"Kit Reed - What Wolves Know" - читать интересную книгу автора (Reed Kit)

understand.тАЭ

There is a long silence while she thinks and Happy thinks.

Just when heтАЩs beginning to hope sheтАЩs run out of words forever, she
says in a voice so light that it floats far over his head, тАЬThen you got lost.
And everything changed. He got himself a nice new wife and moved to
Hollywood. After everything I did to make him happy. The others grew up
and moved away. Until you came, I didnтАЩt have anything.тАЭ
 Happy doesnтАЩt expect to speak, but he does. The words that have
been stacked in his head for years pop out like quarters out of a coin return.

тАЬYou didnтАЩt look for me, did you.тАЭ It is not a question.

She sobs. тАЬYou donтАЩt know what itтАЩs like.тАЭ

He does.

After a while she goes away.

Happy slinks to the door and locks it even before he hears her
stumbling downstairs, sobbing.

****

тАЬCan I come in?тАЭ Her voice is sweet. Just the way he remembers her.
Even through the door, Susan is soft and he will always remember that
body. He almost forgets himself and answers. Happy is stopped by the fact
that except for the slip with the mother, he hasnтАЩt spoken. There are too
many words backed up in him. He canтАЩt get them in order, much less let
them out. He just doesnтАЩt have the equipment.

Instead he hitches across the floor the way he did when he was two
and sits with his back against the door, putting his head to the wood.
Feeling her. He feels her outline pressed to the other side of the panel, her
heart beating. Susan, breathing.

тАЬDonтАЩt worry,тАЭ she says, тАЬI understand. I just want you to come out so
we can be together and be happy.тАЭ

His fingers creep along the door.

тАЬHappy,тАЭ she says, and he will not know whether she is talking about
their future or using his name, which is his secret. тАЬYou know, youтАЩre really a
very lovely man. ItтАЩs a shame for you to be shut up in there when you could
come out and enjoy the world!тАЭ

Swaying slightly in time with that musical voice, he toys with the lock.
He canтАЩt, he could, he wants to open that door and do something about the
way he is feeling. With Susan, he wonтАЩt have to wonder how the parts fit