. The Sharnn
flexed, driving back Unity a mere fraction, a fragile margin where Faen sought
and found surcease from hammering intimacy, too many memories, too many fears,
too many hopes and lies and minds all hammering, clamorous, cacophonous in
their greed to speak and see and above all NOT DIE for they had heard crystal summation, chords of urgency and
despair and truth. Unity coalesced, still seething, becoming, controllable so
long as to focus did not falter, so long as Faen could call song on Sandoliki
crystal, guiding massed minds until she was no longer needed, or until she
broke beneath the freezing wash of intimacy, Unity. (Cold.) And Ryth stood behind her, body covering hers, fingers warm
over hands numbed by silver m’sarsas’ hum, pouring warmth into her exhausted
chill, giving her more than he had, more than he could conceive, because there
was no other choice but extinction. The Sharnn cape fanned out, licked
soundlessly against the brilliant sarsa as though seeking warmth, light, any
energy to power the driving need of two fused minds desperately warding off
Unity, for if the focus was subsumed, Unity would implode and crush all its
living minds. Sharnn cape clung, draining timeshadow energies until the sarsa
dimmed, past pouring itself into the present. The truth of sarsa music was not dimmed; it chimed unremittingly,
focusing. Maran’s Song had ended, its last chords blending into a
disintegrating Vintra, a two-dimensional race staggering toward a
three-dimensional extinction they could not understand, much less avoid. Unity listened. Its heavy center was now intelligent,
integrated, saturated. Only the edges seethed, finding and aligning new minds,
seeking completion in a dynamic process even a Sharnn could not conceive. But Ryth had conceived of the intelligent center, of living
minds able to sweep through the reservoir of knowledge held by each member to
find the solution to survival. Or at least to find what he had lost so many
years ago, on Sharn. Delicately, the Sharnn conceived of Vintra’s disasters,
disasters guided by a shadow with no name ... A clap of energy shook the clearing as Unity demanded individual
knowledge, the discovery of those minds who had conspired to kill Malia by
seeming to kill Vintra, individual acts of commission and omission that added
up to the death of a race. For Ryth/Faen knew that Memned and the Gint alone
could not have shaped Malian extinction. There must have been others, many others
who had helped, knowing or unknowing that it was toward Malia’s death they
labored. It was to find these minds that Faen had dared Unity. It was
in search of these minds that the sarsa poured out its eerie cry of hate and
betrayal ... these minds and one more, unnamed and unknown. Except to a Sharnn. Unity listened and decided. With the unflinching eye of necessity,
Unity examined each of its component minds for complicity. And found— One of Lekel’s advisors who had traded integrity for a few
tangled moments with Memned. It was he who betrayed Cy, Ninth Circle Assassin
and Lekel’s f’mi. When the compromised advisor became suspicious, Memned smiled
and touched him again, explaining that it was Vintra’s death she worked for,
Vintra’s extinction. Though the concept of extinction was anathema to Malians,
he believed her because he wanted to. And said nothing. Memned’s body servant who knew of the illegal Access, knew
Memned worked against the k’m’n Sandoliki and, knowing, did nothing, for Lekel
had refused to share a moment with her. Many guards who had many times seen Memned in Vintran
costume and looked away from her because they feared Lekel more than they loved
Malia. And more, too many more, found and weighed in a savage instant,
annihilated with a ruthlessness that appalled Carifil and Councilors alike. But
there was nothing the Carifil could do; it took all their strength and skill
just to withhold the Councilors from Unity’s consuming imperatives. Even while the last shockwaves of death quivered, Unity realized
that it had achieved only a fragment of its purpose; survival was not yet assured.
Carifil screamed against Unity’s decision, but Ryth/Faen smiled, guided, and
Unity came to Vintra like a thousand dawns, soundless and searing. For Vintrans were Malians once. And always. Now the edges of Unity were heavy, satiated, a whole people
ingested. Questioned. Now the vire crystal tolled for Vintrans, long rolling
thunder as mind after mind fractured beneath the demands of Unity. Thousands
died, each giving up a separate piece of the catechism of hatred, dream of
Malia’s death. (Enough!) But the Carifil cry went unheeded while Unity ransacked
minds, seeking an answer as whole as itself (No more!) and a retribution as complete as a Sharnn concept. COME TO ME SHADOW MAN Thousands more died, until the edges of Unity writhed, crumbling,
and shadows slithered up, muffling sarsa’s radiance, reaching for the driving
focus of Unity. The Sharnn cape thinned, surged impossibly wide, flaring
until the clearing was drenched with light. The sudden radiance left no hiding
places, even for a shadow. The Gint stood behind Faen/Ryth, limned against the darkness
of ancient tere. Faen/Ryth turned away from the sarsa to face the Gint while
Unity’s rage twisted through clearing and grove, wrenching apart light to reach
a shadow. The m’sarsas slipped and jerked in agony over the wrong crystals. The
spaces between notes became long, longer, too long, until even the vire’s
attenuated hum drained into silence. Unfocused, Unity heaved. People on two planets died
shrieking mindlessly. The Gint reeled beneath the backlash of Unity’s savagery.
His writhing cape blurred at the edges and he vanished but for dark eyes a
fraction closer to Faen/Ryth with every breath, every mindless death. Carifil demand was a scalpel among Unity’s axe blows, a
skilled slash that scored across Faen/Ryth, demanding. (Focus!) (But—Gint) (Now! Or Unity will kill you before the shadow can!) As though pulled in pieces, Faen/Ryth jerked back to the
sarsa. Ancient crystal cried arrhythmically. Then his hands covered hers and
strengths fused once more, seamlessly, a new whole. A song poured out, a song
never before heard, never played, never conceived until the moment Unity wrenched
apart light to reach a shadow. Faen’s song, sung by Sharnn and sarsa. It was not a song of rage and seeking and annihilation. It
was a song of completion, of two halves rejoined in a whole that could survive
better than either half alone. The song climbed through light and darkness and
distance alike, drenching the crumbling Unity with the timeless possibilities
of survival. The Gint clawed closer to Faen/Ryth while they poured their
energy into Unity’s flaws, filling spaces with music as the shadow came ever
closer, invisible but for black-green eyes and Ryth/Faen’s certainty that the
Gint crawled closer, for the Sharnn had conceived of everything, even death and
the shadow oozing closer to Ryth’s heels. Unity shuddered, enticed by the sarsa’s sweet chiming of Malians
and Vintrans rejoined, neither extinct, one people again, all past moments numbered
and named, meeting for the first time. Unity consummated. And two eyes sliding closer. (can you) Hand closing invisibly around a hidden knife. (no choice) Strong arms pulling a thick shadow closer. (just an instant) Killing knife’s silver smile. (yes go kill it) The Sharnn left Faen in a leap, spinning in mid-air while
his cape clung to his feet, turning away a knife’s killing smile. The knife
slashed upward, where the Sharnn would have been if he had not separated from
Faen. But even while Ryth leaped, Unity filled Faen’s margin.
Focus fractured. Faen was driven screaming to her knees and m’sarsas were
frozen in mid-stroke. The Sharnn was gone. Vanished. Like the Gint, Ryth had become a mere thickening of the air,
a subliminal sense of presence. But Ryth was even less accessible than the
Gint, for Ryth did not need eyes to see, eyes whose shine betrayed presence.
Memory and reflexes and faal-hnim became a low driving roll. His cape whipped
out, fastened onto the edge of shadow and yanked, tearing. Ryth’s knife
appeared, vivid in moonlight the instant before steel flashed beneath the edge
of the Gint’s invisibility, seeking and finding and burying its cold blade in
the center of warmth. The Gint’s scream was a thin and anguished sound echoed by
the sarsa’s atonal shriek until Faen and Ryth fused again, forcing chilled
flesh and cold crystal to create joyous song, a compelling explosion of music. With a blind reaching, Unity turned to the song, fragments
flowing together, bound by moonlight, shaped by music. For one terrible moment
Unity focused and saw/felt/knew that all survival imperatives had been met
except one. With vast gentleness, Unity dissolved. The m’sarsas slid from Faen’s numb fingers and clanged over
cold stone. She searched for warmth, for strength, for her other self, but he
was gone beyond reach of her eyes or mind. And then the Sharnn was visible, within reach, bending over
the Gint. She touched Ryth and moaned, unknowing, for the agony in his mind was
too great for anyone to bear. “Ryth!” She leaned toward him, arms reaching out, not touching.
“Ryth ...” Ryth did not hear her, for he was speaking in the spiral
phrases of Sharn poetry. And the Gint answered. The exchange took only moments, long enough for a man to
die. His outline writhed, slurring over light and darkness alike; then the Gint
lay dead inside the husk of a Sharnn cape. “Sharnn—” whispered Faen hoarsely. “It—He—Sharnn.” “Yes.” Ryth stood with the uneven motions of an old man. He glanced
down at the shadow now wholly visible, powerful even in death, black-green eyes
staring back at moonlight. The Councilors stirred, waking, saw a dead man and a
dimmed sarsa and three moons untouched by either Sharnn death or Malian
salvation. Wys walked slowly over to Faen, going around the dead man
who was the essence of Vintran hatreds. She did not give so much as a sidelong
glance to acknowledge the Sharnn who had died trying to make her people as complete
as a Sharnn concept. When Wys spoke, her voice was raw with knowledge she had
never wanted and still could not accept. “Vintra and Vintrans belong to Malia.
To you, Sandoliki Ti. I ask more mercy for my people than we would have given
to yours.” “T’mara’hki,” said Faen slowly. “Though you will never transcend
the shadow, your children might walk in three dimensions.” “My children will die on Vintra,” said Wys bitterly. “Only if you wish it. You are welcome to return to Malia.
All of you. It was your planet, once.” “But ... what is our punishment?” “Vintrans are not Malians. Do you need more punishment than
that?” Wys’s eyes darkened, but she said nothing. All Vintrans had
just enough of Malia left to appreciate and desire that which was beyond their
grasp: one thousand Malian moments, named and numbered and most of all lived.
Wys lifted her face to the triple moons and her Vintran eyes saw only grey
shapes. She breathed deeply, smelling nothing, and her skin felt only a single
texture of chill out of the eleven distinct textures of this night that any
Malian child could have named. But Wys’s mind sensed more, so much more, just beyond her
ability to grasp. With a cry she turned away from Faen’s compassionate silver
eyes. The rest of the Councilors followed Wys out of the garden,
feet soundless on worn stone. Though it was superfluous, they would return to
Centrex to pronounce Vintra’s guilt, Malia’s innocence ... and their own secret
agony that they were not Malians. As quietly as leaves, Mim and other Carifil began to gather
around the Sharnn. Each face showed lines of anger, exhaustion, and a need to
know that was greater than anything else. Silent questions pressed against the
Sharnn, questions that were both delicate and inexorable. Ryth looked up, his eyes flat and indifferent, his Sharnn body
revealing a weariness that went beyond simple exhaustion. When he looked down
again, even his Sharnn control could not mask his grief. “He was a great Sharnn,” said Ryth tonelessly. “But he conceived
only of shadows.” Ryth’s lips twisted in what could have been a smile but was
not. “Yet what a conception it was, my gint, my shadow. So nearly perfect. So
nearly complete.” Ryth looked up again, seeing nothing, no one. “He fell in
love with his conception, with Memned and her shadow life. He became captive to
Vintra’s hatreds, essence of shadow.” The Sharnn moved his hands suddenly and
his fingers gleamed blackly with his brother’s blood. “He died trying to make
shadow into substance.” Kayle walked closer, though he flinched at the possibilities
turning deep within Sharnn eyes. “Teach me,” said Kayle huskily. “There is time, now. N’ies?” The Sharnn cape snapped out like the living animal it almost
was, then subsided at a quiet thought. “N’ies,” agreed the Sharnn at last, stroking his cape,
fingertips hypersensitive, appreciative, a gesture so Malian that it made Faen
weak with desire. “Sharnn,” continued Ryth slowly, voice echoing emotions that
had no words, “Sharnn are nothing. And everything. We are what we can conceive
of being.” The cape moved over him, consoling, a sound like silk
rubbing over amber. “When the Sharnn permitted First Contact with you,” said
Ryth, “we thought that new conceptions would evolve from the new questions you
would bring. And so it was, mysteries and enigmas and tantalizing wisps of the
beyond, enough to compel generations of Sharnn.” Unconsciously, Ryth sighed, remembering the innocence of a
race that had not known what he knew now. “Malia, with its uncounted textures,
uncountable subtleties, was the most intriguing of all the new experiences
Concord brought to us. Except for the Carifil, but I had not conceived of you
then, and you do not mention yourselves in loud voices ...” “But,” said Kayle, groping to sum up the conversations
ringing in his mind, “no Malian ever went to Sharn. How did you know of Malia?” The Sharnn smiled, but there was neither light nor laughter
in the line of his lips. “Musicians,” he said succinctly. “Musicians from
Markaran. They played what they knew of Maran’s Song, what little even their
great skill could conceive. “Because music is important to the Concept of the Seventh
Dawn, my ... family ... heard the Markarans. Maran’s Song claimed us, the
mystery of a complex history half-finished, all possibilities open. Many
mutually exclusive concepts were possible, many paradoxes, many terminations.”
Ryth’s voice thinned into the bittersweet sarcasm of a Sharnn. “Maran’s Song
was a joyous enigma wriggling with paradoxes, more difficult to disentangle
than a nest of Sharnn capes.” Ryth stopped, but the silent pressure had not abated; he
would have to say it all to the final twisting word—all but the name, and that
he would not say. “We listen,” said Kayle. Faen moved closer to Ryth, still not touching the man who
had fused with her, completed her and himself and never once mentioned the
deadly Sharnn whose blood now sank between the cracks of ancient Sandoliki
stones. Her silver eyes were baffled, splintered, as though Ryth were still
beyond her reach, invisible inside his cape and alien Sharnn concepts. “He,” said Ryth, gesturing to the dead man, “saw Vintra as Malians
did, as even Vintrans did, as Maran’s Song did—shadow days and shadow places,
shadow lives and shadow faces. “He conceived only of shadows. And, inevitably, became what
he conceived. His conception eliminated possibilities, terminations, required
certain acts to complete Maran’s Song. “I conceived of a different ending. After the custom of
Sharnn, he and I ... played ... a game to test the perfection of our very different
concepts. “My concept was stronger.” The Sharnn’s apparently calm summation incensed Faen. “He
nearly destroyed Malia! You knew—and trusted no one, told no one! Not even me!” As Ryth turned to face her, his bloody hands moved in a gesture
of odd helplessness. “Why did he want Malia’s death?” Faen demanded, her silver
eyes as narrow as new moons. “Malia casts a shadow rather than being a shadow,” said
Ryth. He searched for understanding in her eyes but saw only cold silver. His
voice flattened even more and the green of his eyes drained into shadows. “He
was trapped in his own concept. He hoped that if all Malians died, Vintrans
would become real again—and so would he. Then he would be free, whole, alive.
Able to conceive once more.” “But it—the Gint—was all too real!” “To all but himself, yes.” Ryth looked at the blood congealing on his long fingers and
said nothing more. “Then he was as insane as his dead lover, Lekel’s wife,”
said Faen flatly. “Insane.” “Not by Sharnn standards. But he is surely dead.” Ryth’s
voice thinned and suddenly he showed the immense effort it took him to talk. “I
hope my brother learned that it is futile as well as foolish to conceive only
of shadows.” “Your—brother!” For the first time, Faen really looked into
the Sharnn’s eyes. She saw that they were too dark, nearly black, as though
light no longer moved through their depths. She had seen those eyes before,
shadow eyes. Their bleakness answered more questions than she had ever wanted
to ask. “I understand too much,” Faen said hoarsely. It was as though he had not heard her, as though now that he
had begun to speak he must finish. “I left Sharn because it was my ... turn ... to test my
concept. Though I could not find my brother, I knew he was out there, either
Malia or Vintra, but I did not, could not, believe that he had lost control of
his concept. That he had become part of it and I would have to kill him before
he killed a planet, a people. I refused to conceive of that. “Yet some of me knew, must have known, for I deliberately
chose to become part of my own concept.” He looked at Faen, totally, his whole
being focused in a moment of such yearning that Carifil linked to lock out
Ryth’s anguish. “I could not let Malia die, for I had found there something
even a Sharnn had never conceived.” Ryth looked away from her perfect lips hard with moonlight. “I sought the solution to my own and Malia’s problems
without knowing that my brother was the core of both.” “When did you know,” she said, her voice as colorless as
sarsa crystal. “I’ve suspected since five men died in a Vintran alley. A
Sharnn cape is almost the only way such stealth could have been achieved.
Almost.” “Pattern-man—” began Faen, her voice hard with disbelief. “Gently, daughter,” said Kayle. “Ryth’s pattern gift fails
when he is part of it. You, of all people, should know that.” Faen looked away, her face suddenly expressionless. “And
then? When did you know?” “When he lost me in the Topaz Arcade, I almost knew. The
cape again. I almost conceived. Almost, but not quite ...” Ryth looked at her
with eyes that were no longer green. “Even when I touched him, shaved his dyed
hair, I—I could not conceive of my brother trapped among shadows he had named.
Even when I knew. I. Could. Not. Conceive.” And Faen remembered her own mind reeling after touching the
Gint, a shadow, his brother, and sensing something of Ryth’s pouring radiance,
light-shot shadow shining and her mind refusing to acknowledge, to know, and
darkness exploding in welcome oblivion. Even when she woke in Ryth’s arms, she
had refused to know the impossible link between her lover and a gint. She was as willfully blind as he. In spite of her pain, Faen’s hand moved over Ryth’s bare arm
in t’sil’ne curves that spoke of realization and need. With an inarticulate
sound, the Sharnn gathered her fingertips together and held them against his
lips. Still afraid of mindtouch, he murmured against her palm. “My limitations and my brother nearly destroyed your people,
yet you don’t turn away from me.” Ryth looked at her with eyes that again
conceived of light. “I did not hope for such forgiveness.” “From a Sandoliki?” The sweet-sad irony of Faen’s laughter
rippled like his cape. “It is one of our thousand moments. T’mara’hki, the
moment when we forgive all, even ourselves ... the Malian name for unity.” Her
fingers moved within his grasp, silent pressures that spoke of everything he
had conceived and more, for she was Malian. “Your brother didn’t divide Malia
into substance and shadow, the living and the merely existing. Without that division,
the Gint would have had nothing to mould with his deadly concept.” Faen leaned toward him, unsmiling and serene, her long hair
redolent of zamay and night. “Don’t take onto yourself more than is deserved.”
Then she smiled slightly. “And I will tell you how much that is.” Faen’s hand moved, supple and warm, devastating. The Sharnn
cape opened, allowing her closer. Kayle waited for a long moment before he gave
in to Carifil pressure. “You told us that you had lost something. You found it?” “Yes,” said the Sharnn, his voice thinned in spite of Faen’s
warmth spreading through his body. His eyes lingered over the face of his dead
brother, a face that could have been his. Faen’s body moved, comforting. “It was just a game, n’ies?” Ryth said softly. “A Sharnn
game.” Then he spoke again in sinuous Sharnn words that no one but he
understood ... or wanted to. As though impelled by Sharnn curses, the Carifil silently
left the clearing. One by one they vanished into the tere grove’s rustling
intimacy. At the edge of the fragrant darkness, a Carifil stopped and turned
toward them. “I regret your brother’s death,” Kayle said haltingly. Ryth’s cape pulsed once, a wash of dull silver, then it was
as still as the windless night. “My brother died long ago, on Sharn, when he named all of
his shadows.” Kayle looked for a long moment at them, standing so close
that they were one, and hoped that one day he would understand both of them, or
either. But not now, in darkness except for triple moons and sarsa. “Breathe the white wind,” said Kayle softly, Nendleti
farewell. Then Kayle turned and walked into the grove where tere and
zamay and Carifil waited. Faen’s head moved and her earrings sang of a child still
alive within her. She pulled Ryth’s hands down, holding them against the unborn
life. “Kayle still doesn’t understand,” said Faen. Ryth’s hands moved, knowing as only a Sharnn’s could be.
“Galactics,” murmured Ryth against her neck, “believe that the universe is
beyond human conception. And Sharnn believe that the universe is shaped by human
conception.” She turned in his arms to face him, alive as only a Malian
could be. “It will be the greatest game in Sharnn memory to find out
which concept is stronger,” whispered Ryth, breath warm against her lips. “And the most dangerous?” Faen said, breath returning his
warmth. “Always.” The Sharnn cape licked out, folding around Faen with a
strength as gentle and unyielding as Ryth’s body. She moved sinuously, warmth
sliding over warmth in a seamless joining. The cape blazed with a light that cast no shadows. Name of a ShadowConcord, Book 3 Ann Maxwell 1980 ISBN: 0-380-75390-1 Spell-checked. Read. A STRANGE ALLIANCE UNDER DIAMOND SKIES Kayle—the Concord advisor with the power to link minds, he
is torn between his oath of obedience and a loathing for all things Malian. Ryth—representative of a legendary and complex race with astounding
powers of perception, he falls hopelessly into a forbidden love. Faen—a proud and bitter aristocrat known for her beauty and
vengeance, she is the reluctant key to the secrets hidden in the shadows. IT CAN BE DEADLY TO DISTURB THE SHADOWS Malia’s prismatic atmosphere transformed sunlight into a vibrant
fall of energy; on Malia, everything was more vivid, more varied, more vital.
Even the shadows seemed alive. Some of them were ... I“are you the sharnn?” “Yes.” “Come in.” Ryth entered the room with the lithe grace of a dancer or a
Malian assassin. Kayle watched, orange eyes hooded; few people had ever seen a
Sharnn in the flesh. “I didn’t know that Sharnn ever left their planet,” said
Kayle, gesturing to a sling for Ryth to sit in. “Not much is known about Sharnn,” said Ryth, his face changing
with what could have been a smile. Kayle’s glance flicked over the tall man whose silver-green
eyes compelled attention. Though Ryth was standing motionless, his floor-length
cape seemed to stir subtly, twisting light into new shapes. “That’s why you interest the Carifil,” said Kayle. “You’re
the first person from Sharn who has asked anything of the Concord.” Kayle’s
dark face fell into the many creases of a Nendleti frown. “And what you’ve
asked is—” Kayle’s arm snapped out.”—difficult. Probably impossible.” “But the Carifil will consider it.” “Yes. And in return, you will use your pattern skills to
help us understand Malia.” “Before the Concord destroys it.” “If we destroy it,” corrected Kayle. Then he laughed, a
thick and husky sound. “If I didn’t know the Carifil, I’d not waste another
moment with you. Tell me, Sharnn, how a man from one of the Concord’s most
simple cultures can help the Carifil to understand one of the Concord’s most
complex and secretive cultures?” This time, Ryth’s smile was unmistakable. He flowed into the
sling without taking his eyes off Kayle. “May a simple Sharnn ask why you call
the Malians secretive?” “They’ve been Concord members for nine hundred years, yet we
know nothing about them that the First Contact team didn’t teach us.” “Perhaps,” said Ryth blandly. “But a secretive culture would
never have allowed Maran’s Song to be heard by any but Malian ears.” Kayle made a gesture of dismissal. “Maran’s Song is a great
work of the mind, perhaps one of the greatest the Concord knows. It is the summation
of crystal music. Any race would be proud to display such an achievement. And,”
added Kayle dryly, “Malians are nothing if not proud. Arrogant beyond belief.” “Little is beyond a Sharnn’s belief.” Kayle stared at the alien who sat so easily in the resilient
sling. Ryth’s eyes shone greenly, lit by inner knowledge or amusement or
strength; Kayle did not know which. He did know that Sharn’s culture was less
primitive than it appeared, if Ryth was a product of it. And the Carifil had
been so eager to study Ryth that they had promised him what was denied to every
person in the Concord—entry to Malia. “Do all Sharnn have your ability to find patterns where
others find only chaos?” asked Kayle abruptly. “Sometimes.” “When? And how many?” demanded Kayle. Ryth’s smile would have made anyone but a Nendleti uneasy.
“A few,” said Ryth. “When they must.” “There’s a saying in the Concord,” muttered Kayle. “As
stupid as a Sharnn.” Ryth’s smile increased until Kayle almost heard the Sharnn’s
inner laughter. “But the Carifil have a different saying,” continued Kayle.
“As elusive as a Sharnn.” “Are there similar phrases to describe Malians?” asked Ryth. “You’re a hard man to insult,” said Kayle softly. Ryth simply smiled like a Sharnn. Kayle gestured in amused defeat. “The Carifil told me that
you would ask seemingly random questions, but that I should answer in spite of
confusion.” Kayle frowned again, disliking the elliptical conversation, sensing
that the Sharnn was at least three questions—and answers—ahead of him. “The
First Contact team agreed that Malia was beautiful beyond imagining; that
Malians as a race and Malian aristocrats in particular had a primal allure that
transcended cultural prejudices; that Malian culture was obsessed with sensual
experience.” Kayle waited, but Ryth did not comment. “The First Contact team,” continued Kayle, “also had a
saying about Malians.” Kayle stopped, apparently finished. “And that was?” said Ryth softly. “‘Trust a Malian to betray you.’” Kayle’s orange eyes
brooded over the Sharnn’s muscular frame. “Do you still want to go to Malia?” “Yes.” “Why?” said Kayle bluntly. “Many reasons, none of which you would understand.” Kayle’s eyes narrowed. “I suppose I earned that one, Sharnn.
Now tell me why you want to go to Malia.” “I want to hear Maran’s Song played on the Sandoliki sarsa.” “Impossible. That song is never played on Malia.” Ryth became absolutely still, savagely intent; for an
instant nothing existed but the ramifications of that single fact, as his
Sharnn instinct for patterns focused his mind. Then the moment passed and he
was once again just a tall man resting in a sling. “Are you sure?” asked Ryth mildly. Kayle’s fingers stroked the multi-textured surface of his
robe as he tried to convince himself that no man could be as dangerous as Ryth
had appeared to be for a single instant. “Yes, Sharnn. It’s one of the few things I am sure of about
that accursed planet.” “Why is the song forbidden?” “I don’t know,” snapped Kayle. Then, less harshly, “I once
asked a Malian.” Kayle flipped back the sleeve of his robe to reveal a long
scar down his forearm. “F’n’een almost killed me. I never mentioned the song
again.” “But not out of fear,” said Ryth, looking at the Nendleti
with an intensity that should have been frightening. “You respected the Malian
F’n’een, in spite of your hatred for Malians as a race. Perhaps you even loved
her.” “The Carifil told you more than I would have.” “No one told me anything. Except where to find you.” “Am I that easy for you to read?” said Kayle, sparks of
anger leaping deep within his eyes. “Easy? Not at all. But she was Malian, and an aristocrat.” “She was F’n’een,” said Kayle simply, as though no other explanation
was required. “But that doesn’t help you, does it?” Kayle made an abrupt
gesture. “Just what is it that you want, pattern-man?” “Maran’s Song.” “Why?” “A Sharnn game. I doubt if you would understand it. I don’t.” “Teach me.” Ryth’s green gaze turned inward, and when he spoke, it was
in the tones of a man choosing words from a language that was impossibly limited. “I might have ... lost ... something. If I did, it probably
can be discovered on Malia.” Ryth hesitated, then shrugged, a muscular movement
of his torso that made his cape ripple like water. “Until I know just what I’ve
lost—if I’ve lost anything at all—I can’t explain more clearly.” “You’ll have to do better than that, pattern-man.” The edge of Ryth’s cape lifted restlessly, moving over
itself with a sound like silk rubbing over amber. “My pattern instinct works best when I’m not personally involved,”
said Ryth. “But I am involved in this ... game.” Kayle smiled, showing two rows of small, bright teeth.
“You’re human, then. I’m relieved.” Ryth smiled ironically. “The Carifil said the same thing.
Then they told me what they knew about Malia and Malians. It wasn’t enough.” “For what?” “For a Sharnn conception.” Kayle made a frustrated noise. “The more you talk, the less
you say.” He stared narrowly at the supple man whose cape still moved
restlessly, “Can you prove that you’re more than a mouthful of baffling
phrases?” “Yes—if you let me go to Malia.” “You know that Malia is under secondary proscription?” “Yes.” “You know that primary will begin in no less than seven Centrex
days and could begin sooner, without warning?” “Yes.” “You’ll risk your life for a Sharnn game—a concept?” “What are Carifil and Concord if not aspects of a concept?”
countered Ryth. Kayle looked at Ryth for a long moment. Both men were so
still that the sound of Ryth’s restive Sharnn cape seemed loud in the room. “You irritate me, Sharnn,” Kayle said finally. “But not
enough to let you die. I can’t recommend opening Malia to you. The Carifil
can’t play a game where neither the rules nor the stakes are known to us.” “If,” said Ryth slowly, “I told you that I could lead you to
a finder whose gift was not limited by time or space, would that be a stake
worth Carifil risk?” “Is this person Sharnn?” “No.” Kayle smiled, but his eyes were lit by something close to anger.
“Is this another Sharnn game? The Carifil sift and resift races, looking for
mental gifts, and then a Sharnn who has never been off-planet offers us the
rarest gift of all. A finder. But this finder is not Sharnn.” Kayle swore in
the hissing phrases of his native tongue. “My patience is gone, pattern-man,”
he said disdainfully, turning away. “When I next look, you would do well to be
gone, too. I speak now as a Nendleti, not a Carifil.” Ryth did not move. Even his cape was still. “And I speak as a Sharnn. F’n’een did not die on Skemole.” Though Kayle’s muscles bunched beneath his orange robe, his
voice was calm. “Every member of the Second Contact team died on Skemole.” “F’n’een survived.” “Impossible. The Carifil searched—and mindsearched—for
survivors. Only two bodies were found. We found those who had assassinated the
team. All dead. Very dead. Suicides. They knew the Concord penalty for
murdering a Second Contact team.” “F’n’een survived.” “No. I knew her mind. I was the union for the Carifil mindsearch.
I balanced the minds that searched, held them together. They did not sense
F’n’een, She is dead.” “F’n’een’s mind rolled back upon itself. Regressive shock.
Her mind became unrecognizable and/or unreachable. The Carifil even have a name
for that state. Q-consciousness.” Kayle, his back still turned, said nothing. “When she emerged from q,” continued Ryth, “she had changed,
a change forced by hatred and the need to survive.” “Go on,” said Kayle, his voice husky. “Was F’n’een capable of killing?” Kayle laughed shortly. “She was Malian. Raised in the code
of darg vire—vendetta to the death.” “A team member who died was her husband/mate/lover,” said
Ryth, his voice as soft as the liquid movements of his Sharnn cape. “If F’n’een
survived, what would she do?” “Darg vire,” said Kayle, his husky voice clipped again. “Yes. And twenty-three Skemoleans died. Not suicides. She is
on Malia now. She is the Sandoliki Ti.” Kayle’s body jerked subtly, but he did not turn to face the
soft-voiced Sharnn who had become his tormenter. “Are you telling me this so that I may die again when my
mind-daughter dies again?” asked Kayle angrily. “The Sandoliki woman is a finder.” Kayle’s hand flexed in a gesture of negation. “Then she is
not F’n’een. A gift as rare as that would have been discovered during her
Contact training.” “F’n’een—the Sandoliki woman—had not even entered her first
maturity when you knew her. Some gifts develop only with time. Or severe stress.” Kayle said nothing, but his bright robe moved in sudden
jerks. “Whoever the Sandoliki woman is or is not,” said Kayle
harshly, “she can’t be allowed to die when Malia dies. Her gift and her genes
are too valuable.” “Yes ...” Something in the quality of Ryth’s simple agreement brought
Kayle slowly around. His orange glance flicked over to a wall where various
times on the planet Vintra were coded in light. “You interest me, Sharnn,” said Kayle at last. “If I survive
tonight, I’ll take you to Malia.” “If it’s a question of survival,” said Ryth, “perhaps I
should come with you.” Kayle smiled like a predator. “Yes, Sharnn, perhaps you
should.” Kayle stripped off his outer robe, reversed it so that
orange was replaced by somber tones of purple, and pulled the robe back on.
Ryth noted the three curved knives strapped to various parts of Kayle’s heavily
muscled body, then the weapons vanished beneath the loose clothes. Out of
sight, but not out of reach; the robe had conveniently placed slits. With a rolling movement, Kayle settled the robe around his
body. He glanced at Ryth’s cape. The cape seemed dulled, as though light no
longer made any impact on the material’s drab surface. Ryth pulled up a loose
hood that concealed everything but his silver-green eyes. “Can you fight?” asked Kayle matter-of-factly. “Yes.” “Just yes? No elaborations, no tales of epic brawls?” “No.” Kayle half-smiled. “Good enough, Sharnn. Hand-held or projectile
weapons?” “Whatever is necessary. Though,” Ryth added, “I prefer
faal-hnim,” “Faal-hnim!” Kayle turned to face Ryth so quickly that his
robe belled into rolling shades of purple. “How did a Sharnn learn that lethal
discipline?” “People come to Sharn,” said Ryth. “Some of them talk to the
children. I was a child, once.” Kayle made a sound that was half admiration, half
frustration, but did not doubt that Ryth was a practitioner of faal-hnim’s difficult
and deadly dances. It explained the Sharnn’s extraordinary grace. “I suppose,” said Kayle dryly, “you once talked to a psi master.” Ryth’s lips moved in silent laughter. “What little I know of
the mental arts was taught to me by the Carifil. Very difficult concepts. And
for a Sharnn of the Seventh Dawn, not particularly useful.” “Oh?” “The Seventh Dawn is a solitary discipline.” Kayle’s mind reached out and deftly touched the fringes of
Ryth’s awareness. For an instant Kayle sensed a savage radiance that was stunning,
then the incandescence thinned to an apparently inexperienced mindtouch that
concealed immense depths and distances and raw power. *Is mindspeech uncomfortable for you, Sharnn?* *Just ... unexpected ... but each time it happens, I learn.* Kayle sensed their contact strengthening, stabilizing as the
Sharnn’s protean mind found patterns in Kayle’s skill and learned from those
patterns. Ryth learned with shattering speed. Between one breath and the next,
his mind-speech clarified. *You learn very quickly, pattern-man.* *I am Sharnn.* Kayle turned abruptly and walked to the door. Ryth followed,
wondering if he had insulted the Nendleti—Nendleti pride was legendary. But as
they descended the winding stairs of one of Vintra’s older kels, Kayle spoke in
a husky whisper. “Don’t you want to know where you might die tonight? And
why?” “I can guess,” said Ryth, unsmiling. “We are in Sima,
capital city of the planet Vintra. We are probably going to Old Sima; it is the
center of Vintran discontent. And danger.” While he spoke, Ryth’s eyes took in
the shabby lilac walls and faded rose and cream murals that decorated the Access
room between the street and the kel’s sleeping rooms. “As for why—” Ryth turned
suddenly, but saw nothing more than a shadow slipping down the wall. “Someone
must have promised you information about Malia.” Kayle stopped. “Keep talking, pattern-man. What information?” Ryth’s cape flared, then snuggled around his soft leather
boots. “I don’t know,” said Ryth. Kayle blinked slowly. “You surprise me, pattern-man. I
thought you knew everything.” The Nendleti turned and walked around the Access platform.
Blue energy blazed across the Access, and for an instant, Kayle’s eyes were as
purple as Vintra’s smoldering moon. When the energy died, four people stepped
off the platform. Their tight leggings and elaborately jeweled armbands
proclaimed them buyers of the sort who flocked to the scene of the latest human
disaster, purchasing the wreckage of dreams at bargain rates. *Scavengers.* Kayle’s scathing thought echoed in Ryth’s mind, along with
the implications of such people appearing on Vintra. *How do they know?* mused Ryth. *They have the instincts of carrion eaters.* Kayle twitched
the hem of his robe aside as though to avoid contamination. *They must be going
to the kla’rre district. There was an outbreak of pekh there ten days ago. The
survivors will need money to mourn their dead.* Kayle’s lips thinned in a
silent snarl. *Malia has much to answer for.* Ryth watched the scavengers vanish into Sima’s seething lavender
brick streets. “Why Malia?” asked Ryth. “Maia is the cause of Vintra’s drastic decline. Vintra never
recovered from the Undeclared War. Worse, Malia is sabotaging Vintra even as we
walk these streets.” “Why?” “If I knew, my work would be over. The Carifil asked me to
study Malia and Malians before they are destroyed by the Concord.
Unfortunately, Malia forbids alien visitors and Malians rarely leave their
planet.” “Some aliens must be permitted,” said Ryth. “No pattern is
perfect.” Kayle laughed. “Maybe, pattern-man. But the Carifil never
found the exception. That’s why I’m here on Vintra, Malia’s colony, learning by
inference and extrapolation about the Malian mind.” “What have you learned?” “That Malians have earned their extinction.” Yet Ryth sensed an echo of anguish that was the name
F’n’een. “If Malia’s pattern is so obvious and so guilty, why do you
need my skills?” said Ryth softly. Kayle looked casually around the street. There were many people
out and they walked too close for privacy. *The Carifil want to know why Malians could not adapt to the
Concord’s Sole Restraint. When we know that, the First Contact teams can look
for the Malian syndrome in newly discovered cultures. Then we can simply proscribe
that type of culture, rather than admitting it to Concord and then eventually being
forced to eradicate an entire genepool.* Kayle’s mindspeech slipped beyond the conversational level
and became information wrapped in a rich complex of emotions. *Malians are too beautiful to destroy—yet we must, for they
have twice ignored the Sole Restraint.* Then the emotions vanished, leaving echoes of sadness. *Yesterday, a Vintran spoke to me from behind a door, whispering
about a strong man and a black-haired woman with eyes like ice. He said they
were Malians who came to Vintra often. He said that when they were here, death
followed Like the long shadow of night. *He said they would be in Old Sima tonight, on the Street of
the Purple Blossom, in a cellar called Regret.* Kayle glanced sideways, but whatever reaction Ryth might
have had was concealed within the folds of his Sharnn cape. *If what the Vintran said is true,” continued Kayle, *the Concord
will have all the proof it needs to destroy Malia.* There was weariness rather
than triumph in Kayle’s thought, resonances of regret that tore at Ryth’s mind.
*And I pray,* added Kayle, *that the Allgod forgives my part in Malia’s annihilation.* Kayle’s mind withdrew. Ryth walked soundlessly, his green
eyes noting and naming and correlating a range of details that would have
astonished Kayle if he had known. Finally, Kayle emerged from his dark
thoughts. *This Vintran,* began Ryth slowly,
feeling his way through a maze of pattern possibilities. *Where is he now?* Kayle’s ironic laughter was almost painful. *Exactly,
pattern-man. He was supposed to come to my h’kel tonight. But you came instead.
I wonder if that is an even trade?* Ryth had no response for Kayle’s laughter. Restless Sharnn
eyes measured the subtle signs of disrepair in the black stone building facades
and despair in the subdued faces lining Sima’s sunbrick streets. Vintra was tone on tone of purple, from lavender day to amethyst
evening and dense violet-black night ruled by a huge purple moon. Even Vintra’s
sun did not banish the thousand shades of purple, for Vintra wore a thick atmospheric
shell that absorbed almost all but the longer wavelengths of light. Because Malia,
the Vintrans’ first world, turned beneath a sky of incredible clarity, colonists
had had difficulty adjusting to Vintra’s light. Everywhere on Vintra, noon and
midnight, artificial illumination glowed, but not enough, never enough to
bleach Vintra’s purple sky. If the colonists had difficulty enjoying Vintra’s
extraordinary light, others did not. Vintra became famous for her eerie violet
skies. People from all over the Concord came to be transformed by lavender light.
They swam in lilac seas, climbed magenta mountains and ate heliotrope fruit
whose sweet core was yet another shade of purple. In a high window above Ryth and Kayle, a suncaller preened
and sang a few notes, as though preparing its pre-dawn song. Ryth glanced up,
but did not really see the bird. His mind had finally put into words an anomaly
that had been nagging at him: colonists invariably brought native flora and
fauna to their new homes, but nowhere in Sima had Ryth seen anything that did
not fit seamlessly into Vintra’s environment. *Where are the Malian plants, the animals, the living links
with Vintrans’ first home?* asked Ryth. *Dead. The disparity in environments killed most. The few
survivors were destroyed after the Undeclared War, when all things Malian
became anathema.* Kayle sidestepped a group of revelers whose frayed robes displayed
fuchsia slogans proclaiming the joys of chemical psychosis. Though the five
people were too uncoordinated to be dangerous, other such groups had triggered
twelve lethal riots and numberless street brawls in the few months Kayle had
lived in Sima. The groups were both symbol and accelerator of Vintra’s decline. The streets narrowed when Ryth and Kayle approached the
boundaries of Old Sima. Tourists rarely came here, for there was neither
entertainment nor beauty nor commerce within the crumbling sunbrick structures.
Most residents had abandoned the huddled kels after the third earthquake in the
Year of the Suncaller. Only the human debris of a failing society remained, as
dangerous as venomous fruit. The Street of the Purple Blossom was little more than an
alley twisting between sagging rows of lifeless kels. Only a few faded, cracked
lightstrips alleviated the purple moonglow. Ryth and Kayle walked carefully, twisting as the alley
twisted, turning three-quarters of the way around old buildings, spilling out
onto two brightly lighted streets and then setting off in another direction
entirely, back into darkness. Further ahead, at the end of a long, shadowed
tunnel, there was a glowing sign in the shape of a whirlpool. Though most of
the letters were shattered or dimmed by a crust of dirt, enough remained to
make out the word “Regret.” No one could be seen in the pooling shadows beneath the
sign, yet the street suggested hidden life, breath held in anticipation of a
moment that was long past. *Wait for a twenty-count, then follow,* instructed Kayle. *If
my shy Vintran is here, I don’t want you to frighten him.* Kayle closed out Ryth’s unspoken objections with a deft mental
twist, then moved down the rubble-strewn path with a speed and silence that
belied the apparent clumsiness of his rolling Nendleti gait. After a rapid
count, Ryth moved lightly through the darkness, avoiding clots of debris. Once
again he tried mindspeech with Kayle, but the Nendleti’s mind was as closed as
a stone. The Sharnn’s pattern instinct clamored of danger. He looked
at the alley ahead through narrowed eyes. The incandescent violet moon made
everything appear gigantic, menacing, but that was not what had roused his instinct.
There was something about the placement of debris that was no longer random.
Ahead, Kayle was pursuing a zigzag course, seeking clear ground where he could
walk without sending trash clattering. Ryth tried mindspeech again, but it was as futile as shouting
at the moon. Unease gnawed at him as Kayle slowed, picking his way among piles
of trash that nearly overlapped each other. Abruptly, Ryth decided that silence
presented the greater risk. “Danger,” called Ryth softly. Kayle flattened into a recessed doorway and effectively vanished.
Ryth felt the Nendleti’s mental query sweep through him. *Where?* *Six kels ahead, just by the cellar. See how the trash
closes in? There’s only one way to walk. Cover your ears and eyes—and don’t
move.* Ryth picked up a stone that was bigger than three clenched
fists. He weighed the stone in his hand, learning its balance, then he closed
his eyes and brought his arm around in a powerful throw. The stone shot through
the gloom and landed in front of the Regret on the only piece of ground
not covered by trash. The alley fractured into noise and light and jagged
fragments of trash sent flying by the force of the bomb. With a long rumble,
the cellar called Regret collapsed in upon itself. *Kayle?* *I owe you a life, Sharnn.* *If you want to enjoy it,* returned Ryth dryly, *I’d suggest
we leave this wretched trap to its shadows.* *Agreed,* came Kayle’s thought after a long hesitation. *Nothing
waited here for me but death.* Ryth sensed Kayle’s mind leaping out in search of something,
but could not guess what. At Kayle’s silent command, Ryth turned and ran back
up the choked street, his dulled Sharnn cape invisible in the dense shadows. In
the distance, Sima’s inhabited streets glowed with Mac light. *Ambush ahead!* Kayle’s thought sent Ryth diving behind the nearest pile of
rubbish. He heard a knife hiss past his ear and clatter against a sunbrick
wall. As he rolled to a new position, he pulled a long-bladed hunter’s knife
from beneath his cape. Then he sensed the attackers closing in and rolled
again, just avoiding a steel-toed kick. With superb timing, the Sharnn brought his knife up in a
thrust that met flesh. A man’s pain echoed through the narrow street. Ryth
sprang up, fighting in darkness, blind but for a sure sense of Kayle’s presence
slicing at the attackers. *Alive, if possible,* requested Kayle. Ryth’s answer was to drop and roll through the attackers, hamstringing
two who did not move quickly enough. When he rose to his feet, he felt Kayle at
his back. Ryth’s foot shot out, connecting with a man’s chin. The man was unconscious
before he fell to the ground. For a few seconds the narrow alley was silent,
then there was a shadowy rush. Kayle and Ryth lashed out, blows meant to stun
rather than kill. One man remained on his feet, circling them, dodging among
the bodies of his fallen comrades in an apparently random dance. His face
glowed as he feinted toward Kayle, bent over another man—and vanished. *Can you see him?* demanded Kayle. *No.* Ryth strained into the darkness. *He must have hidden his face in his robes!* Kayle’s frustration
seared across the Sharnn. *I can’t even sense his mind!* Simultaneously, they dove and rolled in opposite directions.
Ryth felt the edge of a robe on his knife and slashed upward. His knife slid
away, deflected. The man leaped into darkness and was gone. Ryth held his breath, listening. At first he heard nothing
but his own blood pumping, then came the faintest sounds of a light-footed man
running away. Ryth rolled to his feet and sprinted down the street, leaping
over bodies and rubbish. Ahead the street twisted, then branched at right
angles as it emptied onto two larger streets lit by lilac lights. He saw a
glimpse of a dark shadow sliding into throngs of walkers and knew it would be
useless to follow. Ryth ran back to Kayle, and found the Nendleti studying the
attackers by the thin beam of a light pencil. “Quickly,” said Ryth. “He might be back with better fighters.” “Questioning won’t take long,” said Kayle dryly. A narrow beam of light moved over the bodies of eight men.
Each man’s throat had been cut. Ryth swore in the twisting phrases of Sharn,
then took out his own light pencil and began searching among the trash. “Why?” asked Kayle. “Flexible plastic. As many pieces as you can find.” When he had enough plastic, Ryth rolled the attackers’ weapons
into clumsy packages. Kayle watched, then gathered weapons with as much care as
Ryth; at no time did either man touch the weapons. When all the weapons were
wrapped, Ryth piled them in the center of a large sheet of plastic and knotted
the sheet into a rude bundle. While Ryth worked, Kayle examined the bodies
again. “Anything?” asked Ryth, picking up the bundle. “No. They are either Vintrans or Malians.” “Malians?” said Ryth sharply. “It’s possible, after what I heard yesterday about the two
Malians.” Kayle swept the light over the corpses one last time. “Vintra was
colonized less than ten centuries ago. Neither phenotype nor genotype has
changed from Malia.” “Do you think Malians would leave Malia to hunt you?” “Why not? In a way, I’m hunting them. And apparently, I’m
getting too close.” Kayle’s light slid from face to face, illuminating death.
Then he switched off the beam. “You fight well, Sharnn, but I must insist on
leading the way or carrying the burden.” Ryth laughed silently and said in Malian, “I can think of no
one I’d rather follow into danger.” “So you know the Malian language—and Malian codes.” “A little of both,” Ryth said. “Maran’s Song teaches a
thousand patterns.” “You interest me, Ryth,” said Kayle, his husky voice
floating back from the purple darkness. “Just enough to let you try for Malia.
If you find your exception to Malian rules, I’ll give you an exception to
Concord proscription.” Ryth and Kayle were the only passengers on the shuttle from
Malia’s inner moon. Kayle was not surprised; even before the Concord had
proscribed Malia, the planet was classified as xenophobic to a high degree. Malians
had permitted no direct Access route for travelers to Malia’s surface, though
almost all other Concord planets had several major Accesses and hundreds of
minor ones on their surfaces. Malia had one personnel Access located on the
inner moon. There were only ten freight Accesses for each continent on Malia.
And that was all. The scarcity of Accesses was not due to physical law or to recent
proscription or to lack of potential trade and tourists. Rather, Malia simply
forbade visitors and ignored the possibilities of commerce. Nor had
proscription bothered Malians. Even when citizens had been permitted to leave
Malia whenever they wished, few did. Except for those destined for Vintra, only
three Malians had been recorded off-world in any century since Malia had joined
the Concord. But the Sharnn had found a crack in Malia’s apparent xenophobia.
By Malian rule, people of any race who wanted to ask help from the Sandoliki Ti
were permitted to spend one day on Malia. Just one. And just once. But that was a crack large enough for a Sharnn and a
Nendleti to slide through. Ryth sat quietly, listening to Kayle and correlating new
information while Malia’s silver and turquoise sphere grew rapidly on the
shuttle’s screen. “Also,” continued Kayle, “you will receive no exemption from
Malian customs. Be prepared for personal combat at any moment. And be prepared
to kill. Although,” added Kayle, rubbing the textures of his bright blue robe between
his palms, “I believe Malians usually ignore off-worlders so long as they are
wholly discreet.” “Usually,” murmured Ryth, “is hardly comforting, given Malians’
reputation as assassins. Did you know Carifil Cryl?” Kayle’s face tightened into bleak lines. “Yes. I warned him.
The Carifil still don’t know how he got on the planet.” “The same way we did,” said Ryth. “No other possibility
fits.” “He was obsessed by Malia’s crystal music,” said Kayle. “And Maran’s Song?” asked Ryth softly. “And Maran’s Song,” agreed Kayle, his voice heavy. “He had a
theory about Malian culture that depended on a certain interpretation of
Maran’s Song. Until he heard that song played on the Sandoliki sarsa, he could
not test his idea.” “Yes,” said Ryth. “Concepts can only be tested at their
sources.” “Cryl died at the hands of k’m’n Sandoliki Lekel.” “Did he hear Maran’s Song before he died?” asked Ryth, his
silver-green eyes suddenly hard with intensity. But Kayle did not notice, for
he was remembering a dead Carifil. “No.” “Are you sure?” demanded Ryth. “Does it matter, pattern-man?” said Kayle irritably. Ryth waited with the intense patience of a predator. “Yes,” Kayle said, voice rasping in the empty shuttle. “I’m
sure he died without hearing Maran’s Song. The death-cry of his mind was
singularly unfulfilled.” Ryth sat back and resumed his meticulous visual inspection
of each aspect of the shuttle. Kayle watched, then probed lightly at the edges
of Ryth’s mind. A cataract of savage energy nearly stunned the Nendleti. He
withdrew, and only then did he realize that the Sharnn was using the shuttle,
and whatever other facts/theories/ guesses he had garnered, to analyze,
correlate and extrapolate patterns of Malian culture. For the first time, Kayle began to believe that the Sharnn
might have a truly extraordinary gift, worthy of Carifil interest. Kayle
watched covertly, fascinated, all through the long fall to Malia’s surface.
When the shuttle bounced and sideslipped on entering Malia’s atmosphere, Ryth
finally became aware of Kayle’s concentrated interest. “Nendleti philosophers,” Kayle said quietly, “believe that
the past, present, and future of a culture can be intuited from a single
object.” He smiled slightly. “Do you find this shuttle educational, sri Ryth?” Ryth noted the Nendleti honorific “sri,” but said only, “The
shuttle is overwhelming. The lights alone,” he gestured to an instrument panel
whose information was displayed in colors rather than numbers, “tell me as much
as the First Contact tapes.” Kayle eyed the panel, but saw only a rainbow of colors. To
him, the panel was beautiful but essentially meaningless. To the Sharnn it was
a revelation. “Teach me,” said Kayle. Ryth’s hands spread in a gesture of helplessness, but after
a long silence, he spoke. “I’ll try.” His words were slow as he picked his way through
the limitations and pitfalls of the Galactic language. “How many colors do you
see?” “Perhaps fifty.” “How many colors are repeated? A few? Many? All?” Kayle looked at the panel carefully. “Almost all. Especially
the lighter colors.” “None are repeated,” said Ryth softly. Kayle started to protest, then decided against it. “Go on,
Sharnn. I asked to be taught.” “I see what might be a few repeats, but the pattern tells me
that my eyes are at fault. Otherwise, the instrument readouts would be repetitious
or useless or both. So Malian eyes must see distinct color separations, receive
distinct information. Therefore Malian eyes are capable of exquisite
discrimination among the wavelengths of light. “Malians don’t care that other races might be confused
rather than enlightened by the instruments. In fact, Malians don’t care about
other races at all. Not one aspect of this shuttle was designed for any but a Malian. “Which tells me that Malians are indeed arrogant.” Kayle snorted. “Is that all? I could have told—” “No. There is a preference for curves over angles, textures
over blandness, light over dark, space over enclosures, warmth over chill,
comfort over safety, sensuality over personal distance—” The Sharnn gestured in
frustration. “Galactic has no words to describe what this shuttle teaches me
about the Malian culture, the Malian mind.” He looked around, his silver-green
eyes lit by excitement. “Now I know—I know!—that Maran’s Song is more exquisite
than I had realized, more seminal than anything but a Sharnn conception.” Kayle sensed Ryth’s electric excitement; mental/emotional currents
came from the Sharnn in waves that were almost painful in their intensity.
Sensed, but did not understand. Kayle did not attempt to talk anymore until
they landed at a small pad in C’Varial, Malia’s capital—and only—city. The
shuttle area was surrounded by an immense park where plants from all over Malia
grew in exquisitely arranged profusion. There were no written signs directing visitors to various
major compounds, kels or even the S’kel of the Sandolikis. Instead, there were
“signatures,” patterns in flower and wood and stone, at the beginning of every
path that radiated out from the landing area. Ryth and Kayle stood just beyond their shuttle, transfixed
by the pouring beauty that was Malia. The turquoise bell of the sky rang with
pure light, light that defined and caressed each living color, each slow
scented breath of flowers open in silky invitation, their fertile throats
calling to insects quivering on diamond wings, humming promise of consummation
deep within petal softness. And in the distance a fall of crystal music more
pure than Malian light. After a long time, Kayle roused himself, but still felt
as though he were folded within the soft body of a lover. “Even the Allgod must envy Malians,” he said to Ryth, his
voice husky with many emotions. But Ryth did not hear. He was lost in a compelling sensual
paradise. His fingers reached out in sudden knowledge, touched the tall singing
flowers, stroked their turquoise throats with gentle fingertips. Flower throats
stretched and pulsed slowly, deeply, until a cloud of silver pollen spilled
out, covering his hand with perfumed softness. Faint crystal music called
again, echo of flowers, pure sound, haunting, and he suddenly understood that
he was hearing the fragmentary signature of a Malian mind. Ryth turned toward the crystal notes with a questing intelligence
that was almost palpable. Humming zamay flowers brushed their silken faces
across his hands, humming, asking, but he neither saw nor felt their sliding caresses.
Only music existed for him now, flawless notes calling, crystal longing, a song
both superbly whole and crying for harmony, for an equal song to join with it
against the loneliness of crystal echoes returning always the same, always
diminished. Ryth walked through ranks of flowers until his Sharnn cape
was fragrant and bright with m’zamay, the aphrodisiac pollen of the turquoise
zamay. Then singing flowers gave way to ebony nightvine, twined around itself
and the powerful trunk of a huge tere tree. Beneath the tere’s high canopy of
scarlet leaves, suspended from an invisibly fine wire frame, a miniature sarsa
chimed its lonely call into every breeze. Ryth stood beneath the fall of crystal music, his
pollen-bright cape lifting on the wind, his mind totally caught by the
possibilities of the sarsa’s song. Kayle stopped several paces away, half-stunned by Malia’s
sensual assault. Just when he felt as though he must scream to break Malia’s
hold on himself and the Sharnn, Ryth turned toward him. “Do you recognize her?” said the Sharnn. “Her?” Kayle held his knuckles against his temples until
pain brought a sense of sanity. “Her?” “F’n’een.” Ryth’s eyes focused on Kayle with an intensity
that made Kayle step back. “The pattern of her mind,” said Ryth impatiently, as
though five words explained everything. And when he saw they did not, he spoke
quickly, words and thoughts tumbling. “In the sarsa’s notes. The music. Don’t
you hear? Her song, enigmatic and powerful, graceful and deadly swift and
sensual, yes, sensual beyond all knowing. And so alone.” Kayle listened to the Sharnn and to the wind-stirred
crystals and almost heard, but not quite, yet he ached with a grief that was
not his nor yet the Sharnn’s. “That can’t be F’n’een,” said Kayle hoarsely. “She was young
and her laughter leaped.” “Laughter is in her past and future—hear its echoes turning
and returning?—but her present is this song.” Kayle looked at the Sharnn with something close to fear.
“No. The song is not F’n’een.” “It’s not your memory. But it is F’n’een as she became, as
she is now. Magnificent.” Ryth turned in a swift movement that flared his cape,
scattering m’zamay’s potent dust. “I will show you.” Kayle followed Ryth and a winding path through night-vine
and scarlet drifts of fallen tere leaves. Crystal notes pursued, driven by a
fitful wind until Kayle wanted to run but could not because the Sharnn ahead
walked with consummate grace and ease, unburdened by memories of laughter. “Where are we going?” demanded Kayle finally, wondering if
he could find his way back through the maze of branching and coiling paths. And
wondering how the Sharnn had found his way at all. “Wherever the Sandoliki Ti’s pattern leads us.” “What pattern?” Kayle snapped, seeing more paths open out in
a way he could only describe as random. The Sharnn stopped and turned back toward Kayle.
“That pattern,” said Ryth, pointing toward a single zamay humming against the
polished strength of a black tere trunk. “Sensuality and power and separation.
The Sandoliki Ti’s signature.” Kayle looked and now saw the pattern repeated with
variations in composition but not in theme. Sometimes the signature was so
subtle that it was only after Ryth chose the path that Kayle recognized the
pattern. “How do people without Sharnn guides find their way to her?”
said Kayle dryly. “Malian aristocrats are trained in signature mazes. As for
the others—the maze isn’t large. Sooner or later, those who really want to will
find a way. Those who don’t,” Ryth’s hands spread and turned palm down, “must
have had needs that were less than compelling.” The path wound up a small hill, leading to a view of the
glinting crystal domes and arches that was C’Varial. In Malia’s pure light each
color was unique, flawless and the city was almost blindingly beautiful. It was
as though the maze’s designer made one final attempt to deflect people away
from the Sandoliki Ti by showing them the brilliant possibilities of C’Varial,
wrapped in all the colors of life. But the Sharnn barely paused. A sidelong glance was his only
acknowledgment of C’Varial’s siren call. “Wait ...” began Kayle. Ryth’s backward look was a compound of amusement and impatience. “You have no soul, Sharnn!” snapped Kayle, walking faster. Still smiling, Ryth turned away, but he could not help
looking again, stealing a second moment of C’Varial’s beauty. He would have
killed his Sharnn cape for the chance to sit forever on this small Malian hill,
savoring and solving C’Varial’s complex mysteries stated in patterns of clear
color that shifted with the sun. But all of Malia’s forevers were past, and he would need his
cape to survive the few Malian moments that remained. Silently, the Sharnn led Kayle to a landing area only large
enough for a few three-flyers. The machines were silver, devoid of any status
marks, and unlocked. With an assurance Kayle did not share, Ryth mounted a
flyer’s ramp. Kayle followed, his orange eyes sliding from side to side as
though searching for ambush. In silence, both men sat, fixed their crashnets
firmly, and waited. Within moments, the three-flyer quivered to life. It leaped
off the pad, climbing straight into Malia’s turquoise sky while the land below
fell away with staggering speed until everything ran together in a watercolor
blur that was yet another form of beauty. When the details of C’Varial were subsumed by height and the
larger geographical patterns of river and valley, lake and hills and the
distant portent of blue-black mountains, Ryth turned his attention to the
interior of the three-flyer. Kayle waited, watching, but finally he had to ask. “Are you sure that this will take us to the Sandoliki
woman?” “Yes.” “How long?” pressed Kayle, glancing down, far down, to a surface
that distance and speed had robbed of meaning. “I don’t know.” “Thank the Allgod,” muttered Kayle. “There’s something in
the galaxy that a Sharnn doesn’t know.” Ryth almost smiled, but too much of his mind was focused on
the rhythmic play of lights along the instrument panel. Their pattern was
direct, almost boring, but it was information and Malian, and he needed every
hint he could gather. The flyer bucked and sideslipped through unseen turbulence. “Could you fly this if you had to?” asked Kayle uneasily. “It’s programmed. But if I had to. Yes. The pattern is very
direct.” For a long time, both men were silent, caught up in their
own thoughts. After Malia’s overwhelming sensuality, the almost astringent interior
of the three-flyer was refreshing. Finally the flyer entered a steep slide that brought it down
very close to the land on the far side of the mountains. Simultaneously, the
flyer slowed, as though to provide its occupants with a detailed view of the
devastation beyond the blue-black mountains. Where they expected zamay and beauty, they saw a tenuous
brown haze creeping up from the land, rock particles harried by a nameless
wind. A ragged carpet of gold trees thinned into pale yellow, then became
sand-colored skeletons with leafless branches stabbing the wind. Soon even the
shorn trunks vanished and the land became a monotony of grey-brown stone and
shallow grey-brown rivers thick with grit. After tasting consuming sensuality, the land below was jarringly
ugly. It was obscene. It was Darg Vintra, Vintra’s Revenge, legacy of the brutal
Undeclared War between Vintra and Malia, colony and home world, daughter and
mother. Vintran death raiders had destroyed, utterly and finally, the vast
estates of the two strategists who had nearly brought Vintra to defeat. Tare
and Jomen Sandoliki had died defending their home against an overwhelming
force. An honorable death for the two generals, and an inevitable beginning for
a bitter darg vire. But Tare had borne only two children for Jomen and those
children were also ashes drifting in the wind. Formerly fertile and thick with life, the Sandoliki Estates
now were a monochrome wasteland cratered by old hatreds and furrowed by remorseless
winds. “If death had a face ...” murmured the Sharnn. “Yes, it would look like that.” Kayle’s voice was thin,
tight. His face wore bleak lines that matched the orange light in his eyes.
“You’re wrong about F’n’een. You won’t find her living in this desolation. She
loved green water and laughter. She would rather be dead. And is.” But the Sharnn said only, “Check your harness. we’ll be landing
soon.” Kayle peered out through the dusty canopy. “I don’t see anything
but bare rock.” “Nor do I, but the lights tell me that—wait. The bench
between mountains. The molecular fire passed over it. See? That blue-green
streak below with a scarlet center.” “There’s not much of it, is there?” “The Vintran raiders were thorough,” agreed Ryth as the
flyer lost altitude rapidly. The flyer circled the landing area twice, giving sliding glimpses
of ruined goldstone kels and abandoned gardens and one small wedge still intact,
shining with colors. The flyer dropped at the edge of the fertile area, in a
cleared spot marked by other landings. Kayle left his seat before the engine
was entirely silent. With open impatience, he swept down the silver ramp. Ryth followed more slowly, pausing on the ramp to taste the
odd, almost rusty flavor of the wind blowing off Darg Vintra. But he soon
forgot the wind, for the pad was surrounded by a circle of shattered crystal
monoliths in every tint and tone of turquoise. One monolith remained upright,
whole, carved in the image of a forgotten god with faceted eyes staring,
waiting for a future to sweep closed the circle and begin anew, renewing
rituals only the past could remember. A random wind surged, belling Kayle’s robes, revealing the intricate
design of Nendleti boots. Part of the curving motif was repeated by a deadly
double-edged knife strapped to Kayle’s calf. Ryth walked away from the ramp, felt the rust-tasting wind
tug at his cape. The air was neither warm nor cold, merely dry, terribly dry. “No,” said Kayle as Ryth approached. “Not F’n’een. Not
here.” The Sharnn made no reply. “She was so beautiful,” sighed Kayle. “A living beauty like
nothing I’d seen before or even imagined.” “She was a child. Two maturities have passed. Vintra and
Skemole have passed. Even the most beautiful children grow. And change.” Kayle’s orange eyes brooded over the horizon where nothing
lived, nothing moved but wind sifting the remains of dust enemies, old death. “My people are sometimes violent,” said Kayle slowly. “Many
Nendletis die for reasons few aliens ever comprehend. But never have we
destroyed our enemy’s land. Honor cringes from the thought. The soul cringes
from the deed.” His eyes closed. “How much hatred can one race hold?” “Darg vire,” murmured the Sharnn. “What?” “Darg vire. Death vendetta. And then the Ti Vire, the Great
Death, a seven-year vendetta waged by one woman against the entire race of Vintrans.
But she did not die.” Ryth walked slowly to a powdery path where wind snatched at
the dust puffing away from his feet. After a few seconds, Kayle followed. As
they walked, patches of faded blue grass appeared, then low cream-colored shrubs
whose lacy fronds were heavy with dust. Finally the path twisted through a tere
grove, just seventeen trees, all that had survived the molecular fire. Scarlet
leaves rustled overhead and the subtle scent and sound of water drifted on the
breeze. Kayle inhaled deeply, grateful for even this frail barrier against
devastation. “Think what it must have been,” said Ryth, low-voiced,
haunted by the memory of a dead god’s eyes. “Flawless air and tere groves
burning scarlet. Silver insects drifting like music over immense flower seas.” For an instant Kayle saw with Sharnn vision, then he blinked
and it was gone, leaving an anger that was as deep as it was unexpected.
Blindly, Kayle walked toward a tiny clearing where an artesian pool breathed
moisture into the sterile air. Sunlight spilled into the water, making the pool
incandescent with silver light, silver-green currents sliding through enigmatic
depths. With a shudder, Kayle threw off the last of his unbidden vision. “A good omen at last,” Kayle said, an echo of anger still in
his voice. “The pool is exactly like your eyes.” He glanced at Ryth and was
satisfied that the Sharnn did not understand. “No matter,” said Kayle softly.
“You’ll discover my symbols soon enough.” “And you’ll make it as difficult for me as you can,” said
Ryth, not adding that he understood Kayle’s anger because it was the echo of
his own. So much lost ... Kayle clapped his hands in sarcastic comment. “Already
you’re unraveling me. But how shall I unravel you?” “I’m as simple as that pool,” said Ryth softly. Kayle’s orange eyes raked over the Sharnn. Ryth felt a lash
of mindtouch before Kayle withdrew far more gently than he had come. “My error,” said Kayle. “I took your words as a slight to my
intelligence, and thereby missed your profound irony. Like a Malian, you understand
that the only true complexity is found in exquisite simplicity.” Kayle let the last
of his own anger slide away as he looked again at the deceptively transparent
pool. “I’m ready to see her now. Even,” he whispered, “if she is F’n’een.” They turned away from the slowly seething pool and followed
the path out of the grove, through waist-high shrubs hung with fading bronze
flowers and a vague scent of mint. Blue-black vines crawled over ruined walls,
choked old rooms and gardens, hissed over Ryth’s cape when the path narrowed.
Then the vines ended as though at an unspoken command. Beige rock walls rose
abruptly, topped by a dome that shone like a mirror. An arched gate, or
doorway, stood open. “Invitation,” asked Kayle, “or Malian insult?” “Think of it as a gesture of trust,” said Ryth, knowing as
he spoke it was a lie. “Or contempt. Is that possible, pattern-man?” asked Kayle
dryly. “Her dargs vire are legend.” “Then I’ll be wary rather than insulted.” Kayle sent a faint
thread of awareness seeking through the area. “Three,” murmured Kayle. “One psi.
Hers, I assume. Unusual aura ... incoherent to me, yet very powerful. Fascinating.
And,” sad triumph, “not F’n’een.” Kayle stepped through the open gate with a speed that belied
his chunky stature. He stood and listened intently, yet heard nothing more than
wind rearranging dead leaves in the shadow of the wall. Just ahead, a mosaic
walkway of carved stones wound among flowering plants and the murmurs of a tiny
stream. Small animals ghosted through trees and shadows. A bird, scarlet as the
leaves it lived among, called a liquid warning. “Malian?” said Kayle softly, listening to the pure song. “Everything here is Malian.” “Then she, like most Malians, so fears alien life that she refuses
to have any of it near her?” When his question brought no answer, Kayle’s glance flicked
briefly over the Sharnn, but Ryth seemed lost in the scarlet bird’s call. As
the last note faded, the inner garden’s silence took on the quality of an absolute.
With hushed steps, they followed the path, noting subtle changes as it
approached the boundary of the inner garden. The colors of the carved stones
merged into umber unity and took on the form of an oval. In the center of the
oval was a polished silver frame, taller than a man. Varying lengths of clear
native crystal hung motionless, suspended on fine silver wires. Crystal facets
silently split sunlight into all the colors of desire. “The Sandoliki sarsa,” breathed Kayle, approaching the instrument
reverently, not even glancing through a small arch that opened into the Sandoliki
Ti’s kel. Nor did Ryth spare the arch more than a glance before he
gave himself to the subtle patterns of crystal and light. “The sarsa is old, very old,” said Kayle’s voice, near Ryth
again. “The Sandoliki name is older than the stones we stand on,”
said Ryth absently. “Tell me how such beauty can be created by such destroyers?” “Most people believe it’s compensation.” “You aren’t most people, Sharnn.” Reluctantly, Ryth abandoned the fascination of the sarsa’s
changing patterns. “Sometimes,” he said slowly, “people who know death
intimately best appreciate the textures of life. Nendletis are justly famed for
their esthetic nuances, as well as for their ferocity. Malians are known for their
incomparable sensuality, as well as for their ruthless dargs vire. Paradox,”
murmured the Sharnn. “Always paradox. And irony.” Ryth turned and faced Kayle fully. The Sharnn cape whipped
as a sudden gust of wind stripped the last bright motes of m’zamay from the
cape’s peculiar folds. “Ti Kayle—” began Ryth softly. “‘Ti’, is it?” said Kayle. “And just what unpleasant bit of
information are you planning to oil by using the Malian honorific?” Ryth’s smile was a flash more sensed than seen. “Would you
prefer to be called sri?” The Nendleti snapped his fingers in a gesture of indifference/irritation/impatience. “You hate the people called Malians,” Ryth said softly. “You
have a full measure of Nendleti pride. You are a deadly fighter.” The Sharnn paused, clearly disliking what he felt compelled
to say. Kayle waited impassively, poised and curious and dangerous. “Unless your Carifil conditioning curbs your Nendleti temperament,
you’ll try to kill the Sandoliki Ti.” Kayle moved suddenly, a quick flowing step that made his
heavy purple robe lift on the wind. Again Ryth sensed uninvited mindtouch, but
this time Kayle was gentle. With a hiss that was pure Nendleti, Kayle withdrew,
no longer able to penetrate the Sharnn’s mind without hurting both of them. “Teach me, pattern-man,” demanded Kayle. “The Allgod knows
that you learn quickly enough!” Ryth ignored the reference to his now impenetrable mind and
said, “The Sandoliki will be conspicuously unarmed. Her robes will be so sheer
that you will have no way of comforting your pride with the idea that she is
wearing concealed weapons. To underline that fact, she will also wear empty
weapon holders. On Malia that is a deadly insult.” Kayle hissed a Nendleti phrase. “Is there more?” “Her servant will wear only one small knife.” “And you claim her insults should be ignored?” said Kayle incredulously.
“Teach me, pattern-man.” “Her actions are not aimed at offending you, sri y’Kayle Menta
Losu, Nendleti aristocrat. Her actions are a gesture of total contempt for the
armed Vintrans who seek her aid, and for the Malian ruler who permits living Vintrans
to walk this planet.” Kayle frowned and Ryth listened to wind-harried leaves and
waited for the Nendleti’s decision. Methodically, Kayle began stripping off his
weapons. “Do you approve, Sharnn? Not that it would affect me either
way. I won’t wear more weapons than a servant!” Kayle stacked his three knives in a large, deep wall niche
made by a missing stone. Wordlessly, Ryth removed his knife and his Sharnn cape
and placed both in the niche. Kayle studied the cape with new interest, realizing
that Ryth classed it as a weapon. But the Nendleti said nothing, not even when
Ryth slipped a thin silver m’sarsa from a loop on the sarsa frame and prepared
to touch an instrument that was sacred to Malians. Sunlight washed incandescent over the age-worn rod as the
Sharnn raised the m’sarsa to the suspended crystals. The rod touched a long
crystal and a deep, dear note sounded. Even as the crystal vibrated, Ryth
touched the m’sarsa to other crystals, creating a ripple of music that evoked
first a brook, then a tumbling stream, and finally a river, swift and potent,
seeking an unnamed sea. The song was both whole and unfulfilled an echo of a
cry for harmony that had first been heard near a hill overlooking C’Varial. While the last notes resonated into silence, Kayle spread
his hands in a gesture of respect. “You are a man of two gifts, sri Ryth.” “Pattern is the essence of music,” said Ryth softly, his
mind still savoring the perfection of the ancient Sandoliki sarsa. He replaced
the m’sarsa carefully, then stroked the frame and m’sarsa with his fingertips.
“A superb creation, superbly conceived.” “And superbly played.” Her voice was as low and resonant as sarsa crystal Ryth
turned slowly toward the gate where she had appeared. “I did not recognize your song,” she said as the wind
rippled through her head veils and fragile mesh clothing, “yet I came. The
sarsa has waited long for a man’s tempered touch.” Though the wind flared through her scarlet veils, the planes
of her face were never fully revealed. The lithe female lines of her body
showed clearly beneath the loose scarlet mesh, yet the effect lacked
invitation. “I am called Ryth,” he said, bowing in the Malian style with
hands clasped in front. “And my companion is called Kayle.” Without seeming to,
Ryth watched for a reaction to Kayle’s name. “What shall we call you?” “F’n’een,” said Kayle, before she could answer. Her head moved sharply and the veil leaped. For an instant
her pale eyes studied Kayle. Then the veil floated back in place as she turned
toward the Sharnn. “Do you also wish to call me that name?” “It is a graceful name.” “But it is not mine,” she said distinctly. “Call me Faen or
call me nothing at all!” “We regret offending you,” said Ryth, eyes narrowed, weighing
her anger. “We all take our names from the dead,” said Faen,
controlling her anger. “But that name offends you,” the Sharnn said, pressing
gently. “You are not Malians. Your ignorance cannot offend me. I
will teach you a single Malian custom—and then you will never say that name to
me again.” Faen moved closer with a speed and grace that was almost
shocking. In that instant both men remembered that she was famed for her
killing skills ... and that Sandoliki translated as “Deathbringer.” But she stopped well short of touching either Ryth or Kayle. “When you are mentally and emotionally and sensually tied
with a person,” she said slowly, spacing each word as though they were
children, “and you see that person die in violence and hatred, you never again
speak the dead person’s name.” “May I ask why?” said Ryth, voice low and eyes alive with an
intensity that was uniquely Sharnn. She turned to him, scarlet veils floating like firelight and
her eyes the color of ice. “The dead person’s shadow still lingers, for a time,
following those who saw its substance die, following and seeking true life. If
you call the name of a shadow, it steals some of your life.” Her silver eyes
closed, then opened again, opaque with something beyond Sharnn concept. “You
can die naming shadows.” The wind gusted, Lifting veils and dead leaves, shifting
robes and shadows with a dry rustling sound. The woman who was no longer called
F’n’een saw a look of anguish and rejection twist deep within Sharnn eyes and
heard him whisper what could have been a name, but he used the language of
Sharnn and she could not be certain if his words fed a shadow or a dream. “I was there when that child died,” said Faen in measured
tones of certainty. *She is F’n’een,* insisted Kayle inside Ryth’s seething
mind. *The aura may be a stranger’s, but the hands, the eyes, the voice.
F’n’een.* *Did she recognize you?* *Yes.* “My companion meant no offense,” said Ryth in a thin voice.
“He once loved a beautiful child called—her loss is an emptiness in him.” “Accepted,” she snapped. “But you did not come to Malia to
discuss death and the naming of shadows.” Then she sensed his anguish and flinched in the instant
before she controlled herself. Kayle, too, sensed Sharnn pain, and knew no more
than she what was its source. “We are seekers, Ti Faen,” said Kayle into the uneasy
silence. “I am considering a ... partnership ... with another person. I would
like to know if this person can be trusted. Can you help me?” Faen’s pale eyes did not leave Ryth’s handsome, closed face,
but she answered as though she spoke only to Kayle. “Normally, I have a time
and a h’kel for such—but he played the sarsa like a Sandoliki reborn.” She
stepped back with the swift grace that was still surprising, would always be
surprising, and looked at Kayle for the first time since he had called her
shadow. “Do you have some object that the person wore or held
often?” Kayle reached into a fold of his robe and withdrew a worn
leather sheath. An equally worn, beautifully crafted knife handle gleamed above
the leather. Kayle had not been able to touch the Sharnn cape, but the Sharnn
knife held no awe for him. The bright flash of metal brought stillness back to the
depths of Ryth’s eyes. Kayle wanted to ask what pattern had so hurt a Sharnn,
but before he could form the words, Ryth spoke in his mind with an ironic
amusement that made Kayle ache. *You would have made a galactic class thief, Ti Kayle. Did
you steal my knife while I touched the sarsa?* Kayle’s only answer was a silent rush of compassion, a beginning
of affection unfolding, for he had seen the Sharnn hurt and knew he was vulnerable.
Human. Faen hesitated before she touched the sheath with a single
fingertip. A small sound of surprise escaped her, and her slim fingers curled
around the sheath. When her eyes opened, they were focused on an infinity few
people ever saw. “Male. Unique. Enormously alive. Whatever he touches will
hold his energy, radiant warmth like a vast sun.” She closed her eyes and
breathed deeply. “He can be trusted with your weapons, your honor, your life,
your dreams. But do not betray him. He is relentless.” At an expert movement of
her wrist, the knife flicked out of its sheath. Her fingers felt the blade as
delicately as a sigh. “This knife has not enjoyed death, but has accomplished
it more than once.” She stood very still, eyes open yet impenetrable, fingertips
poised on the honed edge while the wind stirred her scarlet veils. Then the
knife whispered back into its sheath and her eyes focused on Kayle. “Does that help you?” “Yes ...” “But you wish more?” “Do you know more?” Her hand reached out to the m’sarsa Ryth had used. As she
touched it her lips curved in an unconscious smile of pleasure. “Should I tell him?” she asked Ryth. “He believes it is necessary,” said the Sharnn neutrally. “And what do you believer?” “I believe our ... partnership ... is necessary.” Faen stood for a long moment with her eyes half-closed, fingertips
caressing the silver m’sarsa, listening to the dry wind. “You have a primal, savage energy,” she said, her voice an
echo of music he had never heard, yet always known. “But that energy is
controlled by a powerful mind. You are intensely private. Alone. Like a spring
murmuring only to itself, yet bringing life to those who can find and drink
from its deep waters.” Her fingers slid away from the m’sarsa, lingered over
the supple leather sheath. *There are so few things I can touch with pleasure.* Her lips had moved, but Ryth knew he had heard her more in
his mind than in speech. “Keep the knife.” Her face showed surprise, then anger that she had revealed
anything to him of herself. “You don’t know what you say,” she said harshly. Then she
turned toward Kayle and her voice changed once again to music. “Does that
answer your needs?” “My questions, yes. My needs are more clamorous than before.
Why do you hide from me, F’n’een?” Ryth moved to stop Kayle with a fierce speed that was like
Faen’s. Then the Sharnn realized it was too late; if Faen wanted to kill Kayle,
she had her excuse. Faen stood with electric tension. Then her hand moved in a
blur that swept off her veils. “A child loved you once,” she said, her voice strained. “But
do not trade upon that again.” Her eyes searched his face. “Look carefully. Do
you see the child whose shadow you called?” Kayle studied her face in silence. She stood under his scrutiny
with no more self-consciousness than a statue. Her face had a perfection that
was chilling, and her eyes were like ice caves, silver and turquoise and
shadows and numbing cold. “I hear her voice,” said Kayle finally, avoiding the name
that enraged her. “I see her hands. The color of her eyes has not changed.” Kayle’s words hung in the stillness. “The child you remember is dead,” she said quietly. “And only the Sandoliki woman survives?” asked Ryth. “A
woman called Faen?” The Sharnn’s questions were a subtle challenge that she ignored. “I regret Kayle’s memories, but I can’t assuage them,” she
said. “The child he loved is dead.” “How did she die?” pressed Kayle. “Was it on Skemole, or on
Malia, after the Undeclared War?” “Does it matter enough to rake over old fires—and burn your
fingers on hidden coals?” “The child doesn’t matter,” said Ryth roughly. “The woman
Faen is crucial to Malia’s future.” She stared at him while silence stretched into danger, then
her hand slipped up to the m’sarsa he had touched and danger thinned to
invisibility. “Come,” she said simply, turning away from both of them. The scarlet mesh rippled around her legs, slid off smooth
curves of flesh and empty leather sheaths bound to her thigh and ankle. The two
men followed her into the huge impersonal mirror dome and up a winding black
metal ramp. At the top, a large room commanded a circular vista of devastation.
Kayle swore very softly at the naked ugliness of the land. After a glance, Ryth ignored the view and concentrated on
learning all he could from the contents of the room. No clear pattern emerged.
Searching for one was like trying to hold a heavy, oiled ball on his fingertip;
each time he sensed balance forming, the reality of it slid away from his
touch. “You wear the scarlet clothes of a Malian bride,” said Ryth,
as he sat cross-legged on a cushion. “Who is the woman Faen bound to?” “I am the last Sandoliki. When I die, there will be no one
to call my soul on the ancient sarsa.” Her perfect lips framed a cold smile and
her pale eyes searched Darg Vintra. “I am bound to the nameless wind that blows
over the face of death.” She looked into Kayle’s orange eyes. “And I was once a
child you loved. But that does not ease your grief, Kayle. The one you loved is
truly dead.” “But the woman Faen lives,” said Kayle carefully. “And
hides.” Faen looked again at the wasteland outside the room. “Yes, I
live, as Darg Vintra lives. Do I hide?” Her hands went out to the curving
window where the fallen sun turned stone to blood. “No. No more than the ruined
land hides. We are both known, both avoided. Justly so. No one seeks reminders
of defeat.” She laughed. “How they hate me as they sweat their fear and ask my
help. They taste Darg Vintra’s bitter wind and know their own impotence. They
remember my dargs vire and know themselves for bloodless cowards.” Ryth felt his skin stirring as silence sifted through the
room. The force of her hatred for Vintrans was as palpable as stone. “What do you live for?” said the Sharnn finally, his eyes
searching hers for the pattern he had not yet found. “An honorable death,” said Kayle’s husky voice. “She is the
last Sandoliki.” Faen faced Kayle and bowed in the Malian style. “Yes, Ti Kayle.
An honorable death for the last Sandoliki.” *Do you still think she can help you find whatever you lost?*
Kayle’s thought was a mixture of anger and sorrow. *Yes. And in helping me, she might save her own people.* *How?* *The pattern is still beginning,* returned Ryth, his Sharnn
eyes half-open. Ryth rose with a fluid motion that echoed her grace. He
stood behind her, watching the red-gold light glow on her skin, listening to
the slow beat of her breaths. So great was her confidence in her lethal skills
that she made no move to change her seemingly vulnerable position. “What are your pleasures, Faen?” asked the Sharnn, his voice
as muted as the falling light. “This is one. Evening is kind to Darg Vintra. That long
shadow could be a tere forest breathing strength into the twilight, and the
river could be sweet and green again.” Scarlet mesh whispered over the smooth muscles of her back
as she half-turned toward him, revealing a profile as delicately curved as
zamay petals. “Another pleasure is touching a life force like yours—bright
and rich and fiercely burning, yet not painful to me. Not painful.” “I would be complimented, but you enjoy my ... energy ... as
impersonally as you enjoy the evening light.” She looked at him, a flash of clear silver in her slanted
eyes. Then she faced away from him for long moments while brooding red-brown
light flowed through the room. “Sometimes,” she said quietly, “I touch the sarsa skillfully
and live again in a land not ruined, laugh with people not dead. “Even the Great Destroyer’s gift sometimes brings me pleasure.
I have lost so much,” she continued calmly, “that it pleases me to find what
others cannot. I have found their living children and their lovers. Triumphs as
sweet as my garden spring. “And I’ve found their dead. Too often. Always the dead and
the rusty wind shifting shadows.” Ryth watched evening sliding over the clean lines of her face,
softening lips that had been full before they were narrowed by death. “You’re a prisoner,” he said, unspoken emotion tightening
his voice. When she turned toward him, scarlet mesh flared around her
as though angry at his body so close to hers. “Am I?” “Can you walk with us through that garden without someone
warning Lekel the moment we step into the flyer?” “So you know of Lekel, too,” she murmured. “Have you any way of crossing Darg Vintra alone?” “No. Nor do I want to go out among people. I am here. It is
enough.” “A prisoner’s contentment.” “Believe what comforts you,” she said coldly. “Then what I was afraid of is true,” whispered Ryth, a
Sharnn’s sadness lining his full ups. “You can’t touch without agony, because
your gift touches the timeshadow of minds and so few minds fit without tearing
pain ....” Kayle stared first at the Sharnn, then at the woman whose
childhood he had loved. “Is that true?” he asked her hoarsely. “Are you, a
Malian, unable to touch without pain?” “Yes,” she said, voice torn between defiance and pain. “Yes!
That, as much as Lekel’s jealousy, keeps me here, alone.” “But why haven’t you killed Lekel?” said Kayle. “Then at
least you would have the comforts of power.” Faen smiled but there was no laughter in the line of her
lips. “Lekel is a skavern, but there are worse to take his place.” “She doesn’t want to rule Malia,” said the Sharnn before
Kayle could speak “You understand much, Ti Ryth,” she said. “Tell me why I
don’t want to rule.” Ryth hesitated, wondering at the limits to her pride.
“Because you don’t trust yourself, Ti Faen.” “Ryth—” began Kayle, warning. “Because,” said the Sharnn relentlessly, “there is still
enough hatred in you that you would enjoy having Vintra beneath your blade.
Because you know that the only way to defeat Vintra would be a devastating
surprise attack. Undeclared war. And if that happened, the Concord would reduce
Malia to smoking slag. A dishonorable death for your people. Ultimate victory
for your enemy. “So you avoid the temptations of power and recall the past
with crystal music and wait for an honorable death,” Ryth watched Faen intently as the silence stretched between
them. He was prepared to defend himself if he must, but hoped that time and
death had given her control over her Malian reflexes. “You understand too much. And not enough.” Faen turned toward the darkness welling out of Darg Vintra’s
seamed face. Then, with incredible speed, she spun and her hand locked around
his wrist, numbing. His other hand shot out and curled around her throat, but before
his fingers tightened he saw that her face was relaxed, and so beautiful that
it made him ache. *She’s not trying to kill you!* Kayle’s silent warning came to Ryth at the same instant his
fingers loosened and caressed her throat where they could have crushed it. “Not trying to kill you,” she murmured, silver eyes closed,
smiling beneath his touch. When he realized that she had caught Kayle’s carefully directed
mindspeech, Ryth closed his mind with a finality that amazed the Nendleti. “Yes,” whispered Faen, speaking as Ryth’s thoughts formed,
“I am as dangerous as I am beautiful.” And the Sharnn understood that he had no barriers against
her; she had repeated his thoughts as he looked at her, smiling and deadly. A
surge of revulsion swept through him, a primal sense of violation. With an
inarticulate cry she snatched her fingers from his wrist They faced each other,
equally controlled, equally dangerous. “My regrets, Ti Ryth,” she said tightly. “I believed it was
necessary.” “Accepted, Ti Faen. Did you find what you sought?” Emotions crossed her face too swiftly for even a Sharnn to
read, and, when she spoke, her voice was resonant with grief and anger. “Just what have you lost, Sharnn? What is the anguish dimming
the core of your radiance? Is it the shadow you are afraid to name even in the
safety of your mind?” “I don’t know the name of whatever I lost,” Ryth said, voice
divided between anger and unease. “Perhaps it had no name at all.” “All shadows have names,” she said. “Learn your shadow’s
name, Sharnn, or you will call it, unknowing, again and yet again until it becomes
half-alive and you half-dead, for a shadow’s strength is a terrible thing. “I know,” she said, leaning so close that he tasted her
breath. “I know because I have been driven to naming shadows, touching them
half-alive and me half-dead but still touching because I must. Touch.” Ryth knew there was a pattern in her words, a pattern that
would show him what he had lost, but he was too close and the pattern slid into
darkness as she shivered and her eyes changed, pale turquoise in the dying
light. Faen stepped back soundlessly. “There was one name in your
mind,” she said, voice calm, as though she had never spoken of shadows. “No
fear tainted that name. Curiosity/affection/respect. Carifil.” At Kayle’s involuntary breath, she smiled and faced him. “As I guessed. A secret.” “Neither secret nor often known,” said Kayle carefully. “I wait,” she said, her voice cool, “to find out how a
Sharnn discovered me, who the Carifil are, and how my finding whatever a Sharnn
lost—if he lost anything—could affect the future of my people.” Kayle smiled to himself, for he was learning more about Ryth
with each breath he drew on Malia. “Tell her, Sharnn,” he urged. “If you can.” Faen waited and watched the Sharnn’s changing eyes. “The Carifil,” Ryth said finally, “are a group of unusually
skilled people whose work and pleasure is solving Concord problems.” “Group? Who rules them?” “No one.” “Unlikely.” “But true,” said the Sharnn curtly. “What planet do they belong to?” “None.” Faen’s fingers moved as though she were tempted to test the
truth of Ryth’s words by touch. Instead, she brushed a raised area along the
low wall. A hidden relay closed and the room glowed with warm light. She moved
slowly, perfectly, conscious of his silver-green eyes. She turned toward him,
smooth and graceful as a tall zamay, asking. “Teach me.” Ryth felt her sensual grace like a blow, but a Sharnn is
nothing if not controlled. His expression did not change while he explained to
her. “Carifil loyalty is to the idea of Concord, but they hold no
formal position in the Concord hierarchy.” “What kind of problems do they solve?” she asked, her voice
an echo of tall flowers singing, asking. “All kinds of problems. Whatever fits individual skills.” “Example.” And he had none to give, for even a Sharnn’s control is not
infinite. “The Singers,” said Kayle into the electric silence. “Their
problem was one that should interest a Malian.” Neither Ryth nor Faen looked at Kayle. “You know of the Singers?” pressed Kayle. She turned toward him. “Rumor. Myth.” Her hand moved in an
ambivalent gesture. “None of it comforting.” “They sang on many planets,” Kayle said, his voice husky and
his eyes alert. “Many people died. The Singers who had sung vanished. The
problem was to discover whether the Singers had planned the deaths and thereby
broken the Sole Restraint.” “Undeclared War,” said Faen, low-voiced, waiting. “Yes. The Concord made little progress. The few available
facts conflicted. Many Carifil worked on the Singer enigma. The time of primary
proscription was nearly gone. Because there were so many bizarre, even
frightening aspects to the Singers, the Concord Council voted extinction for
the Singers. Thus, if the enigma were not resolved before the proscription
expired, a possibly innocent, certainly unique race would die in the ashes of
their once-beautiful planet.” “Grotesque,” said Faen, and her hands moved restively across
the cool mesh of her garment. “War is an honorable way to test—” “I’m not here to debate cultural mores,” said Kayle coldly.
“The Concord neither forbids nor encourages war among mutually eager enemies; the
Concord’s only request is that off-planet personnel have an opportunity to
leave before the killing begins.” Faen’s eyes gleamed like ice in the tanned planes of her
face. “You were telling me about the Singers.” Kayle shifted his weight and the many textures of his heavy
robe caught and held light. “There is little left to tell. Carifil unraveled
much of the enigma, but it was the Singers who resolved it ... in a way we
still don’t fully understand.” His keen orange eyes probed Ryth. “Someday, pattern-man,
I’d like to have you work on that. But now we have more urgent knives to hone.”
Kayle clapped his hands together once, softly. “The truth is this, Faen.
Carifil prevented the Concord from destroying what it did not understand.” “And you are a Carifil.” “Yes.” “What is your special talent?” “Communications,” said Kayle blandly. “And you?” asked Faen, facing toward Ryth again. “I am not Carifil.” “Brevity,” said Kayle, “but little information.” He leaned toward
Faen. “Patterns. He found you by the patterns your gift made.” Faen murmured something too low for them to hear. Then, more
clearly, “I dislike being read like a black signature on white matrix.” The Sharnn smiled without warmth. “So do I. But I know less
about your pattern than you know about mine. I don’t know whether you’ll agree
to help the Carifil understand Malia and Malians. Nor if you will help me find
something that has no name, something that could prevent the extinction of your
own people.” Faen was too shocked by the word “extinction” to respond.
Kayle was also shocked, but not by the impending death of a race. “How,” demanded Kayle, “could a Sharnn have lost Malia’s
innocence? For Malia is guilty of destroying Vintra—Malia has twice broken the
Sole Restraint. Make no mistake about that, Sharnn. Malia is guilty!” “Is that a Nendleti or a Carifil talking?” asked Ryth, his
voice lazy and his eyes hard. Faen looked from one to the other and remembered the pleasure
and pain she had touched in Ryth, a Sharnn’s compelling presence. Her hand
stretched out, palm up. “I would ask this of Kayle if I could,” she said slowly.
“But probably the process would be so destructive to me that I would gain no
information.” She looked at Kayle with regret shadowing her silver eyes. “No
offense intended, Ti Kayle. It is an impersonal fact.” “Like sunset light,” Kayle said. “I’m not offended. I regret
that anyone should have to shrink from simple touch. Especially a Malian.” Faen’s face twisted, then became expressionless as she
turned to Ryth. “Touch me when you answer my question. Does anything in the
Carifil pattern suggest that they prefer any planet or race above any other?” It was an easy question, one Ryth had answered for himself.
Yet the thought of touching her brought warring emotions that he could not—did
not want to—name. But he touched her, palm warm over her warmth. “No.” “You have my respect, Ti Ryth,” she whispered, letting her
palm slide away from his. “Touching me is repellent to you—” and when he moved
as though to disagree she stepped back and her voice was weary. “No. No polite
words of galactic Courtesy. Touching me gives you a feeling of violation.
Disgust. Yet you went against your deepest personal prejudice and touched me because
you believed it was necessary. “You must need me very badly.” “As does Malia,” said Ryth, his voice controlled, uninflected. “Malia could survive even primary proscription,” said Faen indifferently.
“Except for shortened lives, Malians won’t even notice the absence of Concord.”
Her words were arrogant. And true. Kayle muttered about pride and bravado, and
the Sharnn pointed out another possibility. “What if the Concord decides to annihilate Malians?” Ryth
said softly. “And you know they will, Sandoliki Ti. You know but refuse to know
that Malians will die among the ashes of their once-beautiful planet.” “We have not earned such a death.” “Some believe you have. Ask Kayle.” “No one who knows Malians could believe that,” Faen
insisted, pride and scorn and the beginning of horror in her voice. “But no one knows Malians,” said the Sharnn, eyes and body
compelling her attention. “Teach us, Sandoliki Ti Faen. Find the essence of
your people for us.” “How?” she whispered. “No one not born and grown Malian can
know our thousand moments, our essential soul.” “I’m not sure how,” said Ryth, a difficult truth for a
Sharnn. “But I’m sure there is a pattern. I have conceived of it. What I ask is
possible, given time. But Malia has no time. You must come with us, Faen.” “Leave Malia?” Her eyes searched the planes of his face for
clues to the urgency that radiated from him, touching her though she did not
touch him, “Do you mean that primary proscription will be enforced, all Accesses
shut down?” “Yes.” “When?” “Too soon. No more than seven Malian days. Then it will be
too late, for all Malian Accesses will be shut down.” Her face closed beyond even a Sharnn’s reading. Silence grew
in the room until Kayle felt it choking him, but neither Faen nor Ryth moved so
he did not move, merely waited until she turned away, scarlet mesh clashing
softly. “You’ll have my answer in the morning,” she said, and the
mesh whispered across the floor. “Unless you’re afraid to wait that long?” She walked off without waiting for their answer. Wordlessly,
Kayle and Ryth followed the slow swinging of her scarlet mesh down the long
stairway, through a wide curving hallway and into a circular h’kel. Compared to
the h’kel they had just left, this suite was heavy with luxury. Finely wrought
furniture and ancient tapestries, a miniature sarsa, delicate silver sculptures
and two large beds burnished by age and care. Tiny metal tracks shone in the
wood floor; at a touch partitions would slide out to provide privacy according
to individual desires. When Ryth turned to speak to Faen she was gone. “I want to touch those tapestries,” said Kayle wistfully,
“but I don’t want to ruin them for her pleasure.” “Touch anything you want in this room,” said the Sharnn, admiring
the ancient bed-frame with his fingertips. “She never uses this room or touches
anything in it.” “Are you sure?” said Kayle, hand outstretched to a vivid
tapestry. “Would you walk willingly into a room where clashing colors
crawled off the walls and iron drums were beaten by madmen and gutted animals
littered the floor?” Kayle shuddered, his Nendleti esthetics outraged. “That’s how this room must be to her. Too many people have
lived and died among the furnishings. The dome, and everything in it, is
machine-made, new. Untouched.” “Ahhhh, Faen,” sighed Kayle. “No wonder you believe your
gift is from the Great Destroyer.” He stroked the supple tapestry, a cool
textured delight to his sensitive fingertips. “Malian objects are made as much
to please the touch as the eyes. Magnificent.” He lifted his hand at a sudden
thought. “But then why does she receive visitors in her untouched h’kel?” Ryth tapped the miniature sarsa gently. A single high note,
pure and haunting, hung in the stillness. He listened raptly, then replaced the
tiny m’sarsa in its loop. “She doesn’t. Usually.” “Usually? Oh, your ... energy.” Kayle released the fold of
tapestry and it sighed into place. “You should be honored.” “Is the sarsa honored when we touch it?” “A question to tease even a Sharnn.” Ryth spun toward Kayle, but the Nendleti’s orange eyes held
compassion rather than mockery. “My error,” sighed the Sharnn. “There is something unsettling—if
I had pursued her, invited her pleasure, then I would enjoy it too. But is it
pleasure Faen feels when she touches me? Or merely relief at a lack of painful
stimulus? Or—” He made a sound of frustration. “I’m far better with group
patterns than individual ones. Especially hers.” Kayle stroked the tapestry lightly, letting the subtly
shifting textures feed his fingertips. “Will she come with us?” Ryth looked broodingly at the tiny sarsa. “The scarlet
dress. No, I’m afraid she won’t.” Kayle hissed and shifted to the privacy of mindspeech. *Then
I must force her.* *Without insult, Ti Kayle, I give you less than even odds of
taking her alive.* *If you help me?* *Three in five she lives. She is too quick, Kayle. I’ve never
seen reflexes to match hers.* *Have you looked in a mirror? No, I won’t argue. I’ll just
use less than honorable means.* *And make a deadly enemy of her.* *I have many enemies. If any of her Contact training survives,
she might come without hatred.* Ryth waited, sensing indecipherable fragments of
thought/memory beneath the surface of Kayle’s mind-speech. *There is a word,* continued Kayle, *a mental override implanted
in all Contact trainees. Only the Contact leader knows each trainee’s word. After
their first mission is complete, the trainees are integrated. At the end of successful
integration, the word is removed.* *You know her word.* *I was leader of the Skemole Contact team until an accident,*
Kayle lifted his sleeve to show the long knife scar, *prevented me from leaving
with them.* Kayle smiled reminiscently. *Even as a child, Faen’s reflexes were
superb.* *Are you enemies now?* Kayle’s soundless laughter rang in Ryth’s mind. *Not at all. The wound sealed our friendship as equals.
Knife friends, as they say on Malia.* Kayle let his sleeve fall into place. *Two
maturities is a long time. I hope her training holds.* *So do I. I’d hate to provide the honorable death she seeks.* When they were asleep, she slipped out to the garden where
the sarsa waited, moonlight gleaming over each facet until it seemed that
crystal woke and breathed, beckoning. She lifted the m’sarsa a Sharnn had held
and her lips moved in what could have been pleasure or pain or a feeling so
intense it transcended either. And light rippled off crystal, waiting. Murmuring wordlessly, she replaced his m’sarsa and took two
others from leather loops. She held the thin silver rods high over her head,
offering them to the three soaring moons, receiving their benediction, triple
light incandescent in her hands. She brought the m’sarsas down, touching
crystal in a torrent of notes that released shapes of light called by ancient
songs, timeshadows of former minds recalled by crystal music. Just beyond, in the small tere grove heavy with silence and
time, a shadow watched, waiting to be named, concealed among shadows that were
no more than simple shapes pressed out of tere trees. She did not sense hatred waiting, for she lived again in a
land not ruined, touched again a man not dead, crystal music soaring. In a room heavy with tapestries and time, a Sharnn turned
restlessly, dreaming of light twisted into half-life, timeshadows of minds condensing,
turning and returning with each perfect crystal note. His half-moaned protest
rose no further than his lips, for crystal music pulsed in consuming moment and
slid into half-fulfilled silence. He slept again, dreaming only Sharnn dreams. While she sank exhausted onto worn stones. And a shadow wept. IIFaen found them in the garden, standing near the sarsa in
the pearl light of early morning. The scarlet metal mesh of her long dress was
very fine, hardly more revealing than loosely woven cloth; the metal was the
color of new tere leaves, the color of new blood. Though her expression was
remote, her silver eyes were aware of every nuance of their bodies. “I owe you pleasure,” said Kayle formally. “Never have I
slept in such magnificence.” “Nendlet,” said Faen, “has one of the few cultures in the Concord
capable of appreciating the tactile complexities of Sandoliki Lere’s tapestries.” “An artistry your own gift precludes you from enjoying,”
said Kayle sadly. Faen made no response. Her eyes flicked over the garden,
paused at the base of a huge tere tree, and settled on the sliding colored
shadows thrown out of the sarsa. “I can’t leave Malia,” she said abruptly. “Why?” asked Ryth. “I am the last Sandoliki.” She looked at Ryth for a long moment,
then her eyes slid back to the prismatic sarsa shadows. “My duty is here.” “Your duty?” countered the Sharnn. “Or your desire to die?” Faen’s lips drew back very slightly, hinting at her perfect,
hard teeth without revealing them. “Malians do not hide from death. Sandolikis
do not hide from dying. Neither do we leave Malia.” “Not even to save your people?” said Ryth, then saw her eyes
change as her lips had and he bowed smoothly. “Your pleasure, Ti Faen. I was
slow to appreciate the depth of your needs.” “My—needs!” “Your needs,” repeated Ryth in the even tones of
agreement. “Sentience has needs. We need you. You need the sarsa. The sarsa
needs nothing, for it is not alive.” Faen gestured graceful agreement, but he sensed sliding laughter
as dream fragments turned and returned in white light, telling him something he
could not or would not grasp. Kayle spoke one word, hissing syllables peculiar to the language
of Nendlet. Faen’s body went rigid. Her eyes deepened into pale pools of cold
turquoise light. “Why would you refuse me the honor of combat?” she said
tonelessly. “You fight too well, daughter.” “Is your life so precious to you?” “Your life is,” said the Sharnn, cutting across Kayle’s
gentleness. “You are no use to me dead. You—” Faen’s servant appeared beneath the arch. He walked over toward
them, ignoring the sudden silence. Faen made no move to acknowledge him. *Did he hear?* asked Kayle. *Probably.* A man stopped a few feet from Faen. “Ti Memned calls, Sandoliki Ti.” He backed away several steps, turned and vanished with the
same muscular ease that had marked his arrival. *That one is a fighter,* mused Kayle. *And the other one is either cook or poisoner,* agreed Ryth. *Probably both. Hungry?* Kayle’s ironic laughter was heard only in Ryth’s mind—as was
the seductive rustle of scarlet mesh rubbing over itself and Faen’s smooth
flesh as she walked away from them. “Who is Ti Memned?” asked Ryth when Faen was no longer in
sight. “Lekel’s first mate.” “Faen’s friend? Equal? Enemy?” “Enemy. Faen has no equals. Lekel took Memned only after
Faen refused him publicly.” “People have died for less overt insults,” said Ryth.
“Second choices are usually unhappy ones.” “According to rumor, Memned’s father was Vintran and her
mother was a traitor.” “Proof?” demanded the Sharnn, urgency coiled in his abrupt
question. “None. The people who passed the rumor died under Lekel’s
knife,” said Kayle. “And Memned’s, of course. Only Faen escaped, and she is the
last true Sandoliki.” The Sharnn stood motionless, turning over each new fact in
his mind, looking for patterns, or even possibilities. The stillness was
disturbed by the thin whine of a flyer landing. Ryth made a sudden gesture of
completion as the outline of a pattern condensed in his mind. “I’ll bet that Faen is about to receive more servants or
official visitors,” said Ryth softly. “When we stayed last night and made no
move to leave this morning, Lekel must have become nervous.” “We have until sunset—one full Malian day. But I’d be a fool
to wager against you, Sharnn.” Kayle sighed. “I’ll need quiet for a time. The
Carifil should know what we know, just in case.” Ryth smiled wryly but said nothing. “I’ll be in our room,” murmured Kayle, turning away. Then he
stopped, as though remembering something. “Have you ever participated in a
group mesh?” “Not even a simple group link.” “Is it tabu on Sharnn?” “Only one thing is tabu on Sharnn.” “Oh?” Ryth smiled like a Sharnn. And said nothing. The Sharnn’s smile faded as he faced the sarsa. A scarlet
bird’s warning rang through the silence, but no answering call came. A second
searching call ended in trilling unease. Ryth noted the calls absently while he
stood before the changing, changeless crystals, absorbed in the play of light
and color and motionless crystal facets, elusive patterns and promises, uneasy
ripples of color, running together, running, warning— The Sharnn threw his body aside with flashing speed, turning
a death-blow into a thin line of red across his shoulder. His hand swept back,
twisted suddenly. He heard the sound of wristbones snapping. A high scream tore
the attacker’s throat as Ryth spun to face a man in Malian dress. Ryth bent and
caught the assassin’s ankle. The man kicked with his free foot, driving rigid
toes toward Ryth’s throat. But the Sharnn’s arm flicked sideways, the Malian’s
knee snapped and the lethal kick found only air as the man sprawled on stone. “I’ll kill you if I must,” said Ryth in Malian. The man’s good hand clawed out, but pain made him
over-eager. Ryth’s hard fingers twisted across the flailing arm. The result was
a swelling wrist for the Malian; both men knew Ryth could as easily have broken
the arm. Ryth watched as the Malian tried to gather himself for
another attempt. Then the man’s body relaxed subtly, and triumph flashed in his
eyes as he looked over Ryth’s shoulder. Ryth threw himself down and to one
side, at the same time pulling the injured man after him as a shield. Metal
screeched as two star-shaped weapons ground lethal points across the stone
courtyard. A third m’vire buried itself in the first assailant’s back. The man
gasped and went slack. Ryth’s eyes searched the grove where his mind told him two
people waited, but he saw nothing. He gauged the distance to a nearby stone
bench, threw off the assassin’s body, and rolled toward the shelter of the
solid stone. A m’vire hummed past his shoulder, slicing fabric as easily as it
sliced air. Ryth neither saw nor heard movement, yet a fifth m’vire
flashed in a long, low curve designed to take it behind the bench. The curve
was too shallow, but the meaning was clear; if Ryth moved away from the bench a
m’vire would find him. And he was certain that one of the assassins was
circling behind while the other kept him pinned down. The Sharnn waited. Soon the person approaching would be
within range of the other’s m’vire. Ryth knew that he had to move in the
instant before the person circling around was able to see him. Without giving
an outward sign, Ryth gathered his body, then he sprang from behind the bench
like a man diving into water. At the last instant he curled his body and rolled
into a shoulder-high growth of shrubs and nightvines. He did not stop rolling
until there was a wall of plants between him and the attackers. He listened for
the space of two breaths, then soundlessly pulled himself along on his stomach
until he was deep into the nightvine tangle, where bell-shaped flowers were
half-open in the gloom and their creamy fragrance drenched his body. He heard the hissing whispers of the two who searched for
him. With exquisite care he gathered himself into a crouch and waited for the
closer person to come within reach, A woman, knife ready, pushed slowly through
the tough vines. The instant that she was hidden from her partner, the Sharnn
brought her down with a single well-placed blow. He silently eased her body
into the vines, then just as silently slipped through the vegetation, pausing
only to listen for the remaining attacker. A m’vire slashed through the vines, then, nearly spent, dug
into Ryth’s thigh. Even as his mind retraced the m’vire’s trajectory, his hand
reached, pulled the weapon free and sent it spinning back to its source. A
startled grunt of pain broke the silence. Before the assassin could recover,
Ryth was too close for a m’vire to be effective. The man cursed and unsheathed a long, heavy knife. With his
first lunge, the attacker proved that he was not as skilled with the knife as
he was with the m’vire. Ryth’s fingers locked around the knife wrist and
yanked. At the same instant the Sharnn’s heel smashed across the man’s knee. Between
one breath and the next, Ryth’s assailant was helpless. The man crumpled into
unconsciousness. Ryth slipped back into the cover of the black vines,
listening with mind and body. When he sensed no further attackers, he relaxed
with a long sigh. And thought of Kayle. *Danger!* *Kayle’s answer was a silent chuckle, *Danger? In a lone, lamentably
inept assassin?* *There are three in the garden,* returned Ryth tiredly. *And
none of them lamentably inept.* *Am I permitted to play?* *I doubt if they feel like playing any more.* *Greedy of you.* Ryth laughed aloud, a startling sound in the hushed garden. *If
they object to being questioned, I’ll turn them over to you,* he promised. *Then you didn’t kill all of them? Excellent! I was sloppy
with mine,* added Kayle, a tangible sense of regret in his thought. *Don’t
start without me.* *Bloodthirsty Nendleti,* muttered Ryth to himself, divided between
amusement and respect. *Thank you,* returned Kayle serenely. Hastily, Ryth opaqued his thoughts. Ryth pushed through the fragrant vine flowers to the area
where the third assassin lay. He prodded the man in a particularly sensitive
area; no response. The man was truly unconscious. With a swift motion, Ryth
pulled the man up and over his shoulders. And swore when the knife-cut across
his shoulder opened painfully. He walked across the courtyard toward the sarsa and dropped
his burden next to the slack body of the first attacker. He returned to the
tangle of vines for the woman. She was barely conscious. He carried her out of
the vines and dumped her next to the two men. “Skillfully played, Ti Ryth.” Faen’s soft voice was totally unexpected, close. He spun to
face her, fingers rigid with fighting reflexes. But she had moved as quickly as
he and was out of reach. “You are soft-footed, Faen,” he said, and deliberately
turned his back on her. “Thank you, Ti Ryth. May I approach you?” “As you wish,” he said indifferently. Careful not to make any quick motions, Faen moved as close
as she could without touching him. Her pale eyes flicked over the blood
staining his shoulders, his hands, darkening the back of his leg. There was no
way to distinguish his blood from that of the assassins. “I cannot tell the extent of your injuries, Ti Ryth. Can you
remove your clothes without help?” “Small cuts.” He faced her, his voice roughened by fatigue.
“Nothing worse.” “There is the possibility of poison ...” She waited, her
stillness underlining her deference. Without further argument, the Sharnn pulled off his clothes.
In addition to the slash across his shoulder and the puncture on his leg, he
was surprised to find other cuts among the various scrapes and bruises. “M’vire,” said Faen briefly. “Coward’s weapon. May I approach
more closely?” “Whatever is necessary,” She stood very close, not quite touching, yet he could feel
her breath warm on his skin and he could count the dark lashes framing her
intent, silver eyes. An involuntary response to her nearness shivered through
him, a response that was quickly chilled by the memory of personal violation.
He breathed deeply, and the scent of sunshine and blood and Faen swept over his
senses. “The knife cuts are clean, as are most of the m’vire cuts.
This wound, though,” she knelt to look at the puncture mark high on the back of
his leg, “has dark edges. Does it hurt?” “No.” “Twice coward,” she said, glancing at the unconscious m’vire
thrower, “to use the paralytic poison.” When she turned back to re-examine the
puncture, her hair fanned across his leg. “The vines absorbed most of the
poison,” she said, reaching into a narrow pocket at the side of her clothes. “This
salve will neutralize the rest. Pull the lips of the wound apart, insert the
tip of the tube all the way to the healthy flesh and squeeze very gently. No
more than a drop. Quickly. The poison must not spread.” He gingerly lifted the small, needle-nosed tube from her
palm. He tried to follow her directions, but the wound was too high on the back
of his thigh. “I will apply it if you wish,” said Faen, her voice expressionless. He hesitated for a revealing moment, then dropped the tube
into her open hand. She also hesitated and her fingers trembled slightly. “This will not be pleasant for either one of us,” she said
hurriedly, low-voiced. “You can no more curb your revulsion than I can curb my
knowledge of it. You can help both of us by concentrating on something that
pleases you.” She took a deep breath. “Ready?” “Yes.” And unbidden came the memory of her warm breath over his
skin and the cool caress of her hair across his thigh. Faen’s breath caught
raggedly, but her hands were swift and sure. “Done.” She stood hastily. “The other cuts should be
washed—a drop of this salve to a basin of water. Your shoulder will require
closing tape. If you have no skill with tape, I’ll apply it.” “I’m in your debt,” he said uneasily, wondering if she had
caught his thoughts. She turned away, then stiffened; Kayle stood nearby. The breeze moved fitfully and dead leaves swirled across the
stones. Ryth shivered and pulled on his loose, warm shirt. “The cuts can wait until we’ve questioned the assassins,”
said the Sharnn, half-expecting Faen to object. When she remained silent, he leaned over and grabbed the
closest of the three attackers. The man hung limply in his grasp. Ryth checked
for signs of life, then dropped the man. “Dead,” said Ryth, his voice heavy with disgust. “Not surprising, Ti Ryth,” said Faen. “Broken wrist, smashed
knee, the long finger of a m’vire buried in his spine.” Ryth glanced sideways at her for an instant and suddenly
knew that she had seen the attack from the first move. Seen and done nothing to
prevent his probable death. But then, she was Malian, and owed him nothing at
all. Certainly not his life. His fingers locked in the clothing of the m’vire thrower.
The man was alive. Ryth pulled him upright and methodically began slapping him
into consciousness. “Why not the woman?” said Kayle. “She’s awake.” “She’s the least important.” Slap. “This one knows who wants
us dead. And why.” Slap. “He hired the others, planned the attack.” “You knew of this before?” “No.” Slap. “Pattern.” Ryth paused long enough to glance at the woman. She was fully
conscious, and could not have been more terrified if the Sharnn had been peeling
flesh from her living body. The man groaned and his eyes focused. The fear he
displayed surpassed that of the woman. A strangled word, a convulsion of muscles,
and the man was dead. Ryth dropped the corpse and grabbed the woman. He wrenched
her jaws apart, but it was too late. Her body stiffened, then slid bonelessly
from his grasp. Faen bent over the woman and sniffed warily. “Sel.” She
straightened. “Leave them for a hundred count. The poison will be harmless
then.” Ryth studied the three bodies, his face expressionless.
Bronze hair lifting in a vagrant breeze, he counted silently. When he reached
one hundred, he stripped the bodies, refusing Kayle’s offer of help. Each assassin’s
clothing was removed, examined, and stacked neatly beside the body. Ryth
examined the corpses with equal care, noting as he worked that all three had
the subtle skin shadings of Malians—darker at the spine, lighter at the
fingertips. The skin showed no trace of dye. Both men had the multicolored hair
characteristic of Far Island Talian. Ryth studied their hair closely, but found no sign of dye in
any of the various patches of color. Whether pale gold, chestnut, or darkest
brown, their hair was natural. Ryth let the last cool strand of hair slide
through his fingers. Without appearing to, he watched Faen as he asked, “Is Ti
Memned well?” “The call was broken before I could speak.” “Unfortunate,” said the Sharnn blandly. Faen made a dismissing gesture. “If it was important to her,
she’ll call again.” The Sharnn’s smile made Kayle move restlessly. *Was Faen part of it?* demanded the Nendleti. *I would take bets on either side. She saw, and neither
warned nor fought.* *She is Malian. Did you ask?* *I didn’t know she was nearby.* *She treated your poisoned leg.* *And if I had known about the poison without her warning?* *Yes,* agreed Kayle reluctantly. *Innocent or not, she had
to tell you about the poison.* *The broken call was improbably convenient.* *Sucking zarfs!* Ryth’s smile thinned even further as he watched Faen. “Do
Malian assassins routinely commit suicide?” “Few have the choice,” said Faen. “In their profession the
price of failure is death. It is a rare victim who has the skill to survive
without killing.” “Thank you, Ti Faen. But my question is not yet answered.” When she understood the implied accusation of conspiracy,
Faen’s body became very still. “The assassin’s code is intricate. Too intricate
for easy answers.” “I await your instruction.” “On which aspect?” “Sel.” “A potent, volatile poison derived from the roots of—” “Did you know that I wanted to question the assassins?” “I assumed as much.” “Did you also assume that they might be carrying sel?” “No.” “Oh?” said the Sharnn, his voice lazy. “Yet you knew just
what to look for when—” “I do not buy my deaths.” “Ti Faen,” said Kayle hurriedly, “no one suggested that
you—” Faen saw only Ryth, heard only the Sharnn’s unfinished sentence.
“After a battle,” she said distinctly, “we allow fighters the thirteenth part
of a day before we hold them responsible for the niceties of civilized conduct.
A matter of common sense and body chemistry.” She inhaled slowly and her eyes
lost their flat silver sheen. “Assassins who are sent after persons of very high
wealth, power, or birth carry sel. A precaution. If the assassins fail, if they
are captured alive, they cannot embarrass the person who stooped to buy death. “If they had attacked me I would have examined their mouths
for sel. But I was not attacked.” “What if the assassins fail to use their sel?” said Kayle. “There are worse ways to die. They know it.” “Interesting,” murmured Kayle. “Then assassins never survive
a failure?” “Did yours?” she asked curtly. “How did you know?” demanded Kayle. The metallic mesh in Faen’s garment hissed with her
impatient movement. “The middle knuckle of your left hand is slightly swollen.
Your robe is torn on the right sleeve. Your body smells of recent danger.” “You miss nothing,” said Kayle, admiringly. “I’m Malian,” she said curtly, looking back to Ryth. “Are
you through with the bodies?” “Can you tell us anything more about them?” “More?” “I examined them. I know they are Malian,” said Ryth, showing
the effort it cost him to be patient. “The men have a Far Island Talian phenotype.
The men are used to working together. The woman is new to their operation. All
four came in one flyer. Either they already knew the people of your household
or they were given excellent descriptions of Kayle and me. Or both.” “The woman,” said Faen. “Look at her left hand.” Ryth moved over to the woman and examined her hand carefully.
It had the callouses he expected of a knife fighter, a few thin knife scars,
and two barely healed cuts at the base of the palm. Nothing unexpected. He said
as much to Faen. “The fresh cuts.” “Yes?” said Ryth. “Oath cuts.” “Teach me.” Faen hesitated. When she spoke, her voice was a savage mixture
of pride and hatred and anger, but hatred most of all, for the subject was
Vintrans. “The inverted vee shape means ‘death to Vintrans.’ I was the first to
use it. It was during the Ti Vire.” Wordlessly, Ryth examined the hands of the other assassins.
If he looked carefully he could discern faded vee scars beneath more recent, random
lines. He looked at Kayle. “Mine wore gloves,” said Kayle. “A strangler,” said Faen, eyes opaque with old memories.
“Wire?” “Yes,” Kayle sighed. “Shall I go check him?” “He’ll be the same,” said Ryth. “But we’re not Vintrans.” “So you say. Yet you used a word to take my honor, something
Vintran armies tried and failed to do.” Faen turned away abruptly and walked to the sarsa. She
lifted the m’sarsa and the longest crystal, called vire, belled deeply four
times. A servant appeared, the man who walked like a fighter. Or an assassin.
Faen turned her head toward Ryth. “Do you want hands and hair?” “No.” Faen gestured to the servant. “Their weapons, n’Qen, to Ti
Ryth. A fourth,” she glanced at Kayle, “in your h’kel?” “Yes.” “That one belongs to Kayle.” “No hair or hands,” said Kayle. “Just the weapon will do.” N’Qen bent to gather the weapons. His posture was subtly
awkward—and the Sharnn’s hands flashed out, fingers digging into n’Qen’s flesh.
N’Qen remained bent, not breathing, paralyzed by the pain of Ryth’s fingers
grinding nerves against bone. Kayle’s boot sent a black-bladed knife spinning
out of n’Qen’s numbed fingers. The Sharnn’s hand moved slightly and n’Qen
gasped with returning breath. Kayle hooked his thumb over n’Qen’s lower jaw,
holding it open. “If you would be so kind as to examine him for sel,” said
Ryth blandly. Faen’s eyes were as pale as the shimmering vire crystal. She
stepped forward to examine n’Qen’s mouth. “Upper left, inside,” she said, stepping back. “Remove it,” snapped Ryth, watching each movement of her
body. “I touch no one.” Ryth increased the pressure until n’Qen passed out. Kayle removed
the flesh-colored sel capsule. He placed the knife and capsule carefully aside,
beyond either Faen’s or n’Qen’s reach. “May I?” said Kayle as n’Qen stirred sluggishly in Ryth’s
grasp. The Sharnn moved his hand In curt agreement. Then, “Wait.”
He stared coldly at Faen. “Do you know of any other means for an assassin to
defeat questioning?” Faen smiled humorlessly. “He can refuse to answer. Or he can
lie.” N’Qen’s eyes opened, dark with fear and hate. “He’ll talk,” said Kayle, “one way or another. Who hired you
to kill us?” N’Qen said nothing. Kayle’s fingertips flicked over n’Qen’s eyes. The touch was
too light to bring real pain. A warning. “Who hired you to kill us?” N’Qen said nothing, then screamed. “Who hired you to kill us?” Silence, a high scream, then silence again as n’Qen fainted. Faen’s lips thinned into parallel lines of distaste.
“Useless. Unless you enjoy it, of course.” She turned away to replace the m’sarsa in its holder. She
did not turn back. “What do you say, pattern-man?” asked Kayle. “He’s yours, after
all.” Ryth shifted his grip on n’Qen’s sagging weight. “He might
break before he died,” said Ryth after a thoughtful pause. “But I doubt it.
Even if he did, by that time he would swear to anything to stop the pain.” “I agree. I’m afraid I’ll have to rummage about in his mind.
Not my specialty. Rather uncomfortable for both of us.” Kayle moved so that his
back was not turned toward Faen. *I’m not going to bet my life on old training.
Watch her.* *Always.* Kayle effectively vanished as far as Ryth’s mind could discern.
N’Qen’s weight seemed to increase with each breath, and the extended silence
was a pressure behind Ryth’s eyes. He became aware of the stillness of dry tere
leaves hanging on wasted stems, waiting for wind and freedom. But the breeze
was frail, barely strong enough to stir unattached leaves, and the hanging
leaves must wait as Ryth waited, motionless. “Faen and Lekel.” Kayle’s voice was no stronger than a fallen leaf, thin with
exhaustion. Faen turned and her skirt flared urgently. Ryth let n’Qen
slide onto the stones and stepped forward to support Kayle. “Over here,” said the Sharnn, guiding Kayle to a bench
carved out of smooth golden stone. Kayle sighed and his body sagged against the cool surface.
“Not my ... specialty,” he repeated, his voice barely a whisper. “You should have let me help.” Kayle’s hand moved in a limp gesture of negation. “No training.
Would have ... killed him. Injured you. So few minds fit together at all.” “Did you find any answers?” said Ryth, staring intently at
Kayle’s exhausted face. “Your eyes ...” Kayle’s mouth twisted into a smile. “Glad I
won’t have to fight ... Sharnn.” Ryth’s hand gently squeezed Kayle’s shoulder. “No, you won’t
have to fight me.” He examined Kayle closely; the Nendleti’s eyes were focused
again and his muscles looked less slack “Better?” “Better,” said Kayle, but his voice was still too thin. A leaf scratched across stone, moved by the swinging scarlet
hem of Faen’s long dress. Ryth’s body leaped with readiness as he spun to face
her fully. But she was not within reach. “Ti Kayle?” she asked Ryth. “Tired. Just tired.” “Then let him rest.” “He’s not tired enough to welcome death.” Faen’s hand reached out as though she would have comforted
Kayle, then dropped back to her side even as Ryth moved protectively between
Faen and Kayle. N’Qen groaned. Ryth looked over at him, then at Faen, too
close to Kayle. “Stand by the sarsa,” Ryth said to Faen. “Request or order?” “Whichever moves you.” “The thirteenth part of a day,” said Faen, turning away. She
did not turn back until she reached the sarsa. “Are you sure this is far
enough?” “No, Ti Faen, I’m not sure. I’ve seen you move.” “Then I shall sit.” Faen smiled slowly, a smile that mocked
his caution. “A child could control me from this position.” Ryth looked at the dead assassins, at n’Qen struggling
against pain, felt Kayle’s exhaustion and the subtle agony of his mind. The
Sharnn strode toward Faen and crouched over her. When he spoke he sensed Kayle
flinching. With a surge of impatience the Sharnn shut out Kayle’s mind. “I’m neither Malian nor Nendleti,” said Ryth harshly. “I
take no pride in the people I have killed.” His eyes searched hers but found
nothing beyond a sense of waiting. “I am Sharnn. I have more interesting things
to do than fight fanatics. But,” he added, each word hard and distinct, “to
save Kayle I will fight you if I must, kill you if I must.” “If you can,” she murmured, undisturbed. “Ah yes ... your famous dargs vire.” “They don’t worry you.” Statement, not question. “They do worry me. You are always in my mind, Sandoliki Ti,
and my mind is needed for other matters.” “I am not the same as my dargs vire.” The Sharnn looked at her changing silver eyes, at her hair
burnished and sleek and black and her skin glowing through the cool metal mesh
of her dress. “Aren’t you?” he asked softly, “Then I need not worry about
Kayle, too weak right now to defend himself against your killing skills.” N’Qen groaned again, but both ignored him. “I no longer kill for hatred,” she said, her eyes almost
white with suppressed emotion. “And I never killed for pleasure. If you are
half what Kayle said you were, pattern-man,, you already know that.” “Yes,” the Sharnn said distinctly. “Pattern-man. But you
have no pattern. Except death. Shall we fight each other now? Your choice, Sandoliki
Ti.” “I have no reason to kill you.” “When did a Malian need a reason?” “You tire me, Sharnn. But that is no reason to kill you.” “And no reason to let me live. Not good enough, Sandoliki
Ti.” Faen’s lips twisted scornfully. “Do you want me to guarantee
your safety?” “I would prefer friendship, but that is alien to you. I’ll
settle for your guarantee that you won’t attack Kayle or me without warning.” “The word he spoke was meant to guarantee that. Will that
guarantee work both ways?” The Sharnn’s face showed his surprise. “Of course.” “Of course? That’s not what your eyes told me.” Her face was
unreadable. “A truce, then. For today?” “For every day.” She measured him for a long moment, until her eyes changed,
drawn by Sharnn eyebrows arched beneath thick bronze hair, intense green eyes
slanting above the strong planes of his face and his mouth, as perfect as a
Malian’s. A mouth she could not touch, even lightly, even once, for he despised
her. Again she heard the Great Destroyer’s laughter and again she asked why,
but there was no answer, nor would there be. Faen’s eyes closed and she made a slow gesture with her
hands that meant both agreement and dismissal. Then she laughed, echo of the
hard laughter she had heard in her mind. “I’m glad I amuse you, Sandoliki Ti.” The Sharnn
straightened with a fluid movement and walked over to the groaning n’Qen. “Are
you finished with him, Kayle?” “Yes. He knew nothing of the other assassins.” The Sharnn dragged n’Qen to his feet. “Walk. It will ease
the pain. Move your arms like this. Yes. Now your shoulders. Good. Walk.” N’Qen stumbled around the courtyard, supported by the Sharnn
when necessary. After a few minutes n’Qen could walk by himself, though he
lacked his former grace. “What will you do with him?” said Faen when the Sharnn
passed near the sarsa. “Nothing.” N’Qen lurched and would have fallen if Ryth had not caught
him. “Do you hate n’Qen that much?” she asked. “Hate? I’m giving him his freedom.” “Then you are more cruel than a Malian. Far more cruel.” The Sharnn looked at Faen and knew she meant each word. “Lekel’s skill is legendary,” said Faen, her voice soft and
chilling. “What does Lekel have to do with this?” “N’Qen is Lekel’s vire son; Lekel could do no less for him
than he did for the most important of his prisoners.” Ryth looked at n’Qen’s young face, blank with fear, and felt
the horror that shook the assassin’s body. “Did Lekel put him here to kill your guests?” Faen made a gesture of total indifference. “Whether his vire
father knew or not is of no importance. N’Qen has failed as an assassin; he
must redeem that failure by honorable death. Death by torture is honorable, if
he does not die too quickly. Death at your hands is also honorable—and hopefully
swift.” “No,” whispered the Sharnn. “There must be another way.” His mind raced, seeking a pattern that did not end in death.
“If I take him off-planet?” Faen sighed “N’Qen!” Her voice cracked with command. N’Qen’s eyes focused on her
reluctantly. “Did you leave hostages with Lekel when you came to Darg
Vintra?” “My wife ... my daughter and son.” Faen’s pale eyes moved back to Ryth. “If he lives and you
live, his family dies. It is the Malian way to ensure cowardice is not passed
on.” The Sharnn looked questioningly toward Kayle, who was
walking slowly toward them. “N’Qen is yours,” said Kayle hoarsely, “but if you won’t
kill him, I will fight you for the right.” “N’Qen,” said Ryth harshly. “N’Qen!” N’Qen’s eyes focused in response to the commanding voice.
“Kill me.” He read the decision in Ryth’s eyes and smiled as the edge
of Ryth’s hand descended in a blur of power. Ryth lowered n’Qen’s body to the stones. For a long time he
looked at the man he had not wanted to kill. When he looked up, shadows moved
in his eyes, cold and empty. He saw the sudden fear in her eyes and he ignored
it. Nothing seemed important but the corpse of the man who had smiled at death
descending, a pattern ugly to a Sharnn. Without speaking, the Sharnn retrieved n’Qen’s knife and put
it in the simple leather sheath at n’Qen’s thigh. The sel capsule he ground
into the stones with casual indifference to the poison’s potency. He shifted
n’Qen’s dead weight across his shoulders and set off toward the flyer strip. He
made the trip four more times; four more bodies. Neither Faen nor Kayle spoke,
only watched, for the Sharnn’s eyes were those of a man not quite sane. When Ryth completed his last trip, he came and stood before
them. His clothes were dark with others’ blood and bright with his own. He
stood within reach of Faen. “Release her from the word.” “So you can kill her?” said Kayle. “Sorry, my friend. No.” “Release her,” repeated Ryth, his shadowed eyes fastened on
Faen’s emotionless face. “We need her.” The Sharnn waited, unmoved. His body was both relaxed and
poised, a predator crouching. “Release her.” “There is no need to release me,” said Faen. “The word’s
hold died on Skemole.” Faen and Ryth measured each other, tension rising between
them like the tide of an invisible wild sea. “At this instant you would like to kill all things Malian,”
she said, her soft voice riding on the waves of tension. “I know. I have felt
like you. And I have learned that though I kill and kill and kill I cannot
bring back one smile, one tear, one brief touch from the past. Only the sarsa
can do that. “Go to the sarsa. Go and call back the soul that was you
before n’Qen died.” The tide surged, broke ... and drained away until it became
only blood dripping from Ryth’s fingertips, a Sharnn’s blood falling on ancient
Malian stones. As he watched the vivid drops, his eyes slowly changed back to
silver-green, clear and without shadows. “Release her,” he sighed, and felt Kayle’s mind in his,
uncertain. “Trust me,” said the Sharnn, closing his mind. He felt Faen’s fingertips brush his face, breathed the
fragrance of her hair, sensed compassion like a cool caress through his ragged
emotions. An instant, and the presence was gone. “Take him away from here,” she said to Kayle. “Malia will destroy
him.” “I doubt it,” said Kayle. Faen turned on him so swiftly that her robes flared out,
scattering fragrance as well as scarlet light. “You don’t understand! Four assassins and sel and hostages.
Lekel’s vire son can only be avenged by Ryth’s death.” Kayle smiled coldly. “The Sharnn has proved difficult to
kill.” “Ryth is strong, yes, and fierce and skillful, but anyone
can be killed, Kayle. Anyone! The next flyer could carry ten assassins, twenty,
fifty. Do you think so little of Ryth that you want him to die on Malia?” “Why do you care?” asked Ryth softly. “Malia is too strong for aliens.” “I’ll survive,” said the Sharnn curtly. “Release her.” Faen turned to leave and a hissing word followed her. “You are released,” said Kayle simply. Faen turned slowly around. “I was never held, Ti Kayle. But
thank you for your trust.” She hesitated, then looked at Ryth. “Quickly.
Whoever sent those assassins will be expecting a report.” “Probably,” said the Sharnn, unconcerned. “I may have to wear
my cape before our day is up.” “This isn’t a matter of honor,” said Faen scathingly.
“Nor are you Malians to care if it were!” Ryth shrugged, and pain raced as his shoulder wound bled
again. “We need you. We’re staying.” Faen’s eyes burned with suppressed anger. She moved toward
him, her crimson clothes restless in the wind. The thin whine of flyers
descending disturbed the garden again. A scarlet bird called once, twice, then
silence spread uneasily. The Sharnn looked only at Faen, walking toward him with
the gliding ease of an assassin. She stopped just beyond his reach and looked
at him for a suspended moment. “Your shoulder,” she said. “It’s not the first injury I’ve ever had,” said Ryth, “nor the
worst.” “But you will fight better with it taped.” She tilted her
head up to him and her flawless lips were pale. “For you will fight, Sharnn.
And die. What can I possibly tell you before sunset that is worth dying for?” “Ask me just before I die.” Faen’s eyes changed, silver tarnished by certainty of his death
and her fingers moved swiftly over his lips, light pressures and sliding
caresses that were phrases in t’sil’ne, Malia’s tactile language. He flinched away, more in surprise at his own leaping
response than in fear of whatever she might find in his mind. But she knew only
that he flinched. She stepped back, eyes like white flame burning against the
night of her unbound hair. The scarlet bird’s warning trilled through the grove as yet
another flyer whined onto the pad. Then the bird called again, high and urgent,
a song as exquisite as sarsa music. Faen closed her eyes and for an instant the clean lines of
her face seemed to blur. “My error,” she said, her voice flattened of all music, all
echoes. “My regret. T’sil’ne is a Malian experience and to you my touch is—” Her hand moved abruptly and she stepped further back, unseeing,
wanting only to forget the last few moments. Her bare foot came down where an
assassin had died, blood half-dry on ancient stones. She screamed, voice raw
with pain, and threw herself aside, landing with a balance that was reflex
only, for her mind was reliving the searing instant of death by sel. Kayle reached out, unthinking, barely touched her before he
remembered, and she would have screamed again at his touch but she bit her lip
until blood flowed the color of new tere leaves, bridal scarlet, and she
swayed, fighting for control. Kayle turned on Ryth. “Hold her,” he snapped. “Your touch
pleases—” “No!” Faen’s voice was a ragged cry of pain and memory of
revulsion she needed to forget. She must forget. “No.” “But—” “No,” she said hoarsely. “You don’t understand what you ask
of me. Of him.” Her slim fingers trembled through her hair. But when she spoke,
her voice was calm again, and toneless. “Shall I touch you, Kayle. Shall I rape
your private mind? Would you enjoy that? Would you stroke my lips and whisper
loving thanks?” Kayle’s eyes closed; he had no comfort for her truth. “Tell me, Kayle. Tell me how much you would like touching
me.” Then she laughed, a sound worse to hear than her scream. “Stop it!” snapped the Sharnn, angered by her pain, not understanding
her pattern, for it was too close to his. And he did not understand that, either. “Think about it, Kayle,” she said. “Then send the Sharnn
away. Out of reach.” “What about Malia’s future?” asked Kayle. She leaned toward the Nendleti, her face unsmiling and serene.
“We let the poison fruit grow. If it must be eaten, we will eat it to the
core.” Her pale eyes cleared, now more crystal than silver, more turquoise than
either. “The dead can only destroy the living. Send the Sharnn away, where his
radiance can shine forever, fierce and alive. Forever.” Kayle turned away from the truth in her eyes, and the
beauty. He looked over at the tall Sharnn whose shoulders and hands and chest wore
blood both bright and black. Malia had nearly killed him once. Would he survive
the next time? Ryth saw Kayle’s face change. “No,” the Sharnn said, moving abruptly back from both of
them, his body flexed in subtle warning. “I need Faen’s skill. She and I can
work together. Without touching each other. At all.” He stared at Kayle, then
back into the transcendent stillness of her eyes. “Agreed?” Something moved deep within Faen’s stillness, grief or laughter
or both in harmony. “Pattern-man. Life is so easy for you.” At the Sharnn’s
abrupt gesture, she added negligently, “Oh, I agree. Yes. So wonderfully easy.” And she laughed in sad amusement while he pulled on his
bloody shirt. The scarlet bird’s warning rose and fell in superb urgency
as another flyer landed. Faen tilted her head, eyes closed, listening. Then her
lips shaped an answer that was inhumanly beautiful. The Sharnn leaned toward
her, his every sense absorbed. Another call came from the grove, a pure rill of
music that she answered, soft lips gleaming, alive, throat pulsing and he
swayed closer, bending over her, almost touching, wanting only to drink from
her lips the tere bird’s song, until he remembered and his face twisted. There
was nothing personal in her allure, no special invitation to him. She was
simply a Malian aristocrat, sensual and compelling in the extreme. She was
Faen. And he was a fool. He shuddered, awakening the slash across his shoulder, but
both fresh pain and blood were welcome. In control again, he stepped back, away
from her. When the last exquisite note soared beyond hearing and her eyes
opened once more, neither his face nor his body showed his desire for her. One day only. Once only. But the Sharnn rebelled and then understood how deeply Malia
had rooted in his senses. And Faen. *No!* He did not realize he had linked with her, mind touching
mind, telling her that he would not leave. “You must,” she said, hands spread in mute pleading. “There
are too many. They will kill you.” But even as she spoke, her mind called to him, inarticulate
with joy at hearing an echo return changed, stronger. Then she realized what
had happened and closed down her mind with a skill that exceeded his ability. “Kayle,” she said, turning to the Nendleti with an urgency
that flared her long dress. “Tell him he must leave.” Kayle’s acute ears caught both the accents of desperation in
her voice and the sounds of people approaching through the tere grove. “He must leave,” she repeated. “He must live.” “No time,” sighed Kayle. “He has chosen.” Faen looked from one to the other and realized the futility
of argument. With startling speed she moved to the wall. Her fist smacked a
hidden relay and the outer gate snapped shut, creating an apparently seamless
wall. Her hand moved again, hovering over a hidden comnet relay. Once activated,
everything said or done on either side of the wall would be amplified and
transmitted to every point on the surface of Malia. “The moment I activate the comnet, you are my servants.” “Servants?” said Kayle. “Yes. As such, you might be allowed to stay. Or at least to
leave alive.” Her eyes raked over Ryth and she said, mind and voice, “Agreed,
Sharnn?” He shrugged and bled again. “Agreed.” And both knew the agreement held only so long as he was
permitted to stay; he had no intention of leaving without what he had come for,
though to remain was death. “Follow my lead in everything, pattern-man. Everything!” Faen’s hand swept over the relay. The atmosphere changed
subtly, so subtly that only a Malian would have noticed. Or a Sharnn who had
begun to conceive of being Malian. They heard the sounds of people approaching the outer gate.
There were low murmurs of surprise when the men realized that the wall was
sealed against them. Faen called out, her voice hard with the certainty of imperial
power. “I am the Sandoliki Ti. By what right do you crowd my space?” There was a long hush while the men on the other side of the
wall digested the implications of her demand. “Apologies and regrets, Ti, May we inquire if you are ...
alone?” “You may not.” Silence. Then, “We are honored by your voice. We have told
Sandoliki Ti Lekel of our honor. He has instructed us to honor your presence
with our bodies.” Faen’s mind snarled a Malian curse. But when she spoke, it
was in the incisive tones of the imperial voice. “Honor me at a greater distance or my servants will have
your hair and hands.” Ryth heard the shuffle of people withdrawing, but not very
far. Faen’s teeth flashed in a cold smile as she blanked the comnet. “They won’t fight?” asked Kayle softly, incredulous. “I am a problem for the k’m’n Sandoliki’s Imperial Guards,”
said Faen, satisfaction brittle in her voice and smile. “I am the last true
Sandoliki. There is only one death price to equal killing the last of a family;
if I die at Lekel’s command, everyone related to him by blood or marriage would
be slaughtered within hours. Lekel himself would die very slowly, ministered to
by all the skills of the First Assassin.” Kayle turned to the silent Sharnn whose blood welled and ran
down to drip slowly onto dry Malian stone. With an angry gesture, Kayle
indicated the wound. “Let’s see it.” Ryth began to object, but something in the Nendleti’s hard orange
eyes stopped him. With a smooth movement that mocked the very idea of injury,
Ryth pulled off his loose outer shirt. Beneath a veneer of blood his muscles
slid and coiled with undiminished strength. He turned his back to Kayle and
stood motionless beneath Malia’s pouring light. Before Kayle could step forward, Faen was there, standing between
him and the Sharnn, close enough to Ryth to sense the warmth of his body but
not touching him. Her silver eyes measured both his strength and his wound. “Twist toward Kayle,” she said, and flinched subtly when the
long cut pulled apart in a travesty of a smile. But Ryth did not flinch, for pain was not a new concept to a
Sharnn of the Seventh Dawn. Faen spoke, looking back at Kayle. “Deep, but not crippling.
No muscle or major blood vessel completely severed. With healing powder and
tape—” “—he will live to be killed by Imperial Guards,” finished
Kayle bitterly. “Thank you, Ti Faen.” The powerful hum of a nine-flyer filled all the silences of
courtyard and garden. Kayle looked at Ryth as the flyer vanished beyond the
tere grove. Sudden quiet told them the flyer had landed. “Well, pattern-man, what now?” “All things are equally probable.” With a dissatisfied grunt, Kayle turned to Faen, but she
merely stood, watching the Sharnn. Pain moved like lightning through her eyes
and her fingers traced a t’sil’ne phrase near his back, but not touching. Not
touching. “Strap on your knife, Sharnn,” she said, her voice devoid of
the emotions that burned behind her silver eyes. He turned to face her but she would not meet his eyes as she
gestured to the niche where his knife lay. He went to the niche and strapped on
the knife. His hand stroked the restless, shimmering Sharnn cape, but did not
remove it; she had only mentioned the knife. He pulled on his bloody shirt and
turned to face her. She neither spoke nor looked at him, and into the hush came
the tere bird’s warning. Faen did not answer. The call came again, only to be answered by silence. The scarlet
bird called yet again, flawless song rising and falling as though perfect
beauty would compel an answer. But Faen’s lips did not move, and the tere bird’s answer
came from beyond the wall, crystal music from a small sarsa, a man’s song
composed of passion and pain and unexpected silences. The song’s impatience was
surpassed only by its strength, its pain only by its silences. And through all
was woven sensual power, skilled consummation. The core of melody was as
seductive as the trembling throat of a ripe zamay. “Lekel,” murmured Faen, and she whispered a Malian phrase
too low for Ryth to hear. Then she turned to him and spoke as clearly as the
tere bird’s final call. “Listen to me, laseyss.” Though the word was unfamiliar to Ryth, the urgency of her
beautiful voice riveted his attention. “I listen,” he said with equal softness. “There are many ways this day might end, and I will try each
one of them—do you believe me?—I will try each one before I try the last. But
if I must,” she leaned toward him, face tilted up and her eyes holding his, “if
I must try the last, you must help me. If I lift my arms, then you must come to
me, kneel beneath my hands and think of the most delightful thing you know.” The Sharnn’s body tightened subtly, but she continued as if
she had not noticed, low-voiced, relentless. “If we come to that last ending, then remember—remember and
believe—that whatever I do is honorable. You must not show revulsion. You must
not! Then you will live to call my song on the sarsa. Just once, laseyss. Once
is not too much to ask, even of a Sharnn.” She turned her face away, but he saw sadness pooling in her
eyes and thought he heard her say again the word that he did not understand. “Laseyss?” he said, his voice a harsh whisper. “What is that
word?” Faen’s only answer was a variation of the tere bird’s song,
an eerie threnody that went no further than him. Then she changed as he
watched, withdrawing, eyes more dark than silver, body poised, deadly as sel
and far more potent. With a blur of speed she activated both comnet and gate. K’m’n Sandoliki Lekel’s entourage waited just beyond, where
nightvine and cream flowers coiled, their scented strength and patience pervading
the rust-tasting wind. A tall woman dressed in the burnt orange of Lekel’s
guards walked forward with the confident stride of a fighter. With, dazzling
skill she slipped two long knives out of their sheaths and presented the
weapons, hilt forward, to Faen. “Sandoliki Ti Lekel honors Sandoliki Ti Faen,” said the
woman formally. “How pleasant for the k’m’n Sandoliki,” said Faen, giving
Lekel the lesser title as she waved the knives away with a negligent fingertip. A man’s indulgent laughter leaped above the suddenly motionless
guards. Then they divided to allow a man’s passage. Tall and lean, fair-haired
and supple, Lekel came forward with a stride that made his orange robe shift
like wind-driven flame. He stopped only when another step would have caused a
collision with Faen. Then he stood so near to her that the edges of his robes
slid over the scarlet mesh of her hem. Only Ryth sensed the pain/anger that
sprayed through her at the contact, yet she did not retreat. “Your tongue was always your most interesting weapon,” said
Lekel, his brown eyes moving over her with tangible hunger. “It’s the only one you’ve dared to test,” Faen said coldly. Lekel laughed and lifted his hands as though to hold her
face between his palms, but again he stopped just short of actual touch. “Your hatred is sweeter than any woman’s love,” he murmured. Lekel’s lips were so close to Faen’s that she could feel his
breath, but she could not move back without touching his hands curved around
her face. Ryth felt her pain and pride and something deeper than either that
would have responded if it could, for she was Malian and must touch and could
not, so she stood proud and helpless and angry between Lekel’s hands almost
touching her rage. Ryth became absolutely still, savoring the death that awoke
inside him, stretching as it had not stretched since Sharn until the garden
quiet became absolute, a slow revolving of the moment around the renaissance of
Sharnn anger. “Little sister,” breathed Lekel, “when I taste your—” But Faen was gone in a sinuous blur of speed that took her beyond
Lekel’s reach and close to the Sharnn’s stillness. She pulled Ryth’s savage
radiance around her like an invisible cape. Lekel’s dark eyes raked over the Sharnn who was as beautiful
as a Malian and as deadly, but no Malian had eyes like that, silver and green,
rage turning. Lekel forced his attention back to Faen, but before he could pursue
her, another woman walked forward and stood just behind his arm. She was as
tall as Faen, but nothing more of her could be seen, for she wore robes in
every shade of maroon, and head veils so thick that they masked all but her
grace. “I am honored to hear the Sandoliki Ti Faen’s voice,” said
the woman, her own voice totally lacking intonation. “When our call was cut
off, I worried that something might have gone ill with you.” “Disappointed, Memned?” said Faen, an expression of contempt
arching her lips. Her eyes flicked back to Lekel. “And why do you accompany
that thin copy you call your wife? Have you lost some of your loving Vintrans?” The loathing in Faen’s voice when she said “Vintrans” was
enough to make Ryth’s skin tighten. “Not lately,” said Lekel with a cold smile. “But I see
you’ve found two for yourself.” Faen’s eyes went white. “Apologies and regrets, de f’mi ti,” Lekel said, with a
slight bow. “I know you would not permit Vintrans so close to your warmth.” Ryth watched the two Sandolikis, sensed the long-flowing currents
of rage and humiliation, desire and revenge that colored every word spoken
between them. And the Sharnn wondered why she had not killed Lekel long ago. “De f’mi ti?” repeated Faen, her lips curving in a cruel
smile. “And just how would you know that I am a great sensualist? The one time
you touched me was scarcely a pleasure for either of us, n’ies?” Lekel’s eyes darkened to black as old pain twisted in them.
She saw, and smiled. “Condolences, Memned,” she murmured to the woman hidden
behind maroon veils. “Even a Vintran deserves better than a rapist.” The garden became absolutely still as everyone waited to see
if Memned or Lekel would challenge Faen. Then the rustle of Memned’s heavy
veils broke the moment. Lekel’s fingers moved beneath her veils in quick
t’sil’ne phrases and she leaned toward him, fingertips on his lips, answering. “I’ll have to accept your word for that, Sandoliki,” said
Lekel coldly. “Yours is the greater experience with Vintrans.” Faen merely smiled, though her eyes were still white. And
Lekel stared at her with real need, torn among anger and hunger and regret
until he sighed very softly. “There are two here,” said Lekel, looking only at Faen’s perfect
lips, “who have stayed longer than—” “Not so,” interrupted Faen. “They have until the moment of
sunset. And their need is great. One of them I owe from the past when another
lived in my skin. I would help him, but it needs more than a day.” “No.” “But—” “The Sandoliki Ti Faen remembers our agreement?” From the change in her eyes, Ryth knew that at least one
possibility had just been destroyed. “The Sandoliki Ti remembers,” she said. “No seeker may stay
with me for more than one day, and only once in three hundred. Including the
k’m’n Sandoliki Lekel,” she added with a coldness that was worse than a knife. “As for sunset,” began Lekel, “they have murdered five—” “Not murder,” said Faen, her voice an imperial whip. “One
for one and one for four.” “Four?” “The Sandoliki Ti Faen witnessed it,” said Faen formally.
“The Sandoliki Ti Faen celebrates a Sharnn called Ryth.” Lekel’s eyes narrowed darkly; but he did not look at Ryth. “I am keeping him to guard the privacy of my spaces,” said
Faen. “As my servant, he is free to stay.” Wind surged out of the tere grove, flapped robes and veils. “You have just killed him,” said Lekel. Three of his guards leaped outwards, forming a triangle
around Ryth, two in back and one in front. So great was their haste that they
miscalculated their distance from Faen. The wind lifted a fighter’s robes,
snapped it across the back of Faen’s legs. When she sensed the other’s aura,
she cried out with pain. Before Lekel could speak, Ryth’s foot caught the
offending guard on the temple. As the man crumpled, Ryth spun, body and hands
blurring with the speed of his movements. Two blows landed as one and the
Sharnn stood alone. No more than an instant had passed since Faen cried out. He
sensed a flash of triumph from her and knew that she had permitted that painful
touch and cried out for a reason he did not yet know. “They are alive,” said Ryth coldly, “because the Sandoliki
Ti Faen doesn’t need their miserable deaths. But if they impinge upon her space
again—” “I’ll kill them myself,” said Lekel. Ryth knew that Lekel meant it; that Faen’s pain was Lekel’s
pain; that Lekel would have killed to avoid the slightest discomfort for Faen. “He fights like a Malian,” said Lekel, turning to Faen. “He fights for me.” “No.” There was regret in Lekel’s voice almost equal to his
jealousy. Almost, but not quite. “No, my Faen. No man for you but one I
choose.” “Then remember,” she said, voice bittersweet with triumph,
“that it is you who have chosen!” Faen turned toward Ryth, lifting her arms in a gesture that
was both imperious and disturbingly sensual. Slowly, like a wild animal drawn
against his deepest instincts, the Sharnn came to her and knelt beneath her
hands. “Your knife, de f’mi Ryth.” Like her gesture, her voice was both commanding and smoky
with desire. Ryth drew his knife from beneath his shirt with startling
speed. The worn metal flashed in the sun as he turned the knife so that the
blade pointed away from Faen. Her slim hand grasped the hilt. With a movement
as swift as his, she cut away the shoulder of his shirt with the tip of the
blade. The long, slightly curved wound showed red in the sun. Just beyond the
major slash were two shorter cuts, signature of a m’vire. Blood welled slowly
from deep within the longest wound. He thought he heard Lekel call her name, but it was too
late, had been too late from the moment she had first known Ryth’s seething radiance.
She knelt in front of him and her proud head bent until her lips were close to
his ear and only he could hear her words. “Life is never easy, pattern-man,” Faen said softly. “By
Malian rituals I may either kill you now ... or touch you. Your choice.” Ryth stared into the silver eyes so close to his, but saw
neither triumph nor malice, only the immense compassion he had sensed once
before. She knew what her touch cost him. And her. He closed his eyes,
answering her so softly that she could have imagined rather than heard the
words. “Touch me.” “Give yourself to the ritual, Ti Ryth,” she breathed into
his ear as she laid his knife on the stone between their bodies. “Lose yourself
in its inevitable pattern. And help me, Sharnn. It will be the last time.” She sensed the power within him surge to meet whatever came.
His eyes opened green and deep and calm. Her hands trembled slightly, but only
he was close enough to see. Her fingertips brushed his forehead and her voice
echoed zamay and night and desire. While she spoke, her fingers moved over his
flesh in the light touches and subtle pressures of t’sil’ne, making him come
alive with an awareness that was beyond words. “You have thought of me ... seen me ... heard me ... spoken
to the core of my life,” she said, her voice like a song. “Now I speak to
yours.” She bent over his shoulder in a cool cascade of black hair.
Her lips on his wound sent shockwaves of conflicting emotions through him, as
did her soft apology for such intimacy. When she straightened, her eyes were
tarnished but her fingers continued to stroke in ancient ritual. “Blood shed for me, deaths brought to me—” He saw that her mouth was no longer narrow, but full and
red, his blood on her lips that spoke sweetly, relentlessly, and suddenly he
understood the ritual, was aware of a deadly pattern. “—life giving life to me. I cannot fight him who brings
life.” Her hand dove between them, raised his knife in a flashing
arc meant to open her own throat, but his hand was moving before her fingers
touched the hilt. He tried to deflect the blade entirely, but her skill and
speed were too great. The knife hissed across her shoulder and blood flowed
down her scarlet robes. Faen’s angry cry was lost in the collective gasp of the
watching men. Before she could fight, she found her face held in the gentle
vise of his fingertips speaking to her flesh while his resonant voice compelled
a different end to the ritual. “You have thought of me ... seen me ... heard me ... spoken
to the core of my life. “Now I speak to yours.” His hands tore the mesh of her robes, revealing the red line
of blood. She moaned softly when his lips touched her wound, but when she tried
to fight him she found herself helpless in the grip of his mind. His mental
presence shocked her more than his touch. When he lifted his head, she saw her
blood on his lips and knew she was defeated. His fingertips touched her with
the incandescent skill of a Malian lover. “Blood shed for me, deaths brought to me—” Her eyes closed and she would have escaped into unconsciousness
but he did not allow her even that. “—life giving life to me. I cannot fight her who brings
life.” His fierce presence swept away her half-formed protests.
When his lips again touched her wound, the knife slid from her hand and fell
onto the stones. Her head bent over his wounded shoulder, then lifted to him.
Their lips met, their blood mingled. Her whole body trembled, but her voice was
that of the Sandoliki Ti. “Blood of my blood, there is only life between us now.” The savage ritual was complete. Ryth pulled Faen to her feet, then released her. He sensed
her weakness in the faint swaying of her body, yet her head was high and proud
as she looked at Lekel. Ryth followed her glance, and saw that Lekel was a man
who would gladly kill. “The Sandoliki Ti has spoken,” said Lekel harshly. “Malia rejoices.”
He stared at the Sharnn with palpable hatred. “And you—” “He is Sandoliki Ti Ryth,” said Faen, coldly, and only Ryth
sensed the effort it cost her. Lekel paused and his lips jerked. “Sandoliki Ti ... Ryth!” The Sharnn bent to pick up his knife, but Faen was faster. “This is mine, now.” She rose and faced Lekel again, Ryth’s knife in her hand and
her mind flat with exhaustion, but not her voice. “Near-sister,” began Lekel. “No,” she said gently, implacably. “I am no longer your potential
mate.” Lekel’s face changed and the possibility of death bloomed
like an invisible flower. “No insult,” she said formally. “Merely fact. The Sandoliki
Ti may have only one mate.” “De f’mi—” he said, voice rich with emotion. “No.” Her eyes looked through him. “Never.” If Lekel had sensed her exhaustion, he would have challenged
her, but Lekel heard only her unyielding words, saw only her remorseless eyes.
He wanted her more than he had since the day he inadvertently drove her off
Malia, but he had learned much since that day. He bowed to her and to Malian
tradition, but his eyes were like hands touching the warmth of her flesh. Faen could not look away, for to do so would shout her weakness.
“Though you are only distant kin,” she said, “I will permit you kin question.
Has Sandoliki Ti Ryth insulted you or your family’s honor in any way?” Faen’s words were a traditional invitation to challenge Ryth
for any past slights. Lekel’s desire to make that challenge burned behind his
eyes. “And when I win?” Lekel said softly. Faen’s smile was more cruel than any words. “I will kill
you.” “I won’t fight you, Faen. For if I win ...” Lekel sighed and
controlled his voice as he addressed Ryth. “No past insults have been noted.” “Witnessed and completed,” said Faen; then she blanked the
comnet. Without a word, she turned and walked through the small arch
into the sanctuary of her machine-made kel. Kayle and Ryth were only a
half-step behind. The arch door hissed closed behind diem. Without looking at either man, Faen opened a door to a long,
narrow room with curving walls and ceiling. While Ryth and Kayle hesitated on
the threshold, Faen’s fingers danced over a panel made of textured strips and
glowing lights. In response to her touch the room seemed to change, walls and ceiling
receding and sunset light slanting through a sky that had never known
rust-tasting wind, where the smell of ancient tere groves drifted above scarlet
leaves and a river flowed swift and sweet and green through a land not yet
ruined. Kayle moved as though to follow her. *No,* ordered the Sharnn curtly. *Give her space.* She seemed to walk into the distance, swallowed by the
tricks of light and scent and space, and the Sharnn’s thoughts were a compound
of respect and regret and a desire so pervasive that it was as omnipresent and
unnoticed as the air they breathed. *Marvelous,* thought Kayle, eyes wide as he examined the
seamless illusion created by the h’kel. *Like our omni-synth.* The room was a valley edged by jagged blue-black mountains
wearing crowns of ice. The wind from their summits was pure and bright, rich
with the promise of sanctuary. Tere leaves stirred in the wind with a sound
like water flowing, a sound that was echoed by the river itself, blue-green
pools and silver rapids linked by transparent shallows gliding over smooth
black stones. There was a flash of red as Faen stripped off her clothes
and spread her fingers to the clean, sun-swept air. Her hair burned blackly in
the embrace of sunset light. Ryth swayed unknowing as Faen knelt by the river. Silver
drops of water sprayed from her fingertips and he thought he heard her laugh or
cry but he could not be sure which, for a cloud of unbound hair concealed her
face like a baffling pattern. Her pattern. “Do you know her pattern yet?” asked Kayle, echoing the
Sharnn’s thoughts. “What does laseyss mean?” countered Ryth. Kayle hesitated, shocked. Then he smiled. *Will you play a
child’s game with me, Ti Ryth?* returned Kayle, riding out the storm of demand
from the Sharnn until Ryth shrugged, accepting. *Yes.* *The rules are simple. Imagine something of great value to
you. Something rare and unique and absolutely compelling. No—don’t tell me what
you have imagined. Just imagine it. Ready?* *Yes,* thought Ryth, and the single word crackled painfully
in Kayle’s mind. *Now imagine that you have two choices. I will give you what
you have imagined, your laseyss. You may keep it for a few moments of time,
after which it will be destroyed utterly; or you may release your laseyss untouched
with the full knowledge that though the laseyss remains intact, you might never
hold it. Which do you choose?* *Release.* *A quick answer. Too quick? Remember, if you held your
laseyss, you would at least have memories.* *I’d have the memory of destroying it.* Ryth’s impatience
seethed painfully. *Bitter comfort. I prefer to let go of my ... laseyss ...
and have the knowledge that somewhere in the universe something precious to me
survives.* Even as the Sharnn’s thought formed, his face changed. *You
have taught me, Ti Kayle. I am grateful.* *I’ve only taught that which you previously taught me—where
your own pattern is involved, your skill is erratic.* Kayle weighed Ryth’s expression,
but could not be sure. With an inward sigh, he risked Sharnn anger. *What happened
in the courtyard?* Only Kayle’s six maturities of discipline kept him from
crying out at the force of Ryth’s mind, flaring just an instant before the
Sharnn’s control solidified again. *Faen almost found her honorable death.* The light in the room deepened to ancient gold as the sun nestled
against the shoulder of a black mountain. As though their meeting set the world
afire, the sky became streaked with scarlet incandescence. *She called me laseyss.* And so perfect was the Sharnn’s control that Kayle wondered if
Ryth was human after all. *She could not leave Malia,* continued the Sharnn. *I could
not stay. But I would stay, and die. She refused my death and insured her own.
Lekel could not force Sandoliki Ti Ryth to leave Malia.* Light ran like fire over Ryth’s features, making the mask of
Sharnn control even more formidable. But Kayle was Nendleti, and Carifil. *Perhaps she saw her death as the only possible solution ...
?* But the Sharnn did not respond, unless shadows twisting deep
within the green of his eyes was an answer. *What happened, Ryth? I understood only the result.* Kayle waited for an answer, and only his restrained
breathing revealed his unease as he watched a Sharnn test the edges of his own
control. Then Ryth’s bleak eyes searched the spreading shadows by the river,
but could not find her. “The pattern,” said Ryth aloud, yet somehow as quietly as a
thought, “is quite simple. Malia has a tabu against the extinction of family
lines. Malia also has an absolute requirement for total revenge. Given the paradox,
there has to be a means of neutralizing dargs vire.” “Marriage,” murmured Kayle. “Simple, but not easy. What if one or the other partner is unwilling
to end the darg vire? Can you think of a way to force a Malian to consummate
what is perceived as a dishonorable act?” “No. If the Malian can’t kill you, he’ll kill himself.” “Exactly. Lekel forced Faen into a dishonorable position. I
prevented her from killing herself.” And though the Sharnn did not speak, his
thought scored Kayle’s mind. *I did not know myself or her or the moment that
we faced each other or that I should have held her sooner ...* “Teach me,” urged Kayle softly. The sun was like a great eye, blinding, and all the colors
of incandescence poured over the room, making even shadows seem alive. A part
of himself that Ryth had never known reached out to her, but she was beyond
even that, hiding in the incandescent illusion until the moment passed and
every shade of red claimed the sky while shadows pooled, again lifeless. “Faen is the last Sandoliki,” whispered the Sharnn. “Lekel
loves her, wants her, but he is no fool. Her reflexes are quicker than his. If
the marriage knife were laid between them, one of them would die.” The Sharnn’s eyes never left the place where he knew Faen to
be, though little could be seen as light drained from the illusory sky. “Then we came and asked to stay and she wanted us ... me.
Lekel cannot, will not, fight her. But he could have me killed.” Ryth’s body
moved, a ripple that hinted at strength that he had not yet used. “Faen knew,
as surely as any Sharnn, the many ways the pattern could end. She tried every
pattern that would let me live and failed but one, the one that would take her
life by her own swift hand. “And that was the last one left. There are two honorable
ways for a Malian to evade a marriage ritual,” said Ryth between his teeth.
“Kill the other. Or kill yourself. She would not kill me. I stopped her from
killing herself. “And then I held her, a Malian ...” In silence he watched the last scarlet streaks drain into a
darkness that was as impenetrable as his mind. Later, surrounded by true night, the sarsa sang with sensuality,
half-life and half-death mingling, disturbing shadows and Sharnn dreams alike. IIIStone kels, mostly ruined, fanned out from the dome,
separated from it and each other by gardens and walls that were also mostly
ruined. Only a wedge-shaped piece of the compound was reasonably intact. Faen’s
dome occupied the narrow part of the wedge; the flyer pad was on the flared
edge. Between were the courtyard, garden and tere grove. In the immensity of the goldstone ruins, the living wedge
seemed pitifully small, the dome even smaller. But Malian maze artistry had
made the interior of the dome into a whole world that was complex enough to tease
even a Sharnn’s pattern skills. Ryth paused when the hallway he was following curved against
a woven arras that probably concealed the entrance to another hall. Ryth turned
away, then turned back as he solved the maze’s mystery. He slid the heavy arras
aside and stepped into a h’kel that took up almost an entire floor of the
multi-level dome. Off to one side of the room was a transparent column surrounding
an interior garden bright with turquoise zamay. When Ryth walked near, the tall
flowers trembled and hummed and stroked their soft petals across the unfeeling
column wall, asking. Ryth stopped, fingertips reaching and remembering a
smoldering fall of m’zamay across his hands. But before he could find the
entrance to the garden, he saw Kayle sitting just beyond the reach of sunlight,
staring at the zamay with unseeing eyes. He was wearing a Carifil psitran
around his forehead, but his mind was no further away than a rainbow insect
flitting inside the clear column. Tactfully, Ryth allowed his cape to make a small noise, just
enough to capture Kayle’s attention without startling him. Kayle looked toward
the noise, but did not see Ryth. The Sharnn walked forward until sunlight
blazed over his bronze hair. Kayle’s mouth twitched in surprise. “Incredible,” murmured the Nendleti. “If you wore your hood,
you would be invisible. Why would a solitary Sharnn need such a cape?” When Ryth glanced down at his Sharnn cape, his face echoed
Kayle’s surprise. For the first time, Ryth realized that his mind must be very
much on edge; the cape was in its fighting mode. As he walked toward Kayle, the
cape swept around Ryth’s bare feet, concealing, curling, twisting light into
shapes that eyes could not comprehend, so the mind registered nothing. “When I was young,” said Ryth, “I lived in the wild places
of Sharn.” The cape surged and flowed as though casting for a scent of danger.
“This cape confuses scent as well as sight. Claws and thorns and other weapons
slide off it. It is warm when ice shatters in the high reaches, cool when rock
smokes in the white desert.” “May I?” asked Kayle, his sensitive fingers stretched toward
the cape. “Of course.” With a fluid motion, Ryth released the cape and laid it
across Kayle’s lap. Kayle’s eyes measured Ryth’s tall, hard figure, the liquid
ease of movement and muscle, and the new knife strapped against his abdomen. In
no way did Ryth show recent injury, for Sharnn capes healed as well as
concealed. “Unusual textures,” murmured Kayle as he turned his
attention to the object across his lap. “Neither smooth nor rough, but never
the same.” His fingers paused. “Dense without being heavy, fine without being
flimsy.” Sensitive fingertips probed, then stroked, enjoying. “Remarkable and
elusive, like everything else I have seen from Sharn.” Then, sharply, “Are you
expecting trouble? Is that why you wear a cape you consider a weapon?” “A Sharnn cape becomes ... restive ... unless it’s worn from
time to time.” “Oh?” Kayle’s eyes probed the luminous folds of the cape.
“Then it’s an animal? Or perhaps a plant?” “Both. And neither.” Kayle snorted. “Is it alive?” “Sometimes.” “Parasite?” “Symbiot. Sometimes. And sometimes it is merely a cape that
likes to lie in the sun.” Kayle laughed softly. “And sometimes it’s a weapon, n’ies?”
added Kayle, using the Malian interrogative. “N’ies,” agreed Ryth. Delicately, Kayle savored the unique feel of the Sharnn
cape. For a few moments the cape was passive, pliant. Polite. Then it flared
out and settled around Ryth’s shoulders with a rustling sigh. “It was ... limited ... in the niche,” said Ryth, as though
apologizing for the cape’s abrupt departure from Kayle’s touch. “And it ...
knows ... it has only a small time before I return it to the niche.” Kayle seemed not to have heard. Even as Ryth spoke, the
Nendleti’s eyes flattened with sudden rage. Ryth waited, sensing that Kayle’s
mind was elsewhere. Then the Nendleti’s broad lips twisted around silent
curses. Ryth tried to catch the edges of the thoughts that Kayle was receiving,
but the psitran was a pattern he did not yet understand. Finally, Kayle jerked the psitran off. His blunt fingertips massaged
his forehead, though the psitran had left no visible marks. Quietly, passionately,
Kayle reviled all things Malian. Ryth waited, listening with mounting unease,
trying to reconcile Kayle’s barely controlled hatred of Malians with Faen’s
luminous reality. But the reconciliation was beyond Ryth’s ability to
conceive, for if Kayle were right, Malians were inevitably, irrevocably evil.
And if Kayle were wrong, Malia would be destroyed out of blind prejudice. Kayle could not be right, for Faen was Malian. Kayle could not be wrong, for the Carifil were not blind. “Tell me,” demanded the Sharnn finally, his voice harsh with
the futile circling of his own thoughts. “Four more of my people died on Vintra.” “How?” “I don’t know. All I know is that five mind-linked Carifil
couldn’t contact either one.” “Why do you blame Malians?” Kayle’s eyes went opaque and he weighed Ryth as though he
were a stranger. “Why shouldn’t I, Sharnn? I told my people to learn all they
could about Malia and Malians. The longer they were on Vintra, the closer they
came to proving that Malia was behind Vintra’s troubles. “My people followed rumors and hints and found bits of truth
condemning Malia.” “I listen,” said Ryth with an intensity that stilled even
his Sharnn cape, as he waited for Kayle to tell him that Malians were evil and
Faen was Malian. “Explosives,” Kayle said succinctly. “A compound peculiar to
Malia. Malians use it in mining the core crystal found deep in Malia’s granitic
rocks. The explosive leaves a unique stress signature on the granite that is
too distant from the center of the explosion to crumble.” “Go on.” “Vintra’s major aqueducts all pass through blackstone
granite at some point in their lengths. Wherever aqueduct and blackstone meet,
aqueducts have shattered beyond hope of repair.” Kayle’s knuckles dug into his
knees, massaging muscles coiled to attack, but there was nothing to fight,
except himself. “Because blackstone is always found in heavily faulted areas,
it was assumed that crustal movements had destroyed the aqueducts.” “But the crust didn’t move?” Kayle gestured abruptly. “Oh, it moved, Sharnn. Many times.
It might even have shattered an aqueduct or two. But it did not leave behind a
cone-shaped stress pattern in Vintra’s blackstone highlands!” The Sharnn’s eyes became more dark than green, unfathomable.
“Is there anything else?” “Isn’t that enough?” “There are other possible explanations. Vintrans were
Malians once. The explosives could have been exported to Vintra.” “Vintra and Malia have no trade.” “There are other ways.” Kayle made a sound of disgust. “Explain pekh, then. A
disease endemic to Malia, a disease that somehow ravages whole districts of
Vintra.” “Again, Kayle, Vintrans were Malians once. The colonists
probably brought the disease with them.” “Then why did it only appear recently—and only in the wake
of a ‘dark-haired woman with eyes like ice.’” Though neither spoke, they both thought of Faen, and of the
Concord saying: Trust a Malian to betray you. “There are other incidents,” continued Kayle, his husky
voice as hard as a file. “Each follows the same pattern. Disaster for Vintra;
Concord investigation and discovery; death for the Concord agents who did the
discovering. Their deaths—as much as the evidence they gathered—brought
proscription down on Malia.” Ryth closed his eyes, thinking fiercely of what he had just
heard, grabbing its pattern and shaking it until the weakest elements sheared
off. “Not one agent survived?” he asked abruptly. “None.” “The odds against all of them dying accidentally are—” “Practically infinite,” Kayle said grimly. “Then we must assume that your agents were discovered and
watched.” “Yes.” “Then,” asked the Sharnn reasonably, “why weren’t they
killed before they discovered evidence damning to Malia?” “Concord agents aren’t stupid, Sharnn,” snapped Kayle. “They
simply outwitted their pursuers long enough to do what was required.” “Every time? Without fail? Every agent?” Ryth paused,
letting his questions hang in the silent h’kel. “Malians aren’t stupid, either,
Kayle.” “What are you trying to say?” demanded Kayle. He stood up
with a savage motion that was as threatening as an unsheathed knife. “Are you
telling me that Malia is innocent?” The Sharnn’s cape snapped out invisibly, but stopped short
of touching the enraged Nendleti. Ryth shrugged and the cape rippled back
around his feet. “I’m merely saying that nothing you have told me irrevocably
condemns Malia. Also,” added the Sharnn softly, “you are blaming yourself for
deaths you could not have prevented.” Kayle turned away with a soundless snarl. His muscles bunched
beneath his flowered robes, but Carifil conditioning overrode the Nendleti’s innate
ferocity. “You’re probably right, pattern-man,” said Kayle tightly.
“But by the Allgod’s orange eyes, I wish you would tell me something useful!” “Isn’t Malia’s possible innocence useful? Or do you wish
Faen and her people dead?” “No,” Kayle said, his voice hoarse. “Not again ... F’n’een.
But think, Sharnn. Think! Malians can no more help their primal allure than you
can help responding to it. Does that make them innocent?” “No. Nor does it make them guilty.” Kayle groaned softly. “That’s what they said, but—” “They?” “The Carifil.” Kayle sighed deeply and was silent for long
moments while he disciplined his seething emotions. When he spoke again, he was
more Carifil than Nendleti. “Perhaps if we knew exactly how these last four
died. The others simply vanished.” Ryth’s eyes snapped with questions that Kayle did not see,
but answered anyway. “When an agent disappears in a district that collapsed in
seismic heaves or succumbed to a devastating epidemic or flood or—” Kayle made
a savage gesture, but his voice was controlled. “It is reasonable to assume that
the missing agent died in the same way and at the same time that the native
population died. N’ies?” Ryth hesitated, then agreed. “N’ies. But the agents’ bodies
were not found?” “Under the circumstances of mass death,” said Kayle dryly,
“it isn’t surprising.” Ryth frowned and his Sharnn cape hissed across the smooth
floor. “Reasonable, yes,” he murmured. “But inevitable?” The cape shimmered, no
longer invisible, brilliant with sliding colors, a thousand possibilities. “Did
the agents leave anything behind before they went to die on Vintra? Something
personal—jewelry or weapons or touchstones.” Kayle pulled on his psitran and disciplined his thoughts,
reaching out to distant Carifil minds. Very quickly, he had an answer for Ryth. “Whatever the Carifil can find will be sent here, wrapped in
misa silk to limit contamination by other auras.” Kayle fixed his impenetrable
orange eyes on Ryth. “Anything else?” Before Ryth could answer, Faen stepped noiselessly into the
sunlight radiating through the garden column. “Send their bodies to me,” she said, “if you find them.” Neither man answered, but simply watched her. She was no
longer dressed in the scarlet of a Malian bride, A cape the color of zamay
petals fell from her shoulders to brush the floor. Beneath the cape she wore a
matching fabric that fitted as well as her own skin. Her black hair was coiled
on top of her head. At her ears and ankles hung tiny, blue-green crystal bells
that chimed softly as she approached the column. Kayle watched and marveled at the control that had kept the
bells silent when she entered the room. Ryth noticed neither the sound nor its
absence; he sensed that the bells were symbolic, and wondered what new pattern
was emerging. “Their bodies?” repeated Kayle slowly, watching the weaponless
woman who approached him wrapped in turquoise and crystal sound and deadly
grace. He wondered how long she had stood in silence, listening, and how much
she had understood. “What are bodies but the temporary repository of life energies?”
she asked. “When the energy has gone, the body becomes merely an object like a
touchstone or a knife. But better for our purposes than either one. On the
body, the patterns of life are deeply, intimately engraved. I can learn more
from a corpse than a knife.” Kayle closed his eyes and sent the macabre request out to
waiting Carifil. And almost hoped that the bodies would not be found. “I prefer not to work where I sleep,” said Faen to Ryth.
“The conflicting energies are unpleasant.” “Of course.” “We’ll use the fourth h’kel.” Ryth turned and walked toward the arras, following the tiny
whisper of crystal bells. Faen glided ahead, down the hallway to a lower level
where the freight Access glowed. She indicated the area surrounding the Access
with her hand. Her fingers brushed a panel and the outer walls became translucent,
then glowed with a medley of muted colors that were soothing without being
monotonous. One-third of the oval h’kel was marked off by an abrupt change in
the pattern of the soft floor covering. “Mine,” said Faen briefly, pointing to the smaller area.
“There are misa-lined cupboards along the wall. Whatever you bring should be
stored there.” “I know.” He watched her and his eyes were caught by the delicate
beauty of crystal bells trembling at the ends of fine gold chains. From her
coiled black hair rose a rain-sweet scent. “Is your private h’kel satisfactory? Untouched?” she asked. Something in the quality of his silence made her turn
sharply toward him; bells swung and chanted against the curve of her neck. She
searched his silver-green eyes. “Those bells,” he said sharply. “Aren’t they usually worn by
the dead?” “Bells are also worn by the injured, the ill, pregnant
women, and unwilling mates.” “Why?” Faen smiled slightly. “An ancient custom, Ti Ryth. The dead are
hung with iron bells to prevent their shadows from stalking the living. For the
injured, ill, or pregnant, crystal bells warn everyone that the wearer is temporarily
removed from the ranks of fighters. An unwilling mate wears crystal bells—and
fights—until the willing mate removes the bells.” “Then the bells are meant to warn of hostile presence?” “Yes.” “Take them off whenever you want,” said Ryth dryly. “I noticed
that you can move in perfect silence with or without bells.” Faen moved her head and tiny bells swung, ringing. “They are
symbol only. You know that I’ll not kill you. Laseyss.” “It sounds more like hatred when you say it.” “Does it?” She smiled without warmth. “The price you pay for
an unwilling mate.” “We’re not mates.” She looked at him out of enigmatic silver eyes. Her earrings
trembled with small crystal stirrings. “By your rules, Sharnn, we are not married. By Malian rules
we are bound until death.” “You almost fainted when I touched you in the garden,” said
Ryth slowly, his eyes noting each nuance of her body, “yet you insist we are
mates. Do you want to be my wife in fact as well as in ritual?” He waited for her response with an intensity that would have
surprised him if he had been aware of it, but he was aware only of perfect,
expressionless lips and blue-green crystal bells brilliant on gold chains. “How could I want that?” she said with double-edged amusement
in her voice. “You’ve made it clear that I repel you. My touch would destroy
you more surely than any knife. That’s the secret of the warning bells, Sandoliki
Ti Ryth. A crystal certainty warning you to stay beyond the reach of my Malian
sensuality.” Faen turned her back on him and walked to her part of the
room, leaving behind the haunting sound of crystal He watched her consummate
grace and his eyes were narrowed as though he looked into the core of blazing
white light. Her pattern was as elusive to him as dream-fragments, as
frustrating as trying to catch a shadow. But at the thought of catching shadows, his mind spun away,
refusing a pattern condensing, because he did not want to conceive of shadows
as another Sharnn once might have. “Many of these cupboards are full,” said Faen, her surprise
jarring him out of his unwelcome reverie. “Weapons,” he said curtly. “Kayle and I took them from men
who attacked us on Vintra. In the red cupboards are the weapons we took from
the men who attacked us here.” “You learned my kel’s maze very quickly, pattern-man. But
that’s just as well, for surely you would not want to follow me everywhere.” She glided down the row of cupboards, barely touching them,
knowing they were full of death. “It won’t be pleasant for you,” began Ryth. “Little is, Sharnn.” She looked at him, then resumed her
walk past the cupboards. “I’ve touched violent death many times,” she said
carelessly. But the subtle tightness of Faen’s body belied her
indifferent tone. As many times as she had touched it, violent death was still
a fresh agony to her. “I’m sorry,” he said, voice and eyes lit by a depth of
feeling that surprised both of them. She turned so swiftly that her earrings chimed. “You have
done nothing to me that requires apology, Sandoliki Ti. My gift comes from the
Great Destroyer, not you.” She turned back toward the cupboards. “Shall I begin
now?” “Has he told you what we want?” asked Kayle, walking noiselessly
into the room. “No, but I can easily guess,” said Faen. “I doubt that I’ll
be much aid.” Kayle’s eyes asked a silent question as he joined Ryth. Faen’s hand waved toward the waiting cupboards. “You know
they’re dead, because you killed them. You know they’re assassins, because they
tried to kill you. And you know where and how they died.” Her fingers moved and
the blue-green gem flashed. “I could probably tell you more by looking at the
weapons than by touching them.” “Names?” prompted Kayle. Even as Faen answered, Ryth moved his head in the negative
gesture of Sharnn. “Names mean little,” said Faen slowly. “Our only real name
is discovered each time we die and forgotten each time we are born. We’ve had
many shadow names; we’ll have many more. Only shadows are owned by names.” She walked toward the cupboards, allowing her bells to sigh
and chime. “Are there any living relics here?” “No,” said Kayle regretfully. Faen said nothing. “Can you distinguish between Malian and Vintran?” asked
Ryth. Faen’s lips twisted into the lines of loathing that appeared
whenever she thought of Vintra. But her answer was honest, though very reluctant. “I doubt it,” she said curtly. “Vintrans are animals, but
they once were men.” “Can you distinguish between Malians and most other races?” “Yes.” When Faen approached the first cabinet, Ryth crossed to a recorder
panel set with clear control studs. His fingers swept over the controls. Shades
of rose and gold and silver bloomed among the studs. Ryth watched the changing
light; within seconds he could predict the next pattern. He turned away and
watched Faen, exquisite and unpredictable. *If she doesn’t speak aloud,* cautioned Kayle, *be ready to
enter her mind. I can’t.* Faen touched the first blue cupboard. A tongue of
silk-covered wood slid out; on it was a blue steel, double-edged knife that
gleamed against the pale misa silk. “Malian made, probably from the Snow Continent. No guild
marks. The owner was either not an assassin or had yet to complete meega.” “Meega?” said Ryth. “Professional death contract,” said Faen curtly. Her fingers
moved above the knife, not touching. “Very little energy. Difficult to read.”
She traced the blade with a fingertip lightly touching. “No deaths here.” Her fingers
came to rest on the hilt. She grimaced, but did not lift her hand as a dead
man’s thoughts/emotions poured into her. “Young,” she continued. “Male. First meega.” Faen’s lips and
voice thinned. “Impatience, then ... shock. Exploding shock, numbing. So quick
he is so quick I can’t—” Faen’s eyelids flickered. “Darkness and peace and” her
breath caught “slicing pain, blood warm and pouring, pouring ... trickling,
seeping ... gone ...” She lifted her hand and wiped her fingers on her cape. “Someone cut his throat while he was unconscious,” she said
tonelessly, and nudged the wooden tongue with her finger until the cupboard
folded up, concealing the blue knife but not the memories. The next cupboard contained another knife. It, too, was
double-edged blue steel. But unlike the first knife, it looked old, much worn
by the honing rod and scarred by other blades. On the hilt three words were
engraved. “Malian made. Ice Continent. Red Dawn assassin’s guild.” Her hand hovered just above the weapon. “Little energy.” Fingertip
touched blade. “No deaths here.” She frowned, puzzled, and touched the blade more firmly. “Perhaps he favored other weapons,” said Kayle, “and used
this knife only in emergency.” “Perhaps,” said Faen dubiously. “But the knife appears old.” “Just appears?” said Ryth. “Doesn’t it feel old to you?” Faen laid her palm on the blade. “No. There is but a light
smear of minor emotions, superficial, overlaid by a single fear of pain. None
of the energies have penetrated deeply. The knife has been casually handled by
several people. The last one to hold it either had a very negligible aura or
held it only long enough to die.” Kayle’s brown face puckered with surprise. “You’re sure?” With a swift, impatient movement, Faen pressed the hilt of
the knife against her forehead. Her eyes were wide and pale, fixed on past
death and her lips spoke a dead man’s words. “Waiting, waiting—the knife has no balance—coming alone,
ready—throw!” Faen took the hilt away from her forehead and flipped the
knife end over end in her hand. “He was right; the knife is badly balanced. In
spite of its scars, the weapon is newly—and badly—made.” She tossed it back
onto the cupboard, which promptly folded and vanished. She stared at the cupboard
and murmured, “Curious. Few assassins would knowingly take a bad weapon on
meega.” “How did that one die?” said Kayle. “The same. His throat was slit while he was unconscious.”
She moved her head suddenly, sending crystal sounds into the stillness. “There
is one benefit to the puzzling matter of new knives. The less energy the
objects have, the less they affect me.” “And the less you learn?” asked Kayle. “Yes. But if the energy is too great,” she said, “I’m overwhelmed
and it takes much time and endurance to learn anything.” Ryth watched as Faen opened the third cupboard. The third
weapon was a blue steel knife that had no deaths on its blade and only a few
shallow emotions on its hilt. Faen worked her way rapidly down the blue cupboards.
All the knives were similar—new, largely untouched, no deaths on the blades,
owners died with a second smile carved beneath their chins. The last blue cupboard unfolded noiselessly. As expected,
the knife was Malian blue steel, Ice Continent. But the guild marks were those
of the White Dawn. Faen reached out to touch it casually, then stopped, fingers
well above the blade. “This one is different. Very strong.” She scrutinized the hilt more carefully. There were other
ideographs running around the hilt. Her swift intake of breath made earrings
jangle. “What is it?” said Kayle, staring toward the knife,
impatient to be closer but respecting her need for space. “The owner of this weapon was a warrior of the Ninth
Circle.” Kayle hummed appreciatively and made a sign of respect. Faen’s
finger moved closer to the blade, but did not touch the smoky metal. “Many,
many deaths. Many years, hard years, war years, Malia and white dawns streaked
with blood.” Faen lifted her finger and took a slow breath. “No recent deaths.” “How long?” asked Ryth. Her head jerked and crystal rang painfully. “One year ...
maybe more. She was old, many maturities.” “She?” snapped Kayle. “No woman attacked us on Vintra!” Faen did not hear. She stood very still, eyes shut,
gathering herself to touch the seething emotions permeating the old knife. With
a silent sigh, she touched a single fingertip to the hilt of the knife. Her
breath hissed through her teeth and her body jerked, but her voice was
controlled, emotionless. “Discipline and blood and desire. Give or receive death. And
at last she received. Death by wire, splintering the Topaz Arcade.” Faen lifted
her finger and let out her breath. “The Topaz Arcade is part of the Trembling
Mountain y’Kel, part of the Sandoliki Compound. She died on Malia, not Vintra,” “No women attacked us in that back alley on Vintra,”
repeated Kayle slowly. “At least, I believe there were no women. It was dark,
and we fought quickly.” “But,” said the Sharnn, “we are certain that none of the
assassins died by wire.” Faen brushed the hilt again and her body swayed like zamay.
“There is something,” she said, frowning. “A dark tide boiling, powerful. More
powerful than any aura I’ve ever felt, except—did you handle this knife, Ryth?” “May I?” said Ryth, gesturing to her area of the room. “My husband need never ask to enter my space.” Ryth said nothing while he inspected the knife. Its tip had
a backward curve ending in a needle point that had been broken off. “No,” said Ryth, not recognizing the broken tip. “Kayle must
have picked up this one. But very carefully.” Ryth looked back to Kayle, who
gestured confirmation. “No flesh met blade.” Faen watched the knife as though it might come alive at any
moment. “If Kayle did not touch it, and you did not touch it, some other man
did. A man of stillness and stealth and ... power. Yes, power rising and
writhing like a shadow ... hungry ...” Her eyes were opaque, seeing an ugliness
her voice refused to describe. The Sharnn felt coldness move through him, unwanted pattern,
but his voice was calm as he asked, “Malian?” Faen shuddered. “I don’t know. I hope not.” “Was the knife obtained on Malia?” asked Kayle. “Probably,” said Ryth. “Few Malians ever leave the planet.” “And fewer assassins,” added Faen. “If Lekel sent them?” prodded Kayle. Faen looked at both men, wrapped the knife and moved to return
it to the cupboard. “Wait,” said Ryth, his voice oddly strained. “How did the
man die?” Faen’s lips thinned at the urgency she sensed beneath his
calm. “He is alive—as much as any shadow is. If I haven’t imagined him
entirely.” She snapped her fingers with impatience. “The woman’s death blankets
everything. I’ll have to get beyond it to the few instants he held the knife.
If he held it at all. What I sensed may simply be her knowledge that a man
killed her.” “But then how did the knife end up on Vintra?” asked Kayle
reasonably. Slowly, Faen approached the knife again and curled her
fingers around the hilt. Her body cringed, then stiffened. Her fingers tightened
until her hand trembled, but still she said nothing. Ryth touched her mind with incredible delicacy. The
trembling of her hand stopped and he sensed fatigue like an enormous tide
rising in her mind. He realized then that she should never have been allowed to
touch and live so many deaths at once. “There is only one way,” she said coolly. “Faen—” But even as he spoke, she raised the hilt to her forehead,
pressed the metal into her flesh as though to force a joining. Her slender body
went rigid and her blue-green ring burned with a clear, hard light. “Waiting—” she whispered hoarsely. “Waiting, old hands, are
they still fast? Soon, soon, soonsoon NOW and THRUST and—” Faen screamed horribly, a shriek that gurgled into choking silence
while her straining body arced backward and a thin red line blazed across her
throat as though an invisible wire tightened lethally. Ryth drove his mind into hers as he knocked the knife away
from her forehead. He wrenched her mind out of the knife’s lethal past with a
bolt of thought/emotion/demand that was a force as stunning as the death she
had unlocked. Caught between the two conflicting imperatives, her mind tried to
shake itself apart. Instinctively, the Sharnn reinforced his call with the compelling
resonances of t’sil’ne. Mind and voice and body united in persuasion, gentle
fingertips and palms and lips and thighs compelling her attention, holding her
in a soft net of undemanding pleasure. Slowly, slowly, the death scream faded to a jagged memory.
He traced the wire mark on her throat with the tip of his tongue, transforming
the brand of agony into spreading pleasure. Her mind stopped fighting and relaxed,
barely conscious, focused entirely on the superb beauty of his touch. He sensed the fragile link growing between them. He moved
delicately, lips and tongue and fingertips strengthening the bond. She stirred,
warm sigh and luminous eyes, fingertips stroking lines of fire on his throat,
sliding across his chest, tangling softly in the breath from his lips. Her
scent and taste swept across him like a blow, releasing a hunger for her that
was overwhelming. The depth of his response shocked him into stillness, his
mind closed as a stone. She sensed only a massive emotional surge, then
complete withdrawal. She felt the tears on her face but could no more stop them
than she could forget being touched with such haunting skill. “Next time,” she whispered raggedly, “don’t.” She sensed his surprise and sudden anger and some other emotion
that he was barely holding in check. Disgust, she assumed. In rage and humiliation,
she spoke directly into his mind. *Do you think I like feeling your revulsion? Do you think it
pleases me to feel like bird slime to be scraped off your sleeve?* Then Faen realized that she had used mindspeech. Her eyes
slitted. “Some day I will be able to kill you, Sharnn. I look forward
to it!” “Faen,” he said, his voice thick with restraint, fingers
reaching for her sweet skin. “I wasn’t—” The edge of her hand flashed and only his Sharnn reflexes
saved a smashed wrist. “No more of your lying fingertips!” The Sharnn’s own frustration blazed until his eyes were
green stone and shadows. “As you wish, Sandoliki Ti.” He turned his back on her
and went to stand next to Kayle on the other side of the boundary line. “Did you learn anything, Faen?” said Kayle. “From the
knife,” he added when she turned on him with feral swiftness. Faen stared at Kayle for a long moment, then the flat white
of her eyes deepened into pale blue crystal. “I think a man killed her,” she
said evenly. “He is still alive.” “The throat-cutter?” said Kayle to Ryth. “Yes.” Ryth glanced sideways at Faen. “Could the White Dawn
Guild identify that knife, tell us who the owner was and when she died?” “Yes ...” “But?” “If she died during meega, no one will talk.” “Not even for the Sandoliki Ti?” “For no one.” Faen glanced at the coded light display around
the bottom of the freight Access platform. “It’s late on the Ice Continent,”
she said, reading the shifting color codes off the display. “Tomorrow?” Kayle curbed his impatience and agreed reluctantly. Ryth
said nothing, merely waited, but he did not know for what. Faen ignored them
and stretched with an odd rippling movement that was part of the ritual dances
of faal-hnim. Her muscles flexed and relaxed in counterpoint to her chiming
anklets. With a small sigh she finished stretching and walked toward the red
cupboards. Ryth grappled with the impulse to tell her of her beauty,
black hair and gold skin flowing to crystal murmurs, but all he said was,
“Shouldn’t you rest?” “Only the last weapon was difficult.” But for all her outward calm, Ryth sensed the strain that pervaded
her body, the reluctance to touch yet more ugliness and violent death. The first weapon she found was n’Qen’s. “Malian,” said Faen tonelessly. “Made on the Copper Coast.
Assassin of the Green Rain Guild.” Her fingertips traced the blade without touching it. “Few
deaths. None recent. Good energy.” One finger touched the hilt. Her hand shook,
then steadied and her voice took on the tones of one reciting a lesson. “Fear
and despair and shame,” she murmured, eyes closed, lips pale. “I’m too young to
fight him he is so quick too-quick-caught. Must die NO KILL ME I CANT PLEASE
ahhhh ... so quick.” Faen withdrew her hand and looked at the Sharnn. “He died
thanking you.” Ryth’s expression was bleak, closed. The remaining weapons told little, in spite of their
consistently high energy levels. When the cupboard folded around the last
m’vire, Faen staggered slightly, then stood with arms braced against the
cupboard, head down, fighting off the sensory overload that was pushing her
into unconsciousness. “She uses herself too hard,” said Kayle. “That is the only way to learn the limits of her talent,”
said Ryth. “She has neither equals nor superiors to teach her.” He went to Faen and lifted her in his arms. Her earrings and
anklets chimed among the folds of her cape as he carried her to a nearby
pallet. Dazed, she turned her head toward his warmth, murmuring against his
hand; crystal bells caught in her hair, chiming in tangled black. Gently he
freed the earrings, curling his fingers around the cool bells until they were
captive, silent. He reached out to smooth away the lines that death had etched
in her face, then remembered her flashing hatred at his touch. He opened his
hands and let the earrings chime against her soft skin. “It appears that my touch destroys you, Faen, rather than
yours destroying me,” he murmured. Though her eyes showed a silver rim beneath black lashes,
she neither heard nor spoke. “Well?” demanded Kayle. Ryth stood up with barely controlled ferocity. “Give her
space!” Kayle stepped back hastily. “Regrets, Sharnn. Is she all
right?” “She needs a few moments. Alone.” “Tell me something I don’t know,” snapped Kayle. “You’re more familiar with psi talents than I—you teach me,”
said Ryth coldly. “But you know more about Faen than anyone does.” Ryth looked quizzically at Kayle. “You’ve touched her mind,” said Kayle. “I can’t even listen
to the edges of it.” Ryth shifted uneasily, preferring to remember the textures
of her flesh rather than the sliding depth of mind-touch. Then he tried to
remember nothing at all. “We’ll have to watch her,” Ryth said. “The demands of her talent
are many and complex; more than I had conceived of, perhaps more than I can
conceive of. But this I know—the rewards of her talent are meager.” His lips thinned
and the clean planes of his face hardened. “Do you know what we’re asking her
to do, Kayle? Do you really know?” “Teach me.” “She died vicariously many times today. The first knives
weren’t bad, too little energy to carry the full emotions of violent death. But
the White Dawn knife ...” Ryth’s body flexed, rejecting the agony he had sensed
as Faen choked on cold wire tightening. “Don’t permit her to read objects
alone. Ever.” “You struck her, then held her like a lover,” said Kayle
bluntly. “Why?” “The knife’s energies were strong, too strong, so strong
that when she pressed the hilt to her forehead the past overrode reality and
she became the White Dawn assassin at the moment of dying. “Faen would have died if the knife had stayed against her
forehead. She would have died with a crushed throat and a bleeding wire mark
around her neck.” Kayle shuddered. “I won’t let her read objects alone.” He
blinked and his orange eyes fastened on Ryth. “Did she want to die? Is that why
she lashed out at you?” “No.” Kayle waited, but the Sharnn said nothing further. “Are you
sure?” pressed Kayle. “Yes.” “Teach me.” “No.” Kayle’s body became perfectly still, a predator crouching,
then he let his breath out to fill the silence. “I would help you if I could,” said Kayle softly. “Remember
that, Sharnn,” “And her?” “If I could.” “Then pray to your Allgod that we don’t kill each other
before you learn what the Carifil wish to know.” Ryth turned abruptly and strode to another part of the dome,
the fifth floor, which had a large h’kel with neither tapestries nor
furnishings. In other cultures, such a room might have been used for
conversations, art arrangements, games, meals or meditation. In Malia, it was
used for faal-hnim. Ryth spread his cape in a sunny niche, then walked to the
exact center of the room. He stood, flexing large and small muscles. Kayle
watched from the door, riveted by the sight of a Sharnn poised in the opening
moments of faal-hnim, the dance that contained every lethal movement known to
three hundred races of man. The intensely disciplined flexing warmed and stretched every
muscle in Ryth’s lean body, preparing him for the strenuous dance. He had
chosen the slowest, most demanding mode of faal-hnim. He moved as though wading
against a viscous force. Each muscle stood out with separate strain and his
skin shone with sweat. The Sharnn did not notice Kayle’s rapt attention, nor Faen’s
later appearance. He had given himself over to the stylized imperatives of
faal-hnim, lost himself in the flowing leaps, sudden kicks, and intense stillnesses
of the dance. His concentration was a force as savage as the controlled surge
of his strength, his power and grace like deep water bending over rock. Faen and Kayle watched wordlessly while Ryth executed a difficult
series of moves known as Falling Leaves. When the last gesture was complete,
the Sharnn flowed directly into another demanding series known as the Viper and
the Bird. “He has rare stamina,” said Kayle softly, though he knew
that mere words could not break Ryth’s concentration. “And beauty,” said Faen, silver eyes measuring his
disciplined body. “I’ve watched many people dance the Viper and the Bird, but
never with his ease. I’ve seen only one movement more graceful.” “What was that?” “Ryth’s diving roll to avoid the m’vire.” Faen watched the Sharnn with singular concentration, her own
body unconsciously flexing in echo of his. When he began the extremely difficult
moves known as h’Nym Unfolding, she smiled and her body shivered in subdued
excitement. “He should dance with crystal music,” she whispered. “He should stop,” said Kayle curtly. “He asks too much of
himself.” “No,” said Faen. “He must ask, for who else can? You’ll
never see his equal.” Kayle’s eyes brooded like coals over the Sharnn, still
moving with the inevitable grace of water. “Some people could better him in
individual moves.” Faen’s hands clapped once, hard, contempt and dismissal. “No
single person could surpass him move for move. He understands the imperatives
of faal-hnim; he knows that if you give yourself to the dance, it will give you
perfect balance and strength. You become faal-hnim, the poised infinite.” “He knows the patterns,” agreed Kayle. “Yes,” said Faen, bitterness thinning her lips. “To the
Sharnn it is all black letters on white walls. Perhaps that’s why he feels so
few emotions.” “Not every pattern is easy for him,” said Kayle. “His own
eludes him. And yours.” “My pattern repels him.” “He has an unusual way of showing it,” muttered Kayle, vividly
remembering Ryth’s body speaking to her flesh. Faen’s breath hissed as she, too, remembered. “Malia’s
tactile language is simply another pattern,” she said coldly. “He lies very
skillfully with his body. Better than a Malian whore.” Kayle measured her closed expression and changed the subject.
“Did you feel that there was anything unusual about the first weapons you
touched?” “The Ice Continent knives?” “Yes.” “The weapons didn’t fit,” she said indifferently, still
consumed by the Sharnn’s beauty. “Teach me.” Faen sighed and looked away from Ryth. “Ask the Sharnn what
chance there is that a group of Vintran—or even Malian—assassins would all
carry new knives from Malia’s Ice Continent.” Kayle grunted. “Very small, I’m sure. What about the mixture
of guild marks?” “Irrelevant. Assassins work together, no matter what their
guild.” Kayle rocked thoughtfully up on the balls of his feet, apparently
lost in watching Ryth. Then he said softly, “May I ask the Sandoliki Ti a few
questions?” Without looking away from Ryth’s supple body, Faen said, “So
long as the topic is not Ryth.” Kayle’s smile flickered briefly. “It isn’t. What happens
when you touch something? Do you receive sounds? Pictures? Emotions?” “What do you receive when you remember something?” countered
Faen. “It varies with the type of memory.” “Exactly. And the type of mind remembering.” Faen sighed and
flexed her body, feeling the call of faal-hnim. “Sometimes I receive emotions,
which I try to name. Sometimes it’s a vivid picture/name, like the Topaz
Arcade. Sometimes it’s symbols—very difficult. Sometimes it’s phrases spoken or
thought under extreme stress.” Her hands met and fingers twisted together.
“When the person is dead, what I invariably receive are the moments leading up
to death. The dying.” “And the death?” “No. Simply the process of dying. At death, their energies
stop disturbing the flow of time.” “Is vicarious death painful or frightening to you?” “Death is a sweet release. Dying, though ... so many
unpleasant ways to die. I’ve experienced most of them.” “How many sessions like today can you take?” Faen’s body moved restively. The crystal earrings stirred
and rang. “I don’t know.” She hesitated. “I think I knew the White Dawn
assassin. Or the killer. The aura was ... intimate, familiar,” “Is that why her death affected you so deeply?” “No. She could have been a stranger. It was the wholeness of
her energies—” Faen’s fingers moved in a swift gesture of dislike. “Like
sinking sand along the riverbed, her energies could swallow unsuspecting
lives.” Faen’s fingers unconsciously rubbed the faint red welt that circled her
throat. “Next time,” she said slowly, “I’ll limit touch to fingers, not forehead.” “Does it make that much a difference?” “Yes.” “Why?” “I don’t know.” She tossed her head impatiently and bells
clashed. “It is enough that it does.” As though called by crystal, Ryth awoke from faal-hnim and
focused on the two waiting people. Before he could speak, Faen walked forward
and gave him three energy tablets. “They aren’t the traditional z’khm,” she murmured, silver
eyes measuring energy spent in the sweat shining and flowing over his skin,
“but they’re far more effective.” “Thank you.” “It is small payment,” she said, turning away, “for the
pleasure of watching power and sensuality dance the faal-hnim.” The Sharnn stared at Faen’s back and chewed the tablets
slowly, but when the last particle was dissolved, he was no closer to
understanding her than he had been before. He was tempted—very tempted—to
caress her and test the depth of her desire to kill him. Just as his muscles
coiled with unspoken impulse, the freight Access warning sounded. As one, Faen
and Ryth and Kayle ran toward the Access room. Ryth read the message in the
coded lights and activated the receiver switch. An opaque sheet of electric
blue energy flared across the Access platform. When the light died, thirty
misa-wrapped bundles decorated the platform. To Ryth’s relief, none of them was
large enough to be a corpse. He reached out toward a package. “No,” said Faen quickly, “Don’t handle anything unless you
must.” She gathered up the packages into neat piles and carried
them into the workroom. *Is it possible that she learned so little from the weapons
we took on Vintra?* asked Kayle while they followed her. *The weapons were not what they seemed,* Ryth returned. *Practically
untouched.* *So she said ....* Kayle’s thoughts turned uneasily. *But
why would anyone trouble with such a ruse?* *Malian weapons used on Vintra. Malia gets blamed for whatever
happened.* *You evade the point, pattern-man. Why would anyone bother
to insure that the weapons were barren of auras—unless our throat-slitter knew
in advance about Faen’s talent.* Ryth’s negation was too quick, too thoughtless; the Sharnn
asked a blunt question, as much to distract himself as to gain information. *Don’t you trust her?* *Should I?* countered Kayle. *She is Malian. And I remember
a Vintran whispering about a black-haired woman with eyes like ice.* Ryth closed his eyes and Sharnn emotions stretched. A
pattern turned deep inside his mind, an instant of shadows at the core of
incandescence; then his radiance shredded darkness beyond recall of memory. He
spoke in Kayle’s mind with the precision of a machine. *Possibility: she is working to destroy Vintra; therefore,
she deliberately misled us with the knives. Possibility: she is not working to
destroy Vintra; therefore, the knives were a million-chance accident. Or; the
knives were gathered by someone who hoped the mere fact of Malian manufacture
would be enough to condemn Malia. Or—* *Enough!* interrupted Kayle curtly, wondering if the Sharnn
was hiding behind the pouring thoughts. *I want to be sure she isn’t lying to
us. Stay in her mind.* *No.* *Why?* *Mindtouch with Faen, even the lightest touch, is a very intimate
experience. Not something for the uninvited.* *Does mindtouch with me bother you?* pressed Kayle. *We don’t touch each other’s mind—not really.* *What do you mean?* *When I touch her mind, I feel her breath and heartbeat and
blood moving in mine, and her memories sing in my own.* Kayle was too shocked to answer; he carefully thought about
nothing at all. Until, finally, he sighed. *What you describe is the beginning
of fusion, Ryth. It’s a process that’s far deeper, far more complex, than mere
mindspeech or even mindlink.* He paused and the Sharnn sensed a turmoil of
unformed thought. *Be wary, Ryth. Fusion can be dangerous, especially when one
person is unwilling.* *How is it dangerous?* *I don’t know. I’ve never been able to fuse.* *But your talent—* Ryth grappled with his elusive thoughts. *If
you can’t, how can I?* *It requires two to fuse,* returned Kayle dryly. *I’ve never
found the second.* Ryth’s response was shock, then a shuttering of all thought
while he examined what he had learned to see if it belonged to any known patterns.
But even when his mind opened again, the Sharnn asked nothing more about
mindspeech, mindtouch, mindlink or fusion. Nor did Kayle press, for Faen had
stored the last package safely and was ready to begin again. Ryth reached for her mind—and touched a blaze of
fear/anger/pain that made him reel. At the core of her feelings was an explosive
demand for privacy, a demand she reinforced by shutting down her mind and
refusing to work. *My error,* murmured Ryth into her closing mind. “My regret.* *What’s wrong?* demanded Kayle, sending with his thought a
picture of Ryth’s face suddenly lined by pain. *Faen requires mental privacy. She now has it.* Kayle hissed a Nendleti curse. Faen did not look at either man. She walked over to the wall
of cupboards, touched the first one in the pale green section. A tongue
extruded. On it gleamed a small silver chain. Slowly Faen moved her hand above
the necklace. “Vivid energy. Intensely female. Neither Malian nor Vintran.
Brilliant and quicksilver and—” Faen stopped. Puzzlement flickered over her
face. Then she continued. “Young, very young—” Ryth glanced at Kayle, saw the Nendleti’s brown face creased
by sorrow that deepened with each word Faen spoke. “—and dead.” There was a stroke of anguish from Kayle. Ryth touched Kayle
in the Malian way, fingers speaking of loss and memories. “She died to save another,” said Faen as her fingertip
warmed the cold chain, “a man whose touch was her last memory. She died with a
poisoned m’vire buried in her throat and screams splintering around her, not
her screams but others screaming and running while he held her blood flowing
between his fingers too fast and she smiled and others ran, trampling and
yelling and she died, blood overflowing his hands.” Without looking up, Faen said, “Her energy pleases me. What
was her name?” “Concord Agent Limaire.” “Did her man survive?” “No,” said Kayle briefly. “How did he die?” “I hope that you can verify what we guessed,” said Kayle.
“We never found Lsite’s body.” “Then maybe he lives,” said Faen with sudden fierceness.
“Maybe—” “No.” With a long breath, Faen released the second cupboard. In it
was a headband of indestructible narhide. Bits of precious metal were woven into
the leather, making a sly design that hinted of something marvelous hovering
just beyond reach. She smiled without knowing why. Ryth stared intently at the headband, trying to decipher its
teasing pattern. Then his lips twitched with silent laughter. *I would have liked him, Kayle.* *How do you know that belonged to a man?* *I hear his laughter in the pattern.* *In the pattern? Or in her thoughts?* Before Ryth could answer, Faen spoke. “Male,” she said softly. “I wish you could hear his
laughter. He loved life.” The smile drained from her face when she touched the headband.
Again, puzzlement flickered. The Sharnn brushed her thoughts so lightly that
neither one of them realized it. He sensed a haunting aura of familiarity
calling out from the headband—as it had from the necklace. “Neither Vintra nor Malia. He died—” Her fingers curled
around the headband, tightened convulsively and she gasped, “—died by poison—at
the foot—of the Blue—Shrine!” She dropped the headband just as Ryth grabbed for it. Slowly,
she regained control of her voice and breathing. “Are you sure it was poison?” asked Kayle. “Yes. L’shu.” She shuddered away from what she had felt. “L’shu
on an ice dart. Cowards! I weep that my enemy breeds such cowards!” Kayle waited, then asked, “What is the effect of l’shu?” “It causes restricted breathing followed by paralysis,” Faen
said evenly. “Unless an antidote is given, death comes. Very slowly.” “Is the drug easy to detect?” “Nearly impossible. At normal temperatures, 1’shu
volatilizes in less than a ten-count.” “Thus the ice dart,” said Ryth. “Yes.” “Where and what is the Blue Shrine?” said Kayle. “Blue Shrine?” repeated Faen, puzzled. “You mentioned a Blue Shrine just before you dropped the
headband.” Faen rubbed fingertips against her forehead. “Blue Shrine.
Blue. I don’t remember saying it.” “Do you always remember?” asked the Sharnn. “Yes, unless I’m too tired to—” She cursed and grabbed the
headband with a speed that defeated Ryth’s restraining hand. “Blue—yes—” She
gasped hoarsely and her body jerked. “Too steep—too—HELP—ahhh Limaire—” Faen’s
head jerked and her earrings jangled harshly. “Close and so blue—falling—”
laughter, sudden and bitter “at the Blue—God’s—feet.” The headband slipped from her fingers. “Blue God,” she murmured
in confusion, “Blue God.” “Was he Ribollian?” asked the Sharnn suddenly. Kayle blinked. “Yes.” “Isn’t their Blue God the symbol of sky, of space, of
freedom?” “Yes,” said Kayle, eyes intent on the Sharnn. “The Blue God’s shrines are placed at the entrance to all
Ribollian Accesses.” “But he didn’t die on Ribolli,” said Kayle heavily. “Vintra,” interrupted Faen, her eyes dazed with sudden memories.
“He died on Vintra at the foot of the blue ramp leading to Sima’s third Access.”
She closed her eyes and her shoulders sagged. “Yes, the third Access, the
freight Access. Ahhh, Great Destroyer, what did you do to make him attempt that
way out?” “Freight Access?” Kayle grimaced. “That’s certain death.” “I thought that, once,” said Faen with a thin smile. “I
survived it.” “So that’s how you escaped from Vintra,” said Ryth. “Yes.” She gestured to the headband. “He hoped to escape
with precious knowledge, but the ice dart found his back.” “What did he know?” demanded Kayle. Faen made a frustrated, negative gesture. “The headband
isn’t enough. Bring me his corpse,” “I can’t. We never found Lsite’s body.” She rubbed her fingertips over her drawn face in an unconscious
gesture of awakening. With a sigh she tapped the next cupboard. It unfolded
around a worn gold ring. Faen’s fingers approached the ring tentatively, and
again a haunted expression crossed her face. “What is it?” asked the Sharnn gently. “I don’t know. Each of the objects—” Earrings cried as she
shook her head. “I don’t know!” She touched the edge of the ring. “Female.
Bright energy. Sensual and quick.” The fingers lifted and Faen frowned. “Malian?” asked Ryth. “Vintran? Other?” “That’s it!” she cried, eyes narrowed as she looked back on
her past. “That’s what I was asked each time!” She turned to Ryth and her eyes
burned like silver flame. “I’ve touched these people before.” “I thought you touched no—” began Kayle. “Not physically,” she snapped, her eyes never leaving the
Sharnn’s attentive face. “I touched something of theirs. I’ve sensed them
before.” “For whom? And why?” “People come to me,” she said, with a dismissing gesture. “Do you remember who brought—” “No,” she said impatiently. “Only the objects I touch are
real. The people who bring them are less than shadows.” “What questions did you answer?” said Ryth, green eyes compelling
her to look deeply into her memory. “The same question you asked—were the people Vintran, Malian,
or alien.” The Sharnn’s eyes stared through her for a long moment, then
his full lips twisted in a bitter smile. “Tell me, Kayle,” he said softly. “Did your agents pose as
Vintrans?” “Of course,” snapped Kayle. “That was the only way to get
freedom of movement on Vintra. But their cover was as perfect as Concord
talents could make. The agents knew the language and the land and the traditions
as well as any native!” “And their minds?” prodded the Sharnn gently. “Could their
minds fool a finder?” Kayle made a sound deep in his throat, a sound that was both
answer and apology to the dead. Faen looked at him, then back to Ryth. Her eyes
were dull beneath black lashes; she knew she had been used to condemn people to
death. She looked away and touched the ring. “Poison,” she gasped, controlling a throat spasm with difficulty.
She snatched her finger back. “Symptoms?” snapped Kayle. “Convulsions that broke the neck and spine.” “Does the poison resemble the effects of a native disease?” “It is a poison first, then a disease,” answered Faen. “Teach me,” Kayle said harshly. “I can’t I don’t know the structure of pekh,” she said
dully. “I only know it is endemic to Malia.” Faen put her finger through the ring. Her breath caught in
her throat; she cried out hoarsely and tore the ring off her finger.
“She—agony. Glass on floor. Cut. And later, between convulsions, she wondered
how they knew.” Faen’s fingers squeezed together and she whispered to the gold
ring, “A horrible way to die.” When Faen reached for the next cupboard, Ryth wanted to stop
her, wanted her to rest until the hard white lines left her face, but he knew
she would refuse. Someone had used her; she would find out who. And then she
would kill the person who had so little respect for the Sandoliki Ti. As object followed object, death followed death, Faen seemed
to thin before their eyes. Her voice became ragged and her hands trembled constantly,
but when the Sharnn argued she snapped her fingers in contempt and reached for
yet another cupboard. The object inside was a hammered gold armband set with five
Mivayli firestones. Faen’s eyes widened as though she recognized the band. Her
finger brushed it, then retreated. She squeezed her eyes shut and her body quivered.
Every aspect of her cried out with a need not to touch again. The two white
lines on either side of her mouth deepened and sweat shone on her face. She
raised her hands to her lips and moaned very softly. “Faen,” said Ryth. “Faen?” Her only answer was a single tear that supped from an
eyelash to the corner of her mouth. *Faen?* Gently, then with growing power, the Sharnn asked to
know what was wrong. *Faen!* She sought him with the same reflex that drove a freezing
animal toward warmth. He went to her quickly, hands reaching, skill and
strength and warmth touching. She shivered at the warmth of his palm on her forehead.
For the space of a breath she accepted, then she withdrew. “The band belongs to Sandoliki Ti,” she said. “He—” Her
voice broke, but no more tears escaped from her dark lashes. Ryth felt the waves of her grief sweep through him and
wanted to cry out but could only bow beneath the knowledge that she wept mind
and body for a man. *Who is he?* Ryth demanded of Kayle. *Relle, her dead husband.* *Dead? She spoke as though he lived.* *He does—in her mind.* “I’m sorry, Faen,* Kayle said. *If I had known, I would
never—” “Accepted,” said Faen, her voice low and colorless. There
was no way you could have known. Did that armband belong to a man named Ino?” “Yes.” “Relle and Ino exchanged armbands. A ritual from Ino’s culture.”
Her voice squeezed to a whisper. Then her head came up and her voice
strengthened. “When Relle ... died ... he wore Ino’s armband. A woman tore it
from Relle’s arm and gouged out the five unsleeping eyes of friendship.” Ryth looked at the five gems, unwinking in the gold band. “I killed that woman. Very slowly. She died cursing her
greed for firestones. But Relle ...” Faen closed her eyes. “Ino is dead,
wearing Relle’s armband. More than that I can’t tell you, unless I hold the
armband until I am free from the shockwaves of Relle’s death. And from the
memory of our life.” The Sharnn sensed that Faen did not want to be free, for in
her memories she lived again in the world of tactile sensuality, a world her
talent had closed to her. The more he examined this new aspect of her pattern
the more angry he became, but the pattern of his own anger puzzled him, so he
said nothing and showed nothing, closed and silent as only a Sharnn can be. A whistling sigh from Kayle pulled Ryth out of his thoughts.
In unspoken agreement, all three of them turned toward the next cupboard, wondering
if any cupboard held more for them than a futile reliving of past death. No cupboard did. By darkness Faen was brittle and worn,
knowing only that she had been an unwitting tool for a coward, a murderer. Nor
were Ryth and Kayle much calmer; they ate in silence, went to separate h’kels
in silence and struggled for sleep in silence, each knowing that every agent
had died a murderer’s victim. No accidents. Just murder by stealth and shadow. When Faen was sure that both men slept, she took off her crystal
bells, pulled on her scarlet bridal robes and slipped silently out into the
night. The breeze whispered around her, stirring dead leaves into a semblance
of life. Three moons curved across the night, moons as brilliant as her eyes
and the sarsa bathed in silver mystery. With barely subdued excitement, she
freed two m’sarsas from their loops and drew the rods across her lips, hot
breath flowing across silver. “Call him back,” she whispered, lips brushing metal “Bring
him back to me!” The m’sarsas glowed in triple moonlight and struck music
from waiting crystal. Notes became a song, a man’s song created every day of
his life, summation and soul; she called to him with all her need and sarsa
skill. And he answered. The Sharnn woke instantly, completely. He held himself
utterly still while mind and body searched for whatever had awakened him.
Moonlight flowed into his h’kel, bringing silver across the room, lighting each
curve of wall and pillow. No one else was near. He let his breath out slowly,
but could not return to sleep. With a stifled curse, he swept off the sleeping robe.
Moonlight poured silver down his naked flesh. The wall opened at a touch,
bringing to him the smell of rust and ancient stone and hidden midnight
flowers. He lifted his arms to the cool beauty of the night, felt the lazy
stirring of his body. He smiled, then the smile faded. Faint music shivered
through the silky darkness, ghost chimes from a sensual past. A breeze sighed over him, music through his hair. But the
breeze was replaced by crystal desire singing to his blood, whispering to his
mind. He pulled the music fiercely to him, demanding its pattern. Then fire
raced through him and he ran out into the night. He slipped through abandoned
gardens, eyes blinded by a vision of the sarsa, silver and black and diamond
bright, three moons pressing out triple shadows, triple life, black velvet
warmth of her breath. He threw his head back and laughed and moonlight ran like
water over his awakened flesh. Across the compound, Faen stood in front of the hanging crystals,
arms spread. In her hands two slender m’sarsas burned with sensual heat. She
swept the wands across the waiting crystals and music leaped, a firestorm of
pure desire. The exultation that shook her came to him like lightning and he
knew he must find her, be with her. Touch her. The Sharnn took a stone pathway gleaming under the moons. He
ran on the path inside the circular compound, past abandoned kels and ghost gardens,
seeking a way to the living outer garden where sensuality trembled like a field
of zamay unfolding. Tantalizing crystal sighs fired his body, but the path
shied away, bending back toward ruins and darkness and a maze that had no exit. He stopped, breathing lightly, feeling the patterns of maze
and compound and three-faced moonlight. Six circular walls, now little more
than tall rubble heaps overrun by war and nightvines’ embrace; two inner
circles, walls nearly intact, surrounding emptiness but for the wedge of land
leading from the green spring to the sarsa and ending at the dome. He was
opposite that wedge. Crystal notes mocked pattern skills and licked tongues of
fire through his mind. His green eyes raked the remnant garden until he found a
choked side-path that twisted among trees holding withered leaves up to the
three moons and the taste of rust and he was running again, running through
Sandoliki ruins, brittle gardens and stone mazes, running and never retracing a
step, never hesitating, for he might have placed each stone himself, might have
known every turning, might have been born solely for this night, this garden,
this unfolding moment. The path was a faded ribbon curving past dry fountains and dying
trees until a pale scent of water sweetened his throat and a living stand of ancient
tere trees bloomed ebony against the silver light. The dense moon-shade of the
grove folded the Sharnn in subtle beauty, slow caress, held him though he
wanted to reach her, held him though he writhed to be in the clearing with her
where moonlight poured over the sarsa like pale fire, making each crystal a
jewel carved but of living light. Crystal chimes resonant with time and the
passage of lives called to him, but he could not penetrate the shadow pattern;
he was pushed back by moonlight and a barrier made before he knew her, scarlet
mesh flowing black beneath three moons and her body an echo of lightning. The m’sarsas burned with motion, beauty that defied pattern
just as she did. With an inarticulate cry he sagged against the thick shadows
and ached to touch her, ached to understand, and finally succumbed to the
unmeant seduction of slow chords drifting over him, harmonies older than tere
or garden, older than ruined lives, ancient notes telling of the binding of man
to woman. Then he knew the pattern and could not even cry out his
rage. Too late to flee, strength tangled in shadow while night poised,
spinning in a vortex of moonlight held between gentle hands, pouring past and
present together, and she laughed deep in her body and wept deep in her body
and stroked the sarsa with tireless skill so that she lived again in a land not
ruined, laughed again with people not maimed, lay again in the arms of a man
not dead ... touched him, touched Relle condensing beside her, tall and vivid,
passionate strength bending over her and strong hands singing ecstasy to her
flesh, her warm lips speaking against his cool silver skin, her life pouring
out so that shadow became substance and Relle bending—come closer can’t you
come closer to me RELLE CANT YOU— And Ryth’s wrenching mental cry. Relle’s silver shape twisted, black light shook and the
longest crystal boomed, vire crystal, death crystal shaking apart. Relle’s
song, song and death and death and song and death, screams raging in her mind
and in Ryth’s closed throat as her fury scourged them and he knew the beating
heart of loss and darg vire. M’sarsas swept like lightning across one hundred crystal
faces. Violence exploded, searing, until both Faen and Ryth were subsumed by
the vire crystal’s tolling death, death tolling until moonlight shattered into
Faen swaying while the smallest crystals wept of former lives, living shadows,
life pouring into darkness that shadows might condense into life until a Sharnn
screamed beneath three moons. And silence like a ragged sigh. With shaking hands Faen hung the m’sarsas in their loops and
sank to the ground, weeping in a seething mix of frustration and grief and
rage. The Sharnn sagged to his knees, mind reeling in the sudden release of
compulsion, too shaken by what had happened to do more than stare at her. Slowly he realized that she once again wore bridal scarlet.
She wore scarlet for a shadow called by the sarsa, ghostly synergy of life and
non-life bound by the compelling near-life neither alone could create. Hidden
somewhere in those hundred sightless crystals was uncanny vision, consummation
of all desires, all patterns, all. Relle was not dead. Not always. Nor was Faen always alive. Anger replaced weakness in Ryth’s body. He went to her, contempt
and rage growing with each step. Hearing his approach, she pulled herself to
her feet, silver eyes as blank as sarsa crystal. She pushed waves of black hair
out of her face and stared defiance at him. “Think, Sharnn,” she said, voice streaked with rage. “Think
what it means to be Malian and be barred from touch!” The hard edges of his contempt broke and his anger
flickered, for he knew that she lived every instant in a unique, pervasive agony. “Yes,” she whispered, measuring the change in his lips and
eyes. “Yes. Yet you drove him back. Even the Great Destroyer does not hate me
that much. Sarsa memories may be a shadow, but when you are thirsty, the shadow
of water is better than real sand.” “If Relle lived—truly lived—you could not touch him without
agony,” said Ryth, his voice hard with a certainty that she could not deny, pattern-man
and Sharnn. Faen made an involuntary noise and put up her hands as
though to attack—or ward off an attack. “Relle is lost to you,” said Ryth brutally. “You can’t even
touch the timeshadow of his mind without agony, can you? Can you!” Faen stared at his face, hard in the triple moonlight and
his eyes a fierce green. And knew he was right. What she called with the sarsa
was her own creation wearing Relle’s face. “Why?” said Faen raggedly. “What have I done to you?” “Relle is dead,” said the Sharnn, his voice cruel. “What you
do is obscene.” A sudden stillness transformed Faen’s body, a warning as
clear as a shout. “How easy for you to say,” she hissed. “How easy for the
Sharnn who has never known emotion, much less consummation.” Her left hand
moved up as though to push her hair aside again and she whispered, “How very
easy.” Her hands slowly brushed the back of her neck. A throwing
knife leaped to her fingertips. Her hand snapped down and the knife hissed
through moonlight, but Ryth had begun to move the instant her hand passed beyond
her hair. Even so, the knife scored his neck as he dove toward her. His arm
lashed out, sweeping her feet off the ground. With a sudden twist in midair,
she righted herself and landed just beyond his reach. She laughed, throat taut
in the moonlight, scarlet mesh black and hissing around her knees. “I’m free of you, laseyss. I’m free!” “Are you?” he said, eyes never leaving Faen’s poised body,
for even though she was at the edge of exhaustion, she was speed and death waiting.
“And what of your truce word?” “I promised only a warning,” she said, breathing quickly, circling
him with flashing moves, eyes and lips too pale for life. “I moved at
half-speed, warning you. You’re very quick, my almost husband.” The Sharnn’s answer was to move with blurring speed, hands
reaching for the woman, who cried aloud her anger when she realized she was too
tired to break away. Her eyes darkened as he held her pinned between his body
and his arms. “Tell me,” he said angrily, lips tasting her face, “isn’t
this better than Relle’s cold touch?” The impulse to kill convulsed Faen, but Ryth only laughed
and tightened his arms. “That’s not what your fingertips told me this morning,” he
said. His lips caught hers and she coiled against his arms, testing the
strength of his hold, searching for a weakness. “You’re too tired to fight me effectively,” Ryth said
huskily. “And I’m too smart to try you when you’re rested. I’ll let you go
soon,” he said, smiling, his teeth a slash of light below his eyes. “But first
I want you to know something. Use your talent, my dangerous wife. When you responded
to my touch this morning—” Faen’s back arched with the force of her fear. Every fiber
of her screamed to be free, not to have to hear that she was repulsive to him,
not to have to feel his crushing withdrawal from her touch. She shook with fear
of him and the night tripled with moons swimming in black and her tired body
falling. “—my own response shocked me.” He laughed, lips warm against
her throat, arms painfully tight to contain her disciplined struggles. Her muscles convulsed again, straining against his presence,
against the fire that burned across her nerves wherever their bodies met, and
it seemed that their bodies met everywhere. “I’m going to let myself feel just what I felt this morning
when your body came alive beneath my hands,” he said, pinning her head so that
she must look at him. “Are you ready to read me, m’zamay?” “No,” she gasped, trying to shut down her mind and her
senses, but she was Malian and he was skilled. “Please don’t! I know that you
loathe me. I felt it the first time. I don’t need to feel it again. Please
don’t make me. My error! My regret!” Faen closed her eyes and tears of humiliation and anger
glowed silver in her black lashes. In her desperation she reached out with her
mind, trying to make him understand, believe. *Please! I regret!* *Read me!* His demand sliced through her exhausted defenses at the same
instant that his hands and tongue spoke intimately to her flesh. Half in
despair, half in rage, she answered his sensual assault with a supple movement
of her body that was a slow, twisting pressure against the center of his
desire. She had expected revulsion against the caress, had tried to
brace herself for his annihilating disgust. But what she found in his response
was passion, pure and overwhelming, exploding through her. For a white instant
she came fully alive, mind and body unfolding, reaching for him and
touching—then with a strangled cry she fainted between his hands. He held her while moonlight bled back into garden night,
held her and fought to control feelings he had never conceived of. The moment
of total sensuality had been shattering; neither one of them had been prepared
for such sharing. The Sharnn lifted Faen and carried her into her h’kel, murmuring
apologies against her hair. He lowered her to her sleeping pallet, gently
smoothed the night robe around her and rose to leave. After a few steps he went
back, gathered her against his body and buried his face in her night-scented
hair. His mind delicately touched hers, found only relaxation and
a deep sense of anticipation. Reluctantly, he subdued his body; She needed rest,
not lust. Ryth’s thumb traced the seam of her heavy scarlet clothes.
The mesh hissed apart. Gently, he pulled the cold metal cloth away from her
golden skin. He longed to let lips and tongue trace curves on her flesh, probe
different textures, greatest warmth, but he allowed himself only three lingering
kisses before he covered her softness with a robe. Lips smiling with the taste of her, he knelt to breathe once
more the moonlight tangled in her hair while he tucked the sleep robe around
her. But the robe fell away and her arms slid around his hips. “Don’t leave,” she whispered. “At least let me touch you as
you just touched me.” She rubbed her cheek against the hard strength of his leg in
a gesture of pure sensual pleasure. “No, m’zamay,” he said gently, stroking her neck and
shoulder. “My kisses were promise, not demand. Sleep. I don’t want to push—” He forgot what he had been saying as her teeth nibbled delicately.
She laughed with delight at his response. “It is said,” she murmured, “that a Malian faints only once,
and only for a lover’s skill. Do not worry, my Sharnn. I won’t leave you
again.” He felt the cool fall of her hair across his thighs and the
soft heat of her mouth as she opened to him all the moments of Malian ecstasy. IVFaen stretched with a slow smile. In the instant between
sleeping and waking she searched for an explanation of her pervasive sense of
well-being. Then Ryth stirred, tightening his hold on her and drawing her
against the length of his body. Her fingers moved on the inside of his arm in
slow pressures that told of pleasure and peace. Reassured, Ryth relaxed his
grip. Faen rubbed her palm down his chest and abdomen and thigh with
undemanding intimacy and was answered by a sleepy caress across her breast. “Sleep,” she whispered in his mind, touching his eyelids
with light fingertips and sending feelings of warmth and ease. She slipped out of the shared sleeprobe and dressed in a
brief green pull-up. She hesitated over the crystal anklets and earrings, then
put them on; it was Ryth’s prerogative to remove the bells. She stretched her
body in rippling prelude to faal-hnim. As she did every morning, she went to
the empty h’kel. But this morning she smiled. A few minutes later, Ryth found her there, black hair and
golden body shining as she went through the fluid movements of Sliding Water.
To execute that particular series without sound was difficult; it was nearly
impossible while wearing crystal bells. The sight of the bells gave him a sharp feeling of
displeasure. Then he remembered that the willing mate must remove the crystal
warnings. In his mind he removed the irritating jewelry and gathered her
skilled sensuality against his body. Smiling, the Sharnn admired Faen’s beauty and always-surprising
strength—and was grateful that he had caught her on the edge of exhaustion the
night before. Her timing, poise and balance were extraordinary today. Only once
did he hear the faintest whisper of crystal bells, and that might have been an
echo of his memory. Then he sensed Kayle standing nearby, watching Faen. “You look serious,” said Ryth softly. *I am,* returned Kayle, his mindspeech deft, almost
secretive. *If you ever fight her, go in close, where your strength can counter
her coordination.* Ryth’s answer was a feeling of lazy amusement. *Don’t be so confident, Sharnn,* returned Kayle with a
crackle. *Were it not for her throttled sensuality, she would match you cut for
slice! Although,* he added, *today she certainly is not moving tightly.* *Yes,* agreed Ryth, watching her and remembering the feel of
midnight hair and warm fingers, a knife scoring his neck ... fingertips and
tongue and body calling flesh to flesh with shattering sensuality, and her
ecstasy as he lived and died and was reborn inside her searing softness. Faen’s head fell back, her body arched, and Ryth remembered
her unconscious between his hands, moonlight pearling her lips and eyelashes
and his own strength stunned by what they had revealed to each other. Kayle’s breath whistled as he sensed just a vivid fragment
of Ryth’s memory. *I envy you as a candle must envy the sun. Every Galactic’s
dream is to know the white instant of full Malian sensuality.* Then at Ryth’s
swift apology for accidental broadcasting, Kayle added, *You have shown me the
edge of the dream, the living consummation of all Malian arts. Are all Sharnn
so sensual?* *People of Sharn are whatever they can conceive of being.
That is our gift, our joy, and our despair.* Ryth’s mind closed and he moved lithely into the h’kel, matching
Faen’s grace. Kayle watched them with the intensity of a connoisseur,
memorizing every detail so that one day he could share their disciplined beauty
with them mind to mind, his gift to their mutual discovery. Intensity became
fascination when he realized that they were transforming the lethal motions of
faal-hnim into the slow rhythms of sensual play. When they had finished the Sliding Water series, they stood
facing each other, breaths mingling. Ryth’s hands lifted to her face and his fingertips
wove gently through her hair. When he removed his hands, the earrings were gone.
He lowered his body, fingertips tracing down until he found the anklets. His
fingers flexed, gold chains snapped. Crystal cried once, then no more. When he
stood again, turquoise bells glittered mutely in his palms. “I would like to grind these to dust,” he said slowly, eyes
searching hers. “But I’ll keep them to remind me that there are patterns I
can’t conceive, even when they are closer than my own lips. Especially then.”
One long finger traced her smile. “In fact, there are some things I never even
suspected.” He felt the sensation that began at his fingertip and raced
throughout her body, felt it as though he lived inside her smooth golden skin.
To feel the depth of pleasure his touch gave her was almost as shattering to
him as the instant she had fainted. He laughed shakily and held her at arm’s length. *You must
help me, my Malian bride and teacher. I don’t know how to control what you—what
we—* He smiled and tried again. *How do Malians cope with this?* Faen shivered and he knew as certainly as if she had shouted
that she wanted to kiss the hands holding her. *Malians don’t control
sensuality. We worship it. But this is more. It’s mindtouch. The kind of
mindtouch that penetrates more deeply than any lover, and I become you, you become
me, and we—* She shivered again and gently, very gently, stepped back
from his hands. Both felt the heat of his palms sliding down her arms. With a
fleeting mental caress, Faen turned away and spoke quickly to Kayle. “Will you join us for breakfast? Ryth promised to make me
something from Sharn.” “Delighted,” said Kayle. As he followed them out of the
room, he added casually, “Ti Memned called while you were asleep.” “Did she,” murmured Faen, watching Ryth sort through her
provisions with the speed of a professional thief. Deftly, he combined several
ingredients. “She wanted,” continued Kayle, “to know if the most
seductive Sandoliki Ti Faen’s recent ban on visitors included those who had
dire and immediate need of her most precious, most unique—” “Enough,” said Faen dryly. “Give me the meat and leave the
fat for scavengers like her.” Kayle smiled. “She wants to know if you’ll resume reading objects.” Faen said nothing as she watched Ryth’s sure movements. With
a broad, heavy knife he sliced and flattened several strips of dough. “I
trust,” she said finally, “that you told her to go suck zarfs.” Ryth wrapped the resilient dough around fruit slices and
poured a clear orange sauce over. “I told her that, among other things. She was rather shrill
when she disconnected.” Ryth picked up the fruit rolls and tucked them into a heat
niche. “Call Memned back,” he said, “and tell her that the Sandoliki Ti Faen is
always pleased to aid people who need her talent.” Kayle’s head jerked toward Ryth. “Nonsense! We can’t have
Faen wasting her strength on others, no matter how worthy their needs.” “Or unworthy?” asked Ryth with a feral smile. Kayle’s orange eyes slitted. “Teach me.” “I want you to send at least eight Concord assassins to
Vintra,” said Ryth. “Give them the best backgrounds you can, but get them in
place within two Centrex days.” “Impossible. A decent reality takes more time.” “As long as there are finders like Faen, there is no such thing
as a decent background.” With a quick movement, Ryth skimmed the food out of the
niche. “There should be little danger,” added the Sharnn. “As soon
as someone brings an agent’s object for Faen to read, you’ll warn the agent to
get off-planet.” “What if ‘someone’ murders first and questions later?” Ryth divided the fragrant, steaming food into three
turquoise crystal bowls. “That’s why I want the agents to be assassins.” He
handed out the bowls. “They should be harder to kill.” “Not for a Malian assassin,” said Faen, sniffing her food
appreciatively. “Or even for a Vintran, animals though they are.” “Concord assassins aren’t flowers,” said Kayle dryly. Then
he fell silent for a long moment. “All right. I’ll send out the assassins. Then
I’ll follow whoever comes here asking about—” “I’ll follow,” corrected Ryth. “My pattern awareness will
keep me out of most traps.” “But—” began Kayle, then stopped. The Sharnn was right. “Fine,”
said Kayle in a clipped voice. “We’ll both follow.” “And leave Faen’s back unguarded?” “Just because you caught me when I was exhausted—” began
Faen heatedly. “Not at all,” said Ryth, kissing the inside of her wrist. “But
now that you are no longer the last Sandoliki, you are vulnerable to Lekel’s
ambitions.” His fingertips remained on her wrist, savoring the smooth pulse
just beneath her skin. “I don’t want to lose what I have just found.” “Nor do I,” she shot back. “Who guards you?” The Sharnn said nothing, for there was nothing to say. “Ryth is right,” said Kayle heavily. “If he fails, you are
still our best hope of finding the next person to follow. You must stay here
and help the Carifil who will replace us.” Faen made a disdainful noise and looked over at Ryth. “Kayle
is a good fighter, husband. But he can’t keep me from doing what I must.” Kayle smiled triumphantly. “Just so. I don’t plan on staying
behind, either,” The Sharnn looked from one to the other, started to argue,
then appeared to give in. “Eat your vrri,” he said to her mildly. Then call Memned.”
And to Kayle he added, “When you’re through, get those assassins in place.” For seven days a slow stream of seekers came to Darg Vintra
holding hope in their hands—scarves or rings or rubbing stones—anything that
might tell Faen that what they had lost could be regained. A few sought
treasure, but most wanted only to find a special person. No one brought anything belonging to a Concord agent. In his role as body servant to the two Sandolikis, Kayle’s eyes
swept the public h’kel, searching each person for an assassin’s reflexes. Of
the four seekers who waited, none seemed dangerous. But a good assassin would
be as inconspicuous as dust. *I wish Carifil were here,* grumbled Kayle as Ryth entered
and gestured to the next seeker. *Lekel would never permit it.* *Lekel can suck zarfs!* *He has the mouth for it,* agreed Ryth. *He also controls
the Access.* Kayle vented a surge of frustration. Three Carifil were
sitting on Malia’s inner moon, waiting for Lekel’s permission to come down to
the planet. In an emergency, they would simply take over the shuttle, but until
then they were obeying native regulations. *Mim is lashing me,* thought Kayle, rubbing his temples.
*She wants to try coming in as a seeker.* *With a one-day limit?* asked Ryth as he indicated a sliding
door and followed the seeker inside. *Remember what happened to us?* He added
dryly, *Sandoliki Ti Faen is only permitted one mate.* Kayle sighed as Ryth closed the door. “Sit there,” said the Sharnn quietly, indicating a floor
cushion. “I’ll take your package to her.” The seeker, a woman old before Ryth was born, reluctantly released
the package. At the narrow end of the long, wedge-shaped room, Faen sat on
another cushion. Ryth put the package in front of her and unwrapped it. Gold
bells—earrings and wristlets and anklets—rang with piercing sweetness. They
were the personal jewelry of an aristocratic child, worn before the child was
trained for combat. Ryth watched intently as Faen bent over the bells. Sometimes
what the objects told her was cruel and sickening; then he would snatch her
hand away and hold her until his presence neutralized the gruesome reality she
had touched. Most often, the objects were merely unpleasant. Faen’s slender hand hovered over the gold before descending
with the delicacy of a falling petal She shuddered lightly, then relaxed. The
Sharnn let out his breath; this was not one of the bad ones. “Child-woman,” murmured Faen. “Clear energy. Gone away, far
away.” The old woman whimpered. “Frightened and ... blurred ... triple lives.” Faen’s
fingers curled and bells sang in the silence as they rolled across her palm.
“Ahhhh ... yes ... three. She carries two in her womb and is the third.” Faen’s eyes opened, brilliant with interior distance. “She is alive and pregnant and healthy,” said Faen. “Do you
need more?” “Where?” said the woman in a dry voice that was barely above
a whisper. With a sigh, Faen reached out, scooped, bells in both hands
ringing as she swayed with conflicting energies. “Empty ... ahhh, Great Destroyer, I did not know you made
land so empty and charcoal dark plants crackling, purple sky and clear stones
so silver blinding under amber sun huge so cold ...” Faen released the bells in a rush of sound. The old woman
sobbed dryly while Ryth’s fingertips fed information into the subtly textured
nodes of a Malian computer. “There was a feeling of heaviness,” said Faen tiredly. “I
think it was due to gravity rather than pregnancy; the sense of blurred lives
was very faint this time. It was the moment she first saw her new planet, so
the impressions were vivid.” The Sharnn tapped two more nodes, then waited. Planet maps
slid out of a slit into Ryth’s hands. “Fifteen known planets match your reading.” One of the maps whispered into place in front of Faen. She
picked up gold bells in one hand and touched the map with the other. Nothing.
Ryth took that map away and put down the second. Nothing, The third. The
fourth. Fifth. Eighth. Eleventh—and her finger zigzagged over the map, eyeless
seeking and finding. Faen’s fingertip jerked and held and bells fell from her
other hand. Ryth marked the map. Gently he gathered her hands in his and
smoothed away the residue of antagonistic energy. Her face relaxed into a smile
as her lips brushed across the back of his hand. Then Ryth gathered up the bells and the map and turned
toward the old woman. “She is on Scitleint, third continent.” At her look of
confusion he explained. “The Access code is in the left quadrant, the galactic
map code is in the right. N’ies?” “N’ies,” said the woman slowly. The Sharnn helped her to her feet, handed her the jewelry
and map, and led her back to the public kel. “She always loved her brother too much,” muttered the old
woman to herself. “Too much ...” Ryth watched her leave, then looked at the next seeker, a
tall man who could have been in his second or sixth maturity. He wore the tight
leggings and hip-length cape of a Malian farmer, but his face was masked,
except for his forehead. There flashed gint marks, the tattoo of a
non-combatant, despised by all, even those who also wore gint. Gints were
considered less than alive; in Malian, gint meant shadow. At Ryth’s gesture, the Gint got up and strode across the
room. When he—or it, as gints were called on Malia—came closer, Ryth stiffened
as though the man were truly a shadow, cold and black and thin as a blade. The
Gint’s bearing was at odds with the avowed meekness of the tattoo. And there
was something else, an impossible flash of familiarity in the Gint’s
black-green eyes. “Sit there,” said Ryth curtly, staring past the Gint as
Malian custom demanded. Faen looked up, saw the slash marks of gint and that the man
was neither ill nor crippled nor otherwise incapacitated. Distaste tightened
her lips. “Its presence degrades the very meaning of Sandoliki,” she
said curtly. “Take what it brought so we can get it out of here quickly.” Ryth disliked turning his back on the Gint, but he did so
with apparent indifference as he put the Gint’s package in front of Faen. The
plastic wrapping came off easily. Beneath it was misa silk. Beneath the silk
was a leather headband made on a planet six million light years from Malia. *There are many other possibilities,* cautioned Ryth at the
surge of excitement he sensed from Faen. Faen’s only answer was impatience. Her hand shot out—and she
gasped as agony lanced through her. Quickly she reduced contact to a single fingertip. “Female. Strong energy. Alive ... ? Yes. But unconscious.
She is—not—on Malia.” Faen lifted her hand and looked through the Gint sitting
at the far end of the room. “Does it hope for further information?” Ryth sensed the Gint’s leaping hatred at Faen’s scornful use
of the impersonal pronoun. For a moment the Gint was utterly quiet, the
stillness of a predator. Then a very rough voice asked, “Is the woman Malian or
Vintran or some other race?” Triumph flashed from Faen’s mind to Ryth’s, but she showed
no outward sign as she barely touched the headband again. “She’s one of Kayle’s people?” asked Ryth. *Yes, Telelell, I think. What should I tell it?* *They probably have been questioning her under torture or
drugs.* *They have. Pain was the first thing I sensed.* *Tell the Gint the truth. They may know anyway. This could
be a test for you. After Vintra, they sure as zarfs suspect Kayle and me!* With a show of lingering over the headband, Faen said, “Neither
Vintra nor Malia. If it wishes a particular planet—” “No,” said the Gint, interrupting her rudely and turning
away from her to leave. The insult could not be ignored. With incredible speed, Ryth
caught the Gint, flipped it, and held a wrist over its throat until the Gint
passed out. When he was certain that the Gint was unconscious, Ryth pulled out
his knife. Faen watched with real indifference, then observed, “The
insult wasn’t worth death.” “Agreed,” said the Sharnn. The knife flashed as Ryth began shaving the Gint’s head with
short, vicious strokes. Dark gold curls fell next to dull black ones. He did
not disturb the mask. “Should I try to read it?” she asked, sitting on her heels
close to him, watching. Ryth had been asking himself the same question. And had no
answer. “What will happen?” Faen made a curt gesture of dismissal. “M’zamay,” he said, fingers stroking her arm, “what will
touching it do to you?” “I don’t know,” she said tightly. “Since the time of the Ti
Vire I have touched no living person—except you.” She began methodically folding
the misa square that the headband had been wrapped in. “And the others I
touched only with a sharp knife.” She placed the thick misa square on the Gint’s chest,
carefully put her fingertip on the silk—and collapsed with a blinding mental
scream. Ryth caught Faen at the same moment he drove his mind into
hers. He found only the stillness of absolute negation; something she had
sensed was so abhorrent to her that she was wiping the memory from her mind. It
would be as though she never had touched the Gint at all. With gentle hands the Sharnn eased her onto the floor, murmuring
praise and love to her indrawn, tightly curled mind. Outside of her mind he
cursed in the twisting epithets of Sharn. When he looked up, Kayle was there,
radiating a desire to kill whatever had caused such pain. *Faen?* demanded Kayle. *Healing herself.* *What happened?* *She touched it.* *Stupid!* The force of Ryth’s snarling explanation made Kayle grimace.
*Not stupid,* amended Kayle. *Necessary. Will she sleep long?* *A sixth part, maybe longer.* Ryth picked up Faen. *Keep the
Gint unconscious until I get back. It’s waking now.* *Is it?* Kayle’s predatory satisfaction made Ryth smile. He left the
Gint to Kayle’s skilled hands. Quickly he took Faen to her h’kel and placed her
on a sleeping pallet. With a lingering caress he wrapped the sleep robe around
her, then ran back to Kayle. The Gint lay slackly on the floor. “You must have leaned rather hard on its throat,” observed
Ryth. “Not so hard as I wanted.” Ryth knelt and finished shaving half the Gint’s head. “The black is dyed,” said Ryth as he wrapped a few dull
black coils in misa silk, then added a few of the deep gold curls. He gave the silk to Kayle, scattered the remaining hair over
the Gint and then dug his fingers into the Gint’s abdomen, twisting hard. Pain
brought sudden consciousness. The Gint stared at Ryth with eyes that echoed
agony and something more, black-green shadows sliding in familiar depths,
familiar in the instant before negation wiped recognition from memory. Gone,
but not without a trace. The Sharnn sensed a haunting need, consuming hunger,
as though a shadow called for life from the other side of hope. For a moment, the Sharnn felt Malia spinning beneath him,
then he wrenched his mind and forgot, totally, every instant but the one before
him, staring into the shadow depths of the Gint’s hopeless eyes. “If the Sandoliki Ti Ryth sees it before its hair grows out,
it will die. N’ies?” “N’ies,” said the Gint hoarsely. The Sharnn stood and turned his back on the intimacy of the
Gint’s knowing eyes. He sensed a cry deep within his mind, core deep, and he
reached out to Faen but she was still coiled in upon herself, unknowing, unable
even to cry out. “It is gone,” said Kayle after a moment. “Good,” said Ryth, allowing his eyes to focus on Kayle. Kayle looked at the square of misa Ryth had given him. “Why
didn’t you just twist the information out of it?” said Kayle. “Wouldn’t have worked. Assassin trained. I could feel it in
the muscles.” “That gint?” said Kayle incredulously. “An assassin?” Ryth shrugged impatiently. “The tattoo was painted.” “But—” “Can you think of a better disguise?” snapped Ryth. “No Malian
ever looked deeper than the tattoo. A gint is nothing. A shadow of life.” “Yes,” said Kayle doubtfully, “but no Malian or even Vintran
could bring himself to wear a coward’s mark. Not for any reason. In fact—” Kayle stopped at a gesture from the Sharnn. Both men stood
and listened to the thin sigh of a speeding flyer. “Did you put a follow-me on that flyer?” “On every flyer,” said Kayle dryly. “Tell Faen—” The Sharnn made a slicing gesture and swore in
his native tongue; what he had to say to Faen could not be said by another. “Wait,” said Kayle quickly. “When Faen wakes up—” “The Gint will be long vanished. The follow-me will only
broadcast for a tenth part of a day.” The Sharnn turned away. Kayle stretched out his arm. Ryth
went far beyond his reach in a single fluid leap. “I wasn’t—” began Kayle. “I know.” The Sharnn turned and ran with long, rapid strides. “At least protect yourself with your cape!” called Kayle,
but Ryth did not hear. The Sharnn ran swiftly to a waiting eight-flyer. The machine
was Lekel’s acknowledgment that Faen was beyond his sensual reach and therefore
no longer needed to be kept a virtual prisoner. The flyer leaped into the rusty wind. Red-brown land, deeply
seamed and shadowed, blurred beneath the speeding machine. Ryth had little to
do; the flyer was programmed to lock onto the follow-me signal and the scanner
was automatically monitoring any communications. To prevent discovery, Ryth’s
larger eight-flyer moved at a greater altitude. The dry stone of Darg Vintra gave way to the fertile flower
belt of Malia’s temperate zone. From high up, the land was a watercolor blur of
cream and turquoise and gold with the velvet black of nightvines like a net
holding the flowers away from crimson fires that were tere groves reaching for
the pale turquoise sky. Small towns and settlements appeared and vanished, their
creamstone and russet brick buildings blending with the grain and flower land.
Eventually the towns seemed to run together until Ryth was flying over the
fifty-one clan compounds whose creamstone heights were the nucleus of C’Varial,
Malia’s greatest—and only—city. Ryth stared at the apparently random, yet subtly patterned,
city below. In the center of the compounds, crouched on a high hill, was the y’Kel
of the Sandoliki Clan. By law, it should have been Faen’s home, but the immense
weight of history/emotion that the y’Kel bore made it virtually uninhabitable
to Faen. The follow-me’s signal shifted in pitch, indicating that the
flyer had landed. Ryth’s grip on the controls tightened as he realized a
compelling reluctance to confront the Gint again, perhaps this time to find out
more than even a Sharnn could conceive. Ryth realized that the one-flyer had passed the shuttle pad
and gone on to the Sandoliki Compound. The one-flyer had landed at the center
of Malian government. Ryth set the flyer down close to the follow-me’s signal. He
flipped a lever, sending a beam of energy that reduced the follow-me to dust.
Then, using the same beam at a much lower energy, he carefully scanned the
one-flyer for signs of life. The Gint—or someone—was still inside. Ryth smiled grimly,
guessing that he/it did not want to be seen with a half-shaved head. Soon the one-flyer opened and a man climbed out. His cape
swirled with wind and movement and Ryth had an instant of familiarity, a sense
of having seen before. Then the instant passed and the man became someone
wearing an elaborate headdress that had formerly been a hip-length shirt. The
man’s forehead was innocent of any blazing gint marks, yet Ryth had no doubt
that the man was his quarry; the stride was longer, more open, but it was permeated
by the same subtle arrogance that had sent a warning tingle through Ryth at
Darg Vintra. Unnoticed, Ryth followed the man through the wide, flying
arches of translucent creamstone that marked the boundaries of the Sandoliki Compound.
With each step closer to the Topaz Kel, the creamstone changed subtly, becoming
nearer and nearer in hue to the brilliant gold-brown that blazed from the
transparent crystal walls of the famed Topaz Arcade. Ryth’s pattern instinct automatically appreciated the
artistry of Sandoliki construction; without touching, he knew that the textures
changed as subtly as the hues. Nearby, zamay lifted petal throats, singing,
asking. The man Ryth followed stopped and looked around casually; his
black-green eyes dismissed Ryth bending over a trembling zamay as pollen poured
silver-bright over Ryth’s palms. With a glance, the man stepped sideways and
vanished through a hedge of nightvine and moonflowers. Ryth counted ten before he slipped through the hedge at a different
spot. He found himself in an intricate garden maze of the type used to train
aristocratic children in textural nuances. There were no true paths, nothing
but an almost subliminal sequence of colors and textures that led to a single
exit. For a Malian child, the garden was a difficult, yet delightful experience.
For the Sharnn, it was an exercise in pattern skills that taxed his patience.
Yet Ryth could not help but savor the exquisite progression of textures as he
came closer and closer to the maze’s exit. Once out, he found himself in the
Topaz Arcade, a section of the y’kel reserved for Lekel’s family and intimates.
The man he followed had vanished. Ryth searched the soaring arches and curving
tiers of windows for an exit or an opening or anything that would give him a
clue to the man’s direction, but the windows looked down on him with seamless
brilliance and the tangle of nightvine and scarlet tere that separated arch
from wall had no openings. The Sharnn could see no one, yet a thousand people might see
him. He remembered a skilled White Dawn assassin whose last sight was the Topaz
Arcade. He sensed someone approaching from behind and turned swiftly. The speed and poise of the Sharnn’s turn acted as a warning
to the four who approached. They slowed and watched his hands very carefully.
Ryth returned their scrutiny while facts fell into a deadly pattern: the four
had expected to find someone here; they did not recognize him as a Sandoliki;
they would attack him; and they probably had other warriors nearby. The Sharnn’s mind raced through probabilities, but none gave
much hope of escape. With a mental shrug, Ryth faced the four. One of them
spoke to him in the round tones of a respectful stranger. Ryth would have been
pleased had he not guessed that the man was stalling for time. “We are unknown to each other—” “Of course!” returned Ryth in the icy tones reserved for
highest aristocracy. Then the Sharnn flipped open his metal-cloth cape, showing
that he was weaponless. As a gesture of contempt it had few peers. Now the four
people facing him must decide whether Ryth was of a status that made his
insults not only palatable, but pleasurable. The insult was a gamble, an
attempt to disconcert the would-be attackers. Perhaps even to dissuade them. But even as he moved, the Sharnn read decision on the other
man’s face. They would attack him as soon as they were ready. “Our error,” said the tall one coldly. “Possibly our
regret.” “Not possibly, Gint,” Ryth said in deadly insult. “Certainly.” Even as he spoke, the Sharnn leaped and lashed out with his
foot. Heel met head with an audible snap. The tall man flew backwards into his
friends, spoiling the balance of their attack. Ryth dove and rolled to avoid a
knife. Still rolling, he lacked twice and sent one of the men into screaming
retreat with arm and leg broken; strangler’s wire fell from nerveless fingers
and coiled on the stone walk. The remaining two retreated slowly. Ryth feinted in their direction, then spun around—only to
see five people advancing on him. Three of them carried strangler’s wire and in
the Sharnn’s mind a White Dawn assassin looked at the Topaz Arcade for the last
time before she died with a bleeding wire mark on her throat. The hedge quivered in accidental warning. Ryth dove and
rolled away just as three more men slid into the Arcade. Now there were ten
assassins closing in on three sides. Whoever the Gint was, he took few chances;
the Topaz Arcade was a well-designed deathtrap. With all the discipline and power he had, Ryth sent to Faen
a warning of the Topaz Arcade. As he sent, he carefully backed away in the only
direction open to him. He knew that someone would be closing in from behind,
but every instant he remained alive increased the chance that Faen would
receive his message. *Where are you now! Exactly!* The clarity of Faen’s demand surprised the Sharnn, but he responded
with a vivid mental picture of his location. Then Ryth’s time was gone. A
m’vire hummed by his diving body. The metal star sliced through a wrist-sized
vine and quivered in a tere trunk. Ryth rolled to his feet and yanked out the
m’vire. With split-instant aim, he sent the m’vire humming into an enemy’s
throat. Three knives leaped for the Sharnn. He threw himself aside, but could
not evade all three. One missed, one tangled in the metal threads of his cape,
and the last made a painful arc across his thigh. He bent and grabbed the two
knives within reach. Even as he straightened, one of the knives leaped out of
his hand and sped toward the closest assassin. She sensed the danger and
jumped; the knife went into her abdomen instead of her heart. Ryth’s second
knife turned over and over in the sunlight, a long throw at the person Ryth
sensed sneaking up behind him, hidden by one of the many hedges twisting
through the Arcade. A cry of pain told Ryth that his aim was accurate but not
deadly. No more knives or m’vires came toward the Sharnn. The attackers
had learned that Ryth was too deadly to give any weapons. At an unseen signal,
the seven remaining assassins spread out until they had surrounded him. The
hedge quivered and vomited more people, more weapons, too many for one man no
matter what his skill. Without realizing it, Ryth called out to Faen, pouring images/emotions
of laughter and peace and sensuality and sorrow and raw rage at the end of
love, a sending as richly textured as their joining had been. Then his mind
closed totally and he focused himself on killing as many as he could in the
time he had left. The hedge jerked again, but Ryth was too busy to look. He
waited until the circle around him had shrunk, waited until the sudden tensing
of bodies told him they were getting ready to rush, then he threw himself up
and backwards in one of faal-hnim’s most difficult and deadly moves. When his
body reached the peak of its upward arc, Ryth tucked himself into a ball,
turned, then snapped open at the instant that his spinning force was the
greatest. His feet descended on two assassins. Between one instant and the
next, two men died. Three other assassins leaped on the Sharnn before he could
roll completely clear of the crumpled bodies. Knives and knees struck, seeking
the soft parts of Ryth’s body. In a haze of pain, Ryth drove rigid fingers
against a woman’s throat, killing her and throwing her at the man whose knife
had broken on stone between Ryth’s legs. The Sharnn’s body was slippery with sweat and blood from
cuts he had never felt. He threw himself aside as yet another man leaped, knife
and knees and sudden death. The man hit Ryth’s arm with numbing force, but the
knife missed Ryth’s throat. The Sharnn raised his uninjured arm for a lethal
chop. Before he could bring me edge of his palm down, the man grunted and fell
slackly forward. A knife glittered in his back. Ryth yanked the weapon free and
silently thanked the over-eager assassin who had killed one of his own. Nearby a man screamed, a sound of intolerable pain. Out of
the corner of his eye, Ryth saw a short, powerful figure leap into the air and
lash out with both feet. Ryth recognized Kayle in the instant that both blows
connected, breaking two necks. Then Ryth realized that the knife he held was a
Nendleti knife, curved and serrated. Two assassins leaped for Kayle as a third drew her arm back
to throw a knife. Even while Ryth’s mind called a warning, a turquoise blur
somersaulted past the knife-thrower. The exquisite timing of the strike was as
much Faen as the fact that the assassin died before she touched the ground. The Sharnn rolled to his feet, left arm hanging uselessly,
right arm lashing out with a heavy Nendleti knife that cut through bone. He
stood wide-legged, shouting at the remaining assassins in the corkscrew phrases
of a Sharnn poet, celebrating Faen’s lethal beauty as she leaped and kicked and
spun and kicked. Then he was in her mind and she in his. He threw the heavy
knife with utter certainty, metal hissing past her motionless body. The knife
drove into the shoulder of a strangler whose wire had just slipped over Kayle’s
throat. With a running leap, Faen flipped her body in a deadly cartwheel that
ended with an assassin’s broken back. The Topaz Arcade was suddenly very quiet. Automatically,
Ryth and Kayle and Faen drew together, backs to each other, eyes searching for
more attackers. But the only assassins they saw already lay on the ground, dead
or nearly so. Ryth felt a soaring moment that Faen could have named, one
of a thousand, but he knew only that he was alive in a place littered with
death. He threw back his head and crystal arches rang with the wild laughter of
Sharn. Faen moved close to him, warming mind and body with his
laughter, his arm a hard strength holding her close. Only the sliding darkness
deep in her eyes showed what touching those others had cost, that and standing
in a place crowded with past and present emotions. But as he held her, her eyes
cleared to a pale turquoise that matched the shimmering metallic pull-up she
wore. Then her clothes shimmered, lifted and became his Sharnn cape, drifting
around his shoulders, healing. *How—?* he asked in her mind. “Kayle gave me a stimulant that would have made a tere grove
dance the faal-hnim,” she responded, eyes pale, reflecting the pearl longshirt
that she had worn beneath the Sharon cape. As Ryth’s anger scorched through Kayle’s mind, the Nendleti
involuntarily raised his hands. *Carifil suggestion, not mine! She’s all right.
Ask her.* Ryth touched Faen’s mind and felt the familiar
sliding-soaring sensation as their minds met and melted one into the other.
Deep within he sensed the echoes of earlier horror, but nowhere did he find or
feel the jaggedness of true injury. “How did you know where I was?” Faen’s laughter was as sudden and clear as a desert spring.
*Have you forgotten my talent? You’ll never escape me, laseyss. I can follow
you with the ease of an iron needle following a magnet.* Ryth bent over her and tasted her beauty for a long moment.
Not far from their feet, a woman groaned and jerked. Reluctantly, Ryth released
Faen and went over to the woman. When she saw him, she said hoarsely, “G’el
n’si!” The words meant “Mercy, warrior!” and at one time had been a
call for a clean death. Time and changing customs had transformed the phrase
into a statement of neutrality; the person who called out declared that he or
she was not fighting at that moment. The fact that the woman used the words
told Ryth that his death had not been bought by name; the people he fought were
more warriors than assassins. “N’si g’el,” agreed Ryth, feeling better with each moment
that he wore the cape. Though she had a broken arm and a dislocated knee, the woman
managed to pull herself upright. Ryth ignored her, instead bending over a tall
man who was only an arm’s length from her. The Sharnn probed with rigid fingers
and was answered by a reflexive twitch. “Your clumsy friend is still alive,” said Ryth to the woman.
“Get him back to your guild. He is our gift to the fools who believe many
indifferent fighters equal one good one.” The Sharnn stood smoothly. “And tell
the person in the hedge that he will die very slowly if he moves at all.” “G’el n’si,” said a man’s voice, resonant with power and
ease. “N’si g’el, Lekel.” The hedge shivered and Lekel strode into the Topaz Arcade.
His black eyes dismissed Kayle, slid away from Ryth—and devoured Faen. “You fight more beautifully than I remembered, m’zamay.” Faen’s lips thinned at the intimate endearment. With
exquisite deliberation, she turned her back on Lekel. Her skilled fingers moved
over Ryth’s face and chest and lips, speaking clearly of invitation and
response. Smiling, the Sharnn smoothed his palm down her body in a lingering
touch that left no doubt of their mutual desire. His cape shimmered like
m’zamay, caressing her ankles. Lekel was very still while he fought the jealousy twisting
through him. Fought and won; when he spoke, he made no further claim to an
intimate relationship with Faen. “The Sandoliki Ti Faen’s visit is as unexpected as it is
pleasing.” Faen made a gesture of such indifference as to border on
insult. “You guard yourself well, Lekel. Are the knives of Power and Discretion
weighing too heavily in your sheaths?” Unconsciously, Lekel’s hands went to the two knives strapped
one to each thigh, symbols of his rule as well as two of the most ancient
artifacts known on Malia. The carved gold hilts had a luster that came from
centuries of use. At the center of each hilt was a large blue-green gemstone,
shaped like a sleepless, transparent eye. A slightly larger, more deeply carved
stone was worn by Faen. “The knives are perfectly balanced when I wear them,” said
Lekel. “But you wouldn’t know about such balance and power, would you?” “Sometimes,” said Faen idly, “you remind me of a
skavern—nothing alive would deign to live in the slime pit that is a skavern’s
nest, yet he guards that pit as though it were the most delectable home in the
known universe.” The insult was too clear to ignore; Lekel’s face became an expressionless
warning. *Gently,* urged Ryth. *Why?* shot back Faen. *He’s none too careful of my preferences!* *He’s carrying a rather obvious intent for you.* Faen’s only response to Lekel’s visible desire for her was
contempt. *Because he wants you?* asked Ryth, puzzled by the depth of
her rejection. *Surely that’s no insult.* *Because he never wanted me enough to risk his life fighting
me!* *Did Relle?* *We were bound to each other before we were combat trained.* *Be polite anyway,* suggested the Sharnn. *I need Lekel in
an agreeable mood.* *Then kill him.* Faen turned toward Lekel. “How is your
first wife, Memned?” “My only wife is well,” said Lekel, obviously surprised by
Faen’s courtesy in asking. “My error. I forgot that you imitated the Sandoliki customs
by having only one wife. But then,” she added, “you have little choice. Few
women would be second to a Vintran.” Lekel’s body shifted into a subtle crouch. “You go too far
with your contempt, Faen.” “Are you challenging the truth—or me?” She cocked her head
hopefully. “Both, perhaps?” Lekel struggled with his anger, and the pain her contempt
gave him. His handsome face settled into grim lines. “I will settle for your
apology.” “You’re too generous,” said Faen softly, her eyes clear as
ice. And that was all she said. “The thirteenth part of a day,” hissed Lekel, giving Faen
the license granted to one who has just fought—and biting off each word as
though it tasted of skavern. Faen turned and leaned against Ryth in sensual invitation.
“Was there something you wanted here, de f’mi ti?” she said in a husky voice.
“You have only to ask.” *You can be a hooked thorn, m’zamay,* answered Ryth, tracing
her lips with the tip of his tongue. *Will Lekel help us now?* Her tongue answered his as she stretched against him. *He
can help us or die. His choice.* Smiling with a sensuality that matched hers, the Sharnn loosened
her braided hair. “What I want, m’zamay, is a man one hand shorter than I, two
hands less broad in the shoulders, black-green eyes, and—” his fingers gently
rubbed against her scalp “—half his black and gold hair shaved off.” He lifted
a coil of her perfumed hair to his lips and inhaled appreciatively. “When I
last saw this false gint—” At the word “gint,” Lekel jerked. “—he was fast-walking down this very—” “No,” said Lekel, voice flat and urgent. “Not here. The acoustics
of the Arcade are part of its fame.” Lekel turned away abruptly, but his obvious agitation
removed any taint of insult. They hesitated, then followed him carefully, eyes
searching for ambush. Lekel led them beneath transparent golden-brown arches
carved by ancient masters, through twisting black hedges of nightvine laced
with scarlet from fallen tere leaves, through breezes dense with zamay’s
aphrodisiac pollen and paths soft with myriad drifting petals and fragrances. No one spoke; no one made any noise at all. They moved like
thoughts along the perimeter of the Arcade and deep into the Abandoned Gardens
of the Ninth Sandoliki. As they threaded through a maze of trembling, singing
flowers, a cloud of silver insects rose and glittered around their hands like a
jeweled rain before settling again on the silver centers of the blue-green
flowers. A clean, sweet scent filled the air. Petals gave way to the hushed
beauty of a tere grove, trunks black and polished with age, leaves blood red
with youth. Deep in the grove a scarlet bird called and was answered by Lekel’s
rippling whistle. The bird called again, a sweet descending note of peace.
Suddenly Ryth sensed that this grove had been the favorite place of Faen’s
childhood, that she chose her perfume after its special blend of fragrances—and
that she was disturbed by Lekel’s intimacy with a place that was part of her. Lekel turned toward them. “What do you know about the Gint?”
he demanded. “Is that what you call him?” said Ryth lazily, but his mind
was working on new patterns with a speed only Faen could appreciate. “He’s not
a true gint. He has the abdominal muscles of a highly trained assassin and the
stealth of a shadow.” “Where did you see him?” Lekel’s black eyes shone with hidden
emotions. “How did you get close enough to touch him? And why didn’t you kill
him when you had the chance? Tell me!” Faen swayed closer to Ryth, touched him unconsciously. He
had a fleeting, blurred sense of a Ninth Circle symbol overlaid by the slash
marks of gint, but when he tried to focus in her mind, the thought disappeared
into the shield Faen had built against what she had discovered the moment she
touched the Gint’s body. Without knowing why, the Sharnn moved uneasily,
rejecting what he had not yet discovered. “I’m not at your command,” observed Ryth in a carefully neutral
tone. Lekel’s eyes became as polished and opaque as old tere bark,
but in the end he bowed to the simple truth of Ryth’s words. “My error.” Lekel paused, then added ruefully, “Very much my
regret. You are the Great Destroyer’s own fighter.” His eyes went speculatively
to Faen. “Yes,” she said, smiling. “He fought me—and then I fainted
at the beauty of his touch.” Lekel was Malian, and proud. But he was also a realist. They
saw his eyes change as he began to accept the finality of his loss; Faen was as
much beyond his reach as though she were dead. “The man you call the Gint,” said Ryth into the silence,
“came to Darg Vintra this morning. He asked for a moment of Faen’s talent, and
received it in spite of the slash marks on his forehead.” Lekel smiled sardonically. “Were you gracious to the Gint,
Sandoliki Ti Faen?” Oddly, Faen did not rise to his teasing. Something close to
sorrow moved over her lips, as though she at last had realized that Lekel
wanted her as much as she wanted the Sharnn. She could not add to the pain she
saw turning deep within the k’m’n Sandoliki’s clear black eyes. Ryth spoke, sensing that Faen might inadvertently make a gesture
of compassion that would only anger the proud Malian ruler. “Instead of being grateful that she expended her energy for
a mere gint,” said Ryth quickly, “it insulted the Ti Faen. As the insult was
small, I merely shaved half its head.” “Did it offer to fight you?” asked Lekel curiously. “It didn’t have the chance,” Faen said. Lekel moved his shoulders in the unconscious reflex of a man
who has an intolerable burden dragging at his back. “What do you know of this gint?” asked Ryth with deceptive
softness. Lekel’s face closed and he said nothing. The Sharnn waited
with outward indifference, knowing that somehow the Gint must have offended
Lekel and escaped unpunished. Such things were difficult for a Malian to speak
of. “Ti Lekel is a fighter and a sensualist of great fame,”
Kayle said delicately. “But even a Sandoliki is sometimes unlucky ...” For the first time, Lekel really noticed Kayle. “I don’t know you, alien,” said Lekel. The bluntness of his
statement was an invitation for acquaintance rather than an insult. “Ti Kayle,” Faen said dryly, “taught me faal-hnim when I was
training to become a Concord agent.” Lekel made a graceful gesture of respect. “May Malia please
you, Ti Kayle.” “As well as I please her,” said Kayle smoothly. “He knows our customs better than any outsider except Ryth,”
Faen said, examining the pattern of light splintering deep in her blue-green
ring. Though she said no more, her tone clearly implied that Lekel
would insult either man at his own peril, no matter how subtle the attempt. Lekel smiled ironically at Faen, then said to Kayle, “You
honor us with your presence, Nendleti warrior.” He made no reference to the
esthetic aspect of Nendleti culture, an omission that was as much test as
insult. “Ti k’m’n Sandoliki Lekel is most kind,” murmured Kayle,
deftly reminding Lekel that he was only a Sandoliki by k’m’n—courtesy. Lekel smiled slightly. “As I expected—the men who walk near
Faen have sharp knives.” He dropped his hands abruptly, ending with a gesture
that could have been an appeal. “As the Destroyer wills. I’ll tell you what I
can. But if I find out that you are knife friends with the Gint; I will help
the two of you die very slowly.” Lekel looked over their heads at the red tere leaves licking
against the turquoise sky. Then, with a suddenness that made his yellow cape
flare, he turned to look behind his back. Nothing was there but the
rain-scented breeze ... yet he stared for a long moment, analyzing shadows as
though he did not believe there were only four people listening beneath the
huge tere tree. Faen snapped her fingers impatiently. “Unless your gint is
truly a shadow, we are alone here.” The Sharnn’s body tightened, but he said nothing and no one
noticed. There are many who believe he is just that,” Lekel said.
“The shadow of Malia’s dead pride, slain by Vintrans and now stalking across
the land while we call its name.” Lekel’s disturbingly handsome face twisted,
then smoothed into uncanny expressionlessness. “I do not share that belief. But
too many rally around the inverted vees.” He gave Faen a sidelong look out of
brilliant black eyes. “Far-cousin, it was a bleak day when you began the Ti
Vire.” “It was a bleak day when I ended it!” she snapped, Jabbing
two fingers of her left hand downward in the sign of Ti Vire. “Vintrans are
alive today to spread stupidities about gints and shadows.” “Must it be Vintrans?” asked Ryth. Faen spun on him, pale eyes blazing. “Malians do not use
shadows. Or gints!” Without responding, the Sharnn looked back at Lekel. “I wish I had Faen’s faith,” was all that Lekel said. “Silence!” she hissed. “You don’t know what is at risk!” But when Lekel asked for an explanation, she turned away, unable
to speak about Malia’s threatened destruction. Lekel made a cutting gesture of dismissal. “The Gint has
killed six of my knife-friends.” Faen turned back and compassion transformed her face. “I regret.
Do you know why they died?” “Ask the Great Destroyer,” said Lekel bitterly. “All six
were necessary to my rule. Two were D’corl, advisors for whole continents.
Three were Listeners and the last—” Lekel’s eyes became narrow and very black
“—the last was my f’mi. She was more than a sensual companion, though. She was
a Listener of rare skill. From the oddest rumors she could glean the most
useful facts. Vintra was her specialty.” Lekel’s hands cupped, then parted as
though he poured something out. “I am empty.” “May I know her name?” said Ryth. “Cy’mari’ne, White Dawn Assassin of the Ninth Circle.” Ryth spoke into the sudden silence, his voice casual in
spite of his leaping pulse. “Did her killer take anything?” “Hands, hair and knife,” said Lekel with outward calm. “You’re sure that the Gint—” “Yes. Three witnessed her death. The Gint’s black and gold
hair,” added Lekel dryly, “is distinctive. Most Malians have one or three hair
colors, not two.” “Vintrans?” asked Kayle. “The same. Physically, we have diverged very little in the
centuries since Separation.” “Do you believe,” said the Sharnn slowly, “that someone on
Malia is trying to end your rule, using the Gint?” “Yes. Until today, I was nearly certain that it was the Ti
Faen.” “Why?” “I knew of no one else who could kill a Ninth Circle
assassin. One attacker, alone.” “But the Gint is a man,” said Kayle. Lekel made a subtle gesture of ambivalence. “Is it?” “Yes,” said Ryth. “I threw him, held him, twisted him,”
added the Sharnn. “He was undoubtedly male.” Lekel snapped his fingers. “Then there is an unknown man,”
and he looked harshly at Ryth, then Kayle, “who fights at least in the Ninth
Circle and who kills my knife-friends and then vanishes into the shadows.” “We’re the wrong size,” said Kayle, smiling blandly. “There are moments when I suspect myself!” snapped Lekel.
“Even with more guards in the y’kel than zamay, the Gint managed to slip
through and strangle Cy in the Topaz Arcade.” Lekel stared over their heads, seeing the death of his f’mi
beneath the splintered bronze light of ancient arches. *By wire,* Faen’s thought tumbled into the Sharnn’s mind. *By
wire and her knife jerking down, knife-tip breaking on carved stone and death.* Ryth shook his head at the force of the images that came
with her thought. *I felt the wire. He kills on two planets. False gint indeed.* *Two?* asked Ryth. *Pattern-man,* dryly, *who else could have evaded both you
and Kayle while cutting his companions’ throats? He was the last one to touch
her knife before you found it in one of Vintra’s garbage alleys.* *No ...!* *There’s no doubt,* began Faen, then sensed Ryth’s mind sliding
out of reach. “What if the man is Vintran,” Ryth said tightly, “rather
than Malian?” “It’s possible,” conceded Lekel with barely veiled
impatience. “Would it also be possible for the man to move freely
between the two planets?” “You have a particular person in mind?” Ryth’s lips thinned into silence. Lekel’s knife hand made a slicing gesture. “I know every man
who uses Malia’s Access.” The Sharnn waited. “What day were you thinking of?” Lekel asked, his tone
telling Ryth of displeasure at information withheld. “The last four days.” Lekel smiled sourly. “Too easy, Ti Ryth. No one has used the
Access in that time. Surprised? Or don’t you believe? No matter. Ask your
friends on the inner moon if anyone has been through while they sat and drew
designs in the air.” Lekel stopped, suddenly remembering something. “You say
you followed the Gint here? What was his flyer like?” “One-flyer, silver, no status designs.” “There are thousands like that.” Ryth shrugged; there was nothing he could do about that. And
he was becoming more impatient and suspicious with each moment that Lekel
failed to do the obvious thing. Finally, Ryth forced the matter. “Shouldn’t we be searching the compound for this man? We’ve
wasted—” “Nothing,” cut in Lekel, smiling sardonically. “Since the
first chime of the hidden bells, my guards have been combing the gardens and Arcade.”
He touched a disc on the end of a heavy gold chain. Ryth recognized a transceiver
beneath the delicate filigree design. “So far, they’ve found only you and Kayle
and Faen. And death, of course. A lot of that.” “Have they searched Memned’s h’kel?” said Faen coolly. Lekel hissed a curse and ignored her. “Every h’kel is
searched every time that gint is seen. But he vanishes like a shadow in a
moonless moment.” *What now?* asked Kayle, sending an image of a blind man
dodging lightning. *Did you bring the false gint’s hair?* *Yes.* “If we can’t be of further use to you,” said Ryth, “we would
like to rest. I assume we have the freedom of the city and the y’kel?” “Of course we do,” said Faen before Lekel could answer. “We
are Sandolikis Ti. If we wished to shatter each arch, all he could do is praise
our strokes and strength!” She turned to Lekel, her face expressionless.
“N’ies, my most distant cousin?” “N’ies,” said Lekel coldly. “The Ti Faen, her husband and
her servant are welcome in any h’kel in C’Varial or the whole of Malia.” “I am honored,” murmured Ryth. Lekel said nothing. In silence they walked back to the Topaz Kel. No one, alive
or dead, was in the Arcade garden where they had recently fought. Only a few broken
plants and the scent of crushed flowers told of violence. Lekel walked swiftly,
yellow cape lifting in the breeze of his passage. With his tight black pull-up,
his gold knives of office, and his lean, hard body, he looked every bit the warrior/ruler
he was. Ryth watched narrowly, and wondered why Lekel had never
fought Faen. The Sharnn doubted that it was a matter of courage; Lekel was a formidable
man. The k’m’n Sandoliki made a fluid gesture with his arm, indicating
a scimitar-shaped cluster of buildings. “If you wish my kel, Ti Faen, you may have it. Otherwise,
the Turquoise Kel is yours. No one has stayed there since Relle died. No one
but you ever will.” Ryth sensed horror coiling around the proud woman beside
him. He knew that she would rather die than enter that kel—and that she would
suffer agonies before she showed weakness to Lekel. The barest hint of a smile curved Lekel’s perfect Malian
mouth; he knew, and was looking forward to making Faen ask him for something. “In my culture,” said Ryth easily, “the home of the first husband
is tabu to the second. Although this is Malia rather than Sharn, there are some
tabus I am not comfortable ignoring.” Lekel smiled slightly, appreciating the speed and tact of
what was probably a lie. “Of course,” murmured Lekel. “The Creamstone and Gold Kel is
also unoccupied. It is not as intricately carved—” “Thank you,” said the Sharnn quickly, then added, “the y’kel
fascinates me. I intend to explore every finger of it. I’d dislike doing it
over the dead bodies of your guards.” This time, Lekel’s smile was as thin as a blade. “N’ies, Ti
Ryth. I will warn them.” With a swirl of sun-bright cape, Lekel strode off, leaving
them in a garden smelling of bruised flowers. When Kayle began to speak, Ryth’s
mental warning silenced him. “If Lekel has the area wired against intruders, he might
also have it wired to pick up speech.” At Ryth’s gesture, Faen led them to the Creamstone and Gold
Kel. It was a series of rooms strung like beads on a creamstone necklace circling
an inner garden. In the center of the garden was a mutated tere tree with rich
brown bark and bright bronze leaves. Everywhere in the h’kel, colors ranged
from translucent cream through gold and bronze to darkest brown. The variety of
tones and textures would have tested the subtlety of a Malian master. Or a
Sharnn. *What of this place?* asked Kayle. *Is it wired?* The Sharnn looked at the myriad patterns of light, spirals
and circles, cones and spheres and every simple curve known to man. *Any one of those designs could hide an amplifier or a funnel
or a Taranarkan energy sponge,* pointed out Ryth. “Make appropriate verbal
comments and limit real discussion to mindspeech.* The Sharnn passed similar instructions on to Faen. While
they traded esthetic observations concerning the stunning simplicity of the
kel, Kayle and Ryth looked for traps. But the beauty of the rooms kept
distracting them. With a mental curse, Ryth turned to Faen for help. She was
pale and tight; sweat sheened lightly on her golden skin. *Old auras?* he asked. *I’m handling it,* she returned curtly, matching strides
with him. *Would you rather work outside?* *Little difference. The kel has been continuously occupied
for many thousand years. The very stones of the gardens—* Faen’s thought ended abruptly. She shuddered and moved
lithely aside. *A woman died. Long ago. Ambush.* Faen turned and walked to the
h’kel they had just left, a room composed entirely of a single shade and
texture of goldstone sculpted into shallow curves and subtle hollows. Even for
a Malian aristocrat, the h’kel was very difficult to appreciate, much less comprehend.
Thus it had been occupied less often than the others. *I can work here.* *Can you work using only mindspeech?* asked the Sharnn. *I don’t know. As soon as I touch, I am ...
taken over.* She held her hand out. At Ryth’s silent prompting, Kayle put
a small, misa-wrapped package in her palm. Faen sat cross-legged on the cool
stone floor and peeled back the silk until curls of gold and dull black hair
were revealed. In no way did she show her absolute abhorrence of touching
something of the Gint. *What do you want?* she asked. *Location?* *Yes. M’zamay, are you sure? I remember what happened when—* *Hair is less than flesh,* Faen returned crisply, but her
eyes were haunted and she sensed that he was as reluctant as she. With a
feeling of conflicting imperatives, she reached out and barely touched a tight,
dark gold curl. *No. No! It can’t—* Faen’s left hand wrapped around Ryth’s wrist in a punishing
grip, but he did not protest. *What can’t be, m’zamay?* he asked gently, but her ability
to answer was gone, for she had wiped out the second touch of the Gint as
quickly as the first. But not as completely; she retained enough contact to
receive information. “Male. Black violence. Cold death.” She shuddered. “I did
not know such existed. A shadow. Consuming and so hungry only a world could
feed it.” *Where is he?* demanded Ryth silently. *Turquoise kel?
C’Varial? Malia?* “No and no and no.” She shuddered again and again and he did not know whether
she was replying to his questions or to the information that seethed within the
dark shine of the Gint’s hair. “Gone away. Gone—to—blue light and falling—Vintra.” Ryth took the curl away from her and smoothed the fingers
that had held it. Though he was comforting her, her face was bleak with negation.
Then her expression cleared as she forgot what she had sensed, just as she had
forgotten the instant her finger touched the Gint’s chest. *Blue light and falling,* mused Ryth. *Kayle, ask the
Carifil at the moon station whether the Access has been used.* *I just did. The Access hasn’t flared since they arrived.* The Sharnn’s negation was more forceful than Faen’s had
been. *No. Not Malia!* *What do you mean?* demanded Kayle. There was no answer. For a spinning instant, it was as
though they saw a pattern condensing around them like a shadow sucking light
into chill darkness. Both Faen and Kayle cried out at the agony and rage and
rejection they tasted in the Sharnn’s mind before it closed so completely that
even Faen could sense only his presence, not his thoughts or even his emotions.
She looked at him, saw only the hard face of a stranger whose eyes were more
black than green. *What is it, laseyss?* Faen whispered at the edge of
his mind. A stranger’s eyes looked at her, Sharnn eyes with neither comfort
nor compassion lighting their shadowed depths. “Kayle,” she breathed. “Can you reach him?” “No,” he said, very softly. “Wholly opaque.” “Why?” “I don’t know.” Kayle sighed, then shifted positions so that
he was within reach of Faen and Ryth and had a clear view of the doorway. “Can
you make yourself sleep?” he asked in a normal tone. “If I must.” “Good. Rest while I watch.” “What about—” “I don’t know,” said Kayle curtly. Then he softened his
words with a gentle gesture that would have touched her if he could. “Don’t
worry, little daughter. Give him time.” Faen’s dark eyebrows rose in skeptical curves, but she
curled up along Ryth’s thigh and sent herself into sleep. As soon as Kayle was
certain that she truly slept, his eyes showed a fear he had denied to her. Eventually, Kayle became aware of the Sharnn’s hard green
gaze. *You’re back.* Kayle looked at him intently. *And what pattern
did you find?* Shadows coiled and slid at the bottom of Ryth’s eyes and his
full lips flattened. But he answered, aware of Faen’s trusting warmth along his
thigh. *Someone is accelerating Vintra’s decline and placing the
blame on Malia.* *Decline?* Ryth moved his head in Sharnn’s gesture of assent. As he
did, light struck sparks out of his bright bronze hair. *Not unusual for a colony on a world without endemic intelligent
life,* explained Ryth. “Often, the lack of such life proves that certain
aspects of the planet are hostile to intelligence.* Kayle grunted. *Malia’s Concord representative already tried
that argument. We found it unimpressive.* The Sharnn smiled thinly. *Does that make the argument
false?* *Give me proof,* demanded Kayle. *Proof that even a Vintran
could accept.* *Or a Nendleti who hates Malians? Regrets, Kayle, but I have
only my Sharnn pattern skills.* *And a Malian lover. Not good enough, Sharnn. Nendletis
aren’t the only people who have little use and less love for Malians!* Ryth thought nothing for a long moment while his sensitive
fingers stroked the cool blackness of Faen’s hair. She stirred, rubbing her
cheek against his thigh, half-smiling, and her beauty was like a knife inside
him. *You would destroy this?* asked the Sharnn, wonder and anger
struggling in his thought. *You would murder—* *Stop it! I, too, have loved a Malian. But that isn’t
enough. Vintra is dying, strangled by Malia.* *Prove it,* returned Ryth, an echo of Kayle’s earlier anger.
*Prove it so that even a Sharnn can accept.* Kayle’s hands moved in a slow gesture of sorrow and compassion. *You are all too human, Sharnn. When your flesh is involved,
you overlook the obvious.* Ryth waited, motionless but for his fingers tasting the
smooth perfection of Faen’s hair. *The Gint enters and leaves Malia with impunity.* Kayle’s
compassion fought with the harsh truth he was trying to give to the Sharnn. *Only
Malians are permitted such freedom.* *But a secret Access—* *Which must be in Lekel’s y’kel,* responded Kayle pointedly.
*It would seem that not only is the Gint Malian, he has friends in very potent
positions. Perhaps even the k’m’n Sandoliki himself.* Though the Sharnn’s thoughts were neutral, his rejection of
the argument was apparent in the very set of his shoulders and lips. Kayle was
closed completely out of Ryth’s mind. “Then teach me, pattern-man,” said Kayle aloud, cuttingly.
“If not my way, then how? And who? And why?” But the Sharnn’s eyes were dark again, inward-looking, and
what they saw displeased Ryth more than Kayle’s sarcasm. The Sharnn shuddered,
evading a pattern whose persistence was matched only by its ugliness. His cape
flared, twisting light into invisibility. “What is it?” asked Kayle, his husky voice both gentle and
compelling. “What won’t—or can’t—you tell me?” Ryth’s eyes were opaque, attention receding to an interior
vanishing point as though he had not or could not hear. *Vintra.* Ryth’s thought, devoid of emotion, slid into
Kayle’s mind. *My gint is there.* *Your gint?* asked Kayle gently, afraid to disturb the
seething emotions he sensed gathering in the Sharnn. *Why is he your gint?* The Sharnn did not answer and Kayle found himself alone in a
room with a sleeping Malian and a Sharnn who was invisible inside his cape. Except
for his eyes, Sharnn eyes more black than green, where shadows pooled more
thickly than patterns. VLight flared over their faces, limning each in a harsh blue
blaze that recalled myths of star demons. When the Access energy ebbed,
Faen and Kayle emerged in all the warm tones of humanity. Only Ryth remained
apart, as enigmatic as a Sharnn god ... and more dangerous. His Sharnn cape
wrapped around his body, clinging, then fanned as though in a breeze, but there
was no breeze. The three of them stepped off the Access platform into the receiving
room of their luxurious Vintran h’kel. “Do you think Lekel believed we were going to Sharn?” asked
Kayle. The Sharnn made a gesture of complete indifference. Faen glanced sideways at him, then answered Kayle. “Probably.
I told him that I would be on t’kirl.” “T’kirl?” asked Kayle. “An ancient custom,” explained Faen. “A way to heal wounds
between the families of newly bound couples. Each goes to the other’s family
and asks if there are any unpaid insults between them. If so, there is ritual
recompense. When everyone is satisfied, we breathe m’zamay and move with crystal
music and laugh while moonlight pours through the black lace of tere groves.” Kayle smiled at her longing tone. “It sounds like a custom
Sharn would appreciate.” Faen looked narrowly at Ryth. His face was composed of forbidding
planes and angles, dark and baffling. “I doubt that Sharn cares about Malia’s customs,” she said
coolly. “But t’kirl gave us the only reason to leave Malia that Lekel could not
question.” She glanced at Ryth again. “How long do you suppose the Sharnn will
go on acting like a castrated zarf?” Before Kayle could frame a reply, Ryth’s long fingers traced
apologies down Faen’s body. Her senses leaped in answer, though her talent
warned her that the Sharnn stranger was still there, waiting beneath the warmth
of his smile. Yet she could not help replying, fingertips kneading the muscular
curves of his neck and shoulders. “Where are the Carifil?” asked Ryth, rubbing his lips
against her skin as though he had forgotten her special textures and fragrance. “They came before us,” she replied while her fingers paid extravagant
compliments to his hair and lips. “I never got closer to them than the room
where they had waited.” “Very bad for you?” said the Sharnn. “Not exactly bad,” she said, nibbling on his fingertips.
“Just very strong. Very distracting.” “Don’t I distract you?” Her answer was a lithe Malian movement that made his breath
catch. The last of the cold stranger evaporated in a flash of sensual heat. Yet
even then she sensed an aching shadow of pain deep inside him. *What is it, laseyss?* she asked again. *A pattern. A pattern that kills Malia. Or—* His mind
closed. *Or what?* *No. Not until it is the only possible pattern. And even
your Great Destroyer wouldn’t be that cruel.* The Sharnn held her with a strength that would have been punishing,
had it not been a pale reflection of his inner turmoil. Her lips gentled him
until his arms loosened slightly. With a silent apology he released her and
looked at their surroundings, seeing them for the first time. He sang through
his teeth in Sharn’s expression of admiration for sheer excess. “Is that really a pool I see?” Kayle smiled while his fingers stroked a tapestry that had a
hundred textures and a few bold colors. “Vintrans have clay eyes,” Faen said scornfully, dismissing
the obvious colors with a glance. The Sharnn’s jade green eyes cataloged the room’s patterns
in swift, consuming glances while he walked across ankle deep fieldfur to the
transparent expanse of pool that occupied one large h’kel. The water’s alluring
warmth made him smile. *Do you like water, m’zamay?* he asked silently, sending a
swirl of sensual possibilities with his question. Faen laughed low in her
throat and started toward the Sharnn. “Later, children,” said Kayle, accurately reading their intentions. “Just a few moments,” asked Faen, voice and body swaying
toward Ryth. “Malian moments are legend in the Concord—and Sharn’s ought
to be,” said Kayle dryly. With a rueful smile, Ryth took Faen’s hand and led her away
from the fluid temptations of the pool. “The rooms don’t seem to bother you.” “No, they don’t!” She frowned and Ryth sensed her reaching
out. “These rooms have hardly been touched. It doesn’t feel like Vintra at all.
No ... purple.” Kayle made a gesture of mock submission. “You were right,
Sharnn. As always.” “It wasn’t a difficult calculation,” said Ryth. “Less than
one millionth of one percent of the Concord population could afford to stay
here. Total privacy is expensive.” Faen laughed and stretched as though to embrace the h’kel.
“The Great Destroyer’s smiles are few, but appreciated. I am reluctant to bring
others here.” Kayle’s eyes deepened into orange embers as he listened to
an inner dialog. Then he smiled sadly and spoke. “Carifil—profound sorrow—that
their auras disturb the magnificent Ti Faen.” “I share their sorrow. In time—” she gestured ambiguously.
“In time I may be able to enjoy them. I’m beginning to enjoy you, Kayle. You
are very distinctive, strong textures and deep silences. Difficult, but rewarding.” A look of surprised pleasure softened Kayle’s normally blunt
features. “I have rarely been so praised.” Then, smiling wryly, “I assume that
I’m something of an acquired taste?” Faen clapped her hands together once, approval and respect.
Then her smile faded as she gathered herself for what she must do. She looked
over at the Sharnn and made a gesture of assent. “Are you sure?” he said slowly. “You had a shock this morning
with the Gint and the assassins, plus you’re not used to the Access shifts. And
the shuttle ...” For a moment they both remembered the shuttle ride to
Malia’s inner moon. The Sharnn’s self-absorption had been so great that he had
not been aware what it was costing Faen to lie on a shuttle couch permeated by
hundreds of conflicting auras. By the time he had noticed, she was sweating
with the effort of holding off the hammering energies. He had pulled her onto
his couch without a word from either his mind or his lips, but even that uneasy
silence could not diminish her relief. *I’m sorry, m’zamay. It was cold comfort I gave you.* *Much better than none at all. Believe me. I know.* Kayle waited until he sensed their mindspeech end, then
said, “Carifil Mim would like to see both of you personally. She would also
like to share mindtouch with both of you, but realizes that is possible only
with Ryth.” Faen’s smile was too quick, too brittle. “Invite her in,
Kayle. I’ll be glad to meet more Carifil.” But for all the civility of her words, Faen stepped back
until a gentle pressure from Ryth’s arm made her realize her retreat. He caught
the edge of her wry thought that meeting Mim could not be worse than fighting assassins
in Lekel’s gardens. Mim must have been waiting nearby, for she appeared at the
h’kel’s entrance almost immediately. Kayle greeted her, mind and body, with the
affection of one who had known Mim intimately for many maturities. Though she
was dressed in the concealing purple robes of Vintra, Ryth knew immediately
that she was Nendleti; that powerful rolling gait could not be disguised. Her
dark skin, bronze hair and pale orange eyes, coupled with the strength of her
face, made Mim attractive to both Ryth and Faen. She acknowledged the Sharnn’s
mental compliment with a swift mindtouch that was as decisive as her walk. “Thrice-wife,” murmured Kayle, touching her bright hair with
both his palms, “these are the two friends you have picked over my mind to
know.” “Thrice-wife?” said Faen. Mim answered in a voice that was intriguingly soft and
husky. “Nendleti aristocrats marry once for political imperatives, once for
sensual pleasures, and once for mental stimulation. Thus most Nendleti have
three wives or three husbands. My thrice-husband and I found all three needs answered
in each other.” Even as she explained, she weighed Faen’s physical appearance
with eyes that missed nothing. When it seemed that Faen would ask another question,
Mim said, “I would be honored to tell the Ti Faen whatever she desires, but ask
that such telling be delayed.” She glanced doubtfully at Kayle. “Are you sure?” “Faen is very resilient,” said Kayle. “And—we need her.” Mim noted the dark shadows and lines of stress on the
elegant Malian profile, and wondered if Faen should work at all. But though the
tall, powerful Sharnn beside Faen plainly wanted to object, he said nothing.
Mim looked a question at Kayle, who signaled for silence in their private
language. “I dislike using anyone as harshly as Faen has been used,”
said Mim bluntly. “But because the need is great, I’ll condone this unaesthetic
rush.” With a speed that made them blink, Mim pulled a string of
misa-wrapped articles out of her robe. “These fifteen things belong to Carifil. Would you arrange
these objects in order of least displeasing to most displeasing?” With a reluctance she could not conceal, Faen took the
string and began unwrapping the packets. She glanced once at Ryth, and he immediately
knelt beside her. “Do they understand,” Faen said, fingers hovering above the
objects, “that my preferences are as involuntary as the color of my eyes?” Mim smiled wryly. “Child, not everyone loves the taste of
bgli or the smell of nyko or the feel of misa or the sound of crystal music.
Others would kill for the chance to experience any one of those things. No
Carifil will be offended if he or she does not suit your particular senses.” Pale eyes weighed the sincerity of Mim’s words for a moment,
then Faen began touching the objects quickly, biting her lip in an attempt not
to reveal what she learned. In spite of that, words rumbled out. “Smooth and cool and lethal,” as she brushed a platinum
hair-band. “Gentle. Hidden,” as her fingers barely touched a lock of silver-blue
hair. “Ahhh, yes, this one! A knife spinning, brilliant and deadly and warm, so
warm.” Ryth took the object—an earring made of three blue metal
chains, set with brilliant blue-white gems—and put it to one side. As Faen
murmured directions, he arranged the other objects. Within a very short time,
it was finished. Only one object had made her flinch; three had pleased her and
all had displayed rich, bright energies that were clean and easy to read. “Done,” said Faen, rubbing her fingertips delicately over
Ryth’s palm, more out of new habit than old need. Kayle bent over the row of objects, picked up the earring
that had so pleased Faen, and flipped it to Mim. “When I saw you without it,” he said gruffly, “I thought you
had negated all three of our marriages.” Mim responded with a Nendleti phrase that made Kayle laugh
softly. “That was for the Vintran alley where you nearly negated all
our marriages,” said Mim, fastening her nuptial earring in place. “I owe you
three lives,” she said to the Sharnn. “He repaid them all in the Topaz Arcade,” Ryth said, giving
her a vivid mental picture of Kayle’s knife appearing in the back of an
assassin and Kayle’s powerful arms sweeping much larger assassins into oblivion. “Thank you,” she said huskily. “We’ve been apart physically
so much that I rarely have the pleasure of seeing him fight.” She smiled. “But
that will probably be remedied on Vintra.” She eyed the line of objects. “How
many of them were unacceptable, even for short periods?” “That one,” said Ryth, knowing Faen would be reluctant to answer.
His finger flicked a green scarf. “Only in an emergency.” “Unnecessary,” said Kayle. “We expected all of them to be unacceptable.”
He looked at Faen speculatively. “Perhaps if you touched more people who had
undergone Carifil integration ... ?” Faen shrugged in excellent imitation of Ryth. “Is this
getting us closer to that gint? I keep remembering the Concord agent who was
tortured into unconsciousness.” She made a frustrated gesture. “I should have
brought something of hers when I followed Ryth, but I only thought of his cape.
I didn’t know we’d go to Vintra.” Her lips flattened over the word Vintra and
she made a disdainful gesture. “Could you find her if you had something to touch?” said
Mim, looking intently at Faen.’ “Perhaps. It would depend on my stamina,” she said
matter-of-factly. “I could at least narrow the geographical possibilities.” “You followed and found Ryth easily,” said Kayle. “Ryth is laseyss.” There was nothing Kayle could say to her flat statement. In
silence, he watched Mim hand yet another misa-wrapped package to Faen. “Jsyl’s favorite river stone,” said Mim. “She used it for
meditation.” “Jsyl?” Faen asked. “Is she the one? Was it her headband the
Gint brought?” “Yes.” “Maps?” asked Faen, looking from Ryth to Kayle. “No,” said Ryth ruefully. “I was so wrapped up in my discovery
that I forgot to tell Kayle.” “Discovery?” asked Mim. The Sharnn said nothing, and his eyes refused questions. “Maps,” said Kayle, going to an antique, chest-high desk and
tapping open the center slit. “Maps of the Ten Continents, Myriad Isles and
Fifteen Seas. Also, section-by-section maps of any area can be ordered through
the room computer.” “Privacy coded?” said Ryth. “Automatic erase unless otherwise instructed.” “Good,” Ryth looked at Faen. Her eyes were pale and her skin
drawn; yet when she sensed his attention, she gave him a smile of breathtaking
promise. “Are you sure?” he asked. “Jsyl must be enduring far worse,” said Faen, resuming her
cross-legged position on the floor. “Why didn’t she call out to us?” wondered Mim aloud. “She was taken by surprise,” said Faen. “The others?” asked Kayle. “Off-planet,” said Mim crisply. Ryth put the river stone within reach of Faen’s right hand
and the map beneath her left. “Remember,” he said urgently. “Location only. Try to block
out all other information.” “Of course,” she said, but her eyes told him that nothing obstructed
the flow of information, ever. “Location,” he said again, touching her cheek and lips
gently with his knuckles. She rubbed her cheek across his hand, then put one fingertip
lightly on the green river rock. “Female—barely conscious—they’re coming again, oh don’t—” “Location only!” Ryth commanded, shaking the grip the stone
had on her mind. “Not—there,” she whispered, brushing aside the map beneath
her left hand. Ryth yanked the map away and slid a second one under her
hand. He continued, demanding focus on location and changing maps until her
body jerked. “Yes—” “Nimar’k’n continent,” said Ryth, holding out his hands for
the series of maps that covered the fifth continent, quadrant by quadrant. “At least it is not on the other side of the world,” said
Mim. Ryth ignored Faen’s stumbling words of pain and terror by
continuing to place new maps beneath her fingers as quickly as she rejected the
old. “Yes!” “Fifteenth quadrant,” snapped Ryth. Kayle put that series of maps in Ryth’s hands. “Program section maps of Sima,” said Ryth quietly, easing a
map beneath Faen’s shaking hand. “This city?” said Mim. “But Jsyl entered through the Klylmi
Access.” Ryth put another map under Faen’s hand and tried to batter encouragement
through her monolog of agony. “Just do it!” he snapped. “Pattern.” “Error and regret,” Mim said, turning away quickly, but
Kayle was already punching instructions into the standard Concord room
terminal. “Scale?” she said tersely. “Begin at 1,000:1, then 500:1, then 100:1, then 50:1,” answered
Ryth, shifting maps in a hiss of plastic sheets. Faen made a sound as though she were fighting for breath.
Without hesitating, Ryth forced in beyond the edges of her mind, and found his
own body convulsed in pain, slippery with sweat and agony. “Quickly,” gasped the Sharnn, wrenching his mind free. “She
can’t last much longer. I won’t let her!” “She?” asked Mim. “Do you mean Faen?” “Both!” Faen’s low cry, followed by a hoarse word brought Ryth’s
concentration totally back to her. “Sima,” he hissed. “Begin with section eighty-nine.” “But you’ll miss—” A look from Ryth silenced Mim’s objection
to taking maps out of order; she quickly decided she would not care to cross
wills with the Sharnn where Faen was concerned. “Eighty-nine,” she agreed
briskly. “City center.” Faen’s voice had fallen to a hoarse mutter of words distinguishable
only to Ryth. Her body jerked, trembled, and her breath came out in a long
sigh. She relaxed and her words became more distinct. Ryth delicately merged
with the edges of her mind. “Praise the Twelve Hawks of the Seventh Dawn,” murmured the
Sharnn, making a strange gesture with his right hand. Then, “Jsyl has escaped
into mirva—what you call q-consciousness.” “You’re sure?” said Mim, skeptical in spite of herself; it
was too convenient, just when Faen’s difficulties seemed to be at their greatest. “Faen cannot fake her responses,” said the Sharnn grimly.
“Look at her.” The pale fire of Mim’s eyes measured Faen. Sweat was drying
on Faen’s body and the twisting tension of her muscles had almost vanished. Her
breathing was slow and deep and regular. Ryth switched sector maps in the sudden silence. “Jsyl no
longer hurts,” said Ryth, moving maps again after a negative gesture from Faen.
“She no longer fears.” New map. “Her body and mind have let go of all but the
most enduring need—survival.” Another map. “But we don’t have much time. Q can
be lethal.” “Yes. Here.” Faen’s calm assertion echoed in the suddenly voiceless room,
Ryth picked up the map. “Give me the ninety-sixth section, 500:1. Begin with the
green code area.” Mim’s blunt hands flew over the computer studs. Plastic maps
began whiffing into the receiving tray. As fast as they came, Ryth put them under
Faen’s hand, but it was still an agonizingly slow process. “Yes. Here. Right here.” Ryth snatched up the map, scanning the area where Faen’s finger
had pointed. “Now give me green code, 100:1. Begin with—No. Give me 50:1,
c-sub-d. Then work in a left-circle around that center. N’ies?” Then, realizing
he had used a Malian word, he added, “Do you understand?” “Yes,” said Mim, fingers a blur of instructions over the
studs. Seven maps later, in the b-sub-c area of the city Sima,
Faen’s finger came down on a series of circles that indicated a large cluster
of vertical kels that had been popular with Vintra’s first, nervous colonists. “There.” Her hand covered an area called Old Sima, with a population
of perhaps 30,000. It was a cluttered, seething place, crammed with the oldest
buildings in the oldest city on the planet. Kayle looked at it with a deep
frown. “An unaesthetic area,” he said with a mildness that was
belied by the distinct quiver of his nostrils. “Built out of flarebrick and
blackstone. Home of most of the disease and random violence in Sima.” His voice
dropped into pure contempt. “They should burn it down to the decaying granite
that supports it.” Mim frowned at the irregular circle Kayle had drawn on the
map. “I had hoped—” She stopped and snapped her fingers restlessly. “If we take
you there, Faen, could you narrow the area further?” * “That’s too—” began the Sharnn angrily, but Faen cut across
him. “I received a few clear impressions of her surroundings. I
will try.” The urgency in Faen’s voice aroused Ryth. *What is it, m’zamay?* Her only reply was an evasive sliding away from mindtouch.
He pursued. *Faen, what did you see through Jsyl’s eyes?* He held the contact, demanding and finally getting a cool
reply. *It was too quick. Not focused. Something even a pattern-man
might mistake or misunderstand.* *Try me.* The mildness of his thought was inviting, as was the warmth
curling out to her from him. And with the warmth, the cape sliding over her
skin in a caress that was as sweet as it was surprising. Faen stroked the cape,
almost smiling, but her mind was still withheld. *Give me time, laseyss. For now we must each hold our
secrets until they’re proved true or false beyond all doubt or error. N’ies?* *... n’ies ... But tell me this. Did you see a shadow?* Fear was her only answer. The Sharnn looked up and found
Kayle and Mim watching intently. “Fascinating,” murmured Mim. Then, to Kayle, “Apologies,
sri. I didn’t believe there was a mind I couldn’t force, but you were right.
Faen and Ryth are impenetrable when they want to be.” She looked at both of
them. “Are you finished?” “For the moment,” said Ryth. “Regrets, Ti Faen,” said Mim. “I would have left you here to
rest, but we still need your skill.” “We may need more than that,” said the Sharnn dryly. He went to the baggage chute, pulled out a soft leather
rollup and rummaged through it. He removed several knives. Kayle watched for a
moment, then began sorting through his own luggage and strapping on weapons.
Mini’s look went from one man to the other, then to Faen. “When a Sharnn wearing a cape starts arming himself,” said
Faen, “so do I.” “Without insult, thrice-wife,” Kayle said, “I would be
pleased if you would wear weapons. Many weapons.” At Mim’s baffled look, Ryth explained. “The Gint seems to arrange
odds of at least fifteen to one in his favor. His assassins aren’t unskilled,
as Kayle can tell you.” “I thought those guards belonged to Lekel?” “Perhaps. But they fought to the Gint’s benefit.” The Sharnn said nothing more, letting Mim conclude what she
wished as to Lekel’s guilt or innocence in the question of guards. With a very
thin smile, Mim caught the weapons Kayle threw to her. When they stepped out of the hotel, they stepped into a
world composed solely of different tints, tones, shades and intensities of
purple. It was as though neither blue nor red were allowed to exist in an uncombined
state. Faen shuddered when the brooding light washed over her, making
her eyes white as ice and her hair darker than the space between the stars, She
hesitated for a long moment, fighting not to show her loathing for the very
light that spread over Vintra’s surface. The Sharnn’s hand touched her, smoothing her robe that no
longer was clear turquoise. *M’zamay?* Ryth’s soft question went through the tightness of her mind.
Though Vintra ruined all colors for her, his presence was still a savage
radiance that even a mauve sun could not diminish. *Is it the people?* he asked, pulling her hand beneath his
Cape until her fingers spread against the muscles of his chest. *No.* *Memories of Ti Vire?* *No.* She laughed raggedly. *It’s the light! Can you understand
that, Sharnn?* Ryth’s cape flared restlessly. *So that’s why your Ti Vire
lasted only seven years.* *I had to escape ... all the colors of hell ... there’s no
honor in dying insane.* The Sharnn cape licked out, comforting. Faen almost smiled
as she caught a soft fold between her hands. Then she realized that Kayle and
Mim were waiting with little patience. The cape drifted from Faen’s fingers
when she gestured curtly for Kayle to proceed. The four of them rode the city shuttles as far as they could
and used lavender slidewalks until those fell into disrepair. Then the Sharnn
led them deep into Old Sima, twisting through trash drifts and around garbage
heaps slimed with age. The kels surrounding them grew higher, older, more
ramshackle. The crowds that they had seen in the newer part of Sima gradually
dwindled to nothing; only the furtive shadows of native scavengers spoke of
other life. Occasionally a cry would echo among the leaning kels, but no one
could be sure whether the sound was human or animal. “Is this the same place you were ambushed?” murmured Mim in
a voice that went no further than their ears. “No,” said Kayle with an equally muted voice. “It looked
much like this, though. Vintra must have lost a lot of people in the Undeclared
War, to have abandoned so many large kels to howls and slinkers.” “But the maps,” said Mim, “showed this area as densely populated.” “The maps must have been very old.” The Sharnn halted, staring at the canted kels as though
seeing them for the first time. “Not old maps,” said Ryth softly. “Most of these kels
haven’t been abandoned that long; The garbage is not yet dust. But even so,
this area could easily have held twice the population the map gave. Perhaps the
war did cost Vintra too much.” “Not war,” Faen said, her voice soft yet rasping with inner
strain. “Disease. Pekh. Many died here, heat and coma. Many, manymanyMANY—” Ryth grabbed Faen and held her until she stopped shivering. “It just came in a wave—all those deaths,” she whispered.
“Thousands and more thousands. Didn’t you feel it?” “Just a distant sense of many small patterns ending and a
great one continuing. It didn’t tear at my emotions as it did at yours.” Faen laughed shakily. “The wave is past, now. I’m whole
again.” Ryth let go of her slowly and turned to Kayle. “Epidemic,
not war.” The Sharnn turned and led off down an alley that seemed
gloomy in spite of Vintra’s huge lavender sun hanging directly overhead. As
Faen followed, her eyes searched every purple shadow for life. Kayle and Mim
stayed close to the ripple of sickly turquoise that was Faen’s robe. Even as
Ryth walked, his cape changed into a semblance of the loose two-color robe of a
Vintran city dweller. A few of the tall kels surrounding them took on an air of
habitation. Leashed suncallers preened in open windows, fragments of
conversation glittered through the brooding lavender silence, less garbage
slumped in the shadows, and there was an occasional flutter from a ragged robe.
Once, footsteps followed them. They turned, saw a pale flash of eyes, then nothing
except the sound of footsteps running away, fading, gone. As one, Faen and Kayle and Mim turned their robes inside
out, a trick used by poor Vintrans to keep one side of their robes unstained
for special occasions. The inside of the robes was much less bright; should
anyone see Faen or the others from a distance, they would look like faded
residents of the ramshackle kels. Ryth hesitated, then reached out to Kayle’s mind. *One-way link.* The Sharnn’s blunt invitation/demand was surprising; he had
always displayed a disinclination to anything more intimate than simple mindspeech. *You want me to ride your mind?* asked Kayle, still
uncertain. *Yes. Faen will take all my attention soon. I don’t want the
distraction of separate mindspeech with three people. Keep Mim informed. Ask
her to be our eyes and ears. And please be very small in my mind, Kayle.
Otherwise, it could be impossible for Faen.* Kayle’s mental presence seemed to thin and dissolve among
the interstices of Ryth’s mind. With growing surprise, the Sharnn realized that
this was how Kayle linked disparate minds, sliding among energies until he had
woven new connections of incredible subtlety. *My greatest respect, Ti Kayle.* Kayle’s answer was a distinct sense of smiling ease deep
within the Sharnn’s mind. Tentatively, Ryth reached out for Faen. *We’re approaching b-sub-c.* There was a feeling of confusion and discomfort, followed by
surprise. *Kayle?* asked Faen. Ryth swore silently, and sensed distant consternation. *Can
you tolerate it?* he asked. *It—it’s like a veil over your radiance. Not painful, just
... dimming. It won’t hurt me.* *Good. Do you sense anything else?* *Nothing.* Ryth unwrapped Jsyl’s river stone and held it out to Faen.
She touched it, closed her eyes and concentrated. Ryth watched her muscles cord
with effort, but when he urged her to use herself less harshly, she ignored
him. “She’s still—” Faen’s body swayed like a compass needle,
turning between kels, “—there. That way!” Faen’s blindly pointing finger indicated a huge kel,
half-full of people and alive with the iridescent purple wings of suncallers. *Inside?* asked Ryth, doubting that Jsyl would be hidden in
an inhabited building. Faen’s answer was a biting need to be moving. Ryth pulled
her around the building at a near-run. *Again!* he demanded. A small hand closed over the rock Ryth held. Faen swayed,
her upraised arm pointed down a long, unappetizing alley between leaning rows
of very tall kels with sagging blacktree facades. The Sharnn’s pattern talent washed through him like adrenaline;
a thousand traps waited in the too carefully piled rubbish heaps. Nor would any
of the other approaches be any better. The Gint liked odds heavily in his
favor. “Flarebrick and purple suncallers,” murmured Faen, voice rising,
“running down walls faded and cracking and quiet so quiet—Help me!” Faen’s scream died against Ryth’s hard hand. He snatched the
stone away from her and called to her mind. *Faen. Faen! Which kel?* With a long shudder, Faen opened her eyes, surprised to see
she was at the mouth of an alley instead of on a cold floor with someone
approaching, someone familiar and hated, a woman who wielded power with a
vengeful hand. Then Faen realized that the Sharnn was deep inside her mind.
She banished the mental picture before the woman’s face could be more than a
suggestion of shape and color. “No!” said Faen, wrenching away from him. “No!” Then she
controlled herself and pulled his arms around her, breathing apologies against
the hard muscles of his neck and pouring warmth into his mind. The picture of a woman approaching did not appear between
them again, yet Ryth sensed a fear growing in Faen, a fear unlike any he had
sensed in her before. A fear like his own for Malia and for the loss that had
brought him to her, a finder. Suddenly he had to know if Faen had seen the shadow
that had haunted him off Sharn. The Sharnn spread through Faen’s mind like a golden net,
gathering up every vagrant thought, but he could not make the link any deeper,
could not touch her memory of a shadow/woman approaching, could not touch the
core of her fear. She told him it was Kayle’s presence that separated their
minds, but the Sharnn sensed it was a reflex born of terror and survival. When
he truly pressed her, driving himself against her evasions, Faen fought back
with deadly potential. *G’el n’si,* came Ryth’s careful thought as he retreated.
Then, *M’zamay, I need what you’re hiding.* *Not yet,* she responded, both plea and command. *Not yet!* *Trust me.* Ryth sensed two Faens locked in combat; one calling to him
as to her second self, and the other seeing him as a dark-eyed executioner. And he could press her no further, for she could be right.
He could be the death of her people. Ryth gathered Faen beneath the folds of his cape. For a moment
her body remained rigid, then she melted against him until her sensual presence
sent waves of pleasure through him. With a slow twist, she stepped out of his
arms; her movement was promise and regret and apology. *Give me the stone, laseyss.* For an instant the Sharnn wanted to refuse, wanted to hurl
the stone into a rubbish heap and turn his back on everything but her warmth.
But he put the cool stone in her palm. Deep in her mind and his, below even
Kayle’s reach, they shared the inarticulate hope that they would not find their
separate fears. When Faen’s hand closed around the stone, she was torn out
of his mind. She stumbled forward. Ryth’s arm went out to support her and to hold her back
until he checked the narrowing alley for traps. But there were no bombs this
time, only pits lined with ragged shards of glass and mounds of rubbish oozing
poisonous gases. To Ryth’s eye and mind, each carefully placed danger was
another sign pointing to the Gint. Faen turned toward the front of a building where a long-dead
artist had painted purple suncallers flying against Vintra’s moon. Some of the
birds appeared to be running down the flarebrick walls where the heavy
black-wood facade faded and cracked and sagged. Without hesitation, Faen stepped forward into the kel—and
tripped over a strategically placed bit of rubble. With a bone-deep rumble,
part of the facade sheared free and hurtled to the entrance floor. Only Ryth’s
reflexes saved Faen from being crushed beneath the heavy fall of stone and
wood. He wrenched Jsyl’s talisman out of Faen’s hands. *The kel is a trap!* he called in her mind. *Trap! N’ies?
You stumbled over a trigger that brought down half of the facade. Do you really
need this stone any more?* Slowly, sanity replaced agony in her silver eyes. *She’s out of q-consciousness. Dying.* *I know. Her dying sucked you into the stone. It’s too dangerous
for you!* *Hold on to me,* demanded Faen, grabbing the stone before he
could stop her. The Sharnn picked up Faen and his cape wrapped around her so
that it was impossible for her to move or cry out. Her body convulsed in death
throes until the edge of his hand smacked against hers. The stone dropped from
her fingers and crashed to the floor. *We’re standing—on top of her!* groaned Faen. Then she succumbed
to the strain of touching a dying mind. Her body went limp as she retreated
into a form of q-consciousness. The Sharnn glanced around, hoping to see ramp or stairs, anything
but a downshaft; he would trust the kel’s creaking machinery only if the alternative
was immediate death. Along one curve of the elliptical kel was a shadow
suggestive of an arch or door. He shifted Faen’s weight across his shoulders
and ran toward the shadow. Before he reached it, Mim passed him. *She felt it would be better,* came Kayle’s bland
explanation. *I agreed.* *But the traps—!* Kayle’s response was an image of Ryth carrying Faen as he
tried to fight off an ambush. Ryth knew Kayle was right. The falling facade had
surely warned any guards who were present. *Tell Mim not to go through any doors or down any narrow
paths until I’ve checked.* *Done.* Mim waited near the top of a narrow ramp that twisted Into
the purple gloom below. The ramp was steep and studded with tread latches; it
was meant for machines rather than men. Ryth, Kayle and Mim stood on the brink,
barely breathing, listening with mind and body. *Mim senses nothing.* *Jsyl?* *Just once. A flash of agony when q-consciousness ended.* *Is she dead?* asked the Sharnn angrily. *Perhaps. Or perhaps she just went back into q.* As though Faen were no more burden than an extra knife, the
Sharnn bent and picked up several fist-sized chunks of flarebrick nibble. With
a snap of his wrist he sent one chunk ricocheting down the ramp. Before the
first piece completed the spiral descent, the second and third were caroming
after it. There was no response. When the bits of rubble stopped rolling, Mim looked up at
Ryth. He gestured caution. Mim dropped lightly into the gloom. Kayle counted
three and leaped after. Ryth waited for a five count. To his relief, there was
nothing more dangerous than shifting rubble the whole twisting length of the
ramp. He quickly picked his way down, balancing Faen across his shoulders. The sub-surface room stretched away on all sides, huge, unpartitioned,
and cluttered with defunct service machinery. Yellow-white lightstrips burned
in tepid imitation of a sun the colonists would never see again. Kayle and Mim stood with their backs to each other,
watching. Faen’s head moved restlessly against the Sharnn and she
moaned. Her eyes opened nearly opaque, dulled by something that was nearly
death. Ryth eased her into a standing position, holding on to her until he felt
her strength and awareness return. With a motion that was almost awkward, Faen
pulled free of his support. “Jsyl is dead.” Her thought was thin and distant. *Did that faceless woman kill her?* demanded Ryth, sending
with his question the blurred female form that he had taken from Faen’s mind. Faen’s flesh of panic was so quickly smothered that the
Sharnn could not be certain he had sensed it at all. *I don’t know who killed Jsyl,* answered Faen calmly. “She
died without thought.* *How did she die?* *She was strangled.* Deep in his mind Ryth felt Kayle’s sudden feral alertness;
if Jsyl had been strangled, her killer had to be nearby. Yet Mim had sensed
nothing, no one, and Mim was highly skilled at sensing and forcing entry into
minds. They all heard the faint rattle of debris slithering over
the floor above their heads. Mim and Kayle spun back toward the ramp,
scrambling through rubble in an attempt to catch whoever was fleeing. An
attempt the Sharnn knew would be futile. He leaped, caught a heavy metal conduit,
and swung up to an air-exchange. Through the dull plastic mesh he saw nothing;
yet the faintest sounds of a man running came back to him. An instant later Kayle and Mim appeared, running with a
speed that surprised the Sharnn. He watched, though he was certain that all
their speed would be useless. He had been the fastest runner of the Seventh
Dawn, but the shadow they were chasing had eluded him. Ryth swung down and landed lightly beside Faen. “Let’s find Jsyl’s body.” Faen hesitated. Her eyes dimmed as she remembered things she
would rather forget. “Yes, I suppose I must touch her, if only to find out—”
Faen’s voice dried up. She swallowed and began again. “Jsyl was kept near a
tall, black machine with rust running down its sides. Very old. As old as the
lightship that brought Malians here. She—” Faen closed her eyes. “She watched
that machine until she went blind. And the floor—the floor was cold and uneven
and had splinters of white glass like shattered eyes watching her die.” Faen looked at the smooth floor beneath her feet. “Poor
Jsyl,” she murmured. “The Carifil told her nothing. She didn’t know why she
died.” “Do any of us?” Faen glanced at Ryth, startled by the bitterness in his
tone, but his back was to her and he was running between mounds of rubble and
rusting metal, looking for a single black machine. He found several before he
found the one Jsyl had known. The floor here was broken, crumpled by the same
seismic shudders that had tilted the tall kels of Old Sima. The Sharnn looked around carefully. His hard green eyes
missed nothing, but he learned nothing new. Concord Agent Jsyl had been
tortured and strangled by an expert—or experts, if what he believed was true. Except
for the places where Jsyl’s thrashings had disturbed old patterns of grime and
debris, nothing showed that the area was at all different from any other part
of the kel. Nor was there a body for Faen to touch and learn from. The Sharnn’s mind closed while he struggled against the pattern
that was becoming more clear and more ugly with every moment. Facts and
questions he had never wanted to know or ask clawed at his unwillingness.
Either the Gint had a pattern gift to equal a Sharnn’s, or someone had warned
him about Faen’s presence on Vintra. Was that someone Lekel? Or did Faen
already have proof of Malia’s guilt? Was she playing a game too subtle for a
Sharnn who had succumbed to the white moment of Malian sensuality? Could he
trust her with Vintra’s future? Could he trust himself? “You have a stranger’s mind,” said Faen. “Closed and cold.” “At this moment, I would not share my thoughts with an enemy,
much less you.” “Then I’m not your enemy?” “No.” He held out his arms in spite of the uncertainty
cutting at his mind. “And you’re not Malia’s executioner?” she asked faintly. “No,” he whispered against her rain-scented hair. “No.” Faen did not fight the grip that held her painfully close,
filling her senses with his strength and his breath warm in her hair. She moved
bonelessly against him until their bodies drove away Jsyl’s tortured cries,
drove away death and fear and agony. They held each other with aching force, as
though if they held hard enough, nothing could ever divide them. But when they finally released one another, they were
further apart than before, separated by unspoken fears, shadows haunting their
eyes. Mim and Kayle found them standing silently, fingertips touching
and moving in t’sil’ne. The Sharnn turned to face Kayle, but said nothing, for
there was nothing he wanted Kayle to hear. “What did Faen learn from Jsyl’s body?” said Kayle, his
voice harsh with the frustration of a failed hunter. “The killer took Jsyl’s body with him.” Kayle swore explosively. “He must have known about Faen.” He
looked at her, but Faen’s white eyes stared through him. “Perhaps,” said the Sharnn. “And perhaps he merely took
Jsyl’s body to increase the mystery of her disappearance.” Kayle started to ask a silent question, but found Ryth’s
mind totally unapproachable; if the Nendleti had not been looking at Ryth,
Kayle would have sworn no one was there. Mim’s efforts brought the same result;
Ryth was as impervious to her as a stone. “You’ve changed,” said Kayle in blunt displeasure. “Sharnn can become whatever they can understand, whatever
they can conceive.” “What made you ... conceive ... of such mental defenses?”
asked Kayle. “It was time,” said Ryth, his eyes green and deep with the
infinite possibilities of Sharn. “Is it time for you to become a finder like Faen?” asked
Kayle sardonically. “Sharnn can be anything, but not everything.” Ryth turned
his face to Mim. “You did not sense the killer’s presence?” She moved abruptly. “Malians are a frustrating race. Above a
certain level of potential their minds are an enigma to me. The whole time I
waited on Malia’s inner moon, the only Malian minds available to me were of the
dullest sort.” “So the Gint is Malian,” said Kayle. “That’s why Mim didn’t
sense him earlier.” Faen stiffened, then forced herself to relax, but her whole
body radiated subtle protest. “Perhaps,” said the Sharnn blandly. “Or perhaps he is
Vintran. Or perhaps he is something else entirely.” “Are Vintrans difficult for you?” Kayle asked Mim. “Not as often.” “Perhaps,” said Ryth, “Vintrans don’t have as many minds of
the requisite complexity to inhibit—” Kayle interrupted the Sharnn with a rude noise. “From
pattern-man to perhaps-man. It’s clear to me that Malia is guilty.” “There are alternate possibilities for everything that has
happened,” said Ryth without heat. “Tell me, perhaps-man, what the chances are that Malia is
not guilty.” Ryth ignored Kayle’s sarcasm. “Even if there were only seven
chances in one hundred—” “That few!” “If,” repeated Ryth emphatically, “if the chances were only
seven in one hundred that Malia were innocent, that is not certain enough to
condemn a race of intelligent beings to extinction.” “The kind of certainty you’re looking for doesn’t exist,” “But it does, Kayle. It must. I have conceived of it,
understood its necessity, and I am Sharnn. I shall find that certainty.” *What will Faen do if Malia is guilty?* asked Kayle, and his
mindspeech carried too many emotions to name. Then Kayle felt a hollow falling
away, as though he had slipped into a downshaft. The Sharnn’s mind was again
closed and cold. Ryth knitted the fingers of his right hand through Faen’s left
and brought her palm to his lips. “The Ti Faen needs rest,” he said, his voice
as smooth and polished as the exterior of his mind. “We can learn nothing further
here.” His enigmatic eyes watched Mim and Kayle, but neither one
objected, for neither one wanted to fight him. The four of them scrambled up
the ramp, and out into the ground floor of the leaning kel. Faen stumbled in the gloom and rubble; though she caught herself
with surprising grace, the Sharnn reached out and lifted her off her feet. She
protested, low-voiced, then let her forehead rest against the slow pulse in his
neck. Her hair rippled down his arm like black water as he carried her through
the dull sunlight and slanting purple shadows of Old Sima. “We must talk, m’zamay,” said Ryth, mopping up the last
drops of their meal with a small piece of lavender bread. Faen, still sleep-drugged, began absently cleaning her
sticky fingers with a damp cloth. Ryth took the cloth from her. “On Sharn,” he said,
delicately licking her smallest finger clean, “this is the best part of the
meal.” Faen shivered with pleasure as his tongue moved between her
fingers. “You should have been born a Malian,” she said, her low voice like
another tone of the twilight glowing in the room. “Perhaps I once was.” His teeth slid across her palm and
pressed together gently at the base of her thumb; then his tongue moved again
over her fingers. “But it does not matter how I was born, m’zamay, for I will
surely die a Malian.” “No—!” “No?” asked the Sharnn, pretending confusion. “Does it
tickle?” His tongue flicked around her fingertip. “I should take all my food
from your hands,” he said, voice low. “It tastes so much sweeter.” “Don’t,” said Faen, as much moan as word. “You are Sharnn,
not Malian. Sharnn! Whether Malia lives or ...” her voice faded to a lightless
whisper. “Dies,” he finished, kissing the soft golden pulse inside
her wrist. “Shall we talk now, m’zamay?” “You call me m’zamay,” she said with a ragged laugh, “yet
you are far more seductive than the silver dust in the center of the zamay
flowers. M’zamay.” She shivered as he sucked lightly on her finger, tongue
caressing in a way that promised other pleasures. “I can’t think with you so
close.” “You don’t need to think, my Faen,” he said, his breath soft
on her breast as his hand parted her robe, “Just tell me—” his tongue made slow
small circles, “who Jsyl saw before she died.” His body moved swiftly, holding
her sudden struggles in a vise of skill and power. “And I shall tell you—” his
teeth closed with melting gentleness “—why you spent such a lonely shuttle
ride. And then we—” his fingers moved surely beneath her robe “—will undress
each other and I will teach my beautiful Ti Faen how Sharnn use a warm pool. “Talk to me,” he whispered. “It’s not equal,” she cried. “I’m helpless between your
hands and you—” “And I,” he interrupted hoarsely, “am helpless when I so
much as think of you. Shall we die because of it?” he asked, fingers warm with
her warmth. “Or shall we talk to each other?” “And say death to Malia.” Her words hung in the room like the ringing of a vire
crystal. “Are you so certain?” he asked, drawing her close,
comforting and seeking comfort. “Aren’t you?” she asked, her silver eyes dark and her
fingers warm inside his cape, touching. “Weren’t you sure—” the back of her
hand rubbed lightly against his hard strength “—when we left Malia?” Her teeth
closed over the Sharnn cape, impatient with the half-life dividing her skin
from his. “What did you discover on Malia, laseyss?” Faen’s whisper was as soft as her tongue between his lips
and beneath his robe her hands kneaded down his back, counting and caressing
each sliding muscle. Ryth groaned and gave himself up to her gliding tongue and
for long moments they lived only where they touched one another. “I—” they said simultaneously, then smiled. But their smiles faded as they watched each other and the amethyst
dusk streaming through flawless glass. “I’m afraid,” Faen said simply. Her eyes were molten silver
and her voice was thick. “If I condemn Malia with my words, no death could be
painful enough for me, not even Ti Kiirey-g’ii, redemption by agony.” When she
looked down, her black lashes made ragged shadow arcs across her cheeks: “There
is no possible redemption for such a traitor as I would be, a Sandoliki Ti who
delivered her people to kh’vire’ni, death without honor or vengeance.” Wordlessly, the Sharnn put his knife in her hands and lifted
until sharp metal creased the pulse swelling in his neck. It was the ultimate
Malian gesture of trust. “Unless you, the Sandoliki Ti, have planned and executed Vintra’s
decline, nothing you say can irrevocably condemn Malia.” The knife dropped from her fingers and fell soundlessly onto
the velvet floor. “That proves nothing,” she whispered. “You know I could not
kill you.” “Even to save your planet?” The agony that wrenched her made him curse the question, and
its necessity. “Listen to me,” said the Sharnn, his voice rich with shared
pain. “What I said was the truth. Unless you are guilty—” “I’m not,” she said, then added sadly, “and I am.” At his
stricken look, she tried to explain. “If Memned is guilty, every Malian is
equally guilty.” “But—” “No. Let me finish while I have the courage.” Faen’s fingers
clamped together until the skin around her knuckles turned pale gold. “Jsyl saw
Memned.” “Many people have seen Lekel’s wife,” said Ryth gently. “Not as torturer.” Faen’s fingers loosened and lay slackly
against her thighs. Her voice was a thin tumble of words. “She’s very skilled.
Even Lekel is not better and he has known much torture, both in the giving and
the receiving. That’s how he became k’m’n Sandoliki while I fought Ti Vire. “Oh Vintra,” she moaned, “why were you ever hung in Malia’s
future? Why did Maran sing?” The Sharnn looked at her eyes staring sightlessly into a
past he had never known and did not comprehend. Yet he must comprehend or they
both were lost. “I do not understand.” Ryth stroked her fingers until the clammy
feel of fear dissolved into the warmth of their skins sharing textures. “Talk
to me, my Faen. Teach me.” “I am—I was—the last Sandoliki. Have you never wondered why
Lekel rules?” “It was enough for me to know why you did not rule.” “Lekel was Relle’s vire brother,” said Faen, her voice a monotone.
“Though Relle and I were bound with the first words we spoke, Lekel wanted me.
If not as wife, then as f’mi. He was determined to be my first lover. I was not
yet fourteen, below the age of full combat training. Or passion. He was twice
my age, and highly trained. But he was vulnerable, as a hungry man is always
vulnerable. He did not truly believe I would refuse him. “He’ll not forget that instant. He took no woman, willing or
otherwise, for many days. By the time he recovered, Relle and I were husband
and wife. “We were also off-planet, training to become Concord
Agents.” “Ti Lekel must be a formidable fighter,” said Ryth, more to
himself than to her, “to have driven you off Malia.” “Yes,” she said unflinchingly. “Even then, five assassins
could not hold him. Children such as Relle and I wouldn’t have made Lekel take
a second breath. I knew that and ran, but I did not want Relle to know. For in
spite of lust, Lekel and Relle were true knife-friends as well as vire brothers.” Her hands stirred, slim and strong, and her fingers curled
around his wrists. “When I first saw Kayle move, I knew I had met a warrior to
give even Lekel pause. Kayle taught me many things, deadly things. And I
learned. Great Destroyer, how well I learned!” “I know,” said Ryth, kissing the fingers wrapped like
choking vines around his wrists. “I know, m’zamay.” “Not everything. Not yet.” Her fingers loosened, leaving
arcs where nails had scored flesh, and neither noticed, for they were focused
in each other’s eyes. “When Skemole murdered Relle, I was carrying his
children. I felt a hatred such as I’d never imagined. I screamed death oaths to
the Great Destroyer. And was answered.” She closed her eyes and then opened
them, blind silver suspended in purple twilight. “I initiated darg vire on
Skemoleans. They were murderers, not warriors. Sly and malicious and foul. I
killed them all.” Faen looked at her hands. “It was so easy. The room where
Relle died in pieces was filled with their raw energies. A black explosion of
knowledge and then I knew where each murderer was. I knew! So easy. Easy. Ah
yes, the Great Destroyer had answered my oaths.” Her laughter thinned into an eerie echo of descending night. “I stole gems enough to lose myself among the Accesses of a
thousand planets. When my time was near, I returned to the Sandoliki
Estates to bring life to Relle’s children among the thousand moments of Malia
that were their heritage. The Sandolikis had thought me dead with Relle; they
feared the Concord would demand me to punish my darg vire. Sandoliki Jomen hid
me in the most remote part of the Estates, the part where the sacred sarsa was
kept. The part that became Darg Vintra. “It was there that I began to learn the price asked by the
Great Destroyer for the death of Relle’s murderers. I could touch only my children.
I could speak only to my children’s minds. I turned to the sarsa ... and sensed
something I still do not understand. But the m’sarsas were like
white-hot metal, energies that seared me. I could not play for long.” She sighed so deeply that her hair slid forward, veiling her
face until her hand pushed the heavy mass away. “Lekel did not believe that I could not endure touch. He
came to me, testing. I was too impatient. My reflexes gave away my deadly
skills. He fought only long enough for me to touch him.” Faen’s memory lived in Ryth’s mind. Lekel, lithe and swift,
weaponless, facing her, and their feints and counter-feints were blurs of speed
and power until his arm deflected a death blow and she screamed, a scream of
agony such as even Lekel had never before heard, and the scream dulled his eyes
with a pain like hers as he began to believe that she would never faint with
pleasure at his touch. “He believed, then,” said Faen. “He knew that the price I
had paid for avenging Relle was to be forever barred from touch. “Lekel’s plan to become a true Sandoliki by marrying me was
ended. His ambition choked him. He was pale when he turned his back and walked
away from me.” “Not just ambition,” said Ryth, smoothing the back of her
hand with his cheek and remembering Lekel, tall and potent, hard with passion
and jealousy. “He wanted you, Faen. Even now. The Great Destroyer must smile to
see Lekel’s hunger for you.” Faen’s fingertips slid along Ryth’s thighs, gentle pressures
and promises. “Perhaps. But he killed seven men whose only transgression
was to amuse me. They did not touch me. No one touched me except my children,
but the older they grew the less I could touch even them. And Lekel there,
always, until I demanded that he leave or fight me.” Her lips curled. “He
left.” “Not from fear,” said Ryth, shifting his weight to his side
without taking his eyes from hers. “He did not want to see his touch give you
agony. I believe he loves you. I know he wants you.” And Ryth gasped
involuntarily as her fingers surrounded him like gentle flames. “He wanted to rule Malia,” Faen said, releasing him slowly
and trailing her fingertips across his stomach. “After Darg Vintra, I was the
last Sandoliki—and I wanted only Ti Vire. Malia needed a leader, so a k’te
kiirey was called.” The Sharnn watched while night folded around Faen like a
dark dream. He did not know where her words were leading, nor did he care; for
this instant it was enough that he felt her alive between his hands. “Do you know what k’te kiirey is?” “Teach me,” he murmured as his palms savored the soft skin
at her waist. “When a ruler dies and there is no true heir, the people who
believe they should rule Malia challenge each other. Survivors challenge
survivors until only seven remain. Then it begins. Malia’s most renowned
torturer, the Kiirey Ti, uses his skill on each of the seven. The last person
to break becomes Malia’s ruler.” “And Lekel was last?” ^Yes.” “I saw no scars, no signs that he was ever maimed.” “The Kiirey Ti would never be so crude.” Faen sighed as her
eyes watched Vintra’s moon rise and breathe tainted light through the darkness.
“More than seven years after k’te kiirey, I returned to Malia. Though no Sandoliki,
Lekel was a strong ruler. I wanted solitude, not a Sandoliki’s duties. We
agreed that Darg Vintra would be my home. “So I went back there to my memories, back to the sarsa and
back to the thing that I had sensed in its music, the thing that I had to have.
I wore the m’sarsas strapped to my skin like weapons until their searing energies
no longer made me grind my tongue between my teeth. Only then could I play
crystal music. Only then could I hear my children’s laughter, see their blue
eyes, and have Relle around me silver and warm.” Defiance rippled through her stillness, but Ryth was undisturbed.
He held the woman now; whatever the sarsa had held was past. “Today,” Faen said, “I can call them shadows of my imagination
and need, and theirs. Whether they were real or not ...” She waited, but he did
not speak. “Were they?” she demanded, suddenly fierce. “I don’t know.” Then, “I don’t want to know. Unless it
affects Malia’s guilt or innocence.” “How could it?” she asked, then laughed bitterly. “How could
it not? The sarsa is Malia’s soul. If Memned is guilty, we are all guilty, even
the shadow songs of Malia’s past Maran’s Song.” “Even if Memned is partnered with the Gint, does that make
Malia guilty? I have heard you say that Memned is Vintran.” Faen sat up suddenly, ignoring the robe that slid off her
shoulders onto the floor. With tangible intensity she thought about what he had
said, but after a moment she rejected it. “Lekel could not marry a Vintran,” she said with a finality
in her tone that left no room for doubt. “Memned is merely a woman to lie in my
place, a shadow of me with dark hair and light eyes. Humiliating for her, but
she accepted the position with sheathed weapons.” “Why?” “She desires power the way most Malians desire touch. As
Lekel’s wife, she has it. Especially now that his advisors are dead.” “Where did she come from?” “The Ice Continent, I think.” Faen made a dismissing
gesture, “Does it matter? All that matters is that Jsyl saw Memned as the enemy
who tortured her into q-consciousness. Not even a pattern-man can wriggle off
the point of that truth!” Ryth’s skin gleamed in the wine-tinted night as he sat up beside
Faen. His eyes held her motionless, the eyes of a man who had called a shadow’s
name. Then he put both name and shadow from his mind with a finality he had
learned from her. “Tell me, laseyss,” Faen whispered. “What did you discover
on Malia?” “I don’t know.” The Sharnn sat unmoving, a statue carved out
of descending night. “Because I don’t want to know.” “What could be worse than Malia’s death?” “Knowing I had caused it.” “But that’s impossible.” “Is it?” Mauve shadows slid across the Sharnn’s shoulders as
he leaned toward her. “I hope so, m’zamay,” he murmured, tongue between her
lips. “But I dream of a shadow, hungry. He has my eyes, my face, my—” Faen’s skillful mouth blurred his words. After a long moment
she relented, a last caress, then she moved away. “When Vintra orders Malia’s death,” began Faen. “No! Even now the pattern is not inevitable. There 1s still
room for an innocent Malia. There is still time to catch a shadow.” Silence
congealed and he reached blindly for her. “There must be time!” Faen’s throat tightened as she held his face between her
palms. “You share none of our guilt.” “Malia is not guilty.” “The Concord disagrees. You must leave me, laseyss. You are
not a Malian, to die when Malia dies.” “I became a Malian when I kissed my blood on your lips.” The Sharnn stood, lifting Faen with him. Her body moved,
slow and supple, sliding down his body, sinking to her knees while his breath
thickened in his throat. “There is time to teach me about Sharn and pools,” she murmured,
touching him with her tongue. The Sharnn’s fingers rubbed through her hair, holding her so
close that her breath became another land of caress. “There is nothing I can teach
you,” he said hoarsely. But he was wrong. In the sliding warmth of the pool, he
taught Faen that a Malian can faint twice for a Sharnn lover. VI“Malia,” said Kayle, orange eyes brilliant in the early
light, “is guilty.” “Perhaps,” said the Sharnn. His tone showed his utter weariness
with the argument. “Nothing I’ve told you irrevocably condemns Malia. We don’t
know much more than we did before.” “But we do,” countered Mim, her voice quick and husky. “We
know that the Gint kills Concord agents for a Malian master.” “Do we?” said Ryth. “We only know that the Gint uses a minor
Malian Access. Not the same thing at all.” “Ryth,” said Kayle gently. “If Faen were not Malian, would
your arguments be the same?” The Sharnn turned on Kayle so quickly that the Nendleti took
an involuntary step backward. “Were Vintra the condemned planet,” said Ryth coldly, “would
you be so eager to close the circuit?” An uneasy silence filled the room while the three of them examined
each other and their own private prejudices. Malia’s unpopularity among Concord
planets was a fact. Ryth’s fusion with Faen was also a fact. Somewhere between
the two facts was truth, but not even the Sharnn knew where it lay. “This doesn’t have to separate you and Faen,” said Kayle,
carefully. “Faen’s talent is unique, and uniquely useful to the Carifil. We
need her and her genes, no matter what her people’s fate. The Carifil will
insure that—” Soft, bitter Sharnn laughter overrode Kayle’s words. “Do you
really believe that the Sandoliki Ti Faen would let her people die alone?” “She didn’t care enough to rule them,” snapped Mim. “She could not rule them.” Ryth spaced each word with icy
precision. “Malian state rituals are tactile.” He looked from one to the other
while silence expanded in uneasy ripples. “Yes, you finally begin to see the
pattern. In spite of her isolation, Faen is every breath the Sandoliki Ti. She
lived in virtual exile, in the center of a land destroyed by hatred, so that
she would be available to those of her people who needed her talent. She loves
her people and planet as few rulers do.” Kayle sagged with a weariness as deep as Ryth’s. “With each
word you make it harder to believe her innocence, much less Malia’s. You would
do anything to keep Faen alive. Anything. And I can’t condemn you for that,
though I should.” The Sharnn’s hand went out until his fingertips pressed
Kayle’s arm in slow t’sil’ne. “Do not worry about your honor or Faen’s or mine,
Ti Kayle. I will find my shadow, my gint. Then, if Malia must die,” Ryth spread
his hands in a gesture of emptiness, “she must die.” Faen appeared in the opening to Kayle’s h’kel. Her body and
voice were rich with the aftermath of sensuality and sleep. “Laseyss,” she
said, her eyes brilliant with compassion and premonition, “you cannot find what
someone has so carefully hidden. No one but you and I want the truth about
Malia. And even I can’t find it.” Her beautiful face turned toward Kayle. “How
soon will my planet be under proscription?” “Malia is under secondary proscription now.” Faen closed her eyes. When they opened, they were as dull as
mercury. “I must go back.” Kayle’s hand reached for her until he remembered, then he
let his arm drop. “It is merely a warning to non-Malians that the planet is
dangerous.” “Vintra has been put under tertiary proscription,” Mim
pointed out. “For good reason,” said the Sharnn angrily. “Too many people
die here!” “And who is to blame for that?” countered Kayle. “Prove it!” said the Sharnn, his face hard and dangerous. “Ryth, we don’t have to prove anything any longer,” said
Kayle. “The odds against Malia’s innocence have climbed to the point that the
Concord has no choice. We can’t wait for Vintra to die before Malia is stopped.
And punished.” “‘Malia,” quoted Mim, “is a disease that must not spread any
further among the healthy planets of the Concord.’” “That sounds like a Vintran,” said Faen, her voice perfectly
controlled. “It was.” “Do you really believe that Malia is evil?” asked Ryth. “What Mim believes does not matter.” Kayle’s voice was thick
with a mixture of emotions too complex to easily name. “It’s over, Ryth. It was
over the moment I told them Jsyl was dead.” “What of the Carifil?” demanded Ryth. “Will they sit on each
others’ fingers while a possibly innocent race is murdered? A race they could have
saved?” “We don’t rule the Concord,” said Mim when Kayle was silent.
“We are merely specialists who help when asked.” “Or when you insist?” said the Sharnn sarcastically. “Sometimes,” she said. “But we do not rule, Sharnn. We do
not rule.” “I’m sure that is a great comfort to Malians.” “Would you have us subvert the idea of Concord?” demanded
Mim. “Would you have us poison the possibilities of many races because you are
complement to a woman born of a doomed race?” “I don’t ask for Faen’s life or mine or Malia’s! I simply
ask the Concord to be certain that Malia’s guilt is the only possible pattern.
Possible, Ti Mim, not probable. Possible! Is that too much to ask?” “I’m sorry,” said Kayle, voice so changed as to sound like a
stranger. “Malia is too well hated. Vintra has outgrown xenophobia, especially
since the Undeclared War. Today, Vintra is an integral part of the Concord,
economically and culturally. And Malia—is not.” “A pattern of prejudice that would embarrass a child,” said
Ryth icily. “No system is perfect.” The Sharnn laughed in cold agreement. “When,” said Faen, “will primary proscription begin for Malia?” Kayle’s eyes went to a wall display where flickering numbers
divided time according to Centrex and Vintran customs. He hesitated, then decided
it was too late for Faen to do anything. “In the next Centrex unit.” But Kayle had forgotten Faen’s incredible speed. Before the
last word left Kayle’s lips, the edge of Faen’s hand descended on Ryth in a totally
unexpected blow. He fell soundlessly to the lush floor, unconscious at the
instant he knew he had been hit. She leaned over the Sharnn with swift grace,
touching her fingertips to his lips in silent goodbye. Kayle leaped for her, foot lashing out in a blow meant to
stun. But Faen was no longer there. The instant Kayle’s muscles bunched, she
somersaulted backwards, out of reach. Before Mim could move, Faen was out of
the room. They ran after her, but came no closer than the fierce blue flash of
the Access. Kayle stood and looked at the empty platform, swearing bitterly
as the afterimage of Faen’s leaping body, burned behind his eyes. Mim touched
the back of his hand. “I should have known,” said Kayle thickly. “You couldn’t have stopped her,” Mim said. “I’ve never seen
such speed.” The lights around the platform blinked and switched to a different
code, beginning a new Centrex unit. Eyes dull, Kayle stared blindly at Faen’s
death sentence. “Malia just began primary proscription.” Kayle’s lips
twisted bitterly. “The Carifil just lost their finder. The Sharnn just lost
his—we’ve all lost, Mim. Shlan t’e riu, F’n’een, Faen. Breathe the white wind.” “What of the Sharnn?” Mim said softly. “Faen’s blow was precise. It merely stunned him.” Mim hissed. “Don’t pretend thickness, thrice-husband. What
will the Sharnn do now?” Flame leaped suddenly in Kayle’s orange eyes. “Be grateful
he isn’t Malian, Sri Mim, or he and Faen would give the Concord Ti Vire such as
it had never known nor wanted to know!” The flame died and Kayle seemed to
shrink. “But he is Sharnn, and there is kerdin little he can do. Malia’s
personnel Access is cut off from the rest of the Concord now. Even in a
lightship—if he could find one on Vintra—it would take months to reach Malia. By
then, Malians will be no more than a raw smear across the Concord’s
self-esteem.” Kayle’s body jerked as though it wanted to move in all directions
and found none open. Mim’s blunt hand rubbed firmly down his spine. “It isn’t your fault that Malia is doomed,” she said. “It
isn’t your fault that Malians could not abide by the Sole Restraint of the
Concord.” “I know, Sri Mim,” said Kayle in a haunted voice. “But what
if Malians are not guilty? What if we allow Vintrans to rain fire on an
innocent people?” Though the Sharnn did not make even the smallest sound, the
two Nendletis turned swiftly. Ryth made no move toward them, simply leaned
against the wall, eyes almost black with fury. “I tried to—” began Kayle. “I know.” Ryth’s voice was strangely calm. His too-dark eyes flicked
over the empty platform and changed time code. For an instant his mind leaped
with deadly energy. Mim cried out, as much in pain as fear. Then the energy
ebbed. Except for an eerie aura of violence licking around him, the Sharnn
seemed to be no more than a tall man leaning against a wall of mauve crystal.
Yet Mim clung to Kayle, half-stunned by what she had barely sensed. “Carifil own and control the Accesses, don’t they?” asked
the Sharnn, but his tone made it clear that he already knew. Kayle looked at Ryth closely; the Sharnn seemed as calm as a
sunrise lake. “Why do you ask?” At Kayle’s blunt question, stillness seemed to gather around
the Sharnn, flowing into him, sucking light out of the room. “Yes,” grated Kayle, stepping between the Sharnn and Mim.
“Carifil control the Accesses. But we cannot break primary proscription.” “Cannot or will not?” Ryth laughed over Kayle’s sudden
anger. “Ti Kayle, sri Kayle—I’m not asking any more from the Carifil than the
freight Access codes of C’Varial and Darg Vintra.” “That’s suicide.” “Faen survived it.” “Faen is Malian. A Sharnn genotype might not.” “My risk. The codes, Kayle. I haven’t much time. Vintra will
be eager to destroy the prey it ran to ground.” “Take the Access to Nirenslf,” Kayle said quickly. “Then a
fast lightship to Malia. It would take—” “—more time than Malia has,” Ryth said in the tones of a
Sharnn who has considered and rejected all patterns but one. “The codes.” “I won’t give you the means to kill yourself.” Again stillness flowed. The Sharnn’s hooded eyes watched
Kayle with a stranger’s disinterest. “I am Sharnn,” said an utterly calm voice. “I know how cultures
are built—or destroyed.” He smiled as his mind knifed into Kayle’s with
frightening ease. *Give me the codes.* *Or you’ll kill me?* shot back Kayle, his thought wrapped in
contempt. *No.* Gently. *No, sri. I won’t even hurt you. Or Mim.* *Then what will you—* Mindtouch fractured into fear as Kayle caught just a vague
outline of what a Sharnn’s stillness could become. *You don’t want to know,* answered Ryth. *Nor do I!* With a wrench, the Sharnn ended mindtouch. Only then did
Kayle realize that the Sharnn had also held Mim within the coils of his uncanny
mind. “I can get the codes without you or Mim. But you could save
me time.” With pointedly careful movements, Mim shaped a psitran from
the intricate wire mesh that had restrained her thick bronze hair. “Mim—” said Kayle, reaching for her. She deflected his hand with the gentle touch of a mother shooing
away a child. “The Sharnn has found his white wind,” she said, placing the
psitran around her temples. “Who are we to say he may not breathe it?” With a slow gesture of resignation, Kayle turned his back on
both of them. “Are you dying simply because Faen must?” said Kayle in a
grey voice. The Sharnn’s laughter made Kayle turn back in surprise. “Sri Kayle, do you really think that Faen returned to Malia
merely to die like a tame zred?” Kayle turned fully around, legs spread as though to take whatever
blows might come. “Yes, my new-old Nendleti brother,” said Ryth, “she will get
many hands and heads on her way to Memned’s mind.” Ryth smiled at the knowledge
dawning in Kayle’s luminous eyes. “And I—I will help Faen conceive of new ways
to make Memned speak and regret that she shortened the most satisfying pattern
of all. Memned will scream to hurry the moment of Malia’s death. And her own.” In the spreading stillness the Sharnn’s slow, even breathing
was the only sound or movement. Mim was lost to her distant communications and
Kayle was lost to his own bitter thoughts. Then Ryth’s hand moved over Kayle in
the slow pressures of t’sil’ne, again calling Kayle his brother. “The pattern is not burned in stone,” said Ryth in an
attempt to comfort him. “Memned might break before she dies.” “Would that prove Malia’s innocence?” said Kayle sadly. “Or guilt,” said the Sharnn indifferently. “Either way, the
pattern would be complete, knowable. Isn’t that what the Carifil wanted?” “Not at the cost of your death!” “Each pattern has a price.” “Is Memned’s slow death the price of your life pattern?” snapped
Kayle. “It could be,” said the Sharnn, but his tone said that it
was not. “Then why do you return to Malia?” The Sharnn’s green eyes were unreadable in the slanting shadows
and shifting light. When Ryth smiled, Kayle looked away. “Sharn could be responsible for Malia,” said Ryth softly.
“So if Faen must die, it will be with me inside her, kissing my blood on her
lips.” Kayle flinched, but could not conceal the light that stirred
deep in his orange eyes. The Sharnn saw, laughed softly and again touched Kayle
like a brother. “You’re more Malian than Sharnn, now,” said Kayle in a
strained voice. “Am I? How little you know Sharnn, brother.” Kayle grabbed Ryth’s arm with bruising force. “You said, ‘If
Faen must die!’ If!” “There are seven chances, seven patterns left to live. Malia
only needs one.” Kayle looked deep into the Sharnn’s eyes and sensed wildness
reaching and expanding, while stillness flowed, pouring into primal green eyes.
He sensed the Sharnn’s lazy, almost amused, indifference to the power awakening
in his mind. It was merely a single aspect of what a Sharnn could be. *Ryth—* began Kayle, a final gasp of uneasy sanity that was
washed away in reckless laughter. Kayle succumbed to the savage power that he
sensed in his new-old brother. In intimate, elastic silence they waited for Mim to get the
codes to Malia’s freight Accesses. Finally, Mim lifted the psitran off her
broad forehead and sighed wearily. When she opened her pale orange eyes, a
single look at Kayle told her of his decision. She folded her hands into round
fists and said, “C’Varial or Darg Vintra? The Carifil will reactivate them,
keyed to my psitran.” “C’Varial,” Ryth answered. “As close to the Turquoise Kel as
possible.” “Will the food h’kel be close enough?” purred Mim. Ryth laughed with delight. Together they rolled up their luggage
and set off for the nearest large freight Access. Faen would have recognized
it; she had seen this Access through the timeshadow of a dead man’s mind. The
Sharnn, too, sensed something that made him check each dense purple shadow with
unusual care. But today nothing dangerous waited for them except the Access
itself. The Sharnn cape flared and rippled, as though stretching. Then it
settled like soft cloth around his powerful legs. “Darg Vintra’s code first,” said Ryth, throwing their
luggage onto a square. Mim’s quick, blunt fingers sent the luggage on its way. Then
she stroked in the Turquoise h’kel’s code, added a brief hold count and leaped
to the platform with the two men. The three of them joined minds, reinforcing
each other. And they waited. The universe peeled away in a climbing blue explosion. Blue
lightning raked across senses and centuries, eons of blue more brilliant than a
god’s eyes, blazing blue violence that consumed them, churned them, spat them
out bruised and sick on a small square platform far away from Vintra. The Sharnn’s body jerked and rolled as he fought for control
of himself. His mind was a mass of shattered blue energy; a universe had poured
through him and he through it. With a final spasm, he caught the pattern of his
sickness, twisted it and forced the wheeling blue out of his mind. Groaning, Ryth flopped off the platform and onto the carved
crystal floor. He stared at the winking patterns, wondering if it would have
been easier if he had begun closer to Malia. Then he realized that it would
have made no difference; all distances were equal to the force that made the Access
possible. A small sound from the platform told him that Kayle or Mim
was fighting into consciousness. Ryth forced himself to his knees, reached out
and dragged first Mim, then Kayle, off the platform. He helped them to breathe
until the last of the sickness left their knotted bodies and they slept. Though
he tried to stay alert, he too slid into unconsciousness. The Sharnn was the first to wake. He leaped up, horrified at
the wasted time and wondering why they had not been discovered. Then he remembered
that the Turquoise Kel was tabu to all but the Sandoliki Ti Faen. He looked around, grimacing at the pain that lanced through
his mind and body with each movement. He half-fell, half-knelt, by the
Nendletis. Both were unconscious, but seemed otherwise normal. By the time he
had cleaned himself and them and the h’kel, Mim was moaning her way into
consciousness. Elegant and obscene epithets tumbled off her broad lips as she
rolled to her knees, head hanging. She tried mindspeech, but it was incoherent. “Kayle?” she said hoarsely. “He’ll come out of it soon,” said the Sharnn, lifting his
hand from the pulse in Kayle’s thick neck. “I can’t use mindspeech.” “That will pass. I barely remembered where I was at first.
Now I remember more than I want to.” Mim’s lips twisted in sardonic agreement. “Travel not fit
for a zarf.” She shook her head hard, as though to fling off the last
shards of cutting blue energy. Blood oozed from her lip as she fought not to
cry out her pain. Watching her, Ryth realized that the trip had been worse for
her than for him; and he guessed it had been worst of all for Kayle. “Faen?” asked Mim, wiping blood off of her lips. “Not here.” “Malia?” Mim’s husky voice grated. “Is Faen on Malia?” “She must be. My mind’s just too shaken to find her.” Experimentally, Ryth tried mindtouch with Mim. He winced
away at the moment of touch; her pain was excruciating. “Better than it was,” she said curtly. “Can you remember yet?” “The fool that I was?” Mim laughed harshly, then bit her lip
against the pain. “Too clearly, Sharnn. Too clearly. I hope your plan is worth
our payment.” “Plan?” The Sharnn’s smile was lopsided. “Faen’s plan is the
only one that matters now. And I don’t know what it is.” “Guess.” Kayle groaned. “Memned,” said Ryth. “If I were Faen, I would very much desire
a talk with that skavern.” Kayle groaned and gagged until expert pressures from Mim’s
fingers short-circuited the nerves sending messages of pain and nausea. “What is your status here?” Mim asked Ryth while she gently
rolled Kayle’s head to loosen his rigid spine. “Can you go wherever you want
without difficulty, and we with you?” “When Faen was with me, yes. But since proscription—I don’t
know.” Mim grunted and massaged down Kayle’s spine. “You don’t know
much, Sharnn. Yet my thrice-husband trusted his life to your skill. Sri Kayle,”
she added, “has a genius for dangerous impulse.” “He’s not alone in that,” said the Sharnn wryly. Kayle’s orange eyes opened slowly. His broad face creased
with pain, yet he smiled to see Mim safe and well, smiling at him in return. He
swallowed with difficulty and glanced around; intricately carved crystal walls
splintered light into every possible shade of turquoise. “We’re here,” said Kayle weakly. “Surprised?” asked the Sharnn. Kayle smiled slightly. The smile died as he pulled himself
into a sitting position; even Mim’s fingers could not vanquish the slicing
pain. The Sharnn watched him uneasily, not liking the yellow hue of Kayle’s
skin. “I’m all right,” snapped Kayle, correctly interpreting
Ryth’s look. “I’ve felt worse the morning after too much chaay.” He rolled to his hands and knees, head hanging. In spite of
Mim’s knowing fingers pressed against key nerves, Kayle cried out at the pain behind
his eyes. Abruptly, the Sharnn decided. He stood and went to the h’kel’s
computer. As though he had handled its subtly textured surfaces all his life,
he stroked in his request. “That will probably register in Lekel’s kel,” commented Mim. “I know.” The Sharnn’s intent green eyes never left the
pulsing lights that answered his sure fingertips. “Darg Vintra’s computer has
not been activated since Faen returned to Malia. She’s not there.” He worked
over the machine’s changing surfaces again. “Nor has the Creamstone and Gold
Kel—” “Then where is she?” hissed Mim. There was no answer. The Sharnn’s face was lined with effort
as he reached out with his mind for Faen. It was like building a bridge of
straw; just when he sensed something, a far side to aim at, the bridge
collapsed. He kept trying, fighting what he assumed was the after effect of a
coarsely focused Access shift, fighting until sweat gathered and rolled down
his rigid body. He could not find her. The Sharnn opened his eyes. Mim was watching him, hope and
resignation reflected in her pale orange eyes. “Nothing,” Ryth said. “Then she’s not on Malia.” “My mind is still—” “No,” said Mim flatly. “Your mindcall was as loud and clean
as any I’ve ever heard. She is gone, somewhere out In the Concord. Free. And we
are captive on a doomed planet.” Mim’s smile twisted in bitter humor. “Trust a
Malian to deceive you, Sharnn. You have just joined the group of otherwise
intelligent beings who have succumbed to Malian sensuality. Malians’ primal
allure is the real reason they are so well-despised by the rest of the Concord.
For Malians are immune—and we are not!” The Sharnn turned inward and did not answer. Kayle said something soft and low and hurried to Mim. The
hissing Nendleti phrases piled up like dry leaves in the room, shifting and rustling
with each gesture. The Sharnn ignored the heaped phrases, focusing instead on
the ugly pattern Mim had pointed out to him. Yes, it was possible. More possible than Malian innocence.
He had never known fusion with another, never known what it was to be
complemented by another mind; he could have mistaken transcendent physical
pleasure for something else. Stillness surged in the room, a whirlpool of darkness, and
Ryth suspended in the still center of lethal possibilities—a Sharnn conceiving
of absolute evil. A Sharnn who could become whatever he could conceive. The spinning moment passed, but the dark stillness remained
in the Sharnn’s eyes. “Call out to the Carifil,” he said harshly to Kayle. “Tell
them to activate the freight Access and get you off this planet. Quickly!” Though Ryth said no more, they knew that the Sharnn was
thinking of molecular fire. Kayle silently pulled his psitran into shape and placed it
on his forehead. Long moments passed while he struggled to communicate. Wordlessly,
Mim put on her psitran and joined her mind with his. But the expression on
their faces told Ryth that something was wrong. “Neither Kayle nor I can control our psitrans,” said Mim,
her voice hoarse with exhaustion. “They will have to be re-focused.” “How long will it take?” Kayle smiled wryly. “An instant. All we need is an
omni-synth.” “The closest omnisynth is on Centrex,” said Mim bitterly. The Sharnn held out his hand “Give me a psitran. I was less
affected by the transit.” Mim turned aside disdainfully, “You of all people should
know that you can’t use another person’s pattern. Don’t be more of a fool than
she made you!” The Sharnn’s cape writhed darkly, but all he said was, “How
much time before Vintra will be permitted to burn Malia?” “We should have at least three Centrex days,” said Kayle,
but neither his mind nor his voice displayed much confidence. The Sharnn began to speak, then stopped, shaking his head
sharply, haunted by a piercing memory of Faen that was so immediate it was
similar to mindtouch. He reached out, felt an instant of falling away, like dying,
and then it was gone. “Are you well enough to fight?” demanded the Sharnn
abruptly. “We’re breathing, aren’t we?” snapped Mim. “Somewhere in the Topaz Kel is a personnel Access. Unregistered.
So long as the freight Accesses are activated, I’ll bet that this secret one
also is.” “It would be untraceable, with the freight energies going,”
mused Kayle. “It probably siphons those energies for its own secret operation.” “Let’s hope it’s doing just that,” the Sharnn said, turning
toward the doorway. The Sharnn led them across a pale courtyard of turquoise
stone, then beneath a translucent creamstone arch. Beyond that was a garden,
zamay alive with wind and trembling song, asking. When he stepped among the
zamay blooms, a feeling of Faen’s presence sliced through him, a feeling as
compelling as her touch. He stumbled and choked off her name before it left his
lips, changing its soft sound into a curse as he crushed zamay throats beneath
his feet. The sensual scents and textures and colors of Malia nearly
overwhelmed the Sharnn. In every radiant black shadow he saw her hair swaying
with its own secret life; in every flash of crystal light her eyes watched him;
in every silken breath of wind she slid around him with a sigh. “Ryth?” said Kayle, touching his arm. The Sharnn flinched away, unable to bear a touch that was
not hers. “Nothing,” he said tonelessly, brushing aside flowers as
soft as her lips. The feeling of dying came again, then left as suddenly as a
thought. The insistent sense of her presence was gone. The path Ryth followed turned in a graceful curve and vanished
into the twisting embrace of nightvine. The thicket made a murmuring tunnel
overhead, sibilant with wind and life. The air became fragrant and humid, as
intimate as two joined bodies. The tunnel widened and lifted to form a secret
bower with a ceiling of tere leaves spreading scarlet benediction over the
ground. In the center of the space, a pool pulsed with the rhythms of a hidden
spring. And zamay trembled with hope. With a sudden movement, the Sharnn knelt and thrust his hand
into the living pool. Warm water slid up his fingers and palm, lapped gently at
his wrist. Even as his senses responded, understanding crystallized in his
mind, and he knew that this secret place was consummately Malian. The garden
and pool and perhaps the very earth had been designed to expand sensual possibilities. To be alive on Malia was to finally understand the essential
sensuality of life. And to glory in it. Slowly, the Sharnn lifted his hand out of the water, feeling
the pool’s nearly sentient reluctance to release him. Each soft drop clinging
to his fingers shone like a separate world, heavy and round with life. “She is here,” the Sharnn whispered, almost blinded by the
gleaming drops. “There is no other planet like this, no other place to live. Or
die.” He raised each finger to his tongue and licked off the sweet warmth of
water. “Yes,” he said, smiling. “Yes.” He lifted his arms as though to embrace the silent trees and
he laughed softly. Kayle and Mim looked at each other, trading silent worries.
The Sharnn saw and smiled but did not explain; the pattern was so new and pure
he could not describe it, only feel. With long, supple strides Ryth led them out of the Turquoise
Kel’s beauties and into the sudden flawless light of Malian noon. When they
emerged from the ebony embrace of nightvine, a guard straightened in surprise. “Take us to Lekel,” Ryth said, with the casual arrogance of
a true Malian aristocrat. The guard struggled with her desire to ask Ryth’s name, then
she recognized the tall Sharnn. “Apologies and regrets, Sandoliki Ti Ryth.” Ryth made a dismissing gesture, not in the least showing his
relief that Lekel had kept his promise and warned his guards of the new Ti’s
right to go anywhere he wished. “If the Sandoliki Ti Ryth would be so gracious as to wait in
the garden,” said the guard in the rising tone of one who requests without a
hint of demand. “Send food and drink,” said Ryth by way of agreement. While they ate, the honey light of Malia’s late afternoon
poured over the hushed gardens of the Topaz Kel. In silence, they let the
exquisitely prepared food work its simple magic on their bodies. By the time
the guard returned, they felt as though the freight Access were no more than a
distant, fading nightmare. Lekel was in the listening h’kel. Formerly, the room had
been used for meetings between Sandolikis and their advisors. Now, ancient
crystal ikons shimmered next to ultramodern communications devices. Beneath the
silence was a hum of power that was less heard than felt in the bones. Ryth
looked around appreciatively; only a Malian could integrate such disparate
elements into a pleasing esthetic whole. “I’m honored,” murmured Lekel, his black eyes and voice
quick with curiosity. “And surprised. Ti Faen thought she would be the last one
in before primary proscription began.” Ryth sensed the others’ relief that Faen was on the planet.
But the Sharnn was not relieved. Not only could he not sense her, Lekel’s
subtle hostility crackled like distant heat lightning. “My equipment,” continued Lekel, “didn’t register anyone
other than Ti Faen arriving on the inner moon.” Lekel paused, inviting explanation. “We came to be with Faen,” said the Sharnn, ignoring Lekel’s
invitation. “Oh?” Lekel’s eyes became even colder. “I didn’t know Ti
Faen was in C’Varial, much less in my h’kel.” Ryth gestured with a negligence he did not feel. “She’s not
at Darg Vintra. Nor is she in the Creamstone and Gold Kel. Naturally we assumed
she had come here. You may be only k’m’n Sandoliki, but you are nonetheless her
closest blood kin.” “Closest—then it is deathtime,” Lekel turned away abruptly. Ryth was not insulted by the view of k’m’n Sandoliki’s powerful
shoulders; he knew that Lekel was working to control himself. “What Faen told me is true?” said Lekel, his voice strained.
“Vintra will be allowed to destroy us with molecular fire?” “Yes.” The Sharnn hesitated, then walked over to Lekel and
carefully touched him as he would an equal who is not yet friend or enemy.
Lekel stiffened at the Sharnn’s tangible sympathy, then relaxed as Ryth’s
skilled t’sil’ne subtly reassured. “What has Malia done to deserve the Concord’s wrath?” There was neither plea nor self-pity in Lekel’s question,
only the timeless cry of sentience baffled by unearned death. At that instant
the Sharnn was nearly certain that Lekel was not the architect of Vintra’s
decline, but that certainty did Malia no good. “The Concord,” said Ryth softly, “believes that Malia twice
has broken the Sole Restraint against undeclared war.” Rage flickered deep in Lekel’s eyes. “Vintra’s problems
can’t be excreted in Malia’s scented gardens. Vintra’s problems are her own—and
inevitable.” “Why?” “Look around you,” demanded Lekel, wide-spread hands gesturing
to every part of the shimmering crystal h’kel, to the gardens beyond, and to
the glowing moment when time was suspended in the flawless cinnamon sky of Malia’s
evening. “Each Malian life is divided into one hundred aspects, one thousand
moments. To a Malian, the names of those aspects and moments are purest song.”
Lekel’s caressing voice soared and fell, whispered and resounded as he named
just a few of Malia’s moments. “N’amari, ss’iel’ma, f’m’oir’li ... I can’t
translate those names or those Malian moments into the Galactic language or
experience. No one can. “And if simple language eludes translation, what of the
minds that shape and are shaped by Malian moments? Can those minds be
translated? Can they be wrenched out of one context, thrust into another and
expected to blossom like zamay? “No and No and No,” Lekel said, his voice tolling like a
vire crystal. “Impossible. Yet Malia is being blamed because transplanted
Malians are dying on their ugly purple planet.” “Vintra,” said Mim’s husky, yet biting, voice, “is hardly
ugly. It has thousands of purple islands floating on lavender seas, magenta
mountains as potent as viero wine, amethyst clouds and a moon as pink as a
child’s laughter. Vintra is one of the most beautiful planets yet discovered.” “Not to a Malian.” “Not to you, perhaps,” she snapped, “Other Malians were not
so blind.” “A Malian,” countered Lekel, “would have to be blind to live
in Vintra’s gloom.” “Clay eyes,” muttered Mim. Lekel laughed with arrogant certainty, “I’ll match Malian
color discrimination against any race in the Concord. Especially Vintrans.” “Lekel would win,” said the Sharnn before Mim could respond,
“Vintrans have difficulty with the shorter wavelengths of light. It’s probably
more a cultural than a physiological trait; by Malian standards, Vintra has a
somber sun. Never having seen sixty shades of cream, Vintrans would have
difficulty distinguishing among them. Think about it, Mim—Vintra’s evolving
language has far fewer words for light colors than Malia’s language; And no
more for the dark colors.” “Vintra,” said Kayle. “Means purple.” Lekel smiled sardonically. “It also connotes gloom and madness,
among other things.” The Sharnn’s green eyes narrowed in sudden speculation.
Planet names were like the air everyone breathed—so often used as to be taken
for granted, yet containing items of crucial import. “What other things?” asked the Sharnn in a deceptively bland
voice. “Depression, disease, debility, and dishonor,” said Lekel succinctly.
“When we say that a person lives in a vintran kel, we mean that he is dead to
the radiant possibilities of the senses.” “Isn’t that a recent saying—just since the Undeclared War?”
asked Ryth. “Darg Vintra,” corrected Lekel automatically, giving the war
its Malian name. “No, the saying is as old as Malians’ aversion to purple.” “Does Darg Vintra have any meaning beyond its obvious
one—Vintra’s Revenge?” Lekel made a curt gesture. “The Sandoliki Estates. Or what
remains of them,” he added with sudden, palpable hatred. “Nothing more?” prodded the Sharnn, his pattern instincts
aroused. “The subject is distasteful.” Ryth ignored the Malian phrase signaling an end to a topic.
“Death neutralizes all distaste.” “And we are about to die?” Lekel’s smile would have been
cruel, had it not been directed as much at his own mortality as it was at
theirs. “Since you have come here to die, de f’mi ti, I will tell you.
But only because you are de f’mi ti, and here.” “Supreme sensualist,” translated the Sharnn with a
half-smile. “I am supremely complimented.” Lekel’s elegant bow reinforced the compliment. “Any man who
can make the Sandoliki Ti Faen faint twice deserves whatever wretched ornaments
I can hang on his penetrating truth.” Ryth returned the bow with equal elegance and ease, but his
eyes were intent on more than courtesy. “Darg Vintra,” said Lekel, then stopped. After a sigh he
began again. “When the Concord discovered Malia, we were a race whose only
dream was a life long enough to discover and savor each of Malia’s thousand
moments. The Concord’s extender drugs gave us our dream without diminishing our
fertility. Though we limited ourselves to two children, we foolishly overlooked
the fact that we would still be alive when our children’s children had their
own children, and on and on, more and more, generation piling on generation until
we were breathing each other’s air like lovers. “We developed new disciplines, new harmonies. We tried to
appreciate and even prefer the nuances of tiny gardens, circumscribed vistas,
shrinking personal space. Malians died in duels or ambushes brought on by incidents
that were as simple and complex as fertilized ova. Many, many died. But not
nearly enough to make room for the relentless generations. “We call that time Vintra Morata.” “Strangling purple,” said Ryth. “I’ve heard that phrase, in
a song. Maran’s Song.” “Yes.” Lekel’s lips flattened and he made a gesture of
abiding shame. “By the time the Malian rogue Tikleli discovered Vintra in a
stolen lightship, Malian society was disintegrating, We birthed more rogues
than f’mis, raised more criminals than de f’mis ti.” “Each race,” said the Sharnn carefully, “had a difficult
time adjusting to extended lives. That is no requirement for shame.” “For lesser races, no. But we were Malians. And we were out
of control, a purple storm destroying zamay and mountains alike. There is,”
Lekel added in a strained whisper, “no greater shame for a Malian than to destroy
randomly, with neither plan nor purpose nor finesse.” Beyond the translucent topaz wall, a scarlet bird called and
a shower of silver insects descended into the singing throats of zamay flowers.
Petals folded in, protecting. Unmated insects ticked against the windows,
ticked and ticked again, then flew into the condensing night in search of
singing flowers. Lekel watched the brittle silver wings, his eyes reflecting
darkness and silence and the possibility of death. Every line in his body spoke
of control, of long discipline. His nostrils flared minutely in response to a
wisp of fragrance that few non-Malians would have noticed. When he moved, it
was with a liquid grace that recalled the hidden spring of the Turquoise Kel. “A Sandoliki was born, Sandoliki Ti Maran,” said Lekel, his
voice low. “She grew and saw and knew that slaughter or another planet were our
only options. As Vintra had no sentient life, the planet was ours by right of
discovery. We desperately needed its land and food and space. We had lightships
to take us there. We had the resources to begin a second world. “We had everything but the desire to leave Malia.” Lekel looked blindly at the garden while it receded into
night. “I thought,” said Kayle, “that Malians eagerly colonized Vintra.” A bleak smile divided Lekel’s face. “Few descend willingly
into gloom and madness.” “Then how—” began Mim. “A lie,” said Lekel harshly. “A lie of such infinite beauty
that it became more compelling than truth. A lie expressed in sarsa music, the
most brilliant composition of our entire esthetic history.” “Maran’s Song,” hissed the Sharnn, his body suddenly fully
alert. The Sharnn’s words spread through the h’kel. Slowly, Lekel
turned and focused on the Sharnn’s uncanny eyes. “Yes. That song. It was only played once on Malia. It
divided us into Malians and Vintrans. So that all might live. Maran’s Song.”
Lekel’s voice jerked. The subject was not one that pleased a proud Sandoliki.
“Summation and exhortation. Maran’s Song.” The name was a curse. “Maran’s Song.
A lie. All a lie. Vintra offered nothing more to Malians than a slow death far
from their exquisite moments. “Maran knew this, knew it as surely as she knew that she
would die on Vintra because she was too much a Sandoliki to let her people die
alone.” “Was there something lacking in Vintra’s atmosphere or
soil?” asked Mim. “Or a slow poison that caused the decline?” Lekel’s unpleasant smile became equally unpleasant laughter. “Vintra was one of the Great Destroyer’s better creations,”
said the k’m’n Sandoliki. “There was nothing wrong with the planet—for anyone
but a Malian. And millions of Malians were going there, compelled by sweet lies
sung on the Sandoliki sarsa, and all minds listening, deciding, and some
dying.” “If Vintra were that lethal,” said Mim, confused, “the
Concord would have proscribed the planet.” Lekel looked at Mim pityingly, for she could not understand.
She was not Malian. “There was nothing wrong with Vintra,” repeated Lekel
calmly. “And everything wrong with Malians,” the Sharnn said, his
voice clear and hard. “Now, de f’mi ti,” murmured Lekel, “you know why Maran’s
Song is not sung on Malia. And you know the real meaning of Darg Vintra.” “The revenge of madness,” said Ryth softly. “The Undeclared.
War—Darg Vintra—was an act of madness. It was madness for Vintra to attack
Malia.” Lekel bowed again and said nothing, for there was nothing
left to say. “Vintra attacked Malia?” said Mim skeptically. “But—” A look from the Sharnn silenced her. Kayle waited, sighed,
and tried a different approach. “What is wrong with Malians, that they can’t live on
Vintra?” asked Kayle. “Malian culture is too integrated to be excerpted
successfully,” said Ryth, “too satisfying to be abandoned, and too dependent on
the physical attributes of Malia to be transplanted.” “Too rigid,” said Mim. The Sharnn smiled. “Is the sun too rigid because it burns
for us every day?” His smile faded. “Malians are alluring to us because they
are sensually integrated. They seem arrogant to us because they don’t need us
to complete their lives. But we long for their thousand moments, and we hate them
for what we cannot be.” “Do you mean that Malians have everything they want or need
on their own planet?” demanded Kayle. “Is the Concord truly extraneous to Malians?” “Culturally, intellectually, sensually—yes,” said the
Sharnn. Kayle glanced at Lekel for confirmation. The tall k’m’n Sandoliki
made a gesture of respect toward Ryth. “The Sandoliki Ti was born a Malian, no
matter what the planet of his parents. Except for the dubious blessing of extender
drugs, Malia has neither need nor desire for Concord.” Ryth watched Kayle closely, measuring the effect of each
word. “You once asked me why the Malians were xenophobic,” said Ryth to Kayle.
“You wanted to know what the Malians thought the Concord would do to harm them.
The answer is that Malians aren’t afraid of the Concord—they ignore us because
they don’t need us. They don’t think about us at all.” The Sharnn glided closer to Mim, looming over her powerful
Nendleti body. “That’s why you hate Malians, isn’t it? They don’t care
about Concord or Carifil, mankind’s future or lack of it. We simply don’t exist
for them. That is Malia’s unforgivable sin. And that is why we will destroy
them.” “You’re forgetting Vintra,” said Mim coldly. “Kayle,” said the Sharnn, without looking away from Mim’s
pale orange eyes, “which planet do you now believe had better reason for
initiating the Undeclared War?” “Vintra.” “Which planet has more reason to exterminate the other
planet?” “Vintra.” “Which planet—” “Vintra!” interrupted Mim, her husky voice grating. “Vintra,
Vintra, Vintra! Now prove it, pattern-man. Prove it!” “Are you sure you want me to?” The Sharnn’s soft question brought a wry smile to Mim’s
face. “I’m not a fool, sri Ryth. But someone has to take the unpalatable viewpoint
or the three of us might overlook a crucial argument. I’m glad my presentation
is convincing.” Ryth bowed. “Apologies and regrets, Ti Mim.” “Unnecessary.” She turned on Lekel and asked bluntly, “What
proof do you have of anything you have told us? Particularly, what proof do you
have that Vintra initiated the Undeclared War? And why didn’t you accuse Vintra
at the time?” “A Malian wouldn’t have to ask.” “We aren’t Malians,” said Kayle, his voice calm and cold.
“Teach us.” After a long silence, Lekel made a dismissing gesture. But
he explained. “We could not accuse colonists who had no future, because we
had tricked them into emigrating to insure our own future.” Lekel stared at Mim
with pitiless proud eyes. “Such an accusation would have been a dishonor
greater than Maran’s Song. And if we did lower ourselves to accuse, who would
have believed us? The Concord would have laughed as we pleaded, but they would
not have helped. They wanted Malia to be guilty. “And we are, but not of that crime. We are guilty of a much
more subtle wrong than violating the Sole Restraint against undeclared war. We
are guilty of dooming half our people so that the remainder might enjoy the
entire spectrum of Malian moments.” “Are you so sure of your guilt?” asked the Sharnn softly.
“I’ve heard some of Maran’s Song. Its pattern is not that of deliberate
deception.” Lekel’s arm moved in a sweeping gesture of indifference.
“You have not heard it on Malia! And would it matter if you had, if you were
right? The result is the same, de f’mi ti. We live among our thousand colors of
ecstasy and they die among their thousand shades of madness. Naturally they
want revenge. The Concord will see that they get it.” Mim shook her head like an animal emerging from water. “Wait,” she said, palms pressed to her temples. “That
freight Access scrambled our brains. What about the proven incidents of
sabotage? What about the Gint? And Memned? If Vintra is dying of inner decay,
why—” “Memned?” said Lekel, his voice suddenly hard. “What does my
wife have to do with Vintra?” “Excellent question,” Ryth said, pointedly moving between
Lekel and Mim. “Concord agents have been murdered on Vintra. One of them died
looking at Memned.” “Are you suggesting—” “Nothing. We’re hoping that where there are questions there
are also answers,” said the Sharnn. Lekel’s eyes closed and he stroked his textured sleeves with
sensitive fingertips as though nothing were more important than touching each
thickness of thread in the order of its weaving; and perhaps nothing was more
important, for Lekel was Malian and Sandoliki and the cloth’s textures were as
riveting as sarsa music. A dying silver insect ticked against a transparent pane
while Malia’s night descended with icy stealth. Relays closed, sending warmth
and golden light blushing through crystal walls. The hundred subtle shades of
orange in Lekel’s robe seemed to leap like tiny flames, consuming his fingertips.
He sighed and murmured what might have been one of a thousand names. But his
eyes when they opened were remorseless. “Most Malians know nothing of Vintra. Memned does. Vintra’s
doom is always with her. Therefore, she is more thoughtful of Vintrans than
most Malians. By some, this is taken as an aberration that can only be explained
by”—Lekel’s lips twisted in distaste “—calling her a Vintran.” “You would never knowingly marry a Vintran,” said the
Sharnn. “So you understand even that?” Lekel asked, ignoring Ryth’s
slight emphasis on the word “knowingly.” “You pity and abhor Vintrans. It would be like marrying a
skavern.” The Sharnn paused, listening, but heard nothing; not even one insect
remained to tick futilely against glowing walls. “Yet, such knowledge as Memned
has might bring guilt and then hatred. Isn’t it possible that she so hates
Vintrans that she decided to hasten their inevitable extinction?” Lekel’s silence was long and considering. “My wife,” he said
slowly, “is ... limited ... for a Malian. I did not choose her for what she is;
rather, for who she appeared to be.” Lekel’s full lips thinned into a bleak
line. “But she is Malian nonetheless. Vintrans have so pitifully few moments.
No Malian could reduce those moments by even one.” Mim moved with restless urgency. “Yet we are almost certain
she is involved with the Gint.” Ryth’s mental warning, coupled with Mim’s own training,
saved her from Lekel’s blow. “G’el n’si!” Ryth reinforced his shout with a mental stroke that brought
Lekel up short. The k’m’n Sandoliki put his hands to his forehead, fighting unexpected
pain. Then he staggered as the pain vanished. “N’si g’el,” said Lekel hoarsely. “Apologies and regrets,” murmured the Sharnn, but his cape
lashed. Lekel looked at him warily and said nothing about the
lightning presence he had almost sensed in his mind. “Accepted.” “Mim spoke only what we believe to be the truth,” said
Kayle. “No Malian aristocrat could abide a man who flaunted gint,”
said Lekel coldly. “To even hint that—” Rage rippled along his muscles, but he
did not move. “It is impossible.” “Then we have a problem,” said the Sharnn, and the very softness
of his voice increased Lekel’s wariness. “Either your understanding of Malian capabilities
is in error, or Memned is not—” “No!” Lekel’s voice grated across the glow of light. “Don’t
say it, Sandoliki Ti Ryth. Don’t force me to kill Faen’s joy.” Stillness flowed into the Sharnn, a slow spiral turning in
utter silence. “Play a child’s game with me,” invited the Sharnn, his voice
gentle in spite of the force radiating around him. “Yes.” Lekel’s voice was ragged and his eyes never left the
dangerous presence that had become Ryth. “Teach me, de f’mi ti.” “Accept as true what you have said about Malians and what I
have said about Vintra.” “Accepted.” “Accept as true that there is a black-haired, pale-eyed
woman involved with the Gint.” “... accepted.” “Accept as true that the woman is either Faen or Memned.” “Impossible!” exploded Lekel. “That’s—” “A child’s game.” Ryth watched as Lekel slowly relaxed, accepting
the unpalatable game he had agreed to play. “Knowing both women as you do,”
continued Ryth, “which one would be more likely to abide the Gint?” Silence stretched until it trembled like zamay, but still Lekel
did not answer, could not, until finally logic and his own honesty forced him
into reluctant choice. “Memned.” He sighed, and repeated his wife’s name. “Memned.
Not Faen. Never. The leader of Ti Vire wouldn’t be able to partner with a
gint.” Lekel made a gesture of baffled helplessness. “Yet—Memned?” “Perhaps there is a third explanation,” said the Sharnn. “Perhaps
she can teach it to us.” “Perhaps,” said Lekel, black eyes dazed as he tried to focus
on the impossible. “We can only ask.” Lekel took the shortest route to Memned’s h’kel, leading
them through an elliptical inner garden surrounded by luminous crystal arches
carved with ancient gods. The compelling scent of Malian night swept over them,
telling of folded zamay and swaying tere, secret warmths hidden within piercing
chill. A sound escaped the Sharnn as Faen seemed to condense around him,
perfect lips speaking urgent, soundless imperatives. His mind called to her
with tearing force, and was answered by a flash of dark agony such as he had
never imagined. His eyes opened blind to the black-silver beauty of Malian
night, blind to the three people staring at him, blind to everything but Faen’s
image writhing and fading around him until only simple moonlight remained to
mock the agony echoing through his mind. He did not call to her again. “Are you well, Sandoliki Ti?” Lekel’s respectful question recalled the Sharnn to a different
reality. “Yes,” said Ryth raggedly, his mind still grappling with a
pattern he was afraid to pursue to conclusion. But the pattern became clear,
too clear, and his throttled cry burned in his throat. “Ryth,” said Kayle urgently, “what’s wrong?” The Sharnn’s eyes shone hard with reflected moonlight. He
looked at each of his three companions as though weighing them in a secret balance.
While they watched, the Sharnn changed. It was as though he had coiled back
upon himself to become darker, thicker, stronger, more deadly. At that instant,
all three were ready to fight for their lives, and none expected to win. Then the coils loosened, allowing them to breathe once more. “Faen,” said the Sharnn softly, as though she stood next to
him. Lekel and Kayle and Mim waited, wanting to know more, but
afraid to ask and risk a Sharnn’s anger. “Something has driven Faen into q-consciousness. Yet even
there she is not at peace.” They stared, but could not see Ryth’s features. His cape was
a darkness surrounding him like dense smoke and inside the darkness violence
waited. “Where is she?” said Kayle. “Near.” The Sharnn’s voice held such certainty that Lekel
involuntarily looked around, expecting to see Faen walk into the night garden. Slowly, the Sharnn’s eyes focused on the k’m’n Sandoliki.
“Perhaps Memned’s explanation will include what has happened to the Sandoliki
Ti Faen.” Lekel’s body tightened until muscles coiled, “Is Faen in danger?” “Yes.” Lekel spun and strode toward a glowing arch. “Is Memned the cause?” demanded Kayle of Ryth. “Memned. Or my gint, my shadow, my—” Violence seethed around the Sharnn, a depth of violence that
shocked Kayle. Ryth’s eyes waited, deceptively clear, like a spring in the center
of an ancient tere grove. “She should be safe in q,” said Kayle quickly. “Q is a desperate retreat, barely one breath from death,”
said Ryth coldly. “Q is total flight from stimulation. How much of that do you
think someone like Faen can tolerate before she goes mad, or takes that next
breath?” Kayle’s mind closed as he tried to imagine the silent, monochrome
infinity of sensory deprivation, where an instant and an eternity were equal
because time is measured by the senses and no senses existed in q. And Faen was
Malian. “Hurry,” muttered Kayle. The pervasive scent of zamay thinned as they hurried into
the warmth of the Joxsha Kel. Like Lekel’s robe, the crystal and creamstone
walls of the kel were made of more shades of orange than anyone but a Malian
could discern. While they walked, shades of orange leaped and flickered and
burned in a symphony of silent fire. “It’s like living in the Allgod’s eye,” murmured Mim, the orange
of her own eyes intensified by the sliding shades of the kel. But Lekel did not hear. He turned abruptly and left the kel
for a narrow side garden. There was a brief scent of blooming nightvine, a
brief bite of chill air, and then Lekel led them into a large kel where a
thousand tints and tones of blue arched overhead. From the elliptical room,
corridors led away like spokes; each corridor presented a gradation from
lightest to darkest blue. Lekel gave them no time to appreciate the subtleties of
Malian color artistry. He led them at a near-run down a corridor that began
more pale than Faen’s eyes and ended as darkest midnight blue. So perfectly
were the blues graduated that in no place could a change of hue be discerned. With an unconscious flourish, Lekel pulled aside a
translucent tapestry and strode into a hidden room. The somber blues surrounding
him swayed in currents of candlelight. The tall candles were almost black;
their bodies were scented with nightvine and their flames burned more mauve
than gold. Except for scattered cushions, the room was empty. The Sharnn stared beyond Lekel, trying to guess the function
of the room, but his pattern sense was baffled by the shifting, scented flames.
After the clean chill of the garden, he found Memned’s room stifling. Lekel crossed the room and yanked aside a monochrome blue
wall hanging with textures that shimmered and spoke in the changing light. Beyond
the fabric was an indoor garden. In the center of the garden stood a sarsa, gathering
and concentrating moonlight over its thousand crystal surfaces. Ryth stared at the sightless facets and wondered whether the
sarsa answered Memned’s touch with silver ghosts and silent ecstasies. Then he
realized that only a finder like Faen—or Maran—would have the mind and skill to
combine with the sarsa in unguessed linkage, probing self and past alike. Lekel crossed to the sarsa in two strides. Every motion spoke
of impatience, yet his fingers held the m’sarsa delicately. The wand flashed in
the moonlight and six descending notes summoned Memned as clearly as if Lekel
had called her name. The last low note trembled in the silver light, then
dissipated like a sigh. There was no answer, though they could hear the summons
resonating through every crystal wall in the kel. The Sharnn had only to look
at Lekel to know that Memned’s absence was unexpected. “Where is the Vintra Kel?” said Ryth abruptly. “We call it the Kemir Kel.” Lekel’s voice was strained, but
insistent. “Kemir.” “Purple or blue-red, call it what you will,” snapped the
Sharnn. “Where is it?” “No one lives there. It was built only to complete the
spectrum. No sane Malian could be expected to live in it.” “But Memned uses it occasionally, doesn’t she?” “Opposites refresh,” said Lekel. “It proves nothing.” “No one said that it did.” Lekel turned away from the Sharnn’s too-knowing eyes. The
k’m’n Sandoliki crossed two connecting gardens at a pace that was nearly a run.
The second garden was oddly ragged, almost abandoned, as though even servants
felt uneasy among the unfolding purple foliage. But under the silver and white
moons, the plants were merely black on black without even a shadow of purple madness. At the end of the garden rose an arch, its faceted curves
refracting moonlight into countless violet flashes. Lekel stopped and turned to Ryth. “Whatever happens,” Lekel
said, his voice low but clear, “Memned’s flesh is mine.” The Sharnn hesitated only an instant. “Her flesh is yours.” Without another word, Lekel vanished beneath an amethyst
arch. The Sharnn leaped to follow, running silently beneath ancient arches and
moonlight until the Kemir Kel rose out of darkness, its twin-peaked roof like
the wings of a great bird. Even in the flawless light of Malian day, the kel’s myriad
purples would have suggested a burden of secrets and regrets; in the attenuated
light of moons, the Kemir Kel’s brooding atmosphere was almost malevolent.
Strokes of magenta light fell like blows across the lavender floors and each
shadow was a sluggish condensation of purple. The air was thick, barely stirred
by slow maroon currents. Yet the Kemir Kel was also compelling, the very heart of mystery
illuminated by random shards of pure violet light. The heavy scent of nightvine coiled around Ryth as he followed
the fading rustle of Lekel’s robe brushing over the floor. The smell of nightvine
became stronger, darker, almost palpable. Lekel pulled aside a tapestry and for
a moment was silhouetted against tiers of tall candles that burned with clear
purple flames. The room was furnished with cushions, low lounges, and amethyst
sculptures in arrangements that were not quite random. Everywhere, tall candles
burned until their eerie light and scent became as much a part of the kel as
its rolling tones of purple. In the center of the room stood Lekel, head bent as he spoke
to a woman whose golden skin was transformed to deepest rose by the alchemy of
dark candlelight. When she turned toward Lekel, her black hair billowed out,
alive with purple lights. She lifted a small, beautifully formed hand and
stroked Lekel’s face in skilled t’sil’ne. Her eyes as they watched him were as
white as ice. The Sharnn fought to breathe air that had congealed in his
throat, fought not to call out Faen’s name, but most of all he fought not to
kill them both as they stood in the warmth of each other’s breath. His cape
whipped soundlessly, twisting and writhing, seeking. She turned again and walked closer to Ryth, moving with the
silent grace of a shadow. Vague light washed over her face, concealing its
lines in shifting magenta tones. When she looked into his eyes she stepped
back, afraid. “You agreed,” said Lekel to the Sharnn. As she turned to look at Lekel, a sudden draft outlined her
profile with a flare of candlelight. In the heightened illumination, the lines
of her face were subtly blurred, wrong. Not Faen. The Sharnn stepped back. “You didn’t mention that your wife
so resembled mine,” he said harshly. “Especially by candlelight.” “I assumed you knew,” said Lekel, releasing his grip on his
knife, “It’s hardly a secret.” “Yes,” said Memned, her voice toneless. “It’s common knowledge
that I am less beautiful than Lekel’s first choice.” “Beauty varies with desire and custom,” said the Sharnn. “You are very tactful, Sandoliki Ti Ryth,” said Memned, her
voice as expressionless as still water. The Sharnn glanced around the h’kel, making sure that Memned
was never out of his sight. For all the information he gained from her unreadable
face, she might as well have been heavily veiled. “I’m unfamiliar with the
pattern of the kel,” he said casually. “Where are you keeping Faen?” Memned’s moment of surprise passed so quickly that the
Sharnn could not be sure he had seen it. “Keeping? No one keeps the Ti Faen. The Ti Faen does precisely
as she pleases.” The Sharnn gave Memned a long, considering look while he
sent lightning mental directions to Kayle. *Tell Mim to try Memned’s mind.
Force it if possible, but don’t damage her memory. Be ready to fight Lekel.* Ryth looked from Memned to the powerful k’m’n Sandoliki. “I
agreed that her flesh was yours, but her answers belong to me. N’ies?” Lekel hesitated, then spread his hands. “N’ies. If she knows
any answers.” Memned turned toward her husband, her beautiful face expressionless.
“You give way to a man who is not Malian simply because your Faen might be in
danger? The more she scorns you, the more you—” “Enough,” said Lekel, cutting across what was obviously an
argument so often chewed over that all juice was gone. “Do you know where Faen
is?” Memned almost smiled. And said nothing. “I’m not asking for myself,” said Lekel, his voice a mixture
of anger and gentleness and regret. “I’m asking for the Sandoliki Ti Ryth.” “And I am refusing. I—ohhhh!” Lekel supported Memned, preventing her from tumbling to the
hard crystal floor. “What is it, Memned?” asked Lekel, lips close to her black
hair. But her limp body did not respond to his whisper. His fingers found the
pulse on her slender throat. “A simple faint ... but why?” “Good reason,” said the Sharnn quietly. Only then did Lekel notice that the two Nendletis were standing
close together, orange eyes burning as though they could see beyond Memned’s
controlled exterior to the truth inside. Lekel remembered the instant of pain
that had staggered him when he attacked Mim and he guessed that something
similar had happened to his wife. But he could not fight back, trapped as he
was by the warm weight of Memned lying across his arms. “You fight like skaverns,” he said bitterly. The Sharnn said nothing. He watched the Nendletis intently,
sensing that something was wrong. At last Kayle blinked and his round orange
eyes slowly focused on Ryth. “Mim can penetrate, which is more than we had hoped for, given
her difficulty with Malian minds. “But?” prompted the Sharnn, trying to curb his impatience. “But I can’t join their minds, because Mim can’t get beyond
Memned’s outer consciousness. It’s like being on a huge oiled ball. No place to
grab and hold, no traction. You just slide and lunge and slip until you’re sick
with dizziness and you’re no closer than you were when you started.” “You get no information?” “We get too much! All of it, one huge seamless ball and no
way to sort it out. No reference points, no—” “Pattern?” suggested the Sharnn. Kayle’s eyes narrowed. “Too dangerous. You might end up
worse than I was with n’Qen.” “And I might not. One way Faen dies, we die, Malia dies. The
other way—anything is possible. Everything.” Suddenly the Sharnn swung around and crouched in a single
motion that was both beautiful and deadly. Lekel stopped his attack in
mid-stride. “You’re too close, k’m’n Sandoliki. Back up.” Lekel shifted Memned’s weight and carefully walked backwards. “Drop the knife,” said Ryth. “Yes, that one. It shines so
beautifully beneath her black hair.” The knife dropped loudly in the silence. “Listen well, Lekel. I will find my answers if I have to
tear your wife’s memories into single instant shreds.” The Sharnn’s words were
as distinct as the muscles corded in his neck. “You may fight me, if you must,
after I have my answers. If you move one step before that, I will force your
mind and kill you where you stand. N’ies?” Lekel’s black eyes searched the Sharnn’s face and found neither
uncertainty nor weakness. With a long breath, Lekel agreed. “N’ies.” Then, coldly. “May I sit?” The Sharnn made a cutting gesture of indifference. Slowly,
Lekel sat, holding Memned across his folded legs. For an instant, candlelight
shifted and spun over her still face; it was like seeing Faen through deep
water, blurred and unattainable. In spite of his control, Ryth must have made a
noise, for Lekel looked up from Memned’s shadowed face. Something oddly like
pity crossed the k’m’n Sandoliki’s hard features. “Do what you must, de f’mi ti,” Lekel said, looking away.
“Your loss is greater than mine.” Ryth closed his eyes, blotting out the woman’s face that was
both strange and too familiar. “Ready?” asked Kayle. The Sharnn took several slow, deep breaths, then responded
with curt mindspeech. *Ready. What do I do?* *Absolutely nothing.* The Sharnn laughed bitterly. *I should be able to manage
that.* *It’s the hardest thing of all,* responded Kayle, and put a
warmth into his thought that radiated through Ryth’s ragged nerves. *Very good,*
encouraged Kayle. *Very, very good, just keep—ahhh, don’t fight me. You’re too
strong, Sharnn.* *I’m not fighting,* insisted Ryth, then realized that he was
indeed waging a reflexive struggle against the presence seeping toward the center
of his mind. With a silent apology, the Sharnn concentrated on his need to link
with Mim. *Better ... better.* There was a moment of vague vertigo, tiny pains. *You’ve changed, Sharnn. Amazing—truly amazing. Powerful,
still, and vastly patient.* *The last thing I feel is patient,* returned the Sharnn,
with a lash of restlessness that made his cape seethe. Kayle’s only answer was a vanishing chuckle. A feeling of
crisp air and crackling coolness grew in Ryth’s mind, accompanied by tangy,
spicy scents. The total effect was as invigorating as diving into cool water. Thank you. You are like ghostsailing the edge of a nova, The
intimacy of Mim’s response shocked Ryth. She was behind his eyes, whispering
through his brain and her body lived by his rhythms. Nowhere did he sense
Kayle. You won’t, as long as the link goes well. He is bridging
all our differences. Without him such intimacy would be impossible. We’re too
different, you and I. You are as powerful and flexible as life itself. You
change even as I breathe. Always becoming. I am Sharnn. I begin to fear what that means ... Don’t. I am human. I’ll hold on to that, sri Ryth. You do the same! With no more warning than that, the Sharnn found himself
hurled into Memned’s mind. He could not sense Mim, except in the speed with
which he oriented himself in the uncharted territory of an alien mind. He knew
he was looking for something in particular, but he could not visualize what he
sought. The difficulty did not disturb him; he correctly assumed that Mim would
guide him whether he sensed it or not. He concentrated on Memned. What Kayle and Mim had perceived as an oily ball, the Sharnn
perceived as a grey sea troubled by conflicting currents and random winds.
Waves came tall and narrow, wide and short, wedge-shaped and no shape at all.
He both hovered above and floated on top of the sea, simultaneously aloof and a
part of the unbalanced forces that made Memned what she was. He stayed there, feeling/seeing/sensing. He was not aware of
Kayle or Mim or time or even himself. His whole being was focused on learning
the pattern that created the impenetrable grey surface that heaved below and
around him. Slowly, patiently, he discovered similarities and opposites,
catalogued conflicts and accords, endings and beginnings. The waves seemed no
longer restless, but energetic, no longer amorphous, but inevitable. The very
next wave would be a long wedge that— The sea exploded and he tumbled headlong into a maelstrom of
voices and motions and scenes/memories shouting/requiring that he
see/hear/touch/know/be NOW until he felt himself fracturing into a hundred
selves trying to meet a thousand impossible demands. I can’t! I can. Let me. How? Let go. With a soundless cry, the Sharnn stopped trying to conceive
of and thereby become everything at once. There was a time of spinning nausea
that seemed endless. When it was over, his body beat with Mim’s rhythms and he
watched through Mim’s eyes. He tried to communicate with her, but lacked the
necessary skill. Vertigo returned, overwhelming. Don’t try to talk to me, unless I miss something vital. Wisely, the Sharnn made no attempt to respond to Mim’s
command. He willed himself into passivity and watched, fascinated, while Mim
deftly slid down through the storm of Memned’s mind, always down, further and
further, until voices faded and memories thinned into raw energy, force and
counterforce in the changing yet changeless dance of life. Something moved toward the play of energy. A tenuous veil
spread across it, surrounding, melting, then combining with a fierce crackle of
pain that was gone so quickly that it did not even make a memory. The Sharnn’s
impatience leaped, for he guessed that Mim’s mind had finally joined with
Memned’s. Be very still. She is difficult. The Sharnn sensed will gathering, shaping into an
unavoidable command to remember— FAEN And Memned remembered. Midnight and white moon racing, tere trees bending in a
black wind, moaning and he was waiting
for Memned, there, cape fanned in the black wind, bending down and touching
her, murmuring Faen’s name in tones of hatred darker than wind or night or tere
trees bending down. The memory slid away before they could see the man’s face.
Ryth controlled his impatience with difficulty; he sensed that he had seen that
man before, in darkness, cape billowing like black laughter. FAEN For an instant the three-way intimacy heaved and tossed like
an unruly animal while Memned fought Mim’s implacable command to focus her flow
of memories on Faen. But Mim’s greater skill kept Memned under tight control
and the restless surges of energy condensed into FAEN A scarlet form more graceful than water, swaying,
transforming the simple act of walking into a dance as beautiful as faal-hnim,
black eyes watching with hopeless longing and a shadow dragging behind, dark
imitation carefully trained but never equal never FAEN Ebony and silver night, warm as a lover’s breath and the
sarsa brilliant beneath pouring moons while Faen touched it with a skill that
made her shadow weep and flee until he stepped out, black-green eyes blazing,
the core of night consuming Memned until she no longer regretted shadow-life
lived for him. Even shadows find something like passion. Shadows, like
gints, can be more than they seem. FAEN Creamstone and Gold oddly drained, flattened, monotonous,
and Faen waiting, brilliant blue-white eyes accusing her, Faen saying its name
with disgust curling her perfect lips until they were separate condemnations
and Faen’s hair like a summer night sweet and warm and as black as Faen’s contempt
for Memned’s shadow life and shadow lover. But shadows can conceal more than they outline. Light and
brilliance drained from Faen’s eyes and her features slackened, all but the
perfect lips that somehow still shaped contempt for shadow Memned who finally
stood above, looking down on her unconscious image like looking in a mirror,
only better, much better. Laughing as she dropped the tiny dart pistol next to
Faen’s unconscious beauty. And later FAEN a scream that shattered all hope. WHERE A sickening swirl of purples IS condensed into FAEN lying in deep violet light where tall candles guttered
thickly, a room of purple shadows where one shadow lived and laughed and
gloried in her superior image screaming just once before the stubborn retreat
into self, frustrating all attempts to force a return to consciousness and
agony. A single scream. Too thin a revenge, even for a shadow. There would be more deaths later, of course. Vast deaths.
A whole planet. But Faen’s death was special; it must be as perfect as a flawed
imitation could make it. Then the shadow would become substance and Faen would be
nothing at all. Reality shifted with a sickening lurch. The Sharnn found himself
breathing with his own rhythms, seeing with his own eyes. Do you have enough, pattern-man? Yes. There was a feeling of breathless acceleration, then a sense
of being totally alone. Hollow. Conflicting emotions shook him until he slowly
expanded into all the abandoned spaces of his mind. And realized that Kayle’s
hoarse voice was drumming in his ears. “—hear me? Do you know me? What is your name? Do you know
where you are? Can you hear me? Are you—” “Yes, yes,” interrupted the Sharnn, his voice ragged, as
though it had not been used for a long time. He shook his head, flinging off
the last of his sensory daze. “I’m all right.” Ryth turned on Lekel, who had
not moved during the long, long interrogation. “Where is the violet room?” Lekel eased Memned onto some cushions and stood without the
least sign of stiffness. “It will be easier if I take you there.” Ryth looked at Kayle. “Memned?” “She’ll sleep, as will Mim. And as you should. Let me go to
find Faen. Joining minds is far less exhausting than what you did.” “Can you bring Faen out of q?” “No one can, Ryth. Not even you.” Without a word, the Sharnn turned and started after Lekel.
At the first step, the room began to slide into darkness. Ryth caught himself
and straightened before Kayle could reach him. The Nendleti said nothing, but his
knowing eyes did not miss one sign of the exhaustion that had turned Ryth’s
muscles to sand. *You would be easy game for Lekel right now, Ryth. Even with
your cape.* *Which is why he won’t touch me.* Kayle watched doubtfully as the Sharnn walked out of the h’kel
with uneven strides. But by the time he caught up with Lekel, Ryth’s powerful
body had restored rhythm, if not grace, to his movements. The two men walked side by side, saying nothing, not
noticing brooding lavender corridors, pools of magenta light framed by amethyst
columns wearing the faces of long dead gods. Nor did either man notice
startling silver eyes, Maran’s eyes, a maroon ikon brooding over the slow dance
of violet tapestries turning in the minor wind of two men’s passage. “May I ask?” Lekel’s soft question penetrated the Sharnn’s concentration
as no loud demand could have. “You may.” “Did she—my wife—tell you why?” “Jealousy,” said the Sharnn, “and something more. I’m not
sure yet. The pattern is still forming.” “I would not have believed Memned capable of taking Faen.” “She wasn’t. She shot Faen with a projectile weapon.” Lekel’s stride broke and his handsome face settled into
lines of darkness. “K’m’n Sandoliki Memned used a projectile weapon?” asked
Lekel carefully. “Yes.” The flatness of Ryth’s tone left no room for comfort.
“Anesthetic or poison darts. Then torture.” “I can’t believe—no Malian aristocrat would use—” Lekel bit
off his thoughts abruptly. “Is Faen alive?” “Probably, Memned had planned an elaborate ritual of
revenge. She hasn’t had time to carry it out.” “K’te kiirey. Ordeal by torture. In that, at least, Memned
honors her Malian ancestry.” Ryth said nothing, but the sudden violence that radiated
from him made Lekel walk very softly until the end of the corridor was reached. There,” said Lekel, indicating a dark triangular opening to
Ryth’s right. “There is a special room at the end of the hall. H’kel n’ma sey.
The room with no exit.” The Sharnn turned and walked silently into a purple hall. At
random intervals lights bloomed behind crystal panels, casting mauve shadows
across the way. Exhaustion congealed in the Sharnn, slowing him until only will
drove his body toward the flickering maroon light at the end of the triangular
hall. She lay in the center of the small, six-walled room. Her bed
was a dais draped with utterly smooth fabric. Candlelight flowed over the drape
until it shimmered and pulsed in imitation of life. She looked too pale, too attenuated
to be alive, but he sensed the tiny breaths that were too far apart and too
shallow to disturb the stillness of her body. Remembering her single scream, he
expected to find a ghastly injury, but her skin was as flawless and
fine-textured as the drape she lay on. Beside Faen’s head was a small glass table holding delicate
instruments whose purpose the Sharnn immediately guessed. His hand lashed out,
smashing the table and its contents and opening a long cut across his
palm. He quickly looked away from the debris, not wanting to know the
instruments’ exact patterns, not wanting to conceive of their precise use, for
he had promised Memned’s flesh to Lekel. Though the Sharnn knew it was futile and probably dangerous,
he could not help calling once to Faen’s hidden mind. There was no answer,
unless it came as a subtle tightening of her muscles that passed as quickly as
a sigh. The exhaustion Ryth had held at bay finally claimed him; he
moved toward her like a man walking under water. Only a Sharnn’s will could
have forced his cut hand to lift until blood fell like black tears onto
her lips. Then the room began to melt and run into impossible purple shapes.
With infinite care the Sharnn lay down beside Faen and gathered her against his
body. When the sweet scent of her filled his senses, he let everything else
spin away into a darkness that knew no shades of purple. VIIThe Sharnn stirred and woke, tangled in Faen’s warmth. She
murmured against his skin and stretched languidly. For a startled moment she
realized that she was in the torture room of the Kemir Kel, but then she felt
him next to her and relaxed beneath lavender shadows. Though Ryth felt weakness
like water in his veins, he pulled her closer. Over his shoulder she saw the
shattered table and smashed implements of k’te kiirey. The roughness of his
palm and his blood dry on her lips told her what he had done. And then she
remembered why she had returned alone to Malia. “I wanted you to live forever,” she whispered. “Laseyss.” He said a Sharnn phrase that had no translation, and she was
comforted. With a long sigh she accepted their deaths. Both heard the tapestry
slither aside, but neither moved. “You look like easy meat,” Kayle said, letting the tapestry
fall back into place. The Sharnn smiled. “Try me.” Kayle laughed shortly. “You’ve taught me two things, Ryth.
It is fatal to underestimate a Sharnn; and it is impossible to overestimate a
Sharnn.” Ryth pulled himself upright. The h’kel became a kaleidoscope
of purple tones, spinning and running together. “I’ve taught you wrong,” said Ryth, laughing weakly. “I doubt it.” Kayle walked across the room. His rolling, powerful gait was
oddly suited to the pale violet light that radiated through the room’s mosaic
of colored crystal panes. Kayle set the tray he carried within reach of both of
them. “You brought a psi out of terminal q. The Carifil want to
know how.” Ryth frowned, trying to remember the moments since be had
emerged from Memned’s mind. Then he saw Faen’s lips and knew. “His method,” said Faen, “would only work between Malian
lovers.” “Is that true?” “Not quite,” said the Sharnn. “If the lovers were
complements, their race would not matter.” Kayle sighed. “We were afraid it was something like that.”
His sharp orange eyes went from Ryth’s hand to her lips. “Was the blood necessary?” “We are Malian,” said Ryth. “Are you? Or is she becoming Sharnn?” Kayle smiled at Ryth’s
startled glance. “Think about it while you eat, pattern-man.” Ryth looked warily at the triangles of food and tall glasses
of viscous liquid that Kayle had brought. But when Faen reached for both with a
delighted sound, the Sharnn began to eat. “Lekel said that these were the most concentrated forms of
food known to Malians,” said Kayle, watching Ryth eat with growing greed. “You’ll
need your strength. We’ve got to pry Memned loose from some answers. Without
you, we can’t really penetrate her indifference.” Ryth grimaced at the thought of re-entering the maelstrom of
Memned’s mind. “I don’t think we’ll have to go all the way in again, Ryth.
It’s just that we don’t know which answers we’ve found. That is, which
questions. Or—” Kayle hissed a selection of Nendleti phrases that the Sharnn
winced to translate. “You mean,” said the Sharnn, “that you don’t understand what
Memned told us last night.” “Precisely.” Kayle waited impatiently while Faen and the
Sharnn licked each other’s fingers clean, then drank the last drop of pale
turquoise liquid. “Ready?” Ryth slid off the dais, prepared to catch himself, but the
room did not spin away from him. Surprised, he looked at the empty tray with
new respect. Faen saw and smiled and said nothing. He curled her hand across
his as he took her into his mind and gave her exact memories of what had
happened in Memned’s mind. “How much,” he asked Kayle, “did you see/hear/feel of what
Mim and I found in Memned’s mind?” “All of it.” “The man Memned met beneath the moon and tere trees?” “Yes.” “I believe that was the Gint.” Faen’s hand tightened in his. and she stirred uneasily
within his mind. “There were no marks on his forehead.” “The light concealed more than it revealed,” said Ryth. “But,” protested Faen, “even in moonlight, gint flashes like
crystal.” “Two possibilities,” countered the Sharnn. “Either he wore
no gint that night, or she does not think of him as gint and therefore
literally did not see his marks. Remember, we saw only with her eyes and knew
only with her mind. Probably, he was not wearing gint. The alternative requires
an integrated act of will that is almost certainly beyond Memned’s capacity.” “Gint marks are tattooed. Permanent,” insisted Faen. The Sharnn spoke gently to her, knowing that even to think
about gint was disgusting for a Malian. Especially a Sandoliki Ti. “They are supposed to be, yes. But gint can be painted on
and oiled off, n’ies?” Faen’s shudder of distaste was involuntary and total.
“N’ies. But what kind of Malian warrior—no! What kind of creature could endure
gint for even a moment?” Faen’s face twisted at the thought of a Malian who could overcome
a cultural trait that was as ingrained as sensuality. “If that man was the Gint—” prompted Kayle. “Then he was using Memned,” said Ryth. “For what?” “Destroying Malians.” “But Vintrans are the ones dying.” “All living things are dying,” the Sharnn said dryly. “Some
more quickly than others. As of this moment, all Malians will die before a few
Vintrans.” Faen’s nails pressed against his arm, leaving crescents of
pain that she felt the instant he did, as though it were her own arm, not his.
She rubbed the marks away, but could not so easily erase the thought of a
despised Gint bringing down a proud race of warriors. “Then you believe the Gint is Vintran?” said Kayle. “Does it matter?” said Ryth. “Can you prove that he’s not Malian?” snapped Kayle, impatient
with Sharnn evasions. “Only by inference. Pattern.” “Not good enough.” “No.” The three of them walked silently into a room where Lekel
and Mim waited with Memned. Cushions in every tint of purple were scattered
through the room and black candles rose like gaunt shadows. As one, both
Nendletis withdrew to the cushions nearest the entrance. There they could hear
and see everything, as well as guard against intrusions. The Sharnn looked from Memned to Faen and back again. Even
in the brighter light of day, their resemblance was uncanny. “Come to me,” said the Sharnn. Not until Memned walked toward them was the difference apparent;
she lacked Faen’s perfect grace. When Memned came very close, other differences
came into focus. Her profile was slightly less sharp, her eyes were slightly
less slanted, more white, and her lips lacked the fullness of Faen’s. Memned’s
hair was black, but less brilliant than Faen’s, lacking both the blue and
blue-white lights that slid endlessly through Faen’s hair. Wordlessly, Ryth compared the two women, always to Memned’s
detriment. It was not simple prejudice that shaped the Sharnn’s conclusions.
Memned was like a master forgery; though superbly executed, she lacked the resonance
of the original. It was as though a forger’s skill had stretched her essence
beyond its elastic limit. Something about her was subtly wrong. With a smothered exclamation, the Sharnn stared at Memned
even more closely. His intensity was such that she pulled back. “No,” he said. “Closer.” With a barely perceptible tremor, Memned obeyed. “Stand there.” The Sharnn’s gesture indicated an octagonal window where
pale lavender light was so bright that it almost had no color at all. “Lekel.” “Yes?” “I’m going to touch my prisoner, your wife. I will not—” “I know, Ti. You won’t hurt her flesh, for it was promised
to me.” Gently, Ryth lifted Faen’s hand out of his. She made no objection;
like Ryth, she feared what even vicarious touching of Memned would do. If Memned objected to being touched, she did not show it. Not
once did her lovely, expressionless face change; not once did her lips shift,
not even when his finger traced their lines with an almost sensual delicacy. “Incredible,” he murmured, pushing a mass of black hair
aside and lightly kneading his fingertips over her scalp. “Nearly perfect. I
didn’t know that such skill—” He stopped abruptly, fingertips pressing against
the lower curve of her ears where they met her skull, then just above her
hairline again. “Close your eyes.” Though the Sharnn used no courtesies, his voice was not
harsh. Memned closed her eyes and stood without flinching while he tipped her
head back and his fingertips traced every aspect of her eyes. “Yes,” said Lekel as he walked up and stood next to the
Sharnn. “She’s undergone reconstructive growth. There were many firestorms in
the war. She was in one of them,” “Is that what she told you?” asked Ryth, his fingertips as
light as breath over her skin. Lekel made a careless gesture. “Perhaps there was an
accident, perhaps not. She would not be the first Malian to enhance her beauty;
It is a matter of neither great pride nor great shame.” He nearly smiled. “And
it was well worth it, n’ies?” “Such skill,” murmured Ryth, stroking the seamless
perfection of Memned’s face. “I didn’t know Malia had such skilled regrowers.” “Malia doesn’t.” Memned’s flat voice was as deliberately expressionless
as her face. The effect, paradoxically, was one of barely restrained violence.
“I went to Lirnkleml.” “You must have been badly injured,” said the Sharnn. “Or very
wealthy.” “Neither.” “What did you look like before you went to Lirnkleml? Were
you simply ugly?” “No.” Something flickered deep in her white eyes, a swift
change that was gone before it was fully perceived. “I was the most beautiful
woman on ... in my country.” “What did you look like before you went to Lirnkleml?” repeated
the Sharnn softly, relentlessly. Darkness flickered like a shadow turning in the center of
her eyes. “The same. No real change. The same.” “No,” said the Sharnn softly, and his fingertips traced each
point as he named it. “Your eyes did not tilt quite so much, nor were they so
wide. Your ears were slightly larger, set higher. Your chin was less triangular.
Your hair was less full and probably another color.” His fingertips stroked her
neck and shoulders and breasts. “Shall I go on, Memned?” The shadow condensed, a point of darkness in her too-pale
eyes. But she said nothing. “Your neck was slightly fuller, and your breasts much
fuller.” “My hips,” she said, interrupting, “were as round as zamay
seeds and my back—” She stopped. “Does it matter?” “What color was your hair?” “As blue-white as Malia’s sun. And my skin ... my skin was
darker than amber and more smooth. My eyes changed color like sarsa crystal.”
Her words continued, at odds with her indifferent tone. “When I walked, women
envied and men followed. All but one woman and one man.” “Faen and Lekel.” “Yes,” said Memned, looking at the Sharnn for the first
time. “And he was the one I wanted.” “So you had yourself regrown in the image of Lekel’s
desire.” Something like pity crossed Faen’s face. She found she could
no longer look at Memned or Lekel. The Sharnn’s touch comforted Faen briefly,
then was withdrawn. “I had myself regrown in her image,” repeated Memned. But her voice was subtly hollow now, wrong. “Was it your idea?” Memned said nothing. Lekel’s hand slowly stroked her arm, an
expression like Faen’s softening his perfect Malian features. Memned did not
acknowledge the gesture with as much as a glance. It was as though Lekel did
not exist, the h’kel did not exist, nothing existed but the soft-voiced Sharnn
and his compelling eyes as green as hers were white. “Was regrowth your idea?” repeated Ryth. “Yes.” “No.” The Sharnn smiled sadly. “No, Memned. You loved
yourself then. Who asked you to die and be reborn a shadow of Faen?” Memned’s lips turned down briefly, then straightened into
their former expressionless line. “It was necessary.” “For whom? Who sent you to Lirnkleml?” “No one. Myself.” “A man?” “No one.” “The Gint.” “No.” “You died for a shadow, Memned, a shadow who could not
conceive of—” Memned laughed suddenly, an eerie rising sound that stopped
his words. “You are wrong,” she whispered. “So wrong. He is more than a
shadow.” “Who,” said Ryth, a flick of scorn in his voice, “is this
nameless paragon wearing the marks of cowardice?” “You’ll know his name just before you die!” “I won’t care then,” said Ryth. “You’ve told me what I
already knew. The man who made you a shadow of life is the same man who flaunts
gint.” Malevolence suddenly radiated from Memned with the clarity
of a scream. “That’s a small victory, dead man!” Her eyes changed, and her self-control broke between one
breath and the next. Lekel’s hands tightened on her arms, for he sensed she
would spring on the Sharnn and force her own destruction. She seethed at the
strength restraining her, twisted in his grip, then became very still, only her
shattered white eyes alive, moving. “But why?” said Faen. “Why Vintra? I can understand that you
would enjoy peeling me from life one scream at a time—but Vintra?” “You ask?” Memned said, with a sideways glance at Lekel that
was more chilling than her smile. “You, who declared Ti Vire on an entire
planet?” She smiled again, but refused to look at Faen; had refused
to look at her from the moment Faen had entered the room. The Sharnn had an
eerie feeling that Memned really did not see Faen at all, for shadows could not
see substance. “The Ti Vire,” said Faen carefully, “was not the same as
what you have done to Vintra.” “No,” agreed Memned, smiling blindly at the purple fall of
light beyond Lekel’s strong hands. “My Ti Vire is better. Mine will be a total
success. My name,” she said, her voice thinning and climbing, “will live longer
than yours, longer than Maran’s, longer than any Malian name or any—” She
stopped abruptly and began to hum to herself. “Not the same at all,” said Lekel hoarsely, beginning at
last to understand what his obsession with Faen had cost Memned, himself,
Malia. “Faen and Maran fought for the thousand moments of their people. You—”
His voice hesitated and they watched him change, withdraw, recede before their
eyes. “You have killed your people, Memned. All but a few of our moments are
gone. Only one sra ti, one great moment is left to us.” “Death,” hummed Memned, more to herself than in answer to
the man she no longer saw. “That pleases you?” asked the Sharnn. Memned looked at him in a restless movement of white. “Death pleases every shadow.” “Just death? Any death?” “The enemy’s death,” she murmured, then hummed and looked at
her fingertips as though they were fascinating new growths. “Who is the enemy?” The Sharnn’s question went through Memned like a shockwave.
When it passed, so did the shattered look in her eyes. They were clouded now,
nearly opaque. “Who is the enemy?” repeated Ryth softly. She looked at him as though he were an apparition. “Enemy?”
she inquired politely, tonelessly. “I have no enemies. Merely friends who left
before I was born. And after.” The Sharnn balanced her enigmatic answer in his mind for a
long moment. He sensed something vital buried in her hauntingly irrational response,
but the core of meaning eluded him. Memned hummed softly to herself, sending uneasy chills
through everyone who heard. Ryth looked at Kayle and both silently thanked
their separate gods that she had not gone insane while they were in her mind.
Faen listened, flesh stirring, to Memned’s distorted yet familiar melody, a
tune she recognized but could not name. “It’s time for you to leave,” suggested Ryth softly. “You
don’t want to be here when Malia dies.” “Leave?” Memned said, tilting her head as though listening
to a distant voice. “Yes,” murmured the Sharnn, leaning closer to her until his
lips nearly touched hers. “He’s waiting for you on Vintra.” “Do you know him?” she asked, looking vaguely around, never
quite seeing any of the people who stood near her. “He isn’t here now. He told
me I was more beautiful than ... I believed him once ...” Memned made an oddly
hopeless gesture. “Didn’t I? Did I believe?” She looked imploringly at a spot
just over Ryth’s shoulder where nothing but purple light moved. “Do shadows
believe?” The Sharnn’s face twisted but his voice remained steady, compelling.
“Ask him. He’ll remember.” Memned’s face cleared. She smiled with a child’s uncomplicated
delight. “Oh, yes! He’s so good. He knows everything.” Memned tried to walk forward, but was stopped by Lekel’s
grip. She neither turned nor spoke, just waited. With a small sound, Lekel released
his wife. She stepped out from between his hands as though nothing had ever
held her. Lekel stood and watched her graceful back for a long moment. Then he
slowly lowered his hands. Ryth thought he heard Lekel call out, but the
Malian’s handsome face never changed and Ryth could not be sure. They followed Memned’s progress through shifting purple
tones; a shadow in billowing pink robes, soundless and swift, hurrying toward a
child’s answers, answers that would irrevocably condemn the adult, for if she
led them to a secret Access, Lekel could no longer doubt that she had conspired
to kill a planet. Memned paused only once, to push against a mauve wall until a
section turned on a concealed pivot. She all but ran down a narrow passageway
into a circular h’kel. Such hidden rooms were common in all kels, for Malians
understood the rewards of seclusion. But Lekel looked at the wall with a
startled expression on his face; it was obvious that he had known nothing of
this h’kel, much less the Access which shed such clear blue light over the
center of the room. He watched his wife with dark intensity, but neither his
face nor his body revealed what he was thinking. Then Lekel leaped toward Memned. His hand snaked out and
wrapped around her wrist with a force that made her body jerk. She pulled away
once, hard, then stood as passively as a tethered animal. After a moment, she
began to hum again, a tune that Faen could name now, a song it was forbidden to
sing on Malia. Maran’s Song. Ryth went immediately to the Access controls, never
forgetting that Malia’s life might be as short as their next breath. The
controls were a combination of standard Concord and hastily-rigged Malian
textures that baffled him. “Have you further need of her answers, Sandoliki Ti Ryth?”
asked Lekel with a respectful gesture. “No,” muttered the Sharnn absently, his mind focused on the
puzzle of the controls. “I’ll let the Concord Council question her.” He looked
up, beyond Lekel’s shoulder. “Faen, have you ever used controls like—No!” The Sharnn leaped, but too late. The edge of Lekel’s hand
met Memned’s neck with a clean snap; she was dead before she fell across her husband’s
outstretched arm. Sharnn curses grated like sand between Ryth’s teeth, but he
made no move against Lekel. In Malian terms, Lekel’s action was both inevitable
and admirable. “No,” snapped the Sharnn, gesturing curtly to Kayle. “My carelessness
killed her as surely as Lekel’s blow. I was too concerned with the Access to
realize that I was speaking her death sentence.” A bitter phrase twisted his
mouth. “Lekel owes nothing to the Council. Certainly not Memned’s life.” Kayle stepped back, breathing slowly until the tension oozed
out of his body. A look of defeat settled onto his lined face. “I understand,” he said, gesturing toward the dead woman, “but
will the Council? Everything we’ve seen and heard only hangs Malia higher,
tighter. We can’t prove even now that she was a—“ *Quiet!* The Sharnn’s mental command scored across Kayle’s
mind. Then, much more gently, *Lekel will try to kill you if you call Memned a
Vintran.* *But he killed her himself! He knows she was at least the
most despicable kind of traitor, if not an enemy born and schooled.* *Lekel is Sandoliki. It is his duty to kill anyone—anyone—who
calls questions upon the Sandoliki name.* *Even when the questions are answered by irrefutable truth?* *Especially then.* *I don’t understand.* Kayle looked at Memned; her sightless
white eyes reflected a different reality. *And I don’t want to.* “She earned her death,” said Faen, guessing what lay behind
Kayle’s unwinking orange eyes. “But she died too soon!” Kayle gestured abruptly to Mim. “We
have a Council to convince, sri Mim.” Mim’s whole body registered doubt, but she stepped onto the
Access platform next to him. “They have already decided.” “Yes.” The Nendletis waited with outward patience while Faen deciphered
the hybrid controls. “Two-way,” she said, looking up. “Vintra only.” “To a major Access?” asked Kayle. “Yes.” “Praise gaimo,” muttered Kayle, “Ready!” Faen’s hand swept down and the two Nendletis vanished in a
blaze of pure blue energy. She turned and looked at Lekel. He stood unmoving,
Memned’s dead weight unnoticed in his arms, his dark eyes as unseeing as hers.
Then Faen realized that Lekel had almost loved his shadow wife. She reached out
in impulsive t’sil’ne before she remembered what it would cost. Her hand fell
to her side. “You are blessed,” Faen said gently. “You had no children to
die between your hands.” Lekel’s eyes slowly focused on Faen. “Yes. I am blessed.”
With a weary gesture he closed Memned’s white eyes. The Sharnn looked from Faen to Lekel and knew a moment of
horror when he understood the meaning of Faen’s words: Memned’s crime against
her people was so great that the punishment would not end with her; it would extend
to her blood kin of the first degree. Lekel must kill them all. Memned, her
parents, her sisters and brothers, her children. His own. “Blessed,” Lekel whispered as he kissed Memned’s eyelids,
lips and hands in ceremonial farewell. Then he let her slide away to lie floor,
a huddle of rose cloth surrounded by shades of purple. “She told me her parents
died in the war and she had neither sisters nor brothers. Doubly blessed.” The k’m’n Sandoliki stood motionless for a long moment,
drawing himself inward, concentrating on what had to be done. “Will they,” Lekel said finally, indicating the empty
platform, “be able to help Malia?” The Sharnn’s body moved in a gesture of ambivalence that
needed no words. “I see.” Lekel turned toward Faen. I have no right to ask anything
of you, Ti, but I do.” Faen waited, pale eyes unreadable, body poised as though for
battle or flight. “Find the Gint for me, Ti. His flesh is mine.” Faen looked away from Lekel to where Ryth stood, dark and
silent, waiting for something only a Sharnn could name. “The Gint’s flesh is yours,” agreed Ryth slowly, “but his answers
belong to Sharn. To me.” Lekel made a swift motion that seemed to cast away Memned’s
body, the alien Access, the twisting purple shadows. “Why?” he asked, his voice
shadowed by pain in spite of his Malian control “Why?” “No,” said Faen quickly, cutting across what could have been
a Sharnn’s answer. “Ti Lekel, I will speak with the truth of your own pulse ...
if you let me.” “You have never called me Ti.” His dark eyes searched her
face, but what he sought was not there, could never be there. He accepted her
compassion with a wisdom that was born when Memned’s neck broke beneath his
hand. “Speak as my pulse would, Ti Faen. I will not challenge the beat of
truth.” “Ryth was in her mind,” said Faen, not using Memned’s name,
for to do so would be to call her shadow. “Mindlink is a moment rarely known by
Malians, but it exists nonetheless. Do you believe my words?” Unconsciously, Lekel touched his forehead where pain had exploded
at a single look from a Sharnn. “I believe.” “The Sharnn saw her memories with her own eyes—tere and
zamay, night and wind, Creamstone and Gold.” “I believe.” “Tere leaves were the scarlet of flowing blood, zamay like
my eyes at dawn and the night wind tasted of desire.” “I believe.” “All that and more she saw, felt, tasted. But in the
crescent room, she saw only four of the thirty-nine shades of cream.” Lekel stared off into a distance that existed only in his mind.
There, memories and desires and regrets locked in painful battle. Not once did
he look at the dead woman lying at his feet, for she existed now only in his
mind and in those few of the thousand moments they had shared. “As blind as a Vintran,” Lekel whispered to himself. “She
and I together. Blind.” His eyes focused again on the living woman who had cast a living
shadow. The resemblance was so great that his throat closed around feelings he
could never acknowledge, for his dead wife was surely a Vintran. “I believe.” For many moments, only purple shadows moved, coiling and
reforming with each shift of tapestry and light. Lekel watched without seeing,
watched as though he would never see again. Then his eyes focused on the
Sharnn. “The Gint’s answers are yours, Ti. They have always been
yours, haven’t they? May they comfort you more than my answers comforted me.” “I am honored,” said the Sharnn. Lekel laughed curtly. “By a Malian without eyes?” Faen flinched and looked away from the ruins of a pride she
could have loved and once had hated and now would have to remember until she
saw his moment of death and he became a shadow whose name she could never call. The Sharnn heard her call Lekel’s name in her mind and took
one step that brought him closer to both of them. “Vintrans were Malian once,” Ryth said over Faen’s silent
cry. His eyes, strangely luminous against the shadows, compelled Lekel’s
attention, as did the cape swirling, alive with light. “What shame is there in
marrying a woman who once was a Malian?” Anger hardened the k’m’n Sandoliki’s face, then anger
drained into humility. “I’ve earned your mockery.” “I am not mocking you.” The Sharnn’s eyes were like
shattered green crystal in the thick light. “It is your guilt toward Vintrans
that makes you despise them. Vintrans are no less than Malians. Had your dead
wife been raised under this culture, this sun, she would have learned minute discriminations
among tints and tones. But she was not, did not and so you who have been
blessed count your thousand moments and despise her few. “You hate Vintrans because you know that you, too, could be
twisted and flattened into Vintra’s limited mold.” “Never! Malians are—” “No different!” The Sharnn leaned forward, poised, and his
cape hissed, underlining each word. “There is no irrevocable genetic difference
between Vintrans and Malians. They are the same!” Faen looked from one to the other, trying not to think about
the truth of Ryth’s words, for she was Malian, and the best she could feel for
Vintrans was pity. Yet she knew the Sharnn was right, there was no real difference,
none, and part of her wept for the shadow lives of all Vintrans. Lekel stood braced as though to receive more blows. He
turned to Faen almost imploringly, but there was no comfort in her pale turquoise
eyes, no shelter from the truth. She sketched a t’sil’ne phrase in the air
between them. “The Sharnn is right,” she said softly. Only Ryth sensed the cost of those four words, only he knew
of the silent tearing deep within her as she acknowledged blood kinship with a
people she loathed. Lekel had no response to her truth. He had learned too much,
too quickly, and none of it pleasing. The present had more cutting edges than a
m’vire, and the future promised worse, but the past—the past was his, always, unchanged
and unchanging, charged with the Malian imperative of darg vire. “You will lead me to the Gint, n’ies?” Faen stretched out her hand, stopped just short of touching.
“N’ies. I will lead you.” It was the only comfort she had to offer, for the k’m’n
Sandoliki had lost more today than even she could find. “N’ies, Ti Lekel.” The Sharnn’s body jerked and his hands flew to his temple.
“His hair,” grated Ryth. “Do you still have the Gint’s hair?” “Yes,” answered Faen. “Why—” “The Access. Both of you. Now!” “But—” began Lekel. The Sharnn swept both of them onto the platform. Blue energy
leaped up to meet them, surrounding them with cold light. Deep inside their bodies
something lurched once, twice, and they fell/soared for an endless instant
until the galaxy shimmered and spat them out on a distant Access platform. “Regrets, k’m’n Sandoliki,” said the Sharnn, releasing
Lekel. “We had little time.” “And you used every bit of it,” said Kayle, walking into the
room. His mahogany skin glowed richly in the pale tangerine light of an alien
sun. “You’re a hard man to reach, Sharnn. Seven mindlinked Carifil barely
dented your awareness.” He looked at Faen and Lekel disapprovingly. “Ryth
insisted that you finish your discussion/argument/realization without being disturbed.” The Sharnn smiled slightly, but his eyes were cold. “The moment
was Malian. They either understood Memned’s nature then or not at all.” He
glanced around the room, assessing its shape, the style of its furnishings,
and, most of all, the distinctive quality of its light. “Centrex.” Kayle stared at the Sharnn, wondering how Ryth could recognize
a planet he had never seen before. “And that,” Ryth added, looking at a transparent cube that
was taller than he, “must be the Carifil omnisynth.” “One of them,” agreed Kayle. “How did you know?” “There’s no other way Faen can track the Gint.” “Your logic eludes me,” sighed Kayle. “The omnisynth’s major
function is information synthesis. Its minor function is coordinating the Accesses.” “I know.” Ryth glanced around once more, then asked, “The
Council?” “Fighting Vintra’s representative. Even now, molecular fire
is poised.” Kayle looked uneasily at Lekel. “If the Council knew that both
Malian Sandolikis were off-planet—” “If the Council knew anything at all,” said Ryth coldly, “it
would not matter where the Sandolikis were.” Kayle snapped his fingers. “It would have been easier with
Memned alive. Once she admitted to them that she was—” He stopped and looked warily
at Lekel. Lekel gestured curtly. “She was Vintran.” “You knew?” hissed Kayle. “You knew and didn’t suspect that
she was undermining Malia by seeming to destroy Vintra?” “I knew nothing, then,” Lekel said with deadly quiet. “I
refused to see beyond her resemblance to Faen. I was a willing fool.” Kayle’s skepticism was plain. “Is it possible for a Malian
to make such a mistake in discrimination?” The Sharnn laughed softly. “Possible? It’s inevitable. If
you believe that every Vintran is somehow as clearly marked as gint in
sunlight, then you will certainly fail to identify Vintrans when you meet them
on Malia, without marks.” “I wish the Council believed that. But they believe Malia’s
representative and she insists that a Malian could not marry a Vintran.” “Not knowingly,” agreed the Sharnn. Kayle’s body rippled in an expressive gesture of angry
frustration. “Nor can the Council believe that a Malian can’t recognize a
Vintran?” “Would they believe me?” asked Faen. “Or Lekel?” Kayle’s eyes deepened into burnt orange. “No, sri Faen. They
assume you will say anything to survive.” Faen radiated sudden danger, like a beast crouching and
switching its tail. But her voice was uninflected and smooth. “I do not lie or cringe or lick dirty fingers for a few more
moments of life. Nor does Ti Lekel. We are Sandolikis.” “The Concord Council,” said Kayle tiredly, “won’t believe—”
He stopped, appalled at what he saw leap inside her pale eyes. “ “The Concord Council will believe whatever comforts them,”
said Ryth, touching Faen with a sliding caress that stilled the wildness behind
her eyes. “But I ... suggest ... that Malia not be destroyed before we find the
Gint.” Though the Sharnn did not say or do anything, Kayle felt suddenly
chilled. “Is that a threat?” he asked bluntly. Ryth smiled like a Sharnn and said nothing. Faen’s thin question separated the uneasy silence. “How much
time does Malia have?” Reluctantly, Kayle looked away from the Sharnn. “No one
knows. Carifil—and a few Council members—are fighting against Vintran demands.” “And losing,” Ryth added coolly. With a motion that belled his umber robes, Kayle swung back
to face the Sharnn. “Yes. Primary proscription was enforced earlier than we had
expected.” “But you’re not surprised,” said Lekel, contempt lacing his
voice. “Malia is not well liked among Concord planets.” Kayle turned so that he faced both the Sharnn and the k’m’n
Sandoliki. “If Malia had not been so closed to the Concord, you would have been
given much more tolerance. And time! It is easier to kill strangers than to
kill a people you have lived among, shared laughter and salt and children—” “Galactics,” interrupted Lekel calmly, “have no moments
worth a Malian’s time.” “A matter of opinion,” said Kayle curtly. “Only to a Galactic.” Kayle hissed his anger. “Has nothing penetrated your arrogance?
Don’t you know that—” “Enough,” said Faen coldly, remembering when purple shadows
had coiled and choked Lekel with unwanted knowledge. “By what right do you
demand a Sandoliki’s moment of humility?” “I am trying to help.” “Then get your foot off his throat!” “I never thought to live the moment,” murmured Lekel,
turning to her, “when the Sandoliki Ti Faen stood with her back to mine,
fighting my attacker.” He made a flowing gesture of gratitude that was as
graceful as his tone was bitter. “The moment was almost worth the discoveries
that preceded it, Faen. Almost.” “I regret,” said Faen softly, her voice husky with
then-futile past, “much that has happened between us, Ti Lekel.” “But,” Lekel said, without accusation, “you would change
none of it.” “I am what I am. Even now, I cannot touch you.” Lekel closed his eyes; his handsome face seemed to blur,
then settled into new planes of acceptance. “And I regret—ah, little sister,
how much I regret!—that moment when I tried to force you. Had I not driven you
off Malia—” Lekel held out his hands, palms up, mutely asking
forgiveness. Without hesitation, Faen stretched out her hands, palms down over
his, so close but not touching the warmth of his flesh. “I once blamed you for what I had become,” Faen said, “for
cutting me off from my shared Malian moments. But a Sharnn taught me that what
I became was as inevitable as dawn.” She searched Lekel’s perfect Malian face
with eyes that were ice blue in the alien light. “I will give you the Gint,
older brother. It’s all that I can give you.” Ryth felt the regret in her voice and would have touched
her, but the only touch that could have eased her sorrow was Lekel’s, and that
touch was beyond bearing. He watched her slim hands hover just over the long
fingers and hard wrists of a man she had almost hated and nearly loved. As though at an unseen signal, their hands slowly moved
apart. At the last instant, Faen allowed one fingertip to brush the pulse
beating beneath the skin of Lekel’s wrist. So great was her control that only
Ryth knew the anguish that exploded through her at the touch. Then, as though
she had done nothing extraordinary, Faen turned and spoke calmly to the Sharnn. “I’ll need maps.” Ryth indicated the tall cube with a glance. “That’s the
known galaxy in three dimensions. All you need is a guide.” “That’s not a room computer,” said Kayle dryly. “It is
incredibly complex. Five linked Carifil—” Kayle stopped, then snapped, “Have
you used an omnisynth before?” “No,” said the Sharnn. Then, smiling. “All my life.” “Sharnn is another word for impossible!” Kayle said with a
sound of disgust. “All right, pattern-man, I won’t even give you a single suggestion
about the ways to use an omnisynth.” “And you hope it scrambles my brains.” “It can’t scramble what isn’t there. When you’ve failed,
I’ll link you to the five who might be able to help you.” Ryth laughed softly. “Be ready to shut down Accesses, my
skeptical friend.” Faen waited, apparently not hearing, showing neither fear
nor anticipation in her pale eyes, merely the patience of a predator. In her
hands was the misa bag she had taken from a pocket in her turquoise robe. The
crimson bag seemed to shimmer and burn in the alien light of Centrex. She
watched, slowly turning the bag on its cord, as the Sharnn went to a small,
sharply curved alcove close to the transparent cube. The alcove walls were
translucent and absolutely flawless. Behind them was part of the omnisynth’s
machinery, only a small part, for the omnisynth ran beneath the planet’s crust
like a tideless sea. There were neither wires nor attachments in the alcove,
simply an allform chair covered by totally light-absorbent cloth. All of the
Sharnn’s contact with, and all of his control over, the omnisynth would come
from an energy net created between himself and the machine. Ryth sat in the chair and waited until it adjusted into a
semi-reclining position that did not inhibit his view of the cube. When he was
so comfortable that he no longer was aware of his body, light began seeping
into the alcove. First came the long wavelengths, colors so dark they were
heard as much as seen. Yet Kayle knew by the rapid progression through the spectrum
that the omnisynth was satisfied that Ryth’s eyes were discriminating among
colors that did not exist for any but the Malian race of man. Kayle glanced at
Faen, at her rapt face and motionless body, and he realized that she was inside
the Sharnn, seeing with his eyes ... or he with hers. Or even both, a fusion of
complements that created new abilities and insights. “They’re together, aren’t they?” said Lekel quietly. “Such a small word for what—yes, they’re together.” “That’s a moment I’ll never know.” “Not with Faen,” agreed Kayle softly. “Not with any woman.” “You have many maturities to search.” “Many maturities.” Lekel’s lips twisted in what could have
been a smile. “And no more moments.” The cube blazed with a soundless tumult of colors, colors
sleeting across all visible squares and shards of light that had no name in any
language. Kayle started for the alcove, then realized that whatever he could do
was too late. He looked from Ryth to Faen, but saw nothing on their faces,
neither agony nor pleasure nor even the least awareness that the silent
explosion of colors had been unusual. The only difference he saw was that the
Gint’s hair now was out of the silk bag and tangled between Faen’s fingers. Kayle muttered the eighteen names of a Nendleti god, and
stared intently at the cube. After many long minutes of watching colors run and
leap and pour over shapes half-melted, barely revealed, Kayle quit trying to
make sense of the omnisynth’s display. At that moment a man’s masked face shimmered in the cube.
Gint marks flashed and black-green eyes seemed to see through the universe into
a single room lit by the radiance of a Malian fused with a Sharnn. Both Lekel
and Kayle unconsciously assumed a fighting stance in response to the message in
the Gint’s restless eyes. Then the Gint faded, leaving only a nebulous glow of
gint marks and the memory of malevolence condensed into two staring eyes. Kayle could not control a primal shudder, but Lekel leaned
forward, fingers outstretched and curving, yearning for his enemy with a desire
greater than any lover’s. “Not Vintra,” said Faen, her voice oddly changed, almost doubled,
as though she spoke through two throats to make a sound like the echo of
harmony. “Not Malia. He is—” The colors in the cube pulsed and twisted, impressionistic,
suggestive, surreal, evoking desiccation and brittle cold and black sky ablaze
with a billion perfect stars. Along the side of the cube closest to the Sharnn,
numbers appeared, more densely packed than stars, each number a Concord planet
code. “Magenta sun ... like a sea lapping horizons ... sunrise at
the end of time.” Even as magenta light washed through the cube, numbers vanished,
planets whose sun was not the exact color seen by Faen/Ryth and the timeshadow
memory of the Gint. Kayle watched numbers vanish with each impression/evocation
of temperature and wind and gravity and pressure. Without looking away, he
unwrapped his re-focused psitran and smoothed it into place. When the numbers diminished
to thirty, he silently alerted the Carifil who were going to pursue the Gint
with Faen/Ryth’s unwitting help. Through Kayle’s eyes the Carifil watched,
poised, waiting for a single number to remain on the face of the omnisynth. Eight numbers. “—black ice streaked by the crushed bones of long dead animals
and sand like powdered tere in moonlight—” Seven numbers. “—small, so small, and perfect. Like silk and zamay petals
soft-slippery, growing low—” Five. “—and smelling of sunlight trapped millennia ago, a whole living
floor tight with spines—” Even as a number faded, the cube convulsed with colors. “Gone. Away. So far, agggh!” Faen jerked and staggered. “Heavy!” she groaned. “Too—” Numbers flashed, only to be lost in another convulsion of colors.
Faen muttered and forms condensed, exploded and condensed again. Kayle swore in
the hissing phrases of Nendlet. “He’s jumping all over the kerdin galaxy,” snapped Kayle in
answer to Lekel’s fierce question. “How could he know? How?” But no one answered, for the only Sharnn in the room was immersed
in the omnisynth and had not heard. “Four,” murmured Kayle. “Five.” Colors pulsed, slowed, began to condense into forms. Then
the forms shattered into yet more colors. “Six.” Kayle’s muscles bunched. “He’s got to be near his
limit.” The light in the room flared through every possible mutation
of yellow. “Seven.” And every manifestation of green. “Eight I don’t—” And blue. “Incredible!” Slowly, other colors seeped into the cube, other sensory impressions.
Lekel glanced impatiently at Kayle. “What—” “The Gint went through nine Access shifts,” interrupted
Kayle without looking away from the cube. “Now his synapses are overloaded.
He’s resting on some planet.” Lekel smiled slowly. “Soon his flesh will be mine.” “Maybe. If his recovery time is fast, he’ll jump before we
identify the planet.” “And then?” Broken rainbows bled thickly over the half-shape,
half-shadow of a man. “We wait until he clogs his synapses again—and hope we’re
faster than his recovery.” “How long?” demanded Lekel. Slowly, two dark ellipses condensed In the cube, two
black-green shapes almost like eyes. “I don’t know,” hissed Kayle impatiently. “It depends on his
strength. And theirs!” For the first time since Faen had touched him, Lekel looked
at her. His Malian glance detected fine lines of strain around her blue-white
eyes and perfect lips, but he could not see if Ryth was similarly affected; the
Sharnn was all but concealed by the radiance that twisted through the alcove.
With a last long look at Faen, Lekel turned back to the cube. “How,” said Lekel, low-voiced, “did the Gint know he was being
followed?” Irritation and strain made Kayle’s naturally husky voice
almost raw. “I don’t know. I don’t seem to know anything important, least of
all how Ryth or Faen or Ryth/Faen have turned that omnisynth into a magic window!”
Kayle made a sharp sound of frustration. “Regrets, Ti Lekel. You aren’t the
only one asking me questions.” Eyes, wholly black now, restlessly searching, sliding over
the people in the room as though they were invisible. “—hot-orange dust—and cinnamon-tasting-oily air, sticking,
rolling—” Colors jerked and ran together as the Gint made yet another
Access shift. “We think,” said Kayle slowly, sorting through the many
voices in his mind, “that the Gint has enough psi to know that he is being
followed, but not enough to know that the pursuit is mental.” “So?” “So the Gint is wearing himself out with multiple Access
shifts—” Silver bubbled up and shattered into lime triangles streaked
with ice. “—when one shift at a time, then a rest—” Pale sand with golden spheres melting into crescents that
drained into mocha .. “—would work just as well.” Like pictures snapping through a child’s learning wheel,
colors flickered and changed. “Seven,” Kayle said. “Remarkable stamina.” “He’ll wear out his reflexes.” “All the easier for us.” “I don’t want him weakened,” hissed Lekel. “I wouldn’t touch
an enemy who was less than whole.” “Don’t worry,” interrupted Kayle angrily when colors whirled
yet again. “His recovery time is as extraordinary as his stamina. By the moment
they corner him, if they corner him, the Gint will be rested and ready to fight.” What Kayle did not say was that nine Carifil would reach the
Gint first. Lekel murmured a Malian phrase and smiled. “It will be satisfying
to carve permanent gint marks on his forehead.” Reds surged, peaked and washed back in a slow fountain of
pulsing color. Drops flew away, darkened, ran into viscous pools of black, two
pools, eyes straining outwards toward an enemy sensed but never seen. “Light,” said Faen/Ryth’s voice, speaking another man’s perceptions,
“so light floating and-my-head-so-light!” A masked face appeared, blurred; neither alien backdrop nor
numbers identifying planets accompanied it. “What’s wrong?” said Lekel. “Probably his nervous system is too overloaded to respond to
anything less than an extreme environment. And what he doesn’t sense, she can’t
relay. Or,” added Kayle grudgingly, “Faen could be tiring. Or Ryth.” He stared
as though he could will the cube into focus. “No one has ever used the
omnisynth this long, or with such excruciating finesse. If only—” “Yes?” urged Lekel softly. “If only she could tolerate a mesh,” said Kayle with a harshness
that surprised Lekel. “We have Carifil who could pour strength into her. Into
them.” “She is a Sandoliki. She will endure until the enemy is
dead.” Kayle made a cutting gesture. “They both already have
endured more than either of us could guess.” “Of course,” said Lekel calmly. “They are the Sandolikis
Ti.” Suddenly, gint slashes radiated out from the center of the
cube. His tightly masked face focused into rectangles and squares dominated by
penetrating eyes. “—blue.” Colors jerked once, twice, three times; his eyes appeared
again, glazed, unable to see beyond half-open lids, the eyes of a man exhausted
or utterly mad. For long minutes there were only those eyes and spinning colors
that slowly congealed into outlines suggesting clouds or ocean waves. “Thin and dry,” Faen/Ryth said, echo of harmony, haunting.
“Moonstones and wind calling through white amber vines.” The cube became tone on tone of white and near-white, beige
and cream and sand and the Gint standing like a shadow against the pale land.
Down one face of the cube, numbers appeared, as thick as the sensations
flooding over the Gint. *—sweet-musk-and-lightning-smoke—* No numbers vanished, for even an omnisynth and a Sharnn
could not penetrate with any certainty the truth inside the Gint’s sensory
storm. The voice of Faen/Ryth became ragged, dissonance instead of harmony,
eerie and oddly moving. “Tired. Rest. Just one moment. Smell sun-smoke hurts.” Half the numbers vanished. Kayle’s breath hissed with expectation
and Lekel’s body flexed, but neither spoke, for neither wanted to miss the
words spoken by her/his frayed and lovely voice. Blue-white light sleeted through the cube as the unknown
planet’s sun appeared from behind a passing ice cloud. The Gint’s eyes winced
shut, but Faen/Ryth had already seen more than either could put into words. “Sun. So potent. To live flattened beneath that brutal light.” More numbers winked out. The face of the cube was not
crowded anymore. “And the smell of lightning over a city made of glass.” All but fifteen numbers vanished. “Sliding wind song, higher, always higher, keening while
white birds soar with black beaks open to the sky.” Thirteen numbers. “Cold and thin like high mountain air, but the glass city is
low, crouched between plain and white-rolling sea.” Six numbers. “Saffron river, rigid above and coiling below, fanning through
pale tundra and the sweet-musk-lightning smell of crushed vine, a perfume like
no other—” The cube went black as all but a single number faded. With a
ragged sigh, Faen let the Gint’s golden hair drift to the floor. As though she
were wading through syrup, she went to the alcove, where iridescent light no
longer played. She knelt and laid her forehead against Ryth’s arm. He neither
moved nor spoke. Nor did he have to; their minds were still one. Silently, Kayle demanded to know what had happened. He met a
wall of resistance that he knew could not be breached. “Sharnn!” he cried. “Do
you have him?” “Yes ...” “Where?” demanded Kayle. “Where they make the most exquisite perfume in the galaxy.” “Zamir!” The Sharnn laughed hoarsely, as though his body had
had all the humor squeezed out of it. But his voice spoke of strength returning.
“Zamir,” he agreed. Ryth and Faen flexed their bodies, restoring circulation
with the subtle rhythms of faal-hnim. To Kayle’s critical eye, it was clear
that both of them were drained by their manipulation of the omnisynth and the
timeshadow of the Gint’s mind. But even as Kayle watched, their movements
became more integrated, more fluid. “How long,” asked Kayle quietly, “before you’ll both be able
to identify the exact location of the Gint on Zamir? The Carifil tell me that
there are at least twelve personnel Accesses on the planet, as well as
excellent surface transportation. The longer we wait, the further from an
Access he can run.” The Sharnn seemed unconcerned. With no haste, he and Faen
and Lekel walked to the Access platform. While Kayle waited for them to mount,
a feeling of unease grew in him. Then he realized that they were standing together,
and he guessed the truth. “You aren’t going to let me come, are you?” Kayle asked
tightly. “No one and no thing can get off Zamir by Access,” said the
Sharnn calmly. “And only three people can get on. Regrets, Ti Kayle.” “Why?” Kayle said angrily. “Why won’t you let us help?” “You have. You will again,” said the Sharnn. “But first,
Lekel must have his moment.” “You’re insane. If Lekel should miscalculate and kill the
Gint before he talks to the Council, Malia is lost! You’re betting an entire
planet on one man’s skill.” “I know.” The Sharnn’s voice was hard. He made a gesture of
odd helplessness and said too softly, “But not the man you think.” “And you do it anyway,” hissed Kayle. “Why?” Faen turned with a suddenness that fanned her turquoise
robes. For the hundredth time, Kayle realized that she was a Malian—and even
more dangerous than that, a Sandoliki. “It is Ryth’s kirl gift to me.” Kayle stared at her, unbelieving. “A marriage present? You asked a planet for a
marriage present?” He turned back to Ryth. “I can believe the arrogance of a
Malian Sandoliki in asking, but I can’t believe the arrogance of a Sharnn in
giving! What right do you have to risk a planet as a gift?” Lekel’s voice, cool and amused, cut across the silence. “Why
should it matter to you who risks Malia? Or why? Your beloved Concord condemns
Malia to kh’vire’ni, death without honor, and you spread your hands in acceptance.
Yet when the Sandoliki Ti Ryth offers Malia kh’vire, you wail like a gutted
skavern.” Kayle’s orange eyes moved over the three of them, then centered
angrily on Ryth. “Are you sure, Sharnn? Is there a pattern in this beyond
disaster?” “There are always patterns, even beyond disaster.” But the flatness of Ryth’s voice gave Kayle no comfort. Faen
touched the Sharnn’s wrist with a delicate fingertip. “Kayle cannot understand,
laseyss. Malia is ours to risk, not the Concord’s. Ours to destroy. Ours to
create. That is the meaning of each Malian moment.” Her fingers lifted and moved in liquid t’sil’ne that almost
caressed the Malian perfection of Lekel’s body. “If I could accept your seed, Sandoliki Ti Lekel,” she said
softly, her voice resonant with echoes of ancient ritual, “I would, duty and
pleasure combined that your greatness not be lost to generations unknown.” Lekel’s face changed as he tried to conceal what her words
gave back to him. And then he smiled as though for the first time, or the last,
and Kayle stared unbelieving; he had not known that a man could be so beautiful “I release you from all duties, little sister,” said Lekel,
his voice like zamay. “All our moments are numbered, all named. When we meet
again, it will be for the first time.” Lekel’s fingers flickered through a t’sil’ne phrase that
almost touched her. The motion was too fast for Ryth to read, but not for Faen.
Though her eyes darkened, her smile matched Lekel’s in beauty. Before anyone could move, Lekel leaped onto the platform and
vanished in blue fire. Kayle made a futile motion, then accepted what he could
not change. “How will he find the Gint?” asked Kayle with a calm that
did not conceal his rage. “The Gint is waiting for him where the river joins the
white-rolling sea,” Faen said, her eyes focused inward on a shadow memory. “You warned the Gint,” said Kayle, statement rather than question. The Sharnn seemed abstracted, as though absorbed by an inner
argument. “Warned?” said the Sharnn, “Yes, a long time ago, before I
knew Faen.” “Make sense, Sharnn!” hissed Kayle. “Will the Gint run?” “He chose to fight, though he did not know it then, nor whom
he would face.” The tangible grief in Ryth’s voice only angered Kayle more.
“Spare your Sharnn tears. The Gint does not deserve them!” “Are you sure of that?” asked the Sharnn, his voice soft,
deadly. Kayle’s rage evaporated. “Teach me.” “There’s no more time.” Faen and Ryth leaped onto the platform. Just as blue energy
surged, Faen’s fingers moved in a t’sil’ne phrase that comforted Kayle, though
he did not know why or how. Zamir’s air had the keen edge of a fighting knife, but neither
Faen nor Ryth was bothered by it. Ryth’s cape protected him; her senses were so
overwhelmed by the smell of white amber vineyards that she could feel nothing
else for a moment. The Sharnn oriented himself with a glance. The solar
extraction factories glittered to his left, the ice-rimmed sea to his right,
and the vineyards all around, but for one coiling line where a yellow river
gnawed through ice to the sea. Though it was midday, the sky overhead was
blue-black with bleak stars glinting down. Faen shivered, drawing her robes more closely around her. In
the nearly monochrome landscape, she stood out like a turquoise exclamation
point. Ryth, however, was nearly invisible in his baffling Sharnn cape. The
cape stretched out, surrounding Faen and pulling her close, warming her, while
Ryth’s eyes searched. Then he saw a vivid stroke of orange along the margin of
the river. Lekel was running lightly, rapidly, though scarlet streaked his
orange shirt. “I don’t see the Gint,” said Faen, straining forward. “Did
he run from us after all?” “No,” said Ryth, remembering a twilight Vintran alley where
an invisible shadow had moved, slitting throats. “Sometimes he’s very hard to
see.” There was pain in the Sharnn’s voice, a bleakness to equal
the sky. It was as though a pattern that had begun with many possibilities had
narrowed into a single grotesque strand. Faen turned to him but though she was
standing within his arms, he was almost invisible to her. Only his eyes escaped
the muffling, changing cape, his eyes so like a Malian spring, with shadow currents
sliding deep within. “I lost,” he whispered bitterly. “I conceived too late, and
lost your planet.” With an abruptness that startled her, Ryth pulled away and
leaped off the open platform. He ran down the curving river path so quickly
that she could not close the distance between them, only keep it from growing
any greater. He did not answer her mindcalls. All around, white amber vines
writhed, taking hard light and air and ice and transforming them into a single
overwhelming perfume. The compelling smell of white amber permeated their
clothes, their skin, their flesh, as inescapable as a Malian’s revenge. Or a
Sharnn concept. A cry tore through the vines, a scream that slid up the
scale in one long ululation. Lekel’s orange shirt swung and jerked as though he
were fighting his own shadow. Faen could not see the Gint, though Lekel’s vire
cry told her the prey must be near. *Ryth—!* The urgency of her need penetrated his shields. She was too
focused on Lekel’s cry to realize that the Sharnn’s mind was raw and cold and
deadly to anyone but her; she only knew he had finally heard her. *Can we reach him in time?* she demanded. Though the Sharnn knew that Lekel would never ask for help,
he ran faster, until the neat rows of vines blurred. Ahead, Lekel spun and
leaped high, incredibly high, and his foot lashed out with lethal potential *I can’t see the Gint!* Faen’s frustrated cry went no further than her own mind
before she realized that she could not see Ryth, either, though she could hear
the staccato of his running feet. The shifting, flaring Sharnn cape perfectly
blended Ryth’s body into the writhing vines. *Can you see the Gint?* she demanded. *Sometimes,* he answered, the contact so thin that she wondered
if she had imagined it. *Show him to me,* she said, touching her knife. *Just once.* And in her thought was the knowledge and agony of Lekel’s
dying and the certainty of her own revenge. *No.* The Sharnn’s refusal shocked Faen. *His flesh is mine!* *No.* As they closed with the molten orange of Lekel’s clothes,
they could see half of the battle. Lekel’s half. A dance like wildfire in a
high wind, each surge capable of burning to the bone, but never making contact
before the invisible wind twisted away. Blood streaked Lekel’s clothes, slowed
his leaps, slurred the superb hues of his strength. Only his knife was
untouched. Unblooded. Instinctively, Faen watched the ground for unattached shadows.
She saw—or almost saw—the shadow, but knew that it would be nearly impossible
for one man to fight. And Lekel would not ask for help. Faen wondered how he had survived the uneven contest for
longer than its first instant. Unknowing, she cried encouragement to Lekel,
praising the brutal beauty of his skill. The shadow thinned, then fattened, and dust puffed up behind
Lekel. He staggered, turned with shocking speed and the pale sun burned on his
blade. He lunged, speed and grace and death, but the knife slid away. Lekel
sagged as blood poured down his body, warm and heavy and far too much. Two eyes shone darkly as the Malian and the Gint looked at
one another, killed and killer, bound in the terrible intimacy of death.
Silently Lekel slid to the frozen ground. A cold breeze parted the vines and then even the shadow vanished. But Ryth was there, bending over Lekel. “Where is the Gint!” Faen screamed. “Gone. As we agreed. Free.” Faen shuddered but did not protest; a Sandoliki keeps a bargain,
even with a gint. “What is he, Ryth?” The Sharnn’s eyes were green-black and as bleak as the grinding
sea. “I have conceived too much,” he said harshly, turning his back on her and
looking again at Lekel. The k’m’n Sandoliki was motionless beneath the red folds of
his clothes. Ryth looked at the blood congealing beneath the blue-black sky,
then he bent and picked up Lekel’s body with as much care as though the Sandoliki
could still feel pain or pleasure. When he passed Faen she reached out, but her
fingers touched only air, for she preferred the painful memory of Lekel’s
living beauty beating for just one moment beneath her fingertip. Around them white amber vines writhed silently, showering
their fragrance on substance and shadow alike. VIIIKayle looked from Faen to the Sharnn. Both had refused to
talk after their return from Zamir. Food and stimulants had restored their
strength, but the Sharnn’s eyes were darker, as though light moved less easily
through their green depths. “You lost your gamble,” Kayle said bluntly. Neither one answered. Nor was it necessary. They had
returned without the Gint’s answers. Vintra had won. Tomorrow Malia would die. Killed by a Sharnn. “You once told me,” said Kayle, staring at Ryth, “that there
were patterns even beyond disaster. Was that truth or merely a Sharnn evasion?” “It was true,” said Ryth wearily, “but Sharnn truth is not
the same as Sharnn concept.” “Then make it the same!” The Sharnn’s eyes became almost opaque with inner argument,
silent calculations that spun and leaped until all but he felt time passing on
the shadow wings of Malia’s approaching death. Suddenly the Sharnn’s whole body stretched until he stood
with legs and arms spread, fingers wide as though to grasp the impossible. The
room seemed to shift and slide, light wheeling around him, braided radiance
twisting until he stood as a still focus of spinning energies. Then he laughed, and they sensed echoes of light more beautiful
than light itself. A blink, and the room was normal, neither pouring light nor
transcendent echoes and each person again cast a shadow. Ryth spoke slowly, as though the need for urgency had
passed. “With Carifil help, how many minds can you mesh?” Kayle’s orange eyes sparked as they searched the Sharnn’s
strangely compelling face. “I don’t know,” said Kayle, his constricted voice
reflecting his bafflement at Ryth’s transformation. “Then talk to me about variables.” Kayle paused, looking into Ryth’s brilliant green eyes with
a feeling he could not describe. “Training and receptivity are the two
greatest. Given those, I could even join Faen with a Vintran.” Ryth ignored Faen’s shudder. “Good,” he murmured, and Kayle
felt absurdly pleased. Then, as though it were unimportant, the Sharnn added,
“Can Mim penetrate the Malian mindset now?” “Yes, with Carifil help. You taught us how, Sharnn, though
Memned was mostly a Vintran. What we learned enabled us to reach even you on
Malia.” Under Ryth’s calm, encouraging glance, Kayle expanded. “It’s a matter
of immense delicacy, of exquisite timing, of weaving among the intricate
rhythms, of ... of ...” Kayle stopped, spreading his hands. “There are no words
to describe it.” Ryth’s smiling lips moved and Sharnn phrases burned for an
instant behind Kayle’s eyes. “Yes,” said Kayle excitedly. “Yes! That’s exactly what happened!”
Then excitement oozed out of his voice as the phrases faded, leaving behind not
even an echo. “Just get them in the right mood, Sharnn, and I’ll mesh them.” “Hundreds?” said Ryth quietly. “Thousands? And more, many
more?” “No. Too dangerous. If we pass a certain threshold—and we
don’t know what the threshold is—we get Unity. No one can control Unity. It’s
the kind of chain reaction that is the fear of every psi.” “How is uncontrolled Unity dangerous?” “If it doesn’t disintegrate spontaneously, it bums out every
mind in the mesh.” Kayle’s eyes looked haunted. “Only a few people are unlucky
enough to survive.” Kayle’s eyes slid away from the Sharnn’s knowing gaze. The
fear of Unity was built into every psi at the level of survival reflexes, as
basic as pain. But the Sharnn was not every psi. “What are you planning, Sharnn?” asked Kayle, a curious mixture
of reluctance and excitement in his voice. “A Sharnn moment,” said Ryth softly. “The moment when we
either conceive of the impossible, or we die.” The Sharnn stood silently, waiting, as mysterious and compelling
as life itself. Faen’s fingers moved intimately, tingled with his response and
a shared moment that only a Malian could name. He smiled for her alone, but his
words were for Kayle. “We must convince the Council of what we know is true: Vintra
is sabotaging itself and blaming Malia.” “Only someone who understood—really understood—both cultures
could believe that. And,” the Nendleti added bluntly, “no one but a Malian understands
Malian culture.” “I do,” said the Sharnn. “So do you ... sometimes. So will
they. We’ll teach them, Kayle, you and I and Faen. And they will learn.” “Mindlink,” whispered Faen, guessing, disbelieving, appalled
at the very thought of such intimacy with anyone but the Sharnn. “Impossible,” said Kayle flatly. “Even with your pattern
skills, Malian culture is far too intricate to be taught in a gulp. The psi who
tried it would die raving like a zarf. Impossible.” “I have conceived it,” said the Sharnn simply. “And Faen
will help me.” Ryth leaned over her until his lips brushed hers, murmuring
Sharnn phrases that she suddenly understood. She cried out once, then his radiance
healed the pain of his words. “The sarsa,” she said slowly. Kayle’s eyes narrowed with uneasy speculation. “Teach me.” The Sharnn waited for Faen to speak, but she was lost within
herself and what he had asked her to do. “I conceived,” said Ryth hesitantly, searching for Galactic
words to equal Sharnn concept, “that the sarsa, touched by a supremely skilled
musician who has certain mental energies ... affinities with the sarsa’s
resonance spectrum and timeshadows ...” The Sharnn’s voice faded and he gestured
abruptly, frustrated by the limitations of a language that viewed reality very
differently than a Sharnn. He began again, simplifying to the point of insult. “The
sarsa can link minds, even mesh minds, below the level of awareness. It draws
energy through the link/mesh and uses that energy to create ... images. These
visual/aural/ mental resonances act as a force that meshes present minds with
the timeshadows of former minds, former ...” Ryth made an exasperated sound.
“Galactic is a very limited language,” he observed sourly. “Galactic alone is more complex than any nine languages together,”
said Kayle. “Only one language ever surpassed Galactic in complexity—the
language of the Singers.” “Did you understand anything I described?” asked the Sharnn
impatiently. “You plan to use the sarsa as an aid to linking/meshing the
untrained, probably unwilling, minds of the Council. You’re insane, of course.” Ryth shrugged, a muscular movement that was distinctively
Sharnn. “I suppose your understanding is complete enough for our purposes. Faen
will bear the brunt of the assault.” “I won’t be alone,” she said, her fingertips stroking the
sliding muscles of Ryth’s arm. “You will be with me, closer than my own blood.” “When?” said Kayle. “As soon as we can get the Council on Malia,” Ryth answered. “That will be difficult. The planet is under primary proscription.” “Tell the Council,” said Faen, “that they will hear Maran’s
Song played on the Sandoliki sarsa, Malia’s soul.” Ryth almost heard the questions hammering at Kayle, but all
the Nendleti said was, “The Carifil will convince the Council.” He fixed his
eyes on the Sharnn. “Do you know—really know—what you’re going to do to Faen?” The Sharnn’s face changed and it was as though he had never
conceived of laughter. Faen’s soft voice slid between their anger. “He has not hidden any patterns from me, Kayle. We have already
forgiven each other and ourselves. We are ready.” “To die,” sighed Kayle. His eyes brooded over Faen’s deceptively
fragile face and pale glowing eyes. “Are you sure, daughter? There is no need
for either you or Ryth to suffer and die.” When Faen finally spoke, her voice was husky with memories
and regret. “For many years I had the privilege of being Sandoliki Ti. Yet I
did nothing. I drank from Malia’s well and gave nothing in return. Not love,
not duty, not even gratitude. I owe my people a last chance, however small.” “If they knew the danger to you,” said Kayle, “if they knew
that we would allow you to survive Malia’s death, they would release you with
blessings.” “Yes. And that is why I must return to Malia.” Kayle’s eyes closed and the sense of hammering questions
ended. “As you will. It will.” When he opened his eyes and looked at Ryth, he
could not help but wonder how a man felt who asked his complement to undergo a
terrible dying. Then he saw darkness twisting deep within Sharnn eyes and
wondered no more. Kayle touched Ryth with gentle hands. “How can I help?” Ryth accepted the touch, returned it. “Teach my Sharnn curiosity
about Unity. Can the Carifil control it?” Kayle moved minutely, as though uncomfortable deep within
his mind. “Once, on a planet called Tal-Lith, Carifil ... guided ... a Unity
for a very short moment. But the people were uniquely focused. Their world was
melting around them and they thought they had seen their God.” Kayle shook off
the reservoir of Carifil memories that even now could make him shudder. “It’s
not an experience that Carifil want to repeat,” said Kayle. “But, as only the Councilors
will be involved, there’s no risk of Unity.” Faen looked at Ryth and knew ... and said nothing, for measured
against certain extinction, no risk was too great, not even Unity. The seamed face of Darg Vintra raced below the flyers. In
the lead flyer, Kayle and Mim sat silently, unmoving, appalled by the ruined
landscape and the rusty wind. “Now I believe,” said Mim, her low voice husky with unspoken
emotions. “A people who could do this could do anything.” “Vintrans were Malians once,” Faen said hollowly. Her
fingers clenched on Ryth’s thigh. “Once and always.” The thought of Vintrans still repelled Faen, an ingrained cultural
aversion nearly as strong as a survival reflex; Ryth lifted her hand and rubbed
her knuckles across his lips until her fingers relaxed. The land grimaced and bled shallow streams thick with rock
dust. Long shadow fingers crept out of blast furrows, a dark, soundless welling
that joined fingers to hands and hands to arms until the body of night
materialized over the destroyed land. In the distance, lit by the last direct light of Malia’s
incomparable sun, the ancient tere grove of the Sandoliki Estates leaped out of
darkness, a red flame burning against the blind welling of shadows. Faen leaned
forward, silver eyes drinking the silent cry of color. When the last ray faded
from the highest scarlet tree, she breathed the name of a moment. With new tranquility,
she leaned back, eyes closed, lips like two tere leaves curving around a white
flower. Neither Faen nor Ryth looked behind, where Carifil and Councilors
filled nine flyers. Since the flyers had sliced through the final high pass and
skimmed low over the face of Darg Vintra, none of the Carifil had spoken. After
seeing galaxies of silver insects glittering over blue-green zamay seas, after
being caressed by winds fragrant with desire and moist with promise, the
blasted face of Darg Vintra was shocking to the point of obscenity. While the flyers circled the living remnants of the
Sandoliki Estates, Councilors’ comments began to filter through the listener in
Ryth’s flyer. “—never believed—” “—after such beauty, too. Malia is the most beautiful—” “Did you say there was no warning before the molecular
fire?” “—died. Except for her, of course. I wonder if they were as
cold as she is, or half so beautiful. But then, all Malians are beautiful. Too
beautiful for—” “Darg Vintra? Vintra’s Revenge. It’s taken from the Malian
darg vire, meaning death vendetta. Remember her Ti Vire—” The Sharnn listened to summations of Malia and Malians, accurate
and inaccurate, but did not use his flyer’s override to comment; he wanted the
hideous contrast between Darg Vintra and Malia’s living beauty to seep into the
center of the Councilors’ minds. Only then could they begin to appreciate the
tenacious hold Malia had on the psyches of its people; only then could they
take the first minute step toward a grasp of Malian esthetics, a grasp that
would normally take several maturities—if it were possible at all. A grasp that he was going to attempt to teach them in the
space of moments. He would have help, of course. Faen and the sarsa, and Malia
itself, all her people, all of them seeing/hearing their Sandoliki sarsa. He
only hoped that Faen was correct, that the comnet built into the sarsa garden
would carry subtleties as well as tones, nuances as well as chords. And that
the Gint would hear and be held, a shadow caught in the intangible vise of
Unity. But that was only Sharnn hope. Not conception. Ryth rubbed his lips over the soft skin of Faen’s hand,
unaware that his grip had tightened. Even without that pressure she would have
known his mental unease, but other than a gentle return pressure on his lips,
she did nothing to disturb him. She knew that he had a separate peace to make,
a peace that included a shadow that he did not permit himself to name, much
less conceive, in the center of his mind. The flyer sideslipped down, down, until it was below the sudden
thrust of the Western Wall. The flyer knifed between ridges until it burst over
the tilted bench of land where Faen’s metal shelter crouched among golden
stones buffed by ages of sun and wind. The ten flyers landed as one. At the edge of the landing
site, shattered crystal made heaps of blue-black shadows that were shot through
with secret glimmerings. In the radiant twilight, a surviving crystal god
smoldered with turquoise mystery, wind-pitted eyes staring into a future that
never came. When Ryth and Faen stepped out of their flyer, the scarlet
bird called, high and sweet, piercing the gathering night. Faen paused, and her
lips shaped a flawless answer, a rising trill more haunting than twilight and
tere and shattered gods. The Sharnn bent over her, held her as though she were
twilight sliding through his fingers. Kayle led the Councilors down a path glowing with the phosphorescent
bells of blooming nightvine. The flowers’ subtle fragrance strengthened with
each step until the crushed petals underfoot were overpowering, almost narcotic;
no matter how penetrating the smell, the Councilors could not get enough of it.
Then the scent vanished, absorbed by living tere bark. The sudden change
brought both relief and regret, one of the myriad sensual paradoxes that was
the core of Malia’s unique appeal. Kayle led the Councilors into a towering
tere grove where dry leaves whispered underfoot and living leaves swept the sky
with separate fans opened against the first brittle stars. He stopped when he
reached the deserted courtyard where the sarsa waited. Wordlessly he gestured
to stone benches and gnarled tere roots carved into inviting curves. “The Ti Faen will not approach the sarsa until the third
moon rises.” The Councilors looked around the garden, eyes sliding off a
sarsa made nearly invisible by twilight. Tere leaves drifted down, still velvet
with recent life, a soft benediction with a fragrance like dawn. Though the Councilors
represented thirty-five planets ranging from the blue seas of Lirl to the fused
deserts of Verlael, each person was silenced, wordless, because no one had
words to describe the unique beauty of tere leaves and wind and twilight sliding
into night. The Councilors moved little, and then softly, as though the moment
and the night were exquisitely fragile. And then they moved not at all, for Malia could only be described
or felt in superlatives, excesses of hyperbole that finally left the mind
stunned and quiescent until another moment subsumed the first and surfeit
became wonder once more. Kayle watched them, measured their awe in their unnatural
stillness and the brilliance of their eyes. Nor did he disturb their
meditations, for he remembered his own first moments on Malia, his certainty
that he had been reborn into a world of infinite sensual possibilities. The
newness had faded with time, but not the fine edge of anticipation; that never
dulled, for Malia renewed wonder with each breath. C’Varial Ti rose, the first moon, a clear turquoise crescent
that towed behind it a second moon, a pearl half-circle whose rich glow equaled
that of the larger moon. As light from the two moons mingled and filtered
through tere leaves, the sarsa seemed to stir. Tiny glints, echoes of light,
movement unexplained yet certain, subliminal presence too tenuous to be known. As one, the Councilors turned and faced the sarsa. They
watched, unblinking, waiting for something they sensed but could not name. The third moon rose, a silver disc called C’Sarsa Ti, full
and flawless, pouring silver light down until a thousand silent facets blazed
and the sarsa split its husk of darkness. The soundless explosion of light was received by sighs of
pleasure and pain mingled. As though satisfied, the sarsa’s radiance dimmed
subtly, becoming a silent symphony in all the tones of silver. At that moment,
like a memory of a dream, the exquisite voices of tiny crystal bells chimed in
the tere grove. Faen walked into the moonlight, her feet soundless on worn
stones, her graceful body swaying just enough to make carved crystal earrings
cry softly. Kayle heard the tiny chimes and knew why she wore them, and
knowing, wept. Others wept, knowing only that the bells also cried. Ryth moved
behind the soft-ringing bells, his Sharnn cape rippling with a half-light
half-life that answered the sarsa’s gleaming silver. His fathomless Sharnn eyes
searched the courtyard, a single green glance that dismissed even as it
recognized that the enemy was not here, for he had heard chimes grieve for her
child, his child, the child who could die without knowing the moment of birth. He did not know if even Malia was worth the life of their unborn
child. Faen stopped in front of the sarsa and a pulse of light lit
her face. She stood unmoving, moonlight and sarsa glow tangled in her hair and
robes until both seemed alive with silver energy and her earrings burned with
light so pure it had no color, only presence. When she finally spoke, her voice
was an echo of that light and her earrings clashed and sparked, marking her
words. “You are not Malians, yet you will soon know Malia as few
ever have. You will know all our secrets, and the secrets of our deadly shadow,
Vintra.” The Vintran representative stirred and would have protested,
but the Sharnn looked at her and her words died unspoken. Faen’s arms lifted in a gesture almost like worship and her
fingers touched the sarsa’s shining crystal surfaces. Then fingertips sought
and found four slender m’sarsas. “In Malian, sarsa means soul, and souls always precede the
life that grows to recognize it. “This sarsa is older than the Sandoliki name we give it,
older than the Malian who named and numbered our first moment, older than the
stones worn smooth beneath your feet.” Faen breathed deeply and light shimmered. “What the sarsa gives to us, we give to it in return, and
then it returns to us In a cycle ever new, ever renewing. Each Sandoliki
creates changing yet changeless song, the echo of an individual being, an
individual soul realized in music. This song we give to the sarsa while
we live. This song the sarsa returns to our children when we die.” Ryth remembered a man’s song and a man’s shape condensing
out of moonlight. Remembering, he stirred, and the Sharnn cape curled around
his calves like liquid light. For the first time, Faen looked beyond the sarsa
to the waiting Councilors. Her eyes paused over Wys, the Vintran representative,
then moved on, searching for something she did not find. “You don’t understand, do you? Only Wys, and her
fifth-parents were Malian, once.” Tiny bells rang, fierce, impatient. “Some cultures have monuments to recall their past; some
have teachers or dreamers or machines; some even have gods. Malia has the Sandoliki
sarsa. It is the repository of Sandoliki memories, Sandoliki minds. “Tomorrow you will take all Malian lives. But tonight I will
give you Malia’s soul!” Faen’s arms dropped, sweeping the four m’sarsas across
crystal faces. Music shimmered in the clearing, complex resonances older than
tere or garden, older than sun-worn stones, ancient notes recalling the first
Sandoliki. It was a woman’s song, supple and savage with the certainty
of life. The, sound swelled, divided into separate harmonies,
children unfolding, growing and then a new song slowly consuming all others.
The longest crystal hummed with ominous resonance, dark harmonies shivered. The
clash of battle shook the sarsa and moonlight ran down long crystals like
ghostly blood. Cacophony faded into a new song, oddly thinned but still powerful:
a child, old beyond reason, strength and cunning of a savage mountain beast. Other
melodies flowed into the child’s swift rhythm and were consumed by his enormous
power. The longest crystal, the vire, shimmered vengeance and death. A
fully-grown man led lightning armies across the moonlight night. The song ended
in a crystalline shriek of agony. The vire crystal tolled the death of the
second Sandoliki ruler, then trembled into silence. High notes sighed into
separate songs, slowly forming, melody coalescing into a new generation. Ancient songs poured out, each different, each created by a
separate Sandoliki, summation of individual souls flowing in ghostly pageant. Some
songs were brief, cut off in first harmony, and for them the vire crystal
tolled and tiny crystals wept. But always there were more, sisters and
brothers, man and woman, children swelling into separate songs, fading beneath
the surer rhythms of the strongest of their generation as a new Sandoliki rose
to power and fought and lived and died while three moons arced across the outer
darkness. The songs subtly shifted range, quivered in eerie harmonics,
as Malians discovered other races could cross the darkness to new worlds, to
Malia. Concord scouts rode lightships to Malia, bringing seven more lives for
each living Malian, until children stood next to parents seven times removed. Until Malians were too many and moments were too few. A rogue Sandoliki rode a stolen lightship to other worlds
and found one, unnamed, a shadow of Malia where purple coiled and flowed. But to him, it was beautiful. But for him, it would have remained a shadow with no name. The vire crystal boomed as Malians killed each other in
endless duels, rolling thunder while crystals cried and sensuality sank into a
mire of flesh, t’sil’ne replaced by knives, too many people and too few
moments, shadow esthetics crowding out the thousand names of transcendence. Then a woman was born in a shower of perfect tones, a lilting
hope that began Maran’s Song, the forbidden song of Malia. Sandoliki Ti Maran, leader of the old race, mother of the
new, creator of a song that was known throughout the Concord for its torrential
power and exquisite nuance. Known, but not understood, for only Malians understood the
meaning of Maran’s Song, Malian secret, Malian shame, Malian flaw at the core
of perfection. Few artists could play Maran’s Song adequately on any instrument.
None but Maran had ever played it on the Sandoliki sarsa. And Maran had shared
her song only once, for all her people, an entire race focused in unknowing
Unity so that it might divide itself into substance and shadow, Malian and
Vintran, thereby saving one and perhaps the other. But the Councilors knew nothing except that for the first
time in Concord history aliens listened while the Sandoliki sarsa spoke. They
were completely caught, suspended in the space between notes as her four
m’sarsas called intricate music out of triple moonlight, each movement a sure
touch, each note a flawless aspect of the sweeping whole, Maran’s Song
cascading until their breaths sighed out unknowing and their blood surged with
Maran’s rhythms, Maran’s hopes, Maran’s triumphs, Maran living again in her
song and in them, timeshadow of her mind touching and links forming, deepening,
a mesh balanced by a Nendleti whose skill was as great as his fear. At the first breath of the Councilors’ linkage, the Sharnn
fused with Faen, saturating her mind with his presence as he saturated her
senses with his touch, protecting her from minds outside his own. He discovered more than just her mind held in the net of his
radiance. Each crystal note called another timeshadow, touched a past mind,
shadows and music and moonlight twisting, condensing, glowing woman-shape turning,
silver-eyed Maran, laughter and a timeless murmur of greeting as other shapes
shimmered, returning, called by Faen and the Sandoliki sarsa. It was then that Ryth realized that the sarsa braided
present and past, mind and timeshadow, drained a little life from one and a little
death from the other, eerie synthesis of energy and time. Maran’s Song soared on the wings of a thousand past minds,
ten thousand, and Malians again gathered in ghostly concourse, murmuring of
moments known only in legend, whispering of solutions known only in hope, addressing
everything but the name of a shadow found by a rogue Sandoliki. Maran stood and named the shadow, ignored its vices, called
each of its virtues with piercing notes, sang of uncrowded futures for all who
followed her to Vintra, moments beyond numbering, beyond naming. Half of the Malians came to her, half-Malians followed her
to half-life on a planet that contained every shade of madness known to Malian
senses. But Maran believed that a shadow could have substance, if only its name
were sung superbly, its shadow moments discovered and cherished, named, for,
once named, those moments would change perceptions until Vintra became more
real, Malia less so. Maran was almost correct, almost as great as her song. But
the new Vintrans lived too long; they remembered too well; they taught their
children too much about the planet they had left behind, the culture they could
not achieve, the perceptions that had become unattainable ... and the haunting
resonance of one thousand names, Malian moments Vintrans would never know. Maran died among the shards of her dream, pouring her life
over their merciless edges, but not enough life, not enough death, for the
shadow had been named and once named, became half-alive, half-aware, wholly craving. The vire crystal shuddered, shapes twisted, moonlight shook
with hatred as the sarsa exploded with undeclared war. Darg Vintra. Separate
songs leaped and shattered, songs truncated by the vire’s awful toll, genealogy
of song and Sandoliki death, death and hatred, hatred and black light blooming,
molecular fire and Ti Vire, Sandoliki song and death and hatred and death until
throttled screams tore each throat and the clearing felt the consuming pulse of
darg vire, hatred shared in common, Malian and Galactic alike. Too late Kayle realized that, just as Mim had learned from
the Sharnn the key to Malian mind patterns, the Sharnn had learned from her the
way to force minds into linkage. Now the Sharnn reached out in expanding concept,
sweeping up minds all over the planet, minds already focused on Maran’s Song,
Malia’s song, the song of their past and their only possible future. *Too many!*
screamed Kayle’s mind. *Too fast!* There was no response from the Sharnn’s driving mind, unless
it was the sarsa’s atonal cry as Faen’s hands jerked and m’sarsas chattered
across crystal faces. Shadows seethed. The fabric of reality tore.
Instinctively, Kayle poured himself into the dissolving mesh, mending rents
through which shadows leaped, craving. Faen steadied and the sarsa’s moonlit notes drove shadows
back, triple moonlight poured silver chords over smooth stone, harmony soaring,
binding mind to mind in triple intimacy of past and present and future. FUTURE ... ? Evolving Unity’s question echoed through the velvet night,
Unity shaped by sarsa’s clear energy, held by sarsa’s clear focus until Unity
stirred just once and Faen screamed and the scarlet bird shrieked with
Sandoliki agony as Faen withered beneath the consuming energy of Unity awakening. (Losing her.) (No!) (Let us help.) (Carifil?) (Yes.) (Take the Councilors. They blur us.) The impossible weight of Councilors vanished. The Sharnn
flexed, driving back Unity a mere fraction, a fragile margin where Faen sought
and found surcease from hammering intimacy, too many memories, too many fears,
too many hopes and lies and minds all hammering, clamorous, cacophonous in
their greed to speak and see and above all NOT DIE for they had heard crystal summation, chords of urgency and
despair and truth. Unity coalesced, still seething, becoming, controllable so
long as to focus did not falter, so long as Faen could call song on Sandoliki
crystal, guiding massed minds until she was no longer needed, or until she
broke beneath the freezing wash of intimacy, Unity. (Cold.) And Ryth stood behind her, body covering hers, fingers warm
over hands numbed by silver m’sarsas’ hum, pouring warmth into her exhausted
chill, giving her more than he had, more than he could conceive, because there
was no other choice but extinction. The Sharnn cape fanned out, licked
soundlessly against the brilliant sarsa as though seeking warmth, light, any
energy to power the driving need of two fused minds desperately warding off
Unity, for if the focus was subsumed, Unity would implode and crush all its
living minds. Sharnn cape clung, draining timeshadow energies until the sarsa
dimmed, past pouring itself into the present. The truth of sarsa music was not dimmed; it chimed unremittingly,
focusing. Maran’s Song had ended, its last chords blending into a
disintegrating Vintra, a two-dimensional race staggering toward a
three-dimensional extinction they could not understand, much less avoid. Unity listened. Its heavy center was now intelligent,
integrated, saturated. Only the edges seethed, finding and aligning new minds,
seeking completion in a dynamic process even a Sharnn could not conceive. But Ryth had conceived of the intelligent center, of living
minds able to sweep through the reservoir of knowledge held by each member to
find the solution to survival. Or at least to find what he had lost so many
years ago, on Sharn. Delicately, the Sharnn conceived of Vintra’s disasters,
disasters guided by a shadow with no name ... A clap of energy shook the clearing as Unity demanded individual
knowledge, the discovery of those minds who had conspired to kill Malia by
seeming to kill Vintra, individual acts of commission and omission that added
up to the death of a race. For Ryth/Faen knew that Memned and the Gint alone
could not have shaped Malian extinction. There must have been others, many others
who had helped, knowing or unknowing that it was toward Malia’s death they
labored. It was to find these minds that Faen had dared Unity. It was
in search of these minds that the sarsa poured out its eerie cry of hate and
betrayal ... these minds and one more, unnamed and unknown. Except to a Sharnn. Unity listened and decided. With the unflinching eye of necessity,
Unity examined each of its component minds for complicity. And found— One of Lekel’s advisors who had traded integrity for a few
tangled moments with Memned. It was he who betrayed Cy, Ninth Circle Assassin
and Lekel’s f’mi. When the compromised advisor became suspicious, Memned smiled
and touched him again, explaining that it was Vintra’s death she worked for,
Vintra’s extinction. Though the concept of extinction was anathema to Malians,
he believed her because he wanted to. And said nothing. Memned’s body servant who knew of the illegal Access, knew
Memned worked against the k’m’n Sandoliki and, knowing, did nothing, for Lekel
had refused to share a moment with her. Many guards who had many times seen Memned in Vintran
costume and looked away from her because they feared Lekel more than they loved
Malia. And more, too many more, found and weighed in a savage instant,
annihilated with a ruthlessness that appalled Carifil and Councilors alike. But
there was nothing the Carifil could do; it took all their strength and skill
just to withhold the Councilors from Unity’s consuming imperatives. Even while the last shockwaves of death quivered, Unity realized
that it had achieved only a fragment of its purpose; survival was not yet assured.
Carifil screamed against Unity’s decision, but Ryth/Faen smiled, guided, and
Unity came to Vintra like a thousand dawns, soundless and searing. For Vintrans were Malians once. And always. Now the edges of Unity were heavy, satiated, a whole people
ingested. Questioned. Now the vire crystal tolled for Vintrans, long rolling
thunder as mind after mind fractured beneath the demands of Unity. Thousands
died, each giving up a separate piece of the catechism of hatred, dream of
Malia’s death. (Enough!) But the Carifil cry went unheeded while Unity ransacked
minds, seeking an answer as whole as itself (No more!) and a retribution as complete as a Sharnn concept. COME TO ME SHADOW MAN Thousands more died, until the edges of Unity writhed, crumbling,
and shadows slithered up, muffling sarsa’s radiance, reaching for the driving
focus of Unity. The Sharnn cape thinned, surged impossibly wide, flaring
until the clearing was drenched with light. The sudden radiance left no hiding
places, even for a shadow. The Gint stood behind Faen/Ryth, limned against the darkness
of ancient tere. Faen/Ryth turned away from the sarsa to face the Gint while
Unity’s rage twisted through clearing and grove, wrenching apart light to reach
a shadow. The m’sarsas slipped and jerked in agony over the wrong crystals. The
spaces between notes became long, longer, too long, until even the vire’s
attenuated hum drained into silence. Unfocused, Unity heaved. People on two planets died
shrieking mindlessly. The Gint reeled beneath the backlash of Unity’s savagery.
His writhing cape blurred at the edges and he vanished but for dark eyes a
fraction closer to Faen/Ryth with every breath, every mindless death. Carifil demand was a scalpel among Unity’s axe blows, a
skilled slash that scored across Faen/Ryth, demanding. (Focus!) (But—Gint) (Now! Or Unity will kill you before the shadow can!) As though pulled in pieces, Faen/Ryth jerked back to the
sarsa. Ancient crystal cried arrhythmically. Then his hands covered hers and
strengths fused once more, seamlessly, a new whole. A song poured out, a song
never before heard, never played, never conceived until the moment Unity wrenched
apart light to reach a shadow. Faen’s song, sung by Sharnn and sarsa. It was not a song of rage and seeking and annihilation. It
was a song of completion, of two halves rejoined in a whole that could survive
better than either half alone. The song climbed through light and darkness and
distance alike, drenching the crumbling Unity with the timeless possibilities
of survival. The Gint clawed closer to Faen/Ryth while they poured their
energy into Unity’s flaws, filling spaces with music as the shadow came ever
closer, invisible but for black-green eyes and Ryth/Faen’s certainty that the
Gint crawled closer, for the Sharnn had conceived of everything, even death and
the shadow oozing closer to Ryth’s heels. Unity shuddered, enticed by the sarsa’s sweet chiming of Malians
and Vintrans rejoined, neither extinct, one people again, all past moments numbered
and named, meeting for the first time. Unity consummated. And two eyes sliding closer. (can you) Hand closing invisibly around a hidden knife. (no choice) Strong arms pulling a thick shadow closer. (just an instant) Killing knife’s silver smile. (yes go kill it) The Sharnn left Faen in a leap, spinning in mid-air while
his cape clung to his feet, turning away a knife’s killing smile. The knife
slashed upward, where the Sharnn would have been if he had not separated from
Faen. But even while Ryth leaped, Unity filled Faen’s margin.
Focus fractured. Faen was driven screaming to her knees and m’sarsas were
frozen in mid-stroke. The Sharnn was gone. Vanished. Like the Gint, Ryth had become a mere thickening of the air,
a subliminal sense of presence. But Ryth was even less accessible than the
Gint, for Ryth did not need eyes to see, eyes whose shine betrayed presence.
Memory and reflexes and faal-hnim became a low driving roll. His cape whipped
out, fastened onto the edge of shadow and yanked, tearing. Ryth’s knife
appeared, vivid in moonlight the instant before steel flashed beneath the edge
of the Gint’s invisibility, seeking and finding and burying its cold blade in
the center of warmth. The Gint’s scream was a thin and anguished sound echoed by
the sarsa’s atonal shriek until Faen and Ryth fused again, forcing chilled
flesh and cold crystal to create joyous song, a compelling explosion of music. With a blind reaching, Unity turned to the song, fragments
flowing together, bound by moonlight, shaped by music. For one terrible moment
Unity focused and saw/felt/knew that all survival imperatives had been met
except one. With vast gentleness, Unity dissolved. The m’sarsas slid from Faen’s numb fingers and clanged over
cold stone. She searched for warmth, for strength, for her other self, but he
was gone beyond reach of her eyes or mind. And then the Sharnn was visible, within reach, bending over
the Gint. She touched Ryth and moaned, unknowing, for the agony in his mind was
too great for anyone to bear. “Ryth!” She leaned toward him, arms reaching out, not touching.
“Ryth ...” Ryth did not hear her, for he was speaking in the spiral
phrases of Sharn poetry. And the Gint answered. The exchange took only moments, long enough for a man to
die. His outline writhed, slurring over light and darkness alike; then the Gint
lay dead inside the husk of a Sharnn cape. “Sharnn—” whispered Faen hoarsely. “It—He—Sharnn.” “Yes.” Ryth stood with the uneven motions of an old man. He glanced
down at the shadow now wholly visible, powerful even in death, black-green eyes
staring back at moonlight. The Councilors stirred, waking, saw a dead man and a
dimmed sarsa and three moons untouched by either Sharnn death or Malian
salvation. Wys walked slowly over to Faen, going around the dead man
who was the essence of Vintran hatreds. She did not give so much as a sidelong
glance to acknowledge the Sharnn who had died trying to make her people as complete
as a Sharnn concept. When Wys spoke, her voice was raw with knowledge she had
never wanted and still could not accept. “Vintra and Vintrans belong to Malia.
To you, Sandoliki Ti. I ask more mercy for my people than we would have given
to yours.” “T’mara’hki,” said Faen slowly. “Though you will never transcend
the shadow, your children might walk in three dimensions.” “My children will die on Vintra,” said Wys bitterly. “Only if you wish it. You are welcome to return to Malia.
All of you. It was your planet, once.” “But ... what is our punishment?” “Vintrans are not Malians. Do you need more punishment than
that?” Wys’s eyes darkened, but she said nothing. All Vintrans had
just enough of Malia left to appreciate and desire that which was beyond their
grasp: one thousand Malian moments, named and numbered and most of all lived.
Wys lifted her face to the triple moons and her Vintran eyes saw only grey
shapes. She breathed deeply, smelling nothing, and her skin felt only a single
texture of chill out of the eleven distinct textures of this night that any
Malian child could have named. But Wys’s mind sensed more, so much more, just beyond her
ability to grasp. With a cry she turned away from Faen’s compassionate silver
eyes. The rest of the Councilors followed Wys out of the garden,
feet soundless on worn stone. Though it was superfluous, they would return to
Centrex to pronounce Vintra’s guilt, Malia’s innocence ... and their own secret
agony that they were not Malians. As quietly as leaves, Mim and other Carifil began to gather
around the Sharnn. Each face showed lines of anger, exhaustion, and a need to
know that was greater than anything else. Silent questions pressed against the
Sharnn, questions that were both delicate and inexorable. Ryth looked up, his eyes flat and indifferent, his Sharnn body
revealing a weariness that went beyond simple exhaustion. When he looked down
again, even his Sharnn control could not mask his grief. “He was a great Sharnn,” said Ryth tonelessly. “But he conceived
only of shadows.” Ryth’s lips twisted in what could have been a smile but was
not. “Yet what a conception it was, my gint, my shadow. So nearly perfect. So
nearly complete.” Ryth looked up again, seeing nothing, no one. “He fell in
love with his conception, with Memned and her shadow life. He became captive to
Vintra’s hatreds, essence of shadow.” The Sharnn moved his hands suddenly and
his fingers gleamed blackly with his brother’s blood. “He died trying to make
shadow into substance.” Kayle walked closer, though he flinched at the possibilities
turning deep within Sharnn eyes. “Teach me,” said Kayle huskily. “There is time, now. N’ies?” The Sharnn cape snapped out like the living animal it almost
was, then subsided at a quiet thought. “N’ies,” agreed the Sharnn at last, stroking his cape,
fingertips hypersensitive, appreciative, a gesture so Malian that it made Faen
weak with desire. “Sharnn,” continued Ryth slowly, voice echoing emotions that
had no words, “Sharnn are nothing. And everything. We are what we can conceive
of being.” The cape moved over him, consoling, a sound like silk
rubbing over amber. “When the Sharnn permitted First Contact with you,” said
Ryth, “we thought that new conceptions would evolve from the new questions you
would bring. And so it was, mysteries and enigmas and tantalizing wisps of the
beyond, enough to compel generations of Sharnn.” Unconsciously, Ryth sighed, remembering the innocence of a
race that had not known what he knew now. “Malia, with its uncounted textures,
uncountable subtleties, was the most intriguing of all the new experiences
Concord brought to us. Except for the Carifil, but I had not conceived of you
then, and you do not mention yourselves in loud voices ...” “But,” said Kayle, groping to sum up the conversations
ringing in his mind, “no Malian ever went to Sharn. How did you know of Malia?” The Sharnn smiled, but there was neither light nor laughter
in the line of his lips. “Musicians,” he said succinctly. “Musicians from
Markaran. They played what they knew of Maran’s Song, what little even their
great skill could conceive. “Because music is important to the Concept of the Seventh
Dawn, my ... family ... heard the Markarans. Maran’s Song claimed us, the
mystery of a complex history half-finished, all possibilities open. Many
mutually exclusive concepts were possible, many paradoxes, many terminations.”
Ryth’s voice thinned into the bittersweet sarcasm of a Sharnn. “Maran’s Song
was a joyous enigma wriggling with paradoxes, more difficult to disentangle
than a nest of Sharnn capes.” Ryth stopped, but the silent pressure had not abated; he
would have to say it all to the final twisting word—all but the name, and that
he would not say. “We listen,” said Kayle. Faen moved closer to Ryth, still not touching the man who
had fused with her, completed her and himself and never once mentioned the
deadly Sharnn whose blood now sank between the cracks of ancient Sandoliki
stones. Her silver eyes were baffled, splintered, as though Ryth were still
beyond her reach, invisible inside his cape and alien Sharnn concepts. “He,” said Ryth, gesturing to the dead man, “saw Vintra as Malians
did, as even Vintrans did, as Maran’s Song did—shadow days and shadow places,
shadow lives and shadow faces. “He conceived only of shadows. And, inevitably, became what
he conceived. His conception eliminated possibilities, terminations, required
certain acts to complete Maran’s Song. “I conceived of a different ending. After the custom of
Sharnn, he and I ... played ... a game to test the perfection of our very different
concepts. “My concept was stronger.” The Sharnn’s apparently calm summation incensed Faen. “He
nearly destroyed Malia! You knew—and trusted no one, told no one! Not even me!” As Ryth turned to face her, his bloody hands moved in a gesture
of odd helplessness. “Why did he want Malia’s death?” Faen demanded, her silver
eyes as narrow as new moons. “Malia casts a shadow rather than being a shadow,” said
Ryth. He searched for understanding in her eyes but saw only cold silver. His
voice flattened even more and the green of his eyes drained into shadows. “He
was trapped in his own concept. He hoped that if all Malians died, Vintrans
would become real again—and so would he. Then he would be free, whole, alive.
Able to conceive once more.” “But it—the Gint—was all too real!” “To all but himself, yes.” Ryth looked at the blood congealing on his long fingers and
said nothing more. “Then he was as insane as his dead lover, Lekel’s wife,”
said Faen flatly. “Insane.” “Not by Sharnn standards. But he is surely dead.” Ryth’s
voice thinned and suddenly he showed the immense effort it took him to talk. “I
hope my brother learned that it is futile as well as foolish to conceive only
of shadows.” “Your—brother!” For the first time, Faen really looked into
the Sharnn’s eyes. She saw that they were too dark, nearly black, as though
light no longer moved through their depths. She had seen those eyes before,
shadow eyes. Their bleakness answered more questions than she had ever wanted
to ask. “I understand too much,” Faen said hoarsely. It was as though he had not heard her, as though now that he
had begun to speak he must finish. “I left Sharn because it was my ... turn ... to test my
concept. Though I could not find my brother, I knew he was out there, either
Malia or Vintra, but I did not, could not, believe that he had lost control of
his concept. That he had become part of it and I would have to kill him before
he killed a planet, a people. I refused to conceive of that. “Yet some of me knew, must have known, for I deliberately
chose to become part of my own concept.” He looked at Faen, totally, his whole
being focused in a moment of such yearning that Carifil linked to lock out
Ryth’s anguish. “I could not let Malia die, for I had found there something
even a Sharnn had never conceived.” Ryth looked away from her perfect lips hard with moonlight. “I sought the solution to my own and Malia’s problems
without knowing that my brother was the core of both.” “When did you know,” she said, her voice as colorless as
sarsa crystal. “I’ve suspected since five men died in a Vintran alley. A
Sharnn cape is almost the only way such stealth could have been achieved.
Almost.” “Pattern-man—” began Faen, her voice hard with disbelief. “Gently, daughter,” said Kayle. “Ryth’s pattern gift fails
when he is part of it. You, of all people, should know that.” Faen looked away, her face suddenly expressionless. “And
then? When did you know?” “When he lost me in the Topaz Arcade, I almost knew. The
cape again. I almost conceived. Almost, but not quite ...” Ryth looked at her
with eyes that were no longer green. “Even when I touched him, shaved his dyed
hair, I—I could not conceive of my brother trapped among shadows he had named.
Even when I knew. I. Could. Not. Conceive.” And Faen remembered her own mind reeling after touching the
Gint, a shadow, his brother, and sensing something of Ryth’s pouring radiance,
light-shot shadow shining and her mind refusing to acknowledge, to know, and
darkness exploding in welcome oblivion. Even when she woke in Ryth’s arms, she
had refused to know the impossible link between her lover and a gint. She was as willfully blind as he. In spite of her pain, Faen’s hand moved over Ryth’s bare arm
in t’sil’ne curves that spoke of realization and need. With an inarticulate
sound, the Sharnn gathered her fingertips together and held them against his
lips. Still afraid of mindtouch, he murmured against her palm. “My limitations and my brother nearly destroyed your people,
yet you don’t turn away from me.” Ryth looked at her with eyes that again
conceived of light. “I did not hope for such forgiveness.” “From a Sandoliki?” The sweet-sad irony of Faen’s laughter
rippled like his cape. “It is one of our thousand moments. T’mara’hki, the
moment when we forgive all, even ourselves ... the Malian name for unity.” Her
fingers moved within his grasp, silent pressures that spoke of everything he
had conceived and more, for she was Malian. “Your brother didn’t divide Malia
into substance and shadow, the living and the merely existing. Without that division,
the Gint would have had nothing to mould with his deadly concept.” Faen leaned toward him, unsmiling and serene, her long hair
redolent of zamay and night. “Don’t take onto yourself more than is deserved.”
Then she smiled slightly. “And I will tell you how much that is.” Faen’s hand moved, supple and warm, devastating. The Sharnn
cape opened, allowing her closer. Kayle waited for a long moment before he gave
in to Carifil pressure. “You told us that you had lost something. You found it?” “Yes,” said the Sharnn, his voice thinned in spite of Faen’s
warmth spreading through his body. His eyes lingered over the face of his dead
brother, a face that could have been his. Faen’s body moved, comforting. “It was just a game, n’ies?” Ryth said softly. “A Sharnn
game.” Then he spoke again in sinuous Sharnn words that no one but he
understood ... or wanted to. As though impelled by Sharnn curses, the Carifil silently
left the clearing. One by one they vanished into the tere grove’s rustling
intimacy. At the edge of the fragrant darkness, a Carifil stopped and turned
toward them. “I regret your brother’s death,” Kayle said haltingly. Ryth’s cape pulsed once, a wash of dull silver, then it was
as still as the windless night. “My brother died long ago, on Sharn, when he named all of
his shadows.” Kayle looked for a long moment at them, standing so close
that they were one, and hoped that one day he would understand both of them, or
either. But not now, in darkness except for triple moons and sarsa. “Breathe the white wind,” said Kayle softly, Nendleti
farewell. Then Kayle turned and walked into the grove where tere and
zamay and Carifil waited. Faen’s head moved and her earrings sang of a child still
alive within her. She pulled Ryth’s hands down, holding them against the unborn
life. “Kayle still doesn’t understand,” said Faen. Ryth’s hands moved, knowing as only a Sharnn’s could be.
“Galactics,” murmured Ryth against her neck, “believe that the universe is
beyond human conception. And Sharnn believe that the universe is shaped by human
conception.” She turned in his arms to face him, alive as only a Malian
could be. “It will be the greatest game in Sharnn memory to find out
which concept is stronger,” whispered Ryth, breath warm against her lips. “And the most dangerous?” Faen said, breath returning his
warmth. “Always.” The Sharnn cape licked out, folding around Faen with a
strength as gentle and unyielding as Ryth’s body. She moved sinuously, warmth
sliding over warmth in a seamless joining. The cape blazed with a light that cast no shadows. |
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