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"better,"

"rational" selves.

What happens to these parts we try to push away? Jungian psychologists
call that which we repress the "shadow." They maintain that we tend to
"project" our shadows from our insides out. We seem to need a
relationship with the whole. When we deny the whole of ourselves or
the world, we find other ways to relate to those pushed-away parts. If
we are Christians, we may believe also in a Devil, because God the Good
Father is only half of the whole. We may find our own disowned selves
in women, people of color, children, lesbians, gays, and the natural
world itself. We have been trained that what is bad must be disowned;
what is disowned then starts looking bad. What is bad in ourselves and
others must be dominated and controlled: all those "others" that
represent "badness" get a big dose of our efforts to control them.

In Goddess spirituality, we heal the split by committing ourselves to
wholeness. We do this by worshiping a Goddess who is both the light
and the dark. In order to heal ourselves, our Goddess, our Earth, we
must resacralize the dark.

At a Twelve-Step meeting after the October 1989 California earthquake,
I listened to a woman struggle with a conversation she had heard
between a mother and a small boy. The earthquake and the deaths had
been God's will, the mother had explained.

"My God doesn't do things like that," said the woman with much
emotion.

"My God is loving and kind. How can I trust a God who would do
something like that?" I could understand that need to believe in the
benevolence of the Power greater than ourselves. But I realized that
my Goddess does do things like that. She is the earthquake: She is
death; She is sorrow and fear; She is wonder and hope.

How can I be comforted by such an inclusive, even amorphous Greater
Power? How can I live with a power that is both Creator and Destroyer;
strength and weakness; abundance and famine; terror and comfort?

All great insights are paradoxical. The Goddess as both light and dark
is a paradox. If She is dark, how can She be light? If She is light,
how can She be dark? That She is both is the mysterious truth. I am
comforted by this paradox because it matches my experience of myself
and the world. The concept of the Goddess as All in All calls the
mystery of life and death by a name I cannot fathom but one that I can
know. Even as I tell Her stories, She defies my dissections and
definitions. In so doing She touches the awe and wonder that lets me
know I am in contact with Her.