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He'd backed out of the LaPortes' driveway without a second glance, wouldn't have noticed if anyone had been watching from one of the windows, behind the part-drawn blinds. Marianne was fussing with the seat belt, at the same time petting Silky's persistent head as he poked against her from his awkward position in the backseat, forbidden to climb into the front as he dearly wanted, but she hadn't let him lick her face-"No, Silky! Sit." Silky was Mike's dog he was always neglecting now.

Afterward Mom would say, I thought you and Marianne were so close. Thought you shared things you wouldn't share with Dad or me.

Patrick hadn't even thought to inquire why Marianne needed a ride home, in fact. Why Austin Weidman-her "date"-hadn't picked her up, driven her. Wasn't that a "date's" responsibility? Marianne often stayed overnight in town with one or another girlfriend and nearly always she was driven home, if not by a "date" then by someone else. Marianne Mulvaney was so well liked, so popular, she rarely lacked for people eager to do her favors.

Nor did Patrick inquire after Austin Weidman. It was absurd, that Marianne had gone to the prom with Austin. A dentist's son, fairly well-to-do family, very Christian, bookish. Marianne had agreed to go with him only after consulting her conscience, and no doubt askingJesus' advice, for though she didn't "like" Austin in the way of a seventeen-year-old girl's "liking" a boy, she did "respect" him; and he'd asked her weeks ago, or months-the poor jerk had actually written her a letter! (Which she'd showed only to Corinne, not to the derisive male Mulvaneys.) Crafty-desperate Austin had dared put in his bid to Marianne Mulvaney, a junior, and hardly a girl who'd encouraged him, well in advance of other more likely dates." Marianne was so tenderhearted, so fearful of hurting anyone's feelings, of course she'd said yes.

Last year she'd done the same thing, almost. Jimmie Holleran in his wheelchair. Jimminy_the-Cricket Holleran the kids cruelly called him behind his back, a boy in Marianne's class long stricken with cystic fibrosis, in fact vice-president of the class. He and Marianne were friends from Christian Youth and he, too, had asked her to a dance months before. Though even Mom had wondered about that-"Oh, Button, won't it seem like, well-charity?" Marianne had said, hurt, "I like Jimmie. I want to go to the dance with him."

Impossible to argue with such goodness.

"Button" Mulvaney was so sweet, so sincere, so pretty, so- what, exactly?-glimmering-luminous-as if her soul shone radiant in her face-you could smile at her, even laugh at her, but you couldn't not love her.

As a brother, that is.

Patrick disdained high school sports, most clubs and activities and competitions of popularity in whatever guise, but he could hardly ignore the presence of "Button" Mulvaney at Mt. Ephraim High. (Even as, grinding his teeth, he could hardly ignore the fallout of his similarly popular older brother Mike-"Mule"---"Number Four"-who'd graduated in 1972.)

Not that he was jealous. Not Pinch.

In fact his sister's popularity this past year at Mt. Ephraim High was an embarrassment to him. He squirmed having to watch her with the other varsity cheerleaders at assemblies before games-the eight girls in their maroon wool jumpers that fitted their slender bodies snugly, their small perfectly shaped breasts, flat bellies, hips and thighs and remarkable flashing legs. They were agile as dancers, double-jointed as gymnasts. They were all very, very good-looking. They wore dazzling-white cotton blouses and dazzling-white wool socks and their smiles were identically dazzling-white--such joyous smiles! And all in the service of the school football team, basketball team, swim team. Boys. Boys whom Patrick privately scorned. Grimly Patrick stared into a corner of the auditorium as into a recess of his own labyrinthine mind, as about him hundreds of idiots yelled, clapped, whistled, stamped their feet like a single great beast.

TWO! FOUR! SIX! EIGHT!

WHO DO WE AP - PRE - Cl-ATE?

MT. EPHRAIM RAMS!!!

Too silly, too contemptible for words.

But try explaining that to Michael Sr. and Corinne, the proud parents of "Button" Mulvaney. As they'd been for four glorious "ears the proud parents of "Mule" Mulvaney.

Patrick had never told his parents how he dreaded one day discovering Marianne's name in a school lavatory. Whenever he saw obscene or suggestive words, nasty drawings, above all the names or initials of girls he believed he knew, Patrick rubbed them off in disgust if no one was around, sometimes inked them over with a felttip pen. How he despised his male classmates' filthy minds! their juvenile humor! Even the nice guys, the halfway intelligent guys could be astonishingly crude in exclusively male company. Why, Patrick didn't know. Every other word "shit"-"flick"-"bugger"- "asshole"-"cocksucker." Patrick himself was too pure to tolerate the breaking of taboos not wholly intellectual.

Another thing Patrick had never told his parents: how Marianne, for all her popularity, was considered one of the "good, Christian" girls. Virgins of course. But virgins in their heads, too. There was something mildly comical about them-their very piety, decency. A tale was told of how Marianne had asked one of the science teachers why God had made parasites. In the cafeteria, amid the bustle of laughter, raised voices, high-decibel jocularity, Marianne was one of those Christians who bowed their heads before picking up their forks, murmuring prayers of gratitude. Most of these conspicuous believers were girls, a few were boys. Jimminy- the-Cricket Holleran was one. All were unperturbed by others' bemused glances. Or wholly unaware of them.

In conversation, exactly like her mother, Marianne might speak so familiarly ofJesus you'd swear He was in the next room.

The previous fall, one of the popular football players was injured at a game, hospitalized with a concussion, and Marianne Mulvaney had been one of the leaders of a fervent all-night prayer vigil on the field. The injured boy had been admitted to intensive care at Mt. Ephraim General but by the time the prayer vigil ended next morning at 8 AM., doctors declared him "Out of immediate danger."

So you could smile at Marianne Mulvaney and the "good, Christian" girls of Mt. Ephraim. You could even laugh at them. But they never seemed to notice; or, if they did, to take offense.

Why didn't you tell me? Anything.

How could you let me drive you home that day, not knowing what you were feeling. 14/hat you were enduring.

* * *

By 5 P.M. the sky was streaked in dusk. Plum-colored crevices in patches of cloud. Blowing, flying high overhead. Patrick tried not to be spooked by the sight of snow-covered vehicles on the roadside, abandoned days before during a blizzard. The Haggartsville Road was fair driving but High Point was basically a single crudely plowed lane. He'd gotten out, so he supposed he could get back. And school again in the morning. That damned school bus he was bored by the sight of.