"The Collapsium" - читать интересную книгу автора (Mccarthy Wil)among tolerant adults. And at University he'd begun to encounter people who felt
the same way he did about such things, enough people to persuade him that his laissez-faire attitude toward social interaction was simply a minority view, rather than a mental defect per se, a result of his having been orphaned or some repartitioning of his brain to make room for gardening or mathematics. So he'd spent several years of study in a sort of private resistance movement, asserting himself, presenting himself in precisely the forthright manner that everyone claimed to respect and admire. It was the worst time of his life, bar none; this phantom "decorum" was no trifling matter, but actually some kind of genetically coded pecking order thing. Even he didn't like tactless boors, though for a while they'd become his only company. So he'd decided to approach these foolishly subtle but socially compulsory responses as a kind of language, and with less effort than he would later spend learning Bad Tongan, had gone about memorizing their basic vocabulary and grammar. The effort had proved, at best, a partial success, but it did give him some foundation to work from. And through his father's alcohol recipes, he'd found both courage and a kind of unselfconscious ease that really helped, especially if other people were drinking as well. What happy drunks they'd made! Being good at darts and shuffleboard had also proven useful. He'd still been prone to fits of distraction, but that was at least partially a consequence of his having to impress the scholarship committee or starve. This was before all the money had started. And the fame, yes. Tamra's court had sharpened those social skills still further, in a careless, sink-or-swim kind of way. But by then, settling into life at Nuku'alofa, he'd found a kind of prison and "politician," while the media adopted him as a sort of Romeo Einstein. Increasingly, people seemed to "know" a de Towaji whom Bruno himself had never met. Even at courtЧor perhaps especially thereЧno one seemed prepared to advise him, to take him under a friendly wing, to understand his life or his problems at all. Was he permitted to have problems? Even Tamra, wrestling incomprehensible demons of her own, had thrown her hands up at his grousing. That was when he'd begun to daydreamЧand eventually obsessЧabout the end of time, and the arc de fin that would someday show it to him. And of course living alone meant not having to think about these things at all, getting lazy about them, forming a bond with the house software that gradually let the language devolve to shorthand codes and even, sorry to say, preverbal grunting and pointing. At least he wasn't in his underwear. So with a twinge of guilt and no decorum whatsoever, he simply strode to the edge of the platform and looked down, pressing first his hands and then his forehead against the slick, clear surface of the dome, straining for a view of the sun. The best he could manage was an edge of the corona, the vast, diffuse, superhot solar atmosphere. As in an eclipse, magnetic field lines stood out clearly; looping threads of bright and dim against the blue-white glow, but much nearer than any eclipse he'd ever seen. Beneath this platform, the corona flared huge, as wide as ten full moons, as structured and detailed as a wreath of burning, phosphorescent ivy. "Quite a view," he said. "We're close in. Six months until this ring falls in? |
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