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Chapter 1

“I’ll bus’ your face, Al,” said Gurlick. “I gon’ break your back. I gon’ blow up your place, an’ you with it, an’ all your rotgut likker, who wants it? You hear me, Al?”
       Al didn’t hear him. Al was back of the bar in his saloon, three blocks away, probably still indignantly red, still twitching his long bald head at the empty doorway through which Gurlick had fled, still repeating what all his customers had just witnessed: Gurlick cringing in from the slick raw night, fawning at Al, stretching his stubble in a ragged brown grin, tilting his head, half-closing his sick-green, muddy-whited eyes. “Walkin’ in here,” Al would be reporting for the fourth time in nine minutes, “all full of good-ol’-Al this an’ hiya-buddy that, an’ you-know-me-Al, and how’s about a little, you-know; an all I says is I know you all right, Gurlick, shuck on out o’ here, I wouldn’t give you sand if I met you on the beach; an’ him spittin’ like that, right on the bar, an’ runnin’ out, an’ stickin’ his head back in an’ callin’ me a—” Sanctimoniously, Al would not sully his lips with the word. And the rye-and-ginger by the door would be nodding wisely and saying, “Man shouldn’t mention a feller’s mother, whatever,” while the long-term would be clasping his glass, warm as pablum and headless as Ann Boleyn, and intoning, “You was right, Al, dead right.”
       Gurlick, four blocks away now, glanced back over his shoulder and saw no pursuit. He slowed his scamper to a trot and then a soggy shuffle, hunching his shoulders against the blowing mist. He kept on cursing Al, and the beer, and the rye-and-ginger, announcing that he could take ’em one at a time or all together one-handed.
       He could do nothing of the kind, of course. It wasn’t in him. It would have been success of a sort, and it was too late in life for Gurlick, unassisted, to start anything as new and different as success. His very first breath had been ill-timed and poorly done, and from then on he had done nothing right. He begged badly and stole when it was absolutely safe, which was seldom, and he rolled drunks providing they were totally blacked out, alone, and concealed. He slept in warehouses, box-cars, parked trucks. He worked only in the most extreme circumstances, and had yet to last through the second week. “I’ll cut ’em,” he muttered. “Smash their face for them, I’ll...”
       He sidled into an alley and felt along the wall to a garbage can he knew about. It was a restaurant garbage can and sometimes... He lifted the lid, and as he did so saw something pale slide away and fall to the ground. It looked like a bun, and he snatched at it and missed. He stooped for it, and part of the misted wall beside him seemed to detach itself and become solid and hairy; it scrabbled past his legs. He gasped in terror and kicked out, a vicious, ratlike motion, a hysterical spasm.
       His foot connected solidly and the creature rose in the air and fell heavily at the base of the fence, in the dim wet light from the street. It was a small white dog, three-quarters starved. It yipped twice, faintly, tried to rise and could not.
       When Gurlick saw it was helpless he laughed aloud and ran to it and kicked it and stamped on it until it was dead, and with each blow his vengeance became more mighty. There went Al, and there the two barflies and one for the cops, and one for all judges and jailers, and a good one for everyone in the world who owned anything, and to top it, one for the rain. He was a pretty big man by the time he was finished.
       Out of breath, he wheezed back to the garbage can and felt around until he found the bun. It was sodden and slippery, but it was half a hamburger which some profligate had tossed into the alley, and that was all that mattered. He wiped it on his sleeve, which made no appreciable difference to sleeve or bun, and crammed the doughy, greasy mass into his mouth.
       He stepped out into the light and looked up through the mist at the square shoulders of the buildings that stood around to watch him. He was a man who had fought for, killed for what was rightfully his. “Don’t mess with me,” he growled at the city.
       A kind of intoxication flooded him. He felt the way he did at the beginning of that dream he was always having, where he would walk down a dirt path beside a lake, feeling good, feeling strong and expectant, knowing he was about to come to the pile of clothes on the bank. He wasn’t having the dream just then, he knew; he was too cold and too wet, but he squared his shoulders anyway. He began to walk, looking up. He told the world to look out. He said he was going to shake it up and dump it and stamp on its fat face. “You going to know Dan Gurlick passed this way,” he said.

“You Doctor Langley?”
       The doctor said, “Good God.”
       Dear kind man he might be to his cleaning lady, but to Gurlick he was just another clean man full of knowledges and affairs which Gurlick wouldn’t understand, plus the usual foreseeable anger, disgust and intolerance Gurlick stimulated wherever he went. In short, just another one of the bastits to hate.
       Gurlick said, “You know about brains?”
       The doctor said, “Who sent you here?”
       “You know what to do to put people’s brains together again?”
       “What? Who are you? What do you want anyway?”
       “Look,” said Gurlick, “I got to find this out, see. You know how to do it, or not?”
       “I’m afraid,” said the doctor icily, “that I can’t answer a question I don’t understand.”
       “So ya don’t know anything about brains.”
       The doctor sat tall behind a wide desk. His face was smooth and narrow, and in repose fell naturally into an expression of arrogance. No better example in all the world could have been found of the epitome of everything Gurlick hated in his fellow-man. The doctor was archetype, coda, essence; and in his presence Gurlick was so unreasonably angry as almost to forget how to cringe.
       “I didn’t say that,” said Langley. He looked at Gurlick steadily for a moment, openly selecting a course of action: Throw him out? Humor him? Or study him? He observed the glaring eyes, the trembling mouth, the posture of fear-driven aggressiveness. He said, “Let’s get something straight. I’m not a psychiatrist.” Aware that this creature didn’t know a psychiatrist from a CPA, he explained, “I mean, I don’t treat people who have problems. I’m a physiologist, specializing on the brain. I’m just interested in how brains do what they do. If the brain was a motor, you might say I am the man who writes the manual that the mechanic studies before he goes to work. That’s all I am, so before you waste your own time and mine, get that straight. If you want me to recommend somebody who can help you with whatev—”
       “You tell me,” Gurlick barked, “you just tell me that one thing and that’s all you got to do.”
       “What one thing?”
       Exasperated, adding his impatience with all his previous failures to his intense dislike of this new enemy, Gurlick growled, “I tole ya.” When this got no response, and when he understood from the doctor’s expression that it would get no response, he blew angrily from his nostrils and explained, “Once everybody in the world had just the one brain, see what I mean. Now they’s all took apart. All you got to tell me is how to stick ’em together again.”
       “You seem to be pretty sure that everybody—how’s that again?—had the same brain once.”
       Gurlick listened to something inside him. Then, “Had to be like that,” he said.
       “Why did it have to be?”
       Gurlick waved a vague hand. “All this. Buildin’s. Cars, cloe’s, tools, ’lectric, all like that. This don’t git done without the people all think with like one head.”
       “It did get done that way, though. People can work together without—thinking together. That is what you mean, isn’t it—all thinking at once, like a hive of bees?”
       “Bees, yeah.”
       “It didn’t happen that way with people, believe me. What made you think it did?”
       “Well, it did, thass all,” said Gurlick positively.
       A startled computation was made among the stars, and, given the axiom which had proved unalterably and invariably true heretofore, namely, that a species did not reach this high a level of technology without the hive-mind to organize it, there was only one way to account for the doctor’s incredible statement—providing he did not lie—and Gurlick, informed of this conclusion, did his best to phrase it. “I guess what happened was, everybody broke all apart, they on their own now, they just don’t remember no more. I don’t remember it, you don’t remember it, that one time you and me and everybody was part of one great big brain.”
       “I wouldn’t believe that,” said the doctor, “even if it were true.”
       “Sure not,” Gurlick agreed, obviously and irritatingly taking the doctor’s statement as a proof of his own. “Well... I still got to find out how to stick ’em all together again.”
       “You won’t find it out from me. I don’t know. So why don’t you just go and—”
       “You got a machine, it knows what you’re thinkin’,” said Gurlick suddenly.
       “I have a machine which does nothing of the kind. Who told you about me, anyway?”
       “You show me that machine.”
       “Certainly not. Look, this has been very interesting, but I’m busy and I can’t talk to you any more. Now be a good—”
       “You got to show it to me,” said Gurlick in a terrifying whisper; for through his fogbound mind had shot his visions (she’s in the water up to her neck, saying, Hello, Handsome, and he just grins, and she says, I’m coming out, and he says, Come on then, and slowly she starts up toward him, the water down to her collarbone, to her chest, to—) and a smoky curl of his new agony; he had to get this information, he must.
       The doctor pressed himself away from his desk a few inches in alarm. “That’s the machine over there. It won’t make the slightest sense to you. I’m not trying to hide anything from you—it’s just that you wouldn’t understand it.”
       Gurlick sidled over to the equipment the doctor had pointed to. He stood looking at it for a moment, flashing a cautious ratlike glance toward the doctor from time to time, and pulling at his mouth. “What you call this thing?”
       “An electroencephalograph. Are you satisfied?”
       “How’s it know what you’re thinkin’?”
       “It doesn’t. It picks up electrical impulses from a brain and turns them into wavy lines on a strip of paper.”
       Watching Gurlick, the doctor saw clearly that in some strange way his visitor was not thinking of the next question; he was waiting for it. He could see it arrive.
       “Open it up,” said Gurlick.
       “What?”
       “Open it. I got to look at the stuff inside it.”
       Again that frightening hiss: “I got to see it.”
       The doctor sighed in exasperation and pulled open the file drawer of his desk. He located a manual, slapped it down on the desk, leafed through it and opened it. “There’s a picture of it. It’s a wiring diagram. If it makes any sense to you it’ll tell you more than a look inside would tell you. I hope it tells you that the thing’s far too complicated for a man without train—”
       Gurlick snatched up the manual and stared at it. His eyes glazed and cleared. He put the manual down and pointed. “These here lines is wires?”
       “Yes.”
       “This here?”
       “A rectifier. It’s a tube. You know what a tube is.”
       “Like radio tubes. Electric is in these here wires?”
       “This can’t mean anyth—”
       “What’s this here?”
       “Those little lines? Ground. Here, and here, and over here the current goes to ground.”
       Gurlick placed a filthy fingertip on the transformer symbol. “This changes the electric. Right?”
       Dumbfounded, Langley nodded. Gurlick said, “Regular electric comes in here. Some other kind comes in here. What?”

Chapter 10

Just another rash of saucer-sightings, thought the few observers, and recipients of their observations, in the brief minutes left to them to think as they had always thought. Some of the military had, in these minutes, a harrowing perplexity. Anything tracked at such speeds as the radars reported, must, with small variations, appear somewhere along an extrapolated path; the higher the speed, the finer the extrapolation. The few recordings made of the flick and flash of these objects yielded flight-paths on which the objects simply did not appear. It was manifestly impossible for them to check and drop straight to their destinations at such velocities; they did, however, and before the theoreticians could finish their redefinition of “impossible,” they and all their co-workers, colleagues, acquaintances, cohabitants, heirs and assigns were relieved of the necessity to calculate. It happened so quickly, one minute a heterogenous mass of seething noncommunicants; the next, the end of Babel.

From his soundless nightmare, Henry soundlessly awoke. He slid out of bed and trotted out of his room, past his parents’ open door—they were awake, but he said nothing, and if they saw him, they said nothing either. Henry padded down the stairs and out into the warm night. He turned downtown at a dog-trot, and ran for three blocks south, one west, and two south. He may or may not have noticed that while the traffic lights still operated, they were no longer obeyed by anyone, including himself. Uncannily, cars and pedestrians set their courses and their speeds and held them, regardless of blind corners, passing and repassing each other without incident and with no perceptible added effort.
       Henry had been aware for some time of the all but subsonic hooting and of its rapid increase in volume as he ran. When he reached the big intersection, he saw the source of the sound on the same street he ran on, but past the corner where the theater stood. It was a heavy tanklike machine, surmounted by a long flexible neck on top of which four horns, like square megaphones or speakers, emitted the sound. The neck weaved back and forth, tilting the horns and changing their direction in an elaborate repetitive motion, which had the effect of adding a slow and disturbing vibrato to the sound.
       Henry dashed across the street and under the side-street marquee. He came abreast of the thing just as it was about to enter the intersection. Without breaking stride, Henry turned and dove straight into the small space between the drive-spindle of the machine’s tread and its carrier rollers. His blood spouted, and on it the spindle spun for a moment; the other track, still driving, caused the machine to swerve suddenly and bump up on the sidewalk under the marquee.
       Paul Sanders, at the very instant the child had leapt, and before the small head and hands entered the machine’s drive, leaned out and down and jammed the chisel point of his slice-bar hard through the fourth link of the chain. Plunging outward, his momentum carried the bar around the chain and, as his weight came upon it, gave the chain a prodigious twist. The eyebolt pulled out of the building wall with a screech, and the corner of the marquee sagged and then, as the weight of the chain came upon it, and Paul Sanders’s muscular body with it, the marquee let go altogether and came hammering down on the machine. In a welter of loose bricks, sheet-tin, movie-sign lettering and girders, the machine heaved mightily, its slipping treads grating and shrieking on the pavement. But it could not free itself. Its long neck and four-horned head twitched and slammed against the street for a moment, and then the deep howl faded and was gone, and the head slumped down and lay still.
       Four men ran to the wreckage, two of them pushing a dolly on which rode an oxyacetylene outfit. One man went instantly to work taking measurements with scale, micrometer and calipers. Two others had the torch going in seconds and fell to work testing for a portion of the machine which might be cut away. The fourth man, with abrasive rasps and a cold chisel, began investigating the dismantling of the thing.
       And meanwhile, in unearthly silence and with steady determination, people passed and repassed, on foot, in cars, and went about their business. No crowd collected. Why should it? Everybody knew.

The entire village population, with Mbala and Nuyu at their head and the witch doctor following, were within two hundred yards of Mbala’s yam patch when the thing come down from the sky. It was broad daylight here, so the ghostly-luminous moonlit effect was missing; but the shape of the projector as it dangled by invisible bonds from the sphere was unprecedented enough to bring a gasp of astonishment and fear from the villagers. Mbala stopped and bowed down and called his father’s name, and all the people followed suit.
       The sphere dropped rapidly to the yam patch, which, judging from the photograph taken by the selenium miner, seemed an ideal position for a projector to land, to send forth its commanding, mesmerizing waves.
       The sphere set down its burden and started up again without pause, swift as a bouncing ball. The projector began its wavering bass hooting which swept out through the echoing clefts of the great split rock, rolled down upon the villagers, and silenced their chant as if it had blotted it up.
       There was a moment—mere seconds—of frozen inaction, and then half the warriors turned as one man and plunged away through the jungle. The rest, and all the women and children, drew together, over four hundred of them, and poured swiftly up the slope toward the yam patch. No one said a word or made a sound; yet when they choked the space between two of the stone steeples, half the people ran into the clearing, skirting its edge, while half squatted where they were, blocking their avenue from side to side. The runners reached the north opening, filled it, and also squatted, wordless and waiting.
       Directly across from the first group, in the westward opening, there was movement as one, two, a dozen, a hundred heads appeared, steadily and quietly approaching. It was the Ngubwe, neighboring villagers with whom there was a tradition, now quiescent, of wife-stealing and warfare going back to the most ancient days. Mbala’s people and the Ngubwe, though aware of each other at all times, were content to respect each other’s privacy and each cultivate his own garden, and for the past thirty years or so there had been room enough for everybody.
       Now three openings to the rock-rimmed plateau were filled with squatting, patient natives. Even the babies were silent. For nearly an hour there was no sound but the penetrating, disturbing howl of the projector, no motion but its complex, hypnotic pattern of weavings and turnings. And then there was a new sound.
       Blast after shrill blast, the angry sound approached, and the waiting people rose to their feet. The women tore their clothes to get bright rags, the men filled their lungs and emptied them, and filled them again, getting ready.
       Through the open southern gateway four warriors erupted, howling and capering. Hard on their heels came a herd of furious elephants, three, four—seven—nine in all, one old bull, two young ones, four cows and two calves, distraught, angry, goaded beyond bearing. The fleeing warriors separated, two to the right, two to the left, sprinted to and disappeared in the crowds waiting there. The big bull trumpeted shrilly, wheeled, and charged to the right, only to face nearly two hundred shrieking, capering people. He swerved away, his momentum carrying him along the rock wall and to the second opening, where he met the same startling cacophony. The other elephants, all but one young bull and one of the calves, thundered along behind him, and when he drew up as if to wheel and attack the second group, he was pounded and pressed from behind by his fellows. By now quite out of his mind, he put up his trunk, turned his mighty shoulders against those who pressed him, and found himself glaring at this noisy, shining thing in the center of the clearing.
       He shrieked and made for it. It moved on its endless treads, but not swiftly enough, nor far enough, nor in enough places at once to avoid the tons of hysteria which struck it. The elephants tore off its howling head and its neck in three successive broken bits, and shouldered it over on its side and then on its back. The howling stopped with deafening suddenness when the head came off, but the tracks kept treading the air for minutes after it was on its back.

So too ended Gurlick, the isolated, alone among humankind denied membership in the fusion of humans, full of a steaming fog, aglow with his flickerings of hate and the soft shine of corruption, member of something other than humankind. For while humanity had been able to read him (and his dream) and herd him through the forest to its fulfillment, it had never been able to reach his consciousness, blocked as it was by the thoughtlines of the Medusa.
       These lines, however, were open still, and when humanity became Medusa, it flooded down to Gurlick and made him welcome. Come! it called, and whirled him up and outward, showing and sharing its joy and strength and pride, showering him with wonders of a thousand elsewheres and a hundred heres; it showed him how to laugh at the most rarefied technician’s joke and how to feel the structure of sestinae and sonnets, of bridges and Bach. It spoke to him saying We and granting him the right to regard it all and say: I. And more: he had been promised a kingship, and now he had it, for all this sentient immensity acknowledged to him its debt. Let him but make the phantom of a wish of a thought, and his desires would be fulfilled. Come! it called. Come!
       But the weight of the man o’ war was on his mind. Hide! he thought. Don’t attract attention. If he got out of line, the man o’ war would squash him like a bug. But humanity, which had become Medusa, insisted, it beat down upon him, and finally Gurlick could withstand its force no longer. He turned and faced humankind as it had become, all-transcending, all-inclusive, all-knowing, pervasive-faced humankind as he had never faced it before in his life.
       Humankind had changed.
       His first reaction was My God, it’s full of people!
       Which was strange, because he found himself at the edge of a purple cliff which overlooked a valley with a silver river in it. Not silver like the poets say, which only means the reflection of sky-white; this one was metallic silver color, fluid, fast. He was aware without surprise that he sat on the tip of his spine, which was long, black and tapering, with two enormous hind legs, kneed in the middle like broken straws and pretty nearly as slender, forming the other two points of his tripod. He was chewing on a stone, holding it to black marble lips (which opened side-wise) with four hands (having scorpion-nippers for fingers) and he found it delicious. He turned his head around (all the way, without effort) and saw Salomé Carmichael behind him, and she was beautiful beyond belief, which was odd because she looked like a twelve-foot, blue-black praying mantis. But then, so did he.
       She spoke, but it was not speech really, but a sort of semaphore of the emotions. He felt himself greeted, and made joyfully welcome (Hello, oh hello, Danny, 1 knew you’d come, you had to come) and then there was an invitation: to the place to watch that game. She moved close to him so that their bodies touched, and somehow he knew just exactly what to do to stay with her; in a blink they were somewhere else, on the top of a swaying green tree (the bark was the green part) and he had a round blunt front end like a bull-frog and four gauzy wings, and two long legs with webbed feet like a waterbird. Salomé was there too, of the same species and utterly lovely; and together they watched the game, understanding it as completely in all its suspensions and convolutions as any earthside hockey or baseball or chess fan might follow his favorite. The teams were whole hives, and they could all together, create soundwaves and focus them; at the focal point danced a blue-green crystal, held spinning in midair by the beam of sound. There were three hive-teams, not two, and if two should focus together on the crystal it would shatter musically, and that was a foul, and the third team won the point, and could have the playing field to dance in. And when the dance was over (there were points for the dance too) then another crystal would be projected high in the rosy air...
       To a swimming place, tingling, refreshing, Gurlick knowing somehow that where they swam under a blue-black rock ceiling, the temperature was over a thousand degrees centigrade, and the gleaming bony paddles and sleek speckled flanks with which he swam and on which he felt the tingling were no flesh he had ever learned of. And to a flying place where all the people, welcoming as everywhere, and some known to him as people he had met on Earth, all these people were cobweb-frail, spending their lives adrift in the thin shifts of air with the highest mist peaks of a cloud-shrouded planet as their floor...
       And Salomé gave him her story of envy and of her need to have others depend on her.
       These two were ideal antagonists, ideal weapons in the conflict between Medusa and mankind. Medusa had won the battles; mankind had won the war. And it had all begun with Gurlick...
       Somewhere in this communion between them, the whole thing was talked out. It was probably in the first couple of seconds of their first meeting, there over the silver river. If it were rendered into words it was Gurlick’s complete wounding by the discovery (in his loneliness) that what had happened by the lake was no affair of his at all, but only a strategic move in a war between a giant and a behemoth; with it, all he had ever been in his tattered life, how there was nothing within him with a whole soul to give in exchange for accidental kindness; how he was unashamed to have far, far passed the point where he could keep clean and think well and be a man... in short, the entire Gurlick, with all the reasons why, in one clear flash.
       Gurlick, numb and passive as he tossed like a chip on their ocean of wonders, had at last a wish, and had it, and had it.
       True, none of this could have come about without him. This result could not have been with anyone else in his place, so—true enough—he was owed a debt. Pay it, then.
       Pay the debt... You do not reward a catalyst by changing it, the unchanging, into something else. When a man is what Gurlick is, he is that because he has made himself so; for what his environment has done to him, blame the environment not so much as the stolid will that kept him in it. So—take away hunger and poverty (or body and soul), deprivation and discomfort and humiliation, and you take away the very core of his being—his sole claim to superiority.
       You take away his hate. You take away from him all reason to hate anyone or anything—like the wet, like the cold.
       So don’t ask him to look out among the stars, and join in the revelries of giants. Don’t thank him, don’t treat him, and above all, do not so emasculate him as to take away from him his reasons to hate: they have become his life.
       So they paid him, meticulously to the specifications he himself (though all unknowing) set up.
       And as long as he lived, there was a city-corner, drab streets and fumes, sullen pedestrians and careless, dangerous aimers of trucks and cabs; moist unbearable heat and bitter cold; and bars where Gurlick could go and put in his head, whining for a drink, and bartenders to send him out into the wet with his hatred, back to a wrecked truck in a junkyard where he might lie in the dark and dream that dream of his. “Bastits,” Gurlick would mutter in the dark, hating... happy: “Lousy bastits.”

The Cosmic Rape