"McKinley, Robin - Rose Daughter v1.0" - читать интересную книгу автора (McKinley Robin)Rose Daughter Robin McKinley 1997 ISBN: 0-441-00583-7 Spell checked. “Every sentence and every occurrence seems infused by magic.
I will keep this book. I will reread it, time and again; it has earned its
place as one of my odd coterie of bedside companions.” —Fantasy & Science Fiction Books By Robin McKinley Novels And Short Stones Beauty: A Retelling Of The Story Of Beauty And The Beast The Door In The Hedge The Blue Sword A Newbery Honor Book The Hero And The Crown Winner Of The Newbery Medal Imaginary Lands Edited By Robin McKinley The Outlaws Of Sherwood Deerskin A Knot In The Grain And Other Stories Picture Books My Father Is In The Navy To Neil and Tom,
whose absurd idea it was and in memory of a
little lilac-covered cottage where I used to live Chapter 1Her earliest memory was of waking from the dream. It
was also her only clear memory of her mother. Her mother was beautiful,
dashing, the toast of the town. Her youngest daughter remembered the blur of
activity, friends and hangers-on, soothsayers and staff, the bad-tempered pet
dragon on a leash—bad-tempered on account of the oca-mnda leaves in his food,
which prevented him from producing any more fire than might occasionally singe
his wary handler, out which also upset his digestion—the constant glamour and
motion which was her mother and her mother’s world. She remembered peeping out
at her mother from around various thresholds before various nurses and
governesses (hired by her dull merchant father) snatched her away. She remembered
too, although she was too young to put it into words, the excitability, no, the
restlessness of her mother’s manner, a restlessness of a too-acute alertness in
search of something that cannot be found. But such were the brightness and
ardour of her mother’s personality that those around her also were swept up
into her search, not knowing it was a search, happy merely to be a part of such
liveliness and gaiety. The only thing that ever lingered was the sweet smell of her
mother’s perfume. Her only memory of her mother’s face was from the night she
woke from the dream for the first time, crying in terror. In the dream she had
been walking—she could barely walk yet in her waking life—toddling down a long
dark corridor, only vaguely lit by a few candles set too far into their
sconces, too high up in the walls. The shadows stretched everywhere round her,
and that was terrible enough: and the silence was almost as dreadful as the darkness.
But what was even worse was that she knew a wicked monster waited for her at
the end of the corridor. It was the wickedest monster that had ever lived, and
it was waiting just for her, and she was all alone. She was still young enough to be sleeping in a crib with
high barred sides; she remembered fastening her tiny fists round the wooden
bars, whose square edges cut into her soft palms. She remembered the dream—she
remembered crying—and she remembered her mother coming, and bending over her,
and picking her up, whispering gently in her ear, holding her against her
breast, softly stroking her back. Sitting down quietly on the nurse’s stool and
rocking her slowly till she fell asleep again. She woke in her crib in the morning, just as usual. She
asked her nurse where her mamma was; her nurse stared and did not believe her
when she tried to tell her. in the few words she was old enough to use, that
her mamma had come to her in the night when she had cried. “I’d’ve heard you if
you yelled, miss,” said the nurse stiffly, “And I slept quiet last night.” But she knew it was her mother, had to have been her mother.
She remembered the sweet smell of her perfume, and no one but her mother ever
wore that scent. Her perfume smelt of flowers, but of no flowers the little
girl ever found, neither in the dozens of overflowing vases set in nearly every
room of their tall, magnificent town house nearly every day of the year, nor
anywhere in the long scrolling curves of the flower-beds in the gardens behind
the house, nor in the straight, meticulous rows within the glasshouses and
orangeries behind the garden. She once confided to a new nurse her wish to find the flower
that had produced her mother’s scent. She was inspired to do so when the nurse
introduced herself by saying, “Hello, little one. Your daddy has told me your
name, but do you know mine? It’s Pansy, just like the flower. I bet you have
lots of pansies in your garden.” “Yes, we do,” replied the little girl politely. “And they’re
my favourite—almost. My favourite is a flower I do not know. It is the flower
that my mother’s scent comes from. I keep hoping I will find it. Perhaps you
will help me.” Pansy had laughed at her, but it was a friendly laugh. “What
a funny little thing you are,” she said. “Fancy at your age wanting to know
about perfume. You’ll be a heart-breaker in a few years, I guess.” The little girl had looked at her new nurse solemnly but had
not troubled to explain further. She could tell Pansy meant to be kind. It was
true that she had first become interested in gardens as something other than
merely places her nurses sometimes took her. in the peremptory way of
grown-ups, when she had made the connexion between perfume smells and flower
smells. But she had very soon discovered that she simply liked gardens. Her mother’s world—her mother’s house—was very exciting, but
it was also rather scary. She liked plants. They were quiet, and they stayed in
the same place, but they weren’t boring, like a lot of the things she was
supposed to be interested in were boring, such as dolls, which just lay there
unless you picked them up and did things with them (and then the chief thing
you were supposed to do with them, apparently, was to change their clothes, and
could there be anything more awfully, deadly boring than changing anyone’s
clothes any more often than one was utterly obliged to?). Plants got on with
making stems and leaves and flowers and fruit, whatever you did, and a lot of
them were nice to the touch: the slight attractive furriness of rabbit’s-ears
and Cupid’s darts, the slick waxy surfaces of camellia leaves and ivy—and lots
of them had beautiful flowers, which changed both shape and colour as they opened,
and some of them smelt interesting, even if none of them smelt like her
mother’s perfume. And then there were things like apples and grapes, which were
the best things in the world when you could break them off from the stem
yourself and eat them right there. From the nurses’ point of view, the youngest girl was the
least trouble of the three. She neither went out seeking mischief, the more
perilous the better, the way the eldest did, nor answered impertinently (and
with a vocabulary alarmingly beyond her age), the way the second did. Her one
consistent misbehaviour, tiresome enough indeed as it was, and which no amount
of punishment seemed able to break her of. was that of escaping into the garden
the moment the nurse’s eye was diverted, where she would later be found,
digging little holes and planting things—discarded toys (especially dolls),
half-eaten biscuits, dead leaves, and dry twigs—singing to herself, and
covering her white pinafores and stockings with dirt. None of the nurses ever
noticed that the twigs, were they left where she planted them, against all
probability, grew. One old gardener noticed, and because he was old and
considered rather silly, he had the time to spend making the little girl’s
acquaintance. Nurses never lasted long. Despite the care taken and the warnings
given to keep the nurses in the nurseries, eventually some accident of meeting
occurred with the merchant’s wife, and the latest nurse, immediately found to
be too slow or too dowdy or too easily bewildered to suit, was fired. When
Pansy came to say good-bye, she said, “1 have to go away. Don’t cry, lovey,
it’s just the way it is. But I wanted to tell you: it’s roses your mum’s
perfume smells of. Roses. No, you don’t have ‘em here. It’s generally only
sorcerers who can get ‘em lo grow much. The village I was born in, we had a
specially clever greenwitch, and she had one. just one, but it was heaven when
it bloomed. That’s how I know. But it takes barrels of petals to make perfume
enough to fill a bottle the size of your littlest fingertip—that’s why the
sorcerers are interested, see, I never knew a sorcerer wasn’t chiefly out to
make money—your pa’s paying a queen’s ransom for it, I can tell you that.” When the youngest daughter was five years old, her mother
died. She had bet one of her hunting friends she could leap a half-broken colt
over a farm cart. She had lost the bet and broken her neck. The colt broke both
forelegs and had to be shot. The whole city mourned, her husband and two elder daughters
most of all. The youngest one embarrassed her family at the funeral by
repeating, over and over, ‘‘Where is my mamma? Where is my mamma?” “She is too young to understand,” said the grieving friends
and acquaintances, and patted her head, and embraced the husband and the elder
girls. A well-meaning greenwitch offered the father a charm for his
youngest daughter. “She’ll work herself into a fever, poor little thing,” the
woman said, holding the little bag on its thin ribbon out to him. “You just
hang it round her neck—I’d do it myself, but it’ll work better coming from your
hands—and she’ll know her mamma’s gone, but it won’t hurl till she’s a little
more ready for it. It’ll last three, four months if you don’t let it get wet.” But the merchant knocked the small bundle out of the woman’s
hand with a cry of rage, and might have struck the greenwitch herself—despite
the bad luck invariably attendant on any violence offered any magic
practitioner—if those standing nearest had not held him back. The startled
greenwitch was hustled away, someone explaining to her in an undertone that the
merchant was a little beside himself, that grief had made him so unreasonable
that he blamed his wife’s soothsayers for not having warned her against her
last, fatal recklessness, and had for the moment turned against all magic. Even
her pet dragon had been given away. The greenwitch allowed herself to be hustled. She was a
kindly woman, but not at all grand—greenwitches rarely were—and had known the
family at all only because she had twice or three times found the youngest daughter
in a flowerbed in one of the city’s municipal parks and returned her to her
distracted nurse. She gave one little backward glance to that youngest daughter,
who was still running from one mourner to the next and saying, “Where is my
mamma? Where is my mamma?” “I don’t like to think of the little thing’s dreams,”
murmured the green witch, but her escort had brought her to the cemetery gate
and turned her loose, with some propelling force, and the greenwitch shook her
head sadly but went her own way. The night of her mother’s funeral her youngest daughter had
the dream for the second time. She was older in the dream just as she was in
life; older and taller, she spoke in complete sentences and could run without
falling down. None of this was of any use to her in the dream. The candles were
still too high overhead to cast anything but shadows; she was still all alone,
and the unseen monster waited, just for her. After that she had the dream often. At first, when she cried out for her mamma, the nurses were
sympathetic, but as the months mounted up to a year since the funeral, and no
more than a week ever passed before another midnight waking, another sobbing
cry of “Mamma! Mamma!” the nurses grew short-tempered. The little girl learnt
not to cry out. but she still had the dream. And she eluded her protectresses more often than ever and
crept out into the garden, where the old gardener (keeping a wary eye out for
the descent of a shrieking harpy from the nursery) taught her how better to
plant things, and which things to plant, and what to do to make them happy
after they were planted. She grew old enough to try to flee, and so discover that
this did her no good in the dream; it was the same dark, silent, sinister corridor,
without windows or doors, the same unknown, expectant monster, whichever way
she turned. And then she discovered she had never really tried to nm away at
all, that she was determined to follow the corridor to its end, to face the
monster. And that was the most terrifying thing of all. She wondered, as they all three grew up, if it was the dream
itself that made her so different from her sisters. They were all beautiful;
all three took after their mother. But the eldest one was as brave as she had
been, and her name was Lionheart; the second one was as clever as she had been,
and her name was Jeweltongue. The youngest was called Beauty. Beauty adopted the nerve-shattered horses, the dumbly confused
and despairing dogs that Lionheart left in her wake. She found homes for them
with quiet, timid, dull people—as well as homes for barn-loft kittens, canaries
which wouldn’t sing, parrots which wouldn’t talk, and sphinxes which curled up
into miserable little balls in the backs of their cages and refused to be
goaded into fighting. She brought cups of tea with her own hands lo wounded swains
bleeding from cries of “Coward!” and “Lackwit!” and offered her own
handkerchiefs to maidservants and costumiers found weeping in corners after
run-ins with Jeweltongue. She found tactful things to say to urgent young
playwrights who wished to be invited to Jeweltongue’s salons, and got rid of
philanthropists who wished Jeweltongue to apply her notorious acuteness—and
perhaps some of the family’s money—to schemes towards the improvement of the
general human lot. She also kept an eye on the household accounts, to make sure
that the calfbound set of modern philosophy Jeweltongue had ordered contained
all the twenty volumes she was charged for, that all twenty sets of horseshoes
the farrier included in his bill had indeed been nailed to the feet of
Lionheart’s carriage teams and hunters, and that the twenty brace of pheasant
delivered for a dinner-party were all served to their guests. On some days, when it seemed to her that everyone she met
was either angry or unhappy, she would go out into the garden and hide. She had
learned to avoid the army of gardeners, run by an ambitious head gardener who
was as forceful and dominating as any general—or rather, she had never outgrown
her child’s instinct to drop quietly out of sight when a grown-up moving a
little too purposefully was nearby. As soon as she stepped out onto the lawn,
she felt tranquillity drift down over her like a veil; and almost as though it
were a veil, or as if she had suddenly become a plant herself (a tidy,
well-shaped, well-placed plant of a desirable colour and habit, for anything
else would have drawn attention at once), she was rarely noticed by the gardeners,
hurrying this way and that with military precision, even when they passed quite
close to her. The old gardener who had been kind to her when she was small
had been pensioned off and lived in a cottage at some distance from their great
house, on the outskirts of the city, where the farmlands began and where he had
his own small garden for the first time in his long life. A few times a year
she found half a day to go visit him—once with a convalescent puppy who had
been stepped on by a carriage horse—but she missed having him in the garden. Once she arranged the flowers for one of her sisters’ bails.
This was ordinarily the housekeeper’s job. Her sisters felt that flower
arranging was a pastime for servants or stupid people; Beauty felt that flowers
belonged in the garden where they grew. But on the morning of this party the
housekeeper had fallen downstairs and sprained her ankle, and was in too much
pain to do anything but lie in a darkened room and run the legs off the maid
assigned to attend her. Beauty looked at the poor flowers standing in their buckets
of cold water, and at the array of noble vases laid out for them, and began to
arrange them, only half aware of what she was about, while her sisters were
rushing around the house shouting (in Lionheart’s case) or muttering savagely
(in Jeweltongue’s) while they attended to what should have been the
housekeeper’s other urgent duties on the day of an important party. Most of
Beauty’s mind was occupied with what the night’s events would bring; she would
much rather scrub a floor—not that she ever had scrubbed a floor, but she
assumed it would be hard, dull, unpleasant work—than attend a ball, which was
hard, dull, unpleasant work that didn’t even have a clean floor to show for it
afterwards. Neither Lionheart nor Jeweltongue at best paid much
attention to flowers, beyond the fact that one did of course have to have them,
as one had place settings for seventy-five and a butler to cherish the wine;
but when they came downstairs to have a final look at the front hall and the
dining-room, even they were astonished by what Beauty had done. “My saints!” said Lionheart. “If the conversation flags, we
can look at the flowers!” ‘ The conversation will not flag,’’ said Jeweltongue composedly,
“but that is not to say that Beauty has not done miracles,” and she patted her
sister’s shoulder absently, as one might pat a dog. “I didn’t know flowers could look like this!” roared
Lionheart, and threw up her arms as if challenging an enemy to strike at her,
and laughed. “If Miss Fuss-and-Bother could see this, perhaps it would quiet
her nerves!” Miss Fuss-and-Bother was the name Lionheart had given to die
governess least patient with the frequent necessity of fishing Beauty out of
her latest muddy haven in the garden and bringing her indoors and dumping her
in the bath. Lionheart had often been obliged to join her there after other,
more dangerous adventures of her own. But that ball was particularly successful, and her sisters
teased Beauty that it was on account of her flowers and asked if she was
keeping a greenwitch in her cupboard, who could work such charms. Beauty,
distressed, tried to prevent any of this from reaching their father’s ears, for
he would not have taken even a joke about a greenwitch in their house in good
part. The housekeeper, who did hear some of it as she hobbled around the house
on a stick, was not pleased and contrived to snub “Miss Beauty” for a fortnight
after. (She might also have denuded the garden of flowers in her efforts to
have a grander show than Beauty’s for the next party, but the head gardener was
more than a match for her.) Beauty stayed out of her way till she had moved her
ill will to another target; there was too much temper and spitefulness in the
house already, and she thought she might forget her promise to herself never to
add to it, and tell the housekeeper what a dreadful old woman she thought her. Besides, she would probably then have to hire another housekeeper
afterwards, and she could think of few things she less wanted to do. The sisters’ parties, over the course of several seasons,
became famous as the finest in the city, as fine as their mother’s had been.
Perhaps not quite so grand as the mayor’s, but perhaps more enjoyable; the
mayor’s daughters were, after all, rather plain. Only the ill-natured—especially those whose own parties were
slighted in favor of the sisters’—ever suggested that it was the work of any
hired magician. Their father’s attitude towards magic was well known. His
sudden revulsion of feeling upon his wife’s death had indeed been much talked
of; but much more surprising was its result. It was true that he was the wealthiest merchant in the city,
but that was all he was; and if he had long had what seemed, were it not absurd
to think so. an almost magical ability to seize what chance he wished when he
wished to seize it, well, seers and soothsayers were always going on about how
there was no such thing as luck, but that everyone possessed some seeds of
magic within themselves, whether or not they ever found them or nursed them
into growth. But no mere merchant, even the wealthiest merchant in the biggest
city in the country, and whatever the origins of his business luck, should have
been able to dislodge any magical practitioner who did not wish to be dislodged;
but so it was in this case. Not only were all the magicians, astrologers, and
soothsayers who had been members of his wife’s entourage thrown out of his
house—which ban was acceptably within his purview—but he saw them driven out of
the city. The sisters were forbidden to have anything to do with
magic; the two elder girls still bought small street charms occasionally, and
Beauty was good friends with the elderly salamander belonging to the retired
sorcerer who lived near them; but none of them would ever hire any practitioner
to do a personal spell. It was no surprise to anyone who paid attention to such
matters when Lionheart contracted an engagement with the Duke of Dauntless, who
owned six thousand of the finest hunting acres in the entire country, and much
else besides. Jeweltongue affianced herself to the Baron of Grandiloquence, who
was even wealthier than the Duke, and had a bigger town house. They planned a
double wedding; Beauty and the three sisters of the Duke and the four sisters
of the Baron should be bridesmaids. It would be the finest wedding of the
season, if not the century. Everyone would be there. admiring, envious, and
beautifully dressed. In all the bustle of preparations, no one, not even Beauty,
noticed that the old merchant seemed unusually preoccupied. He had hoped he could put off his business’s ruin till after
the wedding. He loved his daughters, but he felt his life had ended with his
wife’s death; he had been increasingly unable to concentrate on his business
affairs in the years since. His greatest pain as he watched the impending storm
approach was the thought that be had not been able to provide a husband for
Beauty. It was true that she was not very noticeable in the company of her
sisters, hut she should have been able to find a suitable husband among all the
young men who flocked to their house to court Lionheart and Jeweltongue. He thought of hiring a good magician or a sorcerer to throw
a few days’ hold over the worst of the wreck, but his antipathy to all things
magical since his wife’s death meant not only had he lost all his contacts in
the magical professions, but a sudden search now for a powerful practitioner
was sure to raise gossip—and suspicion. He was not at all certain he would have
been able to find one who would accept such a commission from him anyway. It
had occurred to him, as the worst of the dull oppression of grief had lifted
from his mind, to be surprised no magical practitioner had tried to win revenge
for his turning half a dozen of them out of the city; perhaps they had known it
was not necessary, The unnatural strength that had enabled him to perform that
feat had taken most of his remaining vitality—and business acumen—with it. The bills for the wedding itself he paid for in his last
days as the wealthiest merchant in the city. He would not be able to fulfill
the contracts for his daughters’ dowries, but his two elder daughters were in
themselves reward enough for any man. And her sisters would do something for
Beauty. It was ten days before the wedding when the news broke. People
were stunned. It was all anyone talked about for three days—and then the next
news came: The Duke of Dauntless and the Baron of Grandiloquence had broken off
the wedding. The messengers from their fiancйs brought the sisters’ fate
to them on small squares of thick cream-laid paper, folded and sealed with the
heavy heirloom seals of their fiancйs’ houses. Lionheart and Jeweltongue each
replied with one cold line written in her own firm hand; neither kept her
messenger waiting, By the end of that day Lionheart and Jeweltongue and Beauty
and their father were alone in their great house; not a servant remained to
them, and many had stolen valuable fittings and furniture as well, guessing
correctly that their ruined masters would not be able to order them returned,
nor punish them for theft. As the twilight lengthened in their silent sitting-room,
Jeweltongue at last stood up from her chair and began to light the lamps;
Lionheart stirred in her comer and went downstairs to the kitchens. Beauty
remained where she was, charring her father’s cold hands and fearing what the
expression on his face might mean. Later she ate what Lion-heart put in front
of her, without noticing what it was, and fed their father with a spoon, as if
he were a child. Jeweltongue settled down with the housekeeper’s book and began
to study it, making the occasional note. For the first few days they did only small, immediate
things. Lionheart took over the kitchens and cooking; Jeweltongue took over the
housekeeping. Beauty began going through the boxes of papers that had been
delivered from what had been her father’s office and dumped in a comer of one
of the drawing-rooms. Lionheart could be heard two floors away from the kitchens,
cursing and flinging things about, wielding knives and mallets like swords and
lances. Jeweltongue rarely spoke aloud, but she swept floors and beat the
laundry as pitilessly as she had ever told off an underhousemaid for not
blacking a grate sufficiently or a footman waiting at table for having a spot
on his shirtfront. Beauty read their father’s correspondence, trying to
discover the real state of their affairs and some gleam of guidance as to what
they must do next. She wrote out necessary replies, while her father mumbled
and moaned and rocked in his chair, and she held his trembling hand around the
pen that he might write his signature when she had finished. Even the garden could not soothe Beauty during that time.
She went out into it occasionally, as she might have reached for a shawl if she
were cold; but she would find herself standing nowhere she could remember
going, staring blindly at whatever was before her, her thoughts spinning and
spinning and spinning until she was dizzy with them. There were now no
gardeners to hide from, but any relief she might have found in that was
overbalanced by seeing how quickly the garden began to look shabby and neglected.
She didn’t much mind the indoors beginning to look shabby and neglected;
furniture doesn’t notice being dusty, corners don’t notice cobwebs, cushions
don’t notice being unplumped. She. told herself that plants didn’t mind going
undeadheaded and unpruned—and the weeds, of course, were much happier than
they’d ever been before. But the plants in the garden were her friends; the
house was just a building full of objects. She had little appetite and barely noticed as Lionheart’s lumpen
messes began to evolve into recognizable dishes. She had never taken a great
deal of interest in her own appearance and had minded the least of the three of
them when they put their fine clothes away, for they had agreed among
themselves that all their good things should go towards assuaging their
father’s creditors. She did not notice that Jeweltongue had an immediate gift
for invisible darns, for making a bodice out of an old counterpane, a skirt of
older curtains, and collar and cuff’s of worn linen napkins with the stained
bits cut out, and finishing with a pretty dress it was no penance to wear. Nor could she sleep at night. She felt she would welcome her
old nightmare almost as solace, so dreadful had their waking life become; but
the dream stayed away. Since her mother’s death it had never left her alone for
so long. She found herself missing it; in its absence it became one more
security that had been torn away from her, a faithful companion who had
deserted her. And it was not until now, with their lives a wreck around them,
that she realised she had forgotten what her mother’s face looked like. She
could remember remembering, she could remember the long months after her
mother’s death, waking from the dream crying, “Mamma!” and knowing what face
she hoped to see when she opened her eyes, knowing her disappointment when it
was only the nurse’s. When had she forgotten her mother’s face? Some unmarked
moment in the last several years, as childhood memories dimmed under the weight
of adult responsibilities, or only now. one more casualty of their ruin? She
did not know and could not guess. What unsettled her most of all was that her last fading wisp
of memory contained nothing of her mother’s beauty, but only kindness, kindness
and peace, a sense of safe haven. And yet the first thing anyone who had known
her mother mentioned about her was her beauty, and while she was praised for
her vitality, her wit, and her courage, far from any haven, her companionship
was a dare, a challenge, an exhilarating danger. In among her father’s papers Beauty discovered a lawyers’
copy of a will, dated in May of the year she had turned two, leaving the three
sisters the possession of the little house owned by the woman named. Beauty
puzzled over this for some time, as she knew all her father’s relatives (none
of whom wanted to know him or his daughters anymore), and knew as well that her
mother had had none; nor did she know of any connexion whatsoever to anyone or
anything so far away from the city of the sisters’ birth. But there was no easy
accounting for it. and Beauty had no time for useless mysteries. There was a lawyers’ letter with the will, dated seven years
later, saying that the old woman had disappeared soon after making the will,
and in accordance with the law, the woman had now been declared dead, and the
house was theirs. It was called Rose Cottage. It lay many weeks’ journey from
the city, and it stood alone in rough country, at a little distance from the
nearest town. Even their father’s creditors were not interested in it. She wrote to the lawyers, asking if there was any further
transaction necessary if they wished to take up residence, and received a
prompt but curt note in reply saying that the business was no longer anything
to do with them but that they supposed the house was still standing. Rose Cottage, she thought. What a romantic name. I wonder
what the woman who had it was like. I suppose it’s Like a lot of other house
names—a timid family naming theirs Dragon Villa or city folk longing for the
country calling theirs Broadmeadow. Perhaps—she almost didn’t dare finish the
thought—perhaps for us, just now, perhaps the name is a good omen. Hesitantly she told her sisters about it. Lionheart said: “I
wish to go so far away from this hateful city that no one round me even knows
its name.” Jeweltongue said: “I would not stay here a day longer than I
must, if they asked me to be mayor and my only alternative was to live in a
hole in the ground.” It was teatime. Late-afternoon light slanted in through the
long panes of their sitting-room. They no longer used any of the bigger rooms;
their present sitting-room was a small antechamber that had formerly been used
to keep not-very-welcome guests waiting long enough to let them know they were
not very welcome. In here Jeweltongue saw that the surfaces were dust-free, the
glass panes sparkling, and the cushions all plumped. But the view into the garden
showed a lawn growing shaggy, and twigs and flower stems broken by rain or wind
lay across the paths. It had been three weeks since the Duke and Baron sent
their last messages. Beauty sat staring out the window for a minute in the
silence following her sisters’ words. It was still strange to her how silent
the house was; it had never been silent before. Even very late at night, very
early in the morning, the bustle had only been subdued, not absent. Now silence
lay, cold and thick and paralysing as a heavy fall of snow. Beauty shivered,
and tucked her hands under her elbows. “I’ll tell Father, then, when he wakes.
At least something is settled. ...” Her voice tailed off. She rose stiffly to
her feet. “I have several more letters I should write tonight.” She turned to
leave. “Beauty—” Lionheart’s voice. Beauty stopped by Jeweltongue’s
chair, which was nearest the door, and turned back. “Thank you,” said her
eldest sister. Jeweltongue reached suddenly up, and grasped Beauty’s hand,
and laid the back of it against her cheek for a moment. “I don’t know what we
would be doing without you,” she said, not looking up. “I still can’t bear the
thought of.. . meeting any of the people we used to know. Every morning I
think. Today will be better—” “And it isn’t,” said Lionheart. Beauty went back to the desk in another little room she had
set up as an office. Quickly she began going through various heaps of papers,
setting a few aside. She had already rebuffed suggestions of aid from
businessmen she knew only wished to gloat and gossip; uneasily she discarded
overtures from sorcerers declaring that their affairs could yet be put right,
all assistance to be extended on credit, terms to be drawn up later upon the
return of their just prosperity. Now she drew a sheet of her father’s
writing-paper towards her, picked up a pen. and began to write an acceptance,
for herself and her sisters, of the best, which was to say the least
humiliating, offer of the several auction houses that had approached them, to
dispose of their private belongings, especially the valuable things that had
come to them from their mother, which their father had given his wife in better
days. Beauty had told no one that she was not sure even this final desperate
recourse would save their father from a debtors’ prison. And in the next few days she made time wherever she could to
visit various of the people who had adopted her animals. She learnt what she
could, in haste and distress of mind, of butter—and cheese-making from a woman
who had been a dairymaid before she married a town man, while her cat, once a
barn-loft kitten, played lag to rules of her own devising among their feet and
the legs of furniture. She learnt bottling and beer-making from an old woman
who had been a farm wife, while her ex-racing hound made a glossy, beer-coloured
hump under the kitchen table. She took the legal papers she was not sure she
understood to a man whose elegant, lame black mare had foaled all four of his
undertaker son’s best funeral carriage team. Another man, whose five cowardly
hounds bayed tremendously at any knock at the front door from a vantage point
under his bed, taught her how to harness a horse, how to check that its tack
fitted, and the rudiments of how to drive it; and a friend of his saddled up
his very fine retired hunter, the whites of whose eyes never showed anymore,
and went to the big autumn horse fair to buy her a pair of pulling horses and a
suitable waggon. She came home from these small adventures with her head
ringing with instructions and spent the evenings writing up notes, listening to
the silence, trying not to be frightened, and wondering wearily what she was
forgetting. / can teach you to remember, the elderly salamander
said to her. “Oh—oh no,” said Beauty. “Oh no, that won’t do at all. But
thank you.” Your other friends are giving you gifts, said the
salamander, gifts of things you need, things you ask them for, but sometimes
things they know to offer you. Why may not I also? “It is very kind of you,” said Beauty, “but I have no claim
on you.” You have the claim of friendship, said the
salamander. My master, since he retired, is interested only in counting his
money. I shall miss you, for you have been my friend. Let me give you something.
It will be a small something, if you prefer, something smaller than memory. ‘I would rather forget how to smoke meat and brew
beer and saw and nail if I might also begin to forget the last few weeks,” said
Beauty simply. The salamander was silent, but she saw by the flicker in its
cloudy eyes that it was thinking. Pick me up, it said at last, so that I may took
into your eyes. Beauty picked it up gently, in a hand that shook only a very
little. This is more difficult than I expected. We saltunanders
rarely give gifts, and when we do, they are rarely small. It made a faint,
dry, rattling sound Beauty recognised as salamander laughter. This will have
to do. Abruptly it opened its eyes very wide, and Beauty was
staring into two pits of fire, and when she sucked in her breath in shock, the
air tasted hot and acrid with burning. Listen to me, my friend. I give you a
small serenity. I would give you a large one, but I am uncertain of human
capacity, and I furthermore believe you would not wish it. This is a serenity
you can hold in the palms of your two hands—even smaller than I am. And
she heard the rustling laugh again, even through the thunder of the fire. / think
you may find it useful. It hooded its eyes. You may put me down. Beauty set it back down on the pillar where it spent its
days watching the townsfolk and pretending to be a garden ornament. It turned
suddenly, like the lizard it almost was, and touched her hand with its tongue.
/ did not mean to frighten you, it said, and its voice was tinny and
distant, like the last reverberation of an echo. Cup your hands and look
into them now. Beauty did so and at once felt heat, as if she held a small
glowing sun in her hands. She looked down and again saw fire, red and hot and
bottomless. “It—it doesn’t look very serene,” she quavered. Trust me, said the salamander, and curled up and
became the statue of a salamander. Chapter 2in six weeks from the day the news was first heard
that the wealthiest merchant in the city had resigned his post in disgrace, his
daughters had packed up what few goods remained to them—including himself—and
begun the long journey to their exile near a village with the outlandish name
of Longchance. Everyone knew the old man’s health had broken with the ruin
of his fortunes and that the girls were left to rescue themselves by what
devices they could themselves contrive. While no one in the city was moved to
offer them any financial assistance, there was a kind of cool ruthless pride in
them that they had risen to the challenge. Beauty’s negotiating skills had won,
or been allowed to win, by the thinnest margin, the ultimate round, and their
father was to be spared the final misery and disgrace of prison—not because she
had anything very much to offer in exchange for the old man’s meagre life but
in recognition that her determination was absolute. And there was not, after all,
any material gain to be had from letting the old man die in gaol. The price for
this benevolence was a promise that the old merchant would do business in the
city no more. It was a guarantee Beauty was happy to make for him. They escaped only just before Lionheart’s roaring ceased to
compel delivery of their groceries. None of the sisters had ever before ventured out of the city
more than a few days’ journey, and then only for some amusement at some great
country seat. The old merchant had occasionally chosen to conduct his business
in another city in person, but then he travelled by sea, always booking the
most luxurious private cabin for the journey. Now they were on the road for
weary week after weary week, with only such comforts as an ancient unsprung
farm waggon and a pokey tent could offer. They had barely been able to pay for
their place in a traders’ convoy heading in the direction they wished to go;
they would be travelling often through near wilderness, and banditry was common.
But the traders did not welcome them, and they were made quickly aware that
their leader’s agreeing to take them on was not popular with the others and
that they would receive no help if” they found it difficult to keep up. They did keep up. The merchant was ill and weak and wandered
in his wits, but the three sisters did everything, as they had done everything
since the Duke and the Baron had written a few words on two sheets of heavy,
cream-laid paper and sealed them with their seals. Lionheart was lender to
their two slow shaggy horses in a way Beauty had never seen her be tender with
her high-couraged thoroughbreds, and Jeweltongue was gentle with their father
in a way Beauty had never seen Jeweltongue be gentle with any human being less
capable than she. There was one bit of trouble early on. when one of the
traders attempted to pay rough court to Jeweltongue; she had just bitten his
hand when Lionheart hit him over the head with a horse-collar. The commotion
brought some of the others. There was a brief, tense, ugly silence, when it
might have gone either way, and then the traders decided they admired these
soft city girls for defending themselves so resolutely. They dragged then:
colleague’s unconscious body back to his own fireside, and their captain
promised there would be no more such incidents. There were not. Winter came early that year; the traders’ convoy had to take
shelter in a village barely halfway to their goal. It might yet have gone hard
for the three sisters but for Lionheart’s ability to turn three wizened turnips
into a feast for sixteen, Jeweltongue’s ability to patch holes in shirts more
hole than shirt out of a few discreet excisions from the hems, and Beauty’s
ability to say three kind words, as if at random, just before cold—and
want-shortened tempers flared into fighting. By the time of the thaw, the
traders were no longer sorry for their leader’s bargain with the ruined
merchant and his three beautiful daughters, and the fellow still bearing a knot
on the back of his head from a blow from a horse-collar had mended a
frost-cracked wheel for the sisters and refused any compensation, saying that
companions of the road took no payment from one another. The three sisters and their father went the last few miles
alone. The lawyers’ letter had described Rose Cottage as being at the end of
the last track off the main way through the woods before Longchance’s farmlands
began. The traders knew the way to Longchance well, and while none of them knew
anything of Rose Cottage, they knew which track the last one was—or what was
left of it, for it had not been used in many years. It was just wide enough to
take two small horses abreast, and just clear enough for an old farm cart
laboriously to lumber down. A surprising number of the traders came round individually to
say good-bye to their travelling companions, and several mumbled something
about maybe looking in t’see how they was doing, on the way home again. Then
the traders went on the wider way. The three sisters and the old merchant went
the narrow one. The house too was recognisable from the description in the
lawyers’ letter. Small; thatched, now badly overdue for replacement; one
storey, with a loft over half of it, the roof so peaked that the upstairs room
would be only partly usable; stone chimney on either of the narrow sides of the
house, the one on the loft side much the bigger; two small tumbledown sheds and
some bits of broken fence; and a chestnut tree growing a little distance from
the front door. The remains of an overgrown garden spilled out behind the house,
but even Beauty was too bone-weary to explore it. But the house was surprisingly tall for ils small size, and
this gave it a curious authority and a reassuring air of steadfastness. They
all sat and stared while the horses, perceiving the end of the road and a lack
of attention in the hands on their reins, dropped their heads and began to nose
through the debris of winter for anything to eat. It was earliest spring. The sky was blue, the birds sang,
the chestnut tree was putting out its first sticky leafbuds, but the low coarse
growth underfoot was malted weeds interspersed with bare muddy patches, the
brown buds crouched on drearily empty branches, and the house had obviously
been derelict for a long time. The clearing it sat in was reverting to
woodland, with opportunistic saplings springing up everywhere; there was a
bird’s-nest built into a comer of the front door and an ominous crown of ragged
twigs on one of the chimneys. The two sheds hadn’t a sound wall between them;
there was nowhere to keep the waggon or stable the horses. It was a cheerless
homecoming, Lionheart was the first to jump off the waggon, stride
forward, and throw the unlatched door of the house open, spattering herself
with shreds of broken bird’s-nest and fighting off the maleficent embraces of
the long thorny sterns of an overgrown bush just beside the door. Jewe!-tonguc
and Beauty followed her slowly; their father sat dully in the cart. Beauty’s
heart sank when Lionheart opened the door so easily; she had feared the worst when
the lawyers had sent her no key, but if the house had been open to weather and
all depredations both animal and human. . . . “No leaks,” said Lionheart, looking towards the ceiling. She
climbed the ladder and stuck her head through the trapdoor. “Nor any I can see
up here,” she said, her voice muffled. “No rubbish in the comers,” said Jeweltongue. She walked
round the one big downstairs room, touching the walls. “It’s not running with
damp. It doesn’t even smell of damp. Or of mice.” Beauty was standing in the middle of the floor, slowly
turning in ber place, half watching Jeweltongue touching the walls, half
looking round herself, thinking, It does not smell of mice, nor of damp, but it
does smell of something—I don’t know—but it’s a friendly smell—not like a
years-closed-up house. Weil, there may be horrors tomorrow—birds’-nests in the
chimneys, snakes in the cellar—but. .. And her heart lifted for die second time
since the Duke and Baron had written those final lines, and she remembered that
the first time had been when she discovered the papers saying that they still
possessed a little house called Rose Cottage. Rose Cottage. She had wanted the
name to be a good omen. Lionheart came downstairs again, and the three sisters
looked at one another. “It’s perhaps just a bit small,” said Lionheart. “But it’s ours,” said Jewehongue, and walked over to Beauty
and tucked her hand under her sister’s arm. “Those little leaded windows don’t let in much light,” said
Lionheart. “The ceiling is high enough to make the house seem bright
and airy,” said Jeweltongue. “None of our furniture will sit straight on this floor,”
said Lionheart. “None of the wisps and remnants we now call our furniture is
going to sit straight anywhere,” said Jeweltongue, “and we can invent a new
parlour-game for winter evenings, rolling pennies across the slopes.” Lionheart laughed. “There’s a baking oven,” she said,
looking at the bigger chimney. “And think of the fun I’ll have learning where
its hot spots are. The first loaves will have slopes on them like the floor.”
She looked round again, “And we’ll never be lonesome because we’ll always be
under one another’s feet. Not like—not like the last weeks in the old house.” Beauty felt Jeweltongue shudder. “No. Never like that. Never
again.” They returned outdoors. Their father had made his way down
from the waggon and was standing under the tree near the front door. “It’s a
chestnut,” he said. “I’ve always loved chestnut trees. I was a champion
conker-player when I was a boy. Chestnut trees are messy, though; they shed all
year long. Aside from the sticks little boys throw up into them to dislodge the
conkers.” And he laughed. It was the first time they had heard him laugh since
the blow fell, months ago in the city. Jeweltongue, to her infinite disgust, found she could
neither saw nor hammer straight; but Beauty could, and Lionheart learnt from
Beauty. They rehung doors, patched broken flooring, rebuilt disintegrating
shutters, filled in the gaps in the sills—mostly with planking salvaged from
the tumbledown sheds. As their shabbiest dresses grew more and more ragged,
they tied the skirts round their legs till it was almost as if they wore
trousers; they wrapped themselves up in the old silver-polishing tunics that
had once belonged to their major-domo; their hair they bound back severely, and
Lion-heart threatened to cut hers off. “Long hair is a silly fashion for ladies
who have nothing better to do with their time than pin it up and lake it down,”
she said. “I like my long hair,” said Beauty. “You have very beautiful hair,” said Lionheart. “I used to
think—before we shared a bedroom—I used to think it must shine in the dark, it
has such a glow to it. Mine is just hair.” Their father was still frail and spent most of his days and
evenings near the smaller fire, in the area which they used as their sitting-room.
His was the one comfortable chair, but none of the three sisters ever sat still
long enough to enjoy a comfortable chair—said Lionheart—so he might as well
have it, or it would be wasted. As he began to grow a little stronger, he found
a pen and a little ink and some bits of half-used paper, and began to write
things down on them, and murmur to himself. But his eyes were now more often
clear than they were not, and he recognised each of his daughters as herself
and no one else, and they began to feel hopeful of his eventual recovery—as
they had not for the long sad weary time just past—and went about their work
with lighter hearts as a result. Jeweltongue and Beauty at first were the only ones to
venture to Longchance. “We don’t all three need to go, and Father can’t,” said
Lionheart, “and you two are much better at saying the right thing to the right
person than I am—you know you are.” “What you mean is, we can come home and tell you who is going
to vex you into shouting, so you can refuse to have anything to do with them
and leave the work of it to us,” said Jeweltongue. Lionheart grinned, then sobered. “Yes, you’re right—you
nearly always are, it’s one of your greatest faults—but, you know, we can’t
afford to... to annoy anyone here. I’ll try to be polite, but when some buffoon
is yammering away at me, my mind goes blank of anything but wanting to knock
‘em down and sit on “em.” So Jeweltongue and Beauty went alone to sell their horses
and waggon, leaving Lionheart experimenting with lashing together an assortment
of short whippy poles cut from the saplings they had begun clearing from round
the house. There were still birds’-nests in one of the flues of the kitchen
chimney, which they had thus far failed in reaching from either end, although
Lionheart had managed to begrime herself thoroughly with soot, nest fragments,
and bird droppings once already, with her last lot of lashed poles. “You’ll come home to two fully functioning chimneys,” she
promised, “or I’m going to drown myself in the well. Although if I succeed. I
may inadvertently have drowned myself anyway, trying to rasp the feculence off
me again.” “Couldn’t we look for a greenwitch to sell us a charm for
the chimney?’’ said Jeweltongue, dropping her voice after a quick glance at
their father, who was chewing the end of his pen and scowling furiously at his
scrap of paper. “With what money?” said Lionheart, testing the whip-piness
of one of her poles with a muttered “‘Tis enough to try the patience of a
saint.” “You wouldn’t know,” said Jeweltongue. “A witch’s charm must
be cheaper than having your body fouling our well.” “I will take pains not to drown myself,” said Lionheart.
“Now go away before I bite you.” Jewel tongue, while her sisters had been busy with repairs
lo the house, had spent her time cutting and sewing rough but sturdy shins out
of the several bolts of material they had found slowed in the back of the
housekeeper’s wardrobe. “What in sky or on earth did she want with such stuff?”
said Lionheart on discovery. “Perhaps her secret lover is a poacher. It would make a splendid
poacher’s jacket,” said Jeweltongue. “It would make an entire regiment of poachers splendid jackets,”
said Lionheart. “Never mind,” said Jeweltongue grimly. “The auction house
won’t want the stuff: whatever it is, we get to keep it. It’ll wear like iron.
I’ll think of something to do with it.” And so it had gone into the drab heap
of bits and pieces they would take with them into exile. Jeweltongue sewed till her fingers bled from the harshness
of the fabric and the wiry strength of the thread; but the shirts (minus any
pockets useful for poaching) would be as tough as she had predicted, and in the
working community they now found themselves in, she was sure—she was almost
sure—there would be buyers for them. Lionheart was right about their little
remaining hoard of money: It would not last them their first year, and what
they still needed for the house, plus a few chickens and a goat and somewhere
to keep them, would take whatever they made on the sale of the horses and
waggon. Jeweltongue left her elder sister to her pole-lashing and
went outdoors to find her younger one waiting for her. Beauty was sitting on
the high rickety seat of the decrepit old waggon, singing to the horses, who
were obviously listening to her. “And from her heart grew a red, red rose, and
from his heart a briar. ...” “Oh dear!” said Jeweltongue. “Isn’t there something more
cheerful you could sing?” Beauty stopped and looked surprised. “It has never occurred
to me that that is not a cheerful song.” “I’ve never felt that lovers who failed to embrace while they
were alive were going to derive much joy out of plants embracing after they’re
dead,” said Jeweltongue. ‘‘Maybe you just don’t understand about plants,” said
Beauty, smiling. “No, I leave all that to you,” said Jeweltongue. “I would
rather make sailcloth shirts for the rest of my life than weed a flowerpot
once. And I have absolutely no intention of making sailcloth shirts for the
rest of my life.” She climbed lightly up the side of the farm cart and settled
herself delicately on the hard plank seat. “I shall not miss this cart in the
least,” she said. “I will miss the horses,” said Beauty a little wistfully. “Perhaps you will become fond of the goat,” said
Jeweltongue. “Or even the chickens.” “Does one ever grow fond of chickens?” said Beauty dubiously.
“Perhaps the goat.” “We will make an effort for a very nice go?.t,” said Jeweltongue. The two sisters were determined to be optimistic about their
first meeting with the local townsfolk; but clinging to optimism left them
little energy for anything else, and their conversation soon faltered. To
prevent herself from thinking too much about their last experiences of
townspeople. Beauty looked round the thinning woodland they were passing
through and silently recited: Oak. Larch. Don’t know what that is. Sycamore.
Rowan. Wild cherry. More oak. Snowdrops, aren’t they pretty! Truly spring is
coming. But when they arrived in Longchance, they discovered what
else they had won by making aged turnips into feast dishes, and warm clothes
out of rags, and cooperation from antagonism. When the traders’ convoy had
passed through, the only news of the new residents of Rose Cottage left behind
was that they were a merchant’s family, fallen on hard times. The traders had
not so much as named the three sisters and had mentioned the old merchant’s
illness as if this were the central fact about the family. Most important of
all, the traders left no sense of any mystery to be solved. The townsfolk were
inquisitive—Rose Cottage had stood empty for a long time, and Longchance was
small enough to be interested in any newcomers besides—but not agog; cautiously
friendly, not suspicious. And Longchance was a good-natured town. They gave the sisters
good advice and a good price for the horses, if not for the rickety waggon.
Beauty and Jcweltongue came home exhausted but content. They had credit to
spend at the village shops, a promise of delivery via the carter from the sawyer
and the smith, a basket of pullets peeping aggriev-edty under the shawl tucked
round them to keep them from leaping out, a bundle of fresh vegetables to enliven
their stale end-of-winter stores, and a very nice goat indeed, following them
thoughtfully on the end of a string tied round her neck. She was a silky brown
and white goat with long eyelashes around her enigmatic slot-pupilled eyes, and
the fanner’s daughter had named her Lydia and wept at parting from her. “Oh, fiddlesticks!” said Jeweltonguc, shortly after they had
turned off the main way onto the rutted little track to Rose Cottage. “I forgot
to ask about a green witch! Fiddle, fiddle, fiddlesticks. If Lionheart
hasn’t got the chimney clear, there’ll be no living with her. It’s odd, though;
I didn’t see a signboard for a greenwitch, did you? Fd’ve expected her to be in
the centre of town. Longchance is a little bigger than we expected, isn’t it?
Or more energetic, at least. I thought... well, never mind. I’m glad of it; I
like it; it has a good air. But I’d’ve guessed it might almost support a seer
or a small magician, and I didn’t see hide nor hair of any of the professions.
Well, a penny saved. And it will be much harder to sneak anything of that sort
past Father in a house the size of Rose Cottage.” But they arrived home to discover Lionheart triumphant, if a
little red from scrubbing, and two fully functional chimneys. Opring advanced. Beauty and Lionheart were relieved to find
that their awkward carpentry and inexperienced mends were holding firm and
that, so far as they could tell, there was nothing terribly wrong with their
little house. They hoped the thatch would keep the rain oul one more year; perhaps
next spring, somehow, they could find the money to have it redone. Meanwhile,
their father slept in a truckle-bed by the warm banked kitchen fire downstairs,
and the three sisters rigged a patchwork canopy—Jeweltongue took time out from
making shirts to put together scraps from her mending basket—over the mattress
they shared in the loft, so that the pattering rain of little many-1 egged
creatures falling out of the thatch did not trouble them as they slept. Beauty began to have strange, vivid dreams unlike any she
had had before. Sometimes she saw great lordly rooms like those of a palace,
though of nowhere she had ever herself been; sometimes she saw wild landscape,
most often in moon—and starlight. Sometimes she saw her family: Jeweltongue
speaking to a young man wearing a long apron, his hands covered with flour;
Lionheart, with her hair cropped off so short that the back of her neck was
bare, rubbing the ears of a horse whose nose was buried in her breast, while a
man with a kind earnest face stood leaning against the horse’s shoulder; her
father, in a fine coat, reading aloud from pages he held in his hands, to an
attentive audience. And then one night her old dream came back. She had not had
it in so long—and her life had changed so much meanwhile—she had almost
forgotten it; or rather, when she remembered it, which she occasionally did.
she thought of it as a part of her old life, gone forever. Its return was as
abrupt and terrifying as a blow from a friend, and Beauty gave a convulsive
lurch in bed, and a half-muffled shriek. and sat up as if she were throwing
herself out of deep water. “Oh, help!” said Jeweltongue, who lay next to her and was
awakened by Beauty’s violence. “My dear, whatever is the matter?” She sat up
too, and put an arm round Beauty. rubbing her own eyes with her other hand.
Beauty said nothing, and Jeweltongue began to pat her sister’s arm and back in
a desire to comfort them both. Beauty turned jerkily and put her head on her
sister’s shoulder. “Was it a bad dream?’’ said Jeweltongue. “Yes,” said Beauty. “Yes. It is a very old dream—I’ve had it
all my life—I thought it had gone—that I had left it behind in the city.” “All your life?” said Jeweltoague slowly. “You have had this
nightmare all your life and I never knew? I—” But Beauty put her hand over her sister’s mouth and said,
“Hush. We were different people in the city. It doesn’t matter now.” Jewekongue kissed her sister’s hand and then curled her own
fingers tightly round it and held it in her lap. “1 swear you must he the
nicest person ever bom. If I didn’t love you, I would hate you for it, I
think.” “Now you know how I fee! the six hundred and twelfth time in
a row you’re right about something,” said Lionheart sleepily from Jeweltongue’s
other side. “What is happening?” she said through an audible yawn, “It’s still
dark. It’s not morning already, is it, and 1 have forgotten to open my eyes?” “No,” said Jeweltongue. “Beauty’s had a nightmare,” “Nightmares are hell,” said Lionheart feelingly. “I used to
have them—” She stopped abruptly. “Not so much anymore,” she said, “except some
nights, when the beetle and spider rain is bad, I start dreaming the thatch is
leaking.” “I’m all right now.” said Beauty. “No, you’re not,” said Jeweltongue. “I can still feel your
heart shaking your whole body. Whatever is your nightmare about? Can you tell
us?’’ Beauty tried to laugh. “It sounds so silly. I’m walking down
a dark corridor, with no doors or windows anywhere, and there’s a monster
waiting for me at the far end. I can’t see it, but I know it’s there. It’s—it’s
... I suppose it’s just that I haven’t had it in so long. But it seems so—so
much stronger than it used to. I mean ... you always feel like you’re in a
nightmare when you’re having it, don’t you? Or it wouldn’t be a nightmare. But
tonight.. .just now, I was there.’’’ There was a Jittle silence, and then Lionheart sat up as if
to climb out of bed but stopped with one foot touching the floor. “If
Jeweltongue would remove herself so that she is no longer sitting on my
nightgown, I will go brew us some chamomile tea. It’s good for almost
everything; it should be good for nightmares too. You stay here so we don’t
disturb Father.1’ After that first time the dream came back often, but Beauty
did not wake her sisters again. She grew accustomed—she forced herself to grow
accustomed—to the feeling that she was there, that the only difference between
her waking life and her life in the dream was that in the dream she did not
know where she was. She looked for details in her waking life that she would not
be able to match in the dream, in some hope that such small exact trifles would
orient her so firmly to the world of Rose Cottage and Longchance that the dream
would distress her less when she found herself once again in that great dark
not-quite-empty place, but this did not turn out as she wished. If she examined
the wood grain in the walls of Rose Cottage one day, the next night she dreamed
of examining the wallpaper in the corridor in the flickering light of the
candles. If she touched the wall in reaction to the uncertainty of what she
could see, or guessed she saw, she felt the slight roughness of the paper
itself, the seams where the lengths met, and the slickness where the paint had
been drawn on over the stencil. She found that her dream had changed in another way. She had
begun to pity the monster she approached. She feared him no less for this: she did not even know why
she felt pity and grew angry with herself for it. She would rush along the
endless shadowy corridor with her head bowed and her amis crossed across her
breast, feeling grief and pity and raging at herself, Why do I feel sorry for a
monster who is going to eat me as soon as seen, like the Minotaur with his
maidens? When she woke, she remembered how, when she was still only a child,
she had realised that she did not seek to escape, but to come to the end of the
corridor and get it over with—whatever it was going to be. And she remembered
how sick and dizzy and helpless and wild—almost mad—that realisation had made
her feel. It’s only a dream, she had said to herself then, and she repeated it
now, silently, in the peaceful darkness of Rose Cottage, with the reassuring sound of her sisters’ breathing
by her side. It’s only a dream. But why do I dream of a terrible monster
waiting for me, only for me? Jeweftongue gained her first commission to make fine shirts,
for the family who held the Home Farm. “She bought two of my rough shirts for
her husband a little while ago and said at the time that the work was far too
good for farm clothes. Oh dear! It’s just what I want to believe, you see.” “Home Farm?” said Lionheart. “Maybe the squire’ll hear of
you and order a dozen brocade waistcoats.” “Oh, don’t!” said Jeweltongue. “I want it too badly. The
squire has a big family, and they like good clothing. Mrs Bestcloth has already
told me.” Mrs Bestcloth was the draper’s in Longchance. “She says they’re the
only reason Longchance even has a draper’s and that someday one of them will be
in when I am, and she’ll introduce me.” Jeweltongue buried herself in her task,
sitting by the window while daylight lasted, drawing closer to the fire as dusk
fell. Their one lamp lived at her elbow; Lionheart grumbled about cooking in
the dark, but not very loudly. All three sisters resisted the temptation to
stroke the good fabric Jeweltongue was working on and remember the old days. But Lionheart had begun to grow restless. She had thrown herself
into rebuilding the second shed to be marauder-proof, so they did not have to
bring Lydia and the chickens indoors at night—“Just before I went mad,” said Jeweltongue,
who was the one of the three of them who minded most about a clean house and
therefore did more than her fair share of the housework. Then Lionheart built
Ihem a new and magnificently weatherproof privy—“Please observe that all my
joins join,’’ she said—and finished clearing the meadow round the
cottage so it was a meadow again. Beauty had helped with both shed and privy,
but she was more and more absorbed in reclaiming the garden, which didn’t
interest Lionheart in the slightest; and Lionheart was, indeed, enjoying
herself, although her hurling her materials round and swearing at her tools
when she had not skill enough to make them do what she wanted might have led
anyone who knew her less well than her sisters to believe otherwise. But there were no more major projects to plunge into and grapple
with. Lionhcatt trimmed the encroaching undergrowth back a little from the
track that led from the main way to their cottage; but after that she was
reduced to chopping wood for their fires—and this late in the year they only
needed the one fire for cooking—and the cooking itself, which was necessarily
plain and simple and which she had furthermore grown very efficient at. “Who
wants to be indoors in spring anyway?” she muttered. “Maybe I’ll apprentice
myself to a thatcher.” One morning she disappeared. “Oh, my lords and ladies, what will she get up to?” said
Jeweltongue, but she had her sewing to attend to. Beauty spent the day in the
garden, refusing to think about anything but earth and weeds and avoiding being
torn to shreds by the queer thorny bushes which there were so many of around
Rose Cottage. Lionheart returned in time to have the last cup of tea, very
stewed, from the teapot, and to get supper. “Where have you been?” said
Jeweltongue. “Hrnm?” said Lionheart, her eyes refocusing from whatever
distant menial picture she had been contemplating. “Mrnm. Don’t you grow
awfully bored just looking at one stitch and then the next stitch and then the
next? I have been giving you something to distract you, by worrying where I
was,” replied Lionheart, but, before Jeweltongue could say anything else,
added, “Have you met our local squire yet? Or his sister? The sister is the one
you want to put yourself in the way of, I would say. She looks to be quite vain
about her dresses.” “Lionheart, you didn’t!” said Jeweltongue in alarm. “No, no, I didn’t,” said Lionheart. She dropped her voice so
their father, dozing in his chair by the fire, would not hear her. “What would
I say? ‘Good day, sir, in the old days my father wouldn’t have let you black
his boots, but now my sister would be glad of a chance to make your waistcoats?
For a good price, sir, please, sir, our roof needs rethatching’?” Lionheart’s
careless tone did not disguise her bitterness, nor did her sisters miss the
glance she gave to her hands. In the old days they had all had lady’s hands;
even the calluses Lionheart had from riding were smooth, cushioned by the
finest kid riding gloves, pumiced and lo-tioned by her maid. Lionheart raised
her eyes and met Beauty’s across the table. “I know that look,” said
Lion-heart. “What sororal sedition are you nursing behind that misleadingly
amiable stare?” “I am wondering what you thought about the squire’s sister’s
horse,” said Beauty. Lionheart laughed. “It’s the right target, but your arrow is
wide. The squire’s sister drives a pair of ponies oider and duller—although
rather belter kept—than those farm horses we brought here, and the squire
himself rides a square cobby thing suitable to his age and girth. But if you
had asked about the squire’s eldest son’s horse ...” “What?” said Jeweltongue. But Lionheart refused to be drawn.
She stood up from the table and began to bang and clatter their few pots and
pans, as if to drown out any further questions. Finally Jeweltongue said: “Have
a little care. Mrs Oldhouse says the tinker will not be here again for months.” Their father woke up, stared bemusedly at the cup of
now-cold tea sitting at his elbow, and went back to musing over his pen and
scribbles. “May I make you some fresh tea, Father?” said Lionheart, guiltily caught
mid-clash. “No. no, my dear, I am not thirsty,” he said absently; then
he looked up. “You have been away, have you not? We missed you at lunch. Have
you had an interesting day?” A smile Lionheart looked as though she would repress if she
could spread across her face. “Yes, Father, a very interesting day,” she
replied. “Stop making those absurd grimaces,” said Jeweltongue with
asperity. “You look like you have bitten down on a mouthful of alum.” Lionheart was very thoughtful for the next few days, and
while Jeweltongue tried a few times to wheedle something further out of
her—with no success whatsoever—Beauty fell that if Lionheart had decided to
tell them nothing, then nothing was what they would be told, and declined to
help wheedle. Furthermore, she was by now too preoccupied with her garden to
think long about anything else. Beauty had not realised how much she had missed spending
time in a garden, missed the smell and texture of earth, the quiet and
companionable presence of plants. It was a wonderful spring that year, day
after day of warmth and blue skies and the lightest, freshest of breezes, and
while the rain fell as often as it needed to to keep the soil moist and
workable and the streams full, it almost always fell tactfully after dark. There were a few little beds round the house—flowers only.
Beauty thought. Most of her attention was taken up by the back garden, which
was mostly vegetables and quite a substantial plot for a house so small. Here
she could more easily trace the rows and blocks of old plantings. Near the
kitchen door, for example, was an herb patch. It had been laid out in a circle,
like a wheel with spokes; but some of the wedge shapes were empty, and others
had been colonised by their neighbours. She picked leaves from the imperialists:
pungent, bitter, sharp, sweet. She knew the names of a few of them: fennel,
chervil, marjoram, mint. Beauty had walked along what remained of the boundary fence
round the back garden, thinking that her first task must be to replace it. (She
had thought even then, while Lionheart was still engaged upon rebuilding the
privy, that she would try to recruit Lionheart’s assistance for the fence,
though she would not find it so interesting, because it would help keep her out
of mischief.) Once she started planting things, she would want to keep the
chickens from scratching up her beds. Lydia was no problem: she was staked out
each morning, helping to keep the newly reclaimed meadow a meadow, and had
shown no desire—at least not yet—to slip her halter and go foraging for delicacies.
But the woods ran quite near them; deer, and who knew what else lived in the
wilds here, would eat anything the chickens missed. Except, perhaps,
strong-flavored herbs. She stooped and broke off the tip of a dead vine. It still bore small shrivelled pods of—something; Beauty wasn’t sure
what. It was odd, when she thought about it, that the garden didn’t show more
signs of the depredations of enterprising wildlife; it was no longer producing
very much, but—she rubbed the pods between her fingers—these would have been
edible the year they grew, and if they’re growing in a garden, presumably they are
edible. Beauty dropped the pods again. She had no more time now to puzzle
over useless mysteries than she had had when she had been going through her
father’s papers and discovered a will concerning Rose Cottage. If they had a successful garden, they would be able to put
up enough food that they would not have to fear the long winter. The
precariousness of their present life suddenly appeared to her as if she stood
on the brink of a literal abyss, staring into it till the impenetrable darkness
made her dizzy. She knell heavily, feeling the cool dampness seep through her
skirts to chill her knees, and scooped up a little earth in her hands,
scrabbling at it, ending up with a handful of earthworms and wild violet roots
for her pains. But it made her laugh—weeding with her fingernails—and the real
weight of the earth comforted her. A confused earthworm thrust a translucent
pink front end (or possibly rear; it was difficult to tell with earthworms) out
of her handful. She knew this garden would do its best for her. It didn’t
matter how she knew. There were still cabbages growing, here and there, in
erratic little clumps,, and those might be bean shoots, and those, piranthus
squash. And now. here, this was truly the end. Beauty broke off a bit of the
old fence, woven like matting, and it crumbled in her hands. She sighed and stood still. If they were going to have food
from the garden this year, she had to get busy. She should already be busy.
Next market-day she would ask Jeweltongue to bring her seed—perhaps she should
go herself and ask what grew most easily here—oh, but she shouldn’t waste a
day; in weather like this the farmers’ crops would already be shooting, and she
hadn’t even cleared her ground. She should be able to rig up some kind of scarecrow
till she figured out what to do about fencing; clothing suitable for scarecrows
was perhaps the only thing they had plenty of. There was something plucking at the boundary of her
attention. She looked down at the fence shreds in her hand. They looked like
nothing at all and smelt both damp and dusty, but... She shook them in her palm
and then poked them with a finger. A thread separated itself from the
miscellany: a green thread. She picked it up in her free hand and held it under
her nose. It smelt neither damp nor dusty; it smelt... No, she couldn’t say
what it smelt of, hut for a moment she saw, as if she were dreaming it, a
meadow surrounded by a wood, and in it fawn-coloured cows grazed, and the
shadows from the trees fell strangely, some of them, for they seemed to be
silver rather than dark. Her head cleared, and she looked at the bit of green thread
again. Greenwitch charms. There was a greenwitch in Long-chance after all, and
she had sold garden charms to whoever had lived in Rose Cottage before them.
Charms strong enough to be working more than fifteen years after they had been
pur into place. That was more like sorcerer’s work, but no sorcerer would sloop
to making garden charms, certainly not for anyone living in a place like Rose
Cottage. Beauty had already remarked that she’d never seen a chicken in the
back garden but had put it down to being still too unsettled by her new life to
notice everything that was happening round her—even the things she meant to
look out for. Perhaps—perhaps if she took down and buried the remains of
the old fence very carefully where it stood (and before it finished falling
down of its own initiative; obviously the charms had included no longevity
spell for lathe and reed), some of the old charm would persist. Whoever the
unknown greenwitch was, if she was this good, Beauty couldn’t possibly pay her
for new charms. She put the bit of string in her pocket. She felt curiously
reluctant to say anything about her discovery to her sisters. Perhaps it was
only her father’s familiar ban on all magic in their family that made her so
uneasy, made her feel that even her brief vision, with its unmistakable whiff
of magic, was a meddling in things too big for her. What did cows in a field
have to do with a garden charm? Never mind. But if bits of green string would
help to keep her garden whole, she would treat them politely. And she would as
well put up a scarecrow and start at once on a new fence. She had been staring at the musty little slivers of matting
left in her hand and dropped them in relief. When she looked up again, she let
her gaze wander down the length of the garden and was immediately distracted by
her favourite mystery, the one she couldn’t ignore, whether she had time for it
or not. This one was, after all, quite an intrusive mystery. She wanted—she
longed—to know what the deadly thomed shrubs that grew all over this garden
were. Lionheart. after her first few encounters with the
dagger-furred ogre standing guardian by the front door (it was inevitably Lionheart
who, flinging herself through the door at speed, had caught a superficial blow
of the thorny branches across the forehead and come in with blood sheeting down
her face), had wanted to have it and all its fellows out, as part of meadow
clearance and garden ground preparation, and had offered herself ‘‘as the blood
sacrifice,” she said. “You can bury my flayed body under the doorstone to bring
yourselves luck afterwards.” “Having failed to drown yourself in our well a few weeks
ago?” enquired Jeweltongue. “You are such a life profligate. You’ll be offering
next to hurl yourself off the roof for—for—it escapes me what for, but I’m sure
you’ll think of something.” Beauty, who was the acknowledged gardener in the family, had
declined this dubiously advantageous offer although she had immediately tied
the chief offender firmly away from the front door and lopped off what couldn’t
be tied. She had already cut a hole in the truly astonishing climbing
thorn-bush by the kitchen door. This had sent out so many long, uninhibited
stems that it was now rioting over the entire rear wall of the house, nailing
the kitchen door shut in the process as uncompromisingly as any carpenter could
do it. It had climbed well up onto the roof also, no doubt considerably to the
detriment of the thatch it clung to, and had begun to curl itself round the
kitchen chimney. Not even the fact that this chimney was now in regular use
again seemed to discourage it. Even Jeweltongue felt that Lionheart had the right idea, if
a little overexuberantly expressed, but Beauty said, “No. They were planted;
it’s obvious they were planted deliberately. There must be a reason for them. I
want to know what it is.” After lhat she had to stand by her decision, but she
nonetheless wondered if the game could possibly prove worth the candle. Tied-in
stems of these whatever-they-were had a habit of working themselves loose, or
suddenly growing an extra half league, or turning themselves round where they
stood (Beauty knew that this was really only any plant’s desire to lean towards
the sun. but quite often it seemed a malign strategy) and grasping at
passersby. There was also, at each of the house’s four corners, a lower,
rounder shrub with the same flexible stems covered with thorns. These were
almost more dangerous than the climbers, because they were as wide as they were
tail, and their arching branches seemed to lie in wait for the unwary, suddenly
uncoiling themselves from round corners to ensnare their victim. And in the very centre of the big back garden, where the
lengthwise central path met a shorter path running crosswise, there was another
circular bed, like the herb wheel, only much larger, and here grew more bushes
like those round the house, with long wicked stems studded with knife points.
While the herbs had merely colonised across their spoke boundaries, these
bushes had thrown an impassable network of bristling stems higher than a man’s
head in all directions, sprawling, manticore-tailed, across the paths round
them as well, so that forcing them back to within their original bounds had
been Beauty’s first necessary operation for reclaiming that part of the garden
for other, more useful purposes. There was a statue at the heart of that great shapeless,
impenetrable morass, but it was so caught round with spiny stems (and rank
weeds bold enough to make their way through) Beauty had not a notion of what it
might be. The stiletto bushes round the house were leafing out, big
dark green leaves and surprising deep maroon ones. Many of the bushes in the
centre wheel looked dead, their long, perversely floppy branches grey-green,
almost furred, and nearly leafless. Some of them had the tiniest leafbuds showing,
as if they were not sure of their welcome (that’s true enough, thought Beauty).
These in the centre bed were covered with the longest, toothiest thorns (many
of them hooked like fangs, for greater purchase) of anything in the whole
well-armed battalion. Beauty looked at them musingly every time .she went into
the garden. All the thom-bushes were ugly, but these were the ugliest. But it was this crazy tangle of them at the very centre of
the garden which told her—even more clearly than the pernicious presence of
their cousins by both doors of the house—just how loved these awful plants must
have been. Very well, she would keep them—for this year. Chapter 3About three weeks after Lionheart’s first disappearance, she
disappeared again. She had gone into town a few times by herself
meanwhile—always on some errand, carefully agreed upon beforehand—and had come
home in each case looking frustrated, or amused, or pleased, in a manner that
did not seem to relate to the errands she was ostensibly accomplishing. She
came home sullen and discouraged the day she successfully arranged for a local
farmer to deliver some of last year’s manure-heap for Beauty’s garden, and yet
was jubilant and exhilarated the day she failed to find a suitable shaft to
replace the handle of her favourite hammer, the accident that broke it having
put her in a foul temper for the entire day. Neither Jeweltongue nor Beauty saw Lionheart leave, but both
saw her return. They had not immediately recognised her. A very handsome young
man had burst into the house at early twilight, with the light behind him, and
they had stared up in alarm at the intrusion. Lionheart looked at their
frightened faces, and laughed, and pulled her hat off so they could see her
face clearly; but her hair was gone, chopped raggedly across the forehead and
up the back of the head as if she had sawn at it with a pocket-knife. And she
was wear— ing breeches and a man’s shirt and waistcoat. Her sisters were speechless. Beauty, after a moment, recognised
the clothing as having belonged to one of their stablelads, which had thus far
survived being turned to one of Jeweltongue’s purposes, but that did not
explain what Lionheart was doing pretending to be a boy. “I have a job,” she said, and laughed again, and tossed her
head, and her fine hair stood out round her face like a halo. “They think I’m a
young man, you see—well, they have to: I’m the new stable-hand. At Oak Hal!.
But I won’t be in the muck-heap long because I made them dare me to ride Master
Jack’s new colt—that’s Squire Trueword’s eldest son—this colt’s had every one
of them off, you see. But I rode it. A few of them hate me already, but the
head lad likes me, and I can see in his eye that the fellow who runs—that is,
the master of the horse—has plans for me. My saints, I ache; I haven’t ridden
in months, and that colt is a handful. “Oh, and they say to get a decent haircut before I come to
work tomorrow; I’ll have to bow to the squire, and to his spoilt son, if I want
to ride his horses.” Beauty trimmed her sister’s hair and then swept the
silky-tufts into a tiny pile of glinting individual hairs and saved them. The house was lonely at first, with Lionheart gone, but she
came home for a day every week, and baked all the bread for the week to come,
and, with her new wages, bought butter and honey for the bread, and sugar and
the squashed fruit—chiefly the last of the winter apples—at the bottom of the
baskets at the end oi” market-days, and made pies and jam. She had made friends
with the butcher’s boy, who occasionally slipped her a few more beef knuckles
for the stew, a little extra lard in her measure; the butcher’s boy only knew
that she had an ailing father and had recently been taken on up at the Hall. He
didn’t know that the young man he spoke to was also the sister who cooked the
stew and rolled the pastry. Mrs Bestcloth was as good as her promise, and Jeweltongue’s
introduction to Miss Trueword was duly achieved. And Jeweltongue was given a
dinner dress to make. “From a silly painted picture in a magazine, if you please!
If a real person had ever tried to walk in that dress, she would be so fettered
by the ridiculous skirls she would fall over after her first step. Fortunately
Miss Trueword is a little more sensible than her manner.” “Which is to say you talked her into being sensible,” said
Beauty, gently squeezing the small damp muslin pouch she hoped contained goat’s
cheese. Her last attempt had been more like goat’s custard (as Lionheart
mercilessly pointed out), but the texture this time was more promising. “Mmm—well. I had a hard apprenticeship, you know, deflating
that awful Mr Doolittle’s opinions of himself. If he is a philosopher, I am a
bale of hay. But that’s all long ago now. And Miss Trueword is actually rather
sweet. Here, let me hold that bowl for you. Don’t fret, dear. It was excellent
custard last time. Your only mistake was telling Lionheart it was supposed to
be cheese.” Miss Trueword’s frock was a great success; Jeweltongue was
commissioned for three frocks for her nieces and a coat for the squire. She
also altered the stable-boy’s uniform to fit Lionheart properly, using leftover
bits from the squire’s coat for strength. They were no longer using the money
they had brought with them; a few times Jeweltongue or Lion-heart even added
pennies to the cracked cup in the back of the kitchen store-cupboard where they
kept it. Beauty had hurdles for her fencing, and the scarecrow—or something—was
working, for her seeds were sprouting unmolested. Even their father was taking a little more notice of the
world round him, and when he sat and scribbled, he scribbled more and dozed
less. He came outdoors most days for a stroll in the sunlight, and he often
smiled as he looked round him. He complimented Beauty on her garden and
Jeweltongue on her sewing; he had been startled by Lion-heart’s new job—and
even more by her new haircut—but had taken it quietly and made no attempt to
forbid her to do something she had already thrown her heart into. He still fell asleep early in the evenings and slept late
into the mornings, while his daughters tiptoed round the kitchen end of the
downstairs room getting breakfast and setting themselves up for the day. Each
of the three of them caught the other two looking at him anxiously, heard the
slightly strained note in the others’ voices when they asked him how he did, to
which he invariably replied gently, “I am doing very well, thank you.” “It is so hard to know if—if there is anything we should
do,” Jeweltongue said hesitatingly to Beauty. “He was never home when we lived
in the city, was he? He was always at work. Or thinking of work. Even when
Lionheart and I were little—when you were still a baby—he never seemed to
notice anything but business, and Mamma. After Mamma died, we never saw him at
all. Sometimes I think we only knew he existed because the next new governess,
and the next one after that, came to us saying our father had hired her... you
remember.’’ She laughed a little, without humour. “Perhaps that’s why we
treated diem so diabolically. Lionheart and I, that is; you were always the
peacekeeper. And after we outgrew our governesses ... I don’t know what he was
like before, you know? Other than abstracted. The way he is now, I suppose.
But... I wish we could call in a greenwitch, or even a seer, and ask advice
about him, but that’s the one thing we do know, isn’t it? No magic. And I keep
forgetting to ask about it in Long-chance—a greenwitch, I mean. It seems—” She
paused, and there was a small frown on her face. “It seems almost peculiar, the
way I keep not remembering. And the way it never comes up. Maybe it’s different
in the country. In the city which magician had just invented the best spell for
this or that—champagne that stays fizzy even in a punch bowl, something to keep
your lapdog from shedding hair on your dresses—” “How to produce cheese instead of custard,” murmured Beauty,
watching Lydia’s kid decide—again—not to enter the gate into the back garden,
carelessly left open. Maybe he merely did not like narrow spaces. “—was a chief source of gossip, nearly as good as who was
seen leaving whose house at what o’clock at night. Don’t you wonder what he’s
writing? He keeps it under his pillow at night and in his pocket all day.” Summer arrived. Beauty’s runner beans ramped up their poles;
the broad beans were so heavy with pods the crowns of the plants sank sideways
to the earth. The lettuce and beetroot grew faster than they could eat it;
there were so many early potatoes Lionheart made potato bread and potato
pancakes and potato scones. The thorn-bushes had all disappeared under their weight of
leaves. Even the deadest-looking ones round the almost-invisible statue had not
been dead at all, only slow to wake from winter. And then flower buds came, and
Beauty watched them eagerly, surprised at her own excitement, wanting to see
what would come. The weather turned cold for a week, and the buds stopped their
progress like an army called to a halt; Beauty was half frantic with
impatience. But the weather turned warm again, and the buds grew bigger and
bigger and fatter and fatter, and there were dozens of them—hundreds. They
began to crack and to show pink and white and deepest red-purple between the
sepals. One morning Beauty woke up thinking of her mother. She could
not at first imagine why; she had not had the dream and had awoken happy, and
thinking about her mother usually made her sad. But... she sniffed. There was
something in the air, something that reminded her of her mother’s perfume. She hurried to the loft’s one little window and knelt so she
could see out. The thorn-bushes’ buds had finally popped, and the scent was
coming from the open flowers. Roses. These were roses. This was why their
little house was called Rose Cottage. She was the first awake; it was barely dawn. Her sisters
would be stirring soon, and she wanted the first enchanted minutes of discovery
to be hers alone. She wrapped the old coat she used as a dressing-gown round
her—almost every morning at breakfast Jeweltongue promised to make her a real
one soon—and went softly downstairs and into the garden, thoughtlessly
barefoot, walked straight down the centre path to the big round bed in the
middle of the back garden, the earth dawn-cool against her feet. The roses
nodded at her as if giving her greeting; their merest motion blew their
fragrance at her till she felt drunk with it. Her sisters found her there a little while later, her hands
cupping an enormous round flower head as if it were the face of her sweetheart.
They stood openmouthed, breathing like runners after an exhilarating race; then
Jeweltongue kissed her, and Lionheart reached out a hand and just stroked the
silky petals of a pale pink rose with one finger. Neither said a word; slowly
they went back indoors again and left Beauty alone with her new love. At first she could not bear the thought of cutting them,
even one, despite their profusion, but at last she chose just three—one white,
one pink, one purple-red—and brought them indoors, found something to use as a
vase, and knelt by their father’s bed, holding them near his face. She saw him
take a long breath in and smile, before he opened his eyes. He murmured her mother’s name, but gently, knowing she was
gone but happy in the memory of her; then his eyes found Beauty’s, and he
smiled again. “Thank you,” he said. “They are beautiful, are they not?” said Beauty. “Almost as beautiful as she was,” he said. Beauty said nothing. For over two months the roses bloomed and bloomed and
bloomed. Beauty had never been so happy, and for the third time in her life the
dream went away. The monster was gone while her roses were in flower. She had
to tear herself away from the contemplation of them to tend to the rest of her
garden, to eat her meals, to sleep; she had never liked to do nothing, but she
found now that if she could do nothing beside a rose-bush in full bloom, she
was entirely happy. Now that she knew what they were, she changed her mind at
once about tending the bushes—however hazardous an operation this would be to
herself personally. No longer were they in danger of being dug up and consigned
to the bonfire as soon as she had time to spare. She trimmed and trained and
painstakingly fixed and tied the bushes and climbers round the cottage. She
groped gingerly into the very depths of the tangle of the round bed to take out
all the dead wood she could find and arrange the stems to arch and fail most
gracefully, the better to show off their radiant burden of flowers. Every last
spadeful of the remains of the load of manure Farmer Goldfield had brought her
went round the base of the bushes, and she mourned the generous hand she had
used earlier in fertilising her vegetables. Next year she would bargain for two
loads of manure. One mystery remained. She still could not decide what the
statue in the middle of the centre rose-bed represented. In her valiant
adventures pruning away the old wood and scrabbling out the weeds, she had also
made four of the eight wheel-spoke paths navigable again, had therefore been
able to reach the hub and free the statue of its leafy confinement. But she
still had no idea what it was supposed to be. She almost thought it changed,
from one day to the next, because one day it would remind her of a dragon, the
next day a chimera, the third day a salamander, the fourth day a unicorn....
“This is ridiculous,” said Beauty, aloud, to the unicorn. “You are not the
least bit li/jjrdy and snakclike, and I know you have been lizardy and
snakelike previously; positively I have seen scales. Now stop it.” After that
it only ever looked like some tall, elegant, but unknown beast, its long sleek
hair cascading over its round muscled limbs, its great eyes peering sombrely
out from beneath its mane. “Now you are really very handsome,” said Beauty, “And much
nicer than anything with scales. But I still wish I knew what you were.” When the roses finally stopped blooming, Beauty felt as if
she had lost her dearest friend; but she gathered all the fallen petals she
could and put them in saucers and flat bowls, and even after they dried, if she
ran her fingers through them, the scent awakened and made her happy. She kept a little bowl of them by her pillow, where she
could reach them in the night, because as soon as the last petal had dropped
from the last rose in flower, the dream returned. When it did, and she found
herself safely restored to her own bed but still shaken by the memory of the
dark corridor and the knowledge of the patient monster, she held a cupped
handful of rose-petals under her nose till the warmth of her skin brought the
scent out again, and then she drifted gently back to sleep. The winter that year was long and hard, but the old merchant
and his daughters were little troubled by it, except that Lionheart, two or
Ihree times, could not get home through the snow on her days off. Beauty’s
vegetables had surpassed all expectations, and die cold room under the house
was full of sacks and bundles and bottles. The life that had been slowly
returning to the old merchant had begun to grow strong; it was he who cleaned
out the cellar, blocked the rat-holes, and borrowed die tools Lionheart
considered hers to build the shelves to hold Beauty’s produce. <;See that you take very good care of my
hammer,” said Lionheart. “I had a fiend of a time finding the right shaft for
the new handle.” “I shall be very careful indeed not to hit it accidentally
with any axes,” said their father drily. After the clean cold whiteness of winter, when spring’s mud
and naked hrown branches and grey rain and smells of rot and waste came round
again, they were only happy to know that summer was coming again—strangely content
in their new life. There was never any longer an edge—except occasionally of
laughter—to Jeweltongue’s voice when she spoke to. or about, her clients. “I’ve
decided judicious flattery is the greatest ait of all,” she said. “Forget
philosophy.” She hummed to herself as she drew up the dress patterns she
delighted in creating, Lionheart brought home die runt of the litter when the
squire’s favourite spaniel whelped, saying in outrage that the squire had
planned to have it drowned. Once she came home still shaking in fury and told
of thrashing some young lad who wanted to jump a frightened colt over a fence
too big for it—“Just to show us what a big brave man he is. He won’t last. Mr
Horsewise won’t have his kind near his horses.” The old merchant found a job doing sums for several of the
small businesses in Longchance; he bought himself some clean sheets of paper
and began copying some of the contents of his accumulation of scribblings onto
them. “Father, I am dying of curiosity,” said Jewekongue. “I will tell you someday,” he replied, smiling to himself. Beauty’s garden grew and bloomed, and bloomed, and the roses
were even more spectacular this year than last. This second year Beauty took a
deep, deep sigh, and cut many of her beloved roses, and worked them into
wreaths and posies, and let them dry. and she went in with Jeweltongue one
market-day to sell them, and they were gone by micfmorning. She invested some
of her little profit in ribbons, and wove them into bouquets with more of her
roses, and raised her prices, and they, too, disappeared by mid-morning at the
next market-day she went to. “Rose Cottage,” the townspeople said, nodding wisely. “We
all wondered if there was a one of you would wake ‘em up again,’’ and they
looked at her thoughtfully. Several asked, hopefully but in some puzzlement,
“Are you a—a greenwitch then? You don’t look like a sorcerer.” “Oh, no!” said Beauty, shocked the first time she was asked.
But eventuaiiy, as that question or one like it went on being repeated, and
remembering Jeweltongue’s puzzlement about the apparent lack of interest in
Longchance in all [he magical professions, she asked in her turn, “Why do you
think so?” But most of those addressed looked uneasy and gave her
little answer. “The old woman was, you know,” they muttered over their
shoulders as they hastened away. A very old memory relumed to her: Pansy telling her that her
mother’s perfume smelt of roses. What she had forgotten was Pansy saying that
it was generally only sorcerers who could get roses to grow. And she thought
again of the green threads in the old fencing around Rose Cottage and how she
had never seen any animal cross that boundary. Even their new puppy had to be
let out the front door to do her business; she wouldn’t go out the back. But one woman lingered iong enough to say a little more.
She’d been listening, bright-eyed, to Beauty denying, once again, that she was
a greenwitch, and the farm wife who received this news went off shaking her
head. “There, there, Patience; we can’t have everything, and that’s a nice
wreath you bought yourself.” To Beauty she said: “We all know Jeweltongue, and
gettin’ to be your father’s pretty well known, that young scamp Salter, calls
himself a wheelwright, well, I guess nothing’s wrong with his wheels, but he
ain’t never learnt nothing about running a business, and your father had him
all tidied up in a sennight. And your firebrand brother, Lionheart, well, Mr
Horse wise knows how to ride a high-mettled lad, too, and a good thing for both
on ‘em! But you’re always home in your garden, ain’t you? My cousin Sandy had a
couple o’bottles of your pickled beets from your father last winter, which was
sweet of him as she didn’t expect no payment for what she done, but that’s how
we knew you’re home working hard. “My! Smell those roses! Don’t it take me back! Funny how the
house has stood empty this long, roses or no roses. It’s a snug little place,
even if it is a iittle far out of town for comfort. We knew when the old woman
disappeared she’d left some kind of lawyers’ instructions about it—but nobody
came, and nobody sent word, and for a long time we just hoped she’d come back,
because we was all fond of her, fond of her besides having a greenwitch in
Longchance again, which we ain’t had long before, nor since neither.” She
nodded once or twice and started to move away. Then the greenwitch who had made the fence charms had lived
in Rose Cottage! Then it was she who had left the house to them?
But.,. Beauty reached out and caught the woman’s sleeve. “Oh, tell me more.
Won’t you—please?” she begged. “No one wants to talk about it, and I—I can’t
help being interested.” “Not that much to tell, when all’s said and done,” said the
woman, but she smiled at Beauty. “Who is it you remind me of? Never mind, it’ll
come to me. We don’t talk about magic much, here in Longchance, because we
ain’t got any. You have to go as far as Appleborough even to buy a charm to
make mended pottery stay mended. We’ve had a few green witches try to settle
around here—never at Rose Cottage, mind—but they never stayed. They said they
had too many bad dreams. Dreams about monsters living in our woods. We’ve never
had so much as a bad-tempered bear in our woods. In a hard winter the wolves come to Apple
borough, but they don’t come to Longchance. But dreams are important to
greenwitchcs and so on, you know, so they leave. “Miffs us, you know? Why not Longchance? We can’t decide if
it’s because we’re specialer than ordinary folk, or worse somehow, you know’.’
But it’d be handy to have our own greenwilch again, and them roses ain’t
bloomed since the old woman left, and so we’ve been hoping, see?” “The old woman—tell me about the green witch,” said Beauty.
“What was she like? How long did she live here? Did she build Rose Cottage, did
she plant the roses?” “You don’t want much, do you?” said the woman, but she set
her shopping basket down. Beauty hastened forward with the stand’s only chair
and herself sank down at the woman’s feet. “That’s kind of you, dear, and I
like to talk. You want to know what the rest of us Longchancers don’t want to
talk about, you come to me—or if you want it in a parlour with a silver
tea-service, you go to Mrs Oldhouse. Between us we know everything. “No, our green witch didn’t build Rose Cottage nor plant the
roses, but there weren’t much left of neither of ‘em when she arrived. The roof
had fallen in, and you couldn’t see the rosebushes for the wild berry brambles
and the hawthorn, and us in Longchance had wandered into the way of thinking
that, the roses were just a part of the old talc because no one had seen one in
so long. It was funny, too, it was like she knew what she was looking for, like
she was coming back to a familiar place, though no one round here had ever seen
her before. I know this part of the story from my old’ dad, mind, I was a
kiddie myself then. “She came old, and when she disappeared, she disappeared
old, though it was like she hadn’t got any older in between, if you follow me,
and she’d been here long enough to see babies born and grow up and have their
own babies. “She lived at Rose Cottage, and she made rose wreaths.
That’s another thing about her. She smelt of roses all year long, even in
winter. She was an odd body generally—had a habit of taking in orphan hedgehogs
and birds with broke wings and like that—took a child in once that way too, but
when she grew up, she left here and never came back. A beauty, she was; stop a
blind man dead in his tracks, I tell you.” She stopped suddenly and gave Beauty
a sharp look. “My! It’s prob’ly my mind wool-gathering, but it’s that old
woman’s foundling you remind me of. It’s prob’ly just the scent o’ your roses,
after all this time, confusing my thinking. “Where was I? Well, the girl never came back, and no wonder,
maybe, not to come back to this bit of nowhere, but it was a bit hard on the
old woman, maybe. Not that she ever said anything. And when the old woman
herself went off... As I say, we was fond of her, and if we’d known she was
missing sooner, we might have gone looking. Maybe she went back to where she came
from. If she died, I hope she went quick, just keeled over somewhere and never
knew what happened. “Rose Cottage has stood empty, ten years, fifteen, since she
went. Not even the Gypsies camp there. She’d let it be known she was tying it
up all legal in case anything happened to her. I suppose that should have told
us we wouldn’t be having her much longer, one way or another. We don’t have
much to do with lawyers round here; but most of us have family, and she didn’t.
Not that girl, who went off and left her and never sent no word back. “But your sister—that Jcweltongue—she says you never knew
the old woman. Never knew anything about it, except the will, and the house.” Beauty thought of that last terrible time in the city, remembered
again the lifting of the heart when she held the paper in her hands that told
her they had somewhere to go, something that yet belonged to them: a little
house, in a bit of nowhere, called Rose Cottage. “Yes,” said Beauty. “That’s
right; we knew nothing about it till we saw the will. It had—it had been
mislaid among my father’s papers.” “That’s all right, dear,” said the woman. “I ain’t prying
... much; folks’ troubles are their own, and we’ve all had ‘em. But it’s ...
interesting isn’t it? Like you said to begin, you can’t help being interested.
Because the point is. the old woman had to know something about you. And her
roses—they ain’t bloomed since she left. Till you came. “And you’re the one we’ve kind of been waiting for, see? Because
you’re the one always in the garden. Alt your family says so. ‘That Beauty, you
can’t hardly get her indoors to have her meals.’ And we maybe got our hopes up
a bit. Ah, well, it’s as I told Patience, we can’t have everything, and I dunno
but what your wreaths are even better’n the old woman’s.” She had picked up
Beauty’s last remaining wreath and was looking at it as she spoke. She hesitated
and glanced at Beauty again. “D’you know why everyone wants a rose wreath,
dear? Forgive me for insulting you by asking, but you look as if maybe you don’t
know.” “No-o,” said Beauty. “Not because they’re beautiful?’’ The woman laughed with genuine amusement. “Bless you. Maybe
it’s no wonder they grow for you after all. You know—pansy for thoughtfulness,
yew for sorrow, bay for glory, dock for tomorrow? Roses are for love. Not
forget-me-not, honeysuckle, silly sweethearts’ love but the love that makes you
and keeps you whole, love that gets you through the worst your life’II give you
and that pours out of you when you’re given the best instead. ‘There are a lot of the old wreaths from Rose Cottage
around, not just over my door. There’s an old folk-tale—maybe you never heard
it in your city—that there aren’t many roses around anymore because they need
more love than people have to give ‘em, to make ‘em flower, and the only thing
that’ll stand in for love is magic, though it ain’t as good, and you have to
have a lot of magic, like a sorcerer, and I ain’t never heard of a kind
sorcerer, have you? And the bushes only started covering themselves with thorns
when it got so it was only magic that ever made ‘em grow. They were sad, like,
and it came out in thorns. Maybe it was different when the world was younger,
when people and roses were younger.” The woman stood up, and briskly took out her purse, and paid
Beauty for her wreath, picked up her shopping basket, and turned to go; but she
paused, frowning, as if she could not make up her mind either to say something
or to leave it unsaid. “I’d much rather know,” said Beauty softly, and the woman
looked at her again with her friendly smile. “You may not, dear, but I’m thinking maybe you’d better,
I’ve told you there’s no magic hereabouts. There are tales about why, of
course. I’d make one up meself if no-body’d taken care of the job before me.
There was some kind of sorcerers’ battle here, they say, long, long ago, no one
knows rightly how long, and it ain’t the kind of thing the squire puts down in
his record book, is it? ‘One sorcerers’ battle. Very bad. Has taken ail magic
away from Longchance forever’—if we had a squire in those days, though Oak Hall
is as old as anything around here, and sorcerers don’t live in wilderness. But
there’s a curse tacked on to the end of it, like the sting on a manticore’s
tail. It don’t rightly concern you. because the tally calls for three sisters,
and there’s only the two of you—” “My . . . brother?” said Beauty faintly. The woman laughed. “Oh, the menfolk don’t count—like usual,
eh? No, you want sorcery, you got to go to a man, but there’s nothing anybody
should want to have done a greenwitch can’t do.... Now, now, don’t go all
wide-eyed and trembly on me like that. I shouldn’t have mentioned it. There’s
nothing wrong with you and nothing wrong with Rose Cottage. And we’re all glad
of you: that Jeweltongue can almost outtalk me when she puts her mind to
it, and you should see her wrapping that old Miss Trueword round her finger!
That’s a sight, that is. “Pity you ain’i a greenwitch then. We could use one. A greenwitch
would make a good living here, you know. You could even afford a husband.” And
the woman winked. “Maybe you should talk to your roses about it, see if they’ll
tell you a few charms.” Ask her roses to tell her greenwitch charms? Beauty’s astonishment
and worry broke and were swept away on a tide of laughter, taking her questions
about the curse, and about bad dreams about monsters in the forest, with it. The
woman took no offense but patted her hand, grinning, and went away. Jeweltongue relumed even as Beauty was looking after her,
and said, “Beauty, if you’ve sold all your roses, maybe you’ll come lend me
your eye? Mrs Bestcloth has a new shipment in, and Miss Trueword says she will
leave it up to me, and I’m drowning in riches, I can’t decide, I want to use
them all.” Over a late tea at home Jeweltongue said, “You and Mrs Grecndown
were in close conversation for some while, were you not? Did she tell you
anything interesting? Mrs Tree-worthy—she and her husband have the Home Farm,
you remember—says Mrs Greendown knows everything about everything round here,’’ “Yes ... oh ... a bit. Not very,” said Beauty, glancing at
their father, who had come home with them after a day doing sums in Longchance,
and now had his scribbles on his knee, and was holding his teacup
absentmindedly halfway to his mouth. Jeweltongue knew what that glance meant and said briskly,
“Never mind. Help me remember what Miss True-word’s final decisions were, so I
can write them down, my head is still spinning”—help that Beauty knew perfectly
well her sister never needed. By the time she and Jeweltongue were alone together, she had
decided to say nothing of the curse. She thought there was a good chance that
no one else in magic-shy Long-chance would mention it to anyone else in her
family; she was the one who was supposed to be a greenwitch. What did she
herself think about the curse? She didn’t know. Curses were dangerous things;
they tended to eat up their casters and were therefore unpopular among magical
practitioners, though they still happened occasionally. Most likely Longchance’s
curse was some folk-tale that, in generations of retelling, had begun to be
called a curse to give it greater prestige. Her first impulse was to attend the very next market-day,
find Mrs Greendown, and ask her to tell her explicitly just what this curse
was. But she had second thoughts almost at once. She told herself that her
interest might cause, well, reciprocal interest, and there was Lionheart’s
secret to protect. But she knew that wasn’t the real reason for her change of
heart. She didn’t want to know because she didn’t want lo know. And she would
set herself to forgetting that Mrs Greendown had ever so much as mentioned a
curse. “There’s nothing wrong with you and nothing wrong with Rose Cottage.”
She would leave it there. Jeweltongue was fascinated by the story of the greenwitch
who had left them Rose Cottage and appeared to harbour no suspicions that
Beauty was holding anything back, and by the end of her revised history, Beauty
had already half succeeded in forgetting what she had chosen not to tell. “What a romantic story! At least we now know why we never
found the Longchance greenwitch’s signboard,” said Jeweltongue. “All the way to
Appleborough for a simple charm! I don’t think I miss magic, do you? We have
had little enough to do with it since Mamma died, but now it seems as if it’s
just one more thing we left behind in the city. It’s not as ihough the cleverer
practitioners ever came up with anything realty useful, like
self-peeling potatoes or needles that refuse to pierce human skin.” That night Beauty had the dream. Her first reaction to
finding herself again in that dark corridor where the monster waited was of
heart-sinking dismay, for her last roses were still blooming in the garden. No!
she cried in her dream. Let me go! It is not your time! The light of the candle
nearest her flickered, as it” disturbed by the draught of her shout. But as she
drew her breath in again, she discovered that the corridor was full of the
smell of roses, a rich deep scent nothing like her mother’s perfume and even
more powerful and exciting than the scent of high summer in her garden. And she
was not afraid. Chapter 4A second summer turned to autumn, to winter, and the third
spring arrived. But this year was different, Spring was cold and bleak: the
warmth of the turning year never came, and the rain never stopped. Summer
arrived in seas of brown mud; the rivers overflowed and drowned the seed in the
fields and more than a few calves and lambs. Everyone was still wearing coats
and boots at midsummer; everyone was low and discouraged; everyone said they
couldn’t remember a year like this.... And Beauty’s roses never bloomed. They tried. The bushes put out leaves, draggled as they were
by the relentless rain, but the long, arching branches drooped under the weight
of the water, the weight of the heavy dark sky. The climber over the kitchen
door was torn out of its hold on the thatch, and Beauty spent a long dreary
afternoon tying it away from the door so that she need not cut the long stems.
She came indoors soaked to the skin and spent the next week sneezing and
shivering and standing over bowls of hot water and mint oil with a towel round
her head to keep in the steam. The bushes all produced a few hopeful flower-buds, but the
sun never came to open them. Those flowers too stub— born to know they were doomed turned as brown as the mud at
their feet as soon as the sepals parted; a few Beauty rescued, half open, and
brought indoors, where they sal dejectedly in a vase, too weary of the struggle
to finish opening, their petals brown-edged and soon falling. Nor did they bear
more than the faintest hint of their usual deep delicious scent. Everyone grew bad-tempered. Jeweltongue’s remarks had edges
like knives; Lionheart shouted; their father withdrew again into dull silence.
Beauty, who should have been spending most of her time in the garden, felt like
a rat in a trap. She kept the house clean, mucked out the shed, fed Lydia and
the chickens—who were too depressed by the weather to fay—cooked the meals, ran
errands both real and imaginary just for something to do, and stared at the
ankle-deep slop that should have been her garden. And, with some effort, kept
her own temper .,. till Jeweltongue snarled and Lionheart bellowed at her too.
Finally she shouted back, threw a plate across the room and heard it shatter as
she ran upstairs—just before she burst into tears. She buried her face in her pillow, so that no one downstairs
should hear her. The puppy Lionheart had rescued a year ago, rejoicing in the
name Teacosy for her diminutive size and the neat little hummock she made when
she curled up for a nap, followed her, and burrowed under Beauty’s trembling
arm to lick her wet cheek. The leak in the corner of the loft dripped sullenly into its
pail. They had scratched enough money together at last to have their thatch
replaced this spring; but not only could no thatcher work in a steady downpour,
they now had to save the money to buy food for next winter—if they could. The
farmers were all fighting the same weather that kept the thatchers indoors and
ruined Beauty’s garden; market-days at Longchance were a sad affair. Beauty raised her head and gently pushed the cold nose and
wet tongue away from her face. “You are a silly beast,” said Beauty. “You know
you can’t climb down the ladder again yourself. What a good thing you never
grew too large to carry.” Teacosy heard by the tone of Beauty’s voice that she was succeeding
in comforting her, whatever those particular words meant; the main thing, from
her point of view, was that they did not contain the dreaded word No. She
dodged Beauty’s restraining hand, put her paws on Beauty’s arm, and licked her
face harder than ever, wagging her tail till her whole body shook. “Your
generous sympathy is not all joy, you know,” murmured Beauty through the
onslaught. She was just beginning to think she should go back down and
sweep up the fragments and go on with dinner while Lionheart finished her
week’s baking when she heard footsteps on the loft ladder. Jeweltongue laid
their dented little tea-tray down on the floor beside the mattress—the chipped
saucers clattered in the dents, and the cups clattered in the mismatched
saucers—sat down next to her sister, and began to rub her back gently. “I’m
sorry. We’re enough to try the patience of a saint, and even you’re not a saint,
are you? I don’t think I could hear to live with a real saint.” Beauty gave a soggy little laugh, rolled up on an elbow, and
caught her sister’s hand. “Do you ever miss the city? You must think about
it—as I do—but do you ever long for it?” Jeweltongue sat quite still, with an odd, vacant expression
on her face. “How strange you should ask that just now. I was only thinking
about it this afternoon. Well, not so strange. It’s the weather that does it,
isn’t it? The cottage grows very small when it’s too wet to be out of doors. I
hadn’t realised how often I took my sewing outdoors, till this year, when I
can’t. And the cottage is smaller yet when Lionheart is here too, roaring away. “I don’t know if I miss it. ... I miss some things. I
sometimes think it” I have to wear this ugly brown skirt one more day, I shall
go mad. I still remember Mandy, who wore it first; do you remember her?
Creeping round all day with eyes the size of dinner plates, waiting for me to
say something cross to her. Oh! How many cross things I did say, to be sure!
No, I don’t long for that life. But I would like a new skirt,” “Do you miss the Baron?” JewelEongue laughed and picked up the teapot to pour. “I
miss him least of all. Although I would have enjoyed redecorating his town
house. Drink this while it’s hot. Lion-heart has sent you a piece of her
shortbread, see? You have to eat it or her feelings will be hurt. She roars
because she can’t help herself, you know.” “I do not,” said Lionheart’s head, appearing through the trapdoor
in the loft floor. “I roar because—because—It’ you let Teacosy eat that
shortbread, Beauty, I really shall roar. And if you don’t come
downstairs soon, I will feed your supper to Lydia.” It was at the end of the summer that the letter came. Each
spring and autumn since they had lived in Rose Cottage, one or two or three of
the traders from the convoy that had brought them here stopped in on their
journey past, to see how the old man who had once been the wealthiest merchant
in the richest city in the country and his three beautiful daughters—with a
good deal of joshing about the metamorphosis of the eldest into a son, always
accompanied by the promise not to give her away—did in their exile. The leader of the original convoy seemed to take a
proprietorial pleasure in their small successes and always noticed the improvements
they had made since last he saw them: brighter eyes, plumper frames, clothing
that not only fitted well (Jeweltongue would have nothing less round her) but
which bore fewer visible darns and patches, chairs all of whose legs matched,
enough butter and butter knives to go round when they had a fifth, or even a
sixth, person to tea. This visit was less cheerful than usual; the weather had
been bad all over the country, and the traders suffered for it too. Lionheart,
who was the best of the three sisters at pretending high spirits she did not
feel, was not there, and Mr Strong was preoccupied. He was in a hurry; the
convoy had lost so much time to the weather they were passing right through
Longchance with barely a pause. “Mr Brownwag-gon and Mr Baggins send their
regards and beg pardon for not coming round,” he said. “But we’ll be returning
near here in a few days, before we head south again, and one of us will stop in
if there is any reply we can take for you.” Reply? They glanced at one another, puzzled. “I am very back to front today,” Mr Strong said, groping in
his breast-pocket. “Please forgive me. This rain gets into one’s head and rots
the intellect. I would have come anyway to say hello, but as it happens—” and
he pulled out an envelope and laid it on the table. Soon after, he said his good-byes and left them, but the
echo of the door closing and the slog of his footsteps had long gone before
anyone made a move toward the envelope. Jeweltongue, who had sat next to Mr
Strong at tea, and was nearest, said, “It’s addressed to you, Father,” but her
hands remained buried in the fabric on her lap. Beauty stood up and collected
the tea-things, putting the bread and butter back in the cupboard with elaborate
care, setting the dirty plates in the washing-up bowl as if the faintest rattle
of crockery would awaken something terrible. She had finished washing up, tipped the water down the pipe,
pumped enough fresh water to refill the kettle and the water-jug, and begun to
dry the tea-things and put them away when Jeweltongue abruptly leant forward,
jerkily picked the letter up, and dropped it hastily in front of her father, as
if she wanted to be rid of it as quickly as possible, as if she wanted to push
it as far away from herself as she could, as if it were literally unpleasant to
the touch. Their father dragged his eyes away from the fire—hissing as
the rain dripped into the chimney—and took it up. He held it for a long moment
and looked back at the fire, as if tempted to toss it into the heart of the
small blaze. With a sigh, he bowed his head and broke the seal. One of his ships, presumed lost at sea, had returned, loaded
with fine merchandise, worth a great deal of money. His best clerk—whose wife
sent her regards, adding that she still prized her collection of once-silent
canaries who now sang chorales finer than the cathedral choir, and whose
rehabilitated sphinx was, she and her husband agreed, better than any watchdog
they had ever had—had contrived to have the ship impounded till his old master
could arrive. But he pleaded that he should come soon, for he himself was only
a clerk, and working for a new master, who took a dark view of his new clerk
working for another man. “What he does not say is ‘a man disgraced and driven out of
town,’” said the old merchant, having read the letter aloud to his daughters.
“I suppose I must go.’’ Silence fell. Beauty went on polishing and polishing the
dish in her hand; Jeweltongue stared blankly at the needle she had just
threaded. Teacosy, who had been hiding under the table—her usual lair in
anxious times—crept out, scuttled over to Beauty on her belly, and tried to
press herself between Beauty’s feet, tucking her head and forequarters under
the hem of her skirt. Beauty reached down absently with the hand still holding the
damp tea-towel, to pat the still-visible hindquarters. “Wait at least till
Lionheart comes home again,” she said. The old merchant appeared to rouse himself. “If 1 can. But I
must be prepared to leave when the convoy returns.” When Lionheart came home two days later, she hurtled through
the door as she had done every week since mis wretched year had begun,
scowling, ready to shout at anything that displeased her, softening only to
greet the ecstatic Teacosy. Her father’s news stopped her. Bewilderment, and dismay, replaced
the scowl. “Must you go? Surely—surely you can ask Mr Lamb to dispose of the
goods and—and take a commission?” “I could. But it would not be honourable.” He lifted his
shoulders. “You do not know; there may be something left at the—at the end.”
His daughters, Beauty particularly, knew better than he did how many debts had
been left to pay after their house had been seized and their property
auctioned. There were legal papers saying these were to be forgotten, but they
would be remembered again as soon as there was money to pay them. “What shall I
bring you?” Lionheart shook her head, and her scowl returned. “Yourself,
home safe. Soon.” Their father smiled a little. “Jeweltongue?” Jeweltongue smoothed the sleeve on her lap. It was silk,
with lace insets, and the lace had gold threads hi it that caught the light. It
was much like one of the sleeves of a dress she had herself worn to the party
when trie Baron had taken her a little aside and proposed marriage to her,
telling her that he cared for nothing but her and her beauty and brilliance and
that if she agreed to marry him, he would be the happiest man on earth. She was
to leave all her dresses and jewels to her sisters, for once she was his bride
he would buy her a new wardrobe that would make the queen herself look dowdy;
her father could provide her with a dowry or not, it was a matter of greatest
indifference to him. She had always been fond of that dress, and when Miss Jane
True-word had spoken of silken sleeves with lace insets, she had remembered it.
“Nothing,” she said. “Nothing at all. But that you come home again as quickly
as you may.” “Beauty. There must be something I can bring you.” He looked so sad that Beauty cast her mind round for something
she could suggest. He would know she did not mean it if she asked for jewels
and pretty dresses. They had Teacosy and did not need another house pet, nor
could they afford to feed and shelter anything beyond Lydia, her latest kid,
and the chickens. Whatever it was, it needed to be something small, that would
not burden him on the way. They really lacked for nothing at Rose
Cottage—nothing but the sun—nothing, so long as they wished to stay here, and
it seemed to her that they did wish to stay here. Nothing but the sun. Her eyes moved to the windowsill, where
an empty vase stood, and she gave a little laugh that was mostly a sob. “You
could bring me a rose.” Her father nodded gravely, acknowledging the joke. And when
the convoy returned, he went with them. The winter the old merchant spent in the city he had been
born in and lived in all his life till the last three years was sadder and
emptier even than he had expected. His clerk had not succeeded in keeping die
impoundment proof against raids from his old creditors; there was little enough
left even by the time he arrived, and he saw none of it at all. Winter frosts
came early, but no snow fell; the muddy, churned ground Croze solid and into
such rutted, tortured shapes that many of the roadways were impassable. He
found himself stranded in the city week after week, with almost no money even
to put food in his mouth; if the Lambs had not taken him in, he did not know
what he would have done. Yet he had to keep hidden even that kindness, for his
clerk’s new master disliked any expression of loyalty—or even human sympathy—to
his old. The old merchant rather thought that Mr Lamb’s new master had taken
him on as a deliberate gesture of spite against himself, but he found he no
longer cared. He lived in a tiny house called Rose Cottage, very far away from
here, and as soon as the weather broke, he would return. He knew now that his
daughters had been right, and he should never have come in the first place.
Well, he had learnt his lesson. But he was not able to wait for the weather. His old
business rival discovered his clerk’s, as he put it, duplicity, and declared
that the clerk couid choose between his job and sheltering a ruined man. Mr
Lamb did not tell him this; the captain of the ship that had returned found out
about it. The captain offered his own home as alternative, but the old merchant
declined. He was bad luck in this city, and the sooner he left the better.
Reluctantly he did accept the loan of a horse—or rather of a stout shaggy pony—from
the captain, on the man’s flatly refusing to let him leave town on any other
terms. “It’s winter out there, you old fool; you could die of it, and then
where would your daughters be?” My daughters would do very well without me, thought the old
man, but he did not say the words aloud. Instead he admitted the pony would be
useful and thanked the captain for his offer. There was little traffic leaving the city. The old merchant
found a few people to travel with; but he had to make a zigzag course from one town
to the next, for no one (sensibly) was travelling very far, and some people
turned back—or had to turn back—when they discovered the state of the roads. He
was daily grateful for the pony, who, nose nearly at ground level and ears
intently pricked, found her way carefully over and round the twisted furrows
and rough channels where the frozen mud crests sometimes curled as high as her
shoulder, and who seemed to have a sixth sense about which murky, polluted ice
would hold her and which would not. At long last he was within a few days of Longchancc, and of
Rose Cottage, and the weather was breaking at last. Spring was here—nearly. He
had been gone the entire winter. There was no one travelling in his direction, but he
thought—so near to home—he could risk it alone. The track itself was easy to
find; there were so few roads this far into the back of beyond it was hard to
lake a wrong one. And bandits usually stayed in the warmer, richer lands. He
set out. The first day was fine: blue and clear. He could not
remember when he had last seen blue sky; he stared up till he was dizzy and had
to cling to the pony’s mane. Little soft airs moved round him, brushing his
face and hands, toying as if in disbelief with the heavy, fraying edges of his
winter cloak. When he made camp that evening, he was as near to being happy as
he had been in the months since the letter had come. He was warm; he knew where
he was; he would see his daughters soon. He thought of his secret work waiting
for him and smiled; maybe sometime this year he would be ready to satisfy
Jcweltongue’s curiosity. ... He wondered drowsily how many knots the sawyer and
carter and wheelwright had got their accounting into in the last few months. He
would sort them out soon enough. He fell asleep dreaming pleasantly of long
straight columns of figures. But the clouds rolled up while he slept, and the temperature
began ominously to drop. When he woke, he found the pony lying beside him, her
warm back against his, and there were snowflakes falling. He saddled up, frightened, and turned the pony’s nose to the
road. But the flakes grew thicker and thicker, and the wind rose and howled
round them, and soon the pony was going where she chose, because he no longer
had any idea where they were and could not see the track for the drifting snow. But the pony toiled on, showing no sign of wanting to stop;
the old man was glad enough to hold on to the pommel and let her go, for he
knew that to halt would be to freeze to death. He grew wearier and wearier and
slumped lower and lower; once or twice he woke up just before he fell off. The
pony’s steps were growing slower. Soon he would have to get off and lead
her.... The snow stopped and the pony’s hoofs struck bare ground at
the same moment.’She stopped, and he looked up in amazement, snow sluicing off
his shoulders and back. They had come out of the woods into a clearing. The merchant,
dazed with exhaustion and astonishment, at first could not make out what he was
looking at. It was not merely that no snow was falling here now, no snow had
fallen; the ground before him was green with grass. Immediately around them was
a vast formal garden, laid out in low box ma/.es, dotted by small round pools
with classical statues rising from their centres. The box looked freshly
clipped, the pools quiet and untroubled by ice, and the paths were recently
raked. This stretched as far as his tired eyes could see on cither hand. Beyond
the garden before him, at the end of a straight drive surfaced with small
twinkling white pebbles, was the most magnificent palace he had ever seen, even
in his days as the wealthiest merchant of the wealthiest city in the country. The palace was perhaps only three storeys high, but each
storey was twice the height of those in an ordinary house; the windows were as
tall and wide as carriage-house gates. The facade was impressively handsome but
forbiddingly plain, the heavy square pediments of the ranks of windows
emphasising a glowering look, and all was made of a grey-white stone which
glittered slightly, like the pebbles in the drive, and which made the building
hard to look at for very long. It seemed to shimmer slightly, like an elaborate
mirage. The merchant blinked, but the garden and the palace
remained. He looked down at himself. The snow was melting on his sleeves and
along the pony’s mane. He looked up. The sky overhead was iron grey, but he
could not tell if it was twilight or cioud cover that made it so. But no snow
fell from it. He was afraid to turn round; would he see wintry woods again. The
blizzard that might have killed them? If this was a mirage, he wished to
believe it was real till it was too late.... May kind fate preserve me, he
thought. If it is not a mirage, this must be the dwelling of the greatest
sorcerer that has ever lived. But where are his guardian beasts? His messenger
spirits? Everything was wrapped in the deepest silence and stillness, deep as
the snowbound stillness that follows a blizzard. When his pony bowed her head
and blew, the sound unnerved him. The merchant dismounted stiffly, took his pony’s rein, and
walked forward. His numbed face began to hurt, for the air here was warm. He
stripped off his sodden gloves and loosened his cloak. The pony had come out of
the blizzard and into this—this place at the head of the drive, as if she had
been following a clear path. Perhaps she had. Their feet crunched on the
pebbles; the sound was notliing like the squeak of feet on fresh-fallen snow. The huge arched portico over the doorway into the palace was
lit with hundreds of candles. There was not even so much wind as to make the
candle flames flicker. He stopped on the threshold, but only for a moment; he was
too tired, and too precariously balanced between fear of what lay behind them
and fear of what lay before, to risk any decision. His feel, had decided for
him; let them have their way. He took the pony through the archway too, partly
for company, partly because he would not leave her behind after all they had
been through together. She balked, briefly, when her hoofs touched carpeting, but
she did not wish to be left alone either, so she crowded up close behind the
merchant and pushed her face into his back. They walked down a long corridor together; the old merchant
was simply following the line of lit candles. He saw great dark doorways on
cilher side of him, but he had no urge to explore. The way they went was full
of light, and he went on hopefully, though he would not have wanted to say precisely
for what. He and his pony both needed sleep and food as well as shelter, but it
seemed ridiculous that they should be wandering through an enchanted palace
looking for these things. He looked back once over his shoulder. Their passage was
leaving no muddy footprints, no dark damp patches of melted snow. He did not
look back again, He knew they were caught up in some great magic, but this
little reminder of it was almost more frightening than the fact of the palace
itself. They walked here without trace; it was as if they were invisible,
insubstantial, as if they were ghosts.... He tried to rally himself: Think of
the row in an ordinarily grand house if one such as I, and leading a dirty,
shaggy pony as well!, should be found indoors, and uninvited! Think of the
cries of outrage, the rush of servants with their buckets of soapy water to
scrub the carpet—think of the disdainful footmen hustling us back to the door! He remembered the passionate strength he had had in the
first weeks following his wife’s death, when he had forbidden any magic or any
practitioners of magic in his house ever again. It was the only absolute law he
could ever remember making. He would have laughed, now, had he the strength, at
what seemed to him suddenly the wild wastefulness of his younger self. For the
truth was that he had no wish now to spurn what appeared to be offered to him.
He was grateful to have his life, to be granted the hope that he might, after
all, see his daughters again. But he wished someone would come and reassure him they did
know he was here. And he wished that whoever it was that came might be more or
less human. Or at least not too large. There had been a sorcerer he had had mercantile
dealings with who had a hydra to answer his door. He’d had to call on the
sorcerer himself because his clerks were all too frightened to go. But he had
been younger then too. They came to a room. It was a small room for the size of the
palace, but a very large room to a man who lived in Rose Cottage. The soft
crimson carpet of the corridor con— tinued here, and the candelabra on the walls were ornate
gold, with great golden pendant drops made to look like dripping candle wax,
and the wallpaper was a weave of red and gold, patterned to look like ripples
of fabric bound with golden cords. There was a fire in a fireplace large enough
to roast the pony, and a table drawn up beside it, with a place laid for only
one person but with enough food for twenty. The merchant gave a great sigh and unsaddled the pony. She
staggered forward and stood, swaying and steaming, in front of the fire; then
she turned her head and ate three apples out of a silver-gilt bowl on the
table. “I wish there was hay for you,” said the merchant, picking up a loaf of
bread and breaking it into pieces with his hands and offering it to her; she
ate it greedily. But as he held it out to her, something caught at the corner
of his eye; he looked over her shoulder and saw ... a golden heap of hay in a
little alcove on the other side of the fireplace, opposite the table. He would
have sworn that neither hay nor alcove had been there a minute before. But when
the pony had linished the bread, he turned her gently round, and she went lo
the hay at once, as he sat down at the table. He did not fall to as quickly as she; he was too worried
about his host. But he was tired and hungry almost past bearing, and he tried
to comfort himself with the thought that there was plenty of food here for two,
should the master of this place appear after all—or perhaps his hydra. He
looked again at the amount of food provided, and the single place setting, and
worried about the appetite of the creature usually catered for. Finally, and
half embarrassed, the merchant moved the single place setting round the edge of
the table, so that he was not sitting at the head but only on the master’s
right hand. He ate eagerly but hesitantly, looking often towards the
mouth of the lit corridor where he had entered, taking great pains to spill
nothing on the snowy tablecloth, laying the serving spoons exactly back where
he found them, choosing nothing that would by its absence spoil the elegant
appearance of the whole. By the time he was no longer hungry, his eyelids
seemed to be made of lead; with a tremendous effort of will he stood up from
the table, thinking he would lie down in front of the fire to sleep. His knee
knocked against something, and he discovered a little bed with many blankets
drawn up close behind him where he had sat at the table. He shivered because he
knew there had been no bed there earlier and he had heard nothing. But there it
was, and he was tired. He stayed awake jusl enough longer to pull the biggest
blanket off the bed and throw it over the now-dozing pony. He woke to the sound of munching. There was more hay in the
alcove, and his pony was going at it busily. There was also a bucket of water
and another of the remains of a feed of mixed corn. The blanket was still over
her, barely; it hung down to her toes on one side and was halfway up her ribs
on the other, and it was caked with rnud and pony hair. The merchant pulled it
off her—she paused to say good-morning, shoving at his breast with her nose—and
laid it in front of the fire, thinking sadly that their ghostly presence here
did not extend quite far enough after all, and hoping that perhaps he might be
able to brush the worst of the mud and hair off when the blanket was dry. But he was growing accustomed; when he turned back to his
side of the fire, he was not surprised to discover that his bed had
disappeared, and the largo table replaced with a smaller one, again with a
place setting for only one, but enough breakfast for six hungry old merchants.
“They are adjusting,” he murmured to himself. There was also a single red rose
in a silver vase. When he looked up from his breakfast, his eye was caught by
a small door in the wall opposite him, standing a little open. He obediently
crossed the room to investigate; within was a bathroom, gloriously appointed
and the bath full of steaming hot water; beyond that was a water-closet. When
he had climbed at length from the delightful bath, he found a new suit of
clothes waiting for him; when he returned to the main room, the blanket he had
laid before the fire was not merely dry but clean, and the pony herself was
clean and brushed and saddled with tack as fresh and supple as if it had been
oiled every night since the day it was made. The pony’s thatch of a forelock
had been braided and tucked under the browband, and she looked very pleased
with herself. “Thank you,” he said helplessly, standing in the middle of
the floor. “Thank you, thank you. You saved our lives.” There was no answer. He
turned towards the door and then paused, looking back at the breakfast table.
The remains of his breakfast were still there, as was the rose in the silver
vase. He remembered Beauty’s sad, half-joking wish, and plucked the rose out of
the vase, and put it into the breast of his coat. Then he took up the pony’s
rein and went through the archway, down the long crimson-carpeted corridor
towards the door, open now on a bright spring day. But the silence of the palace was shattered by roars as of
some enormous wild beast; his quiet pony reared and shrieked and .jerked the
rein out of his hands. He was knocked winded to the floor; when he struggled to
stand up, the bright doorway was blocked by a Beast who stood there. The merchant’s heart almost stopped beating in the first moments
of dumb terror. The Beast seemed not merely to blot out the sunlight but to
absorb it and grow even larger by its strength. The outside edge of his
silhouette was fuzzy and shimmering, as confusing to the eye as the merchant’s
view of the grey-white palace with its glinting white driveway had been the day
before. When the Beast stirred, rays of dazzling light shot in at the merchant
like messages from a lost world, but as he moved again, and they were effaced,
it was as if the Beast deliberately struck them away from the merchant, as a
cruel gaoler might strike at the outstretched hands of his prisoner’s
beseeching friends. The merchant’s first fumbling thought was that this Beast
was rearing on his hind legs, but then he saw that his shape was not unlike a
man’s—only hugely, grotesquely, bigger than any man—and that he dressed like a
man. Grasping at his reason, the merchant hoped it was only fear, and the
dazzling, narrow bursts of light, which made the Beast so difficult to see. He lifted
his eyes, trying to find this man-shaped Beast’s face, to look into his eyes,
the belter to plead with him, for would not a man-shaped Beast respond to the direct
look of a man? His gaze travelled up the vast throat, found the great heavy
chin, the jaw of a carnivore, the too-wide mouth, thin lips curled back in a
snarl, the deadly gleam of teeth—He could raise his eyes no farther; his mind
was disintegrating with terror. Before he lost himself to madness, he dropped his gaze to
look at the Beast’s garments, forced himself to stare at them, to recognise,
and to name to himself, cloth, buttons, laces, seams, gores, pleats. He saw
that the Beast was dressed entirely in black, and the clothes were themselves
odd, of no fashion the merchant knew. He wore an open, sleeveless gown, of some
kind of stiff heavy material overlaid with black brocade and trimmed in black
braid, which fell from thick gathers at the shoulders to a great whipping
length of hem which roiled out round him like half-opening wings as he paced
and roared. Beneath this was a long, soft, but close-fitting waistcoat,
embroidered, also in black, but in a pattern the merchant could not make out.
Even the shirt beneath it, the ruffle at the collar and wrists were unrelieved
black, as were the trunk-hose and the low boots, strapped tightly round the
ankles. The Beast threw back his head and roared a last time; then
he spoke, and his voice shook the walls. “1 have fed and sheltered you and your
creature when you both would have died in the blizzard else! And you repay my
kindness and hospitality by stealing my rose!” The merchant opened his mouth, but no words came. He leant
against the wall of the corridor and closed his eyes, waiting for the blow. “Speak!” The merchant opened his eyes. The Beast was standing still
at last, and now the sunlight streamed in round him; there was a wide channel
of light from the doorway to the merchant’s feet, one edge of it sculpted by
the shape of the Beast’s shoulder and the fall of his gown. Perhaps that gave
the merchant courage; perhaps it was that as the Beast was now standing, he was
half turned sideways, and with the wings of the gown collapsed round him, he
looked only huge, no longer big enough to obliterate the sky. The merchant
wondered where his pony had got to. “I—I—” The merchant’s voice was a croak, but as he discovered
he could again speak, his mind began to race, spilling out frantic excuses. “I
am very grateful—I am very grateful—truly 1 am—I know we would have died—we
were nearly dead—I am sorry about the rose—I was not thinking—that is, I was
thinking, but your house is so grand—I thought you would not miss it—it is just
that my youngest daughter grows roses, but the weather this year meant none of
them bloomed, and she was so sad, so sad, her roses are her friends, and she is
such a good girl, a kind girl, I thought to bring this one to her.. . .” As the merchant said, “Her roses are her friends,” the Beast
gave a little shudder. The merchant saw it in the ripple in the edge of the
channel of light, as the Beast’s gown swirled and fell still again. The
merchant had kepi his eyes fixed on that track of sunlight as he spoke, and now
both edges of the channel ran suddenly straight, as the Beast moved away from
the door. The merchant looked longingly out upon the shimmering while driveway,
at the border of smooth lawn he could see, and the dark haze of trees beyond,
but he knew there was no point in trying to run. The Beast would snatch him out
of the air before he reached the door. He wished again he knew where his pony
was. He glanced towards the Beast, who had his back to him, and
the merchant was suddenly, unwelcomely shaken by an unmistakable flare of pity,
for the Beast stood with his great shoulders and head bowed in a posture unfathomably
sorrowful. If he had been a man, and even if that man had threatened his life
but a moment before, the merchant would have put a hand on his shoulder. But he
was a Beast, and the merchant remained next to his wall. But he wondered .. .
and now, perhaps, he hoped. The Beast turned back towards the merchant, catching the
edge of the sunlight again, halving the bright track that led to the merchant’s
feet, and fragments of light glanced off the curves and angles of his face as
he turned. The merchant’s breath caught on a sob, and he turned his own face to
the wall. He did not dare close his eyes—were not the Beast’s footfalls
silent?—but he had, just then, confused by pity and dread and daylight, nearly
looked into the Beast’s face. “Your daughter loves roses, does she?” the Beast said at
last. Now that he was no longer roaring, his voice was so deep the merchant had
to strain to hear the words. “They grow for her. do they?” “Oh yes,” said the merchant eagerly, looking at the Beast’s
feet. “Everything in the garden grows for her, but the roses most of all.
Everyone in the town comments on it.” The merchant raised his eyes just lo the
Beast’s breast level; his peripheral vision told him the Beast still stood with
his shoulders stooped and his head lowered. The merchant was appalled when he
heard his own voice saying: “I—I—may I bring you some this summer, to—to
replace what I—I stole? Her—her—her wreaths are very much admired. ...” In the silence following his involuntary words, the merchant
heard his heart drumming in his ears, and there was a red fog over his vision
that was not explained by the crimson carpet. The Beast stood as if
considering. “No,” he said at last. “No. I want your daughter.” The merchant gasped; a great pain seized his breast, and two
tears rolled down his face. “Stand up, man, and catch your pony, and ride home. I could
kill you, you know, and it would be my right, for you have stolen my rose. But
I am not going to kill you. Go home and tell your daughter to come to me.” “No—oh no!” cried the merchant. “No—you may as well kill me
now, for I will not sacrifice one of my daughters to take my place!” “Sacrifice?” said the Beast. “I said nothing of killing the
girl. She will be safe here, as safe as you were, last night, till you stole my
rose. Nothing comes here that is dangerous—save me—and 1 give you my word she
will take no harm of me.” The merchant, far from standing up, had sunk down, as his
knees gave way, and now he bowed down till his fore— head nearly touched the floor, and covered his face with his
hands. “Nay, you think a Beast’s word is not to be trusted?” As the
Beast strode towards him, the merchant, in a final spasm of terror, struggled
again to his feet and spread his hands, thinking to meet his death as bravely
as he could, but all he feit was the sleek thickness of the Beast’s fur as he
forced his huge clawed hand into the breast of the merchant’s coat. He saw the
Beast’s great hand closing tight round the rose’s stem; when he opened it
again, the palm had been pierced by one of the thorns, and three drops of blood
fell softly to the crimson carpet, making a dark stain like a three-petal led
flower or the first unfurling of a rosebud. “I am a man in this,” said the Beast, staring down at the merchant;
the merchant felt that look burning into his scalp. “I keep my promises. By my
own blood I swear it. “I am lonely here—tell your daughter that. She is a kind
girl, you say. Just as no fierce creatures come here for fear of me, who am
fiercer, so no gentle ones come either. I desire companionship. “I give you a month; send her to me by then, or, believe
this, merchant—I will come and fetch her. Take her this as a token of my oath.”
And the Beast bowed down low before the merchant’s amazed eyes, tower than the
merchant would have guessed any Beast of such bulk could bow, till his long
mane trailed on the carpet and mixed with the crumpled wings of his black gown,
and laid the rose at the merchant’s feet. The Beast sprang up at a bound, turned, and took two steps
out of the doorway, turned again, and disappeared. The merchant heard no
footfalls, but perhaps that was only because of the ringing in his ears. He slowly picked up the rose and stood staring at it. As he
had fixed his mind on the Beast’s garments a little time before, now he fixed
his mind on this rose. It seemed to him he had never seen one so dark, in its
centre almost as black as the silhouette of the Beast; but the outer petals
were of a redness more perfect and pure than he could remember seeing anywhere
in his life, with no hint of blue suggesting purple, no weakening of its depth
of colour towards pink; and as most of Beauty’s roses reminded him of silk, so
this one reminded him of velvet. He looked up. He seemed quite alone, and his heartbeat no
longer deafened him. He took a cautious step; again his legs would hold him. He
turned away from the sunlight, walked back down the corridor, and found his
pony trembling in the now-empty alcove where she had spent the night. So glad
was she to see him that he led her without fuss back towards the front door and
towards the place where they had met the Beast, though he felt her neck under
his comforting hand still rigid with tear. He mounted just over the threshold,
and they set out on their journey once again. Chapter 5It was hardly noontime when the merchant saw the tiny
track to Rose Cottage winding off to the right of the wider track he was on,
which he had found almost at once, as soon as the pony had stepped into the
trees at the edge of the Beast’s garden. He was not fully convinced that he was
not still held in some dream-state manipulated by the Beast, and he often
reached out and touched the branches of trees, when they passed near enough, to
reassure himself of their reality—but what, he said to himself despairingly,
was not a sorcerer as great as the Beast capable of? But then Beauty was running towards him; she had seen him
from where she had been in the garden, and she flew to him, and half dragged
him off the pony, and embraced him, laughing, and crying Jeweltongue and Lionhcart’s
names. It wasn’t till all three sisters—and Teacosy—were there, hugging and
patting him and saying (or barking) how glad they were to see him (under the astonished
gaze of Lydia, who stopped eating to watch), how relieved they were to have him
home with them again, that it came to them he was not rejoicing with them. “Father, what is it?” said Lionheart. He shook his head. “Let me sit down—let us all sit down, and
I will tell you. Beauty—this is for you.” And he took the rose from the breast
of his coat. It should have been crushed and wilting after several hours in a
pocket, but it was not; it was still a perfectly scrolled, half-open
goblet-shaped bud of richest red, poised delicately on a long stem armed with
the fiercest thorns. “Oh! What a beauty!” said Beauty. “I have none of that
colour. I wonder if it would strike if I cut the stem?” Lionheart had turned to the pony. ‘That’s a good little
beast,” she said, not noticing how her father shivered at the word beast. “Is
she your profit from the city? You could have done much worse.” Jeweltongue was rubbing one of her father’s lapels between
her fingers. “That is the most elegant cloth. I wish I had some of that.
Perhaps 1 can ask the traders to look out for some for me when they come
through again. Father, you must tell me where you found it. Master Jack would
buy a coat ot that faster than his sisters order dresses.” “Father, you have pricked yourself,” said Beauty. “There is
blood on the stem.” And then the old merchant shuddered so terribly that he
nearly fell down, and the sisters forgot everything in their anxiety for him. He seemed to them to be feverish, and so they drew out his
bed, and pulled off his boots, and tucked him up with blankets and propped him
with pillows, and fed him soup, and told him not to talk but just to rest. He
wanted to resist them, but he found he had no strength to resist, so he drank
the soup and fay back, murmuring, “I will lie here just a little while, and
then I will tell you,” but as he said, “I will tell you,” his face relaxed, and
he was asleep. Once or twice that day he woke and said aloud in distress,
“I must tell you—I must tell you,” and each time one of the sisters went and
sat beside him, and took his hand, and said, “Yes. yes, of course you will tell
us, but wait a little till you’re feeling stronger. You have had a very long
journey, and you are weary.” Beauty dreamt the dream that night, but the endless corridor
was lined with rose-bushes, and while she could see no roses, their scent was
heavy upon the air. But this lime the perfume gave her no comfort, and the long
thorny branches tore at her as she tried to walk past them, and one caught her
cheek. With the sharp suddenness of the pain she almost cried out, only just
stopping herself by biting her lips, and when she touched her face, there was
blood upon her fingertips. When she woke, she found blood on her pillow; she
had bitten her lip in her sleep, and three drops had fallen on the pillow slip,
making a shape like a three-petalled flower or a rose-bud just unfurling. The old merchant slept all the rest of the next day, and
that night, and the day following, waking seldom, though sleeping restlessly,
and Beauty and Jeweltongue went about their ordinary tasks with heavy hearts
and distracted minds, wondering what their father would tell them and wishing
both that he might sleep a little longer so they need not hear it quite yet,
and that he might wake soon and let them know the worst. Lionheart, much valued
as she now was by her employers, had asked and been granted special leave to
come home every evening while her father was so ill, at least till she had some
notion of whether he grew sicker or would mend. She left before dawn and came
home after dark, riding her father’s pony, whom she had named Daffodil, and she
was tired and short of sleep, but so were all three sisters, for worry. On the third evening, at last, the old merchant’s head
cleared, and he called his daughters to him, that he might tell them his story,
and he told them all of it, sparing himself nothing. He finished by saying, “I
do not wish to lie to you now. But there is no question of Beauty taking my
place. As soon as I am strong enough again to walk that far, I will return to
the Beast’s palace. And then the Beast can deal with me as he sees fit. But I
am glad to have had the chance to see you all, my dears, my dearcr-lhan-dears,
this final time, to tell you how much 1 love you and to say goodbye.” Beauty had sat cold and motionless through the last of her father’s
story, and at these words the tears ran down her cheeks and dropped into her
lap. “Ah! That 1 should have asked you for a rose! I was selfish in my little, little
sorrow—and it is I who will take up the fate / have earned. Father, I am going
to the Beast’s palace.” He would not hear of it; but she would hear of nothing else,
and they argued. Beauty, always the gentle one, the peace-maker, was roused to
fury at last; she crossed her arms tightly over her stomach as if she were
holding herself together and roared like Lionheart—or like the Beast. But the
old man’s strength came back to him twice over in this, and for a little while
he was again the man he had been just after the death of his wife, wild with
the strength of grief and loss. And so the old merchant and his youngest
daughter shouted at each other till Teacosy fled the house and hid in the
now-crowded shed with the goat, the chickens, and the pony, Daffodil. But Jeweltongue and Lionheart, after a little thought, came
in on Beauty’s side, saying, “He says she will take no harm of him, and he
declared he would kill you!” “I am old, and the little left remaining of my life is
worthless; you love me, but that is all. The three of you will do well enough
without me.” But that all three of his daughters should range themselves
against him was too much for him after all, for he was older now, and the
winter had gone very hardly with him, and he had been near the end of what
remained of his bodily strength before the blizzard and the meeting with the
Beast. His fever came on him again, and he lay half senseless for many days,
rousing himself occasionally to forbid Beauty to leave him, although he seemed
to have forgotten where she was going. The sisters took a little of what
remained of their thatching money—for they had come through the lean winter
just past with a little to spare, partly on account of having one less mouth to
feed in their father’s absence—and paid the local leech for a tonic, but it had
no effect. “I do not think he will mend till I am gone,” said Beauty at
last, a fortnight after their father had come home with his dreadful news. But
then her sisters clung to her, and Jeweltongue wept openly, and even
Lionheart’s face was wet, although she had twisted her expression into her most
ferocious scowl. “I will—1 will surely be able to visit,” Beauty said,
weeping with them. “This palace must be close at hand—as Father has described
it. Or he is so great a sorcerer as to make it seem so, and I do not care the
truth of it. I am a quick walker—I will find a way to come here sometime and
tell you how I get on. It will—perhaps I will be like Lion-heart, who comes
home every seven days. I will—I will weed the garden, while Lionheart bakes
bread. Remember, he has—he has promised no harm to me. And—can a Beast who
loves roses so much be so very terrible?” Her eyes turned again to the red rose in the vase on the windows!]!.
It had opened slowly and was now a huge flat cupful of darkest red petals, and
its perfume filled the little house. As its colour was like none of her roses,
so was its perfume different from them also; this was a deeper, richer, wilder
smell, and it seemed almost to follow her round during the day, so that it was
in her mouth when she cleaned out the shed or weeded the farthest row in her
vegetable garden. And it came to her every night, in the dream, where the
rose-bushes now grew thicker and thicker, till they crossed the corridor and
tangled with the bushes on the other side, and she could only force her way
through them more and more slowly, wrapping her hands awkwardly in her skirts
as she handled the dangerous stems. And yet, in her dream, it never occurred to
her not to go on; it did not even occur to her to look behind her and see if
the way back was clear. Beauty had cut two bits off the long stem of the dark red rose
and thrust them into her cuttings bed, and she spoke to them every day, saying,
“Please shoot for me, for my sisters and my father, so that they may think of
me when they see you bloom,” for she in truth did not believe, in her heart of
hearts, that the Beast would keep his promise. But it was equally clear to her
that this was her fate, that she had called its name and it had come to her,
and she could do nothing now but own it. And so it was less than three weeks since the old mer— chant’s return when Beauty packed up the few things she had
chosen to take with her and set out. But she had thought often and long about
her Father’s story: how the Beast had been roused by the theft of the rose, how
he had dwindled and looked sad, how he had taken particular interest in the
daughter who believed her roses were her friends. And so she took one more
thing with her, secretly, tucked away in her clothing. She embraced her sisters on the doorstep in the early
morning. Their father had had a bad night, and Jeweltongue had sat up with him.
There were hollows under her eyes and heavy lines around her mouth, where there
had never been lines before. Lionheart looked little better, for her
late-and-early hours were telling even on her strength. The three of them spoke
quietly, for their father was finally asleep, and they hoped that he would not
learn that Beauty was gone till it was too late to stop or to follow her. Teacosy, aware that something had gone wrong with the old
merchant’s homecoming, had been shadowing each sister in turn so closely that
whoever was chosen for that hour could not move without tripping over her. In
the last few days she had apparently decided that the wrongness threatened
Beauty most and never left her side, generally creeping up the loft ladder
during the night to sleep on her feet and having to be carried down in the
mornings. She was now leaning against Beauty’s shins so heavily she felt like a
boulder instead of a small dog, except that boulders don’t tremble. “I cannot think the Beast’s palace can be found unless he
chooses it be found; surely Father will understand that searching is useless.
...” Beauty’s voice trailed away. “Do not forget to water my cuttings bed every
day; twice a day, if the summer grows hot....” Again her voice faltered. It was
difficult to think of what needed to be said when there was so much and so
little to choose from. Finally she stood silent, gripping her sisters’ hands,
smelling the warm human smell of them, the scent of each as precise and
individual as the shape of her face, and she was terribly aware that she was
going to a place where there would be no hands to grasp nor arms to embrace
her, and no friendly human smells. Jewel tongue loosed her hand from Lionheart’s and reached
into a pocket in her apron. “This is for you,” she said to Beauty. She held out
a tiny embroidered heart on a silk rope. “It’s to—to—I don’t know. It’s not to
remember us by, because I know you’ll remember us, but it’s to have something
to hold in your hand when you think of us. I—I only thought of it myself a few
nights ago; you know it’s been so hard to think clearly about anything since
Father returned.... I would have made you a rose, but I didn’t think I could do
one well enough in so short a time; hearts I can do in my sleep. As I think I
did this one. And—I’ve used some of Lionheart’s hair. You remember you picked
up the bits after you finished cutting it, and put them in the old sugar bowl
on the mantel? So you have both of us, Lionheart and me. Here. Take it.” Beauty released both hands to take the silk rope and set it
round her neck, and then the three sisters embraced, till Beauty broke away and
went running down the track, her tears cold on her face in the early-morning
breeze, and the desolate howl of Teacosy in her ears. When she came to the end of the little track that led to
Rose Cottage and set her feet upon the wider way that came up from the city and
wound past Longchance on its way to its end in the wild mountains of the east,
she closed her eyes and turned in a circle three times clockwise, and then she
walked three steps forward, holding her hand in front of her face just in case
she walked into a tree, though she was quite certain she would not. After three
steps she opened her eyes and found herself on a track only a little bigger
than the one that led off the main way to Rose Cottage, but it was a track she
was quite sure she had never seen before. The wood on either side of her beyond
the track looked older and wilder than thai around Rose Cottage. The tangle
here told her that there would be no frequent glimpses of farmland beyond, as
there were everywhere near Long-chance, where the undergrowth was regularly
cleared and the old trees were felled for firewood and building. Furthermore, running on either side of her, at just a little
distance, as if the track had once been broader, were two rows of beech trees,
as if lining a drive. She had seen few beeches since they had left the city,
and she had missed them. She left the track for a moment when there was a
tittle suggestion of a gap in the low scrub and put her hands on a beech tree.
The fee! of the smooth familiar bark gave her courage. She touched
Jeweltongue’s little embroidered heart and returned to the path. She wondered if her father had awakened yet, if he had
missed her, if Jeweltongue would tel! him she was only out in the garden, if Teacosy’s
wretchedness would give them alt away immediately. She wondered if she had been
right to guess that her father would not mend till she left—and that he would
mend when she did. Had the Beast sent his illness? Did he watch them from his
palace? What a sorcerer could and could not do could never quite be relied
on—not even always by the sorcerer. She could hate him—easily she could hate
him—for the misery of it if he had sent it. If he kept his promises like a man,
did he suppose that they, mere humans as they were, would keep theirs any less?
The price was high for one stolen rose, but they would pay it. If he had sent
her father’s illness to beat them into acquiescence, she would hate him for it. The bitterness of her thoughts weighed her down till she had
to stop walking. She looked again at the beech trees and, not waiting for a gap
this time, fought her way through to the nearest and leant against it. turning
her head so that her cheek was against the bark. The Beast is a Beast, even if
he keeps his promises; how could she guess how a Beast thinks, especially one
who is so great a sorcerer? It was foolish to talk of hating him—foolish and
wasteful. What had happened had happened, like anything else might happen, like
a bit of paper giving you a new home when you had none finding its way into
your hand, like a company of the ugliest, worst-tempered plants you’d ever seen
opening their flowers and becoming rose-bushes, the most beautiful, lovable
plants you’ve ever seen. Perhaps it was the Beast’s near presence that made her
own roses grow. Did she not owe him something for that if that were the case?
It was a curious thing, she thought sadly, how one is no longer satisfied with
what one was or had if one has discovered something better. She could not now
happily live without roses, although she had never seen a rose before three
years ago. She could not stand here forever, and she had best not go on
standing here at all. If the Beast had been watching them, if he was watching
her now, he would see no good reason for her stopping, because there was none.
And she wanted no sorcerous prods to send her more swiftly on her way. Would
the Beast tell her, if she asked, that her father had recovered? It was clear daylight when she reached the beginning of the
gardens and the white pebble drive. But even Beauty’s young eyes could not see
how far either the clearing or the palace itself extended; the building seemed
to run a very long way in both directions, and a distant dark irregular haze
seemed to suggest lhat the trees pressed up close just beyond its corners. Beauty walked down the drive, staring at the clipped box and
the stark paths and stone pools, thinking forlornly that there was nothing here
for her. Her eyes burnt with unshed tears, and she walked stiffly, because her
legs were trembling. This will not do at all! she said to herself, a little
frantically. I haven’t—I haven’t even met the Beast yet! But this was the wrong
thing to think of, because then fear and sorrow broke free of their bounds and
seized her. She turned off the path, and groped her way through the openings
in one of the hedges, and sat down on the edge of a stone pool. The stone was
coo] and hard like any stone, and this served to comfort her a little; she took
a deep sigh and contrived to find some humour in being comforted by the dull
grey coping of an uninteresting round pool. She looked at the statue in her
pool: a blank-faced maiden carrying an um and wearing what would have been
impractical and highly unstable draperies, except for the fact that they were
made of stone. The maiden was not nearly so graceful and attractive as the
statue in the centre of the garden at Rose Cottage. Beauty turned a little where she sat, to look at the palace
again; it seemed to her very bleak, and she wondered if there was any rose that
would climb tall enough to soften its harsh face. Even the one galumphing over
the rear wall of Rose Cottage (its stems were now appearing on the far side,
and Beauty predicted that in another year or two it would likely be locked in a
battle for precedence with the slightly more subdued one by the front door)
might find this palace too much for it. Then she thought of window-boxes under
all those gigantic, joyless windows, full of cheerful, untidy plants like
pansies and trailing peas and nasturtiums, in the vividest colours possible.
She was by now genuinely smiling. I wonder where the Beast’s rose garden is, she thought, For
there is no sign of it here. She stood up and made her way slowly back to the drive and
more slowly yet towards the gaping front door. There were no candles lit today,
and in the bright daylight the open door looked like the mouth of a cave. Or of
a Beast. She came to within a few steps of the portico, and halted,
and could make herself go no farther. Her heart was beating so quickly she had
to keep swallowing, because it seemed to be leaping up her throat; her head
felt light, and there was something wrong with her vision, as if everything she
looked at were no more than an elaborate mirage. ... She touched Jeweitongue’s
embroidered heart again. The decision was made; she was here; she would not
turn back; she would not even look back over her shoulder... . She had been standing, staring at the portico and the door beyond
in a kind of half trance. A shadow caught the comer of her eyes, and she spun
round, backing away so quickly that she blundered against the nearest box
hedge; it pricked her sharply even through her skirts. She stumbled, regained
her balance, and stood staring at the Beast. She was less lucky than her father, who had never looked the
Beast clearly in the face. The old merchant had had some little warning of the
Beast’s approach by hearing him roar before he appeared and was therefore
already frightened enough to have difficulty looking at the threat directly;
and the Beast had remained, throughout that interview, with his back to the
daylight. Beauty had had the warning of her father’s experience, but it was the
wrong sort of warning, or she had taken the wrong warning from it. She had
thought only that this Beast was a very iarge, strong, and therefore dangerous
Beast, who was the more terrifying because he walked and dressed and spoke like
a man. Had she had the opportunity to choose, she would still have
chosen to look immediately into the Beast’s face upon meeting, to have the
worst borne and past at once. But the worst borne is not necessarily past and
over with thereby. The worst of fighting a dragon is being caught in its fire,
but you do not survive dragon encounters by commanding your muscles to
withstand dragon fire, because you and they cannot. You survive by avoiding
being burnt. Beauty knew no better than to wish to marshal her forces before
she met the Beast, though that marshalling would not have saved her. As it was,
she was surprised into looking into the Beast’s face. The contrasts she found there were too great: wisdom and despair,
power and weakness, man and animal. These made him far more terrible than any
hungry lion, any half-tamed hydra, any angry sorcerer, terrible as something
that should not exist is terrible, because to recognise that it does exist
shakes that faith in the foundations of the natural world which human beings
must have to bear the burden of their rationality. Later Beauty thought of a metaphor to explain the shock of
that first sight of the Beast: She felt as if she were melting, like ice in
sun. Water is perhaps a kind of ice, but it is not ice, it is water.
Whatever—whoever—she was, it was being transformed implacably into something
else; she was being undone, unmade, annihilated. .,. But that unravelling
thought—which she would later put the words to of ice burning in the heat of
the sun—made her drowning mind throw up a memory of those last days in the
city. And she remembered staring into the eyes of the salamander, into those
two pits of fire whose dangerous heat she had felt, and she heard the
salamander’s dry, scratchy voice saying, I give you a small serenity. With her last conscious strength, she cupped her hands and
immediately felt the warmth between the palms, as if she held a small sun; and
then the heat surged up her arms and into her body, reaching into every niche
and cranny, till it had reshaped her flesh into her own precise, familiar,
individual contours, and she was neither water nor ice nor unmaking but again
herself. And she opened her mouth and gasped for air, for since she had raised
her eyes to the Beast’s eyes, she had not breathed. All of this took no more than a minute, as clocks understand
lime. She lowered her eyes then, and wishing to regain her composure
and not wishing to appear rude, she dropped a curtsy, as she would have done to
a great lord of the city, keeping her eyes upon the ground; but the graceful
dip of her curtsy was hampered by the box hedge. She could not quite bring
herself to step away from it, for any step forward would take her nearer the
Beast. “You need not curtsy to me,” said the Beast. “I am the
Beast, and you will call me that, please. Can you not bear to look at me?” She looked up at once, pierced to the heart by the sorrow in
his voice and knowing, from the question and the sorrow together, that he had
no notion of what had just happened to her, nor why. From that she pitied him
so greatly that she cupped her hands again to hold a little of the salamander’s
heat, not for serenity but for the warmth of friendship. But as she felt the
heat again running through her, she knew at once it bore a different quality.
It had been a welcome invader the first time, only moments before; but already
it had become a constituent of her blood, intrinsic to the marrow of her bones,
and she heard again the salamander’s last words to her: Trust me. At
that moment she knew that this Beast would not have sent such misery as her
father’s illness to harry or to punish, knew too that the Beast would keep his
promise to her, and to herself she made another promise to him, but of that promise
she did not yet herself know. Trust me sang in her blood, and she could
look in the Beast’s face and see only that he looked at her hopefully. This time it was he who looked away first. “If you will
follow me, I will show you to your rooms,” he said. “I—I would rather see your garden. I—I mean, your
flower-garden,” she said almost shyly, and hesitating to mention roses. She
look one, two, three tiny steps away from the box hedge. The Beast was so
large! And it would be easier to be near him outdoors, in these first few
minutes of—of—in her first attempts to adjust to—to—She did not think she could
bear to look at the rooms she was now to live in, that did not have her sisters
in them. Roses might comfort her, a little. Or if they could not, nothing
could. ., . She shook herself free of that thought quickly and allowed instead
her gardener’s passion to be drawn by die prospect of roses which bloomed so
far out of their season as the one diat had decorated their father’s breakfast
table, the one which still stood in the window of—No! She would not let herself
think of it. Roses; she was thinking of roses, of what a great sorcerer indeed
the Beast must be, to have roses blooming in winter. She might have been frightened of the Beast’s silence if she
had not been so absorbed by her thoughts, in not thinking the thoughts that
most pressed on and plucked at her. She came to herself and noticed his silence
and wondered if she had offended him, and a small cold prickle of fear touched
her. But then he said: “You will see... what remains of my garden.” He looked
out over the box hedges, the paths, and the stone pools, and she thought that
they brought him no pleasure; this was not what he thought of when he thought
of his garden. “Later.” He led her into his great house, and Beauty followed
timidly, keeping not too near to him, but not—she hoped—too far away.
Everything was silent, except when Beauty brushed her hand against a curtain,
or a dangling crystal drop from a low sconce—just to hear the sound. The carpet
was deep, and neither her footsteps nor the Beast’s made any noise at all; nor
did he make any further attempt at conversation, and she could think of nothing
she wished to say to him. But there was still—wasn’t there?—some odd quality to this silence,
a heaviness, as if the air itself were denser here than usual, that it did not
carry sound as ordinary air did, that it required a slightly greater effort
than usual to walk through. Was this what a sorcerer’s house always felt like?
She had never been invited indoors at the house of the salamander’s master, but
he had also been retired, so perhaps that would still have told her nothing.
There had been no sense of oppression—of otherness—in his front garden,
except by what the salamander provided in its own self, and that was all she
knew. There was an almost liquid quality to this air, to this unknown ether
coiling among the solid objects, herself and the Beast among them. She waved
her arm in front of her and fancied that she saw liny, ghostly ripples of
turbulence, like the surface of a troubled pond, following the motion. But even this occupied only part of her attention. She was
so astonished by everything she saw that this oppression—whatever caused it—was
not as great as that simpler oppression of spirits she had anticipated when she
had followed the Beast indoors. She knew that her weariness of soul and body,
after what had already happened to her both today and all the days since her
father had relumed from his disastrous journey, made her more susceptible to
intimidation, but knowing this, she was still oppressed and intimidated and had
little power of resistance. This indoors was so unlike what she had left, so unlike even
the very grand house they had had, long ago, in the city when they had been
wealthy. It seemed to her that this house was as much grander than their city
house as their city house was to Rose Cottage, and it was Rose Cottage that she
loved, far more than she had ever loved anything in the city. And the walls
were so high and wide, the ceilings so distant that the Beast seemed no larger
than an ordinary man, in such a setting, but Beauty felt no bigger than a
beetle, creeping after him. At last they came to an enormous circular room, with an eight-pointed
star inlaid upon the floor, and eight doorways leading out of it, and sunlight
through a dome overhead, the dome ringed with an inlay that matched the star.
Even here the Beast’s footfalls made no sound, but Beauty’s more ordinary shoes
made a soft tapping on the smooth bare floor. The Beast strode across the star
without hesitation, the wings of his gown laying flying shadows over the
sparkling tiles, and threw open one of the doors. “I will leave you now,” he
said. “If there is anything you need, say it aloud, and if it is within this
house’s power—or mine—it will be brought to you at once.’’ He turned to go the
way they had come. “Oh, but wait,” said Beauty. “Please. Your garden—” “Later,” said the Beast, his hand on the door, and he
crossed the threshold without pausing. Beauty looked after him as the door closed behind him, but
as soon as she looked away—to the other doors, to the sun lighting up the gilt
and coloured enamel tiles in the floor—she no longer knew which door they had
entered by. She turned to the one that had remained open, the one the Beast had
opened for her. Inside was an enormous room, or rooms. There were no proper
doorways with doors, hut a series of large spaces semidivided by half-width
walls, their demarcations more clearly indicated by the arrangement of the
furnishings. There were jungles of furniture, cities of statuary, and the walls
were thick with tapestries and paintings. The outer rooms of the palace which she had seen had been
even larger, more dramatically designed, more spectacularly ornamented: these
rooms were almost more humbling by being closer to her own experience of wealth
and magnificence. She knew she did not belong in this palace; this recurred to
her with every caress of the queer thick air against her skin. But in these
rooms ... It was a little as if a king had decided to reward a farmer, and
knowing the farmer would have no use for, nor interest in, silks and velvets
and fancy wines, still gave him a phaeton and a team of blood horses when he
would rather have had a good pair to pull his plough. It took her a little while to realise that her sense of the
wrong sort of familiarity—the not merely disorienting, the distressing pull
towards something unsuitable, as the farmer might have admired, and even longed
for, the phaeton team—was caused by the fact that every decorative pattern,
every carving, every lick of paint and bit of fabric, were of vines and flowers
and trees and fruit. And the commonest representation was of roses. The carpet she first stepped ob from the mosaic floor of the chamber of the star was dark
green, but it was also thick with huge pale pink cabbage roses. Towards the
first wide door space these grew darker till in the next room the roses were
all a vivid pink; but they faded again and lost some of their petals towards
the next doorway, till in the next room the roses Beauty walked on opened fiat,
their golden stamens showing in the centre of but a dozen or so gracefully
curved petals which were pink-tipped and cream-hearted ... and so on. The wallpaper—what could be seen of it—all bore small
climbing roses in different colours, and the table that stood in the centre of
the first room, so that Beauty had to go round it to reach the next, had roses
carved in relief round its edge, and inlaid in exquisitely tinted pietra dura
across its surface; the stems of the torcheres, standing in slender elegant
clusters in every corner, were wound round with roses, and tiny rosebuds
surrounded each individual candle: a stone maiden, not unlike the one Beauty
had seen in the pool in the front garden, stood holding a bowl of roses over
her head, whose brim she had tipped, and she was so covered by a cascade of
stony roses that all of her that was visible were an eye, one cheek, a smiling
mouth, and the tips of her toes. In the second room the panelled walls were almost entirely
covered by a series of tapestries portraying a garden in each of the four
seasons. “You’re cheating,” murmured Beauty, for there were roses showing in
both the spring and autumn scenes, as well as rioting so profusely across the
summer ones it was almost impossible to ignore them long enough to see what
else was represented. “But perhaps it is true here,” Beauty said; “perhaps this
is the garden I have yet to see?” And she heard the hope in her voice, but she
also feit the wrench as she averted her mind from recollecting a dark red rose
on a cottage windowsill. She walked over and touched one of the summer tapestries
with her hands. A little peacefulness seemed to sink through her skin at the
contact, and she realised that the dense air of this palace was lighter in
these rooms, in her rooms, and her lungs did not labour here. She felt the tiny
pressure of the silk rope round her neck that bore the little embroidered
heart; she remembered the comfort of the touch of the beech tree in the middle
of the wild wood, remembered the moment before the front door of the palace
when she had known the Beast would keep his promise to her ... and, before she
could stop herself, remembered the last moments of her sisters’ arms round her
and their scent in her throat. It was in the midst of that memory, as she took
a deep, steadying breath, that she became aware of another scent. She dropped her hands and turned round, and on a tall
japanned cupboard she found a china bowl full of dried rose petals. She drew
her fingers through them—as she had often drawn her fingers through rose petals
in smaller cracked or chipped bowls or saucers that stood at various sentinel
posts around Rose Cottage—and gloried in the smell released; but at the same
time there was a tiny doubt in the back of her mind that this was not quite the
same rose smell as—as—When? Just now? Just when? She looked round, puzzled.
Perhaps there were other bowls of other sorts of roses’ petals scattered about
in these rooms, though she had not seen them. What she seemed to be remembering
was a deeper, richer, almost wilder smell, a smell that might almost have given
her dreams. She walked on through the rooms, following a wide swathe of
sunlight. At last she came to what she recognised as a bedroom, because it
contained a bed, although the bed was so tall it required its own short flight
of stairs, drawn up against one long side (its wooden surfaces carved with
rose-buds, its tread carpeted with pink rose-buds), and its curtains (patterned
with crimson roses) looked too heavy for her to move by herself. She walked
over to it, slid out of the straps that held her small bundle of belongings to
her back, dropped the bundle at the foot of the bed. It tipped over and
disappeared under the trailing hems of the bed-curtains. On the wall nearest the bed there was a fireplace, with a
fire laid but not lit on the clean-swept grate, the tips of whose uprights and
crosspieces were round flat open roses. Round the corner from it were two
doors. She opened the first and found a tidy water-closet, with a subdued
pattern merely of grapevines on its walls and one tactful candle sconce
dripping golden grape leaves. But the second door opened upon a bathroom as
grand as a ballroom, the walls gold-veined mirrors, the floor pink marble, and
the bathtub as large as a lake, its taps so complicated by water violets and
yellow flags it was hard to guess how they worked. The whole effect was so
gaudy she took an involuntary step backwards, and then she laughed aloud. “No,
no, I can’t use anything like this; I won’t; I should drown in the
bath—supposing I ever made sense of diose taps—fall down on the floor, and be
horribly embarrassed by the walls. I’d rather wash out of a teacup, standing up
in front of the fire, thank you.” She closed the door hastily and continued her exploration.
There was a vast wardrobe suitable for hanging dresses, and nexl to it a chest
of drawers with matching footstool, so that you could see into the top drawer
when you opened it (both chest and footstool were festooned with roses twisted
among the delicate stars of virgin’s bower). Next to that were a lower table,
with what was probably a jewel-case (painted over with roses) sitting on it,
and a cushioned chair (its needlework seat pansies and roses). “You are all
very handsome, but nothing to do with me,” she said, and made no move to open
anything. “All I need is one small—quite small—shelf, if you please. You do
know what small means?” She turned back towards the bed, and there next to it, in a
corner of the fireplace wall, was a small white-painted shelf, perfectly
plain—she blinked—no, it was not perfectly plain; almost while roses were
dusted all over it, almost white with the faintest blush of pink, that caught
the eye only after you had been looking at it for a little time—because of
course it must be nonsense to think she had watched them coming into being.. .
. “But what do I know of housekeeping in enchanted palaces?” she said. She
looked at the edge of her bundle, just visible as a wrinkle in the bottom of
the bed-curtains, and thought, No, I cannot bear unpacking just now. She looked
round again at the huge, beautiful, crowded room. Not now. Not here. She walked rather quickly towards the window, which took up
half the wall; curtains were bunched on its either side, and there was a
dignified frill at its head, but the tall panes reached the floor and were
hinged like doors. She went to them, pushed the centre ones open, and stepped
outside onto a narrow balcony. The warmth of the sun wrapped round her like the arms of a
friend or of a sister, and her desolation struck her, and the tears rushed down
her face, and she sobbed till she could not stand and knelt on the balcony,
clinging to the rail, pressing her wet face against the warm stone. She wept
until her throat hurt and her eyes were sore and her head ached, and then she
stopped because she was too tired to weep anymore. After a little time she
stood up and went back into the bedroom to look for water to wash her face, and
there it was, on a little table near the fireplace, a generous basin of it,
with pink soap and an assortment of ruby-coloured towels; the outlines of roses
were stitched in red thread along their hems. The water was warm, as warm as
the sunlight, although it stood in shadow; she looked round, to catch sight of
some servant leaving, but saw no one. How silent the palace was! No rustle and murmur of human
life, not even birdsong, the scritch and patter of mice in the walls, or the
creak of beams adjusting their load. Nothing but the silence, the thick, liquid
silence, a silence that was itself a presence. A listening presence. This house was quieter even than their city house had been
during the last weeks they had lived there. Hastily she picked up the soap. It was very fine, smooth
soap and made her aware, as she had not been aware for many months, of her
rough gardener’s hands, and it smelt of roses. Her tears began to flow again,
so she set the soap down and made do with the warm water. Then she returned to
the balcony. From where she stood, the palace ran round at Least three
sides of an immense courtyard. She could see only partway along the long faces
to either side of her and could not see at al! where the fourth side should
run, or whether it was open or not, because her view was blocked by a
glasshouse. The glasshouse was itself big enough to be a palace, and it
glittered so tempestuously in the sun she had to find a patch in its own shade
for her eyes to rest upon. It was very beautiful, tier upon graceful tier of it
rising up in a shining silvery network of curves and straight lines, each join
and crossing the excuse for some curlicue or detail, the cavalcades of panes
teased into fantastic whorls and swoops of design no glass should have been
capable of. Merely looking at it seemed an adventure, as if the onlooker’s gaze
immediately became a part of the enchanted ray which held the whole dazzling,
flaring, flaunting array together. Beauty found that she was holding her breath—in delight; and
when she expelled it, a laugh came with it. The glasshouse was joyous, exuberant,
absurd; immediately she loved it. It was her first friend, here in the Beast’s
gigantic palace, sunken in its viscous silence. At the very top of the glasshouse—she blinked against the
glare—was a small round cupola and what she guessed was a weather vane,
although she could not identify its shape, but she thought she saw it move. The
palace was three immense storeys tall, but the glasshouse was taller yet. She had turned and was making her way quickly back through
the long swirl of rose-covered rooms before the idea had finished forming in
her mind: There is the Beast’s garden. Chapter 6She half ran out upon the round chamber with the star in its
floor. She stood in the centre, turning round and round, with the sun pouring
down on her, and her feet playing hide-and-seek with the coloured tiles in the
centre of the star. ‘‘Oh! I shall never find my way! How do I go to the
glasshouse?” She had spoken aloud only in her private dismay, and had only just
noticed that there were len doors instead of eight, and had begun to tell
herself she must have miscounted the first time when one door swung slowly
open. She fled through it before she had time to change her mind, before she
had time to be frightened again or to weep for loneliness. The garden would
comfort her. She had only the briefest impression of a portrait of a
dauntingly grand lady in an extravagantly furbelowed frame, hanging on the
first turn of the corridor beyond the door, before she rushed past it. She was
remembering the glasshouses in their garden in the city, which were paltry
things compared to this one, nor could they convince their summer flowers to
bloom quite all year round—not even the mayor’s great glasshouse could do that,
with its hot-water pipes, which ran beneath all its benches and floors, and its
shifts of human stokers, working night and day, to keep the boiler up to
temperature—and the winters there were much milder than in the environs of
Longchance and Appleborough. Perhaps this glasshouse was the answer to the
question of how the Beast had had a rose with which to ensnare her father. ...
She jerked her thought free of that grim verb ensnare. But perhaps it
was only a glasshouse, and not sorcery, thai was the answer to her question. Unexpectedly she found herself remembering something Mrs
Greendown had said to her: Roses are far love. Not silly sweethearts’ love
but the love that makes you and keeps you whole, love that gets you through the
worst your life ‘II give you and that pours out of you when you’re given the
best instead.... There aren ‘t many roses around anymore because they need more
love than people have to give ‘em. to make ‘em flower, and the only thing
that’ll stand in for love is magic, though it ain ‘t as good, and von have to
have a lot of magic, like a sorcerer. ... But the Beast was a sorcerer, wasn’t he? Of course. He must
be. The corridor twisted and twisted again, and the sunlight
came through windows in what seemed any number of wrong directions, and she
began to wonder at the decisiveness of her feet, so briskly stepping along,
nearly scampering, like Teacosy after a thrown stick... . But then the world
straightened out, with a lurch she seemed almost to feel, and there was a door
to the outside, which opened for her, and she stepped through it and was in the
courtyard she had seen from her balcony, and the glasshouse was in front of
her. She approached it slowly after all. It was very splendid and
very, very large, and she felt very small, and shy, and shabby—“Well, I am very
small and shabby,” she said aloud. “But at least my face and hands are clean.”
And she held up her clean hands like a token for entry. “No, that is the wrong
magic to enter even a magic garden,” she said, and looked up at the glasshouse
towering over her, and all its gorgeous festoonery seemed to be smiling down at
her, and again she laughed, both for the smiling and for the ridiculousness of
the notion. “Here,” she said, and reached inside the breast of her shirt
with one hand, and drew out a small wrapped bundle of the cuttings she had brought,
and with her other hand reached into her pocket and drew out a handful of
rose-hips. She stepped forward again, holding her gifts to her body, hut when
she catnc Lo the glasshouse door, she held them out, as if beseechingly. And then she laughed yet again, but a tiny, breathless snort
of a laugh, a laugh at her own absurdity, tucked her rose-hips and her cuttings
back inside her clothing, set her hand upon the glasshouse door, and stepped
inside. She had been able to see little of what might lie inside the
glasshouse from her balcony because the sun was so bright; she had had some
impression of shadows cast, but she was unprepared for what she found. The
glasshouse’s vastness was entirely filled with rose-bushes. The tall walls were
woven over with climbers, and the great square centre of the house was divided
into quarters, and each quarter was a rose-bed stuffed with shrub roses. But they were all dead, or dying. Beauty walked slowly round the edges of the great centre
beds, looking to either side of her, looking up, looking down. Occasionally
some great skeletal bush had managed to throw up a spindling new shoot bearing
a few leaves; she saw no leaves on the climbers, only naked stems, many of them
as big around as her wrists. She had thought when she first saw the
thorn-bushes massed round the statue in the garden of Rose Cottage that they
were dead; but she had not known what sleeping rose-bushes look like. She knew
now. The Beast’s roses were dying. In the last comer she came to, her head turned of its own
volition, following a breath of rich wild sweetness, and there was the bush
that had produced the dark red flower that had sat on her father’s breakfast
table in the Beast’s palace and on Rose Cottage’s windowsill. The living part
of it was much smaller than the dead, but living it was, in all the sad desert
of the magnificent glasshouse; three slender stems were well clothed in dark
green glossy leaves, and each stem bore a flower-bud. Two of these were still
green, with only their tips showing a faint stain of the crimson to come, but
the third was half open, just enough for its perfume to creep out and greet its
visitor. Beauty knelt down by the one living bush and slowly drew out and laid
her cuttings and her rosehips in her lap, as if demonstrating or offering them
or asking acceptance; and then, as if involuntarily, both hands reached out to
touch the bush. The stems nodded at her gently, and the open flower dipped as
if in greeting or blessing. “We have our work laid out for us, do we not?” she
said softly, as if speaking in the ear of a friend. She left the rose-hips in a little heap under the living
bush but stood up again holding her cuttings, looking round her thoughtfully.
“Where shall I put you?” she said aloud. “Shall I make a little bed for you, so
that 1 can watch you, or shall I plant you now and hope you will give hope and
strength to your neighbours? You must be brave then, because I cannot spare
even one of you.” And so she planted them, one each in the four outer comers of
the centre beds, four more in the inner comers, sixteen more centred on each
side of each square. Her four cuttings from Rose Cottage’s two climbers she
placed in the four comers of the glasshouse, beneath the skew-whiff jungle ot”
the old climbing stems. She found a water-butt and watering-can near the door
she had entered by, and she watered each of her tiny stems, murmuring to them
as she did so, and by then the sun was sinking down the sky, and the glasshouse
was growing dim, and she was tired. She said good-evening to the one living bush and the pile of
rose-hips and went to the door; with her hand on the faceted crystal doorknob
she turned and said: “I will return tomorrow; I will make a start by pruning—by
trying to prune you—all of you—Oh dear. There are so many of you! But I shall
attend to you all, I promise. And I must think about where to make my seedbed.
Sleep well, my new friends. Sleep well.” She went out and closed the door
softly behind her. She had taken little thought of how to go where she wished
to go; she had turned automatically in the direction she had come, but brooding
about the dying roses, she had only begun to notice that she seemed to be
walking into a blank wall ... when suddenly there was an opening door there.
She stopped and blinked at it. She supposed it was the same door she had come
out by; all the palace walls looked very much alike. She turned and looked at
the glasshouse. The glasshouse had only one door; she had looked very carefully
while she was inside it. Very well, the glasshouse was her compass, and this
was the way she had come when she left the palace, and the door was set very
cleverly into the palace wall so that it was invisible until you were very
near, and an awful lot of these doors did seem to open of themselves, although
the Beast had opened doors in the usual way, and the glasshouse had waited (politely,
she felt; it was what doors were supposed to do) for her to open its door. She stared at the palace door, now standing open like any
ordinary door having been opened by ordinary means. Very well, she knew she had
entered an enchantment as soon as she set foot on the white-pebbled drive
leading to the palace; if self-opening doors were the worst of it, she was ...
she could grow accustomed. She looked up again and could see the weather vane twinkling
in the golden light of the setting sun. She thought for a moment that it
twinkled because it was studded with gems—anything seemed possible in this
palace, even a jewel-encrusted weather vane—but then she realised that it was
carved, or cut out, in such a way that what she was seeing were tiny flashes of
sunlight through the gaps as it turned slowly back and forth on its stem. She
strained her eyes, but she was no nearer guessing what its shape was. Twinkle.
Twinkle. There was no breath of the breeze that the weather vane felt on the
ground where she stood. She went through the open palace door, and some of the candles
were now lit in their sconces—even though the sconces lit seemed to be in
different locations on the walls from when they had been unlit—and shone
brighter than the grey light coming through the tall windows. Just over the
threshold she paused and looked round her. There had been a little square table
beside the door to the courtyard, a little square table of some dark reddish
wood, with a slope-shouldered clock on it, and the clock had a pretty painted
face. She had only caught a glimpse of it, for she had been in a hurry to go to
the glasshouse, but she was quite sure of the table and the clock. The clock was
still there, but it now had an inadequately clad shepherdess and two lambs
gambolling over its curved housing, and the table was round. She followed the lighted corridor till she came to the
chamber of the star—eight doors; she counted and shook her head—and found the
door to her rooms open for her. She drifted through them till she came to her
bedroom, and she looked at the bed, longing to lie down on it and be lost in
sleep, and her hand readied up and grasped the embroidered heart. But there was a beautiful scarlet and crimson dress laid
across the bed, and stockings and shoes, and a necklace lay almost invisible on
the ruby towels of the washstand, so dark were its red stones, and there was
fresh warm water in the basin and a steaming ewer at the foot of the table. “I
am to dress for dinner, am 1?” she said wearily; but she was too tired either
to protest or to be afraid of seeing the Beast again (he is so very large,
whispered a little voice in her mind), and so she washed, and dressed herself,
and clasped the necklace round her neck and the drops in her ears, and tucked
the little embroidered heart at the end of its long rope into the front of her
bodice, and tied up her hair with the ruby-tipped pins she found under the
necklace. When she went to the chamber of the star, she was too tired
to count the doors, too tired to do anything but concentrate on not listening
to the little voice in her head, saying, You will not be able to see him
clearly, now, as the twilight deepens, and the candle flames throw such strange
shadows; he is dark, almost black, and he wears black clothing, and he walks
very quietly—noiselessly; you will not know where he is until he is just beside
you.... The chamber of the star itself was dark, the first stars
showing through the dome overhead, but another door was open for her, and
candles gleamed through it, and she went towards the light at once, her shoes
pattering like mice..., He is so very large, whispered the voice. She went down the dim candlelit corridor surrounded by darkness,
and suddenly she was in her dream. Her tiredness dropped away, and panic replaced it. Her heart
drummed in her ears, and her vision began to fail her; she sat down where she
was, in the middle of the corridor, with her cascades of skirts and petticoats
flying round her, and she was weeping again, weeping like a child, wholehearted
and despairing, for she was all, all alone, and the monster waited for her—for
her— “Beauty—” The Beast had approached her as silently as he had done that
morning, as silently as the little voice had said he would. She looked up
through her tears, snapping her head back so quickly her neck sent a sharp
shock of pain up and down her spine, and all she could see was a great dark
shape bending over her from the coiling shadows. She shrieked and scrabbled
away from him, dragging herself along on all fours, smothered by her skirts.
She could not see properly, between tears and darkness; she thudded into the corridor
wall and stopped because she had to. The jolt shook the panic’s hold on her;
she still wept, but less violently, and then she remembered the Beast. She rubbed her face with her hands and tried to look up at
him again, but she could not find him in the shadows. Was he there, in the
corner between the tallboy and the wall, or there, where the shadow of that
plinth extended the black pool of shadow left by the heavy deep frame of that
picture? .. . Fear seized and shook her, as savagely as if cruel hands held her
shoulders; but she set her will against it and forced it back, and then another
little unhappy fear said to her: What if he had left her before she had a
chance to apologise? Speaking into the darkness, she said; “I—1 am sorry—please
forgive me—it is a dream—a dream I have had since childhood—that I am
lost—walking down a dark corridor, alone, and—and—” She scrambled somehow to
her feet, stepping on her skirts, needing to lean against the wall to sort
herself out, knocking her hand against the frame of another picture, its
subject invisible in the gloom though she stood directly next to it. The Beast
had emerged from the shadows by taking a step towards her, his hand outstretched
to offer her his aid, but she saw him check himself before the gesture
was completed; had she not shrieked at the sight of him but a moment before? She was ashamed. She would not—she would not—be frightened
of him; he was what he was, and he had made a promise he would keep, ll is only
the silly human way of needing to be able to see everything; if Teacosy were
here, she would know at once everything she needed to know through her nose..
.. The shadows fell across his face, but she could hear him breathing. There
was a faint, elusive odor; it reminded her of the scent she had caught—or
imagined—in her rooms that afternoon. “The dream—the dream has frightened me all my life.” She
moved towards him in such a manner that he must turn to look at her, turn so
that the candlelight fell once more on his face. She saw him flinch as it
touched him, and she kept her eyes steadily on his face. “I am ashamed of
myself.” She heard the rumble of his voice, like a low growl, before
he spoke any words: “Do not be ashamed. There is nothing to forgive. This ...
house ... is large, and it is strange to you. As am I,” He paused. “But I know
that dream. 1 have had it too. And you have not told me all of it, have you?
There is something that waits for you at the end of the corridor. Something
that waits just for you. Something terrible. A monster—or a Beast.” “Yes.” said Beauty gravely. “You are right. Something does wait
at the end of the corridor. But it is a monster—not a Beast.” They stood still, the shadows curling round them, the little
glow of the candlelight on their two faces. The Beast turned away at last, saying, “I am keeping you
from your dinner.” He raised his arm, that she might precede him, but she
slipped up to him, and put her arm through his, and led him down the corridor,
the long train of her skirts rustling behind them, the Beast silent beside her.
It was only then that she realised that the corridor was full of a wild rich
rose smell, and that the smell came from the Beast himself. Dinner was laid in a hail so tall and wide that both walls
and ceiling were lost in darkness, though there were several many-armed
torcheres clustered round the end of the table nearest them as they came
through the door. The Beast held the chair at the head of the table for Beauty;
she settled herself in it reluctantly, and it was not till he had sat down some
little distance from her that she realised there was a place setting only for
her. “Do you not eat with me?” she said in simple surprise. He lifted his shoulders and spread his hands—paws. “I am a
Beast; I cannot eat like a man. I would not disgust you—in any way I can
prevent.” Beauty bowed her head. When she looked up, her plate had
been served, though she was quite sure the Beast had not moved. She ate a
little, conscious of the Beast’s silent presence. (What is he looking at? said
the little voice in the back of her mind. Even sitting down, he is—so very
large. Look! One of his hands—half curled, there, as it lies—one of his hands
is as large as—as large as that bowl of fruit. And see! The nails are as long
as your fingers, shining and curved like crescent moons, the tips sharp as poignards....)
She finished quickly, saying, “1 fear I am not very hungry; it has been a—a
long and tiring day. I must ask you to forgive me—again.” The Beast was on his feet at once, his gown eddying round
him, briefly blocking the brightness of the gold and silver bowls and dishes on
the dark table. “Again I say to you that there is nothing to forgive. If I were
to have my will in this, I would ask that there be no talk of ‘forgiveness’
between us. I have not forgotten—I will not forget—on what terms you are here
at all.” Beauty, for alt her desire to trust him, to not fear him, to
remember her pity for him, could think of no response to this. “I—I will be
clearer-headed in the morning,” she said faintly. She stood up and turned
towards the door. “Beauty, will you marry me?” said the Beast. For a moment the panic of the corridor, and of the dream,
swelled up in Beauty’s mind and heart again, but as she put her hands on her
breast, as it” to press her heart back into its place, the little wind her
hands made blew the smell of roses to her again. She sighed then, and more in
sadness than in fear she whispered, meaning the words only for herself, “Oh,
what shall I say?” But the Beast had heard. “Say yes or no without fear,” he replied. She raised her eyes; again he stood in shadow, and she could
not see his face. The candlelight made a silhouette of him; she knew he
fidgeted with the edge of his robe with one hand because she could see the
cloth judder and jerk. She could not see his face. ‘‘Oh, no, Beast,” she said. The Beast nodded once and then turned and left her, disappearing
into the darkness towards some other way than that by which they had entered,
moving perfectly surely into the blackness; her last glimpse was of a shimmer
of long hair sliding over one shoulder. She had no recollection of making her way back to her rooms,
undressing, or climbing the little stairs by her bed, but she woke hours later,
staring at the canopy, not sure if she was awake or dreaming still, for she had
been walking down a dark corridor full of the smell of roses, and she had been
hurrying, hurrying, to come to the end of it, to comfort the sadness that hid
itself there. She fell asleep again and dreamt of her sisters. At first it was a very ordinary sort of dream. She seemed to
watch Jeweltongue and their father at Rose Cottage, going about ordinary
activities; she was pleased to see that her father seemed fit and well again,
although his hair was whiter than it had been, and his face more lined with
grief. She thought: Not for me! Oh, Father, not for me! She yearned to be there
with them, but she was not; she was an onlooker, and they were unaware of her
presence. But then something changed, and Beauty, dreaming, did not
know what it was, only that it made her uneasy. Perhaps it was only that her
family looked so—so ordinary without her, and she wished some clear token that
they missed her as she missed them—no, that wasn’t it, for she could read the
careful look on Jeweltongue’s face, the look she had always used when she
wished to hide something, a look that had often worked on her father and her
elder sister, but never on her younger. Beauty knew Jeweltongue was hiding the
same grief that lined their father’s face, and it struck at her like the blade
of a knife. This was not right; she wanted them to miss her, to know
that she was—not even so very far away—in an enchanted palace, and that she
held a small embroidered heart in her hands and loved and missed them. Their apparent
grief made her feel more isolated than ever, as if the enchantment were an
unbridgeable chasm, as if she would never see them again, never hold them in
her arms and be held by theirs.... Now Lionheart was with them, whirling round
the kitchen, setting dough to rise, rolling out pastry, chopping herbs from
Beauty’s garden; and Beauty knew too what her blaze of activity meant, just as
she could read the look on Jeweltongue’s face, and again she felt the blow like
the blade of a knife, and her heart shook in her breast. But the scene changed again, but only a very little, as if a
veil had been thrown over it, or a veil taken away; it was almost as if the
colour changed or as if the sun went behind a cloud, and Beauty remembered
Jeweltongue laying swatches of lace and netting over an underskirt and saying,
“This one, do you think? Or this one?” Jeweltongue’s face and manner were now stiff and brittle; Lionheart’s
gestures seemed informed by an old anger. “You shouldn’t have gone,” said Lionheart, and Beauty with a
shock seemed to hear her voice as if she were in the room with them. “I know I shouldn’t have gone! But I did go. It’s done. I
went.” “It was very silly of you. I don’t understand how you could
have been so silly.” “Don’t be so dull! Don’t you ever feel... lonesome?” Lionheart set the bowl she was carrying down carefully and
stood still for a moment. Her brows snapped together. “No,” she said
forcefully. Her face relaxed again. “But... I’m too busy. I make sure that I am
too busy. And there are always other people around—always—even when none is a
friend.” Jeweltongue nodded, and her voice lost a little of its edge.
“Father is out all day, and Beauty is ... we don’t know when we’ll see Beauty
again, and ifl am working on something, I may see no one at all but Father in
the evenings all week. Sometimes T go along to market-day just for the company.
] have even thought of asking Mrs Bestcloth if she might let me have the little
room over her shop, to work in; it is only a kind of storeroom, and I
don’t take up much space. I’m almost sure she would let me; it is not only that
she knows I am good for business, she has been a friend to me. But that is why
I cannot ask her. We still cannot afford to pay rent money, even for part use
of a room the size of a small wardrobe. “I don’t miss the city, but I do wish we could live nearer
town. If it weren’t for Beauty’s garden . . . Bui I would still wish to live in
town, where you can hear footsteps outside and voices that aren’t always your
own, even if you’re working, even if you don’t want to talk yourself.” Lionheart shook her head. “No towns for me. But... I don’t
like wild land, like this. Oh, I know it isn’t really wild—Longchance is too
close—but it’s wild enough. Longchance is not a big town, is it? And [hen
there’s nothing much till Appleborough, and then there’s nothing at all till
Washington, which is too far away to do anyone in Longchance any good.
Goldfield is the only one who farms this end of Longchance, you know? There’s
Goldfield, us, and ... more nothing. 1 want fields, with horses in them, or
growing hay for the horses—like up at the Hall—or wheat for my bread. If it
weren’t for Beauty’s garden, I wouldn’t want to come back here cither.” With
her most ferocious scowl: “I keep thinking I see things among the trees.” Jeweltongue tried to laugh. “Maybe they’re friendly.” “You see them loo, do you? The ones I see are never
friendly.” “Since Beauty ... I never used to ... I almost fancy them as
a kind of guardian, or I like to think so.... Something to do with Beauty, that
they watch over her too, or even that the Beast sends them, that Beauty has
told him . .. that he isn’t... that he is ... I would think I was imagining all
of it, except that Lydia sees them too. Silver shadows, among the trees, where
the shadows should be lying dark, like shadows do.” Lionheart took a breath to speak, but Jeweltongue cut in
quickly: “You’re worrying about nothing, you know. His father will prevent
anything. Everything. I’m sure poor Miss Trueword has been raked up one side
and down the other for inviting me,” Jeweltongue was trying to speak lightly
and failing. “I only hope my misjudgement doesn’t prove disastrous for
business.” “But what if the brat does decide to court you? I can
tell you the other stable lads think he’s smitten. They all want to tell me
about it—my friends to warn me, my enemies to gloat about the trouble it will
cause.” “The son of the squire court a dressmaker?” Jeweltongue’s
tone was sharp as needles. “‘But you have such beautiful manners, my dear,’”
she said in a cruel imitation of Miss Trueword’s fluting voice. “A dressmaker
who is so busy saving up to have the thatch replaced on the hut she lives in
that she had to keep her hand over the hasty dam on her only half-decent skirt
all the evening that the squire’s brainless sister had invited her to supper,
which she had been brainless enough to accept.” She put her hands up suddenly and covered her face, and her
voice through her fingers was muffled. “Oh, Lionheart, what came over me? Miss
Trueword is kind and meant to be kind to me, and she genuinely likes my work. I
do not believe it is just her vanity; she jokes that she has a figure like a
lathe and does not expect me to deck her out in frills like a schoolroom miss.
What need has she to be so clever she could cut herself on it? That has always
been my great gift. I—I think she just invited me home to meet her family
because she likes me, and the young ladies like me, and to the extent that that
amiable animated bolster the squire mar— ried can stir herself to likes and dislikes, Mrs Trueword
likes me, and there is not—there is not much society here, is there? The
Oldhouses, and the Cunningmans, and the Took-somes, and only the Oldhouses are
... nice to have around. It was not at all a grand supper. ... Perhaps the darn
in my skirt did not matter. “Lionheart, do you know, it was because I knew I should not
be there that I was so bright, so witty, that I talked too much? I wished to
draw attention away from the holes in my skirt... the holes in my fingers ...
draw attention away from the fact that I am a dressmaker.” There was a little silence as the two sisters looked at each
other. “A very fine dressmaker,” said Lionheart. “I hated your salons, have I
ever told you? Full of people being vicious to each other and using
six-syllable words to do it with. Your dresses are beautiful. Jeweltongue,
love, it’s not that he’s the squire’s son—which I admit is a little awkward—but
you’re wrong about old Squire Trueword. The real problem about Master Jack is
that he’s a coxcomb and a coward. If you want to charm someone, cast your eye
over the second son, Aubrey. I grant you he is neither so tall nor so
handsome—nor will he have any money—but he is a good man, and kind, and—and—” Jeweltongue’s real laugh rang out, and as Beauty awoke, she
just heard her sister say, “What you mean is that you approve of his eye for a
horse—” “It was only a dream,” Beauty whispered to herself, “only a
dream,” she insisted, even as she could not help looking eagerly around her
new, strange, overglamorous bedroom for a glimpse of her sisters. Jeweitongue’s
laugh still sounded in her ears; they must be here, with her. close to her.
they must... She squeezed the little heart between her palms till her finger
joints hurt. “Oh, I wish I knew what was happening! But I’ve only been
gone a day. It was just a dream.’’ There was breakfast on a table in front of the balcony as
she sat up, shaking herself free of the final shreds of her dream; the smelt of
food awoke her thoroughly. She had been too distressed yesterday to be hungry;
today that dis— tress on top of two days’ unsatisfied hunger made her feel a
little ill. She slid out of bed, forgetting the stairs and landing with a
bone-jarring thump on the floor. She put a hand to the bed-curtains to steady
herself. “That is one way of driving sleep off,” she murmured, “but I think I
prefer gentler means.’* The tea on the breakfast tray was particularly fine; the
third cup was as excellent as the first—enchanted leaves don’t stew. She held
up the embroidered heart as she drank that third cup, turning it so that
Lionheart’s hair caught the light, listening to the silence. She was grateful there was no rose in a silver vase on the
table. She had been too tired the night before to notice that the
nightgown she put on was not her own. She looked at it now and admired its
fineness, and the roses embroidered round the bands of the collar and cuffs. It
was precisely as long as and no longer than she could walk in without treading
on the hem. There was a new bodice and skirt hanging over the back of the chair
drawn up near the washstand, which was once again full of warm water, when she
turned away from the breakfast table. She looked at them thoughtfully while she
washed. “These are a bit loo good lor the sort of work I have in
mind today,” she said to the air, “although I thank you very much. And I know
that you are much too polite and—and kind to have thrown my shabby old things
out, because I would be so unhappy without them, so I assume I will find them
beautifully pressed and hanging up in the wardrobe—with all the other things,
including rny nightgown, that I see have disappeared, with my knapsack, from
under the bed.” She said this in just the tone she would have used in
speaking to a miserable dog, or any of her other rescued animals, who was
refusing to eat. “Now, my sweet, I know you are a good dog, and good dogs
always do what they are told when it is for their good, and I know the things
you have been told recently have not been for your good, but you must
understand that is all over now. And here is your supper, and you will of
course eat it, you good dog.” And the dog would. Beauty went to the hanging
cupboard and opened the doors, and there were all her few clothes, hanging up
lugubriously in one comer, as if separated carefully from the other, much
grander things in the rest of the wardrobe, and they looked self-conscious, if
clothes can look self-conscious, and Beauty laughed. But when she took down her skirt and shirt, there was a
sudden flurry of movement, and a wild wave of butterflies blew out at her. as
if from the folds of her dull patched clothing, and she cried out in surprise
and pleasure. For a moment the butterflies seemed to fill the room, even that
great high ornamented room, with colours and textures al! the more glorious for
being alive, blues and greens and russets and golds, and then they swirled up
like a small whirlwind and rushed out the open doors, over the balcony, and
away. She ran to watch them go and saw them briefly twinkling
against the dizzy whiteness of the palace and the dazzle of the glasshouse, and
then they disappeared round a comer, and she saw them no more. She dressed
slowly; but she was smiling, and when she touched the embroidered heart she
wore, she touched it softly, without so piercing a sense of sorrow. And when
she stepped into the chamber of the star, she deliberately did not count the
number of doors and ignored the glare of the haughty lady in the portrait just
beyond the one that opened. Ihere was a priming-knife and a small handsaw lying on top
of the water-butt inside the door to the glasshouse. She spent most of the
morning studying stems and bushes and cut very little. After a while she said,
“Gloves. May I please have a good stout pair of gloves?” And turned round and
discovered just such a pair of gloves lying at the foot of the water-butt,
where she might have overlooked them when she first came in. “Ladder?” she said
next, after another little while. “What I would like best is a ladder light
enough that I can—that I can handle it on my own,” she added, for she was
remembering that the last time she had had much to do with a ladder she had had
Lionheart there to help her wrestle the great awkward object to where they
needed it. There was a ladder behind the door. “Thank you,” she said,
“but I don’t believe I could have missed that, you know,” she added to the
listening silence; but she kept her eyes on the ladder. At noon she stopped, and rubbed her forehead, and went in
search of lunch, and there was lunch on the table by her balcony. She still was
not at all certain how she got from her rooms to the glasshouse or back again;
the corridor never seemed quite the same corridor, and the dislocating turns
seemed to come at different stages of the journey, and the sun came through
windows where the walls should have been internal, and even at noon there were
far too many shadows everywhere. She was also beginning to feel that the
portrait of the handsome but haughty lady just beyond the door from the chamber
of the star was not just one haughty lady but several, sisters perhaps, even
cousins, in a family where the likeness is strongly marked; but that did not
seem plausible either, for no such grand family would allow all its women to be
painted wearing nearly identical dresses, with their arms al! bent with no
perceptible kindness round the same sort of browny-fawn lapdog. The table by the door into the courtyard had reverted to
square, and the slope-shouldered clock now had a shepherd, more suitably
attired for his occupation, keeping company with the gambolling lambs. But she did not care, so long as the magic she needed went
on working and allowed her to go where she needed to go and do what she needed
to do. And there were few shadows in the glasshouse, and the ones there were
laid honestly, by stems and leaves and the house’s own glittering framework—and
her ladder. In the afternoon she took her first experimental cuts,
beginning with the climbers, and she was rejoiced to find, as she cut cautiously
back and back, living wood in each. She nicked dormant buds in gnarled old
branches with green hearts and said, “Grow, you. Grow.” She stopped for tea and a shoulder-easing stretch in the afternoon,
and then she spent the last of the lengthening spring twilight marking out her
seedbed, peeling her rosehips, and punching rows of tiny finger-sized holes to
bury the seeds themselves in. “Grow, you,” she whispered, and went indoors. Chapter 71 his evening a sapphire-coloured dress lay across her bed,
and a sapphire necklace on the blue towels of the washstand; but though the
soap, and the bath oil in the great tin bath (enamelled over with roses) drawn
up before the fireplace, again smelt of roses, today it did not make her weep,
for she had work to do and felt she knew why she was here. She did not examine this feeling too closely, for she was
too grateful for the possession of it. and even less did she examine the
conclusions it might lead her to. But for the moment the roses in the
glasshouse demanded her attention and care, and that was enough, for a little
while, and she had a little space to nurse a little precarious security in. She
lay in the bath while twilight turned to dusk, and she felt the aches slide out
of her muscles and dissipate in the warm water, till she found herself falling
asleep, and then she flew out and whisked herself dry in such a commotion of
haste that she half believed herself assisted with extra towels by invisible
hands. The Beast was waiting for her in the long dim dining-hall,
and he bowed to her, and said, “Good evening, Beauty.” and she replied, “Good
evening, Beast.” The silence and the shadows pressed round them. He moved to
her chair and bowed her into it, poured her two kinds of wine, and took a chair
himself a little distance from her. She picked up a glass, touched it to her
lips, set it down again untasted, served herself blindly from the nearest
plate. She was hungry—she had worked hard since lunch—but the silence was
heavy, and the Beast, again dressed all in black, his head bowed so she could
not see his eyes, was almost obscured by the gloom and seemed as ominous as all
the rest of the silence and shadow. She put her fork to the food on her plate;
the click of the tines was too loud in the stillness; she set it down again.
She was hungry, and could not eat. She sat motionless for a moment, feeling as
if the shadows might seep into her blood, turning her into a shadow like
themselves.... Her hand crept to the tittle embroidered heart tucked into the
front of her bodice. When the gentle plonk came from the darkness at the
far end of the long table. Beauty started in her chair, feeling like a deer who
knows she is tracked by a hunter. There was another plonk, and then a rustle-rustle-rustle,
and Beauty’s heart slowed down to a normal pace, and she began to smile,
because it was a friendly, a silly sort of sound. There was a third plonk and
then a quick run of tiny thumps... . Whatever it was, it was coming towards
this end of the table. The Beast stirred, “I believe Fourpaws is coming to
introduce herself to her new guest,” he said. She still had to strain to hear his words when he spoke
anything beyond common courtesies such as “good evening”; it was like learning
to hear articulate speech in a rumble of thunder. “Fourpaws?” But at that moment a small grey and amber cat appeared from
behind one of the wine carafes, tail high, writhing once round the carafe as if
that were her entire purpose at this end of the table, so supple and sleek in
the dimness that it seemed she would overstep her hind legs and take a second
turn round the narrow vessel. But then with a boneless flicker like a scarf
coming loose from a lady’s neck, she unwound herself again and became a slim
short-bodied cat, with silky fur just enough longer than short to move gently of
its own in response to her motion, and Lo give her a very wonderful tail. She stood so that Beauty could admire her for a moment,
while she looked off into some chosen distance, and then she turned as if to
walk straight past the edge of Beauty’s plate. But Beauty was far too charmed
by her not to make an effort, and she reached across her plate and offered
Four-paws the tips of her fingers. The fingertips were deemed acceptable, and
the base of ears and a small round skull between were presented to be
scratched. Beauty scratched, Fourpaws purred. Fourpaws then sat down—at jusl
such a distance that Beauty would be risking the lace on her bodice to the food
on her plate if she wished to go on scratching ears, so she stopped. Fourpaws moved a little towards Beauty and looked at her for
the first time, stared at her with vast yellowy-greeny eyes, misleadingiy half
shut. She curled her tail round her feet—careful not to trail the tip of it in
Beauty’s plate—and continued to purr. The purr seemed to reflect off the sides
of the bowls and dishes and goblets round her. Beauty picked up her knife and
fork again and began to eat. “It is so very quiet here,” said Beauty between rnouth-fuls. The Beast roused himself. “When I was ... first here, here
as you see it, the silence troubled me very much.” But you are a sorcerer! You cannot have come here against
your will—against your will—as I did. . .. Beauty was briefly afraid that she
had spoken aloud, so painfully had the words pressed up in her throat; but the
shadows were tranquil, and Fourpaws was still purring, and after only the
merest pause, the Beast continued: “I had forgotten. It was such a long time
ago. I have learnt... I have learnt to look at the silence, to listen to the
dark. But I was very glad when Fourpaws came. I believe she must be a powerful
sorcerer in her own country, which is why 1 dare not give her any grand name
such as she deserves, for fear of disturbing the network of her powers. She
comes most evenings and drops a few rolls and bits of cutlery into the
darkness, like coins in a wishing well. I am grateful to her.” “As am I,” said Beauty fervently, for she was discovering
just how hungry she was. She moved a candlestick nearer and peered into various
tureens. She recognised little, although everything smelled superb, which was
enough recommendation, but when she turned back to her plate, which had been
empty but a moment before, it had been served again for her already. “The
chef’s speciality?” she murmured, thinking of grand dinner parties in the city,
but she picked her knife and fork up readily and began. Fourpaws had moved herself again slightly, so that her
bright furry figure slightly overlapped the great shadowy bulk of the Beast
from Beauty’s point of view. Beauty smiled at her a little wonderingly;
Fourpaws’ eyes shut almost completely, with only a thin gleam of green left
visible, and her purr deepened. As soon as Beauty laid her knife and fork down for the last
time, she felt exhaustion drop over her, shove down her eyelids, force her head
forward upon her breast. “I—1 am sorry,” she said faintly. “1 am much more tired,
suddenly, than I had any idea... If you will excuse me ...” The Beast was on his feet again at once, bowing her towards
the door. “Beauty, will you marry me?” Beauty backed two steps away from the table. Her eyes fell
upon Fourpaws, who was still sitting where she had been while Beauty ate; but
her eyes were now opened wide, her head tipped up, and she was staring at
Beauty with an unnervingly steady gaze. “Oh, no. Beast,” said Beauty to the
cat. Fourpaws leapt off the table and disappeared under it. “Good night, Beauty,” said the Beast very softly. “Good night, Beast,” said Beauty. She went slowly up to her rooms, the whispering of her
skirts the only sound, and stayed awake only long enough to take her elegant
dress off carefully, lay the necklace of sapphires back on the washstand, and
climb up the stairs to her bed. She almost didn’t make it to the top; she woke
up to find herself with her head resting on the top stair and pulled herself
the resl of the way into bed. She dreamt again of Rose Cottage. There was a new rug on the floor by the fireplace at the
sitting-room end of the downstairs room, and Teacosy, looking unusually well
brushed, lay on it in her traditional neat curl. There was a new tablecloth,
with a bit of lace at its edge, on the old table—Beauty could still see its
splinted feet beneath—and the place settings were as mismatched as ever,
although none of the cups or plates was chipped. The old merchant was talking, and the other two were listening—three,
counting Teacosy’s half-pricked cars—or rather, as Beauty’s dream shimmered
into being, her father had just stopped talking. Beauty’s dream-eyes ranged
over the familiar scene and picked out its unfamiliar elements, pausing finally
on the person sitting in what had been Beauty’s chair. There was a litUe
silence in which Beauty could almost hear the echo of her father’s last
words—she had a half notion that he had been reciting poetry—but she did not
know for sure. The strange young man spoke first. “That was very moving,
sir. Perhaps—perhaps you would come to one of our meetings?” “Oh, do, Father!” said Jeweltongue. “I had no idea you
were—you were—” She stopped, blushed, and laughed. Her father looked at her, smiling. “You had no idea the old
man had any idea of metre and rhyme, you were going to say? I never used to. It
seems to have come on me with moving here, to Longchance and Rose Cottage. I
would be honoured to come to your meeting, Mr Whitchand, if you think I will
not embarrass you.” “Embarrass us! Father! Wait till you hear Mrs Oldhouse, whom
we name Mrs Words-Without-End, but we cannot bring ourselves to turn her out,
not only because she has the biggest drawing-room and serves the best cakes—” “Thank you,” murmured the young man called White-hand. Jeweltongue reached towards him and just touched the back of
his hand with the tips of her fingers, but Beauty saw the sweet look that
passed between them as Jeweltongue continued. “But she is so genuinely kind,
and surprisingly has quite a good ear for other people’s work! But we shall put
you at the top of the list for your evening, because if she reads first, she
may frighten you away,” “Not before I have eaten some of Mr Whilehand’s cakes, at
least,” said her father, and Beauty then remembered where she had seen Mr
Whitehand, for he was the baker in Longchance. It occurred to her then
that for quite sometime, as Jeweltongue divided up the errands when the two of
them went into Longchance together, it was never Beauty who went to the
baker’s, though they almost always had lardy-cake or crumpets for tea on
any day Jeweltongue had been to Longchance. But Beauty had never heard of
poetry-reading evenings. “To be fair,” Jeweltongue went on, “she tells excellent stories—when
she doesn’t try to put them into verse first. She leamt them from her father,
who was a scholar, but his real love was collecting folk-tales....” Beauty woke to a soft shushing sound. It was a gentle
sound, and her first thought was that there was water running somewhere nearby,
and she wondered if she had missed seeing some fountain, perhaps in the inner
courtyard, perhaps invisible behind the glasshouse. But the rhythm of the shush
was wrong for water, she eventually decided, still half in her dream and
wondering about the young man and the new hearth-rug and wishing to hear her
fathers poems—and telling herself it was all only a dream again, just as last
night. She eventually decided that it could not be water. It
sounded like something flying. She opened her eyes. After a moment of reorienting herself,
she picked out the small shadow hurtling back and forth across her room which
went with the shushing sound. It flew very near each wall and ihen
wheeled away as if panic-stricken. It disappeared, while she watched, into the
other rooms through the wide doorless archway, and the shushing died
away, but then it came streaking back into the bedroom, straight towards the
clear glass of the closed balcony doors. Beauty, still too sleep-dazed to make an attempt at scaring
it onto a safer course, held her breath for the inevitable col— lision, but it swerved away at the last minute and raced
towards her bed. It flew straight under the canopy towards the wall, did another
of its last-minute, violent changes of direction before it struck, flew back
towards the bed, and collapsed on the counterpane. When Beauty first saw the small flying figure, she guessed
it was a bird, trapped somehow indoors, having fallen down a chimney, or
mistakenly crept in through a half-open window. But she had caught a glimpse of
furry body and naked wing as it swept just in front of her and was now
expecting what she found lying panting in her lap. It was a bat. Beauty had rescued members of most of the commoner animal
species in her life, including a few bats. The last one had been in much worse
case than this one, terrified by the housemaid’s screaming, beating itself
pathetically against a corner of Ihc attic where it had fled. Beauty had
trapped it finally by ordering the housemaid to Go away and, when it
flopped to the floor half stunned, put a wastebasket over it. After a few days of hanging upside down in Beauty’s
dressing-room (which she kept locked for the duration, for fear of housemaids,
and entering it herself only long enough to change the water in the water-dish
and to release the fat house-flies she patiently coilccicd in jars), she
ordered the dogcart one evening, drove herself to the outskirts of town, and
released it. She’d heard it whirr just a moment, as it had leapt out of
her restraining hands and the scarf she had wrapped it in, and had wanted to
believe that the perfectly silent shadow, which had then swept low twice over
her head—nowhere near enough to risk any danger of becoming tangled in her
hair, because as any sensible person knows, bats only lose their sense of
distance and direction under such duress as being screamed at by housemaids—had
been it saying thank-you, before it went off to find its friends and family.
She hoped it had not, during its convalescence, developed such a taste for
house-flies that it would ever risk any more attics. This one was not quite the length of the palm of her hand.
She could feel the quiver of its body through the counter— pane as it tried to catch its breath, and could see into its
open mouth, the delicate pink tongue, smaller than the first ieaf of heartsease
to open in spring, and the teeth, finer than embroidery needles. Its dark brown
fur looked soft as velvet; its wide pricked ears and half-folded wings were
only a shade or two paler than its fur. It stared straight at her with its
bright black eyes, and lay in her lap, and panted. “Well,” said Beauty, after a moment. “I have never heard of
a tame bat. I suppose you were merely confused. but you are very contused
indeed, to be lying in my lap like that and staring at me as if 1 were a
legendary saviour of lost bats whom you have recognised in your extremity. What
reputation I had of such is years and miles behind me, little one. The bats at
Rose Cottage had—have—the good sense to stay in the garden... . Which is to
say, I suppose I need something to muffle you with, so you cannot bite me with
all those tiny piercing teeth. Not that I would blame you, mind, but I get
quite enough of that sort of thing dealing with roses, ...” She reached slowly
behind her, so as not to frighten her visitor further, and began awkwardly to
work her top pillow out of its pillow slip. The bat lay where it had fallen, but it had folded its wings
neatly against its body, and closed its mouth, and now looked perfectly
content. “If I didn’t know that you are supposed to hang upside down—or at
least creep into narrow cracks—I would expect you to curl up now, like a very
small Teacosy, and have a nap. Saints! This is a maddening activity when I
cannot see what I am doing!” But the pillowslip came free at last, and she wrapped it softly
round her hands and picked up the bat, keeping its wings closed against its
body. It did not even tremble, but it did turn its head a little so it could go
on looking at her. She groped her way out of bed and down the stairs till she
stood on the floor, the bat held gently in front of her. “Now. what do I do
with you? I cannot lock you in the water-closet, as it is the only one I know
where to find in all this mazy hulk of a palace; I would have something to say
to the architect about that, if I met him! “My old dressing-room, where I used lo put your sort of visitor,
was quite a narrow closet, with one tiny window easily blocked off, and I never
used it anyway, even bat-frcc. But these rooms are full of sunlight, and you
know, none of your brethren that I have met have understood about keeping the
carpels clean, and so I need to. er, leave you somewhere J can spread
something, er, bat-proof beneath you—’’ She thought of the boll of poachers” jackets material the
sisters had found in the housekeeper’s room, and two tears dropped to the
breast of her nightgown; but her voice was as steady as ever. “What we need, I
feel, is—is an empty wardrobe or even a secret room, I would like that. I would
like a secret room.” She spoke half-idly. She had learnt the use of speaking
quietly to all rescued animals; even the wild ones seemed to find such noises
soothing, and she also wished to fling herself away as quickly as possible from
the sudden memory of her sisters. She began to walk slowly away from her balcony, and when she
came to the room hung with the tapestries of a garden in all four seasons, she
paused. There came to her there some strange breath of air, some movement just
seen at the corner of her eye. She turned her head; the edge of the nearer
summer tapestry stirred. She looked down at her bat; her bat still looked at
her and lay calmly in her grasp. She shifted it, very slowly, in case it should
protest after all, into the crook of one elbow, where it settled, snug and
tranquil as a tired kitten. Now she had one hand free and could lift the edge
of the tapestry—and push open the crack of door revealed there. There was a good smell in that darkness, of rich earth and
of.. . peace, of the sort of peace she had been used to find in her garden, and
she sighed. “There, little one. This should do for you—1 hope. And I will come
and let you out again just as soon as it is dusk.” She raised the tapestry a little farther, so that she could
duck under it, as she was unwilling to leave any creature somewhere she had made
no attempt to investigate herself first, and found that she was standing in
what appeared to be an underground chamber. If she turned to look behind her, she could see the daylight
shining across the rosy carpet of her rooms, could see it winking off the
corners of furniture and strips of hangings visible to her through the
half-open door: hut if she turned inwards again, she saw only rough shadows,
dimming quickly to blackness, the shapes of earth and stone only varied by what
looked very much like the roots of plants. She raised her hand to feel over her head, having the sense
of little trailing things touching her softly, and tearing spiders, as even she
was a little hesitant about spiders; and found instead a great net of what fell
like tree roots, if she could imagine what tree roots might feel like from
underneath. The trailing things were root hairs. Could anything but root hairs
look so like root hairs? “But we are two storeys above the ground,” she said, bewildered,
and turned again to look at the sunlight lying on her carpet. She lifted her
gaze to the hinges of the door; it seemed to be pegged straight into the rock,
and the frame to be made of some impossible mix of stone fragments and woven
roots, impossible, but strangely beautiful, as the vein-ing of marble is
beautiful. “Well,” she said to the bat, “I guess I do not have
to worry about protecting the floor here—wherever here is. And there are
lovely, er, tree roots for you to hang from, should you wish to hang, and—and
bat droppings are excellent fertilizer. I will need fertilizer for my roses as
soon as I finish pruning them. I should wish to find a whole colony of you
here, I suppose, but—I don’t quite think I do. The results might be a bit...
complex. Good-bye, then, till this evening.” She laid her tiny parcel down in a little hollow in the
earth between two roots, loosened the pillow slip so that it could crawl out
when it chose, and stepped back, under the summer tapestry, and onto a carpet
covered with roses. She closed the door, which from this side was panelled with
plain wood, to match the panelling of the wall (plain but for the occasional
carving of a rose), and went, very thoughtfully, to eat her breakfast. She found her gloves with the pruning-knife and the saw on
the water-butt in the glasshouse this morning. “Today we will be bold,” she
announced, and she was. She cut and lopped and hacked and sawed, and then she
stopped long enough to water her cuttings and check her seedbed, and then her
stomach told her it was lunchtime, and she went back to her bedroom balcony,
and lunch was waiting for her. When she returned to the glasshouse after lunch, she looked
at the scatter of rubbish she had produced and said, “I need somewhere to build
a bonfire.” She left the glasshouse again and stood in front of its
door, looking down the side of the palace away from her balcony. The bulk of
the glasshouse prevented her from seeing very far, but she knew there was
nothing, between the door to the glasshouse and the door (if it was the same
door) she used to enter the palace and return to her rooms, that would do for a
bonfire. This area of the inner courtyard was covered with gravel,
gravel just coarse enough not to take footprints, but fine enough that it was
smooth and easy to walk on. It was also the same eye-confusing glittery
grey-white as the palace and the front drive. Studying it now. Beauty teased
herself with the notion that if she narrowed her eyes to take in none of the
details of where pebbles became walls, she might walk straight to the end of
the courtyard and up the wall without noticing, like an ant or beetle. .. . She
looked up, blinking, at the bright sky. The scale was about right, she thought.
If Rose Cottage is the right size for human beings, then here I am an ant or a
beetle. A small beetle. Probably an ant. Even if my feet cannot carry me up
walls. How confusing, when one came to walk on the ceiling, to be abruptly
blinded by one’s skirts.... In any event, there was nowhere here to light a bonfire: it
would make a dreadful mess of the whiteness, and even magical invisible rakers
and polishers might resent the effort to remove the ashes and the heat-sealed
stains and the bits that wouldn’t burn no matter how often you poked them back
into the hottest heart of the fire. And she didn’t want to annoy—any more than
she could help—whoever was responsible here... the Beast? She was beginning to
wonder. She remembered his words lasl night: When I was first here . . . I
had forgotten ... I was very glad when Fourpaws came. She had never seen any sorcerer who had chosen not to appear
human, though she had heard tales of them; her friend the salamander had met
one who looked like a centaur. His familiar pretended to be a lion, and
while J knew he was not, still, he kept me busy enough with his great paws and
his sense of humour that I could never look long enough at cither him or his
master to see who—or what—he really was, the salamander had said,
laughing his rustling laugh. My master was vexed with me, but I told him he
should have made me appear to be a panther. Beauty thought of the salamander’s gift to her—and of her
first sight of the Beast, Can you not hear to look at me? he had said.
Most sorcerers enjoyed making the sort of first impression that would give them
the upper hand in any dealings to come; but that first sight had almost... and
the Beast had taken no advantage as he certainly .. . And then Beauty
remembered the story of a sorcerer who looked like the Phoenix, and who had
married a human princess because her hair, he said, was the colour of the fire
of his birth. I am no princess, she said to herself. She turned away from the familiar end of the palace
courtyard and began to walk towards the end she could not see. She went on a
long way, a very long way, and the way disconcertingly seemed to adjust itself
somehow as she walked, like the corridor from the chamber of the star to the
door into the courtyard. The sense of mortar and stone flu-idly running into
and out of each other, like a cat standing up and stretching or curling up into
a cat cushion, was much more unsettling out of doors in sunlight. She glanced to her right; if the palace was adjusting, then
so must be her darling glasshouse. She was sure it was not this big from the
inside—unless the other end of the palace was horseshoe-shaped, and she was
going dear round it and would eventually find herself at the opposite corner of
the one square-ended wall that held her balcony. Bui the glasshouse itself had
comers—at least, from the inside—and she had not passed any, and she was not
willing to suppose that her glasshouse was anything other than what she
saw—that it would pretend to be a panther when it was a salamander. She stopped once and looked up, reassuring herself that the
sky, at least, even here, looked as it had from her garden at Rose Cottage or
from the city. But how was she to know that? The sky was blue, or it was grey,
and it was full of clouds, or it was not, and the walls of the palace blocked
too much of it. There was no horizon; it was like standing in the bottom of an
immense well. Or of a trap. The sky was too far away to be of much comfort. Once she paused because her eye was caught by some variation
in the wall of the palace, a break in the tall ranks of windows. She peered at
the gap, unsure of what she saw as she would be of shapes found in clouds or
fish swimming in a dappled pond; were they there or not? But she held her
ground and stared and at last could say: Here was an archway, but barred by
solid gates, fitting so perfectly into both the wall itself and the plain
forma! architecture of the rest of the facade that they were difficult to see
unless searched for—and she would not have searched had she not wondered (and
been grateful for the distraction) at a stretch of wall that had gone on too
long without a window in it. She stepped up close and laid her hand on the crack between
the left-hand door and the wall; closing her eyes, she could barely find it
with her fingertips and could sense no difference between the texture of the
wall and that of the door. Opening her eyes, she was redazzled by the surface
shimmer and lost both doors entirely; it was not till she stepped back and
looked again that she could pick out the thin line of the arch, silver as fish
scales. It was all so silent! There was the scuff of her shoes in
the line gravel, and the occasional whisper of wind, and that was all. Not even
any birds sang. But what was there for birds here, in this bleak stone
wasteland? She went on; how long she did not know. She began to feel
tired and discouraged and, without meaning to, swerved in her course till she
could reach out and touch the glasshouse. She trailed her fingers idly over the
width of one pane, bumped over the tiny ridge of its connecting frame, onto
another pane. . . . But then, suddenly, there was a corner of the courtyard
after all, and another wall running at right angles lo it, and her glasshouse
produced a corner of its own to keep paralle! pace with ii. And very soon after
she turned the corner, she found a great dark tunnel running through the
palace, like a carriage-way, though she saw nothing to suggest the presence of
stables, and the curve of its arch was much the same shape as the nearly
invisible doors she had found in the last wall. She walked through the tunnel, shivering a little, for it
was surprisingly cold in its shadow, and the tunnel was surprisingly long. I
should stop being surprised by things being very long, she said to herself.
When she came out the other side at last, she found herself in a wild wood and
halted in astonishment. She took a few cautious steps forward and then whirled
to look back through the carriage-way and was reassured by the glint of the
glasshouse she could see on the far side. She remembered her glimpses of something that might have
been wild wood at the edges of the formal gardens fronting the palace, but such
wilderness still seemed so unlikely a neighbour for a palace. But then, she
reminded herself, this was a sorcerer’s palace, and sorcerers could surround
their palaces with anything they liked. There was a story of one, known lo
dislike visitors, who had surrounded his with the end of the world. (Whether it
was the real end or not was moot; you disappeared into it just the same.) But the only magic she knew that still connected her to Rose
Cottage and her family was on the other side of the dark carriage-way. She did
not want to wander into any wild woods and not be able to find her way back. But here was a splendid site for a bonfire. The old branches and other bits and pieces had been tidily swept
together and were waiting for her—just inside the carriage tunnel, just within
the edge of its shadow, at the mouth that led to the wild wood. Beauty shivered
again, thinking that the magic ended there for certain, or that if this wood
was magic too, then it belonged to some other sorcerer than the one who ruled
the Beast’s palace. She would much rather that it was merely a wild wood and
not magic at all, but this was not something she was likely to leam—at least
not until it was too late, when she found herself dangling from the roc’s claws
or cornered by the wild boar, and even then who was to say the wild boar wasn’t
a familiar in disguise? Oh dear. She dragged the branches clear of the tunnel and into the middle
of the ragged little clearing among the trees, and then she muttered, “Knife,
candle, tinder-box, besom,” and went back to an especially deep shadow near the
far end of the tunnel, where she might not have seen them till she was looking
for them. She swept her bonfire into a rough hummock, and while it took a
little while for the candle flame to catch the old leaves and twig shreds she’d
made with her knife, the branches were all dry and brown-hearted and burned
very satisfactorily once they were going. Beauty stood and watched for a little time, waving away
sparks and wiping smuts out of her eyelashes, turning occasionally to look
again at the winking glasshouse, to make sure it was there, and sweeping the
edges towards the centre of the fire again as it tumbled apart. One did not
leave a bonfire till one was sure of its burning down quietly, even in a wild
wood—perhaps especially in a wild wood. She went back to the glasshouse, walking near it down the
length of the palace wing, reaching out to touch it occasionally—it was a much
shorter journey on the return, she was sure; she was almost sure—and tidied up,
or pretended to tidy up, since most of it had been done for her already,
“Tomorrow, please, may I have a small rake that I can use among the rosebushes
and a bag or a basket to collect leaves in? And if you would be kind enough to
leave the besom somewhere I can find it again.” She addressed the water-butt for lack of a better choice and
a dislike for looking up. She tended to feel that magic must descend, and
she did not want to see it happening. Furthermore, the water-butt was so
straightforward a thing to find in a glasshouse. And almost as comforting as a
cat in an immense shadowy dining-hall. By the time she went back to her room, twilight was falling
again. There was the tall rose-enamelled bath waiting for her, its water
steaming, drawn up by the fireplace. The sapphire towels had been replaced by
amethyst ones. She shook them out very carefully so as not to drop the amethyst
necklace, ring, and earrings in the bath. She took off her clothes thankfully
and stepped into the water; it was perfumed slightly with roses. But as she sat
down, and her arms touched the water, she hissed in sudden pain, for they were
covered with thorn scratches. A few thorns had stabbed through her skirt and
heavy stockings, and her legs throbbed in short, fiery lines, but the hot water
quickly soothed them; her arms were so sore it took her several minutes to slip
them under water. When she stepped out of the bath again, she patted her poor
arms very tenderly with the towels and found that the lavender-blue dress laid
on the bed for her tonight had slashed sleeves, the material meeting only at
the shoulders and wrists and belling out between in a great silken wave. “Thank
you,” she said aloud. “How glad I am this is not the grand dinner-party this
dress is suited to. however; a rose-gardener’s battle scars might be embarrassing
to explain.” It was nearly full dark now. She had closed the balcony
doors while she had her bath; now she opened them again and stood looking out.
The headachy glitter of the stone palace and courtyard were quieted by
darkness; she surprised herself by drawing a deep breath and feeling at peace,
One hand crept to the breast of her dress, where the embroidered heart lay
hidden beneath silk and amethysts. She turned back into her rooms again, leaving the doors
wide, and went into the next room, where the four seasons tapestries hung, and
lifted a corner of the right-hand summer one and felt for a door frame. She had
not wanted to light any candles, and in this inner room there was very little
daylight left, merely shadows of varying degrees of blackness. (She had
blown out the candles that stood round the bath and the washsland, muttering Stay,
as one might to a well-meaning but slightly larky dog.) She found the door
edge, and ran her hand down till she found a little concavity in the wall, and
pressed it, and the lock uttered a muffled clink, and the door slid open
an inch. She curled her ringers round it and pulled, calling softly,
“Bat! Bat! Are you there? It is nighttime again, and if you fly straight out
from my halcony windows, you will soon come to a wild wood which I think should
suit you very well.” She heard nothing, but felt a soft puff of air and, between
blink and btink, thought she saw a small moving shadow. She turned round to
follow it, hoping to see a little dark body fly out the balcony, but saw
nothing, and tried not to feel sad. “It was only a little bat, and 1 meant to
set it free,” but it did not work; she was sad, and her sense of peace was
gone, and she was lonely again. But then something caught the corner of her eye, out beyond
the balcony, some small moving shape darker than the falling night, but it was
too quick for her, and by the time she thought she saw it it had vanished
again. But then the flicker of darkness reappeared, curving round the corner of
the balcony doors and flying straight at her. She was too astonished to duck,
even had she had time to tell her muscles to do so, and the soft puff of air
was not air only—she was quite sure—but the tiniest brush of soft fur against
her cheek. The shadow raced back out through the doors but remained
near the balcony for a moment, bobbing and zigzagging, as if making sure that
her slow, ill-adapted eyes could see it, and then shot away, and she did not
see it again. She closed the doors slowly, smiling, and went down to dinner. Chapter 8k5he went gaily through Lhe door from her rooms into the
chamber of the star, but her eye betrayed her there, rushing into a count round
the circumference before she could cancel the impulse. There were twelve doors. Having counted once, she courted again, and a third lime,
counterclockwise for a change, beginning each count with the door to her rooms
where she still stood, and there were always twelve doors. And, while she did
not want to notice, she also noticed that the shape of the star-points
themselves had altered, and the colours of the enamelling, and her memory told
her, although she tried not to listen, that this was not the first time her eye
had marked this inconstancy. A little of her gaiety drained away from her, and
she went pensively through the door that opened for her, not quite opposite her
rooms’ door. She had not seen the Beast all day. If she was again to
dress for dinner, she must be about to see him now. She put out of her mind the
dreadful question he had asked her at the end of the last two evenings. She
wanted to see him—yes, she positively wanted to see him; she wanted to talk to
him. She wanted him to talk to her. Talking to bats and rose-bushes was not the
same as talking to someone who :ouid talk back. She wanted someone to speak to her using luman
words—if not a human voice. She would not think )f her sisters; she would
not. She would think of him; she vould think pleasantly of the Beast, of—of
her companion, he Beast. Almost she put out of her mind the size of him. the ease
vilh which he walked through the shadows of his palace, he silence of his
footfalls, the terrible irreconcilabilities of us face. She touched the
embroidered heart Jeweltongue lad given her and. surreptitiously, as if there
might be some->ne watching her, cupped her hands momentarily to feel the
ialamander’s heat. It rolled against her palms, wanning her :old fingers. There
was nothing to be frightened of. The 3east had given his word, and she believed
him. And she vas going to make him happy; she was going to bring his osc-bushes
to life—and then she could go home. He would elease her, as she had released
the bat and the butterflies. is would release her to go home again, home
to her sisters, icr father, home to Rose Cottage, home to her garden. A thought pulled itself from nowhere in the back of her nind
and formed itself into a terrible solidity before she mild stop it. She
flinched away from it, but it was too late, t was a thought she had often
suppressed in the last year md a half, but here, in the Beast’s palace, where
she was listracted and dismayed by too many things, it had broken ree of her
prohibition. What was the curse on three sisters living at Rose Cot-age? She had held to her decision not to ask for more details—lor
to make any reference to the little Mrs Greendown had old her of it to her
family. Nor had Jeweltongue nor Lion-icart ever mentioned any disturbing hint
of such a tale to ier. Had Beauty’s hopeful guess been correct, that Long-hanccrs,
accustomed to their long-standing loss of rnagic nd again disappointed of a
greenwitch—and secure in the nowlcdge of only two sisters living at Rose
Cottage—had een content to let the tale lie silent? Could Jeweltongue, /ho had
developed almost as great a gift for gossip as she had for sewing, really never
have heard anything of it? Or did she have the same fears of it—and had she
made the same decision about it—that Beauty had? A curse must be a very dreadful thing, but it was unknown, a
bogey in the dark, as insubstantial as a bad dream. Her bad dream never had
done anything to her. then, had it’.’ It was just a bad dream. But her sisters’
happiness was as near to her as her own heart, and as precious. They were happy
at Rose Cottage—happy as they had not been when they lived in the city and were
great and grand. It seemed to Beauty that Lionheart’s imposture was so
fragile and dangerous a thing that even thinking too much about a curse—which
might only be a folk-tale—could topple her. And then, if it weren’t a
folk-tale, destroy them all. If it weren’t a folk-tafe, surely it would have caught up
with them—or whatever it was that curses did—by now? When they first set foot
over the threshold to Rose Cottage, when they first went to Longchance. when
they had lived there for a year and a day? And Mrs Greendown had said that the
greenwitch had been a good one and that Long-chance had been fond of her—the
greenwitch who had left Rose Cottage to three sisters. Well, three sisters did not live at Rose Cottage now. What had the princess who married the Phoenix felt about her
fate? And using the same force of will that had enabled her to
sort through and comprehend her father’s papers, when his business failed and
his health broke, she thrust all thoughts of the curse away from her again and
pretended that her last thoughts had been of bats and butterflies. The Beast will release me, she repeated to herself. He will
release nie because ... because he is a great sorcerer, and I am only a ... a
gardener. He was waiting for her just inside the doorway of the same
hall where she had eaten dinner—and he had not—the two nights previous. For the
first time since she had closed her balcony windows and turned away to come to
dinner, her heart truly failed her, and an involuntary gesture towards her
little embroidered heart did not reassure her. Her heart had not sunk when she set eyes on the Beast, but
when her eyes had moved past him and into that dark hall She hoped Fourpaws
would come again. She turned back to the Beast and smiled with an effort. ;’My
Tor—Beast,” she said. My Beast, she thought, and Felt a blush rising to her
face, but the hall was not well lit enough for him to see. But what did she know
of how a Beast’s eyes saw? And she remembered, and did not wish to remember,
how quickly and surely he had walked into the darkness when he had left her the
night before. And the strangeness of him, and of her circumstances, washed over
her like a freak wave from a threatening but quiet sea, and she turned away
from him and moved towards her seat, grasping at the tall stems of the
torcheres she passed as if she needed them for balance. He was at her chair at once, moving it forward as she sat
down. She thought of dinner-parties in the city, when some tall black-dressed
man would help her with her chair, and of her dislike of making
conversation—laboriously with dull, or distressedly with maliciously
witty—strangers, and tried to be glad she was here instead. But the effort was
only partly successful. The Beast bent to pour her wine, and she wished both to
cower away from the looming bulk of him and to reach out and touch him, to know
by the contact with solidity and warmth that he was real, even if the knowing
would make her fear the greater. She stared at his reaching arm. candlelight
winking off the tiny intricacies of black braid, dipping into the miniature
pools of shadow in the gathers of his shirt cuff. She folded her hands securely
in her lap. He sat down where he had sat the night before, and the night
before that, at some little distance down the table, on her right hand. If she
had leant forward and stretched out her arm, she might still have
touched his sleeve. She could think of nothing to say after all; distractedly
she reached out, took an apple off a silver tray, and began to peel it. “You have found my poor roses,” he said, after a little
silence. “That is, you found them on your first evening here and then knew why
I did not wish to show them to you. But today— “I—oh, I had not thought!” she said, a whole new reading of
the day’s work she had been so proud of opening before her mind’s eye. She
dropped her apple and looked up at him, reaching forward after all, and
touching his sleeve, but without any awareness that she did so. “I love roses—I
wished to do something for you—for them—I did not think—I should have asked—but
I cannot bear to have nothing to do. Oh. are you offended? Please forgive—please
do not be offended.” “I am not offended,” he said, obviously in surprise. “Why
would I be offended? I love roses too, and it is one of my greatest sorrows
that mine no longer bloom. I honour and thank you for anything you can do for
them.” One of my greatest sorrows, she thought, caught away from
roses by the phrase. One. What was—were—the others? Why are you here? You would
not have killed my father if 1 had not come. Why did you say you would?
“They—they needed tending,” she said hesitantly. “Your roses.” “And why have I not done so myself?” He raised his hands
again. “I am clumsier than you know. Lifting chairs and pouring decanted wine
is the limit of my dexterity. I feared to hurt my darlings worse....” There was
another little silence, and then, so low Beauty was not quite sure she heard
the words: “And besides, I do not know how.” He paused again, and Beauty thought: Who is it that conjures
gloves and ladders out of the air, who is it that hauls my rubbish to the mouth
of the carriage-way—the mouth and no farther? When the Beast showed no sign of
continuing, Beauty said timidly: “But... sir ... the ... the Nu-men of this
place is very powerful.” “Yes,” said the Beast softly. “It is. But it can touch
nothing living.” Silence fell again, but for the first time in this hall, the
silence did not oppress her—although she hoped that did not mean Fourpaws would
stay away. She thought: I have something to do; I have earned my bread, and I
may eat it. As she was reaching for a platter of hot food, the Beast
began: “I thank you again for your...” and his hand approached hers as she
touched the platter. There was a raek of caudles just there, and for a moment
their two hands and the platter made a graceful shape, the shadows crisp and
elegantly laid out, a bawl of fruit and a decanter adding height and depth. Still
Life, with Candles, she thought, or perhaps Portrait of Two Hands. “But—” rumbled the Beast, and his face curled terrify-ingly
into a frown. Beauty snatched her hand back, shrank in her chair. “What?” he
said, standing up, making a grab at her hand as she drew back, and then
standing still, visibly restraining himself. He sat down again, leant towards
her, and held out his hand. Slowly, feeling like a bird fixed by a snake,
Beauty extended her own, laid it in his. The palm of his hand was ever so slightly
furry, like a warm peach. “You have hurt yourself,” he said, in his lowest
growl; she felt she heard his words through the soles of her feet rather than
in her ears. “Oh,” she said; her arms still stung and throbbed, but she
had not thought of them since she counted the doors in the chamber of the star
and found twelve. “Oh—it is only thorn scratches.” Relief made her voice
tremble. “They—they will h-heal.” ;’You must be more careful,” he said. “Oh—well,” she said. “It is very hard not to be scratched,
pruning roses.” “You must be more careful,” he repeated. She smiled a little at his earnestness. “Very well. I will
be more careful. Perhaps the—the magic that lays out these dresses can come up
with a long-sleeved shirt that is thorn-proof but not so stiff and heavy as to
prevent me from bending my anus. That will be a very great magic indeed.” The Beast laid her hand on the table again, as gently as he
might have set a bubble of blown glass on its pedestal. He turned and walked
away so swiftly she thought he must still be angry; she looked down at her arms
and touched the scratches with her fingers, wondering on whose behalf he was
angry. Hers, his, for his wounded honour as host, by his guest wounding herself
on his rose-bushes, for the roses themselves? It was true, her arms did ache,
she had been more careless than she should have been, in her eagerness to get
on—her eagerness to have something to do that would prevent her from thinking
about her family and her own garden, about why she was here. One or two of the
deeper cuts were slightly warm to the touch, perhaps turning septic. She looked up sharply; the Beast had returned, as silently
as he always did. In one hand he held a tiny pot, which he set on the table at
her elbow, and raised its lid. Because his hands were close under her eyes, she
saw for the first time that he was indeed clumsy; she saw the difficulty with
which he closed his fingers round the Lid of the pot and how the pot nearly
slid from his other hand’s hold as he pulled the lid off, and she wondered for
the first time how much of a Beast he truly was. Perhaps his size and strength
were as illusory as his ferocity and cruelty. Then why ... then what... then
who ... ? The lid popped free, rolled across the table, skittered into
the side of a plate, and fell over, thrumming to itself til! its motion was
exhausted and it lay still. The pungent smell of an herbal salve eddied up and
smote her sense of smell, and the Beast’s own odour of roses, strong from his
nearness, was overwhelmed. She tried to laugh. “That will cure me, will it?” she said,
and looked up at him where he towered over her; he was nothing but a huge black
shape against what little light there was. One wing of his robe had fallen on
the edge of the table and huddled there like a small creature. As he moved
back, and it slid away and disappeared, following his motion, it did not look
like the hem of a garment righting itself, but like a small wary lover of
darkness regaining sanctuary. He sat down. “It will. It will cure .. . almost anything.” She looked at him, at his face; she thought she could guess
something the ointment could not cure. She touched the coo! salve timidly,
touched it to the back of one hand, to her wrist, dabbed it on her forearm. The
Beast sat in silence, watching her, but she felt his impatience. She stopped
and looked at him, “You are less kind to yourself than you are to my roses,” he
said. “Like this.” Before she had time to think, he had fumbled at the sleeve
catch of her nearer wrist, and it fell open, the light material of the sleeve
falling away and leaving her arm bare, pale in the candlelight but for the dark
lines of blood. He dipped his own fingers in the pot—one at a time, for the pot
was small and his fingers were large—put his other hand over the tips of her
fingers, and ran the ointment in one long luxurious swathe up her hand to her
arm and shoulder and down again. The long dangerous talons did not reach past
the deep pads of his fingers; the glittering tips never so much as grazed
Beauty’s skin. He picked up her hand, turned her arm over, and smoothed more
ointment down the lender insidcs of her wrist and forearm and elbow, to the
delicate flesh of her upper arm; then he stroked the arm all over, back and
front, again and again, till the ointment disappeared. His fingers and palm
felt like suede, and the warmth they left was not wholly that of friction. “Turn towards inc. that I may do the other,” he said
gruffly. Half in a trance, she turned and held her other arm out towards him,
leaving him to unfasten the wrist catch before he drew more ointment
deliciously over her skin. He leant towards her, the shaggy hair of his head falling
low over his forehead so that she could no longer see his dark eyes, and pulled
her arm gently straight, till he could tuck the hand against his own round
shoulder; she felt his warm breath stirring the fine hairs on her forearm; his
long mane brushed the back of her hand. How could a Beast smell so sweetly of
roses? No, no, it must be the sharp smell of the ointment that was creeping
into her eyes, drawing two tears from under the lids to spill down her cheeks. He saw, and stopped at once, drawing back, holding only her
hands in his, holding them against his breast; her knuckles grazed against the
embroidery of his waistcoat. “Have I hurt you’? The last thing I meant—’ She drew her hands gently out of his, curled them under her
chin. “No—no—1 do not know what is wrong with me. I—I think it is only that I am tired.” She blinked, looked
at him, smiled a little tremulously; she was shivering, a deep, deep tremor far
inside herself, but she did not wish him to see, to know or to guess, and she
feared what he might guess. She told herself she did not wish to hurt him by
making him think she was still afraid of him. “It is only that I am tired. Your
ointment is—is wonderfully soothing. I no longer even feel the scratches.” She turned back to her plate, leaning in her chair as
slit-had been before the Beast brought the little pot of salve. The Beast did
not return to his customary place, but he had straightened where he sal. She
touched the half-eaten apple. “I—I think I am not very hungry either,” she
said, for her appetite had gone. “I think what I most need is sleep. If you
will excuse me—” He was on his feet in the instant, drawing back her chair.
She moved away without looking at him, conscious of her loose sleeves billowing
away from her arms, for she had not refastcned the wrist clasps. She had
arrived at the doorway when she heard the Beast’s low voice behind her, where he
still stood behind her chair. “Beauty, will you marry me?” “Oh. no. Beast.” she whispered, and fled. She did not run far. She was as tired as she had told the
Beast she was; she did not know if the corridor had shortened itself in
sympathy or if she had fallen asleep while she walked. In her bedroom her dress
fell away from her as soon as she touched the clasps at her shoulders, her
fingers as clumsy as the Beast’s. It pooled like water round her feet;
starlight and candlelight made it shimmer, as if it moved to a secret tide. The
little embroidered heart tapped against her skin in response to her quick
breathing. She was again almost too tired to pull her nightgown over her head,
and she crept up the stairs to her bed on all fours. She dreamt her old dream, but with the change that had come
to it since she had spent her first night in the Beast’s palace; she hurried
down a long dim corridor, anxious to come to its end, for she was needed there.
She was wearing the dress she had worn this evening, and the wrist clasps had
come loose. A small, chilly wind pursued her, snaking up her open sleeves, making the untended scratches on her
legs ache when it crept under her skirts. She must hurry.... She woke weeping. She knew at once it was very late; there
was a difference in the stillness even in the Beast’s palace that told her the
o’clock was inimical to daylight creatures. She remembered nights in the city
when they had danced till dawn, both inside and outside lit by lamps that made
the dancing floors almost as bright as day. . . . She thought she saw
Jeweltongue speaking to a young man with a handsome, intelligent, sulky face,
on a tall horse; she thought it was a picture out of her memory till she saw
that Jeweltongue was wearing Mandy’s old skirt. There was a small plopping sound from the direction of the
bed stairs. She turned her head on the pillow to look and saw a small round
mound perched there. “Fourpaws?” she whispered. The mound rose up on four legs
and became slender and graceful, and Fourpaws walked delicately onto Beauty’s
bed, purring in her room-filling way. Beauty fancied she could see streams of
purring leaking out through the cracks in the bed-curtains made by the bedposts,
pouring out in the wider spaces on either side of her. which she preferred to
leave open so she could see out; she thought perhaps it was the strength of the
purring that roused the scent from the potpourri in the low dish on top of the
japanned cabinet, for as she drifted towards sleep again, slowly stroking
Fourpaws’ furry side, she could smell roses. Fourpaws’ fur was wonderfully
sleek and soft, soft as ... She fell asleep and dreamt she slept on warm fur,
and in the dream she slept both deeply and drcamlessly, for she was guarded by
a great shaggy shadow that paced back and forth in front of the door of her
chamber, and the tiny breeze of his motion brought the smell of roses to her
where she lay. And then the dream changed again, although there was still a
cat’s fur under her fingers, and she blinked, and there was a black-brindlc-and-white
cat winding itself round her outstretched hands as she stooped to pet it. There
was bright daylight all around them, and she heard the clop of hoofs. “There,
Molly has lost her mind at last,” said a familiar voice. “I hope it won’t put
her off her stroke with the barn mice.” “She’s only enjoying the sunlight,” said a strange male
voice. “She’s not,” said the familiar voice; “she’s being petted by
a ghost. Look at her. She doesn’t purr like that for a sunny afternoon.” The male voice laughed. Beauty thought: I am dreaming. Quite
composedly she looked up and saw Lionheart and a young man she did not
recognise leading two horses towards a barn a little distance away. The young
man was no taller than Lionhcart, though he had broad shoulders and big hands
and a plain, square, kind face. They paused near Molly, and Beauty looked at
their two faces and saw friendship there, the pleasure in each other’s company—and
something else. “You are pleased with him. are you not?” said Lionhearl in a
suddenly businesslike tone, turning to the horse the young man led. “I can tell
Mr Horsewisc you will take him?” And she held out her hand for the young man’s
reins. The young man hesitated, looking at her, and Beauty wondered
at the odd way in which Lion heart now avoided meeting his eyes. Her hand,
still outstretched, trembled slightly. “Yes,” said the young man at last. “Yes,
I do like him, but it was you who saw him, was it not? Mr Horsewisc himself
said it was you who asked to try him.” Lionheart dropped her hand and shrugged, “Yes, I saw him
first, but it was only that I was looking in the right direction, Mr Horsewise
would have seen him sooner or later.” “That’s not how he tells it. He says he had seen enough
horses for the day, and that it was you who insisted on poking round in all the
corners where the Gypsies lurk for the unwary, and found Sunbright there, and
recognised his worth, and insisted Mr Horsewise come look at him when he sought
to put you off. And you—you know me very well. I prefer Sunbright to any of the
other horses Mr Horsewise brought back from the fair.” “Good,” muttered Lionheart. “Lionheart, I don’t understand you,” said the young man, and
there was something in his voice other than exasperation, something unhappy,
even anguished. “Mr Horsewise thinks the world of you, says he’s training you
up to be his successor. If you don’t want—even if you don’t—why won’t you at
least accept the—the reward you have earned?’’ Lionheart smiled a little, but she still would not meet his
eyes. “I don’t need a reward. My wages are as much as I need. And I love my
work here.” “You love it, do you?” said the young man softly. Lionheart stepped away from him violently; the horse she
held threw up its head and sidled away from her. “It’s—it’s just a manner of speaking!”
she said. Clumsily she reached out and tried to snatch Sunbright’s reins out of
the young man’s hands, hut the young man was too quick for her and grasped her
hand instead. “Lionheart—’’ “Let me go!” said Lionheart. “Please. Just—just let me go.” “You must listen to me,” said the young man. “I’ve known for
some time. You know I guessed, don’t you? But I’ve kept your secret. Haven’t I?
Can’t you trust me a little? Because I also know—I—Lionheart—” But Lionheart had’broken free and was running back to the
barn, with her puz/Jed horse trotting obediently behind her. Ihere was still sunlight in her face, but she was back in
her bed in the Beast’s palace. She blinked at the canopy for a moment, and then
turned her head and looked into the room, looked at the queer shape the shadow
of the breakfast table threw on the sunlit carpet. The roses there looked so
bright and real she wondered if she might be able to pluck them and put them in
a vase. “But it can touch nothing living,” the Beast said. These roses would be
soft and rather furry, like the carpet; touching them would be like stroking a
dense-furred cat. But they would have no scent, only a smeil of dust and
weaving. She sat up. There were short grcy-amber-brown hairs on her
pillow. She tried to brush them off. but she found her first attempts only
seemed to leave more cat hairs than ever, and some of them now looked black and
white, “Nonsense,” she said aloud, a little too sharply, and she half flung
herself down the bed stairs to the carpeted floor. It was sun-warm on her bare
feet, and she felt herself relaxing. “At least you don’t change,” she murmured, sitting down
where she was, drawing up her knees, and putting her arms round her shins. ‘‘I
am grateful,” she said aloud, “that these rooms—my rooms—don’t change. In this
palace, where too many things change—where the paintings hanging in the
corridors change their faces and their frames, where the can-dlestands and
torcheres and sconces are in different places and are higher or lower and have
more branches or fewer, and there are different numbers of doors in the chamber
of the star, and the cnamehvork around the sun window changes colours, and
sometimes it’s vine leaves and sometimes it’s little inedailions, and the size
of the tiles underfoot is sometimes larger and sometimes smaller, and there are
of course different numbers of points on die star because there are different
numbers of doors, but that doesn’t explain why the points are sometimes
straight and sometimes curly—and perhaps it is a different dining-hall every
evening too, only it is too dark to see. There is almost nothing here that does
not change, except the glasshouse and—and me. And the Beast. And these rooms.
The roses on the carpet in the first room are always pale pink cabbages, and
the carpet in here is always velvety crimson roses mat have opened Hat—I
suppose the carpet is dyed with a magic dye and will not fade in all this
sunlight—and the tall japanned cabinet with the potpourri dish on top is always
where I first saw it, and the mountain and the bridge and the trees on its
front are always the same picture, and the potpourri bowl is always the same
pale green china. And the fire grate always has the same number of bars—eight,
I counted—and the bed stairs are the same number of steps, five. “And the garden tapestries are always there. I particularly
love the garden tapestries. I might not realise if some of the other things
were changed just a little—things I can’t count—but I would see it at once in
those tapestries; you, er, you change the tint of one columbine, and I would
notice it. I am glad they are all, always there. Even if, er. you have rather
odd habits about matching jewelry with bath towels. I am even glad of those
gilt console tables, although 1 think they are hideous, because at least they
are always the same hideous,” She was still half asleep as she spoke, her eyes wandering
meditatively over what she could see from where she was, and her gaze slowly
settled back on the carpet she sat on. Several of the roses really did look
surprisingly three-dimensional, although this one close at hand seemed less
dark crimson than brown. . .. Her eyes snapped fully open, and she leant
towards what was distinctly a small round lump on the carpet. Not Fourpaws, too
small. “What,,, you’re a hedgehog!” It stirred at her touch and then curled up tighter. “You’re
a very small hedgehog. And you shouldn’t be wandering round enchanted palaces
looking for adventures. How did you get in here? At least bats and butterflies fly.” She stood up and began tapping gingerly at other bits of
carpet. She found two more hedgehogs. Bemusedly she sat down at her breakfast
table and poured herself a cup of tea. “Well, You would be quite useful in the
glasshouse if there were any slugs, but at present there’s nothing for slugs to
eat, so there are no slugs. 1 daresay by the time there are slugs, you will be
full-grown and somewhere else. If I had a compost heap, you could sleep under
the compost heap. Oh dear! If only 1 had something to compost! Grey and white
pebbles and stone chips will not do. How am I going to feed my roses?” She put
her feet under the table. “Oh!” She raised the edge of the tablecloth to look.
Four hedgehogs. When she came to get dressed, she discovered a canvas tunic
with long sleeves folded up on the floor of the wardrobe under her skirt, and
behind her skirt on its peg a canvas overskiit. “Very convenient for the
transportation of hedge-bogs,” she said. There were tough leather boots that
laced to her knees in the way of her searching hand when she scrabbled under
the bed for her shoes. Then she bumped the curled hedgehogs together with one
foot as gently as she could (even rolled-up hedgehogs do not readily roll) and,
protecting her hands behind her overskirt, bundled them into her lap. “I hope
tomorrow’s animal infestation isn’t fleas,” she murmured, and walked towards
the chamber of the star, grateful for the first time for the eerieness of doors
that opened themselves. The lady, or the lady’s cousin, who was usually in the first
painting in the corridor that led to the glasshouse had changed her hair
colour, and her pug dog was now a fan. She gazed at Beauty with unchanged
superciliousness, however. But this morning Beauty, with her arms full of
possibly flea-infested hedgehogs, put her tongue out at her. She laid her four spiky parcels down at the foot of the
water-butt (having had a brief exciting moment holding her laden skirt together
with one hand and one knee while she rapidly worked the glasshouse door handle
with the other hand). “These are excellent garments,” she said, brushing her
sleeves and her skirt front. “1 can even bend my arms. The shirt reminds me
very much of Jcweltongue’s first... oh.:> She squeezed her eyes
shut on her tears as one might hold one’s nose against a sneeze; after a little
while the sensation ebbed, and she opened her eyes again and gave one or two
slightly watery sniffs. The hedgehogs had not moved. “If you slay there a
little longer, I will take you to the wild wood later on. But I have things to
do first.” The half-open bud of the red rose was fully open now, and
one of the other two was cracking, and—best of all—she found a tiny green bump
of a new flower-bud peeking from the joint between another leaf and stem. She
took a deep breath of the open flower’s perfume; it was as good as sleep, or
food. She watered her cuttings. “You are striking, are you not?”
she said to them briskly, like a governess addressing her students. “You are
sending out little white rootlets in all directions, and soon you will prove it
to me by producing your first leaf buds. I want you blooming by the end of this
season, do you hear me? You shrubs, at least. You climbers, perhaps I will give
you till next year.” She heard her own voice saying it—by the end of this season,
next year—and she stopped where she stood, and the water from the watering-can
she carried wavered and stopped too. She looked up towards the cupola several
storeys over her head, and her mind went blank, and she felt panic stir in its
lair, open its eyes.... She opened her mouth and began to sing the first thing
that came into her head: “And from her heart grew a red, red rose, and from his
heart a briar.. . .” She worked all that morning as hard as she had worked the
day before. She worked to keep her memories at bay and to keep panic asleep in
its den. And as she worked, she sang: “A knightly dance in the grove they
tread, with torches and garlands of roses red.” She worked until her back and
shoulders ached and sweal ran down between her breasts and her shoulder blades,
and it was as well for her that she was wearing long canvas sleeves and overskirt,
for she would not have noticed if the thorns had cut her, if her pruning-knife
or her hand rake had slipped. She worked because there were new memories that
troubled her now, not only memories of the sisters and father she missed but
memories of kindness and ... memories of the Beast. “She had not pulled a rose, a rose, a rose but barely one,
when up there starts...” Beauty faltered in her singing, and her stomach took
advantage of the break in her concentration and told her loudly that it was
lunchtimc. She stopped and looked round almost blankly. The rose beds
were now all splendidly tidy. She had pruned away almost as much dead wood as
she had the day before; there was tying and staking yet to be done, but the
elegant shapes of the bushes themselves were now cleanly revealed. There were
rows of little hillocks of leaves down all the paths, and the rather bigger
hill she’d automatically collected near the door (though she supposed the magic
would once again transport it all for her to the mouth of the carriage tunnel to
her bonfire glen) had four little collapsed-entry leaf-falls on one side of its
circumference. “Oh dear,” said Beauty guiltily. “I’d forgotten all about you.” She put her hand on the glasshouse door and thought. She was
a gardener, and she disliked the idea of putting four perfectly good slug—and
insect-eating hedgehogs into a wild wood—wasting them, to her miiid. She went
outdoors and looked up, stretching her back and shoulders as she did so; the
jacket and the overskirt were protecting her skin admirably, but they could do
nothing for the ache in her muscles, or for the weariness of the hand that held
the pnming-knife. It was still earty enough in the year that the sun, while
warm, was not yet oppressive. She wondered how hot the glasshouse became in
high summer; was temperature regulation within the magic’s purview? Or was the
excellent system of vents and of windows that opened and panes that unlatched,
and lacy screens that roiled down, and the handles and levers to work them,
invisible till there was need for it? Maybe it was merely hidden from her dull
eyes amidst al! the gorgeous tomfoolery of the glasshouse’s design. She looked up at the weather vane she could barely see and
wondered again what it was; she could just make out a bulk of shape to one
side, a narrower finger of something on the other. Just where did the food she ate come from? Conjured out of
the air from dust motes? There were hardly even dust motes in the Beast’s
palace; the sunbeam that woke her in the mornings was washed clean. But even
sorcerers had to negotiate with ordinary merchants for some things; she knew
her father’s story about the hydra who answered the front door. Her friend the
salamander preferred real flies to the magical banquets his master laid out on
grand occasions. Beauty thought of the fourth side of the courtyard she stood
in, which she had not yet explored. There were doors on each of the other
three, even if one only led fat least, led her) to her rooms, and one was
sealed shut. Her curiosity rearoused by the mysterious weather vane, her
conscience pricked by hedgehogs, and her memory disturbed by dreams, she de— cided that lunch could wait a few more minutes. She would
have a look first al the fourth side of the courtyard. She walked along the glasshouse wall instead of nearer the
palace, half thinking that she should begin looking for vents or vent openings;
she was a little worried lhat just as the glasshouse door opened hy putting
your hand on the handle and turning it, like all the other doors she had known
except the ones in the Beast’s palace, and as she had taken on the dying roses
as her special care, so perhaps the glasshouse cooling system might be her
practical responsibility too. Perhaps it was studying the shining ridged whorls and scintillant
beams and bars—sometimes it was as though they ran up and down for no other
reason than to give her pleasure, for she could often make no sense of them architecturally;
but she found herself laughing as she looked—that made the time pass so
quickly. Almost before she thought of it, she was already rounding the corner
of the glasshouse and looking down that fourth side. And there was another open
archway, like the one to the wild wood. She went towards it eagerly, teasing
herself with ideas of what might lie beyond in the few moments before she could
see for herself. The tunnel felt shorter, perhaps because it was so much
brighter. This one did not debouch upon a wild wood; here was an orchard. It was the wrong time of year for apples and pears—and plums
and peaches and apricots—but they were mere all the same. She plucked a peach
and bit into it, cupping her free hand under her chin for the juice she knew
would run down it; when she finished the peach, she lapped the little pool of
juice from her palm and then knelt and wiped her hands on the grass and her
face on a reasonably clean corner of her skirt. It wasn’t lunch, but it would
keep her a little longer while she explored. She didn’t see him al first; she saw only another huge old
tree at a little distance; his back was to her, and the near black of his hair
blended into the unrelieved black of his clothing, and both into their
background. Then he turned without seeing her and pulled an apple off the tree
he stood next to and ate it, neatly, in two biles, core and all. / am a
Beast; I cannot eat like a man. She thought of the peach juke running down
her chin, but she waited till his hands had dropped to his sides again before
she stepped forward. He saw her but made no move towards her, and so she hesitated,
uncertain of her welcome. “It is a lovely day for a picnic,” she said, but her
voice betrayed her, and picnic wavered, ending like a question. He still said nothing, so she turned to go. “If you are
enjoying my orchard, stay,” he said. “I do not wish to disturb you,” she said. He shook his shaggy head. “You do not—” he began, and
stopped. “I would be glad of your company,” he said. She came to stand next to him, and then, uncertain again,
stepped away, leant against a tree. “You must be very fond of fruit, to have so
magnificent an orchard,” she said. He gave a rumble that might have been a laugh. “The magic
consents to feed me, to keep me alive,” he said. “Fruit?” she said, astonished. “You—” Her mind flew back
over her meals in the Beast’s palace. “There is no meat on your table.” The Beast nodded. “1 am a Beast, and other beasts fear me.
They cannot live here in pcaee because of my presence, and I cannot give them a
merciful death. I sent them away, long ago. No beast—no other beast—comes here
now but Fourpaws.” And a few hundred butterflies, a bat, and four hedgehogs,
thought Beauty, and ask me again tomorrow morning. But she did not interrupt, “Fruit sustains me,” continued the Beast. “When I was first
here, the orchard fruited in the autumn, as orchards do; and sometimes in early
summer, no matter how careful I had been about storing my previous year’s crop,
before the next harvest, I grew very hungry. I ate grass, but it did not agree
with me. Over the years the trees have carried their fruit earlier and
earlier—and longer and longer. “I told you last night that the magic here can touch noth— ing living. Within the walls of the courtyard, it is master;
outside those walls it... may ask. The front garden answered and obeyed. But
here, in this orchard... It is the trees who have chosen to carry their fruit
early and late; it is not magic that compels them.” Beauty knew what he was about to say before he said it, and
she had her mouth open to protest almost before he spoke: “But my poor roses— “The glasshouse is different,” said Beauty almost angrily.
“The glasshouse is not like the rest of the palace. It doesn’t change. It isn’t
one thing one minute and something else the next. It is itself.” “It is the heart of this place,” said me Beast, “and it is
dying.” Beauty put her hands over her ears, as if she would not hear
him. “No. No. There is something wrong there, but we are putting it
right, the roses and I. I do not know what it is that has gone wrong. I think
it is only that it has been neglected for too long. Neither you nor the magic
can tend it, but I can. It will not die. It will not. I will not let
it,” She took her hands away from her ears and took a deep breath. A little
breeze curled round her warm face and patted her cheeks, bringing with it a
whiff of a deep-scented rose. Her hands were shaking. “There is cheese on your
table—and butter,” she said abruptly, remembering, “Yes,” said the Beast. “There is cheese and butter.”‘ “But—” She looked at him, and he looked at her; but it came
to her that she was [earning to read his face, and she knew he would answer no
questions about the cheese and the butter. But even after she realised this,
she went on looking at him, and lie at her. The little breeze swerved round her
and blew the heavy mane off the Beast’s forehead. It was only the strangeness
of what he is, she thought. It is as if you looked at a—a hedgehog and expected
it to be a rabbit, or looked at a cat while anticipating a phoenix. I wonder
what the hydra thought of the first human being it ever saw, and whether it
liked answering a front door that always opened on creatures with only one
head. She looked away. “And bread.” She thought of Lion-heart and
added hastily, “And vegetables.” “Vegetables,” agreed the Beast, without enthusiasm. “They
are all grass, as far as 1 am concerned, but the vegetable garden is that way.
if you are interested,” She laughed at him then, because he sounded like a small boy,
not like a very large grown-up Beast with a voice so deep it made the hair on
die back of your neck stir when you heard it. “But vegetables are good for
you,” she said, and added caressingly, “They make you grow up big and strong.” He smiled, showing a great many teeth. “You see why 1 wish
to eat no more vegetables. But I am sure the magic is glad of someone to cook
and bake for more capable of being pleased than I.” Beauly thought of the five slices of toast she had eaten
that morning, and the half pot of marmalade. She had been very hungry, after no
supper the night before. “You speak of—of it—as if it were a person.” “I think of it as such. Or”—he hesitated—“as much of a
person as I am. 1 think—I sometimes think—we are both a bit bewildered by our
circumstances. But as with this orchard, we have grown into each other’s ways,
over the years.” You speak and you move, and the echo in your voice says that
you know yourself to be trapped here. As if you and—and the magic are both
trapped. But the trees carry their fruit for you, and you sent the other beasts
away, that they might not be unhappy. “You have been here a very long time,”
she said tentatively. “Yes. I have been here a very long time. And you have been
standing talking to me a very long time. Go eat your lunch. Even magic can’t
keep it hot forever.” Dismissed, she ran off, wishing she dared invite him to accompany
her, aware of his gaze on her back, watching her go. wondering if he would
still be there by the time she returned after lunch, to smuggle a few hedgehogs
into the vegetable garden. He had sent all the other beasts away, long ago. But
the trees had learnt to listen to him, and now the beasts were returning. She was both disappointed and relieved that she did not see
the Beast later, with her skirt full of hedgehogs. She made her way as swiftly
as she could through the long pathless grass in the orchard, keeping the
courtyard archway behind her; her burden made her a little slow and cautious,
both for her sake and for her passengers’, and a little clumsy; nor could she
entirely resist the temptation to look round her, even at the risk of losing
her footing or straying from the shortest route. The grass was spangled with
wild-flowers, and she saw tall bulrushes a little way off, at the bottom of a
gradual slope, suggesting water, but it was too far away for a diversion. It was not too long before there rose up before her another
sort of wall, an old brick wall, such as might contain an old garden. There was
a wrought-iron gate in the wall, and the glimpse she had through it gave her a
little warning, but still the garden was a surprise. “Oh! This is how The
glasshouse should look!” The words burst out of her. She knelt, to let the
hedgehogs roll off her lap, but she was looking round her all the time. The paths that ran away from her in three directions were
wide enough to walk along—and to let sunlight in—but no wider, and in some
places the great vegetable forest leant over them, and in other places it
sprawled across plots the size of banqueting halls. The rhubarb were tall as
trees, the runner bean vines taller than giants; the red-stemmed chard,
brilliant as rubies in the afternoon sun, grew as high as her waist, though the
leaves were still a fresh young green; and the cabbages, some of them so big
around she could not have circled them with her arms, bore extravagant frills
as elaborate as ball gowns and as exquisitely coloured; and there were melons
nearly the size of Rose Cottage. Did the Beast eat melons? she thought. I must
ask. And figs—for there were fig trees espaliered against the walls, looking as
if they needed the support of the wires to hold up their splendid weight of
fruit. She looked down, so as not to step on any hedgehogs, and saw
that they had all uncurled, and were standing up on their legs, and sniffing
the air in an interested manner. She thought one of them looked up at her and
deliberately met her eyes, as if to say, “Thank you.” “Well,” she said, “thank you loo. I hope you’ll stay here,
and eat lots of slugs and things, and be happy. Be happy too, please. You won’t
be very small hedgehogs here for long, will you’.’ Although I can’t say this
place looks as if it has ever seen a slug in its life—I guess if there are
hedgehogs, there will be slugs loo. Oh—and to think I toid the bat to fly to
the wild wood. Perhaps it already knew better. Perhaps that’s why it came, and
it only got a little lost and flew through my balcony instead.1’ She wandered down the paths for a little while, thinking
about a rose jungle like this vegetable jungle. All her bushes would be at
least as tall as she was, and the climbers would climb right up into the
cupola, and there would be so many leaves and flowers eveiywhere that the
overeager gardener wouldn’t know where the thorns were lying in wait until it
was too late.... She laughed. As she walked, she picked a handful of pods, and
shelled them, and ate the peas raw, and they melted on her tongue; and she
pulled off hand fills of different lettuces, and every leaf was as sweet and
tender as the peas, and she was sorry for the lunch she had had, that she could
not eat more. In her wanderings she eame to another wrought-iron gate, and
she opened it and went through it, and here were great fields of sweet-corn,
with fat green ears trailing golden tassels as long as her arm, and of wheat,
and the longer-haired barley. She walked just a little way along the barley, to
run her hands through the feathery awns, softer than any birds’ down, softer
than Fourpaws’ flank. “But I must go back,” she said, “for I have work to do.” Inside the walled garden again she put her hand out, for one
last mouthful of peas, for a fig to eat on her road; but her hand paused in the
reaching, and even though the sunlight still shone on her warm and bright, she
shivered. The taste of the peas and the lettuce in her mouth was not as sweet
as it had been, for it seemed to her suddenly somehow soulless—as if while her
tongue could be tooled, her body knew this food would not nourish her. And she
thought again of the meals in the Beast’s palace—and wondered again about the
cheese and the butter. It was not until that moment that she noticed the silence.
She was growing accustomed to silence, to the nearly unbroken silence of the
palace and its grounds, the silence that made her talk aloud to herself in a
way that would never have occurred to her when she still lived with two sisters
and a father (and a dog, a goat, and chickens), and a little town not far away.
But she now realised that there had been an uneasiness shadowing her from the
moment she had stepped through the first gate, struggling with her
hedgehog-filled overskirt. And the uneasiness was that she neither saw nor
heard any birds. In the palace there was some excuse for soundlessness; in
the courtyard, perhaps, as well, but in a garden, in any garden, let alone one
so magnificent as this one, . . There must be birds in a garden, just as there
must be midges and flies and aphids, and slugs and beetles and borers, and
spiders and hedgehogs and butterflies. But there were none here, neither flying
overhead, nor calling from the branches, nor hopping through the leaves at
ground level. As she went back towards the gate into the orchard, she
found herself brushing against the plants for the soughs and swishes and
rustles, just as she had brushed her hand against curtains and sconce pendants
when she had followed the Beast into the palace for the first time. Before she
let herself through the second gate, she looked round for the hedgehogs, but
they had all disappeared. It was later than she realised; the light was already
lengthening towards evening. The long grass in the orchard seemed to drag at
her, and by the time she came to the tunnel into the courtyard, she was
conscious of how tired she was. She stood for a minute at the edge of the
orchard, listening to the wind moving among the grass blades and the trees; it
was a comforting sound, but not so comforting as the chirp of a single sparrow
would have been. She was thinking about nothing in particular—about the end of
day, about weariness, about the likelihood of a hot bath waiting for her. But
there was a little, itchy, tickling sense of some thought trying to catch her
attention, something about. . . about strength, about sorrow, about joy; about
the joy of... of... As soon as she was aware even of so much, it was gone. Chapter 9Her dress that evening was dark green, with long
close-fining sleeves buttoned with many tiny buttons, and a high neck, and
round it went a wide necklet of great square emeralds, each as large as the palm
of a child’s hand. There were emerald drops for her ears that were so heavy she
was not sure she could wear them all evening; when she had put them on and
turned her head, the tiny spray of opals and peridots that hung below the
emeralds brushed her shoulders. There were two heavy emerald wristlets whose
clasps closed with small substantial snicks like the locks of treasure vaults;
her shoes were so stiff with the gems sewn closely all over them she could
barely bend her feet. When she leant down to pick up a dark green bath towel
and hang it over the back of a chair she creaked. “All T need is—let’s see—a
tiara, and perhaps a cape, sewn all over to match the shoes, and I will be too
ponderous to move,” she said, “and you will have to send a coach and four to
transport me to the dining-hall.” There was a sudden wild sibilancc from inside the wardrobe,
and she started. “That was a joke!” she said hastily; her voice had gone all
high and thin. She turned and half ran—tittupping in her unyielding
shoes—through her rooms to the chamber of the star; there her shoes made a dramatic,
resonant clatter, as if the coach and four were there, waiting for her,
invisible but not inaudible. “Oh dear!” she said. “No more jokes!” She ran across the
slar and through the door that opened for her, and at once her shoes were
muffled by carpeting. “Maybe that is the trouble with this place,” she said.
“No sense of humour.” But her words were muffled even as her shoes were, and
she began to feel her spirits muffled too; and she went on silently to the
dining-hall. where the Beast silently waited. She sat down, tasted the wine the Beast had poured for her,
and resolutely began to eat. She was not going to miss any more dinners. The
shadows that were the Beast caught at the comer of her vision. She only knew he
was there because she had seen him sit down; he sal as still as some great
predator waiting for his prey. The tinkle of her cutlery hid the sound of his
breathing, as the mutter of dry leaves underfoot might hide the hunter’s. She
tried to recall the mood of the morning. “Do you go every day to the orchard?”
she said. “Yes. I spend much of each day there. Nights I spend on the
roof.” Beauty said, astonished, “But when do you sleep? And does
not the weather trouble you?’’ “I do not steep much. And the weather troubles me little...
in this shape. It is harder on my suits of clothing. The magic can turn the
weather too, when it chooses. I prefer it to come as it will; mostly I have my
way in this.” The Beast looked at her. “in the winter, occasionally, sanctuary
is provided to some traveller.” Beauty shivered and, because she could not help herself,
said, “It has happened more than once then.” “Yes . . . more than once. They run away, of course, when
they see me. If they do not see me, they leave for loneliness—or fear of
shadows.” Very low, Beauty said: “But none has ever stolen from you before.” The Beast said, “Your father is not a thief. It was my heart
he took, and he could not have known that. Others have stolen.” The Beast’s voice
became indifferent. “They had no joy of what they took, and no one has ever
found this place twice.” The silence was all round her again, pressing through even
the Beast’s words while he was still speaking; with a tiny gasp Beauty made a
sudden gesture and knocked the butt of her knife against a copper bowl, which
rang like a gong. “Oh! I’m sorry!” she said, but as the echoes died away, there
was Fourpaws, winding round the table leg nearest Beauty’s chair, twisting the
long tail of the heavy dark table runner till the goblet and small saucer near
the corner danced in their places. Beauty reached out to steady the goblet just
as Fourpaws stopped and looked at her reproachfully. “Pardon me,” said Beauty. “I should have known you never
knock anything over unless you mean to do it.” Fourpaws forgave her, and purred, and jumped into her lap,
and Beauty began to cat again, but only with one hand, since the other was
necessarily occupied with stroking Four-paws. It is rather awkward, eating with
one hand. The Beast had not moved, but he was smiling. “Not all other beasts fear you,’’ said Beauty, stroking and
stroking as Fourpaws purred, and lashed her tail, and purred. “A cat is a law unto itself,” said the Beast gravely, “even
one cat from another cat. And Fourpaws, like any cat, is herself. That is the
only explanation I have; and while she stays here, as she does, it is enough.” “It is enough,” agreed Beauty, and asked another question,
as she might ask a friend: “What do you do on the roof at night?” “Look at the stars, when it is clear enough. I told you that
this place and I have grown to each other’s shape over the years. I will send
no weather away if I know it is coming, but it is often clear at night here.” Beauty thought of the bit of sky she could see from her balcony,
and how blocked it was by the hugeness of the palace and even the peak of her
beloved glasshouse; and she remembered the trees around Rose Cottage and the
great bowl of sky she could see from there; and she thought of what the view
must be from the tool” of the palace, with no trees, no houses, no city
lights.. .. “Oh. might 1 ever come up? Is there some bit of roof where I would
not be disturbing you?” “I answered a question much like that in the orchard earlier
today. I would be glad of your company.” “How shall I know where to find you?” “Any late night that you wake, look out of your window, and
if the sky is clear, come and find me. Any stair up will take you eventually
onto the roof.” He paused and looked troubled. ‘‘You—you will not be
frightened? I know you do not like the dark.” Beauty looked at him in surprise, but she realised at once
that the surprise must be directed at herself, for while she had loved the soft
darkness in the garden at Rose Cottage, she did not like the dark in the
Beast’s palace, which was silent but not quiet, did not like the shadows thrown
by things which changed into other things when she was not looking at them, did
not like the shadows containing other things she could not see.... “Perhaps I
shall be frightened,” she said slowly, “but I shall still come and look for
you.” “Will you marry me?” said the Beast. “No, Beast,” said Beauty, and the hand stroking Four-paws
stopped and curled its fingers, and Fourpaws leapt from her lap and disappeared
into the darkness. She slept too deeply that night for wakening. She saw her sisters
moving round the ground floor of Rose Cottage. Their father was again frowning
over bits of paper by the hearth, but his scowl was that of firm concentration,
and he bit the end of his pen briskly. She looked into his well-loved face and
saw a clarity and serenity there that had never been there before. Even her
earliest memories of him. when her mother was still alive, made him out to have
been ... not merely preoccupied with business or by his adoration of his wife,
but somehow a little haggard, a little overstretched by life or work, by
responsibility or longing. Beauty smiled in her sleep to see him now, even as
she wished to put out her hand and smooth the lines from his lace and the
sorrow from his eyes that had been there only since she had come to the Beast’s
palace, only since she had begun having these dreams about the home she had
left. If this is only a dream—she thought, dreaming—why can I not do this? Why
can I not tell my dream-father and my dream-sisters that I am well and whole?
Just as I used to touch the wallpaper of that long windowless corridor and feel
the roughness of the paper and the slickness of the paint, and the edges where
the lengths joined. Just as I petted a cat called Molly while Lion heart and her
young man looked on. But she could not. Jeweltongue was humming to herself as she settled down
across from her father and picked up a froth of pink ribbons and net. “I will
be glad when Dora outgrows the frou-frou stage. Mrs Trueword never grudges
paying my labour, but all this nonsense is simply boring.” Lionheart, at the kitchen table, beating something in a
bowl, said, “She may not outgrow it, you know. She may decide she is expressing
a unique and exquisite taste. Try considering yourself lucky. Out of six women
in one family to sew for. you have only one addicted to frills,” “Hmm,” said Jeweltongue, biting off thread and watching her
sister through her eyelashes. Lionheart lost her grip on her bowl with the violence of her
mixing, hit herself in the stomach with her spoon gone out of control, and
grunted, “Rats’-nests.’” as batter flew across the room. “You’ve been out of soils for weeks now,” said Jeweltongue.
“You come home every seventh day and bang round the house like a djinn in a
bottle, and go off again next morning looking like the herald of the end of the
world, I say this with the understanding that you may now upend the remains of
your bowl over my head.” Lionheart’s face relaxed, and she gave a faint and reluctant
laugh. “I’m sorry. I know I am—I am not at my best, which is to say that I know
you must know that I am not at my best, and I—I—oh, I can’t help it! It’s just
the way it is. It won’t go on forever. I can’t...” But whatever else she
thought of saying remained unsaid. Jewcltongue laid the net and the ribbons down and came over
to help Lionheart mop up. “What’s wrong, dearest? Surely it would be a little
easier for you if you told us.” Lionheart, on her knees, leant her forehead against the edge
of the table and closed her eyes. “No.” “Weil, will you tell me anyway if I ask you?” Lionheart opened her eyes and began to smile. “You are
giving me warning you are about to begin plaguing me to death about it, are
you?” “Yes,” said JeweJtongue at once. “I was willing to let it
alone, you know, and wait for you to solve it yourself, but it’s been weeks.
It’s been—it’s been since the week after you went to the horse fair with Mr
Horsewise. Your great triumph, I thought. Has Mr Horsewise decided his protege
is just a little too young to be so clever?” “Your estimation of my abilities is touching but misplaced,”
said Lionheart—“Mr Horsewise knows more than I’ll ever learn. It isn’t Mr
Horsewise.” “Then you had better straighten out whatever it is, or it will
be Mr Horsewise,” said Jeweltongue, “because I can’t believe you aren’t
behaving like this at work too. I know you too well.” LionhearL rocked back on her heels and stared wide-eyed at
Jeweltongue, and then her face began to twist and crumple, and, savagely as she
bit her lips, the tears would come. Jeweltongue put her arms round her, and
Lionheart pressed her face into her sister’s breast and roared, for Lionheart
could never weep quietly. Their father rose from his place by the sitting-room hearth,
and came to the sink, and began to pump water for the teakettle, stooping to
pal Lionheart’s back as he passed her. He filled a bowl and left it on the
table near Jeweltongue, with a towel, and when Lionheart had subsided to a
snuffle, Jeweltongue tenderly wiped her sister’s face till Lionheart snatched
the towel away from her with a return of her usual spirit and mutlered, “I’m
not a baby, even if I’m behaving like one,” and scrubbed at her face till the
skin turned a bright blotchy red, “Matches your eyes nicely, dear,” said Jeweltongue. Teacosy, judging that emotions were cooling to a safe level,
came out from behind die old merchant’s armchair, to which haven she had
withdrawn after being hit in the eye with some Hying batter. She sidled up to
Lionheart, put her nose in Lionhearl’s lap, and when she was not rebuffed, the
rest of her followed. The old merchant made tea and passed cups down to the two
sisters still sitting on the floor, murmuring, “Old bones, you must forgive
me,” and drew up a chair for himself. When he sat down, Lionheart leant back
against his legs and sighed, and be stroked the damp hair away from her
forehead. “It’s—it’s Aubrey,” Lionheart said at last. “He’s—he’s
guessed.” “He won’t have you turned away!” said Jeweltongue, shocked.
“I would not have thought him susceptible to doltish views of propriety. And he
has been a good friend to you. has he not?” “It’s worse than that,” said Lionheart. “I—I’m in love with
him. And I think—I’m pretty sure—he’s in love with me.” “But that’s not—” “Isn’t it?” said Lionheart swiftly. “Has Master Jack
forgiven you for preferring a short, stoop-shouldered fiour-monger with hands
like boiled puddings to his tall, elegant, noble self, whose white hands have
never seen a day’s work? D’you want to think about what happens next? This is
going to be one Loo many for Master Jack’s vanity, from the occupants of that
tatty little witch’s cottage beyond the trees at the edge of Farmer Goldfield’s
lands, where no respectable sort of folk ought to be willing to live in the
first place. You must have heard some of the stories that are being told about
why Beauty . .. where Beauty . . . why she isn’t here just now. Stories with
magic in them, here in Longchance, where everyone knows magic never comes.” Her voice faltered, and then she went on. “And surely you’ve
heard that there’s a curse on this place if three sisters live in it’.’ The
tads like to tease me about it, say I’m pretty enough to be a girl if I wore a
dress and learnt to walk right, hut they’ve never told me what exactly the
curse is, and I don’t like to ask outright, do I? “Our friends love us, so at present the stories are only
stories, even the curse—whatever it is. But... the True-words do what their
eldest son tells them to, you know; they think he’s wonderful: they think he’s
just loo clever and wise and good to bother himself with doing anything.
And Longchance does what the Truewords tell them.” Beauty felt herself driven out of her own dream, pushed
away, as if by a storm wind, and battered and beaten by some force she could
not resist—but the sensation was much more sluggish lhan that. She felt weighed
down, dragged, muffled and inauled. She no longer dreamt, but she could not
wake, and she tossed in her bed as if her bedclothes imprisoned her. Finally she threw herself successfully into wakefulness, and
there was sunlight on the carpet, and the teapot steaming through the spout
slit in the tea-cosy. All her pillows had fallen to the floor, and the
bedclothes, and her own hair, were wound in a great snarl round her. It took
her a minute or two to creep free, for she moved languidly, and she had trouble
understanding what she was looking at and which way to pull to loosen the
snare. She had to think about it to so much as brush her hair out of her mouth
in the right direction. Even awake as she was now it was difficult not to feel
trapped and to struggle blindly. She felt her way down the bed stairs and poured herself a
cup of tea with an unsteady hand and then sat, staring at the cup while the tea
grew cold, holding the embroidered heart in both her hands, and saying to
herself. It was only a dream. It was only a dream. Please. It was only a dream. Finally she drank the cold tea, and poured herself another
cup, and drank it hot, and the clouds in her mind and heart began to thin and
shred and then to blow away. “I must—I must return soon,” she muttered. “I must
know what is happening. And—if anything is happening, I must be there to share
it with them.” She kept remembering Lionheart saying. The stories that are
being told about why Beauty isn’t here . And the curse. Surely you’ve heard that there’s a curse
on this place if three sisters live in it? The curse was catching up with
them at last. They’ve never told me what exactly the curse is.... She knew little of the Longchance baker and less of either
of Squire Trueword’s sons, but she knew about gossip, about how people talk and
how stories grow. She remembered Mrs Greendown saying, / like to talk. And
she remembered Mrs .Greendown telling her about the country greenwitch to whom
it mattered so much that Rose Cottage go to a particular family, who lived many
miles away in a city that perhaps no one living in Longchance had ever seen,
that she went to a lawyer and had papers drawn up to do it. Papers drawn up that
left it specifically to the three sisters of that family. And she remembered
Mrs Greendown saying, f ain’t prying . .. much; but it’s ... interestin.’,
isn’t it? Like you said to begin, you can’t help being interested. And she remembered saying to Mrs Greendown, I’d much
rather know, and Mrs Greendown replying, You may not, dear, but I’m
thinking maybe you’d better. ... ;’I must go home,” she said. “The roses must
bloom soon, for I must go home.” She stood up from the breakfast table and
walked out to the balcony, nursing her teacup in one hand and the embroidered
heart in the other, and stood staring at the glasshouse, effervescing in the
light of the early sun; slowly her face eased into a small smile. “Well,” she
said in her ordinary voice, “what is it to be today then? Nothing too—too
demanding. I’m probably about in a mood for spiders.” As she said spiders, there was a twinkle in the
corner of her eye, as if the glasshouse had found a mirror to repeat itself in,
and she turned to look. The spiderweb hung the entire length of the balcony
door frame, and it caught the sunlight just as the glasshouse did, and lit up
in tiny fierce lines of fire and crystal. “Oh,” said Beauty, letting out a long breath. “Oh.” It was
so beautiful she almost touched it, remembering just in time; but even the tiny
air current stirred by her fingers made the nearest gossamer thread quiver and
wink, and she saw die spider come out of its comer of the door frame and pluck
a connecting thread to see if there was anything worth investigating. “Well, you are a handsome spider,” said Beauty bravely, “as
spiders go, and I salute you for a most radiant and well-composed web, and I
daresay I can bear you as a roommate—so long as you stay out here. I do not
want any of your daughters spinning their homes in my bed-curtains. I hope you
understand.” The spider dropped the thread and retreated. A narrow gleam
of sunlight, barely thicker than gossamer itself, found an unexpected entry
into the spider’s corner and touched its back. The spider had curled itself
into a little round blob with no tegs showing (it immediately became smaller
when. with its legs tucked up, it was no longer so mercilessly identifiable as
a spider), and under the sunlight’s caress it glittered bright as polished jet,
and there was some faint gold and russet pattern upon it, which would not have
disgraced the bodice of a lady or the shield of a knight. Beauty had leant closer to look and gave a kind of hiccup,
which should have been a laugh, except that she did not want to disturb the
spider again with her breath. “I draw the line at discovering spiders to be
beautiful too,” she said, “but I, er, take your point.” It was not until then that she remembered she had wanted to
wake during the night and go onto the roof, and her life in the Beast’s palace
crept back to her and wrapped itself round her, and she did not notice it or
how comfortably it fitted her. On this, her fourth day, she found the first leafbuds on her
cuttings and the first green tips aboveground in her seedbed. She had a last load of clippings and rubbish to haul to the
bonfire glen; she raked and swept till the ground between the bushes was
satisfyingly brown and bare, and she weni round a last time, looking at
everything with her pruning-knife in her hand, and mostly felt her decisions
had been good ones. She had found green wood in nearly all her new roses (to
herself she called them her roses, as if they were merely an extension of those
at Rose Cottage, though she knew she was only rescuing them for the Beast), and
even those she had had no success with she was not yet ready to dig up and
dispose of; arguing to herself that they might yet shoot from the base if she
gave them a little more time. There was perhaps more tying up she could do, more propping
and spreading out—the stakes and string had of course appeared for the purpose,
under and around the water-butt—but the glasshouse was nearly as tidy as she
could make it. “Barring an infinity of buckets of hot soapy water and a rag on
a very long stick,” she said, looking up at the thousands and thousands of
bright panes round her; “but I’m very—very—glad to say you don’t look as
if you need it.” She leant her tools by the water-butt and bundled up a few
handfuls of leaves and twigs in her overskirt with her tinderbox in her pocket,
so that she could begin the fire, while she didn’t examine too closely her
expectation that the magic would bring the rest of the debris. And she might
keep her back to the carriage-way, so she need not see it arrive either. Would
leaves and twigs tumble suddenly out of nothing? Might she see—something—carrying
a great bundle of rubbish? No, she would definitely keep her back to the
carriage-way. She put a trowel in another pocket as well. “I might have a
look round for heartsease at the edge of the wood,” she murmured, “just to have
something flowering to frame the paths. But once you’re all growing, and I see
what shapes you come to, I can plant up the empty spots with pansies.” But this
time she did not react to the implications of her words, and though she hummed
and sometimes sang to herself as she worked, she did not do so to drive fear
away from her. She returned from the bonfire glade with her overskirt heavy
with carefully uprooted heartsease, and spent a little time kneeling by the
crosspath at the centre of the glasshouse, planting tiny purple faces in small
clusters among her cuttings at the four corners. It was near lunchtime, but for the first time she was not
hungry for it. She stood restlessly in the centre of her glasshouse, with the
transplanted heartsease gleaming velvety and merry in the sunlight, and looked
round her. The good work she had done no longer pleased her, because she knew
her task was only half accomplished. She had to feed the soil, feed her roses,
or nothing would come of all she had done so far, and her cuttings and
seedlings would die too. “If! say ‘compost,’ I don’t suppose a compost heap
appears by the water-butt, does it?” It didn’t. She walked through the orchard, too preoccupied to look for
the Beast—or too ashamed, for how could she face him now, when the job she was
here to do she was about to fail at?—and let herself into the walled garden
again; but she found no compost heap, nor any of the usual signs of human
cultivation, rakes and hoes and spades, trowels and hand forks and pruning
knives, seed trays and bel! glasses and pots for potting on, odd bits of timber
that might do for props but probably won’t, twists of paper that used to contain
seeds and haven’t found their way to the bonfire, broken pots, frayed string,
and bits of rusty wire. “Very well,” she said. “You are much too—too organized
for such mortal litter, but if you, you magic, don’t need compost to
make—to allow—things to grow, why are the Beast’s poor roses dying?” It is
the heart of this place, and it is dying. She looked out again over the
too-tidy, too-beautiful vegetable beds and listened to the silence. Where were
the birds? She slunk back through the orchard, looking only at her
feet, not even interested in exploring the pond or stream the bulrushes
heralded, not stopping to twist a fruit off any of the generously Jaden trees,
because she suddenly felt she did not deserve such a pleasure. She went up to
her balcony and stared at her lunch with no appetite. There was a slab of cheese, and she poked it with her
finger. “Where do you come from then? Herbivore dung is exactly what I want.
Cow would be splendid—goat, sheep, even horse. I’m not particular. Chicken is
also good, although I’m quite sure one cannot produce cheese from chickens. 1
wish I knew more about cheese.” She tried to recollect everything the dairymaid
who had married a city man might have told her about cheese varieties, but it
was all too long ago. She had not been a good pupil because she had had too
much on her mind, and the woman had been careful to give her only the most
basic instructions. She thought of her own experiments with goat’s cheese and
smiled grimly; no help for her there. She broke off a bit of this cheese and nibbled it, stared at
the pattern of crumbs as if they were tea-leaves which could tell her fortune.
“This isn’t even like any cheese I can remember anywhere else. It’s—it’s—” She
stopped. She had eaten cheese in the palace before, and no doubt what
was happening now was only because she was concentrating so hard that her mind
had to leap in some direction, like a horse goaded by spurs. But suddenly she
seemed to stand in a forest, and there was an undulating sea of moss underfoot,
and the sunlight fell through the green and coppery leaves in patterns as
beautiful as those on a spider’s back, and there was a smell of roses in her nostrils
and in her mouth. But just as she would know Lionheart from Jeweltongue in the
dark simply by her smell, just as each of the roses at Rose Cottage possessed a
smell as individual as the shape of its stems and leaves and the colour of its
flowers, so was this smell of roses different from the rich wild scent that
belonged to the Beast. This scent was light and delicate and fine and reminded
her of apples after rain, but with a flick, a touch, a tremor of something
else, something she could not identify. She drew in a deep breath, and her
heart lifted, and then the vision—and the scent—dissolved, and she was back in
her rose-decorated room, staring at a plate of cheese and cheese crumbs. She hardly knew how she got through the afternoon, and she
was preoccupied at dinner. When Fourpaws failed to put in an appearance, she
found herself playing fretfully with the tails of the ribbons woven into her
bodice, fidgeting with the silken cord of her embroidered heart, and twisting
the gold chain set with coral that hung round her neck. “May I ask what troubles you?” said the Beast at last. Beauty laughed a little. “I am sorry; I am not good company
this evening. No, I think I want to worry my problem one more day. It would
please me to be abie to solve it myself, although at present I admit I am
baffled.” “I will help you any way I can,” said the Beast. “As I have
told you.” Beauty looked at him. He had turned his head so that the candlelight
fell on one cheekbone, lit the dark depths of one eye; the tips of his white
teeth showed even when his mouth was closed. He always sat so still that when
he moved, it was a surprise, like a statue gesturing, or the wolf or chimera’s
deadly spring from hiding. “Yes, Beast,” she said. “I know ... you have told me this.” He made his own restless motion, plucking at the edge of his
gown, as she had seen him do before. The fabric rippled and glistened in the
candlelight, seeming to turn of its own volition to show off its black sheen,
like a cat posing for an audience. She repressed the urge to stroke it, to
quiet the Beast’s hand by placing her own over it. “It is a little early,” he said after a moment, “but I could
take you on the roof tonight.” “Oh, yes!” said Beauty. “Please. When I woke up this
morning, I was angry, because I usually do wake at least once in the night.” “Do you?” said the Beast, as he stood behind her chair while
she folded her napkin and rose to her feel. “Does something disturb you?” She turned round and looked up at him. He was very near, and
the rose scent of him was so heavy she felt she might reach out and seize it,
wrap it round herself like a scarf. “I have always woken in the night.’’ she
said, * ‘since I was a little child, since—since 1 first had the dream I told
you of, my—my first evening here.” The Beast was silent for a moment. “I have forgotten,” he
said at last, and the words / have forgotten echoed down a dark corridor
of years. “I too used to wake most nights, when—before—when I slept more than I
do now. I had forgotten.” He turned away, as if still lost in thought, but she skipped
round after him and slipped her hand beneath his elbow. His free hand drew her
hand through and smoothed it down over his forearm, and his arm pressed hers
against his side. She was aware that he was walking slowly to allow for both
her height and her elegant burden of skirts—thank fate my shoes are more
reasonable tonight, she thought—but still they made their way swiftly through
what seemed to her a maze of corridors and then up a grand swirl of stairs.
Magnificent furnishings demanded her attention on every side, but she turned
her gaze resolutely away from them, preferring to stare at the fine black
needlework on the Beast’s sleeve, glimpsed and revealed as they walked through
clouds of candlelight and into pools of darkness. She was tired of looking up at portraits that stared down
scornfully at her. She was tired of ormolu cabinets and chi-noiserie cupboards
that when she first looked bore sprays of leaves and flowers which when she
looked again were deer or birds; tired of divans that had eight legs and were
covered with brocade but between blink and blink had six legs and were covered
with watered silk. She moved her ringers to lie lightly on a ridge of braid on
the Beast’s sleeve; it was the same ridge in or out of candlelight. The rich
scent of the crimson rose embraced her. But as they paced up the stairs, she looked up, for the
ceiling was now very far away, and she wondered if she was seeing to the roof
of the palace. It seemed much higher than the cupola on her glasshouse, and
this puzzled her, and before she could remember not to let anything she seemed
to see in this palace puzzle her, her eyes were caught by the painted pattern
on the ceiling, which seemed to be of pink and gold—and auburn brown and ebony
black, aquamarine blue and willow leaf green—and perhaps had people worked into
it, or perhaps only rounded shapes that might be limbs and draperies, but
certainly it seemed to reflect the swirling of the staircase—except that it did
not, and the spiral over— head began to turn quickly, too quickly, and she lost her
sense of where her feet were, and she stumbled because she could not raise her
feet fast enough, and she tripped over the risers. The Beast stooped and picked her up as easily as she might
have picked up Fourpaws and continued up the stairs. “Pardon me, please,” he
said. “Close your eyes, and hold on to me because I am only . . . what I am.
And forgive me. for I should have warned you. I went up this stair on all fours
more than once before I learnt not to look up. This house—this place—has a
strange relationship with the earth it stands upon. If you want to look round
you, stop. When you walk, look only where you are walking. And in particular,
do not took at the ceiling when you climb a turning stair, and do not look out
any windows when you are walking past them. I—I should have said these things
to you before; I have never had occasion to explain to—” He stopped. “I do not
think the contents of any of the rooms will make you dizzy if you stand still
to look at them. They mostly only, er ...” “Change their clothing,” said Beauty, and the Beast gave a
low rumble of laugh. “Yes,” he said. “And please forgive me also for treating you
so—’ “Lightly,” suggested Beauty, and was gratified by another
quick growly laugh. “—disrespectfully,” continued the Beast. “But I have also
learnt that it is better not to—not lo acknowledge when something here has had
the better of you, if you need not.” And at that he reached the top of the stairs, and took two
steps into the darkness there, and set her gently down on her feet. Involuntarily
she leant against him, listening to the slow thump of his heart, hearing her
own heart pattering frantically in her ears in counterpoint as she stirred and
put herself away from him, feeling with her hands for the wall. “It is so
dark!” she said, “Yes,” said the Beast’s voice, and it seemed to come from
all round her, as if he still held her in his arms, or as if he had swallowed
her up, like an ogre in a nursery tale. “This hall is always dark; I do not know why. I do not know
why this great staircase leads you to something you are not permitted to see; I
can tell you that candles will not stay kindled here, though the air is sweet
to breathe. But this is the shortest way to the roof. I told you that any stair
up will lead you to the roof eventually; it will, but sometimes it is a tedious
process. And it is the sky we want.” He leant past her and threw open a door. Starlight flowed in
round them, lighting up her pale hands, which she still held out in front of
her against the dark of the hallway, playing in the carved surfaces of the
cameo rings on her fingers and tweaking glints and gleams from the lace overlay
of her skirt. The Beast was a darkness the starlight could not leaven. She turned, went up a narrow half Might of stairs, and
ducked through a low opening. She was on the roof, surrounded by sky, “Directly
before you,” said the Beast, and she could hear him stooping behind her, so
that when he pointed over her shoulder, his arm was low enough for her eyes to
follow, “is the Horse and Chariot. There”—his arm moved a little—“is the Ewer,
and there”—only his finger moved—“the Throne.” “And there,” she said dreamily, “is the Peacock, and the
Tinker—how clear his pack is, 1 have never seen it so clear—and the Sailing
Ship.” “Then you are a student of the skies as well,” said the
Beast. She laughed, turning to him. “Oh, no—I have told you nearly as
many as I know. Our governesses taught us a little—a very little—a very little
of anything, I fear, but the night sky was not their fault, for we lived in the
centre of a city, where the gas-tamps were lit all night, and in weather fine
enough to stand outdoors with your governess, there was probably also a party
going on in some house nearby, with its grounds lit as bright as day. Please
tell me more. I have never seen so many stars, so much sky. At home”—she
faltered—“at... outside Longchance, where I lived with my sisters, although
there are no gas-lamps, there are trees. I know no stars that stay low to the
horizon, and the turning of the seasons always confuses me.” And so he told her more, and sometimes, with the name of
some star shape, he told her the story that went with it. She knew the story of
the Peacock, who was so proud of his tail that he was willing to be hung in the
sky instead of marrying his true love, and how his true love, both sad and
angry, asked that peahens, at least, might be spared having tails so grand that
conceit might make them forget necessary things, like looking for supper and
raising children. But she did not know the story that the Tinker was not a
tinker at all, but a brave soldier who, having stolen the Brand of War, carried
it in his pack till he could come up to die Ewer, which contained the Water of
Life, where he could quench it forever. But the Ewer always went before him,
and he chased her round and round the earth, because she knew that humanity
could not be freed of its burden so easily and, for love of the Tinker, could
not bear him to know his courage was in vain. Beauty had never seen the Three
Deer, who dipped back and forth above and below the horizon, ever seeking to
escape the Tiger, who ran after them; nor the Queen of the Heavenly Mountain,
whose reaim touched both the earth and the sky, and if you were the right sort
of hero and knew exactly the right path, you might visit her, and she would
show you the earth constellations spread out at your feet and tell you the stories
they held. Beauty at last sighed and bowed her head. “You are tired,”
said the Beast. “I am sorry; I have kept you too long. You must go to bed.” “I am not tired—or, that is, only my neck is tired,” said
Beauty, reaching beneath the gold and coral chain, and the silken rope of the
embroidered heart, to rub it. But then she blinked, looking down at her feet,
and backed up a step, and backed up another. “But. sir—Beast—what is this we
walk on? Why are we walking on anything so lovely?” And she went on backing up
and backing up, but the roof was covered with the delicate, glowing paintwork. She knelt down and touched the arched neck of the fiery chestnut
Horse drawing the red-and-blue-and-gold Chariot, and the face of the Queen of
the Heavenly Mountain was so kind and the eyes so welcoming that Beauty almost
spoke to her, and, between opening her mouth and, remembering, closing it
again, had reached out to brush a lock of hair from where it had fallen across
her cheek, as she might have done to one of her sisters. For several minutes
after that she was too stunned, too enthralled to speak; at last she said
wonderingiy, “There is nothing as splendid as these anywhere inside your
palace. “Bui—no—splendid is not the right word. They are splendid,
but they are—they are so friendly. Oh dear!” she said, and looked up at him,
half laughing, half embarrassed. “How childish that sounds! But so many of the
beautiful things in the rooms beneath us—push you away—tell you to stand
back—order you to admire and be abashed. These—these draw you in. These make
you want to stay and—and have them for company. Yes. that’s right. But I—I am
still making them sound like a—like—sort of comfortable, though, am I not? Like
a bowl of warm bread and milk and an extra pillow, and that’s not it at all.
They are not comfortable. Indeed, I feel that if I lived with them for long, 1
should have to learn to be ... better, or greater, myself. If this Queen of the
Heavenly Mountain looked down at me from my bedroom wall every day, soon I
should have to go looking for that path to her domain. I wouldn’t be able to
help myself.” The Beast still stood silent. “Oh—am I still describing it all wrong? I told you our governesses
never taught us much. And Jeweltongue is the artistic one of us. Lionheart is
the bold one, and I—I—I am the practical one. I don’t mind being the practical
one, but these—oh, these pictures do not make me feel the least bit practical!”
She took a deep breath and clasped her hands over her heart, as if she felt some
stirring in her blood she had not felt before. “Tell me—please tell me—do you know how they came here—these
pictures? It is so odd that they should be here. where they will be rained on and scoured by wind. Do you
know how they came here?” There was a long silence. “Hmm,” rumbled the Beast at last.
“I drew them.” “You?” she said, amazed. “But—but you told me you are
clumsy!” “My hands are clumsy,’1 said the Beast, “but they
are steady. I have had .,. enough time, to learn how to do what I wish to do. I
tried ... different things. Sometimes I use a very long brush, which I hold
between my teeth.” “But—you have said you spend the nights here! Do you work in
the dark?” “I see very well in the dark, so long as the sky is clear,”
said the Beast. “The shadows indoors are much darker.” She crept, feeling foolish but too entranced to care, across
the roof, stooping even lower to peer at a particularly fine bit of work: a
deer’s flank, a peacock’s feather, the vine leaves winding up a pole. There
were more stars and stories here than she could learn in years of nights. She
came at last to the low balustrade which ran along the edge of the roof. There
was something painted here too, but it was almost entirely in shadow, and she
could not see it. She looked down the vast length of the roof—for they had
walked round only one tiny bit of this wing of the palace—and along its
balustrade, and it seemed to her that all the shadows were populated by the
Beast’s fine, living, vivid painting, but nowhere could she see any bit of
balustrade that did not stand so thoroughly in its own shadow that she thought
her weak human eyes could make out what was upon it. “Candles,” she said aloud—a little too loud—and went firmly
to the low door, which projected into the roof no higher than the balustrade,
and looked inside on the top stair. She saw nothing, but she persisted, seeing
candles in her mind’s eye, insisting on candles, and eventually she found a
nook, and in it a candle in a small holder and a tinder-box. She lit the one
with the other, and stood up, and went back to the balustrade where she had
first noticed the patterns she suspected were painting, and stooped again, and— somehow she had known this was what she would find—the Beast
had painted roses all along the balustrade, as far as she walked, stooping for
the candle flame to light them but careful with the candle, that no wax would
drip on the paintings she could not help but walk on. She walked back to the Beast, who had moved away from her as
soon as she began examining his paintings. She touched his arm timidly. “They are
all so beautiful,” she said. He looked down at her. “Not half so beautiful as you are,”
he said. “Nor do they speak to me, nor touch me. Even Fourpaws will not touch
me. Beauty, will you marry me?” She shivered as if she had been struck by winter wind, but
she left her hand on his arm. ‘‘Good night, Beast,” she said, and turned away,
to go through the little door, and find her way to her bedroom, and sleep. “Good night, Beauty,” said the Beast behind her, “Do not forget:
Keep your eyes downcast while you are on the stairs.” “I will not forget,” whispered Beauty. Chapter 10Ohc was not sure when the dream began. She remembered
walking down the long vortex of stairs, keeping her eyes on the next tread, and
the next, as her feet stepped down, and down, and she remembered how the
darkness seemed to rise towards her as she neared the bottom, till when she
stood on the floor again, she could see no more than she had at the top, before
the Beast had opened the door that let in the starlight, though it had not been
dark at the bottom of the stairs when the Beast had been with her. She stood
for a moment, her heart again beating in her ears, and this time the Beast did
not stand near her; but then a door opened in front of her, and the twinkle of
candlelight beckoned to her from the darkness, although the little light seemed
to struggle, as if with some fog or miasma. She did not remember how long she walked through corridors,
familiar and unfamiliar—a little familiar, a little less familiar—till she came
again to the chamber of the star, eerily lit by its sky dome, and she walked
through her rooms, and rather than at once undressing and climbing into her
bed, she went to stand upon the balcony. The spider-web glistened in its corner
like hoarfrost. As she stood, leaning against the railing, her mind and heart
still spinning with the images of the Beast’s painting, she looked idly out
into the starlit courtyard. Arid she saw a bent old woman carrying a basket
walk slowly round the corner of the glasshouse, as if she came from the
carriageway where the wild wood lay, and she walked slowly down the wing of the
palace where the closed gates were hidden. Beauty could not see the gates from
where she stood, but the old woman set the basket she carried down, in front of
where they might be. And then she turned and walked slowly away again. And now Beauty knew she dreamt, for she saw the old woman
turn the far corner of the glasshouse and walk through the carriage-way into
the wild wood, and Beauty watched her till her shadow emerged from the darkness
of the tunnel to lie briefly against the starlit ground of the bonfire
clearing. Beauty could only just make out what she was now seeing, and she
thought she saw silver shapes, like four-legged beasts, come out of the woods
round the glade and touch the woman with their long slender noses. But this was
very far away, and the trees threw confusing shadows, and it was over very
quickly, as the woman disappeared beyond the narrow opening of the archway. But when Beauty turned to run downstairs and into the courtyard,
to see what was in the old woman’s basket, she found herself turning over in
bed, with the sunlight streaming onto the glowing carpet, and Fourpaws purring
on the pillow, and breakfast on the table, and the deep wild scent of the
crimson rose tangled in her hair. Her first impulse was to rush downstairs in her nightgown
and look for the basket even now, knowing it was too late, even knowing that
what she remembered must be a dream. At least, she thought, as she threw back
the bedclothes, she could look for any sign that those barred and inimical
gates had opened recently. She paused at the top of the bed stairs. There was something
very odd about the caipet this morning. She thought back to the morning before
last. More hedgehogs? Many more hedgehogs? Positively a lake of hedgehogs? No.
This—these were not hedgehogs. There was a low forlorn croak from one corner of the room
and a following gruff murmur that ran all round the floor. “Oh, my lords and
ladies,” said Beauty. Frogs? The shore of the lake round the bed stairs rippied
and shifted a little. No—toads. Hundreds of toads. Fourpaws, still purring, went daintily down the stairs, and
leapt to the floor. Toads scattered before her, pressing themselves under
furniture and into walls. She sat down, looked up at Beauty still paralysed at
the edge of the bed, waited for the duration of three tail-lashings, and then
stood up again and began to walk towards the opposite wall. Toads hurtled out of her way, tumbling over one another, making
small distressed grunting sounds and a great deal of scrabbling with their
small slapping feet. “Oh, stop!” said Beauty. “Please. I’m not really afraid of
them—really I’m not—not poor toads—it’s just—it’s just there are so many of them.” Fourpaws sat down again and began washing a front foot. The
toads quieted, and there was the gentle flickering light of many blinking
yellow and coppery eyes from ankle level all round the room and in clumps round
the legs of furniture. Beauty came down the stairs and stepped very softly in the
toad-free space in the centre of the carpet. Nothing moved, except Fourpaws
beginning on the other front foot. “Well,” said Beauty, only a little shakily,
“there are too many of you to carry in my skirt, and frankly, my pets, I don’t
wish to handle you, for my sake as well as yours; but how am I to convince you
thai I will lead you to a wonderful garden full of—of—well, you’ll have to ask
the hedgehogs what it’s full of, but I’m sure you will like it. That is, you
will like it if I can get you there.” She stood still a moment longer and then sidled towards the
chair next to the hearth, where her dressing-gown lay. There was a flurry of
toads from that end of the room. She picked up her dressing-gown very softly
and eased herself into it. “On the whole, I think I would rather try to shift
you first. I don’t fancy breakfast by the light of toad blinks.” She paused and
added under her breath, “Thank the kind fates that only one spider was enough.” She walked towards the doorway, paused, and looked back.
“This way,” she said, not knowing what else to do. Several toads hopped out
from under her bed and stopped again. Several from the far corner between the
bed and the hearth joined them. Toad eddies drifted out from under the wardrobe
and the gilt console tables and pooled near the centre of the room, in front of
the breakfast table. Fourpaws stopped washing lo watch. Beauty turned and walked to the door that led into the
chamber of the star; as the door swung open, she turned round. There was an
army of toads following her, ochre-coloured companies, low brown regiments,
yellowy-green battalions, and last of all came Fourpaws, tail high, the tip
just switching back and forth, eyes huge and fascinated. She led them all into the chamber of the star; but the noise
their flapping feet made, and the little topping echoes that ran up into the
dome, obviously upset them, and she went on as quickly as she could through the
door that opened onto another corridor. The corridor made itself short for
them, and it was not long before she saw the courtyard door opening onto
sunlight. She paused again on this threshold and addressed her army: “Now you
must be brave, because you won’t like this bit. It is still quite early, and
the sunlight will not be too strong for you, but I am sure you will find it unpleasant,
and the pebbles will scratch your bellies. But it will be over quickly—I
hope—and then there will be lovely grass for you, and dirt, and an orchard, and
a garden.” The toads blinked at her. She turned and walked out into the
morning light; and the rustling noise behind her told her that the loads were
following, flapping and pattering through the stones. She was so preoccupied
with how far they might have to walk that it took her a little while to notice
that the rustling noises had increased and somewhat changed their note; and
that there was now a humming in the air as well. She had gone instinctively to her glasshouse and put her
hand on it, and as she had done once before, she ran her ringers along it as
she walked next to it. And the rustlings increased, and the humming grew
louder, and as she came to the corner of the glasshouse, she heaved a great
sigh of relief, and turned, and saw the tunnel into the orchard only a short
distance farther, At that moment it registered with her that she had been
hearing a humming noise for some time, and she looked up. and there was a cloud
of bumblebees, hovering in the air, as if they were waiting for her and the
toads. ‘*Oh!” she said. Their black and yellow backs gleamed bright
as armour in the sunlight. “Oh, how I wish I could let you all into the
glasshouse! Perhaps the trouble began because the roses are lonely! But you,
you bees, you must have been here all along, or how does the fruit grow in the
Beast’s orchard? How does the com swell in the fields? But why has he not seen
you? Why have I never seen nor heard you til! now?” As she said this, the bumblebee swarm rushed upwards,
trailing a long tail of single bees behind it, and whizzed along the slope of
the glasshouse as if seeking a way in. There were one or two left behind,
buzzing disconcertedly and making little zigzag lines in the air as if
wondering where the others had gone. One of them very near her bumbled against
a pane of the glasshouse, near a strut. And disappeared. As it disappeared. Beauty’s hand, which was resting gen-tiy
against the next strut supporting the next pane of glass, felt a sudden faint
draught of air, and her third and little fingers, which had been touching the
pane of glass inside the frame, were resting on nothing at all. She snatched
her hand away as she saw the bumblebee disappear, looked at what should have
been a pane of glass, and was just reaching out to touch it timidly, because
the glasshouse panes were always so shining clear that but for their reflective
sparkle it was hard to say if they were there or not, when she heard the bee
cloud returning. There were too many things to attend to at once. She looked
up at the windstorm sound of the bees, her hand hesitating just before touching
the pane of glass that should be there; the bumblebees stopped politely before
they flew into her face; and she saw the bumblebee which had dis— appeared reappear from behind the strut,., where it had
flown in, and out, of a glasshouse pane. Beauty touched the glass. It was there, and solid. She
touched the pane that the bumblebee had flown through. It was there, and solid. There was a faint scuttling noise behind her, and her dazed
mind flew to the easier recourse of remembering her toads, growing too hot in
the sunlight, and worrying about their comfort. She began walking away from the
glasshouse, taking the shortest route to the tunnel to the orchard. But her
astonishment-heightened senses now reminded her that the susurration of the
toad army had changed, and she turned to look, expecting. .. something. And so
she was no more astonished than she already was when she saw the grass-snakes,
and the slow-worms, and the red mist of ladybirds, so thick it threw a dappled
shadow on the backs of the toads, and which made no sound at all. And as she
looked, she saw the crickets creeping out, as it seemed, from among the white
pebbles of the courtyard, as if they had been sleeping in hollows beneath. They
paused, as if surprised by the sunlight, and then they sprang into the air, as
if to hurry to catch up with the toads, and the snakes, and the slow-worms, and
the ladybirds, and the bees; and then there was not merely the faint clicking
of their legs against the small stones, but the soft tink-tink-tink as
the ones with imperfect aim bounced off the wall of the glasshouse as they
leapt. “Perhaps the—the badgers, and foxes, and deer, and rabbits
and hares, and mice and voles and weasels and stoats and squirrels, perhaps
they are waiting for us. And the birds. I do so hope the birds come back!” Beauty led her ever-increasing menagerie into the orchard
and on towards the walled garden, and the grass stems rattled almost as loudly
as spears as it followed her. She did not quite dare to stop again, but she
walked sideways for a few steps to look behind her, and she could no longer see
her creatures, but the grasses tossed and rippled like a sea cut by a fleet of
ships. She turned to face front again just as there was a small streaking
explosion like the path of a cannonball to one side of her. and something
landed with a heavy thump on her shoulder. “Oh!” said Beauty, recognizing the bushed-out tail in her
eye as belonging to Fourpaws. “I wondered what had become of you.” Even a cat
has some difficulty riding on the shoulder of someone wading through tall
grass, and Beauty put up a hand to steady her and did not protest the faint
prick of several sets of claws through the thick collar of her dressing-gown.
“A tew too many of them even for you, eh?” said Beauty, and added hastily,
mindful of Fourpaws’ dignity, “I am myseif very grateful for your
company—someone else with warm blood and breath—even if your tail is still in
my eye.” When she came to the walled garden, .she threw open the gate
and stood aside, and she looked back as well and saw little threads of bobbing
grass stems leading off in all directions from the main body of her army,
assuring her that everyone was seeking the sort of landscape it liked best.
“There’s water at the bottom of the slope,” she called softly. “But you
probably knew that already.” When there was a lull in the flow of creatures over the
threshold, she went in and opened the gate on the far side of the garden, into
the fields of corn. She paused again to stroke the barley and wheat-awns, and
as she paused, she looked round, and her eye was caught by a yellow and white
butterfly. It whirled up in a warm draught, and she saw more coloured flickers;
there were half a dozen deepest ruddy gold and peacock blue and green
butterflies sunning their wings on a narrow mossy ledge in the garden wall. At that moment she felt a gentle shove against her foot. She
looked down, and there was a hedgehog, looking up at her; it was much larger
than any of the four she had brought to the garden in her skirt. “The slugs and
snails, and borers and beetles, they’re back too, are they? You would not be so
shiny and plump else.” She went back thoughtfully through the garden, and now, when
she looked, she could see holes and spots on some of the stems and leaves, and
once she saw a snail hastening across the path in front of her, its shining
neck stretched its fullest length, its tail streaming behind it; she could only
see that it was moving at all by the tangential observation that it was now
nearer the side of the path it was aiming at than it had been when she first
saw it. She also heard the crickets singing, and swirls of butterflies were
gleaming over the heads of the ruby chard, and she had to wave her free hand at
a little puff of gnats she walked through. Surely, if all this were happening, she would find a way to
save her Beast’s roses? It is the heart of this place, and it is dying. Fourpaws leapt down when they reentered the orchard, but she
stayed close at Beauty’s heels all the way back to the palace and upstairs to
the breakfast table laid in front of Beauty’s balcony. Beauty set a bowl of
bread and milk on the floor for Fourpaws and poured herself her first cup of
tea. “When the bluebottles are buzzing repellently in all the corners where one
can’t get at them, and the mice are chewing holes in the wainscoting and
leaving nasty little pellets in the pantry, and the wood borers are eating the
furniture and leaving ominous little heaps of dust about, will the tea stew,
too, like ordinary tea, instead of tasting fresh-brewed when it has sat half
the morning, as this does?” she said; but her eyes were on the pyrotechnics of
her glasshouse in the sunlight. Fourpaws finished her bread and milk and mewed for more.
“You’re going to have to start catching mice, you know,” said Beauty, setting
down a fresh bowl. “Instead of shadows, I would have thought you might prefer
mice.” But when Fourpaws finished the second bowl and mewed for a third. Beauty
looked at her in surprise. “Someone your size can’t possibly need a third bowl
of bread and milk,” she said. Fourpaws looked at her enigmatically and, holding
her gaze, reached out with one imperious forepaw and patted the empty bowl.
Beauty laughed. “Very well. But this is your last. Absolutely.” Beauty was dressing by the time Fourpaws finished her third
breakfast, but between the time Beauty dropped her shirt over her head and the
time she could see again and was smoothing her hair back, the cat had
disappeared. When she had finished brushing and tying up her hair, and lacing
her boots, and patting her pockets to check that everything she needed was
still there, and had paused to drink a last cup of tea, she realized that
through the minor bustle of getting ready for the day (what remained of the
day, she thought), she had been hearing furtive noises coming from under her
bed. She knelt and lifted the edge of the long curtain. “You aren’t tormenting
any lost toads, are you?” Fourpaws sat up and looked at her indignantly. There was
just room for a small cat to sit up lo her full height under Beauty’s bed. Then
she threw herself down and rolled over on her back, curving her forepaws
invitingly; but Beauty looked at her face and her lashing tail and rather
thought she had the mien of a cat who was planning on seizing an arm and
disembowelling it with her hind feet while she bit its head off. “I think not,”
said Beauty. Fourpaws dropped over onto her side and half lidded her
eyes, but the tail was still lashing. “I have no idea what you’re up to,” said
Beauty, “but 1 will leave you to it.” She dropped the curtain hem and rose to
her feet. She knew it was a vain gesture. But once she was out of
doors, she could not resist walking down the second side of the palace wall,
and looking for the closed gates, and, having found them, looking for any trace
of—of anything, any disturbance, any mark of any sort of visitor, but no trace
did she find. The pebbles were as flawlessly raked as ever, the grey-white wall
as spotless, the doors as perfectly barred. She walked the rest of that wall, and through the
carriageway in the cross wall, and stood at the mouth of the tunnel and peered
out. The trees looked as if they went on a very long way, but perhaps they did
not. Perhaps there was a clearing just behind the first rank, where milk-white
cows grazed, where an old woman made butter and cheese to bring to the poor
imprisoned Beast and his guest... . She sighed deeply, squared her shoulders, and walked into
the glen. When she arrived at its edge, she took a bit of gardening string from
her pocket and tied it round the trunk of a slender tree that stood opposite
the carriage-way, and then she began working her way through the trees beyond,
letting the string trail through her fingers behind her. If the old woman came
here often, there should be a path, but perhaps the path was magic too, and
only appeared on clear nights when the old woman wanted it. She could find no glade where cows, milk-white or otherwise,
grazed, nor any small secret huts where old women might churn their butter and
draw off their whey and leave their cheeses to ripen. She followed her string
back to the clearing, tied it to another tree, and set out in a slightly
different direction, twice that morning and three times in the afternoon. She
found nothing and gained only filthy bramble-scratched hands and smudges on her
skirt where she had tripped and fallen, and crumbly leaves and sap-sticky twigs
in her hair and down her collar. As the sun sank towards twilight, she gave it up, rolled her
string into its ball for the last time, and went slowly through the
carriage-way and into the courtyard. Slowly she entered her glasshouse for the
first time that day, to water her cuttings and her seedbed, but she entered
sadly and neither sang nor looked round her as she went about her tasks. When she said good night to the one blooming rose-bush, she
felt like asking it to forgive her. She did not, not because it was a foolish
thing to say to a rose-bush but because she felt she could not bear it if the
bush seized magic enough to give itself a voice for three words and forgave her
as she asked. Her bath towels this evening were as golden as the sunset on
the glasshouse panes, and her dress was as golden as the towels, and her
necklace was of great warm rough amber, strung with garnets so dark they looked
nearly black till they caught the light and flared deepest crimson, like the
heart of a rose. Her mood lifted a little when she saw the Beast waiting for
her, and she made an effort at the conversation over dinner, telling stories of
her childhood in the city, of her governesses, of her sisters, of her garden.
But when she touched the embroidered heart, as she inevitably did when she
spoke her sisters’ names, she did so abstractedly, for her mind was on the old
woman and on her roses, the Beast’s roses, which must be fed or die. But she did notice that when she fell silent, the Beast
offered no tales of his childhood in response to her own. “Fourpaws does not join us this evening,” she said at last,
as she sliced a pear; candlelight winked off the blade of her knife and warmed
its ivory handle almost to the gold of her sleeve. “She cannot come every night,” said the Beast, “or we would
cease to hope for her appearance; 1 learnt that long ago.” Beauty laid her knife down and took hold of her courage and
said, “Why sat you alone in this dark hall, for all those nights, when you will
not eat with knife and plate?” There was a silence, and Beauty looked at her neatly sliced
pear but did not move to pick up any bit of it. She folded her hands tightly in
her lap and willed herself not to take her words back. She did not fear his
anger, and she did fear to do him hurt; but it seemed to her that he held too
much to himself as a burden and that if he had chosen—had demanded—had
ensorcelled her to be his companion, she would do the best for him that she
could. And so, while she waited for his answer, she thought again of the glasshouse,
and the roses there, and the old woman, and the silver beasts hi the wild wood,
and did not offer to withdraw her question. At last he spoke, and each word was like a boulder brought
up from the bottom of a mine. “When the change first... came upon me, I... I
lost what humanity remained to me... for a time. I still cannot. . . remember
that lime clearly. When I had learnt to ... walk like a man again, and had ...
found ... clothes that would cover me as I now was, and discovered that I could
still speak ... so that a man or woman might understand me, 1... still wished
some daily ritual of humanity to remind me of... what I had been and what I no
longer was. And I chose ... to sit in this dining-haJl, though I cannot...
wield knife and fork like a man. There might have been other rituals that would
have done. This is the one which first... suited me, and... I have
looked no further.” When the change first came upon me... If his words
were boulders, they weighed her down too. Beauty leant towards him, so that she
could lay her hand on the back of his nearer hand. Her hand and fingers
together could not reach the full width of his palm, and when, after a moment,
his other hand was laid over hers, it covered her wrist as well. He released her and sat back. She ate her pear, and then
picked up a nutcracker in the shape of a dragon, and began cracking nuts. “I
guess you have not yet solved your dilemma,” said the Beast. “Oh dear,” she said, fishing out a walnut half with a nut
pick on whose end crouched a tiny silver griffin. “Is it so obvious? I have
tried—” “I have learnt your moods, a little,” said the Beast. “I see
you are preoccupied.” “I fear I am,” she admitted, “but—if you didn’t mind—a walk
on the roof would be the pleasantest of distractions.” “I would be honoured,” said the Beast, and this evening, as
they walked up the whirlpool stairs together, Beauty kept her eyes firmly down
and on the Beast’s black shoes and her soft gold slippers, coruscating with
tiny gems. And when she left him, much later, on the roof, and he said to her,
gravely, “Beauty, will you marry me?” she answered as she had the night before,
“Good night, Beast,” only this time she did not shiver. She kept her forearms crossed against her body as she
hurried back to her room and pinched herself every few steps, saying aloud, “I
am awake; I am still awake.” When she reached her rooms, she took off her
dinner dress but put her day clothes back on. She almost thought her nightgown
flapped its sleeves in protest; there was some pale flicker caught at the edge
of her sight, where it always iay over the back of a chair by the fire, so it
would be warm when she put it on. She turned sharply to look at it, but it only
lay limply over its chair, as a nightgown should. “Basket,” she said. “I need a basket, and I’m afraid I need it now, please. And a trowel. A wide one. I should have
asked before, but I hadn’t thought of it yet.” She turned round looking, but
there was no basket. “Nevermind what I need it for,” she said. “The Beast did
say you would provide anything in your power. I don’t believe you can’t find me
a basket.” But there was still no basket. “Well,” she said, and picked up a candle, kindled it at the
edge of the fire, and began walking through her rooms, peering into dark
corners. She found the basket at last, tucked behind a small ebony table,
inlaid with hammered silver, which sparkled like snow in the candlelight. The
glitter was such that she almost didn’t see the basket. The trowel lay in its
bottom. “That was not good-natured of you,” she said, “but 1 still
thank you for the basket.” She returned to her balcony, a little anxiously, for
she was not sure how much time had passed. She saw nothing and had to hope she
had missed nothing. She went quickly to the chamber of the star, but no door
opened for her. She counted the doors: twelve. No, ten. No—eleven. Eleven? Can
you make a star of eleven points? “Stop that,” she said. “Or I’ll make a rope
out of the sheets on my bed and climb over the balcony.” A door opened. “And no
nonsense about where this corridor goes,” she said. The door closed, and
another one opened. She walked through it, and it closed behind her, but the
corridor was dark. She was still carrying her candle from her basket search,
and so she held it up before her in a hand that trembled only a little;
fiercely she recalled her dream to her mind.. . . But there was the door into
the courtyard. It was a little open; she could see a crack of starlight round
it. She stepped softly outside, and there was the old woman, already
moving back towards the carriage-way, having left her basket at the palace doors.
Beauty had been much longer in the corridor than she guessed. She flew after
her, trying to make her feet strike the treacherous courtyard pebbles as
quietly as the Beast always walked. The old woman did not look round, but
perhaps it was only because she was old and deaf. She disappeared into the shadows of the carriage-way so completely
that Beauty, pausing at the tunnel’s edge for fear of being seen by the waiting
silver beasts, thought suddenly that perhaps she had imagined her, that she had
seen no old woman at all. Frightened and bewildered, she looked back over her
shoulder; the basket by the doors was gone. She let her breath out on a
sob—“Oh”—and moved forward again, and the old woman was on the far side of the
bonfire clearing, about to disappear finally among the trees, but one of the
milky-pale creatures that followed her turned its head at the sound of her sob
and looked straight into Beauty’s eyes. She might not have noticed if it had not turned its head.
Its haunches were too round for a deer, its legs too long and slender for a
horse, and the curling tail was like nothing she had ever seen, for it looked
more like a waterfall than anything so solid and rooted as individual hairs,
but it was still a tail. It turned its head to look at her, and so she saw,
shimmering in the starlight, the long peariy horn that rose from its forehead. She looked, blinked, and they were gone—old woman and unicorns.
Gone as if they had never been; gone as the old woman’s basket at the palace
doors was gone; gone without sound. The light of the stars still flooded the
bonfire clearing, poured silver and glinting over the remains of Beauty’s
bonfires, over the tiny-tempest piles of last year’s leaves, over the
scatterings of stones, over the patches of earth seen among the rest. Over
queerly gleaming golden heaps of... Beauty emerged from the carriage-way in a daze and stooped
at the first golden pile, took out her trowel, and... began to laugh. “Oh
dear!” she said. “This is not the way a maiden is supposed to meet a unicorn.
It should be a romantic and glamorous meeting ... but if I had not needed what
I need, I would not have been so interested in strange silvery creatures that
met mysterious old women at the edges of wild woods, certainly not interested
enough to dare to follow them here, in the middle of the night, in this ...
this place.” Her laughter stopped. “But then again ... what would either the
unicorn or I have done after it laid its head in my lap?” She looked at her hands, dim in the starlight, at their
short, broken nails and roughened skin. Her memory provided other details: the
blotches of ingrained dirt, the thorn scabs and scars, the yellowy-grey streaks
of bruising across the back of one hand where she’d pulled a ligament in her
forefinger. “I wonder—I wonder, then, is it only that it is unicorn milk and
butler and cheese? None of my dreams are my own—none of the animals—not even
the spider—they all—they only—they come to a maiden who has drunk the milk of a
unicorn? Is that all that matters?” she whispered, as if the Numen might hear
and answer her. “This is a story like any nursery tale of magic? Where any
maiden will do, any—any—monster, any hero, so long as they meet the right
mysterious old women and discover the right enchanted doors during the right
haunted midnights....” For a moment she felt as if some hidden spell had reached
out and gripped her and turned her to stone. She felt that while her body was
held motionless, she was falling away from herself, into some deep chasm. With
a tremendous effort she opened her eyes again and spoke aloud, although her
voice was not quite steady. “Well, I cannot know that, can I? I can only do
what I can do—what I can guess to try—because I am the one who is here, / am
the one who is here. Perhaps it will make a good nursery tale someday.” She let her trowel fall into her lap and cupped her poor
hands together, and the quick soft liquid rush of the salamander’s heat
comforted her. But there was a juddering or a tingling to the warmth that sank
through her skin and ran through the rest of her body—like the pinprick
thumping of numberless tiny impatient feet. She knew the rhythm of those steps;
they were the steps of someone going back to check she’d latched the
chicken-house gate, when she knew perfectly well that she had, or those of a
nursemaid going to fetch the third clean handkerchief in as many minutes,
trying to send her small charge to a party clean and combed and well dressed—“I
am sorry, my friend,” she said to the salamander in her mind. “I suppose I am
rather like a chicken or a small child—to a salamander.” There was a little
extra thrill of heat between her palms—the nursemaid saying, You had better
not lose this one—and then it was gone. She rose to her feet again, laying down her basket and dropping
her trowel, and moved towards the edge of the clearing. She put her hand on a
convenient tree and paused, because she did not wish to lose herself in the
wood, but she leant beyond her tree, peering into the tangled black wilderness
where the starlight could not reach. She felt almost as if there were gentle fingers rubbing her
neck softly, then just touching her temple, to turn her face to look in the
right direction. .. . The fingers were gone, if they had ever been, but there
was a meadow before her—though the trunk of the tree was still beneath her own
hand—and animals grazed there: ponies, horses, cows, and sheep. The meadow was
large, larger than she saw at first, for it was dotted with clumps of trees,
and she could see narrow bridges of grass through greater stands and thickets
that led into other meadows. She did not see the old woman for a little while, for she
was hidden behind the flank of the cow she was milking. She heard her singing
first, but since it was a song she often sang herself, she thought she was only
hearing its echo in her own mind: “And from her heart grew a red, red rose, and
from his heart a briar.” The old woman stood up, her head appearing above the
fawn-coloured back of the cow, and as she rounded its tail and the rest of her
came into Beauty’s view, Beauty saw the pail of milk in one hand and the stool
in the other. She walked carefully to the next cow, sat down on the stool, and
again began to milk and to sing; she had the voice of a young girl, sweet and
joyous. Now Beauty could see the entire process: the old woman’s
head half buried in the cow’s flank, the slight movement of each wrist in turn,
the faint quick twinkle of the streams of milk. It was only then that Beauty
began to see what she had assumed to be piles of earth or stones in the long
flowery grass were small leggy sleeping heaps of calves and lambs and foals.
Two lambs lay on top of their dozing mother not far from Beauty’s tree, looking
very like the cow-parsley they lay among. Beauty still stood in starlight, but she looked onto a
morning scene and felt the sleepy summer heat of it against her face and
against the hand on the cool trunk of the tree. She did not think her feet
could be made to move, out of the starlight and into some strange dawn, but
there was a great peace held in this meadow, like water in a lake. She wished
she had a goblet, or a ewer, and might dip it up, like lake water; she could
smell it where she stood, a fresh morning smell, mixed in with the warm smells
of grass and grazing animals. She stretched her other hand out and felt something—something—something
just brush against her fingertips that was neither sunlight, nor starlight, nor
grass, nor tree. She closed her eyes to concentrate, and the sensation became
just the tiniest bit like velvet, just the tiniest bit like someone’s breath,
just the tiniest bit like whiskers. She opened her eyes. It was a unicorn, of course. She was expecting that. Its
eyes were deepest gold-brown-green-blue and held her own. What she was not
expecting ... she could see the meadow through the rest of it. As it bowed its
head to settle its muzzle more snugly into her hand—carefully, for its luminous
horn stretched past her shoulder—she saw it as she might see leaf shadows
moving across the meadow, except that these shadows were dappled silver-white,
instead of dappled dark, and the shape of them was not scattered, like tossing
leaves on wind-struck branches, but formed quite clearly the long beautiful
head, the graceful neck, the wide-chested body, the silken mane and curling
tail, the exquisitely slender legs of the unicorn. If it were not for the eyes
and the faint whiskery velvet against her hand, she might have thought it was
not there at all. In the back of her mind—in the part of her brain and body
still in the bonfire clearing in the middle of the night—a voice said, What
makes you think you are seeing anything but the shadows cast by your own
fancies? The meadow, the old woman, all the grazing beasts and their little
ones, the serenity, tangible as a warm bath smelling of roses at the end of a
long weary day, all this you think you see is because you live alone in a huge
haunted palace with a huge haunted Beast, whose secrets you cannot guess. All
you see is only because you miss Rose Cottage, you miss your sisters, your
father. What makes you think any of it is there? And the silver-dappled shape before her shivered like smoke,
like cloud beginning to uncurl itself into some further metamorphosis of the
imagination; perhaps it would become a lion, a sphinx, a rose-bush.... But a tiny singing voice in another part of her mind
answered: I know it is all, all there, all as I see it. And the unicorn
raised its nose from her hand and breathed its warm breath into her face, a
breath smelling of roses, but light and gay and fresh, as exhilarating as
spring after winter, but with a faint sweet tang a little like the smell of
apples after rain. The currents of air touched her skin like rose-petals; it
breathed into her face and vanished. But her eyes had adjusted now, and she saw the old woman,
moving very carefully indeed with a full pail, walking towards the edge of one
of the bigger stands of trees, and in the dark shadows under their branches,
she saw the silver shadows. The old woman turned, just before she entered the
dark-and-silver shadows, and, framed by them, looked towards where Beauty
stood, as if she knew someone watched there. She was too far away for Beauty to
see her plainly, but Beauty thought she had the face of a friend, and she was
strangely reassured by that brief indistinct glimpse of the old woman’s face,
as if some memory of long-ago comfort had been stirred. Then the old woman
turned away again, and the silver shadows parted to let her through. Beauty knew that was all. She dropped her head, and her hand
from the trunk of the tree, and there were the wild woods close round her
again, and the only light was from the stars, and the air was chill. She took
the few steps back to her basket dully, but as she stooped again beside it, it
was already full, full of the darkest, sweetest, richest compost she could
imagine; and her unused trowel lay beside it, its clean blade winking in the
starlight. She scooped up a handful of her basket’s contents and crumbled it between
her fingers; it smelt of earth and kept promises. There was still a wink of
gold in it, like no ordinary farmyard fertilizer, telling her where it had come
from, but it was as if two seasons of weather and earthworms had already sieved
and stirred and transformed it into something she and her rosebushes loved much
better than gold. She could almost hear it sing: And from her heart a red,
red rose.. . . “I will never be able to shift die basket,” she murmured.
“It must weigh more than I do.” She put the unused trowel in her pocket. Then
she took a deep breath, and put her hand under the peak of the basket handle,
and stood up. The basket came up too, as lightly as if it were empty. She walked slowly through the bonfire glade, the
carriage-way, and went at once to her glasshouse, and ran her free hand along
its framed panes—slide-bump-slide-bump—as she walked between it and the
palace wall, be-cause her glasshouse would not change its length to dismay her.
But she went on putting each foot down very carefully and breathing very gently
and regularly, for she was still half afraid that the midnight magic that was
carrying the basket for her would take fright at her mortal presence so near it
and run off. When she came to the glasshouse door, she went in at once
and set the basket down with a happy sigh. The starlight seemed brighter in
here than it did in the courtyard, despite the white reflecting walls of the
palace and the pale stones underfoot, despite the black stems of the roses and
the wild labyrinthine structure of the glasshouse itself, whose shadows fell on
her like lace. She walked round her rose-beds, dropping a handful of her
beautiful compost at the foot of every rose-bush. She smoothed it with her
other hand, so that it formed a little ring at the base of each. After each
handful she returned to the basket for the next; her trowel remained in her
pocket, nor did she touch the hand fork lying on the water-butt. The last
handful went to the dark red rose blooming in the corner. The basket of compost
went just around, one handful for each, not a thimbleful was left; but that
last handful was just as full as the first. There was no room in her heart and
mind for words, even for a song; she was brimming over with joy. She went slowly, baffled by happiness, upstairs to her room,
where a bath awaited her; reproachfully, she thought, as her filthy skirt was
very nearly whisked out of her hands as she pulled it off. “Now, you slop that,”
she said, lightheaded and blithe. “What am I for if not to rescue the Beast’s
roses?” But there was a sudden frantic shimmer in the air as she
spoke, as if something almost became visible, and the breath caught in her
throat; she opened her eyes very wide and stared straight at it—tried to stare
at it—and then screwed her eyes up to stare again, but whatever the something
was, was gone. She shook her head to clear the dizziness, and then lay down
in the bath and closed her eyes. When, a little later, she put her hands on its
rim, to rearrange her position, she knocked into something with her elbow,
opened her eyes, and discovered a tray sitting over the bath, with a little
round loaf, a little round cheese, a pot of jam, and a pot of mint tisane upon
it. But it reminded her of one of Jeweltongue’s peace offerings, and she did
not know whether to laugh or cry. Crying won, and her joy was all gone away in
a rush, like bathwater down a drain, and even meeting unicorns was nothing in
comparison to the absence of her sisters. “It will ail come right soon,” she said to herself. “Soon.
The roses will grow again, and then I will be able to go home.” But this did
not comfort her either, and she wept harder than ever, till she frightened
herself with the violence of her weeping, and stood up out of the bath, and
wrapped herself in several towels, and went to kneel by the little fire. Its
heat on her face dried her tears at last, and she returned to the forlorn tray
laid across the bath, and lifted it with her own hands, and set it down by the
fire. She began to eat, realised how hungry she was, and ate it
all, wiping the last smear of jam from the bottom of its pot with her finger,
because the jam spoon wasn’t thorough enough. She was by then only just awake
enough to remember to divest herself of her towels and put on her nightgown
before she crept up the stairs to her bed. Chapter 11(She had no dreams she remembered. She woke, with daylight
on her face, to a faint cheeping noise. She lay, still half asleep, her eyes
still closed, with the bedclothes wrapped deliciously round her, and thought
about things that cheep. It wasn’t a bird sound. She knew that immediately. It
wasn’t exactly familiar, but it wasn’t totally strange either. It didn’t sound
at all dangerous or threatening or—or—It did sound rather near at hand however.
Near enough at hand that if it was something she did not want to he sharing her
bed with ... She opened her eyes. Fourpaws had made a nest in the elbow
between two pillows and had scrabbled up a hummock of coverlet to face it. She
lay with her back against the pillows, and with the sun behind her—and shining
in Beauty’s face—and with the hummock of the coverlet in the way as well, it
took Beauty a moment to comprehend the tiny stirrings that went with the
cheeping noise: kittens. Fourpaws responded to Beauty’s eyes opening, followed
by her rolling up on an elbow and breathing a long “Oh!” by beginning to purr. There were four of them. They were so small it was
impossible to guess very much of what they would become, but three had vague
stripes and looked as if they might take after their mother’s colouring, and
the fourth was as black as the Beast’s clothing. Beauty stroked each with a
finger down its tiny back, and Fourpaws’ purring redoubled. Their eyes were
still fast closed and their ears infinitesimal soft flaps, and their legs made
vague gestures as if they believed that the air was water, and they should
attempt to swim in it. Fourpaws leant over them and made a few brisk rearrangements,
and the cheeping stopped and was replaced by minuscule sucking noises. “Oh, Fourpaws, they are beautiful!” said Beauty, knowing
what was expected of her, but speaking the truth as well. “I am so glad that
this palace should have kittens in it! I only wish there were many more of
them!” Fourpaws stopped purring long enough to give Beauty a look
like the edge of a dagger, and Beauty laughed. “You will produce more kittens
if you wish, dear! And not if you don’t wish it. You needn’t look at me like
that! I always want more of anything I think good; it is a character Fault!” She almost missed Fourpaws beginning to purr again, because
as she said, “I always want more of anything I think good,” she remembered her
adventure of the night before. “Oh—I must see—no—no, not yet. I mustn’t go into
the glasshouse today at all—Oh, no, 1 can’t possibly wait all day! Till this
afternoon then. Late this afternoon, when the light begins to grow long, and
the glasshouse is at its most beautiful anyway, because the light is all gold
and diamonds,” She turned back to Fourpaws and her kittens. “Oh, but whatever
will I do till then? I can think of any number of things in this palace I
should like to see a kitten unravel—supposing 1 could find any of them
again—but your children are a little young for it. Well.” She climbed carefully out of bed—Fourpaws’ nest was directly
blocking the bed stairs—poured herself a cup of tea, and came back to the bed
to drink it in company. The second time she maneuvered round the kittens to the
bed stairs, once she was on the floor, she tried to push the stairs over a
little; it was like trying to shift the palace by leaning against one of its
walls. “Here,” she said. “If the magic that carried my basket last night is
anywhere in call, I could use a little help.” As she stood looking at the
stairs, there was a faint singing in her mind, and a half sense like a vision approaching,
like the odd sensation she’d had just before she saw the meadow with the old
woman milking her cows. She put her hand against the side of the stairs, and
they moved softly over and settled again. “Thank you,” said Beauty very
quietly. The singing sensation faded and disappeared. She spent as long as she could at breakfast—which wasn’t
very. Fourpaws and her kittens fell asleep, and Beauty couldn’t bear her
fidgety self near that peaceful scene. She dressed and ran out to the chamber
of the star, but then thought again and tried to take her time in the corridor
on the way to the courtyard. She curtsied to the painting of the bowl of fruit,
which today hung opposite the lady who used to hold a pug dog, and then a fan,
and now a bit of needlework in a tambour; Beauty examined her after her impertinent
curtsy, and the lady looked stiff and offended, but then she always did. Beauty opened the doors of a red-lacquered cabinet and
closed the doors of a secretaire inlaid with mother-of-pearl. She moved an
inkstand from another secretaire to a low marble table, and a tray from one
sideboard to another. She set matching chairs facing each other instead of side
by side; she turned vases and small statues on their pedestals and plinths; she
flicked the noses of caryatids holding up mantelpieces. She twiddled and
fiddled, poked and patted. She remembered the Beast’s warning to stop when she
wished to look round, and the stopping let her fool away a little more time.
She thought of having kittens with her. She thought she noticed, or perhaps it was only her own
mood, that the shadows did not seem to lie so thick in the palace rooms as they
generally did; even in daylight, darkness tended to hang in the corners like
swathes of heavy curtain. She did notice that there was no speck of dust
anywhere she looked, no smudges of handling or of use, save what she left
herself, and the floors, when she strayed off the carpets, were as impeccably
brilliant as if the polisher had only just slipped out of the room as Beauty came
into it. She stepped at last into the courtyard, feeling as if she
had bees buzzing in her brain. She scuffed her feet in the pebbles, and then
looked up; there were big clouds in the sky today, for the first time; it had
been clear every previous day she had been here. She saw shapes in the clouds
she did not wish to see: Rose Cottage, her sisters’ faces. Lion-heart’s hair
was long again, and the cloud that was Jeweltongue held out her arm, and Beauty
saw a great ruched, embroidered sleeve such as she had worn when they lived in
the city. She looked back at their faces. She did not want the sisters who had
lived in the city, she did not want the person she herself had been when they
lived in the city. But the clouds had shifted and her sisters had disappeared.
For a moment longer she saw the door of Rose Cottage, framed with roses, and
then it too was pulled apart and became a scud of cloud fragments. The weather vane glinted when the sun broke through. Finally Beauty wandered into the orchard to look for the
Beast. She did not want to tell him what she had done, and she was afraid her
mood would betray her into saying something, but she felt she could bear her
own company no longer. She thought again of the Beast’s solitude—his solitary
imprisonment—here; how had he borne all his own moods, with no one, ever, to
talk to? She found him under a different apple tree. “What is the
weather vane that spins at the top of the glasshouse, do you know?” It was the
first harmless remark she could think of. She wanted too to tell him of
Fourpaws’ kittens but felt it was Fourpaws’ privilege to make that great
announcement, and she did want to know about the weather vane. It had intrigued
her since she had first come to this place. Even at the peak of the glasshouse
it was not so very far away, nor was it so very small, that she should not be
able to make some kind of guess at what it represented. The shape seemed very
clear and fine and detailed, and then there were all the small curls and chips
delicately cut out of the inside of the silhouette; these should have given it
away at once. But they did not. The Beast turned and looked towards the archway, but from
where they were standing they could not see the courtyard. “Would you like to
examine it?” “Oh yes—but how?” “How is your head for heights?’’ “I do not mind heights,” said Beauty, remembering her
efforts to help Lionheart poke the sitting-room chimney clear from the roof. “Do you not?” said the Beast thoughtfully. “I dread heights.
When I am painting on the roof, I am careful not to let my eyes wander. But if
you do not mind them, I think we can find a ladder.” He looked preoccupied for a moment, and then his face
cleared, as if he had received the correct answer to a question, and he led the
way back towards the arch but stood aside that she might precede him through
it. When they made their way round the side of the glasshouse facing the
archway, they found a ladder already in place, braced against the silvery
architecture that held the panes, nowhere touching the glass, and it reached to
within an arm’s length of the distant weather vane. Beauty set her foot on the lowest rung. Her heart was
beating a little quickly, for she had never climbed anything half so tall; Rose
Cottage’s roof had been her limit. But she did want to see the weather vane.
She looked up; white clouds were stilt scudding merrily overhead, but there was
no breeze in the courtyard, surrounded by the palace walls. “I will hold the base,” said the Beast. “Thank you,” she replied, and mounted quickly, before she
could have second thoughts. She was above his head at once and climbing past the slender
silver girder that marked what would have been the first storey, had there been
any floor or ceiling: climbed on, and then on and on. It was farther—higher—than
she’d realised, looking up from ground level. She thought of the long, long
staircases inside the palace and the fact that her glasshouse stood taller yet.
And she took a deep breath, ignored the beginnings of rubberiness in her legs,
and of ache in her lower back, and climbed on. She began to feel the wind up here; it tugged at her hair
and teased her skirts, but it was a little, friendly wind, whistling to itself
a thin gay tune. Her heart was still beating quickly, but now from the speed of
her climb and with excitement. She paused a moment; her leg muscles were
growing stiff and clumsy, and she couldn’t risk being clumsy this far up. This
was the final stretch of her journey; the glasshouse was narrowing gracefully
towards its little cupola at the peak of its third storey, and she suddenly
didn’t want to hurry to its end. She deliberately looked away from the weather
vane, saving the moment she would see it till she was at the very top of the
ladder, of her adventure. She looked round her instead. She was above the flat roof of the palace here and could see
in all directions. First she looked at the roof itself, hoping to have some
provocative glimpse of the Beast’s work from this distance, not knowing if she
might see anything at all; perhaps the gorgeous roof was a nighttime
enchantment. Directly in front of her lay an expanse of pure white-grey,
with the same shimmery surface of the walls and the pebbles in the courtyard.
She was facing the front wing, with the formal gardens beyond; she could just
see the farthest edge of them. To her left was the wing that contained her
rooms; to her right the bonfire glade. She looked closely at the roof
immediately before her—having to look round the final peak of the glasshouse
and the weather vane itself, whose shape tickled her peripheral vision—till she
was satisfied she could see no glint of any color in its confusingly reflective
surface. Then, her heart sinking a little, she looked to her right,
and there was nothing there either. Very calmly now, like a polite child who
believes no one has remembered its birthday, she turned her head to look
left.... Down the centre of that wing of roof to about halfway ran a slender
stream of colour, curving precisely round invisible islands that were only
blank spaces to Beauty’s eye. It widened at its leftmost end, and Beauty
tracked it round that corner, turning carefully on her rung of the ladder, to
look at the final wing of the palace the one that had lain behind her, the one
that was backed by the orchard. The buffet to the sense of sight was so powerful that for a
moment Beauty felt she was tasting, touching, smelling, and hearing what she
looked at as well. Here was something like the coloured version of the wild
geometry of the glasshouse; she could see the exuberant complexity of shape and
design not merely covering the flat roof from edge to edge but splashing up the
low balustrade; in places it spilled over the top and made little pools of
vividness there. Wherever she looked, her eyes were drawn both farther on and
back the way they had come, as every figure, every contour she saw held its
individuality only in relation to every other one. And looking, she wondered,
if she looked at the glasshouse more intently, might she see the tales of stars
and heroes written in the silver struts and the clear glitter of the panes?
Perhaps she had only to learn how to see them. One hand of its own volition
loosed its hold on the ladder and slipped off to touch softly the nearest pane
of the glasshouse; it was the same caress she used when she touched her little
embroidered heart. The life and vibrancy of the coloured roof were the greater
in contrast to the palace it crowned—as if, having risked much to gain entry to
the dread presence of the sorcerer, one found his hydra in the kitchen wearing
an apron and baking teacakes. Why had she only seen the roof at night? She must
ask the Beast to allow her to come up during daylight. She looked back at the
single tendril of colour running down the second wing of the palace roof. Suddenly
it was easy to see it as a long stem of some wandering rose, easy then to see
it arching round a familiar doorway and small leaded windows Lionheart had once
thought too small, and now she seemed to make out the two corner bushes,
guarding the front face of the house.... She took a tight little breath, and held it, and turned
herself round on her ladder till she was facing the wing beyond which lay the
bonfire glade, but the glade itself was hidden by the height of the palace. She
climbed a few more rungs and turned again: she hooked her left arm through the
ladder and leant against it. She still could not see the glade, and the forest
seemed to begin immediately outside the wall. She shivered a little and looked
again towards the front gardens, but there was the wild wood pressing against
its boundary; it sprang up just behind the wing containing her rooms, as it did
behind the wing opposite. She craned her head to look again over the orchard wing, ignoring
the painted roof. There she could see the farther trees in the long grass of
the meadow, kindly spreading fruit and nut trees, not the dark menacing trees
of the forest; beyond them she could see the wall of the vegetable garden, and
a slip of the beds inside, visible beyond the wall, and beyond the far wall,
the fields of corn . .. and beyond that, the horizon beginning to blur with
distance, so she could not be sure, but it seemed to her that there too the
wood held the outer margin. There was no sign of human habitation anywhere, no thin
wisps of smoke as if from chimneys, no landscape muddled with little boxy
shapes that might be farm buildings or houses; nothing but fields and the
tangle of close-growing trees. She shivered again and turned a sigh into a
reviving gulp of wild air. The breeze was kicking up a little more strongly,
perhaps because she was now so high; she found she wished to cling to the
ladder with both hands against its pestering. She turned to face front again to make the clinging
easier—still looking carefully round the weather vane—and stared at that far
edge of the front gardens, the forest edge. This was also the wing that
contained the gates closed against any courtyard entry: the gales that were so
profoundly closed Beauty could barely find the cracks between door and frame with
her fingertips in daylight, when she was awake and alert and looking for them,
where at night, half asleep or half ensorcelled by the magic of this place, her
head full of the Beast’s painting and the stories it told, she had thought she
had seen an old woman leave a basket. .. had thought she had seen her walk down
the length of the courtyard to be welcomed at the edge of the wild wood by
shapes of silver shadow..,. Stop that! Beauty said to herself crossly. Do you expect an
enchanted palace to take its place in ordinary human geography, that I should
be able to track its location by finding Longchance a morning’s brisk walk away
just to the north and east, and Appleborough just visible, because I know where
to look, in the northwest? But the roses, said a little unhappy voice in her mind.
If—if you did not see the old woman—if you did not see the unicorns—what about
the roses? Beauty remembered the walk back from the glade last night,
carrying or not-carrying, the heavy basket; the crumbly, sweet-smelling stuff
in her hands, spreading it carefully round her hopeful bushes, her decision not
to go in the glasshouse this morning, to let the magic work. If anything since Father came back from his journey to the
city has happened, she replied to the voice, then that has happened. But her
hands, clutching the rung of the ladder, trembled, and she involuntarily looked
down, trying to peer through the slope of the glasshouse beneath her ladder,
looking for new leaves, for new green stems, even for snippets and hints of
flower colours. .. . But she turned her eyes away again almost at once. I will
not look, she said. I have done what I could. I have worked hard, I have done
my best, and it is now up to ... to ... to the magic. it can touch nothing living. But
the unicorn had breathed into her face, breathed the breath of a living
creature. Still her heart was heavy, and she tried to find the path
through the wood that had led her to the parterre, the grand front facade of
the Beast’s palace; but she could not. 1 should be able to find the double row
of beeches, even in the wild wood! she thought. No. no, it is not like that
here, just as I cannot see Longchance, though it must be near at hand. It is
only the way this place is. And the tears that crept down her face were only
the result of the wind. She turned finally to the weather vane. She was a few rungs
from it still, and these she climbed, and sat sideways on the topmost one, so
that she would look at it level, the two uprights of the ladder enclosing her
and giving her a little protection from the still-freshening wind. She and the
weather vane were the two tallest points for as far as she might see, but she
was no longer looking out; she was gazing at what she had come to see. It was the profile of a woman, with a great sweep of hair behind
her, as if belled out by the wind, and in her hands she held the stem of a
rose, whose head pointed away from her; this was the narrow finger Beauty had
glimpsed looking up from the ground. The rose was half open and cut so carefully
that the smith had let little tines of light peep through where the edges of
the petals would curve round the heart of the flower, as the woman’s hair had
been cut so that light gleamed through the windblown strands. The woman held
the stem against her breast, as if it were growing from her heart. Beauty reached out and touched it. There was a great ringing gust of wind from somewhere which
nearly knocked her off her precarious perch. In her delight at the weather
vane, she had let go with both her hands: the hand that had not reached out to
touch the vane was laid flat against the short roof of the cupola. As the wind
grasped at her and pulled and shook her, she seized the vane, first with one
hand and then the other, and then she was lying facedown over the square
pyramidal peak of the glasshouse, her arms wrapped round the base of the vane,
her cheek flat against the glass and her forehead against her upper arm, while
the wind shrieked and pried at her fingers, levered itself under her body like
human hands plucking at a cloth doll, and rattled the heavy ladder where it
stood. The sky darkened, and the wind swelled further, and its
shriek became a roar, and she felt the first drops of rain on her back, huge,
heavy drops, striking her like stones. She clung where she was, the vane
turning this way and that above her head; she felt the vibration through the
pole she held. She was weeping now, her sobs lost in the sudden storm; even if
the wind died away as abruptly as it had begun, she would not have been able to
move, and knowing this, she was even more frightened. And now she could feel
the ladder jolting under her hip. with a slow, regular jolt; she supposed the
wind would have it off altogether soon. She must have lost consciousness. The wind’s roar dulled,
though she still heard it, and it still shook her where she lay, but not so
strongly. But she no longer seemed to be lying down, but sitting, sitting in a
straight-backed chair; she was in a small, comfortable room, with a great many
other people.... As she looked round, she reordered her labouring thoughts and
realised that it was a small room only in comparison to the rooms of the
Beast’s palace and crowded only in comparison with their emptiness; there were
about twenty people in it, which would have been a small intimate group when
the sisters had given parties in the city. I am dreaming, she thought, as 1 have dreamt before. And
then she saw her father standing at the front of the room, one hand on the
mantelpiece, the other holding a little clutch of papers, and he was reading
aloud: “Yours while I live, and yours still, though I die T
sign, and seal this letter with a sigh....” The wind hurled itself down the chimney, and a little puff
of sparks and ash fell onto the hearth-rug; it flung itself at the windows till
they rattled in their frames, and the curtains moved uneasily in the draughts. But
the audience never stirred, listening to the reader with all their attention;
only Beauty jumped in her chair, feeling the rain beating her down, the wind
clawing at her.. .. She seemed to be at the end of the second row, on the
centre aisle. When she started. a cat, which had been lying on the hearth-rug
just out of range of any misbehaviour on the part of the fire, sat up and
stared at her. This was an orange marmalade cat, with great amber eyes almost
the colour of its coat. “While Reason hesitated, Love obeyed. No foe withstood
him, nor no friendship stayed....” Beauty had difficulty attending to every word; her hearing
was full of wind and rain; she seemed to drop in and out of the story, as the
young man faced the cruel father and the wealthy baron to save his true love,
and it was the lady herself who, ignored in the ensuing melee, slipped between
the men, pulled the dagger from its sheath at the baron’s thigh, and, as he
turned to shout at her, sweeping his sword round to menace her, ducked, and
thrust it between his ribs. The wind howled tike a pack coursing a tiring stag;
Beauty could hear nothing else. But the lovers had escaped. “Their hoofs, so quietly the horses strode, Scarce
stirred the pale dust of the moonlit road.’’ Everyone applauded. It was a friendly noise, and for a few
moments it drowned out the sound of the storm outside. Beauty saw Jeweltongue
stand up and go to embrace her father, and then everyone applauded again, and
there was Mr Whitehand, the baker, standing up beside the place where
Jeweltongue had been sitting, and then everyone was standing up and applauding,
except Beauty herself, who seemed to be bound where she sat, and the marmalade
cat, still perched on the hearth-rug staring at her. The applause tapered off but was replaced by excited conversation.
Beauty could follow little of it—there was an animated discussion going on to
one side of her about what sort of dagger the bad baron was likely to have been
carrying in an exposed thigh sheath—but she thought she recognised the woman
who was their hostess by her proprietorial manner; and by the dazed but
good-humoured look of those listening to her, and the size of her parlour, she
guessed this was Mrs Oldhouse, the woman Jeweltongue had described as Mrs
Words-Without-End. There was a lull, and Beauty heard a single voice clearly:
Mrs Words-Without-End was saying that there was a small supper laid out in the
next room. As she turned to indicate the way, her glance fell on her marmalade
cat. “Oh!” she said. “Our ghost must have joined us; how very interesting;
usually she is very shy. It must be the weather; it makes me feel quite odd
myself. How the wind bays! Did anyone sit on the end chair of the second row?” There was a general negative murmur. “Well Becky,” said Mrs Words-Without-End to the cat, “do try
to make her feel at home, since you are the only one who can see her this
evening, and I cannot believe your unwinking stare is the best way to go about
it.” There was a blast of wind that Beauty felt might almost drive the rain
through her skin; Mrs Words-Without-End gave a little “Oh!” and clutched
distractedly at her collar, fidgeting with a brooch and the lace spilling round
it. “Supper can wait a little,” suggested someone behind Beauty. “It’s the perfect night for a ghost story,” someone else
said cajolingly. “Yes—yes, I suppose it is,” said Mrs Words-Without-End,
still fidgeting and looking at the rain sluicing down the nearest window. “It
is a very romantic story . , , although I daresay it may have improved over
time and telling. My grandmother said this happened before her grandmother’s
grandmother’s time, when there were still greenwitches living all about here,
and at least one sorcerer. Well, you all know that part of the story, do you
not? There are a good many versions of it about, and many of them do not agree
about what the—the definition of the problem was, but they ail agree that the
beginning of it was a sorcerer. “So many problems do start with a sorcerer. My grandmother
said that this one was even more vain, and unfortunately more powerful, than
usual, and he grew very jealous of a certain young man who also lived in this
neighbourhood and who was himself a very great—a very great philosopher. That
is, that is what he chose to call himself, a philosopher, although in fact he
too was a sorcerer, but a very unlikely one. Do you remember that my father
collected folk-tales? He was particularly interested in this one, because it
was in his own family. My grandmother told me the story, but it was my father
who told me that he had never read nor heard of any other sorcerer who did not
care for magic in itself at all, who declared—as this sorcerer who called
himself a philosopher did—that it was a false discipline which led only to
disaster.” Mrs Words-Without-End’s voice had steadied and grown stronger
as she went on with her tale, but she still stared at the rain. “Well! The
sorcerer wasn’t having any of that from some young upstart, especially a young
upstart who was far too admired by people who should be admiring the
sorcerer—the sorcerer who gloried in his sorcery—and so the sorcerer began to
plague the young man’s days, in little ways to begin. But the young philosopher
was such a scholar that he barely noticed, and this made the sorcerer mad with
rage, because he hated above all things to be overlooked, and he hated the idea
that he would have to exert himself over this dreadful young man, instead of
throwing off a few tricks carelessly, as one might set a few mouse-traps. This
was worse than being told that magic was a false discipline. “Now, the philosopher’s servants were quite aware that the
sorcerer was to blame for a variety of the little things that had gone persistently
wrong in their household of late and began to talk among themselves as to what
they might do about it, because an angry sorcerer would shortly make all their
lives a misery, if indeed he left them their lives, which he might not, because
angry, vain sorcerers are capable of almost anything. “They decided to ask a greenwitch for advice. A green-witch
of course hasn’t nearly the power of a sorcerer, but a good one is often very
wise or at least very clever, and this one was a good one, and she liked the
young philosopher herself, because he loved roses, just as she did. “The greenwitch might have done what she did out of friendship’s
sake only, but there were other things about the sorcerer which disturbed her.
The first one was merely—what was he doing here at all? Sorcerers—even sorcerers—have
a place—something like a place—in a city or at a mayor’s or general’s elbow,
but there is nothing for them in a small town in the middle of nowhere, unless
the sorcerer has a fancy to enslave the inhabitants without any interference
from someone who might be able to stop him. And the second one had to do with
her friend the philosopher. She had an idea that he was pursuing some course of
study that an ordinary sorcerer might find very valuable, did he find out about
it, and she was very much afraid that this sorcerer would find out about it and
that her friend would be able to do nothing to stop him exploiting it, any more
than a country scholar could stop an army from using his notes on the forging
of steel for hoes and rakes on the forging of swords and cannon. “And so, when her friend’s servants came to her with their
story, she was almost ready for them. “I have told you the sorcerer was very vain. One of the ways
he was vain was that he thought himself very handsome—which he was—and that he
was irresistible to women, which he was not, because women surprisingly often
have minds of their own, and besides, sorcerers are a bit scary for lovers,
aren’t they? You never know when one might tire of you and turn you into a
fish-pond, or a toasting-fork, or something. So the sorcerer often found
himself short of mistresses since, like many vain men, he grew bored with
everyone but himself rather quickly. “The green witch outdid herself. She made a woman—a simulacrum,
of course, not a real woman—she made her out of”—and here, for the first time,
Mrs Words-Without-End hesitated—“rose-petals. She was of course very beautiful—the
simulacrum, I mean. She had to be, because the sorcerer would only look at her
if she were beautiful, but she was beautiful in a way that was .. . not human,
because she was not human, of course, but that made her beauty unique. The
sorcerer enjoyed possessing unique things.. . .” Mrs Words-Without-End’s voice
sank. “It is only an old tale, and I’m a foolish old woman to be repealing it.” “No go on,” came several voices, and after a pause Mrs
Words-Without-End continued: “Well, at first all was well. The sorcerer fell
passionately in love with the simulacrum, and the simulacrum declared she was
bored in the country and wished to live in the city, and such was the binding
that the greenwitch . .. somehow ... laid on her that he agreed to the change,
and indeed, he did very well in the city, which was full of people eager to be
impressed by him, even if he did sometimes have to share them with other sorcerers. “But the simulacrum, the poor simulacrum ... The greenwitch
had put no end to the spell; she could not, for she was doing something she
could not do, and it had done itself. She was not human, the simulacrum, so she
could not love and hate and wonder and worry as humans can, but she had lived
for a long time with the sorcerer and had come to see that as human beings
went, he was not a good one; and she grew lonely without understanding what
loneliness was. The sorcerer had had many mistresses since they came to the
city, of course, because that was the sort of man he was, but he retained a
sort of fondness for the simulacrum and never turned her into a fish-pond or a
toasting-fork, but gave her fine rooms, and clothing, and jewels, and
maidservants, and everything he felt a woman should want, and left her alone. “But one day he came into her rooms without warning, after
he had not visited her for years, and he found her weeping for loneliness. He
had never seen her weep. But she was not weeping tears: she was weeping
rose-petals. “He was a sorcerer; if he had not been blinded by her beauty
and his vanity, he might have seen what she was long ago. As it was, he
suddenly understood everything, and then his rage was . .. beyond anything. “Her he blasted where she sat, and there was no woman-shape
there anymore, but only a pile of rose-petals. It was enough that he destroy
her; he knew the trick played was none of hers. He struck her, and he left. He
left the city and went north, where he had a vengeance to pay.” Mrs Words-Without-End paused again, and again eager voices
urged her on: “This is a tremendous story! Why have we never heard it before?
You have been holding out on us! Go on, go on!” But when Mrs Words-Without-End
took up her story again, she spoke very quickly, as if she wished to be done
with it. “The simulacrum was not dead, for she had never been alive,
except as petals on a rose-bush. And the petals she became were just as fresh
as the petals the greenwitch had gathered many years ago to work her spell.
Rose-petals do not necessarily die when they fall from their flower; they may
lie dreaming in the sunlight for days and days. These particular petals had
been a woman—or something like a woman—for very many years, and the dreams they
had, lying in beautiful rooms in a grand house in a city, were quite different
from the dreams they might have had, had they fallen off their rose-bush in the
greenwitch’s garden and lain there in the summer sun, and wind, and rain. “Perhaps it is easiest to say that they were no longer
rose-petals. Somehow they warned the greenwitch what had happened. Perhaps they
spoke to her in a dream. But the result was she had warning—not enough, not
much, but a little. The greenwitch had known—had to have known—what she risked
by deceiving a sorcerer. And she had to have known that if—when—he discovered
the truth about the simulacrum, his rage would be very terrible, and more
terrible still if he understood that a mere greenwitch was responsible. But his
rage was even greater than that which is to say that in the moment of
revelation, when he saw what he had carelessly believed to be a woman weeping
rose-petals, he guessed as well that the philosopher he had despised—had hated—had
indeed been pursuing some course of study that the sorcerer would have found
very useful, that he would yet find very useful, just as soon as he had his
revenge. “Quickly the greenwitch threw up what defenses she could,
and they were little enough; but she was still clever, if perhaps not as wise
as she had thought she was on the day she had gathered rose-petals to make a
simulacrum. She had not time to send word to the young philosopher, who was now
nearly a middle-aged philosopher, but she had time to throw some kind of spell
over him and his house....” Mrs Words-Without-End faltered to a halt and looked
round at her audience. “You see the story docs not have a proper ending. The
sorcerer meant to blast both the greenwitch and the philosopher off the face of
the earth, which he would certainly have been able to do had he come down on
them without warning. But blasting people leaves traces. There were no traces.
The philosopher disappeared. His servants woke up one morning and found
themselves lying in a field. Their master and his fine house were gone. It took
a little longer to discover that the greenwitch had disappeared too—and not
merely gone off on one of her collecting expeditions, to return when she chose.
But the sorcerer had also disappeared. My grandmother said he’s the reason no
magic will settle here—but there are many tales told about that; why should
this one be the right one?—that it was what he did that has left this place so
troubled that no good magic can rest here. She said that it’s only the
rose-bushes the green-witch planted at Rose Cottage that have held Longchance
safe from worse—even though they’ll only bloom when a greenwitch lives there.” Chapter 12Mrs Words-Without-End went to Jeweltongue, who was standing,
looking stricken, and seized her hands. Her father gripped Jeweltongue’s
shoulder; Mr Whitehand stood close at her side. Mrs Words-Without-End said: “It
is only a silly tale, the silliest of tales. I forgot myself in the pleasure of
your father’s reading of his most romantic poem. It is all nonsense, of course,
as silly tales are—” Jeweltongue said, stiffly, as if she were very cold: “And
the ghost? You never told us who the ghost is.” “Yes!” said several voices at once. “Who is the ghost?” Mrs Words-Without-End said to Jeweltongue: “The ghost is the
ghost of the simulacrum. Sometimes she is nothing but a breath of the scent of
a rose on the air, especially in winter. Sometimes you can just see her, but
often only as a kind of shadow, a silhouette, of a woman with long hair, holding
a rose to her breast, as if its stem grew from her heart. I saw her often when
I was a little girl—I had seen her several times before my grandmother told me
the story—and then it was as if she went away, oh, for twenty years or more.
But then she came back, about ten years ago now. .. .” “But why does she come to you?” said a voice. Mrs Words-Without-Had said to Jeweltongue: “My father was a
kind of cousin to the philosopher who disappeared. My father’s
great-great-great-great-great-great-grandfather inherited the philosopher’s
other properties, including this house. I’ve always lived in this house. 1 made
my poor husband come here when I married him. I might have made him change his
name, except that he is a cousin too, and already had it. I—I have been afraid that
if one of our family no longer lives here, perhaps the ghost will no longer
have a home; and if she needs a home, I wish her to have it. I—I don’t know
what possessed me to tell the story tonight. I do believe the storm has crept
into my head and disarranged all my thinking. I have never told it to anyone
but my husband and my daughters, once they were grown, when our ghost returned
after her long absence. Except that... it has seemed to me lately that she is
around much more than she ever used to be. Even my husband has seen her several
times, in the last several months, and he had never seen her before. And she
seems to be restless in some way; I have even felt that she has been asking me
to do something, and the only thing I can think of to do for her is to tell her
story.’’ Beauty heard the rain pounding against the windows and the
wind thundering as if it would have the house off its foundations, and she felt
as if the wind and the rain were dragging and drumming at her. and wished she
could hold on to her chair for comfort; but she could not move her hands. She
seemed only able to move her eyes, and she stared at Mrs Words-Without-End,
stared as the marmalade cat stared at herself, as if she could not look away. A
gust against the wall of the house made her quiver, and she had to blink, and
blink and blink again, as if rain were running into her eyes. I am dreaming,
she told herself again. There is nothing to be frightened of; it is only a
dream; I will wake in my bed. 1 will wake in my bed in ... As Mrs Words-Without-End fell silent, the sound of the storm
seemed to swell; the lash of rain against the house struck like a blow from
something solid as a bludgeon, and it poured down the windows with a heavy
splash like a bucket overturned on a doorstep. Everyone in the room had moved
slowly towards the front, to be near Mrs Words-Without-End as she told her
story, as if attracted by some irresistible force, and now seemed fixed on the
sight of Mrs Words-Without-End with her hand holding Jeweltongue’s, staring
into her eyes, and the dumb, amazed look on Jeweltongue’s face; and with the
muffling of all other sound by the bellow of the storm, everyone started and
looked round in alarm when someone threw back the half-closed doors at the rear
of the room. Beauty still could not stir. She turned her eyes, and her
neck consented to move slowly, slowly, slowly, but still not so far that she
could look over her shoulder and see who—or what—had arrived, Mrs
Words-Without-End seemed to shrink away from whoever it was; she put her arm
round Jeweltongue’s shoulders, but whether she wished to comfort Jeweltongue or
herself it was impossible to say. Beauty felt a tap on her shin and looked down; there was the
marmalade cat, patting at her leg, as if asking to jump into her lap. Beauty’s
lips slowly shaped the words Oh, yes, please, though she had no voice to
utter them, nor could she have made herself heard now over the storm bar
shouting; but the cat understood, and leapt up, and trod her skirts into a
shape it liked, and lay down. Beauty gave up trying to look over her shoulder
and, automatically trying to bend her arm to cradle the cat, discovered that
she could, and with the first touch of warm fur on her skin a little life
seemed to come to her, as if she were in this room in truth instead of only in
dream. And as the intruder strode down the aisle towards Mrs Words-Without-End
and the little group on the hearth-rug, she was able to turn her head easily
and watch. ‘ “The weather has held me up, or I would have been here
sooner,” he said, speaking in an authoritative, carrying voice, which rode over
the storm like a practised actor’s over hecklers. He took off his wide-brimmed
hat and gave it a shake, sending water fanning out over the empty chairs on the
side of the aisle away from Beauty. Beauty saw Mr Whitehand’s fists clench at
his sides. “I was delighted when I heard of your little literary
occasion, and I planned to come—I know you would have sent me an invitation had
you known I was interested—because I have a story to tell too.” Beauty had recognised the man now: Jack Trueword, the
squire’s eldest son. She had only seen him once or twice, in Longchance, riding
his glossy highbred horse, looking faintly amused or faintly bored, staring
over everyone’s heads, perfectly certain that everyone was looking at him,
because he was the squire’s elder and handsomer son. Beauty remembered him
chiefly for that conviction of his own fascination, which he wore like a suit
of clothes; to her eye he had never been more than a good-looking, spoilt, idle
young man. But tonight she looked at him and was afraid, as if the spirit of
the storm had entered the room in the person of Jack Trueword. His face was
animated, but his smile was so wide as to be a grimace, his eyes were too
bright, and his sharp glance moved jerkily round the room. He walked and turned
and made his gestures with a barely restrained energy, as if with every motion
he had to remember not to knock people down and hurl the furniture through the
windows or into the fire. He tossed back his hair, held his wet hat delicately in one
hand, and shrugged out of his cape, deftly catching it with his other hand. He
gave the cape a spin, and this time Beauty was spattered by the wet, though she
did not feel it. The cat on her lap did und interrupted her purring with little
bass notes like growls. If anyone looked at me, thought Beauty, and I am a
ghost, where is the cat sitting? Is she floating a handsbreadth in the air? But no one did look at her; everyone was looking at Jack
Trueword. He laid the cape over the back of a chair, and the hat upon it, with
a flourish worthy of the villain in a penny pantomime. “I think I heard the rather interesting end of a story Mrs
Oldhouse was telling, as I was entering. Something about a ghost—a woman made
of rose-petals—and a sorcerer. Quite a flamboyant mix, perhaps—just the thing
for a literary company.” He strolled up the rest of the aisle and turned on the
hearth-rug. “My story has perhaps some elements in common with it.” The marmalade
cat stopped purring. “Mrs Oldhouse,” said Jack True word solicitously, “you look
tired. Indeed, if you were to ask my opinion. I would say you look ... drained.
As if some .. . involuntary magic—eh?—had been called out of you. Perhaps something
to do with that very interesting story you just told, that you have so rarely
told? Magic takes care of itself, you know. I would wonder a little myself
about a story of magic that so wishes not to be told. Especially here, you
know, in Long-chance ...” Mrs Words-Without-End, and Jewel tongue and her father, and
Mr Whitehand stared at Jack Trueword as if fascinated. The others in the room
began to stir and murmur, as if coming out of a trance, as if waking from some
spell that had held them. They looked at one another a little uneasily and
started as another particularly fierce blast of wind shook the house. “Even the storm itself seems a bit.. .extreme, does it not?”
Jack Trueword went on thoughtfully. “As though something were trying to get in.
Or perhaps out. The storm is most powerful just here, by the way. When I set
out from the Hall, it was merely raining. Even at the other end of Longchance
the wind is no more than brisk. But when 1 turned through your gates, Mrs
Oldhouse, I thought the wind would knock my horse off its legs. “I am very sorry I did not hear more of your story, Mrs Oldhouse.
Perhaps if I had, I would have understood it better. Sorcerers don’t disappear,
you know. That bit of your story doesn’t make any sense—pardon me, Mrs Oldhouse.
But sorcerers can be driven away or even ensorcelled themselves. You have to be
very strong indeed to ensorcel a sorcerer, but it can be done. There are
stories about it. “Fm afraid I also don’t accept the idea that any sorcerer
would for a moment fail to recognise a simulacrum as a simulacrum—however
beautiful she was—especially a simulacrum made by a greenwitch. No, I’m afraid
that doesn’t make sense either. I’m very sorry. Mrs Oldhouse, I seem to be
ruining your story. But truth is important, don’t you think? “My story begins... once upon a time and very long ago, but
perhaps not so very far away, there were three sorcerers. 1 think, really, the
first sorcerer was only a magician, but little the less dangerous for that,
because she was so very ambitious. The second sorcerer had been distracted from
the usual paths of power by his interest in immaterial philosophies. He spent
his days discussing, with various citizens of various ethereal planes, how many
hippogriffs can dance on the head of a pin, and such airy matters. “The third sorcerer was a practical fellow. He too was ambitious,
and his ambition had once betrayed him into carelessness: He had made the
mistake of demonstrating that he was a little too clever for his own good a
little too soon—and to the wrong man. He decided to move well away from the
city where he had made his little mistake, and to stay away, till his name, in
people’s minds, and especially in that one wrong man’s mind, should have lost
some of its prominence. “He had heard of a town—let us call it Longchance—quite a
small town to have two sorcerers in it already, but it was attractively far
away from the city he wished to leave, and rather isolated, and he did prefer
to go somewhere that contained at least one or two of his colleagues, because
he wished to go on studying and knew that studying in a vacuum always leads to
carelessness, sooner or later. He was not going to be careless again, if he
could help it. “And so he moved to this town we are calling Long-chance,
and was apparently welcomed by both the sorcerers—or the sorcerer and the
magician—already in residence. and all went well for some time. “Bat sorcerers still have to eat, and unsurprisingly, they
most often earn their bread by their sorceries. It so happens that the philosopher-sorcerer
was the last of a wealthy family, which is no doubt why he could permit himself
the luxury of philosophy in the first place. But the woman, sorcerer as she
called herself, needed people to pay for her services, as did the third
sorcerer. And after the third sorcerer had been living for some little time in
his new home, she began to notice that when people wanted sorcery, they more
and more often went to him; her they were only asking the littlest, meanest
charms, love philtres, counterspells against the souring of milk by ill-natured
persons known or unknown, herbs to take warts off or soothe croup. Green-witch
sons of things that no sorcerer should be expected to perform. “Do I begin to see some doubtful recognition on some of your
faces? We all know there is some reason no magic has settled here in a very
long time. And we think we know it has something to do with some great conflict
between sorcerers. “The greenwitch—for perhaps she was only ever a
green-witch—grew terribly jealous of the third sorcerer, or perhaps she only
fell in love with him. That she brewed a beauty potion of rose-petals is true,
but she made no simulacrum. She could not have done so much. She brewed the
potion for herself and arrayed herself in an irresistible beauty. “No one recognised her, for she had been a plain woman, and
both the sorcerers fell in love with her, and each wanted her for himself. But
the philosopher had been a philosopher too long, and his sprites were of no use
to him here. The third sorcerer won her. as she meant for him to win her. And
she convinced him, for her false beauty was the stupefying sort which throws a
shadow over its lover, that she too was a powerful sorcerer and that together
they could do anything. Perhaps she even believed it herself. “I do not know everything about what happened next. I have
been researching the story, you see; something that has occurred recently
brought the old nursery tale to my mind again, something I will tell you ... a
little later. But there are gaps in the story I cannot fill. I have even stolen
a look at Mrs Oldhouse’s father’s notes—I’m sure you will forgive me, Mrs
Oldhouse, as I was only seeking the truth—but I found nothing about anyone
weeping rose-petals. That must be a part of the story you had from your grandmother.
Women are such romancers. Well, I believe that the third sorcerer and his new
mistress went off to that city the third sorcerer had left, to confront the man
who had made it necessary for him to leave it. “The third sorcerer lost that confrontation, of course. But
he lost far more than he had over his initial mistake. He was dying, I believe,
and, in dying, was half mad with the too-late understanding that he had been
betrayed. The woman’s beauty was stripped from her, and he saw it go and knew
who she was and what she had done. In order to save her own wretched life—for
she had taken little part in the disastrous meeting with her lovers old nemesis—she
told him that it had been the philosopher who had bewitched her—how she
lied!—that she herself had only known what had happened to her when the spell
was torn away. She said that the philosopher had bewitched her because it had
been he who was jealous of the third sorcerer who had come and settled on his
territory, as he had long been jealous of her. and he saw this means to be rid
of them both.... “And with his last strength, the dying sorcerer put a curse
on the philosopher, a curse as great as he could make it. Perhaps he still
loved the woman ... a little, even with her beauty gone from her. Perhaps he
remembered that the philosopher had not fought so very hard for possession of
the woman; perhaps he, being otherwise made and desiring material successes,
underestimated the attractions of philosophy. He wanted what the woman had said
to be true. “And he had been nearly a very great sorcerer, before he was
cut down, and the end of his strength was considerable. He meant only to seize
the philosopher, but he was dying, in pain, and he did not manage very well.
His curse blasted not merely his supposed enemy—who, with his house,
disappeared overnight, and his servants awoke the next morning in a field, just
as in Mrs Oldhouse’s story—but his curse fell on Longchance as well, like
shards from an exploding cannon. “Those shards remain. Their substance seeps into the ground,
hangs like scent in the air we breathe; our noses are too dull for the work,
but as a man will not build his house near a stagnant bog, no magical
practitioner will come to a place that stinks of an old curse. This is perhaps
inconvenient, you may say, but little more; Appleborough is not so far away,
and there are greenwitches there, and a magician, and what use has Longchance
for sorcery anyway? And you might be right—except that is not quite the end of
the story. “If everywhere that had ever had a curse thrown over it
became antipathetic to magic, there would be no hands-breadth of earth left
where any magical practitioner might stand. The question you must ask is, What
became of the woman? “She was caught by the edge of her lover’s dying spell, like
dust by the hem of a curtain, and she was swept along by it, back to
Longchance, and spilled there ... somewhere. I think, as in Mrs Oldhouse’s
story, she is in some sense a ghost, but in some sense she is not a ghost. “I want you now to think back—only about thirty years. I cannot
remember quite so far myself; I was in the cradle when it happened. But we came
into a greenwitch again—after years, generations—without one. A greenwitch in
Longchance. Rather a good one, I believe. I first remember her for her
tolerance of small boys and small boys’ games. I saw less of her later on, for
rose wreaths do not interest me... and I have never needed any of a greenwitch’s
charms. “She had an adopted daughter, or there was a girl who lived
with her, who grew up to be a very beautiful woman. Very beautiful
indeed—eerily beautiful, some said. There were stories that there was something
not quite right about her. Stories that went against her. These stories
persisted until she decided to leave Longchance. There is a story that she made
a very grand marriage in a city to the south, but I do not know if it is true. “Our greenwitch was never the same again after the girl
left, was she? f remember my parents and aunt talking of it. She seemed to fade
and to dwindle after the loss of her daughter, and she never recovered. She
disappeared herself not so many years later, and greenwitches, you know,
generally live a long time, and she was not a very old woman. “There was a bit of stir created after she disappeared, was
there not? When we found out that our greenwitch had gone to a lawyer to tie up
what happened to her cottage. The cottage that legend has it had been the
cottage of the greenwitch, or magician, or sorcerer, of whom I have just been
telling you, though it had been abandoned to ruin many years ago, till our
recent green witch rescued it. Does anyone know who helped her set brick on
brick, lay the rafters, dig the cesspit, thatch the roof? I have not been able
to find anyone who does. House-building is not the usual run for a green
witch’s magic, is it?” The room was silent. Even the sound of the storm had dropped
during Jack Trueword’s story; the rain still fell against the windows, but it
made a timid, mournful sound; the wind wept distantly like a lost child. No one
inside Mrs Oldhouse’s best parlour stirred; there were no cries of “Go on, go
on!” Beauty suddenly realised that the slow measured beat she heard was the
tall cabinet clock in the corner. Be Ware, it said. Be. Ware. Tick.
Jock. She moved her cold hands on the marmalade cat’s back. “And then,” Jack Trueword said, his voice very low and
smooth, “and then ... a few years ago three beautiful girls and their father
moved into Rose Cottage. Three girls so beautiful that Longchance was dazzled
by them—were you not? “But wait, you are saying. Was it not two daughters and a
son? Very reassuring, that son, was he not, for all that he was also remarkably
beautiful’? For by his presence we have not needed to worry about that foolish
fortune-telling rhyme, the one that describes the final working out of the
curse on Longchance. “You remember I told you that something had happened recently
to put me in mind of the old stories? Discretion should forbid me to tell this
part of the story, but I began by saying that truth is important, and thus I
cannot spare myself. I found myself falling in love with . ,. one of these
beautiful sisters. It was a curious experience; it was quite like falling under
a spell. Oh, you will say, love is always like that. Perhaps it is, but was
never quite like this before, in my small experience. “Well, I recovered; I would have thought no more about it, except.
. . very recently I found that my brother has fallen in love with another of
the sisters. But the second sister, you will say, disappeared, rather
mysteriously, some while ago now—some story about a relative in the city, which
is curious, when you think about it, that we had never heard of any relatives
in the city before; indeed the family has seemed to have rather ill memories of
their life in the city. Well, that is the second sister. The third child, a
son, works for our master of horses at the Hall. But that son is not a son; she
is a daughter.” Be Ware, ticked the clock. Be Ware. The rain
tapped and pattered; the wind moaned. Jeweltongue took a step forward, shaking off Mrs Old-house’s
hand and her father’s. “Curse? What curse? I don’t believe you.” Tears began to
stream down her face. “Lion-heart mentioned a curse; I didn’t believe her
either. Yes, Lionheart is my sister, not my brother. It has nothing to do with
your horrid curse; it is that she wanted to work with horses, and she is good
at that, is she not? I know she is good at that, and she knew no one would take
her on if she were a woman, so she went as a man. What is this curse? Your
curse has cursed us, more like, for it is true—although not as Jack True word
says—that Beauty has not returned to the city. What is this curse! Has it an enchanted
palace, and a Beast, and a rose?” Mrs Oldhouse said: “A Beast? I have never heard of any
Beast. Jack, you are a bad man. I do not believe this has anything to do with
our friends”—her voice quavered—“even if Lionheart is their sister.” Jeweltongue said wildly: “Tell me this curse!” Mrs. Oldhouse recited hastily: “ Three in a bower/ And a
rose in flower / Until that hour / Stand wall and tower,’ It’s only a child’s
nursery rhyme. We used to skip rope to it. It was our favourite skipping-rhyme
because it was ours, you know how children are. “The three in a bower were three beautiful sisters, we knew
that, but the cur—the rhyme doesn’t say anything about their being beautiful,
that’s just to make it a better story, that’s what happens to stories that are
told over and over. When I was a child, and grew old enough to understand that
my favourite skipping-rhyme meant something, it was all the more delicious, do
you see? Not having magic is just. .. not having something .. . but a curse ...
Of course the sisters had to be beautiful. And the bower, that had to be Rose
Cottage, because of the rose, even though when I was a girl, no one lived
there, and the wall and tower were Longchance, although Longchance doesn’t have
any towers, but you have to have it for the rhyme, do you see? It’s like the
sisters being beautiful. And it was all to do with some great magic that had
gone terribly wrong many years ago, and it explained why there was no magic in
Long-chance now, although it didn’t explain it very well, but then foretellings
never do, do they? I never knew a seer who would give you a plain answer. “And I don’t see why—really, now that I think about it—why
our old skipping-rhyme is necessarily a curse. Perhaps it is only a prediction
of how—of how it will all be resolved. Maybe that’s why it says lower—not for
the rhyme but because Longchance doesn’t have any, do you see? But I have to
say I don’t like the sound of your Beast. What Beast? Is it fierce?” ‘‘Look at the cat!” shouted Jack Trueword, pointing at
Beauty and looking frightened half out of his wits, but as he did so, the
marmalade cat leapt off Beauty’s lap straight at Jack, as if it meant to do him
a mischief; he threw up his arms; Beauty said, “Oh, no!” and made a snatch at
the cat as it leapt, falling half off her chair as she did so; and Jeweltongue
shrieked, “Beauty!”— —and Beauty found herself falling off the top of a ladder,
struck down by wind and rain; she screamed, drowning even the cacophony of wind
in her ears, scrabbling for purchase against the rain-slick panes of her
glasshouse; her finger-ends found eight strange little hollows in the leading
of one frame and dug themselves in, but she would not be able to hold herself
there long, sprawled against the slope, and the wind blowing so brutally she
hadn’t a chance of regaining the ladder, where her useless feet remained, just touching
the rungs— And then there was a hand on her shoulder, and she was
dragged inexorably back the way she had fallen, and her weight was on her feet
again, and the wind was partially blocked by something very large bending over
her, and a voice she could just hear below the infuriated wind spoke in her
ear: “Beauty. I have you. Set your feet firmly on the rungs again; 1 will
shield you. I am too heavy even for this wind to shift. You are quite safe.
Listen to me, Beauty. You must come down now.” But the shock of what had almost happened still gripped her,
as mercilessly as the storm itself, and she was too panic-stricken to move.
When she opened her mouth to breathe, the wind stuffed it with rain and her own
sodden hair. She began to shiver, and she realised she was wet to the skin and
cold to the bone, and her shivering redoubled, and her hands seemed to have
frozen to the tops of the ladder uprights, she could not make the fingers move. She whimpered, but he could not hear her, so it did not
matter. And she wanted—so terribly wanted—to be off this nightmare ladder and
down on the ground again. The rain and wind billowed over her, and the Beast
waited, and she thought of what he had said, and she turned her head a little,
and looked up; the Beast was only a blackness to her eye, but he must have seen
her looking, because one great hand moved from its place below hers on the ladder
uprights and wrapped itself gently round her nearer one, and with that touch
some feeling and possibility of motion returned to her fingers. He released her hand, and she stiffly brought it down to the
first rung; the finger joints ached with cold and dread. She straightened her
body slowly, moved her other hand to the first rung, unsealed one foot from its
resting place, and stepped down to the next rung. Now she felt the Beast’s arms
round her, outside hers, and his waistcoat buttons brushed her back, and she
felt him take a step down, to keep pace with hers. They went down together very slowly. She still shivered, and
felt as exhausted as if she had run a great race, and sometimes fumbled for her
hand—or foothold, and some— times had to stop to rest. But she watched his hands
following hers, so that she did not have to look up or down, and she never
stopped again any longer than she needed to catch her breath. It was a much
longer journey down than it had been going up, and the wind still sang in her
ears, but the words it sang were the wrong verse: Lord Goodman died for me
today, I’ll die for him tomorrow. As her feet touched the rung below the first silver girder,
the wind slammed in under the Beast’s arm, like a clever swordsman finding a
weakness in his opponent’s guard, and seized her and flung her down, and her
feet slid off the rungs, one forward and one back, and there was a sharp hard
blow to one of her knees and another to her other ankle, and for a moment she
did not know which was up and which down, and the wind would have had her off
then had the Beast not caught her in his other arm. The wind screamed and
hammered at the ladder, and Beauty stared up at the glasshouse and the
tumultuous sky, and there was a cracking noise, and the top of one of the uprights
was torn off, the rungs broken, and the pieces hurled down on them. Beauty felt rather than saw one strike the Beast’s back and
felt him wince, but he still held her, and he still stood firm upon the ladder.
Again he spoke in her ear, calmly, as if he were addressing her across the
dinner table: “I fear I need both my hands to climb. But I do not think that
will happen again.” She nodded against his breast and put her hands and feet on
the rungs again, and he released her, and they started down the last part of
their journey. The last few rungs were even harder than the first ones had
been; she was sick and dizzy with the after-effects of the dream-vision of
Jeweltongue, and Mrs Oldhouse, and Jack Trueword, and the marmalade cat; and
she could not believe she and the Beast could reach the bottom of the ladder
safely. He stepped off it first and had his hands round her waist to steady her
as her feet touched the wet pebbles of the courtyard, but she slipped and
slithered on the suddenly treacherous surface, and her ankles twisted and her
knees would not hold her. and she was so tired her mind played tricks on her,
and she was not sure but what she was still alone on the top of the ladder and
feeling it shifting under her as the wind prepared to throw it down. But no,
the Beast was here; he held her still. He pointed along the glasshouse wall, and she remembered
they were still standing in flooding rain, and the wind, even on the ground,
was nearly .strong enough to lift her off her feet; the pebbles of the
courtyard scudded before it like crests torn from the tops of waves. And so
they made their way together along the wall and round the corner of the
glasshouse, and then at last there was a familiar handle under her hand, and
she turned it and pushed, and they were both inside the glasshouse. The storm dropped away at once, as if it had never been, as
if the closing of the glasshouse door were a charm against it, or the end of a
spell, and with the silence, and the sunlight now streaming through the panes,
and the astonishing sight that met their eyes—and the clatter of too many
thoughts and fears in Beauty’s mind—Beauty forgot climbing the ladder, forgot
the weather vane, forgot Mrs Oldhouse’s story, and Jack Trueword’s, and Jeweltongue
shouting Beauty.’, forgot the storm and the fall that would have killed
her, forgot everything but what she and the Beast saw—and smelt. For the glasshouse had come back to life indeed. There were
roses everywhere she looked, red roses, white roses, and pink roses, and every
shade among them, in great flat platters and round fat orbs of petals, roses
shaped like goblets and roses shaped like cups, roses that displayed stamens as
fine as a lady’s eyelashes, roses that were full up to the brim with a muddle
of petals, roses with tiny green button centres. There were red-tipped white
roses, and white-tipped red ones, bright pink ones and soft pink ones that were
darker at their hearts and some that were nearly white-centred; white ones that
were snowy all through, and white ones just touched with ivory and cream, or
the sunset-cloud tints of pink and gold; and the reds were all the tones of
that most mysterious and allusive of rose colours, from the warm rosy reds like
ripening cherries to the darkest black— reds of velvet seen in shadow; and the purples were finer
than any coronation mantle. And the smell, everywhere, was so rich and wonderful Beauty
wanted to cup her hands to it and drink it, and yet it was not one smell, but
all the rose scents discernible and individual as all the colours of roses: the
spicy ones, and the ones that smelt of apples or grapes or of oranges and
lemons, and the ones that smelt of almonds or of fine tea, and most
particularly the ones that smelt only as certain roses smell, and they were the
most varied and seductive of all. The foliage was so thick, glossy-green or matte-, hunter
green and olive and grey-green and nearly blue, that it should have shut out
every wink of sunshine, but it did not: the light was so bright Beauty blinked
against it, and the white roses glittered like constellations on a clear night. “Oh,” said Beauty. “Oh.” The Beast, as if in a dream, said, “I have not been here in
... I do not know how long. It has been a long time. I have not come since the
roses started dying.” Beauty ran forward suddenly, toward the farthest corner of
the glasshouse, and there knelt—or would have knelt—by the one rose-bush that
had still been in flower when she had first entered here; but it was tall and
strong now, as tall as she was, and covered with flowers. She could not count
them, there were so many, or rather, she did not wish to spend the time
counting them when she could smell and look at and touch them. She turned to
examine her cuttings, and all the little bushes were knee-high, and all had
flower-buds, and the first of these were cracking open, and at their feet an
exuberance of heartsease foamed green and purple. She looked at her seedbed,
where the seedlings were only a little smaller than the bushes from the
cuttings, and these too bore the first tiny green bumps that would become
flowers, not leaves. One precocious seedling had its very first bud just unscrolling,
and she wondered what it would be, for while she knew the mothers of all her
seeds, she did not know die fathers. She touched it softly, and a whiff of rose
scent came to her even among all the perfumed richness around her, and this
scent was new, and not quite like any other, and while it reminded her of a
scent she had once breathed standing by a meadow watching a woman milk
her cows, a fine, wild, pure, magical smell, it was also unmistakably that of a
rose. She looked up, and the Beast stood near her, looking at the
dark red rose-bush which had been the only one alive and blooming the day
before. “I remember you,” he murmured, as if to himself. “I remember...” And as he said, “I remember,” suddenly she remembered sitting
as a ghost with a marmalade cat in her lap, and she remembered all those other
dreams she had had while she was asleep in her grand high bed in the palace and
had told herself in the mornings were only dreams, and she remembered
Jeweltongue’s voice, as the marmalade cat made its spring, saying Beauty! And
Beauty herself did not know if she now believed that the dreams had been more
than dreams or if it was only that she was frightened to think that they might
be more. And, a very little, she remembered the dream she had once had so
often, about a long dark corridor and a monster that waited for her—only for
her—and remembered too, so faintly that it was barely a memory at all, how that
dream had changed when she came to this place, and how she had hurried along
that corridor to comfort the lost unhappy creature there.. . . But the look on Jack Trueword’s face was what dazzled her
mind’s eye now, the look on his face, and the stricken look on Jeweltongue’s.
Jeweltongue, who had never been overset by anything, not their mother’s death,
not their father’s ruin, not her broken engagement; Jeweltongue, who had found
Rose Cottage welcoming even on that first grey, depressing day, who had found
her own skill as a dressmaker and chosen it finally over any chance of being
what she had been before. Jeweltongue, who loved the life she had made in
Long-chance, just as Lionheart loved her life, as their father loved his life,
a life. Beauty thought suddenly with a pain like a mortal wound, that they
might all lose. . .. Has Master Jack forgiven you for preferring a short,
stoop-shouldered flour-monger with hands like balled puddings to his tall,
elegant, noble self... ? D’you want to think about what happens next?.., Surely
you’ve heard that there’s a curse on this place if three sisters live in it? She
remembered Mrs Greendown saying: The tally calls for three sisters, and
there’s only the two of you. What if Jack’s story were true? They could not be driven out of another town, another life.
They could not do it again. It would break them, and they would die of it, die
as certainly as Beauty would have died if the Beast had not caught her when she
fell off the ladder. “Beast—” He turned to her at once. “What is it? What troubles you?
Can you not be pleased with what you have done here?” And he sank to his knees
beside her and would have taken the hem of her still-soaking skirt in his
hands, except that she twitched it out of his reach. “No, no! I will not have
you on your knees! Stand up, stand up!” But he did not want to stand up, and she could not make him.
He rocked back on his heels and looked up at her (not very far, for he was tall
even kneeling); he was smiling, although there were tears in his eyes, and she
noticed that he was not wearing the long black sleeveless gown she had never
seen him without. Then we would have taken flight indeed, she thought,
remembering the wind. But his remaining clothing was plastered to him by the
rain, and she suddenly thought how much he looked like the round-limbed,
handsome Beast who stood on a pedestal in the middle of the garden at Rose
Cottage. She almost could not ask what she needed to ask. Timidly she
moved forward again and set her hands on his shoulders. “Will you tell
me—because 1 believe I need to know—what—what brought you to this place, and
this—this shape?” His smile faded, but he remained looking up at her. “Oh.
please stand up!” she said again, plucking uselessly at his shoulder. “If you
will not stand up, I will sit down,” and she did, and drew her knees up under
her wet skirts, and put her cheek against them, and told herself the damp was
only rain and nothing to do with fresh tears. There was silence for a few heartbeats and the roses, and
the sunlight, and the scent were still round them, and Beauty felt like a
starving beggar looking through a window at a feast. And then the Beast said:
“I told a sorcerer I believed magic to be a false discipline, leading only to
disaster. It was a foolish thing to say, if not always untrue, or—I would not
be as I am.” Beauty whispered, “Is that all?” The Beast sighed, and the roses fluttered, and the sunlight
came and went among the leaves. “Is it ever all? Do you want the full story of
my ruin? For I will tell you, if yon ask.” “No .. . yes ... no. I do not know what I am asking.’’ Her
thoughts scrambled among fragments of truth and hope and love and fear, looking
for a place to begin: There is a curse on my family—on our coming to
Longchance—and it has found us out at last. Then is there not a curse on my
coming here? Why did you ensorcel me to come to this place? Or if not
you, who? Who put the rose on my father’s breakfast table? If you are a prisoner here, who ensorcelled you? Who tends
your garden? Who is the old woman who leaves a basket in the night in front of
doors that do not open? Why have the bats and butterflies and toads and hedgehogs returned
and not the birds? Why do you ask me to marry you when you will not tell me who
you are? Again she saw Jeweltongue’s pale desperate face, heard Lionheart
saying: The Truewords do what their eldest son tells them to,... And
Longchance does what the Truewords tell them. Her heart ached from the absence—the loss—of her sisters,
whom she loved and trusted and knew, whose blood and bone were the same
as her own, and to whom for that reason her first loyalty must lie. Her
floundering thoughts seized on this as security: Here must her first loyalty
lie. Here. She put her fingers to her temples, feeling the blood
beating frantically there. “Oh, Beast,” she said, but she could not look at
him, and her voice caught in her throat. “Beast, you must let me go.” He stood up then. “I—” She scrambled to her feet again too, staggering as her head
swam, but when he would catch her elbow to steady her, she backed away from
him. “You must let me go. See, your roses bloom again. That is what you called
me here for, is it not?” she said wildly, and now the tears were running freely
down her face, but she told herself she was only thinking of her sisters. “I
have done what you brought me here to do; you must let me go. Please.’” Perhaps
I can do nothing, but what comes to them must come to me too. If we are the
three named, let us at least be together for ., , whatever happens. And ... I
must go away from this place. If I carry this curse, let me ... at least let me
carry it away from . . . from this place. The Beast said, as if each word were a blow from a dagger:
“I can deny you nothing. If you will go, then I give you leave to go. I have
never been able to hold you here against your will.” “I will come back to visit you,” said Beauty—the words burst
out of her. “If I can. I will come back.” “Will you?” said the Beast. “Will you?” “Oh—yes,” said Beauty, and put her hand over her mouth to
force the sobs back, but perhaps the Beast saw the gesture as for some other
purpose. He turned away from her and snapped the stem of a dark red
rose from the bush he had spoken to only a few minutes before. “Then take this
rose. As long as it is blooming, as it is now, ail is well with me. When the
petals begin to fall, then take thought of your promise, for I will be dying.” “Dying?” said Beauty. “Oh—no—” “Yes,” said the Beast, as gently as he had said. You are
quite safe. “I cannot live without you anymore. Beauty, Not now, not when I
have had you here, not now that I have learnt how lonely 1 was, and am—was—for
a little while— no longer. But as I brought you here by a lie, it is only
just that I should lose you again.” “Beast—” Now he put his hand over her mouth, or just his fingertips.
“Listen. Pull one petal of this rose and set it in your mouth, and you will be
at home—in Rose Cottage—at once. If you decide you do wish to see me again,
pull another petal and set it again in your mouth, and you will at once be
here. But if you wait till all the petals have dropped, it will be too late;
once they have loosed themselves from the flower, they can no longer return you
here, and besides, when the last of them falls. I will die.” She put her hands over his hand, pulled it away. “No, I
cannot bear it—oh—this cannot be happening. Not Like this. Not like this.” The Beast said, “You belong with your family. And I have forgotten
too much—too much of what it is to be a man. And 1 had never learnt what it is
to love a woman. It is too late now. “Go.” He pulled a petal from the rose he held, then handed
her the rose. Dumbly she took it. “Open your mouth.” “I—” He slipped the rose-petal between her lips. She just touched
his hand again—“Oh, Beast”—but he was gone, and the glasshouse was gone, and
all that was left was the feeling of the thorns of the rose he had given her
stinging the palm of her hand, and the taste of the rose-petal in her mouth. Chapter 13Jeweltongue had flung herself on her knees by the chair
where Beauty had sat with the marmalade cat. “Oh, she was here, she was here, I
saw her, did you not see her? I cannot bear the not knowing what has become of
her! I would pull Longchance down with my own hands to know that she was well!”
Her head ached, and she was aware that her nose was running and that she was
behaving badly, and for the first time in her life, she did not care. Beauty!
She had been here, hadn’t she? Or was it merely that worrying about her
had finally begun producing phantoms of her? The ghost of a simulacrum made of
rose-petals! Jeweltongue couldn’t remember ever having felt so helpless;
even those last terrible weeks in the city, they had at least had one
another—something neither she nor Lionheart had ever been aware they wanted or
needed. And it had been Beauty then who had done what needed to be done, while
all she and Lionheart could see was that their pride and arrogance had
shattered like glass, and the shards lay all round them, and it was as if they
cut themselves to the bone with every move they made. And so they had moved
slowly, had been able to see no farther than across the room. across the present minute. They owed their lives to Beauty,
and she and Lionheart both knew it. Mrs Oldhouse, bending over her from one side, and Mr Whitehand
from the other: “My dear, I did not know, why did you not tell us?” “My darling, I did not know, why did you not tell me?’?
And Jeweltongue weeping, weeping passionately, uncontrollably, as Jeweltongue
never wept, as Jeweltongue never did anything. A sudden sharp heavy sound, a cry, and a clatter of
furniture, including the unmistakable crack of splintering wood, and
Jeweltongue’s father stood over the prostrate Jack Trueword, grimacing and
cradling one hand with the other. Jack lay still. Someone in the audience
laughed. “Well struck, Mr Poet!” said a voice. Jeweltongue slowly, dazedly, turned her head. Jack True-word
lay sprawled and ungainly across Mrs Oldhouse’s hearth-rug; she blinked. Her
thoughts were confused by all that had happened; her chief thought now was how grateful
she was that he had stopped telling his terrible story.... How small he looked,
lying there, silent and still. It was the first time, she thought, she had ever
seen him ungraceful. Jack had always had the gift of grace, even of charm,
however spoilt and selfish you knew he might be in the next moment, but she had
been accustomed to believe that she could ignore his bad temper. She closed her
eyes. But if his story was more than just bad temper... She opened her eyes and looked at him again. It was suddenly
very hard to remember how frightening he had been, just a few minutes ago.
telling his story. Lying in the splintered remains of Mrs Oldhouse’s chair, he
looked like something the storm had picked up and indifferently tossed away. “I suppose we had best move him,” said another voice,
without enthusiasm, after a little, startled, general pause. “Let him come round on his own,” said a third voice
promptly. “Have you hurt your hand badly, sir?” “I, er, I fear I may have. I must. . . apologize very
profoundly. It was a stupid and a wicked thing to have done. 1 cannot think
what came over me.” “Whatever it is, I’m glad it did,” said Mrs Oldhouse, half
straightening, but still patting a bit of Jeweltongue’s shoulder not covered by
Mr Whitehand’s arm, and addressing the top of her head, “If someone had done
that to him years ago, he might not have turned out so mean-spirited. I could
easily have done the same myself to Miss Trueword—who is one of my dearest
friends, and after all, she introduced you to me—when I heard of that result of
her invitation to supper. My dear, you must learn not to be so clever, it will
attract the wrong sort of person—at least until you are as old as I am—but
then, you will be safely married soon, so that is all right,’’ she said, and
patted Mr White-hand’s shoulder instead. “Have you really damaged your hand, Mr...
Poet? I shall call you that hereafter. I think, it is so much more suitable
than your own name. Should we call for the surgeon? The storm seems to have
abated at last” “I think that might be wise,’1 said a man who had
been examining the old merchant’s hand, and Mrs Oldhouse rang for a servant. “At last!” she said, turning back to her friends. “I am free
of Great-Aunt Maude’s hideous chair! How clever of you, Mr Poet, to strike him
in just that direction. I suppose we might put a blanket over him. Or his cape—oh.”
And she snatched it up off the chair. “How could I not have noticed? I will
have his skin if that chair is ruined. “Now. Jeweltongue, listen to me.” She knelt by the young
woman’s side and put her hand earnestly on her arm. Jeweltongue’s arms were
still stretched across the seat of the chair, her head again resting upon them,
but her sobs had ceased. “My dear, why did you not tell anyone? About what had
become of your sister? Beauty, that is. How very astonishing that Lionheart is
another girl! Then—she must be soon to be married also, I gather? Aubrey is nothing
like his brother. If he’s fallen in love with her, he’ll mean to marry her.” “Yes,” said Jeweltongue. “But Lionheart was afraid—afraid of
something like what Jack did here tonight.” Mrs Oldhouse gave a very thorough and contemptuous snort.
“The storm had drowned all our intelligence, or we would never have let him go
on like that. What piffle. Bringing up that old nursery rhyme and brandishing
it like—like—like a little boy bringing a dead snake to scare his governess.
One may very well shriek, for who likes dead snakes’?.., Except little boys.
But my dear, you can’t have thought. ..” She hesitated and looked genuinely
troubled for the first time. “Jeweltongue, my very dear young friend . .. Lionheart
was afraid, you say? But we all know what Jack is. Just as—why did you not tell
anyone about—about whatever it is that has happened to Beauty? Because I gather
from Mr Whitehand’s response that even he did not know.” “I fear that is more my fault than my daughters’,” said the
old merchant. “It is I who—” “Father, we all agreed.” said Jeweltongue. “And ... it was
not only your ban, Father dear. Our life here has seemed ... it is so different
from anything we could have imagined when we still lived in the city.... But we
have been happy here, do you understand? And when you are happy, when
you have never been happy before, when you hadn’t even known you weren’t happy,
it is hard to believe that it won’t all go away again, isn’t it? The curse seemed
so ... likely, somehow. I did not quite not believe it, if you
understand. “I had overheard a conversation Beauty had with Mrs Greendown—two
years ago now—she had said something about a curse, and 1 saw how Beauty looked
afterwards. And I noticed most particularly later, when Beauty told me about
what she had said, and she never spoke a word about a curse.” Everyone else in the room was trying to drift close enough
to the little party clustered round the end chair of the second row to hear
what was being said, without being obvious enough about it to risk being sent
away. Jeweltongue looked up and round at them and laughed, a laugh more like
her real one, although with a catch in it. “Very well. We are caught out. I
will tell you everything—anything you want to know. 1 am sorry to ... not to
have trusted you. But it seemed like the right thing to do at the time. We have
not been here so very long, only a few, few years. Our name isn’t a Longchance
name—like Oldhouse, or True-word, or Whitehand And magic—once we learnt there
was none here, it seemed—it seemed rude to discuss magic with you, rather
like—like—” “Discussing hairdressing with the bald, or rare vintages
with those overfond of their wine?” said Mrs Oldhouse. “Yes, I understand that.
We are all used to it, of course, and quite proof against the occasional
persons who wish to pretend they are superior to us for—for their perfect
sobriety, and full heads of hair. I think you might have—but never mind. I do
see.” “And it suited us,” said the old merchant. “It suited us
that there was no magic here, I have been ... rather unreasonable about magic
since my wife died. It made us—it made me, at least—feel as if we had come to
the right place, this town that had no magic.” “Yes, that’s right,” said Jeweltongue. “And then—it
seemed—Jack is right enough that our memories of our life in the city are not
very good ones—and why we left—oh dear. I don’t want to go into all that—” “That is none of our business, dear,” said Mrs Oldhouse.
“But you are here now, not in your nasty old city.” “Yes. But you see, that’s part—you have been so very good to
us. We have been so happy here!” And Jeweltongue reached up to put her hand
over Mr Whitehand’s. “Oh, I can’t explain! It seemed ungrateful, somehow, to
tell you. And it meant—perhaps it meant—that we did not belong here after all.” Her voice went squeaky on her last words, and she clutched
her baker’s hand rather hard, but he laughed a little and bent down to say
something privately in her ear, as Mrs Oldhouse said briskly: “We will go up to
Appleborough tomorrow and hire the very best of the seers—I know just the one,
Fareye, she doesn’t meddle in looking for the future, but she can find
anything—and ask her to tell us where your sister is.” Jeweltongue said, “Father? Please.” “Yes, of course,” he said. “I should have thought of it
myself. I don’t care if it’s magic. I don’t think I’ve cared about magic one
way or the other since Beauty’s roses first bloomed. But I am accustomed to
doing without it. And here in Longchance ... and when you feel in your heart
there is nothing you can do about something, you do not think clearly about it.
And I—it was my fault in the beginning.” “No,” said Jeweltongue. “To seek to save your life in a snowstorm?
And enchantments are like that. You cannot know which step will spring the trip
wire.” Her father smiled faintly. “I just want your sister back—as
you do—or at least to know what’s become of her. It’s been so long.” “Seven months,” said Jeweltongue. “Seven endless months.
Seven months today.” “But the Beast,” said someone. “Won’t you tell us about the
Beast?” The marmalade cat, reappearing from nowhere, sprang into
Jeweltongue’s lap with a thump. “Oh!” said Jeweltongue. “Well, hello yourself!”
She raised a hand to stroke it, but it leapt down again at once and trotted oft
towards the door. It paused there and looked back. “Do you know where Beauty is
then?” said Jeweltongue, only half teasing. The cat flicked her tail, went through the door, turned
round, and just poked her head back through, staring at Jeweltongue as she had
earlier stared at the empty aisle chair of the second row. “It’s only a cat,” said someone. “Hmph,” said Mrs Oldhouse. “You have never been the
intimate friend of any cat. And you do not know my Becky.” Becky stood on her hind legs to twiddle the handle of the
open door with one forepaw and then sank back to the ground again, still
staring at Jeweltongue. “I—I think, if you don’t mind,” said Jeweltongue
apologetically, “I would quite like to see what she seems to want to show me.” She rose to her feet, and Mr Whitehand rose too. “I’ll come
with you,” he said. She looked up and smiled. “No. You stay here and wait till
the surgeon comes. I want someone besides my father to tell me what he says—and
someone my father will have felt obliged to listen to too, if what he says is
unwelcome. Besides, I—1 think perhaps—” “If it is magic,” said Mrs Oldhouse, “you will be much
better off by yourself than with some dull Longchancer befogging all
the—the—whatever magic does. Even you, Mr Whitehand. Go on then.” She added to
the cat: “Take care of her, mind. Or no more warm evenings by the fire for
you.” Becky disappeared. Jeweltongue took her cloak from the rack by the door and let
herself out, Becky winding dangerously through her ankles. The night was clear
after the rain, and there were stars overhead; the storm had left as quickly as
it had come. Magic? Had the storm brought Beauty, taken her away again? Where
was she? “I’ve never seen the stars so bright,” she said to Becky. “Have
you? There’s the River... and the Tinker. . . and the Peacock.” She took a deep
breath, trying to regain her self-possession; it seemed to have gone with the
storm and the ghost of her sister. “Oh!” The night air smelt of roses, strongly
of roses. Her nose was not so good for the variations of rose scent as
was Beauty’s, but this odour put her immediately in mind of the dark red rose
their father had brought home from the Beast’s palace, which had sat for weeks
on their windowsill, whose petals had at last fallen when the roses in the
garden—she could not help but think of them as Beauty’s roses—had bloomed in
midsummer. She turned her head one way and then another, sniffing like an
animal searching for water, or for danger, or for safety, and saw Becky trotting
purposefully away from her. “Becky!” she called. The cat stopped, turned her head, and looked at her. Curious
how the starlight fell! The marmalade cat looked suddenly grey, and yet she
stood next to a stand of black-eyed Susans, whose colour even in this faint
light clearly showed orange. The cat turned away again and trotted on. “Oh dear,” said Jeweltongue, but with her first step
following, the smell of roses grew stronger still, and Jeweltongue broke into a
trot herself. “I hope you are not leading me into any thickets,” she muttered
under her breath. “I am a good deal higher up from the ground than you are, you
know, and you are leading me directly into the middle of nowhere,” for the cat
had gone straight across Mrs Old-house’s gardens and into the meadow beyond,
easily picking her way across the stepping-stones in the stream at its bottom,
while Jeweltongue, confused by the shadow dapples, splashed less skillfully in
her wake. Jeweltongue was jerked to a sudden halt, and there was a sound of
tearing cloth. “Oh, bother!” she said. “I liked these sleeves! I should have
let Miss Trueword have this bodice after all.” The cat trotted on, and Jeweltongue followed, her sense of urgency
increasing. In her mind there was a picture of the dark red rose: Only a moment
ago it had seemed to be little more than a bud; now it was full open; now she
saw its petals curling back, drooping; now the first one fell.... She battled her way through a thin hedgerow, and suddenly
she knew where she was; this was the end of Farmer Goldfield’s land, and Rose
Cottage was only a few steps that way and through the stand of trees. “I don’t
know how you did that,” said Jeweltongue to the cat. “I was supposed to slay
the night with Mrs Oldhouse, you know—do you know?—because it is much too long
a walk home. Much longer than this. Oh—” A terrible thought struck her. “She’s
not ill, is she? That isn’t why you have brought me in such a hurry—” She began to run, but the cat was purring round her ankles,
and she would not risk kicking her. and then it seemed rude not to thank her
properly. So she stooped and petted her, and the cat purred, and rubbed her
small round skull against Jeweltongue’s chin, and put her forepaws on
Jeweltongue’s knees, and licked her once with her raspy tongue. Jeweltongue,
looking into her face, said. “You’re not Becky at all, you’re some other cat,”
at the moment that her hands, stroking the cat’s sides, felt the soft swellings
of her breasts hidden by her silky fur, “Ah! You’re only in a hurry to go home
to your kittens. Are you Beauty’s cat then?” But the cat jumped down and ran off, and Jeweltongue hastened
the last few steps to Rose Cottage, and at that moment she heard a heartrending
wail from Teacosy, exiled for the night in the goat shed. At the door of the cottage she met Lionheart, with her hand
out to lift the latch; she turned at the sound of Jeweltongue’s approach. “You
too! Tonight’s your literary party, isn’t it? You shouldn’t be home at
all—especially not walking alone at this time of night Listen to poor Teacosy! What’s
wrong with us? 1 had to come.” “I don’t know,” said Jeweltongue. “Something about—” “—Beauty,” finished Lionheart, and pushed open the door. She was asleep, lying as if flung on the hearth-rug, in
front of the banked fire; her arms and legs were sprawled, and her hair
lay across her face as if blown there by a strong wind. One hand seemed only
just to have dropped a dark red rose, its petals blowsily open and near to
tailing, and she was as wet as if she had been out in the storm. “Beauty,” breathed Jeweltongue. “Oh, Beauty!” said Lionheart. Jeweltongue dropped to her knees beside her sleeping sister
and picked up one cold hand and began to chafe it. Lion-heart bent over them
just long enough to brush the hair from Beauty’s face, tenderly, murmuring,
“We’re like a three-legged stool with one leg gone, without you.” and then
knelt by the fire and began to dig through the ashes for embers worth blowing
on. She said between exhalations: “I couldn’t believe ., . any harm . . . had
come to her . . . even though ... I had no real reason ...” “But the roses,” said Jeweltongue. “Yes,” said Lionheart, feeding kindling chips into her tiny
flame flickers. They both glanced at the window over the back garden; even in
the darkness, the ruffled and scalloped edges of a few late roses that framed
it were visible. A little wind stirred, and several of the roses tapped their
heads against the panes; it was a reassuring sound. “If Beauty’s roses were
blooming, then so was Beauty.” Jeweltongue rose abruptly and fetched an empty jam jar,
upside down next to the washing-up bowl, filled it with clean water from the
ewer, and put Beauty’s rose in it. “This is another one like the one Father
brought, isn’t it? I remember the smell. Only it’s nearly gone over. I wonder
what—” She hesitated. “—adventures Beauty has had since she plucked it? Yes/1
said Lionheart. “But her adventure will have been nothing like Father’s,” She
tried to speak firmly, but her voice trailed away. “The first one lasted and lasted, as if the rose itself were
enchanted.. . . Help me get her out of her wet things, and then if you’ll go
let Teacosy in before she brings the wild hunt’s hounds down on us.” Teacosy rushed out of the goat shed and hurled herself
against the closed door of the cottage. At the thump, Beauty stirred for
the first time. Jeweltongue had been tying her dressing-gown round her. It was
a new one; Jeweltongue had only just finished making it last winter, to replace
the rag of overcoat Beauty had been using in the absence of anything better.
She had refused to take it with her to the Beast’s palace, as it was now the
nicest of their three: “An enchanted palace must have dressing-gowns and to
spare, or if not, I will make a velvet curtain serve.” Neither Jeweltongue nor
Lionheart had had the heart to use it, however, and it had hung untouched on
its peg for seven months. It had been such a long time! She stopped what she
was doing and stroked Beauty’s cheek. “Beauty? Please, darling . . .” The door opened to the sound of Lionheart’s expostulations,
and Teacosy launched herself at Beauty and began frantically licking her face,
making little squeaking whimpers and wagging her short tail so hard her body
vibrated down its full length, and between the counter-impulsions of wagging
and licking, her ears seemed to spin out almost sideways, in a blur like
hummingbirds’ wings. “Saints!” said Jeweltongue. trying to lift her away, but the
dog, usually immediately amenable to anything any of the sisters suggested,
struggled in her grip and began to burrow under Beauty’s arm and side. “Teacosy,” murmured Beauty, trying to sit up. “I’d know that
frenzy anywhere .. . you’re much worse than Fourpaws, I’d forgotten ... don’t
eat me, please.” And then there were several minutes while the sisters simply
wept in one another’s arms, and several more minutes when no one could say
anything in particular, and then Lionheart got up to make tea. and Jeweltongue,
Beauty, and Teacosy remained in front of the now enthusiastically burning fire,
and Jeweltongue’s arms were round her sister, and Beauty’s head was on her
shoulder, and Teacosy was stretched across both their laps. “Are you ready to talk?” said Lionheart, returning with the
tray. Beauty sighed and shook her head—gingerly, because it felt
so odd. She felt odd all over: Her skin was overtender and faintly prickly,
like the end, or the beginning, of fever, and her thoughts spun stupidly in
place and would not connect with one another. She had a strange savour in her
mouth, as if she had been eating rose-petals. Why could she not remember the
journey here? What had happened? She had a sense of something, of some doom
near at hand, but she could not remember what it was. She did not want to
remember. “Why is it so dark? Is it the middle of the night? Where is Father?” “It is the middle of the night—when did you arrive, my
love?—and Father is in Longchance, at the—the remains of a literary party. He
read his own poem; he was very grand! And they called him Mr Poet after! But
there was, er, a tiny accident—he’s really perfectly all right—and I came on
alone.1’ “In me middle of the night,” murmured Lionheart. “How did
you know to come?” Jeweltongue felt herself blush, but the firelight was warm
on all their faces, and none of them wanted to disturb their own little family
magic by lighting a lamp. “Well... there was this cat—” Lionheart sat bolt upright. “But that is precisely what
happened to me!” Jeweltongue tightened her arm round Beauty, and Beauty
looped her arms round the front end of Teacosy and hugged her, and the dog
sighed hugely on a long low note of utter contentment and fell asleep,
muttering faintly in her dreams. The sisters found in themselves a great reluctance to
discuss anything at all. They were home in Rose Cottage, all together again,
and it was the middle of the night. They had no responsibilities;
responsibilities returned with daylight. The fire crackled; Teacosy kicked as
she ran after a dream rabbit; the roses round the kitchen window tapped against
the glass; peace pooled around them like water. Lionheart sighed, and put her teacup down. “I will have to
go back to the Hall soon. I’m sorry. Would that I had known to bring Daffodil!
Thai’s something you don’t know, Beauty; when we tried to send her back with
the traders, they had a note from the captain saying we were to keep her, that
she was a country pony, not a city pony. So we sent half a fail—purchase price
south and will send the other half in the spring. She’s a great favourite at
the Hall. It’s the first time anyone has ever seen Dora happy on horseback,
riding Daffodil, which is a great thing for poor Dora, in that family. * ‘Beauty, please, can you bear it? Can you bear to tell us
what happened? Even a little of it? Mostly—really—only—are you home—home—home
for—” Her courage failed her, and she could not finish her sentence. But Beauty, to her sisters’ alarm, turned in Jeweltongue’s
arms and began to weep against her sister’s breast. “I do not know what to do!
It is all too impossible! He is very kind—and—and—oh—but his roses are blooming
again. I am sure that is what he wanted of me—” Why had she a picture in her
mind of the Beast saying. Beauty, will you marry me? Why would someone
so great and grand, like the Beast, want to marry her? She was beautiful, but
that would fade, unlike Jeweltongue’s skill with her needle and Lionheart’s
horse sense. She had always been the least of the sisters, called Beauty
because she had no other, better characteristic to name her as herself. She
could make roses bloom—but that was the unicorns and the old woman. There was a
little gap in the magic, that was all, and she had mended it, merely by being
there, as if she were a bit of string. “I am sure that is what he wanted of me, and I cannot
possibly live without you and Father, but I have begun to wonder if I cannot
live without—” And here her tears overcame her, and she sobbed without
speaking. Teacosy woke up and began to lick her wrist. Jeweltongue stroked her hair, and eventually Beauty sat up
again, drawing her hand away from the dog. “You will wear a hole in the skin
soon, little one,” she said, and took the dog’s head between both her hands,
and smoothed the fur back over her skull and down her neck and ears. “Your hair
is so thick and curly, after Fourpaws! I wonder if Four-paws—” She almost said,
“misses me,” but stopped before the dangerous words were out. Dangerous, why?
she thought; but she had no answer, only the sick, torn, unhappy feeling she’d
had since—since . .. She could not remember. How had she come here? Why could
she not remember the Beast’s last words to her? Why then was she so sure that
those last words had been important? “Who is Fourpaws?” said Jeweltongue. “Fourpaws is a cat I—who lives where I have been staying.
She has just had kittens. She is very pretty—rather small, grey with amber
flecks and huge green-gold eyes.” “But that must be the cat that I—” “But that is the cat—’’ Jeweltongue and Lionheart spoke simultaneously. “I didn’t finish telling you,” said Lionheart. “I’ve been
horribly restless all evening, but 1 thought—I told myself—it was just the
storm. Molly came in and wouldn’t go out again—usually she sleeps in the barn,
and indeed, Mr Horsewise doesn’t like her in the house; he says she has to earn
her keep—but she wouldn’t settle down cither and kept winding through my legs
and making this fretful, irritating, hoarse little mewing till I thought—with
the wind and the rain and her going grrup grrttp in
anything resembling a lull—I would go mad with it. “The storm cleared off from the east, you know: you would
have had it longer in Longchance, I think. As soon as the wind dropped, I
opened the door and pretty well threw her out, but when I tried to close the
door again, she was standing on the threshold. If 1 hadn’t seen her in time, I think
I’d’ve closed it on her, because she really wasn’t moving. “But I was in a state myself by then. I had this craving to
go back to Rose Cottage. I don’t know how else to describe it. I was convinced
I’d find Beauty there, you know? Only I knew that was ridiculous. But I thought
a walk might calm me down a little, so I came out. Everyone else was asleep. We
get up early, you know, we fall asleep early. We all have our own tiny cubbies,
upstairs from the common room, so even if it’s not allowed, and it isn’t, if
you want to slip out, it’s not hard. “Molly was thrilled, and gamboled and played like a kitten,
always coming back to me and then dashing off somewhere, and I was so
preoccupied with fighting my longing to come home 1 just followed her for
something to do ... and then discovered I was out in the middle of the woods
and had no idea where 1 was. I would have said I know every foot of woodland
around here, not just the bridle paths but the deer trails—the rabbit trails,
for pity’s sake!—but I was completely lost. And then I followed Molly because I
didn’t know what else to do. “And then about the time I spilled out on a track I did
know—the one that runs along the length of Goldfield’s farm—and I saw Molly in
fairly bright starlight after all the shadows under the trees, I saw it wasn’t Molly.
All cats are grey in the dark, but Molly is brindle-black and white, and
the white shows. You see her white front twinkle in the dark of the barn when
you’re up before dawn.” “And she came up to you to say good-bye, and when you petted
her, you noticed she was nursing kittens,” said Jeweltongue. “Yes,” said Lionheart. “And we’d covered far more distance
than we should have been able to. One of the reasons I was so cross about being
lost is that we hadn’t been walking long—not long enough to get really lost in.
When 1 came out on the farm road, I was only about half an hour from here, and
on foot in the dark, from the Hall, it’s at least three hours. Which is why I
need to leave soon. I don’t suppose your Fourpaws will be hanging round waiting
to take me back.” “Half an hour,” said Jeweltongue. “I guess she, Four-paws,
had to dash off to relieve Becky, who was bringing me.” They both turned to Beauty, who was staring out the window
at her roses. “1 can’t remember.” she said softly. “I remember this morning ..
. and Fourpaws’ kittens ... and the night before ... the unicorns—oh, I
remember the unicorns!—and so I didn’t want to go into the glasshouse this
morning. There is something I cannot remember. I went to find the Beast....
Oh!” She sat up again, and leant forward to grasp Jeweltongue’s hands. “I
remember Jack True-word—the story he told—I was afraid—have 1 ruined it for all
of us?—Do we have to leave Longchance? I had to come back to see if you were
all right—” “If we were all right!” exploded Lionheart. “You’ve been
gone seven months with never a word, and now suddenly you reappear because of
something that conceited little fop said, and you want to know if we’re all
right? You wretched, thoughtless brute, why didn’t you ever send us word
about you?” “Seven months?” Beauty said slowly. “Seven months? But it’s
only been seven days. The butterflies were the first morning, the day after 1
arrived, and then the bat, and the hedgehogs, and the spider, and the toads,
and this morning was Fourpaws’ kittens—seven days.” “Dear,” said Jeweltongue, “it’s been seven months for us.” There was a silence. “I’m so sorry,” said Beauty. Lionheart slid to her knees beside Beauty, and took her
hands away from Jeweltongue, and held them tight. “I’m sorry—sorrier. I’m sorry
I shouted. You would have sent word if you could—even if it had been only seven
days. It’s just... it’s been so long, and we knew nothing.” “It’s been so long,” agreed Jeweltongue in a low voice. “And
we can’t let Father know how it troubles us,...” “Hardest for you,” said Lionheart to Jeweltongue, though she
still held Beauty’s hands, “We’ve had to pretend that we know you’re all
right—we’re sisters, our hearts beat in each other’s breasts, we know—and
also, it’s Father who has the aversion to magic. If it comes up at all, then he
berates himself, and he’s still not strong, you know; he’s never really been
strong since we left the city. So it’s all been up to us. And Jeweltongue is
here, day after day, every day.” “I’ve dreamt of you,” said Beauty. “I dreamt of Mr Whitehand—” “Yes,” said Jeweltongue. “We became engaged late in the
spring.” “And of Aubrey True word—” Lionheart said suddenly: “That day Molly was behaving like a
lunatic, as if she could see someone who wasn’t there, was that you? When
Aubrey first told me he knew I—’’ “Yes,” said Beauty. “And tonight—was it tonight?—I—” “I saw you,” said Jeweltongue. “I saw you, sitting in
Mrs Oldhouse’s parlour.” “But what about Jack’s story? He means us harm,
if—Lionheart, 1 dreamt of a day when you told Jeweltongue and Father about
Aubrey, but that you didn’t dare, because of the curse, because of the stories
people were telling about my going away .. . because of Jack—” It was Lionheart’s turn to blush. She stood up abruptly and
went to refill the kettle. “I—I’m brave enough about some things. Not about
others. When we had to leave the city, I thought I’d die. Not for grief, or
even anger, but more from a kind of... amazement that the world could be so
unlike what I had thought. And then. . . fear. Fear for all those things I
didn’t know. I would get up in the morning and look at my petticoats, and my
stockings, and my shoes, and my dress, and I didn’t know which one to put on
first. or whether my shoes went on my feet or my head. I would decide they went
on my feet from the shape. How could I live when I knew nothing?” “Darling heart, we al! felt like that.” said Jeweltongue. “And people like Jack... terrify me,” continued Lion-heart,
as if she had not heard. “It’s why J hated your salons so much, Jeweltongue.
I’d rather face a rogue horse any day. Horses are honest. You know where you are
with horses,” “You know where you are with people like Jack True-word,”
said Jeweltongue. “You are in the presence of form without substance, sound
without meaning, clatter without articulation.” “Stop it,” said Lionheart. “If you mean dog droppings and
green slime, say it.” “Wait,” said Beauty. “Jeweltongue, you were frightened tonight.
I saw it.” “Was I? Yes, I suppose I was,” said Jeweltongue. “You see,
since you went away ... anything to do with magic, I cannot help wondering if
it has anything to do with you. I keep wanting to know more about spells and
enchantments, but I don’t want to know, for fear what I learn will be worse
than not knowing. But there is no magic in Longchance; there is no way to ask
tactfully, there is no way to ask for comfort, . . and what made it worse, although
not the way you mean, is that it’s true Longchance has been whispering little
tales about your going away, dear, but they’re hopeful—and embarrassed—little
tales. You see, Longchance has never quite given up the idea you’re a
greenwitch, because the roses bloomed for you, and while the last green-witch
disappeared mysteriously too, the roses stopped blooming when she went, and
we’ve made no secret of it that we’ve had a garden full of roses this year too. “And then, as Lionheart says, we’ve been so determinedly
bright and sunny about your absence, everyone positively has to squint from the
glare when they look at us, although I know my poor Whitehand had guessed there
was something about something I wasn’t telling him.... And meanwhile I have
kept looking at your roses, and they look so—so happy, if one can say that
about flowers, I’ve wanted so to believe they were telling me—” “Us,” said Lionheart. “—what we wanted—badly wanted—to know. But then Mrs
Oldhouse’s story, out of nowhere, and with the storm pounding away at us like a
monster yelling for our lives, and then Jack corning in, wet as a water spirit,
and threatening us with that curse I’ve been worrying about for years—’’ “Then you did know,” said Beauty. “After all the talking-to you gave me the day I told you
about Aubrey!” interrupted Lionheart in high dudgeon, and then began to laugh.
“So much for no secrets between sisters!” She had paused, tea-kettle in hand, beside the jam jar
containing the dark red rose. Its first petal had already fallen; she picked it
up, rubbing it gently between her fingers for the deliciously silken feel, as
she hung the kettle over the fire again. “Oh, Beauty, won’t you please tell us
what has been happening to you? I really must go off again—as it is, I’ll be
back after dawn and will have to tell Mr Horsewise something—and I will explode
of curiosity if you don’t. Start with Fourpaws. Why is she called Fourpaws?’’ “The Beast named her. She is the only creature—was the only
creature—who would live in the palace with him, and he said she must be a
sorcerer in her own country, and he would not imbalance the delicate network of
her powers by giving her a powerful name when she has done him the great
kindness of breaking the loneliness of his house.” And there rose up in her the
memory of the evenings they sat together in the great dark dining-hall, and she
did not remember the pressing shadows, the imprisoning silence, but the
companionship of the Beast, and Fourpaws, purring, on her lap. There was a silence, as Jeweltongue and Lionheart tried to adjust
to this other sort of Beast than the one they had heard about from their
father. There was tremendous relief in this new idea of a thoughtful, wistful
Beast, but there was tremendous bewilderment too. “Will you tell us about the
Beast?” said Jeweltongue timidly. “Surely he is a sorcerer too?” “Oh no,” Beauty heard herself saying immediately. “I—I don’t
know why I said that. I had assumed that he was, as you did, but lately, as I
have grown to know him better. ..” She fell silent, and in the silence Lionheart watched the
second petal fall from the dark red rose. Jeweltongue said: “Surely there is some boundary to the magic—how
long to pay the debt of one blooming rose in the middle of winter? Isn’t seven
months enough?” Again Beauty heard her own voice answer, speaking almost as
quietly as a rose-petal falling: “He told me he cannot—that he never could—hold
me against my will,” She knew the words were true as soon as they were out of
her mouth, but where had they come from? And why could she not remember? Why couldn’t she remember how she had left the Beast’s palace
and come to Rose Cottage? Jeweltongue laughed, a laugh like a child’s bubbling up from
somewhere beneath her heart. “But then you can stay with us! I can finally give
poor Whitehand a day! He has been very good, although—since I had not told him
the truth—he has been puzzled at why my sister is quite so unspecific about
when she might be able to return, only long enough to attend a wedding, I know
it has occurred to him that I have not meant to marry him at all. but I do! Oh,
I do! But I could not be married without your being here. Beauty, or. at
the very, very, very least, knowing that you were well. There now, Lionheart,
you can put Aubrey out of his misery too.” “We were planning on a double wedding, just like—not at all
like—we were going to do in the city many years ago,” said Lionheart. “Not at all like.” said Jeweltongue quickly, with a
touch of her old acidity. “Once you finally overcame your peculiar
terrors—rogue horses, indeed! It is as well I do not know the daily facts of
your life, or I should not sleep for worrying!—and gave your hand to poor Aubrey.” Beauty leant over to touch Lionheart’s knee. “Then you have
told him yes? And that is all well? What of Mr Horsewise?” Lionheart smiled reminiscently. “Mr Horsewise was appalled
for about two and a half heartbeats, and then it occurred to him that he’s been
fighting off a suspicion about me almost since I’d come to work for him, and he
hadn’t wanted to know because if he knew the wrong thing, he might lose me, and
... well...” “Go on,” said Jeweltongue. Lionheart muttered something inaudible,
and Jeweltongue laughed her merry, bubbling laugh again, “Mr Horsewise dotes on
her! She is the finest ‘lad’ he’s ever had, you see, and now he not only won’t
lose her but is positively obliged to promote her, because Aubrey is going to
take the horse end of affairs at the Hall on and run it as a business, which is
deeply offensive to Jack, of course, but Aubrey worked it out with his father
so that Jack can’t touch it, although—” “Although we’re going to have to work like slaves to make a
success of it,” finished Lionheart. “As soon as the sun is up, I’ll measure you for your
wedding-dress,” said Jeweltongue, “that is, the dress you will wear to our
wedding.” Her happiness faltered for a moment, for she would have liked it to
be a triple wedding, but now that Beauty was home again, surely... “You won’t
be nearly as hard to please as Lionheart, I’m sure. Oh, I’m so glad! What
colour, do you think? Gold? Green? Blue? Darling, what is it?” “Oh—my Beast. He is my friend, you see—” “‘Your friend?” bellowed Lionheart. “Your gaoler,
your kidnapper, and you have told us that he has admitted he could not keep you
in the first place, so he is a liar and a trickster as well—’’ “Oh no, no,” said Beauty in great distress. “You do not understand
at all. I will go hack to visit him. I take care of his roses!” “You have roses enough to care for here!” said Lion-heart. Jeweltongue laid her hand on Beauty’s. “If the Beast is your
friend, then we must—we must learn that. But it is hard for us, just now, at
the beginning, especially when we haven’t—haven’t quite known if we had lost
you entirely.” “He never—” began Beauty. “He always—” Jeweltongue smiled. “I believe you. Go on. We’re listening.”
She flicked a quelling look at the more volatile Lion-heart, but Lionheart was
dreamily watching something behind her and Beauty’s heads. She turned to see; another
petal wavered and fell from the dark red rose, and then, after the merest
breath of a pause, a whole gust of petals, “He is—he is—oh, I don’t know how to describe him!” said
Beauty. “He is very tall, and very wide, and very hairy; he is a Beast, just as
he is named. He eats apples in two bites, including the cores. But he is—that
is not what he is like.” “What is he like then?” Jeweltongue prompted. “He is gentle and kind. He loves roses. He loves roses best
of all, but his were dying; the only one still blooming was the one from
Father’s breakfast table. Of course, when I knew—when I found—I had to rescue
him—help them—rescue them—him. He walks on the roof every night, looking at the
stars. On the roof he has drawn the most beautiful map of the sky. ...” Beauty
was weeping as she talked. “My dear,” said Jeweltongue, gently turning her sister’s
face towards her. “Why do you weep?” “Every night, after supper, he asks me to marry him,” said Beauty,
and she knew she spoke the truth, that it was no mirage of memory, and then she
was weeping so passionately she could speak no more. Jeweltongue put her arms round her and rocked her back and
forth as if she were a little child. “Well—and do you wish to marry him?” Beauty wept a little longer, and slowly her tears stopped,
and she looked up. Jeweltongue looked gravely back at her. “He is—he is very
great, and grand, and ... he is a Beast.” “Yes, very large, very hairy, you said. Great and grand—foo.
Are you afraid of him?” “Afraid of him? Oh, no!” “Well then, if he were an ordinary man, instead of a Beast,
and my darling younger sister burst into tears immediately after telling me he
had asked her to marry him, I would advise her that it is perfectly obvious
that she should say yes.” “But—” “He is very large and very hairy, and your introduction to
each other was ... awkward, and first impressions are so important. Very well.
What is it you dislike? That he eats apples in two bites, including the cores?” Beauty laughed through the last of her tears. “No, no!
Although in an ordinary garden, I should want the cores for my compost heap.” Lionheart groaned. “You only ever think of one thing! Your
roses!” Beauty flashed back: “You only ever think of one thing! Your
horses!” Jeweltongue said, “Do you remember Pansy’s story—many years
ago, when we were still quite little, before Mamma died—of the princess who
married the Phoenix?” “Yes,” murmured Beauty. “I remember.” “It is very odd,” said Lionheart. “Jeweltongue, d’you remember
the way the rose Father brought lasted what seemed like nearly forever? It
wasn’t just that it was the middle of winter, was it? Look, the last petal is
already falling from the rose Beauty brought with her.” If you decide you do wish to see me again, pall another
petal and set it again in your mouth, and you will at once be here. But if you
wait till all the petals have dropped, it will be too late; once they have
loosed themselves from the flower, they can no longer return you here, and
besides, when the last of them falls, I will die. “The last petal!” cried Beauty, her last conversation with
the Beast suddenly and terribly recalled to her mind, and she threw herself to
her feet, knocking painfully into Jeweltongue, spilling Teacosy, who gave a
little yip of surprise. to the floor, spinning in the direction Lionheart was
looking, reaching for the forgotten rose there in its humble jam jar, reaching
for the last petal, her hand darting out faster than her mind could direct it,
but that last petal fell from its flower head before her fingers touched it,
dropping softly into her palm, and she stared at it in horror, “Oh no,” she
whispered. “Oh no.’* “Darling, what is it?” said Jeweltongue. “What is it about the last petal?” said Lionheart. “What enchantment
does it hold that frightens you so?” But Beauty did not hear them. She looked up from the last
petal in her hand, sightlessly staring at her sisters, When the last of them
falls, I will die. “Do you remember,” she said, “when Father brought that
first rose home, I cut two pieces from its stem and planted them, hoping they
would strike. Did they? Did they? Oh, please tell me at least one of them did!” Jeweltongue put a hand to her face. “I—I’m not sure. I don’t
remember. I—I am not much of a gardener, dear, dear Beauty. Please try to
forgive me,” Beauty turned and fled into the rear garden. She was so distraught
by terror and grief she could not remember where she had put the two stem
cuttings; she cursed herself for not telling Jeweltongue to tend them
particularly, for cuttings are very vulnerable as they struggle to produce
their first roots, but she cursed herself more for not remembering—until it was
too late—for not watching her rose, the Beast’s rose, that he had given her
last of all. And she looked at the petal in the palm of her hand and saw the
smear of blood there, from clasping the stem of that rose too tightly. How
could she not have remembered? She thought of the endless wall of the palace, the first
time she had tried to follow it to the corner of the courtyard, to see what lay
behind the glasshouse. She thought of the first evening she mounted the spiral
staircase, the basket she had almost not found, and the storm that had come
from nowhere, as soon as she touched the weather vane. But she had turned the corner, arrived at the top of the
staircase, found the basket, and descended from the ladder. The Beast had
carried her up the stair and guarded her down the ladder. He would not be dead;
she would not allow it. She had sent butterflies and bats and hedgehogs and
toads into the palace gardens, she had welcomed kittens (and one spider) into
the palace when the Beast himself had said no creature would live on his lands.
The unicorn had come to her, and the roses bloomed. She would not let him die. She would not let him die. Her resolution faltered. As soon
as her sisters had told her she had been seven months away, she should have
remembered, she should have thought at once to look at the rose. It did not
matter what her father’s rose had done; she knew the enchantment that held her
Beast and his roses had changed, for she had changed it. And now she was
destroying everything when the Beast had trusted her. When the Beast had loved
her. Blindly she went down the centre path of the garden towards
the great riotous tangle at its heart; the roses there had gone over from their
full midsummer flush, hut there were still a few heavy flower heads bowing
their branches with their weight. She was vaguely aware, as her eyes began to
focus on what lay round her, that the night’s darkness was graying towards
morning. Her gaze settled on the statue within that centre bed, the statue of a
beast she had never been able to name; and it was a beast like her Beast, and
she remembered him on his knees in the glasshouse, drenched by rain, looking up
at her, smiling. But the statue was no longer standing, as it had when she last
stood in Rose Cottage’s garden. It was lying, curled up on its side, one
forelimb over its head, looking lost, and hopeless, and as if it only waited to
die, “You cannot die,” said Beauty. She heard the first bird heralding the dawn; two notes, then
silence. “Tell me/’ she said lo the poor lost Beast, held close by the thorny
tangled weave of rose stems, where he could not have stirred even had he wanted
to. “Tell me where your rose grows! It must have struck! I say it must
have struck! I am coming back to you, do you hear me? Help me! As you made a
mistake when you brought me to you, so I have made a mistake now! And as I released
you from yours, release me now from mine!’” Lord Goodman died far me today,
I’ll die for him tomorrow. A second bird called. Beauty took a deep breath, trying not
to begin crying yet again. I have done nothing but weep this evening, she
thought. If I had wept less and thought more, 1 would not be—and then the tears
came very close indeed, and she had to hold her breath altogether to keep them
in. She let her breath out finally and stood quietly, feeling
her shoulders slump, listening to a third and fourth and fifth bird. I must
bring the birds back to the Beast’s garden too, she thought idly; I want to
hear them singing when we stand in the orchard together.... And then there was
a scent on the air she remembered, a scent unique to itself, threading its way through
all the other rose scents, heavy in the dew of predawn, and she turned and
walked down the crosspath to the edge of a little side bed, still half invisible
in the tentative light of early dawn. And there were two tiny, rather weakly
bushes, but they were both alive, and by next season they would be growing
strongly. One of them was wisely conserving all its strength for growing roots
and leaves: the other one held one black-red bud, much smaller than the buds of
its parent bush and barely open, open just enough for its first wisp of perfume
to have escaped. She knelt by it slowly and touched it with the hand that still
held the last petal from the dead flower, and as she knelt, she heard her
sisters come up behind her. She did not rise, but she turned her head to look at them.
“Give me your blessing, please,” she said, “and know that I will come back to
you when I can. But I must go back to my Beast just now, for he needs me most.
Jeweltongue, give your Mr Whitehand his day, and let Aubrey Trueword and
Lionheart share it, and have your wedding, and know that I bless you in it,
wherever I am. Tell Father I love him, and 1 am sorry to have missed this
meeting with him. “And—and most especially know that I love you and that it is
true that our hearts beat in one another’s breasts.” And for the first time in
what felt like years, her hand touched the little embroidered heart that
Jeweltongue had made her, on her leaving for the Beast’s palace the first time,
but she did not draw it out from beneath her shift, and it was only then that
she realised she was wearing the dressing-gown Jeweltongue had made for her.
only last winter, that she had refused to take with her last spring. It smelt
of washing day and faintly of dust, and she knew, even as she had known at her
leaving, that neither of her sisters would have used it for the sorrow of her
going. She turned back to look at the little rose; it was half open
now, and one of its outermost petals was trying to curl back. free from its
sisters. “And... feed these two little bushes! Give them a few of the oldest,
rottenest. shrivelledest scrapings from the back of the manure heap, just a
few, not too many—that is what they like. Even if you haven’t time to build a
compost heap, you can do that. Cuttings are very tender. They must be
encouraged, not bullied, into growing.” She seized the petal that was
separating itself from the others and gave it a gentle tug; it came free in her
hand, and she set it in her mouth. Chapter 14She had remembered nothing of her earlier journey from the
Beast’s glasshouse to the hearth-rug in Rose Cottage, but after she finished
speaking to her sisters and set another rose-petal in her mouth, she seemed to
fall into a dream, or rather into her old nightmare dream, when she was walking
down a series of long dark corridors with a monster waiting for her at the end
of all. And sometimes she hurried, for pity of the poor monster, and sometimes
she tarried, for fear of it; but as she walked, and ran, and walked again, her
anxiety rose and rose and rose till she no longer knew if she felt frightened
or pitying and compassionate, only that there was this great humming something
possessing her mind and her body and her spirit. And she felt less and less
able to defy it, to think her own thoughts, to wrench her own will free of it,
to set down one foot after another to her own direction, and not because she
was driven to do so. “My Beast,” she murmured, but her voice made no sound. She
put her hands to her throat and spoke again: “My Beast. I seek for my Beast,
and I know him, and he is no monster.” But though she felt her throat vibrate
with her voice, she could not hear her words; and then she touched one hand to
its opposite forearm, and there too was a vibration such as she had felt in her
throat; and now she felt it through the soles of her bare feet, an itchy,
fretful, maddening sensation. She ran again, and this time she ran for a long way, till
she had to stop for weariness. But when she stopped, she stood restlessly,
lifting first one foot and then the other, disliking the contact with the
thrumming floor; and she could no longer say if the darkness in her eyes was
from exhaustion or the dimness of the corridors she ran down. This will not do, she thought, and she sat down on the floor
with her back against one wall, and closed her eyes, and tucked her feet under
the hem of her dressing-gown, and wrapped the dressing-gown as close as she
could round all of her, and she tried to think. Her legs were trembling from
the long run they had just had, but she could feel the humming through her seat
bones, though there was no audible sound in her cars, only the drumming of
blood and fear. She thought of trying to speak aloud again, but then she
thought: No. I have tried that experiment, and I know its result. I will not
repeat it, over and over, to frighten myself again and again, till I am too
frightened to do anything at all. I must find my Beast and tell him ... tell
him ... I must find him. She opened her eyes and looked both ways up and down the corridor,
and all she could see in either direction was more corridor, the dull figures
of its wallpaper, the occasional loom of furniture or ornament, and the
driblets of light from the sconces. There were no windows and no doors. The hum
she felt through her seat bones, through her back, through her entire body
seemed suddenly both fiendish and triumphant, and she got to her feet again
abruptly. “No,” she said, or rather, her mouth shaped die word, but she gave no
voice to it that she would not be able to hear. “No.” And silently in her mind
she said: You will not have me so easily, nor will you have him. She turned round and started to walk back down the corridor
she had come up. No! No! No! shrieked ... something. Some soundless
subvibration of the hum that filled the corridor demanded that she turn round;
but she had made her choice, and now she put one slow, heavy foot down after
the other by her own will and of her own choice, and while each footstep was
very hard, dragged as it was in the opposite direction, it was also a victory
for her, and the hum changed its inaudible note and became fury. She closed her eyes against it. She could not see it any
more than she could hear it, but in this darkness of her own choosing she could
hug herself round with her own thoughts, her own being, her own knowledge of
her self and of her existence, as she hugged herself round with the
dressing-gown her sister had made for her. She had none of her outer senses
left: Blindness she had chosen, hearing and touch were deadened by the
noiseless vibration, and her mouth was full of the flavor and scent of the
rose-petal. She put one hand to her lips, touched the fingers with her tongue;
here she felt no alien vibration, only the faint stir of her breath against her
own skin. She walked forward, expecting at any moment to bump into a
wall, but she did not. And as she walked, hearing nothing but the silent
pressure of not-hearing, she thought she began to hear some faint echo, as of
wind, or footsteps in a cavern; and she listened, hopefully, and as she
listened, she caught a faint smell—like that of damp earth—and her toes struck
against something that was neither planed wood nor tile nor carpet fibre, and
in astonishment she opened her eyes. She stood in complete darkness. When her eyes opened, and
she still could not see, she had stopped automatically. She blinked several
times, waiting for her sight to clear, but the darkness remained. She held a
hand up before her face and could see it no more than she had been able to hear
her voice a little while before, and a little “Oh!” escaped her lips without
her meaning it to and... she heard it. I am returned one while another is taken
from me, she thought. Well. She put her hands out on either side of her and felt rough
crumbly wall with her right; she moved a little to her left and found a similar
wall there. She faced left and ran her hands over the wall, and a few little
earth crumbs fell away from her touch, and she realised she was walking on bare
earth, and there was grit between her toes. Her feet were still half numb from
the thrum of the corridor, and inclined to curl involuntarily away from what
they stood on, without recognising that the irritation was gone. She let her
hands climb upwards and found the earth corridor was quite low, and over her
head she felt twining, irregularly hairy surfaces that she thought—and suddenly
hoped—might be the roots of trees. She began to walk forward again, in the direction she had
been going, with her hands held out in front of her. She was walking much more
slowly now, not from the effort of struggling against the intangible will that
had wished her to turn round but from a simpler fear of the dark, of blindness
without choice. She closed her eyes again, because she was making her head ache
by straining to see when she could not; the darkness seemed a little less oppressive
with her eyes shut, as the hum had been a little more bearable when she did not
try to speak. But her heart had risen with that first smell of earth, and
it beat more strongly now that there was no foreign vibration trying to force
it to follow some other rhythm; and in her mind she was trying not to let a
certain idea form itself too clearly, in dread of disappointment. Her outstretched hands touched a smooth surface. She stopped,
both because she had to and because that hopeful idea would no longer be
suppressed. She ran her hands quickly over the surface that blocked her way,
found its squared edges, like a door strangely set in the end of this corridor
of raw earth, and her heart beat very quickly indeed. Very well, it was a door,
but could she open it? And where would she be if she could and did? A tiny depression halfway down the left-hand edge, only
about the size of a fingertip, with a tiny finger-curved latch or peg within
it, as if the hole were a keyhole and a finger the key; and there was a small
click, and she felt the door give. She pushed it and saw sunlight outlining the
crack of its opening, and a few tears fell from her dark-strained eyes, and she
stepped out from behind the summer tapestry into her rooms in the Beast’s
palace. Her strength returned to her in a rush at the sight of her
rooms; but she hesitated, and turned away from her first impulse, and instead
allowed herself a moment to stand on her little balcony and look round her. The
glasshouse twinkled in the late-afternoon sun; but for the first time the sight
of it could not lift her heart, and her only thought was to wonder what day it
was and how long she had been gone. Then she ran out into the chamber of the star and found all
the doors open, and she chose one and ran through it, running down the twisting
corridor towards the door into the courtyard, to the glasshouse, where she had
left die Beast. But the corridor did not lead her there. It led her to other
corridors, lo rooms, halls, staircases, antechambers, and more corridors, more
and more doors to choose, one over another, always in hopes that the door she
sought lay just beyond. All the doors she saw were already open, but she would
not have trusted any that chose themselves for her. Late afternoon gave way to twilight; it would be full dark
soon. She plodded on. She began to wonder if she were merely going round and
round the huge palace square, if the occasional apparently pointless half
flights of stairs up or down were carrying her unaware over the carriage-ways
to the wild wood and the orchard, though these came at no regular intervals;
nor did any stairs seem to hold any relationship to any other stairs. She was
increasingly oppressed by the vastness of the palace and the slightness of her
own presence in it, and she recalled the evil hum of the dream corridor
changing to a note of triumph; but she was near the end of her final strength
now and of her hopes. One knee and one ankle throbbed as if bruised, and
vaguely she remembered, as if it had happened in another life, that she had
banged herself painfully against the ladder when the wind had seized her from
beneath the Beast’s sheltering arm. Once she paused in a corridor that seemed familiar—but so
many of them seemed familiar—paused by what appeared to be a stain on the
carpel. There were never stains on the carpet in the Beast’s palace, any more
than there were marks on the wallpaper, smudges on the furniture, or chips off
the statues. The carpet here was crimson, solid crimson, and unfigured, which
was perhaps how the stain had caught her eye; it was not very large, much
nearer one edge of the carpet than the other, and looked a little like a
three-petalled flower or the first unfurling of a rose-bud. The stain was
brown, perhaps a rusty brown, but difficult to tell against the crimson of the
carpet. It might have been blood. She knelt and touched it gently, not knowing
why she did so, and opened her right palm and looked again at the three small
scratches there left by the Beast’s rose. She was now standing in a huge room with windows on opposite
walls. She had been mindful heretofore of the Beast’s advice not to look
directly out any windows, and the wearier she became, the more careful she had
been not to look round her unless she was standing still. She thought now that
she would risk looking out a window—because she could think of nothing else to
try. At least she could discover on which side lay the courtyard, after the palace’s
maze of corridors and smaller rooms which threw windows at her from unexpected
directions. The courtyard had to be on one side or the other, whether the outer
wall faced garden, orchard, or wild wood, and perhaps, at least before the
palace confused her utterly again, she could concentrate on that courtyard
wall. Perhaps the door to it now lay hidden behind some drapery or arras, like
the door to the earth corridor in her rooms, invisible behind the summer
tapestry. Perhaps, before the palace lost her again, she would be able to turn
round, and cling to that courtyard wait, and search every finger’s-breadth till
she found what she was looking for. She stood still, and spread her feet a little, and put her
hand on a torchere to steady herself, and looked towards a window. But her eyes
shied away from looking out and paused on the curtain instead. Her gaze traced
the sweep of drapery, which led back towards the wall, away from the dangerous
window. There was a small square table tucked against the curtain’s outer edge. Hadn’t she just seen—in the room before this one, or the
room before that, or perhaps even the room before that one, which had been,
hadn’t it, tucked in what should have been a niche between the angled walls of
two other rooms, except that there was not space enough for it to have existed
at all—hadn’t she just seen that little end table, that very table, with its
checkerboard of marble squares of different colours inlaid in its ebony
surface? And hadn’t it, in that room that could not have been where it was,
stood next to just that same painting of that handsome, haughty young man? He
was wearing a deep blue robe and a large soft hat. that hung down towards his
shoulder, with a feather that curved from its crown elegantly beneath his chin,
and over his other shoulder a bird face stared with angry, intelligent eyes
above its great curved beak. She did not like the young man’s face. It was not
the face of a man who would help you if you were in trouble. She turned her eyes with a jerk and looked directly out the
window next to him and saw the wild wood just beyond the panes, a wind blew,
and the branches nodded to her like bony flapping hands. She let go her torchere and walked across the room to be
nearer the windows on the other side. She found another torchere and planted
herself beside it, holding on its stem rather too tightly with one hand. There
was another familiar painting near this window, of a lady who held a pug dog in
one hand and a fan in the other, and her discarded needlework lay on the arm of
her chair. She was smiling. It was not at all a nice smile. The wild wood pressed against this window too. Beauty closed her eyes. She thrust her tongue against the
roof of her mouth, but the rose-petal had dissolved long ago. She opened her
eyes again and gave a brief glance to the torchere she still clung to. It had
been brass, with six curving arms when she had first touched it; the upright
where her hand rested was smooth, but the six arms each held three candles, and
each candle rose from a waterlily, and each arm was made as of three waterlily
stems wound together, and its base, below the upright, was wide and shallow,
like waterlily leaves floating in a small pond. The smooth brass upright remained,
but she now clutched a torchere whose crown held eight plain upright
candlesticks bound in silver, and whose base was a solid conic pedestal of
brass laid round with silver bands. She let go of it as if it had produced teeth and bitten her.
She took a step away from it, and turned, and looked behind her, towards the
portrait of the young man in blue. He looked older now, and his posture, proud
and haughty before, was now magisterial, the supple pose of known and proven
power. His fingers were slightly curled, and the palms shimmered, as if he held
sorcery there. His eyes were staring into hers, and for a moment she felt a
thrum in the floor beneath her feet, felt her memory beginning to grow dark,
like a landscape under a storm cloud. She jerked her eyes free of his and saw
that the bird that stood behind his shoulder had half spread its wings and that
it was as tall as a man. Beauty walked to the nearest window, which lay beside the
lady with the pug dog, threw up its sash, climbed through the narrow gap, and
slid down the outside wall. Even the palace’s ground floor, where she had been,
was built up high above the real ground, and she had to hang by her fingers and
finally let go without knowing where her feet would strike. She landed heavily,
her injured knee buckled, and because she was so tired, she fell. She lay still for a moment, almost tempted not to move. But
the ground was cold and hard, and her urgency was still on her. She stirred,
with an effort came to her elbows, and looked round. A great tangle of wild
wood rose all round her. She looked up, at the building she had just fled; she
had no way back. The white stone gleamed vaguely in the light of the rising
moon, scattered by leaf shadow. She could not feel the wind from where she lay
upon the ground, but she could hear it singing through the trees. She refused
to hear if it sang words; she was sure she would not like them. Momentarily she put her head down on her forearms and felt
despair waiting outside the weakening barrier of her resolve. She was tireder
than she could ever remember being, tireder even than she had been during the
first days of their father’s business ruin, before she found the paper telling
them of Rose Cottage, and giving them something—whatever it would prove to
be—to make their way towards. She looked up again. She had fallen in a gap between trees;
there was not so much of it even to be called a small clearing. Her
dressing-gown had been wrenched open by her fall, and small sharp edges of
forest floor clutter dug at her through her thin shift. She sat up and crept a
little way to lean her back against a tree; she was curiously loth to touch the
palace wall again. She did not sit long; she did not dare, for she was too
tired—and she did not like the sound the wind made. It no longer sounded like
singing; it sounded like the far-off baying of wolves. She pulled herself to
her feet, hand over hand, up the bole of the tree, faced away from the palace,
and began to force herself through the low prickly branches of the trees. There was no path. She was lost again as soon as she had pushed
her way through the first trees, as soon as she could no longer see the white
wall of the Beast’s palace behind her. She probably did not go very far. She was too tired to go
very much farther, and even driving herself to expend her last strength was
only barely keeping her moving through this harsh, intractable undergrowth.
Slender, whippy twigs slashed at her face, hooked the collar of her
dressing-gown, and snatched at the silk cord round her neck. She stumbled again
and pitched forward into an unexpected clearing. As she turned her head,
protecting her face from the ground that had struck up at her with such
alarming speed, she caught a gleam of motion in the corner of her eye. On all fours, her foot still trapped by die root which had
thrown her, she looked in that direction. She just saw the unicorn turning away
from the heap on die ground it had been guarding; she just saw the iridescent
gleam of its long horn before it disappeared into the trees on the far side of
the bonfire giade. She could see, now, beyond the heap on the ground, a glitter
of moonlight telling her where the carriage-way was. She worked her ankle loose but had no strength to rise. She
crept forward towards the heap on the ground, half knowing what she would find.
It was the Beast. He lay quietly on his side, one arm flung straight out above
his head, and his head rested on it. The fingers were softly curled; his face,
as much as she could see of it, was peaceful. His other hand held something to
his breast. His beautiful clothes were gone as if torn from him; he wore only
some still-damp shreds of his shirt, the rags of his trunk-hose, and one shoe. She crept slowly round him, came to a halt just by that hand
against his breast; his knees were slightly drawn up, so his body was curved
like the crescent moon overhead. She reached out to touch his hand, and a rose,
so dark in moon—and starlight as to look black, fell to the ground, the flower
head disintegrating into a scatter of petals flung across the little space
between the Beast and Beauty; the outliers rode up the edge of Beauty’s
dressing-gown skirts, like the crest of a breaking wave. She took his hand, and
for a moment she thought he was already dead, for it lay heavy and motionless
in hers, although it was still warm. And then, as she held and stroked it, she
felt the fingers move and take hold of hers, and she heard him sigh. “Oh, Beast,” she said, and her voice was rough and husky, as
if her throat were sore from all the gasping breaths she had taken over all
this long day and all the tears she had shed. “Oh, Beast, my Beast, don’t die.
I have come back to you. I love you, and I want to marry you.” There was a noise like a thunderclap, and the ground shook,
as if the lightning bolt it heralded had struck within the glen where they lay.
She shrank back against the Beast’s body, and his arm reached up and drew her
down next to him, and they both pressed themselves against the earth as the
storm broke over their heads, and yet an instant before the sky had been clear.
There was a crying in Beauty’s ears as of wind and wolves and birds of prey. But the Beast’s arms were round her, and they were both alive,
and she would not be afraid. She thought, This is the baying of wicked magic,
but we have won. I know we have won. It can do nothing to us now but howl And
she slid her arm under the Beast’s neck and held him close. It will be over
soon, and I will tell the Beast again that I wish to marry him, for I am not
sure that he heard. A voice in her ear, or in her mind, for surely the wind-wolves’
howling was too loud for any real voice to be heard, said to her: “That is not
quite the truth, my dear, that you—we—have won. I would that it were, but I—I
have had my hands full, even keeping a few little doors open—I and my moon—and
starlight friends—and that is as much as we have done, and it has grown harder,
over the years, for the Beast’s poor heart was dying, till you came.... I have
put a single red rose on every lost traveller’s breakfast table here, since
your Beast’s exile began, but it was your father who was first moved to pity
his great and terrible host. Ah! Strix would hate it if he knew how his
cleverness—and his hatred—had worked out at last! But I am afraid that enough
of him remains in the sorceries that still hold and hobble us that it is your
very words now of victory, and, more dangerous yet, of love, that bring the
final cataclysm towards us. “Beauty, you must choose for the both of you, you and the
Beast, and he cannot help you, and I can only help you a very little. I am only
an old woman with dirt on my hands, and I will tell you, my dear, I am glad to
be laying this responsibility down at last, for it has been a long and weary
one, though it is much of my own doing that has made it so. “So, my dear, listen to me now. You may return your Beast to
what he was before, if you wish. He was a good and a wise man then, and he will
have you with him, and you will keep him mindful of the world outside his
studies. He had great wealth and influence, you know, and you will have that
wealth and influence again, and you will be able to do great good with it, and
your names will be spoken in many lands, and you may raise your sisters and
your father to greatness with you. And—have I told you that your Beast was
beautiful? He was the most beautiful man I have ever seen, and I have seen many
men. “Or... you may take him back to Longchance, and be the
sister of the baker and the squire’s horse-coper son, and daughter of the man
who tots up sums for anyone who hires him, and make your Beast the same, “You choose.” Beauty was silent, her face pressed against the Beast’s
shaggy throat, and the wind pouring over them like a river in flood. “I think
you are not telling me all of this story,” she said at last, tentatively, and
the voice laughed. “You are right, but I am constrained by the. . . the
strength of Strix’s ancient malice, that entangles us all here. My dear, you
may ask me questions, and I will answer what I may, but you have . . . released
some great energies when you turned and walked the wrong way down that
corridor, and even my moon—and starlight friends will not be able to maze the
wind-wolves for long, and you must be gone from here before they come. “Ask, then.” Beauty struggled with her weariness for questions to ask;
but her thoughts and suspicions were as vague as smoke, and as inarticulate.
She grasped at her memories of Mrs Oldhouse’s tale, and Jack Trueword’s; but
they wove themselves together like reed straw in a caner’s hands, and she could
no longer tell one from the other, nor what of either she believed. “How—how is
it that we are all held by this magic?” The voice seemed to sigh. “It is your right that you know
what I can tell you, and yet little of what I can tell you is what you would
wish to know, and what I can tell you most of I wish not to speak of at all—”
The voice laughed again, but it was a sad laugh. “That sounds like a spell
itself, does it not? “There is some truth in both the stories you heard about the
three sorcerers. Young Jack was right, by the way: The woman was only a
greenwitch, and no sorcerer, but she never called herself anything other than
what she was.” The voice went on more slowly, the words shaping themselves reluctantly,
hazy as images in a low grey bank of cloud; Beauty had to listen with all her
attention, half afraid the voice might become merely something she imagined. “I
have earned, as I say, my place in this magic, and that I have found more peace
in it than has our Beast is perhaps only that... well, 1 was old long ago, when
he was still young, and I have my moon—and starlight friends, and he—he had
sought perfection. He knew he would not attain it, but the striving towards it
was exhilarating, and he thought he might view it and know it existed. He did
not know that the viewing itself would bring him such trouble, and he has not
been able to forgive himself that he was not wise enough to handle mere mortal
trouble. “There were three of us—that is true. And the man who became
your Beast was my very good friend. “He was a great sorcerer. But he was not interested in the
usual sorts of power, and he called himself a philosopher. But it is not for
any human to learn the first and last secrets of the universe, as other men
have discovered before your Beast—before he was a Beast—did. You have heard the
legends, I imagine. But your Beast was a different sort of man, and the
Guardians of those first and last secrets whom he awoke were confused by him.
They, who were set there when the world began, had come to believe that any man
who came near enough to disturb their solitude can have got so far only through
greed and pride, and they therefore are free to eat him up, hair,
toenails. and all. But your Beast was not only greedy and prideful; he was also
kind and painstaking and responsible, and he knew that his weaknesses were
mortal and never pretended they were not. “The Guardians did not know what to do, and when they
reached out merely to block his way into the fortress they protected, and not
knowing that anything would come of it but that he could come no farther into
their domain, they touched him with their paws. And he, who had been a man,
became a Beast—though his heart remained a man’s heart. And there, I guess, is
where all the trouble came. “I believe the transformation was very painful. I did not
see him till after it was done. He knew what he had become, and he was, as I
said, a great sorcerer. He it was who hurled himself into this exile, before
any ordinary human saw him, and I fear be was right to believe that the sight
of him ... would be very difficult to bear. But when there is too much going on
at once, it is impossible to get one’s spells exactly right. His exile from the
human world was not absolute. Other sorcerers could still visit him. As, I
admit, could one green witch, though this had less to do with my magical skill
than with my friendship for him. “The story of the philosopher-sorcerer who had become a
Beast was soon told among all the magical practitioners at. this end of the
great world, and perhaps at all the other ends too. And I... grew alarmed at
the series of sorcerers who found ways to have speech with him, for it was not
merely speech they desired. They saw his transformation as a useful step on the
road—their road—to power, an alternative to being eaten up, hair, toenails, and
all. To be made into a Beast in exchange for power, power greater than any
sorcerer had yet possessed—it was a price they were eager to pay. I think some
of them felt that to be a Beast the sight of whom drove other men mad might not
be a price at all, “He would not tell them anything they wished to know, of
course. And the change had ... changed him, for he studied his philosophy no
more, and what he knows, or does not know, or knows no longer, he has said to
no one, not even me. And his life became a burden to him, for philosophy had
filled his heart. When the sorcerers grew angry and began to plot among
themselves, he could not be made to care; he would not listen to me when I told
him that they believed him to have won more, in that meeting with the
Guardians, than he had told, and was working some great magic in secret to
ensnare them all.” Again the voice broke off. “And then . . . one sorcerer came
to the Beast who was different from the others. The Beast was polite to him, as
he had been polite to them all, but this one was clever enough not to ask what
he wished to know, but to wait, and to watch, and ... I knew what he was. I
knew well enough. But I tell in love with him anyway. I was old even then, and
I have always been plain. “The story from this point is much like what you have heard.
There was a simulacrum, except I took my own heart to beat in her breast, for I
am only a greenwitch and could not do what I had done, and besides, I loved
him. And it is not true that the dying sorcerer struck at the Beast for his
betrayal; he struck at the Beast in fury, for vengeance; he had forgotten the
simulacrum entirely, had forgotten me. ... “The Beast had not used his sorcery, I believe, for many
years, and sorcery, Like any other skill, must be often used, if a skill it is
to remain. That too may help to explain why certain things came about as they
did. Well, he had little enough warning, but he wished to save Longchance, if
he could, and he threw his own strength into the destruction Strix had brought
down upon him. Longchance survived, in the shape you know, where the earth and
air and water are too restless for any magic to take root. And the weather
vane—and Mrs Oldhouse’s ghost—are what is left of my poor simulacrum, for she
had lived too long with a human heart to return herself completely to
rose-petals. And yet I think it may be she, with her half connections to both
worlds and to neither, who is the heart of the magic that let you enter here. “And the Beast himself survived. But he survived in what had
become a dungeon of solitude, where no living creature could come. The
simulacrum is a wisp and a weather vane and a breath of rose scent where there
are no roses, and I, now, could not visit him as 1 had done.” “Not solitude,” whispered Beauty. “For you are here, and so
is Fourpaws.” “He does not know about me,” the voice said, and there was
great sorrow in it. “He does not know, for he would have tried to stop me, and
in the beginning he would still have been strong enough to do so, like a man
blocking up mouse-holes. His strength has waned—it was only the last rose, was
it not?—for no human being can thrive in such solitude, not even with a cat
such as Fourpaws, and 1 have told you his heart is still a man’s. It is only because
he is what he is that he has lived so long—the man he was who became the Beast
he is.” “But my father—the other travellers—the butter and milk from
your cows, and from—and—and the orchard that chooses to bear its fruit all
year—’’ The voice tried to laugh. “His dungeon is not perfect, for
it is still mortal. There have always been gaps. He does not know I have
widened them, pegged them open, thrust stones in their frames so they cannot
blow shut.... I am an enterprising mouse. “And the orchard .. . Trees feel kindness just as animals
do, but they live slowly, and it takes longer than most humans live for a tree
to feel human kindness and respond to it. Trees think we humans are mostly
little, flashy creatures, rather the way we think of butterflies. But the Beast
has lived here long enough for the trees to learn to know him.” The voice paused and then went on, sadly, reluctantly. “Your
Beast also does not know that I... for a second time. nearly I—” The voice stopped, and began again: “I had once hoped for a
child, but I was not pretty enough, and my simulacrum could make love like a
woman, but she could not bear a child. Your mother looked as if she could have
been Strix’s daughter—or his great-granddaughter—I do not know. Perhaps she
was. It would explain why she was so interested in ... but I would not tell
her; it was then she reminded me too much of the man who had never been my
lover. “When she ran away from me. I never imagined she would marry
and have children, and I almost leant of you too late. The dream you have had
since you were very small... I am sorry, my dear. I would have spared you it if
I could have done.” “‘It was you, not my mother, the first night of my dream,”
said Beauty, with a sudden, grieving certainty, and the voice in answer sounded
sad and weary: “Yes—it was 1, and not your mother,’’ “It was you who gave us Rose Cottage,” said Beauty. “Yes—yes—that was I also. But listen to me. my dear. Listen.
It was none of my doing that a blizzard brought your father to this palace; I
am no weathercaster. That is sorcerer’s work, and I am only a greenwitch. And
still less was it I who stirred your father’s heart to pity, nor was it I who
gave him words to speak to the Beast which would bring you here. Nor have 1
anything to do with your own decision to come and then to stay. Nor, indeed,
could I have saved you from your first took into the Beast’s face, that first,
ordinary human glance since he had ceased to be an ordinary man. You had to
withstand that yourself. Bless your friend the salamander! But you see, what
little I could do, I have done, and I have told you all of it. “Your Beast’s heart came to you, my dear, to you and no
other, just as the animals have come to you, because you are what you Eire. Nor
would I ever ask.—nor tell—my moon—and starlight friends whom to greet. Do you
not know what the breath of a unicorn is worth?” In a gentler tone the voice continued: “I had been wandering
a long time when I came back to Longchance: my old cottage was very nearly a
ruin. But after your mother left—and especially when I discovered your
dreaming—I began to feel that there were too many sorrows in this world that
were by cause of my meddling and that 1 would be better off not in this world.
And I have grown very old; the moon—and starlight shines through me now almost
as it shines through my friends.” The voice fell silent, and Beauty thought the howling was
nearer. “And the curse?” she said, or thought, for she did not put the question
into words, but only felt it lying painfully in her mind. The voice laughed, and it was a grandmother’s laugh, amazed
and indulgent at the antics of the young. “It is no curse! It has never been a
curse! Children are more sensible than adults about many things; can you
suppose that generations of children would have used it as a skipping-rhyme if
it were a curse?1’ Slowly Beauty found the words for her final question: “You
said that if I chose that my Beast keep his wealth and influence, we should use
it for good and that our names should be spoken in many lands. How will our
names be spoken?” “Ah!” said the voice, and it sounded as light and merry as a
little girl’s. “That is the right question. Your names shall be spoken in fear
and in dread, for no single human being, nor even the wisest married pair, can
see the best way to dispense justice for people beyond their own ken.” “Then I choose Longchance, and the little goodnesses among
the people we know,” said Beauty. At that moment she opened her eyes, and she saw three unicorns
leap into the bonfire glade and turn, as if at bay, and she saw the wild wolves
leaping after them. And there was another shock and crash of thunder, but the
thunder seemed to crack into a thousand sharp echoes, and each of the echoes
was the scream of a falcon or of some great owl. But the lightning bolt was a bright blue, blue as sky on a
summer’s day, and it shattered as it struck, and the fragments whirled up and
became blue butterflies. The butterflies converged in great shimmering, radiant
clouds, and their wings flickered as they crowded together, and it was as if
they were tiny fractured prisms, instead of butterflies, throwing off sparks
of all the colours of the rainbow. But then they became butterflies again, and now there were
other colours among them, greens as well as blues, russets and golds and
scarlets, and they flew in great billows round the wolves. The wolves recoiled,
and shook their heads, and tried to duck under them, or dodge round them, and
some of the wolves stood on their hind legs and clawed at them with their
forefeet; but the butterflies danced round them, zealous as bees defending
their honey from a marauding bear. The wolves could not shake free of them, nor
see where the unicorns stood, and so the unicorns drove them from the clearing,
smacking them with the sides of their resplendent horns as a fencing-master
might smack an inattentive pupil with the side of his sword, pricking them
occasionally as a cowherd might prod his cows, but now prancing and bouncing as
if this were no more than a game, and so drove the wolves from the clearing,
trailing blue and green and russet and gold ribbons of butterflies. “Quickly,” gasped Beauty, and lugged at the Beast, but he
sat up slowly and groggily, moving like one who has long been ill. They would
dash through the carriage-way, Beauty thought, run for the glasshouse; she did
not believe any wolves would dare cross that threshold. But as she thought
this, more wolves leapt into the clearing, but they came from the carriage-way,
and Beauty’s hands froze on the Beast’s shoulder, as she stooped beside him,
trying to steady his attempts to rise to his feet. There was a brief soundless whirr just past her face, and a
soft plop against her bent thighs. “Oh, bat, bat, do you know where we can go?”
she said, and knelt, to give it a lap. The bat folded its wings together and
made a funny awkward hop-hop-hop, and then it was in the air, and she looked
up, and there were many bats, more and more bats, streaming through the trees
like wind, and she saw which way they flew. The Beast was on his feet at last,
and she held his arm, felt him sway and check himself, sway and check again.
“This way,” she said, and drew him gently after her. There were so many bats now, they surged past them like a
river of darkness, and she could no longer see the wolves or the unicorns or
the trees round the clearing. And then there was a smell of earth in her
nostrils, and she put out her free hand, and felt the crumbly earth wall of the
tunnel, and put her hand over her head, but could find no tree roots, It is
very kind that they should make the corridor this time tall enough for the
Beast to walk comfortably upright, she thought, and put her hand out to the
side again so she could guide them by touching the wall. But the wall was no
longer there, and the smell of earth was mixed with the smell of roses, and she
could tell by the movement of air that they were no longer in a tunnel. There was a faint light like the beginning of dawn round
them, and they were standing in the middle of the crosspath in the centre of
the glasshouse, and the little wild pansies Beauty had planted there spilt over
the corners of the beds at their feet, and the roses bloomed everywhere round
them, silhouetted in the faint light, and the white roses were shimmers in the
gloom. They waited, listening, clinging to each other. There was
the faint, angry baying of a fading storm—or of a pack of wolves whose prey has
eluded it, mixed with the occasional hoarse cry of a hunting bird that has
missed its strike. But there was some other noise with it, a noise Beauty could
not identify, a noise as relentless as wind and rain, as if feet as numerous as
raindrops were marching towards them. They looked round them, and near the door to the glasshouse
there was a shape, like that of a bent old woman, except that the pale light
shone through her, and she glowed like the horn of a unicorn, and Beauty heard
the Beast give a little grunt of surprise and delight, and she thought there
was a name in it, but she could not hear what it was. Her attention was caught
then by other lucent shapes, standing on the square path that led round the
inside of the glasshouse, and these were the unicorns themselves, waiting,
watching, poised and alert, lustrous as pearls. And standing near the rear of the glasshouse were two other
Beasts, looking much like her own Beast, huge and shaggy and kind, but as much
bigger than her Beast as her Beast was bigger than she. Nor were they
terrifying to look upon, but were shaped into a wholeness, a unity, a clarity,
and a tranquillity that no mortal creature may possess, and Beauty felt a
strange, shivery joy at being so fortunate as to see them with her own eyes.
Behind them, instead of the fourth wall of the glasshouse, there seemed to
stand the facade of some immense dark fortress. The sound of the approaching footsteps grew nearer, and
Beauty thought calmly: I cannot bear any more. I cannot. She turned her face
against the Beast’s body and closed her eyes, but she saw them anyway, the
massed sorcerous army, the winged bulls, the manticores and chimeras, the
sphinxes, not the small semidomesticated ones of her childhood, but the great
wild ones, big as the bulls they marched alongside, who, like the bronze winged
harpies that raged overhead, had wicked human faces, and hair of hissing asps:
the stony-eyed basilisks, the loathly worms, the cerberi, the wyverns, like
vast, deadly versions of her mother’s pet dragon; and many more creatures she
could not, or would not, name. She had pressed herself against the Beast, and the little embroidered
heart made a tiny hole just beneath her breast— bone, guarded by her lower ribs. With every breath it seemed
to dig itself a little deeper. And she lay against her beloved’s heart and ..,
began to feel angry. We have come through so much, she thought. Is it for
nothing after all? I want to attend my sisters’ wedding, 1 want to attend my
wedding. If all the hordes of sorcery are here gathered to grind us to
nothing, is this the way we shall be denied the small homely pleasures we
desire, that we have earned? And she remembered a dry sorcerous little voice
once saying to her: I give you a small serenity.... She shook herself free of the Beast so quickly he had no
time to react, shook herself free so quickly indeed that her one hand did not
unclench itself in time and carried a little of the remains of the Beast’s
black shirt away with her, and ran to the door of the glasshouse. She ran at
such speed that she had the sensation of running through the shining
figure of the old woman. She threw the door open and stood there, facing not
the palace but all the worst-omened creatures of the inner and outer worlds,
and she clutched the rag of shirt in one hand and her embroidered heart in the
other and shook her fists over her head and shouted: “Go away! Can you not see
you have already lost? There is nothing for you here!” There was another clap of thunder as if all the thunder in
the ether between the worlds had clapped itself at once, and Beauty had a
dazzling glimpse of what had been the sorcerous army rolling about on the
ground in confusion and sorting itself out into baffled hedgehogs and
bewildered toads, confused spiders, flustered crickets, bumbling bees,
disoriented ladybirds and muddled grass-snakes, and hosts of other ordinary and
innocent creatures. And the air all round her was full of birdsong. She heard the laughter of the old woman behind her and heard
her voice for the last time, saying, “To think you told poor Mrs Greendown that
there was no magic in your family! Bless you, my dear, and your Beast, and
bless Rose Cottage, for it is yours now. I am happy with my moon- and starlight
friends, and my cows, and my wild wood, and besides, I am too old now to make
any more changes....” And then Beauty lost consciousness and knew no more. She woke to gentle hands putting cool cloths on her
forehead, and she opened her eyes and smiled. It was Jeweltongue who bent over
her and stroked her forehead, but there was someone else sitting at her side
and holding one of her hands, with Teacosy in his lap, looking there as small
as a day-old puppy. “Your exits and entrances are so dramatic,” said Jeweltongue
composedly. “This time you brought with you the most exquisite small
glasshouse—it looks as if it were entirely made of spun sugar—although it has
rather disrupted the centre of the garden, where it has chosen to root itself.
But it will make the most enchanting—if I dare use that term?—wedding pavilion,
next week,” Then she looked at the person who sat at Beauty’s side and
said, “I shall have my work cut out for me, finishing your wedding-suit in
time. I do not think I have a tape that will reach round you. Fortunately I’ve
almost finished with Beauty’s dress; we have rather been expecting you, if you
want to know. Call me if you need help keeping her lying down. I am sure she
should not get up today, but as you may have noticed, she is a bit impetuous
and willful. And I suspect you of being overindulgent.” And she left
them. They were upstairs in Rose Cottage, and he sat next to her
on the floor by the wide lumpy mattress. By her feet lay Fourpaws, her eyes
half lidded and a half-grown black kitten playing with her tail. “The first
thing I will do is build you a bed frame,” he said. “It is one of the drawbacks
of living too deep-sunk in magic, that the homely tasks are all taken away from
you.” “Dishwashing,” said Beauty. “I should be glad of never doing
the washing-up again.” “Then I shall do it,” he replied. “But my second task will
be to restuff that mattress.” “No,” said Beauty. “The first thing you will do is marry me,
and the second thing you will do is come with me to Longchance, where we shall
scour the town for painting things, for you shall not waste any more of your
time on roofs, and if Longchance does not have what we want, we will go
directly to Appleborough, and if Appleborough does not have what we want, then
we will mount an expedition and go on a quest, and perhaps we will find the
Queen of the Heavenly Mountain too. Everything else can wait a little.” She sat
up gingerly. “How did we come here?” “I carried you the last way, but it was not far. When my
head stopped spinning on my shoulders, and my eyes cleared of the stars that
whirled round and round in them, I found us at the beginning of a little track
leading through the woods from the main way, and I thought we must be there for
a reason. So I picked you up and carried you here, and I understand there is to
be a wedding here in a few days and that there are more people about than there
generally are in preparation for it. “But everyone rushed up to me as if we were what they were
waiting for—your sisters call me Mr Beast—and welcomed me, even your father.
Then I carried you up here—after I have finished with the bed frame and the mattress,
I will build a set of proper stairs—to be out of the bustle below. Not, you know,
that I am entirely clear about where here is, but I am sure you will tell me in
time.” “This is Rose Cottage, of course,” said Beauty, “where my
family and I moved from the city, when our father’s business failed and we were
too poor to do anything else. Here Jeweltongue learnt to sew dresses that made
people happy to wear them, and Lionheart learnt the language of horses and how
to speak to them instead of merely to rule them, and / learnt to grow roses.
And one sister and our father are going to live with her husband, the baker,
because they do not love the country so much as they love the town, and my
other sister is going to live with her husband, the horse-coper, who is also
the squire’s second son, and I hope we are going to live here with lots and lots
and lots of roses.” Beauty fell silent, looking at him, and her mind and heart
were so full of love for him she could at first think of noth ing else. But then she remembered the first time she had
looked into his face and remembered how she had needed the salamander’s gift to
do so, and she wondered where that terribleness had gone. Perhaps it had
dropped away when he had stood once again in his glasshouse and seen his roses
blooming; perhaps it had been torn from him with his fine, sombre clothing—he
was presently awkwardly wrapped in a spare quilt, which made a kind of half
stole over his shoulders, and it was radiant with pinks and crimsons and
purples and sunset colours, for Jeweltongue had made it from bits left over
from the Trueword women’s frocks, and the bright colours woke unexpected ruddy
highlights in the Beast’s dark hair. Perhaps, said a tiny, almost inaudible
voice in the very back of Beauty’s mind, perhaps it left forever when you told
him you loved him and wished to marry him. But then she remembered something else she had done, and her
heart smote her. “I—I had to choose for both of us—where I found you, in the
bonfire glade. I—I tried to make the best choice I could. Did I—can you—are you
unhappy with it?” Her beloved shook his head. “1 am content past my ability to
describe. But...” And he hesitated. “But what?” said Beauty, fearing the answer. “But... the husband you would have had, had you made the
other choice, would have been handsome—as handsome as you are beautiful, I do
not know if—’’ But Beauty was laughing and would not hear what he might
have said. She put her hands over his mouth and, when he had stopped trying to
speak through them, took them away only to kiss him. “I would not change a—a
hair on your head, except possibly to plait a few of them together, so as not
wholly to obscure the collar and front of the wedding-suit Jeweltongue designs.
But I—I think I will choose to believe that you would miss being able to see in
the dark, and to be careless of the weather, and to walk as silently as
sunlight. Because I love my Beast, and I would miss him very much if he went
away from me and left me with some handsome stranger.” “Then everything is exactly as it should be,” said the
Beast. Author’s NoteMy first novel was called Beauty: A Retelling of the
Story of Beauty and the Beast. It was published almost twenty years ago. Beauty and the Beast has been my favourite fairy-tale since
I was a little girl, but I wrote Beauty almost by accident, because the
story 1 was trying to write was too difficult for me. Beauty was just a
sort of writing exercise—at first. I very nearly didn’t have the nerve to send
it to a publisher when I was done. Everyone knows the fairy-tale, 1 thought.
Everyone knows how it ends; no one—certainly no publisher—will care. But a publisher did take it, and a lot of people have told
me they like it. And that was that. Of course f wasn’t going to tell Beauty and
the Beast again, even if it was my favourite fairy-tale. Even if it has been
retold hundreds of times by different storytellers, in different cultures and
different centuries. Even though I knew it had resonances as deep as human
nature, as the best fairy—and folk-tales do, including a lot that I couldn’t
reach, though I could feel they were there. Five years ago I moved to England to marry the writer Peter
Dickinson. I was happy in Maine, where I had been living, with my typewriter,
one whippet, and several thousand books, in my little lilac-covered cottage on
the coast. And then I found myself three thousand miles away, in another
country, living in an enormous, ramshackle house surrounded by flower-beds and
covered in wisteria and clematis and ancient climbing roses whose names no one
remembered. Gardening in Maine is an epic struggle, where you can have frosts
as late as June and as early as August, where a spade thrust anywhere in the
so-called soil will hit granite bedrock a few inches down and rattle your teeth
in your skull, and where roses are called annuals only half-jokingly. In
England garden-visiting is the top item on the list of tourist
attractions—before any of the cathedrals or any of the museums, before
Stonehenge or the Tower of London. I didn’t plan to become a gardener, but 1
don’t think 1 could help it. Peter says that the disease had obviously been
lying dormant in my blood, and southern England and a gardening husband have
been a most effective catalyst. It occurred to me, now and then, as I planted more rosebushes—because
while I am a passionate gardener, I am a rose fanatic—that it’s almost a pity
I’d said all I had to say about Beauty and the Beast. There was so much about
roses I’d left out. because I didn’t know any better. Last winter I sold my house in Maine. I still loved it, even
though I knew I would never live there again, and I knew it would be a
tremendous wrench to cut myself loose from that last major attachment of owning
property in the country where I was born. I was not expecting, when Peter and I
returned to Maine to close up, sign papers, and say good-bye, that everything I
have missed about life in America as an American—which I had ordered myself to
ignore while I put down roots over here—would rush out of hiding and start
hammering me flat, like some of Tolkien’s dwarves having a go at a recalcitrant
bit of gold leaf. It wasn’t just a wrench; it felt like being drawn and
quartered. We came home to southern England in a late, bleak, cold
spring, and I sat at my desk and stared into space, feeling as if I were barely
convalescent after a long illness. A friend of mine who runs an art gallery in SoHo (New York,
not London) asked me if I would consider writing him a short-story version of
Beauty and the Beast for one of his artists to illustrate. I said no, I can’t;
I’ve said all I have to say about that story. But as I sat at my typewriter—or looked over my shoulder at
the black clouds and sleet—I didn’t feel up to anything too demanding, like the
novel I was supposed to be working on. I thought, I’ll have a go at this short
story. Something might come of it. I can do a little more with roses; that’ll
be fun. Rose Daughter shot out onto the page in about six
months. I’ve never had a story burst so fully and extravagantly straight onto
the page, like Athena from the head of Zeus. I’ve long said my books “happen” to me. They lend to blast
in from nowhere, seize me by the throat, and howl, Write me! Write me now! But
they rarely stand still long enough for me to see what and who they are, before
they hurtle away again, and so I spend a lot of my time running after them,
like a thrown rider after an escaped horse, saying, Wait for me! Wait for me!,
and waving my notebook in the air. Rose Daughter happened, but it bolted
with me. Writing it was quite like riding a not-quite-runaway horse, who
is willing to listen to you, so long as you let it run. If you’re a storyteller, your own life streams through you,
onto the page, mixed up with the life the story itself brings; you cannot, in
any useful or genuine way. separate the two. The thing dial tells me when one
of the pictures in my head or phrases in my ear is a story, and not a mere
afternoon’s distraction, is its life, its strength, its vitality. If you were
picking up stones in the dark, you would know when you picked up a puppy
instead. It’s warm; it wriggles; it’s alive. But the association between
my inner (storytelling) life and my outer (everything else) life is unusually
close in this book. I don’t know why die story came to me in the first place,
but I know that what fueled the whirlwind of getting it down on paper was my
grief for my little lilac-covered cottage and for a way of life I had loved,
even if I love my new life better. 1 think every writer fears doing the same thing again—and
thus boring her readers. But what “the same thing” is may be tricky to define.
I almost didn’t write Beauty; having written it, I had absolutely no
intention of reusing that plot. I read somewhere, a long time ago, a French
writer, I think, saying that each writer has only one story to tell; it’s
whether or not they find interesting ways to retell it that is important. The
idea has stuck with me because I suspect it’s true. Maybe I shouldn’t be
surprised that my favourite fairytale came back to me, dressed in a new story,
after twenty more years in the back of my mind and the bottom of my heart—and
the odd major life crisis to break it loose and urge it into my consciousness. Maybe it’ll come to me again in another twenty years. —Hampshire. England October 1996 Rose Daughter Robin McKinley 1997 ISBN: 0-441-00583-7 Spell checked. “Every sentence and every occurrence seems infused by magic.
I will keep this book. I will reread it, time and again; it has earned its
place as one of my odd coterie of bedside companions.” —Fantasy & Science Fiction Books By Robin McKinley Novels And Short Stones Beauty: A Retelling Of The Story Of Beauty And The Beast The Door In The Hedge The Blue Sword A Newbery Honor Book The Hero And The Crown Winner Of The Newbery Medal Imaginary Lands Edited By Robin McKinley The Outlaws Of Sherwood Deerskin A Knot In The Grain And Other Stories Picture Books My Father Is In The Navy To Neil and Tom,
whose absurd idea it was and in memory of a
little lilac-covered cottage where I used to live Chapter 1Her earliest memory was of waking from the dream. It
was also her only clear memory of her mother. Her mother was beautiful,
dashing, the toast of the town. Her youngest daughter remembered the blur of
activity, friends and hangers-on, soothsayers and staff, the bad-tempered pet
dragon on a leash—bad-tempered on account of the oca-mnda leaves in his food,
which prevented him from producing any more fire than might occasionally singe
his wary handler, out which also upset his digestion—the constant glamour and
motion which was her mother and her mother’s world. She remembered peeping out
at her mother from around various thresholds before various nurses and
governesses (hired by her dull merchant father) snatched her away. She remembered
too, although she was too young to put it into words, the excitability, no, the
restlessness of her mother’s manner, a restlessness of a too-acute alertness in
search of something that cannot be found. But such were the brightness and
ardour of her mother’s personality that those around her also were swept up
into her search, not knowing it was a search, happy merely to be a part of such
liveliness and gaiety. The only thing that ever lingered was the sweet smell of her
mother’s perfume. Her only memory of her mother’s face was from the night she
woke from the dream for the first time, crying in terror. In the dream she had
been walking—she could barely walk yet in her waking life—toddling down a long
dark corridor, only vaguely lit by a few candles set too far into their
sconces, too high up in the walls. The shadows stretched everywhere round her,
and that was terrible enough: and the silence was almost as dreadful as the darkness.
But what was even worse was that she knew a wicked monster waited for her at
the end of the corridor. It was the wickedest monster that had ever lived, and
it was waiting just for her, and she was all alone. She was still young enough to be sleeping in a crib with
high barred sides; she remembered fastening her tiny fists round the wooden
bars, whose square edges cut into her soft palms. She remembered the dream—she
remembered crying—and she remembered her mother coming, and bending over her,
and picking her up, whispering gently in her ear, holding her against her
breast, softly stroking her back. Sitting down quietly on the nurse’s stool and
rocking her slowly till she fell asleep again. She woke in her crib in the morning, just as usual. She
asked her nurse where her mamma was; her nurse stared and did not believe her
when she tried to tell her. in the few words she was old enough to use, that
her mamma had come to her in the night when she had cried. “I’d’ve heard you if
you yelled, miss,” said the nurse stiffly, “And I slept quiet last night.” But she knew it was her mother, had to have been her mother.
She remembered the sweet smell of her perfume, and no one but her mother ever
wore that scent. Her perfume smelt of flowers, but of no flowers the little
girl ever found, neither in the dozens of overflowing vases set in nearly every
room of their tall, magnificent town house nearly every day of the year, nor
anywhere in the long scrolling curves of the flower-beds in the gardens behind
the house, nor in the straight, meticulous rows within the glasshouses and
orangeries behind the garden. She once confided to a new nurse her wish to find the flower
that had produced her mother’s scent. She was inspired to do so when the nurse
introduced herself by saying, “Hello, little one. Your daddy has told me your
name, but do you know mine? It’s Pansy, just like the flower. I bet you have
lots of pansies in your garden.” “Yes, we do,” replied the little girl politely. “And they’re
my favourite—almost. My favourite is a flower I do not know. It is the flower
that my mother’s scent comes from. I keep hoping I will find it. Perhaps you
will help me.” Pansy had laughed at her, but it was a friendly laugh. “What
a funny little thing you are,” she said. “Fancy at your age wanting to know
about perfume. You’ll be a heart-breaker in a few years, I guess.” The little girl had looked at her new nurse solemnly but had
not troubled to explain further. She could tell Pansy meant to be kind. It was
true that she had first become interested in gardens as something other than
merely places her nurses sometimes took her. in the peremptory way of
grown-ups, when she had made the connexion between perfume smells and flower
smells. But she had very soon discovered that she simply liked gardens. Her mother’s world—her mother’s house—was very exciting, but
it was also rather scary. She liked plants. They were quiet, and they stayed in
the same place, but they weren’t boring, like a lot of the things she was
supposed to be interested in were boring, such as dolls, which just lay there
unless you picked them up and did things with them (and then the chief thing
you were supposed to do with them, apparently, was to change their clothes, and
could there be anything more awfully, deadly boring than changing anyone’s
clothes any more often than one was utterly obliged to?). Plants got on with
making stems and leaves and flowers and fruit, whatever you did, and a lot of
them were nice to the touch: the slight attractive furriness of rabbit’s-ears
and Cupid’s darts, the slick waxy surfaces of camellia leaves and ivy—and lots
of them had beautiful flowers, which changed both shape and colour as they opened,
and some of them smelt interesting, even if none of them smelt like her
mother’s perfume. And then there were things like apples and grapes, which were
the best things in the world when you could break them off from the stem
yourself and eat them right there. From the nurses’ point of view, the youngest girl was the
least trouble of the three. She neither went out seeking mischief, the more
perilous the better, the way the eldest did, nor answered impertinently (and
with a vocabulary alarmingly beyond her age), the way the second did. Her one
consistent misbehaviour, tiresome enough indeed as it was, and which no amount
of punishment seemed able to break her of. was that of escaping into the garden
the moment the nurse’s eye was diverted, where she would later be found,
digging little holes and planting things—discarded toys (especially dolls),
half-eaten biscuits, dead leaves, and dry twigs—singing to herself, and
covering her white pinafores and stockings with dirt. None of the nurses ever
noticed that the twigs, were they left where she planted them, against all
probability, grew. One old gardener noticed, and because he was old and
considered rather silly, he had the time to spend making the little girl’s
acquaintance. Nurses never lasted long. Despite the care taken and the warnings
given to keep the nurses in the nurseries, eventually some accident of meeting
occurred with the merchant’s wife, and the latest nurse, immediately found to
be too slow or too dowdy or too easily bewildered to suit, was fired. When
Pansy came to say good-bye, she said, “1 have to go away. Don’t cry, lovey,
it’s just the way it is. But I wanted to tell you: it’s roses your mum’s
perfume smells of. Roses. No, you don’t have ‘em here. It’s generally only
sorcerers who can get ‘em lo grow much. The village I was born in, we had a
specially clever greenwitch, and she had one. just one, but it was heaven when
it bloomed. That’s how I know. But it takes barrels of petals to make perfume
enough to fill a bottle the size of your littlest fingertip—that’s why the
sorcerers are interested, see, I never knew a sorcerer wasn’t chiefly out to
make money—your pa’s paying a queen’s ransom for it, I can tell you that.” When the youngest daughter was five years old, her mother
died. She had bet one of her hunting friends she could leap a half-broken colt
over a farm cart. She had lost the bet and broken her neck. The colt broke both
forelegs and had to be shot. The whole city mourned, her husband and two elder daughters
most of all. The youngest one embarrassed her family at the funeral by
repeating, over and over, ‘‘Where is my mamma? Where is my mamma?” “She is too young to understand,” said the grieving friends
and acquaintances, and patted her head, and embraced the husband and the elder
girls. A well-meaning greenwitch offered the father a charm for his
youngest daughter. “She’ll work herself into a fever, poor little thing,” the
woman said, holding the little bag on its thin ribbon out to him. “You just
hang it round her neck—I’d do it myself, but it’ll work better coming from your
hands—and she’ll know her mamma’s gone, but it won’t hurl till she’s a little
more ready for it. It’ll last three, four months if you don’t let it get wet.” But the merchant knocked the small bundle out of the woman’s
hand with a cry of rage, and might have struck the greenwitch herself—despite
the bad luck invariably attendant on any violence offered any magic
practitioner—if those standing nearest had not held him back. The startled
greenwitch was hustled away, someone explaining to her in an undertone that the
merchant was a little beside himself, that grief had made him so unreasonable
that he blamed his wife’s soothsayers for not having warned her against her
last, fatal recklessness, and had for the moment turned against all magic. Even
her pet dragon had been given away. The greenwitch allowed herself to be hustled. She was a
kindly woman, but not at all grand—greenwitches rarely were—and had known the
family at all only because she had twice or three times found the youngest daughter
in a flowerbed in one of the city’s municipal parks and returned her to her
distracted nurse. She gave one little backward glance to that youngest daughter,
who was still running from one mourner to the next and saying, “Where is my
mamma? Where is my mamma?” “I don’t like to think of the little thing’s dreams,”
murmured the green witch, but her escort had brought her to the cemetery gate
and turned her loose, with some propelling force, and the greenwitch shook her
head sadly but went her own way. The night of her mother’s funeral her youngest daughter had
the dream for the second time. She was older in the dream just as she was in
life; older and taller, she spoke in complete sentences and could run without
falling down. None of this was of any use to her in the dream. The candles were
still too high overhead to cast anything but shadows; she was still all alone,
and the unseen monster waited, just for her. After that she had the dream often. At first, when she cried out for her mamma, the nurses were
sympathetic, but as the months mounted up to a year since the funeral, and no
more than a week ever passed before another midnight waking, another sobbing
cry of “Mamma! Mamma!” the nurses grew short-tempered. The little girl learnt
not to cry out. but she still had the dream. And she eluded her protectresses more often than ever and
crept out into the garden, where the old gardener (keeping a wary eye out for
the descent of a shrieking harpy from the nursery) taught her how better to
plant things, and which things to plant, and what to do to make them happy
after they were planted. She grew old enough to try to flee, and so discover that
this did her no good in the dream; it was the same dark, silent, sinister corridor,
without windows or doors, the same unknown, expectant monster, whichever way
she turned. And then she discovered she had never really tried to nm away at
all, that she was determined to follow the corridor to its end, to face the
monster. And that was the most terrifying thing of all. She wondered, as they all three grew up, if it was the dream
itself that made her so different from her sisters. They were all beautiful;
all three took after their mother. But the eldest one was as brave as she had
been, and her name was Lionheart; the second one was as clever as she had been,
and her name was Jeweltongue. The youngest was called Beauty. Beauty adopted the nerve-shattered horses, the dumbly confused
and despairing dogs that Lionheart left in her wake. She found homes for them
with quiet, timid, dull people—as well as homes for barn-loft kittens, canaries
which wouldn’t sing, parrots which wouldn’t talk, and sphinxes which curled up
into miserable little balls in the backs of their cages and refused to be
goaded into fighting. She brought cups of tea with her own hands lo wounded swains
bleeding from cries of “Coward!” and “Lackwit!” and offered her own
handkerchiefs to maidservants and costumiers found weeping in corners after
run-ins with Jeweltongue. She found tactful things to say to urgent young
playwrights who wished to be invited to Jeweltongue’s salons, and got rid of
philanthropists who wished Jeweltongue to apply her notorious acuteness—and
perhaps some of the family’s money—to schemes towards the improvement of the
general human lot. She also kept an eye on the household accounts, to make sure
that the calfbound set of modern philosophy Jeweltongue had ordered contained
all the twenty volumes she was charged for, that all twenty sets of horseshoes
the farrier included in his bill had indeed been nailed to the feet of
Lionheart’s carriage teams and hunters, and that the twenty brace of pheasant
delivered for a dinner-party were all served to their guests. On some days, when it seemed to her that everyone she met
was either angry or unhappy, she would go out into the garden and hide. She had
learned to avoid the army of gardeners, run by an ambitious head gardener who
was as forceful and dominating as any general—or rather, she had never outgrown
her child’s instinct to drop quietly out of sight when a grown-up moving a
little too purposefully was nearby. As soon as she stepped out onto the lawn,
she felt tranquillity drift down over her like a veil; and almost as though it
were a veil, or as if she had suddenly become a plant herself (a tidy,
well-shaped, well-placed plant of a desirable colour and habit, for anything
else would have drawn attention at once), she was rarely noticed by the gardeners,
hurrying this way and that with military precision, even when they passed quite
close to her. The old gardener who had been kind to her when she was small
had been pensioned off and lived in a cottage at some distance from their great
house, on the outskirts of the city, where the farmlands began and where he had
his own small garden for the first time in his long life. A few times a year
she found half a day to go visit him—once with a convalescent puppy who had
been stepped on by a carriage horse—but she missed having him in the garden. Once she arranged the flowers for one of her sisters’ bails.
This was ordinarily the housekeeper’s job. Her sisters felt that flower
arranging was a pastime for servants or stupid people; Beauty felt that flowers
belonged in the garden where they grew. But on the morning of this party the
housekeeper had fallen downstairs and sprained her ankle, and was in too much
pain to do anything but lie in a darkened room and run the legs off the maid
assigned to attend her. Beauty looked at the poor flowers standing in their buckets
of cold water, and at the array of noble vases laid out for them, and began to
arrange them, only half aware of what she was about, while her sisters were
rushing around the house shouting (in Lionheart’s case) or muttering savagely
(in Jeweltongue’s) while they attended to what should have been the
housekeeper’s other urgent duties on the day of an important party. Most of
Beauty’s mind was occupied with what the night’s events would bring; she would
much rather scrub a floor—not that she ever had scrubbed a floor, but she
assumed it would be hard, dull, unpleasant work—than attend a ball, which was
hard, dull, unpleasant work that didn’t even have a clean floor to show for it
afterwards. Neither Lionheart nor Jeweltongue at best paid much
attention to flowers, beyond the fact that one did of course have to have them,
as one had place settings for seventy-five and a butler to cherish the wine;
but when they came downstairs to have a final look at the front hall and the
dining-room, even they were astonished by what Beauty had done. “My saints!” said Lionheart. “If the conversation flags, we
can look at the flowers!” ‘ The conversation will not flag,’’ said Jeweltongue composedly,
“but that is not to say that Beauty has not done miracles,” and she patted her
sister’s shoulder absently, as one might pat a dog. “I didn’t know flowers could look like this!” roared
Lionheart, and threw up her arms as if challenging an enemy to strike at her,
and laughed. “If Miss Fuss-and-Bother could see this, perhaps it would quiet
her nerves!” Miss Fuss-and-Bother was the name Lionheart had given to die
governess least patient with the frequent necessity of fishing Beauty out of
her latest muddy haven in the garden and bringing her indoors and dumping her
in the bath. Lionheart had often been obliged to join her there after other,
more dangerous adventures of her own. But that ball was particularly successful, and her sisters
teased Beauty that it was on account of her flowers and asked if she was
keeping a greenwitch in her cupboard, who could work such charms. Beauty,
distressed, tried to prevent any of this from reaching their father’s ears, for
he would not have taken even a joke about a greenwitch in their house in good
part. The housekeeper, who did hear some of it as she hobbled around the house
on a stick, was not pleased and contrived to snub “Miss Beauty” for a fortnight
after. (She might also have denuded the garden of flowers in her efforts to
have a grander show than Beauty’s for the next party, but the head gardener was
more than a match for her.) Beauty stayed out of her way till she had moved her
ill will to another target; there was too much temper and spitefulness in the
house already, and she thought she might forget her promise to herself never to
add to it, and tell the housekeeper what a dreadful old woman she thought her. Besides, she would probably then have to hire another housekeeper
afterwards, and she could think of few things she less wanted to do. The sisters’ parties, over the course of several seasons,
became famous as the finest in the city, as fine as their mother’s had been.
Perhaps not quite so grand as the mayor’s, but perhaps more enjoyable; the
mayor’s daughters were, after all, rather plain. Only the ill-natured—especially those whose own parties were
slighted in favor of the sisters’—ever suggested that it was the work of any
hired magician. Their father’s attitude towards magic was well known. His
sudden revulsion of feeling upon his wife’s death had indeed been much talked
of; but much more surprising was its result. It was true that he was the wealthiest merchant in the city,
but that was all he was; and if he had long had what seemed, were it not absurd
to think so. an almost magical ability to seize what chance he wished when he
wished to seize it, well, seers and soothsayers were always going on about how
there was no such thing as luck, but that everyone possessed some seeds of
magic within themselves, whether or not they ever found them or nursed them
into growth. But no mere merchant, even the wealthiest merchant in the biggest
city in the country, and whatever the origins of his business luck, should have
been able to dislodge any magical practitioner who did not wish to be dislodged;
but so it was in this case. Not only were all the magicians, astrologers, and
soothsayers who had been members of his wife’s entourage thrown out of his
house—which ban was acceptably within his purview—but he saw them driven out of
the city. The sisters were forbidden to have anything to do with
magic; the two elder girls still bought small street charms occasionally, and
Beauty was good friends with the elderly salamander belonging to the retired
sorcerer who lived near them; but none of them would ever hire any practitioner
to do a personal spell. It was no surprise to anyone who paid attention to such
matters when Lionheart contracted an engagement with the Duke of Dauntless, who
owned six thousand of the finest hunting acres in the entire country, and much
else besides. Jeweltongue affianced herself to the Baron of Grandiloquence, who
was even wealthier than the Duke, and had a bigger town house. They planned a
double wedding; Beauty and the three sisters of the Duke and the four sisters
of the Baron should be bridesmaids. It would be the finest wedding of the
season, if not the century. Everyone would be there. admiring, envious, and
beautifully dressed. In all the bustle of preparations, no one, not even Beauty,
noticed that the old merchant seemed unusually preoccupied. He had hoped he could put off his business’s ruin till after
the wedding. He loved his daughters, but he felt his life had ended with his
wife’s death; he had been increasingly unable to concentrate on his business
affairs in the years since. His greatest pain as he watched the impending storm
approach was the thought that be had not been able to provide a husband for
Beauty. It was true that she was not very noticeable in the company of her
sisters, hut she should have been able to find a suitable husband among all the
young men who flocked to their house to court Lionheart and Jeweltongue. He thought of hiring a good magician or a sorcerer to throw
a few days’ hold over the worst of the wreck, but his antipathy to all things
magical since his wife’s death meant not only had he lost all his contacts in
the magical professions, but a sudden search now for a powerful practitioner
was sure to raise gossip—and suspicion. He was not at all certain he would have
been able to find one who would accept such a commission from him anyway. It
had occurred to him, as the worst of the dull oppression of grief had lifted
from his mind, to be surprised no magical practitioner had tried to win revenge
for his turning half a dozen of them out of the city; perhaps they had known it
was not necessary, The unnatural strength that had enabled him to perform that
feat had taken most of his remaining vitality—and business acumen—with it. The bills for the wedding itself he paid for in his last
days as the wealthiest merchant in the city. He would not be able to fulfill
the contracts for his daughters’ dowries, but his two elder daughters were in
themselves reward enough for any man. And her sisters would do something for
Beauty. It was ten days before the wedding when the news broke. People
were stunned. It was all anyone talked about for three days—and then the next
news came: The Duke of Dauntless and the Baron of Grandiloquence had broken off
the wedding. The messengers from their fiancйs brought the sisters’ fate
to them on small squares of thick cream-laid paper, folded and sealed with the
heavy heirloom seals of their fiancйs’ houses. Lionheart and Jeweltongue each
replied with one cold line written in her own firm hand; neither kept her
messenger waiting, By the end of that day Lionheart and Jeweltongue and Beauty
and their father were alone in their great house; not a servant remained to
them, and many had stolen valuable fittings and furniture as well, guessing
correctly that their ruined masters would not be able to order them returned,
nor punish them for theft. As the twilight lengthened in their silent sitting-room,
Jeweltongue at last stood up from her chair and began to light the lamps;
Lionheart stirred in her comer and went downstairs to the kitchens. Beauty
remained where she was, charring her father’s cold hands and fearing what the
expression on his face might mean. Later she ate what Lion-heart put in front
of her, without noticing what it was, and fed their father with a spoon, as if
he were a child. Jeweltongue settled down with the housekeeper’s book and began
to study it, making the occasional note. For the first few days they did only small, immediate
things. Lionheart took over the kitchens and cooking; Jeweltongue took over the
housekeeping. Beauty began going through the boxes of papers that had been
delivered from what had been her father’s office and dumped in a comer of one
of the drawing-rooms. Lionheart could be heard two floors away from the kitchens,
cursing and flinging things about, wielding knives and mallets like swords and
lances. Jeweltongue rarely spoke aloud, but she swept floors and beat the
laundry as pitilessly as she had ever told off an underhousemaid for not
blacking a grate sufficiently or a footman waiting at table for having a spot
on his shirtfront. Beauty read their father’s correspondence, trying to
discover the real state of their affairs and some gleam of guidance as to what
they must do next. She wrote out necessary replies, while her father mumbled
and moaned and rocked in his chair, and she held his trembling hand around the
pen that he might write his signature when she had finished. Even the garden could not soothe Beauty during that time.
She went out into it occasionally, as she might have reached for a shawl if she
were cold; but she would find herself standing nowhere she could remember
going, staring blindly at whatever was before her, her thoughts spinning and
spinning and spinning until she was dizzy with them. There were now no
gardeners to hide from, but any relief she might have found in that was
overbalanced by seeing how quickly the garden began to look shabby and neglected.
She didn’t much mind the indoors beginning to look shabby and neglected;
furniture doesn’t notice being dusty, corners don’t notice cobwebs, cushions
don’t notice being unplumped. She. told herself that plants didn’t mind going
undeadheaded and unpruned—and the weeds, of course, were much happier than
they’d ever been before. But the plants in the garden were her friends; the
house was just a building full of objects. She had little appetite and barely noticed as Lionheart’s lumpen
messes began to evolve into recognizable dishes. She had never taken a great
deal of interest in her own appearance and had minded the least of the three of
them when they put their fine clothes away, for they had agreed among
themselves that all their good things should go towards assuaging their
father’s creditors. She did not notice that Jeweltongue had an immediate gift
for invisible darns, for making a bodice out of an old counterpane, a skirt of
older curtains, and collar and cuff’s of worn linen napkins with the stained
bits cut out, and finishing with a pretty dress it was no penance to wear. Nor could she sleep at night. She felt she would welcome her
old nightmare almost as solace, so dreadful had their waking life become; but
the dream stayed away. Since her mother’s death it had never left her alone for
so long. She found herself missing it; in its absence it became one more
security that had been torn away from her, a faithful companion who had
deserted her. And it was not until now, with their lives a wreck around them,
that she realised she had forgotten what her mother’s face looked like. She
could remember remembering, she could remember the long months after her
mother’s death, waking from the dream crying, “Mamma!” and knowing what face
she hoped to see when she opened her eyes, knowing her disappointment when it
was only the nurse’s. When had she forgotten her mother’s face? Some unmarked
moment in the last several years, as childhood memories dimmed under the weight
of adult responsibilities, or only now. one more casualty of their ruin? She
did not know and could not guess. What unsettled her most of all was that her last fading wisp
of memory contained nothing of her mother’s beauty, but only kindness, kindness
and peace, a sense of safe haven. And yet the first thing anyone who had known
her mother mentioned about her was her beauty, and while she was praised for
her vitality, her wit, and her courage, far from any haven, her companionship
was a dare, a challenge, an exhilarating danger. In among her father’s papers Beauty discovered a lawyers’
copy of a will, dated in May of the year she had turned two, leaving the three
sisters the possession of the little house owned by the woman named. Beauty
puzzled over this for some time, as she knew all her father’s relatives (none
of whom wanted to know him or his daughters anymore), and knew as well that her
mother had had none; nor did she know of any connexion whatsoever to anyone or
anything so far away from the city of the sisters’ birth. But there was no easy
accounting for it. and Beauty had no time for useless mysteries. There was a lawyers’ letter with the will, dated seven years
later, saying that the old woman had disappeared soon after making the will,
and in accordance with the law, the woman had now been declared dead, and the
house was theirs. It was called Rose Cottage. It lay many weeks’ journey from
the city, and it stood alone in rough country, at a little distance from the
nearest town. Even their father’s creditors were not interested in it. She wrote to the lawyers, asking if there was any further
transaction necessary if they wished to take up residence, and received a
prompt but curt note in reply saying that the business was no longer anything
to do with them but that they supposed the house was still standing. Rose Cottage, she thought. What a romantic name. I wonder
what the woman who had it was like. I suppose it’s Like a lot of other house
names—a timid family naming theirs Dragon Villa or city folk longing for the
country calling theirs Broadmeadow. Perhaps—she almost didn’t dare finish the
thought—perhaps for us, just now, perhaps the name is a good omen. Hesitantly she told her sisters about it. Lionheart said: “I
wish to go so far away from this hateful city that no one round me even knows
its name.” Jeweltongue said: “I would not stay here a day longer than I
must, if they asked me to be mayor and my only alternative was to live in a
hole in the ground.” It was teatime. Late-afternoon light slanted in through the
long panes of their sitting-room. They no longer used any of the bigger rooms;
their present sitting-room was a small antechamber that had formerly been used
to keep not-very-welcome guests waiting long enough to let them know they were
not very welcome. In here Jeweltongue saw that the surfaces were dust-free, the
glass panes sparkling, and the cushions all plumped. But the view into the garden
showed a lawn growing shaggy, and twigs and flower stems broken by rain or wind
lay across the paths. It had been three weeks since the Duke and Baron sent
their last messages. Beauty sat staring out the window for a minute in the
silence following her sisters’ words. It was still strange to her how silent
the house was; it had never been silent before. Even very late at night, very
early in the morning, the bustle had only been subdued, not absent. Now silence
lay, cold and thick and paralysing as a heavy fall of snow. Beauty shivered,
and tucked her hands under her elbows. “I’ll tell Father, then, when he wakes.
At least something is settled. ...” Her voice tailed off. She rose stiffly to
her feet. “I have several more letters I should write tonight.” She turned to
leave. “Beauty—” Lionheart’s voice. Beauty stopped by Jeweltongue’s
chair, which was nearest the door, and turned back. “Thank you,” said her
eldest sister. Jeweltongue reached suddenly up, and grasped Beauty’s hand,
and laid the back of it against her cheek for a moment. “I don’t know what we
would be doing without you,” she said, not looking up. “I still can’t bear the
thought of.. . meeting any of the people we used to know. Every morning I
think. Today will be better—” “And it isn’t,” said Lionheart. Beauty went back to the desk in another little room she had
set up as an office. Quickly she began going through various heaps of papers,
setting a few aside. She had already rebuffed suggestions of aid from
businessmen she knew only wished to gloat and gossip; uneasily she discarded
overtures from sorcerers declaring that their affairs could yet be put right,
all assistance to be extended on credit, terms to be drawn up later upon the
return of their just prosperity. Now she drew a sheet of her father’s
writing-paper towards her, picked up a pen. and began to write an acceptance,
for herself and her sisters, of the best, which was to say the least
humiliating, offer of the several auction houses that had approached them, to
dispose of their private belongings, especially the valuable things that had
come to them from their mother, which their father had given his wife in better
days. Beauty had told no one that she was not sure even this final desperate
recourse would save their father from a debtors’ prison. And in the next few days she made time wherever she could to
visit various of the people who had adopted her animals. She learnt what she
could, in haste and distress of mind, of butter—and cheese-making from a woman
who had been a dairymaid before she married a town man, while her cat, once a
barn-loft kitten, played lag to rules of her own devising among their feet and
the legs of furniture. She learnt bottling and beer-making from an old woman
who had been a farm wife, while her ex-racing hound made a glossy, beer-coloured
hump under the kitchen table. She took the legal papers she was not sure she
understood to a man whose elegant, lame black mare had foaled all four of his
undertaker son’s best funeral carriage team. Another man, whose five cowardly
hounds bayed tremendously at any knock at the front door from a vantage point
under his bed, taught her how to harness a horse, how to check that its tack
fitted, and the rudiments of how to drive it; and a friend of his saddled up
his very fine retired hunter, the whites of whose eyes never showed anymore,
and went to the big autumn horse fair to buy her a pair of pulling horses and a
suitable waggon. She came home from these small adventures with her head
ringing with instructions and spent the evenings writing up notes, listening to
the silence, trying not to be frightened, and wondering wearily what she was
forgetting. / can teach you to remember, the elderly salamander
said to her. “Oh—oh no,” said Beauty. “Oh no, that won’t do at all. But
thank you.” Your other friends are giving you gifts, said the
salamander, gifts of things you need, things you ask them for, but sometimes
things they know to offer you. Why may not I also? “It is very kind of you,” said Beauty, “but I have no claim
on you.” You have the claim of friendship, said the
salamander. My master, since he retired, is interested only in counting his
money. I shall miss you, for you have been my friend. Let me give you something.
It will be a small something, if you prefer, something smaller than memory. ‘I would rather forget how to smoke meat and brew
beer and saw and nail if I might also begin to forget the last few weeks,” said
Beauty simply. The salamander was silent, but she saw by the flicker in its
cloudy eyes that it was thinking. Pick me up, it said at last, so that I may took
into your eyes. Beauty picked it up gently, in a hand that shook only a very
little. This is more difficult than I expected. We saltunanders
rarely give gifts, and when we do, they are rarely small. It made a faint,
dry, rattling sound Beauty recognised as salamander laughter. This will have
to do. Abruptly it opened its eyes very wide, and Beauty was
staring into two pits of fire, and when she sucked in her breath in shock, the
air tasted hot and acrid with burning. Listen to me, my friend. I give you a
small serenity. I would give you a large one, but I am uncertain of human
capacity, and I furthermore believe you would not wish it. This is a serenity
you can hold in the palms of your two hands—even smaller than I am. And
she heard the rustling laugh again, even through the thunder of the fire. / think
you may find it useful. It hooded its eyes. You may put me down. Beauty set it back down on the pillar where it spent its
days watching the townsfolk and pretending to be a garden ornament. It turned
suddenly, like the lizard it almost was, and touched her hand with its tongue.
/ did not mean to frighten you, it said, and its voice was tinny and
distant, like the last reverberation of an echo. Cup your hands and look
into them now. Beauty did so and at once felt heat, as if she held a small
glowing sun in her hands. She looked down and again saw fire, red and hot and
bottomless. “It—it doesn’t look very serene,” she quavered. Trust me, said the salamander, and curled up and
became the statue of a salamander. Chapter 2in six weeks from the day the news was first heard
that the wealthiest merchant in the city had resigned his post in disgrace, his
daughters had packed up what few goods remained to them—including himself—and
begun the long journey to their exile near a village with the outlandish name
of Longchance. Everyone knew the old man’s health had broken with the ruin
of his fortunes and that the girls were left to rescue themselves by what
devices they could themselves contrive. While no one in the city was moved to
offer them any financial assistance, there was a kind of cool ruthless pride in
them that they had risen to the challenge. Beauty’s negotiating skills had won,
or been allowed to win, by the thinnest margin, the ultimate round, and their
father was to be spared the final misery and disgrace of prison—not because she
had anything very much to offer in exchange for the old man’s meagre life but
in recognition that her determination was absolute. And there was not, after all,
any material gain to be had from letting the old man die in gaol. The price for
this benevolence was a promise that the old merchant would do business in the
city no more. It was a guarantee Beauty was happy to make for him. They escaped only just before Lionheart’s roaring ceased to
compel delivery of their groceries. None of the sisters had ever before ventured out of the city
more than a few days’ journey, and then only for some amusement at some great
country seat. The old merchant had occasionally chosen to conduct his business
in another city in person, but then he travelled by sea, always booking the
most luxurious private cabin for the journey. Now they were on the road for
weary week after weary week, with only such comforts as an ancient unsprung
farm waggon and a pokey tent could offer. They had barely been able to pay for
their place in a traders’ convoy heading in the direction they wished to go;
they would be travelling often through near wilderness, and banditry was common.
But the traders did not welcome them, and they were made quickly aware that
their leader’s agreeing to take them on was not popular with the others and
that they would receive no help if” they found it difficult to keep up. They did keep up. The merchant was ill and weak and wandered
in his wits, but the three sisters did everything, as they had done everything
since the Duke and the Baron had written a few words on two sheets of heavy,
cream-laid paper and sealed them with their seals. Lionheart was lender to
their two slow shaggy horses in a way Beauty had never seen her be tender with
her high-couraged thoroughbreds, and Jeweltongue was gentle with their father
in a way Beauty had never seen Jeweltongue be gentle with any human being less
capable than she. There was one bit of trouble early on. when one of the
traders attempted to pay rough court to Jeweltongue; she had just bitten his
hand when Lionheart hit him over the head with a horse-collar. The commotion
brought some of the others. There was a brief, tense, ugly silence, when it
might have gone either way, and then the traders decided they admired these
soft city girls for defending themselves so resolutely. They dragged then:
colleague’s unconscious body back to his own fireside, and their captain
promised there would be no more such incidents. There were not. Winter came early that year; the traders’ convoy had to take
shelter in a village barely halfway to their goal. It might yet have gone hard
for the three sisters but for Lionheart’s ability to turn three wizened turnips
into a feast for sixteen, Jeweltongue’s ability to patch holes in shirts more
hole than shirt out of a few discreet excisions from the hems, and Beauty’s
ability to say three kind words, as if at random, just before cold—and
want-shortened tempers flared into fighting. By the time of the thaw, the
traders were no longer sorry for their leader’s bargain with the ruined
merchant and his three beautiful daughters, and the fellow still bearing a knot
on the back of his head from a blow from a horse-collar had mended a
frost-cracked wheel for the sisters and refused any compensation, saying that
companions of the road took no payment from one another. The three sisters and their father went the last few miles
alone. The lawyers’ letter had described Rose Cottage as being at the end of
the last track off the main way through the woods before Longchance’s farmlands
began. The traders knew the way to Longchance well, and while none of them knew
anything of Rose Cottage, they knew which track the last one was—or what was
left of it, for it had not been used in many years. It was just wide enough to
take two small horses abreast, and just clear enough for an old farm cart
laboriously to lumber down. A surprising number of the traders came round individually to
say good-bye to their travelling companions, and several mumbled something
about maybe looking in t’see how they was doing, on the way home again. Then
the traders went on the wider way. The three sisters and the old merchant went
the narrow one. The house too was recognisable from the description in the
lawyers’ letter. Small; thatched, now badly overdue for replacement; one
storey, with a loft over half of it, the roof so peaked that the upstairs room
would be only partly usable; stone chimney on either of the narrow sides of the
house, the one on the loft side much the bigger; two small tumbledown sheds and
some bits of broken fence; and a chestnut tree growing a little distance from
the front door. The remains of an overgrown garden spilled out behind the house,
but even Beauty was too bone-weary to explore it. But the house was surprisingly tall for ils small size, and
this gave it a curious authority and a reassuring air of steadfastness. They
all sat and stared while the horses, perceiving the end of the road and a lack
of attention in the hands on their reins, dropped their heads and began to nose
through the debris of winter for anything to eat. It was earliest spring. The sky was blue, the birds sang,
the chestnut tree was putting out its first sticky leafbuds, but the low coarse
growth underfoot was malted weeds interspersed with bare muddy patches, the
brown buds crouched on drearily empty branches, and the house had obviously
been derelict for a long time. The clearing it sat in was reverting to
woodland, with opportunistic saplings springing up everywhere; there was a
bird’s-nest built into a comer of the front door and an ominous crown of ragged
twigs on one of the chimneys. The two sheds hadn’t a sound wall between them;
there was nowhere to keep the waggon or stable the horses. It was a cheerless
homecoming, Lionheart was the first to jump off the waggon, stride
forward, and throw the unlatched door of the house open, spattering herself
with shreds of broken bird’s-nest and fighting off the maleficent embraces of
the long thorny sterns of an overgrown bush just beside the door. Jewe!-tonguc
and Beauty followed her slowly; their father sat dully in the cart. Beauty’s
heart sank when Lionheart opened the door so easily; she had feared the worst when
the lawyers had sent her no key, but if the house had been open to weather and
all depredations both animal and human. . . . “No leaks,” said Lionheart, looking towards the ceiling. She
climbed the ladder and stuck her head through the trapdoor. “Nor any I can see
up here,” she said, her voice muffled. “No rubbish in the comers,” said Jeweltongue. She walked
round the one big downstairs room, touching the walls. “It’s not running with
damp. It doesn’t even smell of damp. Or of mice.” Beauty was standing in the middle of the floor, slowly
turning in ber place, half watching Jeweltongue touching the walls, half
looking round herself, thinking, It does not smell of mice, nor of damp, but it
does smell of something—I don’t know—but it’s a friendly smell—not like a
years-closed-up house. Weil, there may be horrors tomorrow—birds’-nests in the
chimneys, snakes in the cellar—but. .. And her heart lifted for die second time
since the Duke and Baron had written those final lines, and she remembered that
the first time had been when she discovered the papers saying that they still
possessed a little house called Rose Cottage. Rose Cottage. She had wanted the
name to be a good omen. Lionheart came downstairs again, and the three sisters
looked at one another. “It’s perhaps just a bit small,” said Lionheart. “But it’s ours,” said Jewehongue, and walked over to Beauty
and tucked her hand under her sister’s arm. “Those little leaded windows don’t let in much light,” said
Lionheart. “The ceiling is high enough to make the house seem bright
and airy,” said Jeweltongue. “None of our furniture will sit straight on this floor,”
said Lionheart. “None of the wisps and remnants we now call our furniture is
going to sit straight anywhere,” said Jeweltongue, “and we can invent a new
parlour-game for winter evenings, rolling pennies across the slopes.” Lionheart laughed. “There’s a baking oven,” she said,
looking at the bigger chimney. “And think of the fun I’ll have learning where
its hot spots are. The first loaves will have slopes on them like the floor.”
She looked round again, “And we’ll never be lonesome because we’ll always be
under one another’s feet. Not like—not like the last weeks in the old house.” Beauty felt Jeweltongue shudder. “No. Never like that. Never
again.” They returned outdoors. Their father had made his way down
from the waggon and was standing under the tree near the front door. “It’s a
chestnut,” he said. “I’ve always loved chestnut trees. I was a champion
conker-player when I was a boy. Chestnut trees are messy, though; they shed all
year long. Aside from the sticks little boys throw up into them to dislodge the
conkers.” And he laughed. It was the first time they had heard him laugh since
the blow fell, months ago in the city. Jeweltongue, to her infinite disgust, found she could
neither saw nor hammer straight; but Beauty could, and Lionheart learnt from
Beauty. They rehung doors, patched broken flooring, rebuilt disintegrating
shutters, filled in the gaps in the sills—mostly with planking salvaged from
the tumbledown sheds. As their shabbiest dresses grew more and more ragged,
they tied the skirts round their legs till it was almost as if they wore
trousers; they wrapped themselves up in the old silver-polishing tunics that
had once belonged to their major-domo; their hair they bound back severely, and
Lion-heart threatened to cut hers off. “Long hair is a silly fashion for ladies
who have nothing better to do with their time than pin it up and lake it down,”
she said. “I like my long hair,” said Beauty. “You have very beautiful hair,” said Lionheart. “I used to
think—before we shared a bedroom—I used to think it must shine in the dark, it
has such a glow to it. Mine is just hair.” Their father was still frail and spent most of his days and
evenings near the smaller fire, in the area which they used as their sitting-room.
His was the one comfortable chair, but none of the three sisters ever sat still
long enough to enjoy a comfortable chair—said Lionheart—so he might as well
have it, or it would be wasted. As he began to grow a little stronger, he found
a pen and a little ink and some bits of half-used paper, and began to write
things down on them, and murmur to himself. But his eyes were now more often
clear than they were not, and he recognised each of his daughters as herself
and no one else, and they began to feel hopeful of his eventual recovery—as
they had not for the long sad weary time just past—and went about their work
with lighter hearts as a result. Jeweltongue and Beauty at first were the only ones to
venture to Longchance. “We don’t all three need to go, and Father can’t,” said
Lionheart, “and you two are much better at saying the right thing to the right
person than I am—you know you are.” “What you mean is, we can come home and tell you who is going
to vex you into shouting, so you can refuse to have anything to do with them
and leave the work of it to us,” said Jeweltongue. Lionheart grinned, then sobered. “Yes, you’re right—you
nearly always are, it’s one of your greatest faults—but, you know, we can’t
afford to... to annoy anyone here. I’ll try to be polite, but when some buffoon
is yammering away at me, my mind goes blank of anything but wanting to knock
‘em down and sit on “em.” So Jeweltongue and Beauty went alone to sell their horses
and waggon, leaving Lionheart experimenting with lashing together an assortment
of short whippy poles cut from the saplings they had begun clearing from round
the house. There were still birds’-nests in one of the flues of the kitchen
chimney, which they had thus far failed in reaching from either end, although
Lionheart had managed to begrime herself thoroughly with soot, nest fragments,
and bird droppings once already, with her last lot of lashed poles. “You’ll come home to two fully functioning chimneys,” she
promised, “or I’m going to drown myself in the well. Although if I succeed. I
may inadvertently have drowned myself anyway, trying to rasp the feculence off
me again.” “Couldn’t we look for a greenwitch to sell us a charm for
the chimney?’’ said Jeweltongue, dropping her voice after a quick glance at
their father, who was chewing the end of his pen and scowling furiously at his
scrap of paper. “With what money?” said Lionheart, testing the whip-piness
of one of her poles with a muttered “‘Tis enough to try the patience of a
saint.” “You wouldn’t know,” said Jeweltongue. “A witch’s charm must
be cheaper than having your body fouling our well.” “I will take pains not to drown myself,” said Lionheart.
“Now go away before I bite you.” Jewel tongue, while her sisters had been busy with repairs
lo the house, had spent her time cutting and sewing rough but sturdy shins out
of the several bolts of material they had found slowed in the back of the
housekeeper’s wardrobe. “What in sky or on earth did she want with such stuff?”
said Lionheart on discovery. “Perhaps her secret lover is a poacher. It would make a splendid
poacher’s jacket,” said Jeweltongue. “It would make an entire regiment of poachers splendid jackets,”
said Lionheart. “Never mind,” said Jeweltongue grimly. “The auction house
won’t want the stuff: whatever it is, we get to keep it. It’ll wear like iron.
I’ll think of something to do with it.” And so it had gone into the drab heap
of bits and pieces they would take with them into exile. Jeweltongue sewed till her fingers bled from the harshness
of the fabric and the wiry strength of the thread; but the shirts (minus any
pockets useful for poaching) would be as tough as she had predicted, and in the
working community they now found themselves in, she was sure—she was almost
sure—there would be buyers for them. Lionheart was right about their little
remaining hoard of money: It would not last them their first year, and what
they still needed for the house, plus a few chickens and a goat and somewhere
to keep them, would take whatever they made on the sale of the horses and
waggon. Jeweltongue left her elder sister to her pole-lashing and
went outdoors to find her younger one waiting for her. Beauty was sitting on
the high rickety seat of the decrepit old waggon, singing to the horses, who
were obviously listening to her. “And from her heart grew a red, red rose, and
from his heart a briar. ...” “Oh dear!” said Jeweltongue. “Isn’t there something more
cheerful you could sing?” Beauty stopped and looked surprised. “It has never occurred
to me that that is not a cheerful song.” “I’ve never felt that lovers who failed to embrace while they
were alive were going to derive much joy out of plants embracing after they’re
dead,” said Jeweltongue. ‘‘Maybe you just don’t understand about plants,” said
Beauty, smiling. “No, I leave all that to you,” said Jeweltongue. “I would
rather make sailcloth shirts for the rest of my life than weed a flowerpot
once. And I have absolutely no intention of making sailcloth shirts for the
rest of my life.” She climbed lightly up the side of the farm cart and settled
herself delicately on the hard plank seat. “I shall not miss this cart in the
least,” she said. “I will miss the horses,” said Beauty a little wistfully. “Perhaps you will become fond of the goat,” said
Jeweltongue. “Or even the chickens.” “Does one ever grow fond of chickens?” said Beauty dubiously.
“Perhaps the goat.” “We will make an effort for a very nice go?.t,” said Jeweltongue. The two sisters were determined to be optimistic about their
first meeting with the local townsfolk; but clinging to optimism left them
little energy for anything else, and their conversation soon faltered. To
prevent herself from thinking too much about their last experiences of
townspeople. Beauty looked round the thinning woodland they were passing
through and silently recited: Oak. Larch. Don’t know what that is. Sycamore.
Rowan. Wild cherry. More oak. Snowdrops, aren’t they pretty! Truly spring is
coming. But when they arrived in Longchance, they discovered what
else they had won by making aged turnips into feast dishes, and warm clothes
out of rags, and cooperation from antagonism. When the traders’ convoy had
passed through, the only news of the new residents of Rose Cottage left behind
was that they were a merchant’s family, fallen on hard times. The traders had
not so much as named the three sisters and had mentioned the old merchant’s
illness as if this were the central fact about the family. Most important of
all, the traders left no sense of any mystery to be solved. The townsfolk were
inquisitive—Rose Cottage had stood empty for a long time, and Longchance was
small enough to be interested in any newcomers besides—but not agog; cautiously
friendly, not suspicious. And Longchance was a good-natured town. They gave the sisters
good advice and a good price for the horses, if not for the rickety waggon.
Beauty and Jcweltongue came home exhausted but content. They had credit to
spend at the village shops, a promise of delivery via the carter from the sawyer
and the smith, a basket of pullets peeping aggriev-edty under the shawl tucked
round them to keep them from leaping out, a bundle of fresh vegetables to enliven
their stale end-of-winter stores, and a very nice goat indeed, following them
thoughtfully on the end of a string tied round her neck. She was a silky brown
and white goat with long eyelashes around her enigmatic slot-pupilled eyes, and
the fanner’s daughter had named her Lydia and wept at parting from her. “Oh, fiddlesticks!” said Jeweltonguc, shortly after they had
turned off the main way onto the rutted little track to Rose Cottage. “I forgot
to ask about a green witch! Fiddle, fiddle, fiddlesticks. If Lionheart
hasn’t got the chimney clear, there’ll be no living with her. It’s odd, though;
I didn’t see a signboard for a greenwitch, did you? Fd’ve expected her to be in
the centre of town. Longchance is a little bigger than we expected, isn’t it?
Or more energetic, at least. I thought... well, never mind. I’m glad of it; I
like it; it has a good air. But I’d’ve guessed it might almost support a seer
or a small magician, and I didn’t see hide nor hair of any of the professions.
Well, a penny saved. And it will be much harder to sneak anything of that sort
past Father in a house the size of Rose Cottage.” But they arrived home to discover Lionheart triumphant, if a
little red from scrubbing, and two fully functional chimneys. Opring advanced. Beauty and Lionheart were relieved to find
that their awkward carpentry and inexperienced mends were holding firm and
that, so far as they could tell, there was nothing terribly wrong with their
little house. They hoped the thatch would keep the rain oul one more year; perhaps
next spring, somehow, they could find the money to have it redone. Meanwhile,
their father slept in a truckle-bed by the warm banked kitchen fire downstairs,
and the three sisters rigged a patchwork canopy—Jeweltongue took time out from
making shirts to put together scraps from her mending basket—over the mattress
they shared in the loft, so that the pattering rain of little many-1 egged
creatures falling out of the thatch did not trouble them as they slept. Beauty began to have strange, vivid dreams unlike any she
had had before. Sometimes she saw great lordly rooms like those of a palace,
though of nowhere she had ever herself been; sometimes she saw wild landscape,
most often in moon—and starlight. Sometimes she saw her family: Jeweltongue
speaking to a young man wearing a long apron, his hands covered with flour;
Lionheart, with her hair cropped off so short that the back of her neck was
bare, rubbing the ears of a horse whose nose was buried in her breast, while a
man with a kind earnest face stood leaning against the horse’s shoulder; her
father, in a fine coat, reading aloud from pages he held in his hands, to an
attentive audience. And then one night her old dream came back. She had not had
it in so long—and her life had changed so much meanwhile—she had almost
forgotten it; or rather, when she remembered it, which she occasionally did.
she thought of it as a part of her old life, gone forever. Its return was as
abrupt and terrifying as a blow from a friend, and Beauty gave a convulsive
lurch in bed, and a half-muffled shriek. and sat up as if she were throwing
herself out of deep water. “Oh, help!” said Jeweltongue, who lay next to her and was
awakened by Beauty’s violence. “My dear, whatever is the matter?” She sat up
too, and put an arm round Beauty. rubbing her own eyes with her other hand.
Beauty said nothing, and Jeweltongue began to pat her sister’s arm and back in
a desire to comfort them both. Beauty turned jerkily and put her head on her
sister’s shoulder. “Was it a bad dream?’’ said Jeweltongue. “Yes,” said Beauty. “Yes. It is a very old dream—I’ve had it
all my life—I thought it had gone—that I had left it behind in the city.” “All your life?” said Jeweltoague slowly. “You have had this
nightmare all your life and I never knew? I—” But Beauty put her hand over her sister’s mouth and said,
“Hush. We were different people in the city. It doesn’t matter now.” Jewekongue kissed her sister’s hand and then curled her own
fingers tightly round it and held it in her lap. “1 swear you must he the
nicest person ever bom. If I didn’t love you, I would hate you for it, I
think.” “Now you know how I fee! the six hundred and twelfth time in
a row you’re right about something,” said Lionheart sleepily from Jeweltongue’s
other side. “What is happening?” she said through an audible yawn, “It’s still
dark. It’s not morning already, is it, and 1 have forgotten to open my eyes?” “No,” said Jeweltongue. “Beauty’s had a nightmare,” “Nightmares are hell,” said Lionheart feelingly. “I used to
have them—” She stopped abruptly. “Not so much anymore,” she said, “except some
nights, when the beetle and spider rain is bad, I start dreaming the thatch is
leaking.” “I’m all right now.” said Beauty. “No, you’re not,” said Jeweltongue. “I can still feel your
heart shaking your whole body. Whatever is your nightmare about? Can you tell
us?’’ Beauty tried to laugh. “It sounds so silly. I’m walking down
a dark corridor, with no doors or windows anywhere, and there’s a monster
waiting for me at the far end. I can’t see it, but I know it’s there. It’s—it’s
... I suppose it’s just that I haven’t had it in so long. But it seems so—so
much stronger than it used to. I mean ... you always feel like you’re in a
nightmare when you’re having it, don’t you? Or it wouldn’t be a nightmare. But
tonight.. .just now, I was there.’’’ There was a Jittle silence, and then Lionheart sat up as if
to climb out of bed but stopped with one foot touching the floor. “If
Jeweltongue would remove herself so that she is no longer sitting on my
nightgown, I will go brew us some chamomile tea. It’s good for almost
everything; it should be good for nightmares too. You stay here so we don’t
disturb Father.1’ After that first time the dream came back often, but Beauty
did not wake her sisters again. She grew accustomed—she forced herself to grow
accustomed—to the feeling that she was there, that the only difference between
her waking life and her life in the dream was that in the dream she did not
know where she was. She looked for details in her waking life that she would not
be able to match in the dream, in some hope that such small exact trifles would
orient her so firmly to the world of Rose Cottage and Longchance that the dream
would distress her less when she found herself once again in that great dark
not-quite-empty place, but this did not turn out as she wished. If she examined
the wood grain in the walls of Rose Cottage one day, the next night she dreamed
of examining the wallpaper in the corridor in the flickering light of the
candles. If she touched the wall in reaction to the uncertainty of what she
could see, or guessed she saw, she felt the slight roughness of the paper
itself, the seams where the lengths met, and the slickness where the paint had
been drawn on over the stencil. She found that her dream had changed in another way. She had
begun to pity the monster she approached. She feared him no less for this: she did not even know why
she felt pity and grew angry with herself for it. She would rush along the
endless shadowy corridor with her head bowed and her amis crossed across her
breast, feeling grief and pity and raging at herself, Why do I feel sorry for a
monster who is going to eat me as soon as seen, like the Minotaur with his
maidens? When she woke, she remembered how, when she was still only a child,
she had realised that she did not seek to escape, but to come to the end of the
corridor and get it over with—whatever it was going to be. And she remembered
how sick and dizzy and helpless and wild—almost mad—that realisation had made
her feel. It’s only a dream, she had said to herself then, and she repeated it
now, silently, in the peaceful darkness of Rose Cottage, with the reassuring sound of her sisters’ breathing
by her side. It’s only a dream. But why do I dream of a terrible monster
waiting for me, only for me? Jeweftongue gained her first commission to make fine shirts,
for the family who held the Home Farm. “She bought two of my rough shirts for
her husband a little while ago and said at the time that the work was far too
good for farm clothes. Oh dear! It’s just what I want to believe, you see.” “Home Farm?” said Lionheart. “Maybe the squire’ll hear of
you and order a dozen brocade waistcoats.” “Oh, don’t!” said Jeweltongue. “I want it too badly. The
squire has a big family, and they like good clothing. Mrs Bestcloth has already
told me.” Mrs Bestcloth was the draper’s in Longchance. “She says they’re the
only reason Longchance even has a draper’s and that someday one of them will be
in when I am, and she’ll introduce me.” Jeweltongue buried herself in her task,
sitting by the window while daylight lasted, drawing closer to the fire as dusk
fell. Their one lamp lived at her elbow; Lionheart grumbled about cooking in
the dark, but not very loudly. All three sisters resisted the temptation to
stroke the good fabric Jeweltongue was working on and remember the old days. But Lionheart had begun to grow restless. She had thrown herself
into rebuilding the second shed to be marauder-proof, so they did not have to
bring Lydia and the chickens indoors at night—“Just before I went mad,” said Jeweltongue,
who was the one of the three of them who minded most about a clean house and
therefore did more than her fair share of the housework. Then Lionheart built
Ihem a new and magnificently weatherproof privy—“Please observe that all my
joins join,’’ she said—and finished clearing the meadow round the
cottage so it was a meadow again. Beauty had helped with both shed and privy,
but she was more and more absorbed in reclaiming the garden, which didn’t
interest Lionheart in the slightest; and Lionheart was, indeed, enjoying
herself, although her hurling her materials round and swearing at her tools
when she had not skill enough to make them do what she wanted might have led
anyone who knew her less well than her sisters to believe otherwise. But there were no more major projects to plunge into and grapple
with. Lionhcatt trimmed the encroaching undergrowth back a little from the
track that led from the main way to their cottage; but after that she was
reduced to chopping wood for their fires—and this late in the year they only
needed the one fire for cooking—and the cooking itself, which was necessarily
plain and simple and which she had furthermore grown very efficient at. “Who
wants to be indoors in spring anyway?” she muttered. “Maybe I’ll apprentice
myself to a thatcher.” One morning she disappeared. “Oh, my lords and ladies, what will she get up to?” said
Jeweltongue, but she had her sewing to attend to. Beauty spent the day in the
garden, refusing to think about anything but earth and weeds and avoiding being
torn to shreds by the queer thorny bushes which there were so many of around
Rose Cottage. Lionheart returned in time to have the last cup of tea, very
stewed, from the teapot, and to get supper. “Where have you been?” said
Jeweltongue. “Hrnm?” said Lionheart, her eyes refocusing from whatever
distant menial picture she had been contemplating. “Mrnm. Don’t you grow
awfully bored just looking at one stitch and then the next stitch and then the
next? I have been giving you something to distract you, by worrying where I
was,” replied Lionheart, but, before Jeweltongue could say anything else,
added, “Have you met our local squire yet? Or his sister? The sister is the one
you want to put yourself in the way of, I would say. She looks to be quite vain
about her dresses.” “Lionheart, you didn’t!” said Jeweltongue in alarm. “No, no, I didn’t,” said Lionheart. She dropped her voice so
their father, dozing in his chair by the fire, would not hear her. “What would
I say? ‘Good day, sir, in the old days my father wouldn’t have let you black
his boots, but now my sister would be glad of a chance to make your waistcoats?
For a good price, sir, please, sir, our roof needs rethatching’?” Lionheart’s
careless tone did not disguise her bitterness, nor did her sisters miss the
glance she gave to her hands. In the old days they had all had lady’s hands;
even the calluses Lionheart had from riding were smooth, cushioned by the
finest kid riding gloves, pumiced and lo-tioned by her maid. Lionheart raised
her eyes and met Beauty’s across the table. “I know that look,” said
Lion-heart. “What sororal sedition are you nursing behind that misleadingly
amiable stare?” “I am wondering what you thought about the squire’s sister’s
horse,” said Beauty. Lionheart laughed. “It’s the right target, but your arrow is
wide. The squire’s sister drives a pair of ponies oider and duller—although
rather belter kept—than those farm horses we brought here, and the squire
himself rides a square cobby thing suitable to his age and girth. But if you
had asked about the squire’s eldest son’s horse ...” “What?” said Jeweltongue. But Lionheart refused to be drawn.
She stood up from the table and began to bang and clatter their few pots and
pans, as if to drown out any further questions. Finally Jeweltongue said: “Have
a little care. Mrs Oldhouse says the tinker will not be here again for months.” Their father woke up, stared bemusedly at the cup of
now-cold tea sitting at his elbow, and went back to musing over his pen and
scribbles. “May I make you some fresh tea, Father?” said Lionheart, guiltily caught
mid-clash. “No. no, my dear, I am not thirsty,” he said absently; then
he looked up. “You have been away, have you not? We missed you at lunch. Have
you had an interesting day?” A smile Lionheart looked as though she would repress if she
could spread across her face. “Yes, Father, a very interesting day,” she
replied. “Stop making those absurd grimaces,” said Jeweltongue with
asperity. “You look like you have bitten down on a mouthful of alum.” Lionheart was very thoughtful for the next few days, and
while Jeweltongue tried a few times to wheedle something further out of
her—with no success whatsoever—Beauty fell that if Lionheart had decided to
tell them nothing, then nothing was what they would be told, and declined to
help wheedle. Furthermore, she was by now too preoccupied with her garden to
think long about anything else. Beauty had not realised how much she had missed spending
time in a garden, missed the smell and texture of earth, the quiet and
companionable presence of plants. It was a wonderful spring that year, day
after day of warmth and blue skies and the lightest, freshest of breezes, and
while the rain fell as often as it needed to to keep the soil moist and
workable and the streams full, it almost always fell tactfully after dark. There were a few little beds round the house—flowers only.
Beauty thought. Most of her attention was taken up by the back garden, which
was mostly vegetables and quite a substantial plot for a house so small. Here
she could more easily trace the rows and blocks of old plantings. Near the
kitchen door, for example, was an herb patch. It had been laid out in a circle,
like a wheel with spokes; but some of the wedge shapes were empty, and others
had been colonised by their neighbours. She picked leaves from the imperialists:
pungent, bitter, sharp, sweet. She knew the names of a few of them: fennel,
chervil, marjoram, mint. Beauty had walked along what remained of the boundary fence
round the back garden, thinking that her first task must be to replace it. (She
had thought even then, while Lionheart was still engaged upon rebuilding the
privy, that she would try to recruit Lionheart’s assistance for the fence,
though she would not find it so interesting, because it would help keep her out
of mischief.) Once she started planting things, she would want to keep the
chickens from scratching up her beds. Lydia was no problem: she was staked out
each morning, helping to keep the newly reclaimed meadow a meadow, and had
shown no desire—at least not yet—to slip her halter and go foraging for delicacies.
But the woods ran quite near them; deer, and who knew what else lived in the
wilds here, would eat anything the chickens missed. Except, perhaps,
strong-flavored herbs. She stooped and broke off the tip of a dead vine. It still bore small shrivelled pods of—something; Beauty wasn’t sure
what. It was odd, when she thought about it, that the garden didn’t show more
signs of the depredations of enterprising wildlife; it was no longer producing
very much, but—she rubbed the pods between her fingers—these would have been
edible the year they grew, and if they’re growing in a garden, presumably they are
edible. Beauty dropped the pods again. She had no more time now to puzzle
over useless mysteries than she had had when she had been going through her
father’s papers and discovered a will concerning Rose Cottage. If they had a successful garden, they would be able to put
up enough food that they would not have to fear the long winter. The
precariousness of their present life suddenly appeared to her as if she stood
on the brink of a literal abyss, staring into it till the impenetrable darkness
made her dizzy. She knell heavily, feeling the cool dampness seep through her
skirts to chill her knees, and scooped up a little earth in her hands,
scrabbling at it, ending up with a handful of earthworms and wild violet roots
for her pains. But it made her laugh—weeding with her fingernails—and the real
weight of the earth comforted her. A confused earthworm thrust a translucent
pink front end (or possibly rear; it was difficult to tell with earthworms) out
of her handful. She knew this garden would do its best for her. It didn’t
matter how she knew. There were still cabbages growing, here and there, in
erratic little clumps,, and those might be bean shoots, and those, piranthus
squash. And now. here, this was truly the end. Beauty broke off a bit of the
old fence, woven like matting, and it crumbled in her hands. She sighed and stood still. If they were going to have food
from the garden this year, she had to get busy. She should already be busy.
Next market-day she would ask Jeweltongue to bring her seed—perhaps she should
go herself and ask what grew most easily here—oh, but she shouldn’t waste a
day; in weather like this the farmers’ crops would already be shooting, and she
hadn’t even cleared her ground. She should be able to rig up some kind of scarecrow
till she figured out what to do about fencing; clothing suitable for scarecrows
was perhaps the only thing they had plenty of. There was something plucking at the boundary of her
attention. She looked down at the fence shreds in her hand. They looked like
nothing at all and smelt both damp and dusty, but... She shook them in her palm
and then poked them with a finger. A thread separated itself from the
miscellany: a green thread. She picked it up in her free hand and held it under
her nose. It smelt neither damp nor dusty; it smelt... No, she couldn’t say
what it smelt of, hut for a moment she saw, as if she were dreaming it, a
meadow surrounded by a wood, and in it fawn-coloured cows grazed, and the
shadows from the trees fell strangely, some of them, for they seemed to be
silver rather than dark. Her head cleared, and she looked at the bit of green thread
again. Greenwitch charms. There was a greenwitch in Long-chance after all, and
she had sold garden charms to whoever had lived in Rose Cottage before them.
Charms strong enough to be working more than fifteen years after they had been
pur into place. That was more like sorcerer’s work, but no sorcerer would sloop
to making garden charms, certainly not for anyone living in a place like Rose
Cottage. Beauty had already remarked that she’d never seen a chicken in the
back garden but had put it down to being still too unsettled by her new life to
notice everything that was happening round her—even the things she meant to
look out for. Perhaps—perhaps if she took down and buried the remains of
the old fence very carefully where it stood (and before it finished falling
down of its own initiative; obviously the charms had included no longevity
spell for lathe and reed), some of the old charm would persist. Whoever the
unknown greenwitch was, if she was this good, Beauty couldn’t possibly pay her
for new charms. She put the bit of string in her pocket. She felt curiously
reluctant to say anything about her discovery to her sisters. Perhaps it was
only her father’s familiar ban on all magic in their family that made her so
uneasy, made her feel that even her brief vision, with its unmistakable whiff
of magic, was a meddling in things too big for her. What did cows in a field
have to do with a garden charm? Never mind. But if bits of green string would
help to keep her garden whole, she would treat them politely. And she would as
well put up a scarecrow and start at once on a new fence. She had been staring at the musty little slivers of matting
left in her hand and dropped them in relief. When she looked up again, she let
her gaze wander down the length of the garden and was immediately distracted by
her favourite mystery, the one she couldn’t ignore, whether she had time for it
or not. This one was, after all, quite an intrusive mystery. She wanted—she
longed—to know what the deadly thomed shrubs that grew all over this garden
were. Lionheart. after her first few encounters with the
dagger-furred ogre standing guardian by the front door (it was inevitably Lionheart
who, flinging herself through the door at speed, had caught a superficial blow
of the thorny branches across the forehead and come in with blood sheeting down
her face), had wanted to have it and all its fellows out, as part of meadow
clearance and garden ground preparation, and had offered herself ‘‘as the blood
sacrifice,” she said. “You can bury my flayed body under the doorstone to bring
yourselves luck afterwards.” “Having failed to drown yourself in our well a few weeks
ago?” enquired Jeweltongue. “You are such a life profligate. You’ll be offering
next to hurl yourself off the roof for—for—it escapes me what for, but I’m sure
you’ll think of something.” Beauty, who was the acknowledged gardener in the family, had
declined this dubiously advantageous offer although she had immediately tied
the chief offender firmly away from the front door and lopped off what couldn’t
be tied. She had already cut a hole in the truly astonishing climbing
thorn-bush by the kitchen door. This had sent out so many long, uninhibited
stems that it was now rioting over the entire rear wall of the house, nailing
the kitchen door shut in the process as uncompromisingly as any carpenter could
do it. It had climbed well up onto the roof also, no doubt considerably to the
detriment of the thatch it clung to, and had begun to curl itself round the
kitchen chimney. Not even the fact that this chimney was now in regular use
again seemed to discourage it. Even Jeweltongue felt that Lionheart had the right idea, if
a little overexuberantly expressed, but Beauty said, “No. They were planted;
it’s obvious they were planted deliberately. There must be a reason for them. I
want to know what it is.” After lhat she had to stand by her decision, but she
nonetheless wondered if the game could possibly prove worth the candle. Tied-in
stems of these whatever-they-were had a habit of working themselves loose, or
suddenly growing an extra half league, or turning themselves round where they
stood (Beauty knew that this was really only any plant’s desire to lean towards
the sun. but quite often it seemed a malign strategy) and grasping at
passersby. There was also, at each of the house’s four corners, a lower,
rounder shrub with the same flexible stems covered with thorns. These were
almost more dangerous than the climbers, because they were as wide as they were
tail, and their arching branches seemed to lie in wait for the unwary, suddenly
uncoiling themselves from round corners to ensnare their victim. And in the very centre of the big back garden, where the
lengthwise central path met a shorter path running crosswise, there was another
circular bed, like the herb wheel, only much larger, and here grew more bushes
like those round the house, with long wicked stems studded with knife points.
While the herbs had merely colonised across their spoke boundaries, these
bushes had thrown an impassable network of bristling stems higher than a man’s
head in all directions, sprawling, manticore-tailed, across the paths round
them as well, so that forcing them back to within their original bounds had
been Beauty’s first necessary operation for reclaiming that part of the garden
for other, more useful purposes. There was a statue at the heart of that great shapeless,
impenetrable morass, but it was so caught round with spiny stems (and rank
weeds bold enough to make their way through) Beauty had not a notion of what it
might be. The stiletto bushes round the house were leafing out, big
dark green leaves and surprising deep maroon ones. Many of the bushes in the
centre wheel looked dead, their long, perversely floppy branches grey-green,
almost furred, and nearly leafless. Some of them had the tiniest leafbuds showing,
as if they were not sure of their welcome (that’s true enough, thought Beauty).
These in the centre bed were covered with the longest, toothiest thorns (many
of them hooked like fangs, for greater purchase) of anything in the whole
well-armed battalion. Beauty looked at them musingly every time .she went into
the garden. All the thom-bushes were ugly, but these were the ugliest. But it was this crazy tangle of them at the very centre of
the garden which told her—even more clearly than the pernicious presence of
their cousins by both doors of the house—just how loved these awful plants must
have been. Very well, she would keep them—for this year. Chapter 3About three weeks after Lionheart’s first disappearance, she
disappeared again. She had gone into town a few times by herself
meanwhile—always on some errand, carefully agreed upon beforehand—and had come
home in each case looking frustrated, or amused, or pleased, in a manner that
did not seem to relate to the errands she was ostensibly accomplishing. She
came home sullen and discouraged the day she successfully arranged for a local
farmer to deliver some of last year’s manure-heap for Beauty’s garden, and yet
was jubilant and exhilarated the day she failed to find a suitable shaft to
replace the handle of her favourite hammer, the accident that broke it having
put her in a foul temper for the entire day. Neither Jeweltongue nor Beauty saw Lionheart leave, but both
saw her return. They had not immediately recognised her. A very handsome young
man had burst into the house at early twilight, with the light behind him, and
they had stared up in alarm at the intrusion. Lionheart looked at their
frightened faces, and laughed, and pulled her hat off so they could see her
face clearly; but her hair was gone, chopped raggedly across the forehead and
up the back of the head as if she had sawn at it with a pocket-knife. And she
was wear— ing breeches and a man’s shirt and waistcoat. Her sisters were speechless. Beauty, after a moment, recognised
the clothing as having belonged to one of their stablelads, which had thus far
survived being turned to one of Jeweltongue’s purposes, but that did not
explain what Lionheart was doing pretending to be a boy. “I have a job,” she said, and laughed again, and tossed her
head, and her fine hair stood out round her face like a halo. “They think I’m a
young man, you see—well, they have to: I’m the new stable-hand. At Oak Hal!.
But I won’t be in the muck-heap long because I made them dare me to ride Master
Jack’s new colt—that’s Squire Trueword’s eldest son—this colt’s had every one
of them off, you see. But I rode it. A few of them hate me already, but the
head lad likes me, and I can see in his eye that the fellow who runs—that is,
the master of the horse—has plans for me. My saints, I ache; I haven’t ridden
in months, and that colt is a handful. “Oh, and they say to get a decent haircut before I come to
work tomorrow; I’ll have to bow to the squire, and to his spoilt son, if I want
to ride his horses.” Beauty trimmed her sister’s hair and then swept the
silky-tufts into a tiny pile of glinting individual hairs and saved them. The house was lonely at first, with Lionheart gone, but she
came home for a day every week, and baked all the bread for the week to come,
and, with her new wages, bought butter and honey for the bread, and sugar and
the squashed fruit—chiefly the last of the winter apples—at the bottom of the
baskets at the end oi” market-days, and made pies and jam. She had made friends
with the butcher’s boy, who occasionally slipped her a few more beef knuckles
for the stew, a little extra lard in her measure; the butcher’s boy only knew
that she had an ailing father and had recently been taken on up at the Hall. He
didn’t know that the young man he spoke to was also the sister who cooked the
stew and rolled the pastry. Mrs Bestcloth was as good as her promise, and Jeweltongue’s
introduction to Miss Trueword was duly achieved. And Jeweltongue was given a
dinner dress to make. “From a silly painted picture in a magazine, if you please!
If a real person had ever tried to walk in that dress, she would be so fettered
by the ridiculous skirls she would fall over after her first step. Fortunately
Miss Trueword is a little more sensible than her manner.” “Which is to say you talked her into being sensible,” said
Beauty, gently squeezing the small damp muslin pouch she hoped contained goat’s
cheese. Her last attempt had been more like goat’s custard (as Lionheart
mercilessly pointed out), but the texture this time was more promising. “Mmm—well. I had a hard apprenticeship, you know, deflating
that awful Mr Doolittle’s opinions of himself. If he is a philosopher, I am a
bale of hay. But that’s all long ago now. And Miss Trueword is actually rather
sweet. Here, let me hold that bowl for you. Don’t fret, dear. It was excellent
custard last time. Your only mistake was telling Lionheart it was supposed to
be cheese.” Miss Trueword’s frock was a great success; Jeweltongue was
commissioned for three frocks for her nieces and a coat for the squire. She
also altered the stable-boy’s uniform to fit Lionheart properly, using leftover
bits from the squire’s coat for strength. They were no longer using the money
they had brought with them; a few times Jeweltongue or Lion-heart even added
pennies to the cracked cup in the back of the kitchen store-cupboard where they
kept it. Beauty had hurdles for her fencing, and the scarecrow—or something—was
working, for her seeds were sprouting unmolested. Even their father was taking a little more notice of the
world round him, and when he sat and scribbled, he scribbled more and dozed
less. He came outdoors most days for a stroll in the sunlight, and he often
smiled as he looked round him. He complimented Beauty on her garden and
Jeweltongue on her sewing; he had been startled by Lion-heart’s new job—and
even more by her new haircut—but had taken it quietly and made no attempt to
forbid her to do something she had already thrown her heart into. He still fell asleep early in the evenings and slept late
into the mornings, while his daughters tiptoed round the kitchen end of the
downstairs room getting breakfast and setting themselves up for the day. Each
of the three of them caught the other two looking at him anxiously, heard the
slightly strained note in the others’ voices when they asked him how he did, to
which he invariably replied gently, “I am doing very well, thank you.” “It is so hard to know if—if there is anything we should
do,” Jeweltongue said hesitatingly to Beauty. “He was never home when we lived
in the city, was he? He was always at work. Or thinking of work. Even when
Lionheart and I were little—when you were still a baby—he never seemed to
notice anything but business, and Mamma. After Mamma died, we never saw him at
all. Sometimes I think we only knew he existed because the next new governess,
and the next one after that, came to us saying our father had hired her... you
remember.’’ She laughed a little, without humour. “Perhaps that’s why we
treated diem so diabolically. Lionheart and I, that is; you were always the
peacekeeper. And after we outgrew our governesses ... I don’t know what he was
like before, you know? Other than abstracted. The way he is now, I suppose.
But... I wish we could call in a greenwitch, or even a seer, and ask advice
about him, but that’s the one thing we do know, isn’t it? No magic. And I keep
forgetting to ask about it in Long-chance—a greenwitch, I mean. It seems—” She
paused, and there was a small frown on her face. “It seems almost peculiar, the
way I keep not remembering. And the way it never comes up. Maybe it’s different
in the country. In the city which magician had just invented the best spell for
this or that—champagne that stays fizzy even in a punch bowl, something to keep
your lapdog from shedding hair on your dresses—” “How to produce cheese instead of custard,” murmured Beauty,
watching Lydia’s kid decide—again—not to enter the gate into the back garden,
carelessly left open. Maybe he merely did not like narrow spaces. “—was a chief source of gossip, nearly as good as who was
seen leaving whose house at what o’clock at night. Don’t you wonder what he’s
writing? He keeps it under his pillow at night and in his pocket all day.” Summer arrived. Beauty’s runner beans ramped up their poles;
the broad beans were so heavy with pods the crowns of the plants sank sideways
to the earth. The lettuce and beetroot grew faster than they could eat it;
there were so many early potatoes Lionheart made potato bread and potato
pancakes and potato scones. The thorn-bushes had all disappeared under their weight of
leaves. Even the deadest-looking ones round the almost-invisible statue had not
been dead at all, only slow to wake from winter. And then flower buds came, and
Beauty watched them eagerly, surprised at her own excitement, wanting to see
what would come. The weather turned cold for a week, and the buds stopped their
progress like an army called to a halt; Beauty was half frantic with
impatience. But the weather turned warm again, and the buds grew bigger and
bigger and fatter and fatter, and there were dozens of them—hundreds. They
began to crack and to show pink and white and deepest red-purple between the
sepals. One morning Beauty woke up thinking of her mother. She could
not at first imagine why; she had not had the dream and had awoken happy, and
thinking about her mother usually made her sad. But... she sniffed. There was
something in the air, something that reminded her of her mother’s perfume. She hurried to the loft’s one little window and knelt so she
could see out. The thorn-bushes’ buds had finally popped, and the scent was
coming from the open flowers. Roses. These were roses. This was why their
little house was called Rose Cottage. She was the first awake; it was barely dawn. Her sisters
would be stirring soon, and she wanted the first enchanted minutes of discovery
to be hers alone. She wrapped the old coat she used as a dressing-gown round
her—almost every morning at breakfast Jeweltongue promised to make her a real
one soon—and went softly downstairs and into the garden, thoughtlessly
barefoot, walked straight down the centre path to the big round bed in the
middle of the back garden, the earth dawn-cool against her feet. The roses
nodded at her as if giving her greeting; their merest motion blew their
fragrance at her till she felt drunk with it. Her sisters found her there a little while later, her hands
cupping an enormous round flower head as if it were the face of her sweetheart.
They stood openmouthed, breathing like runners after an exhilarating race; then
Jeweltongue kissed her, and Lionheart reached out a hand and just stroked the
silky petals of a pale pink rose with one finger. Neither said a word; slowly
they went back indoors again and left Beauty alone with her new love. At first she could not bear the thought of cutting them,
even one, despite their profusion, but at last she chose just three—one white,
one pink, one purple-red—and brought them indoors, found something to use as a
vase, and knelt by their father’s bed, holding them near his face. She saw him
take a long breath in and smile, before he opened his eyes. He murmured her mother’s name, but gently, knowing she was
gone but happy in the memory of her; then his eyes found Beauty’s, and he
smiled again. “Thank you,” he said. “They are beautiful, are they not?” said Beauty. “Almost as beautiful as she was,” he said. Beauty said nothing. For over two months the roses bloomed and bloomed and
bloomed. Beauty had never been so happy, and for the third time in her life the
dream went away. The monster was gone while her roses were in flower. She had
to tear herself away from the contemplation of them to tend to the rest of her
garden, to eat her meals, to sleep; she had never liked to do nothing, but she
found now that if she could do nothing beside a rose-bush in full bloom, she
was entirely happy. Now that she knew what they were, she changed her mind at
once about tending the bushes—however hazardous an operation this would be to
herself personally. No longer were they in danger of being dug up and consigned
to the bonfire as soon as she had time to spare. She trimmed and trained and
painstakingly fixed and tied the bushes and climbers round the cottage. She
groped gingerly into the very depths of the tangle of the round bed to take out
all the dead wood she could find and arrange the stems to arch and fail most
gracefully, the better to show off their radiant burden of flowers. Every last
spadeful of the remains of the load of manure Farmer Goldfield had brought her
went round the base of the bushes, and she mourned the generous hand she had
used earlier in fertilising her vegetables. Next year she would bargain for two
loads of manure. One mystery remained. She still could not decide what the
statue in the middle of the centre rose-bed represented. In her valiant
adventures pruning away the old wood and scrabbling out the weeds, she had also
made four of the eight wheel-spoke paths navigable again, had therefore been
able to reach the hub and free the statue of its leafy confinement. But she
still had no idea what it was supposed to be. She almost thought it changed,
from one day to the next, because one day it would remind her of a dragon, the
next day a chimera, the third day a salamander, the fourth day a unicorn....
“This is ridiculous,” said Beauty, aloud, to the unicorn. “You are not the
least bit li/jjrdy and snakclike, and I know you have been lizardy and
snakelike previously; positively I have seen scales. Now stop it.” After that
it only ever looked like some tall, elegant, but unknown beast, its long sleek
hair cascading over its round muscled limbs, its great eyes peering sombrely
out from beneath its mane. “Now you are really very handsome,” said Beauty, “And much
nicer than anything with scales. But I still wish I knew what you were.” When the roses finally stopped blooming, Beauty felt as if
she had lost her dearest friend; but she gathered all the fallen petals she
could and put them in saucers and flat bowls, and even after they dried, if she
ran her fingers through them, the scent awakened and made her happy. She kept a little bowl of them by her pillow, where she
could reach them in the night, because as soon as the last petal had dropped
from the last rose in flower, the dream returned. When it did, and she found
herself safely restored to her own bed but still shaken by the memory of the
dark corridor and the knowledge of the patient monster, she held a cupped
handful of rose-petals under her nose till the warmth of her skin brought the
scent out again, and then she drifted gently back to sleep. The winter that year was long and hard, but the old merchant
and his daughters were little troubled by it, except that Lionheart, two or
Ihree times, could not get home through the snow on her days off. Beauty’s
vegetables had surpassed all expectations, and die cold room under the house
was full of sacks and bundles and bottles. The life that had been slowly
returning to the old merchant had begun to grow strong; it was he who cleaned
out the cellar, blocked the rat-holes, and borrowed die tools Lionheart
considered hers to build the shelves to hold Beauty’s produce. <;See that you take very good care of my
hammer,” said Lionheart. “I had a fiend of a time finding the right shaft for
the new handle.” “I shall be very careful indeed not to hit it accidentally
with any axes,” said their father drily. After the clean cold whiteness of winter, when spring’s mud
and naked hrown branches and grey rain and smells of rot and waste came round
again, they were only happy to know that summer was coming again—strangely content
in their new life. There was never any longer an edge—except occasionally of
laughter—to Jeweltongue’s voice when she spoke to. or about, her clients. “I’ve
decided judicious flattery is the greatest ait of all,” she said. “Forget
philosophy.” She hummed to herself as she drew up the dress patterns she
delighted in creating, Lionheart brought home die runt of the litter when the
squire’s favourite spaniel whelped, saying in outrage that the squire had
planned to have it drowned. Once she came home still shaking in fury and told
of thrashing some young lad who wanted to jump a frightened colt over a fence
too big for it—“Just to show us what a big brave man he is. He won’t last. Mr
Horsewise won’t have his kind near his horses.” The old merchant found a job doing sums for several of the
small businesses in Longchance; he bought himself some clean sheets of paper
and began copying some of the contents of his accumulation of scribblings onto
them. “Father, I am dying of curiosity,” said Jewekongue. “I will tell you someday,” he replied, smiling to himself. Beauty’s garden grew and bloomed, and bloomed, and the roses
were even more spectacular this year than last. This second year Beauty took a
deep, deep sigh, and cut many of her beloved roses, and worked them into
wreaths and posies, and let them dry. and she went in with Jeweltongue one
market-day to sell them, and they were gone by micfmorning. She invested some
of her little profit in ribbons, and wove them into bouquets with more of her
roses, and raised her prices, and they, too, disappeared by mid-morning at the
next market-day she went to. “Rose Cottage,” the townspeople said, nodding wisely. “We
all wondered if there was a one of you would wake ‘em up again,’’ and they
looked at her thoughtfully. Several asked, hopefully but in some puzzlement,
“Are you a—a greenwitch then? You don’t look like a sorcerer.” “Oh, no!” said Beauty, shocked the first time she was asked.
But eventuaiiy, as that question or one like it went on being repeated, and
remembering Jeweltongue’s puzzlement about the apparent lack of interest in
Longchance in all [he magical professions, she asked in her turn, “Why do you
think so?” But most of those addressed looked uneasy and gave her
little answer. “The old woman was, you know,” they muttered over their
shoulders as they hastened away. A very old memory relumed to her: Pansy telling her that her
mother’s perfume smelt of roses. What she had forgotten was Pansy saying that
it was generally only sorcerers who could get roses to grow. And she thought
again of the green threads in the old fencing around Rose Cottage and how she
had never seen any animal cross that boundary. Even their new puppy had to be
let out the front door to do her business; she wouldn’t go out the back. But one woman lingered iong enough to say a little more.
She’d been listening, bright-eyed, to Beauty denying, once again, that she was
a greenwitch, and the farm wife who received this news went off shaking her
head. “There, there, Patience; we can’t have everything, and that’s a nice
wreath you bought yourself.” To Beauty she said: “We all know Jeweltongue, and
gettin’ to be your father’s pretty well known, that young scamp Salter, calls
himself a wheelwright, well, I guess nothing’s wrong with his wheels, but he
ain’t never learnt nothing about running a business, and your father had him
all tidied up in a sennight. And your firebrand brother, Lionheart, well, Mr
Horse wise knows how to ride a high-mettled lad, too, and a good thing for both
on ‘em! But you’re always home in your garden, ain’t you? My cousin Sandy had a
couple o’bottles of your pickled beets from your father last winter, which was
sweet of him as she didn’t expect no payment for what she done, but that’s how
we knew you’re home working hard. “My! Smell those roses! Don’t it take me back! Funny how the
house has stood empty this long, roses or no roses. It’s a snug little place,
even if it is a iittle far out of town for comfort. We knew when the old woman
disappeared she’d left some kind of lawyers’ instructions about it—but nobody
came, and nobody sent word, and for a long time we just hoped she’d come back,
because we was all fond of her, fond of her besides having a greenwitch in
Longchance again, which we ain’t had long before, nor since neither.” She
nodded once or twice and started to move away. Then the greenwitch who had made the fence charms had lived
in Rose Cottage! Then it was she who had left the house to them?
But.,. Beauty reached out and caught the woman’s sleeve. “Oh, tell me more.
Won’t you—please?” she begged. “No one wants to talk about it, and I—I can’t
help being interested.” “Not that much to tell, when all’s said and done,” said the
woman, but she smiled at Beauty. “Who is it you remind me of? Never mind, it’ll
come to me. We don’t talk about magic much, here in Longchance, because we
ain’t got any. You have to go as far as Appleborough even to buy a charm to
make mended pottery stay mended. We’ve had a few green witches try to settle
around here—never at Rose Cottage, mind—but they never stayed. They said they
had too many bad dreams. Dreams about monsters living in our woods. We’ve never
had so much as a bad-tempered bear in our woods. In a hard winter the wolves come to Apple
borough, but they don’t come to Longchance. But dreams are important to
greenwitchcs and so on, you know, so they leave. “Miffs us, you know? Why not Longchance? We can’t decide if
it’s because we’re specialer than ordinary folk, or worse somehow, you know’.’
But it’d be handy to have our own greenwilch again, and them roses ain’t
bloomed since the old woman left, and so we’ve been hoping, see?” “The old woman—tell me about the green witch,” said Beauty.
“What was she like? How long did she live here? Did she build Rose Cottage, did
she plant the roses?” “You don’t want much, do you?” said the woman, but she set
her shopping basket down. Beauty hastened forward with the stand’s only chair
and herself sank down at the woman’s feet. “That’s kind of you, dear, and I
like to talk. You want to know what the rest of us Longchancers don’t want to
talk about, you come to me—or if you want it in a parlour with a silver
tea-service, you go to Mrs Oldhouse. Between us we know everything. “No, our green witch didn’t build Rose Cottage nor plant the
roses, but there weren’t much left of neither of ‘em when she arrived. The roof
had fallen in, and you couldn’t see the rosebushes for the wild berry brambles
and the hawthorn, and us in Longchance had wandered into the way of thinking
that, the roses were just a part of the old talc because no one had seen one in
so long. It was funny, too, it was like she knew what she was looking for, like
she was coming back to a familiar place, though no one round here had ever seen
her before. I know this part of the story from my old’ dad, mind, I was a
kiddie myself then. “She came old, and when she disappeared, she disappeared
old, though it was like she hadn’t got any older in between, if you follow me,
and she’d been here long enough to see babies born and grow up and have their
own babies. “She lived at Rose Cottage, and she made rose wreaths.
That’s another thing about her. She smelt of roses all year long, even in
winter. She was an odd body generally—had a habit of taking in orphan hedgehogs
and birds with broke wings and like that—took a child in once that way too, but
when she grew up, she left here and never came back. A beauty, she was; stop a
blind man dead in his tracks, I tell you.” She stopped suddenly and gave Beauty
a sharp look. “My! It’s prob’ly my mind wool-gathering, but it’s that old
woman’s foundling you remind me of. It’s prob’ly just the scent o’ your roses,
after all this time, confusing my thinking. “Where was I? Well, the girl never came back, and no wonder,
maybe, not to come back to this bit of nowhere, but it was a bit hard on the
old woman, maybe. Not that she ever said anything. And when the old woman
herself went off... As I say, we was fond of her, and if we’d known she was
missing sooner, we might have gone looking. Maybe she went back to where she came
from. If she died, I hope she went quick, just keeled over somewhere and never
knew what happened. “Rose Cottage has stood empty, ten years, fifteen, since she
went. Not even the Gypsies camp there. She’d let it be known she was tying it
up all legal in case anything happened to her. I suppose that should have told
us we wouldn’t be having her much longer, one way or another. We don’t have
much to do with lawyers round here; but most of us have family, and she didn’t.
Not that girl, who went off and left her and never sent no word back. “But your sister—that Jcweltongue—she says you never knew
the old woman. Never knew anything about it, except the will, and the house.” Beauty thought of that last terrible time in the city, remembered
again the lifting of the heart when she held the paper in her hands that told
her they had somewhere to go, something that yet belonged to them: a little
house, in a bit of nowhere, called Rose Cottage. “Yes,” said Beauty. “That’s
right; we knew nothing about it till we saw the will. It had—it had been
mislaid among my father’s papers.” “That’s all right, dear,” said the woman. “I ain’t prying
... much; folks’ troubles are their own, and we’ve all had ‘em. But it’s ...
interesting isn’t it? Like you said to begin, you can’t help being interested.
Because the point is. the old woman had to know something about you. And her
roses—they ain’t bloomed since she left. Till you came. “And you’re the one we’ve kind of been waiting for, see? Because
you’re the one always in the garden. Alt your family says so. ‘That Beauty, you
can’t hardly get her indoors to have her meals.’ And we maybe got our hopes up
a bit. Ah, well, it’s as I told Patience, we can’t have everything, and I dunno
but what your wreaths are even better’n the old woman’s.” She had picked up
Beauty’s last remaining wreath and was looking at it as she spoke. She hesitated
and glanced at Beauty again. “D’you know why everyone wants a rose wreath,
dear? Forgive me for insulting you by asking, but you look as if maybe you don’t
know.” “No-o,” said Beauty. “Not because they’re beautiful?’’ The woman laughed with genuine amusement. “Bless you. Maybe
it’s no wonder they grow for you after all. You know—pansy for thoughtfulness,
yew for sorrow, bay for glory, dock for tomorrow? Roses are for love. Not
forget-me-not, honeysuckle, silly sweethearts’ love but the love that makes you
and keeps you whole, love that gets you through the worst your life’II give you
and that pours out of you when you’re given the best instead. ‘There are a lot of the old wreaths from Rose Cottage
around, not just over my door. There’s an old folk-tale—maybe you never heard
it in your city—that there aren’t many roses around anymore because they need
more love than people have to give ‘em, to make ‘em flower, and the only thing
that’ll stand in for love is magic, though it ain’t as good, and you have to
have a lot of magic, like a sorcerer, and I ain’t never heard of a kind
sorcerer, have you? And the bushes only started covering themselves with thorns
when it got so it was only magic that ever made ‘em grow. They were sad, like,
and it came out in thorns. Maybe it was different when the world was younger,
when people and roses were younger.” The woman stood up, and briskly took out her purse, and paid
Beauty for her wreath, picked up her shopping basket, and turned to go; but she
paused, frowning, as if she could not make up her mind either to say something
or to leave it unsaid. “I’d much rather know,” said Beauty softly, and the woman
looked at her again with her friendly smile. “You may not, dear, but I’m thinking maybe you’d better,
I’ve told you there’s no magic hereabouts. There are tales about why, of
course. I’d make one up meself if no-body’d taken care of the job before me.
There was some kind of sorcerers’ battle here, they say, long, long ago, no one
knows rightly how long, and it ain’t the kind of thing the squire puts down in
his record book, is it? ‘One sorcerers’ battle. Very bad. Has taken ail magic
away from Longchance forever’—if we had a squire in those days, though Oak Hall
is as old as anything around here, and sorcerers don’t live in wilderness. But
there’s a curse tacked on to the end of it, like the sting on a manticore’s
tail. It don’t rightly concern you. because the tally calls for three sisters,
and there’s only the two of you—” “My . . . brother?” said Beauty faintly. The woman laughed. “Oh, the menfolk don’t count—like usual,
eh? No, you want sorcery, you got to go to a man, but there’s nothing anybody
should want to have done a greenwitch can’t do.... Now, now, don’t go all
wide-eyed and trembly on me like that. I shouldn’t have mentioned it. There’s
nothing wrong with you and nothing wrong with Rose Cottage. And we’re all glad
of you: that Jeweltongue can almost outtalk me when she puts her mind to
it, and you should see her wrapping that old Miss Trueword round her finger!
That’s a sight, that is. “Pity you ain’i a greenwitch then. We could use one. A greenwitch
would make a good living here, you know. You could even afford a husband.” And
the woman winked. “Maybe you should talk to your roses about it, see if they’ll
tell you a few charms.” Ask her roses to tell her greenwitch charms? Beauty’s astonishment
and worry broke and were swept away on a tide of laughter, taking her questions
about the curse, and about bad dreams about monsters in the forest, with it. The
woman took no offense but patted her hand, grinning, and went away. Jeweltongue relumed even as Beauty was looking after her,
and said, “Beauty, if you’ve sold all your roses, maybe you’ll come lend me
your eye? Mrs Bestcloth has a new shipment in, and Miss Trueword says she will
leave it up to me, and I’m drowning in riches, I can’t decide, I want to use
them all.” Over a late tea at home Jeweltongue said, “You and Mrs Grecndown
were in close conversation for some while, were you not? Did she tell you
anything interesting? Mrs Tree-worthy—she and her husband have the Home Farm,
you remember—says Mrs Greendown knows everything about everything round here,’’ “Yes ... oh ... a bit. Not very,” said Beauty, glancing at
their father, who had come home with them after a day doing sums in Longchance,
and now had his scribbles on his knee, and was holding his teacup
absentmindedly halfway to his mouth. Jeweltongue knew what that glance meant and said briskly,
“Never mind. Help me remember what Miss True-word’s final decisions were, so I
can write them down, my head is still spinning”—help that Beauty knew perfectly
well her sister never needed. By the time she and Jeweltongue were alone together, she had
decided to say nothing of the curse. She thought there was a good chance that
no one else in magic-shy Long-chance would mention it to anyone else in her
family; she was the one who was supposed to be a greenwitch. What did she
herself think about the curse? She didn’t know. Curses were dangerous things;
they tended to eat up their casters and were therefore unpopular among magical
practitioners, though they still happened occasionally. Most likely Longchance’s
curse was some folk-tale that, in generations of retelling, had begun to be
called a curse to give it greater prestige. Her first impulse was to attend the very next market-day,
find Mrs Greendown, and ask her to tell her explicitly just what this curse
was. But she had second thoughts almost at once. She told herself that her
interest might cause, well, reciprocal interest, and there was Lionheart’s
secret to protect. But she knew that wasn’t the real reason for her change of
heart. She didn’t want to know because she didn’t want lo know. And she would
set herself to forgetting that Mrs Greendown had ever so much as mentioned a
curse. “There’s nothing wrong with you and nothing wrong with Rose Cottage.”
She would leave it there. Jeweltongue was fascinated by the story of the greenwitch
who had left them Rose Cottage and appeared to harbour no suspicions that
Beauty was holding anything back, and by the end of her revised history, Beauty
had already half succeeded in forgetting what she had chosen not to tell. “What a romantic story! At least we now know why we never
found the Longchance greenwitch’s signboard,” said Jeweltongue. “All the way to
Appleborough for a simple charm! I don’t think I miss magic, do you? We have
had little enough to do with it since Mamma died, but now it seems as if it’s
just one more thing we left behind in the city. It’s not as ihough the cleverer
practitioners ever came up with anything realty useful, like
self-peeling potatoes or needles that refuse to pierce human skin.” That night Beauty had the dream. Her first reaction to
finding herself again in that dark corridor where the monster waited was of
heart-sinking dismay, for her last roses were still blooming in the garden. No!
she cried in her dream. Let me go! It is not your time! The light of the candle
nearest her flickered, as it” disturbed by the draught of her shout. But as she
drew her breath in again, she discovered that the corridor was full of the
smell of roses, a rich deep scent nothing like her mother’s perfume and even
more powerful and exciting than the scent of high summer in her garden. And she
was not afraid. Chapter 4A second summer turned to autumn, to winter, and the third
spring arrived. But this year was different, Spring was cold and bleak: the
warmth of the turning year never came, and the rain never stopped. Summer
arrived in seas of brown mud; the rivers overflowed and drowned the seed in the
fields and more than a few calves and lambs. Everyone was still wearing coats
and boots at midsummer; everyone was low and discouraged; everyone said they
couldn’t remember a year like this.... And Beauty’s roses never bloomed. They tried. The bushes put out leaves, draggled as they were
by the relentless rain, but the long, arching branches drooped under the weight
of the water, the weight of the heavy dark sky. The climber over the kitchen
door was torn out of its hold on the thatch, and Beauty spent a long dreary
afternoon tying it away from the door so that she need not cut the long stems.
She came indoors soaked to the skin and spent the next week sneezing and
shivering and standing over bowls of hot water and mint oil with a towel round
her head to keep in the steam. The bushes all produced a few hopeful flower-buds, but the
sun never came to open them. Those flowers too stub— born to know they were doomed turned as brown as the mud at
their feet as soon as the sepals parted; a few Beauty rescued, half open, and
brought indoors, where they sal dejectedly in a vase, too weary of the struggle
to finish opening, their petals brown-edged and soon falling. Nor did they bear
more than the faintest hint of their usual deep delicious scent. Everyone grew bad-tempered. Jeweltongue’s remarks had edges
like knives; Lionheart shouted; their father withdrew again into dull silence.
Beauty, who should have been spending most of her time in the garden, felt like
a rat in a trap. She kept the house clean, mucked out the shed, fed Lydia and
the chickens—who were too depressed by the weather to fay—cooked the meals, ran
errands both real and imaginary just for something to do, and stared at the
ankle-deep slop that should have been her garden. And, with some effort, kept
her own temper .,. till Jeweltongue snarled and Lionheart bellowed at her too.
Finally she shouted back, threw a plate across the room and heard it shatter as
she ran upstairs—just before she burst into tears. She buried her face in her pillow, so that no one downstairs
should hear her. The puppy Lionheart had rescued a year ago, rejoicing in the
name Teacosy for her diminutive size and the neat little hummock she made when
she curled up for a nap, followed her, and burrowed under Beauty’s trembling
arm to lick her wet cheek. The leak in the corner of the loft dripped sullenly into its
pail. They had scratched enough money together at last to have their thatch
replaced this spring; but not only could no thatcher work in a steady downpour,
they now had to save the money to buy food for next winter—if they could. The
farmers were all fighting the same weather that kept the thatchers indoors and
ruined Beauty’s garden; market-days at Longchance were a sad affair. Beauty raised her head and gently pushed the cold nose and
wet tongue away from her face. “You are a silly beast,” said Beauty. “You know
you can’t climb down the ladder again yourself. What a good thing you never
grew too large to carry.” Teacosy heard by the tone of Beauty’s voice that she was succeeding
in comforting her, whatever those particular words meant; the main thing, from
her point of view, was that they did not contain the dreaded word No. She
dodged Beauty’s restraining hand, put her paws on Beauty’s arm, and licked her
face harder than ever, wagging her tail till her whole body shook. “Your
generous sympathy is not all joy, you know,” murmured Beauty through the
onslaught. She was just beginning to think she should go back down and
sweep up the fragments and go on with dinner while Lionheart finished her
week’s baking when she heard footsteps on the loft ladder. Jeweltongue laid
their dented little tea-tray down on the floor beside the mattress—the chipped
saucers clattered in the dents, and the cups clattered in the mismatched
saucers—sat down next to her sister, and began to rub her back gently. “I’m
sorry. We’re enough to try the patience of a saint, and even you’re not a saint,
are you? I don’t think I could hear to live with a real saint.” Beauty gave a soggy little laugh, rolled up on an elbow, and
caught her sister’s hand. “Do you ever miss the city? You must think about
it—as I do—but do you ever long for it?” Jeweltongue sat quite still, with an odd, vacant expression
on her face. “How strange you should ask that just now. I was only thinking
about it this afternoon. Well, not so strange. It’s the weather that does it,
isn’t it? The cottage grows very small when it’s too wet to be out of doors. I
hadn’t realised how often I took my sewing outdoors, till this year, when I
can’t. And the cottage is smaller yet when Lionheart is here too, roaring away. “I don’t know if I miss it. ... I miss some things. I
sometimes think it” I have to wear this ugly brown skirt one more day, I shall
go mad. I still remember Mandy, who wore it first; do you remember her?
Creeping round all day with eyes the size of dinner plates, waiting for me to
say something cross to her. Oh! How many cross things I did say, to be sure!
No, I don’t long for that life. But I would like a new skirt,” “Do you miss the Baron?” JewelEongue laughed and picked up the teapot to pour. “I
miss him least of all. Although I would have enjoyed redecorating his town
house. Drink this while it’s hot. Lion-heart has sent you a piece of her
shortbread, see? You have to eat it or her feelings will be hurt. She roars
because she can’t help herself, you know.” “I do not,” said Lionheart’s head, appearing through the trapdoor
in the loft floor. “I roar because—because—It’ you let Teacosy eat that
shortbread, Beauty, I really shall roar. And if you don’t come
downstairs soon, I will feed your supper to Lydia.” It was at the end of the summer that the letter came. Each
spring and autumn since they had lived in Rose Cottage, one or two or three of
the traders from the convoy that had brought them here stopped in on their
journey past, to see how the old man who had once been the wealthiest merchant
in the richest city in the country and his three beautiful daughters—with a
good deal of joshing about the metamorphosis of the eldest into a son, always
accompanied by the promise not to give her away—did in their exile. The leader of the original convoy seemed to take a
proprietorial pleasure in their small successes and always noticed the improvements
they had made since last he saw them: brighter eyes, plumper frames, clothing
that not only fitted well (Jeweltongue would have nothing less round her) but
which bore fewer visible darns and patches, chairs all of whose legs matched,
enough butter and butter knives to go round when they had a fifth, or even a
sixth, person to tea. This visit was less cheerful than usual; the weather had
been bad all over the country, and the traders suffered for it too. Lionheart,
who was the best of the three sisters at pretending high spirits she did not
feel, was not there, and Mr Strong was preoccupied. He was in a hurry; the
convoy had lost so much time to the weather they were passing right through
Longchance with barely a pause. “Mr Brownwag-gon and Mr Baggins send their
regards and beg pardon for not coming round,” he said. “But we’ll be returning
near here in a few days, before we head south again, and one of us will stop in
if there is any reply we can take for you.” Reply? They glanced at one another, puzzled. “I am very back to front today,” Mr Strong said, groping in
his breast-pocket. “Please forgive me. This rain gets into one’s head and rots
the intellect. I would have come anyway to say hello, but as it happens—” and
he pulled out an envelope and laid it on the table. Soon after, he said his good-byes and left them, but the
echo of the door closing and the slog of his footsteps had long gone before
anyone made a move toward the envelope. Jeweltongue, who had sat next to Mr
Strong at tea, and was nearest, said, “It’s addressed to you, Father,” but her
hands remained buried in the fabric on her lap. Beauty stood up and collected
the tea-things, putting the bread and butter back in the cupboard with elaborate
care, setting the dirty plates in the washing-up bowl as if the faintest rattle
of crockery would awaken something terrible. She had finished washing up, tipped the water down the pipe,
pumped enough fresh water to refill the kettle and the water-jug, and begun to
dry the tea-things and put them away when Jeweltongue abruptly leant forward,
jerkily picked the letter up, and dropped it hastily in front of her father, as
if she wanted to be rid of it as quickly as possible, as if she wanted to push
it as far away from herself as she could, as if it were literally unpleasant to
the touch. Their father dragged his eyes away from the fire—hissing as
the rain dripped into the chimney—and took it up. He held it for a long moment
and looked back at the fire, as if tempted to toss it into the heart of the
small blaze. With a sigh, he bowed his head and broke the seal. One of his ships, presumed lost at sea, had returned, loaded
with fine merchandise, worth a great deal of money. His best clerk—whose wife
sent her regards, adding that she still prized her collection of once-silent
canaries who now sang chorales finer than the cathedral choir, and whose
rehabilitated sphinx was, she and her husband agreed, better than any watchdog
they had ever had—had contrived to have the ship impounded till his old master
could arrive. But he pleaded that he should come soon, for he himself was only
a clerk, and working for a new master, who took a dark view of his new clerk
working for another man. “What he does not say is ‘a man disgraced and driven out of
town,’” said the old merchant, having read the letter aloud to his daughters.
“I suppose I must go.’’ Silence fell. Beauty went on polishing and polishing the
dish in her hand; Jeweltongue stared blankly at the needle she had just
threaded. Teacosy, who had been hiding under the table—her usual lair in
anxious times—crept out, scuttled over to Beauty on her belly, and tried to
press herself between Beauty’s feet, tucking her head and forequarters under
the hem of her skirt. Beauty reached down absently with the hand still holding the
damp tea-towel, to pat the still-visible hindquarters. “Wait at least till
Lionheart comes home again,” she said. The old merchant appeared to rouse himself. “If 1 can. But I
must be prepared to leave when the convoy returns.” When Lionheart came home two days later, she hurtled through
the door as she had done every week since mis wretched year had begun,
scowling, ready to shout at anything that displeased her, softening only to
greet the ecstatic Teacosy. Her father’s news stopped her. Bewilderment, and dismay, replaced
the scowl. “Must you go? Surely—surely you can ask Mr Lamb to dispose of the
goods and—and take a commission?” “I could. But it would not be honourable.” He lifted his
shoulders. “You do not know; there may be something left at the—at the end.”
His daughters, Beauty particularly, knew better than he did how many debts had
been left to pay after their house had been seized and their property
auctioned. There were legal papers saying these were to be forgotten, but they
would be remembered again as soon as there was money to pay them. “What shall I
bring you?” Lionheart shook her head, and her scowl returned. “Yourself,
home safe. Soon.” Their father smiled a little. “Jeweltongue?” Jeweltongue smoothed the sleeve on her lap. It was silk,
with lace insets, and the lace had gold threads hi it that caught the light. It
was much like one of the sleeves of a dress she had herself worn to the party
when trie Baron had taken her a little aside and proposed marriage to her,
telling her that he cared for nothing but her and her beauty and brilliance and
that if she agreed to marry him, he would be the happiest man on earth. She was
to leave all her dresses and jewels to her sisters, for once she was his bride
he would buy her a new wardrobe that would make the queen herself look dowdy;
her father could provide her with a dowry or not, it was a matter of greatest
indifference to him. She had always been fond of that dress, and when Miss Jane
True-word had spoken of silken sleeves with lace insets, she had remembered it.
“Nothing,” she said. “Nothing at all. But that you come home again as quickly
as you may.” “Beauty. There must be something I can bring you.” He looked so sad that Beauty cast her mind round for something
she could suggest. He would know she did not mean it if she asked for jewels
and pretty dresses. They had Teacosy and did not need another house pet, nor
could they afford to feed and shelter anything beyond Lydia, her latest kid,
and the chickens. Whatever it was, it needed to be something small, that would
not burden him on the way. They really lacked for nothing at Rose
Cottage—nothing but the sun—nothing, so long as they wished to stay here, and
it seemed to her that they did wish to stay here. Nothing but the sun. Her eyes moved to the windowsill, where
an empty vase stood, and she gave a little laugh that was mostly a sob. “You
could bring me a rose.” Her father nodded gravely, acknowledging the joke. And when
the convoy returned, he went with them. The winter the old merchant spent in the city he had been
born in and lived in all his life till the last three years was sadder and
emptier even than he had expected. His clerk had not succeeded in keeping die
impoundment proof against raids from his old creditors; there was little enough
left even by the time he arrived, and he saw none of it at all. Winter frosts
came early, but no snow fell; the muddy, churned ground Croze solid and into
such rutted, tortured shapes that many of the roadways were impassable. He
found himself stranded in the city week after week, with almost no money even
to put food in his mouth; if the Lambs had not taken him in, he did not know
what he would have done. Yet he had to keep hidden even that kindness, for his
clerk’s new master disliked any expression of loyalty—or even human sympathy—to
his old. The old merchant rather thought that Mr Lamb’s new master had taken
him on as a deliberate gesture of spite against himself, but he found he no
longer cared. He lived in a tiny house called Rose Cottage, very far away from
here, and as soon as the weather broke, he would return. He knew now that his
daughters had been right, and he should never have come in the first place.
Well, he had learnt his lesson. But he was not able to wait for the weather. His old
business rival discovered his clerk’s, as he put it, duplicity, and declared
that the clerk couid choose between his job and sheltering a ruined man. Mr
Lamb did not tell him this; the captain of the ship that had returned found out
about it. The captain offered his own home as alternative, but the old merchant
declined. He was bad luck in this city, and the sooner he left the better.
Reluctantly he did accept the loan of a horse—or rather of a stout shaggy pony—from
the captain, on the man’s flatly refusing to let him leave town on any other
terms. “It’s winter out there, you old fool; you could die of it, and then
where would your daughters be?” My daughters would do very well without me, thought the old
man, but he did not say the words aloud. Instead he admitted the pony would be
useful and thanked the captain for his offer. There was little traffic leaving the city. The old merchant
found a few people to travel with; but he had to make a zigzag course from one town
to the next, for no one (sensibly) was travelling very far, and some people
turned back—or had to turn back—when they discovered the state of the roads. He
was daily grateful for the pony, who, nose nearly at ground level and ears
intently pricked, found her way carefully over and round the twisted furrows
and rough channels where the frozen mud crests sometimes curled as high as her
shoulder, and who seemed to have a sixth sense about which murky, polluted ice
would hold her and which would not. At long last he was within a few days of Longchancc, and of
Rose Cottage, and the weather was breaking at last. Spring was here—nearly. He
had been gone the entire winter. There was no one travelling in his direction, but he
thought—so near to home—he could risk it alone. The track itself was easy to
find; there were so few roads this far into the back of beyond it was hard to
lake a wrong one. And bandits usually stayed in the warmer, richer lands. He
set out. The first day was fine: blue and clear. He could not
remember when he had last seen blue sky; he stared up till he was dizzy and had
to cling to the pony’s mane. Little soft airs moved round him, brushing his
face and hands, toying as if in disbelief with the heavy, fraying edges of his
winter cloak. When he made camp that evening, he was as near to being happy as
he had been in the months since the letter had come. He was warm; he knew where
he was; he would see his daughters soon. He thought of his secret work waiting
for him and smiled; maybe sometime this year he would be ready to satisfy
Jcweltongue’s curiosity. ... He wondered drowsily how many knots the sawyer and
carter and wheelwright had got their accounting into in the last few months. He
would sort them out soon enough. He fell asleep dreaming pleasantly of long
straight columns of figures. But the clouds rolled up while he slept, and the temperature
began ominously to drop. When he woke, he found the pony lying beside him, her
warm back against his, and there were snowflakes falling. He saddled up, frightened, and turned the pony’s nose to the
road. But the flakes grew thicker and thicker, and the wind rose and howled
round them, and soon the pony was going where she chose, because he no longer
had any idea where they were and could not see the track for the drifting snow. But the pony toiled on, showing no sign of wanting to stop;
the old man was glad enough to hold on to the pommel and let her go, for he
knew that to halt would be to freeze to death. He grew wearier and wearier and
slumped lower and lower; once or twice he woke up just before he fell off. The
pony’s steps were growing slower. Soon he would have to get off and lead
her.... The snow stopped and the pony’s hoofs struck bare ground at
the same moment.’She stopped, and he looked up in amazement, snow sluicing off
his shoulders and back. They had come out of the woods into a clearing. The merchant,
dazed with exhaustion and astonishment, at first could not make out what he was
looking at. It was not merely that no snow was falling here now, no snow had
fallen; the ground before him was green with grass. Immediately around them was
a vast formal garden, laid out in low box ma/.es, dotted by small round pools
with classical statues rising from their centres. The box looked freshly
clipped, the pools quiet and untroubled by ice, and the paths were recently
raked. This stretched as far as his tired eyes could see on cither hand. Beyond
the garden before him, at the end of a straight drive surfaced with small
twinkling white pebbles, was the most magnificent palace he had ever seen, even
in his days as the wealthiest merchant of the wealthiest city in the country. The palace was perhaps only three storeys high, but each
storey was twice the height of those in an ordinary house; the windows were as
tall and wide as carriage-house gates. The facade was impressively handsome but
forbiddingly plain, the heavy square pediments of the ranks of windows
emphasising a glowering look, and all was made of a grey-white stone which
glittered slightly, like the pebbles in the drive, and which made the building
hard to look at for very long. It seemed to shimmer slightly, like an elaborate
mirage. The merchant blinked, but the garden and the palace
remained. He looked down at himself. The snow was melting on his sleeves and
along the pony’s mane. He looked up. The sky overhead was iron grey, but he
could not tell if it was twilight or cioud cover that made it so. But no snow
fell from it. He was afraid to turn round; would he see wintry woods again. The
blizzard that might have killed them? If this was a mirage, he wished to
believe it was real till it was too late.... May kind fate preserve me, he
thought. If it is not a mirage, this must be the dwelling of the greatest
sorcerer that has ever lived. But where are his guardian beasts? His messenger
spirits? Everything was wrapped in the deepest silence and stillness, deep as
the snowbound stillness that follows a blizzard. When his pony bowed her head
and blew, the sound unnerved him. The merchant dismounted stiffly, took his pony’s rein, and
walked forward. His numbed face began to hurt, for the air here was warm. He
stripped off his sodden gloves and loosened his cloak. The pony had come out of
the blizzard and into this—this place at the head of the drive, as if she had
been following a clear path. Perhaps she had. Their feet crunched on the
pebbles; the sound was notliing like the squeak of feet on fresh-fallen snow. The huge arched portico over the doorway into the palace was
lit with hundreds of candles. There was not even so much wind as to make the
candle flames flicker. He stopped on the threshold, but only for a moment; he was
too tired, and too precariously balanced between fear of what lay behind them
and fear of what lay before, to risk any decision. His feel, had decided for
him; let them have their way. He took the pony through the archway too, partly
for company, partly because he would not leave her behind after all they had
been through together. She balked, briefly, when her hoofs touched carpeting, but
she did not wish to be left alone either, so she crowded up close behind the
merchant and pushed her face into his back. They walked down a long corridor together; the old merchant
was simply following the line of lit candles. He saw great dark doorways on
cilher side of him, but he had no urge to explore. The way they went was full
of light, and he went on hopefully, though he would not have wanted to say precisely
for what. He and his pony both needed sleep and food as well as shelter, but it
seemed ridiculous that they should be wandering through an enchanted palace
looking for these things. He looked back once over his shoulder. Their passage was
leaving no muddy footprints, no dark damp patches of melted snow. He did not
look back again, He knew they were caught up in some great magic, but this
little reminder of it was almost more frightening than the fact of the palace
itself. They walked here without trace; it was as if they were invisible,
insubstantial, as if they were ghosts.... He tried to rally himself: Think of
the row in an ordinarily grand house if one such as I, and leading a dirty,
shaggy pony as well!, should be found indoors, and uninvited! Think of the
cries of outrage, the rush of servants with their buckets of soapy water to
scrub the carpet—think of the disdainful footmen hustling us back to the door! He remembered the passionate strength he had had in the
first weeks following his wife’s death, when he had forbidden any magic or any
practitioners of magic in his house ever again. It was the only absolute law he
could ever remember making. He would have laughed, now, had he the strength, at
what seemed to him suddenly the wild wastefulness of his younger self. For the
truth was that he had no wish now to spurn what appeared to be offered to him.
He was grateful to have his life, to be granted the hope that he might, after
all, see his daughters again. But he wished someone would come and reassure him they did
know he was here. And he wished that whoever it was that came might be more or
less human. Or at least not too large. There had been a sorcerer he had had mercantile
dealings with who had a hydra to answer his door. He’d had to call on the
sorcerer himself because his clerks were all too frightened to go. But he had
been younger then too. They came to a room. It was a small room for the size of the
palace, but a very large room to a man who lived in Rose Cottage. The soft
crimson carpet of the corridor con— tinued here, and the candelabra on the walls were ornate
gold, with great golden pendant drops made to look like dripping candle wax,
and the wallpaper was a weave of red and gold, patterned to look like ripples
of fabric bound with golden cords. There was a fire in a fireplace large enough
to roast the pony, and a table drawn up beside it, with a place laid for only
one person but with enough food for twenty. The merchant gave a great sigh and unsaddled the pony. She
staggered forward and stood, swaying and steaming, in front of the fire; then
she turned her head and ate three apples out of a silver-gilt bowl on the
table. “I wish there was hay for you,” said the merchant, picking up a loaf of
bread and breaking it into pieces with his hands and offering it to her; she
ate it greedily. But as he held it out to her, something caught at the corner
of his eye; he looked over her shoulder and saw ... a golden heap of hay in a
little alcove on the other side of the fireplace, opposite the table. He would
have sworn that neither hay nor alcove had been there a minute before. But when
the pony had linished the bread, he turned her gently round, and she went lo
the hay at once, as he sat down at the table. He did not fall to as quickly as she; he was too worried
about his host. But he was tired and hungry almost past bearing, and he tried
to comfort himself with the thought that there was plenty of food here for two,
should the master of this place appear after all—or perhaps his hydra. He
looked again at the amount of food provided, and the single place setting, and
worried about the appetite of the creature usually catered for. Finally, and
half embarrassed, the merchant moved the single place setting round the edge of
the table, so that he was not sitting at the head but only on the master’s
right hand. He ate eagerly but hesitantly, looking often towards the
mouth of the lit corridor where he had entered, taking great pains to spill
nothing on the snowy tablecloth, laying the serving spoons exactly back where
he found them, choosing nothing that would by its absence spoil the elegant
appearance of the whole. By the time he was no longer hungry, his eyelids
seemed to be made of lead; with a tremendous effort of will he stood up from
the table, thinking he would lie down in front of the fire to sleep. His knee
knocked against something, and he discovered a little bed with many blankets
drawn up close behind him where he had sat at the table. He shivered because he
knew there had been no bed there earlier and he had heard nothing. But there it
was, and he was tired. He stayed awake jusl enough longer to pull the biggest
blanket off the bed and throw it over the now-dozing pony. He woke to the sound of munching. There was more hay in the
alcove, and his pony was going at it busily. There was also a bucket of water
and another of the remains of a feed of mixed corn. The blanket was still over
her, barely; it hung down to her toes on one side and was halfway up her ribs
on the other, and it was caked with rnud and pony hair. The merchant pulled it
off her—she paused to say good-morning, shoving at his breast with her nose—and
laid it in front of the fire, thinking sadly that their ghostly presence here
did not extend quite far enough after all, and hoping that perhaps he might be
able to brush the worst of the mud and hair off when the blanket was dry. But he was growing accustomed; when he turned back to his
side of the fire, he was not surprised to discover that his bed had
disappeared, and the largo table replaced with a smaller one, again with a
place setting for only one, but enough breakfast for six hungry old merchants.
“They are adjusting,” he murmured to himself. There was also a single red rose
in a silver vase. When he looked up from his breakfast, his eye was caught by
a small door in the wall opposite him, standing a little open. He obediently
crossed the room to investigate; within was a bathroom, gloriously appointed
and the bath full of steaming hot water; beyond that was a water-closet. When
he had climbed at length from the delightful bath, he found a new suit of
clothes waiting for him; when he returned to the main room, the blanket he had
laid before the fire was not merely dry but clean, and the pony herself was
clean and brushed and saddled with tack as fresh and supple as if it had been
oiled every night since the day it was made. The pony’s thatch of a forelock
had been braided and tucked under the browband, and she looked very pleased
with herself. “Thank you,” he said helplessly, standing in the middle of
the floor. “Thank you, thank you. You saved our lives.” There was no answer. He
turned towards the door and then paused, looking back at the breakfast table.
The remains of his breakfast were still there, as was the rose in the silver
vase. He remembered Beauty’s sad, half-joking wish, and plucked the rose out of
the vase, and put it into the breast of his coat. Then he took up the pony’s
rein and went through the archway, down the long crimson-carpeted corridor
towards the door, open now on a bright spring day. But the silence of the palace was shattered by roars as of
some enormous wild beast; his quiet pony reared and shrieked and .jerked the
rein out of his hands. He was knocked winded to the floor; when he struggled to
stand up, the bright doorway was blocked by a Beast who stood there. The merchant’s heart almost stopped beating in the first moments
of dumb terror. The Beast seemed not merely to blot out the sunlight but to
absorb it and grow even larger by its strength. The outside edge of his
silhouette was fuzzy and shimmering, as confusing to the eye as the merchant’s
view of the grey-white palace with its glinting white driveway had been the day
before. When the Beast stirred, rays of dazzling light shot in at the merchant
like messages from a lost world, but as he moved again, and they were effaced,
it was as if the Beast deliberately struck them away from the merchant, as a
cruel gaoler might strike at the outstretched hands of his prisoner’s
beseeching friends. The merchant’s first fumbling thought was that this Beast
was rearing on his hind legs, but then he saw that his shape was not unlike a
man’s—only hugely, grotesquely, bigger than any man—and that he dressed like a
man. Grasping at his reason, the merchant hoped it was only fear, and the
dazzling, narrow bursts of light, which made the Beast so difficult to see. He lifted
his eyes, trying to find this man-shaped Beast’s face, to look into his eyes,
the belter to plead with him, for would not a man-shaped Beast respond to the direct
look of a man? His gaze travelled up the vast throat, found the great heavy
chin, the jaw of a carnivore, the too-wide mouth, thin lips curled back in a
snarl, the deadly gleam of teeth—He could raise his eyes no farther; his mind
was disintegrating with terror. Before he lost himself to madness, he dropped his gaze to
look at the Beast’s garments, forced himself to stare at them, to recognise,
and to name to himself, cloth, buttons, laces, seams, gores, pleats. He saw
that the Beast was dressed entirely in black, and the clothes were themselves
odd, of no fashion the merchant knew. He wore an open, sleeveless gown, of some
kind of stiff heavy material overlaid with black brocade and trimmed in black
braid, which fell from thick gathers at the shoulders to a great whipping
length of hem which roiled out round him like half-opening wings as he paced
and roared. Beneath this was a long, soft, but close-fitting waistcoat,
embroidered, also in black, but in a pattern the merchant could not make out.
Even the shirt beneath it, the ruffle at the collar and wrists were unrelieved
black, as were the trunk-hose and the low boots, strapped tightly round the
ankles. The Beast threw back his head and roared a last time; then
he spoke, and his voice shook the walls. “1 have fed and sheltered you and your
creature when you both would have died in the blizzard else! And you repay my
kindness and hospitality by stealing my rose!” The merchant opened his mouth, but no words came. He leant
against the wall of the corridor and closed his eyes, waiting for the blow. “Speak!” The merchant opened his eyes. The Beast was standing still
at last, and now the sunlight streamed in round him; there was a wide channel
of light from the doorway to the merchant’s feet, one edge of it sculpted by
the shape of the Beast’s shoulder and the fall of his gown. Perhaps that gave
the merchant courage; perhaps it was that as the Beast was now standing, he was
half turned sideways, and with the wings of the gown collapsed round him, he
looked only huge, no longer big enough to obliterate the sky. The merchant
wondered where his pony had got to. “I—I—” The merchant’s voice was a croak, but as he discovered
he could again speak, his mind began to race, spilling out frantic excuses. “I
am very grateful—I am very grateful—truly 1 am—I know we would have died—we
were nearly dead—I am sorry about the rose—I was not thinking—that is, I was
thinking, but your house is so grand—I thought you would not miss it—it is just
that my youngest daughter grows roses, but the weather this year meant none of
them bloomed, and she was so sad, so sad, her roses are her friends, and she is
such a good girl, a kind girl, I thought to bring this one to her.. . .” As the merchant said, “Her roses are her friends,” the Beast
gave a little shudder. The merchant saw it in the ripple in the edge of the
channel of light, as the Beast’s gown swirled and fell still again. The
merchant had kepi his eyes fixed on that track of sunlight as he spoke, and now
both edges of the channel ran suddenly straight, as the Beast moved away from
the door. The merchant looked longingly out upon the shimmering while driveway,
at the border of smooth lawn he could see, and the dark haze of trees beyond,
but he knew there was no point in trying to run. The Beast would snatch him out
of the air before he reached the door. He wished again he knew where his pony
was. He glanced towards the Beast, who had his back to him, and
the merchant was suddenly, unwelcomely shaken by an unmistakable flare of pity,
for the Beast stood with his great shoulders and head bowed in a posture unfathomably
sorrowful. If he had been a man, and even if that man had threatened his life
but a moment before, the merchant would have put a hand on his shoulder. But he
was a Beast, and the merchant remained next to his wall. But he wondered .. .
and now, perhaps, he hoped. The Beast turned back towards the merchant, catching the
edge of the sunlight again, halving the bright track that led to the merchant’s
feet, and fragments of light glanced off the curves and angles of his face as
he turned. The merchant’s breath caught on a sob, and he turned his own face to
the wall. He did not dare close his eyes—were not the Beast’s footfalls
silent?—but he had, just then, confused by pity and dread and daylight, nearly
looked into the Beast’s face. “Your daughter loves roses, does she?” the Beast said at
last. Now that he was no longer roaring, his voice was so deep the merchant had
to strain to hear the words. “They grow for her. do they?” “Oh yes,” said the merchant eagerly, looking at the Beast’s
feet. “Everything in the garden grows for her, but the roses most of all.
Everyone in the town comments on it.” The merchant raised his eyes just lo the
Beast’s breast level; his peripheral vision told him the Beast still stood with
his shoulders stooped and his head lowered. The merchant was appalled when he
heard his own voice saying: “I—I—may I bring you some this summer, to—to
replace what I—I stole? Her—her—her wreaths are very much admired. ...” In the silence following his involuntary words, the merchant
heard his heart drumming in his ears, and there was a red fog over his vision
that was not explained by the crimson carpet. The Beast stood as if
considering. “No,” he said at last. “No. I want your daughter.” The merchant gasped; a great pain seized his breast, and two
tears rolled down his face. “Stand up, man, and catch your pony, and ride home. I could
kill you, you know, and it would be my right, for you have stolen my rose. But
I am not going to kill you. Go home and tell your daughter to come to me.” “No—oh no!” cried the merchant. “No—you may as well kill me
now, for I will not sacrifice one of my daughters to take my place!” “Sacrifice?” said the Beast. “I said nothing of killing the
girl. She will be safe here, as safe as you were, last night, till you stole my
rose. Nothing comes here that is dangerous—save me—and 1 give you my word she
will take no harm of me.” The merchant, far from standing up, had sunk down, as his
knees gave way, and now he bowed down till his fore— head nearly touched the floor, and covered his face with his
hands. “Nay, you think a Beast’s word is not to be trusted?” As the
Beast strode towards him, the merchant, in a final spasm of terror, struggled
again to his feet and spread his hands, thinking to meet his death as bravely
as he could, but all he feit was the sleek thickness of the Beast’s fur as he
forced his huge clawed hand into the breast of the merchant’s coat. He saw the
Beast’s great hand closing tight round the rose’s stem; when he opened it
again, the palm had been pierced by one of the thorns, and three drops of blood
fell softly to the crimson carpet, making a dark stain like a three-petal led
flower or the first unfurling of a rosebud. “I am a man in this,” said the Beast, staring down at the merchant;
the merchant felt that look burning into his scalp. “I keep my promises. By my
own blood I swear it. “I am lonely here—tell your daughter that. She is a kind
girl, you say. Just as no fierce creatures come here for fear of me, who am
fiercer, so no gentle ones come either. I desire companionship. “I give you a month; send her to me by then, or, believe
this, merchant—I will come and fetch her. Take her this as a token of my oath.”
And the Beast bowed down low before the merchant’s amazed eyes, tower than the
merchant would have guessed any Beast of such bulk could bow, till his long
mane trailed on the carpet and mixed with the crumpled wings of his black gown,
and laid the rose at the merchant’s feet. The Beast sprang up at a bound, turned, and took two steps
out of the doorway, turned again, and disappeared. The merchant heard no
footfalls, but perhaps that was only because of the ringing in his ears. He slowly picked up the rose and stood staring at it. As he
had fixed his mind on the Beast’s garments a little time before, now he fixed
his mind on this rose. It seemed to him he had never seen one so dark, in its
centre almost as black as the silhouette of the Beast; but the outer petals
were of a redness more perfect and pure than he could remember seeing anywhere
in his life, with no hint of blue suggesting purple, no weakening of its depth
of colour towards pink; and as most of Beauty’s roses reminded him of silk, so
this one reminded him of velvet. He looked up. He seemed quite alone, and his heartbeat no
longer deafened him. He took a cautious step; again his legs would hold him. He
turned away from the sunlight, walked back down the corridor, and found his
pony trembling in the now-empty alcove where she had spent the night. So glad
was she to see him that he led her without fuss back towards the front door and
towards the place where they had met the Beast, though he felt her neck under
his comforting hand still rigid with tear. He mounted just over the threshold,
and they set out on their journey once again. Chapter 5It was hardly noontime when the merchant saw the tiny
track to Rose Cottage winding off to the right of the wider track he was on,
which he had found almost at once, as soon as the pony had stepped into the
trees at the edge of the Beast’s garden. He was not fully convinced that he was
not still held in some dream-state manipulated by the Beast, and he often
reached out and touched the branches of trees, when they passed near enough, to
reassure himself of their reality—but what, he said to himself despairingly,
was not a sorcerer as great as the Beast capable of? But then Beauty was running towards him; she had seen him
from where she had been in the garden, and she flew to him, and half dragged
him off the pony, and embraced him, laughing, and crying Jeweltongue and Lionhcart’s
names. It wasn’t till all three sisters—and Teacosy—were there, hugging and
patting him and saying (or barking) how glad they were to see him (under the astonished
gaze of Lydia, who stopped eating to watch), how relieved they were to have him
home with them again, that it came to them he was not rejoicing with them. “Father, what is it?” said Lionheart. He shook his head. “Let me sit down—let us all sit down, and
I will tell you. Beauty—this is for you.” And he took the rose from the breast
of his coat. It should have been crushed and wilting after several hours in a
pocket, but it was not; it was still a perfectly scrolled, half-open
goblet-shaped bud of richest red, poised delicately on a long stem armed with
the fiercest thorns. “Oh! What a beauty!” said Beauty. “I have none of that
colour. I wonder if it would strike if I cut the stem?” Lionheart had turned to the pony. ‘That’s a good little
beast,” she said, not noticing how her father shivered at the word beast. “Is
she your profit from the city? You could have done much worse.” Jeweltongue was rubbing one of her father’s lapels between
her fingers. “That is the most elegant cloth. I wish I had some of that.
Perhaps 1 can ask the traders to look out for some for me when they come
through again. Father, you must tell me where you found it. Master Jack would
buy a coat ot that faster than his sisters order dresses.” “Father, you have pricked yourself,” said Beauty. “There is
blood on the stem.” And then the old merchant shuddered so terribly that he
nearly fell down, and the sisters forgot everything in their anxiety for him. He seemed to them to be feverish, and so they drew out his
bed, and pulled off his boots, and tucked him up with blankets and propped him
with pillows, and fed him soup, and told him not to talk but just to rest. He
wanted to resist them, but he found he had no strength to resist, so he drank
the soup and fay back, murmuring, “I will lie here just a little while, and
then I will tell you,” but as he said, “I will tell you,” his face relaxed, and
he was asleep. Once or twice that day he woke and said aloud in distress,
“I must tell you—I must tell you,” and each time one of the sisters went and
sat beside him, and took his hand, and said, “Yes. yes, of course you will tell
us, but wait a little till you’re feeling stronger. You have had a very long
journey, and you are weary.” Beauty dreamt the dream that night, but the endless corridor
was lined with rose-bushes, and while she could see no roses, their scent was
heavy upon the air. But this lime the perfume gave her no comfort, and the long
thorny branches tore at her as she tried to walk past them, and one caught her
cheek. With the sharp suddenness of the pain she almost cried out, only just
stopping herself by biting her lips, and when she touched her face, there was
blood upon her fingertips. When she woke, she found blood on her pillow; she
had bitten her lip in her sleep, and three drops had fallen on the pillow slip,
making a shape like a three-petalled flower or a rose-bud just unfurling. The old merchant slept all the rest of the next day, and
that night, and the day following, waking seldom, though sleeping restlessly,
and Beauty and Jeweltongue went about their ordinary tasks with heavy hearts
and distracted minds, wondering what their father would tell them and wishing
both that he might sleep a little longer so they need not hear it quite yet,
and that he might wake soon and let them know the worst. Lionheart, much valued
as she now was by her employers, had asked and been granted special leave to
come home every evening while her father was so ill, at least till she had some
notion of whether he grew sicker or would mend. She left before dawn and came
home after dark, riding her father’s pony, whom she had named Daffodil, and she
was tired and short of sleep, but so were all three sisters, for worry. On the third evening, at last, the old merchant’s head
cleared, and he called his daughters to him, that he might tell them his story,
and he told them all of it, sparing himself nothing. He finished by saying, “I
do not wish to lie to you now. But there is no question of Beauty taking my
place. As soon as I am strong enough again to walk that far, I will return to
the Beast’s palace. And then the Beast can deal with me as he sees fit. But I
am glad to have had the chance to see you all, my dears, my dearcr-lhan-dears,
this final time, to tell you how much 1 love you and to say goodbye.” Beauty had sat cold and motionless through the last of her father’s
story, and at these words the tears ran down her cheeks and dropped into her
lap. “Ah! That 1 should have asked you for a rose! I was selfish in my little, little
sorrow—and it is I who will take up the fate / have earned. Father, I am going
to the Beast’s palace.” He would not hear of it; but she would hear of nothing else,
and they argued. Beauty, always the gentle one, the peace-maker, was roused to
fury at last; she crossed her arms tightly over her stomach as if she were
holding herself together and roared like Lionheart—or like the Beast. But the
old man’s strength came back to him twice over in this, and for a little while
he was again the man he had been just after the death of his wife, wild with
the strength of grief and loss. And so the old merchant and his youngest
daughter shouted at each other till Teacosy fled the house and hid in the
now-crowded shed with the goat, the chickens, and the pony, Daffodil. But Jeweltongue and Lionheart, after a little thought, came
in on Beauty’s side, saying, “He says she will take no harm of him, and he
declared he would kill you!” “I am old, and the little left remaining of my life is
worthless; you love me, but that is all. The three of you will do well enough
without me.” But that all three of his daughters should range themselves
against him was too much for him after all, for he was older now, and the
winter had gone very hardly with him, and he had been near the end of what
remained of his bodily strength before the blizzard and the meeting with the
Beast. His fever came on him again, and he lay half senseless for many days,
rousing himself occasionally to forbid Beauty to leave him, although he seemed
to have forgotten where she was going. The sisters took a little of what
remained of their thatching money—for they had come through the lean winter
just past with a little to spare, partly on account of having one less mouth to
feed in their father’s absence—and paid the local leech for a tonic, but it had
no effect. “I do not think he will mend till I am gone,” said Beauty at
last, a fortnight after their father had come home with his dreadful news. But
then her sisters clung to her, and Jeweltongue wept openly, and even
Lionheart’s face was wet, although she had twisted her expression into her most
ferocious scowl. “I will—1 will surely be able to visit,” Beauty said,
weeping with them. “This palace must be close at hand—as Father has described
it. Or he is so great a sorcerer as to make it seem so, and I do not care the
truth of it. I am a quick walker—I will find a way to come here sometime and
tell you how I get on. It will—perhaps I will be like Lion-heart, who comes
home every seven days. I will—I will weed the garden, while Lionheart bakes
bread. Remember, he has—he has promised no harm to me. And—can a Beast who
loves roses so much be so very terrible?” Her eyes turned again to the red rose in the vase on the windows!]!.
It had opened slowly and was now a huge flat cupful of darkest red petals, and
its perfume filled the little house. As its colour was like none of her roses,
so was its perfume different from them also; this was a deeper, richer, wilder
smell, and it seemed almost to follow her round during the day, so that it was
in her mouth when she cleaned out the shed or weeded the farthest row in her
vegetable garden. And it came to her every night, in the dream, where the
rose-bushes now grew thicker and thicker, till they crossed the corridor and
tangled with the bushes on the other side, and she could only force her way
through them more and more slowly, wrapping her hands awkwardly in her skirts
as she handled the dangerous stems. And yet, in her dream, it never occurred to
her not to go on; it did not even occur to her to look behind her and see if
the way back was clear. Beauty had cut two bits off the long stem of the dark red rose
and thrust them into her cuttings bed, and she spoke to them every day, saying,
“Please shoot for me, for my sisters and my father, so that they may think of
me when they see you bloom,” for she in truth did not believe, in her heart of
hearts, that the Beast would keep his promise. But it was equally clear to her
that this was her fate, that she had called its name and it had come to her,
and she could do nothing now but own it. And so it was less than three weeks since the old mer— chant’s return when Beauty packed up the few things she had
chosen to take with her and set out. But she had thought often and long about
her Father’s story: how the Beast had been roused by the theft of the rose, how
he had dwindled and looked sad, how he had taken particular interest in the
daughter who believed her roses were her friends. And so she took one more
thing with her, secretly, tucked away in her clothing. She embraced her sisters on the doorstep in the early
morning. Their father had had a bad night, and Jeweltongue had sat up with him.
There were hollows under her eyes and heavy lines around her mouth, where there
had never been lines before. Lionheart looked little better, for her
late-and-early hours were telling even on her strength. The three of them spoke
quietly, for their father was finally asleep, and they hoped that he would not
learn that Beauty was gone till it was too late to stop or to follow her. Teacosy, aware that something had gone wrong with the old
merchant’s homecoming, had been shadowing each sister in turn so closely that
whoever was chosen for that hour could not move without tripping over her. In
the last few days she had apparently decided that the wrongness threatened
Beauty most and never left her side, generally creeping up the loft ladder
during the night to sleep on her feet and having to be carried down in the
mornings. She was now leaning against Beauty’s shins so heavily she felt like a
boulder instead of a small dog, except that boulders don’t tremble. “I cannot think the Beast’s palace can be found unless he
chooses it be found; surely Father will understand that searching is useless.
...” Beauty’s voice trailed away. “Do not forget to water my cuttings bed every
day; twice a day, if the summer grows hot....” Again her voice faltered. It was
difficult to think of what needed to be said when there was so much and so
little to choose from. Finally she stood silent, gripping her sisters’ hands,
smelling the warm human smell of them, the scent of each as precise and
individual as the shape of her face, and she was terribly aware that she was
going to a place where there would be no hands to grasp nor arms to embrace
her, and no friendly human smells. Jewel tongue loosed her hand from Lionheart’s and reached
into a pocket in her apron. “This is for you,” she said to Beauty. She held out
a tiny embroidered heart on a silk rope. “It’s to—to—I don’t know. It’s not to
remember us by, because I know you’ll remember us, but it’s to have something
to hold in your hand when you think of us. I—I only thought of it myself a few
nights ago; you know it’s been so hard to think clearly about anything since
Father returned.... I would have made you a rose, but I didn’t think I could do
one well enough in so short a time; hearts I can do in my sleep. As I think I
did this one. And—I’ve used some of Lionheart’s hair. You remember you picked
up the bits after you finished cutting it, and put them in the old sugar bowl
on the mantel? So you have both of us, Lionheart and me. Here. Take it.” Beauty released both hands to take the silk rope and set it
round her neck, and then the three sisters embraced, till Beauty broke away and
went running down the track, her tears cold on her face in the early-morning
breeze, and the desolate howl of Teacosy in her ears. When she came to the end of the little track that led to
Rose Cottage and set her feet upon the wider way that came up from the city and
wound past Longchance on its way to its end in the wild mountains of the east,
she closed her eyes and turned in a circle three times clockwise, and then she
walked three steps forward, holding her hand in front of her face just in case
she walked into a tree, though she was quite certain she would not. After three
steps she opened her eyes and found herself on a track only a little bigger
than the one that led off the main way to Rose Cottage, but it was a track she
was quite sure she had never seen before. The wood on either side of her beyond
the track looked older and wilder than thai around Rose Cottage. The tangle
here told her that there would be no frequent glimpses of farmland beyond, as
there were everywhere near Long-chance, where the undergrowth was regularly
cleared and the old trees were felled for firewood and building. Furthermore, running on either side of her, at just a little
distance, as if the track had once been broader, were two rows of beech trees,
as if lining a drive. She had seen few beeches since they had left the city,
and she had missed them. She left the track for a moment when there was a
tittle suggestion of a gap in the low scrub and put her hands on a beech tree.
The fee! of the smooth familiar bark gave her courage. She touched
Jeweltongue’s little embroidered heart and returned to the path. She wondered if her father had awakened yet, if he had
missed her, if Jeweltongue would tel! him she was only out in the garden, if Teacosy’s
wretchedness would give them alt away immediately. She wondered if she had been
right to guess that her father would not mend till she left—and that he would
mend when she did. Had the Beast sent his illness? Did he watch them from his
palace? What a sorcerer could and could not do could never quite be relied
on—not even always by the sorcerer. She could hate him—easily she could hate
him—for the misery of it if he had sent it. If he kept his promises like a man,
did he suppose that they, mere humans as they were, would keep theirs any less?
The price was high for one stolen rose, but they would pay it. If he had sent
her father’s illness to beat them into acquiescence, she would hate him for it. The bitterness of her thoughts weighed her down till she had
to stop walking. She looked again at the beech trees and, not waiting for a gap
this time, fought her way through to the nearest and leant against it. turning
her head so that her cheek was against the bark. The Beast is a Beast, even if
he keeps his promises; how could she guess how a Beast thinks, especially one
who is so great a sorcerer? It was foolish to talk of hating him—foolish and
wasteful. What had happened had happened, like anything else might happen, like
a bit of paper giving you a new home when you had none finding its way into
your hand, like a company of the ugliest, worst-tempered plants you’d ever seen
opening their flowers and becoming rose-bushes, the most beautiful, lovable
plants you’ve ever seen. Perhaps it was the Beast’s near presence that made her
own roses grow. Did she not owe him something for that if that were the case?
It was a curious thing, she thought sadly, how one is no longer satisfied with
what one was or had if one has discovered something better. She could not now
happily live without roses, although she had never seen a rose before three
years ago. She could not stand here forever, and she had best not go on
standing here at all. If the Beast had been watching them, if he was watching
her now, he would see no good reason for her stopping, because there was none.
And she wanted no sorcerous prods to send her more swiftly on her way. Would
the Beast tell her, if she asked, that her father had recovered? It was clear daylight when she reached the beginning of the
gardens and the white pebble drive. But even Beauty’s young eyes could not see
how far either the clearing or the palace itself extended; the building seemed
to run a very long way in both directions, and a distant dark irregular haze
seemed to suggest lhat the trees pressed up close just beyond its corners. Beauty walked down the drive, staring at the clipped box and
the stark paths and stone pools, thinking forlornly that there was nothing here
for her. Her eyes burnt with unshed tears, and she walked stiffly, because her
legs were trembling. This will not do at all! she said to herself, a little
frantically. I haven’t—I haven’t even met the Beast yet! But this was the wrong
thing to think of, because then fear and sorrow broke free of their bounds and
seized her. She turned off the path, and groped her way through the openings
in one of the hedges, and sat down on the edge of a stone pool. The stone was
coo] and hard like any stone, and this served to comfort her a little; she took
a deep sigh and contrived to find some humour in being comforted by the dull
grey coping of an uninteresting round pool. She looked at the statue in her
pool: a blank-faced maiden carrying an um and wearing what would have been
impractical and highly unstable draperies, except for the fact that they were
made of stone. The maiden was not nearly so graceful and attractive as the
statue in the centre of the garden at Rose Cottage. Beauty turned a little where she sat, to look at the palace
again; it seemed to her very bleak, and she wondered if there was any rose that
would climb tall enough to soften its harsh face. Even the one galumphing over
the rear wall of Rose Cottage (its stems were now appearing on the far side,
and Beauty predicted that in another year or two it would likely be locked in a
battle for precedence with the slightly more subdued one by the front door)
might find this palace too much for it. Then she thought of window-boxes under
all those gigantic, joyless windows, full of cheerful, untidy plants like
pansies and trailing peas and nasturtiums, in the vividest colours possible.
She was by now genuinely smiling. I wonder where the Beast’s rose garden is, she thought, For
there is no sign of it here. She stood up and made her way slowly back to the drive and
more slowly yet towards the gaping front door. There were no candles lit today,
and in the bright daylight the open door looked like the mouth of a cave. Or of
a Beast. She came to within a few steps of the portico, and halted,
and could make herself go no farther. Her heart was beating so quickly she had
to keep swallowing, because it seemed to be leaping up her throat; her head
felt light, and there was something wrong with her vision, as if everything she
looked at were no more than an elaborate mirage. ... She touched Jeweitongue’s
embroidered heart again. The decision was made; she was here; she would not
turn back; she would not even look back over her shoulder... . She had been standing, staring at the portico and the door beyond
in a kind of half trance. A shadow caught the comer of her eyes, and she spun
round, backing away so quickly that she blundered against the nearest box
hedge; it pricked her sharply even through her skirts. She stumbled, regained
her balance, and stood staring at the Beast. She was less lucky than her father, who had never looked the
Beast clearly in the face. The old merchant had had some little warning of the
Beast’s approach by hearing him roar before he appeared and was therefore
already frightened enough to have difficulty looking at the threat directly;
and the Beast had remained, throughout that interview, with his back to the
daylight. Beauty had had the warning of her father’s experience, but it was the
wrong sort of warning, or she had taken the wrong warning from it. She had
thought only that this Beast was a very iarge, strong, and therefore dangerous
Beast, who was the more terrifying because he walked and dressed and spoke like
a man. Had she had the opportunity to choose, she would still have
chosen to look immediately into the Beast’s face upon meeting, to have the
worst borne and past at once. But the worst borne is not necessarily past and
over with thereby. The worst of fighting a dragon is being caught in its fire,
but you do not survive dragon encounters by commanding your muscles to
withstand dragon fire, because you and they cannot. You survive by avoiding
being burnt. Beauty knew no better than to wish to marshal her forces before
she met the Beast, though that marshalling would not have saved her. As it was,
she was surprised into looking into the Beast’s face. The contrasts she found there were too great: wisdom and despair,
power and weakness, man and animal. These made him far more terrible than any
hungry lion, any half-tamed hydra, any angry sorcerer, terrible as something
that should not exist is terrible, because to recognise that it does exist
shakes that faith in the foundations of the natural world which human beings
must have to bear the burden of their rationality. Later Beauty thought of a metaphor to explain the shock of
that first sight of the Beast: She felt as if she were melting, like ice in
sun. Water is perhaps a kind of ice, but it is not ice, it is water.
Whatever—whoever—she was, it was being transformed implacably into something
else; she was being undone, unmade, annihilated. .,. But that unravelling
thought—which she would later put the words to of ice burning in the heat of
the sun—made her drowning mind throw up a memory of those last days in the
city. And she remembered staring into the eyes of the salamander, into those
two pits of fire whose dangerous heat she had felt, and she heard the
salamander’s dry, scratchy voice saying, I give you a small serenity. With her last conscious strength, she cupped her hands and
immediately felt the warmth between the palms, as if she held a small sun; and
then the heat surged up her arms and into her body, reaching into every niche
and cranny, till it had reshaped her flesh into her own precise, familiar,
individual contours, and she was neither water nor ice nor unmaking but again
herself. And she opened her mouth and gasped for air, for since she had raised
her eyes to the Beast’s eyes, she had not breathed. All of this took no more than a minute, as clocks understand
lime. She lowered her eyes then, and wishing to regain her composure
and not wishing to appear rude, she dropped a curtsy, as she would have done to
a great lord of the city, keeping her eyes upon the ground; but the graceful
dip of her curtsy was hampered by the box hedge. She could not quite bring
herself to step away from it, for any step forward would take her nearer the
Beast. “You need not curtsy to me,” said the Beast. “I am the
Beast, and you will call me that, please. Can you not bear to look at me?” She looked up at once, pierced to the heart by the sorrow in
his voice and knowing, from the question and the sorrow together, that he had
no notion of what had just happened to her, nor why. From that she pitied him
so greatly that she cupped her hands again to hold a little of the salamander’s
heat, not for serenity but for the warmth of friendship. But as she felt the
heat again running through her, she knew at once it bore a different quality.
It had been a welcome invader the first time, only moments before; but already
it had become a constituent of her blood, intrinsic to the marrow of her bones,
and she heard again the salamander’s last words to her: Trust me. At
that moment she knew that this Beast would not have sent such misery as her
father’s illness to harry or to punish, knew too that the Beast would keep his
promise to her, and to herself she made another promise to him, but of that promise
she did not yet herself know. Trust me sang in her blood, and she could
look in the Beast’s face and see only that he looked at her hopefully. This time it was he who looked away first. “If you will
follow me, I will show you to your rooms,” he said. “I—I would rather see your garden. I—I mean, your
flower-garden,” she said almost shyly, and hesitating to mention roses. She
look one, two, three tiny steps away from the box hedge. The Beast was so
large! And it would be easier to be near him outdoors, in these first few
minutes of—of—in her first attempts to adjust to—to—She did not think she could
bear to look at the rooms she was now to live in, that did not have her sisters
in them. Roses might comfort her, a little. Or if they could not, nothing
could. ., . She shook herself free of that thought quickly and allowed instead
her gardener’s passion to be drawn by die prospect of roses which bloomed so
far out of their season as the one diat had decorated their father’s breakfast
table, the one which still stood in the window of—No! She would not let herself
think of it. Roses; she was thinking of roses, of what a great sorcerer indeed
the Beast must be, to have roses blooming in winter. She might have been frightened of the Beast’s silence if she
had not been so absorbed by her thoughts, in not thinking the thoughts that
most pressed on and plucked at her. She came to herself and noticed his silence
and wondered if she had offended him, and a small cold prickle of fear touched
her. But then he said: “You will see... what remains of my garden.” He looked
out over the box hedges, the paths, and the stone pools, and she thought that
they brought him no pleasure; this was not what he thought of when he thought
of his garden. “Later.” He led her into his great house, and Beauty followed
timidly, keeping not too near to him, but not—she hoped—too far away.
Everything was silent, except when Beauty brushed her hand against a curtain,
or a dangling crystal drop from a low sconce—just to hear the sound. The carpet
was deep, and neither her footsteps nor the Beast’s made any noise at all; nor
did he make any further attempt at conversation, and she could think of nothing
she wished to say to him. But there was still—wasn’t there?—some odd quality to this silence,
a heaviness, as if the air itself were denser here than usual, that it did not
carry sound as ordinary air did, that it required a slightly greater effort
than usual to walk through. Was this what a sorcerer’s house always felt like?
She had never been invited indoors at the house of the salamander’s master, but
he had also been retired, so perhaps that would still have told her nothing.
There had been no sense of oppression—of otherness—in his front garden,
except by what the salamander provided in its own self, and that was all she
knew. There was an almost liquid quality to this air, to this unknown ether
coiling among the solid objects, herself and the Beast among them. She waved
her arm in front of her and fancied that she saw liny, ghostly ripples of
turbulence, like the surface of a troubled pond, following the motion. But even this occupied only part of her attention. She was
so astonished by everything she saw that this oppression—whatever caused it—was
not as great as that simpler oppression of spirits she had anticipated when she
had followed the Beast indoors. She knew that her weariness of soul and body,
after what had already happened to her both today and all the days since her
father had relumed from his disastrous journey, made her more susceptible to
intimidation, but knowing this, she was still oppressed and intimidated and had
little power of resistance. This indoors was so unlike what she had left, so unlike even
the very grand house they had had, long ago, in the city when they had been
wealthy. It seemed to her that this house was as much grander than their city
house as their city house was to Rose Cottage, and it was Rose Cottage that she
loved, far more than she had ever loved anything in the city. And the walls
were so high and wide, the ceilings so distant that the Beast seemed no larger
than an ordinary man, in such a setting, but Beauty felt no bigger than a
beetle, creeping after him. At last they came to an enormous circular room, with an eight-pointed
star inlaid upon the floor, and eight doorways leading out of it, and sunlight
through a dome overhead, the dome ringed with an inlay that matched the star.
Even here the Beast’s footfalls made no sound, but Beauty’s more ordinary shoes
made a soft tapping on the smooth bare floor. The Beast strode across the star
without hesitation, the wings of his gown laying flying shadows over the
sparkling tiles, and threw open one of the doors. “I will leave you now,” he
said. “If there is anything you need, say it aloud, and if it is within this
house’s power—or mine—it will be brought to you at once.’’ He turned to go the
way they had come. “Oh, but wait,” said Beauty. “Please. Your garden—” “Later,” said the Beast, his hand on the door, and he
crossed the threshold without pausing. Beauty looked after him as the door closed behind him, but
as soon as she looked away—to the other doors, to the sun lighting up the gilt
and coloured enamel tiles in the floor—she no longer knew which door they had
entered by. She turned to the one that had remained open, the one the Beast had
opened for her. Inside was an enormous room, or rooms. There were no proper
doorways with doors, hut a series of large spaces semidivided by half-width
walls, their demarcations more clearly indicated by the arrangement of the
furnishings. There were jungles of furniture, cities of statuary, and the walls
were thick with tapestries and paintings. The outer rooms of the palace which she had seen had been
even larger, more dramatically designed, more spectacularly ornamented: these
rooms were almost more humbling by being closer to her own experience of wealth
and magnificence. She knew she did not belong in this palace; this recurred to
her with every caress of the queer thick air against her skin. But in these
rooms ... It was a little as if a king had decided to reward a farmer, and
knowing the farmer would have no use for, nor interest in, silks and velvets
and fancy wines, still gave him a phaeton and a team of blood horses when he
would rather have had a good pair to pull his plough. It took her a little while to realise that her sense of the
wrong sort of familiarity—the not merely disorienting, the distressing pull
towards something unsuitable, as the farmer might have admired, and even longed
for, the phaeton team—was caused by the fact that every decorative pattern,
every carving, every lick of paint and bit of fabric, were of vines and flowers
and trees and fruit. And the commonest representation was of roses. The carpet she first stepped ob from the mosaic floor of the chamber of the star was dark
green, but it was also thick with huge pale pink cabbage roses. Towards the
first wide door space these grew darker till in the next room the roses were
all a vivid pink; but they faded again and lost some of their petals towards
the next doorway, till in the next room the roses Beauty walked on opened fiat,
their golden stamens showing in the centre of but a dozen or so gracefully
curved petals which were pink-tipped and cream-hearted ... and so on. The wallpaper—what could be seen of it—all bore small
climbing roses in different colours, and the table that stood in the centre of
the first room, so that Beauty had to go round it to reach the next, had roses
carved in relief round its edge, and inlaid in exquisitely tinted pietra dura
across its surface; the stems of the torcheres, standing in slender elegant
clusters in every corner, were wound round with roses, and tiny rosebuds
surrounded each individual candle: a stone maiden, not unlike the one Beauty
had seen in the pool in the front garden, stood holding a bowl of roses over
her head, whose brim she had tipped, and she was so covered by a cascade of
stony roses that all of her that was visible were an eye, one cheek, a smiling
mouth, and the tips of her toes. In the second room the panelled walls were almost entirely
covered by a series of tapestries portraying a garden in each of the four
seasons. “You’re cheating,” murmured Beauty, for there were roses showing in
both the spring and autumn scenes, as well as rioting so profusely across the
summer ones it was almost impossible to ignore them long enough to see what
else was represented. “But perhaps it is true here,” Beauty said; “perhaps this
is the garden I have yet to see?” And she heard the hope in her voice, but she
also feit the wrench as she averted her mind from recollecting a dark red rose
on a cottage windowsill. She walked over and touched one of the summer tapestries
with her hands. A little peacefulness seemed to sink through her skin at the
contact, and she realised that the dense air of this palace was lighter in
these rooms, in her rooms, and her lungs did not labour here. She felt the tiny
pressure of the silk rope round her neck that bore the little embroidered
heart; she remembered the comfort of the touch of the beech tree in the middle
of the wild wood, remembered the moment before the front door of the palace
when she had known the Beast would keep his promise to her ... and, before she
could stop herself, remembered the last moments of her sisters’ arms round her
and their scent in her throat. It was in the midst of that memory, as she took
a deep, steadying breath, that she became aware of another scent. She dropped her hands and turned round, and on a tall
japanned cupboard she found a china bowl full of dried rose petals. She drew
her fingers through them—as she had often drawn her fingers through rose petals
in smaller cracked or chipped bowls or saucers that stood at various sentinel
posts around Rose Cottage—and gloried in the smell released; but at the same
time there was a tiny doubt in the back of her mind that this was not quite the
same rose smell as—as—When? Just now? Just when? She looked round, puzzled.
Perhaps there were other bowls of other sorts of roses’ petals scattered about
in these rooms, though she had not seen them. What she seemed to be remembering
was a deeper, richer, almost wilder smell, a smell that might almost have given
her dreams. She walked on through the rooms, following a wide swathe of
sunlight. At last she came to what she recognised as a bedroom, because it
contained a bed, although the bed was so tall it required its own short flight
of stairs, drawn up against one long side (its wooden surfaces carved with
rose-buds, its tread carpeted with pink rose-buds), and its curtains (patterned
with crimson roses) looked too heavy for her to move by herself. She walked
over to it, slid out of the straps that held her small bundle of belongings to
her back, dropped the bundle at the foot of the bed. It tipped over and
disappeared under the trailing hems of the bed-curtains. On the wall nearest the bed there was a fireplace, with a
fire laid but not lit on the clean-swept grate, the tips of whose uprights and
crosspieces were round flat open roses. Round the corner from it were two
doors. She opened the first and found a tidy water-closet, with a subdued
pattern merely of grapevines on its walls and one tactful candle sconce
dripping golden grape leaves. But the second door opened upon a bathroom as
grand as a ballroom, the walls gold-veined mirrors, the floor pink marble, and
the bathtub as large as a lake, its taps so complicated by water violets and
yellow flags it was hard to guess how they worked. The whole effect was so
gaudy she took an involuntary step backwards, and then she laughed aloud. “No,
no, I can’t use anything like this; I won’t; I should drown in the
bath—supposing I ever made sense of diose taps—fall down on the floor, and be
horribly embarrassed by the walls. I’d rather wash out of a teacup, standing up
in front of the fire, thank you.” She closed the door hastily and continued her exploration.
There was a vast wardrobe suitable for hanging dresses, and nexl to it a chest
of drawers with matching footstool, so that you could see into the top drawer
when you opened it (both chest and footstool were festooned with roses twisted
among the delicate stars of virgin’s bower). Next to that were a lower table,
with what was probably a jewel-case (painted over with roses) sitting on it,
and a cushioned chair (its needlework seat pansies and roses). “You are all
very handsome, but nothing to do with me,” she said, and made no move to open
anything. “All I need is one small—quite small—shelf, if you please. You do
know what small means?” She turned back towards the bed, and there next to it, in a
corner of the fireplace wall, was a small white-painted shelf, perfectly
plain—she blinked—no, it was not perfectly plain; almost while roses were
dusted all over it, almost white with the faintest blush of pink, that caught
the eye only after you had been looking at it for a little time—because of
course it must be nonsense to think she had watched them coming into being.. .
. “But what do I know of housekeeping in enchanted palaces?” she said. She
looked at the edge of her bundle, just visible as a wrinkle in the bottom of
the bed-curtains, and thought, No, I cannot bear unpacking just now. She looked
round again at the huge, beautiful, crowded room. Not now. Not here. She walked rather quickly towards the window, which took up
half the wall; curtains were bunched on its either side, and there was a
dignified frill at its head, but the tall panes reached the floor and were
hinged like doors. She went to them, pushed the centre ones open, and stepped
outside onto a narrow balcony. The warmth of the sun wrapped round her like the arms of a
friend or of a sister, and her desolation struck her, and the tears rushed down
her face, and she sobbed till she could not stand and knelt on the balcony,
clinging to the rail, pressing her wet face against the warm stone. She wept
until her throat hurt and her eyes were sore and her head ached, and then she
stopped because she was too tired to weep anymore. After a little time she
stood up and went back into the bedroom to look for water to wash her face, and
there it was, on a little table near the fireplace, a generous basin of it,
with pink soap and an assortment of ruby-coloured towels; the outlines of roses
were stitched in red thread along their hems. The water was warm, as warm as
the sunlight, although it stood in shadow; she looked round, to catch sight of
some servant leaving, but saw no one. How silent the palace was! No rustle and murmur of human
life, not even birdsong, the scritch and patter of mice in the walls, or the
creak of beams adjusting their load. Nothing but the silence, the thick, liquid
silence, a silence that was itself a presence. A listening presence. This house was quieter even than their city house had been
during the last weeks they had lived there. Hastily she picked up the soap. It was very fine, smooth
soap and made her aware, as she had not been aware for many months, of her
rough gardener’s hands, and it smelt of roses. Her tears began to flow again,
so she set the soap down and made do with the warm water. Then she returned to
the balcony. From where she stood, the palace ran round at Least three
sides of an immense courtyard. She could see only partway along the long faces
to either side of her and could not see at al! where the fourth side should
run, or whether it was open or not, because her view was blocked by a
glasshouse. The glasshouse was itself big enough to be a palace, and it
glittered so tempestuously in the sun she had to find a patch in its own shade
for her eyes to rest upon. It was very beautiful, tier upon graceful tier of it
rising up in a shining silvery network of curves and straight lines, each join
and crossing the excuse for some curlicue or detail, the cavalcades of panes
teased into fantastic whorls and swoops of design no glass should have been
capable of. Merely looking at it seemed an adventure, as if the onlooker’s gaze
immediately became a part of the enchanted ray which held the whole dazzling,
flaring, flaunting array together. Beauty found that she was holding her breath—in delight; and
when she expelled it, a laugh came with it. The glasshouse was joyous, exuberant,
absurd; immediately she loved it. It was her first friend, here in the Beast’s
gigantic palace, sunken in its viscous silence. At the very top of the glasshouse—she blinked against the
glare—was a small round cupola and what she guessed was a weather vane,
although she could not identify its shape, but she thought she saw it move. The
palace was three immense storeys tall, but the glasshouse was taller yet. She had turned and was making her way quickly back through
the long swirl of rose-covered rooms before the idea had finished forming in
her mind: There is the Beast’s garden. Chapter 6She half ran out upon the round chamber with the star in its
floor. She stood in the centre, turning round and round, with the sun pouring
down on her, and her feet playing hide-and-seek with the coloured tiles in the
centre of the star. ‘‘Oh! I shall never find my way! How do I go to the
glasshouse?” She had spoken aloud only in her private dismay, and had only just
noticed that there were len doors instead of eight, and had begun to tell
herself she must have miscounted the first time when one door swung slowly
open. She fled through it before she had time to change her mind, before she
had time to be frightened again or to weep for loneliness. The garden would
comfort her. She had only the briefest impression of a portrait of a
dauntingly grand lady in an extravagantly furbelowed frame, hanging on the
first turn of the corridor beyond the door, before she rushed past it. She was
remembering the glasshouses in their garden in the city, which were paltry
things compared to this one, nor could they convince their summer flowers to
bloom quite all year round—not even the mayor’s great glasshouse could do that,
with its hot-water pipes, which ran beneath all its benches and floors, and its
shifts of human stokers, working night and day, to keep the boiler up to
temperature—and the winters there were much milder than in the environs of
Longchance and Appleborough. Perhaps this glasshouse was the answer to the
question of how the Beast had had a rose with which to ensnare her father. ...
She jerked her thought free of that grim verb ensnare. But perhaps it
was only a glasshouse, and not sorcery, thai was the answer to her question. Unexpectedly she found herself remembering something Mrs
Greendown had said to her: Roses are far love. Not silly sweethearts’ love
but the love that makes you and keeps you whole, love that gets you through the
worst your life ‘II give you and that pours out of you when you’re given the
best instead.... There aren ‘t many roses around anymore because they need more
love than people have to give ‘em. to make ‘em flower, and the only thing
that’ll stand in for love is magic, though it ain ‘t as good, and von have to
have a lot of magic, like a sorcerer. ... But the Beast was a sorcerer, wasn’t he? Of course. He must
be. The corridor twisted and twisted again, and the sunlight
came through windows in what seemed any number of wrong directions, and she
began to wonder at the decisiveness of her feet, so briskly stepping along,
nearly scampering, like Teacosy after a thrown stick... . But then the world
straightened out, with a lurch she seemed almost to feel, and there was a door
to the outside, which opened for her, and she stepped through it and was in the
courtyard she had seen from her balcony, and the glasshouse was in front of
her. She approached it slowly after all. It was very splendid and
very, very large, and she felt very small, and shy, and shabby—“Well, I am very
small and shabby,” she said aloud. “But at least my face and hands are clean.”
And she held up her clean hands like a token for entry. “No, that is the wrong
magic to enter even a magic garden,” she said, and looked up at the glasshouse
towering over her, and all its gorgeous festoonery seemed to be smiling down at
her, and again she laughed, both for the smiling and for the ridiculousness of
the notion. “Here,” she said, and reached inside the breast of her shirt
with one hand, and drew out a small wrapped bundle of the cuttings she had brought,
and with her other hand reached into her pocket and drew out a handful of
rose-hips. She stepped forward again, holding her gifts to her body, hut when
she catnc Lo the glasshouse door, she held them out, as if beseechingly. And then she laughed yet again, but a tiny, breathless snort
of a laugh, a laugh at her own absurdity, tucked her rose-hips and her cuttings
back inside her clothing, set her hand upon the glasshouse door, and stepped
inside. She had been able to see little of what might lie inside the
glasshouse from her balcony because the sun was so bright; she had had some
impression of shadows cast, but she was unprepared for what she found. The
glasshouse’s vastness was entirely filled with rose-bushes. The tall walls were
woven over with climbers, and the great square centre of the house was divided
into quarters, and each quarter was a rose-bed stuffed with shrub roses. But they were all dead, or dying. Beauty walked slowly round the edges of the great centre
beds, looking to either side of her, looking up, looking down. Occasionally
some great skeletal bush had managed to throw up a spindling new shoot bearing
a few leaves; she saw no leaves on the climbers, only naked stems, many of them
as big around as her wrists. She had thought when she first saw the
thorn-bushes massed round the statue in the garden of Rose Cottage that they
were dead; but she had not known what sleeping rose-bushes look like. She knew
now. The Beast’s roses were dying. In the last comer she came to, her head turned of its own
volition, following a breath of rich wild sweetness, and there was the bush
that had produced the dark red flower that had sat on her father’s breakfast
table in the Beast’s palace and on Rose Cottage’s windowsill. The living part
of it was much smaller than the dead, but living it was, in all the sad desert
of the magnificent glasshouse; three slender stems were well clothed in dark
green glossy leaves, and each stem bore a flower-bud. Two of these were still
green, with only their tips showing a faint stain of the crimson to come, but
the third was half open, just enough for its perfume to creep out and greet its
visitor. Beauty knelt down by the one living bush and slowly drew out and laid
her cuttings and her rosehips in her lap, as if demonstrating or offering them
or asking acceptance; and then, as if involuntarily, both hands reached out to
touch the bush. The stems nodded at her gently, and the open flower dipped as
if in greeting or blessing. “We have our work laid out for us, do we not?” she
said softly, as if speaking in the ear of a friend. She left the rose-hips in a little heap under the living
bush but stood up again holding her cuttings, looking round her thoughtfully.
“Where shall I put you?” she said aloud. “Shall I make a little bed for you, so
that 1 can watch you, or shall I plant you now and hope you will give hope and
strength to your neighbours? You must be brave then, because I cannot spare
even one of you.” And so she planted them, one each in the four outer comers of
the centre beds, four more in the inner comers, sixteen more centred on each
side of each square. Her four cuttings from Rose Cottage’s two climbers she
placed in the four comers of the glasshouse, beneath the skew-whiff jungle ot”
the old climbing stems. She found a water-butt and watering-can near the door
she had entered by, and she watered each of her tiny stems, murmuring to them
as she did so, and by then the sun was sinking down the sky, and the glasshouse
was growing dim, and she was tired. She said good-evening to the one living bush and the pile of
rose-hips and went to the door; with her hand on the faceted crystal doorknob
she turned and said: “I will return tomorrow; I will make a start by pruning—by
trying to prune you—all of you—Oh dear. There are so many of you! But I shall
attend to you all, I promise. And I must think about where to make my seedbed.
Sleep well, my new friends. Sleep well.” She went out and closed the door
softly behind her. She had taken little thought of how to go where she wished
to go; she had turned automatically in the direction she had come, but brooding
about the dying roses, she had only begun to notice that she seemed to be
walking into a blank wall ... when suddenly there was an opening door there.
She stopped and blinked at it. She supposed it was the same door she had come
out by; all the palace walls looked very much alike. She turned and looked at
the glasshouse. The glasshouse had only one door; she had looked very carefully
while she was inside it. Very well, the glasshouse was her compass, and this
was the way she had come when she left the palace, and the door was set very
cleverly into the palace wall so that it was invisible until you were very
near, and an awful lot of these doors did seem to open of themselves, although
the Beast had opened doors in the usual way, and the glasshouse had waited (politely,
she felt; it was what doors were supposed to do) for her to open its door. She stared at the palace door, now standing open like any
ordinary door having been opened by ordinary means. Very well, she knew she had
entered an enchantment as soon as she set foot on the white-pebbled drive
leading to the palace; if self-opening doors were the worst of it, she was ...
she could grow accustomed. She looked up again and could see the weather vane twinkling
in the golden light of the setting sun. She thought for a moment that it
twinkled because it was studded with gems—anything seemed possible in this
palace, even a jewel-encrusted weather vane—but then she realised that it was
carved, or cut out, in such a way that what she was seeing were tiny flashes of
sunlight through the gaps as it turned slowly back and forth on its stem. She
strained her eyes, but she was no nearer guessing what its shape was. Twinkle.
Twinkle. There was no breath of the breeze that the weather vane felt on the
ground where she stood. She went through the open palace door, and some of the candles
were now lit in their sconces—even though the sconces lit seemed to be in
different locations on the walls from when they had been unlit—and shone
brighter than the grey light coming through the tall windows. Just over the
threshold she paused and looked round her. There had been a little square table
beside the door to the courtyard, a little square table of some dark reddish
wood, with a slope-shouldered clock on it, and the clock had a pretty painted
face. She had only caught a glimpse of it, for she had been in a hurry to go to
the glasshouse, but she was quite sure of the table and the clock. The clock was
still there, but it now had an inadequately clad shepherdess and two lambs
gambolling over its curved housing, and the table was round. She followed the lighted corridor till she came to the
chamber of the star—eight doors; she counted and shook her head—and found the
door to her rooms open for her. She drifted through them till she came to her
bedroom, and she looked at the bed, longing to lie down on it and be lost in
sleep, and her hand readied up and grasped the embroidered heart. But there was a beautiful scarlet and crimson dress laid
across the bed, and stockings and shoes, and a necklace lay almost invisible on
the ruby towels of the washstand, so dark were its red stones, and there was
fresh warm water in the basin and a steaming ewer at the foot of the table. “I
am to dress for dinner, am 1?” she said wearily; but she was too tired either
to protest or to be afraid of seeing the Beast again (he is so very large,
whispered a little voice in her mind), and so she washed, and dressed herself,
and clasped the necklace round her neck and the drops in her ears, and tucked
the little embroidered heart at the end of its long rope into the front of her
bodice, and tied up her hair with the ruby-tipped pins she found under the
necklace. When she went to the chamber of the star, she was too tired
to count the doors, too tired to do anything but concentrate on not listening
to the little voice in her head, saying, You will not be able to see him
clearly, now, as the twilight deepens, and the candle flames throw such strange
shadows; he is dark, almost black, and he wears black clothing, and he walks
very quietly—noiselessly; you will not know where he is until he is just beside
you.... The chamber of the star itself was dark, the first stars
showing through the dome overhead, but another door was open for her, and
candles gleamed through it, and she went towards the light at once, her shoes
pattering like mice..., He is so very large, whispered the voice. She went down the dim candlelit corridor surrounded by darkness,
and suddenly she was in her dream. Her tiredness dropped away, and panic replaced it. Her heart
drummed in her ears, and her vision began to fail her; she sat down where she
was, in the middle of the corridor, with her cascades of skirts and petticoats
flying round her, and she was weeping again, weeping like a child, wholehearted
and despairing, for she was all, all alone, and the monster waited for her—for
her— “Beauty—” The Beast had approached her as silently as he had done that
morning, as silently as the little voice had said he would. She looked up
through her tears, snapping her head back so quickly her neck sent a sharp
shock of pain up and down her spine, and all she could see was a great dark
shape bending over her from the coiling shadows. She shrieked and scrabbled
away from him, dragging herself along on all fours, smothered by her skirts.
She could not see properly, between tears and darkness; she thudded into the corridor
wall and stopped because she had to. The jolt shook the panic’s hold on her;
she still wept, but less violently, and then she remembered the Beast. She rubbed her face with her hands and tried to look up at
him again, but she could not find him in the shadows. Was he there, in the
corner between the tallboy and the wall, or there, where the shadow of that
plinth extended the black pool of shadow left by the heavy deep frame of that
picture? .. . Fear seized and shook her, as savagely as if cruel hands held her
shoulders; but she set her will against it and forced it back, and then another
little unhappy fear said to her: What if he had left her before she had a
chance to apologise? Speaking into the darkness, she said; “I—1 am sorry—please
forgive me—it is a dream—a dream I have had since childhood—that I am
lost—walking down a dark corridor, alone, and—and—” She scrambled somehow to
her feet, stepping on her skirts, needing to lean against the wall to sort
herself out, knocking her hand against the frame of another picture, its
subject invisible in the gloom though she stood directly next to it. The Beast
had emerged from the shadows by taking a step towards her, his hand outstretched
to offer her his aid, but she saw him check himself before the gesture
was completed; had she not shrieked at the sight of him but a moment before? She was ashamed. She would not—she would not—be frightened
of him; he was what he was, and he had made a promise he would keep, ll is only
the silly human way of needing to be able to see everything; if Teacosy were
here, she would know at once everything she needed to know through her nose..
.. The shadows fell across his face, but she could hear him breathing. There
was a faint, elusive odor; it reminded her of the scent she had caught—or
imagined—in her rooms that afternoon. “The dream—the dream has frightened me all my life.” She
moved towards him in such a manner that he must turn to look at her, turn so
that the candlelight fell once more on his face. She saw him flinch as it
touched him, and she kept her eyes steadily on his face. “I am ashamed of
myself.” She heard the rumble of his voice, like a low growl, before
he spoke any words: “Do not be ashamed. There is nothing to forgive. This ...
house ... is large, and it is strange to you. As am I,” He paused. “But I know
that dream. 1 have had it too. And you have not told me all of it, have you?
There is something that waits for you at the end of the corridor. Something
that waits just for you. Something terrible. A monster—or a Beast.” “Yes.” said Beauty gravely. “You are right. Something does wait
at the end of the corridor. But it is a monster—not a Beast.” They stood still, the shadows curling round them, the little
glow of the candlelight on their two faces. The Beast turned away at last, saying, “I am keeping you
from your dinner.” He raised his arm, that she might precede him, but she
slipped up to him, and put her arm through his, and led him down the corridor,
the long train of her skirts rustling behind them, the Beast silent beside her.
It was only then that she realised that the corridor was full of a wild rich
rose smell, and that the smell came from the Beast himself. Dinner was laid in a hail so tall and wide that both walls
and ceiling were lost in darkness, though there were several many-armed
torcheres clustered round the end of the table nearest them as they came
through the door. The Beast held the chair at the head of the table for Beauty;
she settled herself in it reluctantly, and it was not till he had sat down some
little distance from her that she realised there was a place setting only for
her. “Do you not eat with me?” she said in simple surprise. He lifted his shoulders and spread his hands—paws. “I am a
Beast; I cannot eat like a man. I would not disgust you—in any way I can
prevent.” Beauty bowed her head. When she looked up, her plate had
been served, though she was quite sure the Beast had not moved. She ate a
little, conscious of the Beast’s silent presence. (What is he looking at? said
the little voice in the back of her mind. Even sitting down, he is—so very
large. Look! One of his hands—half curled, there, as it lies—one of his hands
is as large as—as large as that bowl of fruit. And see! The nails are as long
as your fingers, shining and curved like crescent moons, the tips sharp as poignards....)
She finished quickly, saying, “1 fear I am not very hungry; it has been a—a
long and tiring day. I must ask you to forgive me—again.” The Beast was on his feet at once, his gown eddying round
him, briefly blocking the brightness of the gold and silver bowls and dishes on
the dark table. “Again I say to you that there is nothing to forgive. If I were
to have my will in this, I would ask that there be no talk of ‘forgiveness’
between us. I have not forgotten—I will not forget—on what terms you are here
at all.” Beauty, for alt her desire to trust him, to not fear him, to
remember her pity for him, could think of no response to this. “I—I will be
clearer-headed in the morning,” she said faintly. She stood up and turned
towards the door. “Beauty, will you marry me?” said the Beast. For a moment the panic of the corridor, and of the dream,
swelled up in Beauty’s mind and heart again, but as she put her hands on her
breast, as it” to press her heart back into its place, the little wind her
hands made blew the smell of roses to her again. She sighed then, and more in
sadness than in fear she whispered, meaning the words only for herself, “Oh,
what shall I say?” But the Beast had heard. “Say yes or no without fear,” he replied. She raised her eyes; again he stood in shadow, and she could
not see his face. The candlelight made a silhouette of him; she knew he
fidgeted with the edge of his robe with one hand because she could see the
cloth judder and jerk. She could not see his face. ‘‘Oh, no, Beast,” she said. The Beast nodded once and then turned and left her, disappearing
into the darkness towards some other way than that by which they had entered,
moving perfectly surely into the blackness; her last glimpse was of a shimmer
of long hair sliding over one shoulder. She had no recollection of making her way back to her rooms,
undressing, or climbing the little stairs by her bed, but she woke hours later,
staring at the canopy, not sure if she was awake or dreaming still, for she had
been walking down a dark corridor full of the smell of roses, and she had been
hurrying, hurrying, to come to the end of it, to comfort the sadness that hid
itself there. She fell asleep again and dreamt of her sisters. At first it was a very ordinary sort of dream. She seemed to
watch Jeweltongue and their father at Rose Cottage, going about ordinary
activities; she was pleased to see that her father seemed fit and well again,
although his hair was whiter than it had been, and his face more lined with
grief. She thought: Not for me! Oh, Father, not for me! She yearned to be there
with them, but she was not; she was an onlooker, and they were unaware of her
presence. But then something changed, and Beauty, dreaming, did not
know what it was, only that it made her uneasy. Perhaps it was only that her
family looked so—so ordinary without her, and she wished some clear token that
they missed her as she missed them—no, that wasn’t it, for she could read the
careful look on Jeweltongue’s face, the look she had always used when she
wished to hide something, a look that had often worked on her father and her
elder sister, but never on her younger. Beauty knew Jeweltongue was hiding the
same grief that lined their father’s face, and it struck at her like the blade
of a knife. This was not right; she wanted them to miss her, to know
that she was—not even so very far away—in an enchanted palace, and that she
held a small embroidered heart in her hands and loved and missed them. Their apparent
grief made her feel more isolated than ever, as if the enchantment were an
unbridgeable chasm, as if she would never see them again, never hold them in
her arms and be held by theirs.... Now Lionheart was with them, whirling round
the kitchen, setting dough to rise, rolling out pastry, chopping herbs from
Beauty’s garden; and Beauty knew too what her blaze of activity meant, just as
she could read the look on Jeweltongue’s face, and again she felt the blow like
the blade of a knife, and her heart shook in her breast. But the scene changed again, but only a very little, as if a
veil had been thrown over it, or a veil taken away; it was almost as if the
colour changed or as if the sun went behind a cloud, and Beauty remembered
Jeweltongue laying swatches of lace and netting over an underskirt and saying,
“This one, do you think? Or this one?” Jeweltongue’s face and manner were now stiff and brittle; Lionheart’s
gestures seemed informed by an old anger. “You shouldn’t have gone,” said Lionheart, and Beauty with a
shock seemed to hear her voice as if she were in the room with them. “I know I shouldn’t have gone! But I did go. It’s done. I
went.” “It was very silly of you. I don’t understand how you could
have been so silly.” “Don’t be so dull! Don’t you ever feel... lonesome?” Lionheart set the bowl she was carrying down carefully and
stood still for a moment. Her brows snapped together. “No,” she said
forcefully. Her face relaxed again. “But... I’m too busy. I make sure that I am
too busy. And there are always other people around—always—even when none is a
friend.” Jeweltongue nodded, and her voice lost a little of its edge.
“Father is out all day, and Beauty is ... we don’t know when we’ll see Beauty
again, and ifl am working on something, I may see no one at all but Father in
the evenings all week. Sometimes T go along to market-day just for the company.
] have even thought of asking Mrs Bestcloth if she might let me have the little
room over her shop, to work in; it is only a kind of storeroom, and I
don’t take up much space. I’m almost sure she would let me; it is not only that
she knows I am good for business, she has been a friend to me. But that is why
I cannot ask her. We still cannot afford to pay rent money, even for part use
of a room the size of a small wardrobe. “I don’t miss the city, but I do wish we could live nearer
town. If it weren’t for Beauty’s garden . . . Bui I would still wish to live in
town, where you can hear footsteps outside and voices that aren’t always your
own, even if you’re working, even if you don’t want to talk yourself.” Lionheart shook her head. “No towns for me. But... I don’t
like wild land, like this. Oh, I know it isn’t really wild—Longchance is too
close—but it’s wild enough. Longchance is not a big town, is it? And [hen
there’s nothing much till Appleborough, and then there’s nothing at all till
Washington, which is too far away to do anyone in Longchance any good.
Goldfield is the only one who farms this end of Longchance, you know? There’s
Goldfield, us, and ... more nothing. 1 want fields, with horses in them, or
growing hay for the horses—like up at the Hall—or wheat for my bread. If it
weren’t for Beauty’s garden, I wouldn’t want to come back here cither.” With
her most ferocious scowl: “I keep thinking I see things among the trees.” Jeweltongue tried to laugh. “Maybe they’re friendly.” “You see them loo, do you? The ones I see are never
friendly.” “Since Beauty ... I never used to ... I almost fancy them as
a kind of guardian, or I like to think so.... Something to do with Beauty, that
they watch over her too, or even that the Beast sends them, that Beauty has
told him . .. that he isn’t... that he is ... I would think I was imagining all
of it, except that Lydia sees them too. Silver shadows, among the trees, where
the shadows should be lying dark, like shadows do.” Lionheart took a breath to speak, but Jeweltongue cut in
quickly: “You’re worrying about nothing, you know. His father will prevent
anything. Everything. I’m sure poor Miss Trueword has been raked up one side
and down the other for inviting me,” Jeweltongue was trying to speak lightly
and failing. “I only hope my misjudgement doesn’t prove disastrous for
business.” “But what if the brat does decide to court you? I can
tell you the other stable lads think he’s smitten. They all want to tell me
about it—my friends to warn me, my enemies to gloat about the trouble it will
cause.” “The son of the squire court a dressmaker?” Jeweltongue’s
tone was sharp as needles. “‘But you have such beautiful manners, my dear,’”
she said in a cruel imitation of Miss Trueword’s fluting voice. “A dressmaker
who is so busy saving up to have the thatch replaced on the hut she lives in
that she had to keep her hand over the hasty dam on her only half-decent skirt
all the evening that the squire’s brainless sister had invited her to supper,
which she had been brainless enough to accept.” She put her hands up suddenly and covered her face, and her
voice through her fingers was muffled. “Oh, Lionheart, what came over me? Miss
Trueword is kind and meant to be kind to me, and she genuinely likes my work. I
do not believe it is just her vanity; she jokes that she has a figure like a
lathe and does not expect me to deck her out in frills like a schoolroom miss.
What need has she to be so clever she could cut herself on it? That has always
been my great gift. I—I think she just invited me home to meet her family
because she likes me, and the young ladies like me, and to the extent that that
amiable animated bolster the squire mar— ried can stir herself to likes and dislikes, Mrs Trueword
likes me, and there is not—there is not much society here, is there? The
Oldhouses, and the Cunningmans, and the Took-somes, and only the Oldhouses are
... nice to have around. It was not at all a grand supper. ... Perhaps the darn
in my skirt did not matter. “Lionheart, do you know, it was because I knew I should not
be there that I was so bright, so witty, that I talked too much? I wished to
draw attention away from the holes in my skirt... the holes in my fingers ...
draw attention away from the fact that I am a dressmaker.” There was a little silence as the two sisters looked at each
other. “A very fine dressmaker,” said Lionheart. “I hated your salons, have I
ever told you? Full of people being vicious to each other and using
six-syllable words to do it with. Your dresses are beautiful. Jeweltongue,
love, it’s not that he’s the squire’s son—which I admit is a little awkward—but
you’re wrong about old Squire Trueword. The real problem about Master Jack is
that he’s a coxcomb and a coward. If you want to charm someone, cast your eye
over the second son, Aubrey. I grant you he is neither so tall nor so
handsome—nor will he have any money—but he is a good man, and kind, and—and—” Jeweltongue’s real laugh rang out, and as Beauty awoke, she
just heard her sister say, “What you mean is that you approve of his eye for a
horse—” “It was only a dream,” Beauty whispered to herself, “only a
dream,” she insisted, even as she could not help looking eagerly around her
new, strange, overglamorous bedroom for a glimpse of her sisters. Jeweitongue’s
laugh still sounded in her ears; they must be here, with her. close to her.
they must... She squeezed the little heart between her palms till her finger
joints hurt. “Oh, I wish I knew what was happening! But I’ve only been
gone a day. It was just a dream.’’ There was breakfast on a table in front of the balcony as
she sat up, shaking herself free of the final shreds of her dream; the smelt of
food awoke her thoroughly. She had been too distressed yesterday to be hungry;
today that dis— tress on top of two days’ unsatisfied hunger made her feel a
little ill. She slid out of bed, forgetting the stairs and landing with a
bone-jarring thump on the floor. She put a hand to the bed-curtains to steady
herself. “That is one way of driving sleep off,” she murmured, “but I think I
prefer gentler means.’* The tea on the breakfast tray was particularly fine; the
third cup was as excellent as the first—enchanted leaves don’t stew. She held
up the embroidered heart as she drank that third cup, turning it so that
Lionheart’s hair caught the light, listening to the silence. She was grateful there was no rose in a silver vase on the
table. She had been too tired the night before to notice that the
nightgown she put on was not her own. She looked at it now and admired its
fineness, and the roses embroidered round the bands of the collar and cuffs. It
was precisely as long as and no longer than she could walk in without treading
on the hem. There was a new bodice and skirt hanging over the back of the chair
drawn up near the washstand, which was once again full of warm water, when she
turned away from the breakfast table. She looked at them thoughtfully while she
washed. “These are a bit loo good lor the sort of work I have in
mind today,” she said to the air, “although I thank you very much. And I know
that you are much too polite and—and kind to have thrown my shabby old things
out, because I would be so unhappy without them, so I assume I will find them
beautifully pressed and hanging up in the wardrobe—with all the other things,
including rny nightgown, that I see have disappeared, with my knapsack, from
under the bed.” She said this in just the tone she would have used in
speaking to a miserable dog, or any of her other rescued animals, who was
refusing to eat. “Now, my sweet, I know you are a good dog, and good dogs
always do what they are told when it is for their good, and I know the things
you have been told recently have not been for your good, but you must
understand that is all over now. And here is your supper, and you will of
course eat it, you good dog.” And the dog would. Beauty went to the hanging
cupboard and opened the doors, and there were all her few clothes, hanging up
lugubriously in one comer, as if separated carefully from the other, much
grander things in the rest of the wardrobe, and they looked self-conscious, if
clothes can look self-conscious, and Beauty laughed. But when she took down her skirt and shirt, there was a
sudden flurry of movement, and a wild wave of butterflies blew out at her. as
if from the folds of her dull patched clothing, and she cried out in surprise
and pleasure. For a moment the butterflies seemed to fill the room, even that
great high ornamented room, with colours and textures al! the more glorious for
being alive, blues and greens and russets and golds, and then they swirled up
like a small whirlwind and rushed out the open doors, over the balcony, and
away. She ran to watch them go and saw them briefly twinkling
against the dizzy whiteness of the palace and the dazzle of the glasshouse, and
then they disappeared round a comer, and she saw them no more. She dressed
slowly; but she was smiling, and when she touched the embroidered heart she
wore, she touched it softly, without so piercing a sense of sorrow. And when
she stepped into the chamber of the star, she deliberately did not count the
number of doors and ignored the glare of the haughty lady in the portrait just
beyond the one that opened. Ihere was a priming-knife and a small handsaw lying on top
of the water-butt inside the door to the glasshouse. She spent most of the
morning studying stems and bushes and cut very little. After a while she said,
“Gloves. May I please have a good stout pair of gloves?” And turned round and
discovered just such a pair of gloves lying at the foot of the water-butt,
where she might have overlooked them when she first came in. “Ladder?” she said
next, after another little while. “What I would like best is a ladder light
enough that I can—that I can handle it on my own,” she added, for she was
remembering that the last time she had had much to do with a ladder she had had
Lionheart there to help her wrestle the great awkward object to where they
needed it. There was a ladder behind the door. “Thank you,” she said,
“but I don’t believe I could have missed that, you know,” she added to the
listening silence; but she kept her eyes on the ladder. At noon she stopped, and rubbed her forehead, and went in
search of lunch, and there was lunch on the table by her balcony. She still was
not at all certain how she got from her rooms to the glasshouse or back again;
the corridor never seemed quite the same corridor, and the dislocating turns
seemed to come at different stages of the journey, and the sun came through
windows where the walls should have been internal, and even at noon there were
far too many shadows everywhere. She was also beginning to feel that the
portrait of the handsome but haughty lady just beyond the door from the chamber
of the star was not just one haughty lady but several, sisters perhaps, even
cousins, in a family where the likeness is strongly marked; but that did not
seem plausible either, for no such grand family would allow all its women to be
painted wearing nearly identical dresses, with their arms al! bent with no
perceptible kindness round the same sort of browny-fawn lapdog. The table by the door into the courtyard had reverted to
square, and the slope-shouldered clock now had a shepherd, more suitably
attired for his occupation, keeping company with the gambolling lambs. But she did not care, so long as the magic she needed went
on working and allowed her to go where she needed to go and do what she needed
to do. And there were few shadows in the glasshouse, and the ones there were
laid honestly, by stems and leaves and the house’s own glittering framework—and
her ladder. In the afternoon she took her first experimental cuts,
beginning with the climbers, and she was rejoiced to find, as she cut cautiously
back and back, living wood in each. She nicked dormant buds in gnarled old
branches with green hearts and said, “Grow, you. Grow.” She stopped for tea and a shoulder-easing stretch in the afternoon,
and then she spent the last of the lengthening spring twilight marking out her
seedbed, peeling her rosehips, and punching rows of tiny finger-sized holes to
bury the seeds themselves in. “Grow, you,” she whispered, and went indoors. Chapter 71 his evening a sapphire-coloured dress lay across her bed,
and a sapphire necklace on the blue towels of the washstand; but though the
soap, and the bath oil in the great tin bath (enamelled over with roses) drawn
up before the fireplace, again smelt of roses, today it did not make her weep,
for she had work to do and felt she knew why she was here. She did not examine this feeling too closely, for she was
too grateful for the possession of it. and even less did she examine the
conclusions it might lead her to. But for the moment the roses in the
glasshouse demanded her attention and care, and that was enough, for a little
while, and she had a little space to nurse a little precarious security in. She
lay in the bath while twilight turned to dusk, and she felt the aches slide out
of her muscles and dissipate in the warm water, till she found herself falling
asleep, and then she flew out and whisked herself dry in such a commotion of
haste that she half believed herself assisted with extra towels by invisible
hands. The Beast was waiting for her in the long dim dining-hall,
and he bowed to her, and said, “Good evening, Beauty.” and she replied, “Good
evening, Beast.” The silence and the shadows pressed round them. He moved to
her chair and bowed her into it, poured her two kinds of wine, and took a chair
himself a little distance from her. She picked up a glass, touched it to her
lips, set it down again untasted, served herself blindly from the nearest
plate. She was hungry—she had worked hard since lunch—but the silence was
heavy, and the Beast, again dressed all in black, his head bowed so she could
not see his eyes, was almost obscured by the gloom and seemed as ominous as all
the rest of the silence and shadow. She put her fork to the food on her plate;
the click of the tines was too loud in the stillness; she set it down again.
She was hungry, and could not eat. She sat motionless for a moment, feeling as
if the shadows might seep into her blood, turning her into a shadow like
themselves.... Her hand crept to the tittle embroidered heart tucked into the
front of her bodice. When the gentle plonk came from the darkness at the
far end of the long table. Beauty started in her chair, feeling like a deer who
knows she is tracked by a hunter. There was another plonk, and then a rustle-rustle-rustle,
and Beauty’s heart slowed down to a normal pace, and she began to smile,
because it was a friendly, a silly sort of sound. There was a third plonk and
then a quick run of tiny thumps... . Whatever it was, it was coming towards
this end of the table. The Beast stirred, “I believe Fourpaws is coming to
introduce herself to her new guest,” he said. She still had to strain to hear his words when he spoke
anything beyond common courtesies such as “good evening”; it was like learning
to hear articulate speech in a rumble of thunder. “Fourpaws?” But at that moment a small grey and amber cat appeared from
behind one of the wine carafes, tail high, writhing once round the carafe as if
that were her entire purpose at this end of the table, so supple and sleek in
the dimness that it seemed she would overstep her hind legs and take a second
turn round the narrow vessel. But then with a boneless flicker like a scarf
coming loose from a lady’s neck, she unwound herself again and became a slim
short-bodied cat, with silky fur just enough longer than short to move gently of
its own in response to her motion, and Lo give her a very wonderful tail. She stood so that Beauty could admire her for a moment,
while she looked off into some chosen distance, and then she turned as if to
walk straight past the edge of Beauty’s plate. But Beauty was far too charmed
by her not to make an effort, and she reached across her plate and offered
Four-paws the tips of her fingers. The fingertips were deemed acceptable, and
the base of ears and a small round skull between were presented to be
scratched. Beauty scratched, Fourpaws purred. Fourpaws then sat down—at jusl
such a distance that Beauty would be risking the lace on her bodice to the food
on her plate if she wished to go on scratching ears, so she stopped. Fourpaws moved a little towards Beauty and looked at her for
the first time, stared at her with vast yellowy-greeny eyes, misleadingiy half
shut. She curled her tail round her feet—careful not to trail the tip of it in
Beauty’s plate—and continued to purr. The purr seemed to reflect off the sides
of the bowls and dishes and goblets round her. Beauty picked up her knife and
fork again and began to eat. “It is so very quiet here,” said Beauty between rnouth-fuls. The Beast roused himself. “When I was ... first here, here
as you see it, the silence troubled me very much.” But you are a sorcerer! You cannot have come here against
your will—against your will—as I did. . .. Beauty was briefly afraid that she
had spoken aloud, so painfully had the words pressed up in her throat; but the
shadows were tranquil, and Fourpaws was still purring, and after only the
merest pause, the Beast continued: “I had forgotten. It was such a long time
ago. I have learnt... I have learnt to look at the silence, to listen to the
dark. But I was very glad when Fourpaws came. I believe she must be a powerful
sorcerer in her own country, which is why 1 dare not give her any grand name
such as she deserves, for fear of disturbing the network of her powers. She
comes most evenings and drops a few rolls and bits of cutlery into the
darkness, like coins in a wishing well. I am grateful to her.” “As am I,” said Beauty fervently, for she was discovering
just how hungry she was. She moved a candlestick nearer and peered into various
tureens. She recognised little, although everything smelled superb, which was
enough recommendation, but when she turned back to her plate, which had been
empty but a moment before, it had been served again for her already. “The
chef’s speciality?” she murmured, thinking of grand dinner parties in the city,
but she picked her knife and fork up readily and began. Fourpaws had moved herself again slightly, so that her
bright furry figure slightly overlapped the great shadowy bulk of the Beast
from Beauty’s point of view. Beauty smiled at her a little wonderingly;
Fourpaws’ eyes shut almost completely, with only a thin gleam of green left
visible, and her purr deepened. As soon as Beauty laid her knife and fork down for the last
time, she felt exhaustion drop over her, shove down her eyelids, force her head
forward upon her breast. “I—1 am sorry,” she said faintly. “1 am much more tired,
suddenly, than I had any idea... If you will excuse me ...” The Beast was on his feet again at once, bowing her towards
the door. “Beauty, will you marry me?” Beauty backed two steps away from the table. Her eyes fell
upon Fourpaws, who was still sitting where she had been while Beauty ate; but
her eyes were now opened wide, her head tipped up, and she was staring at
Beauty with an unnervingly steady gaze. “Oh, no. Beast,” said Beauty to the
cat. Fourpaws leapt off the table and disappeared under it. “Good night, Beauty,” said the Beast very softly. “Good night, Beast,” said Beauty. She went slowly up to her rooms, the whispering of her
skirts the only sound, and stayed awake only long enough to take her elegant
dress off carefully, lay the necklace of sapphires back on the washstand, and
climb up the stairs to her bed. She almost didn’t make it to the top; she woke
up to find herself with her head resting on the top stair and pulled herself
the resl of the way into bed. She dreamt again of Rose Cottage. There was a new rug on the floor by the fireplace at the
sitting-room end of the downstairs room, and Teacosy, looking unusually well
brushed, lay on it in her traditional neat curl. There was a new tablecloth,
with a bit of lace at its edge, on the old table—Beauty could still see its
splinted feet beneath—and the place settings were as mismatched as ever,
although none of the cups or plates was chipped. The old merchant was talking, and the other two were listening—three,
counting Teacosy’s half-pricked cars—or rather, as Beauty’s dream shimmered
into being, her father had just stopped talking. Beauty’s dream-eyes ranged
over the familiar scene and picked out its unfamiliar elements, pausing finally
on the person sitting in what had been Beauty’s chair. There was a litUe
silence in which Beauty could almost hear the echo of her father’s last
words—she had a half notion that he had been reciting poetry—but she did not
know for sure. The strange young man spoke first. “That was very moving,
sir. Perhaps—perhaps you would come to one of our meetings?” “Oh, do, Father!” said Jeweltongue. “I had no idea you
were—you were—” She stopped, blushed, and laughed. Her father looked at her, smiling. “You had no idea the old
man had any idea of metre and rhyme, you were going to say? I never used to. It
seems to have come on me with moving here, to Longchance and Rose Cottage. I
would be honoured to come to your meeting, Mr Whitchand, if you think I will
not embarrass you.” “Embarrass us! Father! Wait till you hear Mrs Oldhouse, whom
we name Mrs Words-Without-End, but we cannot bring ourselves to turn her out,
not only because she has the biggest drawing-room and serves the best cakes—” “Thank you,” murmured the young man called White-hand. Jeweltongue reached towards him and just touched the back of
his hand with the tips of her fingers, but Beauty saw the sweet look that
passed between them as Jeweltongue continued. “But she is so genuinely kind,
and surprisingly has quite a good ear for other people’s work! But we shall put
you at the top of the list for your evening, because if she reads first, she
may frighten you away,” “Not before I have eaten some of Mr Whilehand’s cakes, at
least,” said her father, and Beauty then remembered where she had seen Mr
Whitehand, for he was the baker in Longchance. It occurred to her then
that for quite sometime, as Jeweltongue divided up the errands when the two of
them went into Longchance together, it was never Beauty who went to the
baker’s, though they almost always had lardy-cake or crumpets for tea on
any day Jeweltongue had been to Longchance. But Beauty had never heard of
poetry-reading evenings. “To be fair,” Jeweltongue went on, “she tells excellent stories—when
she doesn’t try to put them into verse first. She leamt them from her father,
who was a scholar, but his real love was collecting folk-tales....” Beauty woke to a soft shushing sound. It was a gentle
sound, and her first thought was that there was water running somewhere nearby,
and she wondered if she had missed seeing some fountain, perhaps in the inner
courtyard, perhaps invisible behind the glasshouse. But the rhythm of the shush
was wrong for water, she eventually decided, still half in her dream and
wondering about the young man and the new hearth-rug and wishing to hear her
fathers poems—and telling herself it was all only a dream again, just as last
night. She eventually decided that it could not be water. It
sounded like something flying. She opened her eyes. After a moment of reorienting herself,
she picked out the small shadow hurtling back and forth across her room which
went with the shushing sound. It flew very near each wall and ihen
wheeled away as if panic-stricken. It disappeared, while she watched, into the
other rooms through the wide doorless archway, and the shushing died
away, but then it came streaking back into the bedroom, straight towards the
clear glass of the closed balcony doors. Beauty, still too sleep-dazed to make an attempt at scaring
it onto a safer course, held her breath for the inevitable col— lision, but it swerved away at the last minute and raced
towards her bed. It flew straight under the canopy towards the wall, did another
of its last-minute, violent changes of direction before it struck, flew back
towards the bed, and collapsed on the counterpane. When Beauty first saw the small flying figure, she guessed
it was a bird, trapped somehow indoors, having fallen down a chimney, or
mistakenly crept in through a half-open window. But she had caught a glimpse of
furry body and naked wing as it swept just in front of her and was now
expecting what she found lying panting in her lap. It was a bat. Beauty had rescued members of most of the commoner animal
species in her life, including a few bats. The last one had been in much worse
case than this one, terrified by the housemaid’s screaming, beating itself
pathetically against a corner of Ihc attic where it had fled. Beauty had
trapped it finally by ordering the housemaid to Go away and, when it
flopped to the floor half stunned, put a wastebasket over it. After a few days of hanging upside down in Beauty’s
dressing-room (which she kept locked for the duration, for fear of housemaids,
and entering it herself only long enough to change the water in the water-dish
and to release the fat house-flies she patiently coilccicd in jars), she
ordered the dogcart one evening, drove herself to the outskirts of town, and
released it. She’d heard it whirr just a moment, as it had leapt out of
her restraining hands and the scarf she had wrapped it in, and had wanted to
believe that the perfectly silent shadow, which had then swept low twice over
her head—nowhere near enough to risk any danger of becoming tangled in her
hair, because as any sensible person knows, bats only lose their sense of
distance and direction under such duress as being screamed at by housemaids—had
been it saying thank-you, before it went off to find its friends and family.
She hoped it had not, during its convalescence, developed such a taste for
house-flies that it would ever risk any more attics. This one was not quite the length of the palm of her hand.
She could feel the quiver of its body through the counter— pane as it tried to catch its breath, and could see into its
open mouth, the delicate pink tongue, smaller than the first ieaf of heartsease
to open in spring, and the teeth, finer than embroidery needles. Its dark brown
fur looked soft as velvet; its wide pricked ears and half-folded wings were
only a shade or two paler than its fur. It stared straight at her with its
bright black eyes, and lay in her lap, and panted. “Well,” said Beauty, after a moment. “I have never heard of
a tame bat. I suppose you were merely confused. but you are very contused
indeed, to be lying in my lap like that and staring at me as if 1 were a
legendary saviour of lost bats whom you have recognised in your extremity. What
reputation I had of such is years and miles behind me, little one. The bats at
Rose Cottage had—have—the good sense to stay in the garden... . Which is to
say, I suppose I need something to muffle you with, so you cannot bite me with
all those tiny piercing teeth. Not that I would blame you, mind, but I get
quite enough of that sort of thing dealing with roses, ...” She reached slowly
behind her, so as not to frighten her visitor further, and began awkwardly to
work her top pillow out of its pillow slip. The bat lay where it had fallen, but it had folded its wings
neatly against its body, and closed its mouth, and now looked perfectly
content. “If I didn’t know that you are supposed to hang upside down—or at
least creep into narrow cracks—I would expect you to curl up now, like a very
small Teacosy, and have a nap. Saints! This is a maddening activity when I
cannot see what I am doing!” But the pillowslip came free at last, and she wrapped it softly
round her hands and picked up the bat, keeping its wings closed against its
body. It did not even tremble, but it did turn its head a little so it could go
on looking at her. She groped her way out of bed and down the stairs till she
stood on the floor, the bat held gently in front of her. “Now. what do I do
with you? I cannot lock you in the water-closet, as it is the only one I know
where to find in all this mazy hulk of a palace; I would have something to say
to the architect about that, if I met him! “My old dressing-room, where I used lo put your sort of visitor,
was quite a narrow closet, with one tiny window easily blocked off, and I never
used it anyway, even bat-frcc. But these rooms are full of sunlight, and you
know, none of your brethren that I have met have understood about keeping the
carpels clean, and so I need to. er, leave you somewhere J can spread
something, er, bat-proof beneath you—’’ She thought of the boll of poachers” jackets material the
sisters had found in the housekeeper’s room, and two tears dropped to the
breast of her nightgown; but her voice was as steady as ever. “What we need, I
feel, is—is an empty wardrobe or even a secret room, I would like that. I would
like a secret room.” She spoke half-idly. She had learnt the use of speaking
quietly to all rescued animals; even the wild ones seemed to find such noises
soothing, and she also wished to fling herself away as quickly as possible from
the sudden memory of her sisters. She began to walk slowly away from her balcony, and when she
came to the room hung with the tapestries of a garden in all four seasons, she
paused. There came to her there some strange breath of air, some movement just
seen at the corner of her eye. She turned her head; the edge of the nearer
summer tapestry stirred. She looked down at her bat; her bat still looked at
her and lay calmly in her grasp. She shifted it, very slowly, in case it should
protest after all, into the crook of one elbow, where it settled, snug and
tranquil as a tired kitten. Now she had one hand free and could lift the edge
of the tapestry—and push open the crack of door revealed there. There was a good smell in that darkness, of rich earth and
of.. . peace, of the sort of peace she had been used to find in her garden, and
she sighed. “There, little one. This should do for you—1 hope. And I will come
and let you out again just as soon as it is dusk.” She raised the tapestry a little farther, so that she could
duck under it, as she was unwilling to leave any creature somewhere she had made
no attempt to investigate herself first, and found that she was standing in
what appeared to be an underground chamber. If she turned to look behind her, she could see the daylight
shining across the rosy carpet of her rooms, could see it winking off the
corners of furniture and strips of hangings visible to her through the
half-open door: hut if she turned inwards again, she saw only rough shadows,
dimming quickly to blackness, the shapes of earth and stone only varied by what
looked very much like the roots of plants. She raised her hand to feel over her head, having the sense
of little trailing things touching her softly, and tearing spiders, as even she
was a little hesitant about spiders; and found instead a great net of what fell
like tree roots, if she could imagine what tree roots might feel like from
underneath. The trailing things were root hairs. Could anything but root hairs
look so like root hairs? “But we are two storeys above the ground,” she said, bewildered,
and turned again to look at the sunlight lying on her carpet. She lifted her
gaze to the hinges of the door; it seemed to be pegged straight into the rock,
and the frame to be made of some impossible mix of stone fragments and woven
roots, impossible, but strangely beautiful, as the vein-ing of marble is
beautiful. “Well,” she said to the bat, “I guess I do not have
to worry about protecting the floor here—wherever here is. And there are
lovely, er, tree roots for you to hang from, should you wish to hang, and—and
bat droppings are excellent fertilizer. I will need fertilizer for my roses as
soon as I finish pruning them. I should wish to find a whole colony of you
here, I suppose, but—I don’t quite think I do. The results might be a bit...
complex. Good-bye, then, till this evening.” She laid her tiny parcel down in a little hollow in the
earth between two roots, loosened the pillow slip so that it could crawl out
when it chose, and stepped back, under the summer tapestry, and onto a carpet
covered with roses. She closed the door, which from this side was panelled with
plain wood, to match the panelling of the wall (plain but for the occasional
carving of a rose), and went, very thoughtfully, to eat her breakfast. She found her gloves with the pruning-knife and the saw on
the water-butt in the glasshouse this morning. “Today we will be bold,” she
announced, and she was. She cut and lopped and hacked and sawed, and then she
stopped long enough to water her cuttings and check her seedbed, and then her
stomach told her it was lunchtime, and she went back to her bedroom balcony,
and lunch was waiting for her. When she returned to the glasshouse after lunch, she looked
at the scatter of rubbish she had produced and said, “I need somewhere to build
a bonfire.” She left the glasshouse again and stood in front of its
door, looking down the side of the palace away from her balcony. The bulk of
the glasshouse prevented her from seeing very far, but she knew there was
nothing, between the door to the glasshouse and the door (if it was the same
door) she used to enter the palace and return to her rooms, that would do for a
bonfire. This area of the inner courtyard was covered with gravel,
gravel just coarse enough not to take footprints, but fine enough that it was
smooth and easy to walk on. It was also the same eye-confusing glittery
grey-white as the palace and the front drive. Studying it now. Beauty teased
herself with the notion that if she narrowed her eyes to take in none of the
details of where pebbles became walls, she might walk straight to the end of
the courtyard and up the wall without noticing, like an ant or beetle. .. . She
looked up, blinking, at the bright sky. The scale was about right, she thought.
If Rose Cottage is the right size for human beings, then here I am an ant or a
beetle. A small beetle. Probably an ant. Even if my feet cannot carry me up
walls. How confusing, when one came to walk on the ceiling, to be abruptly
blinded by one’s skirts.... In any event, there was nowhere here to light a bonfire: it
would make a dreadful mess of the whiteness, and even magical invisible rakers
and polishers might resent the effort to remove the ashes and the heat-sealed
stains and the bits that wouldn’t burn no matter how often you poked them back
into the hottest heart of the fire. And she didn’t want to annoy—any more than
she could help—whoever was responsible here... the Beast? She was beginning to
wonder. She remembered his words lasl night: When I was first here . . . I
had forgotten ... I was very glad when Fourpaws came. She had never seen any sorcerer who had chosen not to appear
human, though she had heard tales of them; her friend the salamander had met
one who looked like a centaur. His familiar pretended to be a lion, and
while J knew he was not, still, he kept me busy enough with his great paws and
his sense of humour that I could never look long enough at cither him or his
master to see who—or what—he really was, the salamander had said,
laughing his rustling laugh. My master was vexed with me, but I told him he
should have made me appear to be a panther. Beauty thought of the salamander’s gift to her—and of her
first sight of the Beast, Can you not hear to look at me? he had said.
Most sorcerers enjoyed making the sort of first impression that would give them
the upper hand in any dealings to come; but that first sight had almost... and
the Beast had taken no advantage as he certainly .. . And then Beauty
remembered the story of a sorcerer who looked like the Phoenix, and who had
married a human princess because her hair, he said, was the colour of the fire
of his birth. I am no princess, she said to herself. She turned away from the familiar end of the palace
courtyard and began to walk towards the end she could not see. She went on a
long way, a very long way, and the way disconcertingly seemed to adjust itself
somehow as she walked, like the corridor from the chamber of the star to the
door into the courtyard. The sense of mortar and stone flu-idly running into
and out of each other, like a cat standing up and stretching or curling up into
a cat cushion, was much more unsettling out of doors in sunlight. She glanced to her right; if the palace was adjusting, then
so must be her darling glasshouse. She was sure it was not this big from the
inside—unless the other end of the palace was horseshoe-shaped, and she was
going dear round it and would eventually find herself at the opposite corner of
the one square-ended wall that held her balcony. Bui the glasshouse itself had
comers—at least, from the inside—and she had not passed any, and she was not
willing to suppose that her glasshouse was anything other than what she
saw—that it would pretend to be a panther when it was a salamander. She stopped once and looked up, reassuring herself that the
sky, at least, even here, looked as it had from her garden at Rose Cottage or
from the city. But how was she to know that? The sky was blue, or it was grey,
and it was full of clouds, or it was not, and the walls of the palace blocked
too much of it. There was no horizon; it was like standing in the bottom of an
immense well. Or of a trap. The sky was too far away to be of much comfort. Once she paused because her eye was caught by some variation
in the wall of the palace, a break in the tall ranks of windows. She peered at
the gap, unsure of what she saw as she would be of shapes found in clouds or
fish swimming in a dappled pond; were they there or not? But she held her
ground and stared and at last could say: Here was an archway, but barred by
solid gates, fitting so perfectly into both the wall itself and the plain
forma! architecture of the rest of the facade that they were difficult to see
unless searched for—and she would not have searched had she not wondered (and
been grateful for the distraction) at a stretch of wall that had gone on too
long without a window in it. She stepped up close and laid her hand on the crack between
the left-hand door and the wall; closing her eyes, she could barely find it
with her fingertips and could sense no difference between the texture of the
wall and that of the door. Opening her eyes, she was redazzled by the surface
shimmer and lost both doors entirely; it was not till she stepped back and
looked again that she could pick out the thin line of the arch, silver as fish
scales. It was all so silent! There was the scuff of her shoes in
the line gravel, and the occasional whisper of wind, and that was all. Not even
any birds sang. But what was there for birds here, in this bleak stone
wasteland? She went on; how long she did not know. She began to feel
tired and discouraged and, without meaning to, swerved in her course till she
could reach out and touch the glasshouse. She trailed her fingers idly over the
width of one pane, bumped over the tiny ridge of its connecting frame, onto
another pane. . . . But then, suddenly, there was a corner of the courtyard
after all, and another wall running at right angles lo it, and her glasshouse
produced a corner of its own to keep paralle! pace with ii. And very soon after
she turned the corner, she found a great dark tunnel running through the
palace, like a carriage-way, though she saw nothing to suggest the presence of
stables, and the curve of its arch was much the same shape as the nearly
invisible doors she had found in the last wall. She walked through the tunnel, shivering a little, for it
was surprisingly cold in its shadow, and the tunnel was surprisingly long. I
should stop being surprised by things being very long, she said to herself.
When she came out the other side at last, she found herself in a wild wood and
halted in astonishment. She took a few cautious steps forward and then whirled
to look back through the carriage-way and was reassured by the glint of the
glasshouse she could see on the far side. She remembered her glimpses of something that might have
been wild wood at the edges of the formal gardens fronting the palace, but such
wilderness still seemed so unlikely a neighbour for a palace. But then, she
reminded herself, this was a sorcerer’s palace, and sorcerers could surround
their palaces with anything they liked. There was a story of one, known lo
dislike visitors, who had surrounded his with the end of the world. (Whether it
was the real end or not was moot; you disappeared into it just the same.) But the only magic she knew that still connected her to Rose
Cottage and her family was on the other side of the dark carriage-way. She did
not want to wander into any wild woods and not be able to find her way back. But here was a splendid site for a bonfire. The old branches and other bits and pieces had been tidily swept
together and were waiting for her—just inside the carriage tunnel, just within
the edge of its shadow, at the mouth that led to the wild wood. Beauty shivered
again, thinking that the magic ended there for certain, or that if this wood
was magic too, then it belonged to some other sorcerer than the one who ruled
the Beast’s palace. She would much rather that it was merely a wild wood and
not magic at all, but this was not something she was likely to leam—at least
not until it was too late, when she found herself dangling from the roc’s claws
or cornered by the wild boar, and even then who was to say the wild boar wasn’t
a familiar in disguise? Oh dear. She dragged the branches clear of the tunnel and into the middle
of the ragged little clearing among the trees, and then she muttered, “Knife,
candle, tinder-box, besom,” and went back to an especially deep shadow near the
far end of the tunnel, where she might not have seen them till she was looking
for them. She swept her bonfire into a rough hummock, and while it took a
little while for the candle flame to catch the old leaves and twig shreds she’d
made with her knife, the branches were all dry and brown-hearted and burned
very satisfactorily once they were going. Beauty stood and watched for a little time, waving away
sparks and wiping smuts out of her eyelashes, turning occasionally to look
again at the winking glasshouse, to make sure it was there, and sweeping the
edges towards the centre of the fire again as it tumbled apart. One did not
leave a bonfire till one was sure of its burning down quietly, even in a wild
wood—perhaps especially in a wild wood. She went back to the glasshouse, walking near it down the
length of the palace wing, reaching out to touch it occasionally—it was a much
shorter journey on the return, she was sure; she was almost sure—and tidied up,
or pretended to tidy up, since most of it had been done for her already,
“Tomorrow, please, may I have a small rake that I can use among the rosebushes
and a bag or a basket to collect leaves in? And if you would be kind enough to
leave the besom somewhere I can find it again.” She addressed the water-butt for lack of a better choice and
a dislike for looking up. She tended to feel that magic must descend, and
she did not want to see it happening. Furthermore, the water-butt was so
straightforward a thing to find in a glasshouse. And almost as comforting as a
cat in an immense shadowy dining-hall. By the time she went back to her room, twilight was falling
again. There was the tall rose-enamelled bath waiting for her, its water
steaming, drawn up by the fireplace. The sapphire towels had been replaced by
amethyst ones. She shook them out very carefully so as not to drop the amethyst
necklace, ring, and earrings in the bath. She took off her clothes thankfully
and stepped into the water; it was perfumed slightly with roses. But as she sat
down, and her arms touched the water, she hissed in sudden pain, for they were
covered with thorn scratches. A few thorns had stabbed through her skirt and
heavy stockings, and her legs throbbed in short, fiery lines, but the hot water
quickly soothed them; her arms were so sore it took her several minutes to slip
them under water. When she stepped out of the bath again, she patted her poor
arms very tenderly with the towels and found that the lavender-blue dress laid
on the bed for her tonight had slashed sleeves, the material meeting only at
the shoulders and wrists and belling out between in a great silken wave. “Thank
you,” she said aloud. “How glad I am this is not the grand dinner-party this
dress is suited to. however; a rose-gardener’s battle scars might be embarrassing
to explain.” It was nearly full dark now. She had closed the balcony
doors while she had her bath; now she opened them again and stood looking out.
The headachy glitter of the stone palace and courtyard were quieted by
darkness; she surprised herself by drawing a deep breath and feeling at peace,
One hand crept to the breast of her dress, where the embroidered heart lay
hidden beneath silk and amethysts. She turned back into her rooms again, leaving the doors
wide, and went into the next room, where the four seasons tapestries hung, and
lifted a corner of the right-hand summer one and felt for a door frame. She had
not wanted to light any candles, and in this inner room there was very little
daylight left, merely shadows of varying degrees of blackness. (She had
blown out the candles that stood round the bath and the washsland, muttering Stay,
as one might to a well-meaning but slightly larky dog.) She found the door
edge, and ran her hand down till she found a little concavity in the wall, and
pressed it, and the lock uttered a muffled clink, and the door slid open
an inch. She curled her ringers round it and pulled, calling softly,
“Bat! Bat! Are you there? It is nighttime again, and if you fly straight out
from my halcony windows, you will soon come to a wild wood which I think should
suit you very well.” She heard nothing, but felt a soft puff of air and, between
blink and btink, thought she saw a small moving shadow. She turned round to
follow it, hoping to see a little dark body fly out the balcony, but saw
nothing, and tried not to feel sad. “It was only a little bat, and 1 meant to
set it free,” but it did not work; she was sad, and her sense of peace was
gone, and she was lonely again. But then something caught the corner of her eye, out beyond
the balcony, some small moving shape darker than the falling night, but it was
too quick for her, and by the time she thought she saw it it had vanished
again. But then the flicker of darkness reappeared, curving round the corner of
the balcony doors and flying straight at her. She was too astonished to duck,
even had she had time to tell her muscles to do so, and the soft puff of air
was not air only—she was quite sure—but the tiniest brush of soft fur against
her cheek. The shadow raced back out through the doors but remained
near the balcony for a moment, bobbing and zigzagging, as if making sure that
her slow, ill-adapted eyes could see it, and then shot away, and she did not
see it again. She closed the doors slowly, smiling, and went down to dinner. Chapter 8k5he went gaily through Lhe door from her rooms into the
chamber of the star, but her eye betrayed her there, rushing into a count round
the circumference before she could cancel the impulse. There were twelve doors. Having counted once, she courted again, and a third lime,
counterclockwise for a change, beginning each count with the door to her rooms
where she still stood, and there were always twelve doors. And, while she did
not want to notice, she also noticed that the shape of the star-points
themselves had altered, and the colours of the enamelling, and her memory told
her, although she tried not to listen, that this was not the first time her eye
had marked this inconstancy. A little of her gaiety drained away from her, and
she went pensively through the door that opened for her, not quite opposite her
rooms’ door. She had not seen the Beast all day. If she was again to
dress for dinner, she must be about to see him now. She put out of her mind the
dreadful question he had asked her at the end of the last two evenings. She
wanted to see him—yes, she positively wanted to see him; she wanted to talk to
him. She wanted him to talk to her. Talking to bats and rose-bushes was not the
same as talking to someone who :ouid talk back. She wanted someone to speak to her using luman
words—if not a human voice. She would not think )f her sisters; she would
not. She would think of him; she vould think pleasantly of the Beast, of—of
her companion, he Beast. Almost she put out of her mind the size of him. the ease
vilh which he walked through the shadows of his palace, he silence of his
footfalls, the terrible irreconcilabilities of us face. She touched the
embroidered heart Jeweltongue lad given her and. surreptitiously, as if there
might be some->ne watching her, cupped her hands momentarily to feel the
ialamander’s heat. It rolled against her palms, wanning her :old fingers. There
was nothing to be frightened of. The 3east had given his word, and she believed
him. And she vas going to make him happy; she was going to bring his osc-bushes
to life—and then she could go home. He would elease her, as she had released
the bat and the butterflies. is would release her to go home again, home
to her sisters, icr father, home to Rose Cottage, home to her garden. A thought pulled itself from nowhere in the back of her nind
and formed itself into a terrible solidity before she mild stop it. She
flinched away from it, but it was too late, t was a thought she had often
suppressed in the last year md a half, but here, in the Beast’s palace, where
she was listracted and dismayed by too many things, it had broken ree of her
prohibition. What was the curse on three sisters living at Rose Cot-age? She had held to her decision not to ask for more details—lor
to make any reference to the little Mrs Greendown had old her of it to her
family. Nor had Jeweltongue nor Lion-icart ever mentioned any disturbing hint
of such a tale to ier. Had Beauty’s hopeful guess been correct, that Long-hanccrs,
accustomed to their long-standing loss of rnagic nd again disappointed of a
greenwitch—and secure in the nowlcdge of only two sisters living at Rose
Cottage—had een content to let the tale lie silent? Could Jeweltongue, /ho had
developed almost as great a gift for gossip as she had for sewing, really never
have heard anything of it? Or did she have the same fears of it—and had she
made the same decision about it—that Beauty had? A curse must be a very dreadful thing, but it was unknown, a
bogey in the dark, as insubstantial as a bad dream. Her bad dream never had
done anything to her. then, had it’.’ It was just a bad dream. But her sisters’
happiness was as near to her as her own heart, and as precious. They were happy
at Rose Cottage—happy as they had not been when they lived in the city and were
great and grand. It seemed to Beauty that Lionheart’s imposture was so
fragile and dangerous a thing that even thinking too much about a curse—which
might only be a folk-tale—could topple her. And then, if it weren’t a
folk-tale, destroy them all. If it weren’t a folk-tafe, surely it would have caught up
with them—or whatever it was that curses did—by now? When they first set foot
over the threshold to Rose Cottage, when they first went to Longchance. when
they had lived there for a year and a day? And Mrs Greendown had said that the
greenwitch had been a good one and that Long-chance had been fond of her—the
greenwitch who had left Rose Cottage to three sisters. Well, three sisters did not live at Rose Cottage now. What had the princess who married the Phoenix felt about her
fate? And using the same force of will that had enabled her to
sort through and comprehend her father’s papers, when his business failed and
his health broke, she thrust all thoughts of the curse away from her again and
pretended that her last thoughts had been of bats and butterflies. The Beast will release me, she repeated to herself. He will
release nie because ... because he is a great sorcerer, and I am only a ... a
gardener. He was waiting for her just inside the doorway of the same
hall where she had eaten dinner—and he had not—the two nights previous. For the
first time since she had closed her balcony windows and turned away to come to
dinner, her heart truly failed her, and an involuntary gesture towards her
little embroidered heart did not reassure her. Her heart had not sunk when she set eyes on the Beast, but
when her eyes had moved past him and into that dark hall She hoped Fourpaws
would come again. She turned back to the Beast and smiled with an effort. ;’My
Tor—Beast,” she said. My Beast, she thought, and Felt a blush rising to her
face, but the hall was not well lit enough for him to see. But what did she know
of how a Beast’s eyes saw? And she remembered, and did not wish to remember,
how quickly and surely he had walked into the darkness when he had left her the
night before. And the strangeness of him, and of her circumstances, washed over
her like a freak wave from a threatening but quiet sea, and she turned away
from him and moved towards her seat, grasping at the tall stems of the
torcheres she passed as if she needed them for balance. He was at her chair at once, moving it forward as she sat
down. She thought of dinner-parties in the city, when some tall black-dressed
man would help her with her chair, and of her dislike of making
conversation—laboriously with dull, or distressedly with maliciously
witty—strangers, and tried to be glad she was here instead. But the effort was
only partly successful. The Beast bent to pour her wine, and she wished both to
cower away from the looming bulk of him and to reach out and touch him, to know
by the contact with solidity and warmth that he was real, even if the knowing
would make her fear the greater. She stared at his reaching arm. candlelight
winking off the tiny intricacies of black braid, dipping into the miniature
pools of shadow in the gathers of his shirt cuff. She folded her hands securely
in her lap. He sat down where he had sat the night before, and the night
before that, at some little distance down the table, on her right hand. If she
had leant forward and stretched out her arm, she might still have
touched his sleeve. She could think of nothing to say after all; distractedly
she reached out, took an apple off a silver tray, and began to peel it. “You have found my poor roses,” he said, after a little
silence. “That is, you found them on your first evening here and then knew why
I did not wish to show them to you. But today— “I—oh, I had not thought!” she said, a whole new reading of
the day’s work she had been so proud of opening before her mind’s eye. She
dropped her apple and looked up at him, reaching forward after all, and
touching his sleeve, but without any awareness that she did so. “I love roses—I
wished to do something for you—for them—I did not think—I should have asked—but
I cannot bear to have nothing to do. Oh. are you offended? Please forgive—please
do not be offended.” “I am not offended,” he said, obviously in surprise. “Why
would I be offended? I love roses too, and it is one of my greatest sorrows
that mine no longer bloom. I honour and thank you for anything you can do for
them.” One of my greatest sorrows, she thought, caught away from
roses by the phrase. One. What was—were—the others? Why are you here? You would
not have killed my father if 1 had not come. Why did you say you would?
“They—they needed tending,” she said hesitantly. “Your roses.” “And why have I not done so myself?” He raised his hands
again. “I am clumsier than you know. Lifting chairs and pouring decanted wine
is the limit of my dexterity. I feared to hurt my darlings worse....” There was
another little silence, and then, so low Beauty was not quite sure she heard
the words: “And besides, I do not know how.” He paused again, and Beauty thought: Who is it that conjures
gloves and ladders out of the air, who is it that hauls my rubbish to the mouth
of the carriage-way—the mouth and no farther? When the Beast showed no sign of
continuing, Beauty said timidly: “But... sir ... the ... the Nu-men of this
place is very powerful.” “Yes,” said the Beast softly. “It is. But it can touch
nothing living.” Silence fell again, but for the first time in this hall, the
silence did not oppress her—although she hoped that did not mean Fourpaws would
stay away. She thought: I have something to do; I have earned my bread, and I
may eat it. As she was reaching for a platter of hot food, the Beast
began: “I thank you again for your...” and his hand approached hers as she
touched the platter. There was a raek of caudles just there, and for a moment
their two hands and the platter made a graceful shape, the shadows crisp and
elegantly laid out, a bawl of fruit and a decanter adding height and depth. Still
Life, with Candles, she thought, or perhaps Portrait of Two Hands. “But—” rumbled the Beast, and his face curled terrify-ingly
into a frown. Beauty snatched her hand back, shrank in her chair. “What?” he
said, standing up, making a grab at her hand as she drew back, and then
standing still, visibly restraining himself. He sat down again, leant towards
her, and held out his hand. Slowly, feeling like a bird fixed by a snake,
Beauty extended her own, laid it in his. The palm of his hand was ever so slightly
furry, like a warm peach. “You have hurt yourself,” he said, in his lowest
growl; she felt she heard his words through the soles of her feet rather than
in her ears. “Oh,” she said; her arms still stung and throbbed, but she
had not thought of them since she counted the doors in the chamber of the star
and found twelve. “Oh—it is only thorn scratches.” Relief made her voice
tremble. “They—they will h-heal.” ;’You must be more careful,” he said. “Oh—well,” she said. “It is very hard not to be scratched,
pruning roses.” “You must be more careful,” he repeated. She smiled a little at his earnestness. “Very well. I will
be more careful. Perhaps the—the magic that lays out these dresses can come up
with a long-sleeved shirt that is thorn-proof but not so stiff and heavy as to
prevent me from bending my anus. That will be a very great magic indeed.” The Beast laid her hand on the table again, as gently as he
might have set a bubble of blown glass on its pedestal. He turned and walked
away so swiftly she thought he must still be angry; she looked down at her arms
and touched the scratches with her fingers, wondering on whose behalf he was
angry. Hers, his, for his wounded honour as host, by his guest wounding herself
on his rose-bushes, for the roses themselves? It was true, her arms did ache,
she had been more careless than she should have been, in her eagerness to get
on—her eagerness to have something to do that would prevent her from thinking
about her family and her own garden, about why she was here. One or two of the
deeper cuts were slightly warm to the touch, perhaps turning septic. She looked up sharply; the Beast had returned, as silently
as he always did. In one hand he held a tiny pot, which he set on the table at
her elbow, and raised its lid. Because his hands were close under her eyes, she
saw for the first time that he was indeed clumsy; she saw the difficulty with
which he closed his fingers round the Lid of the pot and how the pot nearly
slid from his other hand’s hold as he pulled the lid off, and she wondered for
the first time how much of a Beast he truly was. Perhaps his size and strength
were as illusory as his ferocity and cruelty. Then why ... then what... then
who ... ? The lid popped free, rolled across the table, skittered into
the side of a plate, and fell over, thrumming to itself til! its motion was
exhausted and it lay still. The pungent smell of an herbal salve eddied up and
smote her sense of smell, and the Beast’s own odour of roses, strong from his
nearness, was overwhelmed. She tried to laugh. “That will cure me, will it?” she said,
and looked up at him where he towered over her; he was nothing but a huge black
shape against what little light there was. One wing of his robe had fallen on
the edge of the table and huddled there like a small creature. As he moved
back, and it slid away and disappeared, following his motion, it did not look
like the hem of a garment righting itself, but like a small wary lover of
darkness regaining sanctuary. He sat down. “It will. It will cure .. . almost anything.” She looked at him, at his face; she thought she could guess
something the ointment could not cure. She touched the coo! salve timidly,
touched it to the back of one hand, to her wrist, dabbed it on her forearm. The
Beast sat in silence, watching her, but she felt his impatience. She stopped
and looked at him, “You are less kind to yourself than you are to my roses,” he
said. “Like this.” Before she had time to think, he had fumbled at the sleeve
catch of her nearer wrist, and it fell open, the light material of the sleeve
falling away and leaving her arm bare, pale in the candlelight but for the dark
lines of blood. He dipped his own fingers in the pot—one at a time, for the pot
was small and his fingers were large—put his other hand over the tips of her
fingers, and ran the ointment in one long luxurious swathe up her hand to her
arm and shoulder and down again. The long dangerous talons did not reach past
the deep pads of his fingers; the glittering tips never so much as grazed
Beauty’s skin. He picked up her hand, turned her arm over, and smoothed more
ointment down the lender insidcs of her wrist and forearm and elbow, to the
delicate flesh of her upper arm; then he stroked the arm all over, back and
front, again and again, till the ointment disappeared. His fingers and palm
felt like suede, and the warmth they left was not wholly that of friction. “Turn towards inc. that I may do the other,” he said
gruffly. Half in a trance, she turned and held her other arm out towards him,
leaving him to unfasten the wrist catch before he drew more ointment
deliciously over her skin. He leant towards her, the shaggy hair of his head falling
low over his forehead so that she could no longer see his dark eyes, and pulled
her arm gently straight, till he could tuck the hand against his own round
shoulder; she felt his warm breath stirring the fine hairs on her forearm; his
long mane brushed the back of her hand. How could a Beast smell so sweetly of
roses? No, no, it must be the sharp smell of the ointment that was creeping
into her eyes, drawing two tears from under the lids to spill down her cheeks. He saw, and stopped at once, drawing back, holding only her
hands in his, holding them against his breast; her knuckles grazed against the
embroidery of his waistcoat. “Have I hurt you’? The last thing I meant—’ She drew her hands gently out of his, curled them under her
chin. “No—no—1 do not know what is wrong with me. I—I think it is only that I am tired.” She blinked, looked
at him, smiled a little tremulously; she was shivering, a deep, deep tremor far
inside herself, but she did not wish him to see, to know or to guess, and she
feared what he might guess. She told herself she did not wish to hurt him by
making him think she was still afraid of him. “It is only that I am tired. Your
ointment is—is wonderfully soothing. I no longer even feel the scratches.” She turned back to her plate, leaning in her chair as
slit-had been before the Beast brought the little pot of salve. The Beast did
not return to his customary place, but he had straightened where he sal. She
touched the half-eaten apple. “I—I think I am not very hungry either,” she
said, for her appetite had gone. “I think what I most need is sleep. If you
will excuse me—” He was on his feet in the instant, drawing back her chair.
She moved away without looking at him, conscious of her loose sleeves billowing
away from her arms, for she had not refastcned the wrist clasps. She had
arrived at the doorway when she heard the Beast’s low voice behind her, where he
still stood behind her chair. “Beauty, will you marry me?” “Oh. no. Beast.” she whispered, and fled. She did not run far. She was as tired as she had told the
Beast she was; she did not know if the corridor had shortened itself in
sympathy or if she had fallen asleep while she walked. In her bedroom her dress
fell away from her as soon as she touched the clasps at her shoulders, her
fingers as clumsy as the Beast’s. It pooled like water round her feet;
starlight and candlelight made it shimmer, as if it moved to a secret tide. The
little embroidered heart tapped against her skin in response to her quick
breathing. She was again almost too tired to pull her nightgown over her head,
and she crept up the stairs to her bed on all fours. She dreamt her old dream, but with the change that had come
to it since she had spent her first night in the Beast’s palace; she hurried
down a long dim corridor, anxious to come to its end, for she was needed there.
She was wearing the dress she had worn this evening, and the wrist clasps had
come loose. A small, chilly wind pursued her, snaking up her open sleeves, making the untended scratches on her
legs ache when it crept under her skirts. She must hurry.... She woke weeping. She knew at once it was very late; there
was a difference in the stillness even in the Beast’s palace that told her the
o’clock was inimical to daylight creatures. She remembered nights in the city
when they had danced till dawn, both inside and outside lit by lamps that made
the dancing floors almost as bright as day. . . . She thought she saw
Jeweltongue speaking to a young man with a handsome, intelligent, sulky face,
on a tall horse; she thought it was a picture out of her memory till she saw
that Jeweltongue was wearing Mandy’s old skirt. There was a small plopping sound from the direction of the
bed stairs. She turned her head on the pillow to look and saw a small round
mound perched there. “Fourpaws?” she whispered. The mound rose up on four legs
and became slender and graceful, and Fourpaws walked delicately onto Beauty’s
bed, purring in her room-filling way. Beauty fancied she could see streams of
purring leaking out through the cracks in the bed-curtains made by the bedposts,
pouring out in the wider spaces on either side of her. which she preferred to
leave open so she could see out; she thought perhaps it was the strength of the
purring that roused the scent from the potpourri in the low dish on top of the
japanned cabinet, for as she drifted towards sleep again, slowly stroking
Fourpaws’ furry side, she could smell roses. Fourpaws’ fur was wonderfully
sleek and soft, soft as ... She fell asleep and dreamt she slept on warm fur,
and in the dream she slept both deeply and drcamlessly, for she was guarded by
a great shaggy shadow that paced back and forth in front of the door of her
chamber, and the tiny breeze of his motion brought the smell of roses to her
where she lay. And then the dream changed again, although there was still a
cat’s fur under her fingers, and she blinked, and there was a black-brindlc-and-white
cat winding itself round her outstretched hands as she stooped to pet it. There
was bright daylight all around them, and she heard the clop of hoofs. “There,
Molly has lost her mind at last,” said a familiar voice. “I hope it won’t put
her off her stroke with the barn mice.” “She’s only enjoying the sunlight,” said a strange male
voice. “She’s not,” said the familiar voice; “she’s being petted by
a ghost. Look at her. She doesn’t purr like that for a sunny afternoon.” The male voice laughed. Beauty thought: I am dreaming. Quite
composedly she looked up and saw Lionheart and a young man she did not
recognise leading two horses towards a barn a little distance away. The young
man was no taller than Lionhcart, though he had broad shoulders and big hands
and a plain, square, kind face. They paused near Molly, and Beauty looked at
their two faces and saw friendship there, the pleasure in each other’s company—and
something else. “You are pleased with him. are you not?” said Lionhearl in a
suddenly businesslike tone, turning to the horse the young man led. “I can tell
Mr Horsewisc you will take him?” And she held out her hand for the young man’s
reins. The young man hesitated, looking at her, and Beauty wondered
at the odd way in which Lion heart now avoided meeting his eyes. Her hand,
still outstretched, trembled slightly. “Yes,” said the young man at last. “Yes,
I do like him, but it was you who saw him, was it not? Mr Horsewisc himself
said it was you who asked to try him.” Lionheart dropped her hand and shrugged, “Yes, I saw him
first, but it was only that I was looking in the right direction, Mr Horsewise
would have seen him sooner or later.” “That’s not how he tells it. He says he had seen enough
horses for the day, and that it was you who insisted on poking round in all the
corners where the Gypsies lurk for the unwary, and found Sunbright there, and
recognised his worth, and insisted Mr Horsewise come look at him when he sought
to put you off. And you—you know me very well. I prefer Sunbright to any of the
other horses Mr Horsewise brought back from the fair.” “Good,” muttered Lionheart. “Lionheart, I don’t understand you,” said the young man, and
there was something in his voice other than exasperation, something unhappy,
even anguished. “Mr Horsewise thinks the world of you, says he’s training you
up to be his successor. If you don’t want—even if you don’t—why won’t you at
least accept the—the reward you have earned?’’ Lionheart smiled a little, but she still would not meet his
eyes. “I don’t need a reward. My wages are as much as I need. And I love my
work here.” “You love it, do you?” said the young man softly. Lionheart stepped away from him violently; the horse she
held threw up its head and sidled away from her. “It’s—it’s just a manner of speaking!”
she said. Clumsily she reached out and tried to snatch Sunbright’s reins out of
the young man’s hands, hut the young man was too quick for her and grasped her
hand instead. “Lionheart—’’ “Let me go!” said Lionheart. “Please. Just—just let me go.” “You must listen to me,” said the young man. “I’ve known for
some time. You know I guessed, don’t you? But I’ve kept your secret. Haven’t I?
Can’t you trust me a little? Because I also know—I—Lionheart—” But Lionheart had’broken free and was running back to the
barn, with her puz/Jed horse trotting obediently behind her. Ihere was still sunlight in her face, but she was back in
her bed in the Beast’s palace. She blinked at the canopy for a moment, and then
turned her head and looked into the room, looked at the queer shape the shadow
of the breakfast table threw on the sunlit carpet. The roses there looked so
bright and real she wondered if she might be able to pluck them and put them in
a vase. “But it can touch nothing living,” the Beast said. These roses would be
soft and rather furry, like the carpet; touching them would be like stroking a
dense-furred cat. But they would have no scent, only a smeil of dust and
weaving. She sat up. There were short grcy-amber-brown hairs on her
pillow. She tried to brush them off. but she found her first attempts only
seemed to leave more cat hairs than ever, and some of them now looked black and
white, “Nonsense,” she said aloud, a little too sharply, and she half flung
herself down the bed stairs to the carpeted floor. It was sun-warm on her bare
feet, and she felt herself relaxing. “At least you don’t change,” she murmured, sitting down
where she was, drawing up her knees, and putting her arms round her shins. ‘‘I
am grateful,” she said aloud, “that these rooms—my rooms—don’t change. In this
palace, where too many things change—where the paintings hanging in the
corridors change their faces and their frames, where the can-dlestands and
torcheres and sconces are in different places and are higher or lower and have
more branches or fewer, and there are different numbers of doors in the chamber
of the star, and the cnamehvork around the sun window changes colours, and
sometimes it’s vine leaves and sometimes it’s little inedailions, and the size
of the tiles underfoot is sometimes larger and sometimes smaller, and there are
of course different numbers of points on die star because there are different
numbers of doors, but that doesn’t explain why the points are sometimes
straight and sometimes curly—and perhaps it is a different dining-hall every
evening too, only it is too dark to see. There is almost nothing here that does
not change, except the glasshouse and—and me. And the Beast. And these rooms.
The roses on the carpet in the first room are always pale pink cabbages, and
the carpet in here is always velvety crimson roses mat have opened Hat—I
suppose the carpet is dyed with a magic dye and will not fade in all this
sunlight—and the tall japanned cabinet with the potpourri dish on top is always
where I first saw it, and the mountain and the bridge and the trees on its
front are always the same picture, and the potpourri bowl is always the same
pale green china. And the fire grate always has the same number of bars—eight,
I counted—and the bed stairs are the same number of steps, five. “And the garden tapestries are always there. I particularly
love the garden tapestries. I might not realise if some of the other things
were changed just a little—things I can’t count—but I would see it at once in
those tapestries; you, er, you change the tint of one columbine, and I would
notice it. I am glad they are all, always there. Even if, er. you have rather
odd habits about matching jewelry with bath towels. I am even glad of those
gilt console tables, although 1 think they are hideous, because at least they
are always the same hideous,” She was still half asleep as she spoke, her eyes wandering
meditatively over what she could see from where she was, and her gaze slowly
settled back on the carpet she sat on. Several of the roses really did look
surprisingly three-dimensional, although this one close at hand seemed less
dark crimson than brown. . .. Her eyes snapped fully open, and she leant
towards what was distinctly a small round lump on the carpet. Not Fourpaws, too
small. “What,,, you’re a hedgehog!” It stirred at her touch and then curled up tighter. “You’re
a very small hedgehog. And you shouldn’t be wandering round enchanted palaces
looking for adventures. How did you get in here? At least bats and butterflies fly.” She stood up and began tapping gingerly at other bits of
carpet. She found two more hedgehogs. Bemusedly she sat down at her breakfast
table and poured herself a cup of tea. “Well, You would be quite useful in the
glasshouse if there were any slugs, but at present there’s nothing for slugs to
eat, so there are no slugs. 1 daresay by the time there are slugs, you will be
full-grown and somewhere else. If I had a compost heap, you could sleep under
the compost heap. Oh dear! If only 1 had something to compost! Grey and white
pebbles and stone chips will not do. How am I going to feed my roses?” She put
her feet under the table. “Oh!” She raised the edge of the tablecloth to look.
Four hedgehogs. When she came to get dressed, she discovered a canvas tunic
with long sleeves folded up on the floor of the wardrobe under her skirt, and
behind her skirt on its peg a canvas overskiit. “Very convenient for the
transportation of hedge-bogs,” she said. There were tough leather boots that
laced to her knees in the way of her searching hand when she scrabbled under
the bed for her shoes. Then she bumped the curled hedgehogs together with one
foot as gently as she could (even rolled-up hedgehogs do not readily roll) and,
protecting her hands behind her overskirt, bundled them into her lap. “I hope
tomorrow’s animal infestation isn’t fleas,” she murmured, and walked towards
the chamber of the star, grateful for the first time for the eerieness of doors
that opened themselves. The lady, or the lady’s cousin, who was usually in the first
painting in the corridor that led to the glasshouse had changed her hair
colour, and her pug dog was now a fan. She gazed at Beauty with unchanged
superciliousness, however. But this morning Beauty, with her arms full of
possibly flea-infested hedgehogs, put her tongue out at her. She laid her four spiky parcels down at the foot of the
water-butt (having had a brief exciting moment holding her laden skirt together
with one hand and one knee while she rapidly worked the glasshouse door handle
with the other hand). “These are excellent garments,” she said, brushing her
sleeves and her skirt front. “1 can even bend my arms. The shirt reminds me
very much of Jcweltongue’s first... oh.:> She squeezed her eyes
shut on her tears as one might hold one’s nose against a sneeze; after a little
while the sensation ebbed, and she opened her eyes again and gave one or two
slightly watery sniffs. The hedgehogs had not moved. “If you slay there a
little longer, I will take you to the wild wood later on. But I have things to
do first.” The half-open bud of the red rose was fully open now, and
one of the other two was cracking, and—best of all—she found a tiny green bump
of a new flower-bud peeking from the joint between another leaf and stem. She
took a deep breath of the open flower’s perfume; it was as good as sleep, or
food. She watered her cuttings. “You are striking, are you not?”
she said to them briskly, like a governess addressing her students. “You are
sending out little white rootlets in all directions, and soon you will prove it
to me by producing your first leaf buds. I want you blooming by the end of this
season, do you hear me? You shrubs, at least. You climbers, perhaps I will give
you till next year.” She heard her own voice saying it—by the end of this season,
next year—and she stopped where she stood, and the water from the watering-can
she carried wavered and stopped too. She looked up towards the cupola several
storeys over her head, and her mind went blank, and she felt panic stir in its
lair, open its eyes.... She opened her mouth and began to sing the first thing
that came into her head: “And from her heart grew a red, red rose, and from his
heart a briar.. . .” She worked all that morning as hard as she had worked the
day before. She worked to keep her memories at bay and to keep panic asleep in
its den. And as she worked, she sang: “A knightly dance in the grove they
tread, with torches and garlands of roses red.” She worked until her back and
shoulders ached and sweal ran down between her breasts and her shoulder blades,
and it was as well for her that she was wearing long canvas sleeves and overskirt,
for she would not have noticed if the thorns had cut her, if her pruning-knife
or her hand rake had slipped. She worked because there were new memories that
troubled her now, not only memories of the sisters and father she missed but
memories of kindness and ... memories of the Beast. “She had not pulled a rose, a rose, a rose but barely one,
when up there starts...” Beauty faltered in her singing, and her stomach took
advantage of the break in her concentration and told her loudly that it was
lunchtimc. She stopped and looked round almost blankly. The rose beds
were now all splendidly tidy. She had pruned away almost as much dead wood as
she had the day before; there was tying and staking yet to be done, but the
elegant shapes of the bushes themselves were now cleanly revealed. There were
rows of little hillocks of leaves down all the paths, and the rather bigger
hill she’d automatically collected near the door (though she supposed the magic
would once again transport it all for her to the mouth of the carriage tunnel to
her bonfire glen) had four little collapsed-entry leaf-falls on one side of its
circumference. “Oh dear,” said Beauty guiltily. “I’d forgotten all about you.” She put her hand on the glasshouse door and thought. She was
a gardener, and she disliked the idea of putting four perfectly good slug—and
insect-eating hedgehogs into a wild wood—wasting them, to her miiid. She went
outdoors and looked up, stretching her back and shoulders as she did so; the
jacket and the overskirt were protecting her skin admirably, but they could do
nothing for the ache in her muscles, or for the weariness of the hand that held
the pnming-knife. It was still earty enough in the year that the sun, while
warm, was not yet oppressive. She wondered how hot the glasshouse became in
high summer; was temperature regulation within the magic’s purview? Or was the
excellent system of vents and of windows that opened and panes that unlatched,
and lacy screens that roiled down, and the handles and levers to work them,
invisible till there was need for it? Maybe it was merely hidden from her dull
eyes amidst al! the gorgeous tomfoolery of the glasshouse’s design. She looked up at the weather vane she could barely see and
wondered again what it was; she could just make out a bulk of shape to one
side, a narrower finger of something on the other. Just where did the food she ate come from? Conjured out of
the air from dust motes? There were hardly even dust motes in the Beast’s
palace; the sunbeam that woke her in the mornings was washed clean. But even
sorcerers had to negotiate with ordinary merchants for some things; she knew
her father’s story about the hydra who answered the front door. Her friend the
salamander preferred real flies to the magical banquets his master laid out on
grand occasions. Beauty thought of the fourth side of the courtyard she stood
in, which she had not yet explored. There were doors on each of the other
three, even if one only led fat least, led her) to her rooms, and one was
sealed shut. Her curiosity rearoused by the mysterious weather vane, her
conscience pricked by hedgehogs, and her memory disturbed by dreams, she de— cided that lunch could wait a few more minutes. She would
have a look first al the fourth side of the courtyard. She walked along the glasshouse wall instead of nearer the
palace, half thinking that she should begin looking for vents or vent openings;
she was a little worried lhat just as the glasshouse door opened hy putting
your hand on the handle and turning it, like all the other doors she had known
except the ones in the Beast’s palace, and as she had taken on the dying roses
as her special care, so perhaps the glasshouse cooling system might be her
practical responsibility too. Perhaps it was studying the shining ridged whorls and scintillant
beams and bars—sometimes it was as though they ran up and down for no other
reason than to give her pleasure, for she could often make no sense of them architecturally;
but she found herself laughing as she looked—that made the time pass so
quickly. Almost before she thought of it, she was already rounding the corner
of the glasshouse and looking down that fourth side. And there was another open
archway, like the one to the wild wood. She went towards it eagerly, teasing
herself with ideas of what might lie beyond in the few moments before she could
see for herself. The tunnel felt shorter, perhaps because it was so much
brighter. This one did not debouch upon a wild wood; here was an orchard. It was the wrong time of year for apples and pears—and plums
and peaches and apricots—but they were mere all the same. She plucked a peach
and bit into it, cupping her free hand under her chin for the juice she knew
would run down it; when she finished the peach, she lapped the little pool of
juice from her palm and then knelt and wiped her hands on the grass and her
face on a reasonably clean corner of her skirt. It wasn’t lunch, but it would
keep her a little longer while she explored. She didn’t see him al first; she saw only another huge old
tree at a little distance; his back was to her, and the near black of his hair
blended into the unrelieved black of his clothing, and both into their
background. Then he turned without seeing her and pulled an apple off the tree
he stood next to and ate it, neatly, in two biles, core and all. / am a
Beast; I cannot eat like a man. She thought of the peach juke running down
her chin, but she waited till his hands had dropped to his sides again before
she stepped forward. He saw her but made no move towards her, and so she hesitated,
uncertain of her welcome. “It is a lovely day for a picnic,” she said, but her
voice betrayed her, and picnic wavered, ending like a question. He still said nothing, so she turned to go. “If you are
enjoying my orchard, stay,” he said. “I do not wish to disturb you,” she said. He shook his shaggy head. “You do not—” he began, and
stopped. “I would be glad of your company,” he said. She came to stand next to him, and then, uncertain again,
stepped away, leant against a tree. “You must be very fond of fruit, to have so
magnificent an orchard,” she said. He gave a rumble that might have been a laugh. “The magic
consents to feed me, to keep me alive,” he said. “Fruit?” she said, astonished. “You—” Her mind flew back
over her meals in the Beast’s palace. “There is no meat on your table.” The Beast nodded. “1 am a Beast, and other beasts fear me.
They cannot live here in pcaee because of my presence, and I cannot give them a
merciful death. I sent them away, long ago. No beast—no other beast—comes here
now but Fourpaws.” And a few hundred butterflies, a bat, and four hedgehogs,
thought Beauty, and ask me again tomorrow morning. But she did not interrupt, “Fruit sustains me,” continued the Beast. “When I was first
here, the orchard fruited in the autumn, as orchards do; and sometimes in early
summer, no matter how careful I had been about storing my previous year’s crop,
before the next harvest, I grew very hungry. I ate grass, but it did not agree
with me. Over the years the trees have carried their fruit earlier and
earlier—and longer and longer. “I told you last night that the magic here can touch noth— ing living. Within the walls of the courtyard, it is master;
outside those walls it... may ask. The front garden answered and obeyed. But
here, in this orchard... It is the trees who have chosen to carry their fruit
early and late; it is not magic that compels them.” Beauty knew what he was about to say before he said it, and
she had her mouth open to protest almost before he spoke: “But my poor roses— “The glasshouse is different,” said Beauty almost angrily.
“The glasshouse is not like the rest of the palace. It doesn’t change. It isn’t
one thing one minute and something else the next. It is itself.” “It is the heart of this place,” said me Beast, “and it is
dying.” Beauty put her hands over her ears, as if she would not hear
him. “No. No. There is something wrong there, but we are putting it
right, the roses and I. I do not know what it is that has gone wrong. I think
it is only that it has been neglected for too long. Neither you nor the magic
can tend it, but I can. It will not die. It will not. I will not let
it,” She took her hands away from her ears and took a deep breath. A little
breeze curled round her warm face and patted her cheeks, bringing with it a
whiff of a deep-scented rose. Her hands were shaking. “There is cheese on your
table—and butter,” she said abruptly, remembering, “Yes,” said the Beast. “There is cheese and butter.”‘ “But—” She looked at him, and he looked at her; but it came
to her that she was [earning to read his face, and she knew he would answer no
questions about the cheese and the butter. But even after she realised this,
she went on looking at him, and lie at her. The little breeze swerved round her
and blew the heavy mane off the Beast’s forehead. It was only the strangeness
of what he is, she thought. It is as if you looked at a—a hedgehog and expected
it to be a rabbit, or looked at a cat while anticipating a phoenix. I wonder
what the hydra thought of the first human being it ever saw, and whether it
liked answering a front door that always opened on creatures with only one
head. She looked away. “And bread.” She thought of Lion-heart and
added hastily, “And vegetables.” “Vegetables,” agreed the Beast, without enthusiasm. “They
are all grass, as far as 1 am concerned, but the vegetable garden is that way.
if you are interested,” She laughed at him then, because he sounded like a small boy,
not like a very large grown-up Beast with a voice so deep it made the hair on
die back of your neck stir when you heard it. “But vegetables are good for
you,” she said, and added caressingly, “They make you grow up big and strong.” He smiled, showing a great many teeth. “You see why 1 wish
to eat no more vegetables. But I am sure the magic is glad of someone to cook
and bake for more capable of being pleased than I.” Beauly thought of the five slices of toast she had eaten
that morning, and the half pot of marmalade. She had been very hungry, after no
supper the night before. “You speak of—of it—as if it were a person.” “I think of it as such. Or”—he hesitated—“as much of a
person as I am. 1 think—I sometimes think—we are both a bit bewildered by our
circumstances. But as with this orchard, we have grown into each other’s ways,
over the years.” You speak and you move, and the echo in your voice says that
you know yourself to be trapped here. As if you and—and the magic are both
trapped. But the trees carry their fruit for you, and you sent the other beasts
away, that they might not be unhappy. “You have been here a very long time,”
she said tentatively. “Yes. I have been here a very long time. And you have been
standing talking to me a very long time. Go eat your lunch. Even magic can’t
keep it hot forever.” Dismissed, she ran off, wishing she dared invite him to accompany
her, aware of his gaze on her back, watching her go. wondering if he would
still be there by the time she returned after lunch, to smuggle a few hedgehogs
into the vegetable garden. He had sent all the other beasts away, long ago. But
the trees had learnt to listen to him, and now the beasts were returning. She was both disappointed and relieved that she did not see
the Beast later, with her skirt full of hedgehogs. She made her way as swiftly
as she could through the long pathless grass in the orchard, keeping the
courtyard archway behind her; her burden made her a little slow and cautious,
both for her sake and for her passengers’, and a little clumsy; nor could she
entirely resist the temptation to look round her, even at the risk of losing
her footing or straying from the shortest route. The grass was spangled with
wild-flowers, and she saw tall bulrushes a little way off, at the bottom of a
gradual slope, suggesting water, but it was too far away for a diversion. It was not too long before there rose up before her another
sort of wall, an old brick wall, such as might contain an old garden. There was
a wrought-iron gate in the wall, and the glimpse she had through it gave her a
little warning, but still the garden was a surprise. “Oh! This is how The
glasshouse should look!” The words burst out of her. She knelt, to let the
hedgehogs roll off her lap, but she was looking round her all the time. The paths that ran away from her in three directions were
wide enough to walk along—and to let sunlight in—but no wider, and in some
places the great vegetable forest leant over them, and in other places it
sprawled across plots the size of banqueting halls. The rhubarb were tall as
trees, the runner bean vines taller than giants; the red-stemmed chard,
brilliant as rubies in the afternoon sun, grew as high as her waist, though the
leaves were still a fresh young green; and the cabbages, some of them so big
around she could not have circled them with her arms, bore extravagant frills
as elaborate as ball gowns and as exquisitely coloured; and there were melons
nearly the size of Rose Cottage. Did the Beast eat melons? she thought. I must
ask. And figs—for there were fig trees espaliered against the walls, looking as
if they needed the support of the wires to hold up their splendid weight of
fruit. She looked down, so as not to step on any hedgehogs, and saw
that they had all uncurled, and were standing up on their legs, and sniffing
the air in an interested manner. She thought one of them looked up at her and
deliberately met her eyes, as if to say, “Thank you.” “Well,” she said, “thank you loo. I hope you’ll stay here,
and eat lots of slugs and things, and be happy. Be happy too, please. You won’t
be very small hedgehogs here for long, will you’.’ Although I can’t say this
place looks as if it has ever seen a slug in its life—I guess if there are
hedgehogs, there will be slugs loo. Oh—and to think I toid the bat to fly to
the wild wood. Perhaps it already knew better. Perhaps that’s why it came, and
it only got a little lost and flew through my balcony instead.1’ She wandered down the paths for a little while, thinking
about a rose jungle like this vegetable jungle. All her bushes would be at
least as tall as she was, and the climbers would climb right up into the
cupola, and there would be so many leaves and flowers eveiywhere that the
overeager gardener wouldn’t know where the thorns were lying in wait until it
was too late.... She laughed. As she walked, she picked a handful of pods, and
shelled them, and ate the peas raw, and they melted on her tongue; and she
pulled off hand fills of different lettuces, and every leaf was as sweet and
tender as the peas, and she was sorry for the lunch she had had, that she could
not eat more. In her wanderings she eame to another wrought-iron gate, and
she opened it and went through it, and here were great fields of sweet-corn,
with fat green ears trailing golden tassels as long as her arm, and of wheat,
and the longer-haired barley. She walked just a little way along the barley, to
run her hands through the feathery awns, softer than any birds’ down, softer
than Fourpaws’ flank. “But I must go back,” she said, “for I have work to do.” Inside the walled garden again she put her hand out, for one
last mouthful of peas, for a fig to eat on her road; but her hand paused in the
reaching, and even though the sunlight still shone on her warm and bright, she
shivered. The taste of the peas and the lettuce in her mouth was not as sweet
as it had been, for it seemed to her suddenly somehow soulless—as if while her
tongue could be tooled, her body knew this food would not nourish her. And she
thought again of the meals in the Beast’s palace—and wondered again about the
cheese and the butter. It was not until that moment that she noticed the silence.
She was growing accustomed to silence, to the nearly unbroken silence of the
palace and its grounds, the silence that made her talk aloud to herself in a
way that would never have occurred to her when she still lived with two sisters
and a father (and a dog, a goat, and chickens), and a little town not far away.
But she now realised that there had been an uneasiness shadowing her from the
moment she had stepped through the first gate, struggling with her
hedgehog-filled overskirt. And the uneasiness was that she neither saw nor
heard any birds. In the palace there was some excuse for soundlessness; in
the courtyard, perhaps, as well, but in a garden, in any garden, let alone one
so magnificent as this one, . . There must be birds in a garden, just as there
must be midges and flies and aphids, and slugs and beetles and borers, and
spiders and hedgehogs and butterflies. But there were none here, neither flying
overhead, nor calling from the branches, nor hopping through the leaves at
ground level. As she went back towards the gate into the orchard, she
found herself brushing against the plants for the soughs and swishes and
rustles, just as she had brushed her hand against curtains and sconce pendants
when she had followed the Beast into the palace for the first time. Before she
let herself through the second gate, she looked round for the hedgehogs, but
they had all disappeared. It was later than she realised; the light was already
lengthening towards evening. The long grass in the orchard seemed to drag at
her, and by the time she came to the tunnel into the courtyard, she was
conscious of how tired she was. She stood for a minute at the edge of the
orchard, listening to the wind moving among the grass blades and the trees; it
was a comforting sound, but not so comforting as the chirp of a single sparrow
would have been. She was thinking about nothing in particular—about the end of
day, about weariness, about the likelihood of a hot bath waiting for her. But
there was a little, itchy, tickling sense of some thought trying to catch her
attention, something about. . . about strength, about sorrow, about joy; about
the joy of... of... As soon as she was aware even of so much, it was gone. Chapter 9Her dress that evening was dark green, with long
close-fining sleeves buttoned with many tiny buttons, and a high neck, and
round it went a wide necklet of great square emeralds, each as large as the palm
of a child’s hand. There were emerald drops for her ears that were so heavy she
was not sure she could wear them all evening; when she had put them on and
turned her head, the tiny spray of opals and peridots that hung below the
emeralds brushed her shoulders. There were two heavy emerald wristlets whose
clasps closed with small substantial snicks like the locks of treasure vaults;
her shoes were so stiff with the gems sewn closely all over them she could
barely bend her feet. When she leant down to pick up a dark green bath towel
and hang it over the back of a chair she creaked. “All T need is—let’s see—a
tiara, and perhaps a cape, sewn all over to match the shoes, and I will be too
ponderous to move,” she said, “and you will have to send a coach and four to
transport me to the dining-hall.” There was a sudden wild sibilancc from inside the wardrobe,
and she started. “That was a joke!” she said hastily; her voice had gone all
high and thin. She turned and half ran—tittupping in her unyielding
shoes—through her rooms to the chamber of the star; there her shoes made a dramatic,
resonant clatter, as if the coach and four were there, waiting for her,
invisible but not inaudible. “Oh dear!” she said. “No more jokes!” She ran across the
slar and through the door that opened for her, and at once her shoes were
muffled by carpeting. “Maybe that is the trouble with this place,” she said.
“No sense of humour.” But her words were muffled even as her shoes were, and
she began to feel her spirits muffled too; and she went on silently to the
dining-hall. where the Beast silently waited. She sat down, tasted the wine the Beast had poured for her,
and resolutely began to eat. She was not going to miss any more dinners. The
shadows that were the Beast caught at the comer of her vision. She only knew he
was there because she had seen him sit down; he sal as still as some great
predator waiting for his prey. The tinkle of her cutlery hid the sound of his
breathing, as the mutter of dry leaves underfoot might hide the hunter’s. She
tried to recall the mood of the morning. “Do you go every day to the orchard?”
she said. “Yes. I spend much of each day there. Nights I spend on the
roof.” Beauty said, astonished, “But when do you sleep? And does
not the weather trouble you?’’ “I do not steep much. And the weather troubles me little...
in this shape. It is harder on my suits of clothing. The magic can turn the
weather too, when it chooses. I prefer it to come as it will; mostly I have my
way in this.” The Beast looked at her. “in the winter, occasionally, sanctuary
is provided to some traveller.” Beauty shivered and, because she could not help herself,
said, “It has happened more than once then.” “Yes . . . more than once. They run away, of course, when
they see me. If they do not see me, they leave for loneliness—or fear of
shadows.” Very low, Beauty said: “But none has ever stolen from you before.” The Beast said, “Your father is not a thief. It was my heart
he took, and he could not have known that. Others have stolen.” The Beast’s voice
became indifferent. “They had no joy of what they took, and no one has ever
found this place twice.” The silence was all round her again, pressing through even
the Beast’s words while he was still speaking; with a tiny gasp Beauty made a
sudden gesture and knocked the butt of her knife against a copper bowl, which
rang like a gong. “Oh! I’m sorry!” she said, but as the echoes died away, there
was Fourpaws, winding round the table leg nearest Beauty’s chair, twisting the
long tail of the heavy dark table runner till the goblet and small saucer near
the corner danced in their places. Beauty reached out to steady the goblet just
as Fourpaws stopped and looked at her reproachfully. “Pardon me,” said Beauty. “I should have known you never
knock anything over unless you mean to do it.” Fourpaws forgave her, and purred, and jumped into her lap,
and Beauty began to cat again, but only with one hand, since the other was
necessarily occupied with stroking Four-paws. It is rather awkward, eating with
one hand. The Beast had not moved, but he was smiling. “Not all other beasts fear you,’’ said Beauty, stroking and
stroking as Fourpaws purred, and lashed her tail, and purred. “A cat is a law unto itself,” said the Beast gravely, “even
one cat from another cat. And Fourpaws, like any cat, is herself. That is the
only explanation I have; and while she stays here, as she does, it is enough.” “It is enough,” agreed Beauty, and asked another question,
as she might ask a friend: “What do you do on the roof at night?” “Look at the stars, when it is clear enough. I told you that
this place and I have grown to each other’s shape over the years. I will send
no weather away if I know it is coming, but it is often clear at night here.” Beauty thought of the bit of sky she could see from her balcony,
and how blocked it was by the hugeness of the palace and even the peak of her
beloved glasshouse; and she remembered the trees around Rose Cottage and the
great bowl of sky she could see from there; and she thought of what the view
must be from the tool” of the palace, with no trees, no houses, no city
lights.. .. “Oh. might 1 ever come up? Is there some bit of roof where I would
not be disturbing you?” “I answered a question much like that in the orchard earlier
today. I would be glad of your company.” “How shall I know where to find you?” “Any late night that you wake, look out of your window, and
if the sky is clear, come and find me. Any stair up will take you eventually
onto the roof.” He paused and looked troubled. ‘‘You—you will not be
frightened? I know you do not like the dark.” Beauty looked at him in surprise, but she realised at once
that the surprise must be directed at herself, for while she had loved the soft
darkness in the garden at Rose Cottage, she did not like the dark in the
Beast’s palace, which was silent but not quiet, did not like the shadows thrown
by things which changed into other things when she was not looking at them, did
not like the shadows containing other things she could not see.... “Perhaps I
shall be frightened,” she said slowly, “but I shall still come and look for
you.” “Will you marry me?” said the Beast. “No, Beast,” said Beauty, and the hand stroking Four-paws
stopped and curled its fingers, and Fourpaws leapt from her lap and disappeared
into the darkness. She slept too deeply that night for wakening. She saw her sisters
moving round the ground floor of Rose Cottage. Their father was again frowning
over bits of paper by the hearth, but his scowl was that of firm concentration,
and he bit the end of his pen briskly. She looked into his well-loved face and
saw a clarity and serenity there that had never been there before. Even her
earliest memories of him. when her mother was still alive, made him out to have
been ... not merely preoccupied with business or by his adoration of his wife,
but somehow a little haggard, a little overstretched by life or work, by
responsibility or longing. Beauty smiled in her sleep to see him now, even as
she wished to put out her hand and smooth the lines from his lace and the
sorrow from his eyes that had been there only since she had come to the Beast’s
palace, only since she had begun having these dreams about the home she had
left. If this is only a dream—she thought, dreaming—why can I not do this? Why
can I not tell my dream-father and my dream-sisters that I am well and whole?
Just as I used to touch the wallpaper of that long windowless corridor and feel
the roughness of the paper and the slickness of the paint, and the edges where
the lengths joined. Just as I petted a cat called Molly while Lion heart and her
young man looked on. But she could not. Jeweltongue was humming to herself as she settled down
across from her father and picked up a froth of pink ribbons and net. “I will
be glad when Dora outgrows the frou-frou stage. Mrs Trueword never grudges
paying my labour, but all this nonsense is simply boring.” Lionheart, at the kitchen table, beating something in a
bowl, said, “She may not outgrow it, you know. She may decide she is expressing
a unique and exquisite taste. Try considering yourself lucky. Out of six women
in one family to sew for. you have only one addicted to frills,” “Hmm,” said Jeweltongue, biting off thread and watching her
sister through her eyelashes. Lionheart lost her grip on her bowl with the violence of her
mixing, hit herself in the stomach with her spoon gone out of control, and
grunted, “Rats’-nests.’” as batter flew across the room. “You’ve been out of soils for weeks now,” said Jeweltongue.
“You come home every seventh day and bang round the house like a djinn in a
bottle, and go off again next morning looking like the herald of the end of the
world, I say this with the understanding that you may now upend the remains of
your bowl over my head.” Lionheart’s face relaxed, and she gave a faint and reluctant
laugh. “I’m sorry. I know I am—I am not at my best, which is to say that I know
you must know that I am not at my best, and I—I—oh, I can’t help it! It’s just
the way it is. It won’t go on forever. I can’t...” But whatever else she
thought of saying remained unsaid. Jewcltongue laid the net and the ribbons down and came over
to help Lionheart mop up. “What’s wrong, dearest? Surely it would be a little
easier for you if you told us.” Lionheart, on her knees, leant her forehead against the edge
of the table and closed her eyes. “No.” “Weil, will you tell me anyway if I ask you?” Lionheart opened her eyes and began to smile. “You are
giving me warning you are about to begin plaguing me to death about it, are
you?” “Yes,” said JeweJtongue at once. “I was willing to let it
alone, you know, and wait for you to solve it yourself, but it’s been weeks.
It’s been—it’s been since the week after you went to the horse fair with Mr
Horsewise. Your great triumph, I thought. Has Mr Horsewise decided his protege
is just a little too young to be so clever?” “Your estimation of my abilities is touching but misplaced,”
said Lionheart—“Mr Horsewise knows more than I’ll ever learn. It isn’t Mr
Horsewise.” “Then you had better straighten out whatever it is, or it will
be Mr Horsewise,” said Jeweltongue, “because I can’t believe you aren’t
behaving like this at work too. I know you too well.” LionhearL rocked back on her heels and stared wide-eyed at
Jeweltongue, and then her face began to twist and crumple, and, savagely as she
bit her lips, the tears would come. Jeweltongue put her arms round her, and
Lionheart pressed her face into her sister’s breast and roared, for Lionheart
could never weep quietly. Their father rose from his place by the sitting-room hearth,
and came to the sink, and began to pump water for the teakettle, stooping to
pal Lionheart’s back as he passed her. He filled a bowl and left it on the
table near Jeweltongue, with a towel, and when Lionheart had subsided to a
snuffle, Jeweltongue tenderly wiped her sister’s face till Lionheart snatched
the towel away from her with a return of her usual spirit and mutlered, “I’m
not a baby, even if I’m behaving like one,” and scrubbed at her face till the
skin turned a bright blotchy red, “Matches your eyes nicely, dear,” said Jeweltongue. Teacosy, judging that emotions were cooling to a safe level,
came out from behind die old merchant’s armchair, to which haven she had
withdrawn after being hit in the eye with some Hying batter. She sidled up to
Lionheart, put her nose in Lionhearl’s lap, and when she was not rebuffed, the
rest of her followed. The old merchant made tea and passed cups down to the two
sisters still sitting on the floor, murmuring, “Old bones, you must forgive
me,” and drew up a chair for himself. When he sat down, Lionheart leant back
against his legs and sighed, and be stroked the damp hair away from her
forehead. “It’s—it’s Aubrey,” Lionheart said at last. “He’s—he’s
guessed.” “He won’t have you turned away!” said Jeweltongue, shocked.
“I would not have thought him susceptible to doltish views of propriety. And he
has been a good friend to you. has he not?” “It’s worse than that,” said Lionheart. “I—I’m in love with
him. And I think—I’m pretty sure—he’s in love with me.” “But that’s not—” “Isn’t it?” said Lionheart swiftly. “Has Master Jack
forgiven you for preferring a short, stoop-shouldered fiour-monger with hands
like boiled puddings to his tall, elegant, noble self, whose white hands have
never seen a day’s work? D’you want to think about what happens next? This is
going to be one Loo many for Master Jack’s vanity, from the occupants of that
tatty little witch’s cottage beyond the trees at the edge of Farmer Goldfield’s
lands, where no respectable sort of folk ought to be willing to live in the
first place. You must have heard some of the stories that are being told about
why Beauty . .. where Beauty . . . why she isn’t here just now. Stories with
magic in them, here in Longchance, where everyone knows magic never comes.” Her voice faltered, and then she went on. “And surely you’ve
heard that there’s a curse on this place if three sisters live in it’.’ The
tads like to tease me about it, say I’m pretty enough to be a girl if I wore a
dress and learnt to walk right, hut they’ve never told me what exactly the
curse is, and I don’t like to ask outright, do I? “Our friends love us, so at present the stories are only
stories, even the curse—whatever it is. But... the True-words do what their
eldest son tells them to, you know; they think he’s wonderful: they think he’s
just loo clever and wise and good to bother himself with doing anything.
And Longchance does what the Truewords tell them.” Beauty felt herself driven out of her own dream, pushed
away, as if by a storm wind, and battered and beaten by some force she could
not resist—but the sensation was much more sluggish lhan that. She felt weighed
down, dragged, muffled and inauled. She no longer dreamt, but she could not
wake, and she tossed in her bed as if her bedclothes imprisoned her. Finally she threw herself successfully into wakefulness, and
there was sunlight on the carpet, and the teapot steaming through the spout
slit in the tea-cosy. All her pillows had fallen to the floor, and the
bedclothes, and her own hair, were wound in a great snarl round her. It took
her a minute or two to creep free, for she moved languidly, and she had trouble
understanding what she was looking at and which way to pull to loosen the
snare. She had to think about it to so much as brush her hair out of her mouth
in the right direction. Even awake as she was now it was difficult not to feel
trapped and to struggle blindly. She felt her way down the bed stairs and poured herself a
cup of tea with an unsteady hand and then sat, staring at the cup while the tea
grew cold, holding the embroidered heart in both her hands, and saying to
herself. It was only a dream. It was only a dream. Please. It was only a dream. Finally she drank the cold tea, and poured herself another
cup, and drank it hot, and the clouds in her mind and heart began to thin and
shred and then to blow away. “I must—I must return soon,” she muttered. “I must
know what is happening. And—if anything is happening, I must be there to share
it with them.” She kept remembering Lionheart saying. The stories that are
being told about why Beauty isn’t here . And the curse. Surely you’ve heard that there’s a curse
on this place if three sisters live in it? The curse was catching up with
them at last. They’ve never told me what exactly the curse is.... She knew little of the Longchance baker and less of either
of Squire Trueword’s sons, but she knew about gossip, about how people talk and
how stories grow. She remembered Mrs Greendown saying, / like to talk. And
she remembered Mrs .Greendown telling her about the country greenwitch to whom
it mattered so much that Rose Cottage go to a particular family, who lived many
miles away in a city that perhaps no one living in Longchance had ever seen,
that she went to a lawyer and had papers drawn up to do it. Papers drawn up that
left it specifically to the three sisters of that family. And she remembered
Mrs Greendown saying, f ain’t prying . .. much; but it’s ... interestin.’,
isn’t it? Like you said to begin, you can’t help being interested. And she remembered saying to Mrs Greendown, I’d much
rather know, and Mrs Greendown replying, You may not, dear, but I’m
thinking maybe you’d better. ... ;’I must go home,” she said. “The roses must
bloom soon, for I must go home.” She stood up from the breakfast table and
walked out to the balcony, nursing her teacup in one hand and the embroidered
heart in the other, and stood staring at the glasshouse, effervescing in the
light of the early sun; slowly her face eased into a small smile. “Well,” she
said in her ordinary voice, “what is it to be today then? Nothing too—too
demanding. I’m probably about in a mood for spiders.” As she said spiders, there was a twinkle in the
corner of her eye, as if the glasshouse had found a mirror to repeat itself in,
and she turned to look. The spiderweb hung the entire length of the balcony
door frame, and it caught the sunlight just as the glasshouse did, and lit up
in tiny fierce lines of fire and crystal. “Oh,” said Beauty, letting out a long breath. “Oh.” It was
so beautiful she almost touched it, remembering just in time; but even the tiny
air current stirred by her fingers made the nearest gossamer thread quiver and
wink, and she saw die spider come out of its comer of the door frame and pluck
a connecting thread to see if there was anything worth investigating. “Well, you are a handsome spider,” said Beauty bravely, “as
spiders go, and I salute you for a most radiant and well-composed web, and I
daresay I can bear you as a roommate—so long as you stay out here. I do not
want any of your daughters spinning their homes in my bed-curtains. I hope you
understand.” The spider dropped the thread and retreated. A narrow gleam
of sunlight, barely thicker than gossamer itself, found an unexpected entry
into the spider’s corner and touched its back. The spider had curled itself
into a little round blob with no tegs showing (it immediately became smaller
when. with its legs tucked up, it was no longer so mercilessly identifiable as
a spider), and under the sunlight’s caress it glittered bright as polished jet,
and there was some faint gold and russet pattern upon it, which would not have
disgraced the bodice of a lady or the shield of a knight. Beauty had leant closer to look and gave a kind of hiccup,
which should have been a laugh, except that she did not want to disturb the
spider again with her breath. “I draw the line at discovering spiders to be
beautiful too,” she said, “but I, er, take your point.” It was not until then that she remembered she had wanted to
wake during the night and go onto the roof, and her life in the Beast’s palace
crept back to her and wrapped itself round her, and she did not notice it or
how comfortably it fitted her. On this, her fourth day, she found the first leafbuds on her
cuttings and the first green tips aboveground in her seedbed. She had a last load of clippings and rubbish to haul to the
bonfire glen; she raked and swept till the ground between the bushes was
satisfyingly brown and bare, and she weni round a last time, looking at
everything with her pruning-knife in her hand, and mostly felt her decisions
had been good ones. She had found green wood in nearly all her new roses (to
herself she called them her roses, as if they were merely an extension of those
at Rose Cottage, though she knew she was only rescuing them for the Beast), and
even those she had had no success with she was not yet ready to dig up and
dispose of; arguing to herself that they might yet shoot from the base if she
gave them a little more time. There was perhaps more tying up she could do, more propping
and spreading out—the stakes and string had of course appeared for the purpose,
under and around the water-butt—but the glasshouse was nearly as tidy as she
could make it. “Barring an infinity of buckets of hot soapy water and a rag on
a very long stick,” she said, looking up at the thousands and thousands of
bright panes round her; “but I’m very—very—glad to say you don’t look as
if you need it.” She leant her tools by the water-butt and bundled up a few
handfuls of leaves and twigs in her overskirt with her tinderbox in her pocket,
so that she could begin the fire, while she didn’t examine too closely her
expectation that the magic would bring the rest of the debris. And she might
keep her back to the carriage-way, so she need not see it arrive either. Would
leaves and twigs tumble suddenly out of nothing? Might she see—something—carrying
a great bundle of rubbish? No, she would definitely keep her back to the
carriage-way. She put a trowel in another pocket as well. “I might have a
look round for heartsease at the edge of the wood,” she murmured, “just to have
something flowering to frame the paths. But once you’re all growing, and I see
what shapes you come to, I can plant up the empty spots with pansies.” But this
time she did not react to the implications of her words, and though she hummed
and sometimes sang to herself as she worked, she did not do so to drive fear
away from her. She returned from the bonfire glade with her overskirt heavy
with carefully uprooted heartsease, and spent a little time kneeling by the
crosspath at the centre of the glasshouse, planting tiny purple faces in small
clusters among her cuttings at the four corners. It was near lunchtime, but for the first time she was not
hungry for it. She stood restlessly in the centre of her glasshouse, with the
transplanted heartsease gleaming velvety and merry in the sunlight, and looked
round her. The good work she had done no longer pleased her, because she knew
her task was only half accomplished. She had to feed the soil, feed her roses,
or nothing would come of all she had done so far, and her cuttings and
seedlings would die too. “If! say ‘compost,’ I don’t suppose a compost heap
appears by the water-butt, does it?” It didn’t. She walked through the orchard, too preoccupied to look for
the Beast—or too ashamed, for how could she face him now, when the job she was
here to do she was about to fail at?—and let herself into the walled garden
again; but she found no compost heap, nor any of the usual signs of human
cultivation, rakes and hoes and spades, trowels and hand forks and pruning
knives, seed trays and bel! glasses and pots for potting on, odd bits of timber
that might do for props but probably won’t, twists of paper that used to contain
seeds and haven’t found their way to the bonfire, broken pots, frayed string,
and bits of rusty wire. “Very well,” she said. “You are much too—too organized
for such mortal litter, but if you, you magic, don’t need compost to
make—to allow—things to grow, why are the Beast’s poor roses dying?” It is
the heart of this place, and it is dying. She looked out again over the
too-tidy, too-beautiful vegetable beds and listened to the silence. Where were
the birds? She slunk back through the orchard, looking only at her
feet, not even interested in exploring the pond or stream the bulrushes
heralded, not stopping to twist a fruit off any of the generously Jaden trees,
because she suddenly felt she did not deserve such a pleasure. She went up to
her balcony and stared at her lunch with no appetite. There was a slab of cheese, and she poked it with her
finger. “Where do you come from then? Herbivore dung is exactly what I want.
Cow would be splendid—goat, sheep, even horse. I’m not particular. Chicken is
also good, although I’m quite sure one cannot produce cheese from chickens. 1
wish I knew more about cheese.” She tried to recollect everything the dairymaid
who had married a city man might have told her about cheese varieties, but it
was all too long ago. She had not been a good pupil because she had had too
much on her mind, and the woman had been careful to give her only the most
basic instructions. She thought of her own experiments with goat’s cheese and
smiled grimly; no help for her there. She broke off a bit of this cheese and nibbled it, stared at
the pattern of crumbs as if they were tea-leaves which could tell her fortune.
“This isn’t even like any cheese I can remember anywhere else. It’s—it’s—” She
stopped. She had eaten cheese in the palace before, and no doubt what
was happening now was only because she was concentrating so hard that her mind
had to leap in some direction, like a horse goaded by spurs. But suddenly she
seemed to stand in a forest, and there was an undulating sea of moss underfoot,
and the sunlight fell through the green and coppery leaves in patterns as
beautiful as those on a spider’s back, and there was a smell of roses in her nostrils
and in her mouth. But just as she would know Lionheart from Jeweltongue in the
dark simply by her smell, just as each of the roses at Rose Cottage possessed a
smell as individual as the shape of its stems and leaves and the colour of its
flowers, so was this smell of roses different from the rich wild scent that
belonged to the Beast. This scent was light and delicate and fine and reminded
her of apples after rain, but with a flick, a touch, a tremor of something
else, something she could not identify. She drew in a deep breath, and her
heart lifted, and then the vision—and the scent—dissolved, and she was back in
her rose-decorated room, staring at a plate of cheese and cheese crumbs. She hardly knew how she got through the afternoon, and she
was preoccupied at dinner. When Fourpaws failed to put in an appearance, she
found herself playing fretfully with the tails of the ribbons woven into her
bodice, fidgeting with the silken cord of her embroidered heart, and twisting
the gold chain set with coral that hung round her neck. “May I ask what troubles you?” said the Beast at last. Beauty laughed a little. “I am sorry; I am not good company
this evening. No, I think I want to worry my problem one more day. It would
please me to be abie to solve it myself, although at present I admit I am
baffled.” “I will help you any way I can,” said the Beast. “As I have
told you.” Beauty looked at him. He had turned his head so that the candlelight
fell on one cheekbone, lit the dark depths of one eye; the tips of his white
teeth showed even when his mouth was closed. He always sat so still that when
he moved, it was a surprise, like a statue gesturing, or the wolf or chimera’s
deadly spring from hiding. “Yes, Beast,” she said. “I know ... you have told me this.” He made his own restless motion, plucking at the edge of his
gown, as she had seen him do before. The fabric rippled and glistened in the
candlelight, seeming to turn of its own volition to show off its black sheen,
like a cat posing for an audience. She repressed the urge to stroke it, to
quiet the Beast’s hand by placing her own over it. “It is a little early,” he said after a moment, “but I could
take you on the roof tonight.” “Oh, yes!” said Beauty. “Please. When I woke up this
morning, I was angry, because I usually do wake at least once in the night.” “Do you?” said the Beast, as he stood behind her chair while
she folded her napkin and rose to her feel. “Does something disturb you?” She turned round and looked up at him. He was very near, and
the rose scent of him was so heavy she felt she might reach out and seize it,
wrap it round herself like a scarf. “I have always woken in the night.’’ she
said, * ‘since I was a little child, since—since 1 first had the dream I told
you of, my—my first evening here.” The Beast was silent for a moment. “I have forgotten,” he
said at last, and the words / have forgotten echoed down a dark corridor
of years. “I too used to wake most nights, when—before—when I slept more than I
do now. I had forgotten.” He turned away, as if still lost in thought, but she skipped
round after him and slipped her hand beneath his elbow. His free hand drew her
hand through and smoothed it down over his forearm, and his arm pressed hers
against his side. She was aware that he was walking slowly to allow for both
her height and her elegant burden of skirts—thank fate my shoes are more
reasonable tonight, she thought—but still they made their way swiftly through
what seemed to her a maze of corridors and then up a grand swirl of stairs.
Magnificent furnishings demanded her attention on every side, but she turned
her gaze resolutely away from them, preferring to stare at the fine black
needlework on the Beast’s sleeve, glimpsed and revealed as they walked through
clouds of candlelight and into pools of darkness. She was tired of looking up at portraits that stared down
scornfully at her. She was tired of ormolu cabinets and chi-noiserie cupboards
that when she first looked bore sprays of leaves and flowers which when she
looked again were deer or birds; tired of divans that had eight legs and were
covered with brocade but between blink and blink had six legs and were covered
with watered silk. She moved her ringers to lie lightly on a ridge of braid on
the Beast’s sleeve; it was the same ridge in or out of candlelight. The rich
scent of the crimson rose embraced her. But as they paced up the stairs, she looked up, for the
ceiling was now very far away, and she wondered if she was seeing to the roof
of the palace. It seemed much higher than the cupola on her glasshouse, and
this puzzled her, and before she could remember not to let anything she seemed
to see in this palace puzzle her, her eyes were caught by the painted pattern
on the ceiling, which seemed to be of pink and gold—and auburn brown and ebony
black, aquamarine blue and willow leaf green—and perhaps had people worked into
it, or perhaps only rounded shapes that might be limbs and draperies, but
certainly it seemed to reflect the swirling of the staircase—except that it did
not, and the spiral over— head began to turn quickly, too quickly, and she lost her
sense of where her feet were, and she stumbled because she could not raise her
feet fast enough, and she tripped over the risers. The Beast stooped and picked her up as easily as she might
have picked up Fourpaws and continued up the stairs. “Pardon me, please,” he
said. “Close your eyes, and hold on to me because I am only . . . what I am.
And forgive me. for I should have warned you. I went up this stair on all fours
more than once before I learnt not to look up. This house—this place—has a
strange relationship with the earth it stands upon. If you want to look round
you, stop. When you walk, look only where you are walking. And in particular,
do not took at the ceiling when you climb a turning stair, and do not look out
any windows when you are walking past them. I—I should have said these things
to you before; I have never had occasion to explain to—” He stopped. “I do not
think the contents of any of the rooms will make you dizzy if you stand still
to look at them. They mostly only, er ...” “Change their clothing,” said Beauty, and the Beast gave a
low rumble of laugh. “Yes,” he said. “And please forgive me also for treating you
so—’ “Lightly,” suggested Beauty, and was gratified by another
quick growly laugh. “—disrespectfully,” continued the Beast. “But I have also
learnt that it is better not to—not lo acknowledge when something here has had
the better of you, if you need not.” And at that he reached the top of the stairs, and took two
steps into the darkness there, and set her gently down on her feet. Involuntarily
she leant against him, listening to the slow thump of his heart, hearing her
own heart pattering frantically in her ears in counterpoint as she stirred and
put herself away from him, feeling with her hands for the wall. “It is so
dark!” she said, “Yes,” said the Beast’s voice, and it seemed to come from
all round her, as if he still held her in his arms, or as if he had swallowed
her up, like an ogre in a nursery tale. “This hall is always dark; I do not know why. I do not know
why this great staircase leads you to something you are not permitted to see; I
can tell you that candles will not stay kindled here, though the air is sweet
to breathe. But this is the shortest way to the roof. I told you that any stair
up will lead you to the roof eventually; it will, but sometimes it is a tedious
process. And it is the sky we want.” He leant past her and threw open a door. Starlight flowed in
round them, lighting up her pale hands, which she still held out in front of
her against the dark of the hallway, playing in the carved surfaces of the
cameo rings on her fingers and tweaking glints and gleams from the lace overlay
of her skirt. The Beast was a darkness the starlight could not leaven. She turned, went up a narrow half Might of stairs, and
ducked through a low opening. She was on the roof, surrounded by sky, “Directly
before you,” said the Beast, and she could hear him stooping behind her, so
that when he pointed over her shoulder, his arm was low enough for her eyes to
follow, “is the Horse and Chariot. There”—his arm moved a little—“is the Ewer,
and there”—only his finger moved—“the Throne.” “And there,” she said dreamily, “is the Peacock, and the
Tinker—how clear his pack is, 1 have never seen it so clear—and the Sailing
Ship.” “Then you are a student of the skies as well,” said the
Beast. She laughed, turning to him. “Oh, no—I have told you nearly as
many as I know. Our governesses taught us a little—a very little—a very little
of anything, I fear, but the night sky was not their fault, for we lived in the
centre of a city, where the gas-tamps were lit all night, and in weather fine
enough to stand outdoors with your governess, there was probably also a party
going on in some house nearby, with its grounds lit as bright as day. Please
tell me more. I have never seen so many stars, so much sky. At home”—she
faltered—“at... outside Longchance, where I lived with my sisters, although
there are no gas-lamps, there are trees. I know no stars that stay low to the
horizon, and the turning of the seasons always confuses me.” And so he told her more, and sometimes, with the name of
some star shape, he told her the story that went with it. She knew the story of
the Peacock, who was so proud of his tail that he was willing to be hung in the
sky instead of marrying his true love, and how his true love, both sad and
angry, asked that peahens, at least, might be spared having tails so grand that
conceit might make them forget necessary things, like looking for supper and
raising children. But she did not know the story that the Tinker was not a
tinker at all, but a brave soldier who, having stolen the Brand of War, carried
it in his pack till he could come up to die Ewer, which contained the Water of
Life, where he could quench it forever. But the Ewer always went before him,
and he chased her round and round the earth, because she knew that humanity
could not be freed of its burden so easily and, for love of the Tinker, could
not bear him to know his courage was in vain. Beauty had never seen the Three
Deer, who dipped back and forth above and below the horizon, ever seeking to
escape the Tiger, who ran after them; nor the Queen of the Heavenly Mountain,
whose reaim touched both the earth and the sky, and if you were the right sort
of hero and knew exactly the right path, you might visit her, and she would
show you the earth constellations spread out at your feet and tell you the stories
they held. Beauty at last sighed and bowed her head. “You are tired,”
said the Beast. “I am sorry; I have kept you too long. You must go to bed.” “I am not tired—or, that is, only my neck is tired,” said
Beauty, reaching beneath the gold and coral chain, and the silken rope of the
embroidered heart, to rub it. But then she blinked, looking down at her feet,
and backed up a step, and backed up another. “But. sir—Beast—what is this we
walk on? Why are we walking on anything so lovely?” And she went on backing up
and backing up, but the roof was covered with the delicate, glowing paintwork. She knelt down and touched the arched neck of the fiery chestnut
Horse drawing the red-and-blue-and-gold Chariot, and the face of the Queen of
the Heavenly Mountain was so kind and the eyes so welcoming that Beauty almost
spoke to her, and, between opening her mouth and, remembering, closing it
again, had reached out to brush a lock of hair from where it had fallen across
her cheek, as she might have done to one of her sisters. For several minutes
after that she was too stunned, too enthralled to speak; at last she said
wonderingiy, “There is nothing as splendid as these anywhere inside your
palace. “Bui—no—splendid is not the right word. They are splendid,
but they are—they are so friendly. Oh dear!” she said, and looked up at him,
half laughing, half embarrassed. “How childish that sounds! But so many of the
beautiful things in the rooms beneath us—push you away—tell you to stand
back—order you to admire and be abashed. These—these draw you in. These make
you want to stay and—and have them for company. Yes. that’s right. But I—I am
still making them sound like a—like—sort of comfortable, though, am I not? Like
a bowl of warm bread and milk and an extra pillow, and that’s not it at all.
They are not comfortable. Indeed, I feel that if I lived with them for long, 1
should have to learn to be ... better, or greater, myself. If this Queen of the
Heavenly Mountain looked down at me from my bedroom wall every day, soon I
should have to go looking for that path to her domain. I wouldn’t be able to
help myself.” The Beast still stood silent. “Oh—am I still describing it all wrong? I told you our governesses
never taught us much. And Jeweltongue is the artistic one of us. Lionheart is
the bold one, and I—I—I am the practical one. I don’t mind being the practical
one, but these—oh, these pictures do not make me feel the least bit practical!”
She took a deep breath and clasped her hands over her heart, as if she felt some
stirring in her blood she had not felt before. “Tell me—please tell me—do you know how they came here—these
pictures? It is so odd that they should be here. where they will be rained on and scoured by wind. Do you
know how they came here?” There was a long silence. “Hmm,” rumbled the Beast at last.
“I drew them.” “You?” she said, amazed. “But—but you told me you are
clumsy!” “My hands are clumsy,’1 said the Beast, “but they
are steady. I have had .,. enough time, to learn how to do what I wish to do. I
tried ... different things. Sometimes I use a very long brush, which I hold
between my teeth.” “But—you have said you spend the nights here! Do you work in
the dark?” “I see very well in the dark, so long as the sky is clear,”
said the Beast. “The shadows indoors are much darker.” She crept, feeling foolish but too entranced to care, across
the roof, stooping even lower to peer at a particularly fine bit of work: a
deer’s flank, a peacock’s feather, the vine leaves winding up a pole. There
were more stars and stories here than she could learn in years of nights. She
came at last to the low balustrade which ran along the edge of the roof. There
was something painted here too, but it was almost entirely in shadow, and she
could not see it. She looked down the vast length of the roof—for they had
walked round only one tiny bit of this wing of the palace—and along its
balustrade, and it seemed to her that all the shadows were populated by the
Beast’s fine, living, vivid painting, but nowhere could she see any bit of
balustrade that did not stand so thoroughly in its own shadow that she thought
her weak human eyes could make out what was upon it. “Candles,” she said aloud—a little too loud—and went firmly
to the low door, which projected into the roof no higher than the balustrade,
and looked inside on the top stair. She saw nothing, but she persisted, seeing
candles in her mind’s eye, insisting on candles, and eventually she found a
nook, and in it a candle in a small holder and a tinder-box. She lit the one
with the other, and stood up, and went back to the balustrade where she had
first noticed the patterns she suspected were painting, and stooped again, and— somehow she had known this was what she would find—the Beast
had painted roses all along the balustrade, as far as she walked, stooping for
the candle flame to light them but careful with the candle, that no wax would
drip on the paintings she could not help but walk on. She walked back to the Beast, who had moved away from her as
soon as she began examining his paintings. She touched his arm timidly. “They are
all so beautiful,” she said. He looked down at her. “Not half so beautiful as you are,”
he said. “Nor do they speak to me, nor touch me. Even Fourpaws will not touch
me. Beauty, will you marry me?” She shivered as if she had been struck by winter wind, but
she left her hand on his arm. ‘‘Good night, Beast,” she said, and turned away,
to go through the little door, and find her way to her bedroom, and sleep. “Good night, Beauty,” said the Beast behind her, “Do not forget:
Keep your eyes downcast while you are on the stairs.” “I will not forget,” whispered Beauty. Chapter 10Ohc was not sure when the dream began. She remembered
walking down the long vortex of stairs, keeping her eyes on the next tread, and
the next, as her feet stepped down, and down, and she remembered how the
darkness seemed to rise towards her as she neared the bottom, till when she
stood on the floor again, she could see no more than she had at the top, before
the Beast had opened the door that let in the starlight, though it had not been
dark at the bottom of the stairs when the Beast had been with her. She stood
for a moment, her heart again beating in her ears, and this time the Beast did
not stand near her; but then a door opened in front of her, and the twinkle of
candlelight beckoned to her from the darkness, although the little light seemed
to struggle, as if with some fog or miasma. She did not remember how long she walked through corridors,
familiar and unfamiliar—a little familiar, a little less familiar—till she came
again to the chamber of the star, eerily lit by its sky dome, and she walked
through her rooms, and rather than at once undressing and climbing into her
bed, she went to stand upon the balcony. The spider-web glistened in its corner
like hoarfrost. As she stood, leaning against the railing, her mind and heart
still spinning with the images of the Beast’s painting, she looked idly out
into the starlit courtyard. Arid she saw a bent old woman carrying a basket
walk slowly round the corner of the glasshouse, as if she came from the
carriageway where the wild wood lay, and she walked slowly down the wing of the
palace where the closed gates were hidden. Beauty could not see the gates from
where she stood, but the old woman set the basket she carried down, in front of
where they might be. And then she turned and walked slowly away again. And now Beauty knew she dreamt, for she saw the old woman
turn the far corner of the glasshouse and walk through the carriage-way into
the wild wood, and Beauty watched her till her shadow emerged from the darkness
of the tunnel to lie briefly against the starlit ground of the bonfire
clearing. Beauty could only just make out what she was now seeing, and she
thought she saw silver shapes, like four-legged beasts, come out of the woods
round the glade and touch the woman with their long slender noses. But this was
very far away, and the trees threw confusing shadows, and it was over very
quickly, as the woman disappeared beyond the narrow opening of the archway. But when Beauty turned to run downstairs and into the courtyard,
to see what was in the old woman’s basket, she found herself turning over in
bed, with the sunlight streaming onto the glowing carpet, and Fourpaws purring
on the pillow, and breakfast on the table, and the deep wild scent of the
crimson rose tangled in her hair. Her first impulse was to rush downstairs in her nightgown
and look for the basket even now, knowing it was too late, even knowing that
what she remembered must be a dream. At least, she thought, as she threw back
the bedclothes, she could look for any sign that those barred and inimical
gates had opened recently. She paused at the top of the bed stairs. There was something
very odd about the caipet this morning. She thought back to the morning before
last. More hedgehogs? Many more hedgehogs? Positively a lake of hedgehogs? No.
This—these were not hedgehogs. There was a low forlorn croak from one corner of the room
and a following gruff murmur that ran all round the floor. “Oh, my lords and
ladies,” said Beauty. Frogs? The shore of the lake round the bed stairs rippied
and shifted a little. No—toads. Hundreds of toads. Fourpaws, still purring, went daintily down the stairs, and
leapt to the floor. Toads scattered before her, pressing themselves under
furniture and into walls. She sat down, looked up at Beauty still paralysed at
the edge of the bed, waited for the duration of three tail-lashings, and then
stood up again and began to walk towards the opposite wall. Toads hurtled out of her way, tumbling over one another, making
small distressed grunting sounds and a great deal of scrabbling with their
small slapping feet. “Oh, stop!” said Beauty. “Please. I’m not really afraid of
them—really I’m not—not poor toads—it’s just—it’s just there are so many of them.” Fourpaws sat down again and began washing a front foot. The
toads quieted, and there was the gentle flickering light of many blinking
yellow and coppery eyes from ankle level all round the room and in clumps round
the legs of furniture. Beauty came down the stairs and stepped very softly in the
toad-free space in the centre of the carpet. Nothing moved, except Fourpaws
beginning on the other front foot. “Well,” said Beauty, only a little shakily,
“there are too many of you to carry in my skirt, and frankly, my pets, I don’t
wish to handle you, for my sake as well as yours; but how am I to convince you
thai I will lead you to a wonderful garden full of—of—well, you’ll have to ask
the hedgehogs what it’s full of, but I’m sure you will like it. That is, you
will like it if I can get you there.” She stood still a moment longer and then sidled towards the
chair next to the hearth, where her dressing-gown lay. There was a flurry of
toads from that end of the room. She picked up her dressing-gown very softly
and eased herself into it. “On the whole, I think I would rather try to shift
you first. I don’t fancy breakfast by the light of toad blinks.” She paused and
added under her breath, “Thank the kind fates that only one spider was enough.” She walked towards the doorway, paused, and looked back.
“This way,” she said, not knowing what else to do. Several toads hopped out
from under her bed and stopped again. Several from the far corner between the
bed and the hearth joined them. Toad eddies drifted out from under the wardrobe
and the gilt console tables and pooled near the centre of the room, in front of
the breakfast table. Fourpaws stopped washing lo watch. Beauty turned and walked to the door that led into the
chamber of the star; as the door swung open, she turned round. There was an
army of toads following her, ochre-coloured companies, low brown regiments,
yellowy-green battalions, and last of all came Fourpaws, tail high, the tip
just switching back and forth, eyes huge and fascinated. She led them all into the chamber of the star; but the noise
their flapping feet made, and the little topping echoes that ran up into the
dome, obviously upset them, and she went on as quickly as she could through the
door that opened onto another corridor. The corridor made itself short for
them, and it was not long before she saw the courtyard door opening onto
sunlight. She paused again on this threshold and addressed her army: “Now you
must be brave, because you won’t like this bit. It is still quite early, and
the sunlight will not be too strong for you, but I am sure you will find it unpleasant,
and the pebbles will scratch your bellies. But it will be over quickly—I
hope—and then there will be lovely grass for you, and dirt, and an orchard, and
a garden.” The toads blinked at her. She turned and walked out into the
morning light; and the rustling noise behind her told her that the loads were
following, flapping and pattering through the stones. She was so preoccupied
with how far they might have to walk that it took her a little while to notice
that the rustling noises had increased and somewhat changed their note; and
that there was now a humming in the air as well. She had gone instinctively to her glasshouse and put her
hand on it, and as she had done once before, she ran her ringers along it as
she walked next to it. And the rustlings increased, and the humming grew
louder, and as she came to the corner of the glasshouse, she heaved a great
sigh of relief, and turned, and saw the tunnel into the orchard only a short
distance farther, At that moment it registered with her that she had been
hearing a humming noise for some time, and she looked up. and there was a cloud
of bumblebees, hovering in the air, as if they were waiting for her and the
toads. ‘*Oh!” she said. Their black and yellow backs gleamed bright
as armour in the sunlight. “Oh, how I wish I could let you all into the
glasshouse! Perhaps the trouble began because the roses are lonely! But you,
you bees, you must have been here all along, or how does the fruit grow in the
Beast’s orchard? How does the com swell in the fields? But why has he not seen
you? Why have I never seen nor heard you til! now?” As she said this, the bumblebee swarm rushed upwards,
trailing a long tail of single bees behind it, and whizzed along the slope of
the glasshouse as if seeking a way in. There were one or two left behind,
buzzing disconcertedly and making little zigzag lines in the air as if
wondering where the others had gone. One of them very near her bumbled against
a pane of the glasshouse, near a strut. And disappeared. As it disappeared. Beauty’s hand, which was resting gen-tiy
against the next strut supporting the next pane of glass, felt a sudden faint
draught of air, and her third and little fingers, which had been touching the
pane of glass inside the frame, were resting on nothing at all. She snatched
her hand away as she saw the bumblebee disappear, looked at what should have
been a pane of glass, and was just reaching out to touch it timidly, because
the glasshouse panes were always so shining clear that but for their reflective
sparkle it was hard to say if they were there or not, when she heard the bee
cloud returning. There were too many things to attend to at once. She looked
up at the windstorm sound of the bees, her hand hesitating just before touching
the pane of glass that should be there; the bumblebees stopped politely before
they flew into her face; and she saw the bumblebee which had dis— appeared reappear from behind the strut,., where it had
flown in, and out, of a glasshouse pane. Beauty touched the glass. It was there, and solid. She
touched the pane that the bumblebee had flown through. It was there, and solid. There was a faint scuttling noise behind her, and her dazed
mind flew to the easier recourse of remembering her toads, growing too hot in
the sunlight, and worrying about their comfort. She began walking away from the
glasshouse, taking the shortest route to the tunnel to the orchard. But her
astonishment-heightened senses now reminded her that the susurration of the
toad army had changed, and she turned to look, expecting. .. something. And so
she was no more astonished than she already was when she saw the grass-snakes,
and the slow-worms, and the red mist of ladybirds, so thick it threw a dappled
shadow on the backs of the toads, and which made no sound at all. And as she
looked, she saw the crickets creeping out, as it seemed, from among the white
pebbles of the courtyard, as if they had been sleeping in hollows beneath. They
paused, as if surprised by the sunlight, and then they sprang into the air, as
if to hurry to catch up with the toads, and the snakes, and the slow-worms, and
the ladybirds, and the bees; and then there was not merely the faint clicking
of their legs against the small stones, but the soft tink-tink-tink as
the ones with imperfect aim bounced off the wall of the glasshouse as they
leapt. “Perhaps the—the badgers, and foxes, and deer, and rabbits
and hares, and mice and voles and weasels and stoats and squirrels, perhaps
they are waiting for us. And the birds. I do so hope the birds come back!” Beauty led her ever-increasing menagerie into the orchard
and on towards the walled garden, and the grass stems rattled almost as loudly
as spears as it followed her. She did not quite dare to stop again, but she
walked sideways for a few steps to look behind her, and she could no longer see
her creatures, but the grasses tossed and rippled like a sea cut by a fleet of
ships. She turned to face front again just as there was a small streaking
explosion like the path of a cannonball to one side of her. and something
landed with a heavy thump on her shoulder. “Oh!” said Beauty, recognizing the bushed-out tail in her
eye as belonging to Fourpaws. “I wondered what had become of you.” Even a cat
has some difficulty riding on the shoulder of someone wading through tall
grass, and Beauty put up a hand to steady her and did not protest the faint
prick of several sets of claws through the thick collar of her dressing-gown.
“A tew too many of them even for you, eh?” said Beauty, and added hastily,
mindful of Fourpaws’ dignity, “I am myseif very grateful for your
company—someone else with warm blood and breath—even if your tail is still in
my eye.” When she came to the walled garden, .she threw open the gate
and stood aside, and she looked back as well and saw little threads of bobbing
grass stems leading off in all directions from the main body of her army,
assuring her that everyone was seeking the sort of landscape it liked best.
“There’s water at the bottom of the slope,” she called softly. “But you
probably knew that already.” When there was a lull in the flow of creatures over the
threshold, she went in and opened the gate on the far side of the garden, into
the fields of corn. She paused again to stroke the barley and wheat-awns, and
as she paused, she looked round, and her eye was caught by a yellow and white
butterfly. It whirled up in a warm draught, and she saw more coloured flickers;
there were half a dozen deepest ruddy gold and peacock blue and green
butterflies sunning their wings on a narrow mossy ledge in the garden wall. At that moment she felt a gentle shove against her foot. She
looked down, and there was a hedgehog, looking up at her; it was much larger
than any of the four she had brought to the garden in her skirt. “The slugs and
snails, and borers and beetles, they’re back too, are they? You would not be so
shiny and plump else.” She went back thoughtfully through the garden, and now, when
she looked, she could see holes and spots on some of the stems and leaves, and
once she saw a snail hastening across the path in front of her, its shining
neck stretched its fullest length, its tail streaming behind it; she could only
see that it was moving at all by the tangential observation that it was now
nearer the side of the path it was aiming at than it had been when she first
saw it. She also heard the crickets singing, and swirls of butterflies were
gleaming over the heads of the ruby chard, and she had to wave her free hand at
a little puff of gnats she walked through. Surely, if all this were happening, she would find a way to
save her Beast’s roses? It is the heart of this place, and it is dying. Fourpaws leapt down when they reentered the orchard, but she
stayed close at Beauty’s heels all the way back to the palace and upstairs to
the breakfast table laid in front of Beauty’s balcony. Beauty set a bowl of
bread and milk on the floor for Fourpaws and poured herself her first cup of
tea. “When the bluebottles are buzzing repellently in all the corners where one
can’t get at them, and the mice are chewing holes in the wainscoting and
leaving nasty little pellets in the pantry, and the wood borers are eating the
furniture and leaving ominous little heaps of dust about, will the tea stew,
too, like ordinary tea, instead of tasting fresh-brewed when it has sat half
the morning, as this does?” she said; but her eyes were on the pyrotechnics of
her glasshouse in the sunlight. Fourpaws finished her bread and milk and mewed for more.
“You’re going to have to start catching mice, you know,” said Beauty, setting
down a fresh bowl. “Instead of shadows, I would have thought you might prefer
mice.” But when Fourpaws finished the second bowl and mewed for a third. Beauty
looked at her in surprise. “Someone your size can’t possibly need a third bowl
of bread and milk,” she said. Fourpaws looked at her enigmatically and, holding
her gaze, reached out with one imperious forepaw and patted the empty bowl.
Beauty laughed. “Very well. But this is your last. Absolutely.” Beauty was dressing by the time Fourpaws finished her third
breakfast, but between the time Beauty dropped her shirt over her head and the
time she could see again and was smoothing her hair back, the cat had
disappeared. When she had finished brushing and tying up her hair, and lacing
her boots, and patting her pockets to check that everything she needed was
still there, and had paused to drink a last cup of tea, she realized that
through the minor bustle of getting ready for the day (what remained of the
day, she thought), she had been hearing furtive noises coming from under her
bed. She knelt and lifted the edge of the long curtain. “You aren’t tormenting
any lost toads, are you?” Fourpaws sat up and looked at her indignantly. There was
just room for a small cat to sit up lo her full height under Beauty’s bed. Then
she threw herself down and rolled over on her back, curving her forepaws
invitingly; but Beauty looked at her face and her lashing tail and rather
thought she had the mien of a cat who was planning on seizing an arm and
disembowelling it with her hind feet while she bit its head off. “I think not,”
said Beauty. Fourpaws dropped over onto her side and half lidded her
eyes, but the tail was still lashing. “I have no idea what you’re up to,” said
Beauty, “but 1 will leave you to it.” She dropped the curtain hem and rose to
her feet. She knew it was a vain gesture. But once she was out of
doors, she could not resist walking down the second side of the palace wall,
and looking for the closed gates, and, having found them, looking for any trace
of—of anything, any disturbance, any mark of any sort of visitor, but no trace
did she find. The pebbles were as flawlessly raked as ever, the grey-white wall
as spotless, the doors as perfectly barred. She walked the rest of that wall, and through the
carriageway in the cross wall, and stood at the mouth of the tunnel and peered
out. The trees looked as if they went on a very long way, but perhaps they did
not. Perhaps there was a clearing just behind the first rank, where milk-white
cows grazed, where an old woman made butter and cheese to bring to the poor
imprisoned Beast and his guest... . She sighed deeply, squared her shoulders, and walked into
the glen. When she arrived at its edge, she took a bit of gardening string from
her pocket and tied it round the trunk of a slender tree that stood opposite
the carriage-way, and then she began working her way through the trees beyond,
letting the string trail through her fingers behind her. If the old woman came
here often, there should be a path, but perhaps the path was magic too, and
only appeared on clear nights when the old woman wanted it. She could find no glade where cows, milk-white or otherwise,
grazed, nor any small secret huts where old women might churn their butter and
draw off their whey and leave their cheeses to ripen. She followed her string
back to the clearing, tied it to another tree, and set out in a slightly
different direction, twice that morning and three times in the afternoon. She
found nothing and gained only filthy bramble-scratched hands and smudges on her
skirt where she had tripped and fallen, and crumbly leaves and sap-sticky twigs
in her hair and down her collar. As the sun sank towards twilight, she gave it up, rolled her
string into its ball for the last time, and went slowly through the
carriage-way and into the courtyard. Slowly she entered her glasshouse for the
first time that day, to water her cuttings and her seedbed, but she entered
sadly and neither sang nor looked round her as she went about her tasks. When she said good night to the one blooming rose-bush, she
felt like asking it to forgive her. She did not, not because it was a foolish
thing to say to a rose-bush but because she felt she could not bear it if the
bush seized magic enough to give itself a voice for three words and forgave her
as she asked. Her bath towels this evening were as golden as the sunset on
the glasshouse panes, and her dress was as golden as the towels, and her
necklace was of great warm rough amber, strung with garnets so dark they looked
nearly black till they caught the light and flared deepest crimson, like the
heart of a rose. Her mood lifted a little when she saw the Beast waiting for
her, and she made an effort at the conversation over dinner, telling stories of
her childhood in the city, of her governesses, of her sisters, of her garden.
But when she touched the embroidered heart, as she inevitably did when she
spoke her sisters’ names, she did so abstractedly, for her mind was on the old
woman and on her roses, the Beast’s roses, which must be fed or die. But she did notice that when she fell silent, the Beast
offered no tales of his childhood in response to her own. “Fourpaws does not join us this evening,” she said at last,
as she sliced a pear; candlelight winked off the blade of her knife and warmed
its ivory handle almost to the gold of her sleeve. “She cannot come every night,” said the Beast, “or we would
cease to hope for her appearance; 1 learnt that long ago.” Beauty laid her knife down and took hold of her courage and
said, “Why sat you alone in this dark hall, for all those nights, when you will
not eat with knife and plate?” There was a silence, and Beauty looked at her neatly sliced
pear but did not move to pick up any bit of it. She folded her hands tightly in
her lap and willed herself not to take her words back. She did not fear his
anger, and she did fear to do him hurt; but it seemed to her that he held too
much to himself as a burden and that if he had chosen—had demanded—had
ensorcelled her to be his companion, she would do the best for him that she
could. And so, while she waited for his answer, she thought again of the glasshouse,
and the roses there, and the old woman, and the silver beasts hi the wild wood,
and did not offer to withdraw her question. At last he spoke, and each word was like a boulder brought
up from the bottom of a mine. “When the change first... came upon me, I... I
lost what humanity remained to me... for a time. I still cannot. . . remember
that lime clearly. When I had learnt to ... walk like a man again, and had ...
found ... clothes that would cover me as I now was, and discovered that I could
still speak ... so that a man or woman might understand me, 1... still wished
some daily ritual of humanity to remind me of... what I had been and what I no
longer was. And I chose ... to sit in this dining-haJl, though I cannot...
wield knife and fork like a man. There might have been other rituals that would
have done. This is the one which first... suited me, and... I have
looked no further.” When the change first came upon me... If his words
were boulders, they weighed her down too. Beauty leant towards him, so that she
could lay her hand on the back of his nearer hand. Her hand and fingers
together could not reach the full width of his palm, and when, after a moment,
his other hand was laid over hers, it covered her wrist as well. He released her and sat back. She ate her pear, and then
picked up a nutcracker in the shape of a dragon, and began cracking nuts. “I
guess you have not yet solved your dilemma,” said the Beast. “Oh dear,” she said, fishing out a walnut half with a nut
pick on whose end crouched a tiny silver griffin. “Is it so obvious? I have
tried—” “I have learnt your moods, a little,” said the Beast. “I see
you are preoccupied.” “I fear I am,” she admitted, “but—if you didn’t mind—a walk
on the roof would be the pleasantest of distractions.” “I would be honoured,” said the Beast, and this evening, as
they walked up the whirlpool stairs together, Beauty kept her eyes firmly down
and on the Beast’s black shoes and her soft gold slippers, coruscating with
tiny gems. And when she left him, much later, on the roof, and he said to her,
gravely, “Beauty, will you marry me?” she answered as she had the night before,
“Good night, Beast,” only this time she did not shiver. She kept her forearms crossed against her body as she
hurried back to her room and pinched herself every few steps, saying aloud, “I
am awake; I am still awake.” When she reached her rooms, she took off her
dinner dress but put her day clothes back on. She almost thought her nightgown
flapped its sleeves in protest; there was some pale flicker caught at the edge
of her sight, where it always iay over the back of a chair by the fire, so it
would be warm when she put it on. She turned sharply to look at it, but it only
lay limply over its chair, as a nightgown should. “Basket,” she said. “I need a basket, and I’m afraid I need it now, please. And a trowel. A wide one. I should have
asked before, but I hadn’t thought of it yet.” She turned round looking, but
there was no basket. “Nevermind what I need it for,” she said. “The Beast did
say you would provide anything in your power. I don’t believe you can’t find me
a basket.” But there was still no basket. “Well,” she said, and picked up a candle, kindled it at the
edge of the fire, and began walking through her rooms, peering into dark
corners. She found the basket at last, tucked behind a small ebony table,
inlaid with hammered silver, which sparkled like snow in the candlelight. The
glitter was such that she almost didn’t see the basket. The trowel lay in its
bottom. “That was not good-natured of you,” she said, “but 1 still
thank you for the basket.” She returned to her balcony, a little anxiously, for
she was not sure how much time had passed. She saw nothing and had to hope she
had missed nothing. She went quickly to the chamber of the star, but no door
opened for her. She counted the doors: twelve. No, ten. No—eleven. Eleven? Can
you make a star of eleven points? “Stop that,” she said. “Or I’ll make a rope
out of the sheets on my bed and climb over the balcony.” A door opened. “And no
nonsense about where this corridor goes,” she said. The door closed, and
another one opened. She walked through it, and it closed behind her, but the
corridor was dark. She was still carrying her candle from her basket search,
and so she held it up before her in a hand that trembled only a little;
fiercely she recalled her dream to her mind.. . . But there was the door into
the courtyard. It was a little open; she could see a crack of starlight round
it. She stepped softly outside, and there was the old woman, already
moving back towards the carriage-way, having left her basket at the palace doors.
Beauty had been much longer in the corridor than she guessed. She flew after
her, trying to make her feet strike the treacherous courtyard pebbles as
quietly as the Beast always walked. The old woman did not look round, but
perhaps it was only because she was old and deaf. She disappeared into the shadows of the carriage-way so completely
that Beauty, pausing at the tunnel’s edge for fear of being seen by the waiting
silver beasts, thought suddenly that perhaps she had imagined her, that she had
seen no old woman at all. Frightened and bewildered, she looked back over her
shoulder; the basket by the doors was gone. She let her breath out on a
sob—“Oh”—and moved forward again, and the old woman was on the far side of the
bonfire clearing, about to disappear finally among the trees, but one of the
milky-pale creatures that followed her turned its head at the sound of her sob
and looked straight into Beauty’s eyes. She might not have noticed if it had not turned its head.
Its haunches were too round for a deer, its legs too long and slender for a
horse, and the curling tail was like nothing she had ever seen, for it looked
more like a waterfall than anything so solid and rooted as individual hairs,
but it was still a tail. It turned its head to look at her, and so she saw,
shimmering in the starlight, the long peariy horn that rose from its forehead. She looked, blinked, and they were gone—old woman and unicorns.
Gone as if they had never been; gone as the old woman’s basket at the palace
doors was gone; gone without sound. The light of the stars still flooded the
bonfire clearing, poured silver and glinting over the remains of Beauty’s
bonfires, over the tiny-tempest piles of last year’s leaves, over the
scatterings of stones, over the patches of earth seen among the rest. Over
queerly gleaming golden heaps of... Beauty emerged from the carriage-way in a daze and stooped
at the first golden pile, took out her trowel, and... began to laugh. “Oh
dear!” she said. “This is not the way a maiden is supposed to meet a unicorn.
It should be a romantic and glamorous meeting ... but if I had not needed what
I need, I would not have been so interested in strange silvery creatures that
met mysterious old women at the edges of wild woods, certainly not interested
enough to dare to follow them here, in the middle of the night, in this ...
this place.” Her laughter stopped. “But then again ... what would either the
unicorn or I have done after it laid its head in my lap?” She looked at her hands, dim in the starlight, at their
short, broken nails and roughened skin. Her memory provided other details: the
blotches of ingrained dirt, the thorn scabs and scars, the yellowy-grey streaks
of bruising across the back of one hand where she’d pulled a ligament in her
forefinger. “I wonder—I wonder, then, is it only that it is unicorn milk and
butler and cheese? None of my dreams are my own—none of the animals—not even
the spider—they all—they only—they come to a maiden who has drunk the milk of a
unicorn? Is that all that matters?” she whispered, as if the Numen might hear
and answer her. “This is a story like any nursery tale of magic? Where any
maiden will do, any—any—monster, any hero, so long as they meet the right
mysterious old women and discover the right enchanted doors during the right
haunted midnights....” For a moment she felt as if some hidden spell had reached
out and gripped her and turned her to stone. She felt that while her body was
held motionless, she was falling away from herself, into some deep chasm. With
a tremendous effort she opened her eyes again and spoke aloud, although her
voice was not quite steady. “Well, I cannot know that, can I? I can only do
what I can do—what I can guess to try—because I am the one who is here, / am
the one who is here. Perhaps it will make a good nursery tale someday.” She let her trowel fall into her lap and cupped her poor
hands together, and the quick soft liquid rush of the salamander’s heat
comforted her. But there was a juddering or a tingling to the warmth that sank
through her skin and ran through the rest of her body—like the pinprick
thumping of numberless tiny impatient feet. She knew the rhythm of those steps;
they were the steps of someone going back to check she’d latched the
chicken-house gate, when she knew perfectly well that she had, or those of a
nursemaid going to fetch the third clean handkerchief in as many minutes,
trying to send her small charge to a party clean and combed and well dressed—“I
am sorry, my friend,” she said to the salamander in her mind. “I suppose I am
rather like a chicken or a small child—to a salamander.” There was a little
extra thrill of heat between her palms—the nursemaid saying, You had better
not lose this one—and then it was gone. She rose to her feet again, laying down her basket and dropping
her trowel, and moved towards the edge of the clearing. She put her hand on a
convenient tree and paused, because she did not wish to lose herself in the
wood, but she leant beyond her tree, peering into the tangled black wilderness
where the starlight could not reach. She felt almost as if there were gentle fingers rubbing her
neck softly, then just touching her temple, to turn her face to look in the
right direction. .. . The fingers were gone, if they had ever been, but there
was a meadow before her—though the trunk of the tree was still beneath her own
hand—and animals grazed there: ponies, horses, cows, and sheep. The meadow was
large, larger than she saw at first, for it was dotted with clumps of trees,
and she could see narrow bridges of grass through greater stands and thickets
that led into other meadows. She did not see the old woman for a little while, for she
was hidden behind the flank of the cow she was milking. She heard her singing
first, but since it was a song she often sang herself, she thought she was only
hearing its echo in her own mind: “And from her heart grew a red, red rose, and
from his heart a briar.” The old woman stood up, her head appearing above the
fawn-coloured back of the cow, and as she rounded its tail and the rest of her
came into Beauty’s view, Beauty saw the pail of milk in one hand and the stool
in the other. She walked carefully to the next cow, sat down on the stool, and
again began to milk and to sing; she had the voice of a young girl, sweet and
joyous. Now Beauty could see the entire process: the old woman’s
head half buried in the cow’s flank, the slight movement of each wrist in turn,
the faint quick twinkle of the streams of milk. It was only then that Beauty
began to see what she had assumed to be piles of earth or stones in the long
flowery grass were small leggy sleeping heaps of calves and lambs and foals.
Two lambs lay on top of their dozing mother not far from Beauty’s tree, looking
very like the cow-parsley they lay among. Beauty still stood in starlight, but she looked onto a
morning scene and felt the sleepy summer heat of it against her face and
against the hand on the cool trunk of the tree. She did not think her feet
could be made to move, out of the starlight and into some strange dawn, but
there was a great peace held in this meadow, like water in a lake. She wished
she had a goblet, or a ewer, and might dip it up, like lake water; she could
smell it where she stood, a fresh morning smell, mixed in with the warm smells
of grass and grazing animals. She stretched her other hand out and felt something—something—something
just brush against her fingertips that was neither sunlight, nor starlight, nor
grass, nor tree. She closed her eyes to concentrate, and the sensation became
just the tiniest bit like velvet, just the tiniest bit like someone’s breath,
just the tiniest bit like whiskers. She opened her eyes. It was a unicorn, of course. She was expecting that. Its
eyes were deepest gold-brown-green-blue and held her own. What she was not
expecting ... she could see the meadow through the rest of it. As it bowed its
head to settle its muzzle more snugly into her hand—carefully, for its luminous
horn stretched past her shoulder—she saw it as she might see leaf shadows
moving across the meadow, except that these shadows were dappled silver-white,
instead of dappled dark, and the shape of them was not scattered, like tossing
leaves on wind-struck branches, but formed quite clearly the long beautiful
head, the graceful neck, the wide-chested body, the silken mane and curling
tail, the exquisitely slender legs of the unicorn. If it were not for the eyes
and the faint whiskery velvet against her hand, she might have thought it was
not there at all. In the back of her mind—in the part of her brain and body
still in the bonfire clearing in the middle of the night—a voice said, What
makes you think you are seeing anything but the shadows cast by your own
fancies? The meadow, the old woman, all the grazing beasts and their little
ones, the serenity, tangible as a warm bath smelling of roses at the end of a
long weary day, all this you think you see is because you live alone in a huge
haunted palace with a huge haunted Beast, whose secrets you cannot guess. All
you see is only because you miss Rose Cottage, you miss your sisters, your
father. What makes you think any of it is there? And the silver-dappled shape before her shivered like smoke,
like cloud beginning to uncurl itself into some further metamorphosis of the
imagination; perhaps it would become a lion, a sphinx, a rose-bush.... But a tiny singing voice in another part of her mind
answered: I know it is all, all there, all as I see it. And the unicorn
raised its nose from her hand and breathed its warm breath into her face, a
breath smelling of roses, but light and gay and fresh, as exhilarating as
spring after winter, but with a faint sweet tang a little like the smell of
apples after rain. The currents of air touched her skin like rose-petals; it
breathed into her face and vanished. But her eyes had adjusted now, and she saw the old woman,
moving very carefully indeed with a full pail, walking towards the edge of one
of the bigger stands of trees, and in the dark shadows under their branches,
she saw the silver shadows. The old woman turned, just before she entered the
dark-and-silver shadows, and, framed by them, looked towards where Beauty
stood, as if she knew someone watched there. She was too far away for Beauty to
see her plainly, but Beauty thought she had the face of a friend, and she was
strangely reassured by that brief indistinct glimpse of the old woman’s face,
as if some memory of long-ago comfort had been stirred. Then the old woman
turned away again, and the silver shadows parted to let her through. Beauty knew that was all. She dropped her head, and her hand
from the trunk of the tree, and there were the wild woods close round her
again, and the only light was from the stars, and the air was chill. She took
the few steps back to her basket dully, but as she stooped again beside it, it
was already full, full of the darkest, sweetest, richest compost she could
imagine; and her unused trowel lay beside it, its clean blade winking in the
starlight. She scooped up a handful of her basket’s contents and crumbled it between
her fingers; it smelt of earth and kept promises. There was still a wink of
gold in it, like no ordinary farmyard fertilizer, telling her where it had come
from, but it was as if two seasons of weather and earthworms had already sieved
and stirred and transformed it into something she and her rosebushes loved much
better than gold. She could almost hear it sing: And from her heart a red,
red rose.. . . “I will never be able to shift die basket,” she murmured.
“It must weigh more than I do.” She put the unused trowel in her pocket. Then
she took a deep breath, and put her hand under the peak of the basket handle,
and stood up. The basket came up too, as lightly as if it were empty. She walked slowly through the bonfire glade, the
carriage-way, and went at once to her glasshouse, and ran her free hand along
its framed panes—slide-bump-slide-bump—as she walked between it and the
palace wall, be-cause her glasshouse would not change its length to dismay her.
But she went on putting each foot down very carefully and breathing very gently
and regularly, for she was still half afraid that the midnight magic that was
carrying the basket for her would take fright at her mortal presence so near it
and run off. When she came to the glasshouse door, she went in at once
and set the basket down with a happy sigh. The starlight seemed brighter in
here than it did in the courtyard, despite the white reflecting walls of the
palace and the pale stones underfoot, despite the black stems of the roses and
the wild labyrinthine structure of the glasshouse itself, whose shadows fell on
her like lace. She walked round her rose-beds, dropping a handful of her
beautiful compost at the foot of every rose-bush. She smoothed it with her
other hand, so that it formed a little ring at the base of each. After each
handful she returned to the basket for the next; her trowel remained in her
pocket, nor did she touch the hand fork lying on the water-butt. The last
handful went to the dark red rose blooming in the corner. The basket of compost
went just around, one handful for each, not a thimbleful was left; but that
last handful was just as full as the first. There was no room in her heart and
mind for words, even for a song; she was brimming over with joy. She went slowly, baffled by happiness, upstairs to her room,
where a bath awaited her; reproachfully, she thought, as her filthy skirt was
very nearly whisked out of her hands as she pulled it off. “Now, you slop that,”
she said, lightheaded and blithe. “What am I for if not to rescue the Beast’s
roses?” But there was a sudden frantic shimmer in the air as she
spoke, as if something almost became visible, and the breath caught in her
throat; she opened her eyes very wide and stared straight at it—tried to stare
at it—and then screwed her eyes up to stare again, but whatever the something
was, was gone. She shook her head to clear the dizziness, and then lay down
in the bath and closed her eyes. When, a little later, she put her hands on its
rim, to rearrange her position, she knocked into something with her elbow,
opened her eyes, and discovered a tray sitting over the bath, with a little
round loaf, a little round cheese, a pot of jam, and a pot of mint tisane upon
it. But it reminded her of one of Jeweltongue’s peace offerings, and she did
not know whether to laugh or cry. Crying won, and her joy was all gone away in
a rush, like bathwater down a drain, and even meeting unicorns was nothing in
comparison to the absence of her sisters. “It will ail come right soon,” she said to herself. “Soon.
The roses will grow again, and then I will be able to go home.” But this did
not comfort her either, and she wept harder than ever, till she frightened
herself with the violence of her weeping, and stood up out of the bath, and
wrapped herself in several towels, and went to kneel by the little fire. Its
heat on her face dried her tears at last, and she returned to the forlorn tray
laid across the bath, and lifted it with her own hands, and set it down by the
fire. She began to eat, realised how hungry she was, and ate it
all, wiping the last smear of jam from the bottom of its pot with her finger,
because the jam spoon wasn’t thorough enough. She was by then only just awake
enough to remember to divest herself of her towels and put on her nightgown
before she crept up the stairs to her bed. Chapter 11(She had no dreams she remembered. She woke, with daylight
on her face, to a faint cheeping noise. She lay, still half asleep, her eyes
still closed, with the bedclothes wrapped deliciously round her, and thought
about things that cheep. It wasn’t a bird sound. She knew that immediately. It
wasn’t exactly familiar, but it wasn’t totally strange either. It didn’t sound
at all dangerous or threatening or—or—It did sound rather near at hand however.
Near enough at hand that if it was something she did not want to he sharing her
bed with ... She opened her eyes. Fourpaws had made a nest in the elbow
between two pillows and had scrabbled up a hummock of coverlet to face it. She
lay with her back against the pillows, and with the sun behind her—and shining
in Beauty’s face—and with the hummock of the coverlet in the way as well, it
took Beauty a moment to comprehend the tiny stirrings that went with the
cheeping noise: kittens. Fourpaws responded to Beauty’s eyes opening, followed
by her rolling up on an elbow and breathing a long “Oh!” by beginning to purr. There were four of them. They were so small it was
impossible to guess very much of what they would become, but three had vague
stripes and looked as if they might take after their mother’s colouring, and
the fourth was as black as the Beast’s clothing. Beauty stroked each with a
finger down its tiny back, and Fourpaws’ purring redoubled. Their eyes were
still fast closed and their ears infinitesimal soft flaps, and their legs made
vague gestures as if they believed that the air was water, and they should
attempt to swim in it. Fourpaws leant over them and made a few brisk rearrangements,
and the cheeping stopped and was replaced by minuscule sucking noises. “Oh, Fourpaws, they are beautiful!” said Beauty, knowing
what was expected of her, but speaking the truth as well. “I am so glad that
this palace should have kittens in it! I only wish there were many more of
them!” Fourpaws stopped purring long enough to give Beauty a look
like the edge of a dagger, and Beauty laughed. “You will produce more kittens
if you wish, dear! And not if you don’t wish it. You needn’t look at me like
that! I always want more of anything I think good; it is a character Fault!” She almost missed Fourpaws beginning to purr again, because
as she said, “I always want more of anything I think good,” she remembered her
adventure of the night before. “Oh—I must see—no—no, not yet. I mustn’t go into
the glasshouse today at all—Oh, no, 1 can’t possibly wait all day! Till this
afternoon then. Late this afternoon, when the light begins to grow long, and
the glasshouse is at its most beautiful anyway, because the light is all gold
and diamonds,” She turned back to Fourpaws and her kittens. “Oh, but whatever
will I do till then? I can think of any number of things in this palace I
should like to see a kitten unravel—supposing 1 could find any of them
again—but your children are a little young for it. Well.” She climbed carefully out of bed—Fourpaws’ nest was directly
blocking the bed stairs—poured herself a cup of tea, and came back to the bed
to drink it in company. The second time she maneuvered round the kittens to the
bed stairs, once she was on the floor, she tried to push the stairs over a
little; it was like trying to shift the palace by leaning against one of its
walls. “Here,” she said. “If the magic that carried my basket last night is
anywhere in call, I could use a little help.” As she stood looking at the
stairs, there was a faint singing in her mind, and a half sense like a vision approaching,
like the odd sensation she’d had just before she saw the meadow with the old
woman milking her cows. She put her hand against the side of the stairs, and
they moved softly over and settled again. “Thank you,” said Beauty very
quietly. The singing sensation faded and disappeared. She spent as long as she could at breakfast—which wasn’t
very. Fourpaws and her kittens fell asleep, and Beauty couldn’t bear her
fidgety self near that peaceful scene. She dressed and ran out to the chamber
of the star, but then thought again and tried to take her time in the corridor
on the way to the courtyard. She curtsied to the painting of the bowl of fruit,
which today hung opposite the lady who used to hold a pug dog, and then a fan,
and now a bit of needlework in a tambour; Beauty examined her after her impertinent
curtsy, and the lady looked stiff and offended, but then she always did. Beauty opened the doors of a red-lacquered cabinet and
closed the doors of a secretaire inlaid with mother-of-pearl. She moved an
inkstand from another secretaire to a low marble table, and a tray from one
sideboard to another. She set matching chairs facing each other instead of side
by side; she turned vases and small statues on their pedestals and plinths; she
flicked the noses of caryatids holding up mantelpieces. She twiddled and
fiddled, poked and patted. She remembered the Beast’s warning to stop when she
wished to look round, and the stopping let her fool away a little more time.
She thought of having kittens with her. She thought she noticed, or perhaps it was only her own
mood, that the shadows did not seem to lie so thick in the palace rooms as they
generally did; even in daylight, darkness tended to hang in the corners like
swathes of heavy curtain. She did notice that there was no speck of dust
anywhere she looked, no smudges of handling or of use, save what she left
herself, and the floors, when she strayed off the carpets, were as impeccably
brilliant as if the polisher had only just slipped out of the room as Beauty came
into it. She stepped at last into the courtyard, feeling as if she
had bees buzzing in her brain. She scuffed her feet in the pebbles, and then
looked up; there were big clouds in the sky today, for the first time; it had
been clear every previous day she had been here. She saw shapes in the clouds
she did not wish to see: Rose Cottage, her sisters’ faces. Lion-heart’s hair
was long again, and the cloud that was Jeweltongue held out her arm, and Beauty
saw a great ruched, embroidered sleeve such as she had worn when they lived in
the city. She looked back at their faces. She did not want the sisters who had
lived in the city, she did not want the person she herself had been when they
lived in the city. But the clouds had shifted and her sisters had disappeared.
For a moment longer she saw the door of Rose Cottage, framed with roses, and
then it too was pulled apart and became a scud of cloud fragments. The weather vane glinted when the sun broke through. Finally Beauty wandered into the orchard to look for the
Beast. She did not want to tell him what she had done, and she was afraid her
mood would betray her into saying something, but she felt she could bear her
own company no longer. She thought again of the Beast’s solitude—his solitary
imprisonment—here; how had he borne all his own moods, with no one, ever, to
talk to? She found him under a different apple tree. “What is the
weather vane that spins at the top of the glasshouse, do you know?” It was the
first harmless remark she could think of. She wanted too to tell him of
Fourpaws’ kittens but felt it was Fourpaws’ privilege to make that great
announcement, and she did want to know about the weather vane. It had intrigued
her since she had first come to this place. Even at the peak of the glasshouse
it was not so very far away, nor was it so very small, that she should not be
able to make some kind of guess at what it represented. The shape seemed very
clear and fine and detailed, and then there were all the small curls and chips
delicately cut out of the inside of the silhouette; these should have given it
away at once. But they did not. The Beast turned and looked towards the archway, but from
where they were standing they could not see the courtyard. “Would you like to
examine it?” “Oh yes—but how?” “How is your head for heights?’’ “I do not mind heights,” said Beauty, remembering her
efforts to help Lionheart poke the sitting-room chimney clear from the roof. “Do you not?” said the Beast thoughtfully. “I dread heights.
When I am painting on the roof, I am careful not to let my eyes wander. But if
you do not mind them, I think we can find a ladder.” He looked preoccupied for a moment, and then his face
cleared, as if he had received the correct answer to a question, and he led the
way back towards the arch but stood aside that she might precede him through
it. When they made their way round the side of the glasshouse facing the
archway, they found a ladder already in place, braced against the silvery
architecture that held the panes, nowhere touching the glass, and it reached to
within an arm’s length of the distant weather vane. Beauty set her foot on the lowest rung. Her heart was
beating a little quickly, for she had never climbed anything half so tall; Rose
Cottage’s roof had been her limit. But she did want to see the weather vane.
She looked up; white clouds were stilt scudding merrily overhead, but there was
no breeze in the courtyard, surrounded by the palace walls. “I will hold the base,” said the Beast. “Thank you,” she replied, and mounted quickly, before she
could have second thoughts. She was above his head at once and climbing past the slender
silver girder that marked what would have been the first storey, had there been
any floor or ceiling: climbed on, and then on and on. It was farther—higher—than
she’d realised, looking up from ground level. She thought of the long, long
staircases inside the palace and the fact that her glasshouse stood taller yet.
And she took a deep breath, ignored the beginnings of rubberiness in her legs,
and of ache in her lower back, and climbed on. She began to feel the wind up here; it tugged at her hair
and teased her skirts, but it was a little, friendly wind, whistling to itself
a thin gay tune. Her heart was still beating quickly, but now from the speed of
her climb and with excitement. She paused a moment; her leg muscles were
growing stiff and clumsy, and she couldn’t risk being clumsy this far up. This
was the final stretch of her journey; the glasshouse was narrowing gracefully
towards its little cupola at the peak of its third storey, and she suddenly
didn’t want to hurry to its end. She deliberately looked away from the weather
vane, saving the moment she would see it till she was at the very top of the
ladder, of her adventure. She looked round her instead. She was above the flat roof of the palace here and could see
in all directions. First she looked at the roof itself, hoping to have some
provocative glimpse of the Beast’s work from this distance, not knowing if she
might see anything at all; perhaps the gorgeous roof was a nighttime
enchantment. Directly in front of her lay an expanse of pure white-grey,
with the same shimmery surface of the walls and the pebbles in the courtyard.
She was facing the front wing, with the formal gardens beyond; she could just
see the farthest edge of them. To her left was the wing that contained her
rooms; to her right the bonfire glade. She looked closely at the roof
immediately before her—having to look round the final peak of the glasshouse
and the weather vane itself, whose shape tickled her peripheral vision—till she
was satisfied she could see no glint of any color in its confusingly reflective
surface. Then, her heart sinking a little, she looked to her right,
and there was nothing there either. Very calmly now, like a polite child who
believes no one has remembered its birthday, she turned her head to look
left.... Down the centre of that wing of roof to about halfway ran a slender
stream of colour, curving precisely round invisible islands that were only
blank spaces to Beauty’s eye. It widened at its leftmost end, and Beauty
tracked it round that corner, turning carefully on her rung of the ladder, to
look at the final wing of the palace the one that had lain behind her, the one
that was backed by the orchard. The buffet to the sense of sight was so powerful that for a
moment Beauty felt she was tasting, touching, smelling, and hearing what she
looked at as well. Here was something like the coloured version of the wild
geometry of the glasshouse; she could see the exuberant complexity of shape and
design not merely covering the flat roof from edge to edge but splashing up the
low balustrade; in places it spilled over the top and made little pools of
vividness there. Wherever she looked, her eyes were drawn both farther on and
back the way they had come, as every figure, every contour she saw held its
individuality only in relation to every other one. And looking, she wondered,
if she looked at the glasshouse more intently, might she see the tales of stars
and heroes written in the silver struts and the clear glitter of the panes?
Perhaps she had only to learn how to see them. One hand of its own volition
loosed its hold on the ladder and slipped off to touch softly the nearest pane
of the glasshouse; it was the same caress she used when she touched her little
embroidered heart. The life and vibrancy of the coloured roof were the greater
in contrast to the palace it crowned—as if, having risked much to gain entry to
the dread presence of the sorcerer, one found his hydra in the kitchen wearing
an apron and baking teacakes. Why had she only seen the roof at night? She must
ask the Beast to allow her to come up during daylight. She looked back at the
single tendril of colour running down the second wing of the palace roof. Suddenly
it was easy to see it as a long stem of some wandering rose, easy then to see
it arching round a familiar doorway and small leaded windows Lionheart had once
thought too small, and now she seemed to make out the two corner bushes,
guarding the front face of the house.... She took a tight little breath, and held it, and turned
herself round on her ladder till she was facing the wing beyond which lay the
bonfire glade, but the glade itself was hidden by the height of the palace. She
climbed a few more rungs and turned again: she hooked her left arm through the
ladder and leant against it. She still could not see the glade, and the forest
seemed to begin immediately outside the wall. She shivered a little and looked
again towards the front gardens, but there was the wild wood pressing against
its boundary; it sprang up just behind the wing containing her rooms, as it did
behind the wing opposite. She craned her head to look again over the orchard wing, ignoring
the painted roof. There she could see the farther trees in the long grass of
the meadow, kindly spreading fruit and nut trees, not the dark menacing trees
of the forest; beyond them she could see the wall of the vegetable garden, and
a slip of the beds inside, visible beyond the wall, and beyond the far wall,
the fields of corn . .. and beyond that, the horizon beginning to blur with
distance, so she could not be sure, but it seemed to her that there too the
wood held the outer margin. There was no sign of human habitation anywhere, no thin
wisps of smoke as if from chimneys, no landscape muddled with little boxy
shapes that might be farm buildings or houses; nothing but fields and the
tangle of close-growing trees. She shivered again and turned a sigh into a
reviving gulp of wild air. The breeze was kicking up a little more strongly,
perhaps because she was now so high; she found she wished to cling to the
ladder with both hands against its pestering. She turned to face front again to make the clinging
easier—still looking carefully round the weather vane—and stared at that far
edge of the front gardens, the forest edge. This was also the wing that
contained the gates closed against any courtyard entry: the gales that were so
profoundly closed Beauty could barely find the cracks between door and frame with
her fingertips in daylight, when she was awake and alert and looking for them,
where at night, half asleep or half ensorcelled by the magic of this place, her
head full of the Beast’s painting and the stories it told, she had thought she
had seen an old woman leave a basket. .. had thought she had seen her walk down
the length of the courtyard to be welcomed at the edge of the wild wood by
shapes of silver shadow..,. Stop that! Beauty said to herself crossly. Do you expect an
enchanted palace to take its place in ordinary human geography, that I should
be able to track its location by finding Longchance a morning’s brisk walk away
just to the north and east, and Appleborough just visible, because I know where
to look, in the northwest? But the roses, said a little unhappy voice in her mind.
If—if you did not see the old woman—if you did not see the unicorns—what about
the roses? Beauty remembered the walk back from the glade last night,
carrying or not-carrying, the heavy basket; the crumbly, sweet-smelling stuff
in her hands, spreading it carefully round her hopeful bushes, her decision not
to go in the glasshouse this morning, to let the magic work. If anything since Father came back from his journey to the
city has happened, she replied to the voice, then that has happened. But her
hands, clutching the rung of the ladder, trembled, and she involuntarily looked
down, trying to peer through the slope of the glasshouse beneath her ladder,
looking for new leaves, for new green stems, even for snippets and hints of
flower colours. .. . But she turned her eyes away again almost at once. I will
not look, she said. I have done what I could. I have worked hard, I have done
my best, and it is now up to ... to ... to the magic. it can touch nothing living. But
the unicorn had breathed into her face, breathed the breath of a living
creature. Still her heart was heavy, and she tried to find the path
through the wood that had led her to the parterre, the grand front facade of
the Beast’s palace; but she could not. 1 should be able to find the double row
of beeches, even in the wild wood! she thought. No. no, it is not like that
here, just as I cannot see Longchance, though it must be near at hand. It is
only the way this place is. And the tears that crept down her face were only
the result of the wind. She turned finally to the weather vane. She was a few rungs
from it still, and these she climbed, and sat sideways on the topmost one, so
that she would look at it level, the two uprights of the ladder enclosing her
and giving her a little protection from the still-freshening wind. She and the
weather vane were the two tallest points for as far as she might see, but she
was no longer looking out; she was gazing at what she had come to see. It was the profile of a woman, with a great sweep of hair behind
her, as if belled out by the wind, and in her hands she held the stem of a
rose, whose head pointed away from her; this was the narrow finger Beauty had
glimpsed looking up from the ground. The rose was half open and cut so carefully
that the smith had let little tines of light peep through where the edges of
the petals would curve round the heart of the flower, as the woman’s hair had
been cut so that light gleamed through the windblown strands. The woman held
the stem against her breast, as if it were growing from her heart. Beauty reached out and touched it. There was a great ringing gust of wind from somewhere which
nearly knocked her off her precarious perch. In her delight at the weather
vane, she had let go with both her hands: the hand that had not reached out to
touch the vane was laid flat against the short roof of the cupola. As the wind
grasped at her and pulled and shook her, she seized the vane, first with one
hand and then the other, and then she was lying facedown over the square
pyramidal peak of the glasshouse, her arms wrapped round the base of the vane,
her cheek flat against the glass and her forehead against her upper arm, while
the wind shrieked and pried at her fingers, levered itself under her body like
human hands plucking at a cloth doll, and rattled the heavy ladder where it
stood. The sky darkened, and the wind swelled further, and its
shriek became a roar, and she felt the first drops of rain on her back, huge,
heavy drops, striking her like stones. She clung where she was, the vane
turning this way and that above her head; she felt the vibration through the
pole she held. She was weeping now, her sobs lost in the sudden storm; even if
the wind died away as abruptly as it had begun, she would not have been able to
move, and knowing this, she was even more frightened. And now she could feel
the ladder jolting under her hip. with a slow, regular jolt; she supposed the
wind would have it off altogether soon. She must have lost consciousness. The wind’s roar dulled,
though she still heard it, and it still shook her where she lay, but not so
strongly. But she no longer seemed to be lying down, but sitting, sitting in a
straight-backed chair; she was in a small, comfortable room, with a great many
other people.... As she looked round, she reordered her labouring thoughts and
realised that it was a small room only in comparison to the rooms of the
Beast’s palace and crowded only in comparison with their emptiness; there were
about twenty people in it, which would have been a small intimate group when
the sisters had given parties in the city. I am dreaming, she thought, as 1 have dreamt before. And
then she saw her father standing at the front of the room, one hand on the
mantelpiece, the other holding a little clutch of papers, and he was reading
aloud: “Yours while I live, and yours still, though I die T
sign, and seal this letter with a sigh....” The wind hurled itself down the chimney, and a little puff
of sparks and ash fell onto the hearth-rug; it flung itself at the windows till
they rattled in their frames, and the curtains moved uneasily in the draughts. But
the audience never stirred, listening to the reader with all their attention;
only Beauty jumped in her chair, feeling the rain beating her down, the wind
clawing at her.. .. She seemed to be at the end of the second row, on the
centre aisle. When she started. a cat, which had been lying on the hearth-rug
just out of range of any misbehaviour on the part of the fire, sat up and
stared at her. This was an orange marmalade cat, with great amber eyes almost
the colour of its coat. “While Reason hesitated, Love obeyed. No foe withstood
him, nor no friendship stayed....” Beauty had difficulty attending to every word; her hearing
was full of wind and rain; she seemed to drop in and out of the story, as the
young man faced the cruel father and the wealthy baron to save his true love,
and it was the lady herself who, ignored in the ensuing melee, slipped between
the men, pulled the dagger from its sheath at the baron’s thigh, and, as he
turned to shout at her, sweeping his sword round to menace her, ducked, and
thrust it between his ribs. The wind howled tike a pack coursing a tiring stag;
Beauty could hear nothing else. But the lovers had escaped. “Their hoofs, so quietly the horses strode, Scarce
stirred the pale dust of the moonlit road.’’ Everyone applauded. It was a friendly noise, and for a few
moments it drowned out the sound of the storm outside. Beauty saw Jeweltongue
stand up and go to embrace her father, and then everyone applauded again, and
there was Mr Whitehand, the baker, standing up beside the place where
Jeweltongue had been sitting, and then everyone was standing up and applauding,
except Beauty herself, who seemed to be bound where she sat, and the marmalade
cat, still perched on the hearth-rug staring at her. The applause tapered off but was replaced by excited conversation.
Beauty could follow little of it—there was an animated discussion going on to
one side of her about what sort of dagger the bad baron was likely to have been
carrying in an exposed thigh sheath—but she thought she recognised the woman
who was their hostess by her proprietorial manner; and by the dazed but
good-humoured look of those listening to her, and the size of her parlour, she
guessed this was Mrs Oldhouse, the woman Jeweltongue had described as Mrs
Words-Without-End. There was a lull, and Beauty heard a single voice clearly:
Mrs Words-Without-End was saying that there was a small supper laid out in the
next room. As she turned to indicate the way, her glance fell on her marmalade
cat. “Oh!” she said. “Our ghost must have joined us; how very interesting;
usually she is very shy. It must be the weather; it makes me feel quite odd
myself. How the wind bays! Did anyone sit on the end chair of the second row?” There was a general negative murmur. “Well Becky,” said Mrs Words-Without-End to the cat, “do try
to make her feel at home, since you are the only one who can see her this
evening, and I cannot believe your unwinking stare is the best way to go about
it.” There was a blast of wind that Beauty felt might almost drive the rain
through her skin; Mrs Words-Without-End gave a little “Oh!” and clutched
distractedly at her collar, fidgeting with a brooch and the lace spilling round
it. “Supper can wait a little,” suggested someone behind Beauty. “It’s the perfect night for a ghost story,” someone else
said cajolingly. “Yes—yes, I suppose it is,” said Mrs Words-Without-End,
still fidgeting and looking at the rain sluicing down the nearest window. “It
is a very romantic story . , , although I daresay it may have improved over
time and telling. My grandmother said this happened before her grandmother’s
grandmother’s time, when there were still greenwitches living all about here,
and at least one sorcerer. Well, you all know that part of the story, do you
not? There are a good many versions of it about, and many of them do not agree
about what the—the definition of the problem was, but they ail agree that the
beginning of it was a sorcerer. “So many problems do start with a sorcerer. My grandmother
said that this one was even more vain, and unfortunately more powerful, than
usual, and he grew very jealous of a certain young man who also lived in this
neighbourhood and who was himself a very great—a very great philosopher. That
is, that is what he chose to call himself, a philosopher, although in fact he
too was a sorcerer, but a very unlikely one. Do you remember that my father
collected folk-tales? He was particularly interested in this one, because it
was in his own family. My grandmother told me the story, but it was my father
who told me that he had never read nor heard of any other sorcerer who did not
care for magic in itself at all, who declared—as this sorcerer who called
himself a philosopher did—that it was a false discipline which led only to
disaster.” Mrs Words-Without-End’s voice had steadied and grown stronger
as she went on with her tale, but she still stared at the rain. “Well! The
sorcerer wasn’t having any of that from some young upstart, especially a young
upstart who was far too admired by people who should be admiring the
sorcerer—the sorcerer who gloried in his sorcery—and so the sorcerer began to
plague the young man’s days, in little ways to begin. But the young philosopher
was such a scholar that he barely noticed, and this made the sorcerer mad with
rage, because he hated above all things to be overlooked, and he hated the idea
that he would have to exert himself over this dreadful young man, instead of
throwing off a few tricks carelessly, as one might set a few mouse-traps. This
was worse than being told that magic was a false discipline. “Now, the philosopher’s servants were quite aware that the
sorcerer was to blame for a variety of the little things that had gone persistently
wrong in their household of late and began to talk among themselves as to what
they might do about it, because an angry sorcerer would shortly make all their
lives a misery, if indeed he left them their lives, which he might not, because
angry, vain sorcerers are capable of almost anything. “They decided to ask a greenwitch for advice. A green-witch
of course hasn’t nearly the power of a sorcerer, but a good one is often very
wise or at least very clever, and this one was a good one, and she liked the
young philosopher herself, because he loved roses, just as she did. “The greenwitch might have done what she did out of friendship’s
sake only, but there were other things about the sorcerer which disturbed her.
The first one was merely—what was he doing here at all? Sorcerers—even sorcerers—have
a place—something like a place—in a city or at a mayor’s or general’s elbow,
but there is nothing for them in a small town in the middle of nowhere, unless
the sorcerer has a fancy to enslave the inhabitants without any interference
from someone who might be able to stop him. And the second one had to do with
her friend the philosopher. She had an idea that he was pursuing some course of
study that an ordinary sorcerer might find very valuable, did he find out about
it, and she was very much afraid that this sorcerer would find out about it and
that her friend would be able to do nothing to stop him exploiting it, any more
than a country scholar could stop an army from using his notes on the forging
of steel for hoes and rakes on the forging of swords and cannon. “And so, when her friend’s servants came to her with their
story, she was almost ready for them. “I have told you the sorcerer was very vain. One of the ways
he was vain was that he thought himself very handsome—which he was—and that he
was irresistible to women, which he was not, because women surprisingly often
have minds of their own, and besides, sorcerers are a bit scary for lovers,
aren’t they? You never know when one might tire of you and turn you into a
fish-pond, or a toasting-fork, or something. So the sorcerer often found
himself short of mistresses since, like many vain men, he grew bored with
everyone but himself rather quickly. “The green witch outdid herself. She made a woman—a simulacrum,
of course, not a real woman—she made her out of”—and here, for the first time,
Mrs Words-Without-End hesitated—“rose-petals. She was of course very beautiful—the
simulacrum, I mean. She had to be, because the sorcerer would only look at her
if she were beautiful, but she was beautiful in a way that was .. . not human,
because she was not human, of course, but that made her beauty unique. The
sorcerer enjoyed possessing unique things.. . .” Mrs Words-Without-End’s voice
sank. “It is only an old tale, and I’m a foolish old woman to be repealing it.” “No go on,” came several voices, and after a pause Mrs
Words-Without-End continued: “Well, at first all was well. The sorcerer fell
passionately in love with the simulacrum, and the simulacrum declared she was
bored in the country and wished to live in the city, and such was the binding
that the greenwitch . .. somehow ... laid on her that he agreed to the change,
and indeed, he did very well in the city, which was full of people eager to be
impressed by him, even if he did sometimes have to share them with other sorcerers. “But the simulacrum, the poor simulacrum ... The greenwitch
had put no end to the spell; she could not, for she was doing something she
could not do, and it had done itself. She was not human, the simulacrum, so she
could not love and hate and wonder and worry as humans can, but she had lived
for a long time with the sorcerer and had come to see that as human beings
went, he was not a good one; and she grew lonely without understanding what
loneliness was. The sorcerer had had many mistresses since they came to the
city, of course, because that was the sort of man he was, but he retained a
sort of fondness for the simulacrum and never turned her into a fish-pond or a
toasting-fork, but gave her fine rooms, and clothing, and jewels, and
maidservants, and everything he felt a woman should want, and left her alone. “But one day he came into her rooms without warning, after
he had not visited her for years, and he found her weeping for loneliness. He
had never seen her weep. But she was not weeping tears: she was weeping
rose-petals. “He was a sorcerer; if he had not been blinded by her beauty
and his vanity, he might have seen what she was long ago. As it was, he
suddenly understood everything, and then his rage was . .. beyond anything. “Her he blasted where she sat, and there was no woman-shape
there anymore, but only a pile of rose-petals. It was enough that he destroy
her; he knew the trick played was none of hers. He struck her, and he left. He
left the city and went north, where he had a vengeance to pay.” Mrs Words-Without-End paused again, and again eager voices
urged her on: “This is a tremendous story! Why have we never heard it before?
You have been holding out on us! Go on, go on!” But when Mrs Words-Without-End
took up her story again, she spoke very quickly, as if she wished to be done
with it. “The simulacrum was not dead, for she had never been alive,
except as petals on a rose-bush. And the petals she became were just as fresh
as the petals the greenwitch had gathered many years ago to work her spell.
Rose-petals do not necessarily die when they fall from their flower; they may
lie dreaming in the sunlight for days and days. These particular petals had
been a woman—or something like a woman—for very many years, and the dreams they
had, lying in beautiful rooms in a grand house in a city, were quite different
from the dreams they might have had, had they fallen off their rose-bush in the
greenwitch’s garden and lain there in the summer sun, and wind, and rain. “Perhaps it is easiest to say that they were no longer
rose-petals. Somehow they warned the greenwitch what had happened. Perhaps they
spoke to her in a dream. But the result was she had warning—not enough, not
much, but a little. The greenwitch had known—had to have known—what she risked
by deceiving a sorcerer. And she had to have known that if—when—he discovered
the truth about the simulacrum, his rage would be very terrible, and more
terrible still if he understood that a mere greenwitch was responsible. But his
rage was even greater than that which is to say that in the moment of
revelation, when he saw what he had carelessly believed to be a woman weeping
rose-petals, he guessed as well that the philosopher he had despised—had hated—had
indeed been pursuing some course of study that the sorcerer would have found
very useful, that he would yet find very useful, just as soon as he had his
revenge. “Quickly the greenwitch threw up what defenses she could,
and they were little enough; but she was still clever, if perhaps not as wise
as she had thought she was on the day she had gathered rose-petals to make a
simulacrum. She had not time to send word to the young philosopher, who was now
nearly a middle-aged philosopher, but she had time to throw some kind of spell
over him and his house....” Mrs Words-Without-End faltered to a halt and looked
round at her audience. “You see the story docs not have a proper ending. The
sorcerer meant to blast both the greenwitch and the philosopher off the face of
the earth, which he would certainly have been able to do had he come down on
them without warning. But blasting people leaves traces. There were no traces.
The philosopher disappeared. His servants woke up one morning and found
themselves lying in a field. Their master and his fine house were gone. It took
a little longer to discover that the greenwitch had disappeared too—and not
merely gone off on one of her collecting expeditions, to return when she chose.
But the sorcerer had also disappeared. My grandmother said he’s the reason no
magic will settle here—but there are many tales told about that; why should
this one be the right one?—that it was what he did that has left this place so
troubled that no good magic can rest here. She said that it’s only the
rose-bushes the green-witch planted at Rose Cottage that have held Longchance
safe from worse—even though they’ll only bloom when a greenwitch lives there.” Chapter 12Mrs Words-Without-End went to Jeweltongue, who was standing,
looking stricken, and seized her hands. Her father gripped Jeweltongue’s
shoulder; Mr Whitehand stood close at her side. Mrs Words-Without-End said: “It
is only a silly tale, the silliest of tales. I forgot myself in the pleasure of
your father’s reading of his most romantic poem. It is all nonsense, of course,
as silly tales are—” Jeweltongue said, stiffly, as if she were very cold: “And
the ghost? You never told us who the ghost is.” “Yes!” said several voices at once. “Who is the ghost?” Mrs Words-Without-End said to Jeweltongue: “The ghost is the
ghost of the simulacrum. Sometimes she is nothing but a breath of the scent of
a rose on the air, especially in winter. Sometimes you can just see her, but
often only as a kind of shadow, a silhouette, of a woman with long hair, holding
a rose to her breast, as if its stem grew from her heart. I saw her often when
I was a little girl—I had seen her several times before my grandmother told me
the story—and then it was as if she went away, oh, for twenty years or more.
But then she came back, about ten years ago now. .. .” “But why does she come to you?” said a voice. Mrs Words-Without-Had said to Jeweltongue: “My father was a
kind of cousin to the philosopher who disappeared. My father’s
great-great-great-great-great-great-grandfather inherited the philosopher’s
other properties, including this house. I’ve always lived in this house. 1 made
my poor husband come here when I married him. I might have made him change his
name, except that he is a cousin too, and already had it. I—I have been afraid that
if one of our family no longer lives here, perhaps the ghost will no longer
have a home; and if she needs a home, I wish her to have it. I—I don’t know
what possessed me to tell the story tonight. I do believe the storm has crept
into my head and disarranged all my thinking. I have never told it to anyone
but my husband and my daughters, once they were grown, when our ghost returned
after her long absence. Except that... it has seemed to me lately that she is
around much more than she ever used to be. Even my husband has seen her several
times, in the last several months, and he had never seen her before. And she
seems to be restless in some way; I have even felt that she has been asking me
to do something, and the only thing I can think of to do for her is to tell her
story.’’ Beauty heard the rain pounding against the windows and the
wind thundering as if it would have the house off its foundations, and she felt
as if the wind and the rain were dragging and drumming at her. and wished she
could hold on to her chair for comfort; but she could not move her hands. She
seemed only able to move her eyes, and she stared at Mrs Words-Without-End,
stared as the marmalade cat stared at herself, as if she could not look away. A
gust against the wall of the house made her quiver, and she had to blink, and
blink and blink again, as if rain were running into her eyes. I am dreaming,
she told herself again. There is nothing to be frightened of; it is only a
dream; I will wake in my bed. 1 will wake in my bed in ... As Mrs Words-Without-End fell silent, the sound of the storm
seemed to swell; the lash of rain against the house struck like a blow from
something solid as a bludgeon, and it poured down the windows with a heavy
splash like a bucket overturned on a doorstep. Everyone in the room had moved
slowly towards the front, to be near Mrs Words-Without-End as she told her
story, as if attracted by some irresistible force, and now seemed fixed on the
sight of Mrs Words-Without-End with her hand holding Jeweltongue’s, staring
into her eyes, and the dumb, amazed look on Jeweltongue’s face; and with the
muffling of all other sound by the bellow of the storm, everyone started and
looked round in alarm when someone threw back the half-closed doors at the rear
of the room. Beauty still could not stir. She turned her eyes, and her
neck consented to move slowly, slowly, slowly, but still not so far that she
could look over her shoulder and see who—or what—had arrived, Mrs
Words-Without-End seemed to shrink away from whoever it was; she put her arm
round Jeweltongue’s shoulders, but whether she wished to comfort Jeweltongue or
herself it was impossible to say. Beauty felt a tap on her shin and looked down; there was the
marmalade cat, patting at her leg, as if asking to jump into her lap. Beauty’s
lips slowly shaped the words Oh, yes, please, though she had no voice to
utter them, nor could she have made herself heard now over the storm bar
shouting; but the cat understood, and leapt up, and trod her skirts into a
shape it liked, and lay down. Beauty gave up trying to look over her shoulder
and, automatically trying to bend her arm to cradle the cat, discovered that
she could, and with the first touch of warm fur on her skin a little life
seemed to come to her, as if she were in this room in truth instead of only in
dream. And as the intruder strode down the aisle towards Mrs Words-Without-End
and the little group on the hearth-rug, she was able to turn her head easily
and watch. ‘ “The weather has held me up, or I would have been here
sooner,” he said, speaking in an authoritative, carrying voice, which rode over
the storm like a practised actor’s over hecklers. He took off his wide-brimmed
hat and gave it a shake, sending water fanning out over the empty chairs on the
side of the aisle away from Beauty. Beauty saw Mr Whitehand’s fists clench at
his sides. “I was delighted when I heard of your little literary
occasion, and I planned to come—I know you would have sent me an invitation had
you known I was interested—because I have a story to tell too.” Beauty had recognised the man now: Jack Trueword, the
squire’s eldest son. She had only seen him once or twice, in Longchance, riding
his glossy highbred horse, looking faintly amused or faintly bored, staring
over everyone’s heads, perfectly certain that everyone was looking at him,
because he was the squire’s elder and handsomer son. Beauty remembered him
chiefly for that conviction of his own fascination, which he wore like a suit
of clothes; to her eye he had never been more than a good-looking, spoilt, idle
young man. But tonight she looked at him and was afraid, as if the spirit of
the storm had entered the room in the person of Jack Trueword. His face was
animated, but his smile was so wide as to be a grimace, his eyes were too
bright, and his sharp glance moved jerkily round the room. He walked and turned
and made his gestures with a barely restrained energy, as if with every motion
he had to remember not to knock people down and hurl the furniture through the
windows or into the fire. He tossed back his hair, held his wet hat delicately in one
hand, and shrugged out of his cape, deftly catching it with his other hand. He
gave the cape a spin, and this time Beauty was spattered by the wet, though she
did not feel it. The cat on her lap did und interrupted her purring with little
bass notes like growls. If anyone looked at me, thought Beauty, and I am a
ghost, where is the cat sitting? Is she floating a handsbreadth in the air? But no one did look at her; everyone was looking at Jack
Trueword. He laid the cape over the back of a chair, and the hat upon it, with
a flourish worthy of the villain in a penny pantomime. “I think I heard the rather interesting end of a story Mrs
Oldhouse was telling, as I was entering. Something about a ghost—a woman made
of rose-petals—and a sorcerer. Quite a flamboyant mix, perhaps—just the thing
for a literary company.” He strolled up the rest of the aisle and turned on the
hearth-rug. “My story has perhaps some elements in common with it.” The marmalade
cat stopped purring. “Mrs Oldhouse,” said Jack True word solicitously, “you look
tired. Indeed, if you were to ask my opinion. I would say you look ... drained.
As if some .. . involuntary magic—eh?—had been called out of you. Perhaps something
to do with that very interesting story you just told, that you have so rarely
told? Magic takes care of itself, you know. I would wonder a little myself
about a story of magic that so wishes not to be told. Especially here, you
know, in Long-chance ...” Mrs Words-Without-End, and Jewel tongue and her father, and
Mr Whitehand stared at Jack Trueword as if fascinated. The others in the room
began to stir and murmur, as if coming out of a trance, as if waking from some
spell that had held them. They looked at one another a little uneasily and
started as another particularly fierce blast of wind shook the house. “Even the storm itself seems a bit.. .extreme, does it not?”
Jack Trueword went on thoughtfully. “As though something were trying to get in.
Or perhaps out. The storm is most powerful just here, by the way. When I set
out from the Hall, it was merely raining. Even at the other end of Longchance
the wind is no more than brisk. But when 1 turned through your gates, Mrs
Oldhouse, I thought the wind would knock my horse off its legs. “I am very sorry I did not hear more of your story, Mrs Oldhouse.
Perhaps if I had, I would have understood it better. Sorcerers don’t disappear,
you know. That bit of your story doesn’t make any sense—pardon me, Mrs Oldhouse.
But sorcerers can be driven away or even ensorcelled themselves. You have to be
very strong indeed to ensorcel a sorcerer, but it can be done. There are
stories about it. “Fm afraid I also don’t accept the idea that any sorcerer
would for a moment fail to recognise a simulacrum as a simulacrum—however
beautiful she was—especially a simulacrum made by a greenwitch. No, I’m afraid
that doesn’t make sense either. I’m very sorry. Mrs Oldhouse, I seem to be
ruining your story. But truth is important, don’t you think? “My story begins... once upon a time and very long ago, but
perhaps not so very far away, there were three sorcerers. 1 think, really, the
first sorcerer was only a magician, but little the less dangerous for that,
because she was so very ambitious. The second sorcerer had been distracted from
the usual paths of power by his interest in immaterial philosophies. He spent
his days discussing, with various citizens of various ethereal planes, how many
hippogriffs can dance on the head of a pin, and such airy matters. “The third sorcerer was a practical fellow. He too was ambitious,
and his ambition had once betrayed him into carelessness: He had made the
mistake of demonstrating that he was a little too clever for his own good a
little too soon—and to the wrong man. He decided to move well away from the
city where he had made his little mistake, and to stay away, till his name, in
people’s minds, and especially in that one wrong man’s mind, should have lost
some of its prominence. “He had heard of a town—let us call it Longchance—quite a
small town to have two sorcerers in it already, but it was attractively far
away from the city he wished to leave, and rather isolated, and he did prefer
to go somewhere that contained at least one or two of his colleagues, because
he wished to go on studying and knew that studying in a vacuum always leads to
carelessness, sooner or later. He was not going to be careless again, if he
could help it. “And so he moved to this town we are calling Long-chance,
and was apparently welcomed by both the sorcerers—or the sorcerer and the
magician—already in residence. and all went well for some time. “Bat sorcerers still have to eat, and unsurprisingly, they
most often earn their bread by their sorceries. It so happens that the philosopher-sorcerer
was the last of a wealthy family, which is no doubt why he could permit himself
the luxury of philosophy in the first place. But the woman, sorcerer as she
called herself, needed people to pay for her services, as did the third
sorcerer. And after the third sorcerer had been living for some little time in
his new home, she began to notice that when people wanted sorcery, they more
and more often went to him; her they were only asking the littlest, meanest
charms, love philtres, counterspells against the souring of milk by ill-natured
persons known or unknown, herbs to take warts off or soothe croup. Green-witch
sons of things that no sorcerer should be expected to perform. “Do I begin to see some doubtful recognition on some of your
faces? We all know there is some reason no magic has settled here in a very
long time. And we think we know it has something to do with some great conflict
between sorcerers. “The greenwitch—for perhaps she was only ever a
green-witch—grew terribly jealous of the third sorcerer, or perhaps she only
fell in love with him. That she brewed a beauty potion of rose-petals is true,
but she made no simulacrum. She could not have done so much. She brewed the
potion for herself and arrayed herself in an irresistible beauty. “No one recognised her, for she had been a plain woman, and
both the sorcerers fell in love with her, and each wanted her for himself. But
the philosopher had been a philosopher too long, and his sprites were of no use
to him here. The third sorcerer won her. as she meant for him to win her. And
she convinced him, for her false beauty was the stupefying sort which throws a
shadow over its lover, that she too was a powerful sorcerer and that together
they could do anything. Perhaps she even believed it herself. “I do not know everything about what happened next. I have
been researching the story, you see; something that has occurred recently
brought the old nursery tale to my mind again, something I will tell you ... a
little later. But there are gaps in the story I cannot fill. I have even stolen
a look at Mrs Oldhouse’s father’s notes—I’m sure you will forgive me, Mrs
Oldhouse, as I was only seeking the truth—but I found nothing about anyone
weeping rose-petals. That must be a part of the story you had from your grandmother.
Women are such romancers. Well, I believe that the third sorcerer and his new
mistress went off to that city the third sorcerer had left, to confront the man
who had made it necessary for him to leave it. “The third sorcerer lost that confrontation, of course. But
he lost far more than he had over his initial mistake. He was dying, I believe,
and, in dying, was half mad with the too-late understanding that he had been
betrayed. The woman’s beauty was stripped from her, and he saw it go and knew
who she was and what she had done. In order to save her own wretched life—for
she had taken little part in the disastrous meeting with her lovers old nemesis—she
told him that it had been the philosopher who had bewitched her—how she
lied!—that she herself had only known what had happened to her when the spell
was torn away. She said that the philosopher had bewitched her because it had
been he who was jealous of the third sorcerer who had come and settled on his
territory, as he had long been jealous of her. and he saw this means to be rid
of them both.... “And with his last strength, the dying sorcerer put a curse
on the philosopher, a curse as great as he could make it. Perhaps he still
loved the woman ... a little, even with her beauty gone from her. Perhaps he
remembered that the philosopher had not fought so very hard for possession of
the woman; perhaps he, being otherwise made and desiring material successes,
underestimated the attractions of philosophy. He wanted what the woman had said
to be true. “And he had been nearly a very great sorcerer, before he was
cut down, and the end of his strength was considerable. He meant only to seize
the philosopher, but he was dying, in pain, and he did not manage very well.
His curse blasted not merely his supposed enemy—who, with his house,
disappeared overnight, and his servants awoke the next morning in a field, just
as in Mrs Oldhouse’s story—but his curse fell on Longchance as well, like
shards from an exploding cannon. “Those shards remain. Their substance seeps into the ground,
hangs like scent in the air we breathe; our noses are too dull for the work,
but as a man will not build his house near a stagnant bog, no magical
practitioner will come to a place that stinks of an old curse. This is perhaps
inconvenient, you may say, but little more; Appleborough is not so far away,
and there are greenwitches there, and a magician, and what use has Longchance
for sorcery anyway? And you might be right—except that is not quite the end of
the story. “If everywhere that had ever had a curse thrown over it
became antipathetic to magic, there would be no hands-breadth of earth left
where any magical practitioner might stand. The question you must ask is, What
became of the woman? “She was caught by the edge of her lover’s dying spell, like
dust by the hem of a curtain, and she was swept along by it, back to
Longchance, and spilled there ... somewhere. I think, as in Mrs Oldhouse’s
story, she is in some sense a ghost, but in some sense she is not a ghost. “I want you now to think back—only about thirty years. I cannot
remember quite so far myself; I was in the cradle when it happened. But we came
into a greenwitch again—after years, generations—without one. A greenwitch in
Longchance. Rather a good one, I believe. I first remember her for her
tolerance of small boys and small boys’ games. I saw less of her later on, for
rose wreaths do not interest me... and I have never needed any of a greenwitch’s
charms. “She had an adopted daughter, or there was a girl who lived
with her, who grew up to be a very beautiful woman. Very beautiful
indeed—eerily beautiful, some said. There were stories that there was something
not quite right about her. Stories that went against her. These stories
persisted until she decided to leave Longchance. There is a story that she made
a very grand marriage in a city to the south, but I do not know if it is true. “Our greenwitch was never the same again after the girl
left, was she? f remember my parents and aunt talking of it. She seemed to fade
and to dwindle after the loss of her daughter, and she never recovered. She
disappeared herself not so many years later, and greenwitches, you know,
generally live a long time, and she was not a very old woman. “There was a bit of stir created after she disappeared, was
there not? When we found out that our greenwitch had gone to a lawyer to tie up
what happened to her cottage. The cottage that legend has it had been the
cottage of the greenwitch, or magician, or sorcerer, of whom I have just been
telling you, though it had been abandoned to ruin many years ago, till our
recent green witch rescued it. Does anyone know who helped her set brick on
brick, lay the rafters, dig the cesspit, thatch the roof? I have not been able
to find anyone who does. House-building is not the usual run for a green
witch’s magic, is it?” The room was silent. Even the sound of the storm had dropped
during Jack Trueword’s story; the rain still fell against the windows, but it
made a timid, mournful sound; the wind wept distantly like a lost child. No one
inside Mrs Oldhouse’s best parlour stirred; there were no cries of “Go on, go
on!” Beauty suddenly realised that the slow measured beat she heard was the
tall cabinet clock in the corner. Be Ware, it said. Be. Ware. Tick.
Jock. She moved her cold hands on the marmalade cat’s back. “And then,” Jack Trueword said, his voice very low and
smooth, “and then ... a few years ago three beautiful girls and their father
moved into Rose Cottage. Three girls so beautiful that Longchance was dazzled
by them—were you not? “But wait, you are saying. Was it not two daughters and a
son? Very reassuring, that son, was he not, for all that he was also remarkably
beautiful’? For by his presence we have not needed to worry about that foolish
fortune-telling rhyme, the one that describes the final working out of the
curse on Longchance. “You remember I told you that something had happened recently
to put me in mind of the old stories? Discretion should forbid me to tell this
part of the story, but I began by saying that truth is important, and thus I
cannot spare myself. I found myself falling in love with . ,. one of these
beautiful sisters. It was a curious experience; it was quite like falling under
a spell. Oh, you will say, love is always like that. Perhaps it is, but was
never quite like this before, in my small experience. “Well, I recovered; I would have thought no more about it, except.
. . very recently I found that my brother has fallen in love with another of
the sisters. But the second sister, you will say, disappeared, rather
mysteriously, some while ago now—some story about a relative in the city, which
is curious, when you think about it, that we had never heard of any relatives
in the city before; indeed the family has seemed to have rather ill memories of
their life in the city. Well, that is the second sister. The third child, a
son, works for our master of horses at the Hall. But that son is not a son; she
is a daughter.” Be Ware, ticked the clock. Be Ware. The rain
tapped and pattered; the wind moaned. Jeweltongue took a step forward, shaking off Mrs Old-house’s
hand and her father’s. “Curse? What curse? I don’t believe you.” Tears began to
stream down her face. “Lion-heart mentioned a curse; I didn’t believe her
either. Yes, Lionheart is my sister, not my brother. It has nothing to do with
your horrid curse; it is that she wanted to work with horses, and she is good
at that, is she not? I know she is good at that, and she knew no one would take
her on if she were a woman, so she went as a man. What is this curse? Your
curse has cursed us, more like, for it is true—although not as Jack True word
says—that Beauty has not returned to the city. What is this curse! Has it an enchanted
palace, and a Beast, and a rose?” Mrs Oldhouse said: “A Beast? I have never heard of any
Beast. Jack, you are a bad man. I do not believe this has anything to do with
our friends”—her voice quavered—“even if Lionheart is their sister.” Jeweltongue said wildly: “Tell me this curse!” Mrs. Oldhouse recited hastily: “ Three in a bower/ And a
rose in flower / Until that hour / Stand wall and tower,’ It’s only a child’s
nursery rhyme. We used to skip rope to it. It was our favourite skipping-rhyme
because it was ours, you know how children are. “The three in a bower were three beautiful sisters, we knew
that, but the cur—the rhyme doesn’t say anything about their being beautiful,
that’s just to make it a better story, that’s what happens to stories that are
told over and over. When I was a child, and grew old enough to understand that
my favourite skipping-rhyme meant something, it was all the more delicious, do
you see? Not having magic is just. .. not having something .. . but a curse ...
Of course the sisters had to be beautiful. And the bower, that had to be Rose
Cottage, because of the rose, even though when I was a girl, no one lived
there, and the wall and tower were Longchance, although Longchance doesn’t have
any towers, but you have to have it for the rhyme, do you see? It’s like the
sisters being beautiful. And it was all to do with some great magic that had
gone terribly wrong many years ago, and it explained why there was no magic in
Long-chance now, although it didn’t explain it very well, but then foretellings
never do, do they? I never knew a seer who would give you a plain answer. “And I don’t see why—really, now that I think about it—why
our old skipping-rhyme is necessarily a curse. Perhaps it is only a prediction
of how—of how it will all be resolved. Maybe that’s why it says lower—not for
the rhyme but because Longchance doesn’t have any, do you see? But I have to
say I don’t like the sound of your Beast. What Beast? Is it fierce?” ‘‘Look at the cat!” shouted Jack Trueword, pointing at
Beauty and looking frightened half out of his wits, but as he did so, the
marmalade cat leapt off Beauty’s lap straight at Jack, as if it meant to do him
a mischief; he threw up his arms; Beauty said, “Oh, no!” and made a snatch at
the cat as it leapt, falling half off her chair as she did so; and Jeweltongue
shrieked, “Beauty!”— —and Beauty found herself falling off the top of a ladder,
struck down by wind and rain; she screamed, drowning even the cacophony of wind
in her ears, scrabbling for purchase against the rain-slick panes of her
glasshouse; her finger-ends found eight strange little hollows in the leading
of one frame and dug themselves in, but she would not be able to hold herself
there long, sprawled against the slope, and the wind blowing so brutally she
hadn’t a chance of regaining the ladder, where her useless feet remained, just touching
the rungs— And then there was a hand on her shoulder, and she was
dragged inexorably back the way she had fallen, and her weight was on her feet
again, and the wind was partially blocked by something very large bending over
her, and a voice she could just hear below the infuriated wind spoke in her
ear: “Beauty. I have you. Set your feet firmly on the rungs again; 1 will
shield you. I am too heavy even for this wind to shift. You are quite safe.
Listen to me, Beauty. You must come down now.” But the shock of what had almost happened still gripped her,
as mercilessly as the storm itself, and she was too panic-stricken to move.
When she opened her mouth to breathe, the wind stuffed it with rain and her own
sodden hair. She began to shiver, and she realised she was wet to the skin and
cold to the bone, and her shivering redoubled, and her hands seemed to have
frozen to the tops of the ladder uprights, she could not make the fingers move. She whimpered, but he could not hear her, so it did not
matter. And she wanted—so terribly wanted—to be off this nightmare ladder and
down on the ground again. The rain and wind billowed over her, and the Beast
waited, and she thought of what he had said, and she turned her head a little,
and looked up; the Beast was only a blackness to her eye, but he must have seen
her looking, because one great hand moved from its place below hers on the ladder
uprights and wrapped itself gently round her nearer one, and with that touch
some feeling and possibility of motion returned to her fingers. He released her hand, and she stiffly brought it down to the
first rung; the finger joints ached with cold and dread. She straightened her
body slowly, moved her other hand to the first rung, unsealed one foot from its
resting place, and stepped down to the next rung. Now she felt the Beast’s arms
round her, outside hers, and his waistcoat buttons brushed her back, and she
felt him take a step down, to keep pace with hers. They went down together very slowly. She still shivered, and
felt as exhausted as if she had run a great race, and sometimes fumbled for her
hand—or foothold, and some— times had to stop to rest. But she watched his hands
following hers, so that she did not have to look up or down, and she never
stopped again any longer than she needed to catch her breath. It was a much
longer journey down than it had been going up, and the wind still sang in her
ears, but the words it sang were the wrong verse: Lord Goodman died for me
today, I’ll die for him tomorrow. As her feet touched the rung below the first silver girder,
the wind slammed in under the Beast’s arm, like a clever swordsman finding a
weakness in his opponent’s guard, and seized her and flung her down, and her
feet slid off the rungs, one forward and one back, and there was a sharp hard
blow to one of her knees and another to her other ankle, and for a moment she
did not know which was up and which down, and the wind would have had her off
then had the Beast not caught her in his other arm. The wind screamed and
hammered at the ladder, and Beauty stared up at the glasshouse and the
tumultuous sky, and there was a cracking noise, and the top of one of the uprights
was torn off, the rungs broken, and the pieces hurled down on them. Beauty felt rather than saw one strike the Beast’s back and
felt him wince, but he still held her, and he still stood firm upon the ladder.
Again he spoke in her ear, calmly, as if he were addressing her across the
dinner table: “I fear I need both my hands to climb. But I do not think that
will happen again.” She nodded against his breast and put her hands and feet on
the rungs again, and he released her, and they started down the last part of
their journey. The last few rungs were even harder than the first ones had
been; she was sick and dizzy with the after-effects of the dream-vision of
Jeweltongue, and Mrs Oldhouse, and Jack Trueword, and the marmalade cat; and
she could not believe she and the Beast could reach the bottom of the ladder
safely. He stepped off it first and had his hands round her waist to steady her
as her feet touched the wet pebbles of the courtyard, but she slipped and
slithered on the suddenly treacherous surface, and her ankles twisted and her
knees would not hold her. and she was so tired her mind played tricks on her,
and she was not sure but what she was still alone on the top of the ladder and
feeling it shifting under her as the wind prepared to throw it down. But no,
the Beast was here; he held her still. He pointed along the glasshouse wall, and she remembered
they were still standing in flooding rain, and the wind, even on the ground,
was nearly .strong enough to lift her off her feet; the pebbles of the
courtyard scudded before it like crests torn from the tops of waves. And so
they made their way together along the wall and round the corner of the
glasshouse, and then at last there was a familiar handle under her hand, and
she turned it and pushed, and they were both inside the glasshouse. The storm dropped away at once, as if it had never been, as
if the closing of the glasshouse door were a charm against it, or the end of a
spell, and with the silence, and the sunlight now streaming through the panes,
and the astonishing sight that met their eyes—and the clatter of too many
thoughts and fears in Beauty’s mind—Beauty forgot climbing the ladder, forgot
the weather vane, forgot Mrs Oldhouse’s story, and Jack Trueword’s, and Jeweltongue
shouting Beauty.’, forgot the storm and the fall that would have killed
her, forgot everything but what she and the Beast saw—and smelt. For the glasshouse had come back to life indeed. There were
roses everywhere she looked, red roses, white roses, and pink roses, and every
shade among them, in great flat platters and round fat orbs of petals, roses
shaped like goblets and roses shaped like cups, roses that displayed stamens as
fine as a lady’s eyelashes, roses that were full up to the brim with a muddle
of petals, roses with tiny green button centres. There were red-tipped white
roses, and white-tipped red ones, bright pink ones and soft pink ones that were
darker at their hearts and some that were nearly white-centred; white ones that
were snowy all through, and white ones just touched with ivory and cream, or
the sunset-cloud tints of pink and gold; and the reds were all the tones of
that most mysterious and allusive of rose colours, from the warm rosy reds like
ripening cherries to the darkest black— reds of velvet seen in shadow; and the purples were finer
than any coronation mantle. And the smell, everywhere, was so rich and wonderful Beauty
wanted to cup her hands to it and drink it, and yet it was not one smell, but
all the rose scents discernible and individual as all the colours of roses: the
spicy ones, and the ones that smelt of apples or grapes or of oranges and
lemons, and the ones that smelt of almonds or of fine tea, and most
particularly the ones that smelt only as certain roses smell, and they were the
most varied and seductive of all. The foliage was so thick, glossy-green or matte-, hunter
green and olive and grey-green and nearly blue, that it should have shut out
every wink of sunshine, but it did not: the light was so bright Beauty blinked
against it, and the white roses glittered like constellations on a clear night. “Oh,” said Beauty. “Oh.” The Beast, as if in a dream, said, “I have not been here in
... I do not know how long. It has been a long time. I have not come since the
roses started dying.” Beauty ran forward suddenly, toward the farthest corner of
the glasshouse, and there knelt—or would have knelt—by the one rose-bush that
had still been in flower when she had first entered here; but it was tall and
strong now, as tall as she was, and covered with flowers. She could not count
them, there were so many, or rather, she did not wish to spend the time
counting them when she could smell and look at and touch them. She turned to
examine her cuttings, and all the little bushes were knee-high, and all had
flower-buds, and the first of these were cracking open, and at their feet an
exuberance of heartsease foamed green and purple. She looked at her seedbed,
where the seedlings were only a little smaller than the bushes from the
cuttings, and these too bore the first tiny green bumps that would become
flowers, not leaves. One precocious seedling had its very first bud just unscrolling,
and she wondered what it would be, for while she knew the mothers of all her
seeds, she did not know die fathers. She touched it softly, and a whiff of rose
scent came to her even among all the perfumed richness around her, and this
scent was new, and not quite like any other, and while it reminded her of a
scent she had once breathed standing by a meadow watching a woman milk
her cows, a fine, wild, pure, magical smell, it was also unmistakably that of a
rose. She looked up, and the Beast stood near her, looking at the
dark red rose-bush which had been the only one alive and blooming the day
before. “I remember you,” he murmured, as if to himself. “I remember...” And as he said, “I remember,” suddenly she remembered sitting
as a ghost with a marmalade cat in her lap, and she remembered all those other
dreams she had had while she was asleep in her grand high bed in the palace and
had told herself in the mornings were only dreams, and she remembered
Jeweltongue’s voice, as the marmalade cat made its spring, saying Beauty! And
Beauty herself did not know if she now believed that the dreams had been more
than dreams or if it was only that she was frightened to think that they might
be more. And, a very little, she remembered the dream she had once had so
often, about a long dark corridor and a monster that waited for her—only for
her—and remembered too, so faintly that it was barely a memory at all, how that
dream had changed when she came to this place, and how she had hurried along
that corridor to comfort the lost unhappy creature there.. . . But the look on Jack Trueword’s face was what dazzled her
mind’s eye now, the look on his face, and the stricken look on Jeweltongue’s.
Jeweltongue, who had never been overset by anything, not their mother’s death,
not their father’s ruin, not her broken engagement; Jeweltongue, who had found
Rose Cottage welcoming even on that first grey, depressing day, who had found
her own skill as a dressmaker and chosen it finally over any chance of being
what she had been before. Jeweltongue, who loved the life she had made in
Long-chance, just as Lionheart loved her life, as their father loved his life,
a life. Beauty thought suddenly with a pain like a mortal wound, that they
might all lose. . .. Has Master Jack forgiven you for preferring a short,
stoop-shouldered flour-monger with hands like balled puddings to his tall,
elegant, noble self... ? D’you want to think about what happens next?.., Surely
you’ve heard that there’s a curse on this place if three sisters live in it? She
remembered Mrs Greendown saying: The tally calls for three sisters, and
there’s only the two of you. What if Jack’s story were true? They could not be driven out of another town, another life.
They could not do it again. It would break them, and they would die of it, die
as certainly as Beauty would have died if the Beast had not caught her when she
fell off the ladder. “Beast—” He turned to her at once. “What is it? What troubles you?
Can you not be pleased with what you have done here?” And he sank to his knees
beside her and would have taken the hem of her still-soaking skirt in his
hands, except that she twitched it out of his reach. “No, no! I will not have
you on your knees! Stand up, stand up!” But he did not want to stand up, and she could not make him.
He rocked back on his heels and looked up at her (not very far, for he was tall
even kneeling); he was smiling, although there were tears in his eyes, and she
noticed that he was not wearing the long black sleeveless gown she had never
seen him without. Then we would have taken flight indeed, she thought,
remembering the wind. But his remaining clothing was plastered to him by the
rain, and she suddenly thought how much he looked like the round-limbed,
handsome Beast who stood on a pedestal in the middle of the garden at Rose
Cottage. She almost could not ask what she needed to ask. Timidly she
moved forward again and set her hands on his shoulders. “Will you tell
me—because 1 believe I need to know—what—what brought you to this place, and
this—this shape?” His smile faded, but he remained looking up at her. “Oh.
please stand up!” she said again, plucking uselessly at his shoulder. “If you
will not stand up, I will sit down,” and she did, and drew her knees up under
her wet skirts, and put her cheek against them, and told herself the damp was
only rain and nothing to do with fresh tears. There was silence for a few heartbeats and the roses, and
the sunlight, and the scent were still round them, and Beauty felt like a
starving beggar looking through a window at a feast. And then the Beast said:
“I told a sorcerer I believed magic to be a false discipline, leading only to
disaster. It was a foolish thing to say, if not always untrue, or—I would not
be as I am.” Beauty whispered, “Is that all?” The Beast sighed, and the roses fluttered, and the sunlight
came and went among the leaves. “Is it ever all? Do you want the full story of
my ruin? For I will tell you, if yon ask.” “No .. . yes ... no. I do not know what I am asking.’’ Her
thoughts scrambled among fragments of truth and hope and love and fear, looking
for a place to begin: There is a curse on my family—on our coming to
Longchance—and it has found us out at last. Then is there not a curse on my
coming here? Why did you ensorcel me to come to this place? Or if not
you, who? Who put the rose on my father’s breakfast table? If you are a prisoner here, who ensorcelled you? Who tends
your garden? Who is the old woman who leaves a basket in the night in front of
doors that do not open? Why have the bats and butterflies and toads and hedgehogs returned
and not the birds? Why do you ask me to marry you when you will not tell me who
you are? Again she saw Jeweltongue’s pale desperate face, heard Lionheart
saying: The Truewords do what their eldest son tells them to,... And
Longchance does what the Truewords tell them. Her heart ached from the absence—the loss—of her sisters,
whom she loved and trusted and knew, whose blood and bone were the same
as her own, and to whom for that reason her first loyalty must lie. Her
floundering thoughts seized on this as security: Here must her first loyalty
lie. Here. She put her fingers to her temples, feeling the blood
beating frantically there. “Oh, Beast,” she said, but she could not look at
him, and her voice caught in her throat. “Beast, you must let me go.” He stood up then. “I—” She scrambled to her feet again too, staggering as her head
swam, but when he would catch her elbow to steady her, she backed away from
him. “You must let me go. See, your roses bloom again. That is what you called
me here for, is it not?” she said wildly, and now the tears were running freely
down her face, but she told herself she was only thinking of her sisters. “I
have done what you brought me here to do; you must let me go. Please.’” Perhaps
I can do nothing, but what comes to them must come to me too. If we are the
three named, let us at least be together for ., , whatever happens. And ... I
must go away from this place. If I carry this curse, let me ... at least let me
carry it away from . . . from this place. The Beast said, as if each word were a blow from a dagger:
“I can deny you nothing. If you will go, then I give you leave to go. I have
never been able to hold you here against your will.” “I will come back to visit you,” said Beauty—the words burst
out of her. “If I can. I will come back.” “Will you?” said the Beast. “Will you?” “Oh—yes,” said Beauty, and put her hand over her mouth to
force the sobs back, but perhaps the Beast saw the gesture as for some other
purpose. He turned away from her and snapped the stem of a dark red
rose from the bush he had spoken to only a few minutes before. “Then take this
rose. As long as it is blooming, as it is now, ail is well with me. When the
petals begin to fall, then take thought of your promise, for I will be dying.” “Dying?” said Beauty. “Oh—no—” “Yes,” said the Beast, as gently as he had said. You are
quite safe. “I cannot live without you anymore. Beauty, Not now, not when I
have had you here, not now that I have learnt how lonely 1 was, and am—was—for
a little while— no longer. But as I brought you here by a lie, it is only
just that I should lose you again.” “Beast—” Now he put his hand over her mouth, or just his fingertips.
“Listen. Pull one petal of this rose and set it in your mouth, and you will be
at home—in Rose Cottage—at once. If you decide you do wish to see me again,
pull another petal and set it again in your mouth, and you will at once be
here. But if you wait till all the petals have dropped, it will be too late;
once they have loosed themselves from the flower, they can no longer return you
here, and besides, when the last of them falls. I will die.” She put her hands over his hand, pulled it away. “No, I
cannot bear it—oh—this cannot be happening. Not Like this. Not like this.” The Beast said, “You belong with your family. And I have forgotten
too much—too much of what it is to be a man. And 1 had never learnt what it is
to love a woman. It is too late now. “Go.” He pulled a petal from the rose he held, then handed
her the rose. Dumbly she took it. “Open your mouth.” “I—” He slipped the rose-petal between her lips. She just touched
his hand again—“Oh, Beast”—but he was gone, and the glasshouse was gone, and
all that was left was the feeling of the thorns of the rose he had given her
stinging the palm of her hand, and the taste of the rose-petal in her mouth. Chapter 13Jeweltongue had flung herself on her knees by the chair
where Beauty had sat with the marmalade cat. “Oh, she was here, she was here, I
saw her, did you not see her? I cannot bear the not knowing what has become of
her! I would pull Longchance down with my own hands to know that she was well!”
Her head ached, and she was aware that her nose was running and that she was
behaving badly, and for the first time in her life, she did not care. Beauty!
She had been here, hadn’t she? Or was it merely that worrying about her
had finally begun producing phantoms of her? The ghost of a simulacrum made of
rose-petals! Jeweltongue couldn’t remember ever having felt so helpless;
even those last terrible weeks in the city, they had at least had one
another—something neither she nor Lionheart had ever been aware they wanted or
needed. And it had been Beauty then who had done what needed to be done, while
all she and Lionheart could see was that their pride and arrogance had
shattered like glass, and the shards lay all round them, and it was as if they
cut themselves to the bone with every move they made. And so they had moved
slowly, had been able to see no farther than across the room. across the present minute. They owed their lives to Beauty,
and she and Lionheart both knew it. Mrs Oldhouse, bending over her from one side, and Mr Whitehand
from the other: “My dear, I did not know, why did you not tell us?” “My darling, I did not know, why did you not tell me?’?
And Jeweltongue weeping, weeping passionately, uncontrollably, as Jeweltongue
never wept, as Jeweltongue never did anything. A sudden sharp heavy sound, a cry, and a clatter of
furniture, including the unmistakable crack of splintering wood, and
Jeweltongue’s father stood over the prostrate Jack Trueword, grimacing and
cradling one hand with the other. Jack lay still. Someone in the audience
laughed. “Well struck, Mr Poet!” said a voice. Jeweltongue slowly, dazedly, turned her head. Jack True-word
lay sprawled and ungainly across Mrs Oldhouse’s hearth-rug; she blinked. Her
thoughts were confused by all that had happened; her chief thought now was how grateful
she was that he had stopped telling his terrible story.... How small he looked,
lying there, silent and still. It was the first time, she thought, she had ever
seen him ungraceful. Jack had always had the gift of grace, even of charm,
however spoilt and selfish you knew he might be in the next moment, but she had
been accustomed to believe that she could ignore his bad temper. She closed her
eyes. But if his story was more than just bad temper... She opened her eyes and looked at him again. It was suddenly
very hard to remember how frightening he had been, just a few minutes ago.
telling his story. Lying in the splintered remains of Mrs Oldhouse’s chair, he
looked like something the storm had picked up and indifferently tossed away. “I suppose we had best move him,” said another voice,
without enthusiasm, after a little, startled, general pause. “Let him come round on his own,” said a third voice
promptly. “Have you hurt your hand badly, sir?” “I, er, I fear I may have. I must. . . apologize very
profoundly. It was a stupid and a wicked thing to have done. 1 cannot think
what came over me.” “Whatever it is, I’m glad it did,” said Mrs Oldhouse, half
straightening, but still patting a bit of Jeweltongue’s shoulder not covered by
Mr Whitehand’s arm, and addressing the top of her head, “If someone had done
that to him years ago, he might not have turned out so mean-spirited. I could
easily have done the same myself to Miss Trueword—who is one of my dearest
friends, and after all, she introduced you to me—when I heard of that result of
her invitation to supper. My dear, you must learn not to be so clever, it will
attract the wrong sort of person—at least until you are as old as I am—but
then, you will be safely married soon, so that is all right,’’ she said, and
patted Mr White-hand’s shoulder instead. “Have you really damaged your hand, Mr...
Poet? I shall call you that hereafter. I think, it is so much more suitable
than your own name. Should we call for the surgeon? The storm seems to have
abated at last” “I think that might be wise,’1 said a man who had
been examining the old merchant’s hand, and Mrs Oldhouse rang for a servant. “At last!” she said, turning back to her friends. “I am free
of Great-Aunt Maude’s hideous chair! How clever of you, Mr Poet, to strike him
in just that direction. I suppose we might put a blanket over him. Or his cape—oh.”
And she snatched it up off the chair. “How could I not have noticed? I will
have his skin if that chair is ruined. “Now. Jeweltongue, listen to me.” She knelt by the young
woman’s side and put her hand earnestly on her arm. Jeweltongue’s arms were
still stretched across the seat of the chair, her head again resting upon them,
but her sobs had ceased. “My dear, why did you not tell anyone? About what had
become of your sister? Beauty, that is. How very astonishing that Lionheart is
another girl! Then—she must be soon to be married also, I gather? Aubrey is nothing
like his brother. If he’s fallen in love with her, he’ll mean to marry her.” “Yes,” said Jeweltongue. “But Lionheart was afraid—afraid of
something like what Jack did here tonight.” Mrs Oldhouse gave a very thorough and contemptuous snort.
“The storm had drowned all our intelligence, or we would never have let him go
on like that. What piffle. Bringing up that old nursery rhyme and brandishing
it like—like—like a little boy bringing a dead snake to scare his governess.
One may very well shriek, for who likes dead snakes’?.., Except little boys.
But my dear, you can’t have thought. ..” She hesitated and looked genuinely
troubled for the first time. “Jeweltongue, my very dear young friend . .. Lionheart
was afraid, you say? But we all know what Jack is. Just as—why did you not tell
anyone about—about whatever it is that has happened to Beauty? Because I gather
from Mr Whitehand’s response that even he did not know.” “I fear that is more my fault than my daughters’,” said the
old merchant. “It is I who—” “Father, we all agreed.” said Jeweltongue. “And ... it was
not only your ban, Father dear. Our life here has seemed ... it is so different
from anything we could have imagined when we still lived in the city.... But we
have been happy here, do you understand? And when you are happy, when
you have never been happy before, when you hadn’t even known you weren’t happy,
it is hard to believe that it won’t all go away again, isn’t it? The curse seemed
so ... likely, somehow. I did not quite not believe it, if you
understand. “I had overheard a conversation Beauty had with Mrs Greendown—two
years ago now—she had said something about a curse, and 1 saw how Beauty looked
afterwards. And I noticed most particularly later, when Beauty told me about
what she had said, and she never spoke a word about a curse.” Everyone else in the room was trying to drift close enough
to the little party clustered round the end chair of the second row to hear
what was being said, without being obvious enough about it to risk being sent
away. Jeweltongue looked up and round at them and laughed, a laugh more like
her real one, although with a catch in it. “Very well. We are caught out. I
will tell you everything—anything you want to know. 1 am sorry to ... not to
have trusted you. But it seemed like the right thing to do at the time. We have
not been here so very long, only a few, few years. Our name isn’t a Longchance
name—like Oldhouse, or True-word, or Whitehand And magic—once we learnt there
was none here, it seemed—it seemed rude to discuss magic with you, rather
like—like—” “Discussing hairdressing with the bald, or rare vintages
with those overfond of their wine?” said Mrs Oldhouse. “Yes, I understand that.
We are all used to it, of course, and quite proof against the occasional
persons who wish to pretend they are superior to us for—for their perfect
sobriety, and full heads of hair. I think you might have—but never mind. I do
see.” “And it suited us,” said the old merchant. “It suited us
that there was no magic here, I have been ... rather unreasonable about magic
since my wife died. It made us—it made me, at least—feel as if we had come to
the right place, this town that had no magic.” “Yes, that’s right,” said Jeweltongue. “And then—it
seemed—Jack is right enough that our memories of our life in the city are not
very good ones—and why we left—oh dear. I don’t want to go into all that—” “That is none of our business, dear,” said Mrs Oldhouse.
“But you are here now, not in your nasty old city.” “Yes. But you see, that’s part—you have been so very good to
us. We have been so happy here!” And Jeweltongue reached up to put her hand
over Mr Whitehand’s. “Oh, I can’t explain! It seemed ungrateful, somehow, to
tell you. And it meant—perhaps it meant—that we did not belong here after all.” Her voice went squeaky on her last words, and she clutched
her baker’s hand rather hard, but he laughed a little and bent down to say
something privately in her ear, as Mrs Oldhouse said briskly: “We will go up to
Appleborough tomorrow and hire the very best of the seers—I know just the one,
Fareye, she doesn’t meddle in looking for the future, but she can find
anything—and ask her to tell us where your sister is.” Jeweltongue said, “Father? Please.” “Yes, of course,” he said. “I should have thought of it
myself. I don’t care if it’s magic. I don’t think I’ve cared about magic one
way or the other since Beauty’s roses first bloomed. But I am accustomed to
doing without it. And here in Longchance ... and when you feel in your heart
there is nothing you can do about something, you do not think clearly about it.
And I—it was my fault in the beginning.” “No,” said Jeweltongue. “To seek to save your life in a snowstorm?
And enchantments are like that. You cannot know which step will spring the trip
wire.” Her father smiled faintly. “I just want your sister back—as
you do—or at least to know what’s become of her. It’s been so long.” “Seven months,” said Jeweltongue. “Seven endless months.
Seven months today.” “But the Beast,” said someone. “Won’t you tell us about the
Beast?” The marmalade cat, reappearing from nowhere, sprang into
Jeweltongue’s lap with a thump. “Oh!” said Jeweltongue. “Well, hello yourself!”
She raised a hand to stroke it, but it leapt down again at once and trotted oft
towards the door. It paused there and looked back. “Do you know where Beauty is
then?” said Jeweltongue, only half teasing. The cat flicked her tail, went through the door, turned
round, and just poked her head back through, staring at Jeweltongue as she had
earlier stared at the empty aisle chair of the second row. “It’s only a cat,” said someone. “Hmph,” said Mrs Oldhouse. “You have never been the
intimate friend of any cat. And you do not know my Becky.” Becky stood on her hind legs to twiddle the handle of the
open door with one forepaw and then sank back to the ground again, still
staring at Jeweltongue. “I—I think, if you don’t mind,” said Jeweltongue
apologetically, “I would quite like to see what she seems to want to show me.” She rose to her feet, and Mr Whitehand rose too. “I’ll come
with you,” he said. She looked up and smiled. “No. You stay here and wait till
the surgeon comes. I want someone besides my father to tell me what he says—and
someone my father will have felt obliged to listen to too, if what he says is
unwelcome. Besides, I—1 think perhaps—” “If it is magic,” said Mrs Oldhouse, “you will be much
better off by yourself than with some dull Longchancer befogging all
the—the—whatever magic does. Even you, Mr Whitehand. Go on then.” She added to
the cat: “Take care of her, mind. Or no more warm evenings by the fire for
you.” Becky disappeared. Jeweltongue took her cloak from the rack by the door and let
herself out, Becky winding dangerously through her ankles. The night was clear
after the rain, and there were stars overhead; the storm had left as quickly as
it had come. Magic? Had the storm brought Beauty, taken her away again? Where
was she? “I’ve never seen the stars so bright,” she said to Becky. “Have
you? There’s the River... and the Tinker. . . and the Peacock.” She took a deep
breath, trying to regain her self-possession; it seemed to have gone with the
storm and the ghost of her sister. “Oh!” The night air smelt of roses, strongly
of roses. Her nose was not so good for the variations of rose scent as
was Beauty’s, but this odour put her immediately in mind of the dark red rose
their father had brought home from the Beast’s palace, which had sat for weeks
on their windowsill, whose petals had at last fallen when the roses in the
garden—she could not help but think of them as Beauty’s roses—had bloomed in
midsummer. She turned her head one way and then another, sniffing like an
animal searching for water, or for danger, or for safety, and saw Becky trotting
purposefully away from her. “Becky!” she called. The cat stopped, turned her head, and looked at her. Curious
how the starlight fell! The marmalade cat looked suddenly grey, and yet she
stood next to a stand of black-eyed Susans, whose colour even in this faint
light clearly showed orange. The cat turned away again and trotted on. “Oh dear,” said Jeweltongue, but with her first step
following, the smell of roses grew stronger still, and Jeweltongue broke into a
trot herself. “I hope you are not leading me into any thickets,” she muttered
under her breath. “I am a good deal higher up from the ground than you are, you
know, and you are leading me directly into the middle of nowhere,” for the cat
had gone straight across Mrs Old-house’s gardens and into the meadow beyond,
easily picking her way across the stepping-stones in the stream at its bottom,
while Jeweltongue, confused by the shadow dapples, splashed less skillfully in
her wake. Jeweltongue was jerked to a sudden halt, and there was a sound of
tearing cloth. “Oh, bother!” she said. “I liked these sleeves! I should have
let Miss Trueword have this bodice after all.” The cat trotted on, and Jeweltongue followed, her sense of urgency
increasing. In her mind there was a picture of the dark red rose: Only a moment
ago it had seemed to be little more than a bud; now it was full open; now she
saw its petals curling back, drooping; now the first one fell.... She battled her way through a thin hedgerow, and suddenly
she knew where she was; this was the end of Farmer Goldfield’s land, and Rose
Cottage was only a few steps that way and through the stand of trees. “I don’t
know how you did that,” said Jeweltongue to the cat. “I was supposed to slay
the night with Mrs Oldhouse, you know—do you know?—because it is much too long
a walk home. Much longer than this. Oh—” A terrible thought struck her. “She’s
not ill, is she? That isn’t why you have brought me in such a hurry—” She began to run, but the cat was purring round her ankles,
and she would not risk kicking her. and then it seemed rude not to thank her
properly. So she stooped and petted her, and the cat purred, and rubbed her
small round skull against Jeweltongue’s chin, and put her forepaws on
Jeweltongue’s knees, and licked her once with her raspy tongue. Jeweltongue,
looking into her face, said. “You’re not Becky at all, you’re some other cat,”
at the moment that her hands, stroking the cat’s sides, felt the soft swellings
of her breasts hidden by her silky fur, “Ah! You’re only in a hurry to go home
to your kittens. Are you Beauty’s cat then?” But the cat jumped down and ran off, and Jeweltongue hastened
the last few steps to Rose Cottage, and at that moment she heard a heartrending
wail from Teacosy, exiled for the night in the goat shed. At the door of the cottage she met Lionheart, with her hand
out to lift the latch; she turned at the sound of Jeweltongue’s approach. “You
too! Tonight’s your literary party, isn’t it? You shouldn’t be home at
all—especially not walking alone at this time of night Listen to poor Teacosy! What’s
wrong with us? 1 had to come.” “I don’t know,” said Jeweltongue. “Something about—” “—Beauty,” finished Lionheart, and pushed open the door. She was asleep, lying as if flung on the hearth-rug, in
front of the banked fire; her arms and legs were sprawled, and her hair
lay across her face as if blown there by a strong wind. One hand seemed only
just to have dropped a dark red rose, its petals blowsily open and near to
tailing, and she was as wet as if she had been out in the storm. “Beauty,” breathed Jeweltongue. “Oh, Beauty!” said Lionheart. Jeweltongue dropped to her knees beside her sleeping sister
and picked up one cold hand and began to chafe it. Lion-heart bent over them
just long enough to brush the hair from Beauty’s face, tenderly, murmuring,
“We’re like a three-legged stool with one leg gone, without you.” and then
knelt by the fire and began to dig through the ashes for embers worth blowing
on. She said between exhalations: “I couldn’t believe ., . any harm . . . had
come to her . . . even though ... I had no real reason ...” “But the roses,” said Jeweltongue. “Yes,” said Lionheart, feeding kindling chips into her tiny
flame flickers. They both glanced at the window over the back garden; even in
the darkness, the ruffled and scalloped edges of a few late roses that framed
it were visible. A little wind stirred, and several of the roses tapped their
heads against the panes; it was a reassuring sound. “If Beauty’s roses were
blooming, then so was Beauty.” Jeweltongue rose abruptly and fetched an empty jam jar,
upside down next to the washing-up bowl, filled it with clean water from the
ewer, and put Beauty’s rose in it. “This is another one like the one Father
brought, isn’t it? I remember the smell. Only it’s nearly gone over. I wonder
what—” She hesitated. “—adventures Beauty has had since she plucked it? Yes/1
said Lionheart. “But her adventure will have been nothing like Father’s,” She
tried to speak firmly, but her voice trailed away. “The first one lasted and lasted, as if the rose itself were
enchanted.. . . Help me get her out of her wet things, and then if you’ll go
let Teacosy in before she brings the wild hunt’s hounds down on us.” Teacosy rushed out of the goat shed and hurled herself
against the closed door of the cottage. At the thump, Beauty stirred for
the first time. Jeweltongue had been tying her dressing-gown round her. It was
a new one; Jeweltongue had only just finished making it last winter, to replace
the rag of overcoat Beauty had been using in the absence of anything better.
She had refused to take it with her to the Beast’s palace, as it was now the
nicest of their three: “An enchanted palace must have dressing-gowns and to
spare, or if not, I will make a velvet curtain serve.” Neither Jeweltongue nor
Lionheart had had the heart to use it, however, and it had hung untouched on
its peg for seven months. It had been such a long time! She stopped what she
was doing and stroked Beauty’s cheek. “Beauty? Please, darling . . .” The door opened to the sound of Lionheart’s expostulations,
and Teacosy launched herself at Beauty and began frantically licking her face,
making little squeaking whimpers and wagging her short tail so hard her body
vibrated down its full length, and between the counter-impulsions of wagging
and licking, her ears seemed to spin out almost sideways, in a blur like
hummingbirds’ wings. “Saints!” said Jeweltongue. trying to lift her away, but the
dog, usually immediately amenable to anything any of the sisters suggested,
struggled in her grip and began to burrow under Beauty’s arm and side. “Teacosy,” murmured Beauty, trying to sit up. “I’d know that
frenzy anywhere .. . you’re much worse than Fourpaws, I’d forgotten ... don’t
eat me, please.” And then there were several minutes while the sisters simply
wept in one another’s arms, and several more minutes when no one could say
anything in particular, and then Lionheart got up to make tea. and Jeweltongue,
Beauty, and Teacosy remained in front of the now enthusiastically burning fire,
and Jeweltongue’s arms were round her sister, and Beauty’s head was on her
shoulder, and Teacosy was stretched across both their laps. “Are you ready to talk?” said Lionheart, returning with the
tray. Beauty sighed and shook her head—gingerly, because it felt
so odd. She felt odd all over: Her skin was overtender and faintly prickly,
like the end, or the beginning, of fever, and her thoughts spun stupidly in
place and would not connect with one another. She had a strange savour in her
mouth, as if she had been eating rose-petals. Why could she not remember the
journey here? What had happened? She had a sense of something, of some doom
near at hand, but she could not remember what it was. She did not want to
remember. “Why is it so dark? Is it the middle of the night? Where is Father?” “It is the middle of the night—when did you arrive, my
love?—and Father is in Longchance, at the—the remains of a literary party. He
read his own poem; he was very grand! And they called him Mr Poet after! But
there was, er, a tiny accident—he’s really perfectly all right—and I came on
alone.1’ “In me middle of the night,” murmured Lionheart. “How did
you know to come?” Jeweltongue felt herself blush, but the firelight was warm
on all their faces, and none of them wanted to disturb their own little family
magic by lighting a lamp. “Well... there was this cat—” Lionheart sat bolt upright. “But that is precisely what
happened to me!” Jeweltongue tightened her arm round Beauty, and Beauty
looped her arms round the front end of Teacosy and hugged her, and the dog
sighed hugely on a long low note of utter contentment and fell asleep,
muttering faintly in her dreams. The sisters found in themselves a great reluctance to
discuss anything at all. They were home in Rose Cottage, all together again,
and it was the middle of the night. They had no responsibilities;
responsibilities returned with daylight. The fire crackled; Teacosy kicked as
she ran after a dream rabbit; the roses round the kitchen window tapped against
the glass; peace pooled around them like water. Lionheart sighed, and put her teacup down. “I will have to
go back to the Hall soon. I’m sorry. Would that I had known to bring Daffodil!
Thai’s something you don’t know, Beauty; when we tried to send her back with
the traders, they had a note from the captain saying we were to keep her, that
she was a country pony, not a city pony. So we sent half a fail—purchase price
south and will send the other half in the spring. She’s a great favourite at
the Hall. It’s the first time anyone has ever seen Dora happy on horseback,
riding Daffodil, which is a great thing for poor Dora, in that family. * ‘Beauty, please, can you bear it? Can you bear to tell us
what happened? Even a little of it? Mostly—really—only—are you home—home—home
for—” Her courage failed her, and she could not finish her sentence. But Beauty, to her sisters’ alarm, turned in Jeweltongue’s
arms and began to weep against her sister’s breast. “I do not know what to do!
It is all too impossible! He is very kind—and—and—oh—but his roses are blooming
again. I am sure that is what he wanted of me—” Why had she a picture in her
mind of the Beast saying. Beauty, will you marry me? Why would someone
so great and grand, like the Beast, want to marry her? She was beautiful, but
that would fade, unlike Jeweltongue’s skill with her needle and Lionheart’s
horse sense. She had always been the least of the sisters, called Beauty
because she had no other, better characteristic to name her as herself. She
could make roses bloom—but that was the unicorns and the old woman. There was a
little gap in the magic, that was all, and she had mended it, merely by being
there, as if she were a bit of string. “I am sure that is what he wanted of me, and I cannot
possibly live without you and Father, but I have begun to wonder if I cannot
live without—” And here her tears overcame her, and she sobbed without
speaking. Teacosy woke up and began to lick her wrist. Jeweltongue stroked her hair, and eventually Beauty sat up
again, drawing her hand away from the dog. “You will wear a hole in the skin
soon, little one,” she said, and took the dog’s head between both her hands,
and smoothed the fur back over her skull and down her neck and ears. “Your hair
is so thick and curly, after Fourpaws! I wonder if Four-paws—” She almost said,
“misses me,” but stopped before the dangerous words were out. Dangerous, why?
she thought; but she had no answer, only the sick, torn, unhappy feeling she’d
had since—since . .. She could not remember. How had she come here? Why could
she not remember the Beast’s last words to her? Why then was she so sure that
those last words had been important? “Who is Fourpaws?” said Jeweltongue. “Fourpaws is a cat I—who lives where I have been staying.
She has just had kittens. She is very pretty—rather small, grey with amber
flecks and huge green-gold eyes.” “But that must be the cat that I—” “But that is the cat—’’ Jeweltongue and Lionheart spoke simultaneously. “I didn’t finish telling you,” said Lionheart. “I’ve been
horribly restless all evening, but 1 thought—I told myself—it was just the
storm. Molly came in and wouldn’t go out again—usually she sleeps in the barn,
and indeed, Mr Horsewise doesn’t like her in the house; he says she has to earn
her keep—but she wouldn’t settle down cither and kept winding through my legs
and making this fretful, irritating, hoarse little mewing till I thought—with
the wind and the rain and her going grrup grrttp in
anything resembling a lull—I would go mad with it. “The storm cleared off from the east, you know: you would
have had it longer in Longchance, I think. As soon as the wind dropped, I
opened the door and pretty well threw her out, but when I tried to close the
door again, she was standing on the threshold. If 1 hadn’t seen her in time, I think
I’d’ve closed it on her, because she really wasn’t moving. “But I was in a state myself by then. I had this craving to
go back to Rose Cottage. I don’t know how else to describe it. I was convinced
I’d find Beauty there, you know? Only I knew that was ridiculous. But I thought
a walk might calm me down a little, so I came out. Everyone else was asleep. We
get up early, you know, we fall asleep early. We all have our own tiny cubbies,
upstairs from the common room, so even if it’s not allowed, and it isn’t, if
you want to slip out, it’s not hard. “Molly was thrilled, and gamboled and played like a kitten,
always coming back to me and then dashing off somewhere, and I was so
preoccupied with fighting my longing to come home 1 just followed her for
something to do ... and then discovered I was out in the middle of the woods
and had no idea where 1 was. I would have said I know every foot of woodland
around here, not just the bridle paths but the deer trails—the rabbit trails,
for pity’s sake!—but I was completely lost. And then I followed Molly because I
didn’t know what else to do. “And then about the time I spilled out on a track I did
know—the one that runs along the length of Goldfield’s farm—and I saw Molly in
fairly bright starlight after all the shadows under the trees, I saw it wasn’t Molly.
All cats are grey in the dark, but Molly is brindle-black and white, and
the white shows. You see her white front twinkle in the dark of the barn when
you’re up before dawn.” “And she came up to you to say good-bye, and when you petted
her, you noticed she was nursing kittens,” said Jeweltongue. “Yes,” said Lionheart. “And we’d covered far more distance
than we should have been able to. One of the reasons I was so cross about being
lost is that we hadn’t been walking long—not long enough to get really lost in.
When 1 came out on the farm road, I was only about half an hour from here, and
on foot in the dark, from the Hall, it’s at least three hours. Which is why I
need to leave soon. I don’t suppose your Fourpaws will be hanging round waiting
to take me back.” “Half an hour,” said Jeweltongue. “I guess she, Four-paws,
had to dash off to relieve Becky, who was bringing me.” They both turned to Beauty, who was staring out the window
at her roses. “1 can’t remember.” she said softly. “I remember this morning ..
. and Fourpaws’ kittens ... and the night before ... the unicorns—oh, I
remember the unicorns!—and so I didn’t want to go into the glasshouse this
morning. There is something I cannot remember. I went to find the Beast....
Oh!” She sat up again, and leant forward to grasp Jeweltongue’s hands. “I
remember Jack True-word—the story he told—I was afraid—have 1 ruined it for all
of us?—Do we have to leave Longchance? I had to come back to see if you were
all right—” “If we were all right!” exploded Lionheart. “You’ve been
gone seven months with never a word, and now suddenly you reappear because of
something that conceited little fop said, and you want to know if we’re all
right? You wretched, thoughtless brute, why didn’t you ever send us word
about you?” “Seven months?” Beauty said slowly. “Seven months? But it’s
only been seven days. The butterflies were the first morning, the day after 1
arrived, and then the bat, and the hedgehogs, and the spider, and the toads,
and this morning was Fourpaws’ kittens—seven days.” “Dear,” said Jeweltongue, “it’s been seven months for us.” There was a silence. “I’m so sorry,” said Beauty. Lionheart slid to her knees beside Beauty, and took her
hands away from Jeweltongue, and held them tight. “I’m sorry—sorrier. I’m sorry
I shouted. You would have sent word if you could—even if it had been only seven
days. It’s just... it’s been so long, and we knew nothing.” “It’s been so long,” agreed Jeweltongue in a low voice. “And
we can’t let Father know how it troubles us,...” “Hardest for you,” said Lionheart to Jeweltongue, though she
still held Beauty’s hands, “We’ve had to pretend that we know you’re all
right—we’re sisters, our hearts beat in each other’s breasts, we know—and
also, it’s Father who has the aversion to magic. If it comes up at all, then he
berates himself, and he’s still not strong, you know; he’s never really been
strong since we left the city. So it’s all been up to us. And Jeweltongue is
here, day after day, every day.” “I’ve dreamt of you,” said Beauty. “I dreamt of Mr Whitehand—” “Yes,” said Jeweltongue. “We became engaged late in the
spring.” “And of Aubrey True word—” Lionheart said suddenly: “That day Molly was behaving like a
lunatic, as if she could see someone who wasn’t there, was that you? When
Aubrey first told me he knew I—’’ “Yes,” said Beauty. “And tonight—was it tonight?—I—” “I saw you,” said Jeweltongue. “I saw you, sitting in
Mrs Oldhouse’s parlour.” “But what about Jack’s story? He means us harm,
if—Lionheart, 1 dreamt of a day when you told Jeweltongue and Father about
Aubrey, but that you didn’t dare, because of the curse, because of the stories
people were telling about my going away .. . because of Jack—” It was Lionheart’s turn to blush. She stood up abruptly and
went to refill the kettle. “I—I’m brave enough about some things. Not about
others. When we had to leave the city, I thought I’d die. Not for grief, or
even anger, but more from a kind of... amazement that the world could be so
unlike what I had thought. And then. . . fear. Fear for all those things I
didn’t know. I would get up in the morning and look at my petticoats, and my
stockings, and my shoes, and my dress, and I didn’t know which one to put on
first. or whether my shoes went on my feet or my head. I would decide they went
on my feet from the shape. How could I live when I knew nothing?” “Darling heart, we al! felt like that.” said Jeweltongue. “And people like Jack... terrify me,” continued Lion-heart,
as if she had not heard. “It’s why J hated your salons so much, Jeweltongue.
I’d rather face a rogue horse any day. Horses are honest. You know where you are
with horses,” “You know where you are with people like Jack True-word,”
said Jeweltongue. “You are in the presence of form without substance, sound
without meaning, clatter without articulation.” “Stop it,” said Lionheart. “If you mean dog droppings and
green slime, say it.” “Wait,” said Beauty. “Jeweltongue, you were frightened tonight.
I saw it.” “Was I? Yes, I suppose I was,” said Jeweltongue. “You see,
since you went away ... anything to do with magic, I cannot help wondering if
it has anything to do with you. I keep wanting to know more about spells and
enchantments, but I don’t want to know, for fear what I learn will be worse
than not knowing. But there is no magic in Longchance; there is no way to ask
tactfully, there is no way to ask for comfort, . . and what made it worse, although
not the way you mean, is that it’s true Longchance has been whispering little
tales about your going away, dear, but they’re hopeful—and embarrassed—little
tales. You see, Longchance has never quite given up the idea you’re a
greenwitch, because the roses bloomed for you, and while the last green-witch
disappeared mysteriously too, the roses stopped blooming when she went, and
we’ve made no secret of it that we’ve had a garden full of roses this year too. “And then, as Lionheart says, we’ve been so determinedly
bright and sunny about your absence, everyone positively has to squint from the
glare when they look at us, although I know my poor Whitehand had guessed there
was something about something I wasn’t telling him.... And meanwhile I have
kept looking at your roses, and they look so—so happy, if one can say that
about flowers, I’ve wanted so to believe they were telling me—” “Us,” said Lionheart. “—what we wanted—badly wanted—to know. But then Mrs
Oldhouse’s story, out of nowhere, and with the storm pounding away at us like a
monster yelling for our lives, and then Jack corning in, wet as a water spirit,
and threatening us with that curse I’ve been worrying about for years—’’ “Then you did know,” said Beauty. “After all the talking-to you gave me the day I told you
about Aubrey!” interrupted Lionheart in high dudgeon, and then began to laugh.
“So much for no secrets between sisters!” She had paused, tea-kettle in hand, beside the jam jar
containing the dark red rose. Its first petal had already fallen; she picked it
up, rubbing it gently between her fingers for the deliciously silken feel, as
she hung the kettle over the fire again. “Oh, Beauty, won’t you please tell us
what has been happening to you? I really must go off again—as it is, I’ll be
back after dawn and will have to tell Mr Horsewise something—and I will explode
of curiosity if you don’t. Start with Fourpaws. Why is she called Fourpaws?’’ “The Beast named her. She is the only creature—was the only
creature—who would live in the palace with him, and he said she must be a
sorcerer in her own country, and he would not imbalance the delicate network of
her powers by giving her a powerful name when she has done him the great
kindness of breaking the loneliness of his house.” And there rose up in her the
memory of the evenings they sat together in the great dark dining-hall, and she
did not remember the pressing shadows, the imprisoning silence, but the
companionship of the Beast, and Fourpaws, purring, on her lap. There was a silence, as Jeweltongue and Lionheart tried to adjust
to this other sort of Beast than the one they had heard about from their
father. There was tremendous relief in this new idea of a thoughtful, wistful
Beast, but there was tremendous bewilderment too. “Will you tell us about the
Beast?” said Jeweltongue timidly. “Surely he is a sorcerer too?” “Oh no,” Beauty heard herself saying immediately. “I—I don’t
know why I said that. I had assumed that he was, as you did, but lately, as I
have grown to know him better. ..” She fell silent, and in the silence Lionheart watched the
second petal fall from the dark red rose. Jeweltongue said: “Surely there is some boundary to the magic—how
long to pay the debt of one blooming rose in the middle of winter? Isn’t seven
months enough?” Again Beauty heard her own voice answer, speaking almost as
quietly as a rose-petal falling: “He told me he cannot—that he never could—hold
me against my will,” She knew the words were true as soon as they were out of
her mouth, but where had they come from? And why could she not remember? Why couldn’t she remember how she had left the Beast’s palace
and come to Rose Cottage? Jeweltongue laughed, a laugh like a child’s bubbling up from
somewhere beneath her heart. “But then you can stay with us! I can finally give
poor Whitehand a day! He has been very good, although—since I had not told him
the truth—he has been puzzled at why my sister is quite so unspecific about
when she might be able to return, only long enough to attend a wedding, I know
it has occurred to him that I have not meant to marry him at all. but I do! Oh,
I do! But I could not be married without your being here. Beauty, or. at
the very, very, very least, knowing that you were well. There now, Lionheart,
you can put Aubrey out of his misery too.” “We were planning on a double wedding, just like—not at all
like—we were going to do in the city many years ago,” said Lionheart. “Not at all like.” said Jeweltongue quickly, with a
touch of her old acidity. “Once you finally overcame your peculiar
terrors—rogue horses, indeed! It is as well I do not know the daily facts of
your life, or I should not sleep for worrying!—and gave your hand to poor Aubrey.” Beauty leant over to touch Lionheart’s knee. “Then you have
told him yes? And that is all well? What of Mr Horsewise?” Lionheart smiled reminiscently. “Mr Horsewise was appalled
for about two and a half heartbeats, and then it occurred to him that he’s been
fighting off a suspicion about me almost since I’d come to work for him, and he
hadn’t wanted to know because if he knew the wrong thing, he might lose me, and
... well...” “Go on,” said Jeweltongue. Lionheart muttered something inaudible,
and Jeweltongue laughed her merry, bubbling laugh again, “Mr Horsewise dotes on
her! She is the finest ‘lad’ he’s ever had, you see, and now he not only won’t
lose her but is positively obliged to promote her, because Aubrey is going to
take the horse end of affairs at the Hall on and run it as a business, which is
deeply offensive to Jack, of course, but Aubrey worked it out with his father
so that Jack can’t touch it, although—” “Although we’re going to have to work like slaves to make a
success of it,” finished Lionheart. “As soon as the sun is up, I’ll measure you for your
wedding-dress,” said Jeweltongue, “that is, the dress you will wear to our
wedding.” Her happiness faltered for a moment, for she would have liked it to
be a triple wedding, but now that Beauty was home again, surely... “You won’t
be nearly as hard to please as Lionheart, I’m sure. Oh, I’m so glad! What
colour, do you think? Gold? Green? Blue? Darling, what is it?” “Oh—my Beast. He is my friend, you see—” “‘Your friend?” bellowed Lionheart. “Your gaoler,
your kidnapper, and you have told us that he has admitted he could not keep you
in the first place, so he is a liar and a trickster as well—’’ “Oh no, no,” said Beauty in great distress. “You do not understand
at all. I will go hack to visit him. I take care of his roses!” “You have roses enough to care for here!” said Lion-heart. Jeweltongue laid her hand on Beauty’s. “If the Beast is your
friend, then we must—we must learn that. But it is hard for us, just now, at
the beginning, especially when we haven’t—haven’t quite known if we had lost
you entirely.” “He never—” began Beauty. “He always—” Jeweltongue smiled. “I believe you. Go on. We’re listening.”
She flicked a quelling look at the more volatile Lion-heart, but Lionheart was
dreamily watching something behind her and Beauty’s heads. She turned to see; another
petal wavered and fell from the dark red rose, and then, after the merest
breath of a pause, a whole gust of petals, “He is—he is—oh, I don’t know how to describe him!” said
Beauty. “He is very tall, and very wide, and very hairy; he is a Beast, just as
he is named. He eats apples in two bites, including the cores. But he is—that
is not what he is like.” “What is he like then?” Jeweltongue prompted. “He is gentle and kind. He loves roses. He loves roses best
of all, but his were dying; the only one still blooming was the one from
Father’s breakfast table. Of course, when I knew—when I found—I had to rescue
him—help them—rescue them—him. He walks on the roof every night, looking at the
stars. On the roof he has drawn the most beautiful map of the sky. ...” Beauty
was weeping as she talked. “My dear,” said Jeweltongue, gently turning her sister’s
face towards her. “Why do you weep?” “Every night, after supper, he asks me to marry him,” said Beauty,
and she knew she spoke the truth, that it was no mirage of memory, and then she
was weeping so passionately she could speak no more. Jeweltongue put her arms round her and rocked her back and
forth as if she were a little child. “Well—and do you wish to marry him?” Beauty wept a little longer, and slowly her tears stopped,
and she looked up. Jeweltongue looked gravely back at her. “He is—he is very
great, and grand, and ... he is a Beast.” “Yes, very large, very hairy, you said. Great and grand—foo.
Are you afraid of him?” “Afraid of him? Oh, no!” “Well then, if he were an ordinary man, instead of a Beast,
and my darling younger sister burst into tears immediately after telling me he
had asked her to marry him, I would advise her that it is perfectly obvious
that she should say yes.” “But—” “He is very large and very hairy, and your introduction to
each other was ... awkward, and first impressions are so important. Very well.
What is it you dislike? That he eats apples in two bites, including the cores?” Beauty laughed through the last of her tears. “No, no!
Although in an ordinary garden, I should want the cores for my compost heap.” Lionheart groaned. “You only ever think of one thing! Your
roses!” Beauty flashed back: “You only ever think of one thing! Your
horses!” Jeweltongue said, “Do you remember Pansy’s story—many years
ago, when we were still quite little, before Mamma died—of the princess who
married the Phoenix?” “Yes,” murmured Beauty. “I remember.” “It is very odd,” said Lionheart. “Jeweltongue, d’you remember
the way the rose Father brought lasted what seemed like nearly forever? It
wasn’t just that it was the middle of winter, was it? Look, the last petal is
already falling from the rose Beauty brought with her.” If you decide you do wish to see me again, pall another
petal and set it again in your mouth, and you will at once be here. But if you
wait till all the petals have dropped, it will be too late; once they have
loosed themselves from the flower, they can no longer return you here, and
besides, when the last of them falls, I will die. “The last petal!” cried Beauty, her last conversation with
the Beast suddenly and terribly recalled to her mind, and she threw herself to
her feet, knocking painfully into Jeweltongue, spilling Teacosy, who gave a
little yip of surprise. to the floor, spinning in the direction Lionheart was
looking, reaching for the forgotten rose there in its humble jam jar, reaching
for the last petal, her hand darting out faster than her mind could direct it,
but that last petal fell from its flower head before her fingers touched it,
dropping softly into her palm, and she stared at it in horror, “Oh no,” she
whispered. “Oh no.’* “Darling, what is it?” said Jeweltongue. “What is it about the last petal?” said Lionheart. “What enchantment
does it hold that frightens you so?” But Beauty did not hear them. She looked up from the last
petal in her hand, sightlessly staring at her sisters, When the last of them
falls, I will die. “Do you remember,” she said, “when Father brought that
first rose home, I cut two pieces from its stem and planted them, hoping they
would strike. Did they? Did they? Oh, please tell me at least one of them did!” Jeweltongue put a hand to her face. “I—I’m not sure. I don’t
remember. I—I am not much of a gardener, dear, dear Beauty. Please try to
forgive me,” Beauty turned and fled into the rear garden. She was so distraught
by terror and grief she could not remember where she had put the two stem
cuttings; she cursed herself for not telling Jeweltongue to tend them
particularly, for cuttings are very vulnerable as they struggle to produce
their first roots, but she cursed herself more for not remembering—until it was
too late—for not watching her rose, the Beast’s rose, that he had given her
last of all. And she looked at the petal in the palm of her hand and saw the
smear of blood there, from clasping the stem of that rose too tightly. How
could she not have remembered? She thought of the endless wall of the palace, the first
time she had tried to follow it to the corner of the courtyard, to see what lay
behind the glasshouse. She thought of the first evening she mounted the spiral
staircase, the basket she had almost not found, and the storm that had come
from nowhere, as soon as she touched the weather vane. But she had turned the corner, arrived at the top of the
staircase, found the basket, and descended from the ladder. The Beast had
carried her up the stair and guarded her down the ladder. He would not be dead;
she would not allow it. She had sent butterflies and bats and hedgehogs and
toads into the palace gardens, she had welcomed kittens (and one spider) into
the palace when the Beast himself had said no creature would live on his lands.
The unicorn had come to her, and the roses bloomed. She would not let him die. She would not let him die. Her resolution faltered. As soon
as her sisters had told her she had been seven months away, she should have
remembered, she should have thought at once to look at the rose. It did not
matter what her father’s rose had done; she knew the enchantment that held her
Beast and his roses had changed, for she had changed it. And now she was
destroying everything when the Beast had trusted her. When the Beast had loved
her. Blindly she went down the centre path of the garden towards
the great riotous tangle at its heart; the roses there had gone over from their
full midsummer flush, hut there were still a few heavy flower heads bowing
their branches with their weight. She was vaguely aware, as her eyes began to
focus on what lay round her, that the night’s darkness was graying towards
morning. Her gaze settled on the statue within that centre bed, the statue of a
beast she had never been able to name; and it was a beast like her Beast, and
she remembered him on his knees in the glasshouse, drenched by rain, looking up
at her, smiling. But the statue was no longer standing, as it had when she last
stood in Rose Cottage’s garden. It was lying, curled up on its side, one
forelimb over its head, looking lost, and hopeless, and as if it only waited to
die, “You cannot die,” said Beauty. She heard the first bird heralding the dawn; two notes, then
silence. “Tell me/’ she said lo the poor lost Beast, held close by the thorny
tangled weave of rose stems, where he could not have stirred even had he wanted
to. “Tell me where your rose grows! It must have struck! I say it must
have struck! I am coming back to you, do you hear me? Help me! As you made a
mistake when you brought me to you, so I have made a mistake now! And as I released
you from yours, release me now from mine!’” Lord Goodman died far me today,
I’ll die for him tomorrow. A second bird called. Beauty took a deep breath, trying not
to begin crying yet again. I have done nothing but weep this evening, she
thought. If I had wept less and thought more, 1 would not be—and then the tears
came very close indeed, and she had to hold her breath altogether to keep them
in. She let her breath out finally and stood quietly, feeling
her shoulders slump, listening to a third and fourth and fifth bird. I must
bring the birds back to the Beast’s garden too, she thought idly; I want to
hear them singing when we stand in the orchard together.... And then there was
a scent on the air she remembered, a scent unique to itself, threading its way through
all the other rose scents, heavy in the dew of predawn, and she turned and
walked down the crosspath to the edge of a little side bed, still half invisible
in the tentative light of early dawn. And there were two tiny, rather weakly
bushes, but they were both alive, and by next season they would be growing
strongly. One of them was wisely conserving all its strength for growing roots
and leaves: the other one held one black-red bud, much smaller than the buds of
its parent bush and barely open, open just enough for its first wisp of perfume
to have escaped. She knelt by it slowly and touched it with the hand that still
held the last petal from the dead flower, and as she knelt, she heard her
sisters come up behind her. She did not rise, but she turned her head to look at them.
“Give me your blessing, please,” she said, “and know that I will come back to
you when I can. But I must go back to my Beast just now, for he needs me most.
Jeweltongue, give your Mr Whitehand his day, and let Aubrey Trueword and
Lionheart share it, and have your wedding, and know that I bless you in it,
wherever I am. Tell Father I love him, and 1 am sorry to have missed this
meeting with him. “And—and most especially know that I love you and that it is
true that our hearts beat in one another’s breasts.” And for the first time in
what felt like years, her hand touched the little embroidered heart that
Jeweltongue had made her, on her leaving for the Beast’s palace the first time,
but she did not draw it out from beneath her shift, and it was only then that
she realised she was wearing the dressing-gown Jeweltongue had made for her.
only last winter, that she had refused to take with her last spring. It smelt
of washing day and faintly of dust, and she knew, even as she had known at her
leaving, that neither of her sisters would have used it for the sorrow of her
going. She turned back to look at the little rose; it was half open
now, and one of its outermost petals was trying to curl back. free from its
sisters. “And... feed these two little bushes! Give them a few of the oldest,
rottenest. shrivelledest scrapings from the back of the manure heap, just a
few, not too many—that is what they like. Even if you haven’t time to build a
compost heap, you can do that. Cuttings are very tender. They must be
encouraged, not bullied, into growing.” She seized the petal that was
separating itself from the others and gave it a gentle tug; it came free in her
hand, and she set it in her mouth. Chapter 14She had remembered nothing of her earlier journey from the
Beast’s glasshouse to the hearth-rug in Rose Cottage, but after she finished
speaking to her sisters and set another rose-petal in her mouth, she seemed to
fall into a dream, or rather into her old nightmare dream, when she was walking
down a series of long dark corridors with a monster waiting for her at the end
of all. And sometimes she hurried, for pity of the poor monster, and sometimes
she tarried, for fear of it; but as she walked, and ran, and walked again, her
anxiety rose and rose and rose till she no longer knew if she felt frightened
or pitying and compassionate, only that there was this great humming something
possessing her mind and her body and her spirit. And she felt less and less
able to defy it, to think her own thoughts, to wrench her own will free of it,
to set down one foot after another to her own direction, and not because she
was driven to do so. “My Beast,” she murmured, but her voice made no sound. She
put her hands to her throat and spoke again: “My Beast. I seek for my Beast,
and I know him, and he is no monster.” But though she felt her throat vibrate
with her voice, she could not hear her words; and then she touched one hand to
its opposite forearm, and there too was a vibration such as she had felt in her
throat; and now she felt it through the soles of her bare feet, an itchy,
fretful, maddening sensation. She ran again, and this time she ran for a long way, till
she had to stop for weariness. But when she stopped, she stood restlessly,
lifting first one foot and then the other, disliking the contact with the
thrumming floor; and she could no longer say if the darkness in her eyes was
from exhaustion or the dimness of the corridors she ran down. This will not do, she thought, and she sat down on the floor
with her back against one wall, and closed her eyes, and tucked her feet under
the hem of her dressing-gown, and wrapped the dressing-gown as close as she
could round all of her, and she tried to think. Her legs were trembling from
the long run they had just had, but she could feel the humming through her seat
bones, though there was no audible sound in her cars, only the drumming of
blood and fear. She thought of trying to speak aloud again, but then she
thought: No. I have tried that experiment, and I know its result. I will not
repeat it, over and over, to frighten myself again and again, till I am too
frightened to do anything at all. I must find my Beast and tell him ... tell
him ... I must find him. She opened her eyes and looked both ways up and down the corridor,
and all she could see in either direction was more corridor, the dull figures
of its wallpaper, the occasional loom of furniture or ornament, and the
driblets of light from the sconces. There were no windows and no doors. The hum
she felt through her seat bones, through her back, through her entire body
seemed suddenly both fiendish and triumphant, and she got to her feet again
abruptly. “No,” she said, or rather, her mouth shaped die word, but she gave no
voice to it that she would not be able to hear. “No.” And silently in her mind
she said: You will not have me so easily, nor will you have him. She turned round and started to walk back down the corridor
she had come up. No! No! No! shrieked ... something. Some soundless
subvibration of the hum that filled the corridor demanded that she turn round;
but she had made her choice, and now she put one slow, heavy foot down after
the other by her own will and of her own choice, and while each footstep was
very hard, dragged as it was in the opposite direction, it was also a victory
for her, and the hum changed its inaudible note and became fury. She closed her eyes against it. She could not see it any
more than she could hear it, but in this darkness of her own choosing she could
hug herself round with her own thoughts, her own being, her own knowledge of
her self and of her existence, as she hugged herself round with the
dressing-gown her sister had made for her. She had none of her outer senses
left: Blindness she had chosen, hearing and touch were deadened by the
noiseless vibration, and her mouth was full of the flavor and scent of the
rose-petal. She put one hand to her lips, touched the fingers with her tongue;
here she felt no alien vibration, only the faint stir of her breath against her
own skin. She walked forward, expecting at any moment to bump into a
wall, but she did not. And as she walked, hearing nothing but the silent
pressure of not-hearing, she thought she began to hear some faint echo, as of
wind, or footsteps in a cavern; and she listened, hopefully, and as she
listened, she caught a faint smell—like that of damp earth—and her toes struck
against something that was neither planed wood nor tile nor carpet fibre, and
in astonishment she opened her eyes. She stood in complete darkness. When her eyes opened, and
she still could not see, she had stopped automatically. She blinked several
times, waiting for her sight to clear, but the darkness remained. She held a
hand up before her face and could see it no more than she had been able to hear
her voice a little while before, and a little “Oh!” escaped her lips without
her meaning it to and... she heard it. I am returned one while another is taken
from me, she thought. Well. She put her hands out on either side of her and felt rough
crumbly wall with her right; she moved a little to her left and found a similar
wall there. She faced left and ran her hands over the wall, and a few little
earth crumbs fell away from her touch, and she realised she was walking on bare
earth, and there was grit between her toes. Her feet were still half numb from
the thrum of the corridor, and inclined to curl involuntarily away from what
they stood on, without recognising that the irritation was gone. She let her
hands climb upwards and found the earth corridor was quite low, and over her
head she felt twining, irregularly hairy surfaces that she thought—and suddenly
hoped—might be the roots of trees. She began to walk forward again, in the direction she had
been going, with her hands held out in front of her. She was walking much more
slowly now, not from the effort of struggling against the intangible will that
had wished her to turn round but from a simpler fear of the dark, of blindness
without choice. She closed her eyes again, because she was making her head ache
by straining to see when she could not; the darkness seemed a little less oppressive
with her eyes shut, as the hum had been a little more bearable when she did not
try to speak. But her heart had risen with that first smell of earth, and
it beat more strongly now that there was no foreign vibration trying to force
it to follow some other rhythm; and in her mind she was trying not to let a
certain idea form itself too clearly, in dread of disappointment. Her outstretched hands touched a smooth surface. She stopped,
both because she had to and because that hopeful idea would no longer be
suppressed. She ran her hands quickly over the surface that blocked her way,
found its squared edges, like a door strangely set in the end of this corridor
of raw earth, and her heart beat very quickly indeed. Very well, it was a door,
but could she open it? And where would she be if she could and did? A tiny depression halfway down the left-hand edge, only
about the size of a fingertip, with a tiny finger-curved latch or peg within
it, as if the hole were a keyhole and a finger the key; and there was a small
click, and she felt the door give. She pushed it and saw sunlight outlining the
crack of its opening, and a few tears fell from her dark-strained eyes, and she
stepped out from behind the summer tapestry into her rooms in the Beast’s
palace. Her strength returned to her in a rush at the sight of her
rooms; but she hesitated, and turned away from her first impulse, and instead
allowed herself a moment to stand on her little balcony and look round her. The
glasshouse twinkled in the late-afternoon sun; but for the first time the sight
of it could not lift her heart, and her only thought was to wonder what day it
was and how long she had been gone. Then she ran out into the chamber of the star and found all
the doors open, and she chose one and ran through it, running down the twisting
corridor towards the door into the courtyard, to the glasshouse, where she had
left die Beast. But the corridor did not lead her there. It led her to other
corridors, lo rooms, halls, staircases, antechambers, and more corridors, more
and more doors to choose, one over another, always in hopes that the door she
sought lay just beyond. All the doors she saw were already open, but she would
not have trusted any that chose themselves for her. Late afternoon gave way to twilight; it would be full dark
soon. She plodded on. She began to wonder if she were merely going round and
round the huge palace square, if the occasional apparently pointless half
flights of stairs up or down were carrying her unaware over the carriage-ways
to the wild wood and the orchard, though these came at no regular intervals;
nor did any stairs seem to hold any relationship to any other stairs. She was
increasingly oppressed by the vastness of the palace and the slightness of her
own presence in it, and she recalled the evil hum of the dream corridor
changing to a note of triumph; but she was near the end of her final strength
now and of her hopes. One knee and one ankle throbbed as if bruised, and
vaguely she remembered, as if it had happened in another life, that she had
banged herself painfully against the ladder when the wind had seized her from
beneath the Beast’s sheltering arm. Once she paused in a corridor that seemed familiar—but so
many of them seemed familiar—paused by what appeared to be a stain on the
carpel. There were never stains on the carpet in the Beast’s palace, any more
than there were marks on the wallpaper, smudges on the furniture, or chips off
the statues. The carpet here was crimson, solid crimson, and unfigured, which
was perhaps how the stain had caught her eye; it was not very large, much
nearer one edge of the carpet than the other, and looked a little like a
three-petalled flower or the first unfurling of a rose-bud. The stain was
brown, perhaps a rusty brown, but difficult to tell against the crimson of the
carpet. It might have been blood. She knelt and touched it gently, not knowing
why she did so, and opened her right palm and looked again at the three small
scratches there left by the Beast’s rose. She was now standing in a huge room with windows on opposite
walls. She had been mindful heretofore of the Beast’s advice not to look
directly out any windows, and the wearier she became, the more careful she had
been not to look round her unless she was standing still. She thought now that
she would risk looking out a window—because she could think of nothing else to
try. At least she could discover on which side lay the courtyard, after the palace’s
maze of corridors and smaller rooms which threw windows at her from unexpected
directions. The courtyard had to be on one side or the other, whether the outer
wall faced garden, orchard, or wild wood, and perhaps, at least before the
palace confused her utterly again, she could concentrate on that courtyard
wall. Perhaps the door to it now lay hidden behind some drapery or arras, like
the door to the earth corridor in her rooms, invisible behind the summer
tapestry. Perhaps, before the palace lost her again, she would be able to turn
round, and cling to that courtyard wait, and search every finger’s-breadth till
she found what she was looking for. She stood still, and spread her feet a little, and put her
hand on a torchere to steady herself, and looked towards a window. But her eyes
shied away from looking out and paused on the curtain instead. Her gaze traced
the sweep of drapery, which led back towards the wall, away from the dangerous
window. There was a small square table tucked against the curtain’s outer edge. Hadn’t she just seen—in the room before this one, or the
room before that, or perhaps even the room before that one, which had been,
hadn’t it, tucked in what should have been a niche between the angled walls of
two other rooms, except that there was not space enough for it to have existed
at all—hadn’t she just seen that little end table, that very table, with its
checkerboard of marble squares of different colours inlaid in its ebony
surface? And hadn’t it, in that room that could not have been where it was,
stood next to just that same painting of that handsome, haughty young man? He
was wearing a deep blue robe and a large soft hat. that hung down towards his
shoulder, with a feather that curved from its crown elegantly beneath his chin,
and over his other shoulder a bird face stared with angry, intelligent eyes
above its great curved beak. She did not like the young man’s face. It was not
the face of a man who would help you if you were in trouble. She turned her eyes with a jerk and looked directly out the
window next to him and saw the wild wood just beyond the panes, a wind blew,
and the branches nodded to her like bony flapping hands. She let go her torchere and walked across the room to be
nearer the windows on the other side. She found another torchere and planted
herself beside it, holding on its stem rather too tightly with one hand. There
was another familiar painting near this window, of a lady who held a pug dog in
one hand and a fan in the other, and her discarded needlework lay on the arm of
her chair. She was smiling. It was not at all a nice smile. The wild wood pressed against this window too. Beauty closed her eyes. She thrust her tongue against the
roof of her mouth, but the rose-petal had dissolved long ago. She opened her
eyes again and gave a brief glance to the torchere she still clung to. It had
been brass, with six curving arms when she had first touched it; the upright
where her hand rested was smooth, but the six arms each held three candles, and
each candle rose from a waterlily, and each arm was made as of three waterlily
stems wound together, and its base, below the upright, was wide and shallow,
like waterlily leaves floating in a small pond. The smooth brass upright remained,
but she now clutched a torchere whose crown held eight plain upright
candlesticks bound in silver, and whose base was a solid conic pedestal of
brass laid round with silver bands. She let go of it as if it had produced teeth and bitten her.
She took a step away from it, and turned, and looked behind her, towards the
portrait of the young man in blue. He looked older now, and his posture, proud
and haughty before, was now magisterial, the supple pose of known and proven
power. His fingers were slightly curled, and the palms shimmered, as if he held
sorcery there. His eyes were staring into hers, and for a moment she felt a
thrum in the floor beneath her feet, felt her memory beginning to grow dark,
like a landscape under a storm cloud. She jerked her eyes free of his and saw
that the bird that stood behind his shoulder had half spread its wings and that
it was as tall as a man. Beauty walked to the nearest window, which lay beside the
lady with the pug dog, threw up its sash, climbed through the narrow gap, and
slid down the outside wall. Even the palace’s ground floor, where she had been,
was built up high above the real ground, and she had to hang by her fingers and
finally let go without knowing where her feet would strike. She landed heavily,
her injured knee buckled, and because she was so tired, she fell. She lay still for a moment, almost tempted not to move. But
the ground was cold and hard, and her urgency was still on her. She stirred,
with an effort came to her elbows, and looked round. A great tangle of wild
wood rose all round her. She looked up, at the building she had just fled; she
had no way back. The white stone gleamed vaguely in the light of the rising
moon, scattered by leaf shadow. She could not feel the wind from where she lay
upon the ground, but she could hear it singing through the trees. She refused
to hear if it sang words; she was sure she would not like them. Momentarily she put her head down on her forearms and felt
despair waiting outside the weakening barrier of her resolve. She was tireder
than she could ever remember being, tireder even than she had been during the
first days of their father’s business ruin, before she found the paper telling
them of Rose Cottage, and giving them something—whatever it would prove to
be—to make their way towards. She looked up again. She had fallen in a gap between trees;
there was not so much of it even to be called a small clearing. Her
dressing-gown had been wrenched open by her fall, and small sharp edges of
forest floor clutter dug at her through her thin shift. She sat up and crept a
little way to lean her back against a tree; she was curiously loth to touch the
palace wall again. She did not sit long; she did not dare, for she was too
tired—and she did not like the sound the wind made. It no longer sounded like
singing; it sounded like the far-off baying of wolves. She pulled herself to
her feet, hand over hand, up the bole of the tree, faced away from the palace,
and began to force herself through the low prickly branches of the trees. There was no path. She was lost again as soon as she had pushed
her way through the first trees, as soon as she could no longer see the white
wall of the Beast’s palace behind her. She probably did not go very far. She was too tired to go
very much farther, and even driving herself to expend her last strength was
only barely keeping her moving through this harsh, intractable undergrowth.
Slender, whippy twigs slashed at her face, hooked the collar of her
dressing-gown, and snatched at the silk cord round her neck. She stumbled again
and pitched forward into an unexpected clearing. As she turned her head,
protecting her face from the ground that had struck up at her with such
alarming speed, she caught a gleam of motion in the corner of her eye. On all fours, her foot still trapped by die root which had
thrown her, she looked in that direction. She just saw the unicorn turning away
from the heap on die ground it had been guarding; she just saw the iridescent
gleam of its long horn before it disappeared into the trees on the far side of
the bonfire giade. She could see, now, beyond the heap on the ground, a glitter
of moonlight telling her where the carriage-way was. She worked her ankle loose but had no strength to rise. She
crept forward towards the heap on the ground, half knowing what she would find.
It was the Beast. He lay quietly on his side, one arm flung straight out above
his head, and his head rested on it. The fingers were softly curled; his face,
as much as she could see of it, was peaceful. His other hand held something to
his breast. His beautiful clothes were gone as if torn from him; he wore only
some still-damp shreds of his shirt, the rags of his trunk-hose, and one shoe. She crept slowly round him, came to a halt just by that hand
against his breast; his knees were slightly drawn up, so his body was curved
like the crescent moon overhead. She reached out to touch his hand, and a rose,
so dark in moon—and starlight as to look black, fell to the ground, the flower
head disintegrating into a scatter of petals flung across the little space
between the Beast and Beauty; the outliers rode up the edge of Beauty’s
dressing-gown skirts, like the crest of a breaking wave. She took his hand, and
for a moment she thought he was already dead, for it lay heavy and motionless
in hers, although it was still warm. And then, as she held and stroked it, she
felt the fingers move and take hold of hers, and she heard him sigh. “Oh, Beast,” she said, and her voice was rough and husky, as
if her throat were sore from all the gasping breaths she had taken over all
this long day and all the tears she had shed. “Oh, Beast, my Beast, don’t die.
I have come back to you. I love you, and I want to marry you.” There was a noise like a thunderclap, and the ground shook,
as if the lightning bolt it heralded had struck within the glen where they lay.
She shrank back against the Beast’s body, and his arm reached up and drew her
down next to him, and they both pressed themselves against the earth as the
storm broke over their heads, and yet an instant before the sky had been clear.
There was a crying in Beauty’s ears as of wind and wolves and birds of prey. But the Beast’s arms were round her, and they were both alive,
and she would not be afraid. She thought, This is the baying of wicked magic,
but we have won. I know we have won. It can do nothing to us now but howl And
she slid her arm under the Beast’s neck and held him close. It will be over
soon, and I will tell the Beast again that I wish to marry him, for I am not
sure that he heard. A voice in her ear, or in her mind, for surely the wind-wolves’
howling was too loud for any real voice to be heard, said to her: “That is not
quite the truth, my dear, that you—we—have won. I would that it were, but I—I
have had my hands full, even keeping a few little doors open—I and my moon—and
starlight friends—and that is as much as we have done, and it has grown harder,
over the years, for the Beast’s poor heart was dying, till you came.... I have
put a single red rose on every lost traveller’s breakfast table here, since
your Beast’s exile began, but it was your father who was first moved to pity
his great and terrible host. Ah! Strix would hate it if he knew how his
cleverness—and his hatred—had worked out at last! But I am afraid that enough
of him remains in the sorceries that still hold and hobble us that it is your
very words now of victory, and, more dangerous yet, of love, that bring the
final cataclysm towards us. “Beauty, you must choose for the both of you, you and the
Beast, and he cannot help you, and I can only help you a very little. I am only
an old woman with dirt on my hands, and I will tell you, my dear, I am glad to
be laying this responsibility down at last, for it has been a long and weary
one, though it is much of my own doing that has made it so. “So, my dear, listen to me now. You may return your Beast to
what he was before, if you wish. He was a good and a wise man then, and he will
have you with him, and you will keep him mindful of the world outside his
studies. He had great wealth and influence, you know, and you will have that
wealth and influence again, and you will be able to do great good with it, and
your names will be spoken in many lands, and you may raise your sisters and
your father to greatness with you. And—have I told you that your Beast was
beautiful? He was the most beautiful man I have ever seen, and I have seen many
men. “Or... you may take him back to Longchance, and be the
sister of the baker and the squire’s horse-coper son, and daughter of the man
who tots up sums for anyone who hires him, and make your Beast the same, “You choose.” Beauty was silent, her face pressed against the Beast’s
shaggy throat, and the wind pouring over them like a river in flood. “I think
you are not telling me all of this story,” she said at last, tentatively, and
the voice laughed. “You are right, but I am constrained by the. . . the
strength of Strix’s ancient malice, that entangles us all here. My dear, you
may ask me questions, and I will answer what I may, but you have . . . released
some great energies when you turned and walked the wrong way down that
corridor, and even my moon—and starlight friends will not be able to maze the
wind-wolves for long, and you must be gone from here before they come. “Ask, then.” Beauty struggled with her weariness for questions to ask;
but her thoughts and suspicions were as vague as smoke, and as inarticulate.
She grasped at her memories of Mrs Oldhouse’s tale, and Jack Trueword’s; but
they wove themselves together like reed straw in a caner’s hands, and she could
no longer tell one from the other, nor what of either she believed. “How—how is
it that we are all held by this magic?” The voice seemed to sigh. “It is your right that you know
what I can tell you, and yet little of what I can tell you is what you would
wish to know, and what I can tell you most of I wish not to speak of at all—”
The voice laughed again, but it was a sad laugh. “That sounds like a spell
itself, does it not? “There is some truth in both the stories you heard about the
three sorcerers. Young Jack was right, by the way: The woman was only a
greenwitch, and no sorcerer, but she never called herself anything other than
what she was.” The voice went on more slowly, the words shaping themselves reluctantly,
hazy as images in a low grey bank of cloud; Beauty had to listen with all her
attention, half afraid the voice might become merely something she imagined. “I
have earned, as I say, my place in this magic, and that I have found more peace
in it than has our Beast is perhaps only that... well, 1 was old long ago, when
he was still young, and I have my moon—and starlight friends, and he—he had
sought perfection. He knew he would not attain it, but the striving towards it
was exhilarating, and he thought he might view it and know it existed. He did
not know that the viewing itself would bring him such trouble, and he has not
been able to forgive himself that he was not wise enough to handle mere mortal
trouble. “There were three of us—that is true. And the man who became
your Beast was my very good friend. “He was a great sorcerer. But he was not interested in the
usual sorts of power, and he called himself a philosopher. But it is not for
any human to learn the first and last secrets of the universe, as other men
have discovered before your Beast—before he was a Beast—did. You have heard the
legends, I imagine. But your Beast was a different sort of man, and the
Guardians of those first and last secrets whom he awoke were confused by him.
They, who were set there when the world began, had come to believe that any man
who came near enough to disturb their solitude can have got so far only through
greed and pride, and they therefore are free to eat him up, hair,
toenails. and all. But your Beast was not only greedy and prideful; he was also
kind and painstaking and responsible, and he knew that his weaknesses were
mortal and never pretended they were not. “The Guardians did not know what to do, and when they
reached out merely to block his way into the fortress they protected, and not
knowing that anything would come of it but that he could come no farther into
their domain, they touched him with their paws. And he, who had been a man,
became a Beast—though his heart remained a man’s heart. And there, I guess, is
where all the trouble came. “I believe the transformation was very painful. I did not
see him till after it was done. He knew what he had become, and he was, as I
said, a great sorcerer. He it was who hurled himself into this exile, before
any ordinary human saw him, and I fear be was right to believe that the sight
of him ... would be very difficult to bear. But when there is too much going on
at once, it is impossible to get one’s spells exactly right. His exile from the
human world was not absolute. Other sorcerers could still visit him. As, I
admit, could one green witch, though this had less to do with my magical skill
than with my friendship for him. “The story of the philosopher-sorcerer who had become a
Beast was soon told among all the magical practitioners at. this end of the
great world, and perhaps at all the other ends too. And I... grew alarmed at
the series of sorcerers who found ways to have speech with him, for it was not
merely speech they desired. They saw his transformation as a useful step on the
road—their road—to power, an alternative to being eaten up, hair, toenails, and
all. To be made into a Beast in exchange for power, power greater than any
sorcerer had yet possessed—it was a price they were eager to pay. I think some
of them felt that to be a Beast the sight of whom drove other men mad might not
be a price at all, “He would not tell them anything they wished to know, of
course. And the change had ... changed him, for he studied his philosophy no
more, and what he knows, or does not know, or knows no longer, he has said to
no one, not even me. And his life became a burden to him, for philosophy had
filled his heart. When the sorcerers grew angry and began to plot among
themselves, he could not be made to care; he would not listen to me when I told
him that they believed him to have won more, in that meeting with the
Guardians, than he had told, and was working some great magic in secret to
ensnare them all.” Again the voice broke off. “And then . . . one sorcerer came
to the Beast who was different from the others. The Beast was polite to him, as
he had been polite to them all, but this one was clever enough not to ask what
he wished to know, but to wait, and to watch, and ... I knew what he was. I
knew well enough. But I tell in love with him anyway. I was old even then, and
I have always been plain. “The story from this point is much like what you have heard.
There was a simulacrum, except I took my own heart to beat in her breast, for I
am only a greenwitch and could not do what I had done, and besides, I loved
him. And it is not true that the dying sorcerer struck at the Beast for his
betrayal; he struck at the Beast in fury, for vengeance; he had forgotten the
simulacrum entirely, had forgotten me. ... “The Beast had not used his sorcery, I believe, for many
years, and sorcery, Like any other skill, must be often used, if a skill it is
to remain. That too may help to explain why certain things came about as they
did. Well, he had little enough warning, but he wished to save Longchance, if
he could, and he threw his own strength into the destruction Strix had brought
down upon him. Longchance survived, in the shape you know, where the earth and
air and water are too restless for any magic to take root. And the weather
vane—and Mrs Oldhouse’s ghost—are what is left of my poor simulacrum, for she
had lived too long with a human heart to return herself completely to
rose-petals. And yet I think it may be she, with her half connections to both
worlds and to neither, who is the heart of the magic that let you enter here. “And the Beast himself survived. But he survived in what had
become a dungeon of solitude, where no living creature could come. The
simulacrum is a wisp and a weather vane and a breath of rose scent where there
are no roses, and I, now, could not visit him as 1 had done.” “Not solitude,” whispered Beauty. “For you are here, and so
is Fourpaws.” “He does not know about me,” the voice said, and there was
great sorrow in it. “He does not know, for he would have tried to stop me, and
in the beginning he would still have been strong enough to do so, like a man
blocking up mouse-holes. His strength has waned—it was only the last rose, was
it not?—for no human being can thrive in such solitude, not even with a cat
such as Fourpaws, and 1 have told you his heart is still a man’s. It is only because
he is what he is that he has lived so long—the man he was who became the Beast
he is.” “But my father—the other travellers—the butter and milk from
your cows, and from—and—and the orchard that chooses to bear its fruit all
year—’’ The voice tried to laugh. “His dungeon is not perfect, for
it is still mortal. There have always been gaps. He does not know I have
widened them, pegged them open, thrust stones in their frames so they cannot
blow shut.... I am an enterprising mouse. “And the orchard .. . Trees feel kindness just as animals
do, but they live slowly, and it takes longer than most humans live for a tree
to feel human kindness and respond to it. Trees think we humans are mostly
little, flashy creatures, rather the way we think of butterflies. But the Beast
has lived here long enough for the trees to learn to know him.” The voice paused and then went on, sadly, reluctantly. “Your
Beast also does not know that I... for a second time. nearly I—” The voice stopped, and began again: “I had once hoped for a
child, but I was not pretty enough, and my simulacrum could make love like a
woman, but she could not bear a child. Your mother looked as if she could have
been Strix’s daughter—or his great-granddaughter—I do not know. Perhaps she
was. It would explain why she was so interested in ... but I would not tell
her; it was then she reminded me too much of the man who had never been my
lover. “When she ran away from me. I never imagined she would marry
and have children, and I almost leant of you too late. The dream you have had
since you were very small... I am sorry, my dear. I would have spared you it if
I could have done.” “‘It was you, not my mother, the first night of my dream,”
said Beauty, with a sudden, grieving certainty, and the voice in answer sounded
sad and weary: “Yes—it was 1, and not your mother,’’ “It was you who gave us Rose Cottage,” said Beauty. “Yes—yes—that was I also. But listen to me. my dear. Listen.
It was none of my doing that a blizzard brought your father to this palace; I
am no weathercaster. That is sorcerer’s work, and I am only a greenwitch. And
still less was it I who stirred your father’s heart to pity, nor was it I who
gave him words to speak to the Beast which would bring you here. Nor have 1
anything to do with your own decision to come and then to stay. Nor, indeed,
could I have saved you from your first took into the Beast’s face, that first,
ordinary human glance since he had ceased to be an ordinary man. You had to
withstand that yourself. Bless your friend the salamander! But you see, what
little I could do, I have done, and I have told you all of it. “Your Beast’s heart came to you, my dear, to you and no
other, just as the animals have come to you, because you are what you Eire. Nor
would I ever ask.—nor tell—my moon—and starlight friends whom to greet. Do you
not know what the breath of a unicorn is worth?” In a gentler tone the voice continued: “I had been wandering
a long time when I came back to Longchance: my old cottage was very nearly a
ruin. But after your mother left—and especially when I discovered your
dreaming—I began to feel that there were too many sorrows in this world that
were by cause of my meddling and that 1 would be better off not in this world.
And I have grown very old; the moon—and starlight shines through me now almost
as it shines through my friends.” The voice fell silent, and Beauty thought the howling was
nearer. “And the curse?” she said, or thought, for she did not put the question
into words, but only felt it lying painfully in her mind. The voice laughed, and it was a grandmother’s laugh, amazed
and indulgent at the antics of the young. “It is no curse! It has never been a
curse! Children are more sensible than adults about many things; can you
suppose that generations of children would have used it as a skipping-rhyme if
it were a curse?1’ Slowly Beauty found the words for her final question: “You
said that if I chose that my Beast keep his wealth and influence, we should use
it for good and that our names should be spoken in many lands. How will our
names be spoken?” “Ah!” said the voice, and it sounded as light and merry as a
little girl’s. “That is the right question. Your names shall be spoken in fear
and in dread, for no single human being, nor even the wisest married pair, can
see the best way to dispense justice for people beyond their own ken.” “Then I choose Longchance, and the little goodnesses among
the people we know,” said Beauty. At that moment she opened her eyes, and she saw three unicorns
leap into the bonfire glade and turn, as if at bay, and she saw the wild wolves
leaping after them. And there was another shock and crash of thunder, but the
thunder seemed to crack into a thousand sharp echoes, and each of the echoes
was the scream of a falcon or of some great owl. But the lightning bolt was a bright blue, blue as sky on a
summer’s day, and it shattered as it struck, and the fragments whirled up and
became blue butterflies. The butterflies converged in great shimmering, radiant
clouds, and their wings flickered as they crowded together, and it was as if
they were tiny fractured prisms, instead of butterflies, throwing off sparks
of all the colours of the rainbow. But then they became butterflies again, and now there were
other colours among them, greens as well as blues, russets and golds and
scarlets, and they flew in great billows round the wolves. The wolves recoiled,
and shook their heads, and tried to duck under them, or dodge round them, and
some of the wolves stood on their hind legs and clawed at them with their
forefeet; but the butterflies danced round them, zealous as bees defending
their honey from a marauding bear. The wolves could not shake free of them, nor
see where the unicorns stood, and so the unicorns drove them from the clearing,
smacking them with the sides of their resplendent horns as a fencing-master
might smack an inattentive pupil with the side of his sword, pricking them
occasionally as a cowherd might prod his cows, but now prancing and bouncing as
if this were no more than a game, and so drove the wolves from the clearing,
trailing blue and green and russet and gold ribbons of butterflies. “Quickly,” gasped Beauty, and lugged at the Beast, but he
sat up slowly and groggily, moving like one who has long been ill. They would
dash through the carriage-way, Beauty thought, run for the glasshouse; she did
not believe any wolves would dare cross that threshold. But as she thought
this, more wolves leapt into the clearing, but they came from the carriage-way,
and Beauty’s hands froze on the Beast’s shoulder, as she stooped beside him,
trying to steady his attempts to rise to his feet. There was a brief soundless whirr just past her face, and a
soft plop against her bent thighs. “Oh, bat, bat, do you know where we can go?”
she said, and knelt, to give it a lap. The bat folded its wings together and
made a funny awkward hop-hop-hop, and then it was in the air, and she looked
up, and there were many bats, more and more bats, streaming through the trees
like wind, and she saw which way they flew. The Beast was on his feet at last,
and she held his arm, felt him sway and check himself, sway and check again.
“This way,” she said, and drew him gently after her. There were so many bats now, they surged past them like a
river of darkness, and she could no longer see the wolves or the unicorns or
the trees round the clearing. And then there was a smell of earth in her
nostrils, and she put out her free hand, and felt the crumbly earth wall of the
tunnel, and put her hand over her head, but could find no tree roots, It is
very kind that they should make the corridor this time tall enough for the
Beast to walk comfortably upright, she thought, and put her hand out to the
side again so she could guide them by touching the wall. But the wall was no
longer there, and the smell of earth was mixed with the smell of roses, and she
could tell by the movement of air that they were no longer in a tunnel. There was a faint light like the beginning of dawn round
them, and they were standing in the middle of the crosspath in the centre of
the glasshouse, and the little wild pansies Beauty had planted there spilt over
the corners of the beds at their feet, and the roses bloomed everywhere round
them, silhouetted in the faint light, and the white roses were shimmers in the
gloom. They waited, listening, clinging to each other. There was
the faint, angry baying of a fading storm—or of a pack of wolves whose prey has
eluded it, mixed with the occasional hoarse cry of a hunting bird that has
missed its strike. But there was some other noise with it, a noise Beauty could
not identify, a noise as relentless as wind and rain, as if feet as numerous as
raindrops were marching towards them. They looked round them, and near the door to the glasshouse
there was a shape, like that of a bent old woman, except that the pale light
shone through her, and she glowed like the horn of a unicorn, and Beauty heard
the Beast give a little grunt of surprise and delight, and she thought there
was a name in it, but she could not hear what it was. Her attention was caught
then by other lucent shapes, standing on the square path that led round the
inside of the glasshouse, and these were the unicorns themselves, waiting,
watching, poised and alert, lustrous as pearls. And standing near the rear of the glasshouse were two other
Beasts, looking much like her own Beast, huge and shaggy and kind, but as much
bigger than her Beast as her Beast was bigger than she. Nor were they
terrifying to look upon, but were shaped into a wholeness, a unity, a clarity,
and a tranquillity that no mortal creature may possess, and Beauty felt a
strange, shivery joy at being so fortunate as to see them with her own eyes.
Behind them, instead of the fourth wall of the glasshouse, there seemed to
stand the facade of some immense dark fortress. The sound of the approaching footsteps grew nearer, and
Beauty thought calmly: I cannot bear any more. I cannot. She turned her face
against the Beast’s body and closed her eyes, but she saw them anyway, the
massed sorcerous army, the winged bulls, the manticores and chimeras, the
sphinxes, not the small semidomesticated ones of her childhood, but the great
wild ones, big as the bulls they marched alongside, who, like the bronze winged
harpies that raged overhead, had wicked human faces, and hair of hissing asps:
the stony-eyed basilisks, the loathly worms, the cerberi, the wyverns, like
vast, deadly versions of her mother’s pet dragon; and many more creatures she
could not, or would not, name. She had pressed herself against the Beast, and the little embroidered
heart made a tiny hole just beneath her breast— bone, guarded by her lower ribs. With every breath it seemed
to dig itself a little deeper. And she lay against her beloved’s heart and ..,
began to feel angry. We have come through so much, she thought. Is it for
nothing after all? I want to attend my sisters’ wedding, 1 want to attend my
wedding. If all the hordes of sorcery are here gathered to grind us to
nothing, is this the way we shall be denied the small homely pleasures we
desire, that we have earned? And she remembered a dry sorcerous little voice
once saying to her: I give you a small serenity.... She shook herself free of the Beast so quickly he had no
time to react, shook herself free so quickly indeed that her one hand did not
unclench itself in time and carried a little of the remains of the Beast’s
black shirt away with her, and ran to the door of the glasshouse. She ran at
such speed that she had the sensation of running through the shining
figure of the old woman. She threw the door open and stood there, facing not
the palace but all the worst-omened creatures of the inner and outer worlds,
and she clutched the rag of shirt in one hand and her embroidered heart in the
other and shook her fists over her head and shouted: “Go away! Can you not see
you have already lost? There is nothing for you here!” There was another clap of thunder as if all the thunder in
the ether between the worlds had clapped itself at once, and Beauty had a
dazzling glimpse of what had been the sorcerous army rolling about on the
ground in confusion and sorting itself out into baffled hedgehogs and
bewildered toads, confused spiders, flustered crickets, bumbling bees,
disoriented ladybirds and muddled grass-snakes, and hosts of other ordinary and
innocent creatures. And the air all round her was full of birdsong. She heard the laughter of the old woman behind her and heard
her voice for the last time, saying, “To think you told poor Mrs Greendown that
there was no magic in your family! Bless you, my dear, and your Beast, and
bless Rose Cottage, for it is yours now. I am happy with my moon- and starlight
friends, and my cows, and my wild wood, and besides, I am too old now to make
any more changes....” And then Beauty lost consciousness and knew no more. She woke to gentle hands putting cool cloths on her
forehead, and she opened her eyes and smiled. It was Jeweltongue who bent over
her and stroked her forehead, but there was someone else sitting at her side
and holding one of her hands, with Teacosy in his lap, looking there as small
as a day-old puppy. “Your exits and entrances are so dramatic,” said Jeweltongue
composedly. “This time you brought with you the most exquisite small
glasshouse—it looks as if it were entirely made of spun sugar—although it has
rather disrupted the centre of the garden, where it has chosen to root itself.
But it will make the most enchanting—if I dare use that term?—wedding pavilion,
next week,” Then she looked at the person who sat at Beauty’s side and
said, “I shall have my work cut out for me, finishing your wedding-suit in
time. I do not think I have a tape that will reach round you. Fortunately I’ve
almost finished with Beauty’s dress; we have rather been expecting you, if you
want to know. Call me if you need help keeping her lying down. I am sure she
should not get up today, but as you may have noticed, she is a bit impetuous
and willful. And I suspect you of being overindulgent.” And she left
them. They were upstairs in Rose Cottage, and he sat next to her
on the floor by the wide lumpy mattress. By her feet lay Fourpaws, her eyes
half lidded and a half-grown black kitten playing with her tail. “The first
thing I will do is build you a bed frame,” he said. “It is one of the drawbacks
of living too deep-sunk in magic, that the homely tasks are all taken away from
you.” “Dishwashing,” said Beauty. “I should be glad of never doing
the washing-up again.” “Then I shall do it,” he replied. “But my second task will
be to restuff that mattress.” “No,” said Beauty. “The first thing you will do is marry me,
and the second thing you will do is come with me to Longchance, where we shall
scour the town for painting things, for you shall not waste any more of your
time on roofs, and if Longchance does not have what we want, we will go
directly to Appleborough, and if Appleborough does not have what we want, then
we will mount an expedition and go on a quest, and perhaps we will find the
Queen of the Heavenly Mountain too. Everything else can wait a little.” She sat
up gingerly. “How did we come here?” “I carried you the last way, but it was not far. When my
head stopped spinning on my shoulders, and my eyes cleared of the stars that
whirled round and round in them, I found us at the beginning of a little track
leading through the woods from the main way, and I thought we must be there for
a reason. So I picked you up and carried you here, and I understand there is to
be a wedding here in a few days and that there are more people about than there
generally are in preparation for it. “But everyone rushed up to me as if we were what they were
waiting for—your sisters call me Mr Beast—and welcomed me, even your father.
Then I carried you up here—after I have finished with the bed frame and the mattress,
I will build a set of proper stairs—to be out of the bustle below. Not, you know,
that I am entirely clear about where here is, but I am sure you will tell me in
time.” “This is Rose Cottage, of course,” said Beauty, “where my
family and I moved from the city, when our father’s business failed and we were
too poor to do anything else. Here Jeweltongue learnt to sew dresses that made
people happy to wear them, and Lionheart learnt the language of horses and how
to speak to them instead of merely to rule them, and / learnt to grow roses.
And one sister and our father are going to live with her husband, the baker,
because they do not love the country so much as they love the town, and my
other sister is going to live with her husband, the horse-coper, who is also
the squire’s second son, and I hope we are going to live here with lots and lots
and lots of roses.” Beauty fell silent, looking at him, and her mind and heart
were so full of love for him she could at first think of noth ing else. But then she remembered the first time she had
looked into his face and remembered how she had needed the salamander’s gift to
do so, and she wondered where that terribleness had gone. Perhaps it had
dropped away when he had stood once again in his glasshouse and seen his roses
blooming; perhaps it had been torn from him with his fine, sombre clothing—he
was presently awkwardly wrapped in a spare quilt, which made a kind of half
stole over his shoulders, and it was radiant with pinks and crimsons and
purples and sunset colours, for Jeweltongue had made it from bits left over
from the Trueword women’s frocks, and the bright colours woke unexpected ruddy
highlights in the Beast’s dark hair. Perhaps, said a tiny, almost inaudible
voice in the very back of Beauty’s mind, perhaps it left forever when you told
him you loved him and wished to marry him. But then she remembered something else she had done, and her
heart smote her. “I—I had to choose for both of us—where I found you, in the
bonfire glade. I—I tried to make the best choice I could. Did I—can you—are you
unhappy with it?” Her beloved shook his head. “1 am content past my ability to
describe. But...” And he hesitated. “But what?” said Beauty, fearing the answer. “But... the husband you would have had, had you made the
other choice, would have been handsome—as handsome as you are beautiful, I do
not know if—’’ But Beauty was laughing and would not hear what he might
have said. She put her hands over his mouth and, when he had stopped trying to
speak through them, took them away only to kiss him. “I would not change a—a
hair on your head, except possibly to plait a few of them together, so as not
wholly to obscure the collar and front of the wedding-suit Jeweltongue designs.
But I—I think I will choose to believe that you would miss being able to see in
the dark, and to be careless of the weather, and to walk as silently as
sunlight. Because I love my Beast, and I would miss him very much if he went
away from me and left me with some handsome stranger.” “Then everything is exactly as it should be,” said the
Beast. Author’s NoteMy first novel was called Beauty: A Retelling of the
Story of Beauty and the Beast. It was published almost twenty years ago. Beauty and the Beast has been my favourite fairy-tale since
I was a little girl, but I wrote Beauty almost by accident, because the
story 1 was trying to write was too difficult for me. Beauty was just a
sort of writing exercise—at first. I very nearly didn’t have the nerve to send
it to a publisher when I was done. Everyone knows the fairy-tale, 1 thought.
Everyone knows how it ends; no one—certainly no publisher—will care. But a publisher did take it, and a lot of people have told
me they like it. And that was that. Of course f wasn’t going to tell Beauty and
the Beast again, even if it was my favourite fairy-tale. Even if it has been
retold hundreds of times by different storytellers, in different cultures and
different centuries. Even though I knew it had resonances as deep as human
nature, as the best fairy—and folk-tales do, including a lot that I couldn’t
reach, though I could feel they were there. Five years ago I moved to England to marry the writer Peter
Dickinson. I was happy in Maine, where I had been living, with my typewriter,
one whippet, and several thousand books, in my little lilac-covered cottage on
the coast. And then I found myself three thousand miles away, in another
country, living in an enormous, ramshackle house surrounded by flower-beds and
covered in wisteria and clematis and ancient climbing roses whose names no one
remembered. Gardening in Maine is an epic struggle, where you can have frosts
as late as June and as early as August, where a spade thrust anywhere in the
so-called soil will hit granite bedrock a few inches down and rattle your teeth
in your skull, and where roses are called annuals only half-jokingly. In
England garden-visiting is the top item on the list of tourist
attractions—before any of the cathedrals or any of the museums, before
Stonehenge or the Tower of London. I didn’t plan to become a gardener, but 1
don’t think 1 could help it. Peter says that the disease had obviously been
lying dormant in my blood, and southern England and a gardening husband have
been a most effective catalyst. It occurred to me, now and then, as I planted more rosebushes—because
while I am a passionate gardener, I am a rose fanatic—that it’s almost a pity
I’d said all I had to say about Beauty and the Beast. There was so much about
roses I’d left out. because I didn’t know any better. Last winter I sold my house in Maine. I still loved it, even
though I knew I would never live there again, and I knew it would be a
tremendous wrench to cut myself loose from that last major attachment of owning
property in the country where I was born. I was not expecting, when Peter and I
returned to Maine to close up, sign papers, and say good-bye, that everything I
have missed about life in America as an American—which I had ordered myself to
ignore while I put down roots over here—would rush out of hiding and start
hammering me flat, like some of Tolkien’s dwarves having a go at a recalcitrant
bit of gold leaf. It wasn’t just a wrench; it felt like being drawn and
quartered. We came home to southern England in a late, bleak, cold
spring, and I sat at my desk and stared into space, feeling as if I were barely
convalescent after a long illness. A friend of mine who runs an art gallery in SoHo (New York,
not London) asked me if I would consider writing him a short-story version of
Beauty and the Beast for one of his artists to illustrate. I said no, I can’t;
I’ve said all I have to say about that story. But as I sat at my typewriter—or looked over my shoulder at
the black clouds and sleet—I didn’t feel up to anything too demanding, like the
novel I was supposed to be working on. I thought, I’ll have a go at this short
story. Something might come of it. I can do a little more with roses; that’ll
be fun. Rose Daughter shot out onto the page in about six
months. I’ve never had a story burst so fully and extravagantly straight onto
the page, like Athena from the head of Zeus. I’ve long said my books “happen” to me. They lend to blast
in from nowhere, seize me by the throat, and howl, Write me! Write me now! But
they rarely stand still long enough for me to see what and who they are, before
they hurtle away again, and so I spend a lot of my time running after them,
like a thrown rider after an escaped horse, saying, Wait for me! Wait for me!,
and waving my notebook in the air. Rose Daughter happened, but it bolted
with me. Writing it was quite like riding a not-quite-runaway horse, who
is willing to listen to you, so long as you let it run. If you’re a storyteller, your own life streams through you,
onto the page, mixed up with the life the story itself brings; you cannot, in
any useful or genuine way. separate the two. The thing dial tells me when one
of the pictures in my head or phrases in my ear is a story, and not a mere
afternoon’s distraction, is its life, its strength, its vitality. If you were
picking up stones in the dark, you would know when you picked up a puppy
instead. It’s warm; it wriggles; it’s alive. But the association between
my inner (storytelling) life and my outer (everything else) life is unusually
close in this book. I don’t know why die story came to me in the first place,
but I know that what fueled the whirlwind of getting it down on paper was my
grief for my little lilac-covered cottage and for a way of life I had loved,
even if I love my new life better. 1 think every writer fears doing the same thing again—and
thus boring her readers. But what “the same thing” is may be tricky to define.
I almost didn’t write Beauty; having written it, I had absolutely no
intention of reusing that plot. I read somewhere, a long time ago, a French
writer, I think, saying that each writer has only one story to tell; it’s
whether or not they find interesting ways to retell it that is important. The
idea has stuck with me because I suspect it’s true. Maybe I shouldn’t be
surprised that my favourite fairytale came back to me, dressed in a new story,
after twenty more years in the back of my mind and the bottom of my heart—and
the odd major life crisis to break it loose and urge it into my consciousness. Maybe it’ll come to me again in another twenty years. —Hampshire. England October 1996 |
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