"A. E. Merritt - Dwellers In The Mirage - v1.0" - читать интересную книгу автора (Merritt A. E)A chuckle from the darkness; thereafter silence.
I leaned against the tree trunk. The sounds, or rather the evil memory they had evoked, had shaken me more than I was willing to admit, even to myself. The thing I had carried for two years in the buckskin bag at the end of the chain around my neck had seemed to stir; turn cold. I wondered how much Jim had divined of what I had tried to cover. . . . Why had he put out the fire ? Because he had known I was afraid ? To force me to face my fear. and conquer it ? ... Or had it been the Indian instinct to seek cover in darkness ? . . . By his own admission, chant and drum-roll had played on his nerves as they had on mine. . . Afraid ! Of course it had been fear that had wet the palms of my hands, and had tightened my throat so my heart had beaten in my ears like drums. Like drums . . . yes! But . . . not like those drums whose beat had been borne to us by the north wind. They had been like the and children, running ever more rapidly up the side of a hollow world to dive swiftly into the void . . . dissolving into the nothingness . . . fading as they fell . . dissolving . . . eaten up by the nothingness .... Like that accursed drum-roll I had heard in the secret temple of the Gobi oasis two years ago ! Neither then nor now had it been fear alone. Fear it was, in truth, but fear shot through with defiance . . . defiance of life against its negation . . . up-surging, roaring, vital rage . . . frantic revolt of the drowning against the strangling water, rage of the candle-flame against the hovering extinguisher. . . . Was it as hopeless as that ? If what I suspected to be true was true, to think so was to be beaten at the beginning ! But there was Jim ! How to keep him out of it ? In my heart, I had never laughed at those subconscious perceptions, whatever they were. that he called the voices of his ancestors. When he had spoken of Usunhi'yi, the Darkening-land, a chill had crept down |
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