"Madeliene E Robins - Somewhere In Dreamland Tonight" - читать интересную книгу автора (Robins Madeleine E)bothering to hide her satisfaction.
Ruth panicked. She went through the day thinking, how can I go out there? For a moment she thought, maybe Pearlie will go with me. But Pearline would probably go to the christening. Even if she didn't Pearline would never allow herself to be abandoned at Dreamland while Ruth went off on her own. As she transcribed pages of manuscript on the typewriter her mind was at Coney with him. How could she get out to Coney? She even thought, perhaps Aunt Min? No, not until Hell froze over, maybe not even then. The more she thought, the more it seemed that she would really die if she couldn't get out to Dreamland on Saturday. Her thought was rattled by the pounding of the typewriter under her fingers. After a while even Saturday seemed too far off. What would he think when she didn't come? Would he forgive her? Would he smile on someone else? Ruth imagined his beautiful smile for someone else. She had to tell him she wasn't coming, that it wasn't her fault or her idea. All afternoon the feeling grew strong, so that fear fed more fear, and she couldn't stand it that she wouldn't see him tonight, tell him everything, how Leda and Jonah and Pearline and Aunt Min were trying to keep them apart. At six o'clock she left the office with the other girls, Ruth turned left instead of right. Leda, waiting for her a few steps away, called after her. "Ruthie, whererya going?" Without turning Ruth called back, "You know where I'm going." What happened that summer? The thought catches Ruth by surprise. What is happening to Peg right now, that's more important than what happened twenty years ago on a beach miles away. The answers seem intertwined to her, they stand on each other's shoulders, if she can answer the one she'll know the other. Why did I keep this dress? The answer comes: to remind me. Of what? The train wasn't full, but there were still people, even families going out. Ruth felt they were looking at her, all alone with no friend, no chaperoned. She pulled her shawl tighter around her and clutched her pocketbook in her lap. What would she say to him? At the sight of him she knew her doubts would melt away. Everything would be all right when she saw him. She twirled a strand of hair around her finger and stared out the window toward the nearing glow of Coney's lights. When she got off the train it was all familiar but different. Fewer people, fewer families. More young men lounging on the benches, eyeing her, calling out Hello, Sweetheart and Looking for Me, Girlie? Even inside the gates of Dreamland everything felt subtly wrong the music too sharp, the lights too bright, the |
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