"Mike Resnick - Bierbermann's Soul" - читать интересную книгу автора (Resnick Mike)
that his soul was missing.
"This can't be," he muttered to himself. "I know I had it
with me when I went to bed last night."
He thoroughly searched his bedroom and his closet and his
office, and even checked the kitchen (just in case he had left it
there when he got up around midnight for a peanut butter
sandwich), but it was nowhere to be found.
He questioned Mrs. Beibermann about it, but she was certain
it had come back from the cleaner's the previous day.
"I'm sure it will turn up, wherever it is," she said
cheerfully.
"But I need it _now_," he protested. "I am a literary artist,
and what good is an artist without a soul?"
"I've always thought that some of the most successful writers
we know had no souls," offered Mrs. Beibermann, thinking of a
number of her husband's colleagues.
"Well, _I_ need it," he said adamantly. "I mean, it's all
very well to remove it when one is taking a shower or working in
the garden, but I absolutely must have it before I can sit down to
work."
So he continued searching for it. He went up to the attic and
looked for it amid a lifetime's accumulation of memorabilia. He
took his flashlight down to the basement and hunted through a
thicket of broken chairs and sofas which he planned someday to
give to the Salvation Army. Then, just to be on the safe side, he
called the restaurant where he and his agent had eaten the
previous evening to see if he had inadvertantly left it there. But
by midday he was forced to admit that it was indeed lost, or at
least very thoroughly misplaced.
"I can't wait any longer," he told his wife. "It's not as if
I am a best-selling author. I have deadlines to meet and bills to
pay. I must sit down to work."
"Shall I place a notice in the classified section of the
paper?" she asked. "We could offer a reward."
"Yes," he said. "And report it to the police as well. They
must stumble across lost and mislaid souls all the time." He
walked to his office door, turned to his wife, and sighed
dramatically. "In the meantime, I suppose I'll have to try to make
do without it."
So he closed the office door, sat down, and began to work.
Ideas (though not entirely his own) flowed freely, concepts
(slightly tarnished but still workable) easily manifested
themselves, characters (neatly labeled and ready to perform)
popped up as he needed them. In fact, the ease with which he
achieved his day's quota of neatly-typed pages surprised him,
although he had the distinct feeling that there was something
_missing_, some element that could only be supplied by his
misplaced soul.
Still, he decided, staring at what he had thus far
accomplished, a lifetime's mastery of technique could hide a lot
of faults. So he did a little of this, and a little of that, made
a correction here, inserted some literary pyrotechnics there. He
imbued it with a certain fashionable eroticism to impress his
audience and a certain trendy obtuseness to bedazzle the critics,
and finally he emerged and showed the finished product to his
wife.
"I don't like it," said Mrs. Beibermann.
"I thought it was rather good," said Beibermann petulantly.
"It _is_ rather good," she agreed. "But you never settled for
rather good before."
Beibermann shrugged. "It's got a lot of style to it," he
said. "Maybe no one else will see what's missing."
And indeed, no one else _did_ see what was missing. His agent
loved it, his public loved it, and most of all, his editor loved
it. He deposited an enormous check in his bank account and went
back to work.
"But what about your soul?" asked his wife.
"Oh, make sure the police are still looking for it, by all
means," replied Beibermann. "But in the meantime, we must eat --
and technique is not, after all, to be despised."
His next three projects brought higher advances and still
more critical acclaim. By now he had also created a public
_persona_ -- articulate, worldly, with just a hint of the sadness
of one who had suffered too much for his Art -- and while he still
missed his soul, he had to admit that his new situation in the
world was not at all unpleasant.
"We have enough money now," announced his wife one day. "Why
don't we take a vacation? Surely your soul will be found by then
understand they can make one up in three days in Hong Kong."
"Don't be silly," he said irritably. "My work is more popular
than ever, I'm finally making good money, this is hardly the time
for a vacation, and weren't you a lot thinner when I married you?"
He began sporting a goatee and a hairpiece after his next
sale, and started working out in the neighborhood gymnasium, so
that he wouldn't feel awkward and embarrassed when sweet young
things accosted him for autographs at literary luncheons. He
borrowed a number of sure-fire jokes and snappy comebacks and made
the circuit of the television talk shows, and even began work on
his autobiography, changing only those facts that seemed dull or
mundane.
And then, on a cold winter's morning, a police detective
knocked at his front door.
"Yes?" said Beibermann, puffing a Turkish cigarette through a
golden holder, and eyeing him suspiciously.
The detective pulled out a worn, tattered soul and held it
up.
"This just turned up in a pawn shop in Jersey," said the
detective. "We have every reason to believe that it might be
yours."
"Let me just step into the bathroom and try it on," said
Beibermann, taking it from him.
Beibermann walked to the bathroom and locked the door behind
him. Then he carefully unfolded the soul, smoothing it out here
and there, and trying not to wince at its sorry condition. He did
not try it on, however -- it was quite dirty and shopworn, and
there was no way to know who had been wearing it. Instead he began
examining it thoroughly, looking for telltale signs -- a crease
here, a worn spot there, most of them left over from his college
days -- and came to the inescapable conclusion that he was,
indeed, holding his own soul.
For a moment his elation knew no bounds. Now, at last, he
could go back to producing works of true Art.
Then he stared at himself in the mirror. He'd have to go back
to living on a budget again, and of course there'd be no more
spare time, for he was a meticulous craftsman when he toiled in
the service of his art. Beibermann frowned. The innocent young
things would seek someone else's autograph, the television hosts
would flock to a new bestseller, and the only literary luncheons
he would attend would be for some _other_ author.
He continued staring at the New Improved Beibermann, admiring
the well-trimmed goatee, the satin ascot, the tweed smoking
jacket, the world-weary gaze from beneath half-lowered eyelids.
Then, sighing deeply, he unlocked the door and walked back to the
foyer.
"I'm sorry," he said as he handed the neatly-folded soul back
to the detective, "but this isn't mine."
"I apologize for taking up the valuable time of a world-
famous man life yourself, sir," said the detective. "I could have
sworn this was it."
Beibermann shook his head. "I'm afraid not."
"Well, we'll keep plugging away, sir."
"By all means, officer," said Beibermann. He lowered his voice
confidentially. "I trust that you'll be _very_ discreet, though; it
wouldn't do for certain critics to discover that my soul was
missing." He passed a fifty-dollar bill to the detective.
"I quite understand, sir," said the detective, grabbing the
bill and stuffing it into a pocket of his trenchcoat. "You can
depend on me."
Beibermann smiled a winning smile. "I knew I could, officer."
Then he returned to his office and went back to work.
***
He had been dead and buried for seven years before anyone
suggested that his work lacked some intangible factor. A few
revisionist critics agreed, but nobody could pinpoint what was
missing.
Mrs. Beibermann could have told them, of course -- but she
had taken an around-the-world cruise when Beibermann left her for
the second of his seven wives, met and married a banker who was
far too busy to discuss Art, and spent the rest of her life
raising orchids, avoiding writers, and redecorating her house. -- The End --
that his soul was missing.
"This can't be," he muttered to himself. "I know I had it
with me when I went to bed last night."
He thoroughly searched his bedroom and his closet and his
office, and even checked the kitchen (just in case he had left it
there when he got up around midnight for a peanut butter
sandwich), but it was nowhere to be found.
He questioned Mrs. Beibermann about it, but she was certain
it had come back from the cleaner's the previous day.
"I'm sure it will turn up, wherever it is," she said
cheerfully.
"But I need it _now_," he protested. "I am a literary artist,
and what good is an artist without a soul?"
"I've always thought that some of the most successful writers
we know had no souls," offered Mrs. Beibermann, thinking of a
number of her husband's colleagues.
"Well, _I_ need it," he said adamantly. "I mean, it's all
very well to remove it when one is taking a shower or working in
the garden, but I absolutely must have it before I can sit down to
work."
So he continued searching for it. He went up to the attic and
looked for it amid a lifetime's accumulation of memorabilia. He
took his flashlight down to the basement and hunted through a
thicket of broken chairs and sofas which he planned someday to
give to the Salvation Army. Then, just to be on the safe side, he
called the restaurant where he and his agent had eaten the
previous evening to see if he had inadvertantly left it there. But
by midday he was forced to admit that it was indeed lost, or at
least very thoroughly misplaced.
"I can't wait any longer," he told his wife. "It's not as if
I am a best-selling author. I have deadlines to meet and bills to
pay. I must sit down to work."
"Shall I place a notice in the classified section of the
paper?" she asked. "We could offer a reward."
"Yes," he said. "And report it to the police as well. They
must stumble across lost and mislaid souls all the time." He
walked to his office door, turned to his wife, and sighed
dramatically. "In the meantime, I suppose I'll have to try to make
do without it."
So he closed the office door, sat down, and began to work.
Ideas (though not entirely his own) flowed freely, concepts
(slightly tarnished but still workable) easily manifested
themselves, characters (neatly labeled and ready to perform)
popped up as he needed them. In fact, the ease with which he
achieved his day's quota of neatly-typed pages surprised him,
although he had the distinct feeling that there was something
_missing_, some element that could only be supplied by his
misplaced soul.
Still, he decided, staring at what he had thus far
accomplished, a lifetime's mastery of technique could hide a lot
of faults. So he did a little of this, and a little of that, made
a correction here, inserted some literary pyrotechnics there. He
imbued it with a certain fashionable eroticism to impress his
audience and a certain trendy obtuseness to bedazzle the critics,
and finally he emerged and showed the finished product to his
wife.
"I don't like it," said Mrs. Beibermann.
"I thought it was rather good," said Beibermann petulantly.
"It _is_ rather good," she agreed. "But you never settled for
rather good before."
Beibermann shrugged. "It's got a lot of style to it," he
said. "Maybe no one else will see what's missing."
And indeed, no one else _did_ see what was missing. His agent
loved it, his public loved it, and most of all, his editor loved
it. He deposited an enormous check in his bank account and went
back to work.
"But what about your soul?" asked his wife.
"Oh, make sure the police are still looking for it, by all
means," replied Beibermann. "But in the meantime, we must eat --
and technique is not, after all, to be despised."
His next three projects brought higher advances and still
more critical acclaim. By now he had also created a public
_persona_ -- articulate, worldly, with just a hint of the sadness
of one who had suffered too much for his Art -- and while he still
missed his soul, he had to admit that his new situation in the
world was not at all unpleasant.
"We have enough money now," announced his wife one day. "Why
don't we take a vacation? Surely your soul will be found by then
-- and even if it isn't, perhaps we can get you a new one. I
understand they can make one up in three days in Hong Kong."
"Don't be silly," he said irritably. "My work is more popular
than ever, I'm finally making good money, this is hardly the time
for a vacation, and weren't you a lot thinner when I married you?"
He began sporting a goatee and a hairpiece after his next
sale, and started working out in the neighborhood gymnasium, so
that he wouldn't feel awkward and embarrassed when sweet young
things accosted him for autographs at literary luncheons. He
borrowed a number of sure-fire jokes and snappy comebacks and made
the circuit of the television talk shows, and even began work on
his autobiography, changing only those facts that seemed dull or
mundane.
And then, on a cold winter's morning, a police detective
knocked at his front door.
"Yes?" said Beibermann, puffing a Turkish cigarette through a
golden holder, and eyeing him suspiciously.
The detective pulled out a worn, tattered soul and held it
up.
"This just turned up in a pawn shop in Jersey," said the
detective. "We have every reason to believe that it might be
yours."
"Let me just step into the bathroom and try it on," said
Beibermann, taking it from him.
Beibermann walked to the bathroom and locked the door behind
him. Then he carefully unfolded the soul, smoothing it out here
and there, and trying not to wince at its sorry condition. He did
not try it on, however -- it was quite dirty and shopworn, and
there was no way to know who had been wearing it. Instead he began
examining it thoroughly, looking for telltale signs -- a crease
here, a worn spot there, most of them left over from his college
days -- and came to the inescapable conclusion that he was,
indeed, holding his own soul.
For a moment his elation knew no bounds. Now, at last, he
could go back to producing works of true Art.
Then he stared at himself in the mirror. He'd have to go back
to living on a budget again, and of course there'd be no more
spare time, for he was a meticulous craftsman when he toiled in
the service of his art. Beibermann frowned. The innocent young
things would seek someone else's autograph, the television hosts
would flock to a new bestseller, and the only literary luncheons
he would attend would be for some _other_ author.
He continued staring at the New Improved Beibermann, admiring
the well-trimmed goatee, the satin ascot, the tweed smoking
jacket, the world-weary gaze from beneath half-lowered eyelids.
Then, sighing deeply, he unlocked the door and walked back to the
foyer.
"I'm sorry," he said as he handed the neatly-folded soul back
to the detective, "but this isn't mine."
"I apologize for taking up the valuable time of a world-
famous man life yourself, sir," said the detective. "I could have
sworn this was it."
Beibermann shook his head. "I'm afraid not."
"Well, we'll keep plugging away, sir."
"By all means, officer," said Beibermann. He lowered his voice
confidentially. "I trust that you'll be _very_ discreet, though; it
wouldn't do for certain critics to discover that my soul was
missing." He passed a fifty-dollar bill to the detective.
"I quite understand, sir," said the detective, grabbing the
bill and stuffing it into a pocket of his trenchcoat. "You can
depend on me."
Beibermann smiled a winning smile. "I knew I could, officer."
Then he returned to his office and went back to work.
***
He had been dead and buried for seven years before anyone
suggested that his work lacked some intangible factor. A few
revisionist critics agreed, but nobody could pinpoint what was
missing.
Mrs. Beibermann could have told them, of course -- but she
had taken an around-the-world cruise when Beibermann left her for
the second of his seven wives, met and married a banker who was
far too busy to discuss Art, and spent the rest of her life
raising orchids, avoiding writers, and redecorating her house. -- The End --
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