"Bram Stoker - Dracula" - читать интересную книгу автора (Stoker Bram)

and consequently light and comfort, impossible to a position which
had to be guarded, were secured. To the west was a great valley,
and then, rising far away, great jagged mountain fastnesses,
rising peak on peak, the sheer rock studded with mountain ash and thorn,
whose roots clung in cracks and crevices and crannies of the stone.
This was evidently the portion of the castle occupied by the ladies
in bygone days, for the furniture had more an air of comfort than
any I had seen.

The windows were curtainless, and the yellow moonlight,
flooding in through the diamond panes, enabled one to see
even colours, whilst it softened the wealth of dust which lay over
all and disguised in some measure the ravages of time and moth.
My lamp seemed to be of little effect in the brilliant moonlight,
but I was glad to have it with me, for there was a dread loneliness
in the place which chilled my heart and made my nerves tremble.
Still, it was better than living alone in the rooms which I had
come to hate from the presence of the Count, and after trying
a little to school my nerves, I found a soft quietude come over me.
Here I am, sitting at a little oak table where in old times
possibly some fair lady sat to pen, with much thought and
many blushes, her ill-spelt love letter, and writing in my diary
in shorthand all that has happened since I closed it last.
It is the nineteenth century up-to-date with a vengeance.
And yet, unless my senses deceive me, the old centuries had,
and have, powers of their own which mere "modernity" cannot kill.


Later: The morning of 16 May.--God preserve my sanity, for to this I
am reduced. Safety and the assurance of safety are things of the past.
Whilst I live on here there is but one thing to hope for,
that I may not go mad, if, indeed, I be not mad already.
If I be sane, then surely it is maddening to think that of all
the foul things that lurk in this hateful place the Count is
the least dreadful to me, that to him alone I can look for safety,
even though this be only whilst I can serve his purpose. Great God!
Merciful God, let me be calm, for out of that way lies madness indeed.
I begin to get new lights on certain things which have puzzled me.
Up to now I never quite knew what Shakespeare meant when he made
Hamlet say, "My tablets! Quick, my tablets! `tis meet that I
put it down," etc., For now, feeling as though my own brain were
unhinged or as if the shock had come which must end in its undoing,
I turn to my diary for repose. The habit of entering accurately
must help to soothe me.

The Count's mysterious warning frightened me at the time. It frightens me
more not when I think of it, for in the future he has a fearful hold upon me.
I shall fear to doubt what he may say!

When I had written in my diary and had fortunately replaced